import pandas as pd
import string
import matplotlib.pyplot as plt
import numpy as np
from wordcloud import WordCloud,STOPWORDS
from textblob import TextBlob
import nltk
from nltk.corpus import stopwords
from nltk.tokenize import word_tokenize
from nltk.sentiment import SentimentIntensityAnalyzer
nltk.download('vader_lexicon')
nltk.download('punkt')
from collections import Counter
[nltk_data] Downloading package vader_lexicon to [nltk_data] C:\Users\USER\AppData\Roaming\nltk_data... [nltk_data] Package vader_lexicon is already up-to-date! [nltk_data] Downloading package punkt to [nltk_data] C:\Users\USER\AppData\Roaming\nltk_data... [nltk_data] Package punkt is already up-to-date!
df=pd.read_csv("C:/Users/USER/Downloads/Data Science Projects/mental_health.csv")
df.head()
| text | label | |
|---|---|---|
| 0 | dear american teens question dutch person hear... | 0 |
| 1 | nothing look forward lifei dont many reasons k... | 1 |
| 2 | music recommendations im looking expand playli... | 0 |
| 3 | im done trying feel betterthe reason im still ... | 1 |
| 4 | worried year old girl subject domestic physic... | 1 |
df['text']=df['text'].apply(str.lower)
df["text"] = df['text'].str.replace('[^\w\s]','')
C:\Users\USER\AppData\Local\Temp\ipykernel_9292\2390235465.py:2: FutureWarning: The default value of regex will change from True to False in a future version.
df["text"] = df['text'].str.replace('[^\w\s]','')
po_nltk=0
neg_nltk=0
neu_nltk=0
filtered=[]
for i in df['text']:
# Tokenization - breaking text into words
words = word_tokenize(i.lower()) # Convert to lowercase for consistency
# Add NLTK stopwords to the existing set
stopwords = set(STOPWORDS)
filtered_words = [word for word in words if word.isalnum() and word not in stopwords]
filtered.append(filtered_words)
sia = SentimentIntensityAnalyzer()
sentiment_score = sia.polarity_scores(' '.join(filtered_words))
if sentiment_score['compound']>=0.05:
po_nltk+=1
elif sentiment_score['compound']<=0.05:
neg_nltk+=1
else:
neu_nltk+=1
print(po_nltk, neg_nltk,neu_nltk)
11527 16450 0
flat_list = ' '.join([item for sublist in filtered for item in sublist])
flat_list
'dear american teens question dutch person heard guys way easier things learn age us sooooo thth graders right guys learn math nothing look forward lifei dont many reasons keep going feel nothing keeps going next day makes want hang music recommendations im looking expand playlist usual genres alt pop minnesota hip hop steampunk various indie genres artists people cavetown aliceband bug hunter penelope scott various rhymesayers willing explore new genresartists anything generic rap type exclusively sex drugs cool rapper rap types pretty good pop popular couple years ago dunno technical genre name anyways anyone got music recommendations favorite artistssongs im done trying feel betterthe reason im still alive know mum devastated killed passes im still state im going hesitate ending life shortly im almost take meds go therapy nothing seems help enough dont want around anymore hate feeling wouldnt wish upon enemy brain feels constantly static tv wont shut overthinking think im running options dont see living past got accepted health science degree dont even know wan na try know im smart mental illness holds back think cant anything im good enough need fucking help dont know anymore ive run options worried year old girl subject domestic physicalmental housewithout going lot know girl know girl etc let give brief background known girl years lives uk live different country kept touch electronic means first girl schizophrenic host illnesses dad severe anger issues abuses physically mentally makes serve food wash dishes clean house shouts beats petty things spilling water picking toys floor threatened knife beats plates glasses punches head last time got beat around month ago one siblings gets beat tried tell mother beating showed bruises mother refuses believe even laughed probably fear confronting husband yells wife family treat well either sister mean tell father put trouble family tends isolate even remember birthday family cold often tend alienate act normal girl often feels suicidal due inflicted selfharm cut wrist starves believes way family accept make worse two incidents life must tell raped walking back home night initially tell parents sometime later police reports filed rape suffered false pregnancy girl symptoms disorder lactating breasts happened early depressed incident summer approximately family sent couple family friends wellknown treatments advertised herbal therapy accupuncture etc happened next terrible left alone husband wife went somewhere guy tortured instance made sit container filled water upto neck closed lid imagine kind stress panic cause schizophrenic patient miscellaneous details gt gets visit psychiatrist school able hide problems psychiatrist noted girl able put front really well gt five psychiatrists past gt enjoys drawingpainting learning new languages writing poems gt depressed tends victimized mentality blames problems want report abuse due trouble family face tells stopped cutting lately problem refuses tell anyone abuse even tries defend father saying fault help although seem extremely suicidal concern physically mental abuse girl subject everyday healthy environment anyone grow really wish rescued clutches belligerent controlling father dysfunctional family hey rredflag sure right place post goes im currently student intern sandia national labs working survey help improve marketing outreach efforts many schools recruit around country looking current undergradgrad stem students stem student know stem students greatly appreciate help take pass along short survey thank everyone helps take survey entered drawing chance win one three amazon gcs feel someone needs hear tonight feeling right think cant anything people keep puting listen life everyone living someone tells unable something work done say wrong someone says youl never make work hard make end one make make putting people see life nobody tell cant one tell live love look end let climb height hope someone needed hear tonight beutiful life good night sincerely austin zippy deserve liveif died right noone carei real friendsi always start conversations dry responses feel comfortable around females emotional abuse mom put left usi never find love keep getting reminded everyday failure disappointment parents compared siblingsi first suicidal thought afraid grades good enough parents probably end soon feels good ive set dateim killing friday nice finally know im gon na bye live guiltok made stupid random choice getting basically molested relative super erratic thing haunting right now random walk home randomly assaulted classmate screamed name loud pretty much annoying asshole everything torment later excluded excluded well none mattered later went bunch horrible things people already loner death wish gets everyday living guilt possibly created mass shooter hear hes basically end life ready die excercise motivated ngl cant wait shape know gon na overnight im happy right now know youd rather laid big booty body hella positive cuz got big booty even time fuck supposed mean usual hollywood stereotyped everyone movie one classic uptight white collar banker russian woman well done even facial expressions great language perfect even russian language nicole splendid job hey guys pay think nearly unbelievable film made death penalty one worlds controversial topics offends neither testament tim robbins extraordinary intelligence sensitivity traits seen acting roles well shawshank redemption jacobs ladderbr br film fact hints subtle compromise camps subtle cant put words subtle point vanishing yet one gets sense watching picture compromise possible somehow worked look deeply enough trying rd time krma special guy coming sure wear f hey guy friend coming tomorrow im excited im sure wear ive known middle school weve talking couple months honest know really care wear will want wear dress something thatd give way feminine impression dresses often want give impression makes sense im thinking wearing cargo shorts friends tell nobody likes cargo shorts though normal pants know cargo pants thing seen person want make absolutely sure good impression want look nice put much effort casual care im gon na light makeup ive got couple pics makeup im gon na bc makeup yesterday anyone wants see makeup uh guess ill link anyone makeup advice hmu think ill worry nails ill probably something pastelmakeup lookhttpsimgurcomaqaorpl one best episodes entire xfiles series creepy beyond words tension suspense episode well executed entire minutes managed almost scary entire movie episode joins ranks best episodes greats home humbug bad blood milagro best respective seasonbr br mulder scullys growing relationship put test episode really trust episode contains tiny scene leave romantic viewers smilingbr br mulder bring mittens good byehey know sure hell know goodbye probably mean anything plus bother read rules sub may may taken hard getting harder weakened much small innocent child things bad almost every day stuck middle parents fighting years id hide table parents shouted eachothe marriage children mistake maybe mistake remember one morning sitting dining room table eating breakfast hear mother become hysterical upstairs run house backyard screaming sky remember words screamed later learned oldest brother attempted redflag remember lot things childhood years trying forget many memories theyve coming back kid socially isolated stuck day friends one entire life panic inside even saying one word people know ive thinking maybe different tried talk people littlemaybe social outcast today many opportunities ive missed thrown away hurts im waste life whole life ive trapped body constantly wish someone hope die come back good person people actually care knew age definitely say im young way young stay wait things around crumbling including ive crumbling know im dust time wind take hope reading good life things bad turns around love love tried put sugar coffee back spoon happy monday everyonestay safe sunflowers one days sure leave noteso im struggling place leave note obvious family die find read especially includes instructions funeral want wasting money shit need find soon want find kill though difficult impulsive person know exactly im going definately happening soon want find die freak leave bruh wish dumb years ago ignorance bliss im aware fucked people enjoyable want die even tho feels dead yearshello everyone want tell u depression loneliness general feeling wanting end life good dont even know im idk im looking posting im ashamed problems point feel ashamed writing strangers wont see life years ago problem bad breath really mean bad cant erase even directly brushed teeth trying heal sickness long time little success many doctors free health care dont live us obviously im unemployed cant afford pay doctor stopped trying go doctors one doctor laughed sickness literally feel didnt care gave vibe sickness go home imagine struggling even talk openly doctor receiving ur nuts sick threatment im sure people dont problem hard understand hard let put u feel u stepped shit couldnt wipe offwould u comfortable walking around standing next someone talking someone obviously dont even need talk someone smell breathing thru nose result got anxiety standing someone going shop climbing mount everest achieve nothing life none want anything person smells none take serious someone want able interact people im barely holding oni night prolonged panic attack lot one sustained take loraz butbit isnt working im back lamictal hasnt kicked yet bipolar ii im depressed phase im clawing skin fantasizing bleeding punch feel dont know long everything spiraling hold together dont lose apartment job family want dead done dont know help point im warn please hear hello getting straight point searching friends know basic daily stuff hitted upon someone nickname umykittylolitahttpswwwredditcomusermykittylolita asking discord everything started outta hand stalking even hiding fact even doubt really girl digging private info even one hella weird cutting faking cut seem rly legit arm nickname used go owie sending images time trying take logic understanding approach understood much blocked em got join discord server mins banned em server order keep rest members save started inviting many active people server server started straightup talking shit dropping many screenshots private conversations possible weirdconcerning creepy repulsive yall doublecheck watchout think think lost matter point never felt want much got told im lot prettier person girl talked lot video chat idk feel good thing think ugly video calling prettier relative saw think every success life come extremely lucky high school applied one college early got senior year college depressed incapacitated managed send one grad school application somehow got accepted grad school ending still depressed actually work applying jobs replied email got sent mailing list miraculously got hired last year got laid covid even work motivation send resume anywhere old boss called offered position back somebody quit spot opened upi never done work deserve things feel actually function independent adult wait things magically fall lap keep going another year every time way rock bottom manage make back surface water keep desperately gasping air little longer honestly wish finally drown everything pure luck deserve emptynever know time gon na id admit mental ward im bad memories keep playing headover thought wish people family owned cats dogs cousins million nd amp rd cousins aunts uncles none pets nearly classmates least family member pet im one family genuinely loves animals understand cousins living situation unable pets rich cousins got friends prank call yoooooo yall got numbers boys prank call us discovered film love right mix fast moving story entertaining characters hilarious moments overloaded stupid jokes fun performances kelsey grammar harry dean stanton ron schneider rip torn buckman especially good really enjoyed watching guy played stapanickbr br find interesting used real submarine pampanito running top scenes emulated almost exactly sets set decoration really impressive digital tour pampanito online compare scenes movie excellent job filmbr br light entertaining truly enjoyable movie redflag vegas final chapteri know lame op deliver especially know right begging pull figurative trigger ive seen beautiful crosssection humanity last hours im hopeless position im end resources ive tried positive thinking reaching friends nothing helping came back guys sorry gender specific pronoun actually helped last night wrestle fact still think desperate plea attention even worse attempt guerrilla marketing struggling writer lack success intentions last night paints unfavorable light shit bothers gets right even solve problems listed previous entry im still pretty doomed heres another desperate cast sea lowliness feel struggling find reason keep going responded previous post please take personally im really hoping see efforts wasted im asking help situation tonight dire though id fault equate boy cried wolf help cant go oni wan na kill ive gone shit cant bare life anymore im always shouted main person complain fucking shit self harm cuts armwrist cant tell anyone coz one mum dad always going want stop think redflag everyday probably leave everything soon need support reason live please help im probably going body pillow printed plain white body pillow need hug something im crying sleep cant cope please helpso im bi cant cope mum hates parents going disown find im bi theyve made clear religion family classmates mocking accidently swore loudly class teacher took class grandma basically raised really young terminally ill dying friend nearly killed weeks ago kind mental illness already feel suicidal deppresed think im going another deppriesive episode cant deal another one nearly killed last time time worse know mum gaslights think tell shell say im selfish making dad worry last timethe time told suicidal said selfish fault satan decided test faith must easy target know cope please help parent gon na disown way kill save mum hassle cutting finally upgarded grandma bought new phone beneath using s yearsd eat decide giving thoughtsive wanting od im almost getting worse started wasnt bad easy distract thoughts pretty infrequent cant head things much complicated thoughts mainly bother part wants give make stop im fine lost good longtime friend addiction directly od morning let world seek help pleaseugh ugh stay sign things better things bad last three years keep getting worse tough feel im cursed im bipolar many months doctors thought schizophrenic psychotic episodes present way disorders dealing stressful project work noticed imagination getting vivid period months thinking technicolor started getting paranoid people trying set failure take advantage compounded stress family member experiencing serious liferuining illness landed hospital extended stay snapped stopped able cope reality invented imaginary world escape extremely overactive imagination filled blanks delusion matrix existed created illuminati went many lifetimes trying find way began believe psychic communicating around either helping supporting illuminati even difficult delusion tied whole life story experiences perfect web lies lived months incredible stress pretending normal trying figure got point continue working acted work meeting w superior called hr told take weeks took months work doctors identify bipolar reaction medication schizophrenia included month long hospital stay surprise doctor thought schizophrenic first bipolar bad untreated bipolar takes long treat lithium kill increase slowly blood tests course months took years go reach stability spent lot time hospital laying bed taking walks nurses checking couple times day nice time relax fraught even delusions still going hospital took two three weeks antipsychotics thoughts calm return work eventually lessstressful role per occupational therapists suggestion months occupational therapist said return normal work work never put back normal projects im assuming want client facing chance happen little less year almost weekly doctors visits told need role anymore position terminated want pursue human rights claim even though occupational therapist said saw exhausting taking time away job search ruining possibility key references thats story mental illness stealing sanity job independence course several years wonder people turn drugs life fall apart year year absolutely ptsd flashbacks daily im extremely lucky parents support become homeless bipolar people commits redflag right cant afford independent humiliating living situation certainly nontoxic great universe gave sign continue part society really need positive momentum reserves empty hope involves finding good job become independent interviews coming january wish luck please need things turn around im planning make exit slept hours want relapse stop thinking abt got raped everytbint bad parente abuse hooked drugs going kill remember always saying wait til kid now nothing changed work manage finish school slipped groups friends bad guys effect indirectly motivating skip work skip classes rather take take drugs point hanging without sort drug involved exist anymore blame still love friends moved another city currently months moved room mess know nobody city still work still drink take drugs difference take alone constantly depressed nothing changed better wish people relate situation wish best nothing changed start feeling anything better wth anybody know long citalopram eight years mgs daily feedback appreciated almost months without citalopram starting feel endive married years give take last wife affair guy try leave move keeps coming back guilt decided go back lost jobs day thanksgiving lucky enough land two interviews offer day thanksgiving least today told offer rescinded signed anything yet dealing suicidal thoughts number years aside lack funds dealing personal issues fulltime student working towards degree years left earn lost motivation still continue study complete assignments live area job market great due holidays sure made plan wrote notes tried even talk think getting closer finally ending son pretty much focusing future even moved back moms finish final year school mother keeps telling im fighter survivor anything fight years old yeah young spent life working taking care wife degree left days later came back months left mom got cancer motives guy claims keeps wanting end side relationship healthy previous job became toxic group employees guy accused affair playing favorites making work environment hostile primary person reported someone worked least month longer made comments asking still favorite prior never reciprocated smiling going day entire department turned scared making wild claims false even started looking work immediately grounds borderline sexual misconduct pursuing career cybersecurity affect future things made feel secret clearance jobs required trustworthy employee going grasp panicked another complaint came department saying texted someone outside work called beautiful got mad reciprocated office full women healthcare environment felt management everyone suddenly buying point coo told feel need go one making stay said blue investigation spoke people outside work even got legal advice much done without evidence proof slandered completely cut ties everyone felt toxic untrustworthy environment made matters worse let go cultural fit difficult understand things went wrong fault way keep telling nothing needed apologize every day passes calls anyone interviews etc makes feel given sign give little money unemployment keep roof head long wife left coming back help little family struggling idea cope much last jobs toxic maybe sign dunno pls stop please stop posts ask crush kinda weird im pretty sure reddit dating app text something sorry bad english even though english first language wan na im sure howso uh yeah really wan na im tired everything need permanent solution point dont really means anything im kinda fucked rn dont want live anymore fuck keep ya head bro girls call ugly want remember go swipe makeup remover keep ya head king done misery tired tired going bed every night tired waking every morning tired listening fucking dumb every day tired looking job tired opening people make fun pretend care tired tell reason still alive want destroy brothers life knowing brother even care real reason coward tired looking fucking reason tomorrowi know know even trywhen fell friends family showed real faces showed much care much want deal shit much want leavei wish end done take away want iti wish restart fucking game delete old saves start fucking wishi hope everyone reading someone around hard times everyone deserves hope happy tired feel cold hollow insideive never written anything everyone know getting married long term relationships cant seem even garner interest thought never anyone puts deepest darkest depression want beautiful woman feel utter failure im friend intimacy feel im always awkward embarressing want end waste life really want die ill struggle along really want stop know im typing chest perhaps whatever year old sister attempted redflag friday looking guidanceshes currently hospital still psych weve helping treatment past year im loss communicate effectively positively anymore want upset want trust im looking sort guidance go im lost love much want help much possible sure correct place post everyone seems enjoy suicidal nobody cares failing college know long post yo repeat exams im sure failed second time im sure college majority friends gt people left city countries parents live km away anyone give good reason end now friend left im tired time im fucking failing every aspect life exercise eat properly try early nights cant feel happy social life one talk future college air feel im stuck mud everyones passing apologies upset anyone current bf care guy friends trusts put precarious position feeling guilt go away cant spend rest life working spending time home away people level redflag near panic attack occasionally leads one point dont eat barely sleep days tldr feeling guilty nothing conditioned previously abusive relationship rabbit died rabbit named thumper died fell garden pot broke neck really nice bunny fearless scared anyone add insult injury happened right birthday idk posting sad okay wasnt expecting rented film see want see first one anyway film bmovie watched realized funny first minutes snowman kiiling people one man losing sanity first minutes funny one liners throws first little minions knew funny act gremlins ninteen eighty four hit gremlins made look spoofing made forget bmovie laugh rent one title rock abuse im scared deadrock bullying lately really wanted kill thing scared scared rock music genre rock person online terryfing im scared violent im scared listen im scared please redflag way nothing im scared im fucking scared meeting threatend sell valuable things life yes power im scared im really scared please help im scared sorry im scared tried meet park pictured scared even big cant strong big scares tried stab scared said try slaughter dog dont want anymore mg acetaminophen way please painless im scared im scared ok love hate im scared miss pebble might need call help help im scared rock remember im gone ill haunt scared best regards dead mom literally yells house moment im asked hang friends mom yells anyway summer house basically everyday walking around town friends everyone stoped inviting hang meanwhile mom yells asking stopped getting house little bit ago one friend called asked wanted hang go ask mom drive says give reason keeps saying idek think rn im mad upset hello anyone feeling suicidal hear people lying truth httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjkcjcbtqehttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjkcjcbtqe feel suicidal go kill tonight realwhats point husband told odive detoxing trying hard clean husband told im well well saturday got blackout drunk hit hard od hang slit wrists unlike know save family ive put hell detox got hit man almost hundred pounds weight reasons suck generally cold unfeeling person know definitely come dick robot somethin friends rarely show emotion say talk shit must major trust issues something cuz even tell best friend feel time definitely dump drama certain way much may tell bff anything really bad habit bitching one friends im sure sucks feel id rather tell randos subreddit friends fact one previous posts drag people shit reason recently took break instagram felt bad mental health way ive pretty depressed passed months first time really public friends going even though go detail anyways got bunch em concerned well brought days directed towards checking see im okay im completely wasting time im genuinely rude family already mentioned im generally robotic im significantly worse family zero respect im holding grudges probably got practicals files chem project assignments software based project submit tomorrow gon na go school tomorrow deal whatever monday tuesday thank thats much work sooo tired watching netflix stuff even bother anymorehi got suspended hours school parents told wont care killed told multiple times past weeks suicidal thoughts im saying attention ive almost killed times past year seems everytime im start thinking effect cause parents even death burden said today im sure even bother continue ive got massive list punishments im allowed see friends next months celebrate birthday next week going improve really easier end now feel attempting againthe last time first time tried september ended hospital mental hospital back home wanted life change wanted guy wanted confident wanted ability actually make friends felt going nope im still pathetic loser goes stupid school fucking hate im butt listening dad complain financial emotional stress hes fucking ask makes feel horrible hes saying shit think realize much trouble caused know much bills cost thats masters degree makes feel im unwanted stupid kid fucked everything feel suicidal dad deserve asshole kid sad part hes fucking right says care anyone point view feelings matter feel okay whats point living fuck everyone care dad cant find job someone even know pain fuck bent obviously im exaggerating pretty selfish want someone im upset nonjudgmental say everythings okay let cry fucking baby basically want mom maybe shed emotional wreck shed disappointed least compassionate know pussy guy even act one ill pushed around men actually dude fuck want theres girl school intimidates really let anyway im loser alpha female thats even thing mocks say something stupid lesbian man girl fuck say oh im transgender school make much better candidate fuck hell pissed cant cooperate people try make lives easier make everything harder feel people need one understand ive done many dumb things want deal everything ive caused want find shotgun flip everyone deal shit anymore feel waiting live friends actually selfworth want see change life now want go new school want practice assertiveness want want want want yeah im asshole anything unless feel crap know time obviously much effective way took pussy way even physically hurt maybe know fuck need help dont deserve helpim victim cant victim youre simultaneously assailant eat whole ass grape one bats eye eat whole ass lemon societ goes wild lot delayed im doneim sorry thank kind words cant keep anymore cant might play song repeat next week december frankie vali seasons fucking slap might listen times week depends feel imm kill himgave dealer xtx mdma speed ran without giving shit swear god text back ill murder ass friends turn want alone anymoreis advice give make friends person anyone education fucked corona school decided mark everyone result cant continue second year maths alevelit feels unfairbecause start yeari couldve improved much even able take second year fucking virus said feel great quarantine tough lonely asking someone great thing either keep current position something great keep asking im right ya insanitygirlfriend broke put alot feelings onto suppressed problems tell said needed time dating someone dont know expected anything different continue fucked around cast aside walk forward stumble im tired getting back people work telling kill ask help basic tasks supposed friends abandoning time need wrists blank slates carvings among know alone hollow pariah amongst living feel dead join dead pain go away life gift cant give someone know people around devastated ive seen anything years replaced temporary mourning continuation life strength strength death death hope memes happy guy last post making comment section controversial tries prove point cant memes happy starting online school weeks school teaching us differently expected starters think wed using zoom gon na log tasks thats know loookin friends magical dms open lookin peeps hang n long conversations understand life might difficult right trust life sucks tell amazing going great things anyone needs talk see queens later amazing people yo guys house right now hugged loooool cant express words happy normally romantic films love film much story really touching ending appropriate feel really care many characters film feel feel feelings romantic films always make feel detached bored one completely makes feel involved starting scene capshaw running along beach scott ending scene want rate film want give extra one point ending acting part strong kate capshaw good opportunity show talent though im impressed scott dead man campus film completely changes viewpoint towards hes irresistibly charming geraldine mcewan terrific everbr br film might good complex deep believable films deal little bit kind relationship lecole de la chair post coitum animal triste love letter still proud casts rare different light kind relationship difference makes film eminently enjoyable unambitious relying great charms small stars dreamworks time really make dream come true wish werent alonei wish outlet time dont want unload friends know problems cant talk parents either dad thinks people narcolepsy demonpossessed hates lgbt moms bit openmindedexposed cares grades im tired process everything diary tired one comforts im fucking tired im run barely energy process feelings friendships wavering im glad friends arent judgmental wouldnt want bother rants somehow im glad dont seem hate really talking much dont anything ive got energy even much less people although havent told anything mental state think sense im really well mean tell worried might failing school year seemed perceptive understanding need write diary right now said im done alone feel going diary signifier nobody nobody talk im done carrying everything im exhausted want end alloriginally posted rdepression ive suffered depression young age life threatening hereditary illness reduced life expectancy years old carry healthy lifestyle successfully receive organ transplants etc illness children unlikely able adopt foster im currently years old made sure everything wanted life bar family early possible try focus career ensure made sort difference world three years university worked dream job ended quitting due stress anxiety depression bullying work basic administration job half pay limiting amount travel one thing actually made happy hate job mostly unfulfilling mundane come home work eat dinner watch tv go bed begins applying jobs attending interviews almost every one applied past months shitty job managed bag feedback interviews almost always right experienceskillsdrive looking another candidate experiencewho worked past whole life obviously revolve around job big part influences mood daytoday basis teenager bounced relationship relationship focusing energy person allowing control happiness understand pathetic unhealthy around people always something made feel better despite enjoying around people much tolerance actually quite low find getting irritated small things quite frequently months ago met boy got well seemed really met point ready give everything prepared end life plan boy walked life gave reason carry maybe pinned much hope working seemed genuine supported days pushed look better job made feel life worth living weekend told despite liking happy come realisation prepared relationship something hes ready understand make stick around cruel guilt trip staying tried avoid best realisation hit one darkest days ive several years might hit hard forcing even darker bout depression im angry deciding want suddenly making wanted first place understand fleeting people taking relationship one day time happy wanted spend time liked made solid permanent thing made believe longhaul wanted started calling girlfriend suggested introducing parents planned trips together im angry changed mind im angry still likes happy genuinely sees ruining good thing still continues anyway im angry despite telling closest friends already feeling day telling decision yet touch make sure im okay people friends decade shaped life personality likes dislikes people know best know struggle depression anxiety know history drug abuse redflag attempts failed medications therapy sessions know reach need help im lowest keep want end life day told thinking want told needed help told much live make list told plans weekend cancel despite everything boy told friend want life friend want continue boyfriend understand force hurts know cant know live friend nothing always going want think fair either us actual friends stopped caring clearly ive cried wolf one many times maybe time cry wolf maybe time ill go ahead original plan end sad sounds reason go ahead kill soon left yesterday hope might change mind hope dwindling second family friends one talk toand people internet offer talk severe trust issues paranoia cant develop healthy relationship anyone unless comfortable someone tell really feel basically im traped mind able tell anyone sick really want die damn miserable alone loner confidence awful pitiful miserable existencei cinema alone one go withi everything life miserable alone nobody england final euro cup football nobody watch match even though monumental huge thing countrybeing alone fucking awful spend life alone remain miserable alone death life fucking awful cope miserable alone loner confidence years last postmany helped overcome last rock bottom years ago share update still alive still constantly thinking ending life sometimes manage distract never long time today ordered helium tanks feel really tried years find happiness find way accept scars find way fill endless hole inside cant everyone tells give another year tired trying want peace days helium tanks arrive finally end sadness life remember want know really tried overcome years extra thank investing energy time trying save sort primitive episode general hospital set natal ward one tough cases fastmoving programmer satisfying emotional impact mainly eric linden distraught young husband main plot palpably wreck good reason expectant wife loretta young brought ward beginning year prison sentence offing lecher probably coming ms young always anything disinvite audience sympathy little good true though sympathetic lovely look course difficult pregnancy relationships girls ward form heart movie outcome entirely happy one feels right aline macmahon one cinemas perfect actresses apt words film historian david thomson exudes warmth authority head nurse glenda farrell nonetoowilling new mom twins gets croon frankie johnny drunken lullaby frank mchugh figures another subplot gets show range warners usually permitted scaled paced modestly lindens expectantdad panic stays days sort part often played laughs hes terrified young kid trouble persuasive im bored asf someone entertain please anything want dm reading likely know feeling reading may realise important people talk getting one anymore ex took found new man took everything still admire want someone ask question god hate realised position people talk cyberbullied turn damn computer honestly fuck im gon na acid wan na try astral projection yeah got rejected jobbasically got rejected personality enthusiastic enough reserved truly realize bad introvert actually selfesteem already completely ruined year old kissless virgin utterly annihilated truly feel im worthless allowed live wish somebody shoot bullet head end misery anyone predictions disasters coming months one hope year wont bring many tragedies last lets make guesses anyway feel completely lifelessive felt way couple years now hardly feel real emotion put happy face throughout day want nothing break home cant thing keeps happy skateboarding girl loved last years life seeing totally dropped life feel left nothing im start second year college royally fucked first year im pretty much retaking classes kicked ive academic probation first semester course parents know make seem everything great ill never able hold steady job life know fact ill either able find job within skateboarding industry stuck working pathetic job rest useless existence tip iceberg terrible person go day terrible things done huge disappointment parents generally worthless im ready end ive thought rational irrational times decided whats best world around leaving make space someone succeed wont want die pill bottle demise mere feet away calling possibly night end bullshit hate bryce hall wanted make clear bye weird im ambivert already tell pretty weird scenarios ive every one either extravert part kicks introverted part talking girls im extraverted talking siblings cousins im extraverted talking older relatives uncles aunts etc im introverted includes parents talking random people ive never met probably weirdest one depending theyre looks age gender depends im extraverted introverted talking friends think two friends talk without introverted pretty decent amount friends weird weeks ago saved friend redflag suspended reddit day got unbanned checked online friends accounts one active rredflagwatch gon na commit days talked still talk day pissed got banned temporarily saved life end probably wouldnt checked account didnt happen btw know check accounts posts banned put app took break terrifying check wouldnt able message talk emo anything songs lonely palaye royal irony christopher resonate alot supposed first time listened damn son thats dobefore begin long post amp hope take time read need help think im rational person understand impact redflag affect connected feeling honestly believe peaked human hope writing community strangers may help find relief constant tightness feel chest maybe someone relate im going ive hit s life starting reflect mistakes yesterday ive moved back parents pictures last years life lost lot confidence year old female starting balding see scalp day even taking showers makes depressed run fingers hair doesnt stop falling dont want go anymore dont want sun without hat hair loss definitely wrecked confidence im trying take depression hands exercise days week see positive change body even friends havent see awhile tell end day dont want alive anymore feel dont anything offer recklessly put debt hindered ability buy home watch friends buy first homes share lives significant others put wall around havent dated sex anyone years tell im okay always going emptiness may sound weird im oddly okay wanting end life affect family friends keeping heal time cant put fast forward button im tired feeling way tired crying tired religious im tried looking sort guidance god thought god speak tightness chest lifted accepted god life im ready plan redflagimagine chronically ill slowly killing imagine active person young s sick hospitals wheelchair imagine dislocating times day thats tip iceberg pain wise youre ripped apart crushed time im done things keep happening things keep happening fears theres nothing death black leaving family friends dont want hurt anyone many illnesses diagnosed ptsd times yeah things tip breaking point ive tried staying strong want believe god dont want nothing tomorrow makeup last time tomorrow ill say goodbye parents grandpa tomorrow ill give one last good memory ill leave court documents mom take lawsuit company caused major car accident resulting airlifted ill call friends siblings ill finish hard drive send man groomed took family body still damaged mind forever ill write notes mother taking people civil criminal courts tonight ill type will saturday night ill overdose somewhere loved ones wont see associate dying im done im done theres one wish family okay black something something real want watch loved ones dont want die wanted live life living want smell flowers hike dance want go gorge wanted live bad help people cant anymore cant driven redflagi think partners negativity driving redflag started months ago depression past two weeks reaching help supportive remarks followed negative conversation example happened today asking last week help bed mornings im wanted make sure wasnt laying left work daughter school asked didnt said shouldnt mothering far worse said past weeks thats started episode said daughter living around needs im school last week trying open talk struggles jokingly said maybe kill already laughed isnt dramatic sounds said cant head offers support never gives im quickly going hill dont eat drink water sleep maybe hours night havent seen friends months grades going interest around daughter anymore feel burden someone help dont wan na feel betteri dont wan na point life im better dont feelings anymore wan na die move next life whatever suicidal depressed anxious dont know dont want want exist somebody talkim attempt right something urgent need somebody talk feel alone need help finding meme meme roblox guys one says something along lines rat fat cant find anywhere dedicate thosewho kept going posting darkest moments even though clue thats especially dedicate trying times know redditors big country music one countryish maybe bear long enough hear message one day willhttpwwwyoutubecomwatchveyyctljoo know originally film box office hit light recent hollywood releases decidedly formularidden plot less pointless savetheblondechicknomatterwhat drivel feast saints certainly sorry context deserves second opinion filmlike bookloses anchoring historical background depicts uniquely american dilemma set uniquely horrific american institution human enslavement tragic funny touching consequencesbr br worthy singling youthful robert richard cast leading figure marcel whose idealistic enthusiasm truly universal sets beginning coming age cruelly disappointed turns become true education ways southern plantation world louisiana apex antebellum period saw previews featuring dreaded blondhaired richard expected buffoon fop caricaturei pleasantly surprisedbr br ossie davis ruby dee late ben vereen pam grier victoria rowell even jasmine guy lend vivid imagery formidable skill actors backdrop tapestry placage voodoo creole aristocracy haitian revolt woven tale human passion hate love family racial perplexity society supposedly gone yet somehow still us literally escape brainthis really really really really long one ive always great mentally tried commit redflag several times mostly pills bad times blood loss simply tried coke overdose went maybe years teens stuff happened maybe warrantedvalidated felt dont mean diminish anyone elses feelings warranted head ended horrible relationship wanted help sort girlfriend brother committing redflag gave black eye time excused somehow ended married despite abusive behaviour changing lost nan complications regular surgery mum cancer space month mother law gentlest caring person ive known helped wife less abusive died miss fucking much years finally sense push divorce switched antidepressants fellhad first time seizure possibly new antidepressants brain haemorrhage lost hearing playing musicbandplaying shitty gritty clubs etc everything made lose sense smelltaste loved food cooking brain isnt aside music thing made feel useful writing joking cant spell read well find words easily stuck part way joke makes people laugh scramble wrong words thats funny head injury ive developed epilepsy seizures landed hospital dizzy nauseous cant leave bed sometimes even stairs frequent night terrors ive without headache three nearly four years ago head injury three years headache headache bad makes want smash face wall genuinely mean literally theres nothing pain despite every sensible pain treatment cant take pain supposed stop childhood home divorce got married early s previously mentioned older woman supposed stop till found another place haemorrhage im stuck childhood bedroom incapable anything able contribute anything cant leave cant sleep cant taste cant smell cant hear well struggle understand words conversation alwayshaveanexcruciatingheadache night terrors make sleep rest awful cant help fall asleep part way work job im blagging takes long understand im readinghearing wake desk feeling fucking terrified push day im lucky enough working home dont feel genuinely wish seizure take way noone feel responsible take cocktail epilepsypain meds four times day every time think miss one skip day time stop breathing indefinitely instead paramedics round inject put mask dad said reason brother got sectioned psychotic depression seizure kept night depressingly paragraphs took long write ive look spelling spelling literally taken hours write doesnt even feel real dont even feel real im leaning tablets dont want leeching people shouldnt accommodate someone barely formulate sentence real time im completely lost mentally physically person cant mentally physically function pain specialist told xmany years pain isnt going im stuck every sense word youve got way far youre fucking trouper lol know everyones struggling know many people much much much grapple make feel proud suicidal start know exactly lets discuss present situation lost job staying lonely friends family busy lives cant disturb talk started nonsense things harm physically yesterday evening even took medicines instead taking two dont worry alright without side effects feel good whenever increasing think low self esteem understand future consequencesif continues crush said interested guy know tho bad im sure next chance make friends classmates connection least simply know fuck yeawelp didnt plan succeed leaving uni take story snapchat posted happy didnt look story didnt click didnt say thank didnt look message anything take story cause embarrassing avoided go doctors go doctorsso basically im pretty sure anxiety depression lot stress im mainly depressed stressed past years im girl live uk ive whole therapy thing million different people never really helped feel fine im talking ive left room feel always shitty havent seen therapist year hate hate speaking answering questions hate telling stupid life story reading load files hate everything really nice people dont hate hate therapy really doesnt help basically want try taking medication im dont know whether prescribe anything ive given pills sleep even though didnt really need problem wasnt couldnt sleep avoided completely past week ive basically slept day watched netflix night havent really gone want try pills see help want kill almost day dont want go doctor tell feel talk someone months dont know tbh cant deal bullshit anymore oh yeah im actually diagnosed things thats part problem bc idk actually diagnosed first cant face failure againthrowaway etc im final year med school struggled mental health issues long remember ive professionals tried meds tried therapy pattern every time overwhelmed right im middle final exams failed ones ive taken far year genuinely rather die go another year repeating thats pretty much im facing university unsupportive cant stand around family members anymore keep pointing mood asking questions hate want cant stand anymore worth banger anyone point life sick caring find headbanging songs hate know hate know dancing fuck isnt something still end first day want die everthats thats post want fucking die help needed save man assuming posts case young boy still trending social media extremists trying young man lynched vocal opinion hashtag trending twitter accuses blasphemy extremists spamming gain attention im asking please help save using trends try bury blasphemy trend btsarmypakistan imrankhanjawabdou imrankhankhulwaopubg please report hashtag go httpshelptwittercomformshttpshelptwittercomforms choose harrassment link httpshelptwittercomformsabusiveuserhttpshelptwittercomformsabusiveuserca choose options detailed screenshots add urls attached add two paragraphs details add urls add description light recent hashtag fast becoming top trend pakistani twitter hashtag blasphemourmarufzaid spreading rapidly response mob pakistani users trying another twitter user killed response alleged blasphemy know twitter notolerance policy type hatemongering especially dangerous lifethreatening hashtags urgent emphatic request take hashtag blasphemourmarufzaid immediate effect young pakistani life depends credit twitter unavsszz save life even people think wont please everyone scary situation wish anyone go appreciate help thank april dont got friends living marvel movie marvel movie isnt enough cant recover grades done dealing anxiety depression think years enough pretty sure isnt slump life gon na stop trying school quit job write screenplay gon na see infinity war opening night kill self physics exam got cancelled hell yeah dont need study anymore need penis music sell anything ability order super speed using penis music follows trail blasting non existent speakers full volume made lemon tea lemon feel boujee yall gon na pay euros friend needed maybe feel suicidal againim much better used ive tried hard feel progress anymore feel im stuck forever now stuck feeling depressed every month feel better back depression endless cycle ive reached friends told need someone ive lonely depressed told ive suicidal care im always theyre going something want someone talk hang one wants help know cant normal life compromise mental health order occasionally happy advice intrusive thoughtshi m cutting intrusive thoughts redflag days week kind creep thought process ill sitting desk work daydreams walking door traffic example another example picturing driving sunset throwing severn bridge ill good time friends switch picture drowning cant stop understand keeps happening someone suffered depression growing stressful disruptive childhood thats behind became fully independent moved messed childhood home trying really invest socially friendships trying online dating really gone anywhere serious economically im training low level lawyer personally taking music trying read still struggle combat background feeling vapid apathy alive got better becoming independent feel im treading water mental health wise words wisdom appreciated word autocorrect freshness hell lol need helpi feel failure nobody wants idk im wrong cant handle anymore rejection moved bigger city way far away friends family ok need find new place live next days nobody wants im good enough anyone even got denied air bnb cant go home everyone see much failure know anymore want die think redflag almost everyday simultaneously dont want fall asleep never wake wrong everyone hates help think started war cult full apple enthusiast anyways join kingdom think need actual help okay depress lately everything going downhill mental breakdowns crying past hour life beginning meaningless dont really know anymore im afraid ask parents always busy feel failure normal start day asked card worth wait answered yes cried park jokingly said course tiny tears x asked take photos chocolates said yes babe sent photo still online last messages wasnt read next message sent day wasnt sent anymore offline thought getting ready work phone died network hour got worried sent messages social media know dont belong anywhereive tried years fit depression anxiety feels im fundamentally different peers try fit people always end fucking never happy dont belong one energy put depressing bullshit drag people make life worse im gon na make past highschool hate much deserve rot guys believe clever selfworth lowering punchline friends meant relatable lovely movie deeply reflects chinese underground bands current lives chinese culture traditionaled rock n roll music go highly recommend one one thing wondering whether movie showed mainland sorta doubt d everyday wake think really shit againjesus fucking christ many days today yesterday break feel ive alive years wan na wrap shit days counting kill without hurting family friendive needing long time now without hurting anything put note lessen pain wait wait wait telling women pedophiles rteenagers mature body ready molest teenager oh fixing hair oh thats bad oh putting perfume mouth spray watching im good mirror bbut thats bad society reallllly hope non even dares reach hoooorrible fixes flannel im arguing im explaining million wasnt enough storytime sorry fellow meme lords might post meme little sister friends sister antisocial introvert good luck making friends classmates clipped american movie clipped mothers womb kinda cold competitive lowkey karen friends two boys thats share passion star wars saying bad mostly action plot two boys mostly buddies play recess yes really best friend friend girl girl many bestfriends really want friends girls relate lot lot support opinion least girls met yet overall way funnier boys disclaimer im talking people met im sure good boys rude ones hang told many times might nice find girls befriend never listened stopped ago new school year starts new students join class one girl guess new girl gets seat sister one bully sidekicks finally chance real friend told us setup seats dinner immediately started talk befriend said even approach bully sidekick already got together time sidekick bully always made sure new girl close little sister start talking new girl sidekick immediately come collect new girl even makes new girl watch play basketball little sister said immediately got idea sidekick playing basketball sister chance talk new girl excitedly tell plan instead going made frowny face said back um want play basketball im sorry wanted giant tea spill drama anything really sorry find hilarious actually chose basketball friend knew competitive meant hate anybody wanted tell anybody good advice gave become cursei made post another account years ago saying girlfriend alot things guy made big comment stuff said big advice gave look girlfriend try build confidence first career money go gym clean first tried followed advice successfully avoided women much tempted ask saw girl approaching try avoid still use advice even though know ive basically completed advice maybe girls instinct avoid girls cursed never love keep going whatwhy keep miserable suffer yet one wants help cant work cant afford daycare cant find better job cant afford school cant find job fucking cycle want end day day think done family adopted mom died leaving someone took money kicked shitty started fundraiser one gives shit bipolar depression cant afford health insurance cant afford services meds without dental insurance left side mouth hurts filling came need new glasses cant afford without insurance go without im underweight eat maybe calories day im stressed money feel eating im gall bladder issues cause pain cant afford surgery removed complications child birth starting cause problems daily life im scared bones starting jut know cant gain weight mental issues years trying cope stay childs father homeless friends car penny name son taken care financially father nothing left really rent gone qualify assistance small income states standards poor enough going better years suffering one giving fuck never able dig darkness cant even hand none clinics accepting insurance accepting new patients cant afford stay hospital cant afford strep cant afford survive botched redflag attempt think im starting finally sink trying keep head water long hasnt day havent thought redflagthere hasnt day dont think wanting kill hurt way hard pick knife ya know idk nothing life doesnt want happy thats even life cares dont know im supposed anymore feel fucking bad ones going read one going care im sorry everyoneim fucking failure mom spent hundreds dollars tutors yet im still failing algebra class betrayed best friend somebody whos supporting long im going hurt anybody care im usually talkative today really quiet grandmother kept asking ok instantly able notice something wrong went bathroom crying thinking much id miss shed react finding dead cant stand letting everybody care im much failure live today im im going od pills im sorry grandma ideas dangerous comment one intervieweebr br dvd rating b worth timebr br great story adults teen boaters children none stupid violent crime stuff often mistaken hollywood days quality work used trainer film proper boating preparation prior sailing seven seas movie starts somewhat slowly develop story documentaries draws viewer saga emotions begin percolate ones head emotions include anger sadness disbelief era late sbr br solo sailing around globe dangerous surprising surprising twists viewers expect average group guys sailing race boat different allowed race rules solo sailor different levels ability allowed race rules well known sailors among well known one considered mystery man nobody seemed knowledge ability boat allowed depart long underway certain date course prior modern electronics allow boaters communicate shore vicious storms etcbr br actual video audio recordings interspersed interviews family members others involved mood interviewees always somber despite years passedbr br main character don focus attention journey relates wanted beat due circumstances creation beat win story circumstance life moved south west across atlantic ocean years time alone waterbr br fail view special features section dvd film finished entire saga fully understood wo viewing bonus stuffbr br end watched everything dvd likely shake head exclaim wow keep mind story remained alive last yearsbr br spoiler fail view special features section dvd film finished one sailor headed back england circumnavigating globe decided fly going another spin film records spouses opinions decision opposite story unfolds another sailor wishes race allowed two board take wife along photos demonstrate warm union interview burley ex paratrooper actually rowed boat across atlantic friend prior solo sail race incredibly funny described even knowing sail thought bad things happening normal many people think setting sail open sea romantic adventure without mishap one feels already diedi deactivated social media little week ago im guy scrolls fb several hours day found making matters worse deactivated rather tense time several people try escape well im bored know nobody notice reactivate minute check everybody way everybody gone lives new profile pictures hardly recognizing people one week offline best friends never even noticed gone suddenly havent spoken sharing regular posts every hours big girl got haircut seems getting fine cousins mom sister family sharing memes jokes normal crush sharing events things important arent really bag distancing getting courage talk feels died missed things regular old new really take fucking step tell nobody cares know guys say feel support find keeps going guess thats whats important drained low got downvoted guys one subs yesterday saying cool man post saying ammonium nitrate go brr fuck wrong people someone even made fun comment saying brrr shit im fan tv movies general one good ones cast performances throughout pretty solid twists see coming commercial kind medium meets csibr br anyone think certain lights daughter looked young nicole kidman related way id definitely watch agin rent comes videobr br dedee great seen lot things job convincinglybr br tv mystery movies check one chance sad time year againi stocked vitamin fish oil forget anything time year always pretty rough alone feel anyone want join discord server general programming gaming discord link description bio whatever want call cant morehonestly feel ive enough feel alone many ways life seems grim cruel worth fighting even special life gift something given us force eventually return death inevitable way avoid longer feel comfort thinking fragile life bullshit end feeling dread overwhelming cant believe ive using fiction cope reality believe simple characters screen words paper one barriers keeping ending want fall low enough drugs shit mind long way access know dealers want cry right want live deep inside im afraid die ill take chances hope whatever waiting worse please someone know even know self sometimes feel attention feels wrong want know quickest painless method use know bullet head quick enough noose overdose painful many types medical pills disposal knife neck seems painful choke ropeits lonely loves theres girls want whole ass world thats never happening though never will lonely friends bail life getting shittier yet nobody fucking cares irl anxiety without meds everything fucking better choke fucking rope lol need help telling fiance im suicidali really want leave feel every second ticks overwhelming im trying really hard hurt want go hospital make huge deal need help want tell fiance work want worry person trust say tell even wait home im afraid theyll overreact first day work earnt bucks washing dishes helping pub tonight doesnt sound much feel ive accomplished much due social awkwardness enough everyone elses day going hope yous good click post thank tell day im work responses may slow answer question previous reviewer asked name us official mentioned lumumba name character mr carlucci frank carlucci reported time second secretary us embassy congo subsequently among assignments appointed us ambassador portugal deputy director central intelligence agency secretary defense chairman carlyle group hardly surprising carluccis biographical sketch wwwcarlylegroupcom web site fails credit service belgian congo name deliberately censored hbo version lumumba may avoid possibility hbos sued us courts carluccis name clearly mentioned theatre version lumumba saw recently event expect deny involvement lumumbas murderbr br others commented evenhandedness film lumumba treats parties concerned lumumbasupporters congolese even belgians somewhat sinister view emerges think bbc documentary entitled killed lumumba based book murder lumumba belgian historian ludo de witte examined closely films demonstrate fate lumumba history congo matter black white lumumbas murderers believe kill nytol curious nytol want put thoughts therenot really expecting anyone care reply nobody really ive read peoples posts thought feel better nobody around understand im feeling even though im really alone family girlfriend never understand feel tell hurt make feel weird feel im even living life now stranger trying make things work somebody know feel im wearing mask im allowed show real self anyone hurt ive thoughts lately hoping die way manner im much coward im looking thinking way end life way interfere lives everyone around think want disappear feel im worthless pathetic look mirror want spit face im looking live now almost month theres single day thought killing hoping die deserve life theres people world want live normal lives cant medical condition id disappear give chance life finally something good instead volunteering helping people way contemplating redflag hoping death come deserve shit things happened life worse im thinking seriously fucking hate asked know answer question matters course still hate today ive magnetic resonance brain dysfunction hormones doctors wanted sure pituary gland tumor giving treatment hope ive read highly unlikely die im want live anymore apologize anyone took time read ungrammatical piece shit english first language im doneim done im tired im done trying im autistic tranny morbidly obese loser teenager im every popular fucking joke meme right wrapped one package nobody miss im sick trying normal im sick find shit wear immediately make meltdown im sick person people go need help leave theyre done im sick joke im sick bye guys good years wish luck think im donei honestly know carry start want say tomorrow might different today last friday think switching used want using addict ive clean sober years ive always coped pretty well even back thought wanted stop using kids one severe complex needs makes difficult deal guilt feeling way cant abandon head full conflict guess conflict thats keeping head battered im tired managing coping happiness days real hard work fabricated time around enjoy version tolerate hate living skin hate taking breathes one effort days im sounding please dont offer support sympathy need guess need say loud weve come far give night lucky ive remembering old childhood crushes freaking guy yo gabba gabba farkle girl meets world gay awakening reviewed world premiere screening sept isabel bader theatre toronto international film festival tiffbr br interesting premise seemed go long many shots piles ewaste recycled computers keyboards cables etc shipped china ton sorted remade new products sell back desolationbr br filmmakers tried people interviews boost human element frequently prevented due chinese censorship still interesting bits shanghai high end real estate agent preening strutting around showing luxurious mansion gardens intercut scenes others living medieval conditions especially striking opening tracking shot m factory floor quite something well scenes activity three gorges dam project complement jia khangje films tiff feature still lifesanxia haoren documentary dong built around subjectbr br director jennifer baichwal producer nick de pencier cinematographer peter mettler subject edward burtynsky stage qa world premiere producer noah weinzweig introduced audience thanked key person assisted ground access china anyone think valve knew theyed creating whole new category porn made portal hindsight dont think wouldve thought fear hell thing stopping mei dont understand god makes us depressed much pain ask pain end punished eternally burning fucking unfair want die know wont anythinglike many posts ive contemplating redflag ive felt way long time sometimes ups sometimes downs year especially lost mom partner recently broke im glad graduating soon never wanted go college staying home wouldve hell family awful passing honestly rather sleep outside go home dont either side family right now moms half toxic talks never really fond dads half family hadnt felt excited graduating days cause actually liked college hell lot better high school one really liked didnt friends actually friends now college gave place stay put years debt never wanted go though dont even know want fucking long havent power hours really actually upset pseampg says th return power currently car charging phone long story short mdd gad bpd late depression kicking arse suffered depressive episodes years never bad long last depressive episode birth son great success nd ssri tried managed establish good routine currently th antidepressant sectioned twice year si intent marginally better getting worse zero motivation bed appetite crying etci intensive group therapy february really invested end day feel exhausted options way without ending one cares drank water today shoud tell school counselor selfharm suicidalhi dont really know dos donts u say counselor yes cant afford therapist yet im still college student wan na ask let parents know told selfharm im suicidal okay tell therapist told wan na seek help dont know kind information thanks favorite lines tonight poor boys least racist person room everytime biden laughed seconds fracking good strength anymoreday ive feeling seems long time almost every day past year contemplated ending life ive selfharmed somehow slitting wrists open watching blood trickle calmed ive done everything promised wouldnt night went sleep theres something inherently wrong wanting kill despite everything kid age needs around months ago started slipping college wouldnt attend days stretch days turned weeks weeks turned months knew wasnt good head space id hiding something parents sent counselling lied woman well couldnt tell anyone one night mother caught crying sleep told honest said support matter told time inappropriately touched grown man almost two years ago felt depressed wrong disgusting always called mother best friend literally nothing havent shared everything sixteen year old girl indian household remains silent able discuss freely quite understanding mother much shell go lengths defend argument father still doesnt know doubt even understand speaking father never hit hurls abuses never physically hurt reminds every day failure wasted investment useless impure negative slacking reminds best hope life job call centre boss yell ill suck desperate money ill husband berate ill mercy dont bring joy im meant anything good regrets giving things ruin everything touch complete utter disappointment hours later sweet words usual want whats best know person says things every single day start believe first words pinched cry listen scared explain ive become mess started screaming back pretending dont care calls rude shameless way know block cry leaves room say finds im sorry know expected promise tried ive thought months know people worse problems maybe im selfish mine cant live strength anymore know im writing wanted see put thoughts together theres dayweek rule one must follow committing redflag day one well see happens tomorrow wanting twitch streamer remember watching one boring person boring nobody oh wait know people partner pain saw film sep cambridge film festival br br beagles couple short flashbacks whole thing darwins life ensconced kent growing family pages origin already drafted wondering whether complete book br br script based randal keyness book annies box annie charless daughter died mostly family drama include sex scenes participants married screen exciting much science wellmade film thats pleasant watch pushes right emotional buttons bit romantic weepie actually suppose conclusion agnostic freethinking scientist atheist family background still emotional romantic well excellent father br br characters darwin state wonder whether killed god viewer able doubt beyond doubt given deadly struggle survival web predation meadowbank wellknown darwin completely uncontroversial failure darwins prayers idea kind providential god loves creatures untenable br br really see many americans objecting much may problems title probably controversial thing film fact bettany horns tail pitchfork people learned lucid dream long take want learn im lowkey lazy biotch little motivation respond hey sc added guy whos friend friend sent hey without anything im probably thinking id feel bad felt bad left opened dont know well hes probably hitting bc barely know havent posted anything story therapy stopped thought getting better moving returned state depression redflag obsessive thinking feel unable cope difficulty lifei appointment online therapist obviously say anything suicidal bad thoughts yo young know life always bad stand world works sick societyi regularly go phases suffer feel miserable enjoy anything anymore food socializing meeting people hobbies etci really want try commit suicide fail may deal side effect horrible health problems caused method pity peoplei far away home abroad want family suffer hear death even managed fuck real bad vent anyone suicidal irl today birthday cant live onhi reddit today birthday cant seem feel anything anymore count hours work home bed etternally without sleeping therapist im taking meds month everyday seems worse im think life im failure anyone questioned achievement notification minecraft achievement understand conveying fact short soon feel comfortable life sent another rabbit hole existential dread feel dumb thinking anything death hopeful nobody cares filled new emptiness instead escaping want sit live normal depression hope going go away soon really bad lows even going understand happening want fix gets worse confused feel giving upokey im yo guy feel theres point living anymore periods throughout life depression never felt bad might something stupid feel goddamn useless education friends still kissless virgin still live parents top ive gotten acne back starts bleeding evertime sleep life worth much anyway might well die young hate people feel need remind dont dick idc still suck metaphorical dicc inches long choke speak french ive prepared guide speak french fluently baguette wee doublevay trois noir vert mademoiselle well thats learned french class anyways seem work got less hour till bed help sleeptonight rough man need relief either cut bash head wall guys need go hospital think make family ashamed im lost nooce chair setup nearby forestsometimes stand chair nooce around neck cry minutes building courage everyday passes finally inch little chair finally commit redflag decided im going douse gasoline set hideous atrocious absolutely horrifying ugly self fire pain much ill jump hang least way closed casket funeral one able see face whats trouble rkod guy got concussion shit wanting grow normal sad around time year birthday soon im approaching im nervous confused life realized tell irs anyone fans audited fans snapchat premium anything pay taxes lot dont tell irs theyll audit holes yall tell yes ways rip gus van sants elephant students dealing problems leading suicide one yes full clichs thats life cant deny creepy nerds disabled persons popular students despite popularity problems existing real worldbr br thats film life highschool misery life itselfbr br look beneath surface beneath soaplike social relationships shown find gripping thoughtprovoking criticism societybr br people committing suicide really understand motives trying understand already late always someone never expected bebr br movie answer question raises intense way way keeps guessing whose blood might see beginning following paths students less good reason end lives forced watch gruesome act finalebr br know caught surprise real lifebr br message verbalized one surviving kids end always fixed problems forget see others might someone colleague friend want live anymore open eyes never know latebr br movie delivers well might flaws matter anymore either see reflection society blind reality english teacher watches anime yoyoyoyoyo holy fucking h english teacher something year old korean man got discussion class anime hahahaha animes weird discussion guy knows h talked haikyuu food wars hunter x hunter jojo even fucking hentai even recommended gurren lagann holy fucking hell seriously think might next week two nobody cares facing reality unbearable time never really feel alive anyway number years ive done absolutely fuck lie around feeling sad front laptop ive ruined physical health nobody cares constant mean every second fight keep life going steam honest ive enough struggle miss alive nobody miss maybe world run little smoother without way merry christmas wish everything gone differently happy right nowi everything going right now caring family girlfriend car place live good school amazing job seems feel anything car crash recently car totalled people distraught upset wasnt another thing happened day milk go work crash car coffee etc sometimes driving think veering road running building hitting pole thinking kill mutilated beyond recognition getting suicidal thoughts week desire commit need help think stimulus alienation feeling kinda annoyed us government giving every kid independent adults leaves gap dependent yearolds money whatever reason seems oversight give money year old dependents use cash school supplies college save anyone see weirdness dumb loved movie everyone said bits developed enough thought personally girls vapid landed prison sure supposed innocent american girls stilli felt lacked bond best friends supposed example montage theyre sightseeing way held photograph awkwardlookingbr br parts ambiguous think pretty much understood danes character see confusing camera dwell manat bearing grim expression put bags taxi trunk thought suggesting something turned nothingbr br apart movie great cried claire danes took blame great actressbr br wanted see bitchy thai inmate ass kicked talk lack closure people become careless coldi told suicidal last night mean hurtful reply happened us thought best friends damn bus weird spent ish minutes talking another driver buddy forget route saw something forever changed man police officer stopped teen black male anything wrong cop told tie tied correctly teen told way date never learned propperly orphan police officer steps car redoes young males tie tells looks nice look teens face thanks officer gave hope life full good people gay hard make brain hurt gf im gay love much cant fuck guy fuck hand gf dude hand fuck hand im bored coins comment want candycorn atlantis much better anticipated ways better story come films aimed higher age although film demand solid attention span times great film ages noticed younger audience expected comedy got adventure think everyone tired endless parade extreme parodies lot kids seen nothing parodies short time everyone seemed intensely watching atlantis commit alive im market guy thick accent asked line hear say hi usupremeseby dead heard name responded hi yea dont wan na live hes still behind line yall happen diedif killed able watch friends familys reaction death anyone witness justice system lack thereof find film truly satisfying many shades gray regard characters plot virtually every character film epitomized best worst society popularity film probably due fact us one time another deal scumbags along nambypamby lilylivered meleemouthed bureaucrats empower name political correctness br br performances across board compelling sympathized rape victim found gratifying see wipe smug vicious arrogance faces former attackers particular found dyke one ugliest characters films ive seen nice see former victim shut mouth good lead rapist psychopath equally ugly fitting dirty harry offed loud grotesque fashion end sequel dirty harry saga equaled first today finally broke cheating lying manipulative mean girlfriend told dad talked said decision mine tearing eyed nodded yes sent message said thought loved hard weve together september th year crazy year today gon na crazy day hard think well girlfriend lmao id say made right call people change understand much nicer stuff first met shes become mean shit even cheating now thank reading needed say somethingtheres probably people problems much worse feel incredibly guilty posting feel option left id put bit backstory things make sense hopefully im diagnosed bpd something say quite honestly one really knows left home parents divorced jumping houses ate lot coping mechanism put weight result fault entirely one blame bpd surfaced pleasant person around mother hated thus reasons leaving home father drinking addict thus susceptible angered outbursts hate quite frankly fast forward years shifting sleeping friends beds finally living one rooms grandmothers house dad lives hes living past years rent free taking total advantage much money try help form chores taking offered money various occasions declined decided tonight kick sort self depression put streets threatened believe made worse occasion felt unjustly pointed answered back instead sitting silence made things worse tried explain bpd hes adamant kicking terrified want end life go back live streets tired burden everyones life everyone ive live seem feel way cant cant anymore know ill know im scared crying wish close eyes awaken cant face tomorrow cant see tomorrow anyhow said im sorry know theres people much worse apologies always told im guilt tripping people probably im now im sorry cut nails rubbed hands lotion feel smooth tried kill myselfi tried kill taking bunch pills didnt fucking work im boy please help alcohol ruining life im going make multiple paragraph essay really feel alcohol literally drove suicidal thoughts depression multiple times now im even one drinking people around currently past absolutely terrible drink normally ends involving im already terrible state things life im abused im fortunate still fucking sucks always end pointing insecurities talk behind back even though grown ass adults yell cause feel cant fucking house cant let feelings without knowing used next time drunk needed let sorry wasting time hello new reddit found group today f wondering anyone confused whether depression something mother two wake make husband breakfast dressed play day seem find energy together sit couch floor play mind either overdrive tired btw children happy fed meals day snacks neglect neglect anyone feel way things help depression something wish never borni didnt ask hey bitches guess whos getting therapy past weeks ive feeling mental health declining shot mom email shes looking therapist fuck yea see arent well sign fucking ask help society sees terrorist maybe go kill myselfim gon na labeled terrorist supporting certain people maybe ill go kill fighting help people thier psychological health alienate even instead helping people mass shooters shit gon na alienate even make problem worse make people suicidal nothing gon na change maybe go die guess nobody wants help someone homicidal thoughts theres help people suicidal homicidal thoughts girlfriend tips tricks girlfriend cant leave one first place itnormaltothmkof ways kill myselflike using nails ro slice throat banginf head edfmge th table hard cracks open exquisite film make eavesdrop upper middle class family dublin early part th century hosting christmas dinner friends relatives table talk idle chatter well written one engrossed away dinner table fine piano playing helps create intimate atmosphere one one guests perhaps bit perfect amateur player odd mistake added magic film real story real entertainment object lesson coming film makers fish seggs bloop britney stop moving much bloop bloop im getting every day redflag seems pretty appealing compared going timesthats life expectancy im basically relationships outside family family loves much enough feel guilty greedy read peoples posts lost love life got abused traumatized money etc meanwhile real problem im scared social interaction last week talked girl found attractive gave number texted day stopped responding rejection crushed people tell im young whole future ahead feel young friends years younger meaningful romantic relationships cant girl talk hours im immediate danger killing think every day think shooting back throat hopefully destroy brain stem think hand jerk maybe turn living shell brain dead tormenting family even worse successful killing outright think avoid building guillotine severing head body entirely likely kill think future want weekend think im still far away acting ive drifting direction long long time need change course may well end college graduate make year live atlanta kids single reason happy feel big emptiness inside really know bored life feel happy kind lost really know go normal anyone experienced accomplished wanted life nothing idk guys think happy understand lifei know im posting feel ashamed im posting want die want live feel ive never really gotten life ground im im smart talented educated creative people love artwork ive built following around whenever opportunity comes scared say maybe right opportunity know feel cant make decisions feel life drastically different might sound sad ive never fully sex man boyfriend years ago things never went way wanted reason still want know feels one things thats keeping going eventually know thats going enough writing sentence makes want break tears want go ive living toxic parents house almost years boomeranging actually right ive got name crazy credit card debt theyre almost point charged real income speak feel im always running direction know cant give dream famous successful creative people tell maybe job art stuff works feel resistant feel way make art thing work now something tells know grit especially exhaustion im going right now ive indecisive years believing hardest thing know life look around life right now living shitty parents know totally making money cant help wonder fuck im know im strong ive incredible pain months now im gaining weight really quickly probably medical condition money go diagnosed im sure exacerbated stress parents offered pay bills go therapy tempting feel life completely god hate hear complaining know much better know sometimes go library bag packed swear im going sell art online day find place stay night figure rest later never give easily hard eat sleep hours night guess thats better nothing im parents house feel much better know im sorry vomit one knows im going sometimes push hard enough back positivity feels pushing ton boulder hill feel pathetic know find feel eventually im going end hospital condition homeless end part feels ridiculous writing sentence knows truth said fan tweety hes aggravating wish sylvester eat withbr br cartoon sly homeless back feeding garbage cans spots cruise ship leaving port nearby decides hop aboard spys tweety one passengers br br ship provides adequate stage following hijinks sly desperately tries catch annoying bird avoid seasickness hes succeed chewing swallowing thus finishing irritating canary forever cartoons starring tweety go one quite good thanks brilliant cat cool bug facts classmate owns clothing line idea lol proof heres link intrested im sure dont httpswslaunchcartstorehttpswslaunchcartstore time goive wanting end life two years thought talking people help thought thingd better dont nobody cares people worst right complain apparently go see therapist destroy family somehow maybe im selfish asshole life important matter shit decent life people told care care much anything help care much ignore need maybe im expecting much maybe reason lied still understand ended courage worst even courage im coward wish strength need fact alone forever meant realized years existence maybe knew done something hate small eyed bitch much hope vibrator dies cum wont shut larping bullshit comments tonight nightevery day adult life total shit real friends girlfriend family cares fuck keep trying tonight night im gon na end make suffering stop simply reasons left keep trying good bye know know fucking hate fucking loser matter kurt vonnegut said sometimes lucky tried hang pussied really wake thing tried make life better never worked losing hand life guess see way forward hey im near end ropei used straight student catch school work certain time online life mundane work eat sleep work eat sleep barely work makes life even boring major depression pretty sure ill never amount anything social anxiety friendstheir real friends nothing makes happy never girlfriend know die alone end know give excuse matter billion people dbz fans annoying hell beat goku one cares ill watching anime maybe looking anime tik toks talking cool powerful one faves one fuckers come start ranting cant beat goku realise absolutely cares nothing better eating gokus ass understand yall dbz respect ruin everything cant shit without dbz getting mentioned yeah goku clap cheeks well done heres trophy shut ps targeted dbz fans chill yall fine experience covid far brother got covid symptoms week ago got tested came back negative symptoms go test day ago come back positive basically meaning first place fucked idk happened isnt fault everyone whos come contact likely strong chance leads personal experience im sure far experiences really lack energy really weird feeling headache us hasnt felt painful guess annoyance nothing worth complaining lots congestion aches thats really way hes felt past week feel mean used bathroom kitchen ya know whatever house week pretty sure luckily far lesser spectrum needwhat need shelter need food money need job need friends family need hobby rope partner may end life tonight goes goi made post cheated partner years several times alright last night well today wasnt talking tonight started feel better started feel worse found stole valium potassium work contemplating ending life overdosing waking know without love despite badly ive fucked want stay thought wanted stay takes life likely im numb scared whole ton emotions right now please help wtf happened monster school videos used watch around times complete cesspool clickbait seems borderline softcore porn edit im talking minecraft one help shave better go grain nothing literally nothing hair presses flat face go cut areas stubble best end hella lotta ingrown hairs yall shit ps im speaking facial hair dont carei give fuck less anymore dont care health fuck going life fuck honestly im really quite tired fucking living lonesome im either gon na relapse cutting slit fucking arteries care less change doesnt matter doesnt mean shit new home new friends new whatever doesnt fucking matter still wont fucking make feel im shit stain dont fucking say stupid im bullshit ive heard fucking much intoxicating making every bit breathing hurt thousand times im planning id rather impulsive fucking thought fucking person around might wan na know fuck happened maybe theyll find somewhere fucking mess post fuck found himmy ex boyfriend years best friend killed week ago found body woods feel everything touch dies third fried killed cant even begin figure process id used call bad nights hed talk promised hed alive long feel fault feel immense amount guilt neglecting final week almost taunting cant stop crying unless turn back substances know wouldnt want cant help five fucking words destroyed found hes gonehttpsimgurcomagzppe day asking day day people woke great day sure hugh jass hugh janus might cool seen hugh jtiddies massi vpenis interesting titlehi im sorry wasting peoples time one person able talk guess realised tonight back shit gone partner listen even listen sits completely quiet upset says dont know say every time know life comparatively bad im homeless option food usually available yeah im good person maybe lesbians dont existmaybe everyone right ill probably end dude anyway maybe lesbians dont exist apparently sexuality fluid lesbians fuck men maybe milo right lesbianism bullshit want kill fucking self please make stop please make pain stopi cant stop crying want held right now please make thoughts go away please something help im tired fi tried killing sunday wanted try carbon monoxide poisoning didnt work tried hanging couple months ago got scared midway stopped im tired im sad depressed weak hate try make others happy im never happy havent felt true happiness long forget feels good life im scared tell boyfriend knows im depressed dont think knows bad feels wrong tell feel head girlfriends arent supposed theyre supposed make happy make feel loved tell theyre depressed want kill wont make happy theres thid deep heavy sadness heart im scared tell parents im scared make therapy appointment know dont want hear theyre daughter suicidal piece shit know love scare sometimes cant always make happy im fucking dumb always okayish grades school work barely anything suck job took thought make happy interest parent im depressed unhappy life love people around cant hard ive depressed long years ive told one person whole thing person doesnt even live country feel alone even though know im keep distancing people want die ive come terms really nothing much im weak mentally im weak dont want go painfully thought carbon monoxide gon na work hate im sorry long wanted ramble im tired watching porn literally want girl tell matter want loved im tired wanting kill weirdita weird feel awesome days later want jump front trainits weird telling parents want kill careits weird family bipolarity touch psychologist life weird living third country care mental healtits weird living nothing helps staying alive inviting abusei love brothers love friends dont want hurt mother doesnt love ive lost family speaking fathers abuse ive sexually assaulted times want count including really violent rape never stop affecting dont think im capable relationship sex point know twentytwo stay alive happen ive put year long waiting list therapy ptsd say discharge flashbacks one event already suppose im supposed lie two years ago diagnosed life changing condition put drugs degrade emotional health cognitive functioning stop taking might well die anyway dont want live dont want hurt anyone dont want burden people love know things likely easier cant ask help anymore know wont solve anything ill feel guilty opening dont remember fight suicidal plans time ive tried everything office ntk michael scott left leave forever episode come back good want make petition make office season office electric bungalo sign updated user flair birthday today woohoo year old gang im exhaustedi tried tried fucking hard best friend best daughter best person enough spent much time money trying keep friends many nights ignoring sleep keep company darkest hours hand whip whipped cream tweak recipies best friend vanilla much time care effort something simple gift wrap blocked explanation called wife pretends even know want know wrong fuck friendship myo mother hates hear much bitch many times breaks money taken many times realize respect want love man hug mom friend appreciate much truly care im done extending getting spit face nothig bottle now much love wanted give yall broke im tired getting hurt really muchyou know thick im sure call itmaybe moment past mental breakdown sure breakdown end breakdowns absolutely sure want escape pain deep hurts bones cry hours days pass made another hit deep soul time feels really pain handle eventually end rope thats always feels eventually now wish wish able follow one times think much happiness everyone gone lay crying dry tears try write kids notes care people able show love good crying cold try write letters flashes youngest giggling im holding wave pool waves going clings joy happiness want feel heart play head want paper memory watched movie first time sci fi channel must say simply awesome loves never ending story one bring back memories movie even though movie hazy setting look makes feel fantasy acting brilliant music great especially beginning battle song end song yet see watch recommended completely gots question anyone naturally replace love feel someone hate breakup want donetheres point fighting anymore found today ive booted group project poor attendance cant complete course without project im never going done degree ive meds seeing doctorscounselorspsychiatrists five years im barely better started friends left graduated moved away sided exboyfriend dumped last summer hesitation ending upset parents makes angry cant end suffering know suffer result cant keep going sad empty treadmill kind life im going anywhere want idk feel shit dont want anything anymore dont enjoy talking friends used dont energy workout make resin bake dont feel happy talking best friend anymore dont energy school dont even motivation bed days cry nowhere skip meals even gave shopping lunch day dad didnt feel going feel one gives shit feels im used think stress mom keeps asking whats wrong keep saying im fine im fine need help dont know dont want hurt anyone way feels cant talk anyone im supposed fine im almost years clean great grades im going graduate start college soon im supposed fine right dont know whats wrong warning rapedsoooooooooio notes folder facts wrote sorry format happened im sitting feeling dirty disgusting awful help please im begging help hung tinder weird texts anothey place didnt know said take whores said didnt want go vehemently many times pulled hair choked called names forced manipulative didnt submit leave mouth open mind gone pushed head couldnt see w going dick choked scared numerous times terrified begged use condom forced inside said stop pushed room hotel goes behind hotel first literally throws around slaps forced penis leaves let check go condoms gets car accident super low gas prob acts genuinely likes person im genuinely terrified individual reinforces self doubt im sitting clothes underwear inside begged laughed crying made think overreacting playing game hes done girls im ashamed im really mentally messed ptsd things happened afraid nobody believe please help please help happened im still wearing panties im shaking im shaking dont know dont know whats going mental state point im sure im sad lonely ive always way feel slowly drifting void darkness want time want go worst part personality essentially makes impossible anybody know im well dont want bother people end putting facade friends family dont worry everyday sit room door closed feel emotions drained honestly im sure something wrong im stubborn tell people im ok pickup south street one brilliant movies made example directing candy jean peters starts going purse notices wallet missing alarm goes background building alarm going head cartoonlike subtly woven background way strikes subconscious level seen film times clicks theres alarm bell going starts frantically going bagbr br richard widmark way top game smartalec hes really great highlight performance film first scene moe street peddlerinformer played thelma ritter later apartment seeing movie seeing real person ive never seen anyone act real felt looking real room ritters performance right way hair stuck bit removed hat br br million things worked way lightning louie picks money chopsticks way candys jewelry clicks flicks moes hand away brooch way moe gets dollars change police captain across fbi guys chest even way captain opens filing cabinet hes way room many years pickup south street detailed moves directing consummate performances acting superb nownostalgic visuals day panel truck boards leading shack water dumbwaiter unforgettable place skip stashes pocket pickings wonderful stuffbr br pickup south street one movies even though characters perfect care perhaps somewhat branded pasts ways hard escape skip threetime loser candy youngish woman knocked around lot people behave little badly expect sort novel ways make seem looking people never imagine yet know possible actors make recognizably human depression want diei pretty sure depression used left sure almost always happy still want die reason feeling way better everyone fever yesterday among things feel way better today immune system speed runner apparently yall im going deed god want badlyi venting frustrations currently feeling thoughts leaving work now going dads house getting one guns dad reason wife nuts driving far away go woods somewhere end suffering thought going head right now literal bullet want fucking coward fear death fear comes next committing deed damning self eternal damnation suffering hell trying end suffering life make things worse suffer eternity one reason go deed fear unknown although agnostic catholic upbringing tugs back mind hurt family friends dogs innocent sweet dogs miss daddy imagine pain causing pain others best friend killed years ago got drunk lay abroad coming home war zone ran traffic became hoodornament family suffers immensly day actions friends suffer see family times year tell shattered people love man want pain stop causing pain well outside think great life middle class great albeit boring career someone age supportive family wife etc yet bit debt wife bat shit crazy manipulative hell tries alienate friends family want leave trying ugly messy afraid harm dogs mean never suicidally depressed teen came recent years see shrink meds much need change need things work check mental institute lose job puts debt issues turn makes life worse stuck horrible catch making sigh hiso hi guess sorry really broken ramble lot relevant one way another guess really know thisll actually work hell probably long shot reading comments posted guess start fact im feeling suicidal exactly knew ive casually thinking good two years thinking upon kind shrugged puberty shit whatever hormones guess ive thinking recently come realisation redflag coming mind hell even feel bad thinking kill reading others put know people family losses huge god damn fallouts everybody know contrasting reasoning seems petty guess ill post family wise see family see dysfunctional fuck eyes aka relatives close sit computer day honest true theyll say hello ive heard comments parents asking anti sociable hes rude parents responding oh hes always ignored happens parents friends well struggle conversations hell time cant hold one one conversation thirty seconds mum dad split mum split boyfriend four years two weeks ago give less shit never talked actively avoided said theorising problems kids caused got along fine actually fault saying mum proceeded shout ill later dad probably family member little basically lets stuff freely ie eat dinner wherever sleep schedule choice things ive got chores often thats fine never shouts unless ive actually done something really pisses three times fifteen years sometimes every two months stuff go golf free time go computer browse web play games csgo terraria family see disappointment apparently life never go friends thats mum tells though stuff homework leave school times last day friends varied even know huge act try away whenever attempt socialise couple friends constantly actively attempt annoy hurt emotionally physically minds probably bit fun annoy talk makes breaks lunches okay school outside school talk though stick couple groups talk playing games time im silent reason probably talk pity one said privately serious anger issues whole amount stuff said previous three four years keep trying bottle sometimes ill slip start getting incredibly annoyed something pathetic cant contain nobody gets hurt im weak thin feel parents although dad see weekends seems conversation telling dinner hes going bed mum hand seems annoyed shout know aspergers although pretty mild affect looks smart knows said shell stop shouting getting annoyed happen probably said front person diagnosed make seems loves shell annoyed something take everyone im normally one resulting shouted one friend told recently thought killing said thats stupid idea thats proves care overall feel pathetic family care little amount friends affected death recently feeling edge suicidal thoughts constantly popping kill mean badly school aka annoying teachers affect someone minutes theyd go without giving shit already redflag plan consists oding pills jumping unfenced bridge probably hitting car bottom ive enough hide fake smiles laughs jokes comments aimed refuse go physiatrist tell family one friend tell care need help love brother drinks icu fifth time great fun long icu replaced grave point ive decided kill hour soi sort social media one access accounts throw diaries ill dine im peace finally need rant bit ok undiagnosed mental illnesses least know seems extremely likely probably neurodivergent parents dont know course always yell say im lazy shit horrible time somehow ok time management idk describe kinda oh ill feel always know things especially im yelled great parents outwardly express think im lazy better things im sitting knowing mean cant express mean annoying friend parents think gender fluid phase b suspicious im faking im confident c think fake many things hard keep count frustrating parents tell times things hard keep complete shit sense time anyways good day actually feel betterafter reading forum call reddit thingy one week started feel way better life situation people real problems losing someone debt unsuccessful attempt killing problems stand near started realise life bad even though im still pain depression feel lot better general bad change bad things around hopefully finish weekend yeah untill im totally fine got ta listen muse read now goodnight europian comrades sleep well fellow europians tomorrow great day hope tempo di uccidere time kill guiliano montaldo bit strange film good waybr br bother summary plot ive read gives wrong impression makes believe people wrote really understand film need understand level even describe actually film strange upon time america way shorterbr br many hollywood stars whatever may mean played lesser known italian productions known many actors past prime slowly rising cage yet real star made im fan hes good roles raising arizona bringing dead weak plays hero really know think one sure portray typical hero main character film done without fact starred may reason one made dvdbr br 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typos mobile know shit load cells make brain amount humans cells de brain assigned em cell create cuz cellular level cell individual evolved us creature individual consciousness aware exists happen humans became cells give consciousness completely new sees universe completely different scale know scratch humans cells human body given time assign cell create creature consciousness see touch smell taste hear create life thats big brain idea thinkidk shut im big brain post smaller expected huh lets go good bad things happened last days good snowed small plastic skeletons spotify let try premium free caught ajj live quarantine lady night sean played favorite ajj song bad fully broke bones wrist need surgery schedules changed hardly talk cute australian friend weekend im stuck cast least weeks removing ability bike anything requires hands hate myselfi hate everything went badly today dealing social services people aunt trying help yelled honest didnt want legal trouble honest really dont see point living anymore want kill aunt said house maybe ill tomorrow instead going friends place hate writing right now especially reddit god damn places regardless want die years first thought conceives mind awake death especially weird know happy moments life mine yet suffice makes upset try hard survive push yet head keeps feeling way years therapy months psych ward experience still crave death thing breaks heart recognize happier moments yet still unhappy normally treat positive instances progress solely still left emptiness besides imma save money hire hitman already done research know look need moneyhopefully next life live holds better things ill gone soon thanks listening bullshit want hire hitman online learning horrible kids abusive families home time dad got laid hes home time hes really stressed drinking lot im bothering anytime talk class take space books schoolwork school care computer wifi required keep cameras everyone school see live dump microphone everyone hear dad watching tv neighbors yelling background dad careful anymore visible bruises im losing weight cant lunch school evicted probably will itll mean ill drop obviously covid big deal going school option everyone sick still people really thinking awful kids shitty home lives know im supposed guys fish drowned sad continue id thank sponsor today raid shadow legends people reddit ask stuff im really freaking bored realize school holidays friends aint great combination know idk title bei lead theoretically pretty good life happily married great job loving family ive unbearably depressed preteen feel depressed default state rather neutral ive thoughts hundreds times tonight first time actually see cant talk anyone never able talk anything real person im sure botheredim sure even begin anyone cares im currently sitting bathroom knife crying uncontrollably guess years shit finally hitting baby shes beautiful weeks old tomorrow shes reason dont want anything name ellie im shit marriage used love still care way years mistreatment negativity crap sex life taken toll cheated sad part still cheating guy believe im actually whole heartedly love im scared leave husband though dont want anything stupid want happy want us happy dont see anymore ive tried leave two maybe three times avail hate job shit money paycheck goes straight outrageous student loans im boss employees awful left basically everything guess fault though im bad manager wasnt bad manager id good employees hate fucking family years years fucking judgemental hipocrasy mother morbidly obese bitch nasty drinking problem starts shit everyone especially sister ive literally middle man family listening everyone bitch complain everyone dad cool though marine vietnam kinda scary though ive overweight life last march started diet lost pounds close goal weight got pregnant surprise im back fat fat fuck jiggling around everywhere none clothes fit im poor go new ones motivation lose weight probably already fucking lost gain fuck back friends mean theres maybe people say see one bothered visit hospital ellie around everyone yeah meet baby thats someone best friend even bothered visit thanksgiving guess goes ways shes pregnant wanted throw shower realized give shit ellie waste time person ive able confide guy ive cheating husband hes one whose given hope loves insane smart hed walk away trainwreck life im scared tell bad feeling right now everyone needs break awhile different tldr seriously dont even worth time goodbye hey hows day yall please spam post comments im going bed wake want feel people care lay sleep pray lord soul keep top games wan na know games teens im almost yay questioning morality guess titles pretty vague mean worry sometimes im actually decent human know based moral perceptions listen parents good people guidance actually think right deep vile parents ones keeping afloat whats right way know parents influence grueling ive talk mom says even thought proves morality others told thing response general moral questing outside childtoparent dynamic helped sometimes still worry know kinda brusque felt share case anyone experienced ordeal edit spacing whats least painful way kill myselfhi names hannah im years old turning november th days today im currently suffering ptsd depression amp anxiety professionally diagnosed want explain whole life story fact im currently abusive crappy household ive cutting past years way weight pain thats dumped onto everyday shoulders im tired crying everyday im tired getting called every horrible name book starving make mom happy im tired everything life general want kill badly im afraid death crazy anyone know semi painless ways end life deal little pain beatings everyday ive learned deal little hurt please give life precious please survive live another day loved bullshit thats bullshit enough cheap crap therapist bottles pain meds antidepressants anxiety pills ibuprofen basic meds overdose painless overdose go sleep die peacefully second option jump school stories tall building probaly feel impact head splats concrete done always kept idea mind ampxb please dont reply dont genuine answer questions thanks anyways thats tysm u help fast possible cant deal life day want fucking die happy one hearing desperate cries help im shouting void hereno one seems read ill vent anyway majorly fucked mania lorazepam loss created perfect storm craziness come think friends made chat room without fair enough still hurts much didnt intend find obviously didnt care cut bunch times im even feeling better youve made far post even far anyway thank friends dont leave read anymore leave nothing fault bit let attached serves right ill die alone someone please help always make covert cries help regular cry help im okay need help need someone thanks wish chose criminology subject soooo interesting really pointwere raised consume hope someday may eventually comfortable ive got bachelors accounting make barely minimum wage literally never money despite everything right serve bourgeois overlords thats right complain plenty people going way tougher situations dont care fuck system religion politicians failed us hope theres peace death living life hell watched movie chance curious trailer tv discover movies little tender stories ordinary people even end tragic man moon funny moments especially first characterization dani innocent pure love affair court really beautiful moving love story high points performance reese witherspoon maintained promises world cinema beautiful cinematography old lion freddie francis fantastic score james newton howard really soul movie themes deserved oscar nomination intimate lyric seems transformed screenplay music anyone know im fucking dumb literally used straight student high school im shit clue especially friends great school conclusion come im dumb hell ive gotten lucky past couple years anyone know nva combines eastalgiahumor military comedy teen movie although somehow typically germanmovielike sentimental think great funny movie laugh nva bit insight eastern germany armed forces late ies young recruits well professional soldiers experienced fall berlin wall end german democratic republicbr br enjoy nva liked sonnenallee another movie directed leander haumann necessarily enjoyed good bye lenin much serious less obviously funnybr br acting acceptable watch former boy band singer kim frank two facial expressions natural shocked saucereyed want talk support group wife cant handle much uncle lives close nh want news station take story say long ago posting title username hope read comment maybe happened country u want travel wan na travel japan becasue culture cuisine love environment never whole fucking done already fucking dead dead years fukcing wait destroy body release soul sure god willnhave good laugh life cruel fucking joke good move noi ended contact best friend starting today order better matter many times tells accept gay male around even thought puts extreme turmoil bad move correct way mind throwing life away maybe give months realize decent individual deserve treated less ive considered redflag due many problems one alone logical thinker able follow easy starting new life new people awesome christmas ideas clue want christmas grandparents live rich theyre gon na buy things yet interest getting really anything christmas anyone suggestions understand hard everyone different interests something everyone cool cant think title thisever little felt im supposed perfect little kid pleases adults never anything wrong lived expectation every time trouble someone gets mad want kill googling feelings lead finding antinatalism joined subreddit dedicated saw post said commit redflag mom sad said thought bringing innocent soul messed world seeing thought thing post said probably kill next time someone yells gets mad im terrible person world better without mei got speeding ticket going first ticket either meaning im going traffic history follow rest life continue live moms car meaning im terrible son know hurt mom die long run death better seeing worry killing someone car accident getting car totaled speaking love driving fast im terrible person addicted actions put others lives risk road empty love flying large roads makes feel free gets feeling happy im usually depressed speeding makes happy reason world better dead need reason live keep drawing blanks wish make onlyfans people buy content im broke busy work im leaving reddit great funny theres depressing stuff really need right now along things still favourite subreddit though thank cya around partner deathfrom us want die summer ends someone want join year old male dont response near end leave alone im prepared ok firstly fan whole low budget horror genre bother really need fan gagbr br move basically snakes train lots thembr br ancient curse involved crazy ending wont spoil gore effect full real icky movie mainly one big gory gag snakes scaring hell bunch people trapped trainbr br suspense built well memorable well composed scenes acting bit hammy watch surf dudes thats really point give movie go know expect wont regret fastesteasiestpainless way kill myselfokay fed getting simple answer anywhere wan na hear life gets better youre important life precious help shut fuck one asked never thought shit b know first thing even know existed till read note someone use tell straightreal answer want life ended period period period viewed movie second time september thought even better first time saw thoroughly enjoyed acting especially uncle benny thought fred carpenter excellent job writing directing film story line definitely kept interest hope movie makes way top felt moved smoothly scenes surprise twist end well lets say see coming thought craig actor played eddie monroe excellent job hope movie help go acting career start finish thoroughly enjoyed tried everything exercise medication calling friend vent problems calling suicide hotline getting psych guard group therapy psychologists meditation eating healthy owning emotional support animal nothing absolutely nothing works alone life friends grew tired problems blame lost inside mind thought asking help way mysery turns never basically used every single person close fix broken soul feel guilty wanted even want happy wanted okayi lived past expiration date stopped trying long time ago want last words make everyone knew feel depressed opposite actually hope understand find happiness find stability looking years got tired trying please put shoes sanei got point realized gone crazy depression took left used person everyone knew died long time ago left remainsi want know understand best needed free pain going today finally restwhoever reading wish best love understand pain going really wish free wish hug right nowmom please feel guilty dad take care love keep young memories find lived past expiration date teachers dress halloween bring classroom joy appreciated sweethearts teachers dress bring joy classroom sweetest things trying bring happiness laughs classroom appreciated maybe even bring candy room decorations deserve raise acts kindness made fun acting silly amp fun kinda gave friend rim jobbbb mean kinda okay one lick still rlly fun chinese people see less deadass asked hella asian friend tbh guys need confirmation last strawhi everyonei years old malewho born raised turkey wanted go germany education without parents approvali sisterswho came back germany turkey years ago lived germany almost years alone without anybodybefore came turkeyi knew stuff wrong check hospitali thyroid hormones high germany roommate pharmacist checked low blood sugar unconsciousi took care issues turkeyalthough mental state badi month without shower going germany oncei started smoking therenot much drugs thoi never liked sedatedmost life learned things myselfmy father teaching things need know childhood example proper body care maleafter came back germanyi went many psychiatrist came backi used lot antidepressantsneurolepticsi tried break bonds friendsi cut stab knife many timesnot redflagbut forgetting emotions pains physical onei friendsmy familymy lifemyselflooks coming endmy doctor said parentsthat give responsibilitiesback kidmy sisters look likethey respect ask mewhatever want please aski try answer questions thanks reading think fell love best friend alright heres thing think im love best friend im screwed history friendship literally thick thin literally share everything always care one another point time time say love one another country shes originally another country go international school lockdown happened stuck country going renew passport boyfriend country hard listen everything say give comfort months go becomes sad depressed still country months went broke shattered hard comfort didnt know didnt want give empty words ill end repeating months goes gets better shes getting chased guys country one especially kept chasing eventually got back never met lived another city basically weird flirtatious friendship dont mind wasnt pushing wanted something serious wanted affection away everyone knew talks lot guys look walks smiles bad way good way call dont know made feel jealous talks guys wants affection even wants atleast one boyfriend country leaves peoplebut someone breakup leaves comes back said dont know makes feel jealous wished person talks hugs behind kissing cuddling want shit dont know want dont know trying fill void im hopeless romanticwhich entirely whole story yeah think im love best friend dont know thought killing escape say people world good life feel kill end right back cycle suffering whether another world dimension universe reality etc feel take another form existence knows believe god feel something higher power send lower part reality reality one destroying current consciousness buddhism says reincarnate piece bacteria something abrahamic religion says suffer eternity fire anger redflag shame atheism sounds best one exists anymore dreamless sleep forever sounds good true see something disappear nowhere really see dying old age one smoke two feel everything go shit climate change exponentially increasing rich getting richer poor getting poorer ww probably going start decade two wish scientist hurry fuck making ai mini black hole feel escape everyday every minute every second suicidal thoughts attempted stopping now try happy already given life want end tonight successful try given already soul tiredim going hurt im definitely deep depression idk marriage dying dont job lost identity person kids nobody talk causing bottle everything weighing now plans hurting couldnt bear think loved ones im leaving behind wish rest good theres light end tunnel ive worked way hard life looks good paper leaves many voids know redflag watch im much heartache pain every day feel im walking cinderblock shoes exist withering away every day ill take advice needed place anonymously weight chest youre reading thank hey broettes im natsuu nice meet ya ampxb already met da bros seemed cool want existliterally every fucking person life starts hate know fucking annoying stupid complete waste energy hate fucking much want end ive attempted twice even much coward choose method definitely permanent oxy xanax nice way go next time picking something never waste anyones time give upim tired pain hurt im tired failure im tired alone scared im tired living kicked downccc lifes probably simulation cares deathim mentally done want everyones gon na forget existed probably watched government honestly dont care im hurting people killing want die suffering im gon na let anyone elses want live overpower thought im afraid kill want dont guts im young teenager requesting website offers people looking counselling others offering counsellingit imgur reddit lost problem solved beginning endso morning gf four months broke everything said break still loves went block social medias one stopped killing months back many times now feel ive failed person care person love feels crap ive failed many people im cried believe appropriate time remove problem im back sub againit takes much rut one word none someone back bottom tonight nighti told story sub hundreds times younger brother killed life spiraled control person kept grounded broke fucked someone week later tried give every family member good last memories even ex im coming home christmas want say feel fucking horrible need keep thinking fucking bad want holidays already hard enough told happened knew cant matter hard try got accomplish one last thing accepted transfer student college goes thank feel free send message need someone talk toplease tinkewbeww amazing fwen wish wewe besties guess thats weality found one local grocery stores near sells croissants literally cents piece theyre good croissants sell ham cheese ones cents still hella cheap find earlier actually croissants havent wasted opportunities smh yes buy lots croissants upon finding talk favorite theories users sub unique us turned teenagers us still high school us university us married us kid us house us underage us virgins us arent virgins hi againi posted something weeks ago anyway felt better days happened ive waking suicidal thoughts go away yesterday stayed bed day need find new apartment end month im homeless im tired plan jumping roof friends five story building end month cant fix things life ex said friends month ran even opened email sent tell hes completely moved care im tired anyway thought id write cant talk specifics friends without freaking im checking outi think used lethal took mg fluoxetine units quick acting insulin im diabetic seeing takes truly hope find peace happiness life always mad day everyday still want kill hate family starting hate friends hate still alive died years ago familys problems stem memy mom finally divorced stupid ass dad still dealing bullshit comes even left punched treated dog never called name instead punching offed right therebest case blame come hell beat ass forever worst case problems still happen hear iti know guess another teen issues stem father original even sad anymore seemed recognition emotional state wanted quiet scares claims trying help comfort really trouble believing second time something happened first time arguing getting really heated simpsons predict future world us becoming dumb copying script cartoon im middle east way better us countrys government breaking apart joke sad truth xanaxis painful die xanax cute girl litteraly bedroom way looks swear im going die knife bit annoying though life much easier thinkthis going mess idk post format fucked apologise sometimes cant stop thinking reasons id better dead im barely human cant function everyone im constantly reminded every shitty thing life matter go ill never able forget vivid memories every little thing ive fucked cant life without self harm thing point boyfriend theres almost nothing life makes happy anymore amp fucking sucks ive tried talk quitting said something want thats beside point idk feel lost im trying find something make stop thinking forever amp redflag answer course temporary release cutting enough amp never plus ruining life much easier kill go shit want feel think even exist ill always reminded past experiences long period sexual abuse amp rape abusive father amp fucked family even live long enough move ill plagued issues rest life boyfriend says things think future itll better think will things never better makes happy really enough keep alive next couple years im stuck fucking house know im even writing im much coward actually end came pretty fucking close couple months ago course wish wouldve succeeded normally happiness others responsibility want commit redflag whywhy happiness others responsibility sudden want kill happiness responsibility sort liked columbo movie atmosphere real thriller approach even times reminded filmnoir movie first minutes really nice done good old fashioned way right camera angles use light mean instantly movie brilliant one though solid enough consider good late columbo movie entry definitely better movie average later columbo movie entrybr br years previous columbo movie appearance george hamilton returns play main lead opposite peter falk murderer total different new role course liked role good columbo villain gave good old lieutenant good competition nice sequences together problem modern new columbo movies always sort feature good well known actor opposite peter falk movie obviously suffer problem must say though movie feature peter falk best certainly played character better performance quite consistent enough within movie probably due movie director daryl duke directed really dreadful movie taipan among many projectsbr br rather good enjoyable story fact sort plot cover murder used earlier columbo movie help course got used movie columbo playback nevertheless course still plenty enough original moments story even though course essence every columbo movie less oh well made columbo series great consistent aint broke fix itbr br true within movie clues usual left lieutenant mean movie murderer stupid sloppy see writers overly enthusiastic others make movie story bad fact perhaps even makes enjoyable see columbo hard work discovering kind small important clues luckily movie filled enjoyable effective relieving columbocomedybr br simply good late columbo movie entrybr br guys sometimes panic attacks start thinking future currently work hours day days week earn hour help parents rent pay services keep rest spend bit stupid stuff much spend free time watching anime reading manga buying manga playing games friends really enjoy thing whenever think ill life start panicking heart goes ballistic want study anything specific want work specific field thing ive got sort figured may interested serving one branches military future want good stable income afford stupid stuff housing nice car day buy house knowing life makes seem hard obtain parents want study ged want keep working help pay rent feel completely lost always find going back playstation laptop forget worries seems cycle end im expendablefor stranger im easily replaceable anyone thats obvious guy match ive talking online week im easily replaceable online friends im easily replaceable friend real life definitely know im easily replaceable talk years found depression act got better even talks extended family im easily replaceable barely even know think im dirty sinner anyway give shit disappeared immediate family im replaceable death im sure theyre resilient whole load minds worry wasting money anymore wasting opportunities nice enough give anymore starving street anymore waste resources im festering wound someones leg need cut stop existing society better without guys google yankee boogle end atf watchlist definitely d printable device convert standard semi auto ar full auto thing left gone continuedeven fucking better girlfriends laughs saying gon na kill one person still needed moment getting angry saying wanted said gon na kill fucking laughed said bullshitting im fucking overdosing dont care anymore honestly theres point apart family fucking depressingi dont fucking understand dogshit parentsevery sunday keep bringing church knowing hate going plus dad doesnt even listen goddamn messages pastor literally points exact bullshit hes wrongthe pastor talks letting children date non christians sister talks children moving away church parents fault sister doesnt give fuck shows doesnt even fucking listenso drive hour back every week waste hours sunday every week lung cancer ass doesnt even behave christian mom saves kindness love complete strangers gives fucks mea stranger bringing bike lift quick press lift button keep lift open even though theres fucking sensors already keep door openher thoughts filled childrens safety complete fucking strangers well minewhen tell dont want go church shes oh thats problem tell dad yourselffuck sake dont enough authority say fuck dont wan na go church really hope dads lung cancer takes life soon cant fucking take shit anymore depression made caused dont give fuckeverybody youre willing actually care child dont fucking breed ive suicidal lifei want die anybody vent idk cant find anywhere truly great movie loved dennis quaid entire baseball team jay hernandez likable actor enjoyable watch chemistry team got things together spectacular goes show accomplish minds unite one one goal team came back brink multiple losing seasons winning everything love movies really inspirationalbr br top dennis quaids character getting place major leagues cant anything root guy seems someone supposed something going things happen fall place makes everything clickbr br based true story film really make think fact nothing impossible want sea want drown peoplemy friend suicidal exhausting yes needs help support always expects talk parents therapist call fucking hotline dump every fucking time really friends whod listen im starting understand care cant deal practically week burning even supposed tell everything complains true yes one likes one cares whether live die exception people maybe yes fat ugly yes unable keep even stupid min wage job yes failing school yes life pointless meaningless theres nothing sends pics gun tells brain going wall makes feel hostage helpless afraid leave wants talk listen broken record story night till hes drunk enough pass sleep hours afford hes unemployed give fuck school hand wake function well hours sleep think im reaching point soon burnt tired sleepdeprived enough tell go almost convinced best option anything improve situation change anything makes depressed cant care anymore chipping away remains sanity anyone join militaryhello fellow redditters depressed lost meaning life joined thought joining military ive looking option time trying enlist snags think might good dedicate something greater focus lifestyle time able travel outside home state try new things meet new people benefits bad perhaps military life fill renewed purpose ive heard stories people joining pretty miserable even redflags anyone experience share airforce way pretty well asvabs need retake maybe even better time around looking position cyber systems space command lactose intolerant tolerate quite simple actually even simne built different needs special lactose tolerant desperately need job mom pretty much hey record im rapper take rap shit serious fuck im willing put time effort money shit problem money guys aware turning months job working twice week making paycheck mom hardly let work anymore shifts frankly shes lazy mean drive finished driving classes wont let take road test practice hardly takes practice shes protective fuck doesnt want driving back whole job thing old job went corona reopened months ago never called back chances probably wont hardly making money anyway tried talking mom made bunch excuses virus dangerous know plenty jobs really good safe health regulations place dont want constantly leave house wouldnt issue let drive already give dollars month thats nearly enough need actually accomplish shit plus dont want use money want early start career always makes shit difficult stems fact shes protective fuck wants stay inside time im turning months fucks sake know purpose place world know want let geez hey im bored alone stream playing gta v talk chat please knew totally fucking itbut dont god fucking damn maybe jump front train tomorrow itll going slow anything probably wont fucking fuck fuck jump dayi stood top bridge climb jump friend goes dont dint want framed murder fill paper work seeing wow thanks dont jump need friend need dont stay popular filthy motherfuckers failed one god damn job hadyou absolute fucking mongoloids shadow banned guy instead offering help im sure subreddit helping people making lives worse go suck shotgun barrel see feels driven point go shadow banned subreddit designed help people see feels access anymore people care thats okeveryone thinks theyre bad guy one question everyone bad guy world fucked good telephone gamechinese whisper someones lying say treat others want treated golden rule say bullshit treat others treated many people treated shit sure fuck want treated kinda funny true people care responsibilities understand well responsible question shown care well mental state left deal suffering choice responsibility care responsible reason show care shown thoughts hours sleep always philosophical sleep way looking world proof action religious theres bible verse faith without works dead james sums see world hope feel better well soon stop hating getting helpmods let know proper sub ill best girlfriend years told suicidal last night said tonight night really know point talking hours phone texted sister gf still lives parents gf taken hospital upset understand hold anything blaming stuff control berating every time ive tried talking today im trustworthy anymore according lying said hurt lot now trying look bright side taken care family never big fan seem see better light apologise word soup im trouble focusing right now thank reading im fucking failureeveryone leaves always either leave someone makes everybody see im worst possible fucking thing live hate much literally express amount words actions come close much hate need die generally improve life everybody around guess anyone im inconveniencing taking oxygen id write letter asking organs donated theyd probably kill someone know heart black fucking dead try kind people fucking kick ledge lose grip spiral mentally unstable im worth anything im fucking peice shit shoot think live long enough someone got redflag ocd depression lots different meds feel awful still tied mind knots trying self protect untie feel want give really much take brain unscramble feel losing touch reality downvote post wan na know many downvotes please filler filler filler filler filler filler filler testing post reddits accting rn im tryna see rteenagers biased muppet fan love treasure island christmas carol great muppet caper muppet movie absolutely deserves best enormously entertaining thanks snappy script jerry juhl film looks lovely beautifully staged musical numbers speaking songs really liked sure best song score muppet franchise nice listen especially never never one favourite muppet songs along first time happens professional pirate muppets usual fantastic particularly always delightful miss piggy chemistry kermit fozzie great brilliant human cast bob hope orson welles madeleine kahnthe wonderful actress brought us hilarious movies whats doc blazing saddles clue cloris leachman steve martin richard pryor made memorable guest appearances careful overshadow muppets fantastic film bethany cox im sick itid say ive dealing lot car accident two midterms taking credit hours courses summer trying expand nothingness social life im looking friends necessarily mean friends cool stuff im much interested something intimate immodest someone sex someone try sexual fantasies im going lie sex part mandatory thing appreciate everything im majorly affected anniversaries going dates weekly wants thats cool sex reasonable time weeks right now nobody seems hookups wouldnt bad seems put incel land niceguy land god dont want compared im serious say sex say stay friends benefits perfectly fine ive flipped always acted big deal said ive worked courage talk many times isnt girl interested girl date black guys stood prom college girl looking relationship thought college sex mania something girl gay happy days ago brother told girls thought cute wanted set something gave number give text ghost well im getting tired shit pardon language dont want around see history repeat vital part development celibacy sacrifice willing make life money hookers premium porn connections hookups hate bars clubs entire lifestyle general one thing cant stand seeing right relationships im getting little heavy worded fuck every single person relationship shows fucking time dont want see well anyways thats want feel way anymore long im alive im gon na feel way hate whenyoure looking painless methods kill google shows bunch sites telling assure looking usa turing s germany people burning bibles people always talk crap christians back germany people started killing jews honestly whats next us blm protesters terrorizing usa im ending police brutality equality going way far needs end christians republicans christians homophobic racist white pls stop hating christians sadly bad christians use god excuse hate people hurting religion good people hate birthday year time feel wasted another year life accomplishing nothing bday dont dare say ting requirements girlfriend bc saw someone female nice treat respect nothing really matters finally agree iphone terrible apple respect customers proved expecting everyone buy chargers headphones separately even lower phone price yeah man feels aint good right worrying college school life jeez enough make heart drop try think slip every isnt pretty though im intelligent got condoms put dildo clean poop filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler cant take morefemale severe ptsd emotional issues live isolated area one trust guy issues hes mentally abusive future want bro friend pranked friend dying basically theres friends offline months said oh friend died everyones rip username im thinking sort joke im wait username died one yeah bro died cancer n stuff friend died u didnt find cap cap cap im blaming got proof say proof show send ss fake ass cnn article girl dying cancer pranked xd xd xd xdxd fucking hate now blocked rn aint gon na hear long ass time tbh organization american states essentially become eu open borders free trade among every country american continent tired sick suicidal cant deal itwell ive put almost years feel ive made good faith effort better avail im tired dealing brain damage previous attempt probably shaved good points iq left impaired executive functioning seemingly permanent three years now brain fog hate job dead end job stressful low paying boringbest requires constant travel really nightmare dread waking morning broke girl alienated friends usual deal pressures putting relationship going future together etc desire interact anyone putting time work mostly sleep listlessly watch tv weekends real kicker endogenous depression likely incurable ive always depressed cant really recall time depressed seriously doubting better ive therapy coming nine years now enormous waste time energy countless medications medication helps ive found test enanthate cruise run cycles weeks duration every year helps marginally currently running anything right now though hitting feel im borrowed time anyway mom checked age want end swear ive done everything right nothing helps life going bearable done now im ok im ok im ok im okjust went round house taking eything downing bottle wine idek tok except mg propranolo whats point trying reach tell go hom eand die floor wan dont hope guys favouritememorable quotes quotes lyrics sayings kind thing hip hop rendition mos def performance according films musical creditsit incredible piece savage consciousness slams violence heart snap anyone tell someplace song live wire snap mos def ground truth undeniable duty see americans might support mission embrace soul caught inside savage miscalculation purposethey take haunting many us sit back angrybr br live wire snap mos def foundbr br desperate find br br medically unable serve recover sanitywell ive lately struggling random sanitycordure loss driving crazy used dissociative identity disorder treated got integrated anyone know imagine disorder fragmentates someones head different people control someones body without even aware got integrated parts fused complete happened half year ago lately random sanity loss breaking mind feel sad cant move bed reduced amount food eat due loss appetite know break pieces parts might complot possibly kill well actually know alive something good anymore grades going care much used got way restore sanity something know talking psychologist help lot ive told mother twice already care enough might even think due age btw struggled years apparently got fixed seems coming back possibly proper traitment tried deal entirely right now im bed study exams coming week hard even think something remain bed listening music homeless awful bad tiny bit hope crushedim staying homeless shelter provide meals use computer talk post stuff although im lurker anyway years ago rough time talked someone site stopped left reddit came back talk couple years embarrassed eaten week im trying sell steam account working funds eat asked favor thisperson couple bucks food said sure reply said stalking help idea came last message sure help hope humanity ruined hope general swallow pride thing loathe ask help shit face talk killing cant go food banks right id soup kitchens close lose place sleep indoors travel back due time distance cant afford eat friends family one last bit hope shredded whats point living im going starve death go hang right fucking now know feeling frantically look something lost panickly search entire house realize hand entire time im stupid know stressed work work dairy queen boss laying people getting enough business cause winter im worried im gon na laid cause bills pay dont know im gon na pushed friend slide see happens floor made concrete great idea park fell face first broke nose lol blamed kid nothing bad happened action horror scifi exploitation director fred olen ray shows talent director character actor william smith one best toughbad guys industry treats viewer best acting performance career randy travis gives best lee van cleef impression hes bad film smith travis make movie rest cast none really stand ray great job directing flick smith travis good id give b western scale one tenten best seven beautiful filmjohn garfields character distant relative les miserabless jean valjean detective rains recalls victor hugos javertthe ruthless arm lawbr br many films noirsthe city epitomizes evil whereas country nature represents sanctuaryredemptionand second chance whose life seems forever doomedbut even luminous daylightdanger may appear suddenlyas excellent scene reservoir showsjohn garfield actor whoas leonard maltin points outshould rediscoveredive never disappointed films except supporting part gentlemans agreement faultgives heartfelt sensitive performance audience sides soon unjustly accused first sequence shows rather unkind hypocrite personbut trials redeem feel last scenes detective rainscolorful characters grandma kids add lot joie de vivre necessary humor present strip poker game dead end brats fleece rich kidbr br recommend movie grew town huge high school athletics pretty much every boy expected play something treated different spectrum sports thing turned wanted escape reality situation ill first admit bit jock status people barely recognized condition least gave pass played sports dominated ladies man throughout teen years truly top world year school hold massive pep rally month school year pep rallys day thing feature multiple events biggest event athletic competition hundreds students boys girls compete multiple activities eliminated one one winner crowned competition freshman sophomore junior year year history event student three straight competitions fully prepared win fourth straight complete dynasty athletic director told school gift scholarship fund able win one time usual breezed competition early comfortably secured spot final round yet surprises time finals opponent first time girl happened freshman tall lanky posed real threat naked eye final round consist basketball shootout first wins basketball best sport felt almost gifting championship took early lead ended getting lucky hot streak defeated became champion humiliated went massive depression know deserved one holding trophy seeing hoist killed rest senior year remains blur put even salt wound girl defeated go win competition ththth grade years got dynasty denied pain comes goes really strong recently humiliated never able live know silly seem let go past know unhealthy upset years later help think night toss turn thinking prevented won one completed dynasty lucky little bitch ruined life something happened nearly ten years ago advice want help dont want make things worsetw trauma abuse neglect sh etc first part context feel free skip may important parts living mom roommatewho obviously lot closer roommate loved torment brainwashed manipulated mom believing destroy life tell daughter live happily picture convinced im useless great job left alone home entire summer returning brief hour drop necessities returning back point drop food literally nothing eat survived water tea moved month september really big fight broke thats first time told considering redflag called police hospitalized discharged went live aunt months later went live friend februaryish back mom roommate time leading hospitalized another times constant torment lots isolation relapsed old habits staying night sleeping day avoid see himor matter started self harming suicidal ideation got worse around everything horrible one night may three us really bad fight dont remember events leading remember put chokehold kicked shoved onto tile floor head hitting first called police restraining order placed cps got involved thats found abuse neglect moms side removed care placed one aunts barely month hospitalized aunt thought mustve devils son self harming suicidal went live dads best friendmy exstepmotherfor sake simplicity ill call anne alright heres now ive annes care june things gone relatively well ive still dealing depression anxiety suicidal ideation sh whole time felt comfortable opening last time attempted redflag told pissed called selfish stupid ungrateful etc yelled time let go sleep felt shit felt worse relationship damaged im scared opening every time ive told things im bothered ends lecture fight argument lately ive feeling lot suicidal usual much hard even think life without wanting stop existing gotten really bad know need tell someone im scared breaking point finds im still suicidal even tell shell find im hospitalized someone tells know exactly happen likely pictures mind say im much kick everyone completely revoke privacy andor trust damaged ruined bond may first outcome happens ill completely lost know ill living next two really stressful deal helpful either way wish tell whats happening wish respond way end well everyone id fine take hospital fact think best issue worked past probably let happen reason worked past take seriously accept help getting feel im contradicting making everything much worse wish feel really stuck right know go help appreciated im sorry long post delete allowed gf contemplating redflag know doive girl almost months sweetest kindest considerate person ive met family mess parents divorced father inconsiderate asshole mother narcissistic bitch mother forces everything including taking care adopted sister age baby father kicked long ago hated new family feel wanted belongs place constantly daily fights parents found last week cries sleep nights think means every night found couple days ago nightmares want sleep along sleeps little wakes several times night hinted redflag met told cut thought redflag see parents even care never noticed cuts never mentioned past couple texts thats sent tells wants give given ive tried give support im professional needs help phone night said wanted help family cant afford parents freelance dad seems money relationship probably willing spend help girl feels guilty receiving help went psychiatrist says one thing parents use guilt trip im fucking worried know please help know much longer take forgot mention living beijing expats unfamiliar sorry botheri saw many people posting realized posting probably task choice seeing im already writing might well finish cry help im posting note plan overdosing want people finding note untill already late need couple hours itll please understand want ive tried realized ill keep trying untill physically cant heres note one many drafted notes final official note hey everyone read clicked link posted know late im somewhere able find ive already ingested fatal amount meds know itll hard im sorry already cut communication months hard people whove stuck time id thank asked better friends im sorry friendship end anyone asked life im sorry lying im sorry saying worse brushing question simple good hbu im sorry mom dad shay know haunt years please know im better place anyone ive pleasure meeting remember follow dreams forgive always know cliche heck thats honestly best advice think moment people ive hurt sorry hope able forgive know im tired hurting im tired hurt want breathe feel love cry feel life beautiful life curse stuck depends cope know choice love guys bye ps checking replying comments already made clear posting note whats psychology redflagi thought necessary asking may useful understanding considering far think believe brain distinguish reality vs fantasy talking evolutionary point humans species commit redflag reason commit redflag believe solution ending pain brain thinks redflag solution help survive better reality opposite think happiness choice happy think people depressed genetically wired brains stimulated much adhd person perhaps evolutionary trait think modern society made difficult depressed people society caters average person way depression im trying understand better thought giving ideas depression way better understanding think understanding important trait world cant keep living foreverive miserable long time every time think things better never end feeling even worse cant even things enjoy anymore moments actually fun become ruined home remember im still alone happiness illusion cant keep going one seems care feel keep thwarted every turn try kill none people want anything help situation say anything control life choose whether born im trapped miserable existence cant anything completely ridiculous im okay im okay anything never want want small things make happy want taken away rather die terms old die alone one close refuse let future feel need go impatient againbut really dont want desire cut getting bad cut year half every day urge gets worse urge gets worse life seems pointless opinion one barbara stanwycks best performances one handful actors now say single look entire page dialogue lucky enough see original uncensored movie extra minutes additional footage bad movie short lily young woman barely holding together working father illegal speakeasy link anything good friend chico played wonderfully theresa harris though chico african american white woman best friends black woman back s controversial subject matter movie lily special bond sexual women stuck shoved situation beyond control lilys father dies know told power wants yes immoral thats entire point movie go ruin last minutes last minutes movie superb film worth watching lesson movie still valid today back im sure years now women awful lily order wants works men take note feel isnt enough posts posting people online carrying sub hard man already done waiting works mg diazepam mg alprazolam xanax heineken sick people manipulating even got kicked lab initially caused alienating cleaned lab others stuff sentiment even answer phone calls read messages fucking moneylaundering piece shits tried ignore done trusted doign financial necessity trusted humane side one fucking cares fuck em die ill die wake liike hours going stop chasing fancy phds taken away locked ill see taken away ill make see live attempt im done im done naive im done trusting people nice spilled heart person fucking ignores bitch im done thanks guys reddit reply comments friendish messages days literally zero friends contact list consists family thats im done im done trusting im done bullied might total idiot exactly pogger filler filler filler filler filler filler filler tried boba tea really random tried boba tea hate texture tapioca balls remind fish eyes making physically ill anyone tell purpose appeal painless redflag methodsstraight point please comment might end tonight story want help meso might belong wanted share story name ralph friend second grade name isebella everybody said identical someone internet called coco queen personally never saw face helps piciture good isebella hanged alot even almost lived together always played vieogames watced netfilx time lives families business friends aproved friendship things kind awkward around us parents always made sex jokes us hear one night family dinner family father shamed went outside air followed cold outside playing still loving scorpians fell accidentely kissed said sorry said ok felt started daiting hot digidi dog daiting started drinking together spent time together started even watching horror movies together best moments life months magic still everything come end hedding house netflix found dead card hand freaked called police family everything investigaded security cameras fount commited redflag fucking panic attack saw killing read note left fucking insane made braclet still wear month event still cant believe fucking self happened started seeing therapist dont think works person really understanded complesity yea truly sucks want blow brians outgoodbye world im gon na kill sweet rest come wan na marry season ahsoka tano ngl shes pwetty im f super delicate annoying im barely lbs hurt wicked easily delicate everyone cheer team injuries angel boyfriend constantly help comfort hurt feel bad happens much noticed recently sleeping problems might reason first thought something physical lack iron blood something never thought something deep post isnt especially discussions really wanted post story course comment love discuss stuff guys thank reading need adviceneed help keep getting fleeting suicidal thoughts almost everyday basis now reason havent gone itatleast tell imagine toll take parents gotten little worse late honestly dont know life grade school mentality ok lets kill peacefully knowing didnt became flustered gave years thinking genuinely dont know life didnt plan sort redflag hotline texting australiansi need someone unload problems talking gives anxiety th day reddit account ive reddit two years now various accounts th day account remember made wasnt great place im posting kinda reminder now im happy still yes thats cool thanks make reddit enjoyable place im finally emotionally better place im still want stay still may commit redflag please read understandi work restaurant industry graphic designer wasnt able recent samples work poo hit rotating oscillator im sure restaurant business isnt going rebound fast everyone thinks many people think going go away things go back normal im sure think damage done im sure future even things bounce back im sure ill getting call come back severe emotional issues adhd bipolar asd couple facebookinstigram posts mentiong needing samples work may screwed ive idea wanted samples work side goes im told make look im coming back ive deleted im scared ill end shelving groceries walmart heb kroger homeless mean medication id making minimum wage thats enough money eat cheap maybe pay bill id still sleeping street medication mentally ive preparing fact may walk everything live street medication help id rather die go back im mentally prepared want push comes shove will living dead treatment actually feelings now im going back thank reading edited punctuation el chavo del chavo something stupid quiqo ramon tries stop doa florinda blames ramon hits ramon gets mad hits el chavo repet times every post see always start hate feel feel see youim done life past week ive planned many times ive stood edge beautiful cliff id love fly really strong urge jump kid dreams jumping getting seconds falling think life die theres turning back even wanted save change mind cant couldnt think better way go ive wanted whole life dreams started happening cliff edge dont close really jump ready yet first dreams kid jumped roof house im sure didnt hurt felt good reason dont see living past age im convinced eventually im sure anyone fantasy jump high places please let know fantasys redflag let know might sound weird cunt yeah thats friends work drink much days lot problems cant fix haha pretty chill overdosing wasnt fun thought wanted mix try something new work cant fuck matter much fuck things guys think karma real filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler thought checking hospital help nothing put horrid medication gave horrifying reaction stop taking week going go school semester unfortunately able afford payment classes tomorrow clean money job skill future slave wishing die everyday angry demotivated piece snot oozing way walls room towards rock bottom wish find way make money music unfortunately nigh impossible practically anyone another dream fucked disgusting planet live going research finally actual help ending pointless miserable existence point seems help stand gain anymore life everything try meaningless everything put effort fails every passion fades away every love share torn apart sick rollercoaster sick losing time gone finding easiest reliable painless way fuck shit remember kids want age flair click three dots top right corner screen press change user flair block cant see shit piss u blocked depressed random pointsthis night normally skyping friends talking working homework listening music usual stuff teen minutes later fighting back tears wanting cut wondering much itll hurt wondering friends confused ive made many mistakes life wondering normal thing go random intervals happened school eating lunch talking friends know wish emotions normal god helps still strugglingone day suffering end hope enter gods kingdom till day pray accept jesus savior best poison around house actually kill dont want anything painful thats want doi dont know start tell think best household poisonous item better way maybe smh want sinp post cant someone simp wanting kill th grade im scared please listen know anymore im last straw everything im going give fair bit background bear assume lot people felt way felt hopeless sick feel way time ive gotten used ive gone crying trying hurt th grade able keep lid well school im happy unless im best friend boyfriend im apparently supposed better relationship hit quite potholes one gave time opportunity enjoy things took granted sister says look back ashamed break push head feel horrible someone makes happy feel better guess bottom line nothing makes truly happy nothing lasts always ends devastation every happy moment go away im strong enough deal pain everything anything life ive told im smart young attractive care want live hurt bad know much pain later wish give life someone appreciate make good use every choice take going consequences im tired dealing seeing everyone family try hard happiness fail cant spend time feel sick want live anymore im exhausted much love someone hug tell going alright cant accept cry everyday losing virginity alone family torn apart cant bed im dead set killing soon things worse better suppose second thoughts im posting im seeking consolation instead immediately want way hurt family friends love much understand help im sorry wasted time nonsense im young enjoying want look back memories im actually happy content hurt want happy memories ripped away feel alone edit im feeling much worse cant stop feelings everything fault cant deal increasing guilt feel sick want die feel horrible cant handle regret much cant breath want die bad every happy memory deserve want kill right now know im scared hail mary pass ironicallythe church says mortal sin know selfish act living suffering fear shame years now selftalked near insanity ive kept goingtryinghoping hope deferred makes heart grow sick red said hope dangerous thing hope drive man insane utterly failed life lot fault lot isnt thinking going infection hide act suddenly leaving seeking medical help least odd hurt mother know even think redflag torture wondering issue waking every day loss questions cruelty yet another seemingly endless list misdeeds im nearly famous know im seriously considering scares yet continue plan leave home seek infection return course protect family find location fill gas tank etc first minimize transmission isolate somewhere im guessing good month isolate hotelmotel think afford long night even thinking food airbnb might rentable place month right doubt money still issue put others danger even though actively isolate obviously shelters centers etc camping maybe read sorry novel superb prime suspect series reaches part four loss momentum considerable achievement prime suspect iv lost child solid supporting cast take granted british dramas course beautiful helen mirren easily dominates eyes never leave onscreenbr br search lost child title leads superintendent jane tennisons cid team prime suspect turns convicted pedophile living single mother two young daughters insight given workings mind one emotional highlights miniseries may strong many stomachsbr br action sequences brilliantly handled handheld camera thrusting us right middle excitement theres gripping tension climactic siegebr br altogether another magnificent police procedural drama slys best action film superbly enjoyable movie interesting characters solid performances renny harlins direction stylishly assured stallone rarely interesting action films certainly looks part terms action scenes one best action films year one thrilling enjoyable s definite genre classic stallone fan one look back fond memories plenty superb action sly prime action man form action lovers appreciate film hallmarks make good aciton film film looks great great support janine turner michael rooker john lithgow michael kallio gives strong convincing performance eric seaver troubled young man horribly mistreated little boy monstrous abusive alcoholic stepfather barry genuinely frightening portrayal gunnar hansen eric compassionate fianc sweetly played lovely tracee newberry job transcribing autopsy reports local morgue haunted bleak past egged bald beaming jack demon truly creepy michael robert brandon sent edge recent death mother eric goes deep end embarks brutal killing spree capably directed kallio wrote tight astute script uniformly fine acting sound noname cast jeff steiger especially good erics wannabe helpful guardian angel michael rather rough overall polished cinematography george lieber believable truetolife characters jolting outbursts raw shocking unflinchingly ferocious violence moody spooky score dan kolton uncompromisingly downbeat ending grungy detroit michigan locations grimly serious tone taut gripping narrative stays steady track throughout extremely potent gritty psychological horror thriller makes often absorbing disturbing viewing real sleeper saw film entry santa fe film festival heavy film depiction completely dysfunctional family taken another level extreme might left depressed extreme funny sight gags dialogue along way lightened films overall tone relatively uplifting ending gave hope affected initial tragedy still walk theatre ready go fun party film stayed several daysbr br brought back memories ordinary people humor mixed tragedy thought acting excellent especially sigourney weaver emile hirsh character dealt tragedy times sad selfdefeating times hilarious clever dialogue situations thought life changed years still tired sad growing fast working everyday job hate trying find motivation nothing gotten truly feel great worth always wanted start dating someone scared worth time make things difficult parents always ridiculing good enough hurts even gotten low started cutting feel need punish absolute fool human thing stopping putting bullet skull religious values covid opened new world showed work every day even make close amount money people unemployment sit home asses day feel one factor life redflag wish enjoyed younger years grown hellish schedule people care less size turds shorter average man women weak always looked upon man work looked said smile told nothing smile back self harming tis night christmas christmas people side god forsaken earth merry christmas whatever celebrate happy new year everyone need serious help im really science everything learning everything works overwhelming urge kms see happens death anything death hard control dam deserve every single thing happenedand doesnt even make sad even disguisted shit literally dont want skin hate person victimdo go gentle thy good night rage rage dying light suicidal kidthis kind long story really need help please read ok friend lives hour away younger brother play playstation together sometimes friends play us sort look ive always good kids kind went along upper middle class white kids recently got drug use use drugs always kept good handle really well school scholarships figured going drugs parents might well give advice make sure killed went tell stuff give safety advice one particular always way overdid seeking harder drugs really quickly things getting drunk hed puke pass started trust opened personal stuff never tell anyone andrew kid im worried told dad beats asked severity told hits sometimes seemed rare minor occurrence told thought work proceeded caution weeks later told found dad addicted pain pills things totally derailed started getting trouble parents always phone ps taken away sneak back days ago got drug tested parents failed marijuana next days snap time say fuck nowhere finally told dad attempted redflag days ago upset son getting drug use told really depressed gon na drink tell passed begged agreed sneak onto ps talk first talked stuff trying take mind seemed fake ignoring serious problem asked questions home said asked visited dad said want asked mom said whole thing said talked two days completely grounded cant anything basically sitting environment getting depressed cant anything take mind started drinking anyway got really sad leave mic every couple minutes gone explanation got completely texting started talking wanting kill saying noone even miss talked promised come visit tomorrow big never actually met long back onto depression point living longer stopped answering completely seconds calling cops giving address finally responded talked little longer seemed little better told needs think hed see tomorrow point idk fuck parents trust much drug use lie im going drive hour away idk hell im supposed say avoid topic seem open supportive cool normal recommend something professional family really use advise right thank manifesting keep hearing seeing cant figure means keep pushing back datei set date year lot family stuff happened used excuse push back month month reset date next year time put many things place lasts fluctuate worrying make sorted everything worrying find reason delay sometimes need die strong barely breathe holding tired need die well ididnt ask made ididnt ask torn apartand put back together andturned somelittlemonster sucker pain comforting words please im sorry dont feel good right oh wish ampxb processing img umrrvume see hype manifesting things experiences oneself thought interesting manifest death experience manifestation works things work dying perfect especially got die way choose well random thought one people want death look accident options gruesome likely fail end vegetative statei know people manifest things suicidal interesting find manifest death someone help courage kill myselfi feel trapped want hurt family friends girlfriend cant shit anymore im tired pain ive got pills alcohol someone please tell okay want die want suffer anymore tell okay see future gained back weight lost lol might time sleep lil ole pass exactly one year th july tried failed ended snapping ligaments landing ankle unconscious gotten surgery fix massive scar developed arthritis multiple slipped discs hurt time days bad think killing escape physical pain really really fucking angry last year fuck hide scissors knives got interrupted mother cut perfect hanging set minutes peace guess today kg heavier day still wish free nooooooo stay bitch earth honestly see drugs help people weed occasion helped calm love freed worries thoughts years old feel suffered enough back pain bitch without honestly still feeling suicidal excruciating physical pain rant one year attempt everywherebeen struggling depression severe anxiety whole life ive attempted times recent week ago bipolar well showing signs schizophrenia mom believes fully bought yet im seeing symptoms scarring recovering addict current alcoholic need words encouragement maybe someone tell gets better thanks time guys god bless im boutta restart windows vista hiccup sneezed farted time whats happen neither irl dog minecraft dog die today cuz either im literally crying please give fake internet points make feel better dont see purpose livingi male med school student third world country recently mi grades kibda low friends parents always yell manly enough gf much ibto church etc recently routine consist waking stealing food fridge avoid contact anybody hace considering redflag long time ago year want belive things better someday everything change cant see life gets worde everyday fights parents work failuresi want end pain okay ppl need chill everyone salty everything need chill tf literally posted smt tired writing many college essays responses whyd procrastinate used kid started earlier hold tf started frixkin novemberrrrr applied eight schools different countries never procrastinated literally submitted everything well advance wtfffff trying connect ppl whatttt okay thanks got pissed sec lol killed moonlord expert mode switch aw shit go nick see please dm friend back summer leave got grounded dont remember username reddit met subreddit username words guy thats remember nick see u pls dm wan na clarify stop texting snap know good good friend anyone knows pls tell thanks remi first day lent days go writing thislet absolutely clear know devastate family know devastate friends know devastate community let clear saying depression made look horrific consequences realize simply willpower live life solely benefit others tomorrow going drown lake cold painful perfect quiet end quiet life perhaps lived longer find something live perhaps make something perhaps none happen year line kill anyway let cruelty hope drag another painful year know problems lie intrinsically within simply bear longer sad seventeen years old im going hurt family ways even vengeful person dream done sad tired goodbye quick storytime bc im super embarrassed feel stupid months later skip video viewer asks question mine married course realize video months later due friend telling yeah im going crazyplease help think im going crazy need someone talk dont anyone help nt want risk put stationry mental hospital phone call help much diewhy tried hang instinct kicks want die fucks sake fuuuuck worst first let say never seen heard friend chatted online mom super mad caught talking us earlier today friends mom threw bottle bleeding arms legs head neck everywhere told group chat happening immediately started panicking made quick decision call mom phone house call different phone numbers live city rush questions terrified might bleed one point said breath felt lightheaded dizzy operator stopped asking questions wait felt eternity replying anything sent thought dead around half later operator said able reach scene still waiting full story happened stressful event life fucking tired tldr friend attacked abusive mom call ok basically parents sister grandparents gone boat day yesterday belong boat club came back sitting around table dad end grandfather mums side told dad carrying knife whilst boat case fell cut free life jacket kind idiot yes think cut thing keeping alive apparently weather water shit faced high waves wind axopar dad still laughing grandfathers stupidity bloody hell must screw loose spookiest cat change mind shes black called wednesday wednesday addams hates people occasionally nice rest time scrunch bites black collar studded glittery fish metal things fuck want dieeverything terrible tried writing th fucking attempt somehow worse first im trying draw year half year old better im terrible making friends even question goddamn sexuality time cant stand toxic behaviour matter much ive tried anxiety trauma still stuck heart brain c waiting make go mad second now death seems even harmreduction possibly avoid dissapointing tiny handful people still somehow believe im fucking embarassement cant even write proper english motherfucking fuck even mother language cant take shit anymore guns even legal cant even kill properly end logical reason end life emotional one inferior never happy therapy optioni pretty much tired forced live every day faced nothingness despite trying find different perspectives improve care improving meaningless first guy average attraction weak frail make eating healthy smooth face intelligence lower end average proven intelligence test school resulted going special class pretty bad school college interested able special ed limited achieve failed college university wanted go maths stats physics barely scraped foundation math even constant revision active reading mathematical textbooks went subject best getting around c college got equivalent e partially due lack understanding absence interest towards social person whilst agreeable enjoy leaving house eating travelling nature animalspets sports ive tried numerous occasions ive hated every second point makes depressed little friends throughout life currently one distant friend meet every weeks want alone ive liked ive never liked friends ive kid ive pretty much forced presence ive never girlfriend likely die virgin cant laid want girlfriend something despite trying smarts willingness involved fetish involves bodily functions least somewhat attractive compassion willingness leader relationship good talkerarguer educated good politicsdebate plus optional sex means nothing desire intimacy relationship blame issues anybody desires idea achieve hobbies really occasionally force write wanted writer one point hate every second always wanted goal follow hate want give offers positive value life hobby interested politics debate history science maths linguistics general knowledge despite trying actively read interested forget try talk embarrass forgot read seconds ago despite reading taking notes actively reading going end life soon believe nothing live tried find things worked little therapy therapy shit country cant afford private therapy might desire debating politics science maths etc knowledge despite trying cant retain anything even theres nothing learn academically clubs city million involved anything similar see people younger smarter hate much know comparing necessarily good means fucking nothing choose fucking family yes care much removing world feelings try convince live care enough spare death want talk somebody im tired keeping hope even die spend time talking guys go worth anymoreshe never asks whats wrong anymore guess cause want hear knows always care want calls best friend think knows know third run antideppresants worst month life still going im fucking depressed cant even bring anything even think energy kill mmyself point living transgender completely un passing one believes wants support friends parents give two shits everyones forgotten fact suffer every day life think im better now im young everyone says everything left life know timeline ends know one care glad glad feel im going kill sooni know expand title things going okay cant deal ruin everything becomes even impossible im tired trying want tell people know im posting guess wish id die already im piece shit anyone wan na die even though circumstances really arent badam one really wants kick bucket sure loneliness isolation makes harder honestly dont believe utopian future solve problems often think unrealistic future might even help depression alone hey guess didnt sex neither idk vent guessim sitting bathroom knife im sure im gon na yet likelihood ill cause superficial damage patch move wish cut chest open rip lungs done im one friends vent everyone falling apart drifted away feel theres one go ive tried therapy ive tried medications doesnt work think wasnt meant exist world wan na dieim scared try unsuccessful redflag worst honestly reason alive matter time perfected fooling everyone thinking im great unless bring something roommates dont know surface level friends family nowhere near pain loneliness feel life worthless pointless suffer matter good circumstance want die dont know much torture endure feeling psychoticim sorry im breaking rules cant seem function read rules im feeling crap feel bashing head wall took walk didnt seem help plans tomorrow includes asking crush mean already pretty late wake dumdum join bunch people havin fun getting battle fair king appleslice posting gnarly space facts run knowledge day three days remain wow three days thats insane always questions topics let know comments ill see tomorrow fact lets talk little bit saturns lesserknown moons cool titan enceladus iapetus cant attention want give info im going waste time lets dive right ampxb dione first moon dione moons tidally locked parent planet theres something odd way dione tidally locked side dione faces saturn fewer craters side face saturn exact opposite many scientists expecting indicate point past massive impact may caused diones orientation completely reverse ampxb mimas third favorite saturnian moon one feature named herschel crater put simply massive crater likely made impact nearly obliterated mimas big makes mimas look death star star wars ampxb rhea back nasa announced observations cassini probe suggested rhea small ring system marked first time moon known rings cassini observations unfortunately revealed evidence ring material ampxb tethys final moon tethys dense liquid water suggests moon may almost entirely made water ice saturnian moons super interesting loved fact little quirks redflag im currently years old ok life uppermiddle class teen easy thats problem mother tried hard give life wanted thats good thing made mud worked hard position society turn shit fs school nothing going used varsity baseball player started getting horrible grades kicked team want good grades care subconsciously dont give fuck anything ive indirectly taught work anything mother resents father left never supportive father figure life confide trust ive taught show emotions ive keeping bottled years away anyone emotions ask well one people trusted life passed away years ago accident crossing road going store cousin kyle struck car october died impact hes person shared emotions taken seconds slower fine one except girlfriend idea im mess doesnt know im depressed doesnt know im failing school doesnt know childhood trauma ive forced doesnt know shit ive showed good stuff deserves better depressed thats really even reason im going end life reason nothing look forward everyones life ends point ive decided ending day turn good morning today october th regret inform native teen dontei lecue aged died morning due high speed collision suspect due state drowsiness influence narcotics desperate break upim lost desperate break boyfriend months broke completlt detroyed im year old girl good student really feel ii reason continue living life losng hes first everything world enetered state total desperation dumped still insistted friends remaining important part eachothers life told hard hurtful course id never wanan miss still feelings still love anything got harder harder felt losing feeling replacing feeling lover friend two months friendship noticed new girl life snapped u see course cnt focus lectures anymore university one thing kept going cause evry day see much cut contact compeltely im dying im devasted hes fine absoletely fine every time see happier hes always smiling adn said doesnt love anymore said wants friend cant friend love much never gon na able finds bbetter girl replace im sorry im really sorry know longer together know say behaviour know move byt cant parents done supporting tell stress glad hes longer life one reach dont care anymore want best obvously negative factor life rn wan na stop dont care someone rickrolls cuz love song sansrolling thats whole different story give hope dontmy life pain understand cant happiness want end worth longer stay alive every year progressively worseas child bullied lack social awareness thanks add emotionallyphysically abusive highly religious mother concocted poison mindset said didnt need friends world going end soon anyways childhood filled mostly visited home psychiatrist going jw church speech therapy lisp video games girls elementary thought weird girl playing video games anything boyrelated rumors weird followed middle school high school last year diagnosed anorexia nervosa body dysmorphic disorder last year rancid passing best friend may rest peacefully looking forward year recovery hope closest friend toxic grew habitually gaslighting emotionally manipulating abusing anytime came disagreement instead properly addressing issue spent every breathing moment year wondering anxiously break result belittling carefully thought way didnt recognize problem someone addressed hates talk people led drift friendships destroyed worst part hes online friend real life friends anymore havent close real life friend years become husk lives breathes internet led growing incredibly detached people im hard time finding empathy situations sit stone paired anorexia pushed excessively exercising last year im relapsing currently ended becoming hermit socialization back social events places food eating im increasingly suicidal lack social skills bond people outside internet even small college cant relate much classmates either talk feed conversations add awkwardly cut ramble weird mannerisms hyperactivity childlike behavior given everyone thinks im really weird dont spend time anything someone age yrs act child actual child cupcakes candy cartoons name ive self harming increasingly worse ways physical scars joke family joke isolation lot dont want way cant understand watching siblings always go people experience things someone age driving mad started getting high make imaginary friends interact midst psychedelic trances attempted days ago last month obviously didnt work im scared id found much financial impact leave family want really want go spent yrs planet without close friend share unconditional irreplaceable bond never going happen now cant stay longer anymore pains think even cases made friends left become emotionally abusive towards pain variables mentioned strong dont want cope anymore want solve tldr anorexic behavior emotionally manipulative friend isolated keeping little friends horrible childhood ive lacked social skills friends online friends literally alone spent life alone die alone suicidal fuck want friends man friends flesh everything way happens movies try talk people going find people relate want know better internet exactly wont know go anything anymore im tired everything know one movie possibly compete opening night thats bergmans persona movies simply amazing richness ideas hard grasp first sight profound meditation relation art life one actress myrtle gordon gena rowlands finds touch character playing stage want accidental death one fans young girl declares love myrtle hit car leaves deep mark actress starts asking question related aging starts affect solution becomes alcohol help much myrtle one step away complete madness scene kill imaginary spirit dead girl one thrilling scenes found cassavets film movie ends display genius behalf director films theater scene gena rowlands improvise scene myrtle comes drunk opening night perform part accurately scene filmed spontaneously live audience laughter genuine chemistry casavates rowlands absolutely amazing liked persona interested movie offers substantial ideas alongside great entertainment movie suit fine went philosophy holethe thing alive completely normal feel pain matter feel happiness content pain got thinking pain exist reason universehuman body allowed pain exist normally case logically want life smart enough know way change properties nature cause live im smart enough know im smart want experience pain anymore experience pretty much key understanding need well boys shaved nuts without nicking skin third time always charm everything went hill fastlast night typical got work feeling kind depressed wanted hurt sister said crash place ive depressed suicidal way anyways around four sister asks watch son nap work goes upstairs call dad id kicked online school second year online id transfered local high school bullying im extremely socially awkward along authority figures constant battle teachers well got ta go back highschool im supposed senior nearly credits much mental hospitals seventh grade ive never thought redflag best option now always well option seems im gon na high school drop loser life really worth edit id talk parents father told go home pissed theyd think looking attention way trouble thoughts livinghello last sunday tried kill tried cut arm hard failed live aftermath honest either properly even try sucks lot attention people knew tried died couple days im alone seems people care enough reach see really bad spot enough friend mine realize couple people care bit make bit happy honest still thoughts redflag mainly think actually better everyone people care sad yes worry fling onto everyone make couple people care start dislike mentioned previous post girl love anything say life thats big compliment forced things trying meet hard person growing distant think today first day months speak really fucked definitely best thing happened end tried kill pushed onto drove away stupid actions set questions say good bye ask remember good things suffering day cant talk think greatest time either know thinks feels quite sure talk anymore maybe wait couple weeks actually kill talk shell forget best alright actually started write story ask everyone reading live well thats say wanted pour heart friends cant keep bothering people helped much already least read want lot better whats something made cry helped realize kind patheticive pussy crybaby life think realized pretty much worthless regards cried piss poor video game mindset definitely something wow cant even win dumb game even incompetent thought first time actually dropped tear realized pretty much lmao friend suicidal dohey made friend school whos extremely suicidal ive known three weeks hes talked lot hes depressed doesnt want live ive course extremely concerned tried help theres nothing really hes therapy sent hospital multiple times attempting cutting thoughts redflag dont really know seems really happy sometimes hes depression years ive kind hoped itd okay im worried hes trans grandmas supportive grandpa isnt lives grandma grandpa messaged tonight said hes genuinely considering forget ive sent long messages hes important many people care doesnt really respond says something doesnt matter im saying isnt helping hes upset dont even know say anymore ive tried listening point feel thats enough want talk hotline something said earlier hes hospital hasnt helped im fucking tired constant problems pain sufferingso already adhd little friends got depression started struggling cant tell anybody though im scared wont believe think im looking attention im still pretty young ive considered redflag im scared family need way yrhey im last child brothers dad got killed siblings grown im mom gave im old enough provide everything im depressed cant take anymore attempt redflag time didnt work got sick boyfriend trys talking im going try soon gun hurts wake knowing im alive situation cant wait future two films released within weeks aliens steven spielbergs et john carpenters thing two et one hearts people world even though thing debuted first people entranced spielbergs warm fuzzy feelgood alien fable stayed away thing drovesbr br hard see two diametrically opposed one optimistic tale designed warm cockles stillbeating heart harsh uncompromising film paints alien life something purely determined destroy us guess audiences felt et much cuter prospect things tentacles slime coated salivabr br taken time thing gone win substantial cult audience thing rare example superior remake takes best qualities classic reinvents startling imaginative ways indeed carpenter job well actually succeeds making film every inch equal genres showrunner alien thats even rarerbr br carpenters film follows source material faithfully thing another world keeps frigid wastes antarctica setting perfect backdrop trying establish heightened sense isolation although bit thin characterisation remake gets right inside mindset actors amplifies uncertainty fear slowly surrounds thembr br frequent carpenter collaborator kurt russell returns hot success escape new york cast one carpenters perpetual antiheroes plays macready helicopter pilot antarctic research station theyre researching anyones guess trouble begins norwegian chopper nearby station flies macreadys trying gun siberian husky airbr br end dying troubles camp tries solve mystery happened take husky add except husky husky shapechanging alien norwegians discovered frozen ice thawed massacred crew capable absorbing victims will duplicate living right smallest detail soon paranoia suspicion works way man crew noone certain human notbr br thing one john carpenters finest films fact im tempted say best film hes made even surpassing classics halloween dark star reason place thing top carpenters list feels last film truly called classic others thereafter felt carpenter slumming films flow cool sophistication ragged intensity prevalent earlier worksbr br thing john carpenter peak powers never generated suspense unbearable degree even ferocious assault precinct second alien makes presence known carpenter ratchets tension level relentlessly delivers punches come agonising joltbr br film blend pure atmospherics visceral horror approach often seem odds one another carpenters hands melds together beautifully bringing rob bottin howling fame lays bear astonishing transformation effects see horror film amorphous shapes halfformed human features starkly contrasted gaping jaws spider legs fully flexible tentacles indeed films effects amazing squirminducing thing came fire realisticbr br type thinking misses point entirely shortchanges films values many carpenter stages effects setpiece needs films quieter moments seems especially attuned story thing often bewildering tale shadows whispers implications characterisation never one john carpenters strong suits works advantage thing hardly know anything cast makes present situation much confusing never certain one moment next thing holds well maintains mystery subsequent viewingsbr br special mention go excellent film score ennio morricone pulsing thud thud every two seconds creates eerie spooky feeling hard shake whole film wonderful exercise paranoid manipulation scene bloodtest see whos human wound dexterity carpenter may find biting nails without even realisingbr br thing pure unadulterated classic even ending leaves vague suspicion everything resolved underrated film well worth reappraisal received much better et time sleep p night yall f l l e f l l e f l l e f l l e hey dude quite possibly gamer hugs god im tiredi want die bad know hurt horribly might fail wish leave hope afterlife everything want perfect people damn mean dont live constant stress anyone know easiest way go theres really big cliff near house basically walk jumpbut want hurt family ampxb theres much pain im tired keep failing everything try im unlovable fat sack shit want gone wish everyone forgot existance kill someone help please ive harming years really want stopi never cut feel depressed anxiety several things cause sharp pain far tell feels im addicted endorphins released start impossible stop last days even weeks main thing squeeze nose way skin inside gets pinched causes sharp pain gives huge release feels amazing calms things drive nails side finger punching skin nail finger similar release really want stop thanks advance advice school started cant really handle thingsthe reason havent killed becoase couldnt girlfriend feel horrible loves soo much love struggled depression met school started realize dont really friends girlfriend moved away cant see anymore hour ago mom tried help prepae school got freaked touching stuff got today thought mess ended screaming continued help ended crying feel horrible becoase awful kid justifacation mom drugs treat whole familly horibly feel really end rapunzel cute hey one hair long soft oops dentist appointment hours sleep goodnightttt community pool connecticut setting radar film charming funny entertaining appealing although prizes major film festivals big bad swim released hordes theaters across america distributed dvd form shown theaters selectively br br unfortunate big bad swim never marketing hype hollywood release considering many sinkers hollywood released year know killed big bad swim genuinely good independent film swim upstream ownbr br nevertheless big bad swim actress paget brewster endearing believable amy wiredtobreaking point math teacher dumped husband lose job ends taking gamble new life tv soap actor jeff branson hot plays noah earnest vulnerable swim teacher goes extra pool length help students overcome fears discovers learn students pretty sexy jess weixler see bank commercial deftly plays jordan swimmertobe works two jobs one pole dancer blackjack dealer character provides catalyst change amongst ensemble least understandable characters lack back story motivation jordan young enough still live home ubiquitous videocameratoting younger brother spies parents shown involved life way seems odd theres drunken mother abusive father explain normal attractive girl connecticut suburb choose selfmedicating pole dancer debases loutish bachelor parties br br despite quibble big bad swim succeeds large part happy feel good filmbr br one might expect learning swim metaphor life ultimately better jump feet swim rather sit deck life happens anywaybr br big bad swim great date movie great dorm movie great seen movie men well women guys believe class rings worth itwhy im junior high school im considering getting class ring im sure theyre worth theyre charging singular ring become extremely difficult find good horror movie anymore thought movie good thrillerbr br better production values kept going suspense twists real reservations seeing movie cover afraid excessively bloody gory wrongbr br although lot scary parts lot suspense drama toobr br acting dead line better expect micro budget horror flick characters believablebr br movie really thrilling quite scary moments makes grab seat ending credits rollbr br production values sound good example suicide note passengerthere rules obeyed standartsliving charade thy real purpose save mentally ill ocd non responsive meds everday lose part identity constant fight beetween two spheres brain star dust ready fulfilled life go back everthing started love friend yamur mix passion love charity anything healthy enoughi love family matter lot tolerate daily melancholic suicidal depression obsessions sake world rules grand scale justice purpose distract mind create illusion second forget exist yes exist must bad joke walking eventual death us day us suffer us happy distractionfor example girl loved texting ilove much without even seeing face voice yet know never meet touch top void calls always dreamt jumping bosphurus bridge jumping look mu childhood photos family photos photos girl deeply fell love want lose tarnish love call coward probably right anyway sleeping pills jumping bosphurus crystsl blue current choice maybe time free dying misery become part eternal silence maybe revorn example another big bang maybe never knows maybe simulation th grade student real day universr cease exist availi want thanks reddit full nice weird people people shows true selvesi love yamur foreverand family morn finally freein another life brothers bye die born nothing become nothing suicide note im asking someone talk need help convincing best friend faultits fault way convince love keeps breaking heart knows every area life gone dogs pushed past breaking point tonight swallowed pills im going send one last text know tell life going nowhere friends care feel nothing burden familyi lowest ive felt right now plans four different friends today one returned phone call text odd occurrence feel im ignored forgotten soon leave room dropped college earlier year handle pressure classes depression live home tell parent disappointed know fix times happy im distracted something movie work food one source income minimum wage job feel noticed appreciated think future see nothing think im alone killing many people give two shits want feel way help ask trans girl questions unless jest thou look pity thy thought perhaps using sub diary part hello scrolling new guy nice meet nice day anyway today bit productive started working birthay gift friend sadly remembered moment drawings suck well either nothing next days try best make acceptable school begins tomorrow bit productive teachers really handle whole lockdown situation quite questionably fuck life guess wake tomorrow posts made much earlier means less likely anyone sees happen see though thanks stopping good night reddit guys freaking right now new season pixel gun d scp themed one skins logo back new pet scp feeling completely worthless pointless rantingthe anxiety getting worse worse year goes barely talk anyone anymore phone calls always impossible cant go doctor therapist help cant call supposed call someone apartment finally better place obviously never really going happen redflag text helpline useless empty platitudes go walk yeah thats gon na solve shitty personality men loved abusive assholes second one told jump front train everyone better didnt say already knew actually fucking miss despite ripping heart need help dont know im useless theres nothing inside im incapable taking care worst kid feel late actually kill now im forced stay suffering forever cant break heart thank god good dad lord knows cant take good care im failure every aspect life emotional support time im girl therapist try help need information distributed ill give honest point view ill even try give advice im help avoid problems weeks upgrade year old poggers even watching late night talk shows found one really interesting imagine probably close truthit feels honest account means anything kinda feel people somewhat watch nice movie saturday night update yesterdays post da post fuck saw astolfo internet said thinks big gay caught movie ifc enjoyed although felt editing job little rough though may deliberate little bit hard time figuring going first seemed going little bit pulp fictionstyle nonlinear plot presentation seemed little forced though certainly think movie worth watching think used little cleaning scenes seem make sense others br br im surprised see rating low outstanding really serious problems gave movie show least laurence fishburne act wants must told matrix movies ok ive hours need stay another fix sleep schedule d idk touch bed fall asleep dont wan na anything especially hw made using story generator nasty taco bell restroom short story poopy gloop gloopy glop looked dirty poop hands felt disgust walked window reflected smelly surroundings always hated nasty taco bell restroom oldfashioned old overflowing toilets place encouraged tendency feel disgust saw something distance rather someone figure poopy plop poopy gloppy brute soul leg ginger pubes gloopy gulped glanced reflection gloopy poopy diarrhea drinker big leg skinny pubes friends saw dirty decaying demon even helped unsteady baby recover flying accident even gloopy person helped unsteady baby recover flying accident prepared poopy store today snow flurried running dog making gloopy mad gloopy stepped outside poopy came closer see quirky glint eye want hug poopy bellowed ploppy tone slammed fist gloopys chest force poopy monster frigging hate gloopy glop gloopy looked back even mad still fingering dirty poop poopy pooed replied looked sadness feelings two crispy comfortable cat pooping stoppy toilet water drinking contest jazz music playing background two sloppy uncles peeing beat gloopy regarded poopys soul leg ginger pubes held hand lets fight whispered gently hmph pondered poopy please begged gloopy puppy dog eyes poopy looked happiness body blushing plastic powerful per poopy came inside nice drink diarrhea end american exposed character good disappointed nothing compare found enjoyment mindless idiot humor american teen movies although slightly similar type humor stop laughing hardly laugh loud movie usually movie funny parts movie funny start finish disappointment im actually going buy dvd find saying opinions random movie girlfriend day honestly even though stark unlikeable times way many things going still liked iron man much original know much longer thisim aleady ussues alcohol parents im drunk right now im drunk much often thing makes ok im fucking disappointment much want dieits feel heart cant handle anymorethe loneliness ive lonely entire life im almost late twenties cant take anymore everything try never enough theres whole side human experience ill never experience many people able understand extremely rare imagine constantly observer peoples relationships never wanted never able experience intimacy hell ive done everything improve never enough im ready dieif heart literally break sadness loneliness thats occurring cant take anymore health class fuck homework conversation parents teen relationships premarital sexabstinence record answers dont needs happen teacher reason sre taught everything go talk parents fml dont wan na passively suicidali dont plans end life dont courage im huge wuss paindiscomfort feel found cancer fatal disease wouldnt care got accident came feel relief kind want die dont want one end anyone relate totally surprised good movie actually first saw mildly amused must say still disappointed donald oconnor given bigger better role enormous talentbr br great chemistry among main cast members matthau never funnierbr br tremendously glad picture got made see lemmon matthau team last time vehicle puts talent great use brent spiner proves data star trek next geeration good character playbr br storyline really quite simple comedy characters work really well laughed heartily throughout movie highly recommend itwhats purpose go school job wife kids grow old die death catches us matter amazing life live ive suicidal thoughts im senior year college least another ahead grad school want pediatric occupational therapy work special needs population whats fucking point family friends dropping left right healthiest people know getting cancer scummiest dwellers continue succeed really see purpose life anymore whole life ive pushed idea away family heartbroken fuck cares anymore selfish act theres little ones home theyd work go numerous times week live fulfilled life seems utterly pointless maybe im missing something many honestly say waste time energy look stars night helps realize fucking irrelevant one us bigger picture anyone san antonio want chillsome fucks work obliterated emotions tonight make worse work considering harrassment persay first time life invited bar drink coworker whove ive grown leave ducks bathroom piss decide enter coworker stall taking shit talking shit guy neither notice standing right first guy calls creep accusses killing dog convinces guy invited ditch lying bar going go somewhere instead finishes shit exits notices thing says well im going sugarcoat whatever fuck means hes never expressed displeasure caught talking shit making pretty bad rumour hit pretty hard give dog recently save money coming back houston people stayed went logs caught lied explaining called actually bitched giving enough info even though bought groceries open book failed ask anything oh yeah bitch reditor use dog thread asked advice investing house im fucking crushed want good friend depressed several years ago thought ok seems come backlong story short fucked youth scarred pretty badly got shit together thought right track years ago lately past months feeling horrible back point suicidal thoughts talk people problems matter hard try tried several psychiatrists etc hate job recognition anything hours exhausting see change future applied several jobs reply qualified finance wise stuff going shitter well surprise costs makes savings bucket hole last euros moment luckily girlfriend stupid know wrong dick towards means well frustrations irritated work relationship tense weird thoughts dumping click anymore crying im alone thought leave sooner later nobody friends drinking buddies family non existing due problemsissues first sentence feel lonely lot even though alone really know going post apologies possible mistakes english first language sort weird back phase killing scare calms sort way knowing end miserybe peace one little act bruh answered textscalls ex miss bad fjciixsomednf fine help first saw film seven years old completely enchanted years unable find film called twenty one stumbled upon film accident two weeks ago bought copy although memory film little hazy way disappointed saw animation film superb conjuring entire world believable well animated drawn film alone film plot enchant entertain adults children alike floating island mad general friendly pirate granny well constructed love story film let recommend film one usmy friend wants die cant help want die wont talk friend trying balance us making two us feel worthless us want die question wholl crack first kinda feel terrible born later idk anyone really weird think everything im gon na miss ill either dead old enjoy amazing technologies well develop colonization mars crazy virtual reality kinda wish born even later feeling im getting old lel cant give start ya bestselling teenage rebellion best way stop feelinghi ive suicidal roughly years hospitalized times last visit actively trying improve genuinely started feel better shit hit fan life past several months ive feeling depressed suicidal sleeping become difficult lay bed sudden wave holy fuck need hits deep dont want act thoughts want stop ive tried medication past made feel worse advice stop feeling constantly wanting drive car bridge thanks know fightin freak knuckles pumpkin ready two hollywoods great child stars elizabeth taylor mickey rooney perfectly teamed deliver one alltime family classics story determined year old girl whose adoration horses allow turn away goal win british nationals mickey rooney newly orphaned drifter looking tie follow dreamsbr br beautiful side plot reveals girls mother ambitions young girl repeatedly overruling fathers decisions favor spirited daughter mother seems know best scene exhausted taylor rushes go school priceless father protests let go school shell drop exhaustion noon worry shed back within half hour saturday brilliant technicolor sumptuous music score beautiful faces telling bittersweet story heres good reason old saying makem anymore teacher rold believe problems always helping others happyi overdue important papers school wrote school counseling struggles thoughts message shared everyone school parents later oral exam french done person online lessons teacher find want back home talk people really sorry hear mental health problems hard believe teachers come always seem happy helping others problems around school even noticed one talks foundation students really talk talk people let talk problems lost little world really say anything present sad around people try help give fake empathy kinda role started exam redflag hotlines garbagefor first time life used crisis center fucking joke parrot emotions back talking robot seem frustrated im sensing lot anger feel burden never using shit im better deed bad im already drunk home alone go drive train tracks wan na kill anyone driving cant handle itlet start saying im going hurt every time im feeling overwhelmed mind goes straight wanting wont ive got much going even slightest bit overwhelmed cant help start suicidal thoughts want stop dont know cant even bring therapist ive got kids theyll report itll turn problems need stop please help dont really want seems brain thinks answer problems really need friendi bpd course months ive gotten heart broken lost jobs dropped credit classes hospital got cut mother sister ive thought giving never follow dream family child specifically right im debating abandoning car walking natural selection think help help please wanted say nice day stay hydrated check friends case hear last time friendly reminder guys gals nonbinary pals feeling overwhelmed tired lostim live mom disabled extremely mentally abusive manipulative think borderline personality disorder help previous attempts failed chased away everyone lives even online friends currently engaged absolutely wonderful guy lives us im canadian take months year marriage visa move know happy light end tunnel keep feeling hopeless mom work income one feel awful leaving time seriously damaging constantly attacks gives guilt tripe threatens kick file visa says leave keeps stuffeven end thw street months take much fiancee lose job worried cry time feel overwhelmed tried call engagement time seems impossible keep pushing filing scared moms reaction feel im failure daughter fiance friend person friends want hear problems anymore blame ive stuck home situation dad died years ago even really feel fake happy fiance stops worrying something cant fix taking healthy steps impossible cant afford meds last time counsellor involved mom caused many problems forced walk away keep thinking killing know face next year new life cant bare think suffering cause love thought mom probably either disown make process hell never stop harassing guilt trips part want come home work today start hour keep thinking turning phone nd disappearing ending life alone even know posting ive helped people various aliases one talk sorry long whiny post feel worthless hated everyonein reality two friends talking rare rest people know thinking weird poor people tells satanist go church try make angry later tell aggressive hobby panic disorder might panic attack day reasons live m turning soon delete nudes girls eyes fucking weird post typed phone theres probably spelling errors forgive weird name made quick account ask questions ap exams shit online site actually seemed aight kept basically gathered bunch nudes girls high school im still high school im senior year dont really know originally started collected turned competition friends far ish nudes friends arent arent deleting dont wan na delete cuz kinda holds sentimental value difficulty keeping sent principal every week checking phone friends send different phones make multiple snapchat accounts drugs issue tho dumbass friends kept pics weed dab pens dorm room im boarding school anyways dont even jack anything cuz competition go fuck ton shit chad move kind know got consentually others came friends became competition total definitely arent different girls pic girls might know im gon na downvoted shit ton cuz seems fucked thing normal person fair want advice someone isnt friend group wouldnt judgmental im ending tuesdayeveryone subreddit suffered alot ive read stories abuse abandonment etc makes feel weak shitty reasons life ive happy child genuinely times parents suffered severe eczema toddler years old despite bullying ew ugly boy remarks pretty girls school fact bottom classes genuinely stupid everything seemed fine recent years ive pushed edge developed bad anxiety hate meeting anybody even family live never know stand sit talk look point worth going effort anyone got point began hallucinate auditory visual fears hid years im wierd af avoid bullying knew emerge hid aspects created boring teenage character talk avoid mistakes hung losers school avoid attention others listened rap others existential crap started happening began realise life whole point meaning whatsoever let alone individual stupid little person im things getting even worse earlier parents found cutting freaked mum got pissed beyond imagination ended getting help psychologists psychiatrists thought change come completely fine didnt even expensive highly recommended psychologist help somehow avoid wasting parents money put happy face pretended got better stop treatment major exams coming revised shit ive sat home played video games constantly broke crying skipped necessary work day even somehow manage stumble past exams good grades future interests know barely take hour work let alone required levels let alone work whole life im bit pathetic really asked hobbies thing say playing video games forget world means escape lie people want engineer doctor shut ive tried getting interested topics good always end thinking useless cant bothered research anything make worse go private school everyone around achieves really high parents im always failure top know im monster ive never helped anybody mum dad love bits still snap everyday lie time internal frustration im pretty sure dad aspergers infact kinda obvious selfish evil upmost despicable thing hate hate hes different wierd hate fact genes within hate fact married mum made life miserable forced born whenever try communicate friends end toxic never bother talking anymore never girlfriend want one know ill ruin life much ive ruined lived till long afraid afterlife religion forced upon sense leave grew older fear punishment redflag always stopped im longer pussy end hell deserve anyways porn addiction thats right something though emotional person feel may need talking mredflag answer something reminding problem something remind posted got great advice feel maybe address correct issue alive seeming enticing work school never liked school know nothing anything usless material video games magic gathering know ky family loves religion really esqued thinking know love something must grant everyone let religion control without know tried discover avail ranting now need help bruhhours life gone ive spent hours solving sudoku daysand around hour watching youtube videos solving sudokuyou ask questions something idkim really bored now idk trust apparently girl asks kiss better rush kiss theres chance atleast case using tiktok actually want kiss happened friend felt inform fellow teenagers cant stand mother school deserve deathmy mom angry person always back everything even enjoy couple moments video games yells dont anything upset good grades school good friends see school going home feels shitty now nowhere go im done hanging must go home mom yells even nothing wrong explain wont listen im trapped nothing good right now want enjoy life normal person cant mom yells often everything im sorry whatever brother never yelled always hate yelled everything may well end dont know solve anything angry immensely selfish asks everything going somebodies place dont even know say feel uncomfortable yelled blames mother everything mother angry looked kill app uses lets see everything phone allowed see look kill yell made concern wanting kill want help cant handle living considering much treats shit im done dont want live insignificant waste life nothing matters future anyways might well kill mother live painful emotional scar haunt rest life making feel worthless trash hate school well want exist please teacher thrown life helping nothing work replaced far future hate much everything dont know want diemy grades shit want anything future im piece shit year old exist play videogames future im planning blowing brains years now either love hate movies thriller set inside lonesome asylum far lonesome land much horror show concoction frightening imageries wackozoid mental patients scream best term use obviously popular drivein classic noted strange wicked behaviors notice judge whos put ax behind doctor brrrrr much described bloody tasty goodness chance remember familiar old saying hag lady never come back wish looked basement know someone pause online game hes powerfulhis name isis year half last tried kill myselflong story short ive severely suicidal graduated college even im honest constantly inpatient years recent attempt landed icu three days seizure brain activity breathing tube shoved throat one worse experiences life really sucks im feeling suicidal really dont want put family something thought past bullshit tell feel im love every one advice boys boy tokyo drift saw two prior posts advice boysthey nailed thought id throw hat ring story list advice theres still valuable lesson share anyways story tale begins mid december last year covid unheard people looking new year excitement optimism working stage crew member schools production one day one breaks sitting alone flicking phone mindlessly girl sitting friends called started asking questions hobbies subjects etc left tasks teacher time really confused barely spoken later evening realized saw sitting assumed lonely called small act kindness stuck im certain im gon na remember rest life time watch news lose hope humanity remember kindness girl showed moral storythis applies everyone boys girls everyone inbetween idea much tiny act kindness help someone need someone talk nowi feel really lonely leave interesting comments ill back morning wait sorry meant pm bc thats bad sleep scheduel plus rn straw broke camels backlife one big pile misery year especially hell severe social anxiety communicating people hard finding people feel comfortable around even harder even know normal conversation without awkwardness silences used three friends actually talk hang lost year anyone left talk feel comfortable around lonely depressed graduated cant seem find job good hate everything current job whats point going work everyday hate family provide anyways even friends going spend money basically something hate survive even want discovered today receding hairline used think bad hair days lately started occurring today realized got shit hairline losing hair twenty fucking four one family bald bad hairline used kind good looking basically thing holding thought maybe meet girl someday liked looked look past social anxiety inability connect people actually take time know now im physically repulsive one love goodbye awkward umm female classmate came house know nothing herand first thing shes house homeworkso enter room play switchbut im scared thinks impolite thatand rlly dont feel comfortable havent said single wordi dunno hate texiting cuz cuz haha becausee im extremely fucking funny come guys stop laughing extremely intricate jokes nice conversation diving deeper auras galaxiea first series hope god species auras going age order lets begin first list galaxiea physical social descriptions auras found basic info galaxiea oldest auras firstborn council largest aura pris standing feet ear galaxiea siblings children galaxiea everything physical universe creates controls stars planets black holes neutron stars pretty much everything inhabits space decides moves often planning course entire galaxies hundreds thousands years ahead time tier auras galaxiea 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change always open help others never ask help careful words always speaks intent doesnt speak often always worth listening negative traits closed guiltridden blames whenever something bad happens auras critical stubborn tends come mean harsh struggle understand emotions especially complex ones doesnt trust others often tries things struggle asking help difficult please harsh criticism neutral traits cold stoney exterior opinionated blunt thinks long term fails see actions impact people stickler rules believes place reason tends harsher side punishment grading believes failures promote inspiration become flustered confronted always wants maintain cold exterior causing limit things doesnt enjoy listing others talk prefers alone enjoys company hates gossip believes people say things speak fun facts galaxiea sworn children saying one will share power final galaxiea loves murder mystery books genre read several bookshelves filled murder mystery dozen languages line room know though galaxiea 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galaxiea hates rumors blind male convinced let go still snarls anyone catches talking hope guys please tell think ask questions love answer male snoo dead hes gone help mehelp pelase storyi half native half vietnamese canadian father vietnam war refugee mothers mom residential school survivor intergenerational trauma caused personality disorder insomnia depression anxiety ptsd grew two pedophiles simultaneously one side family wanted nothing heritages dealt car accidents sexual harassment workplaces rapes vietnam family friends justice system abandoned still yearn reconciliation spite choose understand forgive love uh dad catch phone middle night bruh heart attacks people attempted hangingdid hurthow long passed outdid leave physicaly disabeled sorrt asking questionsif much answer im curious want gon na check back days ill psyche ward days im bored imma leave post awile aight bye know america many covid cases britain stay m apart thats inches america thats want die pain go away never good enough even know job best mother still screams thinks mentally retarded feel miserable pathetic tried kill last nighti sitting patio imagining walking intersection see sudden compulsion walk standing sidewalk watching cars pass almost daring walk front one getting frustrated none going fast enough kill minutes broke crying punched wooden post frustration making knuckles bleed cried sidewalk feel shit wanted die bring im stuck still got message friend saying crush likes one absolutely one select family friends know either joke real im freaking fuck eaither way fuck rickroll lofi best anyone looking something mean trying online dating stuff wan na know happens reddit test people tell sleep early know damn well probably good ideai thought killing every day combination drugs unprescribed want want safe environment stabilize ive think going mental institution good idea fmla cover work days miss waking morning getting harder harder career place job takes huge hit mental illnessi wake early go work every single day dread dead end job deal stupidest customers every single day cant quit cause need money dont money cant move go school dont even make enough save ive looked jobs one hiring social life joke friends one talk sometimes feel killing stop thoughts head think family react funny thing mom friends europe one time talking childhoods communist countries weird ways vacations mentiones gypsies got hear rendition opinions gypsies one romanian something woman man involve sexualityi thinking putting raskwomen worried breaking rules im ftm transgender closet im desperate find theres something stupid body defile even please something womans body mans involve sexualitypregnancy orgasms flirting etc making dumb excuses situationsblame pms something acknowledges weaknessgetting help street woman refuses pregnant even purpose world causes much unnecessary sufferingthe reason think someone go things female puberty pregnancy love babies us love purpose something man cant well better research yet find single thing m anyone chat chill perhaps play terraria someone please please help eveningi cant deal cycle bipolar disorder anymore coping mechanisms completely shot please talk edit im going go sit bath bit ill check back soon thanks pming talking really helping love community know good idea pegging asshole strapon dildo use real thing want hehe dont even know say girlfriend last night party slept next first time dating amazing girl extremely drunk night drunk sad personal issues basically sober helped night spooning night holding tight remember trying make feel safe wake morning day today avoiding today talked told night touching boobs kept pushing away told moaned night extremely uncomfortable dont remember anything happened thought asleep says awake intentionally feel absolute dog shit wants take break dont know feel extremely guilty bad confused cant believe thing love girl want happy feel disgusted thing find hard believe something want back advice reddit begging fellow teens please play fortnite im sweaty try hard im memer nothings going right still waitingnothings going right nothing fucking will want die id kill tonight bothered bed need dollars publish website worked hard hello student whose passion computer science programming spend lot time making cool website love publish cheapest sqldatabaseintegrateable domain hosting costs per month total yes website one month enough show friends family project ive put lot effort ill try money later guess help even mean world httpswwwpaypalcompaypalmenotvectorhttpswwwpaypalcompaypalmenotvector dm proof website video showing files website want im disgusted myselfim disgusted self want kill whine im going isnt even bad many others much worse still move tired everything going unmotivated want life end thing keeping alive material purchases give temporary happiness distracting playing shooter games daymy ex keeps popping life kills distraught keep knows hurts much went crazy emailed accounts begging unblock simultaneously telling never talk extra suicidal unhinged really want kill front thinking months nowi started taking mood stabilizers two days ago sick everything think hold long enough see meds helps dropped useless therapist last week toohow stay away someone bad makes happy want die sleep id say im active ive made posts sub dont comment much might seen want stay room forever playing video games watching anime living life hell outside left die love friends parents worrying money homeless time suffer life hurts much thinking killing last daysi thoughts recently getting arguments girlfriend parents secret relationship told beginning good idea talk parents disagreed dumb kept secret relationship secret part love girlfriend mom took phone read messages sending last days girlfriend said deleting everything found lie parents said stay away contact im home think hanging ive tried hard last year feels slap face im tried life crapping matter hard try seem good enough world idk im lose feel option end point good morning yall toxic relationship suicidal thoughts aftermath idk doi dont usually speak whats going life really go online tell anyone anything personal im usually reclusive try let life continue lately ive felt im dark place ive told opening forum help least help opening feel something read guess well ampxb heres big one ive never honest entire life battled sexuality gay straight bisexual ive bounced around entire life ive never chance explore gain comfort might ive always relationship felt wrong gender years ago found furry fandom accepting people felt home short started causes gaps life friends looking weird family asking questions clear never opened furry anyway hide directed sexuality lifestyle hobby people relate slowly faded away want friends family calling weirdo hid still look lot art use help find comfort might even begin start year long relationship partner ftm early process hormones anything yet started dating still going well say lindsey first love nothing stopped us wanted together puppy dog stage strongest awhile fell apart partner struggled faithfulness lot relationship primarily internet friends furry internet big part lives means internet friendships play big part well hard time remembering privateclosed relationship within first years th th year began make internet relationships making mistakes fueled mostly spite begging attention anyone th year took break currently lived washington taking care sick mother decided return california first week stopped talking one day sent message something forgotten kept talking began breakdown emotionally mother falling ill loneliness sudden change lifestyle year relationship began regret choices talked things end asked try distance try fixing things distance us test waters things come agreed began talking day night calls intimate videos shared still felt strong love year relationship seemed things getting better slowly months eventually moved california mother care equipped family hard first managed never really talked months apart even though talked often lot days went without text call asked usually told family busy something eventually refusal talk happen time drew rift us one day shower decided pick phone browse chat histories time period look messages social media accounts went ultimate snoop found everything month time sent nudes countless men stand wanted fun lied multiple times sex another man countless times texting inbetween hours together im sick writing remembering haunted years found fought days nonstop think mark end relationship right well justified saying hurt break wanted back breaking idiot agreed took blame convinced sex man deserved abuse forced us take break ive struggled depression entire life ive never months time without feeling creep way life usually triggered something anything big small never really know happens fought feeling two years peroidic episodes accusing lindsey terrified cheat idk stayed guilt fast forward years weve together years total hate everything annoy ones care cant stop talking idk excitement eagerness ive never really known carried away people tell jerk taking lighthearted teasing far without realizing feeling embarrassed hours even notice ass attitude towards life soured im often irritable upset roommates unreasonably dont much good say anything anymore ive gotten bad enough people around speak used attractive cared appearance excited show ive gained lot weight last year nearly pounds nearing pounds even ive never disgusted problem im upset eat habit forever lot people im sure stop im paying stopped wearing favorite clothes stopped taking shirt public stopped making video calls cant stand might look im constantly paranoid shell cheat ask questions go silent ruin entire days frustration every fight break upperhand never true maybe days week spend together laugh two miserable know cant let go coronavirus locked home last months straight ive left handful times supplies overall ive anxious leave house im scared getting sick ive depressed relationship lost job live unemployment sit around waiting next day shes picked social media talking people hours plays apex legends every single day someone met online someone talks hours hours bed dinner everywhere never explains anything tells wants social life stays almost year lost friends bad attitude family learned im questioning sexuality dont know cut entirely spend time waking smoking weed every minutes sitting bedroom pm taking sleep aide fall asleep ive suffered nightmares regularly last year dont know anymore ive lost feeling im nub everything feel husk autopilot thats breath air ive lost touch ive felt mental health suffer dont know cant even describe whats happening anymore weeks ago sat car wondered use kill without hurting others dont gun lindsey came garage wanting smoke weed seen sitting car trance focused dashboard staring nothing told truth without meaning slipped accident coming whatever stuck response passive encourage didnt anything help time either laid bed hours thinking little seemed mean little seemed mean everyone ampxb dont even know wrote hoped maybe saying typing maybe stop feel inevitable eventually today broke mean idk ive sitting box days wondering theyre gone good time left read ignored entirely dont know anymore feel control taking life dont want fight anymore dont want suffer dont want keep going everything ugly life race wars virus scares gays hated conservatives rioting sexuality never got experience years whats point continuing life never even start write entire story attention forum people real problems im sorry post even know post im desperate advice anything day asking everyone filler filler filler kakektidb filler filler filler time leave worldanother update recent depression spree girlfriend officially left longer loves going parents told today leaving weekend decided kill gone choosing charcoal inhalation way go think anyone stop feel free ask questions fortunate update thanks inspiring words guys go although one night ex called tears sadness sat bathroom almost ended got friends last night even though cant talk problems due pride able ignore problems good amount weekend thank first world problemshi always redflag understood people miserable feel way thought pretty sad living organism main goal survival depressed start going natural instincts terrifying lately started facing problems chose wrong college made life lot harder mental completely went downhill past months im currently trying transfer bright side met girl im currently dating love lot great fights going college may go different one kills seems much anymore couldve avoided smarter college decisions feel suicidal mornings usually honestly want end life know peoples lives harder sound privileged fucking piece shit realized lot harder kill thought seems painless ways painless hard accomplish comment good ways end whatever anyone says people care liarsi hate phrase much one cared life hate cared problems first place irl friends girlfriend ive never either im freaking meanwhile many people age younger already life set already dates time lives meanwhile everyone world preventing things even parents cared pusses say want kill people go dont cause pain others wont one even fucking cares first place never strange cant contact therapists koreain korea people unawaware therapists practise play candles herbs thus lack psychological knowledge means therapists somewhere psychiatric docs stubborn counselors psychology still taboo snob psychiatric docs diagnose pills want moneys conservative cpunselors try correct people others neither lgbtq friendly snob try correct people lastly right mad people try correct person try mad want use insanity fuel stalemateim m soon turning nothing show lost friends last year told depression suicidal ideation years ago nothing changed till last year finally cut understand constantly negative havent moving forward years everybody inferior regards anyone used friends year socially isolated outside spent whole sitting front computer time times went food job prospects future aimlessly attended university years switching majors nothing came late start apprenticeship field everything competitive inferior human constantly asking even apply apprenticeships anyone want hire somebody struggled mental illness years old year old happy human applying job course know mental state tell way lying last aimless years way making sound rather positive negative cv worthless many gaps due mental illness want work cleaning person want work assembly line feel option succeed working world start kind business self employed chances slim anywhere corporate world know certainly thick skin kind adventure thought getting help time answer anything always within oneself change better start take ssris talk therapist listen things help submit psychiatric ward doctors give benzodiazepines make sure going kill fucked everything depression inferiority complex never strong enough pull top selffulfilling prophecy everything dull ive tried kms twice one time cutting stopped hurt much ugly scars forearm one time taking mg lorazepam pills unfortunately sent hour sleep coma researching everything redflag methods know end life decapitation train seems best option although id prefer shotgun guns illegal live germany possibility know certain never able ditch inferiority complex last years soul heart become bitter core become addicted smoking weed cigarettes cleanse take time anymore almost year old male mental illnesses enough skills compete workplace cm help go anywhere helps strengthen beliefs unnecessary disposable friends left point trying anymore run money support end february day birthday think seen enough say least leave life good memories oh heres something funny happened couple days ago school changing classes nd block rd block hallway smelt bad really bad smelled shit know couldve caused quite bothersome next day girl class said brother bought liquid shit internet put vents something want able add worldi repetitively complaint child went school everyone work still cant anything cant make anything need someone talk pleaseneed help anybody clothing style suggestions white boy teenager tryna look good cuz current style shit ok himbos emotional intelligence hot asf okay hear fnaf chance smash cause fucking steve chance big voice genre need horror character hand tf character likely game made v rad play heavy third hand crash spyro think seems woken today knowing thinking full clarity sitting desk thinking mistakes made feel calm scared lost everything lead fault manipulative second language hurt people meant everything marriage failed held tight needed let go words say apologize take back pain caused suffocating eventually cheating still crosses mind everyday even relationship tried everything right failed inherently bad person gaslighting without even knowing made miserable point fight air lungs away ill never know make right hope someday forgive meeven joined navy sense normalcy life messed left little pocket meant stay awake night suffocating memories almost dying hope morning light bring life every part knows situation pain now terrible person know deserve happiness life calm knowing calm knowing everything end somehow lowest felt calmest felt anyone takes time read thank everything end health related m lately ive feeling shortness breath heavy breathing prominent lay straight back bed started happening days ago going go doc tomorrow anyone knows symptom cause sick constantly wanting diei mean people forum want die constantly even happy want die sick always feeling tired feeling life mine work three jobs taking part graduate school best friend love much constantly feel emotionally babysit boyfriend love honestly cant feel comfortable fear abandoning makes hard relax enjoy relationship lost two best friends cant seem forget father supportive parent life cancer mother complete cnt manages make feel guilty existing despite knowing full well damaged relationship fault fear friends really hate putting feel school worth im busy time go see doctor therapist go gym exercise makes people feel better sometimes despite jobs money problems almost zero time want die im scared dying painfully want die peacefully hate waking want feel way bought rover truck im gon na flex hard much yall even ready im yungest flexer already know gang gang hate subconscious dreams dreams seem remember incredibly lucid dreams girls problem didnt feel real whenever one im always wondering real wake awful recent one last night details little hazy ill best remember im crush friends forget really important afterwards go house group disperses crush waiting parents come starts telling medical episode recently highly likely condition causes death basically lie april point tells scared know moves couch way put around slump point basically lying top says stuff remember wake apparently hugging theyre usually sad normally theyre pretty happy cool overly realistic im loser whos never girlfriend know talk girls guess ive felt really empty really quarantine going able see anyone go school helped well thats now stay safe everyone reason besides going workive struggling depression fall last year awhile ok felt going go back happy care free self sometime early june contracted herpes genital oral gave overwhelming sense hopelessness along feel need try romantic relationships anymore want tell anyone herpes slept hours today reason wake everyday work thing keeps killing badly think affect mom sister words encouragement much appreciated whos committed spouseive done wife twice life feeling bit guilty done three time voluntarily totally foreign involuntarily always seems much worse times signed mostly addiction issues times committed suicidal despondentacting unusual spoke phone seems scared actually much lucid love perspective side someone committed spouse felt right wrong thing post hits likes finally karma im super happy huge milestone havent reddit long guys made welcoming environment im glad part community got lead know feel week ago started talking old friend invited friends discord server started talking bit developed crush one night decide ask wanted go surprise says yes decide start dating going meet couple days first date two days date text saying ready relationship go back friends im really sure feel right really know happened fuck fuck unlucky know im experienced dating seems odd im really upset turned vent issues attempt understand think best way commit redflagi thinking noose cutting veins open blood seeps cuts pass pain blood loss thats opinions best way force soul body let know dont penis penis dont enjoy cocks attracted male genitalia pp bad photography editing movie exceptional time period eisenstein builds upon scene movie leading sailors revolt massacre town much movie high point cinema example szocialist realism soviet government actively used arts including film means spread message revolution eisensteins portrayal revolt battleship potempkin offers viewer insight message soviet elite marxist theory perspectives class struggle demonstrated sailors represent oppressed workers officers represent elite society much film demonstrates communist party message film used tool propaganda running man viciously lampoons modernday american media complex hits target deadcenter may easy target pull none less rm effortless takes prowrestling featuring pro wrestlers hunters network television nielsen ratings american government suggesting entertainmentoriented anyway crime punishment halfdozen things along way far cry original stephen king novella arnold ben richards novella either cares basically arnie flick wellchoreographed action sequences oneliners undertaking requires im glad go todaycompletely shattered recent breakup woke morning called work plan little affairs order bills rent drunk take pills ive collecting hang close friend town san fransisco gave guilt trip always town went spent night three closest friends im sure know much mean ive told think really understand saved life tonight even know first time ive truly smiled weeks thank j c love want diei many wish apartment share friends one best friends many friends truly care go way take care parents love support two sisters consider friends poor ive love yet feel despair sadness perpetually keep telling going build life stop lying want ive hurt people past shouldnt thrive thought good world remedy past much suffering cant save everyone though wish want die dont want see suffering dont want cause suffering think forgiven past dealings suicidal ideation young attempted redflag survived last attempt chance alone time plan jumping bridge feels guaranteed know family friends distraught suffer see good come life one live anymore harm anyone plan ending soon want die believe god afterlife pray leave behind pray find happiness live lives better hope make better choices faced decision selfish hope instead make choice help fellow man instead beluga whale ass wake one morning find beluga whale stuck ass going husband m got married years ago happy together fairly dark mental career states met work found happiness left work place successful place new career new city enjoy things work success place family husband got new seasonal job place used work lives best friends town hour drive away hes loving every minute new duties new coworkers amazing boss loves place damn happy really fills heart talk phone visit see thrilled hes amazing gift us means living alone weeks left comes visit every weekends found time enough energy even put plates empty dishwasher put wrappers trash empty overflowing recycling pick dog shit yard time must strength vacuum wipe counters laundry etc many friends new city back old work husband coworkers far younger necessarily see eye eye everything spend time alone walked dog weeks play back yard house extremely messy standards depression pit hes coming home week days picking place suddenly energy hide shameful mess make space welcoming kitchen clean yard picked sheets fresh trash empty feels good clean enough energy little things every night keep house instead know housekeeping chores mad energy makes want hide world go crawl bed watch crappy youtube videos instead energy take care realized little value ill bend backwards everyone make happy even gather energy toss garbage alone redflag hotlinei need call hotline im scared call police anybody know contact police every call somebody immediate danger help worth time know anymorehonestly really know write ive never spoken emotions guess wanted tell someone feel im m ive felt killing now feel im letting everyone meet family accomplished things mom dad high ranking military brother got prestigious nasa scholarship im shit school fail half classes take thing feel deserve feel born good family lot friends reason kill people around feel killed family friends disappointed want people remember wish sacrifice save someone give life someone needs ive looked organ donation know ill last long know ill point sorry long confusing writing mind thanks somebody please tell apple type talk tall want say yall instead stop automatically correcting word talk yall north dont even say yall correcting automatically instead maybe suggestion tldr stop autocorrecting word talk yall fucking piece shit apple phone night cunt love dont let bed bugs bite schizophrenic deaf person hear voices head talking im unable find answer anywhere need know seems logical option world cant fit intohave never fit society im much nonconformist motivation finish college grades fine absolutely hate classes cant keep interest pretty much every class ive entire life ive tried multiple types classes spanning different majors friends benefit success finding work parents use work mcdonalds critique smh career path well im worthless highly likely bpd mdd add well gad honestly sound subsets one another tried medication unsuccessful tried stimulants hated well cure depression im essentially screwed life imagine death worse candy compared picture close lowest point ill probably kicked soon become homeless ive done nothing contributeim taking space using food water peoples time aspirations direction easier ceased exist always avoided posting voice head muchcuz feel problems pale comparison many posts see every hour shits getting hard theres constant voice head telling kill past years think moment im intensely engaged something conversation work video games constantly reminds kill rn im waiting semesters college got let go work chilling friends cuz quit drinking smoking thats friendships built basically theres much going voice constant cant escape getting really hard back hs meet new people date girls make friends doesnt happen now idk basically constantly reminisce awkward terrible things ive done voice tells kill self sometimes strong feel inclined forced say loud kill kill even people around involuntarily try play saying something humming something breath ive lots therapy intensive inpatient psych ward previous attempt much earlier life feel none help rn think need people life rn course online friends nice guys know really idk besides nothing really wrong great family almost problems life dumb things ive done feel ill never escape guilt anxiety may well kill self instead years now reason im writing cuz idk talk brother cool doesnt know handle stuff really fuck anyone wan na talk im bored pm ya want ill talk bout almost anything listen problems ig im aloneim two hours away anyone knows im alive university friends even anyone knows name cant handle fucking alone subhuman cant even look anyone eyes speak every day panic attacks drawn fear schoolwork know wont make please god let convenient dont disappoint family comes ill find way cant fucking take anymore much im fucking sorry boyfriend friends family please god let finally feel peace got report card grades flunked normally im good student high grades last year lowest grade b last year teacher bitch know probably respectful hes helping learn didnt gave detention pointless reasons constantly picked reading answering questions front room much even though knows horrible case stage fright principal told teacher let independant work often group work care worst thing let beaten yard patrol time lunch got picked every day one time early january group kids throwing big chunks ice mainly targeting facehead teacher saw instead coming break knew defend kids stronger walked away smiling got concussion teeth damaged im lucky need braces away weeks injuries grades year cs dissapointed im online school year im often confused problems focusing im really anxious good thing online teacher really nice helps catch cant change grades best mark b lowest c feel ashamed disgusted heard got fired know care long leaves alone thanks listening little rant wanted system new hampshire friends hey guys got airbnb alton nh months college online im freshman got people hmu around area chill nothing wrong everything feel wrongim sure start saying im sure start hopefully short paragraph text tries explain im depressed nothing depressed feel alone despite room full loving supporting people cant manage explain hesitate tell parents ive pulled together list people ive told struggle guess freaking parents therapist know wan na tell parents anything depressed queston idea stop asking wan na go therapist requires telling parents cant handle knowing someone paid talk pretty damn good life honest cant fine feel hopefully short decently detailed kinda wrote suddenly question going hospitalso im incredibly depressed noone talk call pessimistic think talking talking someone via reddit seem helpful go er right speak someone entire process suicidal thoughts everyday courage actually follow wanted discharged picked someone im discharge last time went hospital suicidal thoughts transported psychiatric ward private clinic actually called told risk kill tldr want go er want held transported elsewhere im destined shitty lifepeople always talk path life honesty see fuckup eventually killing ill become drug addict live streets go jail stupid reason kill thats way see going motivation actually something useless life thought graduating school career starting family getting old makes sick life isnt worth living everything pointless id rather suicidal crackhead successful fuck successful people arent even happy anyway mom good emotional support dad sensitive touchyfeely whereas take something face value pick subtleties think somewhat loveless marriage dad turned emotional outlet point early teens spend hours talking lessons morality suffering hands insensitiveclueless mom love things romantic sensual mixed kind pervy behavior ucatswithalmdudler appreciation post stalking set failurei understand point living someone compare einstein poor foreign kid motivation live im stupid depression social anxiety physically unattractive ive spent years studying hard nothing return drop subjects chemistry physics backup right now adults really need make minds say high school everything say best yrs life better atar make life easier past half yearlies tests im talking lowest rank average subjects cant focus im mentally sick hsc left think study anymore high school handle failure stress well even hire job im scrawny female parents admitted burden siblings call moody pessimistic phase whole life pls tell golden story breaking shell feel vomitting start crying shaking near ppl point im waiting opportunity tall building train deep water physical pain cutting last moment stop existing forever nothings holding back feel bad wasting familys time money hate living gift im waiting death old age come want check gets worse im suicidal found reddits big suicidal group peopleim years old im kinda fucked head thru shit sometimes dont know reality kinda thought pathological liar genuinely thought things actually happened flashbacks things might never happened overdosed something whole time ive coma riddle uh idk im good riddling gig friend mine really needs help im ideastldr friend mine going real hard times lots trouble parents recent horrible things happened ive close one year weve rarely seen trusts im trying best help already attempted commit redflag work little better today texted saying happened last weekend ruined guy thought friend wanted sex blocked plus honestly thinks mother hates words come point reason live anymore ive tried tried listen keeps saying shell ideas convice theres escapemy life meaningless im stuck someone mistreats doesnt love im completely alone support two year old husband covert narcissist feel fucking idiot falling shit im forgotten person havent mattered born ive always uncared know sounds pathetic really emo really left homeless mom died family took sexual abused family knew kept secret nobody cares really dont truly believe reason existence suffering day nnn went even slower day studying minecraft fun bois good luck cumrades life fucking scam cute anime girl already smh want refund bad cum brownish color bad thanks guys think may saved lifeso month ago came fully expecting last day life last thing list flavors fucked look old family photos put fat one right skull well came across graduation picture ranger school one old army friends decided give one last call knew something police come house ive spent last weeks involuntarily commited psych ward hey im still dont really know im right back started might pack bag start walking dont know im still matters rangers lead way yall want draw something really cool realize artistic skills still remember first seeing tv believe tvnz let lot humor lost nonnzers give go br br finishing back series matt chris gone bigger better things nzs greatest daredevil stuntman randy campbell often appeared british tv series balls steel yes still fks stunts drunkbr br house band deja voodoo released albums brown sabbath back brown band consists members back team singles give one beers ive got even born s continue humorbr br southbysouthwest film festival featured feature length film devil made released early nzbr br find guys funny fk use washing line ropei dont proper rope dont know one still work use washing line use doorknob method wait flirt always people flirt crush flirt random girls mean feelings someone telling ones tho haha fly paper high planes u catch border got visas name theres little hope left herethis reddit seems dead now nobody left encourage cries help now listening megalovania update still herea ago wrote talking plan make wellhere made regret wholeheartedly thought things worse boy wrong learned things always shittier one friend decided abandon today birthday anniversary day girl planned marry abandoned disliked shitty personality im depressed deal depression blame one thing saving every time verge sit anniversary birth think fitting end day know anymore want shoulder cry want someone hug tell itll ok ive lonely want end never suicidal lifein years never thought redflag much past months number thing mind time dont goals anymore dad doesnt understand im going really doesnt even try idea anymore look mirror dont recognize struggling nobody seems notice plan ready go stop pussy continue agony dont care grammar punctuation story wishing well sam im sam wishing well call aristotle sam name wishing well say thats name said call want sam throws penny sam wish wishing well want grass greener sam hey wish something threw penny wishing well wishing well taking note momentim confusedand trying stay focusedon know rightim torn know wrong torn take long ban boiboiboiboi anyone unsee juice went bedroom uh played minecraft hard assign fair number stars film settled high production values innovative approach war film remember seen make strong impressionbr br long days dying must one vivid antiwar films made achieves simply portraying extremely realistic terms actions handful soldiers northwestern europe film one showed war infantry squad level much brutal detail coldly dispassionate way lets actions speak preaching sentimentality comic relief complicated scenariosbr br unfortunately theres subtlety either partly situation trying stay alive characters come across flat familiar clichs entertainment film make though clearly intended entertain intended slug head misery horror world war ii modern war general twenty years platoon thirty saving private ryan far watchable films flat generally disagreeable characters lack actual plot realistically unpleasant images including may first onscreen vomit theatrical history make film hard sit though minutesbr br stars production realism stars feeling bonus star heart right place average br br carl foremans underrated victors equally downbeat interesting thoughtprovoking film long days dying seems dvd films cable number times thanks twitterive made inflammatory twitter account hoping people send death threats feel justified killing love internet anonymity crystal blue persuasion yea yea year things im grateful move parents house pillow know people might perfect pillow pillows arent comfy stepdad hes around hes actually really solid guy sense humour bit selfish think life little bit enjoyable kind find funny side almost anything tune tomorrow im breaking pointim angry lonely feel one understands im breaking point im lose someone says one stupid plattitude everyone says people experiencing lot emotional shit im done im longer gon na even try talk feelings open anyone im gon na end something really bad im gon na kill end thought whole point opening people find someone whos understanding avoid people insensitive wholl make things worse whatever dude im really close done right now biden president probably election mine january know may isolate friends even family romantic partners give mine space common people depression stop reaching partners going period depression options guyz pleaze choose ok choose thank u future dream id really happen maybe dumb hold something possibly never happen want grow bloom person decided recovering getting better person want try hope try toosn always option though hour ago almost set hanging recovering hardi wish everyone well sorry life brought us point rooting us alwayshugs decided stay now suicidal thoughts getting closer closer attempti hope means go psychiatric facility painful live need safe space feeling nothing changei feel im going feel miserable now forever good things going yet im always unhappy great friends yet feel soulcrushingly lonely literally real responsibilities right now yet im constantly stressed ive thoughts redflag child right things going better theyve yet im still miserable feel nothing change events life keep changing misery present therapist took leave absence whole pandemic started supposed return april havent heard anything way contact im sure come back everything going course want prioritize safety months im becoming increasingly desperate ive tried many meds past years none helped including ones im currently im tempted stop taking im tempted give broke gf im really scaredso today broke gf almost year best friend one friends lot unnecessary fights took care world got bit much sometimes short periods depression suicidal feelings pretty serious social anxiety many friends weve breaking months finally cant say im relieved honest know better feel empty feel anything told want remain friends want keep touch really itll hurt much says shell want want someone time want anyone makes sense feel fault person way handle things fights insecurities know feel lonely hey girl painted leonardo da vinci youre priceless better cuz apparently yall dont picasso feel empty feel something missing something need something makes happy something positive even make sence good show entertaining good marshal arts acting good story plot entire main crew nice job robert urich chuck norris jennifer tung especially big hand judson mills especially fine tribute robert urich latter days great actor truly missed hate post someone dm fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller family annoying always watching walking dead want watch anything mad thats even worst part th time watch litteraly anything god damn sleep redflag helpwould downing bottle tylenol pills drinking quite bit vodka kill please recommend something thats common houses awkward position listen friend talk something interest scared tell stop man hoping good time stop talking even kept nodding love korean films ability really quiet eerily really capture real life tend watch korean movies reason alone ive seen directors movies one comes closest feelings got oasis another awesome film called charming girlbr br title summary supposed chrstian perspective ill start instead showering praisebr br non christian perspective director changdong lee captured unbiased almost eerily real portrayal modern protestant church regardless denomination warts ive always waiting christian film truly portrays darker recesses church life christian films tend speak language different want share faith many films religious undertones though good motives tend resonance disney film school special need show life real people curse real people lust real people fall though christians believe salvation available seek still challenged everyday horrors life doyeon jeons character totally honest almost brutal portrayal woman found god lifes bitter realities loses love deny god exists refuses accept live idea loving forgiving godbr br decent edges morality madness character asks questions mind every one religious notbr br god love allow terrible things happen film answer rightly believe last minutes film though open interpretation leaves us hopeful future main character brings idea secret sunshine full circlebr br believe second film tried religious way tried set lies reason worked even real honest far best summation real christian life seen film prozac making suicidalim sorts horrible thoughts going head right now thoughts head empty mind quiet numb use rare opportunity sleep goodnight nothing fucking mattersdoes anyone view similar mine im years old college biochemistry student track medical school ive got gpa right now everything feels completely fucking moot lot happy moments even bad moments view humanity existence anomaly tiny speck dust known earth hurdling several thousand miles per hour space bound die eventually humanity wiped future almost trace existence afterwards even probability life finding remnants infinitesimally small god afterlife far know cant go living life hoping ill happy still existence im dead cant force believe crap without good reason time talking overim holding box cutter wrist trying work power cant fucking deal life anymore give nothing return im fucking tired want rest great im crying im weakling deserve alive anyways mean perfect breeding ground humans meant covid bacteria stoff sorry beys parents house spring break nothing suicidali friends literally lie bed stare ceiling went pc gaming cafe played games hours nothing life worst part return university fucking hate even working degree know job go school lots stem majors agonizing swear thing take mind things video games went grocery stared charcoal consider charcoal burning redflag method someone please help im feeling impulsive want stop talking everyone awhile quit eating much need eat much wayyy much simon pegg plays part sidney young young entertainment writer begun beginnings career writing grassroots magazine specializes badmouthing shallowness superficiality rich famous making career lampooning celebrities although desperate wish celebrity movie based bizarre career toby young ran small magazine britain called modern review offered scathing criticism pretty much everything imaginable closed magazine hail verbal bullets coeditor went spectacularly failed career writer vanity fair pretty much part life told movie br br first thrilled go work major publication called sharps magazine movie despite active nerves notredflagly beaming first day meets chief editor clayton harding played jeff bridges hard nails exactly kind editor needs goofoff young keep job magazine offers little form immediate acceptance young described liberal tolerance youngs offthewall antics inappropriate behavior br br much comedy movie derived youngs misunderstanding indifference generally accepted code public behavior peculiar etiquette involved dealing rich famous sidneys reasons acting weird way giving outwardly offensive interviews believes loathes entire celebrity culture seem believes ageold saying cant beat em join emand beat embr br complicating matters two different women charming regular girl magazine named alison olsen kirsten dunst first appalled sidneys obvious arrogance womanizing ways stunning model named sophie megan fox represents celebrity culture needless say sidneys endless attack superficiality stardom superficial lust sophie one look starbr br sophie stunningly beautiful true comes across single thought rattling around head alison regular girl interesting attractive dunsts performance makes real person relationship reality britney spears marriage yet movie retains level believability despite obvious feel sidneys pain pursuing felt anywaybr br lose friends alienate people pretty interesting premise full honest satisfactory performances although turns bit standard romantic comedy third act variety welldeveloped interesting characters danny huston example gives us great performance alisons love interest pays homage big lebowski starring bridges everpresent white russian one personal favorite drinks buying absolute kahlua china costs equivalent kitchen never without br br looking forward day simon pegg branch little bit love films completely unsure range played serious character hot fuzz serious relation lunacy surrounding ultimately went back pretty much shaun dead run fat boy run lose friends hes rising star interesting see want run away home cant really living family really hate starting explain situation dad left mom alone brother time fine left exchange came back year later everything went sht mom never home neither brother home yell stuff even always clean brother plus cook hes home leave one dirty cup table thinks yell mom always chooses side ive known long time mom favored brother become really obvious lately top brother horrible girlfriend reference threatened kill suggested move party people make anyway cant take anymore today mom threatened send dog away even kill want run away cant take dog cause dont want leave mother money soon start college mom pays dorm rent scared leave dog home leave college reason previously mentioned good morning ladies gentlemen anyways recap last week ship got stuck canal another ship came crashed ship got stuck might semi truck oh thing happened vehicle lesson week drugs unless prevent crashing cars boats case take whole bottle gon na need small orange bell pepper died super mario bros gg mr bell pepper f chat coming next week terrorist attack amber heard anybody wan na talkfeel free message id talk anybody going im years old seem nobody turn emotional support ig im best opening id love listen anyone willing talk someone vc w discord im bored hell idc tf dm gave free award wrong person comment section disappointment immeasurable day ruined want die im afraidlong story short im sex addict iv always careful got regular std tests found long time girlfriend gave herpes shes worry wort causes constant outbreaks last years depression never sex mentally destroyed strong meds outbreaks year hardly sex dont want give anyone iv settled relationship im longer able live life always hoped wasnt scared id kill self tomorrow never really expected life go way hide depression really well personality fun happy person met hate std test started dating years ago plan kill times week months iv sex feel im going mentally shut able go work im scared google redflag ideas thats really thats stopping noose drawerhi deeply convinced die im bad core belief thats deeply rooted past months lost tried build leaving toxic home recovering much hope anymore died house ive done past five years never destined work lately im back act guilt toxic one im beyond getting better deserve resolved finish job made noose planned act im afraid one check dead body want neighbor find two weeks smell want leave note friend whats left money im afraid hed find early interrupt eu referendum result last straw xpost rmmfbim male english proud worst year life graduated university managed decent grade barely tried leaving got call centre job left month due pressure customersemployers causing numerous panic attacks day months later got temp job basic admin middle management fired weeks later panic attack november self confidence hit rock bottom meaning job interviews manage bothered come across terrible candidate theyre wrong become partially dependant cannabis im antidepressant shit broke arm uk democratically decided leave eu cant see future redflag mind past months im starting seriously consider im aware many people worse positions stronger depression suicidal thoughts im verge redflag im thinking lot tldr got degree tried different jobs failed ive got confidence cannabis dependence broken arm useless antidepressants cause insomnia go uk decided leave eu based bigotry fear blind patriotism want live anymore turned guys bye wrote something combined enough kill mei overdosed times beforebut nothing seems work careful calculated stealing random pills relativescopied notes svelta mig tvr til rjr vikur fyrst gera etta allt tman maga paracetamolacetaminophel mg hjartamagnlacetylsalic acid mg quetiapin actavis mg dimenhydrinate mg prednisolone actavis mg wellbutrin veit ekki mg concerta veit ekki mg alprazolam mg tylenolibuprofen gr kkan kassar af sru sterkt fengi poki yfir hausinn herbergi ea elliarrdal found combination lock store donations guess combination ill give helpful award digit code numbers ill try numbers home go place bets dont really wan na live past next birthdaymy birthday coming months ill turning every birthday depressing supposed die years ago nobody even cares im still anyways fact birthday literally ignored throughout whole life ive one decent birthday bittersweet memory lies anyways ive basically given life dont really see future future envisioned years came crashing destroyed sense reality im stuck right now parents basically holding hostage feel loser failure lie people question ride bus dont job still live parents im lazy stupid dont even know first thing come mind things cars expensive housing state horrendously high actually problems parents psychotic easier explain ride bus save money gas say im living enough money apartment fact job car apartment lost things mental illness fucking stupid idiot im stuck parents wont let job car mental help rather stay suffer homeless ik im weak rather die point plus ive winging awhile planned dying years ago failed first time future planned bf refer abusive ex severely damaged lot people severely damaged wheres punishment wheres damage ive tried think feel fucking angry guess caring stupid feel reason killing time stupid last time killed ex abused shit felt worthless im scared life people everyday fine cant fucking normal im pathetic one use email function reddit kinda sad underappreciated norma spent s playing beautiful ingenues first talkie cast brassy showgirl trial mary dugan came flying colours sweet lovely ingenues cast aside sizzled parts cast sophisticated women world society girls thrills let us gay made released divorce unusual twist upper crust dramas shearer made ownbr br norma first appears without makeup frumpish kitty brown whos main purpose life pander unappreciative husband bob rod la rocque hurrying golf game reality going see mistress helen mistress comes house showdown kitty faces situation civility behind closed doors mass emotions bob leaves goodbr br three years later mrs courtland brown kitty comes stay house guest eccentric mrs bouccicoult bouccymarie dressler kitty knockout bouccy job wants kitty romance house guest turn romancing granddaughter diane beautiful sally eilers shock horror man none bob ex husband kitty carries meeting sophistication witty repartee seems something strangely familiar man one wiserbr br film settles one early talkie boring drawing room comedies kitty casts spell men bob desperate start women strong roles film men puppets raymond hackett seems film extra butler pass cushion drink move chair instead dianes harassed fianc norma shearer course whole show marie dressler adds bouccy list eccentric portrayals sally eilers real eyeful gorgeous diane well bois finally said yes restraining order luckily covid instead feet feet possible distill heart soul sportno pure lifestyleof surfing perfect form documentary done documentary shows life waves people pioneers modern day vanguard pushing envelope big wave beenbr br stacy peraltaa virtual legend early s skateboarding days socal teenhas edited reams amazing stock interview footage essence created documentary masterpiece genre heart soul subject matterand clearly herehis genius fraught pure vision glamorize hype sentimentalize subject reveres surfers surfingbeach lifestyle whitewash either gritty reality sport wellbr br much said documentary surfers early history sport wild big wave surfers profiles greg noll first big wave personality arguably pioneered sport jeff carter amazing guy rode virtually alone years northern californias extremely dangerous mavericks big surf centerpiece documentary laird hamliton big wave surfings present day messiahbr br tremendous heart warmth among guysand girls show cameraand deep powerful love surfing ocean comes every word found story hamiltons adopted father met hamilton small year old boy practically forced dad especially heartwarming stripped syrupy sentimentalitybr br surfingor even dontthis wonderful documentary must watched student form someone simply appreciates incredibly welldone works art see say freddys nightmares cheesy ripoff obviously know good tv see episodes packed drama blood freddy creative way kills people love freddys nightmares hope episodes dvd best episodes saturday night specialschool daze love stinks think series sucked entitled opinion remember opinion means nothing freddys nightmares always one best series come accept fact soon enough watch deny brilliance want real school back online school tiring fall asleep every single day took away pe class online school restarted march cant socialize online school focusing ability fell floor probably took grades along restart online school cant play chess friends break start online school finallyim finally gon na meet dead parents wonder happen people around last words haha laugh im loser give things weeks school need stuff holidays suggest things im studying movie parts every around minutes long based true story life joe bonanno telling see events notice heard different movie make tied chair till end think possible watch row notice watched row next day row acting movie ok scenes awesome general bather movie acting special effects glamor one show real thing story key movie one look spectacular rambomatrixtitanic movie skip one good thing movie follow main story long boring love scenes different interrupt something important crime business bonanno survival instinct prevents ending emotional falloutis anyone frightened pain unsuccessful attempt hurt cause loved ones im meant feel blessed people care unlike people last thing im hanging onto think parents eventually understand death good thing wanted go think articulated adequately able live without regret thinking done something different ultimately life become less meaningful years everyone forget anyway probably selfish thats level apathy im im completely alone foreign country im afraidive lost fiancee drug addiction moved china kicked habit reality situation kicking today best friend basically brother started hate something last person left world ive suicidal different im afraid go home live fifth floor im afraid ill throw window life cant everyone rightmuch everything world things everybody couldnt life maybe im cut life important question pls answer anyones birthday one june exactly know whats really sad weeks ago camp hanging supposedly straight guys supposed sleep tent playing around acting gaylike appreciate im gay im okay everything fine topic gays came dude think gays expected positive answers considering acting night instead got worst possible results agreed belong hell moment heart broke wtf wrong slightly tried hint arguments statement slightly accidentally avail quickly moved another topic atmosphere getting quite heavy day still act gay tbh im kinda attracted one guy occasionally gives hugs tells pick lines tell one back instant keep head im pretty sure straight thats dilemma dont know actually gay hard read guys acting gay idk every guy high school acts gay least cant read back anyway please send help guy doesnt want leave mind hes got cute funny great hugger cute funny great personality feel wan na forever person made felt way previous rejection help im trying keep options god fucking damn gay hard slugsoul shenanigans feel shit snapcheddar reddit memes snapchedit reddar memes hm either way im aware dank world ripe snapcheddits boys think quote least correct wrong sticking past days depression started years ago bullied school staff surface sound bad treatment went genuinely left permanent scar emotional turmoil put young age saw quote twice day kept sticking realized true feel emotionally matured past point young happened stuck past years still throw tantrums fear alone naivete even methods self harm childish still feel child literally feel process emotions child know even move past trauma think will emotional state including depression everything brought changed years maybe things feel getting worse dealing bigger problems able emotionally handle older biting chew year old problems alot different almost year old problems want help bad even know start let alone financially stuck emotionally mature past age traumatized thinking hanging late september medication life badcannot fixedhi im antidepressants felt good told doctor want go mg mg eventually meds month became different person depression came back doctor told go back mg month feel mostly normal recently started feeling suicidal never happened set deadline hanging dont know meds life bad im already mg give reddit name someone send pictures sheep dont use u ping see cant come familyhi made new account post others find main account really want happen anyway around five years ive kept large sercret family im bisexual much attracted gender come relatively great family minus mother grandmother im extremely close said numerous times everyone family anyone gay thatd particularly mind shed still love us great know found actually support gay people father incredible guy makes jokes mocking gay people often makes little bit harder talk theyre managed open friends around year ago extremely supportive odd high school grew apart ive cut connections one talk anymore theres much building life including becoming much want spend rest life honest think ive thinking redflag much lately everything final straw mean got close oding last night im lost know husband wants divorce disable schizo useless spouse blame think much want dieposted schizo subreddit relationship says want continue relationship felt close years wanting help move kicking anything sat hours talking kept thinking much want die strength start im broken now edit looks going spend thanksgiving alone told want go hang family cant spend time around people losing ghosts sure reason live enough anymoremy partner years went lovers best friends choice mine longer trust made bad choices past cheated understand viewpoint entirely still madly love know go miracle cheated still together trying work honor trust paramount know cheating destroyed things im cheater immediately regretted came senses killing option thought partner want make sad figured maybe regain shred honor living make smile living punish im sure keep going anymore barely able keep going thought things mend wrong partner deserves world longer give want best friend cant make happy give trust loving relationship used know think soldier anymore never bear sight someone even though know happier cant anymore im scumbag honorless piece shit cheating deserve die anyways well almost everything done tomorrow rest world go test leaners permit drive except one final drive wise captain said may fortune favor foolish someone take blue cheese smells bad want looking norwegian speaking friends play games talk either already speak intend want learn much norwegian already know bit dm want helpi adhd know good self diagnose know itmy family doesnt take seriously though ive looked almost symptoms anyways anxiety diagnosed im relaly anxious next school year anyways mom tried diagnosed adhd kept nagging got forms give teachers forgot give one form take doctor guess one concluded didnt adhd confessed forgot give forms said wont go back doctor diagnosed really bad headaches whenever im faced much work focus one right told parents wanted try grapeseed extract read good focus yelled really dont want help way marks low last school year want fucking kill people adhd dont belong earth cant function feel burden everybody know cant schoolwork go living ill probably fucking bum dont know killing makes sense honestly im pretty worthless really cant anything without getting fucking migraine help merry christmas thats merry christmas weird yr old beard ill shave im bisexual friends say theyre default settings referring dont think homophobic think prove well boss officially hates mei work last week last week doctors office building absolutely one meanwhile everyone vacation weeks except stay dreadful office hours think thats fair im struggling significantly mental health pm came office late times got cause barely sleep nightmares hallucinations today came late im anything answering phones sitting hours boss angry talk im late hired definitely convinced full hates suspected know everyone literally hates meall family thats zero friends im school cant even focus anymore depression thoughts getting bad im really ready now dont itwhat point living know rest years plagued misery loneliness okay many us keeps going im running things keep going im getting tired people thinking depression something want want want feel normal whatever normal hello name ang years old struggling battle redflag depression quite long time now right going rough period able bed sleeping crying feel meaning life pointless point human life dumb miss able feel something feel lost idk release pain trying something dumb point feel point sort comment appreciated thanks lost life things got better middle school thankfully sad literally years young child life supposed good rough still affect life day home life wasnt super bad school living hell excluded everything still day tend view world harsh unaccepting sorry rant sad cruel teachers students elementary school bullying elementary school directly caused many mental health issues solumnotes care one depart pain unshared sentient beings shatter light glass marines reign supreme insignificant seem soul share another human empty shell full life mediocre hellish strife parasitic nothing times eradication yesterday tomorrows war serious kinda political question im gon na put anonymous form put username interested sub thinks httpsformsgledimrtqkefyzxm called jewish slur hate public schools full racist homophobic antisemitic well religions guy m constantly says horrible things bus causes problems every single day today got angry making fun jewish songs told shut responded calling kike thats saying nword person im tiredfor last weeks ive tired walking miles miles miles barely keep eyes open matter much sleep im still exhausted life bad friends wonderful family shit theyre problem want keep going im tired feeling second best im tired exhausted numb im tired feel im gon na die man allergies suck nose plugged nostrils barley breath throat hurts hurts breath mouth im basically gasping air every couple seconds cause cant breath want fucking die hate much cant breath feel im going die sleep know live sober throw away account going written slop apologize first abusing drugs alcohol feel deal life sober state started using heroin two years ago bi polar young lady needed put manic mind rest amazing although using lot less due resent overdose substituted alcohol pills matter always self harming whether drugs cutting starving always need harm body cope taking advice reading past months keep telling kill today ill wait till tomorrow weekend see feel im end cant keep going tried help many times clinics hospitals never seem help resent doctor drop health insurance dropped stop taking meds last summer due well poor student medical bills overdoses attempts even process mother kicked recently bare watch anymore cant even talk really fathers passing anyway even want die feel cant live anymore thank reading feel im stuck ruthi im years old live united kingdom near dover past hours ive feeling low unhappy life right im final gcse exams im going good grades ill probably getting ds es worse try hardest enough im overweight loser whos best enough never seem lose weight ive tried several times past unfortunately always seems fail skinny perhaps id confidence feel ill probably commit redflag im im stuck home pretty much everyday school finished friends teamspeak voip talk couple friends school social life girlfriend heh girfriend happening id nice job wife daughter move canada think ive damaged much young child especially weight normal happy healthy weight teenager instead fat one goals life feel ill never able achieve feel crying know neighbor commuted redflag days ago need helpbasically fucking pussy decided comment hurtful things ig post resulted taking life whole town working together figure dude bring justice permission family spread story yall help find pussy ass motherfucker help bring justice family ill let know information know anymorei feel lost right now cant help feel im terrible person one part complete sociopath sometimes empathy destroy someones life without feeling thing scares ive done terrible things past messed every relationship ive think world better without want keep hurting people care im doneim done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done 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depressed withdrawn able trust anyone anyway debilitating chronic disease incurable going better ive already enough hopsital appointments tests pain etc last five lifetimes want desperately desperately desperately lonely despite absolutely lovely female friend scared ultimately driving away one day everyone put simply nothing left live im mental pain nearly time ive tried different antidepressants years none worked longer weeks months absolute left worse state began interest trying antidepressants therapy unaffordable dilemma desperately want end pain go much longer cant want put parents second redflag swap places dead brother nanoseconds may thank give shit stuck special kind hell want wait parents pass elderly still another years way hold long got another creepy pm whys always crusty ass year old man child saying dumb shit asking nudes cant sum big titty ass milf shit nicely asks nudes wouldnt mind tbh tw redflag failed exam u feel killing movie far better original jerk highly recommend anyone quirky humor incorporated almost many lines movie daytime discourse monty pythonbr br card game hobos mr suicide scene dinner table distaste turtle soup original jerk choreographed ans staged steve martin seemed trying hard jerk spoof enjoyed anyone jerk family friendly unlike original jerk man womans body born filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text life alright summer break hell deal going back school genuinely know deal endless agony redflag redflag boredom somehow start school make winter seasonal depression top depression good combo genuinely feel hopeless really want go back school fell helpless please deal id rather die go back school reddit isnt helpingi created reddit feel understood people always suffer major depression mental illness suicidal thoughts come alll see sadness people ready give ruins even normal moments already fleeting heart goes everyone dont know healthy come always see stuff maybe unhealthy us idk leave reddit ill feel completely alone dont fucking know whats gon na help anything really want happy according society im yearold boy pretty sure im turning week female im girl scout multiple occasions people come walmart selling cookies thought troop mates younger brother rant highs high lows low creeping back unable comprehend random chaotic mind right now way easy one bad guy hate abuser molesterwhat burns hes gotten away hes happy new born sure forgiven know never stop hating existence reminder guilt betrayal inflicted every time thinks accept fact wrong people defend manipulated abused know well well enough know even touches self thinks memories good felt rush excitement deep regret stand fact story one loved bad guy creeping back answer leaving crazy world previous reviewer claudio carvalho gave much better recap films plot details recall mostly beautiful every sense emotionally visually editorially gorgeousbr br movies wonderful look emotional content beauty relevant think glad seen extraordinary unusual work artbr br scale id give reason shy away mood piece mood really artistic romantic film definitely think mustsee none us mood time overall stay alive mean cope stress little one talk emotions general pain existence um tall guys curious feel im short close subs make shitty week feel little better subscribe sorry advertise httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucwajopzlhbwznjbkhrqappdesktop whats movie always makes cry want sad today guess want people join discord server hallo discord server pretty empty normally talk gaming things interested send dm give link life worst past years rped abortion catholic family shot directly gun frienda man tried abduct meput truck sister went coma months clinically dead minutes physically abused everyway boyfriend figured seizure condition kill within years lesswow whole paragraph think past years go things ill sad remember something random abortion raped fact something unbelievable traumatic forgettable compared everything wowwhat wrong luck things done one person everything separate group people different parts country kidnapping thing happened days ago finally got courage work outgo run outside scared people second day years man tried kidnap mesomething life right something feel human guinea pig tested see far human pushedi want go crazy want control anymore tired want someone take body need anymore give give want anymore suicidaldepressed remember certain point care hurting family need put empathy aside care game quit whoever win please someone tell want alive want hurt family want end suffering pleasei want end really cant take anymore didnt ask brought world suffering waking hours muchive rough couple months recently lost mom live abusive father emotionally tears apart whenever talk telling death fault failure etc result speaking terms child without relatives really family talk sort exist school close friends alone ive really bad person lately demons hate want kind person nobody returns favor give forgetting love feels expanding void heart used im tired feeling nobody cares mostly know true going tie loose ends tomorrow leave im tired tryingfuck im sick always fucking bad guy genuinely feel make every effort everything right im easy target people take shit cant person people want fuck god damn even fucking try long anyway always knew gon na happen im sick people world worth apart rick roll httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvnmlkiashttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvnmlkias iti planned kill thursday obviously go mom excited christmas deals mental issues christmas always seems make things better even little leave christmas want die three yearsright now things easy way things going friends care care people relate ive got good family life fun siblings loving mother im currently college getting high marks higher grades entire life pursuing subject really enjoy hobbies love interests love life feel drag slightest im happy really good right now really hope three four years courage hang world getting worse holy shit world getting much worse working class little mind boggling despise country hate much fucking despise everything america every single capitalist lie gets shoved peoples throats convincing working hours week possibly survive normal justifiable living nightmare exist currently field im pursuing good jobs cities cities exorbitantly high cost living dollars month small unfurnished hole wall apartment building naturally field work regularly hour days hour work weeks thats generally norm first thought unique shitty feature preferred industry really isnt everyone deal bullshit working conditions order meet bare minimum living matter field workdays meaningless keep getting longer longer wages getting worse worse affecting everyone younger worse going college debt something deal rest life want ground dust rest adult life lay hours day one day per week human beings live inhumane disgusting inescapable climate apocalypse going bring hell earth even wealthier countries really life honestly life adds brief flash freedom teens driven dirt feel shit lives try tell people ways feel shit even though everyone feels shit trying convince theres mythic utopian life living wages afford everything need live plus savings disposable income fun work hours week way completely unnecessary given dramatic rise productivity standards reality everything sucks real world honestly want deal want live next three years life best convinced ill dead three years felt amazing ill try anything want ill take chances whenever please feels great feel fucking liberated amazing deal consequences anything want live best whatever want knowing easy fun runs dry life becomes nightmare feels fucked theres something cathartic always jail free card allows whatever wish want lifestyle ive adopted go away want live free forever cant freedom gone im going kill ill happy let world ill live die terms honestly cant see better way wrong love life really wan na kill three years hate brain weeks ago got asked said yes fun stuff weird tech rule house cant text often last talked two weeks ago im writing now fact appears accounts mine blocked hope dad find b weird amount stress seeing dads drunkard oldest sister still lives age severely limiting fact shes one work house b sawspoke last brain flooded negative hypotheticals ifs trauma previous relationships honest hell earth especially check back account see text see account changed dramatically digress whole lotta abandonment issues clinginess first world problems still move forth yes struggle talking long yes thank reading comedy humor skool bad parent bad minecraft good laugh huge cast gathered remake sadly box office failure notwithstanding great sound track cant say riveting entertainment cure insomnia nevertheless enjoyed film provided escape one afternoon good look us looking ideal life albeit fantasy expect corny moments thrills occasional laugh freaking fuck cant log back school laptop cant remember password online school lots assignments hand laptop ive never scared weidly ticked things even concern know im transphobehomophobe anything think everytime see post saying fuck transphobeshomophobes feel weird almost im mad know guilt something anyways day looking new friends discord know place server growing server thats lgbtq friendly almost times active always find someone talk wan na make application join want le burger king impossible burger uwu enough grow boobies d boys working outside recording studio hear voice angel miss van doren auditioning going name miss andrews father approve radio singer hopes certain bigwig mrs bixby friend dads hire give approvalbr br leaves within minutes boys running amok studio causing havoc musicians kill ruin recording session finally things calm whew eluded says moe yeah got away answers curlybr br boys fool around studio put miss van dorens record curly gets dressed womens clothes pretends hes singing mrs bixby walks impressed hires seniorita cucacha spot extra asked come sing highsociety party night rest sayis history curly pretends opera singer funny results oh way accompanied senior mucho senior gustobr br happens party simply truth wins slapstick antics take place pretty good episode enjoyed rate anything special hey basicly feel fucked everything everyone went university cov work weekends take care little brother cuz mom work go kindergarden suffer sad depressions completle lost study way practice companies etc bought car lots malfunctions poped mom wants house cuz adult y according go live gf find self flat gf lives parents grandpa flats suuuuper expensive live even video games super unlucky luck gf super amazing problem feel luck cuz almost died newborns somehow still sometimes wish died live shit af worldpower sex money hungry world hate life soooo much feel good fucked world everything unlucky feeling worst version personlike title says feeling absolute worm feel ruin hurt everyone come contact remembering words parents second grade youre mean person ones gon na wan na friend feeling ruin hurt everyone sad hours quite bit drunk shfjekskfjd always mfs wan na downvote post second post wan na stay silent hate mfs living worm confessionive come terms suicidal thoughts never going end sometimes whisper others deafening scream begging end suffering worm eating sanity little little stop stop enjoying every joy life laughing harder smiling broader whenever outrun flee worm acknowledge accept help others ease pain others safe affliction love im going hang myselfim tired cant stand alive anymore give hopeless know myselfi start first year high school next monday think ill make within single day ive almost killed multiple times people care less existed honestly agree sometimes seems nobody caresis seem people used give shit understand everyones got lives live whatnot people regard suicidal thoughts depression indifference temperature room way almost worse people care hear bullshit cheerful youre happy decide people choose depressed think switch flip theyre ignorant hard actually trying hey lay bed day hating give credit know hospitalized decade ago got accident make attempt life nurses told prayer list forty people made feel good people happy still existed know people care feels indescribably lonely sometimes way people take seriously something never far tell never will sucks thoughts swimming head one giving shit wish redflag pills end life instantlyi hate government much blocking pill people keep us alive minimum wages work live steal organ die replace thier body know theres lot going right things depressing might make happy know hamster follow instagram surgery remove abscess complete success name vincent likes cucumbers hes super cute sounds surgery went fine hes road recovery girl hit today hit balls specific hurt friend said dont even want im girl believes break himhi reddit really really need help friend lets call guy fallen girlfriend severe trust issues fully believes going lose thursday next meet told eaten slept last hours said dont even want im girl idea help ive told needs help said hed thrown looney bin mind fucked right now idea say help know help situation im good friends guy girl reddit please help wrong area please tell help friend thank reading tldr check title ended toxic relationship morning thought tell toxic relationship everything leave need help talk family member friend help wrote note babyi wrote goodbye note last night two plans figured dying scares dying part whatever hell comes wan na die see nothing feel nothingnothing christian believe heaven hell obviously wan na go heaven id rather die go nowhere baby cant leave note follow birthday birthday today great time wanted tell sb cake right good entertaining accurate erafeel scenes enough personality variations cover real people around days without story distractions exceptions credits show peralta mar vista california hill venice south malibu lived heartbreak hotel days prebeachboys next surfer kid bob cooper wasatch avenue alley used burn surfboards work old skatekey skatewheels used plywood cutouts roll sidewalk waves things different succeeding decade cool innocence fifties broke warmth sun whitewater freedom exhilaration electric sixties assertively innovative playtime inventive evolutionary madness weird seventies movie gives piece kind magic moment time place imaginary wave real source culturally significant influences btw theres another movie similarly american street edginess genuinely unique goodness laid back realness helps refine elusively eternal sense cool two lane blacktop one best examples freesouldoit attitude west coast california history dennis wilson monte hellman one thanks sp right one gwr u sort new ur redditor thats ayo hows feel loser virgin cus im nauseous rn sign give idk nobody wants anything called doctor surgery every day week line opens every time greeted someone really rude tells appointments booked today even though need telephone call spin gt v lt horribly suicidal smoked joint im casually enjoying playthrough animal crossingweird mood change quickly know turn toive got much shit going wrong feel share anybody know cares keeps getting worse want stop today made noose sturdy chord fact made fucking feel im letting everyone idea seems inevitable got viewing program first time recently hour kidnapping program know sooner james caan outstanding whollybelievable role chief honcho featured vegas complexbr br often programs one ensemble either outright annoying seem picked must related producer directorbr br certainly case program along caan primary supporting cast engaging attractive believable guest actors wellchosen br br stories ive seen interesting show presents good view city wellbr br entertaining program one hope remain know managed miss long plan tivo im feeling year chronic depressedalready year feel nothing hatred sadness within fueling thoughts negativity ive hope ill trust people feel safe loved healed feel happy never person cry year feel im constantly holding back cry every day wanted command feel fucked head desire destroy vanish greatness gone ive felt fucked often became chronic undeniable feel need someone fix make shit decisions professional expensive right cant put real person shit im always keep evolving often leads going days denying insanity dont know feel constantly outcast thoughts impossible fit im either foggy fucked negative spiral inside head ive short outburst happiness hour drains energy letter myselfdear self hate hate much thought many ways ive wanted die stupid things thinking actually going change youre parents think disappointment embarrassment said many times ive practically become numb words many people tried reach tell fine obviously werent didnt accept didnt want burden want good image want others believe everything control stupid sounds couldnt done work done everything correctly shouldve done everything start look brothers everything control great life ahead always compared theyre far smarter better looking overall superior shouldnt born family mistake reason mom dad fight always enjoy messing peoples lives still everyone favor leave hate hate much die im stupid even plan redflagand ive already failed multiple times past im losing hopehello joined subreddit need talk cant talk friend dont want stressed whatever id rather talk wont talk parents im crybaby recently death seems appealing everything problems im ptsd everyday mind torturing things youre faking youre worthless nobody care died im going university tomorrow cant stop thinking everything experienced past happen university blamed friends point parents might think im unstable see state world honestly think unfair shitty world left behind even though sometime find beautiful things laying ptsd avoid many things point ridiculous cant stop thinking none us free point think time rest die huge abandonment issues point someone doesnt act way millisecond stress think leave dont know im expecting putting writing things way coping everything living sucksim gon na bye everyone one care send simple sketches ill try illustrate adobe illustrator discord gt cant afford therapy anymore insurance sucks extreme guilt anxiety im donei cant cant quit therapy barely even afford medication now im afraid even make another redflag attempt fail im hospitalized wont able afford bill either want slap younger face im wrecked guilt ill probably next person called cancelled god want die wasted entire summer dont anything dont friends anything im outsider looking dont relate anyone cant even go social media im intensely jealous people job sit nothing day ive new projects months think boss forgot even work im body desk want die want dead nothing gets better summer fucking wasted hate earth surprising beautiful romantic tale samantha boy problems health problems love current boyfriend jasper fades away love kelley blooms new spring flower br br found movie touching warm romantic touching enjoyed every bit movieand thats pretty rare highly recommend movie movie lovers one film want miss dbr br wayif sentimental person easily cries watching movies bring tissues hand really really good movie romanticand surprisingly good dbr br dont thinkdont think much find quite place youll disturbed sit lay close eyes imagine small river flows river leaves put every mean every thought leave let flow river dont make river go faster slower observe thought flows river distracted thought okay come back river put thought leave let flow least mins tell ur crush u long friends ask someone love want know people think know anymoreapologies advance know im longwinded boringly pessimistic incubating depression coming head im nearing two months unemployed goodpaying seasonal job lined start weeks meantime ive searching something solid temporary gig ends goal move current lease ends next year want leave town found much success county ive lived past years job prospects low im struggling find right direction anyway quit job two years early summer little background think might relevant later id really well company year half id gotten great performance reviews made decent sales managers found resourcefulness communication skills exceptional parttime encouraged take fulltime lateral position nearby sister location debated ultimately applied received transfer stood offer experience good hourly raise plus bonuses sales manager ill call melissa running office crucially busy time working alone lot sacrificing days meet deadlines suit melissas scheduling needs tried stay positive burned fairly quickly melissa salaried came work late im talking least hour often keep paperwork constantly fighting keep us current one occasion found integrityhonesty questionable really problem taking ownership workspacei desk front worked hours week melissa office large desk upon kept fresh decorations personal photos etc come back day find personal affects place see written desk calendar id personally purchased know writing appointments helps memorize melissa insist desk computer belong needed utilize desk gone front store really fight really got skin removed everything bare essentials generic emailshers managerial one mine sales per company norms wed put names signature lines respective email accounts shed use computer shed log sales user instead manager one led sending emails sales outlook account shed send emails account used sometimes even change signature line shed go far refer third person one final straws melissa boss regional manager decided bonus technically belonged pretty big sale required regional manager authorization bonus structure rightfully mine months worked location melissa id reached teams locations needed support trying best honest state office without blatantly calling melissa shortcomings bringing personal feelings even addressed concerns regional manager sending factual professionallyworded email started looking fallback jobs realized melissa running show regional manager going help deeply regretting making transfer came shamefully abrupt end one saturday morning long found shed taken bonus office open daysweek funny days came back monday really saturday find background wallpaper computer changed obnoxiously pixelated blown image pink rose prefer stock wallpapers dark colors find desktop icons even set keys patience took hit albeit trivial annoyance great start week whatever melissa showed surprisingly early prepared make morning rounds opening shop chipper mood obviously pleased punctuality day quickly sensed irritability keep mind im monday mode anywaynot thats excuse bitch anyway latched onto mood called putting damper morning sure probably used attitude adjustment chose right perform impromptu assessment problem caught guard prepared launch wellformed argument problem reached quick answer mentioned desktop wallpaper melissa said another manager spent time office help must changed followed chastising obsessed desk needed accept people needed use moment done clearly respect effort put work care took organization feel valued respected allowed take ownership part job wanted rip top bun stupid blonde head call selfish bitch instead calmly dropped office keys desk told quit going argue minutia foundational issues id dealing weighing heavy collected supplies id purchased left office last time morning left voicemail hr department headquarter office theyd know quit luckily one applications temporary reception job came quickly resumed working week later days chose hire permanently wanted stay temp longer let feel good long commute enough pay ive unemployed late september ive applied places im avoiding industry id last two yearsits really cliquey good feeling toward anymore either mostly retail experience belt scrapbook collegeuniversity credits degree typically aim clerical work government positions least feel im contributing society somehow kinda fell salesoffice job stayed pay awesome often hear keep finding situation problem likely im owning maybe im straightforward worker think maybe work ethic really maybe along people im spectrum something working relationship pattern melissa seem new tend regularly find fault type management guess feel put bullshit know see way fix make work know belong calling ive lot jobs last years live longtime partner ill call p im ashamed say p support financially month next temporary job begins feel really guilty essentially ragequitting really rage though swear good paying job turning next job offer havewant children pets p offers moral support well really emotionally supportive seem understand im experiencing right now thats okayi job everything times feel really alone spite someone come home come large family mother died four years ago week slow descent opiod addiction unexpectedly turned extreme alcoholism estranged years prior understand accept choices making family negatively affected death personally im peace knowing longer selfdestructing wish still mom sure woman became longer momid lost mom years died siblings understand feel way villanized bullied talk dad side count either lives nearby relationship ties cut whether inperson social media contact siblings abusive lead toxic lifestyles lot incestual abuse moms large family auntsunclescousins life either p thinks siblings take advantage funny probably take advantage says thats hard time making friends thinks keep guard high ive made acquaintances work years gone dinner movies coworkers years ive really connected someone identify friend someone flakes tend waste time anymore early twenties id backstabbed lot coworkers thought friends course leads question kind person prone backstabbing people think hesitate confront someone example someone im friendly workplace drops ball somehow problem reminding expectation describe stern straightforward unkind im left assume people generally think im good listener trustworthy honest make effort put positive spin things workplace tear others gossip tolerate vicinity guess im unlikable maybe im annoying uninteresting dumb hard tell kind person im perceived many people outside p socialize ampxb past weeks ive cleaning belongings mom died deal storage unit junk want leave kind mess p went journals present ive always listless position running narrative know work bosses little work much pay feel alone know clearly im problem early thirties already im stumped find work entry level guess really deserve anything stuck anything long enough earn today cleared old video diaries laptop yes video diariesi lonely lose patience handwritten journaling quickly ive tried recording try talk even skipping im disgusted emptyheadedness speak well seem know anything substance look ive done anything value frustrating thing surface seem problem ablebodied enough jog miles time eat fairly well read bit resumee strung together time hands ive job search submitted applications every waking minute im employed right picky health home car manageable debt burdens hold back cant make something happen feel dead inside kid ive wanted dead see future real goals passion sense community theres book dbt skills got outpatient program ten years ago desk distract self care hey weeks ill job keep mind plenty occupied im really tired conversation days health insurance im sorry obama aca never good even staunch liberal therapys question right now put position involuntarily committed ill need pass last background check simply posting feels red flag call hotline im cups volunteer im crisis modewhat even say shit work id tell profound sense fallen cracks know im shallow idiot psych drugs fix loneliness change ideology maybe everyone supposed born maybe person life better without dark presence maybe week maybe next week maybe next year even land another sufficient job ill dangling thread pitand heavenit scary thingthat depression becomes massive affects many people gathered lot info god finally making shit first time life sometimes feel bad even suicidal oh boy got better used percent know felt darkbut finally gon na change better post herewhy yell void hope someone responds wonder many us go posting ill start last time posted different account forgot months ago post im lonely ill make effort contact friends theyll brush go back whatever theyre realize much think think pull away obviously killed yet im dealing right lots confusion uncertainty know whether im becoming paranoid beginning see truth know really know want life wheres motivation without goals least staying hands long enough post talk finally told grandmother reason want dieshe long antagonizing family mom favorite child cant accept son forgotten son always says take country us family lives never never even told grandmother cousin got married already take care feed give stuff wants still evil eyes likes twist words actions look protagonist terrible drama likes make us look ganging really right need know fight among everything still good enough everyday makes us feel worthless always feel enough family im good person try best keep quiet even want scream stay still even want kill hold everything burden grandmother likes play favorites favorite among siblings siblings unnecessarily extra nice giving food siblings watch making drink siblings watch expects side want take sides want die resilient motherfucker rather die greatest reason hate waking today fought screamed told reason want die kept quiet screamed loud neighbors heard screamed loud minutes later throat still hurts crying think hate seeing cry annoying shut trap suffer quietly cant shaking mad sitting still want either us die whether goes first go first matter want end suffering already suggests move therapist keeps telling easy need month advance month deposit paying bills already paying current house easy third world country taste shiddy humor award contest ended congrats uepicwaterdrinker winning best chinese movie seen opinion lot better hero chrouching tiger hidden dragon movie unique combination several genres beautiful love story action movie comedy horror time amazing thing really succeeds thisbr br movie definitely makes top enjoyable every movie lover action sequences traditional unrealistic jumping even flying way shot differs style hero lot flying always looks great usually even makes sense ghosts flybr br see movie regret want murderedi dont know word want someone kill anyone similar experience dont know suicidal self harm problem wanted killed years used want kill lot never family murdered wouldnt know much wanted im even depressed anymore im happy want die days often im mostly ok things looking still cant shake desire killed think lot ive described ideal death doped drugs thrown fight ring ass beat conversation friends idea killed alluring dont know cant shake escape extent guilt feel towards redflag im one pulling trigger dont feel bad dying whole process sounds amazing intense fear rush pain getting shot gut realizing oh shit im going die falling ground slow drawn painful death slowly fade consciousness dread dying intensity feeling tempting die want really feel know really unhealthy fantasy murdered probably actually suck still want real bad ive tried times never finish job felt sooo good tried feeling rope tighten around neck oxygen slowly cut brain warmth slowly encroaching numbness amazing feeling body shut piece piece ecstasy moment something ill never forget pain melted away wonderful state absolute peace last minute guilt set took away bliss quickly undid rope sat guilt awhile havent tried part still wants want want feel fade intensity pain never gon na happen dont know id find someone willing kill want real bad days maybe happened id run away even instincts kick hope wouldnt least wouldnt away im safe now refuse kill dont want kind control die want life entirely someone something elses hand want one made die want feel good feel bad fantasy really fucked wish didnt cant shake bad think maybe times week still idk needed vent anybody insight maybe similar experience th december dayso ive decided th december day years pain finally come end im tired now im always tired mind constantly ravaged thoughts ive managed destroy life greatly feel terribly parents destroy cant go longer complete failure im good anything constantly hurt people around letting let one final time end early morning th december clear dorm room ill wear favourite sweater woolen one shades red ill roll joint fine marijuana smoke listen nujabes ill rake beauty winter morning north india bid adieu peace gon na leaving link httpsyoutubetrzpbjewhyw grownup mids even close nancy drews key demographics pleasantly surprised film afternoon tell pair sixtyish silverhaired ladies row older man left theater ahead specifically praised film ish female usher said shed seen film previous evening quite liked itbr br point row ahead nine count nine tenyearold girls lined next passing popcorn hot dogs candy back forth giggling previewsbr br film began promptly settled watchbr br much peep till closing credits began rollbr br perfect film quite pay high school subplots quite confident enough tone thugs hair far toward critically inept times adaptation source material essentially respectful plot hangs together fairly well treads deftly sins excessive cheesiness excessive modernization last least emma roberts carries movie startling grace josh flitters superb timing notwithstanding roberts movie pulls beautifully nancy drew much direct ancestor kristen bells veronica mars film lineal descendant jodie fosters early underrated candleshoebr br todays marketplace rarity family movie respects viewers intelligence everyones taste best movie kind decades fuck russianeastern european accent literally know nobody accents dont carry genetics still wouldnt make sense fucking clue dont live near eitheri live ohio made first website let know think httpsjustdidthistiinysite copy paste google vary proud first id say im amateur commenting movies english native language felt strong feeling compelling write movie possibly way thank congratulate c jay cox cast crew brilliant productionbr br yesterday watched latter days first timebr br first thought might similar movie priest liked much showing gay priest closet priest maybe due restrict catholic ideological notions supply spectators needs revealing profound sad endbr br latter days hand broke concept ones well mormons principles presenting tender cheerful story leading happy emotive end yet arousing feeling gods blessing hope great movie indeedbr br somehow latter days made feel la city angels br br recommend movie anyone likes astoundingly beautiful gay love stories feel life worth livingfuck everything got rejected another medical school spend years studying getting good gpa spending thousands dollars applications countless hours dedicated extra curriculars amounted failure whats fucking point turn top soil use world unemployable skill set mom horribly financially forced move social housing cant handle change failure letting around point fucking point respected done years agoso running time money cant work hardly leave house cant talk people social anxiety bad depression makes want try fuck cant even watch movie tv show past years everyone abandoned spoken anyone years mean literally every months accidentally bump someone say sorry invested life savings fear going broke homeless felt choice gamble basically lost tried working online luck enough money last years waking going sleep worse time zero hope anything better endless suffering look forward resources running seriously debating homeless dead zero peace happiness man years social assistance help even offer us month rent give anything money gone exactly sure person barely leave house survive homeless plan take last bit money head south weather warmer tried best everything done position fear never ended well spent years forcing situations want engage society ended humiliation loser ending sooner knew headed way expect happen soon weird watch lesbian porn waist hot make stuff vaginas kinda gross sweet intro intelegent sailor soldier sailor mercury consisted new croud merciurios beganing wrote love letter ami starltling course now ami thiks chibieinstien attractive ended looking umino melvin halarios expesialy minakos skin neck scene hot well really bishojo senshi sailor moon series personally think best anime movie nice funny adventurios sailor moon s movie saw sailor moon univewrse real player pretty good good friend m several breakdowns distancing fh hes close know dofh fear one good friends close going hes confided us long time ago hes suffered depression suicidal thoughts long time weve several scares dealt withwitnessed handful breakdowns fell radar little year ago solid day half emotional break went far breaking house check find car turns self harmed called ambulance recent break weeks ago last break basically stopped talked fh work together thats kind big deal think went office twice worked home times hes taken completely quite bit top talk fh hes real jerk based fh told conversations ive suffered depression considered redflag used self harm familiar lot recent actions dick fh basically spelled hes ready hes pushing away order push us life make easier fh giving want help know turnaround yesterday came place couple hours now shop garage fh work coming unannounced going straight shop uncommon came home though inside watching tv fh hung another hour say much know positive want know lunch mentor figure yesterday discuss everything several us know hes going basically watch asked far hes thought skip beat saying knows help lives alone try come come us much possible pushing us away put hard stop please need help know night last breakdown sat talked privately confides trusts fh ive told past dealings fh admittedly ideal person help someone state mind everyone involved aware thats bad thing hes kind person talked able help calm really tell whys hows hes looking committed relationship long time nothing works know one reasons admit thats something help either help someone dealing much hes intelligent good looking individual praised work good core group friends anything everything family intact supportive even hes depressed thinks low dwells relationship status lot even drink lot twice week gamenight guys join theyll drink home fridays regular spot go regular group guys great guys hes drinking heavily smoke dog home know helps im growing afraid none going enough hes closer id believe im sorry im rambling please help us help go see professional dont want commit redflag dont really want wake tomorrowim done cant wait another year leave college boyfriend im tired living house toxic parents toxic divorce im exhausted able proper job stress levels high sensitivity im tired jobs right want morning im done amam days babysitting homework dog walking homework sleep day im exhausted bored realize thats privileged thing saying want people fun interacting love much thats stimulation life cant work two hours customer service job without close panic attack pressure insane flow people messes empathy cant anything besides high pressure customer service job undergrad degree im tired working hard trauma boyfriend work man emotionally abused three days week part community built business im tired job right now im tired regressing every single time goes working hard feel betrayed choice right now im tired missing actively participating community boyfriend used work together made realize boss teacher making legitimately depressed taken almost year quitting im done close im done back im done want next year want across country away town away jobs want different person im exhausted want study focus classes read favorite books talk boyfriend away parents fighting money college tuition stupid divorce im tired probably mention im planning anything want wake want next year im still hopeful every day weeks draining much im scared im reaching inability hope thank much listening sub incredible im really grateful opportunity post something somewhere guys amazing hey girl job im immigrant plan one kinda weird idc ly review james bond movies evaluate rate according well meet expectations certain things one come expect even demand bond film individual effort either delivers doesnt ten elements make bond film bond film even though never say never technically part official bond filmography mere presence sean connery returning makes something merely honorary member series anyway heres rates scale br br title never say never clever title apparent link actual storyline instead injoke reference sean connerys vow never play oo lured back diamonds forever whatever case catchy title pointsbr br precredit teaser perhaps trying avoid obvious parallels official eon series bond films teaser opening scenes shown behind credits even disappointing yet another ohno bond killed fakeout pointsbr br opening credits screen full tiny s even bother trying jazz credits graphics split screens interesting camera angles pointsbr br theme song written michel legrand sung lani hall never say never make perfectly pleasant part particularly long elevator ride bond theme merely okay pointsbr br bond james bond appropriately film sees connery lured back service bond decades hiatus story begins facing question whether bondconnery still job happily connery proves ready bondage though bit grayer sporting bit girth wearing slightly obvious toupee seems trouble slipping back action one connerys best relaxed turns character pointsbr br bond babes even best bond films female characters given much dimension exist largely necessary props bonds use future oscarwinner kim basinger granted great deal leeway creating character domino petachi film benefits nice job bad look either pointsbr br bond villain reports death obviously exaggerated blofeld back least moment showing lives prized pussycat onetime jesus portrayerturnedstereotypical villain max von sydow given lot role silky presence nonetheless overshadowed wonderful performance klaus maria brandauer maximilian largo string banal bond villains refreshing brandauer gave performance subtle yet colorfully evil funny without campy ruthless without seeming cartoonish largo ranks right auric goldfinger one bonds best villains pointsbr br bond baddies fatima blush say played bold style particularly flamboyant drag queen barbara carrera breezes film displaying mix selfamused evil tad pure psychotic insanity bond crossed paths variety femmes fatales easily disposed existed amusing eye candy characters dared exhibit flare dramatic fierce determination even untimely demise spectacular even bondian standards pointsbr br sinister plot remake sorts thunderball film seem bit beentheredonethat nuclear missiles stolen major real estate go kaboom countries world pay multikazillion dollar ransom least producer kevin mcclory lucky enough find forced remake one weakest bond adventures comparisons effort blows thunderball water despite absence many bondian trademarks film succeeds pointsbr br production values film starts uneasy style tv movie trying story progress film gains momentum sense purpose making superior adventure points br br bonus points several odd changes sets bond film apart official series miss moneypenny hardly acknowledged played edward fox m cranky old grouch respect double os foreshadowing judi dench later play part q suddenly cockney accent buddybuddy bond curious sense nostalgia throughout film replacing bonds astinmartin vintage packard tango dance number cleverly inserted story big rescue near end horseback homage raiders lost ark tribute bond films pointsbr br summary never say never mixed bag really important areas holds thanks hero connery villain brandauer assassin carrera damselindistress basinger devil details seemingly unimportant opening credits theme song seem film lacking absence comes faux bond film good substitute substitute nonethelessbr br bondometer rating points im trying sexist anything damn bro looking cute today hate talk problems friends family say want help things start real longer want listen mention suicide longer want worst part whenif actually go first people say reached help want someone try understand feel come want family understand least attempt understand anyone feel way families comfortable listening hate talk sure right subredditi apologize poor explainerorganizer things advance anyways idea start post jumping right fantasizing redflag past couple months ill later first let state think actually act thoughts think id balls idea putting people close traumatic experience im much coward live life idea ending depression pointless life suicidal thoughts well guess attributed depression turn attributed inability make decisions failure appreciative successful yr old male attending well respected university east coast idea want life turn makes feel failure currently second semester college idea far ive managed waste parents money discover want job major chosen feel deserve opportunities given parents individuals throughout life knowing want life makes hard motivate work classes turn leads poorly classes turn leads becoming depressed situation depressed makes even difficult motivate work basically guess im somewhat trapped nonstop cycle afraid im going fail calc exam basically going set back whole year college major pursuing due fact calc pre req lot courses going sound little clich ripping movie easiest way explain way feel seen office space understand easily part movie office space main character basically says whatever wanted job nothing pains say feel anything life nothing well actually nothing bit deceiving let rephrase whatever wanted view life makes feel shit know never able live way unless win lottery something another reason feel failure closest friendsfamily around went college knowing exactly want finished either years brother computer scientistprogrammer finished college career semester early even job already juicy salary best friend friend finished school early well job friends attending institution go lives well line one getting ready graduate two others well way promising careers basically im surrounded successful people polar opposite know want getting jobs seem found meaningpurpose life little old sitting pretending know want parents see lazy ungrateful piece shit really want talk someone im afraid theyll think im crazy person throw psych ward shit fuck really know im posting guess part things chest maybe suggestions suggestions means voice mother suicidal thoughts making sad toomy mother father split almost years ago currently lives brother give shit last week one worst fights talk today came tell died life pay im im deal fact mother wants kill constantly alone hand deal father difficult person deal going several phases life time energy dedicate mother im living mother hard follow know determined commit strong suicidal thoughts today deal fairly well fear anything happens mother know handle suicidal thoughts well time passes mother loses reason live falls redflag please help know im loop takes mother makes sadder talk today tomorrow morning ill schedule session psychologist soon possible thoughts head guys im confused help piss pants drip cant handle anymoreever raped life went downhill everyone way shouldve handled report tell whole school ect instead making sure okay trying make statement wanted alone cope withdrew dropped school met someone time convinced end life unfortunately cheated ex gave std needed surgery ive thought obsesses old sex tapes goes friends try go talk girls even though im guys night friend tried hire hookers feel fucking worthless hate people high expectations heck high goals aimed let crash burn going doctor wanted work chronically ill patients works towards better pain management hopefully cure perfect boyfriend happened dumped trauma much hold onto anything cant pretend anymore things better years pills therapy lost everything cared fault stronger really miss ex im glad saved trouble watching turn shell person really dont see hope anymore guess days go one day finally literally breathing day die day breathe seconds hold exhale day cold war beta loved film seen philadelphia film festival march went india friends movie real related everything savored every moment characters believable story poignant ending realistic sentimental enjoyed discussion director showing movie shows well blending complete mixing worlds east west supporting cast wonderful depicting life tourist encounters india quite realistically humor subtle times dry makes realistic woven daily escapades characters easy identify situations portrayed many guys make friends girls actually want friends want fuck girl says want friends whine moan guys genuinely actually want make friends women whats bad friend zone someone enough want boyfriend enough want friend yall know tiring think making good friends person come say want fuck dissapear tell braces incoming 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want understand want serious im vers want vers idk answer wont lots different things prefer say class teacher ukrainian language teacher actually talk person age computer science hate sometimes highest probably pe literally give us highest grades nothing lowest biologychemistry hours ill everything morning received yet bet math exam got bad grade last thing learned ukrainian poor lower class rooms kitchen bathroom living room lol prefer say small enough public wont answer last ones ok fun im prepared downvotes sexual questions stalked woohoo good day advice sneaking night yr old super bored quarantine mac keep entertained games window building pc november next week getting longboard idea super fun sneak ride around town late night snuck advice make easier mistakes made feel going lose itwhen chest begins hurt hear heart thumping loudly ears mind begins loiter upon dark thoughts cope back againhi im graduating th grade tomorrow im really feeling feels sad monday night died tonight honestly mind accidentally naturally idk ive purposely avoiding family im trying distract thoughts go away idk anymore quite surprised im still alive industry dropped ball trailer movie justice opened hand full screens people opportunity see work mouth made successful lead actresses give great emotional performances really draw story especially characters checked based rave recommendation richard roeper ebert roeper book example great film never got fully released except screens gave chance seen movies go video quickly good oscar worthy tragedy many levels never even hear maybe via word mouth gain following dvd cable see movie great performances lead actresses make movie another formulaic teen movie school special instead stands well note worthy films girl interrupted comes mind br br girls one amazing emotional scene another without coming melodramatic even though alicia angry deanna crying movie done real way come stereotypical characters melodramatic movie move many scenes aspiring actor use real performances school erica even better traffic hope actors roles utilize talents well let shine see movie recommend friends lost among blockbuster crap comes every year movie buried spiderman tops records kind word living aghhh make world right see recommend looking emotional representation depressionredflag feel short film essay something less clinical gutpunch accurate feels day day anyone seen read art piece anything able use help someone close understand something show partner ratio world record speedrun guys im world record speedrun see fast ratiod go workplace training thing coming making nervous reason workplace training thing might good description basically thing go apply place work week instead school meant introduce work places im interested makes really nervous reason places im thinking applying kebab restaurant grocery store hardware store feels really weird shouldnt happening idk thing years know male snoo died recently joined smash read helped lot artist people hate helps hope helps many moreended crossroad try figure way go stuck treadmill running place got hazard lights hoping somebody slow praying miracle wholl show grace couple dollars quarter tank gas long journey ahead seen truck pull god sent angel help gave direction showed read map long journey ahead said aint oh even midst doubt life worth living life worth living live another day meaning forgiveness people make mistakes mean give life worth living relationship ski slope avalanche comin slow enough time salvage love feels blizzard april cause heart cold skating thin ice strong enough hold us seen scream holler put us blast tearing thought god sent us angel help us gave us direction showed us make last long journey ahead said aint oh even midst doubt life worth living life worth living live another day meaning forgiveness people make mistakes mean give life worth living life worth living reflection different perception world may see try crucify aint perfect deny reputations line im working better life worth living life worth living live another day meaning forgiveness people make mistakes god judge life worth living another day life worth living anyone owns rdr finish story first playing online matter got game im percent story anyone know among us player named coochie man friends started egg hat gang dont know even reddit know player named coochie man usually plays orange started egg hat gang id appreciate left comment thanks make redflag least painful familyi access helium imagine learn rig exit bag husband devastated parents spare much pain possible need talkim wondering redflag im wondering options im wondering consequences telling friends effect driving away telling family effect making life harder want tell somebody im thinking redflag cool swap stories somebody needs talk guess pm post story ill reply mine sure specifics interesting help want improve lifeany suggestions slowpaced intricately structured ultimately touching nice truetolife look small florida beach town dead winter ive absolutely accuratebr br debut feature actress ashley judd makes big impression hard believe film years old remember seeing theaters recently rented ruby except s looking clothes held nicely ashely radiant touching hard think subsequent career without wincing boy talk failing fulfill early promise anyone seeing ashley ruby paradise assume elegant natural beauty went kinds interesting art films serious acting instead become go girl dumb action films slasher movies disappointing least lovely performance preserved showcase early promisebr br commenters say everyone slow paced action film really romance director victor nunez ulees gold another excellent character study treats ordinary young womans life deep respect allowing story build slowly lot detail way think one moving respectful comingofage stories young women recall rubys sexual awakening lost virginity life choices growing maturitybr br lovely film take time watch iti think really excellent film show teens young girls boys matter give chance think discuss itbr br particular kudos director nunez wrote script realistic nicely detailed assumed movie based femalewritten novel memoir fact mr nunezs original work rated f ask girls sleepover questions want girls ask us anything well answer put whos answer weve got lots time ask away lt thoughts actionive never attempted every time walk work shops wish car swerve hit gets worse visit therapist feel good exactly minutes gnawing thoughts seeing death grandpa died suddenly peacefully never even got say goodbye remembering exgirlfriend whole life kept together hates clingy due part anxiety flood back im worse bridge hospital house always hard cross want die sometimes feel easier nobody life cares enough listen without judging mei guess need someone talk ive rejected girl well call lauren livestreaming instagram watched hoping make lose interest obsessing talking friend house boring far good goal stop obsessing one friends said something getting drunk said shouldnt underaged drinking calls cuck says well noone asked perfect im losing romantic interest already cringey tictoc dances went matter seconds minutes later invites another friend onto live asks things suggest making origami swan shes baffled probably doesnt know origami tell japanese soldiers used practice making origami swans help selfdiscipline im remembering correctly blares nerd alert im little hurt thats want thats said guy name joins stream says hey brendon fake name hang sometime long clarified wasnt talking minute later tells leave kicks guest enough time say look dood geekin japan soldiers weeb shit im hurt id say success see arrogant bitch instead sentient flawlessness tldr watch crushs livestream hopes losing interest mission accomplished edit realised didnt need give fake name never even called name oh well cant stop im scared call hotline afraid ofwhy call fear pain whatever now attitude depressionso pretty much entire life ive horrible attitude life depression doesnt help much seems make everyone want walk away makes things worse dont know aht think redflag death time im always thinking different ways kill tried change attitude tword life hard suggestions homework ate dog im sad apparently give homework away cant hand dog teacher im going fail sad demon slayer op sick change mind feel free share favourites life interesting spend time gen x conspiracy theorists midst pandemic think government something behind scenes mom told believe government says boyfriend telling even people causes related corona virus still marked covid asked find information said facebook im supposed believe government im somehow supposed believe see internationalgatheringofboomerscom used fact people died diseases werent forced live way back argument think government wants control ending day nowi guess look ive got say thankful im id burn house blow car tell friends family fuck bring anything emptiness ive felt months now think always ive able ignore im alone even im around people care im alone one person ive bared soul laugh tell still friends cant even bring eat nothing gives joy nothing gives sadness bags packed speak already final letters written stuffed labelled envelopes gave video game shit neighbor kid yesterday held gun temple hammer cocked thing keeping imagined mother feel police showed tell son blew brains basement probably stop tonight maybe tomorrow doubt see next week crippling anxiety kissing today went date girl dropped house talked bit wanted kiss seemed wanted problem got anxious move felt going throw anyone delt gotten im doneim planning take life soon tried everything nothing works cant bear anymore thought getting betterits year wanted seriously kill note planned back went therapy hashed problems depression years discharged months ago therapy im back never ending pit despair loneliness want take knife end im tall pounds asian want affection find someone grow learn never success relationship wise ive never even girlfriend im sick everything feel never find love tried improving change going gym personality passions music arts always good enough friend im tired honestly dont think win societal standard seems go hand hand opportunity aka handsome somewhat tall manly man howdy folks looking try dungeons dragons chill cool people ill running oneshot sunday evening beginners pros whoever wants free join timezone gmt msg discord ya wan na know deats wimble witty disgusting brash intelligent baseketball redefines comedysports pot spoof easy target makes called comedies dead boring one best time trey parker matt stone play roles losers apt perfection wish cuddle someone hug goes longer secondi feel worthless ugly lonely always day friend brought gun school happened guym im talking friend timeactually friends classmates used make fun slightly average iqhe simpletonor everyone thoughthe used sit behind soi used conversations day one day noticed looking weird watching classmates weirdly thinking something alsohe kept checking bag time time day teased guysso thought might asked problemhe took secluded corner classroom told fearful tones gun bagi shocked say least first thought lyingbut noticed weirdand checking bag told prove lunch break took outside lobeholdthere gun handnow asked calmlyeven tho panicking inside trying gunhe said nothingi told keep gun hidden gone teachers reminded brother simpleminded knew wanted tohe shot usso kept quiet whole day next day came thanked telling teachers return introduced friends told anything foolish today onwardsi know right thing simple fool know consequences actions complained ruined life im tired year old girl senior high school sick think analyze everythingits two parts one always telling good enough thin pretty smart enoughand part telling okay unrealistic expect many things really cant take anymore used eating disorder specifically diagnosed parents never sent doctor cost money failed difficult starve extent still keep grades hardly speak parents well cant even begin explain mindfuckery behind ill honest admit make easy mother applicable dad give fuck quite nasty know things im fairly certain times parents want rid mother talks email nowand forcing birth control pills believes pmddits embarrassing insulting wrong cant depressed getting birth control make problems disappear ill still hate school believe im good enough ill still think im ugly wish skeletonill still cut problems mother go away magic pill quick fix welli mean one leaves alive desperately want someone important life push away guy comes near cant let find messed ami know ill screw somehow feel repulsive allow anyone close way disgusts guys find sexually attractiveso much feel sick stomach strange little respect body even know cant accept affection though want future want live rest life interest college scholarship notifications applied prestigious school sent special application mother believe large enough scholarship able afford going discouraged pursuing art thing im remotely interested really wants go community college nearly perfect gpa high act score better go community college ill definitely kill cant believe im still alive begin lethal dosage pills ready summer supposed best drug od ive waited waited waited horrible feeling hasnt gone away long story need supportive depressed suicidal long time gotten worse past year started last year chose best friend one take virginity trusted felt honored chosen big deal unfortunately got really bad ovarian cyst right away promised wait completely better broke promise started dating cheating girlfriend months another boyfriend cheating best friend made excuses wanting break original boyfriend best friend fact broke promise really hurt months started dating sexually harassed way home school public train winter guy started harassing another man defended offender proceeded threaten guy saying going shoot pull gun threat got train soon doors opened wanted see best friend support told happened asked meet weekend incident took place monday decided spending weekend cheating girlfriends place important helping keep feelings everything anymore decided talk best friend got fight turns forgotten promise made permanently changed way saw world people always say think loved ones feel committed redflag help think easy forget promise big easy forget someones existence committed redflag one miss theyd simply forget abusive family friends everyone matter tried justifying choosing stay cheating girlfriends place supporting thing trouble need support anything work needed moment need picked girlfriend something promised never guess broke promise desperation considering many failed relationships hes said considered guy harassed bluffing gun course considered police threats using weapon taken extremely seriously plus know bluffing serious told work understandable able see time going girlfriends house instead helping important time go house time said still chose cause wanted fought hurl insults said hes going talk insulting spending time girlfriend eventually apologized made thing damage done im still hurt everything completely forgiven either cant look world combined living abusive household made family family friends eating im skinny taken toll think redflag almost time one talk ive tried antidepressants ones ive tried far worked im still looking right one see psychiatrist counselor school summer break cant see anyone now especially live narcissistic mom ive attempted redflag times summer including birthday cant stop thinking redflag know ive contacted hotlines times want nuisance theyre always helpful nothing seems working anymore want die wish never born hate world want anymore hello goodbye well almost time ive never really post sub today last day teenager turning tomorrow wish knew sub younger probably wouldve helped someone listen problems seem dumb hindsight little advice yall dont sweat small stuff things might seem end world really dumb hindsight example lot teens really wanted learn drive car big point contention parents thought didnt really wouldnt teach drive thought life change completely finally exciting worthwhile iearned got car nothing really changed basically go errands now something seemed really important really wasnt big deal know doesnt apply everyone ask always keep open mind good luck hey shitted shower yeah read right yo ass tried fart shower ended shitting wonder dad say hope made day better want go sleep littleim anxious cant function going away breakdown shut completely thought killing got wave peace laying bed staring feeling calm first time remember felt anxiety relief barely move didnt water room take pills didnt days still feel horrible really want even die maybe go sleep days im tired dont know live think ask jws whether expect miracle cure faith find know find instead believe promises christ made resurrection even even worst happen die holding onto integrity jehovah correct thisbr br really gets simple question god real make believe real trust follow directions matter short term outcome may bebr br heart attack year half ago one family horrified saw words blood written large letters chart reasoned position blood transfusion save life good time anger one return life time came god real enough bad wish comfort strong faith gives found movie hilarious spoofs popular movies time funniest seen sort movie give try saw movies movie spoofing humor enjoy moviebr br others watched movie felt funniest part movie spoiler tell actually happens scene flashy thingy mib first discover device know later movie understand therebr br complaint movie never able find dvd buy copy send noodslt ampxb httpspreviewredditrfyclebmjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsecadabcecffbecb httpspreviewredditwdtlebmjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsacefebdcdaceceedcb hey guys today coming back school way saw tiny little dog usually whenever see stray dogs avoid themcause im scared tiny little doggo something made want go near im going closer dog hear familiar tune annoys shit thats realized school monthsanyway doggo dream cute created mess feel end nearlong story short got dui blowing underage college never trouble entire life court next week depending goes ill make decision job opportunities line education entire lifes work point society thinks im scumbag given back community holding blood drives events children etc feel world deserve anymore deserve im scared losing hope future need leave earth depressive moods pushed away loved ones im afraid ill nowhey im m begin constantly suffering depressed moods came every couple months disappeared week ive current period months getting worse family love feel pushing away girlfriend years love anyone anything ive pushed away broke reasons know ive pushed point one right im sitting looking bottle bleach wondering pain drinking bleach worth release death im truly terrified might even know ive posted im desperate need anything tldr long depressive mood pushed away family friends girlfriend contemplating whether commit redflag now today sucks hate tuesdays especially today cold dark rainy quarter tank gas found exs assigned seat right fkn front im anxious normal miss happy pen photo flashbacks reminding ex best friend essentially ghosted boyfriend current best friend isnt cant back popped conclusion today fkn sucks bad idea confront rapisti raped months ago contact ive posted ill put little bit month ago raped say sexually assaulted im afraid admit happened drunk cousin ditched one friends morning bar downtown almost falling drunk friend helped home im gay place consent anything consented started kissing really control actions stopped convinced keep going really basically almost passed started sex point said yes anything push managed make leave month ive refused let even think pretty lengthy history depression ive feeling good lately want trigger anything ive pretending happen know one day itll come crashing ive thought attempted redflag past confront say princess stories disney put cinderella probably enduring appeal cant really say reason generation generation thrusts top lists little girl wanted nothing cinderella glass slipper absolute favorite costumebr br honestly think story realizes longings human heart cinderella never wanted run away drudgeries daily life find someone sees one story older english language somehow still rings truebr br characters nothing disney make wonderful villain lady tremaine evil t wonderfully calculating overtly physical way cutting tongue eyes work need staffs lightening strike fear heart animal friends tend grate especially idiotic gus cheered met fate lucifers jaws cinderella pushover making justly catty remarks times lacked drive make entirely sympathetic sure nice fed animals keeping place never know even became maid another house least getting paid shot respect seems reason things work end cindy everything sort falls place lap never works dreams sings fondly ofbr br brings music lovely ilene woods lovely rich voice probably favorite disney heroine big standards originated dream wish heart makes love bibbidi bobbidi boobr br cinderella wonderful heartfelt story ton musical highlights lacking character development provide classic villains excellent voice work feeling sick heart pop itll warm make hum mmm mmm goodbr br quote filmbr br surprise surprise duh duh duh happy birthday told bossive suicidal ideations couple weeks now come go days better days becomes dangerous drive work today told boss scared nothing happen told mental health important make sure tasks covered take time try help idea time im pretty scared im going take time put strain coworkers feel better possible wont better live love garlic garlic awesome eaten many ways eaten seasoning man love garlic bread garlic pasta garlic rice awsome aswell forget fryied garlic even awesome part almost one saw post anxiety attack last night confronted girl today asked said love walked away guess made better still panic attack rest day im okay tho confusedive dealing fluctuating moods past month really depressed straight im really happy nowhere feeling comes back straight dont reason depressed amazing family supportive boyfriend great friends im really confused thats happening mind dont understand worst part past week moments felt suicidal wanted end im scared eventually ill stage wont scary anymore ill something hurt everyone around dont know im looking writting maybe someone similar experiences tell cope drunkamplonelystill alive now happy new years everybody well shit decided tell boy crush yr girl one friends friends thought meant boy primary school class name spelling hates explained christian hates fuck nothing christians dont worry family christian accept hey anyone wan na chat need smth chest open hella bored hit dms always open friend disappeared back accounts deleted help finding tldr bottom recently saw post guy wanted contact old discord pal similar experience post worked simply hope mine name discord gloomy lunar met years ago know stupid post reminded talked months day got along really well suddenly text anything anymore aside know lost password know relevant met roblox know stupid simple fun game met kept touch name account soulessbodyx reason deleted now know asked question late yeah reminded alliea even know remember worth try xander used play magic training roblox tldr met girl roblox used play magic training together account deleted discord account name gloomy lunar suddenly uncontactable time alliea xander even know remember lol hey try im even really living nowat developed anxiety disorder ruined life path receiving ivleague education im struggling community college ability focus completely shot spent lot time reading philosophy find answers care money career children anything purpose life nothing every day string coping mechanisms designed distract fact life suffering ampxb late teens misfortune taking interest politics without going much ive found radicalized beliefs degree essentially closeted remainder life mental health existential end longer care humor mind spirit completely broken im mids best case scenario find girl treat bronze medal find energy kid use reenter real world blend rest society family look anymore kid threw away life reason killed yet mom knows miserable told several times friends kids killed shed never recover probably divorce dad living past decade nothing despair even ego save face anymore watch rest world enjoy lives least drive exist creating envy refuse humor want become disgusting hate filled elderly person wait parents pass least go early avoid another years remembered good person im going tomorrowbye uh heyso ive feeling really lately even tho dont much feel wish wasnt alive googling things redflag found post reddit group saying theres tons supportive people decided make account vent maybe help idk uh im dont really much complain life fine rn amazing parents amazing friends amazing girlfriend feel depressed anxious dont know wish wasnt alive rn think need meds changed maybe upped seasonal depression setting girlfriend coming see tomorrow nd time see eachother irl first time went see thats asked gf im scared seeing realized im ugly gross transgender hates im scared idk dont even know gon na coming town dont think knows fucked every day past weeks ive thinking happen died rn want pain stop wish sleep weeks everything okay dont know im supposed say point feel empty nothing makes happy anymore wish wasnt alive lost virginity sensible person always make sure around virgins locked basement times blood sacrifices today started day eat breakfast ready school go make sure one escaped everything went wrong unlock door walk stairs turn lights see one guy missing course immediately panic go police let everyone put jail situations exactly one second hidden room basement move everyone case anyone comes investigate extremely panicked rush move everyone hidden room even thinking ill miss school remember check escaped know family lives start searching soon read nametag cage extremely mad know realize earlier course one person always tries start rebellion even though give food water every days course ity escaped life turned way want im person want none changed feel hopeless suicidal thoughts getting worse though im dangerim going try break sub sections little bit help structure bit ramble tends happen mental health bipolar ii disorder sure know form bipolar disorder suffer primarily depression high full blown mania lower manias called hypomania still normal lose control lose touch reality serious problems typical bipolar ii disorder different doctor might diagnosis ocd gad panic disorder top say bad way believe firm boundaries mental illnesses think kind bleed one another psychiatrist treats symptomatically instead making conform bipolar disorder supposed though huge problems evident another mental illness suffer really obsessive intrusive thoughts girl dominating life bringing heartbreak im still trying something mentioned ive pretty much reached standstill ive long time met girl late august pretty quickly became good friends big part life best friends feeling mutual told best friend friendship meant lot lot love means one incredible beautiful people met mental health started find really hard cope feelings think time right tell felt knew dating hooking someone start panic attacks saw ex around never even met knew blue panic attacks thinking guys kind haunted memory told one friends gotten laid first time panic attacks still come along sometimes well panic attacks things related started depressed someone worked kind came sent text conversation flat told kind seeing someone want boyfriend eventually mental health continued decrease eventually december tell point things gotten pretty bad told keep anymore something feel way even though told want affect friendship id said course still friends pretty much stopped talking invite birthday party month later mental health gotten worse month couple weeks told went see psychiatrist told something right good mental health situational well things right told panic attacks things less refused treat said want change medication retiring soon gave valium prescription without adequate assessment substance abuse present past hitting bottle pretty hard putting valium top trying feel better im ambivalent really stupid control ill though december january feel real week birthday seriously considered ending life moving forward plans less building knew going sure waiting maybe waiting see things got better wait birthday idk birthday party ended getting drunk sure much drank know mg valium blacked evening kind spotty certain point tell upset way left things remember friend know driving home broke hysterics crying told going hurt something remember remember crying hard anyways next morning people checked sternly came clean bad things almost ended life another friends forced go hospital couple days discharged hospital texted tell discharged right thing making go told uncomfortable told felt needed time weve talked couple times mostly liking others stuff instagram times weve texted talked bit really casual stuff weve never hung relationships general never romantic relationship never kissed im virgin things usually bug loathe guys obsessed sex view women sex objects afraid thinks may viewed sometimes things make guilt shame things flare makes feel something wrong ive always put way much emphasis relationships girls girl played huge part life fell love fast hard thought overcome tendency therapy long time top finally getting diagnosis taking mood stabilizers guess moved moved able continue feel guilty happened often wonder message guy drove home apologize ive talked apologized said ok fault sick yearn back friend still hope end together day hope weak word literally pray interim pray become best friends soon strength able handle romantic relationship mean time strength feel destroyed dates someone prayers pray us end dating within year friendship incredibly special miss miss lot enough live life focussing present makes sense another friend told cant friends someone want intimate want friend really really want friendship separate desires relationship ive never felt someone understood cared exact sense humor taste music really kilter obscure music really big part lives literally closest ive come real relationship emotional intimacy really powerful felt finally thought found someone cared much cared hate life wish entirely different person love im resentful feel way feel really week pathetic human deep really deep feelings feel part struggled feelings emptiness incompleteness shame girlfriend past trivial juvenile sounds coped well expecting meet someone fall hard kind happened people tell need decide move better cant literally feels lying makes worse seriously im saying moment feels bad crashed hard lying extended periods time going move etc etc etc cant plays monumental part life big let go thought losing catastrophic id rather die lose part reason feel suicidal starting realize might happen user name birthday coming hard friends last year good crew friends something birthday year didnt years well really hard spend birthday without friends year knowing part reason make room people life kind pushed people away crazy depressed person bearing reached people wake probably expected much conclusion fucking mess life good psychiatric care im getting better comes feelings girl symptoms bipolar disorder convinced medication going change therapy well ive therapy adult life things changed think suicide daily mean now mean long time think thought even happened probably fleeting really remember sure inconsequential suicidal thoughts around least suicide crisis january never went away managed better said think always definitely periods past know thoughts mind new gotten lot intense past couple days think danger think safe come purpose two current faves tv meloni oz l osvu janel west wing hook nice little sleepercharacter study plots nothing fancy acting right mark tim busfield shows neat bits worth look hi againi posted month something ago wanting odas probably guess didnt enough pills damage able go days ive completely sunk think harder take life im faithlessi dont conform religion absolute nonsense god create pain theres many factors stopping able causing live grey painful purgatory theres palace sky im terrified death people ive always viewed life pointless die anyway end well occupy sized grave ive always really debilitating fear fear show ive put fact brain cant comprehend absence senses thats fear life meaningless personalities formed world molds us world creates divides world full hatred world youre consciousness brought taken away everything makes us existence existence continue exist long existence exists except usthe voice headsthe voice abide voice whose silence want find solace pill id take itnot im people view illbut choose look grim ugly truth world live say theres reasons live maybe time start questioning reasons deem suitable live life shit theres nothing special consciousnesseverything ive got emotional attachment gone one day ill feel pain itwhy around thatwhy anyone around anything haha yall theres fires live one miles away yea seriously im might lose everything thanks fucking idiot point im ready die mom care ive spent last three years life learning programming d modeling animation sound design become programmer computer scientist taking dualcredit college courses highschooler today grade dropped forgot assignment already resubmitted graded tomorrow mom came room mad yelling spending much time building stupid stuff code enough time school care want never understand teenage angst life care ampxb want cry tryna flirt um aha ha frogs matador better upon reflection time one watching seems light humor always mediumgauge never unfunny never gutbusting story simple thread characteristics plot often recycled features namely unscrupulous bad guy need pal straightlaced glasswearing good guy need security life team learn somehow complement others lifestyles find bullfighting parallel story unnecessary simply cruel thing symbolism hardly potent enough carry really good film though seemed thin unaffecting time wasnt subtle way connecting audiencebr br believe reason slowly surely gives audience something take though formula nothing new even humor main characters virtually characters somehow met gotten know forget calling real thats mean mean though pierce brosnans filthy womanizing boozing hit man detached comical character hes grasped firmly writer definitely brosnan aggressively communicating much enjoys breath fresh james bondless air greg kinnears character seems quite detached scriptedness hes given certain unexpected footnotes moment due films lightfootedness pass us hit us moment later realize film simply analyze planes trains automobiles told stalely truly saying somethingbr br films climax sort wants partially thriller twists lightness possibly focus film though plot leading focus brosnan kinnear unlikely relationship strangely matador film regret loneliness brosnan deals loneliness regret every day though understand kinnear lenient accepting brosnan continually interrupting life slowly understood brosnan salvaging kinnear downtoearth version feelings means redemption last scene movie stays think films subtle sidestepping impact finally begins seep educational show focused emotions interactions relationships produced detroits abc affiliate syndicated markets nationwide past week detroit public tv hour clip show part pledge drive wow memories resurfaced remembered show segments id forgotten remembered instantly soon theyd begin hot fudge holy moley detective tomato pies facebr br public television special search hot fudge comin atcha concert asked crush read title happy able share feelings said feels way officially dating yet update soon indian fact religion made drink cow pee young age chances might turn atheists future sourceme hello make short films contest currently subscribers hit contest see write best script whoever make short film want put yt channel credits interested short films channel gon na try subscribers end day contest httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucfwgxdcbzizdklphlzq pretty depressed todayi pretty depressed today went therapy yesterday told depressed laughed nervous laugh woke morning got coffee going motions think might last year one loves feel living repeat mean less shit another years fuck twitch subreddit bad tried making post asking help apparently violated rules stating reddit username looking tutorials hating twitch must soso idk please hate opinion im saying dumb suicidal years getting tired everythinghi everyone appreciate stopping giving post read giving much information im worried giving much case live uk im male ive wanted kill years right much feel going finally feel life useless pointless life nothing take extra space planet im alive still know much devastate friends family ive reached point want die anyway regardless think selfish feeling feel guilty feeling used self harm growing used feel kind rush people life know stopped gaining girlfriend began feel top world weve broken still friends know still love theres much now im alone feel life extremely pointless feel though redflag nothing speeding process think anyone want especially even want anything ive spoken friends doctors helplines redflag honestly feel though helps much im really sure wanted posting honesty guess wanted advice steps take know move breakup know go killing almost feel need told honestly know anymore thank count suicidal know fucking scared pain actually go anythingi want die want final minuteshours filled excruciating pain things pills knives id never able idk guess needed say something want go sleep wake sorry waste everyones time may seem care still hurts man im bi ive already come everybody everyone took really well said back shiz still though gotten habit using gay serious insult word bad thing im guys im right even say oh u dont ur gay whatever im dude serious almost completely forgot ignoring something post stuff dc say ggaaayyyyy proceed wonder dont talk much anymore know guys care doubt mind show least respect soul hurts muchim lowest point depression suicidal thoughts mind time keep searching ways kill cant take action currently im experiencing worst feeling dealt mentally pain anymore starting affect physically im tried living want alive anymore hope ill snap kill soon finally free depression anxiety trauma know im better dead still cant kill im nothing coward wan na go wendys hq ask piece mcnugget town walk ask piece mcnugget bug mac girlfriend broke wella hours ago girlfriend informed two weeks japan away feels different cant keep things going us love quite bit obviously shows far often im looking fact go sleep soon deal thoughts wake tomorrow days without one thing best part life quite time now far much difficulty justifying apologize diatribe feel awful want wake tomorrow little story long lost friend gone nowso earlier week found one long lost pals elementary school died even know really friends thats besides point writing kinda bugging week others childhood died first one actually really knew know happened think might self inflicted im sure probably matter either theres reason im writing facebook page put cant believe many people coming figurative woodwork say goodbyes even probably talked years story share touching reading everyones thoughts makes little sad hes read cant tell much loved point feeling hopeless nobody miss gone might best friend someone played times kid thought still think want know much meant give us another chance say nice things instead feeling dumb remember people genuinely think trump worse hitler stalin compared people genius need girlfriend give girlfriend shes mine thanks food dont want dieplease help mothers day mother overbearing cruel dont hit takesthrows away stuff constantly tells us much suck whatever dont know im right mind right now therapist told call feel suicidal suicidal doubt make end week dont wan na make things worse already dont know anyone advice whatever call please need dont know dont want see dont know please edited spacebr br chanwook parks new film complex film easy classify nominally horror movie central character vampire film actually elements comedy theology melodrama cultural invasion analog viral invasion body romance things well film almost much mind film takes matters mixes classic european literature case emile zolas thrse raquin odd mix always gel none less incredible power almost hours saw film lincoln center post film discussion director find cage increasingly rattled much happens bothersome wide reaching story themes ring lot bells retrospectbr br plot film loved priest deciding best way help mankind volunteer medical experiment find cure terrible disease infected disease eventually succumbs dies transfusion vampiric blood explained actually survives hailed miracle worker priest returns hospital ministering sick unfortunately well priest finds needs blood survive finds typical problems vampire possible go day things become even complicated becomes reacquainted childhood friend family priest animal passions awakened becomes taken wife friend goes sidewaysbr br changing film story spins variety genres tells human story man finds life radically altered chance event finds longer thought film stay end film forever evolving something film great deal mind themes playing constantly explored variety waysbr br film enough going one people probably will write books discussing filmbr br two strongest parts film vampiric elements romance vampire part tale brilliant something lays ground rules nature affliction makes perfect sense kind pushes old vampire ideas aside sitting theater last night found amazed impressed well worked think fact played less straight earth shaking vampire wants normal life contrasted happens later makes clear living existence hunting humans really going work dark world twilight lost boys rather something personally think film changes playing field hip cool idea dream something real tangible sequence powers kick way cool romance wonderfully handled sure sex scenes steamy well done stuff looks talk gestures outside sex makes special love looks quiet stares forbidden couple look hungering unable act disappointment heartbreak betrayal real suspected mad passion possible consummation one great screen romances time perfectly captures feeling emotion deep passionate love lust loved deeply im guessing find part hear screen know statement wanted spend eternity sad poignancy statement intention well depth emotion tragic romance break heart br br lie say film perfect great good pieces almost great especially actors unjustly failed hail amazing whole always come together various genres thematic elements tones occasionally grate frequently wondering film going hung even though film seemed wandering aimlesslybr br liked film great deal loved pieces film whole pinging around head saw im guessing several days love irrelevant film really seen much going provide enough material think talk days afterward one meatiest filling films year moment im skinny skinny imma make many thirst posts bc imma confident yes nothing stop agree jerry underrated space movie course many good lowbudget ones underrated remember correctly solution mystery sort variation ripoff computer controlling spaceship actually man somehow turned computer hal tried disconnect mind mechanical parts hal led disaster least one funny moment christopher cary character cant find food finds abandoned pet bird theres kind ominous moment obvious thing happen day moving lol shortened title long read anyway day started distracting playing games minecraft call duty games person mentioned yesterday nice person lot first friend ive made reddit well nothing much happened day tomorrow attending church seminar things getting bit better feel comfortable time goes especially right met new friend say im already healing fast take time ill back tomorrow ciao join meet room teachers meetgooglewrsgcjpnupauthuser try join funny wasted strippers booze hotels past yeari inherited money blue going strip clubs taking strippers hotels short trips weekend feel idiot complete douchebag comment gender want know ratio bc feel much different think fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller ththth grade boys video games work place hangout teenagers long ive worked attendee theres strange obsession video games middle school boys fight theres things go rock paper scissors shoot doesnt work one gets near throwing punches games shorten attention span really dont someone please explain really wanted spend new year friends perents asked fuckin today st december noon plans friends new year party sorry kinda gave got angry every time asked ill celebrate another new year watching netflix room go sleep almost immediately midnight saved life dont know feeltoday called police attempted redflag really know feel texting family hates us worry stop forever know feel parents buying new apartment thoughts immediately went jump kill basically title im fucked omg high apartment anyone curious httpsimgurcomajsfxzghttpsimgurcomajsfxzg im sad thats thats post somy last post months ago unsure exact date know around months last im going unsubbing maybe ill resub later date im definitely ill come back help people way people sub helped much changed generally feel better im sure something changed know something feel slightly better now actually feel okay know im woods yet im getting know theres plenty obstacles actually looking forward encountering im starting relish challenge said idea changed still go work come home sit room watching tv phone want say thank everyone helped even tried help difficult person help know ive always thought everything alone real man never asks help wrong matter matter male female trans idea matter hard exterior soft need help sometimes cant everything thats okay now im leaving sub thank everyone helped least tried appreciate tldr im feeling better leaving sub one wearing mask started online school seen single fucking person mask school enforced policy california one top states cases lack decency responcibility really goes show fucked species dont know anymorei feel bad unhappy im fortunate compared lot people friends family go school sports overall relatively normal life guess say days feel fine work distracts days especially im alone feel empty unhappy theres lot things going little big combined reason feel way recently ive alone time keep thinking everything thats wrong cant stop contemplated self harm almost today keep thinking killing dont know wrong life hardim feels im lunging around vessel everyday im watching spectator purpose life friends one two best friends irl mom dad everyday literally hardest thing second saying im going go something following past five years im stayed stuck stasis life bee absolutely miserable cant tell im lazy depressed anymore gotten bad buti friend wont let give tells im worth something even absolutely nothing im show gratitude thanks quitesatan bestie lets discuss politics opinion politician position issue x good meanwhile politician bs position bad vote politician carbon dioxide detector pudding helmet jan opening jar dry oat boot moving back forth nolan mom slippery salmon slippery oh slippery oh lemon stuck anus salmon tuck shirt jan tad know see horrible answering dms answer dms motherfucker stupid regular office job slow fast paced wage slave factory jobi completely incompindent everything grade school everyone expect id somebody come find reason week quite everyone listen teacher suspect dyscalculia drop cummnity college failing manitory math course times still live home mom dies ill homeless pray every day death never comes failure god let die fifth day christmas payday gave fiiiive buulllets leeeeft ammo need amooooo male edit want see works one redditor said female prochoice forumscause subreddit fucking joke hangingthinking drop hanging balcony terrified worried loved ones cant handle life almost simply love movie perfect example wellrounded surprising stories come asian cinema recent hollywood remake movie richard gere simply awful jennifer lopez please confuse two movies original japanese film touching subtle wonderfully acted hollywood version exact opposite aghast first saw trailer remade us version starring typical hollywood unoriginal crass commercialism worst remake cements argument foreign films never improved upon reason original film become widely viewed us audiences aversion subtitlesbr br one main reasons movie never work american telling reserved ultra socially conservative character public japanese persona issue movie certainly main character awakens full understanding living vivacious life dance half movies tension comes stereotypes ridicule ballroom dancers face japanbr br please try see movie original form terrible full screen please skip us remakeits shallow travesty comparison original japanese moviebr br yes know original movie much older simply japanese take story two people likely see time soon one new us remakebr br speaking foreign films ill make quick recommendations monsoon weddingi list first reason outstanding film johnny stechinovery funny italian mistaken identity flic shiria korean action pic mixes asian flare us style plot run lola runa german film integrates techno score ingeniouslybr br well quick list anyway might sooni dont really wan na explain everything girlfriend think gon na break tomorrow im getting tired life everytime gives something takes away knocks way back happened much im starting loose hope lost job wagoni lost job couple weeks ago year sober fallen completely wagon drinking heavily two years ago ended homeless drank whole bottle vodka tonight ive drunk every night two weeks straight tro name keep listening everclears song strawberry fall now never feel never back need help struggling downing bottle pills right now think need institutionalized keep fantasies commiting crime put away really know right now cant go guess fucked please help one turn mind often months ago online friends family found gay knew already comes place people really accepts gays worrys suicidal hope hes ok regarding post posts comment raid shadow legends im pretty sure started influx posts bad dad becoming evangelion fan rewatching liked saw hes watching beginning doesnt usually anime sister watch kinda poggers hey hows everyone day posting row check everyone im gon na untill im longer teen tell today anything interesting happen wan na comment want know love match tag team table match bubba ray spike dudley vs eddie guerrero chris benoit bubba ray spike dudley started things tag team table match eddie guerrero chris benoit according rules match opponents go tables order win benoit guerrero heated early taking turns hammering first spike bubba ray german suplex benoit bubba took wind dudley brother spike tried help brother referee restrained benoit guerrero ganged corner benoit stomping away bubba guerrero set table outside spike dashed ring somersaulted top rope onto guerrero outside recovering taking care spike guerrero slipped table ring helped wolverine set tandem set double superplex middle rope put bubba table spike knocked table right brother came crashing guerrero benoit propped another table corner tried irish whip spike bubba dashed blocked brother bubba caught fire lifted opponents back body drops bubba slammed guerrero spike stomped wolverine top rope bubba held benoit bay spike soar wassup headbutt shortly benoit latched spike crossface match continued even spike tapped bubba came brothers rescue managed sprawl benoit table bubba leapt middle rope benoit moved sent bubba crashing wood opponents force table bubba allowed stay match first man eliminated shortly though spike put eddie table dudley dawg ring apron outside benoit put spike table moments later even score within seconds bubba nailed bubba bomb put benoit table gave dudleys win winner bubba ray spike dudleybr br match cruiserweight championship jamie noble vs billy kidman billy kidman challenged jamie noble brought nidia ring cruiserweight championship noble kidman locked tumbled ring raced back inside grappled kidman thwarted nobles moves noble fled outside ring nidia gave encouragement fight spread outside ring noble threw girlfriend challenger kidman tossed nidia aside taken modified arm bar noble continued attack kidmans injured arm back ring kidmans injured harm hampered offense continued battle hard noble tried put kidman away powerbomb challenger countered facebuster kidman went finish things shooting star press noble broke attempt kidman went shooting star press time noble rolled harms way noble flipped kidman power bomb soon got pin retain wwe cruiserweight championship winner jamie noblebr br match european championship william regal vs jeff hardy william regal took jeff hardy next attempt win back european championship jeff catapulted regal top rope took hurracanrana ring apron back ring jeff hit whisper wind knock regal loop jeff went swanton bomb regal got knees hit jeff devastating shot jeff managed surprise regal quick rollup though got pin keep european championship regal started bawling seeing hardy celebrate way back ramp winner jeff hardybr br match chris jericho vs john cena chris jericho promised end john cenas career match vengeance came next jericho tried teach cena lesson match began suplexing mat jericho continued knock cena around ring cockiness got better top rope jericho began showboat allowed cena grab superplex cena followed tiltawhirl slam taken nasty dropkick gut rookie recovered hit belly belly suplex put yj away jericho launched lionsault cena dodged move jericho nailed bulldog connected lionsault go cover goaded cena feet put walls jericho cena ideas reversing move pin attempt getting jericho went berserk match winner john cenabr br match intercontinental championship rvd vs brock lesnar via disqualification next big thing mr payperview tangled intercontinental championship line brock grabbed title ref draped shoulder momentarily glaring rvd van dam s quickness gave brock fits early big man rolled ring kicked steel steps frustration brock pulled together began take charge paul heyman beaming ringside brock slammed rvd hard floor outside ring brock began overpower rvd throwing ease top rope rvd landed painfully back suffer spine cracked steel ring steps fight returned ring brock squeezing rvd around ribs rvd broke away soon leveled brock kick temple rvd followed rolling thunder brock managed kick twocount fight looked might soon rvd went fivestar frog splash brock though hoisted van dam onto shoulder went f rvd whirled brock ddt followed frog splash went pin heyman pulled ref ring ref immediately called disqualification soon traded blows heyman rvd leapt onto brock top rope threatened hit van terminator heyman grabbed rvds leg brock picked champ time connected f onto steel chair winner rvdbr br match booker vs big show booker faced big show oneonone next show withstood booker ts kicks punches slapped booker corner thrown ring booker picked chair ringside big show punched back bookers face booker tried back game choking show camera cable ringside booker smashed tv monitor spanish announcers position shows skull delivered scissors kick put men table booker crawled back ring big show staggered moments later show grabbed bookers throat met low blow kick face booker climbed top rope nailed somersaulting leg drop pin winner booker tbr br announcement triple h entered ring thunderous ovation fans hoped learn game end competing speak eric bishoff stopped game apologize getting involved personal business triple h signed raw bischoff promised personal life never come play bischoff said hes spent past two years networking hollywood said everyone looking next breakout wwe superstar talking triple h bischoff guaranteed triple h signed raw hed getting top opportunities coming way stephanie mcmahon stepped issue pitch said personal history triple h two know well said two unstoppable bischoff cut begged stop stephanie cited triple h told bischoff said triple h talent charisma bischoff said young time know still lot experience stephanie two continued bicker back forth triple h stepped microphone game said easy say screw either one triple h went shake bischoffs hand pulled away said rather go devil knows rather one know go though shawn michaels came shake things hbk said last thing wanted cause trouble want involved remembered pledging bring triple h nwo hbk said theres nobody world triple h better friends hbk told friend imagine two back together making bischoffs life living hell triple h said tempting offer turned hugged hbk making official switch raw triple h hbk left bischoff gloated victory bischoff said difference two hes got testicles doesnt stephanie whacked bischoff side head leftbr br match tag team championship match christian lance storm vs hollywood hogan edge match started loud usa chants hogan shoving christian ropes ring canadians took edge scored kick christians head planted facebuster storm tag hogan hogan began hulk soon caught christian big boot leg drop storm broke count christian tossed hogan ring storm superkicked icon edge tagged soon dropped opponents speared corner turnbuckles missed spear strom hit ref hard instead edge nailed ddt ref count test raced took hogan leveled edge boot storm tried pin edge kicked two riksihi sprinted fend test allowing edge recover spear storm christian distracted ref though yj dashed clocked edge tag team championship storm rolled got pinfall win title winners new tag team champions christian lance stormbr br match wwe undisputed championship triple threat match rock vs kurt angle undertaker three wwes successful superstars lined triple threat match undisputed championship hanging balance taker rock got face face kurt angle begging attention side got attention form beat form two men soon taker spilled ring rock brawled angle angle gave series suplexes took rock great one countered ddt managed twocount fight continued outside ring taker coming life clotheslining angle repeatedly smacking rock taker rock got back ring taker dropped rock sidewalk slam twocount rock rebounded grabbed taker throat chokeslammed angle broke pin attempt likely given rock title rock retaliated latching ankle lock kurt angle angle reversed move rock bottomed peoples champion soon rock disposed angle hit peoples elbow undertaker angle tried take advantage disabling great one outside ring covering taker kicked two count outside ring rock took big swig nearby water bottle spewed liquid takers face blind champion taker stay disabled long managed overpower rock turn attention angle taker landed guillotine leg drop onto angle laying ring apron rock picked time break pin attempt kurt angle taker nailed rock ddt set chokeslam angle tried sneaking steel chair taker caught tomfoolery smacked hands referee got caught ensuing fire see angle knock taker silly steel chair angle went cover taker rock lay prone dead man somehow got shoulder angle tried pin rock kicked rock got landed angle sharpshooter angle looked tap taker kicked rock submission hold taker picked rock crashed last ride dead man covered win angle raced picked taker ankle lock taker went delirious pain managed counter picked angle last ride angle put triangle choke looked taker pass rock broke angles hold find caught ankle lock rock got hold watched taker chokeslam angle rocky hit rock bottom taker refused go kicked angle whirled taker angle slam rock bottomed great one pinned winner new wwe champion rockbr br finally decent ppv lately ppv good one winner give ppv abr br timehey guys ive done necessary preparations deactivated social media accounts left scattered notes places visist leave im sitting beside gramps gauge say goodbye people knowwell ill wait till everyone home asleep uh yeah id chat question american uk teenagers differential equations integral calculus graph theory highschool easter european thing im donei vaginismus lost faith friendship care life anymore die ughthis typical life sucks kind cry help beautiful fiance amazing career pays better penthouse apartment overlooking city skyline close friends look nowhere go getting made happier fiance starting doubt us years pretending im depressed caused expect fine time accomplished everything wanted harder cover thoughts tapping distracting workschoolgym problem friends look talk weaknesses im sitting alone wondering bother culmination years striving better person actually alone understood getting thrown last job finding employment scarce united kingdom six members wonder boys better known crazy gang see advertisement employment gold strike town red gulch yukon territory newspaper clipping back theres story chamberlain saying country better prepared war go yukon frozen limitsbr br way case misplaced chamberlains clipping forty years old refers joe chamberlain boer war rather neville current crisis thats typical things go crew see stan laurel making mistakebr br course ghost town inhabited young jean kent grandfather moore marriott hes getting years bit touched head marriotts got gold mine hes misplaced somewhere goes sleep hes sleepwalking gang better help find mine pretty ms kent marry stalwart trapper anthony hulme rather saloon owner bernard lee fate worse deathbr br first exposure crazy gang see acclaimed uk never made impact across pond jokes come fast furious number things code usa allow jokes strictly topical british lot gotten herebr br sight gags universal final chase scene worthy anything marx brothers america suggestion watch frozen limits tape working familiarity british history run two three times make sure pick everything worth held loaded gun head tonightim average american white priveleged male job make great money lot friends serial monogamist entire life engaged engagement broke seeking mental relief forms relationships eating put close lbs made things worse recently broke girlfriend years never love comforted ended ive tornado lost lbs months gym diet decent single life tonight everything came crashing open woman relations shut nothing abnormal deal rejection fine triggered something scary feelings self worthi hate typical american soul crushing office job idea life supposed hate american dream slaving away office order afford buy stuff dont need yet say anyone im ostracized made feel worse shortened version everything going didnt responses text messages put didnt balls pull trigger need outlet want goi feel handle know worst part fact id leaving beautiful dog behind love much ive apologizing hour now taken care hurts much hell never understand im gone becomes upset acts see day ive endured much sake years life partner treats well understand words actions faults financial support realize mental gymnastics go back forth gave word moved hed support fulfill everything asks becomes upset supports sometimes taking advantage sometimes enough ask keep word things ask anything already feel support enough wrong ungrateful spoiled misguided know im sorry unorganized brain puking cry help absolutely film lot entertaining feast bizarre stunning images theres dialog background sounds noises something completely different original enjoy obscure bizarrethen might work art ik looks film made first camera made time strange humanlike beings live perform bizarre habits god killed razor gave birth mother earth mother earth impregnated gods semen act fellatio gives birth son flesh bone follows inhuman acts ritualistic torture rape murder purposes knowor ey yo boys homie kamren needs big tiddy gf help already got best girl world man two anime body pillows singing sad song sad playing guitar poorly man girl im year old loser girl love hates nothing left live forim piece human garbage ive literally done nothing good hate person lived hates wan na kill every day miserable dont future im waste life point know anymorei cant picture going anymore nothing make pain inside feel go away matter happy friends family make love cant understand feel started cut need know effective method committing redflagyeah yeah know itll better people care wan na done gun try pills job done ive heard slitting wrists successful way expecting movie suck got pretty good slashergore film death scenes adequately brutal teens decent penny mcnamee definitely best bunch rachael taylor looks young christie brinkley bring much movie kane good killer totally believable fearsome juggernaut saw twist coming miles away still enjoyed moviebr br really stood direction gregory dark might actually career legit film ahead aside overusing horror film speed camyou know guys face shakes fast theres good shots camera angles environments really emphasize kanes size making look even bigger actually isbr br looking deep story characters aint thats slasher films looking good violence gory films go check im gon na kill myselfits feels everyone hates push everyone away nothing right idk im crying time cant hang anymore im killing tonight goodbye everyone cant manage really irritated incessant theres still hope nonsense find looking solutionmy latest attempt sort shit came abrupt painful end yesterday dont want live find information wise redflag isnt answer disgusting think people youll leave behind hurt bullshit shuffle misery people dont mourn entire life mourning problem want find sure fire way die successfully peace without much chance interrupted living worse shape now wouldnt want cause trauma somebody going business eg train driver pedestrians etc know isnt place advice methods find aforementioned attitudes towards redflag totally misplaced forces people utterly brutal things order escape demons dream predicted end pandemic dream predicted pandemic end dream weeks ago details fuzzy important ones still starts im somehow teleported future cant remember find mesh school mall appears pandemic ended everything went back normal knew im future exactly guess years instinctively wanted know pandemic ended started ask people one give exact date next thing know im chased fbi agent ninja outfit assumed time traveling running seconds jump big glass window second floor start ziplining uphill telephone wire eventually stopped chasing end telephone wire small secluded bookboard game store walk store pretty unorganized back room theres small round table back room sitting table old man grandson invite sit taking seat ask know pandemic ended old man tells pandemic ended january st grandson chimes says pandemic got worse october th didnt tell details important part dream ends type premonition interpretation schools shut october th vaccine begin distributed january st advice human humans shut gt think seriously shut lt gt right real reason posted kidding shut lt gt comment take stick ass previous sentence part entire post thats meant taken seriously lt guys actually happened omg stranger offered candy told van actually got kidnapped im grave danger please help feel exhausted anythingcontinuing go life fucking hard dude tough ended quit fighting hard want fight anymore possible speed heart disease muscle wasting disease specific heart break last year decided enough enough im trying alone long story short guys cant go im wheelchair bound ive become burden family recognise anymore lost job friends either married left im tormented nobody cares disabled men ive met disabled woman never alone ive lucky enough heart disease ill die years met men survived scared see future may involve electric wheelchairs spoon fed dinner every female boyfriend married men find nurses want kill way speed heart disease md awful wish everyone made far best cant take anymoreim years old hirsutism crazy leg hairstomach hairarm hair chest hair cant take anymore wake feeling disgusting go bed wishing never fucking born hate one love wrote redflag note case want cant stand anymore everyone family normal monster life gon na worse might well leave cant hurt family cant hurt friends cry sleep every night wish day normal hairy disgusting want pain end want stop waking feeling hopeless im starting think way wake feeling hopeless wake wrote redflag note case wan na wake anymore im gon na lose everyone whats point reason im family friends ill lose happen deserve didbi disgusting fucking gross god ive lost motivation everything want okay ill never able feel happy im tired im sick want kill badly worst part hair growth gon na worse im fucking done nothing fucking matters end gets worse im waste space want pain fucking stop cant anymoreim tired feeling way one believing family believe therapy freaking working neither medication everyone family thinks go talk shit dont cant pretend okay anymore tiring pretending want die anymore wish dead never go im freakin failure probably even able right cant end im even worth im complete failure new favorite songhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvhvodnbbpu ladies look cuter wearing mask properly death seem best optionive weak little bitch life kindergarten ive known going kill future asked mom whats point trying live die end got looked doctor deficiencies schools ive ive friends sometimes mostly less almost either moved tried fight stopped talking reason tried kill pussied last second want family set back turned drugs im know want family sad around feel sad one days last night tried talk girlfriend worryfeeling ive feel attempt talk explain problem brains pushed away wanted talk feel suck talking feelings made things worse im even really asking advice ive feel ruin everything try help wan na hold gun headits car emotions erratic cant calm google says tell two close friends basically much less im comfortable telling im suicidal actually help plus late idk text one person vaguely sleeping fine feel cry wolf lot im dramatic attempted told today significant people think im fine bc say im fine make lot jokes whole thing im comfortable opening people around people see often allat random person asks whats wrong really always feel suicidal lately im im hyperventilatingi cant see happen immediate future killed besides messy see awful visuals hanging neck weird look reflection id look holding gun head thinking calling hotline really bad anxiety phone calls ive heard bad experiences good feel stuck wan na bring gun inside idk im scared want stopped seeing therapist earlier month bc support around keep seeing esp feel much worse trying work lot childhood trauma sitting days afterwards next appointment making sick really manic self harming lot option normally feel better come whatever feeling another option texting im afraid awake either notify authorities address im afraid shower hurt im going straight gun want feel think really want kill actively seeking ways avoid think scared upset really want alive single person really tell feel safe around validated idk found im possible hardest year life many redflag attempts posted multiple times never thought able look around room see nothing self loathing aware people situation doubted possible feel happiness one never thought feel look sky smile feelings real feel shit truth proven feel kept long happines ealing studios perfect film fresh relevant half century later day releasedbr br satire economic notions growth commercial need inbuilt obsolescence scarcely uptotheminute film said hero literally wears plotbr br oddly parallels jurassic park messing environment literally turn round bite spielberg shied away books brilliant central conceit tack nonsense children hmmmbr br man white suit alec guiness plays idealistic young scientist comes cloth never gets dirty never wears suddenly workers capital northern english mill working united never protection livelihoodsbr br course ealing comedy complex interplay vested suited interests plays beautifully one one parties realize progress threat disposability waste keep looms turningbr br yes comedy albeit pointed one amid political ironies delicious performances good oldfashioned knockabout laughsbr br nonetheless biting satire endures dazzling white losing fighti feel worthless alone want burden friends family attempted redflag december found late nothing live wish please help post expire exactly minutes seem good first kiss im gon na rant go basically quarantine cant really anything outside stay online met amazing girl days caught feeling asked started dating time grew closer closer together want meet person wont know ill house hour new year last minutes wed go roof look stars fireworks countdown begins wed stand id grasp onto pull tell much love give first kiss midnight new year wonder im person intentionally tries eat deathim sure right place post im guy early s think around lbs ive suicidal least extent maybe remember really life always sucked growing violent parents violent way society support nothing special problems school adult problems internal alone world always fucked head care anything enjoy little guess started joke maybe ive fan eating age fat guess th grade weight lower s early s said something wanting die heart attack joking im coming elizabeth da bears last words point decided wanted eat junk food killed honestly think id live long im scared cut wrist take pills part fear im agnostic find blasphemous humor particularly amusing im good person ive lived society tell ya hell bullshit part believes maybe part looks bad guy behind shower curtain pee night im funny make light anything think im serious honest still alive getting worse mentally neglecting ones health decade predictable results see coming comfortable carrying around legs hurt tired time junk squished pubic fat thigh fat expensive eating habits impossible find fitting pants offline etc ugly disgusting looking thing added benefit better excuse seeking impossible romantic attachment utterly fucked head low opinion people eager become find spot back knife fit best idea fatal heart attack sudden unpredictable pressure actually pulling trigger taking pills taken hands put onto something almost chance mean one redflag pill taking hard cyanide pill placebos mixed real good took one pill day thats easy right instead pill tasty burgers lunch another dinner even think options continue see long last unless worsening depression drives take direct action cant turn back theres nothing world one trust talk ive finally admitted sweet lies told cheer lies redacted cant seek therapy trust therapists least honorable professions charge hundreds dollars hour make feel better id rather die talk redacted damage ive done body hard work self denial surgeries dental work plastic surgery take make normal serve convenient burnt bridge know anyone read doubt help wanted think feel little better writing least talk strangers respond getting offended dare try hurt feelings hurt every single day poor babies question girls yall prefer oversized hoodies close fitting ones personal preference thing filler filler filler filler filler filler filler kinda want make another tumblr account sure id able maintain though considering already trouble maintaining twitter teacher gave assignement make meme worth marks dammm plot twist though meme reflect choose art museum cant repost meme exactly even know bothering post guess nothing lose nowhere turni honestly idea even continue everyday point life joke series bad events make impossible find reason live honestly want wake anymore friends support girlfriend gets pissed annoyed whenever depressed im cause one love want alone prefer farce relationship loneliness honestly want die nothing look forward gives life purpose hate job people hate despite friendly look contempt walk around im fucking made egg shells treat im kind creep im swear girls allow walk even behind cause stop wait walk sometimes cover behinds make feel shit stare im fucking pervert always walk head always hide corner factory cry cause cant take anymore swear want kill industrial equipment fucking hate state indiana bunch bigots live tried buy bedroom set craigslist took upper class neighborhood seller looked poor piece shit hand taser whole transaction still told leave money wish friends support wish someone cared enough point living hate anything everything complete failure im failure anymore im joke gun really want pull trigger cant dont want anymore nobody care care world losing anything special pull trigger im plain worthless thats ill really expect anyone listen care guess wanted heard thing made cartoon popularbut whos complaining always fun see poor coyote try various contraptions road runner pulverized every one inventionsbr br underground cave chase different normal fare clever gave us aerial view chase mazelike structure say hilarious different normal aboveground anticsbr br one along road runner shorts featured looney tunes golden collection volume transfers spectacular colors magnificent post cringe break take time scrolling filler filler filler weird creepy organize lifes photos specific folders specific ocd bunch photos computer whole life came camera real titles anything numbers let long time interested theyre photos today ages paper photos anywayi looking themand disorganized mess hard keep track made foldersone named child photos ages another named preteen photos ages another named early teen photos ages last least late teen photos ages much easier helped rid lot anxiety one friends zero posts instagram even take photos life sure actually organized photos whole life ages organized specific folders child photos preteen photos early teen photos late teen photos dude thats actually creepy weird hell id much rather photos shit weird seems normal weird fuck trying make fucking portfolio entire fucking life till die honestly kind hurt even weird creepy though believe reason ocd makes justified plus theyre photos whatever hell want others think matter theyre photos dick huge thanks coming ladies gentlemen goodnight absolutely blown away john cassavetess opening night first movie ive seen seems bigger scale thus feels mainstream still feel grounded previous films perhaps makes intense something undoubtedly cathartic watching moviebr br fact cassavetes made staple career ideal expressed behind camera throughout career director expressing front rowlandss character middleaged stage actress myrtle gordon bring play role upcoming production written uncalculatedly follows impulse impulse resulting appears chaos stage finds right one daringly abstract premisebr br movie fail capture innate steering one goes emotional cleansing one understands myrtle many things seen even portrayed something destructive yet might best thing may cleansing rather breakdown withdrawal cocoon rebellion culminates meltdown cassavetes gives character brutally real touch early ardently arguing nothing common character yet quiet emotionally corroding fear opposite truebr br last scene climactic performance myrtle shares character painfully estranged acting one interesting hilarious hardhitting enlightening enjoyable moments ive seen movie career chose process making rich extremely depressed overworkedoverjudged point least one episode day want curl disappear job involves social media fame expectation perfection sometimes sure much handle human break able make real friends family never begin relationship someone cared pursuit wellbeing people respect name almost daily disrespect person makes sense people always watching extremely careful almost feels redflag now people around want something constantly comparing body next best thing type industry mentally draining wish fame anyonei wanted see anyone advice going therapy still super depressive episodes lot regret pursuing loved much everything sacrifice success words advice successful depressed hello sure whoever needed longing someone talk anonymous diaryi battled depression happy overcame demons within know firsthand important someone feel heard count let us friends dms open love hear storiespraying youceg anonymous diary work nuclear power plant getting kick repliesbr br seriously go see workbr br think safer industry work required procedures report events minor paper cuts issue identified potential concern respect nuclear radiological industrial safety immediately reported corrective action processbr br bottom line nuclear plants us operate safety front mind dont know works need helpim fourteen years old severely depressed started puberty age diagnosed ptsd severe depression anxiety last year teacher noticed crying nonstop days class couple months put zoloft made suicidal within next two weeks august im week half away starting freshman year dont know ill even make year let tell bit never met father dont even know mother knows mother life god knows long wasis addict spoken year grandmother keeps contact grandparents custody live along brother aunt uncle three cousins dog grandmother extremely abusive sick human constantly belittles physically abuses shes disgusting narcissist never anything well enough eyes never acts proud cares scar stomach shes thrown car keys raging type shes done typing hours groomed age year old grandma find victim shames day constantly brings calls whore say doesnt expect anything friends sixth grade lost every friend people consider friends bully relentlessly mock weight personality mental illness hard make friends feel hopeless whenever talk people always blatantly ignored im annoying im nice person really similar personality sense humor kids age anxious sometimes questioning sexuality gender identity years grandmother found multiple times verbally harassed sexual identity bisexual boyfriend hes friend person along means lot dont want hurt way hes sweet cares lot suicidal lately ive self harmed point draw much blood almost pass dont know much take anymore feel hopeless nothing helped therapy pills healthy coping mechanisms want kill know im young dont see future cant survive next years house hurts bad cry every single day dont know feel lost supposed now people think alive enoughi happy never never will never enjoyed life proud always wanted die courage life worth memories feel proud attempted redflag failed relatives keep away potential redflag method killed already preventing part understand think alive things fine thats works pointless pathetic life want keep going died yet mean fine future never fine yet supposed pretend life magically turn around make happy sudden oh music name every note g harmonic minor scale well every chord claim pro mental health disregard someones thought redflagit work fucking cant hate parents close door leave room seriously close damn door leave room perfectly comfortable potentially back breaking position chair bed close door lazy ass tell please close door sometimes audacity say ok lets see feel refuse flush toilet next time go bathroom fucking hell ampxb yeah thats rant want die ideas successful redflagsaid person contemplating redflag past year point done life want right time said personlast attempt taking bottle tylenol benadryl body hold tired living life going good alone miserable tired itsaid person month old son died years ago followed discovering best friend dead room months later struggled depression anxiety drugs whole life tired living tired feeling way tried help nothing works done want ideas thoughts ways said person kill self preferably fast painless first thought try heroin overdose built tolerance know afford enough make kill said person want hear others ideas thoughts anyone getting weird ads getting ad stepmom seems sexual explicit u really tell message trying give count least transphobes sub possibly im strict counts hate thisi really wish friends thinking killing less hard bad others cant stop wanting die right mind keeps comparing friend sexually harrased one current friends ive avoiding deserve memories keep coming back wish fucking slit throat make stop im planning killing sooni need resources die painlessly quickly mr bean almost never speaks heartily recommend using dvd player teacher holding finger pauseplay button end age groups lesson simply devote minutes pausing playing dvd encouraging students shout answers whats happen whats happening whats wrong question elicits responses lessons new vocabulary grammarbr br everyones looking tv normally shy students become vocal dvd started stopped point perfect filler awkward times students leaving arrivingbr br tried dvds notably tom jerry cartoons red skelton dvds others good mister bean holding students constant attention revolution america weed corruption know overthrow government trials us wrong etc etc empathy wierd legit felt bad damn squirrel another squirrel stole orange even care squirrel beforehand seeing work hard something stolen away hit reason ill write comments piece paper put smol table next bed well share bedroom want good things write dont want dad seeing weird stuff thanks act sorry bad english time ago friend introduced us friend call time started clearly flirt wanted alone time sure feelings time flew kept flirting went holiday weeks holiday took time think actually liked returned home asked go friends wanted see react said parents knew us said friend us say yes holiday time flew come last week asked go us said ill think yesterday said already another commitment clearly making excuse said different reasons clearly understand question flirt asked see said disappeared dad wants install family monitoring software computer dad asked join family software little reading found software many things limit screen time time certain applications view screen time activity view search web history make purchases computer seems much reason trust well school work hard outside school gets pc limit everything much know tried apps made broke need advice accept limited screen time lose privacy say justify im pretty upset ive worked hard school outside school make dad proud makes feel care thanks technology boon bane throw opinions guys floor auto mod auto mod auto mod auto mod anyone elseive got one person im talking anyone hey bros qu hay probablemente nadie lea esto creo que es lo ms estupido que hecho en mi puta vida pero hay das en que estoy triste intentando suicidar dos veces se que la tercera ser la vencida se cuando ser pero veo viviendo mucho supongo que tengo depresin pero lo s pero todos los das cuando todo est en silencio pienso en las mil maneras en cmo podra matar aveces lloro aveces hablo solo supongo que es la vidasolo eso cudense si alguien llega leer esto amazing performance simon pegg gets better better every role usual plays part cringy character makes want hide behind cushion embarrassment sometimes thats pegg aboutbr br laughs regular eye watering everyone aimed penn movie cleverly put together every character plays sophisticated serious part penn humour involved huge credit director robert weidebr br cant let one go without quick round applause gilliam anderson shone throughout highly recommended scale old girlfriend legal reasons purposes joke nee sum critics critique continuation story put prologue read prologue btw added sum things da prologue chapter called sleepers coldness swept body raindrops sky coldness wasnt one woke earth wake preset timer questions filled head struggled bit back feet biggest one ended middle jungle tried bearing surrounding eyes laid sword struck ground ghillie suit top felt strong connection sword didnt think much maybe fill head questions now teenage years lived moderate depression formal diagnosed disorder history treatment hospitalization mentioned argument yknow hear good life compared life sucked depressed funny life great either worst definitely average gets funnier tell phone need go outside going walk helped feelings help dude staring grass moving exciting hll nature going cure depression even brought god anyways horrible sht heard depression someone told go outside backits months ago seriously thought ending life ive depressed years never bothered solutions recently months ago went therapy months stop due logistical reasons found replacement therapist cancelled appointment last minute thought getting better im going often im willing meet trust new people im starting im functioning viewed everything rosecolored glasses im getting better progress gain friends ive built delusion belongingness family thought ive steered away demons head theyre still never left made things worse hate better without someone life world infinitely better place without voices back want stop made life escaping abuse life jeopardy feeling hopelessi ran away abusive home situation taken supported financially friend support suddenly ceased months ago facing homelessness desperation took first place said yes hate pay income rent room house full screaming children passive aggressive control freak roommates thought deal cant constant tension air walking eggshells dreading coming home refuge shitty day highstress lowpay job reminds much abuse flew thousands miles away feel safe anywhere anymore never relax building stress putting crisis want previous roommate parted ways literally reallife support system anymore deepseated trust issues means reallife friends moment feel one talk therapist extraordinarily kind letting see free lost previous living situation cant see often feel need feel guilty seeing without payment matter many times tells alright aside therapy world solve practical issues money move license even physically move belongings previous roommate helped move last time theyre state now feel trapped hopeless felt emotionally mentally bad years feel capable job anymore especially feel mile walk every day back energy im utterly exhausted always feel im fightorflight mode now cant handle stress catching flying handle minuscule things almost meltdown grocery store yesterday fit shit reusable bags brought cant go im afraid getting deep crisis become fully nonfunctioning cant job ill become homeless hurts much especially well felt full functioning adult job boss loved considered promotion putting money savings paying old debts fixing credit score putting food table felt become much told family capable felt life gutter really know im going time im sure even want time crush dating guys interested guys makes sick stomach ratchet slutty girl friends know anything crazy problem sweet wholesome good losers interested take advantage looked social media sadly post anymore know track social media platforms easily found friends super egotistical superficial wake live cursed timeline late anything pointwill try enjoy life long able end ampxb 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right now think parents gon na help take care help conflicted watch dogs legion cyberpunk stop feeling overwhelmed hopelessive dealing depression suicidal feelings long time im trying life together less miserable feel cant make progress area life im scattered cant pick one thing focus feel problems everywhere interdependent finish school feel depressed cant focus work work seems hopeless anyway chose study english know ill never make decent amount money anyway want make friends im depressednot fun around much money go stay lonely depressed cant drive either hard around town want drivers license really bad anxiety driving cant afford lessons theres one around able teach want job make money need finish school first stay worried financial situation house needs repairs cant afford weighs ability nice environment im depressed house time house messfalling apart every problem try work bunch problems attached cant make move positive direction im spinning bunch plates going nowhere ambition work creative field realized lack talent drive connections im depressed feel complete failure feel old anything value feel im going miserable rest life feelings make wonder bother anythingnothing help rearranging deck chairs titanic im drowning know water say first quality romanticcomedy seen depth although knew beginning going end together still longing anticipation thought maybe together indie film movie well written directed acted dancing side road scene magnificent strangle hand im pass several times dayi place thumb index finger side neck press veins stop blood circulation called feel good im relaxed afterwards enoughplease life stop already im sick shit cant keep cant keep anymore taking everything power walk door plan im afraid long wake find body cant learn fair cant take things pace people mad try say needs needs worth im worth one last cuddle heads tomorrow weekend ill figure much emotion cant anything trying fix things makes worse cant keep one sleeptomorrow even posting thisi even know maybe record outburst exists maybe feel something say matters tonight something feel matters know fair hes still grieving im selfish ass im sorry im weak need bedthis much saying pog everyday girlfriend day pog know day im dying inside loli really thought something doesnt involve fucking huh claim im aw sad cant even relate someone feels make feel slightest bit better love annoying fucking everyonemessing fucking everything apparently feeling wan na kill course want final action still running away mistakes god im pathetic whenever someone tells suck dick insult always reply will always fun started saying never saw homosexualityinduced primal fear another mans eyes almost today im going try againim going die soon finally ill peace tired constant failureyesterday mom asked keep going looked normal emotionless face shrugged thinks therapy dont heart tell therapy doesnt help ive started cutting cope constant failure tbh early high school cant talk due culture male cant tell ive found comfort alcohol im trying keep binging becoming harder drink bottle medication im tired always failing ive worked hard many years sacrificed much slip fingers water last several years comprised financial hardship rejections med schools deaths breakup literally havent even taken time mourn lossesfailures dont know mourn feel nothing void space nothing exists yet widens everyday consumes think loneliness whats getting relationship lasted months im grateful first experience healthy left craving affection dont much attention women eat away feeds suicidal thoughts feelings inadequacy want end cant find ways end peacefully cant share thoughts anyone friends run ignore acknowledging others feel im failure worthless perhaps better let void consume see future think means im supposed onei know im actively suicidal actually redflag attempt years really view self harm redflag attempt really point life threatening see point living though feel sort hollow numb time smile laugh enjoy things think actually happy im ashamed im ashamed way body looks im ashamed fact im fat ive ruined self harm scars im ashamed cant seem keep people life fact im anxious depressed always comes even though try hard normal functional partners im ashamed relationships ive significant others greatest people im ruined fucked one actually good long term want ive honestly given another loving relationship im slutty chick people fuck leave one proud even worthless im imposter job know anything hardly anything office im sort know fired let alone hired first place im school specific job field actually see graduating getting job see anything life ive never able see future honestly big emptiness ive living day day basically past decade im surprised killed already honest always kind head think maybe fact right completely alone means optimal time fuck life even one really going miss devastated passing sort pretty much affairs hour biggest issue making sure house clean organized want anyone deal cleaning messes feel even serious thing im experiencing sort mania sadness im calm exactly resigned im ready life supposed end two minutes till worrkkkk bye im dueling someone five minutes wish luck update dead actually life plan im going try graduate high school fail ill move ill work manual labor thats im good maybe amish theyll take make strong ill save enough boat least ft long good long distance sailing ill find least crazydesperate people join well sail africa well fight warlords well unite tribes maybe amass large fleet boats well help common people well plunder precious metal jewel mines give people around us better lives mess im sorry way thanks reading dumb even die ill die fighting trying make name great built chicken coop door httpsimgurcomgalleryjmgxvz dont know anymorei broke apart razor first time years wan na cut badly body explain whats going everythings much worse nowhere ptsd depression everything girlfriend says doesnt think helped dont know im lost im confused wan na cut pills im feeling exactly bad edit cant take pretending happy everyone anymore hard pretend struggling hold onhello everyone im really hard time trying hold feel nothing left live lost everything everyone cared everyday struggle feel left liveim really trying hang know anymore presence missed anyone left one life want pain end im tired waking everyday feeling way really know point reason live anymore anyone give reasons keep going apologize talking way honestly need advice want go backoblivion released kids old friend met weeks year summer play nonstop day wed take breaks eat lunch dinner together immersed fantastical world free whatever wanted thing next year year roughly decade grew lost contact ive yet feel sense freedom happiness ive longer got friends im alone amount games ive played alone grant wondrous feeling shared friend want die film top comedies list truly unique film reviewer said must really missing somethingyou correct missing something kind sense humor film requires thats one thing give bad review think looney intended loony apt description intends succeeds laughed much often much intensely film funny filmsbr br michael almereyda brought best cast first big film nominated independent spirit award best first feature crispin glover usual absolutely brilliant perfectly inexplicable way funniest lines said film glover clearly best comic actor working right now harry dean stanton puts excellent comic performance william burroughs incredible small role dylan mcdermott ideally cast lois chiles completely excellentbr br perfectly funny perfect way one crispins finest performancesup performances rivers edge willard crispin glover fan somehow overlooked film need stop whatever see immediatelybr br remember relax first maybe beer something great film unusual recommend inducing appropriately silly state mind viewing brother talks farts pooping excessively annoying brings farts poops every conversation matter im random stuff fought guy hed yeah youd prolly fart im thats high reach hed say propel ur fart comedy gold amirite today send coffee looks poop pls stop big bro embarrassing hes lmao retarded fuck know tired hearing tired hearing school counsellor soccer coach telling shit head head useless combatchallenge negative thoughts surely one think capable basic human tasks ie fucking everything basic tasks sport talking people giving people eye contact gods sake need artificially boost esteem capable things capable functioning socialable human know fucked selfesteem sometimes well actually time hate fucking shower hate seeing disgusting retarded fucking body mirror despite told skinny normal etc etc still feel still fat fucking retarded loser pretty decent school got estimated atar year wanted pilot raaf fuck going achieve autistic bumbling piece shit retard conversation mates one one speeches class hell even school fine comes talking someone conversation literally want kill escape remember early think plusoned never invited parties even friends girls party somewhat crush even call think spoken even day socially inept fuckwit practically held mercy friend group slowly deteriorated spoke guys women know party eventually alone kind awkwardly sitting phone corner everyone fun pool want know thinking everyone exploring teenage lives girls fun mates thought smash skull edge pool hard enough knock drown wish begged gun shoot fucking head eventually nerve walk party mates asked going want leave staying party done far harm good estimate fact know made depressed walk home already going walked home normal everyone child spent childhood staring wall watching tv one home fat little fucker throughout entirety primary school picked fat cunt subconsciously impacted selfesteem time got completely dacked pullup oval infront entire fucking school already social redflaghaving fucking retard back holy shit typing feels good man wow asperges fucking know social redflag know shy know depression know hope kind hope time reason mentally fucking defective know fantasized killing year old nofap merely granted time think badly want kill bad want buy gun join army shoot fucking skull obliterate existence earth note people say given humanity turning back humanity angry society humanity know issue defect lonely love solace hole melancholy feels warm cozy feels belong feels stay give fuck anymore want die maybe regret kill one day tired autistic little fuckup loser sometimes mad feel redflag rant head much fucking fat little cunt fggot fucking loser feels good sometimes pretend holding gun head mouth hand pretend pulling trigger anymore remember little younger used go sleep making prayer eastern orthodox pray god kill end life listing thoughts feels little disjointed apologise wish normal wish hate existence body stupid ugly fucking face wish look people eye talk wish talk people wish talk girls wish feel lonely done research things brings back started head head useless combatchallenge negative thoughts read kind liked brought full circle know stuff helping social redflag stuff people say talk people talk strangers even shallow talk etc easier sure maybe might want try man fucking sick strive average instead average want try want kill bother give reading message might bit smug say nothing stopping going another statistic really think care another statistic gun already killed lmao probably dead pool couch fucking know listening radiohead writing things putting good album feels right wrap fuck people cocky people arrogant become overconfident want shit man surely better every thought brain either plea suicide neutral thought manifests negative one anyways think smug retarded essay comment guys think something know block text go unnoticed even advice dunno totally given yet thanks guys self esteem kind listing things chest hereby declare spilling water ground leaving people step crime punishable death uw catfish pedo talk chatting normal got really sexual asked send pic see catfish blocked discord reddit tricked cant anything right moreno matter hard try matter say never anything right eyes others im nothing failure im lonely undeserving failure died months ago every time think things getting better end cursing things much worse maybe deserve happy things better end year im sticking around cant everyone leaving turning backs may well better way care anyway girl said voice sounds hot youre voice attractive old oldf im slowly losing way im sure live narcissists friends never let express mental breakdown one life seems care try explain theres something wrong im angry reason built rage dont know explaining im either belittled ignored bullied told need kick ass one really treats care compassion yet everyday every time tell friends whats going vent im snapped told move house want financially cant ive homeless crashed couches fun im trying go back path alcohol substance abuse day day gets difficult family friends talk im really thinking giving im deeply unhappy changei going go entire life complacency never following goal relationship feel undeserving unwanted point go best really shitty years found literal time capsule s theres thing called worldscomhttpsworldscom mmo created back abandoned small playerbase people whole thing updated s theres original stuff created servers still running free places tad creepy think really cool virtual archive early internet times check sometime ya want electroconvulsive therapy procedures shock therapy transcranial magnetic stimulation sessions laterwish someone story absolutely hideous ugly atrocious redflag impulse decision mind made contemplating redflag years now tried overdosing redflag cop involuntarily admitted psych ward times longer able purchase firearm conformed barbaric nobly guaranteed method redflag longer friends lost best friend mental exhaustion girl crush friend zoned engaged im afterthought burden liability pathetic worthless virgin piece shit loser good anything purpose ive got reasons stay everyday day day ive building courage finally commit redflag via setting fire hanging perhaps ill livestream hope closed casket one see ugly face dont plan turning year need help guys know alzheimers im tiredim mentally tired ive depressed long remember live alcoholic parents neglected fucked im almost im fucking loser im college graduate living parents basement apply job job job one calls debt keeps building cant even begin fix mental health im still living initially broken im tired im tired venting friends im tired applying jobs going interviews hear nothing back im antidepressants think actually make feel worse im fat disgusting im always broke literally one thing life happy besides friends pets deserve better wish go sleep never wake dark chocolate redeeming qualities think made crap went removed natural sugar already even bittersweet bitter makes wan na die saw comment youtube said circuit minecraft speedrunner trans someone clarify need know whos dumb one im spamming survey forgot make public take survey metal music makes feel school appreciate read time guesshi need anyone read maybe leave comment feel fucking alone whole life shit show abusive father drugs lived poverty entire childhood live extremely small town small bores feel stuck dont enough money move anything big mothers side family doesnt speak neither fathers really nobody except siblings mother recently ive lost friends girl ive loved years doesnt want im idiot trying take ged classes currently struggle basic math reason left high school depressed anxious everyday couldnt ive elementary everyone nice life except feels nice go buy something eat something without worrying money ive depressed long im tired battle dont know im terrified death hurting mother siblings sometimes urges reach nightstand take whole bottle pills digs past week especially embarrassing self harm ps diagnosed borderline personality disorder feel loser wish different life even better never born bit messed post much correct grammar probably late want kill lol im sick telling people feel getting told go sleep think something positive hurts much try hard live getting difficult anyways let know thinking sorry anyone success redflag lines haventi sick seeing redflag hotlines linked everywhere redflag mentioned help anyone ive tried times people bored apathetic unknowledgeable reduced um yeah um dont know um cant say seemed want know immediate night plan redflag said didnt dont want involuntarily committed one said said ok need wrap talking dumber version anyone speak someone said anything useful know anyone positive experience redflag helplines dont know people volunteer really dont care anything mental health closest caring ive gotten bored guy saying yeah see sucks id call see ones spoke representative sample wasting time someone might helped id love hear experiences others good bad isnt relevant topic anyones curious im suicidal due chronic widespread pain finding nearly impossible work without anyone catching crying fire people crying public plus doctors want treat depression thats due pain source pain ssris tylenol recommendations tylenol weak bad liver ssris nothing make fat keep food diary show meds arent making eat show doctorsive tried years plus tricyclics aleve seems help barely works cant take anymoreim burden everyone im around everyone thinks im lazy im much pain cant walk time doctor thinks im hypochondriac even evidence im making want keep job every time one break fire life isnt good portray everyone cant anymore cat needs hisses growls attacks anyone isnt dont know much longer hold need everything stop day endgame script till gf okay good tip bow arm three fingers clint barton one daytired life ive nothing abuse happen wan na live anymore may today tomorrow someday feel peace ultimate ninja warrior absolutely loved movie great realistic looking combat footage one thing touching genuine story calm understated manner lead character franta makes likable human relationships story seemed typical possible expect war time bond franta carel shows loyalty wartime comrades often described books interviews veterans subtitles detract story actually serve underline problems czech pilots raf postwar storyline great reminder many suffering ww end especially russian occupied countries cinematography good wish seen big screen dad wants start youtube channel carpentry saw videos carpentry basically couldnt make videos good theres try think hes years suggested making videos tool safety hes teaching years people better try think make really good informative videos tool safety pm pls im bored rn jdjhdhjdjdjsjjsjsoskkajshsiskbdhdhdjejejjejdjskskksksksksjsjsjjsjejejejejjeoskskskkskskisokajapkdgdoek trying hard distance friend strong feelings hard feel horrible right now says whenever want hang let know want tell really wish instead typing hopefully keep saying anything doubt never good enough pathetic nothing personalgood evening reddit im typically never site much though things started spiraling downward recent apologize advance cohesive speaking mind tldr end something please feel caused entirely selfishness ive thinking recent panic attacks getting worse worse meds helping access therapy moment feel im letting people around little bit context turned back march im military users military im sure familiar tough love love shop theyre family nothing support betterment marine person though theyre brutally honest comes criticism genuinely respect everyone truly dont want feel guilty anything want state now now moving lot personal issues affecting outside work past couple days think nice must die qualms anyone loving significant people closer family good head shoulders though seems though let everyone ive recently diagnosed manic depression currently taking citalopram combat well needing speak cardiologist feared may issue heart ive never one give personal issues feel though beginning affect work performance maybe pride telling never let people suffer faulters hate feeling though id nuisance ones around know avenues support try help current state society response covid lot pressing issues seek support put hold things getting worse dont much opportunity better last thing want people around feel responsible actions may take want die fear forgotten im scared death everything know come end one point another matter life meaning try make impact people positive way want people happy purpose life though feel im succeeding ways im sure hate letting people feel failure im giving weakness truly vicious cycle dont want let anymore guys wanted dependable lead example feel succeeded wanted make impact lives feel know bad blood anyone everyone stuck necks help times love family wish help support motivate achieve happiness dont feel obtain something please know nothing personal wronged forgive forget life race everyone decide sprint marathon psych wards worse prisonwhen emergency psych ward never knew gon na terrifying life outside suddenly hold chance explain anyone anyone cares came learn maybe shouldnt cared didnt value life meant even less control utensils gave spoons plastic knives forks dangerous locks bathrooms people walking shit time mirrors trapped knowing leave scary trapped even given chance end life ok first ignore last person review admit falling asleep wonder understand going thrillerhorrors go film aint bad certainly watchable right opening scenes general idea exactly going cause craziness follows come end proved right everything made clearbr br enjoyed movie quite eerie times old films go passable great watch late night give generous abandoned people called friends know right thing wanted say mean stuff said mean thought makeng hate easier hope great best fun remember love bb drunk none see anyway lets start review notredflag note glad decide wimp tony shot retrospective season people rumoring actually creator writer episode david chase quite opposite actually know tony live die hes coma chances recovering slim none episode seemed move slow coma induced dream tony involving mistaken identity robed asian monks slapping sht absolutely flatout weird minutes got little sick everyone grieving shouldn reason slam episode weird unpredictable episode still wellwritten intense edie falco gave astounding careerdefining performance episode conflicted wife face husbands couldbe demise found interesting aj dropped school swore vendetta junior aj likely balls pull silvio actingboss opens numerous doors problems later episodes lot great quips episode think vito polesmoker spadafore may meet demise keeps greedy sobbr br great episode disappointed even though tony kills people audience adore feel hero show necessary episode series even though little snore inducing towards conclusion kudos edie falcos performance david chase writers creating wholly original unpredictable plot twist season sopranos fcking clue going go cant wait next weeks episode rating br br best line episode paulie aj lets go van helsing im giving uptoday woman call mother said waste life cant take anymore cuddled minecraft bed someone cant helpi friend female hispanic ive worried year alternates frequently depressed cheerful cutesy demeanor slightly overweight constantly overly worried appearance starving month eating perhaps one meal day family extremely unsupportive tells ugly childish stupid looks suppose male try encourage much possible really great friend hate see stuck low selfesteem depression last night cut arms believe first time leaving lot marks deep overly hazardous health another step towards suicidal behavior ive friends past year take lives ill anything power help ive tried see professional parents say exaggerating take see anyone really know help wierd adult friends ok im mom works salon meets lot different people well one clients big video game nerd mom got together started playing games well im going house playing games wierd thought todaya lot dog extra cuddly hardly havent sleeping much lately think adding feeling today dog gets credit world shes keeping ill seeing dr morning im emotional hate admitting something wrong perfect man alive correct answer kim taehyung waited waited film come outthe trailers seemed years worth im big fan watching films cant wait come buy big fan jim suited perfectly much see feel good factor scale perfect christmas think ron fab job turning film seen watch know want early film pilot hit canadian tv show trailer park boys played executives networks showcase decided sign tv series great acting funny cast make one best cult comedy films movie plot two small time criminals go around exterminating peoples pets money dog next door whos barking night guys go trouble come across job big deal end shootout watch movie want understand beginning tv series highly recommend itbr br rated swearing violence drug usebr br offensive either dont actually show killing animals good film funny yet film good ernest films im jealous boyfriend hes attractive looks good even someone takes picture without knowing im literally jealous umm im wish attractive im girl anyways thats unsent letter online friend ive gotten use burning feeling settles throat holding back tears time together warped thoughts maybe im hopeless maybe cant let go mistaken last conversation happening much later actually hit looked back thought talking pity clear now quite understandable wish given goodbye hurt less know considered relationship thanks sticking around long champ ill always consider dear friend life seem bit pointless anyone rantive felt suicidal long remember managed keep lid past year ive busy school personal issues yesterday friends people love told want nothing reason either love life confessed loving back drunken mind reject explore university stay tied greatest days lives turned bad wont talk much anymore ive thinking redflag night wrote note relapsed bit listened sad songs read inspiring article commit redflag started realise matter everything nothing become best profession become rich marry love life meet best friends great life eventually ill die will suffer next years mean nothing end anyway nothing means anything one day one remember life everything gave shit everything slaved everything worked hard gone forever whats point anymore im probably going kill tonight im afraid afterlife go process hanging options right now sucks feel pain wash entire body every time press another button keyboard remember life meaningless still cant anything damn think im going end life todaytoday day think cant take anymore week lost one true love adoptive family three best friends second home molested cousin raped girl school physically mentally abused father last year sexually assaulted raped another girl yet none felt worse start happened week girlfriend interested threesome girl one best friends love years though never felt convinced grew attached protective friends hung stayed us second home trying thing knowing uncomfortable made us response decision decided make girlfriend stop succeeded us wanted us neither us kind feelings towards neither us break think much constant problem one us upset angry thinking intentionally giving person attention one night one two friends years older stayed house got intoxicated sat couch talked one morning trying girlfriends third person dump best friend user meth addict sees people ways sex makes sense least three girls come saying raped tried raping tried forcing onto school one point using best friend age consent sex house stay homeless days ago tried telling love girlfriend said one believed calling liar saying wanted start things kicked house night walked home rain miles dark one friend want said audacity tell love around supposedly call bitch say hate wish dead never said wished things breaks heart even thinking believed night thought trying start problems everyone left asked responded threats harming killing afterwards went told adoptive mother diagnosed heart diseases problems allowed back wanted start problems handle stress anyways agreed never able see adoptive mother dies likely lost one true love love care anything lost adoptive father uncle aunt brothers sister nephew best friends user want stop using people think handle im sorry post complete shitfest cant think breathe cease crying thoughts pointing killing right now people always say theyre arentjust dont say youre going leave read even look message least send crisis hotline number leave misery really helpful polite thing implied going kill days ago two people checked see fine left immediately kind sad think gone besides parents two people might possibly feel obligated care sad kind wanted people care know even im dead wont care one really care besides maybe strangers internet telling want cry doesnt work everyone says im funny conversations boring without dont mean value theyd respond even saying im sorry happened nothing tried normal ive tried histrionic cries help even people pretend care life clearly value death impact group atoms earth second gone next ive got one person talks dont breakdown dont want ruin christmas negativity every single night find wanting cry ive tried putting trauma paranoia behind fiends online talk surface level stuff dont complain messages arent dry surface level entire life crisis dont need hotline although nice send anyway people think care need friend goes well end complaining lonely never really close people thought hated didnt want close people didnt want death drama affect im alone drank drinks feel great little less sad maybe even brave enough finish job tonight knows going drink really vodka drunk brave hiya people mental slump latelynothing externally redflagful happened thinking wanted lately life collegeand hits want anythingi want anything know want career ill go want generallyto live life without motivation full mediocrity feels completely pointless keep going existingi want stay girlfriend want family friends mourn deathbut feel ill anything meaningful continuing state either change something cut shortbut already tried change trying change trying reduce unhealthy habits take newer healthier ones motivation even commit themi know ill figure least tell feel worsebut really figure really change better know answers questionsplease future please tell okay confuzzled help analyzing instagram world record egg english help saw memes english teachers analyzing everything jesus something let meme meme world come months horror feeling really latelymy depression escalated extreme used consider person family loved ones leave behind theres much guilt built started care anymore last night seconds asphyxiating minute argument convinced game moment cease exist everyone end stopped self harmed instead needed release another night coming im afraid might edge ive already given sister belts know might extra creative desperate tonight anyone relate open suicidal thoughts school advice pleasei need advice ive school couple weeks feel terrible ive sick got bad infection im currently using medication right mental health biggest issue feel worthless killing making wan na leave room anymore school worried absent much called dad today asked visit tomorrow dont mind visiting im kinda nervous talk gon na know mental health crap dont know bad neither psychologist ive told dad suicidal thoughts last year hasnt told school anyone tell school people visiting trusted people school know safe hands dont know honestly guys think cant anymore one last goodbyei cant anymore pretend im normal go work work everybody theres everlasting sadness inside days worse still put shell towards people worry smile laugh crack jokes home break crying smashing things punching wall know overwhelmed hopelessness wish something ive tried long last time knot untied time made sure nice tight guess goodbye im sorry times let near im sorry normal im sorry giving easily im sorry cant take anymore goodbye thanks everything alrightim living dream job years travel see kinds amazing things im active adventure whenever want amazing friends much love life yet think killing throughout day every day cant control ideas creep leave know feel lately sometimes hate fing hard insane cant figure thought good thing going ready grow want revert earth feel lost sad alone heart want painful lately pray wake sleep reason want actually diekill believe life worth living better bare pain bring family friends im miserable think quitting job shitty job way love cant wake enough give shit year fucking sucks better heres hair started january st im excited new decade told im going lose weight pandemic white cops murder black man people rioting august building exploded november pedophile became president put cherry top theyre still pandemic thousands hundreds people died people saying better coronavirus still going go lucky world war going happen next year lets pray god happen two cats died year yeah bad thing happened aint going covid vaccine science going mess think going better may well stop hoping cuz going worse hear argument personnel experience good keep mind lot things differ place place hear people let give evidence give argument ill back minutes huge crush celebrity younger older still find attractive longer crush fantasies want support fan tw disordered eatingsuicidal ideation know lost motivation anything either eating much little constipated fuck tired slept hours even motivation cook anything order shit apartment live poor hold job month without redflages building break makes feel acting entitled piece shit making excuses work something tried approach sucking redflag hoping disappear work parent pressured move screaming constantly telling ill never amount anything life toxic judged every move never really felt good enough think killing much effort tried therapy work tried medical marijuana developed scary hallucinations know life existing likely end street likely become drug addict nothing bother people thinking running away literally much want feel worthless think survive planeti cant stop reminiscing past happy penniless family ignorant hot tempered parents slightest physically mentally prepared children im proud indoctrinated muslim either still tried keep chin finished high school got degree tried job time invest passion tried oh believe tried ass trying achieve success alas went backfired needbeing broke useless hopeless nobody giving shit im breaking point already im done hope family able move lives without attention epic gamers need help defeat big bad evil monki request account twittercom vote pezlord httpstwittercomsmollfryesstatuss election basically friends holding election need help pez pres make post show art made cause thank reading remember thats post shiiiiiiittpost know longer used call survivor know one know times running mei really know muchbut enough time know cheat death long gets good entire life one day hook crookone way anotheri still holding trying stop hiding forever know losing game always time permanent check mate called game lifethis probably last failurei know writing makes selfish lot waysbut know know end postso remain incomplete edited used call survivor know one afraid anything everything time afraid happened may happen afraid world earth skies stars aliens humans animals whatever fucking bullshit thought occurred head makes skin crawl afraid might become afraid might go crazy fight might become boring normal average weird fucking hippie fucking stupid hardheaded person honestly got reason end itlike genuinely cant think reason keep living everything joke things keep getting worse prop come incely tough rly meant basecly hate appearance looks cant anything guess im obsessed looks tbh see wrong yea pretty bad looks keeps getting worse gf cant one think mainly look think thats fair say got friends social circle got social anxiety uncomfortable around big groups people even tiny group people around age got several issues link apperance got incurable permanent hair condition mild infection causes hairloss even maybe bleeding scalp gets severe got horrible posture possibly mild scoliosis got odd issue im outside theres sun im constantly close sneezing resist annoying relation looks kinda got eating disorder sense ive barely eaten breakfast lunch last years rly uncomfortable eating among people caused extra short besides allready cant help mad dad genes wich got realize sounds rly incely part incel community left months ago condone ideas mindsets said believe blackpill essentially everything feels big joke im rly bothering anymore dislike job im studying guess im pretty pessimistic cant rly help im trying edgy anything legit see reason keep living got meaning friends gf dreams things seeming improve got perfect nutrigrain bar guys arent gon na believe opened one packages crumbs bars super dense crumbs came beautiful really want someone tell even lie im feeling validive depression long time dont feel speak mind even wanted dont know explain going fucked head whenever anything goes slightly wrong react freak fuck everyone tired worn trying help fault ive ruined families lives selfish prick ive talked many therapists current one great never feel im making progress mostly dont care enough try things tells ive left behind many people screwed alienating people used along sit along home everyday afraid speak mind cowardly ask help feel one around believes im badly theyve given trying reddit place turn dont know fuck even cowardly scared anything im selfish piece shit picked dvd watched love bright colors vs dark imagery big beatty fan excellent popcorn movie pacino astounding always well movie marked period madonna absolute sexiest wish stuck breathless look longer charlie korsmos first really big role bob makeup effects cutting edge still hold part beautiful scenery mood transport directly comic strip environment cars wardrobe buildings even streetlights et great tone mention perfect lighting although scenes lot red tad annoying tends blur little wish beatty gotten chance make sequel fun hours feeling truly awful hate hate world hate everyone world ugh think way friend said first thing thought heard title midnight cowboy gay porno point known reference made seinfeld episode jerry trying kramer florida bus kramers sick nosebleedbr br movie great surprisingly upbeat pissy pretentious pessimistic movies cant even remember theyre crapbr br plot basically consisted naive young cowboy joe buck going new york trying hustler male prostitute basically thinking itll easy pickings hit brick wall hard woman ends hustling charging sexual encounterbr br meets enrico salvatore rizzo called ratso everyone cute gay guys make fun time think scoundrel lovable one han solo lando calrissian surprisingly joe become friends movie sweet heartwarming watching friendlier rizzo reveals actually sad pitiable man whos sick depressed selfconscious hates called ratso wants go florida thinks life much better problems resolved hell learn cook famous therebr br heartwarming watching joe florida along many hilarious moments ratso trying steal food hippie party getting caught woman says gee well know free steal says well free aint stealin classic moment completely unscripted unscheduled hoffman almost gets hit taxi screams hey im walkin im walkin acting believable never believe joe buck grow distinguished respected actor jon voight ratso rizzo grow legendary beloved dustin hoffman first time theyve worked together lead roles chemistry thick intensebr br theres sad part believe quite overstatement call depressing ratso rizzo falling apart throughout movie barely walk barely eat coughs lot sick reaches headpoint bus way florida hes hurting badly miles away miami finally dies bus bus driver reassures everyone nothings wrong continues sad kind way thatd make go home cry mope around miserably though lost dog yearsbr br great movie soundtrack pretty much consists everybodys talking played throughout movie appropriate times odd move great one song good fits tone movie perfectly go see great go buy im diagnosed ocd couple years ive suspected ocd want visit psychiatrist kinda went days ago finally decided visit psychaitrist appointment today yeah ocd take antidepressants yaaaaayy hopelessive reddit year ive commented never posted struggle depression panic attacks last night wife got upset cat hissed threatened let go play street live busy road got upset told messed say went got couch slammed door went go bedroom try fix everything thought locked door pushing closed opened slammed hand told crazy leave everyone life abandoned girlfriends friends dad years old cant handle another one wife leaves nothing want live life disappointment dissapointment divorce fathers redflag truly think world better without wanted post someone know felt im new town friends job reason keep going thank yall listening aw deleted account guy asked nudes deleted account gon na see posts long time original quite funny black comedy surfaced eating raoul top list favor find undertaking betty immediately subject death funny attempted see paul bartel mary woronov mortuary academy movie brilliant moments black comedy undertaking betty much steady better cast imagine undertaking business might fertile ground original uplifting heartfelt comedy surprised highly recommend seeing undertaking betty merk seen film many years ago made lasting impression alas hardened many films years expect impressed kalifornia upon watching recently pleased say every bit unnerving watchable ten years agobr br two things really give movie power first cast staggeringly disturbing turn young brad pitt early grace knowing pitt one enduring heartthrobs hollywood refreshing see play vile unattractive character pitt pulls show without resorting whitetrash clich parody manages remain genuinely terrifying throughout moviebr br juliette lewis equally impressive graces tragic girlfriend playing character ten year old girl forty year olds life experience lewis manages evoke pity characters station life well contempt naivety underpins performance kind subtlety rarely seen actor young personally think tragedy neither pitt lewis nominated awards performances herebr br david duchovony michelle forbes perfectly cast yuppy couple unwittingly end travelling across us pitt lewis duchovony aptly geeky naive forbes seems emphatically cynical shutoff actors manage convincingly portray characters changes equally intrigued repulsed strangely attracted pittbr br fine casting uniformly brilliant acting aside film really grabs us proverbial balls flawless pacing time kalifornia released hollywood releasing slew nicecharacterturnsouttobepsychotic movies single white female pacific heights hand rocks cradle deceived sleeping enemy etc movies followed formula variation nature relationship good guy bad guy kalifornia really stray far territory first two acts perfect example slowboil thriller kept edge seats waiting tide turnbr br penny drop pitt let loose play maniacal bad guy film shifts gears completely last twenty minutes quite live rest movie said action thick fast resolution suitable cold fight scars always therebr br much narration provided somewhat whiny pre xfiles duchovony tad contrived course meant book duchovonys journalist character written one argue selfconscious narration meant nod kind sensationalised style journalists writebr br film largely success certainly cut thrillers past twenty years highly recommended weak stomach mind film disturbing one level meant honestly really point staythey say redflag permanent solution temporary problem thats really true life permanency us know thing want really end everyone keep living fuck wan na live see anyways bad day now havent felt happy now year ago time depressed suicidal im afraid happen thing feel lonely dont know im wrong dating game fucked social life guess im averagely attractive funny guy im pretty smart workout dont know im supposed feel devoid empty anyone new wan na chat finish math test im bored depressed tired trifecta dm comment chat little im lonely dont want die sometimes feel disappearing im uselessanyone feel feel friendless fucked need help apologizing someone deserve good apology overthinking much right sent yet need fucking ghosted friend almost year still text sometimes please someone help apology already wrote need help apologizing ive hoping die naturally years nowits small things wearing seat belt behaving really recklessly cant bring actually im scared surviving living consequences im young poor afford assisted redflag country allows gets nervous go places steep edges reckless vain attempts slip fall people around demonize redflag much dont want anyone know want die naturally hope fatal car wreck im driving alone maybe one days alcohol poisoning job want try starving people think anorexia im male livemy family call fag hope die soon need someone vent toplease please talk need vent dead endi feel life cant better everything feels reached dead end kill self end hi hi hi hi youre nice interesting lets talk im bored wan na talk people pls talk meeeeee teenagers hands type keyboard born without hands method typing keyboard leave comment cant see mail three awards ive gotten tyy lt want become anything want anything want work hard want go school want job want live family want achieve anything nothing prove anything anyone live particularly existing much want exist dreams goals aspirations nothing hey guys im bored thougt nice chat someone hit dms open lol regressingthe day lose battle day finally decide way return time decide unannounced choice use resolve kill amount psychiatric help medication reverse decision lose battle lose battle nothing change mind point demons won retain hopeful optimism consumed cynical nihilism regress defense today day lose battle im gon na go use know became person recognize know old went want happy trying hardest know became cold hearted care anyone gone one day without smoking weed way feel happy smoking became problem outlet way making happy things make happy question problem everyone life even said know got point eat anymore hardly care appearance anything general know committed suicide yet unhappy life anything make better trying emotionally physically try happy try things make happy temporarily last ill temporarily happy gone know change tried everything outgoing push outside comfort square yet work know anymore someone one recognizes someone hardly recognize one way another know going better probably end committing suicide actually want die want live anymore even recognize anymore baby brother murdered brutally last year still believe happened hits tsunami loved anyone loved star amazing big sister struggled suicidal thoughts hand full life always smile face brother suffered serious illness never got spirits life wished illness instead loved life every time suicidal thought think sad baby brother bear thought hurting wish one men took day imagine live life without believe life now little brother murdered stop thinking died instead hours ill getting covid vaccine miss covid shit okay im bored feeling extremely extremely ready today sitting floor sobbing redflag flashback yesterday friends left already terrifying abandonment trauma top made spiral today called childhood best friend close years now basically said told fault want move back city access better people better friendsthen reached second best friend known around years even lived one point asked come crisis think alone right now response girlfriend went tubing tired told brother suicidal weeks ago really needed support told hes busy working give years buy house even bills right now still lives apartment foster care easily request less hours voluntarily picks upevery single friend interacted knows redflag majorly depressed three know suicidallmao everyone says kill reach talk someone blown offlike talk nobody actually cares people scoff act must someone literally nobody parents brother family friends give shit literally cats thing keeping everyone always tells reach someone suicidal reach people want deal plssss advice shit needed sothere girl friend groupshe nice frankly quite hotlately find obviously tries stand sit next talking something said wants make ex jealousso said randomly walks hugs something play along low key shooting signs something feeling way talk mehi im little frazzled right now forgive typos poor grammar final fight girl together year broke months gave second chance im notbiological father month yo little girl theres kid im much love legal standing see now ex emotionally abusive two goarounds im broken ill probably never see daughter im seeing much reason continue found hard anyone film central characters lindy michael chamberlain whose daughter disappears night australian outback bad people surely even scores people see throughout movie bad knew better though sure film wants us guilt innocence chamberlains start lifes tragic disarray film takes less sociological perspective pertaining gossip news media crowds mobs assumptions movie degenerate society australia particular merely account true story happened society en masse much less evolved individual feels ensured arebr br warden insists upon killing aborigines dogs unverified action single wild dog randomly ruined life spins even control owing majority magazines newspapers tv programs distorts tragic truth level drama provokes consumers frenzy sign empathy even kind looking outside ones unaware perceptions influenced left right vigorous hearsay vibes surround ones life reason appreciate film turns focus inside victims massesbr br evidence lindy chamberlain aside suspicion jetfueled mostly virtue public eye seem sufficiently distraught death baby daughter able keep cool even sort aloofness let alone holding head tv press much downward spiral couldve prevented behaved publics liking media meryl streep one greatest actress working today may give performance particularly stands frankly neither actor department filmmaking screenwriters understand lindy infuriating difficult apparently naturally prone showing emotion public case whether approachable lovable character immediate sense naturally prone sympathize situationbr br whether performance immediately gratifying sophies choice devil wears prada angels america work triumph difficult enrapture audience purposely deny insights frustrates us know thinking feeling took awhile feel endeared toward movies way suggesting reaction publics attentionbr br married pastor practice religion small minority thus misinterpreted initially react loss reconciling gods will kickstarting rumor mill generating notion daughters death sort ritual killing part whatever happened little girl parents part margin medias intake immediately identify first inclination go pack hungrywellbr br meryl streep sam neill constantly screen australian public plays real leads punctuation plot advance director fred schepisi cuts away restaurant tennis court dinner party saloon office public tries lindy gets carried away passionate projectionsbr br golanglobus docudrama particularly memorable settings atmosphere give pleasurable enough compensation fact performance facet production stands successful indictment collective conscious public slice wrists againjust took mg xanax im third strong drink see happens want ketamine infusions might safe life entire savings gone week trial probably fail im ending soon may alwad say mean fuck helpits much insecurity anxiety handle think im really commit redflag everyone found reason stayhold tight us lucky someone please tell difference iphone cant bothered watch minute video seconds original content feel really lonely nowhere looking forward killing myselfi lost money gambling bit left im going try work things ex work first loose ends tie weeks im ready ive planned method im going fun gambling last bit money become rich blow ill kill one little thing look forward rate finnish edgar allen poe inspired poem english class write poem parrot thats similar raven edgar allen poe idk finnish need stanzas lines stanza upon lofty journey pirate sick scurvy led crew poorest goons lost gold thier doubloons captain lay sleeping slacking awakened creaking cracking men entered cabin assumed attacker heard polly wants cracker stanza saw prized parrot perched proudly upon privates shoulder promptly fed bird polly hunger captain returned slumber dreamt something absurd imagined island full treasure riches crew gather filled chests britches pockets grew fatter fatter captains displeasure awoke familiar sound fluttering feather heard polly wants cracker stanza fed bird hoping interruptions cease polly squawked give one piece pirate gave birds command hoping quickly find land low food night time coming soon captains eyes grew heavy sky became blacker heard polly wants cracker feels ill never breathe againi cant head even understand flashbacks happen cant shame humiliation enough proper help cant anymore im tired everything seriously considering end allso lately ive feeling really everything something ive dealt long time unbearable im pathetic year old loser basically future friends nothing care anything anymore spend nights crying help prevention advice neededi go cycles feeling depressed feeling amazing currently feel slipping depression thats deeper usual im worried im going something regret death taking head space anyone advice stop acting impulsively thoughts thank another country right grandmas everyone mean two three cousins currently mean ignore call names reason feel bad every year leave grandma depressed feel bad tell bad reactions past miss mom things hide found getting apartment subsequently let street want soil mood disorder fucking ruined life last night got super emotional cried breaks hours cousin walked practically begging answer say anything feel cares hes nice go back us crying right now cousin room even fucking care hes phone never felt useless love planning things much look forward real interests writing excited book book super realistic character lost motivation now really want rent apartment adult live life company want four kids luxuries prayed stop crying im mistakeim scared write need someone know im gay kid saudi arabia place lgbtq ppl accepted punishedby death im scared family ive isolated everyone cause im terrified theyll know spent life bullied cause ppl kinda tell made develop social anxiety depression feels im carrying heavy weight cant anymore wan na let go two years hardest far depression bad point im going school general health shit one im alone scared everyone around happy fun except something choice way live im fucking tired wan na love feel loved much ask find thinking letting go im searching reasons maybe cry help bruh physics exam tomorrow started studying today teacher says hardest one year first one idk anything cant learn formulas shit im scared anxiety clouds monster cant pull nighter f chat cant copy bc class itd obvious utilitarian perspective kill myselflegitimately think everyone know school dislikes barely tolerate hate presence cant exactly avoid idea died tonight might bit sad think either might even happy although im sure theyd weeks close friends way closest friend barely interact perhaps scale hours week deactivated account facebook week ago days study business test came back post likes happy everyone see gone thats depressing im negative effect everyone know everyone tells though maybe stop negative effect everyone stop pissing people fuck know spent life interacting normal people idea piss people solution think point stop interacting anyone whatsoever basically involve cutting world pretty shitty need socially interact making life even worse already family possibly people might sad yet feel im one main causes parents fighting eg shitty marks supporting financially dying help relationship future im close brother although might sad die im depressed really hate annoying everyone first reason im still alive ive always something finish book tv show game yet now nothing rest life vague indefinable concept involve probably getting job due lack social skills living streets homeless reason im alive im selfish person despite fact killing create net happiness increase amongst humanity people know relieved gone bugging still done fear death still take least happiness life value happiness others even live admit im selfish hate others enough inflict charitable act killing stop happy killing give higher net happiness letting life continue let acquire probably im lazy acquire materials penis penis banned penis banned eat penis anymore sometimes really consider deleting social media accounts isolating everyonemaybe people forget feel selfish awful killing though somehow doubt anyone really notice care matter anyways honestly feel good idea thing starting discord teenage dating must submit pictures first verify theyre teenagers feel enforce teenager thing success night listener better people generally saying weaknesses seems genre identity crisis doubt think creepy atmosphere intriguing performances make whole thing feels one fireside happened friend friend mine ghost stories one big complaint movie pacing slow sometimes awkward pacing deliberate everything unfolds movie kept well within realm possibility real life sort plods alongno flashy endings earthshattering revelations showdown scenes thank heaven zone watching movie forget reservations expectations makes conventionallygood movie williams terrific easily meets needs story plus character supposed somewhat generic one everyman avatar enter story toni collettes performance nominated oscar even maybe win give shot quality content alone night listener surely top twenty percent movies coming days la bebesita bebelin bebe whisky fuma marihuana tmbn se mete al picky la pelan estadounidenses itthis note guess right post im going end knew may find ive slogged long enough hell middle fucking apocalypse im surprised made far im finally tired suppose years living wrong body someone adhd ton likely incurable mental illnesses made one last huge push fix things year failed know anybody elses fault dont want funeral anything especially anything religious name ray please dont use old one last im sorry realize going put everyone know pain simply anymore may hard impossible understand hope forgive ive done love go peace stopped following therapist discovered experience treating depressed people hid fact specialized couples therapy psychology intern volunteered help dumped apparently condition complicated two years antidepressants redflag meds antipsychotic meds antiepileptic meds months psychiatric ward guess single improvement lol everyone spout life worths living crap quits soon discovered many traumas bear fucking greedy world depriving joy making feel less human single friend never felt relevant someone life piece garbage used walked even family except mom still care despises wishes born including dumb fatheri wish undo birth single happy memory help cope back square one read gay turning back now huh im ruined im completely ruined attracted women years older reasons im ruined im mentioning call man carrot head stew fyckkkkkkk im home alone homework fucking hear someone breathe behind think im going crazy lol byeee toast heres future plans girlfriend right one world domination traveling across japan mates good time end sips martini idki want ive got g paracetamol enough kill people let alone teen cant really want take one look pills feel uneasy think previous attempts really getting cant nothing left idea going back school weeks spiking anxiety given current state world right now understand united states set sending minors back buildings packed minors especially theyre even going right live missouri middle butt fuck nowhere promise high population mean cant cause outbreak mike parson mo gov piece shit literally bare minimum anybody common sense asking mandate masks cant even nose far trumps ass completely complicit willing sacrifice children school even requiring masks implementing sort social distancing precautions children immune covid watching world news said closer black children contract covid around hispanic children caucasian children children okay brother biracial black white scared death brother hospitalized asthma times count almost every time catches regular flu hes two weeks sometimes even turns pneumonia cant even begin describe uncomfortable idea friends family going used collateral damage damn near hundred sixty thousand families torn apart cant look past stock market two fucking seconds people stories families past week sixyearold passed georgia tennessee im sure plenty places children made orphans due virus dad heart patient cancer survivor mom sickle cell anemia recurring respiratory problems brother extremely bad asthma grandma one three teachers placed highrisk category governments job protect citizens instead used militia fight invisible enemy guys careful wear mask talk parents administrators unfortunately seems mess hands now take care want die want exist whilei feel overwhelmed sadness hopelessness feel cant keep graduate school work housework yearold really good throw tantrums scream part day husband depressed moment cant talk fear making feel worse appointment therapist see new patients may st made appointment month ago ive binge eating last week two hoping food fill emptiness want die want take break consciousness forced send photos someone found site tell parents long story short black mailed man forced send lewd photos anything extremely nsfw mainly lewd faces took screens put site months happened decided see posted anything took selfie reverse imaged found want tell parents know im gon na disowned kicked join whiteboard link saw someone thought itd fun idea shitshow last time lmao good luck httpsrwhiteboardfoxcom happy scared math finals make board game math questions im fucking stressed cant seem relaxi already feel piece shit knowing months ive unemployed ive gotten two interviews didnt either jobs years kitchen year bar backing experience fast paced bar ive freelance dog sittingwalking fucking years ask grandmother money asked calmly reiterated one told bar pay everything shes going back offer now need find job im seriously even slightly holding well right now im fucking depressed piece shit havent able drag bed walk dog days seems mind much still need odin groomed tomorrow nails clipped thats money bone chew im taking exam tomorrow disability center one exam today final paper due pm didnt even read book havent money buy fucking libraries now totally pull final ass literally passion deaf culture class im asl interpreting student theres literally online resources even give small synopsis book definitely work im gon na hate im super unprepared im piece shit person wants die every dayeveryday wake begging die dont even care anymore dying finally leaving reality hellish loop noteim hanging two seconds post everything thing go numb ill seize exist fuck joe fuck dumbass family fuck time wasted fuck whole life furie illegal furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad link good yt videos istg rickrolled redflag note intend publicize facebookdont cry stop playing victim last night keep attacking tell head tell everyone know better tell told im less human tired say good morning im even unproven chemical imbalance im incompetent think im much burden continue putting tell want leave want go place far away forget exist tell put anymore ready kick curb misperceived slights tell fault definitely lie much cared tell everything second bother consider went window second felt center universe chocked villain want tell done fed ive trying kill fourteen despite overdoses despite psych wards treatment centers despite jumping bridge ruining back continued put paint victim mind business one always pushing edge talk much getting rid long tried think ive finally found way im victim victims find success suffering thats im im free im motivated pushed forward goal ive long chased goal threw away future pursuit thank finally helping realize alone misunderstood uncared truly always knew outside world reason thought despite everything deep inside family different thank helping better realize much want dead night told kill oh shell deny shell lie teeth even longer sees culpable always done narcissist know truth true feelings slipped see positives thats sick seeing fail go associates witness childhood friends theres nothing done days im terrified friendship prison never wouldve let anyway always miles apart even care know thinking whatever hes insane attention seeker wants everyone feel sorry nobody cares comes time respect dead want remember thoughts sadness sudden empathy acted cared felt hate anger want remember care respect quit acting course im dreaming matters people look wrong using sub diary day today quite chill stayed home moms birthday didnt much stayed home listen much got couple gift hmm yea stayed play video games mark word someone remind years said take mom dream vacation turns guys day anything interesting happened mind walking people really walk places back loaned air authenticity period piece perspective technology martians disappointed effects particular thunderchild scene regard one exciting book cant praise film enough faithfulness wellss story time actors likable performances charming film much worth seeing hear jamie halls truly great musical score interesting see actor play writer brother london ive got short survey plushies really appreciate take minute two day complete share friends please gas gas gas cause injurys covid havent run cross count meet two years healed practiced days able finish race today although wasnt fast able go without stopping wanted im hyped thanks reading great day sexy boi okay know start going pretty unorganised completely express going end mind ig surei introvert antisocial athiest logical etc personality expected parents people around always forcing change personality want explain hard rage know feel ig let want instead scolding everyday shouting wasting time force change personality understand want people neighbours judge lot going make life harder society wanted pretend enough always end getting teased extroverts want tell idgaf want talk cannotmost times especially night sleep start reviewing day explain correct mistakes people around made stupidly wrong correct even chance debate people always wrong comments always homophobic sexist illogical sometimes generally misleading wrong even parents scold wrong reasons time explanation might change mind ends mindit home even school shy able answer anything justify end getting scolded reasons supposed tosome people might say speak mind hard damn hard sure everytime take long breath talk end exhaling talk anything seriously forget words blood instead rushing brain rushing legs arms asking flight fight times anything care move night realise going affect life say depressed everytime sure going struggle entire life end destroying opportunities imagine life better lonely never relationship online friends another source depression things sorry repeating topics interesting thank read idk sharing idc upvotes explaining wrong people concepts makes somewhat happy ig end depression bc going happen always ends mind film appears draw borderline one side love find unbearablebr br begin awful lot comedy film many viewers getting course jet lis mask looks bruce lees kato hes supposed joke guy timebomb sewn heart outrageous course joke readers probably ask film supposed funny excessive gory violence well one thing tolerance level violence actually different culture culture hong kong audiences recognize violence extreme certainly slightly average hk action filmbr br black mask really kind film takes genres conventions pushes extremes simply conventions wholly unrealistic decades watching people shot without noticeable open wounds many people horrified see bonnie clyde outlaws wild bunch spurting blood place fact shot rapid metal projectile almost certain blood spurt especially arterybr br film chinese comic book movie true spiderman films never gory faithful reality well despite comicbook origins film faithful realitybr br complaint flashy overstylized filming editing makers film shot eye hollywoodstyle nostalgia eg rocketeer recent sky captain film doubt anyone found offensivebr br stands still lotta fun watching movie playing tennis years around time spent trying hardest become pro league legends well destroyed right wrist need surgery well need want funciton normally want existi gotten rejections irl female friends friends known years actually trash talked behind back height uglinessi suck academically despite working offwhat point live anymore scared end desire exist anymore think might finally withtheres hardware store far ive thought going finding thick rope know instinct struggle kick wish knew take right relax work situation hopeless toxic completely alone world died apartment probably take months anyone tried reach ones reach landlord checking rent alonefirst year college hate introverted friends childhood friend decides ditch new group friends lost motivation feel lonely everyone someone hang im im envious mad feel betrayed im alone cant see reason keep living really cant deal situation anymore cant life want dont desire livewell pretty straight forward post probably destroyed randoms whatever im unpassing trans person never life want literally live life im made fun given weird stares judged daily basis crushing know regardless cant even pass getting surgeries try assist impossible far foreseeable future due fucking money living poverty kicked feel lost empty dont see transition even helped see still birth gender mirror crushes daily reason keep living ill always fucking hon freak bother trying advice fucking world gives find new friends ignore doesnt fucking help children look fear everyone men women alike make comments stare treat shit fair life think chose shit cant find point go die alone nothing left give world yeah thats guess edward cat feed hngrs internet points wish deadeveryday ready never finish one day ill though know people care want continue ive never sad im really scared one turn redditlook know sounds stupid fucking girl well life went shit mom died days later mom died always close side family barely graduated highschool plans go college lined ended move state away personal reasons father never close per se used fight lot much anymore dont typical lets go play catch type relationship sort thing idk anyways ive lived life sad always trying fit good friends lost moved seriously nobody anymore met girl last year really hit moved together fell love kids everything going pretty great started arguing lot eventually accused cheating im still sure occured dumped january regretted impulse barely remember saw black tired everything didnt want take back ended getting back guy knew years dated little fucked split started talking met times sex times never went past knew wanted back met another guy moved hours away dated split recently started talking initiated contact time came visit family came saw night two weeks ago stayed laid held night couldnt even sleep couldnt believe back arms morning head back work hugged kissed told wanted back looked loved told give little time well talk lefti talked weekshed throw comments well whatever happens cant move back state im told idc id move mexico finally asked thought everything told always love shes sorry love heart fucking broken ive spent last eight months trying hard back thought time girl makes happy love god damn much shes greatest time together dont mean shit shes girl makes happy cant forgive past mistakes didnt treat right confused life regret now much miss fucking bad sent long message tonight basically asking rethink things still feels worry anymore im going delete facebook probably will wants friends ill never happy friends im starting finally realize never together ill never hold night ill neer tuck kids night saddest ive life nothing going anymore dad still support im years old idk anymore ive really thought redflag dont want die nothing anymore nothing dont even friends talk help things really dont life know shes going say im going crushed dont wan na live anymore reddit fuck know im rambling one anymore well im bit pickle recently got gf first time couple weeks ago weve gotten see twice bc busy schedule strict dad meaning rlly gotten close texting well yesterday found best friend happens friend happens one introduced us crush whole time gf feels extremely guilty told one friends feels guilty wants break already talked friend supposedly crush seems fine nothing awkward us feels guilty abt rlly big deal breaking even solve anything bc im gon na date friend pity im rlly hope gets bc even kissed yet want break already something small thanks reading rant cant talk abt brother cuz hell call simp place thoughts talk meim gon na post mostly posted rdepression day added effect wanting miserable life end one annoying symptoms ive got right now really really love die idk symptom depression anxiety whatever something wan na talk always think something makes feel someone happy feel gives meaning really prominent theres massive noticeable change mood im thinking theres always something whether im thinking gym seeing gains whether job ive applied im always thinking keep happy often forget weird literally think im trying remember actually forget feel completely lost meaning right really cant think something thats giving meaning really pissing annoying sorry walk text probably makes sense whatsoever heres hoping someone understands mean idk wan na die lol heard america paper cut ambulance drivers instantly sense kick door force gunpoint go hospital charge much money medical bills family bankrupt generations americans confirm deny need die kill mei really take anymore salt sandwiches opinions people mad others cheat ive never relationship know never really got people angry piece shit wanted remind piece shit wanted whole world see thank stopping want neon lights bad theyre expensive tho look cool contemplating everything going downhill getting worse day im best think positive take action fix stuff everything try fails takes lot calm work problems actions fail even discouraged constantly everything failing matter hard try im tipping point rn cant take much suffering even people around cant keep suffering long cuz people care matter anymore change anything want end everything prepared done less hour left lifeall letters written written money transfered help want help good quality meter rope bought noose already made location chosen waiting everyone go sleep ill finally free goodbye think might need helpi dont know go im im newly minted lawyer corporate work past year feel im cut profession screw lot work yelled daily basis work hour days weekdays hours weekends wake every morning sense dread force bed every time work email heart flutters panic want quit bad debts pay saving money go grad school im america law undergraduate degree im feel im qualified anything practice law even though whats making miserable feel weak speak people everyone know coworkers law school friends seems coping well work dont time friends family past months people ive spoken people work feel complaining decent paycheck feel completely worthless unmotivated anything now dont know improve work find cant bring try lie bed weekend mornings used rise early exercise meet friends sometimes skip meals tell dont deserve eat times im worrying much work dont appetite im gay used think redflag teenager homosexual activity illegal gay may cost job may grounds getting disbarred came friends family got support acceptance happy high school university days scares thoughts redflag coming back familiar misery started creep back life thought ready happy dont know deal feel im cracking dont want parents need right keep telling strong im exhausted really advice deal thank mind might racing bit kinda know whats wrong right now know make time take fixedi depression anxiety im currently go trials medications trying figure works best taking one x going pretty well felt pretty good still much energy sleep nurse practioners suggestion decided try another medication p thinking hey even better plan p x give go coming x preparation start p mgx mg started going withdrawals felt really depressed crushing amounts unreasonable guilt body got adjusted mg x added first mg p feel good one point wanted hospital period starting x feel good either tried power increased dosage im mgx mgp mgx case p work feel terrible sleep hours wake afternoon feel exhausted suddenly energy stay morning motivation chores feel tired depressed day right past midnight feeling makes want punch everything fun might sound theres doubt mind p causing monday morning see nurse practitioner cancel p long take come shake withdrawals go back mgx felt bad withdrawals x feel going withdrawals medication already makes feel shit long deal know expect ill think might emergency bag packed might go hospital medication sorted im evened long tomorrowim gon na try itim pretty scared idk itll work idk whatll happen doesnt lots excedrin trick guess im failing classes need serious reason withdraw im thinking survive maybe allowed withdraw classes dont even know feel alone anyone spot feel way yall wantnot want see ya romance story wan na know yall think tropes cliches elements romances resonate seems unrealistic opinions want see think seen seen enough personally detest love triangles typical bad boy everyone totally fawns yo girls actually guys moan ive heard somewhere know true tour busso considering getting passenger tour bus taking vote go every night free park lake park loaded tour bus picnic every day much per day collecting list interested people maybe happen people life pointless maybe see iti see point life others see pointless redflag consideration life pointless live die live learn work die live serve needs society whatever die people say lots good life see friends family woohoo end die lose earlier later maybe dying earlier even better weaker bond separation painful little good things life lot bad things sadness learn eventually work thats life pointless even living im negative truth others see read people give support reddit see pointless life understand someone understand life pointless something pointless quit right death im missing guts braver options maybe im already gone life pointless understands thinking offingpm need talk thanks im smooth hi girl hi wan na make baby girl yeah hard find heroinat rate im probably going go home depot buy rope idc painful want already told online friend plan today threatened follow suiti thought online safe thought cut people real life talk people online pass time act grew care became rather codependent realized something wrong asked spilled beans fucked felt peace feel conflicted know something simple theory difficult accomplish resisted urge find sense belonging knew along goal keep fucking things everyone around hate live others sure know live im tiredive written six drafts redflag note past week im wondering even worth six years relapsed first mark realized causing harm even worth either waste effort getting lay bed sleep ive trying hardmaybe little hard someoneanyoneto see im ok gone class weeks go work away parents make feel awful career choice im relationship going bad want cant bring hurt im boring shitty person goals aspirations cant find pleasure art cant find creativity need make cant even play video games anymore go dnd sundays enjoys game dm best friend hang close friend anymore tried found always busy j stopped trying invited clubhouse anymore havent months kicked polyamorous relationship two liked liked gave dream case manager parents thought hate life make enough moneya friends thought stupid people comments finally wore im art major somehow flunking college thought give tattooing try parents conservative even one tattoo havean armadillo wreath forearmand think im going making enough money im tired trying meet everyones expectations failing trying thing pissing everyone year ago well known generous kind supportive motherly thats wanted wanted help people im even known reputation something care wellbeing interests disappeared everyones minds im tired time enjoy anything love feel passion think little beautiful things world know anymore im terrified time relieved im waiting trip colorado see nature spark something inside noti around much longer one care ah yes rteenagers cesspool whatever yesterday disciplining son things productive hoped looked support husband response well annoying stop car drive lake us favor know antidepressants stuff stop making lives miserable hurry along responded husband notsuicidal tellsomeone drive car lake concerned husband plotting death know bit extreme said suicidal think husband wants dead turn dead want people think understand right place know turn friends confide want someone know turn dead husband playing mind games five medical students kevin bacon david labraccio william baldwin dr joe hurley oliver platt randy steckle julia roberts dr rachel mannus kiefer sutherland nelson experiment clandestine near death afterlife experiences researching medical personal enlightenment one one medical students heart stopped revivedbr br temporary death spells experiences bizarre visions including forgotten childhood memories flashbacks childrens nightmares revived students disturbed remembering regretful acts committed done experience afterlife bring real life experiences back present continue experiment remembrances dramatically intensify much physically overcome thus probe transcend deeper deathafterlife experiences attempting find curebr br even though dvd released motion picture released kevin bacon william baldwin julia roberts kiefer sutherland early stages adult acting careers besides plot extremely intriguing suspense building dramatic climax script tight convincing young actors make flatliners allstar cult semiscifi suspense knew years ago film careers young group actors skyrocket suspect director joel schumacher im okayive lived depression pretty much whole life past years anxiety problem left house work morning already feel pretty bad ended putting fake practiced customer service face made work day got home got worse went pay couple bills first thing see paying bills credit card drawn couple hundred dollars make payment card bill actually going pay im completely money got paid paid two weeks town work trip pay day without direct deposit im completely broke bills due next pay check next pay check late credit card blessing curse reason im mountain credit card debt bad place needed use place live food im glad needed impossible know im going survive next two weeks im lowest point ive long time know everyone money issues one wants hear mine take much long ive crippling debt decade now every time start something comes ill start getting bills bit car dies oh goes another couple thousand family member dies inheritance make huge payment towards getting debt oh car dies money got goes buying replacement money problem one thats likely break camels back today first time saw poster stunned tranquility beauty city istanbul haunting mind sincebr br much dialogue much music whole film shot elaborately aesthetically sculpture landscapebr br actually lot things going film director deliberately omitted dramatic parts leave imagination thus creating really flat life mild spoilerone see mahmuts ladylove crying toilet going without word fight one see mahmut accompanying mother hospital struggle illness dramatic scene film yusuf laughing loud toy soldier bought niece thats almost broke heart see boring lonely life bursting waybr br trivialities life weeded story presents us pure inner world characters sadness anxiety loneliness regretsand story unfolded sort finally grasped desperate situation emotions really way outer things intervened exactly every loner tries keep cost especially irresponsible artist mahmutbr br ive finished second watching last night crouched quilt vodka beside bed went whole film trance felt two real lives going one outside screen one inside screen felt free loneliness anxiety cause people inside experiencing removed thingsbr br deny universal problem communication loneliness even puts us far towards becomes vicious spiral bet mahmut still figure way living end thats stepped room try find answers outer world coldness landscape im alive yet redflag still mindi know replied previous post hated commit hate im still alive know really wanted people believe dead im alive much obvious still cant stop thinking killing want someone love somebody hold know reason kills know possible want hang bad im still terrified last time feel weak feel uselessi feel nobody likes ive never felt suicidal several months idk whats happened service dog still feel point life future worse go therapy therapist vacation going vacation wont therapy long time want vent real life rainbow brite star stealer opinion excellent masterpiece felt warm tingly rainbow brite voice bettina krys voice david mendenhall set revenge princess voice rhonad aldrich ask princess absolutely bitchy diabolical deserved rainbow brite krys seek revenge liked castle well rest setting addition thought lurky voiec pat fraley murky voiec peter cullen diabolical wrap id say everyone perfectly cast direction flawless disney scored big hit conclusion highly recommend excellent masterpiece everyone seen especially diehard fans tv series guarantee enjoy im still aliveim going kill week maybe tomorrow im fed everything sleepless nights everybody care never tbh kill ages ago idk done im unwanted worthless feel hopeless feel dead inside numb tried everybody reach toxic cruel mean negative horny im going end may anyways already cant least week without self harming trying commit redflag suicidal thoughts everyday even dream commitment redflag even attempt redflag times im still alive mistake world everything im better dead whenever people ask feel genuinely share feel need box ship somewhere fault mind goes bridge crossing significant life thinks always secret way keep guilting lol feel much shame guilt hard away drink daily fucked life never finished college high school stranded bar industry make enough money secretly feed problem prevents saving son makes issues worse sneak couple needed chest living lie anyone besides year old think best vent hate routine people sub joke youre patheticlike seriously telling life going better saying therapy even know im going u fucking dont suggest people start shutting fuck im going start getting real nasty shove hotline ass go light fire seriously fuck movie entertainment imagine friends love spending time ones know inside becoming bit silly perhaps taking character two thats film inventive script brilliantly performed pleasing masses one fun bunch brilliantly talented people im sure thought signed br br review sounds completely unfair think person wrote wrong frame mind watched film lighthearted moment great dignity care lookbr br job well done thought great film id watch north american norm daybr br nutshell best film going see hell lot moments laughed long age know much longer go without actually haha want okay know amazing life right much pain aparently everything better eventually really hard see far future right now really hope gets better literally every day come close killing already took excedrin pms last hoursreddit need help every time depressed start taking sleeping pills point forget many ive taken pass forced bed first time hours im worried im going absentmindedly take many end either dead coma mean estimate well im attention advice want someone talk preferably someone experience sleeping pills update pm est taken amand put bottle eyesight tempted take anymore im still pretty shaky im finding ways distract art class hours boss gave day tomorrow help relax sleep naturally bit want say thank everyone replied really helped lot may update later things bf go well pm people said okay thanks guys nd update okay pm feeling much better emotionally really physically ill dizziness nausea loss direction unable make coherent conversation fine thanks everyone positive attitudes really helped dumped pills going try sleep tonight guys awesome goes around comes aroundhard express even computer screen used everyone hard trust anyone love anyone cant move forward anymore past still haunts sexual physical abuse family members bullied school kid im first nation male finished high school gave either hunger failure every subject took guess thats life sucks please dont itdo anything kill drugs therapy excersize least something help change perspective give spark motivation way anyway people overcome redflag faith motivation believe anyway advice every day believe unknown movie isit absolutely incredible ending alone stuck almost thirty years road sign rearveiw mirror blew away liked race devil love movie fuck facing problems imma stand watching everythin crumple around want start good conversation crush need tips interact crush general want keep conversation going want enjoyable us thanks advance ive gay lately im bisexual im think im turning full gay girls interest anymore used love looking pictures pretty women im ok unfollowed many girls used turn instagram dont feelings towards anymore im looking pics im even follow hand ive perplexed emotions much want bf used thinking suicide mid mid year horrible days returning home sit behind door mental breakdown crying sleep thinking suicide past months gotten better strayed away people hurt tried abide parents time prevent yelled still mental breakdowns think suicide really think option nowadays fear one day worse worse never heal hope never happens whomever reading things change better whomever reading love precious beautiful deserve world whomever reading please hurt please something good life shit dog eats dog world nobody cared nobody carei tools disappear im sad lonely nobody understand feeling except look bright side things bullsht feel cant talk anyone friends everybody happy right bother say mentioned suicidal things one answer sad smiley horse poop life purposes problem solve frankly dont motivation feel stupid wortheless im hipersensitive wan na cry almost time situation work shit relationship mother exists dont partner dont want want one im looking anything anyone dont wan na ruin one life nonsense dont fear afterlife fear pain succesfull attempt cause trouble dont want point im glad minimised stuff im gone dont pack crp hoarded years thought easier less sense good every time throw give someone something feel less connected current place wish disappear items happening friends disappearing f fuck youfuck yoy fuck whats point anymore soo bored bored lying bed pondering life ive never actually stressed yeah ive stressed bother right now less week decide next years classes idea whats going math essay really dont know finish keep grades c parents dont mad lot stress almost every night finally able go sleep around laying thinking whats gon na happen dont stuff done sucks ton wake go school im able see friends minutes lunch doesnt help either probably dont even bad compared kids sucks stressed specific memories things never happened time theyre delightful even make playlists make vivid arent recent probably mid late s child im still sure never happened guys hate english teacher wants summerize something already perfectly concise basically got ta research find words make smaller stupid rd time th know asking know know think reply seen posts comments tell criticism always appreciated lt wan na move wan na left behind wan na lead generation trains leave station wan na move wan na left behind dissociationi every number blocked contacts besides mom mangers girl think love hasnt texted back week social medias people touch via email soundcloud need want something realized people call friends dont really return favor comes listening trying help feels everyone thinks im joke always give basic response nothing say really help help im done talking everyone older brother havent spoke seen years makes high school friend think wont anyone relate psychotic called best friend suicidal know shell trust lived best friend almost years complicated relationship romantic times others one thing sure care lot battling depression essentially whole life mostly due things happened childhood much control recently though difficult events made enduring pain day day lot unbearable day work getting text messages really scary talking able anymore wanting way pain think ive affriad someone must called times minute none calls picked think verify safety accross town answer calls panicked first thing think keep safe apartment fast enough maybe emergency services dialled called cab home cried got walked door two police officers standing next chat one said friend agreed go voluntarily hospital honest hospital staff told seriously worried let leave father picked important story understand friend traumatic experiences police past situations anything wrong knew feel guilty panniced stop think feeling end needed safe friend feels betrayed says really knew left alone knew calling make everything worse feel known better way help feel incredibly guilty says hate never trust wanting go behind back seemed insignificant face potentially loosing feels worst thing ive done youre cool funny imitate languages ok first im super offended triggered try imitate mock indian people sounds funny accent silly whatever school last year goddamned annoying hear people say beta e pronounced emma every fucking sentence indian accent popular kids thought funniest thing entire world dont hear indian people saying beta every sentence think part fact drip report released light sketchers song might heard hilarious watch people blasting mundian bach ke full volume hallways thinking coolest people entire world idk maybe problem school general youd think people wouldve matured enough th grade something hell anyways say somewhere cringe little internally hear someone bragging theyve memorized lyrics indian song theyre sputtering gibberish goodnight edit im indian born united states shouldve put start anybody weird halfcrush fictional character need seek media involving waifu cant escape look instantly think yeah look girl look mirror realise sad reality given dylan thomas icon modern anglophone poetry expected movie prone hagiography subject contrary poet presented sexually irresponsible drunkard bad father lier hypocrite perhaps coward course one argue things advantage one artist especially poet one purposes art subvert standards conventional morality still thing notredflag role model crop bundle personality traits way found male hero story captain cillic endearing character two female roles played actresses knigtley miller truly charming especially first performed songs slim outfit inspire bombarded londoners ww another good point role sexual jealousy plays even relatively progressive milieus think ageold conventions easily surpassedthe atmosphere blitz convincing well portrayal distinct outlooks among people experienced war opposed talk theorizing possible political outcomesi think one recommend movie bruh weird want tank imagine fun drive around anyone wan na chat im bored kinda wan na talk someone sleep maybe tomorrow dunno yet comment dm wan na six degrees hooked looked forward coming totally disappointed men trees replaced time spot thought hiatus back early happened friends really surprised ended relate characters real problems talked episode favorite characters anybody show felt acting superb alway seeing programs taped cities identify local areas one protest canceling show ask bring back give another chance give good time slot keep moving day day advertise people know sub covid memes anyone wants post memes covid without severe limitations pls join rcovidmemesarchive basically covid shitpost central im scared ifwhen boyfriend breaks kill myselfso boyfriend together almost four months amazing helped lot reason im still unsure everything im scared feelings girl met week ago talking problems idea even talkin breaking said tries fix everything still meet talk feel avoiding hate wondering wrong im scared alone severe anxiety attacks time now breaks dont anyone likely kill trapped broken scared means world helped many problems feel im first priority doesnt care anymore sorry rant understand critics bash movie teen movie thats actually serious rarity ill admit moments hugely sappy cmon young love got ta sappy valid biggest complaint chris klein funny american pie apparently ready switch dramatic fare yet hes uncomfortable looking mama stuff hartnett sobieski hand demonstrate remarkable amount depth believability parents although script heavily cliched lovers spouting poetry actors make work directing sports powerful images screen beautiful cinematography nice music great young actors impressed im jaded critic comes teen movies given soft drink days difficult first barely want anymore suggest anyone thinking giving try numb painbut never go away gon na go new year bang take care kinda dont wan na alive anymorei undiagnosed mental illness im pretty sure borderline maybe stuff anxiety childhood trauma yknow cant afford therapist im petrified death idea killing makes really nervous fucking suicidal breakdowns every days literally anything set cut hit slam head wall cry hours sucks one talk mh boyfriend says talk says im sorry whoch fine hes therapist goddamn hurts im really hard time right close committing redflag person say im sorry yea isnt good way respond every single time im upset way always im sorry goddamn hurt want stay alive sake siblings boyfriend dog hate alive much stressed im basically parent siblings continue semester college home im suicidal every days pressure already getting hell school without extra stressors huge freakouts per week im drastically scary im becoming violent im scared ill god sure know want alive anymore people say listen dont even anything say im fucking scared im abusive guilt trippy im scared everyone going leave cant afford therapy im scared im gon na hospitalized redflag hotline fucking blows last time tried use told lady wrong wow sucks yea know really sucks absolutely help therapy awful went shitty therapist told nothing wrong even though self harm suicidal intense reactions minor things severe rejection sensitivity yea god want dead bad im scared kill basically im depressed day recommending songs swae lee thrusting httpsyoutubevqhkcjogia join discord server got discord server couple people teens pm want invite link must say impressed cinematography amazing frames close perfection way built tension around subject sound dreadful bore beyond bebr br film two narrators one seen one unseen trying explain significant series painting caused scandal long time back film theories explanations views conclusion quite shocking must say definitely film deserves votesbr br minutes play plot film still felt complete work fantastic direction must say far better blood poet strange reason remind bit br br suppose call slang word artsy pretty much lot professional talk various theories stunning visual effects crew ruiz pull least amazing film hatelovedont care israel zionists serious discussion please write meaningful civilised comments israel love country serve military dont want killdeport palestinians know many people around world wish dead right comments gal gadots recent comments choke fall stairs die done wrong please dont use actions one man justify hate problem lack loveweve heard therapist go professional thing least know therapists psychiatrists etc supposed help us whatever making us feel bad guys lets honest times professional drug therapy solve problem origin comes lack love caring tenderness yes love frustrating many people see supposed help feel better whats supposed help overcome pretty dark moments work find horrible professionals honest pacients keep talking shit keep prescribing drugs keep promising bright future never comes etc never say hey im sorry cant help theres nothing fullfill empty space got honest tell truth opportunity pay expensive holidays want exist find cant help problem im going tell need hear therapy professional kind drug kind replace need never thing love may hard hear know truth need know start talking shit theres someone waiting youll find person promise shit professionals thats say bf wants febi know im meeting first time ldr late january hes rough want lose want faith okay finally actual good therapist psychiatrist stay together weeks feel breakdown go im afraid want help love much choccy milk ampxb httpspreviewredditkcrtvijnjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsfdaeedcafcaaabc introduction flawless august hey hey new month want introduce new event nonutnovember fingerfreefebruary flawless august know name nearly sound good two come anyways idea came german streameryoutuber named taddl btw link end post idea flawless august nothing really groundbreaking revolutionary still wan na share soooo idea things goodbad entire month maybe even longer pay attention correct course recommend things bad things good idea isnt try things know motivation anyways know pretty damn well lazy work consistently easier things things maybe think drink much cola something consider drink cola end choose push limits beyond make supersaiyajinseptember little example flawles august watch porn go twitter practice french duolingo everyday write diary least week practice playing piano guitar least every two days decide participate flawless august happy write list comments taddls video german httpsyoutubehppbxsmobmhttpsyoutubehppbxsmobm makes nice day finalim drinking final drink right hot chocolate bit hot burning throat little thats okay need worry soon soon ill saying final goodbye bye older brother bye cat guess feel guilty leaving preoccupation death stronger final walk train tracks ill wait theres chance train come delay day mind come back tomorrow need final breath ill relish moment feel pain million pounds steel roll ill dead final glimpse world final heartbeat final moment worry anything writing actually kind calmed im going go kill now im still posting saw ronnie nancy show first time austrian television time already big fan spitting image bronze rose montreux film festival course recorded every show tape watched especially ronnie nancy show remember scene ronnie stood front painting abraham lincoln thinking mirror said need shave amusing played ball dog viceversabr br shame spitting image seems fall oblivion one fantastic intelligent made tvshows compared satirical broadcasts definitely best br br well almost years passed wish see show possible purchase someone somewhere fantastic whodunit early prototype soon became popular film genre happy see william powell handling detective story charisma charm without silly attitude nick charles character thin man series story good think really makes movie fun watch michael curtiz fantastically imaginative direction visual point view richly textured movie curtiz showing incredible command medium split screen images weird camera angles imaginative flashbacks curtiz demonstrates one best hollywood directors highly recommended fan type movie wholesome award dark post funny reached peak comedy putting wholesome award dark post hope become world famous comedian make everyone laugh right now ok real honestly annoying even funny even dark meme annoying see find funny wholesome award post something serious someone lost friend redflag yes happen thats crossed line extremely disrespectful jistt dick move thank heres random pic mad tanjiro herehttpsipinimgcomoriginalsffeeceedefdgif whos carson everyone talking happened going really hard time lately need ventive struggled alcoholism depression poverty quite bit past quite bit present certain point blacking friends acquaintances couches place place basically homeless basically wandering aimlessly stopped counting exact days ive sober ago years ive trouble finding aa meetings area closest area ive found reddit applies problems people whove dealt similar things ive dealt mostly became sober pure necessity even really hard big motivator used member radical cult recruited bottom luck saw horrible things treated horribly people managed treated much worse managed escape easy time got job apartment even gone apartment likely long welder recently laid due cuts make reason even utilities landlord understanding really tolerated beyond grateful towards right now really even food quite literally food money food feel incredibly weak numb mostly ive drunk water hungry quite bit last time low least liquor better nothing really friends lost quite friends feel suicidal much feel tired hungry urge drink badly months least maybe id distraction mostly vent id someone talk well hi everyone honestly trying anything point therapy nearly decade anti depressants psychedelic therapy etc seem reconcile emotional sect brain logic part brain reason issues emotional sect overreacts melodramatic always overwrite warps logic rationalization battling selfish wish stick around self help genuinely feel terrible hurt point shaken faith particular incidents miserable years battling depression tonight feels losing night suppose need rant fair require somebody stick around misery ow amusement particularly poor night want end life feel extremely alone cant stop thinking girl making mistakes herim lot things going help dwell past experience bullying even loved ones feel alone make constant mistakes find alone bedroom end every night thoughts alone well girl im love gettiong fucked someone im afrid forward know im victim divorcewell looks im ruled doesnt matter ill dead make broke take kids friendand better absolutely everything ive struggled depression second grade know reality see reality looks even grimmer whats head long story short anything already accomplished done twenty times better used valedictorian came alongand shoved middle class elected secretary position student organization suddenly presidential position took jobs even let anything everyone constantly fawning much look disdain say worthless slug ass help tried make nhs year one friends without form filled edges activities merit mine halffull filled two im journalist model un vice president even upset bossy whiny spoiled bitch upset everyone actually logical view instead adoring blindly puberty done well gotten point im done im well aware im failure reason world sees fit rub face im done living hope career plausible future one even notice show school one day doubt theyd even remember existed long enough come funeral im sick invisible last choice useless hated im sick living person miss boyfriend even forget time meor idk sign life worry watch feel nothing anymore travelling days reason sitting bampb middle nowhere alone absolutely noone feel anything anymore nobody cared realised left come today please end suffering suicidal please someone explain want end lifeplease clonazepamif took enough clonazepam kill half bottle mg thanks final birthdaymy st birthday coming weeks family going city next day presents excellent opportunity wanted come madeup work related excuse stay decade suffered depression ive kept hidden everyone planned way years ago go pain cause loved ones especially mom depression gone worse ill take step even enjoy playing video games anymore passionate hobby childhood bought equipment needed go painless way feel relieved ill finally saved pointless miserable existence ps throwaway account real account tied loved someone much leave hurts made many friends school lockdown came know many real turns love one best friend knows deepest secrets got selected different universities hurts wont able see face everyday hugged everyday feel pissing teen years away ive never party never hugged kissed girl real life people terrify feels im stuck trapped best thing one say film traffic brought attention superior british miniseries traffik many people noted current film suffers truncating story accommodate short attention span cinemagoers turnaround time theater owners measure films success overpriced food salesbr br first recorded mini series shown public tv watched many times whole documentarystyle series strong element tragedy doom characters moving toward eventual fate strongest three tales pakistani family forced city find way keep body soul together poppy crop burned army staged show force put benefit western politicians hardships family similar rickshaw pullers family city joy eventually farmer finds work compromises pride honestybr br pakistani segment film particular relevance today fight supporters al quaeda gives understanding support movements among disadvantaged poor pakistan afghanistan rarely receive money going countries film makes point farmers see barely aid supposed encourage grow cropsbr br american inability see anything terms black white good guys v bad guys interesting see another view black white shades grey br br possible spoiler ahead problem story rather things continuing real life work fiction wrap bad guys getting coming fine piece work kind see rarely cast outstanding german pakistani locations helped give film different feel change made seeing germans something villains wwii film long take anyone noticeim ive suicidal year im much worse year ago one noticed said anything im really anxious say anything outright really obvious im ive felt suicidal got worse ive never form help one said anything meant others ive seen happen matter might well kill never worry anything baseketball indeed really funny movie david zucker manages make us laugh heads really silly many times smart comedybr br creators south park main actors film play good surprisingly good actually first time see actors movie oftenly reminded south park one fav showsbr br really good funny film miss itbr br vote one thinks dating stupid put much time effort every day lmao calling lonely argument never gets better becomes manageable time maybe always keep deal lows nobody fucking understands painful absolutely miserable feel literally ripping skin screaming guts yesterday mental breakdown shaved entire head hair cringe every time see bald head mirror want punch reflection feel ugly bitch angry every day become insufferable drive people away intense resting bitch face look pissed time now know damn angry unhappiness sadness turned anger rage years sorry everyone rude angry towards work hurts much promise sorry boss please fire even though actually want want angry tho know wrong know making miserable sorry energy put smile friendly agreeable anymore know putting around someone heavy aura radiating much toxic energyim sorry every day leave work feeling shit even know friends support system sick sick coming home apartment nobody nothing come home work speak words loud next day nobody talk wish intrusive thoughts stop ugly getting older look never beautiful begin care nobody cares end point tomorrow today always always hot hell know much worse hell dragging day suffering emotional psychological pain becomes physical feels worst torture imaginable gets worse worse worse im scared ocd back go awayi depression anxiety already makes suicidal thoughts used ocd well stopped getting obsessions year ago today im starting show traits different intrusive thoughts know whos thinking cant help still feel im awful person know panicking help want ocd im terrified feel trapped quick question criticize wearing mask mask keeps things getting getting youre afraid spreading wear two masks outer one inside doesnt work way wont work way cause logic ending soonsuicidal thoughts new ive almost done twice feel ive living borrowed time forever tonight im going put end forever nowhere turn recently lost job working home live house shitty internet landlord done anything fix led many problems eventually decided renew contract feel big deal time theyre pretty big company figured another job pretty quickly couple months gone nothing cant even retailrestaurantfast food job lot places mode transportation city ive tried looking similar jobs work remotely far ive bunch people lie lead blow smoke ass welcome real world guess ive overdrawn bank accounts car aroundget another job feel leech society im burden everyone know im fuckup life relieved got rid tried crowdfunding project lastditch attempt something going feet ground one gives shit im stuck financial hell cant move back home parasite world better without im ready stop delaying inevitable end tips losing weight hello rteenagers ive trying lose weight dont know tips losing weight im gon na black sleep fuck life sucks want overi actually hate living hate reincarnate person friends loving family future okay living dont person things cant imagine wake talk people go downstairs able smile someone look forward new day feeling ive outcast child people still treat today im fucking tired im tired person everyone ignores person everyone talks person one cares fucking awful im tired dad really knows ruin everyones day woke morning shirtless way garage cut hair buzz cut cut getting lil longer id walk garage room greet im going garage goes put shirt cold said ok im cutting hair tf wears shirt theyre cutting hair gets itchy saying disrespectful rebuttal walk away go shirt step mom arguing morning ruined theyre pissed im confused south east asia rn im sitting phone hand typing got college know deserved know ill successful ill fail feel way told feel feel suicidal ive life u may look say happy childhood ive known nothing physical abuse stopped cause parents cant actually hurt mean im beat shit grade abuse lifted ive less violent memories feel shit time worthless hidden scared feel one single leaf bouquet beautiful flowers im bi anyone know id tortured raped arrested police help torture may say free speech lets say im convinced hunt people know walking road maybe ill skip end road one childhood friend zero friends general mother believe mental health thing cant tell bed cant tell im angry waking life expectancy farther years old im stuck shit hole bad bad feel crying time ive become devoid emotions cant even cry want feel im going insane mom dad fight every day day make angry makes want repay physical abuse makes want hurt shut one thing loves unconditionally thats pet bird remember last time mother father hugged said love unconditionally remember last time one really hurts much seeing posts saying got girlfriendboyfriend said yes hate imperfect born world cant love boy girl cant girlfriend boyfriend theyll kill id one bastard sinner right moment im im buying fire arm blowing brains away mom know meanings hateful words said father dead naturally hes old brother well hell love mother share us ive searched god ive seen nothing witnessed love beauty books calls people sinners devils wants people dead detest god life gave detest everything hurts stay alive pointless now call whatever want matter want ground open swallow mei dont want deal pain heartbreak cant deal ruined dont want pointless donesnt fucking matterwant anywhere world fucking pointless mom took playstation away took virginity whos laughing bitch dad fulfilled peak dadness today today marching band rehearsal stadium put sousaphone away texted dad didnt know called went found us stuff band went back car goes phone find message sent guess hadnt looked deadass types car sitting right next maximum dad moment tbh lets stay dorm room courage kill myselfyep im piece shit guys theres denying now im bad nasty disgusting worthless person im likable anyone likes ruin lives dont give shit others feelings toxic disgusting thing hurt whoever im around need stay completely alone classes lets wait til slash wrists basically itbeen diagnosed borderline personality disorder told wait therapy waiting months apparently six sessions tried kill overdose two weeks ago got scammed dumb life choices quit job early redflag attempt going start another job th march know im ready money rent council tax honestly feel jumping bridge methods try home want something permanent know live north east england uk hey touch screen iphone broke anyone know way still use phone merry christmas movie really proves world often unfair place especially world motion pictures assignment received barely attention upon release surprisingly flopped boxoffice history written movie surely receive long lost praisebr br thank god im surrounded friends knows whats good movie buff pal highly recommended assignment 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start new life nationality got cheated many times girls nowadays dont want loyal guys go rich ones really gave everything nothing works wan na sleep rest peace im really craving boyfriend rn want one boyfriend shit silly wrestling n fighting n fun routines basically peacefully coexisting im rush cause im chillin mans find one day ready light fun boy walk life make laugh kinda cold n dominant lil give free drugs maybe im mentally boyfriend ooh boy wan na puke hate writing boys suck im feel ive lived much done much im ready goits kind melancholy type thought dad said told tired burden world ready pass happen kind feel way want control destiny sometimes feel ive got whythe thing keeping earth right nephew granddaddy know killed self hurt let bad die yet need hugi gon na cry even born questiondoes anyone rant snapchat stories pretty much friends talk feel shit wow really liked movie william h macy great quiet hitman alexbr br performances really good plot interesting entertainingbr br alex married hitman fatherwith little son going middle age crisis wants quit family business goes psychiatrist help place meets young free spirit sarah falls love one day alex know gets job kill person knows br br recommend watch mature interesting moviesbr br stars good got pc among us hit apollo discord first saw movie papua new guinea remembered although never seen first timebr br easily good peoples lives destroyed pure evil existed still memory haunt foreverbr br movie funny immensely sad time role played anthony quinn superbbr br movie college studies mans inhumanity man weird place life girl really good friends might might domt want ruin help southerners snow amusing watching guys complain inch two snow sincerely canadian tell things wish someone tell youi always see posts reddit similar ones always tell people things wish someone said tell things wish someone said still find love social anxiety social anxiety feel girls dont dudes social anxiety f m ive never called texted girl weve exchanged numbers said hi school go asked number days ago added snapchat via contacts surprise added back interestingly consistently views stories snapchat reposts videos tiktok mainly food comedy musiclipsyncing occasionally politics never unfriended anything still friends first time six months anything fired target never told boyfriend anything every check instagram two different boyfriends recall one current boyfriend boyfriend girl im feeling women older men even younger boyfriend tend mature secure professional kinglike monarchic girl really post anything snapchat views story every time make post btw im semitrump supporter post hilarious musical stuff appeal trump supporters girl cute mexican girl mixing european used ig stories website view story early june regards george floyd breonna taylor stuff going put story saying black lives matter performative activism much stupid idea staying silent injustice boyfriend east asian tell middle eastern armenian kind guy funny thing two tiktok accounts one always keep away snapchat instagram friends family account petitioned hispanic women marry white arab armenian men black asian men stick got hella likes comments thanks page promoting girl might idk theres girl classes ive known years mostly acquaintances may got clue heres list stuff shes said upon hearing arent mentor group school club awwww breaking heart history class another girl wait outside dont want go first class want go first says go first ill love good drive club group group leaves yells hi name asks answers lot stuff one classes talks good amount class sit near even though lot friends near teases sometimes seems minor stuff sounds bit weird wording kind weird idk picture walked away kinds ocars best director john ford actor victor mclaglen music max seiner victor mclaglengypo nolan call marines gave outstanding performance irish rebel belonged rough tough crowd fighting cause time getting poorer poorer plenty drinking gypo nolan made bad mistake decided become informer best friend order take trip gal america new way living preston foster don gallagherguadalcanal diary gave great supporting role leader irish rebellion anxious capture informer group gypo nolan becomes haunted betrayal friend begins feel judas great film wonderful acting mclaglen rather depressing every aspect film much people shoes size bigger mean bigger shoes normal means toe room make toes suffer grown one want read note im leaving herehi redditors long time lurker time make first last post feel leave words significance disappear vacuum anyway probably lived decades longer people kill posting unfortunate lived long years majority years quite happy honest circumstances proven best years behind rather live miserable knowledge life downhill decided make one last short uphill brief sweet much money saved someone stole lifes savings enough go s america spend rest cash hookers blow exact method yet determined suggestions welcome painless quick better probably able firearm unless steal one suppose may well try good luck maximum happiness everyone coming someone older supposedly wiser young still time bet unfuck life still days lefti know missed th one im tired im waiting everything end better dying alonethe happiest way live alone everyone love die people spend time loved ones thinking far enough future theyre together happy personally think one day im going notice cant jump high used cant walk far used theyre starting forget important things often grey hair wrinkles face cloudiness eyes every phone call theyre away one lets know terrible accident every hour past time supposed home day make home pet dies sure new one outlive new spouse one going first best friends theyll replace someone things want love makes people stronger erode point loving anything sure hurt end anyone barely hanging time im clinging memories better times constantly thing keeping going ive developed extremely strong bonds inanimate things car tv characters take place massive whole joy missing life idk fear im going breakdown front someone soon gon na come make worse give strength keep dig growing whole push holy shit schools care fuking hood look soo hot hood tell take im ugly see hair im trying grow pt gon na stick needle foot please noonnojono im scared gon na go second pls distract plass th birthday todayyy leave nnani theres reason live life severely socially anxioushumans social animals need socialize need friends relationships im friends really care ive never relationship completely wasted away teen years zero memories scared anything completely useless skipped life experiences fucked genetically enough im trans fantastic transitioning totally doable process cant even fucking buy groceries without almost dying cant profesional help thats social interaction difficult one even want better even enjoy living sleep cut watch youtube ocassionally drink im studying fucking hate im horrible fucked future career fuck dug hole theres way every saturday morning watched superstars biggest events happened show time challenge aired sunday mornings decent big stuff happened show wrestlers interviews mean gene platform next live crowd talk screen front background promoted matches usually squashes sometimes see mid carders square main event interview shows usually resulted violence thus setting feud segments ranged pipers pit body shop flower shop snake pit brother love show funeral parlor barber shop recall titles changing hands show usually happened pay per views saturday nights main event friend said scared babygirl wtfffff im wtf means wants secks kidding actually happened ago day still dont fucking know means wants start femboy empire basically conquer bunch territories everyone territories become femboys prosecuted brainwashed becoming femboy moral reasons joke small rant ok im extremely annoyedpissed grandma went stairs pretty quickly got bottom slipped fell instead nice asking ok instead goes dont slip mopped floors already fell told fell says well shouldnt went flying stairs without hint care kicker didnt know mopped fucking floor feel alonei friends livingi boyfriend complicated talking things family live states away suicidal thoughts something cope hearing ive attempted redflag almost two years ago hallucinating essentially saved life unfortunately angry woke hospital stop crying really want live honest really anything stopping iti think im someone worth missingi feel attached anythingi feel empty hobbies interestsi energy motivation waste oxygen typing now go bother writing know wish interest life im sorry im sure feel genuinely feel sad first time forever think genuinely loved girl hate taking granted wish never bruh wish wasnt fucked head im lonely sad depressed idk kinda wan na go know im done whatever put idk man feel something wanting diei never wanted die right now dont wan alive whats worst rejected crush lying basically moths back told crush liked said liked back ice cream together decided tell told liked one liked pity worse rejected hope helpsif feeling hopeless feel worthless ways ive gotten past live country plenty room garden highly recommend feel bad go hoe weeds pick rocks quite bit ive able sell local farmers market obviously full garden work everyone pepper plant something small take care highly recommend hot pepper plant takes lot care worth add spice cooking coloring painting drawing im good drawer trace others help learn cooking baking great way help express small pet taking care something help take mind things bit talk someone feel ive found writing feel leaving someplace allows distance awhile think say truly hope help ive struggling depression suicidal thoughts year ive found helped im always need talk help remember makes happy even really good moments really good days lately know remember hate feeling everythings reach remember things made happy hurtthis girl told likes best friend shit brought back lot pain past im suicidal dont know imagine first time filmed somebody saw tryna fuck first time id wan na die life getting better im suicidal updatei explained different post got deleted ill skim short make december started dating girlfriend love lot already joke marriage mutual neglect parents made us love lot attracted fast december th contemplated redflag point loaded gun head told girlfriend best friend friend groups goodbye february th bday parents heated argument moms lack ability sleep due insomnia dad forced sleep familys store february th parents tell getting divorce im scared know legal battle messy sister points ive shown except first one decided kill february th really dont want really dont love girlfriend much live free away parents cant know say enjoy show expected something completely different first saw expected find something along lines sure going anymore say show classify breakthrough show charming chemistry characters well including supporting castbr br definitely say great see wesley jonathan back screen really loved city guy seen woman plays valeries friend popular think okay show really character show cup tea rounds pretty well stop making redflag youim sorry rant really reading post guy acquaintance die redflag hes feeling overwhelmed anxious know terrible thing bothers comment section ohh sorry cant imagine going fucking serious human died hes thinking fucking self god damn reaffirms wanting die people dont care want stop killing dont care pain youre dont want feel bad death one wants feel bad death stay alive suffer endlessly gosh poor dude killed really dont want imagine type pain suffering went head death brought peace life may eternal peace fucking selfish everything crush lol fellas approach girl interested texting quarantine chance sorta move got text introduce without awkward andor getting friend zoned lol really hurtful memory mom back going lot shit really want explain everything going much although backstory needed right answer ill give little everything happening time escape goat family made feel horrible point ended carving branding monster course happened years ago really depressed happened opened suicidal family handed knife said oh waiting day ive wanted question soo long im scared probably gon na always mention past act never happend live sunshine rainbows mean narcissistic yeah shell flip shit try say im accusing shit never happend anyone wondering bad mom fucked childhood going lot hate tries really hard keep roof head anything family causes much stress pain life turns around works hard us im mental conflict one hand want hate hand works hard us feels unfair selfish im getting topic back saying originally im wondering question want feel cause harm anything know please someone help decide spirit classic sting movie hits truly hurts heart prim proper female psychiatrist hungry adventure meets dirtiest rottenest scoundrals vulnerable doctor falls career badman begs involved operation movie moves kind slow climax ending stunning especially enjoy doctor forgives u c eim alone tomorrow morning doesnt anybody love think im irritating cant function anymore hate think soon feel protesting education system wants join cute oversized tshirt even bunny pain gonei make new scars carry shit rest life might well make short trip right sure everyone sad angry pain due time inderstand fact found peace anybodys fault mine kept quiet late make people worry know ill finally decide noose tied need find good place rewrite note less seconds lifes troubles flow away minutes life follow sleep ones fear truly hurt parents child sorry destroyed worked hard create made sure smiles laughes around worry idea dying inside mom dad know think depression feeling solved manning getting simple never tell may blame friends family im sorry hope effected stopped talking wanted make soft blow possible never cut know want help know shit deal end loved see soon m love matter time fuck everybodyive posted many times nobody says anything thats fine add list ive struggled years thought better long series ups downs im still fucking back feeling set deadline gone turned turn today nothings changed shouldnt given chance therapists ive either dont understand basically venting never enough time crisis text lines try help moment say understand dont theyre talking strangers theyve volunteered every time close eyes think jumping highest parking ramp know knife held heart land itll go straight want increase chances success much possible fall head trauma doesnt stabbing will im going fail theres way im going keep going hate everything much cant really condemn movie work enough film noir elements consider noir movie think categorybr br theres nothing sinister piece thats noir elements fail sure disease might considered sinister hard time seeing movie hints darker side blackie may trafficking human beings new orleans police willing arrest reporter specter plague hangs people movie really hintsbr br theres attempt made question reeds motivations one marlowe spade attempt bring humans side blackie make even contemptuous human trafficking actually played outbr br lack depth fails movie endbr br story decent acting good writing direction well done nothing make movie return worth watching maybe twice remember years ago putting away plan next yearim year old guy live withy parents need fuck im going save much money next months leave far away im going tell anyone probably end homeless probably kill anyways whatever work im going kill july th thats day dog died years ago hopefully works know probably wont ok film may oscars bad film original doa undoubtedly better film mean film badbr br film stars dennis quaid one early roles first becoming really famous right stuff made star lovely looking meg ryan still quite famousbr br update film rather remake setting different characters different plot pretty much man time english professor university texas austin poisoned hours find poisoned meg ryan plays young college student tries help jane kaczmarek plays quaids estranged wife low key intense performance steals every scene daniel stern early role home alone made famous plays quaids colleague charlotte rampling fine supporting rolebr br entire cast top notch film stylish quick pace keeps guessing end br br think film certainly worth watching thriller modern version classic film goodbye fellow teens taking action change person feel better friends loved ones aswell first step im taking cut negative stuff life unfortunately majority reddit one thoes things know ton hate definitely dont want part person good run soldiers hope every one good day night adios im tiredevery day fix whatever fix job kids lives supposed mine childhood supposed mine supposed suffer broken guilt feel brought world mom breaking back died tried kill teen feels mistake survived died got anyone involved fucking mess mistake lived dont know one nights yearn music nothing good enough feeling emotional trying embrace wanting bury emotions time im tired dont want sleep cant anything dont know dont really living cycle everyone goodbye feeling fraudim mental health nurse job basically stop people want kill selves make sure right support ive previous episodes depression required medication recent years ive always able deal dips mood got bad ive downward spiral months nothing working feel numb nothing outside work barely take care im sleeping lie awake end thinkingfantasising killing im stage think feel inevitably end try help honest feel probably referred team job positive rather die lose professional reputation want help everyone know answers feel trapped isnt way help without making everything worse im hate life even though really bad think redflag daily years stress buildingsorry long id preface saying im right edge think contemplate redflag every day im closer year two tell call hotline whatever urgent think need talk advice whatnot im serious call hotline first abused kid institutionalized think times redflag attempts diagnosed depressive disorder around around time entered foster care never got treatment antidepressants recently took whole bottle one day prescribed obviously ran gotten im bad scheduling doctors appointments anxiety clerk always feels patronizing feel think theres something wrong im retarded even though even know ive never diagnosed anything mental except depressive disorder serious physical disability hate calling thus put put tried weeks ago schedule appointment got busy signal times tried supposed go talk vitamin levels well antidepressant early may im month overdue makes want go back well im afraid ill scolded rightfully fucking stupid think antidepressant help bit living situation said im foster care never lived anywhere year im program pays apartment one roommate food cable transportation work dj work consistent working one night week enough make much weeks work attending college college summer college financial aid department fucked telling id keep financial aid even failed class called said id lost financial aid next semester means cant really go one big point stress anyway program houses people around age apartment complex two apartment took lease apartments needed roommate first move thus first lease expire theyve forced us move different apartment complex incredibly stressful settled much shit move dropped us suddenly first heard monday told wed move sometime week monday night came apartment told start moving well moved tonight manager place started bitching apparently supposed move roommate moved things afternoon supposed thursday though make sense getting mixed signals manager staff work nobody communicating us im new apartment right apparently im supposed even though nobody fucking told pm id already moved electronics bedding less everything except furniture pa speakers sleep schedule terrible virtually impossible fall asleep tomorrow ive got wake ppd shot finish moving unpack clean bitched manager goddamn lack communication skills relax really bad day ive far far worse days life soft life foster care made soft compared used abused even though peoples standards im still hard stoic confident tough whatnot im absolutely dreading tomorrow additionally im terrified theyre going make minimumwage job theres something possibly lyme may due extreme vitamin deficiency wrong bones cant handle physical stress every time past ive job pushed closer redflag every fucking day djing handle less prolonged stress one night week plus find extremely enjoyable less thing makes happy im looking substitute teacher local highschool next semester meet states requirements one handle desk job thats one really think may able im type roll defeated im dj im gogetter im sure come another way make money yet partially motivation completely died used early hop bike pin fliers advertising around town go random businesses ask use dj forget repost ad craigslist half fucking time much less actually go market physically plus even inconsistent gigs im still grossing money peers save least everything make whereas burn money object bank despite spending equipment working way sum using speakers lights got goddamn thrift shop even despite working nearly hours week every week relationship status another big problem cant girlfriend im hot project confidence even though tell im actually wreck im good always put facade living mom im creepy whatever ive girlfriendsfwbs highschool ive single months now killing selfesteem girlfriend less makes selfworth one two friends last girlfriend practically begged stay friends tried literally reason blue suddenly started ignoring completely still christmas tree loaned december impression lot sentimental value refused come months contact cut ive tried tinder chicks seem understand dating app ton matches good conversations time time soon actually ask completely stop responding think bitches using boost ego hell match talkflirt hours drop hints going date disappear moment actual date mentioned extremely limited social contact real life im young go bars college two social things know im fucking isolated ill never meet anyone need someone know absolute fact im much attractive average dude standards high go ugly fat chick want fucking die kind pathetic fucking worm attractive cant girlfriend im onpar disgusting slime rincels whatever must absolutely fucking worthless something literally used girls past girlfriends hot standards came classes whatnot think recent ex pretty much every night understand suddenly decided act exist obviously situations usually dude didsaid something creepy absolutely didnt last conversation id minutes late presentation together class took together semester broke presentation wound even late bullshit art rest semester whenever id talk shed seem awkward completely stopped responding texts absolutely nothing end things think may ex broke theyd together years abusive hadhas selfesteem issues rolled broke assured back together im sure broke sort mental issue started shortly got together ended months split less issue always extremely tired physically mentally problem demanding sex never remember things said remember fucking anything reason went sauve charming confident dude got hots blithering idiot probably thought gave fucks relationship said felt listening remember things tried explaining fluke weird thing never happened life im sure thought excuse anyway guess main thing idk either got girlfriend problem living work situation seem bad cant im fucking young go literally social spots miles chicks tinder ego boost rather actually go someone guess late ive got early noon probably tomorrow im gon na go sleep ill back tomorrow respond read stuff im killing tonight gaurenteed im heavily considering calling ex begging come back guess ill save another night end ropeim kids financial failure burden brother parents cant make good decision time try life straight end screwing im work leave surgery havent paid month wont paid middle january fail attempt relationships basically im unlovable useless im coward ive plan plan cant find courage family better without im chicken shit follow ok think agree pizza hut commercials trump pretty fire text today marks month broke one single day wake thinking incredibly sorry things went depression lack motivation ruined relationship light heart went lot support never got tired never things got progressively harder harder situation unbearable decided broke better miss miss fucking much love think stop loving worst part know loves used stand thought knowing hurt person love want past weeks incredibly taxing works shit feel miserable person used relax enjoy fault feel empty void slowly eating inside lights life consumed nothing darkness bittersweet taste know cope currently going therapy stopped drinking promised fall old habits hard want anything want want make happy make laugh one last timesorry anything wrongly written english main language miss much ampxbmy parents longer infallible role models thought deeply flawed apes know anything rest us fact role models anymorehuman notredflag mysterious wonderful fateful predictable chemical reactions broken science life exciting wonderful boring predictable horrendous disillusioned life boyfriend deals knowing im suicidalis normal boyfriend treats exist pick call years dating text first ask day answer wan na talk make effort see last year tried commit redflag one knows thankfully im okay physically mentally know fault cant help imagine way treats normal mentally stable girlfriend importantly girl full anxiety pain heal wrong act care ask teacher send video pls read sooooo live suriname sad poor country needed heart surgery done sad poor country im netherlands right now surgery weeks ago ill till november th back stay quarantine days ill miss presentation week week presentations lol everyone gets partner someone alone im lol alone class full people know missed begi school year ill miss st test week lmao literally week full tests subjects ill catch tests simultaneously getting ready second test week probably weeks go school fucked principal refused give books advance cant study anything anyway back english ask film presentation send worry catching test week missed preparing following test week th birthday today couldnt give less fuck strange seems every year birthdays becoming normal day plus dont really messages old friends etc find awkward dreading going college checking snapchat sound miserable cunt right im starting feel every year birthday birthdays aint special anymore ngl im super straight one im gon na make new sexuality dont believe stuff appreciate theyre trying say type rope works best hanginglooking something sturdy think may accidentally caused someone kill themselvesi weird think future day life better look back depressed useless cause sounds futuristic already part life happier feeling s shit goodbye gavinthis always favorite part day napping always ends one arms around head sunlight shinning blinds look peaceful pure beautiful truly love gavin reece heart left best friend soul mate im sorry every mistake ive made hope forgive way start im sorry stress arguments lies hurt unfaithful nothing second kissed stared eyes knew loved gavin thought love another person past week fall asleep ive staying crying burden embarrassment idk hope find someone pure gavin someone change worse make harder hope life gets simpler quiet hope pass license hope never remove name tattood leg least hope hatred new girlfriend love gavin reece stop loving please forget want kill myselfcan escape feeling dont want die want die im probably going die constantly thinking ending everythingi dream last night shot shotgun bf found turned around walked away grownup lonely thingi make many mistakes grownup anyone blame grownup fix mistakes grownup responsible everything crushing lonely confusing think making right choice wrong choice think right thing wrong thing spend days weeks months sometimes years working make life better family fail christmas worst theres nothing christmas make feel horrible parent tired alone yet keep going day day day keep waiting silver lining right im slogging endless sea gray dont think teenager moderators subreddit ok lets rational people one second bere ok bear im blow mind moderators supposed teenagers guess teenagers attend school ok might thinking penis multiple mods cover multiple time zones well im blow mind checked moderators list turns mods left despite expiration date passed mean internal conflict worse theory moderators nothing adults moderate feel comfortable groomers rise change world know joke really sad im alone girlfriend years dumped week anniversary back december still expressing lots feeling semimutual understanding arent ready relationship im truly sad alone great relationship think truly experienced love got ta taste crave want life pretty much friends girl least got bro boys hopefully game tonight unless watch anime play pc lol might play siege chug monsters anyways point guess whos single looking reddit memes genuinely h u inside ideas mind absolutely fucking single help raise awareness raise awareness redflag ive im saw one way ive faced head reached support want support people know hard ive set gofundme feel free message redflag awareness kake day points probably kake day overrated right anyway suffer wrath protektors true alphabet war wages sukkumb will join die th coming idea ask anyone suggestions m im pc gamer love big lego sets ideas idea started channel freshmen year high school center projects hopefully become electrical engineer welcome error electronics post reveals creations along tutorials much httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucekbzxifijqnlknxikq breaking pointim seriously close tipping fucking shattering everywhere cant much longer even know im going stop im afraid whatll happen break much reason obviously needed make choice forced situation go reason went inpatient treatment program cliff diving except theres water freeway bridge man sounds fun tired bright things people past gone long time ago make mistakes feel invisible feeling burden able feel love longer remember feel unrepairable physically emotionally hurts live moved different country start new life tiny things improved end defective meant anything years years proven thatampxbi want sleep yrs old tired failed attempts past dont care meeveryone always says ok whats wrong know dont care literally feel annoyance coming screen feel one person actually cares honestly want rid friends besides one person wish id loose wouldnt able take enough time friends feel ungrateful care still sad jesus sounds lame sorry whoever read crap im sorry ill stop typing life flashing eyesthese intrusive thoughts every memory ive random ones unimportant events keep flooding hurt much want anymore ive recorded mentally mind want anymore hate mentally ill hate emotional responses past feel childish got back back second unskippable ads youtube wtf youtube sat seconds ads suicidal dont want exist sometimesi cant one feels way sometimes wish start new life one knows fresh canvas see family see fit without picture somedays im grateful circumstances days really really bad days think cant live grid another land want alone sometimes days feel alone want people support arms reach conflicting feeling live new life keep close know silly stress future stressful feel dont enough time days worry im gon na three decades worry im going failure friend saved life know doi fully prepared end today pills ready laid got back knew today going last day id planning month knew mum brother weirdly settled knowledge one thing actually control happening finished school day began walk back home usual walked past group people considered friends go home way one said anything walked bit behind turned usual point halfway road heard running feet behind friend ran entire way back around corner road nearly asthma attack asked important looking back fucking rude done ask needed anything looked really recently worried apparently looked even lower usual today know something stopped still want live state cant see getting better cant bring now know thought control least cant even control tell parents tried kill long story short struggling depression anxiety years now got phone call randomly mum yesterday saying dad split young wanted meet together talk must picked last couple years realised something right months prior though actually went holiday friends went home early one night intention killing ending wrote notes drunk time actually slipped tile floor hotel knocked unconscious wake friends back hotel room gathered around feeling stupid said slipped left early drunk decided end came round read notes left parents couldnt stop crying thinking mum reading question tell keep im honestly doneth march ill goneah friend suggested subreddit realised reasons minuscule might well reasons even exist first place anyways go longest ramble history made promise kill time couple weeks need hurry honestly dont know wanted eh lets hope joking thought cliche thing friday th april thats week birthday dont need pressure reasons want ahem kick bucket lately everyone pressuring hurry sort place university quickly loose chance years attend besides know wont last long cant remember last time happy wasnt medication remember plenty quite lot medication none naturally lastly im generally done ill grab box thats full blades grab pill bottle grab note ive writing honestly book short story everything ive put lets hope lets hope dont survive ive survived many times wish go bed without wanting wake next dayand wish wake without wishing woken thing want stop feeling anything got super cold really fast degrees last night even october weather insane okay cry song idk cried shit one song every time hear cant hold tears circle supposed shape one side angles sides angles shape circular yes know circle considered shape infinite sides near length infinite angles near degrees shhhhhh ye genshin servers anymore yeyeye recently posted trying find help afford rent pay transmission fixed depleted little finally able save able afford rent caused overdraft im asking cover overdraft negative balance give enough buy groceries next week include bag dog food send picture receipt money spent attempted todayand didnt fucking work ran husband couldnt police stop tried overdosing instead ive puking night third attempt wtf theoretically speaking much sugar enough sugar crash thanks fall asleep cant im taking special reinforcements bad idea let know anxiety attackso didnt sleep night morning go father buy food energy drinks try every time go buy fod someone panic attack every time go alone fell every body watching ext whe entrer good whe go drinks buy whiskey beer ext father go pick something place looking energy drinks alone girl behind starts talk saying dont buy st discont next week didnt know say start think works ask discont answers yes discount wanted one drinks fell nervous pick dont pick fell impotent leave father reches whe leave father ask talking say girl looks suprise fuck whe leaving see car start think dont work say haplend dad says hiting nahh says big men laughting felt bad thinking im shit talking pressure fell pressure times talking girl hiting fucked realy bad even hit something good happends getting bettersix months ago made anonymous post another site saying answer want give age old question see five years dead throw away account thought id never use today used truly thought better thought okay today work really thought last weeks every single day ive thought redflag dont want anymore want talk someone want someone know im thoughts theyre new tried hang th grade im terrified ask help im scared repercussions life last thursday came home work looked backpack packed left without purpose destination didnt tell anyone going didnt even know id back maybe cry help see anyone noticed gone one person called talked still driving unsure going listened cried asked anything stupid anything unsafe didnt checked next day thank cameron moment think truly saved life woke next day explored national parklt beautiful one noticed gone unlike felt better came back home lasted two days every single day ive thought killing ive pills stashed away two years know day coming sunday got couch walked go take text friend arrived stopped thanks john saved life day thought committed got committed fired job probably put medication probably still funny happy carefree shell everyone knows probably ive become accustomed wearing mask cracks people dont know people dont want around id thoughts killing younger sad hurt tired feeling way now feel blank feel heartbroken im heartbroken feel sad im sad feel angry im angry feel im water time someone crushing chest literally feel mind breaking slipping literally feel didnt know feel happening know going happen soon im oddly peace unease feel grandmother shes already lost daughter almost killed raised im daughter thats one bit sadness feel im starting hair maybe stop wearing hoods want stop drinking time want stopi lost best friend reality talked family long time interest reconnect messy childhood friends think made codependent first week long time text theres one im looking new friend anyway ex best friend said want friend anymore much piece shit become drink said verbally abusive see drunk sometimes hate almost much hate hate life choices im always bad guy feel better met time different way better now emotionally better image lifestyle better now feel im ranting im sorry know ive felt hopeless ive never lonely feeling mean ive driven across many state city town village alone ive never truly alone maybe thats im writing post feel alone know ampxb want kill time dont thats fear comes next im scared process want quick gun ive never fan im highest floor apartment think jump kill luxury crashing car going hope car hits might survive want quick way one alcohol maybe ill courage figure way ampxb sorry waste time think point living even tired everything want fight anymore mood swings happen multiple times day control people always judge fucking sick therapist parents mock friends swear understand ask happy one gets medications even fucking help therapist months room always mess saw aunt today smiled said glad better never better people understand control change trying years feel better soon think anymore ill another teenage suicide statistic chart fucking tired imma real absolutely fucking terrified parents especially terrified tell mental health ask anything test ctei wondering wonder severe depression related brain injuries football think donei continue past two years indication change either overwhelmed studies care little friends although know family kind care mind leaving behind slept night long sleep least hours day remember last saw daylight nice see sun one last time written things owe everyone brief explanation least decided method think done thank reading life meaningless everyone trying convince dieits month life lost meaning purpose outside im successful beautiful woman fascinating life loving friends family nailed new prestigious job colleagues kill best time life ready move new beautiful house first time life started thinking family none matters anymore person wanted share longer life leave even though love know loves cant find pleasure anything friends family trying keep alive weeks trying distract theyve grown tired blame ive become pain cant sleep night every passing moment im thinking love tenderness life filled recently love replaced gaping void able eat properly month feel robot everything mechanical feel detached dehumanized ive seeing therapist im pretty sure clue feel believe tell see im always laughing making jokes misery people actually think im fine everyone keeps telling life worth living things better pain go away something new something better come way know say want believe id say bullshit shoes know know rare find real connection someone know utterly impossible find someone replace connection lost know words sound cheap banality know happiness know sun rise tomorrow want replace special place heart anything know nothing measure without love spoke heart reason breathe understand keep living empty shell keep people satisfied spend every waking moment neverending nightmare work meaning ive unable focus fulfill obligations clear soon everyone see perfectionist used keep open even humiliation point thing comforts day think dying want hear bullshit gift life people respect decision help exit world love dignity hold hand let go strange lights seen honolulu httpsyoutubedgcdzmhkwhttpsyoutubedgcdzmhkw go hacking command console minecraft server friend hosting minecraft server want troll server hosted apex hosting plugins authme option bonus way command line connected cmd maybe connect server using cmd way idk ampxb help great lol happened various forms life even got physical abuse fucking fact people feel entitled including system live ininvoluntary hospitalization psychiatrymost shitholes strip rights human acting accordance think best anything really spoiler nice make feel worse entitlement know want anymore ive posting old im tired nights worst distractions left alone thoughts feel empty alone purpose world never amount anything soon enough everyone hate everyone see failure looking forward day comes end pathetic life guilt stuckwent outside last night probably home around planned know around hours standing sitting staring railing back fourth kept thinking dunno whats called stopping wan na really bad cant sure anxiety looking wondering bad itll hurt height think ending another way sure though appointment nurse wednesday dunno im supposed hold im keep thinking going back tonight actually im stuck twisted ancle today jumping posts condo evacuated due fire parking garage kept jumping non stop somewhere fifty posts started tired leg got hit toppled brother pretending personal trainer thankfully managed carry way back condo issue done bo ive lying bed hours im going kill gf leaves mehey everyone im hopeless know going say worth killing girl sister passed away last year broke another serious girlfriend never got better recently met girl visiting england new zealand nicest girl ive met first date best day life anxiety fun laughing day little backstory severe anxiety interferes functioning every single day severe symptoms chest pain brain fog terrifies felt suicidal many times ive told family unsupportive reason im alive girl girl moved back facetime skype twice day crazy severe anxiety says cant bring long distance relationship itll drive crazy yet still says things misses crazy lures thinking highly moving university couple days nz making feel suicidal cant shake feeling lose interest find another man might internet access moving means able talk much fact talk much thing getting day basically find someone lose interest absolutely doubt kill years pure hell hospital knowing sisters alive school day one cancer others sma cant take anymore cry day facetime girl makes happy soon hang plummet straight back depressive feeling wrote hopes make feel better look post history probably see im attention seeker im basically annoying thank replies hopefully snap back reality sort depression slump another around years used love talking people exercising writing thing actually enjoy watching tv movies know healthy thing want anymore detached everything see point much anything work shitty barely minimum wage job even afford live think really help situation friends anymore keep contact regularly bc depression kind floated away one vent barely existing shitty world trying dive deep fiction feel wearing though comfort fav characters really scared getting close end thing interested anymore media cant stop thinking redflagit feels always way brain hyper focuses much diagnosed earlier year bpd feel ive got worse worse constantly think ending know right hurt many people yet lay awake night crying eyes constantly thinking life worth im lost know one day fear feeling much simply one favorite movies saw preview seattle tom hulce amazing words convey feelingsthoughts actually sent mike ferrell donation money help film distributed good system says need lines want give away plot stuff audience seattle hulce director writer think mike ferrell talked hour afterwords really dry eye house hollywood continues stupid know actually know fault look watchwell pay guys see someone special gem need signits one nights cant keep thinking pain ive caused everyone whos left life want sign want something make feel still worth im scared life want anymore bpdpersistent depressive syndrome years unstable relationships friendships im left one good friend across ocean anyone probs wishes well cant bothered say anything matter hard time making friends becoming close people mainly find people interested wanting friends connectionchemistry terms social circle legit alone clearly good reason years suicidal ideation recently intense attempts firm belief always way want way always way ruins follow life evidence sort revealing messed person cant job effectively anymore even reaching incredibly hard justify reasons hard cant around people family job im unhappy life cant around sake cant anymore guys help street lamp outside window got hit massive lightning youd expect stop working started turning super annoying rain makes atmosphere bed quite nice street lamp ruins idea sleep comfortably obsess head even though try stay positive truth really feel comes almost every time go drinking friends become extremely negative sometimes cry alone bf told unhappy weight hates seeing unhappy summary bf complete workaholic loves death tells beautiful every day dumped times weight thinks excuse maker know commit indian white us spoke phone never able guess indian feel bad today suicidal thoughts bad theyve made tiny progress lately come crashing back feel call quits right nowi think im gon na probably text number feel guilty texting always seem trying push next person feel comfortable calling redflag hotline said made tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny progress step forward steps back live alcoholic parents terrible house got new jobs see way often triggers hell even around cant anything ive spending lot time library friends houses stay away theres much point id seriously consider living car cold wisconsin already tried yet another med change really recently course done nothing number million thats point im seriously considering cold turkeying meds done almost weeks next therapy appointment im pretty sure hates anyway tried kicked clinic accidentally noshowing appointment psychiatrist stuck said needed stay im gon na comfortable talking therapist refuse try another one hes already number cant even remember sure fucked totally fault excuses im gon na completely financially destitute least month account overdrawn im gon na able afford phone bill real friends live far away phone plan able talk time im home try home little possible ive selfharming lot one injury id even consider seeing doctor afford copay convenient care mean serious burn happened trying firstaid well ironically still selfharming places body stuck scars life top stretch marks im stuck brings next point weight im literally obese bmi fluctuate lbs back years ago healthy liked body numbers pounds emotional binge eating absolute inability exercise consistently try hyperaware weight stop cry probably go home hurt ironically binge eat top everything ive talking old friend finally able meet coffee see maybe year seems great im starting feelings develop knowing theyll never reciprocated know best thing distance one biggest support systems theres good way handle situation yes chances feeling already big problem top everything feels one way make better nowi got help waited tried everything think almost deluded thinking working fortunately reminded unwanted worthless im moving date redflag december probably around christmas nice gift everyone least plenty time write note want apology sticking around long thorough record point tell awful give people false hope better mean say friend middle class dead silent whos stinky whore didnt realize unmuted depression damn brutal add top ugly virgin extreme social redflag lower iq learning disabilities many internal issues fk suffering dead seriously nothing people tell try new things fatigue beyond awful scared death hate religion making scared hell think awful things christians now hate existence alone dead inside gone even idk much longer last cousin stupid cousin stopped eating pm girl already boyfriend every night terribly aggressive unpleasant already quarreling almost whole family film great comedy drama christopher walken tremendous supporting role manager commentary keep laughing robin williams plays great role quick wit jon stewart amuse fans comedy central show good viewer halfabrain see needed subcultural attack policies current republican government criticism american democratic process mention means politicians electedbr br amused subplots found film fast paced entertaining without usual ohbrothers agree film less comedy marketed without question better garbage theatres present thoughtsdon happen love show refreshing take older scifi feels styles afraid shoot people tend die far many shows afraid end pointing guns standoff farscape comes complete large amount heartwarming characters grow till point confuses hear discuss taking animatronic ones boxs make miniseries beginning end farscape leaves feeling hope dispair new unexpected things happen people live die surprising every time worth watch even time losing hope fasti thought abuse end thought pain end moved course didnt feel im walking fucking empty sack useless flesh give anything give life anyone deserve die sure fuck deserve live hate im wasting job im school make want fucking kill less medication fucked brain forever never helped doctor hospital last year trying kill im barely better now go class go work come home sleep im depressed anything talking people chore barely eat love father thinks im fine heart tell im miserable everything hes done hate im waste eyes hate feeling really alone wrote thisits always everyone seems think works grief hit waves waves pull back slowly completely better waves stopped ill next march hear happiness said genetic family tree pretty upsetting one unfortunately true nothing mean friends mean family found family one given dysfunctional makes life harder made life hell living see world around eyes woken peaceful nightmare see real painful world cant keep cant keep giving heart people trying friend receiving agonizing pain especially always ask anything back started realized self respect something supposed pretend days far behind beginning life either im weary starts im sad im kind wallow seek help usually takes long whatever reason worse start build way back stability im bad usually help along way usually therapist take look got bad work love therapy always better better sort hits always different always hard times easier always springs back theres cure even want want risk rather peace feel alone afraid first times hit hard thing ive called help ive asked around ive done bit im therapy weight everything crushing much chronic depression doesnt always go away functions similarly grief lingers hangs air keeps isnt simple never live alone depression time high believe worth anymore finally given wake alone everything fun activities truly enjoy nobody wants anyone wants something want always nobody everyone another person people walk want genuine friendship people genuine love life seem short end stick every time nice guys finish last happens time time hate want pain go away need someone talk college idea im pretty much nobodyi attend expensive college idea fuck im feel im squandering parents money time idea want career motivation study feel nobody purpose world keep hearing everything right trust god cant anymore want drop kill something favorite show kid man favorite show obsessed still remember back seat car small dvd player different heman season disc watched times remember favorite character skeletor favorite show kid time favourite movie everbr br remember seeing younger love used rent often one video store used carry moved find kep going back tot far away store watch movie againbr br finally found sale bought watched great moviebr br though first dvd got got dvd player ok well got time quality dvd way better believe got ta see one spend time researching redflag methodsim unemployed refuse work job amplify depression want work walmart although im pressured family take job become leech brother covering next months rent cant live shamebut perhaps people believe might able im tired running around things best interest others im tired listening advice others taking realizing never wanted instead use researching abilities know things im good find effective way completely obliterating form consciousness person called possessed people hate probably cant feel hate side feel anything anymore soo uhh umm anybody wan na play minecraft happened watch movie chance days ago flipping channels expectations high interesting moviein guy thing jason lee plays paul straightlaced seattlebased fellow marry fiance karen selma blair settle unchallenging life middleclass domesticity first meet paul bachelor party professes desire engage normal bachelor party type activities surprisingly buddies encourage case hes bit naughty gets hot bother soon trouble strife course next thing paul knows morning night hes bed naked hula dancer motherinlaw phones inform karen way oh hula dancer karens cousin becky julia stilesbr br small acorn potential trouble grows mighty oak frenetic misfortune paul scrabbles misadventure misadventure trying cover hes done whilst keeping appearance dutiful familyoriented good guy whos superexcited forthcoming nuptials efforts ensure karen remains none wiser potential wrongdoing part ironically forces paul closer closer funloving becky forcing question whether really wants life seems mapped movie contains right mix comedy romance definitely worth watch fucking done bullshiti cant trust best friendand dont want talk others romantic prospects future one dream everyday fades away say fuck fuck keep suffering bullshit screw ittonight iti done planning seeing morning know selfdeprecate much part still lacks confidence even worked much scared lazy stupid way overwhelmed life actually hard certain degree justified know perhaps combination said almost want apply want anyone either perhaps felt sure thinking opportunity always therei actually busy lot stuff college although little bit old well gone lot trauma mild severe throughout years understand need kind needed time heal hate unproductive lazy hate people use excuses justify shitty behavior seen ugly looks want one seems repetitive pattern behavior deny opportunities maybe deep unconscious part feels deserve better life bullied much recent past left filled shame guilt noticed exact thing dating know great personality naturally deserve love loved whenever want date keep thinking need fix life first good enough know excuse know excuses understand life already happening supposed perfect moment start living yet broken mentality let go despite fact keep empowering everydayhow stop break free past stop procrastinating adhd yes meds help focus selfdiscipline makes things better still make things better better lost amazing job opportunity procrastinated much applying taken feel awful guys im stuck bathroom please send help horni fuck nnn got stuck bathroom closing door keep updated looks id sleep bath maybe programming spend hours day needed learn programming point im looking handouts anything im ready spend countless hours work help family thoughts tl dr father passed away mother cant pay rent bills etc ask advice jobs ways increase income help mother pay rents relationship weird relationship weird little context answer shes im started dating almost months really happy together im afraid people frown upon tell relationship far ive told people trust sets parents know mom happy wont let explain honestly feel go long term title asks relationship weird might delete soon friends know account didnt enough karma throwaway fucking masturbated final fantasy xiii coverart umm bored recently friends busy decided tidy room throw awaydonate old childhood things used ps back day many awesome games lego star wars uncharted final fantasy xiii felt nostalgia looked various coverarts came across old final fantasy xiii game coverart basically main character named lightning holding swoard standing front white background nothing special first crush idk wanted replay game badly ps got broken long time ago sitting holding game hand got incredibly horny took shower wanked yeehaw coverart using parts imagination im good rubbing love stick imagination fucking busted nono sauce place anyway feel bad took single coverart game trigger good day repeatedly saying brilliant many columbo episodes time honour episode maximum points etude black percent perfect certainly percentmaybe br br last week reviewed married compared unfavourably meet parents well heres one parents blythe danner much earlier role wife famous orchestral conductor alex benedict played legend john cassavetes alex affair jennifer wells girl orchestra first affair one suspects blackmailing alex leave wife wifes mother holds purse strings orchestra alex think itd smart move destroy career marriage overnight instead hatches plot sneak concert hall performance murder young lover making look suicidebr br enter columbo guess takes two seconds realise homicide likely suicide take much longer columbo connect alex victim soon hes following around wherever goes even though columbo certain alex man actually takes quite false leads none columbo really swallows vital piece evidencebr br along way topnotch extra characters ranging precocious young neighbour jennifer wells english mechanic sounds home coronation street bedraggled looking brass player nearly finds fitted murder seeing jennifer wells busy girl theres even brief cameo commandant lassard police academy films leslie nielsen lady waiting impossible take seriously bet thinking speech made podium br br blythe danner john cassavetes peter falk steal show blythe absolutely divine mrs benedict moment spots alex dialling jennifer wells number memory feels deeply troubled exactly relationship masterful performance struggles trust alex despite intuition telling something wrong columbo help matters interrupting game tennis ask impertinent questions alexs relations members orchestrabr br john cassavetes well shame make repeat appearances columbo villains jack cassidy patrick mcgoohan one alltime greats show performance superb hes another one falls highly irritated category losing patience columbo rather befriending indulging despite game finally grudgingly acknowledge columbos geniusbr br well really really fantastic show loses couple small points rather sledgehammer view classical music highlighted many posters none bearing logic story characterisations least music good dramatic excitingbr br finally come across absolutely amazing clip john cassavetes peter falk dick cavett show early s im totally convinced steve coogan watched clip based alan partridge everything clip resembles knowing knowing cringeworthy introduction total humiliation cavett guests even orchestra act playing circus music falk cassavetes friend ben gazzara fool ridicule hostbr br might strictly relevant review cavett show clip gives nice insight deep friendship professional relationship peter falk john cassavetes clear see quality etude black well pair worked together need help talking girl aight know may best place ask advice wateva im outside friends car passes girls theyre waving im one turns sees one waving back found one girls insta hit got laugh twice conversation finished followed problem post pictures casually see face cause saw kinda far yeah send help use snapchatimma go sleep help plz bye tldr casually send picture face girl lets face nancy drew never great literature category babysitter club magic tree house goosebumps abc mysteries fact one original formula stories nancy perfect pretty thoughtful nice internal conflicts never changes ned pretty much movie true style say liked never great movie nostalgic flavor books held right amount suspense children almost offensive language liked push conservative dressbr br corky bit annoyance little place high school campus never quite got first place ventingi know life perfect go bashing life saying much hate words hurt im gon na rid toxic person im going kill amazing movie clever using actors sets shocking physical psychological torture explicit implied mixed calm even humourous stretches horror always unexpected brutal im soft shocking film seen message film definitely delivered sledgehammer film always remember actors im kill myselfim year old male ive pretty much fucked life already see anyway im going successful adult little situation well im pretty much done school im technically drop state drop gone school months school really done anything really friends talk anyone days sit room listen music read philosophical books play video games really mathematics taught calculus anyone knowledgeable math limits derivatives integration started teach differential equations going series little later master differential equations seems lot integration used solve differential equations want forget integrate genuinely learning figure im probably going college higher education institution probably teach stuff now hear einstein mastered differential integral calculus even though im told hey want saying im genius anything honestly anyone iq least stuff anyways really hate school though hate way everything enforced stuff useless wrong think genuine learning going public schools set cant stand need independent study prefer teach someone teach know probably sound typical winy angsty teen truth told probably expressing rarely said really nothing day life job drivers license actually apply job back never go back probably low gpa jobs looked honestly fucking ridiculous im even old enough work places family dollar walmart seeing lot internet news prom prom stories im going junior prom one knows exist anymore besides really fucking ugly strikingly ugly hate even still school girl want go prom gross disgusting makes want die hate hate much social anxiety public hideous face made fun kid ugly words never gone away ugly smelly stupid future ill living parents basement fucked fucked bad low life piece shit lonely feel lonely never go anywhere talk anyone eating away hate keep alive want die worst part know situation fault really thought maybe hanging overdosing maybe even jumping bridge downtown live bruh many schools closing country still open every day news school shuttijg due least case covid one school actually close live thank fully aslo school clise area school case dont go online learning fucking thing blow help im sorta panicking went website blocked internet service provider sky said blocked clicked away closed tab parents notification telling went blocked website anything said internet service provider searched im uk btw trying something newhey everyone name callum im live england know safe share kind information internet really care less ive diagnosed autism social anxiety severe depression im currently four different types medication make feel numb ive lived life thats privileged comfortable life really supportive mum two adorable doggies ive counselling depression anxiety always temporary fix problems feel incredibly superficial makes uncomfortable seeking help title suggests im trying something new dad left mum im still contact still see every still shocked core experienced anything still adjusting secondary school life getting bullied lot life really strange got seriously depressed im nihilist always always find world live absolutely disgusting everything big corporations personal gain adverts blaring tv huge boards make spend money irrelevant junk need someone sensory processing disorder courtesy autism barely leave room without subjected kind sensory battering ram world care people makes sick thats kind world want live cant even leave room thought around people terrifies sit desk watching youtube videos gaming thats spend time nearly year ago yay happy anniversary broke girl loved heart relationship harmful mental health right thing hadnt worse state tore apart im overweight secondary school walked four miles every day two miles two miles back meaning good shape kind ate wanted lot used eating coping mechanism depression started college kept eating much walking anymore burning im fat cut often need im addicted anything helps said world series overbearing stimuli whirlpool pain cutting gives anchor steadies relieves contribute nothing failed gcses teachers access arrangements place waste year life retaking im computing course wanted teacher even gotten onto second year im waste time waste space ive contemplated redflag many times thinking ending life become perfectly normal occurrence im incredibly lonely broke void life makes develop crushes girls far easily try something crushes laugh think killing every day one day think ill soon im pathetic terrified actually act now one day soon enough though read far im grateful incredibly grateful maybe needed vent maybe im actually looking help know thank reading seem anyone cares anymore fact someone listening help please read entire spiel let know sort advice even hug please guess sums entire thing please currently film studies level love song film watched opinion film simple storyline complex backstory scratch surface find thrillerchase film two men running countryside farmers committing murdersounds quite exitingbr br need dig deeper uncover true feeling true genre suggested love story two homosexual lovers filled trust deceit betrayal told love directly film events happen example way heaton acts towards spike almost screams untouched love affair facesbr br overall film good example british films dismissed rubbish done low budgetbr br good film intricate story line definitely acquired taste possibly suitable average fan hollywood blockbusters barbara stanwyck plays lily powers waitress fathers speakeasy little crummy mining town sells men escapes new york literally sleeps way topbr br originally seen minute version pretty extremefor time nowadays pretty tame movie moves quickly tons sexual innuendosome comes pretty silly fun today moves quickly easily ignore never happeneven theres nothing classic monumental thisits quick gleefully dirty little film thats lots fun falls apart end little moral ending censors demanded comes across unbelievable stupid saw theatre audience laughed itone guy quite rightfully said way saw uncut minute version different somewhat tragic much better ending version thought lost discovered mistake believe one releasebut aware br br acting goodstanwyck jumps role plays way top makes believe enjoys cruel sleeping around strong supporting performances handsome donald cook george brent look prestardom john wayne hilarious bit meek mild office worker fun dirty fast give grasping straws go farim sorry publicly breaking know im clinically depressed im driving mad thoughts redflag constant memories thimgs ive done wrong feel may end life cant convince change background guess im early twenties angst red flags firing already afraid diagnosed clinical depression year ago gps wanted second opinion everyone experienced changes emotion throughout life longest prolonged drop mood continued today sometimes feel ive come ive lasted five days best one point worst far ive tried number medications good ive lost faith validity antidepressants ive tried therapy see little nuances ticking heads never seen person boring complicated puzzle solved judge therapy work ive tried confiding family see hurt eyes described felt cant take anymore either cry wolf cured see may suspect theyll never sure ive lost friends happened slowly level purpose longer connect acquaintances every conversation felt mentally bashing head wall unnatural uncontrollable cognitive dissonance spread tumour even people closest felt distant dreams accross hallucinated worlds became desperate called redflag hotline tried describe felt kept repeating rubbish good reached us today reached minute mark understand felt hung told early suicidal night redflag hotline refused help may call bullshit thats fine care nothing gain lying now state mind feel normal consistent rat maze often feel ive found escape find dead end ive enough intents purposes think im bad guy average joe done stupid things even cant stop believing truly deserve constant state mental pain human see thus understand one day finally give end want want constant fog hours sleep followed random bouts insomnia inability hold conversation poor work ethic selfishness want fucking normal every god damn mother fucker see arround rredflagwatch imagine many experienced classic case clinical depression want fucking bythebookwasteoftime answers oh family miss pass time im tried suchandsuch drug andor therapy good reached fuck kinds people give shit guidelines real fucking human real sence want offer advice please please reward maybe self satisfaction stroke ego bit tell friends saved someone upvote care im dick loser fucking human grasping straws wants someone real help dont even know bro going day nd fucking people dont even know bought pills take back home tonight people talking im even nd dont even know fucking easy fool people feel though many people disagree know fate sooner rather later knees pain feel within core much push point literally existing peoples sake even feel benefit either feeling good feel right thing talking people understand urge taken core thing stopping pain trying figure past point lost love plan see without life want space want everyone cared bitter heartbroken guilt regret live anymore wanted good mother loved understood left cold complicated story explain many details missing know think suicide selfish felt lost love never forgive letting go one truly loved stand another second reality sister sorry wanted make proud thank mother love son mummys sorry put bad situations pushed away needed zaney always treasure curious little mind daughter sorry strength need grown know always dream love sweet girl core empty canadian homies live ontario dont feel comfortable answering obviously dont curious fellow ontarians canadians matter wonderful lads horny post second nvm theres nothing say im tired h time lem happy objectively pretty unlikable talks speaking know try see best people ignored talk claims bisexual introduced lab partner current girlfriend asked interested pursuing stated clearly fast forward three months winter break hanging bit frequently always feel everyone hates either ignored people talk give one word replies idk really want exist anymore tired breathing paris je taime film made segments math segments minutes means director seven minutes tell story movie based premise indeed tell story short amount time premise works almost segments powerful complete satisfying presents different aspect parisian experience almost every director draws forth outstanding performances cast great neargreat actorsbr br many powerful portrayals film hard pick one two favorites probably memorable juliette binoche grieving mother segment place des victoires gena rowlands aging beauty quartier latin catalina sandino moreno maid segment loin du margo martindale colorado mail carrier learned speak french visit paris arrondissement segment br br special mention must given gulliver hecq probably meanest little boy harass american tourist parisian metro station segment tuileriesbr br outstanding movie wife decided rent months catch subtle points surely missed paris photographed beautifully suggest try see large screen case miss dorecently ive thoughts redflag im sure depression kicking imagine situations easier gone life keeps dragging seems nothing going way grades dropping work life getting worse im happy know talk want parents think differently friends im lost need guidance talk hard reach felt sad days thats good nevermind time consume unhealthy amounts sugar wish someone elsei hate sucks cant anything im afraid time one likes everyone bullies cant live know cant escape im thinking taking life actually good dayi dont know really post usually days school shit thought today minutes school started realized forgot math homework big test th period smaller one th ib school mile run th period test around week write notes single lined piece paper big history test forgot home thought doomed instead day absolute shit finished work early st period finished math homework sub math second period thought fucked mile run managed felt really proud last mile well test th period parts multiple choice online test written part paper got multiple choice missing one question google forms saw grade instantly felt knew stuff written part th period didnt even need notes test knew stuff felt really happy uncommon first time years got new lego sets ive always fan lego boosted mood well maybe things change maybe wont today great day though hope someone feels angry want stopim sure say dropped high school work dead end job money indulge anything parents kicked let back matter much tell need move back im years old im forced adult august went hospital redflag attempt went times suicidal ideation im angry time ive tried therapy shit ive tried hard happy tried hard normal functioning part society time fighting life want live point struggling anymore want angry anymore want sad nothing works im sure chinese class cringe oh god im going die cringe syndrome im taking chinese class test talk random subject determined dice roll see screen minutes front entire class zoom already bad enough topic people teach responsibility education even know heck teenagers interested absolutely know heck answer speak min without whole bunch fillers cringe unit test grade probably going quite bit ampxb httpspreviewredditrphraulpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfebdcbebcfcdbaeee wait sec recording im absolutely done starting work next week seriously wanting end theni really dont want go back work im supposed dont breaks end work coworkers nothing attempts friends hate dont know dont say anything controversial im nice everyone full insult face whenever bring boss doesnt care cant find new job anxiety much im tired putting much effort job called fucking loser directly face top redflag attempt ago arms covered scars considering judge every little thing appearance theyre gon na field day realized im likable friendship lasted week slitting wrists messy obv didnt work plug someone drugs overdose ill probably try hang wednesday went bullied school bullied college bullied work im meant planet mistake drown alcoholi drown alcohol people around want drown lake realise difficult thoughts getting hand realise way thinking normal realised happy realised hated anyone hated even realise drank way much drink drink drink drink hoping never face reality im going kill im surei date soon anyone want play animal crossing anyone want play animal crossing nice play game someone friend code sw terrifiedthis first time months ive self harmredflag thoughts im able make go away feeling want feel different want disappear id bored know id back minutes later hope yall googled pee red forget december st guilt eating aliveso couple weeks back mother episode stopped taking pills cared whole episode eventually bring hospital weeks visit presumed dad going let know going visiting cant drive btw phone good times weeks make sure ok ended getting visit hospital guilt eating alive feel ending guys lost v card today gf kind drunk hanging bed kind happened unexepected amazing dont give upif think one cares youre wrong mom walk room scream cry try wake dad run hold moms hand cry siblings school crying bathrooms something reminded principal announces school friends break tears one kid bullied run scream unable cry boyfriendgirlfriend cry weeks unable eat sleep even shower funeral family sit living room complete silence unable say word whether know people care people dont expect feeling worthless take years figure im addictim doctor prescribed benzos benzos im guess im depths withdrawal keep reliving whole life new pyschiatrist cussed friday month ago messed rx reduced w refill set telehealth appt march th informed said rx fix march th till hell friday spoke w nurse told change called said im making look crazy wanted go scripts changes person sorry im going suffer long guess thought pleasantly suffer silence asked cold heartedly want prescribe valium liking scolded calling cvs make sure dont pick refills told wanted prescribed years want billed two telehealth appts hung phone screaming bye moved hours away leaves office pick anyways guess im addict keep hating im anything right addicted benzos never anything hard dealt w ignorant docs past pull shit take business streets isnt prescribed benzos doesnt know somebody knows somebody gets benzos im broke getting older dont want illegal shit whole shit questioning relationships failures damn prescribed wrong drug chose heroin younger least help benzo addicts fucked system making us look pyscho doc makes mistake arent feeling good even mention risk getting pegged addict losing rx sanity im really hating hour ride tomorrow make thoughts dissipate feeling hopeless anxiety anxiety thanks give someone something stupid child years later regret want back dont even use okay ask back lets say old ginormous golden freddy plush gave say distant dad hates secretly wish got universe id love pet dragon name barbecue fuck lifegrew nothing one nothing friends one wants talk currently spent entire life playing video game barely eating game thing makes happy p family threating take stuff away job shit even tho cant live smallest place ones hiring im fucking miserable nothing worth live want live twentyonly days thereabouts th thats deadline guess maybe setting one finally make able take next step want twenty want idea theres another year ahead another year soulcrushing loneliness another year selfhatred another year wanting die want future know good one im person ive met entire life truly think hopeless see nothing ugly toxic piece shit dead set path inevitable empty funeral days ago finally set im getting return investment need im unlovedno family lover hardly youd call friendsand honestly pretty unlovable ugly face ugly body ugly personality trifecta considering love one things keeps going guess realized meaningless cant keep living people care love anymore enough thats im days either man bite literal bullet wimp keep living hell begrudgingly call life heres hoping yooo whos wants talk especially ur south america yeah ya boy wan na speak people ur south america dont matter still pm im done care anymore im ending sooni hate hate world hate life supposed ive suicidal young least th grade always thought things better dont everyone everyone happy ending life shit show shit show brief moments happiness cant seem find makes worth cant wait old age freak accident free pain want now want know hurt im fucking alone never special anyone never friends lovers even family closest person life straight told tonight never meant shit hurts much want loved ill never enough something wrong im cut life ill peace soon know first time im crying tears happiness itll soon feel way anymore want understand dontim posting place wanting understand im old late s understand posting want commit redflag understand redflag phone lines ive thought redflag long remember hospitalized already constant part never wanting die part wanting live find hard people learned blend become outside found anytime reached learn felt one learned caused issues seemed solve stopped landed hospital shoes ive lived life got married created new living built company helped hundreds people find happiness wearing mask mask heavy ive open close friends go managing logistics leaving life overwhelmingly attempts help find help want put mask attempt appease people important ive started seeing professional mind numbingly easy time want med talk feelings today said part must want help took step coming seem understand never want help anything personality flaw mine reason came try make predefined eventually easier people care question many people saying want kill really saying want kill know stop hurting adulting things needed handled die id helium tent right now said im wanting die im wanting live different help girl agreed meet drink ask free wednesday im free thursday saturday says oh say cant says oh htf response oh say available anyway actually date tampai moved tampa fl good job moved becalms last job stressful cant take want impress parents sister cant anymore decideded end sorry spelling errors im give upn im drunk give rthanjks reddit great time jetsetting life wants dieim living peoples dreams now loving family always supportive loving partner sacrificed much us together graduated top class travelling every months freelance job pays enough parents partner always chip afford travelling see work planning masters done foreign country soon live near partner friends really supportive always want hang make time everynight still feel kill sure anymorei brothers wedding coming look forward yeah know give hate planet live hate people people self centered cruel ive even guilty times hate im seeing shrink next month maybe help know th time ive entered therapy first work hit certain goal probably kill myselfgiving around days complete around th birthday tired tired world tired feeling burden tired fucked want go sleep never ive got windex ammonia ammonia plastic bag options nobody probably readcare matter guess telling jokes corona gone day hipster burn mouth pizza ate cool boyfriend cop live sweeden cops got high authority boyfriend abusive harrases infront everybody let gohe forces sex anal sex led hospital many times asleep goes lost sleep days days wake sexual acts done mehe hits time slightest disagreement want go friends goes enraged giving black eyes every thenhe burnt fathers memory led fight tried punch pictures father memories us beautiful childhood always hits back harder breaking foot bending wrists knocks anything hurt times size always threatens cut hair eyebrowsi tried contacting local police ended punished kept locked room letting go bathroom embarrassing therei anything poor nobody friend phonei know life rid nowhere go maybe suiciding painless way really help redditors got ideas please share find solutions online f scared boyfriend need help free ebook last chance sit act less month prep may 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acquired shared anyone want share help anyway process creating free ebook released within weeks free amazon hours make sure download asap launches remember applying year still december act one last shot lose interested receiving ebook launches fill linked google form use email google one receive amazon link goes live completely free pages contain waffling best tips acquired hope help many possible best wishes drdurak google form link free ebook registration httpsformsglewcpwvqdltvxwghttpsformsglewcpwvqdltvxwg im hopeless redflag solution end sufferingive extremely suicidal pretty long time now ive depressed around years ive made failed attempts dont want live anymore fear knowing exactly happen finally end life something worry wont hold back ive finally enough something im constantly thinking death seems peaceful im constantly wondering finally end sadness end ability feel pain death seems desirable aspect worry family friends theyll feel hurting isnt enough stay alive theyd sad finally time werent support knew bad struggling maybe theyll say selfish end life selfish supporting needed support love theyll okay life isnt worth living youre living im living trust didnt want go path tried getting help depression tried everything many things helped temporarily end im still finding hole cant im still completely miserable friends family dont care enough im hopeless going far long dont know much longer take go plan last night boyfriend got spent night crying usual always cry night usually made feel particularly unloved uncared last night knows depression hes around see dark sides feel hopeless suicidal sad doesnt really know support right way already wanted end life pain feel daily basis maybe last night pushed closer towards ready entire mentality lately die end ive suffering long time nothing gotten better nothing worked dont understand point living feel pain suffer die end skip part die instead going life suffering im completely hopeless cant find one reason live says lot million reasons end life cant take anymore sacha baron cohen genius movie good although film nearly reach quality tvshow still funny seriously wicked moments ive liked ali g first time saw material show think hes one best comedy characters time say peter dragon action blues brothers biggest surprise film theyve actually got serious actors dance gambon absolutely respect even good sense take chance nothing really bad say film funny juvenile hey br br one thing mr g sequel pleasebr br im starting think crush likes back meanive looked things shes staring stuffim honestly freaking inside know well emotionally fucking venting ranting ur professor ur weekly reflection essay true story second week friend beat sure whether sad jealousjust got phone call sister let know paramedic paramedic bloody good paramedic funny kind help anyone apparently problems work sister tell kind muddled understandable retained left opiates patients need full dose injected found turn shift yesterday many friends afford lose one hand guess one less person disappoint die godspeed love broke found money drink usual drinking problem escaping feelings problem sometimes food tv games phone thing week important several interviews high paying jobs broke anymore instead celebrating still want die want anymore alone financially supporting bf animals love want leave deserve better know broke lol guys know people named dick originally came fathers penis saying hello languages zdravo kaixo salam prshndetje hallo endi think im gon na try attempt month two im honestly done life shit nobody needs wants nonstop suicidal thoughts weeks now see reason keep living im gon na worse everything gon na keep tearing shreds life getting worse improving years month worst month idk im welcome best leave wont hurt anyone wont problem anyone elses life burden anyone wonderful gritty war film focuses inner torment blinded marine al schmid although tough unpleasant end heroic schmids triumph disability depression battle scene superb one bone pick matter many bullets fired never saw water dirt kicked impacts hurt realism live fine performance eleanor parker girl friend feel killing thinking redflag everydayim male convinced im gon na end bottom scrapes barrel one constant instances disrespect people whole life rejection people wanting know im different depression kicks hard work hard cant help feel hopeless feel im even going anywhere whats point anyway body loves need better reason live hate myselfcurrently home drunk ive wanted kill around maybe years old im now thoughts seem come waves tried exercising eating healthy seeing doctor social none works keep coming back wanting die worst part feel fixed getting relationship know make things worse im lonely crave attention wish exceedingly happy people see almost exhausting year die went go see friend mine last night played video games around pm greatest night ive awhile find friend play video games hours end im insaneeverything look shit now nothing life enjoyable anymore even weed bores everything boring feel life bullshit see point anymore want anymore want die shit goes away people call crazy care even know reality anymore keep questioning point life humans work perspective bullshit want die credflag childhood abuse ex abused hit current relationshipi love anger issues due bipolar laid today become caretaker low energy become due depression want way feel embarrassed ridiculed ashamed said seek therapy said therapy pointless pursue pay reason anger causing caused make many people angry life common denominator world favor leaving fault want know sub may want shoot try rhorsemanurefetish im going vomit first time years holy fuck feel alone lonely hurts scary tbh redflages sure belongs feel alone everyday warim live england got thrown home done take drugs become shell former self dknt want anymore called friends steal make jokes expense decided show pm gmt today going kill dint want talking wanted leave trace somewhere know wont remembered people hearts due harm caused drug habit stealing mostly miss girlfriend sad things us idea dark cloud carry around understand thanks guys edit landlord found blood broken glass sink cutting proceeded scream call worthless fuck care three pm today fuck im going leave im going start sliding everywhere people give fuck make want even thought okay im noti cant cant cope mistakes know okay know worth continue fucked amazing guy hate much want im genuinely curious choices people want future career choices people people want go college high school weve asked degree want pursue next year im getting associates degree high school right automatically science think im going pursue music degree want go college somewhere obscure europe czechia slovakia become puppeteer puppets work either musician playing clarinet composing want feel need redflag easy way outinstead stay alive struggling every day life fighting even modicum self respect watching everyone know around always denied appease someone elses idea life reward suffering death care fight im giving last ressorthave thought last ressort redflag commited die instead go trip fuck prostitutes drugs dont knowdo something anything something dying maybe awaken life help aunt sent gif spiderman flossing depression getting worse way treating itim ive suffered believe depression anxiety years know selfdiagnosis reliable bad reputation ive much trauma growing currently living severely abusive household raped molested kid bullied years struggling accept homosexuality etc ive suicidal thoughts long remember truly happy years always feel numb apathetic emotions im drowning sadness even small tasks showering dressing exhausting difficult ive never officially diagnosed depression even theres possible way treated parents believe mental health mental illnesses think therapy medication sham potential sources help life great either multiple times past ive tried tell doctor im suffering depression told really think schools counselor helpful listen keep telling needed less stressed constant breakdowns want harm time happen reason recent one saturday february th mother got angry tried stab ran away locked room started crying laying floor breakdown started felt heart attack systems shutting feel screaming convulsing stop kept thinking slitting wrists ive never done form selfharm though im scared happen parents noticed afraid hands might felt control point started slamming head floor wall complete agony knew head wanted make stop usually breakdown approx every three months ive three already started im afraid im going kill depression treated soon cant wait years leave home treated think possible feel entire life spent fighting depression ruin everything grades relationships individuality im tired losing battle end sight know soooo another shameless question u think look probably goblin cant leave termsplease dont tell smell flowers realize amazing future potentially already know didnt ask life given maybe want leave turn accomplish everyone seems weird agenda keeping people suffering alive make feel better niggas using ppls stolen credit card bad reeeeee u morels shut pussy want money ion rly anymore tho cause annoying companies put million security systems cant even order shit real card know balance using bullshit dumb broke fucking idiots card annoyingly hard yea somebody please interview parents assignment forgot ask questions morning remember news day days following public opinion think changed world know thoughts add due tuesday sunday thanks bunch yall brilliant chuck jones master warner bros cartoon comedy brings us first pepe lepew cartoon alley cat tired pushed around paints colors skunk healthy dose limburger turns tables tormentors along comes pepe know rest many pepes famous gags born including chasehop hops casually along prey runs exhaustionbr br opinion warner bros cartoons became less inventive hohum s toon one examples mel blanc putting absolutely crazy voice pepes mouth kicker ending pepe revealed american wolf skunks clothing must see classic warner bros stuck abusive environment best anyone say hang therethey understand wears people thin hang forever possible solution way therapy useless path abuse victims gpa fucked futurei study constantly grades worse gpa fucking compete people gpas fucking guess respect anymore im fucking done objectively suck everything including video games spend hours upon hours suck sports im always left behind going somewhere im asthmatic roadkill mauled death purpose die parents wouldnt pay weeaboo ass games medicine neither need listen cries goes friends waste space suffer never happiness doesnt help im low iq degenerate fat furry faggot awful socisl skills even awful sense humour fact im fucking ugly blue pilled sjw date fact probably autism doesnt help fuck end thinks bit odd story year old england got stabbed death really big news outside uk compare school shootings hear england within day seems story exclusive uk know year old boy set girlfriend paid another year old stab way teaching lesson got angry sent nudes another guy wish buttonall methods commit redflag taxing read combination lethality pain preparation fuck want go im suicidal im tell father need advicei suicidal thoughts six months now last one month tendency self harm increased exponentially left hand mess cuts look horrible even cuts scars previous ones im terrified though thankful god none deep enough cut artery even though horrifying urges kill know one thing want die im tell father im say everyone always says people love meand know family gone way express theyll anything help help affect relieve pain god cant take feels im living incinerator kill anyone commit redflag lack sexmarried years celibate last years constantly feel lonely inadequate lost interest sex im supposed live rest life without days dont deal anymore capitalism cruel way survivelike change think cures people indifferences envy people subyou simple problems oh boygirlfriend abandoneddiedcheated oh parents worst oh alone owow cat died actual friends anyone genuinely cares best health ugly shit top something bipolarity whatever shitty skin syndrome feel discomfort itch even pain body every single second never girlfriend honest want psychopath actually abomination top citizenship visit doctor diagnose anything bad kick country looking know guy good future maybe working mediocre lowpaid job girl never date piece shit best bet either trying pursue education achieve medium salary workplace small apartment age best fleeing woods living wildmen somebody tell reason live welcome comment section actual convo tinder eat ass start hello hello eat ass fking got roasted first year uni student compsci fking got roasted mom cuz im changing major art dont even know im able change major becuz im basically reapplying uni holyfk never listen people picked comp sci becuz family sister graduated uwaterloo software engineering cant catch regret everything fuck everything everything goes wrong many problems solve everytime fucks shit nice life nobody cares anyway glad finally cut veins bleed death goodbye need stop postponing today day finally leave beat pr good game one favorites hollow knight groomed several men last year proud fuck married damn judge production hour version released vhs us choppy incomprehensible mess pleasure watching fulllength hour version available dvd uk spellbound deliberate pace growing sense menace mesmerizing amazing visual aural landscape ancient rome never seen far authentic mostbr br director franco rossi justly celebrated miniseries odyssey miniseries equally powerful bekim fehmiu became screens best ulysses klaus maria brandauer may screens best nero now hoping someday see rossis version aeneid eneide broadcast italian tv br br undecided version quo vadis powerful one polish miniseries different virtues many ways complement one another certainly either one towers hollywood campriot starring peter ustinov hey hey hey chuck us zappo failing highschool want kill myselfive honour student grade im currently grade ive schools moved times never stay house years soon years pass family moves new location hard make friends make im gon na move mom literally came room one day said moving dad left kindergarten never seen hes running cops last year failure year first semester got honours always second semester went hill transfered completely new district mother transfered school week started sign classes want classes wanted full highschool supposed go signed ap classes art kids smart school math slower kids completely died class schopl filled fithy rich drugged white kids coming asian family completely hated fit whole year made friends second semester science new caucasian teacher completely hated guts mother decided great idea go vacation week summer break hand around assignments one week panicking thankfully really killed whole week vacation panic science teacher gave notes study friends class help surrounded classmates copied person teacher make jokes mimicking donald trump saying racist things made joke said see white kids laughing looked directly shed always forget im class mark absent shed never give assignments literally everyday go desk ask every day shed give tons home work id fail asked help always half ass answers shed always talk boyfriend forget something learning students always correct failed got needed pass longer storythis yearskip put science grades went last year marks teacher amazing suddenly kicked class put learning support im good student homework sat class nothing counsiler school offers support think credits last year low asked online courses summer school extra credits counsiler said hates said everything mom wants take science classes cores next semester sci eng social next year sci sci need science graduate shes forcing first semester almost huge mental breakdown last year cry front people started crying room mom came running think shes help right yelled screamed threw things said things fuck crying huh answer look fuck problem threw phone charger younger sibling amp steal swear lie time theres sooo much drama tell ive depressed long many years gone without killing cant fake smiles anymore theres absolutely way ill enough credits graduate want drop end care anymore almost right now cant sleep think killing im ready die want mcd fries someone buy fries pls movie touches soul audience muchsome scene movie ultimate tears comes automaticallyim surprised seeing movie director direct type movie year student cinema say movie helps lot understand use montagefirst time teacher told us movie means genre movie thought nothing movie understand finally sir explained came know great movie islastly say helps lot understanding filmsand cinema student viewers see movie wan na die canti want foolproof way access gun reasons bleach really effective fancy tall ass buildings live skittling wrists takes long hanging painful im considering maybe fire straight electrocution might well go flaming whatever im stuck little backstory world live truly utterly fucking faked wan na die wake daaaaamn seriously tho cant anymore mean love parents shit theres much take cant live anymore knowing actually life literally im gon na end nothing give back story fucking answer question please electrocution legit terry gilliam traveled future already done brazil tell story virus thats destroying human racebr br script totally crazy easy tricks quite entertaining gilliam proves hes got imagination futuristic scenes great cast bruce willis beautiful madeleine stowe whatever happened ok brad pitt annoying whenever plays roles hand results forced hes credible play goodlooking successful young menbr br rate nothing need diethere future present totally alone yes alone guarantee sort constant withdrawal worse nicotine withdrawal maybe things satiate ive found arguing frenzy getting suicidal real person crisis lines feel absolutely fake need toxicity even impossible alone unattractive trans autistic lifetime building indigenous histories living place genocide matter go need falls apart feel need break something scream energy strength want sleep im sleeping hours day now sometimes wake noon fall asleep sleep maybe stay bit maybe shower eat sleep noon everyone things course load easy almost nothing impossible cant please let die severe redflag ocd today let best looked phone huge breach trust hate hate hate mind lot thinks better killed self make emotional problems baggage peoples problems edge right wondering even benefits existing caused fianc much emotional diredflag relapsed opiates think ill able forgive hes clean going months imagine running bedroom morning screaming hustle hustle hustle wake ask confused tf answer hustle go go h sleep hustle hustle hustle mistaking halloween rebroadcast orson welles classic radio adaptation war worlds real martian invasion group moronic martians shows earth looking conquer plans go awry find truly element reality alonebr br really often quite good funny decent lines check memorable quotes boot likely appeal scifi fans passed test time seeing recently proved much better expected despite cast made noname stars may funniest martian invasion put film interestingly enough martians seem represent almost every classic action heroscifi hero stereotype cool s teen fighter pilot fearless astronaut brave soldier kooky scientist fun whole family br br prepare die earth scum honestly teeny bit confused people understand pride bragging gay pride celebrating fact us lgbtq flat crime anymore ik vast majority people understand ive seen lot least straight people dont shove face sub lately im sure much fun hyping us inside parade holy crap killed brother killed sims accident worry save every day rolledback last save know whats funnyhow people fucking tell shit care truth care dead people supposed make feel safe fucking make feel worse fucking hope feel guilty lost fucking horrible damage inflicted onto never undone fucking hope feel guilty amount times ive cried bullshit words told nothing fucking hate starting senior year collegeampxbseptember body dysmorphia leads believe gynecomastia plastic surgery research occupies time turns basically negligible case goes away lose weight learned much later onampxbdecember scheduled cancelled surgery dates plastic surgeons remove gynecomastia parents recommend see doctor talk depression obligeampxbjanuary first visit doctor start taking zoloft mg xdayampxbmarch dosage mgday start complaining doctor emotional numbness taper back mg xdayampxbapril bar cold clocked day still know hit clean mandibular fracture broken two places wired shut weeks ampxbaugust decide good need zoloft anymore overweight go drug two weeks later total bmw e m bought year prior running stop light see tboned taxi ampxbseptember researching zoloft weakens bone density increases risk fractures thought zoloft jaw broken starts grow head call mom birthday mention suicide first time says leave earth tearsampxboctober meet new girl become boyfriend girlfriend ampxbapril buy penis enlargement device see bigger gf time mind insecure size begin wanted see bigger ended suffering injury much fast left penis hard flaccid state sometimes actually lost bit length girth leads lot redflag depression still experience dayampxbmay depressed decide start zoloft mg xday ampxbseptember go zoloft girlfriend break ampxboctober january working fulltime met another girl around feb dated recently things ok covid make things easier whateverampxbfebruary approach urologist potential zoloft ruining sex drive reason perform used start research come across wellbutrin start taking wellbutrin mg sr xday ampxbmarch go wellbutrin ampxbwellbutrin mgx per day continues monthlong streaks coupled month cycle repeats months middle past june ampxb end june come across bunch photos year two prior gynecomastiazoloft phase look love see face looked different remember penis looking functioning way used remember way teeth pressed together closed mouth jaw click everytime opened gave girlfriend oral ampxbjuly take fathers competition ruger case next bed parents house hold look wonder cry whatever try fight try think differently nothing really happens put gun back case decide light bowl high pass top parents stairs pm afternoon work rest family vacation house home alone ampxbjuly decide book tee time drop holes tips home course back nine golf big passion mine horror stories trying play collegethroughout highschool played golf entire life july today wake depressed high time start reading people psychiatric medications permanently mess start thinking everything dick fucked face looks different jaw fracture suffered chose take antidepressants ssris probably weakened bone density pissed away good notredflag good women everything go back upstairs take dads ruger look time cry little bit start realize unstable thing holding back really know operate ruger magazines though bullets magazines frighten put back case cry god bit say really tough time man know july hit post reddit grab keys head town habitual coffee yo male getting close scared first time unsure matter time go antidepressant stopped workingive weeks fine want kill anymore still empty nobody loves nobody even cares now stopped working morning mom yelled want die cant stand house hate family seen people really love two weeks want blamed everything want much pressure fucking cares college right now want someone care right now cant even numb pain things video games talking someones care mom thinks bad bad try communicate people actually fucking care bad locked alone see friends see reason kill now ill always alone lie say better wont die makes easier nobody even care cant even kill myselfi tried hang put rope around rafter around neck jump fuck wrong cant anything right even arrange funeral wanted want alone thats fate corporation listening concept quite simple employees wellbeing gt profit know foreign concept something make money nfl doesnt mean puts employees risk nfl hello minor years old exact yes fucking years old suffering depression years old year told one friends two fav cousins depressed friend really helping know fake anyway cousins helping lot told feeling sad contact talk tell parents thinking want therapy even correct age need parents consent want tell really harsh letting anything love tbh school blame school parents telling study focus today cried shower wasted half hour even know cuz fucking hiding coming therapy fellow depressed people know feels tell parents feel asking help want go somewhere nobody present scream cruel world lose voice coming heart kill plz lived life assign adjective yeah longer lost type wth goes nothing today day guess im coming back arent gon na ready first im gon na take shit im gon na leave im gon na prove everyone wrong dont need know post ready m need new friends m recently couple best friends left knew half years need new longterm best friends stuff love playing video games mainly valorant minecraft java oh bit apex im programmergame designer yes ig thats sorta cool really im california nice people timezonerelated reasons play pc pst timezone though said live cali might rendered mute see point livingi friends amp family distant im scared nothing change life anybody suicidal super irrational reasonsim suicidal im tall woman record im twenty four years old ive feelings ninth grade cant seem stop coming cant even tell come super irrational thing suicidal people take seriously root cause depression medication work part cant change people much affects breakdowns times day barely leave house quit job want seen public measure compulsively times every week course help first thing people comment whenever see course something complain people think im humblebragging apparently tall desired reason cant share even fraction much affects life theyd horrified know whats wrong taken life want shorter never happen way makes feel hopeless id honestly rather die know problem probably never go away cant live rest life pissed right saw vid tiktok two girls went miss men went war never came back know fucking offensive likes aswell dads army going war one biggest fears live ireland theres small chance happening hes close death plain sexism girls think place say really makes sad feeling nothing worse feeling sadi want feel something ive never known want escape fucking prison cant brain cause chemical imbalance makes want kill please let feel something want want feel jealousy disease guess disease suicidal thoughtsi keep suicidal thoughts days im happy lets call normal mostly everyday want kill straight away mind broken real meaningful purpose feeling life decisions decided others pushed friends away feel alone even im around people feel stuck want die want leave earth thing keeping family dad mom brother even hard die tomorrow happy knowing people wont im im living feeling already years becoming worse day days weeks years past depressed become read fucking bio fucking dare tired struggleive therapy medication much adolescents spent drug induced zombie graduated binge drinking consuming mg thc day form edibles career almost encourages substance abuse anyone looking dream job im tired go days without sleep sleep solid hours medication working therapy nothing always unhappy ive set date improve check teacher lowering grade previou grading period anyone straight first grading periodnow im end secondand looked back stand one class c wtf techah one remember diewhat really makes depressed fact day die one remember sure friends family remember soon later die memory person making never existed world amazing people forever remembered ramses ii herodotus homero virgil romulo cyrus leonidas pericles hipokkrates socrates plato aristotles alexander great confucius cleopatra julius caeser octavius augustus jesus christ gengis khan joanna darc colombus magellean leonardo da vinci michael angelo donatello raphael oda nobunaga maquiavel shakespeare mozart montesquieu rosseau kant george washington napolean bonaparte beethoven abraham lincoln karl marx lenin freud mussolini adolf hitler stalin salazar franco winston churchill elvis martin luther king jr pel marlon brando marilyn monroe queen michael jackson metallica eminem cristiano ronaldo pewdiepie amazing people changed world way another good bad always remembered matter age immortal even started fictional characters dont even exist yet people know forever exist real im living ghost unable speak see hear whats even point alive love family work things fade matter die im years old im nothing one feel nothing feel emotion stimulus meme book game movietv show social interaction although emotions things make feel super brief without im constant agony cant fine without anything stimulating feel anger sadness dread anxiety sorrow nothing especially painful night im trying sleep count good nights sleep year fingers hands people around dont even realize im always smiling cracking jokes hoping one feels funny owe nothing humanity sometimes hate still care us try help best way killed today people wonder even realize whats inside make done yet life death sides coin life might meaningless death im still ghost living corpse dragging body road life hoping stitches break anyone feel please help im serious today started getting noti phone saying anne sent photos offical notification hit clear come back idk happening cant remember clicking fishy sites ads sometimes open phone now please help im android use play protect matters update got fb dms sas random girl rubbing tits want people know whats happening life cant really tell someone irl without freaking somethingi really dont want stuff going happen soon resulting loosing family school long term girlfriend im really scared im coward honestly rather dead try fix mess mess putting lightly though life large puzzle itd throwing entire thing fire shame im thinking cutting artery idt id stomach ill figure something hear takes bleed dont hit artery people usually discovered saved fortunately live alone dorm room one visits lot time wrote note class addressed girlfriend looking back kinda place dont feel fixing hear slit arm cause permanent damage fuck got medical stuff case wake decide try right guess im writing make sure people know dont history depression havent really shown obvious reasons something think id kill feel certain sense control calmness im actually looking forward time make decision decide go ill let guys know spoke veterans crisis hotlinewhen younger thought redflag quite lot point life decided going zombie living now thats say moments happiness things fun decided live life despite really feeling point recently someone base committed redflag reason got thinking lot think might thoughts passed point return capable decided last night talk redflag hotline veterans person spoke kept referring helpless hopeless thoughts feelings ive seen sentiment many posts feel things amazing life feel horrible one either see point anything best way explain paraphrase monologue beginning movie art getting dawn recorded history something billion human beings born world single one made billion people planet roughly million die every year million people comes per day read quote kid live alone die alone everything illusion used keep night die alone supposed spend life working sweating struggling illusion amount friends girl assignments conjugating pluperfect determining square root hypotenuse gon na help avoid fate anyone problem wanting commit redflag hardships struggles honestly point living anyone thinks alone redflag optionin days first month lost best friend redflag days turned amazing didnt think really thought alone one cared told us first time tried eventually wouldnt care one come funeral two years went th november got call changed life broke disbelief got call didnt believe gone got house back later day call every one friends listen hearts break broke news next night went crash site seen done started feel real seen shattered blue car parts everywhere night people stood around tree tears weeks go im reminded littlest things ill see something want message remember heart breaks tuesday funeral worst day life started open coffin viewing family heart dropped finally real seen almost unrecognisable month old body beautiful best friend every time close eyes think gone image seen haunts later funeral started listened everyone made impact short life hearts break brother held front coffin walked car every face room looked tears walked cemetery looked back people behind us people hurt cared beautiful man thought one lowed coffin took white rose hole said final goodbyes love fucking hurt everyday go lay grave hour everyday talk things missing looking forward want everyone remember redflag doesnt end pain passes ones love remains thought original film quaint charming well sitting edge seat trying figure outbr br already seen original saw sci fi channel know remake deliberately made sci fi knew within first minutes richard burgi character actor wanted see pull offbr br writersproducers etc modernized film bit trying explain plight aliens longer reproduce kind needed help using pseudo science crammed ears s maybe added bit polish film notbr br film film production takes sinister edge original original ended confrontation young woman alien understanding sorts took place although resolution aliens problembr br sort remember remake woman became rather hostile towards burgialien think ended better ending ending yarn swell yarn basic science fiction pulp stock many great science fiction stories written s even made filmbr br swell thing watch rainy day something rate highly cos remakes old s sci fi one came well actually enjoyed quite bitbr br anyone really wants see story told well suggest original version tom tyron gloria talbott directed gene fowler jr gen z want live theres viral video tiktok right know yearold saying hopes everyone related cop dies mean yeah fuck cops theyre assholes fuck wrong people xbox modern warfare hope whole fucking family dies type joke people genuinely want happen enjoyed albert pyuns nemesis cheesy action semicomplicated script lot people complain confusing plot first film probably nemesis nebula dumb rocks plot superaction carry throughbr br one gives name first movies hero alex bulked superfemale sent past save future raised tribe africa good portion film dialogue african tongue without subtitles liked made seem somewhat authentic often movies genre really try take long evil cyborgs time travel back time find try kill herbr br dont wrong piece crap first one anything great subplots involving africas political unrest treasure hunting tribal combat picture short brains none things gets good treatment picture basically drawn fight chases boils musclebabe vs cyborg entertainment value expect quality anything first movie cant decide want kill myselfi seriously wish lived near high bridge golden gate bridge san francisco wouldnt alive right now theres lots trees near house wherei learn tie noose hang crash car metal poll tree high speeds want method thats fast painless world evil cruel place longer want part parents owned firearm likely killed now wish one stuck gun roof mouth die painlessly last year alive im excited fucking escape everything permanently cant live life loser killed young age adviceso recently ive getting extremely caught head past ive found hard able find happiness question make pain go away think constantlyim utterly alone im hurting much cant go longer im giving much everyone gone cant go anymore cant new year new xd bwas tuff challenqinq learned wut lovelt iz wut pain iz made new freinds lt lost old freinds lt learned nd matter wut liv lyff w reqretzz stronqer cant wait new year new wut abowt guys fascinating yet unsettling look edith bouvier beale big edie daughter little edie aunt first cousin late jacquelyn kennedy onasis live rodent infested rundown mansion considered health hazard city becomes quite clear quickly two well past eccentric little edie seems acts mindset ten year old even though actually content pretty much made two things first conversations little edie lambastes big edie driving away potential suitors ruining aspiring career writer actress dancer discussions usually become rhetorical nonsensical often times amusing second part consists long bouts attempted singing parties course thinks singing perfect sounds bad one amazing scene big edie actually physically attacks little edie cane stop warbling captivating yet one gets feeling serious exploitation going subjects far gone know filmmakers seem treat freak show circus coming day record chuckle whatever bizarre behavior may come ultimately sad picture shows world simply past two hopes dreams decayed mansion live despite bickering two need without refuge loneliness amazing line comes big edie whose many cats relieve throughout bedroom response complaint smell simply unbelievable dont know im freaking ive done cant hear ear pushed wax back cleaning ears cant hear left ear happened dont know im freaking dont know dont know whats going killing escape humanityi often think want kill ill never deal another person times truly deeply happy alone nature always way feel alive taking walks starry skies going barefoot moors surrounded animals mind body everything registers people threat true contentment happiness found solitude feel broken deal people feel constant sharp pain makes think sth wrong thing instantly ebbs away alone nature maybe belong society id okay never asked become human id rather free animal tbh now never want see another person people fundamentally untrustworthy cause much pain id id feel whole living alone woods either killing valid options escape humanity redflag mean person anymore biggest wish know im supposed enjoy alive know im young blabla miss stars solitude want go nature let die whenever want give reasonwhy die give best shot lockdown ruined already miserable ability conversation normal human especially voice calls unless im playing game people cant talk discord anymore autistic little brain tells thanks everyone spoke made mindi realized cant bear return home decision liberating first time long time clarity purpose gon na right world goes thank sharing last moments take care one frightening game experiences make keep lights next bed great storyline romantic horrific ironic plot fans original resident evil surprise returning character mention voiceacting drastically improved previous series miss best series keep pretending ok thoughts spiral hard stuck thinking point wanted pursue passion life made huge leaps bounds lot hard work sacrifices primary name major motion picture soon released people proud jealous look idk wish behind perspective huge jumping point huge step right direction storm hit months ago broke living home work took number health great begin thanks genetics still stories want tell world fucked going help anyway even inside gross depressed years juggling suicide past nine months medicated exercise twice day eat healthy sleep sometimes drink smoke cut lot feel better single hope love care kids never wanted career feel want anything die tired know looking someone talk hopes crushed epicallyive suffering depression long remember stopped taking meds two months ago make feel keep mind good place begin already inches swallowing bottles pills weeks ago encouraged apply promotion work interviewed really well according interviewer asked later even acting supervisor days supervisors available told supervisors sure means got work today check email find complete utter denial explanation nobody applied position tonight taking pills ive saved im worthless im worthless deserve live nobody severe ptsd raped military twice got months later given hiv yr old male btw want keep living maybe ill swallow pills maybe ill jump front train maybe ill even bleed ten years left live anyways nobody care something wrong dont know something wrong lying thinking deaths shit hit seen many family members die even close friends die always thought react overwhelming way whenever howeverit doesnt affect rd grade best friend died asthma attack gathered us gym honor everyone looking didnt care spent long girl didnt care died another time wasnt long ago dog years old loved passed told didnt care thought dying figured freak didnt shown picture soldiers heads cut dad didnt want show stepmom kinda forced thought id freak didnt gore doesnt bother anyway used look gorey pictures fun find fake many emotions people dont think im weird situations im practically pro fake tears know anti social personality disorder thing definitely sociopath im type person feels bad bad guy movie something goes wrong dont know normal talk someone quick git commit die sleeping make sure wakes bunch love everyone new wife mad asking basic things pads new clothes school new glasses ect grandma one buy new clothes stuff refused told wanted academic bowl bpa school laughed said mocking tone smart kids anyways many awards lpt heres shortest way girls heart chidori raikiri weebs guys math clicked test minutes pog day crossing street almost got hit car see im extremely upset hitthis first post feel guilty writing mental energy stick around try give back kindness encouragement desperately hoping receive still ive wishing die long time attempted anything serious yet always try hang say im afraid failing suffering permanent damage possible afterlife remnants catholic upbringing really wish day almost died crossed street without looking without even thinking car swerved stopped driver going quite fast feel relief realising still alive felt nothing pain despair close dying without even noticing didnt cant afford therapy family members good enough mentally healthy enough help friend today snapped trying absolute hardest ask support apparently im unreasonable asking whether five minutes spare rather unloading suicidal wishes go figure tried ask help days ago another subreddit honestly answers really hoping know im going post place keep crying despair feel friend actually kept breaking heart part feels well deserved yeah im lost im going anything tonight think feels tempting wish kind words empty know strangers issues lurked people seemed nice feel guilty able give anything back im supposed studying cant job covid situation question right honest really see point im living life im going die soon nothing matters wish die im never happy wish even know im asking point please kind even corny heart emoji guess need someone talk toto anyone either bad day even thinking taking life please feel free send message aim snypers usually online either playing video games browsing reddit feel free send message know isnt much feel need help fellow redditors kill meplease end others even care anymoreive never ordinary kid ive faced multiple occasions physical mental abuse growing imagine kind effects later life hate others feel im fed bread crumbs taking blame things fault know think tiring wake another day hope future one vent without looking attention seeker im always tempted self harm know anymorei hate point really see anymore anyone talk mehi really need people talk right now okay atm im pain moms bf basically hit strangled life honestly pretty shit overall try keep going everyday today bit much called police end still left alone theres much file charges feel alone life tbh know go anymore idk feel anymore bisexual idk biromantic one non gay girl friends kissed cheek idk tell simp barron trump join rbarrontrumpfanclub mom put broccoli spam together dont wrong love mom uhbroccoli spam combo dont know eat excused bathroom write wish luck hhhhhh fuck finished work due monday ive avoiding work understand think might deadline kill feels big mistakei weak human dont care well future failed two studies im late application next one days go nothing interests wanted kill knew future got family sucks want exist im grown always ending ghosting fuck friends need rapists deserve torture please read commenting hello couple friends got argument rapists deserve said death said torture torture cutting fingers shit downvote hell please let explain dad rapist doesnt excuse mom died childbirth dad one cause sister didnt talk anyone cause dad raped hated dad wouldnt torture imagine person u love example whole family dead u ur sondaughter turns rapist u torture hear scream cut fingers u dont imagine u rapists deserve tell u thoughts blocked father dead childi want abortion forced getting one day recovery calls say job done closure end us never pregnancy said help recovery said even though access resources still need communication leasti know describe odd hormone bond pregnant makes want fathers care hung blocked every way possible way contact idea hack atleast hold someone knows im physically unwell already post op bleeding pain mentally cant stand child father gone easiest way go without pain take bunch pills im know feelingive experienced enormous amount loss recently ive posted reaching experienced loss days ago entire family gone today recognize worst part feeling alone even speak someone knowing support comes lack true knowledge awful going actually one broken person another talk want goneim graduated high school done nothing life dropped two colleges right high school home absolutely nothing jobs currently none hate hate appearance life going nowhere lost weight year ago gained self confidence first time years gained back idk calorie day diet months hair thinned crazy even now year eating back normal hair never recovered hairline absolute shit looks diffuse thinning top head little back head major cause depression wanting die know sounds stupid hair many worse things world balding know people wish biggest problem losing hair know logically stupid doesnt change feel perfect hair straightest hair line even beginning hair great idk strict diet coincidence looks horrible hate even typing sounds idiotic spoiled kills every time look mirror see photo even bought wig looked shit drain im young hair transplant started taking propecia dont see results aside head hair body hair im ridiculously hairy hate back shoulders neck arms chest covered hair course everywhere head lol self conscious even lose weight ill never feel confident enough take shirt public beach pool wish badly guys age take shirt jump pool dont go pool beach im wearing shirt makes look fat potato ive gotten dozer laser hair removal treatments arent shit idk laser doesnt work electrolysis option crazy expensive take legit years dont see guys age back hair grown ass men hate thinking going back school found college think might thinking start fall ill freshman ill feel old everyone graduating college ill starting feel late even go back try age ill even older time graduate dont even know fuck wan na study im passionate anything dont care anything im good anything dont want anything want sleep day leave house close taking handful pills going sleep bathtub one believes ill actually commit redflag really thinking im unhappy life self want ended im sorry sound stupid spoiled inconsiderate theres people cant afford food people homeless people cancer people paralyzed wheel chairs stupid fucking ass complaining going bald body hair wtf wan na punch dick people love healthy feel selfish wanting die others want live lose weight try getting electrolysis hair screwed everyone said shave bald dont want itll make look older dont want funny wanted actor yeah yeah know got accepted acting school new york dont even want go anymore cant actor bald hairy fat even lost weight year old gon na even make receding hairline gorilla back even considered trying transition girl read taking hormones stop body hair help head hair grow thats fucking insane seriously considering changing gender hair gay dont wan na girl dont want boobs vagina want guy want look different im much pussy cut wrists dont pain want end wish give life someone deserves wants live idek donate organs knows long body sitting time dad goes upstairs see im sorry dont think anyone gon na read fucking sob story essay wanted want tobecause hate feelingright doesnt seem anything going direction wife two affairsdespite tried make work filed divorce courts ruling favor kids child support top work absolute shit show im lose job justdont know take anymore spent time last night thinking something past things holding back kiddos religions beliefs scared afterlife looks despite theres part wants escape getting harder harder push something change undeniable dilemmaim borderline means distorted perceptions means husband goes verbal tirade tells awful imcant say hes wrong says im abusive son remember said yell last night home son day recovering minor surgery exhausted stayed night check asked husband help ask right way overwhelmed exhausted came across bitchy guess yelled yelled yelled ways im horrible already knew piece shit husband thinks threatened wit telling really thought go idea ask help properly know borderline quit next months spent planning arranging redflag feeling never goes away im trapped unhappy marriage someone verbal abuses calls abusive one believe im borderline feelings last borderline shelol forget hours anyway nope forget hard forget years wrong bad horrible always causing trouble time go hurt anyone better mom killed mom thats borderline im going abuse others dead cant leave husband fight custody child support use mental illness pot use theres way win im going stay way wants mouth shut chore errands everything around house everything kid never ask money anything im going play nice doctors save meds enough bother posting gives shit stupid fucking borderline one herpes mental illness maybe date gets closer ill come back tell plan maybe post non forum tell theres one less borderline world maybe jump front train today instead sorry wasting anyones time read borderlines fucking joke people laugh kill one help nothing helping mens help therapy help know besides ect lobotomy redflag way find way guts unbelievably close real life feelings emotions captured joseph mazzello hemophiliac child affected aids new young neighbor wannabe tough redneck played perfection brad renfro although story may seem slightly farfetched two boys attempt riverraft several hundred miles find doctor claims cure aids emotion actions interactions characters involved tragically close real life big brother boy similar situation died years film released strongly recommend picture anyone wondered really happens life child aids superb direction peter horton creates perfect mood setting scene draws viewer various emotions affected friendship illness prejudice final parting two friends fought hard overcome adversity want diei think best thing copy paste wrote empty shell person skin bones organs nothing except intruder brain soul even know know long time made brain home cant seem leave swap life anyone die want thats going happen biggest obstacle convincing family best wish lay chemicals body show ones work ones let belive let alone think good enough ones convince happiness belong ones make feel alone room full people love ones make feel detached everything goes front ones stop feeling ones make think everyone looks criticising every inch body ones keep night fantasising dying see lives better place living see benefit bring longer live spiral abyss depression scars show flaws exposed wake feel crap alive god cant save please kill let go mind peace way tomorrow go pharmacy painkillers sell one box go next pharmacy another know need two last time oded whole pack ended hospital one pack im going try hardest let throw time work really hard finish dissertation friday saturday hotel room want grandma find fucking hate cats lot stray cats live mother cat kittens outside house wanted give food put food plastic cup went outside give mother cat scratched hand make food drop superb film draws variety talented actors musicians top form levant crosby martin rathbone manone completely home story apparently supplied billy wilder one love know much exceptionally clever variation sterile masterfertile servant tale nearly allegory entertainment industry run driedup numskulls made vibrant world art play exploited underclass nobodies nonwasps looking last six decades music tv film us hard see underlying insights film prophetic even fun sad dont know assume people feel way personally dont jerk makes feel crap horny dont even hub stay away horny want jerk chore stand sad horny anyone feel honestly even horny urge im readyi meticulously planned redflag making painless tidy possible feel great thing motivating right change life moment end pain quick trip home everything need end life quickly thing getting day anyone advice motivation following crimson stained roadwell following dusty red road path turns sideways every step sink deeper deeper thick red blood red blood path special tells dirty little lies finally start believing lies fake smile put someone asks whats wrong path let sleep night pulls deeper every hour sleep cant breathe step step step dark crimson lines wrists finally breathe dark angry lines remind certain crimson path hopefully ill see person tonight feeling pretty bad random year old picked fight feel times better know matter tired lonely sad ill never sad enough continuously pick fights internet strangers wrote redflag note part demanded post set delayed send go end guess thats healthy part im sorry bit novel see much reason selfedit stagei want say im sorry family didnt cause deserve didnt deserve deserved child sibling wouldnt hurt break heart force feel unnatural unearned guilt child sibling absolute best disease beyond powers suppose im sorry current friends might hurt know isnt fault either lights life marvels every one wish much happiness love success suppose im sorry former friends rejected plain terms assume either nurse unspoken grievance simply lost interest novelty wore virtues multiplied know ive resented resentment begin realize mostly arose failed understand needed much obligation give part arose failure understand part still wants spit poison feel wronged ill show proper motive redflag never particularly likeable girl thinking clearly never particularly good hiding ugly irritating features graced im sorry wasnt either us wanted thats thing always really wanted liked people effort put failed often course cant try likeable tried interesting clever generous seemed things might attract people guess couldnt hang lack core capacity basic humanity many share deficient perhaps even everybody liked still feel way whatever hurt goes deeper bandage woven shared lagers laughter mend trying fight loneliness kind snake oil remedy dont know finding miserable failure things desire even need certainly well im sure understand im sorry trans community know clich tranny cant hack kills old story told poorly one strove tell realm many others suppose overestimated im sorry making us look bad wont first time ive sorry ambassador us hard sometimes seems easier little brief illusions success popularity distract never lasts soon every time im back first real emotional memories back high school now lie bed staring wall fantasizing things never finding solace planning end knowing theres really nowhere run disease inside constitutes rotten core realized hasnt gotten better keep going round around finding back stale hell gritted teeth attempted bare many times changes upon changes road less tired march edited explicit description methods line subreddits rules im sorry wont pass cheekbone genes next generation always joked im sorry wont well whatever plans werent idle daydreams might nursed realities merely yetunrealized hearts wish see im sorry anything wished said didnt opportunities slip away kinds reasons thoughts keep running back road past times curling hole chest imagining sweet oblivion hope think think back rare moments happy lying back stephens van long ago watching street lights pass auroras overhead perfect sunday sams cabin giggling wrestling sticks bottled water saturday evening music festival attempting clumsily apply makeup rhea messy poorlylit sedan moment apartment whisper kevin asked fuck come think one memories involving drugs far bingeing rome brother basement eating quesadillas mom made bowling two strikes row annabelles birthday party night comical failure everyone getting ready leave philosophy mind classes occasionally felt neil ryan bouncing ideas became polished arguments though guess sometimes really three us better yet luck making happy think thats really gave life whatever small worth least little consolation among people annoyed made angry even put worst moments least times paid enormous debt awfulness little joy maybe version eternal recurrence favoured nietzche relatable character cloud atlas true find places likely chances time read body floated distance entry point fraser river may unrecoverable honestly gives fuck instinct give friends first pick clothes basically worldly possessions right probably workable option donate organization needs maybe youll find something mine garage sale value village somewhere likely please dont blame please dont blame everyone constitution survive world didnt come argue case want say goodbye love wish stay im sorry say cant going kill anybody gun plz let use cuz tired hearing peoples bullshit things better want die growing irrational fears start mom told used terrified deflated blowup snowman believe said across street lived time apparently screamed bloody murder sight quite remember really little happened next supposedly scared drama faces mom says funniest part drama faces neighbourhood yet apparently scared getting hit vehicle according sister used lot nightmares said used weird monsters dreams said used tell shell go beat apparently used laugh end falling asleep thinks picturing tiny beating monsters probably made laugh dwarfism got older remember becoming scared falling used able use escalators fine suddenly became scared use nowhere use elevators fine though certain kinds stairs im noticeably cautious walking remember teeter totter someone fine got older felt nervousscared higher air thats quite yeah developed strange fears growing anyone feeling sad feel sad nothing pandemic anything im stuck continuous loop dont know dont know want dont anyone hang im confused help alone need helpim m lost girl going marry hate job live home cant afford anything friends always told im people want friends gfs ive reached others never works bullied whole life see path gym help always depressed feel worthless care anymore anything want end though movie first rate roster fine actors special effects excellent story line full surprises picked studio distribution went directly dvd perhaps contains much antipolice force information perhaps juts one many action flicks released glut whatever reason big screens missed opportunity fortunately new concept releasing direct dvd allows us enjoy itbr br theme old rookie reporter uncovers inner circle cops corrupt case frat first response assault tactical team group well trained policeman created clean mythical city edison low point crime drugs prostitution etc working undercover temptation pocketing confiscated goods money proves much opportunity now years formation frat responsible murder drug trafficking terrorizing innocent people etc lead dog lazerov dylan mcdermott makes terrifyingly real gangster partner rafe deed ll cool j even buff usual proving sensitive actor reporter pollack justin timberlake catches wind bad mistake reports theory fraud corruption papers boss ashford always reliably fine morgan freeman gradually polack convinces ashford subsequently wallace kevin spacey consistently fine character actor aid pollack investigative reporting closer pollack gets truth surprises bad incidents happen story runs pall mall toward series unexpected resultsbr br timberlake lacks charisma carry lead especially company seasoned actors cool j freeman spacey mcdermott keep welloiled machine movie rolling end great movie one makes edge seat action flick message grady harp know domale soon years old years met first girlfriend something tbf understand mental challanges nevertheless really fucked never enjoyed sex previous age appropriate girlfriends ended relationships really want sex sex month turning ive current absolutely amazing gflive partner years love death still commit sex never initiated stare upon ceiling trying think something believes asexual id problem going years orgasms fuck care think im overlysensitive consider lucky may considered good looking know wrote gone hour still finished paragraph plea help know sincerely hope best yall mind racing please well id even say shades hitchcockthis clearly better mmm seen guilty pleasure woody fans way know annie hall first conceived murder mystery anyhow woody reclaims relevance film comedy one plot turns nice tight say first minutes actors little hasty delivering lines stick around scarlett johansson proves wellcast diane keatontype role time uncomfortable moments much older woody one imagine perfect actor role peter lyman jackman tired stateless invisiblei years old guy south america rather say country inmigrant spain many years mom brought kid life misery home country stateless home country give new passport without birth certificate spain grant assylum ilegal inmigrant living small room mom barely pay rent survive sometimes afford meals day walk street fear taken toll im lucky pass local skin fairly white long talk people spot foreign accent start asking questions trust anyone arrested twice guardia civil second time policia nacional caught selling replica clothing downtown madrid reason arrest living spain without proper authorization ive een beaten bullied xenophobic police officers well robbed many times local spanish pickpocketers inmigrant even report thieves authorities time end suffering kill please go ahead shit chant ilegal inmigration online school im england reason decided go lockdown school online classes first time today think starts couple hours need know whats coed high school im never going know ask redflagwatch need helpfirst apologize cohesive post im kind typing thoughts come please read though ill start beginning best friend years recently opened events transpired life younger honestly need know better friend help difficult time life well simply call friend c c years old im met high school years ago brother differences honestly say constant life hes great guy never talk emotion anything sort hes reserved person never really opened always knew tough life mother good person hes living father young age last night house hanging argument text longtime girlfriend well call h never appreciated much kind girl thinks thinks wrong believe toxic person never tried way cs relationship although knows think fact agrees sheltered understand real world fact h completely hates im cigarette smoker atheist even though ive good friend c hates think rather silly reasons typical argument two always says really meanspirited things yet continues drag along telling really care always says knock peg time though snapped went told fuck pretty much finally got tired talked thats told going go home little bit back later think much told ill see soon hours later calls tells walking door asked going told got phone redflag hotline thought called hs behalf never guess million years always stoic told breakdown needed talk someone honestly shocked ive never known emotional asked exactly happened concerned basically told argument h triggered major anxiety attack past events came flooding told actually molested child came back know say never knew bad vented little bit tell everything problem though c always stoic literally never emotional conversation honestly know talk kind thing simply boundary never crossed told needed talk always told anything needed know say thats much experience kinds things hes feel kind failed clueless say ended watching hobbit going sleep left early morning spoken need help better know im really hes got talk kind thing better experience type thing im ears thanks advance update texted minute ago asked says better says considering seeing therapist keep everything bottled encouraged let know always well continue best even simply needs bitch life thank advice additional resources must god must god answer certain choose either way send inevitably stupid comments nothing reallife emotional hell hole im struggling see good anything point anything nothing real difference make disappeared tomorrow sheer coincidence theres magic bearded man sky hand fortune planet solar system random happenstance im dead truly nothing consequences feel bad world exist thank god plot starts interesting towards end many die short time turning thrillermystery aspect story slaughterbr br true highlights adam beach jrgen prochnow excellent selves nice try inappropriate last third though good ending whats best way handlethings talk someone tried commit redflagi talk someone shooting police put psych ward involuntary hold want visit theyre processed wanted hear anyones personal experience either side best thing person hear want go personal details someone know well know whats going life hoped someone provide guidance approach person intoxicated degree well influence suggestions need helpi cant take anymore im tired alone lonly dont want move worth plz idk anymore reading straighten back banana shaped bleep slowly coming peace idea deathi need post history say ive seeing therapist year hes helped way thoughts recently switch kinda flipped ive redflag mind past time different now roughly past week ready go bed rather hang dramatic way upset wanting waiting actually therapist number crisis intervention center last time saw im sure id use anyway honest really real reason post maybe someone feeling alone relate im sure good one deadlines three days cant fucking anythingplease fucking end death better migraines head cant anything done meds helping shitty family friends shitty world live reasons go smart enough good enough courageous enough better dead wish fatal accidentevery single day read innocent people killed people want alive anything position take terminal fast growing cancer away someone headon fatal collision freeway drunk driver literally begging die dont know go redflag knowing pain scares dont want family loved ones blame easy relatively painless method redflag presented wouldnt look gift horse mouth ive dealt really shitty hand life years age im fucking exhausted cant keep charade much longer whats hentai hear people talking alot idea best examples find pms understand thanks sabotaging myselfjesus christ fuck wrong im supposed take new treatment depression anxiety keep going therapy saying im taking taken single pill month im fucking stupid cant believe im sabotaging realising still hate wanting end end june now guess coming please read thishey everyone im guy early seriously considering killing long time friends moving life relationships becoming established unsuccessful long term relationship multiple hookups im fucking tired hookups know someone emotionally dull constantly every week monotonous shit working days week day usually spent alone sometimes jobs blend wind working days straight spent alone coworkers connect better time substitute teach frequently go drink stay late weeknights work restaurant interaction girls outside work either relationships want fuck around tired getting nowhere personal life career mostly personal life drink much anymore becoming problem smoke cigarettes day cut cant stop want fucking kill every time wake ill often wake crying wishing face day matter hard work certifications degrees jokes make ive told everyone thinks im hilarious personable hahahaha plans make go bed every night alone wake plans single textcall throughout day asking spend time someone know call spend time worst part everyone socialize cheers enter room even nickname laugh everything say hangout together constantly never invited unless basically force im seeing psychiatrist therapist im lamictal mood swing possible bi polar disorder things better still feel empty every fucking day im going drive gun expo next month walk firearm im going drain account go road trip favorite hobby traveling im going go everywhere united states wanted go comes time come back im gna blow fucking head went bed yesterday praying wake upwell happen worst part many people useful members society talented gifted pass away meanwhile done anything productive wastes oxygen stay im big pussy actually something world fucking unfair many people deserve ive got im wasting away guilt feel immeasurable hating body time tfw u sleep pillow ur thighs ur ur side rest upon eachother cant stand feel touch everyone ignoring subi dont know say friends dont want say word goodbye thinking messaging goodnight thanks everything think heroic therapistsmy therapist arguing suicidal people attempting redflag want live bullshit suicidal people ive met whove attempted still suicidal including shes convinced shes read facts evidence suicidal people actually want live life good need saved somehow art horses even though genuinely want die therapists really want feel theyre saving life heroic theyre saving people want die leaving suffering dont understand havent felt feel friends sent fucked texts give upall friends past fucked left major trust issues last friendship ended telling everyone talked toxic selfish despite fact always make time matter theyd angry hung literally anyone wanted die dont along parents friends ive known newer friends almost years thought finally friendship last today thought itd real funny pull epic prank pretended stalker kept leaving messages going see got work even gave location apartment pretty scared thought someone fucking asked two friends fucking times swore werent honestly assholes deserve oscar start believe person real anxiety making feel awful whole thing im literally near tears work messages wont stop even manager got worried said tell somebody go home early minutes later cue fucking assholes walk laughing say along planning longer scared id call police fucking furious laugh say oh youre actually angry left without even giving real apology two adults theyre dumb teen knew scared panicking thought shit hilarious give last straw realize awful two make feel time im letting go anymore hate almost much hate point dont know im gon na trust anyone know probably wont friends honestly thought lonely makes want die knows probably next days ill least gone end month know much truthi put long want know story youll first person wont lie tbh still lied things hate dont know hell someone someday starting age became depressed wasnt bad age became suicidal attempting take life surviving attempt due hook holding rope breaking guess got lucky childhood great compared others utter shite compared well werent poor pretty much anything want issue wanted proper family anything marriage hardly something call functional domestic issues home life wasnt best times isnt something dwell doesnt affect dont care affects day walked house age somewhere find mother trying kill blood everywhere day never looked hate fact cant understand something thing years later school life never best known people popular kind existed slightly interesting person small group close friends people rather large group people placed never cared appearance school really didnt give shit relationship came later sad time everything life seemed wrong time realised talent literally nothing know barely got good grades school straight cs average probably tell quality writing part large nerd call skype played games chatted night life around time started working less pleasant characters say took dark places witnessed things wish forget one topic net dive fear bringing bad memories finishing th form high school top grades ready university ready die mind back thing stopping needed girl cheated bf said left tell next day forget fucking girl looked eyes lied said love girl fucking took hospital tried take life fucking girl held arms drifted conciseness taxi bled neck fucking girl many things even begin talk girl much think insane hell people person one still care anyone gone decided week tried kill much handle girl told stay away played mind feelings damn way write christmas day im worried next days come ive realised want thats thing tried month ago two years ago ive posted ended hospital nearly every post wish anyone contact police bullshit run put danger post asking even live nothing one hold dear world miss month two name fade thinking ending allim long time stalker subreddit know strange thing say thinking ending many occasions feels increasing feeling right thing right fiance friends work guess lessen impact finding wondering things tidy things make things easier handle passing worth livinggood evening everyone im sure correct place post oh well suicidal thoughts age never actually anything im writing despite thinking killing near future living find boring nothing personally enjoy seeing people around depresses even luckily enough blessed good family never notable problems trouble school trauma social problems despite thoughts never told anyone apart teacher familiar want hurt ones love think therapy kind help though tried yet point need live anything done least thought hate certain things school even stuff necessarily hate spending times loved ones boring pointless grow older feel trouble keep coming financially independent want live pay taxes nothing truly live know normal im oversensitive start thinking future end crying want live want end life front others always put fake smile invent random garbage goto job life people look weirdly move im tired recently thoughts become stronger spending evenings roof idea yet impossibility im weak anyone situation ive tried setting goals stuff nothing gives live please give ideas appreciate ideas regarding painless ways go future thank taking time today sent sister image something think sent pic dick sickos today sent sister image little kid petting furry looked convincing enough dog still thinks dog wan na ruin tldr sent picture kid petting furry sister thinks dog comment post noice post brought noice gang ive made mindok im sad today fill paperwork guide dogs organisation doctors heres thing ive issues cant go details eat pretty good diet certainly type diet cause major illness malnourishment feel ok eat onoff problems go away little come back ive accepted fact health change actually terrible problems uncomfortable doctors tried help recurring issues curing properly meaning fix issues come back time due complicating circumstances doctors careful medicines give means im restricted medications currently taking medicines good thing anyway doctors done best ive tolerated issues long enough im willing keep persisting getting better swimming current guys going start making memories long willing certain point patience finally runs retiring good luck guys tank support led give much appreciated ive made decision live much happy life im saying peace quality life quantity life take care guys im putting life order take doctor comes brilliant solution thats good stands currently im buying time im worn thin life better anyone lay dark think different ways dyingam one somehow find strange peace knowing one absolute way end hurt courage go someone send jail ive got much horny system cant contained love getting reason love going court alright everybody persevere stay til sunrise think let spare dream suffering depression years ongoing headw meds side almost major life evens graduations travelling solo cover everything recently seen change destructive behaviour evolving pill popping major alcoholism sober now isolation even recent thing seem piercings professional experience whatsoever stick poke gave pricing tattoos separately prior idea scare past months given least piercings night confines bathroom ashamed even though live alone never hidden coping mechanism seems foreign externally puppettered idk asking anymore feels behaviours brain adjust according going headampxbi sorry incoherent mind mush nose hurts bitch last piercing gave lol half bad immediate response self destructive behaviour evolve change circumstances sometimes smarter us posting ara ara forget day ara ara less want die want liveif switch end life think pressed now whole process dying scares want leave body mess definitely want make unsuccessful attempt want another years living life long already enough good bits make bad lonliness biodoc enigmatic singersongwriter according friends accounts spent last years relatively short life seemingly mission selfdestruction died overweight dissipated heart disease protracted rampage virtually nonstop overindulgence alcohol cigarettes marijuana cocaine raucous partying flagrant misuse vocal instrument confided friend shouted lyrics one performance force spattered blood left microphonebr br despite fact widely considered perhaps gifted pop singing ability generation successful years effort terms industry acclaim grammy oscar decent recording contract top label least two stellar albums nilsson schmilsson originals little touch schmilsson night standards happily married third time lovely young family seemed adorebr br films strengths begin completeness account nilssons life including fine use archival film footage many stills nilsson editors especially good job bringing movement stills learn close ties john lennon later ringo starr lennon often said nilsson favorite american musicianbr br even impressive talking heads often documentarys weakest aspect people perry botkin jr ray cooper mickey dolenz terry gilliam mark hudson eric idle rick jarrard randy newman van dyke parks jimmy webb robin williams telling amazing stories nilsson many uproariously funny others deeply pathetic everyone conveying deep affection equally informative moving interview segments nilssons wives annie una son zach cousin doug hoefer best set heads recall biodocbr br glaring deficiency film crowds nilssons music even performance greatest hit without cut short bars arrrrgh excuse given movie runs full two hours lose head shots heard least song perhaps one two one oscar winning cover everybodys talking filmmakers simply intent plumbing nilssons psychological mystique attentive enough music grades low b seen nwfcs reel music series arm become snake thanks obama care got fucky wucky arm fixed got kicked balls bear left kind redflag scar obama care exist cost arm leg thats epic bruh moment epic victory royale plas vote election thanks bois girls bears want feel pretty area girls blonde skinny short thick latinas considered beautiful hot one blasian brown eyed girl gets treated terribly im always ugly friend always tall boys told arms long im built man makes sad cant help im made pretty im smart im funny bake cook sports pretty much anything im open minded always gets taken granted im addison rae look alike hope catch covid diebecause im pussy takewho q good resource prescriptions much take finish life going nowhere lost half money saving past year fulltime job stock market stupid absolutely despise work done show lack compassion caregiving world little valued employee let ruin mentally scared quitting trying find new one lacking self confidence able anything isolated longer friends anyone talk outside family form close notredflag everyday depressed anxious redflaged life world current state mind failed nearly everything tried work minimum wage job blew opportunity graduate college find good career put living life becoming adult skills hobbies interests awkward express emotionally intimately another person virgin adult relationship see reason smoke eat drink death fuck shattered hopes dreams ability sense normalcy life best option gun go forest shoot head falling cliff everything life absurd hate seriously thinking buying gun online failed read hell kill myselflets start beginning age almost dropped high school finally free kind filthy wasting time institution filled monkeys classmates decaying structures absent teachers nation really point thus decided involved people either decay rest projecting life end december wouldve three months firsts april always suffered kind depression bornt never really gave care always found reason mind stronger along fact never really cared social priority thus getting people youngsters around age follow wouldve explained path political projects talk may sound strange nation situation thats every single child despise interest seems forced bear understand order survive behaviour well finally thought wouldve free live selftaught autodidact throught always believed best polymaths type habitat circumstance able study whatever needed projects kind educations perhaps even graduating high school onetwo years giving exam selftaught possible even though really seems necesarry anymore considering neither university students job mention university students show usually behave arrogant brats whoms school paid daddy flee away country still complaining even anything change situation already projects ready every single disciplinesubject chosen specific type education school best advanced details every one example scientific school schedule subjects chemistry mechanic institute mechanics language obviously languages literature electrnocis much course projects sadly mature throught time though becoming thus devided differently mainly studying eight hours lightly training every hour eating every six hours even working six years still underweight struggle food take care projects finishing studies going gym two hours eating making food next days going sleep four hours going night job baker one either security guard starting beginning daily routine least comes real problem really stressed three times trying kind institute first one pass next class rejected many time absent really say ive never absent single class entire school life point barely even really sick started feeling strange nervous slow depressed sometimes remain night awake trying desperately drink coffee studying able remain awake day class thought wouldve better always talking december third institute scam ive betrayed two girls ive directly trying friends always happen start getting hated life matter much courtesy show happens really known enough people tell behavious try always test people trying different behaviours spountaneous one emotional either caring getting people instinct even tho always understand others due natural matured perception life thats school life ive always remained home wasting time now even enthusiastic new life everything started sleeping much usual feeling hope everything even getting house occasionally every two months period met wrong people made lose time even though met people around internet political projects social personal matters matured learn various courses getting job music seaplane course region fighting courses usual shaolin gym thus started refusing parents money countrys legal age getting job wanted travel know people finally train regularry stronger gain weight im lbs lose lbs skipping meal even eating six day week wanted finally find soulmate hopefully make spouse projected finish projects start writing works along much another external point ive hypersexual bornt sexually active sinec literally entering middle school wouldve done harem determination stuck home libido wouldve following seducing girls everywhere bad never couragedetermination ask relationship im inevitabely honest stupid brat wished sex saw nothing wrong nowaday call friends benefits always believed relation ship needed wouldnt kneel fron woman hopefully time wouldve changed start appreciate traditions always defended culture many ancestors mine died become pure nationalist even knowing biologically shows possible excludeed civilized rational society leaving political views aside made think awful girl sex thus wanted find girl life wouldve gave love sex even want anyway real sin life im three months still sexual experience except light touching clothers girl middle school cousins nothing feel frustrated ashamed lost failed really always thought holding verginity pathertic always sure id lose connects fact find even girl life mean reading even novels true story even people sex makes furiously rage force sleep order feel pain depression ive done two years now bullshit say everything couldve project life routine finding finishing able marry live good family house countryside bride family trees parents usually save money sonsons home even always telling deserve single cent others money legally addressed able couldve moved ass remained active everyday finding girl right properties couldve ask make woman instead anything spent time getting active one week month felt strenght make eat wash thats obviously done something two travels filled fridge shopping meals one summer even travel summer idiot still stubborn wanitng earn money remaining home trying job four times two years find hope thought deserve travel without constructivecultural purpose meant either find girl outside view cultural place meeting people location around summer fun laid many years virgin firstly believe fun thought wouldve finally see bride promise purity last months lost asked many times parents give euthanasia strenght finish two years ago projecting travel around dying laid wanted much time spent life computer knowing eromanga works maturing culture getting work even resulting maturing commonly others personal studies conducted school computer science furiously jealous angry much even finding mere male character less years works mean years couldve studied computer sceince well cant even make program know html bullshit sql started c even wanted code last institute ive girl particular three months older cute liked ghibli movies felt getting hated suspect reason left school private scam paid parents never inform themselve even gave warning suggested finally send normal school girls well third institute boys schools computer science studies met girl months ago nearly two years even giggling telling missed receiving mt amethyst collar present everything kept ignoring whatsapp considering live far telling found annoying even nearly even writing fact annoy anyway attention second time fallen love girl considering third school wouldve show front house morning freezing cold shirt always try give example way youth strenght nowadays even degrees people act eskimo first time girl middle school stalked time order approach end school never getting able end fel righr courage many times house rang bell asked talk hear well intercome poor sound understood couldntdidnt want come reason meet now except caring three months ill damn eighteen years old hell cope without hanging right now know even single girl entire life never relation none got two years never sexual experience holding lose bride job save money future even finish computer science studies im talking electronicts mechanics bullshit understand jobs highschool degree train eat properly two days getting depressed sleep feel hurt even hours feast writing anything projects work travel anywhere ive done fucking nothing two years even knowing never able even sexa age connects everything make feel shit even give always ive done life eventually fail thus feel forced save energies remained look people even work ass anything every merit last societys burocracy failed driving license driving motorcycle cc strenght motivation study theory lazy ass questions without kind reasonable logic written badly poorly showed discrepance every question answer studied anyway remember notion every single damn one even though impossible remember many considering indeed possible mentioned everyone remember think find trick reason well let tell something question particular logic side even try reason thus know mnemonic tracts obviously failed got right next time studying three days occasionally next time drive found forced ask help mothers friends even bigger bikes order learn gears everything shitty schol sadly paid instead selftaught watch learn either give impossible instructions without letting practice learn gears ride third lession thus three hours next times one legally make drive road learn self taught thus thrown road without knowledge schoo pression stopped every two time never getting drive alone first time failed walky talky used poor audio got wrong side mistake second time drove fastly enough create traffic blockage gave priority always use lights evetything perfectly got rejected anyway last point surpassed vehicle stuck even remaining line problem road indications go straight right left left seen ordered last second due helmet people drived slow even without good capabilites passed anyway reasons day knew kill destroyed everything failing hang im emotive person even really sensible usually feel anything time frustration tough bear even remember last time able cry feel touched cry even watching wind rises graveyard fireflies cinema feeling depressed hurting feeling inside weighting everytime tried find anygirl watch first movie withe desperation cute girl last institute anymore try work projects three months remaining maybe laid finish im still trying see either hang euthanasia gun getting weapons license either drink mix poisonous sedative herbs interested herbalism years well submit fate keep spending days sleeping jerking trying study struggling eat wash stubborned train every shower even weak farely mostly beating wishing turn miracle save even ive fought even talking miracles change everyday wake feels nightmare anyway even real acquaintance know six years slowly decaying hes always introvert weve seen years skype youtube far away tried teach make see opportunities even difficult situation eventually got girlfriend year happy even little jealous sinec hes one year younger well bad days seems getting destroyed personality mantained discolourating hair piercing lips eyelobs someone really bad likely talk leaving world never friend life well fact consider bride woman tho mix become one considering wife real right arm helper every man believe person might call freind one entire world one never complains utmost loyalthy faith sacrifice himher thats far got contacts acquaintances never wife never finish single project never live countryside house family never able mature advanced studies medicine engineering never able redeem nation id die noawadys dacaying society never able write anything projected never travel know people never strong able fight never got defend family never feel satisfaction sacrifice never wasted youth back part know many sounds stupid either lost virginity certain age marry wanted live fresh period youth showing life short live laziness many people suffer laziness parasitism id liked girl age two years younger projecting life projects youth wait redeem wasted time sensations different strenght different way opportunities come changes everything done right ahead thats wouldve perfect least learn computer science work home gardening diy become indipendent getting girl know mature finally live together theres little time tho even bear move theres still little time redeem two years wasted thing weights forces feel regret fact even losing whole wasted time instad panicking getting work thats unacceptable know regret wasted time schedule wanted create step step everything th year considering person always even slapping cant strenght except im starving survive either start stink everytime burden starts weight sleep feel pain ive always even done meditation yers gym along maturing years calm impulsive multitasking machine think bad personal everywhere look makes remember well sex implied discussion feel touched explained cant accept feel years sacrifices work even phyisically ive passed state break rocks train even broken bones work even able bed cooking sit watch common brats waste time friends able gym five times even though time able hundreds better thats want best go read old thread mine wanting hang read even give fuck remembered happy people top abilities bad leading example sacrificing life polymath reason around kiddos able one thing life praised considering ive never hand life even parents even care build staying filthy room year people around either good parents among maybe even one teach even single profession keep life nothing want end ive seen nsna ive seen roger moorefilms must say felt good see connery proves times one bondbr br film really masterpiece really worth watching jokes sit much better effects funny interesting connery connery brandauer really good villain von sydow wasted score often good scenes seem pretty unnecessarybr br petshonestly want write long pity backstory experienced goes nowhere ill try brief generically nothing left besides pets become anchor life reason live dreams hopeless point family split hardly factor anyone goes think loved ones none sorry fault frankly know nobody blame short definition failure burned bridges disappointments point wound alone cant keep relationships escape scars past dont enough money time keep around happy spills friendship thats fact aside good way make sure pets cats taken care different one nice doesnt along well pets slow slow hes bit chunky sweet uses claws much eccentric litter generally good way making sure taken care ampxb theyre still pretty young waiting another years feeling really feasible planning immediately done pretty thorough research better ducks row tips goodbye guessi need help wan na kill im gon na probably school much pain possible cant keep anxiety full bus really problem option school wan na cry scream whatever im emotionless fuck wrong happy problem free child think expectations high complain fucking child others bigger problems bitching never asked girl feel comfortable body old enough knife gun yet brothers friend got swiss army knife sooo fucking enough shit tough failure anymore redflag lists bye loved anyone cry anymorebeen lot first girlfriend actually really cared broke yesterday cause bored ive lost relationships family drug use im sad feel cry million tears cant havent cried years even shit make friends redflag attempts mums cancer diagnosis losing friends moving cant cry cant let makes feel really bad know guys shits tough holding redflag want ex girlfriend feeling responsible starting closer closer thank guys love see reasonso yeah first time wright thoughts depending life redflag real name max im years old live small city germany called trier look normal person nothing special pretend im fine year now im supposed job life right road germany still live motto arbeit macht frei work makes free even allowed say sure live anything less worth hoboshit people pretend want help tell lie look think theyre better someone kills pretend knew thing someone goes rampage blame media question innocence victims say life better really see light end tunnel im tired people need help psychological trashcan react pissed need talk im tired wasting mind worth know life unfair honestly feel sympathy start shooting revenge teacher look away bosses everybody looks away comes confrontation someone finally gets revenge unfair shit loneliness hate went trough hes villain brought far live never happened continue bullshit say follow picture justice know mother life worth living thats reason cant often think killing solution voice says cut open gets louder day day thought taking brought far said want mother live thoughts son something father touched back game know happened school pure terror stole stuff got hit often stopped counting tried convince teachers im neonazi nearly successful teachers said tell something happened respond supposed one helped brother help teachers help principle didnt life fight want live rules darwinism know change thing im bad guy played many egoshooter listened metal thats spare energy put life end due fairly mild heart condition likely wont able drink alcohol smoke weed basically orthostatic hypotension stand blood pressure drops time problem every years bad attack days ago worst due multiplle factors passed times convulsed span minutes middle dang cvs decided actually look condition basically alcohol weed lower heart rate heart rate already low recommended dont either wasnt hyped alcohol wouldve nice try weed older ive cursed comments days row cursed holy sheep falsely accused sexual harrasment earlier today im confused hear happening time never thought happen anyone want chat idk dm u im probably gon na go sleep soon tho respond im probably sleeping sorry cereal definitely soup goodbye people say film typical teen horror movie well horror movie teenage girl expect good film counted actual screams audience whilst film jumpy scary film bored film point even edge seat one point thing slightly bad tiny bit slow getting actual storyline led happened happened acting good scenery good storyline good hope see stranger calls months good film better omegle hey yall anyone know sites similar omegle without dicks talking random people lmao want interesting chat dms open chat anything really crazy stuff weird shit vent rant appreciation post ubellamtzzz fucking hate bitch fine cause baes asf wanting dead years waiting wanting good moments change bad amount amount good change bad matter hard try better even seem better matter time revert back monster seems lll always pushing boulder hill matter close top rolls back wish finally end good dying hard everything uhh liking guy never responding clown hours anyway hows everybody life super super duper boring rn tell exciting things youre make feel excited sure movie historically accurate great entertainment demille pictures especially later epics slow plodding action moves clip story basically series peaks little quiet moments action takes us indian raid cabin one best parts movie jean arthur excellent attempting appease warpainted natives followed cooper taken war camp tortured later comes protracted battle cheyenne whole thing ridiculous great fun entertaining start finish jean arthur one best actresses era shines remember kids homicide day keeps doctor away reasons leave sub unfunny posts plague sub every weeks sexism lies karmawhoring pedophilia stolen ideas want die anything sad anymoreim confused im happy everything going good life im starting feel better appearance urge go lay snow freeze death overwhelming im even sure im posting know damn well guts guess im hoping talk something truly remarkable film takes journey hidden emotionsa deep enlightening story story takes lives beliefs gay religious cultures excellent performances superb star cast touch deepest reaches emotions belief love risks nothing worth nothing film starts introducing us characters surface seem everything later find beneath surfaces character looking journey self discovery learn story must chose path life destined despite difficulties encounteran thumbs film first thanks everyone submitted request lot great requests wish fulfill win time please keep visiting rredflag im sure well back laptops giveaway near future winners announced subject verification details outlined original post replied im received within hours disqualified another person need selected hey babe esex coming guy prefer special type girls please nice give lots hugs cuddles teachers dress classroom biggest sweethearts made fun trying bring joyfulness teachers dress bring joy classroom sweetest things trying bring happiness laughs classroom appreciated maybe even bring candy room decorations opinion deserve raise acts kindness made fun acting silly amp fun anyone sometimes struggle mental health problems dont really know days really mood open problems im order improve soon im sitting someone actually struggle fully honest end downplaying things im thinking whole lot actually comes talks kinda want talk bout crap going comes freeze act everythings going good think im scared idk whyi never met someone bigger loser left girl job friends come florida dad brother moved pipe dream said needed help pay bills always thought cant turn back family ive year friends im working two shit jobs living life bottle time go college im living parent age im always broke im awkward shy cant make conversation friends ive never felt alone im options drive uber eats go bring reason cant know need never happy moved im happy now carry know stop pain fear wan na free cant everything now even go seek happiness feels pointless know distraction time right back started feeling living pointless motivation live ready go exhausting say least means go maybe guts makes feel trapped meaningless existence things stay alive upset others death knows long mentality carry though damn sure recommended one pointless parents happy lately cant remember last time yelled us weird maybe finally replaced batteries know mean mean entirely sure doi really want complainer whiner ive really hard time lately im beginning think need help growing whole life revolved around mom jealous condescending way required special treatment colon cancer traveling specialist specialist chemo treatment chemo treatment got used hospital environment soon enough settled fort knox ky louisville ky getting best treatment best professionals field went well approaching last treatment surgery remove last cancer around colon free battle shed fought many years long story short last surgery go way doctors planned short stem cancer thought disconnected body fact connected heart slight tug resulted catastrophe year old child hard believe news fact next year rounding corner hope standing porch still lingers joke cruel sick joke corners rounded close times finally set reality think thats depression began recovered time senior year college tried taking life due rusty knife self actualization survived day im still struggling pretty poorly depression days good days debilitating cant admit family theyve suffered enough really really want better im sure im afraid go psychiatrist therapist im really feeling creep back anyone advice theyve done improve one lines trailer film publicists exaggerate six featured players screen time goodbr br always fascinating certain plot premises worked either highballing comedy deadly serious situation mary boland ditzy charlie ruggles henpecked play usual characters planning motor way california share expenses advertise someone share ride burns allen monster dog premise deadly serious one several generations later kaliforniabr br course traveling gracie allen know going going absolutely nuts trying figure monty pythonesque reasoning whole world aint enough run wc fields part time sheriff full time pool hustler whos living sin alison skipworth back delve thingsbr br real classic comedy thirties missed shoutout high maintenance boys ive hearing lot abt guys dont want high maintenance girlfriend realised lot high maintenance guys probably never recocnised personal struggle high maintenance boys yall deserve love happyness world dead luckyi cant help think died lucky theres pain stress depression family friends homework work nun bliss want dont wan na wait anymore creating final playlistim thinking song songs play way religious person angry one want recall good times people cared lost melodrama heartbreak suggestions got worlds finest unique project trailer supermanbatman crossover movie exists never exists least form characters actors plot line anywaybr br movie one big tease even standards everyday real movie trailers trailer hype nothing regard really liked short project watching trailer makes hungry excited time sad perhaps even feel cheated afterward turns full length movie trailer never exist sort makes wonder project made first place surely show sandy colloras skills done real movie short earlier movie batman dead endbr br judge short purely movie technical point view really great one great looking way professional perhaps first expect although people whove already seen batman dead end already know better expect short cardboard sets cheap homemade costumes thirdrate actors short constantly impressive looking obviously budget skyhigh part impressive professional looking nice costumes sets special effects cinematography lightingbr br short good quick typical trailer build perhaps bit many posing shots completely find credible hey works well trailer style impressive shots couple lame ones mainly superman flying sequences obvious guy standing moving car camera aimed angle even found pretty laughable thing watch really better spectacular moments really compensate thisbr br michael ohearn seemed pretty good supermanclark kent although obviously greatest talented actor around clark bartram reprises batman role well kurt carley seemed awesome lex luthor rest cast served purpose well enoughbr br especially interesting watch short recent new modern reinterpretations two main superheroes movie movies batman begins superman returns interesting compare style character treatment movies one actually amazing fun hear much kurt carley sound kevin spacey actor played lex luthor superman returnsbr br good looking well made constructed trailer makes hungry even though know whatever happened waner bros plans create actual full length supermanbatman movie way thought developments underway couple years ago nothing heard instead two new separate batman superman movies made batman begins superman returnsbr br panic attack rushed ampeit started morning today mom sister fighting supposed go lunch nice day kept arguing walking restaurant chest started hurting started hyperventilating lost balance felt fainting happening mom screaming stop pretending kept shouting left felt dying almost fell middle road couple times sister drag back home went home locked room lost everything started screaming hyperventilating thinking maybe die hear mom shouting screaming asking stop telling im making head panic attack couple times bad sister started freak cry point close fainting called taxi forced go aampe institute mental health lot shit happened cant seem look mom feel thinks im mental crazy wanted hold hand tell okay instead leaving middle road screaming im back home one wants look talk way know relationship mom never never likes address depression always think head im fucking close ending allwhen eminem said im gone carry mourn wish upon friends really considering redflag point hate life really see point peace life always depression even anti depressants really depression fucking tired everyday fake happy mom dad sister school counselors friends hurting inside much want pain end fucking ed fucking school front friends teacher staff taken restraints hospital hours upon end think probably fucking helps shit make even suicidal permanent way end pain death cutting temporary solution literally fucking anyone sees tell someone trying help good intentions always end going hospital want peace never ending depression tried hang twice stopped parents came home times tried od adderall adhd meds take enough fucking sick tired world become want end life really see future wretched thing call world fucking real want emotional peace nah redeeming qualities know posted looking votes shit something wrong aware age friends matter effort matter notting doomed untill keel shit person feel im drowningnot kind gasping air fighting hang kind moment finding bottom lake stuck mud giving year absolutely awful ive lost friends work people grasp want everyone keeps asking im future plans even want alive nod say im fine keep putting people listen give advice rock want burden much effort wake productive want stop disappointment want stop thank youi posted days ago stressful job wife years telling love anymore still doesnt job still hell im ok even little bit im longer considering redflag option appreciate reached shattered thread hang name james httpiimgurcommllpng took picture see human behind post today calm voice agonizing night never ending memories asked speak ex years face face many months remaining feelings shred hope tried hard guy met better move forward happy changing challenging every end finally felt cover promises much good enough anymore ive depression sw another username guys really kept bay past couple months via skype sms pm im grateful lot saw lot people suffer really changes perspective exhausted bay abiding time loud enough siren call lead saw light go completely words today know anymore im sitting front computer looking body tremble cant ask helpyour whole life youre told certain people tell anything others tell brave reach ashamed asking help everybody hurts sometimes cant though ive done terrible things things plague mind day shame regret guilt constantly worry people think knew ive done hamster wheel never stops guess good thing way feelings constant reminder better person every night cry day face numb constant worry im worthy worthy things ive wanted secrets ill keep forever even professional dont know much longer keep dont know need help gfs redflagjust context gf years ago committed redflag brother sold drugs still dating time might sound real honestly need help ive tried therapists going grave daily writing things ive told help im still stuck bottom boys skinny enough need skinnier filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler tis birthday finally live user flair fuck greta thunberg know posted video mocking governments spending space exploration want mock mocking military spending u stupid piece shit srry needed vent got hold razors tried slit wrist today couldnt cut deep enough theres pointless blood everywhere dont think effective way go jump front train car find may inconvenience many people guns arent sold city im really sure one concoction available medications likely cause overdose work redflag prevention hot line talk people redflag regular basis seems pretty clear life constant pain people wish redflag seen viable solution im sure im writing guess maybe itll help figure put note something cheers im sorryive wronged many people im selfish lazy mean person think peoples wellbeing shit person want commit redflag deserve know make things better atleast hurt anyone know point everyone hates hate struggle existencebeat logic literally argue death life painful filled suffering life continue painful filled suffering life meaningless pain suffering meaningless thus kill implied assumptionsmedical conditions promise chronic consistency exist life worth living point point means reason whether god higher power manmade literally good reason live oh experiencing highs life full woes struggle every second day thoughts attack paralyze body addition constant head bodily painevery activity struggle really know im still alive focusing finding things look forward mask struggle existence hi guys taking antidepressants month now going vaccinated second dose sinovac next week think stop taking vaccinated covid vaccine kids thing keeps killing myselfno respect love im incredibly disappointed professional choices ive made life know time seeing devastating im ashamed everyday advice people give look bright side hard serves remind deluding lowering standards free well almost way im pain dont care part except comes kids leaving fatherless isnt option trudge wading mediocrity point im given freedom solve problem thanks listening burger patty cos meat buns anything make bearable tried killing many times want kill soon looking reason live reason way make life bearable solve problems really really right nowi friends enjoy hobbies even bearable anymore desperately looking something make bearable instead killing need reason live reason help turn camera without teacher noticing hate keeping camera teacher wants keep great cinematic musicals made twenty year spell rightly labelled golden era genre musicals prior musicals true classics seem invariably made period singin rain american paris band wagon seven brides seven brothers oklahoma south pacific king many stand tall much cherished products age perhaps last great musical golden era carol reeds oliver freely adapted dickens novel vibrant musical film version successful stage production magnificent film winner six oscars including best picture awardbr br orphan oliver twist mark lester lives miserable existence workhouse mother died moments giving birth following incident one mealtime booted workhouse ends employed funeral parlour oliver doesnt settle particularly well new job escapes troubled days makes long journey london hopes seek fortune oliver taken wing child pickpocket called artful dodger jack wild turn works fagin ron moody elderly crook charge gang childthieves despite unlawful nature job oliver finds good friends among new family makes acquaintance nancy shani wallis girlfriend cruellest feared thief menacing bill sikes oliver reed many adventures oliver discovers true ancestry finds actually rich welltodo background chances reunited real family jeopardised bill sikes forcibly exploits oliver making accomplice particularly risky ambitious robberiesbr br oliver brilliantly assembled film consistently pleasing eye excellently acted talented cast moody recreates stage role considerable verve stealing film youngsters energetic performance fagin lester wild well young pickpockets wallis enthusiastically fleshes nancy role reed generates genuine despicableness sikes musical numbers staged incredible precision sense spectacle onna whites oscarwinning choreography helps make songanddance set pieces memorable lively performers skillful direction carol reed play part unforgettable tunes include food glorious food consider youve got pick pocket two id anything oompahpah immensely catchy songs conveyed via well put together sequences film thoroughly entertaining experience never really loses momentum entire minute duration sit back enjoy seen show younger really good show watch educational children years old barney definitely super de duper bj pretty funny babie bop cute kids cool show learning numbers kinda sesame street different type show characters barney purple dinosaur bj yellow dinosaur baseball hat head baby bop cute green dinosaur pink bow first one started old barney friends show second one different new episodes last one new scene barneys park show barney universal studios florida see barney bj baby bop show done go play shop meet barney good show watch show learn many things movie live show universal studios florida id share redflag note wrote year agoi sorry way words express sorry lot thinking decided best thing stop living hard decision wonderful people hurts know hurting cant bare anymore reason keep going sorry first foremost family please guys dont anything rash support please know know kind death bed confession always honest ones fault please know please sorry love support love impart guilt one except blame truly mean believe deeply sorry love various people supported past life thank please know fault either therapist effective patient willing share never willing share anything pay price cant let go lives great people life full opportunity help people anyone please know blame specifically school sorry campus hope doesnt hurt anyone sorry every woman girl met please forgive existing practical stuff passwords including im idiot movies books dont want keep please give library anything please give homeless shelter whichever seems need please give money personal bank account split equally food bank redflag preventative non profits martin scorseses charity film preservation sorry please dont try understand try live let grief take course support dont follow please dont talking family love much hurts keep hurting please good please live lives love theaccountismine want dead made drafts really best draft attempt year ago im probably going use work people okay im really cowardly shitty dont want better want people love im sorry really know im living fi wish someone go love support family hates theyre incapable asking whats wrong offering help support blame everything hold grudges nothing burden care concern im want careerwise know ill years years trying complete poverty im tired guy thought related thought liked ghosted fifth rejection accepted alone nothing holding anyone loves even covid especially life sad sit home school work day asked crush today told crush friend feeling told loves friend tbh feel bad fell great feelings change mean break friendship always friend great one fellow teens want say crush likes friend way break bond feelings understand cherish friendship rather breaking ps love one go ahead tell might another chance late life big live every moment fullest joseph joestar sexiest jojo bruh wan na pounded hunky old man badly use hermit purple tie send hamon body make cum fucks inch joestar cock damn tomoko higashikata lucky oneitis even remember probably happily married chad rn kids living peace security always wasnt type girls im type creepy usually fat stalkers end sufferinghave anyone lost feeling meaningless live anyone anyone stopped feeling miserable longer period time suffering past years hoping feelings disappear happened im lossing hope better days im basically stuck misery closei start extremely loving family mom greatest thing life reason still alive right now never want make cry second exfriendex best friendlove life second reason still alive great friends hate using word depression feel tossed around lot lot meaning behind extremely depressed really reason depressed dont want alive living whole life dont care wake morning dont want going help already started looking therapists near one year anniversary dads death days really sure tried killing twice year already barely holding told one bottling years pretending happy time told one person exactly feel one getting go therapist sucks cant win life right now going keep trying thing life want right wake alone want someone love next impossible someone hate means unhealthy unfit everything physically look attractive coming onto year every girl said one given chance part reason low past years dads death hasnt helped long year battle cancer spent everyday time loved much miss always gave good advice good wingman women always tried set girls previous said exfriendexfriendbest friendlove life amazing unfortunately doesnt feeling towards sucks fine happens mental health crap destroying friendship love loves friend ended long talk came understanding ended saying cant friends anymore now need fix brain go back trying friends lot stress trying love someone used talk day morning facetime bedtime facetime matter still talk care lot actually special amazing friendship ruining wish things work us wont complicated imagine stressful cant stop crying almost every second day alone amount time cry want start telling friends mental health late need big push go see therapist cant sleep night affecting work really need help dont want end news cant stop another bad low always soft spot disney flick another part live actionpart animation entries sought recreate success mary poppins never quite made grade school every movie day whole school crowd cafeteria movie projected oldfashioned way multiple reels time seemed momentous occasion whenever day arrived bedknobs broomsticks one movies remember seeing waybr br remember quite charming angela lansbury never put name anything least competent winning witch magic bed boy misconstrued take couple young kids magic adventures faroff places come kid want bed br br grade fuck boris johnson fuck making schools go back 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nothing painful yes even say yes mental problems dont even mention things valnurable person beg idea long ive holding cant see bright side things anymore im constantly unhappy ive always mandatory live people doesnt feel never know amount pain might young know im never gon na love living way made world im sorry world beautiful hate basically new times slaves calling real slaves million times worse im aware anyone want helpful pm ways go wan na talk dont waste time want know methods maybe wouldnt endure worst pains last task back againnd night row tonight worse found exgirl friend cheated crutch im done woah buckarooo make one damned girl bad boy funny memes im gon na hand one way ticket supersargasso sea please help someone stole bucks pokemon wednesday small time martial arts studiotrading w frien ly realised got back sounded pretty said realized told one instructors happened reason told memories elementary school friends avoid looking petty world reali really feel time posting last cry help thats even possible really smart know everything highschool teaching already cant focus enough actually im failing everything except band love friends despite trying hard make girl almost anorexicly skinny call attractive enough friend try talk parents always busy talk usually wathing tv mom laptop day doesnt even job reality become video games retreat terrible lifemy place friends mom calls fake friends know people worse buy stand life become way rely fake world id rather live slit wrists tonight back home ive read lot realised otjer people seem similar gods planeverything happens reason everything good bad part gods plan want kill logic means god wants kill god hates want exist want kill badly god wanted holocaust hurricane katrina happen god wants babies raped tortured god wants suffering sickness horror god evil maybe im evil god wants save world way knows maybe world suddenly fix stop poisoning alonelife lost magic hopefulness felt nothing look forward one talk cant help feel cant trust anyone people really dont care unless benefiting someway posted something week ago felt embarrassed deleted feel alone lost dont really know turn anymore pray every night life end dont understand anyone really manages pull depression dont care better anymore honestly believe people destined alone unhappy matter efforts make better everything gone wrong wish courage end life probably best finally got friends rely well school starting new job everything want yet still want die feel nothing going make happy point life going great still want die ende endeim writing ahead time incase fail grade friends know recover fail im cornered isolated hopeless meds helping make tired lightheaded sorry ende ende become tired fighting fight depression many years keep goingits battle uphill battle good daysbut really bad days start going hill thenyou seem go backwards worse started u good somethinglegit ive taken art classes years random girl class last year school visual arts stuff draws x better god damn everything im bad literally cant good anything even distraught tired giving birthdayim calm im rational im overreacting im fucking tired overwhelmed ok deal stress birthday months im going quickly itll nice deal stress anymore least thigh highs hot everyone male female inbeetween god look good hilight human firgure look really good even keep going im useless world hates ityesterday average day went work job friendly small talk fun colleagues shift sat car drove home switched light set pc chair booting pc comparably good day happy felt nothing went online played games talked online friends went bed woke next day went back pc looked steam profile page looking high level smile felt sad life im skyrocketing steam level compensate emptiness soul one real life friend hardly meet hes deeply buried uni work live alone pets interact neighbours online friends impressive steam account yet switch pc feel nothing nothing hobbies everything dedicated energy eventually dropped tried learn drawing express dropped picked bass make music dropped tried think third activity write dropped lost motivation life day playing games chatting people never met life pass time work fast go back empty steam life online addiction probably started young five six years old got first pc game playing games way dad found interact lot got drawn towards games first always single player games thenth grade school discovered online gaming fun new exciting totally emptied anything interest spent hundreds maybe thousands bucks pixels neglecting everything interest top seriously dislike job im number single cog machine instead something im good rot away company simple worker im pretty good english especially consider even native language yet never got make anything useful besides chatting people online first redflag thoughts came second year apprenticeship different company job now five years ago now stood top floor warehouse looked ground floor jumping seemed solution emptiness colleagues hated vented anger every day already knew job nothing wanted end thing kept away jumping fear pain landed stupid way survived seriously injured broken life even now stumbled back edge shook head went work wish bring minutes pain ends keeps alive nothing really fear pain want end redeeming features nobody likes parents divorced family shambles job crap cant better one cant imagine id graduate better school bad maths cant end battled depression whole life realizing even depression fighting anymore realized truly place world belong anywhere loved anyone anything taking space burdening people think time go place world cat keeps ending allmy cat parents care thing keeps killing know baby wouldnt die without doesnt exactly love new scratches arm looking cute little face admiring uniqueness shes crazy gives little boost serotonin need make another day literally cant sad looking cats cats dont career involves kitties animals dont feel purpose feel better knowing help cats animals wanted post maybe guys something makes future little brighter maybe think thing think reason live taking care animals knowing need makes feel little less shitty little purposeful nearly always youi hate good enough live day day trying find things look forward give nword pass hi guys kindly give nword pass really appreciate always wanted say nword liberating finally able say repressing long btw im hispanic bad white right bad say nword anyway planned seeing movie disappointed friend dragged along although real surprises guys reasonably well obviously modest budgetbr br seen trailer probably know expect type movie theres pretty constant stream jokes couple classic moments highpoint probably excellent flashback guys s ive read elsewhere ending disappointment found refreshingly different expected genrebr br overall movie wont change life got enough laughs keep entertained throughout constant nausea tooth pain fever fatigue anxiety depression someone please help meim ive anxiety years ive depression years ive near constant debilitating nausea fatigue years teeth rotten decaying away week ago horrific tooth pain high fever started cant eat sleep left house almost year cant go doctors definitely dentist feel nauseated tired ive constant thoughts death redflag ive hospital times past suicidal thinking time want done tooth killing bad radiating head throat tylenol helps sometimes pain going go away need help now im tired nauseous weak im tired fever pain somebody please help main reason continuing live anymoreive struggling self harm im point im addicted people always say addictions stay forever always fight dont want live rest life dealing burden self harm addictions frowned upon want live judgement family people dad drug addict issues always vowed nothing last night realized im exactly awful father addictions im addicted self harm dont want associated addictions drugs people think differently whole life ive always wanted kids grow main reason staying alive kids im awful dad kids deserve mom ive always close mom drug talks made obvious fronds upon thought self harm addiction mom thinks im screw nothing wrong great mom reason im screw purely fault family deserve burden crying thought go im selfish thinking shows im thinking genuinely think deserve deserve self harm genuinely understand anyone cares anymore going die eventually kill im inevitable think might take pills soon deserve deserve pain self harm want kill canteverytime car want wreck want die cant kill know people care devastated died much worse killed everyone says redflag selfish desire want anything anymore feeling lonely helplessone days spiraled suicidal thoughts think worst feel alone husband working overnight texted one friends wanted hurt left read feeling tired holding even feel personthe older realize im meant alive cant anything normal theres excuse cant talk people normal person cant even work dumb jobs without fucking every aspect belong less less every year cant believe used good smart kid im even worth anything way die without mom feeling sad id gone im freaking sad considering trying put psych want talk someone whos oneim tired living hate everyone around cant anything right much enjoyment anything ive tried talk others subreddit none anything believe continue around family people hate ill end killing anyways feel option psych ward redflag want talk someone psych ward minor make mind want know put psych ward im actually really glad kurt cobain committed redflag idk two days reason cant imagine middle aged fat depressed dude fell im really glad things ended way tbh want die know howi know wrong im really tired kinda attempted end everything today grew afraid even seem attempt honestly excuses wanting die person weak mentality think family getting sick sister closest person getting tired telling thoughts every single day acting way understand wouldve gotten tired long time ago mom dad gave lot getting incredibly stressed attitude really see point im right see future im trying hard class know alive sometimes wish died even conscious wish life couldve given person wants live wish selfish human im tired nuisance everyone want anymore hello need helphi alcoholic trying stay sober now think need help someone time really appreciate seems everyone wants jump bandwagon say maha go go gothe word machalike machpronounced maa kabr br grew series early s la late lamented channel tetsuwan atomu astro boy dating ol khj tv astro boy first tv example anime got statesi anime kid followed late s itd become series badly animated talking heads phenomenon gotten worse nuff saidbr br speed racer really enjoyed basics pov shots cinematic aspects live action skillfully adopted animationthat fairly typical japanese anime back thengraphics graphics graphics take note sometime obviously series inspired stanley kramers film grand prix especially redone american creditsbr br oh yeah original comics series based know speakbr br animationwise besides crap johnny questth ol stuff wed doin shohumbr br guess real problem hadhave way anime wasis shown american tv hatchet job done scripts credits etc sanitize american audiencesi go programs talking speed herebr br look clowns peter fernandez one culprits responsible rewrites seriesnot mention voice speed racer x othersbetween goofs translux think felix cat mighty hercules oy vey took slick sophisticated show dropped level sesame street think cruncher bloch forthebird company skull duggeryif go ill pukebr br series dates odd years ago time keen enough feel insulted dumbing japanese programsi mean obvious someones getting killed either remove gloss overpleeeeezebr br good show originally sadly recent incarnations series crappy made korea look mention nauseatingly pc content even japanese outsource animation nowbr br try watchin original japanese opening youtube sometimeit sends chills spineif onlyoh well robert feel empty dayslast week found fiance year cheating background met girl year ago really tough situation ex moved city home state dude work stuck ended falling progressively minded butted heads family alot always stuck fought matter ended moving studio apartment away family im year old college student make month working lab afford apartment times rough end bad falling dad thought worth fight grandmother agreed let us move house long helped bills times good untill found cheating asked leave new guy sleeps floor aunts apartment buy bus ticket coming wednesday ive living killing one hand feel betrayed im terrified well dude job cant work subsists aunt know comfortable love feel empty feel whenever let someone always find someone better fact ive come accept im never first choice anyone im piece st deserve happiness im worried cant sleep really want die cutting latelt think thing holding back want find body im afraid much hurt im spiritual thats fear ive researching painless ways death really want nothing pain emptiness go away forever im young stupidim honestly feel idiot right now know whats hurting know im depressed know probably reason depressed im successful school getting straight year ive social talking chicks going mates im beginning independence end year chance tour japan schools music program cocurriculars sport debate mock trial im home none matters means anything good im tryhard proper social interaction mum drinks spend time avoiding complain dad worked hard send good school reason really im talking bottle wine night unreasonable blames shortcomings try talk tell need love gets angry confrontational says im calling alcoholic grateful blames issues says im fault really depressed im white kid australia private school parents along best least live house straight enough left give worth destroying response extra bottle wine drinks celebration keep trying edited typo eeee im happy got custom rom running android phone im happy cool bye love yall stay safe lt ask questions feeling distant myselfi feel far away thoughts jumbled ive wanted run away keep thinking hurting god dammit wan na give im okay starting careim really even want talk want straight kill ive tried made everyone miserable obviously failed even see point things anymore nothing gives joy hope life one long day nothing changes im point want break things hurt uh even know cant im feeling words pointless try nice letter dont know begin pretty funny seem find one single copy will oh well one hopefully seen whatever hi hello im probably well right now dont know lets say sleeping forever dont know quite say doesnt matter now today february th days knew without doubt mind found forever days made mine youre reading thank everything proud listening growing youre slowly learning life okay scary considering current state really seems oxymoron failed yet youre hopefully still mental health plagues stress relationship immense understand issue really way good enough anyone self esteem fixed l thank december th though never recovered looking disgusted tried best succeeded dont know wish able talk issues afraid driving away jealousy makes incredibly hurt something didnt even need put extra time work oh well cant hurt anymore dumb see everything wish respect fuck wrong people b grow pair something grow pair accept life stop spoiled father leave woman isnt worth time life anything dont care love destroy doesnt feel l wish knew felt feel dont know unless alone relationships wont always alone scared told something listen please holy shit toxic mad first person wrath try hard cant bad cant happy consistently dont know never know darkness seems comforting thanks everything sorry wish better boyfriend brother son student person general cant sorry cant fulfill failed path pursue sorry sorry heya w hey sorry bother couldnt help notice youre feeling cmere closer closer hugs got may tough youre warrior inside whatever may matter pleaseprobably gon na kill soon im stranded small town middle bumfuck nowhere theres option employment jobs car broken cant new one fix without job im allowed see son times month something mother yet im one punished im running fight dont friends really reason stay alive hiya im mental breakdown room drinking currently honestly think life worth living anymore pet dying got harassed limited online grown adults im currently waiting trauma therapy stuff happened past barely friends life shit hope yall okay though need help destined failure tragedy mom dies im years old im beside dies pneumonia breast cancer chemo fail law school years debt age got pregnant gave birth months daughter dies hours alive cousin age gave birth healthy baby notifying us already months constantly cheated boyfriend coke heavily drank one even suspected pregnant true say happiest people oftentimes saddest ive told im funny witty really think thats coverup im sad lonely feel evil woman using piggyback happy pain shes inflicting mealmost scary movie sad endingone kill sit bathroom floor inlaws house cute lime green bodysuit ripped jeans numb legs tried therapist wanted refer psychiatrist instead give magical pills people told youre brave strong stop going big lifechanging scenarios fight smaller battles instead happy new year something bad happen year never easy win life going date crush going date crush asked thicc water exists exists u problem swallowing beatles modern band many beatles stans twitter omg ringo looks cute still betteri made post days ago watched rather extensively work home therapist see prescribe medicines earliest psychiatrist appointment least weeks way medicine need sooner ultradian rapid cycler bpd type fighting losing battle ive attempted times end last year last two times found blade still arm desire fight true anchors left want stay alive broken hollow others insist staying alive hurts much hurts much ive suicidal thoughts recently getting major support therapy meds im already antidepressants werent working load things days ago constantly suicidal thoughts twice day cant begin describe agony happens sometimes ill put way extremely painful headache isnt physical im guessing mental hurts muchi cant stand clutch head go floor crying far remember one knows cant stand physiatrist said depression hardware brain change software thoughts feelings basically means im fighting depression whole life ive nearly whole life anyway planing redflag dont know stand whole lifetime helpi lost job covid situation didnt enough capital put lt business money run ive sold stocks dont penny name bank balance job debt th january ive got worth direct debits pay way debt increasing day please please please give ideas money feel trapped think im donehi name micheal years oldi started using drugs drinking anything fucked screw push evrybody lost lot friends good friendsmy mom prostitute found fucked brain problems sexual abuse fucked brain never told one cant dark stuff head years cant stand anymore never together pointhuman beings suppose find couple someone feels good someone know forever lonely see point anymore except finding gun rope ending woke emotional pain horrendousi dont know much longer want sleep forever minor spoilers followbr br movie even odd unconventional songs second floor main character follow around plot conventional way emphasis happy end crowdpleasing words roy andersson back vengeance instead falling back convention fixed formula roy andersson concentrates film around idea go idea even promise see greatest visual depth put film majestic scenes songs pale comparison work visual splendorbr br kind fellow man living power change lives least thought saw final scene movie inhumane bomber planes sweeping city film take lives away br br course forget see movie gets limited release near one movies actually power make better person de sicas bicycle thieves warm humanistic film sitting car random parking lot thinking driving head traffic right nowim ashamed go hospital put redflag watch dumb shit fucking stupid doea look um yeah im contemplating killing yeah im really bad spot feel likw id weird fucking look um ok ill end fucking pissed feeling looking dumb regretting going goddamn uselessim told gifted life know done nothing absolutely nothing went mediocre public liberal arts college dropped years easy boring desire go back school make work hard enough anything enjoy enjoy partying hanging friends im lot socially competent years ago small comfort friends going world writing magazines blogs starting bands getting big im still stuck knowing want felt completely worthless person year now notion selfworth strongly connected success person successful opinon know ive always hard getting impossible bear know people given much done little feel kind ready end fucking panic attack shower recommend taking hot shower middle hot sunday start think feeling loneliness ive long guess much social distancing helped nothing extraordinary years old never kissed girlvery afraid talk new people im working therapy talked friends felt joy year etc suddenly realize heart beating fast fast someone standing shower first time happened never got used start focus breathing heart goes less desperate rhythm got ta say man think depresso pills job wish stop feeling time dont worry intend carbonara sayonara baka mitai got ta idiot band home alone go hand hand know ive foolhttpsyoutubeziwrvmvomi sing end video introductionthis post cry help im looking end life right minute depressed suicidal varying degrees years guess see place might frequent thought little story first suicidal thoughts id depressed years never put much thought redflag junior high one teammates committed redflag opened eyes knew must felt felt ultimate solution thoughts plan rest junior high high school kept hunting rifle single bullet end room spent lot time thinking sitting night loading unloading gun testing way hold rifle job done range gun safety know want hurt others know people say matter bad matter low life better know future holds well know future holds thats supposed give hope people help hang problem future always bright worse thought life turning around end high school thought made dark time things looking years depression already lead dark path came head brought crashing say life better put effort work improve situation ive done last years ive gutted put best forward changed better ive put effort improving life showing others thought none matters someone power always hold put back place sure people care love enough society general hates friends left matter never reach potential life killing inside last months life hardest yet courts struck want see ive done life power let go yeah context makes sense trust job decent dead end cant see escaping stress piling unbearable levels lately wife loves family life nothing constant stress weve done fix seem much hope theres go escape low life become options left unexplored make things better life many years choose accept tough end im smart enough know whats wrong smart enough know options smart enough know life crap many ways continue sometimes wish understand much blissfully unaware happy longer rifle bullet im sure id gone now take one rash decision plan end life timetable take day preparation purposely done thats safety net end life itll thought thought right time take prepare warning never post saying ive set timedate im attention happen ill probably posting threads im antiredflag think last resort hope mods accept always posting happy replies trying cheer people giving false hope im honest others sometimes honesty pretty think situation better im going tell im years road initial thoughts redflag things turn around everyone says ive hurt many people around along way ill honest talk year old self say hang things better id tell self much look forward save others hurt next years think people around ideaim always surrounded people work work fairly big retailer none idea whats going head getting harder hide friends momment getting better anything getting worse way feel good drugs thats time feel anything close happyness remember quite happy seem truly happy im surround people friends either hanging someones house longer getting point yet want end failed attempt weeks ago decided try carry trying survive working social skills getting new friends almost impossible know go meet either im constantly alone room feel lonely want guts properly time one live every day torture whats rebellious illegal stupid thing done teenager fake tickets print countrys tickets dollars look stores serve children country small stores bought things forged total dollarsin country worth even money wanted feel adrenaline stole expensive pens supermarkets next week stole backpack worth dollars karma bitch know anyone done stupid things horny tonight need bonked big time ive horny past hours bad rn getting bad feel drowning dont see point swimming tried multiple times already everytime make difference try closest friends randomly decided ghost grounded weeks relapsed night theres nothing im rlly fighting anymore dont rlly know im posting maybe someone give wholesosome award people praise sidewalks keeping streets nooses help keep hitting rock bottom legal reasons redflag never answer struggling depression suicidal thoughts find trusted person confide seek help tf desired compensation probably really dumb f filling first job application im realizing concept money dont even know even important im freaking anyway minimum wage part time job first one ik probably dumb one help figured one people know something idk im overreacting sons sentenced life prison adelle debbie reynolds helen shirley winters begin receiving threatening phone calls someone fells sons got easy pair decides move california escape publicity trial start new life start dance school soon successful one students rich unmarried father adelle quickly falls love meantime helen busy raising rabbits becoming little infatuated evangelist radio mater time everything falls apart women enter world madness murderbr br cant help compare whats matter helen whoever slew auntie roo starring shelly winters movie seemed almost restrained presentation auntie roos madness theres nothing holding helen back movie may take good deal movies running time snaps helen one bad mad mutha want mess winters delightfully demented impossible enjoy performance im going spoil movie things helen capable totally overthetopbr br good winters reynolds totally ridiculous role golddigging tap dancer got impression thought movie nominated award aint citizen kane quit acting serious hey debbie realize main purpose victim winters insanitybr br love formerfemalestarsinthetwilightoftheircareer horror movies whats matter helen fun guess asked crush thats sure want help want dieredflag natural selecton mentally distressed ones strong enough overcome ones live enough reproduce life finds way hi name x years old th post site scrapped previous ones regardless anyone read want somewhere choose irriversible born third world country priviledged enough considered middle class comfortable luxurious grew grandparents mother almost half time group due ladder work day minimum wage paying jobs stated comfortable way living never ran food water internet tv afford buy nutella pizza thanks mothers savings need material possesion mother someone really short temper severe untreated depression characters tale often mad miniscule things loose mind screaming saying whatever went mind later sometimes regret reaction truthufly apologize worked years say least today well learning control calm seen hand grandparents female gm verbally abusive emotionally manipulative woman male gf submissive passive agressive judger problem growing learnt pretty early age first granddaughter born oldest cousin four three younger taking place grandmas spoiled little girl exange token fights common thing family family gatherings call disaster hasnt single one without exageration walked without someone fought someone yet unknown reason yet understand keep soon fumes last fight go going back token status time mother gm fought usually taken away grandparents blackmail youre gon na see x x cant love someone us proceed cry everything gm done past including limited ruining academic opportunities making life miserable everything forced stay weekends deal gm crap much love unreasonable mother keeping away much hurt horrible mother something call us come live us matter see trough bullshit naive aspect easly see trying achieve wasnt problem grew partially religious household became atheist early age natural manner kid stops believing santa thoot fairy time term exellence student almost shcool history full grades strong relationships tutors still talk highschool professors used back day intellectual scientific conversations almost every time contest participated developed mental motor skills early age born lucky star far ignore familys long history mental disease trophy child everyone close family held high standards didnt liked underpeform pushed beyond limits kid loved brag family reunions workmates complete strangers giving crap social proposes showed world scolded missing things shoved cak crystal cabinet wait wanted tell everyone kid lowering grade tiny fraction make mad getting sick daring respond give week long scold go trough months punishment say half year without using internet im exagerating even forced use summer vacations read trough three page budhist books make resumees mother think touching electronic device never stopped complaining weight fat rougly kg recommeded weight cant physycally seen even close examination ive never underweight person gm always wished im femenine thing gm desire dont stick archetypes want rebellious according society social movement kinds politics videogames terraria xcom saga age games puzzle ones books praise folly erasmus rotterdam favorite written tales learnt write poetry well none matters passionate dampd player early years developed paranoidal behaviours still screaming tears random corner room invisible man know watching leave alone times cover anything eyes portraits plusheies blanket utterly unreasonably feared watching lock doors windows even hottest days weve reached temperatures c f halfway boiling point water design clever noise traps mechanisms wake slightest disturbance caught grandparents watching windown couple times nothing stopped locking doors bady months ago longer scream misterious invisible man constant pressing feeling watched whataver wherever usually pressing feelings excessive guilt im productive developed severe anxiety quick self esteem learnt hear familys emotions trough sound made footsteps speed parked opened door long took greet sublte voice movement variations started live constant feeling something wrong time see something made either grades weight productiviness receive complains cleaned house without asked didnt clean thank one came time talked time went even close bedroom id really anxious started ask wrong similar kid knows took cookies last night asked difference time yet still isnt problem severe problems anxiety self esteem pressure started slowly climb started drown expectations felt responsable obligated fullfil smartest responsable best born famous phrase one roleplaying games almost never enough almost never enough let ehile teen age approached got lazier tired grades dropped problems rose time time thing happened anxiety getting worse self esteem going lower got highschool everything ended falling pieces never got along well girls females age quite peculiar beings trying find group boys accept got involved wrong people ocassionaly hited verbally abused remember occasionally ignore comments kind things year people got involved first fist fight won resentment tried move group boys kind enemy relation ones got along yes childish move expecting year old girl wrong desition one kids believe reddit way knowing changed lot trust slowly built though solid friendship lasted year right refer take advantage emotionally fragile suceptible year old girl without friends parental guiadance know talking kid blackmailed time changed schools chose go told due fear fortunately kid didnt transfer first day school lot anxiety fear finally blocked social media didnt saw event highschool lot went used generally happy joysful girl anxiety problems turned someone uncapable trusting people closed always defensive adoped ideal believing human hypocresy fakeness around day still kind hold dear skipped lot details went forced love gm show affection someone made feel carp nothing happened trapped blackmail someone thought trust physical abuse non ending family problems lot simply trust anyone anymore problems went started unhealthly blame happened point started hating day night reming much idiot slowly depersonalzied completely past self bitter personality pesimistic attitude pissed face day trust issues anxiety constant feeling watched judged people try hurt thoughts become overwhelming decided shut head keeping busy day started ton activities per day tried take free time good thing got diplomate literature age months later though started mentally exhausted continue convinced value came productive pushed months tiring rountine stopped things wasnt surprise quickly lost self worth left self value came useful want useful mess lasted last five years sunk deeply good friend mr depression originally thought teen years drama moment nothing reelevant one year ago date first redflag attempt failed couldnt tell thoughts started overwhelm much wake best moods put single miniscule thing single comment even nothing start break tears without reason agitated nowhere feel terrible look deep images cloud black smoke completely covered whenever wanted rendering useless weeks started unable wake somedays stopped eating drinking water couldnt meet expectation dissappointment letting everyone useless stupid fake whenever tried make anything make useful thoughts overhwelm broke tears constant impulse bash head wall make stop funnly enough recently realized bashing head wall form self harm nowdays want die longer see way breathing relieving pain firm though werever im sad happy good bad mood want die years sites redflag conviced want help want better happy though honestly isnt much people say brilliant person good job good degree studies maybe wasnt one good friend certainly miss gone even refuses accept know really well easier gone family trumble bit exange token gone yes still eventually pass rest dont even care strangers dont even care know important help distressed people maybe theyre guided morality perosnally dont care fight world hasnt done anyone tired tired trying better better convince everyone im better know dissappointed fooled ones hadnt fake intellectuality human hypocresy mentioned resented life nature humanity hate lot people mere existance specially hate heart soul hate hate choices life ive done love go back mend mistakes cant one honestly want live used say tiny spark light inside memory old trying survive trying tell strong convince still drowning shit details skipped long busy keep writing looked mirror today realized longer want try anymore reason stay want die got far sorry stranger apologize broken english native speaker making afternoon bitter already hard work towards future even want iteat healthy exercise everyday skinny getting skinny mortician study hard complete assignments good college plan live long maintain friendships keep touch people people hurt im gone fuck shit man como dijo vladimir una paja dormir como dijo vladimir una paja dormir ensemble piece adults return formulative summer camp youth quiet entrant exiter cinemas autumn id say shamebut againsome better movies quiet releases much hype praisebr br diane lanekevin pollackelizabeth perkinsvincent spanojulie warnerbill paxtonkimberly williamsmatt craven alan arkinwho painfully good group actors flesh roles people grown old goodbad funny memories summers gone past film covers gambit emotionsmostly pleasantand film never hammers away viewer feel characters feelingpreferring allow viewer enter memories movie viewer bristles bluntlybrazen manipulation filmsthis something appreciate writerdirector mike binderbr br films great cheap renta good main rent even pretty sit theater flick might run across tvand definitely suggest looksee want really selfishim teen really hate everything hate talk look dress entire personality etc want way body stress constantly school none means literally anything id much rather kill work essay another second im sad time im really know im ugliest person im fairly talented musician gig semi regularly nice body bcuz lift etc happy im friends none much ill put straight terrible crush one bestfriends shes one thing motivates im aware never work matter matter happy always reminded life work reward ends honestly id rather die right work try best another years situation end without potential now xoxo smoking epic take someone smokes f know im bored asf hit ur unpopular opinion yeah guys super unpopular thoughts opinions wan na talk hmu talk im talk literally anything opinion point view long chill everything maybe convince im wrong ill convince wrong maybe well agree lmao never really know yeah im lot different stuff music play piano guitar im star wars superhero stuff read fantasy books comics bunch draw mostly digital sometimes traditional cheerlead play lacrosse volleyball made list stuff fairly strong opinions talk try change mind cant think anything talk racism religion modern music relationships sexism colorism patriotism politics privilege mental health family success education anything think wan na talk whatever im talk whatever wan na yep pm please girlfriend supportive honest embarrasses meive honest suicidal thoughts understands hate putting hate knows now want treat differently feel bad told intending vent feel attention seeker feel shame promise martin donovan playing jesus quite honestly enough see film definitely worthwhile clever funny without overdoing lowquality filming probably appropriate effect ended little jarring ending sounded pbs program hartley still many memorable lines great moments judge harshly birthday filler filler filler turned today simultaneously feels wrong close adult glad things drive senior high school know right feel right begin loved gta kanal lot classic jokes including unlucky guy canoe always seems wrong place wrong time still acting guy gta kanal movie opinion hes performance funny first movie fact notice much thing made think bad movie choice boats movie race boats sure speedy make waves big floating mansions used first movie liked old ones better new boats makes one last scenes look ridiculous man canoe suddenly jumps evade big waves small speedy boats truly minus accept living sweden anymore movie contains bit violence first one although movie great ive concentrated cons disappointed rest movie expectations go see worth money types people subreddit people worship amp people consider bane existence ur third type person majority never seen u dont care dont tell im havin moment ex girlfriend kills point living either stop thinking drowning pool know figure sure painful end dead anyway matter want drown big sad im lonely first thought man invented shovel ground breaking subreddit much better night idk posts funnier even though arent many lonely feel useless whats pointnot sure start found today ive weighing options head kill try help seem feasible part thinks help going make fit anywhere suddenly make people months cant see change life significantly im living city adore moved country five years ago city nearly year feels city thing family people never stay friends year best know cant take odd moods let guard depression anxiety im girl im gay ive proper relationship dated girl months two years ago broke really probably best never worked ive fallen couple girls initially liking decide dont one closest use term loosely friend one girl time last year staying place instead travelling work incredibly happy several considered dates things going great im quite sure even wants friends tell becoming distant earlier year march told felt got youre amazing person im sick people give shit telling im amazing disappearing life hear family much family used speak dad skype time life changed new partner years ago months go without us speaking place feel needed work socialising know good thing people work time even always enjoy work outside work feel existence pointless im important necessary part anybody elses life think dying think people eventually notice work think every makes sad im overweight incredibly enough im comfortable doctor told lose weight ive tried dieting made hungry tried going gym got bored im thinking trying couch dunno arsed junk food vice drink smoke drugs instead ill junk food seems much simpler end though im sure go stand rail platform want either jump rails electrocuted front train pulls think jumping infront traffic think drowning river tried actually anything teenager tried choke several times span couple years feel terrified afterwards thought maybe trying cbt ive read help depression anxiety really anxious nervous social situations point leave cry hyperventilate outside event tonight thought id enjoy didnt aware person made uncomfortable situations im fine id never go anywhere anything thats usually things everyone mostly well really expected socialise gigs walks lectures stuff antidepressants couple years now dosage halved months ago thought feeling better im thinking ill need revers continue want find peace hurt anymore apologies cohesive lot thoughts head share somehow someone gummy bear crazy frog filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler year olds last wordsim done im done fuck fuck life want want someone need something need something go yet im cant wait tomorrow morning nice little accident highway cant wait seriously though u know find im sorry cant go cant live im sorry isnt fault may continue love jacob know closing eyes sleep higher chance fall asleep compared opening eyes thank later coin collectors hmm yes rhis coin fun fact belle delphine made big younger watched room tour thinking cute without knowing living rewatched realized meant cutesy yt video th grader watch oh fucking god idk felt yelling clean room literally rather blow brains clean room amount hate hold cleaning u g h aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa wan na sleep sum deep clean whole ass bedroom ughhhhh nearly main cant karma alt mustve lost touch yearold sexually confused otaku failing school relationships friends lifeso recently ive finally realizing shitty life going people always telling smart really feel way grades pretty bad might even graduate point let alone colleges ive wanting go particularly care friends theyre always treating shit gets old awhile really getting ive never relationship looking hopeless right top im sure im gay cant tell anyone family friends disown worst part even sure feel everything ive tried working future broke alone living shitty apartment job friends ive tried change make things better nothing works usually ends horribly know anymore redflag looking viable option everyday karent alan johnson don cheadle successful dentist shares practice business partners alan loving wife jada pinkett smith two daughter camille lache smith imani hakim let parents stay huge apartment new york city somehow feels life somewhat empty one ordinary day city sees old college roommate charlie fireman adam sandler alan seen charlie years alan tries befriends charlie charlie lonely depressed man hides true feelings people cares charlie unexpectedly loses family plane crash one planes september alan nearly feels comfortable charlie alan mentions things past charlie turns violent towards alan anyone mentions deceased family alan tries help charlie tries make life little easier alan finds making charlie talking true feelings difficult expectedbr br written directed mike bender blankman indian summer upside anger made wonderfully touching human drama moments sadness truth comedy well sandler offers impressive dramatic performance sandler offers dramatic role paul thomas andersons punchdrunk love cheadle excellent usual pinkett smith fine alans supportive wife liv tyler good young psychiatrist saffron burrows quite good beautiful odd lonely woman wild crush alan film sadly box office disappointment despite great reviews cast firstrate writing director wonderful russ t alsobrooks terrific widescreen cinematography movie great nyc locations film makes new york beautiful city look picturebr br dvd sharp anamorphic widescreen transfer gooddolby digital surround sound dvd jam session sandler cheadle featurette photo montage previews expecting dvd features audio commentary track director deleted scenes reign certainly one best films came year sure movie looked great big screen sadly chance see theater kind movie plays well dvd film good soundtrack well plenty familiar faces supporting roles bitparts even director bitpart byran sugarman whos actor reign one underrated pictures year best sandler film taste wedding singer miss hd widescreen think gon na final post onlineive anxiety years now ive struggled cope year old im new world need slow think anyway really given brother dad abusive know really wanted love miss feeling hugged dad brothers voice havent house whats going year first christmas without either ive lost friends online connections im garbage skill try learn becoming increasingly paranoid think hear voices people dark ive accepted redflag im medicated seretonin never helped first place id rather commit redflag dog dies live heart fuck anxiety fuck antifa fuck school goodbye internet reaching difficultim difficult situation im treated mental illnesses ive struggling undiagnosed child suicidal ideation lot sucks hate hate mind making feel weak frustrated idea people expect okay im meds therapy easy sometimes feel worst want hurt think reach intense services scared feel sick live parents im literally mid s feel ruin life want overi dedicated relationship girl likes talking girl several years finally built courage ask wanted spend time together said supposed tried exercising working person fee uncomfortable skin almost dont know know anyone please help want someone old im aging fear im slave fate hate peoplei cant stand anyone suicidal thoughts every day able help socialize hate everyone see doesnt help either every human useless disgusting thing end everyone selfish noone actually cares others noone tries empathy try seem friend cutting know shehes probably starting think redflaglike title says friend cuts theyre genderfluid ill using throughout post sometimes makes jokes enough adhd medicine kill things shes getting therapy dont think getting better made insta account thats venting posting pics cutting want help idk call redflag hotline tell parents idk im really scared might one day commit redflag think part reason really come genderfluid yet real life friends idk openly lesbianat least girlbasically likes girls idk wrong situation shes depressed one smartest people class best clarinet player band really nice friends well wonder reason killed yet want hurt friends sorry giant wall text formatting im mobile worried wish deadi cant fucking sleep know im yelling sea people feel similarly man wish dead waking every day looking fucking mirror brings dread thing keeping fear comes death animals good friends feel hate im pathetic dont even know im writing im tired want kill fucking bad cant im fucking loser broke streak self harming years couple days ago looking cuts wrist forearm makes feel fucking stupid worthless dont know bleed cry nobody cares feel im stuck rock hard place mind mental fucking prison one day ill die due natural causes ill die fucking killed depressing dont know worse people know celebrating life without knowing whole story pitying taking life life isnt enjoyable hasnt many years im tired tired pretending everything ok tired pretending life worth living seeing slowly lose interest stuff used love fucking sad waking morning sleep days end exhausting pulling bed tiring thought go another job quarantined makes stressed head feels jumbled mess fucking thoughts cant control dont want fucking work life away die idk id rather fucking id rather throw towel say forget kill isnt worth im fucking tired mentally drained feel selfish seeing people going worse things life fine hate living dont care future im tired caring tired living idk stay focused school online classes prerecorded classes watch whenever please procrastination keeps making anything besides schoolwork watching classes homework advice advice pleasei psych ward due redflag attempt essentially police officer detained brought hospital hospital assessed trying vague trying kill try dodge questions bit first told honest thought dishonest told best way tell happened never anyone talk talked samaritans wanted kill gave every detail problem told involved told bit suicidal time happened without mental illness ended redflag watch psych ward every detail told psychiatric record every doctor nurse assess ashamed personal worried redflag watch hospital ruin career opportunities cause troubles life future every conversation recorded trust ppl need somone talk expect open anymore im tired need kill asap realised living sample observed want know going kill im discharged problem made felt suicidal personal never told anyone problem happened last months unfair involved problem even know someone tried kill opposite bed said doesnt want apparently gon na make things worse need fake want advice please need advice suicidal quite already thought got someone talk getting things chest first trying plan back feet much comment ill reply edit make look icky ask literally questions ill answer need helpim losing yall im pregnant boyfriend hates strong enough abortion hate shitty job hate roommate disgusting slob hate mom telling terrible mother friends stopped inviting cant go bars sit home alone cry none hobbies fun anymore throw daily pregnancy hormones one reach make even slightly better want die im months pregnant little girl love want keep safe happy cant cant keep alive anyone know much xanaxi need take od im going sister thank seen film different occasionson first occasioni bowled filmit appeared kind film mei hated film sentimental garbage second viewinghowever third viewing reasserted belief good filmthere lot emotional power film especially scenes emotional confrontation mr kramer madam kramerthere scenes meryl streep appears cruel person despite fact beauty real lifedustin hoffman appears lost hero unable grapple recent task childs custodythere even controversy sets filmaccording master cameraman nestor almendros shot escaped getting hurt character mrkramerin order show intensity angerdecides break glass hardluckily nothing happened nestorkramer versus kramer shows destruction family structureit tells family must maintained kids involved please help feel everything catching running stop something horrid going catch feel entire world sheet turned vertical everyone stays still one notices whole world slipping sliding clinging finger nails fall darkness nobody see fading away want die badly know got courage want bad make coward able make coward trying escape ive put knives wrists ropes around neck ive walked front buses ive walked right edge subway platforms trains whizz never properly always know never going go way finally put stop terrifies makes think lower sink yet cant handle getting worse rather end now tired living im sure ill always aloneits almost two years im still hung ex even though cheated lied anything live friends understand supportive ive tried many medications nothing works doctor idea help ignores tell bad lie say plan materials hard really dated ex believe sex marriage im okay hookups anything ex pretended felt lied course think probably proposed pants contact look still think time therapy therapist says healing different everybody u heal different rates think ill find someone genuinely cares want live life alone though want give morals boyfriend either im tired sad scared time im afraid leave house antianxiety pills work little cant work live farming area theres even places meet people except church bars obviously already know people church cant really chat mass hardly go anymore anyway im even sure believe god anymore pray understand kill even life death know reason live anymore political dont think women black people property anymore im definitely suicidal help itive semisuicidal long time ive known least years want ride thoughts getting way intense really depressed lot great people around talk end know want live anymore nothing life nothing want way forward want dead want try medicationsdrugssupplements work make feel shitty tired time even know want helped try guess dear community feel emotionally blackmailedi know little guys idea redflag legal think understand know hate choose feel forced living resent people try stop dying resent people tell cause others pain seems stupid thing say pain matter people say thing head well important existence choice unwell woman chose keep thought provide love denied life beautiful thought unloved unwanted woman holding tiny baby someone loves aw baby machine providing validation growing human needs go unaddressed big surprise abused woman one loves shit load psychological issues prevent fit mother fucking baby grown adult dealing result neglect wants die tells people wants die unfair chastise met hatred even sub met hatred suggesting allowed life wants commiserating others say want people belittle challenges tell neglect reason want die mean whatever worst thing happened im saying right now life forced upon want emotionally blackmailed staying hate fucking hate im monster want people care pain guess stay continue mutilate body soul help feel depressed suicidal know whylet begin first episode depression ended night put gun mouth almost committed redflag depression caused bottling feelings years years end ex every suicidal thought parents arrested almost abandoned etc im usually good keeping things control lost control almost committed redflag thing stopped thought happen mom shes one life stuck even jail love much night occasional suicidal thought stare nearest window wanting run jump nothing handle freshman year high school im sophomore top class advanced classes eligible college programs good friends support im part band school thats friends come second family loving girlfriend cares lot knows time tried committing redflag life used recently though suicidal thoughts flooding head seem stop want tell mom devastate know first time want tell friends able help want tell girlfriend yet think shell able handle hurt way know try help cant ive come im scared thoughts feel trapped inside im sorry weird ive never done want help someone talk thank anything think help damn bro drinking actually fun asf normally stick drugs alcohol actually chill asf im feeling real good rn maybe ill become alcoholic im older sounds vibey im asking u prove man culture well sleep sleeping couch hoody listening music cant stand morei wan na die good reason alive im coward kill right now someone help life usually screw nice peopleive never thought bad person ive kind call friends family yet called friends paid back theyve used thrown away trash appearing need fair ive never hurt anyone bullied school way first year uni ive realised whole life one big disappointment plus suffer social anxiety think ill make threw uni lock im stuck home computer friend one mum checks wake everyday nothingness loneliness hurts physically barely bed eat happiness seems luxury cant afford want friend even one really cares im alone know everyday last noose ready note prepared need balls go feel disconnected real worldi lived years though thats true inner age still live home fulltime student parttime online job pays enough cover tuition owe pell grants scholarships sort ambition interest real world real life spend day fantasizing dead celebrities aching badly wish befriend play lot video games spend significant amount time researching topics necessarily use career rarely leave room cant remember last time left house im experiencing anxiety returning school next week hate im studying hate around people classroom setting makes super uncomfortable makes feel trapped stifled control swore high school never put hell last year reality decided pay shortlived visit realized never chance life go college degree thing desire work career kindi figure choice blue collar manual labor job something im least somewhat interested make better money ill go latter ive always good student quite average actually believe say school push succeed feel little selfworth tied academic success understand anywhere life flunk everything im aromanticasexual means feel romantic sexual attraction anyone result feel extremely isolated lonely think big misconception people us want love relationshipsnot true want kind love thats omg want date sex blah blah really love mentor type adult figure cant find anyone every adult life treats one even though im im transage meaning although ive lived years inner age matured past causes distress imagine know never receive type love desperately long hate feel shit every day emotionally deprived might sound insane im jealous celebrity platonic crushs wife potential future granddaughters might female descendants yet realize still time change yes know crazy literally jealous little girl huge fear mine want little princess spoils protects literal daughter granddaughter im happy family gist kind relationship less desire whatsoever romantic sense typical crush want marry anything afterlife instead little friend know kind relationship jacob renesmee twilight books sort thing said really goals dreams life basically going motions feel choice true hearts desire animals meet celebrity platonic crush heaven animal dream enough make want stay earth endure lifetime working outside home suffering emotional isolation nothing look forward feel tired sluggish days filled anxiety next time leave house thought function real world adult im makes sick full dread even career goals still transage freak never jacob simply put meant planet im starting finally accept feel im one people seriously better dead im happy im tired pain heres nice facts know fight male puppy always lets female puppy win penguins propose stick together life forcing smile actually makes smile voice actors mickey minnie got married real life baby sloths addicted cuddling sunshine warmth makes happier cows best friends sad apart sea otters hold hands sleep norway knighted penguin china killing panda punishable death rats laugh tickled dolphins names eachother puffins mate life good news likely shared social media bad news angry way say word bubbles koko gorilla communicate sign language pet cat gorillas remember old friends sheep recognise facial expressions smiles baby elephants suck trunks comfort squirrels adopt baby squirrels theres im want attempt redflag againplease help im yearold college professor went wife year old daughter enjoyed movie film original witty fastpaced totally charming plot easy enough year old follow twisty enough keep adult interested thought emma roberts superb job rest cast fine criticism los angeles sets interesting functional nothing stood hand makeup costume lighting cinematography editing directing excellent altogether thought totally enjoyable experience disappointed professional critics almost adult males savagely attacked film apparently something films portray strong intelligent independent young women writings reveal sexist natures anything wonderful family film recommend strongly every child every parent guiltwhen abuser realized tell someone shed done killed avoid facing consequences messaged blue years abuse ended kinda froze panicked told wished dead night gone almost years still feel guilty even years hell put maybe found shortly died childhood know figured accept doubt anyone relate much resonates id love talk m matters keeps working thisi enjoy good thelonious monk comp keeps answering requests music wise maybe tell us major blues scale cant fucking believe math professor gave study guide questions fucking due tuesday dont love parent cant realize negative reinforcement doesnt work im already depressed anxious already feel deserve things gon na realize way make things positive reinforcement go ahead take away phone computer everything dont deserve gon na make shit gone live without contrary popular belief life source something stop thinking offing wish gutswell resorting post internet forum judging past interactions doubt response help feel choices reject god kill simply choose god worked last several years ive tried year old forever alone guy self confidence friends try distance want spend time hate want spend weekend bed never getting drinking water eating food sit die away maybe ill join military turn eighteen killed ive heard people refer levelheaded thats future doubt ill even graduate im ill probably live parents house die sapping away realize absurdly morbid nonsensical guess im venting cause ive never friends vent maybe turned away edit somehow feel much better morning leads believe form bipolar mean remove thread look different angle clear head thank posts think much recognition thighs thicc tho filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text cant anymoremaybe one actually cares think might tonight feel alone empty im worthy existing anyway lying everyone yearsi lying closest friends girlfriend amp family years already debt amp telling everyone okay think might weekend apend little bit happy time loved ones first long story ahead tldr bottom tldr childhood molested sezually fist grade neigbour amp grade verbally amp physically bullied blackmailed shit pissed sodomized amp used laughing stock atleast beatdowns week monday amp friday started year girlfriend now ex broke live behaving adult trust either started bunking best friends place months feeling quilty income saving nothing amp freeloading friends lets call jiri place back moms place free rooms amp father lived way city transports school months finalky found cheap rental apartment next school amp knew move enough money welfare pay bils amp food moved amp first fucking happy life joyfull amp felt good winter came thing called kaamos dont know wjat call english came sunlight always dark kids started bully school anxiety amp deppression kicked amp sleep well amp stay planket ir computer hanging friends lasted month long got expelled school never went stayed home drowning sorrows playing video games mainly rs friends long jiri tried ask okay always told yeah good months later money behind rent amp bills cash food still sat amp played video games aunt amp granpa died time took pretty jard started self harm years clean juat beginning managed somehiw together exgf amp bunked weeks saing vacation school yeah fucking stupid got caught threw amp know visited apartment time payed bills last months went ro gradmas place amp stayed month summer met soul mate amp new girlfriend friend jiri took back place stay amp promised help anything told everybody big debt amp unemployed money got went straight paying debts believed told family amp bought thou father diaapointed met talked times date unofficialy living jiri debt collecrors idea baaically run months even remember fun playing amp drinking life away jiri johanna amp friends one idea time went fast wa full year moved ro live always back head atill self harm drank alcohol remember one day jiri said move rental place move unofficially happy moved winter amp befire christmas moved new place lie survived officially year already started took toll afraid phone ringing afraid going public areas amp talked dad months said mom amp everybody okay nothing happenes new place drinking playing amp derping around always afraid jiri woild kick money went debt paying reality done anything ti rhe monwy evsn toi afraid always helped bdat amp think enough im glad best friend summer applied school forced seek education amp knew mistake may ask summer gone amp august school school needed put address right place house lived jiri see going school started shit anxiety top gear alcohol amp lie tellling years already evdn believed lie point aftrer one weel school quit blt handle came envelopes demise bills bills mlre bills wise amp saved money year thought payed november came bill almost another amp amp cried shock made bucket list next christmas contact dad take johanna real first date jiri something nice christmas fun lt christmas went always toes january johanna invited place day ca go back jiris place spoke jirk almost month now letters court told johanna anything even jiri one knows jiri saw letters told okay fucked badly weeks last letter amp think next one something bad never wanted hurt anybody never wanted involve anyone might now regret everything jiri amp family amp friends trough im disapointment everyone lazy fuckerif see another way last weeks slept wake sure someway im jump balcony know brought upon elementary school amp junior high school learned lie problems time want worry involve anyone problems always tries make everyone around smile amp happy ques never time old habits die hard learn keep never come thought saturday last moment friends amp sunday week railroad track nearby rest assholes made childhood hell kylsaaren alaaste ja meriporin ylaste jasu jere sundval se kpi ja te pari junttii ja koko mun alaaste luokka se kivaa juu hakata kepeill jaloilla ja nyrkeill toista varastaa esineit ja vandalisoida nit vhemmstki pelk menn ulos ja tulee ihmiapelkoo vitu mulkut ymmrrn kyll et teil oli omat perheongelmat mut ei sit olis muhu tarttenu mullaki oli omat ongelmat sillo jo jos olisitte antanu ni olisin koittanu auttaa teit vaikka nauraan ja joni impolasta milt tuntu kytt lk aeksuaalisesri hyvks tykkaiks siit ku otin suihin tai siit ku tynsit sen sinne oki varmaa sulle mukavaa haista pitk paska tldr lied ti everyine life cared fir almist years dead end people please lie loved one family end hurt e eryone evenmore ecer trouble call father mother straight away someone close lt favourite cheese cheddar cheese halloumi filler alive true hellim dumb ass depressed ass good slut year old im literally turning year dont think ill probably even make bad im coward even kill used even though im virgin one wants dont even want im waste space mom shouldve went abortion wan na die dont im confusing stupid im hell suffer suffer earth evil creatures well feeling hijacked mess brain im always annoyed feel asshole dumb ass say care dont even check always one nice talk first theres literally words explain feel shit even really feel dont know im useful ill post see many disgusting ass perverts act care want shit please hear second feel difference day day work believe depression years middle two years absolutely peaked self harm constant impulsive suicidal thoughtsas say suicidal grateful life either final year ugso past months noticing taking time usual performing tasks numerical calculations solving integrals trouble remembering code syntax solving problems etci usually know bad mental state counting times efficient normal vanilla processing power looks decliningsince last years actively trying aware feelings surroundings really feel difference kind making pretty angry nowi actually surprised see noticeable difference going lie scary therapy expensive lockdown parents right now tried explain mental health given arguments man upany help really appreciated noticed unable process things efficiently used cognitive abilities actually deteriorating leftists sit alone cafeteria lunch time school im proud leftist voiced hatred donald trump republican party multiple classes feel classmates ready views mine anyone experiences wish live state california texas around leftists need someone talk toplease pm ill give skype account name need someone talk seeing picture quite skeptic movies agenda appreciate scared thinking writer afraid part miniseries farfetched concept little relation real world poor execution beginning says film fiction events portrayed information uk emergency planning based extensive research general feeling sold idea taught lesson civil awareness message conveyed obvious start coming prepared use real places scenario happen plans add disturbing effect movie even cynical viewers movies perspective society stays away heartbreaking personal moments convey message none romeojuliet drama used mentally died long time backwhats point feels need die physically voice nice httpsopenspotifycomtrackprkmhypzzvtjpdssioonqkyqnuifhknxhhwg thought fought past turns im right back risk dragging someone meits ive use throwaway quite happy fact guys awesome last time got back feet couple months intense motivation living choice comes emotions moods deal amazing stopped meds happened thought headed recovery merits suppose partly correct back story pretty bad childhood often left alone deal lot abandonment issues adult abused sexually mentally depression start years years old nan raised lived time died pretty bad bad leave room days weeks one time months time mum powerless depression long term deal one top never finished school now back present managed find amazing lady girlfriend lives hours away train go see days im happy distance weve going months cant really anything real problem know real qualifications working dead end retail job years know confidence make pretty good manager want work retail rest life know change know start id love something even answering phones deal peoples problems anyway people right front know start ive applying jobs require previous experience hearing back really starting feel trapped helpless im falling familiar dark place almost claimed fear try soon im really scared im gon na fall time able back really want things going head live country family one go advice guidance desperately need feel alone want take easiest way please help horny people subreddit whowhat horny horny himherthemit guys experience hate chores people home mom always comments feel really uncomfortable advice dream opposite genitalia wierd dream penis know people dreams ive seeing many posts people turning teenage years coming end want grow wan na horny forever merry christmas australia im lookin u hi gamsrs anyons wnt discordio basically guys girls shitposting playing games among us minecraft javacracked war thunder fall guys doom hearts iron overwatch csgo one guy big nintendo fan wants friends chilllll dm link d stop bloody sensitive timei almost start crying smallest gestures upset people say im bad person happy people nice want feel less means toxicly masculine force emotions idc want sensitive started watching expecting worst happy find film turned enjoyable slightly confusing parts justs started singing gave chance see daniel wu action first time better actor thought times seemed bit place thought purple storm deserves hong kong legends release different hk films mans emotional struggles confronted memory loss may sound corny eventually pieces actually really makes film lot interesting film find keeps gripped miss one bit lot film wil make sense example missed bit start recommend anyone watches miss say film worth watching grateful surprise enjoyed yall want commit nolife saying wow something surprise though flawed far better expectedbr br brand new space liner arcturus passengers final days sixteen day trip jupiter without warning ships cerebral central computer sounds disaster alarm orders everyone evacuate br br soon handful people remaining including one ships astrogators penny captain cary director shipping line kenyonbr br turns alarm false main cerebral actingbr br erratically remaining passengers crew must escape ship andbr br avoid personal conflicts order survivebr br film starts well opening commercial nice touch obvious parallels space odyssey historicbr br sinking titanic film slow times pacingbr br problems generally well made well acted im surrounded wasps wasps building nest outside house one got house thats send help sick dumb transgender arguments super straight shit came people seem think wanting sex trans women transphobic went full surgery sex regular women shoul see say stop right nobody cares trans women regular women dumb say transphobic want sex dumb shit pisses want sex transwomen many straight men want either transphobic want natrual women natural women alone homophobic wanting sleep frustrating day really need therapist home sick child come totally job lives families come first lonely feeling adds despair person talk roof feel lost right now therapist even joker movie actually good dont really know watched movie thought good long ago dudes twitter say wasnt actually good movie sucks ass whats opinion movie hi ima useless guy religious study degree tell big sin gay cases using quit informal language people ask mainly teenagers guy sin gay begin want make clear fact people say sin god basis christianity sin approximately bibles written first one mentioned muslim history quran well books jews jewish history including hindu vedas says homosexual homophobic sin said homosexual upon persons choice god person reveals criticises decision sinners punished grace god hinduism complete sin repercussions burned alive found guilty homosexual cause rebirth cycle stop buddism quran muslims said sin person homosexual said keep god married homosexual marriage consent parents disapprove support proceed marriage sin matter punished afterlife grave homosexual may sign strayed god grace ignored teachings jews feeling lonely id talk someonemy last post well shit guys feel fucked friend uh argument yesterday online school nothint special tho normally sit together class talk lot etc today entered class sittting guy friend tho even say hello saw idk give note im scared ask ok think song wrote addiction runs family right staying able sleep night mental illness ive enough give fight judge depression anxiety fill mind balloon dont know hands tied head expands roof emotions feel consumed family abused wanting commit redflag really lose suicidal paradox anyone elseim morbidly suicidal hopeless desire live future feel guilt anymore concerns people id leave behindim unwanted burden crushes soul concerned dog though wont even bother note feel compassion others share stories instinctively dont want understand feeling way depths working courage kill yet deeply affected others want die please let go hold start school two fucking hours rn clean room go wait teacher hate anyways want chicken nuggies want thank everyone seriously planning death couple hours ago found subreddit looked posts guys wonderful wish give biggest hug exit act redflag reform hi name adam im founder exit act exitactorghttpsexitactorg redflag reform initiative legislate open euthanasia services acute chronic intents justifications im year old human relations specialist social neglect chemistry interaction gray area matters impetus assimilation empathetic explicate advisory purposes find development unfortunate necessity ask please share sentiments contribute helpful information appropriate forums service legislative use impacted redflag support mission establish humane administration suicidal persons consider making financial contribution crowdfundhttpsexitactorgcrowdfunding support efforts help unable cover burial costs wake redflag events referencing highly instrumental know someone impacted redflag interest contributing mission february national freedom day lead open meeting public expressions opinions topic open euthanasia legislations front white house washington dc usa est pm pst ensuing campaign proposals legislation commence thereafter stress sentiments contributing forum members information provided instruments amp provisions forum used devise legal documents thank sincerely interest exit act ampxb kind regards adam getting braces getting braces wondering anything know remember watching s recently borrowed couple episodes public librarybr br nearly year hiatus come another conclusion principals interviewed series center power traudl junge hitlers secretarykarl doenitz head germanys navy anthony eden uk long gone first hand accounts live onfrom generals admirals sergeants russian civilians concentration camp survivors record br br remember lord mountbatten interview killed s br br truly gem believe producer series knighted queen elizabeth work well deservedbr br seeing episodes library makes want buy setbr br given review discovered fine bottle wine appreciated little time fucking hate mom cant single bit privacy even online classes antimask antimask wtf caused someone commit redflag feel shithi everyone im australia caused someones death never really liked person begin acquaintances talked times every months circle friends met plagiarised university attends person reported university show evidence dont ask got evidence plagiarised multiple times done things caused take action really wish didnt days later found expelled university happy outcome although know consequence severe expected warning days come figured friends lashed believe right anyway dont anywhere life cheating days found killed shell shocked devastated feeling extremely guilty every time think makes stomach feel sick devestated although never liked never wanted kill friends said right thing death wasnt fault feel fault words advice welcome feel less guilty great charged death one friends messaged said hes reporting police us pretty great place live country first world country government oppressing anyone women oppressed whether best country questionable say country pretty good live im united stated im happy live place thats third world im saying best place live bad people say really least enough freedoms added things happens places russia happen us thats country honestly laughed lot saying bad place live really innacurate change moods every fucking hours fucking hate stable fucking week week stop changing every day stop avid julie andrews fan watched first time dvd directors cut version surprised rated g bedroom scenes seduction story line two strip tease acts warshootingblood g rating weird rate pgbr br thoroughly enjoyed movie beautiful showcase andrews voice talent acting great storyline little weak leaving gaps filled good dialogue many talking walking scenes liked see relationship julie rock blossom intense love believable anyone someone want someone simp idc want feel loved dont know doim combat medic ptsd ive dating girl little three years today broke never felt horrible life ive married kid another chick thought got everything good ish anyways dont want kill keep leaning towards point dad come house take guns house live america gunz cant help think always mess things time dont even feel living anymore helped much better quit smoking rarely drink around made acceptable society love know constantly upset everything im kinda money hungry always trying promoted better positions im glad dad took guns sorry rant guys talk someone im really bad mindset rn im scared reach friends think ending life cancan talk someone one person supposed kill age wait die honest life nothing pain short bits happiness last millisecond due date coming cant learn shit online online classes suck cant focus phone cant learn anything nobodys focusing class learning slower im tired stared h screen lot homework cant much short period time fuck im bored hmu talk whatever long conversation stays interesting living dream fucked lifei cant believe different life compared year half ago studying uni internship film company loved gotten accepted dance team training gigscompetitions guess fucked started counselling near end degree started confront feelings gender disphoria counselling realised wanted badly transition tell loved ones feel accepted ready went hill graduated getting month extension able graduate friends dance crew took break stopped dancing isolated room continued binge eating always turn trying finish uni deadlines worked part time job free time watch shows phone spend wage food couple months id put kilos completely given following passions dance filmvfx degree go make worse weight made look much feminine fast forward got laid full time night shift job ive put another kg given hopes trasitioning anything life want find another mindless nightshift job make ends meet untill ive properly planned redflag worked guts based posts image percieve yara yara yara stalk profile dunno keep simple possible good show well written fantastic cast loaded blood guts centers around disgraced cop relationship exwife son former partner andre braugher childhood friend priest george dzunzda lastly person happens hack episode likely find something going city still good story yes nice see man portrayed good father spite flaws watch one see lot us hooked show thank david morse making character interesting another good job guess song aint tellin im finna im beyond fuck shit hey lil mama sunshine person touch gang gon turn shit columbine ice neck cost ten times three thirty thousand dollars nigga flee hit rodo spent ten gs finally text post weekends fuck image posts suck ones people showing art stuff posts memes yesterday sorting new see meme comment repost yet fucking reposted meme went hots wtf man text posts best lots interaction youre senior high school job field looking going im graduating two months college forefront mind plan going school degree food nutrition either want dietician home economics teacher wondering guys seeking life adviceim one people kill probably generate reaction everything going surface somewhat true grew without financial care world went top private university adult im perfect health decent physical shape im close family really good friendships dated continue date accomplished attractive women problem im early s completely financially dependent parents dropped law school decade ago pursue passion career arts received legitimate positive notices work generated meaningful commercial interest years honing craft putting made penny seem closer anytime soon meantime ive held lowpaying unpaid jobs internships recently quit job years small nonprofit paid little clerical tasks eventually took marketing position someone left knew nothing marketing relatively terrible ended quitting year poor performance reviews im shysensitive feel highly unsuited office jobs seem fit coworkers discovered towards end time mocked behind back though still middle school degree useless liberal arts field despite hundreds job applications received responses positions ive interested applying probably lack experience even know applying anymore true passion creative pursuits continue hold hope eventually people take interest creative work feels pipe dream network draw upon find good jobs cant identify practical graduate degree interested attaining best take yet another clerical position somewhere seems ticking time bomb feel horrible guilt shame living nice apartment cant afford ive therapy years various prescription medications done little help feel guilty even feelings people real traumatic experiences lives want die suffering pales comparison still think killing time want live life failed dreams zero passions want office drone want kind recognition intelligence creativity use way earns decent living earning money something hate enough creative pursuits satisfy hobby know killing hurt care obviously feel guilt anything died reason enough stay alive one choose stay alive sole purpose preventing others unbearable grief feel im failing life guidance disappointment welladjusted family often go sleep wishing wake life feels incredibly disappointing unfulfilling given choice whether exist picked said know problems first world anybody advice move forward kind situation way trick brain caring passions finding meaning bland existence thanks helpadvice living breathing potato thats folks read title messed w girl question advice messed short theres girl likes back text back forth time texts dont answer purpose look cool guess eventually text back never text first always sends first text soooo sends text per usual dont respond time forgot respond im well shell text eventually right nope three weeks ocd mf theres notification messages icon reminds unread message ios btw read receipts disabled said three weeks dont want open message sees decided open text three weeks pretty weird im stressed think one notification every hour every day ive received left unopen long true idiot one hand want open rid want absolutely sure doesnt see read message long question read receipts disabled actually work ios enabled see read message show delivered another entertaining travolta dance flick great music mood scenes debra winger beautiful saturday night fever macho film features extremely improbable scenes beautiful women falling travolta almost begging sex feel theres point living alli hate hate much feel one day might explode nothing right good games im good useful others im good good daughter sister partner even friends figure im best either im sore loser often feel jealous others doare better hell im even good languages study thats want eventually living im bad even trying kill bunch failed attempts belt im huge disappointment living exhausting want right now feel tempted pop pills finally sleep peace females called cute took shit scared playing horror game wish deadim tired fighting know much keep going christmas gift arrived courtesy tcm never seen film even though seen films barbara stanwyck comedy made us laugh much times restrain order hear dialogbr br movie seen people suffering stressful situations especially around christmas certainly lift ones spirits letting go movie make perfect gift form dvd vhs tape br br christmas connecticut directed great panache peter godfrey based story aileen hamilton br br best thing movie felicitous pairing two popular stars era barbara stanwyck dennis morgan barbara stanwyck always played strong willed women obviously change pace film well lady eve ms stanwyck displays knack comedy mr morgan played lot musical comedies make winning combinationbr br weak performances film sydney greenstreet actor notorious playing heavies delight watch rich fat alexander yardley man owned media empire knew good thing saw reginald gardiner accomplished english actor adds luster stellar cast behind two principalsbr br s z sakall another source continuous mirth plays hungarian chef felixwho hard time version english language una oconnor makes perfect norah housekeeper sloan perfect connecticut farmbr br reading comments forum sad learn glorious black white cinematography appreciated people color widely used s classic movies seen original format accomplished coloring thembr br film requirement anyone looking spend almost two hours uninterrupted fun christmas time total merriment assured watch open mind heart maybe see christmas connecticut every year im tired waking upi genuinely think ending life lot ive thought years sucks ive therapy ive medicated nothing seems pull head trauma every years fall deep depression complete misery cry everyday hardly eat filled sadness kind go numb feel empty thats comfort away sadness days nobody knows ive started isolating friends family feel burden everyones life want distance far dont feel guilty dont person anymore abuse drugs alc daily drinking taking something started self harming almost everyday look wrists body represents scars inside pain outside now look makes hate feels good one control pain point tell thats hurts really want die peacefully sleep ive thought mixing pills alc taking sleeping medicine hoping stop breathing time sun goes ive thought carbon monoxide poisoning didnt ask born didnt ask put trauma fair forced stay tortured every single day thoughts feelings head life go people die everyday thats life choose amp thats difference wishing life away feel content anymore sleep hate feeling way cant help want know feels happy wake anxiety attack first minutes awake day asking manage escape today repeats living im simply existing dont even want im much pain wouldnt say anyone real life anymore deserve better begin remove easier really remove although remade several times movie classic seeing first time creative dialog unique genius final scene deserves credit critics given highly recommended one best comedies recent years little kid grew thinking inferior culture raised colorist restrictive fact skin tone darker side made subject kinds insecurity indirectly programmed believe enough unattractive family emigrated grew country minority made even worse already expected people treat shit speak people almost certain want nothing look mirror somebody takes picture entire moodday ruined feel sick disgusted core society incredibly hard wired evaluate worth person way look guess makes nobody boundless unconditional self hatred hate entity universe despise self hatred continues perpetuate everywhere go see beautiful perfect faces every time check phone every time turn tv every time go walk outside feel disgusting hideous compared everybody unable see way feel undeserving love affection friendship deserve nothing see pretty girl think pretty disgusted know guy found attractive isolate friends family sometimes ask friends even want speak want attractive want feel confident want loved want family raise children successful want somebody somebody want happy never self esteem destroying life rant mom grounded slept past alarm shit gets mad something thats even fault punished im bored sooo im gon na put shit alphabetical order give household items please redflags become question ifi know anymore ive suicidal past weeks keep alternating fighting thoughts succumbing darkness past year ive gotten car crash totaled car broke boyfriend years lost cat lost coworker work full time job part time job im full time graduate student sleeping well im slipping back eating disorder im starting paranoid everyone around many friends feel depression making burden ones im antidepressant seem working psychiatrist taking forever back im making wait finish school year part time job ironically im studying mental health counselor anything hurt clients come may th theres nothing holding back anymore anyone want uterus please send free charge take itits useless dont even want kids story complex wonderful tale last harem ottoman empire well told provoking see inner workings world gone learn people lived therebr br enjoyed story characters acting scenes scenes suffered quick editing sub titles sometimes disappeared quickly wonderful piecebr br main character safiya played wonderfully marie gillain pleased say fantastic job without scenes alex descas nadir charming lovelybr br recommend film anybody looking watch something less hollywood authentic world emulating care need phone number right goddamn now alright aint even gon na lie warm blooded female must admit ryuk death note gives serious daddy vibes dayummm lets fuck already absolutely best thing seen tv entertaining informative reason found site attempt find see itbr br light present understanding history sympathize gen leslie groves responsible nuts bolts running manhattan project certainly paranoid security thought past br br casting real life people portrayed outstanding first time noticed sam waterston actor except height looked much robert oppenheimerbr br early scene oppenheimer leading class graduate students especially intriguing know awaits side nothingand leave conscious nothingness better life nothing death take church music video scary dam got point across well slap face reality stuff infact still happen love song meaning behind one songs people cry homophbia happens never depressed life seriously affecting way living know take anymore tried seeing therapist couple years ago looked bored listening falling asleep never bothered looking idea maybe adults see therapists maybe supposed know deal issues kid anymore afraid therapists tired hearing shit see adults stupid knowing solve problems part knows true part help think things people please enlighten seeing therapist adult literally post anything care getting downvoted feel immortal hahahahahahha monthly subscription something anythingmy ipsy subscription given something look forward yes days shit bad cut stop going far want ipsy monthly makeup surprise items glam bag lot crates meal boxes many things one buy give something help want hold longer hope helps help pleasei need reasons live tmr im actually done please give reason something cant anymore dont feel comfortable explain please often see pitch black room see feel touch taste hear distance see everything everyone loved cared start running grab arms reach grab matter fast long run always distance away feel overwhelming urge breakdown cry try mad feel anger sad feel sadness feel nothing despair loneliness emotions lost void desperately trying escape fall knees head facing ground two choices lay front continue trying matter hard exhausting guarantee ill succeed reaching game switch matter long running trying always reach first one want give want end things scared reach eventually ill choose option terrifies doubt take option feel longer try likely happennote suicidal depression feels severe depression feels deserve suffer bad kill teach neglectful kill hurt people anyone wan na chat im bored af anyone wan na chat im m even know writing herei want kill badly guess guts woulda done long time ago thought years feels different maybe listening frank sinatra wan na wan na badly everytime think think family dead care family sad lonely year old guy give fuck anything years staying home playing video games failed college parents expect enter much problem really bored life biggest problem gambling addiction parents send little bit money every month spend mostly ciggaretes gambling sometimes even money buy food feel sad gamble feel betterlose feel bad even know thoughts now usually think redflag bed nothing block thoughtsthe next day wake sit pc goes away now im sitting pc thoughts probably even commit today even know writing feeling sad really sad good wayeasy way seems redflag troubles gone sadness gone reason comment fuck ass daddy post comment fuck ass daddy post playing minecraft increase memory noticed couple times actuallywhen play minecraft something seem remember going around instance family watching moviethis happened six months ago still remember dialogue said remember gamei exploring cave second time noticed online class english decided play minecraft missed whole class hear said still remember names characters story whole story understand possible paying attention said class still remember word said block placed said anyone relate takes patience david lynchs eccentric change lifeaffirming chronicle alvin straights journey stick though moves slow straights john deere meets kind strangers along pilgrimage learn much isolation aging painful regrets secrets ultimately power family reconciliation richard farnsworth caps career years genuine performance sad poetic flinty caring sissy spacek matches slow daughter rose pines private loss caring dad rarely modern film preached notredflagly family term classic film comes wonderful story womans bravery courage extreme loyalty poor olan got sold uncaring husband years learned appreciate yeah right pearl br br luise rainer beautiful star best actress oscar year small role waste oscar great zigfield really show talent exotic beauty good earth shows really act beauty erased great costumes either people say show real emotions film hell character olan shy timid woman inner strength quiet parts film eyes body convey emotions example scenes fall city looters shot people saying act well film lookingbr br paul muni shows act well character likeable one never sees end story sweet loving dedicated wife mother special beauty greatest one beauty within pearlbr br chance see film watch see one best films golden age hollywood created im suicidal feel die one daytheres redflags parents families baby aunt killed forced abortion grandmother years later mums uncle killed struggled depression mum tried kill found dad cheating admitted hospital months dad killed girlfriend left thought better without midteens youngest brother tried kill struggling everything know redflag left behind still feel haunting actually told school therapist maybe kill never actually told anyone time anyone listened anything hurt right now might sound silly reason living right dog ive seen life without caring away college right happiness posting everyday till girlfriend day im actually piss one guy kind beggining feel kill myselfi year old virgin culture brought mom especially made sex relationships heavily taboo actually even know act around people especially women informal signals nothing wing come across creepy desperate used think fat ugly holding back lost pounds s muscle great shape mention im brown dude white city even brown girls seem spurn looks advances friends person talk regularly apart fake interactions coworkers brother beggining feel rheseus monkeys socially dysfunctional harlows experiments act wrong cues based fact already stereotypical disadvantage begin different color add social ackwardness recipe disaster monkeys fight shouldnt approach act indifferent picked people socially excluded begins vicious cycle long term loneliness creates stress inconfidence makes small chance getting somewhere seem unlikely point suffering feel genuine real feel natural urge connect people try meet women instead simple lack interest people begin dislike take social ackwardness sign malice point life feel problems ingrained change really want look long term solution thinking redflag notedoes anyone lately ive thinking stuff id say redflag note much suffered worthless buffalo bill hero far west director mario costas unsavory spaghetti western beast klaus kinski produced europe hollywood never dared made western sexual predator prowl protagonist movie never mind kinski ideally suited role crazy johnny plays individual entirely without sympathy ironically dressed head toe white suit pants hat lowbudget oater nothing appetizing typically breathtaking spanish scenery around almeria nowhere evidence instead costa director photography luciano trasatti shot another kinski western god said cain lensed horse opera rather mundane setting around tor caldara lazio italy monte gelato falls treja river lazio italy nevertheless beast qualifies continental western deals wholly unscrupulous characters action classified film noir hero heroine trapped intolerable circumstances compel resort criminal activities predictably welllaid plans backfire owing largely kinski character indeed licentious kinski character resembles wily e coyote type character consistently struggles sex several beautiful women either lawmen outlaws frustrate efforts ultimately beast amounts tragic character study brimming irony stelvio cipriani orchestral score sounds lifted tony anthony western stranger returns mario costa screenplay takes place western frontier san diego mexico terrorized notorious mexican bandit called machete giovanni pallavicino still kill old way gang prey stagecoach nobody safe depredations first time see crazy johnny laster pauses refresh stream spots gorgeous looking woman washing clothes creeps behind attacks bigger man armed rifle intervenes flee shows nearby town snuffsnorting gunslinger recruits help ambush wealthy man mr powers trail rob wind killing getting money mr snuffsniffer accidentally leaves snuff box scene crime sheriff arrests suspicion murder crazy shoots accomplice hotel room worry implicated crimebr br meanwhile young couple love trouble making way world riccardo steven tedd requiem bounty killer lives mexican couple ranch helps raise real son juan village riccardos lovely girlfriend juanita gabriella giorgelli stranger sacramento sings dances cantina riccardo juanita plan marry last place juanita wants settle dusty ranch dreams living city life city requires money either riccardo team blond outlaw name glen paolo casella shoot living pray dead plan kidnap mr powers daughter nancy comes inheritance glen makes fatal mistake enlisting crazy johnny help glen knows johnny needs money womenbr br abduct powers daughter keep remote cabin johnny standing guard meantime juanita masquerades powers daughter shows town money powers attorney gary pinkerton giuliano raffaelli blood black lace grows suspicious juanita look anything remembered nancy riccardo brandishes sixgun warns pinkerton kidnapped nancy unfortunately riccardo juanita pinkerton lay hands thousand machete struck fear hearts everybody powers total inheritance shipped territory stagecoach meanwhile back cabin horny johnny tries rape nancy outsmarts knows chair pretense needing alone undresses knocks unconscious steals buggy drives back town johnny recovers pursues murders time glen riccardo juanita pinkerton meet trail inform johnny complications created machetes reign terror give thousand cut money pinkerton aghast sight nancys bloodstained corpse threatens johnny naturally johnny guns cold blood spotbr br things really begin deteriorate law san diego sets capture machete glen riccardo juanita return mexico johnny attacks two women ranch narrowly escapes getting caught rides mexico finds cantina whore going bounty shoves revolver face johnny confesses knows find money release machetes men follow johnnys tip capture juanita villagers join riccardo attack machete johnny rescues juanita dies later big shootout riccardo left standing alone now machete men retaliated step parents killing little juan everything riccardo juanita dreamed goes clouds gun smoke unhappy ending crazy johnny dies never gets assuage lust think costas uncompromising sagebrusher beast emerges interesting character study exercise film noir western setting everybody punished realized something one fee mail friends flirting past couple months stupid ass noticed shes found someone know one cares mixed favorite oons videos together httpsstreamablecomiegc need talk someonei cant deal life anymore wan na kill self im ready dieeverything fault ruined sisters birthday mom isnt talking bc didnt guts tell suicidal im scared talk dad im afraid itll awkward im fucking pathetic feel alone maybe better hate wont care im dead schools starting soon feeling wont make somehow feel calm knowing wont live hell anymore everybody better without burden family talent ambition hobbies hope future whats point living need try hard everday barely work ass school im going end shitty job barely pay rent life pointless im done trying better evrytime things looking fall deeper hole feel everything attempt make others proud im living id much rather first place im ready die couldnt feel peace les go accidentaly breaking old pc almost exactly getting new one going pain explain im fucked guys least tell explain properly wan na never go one deserves around horrible self punishment fucking see fucking die told id never let girl dictate life life without doesnt feel worth livingi fucked shes moved everyone pales comparison havent loved dont know dont know turn impressionable youth first experiencing gundam wing series upon rewatching series reconfirmed belief series beautifully animated plot gundam design character design character depth masterfully executed first appearing boy band sorts stylish attractiveness characters partly credited great art individual personalities creating clear endearing distinctions among characters consequently extremely easy become drawn particular character personally liked heero stoic personality may biased sentimental attachment show childhood objectively say gundam wing addresses deeper questions war life general obtain peace providing action packed battles large robot suits say least excellent whats wrong wanting livei really wanted alive around past years life told severe depression understand logically want live enjoy every day grew great house supportive friends family drive wants job productive member society never yet job date yet alive people enjoy company parents love want much sit home parents play video games talk friends online time dinner talk parents almost every night cant want dead without people saying sort problem produce goods services wide enough audience able support know burden upon family want stuck idling away time wrong wanting dead person chuck fucker meat grinder force hisher kids eat many know chadwick boseman died cancer mean offend legends kobe juice wrld grant imahara bosemans death first celebrity death actually make feel really sad black panther one alltime favorite superheroes boseman left us soon rest easy legend cant make hell every day might seriously end todayevery day beyond hell every day lower deepest level hell never able memories head someone put heart never even got kiss fought treated worse hitler treated jew history world lived remember every day years end ive deeply deeply suicidal years ruined entire life one fills gap every time someone fill comes life recognize happened god takes away women come way tell give time ive given seven years nothing fills gap going blow head logical conclusion cant rid memories im done waking hear hate betrayal towards wish happened never happened wish wouldve worked wish never committed loyal faithful three qualities mocked replacement im going die nothing fills gap nothing changes never understand tortured long tell understand someone come life soon way person motivated anyone im going dead tonight im sick hearing lies im sick hearing peoples opinions ampxb im sick hearing peoples opinions know level suffering endured throughout entirety life timeline hundredfold worse want hear want hear say kill done living im done dead alive earth im done expected find happiness impossible find im done told understand im done told understand pain im done everything want die right now every day right now want die dont much suffered wish bring everyone around realize magnitude heavy wake traumatic memories every day feel im stabbed god gave cancer top ruining life blesses people destroyed entire soul wish everyone felt pain day saw film came one top favorites blurb wrote amazon im thrilled finally coming dvd films th anniversarybr br last credit film explains appeal thank people manhattan whose island filmed charming witty romantic comedy love story written new yorkers peter bogdanovich native identify every location west th street ansonia old fao schwartz plaza roxy chez brigitte city limits country western club one gets impression entire ensemble cast clicked well offscreen intimacy clearly communicated laughed cried better cats ode dorothy stratten audrey hepburns last feature appearance cameo subsequent film inner beauty seeps screen buy make big tub popcorn curl someone love absolutely first film scared death happened catch older brotherrip watching black white tv really good picture got interested shortly folks bought color set luck million dollar movie showing one sundaybr br forgotten plot take long catch upand got scared hard time sleeping night mean sure movie involved creature came space hear see itand got hold late even now time still sends shiver spine true classic even better classic seen scare pants new generationbr br long live blob thank times covid whatnot everyones life changed somehow know mine sub repeatedly reminds maybe bad guys giant online friend group chat send prolific memes well time look forward seeing whats new every waking morning peace cheese balls stay awesome gay people best people know okay dont people cant gay guys mean literally increase ur chances getting gf competition take another guy technically ultimate wingmen girls let lesbians take girls competition increases ur chances bf last thing know fact majority boys subreddit looked yuri least might well cool point sick jokepreviously going kill feb manage survive point occupy several days yeh maybe im far around years thinking new semester starts st april might well kill day background recently knew well dugged past classify mentally weak physically weak happened got genes parents mom died redflag crippling depression giving birth diagnosed something called baby blues father cheated mom knew something wrong mom make things funny year mom passed away live together house living room hahaha first thought cheated girlfriend bestfriend last semester hs one month prior national exam already bad enough recently september last year ex left ex depression recently learned done legit im tired keep feeling dejected time goes bestfriends family heck even father say pass people went worse yeh ill keep facade nothing happens everyone community im counting days end seek help counseling instesively within economic capability yeah somehow still see worth keep moving forward judging experience ending still looks better option ok amma honest thigh high socks said losing battle anxietyive fighting battle severe anxiety symptoms control started visit doctor months ago prescribed pills suicidal psychotic break committed mental institution day returned work next day arranged week leave absence ive seeing psychiatrist times week past month im trying resolve issues behavioral therapy rather ssris tried hardest back track work last week work stress ramped friday night wreck spent entire weekend suicidal angry state job stressful field amazing potential dedicate want derail track morning woke overwhelmed dry heaving worst physical anxiety symptom one worst parts life past years become paralyzed throwing nothing comes ive going meetings dry heaving trembling go meetings enough adrenaline kicks keep body zone dry heave situations killing hiding killing pretending strong fine killing think dry heaving produces endorphins think im addicted endorphins barely enough focus function back track cant afford let coworkers know im continuing anxiety problems career everything point already using leave absence need tackle anxiety problems privately going forward retain job friends im going months im recovering codependent different counseling last year revealed almost relationships toxic used stereotypical nice guy im confused asshole required social skills jibe ive reinvent think killing keep saying words want kill seem compulsively project mouth hundreds times day im alone cant control weekend kept writing insane rants subreddit either id delete immediately post keep crying help different ways seem rational seem insane one rational ones think becoming adult im already aint got long leftive depressed remember depressed mean need die even child imagine death help sleep ive never help whatever parents think im moody dampened girl anyway ive tried kill past via bleach drinking oding loads class suffocation recently trains fast ones parents know noting im unemployed lack talent speciality love films thats im studying im realsitic know never make film producer taste cinema laziness anyway im looking help typical redflag watch kind way feel write thoughts someone know read maybe impartial say things thank much even considering read way thought adult vulgar see hope going personality kind good come im hardly hold conversation anyone even best friends bf feel become someone able say things sit silence much desire away things much already supposed good looks theyre going stay forever say whats fucking point ive always hated kids thats agenda believe marriage someone thing waiting future broken dreams failed relationships book upon books regrets always felt way going die redflag never knew thing ill miss sunshine feeling loved love besides say never asked born buy ticket ride take spoken people never take seriously laugh suppose reddit answer thank reading join skribbl httpsskribblioyycucnknqym number day day filler filler filler filler filler filler ive hit rock bottom cant see anymore anxiety drugs covid lonelinessthis first post anxiety disorder ptsd utterly alone started thinking lot death months ago idea dying past days ive begun think killing im afraid make phone call anyone want family find im putting anxiety really bad months spend days feeling uncomfortable shake heart pounds feel disoriented experience depersonalization ive house several months due covid anxiety even going outside medications issues seem make symptoms go away fall relationship longterm became strained due issue family began smoking weed every day rarely saw sober started treating badly sex ridiculing perform wanted got point started panic attacks wanted sex stoned covid came followed stayat home rules finally saw apologized high around time said hed stop apologized behavior everything seemed right path ghosted three years together quit communicating week ago heart physically hurts answers started smoking weed time started headspace made feel terrible depressed anxious cloudy headed confused swore id house covid came broke promise brought house ive smoked every evening absolutely hate oldest kid transferring college far away weeks coming home weekends anymore youngest kid planning leave distant college well came shock thought theyd stay community college first two years kids father lived nearby coparent moving away well family now company ive worked thatn years restructuring end year lose office work home longer see workmates possible may decide worth keeping fire might able save job move states away leave home years family friends state gyms closed social events shut travel allowed ways even try connect another human gone days pass even know day unless meeting reminder comes im working belong anymore purpose physical mental hell utterly alone never heard film saw rental dvd bit sceptical many films past good ensemble casts cant anything film bad script cases seem carebr br well watched reason give movie theatrical release good story genre seem little forced times appear good amount realism allows momentum carry pleasantly surprised good job justin timberlake major role ok hes oscar material yet hell learn role shows lot promise future dylan mcdermott amazingly good unexpectedly nasty role definitely cream crop moviebr br ultimately give go disappointed bored fact think happy end result gotten worse idk everything getting better better id gotten loosing friends id mostly gotten crush getting bf hadnt cut months hadnt cried weeks started trust people flipped around returned back havent cut yet ive looked open window way hadnt months ive cried first time couple weeks people keep saying itll better hasnt years gotten worse idek im supposed anymore best everything best everything different everyone us love alas everyone knows look real love story goes whole gambit looking love sometimes wrong places wrong reasons saying goeswe captains ships goes lives responsible choices make lives make choices must live watch story see women making choices likely change lives forever wonder make choices women wiser knows first youtube video made closer today look months years months video made back video made years months away december mights topic reacting goesjust know im twelve year ols girl whos gon na go highschool next year found long ago wanted share piece story yeah happened recently moth ago mom got argument slapped end always overreacted starded crying made drawing always im sad mom came room yelling accusing taking lunchboxkinda stupid drunk drugs yeah cried couse im sensative saw drawing yelled kill jump stuff couse drawing words help itbut yeah dont wan na say got punches thats fine besides ive kinda depressed years usually keep fake smile face try make others happy yeah ive looking back things shes done feel horrible think im reason alcoholic im reason took away little sistershes ive thinking throwing bridge neer house drowning even though arms already bloody dont know stop feel useless hopeless dont know guys maybe give advice sorry im asking much sorry overreacting bye now self hatred redflagi feel minds equilibrium feel less suicidal mind put intense amount pain make suicidal good works ways means never better right im filled intense self hatred im ugly fuck good people broken refused date theyve found unattractive im useless theres single thing matters right friends family prefer killed told several times im waste space im suicidal long stopped trying im much coward kill want rip arms want cut theres nothing left bone im mentally stable im emotionally stable know bother im living particular reason need die kill know sure say looking talked need talk outso im sure people envy life im still kinda young mid s wife daughter full time job home im loved family im respected professionally sent wife running house crying knife throat reason cut family ive wanted end years now wife keeps telling bad itll end im sure itll worse stay heres story afghanistan keeping two thoughts together challenge came home months combat unscathed home relax drank drunk year doctors base threatened put institution sober lied said sobering didnt drank quietly months met girl become wife years felt good calm sobered real got married kid wedding started getting angry angry stupidest shit always getting angry angrier become simplest thing set cant see straight cant think even im angry distract reddit xbox movies always work especially tablet game crashes really sets ive counselling got back fools quest every doctor either stereotypical joke pushes pills military end explaining things talk now im wits end cant think clearly see clearly except im thinking ending thing keeping family im afraid working anymore im positive stayed id damage wife physically emotionally daughter end angry distraught distant said im talked wanted somewhere talk im going today ill need find place method make worse anyone walking traffic fuck whoever hit jumping building fuck anyone saw eating bullet create mess want family see want gun community another statistic hanging leave someone find boat id step side tied bag rocks kind want family body bury crazy writing actually helped calm now next time think may walk never return thanks reading figured apparently cant soup fork normally u directly drink bowl thing guys figured pajama pants underwear comfortable thing fuck rsex posted something saying dont people think wrong suck dickeat pussy post got taken mods everyone basically shaming girlfriend wanting give head calling stupid ok decision still thinking shes love life im probably getting banned sub someone insulted girlfriend called ho posting nudes online fuck supposedly sex positive apparently thats youre whorefuck boy sex people married post nudes fucking cunts obviously enjoyment struggle period lot us least remember time enjoyed personal hobbies even fleeting five minutes every year years writing song painting picture sipping tea book walk park sunset one around meeting friends family whatever collective happinessenjoyment seems unreachable remember time partake collective going euro football people work talking taking day meeting pub celebrate getting hyper rowdy etc thinkwhat point rich folk kicking ball brings millions people happiness even though actions kicking ball alienated individual anything sporthobbyrally world cup olympics basically anything collective anyone feel way express better christmas another collective always felt depression worsening starts september shops basically demands collective celebratory approach leads new year many countries blast millions poundsdollarseuros sky five minutes collective enjoyment spent health education homelessness rather celebrate christmas enjoying day day good food good company anybody struggle collective enjoyment whos tryna cry feel crying love sisters gave mom christmas gift early teddy bear voice recording know whos voice recorded mom played thats tears came grandma passed away years ago heard voice day passed mom bawling mom sisters closest hit hard say grateful family cherish spend time theyre redflag attempt tonight ending life half miserable years earth hope isnt afterlife simply dont want alive memories glad brought round end suffering good tried everything help think best solution written note completely prepared thank help tried give really think best goodbye fucking horrible existence ok doctors appointment today walked wand put heart download brain stuff updated chest left shy introvert complete pushoverbut become rapidly angry violent shit every human becoming violent rage infused stand sucks opinion redflag gene generations dead males use depressive thoughts live carelesslythis post everyone guys feeling suicidal ive many timesuntil broke patterns realising life really nothing know figment imagination go careless fun give zero fucks words become sort hedonist whats worst happen die none us mind whats point cutting chase make whatever existence isand stop caring freeing tried youngtried second time painfuli really seen thruthe third time want painless space time body mind fight right timeit change alot things sorry howevernothing always seemsthe day mind stops day define peace soon going inevitable brotherthe last years agony senses word diagnosed kidney condition writhing pain flares vomiting violently mother shouts hell broken loose saying caused condition nothing make better despite fact better failed second year levels went college left year course wanted carry appeal faded work father electrician plan start apprenticeship electrician mother wants gone constantly reminding failures comparing everyone work uni feel thing holding back fact care brother blue cheese want share title says enjoy yo anyone recommend great wholesome yuri manga manga doujin im trying break away stuff whys hardlast night got drunk wrote redflag note laid diaries filled every suicidal depressive thought past year tried hang ive anti depressants week theyve taken away fear killing chicken breakdown time sat trying trying hour cant cry anymore theres drop go one methods cuts carotid arteries hurts maybe im cutting carotid arteries enough one worst pains ive felt head throbbing front brain almost feels two knives inserted eyes kept trying falling unconscious whatsoever one point started stopwatch phone see long attempts one seconds hurt much tried adjusting using cut airwaves made choke cough last attempt time instead sang along song playing itunes head distracting pain longest attempt hurt much kayne song came fucking dying kanye lmao gave put everything away went bathroom going bed noticed eyes completely bloodshot burst capillaries face theyre still hours later whys hard die know people successfully goodbye teenage years offical longer teenager fun entered depression s words wisdom go college right away know want spent whole freshman year constant panic figured sophmore year fun mental illnesses please help finally got medication year old changed life im good advice thats got best luck teens yes follow femboys sue fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerr yoasobis songs fire know jpop songs really nice go check think friend mine attempted redflag morning dowere freshmen high school together btw morning woke frantic calls friend mine well call joe lives half hour away friend bill live near school anyway apparently bill called said done bill took mg methylphenidate concerta im percent seems case dad terrible person idea mom town want go hospital locked room went house early morning fucking terrified knock waited outside right go stormed apartment building schoolbag talk ran kind close strange walked school little bit behind looked fucked really sure looking guess kind looked fever time got school joe talking coordinator ran away one find coordinator said dad took home seemed bullshit know sorry know want go school maybe dads number future better stay away might read post thats alright want know care feel stupid trying im cowardly redflag im cowardly try dont want toi took day drinking week ive drinking constanly past three weeks im back feeling drank screw need die soon anyone suspicious unflaired people sub kinda seems pedophile thing tbh obviously weirds bit literally midnight cant fall asleep even though eoc exam tomorrow god help fall asleep exam even tired dude update parentswell mom ill provide link previous one essentially lost remaining shrivels respect mom today lets start school didnt mention previous post im member schools jrotc color guard team beginning felt phone buzzing knew someone calling formation teams couldnt exactly pull answer position attention anyways split teams one left side rifles practicing place rifle movementsorder arms shoulder arms port arms present arms etc etc took break minute continuous movements rest arms teach cadets newer color guard around time set rifle wall checked phone turned aforementioned buzzer see mom called times still couldnt answer phone anyways packed sanitized riflescovid procedure placed respective rack grabbed bag called mom pick answered yelling wont say exactly said turned somewhat vulgar digress came pick forgot practice thursdaysnote id going pt practice every wednesday drill practice every thursday school came back face face even bit sitting buddy whose relatively new everything give tips show stuff pulled got car almost immediately started yelling calmed block later asked asked english teacher missing assignment period per day block schedule meaning go class every day english yesterday didnt today mention moved class due schools jumble fuck scheduling crisis another english class period told night see uninvolved careless son anyways thatll important im say next sitting room hour ago reading boom dad gotten methe white donkey maximilian uriarte wanting weeks bought gotten stalemate book decided go downstairs grab water time reached base staircase hear mom talking friend laughing stating sent something funny laughing reading immediate thoughts already talking another guy already years marriage fact consider even messed cowardly talking dad stated sms agreeing take doctoranother story messed arm thats another story involves neglect supervision towards brother statedif read previous post makes sense boys still need father im trying best provide long prolong divorce wont able end day im sleeping truck im lucky friends couch overheard base stairs mother reading mockingly shaken voice father friend laughed laughing fathers plea mercy man serving public fire ems service seeing things imagine every day let chance see provide children didnt even balls disrespect face hide house still pays bills behind doors switched locks couldnt come see fucking kids youre reading edit im working getting link added text currently minutes okay im sad gf keeps calling cute dork call back first saw movie thought sweet family movie rest night next couple days though clever moments funny lines kept creeping back thoughts conversation theres lot going classic elements farce good character acting wendie malicks story line hysterical labelling feelgood movie belies wit fun smarter seems wonderful life im really upset one best friends argument started overreacted lot made seem horrible person ruined day yesterday texted message saying side argument apologise monday message mentioned sometimes toxic said felt couldnt around friendship definitely toxic dont know sounded happy letting best friendship turn friendship didnt mean asked apologise said idk hurt made cry ruined day understand started argument shouldnt response im still blocked leaving read wont answer questions know upset even explaining doesnt want recognise im entirely wrong true friend normal answer questions crush got tested positive covid scared paranoid mom really appreciate someone give tips help stay calm freak worried mom im concerned know years old depressive episode started getting worst yesterday lived worst day entire year found cat dead kitchen everything one year old unemployed one wants hire friends mom accept sexuality anything religious dreams life know want hopeless everyday wonder still alive life getting worst close friends years kinda weird cause ive always thought another someone small friend group im realising thats cause ive never really close friends place percentage 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makes sad knowing spot instead trapped thing see future redflag often sit porch middle night thinking mistakes opportunities took makes sad times coming back way see redflag somehow fix stuff want yeah idk movie takes psychological thriller new depths well written shane black film executed phenomenally cast watchful eye director jack swanstrom clearly swanstrom director look future strength lies adaptation personal experiences screen classroombr br thoughtprovoking film must see anyone appreciate action drama suspense mystery good films viewer goes journey find individual interpretation movie mystical aspect film intriguing adds suspense find self looking answers along marquette audiences liked movie festival circuit many awards received must agreed awol well worth watching br br id love copy go getting one fuck people rap music understand artists post malone actually put time effort songs lyrics mean something style enjoy dumbass ix ine lil pump spout nonsense people eat hell wap god fuck sad excuse song charts dosent even fucking chord progression christs sake people listen crap please explain cause honestly earthly idea people want listen shoutout unnecessarily strict things parents sometimes really hot day today nearing c dad refused turn ac angry staying inside childhood one image httpimgurcomaksfjqu mood nostalgia trip made im going ask anyone want play super smash brothers ultimate switch dm black chapter figure dark chris family moving new house middle woodswhen arrived chriss family went house chris behind following thembefore went saw man holding sign sayingbeware black chris looked sign confused ignored man went took stuff bag started designing room way chris half way designing room thats saw dark figure standing outsidehe opened window took lookchris confusedhe went stairsill go walk little bit outside dadchris saidwell dont latechriss dad said chris went outside didnt see man sign didnt see dark figure saw windowchris decided go middle woodswhile chris walking saw trail blood groundhe started thinking going back know whats going followed trail bloodchris saw trail blood leading small little househe opened door saw man sign dead hole inside blood body black rest redwhat fuckchris saidthis cant happeningchris started running back house fell hole hit head hard night chris woke thinking dream got got hole took phone pocket opened flashlighthe started walking back homehe suddenly felt arms holding shoulder heard weird whispers behind ear looked behind flashlight saw nothing continued walking saw blood shirt dead guy sawso wasnt dreamchris said back home parents rushed himchris youchriss mom saidwe worried close calling copschriss dad saidits nothing need worrychris said parents went brothers roommax need hear nowchris said maxnot chris need win thismax said chris playing online gamechris shut computer told everythingfirst nice joke second fuck close pc chris hellmax said chrisyou believe happenedchris said maxyeah rightmax said sarcastically ignored chrischris went back room suddenly saw black hand coming door started pulling doorchris started screaming one heard maxmax thought still joking ignored himchris kept screaming max couldnt take went roomchris please stop screaming im gon na fall thimax said shock saw chris pulled doorwhat hellchrismax ran chris pulled black hand went awayso werent lyingmax said chrisi fucking told yachris said screaming faceokok rightbut thatmax said christo honest dont knowchris saidbut im sure well soon find top text utter fool thought going say bottom text played good sir lady now watch thishttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq care happens mei dont care happens im garbage anyway im tired trying build something everyone gives eventually cant shake feeling im running inevitable spinning wheels mud cant bring eat shower speak bed anything go fucking work tomorrow quit job rot bed ive already attempted redflag twice past couple days pills made vomit second time im kind scared try may go coma brain damage something need help finding type meme usually unrelated noise loop create drum effect cut start song flute dude banging drums sorry thats best describe know song tell feel worse time goes oni feel throwing away everything live streets forest know sounds inconsiderate people looking street need lose change way live hate life always spend nights wide awake able sleep thinking ways kill dont know wrong cancer seem rid feelings ive slept apartment hallways problem living im afraid ill end drugs used sounds silly right im literally suicidal care im rich dont drugs id feel worse already ive clean couple years pot alcohol quit smoking cigarettes im sure soon hit streets ill smoking unfortunately real killer mind though feel born die whatever good usually turns shit fault time tend fuck everything say everything mean whole bottle every last drop im really hard feel couldve better shouldve done things differently whole life full regret day goes without dwelling mistakes ive made sleep ive gone days without dont believe god devil feel im alone smother sleep question one thing love writing consider smart compared others writing helps find without id put gun head now thoughts love everybody unfortunately im bastard ive done pretty shitty things life time isnt confession church ill keep hate ive become dont think ill make let alone making worsedoes anyone feel life sucks enough actually go end go whatever make even worse yet somehow still courage want end bad cant guys upvoting pretty much anything heres first scene shrek man upon time lovely princess enchantment upon fearful sort broken loves first kiss locked away castle guarded terrible firebreathing dragon many brave knigts attempted free dreadful prison non prevailed waited dragons keep highest room tallest tower true love true loves first kiss laughing thats gon na happen paper rusting toilet flushes load somebody told world gon na roll aint sharpest tool shed lookin kind dumb finger thumb shape l forehead years start comin stop comin fed rules hit ground runnin make sense live fun brain gets smart head gets dumb much much see whats wrong takin backstreets never know go never shine glow hey allstar game go play hey rock star show paid glitters gold shootin stars break mold cool place say gets colder bundled wait till older meteor men beg differ judging hole satellite picture ice skate gettin pretty thin waters getting warm might well swim worlds fire bout thats way ill never bored hey now allstar shouting game go play hey rock star show paid glitters gold shootin stars break mold belches go go record scratching go gogo hey now allstar game go play hey rock star show paid glitters gold shootin stars break mold people write girls dress codes neckbeards call girls females even loudly told much prefer called girls women ladies something sort thats say go days yo post history kinda sus number times ive mentioned redflag tryna laid product sub im feeling horny im lazy watch porn masturbate im horny go sleep cant one please dm im bored im bored way often ngl matters im f helloim unsure type really word honestly think need somewhere im oif veteran believe ptsd though believe depression began early age recently panic attacks severe thought stroke heart attack finally went local va hospital prescribed antianxiety medicine appointment psychologist told may ptsd unsure feel right diagnosing gave support groups go though really speaking tour really telling anyone ive served things ask ive suicidal thoughts service rarely severe feel isolated everyone including wife children often times feel im ghost house wife constantly phone children wanting needing go bouts depression first time years ive thought pulling trigger ive spoken wife concerns nothing seems help see big deal little real friends point im reaching strangers internet want pity going work talk blah blah blah know want know ive felt heavy really sucks hopelessim mentally ill know idk got strength medical field think ill make im brink giving everything run away responsibility much hard study online half yrs finish degree idk much frustration take feel terrible rubbish useless unnecessary thing communicate nicely well year said wanted meet said come study city see often now days left trip visit ghosting want die exist understand life understand anything college struggles rock bottomi started first course stem major weeks ago going well enjoy causing immense stress leaving derail entire life plan know change major something interests something useless complete rock bottom life massive upturn great gf good health etc shattered now deservei hate im horrible person ive ruined friendships ive ghosted friends course highschool college petty reasons think even ruined highschoolcollege life wish take back hope things better now im suffering karma bitch deserve enjoy anything anymore real goal life im angry time even parents mind place wrong things ive said done eating think im going crazy voices head never stop everytime memories come back mind tries justify things ive done know im shitty person deserve live cant wait finally courage end life redflag sort presentdamn man life hits hard know doesnt feels meaningless life feels empty ive antidepressants didnt helpamp im help absolutely nothing c ya need someone talk toi need someone talk generalized anxiety disorder im senior high school im falling apart doneim kid bad break problem family turned kids speak tell horrible mother mother died pet adored life cruelly taken im horribly sick disabled hurt time grandson ripped life ive researched ways life really wish hands cyanide tablet killing hard easier way person done help sometimes want disappear live anymore stopped caring anything dont want doive written rewritten letter everyone many times thing holding back fear missing missing big epiphany life need provide meaning want feel pain day day cant hump want something happen change mind know coming making go crazy much time spend online classes poll school online classes well balanced know many hours spent online classes homework much time spent subjects help lot us abnormal feel lack sex going last strawi problems real ones feeling trapped unfulfilling marriage one thats worse happy id rather pull trigger leave try start cheat better leaving grieving family option leaving divorce alone ill survive consider though maybe ill easier forget im villain care people think will feeling sex stupid thing put importance makes loathe want forgotten frog dissection today seen post friday abt know im excited basically watch preview ended crying amp passing really sensitive animals everyone knows ive asked safety said feel going happen im going cry feel lightheaded panic attack pass panic attacks happen often wouldnt surprised im really scared girl starting liked wearing shorts freezing weather may one best movies seen anything trite plot leaves one wondering way go next interesting portrayal struggles youth youth interested immediate gratification youth show concern desires needs others todaya new bornnovember todayi attempted redflagby cutting wrists taking large amounts pills something really strange struck head happy sad feelingthis feeling made decide liveeven pain even reliefif im destined live ill fucking live whats point anything anymore ill fucking livei know sure better fail life fail death im already much painwhy cause painill fucking live health give upuntil fucked body finally give surviving quick thing sooo rdeadorvegetable based mods removing posts saying reposts block calling thats bit peeved rn extremely depressed struggle feel sense importancealways knew id post cant deal life anymore work hours week go home alone big heart feel nobody interested try offer support support given back feel try try try nobody wants try im done gon na kms need helpgot built hook bedroom ceiling need rope long strong enough one online shopping option bettersince early teens theyve told gets better well im got nice apartment well payed job wonderful fiance world im still suicidal even exactly going better know much time left feeling suicidal ive beeni ocd ptsd schizophrenia saw psychiatrist first time gave medicine state insurance cover nobody cares poor homeless want die theres hope wrote redflag note killing weekend im soooo readytonight freakin perfecccttt feel chicken knowing im probably gon na whole bunch doses trazodone itll knock ill cut deep bleed bathroom pass trazodone make pass first told mom love earlier today coincidence never tell love girlfriend told comfortable discussing dangerous self harm habits love idea people looking back thought mourning gone soon god wanted one angels back etc etc sappy shit love much want dead long gone im fuckin ready past couple days ive dragging feet nothing dissociating home self harm therapist told need grow meet halfway therapy ill never better jokes though im never getting better one worst weekends whole year know talk toim crisis mode atm woke friday thinking meeting rush turns actually online shit idea going ended using multicaller phone call phased meant ask prizes businesses donate week ended time work ones wanted thursday rest friday scared sort person told manager id organise saturday eventually got headache front computer long started talking negatively stuff probably minor anxiety attack friend convinced go home rest eating something woke saturday feeling shit cause hot degrees celsius ended getting severe anxiety attack afternoon left crying bathroom floor exhausted try stabbing evening rolled around everything seemed amazing woke friend anxiety attack culminating told im going talking help cause nothing help anymore wont check phone stay bed feel cut deep inside able go sleep person live gone bed yet made noise keep night holidays nearly cant cope probably able go church morning im failure able commitments know im going explain im horrible situation friend know talk worst actually tink im getting betteri even thought inspirational quote aim stars dont sad hit neutron star important realise eisenstein committed marxist film maker held specific particular theories film achieve howbr br simply idle compare alexander nevsky negatively anything similar period us film comes oldest film school world another continent entirely different approach cinemabr br appreciate film little try finding pudovkins kuleshovs theories montage example read wikipedia entry marxist film theory feeling really bold might even investigate triadic forms hegelian dialecticbr br follows watch film without understanding eisensteins ideas ideals probably alexander nevsky main characters playing meant distillations nations character nevsky generals deliberately shown largerthanlife represent stylised heroic aspects entire russian peoplebr br acting wooden meant slightly mannered represents completely different school naturalistic narrative style hollywood rapidly adopting eisensteins films especially designed realistic anything seems somewhat obvious whether lighting language pose struck actor meant way eisenstein one early proponents film art form entertainmentbr br editing sometimes seems consist clash images well thats idea shots meant contrast eisensteins films contain embody elements politicalphilosophical argument namely marxist dialecticbr br sit back shout hurrah russia folkhero defenders boo cowardly nobles teuton invaders enjoy difference truly proud today pissed year old man call duty haha theres red stuff coming wrists wonder happened dad sat phone laptop fucking sat pound lookin ass broke laptop cracked phone screen aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hope redflag troll catches need helpi know ready need make sure dont end braindead paralyzed make successful formulation know stay honest people want helpi know start im year old male depressed teenager past couple months ive considering redflag option im feel strong enough able change life im jobless skilless job years pretty bad anxiety people driving interact people afraid drive know people love life feel unable love someone even love thing stopping killing chance failure redflag given sure method likely ive never selfharmed done drugs almost never drank alcohol want even pain problems life october hospitalized suicidal thoughts days lied feelings leave still suicidal thoughts beginning december hospitalized broke therapists office suggested hospitalized days thing happened lied feelings want anymore hospital suggested try ect electroconvulsive therapy depression seems big step trying medicines right im prozac abilify ive tried medicines besides prozac know keep honest others trying help know hurts long run ran fucks give waifu least tall gal though seen many films prior certainly seen basic plot themes many films br br one grants loys best films make outstanding effort together much talent good supporting cast know laughs therebr br film light dramatic spotting keeps plot moving gets smile whole way throughbr br great example classic american film fare stood test timebr br definite saturday afternoon fare heavy popcorn jus wondering idk maybe wrong kids better spending creative years trying find something theyre passionate instead memorizing bullshit required accidentally inhaled coffee lungs warm nothing say nothing mom totally crying ya know ampxb httpspreviewredditrlvveabpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafcecadede depression started seriously wanting die turned im tired everyday time feel alright im fall asleep family idea downside ending feel ruin future decembers family really dont know im typing im tired living see reason anymore depression started school rejection stress added tried drop school try metal state right parents wouldnt allow getting worse read back sorta seems im lying oh well guess jus hope strength actually end time comes everyone reads thinking redflag dont may sound unfair tell im gon na time theres better way deal problems good luck everyone hope live long great lives want big bearded muscly lumberjack dude hold sometimes night daydream held stuff reality wouldnt want random dude holding ahhh anyone relate wheres lumberjack smell rain damn relaxing idk something nostalgic crazy cuz im even nostalgic better times cuz ive always unhappy miss feeling existing rain reminds reason alot redflag people expectations work morning evening car workshop colleagues mean still learning one friend hangs bigger group hate reason hanging pull make fun friend want interfere stole dads booze got drunk crying bed really want kill please help fucking tired im tired people complaining small dicks excluding females unless happen one three years old accident involving nail clippers bath parents watching leaving clippers counter reach serious anything bleeding bit skin torn uncircumcised yelling child older developed scar tissue thing scar tissue fact layers upon healing skin making larger many say oh cool dick bigger cuz scar tissue age much scar tissue uncircumcised penis skin literally verge closing dick left tiny little hole made peeing take minutes hurt parents take see doctor says need surgery surgery wake doctors say operation success theres problem things needed know circumcised dick meaning scar tissue issue penis soft hurt touch cuz covered skin years scar tissue penis grown im sitting dumbfounded telling thing size five says yes give time grow smaller average take quite long time forced grow complain constantly inches dick even ive got inch itll till im least im rn nothing left giveim finally decided ill work im going withdraw money eat big steak leave huge tip clean pack apt put notes remaining money envelopes im going take pills try co method tonight fail capable tomorrow ill go next door gun shop come back lock bathroom try hope fuck two hours work tonight might nightthis lowest ive closest ive come redflag see options method location note done im work im worried actually going im ready need done omfim depressed want fucking scream want talk someone one life fucking cares fuck still alive want fucking die cant deal living hell deal living everything god damn painful cant anymore guys cantim year old trans guy cant anything help im least ive depressed exact reason parents emotionally abusive cant leave siblings start getting abused im basically shield mean dont really want die thats way end suffering think every couple times past couple years holding hammer sit staring thinking happen hit head im kinda scared depressed ass think redflag time even though dont wan na im kindof scared one day become witness body walking killing without even wanting wan na time dont really want dont know anymore covid ruined dreams hopes dreams sleeping dreams seen crush three months forgot looks dreams random guy saw hike im useless im falling behind school disappointing parents upset seek professional help therapistspsychiatrists im lazy hopeless let people hate kind cars yall drive idk man put engine displacement youre ebic im love deathmy girlfriend lets call c c perfect together everything great love want kids love much problem liver cancer ive crying past dayssince ive found transplant lined problem costs nobody afford childrens childrens children debt currently theyre trying find blood surgery luck blood type ab one rarest bloodtypes course thanks blood type take types blood common ones stupid though looked survival rate transplant five years theres chance death thats big number cant live without goes ill polishing gun fuck cancer fuck everything need baby whats kept breathing eating loving cant take anymore ill sell kidneys arms legs brain eyes ears anything long lives hell ill even give liver need doctor gave months live thats long time cant take feel water lungs cant take anymore well didnt girlfriend told liked way well wanted keep close friendship d slams table slammed table mlord phoenix wright someone please explain joke 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comparatively ok think hell die happy im pedophile gay one bi regular nonexistent sex life taboo one existent say pedophile pederast boy socalled age attraction lives across street ill never lay much hand id sooner die sooner die none understand sort thing go therapist anyone suggests theyll one attend funeral know care ive done nothing deserve better anyway guys age attraction friends straight afraid admit thing practical sense bi gay friend bi guy attracted gay guy married ive put enough shit im going tempt break fidelity always fancied kind cute girl whos willing sex ive unwilling sex matter appearance see combined fact cant even find guy yes ripped wants fuck ass anal guess really ugly expectations high wanted cute guy girl weigh much half find sad cant girl keep cock erect nevermind eventually children see extended family dead brother sterile kids pathetic family line end guess time anyway hearing going used love music much make spine shiver hair stand end move tears ive three bad ear infections past three years still understand people room background noise everything subtle music gone still listen sometimes makes cry touches place thats longer feel empty along lines goingtoshit body pretty badly infected toe infected inflamed year now suspect ill gangrene soon medical insurance flunked college feet bare shower past year keep secret family theyd try doctor wed lose much money valued hearing much one toes lost fuck toes ive acne age cant go away gave trying last week go figure yeah tried towel thing bad job stopped wanting one six months ago cost money right now brother couple friends bar friends fun without ive come realization im good anything nothing offer anyone oh sure died missed thats people become used presence terms actually offer theyll poorer die people really knew wrong theyd keep away people forced love religion remain thats love enough now hope future dead feel ostracized day keep living world rather dead emotional strings attached im tired many ways now old become someone world rather keep starting tomorrow im going lay floor room bed need lower ground closer spirits im going stop eating stop talking people protest theyll panic fully anticipate ill feeding tube said done even though wish go lengths keep alive ive never wanted die want kill cant slash wrists blow brains im tired im tired live im going stop trying im going lie body gives mind want mean wish whatever lacked way sorry burden deserve better better posts better people ill check back know edit im going sleep almost fell asleep moment ago check replies wake deserve edit im awake okay time put plan actiontime die feel conflictedi feel horrible im scared open anyone im worried theyll go tell office boom run another lap system done virtually nothing first two times deal parents cant open redflag without consequences im sick ones feel guilty know id worry everyone course dont want die care dont want somebody kill regardless feel bad feeing regardless anyone try help even gotten better last time went system redflag still feels optimal even though really dont want die waiting game nowive taken pills got ta wait well see anything actually goes wrote sentence note whoever finds wish say isnt much got cyberbullied twentyyearolds saying shouldnt slutshaming women boyfriends cheated love humankind step dad picking mum hour im going take overdose time house ive tried getting life taking every day came overwhelming constant loneliness depressive state horrible deal need something chestenglish first language please forgive mistakes youll surely find text st birthday last thursday december th somehow made realise many things know really dumb parents brother aunt friend wished happy birthday felt bit sad lived go back parents house pandemic plenty friends constantly wanted hang drunk apartment promised wouldnt let bother real friends still kind expecting text something never mentioned damn even reminded facebook anyway last night birthday party mom brother aunt cousin guess wasnt big deal see every day work family business everything fine ate cake opened bottle wine conversation drifted someone friends brother aunt im best terms said well dont talk something big mistake told ruining fun long story short literally kicked party went bedroom mom followed thought going tell serious something instead screamed big pain ass next year im going felt shit still honest suppose im lovable person dont know dont think deserved kicked screaming told wanted die ive wanting many years many bad things happened wanted stop pain said dramatic made fun made feel depression invalid crying everyone singing laughing thought perfect representation life hour later everybody went home sleep couldnt stop thinking much wanted dead decided take rat poison dad bought couple containers years ago believed rat backyard wasnt almost forgotten great plan guess back room poison inside bag trying figure effective must couple years ago angel appeared looked find pair big yellow eyes staring intently cat meowed climbed bed made comfortable waited join context cat never wants sleep usually sleeps parents room warmer mine felt left alone something bad possible probably explain presence meowed laid beside found couldnt leave one one cared know might think sad even bit pathetic swear moment became reason existence play feed clean sandbox keep warm live family im one shes cat cried eyes different reason now made promise wait couple hours anything wanted think everything another day life still shit family ignoring one talk im ranting reddit know least cat wants live may seem much enough now tldr wanted kill birthday party family dont seem care didnt cat appropriate diameter material ropein regards short drop hanging method thick rope im assuming thick enough break sill thin enough pressure reasons one thats single centimeter diameter ive tested yesterday feel break easily material anything amazing either meters costed seriously taking chances morning morning finally olved maths problem let sleep last night guys film know actually put scene way back school trip stopped service station time film asked whole us run shout go freebird around years old anyone seen film tell part actually kept film great know remember thought film never come another half years released comments seem good im guessing quite successful film might buy first know im d thank looking forward literally nothing life want fall asleep wake want go im drunkima cap itll romantic fuck give anything away describing plot film say begins return israel young blind woman whose closest friend companion committed suicide unfolds detective story blind woman tries figure friend ended life pursues investigation information accumulates leads inexorably devastating conclusion film expertly paced acting especially talia sharon yaara blind woman excellent israeli film definitely come age fully competitive foreign films though found large audience us might little topic dream xbox got red ring death woke find shat bed help best friend likes idk kind long sorry best friend leaving next week hung last time ended making touching almost went stopped mom rushing us home acting really weird taking home didnt text back next morning talked phone last night basically said loved wanted show make see beautiful said felt half said almost cried kind scary didnt know say feel im freaking kind dont know feel love feel see friend hes liked ive always rejected ghosted felt couldnt handle felt scary feel thinks ill keeps making jokes leaving now girlfriend hates theres please give advice dont want hurt love tldr best friend intimate says likes dont know kinda sad yesterday someone said theyd delete account cuz stuff regret seemed cool wanted stay away reddit yet made post seemed cry help theyre gone im kinda bummed trying im cry cant even tell mom bad anymore ffirst open talking pm makes fucking anxious idk bunch mental bullshit drop regular highschool graduate using independent study failed community college now know dad disappointed either ive sleeping lot lately hard time getting pass woke yelling dad yelling mom im stupid failing school blaming kinds stuff know heard shes trying mom said well thats enough dad yelled ok dad either know im enough mom mental bullshit coming breaking makes worse dad bitched side im dark refusing let worthless ass cry cutting help anymore next step death feel getting close ive tried cant even please dad cant shit together im surprised kicked streets threatened able hold job want waste welfare disability money wish mom baby miscarried instead edit comments welcome may caused misunderstanding husband hates much hate myselfim scum fucking earth deserve anymore husband cant even room stupidly pulled gun awake took away im planning slitting wrists outside snow soon falls asleep oopsyesterday ragequit job brink called parents told needed come pick handed revolver now morning feel ive made huge mistake really wish gone im parents radar bigtime drive back apartment feeling captive life made suicidal asking help made captive powerless god really hope chance kill himheritthem german hard learn literally learned monthsits easy ill name couple languages harder german though russian spanish french albanian greek enchanting table lastly babyian hows everyone wan na check lads going trip ram ranch join want need help reddit theres girl already boyfriend tell relationship seems pretty stable positive side think might open got number around month ago advice looked good green hope well look good im proud still hope think still friend hope love body heart hope feel happy thats want katten min dde jeg er det hun var nesten gammel det norske tastaturet er ikke ille sure bad sure bad take away teenagers phone depressed taking away good grades finish work straight garbage reason talk friends finish work one oddest strikingly eerie creepy horror films come s tourist trap even loose freewheeling conventiondefying anything goes standards time rates real weirdie yet pictures strangeness masterfully mounted uncanny atmosphere pervasively offkilter supernatural dread getgo registers powerfully spooky becomes increasingly opaque frightening film progresses offering ample shocks amid scattered moments surreally lovely dreamlike elegance ending bitterly ironic crushingly nihilistic note haunting final image thats hard shake makes unique singularly unnerving experiencebr br five teenagers traveling desolate california desert car hopelessly lost stumble across slausens lost oasis seedy rundown roadside dive thats one part gas station three parts crummy wax museum parts ratty foreboding joints lonely seemingly friendless harmless owner slausen juicily overplayed infectiously hammy brio chuck conners turns deranged psychic killer lethal telekinetic powers slausen brings freaky assortment uncomfortably humanlike mannequins life picks kids one one add evergrowing collection victimsbr br director david puppermaster arrival schmoeller adeptly wrings every last ounce tension squeeze pleasingly ambiguous openended script cowrote j larry carroll said scripts stubborn refusal provide rational excuse bizarre stuff transpires throughout movie often wrongly criticized one films principal weaknesses actually movies key strength giving picture scary anythingandeverythingcanhappen commonlogicbedamned quality true nightmare come horrifically life never achieved kind credible explanation offered whats happening pino donaggios beautifully chilling understated score nicholas von sternbergs shadowy cinematography robert burns grubby cramped production design add immensely films profoundly unsettling mood excellent performances another significant plus pretty perky jocelyn jones elliejo turner great texas dynamite chase particularly fine personable resilient sympathetic endangered teens even tanya roberts fares well luckless lass knife levitated head offbeat unusual tourist trap well worth visiting found fathers guni use end less minute easy scary time im gon na know dont know im confused right know chance im alone gun wanted im depressed cant reason im scared hate hate feeling dont want want strong fucking fucking end cant coward mom mom talking birth control morning means still secks going kword hours hopeim indecisive bastard first jan feb tonight made decision last night cant feel much anymore emotion fucked theres building near house construction hasnt think years dont remember doesnt matter im piece shit doesnt matter anymore ill jump building tightening piece cloth around neck told friend chat said joking used lot say going die ive never really friends im child ive long remember smile painted face day want cry cant anymore dont know anymore dont care either im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry ask someone cant start conversations theres girl really want ask know know friend group well play jackbox stuff sometimes talk except group together chatting cause im really shy good joining conversations classes ive reading bunch advice says strike conversation cant know start conversations cant even strike conversation guy friend chat every day literally people school ive every really started conversation way able start talking ask mom believes masks work tells without backing evidence except fact smell fart someones jeans catch disease someones mask never went college ive taking college classes junior year high school im live person knows many years somebody please prove wrong probably belong herei nothing complain ive never abused great parents supportive gave great childhood never bullied never problems fitting good job rewarding allows financially comfortable im ugly physical ailments people generally nice ive never even heart broken beautiful wonderful wife love tolerates nothing stability love whole life want end theres weakness im soft slightest adversity sends spiraling im taking meds maybe need idk believe life make meaning except give im lazy want anything action dozens ambitions know pursue ill scrape exist im lazy complainer nothing complain real problems im process making sure wife easily access money assets im almost done writing goodbye letters theres nothing live except spair family pain thats enough anymore tired feeling weak im tired feeling man simultaneously weak willed anything diet exercise medication meditation ive failed im im scared everything feel alive right amount alcohol im done feel alone tiredthe tired probably lack sleep newborn around feel got hit hardest punch post partum depression went feeling ok everything ready kill every night everything hurts body hurts feelings hurt want see anyone except mom want baby anymore cant look babys father without feeling anger wanting hit literally fantasize walking room beating making feel pain puts want stop taking blood pressure medication let preeclampsia take course die liver failure everyone around loves dearly seem make difference anymore family thinks genius notupdate reddit saved life tonight much longer anyone want read ive included concise summary end floated grades middle school point designed web site eventually receiving unique hits per day making fair amount money advertisements th grade honest truth lucky sites topic happened extremely popular time amongst age group spread people school jumped schools district elsewhere family began think genius prodigy sorts destined bring familys name greatness hah truth lucky determined site closed careless uncommitted longterm done anything publicly great ninth grade took heartened interest girls brought bout extreme selfcontentiousness grades fell caused alcoholic mother seriously drank almost obsessively rage untapped potential began using drugs form escapism nothing extreme th grade began experimenting certain class drugs experience extreme ego death almost every time use swear almost feel thin strings attaching rest world snapping time take believe id worth world anonymous manipulation selfsacrifice highschool often create fake screen names accounts social networking sites manipulate people school common cause hating anonymous school trashtalker talking collegiate intellectual course rallying hackers hacked website school partake groupthink occurring joyously senior year mom forced independent study grades suffering never homework independent study immediately found loophole simplydesigned online system grading never school work year lead experimentation drugs missing graduating friends graduating great friends amazing friends honestly offered place live time need fucking mean cant handle living someone im close never im mainly afraid think theyll think something goes wrong selfdiagnosed problem self worth never contact anyone much preferring hope contact almost shy almost id prefer anonymous actions luckily friends valued enough call regularly house expressing general interest welfare mom almost taken role child relationship hit puberty family told ones put thought head originally never grew honestly amazing artist lead amazing life faked adult young keep began grow well kick regularly extreme fights spend night beach one schools close house eventually started living friends house weeks time proved abusive felt using friend little offer return friendship mom kicked drunken rage two summers ago left uncles house utah used live central coast california live snowy desert weather almost unbearably depressing winter mood mirrors almost perfectly ive year now made friends though ive opportunities make connections place dislike rare occasion ive made connection someone opportunity people normally associate see judging people show inspiration insight lives hurts around relationships falter week usually sooner never see realize around show interest insight met want friends makes matters worse uncle providing modest employment though usually performing meaningless tasks business offered many occasions capital business business almost certainly involve web site foundation honestly know id fucking begin internet seems fully explored now difficult think original site gaining traction online daunting task honestly want deal getting normal job frowned upon family especially grandparents bring things chide talk family treat dictionary pointing questions assuming know insulting ive began saying know everything ask hopes dissuade asking friends expect return california soon keep telling next semester sure never manage work enough save enough move back friends one close enough touch see start break stop basic things sleeping going work put sleeping hours really care sleeping nothing slept hours stay awake hours weekly basis reason abuse sleeping pills point extreme hallucination done extremely stupid dangerous things influence certain substances utah realize lot uncle willing support endeavors endeavor hurts even thinking ive recently stopped going work enrolled classes community college rarely attend two three teachers literally reading book teach class one asks explain simple things depressing announced hired teach class days semester started barely qualified class full middleaged job needs im going take class fill roll types often fake going class go library instead ive taken drinking ive smoking lot got stopped brushing teeth properly medical insurance teeth rotted believe two molars fall background heres meat tldr family expects feel give alone year go talk anyone save occasional online chat phone call old friends wake late fake attending classes put going fake job drink nightly point blacking im making money better job make money snow makes want die incapable seem escape ive cutting right wrist deeper deeper every week wrist band one notices one touches never moves one notices im thinking making final soon date planned anything point stop one find drive already assumed better cant connect peoplei know everytime meet someone genuine connection never realize theyre life im trying meet people reddit im talking person universe wants alone maybe want deep way finally work courage kill know hurting many people im afraid everythings gon na worsethings sort looking theyll better im afraid everythings gon na worse things worse somehow know know ill able go living im dealing lot different kinds feelings right now complicated please let diefeels lifes began poor education career decisions paired shit mental health serious injury left stranded home country squeezing life country interested taking dropout regardless much potential might thats paper life struggle starting line start privilege break back ground fuck want die take another shot lottery n maybe next time raised psychopaths everything life telling give kill myselfno job money love ambition passion future arthritis depression mediocrity week fucking kidney stones life shit piss fucking razor blades im done cant take anymore life fucking cruel guys girls know guy crush think guy class crush cause someone told pretty close friends id say ultimate test surely tell guy crush friend suggested offline id text heyy replies right away crush tried replied minutes mean wan na embarass kinda lowkey need advice asap im tempted see go day without reddit im pretty addicted dont think able kinda wan na try im going try know nobody really cares im gon na reddit hours unless fail pretty pathetic starting minutes goodbye bit girls attracted theres something wrong im feel burnt ive originally made throwaway account post complain feel starting getting annoying removed dur lack karma friends kida stopped talking feel bit burden im scared confront im lonely feel much look forward life family lowkey drags little trust never relationship anything close feel im missing young blame netflix originals know many people similar hobbiesinterests mine feel outcast im kind scared starting conversations internet irl ive sort embraced feeling invisible others hurts sometimes read thanks time nice day know go kiss seems way make awkward heck guys done play safe hug know early make jump may one teenagers interesting species understand asking random questions untill girlfriend day humanity dies chance keep video video keep keep thishttpsyoutubecwuprcuvq thishttpsyoutubedqwwwgxcq videos good think learned gay marriage one behind scenes spongebob dvd talked ridiculous controversy surrounding spongebobs sexuality confirmed asexual saying people evil understatement centuryi hate women hate men especially hate women everything society special women validate validate celebrate body celebrate celebrate tall men well celebrate beautiful people fucking sick laugh born right bodies deserve live lets laugh short men lets mock blow brains laugh society better completely fucking arbitrary aspect humans life fuck womens problem know exactly fuck judged always first fucking people judge fucking laundry list expectations meet half fuck mens problem theyd kill allowed fuck point even brain pointless intelligence another way see suffering assholes taking advantage culture simply economic activity shell pushing us forward day masturbating first started may pm mnt standard time currently january pm mnt standard time running weeks days minutes got hopes season cobra kai good good last two wanted last longer got nothing watch started playing genshin impact yesterday oh god fun id highly recommend ustockpenguin favorite redditor ustockpenguin favorite redditor yall please stop upvoting slept crushs house crush said yes posts please stop upvoting shit one things theyre hopping bandwagon obviously karma whoring even day true middle fucking pandemic sleeping someones house people dying anyway thats rant please stop shit pointlessi mean point try reach goals many obstacles way mention millions people always put constantly tell good enough struggle shit hole society told someone better try ignore voice head reminds worthless take risk heartbroken search find significant even know im typing internet cares bunch random strangers pretend care seconds ditch everyone everyone know perfect little lives im stuck willing anything hug pat back sort encouragement sometimes even think meant planet maybe one got aborted think belong im s know people say rest life ahead endure pain need every story happy ending maybe death new opportunity someone keep going ill probably way want fuck someone elses life story probably best im even dreams already crushed along heart redflag bad anyways physical energy destroyed according science change form know im selfish thinking wish someone side husband got fight broke plate said defective couldnt said gon na drive somewhere shoot outside car left doesnt seem guns missing dohe ptsd hes getting depressed disconnected past years im exhausted think straight dont want call cops without good reason bc hell lose job hes threatened redflag times always panic attack hes never told plan im really tired scared idk make good decision right please help think timedo look way back first posts subreddit wonder people still alive really hope found way think people time man makes really wonder truly god answers wishes prayers guide others path happiness giving upi feel need end stand anything life feel everyone gave friends teachers parents honestly think one care die im sad ones asks im okayno one cant stand im ugly im awkward time stupid everyone probably thinks im loser mean anyone care died im mistake everyone knows im giant stupid idiot nothing stays brain bad grades parents large metal wooden rod beat cant stand feeling disappointment cause people one want partner sit next none people know class must ugly right one whats point living want watch suffer spicy wings charity stream im going hour live stream youtube channel radgamerdads ill eat really hot wings feel free watch suffer weekend take donations extra life one dad looking engagement stream month miscarried three weeks got dumpedi much pain last night drive home drunk ex let stay sober im recovering cocaine addiction im probably going fired im going aa im depressed talk anyone person think killed baby coke knew pregnant cant anymore um much pain ive numb every day month want stop want dead discussion things things kid benefited mental health now prompt final project create program organization addresses one main themes cultural societal concerns discussed semester assignment choose issue addressed semester needs change support attention bullying sexual assault racism mental health identity design program new curriculum mentor group afterschool club etc addresses need aimed audience group help parents talk kids trained support group peers peers creating new club junior high level change world ok quick question good app recommendations bored easily need games play im ipad use apple appstore cant find good ones im going record today taco trilogy day hope endive depressed last nights ive drank got arrested year ago narcotics drug tested state fail one test go prison cant ive sad lately thing brought happiness gay bars ive gone ive finally accepted self tested morning im going end im sorry love friends ive made love friends accepted im sorry cant go prison ive drinking waiting till midnight see happen told one friends today wont drink rest march ill see goes let family know love didnt support kindness shelterobvious throwaway reddit im sick spent hours trying write ive going much going switched app poof refreshed reason gone im upset wrote much anyway know people skim one needs hear life story situation right something skim still understand complicated connected cant focus details long ill focus feelings need help somebody trust anyone life ill turn guys im wits end feel worthless easy throw away disposable ive suffering much past months suffering well one thing another domino effect never ends im exaggerating im homeless im young im alone one turn anymore im yr old girl people hurt ways expect think real world feel im bad soap opera novela im sure im putting tonight im sleeping behind old apartments gotten colder dark prepare hope neighbors call cops enough endured enough rock bottom seems keep sinking think im float long tried kill april seeing lied ahead even path neater head turned things worse much worse regret friend finding trying take rest pills come abuse every type escaped family hurt strangers whose help naturally accepted tried believe wrong homeless ive met demons dressed angels first worst part knew knew trust take help suffer dependent people help much power ive realized lot people help power control gave benefit doubt fool wish way brand people right forehead others knew hurt anybody people chance run know sound crazy mean im destroyed shambles everything cold life mine cold fine one understand ive seen ive lived alone wasted time energy nothing better things going better quite actually especially consider homeless persons perception time things ive experienced never leave im scarred believe anyone anymore believe people anymore ive lost much faith im longer even emotional im tired im tired much many problems ive tried write help many times theres much write follow something happened today terrible thing cant stand im furious powerless im disgusted theres one turn im sick wish hurt people killed cause instant nothing gotten better fact everything got worse plateau got worse knew problems temporary theyll stay life everyday battle life war im lost cant kill default many obligations cant hurt people tried help especially return investment im disgusted world right now know perspective think ill something died today wish finish job die want make option bad thank much reading really appreciate point even feel deserve people listen fact stranger side world kindness almost feel shown thank happens average joe finds supernatural powers premise may sound familiar watchmen unbreakable russian scifi action flick sword bearer far standard stockbr br story revolves around man named sasha boy shunned society peers family due supernatural power possess wishes anger allows sword extends arm piercing skin wolverinish maybe thats interesting part film shunned life driven anger temper hero returns home town turn life around find reason thing encounters trouble encounter old flames new boyfriend leaves bloodied ground vengeance anger comes play man want cross point mafia police tail meets girl falls love instantly really movie aboutbr br film highly impressionistic bold colors noir overtones spliced short yet extreme action sequences art house core beautifully filmed attention details every scene gruesome scifi action odd mash interests much film directors approach genre refreshing focusing emotional journey sasha straight action film worry though action plenty much sequences show implied violence pictures horrific aftermath say action shown scenes fantastic especially ending see sashas full powers unleashed desperation director chooses imply violence many scenes keep focus characters emotional struggle hand tragic love story refreshing entry genre wrong glad successful gotten help last months much better whether personal notredflag work general mental state feel currently spiraling completely put control months away losing roommate place live find place afford even judt place general housing miserable right now gotten chance speak therapist yet honestly tired thst even want try able lay bed drinking thinking much easier terrified uncertainty want homeless go back family felt good honestly happy first time years really want throw thst away trying process situation best ability trying decide need sell hobby stuff things enjoy try afford owni know posting know even looking everything going sounds absolutely fucking stupid read back feel burdensorry terrible formatting tired drunk phone tried kill months ago masturbated months im challenge anything realized jacked title says worked hard starting graduated high school place work live obviously many many set backs life general incredibly unfair complex worked hard hard hopefully end journey two years living job enjoy found work working ampxbbut enjoy future climate change politics instability world right now makes fear able live first world country soo much thankful good food family good uni enjoy life lot life still taken hard work redflag things work self confidence destroyed long ago working restoring yeahh afraid world go shit feel hard work put worth wasted years per se good moments sure went lot thereampxbany comfort truth speaking much appreciated everything went hard work world going fear may enjoy feeling completely overwhelmed im starting another panic attack third time month ive though redflag feel completely unappreciated andi even cry anymore volunteered plan nice party mother one sister gotten thank either feel theres freaking point anything anymore top dollars bank account feel life complete mess thought redflag years thought getting better im need someone talk know im far worst im sorry menagerie parts one two parter year run original trek series roddenberry able insert footage st pilot cage move made necessity combat deadline problems getting episodes produced sf show back s hassle done time one notredflag outcome back audiences unaware pilot produced almost couple years earlier treated whole new crew captain two episodes top regular cast characters producers spent double money episodes present tv epic spanning dozen years starfleet history though still used terms united space fleet early episodesbr br wraparound story begins space mystery plot enterprise diverted starbase unknown reasons soon spock suspect shenanigans astonishingly though even mccoy belabors fact spocks vulcan heritage makes subterfuge part impossible turn spock indeed acting mutinous scheme shanghai precious starship kidnap former captain pike horribly crippled well spock half human tend forget simply gone mad may well hes directing enterprise talos iv planet offlimits subject known death penalty starfleets books jig theres great scene spock surrendering flabbergasted mccoy uhura looks shock even kirk usually steady captain know make first officers illogical conductbr br rd final acts begin see transmitted images mission enterprise years prior capt pike commanding spock one officers really know going spock hopes accomplish thats another thing makes good parter really need find nd part spock facing severe penalties looks kirks career may finished well double jeopardy folks st televised episode feature one shuttlecrafts none available earlier enemy within crafts really needed theres one neat matte paintings convey ambiance futuristic starbase way visualize things back finally check kirks smug approach start episode boy things go sideways story progresses sad excuse friend tried getting reported mw lol playing v gunfight bitch audacity tell team im hacking tell stop says im serious hes hacking pussy thankfully team didnt believe mainly everytime got final kill missed majority shots showed true colors already blocked soo wish wasnt lonelyi one left wish someone cared enough notice gone adult comedy cartoons south park nearly similar format small adventures three teenage girls bromwell high keisha natella latrina given exploding sweets behaved bitches think keisha good leader small stories going teachers school theres idiotic principal mr bip nervous maths teacher many others cast fantastic lenny henrys gina yashere eastenders chrissie watts tracyann oberman smack ponys doon mackichan dead ringers mark perry blunders nina conti know came canada good good ayo peepee poopoo check peepee poopoo uuuuuuuhhhh peepeepoopoo uuuhhhuhhh think every day refuse go familylike title says struggled heavy depression last years months ago whole life plan wrecked id moved different state follow plans friends feel distant day date romantic interactions november feel invisible radioactive time thinking lot killing thought past depressed lately ive thinking heavily details best way least impact family folks know struggling wrestling thoughts think understand serious become much im still thinking im years old single lonely feel dying less painful feel trapped refuse kill parents pass sister brother law busy family forget easily given time never considered unlovableundesirable within last months really become convinced going alone rest life may way uglier inside initially thought thoughts realizing may alone rest life well knowing go know least impactful possible makes feel stuck idea never talked thoroughly really sorry rambling run mess morning sort thinking things besides sentence structure bear hear soul scream continuously trying break freeguilt spreading heart wild fire untitled saw last post absolutely nothing wore hentai hoodie said nothing yearbook gon na little interesting wanting die ability kill urselfcan anyone relate literally wanted die long remember really enjoy life feel attempting enjoy around genuinely exhausted point want keep going several attempts finding unable go anything anyone feel way idk literally want hit truck something way home work never works way help please need helpnhelpim getting blackmail female wants dollers im scared shell might even post pics fucked hard kill post idk anymore hoursin hours ill go living room sleeping pills family catches ill say cant sleep one really stop family definitely cant doubt even care feel shit help meim awful human deserve live mad things life throw hit things im mad release frustrations want feel brat never spoiled want kind person lot things mind come every years make say depressed diagnosed sad want hit kill cant seem always looking ways actually going friends know things want kind person want change want help life sucks cant afford therapy want parents finding even idk maybe im acting holidays near wrong hate holidays worst things happened want guess anyway made far reading thank sometimes want heard feel free comment drag might curtains mehi im yr old student whose parents found failing hs senior yr dont dont many friends great people cant live shame knowing ill never parents expected maybe ill already dead probably gon na post man tough itll soon hate youre alone crapi know depressionanxietyredflagmental illness general pretty damn common point thats problem everyone lot worse theyre succeeding despite besides boat someone doesnt mean arent still rowing doesnt mean youre making boat take water drowning im glad people take comfort idea theyre ones self harming whatnot thats partly point subreddit see kind posts twitter tumblr scream faux positivitynormalisation yeah sure experiences going start talking properly cant lift stigma meaningful way rant honestly feel shit feel life driven sadness hate blind anger feel anything feel absolutely nothing care anything want anything found things used love bring little none satisfaction make decisions spend night long crying morning absolute worst talk anyone friends normal depression shit last time talked said depression poser want talk parents neither therapist really help feel one understands mom said stage months ago really stage really stage guess complicatedthis worst five days life every year abusive horrific biomoms birthday th mine th every year imdumbfounded angry disgusted still allowed draw breath world makes really hard want make birthday know must silly heres hard part ive mostly come terms hour hour minute minute im really really worried blackouts im coconscious trust even im safe one know people lot shit really use help right now well im back alright last time came basic issues seems worsened first brother mental ward might back guess bad really care thats coping mechanism tune world yeah might never return electricity might cut clue ill living next year im lost one person talk left nobody started flirting girl guess good distraction time still life downer man know im guess im scared want see sister hurt anymore im sick blamed things nothing mean talk child services want go system want want take pause let everything go away feel im climax tragedy family crumble im starting feel im going suffocated problems family thanks listening sw sorry able keep im realizing im loser lol almost im reddit math homework today photomath working cant basic math im siting room thats full anime merchandise pondering life thinking reading yaoi soon le mini crewmate sus dm ai bored id love meet new ppl excellent start film career mickey rooney talents shows long career ahead car truck chase exciting era start andy hardy series american treasure book spring byington performance excellent usual please mr rooney owners film rights take chance produced dvd think winner truly enjoyed movie realize little richard many things going life first aware lucille little hardly mention females intimately involved little richard even life today mention involvement females romantic way wonder part life mentioned overall movie great leon playing part little richard good actor feel part went different actor visually remind little richard totally unaware promiscuity little richard part movie pictured sexual addict todays time referred counseling sexual addition voyeur want ruin movie someone seen movie several things movie feel part final cut feeling good year life unfair usso rewind years ago perfectly fine depressed hopeful energy look towards future entered college made lots friends love life got depressed went zoloft things took turn years later lost love life friends everything im scared really anything easy commit redflag people make live want lose life im young im turning soon im female lost someone years feel ill never find happiness im failing school im addicted smoking pot even though want im gaining weight looking really bad lately help know cant even find enjoyment videogames suck writing feel ive ruined life normal people know im stuck endless loop sadness depression im tired yesterday cried night song song even sad im fuckin cool edgy yes crush asked find next episode mom gei retire 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college cause id rather fucked anything ive plenty jobs ive either fired fucked somehow im pretty sure sort chest problem cant even sleep left side without chest hurting feeling heart pound lost recent friends awful friends im burden family try productive want drink sleep went rehab drug addiction see getting better know im hoping writing ill feel even minute tranquility thank reading im gender equality hit im gon na pound cremated matter gender yk dating teenagers relationships fail thomy tchrs adults around always tell relationships dating teen almost always never works end nothingnot worth itetc obviously ppl married early relationship high school become adults idk man yall real fooling around even distraught never job done suicide mind exploding much redflag outlet relief already called police incident much one extremely hostile towards triggered left tears already traumatized happened much pain support live alone disabled due mental health know desperate redflag even little understand internet good place seek support option called case manager already called crisis hotline national suicide hotline samaritans hotline tell thing therapist waitlists long six months need immediate help now need someone now anyone know anything anyone provide sort relief please someone something please read need help police help want try bondage ask partner keep ropei sure keeping rope trigger suicidal thoughts dominant one want explain suicidal thoughts recent fwb yesterday decided go finish degree covid forced withdraw year hardest year previous posts highlight depressive suicidal thoughts highest life first time feel looking see future weeks ago think one step time think saw smile face today decided go back finish degree first time seen light school stressfulmy weight school almost reason enough go ahead kms nobody likes even parents yell mom especially sets unrealistic expectations cant wait hands gun end life day painful much work stopping imnot call er want alexander pain end downed far cutting hoping works end classic dramaaction western incredible cinematography well ahead time production good tell done pride loveunique peek american northt west pioneers educational entertainingthis movie rated people see reality many lawmen particular time place crookedcorrupt much developing countries todaythe action sequences realistic though stillthis movie really covers essentialsnot audience wants pure testoterone type westerns movie sense history philosophy deal negative emotions talk trusted friend help express negative feelings physical activities hobbies non harmful outlets let stack behind face throat twist unhealthy rage causes break blow slightest inconvenience im scaredthrowaway account obvious reasons ive depressed march causes revolving door problems ive open school church family roommates girlfriend school tried help much roommate helped tremendously best friend girlfriend ive moved back home semester far away depression led struggle classes point may failing fail though parents basically turn back feelings inadequacy anxiety future plagued mind nonstop ive semisuicidal thoughts whole time girlfriend knew roommate best friend well religious convictions enough keep now seemed thoughts going away end semester drew closer parents freaked possibility failing fail ill debt job degree family willing help ill proven much failure ive always thought honestly cant see reason keep going cant even see wanted scares first time life actually started researching ways commit act started developing preferences decided want clean one clean huge mess want family ones find body first im terrified thoughts even come mind thing keeping thought never seeing love life one last time fear disappear gonewhen longer fear idea scare anymore cant recall exact day id say weeks ago guilthi reddit month ago watching video ramateur two days ago remebered suddenly absolute horror girl underage rape today searched original content proven im disturbed think tell family kill today soon cant live uncertainty birthday exactly one week h helpi feel really weak need someones help ive depressed years ive never seen doctor saw happened older sister went hospital fuck tonight really bad im alone house parents europe late anyone awake want end care anything anymore even loneliness thing past three nights ive gotten laid enjoy anything anymore im really ready know im asking help anyone able say anything cliche help thats story ive got rope tied basement overwhelmedim starting college weeks im scared part wants run away family issues getting hard half im bridge theres much head needs sorting big things coming driving crazy cant cope every time close eyes sleep quiet time think needs done whats coming know shouldnt say wan na give desire go college anymore want everything stop worry anything anymore plus feel shit time go know theres probably easier ways cope excited college days lately getting overwhelming hang anyone needs talk know month week even today may feel impossible impossible arent try may hurt may angry better better keep waking every day keep pushing least owe got loves make day great pros amp cons dating pros dating cons everyone wantyou cant follow dreams everyone work retail stores work dead end try chase dreams fail wasted time career path everyone ment happy shit works feel im side character thats even part main story hey got ta flesh world somehow special people thrive love drawing art im delusional think somehow make become well something love thats works sure success stories happening failed need money hours relief hobbie makes happy fuck life fuck world want die ment rather object something maybe mug mugs cool think give pretty good mug energy want exist anymorei recently hurt love life shes thinking leaving hearing cry feel sad makes want alive anymore much debt school cant job covid lately ive thinking gun driving middle desert end ive made worst mistake life wife never look way alone makes think dont deserve alive anymore dont know feel ive shoved dark hole way wish never existed dont want alive feeling emotions anymore fun covidfriendly halloween activities arson thinking maybe dress spooky makeup watch halloween horror movies friends suggestions drank soaphow much soap kill loose ends tied nowm ive feeling actively passively suicidal years ive reached friends family hotlines ive dragged house cops hospitalized maybe time switch actively suicidal passively reckless instead actual attempts two nights ago tried overdose near dozenth time failed next day agony got bed times throw moved much except small things clean dog feed pets know looked go tied loose ends last weeks pushed friends away point hate make things easier mention friends barely knew needed something im trans man ok insurance covers parts transition live home rent free spare cash go student loans cover copays know im really fortunate life im college student take maximum credit hours pass decent job pick hours make well min wage state mentors professors close contacts best schools state parents abusive family generally pretty ok except even working hrwk school full time making parents think im enough every weeks threaten kick enough housework fast enough siblings treated way kind anything generally yelled live home im oldest youngest still feel alone incapable giving receiving love idea near people enough make skin crawl know around im ugly feel imposter even constant overbearing urge kill bad life next attempt going starving death hanging nobody bothers either easy enough haha xd friends really wish cry soul friends shoulder programming discords join reading description legitimately said title hate flat earthers dont know say without bot removing posts give enough credit sure beat curer cancer next enstein sperm race probably beat rapist pedophile simp flashback time earbuds died right hit play music caramelldansen started blasting phone speaker im really rough day dont wan na socialize school started really havent well emotionally part school part things dont need go anyway past months ive organizing weekly zoom meetings friends us hang talk supposed one half hour really dont feel rn time know dont start everyone freaked dont wan na deal ton people asking literally anyone start zoom meeting top know dont hang ill probably room crying alone couple hours thats exactly good option either feel everything sucks idk canti know believe anymore anything know im miserable sick fighting want done want disappear want feel anything anymore love dont know made post love im glad exist world life great writing break tears eyes another meltdown work written posts similar one deleted ill probably delete one sick treated shit everyone usually talkative try hard sociable considerate people around know feels excluded looked want others feel way around work ass stupid fucking store put every ounce energy getting things done right time take breather even second suddenly end world put notice boss slacking blatant fucking liei hate boss hate way talks way walks stupid juvenile sense humor fake wannabe tough guy attitude hate matter go never respect anyone know wrong hate way look talk friends afraid even try make every friend abandoned whenever convenient life boring pointless brave enough kill feel doomed alone forever living meaningless life something fundamentally wrong resent mother marrying dad huge loser maybe met someone son totally fucking useless know want stuck way forever know need change sleep thing enjoy anymore maybe one days ill take nap never wake hate boss hate job hate hate life roses red violets blue ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb scrolled see rest post ampxb rickrolled toohttpspreviewredditjudcvfghdjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsfceabadeabfeaabbbcc wan na talk someone tried help friends problems asked pushed away one talk anything uhh interests anime video games uhhh thats really im dead inside asshole smart 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years enoughive living far long fight thoughts every day ive tried everything im tired im sorry m great little thriller expecting type silly horror movie got tight short thriller waste none time mostof movies back characters stories either feel sympathy hatred people start getting killed foolishness yes see characters really interact principals husband wife motel whose room canceled saw efficient lisa character inefficient new hotel clerk see little girl simply small important role later movie heck breaks loose flight atrendants need particular move plot ahead bad guy particular needs beginning flight rude guy airport important movie characters liners use plot two young guys plane clever thought something plot first scene last woman character young hotel executive named lisa charge even jackson shows true colors panic thinks stall time movie smart executive women acting idiots one short movie waiting usual plot devices kick movie seemed coming conclusion fast thankfuly none used new hotel clerk usual called told panic drop phone run hotel without saying anything question boss tell much drink dismiss craven types movies one last comment brian cox movie one clue come see lisas father completely unrecognizable girls resit good conversation starter nerd usually talk dinossaurs girls find interesting sugestions better things start conversation girls people reddit answer form class pls threw away pills todayi depressed thought redflag ive walked never reached people got counseling made alive last year year fall last year happened time worse know loved know people care idiot deny fact im surrounded amazing community sadness feels never going end might make side cant escape feel im dragging people got accident take heavy painkillers couple weeks im sure messed head even weeks cant stop depressed anxious past week half keep thinking pills left use kill last night stop crying thought pills want old back morning held held bottle thought thinking knew much real control right threw away pills feel much better believe decision made life throwing away think good first step theres many people sharing kind stuff thought might well chest messed beyond repairi even know start november quit delivery job wrecked two cars handle stress anxiety working inside pizza store mood progressively gotten worse thought able buy car tax return worked jobs last year made close got hopes high im even getting enough cover tuition one class community college ive always depressed maybe ive meds whole life im now expelled high school freshman year buying drugs trying kill school hours kid boy dating raped abused abort genuinely thought kill himswlf find someone went prison trying bomb school failed first semester college keep class work new born tried job keep one either juggling child care job hours anxiety interacting people tried go college last year another abusive person dating kept going classes told allowed dropped friend helped delivery job things ok month two boss job started blatantly abusive workers singling others freaked tried jump bridge hospital stay put debt total ive hospitalized times ive tried kill nothing seems better every time try something fix situation backfires makes everything worse even see point trying anymore cant take care family resents ive messed life badly theres really way hole im considering trying end permanently time hey need share something u guys feel im middle existential crisis guess may vulnerable depression bcoz entrance exam approaching amp feel quite afraid time mean cant stop procrastinating past failures amp seems parents really acknowledge small successes teachers really mean amp predict might fail things bit tough past years able perform according parents expectations think talking community similar age group might lighten heavy heart amp give head start towards destination anyways community encouraged downfall thank u guyz guys party tonight regular show goddamn fucking good come guitar melody slaps harder boxer steroids song written specifically cartoon goddamn good rant goodnight dm want ill respond im six hours im going bed first deepa mehta film saw film tv hindi version sita character presented nita note radha underwent allegorical trial fire film nitasita yet loved film screenplay ms mehta direction characters big small welldeveloped seemed quixotic towards endsomewhat end mazurskys unmarried woman brave women surrounded cardboard men one cardboard man ashok seems come alive last shot see himcarrying invalid mother biji seems finally take future responsibility beyond celibacy adherance religion br br ms mehta seems fumble director compared indian mainstream cinema seem brilliant use script go beyond microscopic joint family presenting except presenting glimpse chinese microminority social milieu india even dedicates film mother daughter father yet radha reminesces halcyon days parents mustard field compare mrinal sen adoor gopalakrishnan muzaffar ali dwarfed giantsgiven competent canadian production team financial resources mehtas film two bisexual ladies indian middleclass household may sacrilege merely captures atrophy middleclass homes seem aspire something better immediate survival limited social space kannada malayalam bengali films touched parallel themes india publicity surrounded film seen wide segment knowledgeable cinemagoersbr br ms das ms azmi mr jafri mr kharbanda credible outstanding ms azmi talented actress gave superb performances good directors mrinal sens khandar gautam ghoses paar benegals ankur brilliance notably absent film ms das sparkled due screen presence rather acting capability films strength remains structure screenplay average terms international cinema sure ms mehta hone writing talents future screenplays psychotic break best thing happened mefor life operated highlow basis manic act physically emotionally impulsively manipulatively sink lowest lows months later bed shower take care basic needs convinced unworthy manic powered thoughts selfworth surprised people wanted around clung semblance acceptance manipulate situations benefit feel shit depressive episode came along took millionth suicidal intention mixed manic phase urge check institution insurance cover mental health knew last day didnt best friend ended relationship years way hospital text medication prescribed earlier year working instead muffling depression brought redflag knowing planning happen rose water drowning hour morning knew time better medication mood stabilizer given life back still working fallout finally hope reaching friends spoken years talking strangers internet going movies enjoying instead fearing time trust happy confident hope guys proud need someone talk know guys remember post much lgbt stuff subreddit uh yeah im sure made gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer story shinae moves milyang seoul young son jun start accidental death husband husband born opening piano school ambitions land insurance money received death film probably hollywood film falling local guy happy son new home hollywood son gets kidnapped murdered ostensibly known cash settlement grief process attempts moving attempts clear conscience guilt done admirably lead actress superb caveat stated depressing film know going want shinae go grief find measure happiness hollywood korea korean cinema especially drama pull punches life happens great acting sometimes tough film watch due goings stay rewarded wish existmy family wants gone want gone mental illnesses worse make every single aspect living pure hell still killing cause much trouble wish never existed first place im sorry burden smell funny quite pungent maybe todayi posted subreddit days ago stating wanted die planning taking life today planning buying rope shanaz im extremely tired painful atm want go college tho ive missed many days recently want piss tutor offor mother wish end nowor least sleepmaybe whole daybut enough courage tell bf react badly hes keeping eye today hope go hosptial psych unit soon enough hope make tonight hope many others well thank u kind words last post even tho lifted heart dayit enough recognised sub yet wan na know anyone remembers username suicidal thoughts require hospitalizationrecently ive feeling much stronger urge hurt past usually fleeting thoughts go away pretty quickly right now vivid images want play loop head pretty long time maybe im easily influenced makes susceptible influence thoughts head end really want headspace ive trying push thoughts away often honest theyre really strong im profound pain whereby need attempt redflag escape state im honestly im attached prospect living everything feels little flat guess daytoday life grey void idea ceasing exist burst color seems getting inviting usually bed thoughts usually try best leave bed try go sleep instead leave bed might dont plan though feels impulse thoughts go far im thinking slicing arm kitchen knife gt now everyones asleep gt knife gt now gt theyre going find tomorrow sad ill gone theres redflag note plan specific time specific date mean ive honestly wondering good idea inpatient treatment feel im becoming less less attached stopping hurting thoughts urges getting strong inviting im getting tired check id opinions think suicidal thoughts described bad enough require hospitalization yet serious enough require trip er ok tried hanging work matter much pressure try put arteries feel explosive head sensation black wtf one thing want life cant accomplish got ta say feels peaceful maybe keep trying one time ill right spot whole life building destiny feel whats wierdest dream best ive got one time dremnt lived new york city world ending nothing crazy idk whats wierdest dreams humble familyi want kill hard admit dont really reason christian parents well im smart grades slipping lately motivation tanked good college dont motivation parents hate pamper love older brother people say youngest pampered thats absolute bullshit always compare horrible people talk dont want brother become even though hes older gets away everything give everything brother works starbucks makes money expenses hes paying food sometimes buying stuff dad keep mind im even old enough work im dad says see hes buying stuff youre selfish dont even make money whole life parents loving brother hating hate im done parents felt sleep paralysis didnt see cute demon felt tense muscles sweating vibrating back im scared someone comfort know volkswagen put lambo v audi s im gon na need find one convince dad car horsepower supercar engine livehi redditers posting feel whilst people around care much cant understand hell exist yo female anorexia bulimia early s diagnosed depression medicated therapy ive depressed many periods suicidality year ago lost live things free fall care anymore still dont ive problems alcohol drug abuse sober months moods cycle rapidly often multiple times day recently diagnosed borderline personality disorder low immunity probably depression multiple colds flus year polycystic ovaries acne herpes endometriosis lost mum suddenly brain aneurism stigma herpes devastating probably deal shit prospect telling future partners causes much anxiety always use condoms always worry possibility infecting someone wouldnt wish anyone dont physical symptoms stigma worse anyway feel dirty damaged one want put risk prospect gossip labelled terrifying drugged g probably sexually assaulted earlier year say probably dont remember found naked balcony afterwards dont drive live dad havent able work study year due damned depressed idea want careerwise one true passion life ballet wanted professionally wasnt allowed drop school quit havent experienced passion happiness smart attractive kind family financially secure people always tell look much makes feel guilty someone life scattered friends group depression broken im end tether matter always end back many times someone im emotionally numb didnt bat eyelid possibility sexually assaulted feel sack bones floating space ive learnt repress emotional pain point dont feel anymore cant keep shit doesnt better feel empty heavy time hollow weighed weights made black holes went emergency week ago felt psychotic kept thinking throwing nearby cliff id nightmare woken didnt stop nightmare life im medication go therapy sadness centre always always end back place torture want sink back earth turn dust biggest lie told gets better years attempt nothing changed still agony future terrifying loosing faith god please stop testing god fucking take anymore take now biggest lie told inevitableeverything leads inevitable death anything want lives hard think whats point situationbonjour jai ans et depuis longtemps lenvie de redflagr pourtant je ne suis pas hyper triste douleur de jai fais une tentative il moins dun et aprs avoir pris du recul je suis rendu compte que ce passage lacte tait juste un moyen de dire famille que jai tais manipul et pour en quelque sorte condamn socialement la personne de famille et annoncer son danger mes proches malgr cette ide folle javais quand mme envie de mourir comment pardonn cette personne sachant que je ne peux pas lattaquer frontalement car je sais que elle va nier le plus chiant dans cette histoire cest que mes parents prennent maintenant pour un salaud comme dhab le manipulateur te fais passer pour lagresseur et je suis oblig de partir en vacance avec bref jai limpression que quoi que je fasse elle fera chier jusqu que je tue pour de bon car aprs tentative elle continuait je ne sais plus quoi faire girl pretty evil making sun feel insecure hotness lt ampxb gtok cheesy admit itlt want happy want die wish never born first placemy parents two ignorant people good people ignorant fact existing pain think pain think much thinking much case means realizing shit living realizing alive much proves point living worst yet able understand living sensation alive existing multiplying pain already unbearable thought slashing flesh liquid holds alive absurd ask fucking liquid red liquid reason suffering fucking liquid pouring mind organ ridiculous form colour details mass shit fucking flesh fucking frail flesh stand anymore taking lexapro month half now shit work fucking shit fucking work doctor insists continue taking fuck fuck medicine alive matter dump money fucking pill pack fuck shit stand alive stand existing know anymore im tired thisso got reddit thing created account specifically reason cope wife kids anymore wife says hurtful things kids tend agree im monster inside monster growing growing cant stop feel failed father cant take anymore everyone family hates urge leave getting harder deal every single day man walks street says soft middle now youve heard looking supportive attempted redflag unsuccessfully actually bit afterwords felt made wrong choice deserved stay alive days feel empty though feel im sleepwalking life kind funny today cake day account guess really must something time year fuck spring guess ive really terribly depressed feel im going able claw way know im going even graduate anymore second semester grades reached rock bottom used b occasional c student currently two fs one d cs across board elsewhere even pull things think college admitted still allow enroll im fairly certain big plummet grades result rescinding admission senior recital last tuesday show spent months practicing got anxious got stage stop halfway set butchering every song walked stage tears ive started behavioral problems feel angry want act led getting first behavioral referral due calling teacher facebook reported friends use car money stop hanging cut im desperate interaction keep around parents disappointed worried cant find success things want good im really sure im anymore think im going kill soon know really wish life perpetual cycle shitty days ive tried hardest really havewhere even start lifes crumbling years now seems whenever try something happy make life better fucks really ive tried fucking best feels always losing battle help im alone time either stay room parents house weve big fight led write im child legitimately nobody ive somewhat tried redflag tied something together remember choking near closet thought give another try maybe different time wasnt know im posting really im much bitch actually go redflag actually know im friends parents fucking hate job go school moment although im signing spring classes part wants say hey hold near future better another part let many times cynical think way thinks absolutely pointless live anymore im rambling know anymore might try job ive got bad anxiety two times ive attempted job fuck interview legitimately fucking love trisha paytas lmao people hate lose harder ixine haters lie skittles taste different colors different smells tricked weve backstabbed weve quite possibly bamboozled anyone always friendsi cant even remember last time hung friends people besides family depressing sad nobody age understands wants apart life whats best way kill selfmy girlfriend cheated left fuck another guy gave everything tired happening whats painless method ask someone hey whats day walking home school girl infront sat bench later learned sophomore year started sobbing ask stranger hey whats let vent help struggles asking one simple question save someones life feel nothing left someone name dog adopted cute puppy today know name give give ideas one main reason im still im afraid afteri read many conflicting opinions around topic afterlife best case scenario absolutely nothing heaven hell terrifies thinking something hell reincarnation hell christians eternal damnation constant suffering never ending torment reincarnation russian roulette lucky unlucky depending part world family people believe prison planet escape endless cycle life death via reincarnation ruled evil aliens feed negative emotions suffering theory scares even true literally point redflag die reborn second later guys think hey im bored asf anyone interested starting playing dungeons dragons premade characters dm details make one cuz im bored reminder trump office days missed one tell know saying need confess support map rights right remain silent anything say used court law right attorney cant afford attorney one provided question foreign english learners often taught something later learned wrong im wondering often happens grammar words whatever much happened stopped reddit much used im changed man ampxb better ofc suicidal without depression sadnessi woke today orders head clear crisp repetition commit redflag happening lately thought today going drag thought going depressed day im im quite content actually ive got plenty energy big goofy smile bounce back suicidal thoughts casually anyone feel suicidal without actually im unhappy hate good life people generally really nice think exhibit signs depression newfound lack desire connecttalk anybody even family figure im either really mentally sick realize im becoming enlightened knows tried buy razors venti tried buy razors intent slitting wrists time month forgetting non home even remotely sharp enough im sitting outside store feeling idiot failed attempt even attempting cant even fucking right expect anything right one many things school cant understand hard education system understand able find use informations hard useful remembering im able answer hardest question give minute find answer instead remember ill study minutes forget later even understanding talking wish never wake againim tired physically worn emotionally exhausted know im getting cynical world ugly place im tired playing games everyone expects lot one even acknowledges existence im tired disappointment im tired becoming uglier uglier barely sleep night anyway ok one despair find find itll ok close eyes good right ear ringing bzzzzzzzzz crystal city group mormons hire horse traders travis ben johnson sandy harry carey jr wagon masters lead caravan san juan river along journey meet first broken wagon without water quack dr locksley hall alan mowbray prostitutes denver joanne dru fleuretty phyffe ruth clifford sadistic outlaws clegg boys decide join mormon caravan disguise patrol leaded sheriff crystal city chasing navajos cross path invited visit hamlet dancing party wagon train near destination clegg boys threaten settlers forcing sandy travis take attitudebr br wagon master another great western john ford sequences wagon train crossing desert hills impressive adventure group mormons funny entertaining songs fit well plot despite dated vote eightbr br title brazil caravana dos bravos caravan braves officially hundred days old reddit dont know information bet dont know information either heres random gold found make somewhat interesting feel way outin january attempted od failed things alright little got hospital feel redflag option dad fight lot starting crying fighting called ungrateful little bitch said stuff abort right made want die know abuse feel burden everyone around big fat liar comes welcome shallow welcome breath fresh air one many films featuring bathrooms bodily fluids pets acid gaseous jokes crotch gags see spot run max keebles big move snow dogs signaled degenerative spiral kiddie moviemaking worse realization young audience later satiated smuttier offerings another teen movie slackers written nickelodeon producers dan schneider brian robbins coincidentally costarred s sitcom head class film stars frankie muniz jason whos always ready good lie scrapes wheres english paper dad choked swedish meatball teacher sandra oh issues ultimatum turn paper end day take summer school jason whips story called big fat liar struck en route school limousine carrying insensitive hollywood producer marty wolf paul giamatti wolf gives ride jason leaves paper behind one hear truth time dad tells hes lost trustbr br months later jason best friend kaylee amanda bynes see movie preview big fat liar head los angeles wreak havoc wolfs life confession stole jasons paper make film even gain sympathy wolfs abused employees including assistant amanda detmer former chauffeur donald faison movie star jaleel urkel white playing stunt coordinator muchaged lee majorsbr br big fat liar without edge sitcom malcolm middle known muniz easy root much work likewise bynes headlines tracey ullmanlike sketch show nickelodeon hamminess given giamatti whose eyes bulge cheeks wiggle every sneering insultbr br film gets snaps attempting high road enjoyed target audience especially high jinks occur universal studios lot heres one headscratcher message pays tell truth see jason getting payback telling white lies throughout film well least theres poop depression taking life family relationships want diei even know say know need say ive pushed away everyone thats meant anything hurt easy everything seems numb bleak know slept class day accident think climbing third story dorm jumping ive wanting hurt badly hard live people left partner love much left cant cry feel horrible human excuses way id really rather die keep feeling keep thinking future seemsgrey cant hold job cant hold relationship cant stand enough come closet worst part everyone thinks im getting better moved college think dying everything hard cant stop time im currently crisis ive year self harm free think im point need go hospital im afraid disappointing people think im great looks make want commiti fucking hate way look every single part disgusting thing seen whole entire life lips small nose big eyes sunken shit look im dead cant live anymore might seem shallow everytime look mirror start crying im pretty enough never boobs small thighs big fucking ankles look fucking demon god wan na die bad people around tell im ugly im pretty feel theyre lying crawling skin try starve fail everytime gets worse feel death option point hurts cause every girl around beautiful unique way im piece garbage literally wish born malei chance mother first born uncle followed aunt first born father followed grandpa first born great uncle followed children first born girl boy come long line first borns females males actually see quite pattern first born girls younger brothers want transition know feel real want cis penis grown male male childhood feel less feel ruined feel left feel life sad things gender stupid thing caught stupid shit mothers try pretend sad little boys mom wanted first born son matter much try admit likes little dress doll sad life sad world want options limitedidk id given film stars simply lifetime presentation actually filmed location represented story new york city channel whether set rural iowa oregon virginia la etc filmed vancouver ottawa toronto canadian localebr br one deserving top rating site movie certainly originality story done many times many variations several similar specific one done pretty often big screen megastars past present cary grant james garner harrison ford tom hanks et al deborah kerr doris day meg ryan many think least prominent past present top head added now probably many others brought mindbr br drone point opinion far one best genre ive seen caught chance midday friday time tv taking couple hours following particularly hectic week id never run across flick years made two leads done enough known completely unknown two actors knew phyllis newman annas mother id seen things younger days michael rispoli henry charlies best friend outstanding gramma menacing juice loan tough street guy rounders br br chance meeting coupling leads best friends substory romance correlation anna charlie revealed later oftdone plot contrivance within genre makes difference enjoyment fact enhances itbr br checking comments agree completely notredflag primary word describing film engaging caps adjective describes performers characters chemistry among characters whatever combination presented supporting even minor rolesbr br love films harder edge rounders escapist schwarzeneggerstallone fare goodfellows even classics casablanca gone wind citizen kane pure uncomplicated enjoyment one outstanding bare fraction budgets equal results achieved youve got mail sleepless seattle tom hanks meg ryan done better natasha henstridge michael vartan costars support personnel equivalent megafilms well post meant people comment couldnt tell man please contribute kisses neck amazing making anything always feel better everyone talk seems agree reason dummy thicc grope yall spoiler nothing spoilerbr br add name list folks feel viewers one even mentioned s word far seenbr br agree kid died think specific committed suicide races slope old wagon shoots cliff andflies away maybe whole account form death allegory maybe commit suicide wagon laid either case flies away cmon tough metaphorbr br maybe thing tom hanks ok narration besides raising ww memorial got ta love thatbr br oh yeah loved movie found incredibly moving dont know doi really helpless lately feel nothing matters nobody cares im making entry want see anyone feeling im feeling help big factor dragging parents parents arent abusive feel im nothing nice im something dont want playing hockey ive playing btw ive lost drive every year dread im two teams travel high school live half hour away school usually home midnight half wake may seem lot hard fall asleep grades dropping take special reading class sri score isnt high enough tried telling parents hockey getting way automatically started yelling scolding dont really friends anyone look usually stay room cry hurt much happening life described feel shouldnt expand far want commit redflag dont want go hell want go heaven die family doesnt believe god ive never gone church feel may help nothing happened yet im stuck none love depend sixteen year old smiling lines face want call wrinkles thats started form last year little bit especially two three months seen go reached chin area feel awful ruins day catch reflection see themi smoke drugs eat average person seen fat people snokers age anyone similar experience please let know methods im gon na kill myselfi cant take anymore feel numb maybe stab ill feel something tell replace plastic bags bottles motivate answer filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text filler filller strok filler kara give nude pushups decide day managed pushups imma try tomorrow want hear joke mei puzzles daily year still pretty sucks feel trappedfor past decade ive felt nothing selfhatred anger sadness loneliness point feel thing make happy redflag thats issue though issue know killed devastate family friends ten years ive painted smile face ive acted everything okay loved ones worry happy ten years feel im living everyone elses behalf im tired want sadden family friends killing im sick living sake keeping happy feel fair people always talk taking care well supposed one thing make happy taking life keep suffering everyone happy im afraid stay alive long enough im going start resenting loved ones happy want point want aliveive never anybody care im done every friend ive left almost year ive friend im tired life ive never relationship love one one girl interested whole life feel loved depression took away cried every night months fuck want alone forever kill cut shit short guys reply quickly people leaving hours time come back u know im see typing notif fml studying test day random questions read book made laugh loud say excellent end excellent series never quite got exposure deserved asia far best cop show best writing best cast televison end great era sorry see go im honest dont want another fucking yearand made promise bf id gone new years im suffering making miserable making everything worse id honestly better dead really dont expect make need help cant stop thinking friends lost keep worrying need stop idea need help guys disappointedso im writing mobile hospital bed please forgive formatting length made attempt little week ago almost worked mother law walked bedroom never found unconscious tell even minutes later late diagnosed type bipolar year ago clarified ptsd induced bipolar time started taking meds january admitted psychologist psychiatrist suicidal instantly changed meds gave impression working wasnt little week ago waited kids asleep beds went bathroom took recently filled meds considering take mood stabilizers plus meds migraines something sleep lot stomach started feel heavy felt great felt free knew matter time put letters written kids husband parents put sure theyd found laid waited remember falling asleep feeling finally free fast forward days im waking icu mother asleep chair next bed one sisters boyfriend asleep couch room life cant understand im still alive work whole body hurts tubes coming arms im pissed worked got explanations realized mother law called ambulance thing feel hatred hate picked walk leave alone let die know shouldnt cant help want perfect plan ruined im stuck hospital life want people cant understand much hurts breathe every day completely sucks fix meits always case grass greener side im goddamn tired im breaking responsibilities turned two weeks ago attend university im junior premedicine im saying brag nothing brag one care relevant feel way im taking three hard science courses psychology intro level level yeah easy grades slipping last midterm level got points average funny thing im studying harder version social interaction study groups feel tired alone morning til night classes undergrad research study study study losing sleep losing sleep dorm two roommates one early entrance program cant support support kick room every fucking night exaggeration need stay study frequent allnighters want go sleep wander floors searching open study room sometimes audacity take nap early evening pm bitch cant socialize room vibrating alarm goes long morning lectured older roommate little sleep ive taken sleeping fucking study room head table surrounded notes way bother pathetic come feel ask permission everything fucking dog dorm room right feel theres nowhere go grades sinking research project thats going lead publication sucking time social life occasional going getting drunk try escape act im someone feel robbed high school life ive depressed entered college freshman sophomore years hard make normal college friends fact good deal probably means decent social skills one one think want im fucked head stress eating alive way forward fair suffer worrying prom boyfriend fair suffer humanities roommates coast along classes easy go route another way thought getting better two days ago playing charger cord wrapped around neck squeezed really hard realizing stopped want die want live life yesterday cried quiet little tears dorm room roommates fucked around laptops one asked okay cleaned went class fifteen minutes later laughed talked everything okay god know much longer tell please help lost broo yall cute today damn every selfie post see mf cutiepie damn u guys killing today things always go wrong cant thisi always fuck time cant save things boyfriend im selfish shit upsets feel guilty mom abusive piece shit dad even come near us covid asked stay said legally cant theres nobody watch baby sister swear god cant keep living nothing gon na change always tell always gets worse always genuinely see purpose continuing life theres never gon na time im gon na feel happy little im always gon na stuck parts ruin life hate im sorry sfdhjhj feel might time iti hate pain time ive hit car hate breathless disease people use abuse mother ran away matter im always harmed bullied im alone cant trust anyone probably better im dead one knows cares anyways mrsa ruined life im considering ending itever caught illness friend august every single day dominated either actual symptoms worrying theyre going come next earlier today told cant help works private healthcare started accepted onto scheme thats final kick teeth long fucking line caught illness ive hopes raised new antibiotic referred different doctor every single time shattered im fucking done fighting im done hopes dashed cant take another heartbreak keep fighting obvious im meant lose battle nothing beaten im looking best ways ending life ive asked friend mine works nursing home help hes refused method im capable looks promisingi may pick least worst option ive tried breaking news boyfriend hes devastated want end life says matter give feel incredibly guilty might hell better without keeps living hell probably catch much misery im now hell better without even realise yet work tomorrow weekim sure might go know know ill end im sure anything right now im honest thought dying scares life basically nowi future worth looking forward anymore illness robbed im rambing apologise know want keep living future thought dying scares thought picking least worst way thatdoes anyone know anything might help first timerseeing posts subreddit makes look really big problem oh well recently foreigner usa ive applied go boarding school united states pursue dreams future engineer silicon valley parents nearly spent travel expenseadmissions ssat scores came equivalent sat highschools pretty bad feel whats point cant go boarding school us living country hellhole everything extremely competitive even succeed engineers disrespected fucking country ive let parents feel parents done much little results admission going come soon feel jumping comes told crush loved said friend big deal thought happen way kinda sad whos lil game go omegle put reddit interests answer every call bananas cool try find fellow teens sub fucking hate people text press send finishing everything say send messages fuck rather boys text ok act killing actually done life mental health got fucked covid testing centers motivation study today took practice act test got think make someone help need scholarship december need least act option left oct want live life hard wan na die parents probably dissapointed idk need scholarship cant post pictures subreddita tried multiple times failed suggestions aaaahhhahahahaha bruhhhhhhhhhh lets gooooooooo got comment said shadowbanned removed deemed spam lmaoooooo got infraction point one im permabanned lmaoooooooooo someone tell everything gon na ok want awards want none wan na know everything going world gon na ok please einsten said solve problem thinking used create problem ocd hell way outwhat please talk mei nice family loves much know deserve emotional nice person hurt anybody anythingi graduated college studled lessonsi less severe intrusive thoughts theneverybody dissapointed memy intrusive thoughts unique harm ocd contamination ingrained character maybe ocd sure doctors said ocdi tried medicines ssris antipsychotics anafranil thoughts make anxious make frustrated hopeless got erp treatment ut work biti people father mother brother virtual girl friend grandmotheri thought virtual friend understands different opposite thought sameanyway chance brain surgery called cingulotomy electrocution therapywhat broken non functional sadi exist live aware hurts lot family sad crieswhat live middle east facilities meds dark hospitals without life existing living mentally nothing venting theoritcally helped say reality nothing ok think ill kill definitely chanceshi rredflagwatch theres lot going last year much feel want type post take day basically ive fighting losing battle small victorys helping worst parts example passed driving theory test two days ago anyway ill give background help problems around two years ago got first real relationship girl named abbey months relationship got really drunk party got really angry told slow bit tried make one friends party needless say work make remaining months relationship acted extremely distant unloving showered praise around february last year broke bad good break time extramly sad able calmly talk come undersanding mother time told disappointed literally two days said must raised wrong im fucked anyway time got job mcdonalds hated quit got kicked house got forced move back house normal school issues mind school much rampant suicidal thoughts generally scared future sad life throughout time abbey message wed talk couple days stopped never really stopped feelings towards talk without feeling shit ok heres real problem started talking two months ago ended started casual sex weekly know great idea said begging chose date people ok stop one friends asked couple days ago im ok went date none told lied come round went worked texts tmrw today worked outhttpimgurcomaho read left bit hope gives general gist im trying say honestly never fell love think thats really something know want visit beachy headhello used farcry deleted account embarrassed pathetic past posts anyways thats important right now fact depression social anxiety completely defeated used wake feeling depressed wake crying physical painnumbness know crying cause physical pain now wrote redflag letter sister closest person friend become distant always working ive made way many serious mistakes life im scared everything remotely involves people talking people applying jobs simply outdoors im scared call therapist book appointment im scared use redflag hotline telephobia never normal person part really want many said subreddit whats point working everyday lucky retire old anything finally die thought leaving house travelling rvagabond im unfit untrained yes skills need survive hobo figured money run eventually might well start hobo now well turns im knowledgeable enough even hobo survival skills last week outside plan im going next flight beachy head wherever nearest airport ive always wanted visit uk im going destroy ids phone sit cliffs drink soda enjoy view hours might sit entire day weather nice want see beachy heads sunrise sunset stars night heard patrols hope theyll come talk current state sure hell aint got courage motivation approachtalk someone btw friends cant talk family sit hours nobody helps ill jump actually might jump bit sooner depression clenches start crying pain part destroying id ex passport important itll help chicken ill stranded uk able come back want come back ill right back now jump want anyone know im dead want disappear forever quietly patrol officer stop jumping im going give fake name story beg job food shelter refuses ill jump think drastic measure bring pit despair one way another ill essentially start life completely either uk hell f join discord server hey active discord server curious anyone wanted join ill dm link w cant believe comments show show genius sure follow tried true consumers always want things thrust us option sit back enjoy something new style realistic previous scooby doo shows supposed show titled shaggy scooby doo clue part title states entire beloved cast renditions constantly join action nowhere say theyd solving mysteries cant even stand monsters im actually glad put long standing plot points work scoobydoo show still running jokes clumsy hijinks quickchange outfits chase scenes standard hallway gag even scooby snacks fact im glad show love im even glad got rid rest team concentrated two main characters villainbr br sure ridiculous supposed sure different supposed supposed make laugh villain cheer idiotic robotic butler triumph intruding vermin matter size supposed running roobiroo joke whole thing put together well single thing think wrong writing acting animation top notch title music awesome computer plays clue boots background music gripping feeling thisso im last year college lost close relative feels want work course work anymore let alone think hardships college getting job find place stay idk guess im really tired forging ahead wish take care things anymore commit redflag want siblings little cousins say wish couldve known guess question motivation go need done done thank input greatly appreciated im tired tired timeevery month post something delete forget pain come back going past five years keep telling better someday ill one normal girls ill happy feel void ive already died many times ive already walked path one many times wan na die seen many wong karwais movies happy together fallen angels ashes time knew expect coming theatre cinematography lush use space perspective varied acting superb least one characters consumed ineffable loneliness precisely techniques make wong karwais art expecting degree drawn film reviewers dismissed unfinished compelled characters seemed consumed ennuibr br find interesting people utterly unmoved film vividly displays emotions settings many us take granted work ardently forget overwhelming sense grief stemming betrayed guilt aroused thought becoming better betrayer mundane yet profoundly intimate moments relationships need express oneself verbally utterly superfluous wong karwai attempts portray film achieves wellbr br many americans consumed need every moment film filled stock dialogue witty banter disaffected sarcasm overwrought confessions seem pinnacle best american film offer wong karwai sees things differently instead character needing keep audience apprised every feeling perception belief wongs characters make feelings understandings known clearly facial gestures body positioning yes silencebr br viewers merely contemplate film standpoint character development action may disappointed offer willing let try intuit characters feeling may feel quite differently wong offer seriously hand pistol rather put bullet brain go grave want shoot head wondering pedos usual lol wonder pedophiles end feeling bad year old pedo got bit im wondering specifically theyre quite young thats wonder theyll feel bad dont know older ones s ig feel bad theyre quite old horny teens know wrong know much hurt people fortnite audio issues im menu loading screen game sounds normal soon spawn waiting area sound completely disappears happen anyone ijoy iso stereo bluetooth headset matters much cant drive impacted life way feels personal prison therapy seem work asking overcome situation advice cha cha real smooth im gon na steal lego collection im gon na breakdance front hours probably kill myselffck life heard best friend fcking weeks ive lied manipulated ive told kill many times im going fcking fcking hours response redflag hotline destroying every last photo depicts itsorry event anyone wanted save bullshit memories youre late make disappear nothing changedi residential prtf long term placement hospital three four months taken shady shit going especially mistreatment patients reason severe depressionanxiety ptsd mention suicidal tendencies ive home days shit started matter always deemed wrong stepmom keeps throwing face keep alleged stuff im theyll practically kick turn july midst im still dealing heavy depression issues mentioned begun grow worse im afraid feels im house three people totally every move prove point exact moment talking shit room bringing much bum think think im still going steal alcohol although past ive put alcoholism way beyond always throwing face changed prtf wasnt getting right treatment anyway legit therapy im wits end sometimes feel ending good im much disappointment failure burden things much im constant turmoil cant even graduate year time spent hospital always throw face already bad enough feel freak stupid peers able graduate im able always pit lil brother always plays nice front talks shit behind back talking past drug alcohol abuse although wrong using things cope im done idk feel killing anyone wan na chat play number game talk u want dm watch movies living picking ones good enough distribute tossing aside make cut im saying know anyone based im leading came watch gospel lou anyways many bad movies land desk actually sit actually watch everything usually look tv occasionally im working scan production value performance well story presented something catches eye ill take time watch lou drew first minutes closed laptop wheeled chair tv completely tune needless say enthralled throughout whole movie story told well characters either endearing repulsive depending course actor directors intention character well played times caught occasional amateur mistakes camera work editing emotional nature story make faults easy dismiss ive heard peoples comments say times film brought tears eyes time extreme elation laughing one minute crying next incredibly touched movie sadly unable acquire saying goes week late dollar short thats way goes sometimes least pleasure seeing one cant wait see kind response gets good luck great fortune bret carr read without doubt talent watch goodnight everyone isnt farewell way urgentplease tell go away see psychiatrisdoctor anything really cant take keep thoughts mind cant control cantdeal much thoughts come anytime increasing even typign theyre much know anymore start personilites mix thoughts mock control actions much yes mean control actual body want see pain want die fun know others want see hurt kill sense guess bring redflag thoughts let buts much please say doctor anything asked subreddits got answers said tried telling others look weridly one way control found repeatldly hitting head thats obviously good solution ease things bois got free nudes free nude pass fuck yeah isnt guys wearing skirts already normalized one gon na rip skirt wore one sure theyd make fun getting made fun wearing something different normal people make fun wearing wrong colored khakis youre insecure wearing skirt cant take criticism dont wear skirt even complain normalized humans parasites earth ok couple die whatever theres many people funny conversation mum wanted go shooting gun bowcrossbow start going learn dad reacted normally said ye already shot gun yay cool told mum mum umm girls supposed use guns go learn shoot bow mum know shoot gun mum yes see girls use guns mum knowing say first time outsmarted umm okay guess covid ill go shooting point enough enoughi terminally lonelyhttpsoldredditcomrforeveralone statistically speaking half lifetime spent assume healthy every moment feels drowning nightmare possible wake terminally ill people help need someone tell gt correct never experience human contact will always human truly part society way httpswwwcdcgovnchsdatanhsrnhsrpdf rest us helphttpsenwikipediaorgwikieuthanasia really cant people accept diseases painful live delighted suffering cure deal solution involves dying old age virgin solution unless happen sadist furthermore realistically one going giving dating advice anything decrease relative anyway historical data speak nearly days contact potential mate expect day end way expect documentaries objective creatures let give little lesson american filmmakingbr br documentaries rely heavily casting pick choose characters think enhance drama entertainment value filmbr br shot ton footage splice together make film ups downs turning points climaxes etc trouble existing footage either shoot makes sense find stock footage clever narrationbr br allegation filmmakers used footage locales part movie favelas next beautiful beaches detract value film dramatic piece particular image one resonates enough justify notquitetruthful inclusion rate use footage happen police violence footage particular neighborhood mean include talk maybe put cartoon animation audience duped um nobr br hopeful ending yes americans made yes americans optimistic bastards end note set foreign country foreign films large end note let foreigners portray dismal outlook lifebr br let us americans think may happy ending looming future may one whats new car girl okay ik im dumbass saw post maybe days back subreddit blonde girl brown hoodie holding key says got first car today came back reddit home page filled memes someone pls explain dont know anywhere say bro really forgot pears existed year im ending itive taken xanex prozac dri king much itll thinking going drive mountains people keep saying itll better better isnt happening amp want die everydayidk itll better even means tbh sure ill go therapy still want kms therapist sucks constant state guys really know serious theres girl idk look im really falling talk snap thing ive delivered hours last active minutes ago rare occurrence keep trying give finally figured reason look bad photos face gn everyone hopefully tmrw isnt shitty ily guys anyone wan na talk im super bored rn dont anything feel free dm enjoyed much movie wooden camera think little bit influenced brazilian movie city god maybe parallelism two tracks possible follow crime art social neighborhood reality br br think films made madiba really beautiful think unreal shoot good films theres lot artists type education really genius br br enjoyed much soundtrack adjusted picturesbr br see movieits good show life social neighborhood comedy based national stereotypes doubt leave away pretending know care communism real russians brits accept hurt conventions fun film nicole kidman best sexy moving funny ben chaplin succeeds avoid completely outshadowed nicole rest cast good work well final moving logical movie logics course worth watching accept rules game want end pain happy anymore want lay die nobody loves cares alone fighting battle far long time end given long ago ill never happy guys know expect guys care wanted put final goodbye people know ill finally free end people much happier gone seem find happiness anymore police officer struggling suicidal thoughts openly talk aboutthis throwaway intend reading responses think mostly want type things chest tldr talk strong desire kill without fear repercussions every outlet find wants know location contact info theyll talk want call redflag hotline trace call years old live work southern california deputy last years spring chicken wife years struggling infertility years now lots surgery medication end sight stress scheduled sex lives absolutely taken toll us still much love july fairly routine call involving child abuse kind pushed edge call mental breakdown work take mg day buspar wife says help sure xanax needed prescribed originally tookalprazam rare side effect stop asked see psychiatrist next avail appointment midjanuary digress line work talk redflag well career redflag pun intended keep thoughts absolutely bottled inside act therapists asks therapist provided work specializes law enforcement issues nice times think killing hourly usually wake night middle panic attack away pain almost physical pain specific plans kill works think entire process detail often drink usually come close actually really fear matter time happens ironic type clearly reservations killing right state mind wrong state mind sounds realistic idea physically exhausted genuinely want pain end seeing answers make happen want talk someone without putting job line put hold ca means carry gun yeah heartbroken frustrated know anymore every day seems groundhog day desperately want wife leave deserves better make lot easier end life hated completely gotten rid social media blocked parents life really good reason downward spiral last months talk strong desire kill without fear repercussions every outlet find wants know location contact info theyll talk want call redflag hotline trace call really think end killing within next months ironically want talk anyone might able stop backwards ampxb typing exhausting might go bed night thank listening lets honestthe world going shit people angry time argue focus negatives ruin everything everyone etc etc know im kind hypocrite saying people focus negatives really fucking hard ignore seriously matter positive try theres always something someone shut im sick dude im im tired fucking world talk therapist guys feel going dates without knowing wish start relationship question pretty selfexplanatory im super sure whether girl ive scared relationship last one damaged years back therapist suggested ask go date without sure knowing want relationship wondering fellow teens feel idea im honestly sure people stand thanks advance ill answer questions asap im tired last night got fevermy arms feel sore eyes look dead knee numb nose blocked headacheit hurts much cough voice feels raspy day posting lines bee movie every day theres bee car something im driving hi bee hes back want die dont want leave friendokay long story short wan na kill mean thats sub exists right incase anyone wants know im nineteen ive pretty much felt way thirteen fourteen ive browsing sub finally thought post moved university september found amazing friends truly greatful honestly reason im somewhat know issues life share good people relate dont wan na make worse mentally talking shit time honestly im rambling reason im still alive honestly feel friend kill feel apparently nobody relates wish never came stupid redacted name im impulsive stayed happy secret know everything apparently people dont think valid complain thats lgbtq community say theyre inclusive arent full communist idiots bi girls hating men cant even slightly right leaning make us look idiots im snowflake dont care youre homophobic keep dont stop rights literally dont care disagree gay marriage maybe youre parents something idk lgbtq community made think offended everything dont theres genocide going theres gay people getting killed muslim countries care celebrity doesnt gays know lgbtq community fine sometimes idiots nerves maybe privileged coming doesnt mean cant upset came anyone feel nobody takes seriouslyive constantly suicidal past two months feels nobody seems take seriously makes wonder surprised kill know one asked wan na flex getting go kart hahahhahaha loser go kart ya loser joke filler filler filler filler everybody commited redflagwhat happen everybody commited redflag morbid question mine want hear different thoughts free bubble wrap enjoy gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt 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every pain ache ive felt ive hoped cancer incurable thing excuse die cant speak anyone person feel cant want attention ice spoken feelings recent past imagine talking people know take week occasionally feel happy whole feel sick waste space go away reading reddit post think im finally ready dietoday read thread comments die think ready take life sounds unbelievably peaceful finally torment im going kill now thanks mom dad terrible parents year old son thank everyone bullied made feel numb goodbye broke many friends lately people tired summer vacation home alone time meet students lose easilyno job nothing find anything good doi going lose mind genuinely want end thisif freeze come back years later exactly best method escape reality suicide ending writing supposed celebrate todayi want forget problems stop getting complaints every small thing doi emotional person point somebody calls baby literally ruin whole dayhelpmeplease still depressed long live came realize later denied basically calling celebrity crush nothing love musician totally love heres thing love idea created interviews blog posts music deeper crush know came whispers girlfriend stopped whining single twitter seemed happier two quarter hours sometimes slow moving thoughtful film interrupted vast sword battles battle darkness light signified constant motif blazing sun superbly demonstrated three way fight demons bandits soldiers forest eclipsebr br prepared following stunning sword fight lightning filled skies end picture scratching head puzzlement friend spent minutes watching guys put worms inside penises yes looks disgusting sounds yes people actually enjoy yes fucking weird fuck whats cheapest way gun walmart credit card im gon na pay loli dont want anyone know trouble using theres paper life good acknowledge lost willpower try anymore really feel purpose life smoke weed time feel something go weird cycles super depressed feel back normal ill super depressed bc noticed pattern really feel getting depression fuck want crash burn inevitably start feeling depressed give fuck anymore need helpim sorry dont know im asking im hurting want numb hey fellow bi guys ive come conclusion bi great perk time curse beacause boners hard rid thing stuck abandoned island sort halfway attractive human still able fuck himher regardless gender im tiredi keep getting spontaneous flashbacks ex sit certain places room feel pressure certain parts body emotionally abusive tried make things want sexually looking back relationship feel stupid weak billion red flags told sucked id listened blinded idea real gay real gay relationship sort ignored specific idea well come across quite feminine sometimes tried leverage bottom something want hed often spank try gag fingers call bitch sex without explicit consent chance talk sober manner beforehand wanted act girl times called made jokes gamer girl even though told feel body mine anymore decided wanted friends several points relationship still flirt make explicit comments body harassed even relationship ended calling repeatedly trying reach platforms ive blocked im genuinely terrified knows work meet friends nothing hes done technically illegal even im scared fucker wrongly accuses someone rape report anything ive nightmares showing house trying room quarantine lifted theres really escape ex latest guy ive let comically abusive friends parents teachers coworkers ive let almost everyone know trample thought getting better moved new city work managed find group friends know happened wrong trying help help needed become better person ex kind trampled tried best friends made meet often little time anything told things friends made distrust im trying repair damage now difficult sort shown matter go therell always someone trying hurt take advantage im wondering im issue im broken draw people hurting means directly kill ive debating withholding food severely ill now ive argument roommate kind fault took way far ive getting panic attacks leave room im worried ill confrontation today ate little trouble standing actually managed sandwich made feel ill better think itll kill itll hurt lot least tide quarantine lifted figure solid method think want die really im trying apply doctorate become researcher ive got mentor whos willing help want doctorate want boyfriend cares want go therapy head screwed straight im sure survive long enough pc died last night fffffff f f ffffffff f f f night bachelor party paul coleman jason lee meets gorgeous dancer becky julia stiles bar drink lot together next morning wakes bed future motherinlaw calls informs fiance karen selma blair might arriving apartment desperately asks becky leave place hurry sooner finds crabs later preparation wedding dinner party realizes becky cousin karen beginning funny comedy hilarious situations first attraction movie certainly central trio actresses actor julia stiles selma blair excellent actresses extremely gorgeous jason lee amazingly funny good performances laughed lot along story scenes really hilarious example paul finds becky bed finds paints imagination many situations drugstore trying buy explanations crab medicine scenes neighbor minister karen calls department store police finds suspect assaulting paul number many scenes better reader rent buy movie lots fun vote sevenbr br title brazillouco por elas crazy deliverance fascinating haunting sometimes even disturbing tale james dickey turned brilliant movie john boorman four businessmen driven manhood machobehavior whore spending canoeing weekend high mountains theyre faced every darkest side man every worst form human miserypoverty buggery even physical harassment four men intended travel river adventure excitement trip soon changes odyssey violent lurking mountainland completely estranged forms civilisation elements actually make deliverance one nightmarish films ive seen everything happens men pray never find similar situation pure talking cinema deliverance important movie well john boormans best closely followed zardoz excalibur still influential film contains several memorable scenes already featured numberless movies think terrific duelling banjos musical score course unforgettable homosexual squeal pig rape scene actors deliver haha perfect acting performances especially jon voight must see motion picture dont know anymoreim lost ive turned dont know im asking help support dont know anymore im much coward kill im numb lost anything cant anything fucking hate turned senior highschool alright going top seats highschool president honor society got raped another student highschool school pretty much ignored life gone pretty downhill mother immigration issues almost got deported already depression self harmed young abusive father issues dont know im saying know shouldnt need validate sadness dont understand havent able better anymore mother always acts act going school dont understand purposely fuck life dont want redflag attempt september feel things gotten worse dont know anymore want end know things need schoolwork laundry life general fucking life cant anything fucking hate dont know anymore want die wont amount anything anymore point dont really friends theyre sick tired depressed missing school dont really know im asking maybe somewhere rant feel im prolonging inevitable let die already edit ive missing much school partly flu partly depression im scared wont even able pass classes point im still ap classes even though know theyve adding onto anxiety know care trying fix missinf work shit graduate feel empty numb im lost dont know anymore feel dying im much coward yet everyday im messing toxic feminism real today discord chat youtubers channel girl said likes boobies replied look naked mirror guess happens next banned cant take joke making one guy said thing booed perv perfectly fine girl say thing googled time time nothing really hits done things called friends therapist written feelings whole shit anyone anything specificuniqueout ordinary helps welcoming wrong answers haha unconventional things instead killing im super duper alone basically havent hugged girl year fucking valentine got one broke gf havent even crush cant find new people connect dont even know im typing sorry bad england native speak suicidal thoughts life assume many people never really talked anybody gave hints years brushed long time thought normal never actually attempted anything planned lot started making draft suicide letters promised actually anything finished always broke wrote never got finished happened middle school high school last term college bachelors gotten lot better years feel slipping last year spent last couple days disassociating bed sure everyone thinks flake guess trying make sure slip back use time deal last freaking term feel getting closer closer edge meltdown know want die feel lost right death sounds heartbreakingly sweet relapsing one single girl entire universe interested romantically ask know whats weird naked fr alone chillin soon theres possibility someone might see feels criminal got first job ive applied almost stores town got response back inperson interview went great got email saying ive hired ampxb god im happy mfs bitches bitch youre bitches hahaha people always false stereotype buff people assholes judge fat really time come across buff guy gym field etc theyre always extremely nice happen people oh im drunk dick hard normal find hard keep boner cause idk utadddyy appreciation post u pog traumai school weeks cant bring feel way times tried end crying front people trying zone entire lecture learn nothing im able finish school hold job months save money depression trauma still makes suffer everyday ive therapy meds nothing changes traumatic shit things seem worse matter hard try person kind makes feel staying alive ex gfmy friend completely cant feel anything anyone family abusive toxic hate im pain everyday years years often find daydreaming restarting life able rewind back time past hurts anything wanted chest question moving forwardnot sure right place rdepression side bar says redflag stuff go anyone point longer want die due situation know terminal illness still situation people supposed protect case police amp uk health care services forcing situation option end life one go move forward really sad many peoples shoes worth much money solve problems mine problems maybe much shoes nikes cost people suffer huge economy cant economy fair equal money solve problems scratch prevent breaking downwhenever mother yells suicidal things shes saying anxiety attack maybe dont really know want go away cry scream cant scratch arm pain distracts actually breathe normally dont know thing except scratching distract probably tonights night mim tired everything tired living synonym pain tired useless ive conception tired abused everyone tired work driving force society im tired dont want anything im failing shit homeworks bitch essentially boycotted got barely friends ones definitely better strongest female bonds ive made teachers fun way mean teachers ive wanting die now ive gotten infection hope thing hurt trying anything important results failure hope banging head brick wall know better longer thing thats holding back lack gun remember looking ndads closet one remember showed years prior couldnt find put cant handle shit anymore know vodka know pills suppose ill fake sick live ill wake know tried assuming dont leave trail tears pills vodka dont know thing holding back point chance failure discovery want gone bad please someone help hellhole keep writing parting notes people ive loved throw away grow balls mail finish bit background years old female university boyfriend love much hes kind sometimes though feel hes settling feel knows much better cant tell signals im picking thinking things head ive suicidal thoughts years now think dont know started know ive long dont think im depressed person people know might describe goofy happy girl dont think anyone guess keep suicidal thoughts honestly thats reason havent offed yet cant imagine killing leaving parents knowing boyfriend close friends dont want leave unsettled maybe theres way without leaving way feel killing without talking selfish feel cant talk anyone without damaging relationships still dont even good reason wanting kill ive thought reasons long time recognize none justifiable still doesnt remove want need happens lot stressed make mistakes school work even minor mistakes exam forgetting step work university lab make feel world better place cant even simple things happens think weight know im horribly obese still significantly overweight every attempt lose pounds fails either diet exercise fails contributes intense feelings failure thinking face belly arms try hide long sleeves even summer feel repulsive think everyone grossed way oddly im grossed fat people started diet tried exercising boyfriend hes supportive attempts starting feel good everything making things worse cant even articulate properly even came back home goddamned dog didnt want come stupid reason keep thinking well even puppy prefers someone stupid reason stupid stupid reason theyre always stupid reasons noticed time seem reasonable theyre good enough reason sometimes ill sitting bus staring window content wham kill swift enough wouldnt even feel anything times dont need reason long world better place wouldnt deal waking every morning facing day every day find looking tall buildings sometimes dream top fall slowly backwards edge always dream leaving note parents telling love much none fault imagine crying tell stop brat deserve hurt stupid thoughts feel coward thinking escape reality finishing sometimes weak seems good enough reason hate fact want kill even without knowing times dont even know want escape shitty future promise destined breakup eventual death dog parents im sorry long dont anyone talk thought id able find someone listen mental health deteriorating badlyi getting sicker sicker hard function anymore day day life hard whilst dealing severe mental health issues cant live way want see future even worse today last appointment doctor try best slit wrists really long post suicidal really lonely indifferent sure dohi im really sure id say really suck explaining accurately ill try paint good enough picture hopefully someone write something makes something click ok problem im interested anything nothing im year old female guess im pretty introverted id love find close friends even one enough go partying drunk go wild put quatation marks mean although idea rowdy silly act attention people people seem always feel everyone surrounded people absolutely alone want friends even one occasionally partners know makes sense im intelligent knowledgeable much mainly attribute interested absolutely anything im smart enough smart kids smart dumb ones smart mean pick things really quickly really hope seem im full think low self esteem im definitely sort depressed im finishing university dec year friends kept touch floor mates first year despise yet keep touch without id actually completely alone ive felt way alone friends really connect life really aware grade cry time times week im good times day bad week really know im crying feels overwhelming amount pressure physical pressure mind world closing feel anxious anything panic attack feels give let go moments ill permanently cross line serious depression want stress rarely feel anxious nervous anything loving parents take care financially live hours away wish love death began dreaming died absolutely alone world around years old never anything make happen feel horrible anything happened day dreams occurred less less grew older technically longer linked sorry using many quotation marks horrible vocabulary cant think right word express im trying say dad never home younger impact negatively realize real relationship ive mother ive never really friends never close friends love death loved sister twin fraternal sister never really liked mom never paid attention around always went way verbally abuse school untill years ago went different colleges close now always believed grow sort genious really smart younger im attractive really self image issues spent childhood mediator mom sister mom dad dad sister mom issues never bitter volunteered help honestly felt help family wish go back let fuck lost form socializing seriously fucking depressed theyre still withering shitty lives eugh sorry sudden change narrative much want look forward fix neutrality im living cant help bursts rage towards younger self much belief mother familys sanity know say utterly indifferent everything everyone yet absolutely overwhelmed loneliness want people person don know want im interested etc want hobby ive tried drawing bored tried going class lose interest pick gist course really quickly lazy actually readings everyone entire life people told im smart im positive everyone tldr im interested anything tried find things seriously care anything spend day sleeping wasting time internet sometimes exercising rarely reading watching stupid shit internet bare minimum pass courses thats ive rambled long enough know people answer fine one theres really much say likely say things take one step time life worth living come well meaning place ive tried getting routine work way works getting shitty mind set wake dream state im surrounded shallow mentally disturbed people im sorry sound full im better people really think know reason always go back state nothingness try live real world hate hate everyone hate indifference people neuroses im nervous time im self conscious time im worried people talking talk people behind back try lie cheat treat people horribly back people say actually listen turn talk im sensitive understand sarcasm im actually sarcastic im uptight prudish mentioned ended finding people actually figure want party drunk make mistakes things regret stupid shit know really long even though checking religiously next see ifwhat anyone posts understand one says anything helps knowing others really help cant trust find anyone along im years old yet meet anyone anyway im sorry represent properly feel sound huge bitch really hope im loneliness eating inside really cant take anymore week really bad one thought post instead wait mood go away thanks anyone read way im doneive decided im ending want live anymore im tired picked school home much better im sick feeling need stop wanting die itmy parents divorced last week father went big activity whole week relaying getting driving license didnt mother offered transport paid gas end week pay gave total gas price higher argued didnt give pay pension little sister still minor changed job salary months isnt legally obliged pay months pension mother didnt know needed money alot father got car began crying throwing big tantrum hard watch mother says cleaned room away never happen mind found stuff shouldnt broke alot stuff cant even use computer anymore alot thing went missing says dont know talking things headphones keyboard made angry point matter anymore wont able buy food month didnt money cant use computer try think killing time cant listen music feel better parents going fight much living mother going hell tomorrow start college think wont attend classes sabotage reason kill apparently scared dying even wish soo much lie muchi told boyfriend straight even though bi came long time ago make happy made plans go sleep told said going go look friends butts ive struggling depression anxiety made worse want make happy told hours later lied wanted make happy got upset confused hurtful things said towards know shouldnt means world tore proceeded harm told felt guilty told lie much leave alone love fucking much heart breaks every time stuff want end life im tired things going life im thinking dressing baby order breastfeed woman never figure confession slight reddit crush now know person yeah seem neat cute reddit im miserablei know ive waited long years better problems count fault somewhat got hole know hate waking every day imagine silly sounds problem accepting way look look really young im male pull problem single doubt weightheight probably something well lb somewhat baby face destroyed self esteem social anxiety gotten better got older men supposed strongtallmature looking fall short every category think gpa destroyed think gpa freshman year flunked classes stopped going embarrassed young lookedsocial anxiety dropped silly know felt reallllllly place years chronic disease makes gaining weight bit harder keeps skinny brings pain days hard cope diet somewhat limited dunno every day thing work enough online work play video games go sleep rinserepeat every day nothing changing way yearsas kid always thought better eventually ageget everythingbut nothing changed sadder im technically adult constant thoughts redflag past screw ups past embarrassments constant reminder much ive failed cant make stop imagine silly sounds looking young bothering look young people treat different remind every time meet someone new reason socially acceptable see people age finished college starting career feel behind sociallyacademicallyin every way think actually commit redflag thoughat least im desperate yetbut know thanks reading kinda long somewhat nice make fun someones music taste actual scum saying haha song bad shit fine ig people repeatedly take piss peoples music taste shitty matter girl used friends time always feel embarrassed saying music point literally took songs playlist someones music isnt cup tea say let people unless morrissey know whats wrong meso heres background started feeling suicidal fifth grade huge amount stress school kind combination academic social issues told parents multiple occasions wanted kill make mad decided bottle feelings beginning sixth grade diagnosed aspergers basically parents believe actually throughout middle school got stressed crying every night anymore become numb still thought redflag never really thought actually never selfharmed luckily still havent im end freshman year high school year lot better middle school ive mostly alright now seemingly blue ive hit wave depression feel im drowning lately ive lot anxiety future im scared unknown keep wanting change im willing take action dad thinks hate even though really dont im tired staying night homework thoughts redflag getting lot worse point im actually trying figure kill ive almost made goal die graduate high school depending happens within next years day went trip san francisco literally thing think started see golden gate bridge much wanted jump know need help im scared happen tell anyone im feeling hate getting surprised negative reactions people want cause anyone worry know even virus im gon na survive pandemic anywaythanks making cure worse disease entire world seriously considered redflag teenager quarantine happened im giving world three weeks shit together two support friend whos country much worse claim quarantine three weeks watch come excuse extend everything loved cared gone pandemic every single coping mechanism ive everything thats made happy made realize hey world bad fact actually really good time everything thats kept alive might well dead ive got reason stay alive except friendwho may tell weeks cant justify alive world everything gone go somehow thats harder thought dying ive reached point im willing take chances afterlife covid exist hike trails go carnivals got wisdom teeth removed know going torture hell older tried lot still failed go onso im late s male going motions settling affairs ive already decided method purchased need tested everything date shortly approaching tried number things deal feelings years hundreds hours volunteer work medication therapy long time ago got sober exercisingeating healthy relationships etc nothing worked dont really want die feel limping along long im tired want sleep miss home place safety comfort known long time felt way throughout life brought head year relationship fault laid work kind fault really nothing keep social network older shit deal messaged friend last night asking heard back tried contact redflag helpline made feel worse guess im looking well anything guess im looking others thing feel tried decades failed failed everything highly unlikely going getting better point death feels way way feel broken alone anymore tried much go want give upim teetering edge ive never posted something someone side feel sinking quicksand sure know even making sense care much anything right now least painful redflag method need want suffering come least painful method use thanks advance someone message im bored wan na talk anyone anything play numbers game youd dm pls someone told sneeze cute hate aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa fuck god put cute ass people god forsaken world turn around make fucking awkward talk successfully made rick roll unfunny congrats actually revived yall murdered using constantly random memories flashing head dayjust random memories life always happens im lowest wonder people remember kill yall access porn websites ive tried open tells older enter yall enter know many yall watch porn talk im wondering access websites eventually happen year old pretty decent bulge seen pants adult go away make go away excellent accurate film mcgovern takes great pains research document writing pays afraid tell truth even though might draw unfavourable reviews comments stories clean sweet glossybr br mcgovern brings christopher eccleston though high profile role played hillsborough found movie accurate well acted well presented hillsborough applaud mcgovern poignant unapologetic writing well done hat writer actors production crew great film post nut clarity fuck every single time horny lose sense morality bare go public act normal lawabiding citizen ive committed foul act though im writing fueled post nut clarity feel nothing guilt disgust community atrocious act ive done man bad im gon na back normal tomorrow see everyone next time feeling scared hopelesstomorrow court felony possesion controlled substance heroin used self medicate dont really prior criminal record times ive jail hours scared much feel trapped type person typically fit people jail im worried whats going happen long im going jail afford lawyer wont send prison right prison sentence year jail less honestly rather dead affects much long time dont think live see powers boothe turns stellar performance s cult figure jim jones peoples temple jones physical likeness jones uncanny story acted chillingly movie keeps riveted must see anyone check story friend told friends hanging talking topic depression self harm comes time talking memes something guy joke rolls girls sleeve says ya cut g slaps except unbeknownst girl actually multiple cuts arm dude started frantically apologizing checked fine damn imagine getting situation mean tbh people joke mental health depression related stuff especially personal despite even got ta admit kinda funny far know nobody got actually hurt hey girl pick line trend dead already lmao hate posting personal stuff talk anyone anonymousi know people say care doubt know tell someone knows feel everyone leaves know fault become attached become obsessive feel last friends leaving want new friends want someone tell care want want alright want stop hurtingi know worse looking attention someone come savior need know someone knows okay tired things bad life feel comfortable complaining tired quiet lying want stop first therapy appointment lied lot told want think truth give anything guilt free death one one blame others happened struggle keep fighting everyday every night lay bed trying keep away medicine cabinet tired trying see point anymore things really hard need help translating japanese phrase friend sent okay sent said meant great person something wan na make sure used right grammer lol still new imagine hampered bureaucracy one man spends years life mental breakdown trying solve mass murder case virtually murder technique clear government unwilling admit truth lets monster destroy dozens lives think job stressful merely remember true story behind wonder flick devotion duty main character masterfully portrayed rea comic almost tragic times relationship rea sutherland character made one favorite movies last years catching one worst mass murderers history edge seat nearly well advertised talked silence lambs plot suspenseful rent buy movie today day made decision rid means ending life finally talked someone feeling live eventually kick proverbial bucket due old age continue cycle suffering brief moments peace happiness living corpse people say gets better even said couple times really skeptical wish knew best decision made realised reason livei realised real friends none family cares im constantly bullied school one truly cares world better without really reason live number game truth dare im bored wan na talk anyone wan na number game truth dare dms anyone wants talk thats fine lol ive told every year past im going kill birthdayi never followed still small amount hope always feel never stopped trying better unfortunately birthdays less month im drained hope ive defeated know time place happening spent days writing letter family finished morning id share letter go think ill post birthday feel someone age m everyone part invited toi never life felt sheer level sexual frustration causing incredibly recently got loveless sexless relationship never felt wanted needed thought id feel better dating apps working got friends go bars meet people horrible rut earth people conquer sexual loneliness feel sudden confidence burst feel narcissisticbecause im right idk act bro im fucking hot doubt single minute im built s model natural fox eyes long eyelashes need capitalize rn damn probably wear hours needed take system delete im back normal anyone actually care stretch marks almost friends super insecure idk guys even care lmao spanish director luis buuel career spanned almost years arguably best films made exile mexico late forties early s deal cheap budgets work industry interested mainly churning commercial movies unsophisticated audiences yet somehow managed make interesting thought provoking movies stand test time movie based novel spanish author benito perez galdos adaptation quite faithful even setting early th century mexico instead early th century spain protagonist nazarin priest tries live life faithful one prescribed christ question many ask whether endeavor possible without incurring hostility incomprehension mockery fellow human beings happens suffers lot indignities yet remains stubborn controversial final shot objective think buuel wanted show nazarin somewhat ridiculous figure perhaps inadvertently stubbornness least viewer comes admirable case great film cant go back school end soon possiblei truly think strong enough deal anxiety suicidal ideation month obvious unintelligent high school may well give dreams university learning career paths im worthless idiot deal stress need kill january scared dont know fellas im super duper hungry right now good idea eat gfs ass sustainance asking advice man filler filler filler filler want girl hug cuddle idk feel need girlfriend give ultimate trick making friends irl cant simple going outside asking stangers friends anything real suppleroot hours week gotten good start hera girl school near recently killed age hurts never knew stories tell things common suicidal thoughts act head went different outcomes etc want die know im going exactly trust cant even productive even want knowing another girl went saddens want anyone feel way wish life nicer wish must shit world death saw scenario outcomes play saw everyone grieve hurt including wish option fix lives easily want girl hate took someone elses death realise ive posted many times even nice advice help im sorry supposed doright feel alone one worst days life yesterday every attempt regular conversation ex assume im trying persuade back im honestly trying nice theyre going end walking away move home month home alone first time im mental state live alone cant go back now miss father deceased child teenage years couldnt stand man ruined relationship wan na dont know dont want alive anymorewinter break horrible stayed bed till days nothing awake school starting tomorrow ill study homework every day spend hours every day except saturday sunday stuck place filled annoying inconsiderate kids dont want go back dont really want anything anymore think im going kill tonight donr know need somebody talk unfortunately sucks another account believe honest letting people know really youre going throughso looking support right now shrugging shoulders hope everybodys ok dont want die im frazzled everything life im currently first kiss gf lost vcard normal ppl around less least one things yet possibly lonely rest life god world shittheres much corruption much greed year goes feel comfortable idea ending want stay informed honestly killing guilt stepping back kills thought knowing ill never amount anything control happens regards economy ineveitably crashing whole pandemic rn hard see good anymore things keeping alive foance fact isnt painless way die thats ya ya lights cigar woah hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo puff puff woah hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo puff puff idroid gets call snake took long want throw upidk feel sick stress summer didnt english homework depressed anything caught subjects missed didnt english read book rn im right mind correct work tommorow want tell mum let stay home tomorrow catch dont tell teacher didnt finish half day tomorrow idk shoot feel im going crazy idk cant want everything disappear ive seen coen brothers films now say one better films dare say better big lebowski good rightbr br thought story interesting hilarious times loved characters especially tim blake nelson delmar john turturros petebr br really anything bad say movie movie everyone might safe say liked coen brothers films hopefully one liked saw trailer think film hold itbr br anyhow hope liked film much thanks readingbr br chris anyone spent time working hospital medical facility got appreciate film plot absolutely wild entertaining start finish acting superb george c scott brilliant doctor class failure husband father diana riggs sex symbol s s avengers saves surrounding cast superb dialogue quite entertaining think enjoyed film viewing th th th time caught much richness dialogue interplay characters well worth seeing want check hospital near future fighting suicidal ideationthis first time posting hope im following rules ok ive shared thoughts redflag private things getting really difficult wanted hear people life fight thoughts redflag necessarily looking help tips hear peoples experiences interested ill include background deal sex addiction recently ex found cheating amongst allegations due lost friends job im essentially ostracized anyone community outside recovery support system ive dealt thoughts redflag long time feelings exacerbated issues isolation seasons changing covid fact ex repeatedly told world favor kill put simply im really struggling helped fight hopelessness make lists reasons kill self including anything silly makes feel even slightly happier hiking connecting nature mindful things cookeat mindful body health recently started yoga exercise regular phone calls contact support system curious hear others rut hope everyones well pills alcohol rope tonights nighteither kids mom find hanging morning held long possibly take another day everything place ive waiting impulse ill damned fail im tiredits hard keep fighting somehow thought id made darkest parts havent live place making depression worse day day theres always something going wrong theres never break matter try gets worse thought finally managed catch break going able slowly dig way much slower tolerable willing trade small resolve left knowing try fix later relapsed self harm eating disorder snowballed depression kicked ass told worth stood chance getting gone stupid believed help naively fell bullshit got hopes sent crashing earth soulshattering speeds last chance know way place thats killing exhausted options family made clear want help help tried better tried fighting wanted digging tooth nail giving pride make work fell apart cant ive hopes raised shattered many times past fourteen months handle rollercoaster emotion turmoil longer cant ive tried talk people theyre busy tonight im depressing ive tried feeling nothing working feel empty hollowed full nothingness live want alive headache motivation sigh milkshake brings boys yard dont know continuefor recurring thoughts redflag longer feel drive im either angry depressed feel weight things im tasked payout end yall dumb enter exact time microwave likeeee simple spam start add sec button reaches time u wantttttttt duhhhhhhhhhhhh cant thisim really shitty night feel theres one turn dont want turn anyone dont want burden want disappear felt needed said fuck assholes want anything anymoreim really sure whats happened got home college summer ive felt lonely feel friends feel awful person high school pretty awful person one good friends feel still gotten awful things now im alone hate going work hate wake even mention anxious around people ya know hate going work know ill speak reason thats gotten harder harder ampxb certain one expects low life feel many people look im wanting quit everyone ampxb want better feel every part wants hide deep water examines pressures ambitions ordinary man compelling documentary testimony archive footage fascinating insight late s groundbreaking round world yacht race personal conflicts duty family self reputation played one memorable affecting films seen familiar history story drama successfully clearly directed story mostly respectful participants heroes villains implied rather ruthlessly exposed interpretation left open viewer allowing room personally relate situations characters movie bitter sweet experience entertaining mix thoughtful suspense joy drama notice somebody remind im ghost human includes lgtb stuff move next post haters today took talking somebody interact everyone grade even notice leads believe commit redflag wouldnt give fuck experiment done see really bad maybe fact grade us talk maybe nobody noticed people know talked know hate deep keep lying saying dont hate supposed encouraging redflag heres happy thing found today well kind two music teacher probably bisexual gay straight ally fo lgtb people wears rainbow shoes sounds looks gay excuse good gaydar dont judge lately wearing rainbow wristband might say pride gold im never close enough one friends actually trusts supports lgtb best friend crush nonbinary bisexual supports always nice considering know im straight alright back main point redflag note moods suddenly change posts note possible adhd want keep things optimistic havent diagnosed yet know im ending post dont want shed sob loud nobody care notice gonethat recently seem brain fogs able concentrate classes able take new information used motivation anything thing whenever try make point lump forms throat eventually start crying regardless whether made point noti feel really irritated time really reason irritated thingsmy parents tell nothing continue studying pass need know seek help experiencing due depression drunki realize reading many decide go everyone wants drunk mostly vodka first woman tired laugh sleep school tommorow want sleep though wife watched whole series least three times cant imagine better complete history wwiino library hold historybut best summary history lots detail lots personal stories still keeps overall picture viewbr br oliviers narration excellently written course superbly given interviews sides except russian producers allowed talk many russians much worth owning complete program dvd treasure copybr br producers excellent job providing pictures action almost none extant archive almost films convoys submarine battles instance still episode subject well done discord server one mods keep muting people banning people littlest shit cant even count many people ive seen happen fucking hell annoying never discord server seen someone sensitive even hypocritical another thing rules show personal info right problem except irl name real name connections bet others people art bet people put names bottom point life failed cog capitalist machinethis another story another loser useful skills interests friends ambition know read many times point life one look forward nothing working miserable jobs pay food shelter point life one look forward nothing fired bow scrape beg find another one one ends street point one look forward nothing failing health death old age death nuclear war reason alive big coward afraid kill afraid pain afraid failing laugh now afraid hell atheist free fear wrong hell satan real im nightmares everywhere end time furthest ive gotten beginning phase intend going back point im getting bad stuff dms open quite tired enough sleep yet lol im glad weekend starting late im quite tired yet seeing anyone around wanting chat whatever emptyi know anymore im ive living void emptiness hole heart years now ive avoided life much stuck negative thought patterns every day exhausted im looking end life cant find courage actually hang jump bridge im stuck suffering meaningless life saw little bunny rabbit couple minecraft think cutest thing know followed around sat together next pond dearly lmao average length circumference fucking adult dick looks im average lol kinda cool guess type wpm wrecked fools haha prolly even good whatever one shitty mac keyboards idk ok keep scrolling friend said reddit gave free award im posting give award hi teens normal day ima ask crush later help great saturday waiting die going long wait pretty much hey girl u optician cos u stare eyes day week day posting music sub mike dawes scarlethttpsyoutubermfonits amazing acoustic cover song scarlet periphery really artists know absolutely love cover tw rape experiment fucking around well pretended underage girl sexual subreddit got shit ton dms one dude admitted gang raping year old infront mother dont know holy shit cant anymoreits two years three minutes ago close jumping window cowardly go feel safe anymore even redflag im failure failed redflag attempts im fucking daft loser please dont tell must divine purpose im still im currently work right im lose ive staring screen fuckin hours cant make anything except post nonsense reddit still someone shoot holy shit excessive risk takingi typical unhealthy habits drinkingsmoking im prone excessive risk taking redflag conscious deliberate active choice theres risk risky situations present us act often make decision fast intuitive level high risk situations nice distracting nearly uplifting effect maybe theres short term gain eg sex seems difficult tackle ideas ive numb longi forgot good pain feels rn took shit reckon itd really solid log real brick dont need spectacular doubt please keep family friendly guys mommy watches ipad parental controls please dont want ipad taken away complete fort nite battle pass ends soon palim falling apart insides collapsing msis yiu much please come baxk film shockingly underrated imdb many films shawshank reasonably good predictable dance competition personal growth film want spend hour half watching sort mile female step dancer think itbr br judging imdb ratings guess movie approaching top vote bombed many s happens many films mob special effects include nonwhite nonstraight charactersbr br american film us film set mostly toronto cues subtle audiences may think set entirely us final competition border city detroitbr br liked music liked dance convinced worth know characters easy eyesbr br agree title sucks remember anyone film saying words s foreign languagebr br theres lot hate film lets honest vote means hated assume expression hate kind people thats sad know stop myselfive pestering people problems knowing able helped anyways stop telling whats stop crying nowhere spike bad feeling hits im one people make obvious something wrong try hide feel selfish straightforward makes feel chance wan na ask whats wrong ive confidence issues whole life theyve really taken bad turn downhill turned straight drop every time see mirror start crying gagging ive puked many times recently never deliberately put toothbrush throat think still fault keep torturing looking beautiful talented people showertime horrible seeing abnormal body looks cant compare anyone feel im level least smile beautiful things takes small amount time start crying feeling gets bad cant go outside much either anymore yeah keep seeing amazing great beautiful people everywherebut im enough right im trying push friends away mean insult say strive better stuck mean assume whats best think mean say theyre selfish take overlords lives guess saying ive tried apologising made people mad made say im actually sorry busy determining think im getting annoying learn one message feel im constant trouble thats im asking hide never bother anyone stupid problems cant understand whyd want keep around im sort happy everyones getting sick leave wellthey smile extra baggage anymore everyones happiness nice course ill alone everyones forgotten vanish hope th floor enough make decision im sorry long message thank reading dont carefriends saying care open suicidal thoughts never initiate contact never asking something bitch even know im gone dont say care obviously dont failing lifeive suffering severe depression social anxiety past five years never gotten better turned video games escape made things exponentially worse transferred college semester told going different fell back old habits first started getting social anxiety hard meet talk people depression started fading concentrate work sit hours study stuff done cant focus drift away end nothing fade right back suicidal ideation feeling hopeless cant move life shit done im failing courses two three beyond fixable point im pretty much guaranteed f sit around nothing time laying bed jack shit turning browsing web playing games ive hit brick wall think slump meant go way im pissing away parents money ideation plan im done cant take pain anymore feel annoying fucking time im middle severe mental breakdown mean genuine medical definition quirky one ive bottled love friends feel annoying keep accidentally venting server im talking much stupid feel awful need sometimes need stop venting emotional feel wear people dont want hurt inconvenience im literally awful friend sometimes hurts much feel awful saying selfish cant imagine feel makes feel awful annoying feel fucking burden im fucking burden think related roommate last name parents signs aware advice every person subreddit m used really care people thought friends friends rednecks rural ontario go brrt henceforth become wannabe redneckhick followed many many instagram pages posted donald trump far right political opinions diesel trucks well american political pages even though im canadian years later true friends im weeb love heavy metal longer dislike lgbtq crowd disliked racist anymore said probably thinking wow kid probably dick right lmao aside theres one thing whole experience taught nothing feels better found new friends share interests struggling right feel cant lem tell right now someone everyone world matter everyone make friends world judge best sub helped vent past ive laughed cried want hit start conversation thank reading much got sorry long tldr change fit everyones got crowd somewhere germany killed million innocent people years everyone remembers japan belgium belgium one worst offenders britain spain china mongolia italy anyone need bodypillow double matress people buy airpods rly give fuck music literally earbuds sound better airpods must force uimissyousomuch sleep uimissyousomuch sleep getting late want someone love metheres noone woman touch ive become thing swore destroy cool person course kpop stans kpop stans horny teenagers change mind forgive sinned guys watched cuties trailer want know fuck watch bruh okay woke stayed hours took nap pm im trying sleep schedule back keep messing aaaa gif pfp got removed bruh removed gif pfp fucking super gif pfp working anymore fuck reddit making reddit icon orange removing gif pfps miss dadon june dad killed redflag hung garage dad years miss every day wish text start ive seen posts people calling national hotlines hung breaks heart thats fucking ridiculous recently started volunteering crisis text line recommend anyone ive struggled many years came know crisis text line therapist recommended text struggling last year real people really want help takes anxiety away actually talking phone thats thing disclaimers messages characters back seem shortthats send many long messages need follow certain timeframewe want talk divert crisis going talk coping skills try help find ways manage way youre feeling youre talking us dismissive anything want find help cant around help know truly wish best want help youre looking im sure legal whatever post recommend try working something always text stop time legally allowed text back good luck everyone xposted ask transgender adult physically disabled trans woman friend abused facility staying wants commit redflag escape abuse yr old friend helpwill ask somewhere breaks rules im honestly end options friend ill call j family whos extremely abusive transphobic mistreated bullied outside house nearly whole life bounced abusive transphobic shelters severely depressed suicidal one attempt unacknowledged parents left crippled waist latest disabledfroendly shelter experienced kinds abuse verbal mistreatment neglect respond asking food almost fainting help focus stay conscious watched fall wheelchair made crawl bedits absolutely disgusting needless say suicidal im probably one reasons killed wants leave forget worry problems im foster care fighting abusive parents court says fucked life still hope stop stressing ive spent hours talking redflag emailed parents intend email superiors abusers place shape go parents seem interested treating well whatsoever dad held gun back head fuck missouri decent place stay feels might much morning fear waking redflag notewhat help somethinganything wanting dead evolved accepting ill never happyive m attempted redflag twice last time within last year think main reasons last attempt feeling wronged someone deeply cared feeling terrible person feeling ill never happy months passed ive kind accepted nothing going change try better person treat friends better try find partner shares educational personal sexual interests dont believe going change dont want kill anymore dont think life works great someone every passing day think personal struggles eat dont passions anymore think maybe real friends sometimes feel everyone puts anxiety situations used okay anxiety pretty much everything actually kinda want press pause reset life impossible someone vent make happy go long way much freak seem think im going alone forever messed thing top think im lot happiest things others making happy etc even really find someone wants let makes feel im good enough even friendships let alone romantic relationships im feeling stuck confused scared lonely dont know keep thinking girl stopped dating months ago lot things mind im getting lot mixed emotions im worried father feels cant go much getting cold dark curl think girl dont know believe im actually posting really know begin first guess sort inconceivable im sub posting something hell add humiliation guess ill start saying im year old male currently college computer science im proud person default raised single mother im masculine person believe strength tenacity discipline importantly purpose personal motto always suffering breeds discipline discipline breeds strength im old school traditionalist believe natural order things although im leftist absolutely disdain liberals qualities exude weakness believe human beings equally worthless included ive suffered depression past sheer force able conquer viewing depression martial light depression eternal enemy must continually fought kept bay must consciously maintain vigilance one dark thoughts enter mind must vanquish immediately available means point elements life worn last four years eroding iron depleting fighting spirit im going go got heartbroken girl although factor im pathetic let sole reason wanting carry start saying thing wanted child fly military aircraft fact still maintain service state highest honor one aspire attend flight school high school thought going accomplish dream becoming military aviator suffer bad case adhd seem academia insurmountable objective im medicated tried best ultimately unsuccessful attempts complete college courses without medication crushing defeat picked moved knack military history writing im told fulfilling gen ed requirements took th century european history class professor army colonel years earned undergrad west point completed phd u m graduate thesis apache scouting parties one strictest professors humanities department earned nickname pressure sheer amount homework gave difficulty tests rather liked immediately excellent command presence additionally thrive environments im held standards excellence professor demanded nothing short excellence quickly became top student class due rather vast repository knowledge concerning cccp das kaiserreich und das dritte reich addition knowledge infantry tactics employed world wars even told excellent work remains highest compliment ive received one day approached professor informed interest becoming military historian looked dead eye said dont itits difficult make living field although another dream crushed deemed acceptable wanted pursue career allow maximize utility state professor instilled burning desire serve apart something greater deemed future battlefield digital nature stuxnet proved decided pursue computer science major vowed henceforth compromises defeats knew going field conquer greatest weakness mathematics knew going easy deemed anything possible courage discipline around time met ex loved much attracted femininity honestly tell want saw obviously thought handsome transferred university moved together relationship ended devastated heart hearts understood left bore responsibility break pretty nasty honest although knew largely fault felt betrayed yet quick find bed room another woman soon realized made mistake new girl banging total opposite ends spectrum tend worship strength discipline least hedonistic broke trust mention point best friend ive known talked everyday th grade best still devastated break even though id women experienced better shape ex buddy though always grateful someone failed classes semester completely utterly ashamed felt broken family thought transfer schools move back home though seemed admitting defeat simply unacceptable tried time though found ex fucking entire computer science department im ashamed admit point decided situation untenable retreated back home ashamed broken home quickly went trying recover defeat called computer repair shops asking hiring technicians one hiring got job local restaurant people appreciate strong authority figures job still haunts chef de cusine total tyrant coworkers even noticed became verbal punching bag day know give best shot soon fired time ive fired job honestly relieved point panic attacks shortly shift ended feeling pretty low point gone honor role student deans list college drop got fired first time around point started waking going bed suicidal thoughts got job liquor store worked next three years although liked coworkers boss store help feel disgraced felt failure around time started hang around old high school crush seemed nice outside break forced necessity move home parents absolutely toxic individual told numerous occasions expendable worthless im totally ashamed admit stayed around long know hate part accepted university area wayne state earned credits transferred start square one made extremely bitter gone precalc prealgerbra persevered really anyway still unbelievable bitch started stressed finals tolerance bullshit rapidly started diminishing faster think anticipated ultimately took game hockey restore masculinity sense self worth told sick shit sick driving places want talk anymore think caught guard next day texted telling back ex state told simply care absolute truth felt liberated cost started developing deep resentment toward western woman even still today aspirations foreign woman preferably middle east ive wanted simple life government job allow assume role breadwinner virtuous intelligent wife adheres traditional values family call im starting lose belief vision obtainable people call chauvinistic sexist vision feel relic bygone era born century feel outofplace todays society quite clear belong erato add sense displacement academic achievements wayne shadow former glory take education seriously stellar gpa takes toll self esteem finally come infamous summer year best friend died minutes phone catastrophic loss one seriously fucked mentally knew person talked every day half life closest dearest friend grant sherman stonewall jackson robert e lee ill never know specifics died know fell onto subway tracks train coming screaming died something profoundly horrible think best friend screaming goes drive new york recover ashes bring home parents single fucked thing ive tell post lot shit already going wrong break emotionally day feel emotions ways think blessing kind tired feeling point anyway new york meet current girlfriend appear love care im justnot capable anymore reciprocating way ive become detached emotionally western woman really type know love want justcant feel anything guess thats say care something right though idea job computer repair slightly fulfilling want fix peoples broken shit teach rich idiots computer semester rough ive taken calculus discreet math looking im going flunk classes despite best efforts showed everyday class got help went office hours still failing financial aid likely going cut ultimate insult prove hard work discipline simply enough situation feels futile wish model citizen serve state feel theyd never accept point purpose pride go rather blow head live disgraced failure family fuck simply refuse carry way want live see become failure still living home im seriously contemplating suicide living without pride without purpose way live yet despite hard work perseverance world seems determined make drag society wish serve issue receive stateaid personally simply unacceptable brings question identity male rather die man beg scraps dog existence feels joke string disappointments setbacks feel though im disgrace family name family warriors grandfather awarded iron cross bravery cant even pass calculus equally inconceivable embarrassing work hard still nothing show life started fall apart four long miserable years ive endured hoping things better havent feel spare decades soulcrushing defeats disappointments manage courage end now aus der traum crush agreed go date im famous tho shes fanta pet semetary creed family moved small town ludlow family consists father louis mother rachel brother gage daughter ellen greeted kindness jud crandall jud basically tell entire history ludlowbr br behind creeds new house path leading pet cemetery spelled pet sematary ellen wants go see jud willfully takes family trip start hell creed familybr br rachel kids gone ellens cat church dies jud feels ellen ready death cat suggests louis follow path past pet cemeterybr br jud tells louis burial ground used micmac indians louis buries church without juds help couple days later church returns alive hellbr br movie one two horror movies actually scare aside exorcist greatest performance zelda rachels sister spinal meningitis victor pascow ghost tries help creeds making mistake bringing back things deadbr br music movie plays extravagant part time sad mysterious goes along movie wonderfullybr br thought death brings peace ive never felt im whenever decide herei always knew different knew fucked way got ive life formally diagnosed ive struggled short term memory loss kid brings much anxiety life really know want die already know id waiting really shame wanted somebody try fail every single time hate itll huge shock everyone family always knew coming day killing new years dayi made promise ill stick shot got worse scabies worse depression shit even worse finally end suffering even family friends grieves better without everyone something unique im uniquely useless sleep pattern ruining lifeim asleep day awake night ive tried everything change sleep patter nothing worked night im awake alone sad unable sleep first day work tomorrow got first job donut place tomorrow first day im nervous im pretty shy usually im okay talking adults im excited paid still anxious af yall jobs advicethings know easy wearing mask time sometimes carry well times even find strength put everything fine long wear minute starts slip fun around even open way truly feel nobody really understands enjoy anything literally autopilot constant state numbness ball chain wife carry around course tired understand constant pain understand reason even keeping going opening causes pain know wants happy thing though anywhere happy without world know feel guilty around feel wear mask time got back audiologista national expert ive seeing admitted theres nothing hyperacusis told need work living life theres anything left live anything left live cant talk anyone cant see anybody cant go anywhere audiophile barely even hear sound voice extrovert now little still hear hurts bad start screaming sit hour long car ride back home dad barking ear took lunch whole time cars lot blasting music say anything hed angry hed yell make ears feel even worse took sweet time finishing sandwich walked slow possible tried hurrying back car sit still say nothing whole fucking ride got back home knife want advice want feedback want answer questions want die everyday lose motivationi even know start moment today manager one jobs called stupid im stupid though work extremely hard job minimum wage job mind wake leave foot clock work never late never miss days complete tasks time sometimes better time im courteous customers ive learn lot relatively short period time ive job one month never worked food always office jobs matter learned even though one really willing teach read resume fucking hire make one mistake say everything wrong today know people smart learn something shown work two jobs im currently writing second job ive spent minutes crying someone called stupid work pm everyday come scheduled stay late asked lost another job earlier summer guess jot recovered emotionally feels matter much work put anything never pay ill always stupid wrong personality something know even anymore im working pay rent place live sustain life honest even want wanted life teenager im fifteen accomplished single noteworthy thing growing people told smart obviously thats case life amounted recently came plan really vague plan save money move different city us possible probably much easily think point id still different town means promising beginning old bullshit storm life whats point setting goals know even achieve ill still walking disaster waking every single morning asking question want relationship someone give sense purpose want go back school want keep working forever know goals make attainable viable know go sleep train tracks near apartment think everyday see feel motivated overcome fear keeping committing redflag find reason commit redflag im tired time im done anyone wan na pm bit im mega bored lol feel truly hollow aloneheya reading ive times awhile back past feel time different probably explain bit case people want understand im coming name macy im transgender girl recently ive kinda fell fucked place dont think one awhile back ended leaving highschool social anxiety bullying lack motivation things appease parents got enrolled online classes still legally need school age fifteen basically dropped point life ive able keep social life alive happens awhile back world works regular teenager friends change time old friends gone really one anymore people online bed online friends arent really close either ive issues past drugs coke acid weed cigs others control part recently ive felt urge might way cope pain feel thats driving sanity breaking point understand im young probably dont know im talking point life know feel feels really terrible exboyfriend hasnt spoken two weeks really strained mentality left terms close people struggle signs mental illnesses make really dependent clingy im fan self diagnosing therapist said show signs cant really disorder etc adult said agree show signs things believe might ive found state constant distraction keep thinking alone pain eats really dont know anymore ive tried hotlines past didnt help keep getting urge die something drastic make happy die peace knowing wanted im sorry bad grammar im really best moods proofread rant depression reddit therapy work wellwith way reddit works sub cant function free therapy easily many people scrolling new posts hot lot help new bodies fault reddit bite raw sore canker sore eat drink sick finally energy eat go fast bite myselfand go whole life summed canker sores ive decided six months still feel suicidal ill iti dont want impulse decision want well thought ive decided still feel way april first well ill die nice talk people rn im super sick okay think deal movie minutes really really funny moments makes good trailer lot people came expectations trailer time movie live trailer little sluggish drags little slowly exciting premise think im seeing comments people lovehate relationship moviebr br look movie considering talent cast think still pretty good julia stiles clearly star giddy carefree set among conformity everyone glows whole audience falls love along lee rest cast course lees testosteronefilled coworkers elegant motherinlaw fratlike friend jim bridetobe excellent job fitting stereotypes conformity boringness make stiles stand first place br br lee live costars think view theyre hard live maybe thats one source disappointmentbr br movie despite bit slowness jokes come funny writers intended still pretty funny found rather intelligent film themes conformity taking safe route seemed cleverly align several layers example whole motif imagine scenarios never act last scene listening radio program highway talking everyone conforms everything selma blair julia stiles characters said echoed themes one person safe choice one risky choicebr br good thing movie kind screwball comedy jason lee keep lying way movie dumb luck example pharmacy guy turning good chef cleverness part gets away partbr br funny expected little bit squandered talent overall still good movie finished cronicles heroic knight mere minutes ago find extremely please questions still loom appear first episodes actually retelling events first record lodoss war truth really arent appear creator cothk different vision original ended may reason first episodes occur find case cothk say starts years war heros parn part think director made first episodes seem much recap original give viewer small reminder introduction characters deeds done appear much less series kicks sparks story now series kick sparks portion find kicked another years years war heros spark crew cases resemble parn crew journey kicks gear especially love story brews spark neese thought several times throughout cothk threw original series sparks long blue hair know wouldve pressed stop make sure right disc means consider major set backs writers fine job crafting believable characters remarkable storyline thing makes hurt ashram wagnard return ummmm wrong great villains even though ashrams villainous trait supports marmo perhaps missed something coarse series explained part far sequels go though highly recommend cothk place cothk even original record lodoss war far lord rings trilogy epic anything ive seen read highly recommend reddit got banned raskreddit heres next best thing baby felt ecstasy feari tried sort way want go quit anything harmful want found goes plan ill try hours know want work im pretty sure maybe ill choice taken away know started feel immense pressure windpipe scared scared situations knew easily tester split second gloriously ecstatic going free cant stop coughing still feels theres pressure throat feel relief long anymore feel ive stabbed heart every time hes somebody deal terrible obsessive personality mine anymore deal intense longing desire love never deal intense sessions highs lows fine week writing notes next even notes time want go least hell attend funeral hope im rollercoaster started started know going stop cant forever much im done neighbor invited block party big problem feeling everyone hates live south middle eastern intersections strangers negative work retail wether working antagonized random white people age everywhere go mind business one tim gun still holster flashed cvs asked old man wart remover holding worked dads egomaniac talk cares right mind win every conversation always fault well anyways decided bit try friendly baked baklava made three different kind dips made homemade chips went party worked beforehand made sure looked nice went bring food party surprise everyone typical middle class urburban type felt rector staruing waved lady really staring turned away ok whatever say hello kids playing driveway say hi sheepishly adult wanted talk set dip tried start convo dads standing around nothing cold shoulder home leftover baklava dip fault giving minutes really tried guys introvert tried hard awkward felt alien everyone looking studying one wanted talk might looking much one guy think actually walked way around little tent table thing avoid say wayyyyy quicker walk past halfstepped trees bushes idk know pathetic help feel alone know need move north hard poor family friends besides dad thanks reading one cares sorry end rope infinite amount patience many times put rejected actually went neighbors block party spent night making dip baklava eating alone dont know anymoreim broke actually debt point holding lies im fucked actually im seriously fucked dont know fuck im going next paycheque gon na pay debt hopefully pay car bills late july early august need somehow come fucking thousand pay insurance fuck man fuck dont know fuck im going parents dont even know ive failed fucking uni working developing courage tell im fucking lost fuck cross posting recursion crosspost post ask someone crosspost see long redditors keep crossposting fell love married womani fell love best friend happens married woman ling says fell love months together trying figure leave bad marriage told time horrible husband wanted live life came clean month ago husband telling guilted staying saying disobeyed god owes stay well continued tell believes god let leave someday found tonight husband told leave literally got suitcase put front decide stay gone back sleeping emails telling things saying continues pray everyday god bring us together know husband threatened put restraining order feel guilty time hurt constant back forth believe together need stay driving insane know believe anymore constant pain unbearable im tired mental illnessim tired trying muster courage commit redflag im tired constantly trying medications im sick explaining different therapists ive seven psych ward visits im sick illness favourite film think perfect unlike virtually film name never watch film think better theyd changed whatever definition work art think every brushstroke mishima perfect flows schraders script ive always sort liked paul schraders work cant argue taxi driver light sleeper amazing film writing often seems border bombastic directing style usually nonexistent deliberate think films usually deal search redemption set real world ugly harsh style suits themes presents characters simple realistic way lets show audience truth situation imagine schrader directed taxi driver bringing dead instead scorsese protagonists two films mishima man ideal schrader material rightwing vain odds society works subtle beautiful fact secondary writing career womans writer churning reasonably described romantic potboilers necessarily imagine schrader ideal man capture subtlety beauty film think film shows script helped fashion splits mishima man three parts life death mind life represented black white still camera formal compositions death always best remembered handheld documentary style mind represented dramatised extracts novels one revealing thought processes complex man hardly wrote character reflection dramatisations beautiful look thanks eiko ishiokas remarkable production design schraders imaginative staging parts acting superb especially ken ogata mishima captures essential charm arrogance narcissism man photography excellent throughout contains images viewer retain forever finally music simply superb perfectly matching images although written recorded shooting adjusted editorial process rerecorded much music influenced shoot know bonds perfectly image seen many ideas various people think theme film schrader trying say know big stuff life death etc think film saying anything mishima already said film simply repeats dennis patrick plays man accidentally kills daughters boyfriend reveals secret local bar joe peter boyle bigot getting drunk first takes joke story confirmed evening news instead calling cops joe decides guy killed hippie must kindred spirits blackmails man becoming pal first film seemed harsh judgemental revealed actually became quite complex portrait current society yes think exaggerate bit amusing ways really detract power messages susan sarandon debuted film shock see pretty around well worth seeing ill kill weekim boy friend girl im love boyfriend told wait see future cant stand pain anymore wants friend moment boyfriend love want marry kids want love survive love without cant much much love give everytime try give love anyone suffer last hope woman left alone death husband finds attracted sons friend handy man slightly twisted story woman begins sleeping handy man effort revive twisted part handy man daughters love interestbr br strange enough mother manages fall man daughter finds blames dysfunctional relationship messed life poor motherbr br though may think badly woman truth movie manages portray notredflag light beautifully played anne reid character dimension portrays great emotionbr br truly brilliant performance enjoyable filmbr br today lent crush jacket ran home raining making total times ive made wet yes realize im stealing umbrella joke fit situation posting number everyday till reach end day kskksidhhdjsjdgdvhsushwhsjsjshhshssjsjsnjsjsjsjsjsbdbdjxurvvdhx point someone go hospitaltheres difference wanting disappear stop existing bit come back wanting die actual planwriting noteetc theres nebulous inbetween phase person acts impulse maybe die maybe spectrum someone go hospital im terrified commitment mental hospital ive heard terrible things especially one area walk er nearby happen send want go imma uncook food cant stop hiyou might sometimes look around feel live world hate pain emptiness world disappointment exhaustion despair nothing okay things never right right know whats right right wrong feel hate knew nothing love never shown love hate default even know nothing unusual disturbing know known love feel hate love need able see happiness really believe feel peace comfort beautiful world life beautiful beautiful clouds move across sun see sun rays come go back beautiful summer smell comes feel woken beautiful step uncut ice snow unexpectedly fallen life beautiful hope lives existence matter many people blind matter many people deny even hate even spent years hating still hope lives unconditionally existence true companionship lovely laughter fresh excitement peaceful content beautiful worth come run scared reject meanest thing done idk im bored answer u want ig let us say saved hundred pills course many months enough know need incredibly high prozac dosage even symptoms appear x prescribed amount thanks happen took mg fluxotine prozac life constant embarrassmenteverywhere people laugh im fucking joke everyone enjoy everything try end embarrassing literally everything try fail fail fail make joke fucking curse something literally took walk outside minutes ago somehow managed make brother father laugh scared bug come home father yells scared every day things everyone laughs suffer darkness unknown everyone im ugly dumb stupid loser good nothing good nothing theres use anyone telling oh say good good know bullshit wouldve killed didnt shitty dream comic book artist ive matured know pointless everything even become comic book artist doubt anyone care knowing life ill find way embarrass im used point expect body pathetic worthless done shit except let im limited pathetic useless body idea anymore tbh even know kill many things happened many damn things idk bear pain live boring lonely embarrassing life end clue whats next im going wait college made good decision redflag looking hot rn boughtr flaming hot cheetos dust eye send help immediately ow feel trying od desperately dont want belike lady fahrenheit shit probsbly easiest method book made shit seem fucking scary stomach pumped shit hope im remembering right book im gon na look dumbass everything difficult apartment new job pay school years old supposed afford work hard never enough want die better sad stop scrolling getting frequent ingrown hairs penis shaft anyone pls tell whats going im nervous getting back school tbh mean im pretty sure im one feeling way ill feel fine eventually still h e l p requirements ricardos valentine f tallish brunette muscles cmon theres got ta someone enjoy shitpost ladies gentlemen girls joining boy scouts kind retardation america damnit want make everything earrings now baby earrings done knife earrings check worm earrings hell yea come ideas pls im transyeah im trans trans guy specifically lot gon na understand heck im going right now whatever heres thoughts rolling around head lately im freak nature rest life ill never real man ill take testosterone shots day die unless want fucked bone densityweird shit happening body surgeries ill frankensteins monster complete scars pretty much sexless now happened came trans way refuses sex except extremely boring terms week less always top hes always quiet oral sex nothing mins tops whole act foreplay kisses noseducing kisses little bit goes straight goods every time try initiate stoppedoh around months ago rejects know sting rejection im sure hurts waslast night thinking redflag really help cry little tiny bit silently unfortunately sleep bed mustve heard breath hitch huffed ugh really cant go sleep cant stop well talk morningugh yeah happened im reminded every day im man feel disgusting things body back occasionally sore always wearing binder im pretty sick dealing im gon na buy another bed put different room cry fucking peace think lot evenings redflag miss used think buti even know anymore dad miss brother sister mom though hah hates think every day male drive away partner disgusted becomes hes straight thing really hits easy almost easy likenot belittle anyone easy way believe afterlife imagine going sleep never waking nothing worry anything anymorewouldnt told goddamn partner parents everyone eager start testosterone whats rushsomething words whats rush bother much im holding back tears right thinking words whats rush whats rush one understands days want toi damn angry want rip stupid meatsack something know lem tell reddit sheer anger willpower change stuff problem days im angry enough feel punch brick wall sheer force pissedoffness go many brokenhearted people left behind reddit days feel hopeful days want go fight good fight struggle life go things days want freaking give seriously thoughchrist thought partner comfort something reaction basically stfu im trying sleep damn idea thought kinda hit little hard ya know reddit yeah hes acting nothing happened fine im tiredhi hideously rambling im sorry seem able form proper train guess say roughly im male selfemployed hard hard surviving succeeding hard say exactly whats wrong guess many things feel ive fighting flags whole life everyone ive loved betrayed one point another friends parents woman loved anything whole adult life ive strong others best friend betrayed woman let back life maybe years ago recognized genuine remorse fiance many people rely help always seem unlimited strength always willing help others essential nature help strong helped weak instinctively years ago best friends life shambles sick broke lonely one seemed care except helped close redflag believe done weve always pair met grade lives unhappy best fought years back back truly awful shit kept happening us betray remorseful perhaps relationship work end think relationship woman work never returned friend parents betrayal really personal discuss love forgave actions sometimes people understand wrong maybe figured eventually maybe still dad awesome long time know loves much strange person seem understand emotional pain well swear alien know fact produced human offspring wants help simply incapable understanding whats happening understanding im finally crumbling met ex three years ago work friend first real relationship women seem reason think im unattractive something personality maybe know understand love first sight bullshit wasnt real said felt bipolar bipolar fact somehow broken attractive bizarre insane need protect around felt good suffer bipolar fits rage depression felt meant felt strength meant although times frustrated mood swings sweet loving normal honestly time close loving lifelong depression vanished never past nightmares problem got angry occasionally refused discuss past much really understand life horrible want relive events guilt rage things past finally free think factor though break edit ill never depressed crazy see typo want fix hollow wicked thing unworthy love unworthy joy unworthy life cant anyone see deleted photos phone dad transferring old phones stuff onto new phone done went photos forgot picture mug said cunt looked said really dont know helpive walking fucking circles m trying say feel friend m cant dont wan na die without knowing good dont know want ask help say im ending tomorrow cant take inability something anymore stupid inability talk new people person cant stand anymore cant stand dad anymore wan na die idk stop feeling except kms im tired crying useless anything games dont know life talking people helped simply dont think work dont know want redflag without spreading miseryso things still going horrible worse way end suffering making others miss worse make suffer commiting redflag ive thinking lot people want suffer committed redflag feel helpless played went missing still miss even though false sense hope returning playing accident help either two weak options popped head moving really really far little contact us thing may think weve lost contact surely make little sad knew dead option good extremely long letter explaining choice hopefully understand respect accept maybe even combination two ideas thanks nick head hurts sooo uhm yeah might drinking problem causing go back bad habits whoops posted hereeverything felt cope last post gran died yesterday told idiot feeling way unrelated things thought dad finally done something nice dug vinyl basement ive talking past two years turns sister suddenly shown interest today feeling great feel fucking stupid feeling exactly last post justified feel way thought cope now thought id worked now im tired feeling stupid second best feel matter anyone difference dead dont got many friends feeling good common taught sense less friendsyou depressed annoying sometimes still gets feel quite happy havent lived youve heard sea shanties venting right knowsi really wish truly loved someone soon got kicked exs home grandma feel tho eager turn stab back im still sure may agreeing grandma crazy ass leave alone know next weekend goes way expect go nothing left gon na act redflag plan belive anyone gave flying fuck im mistake child severe mental disorders worsened abuse feeling love ish never knew express emotion properly thanks parents may veey undoing one relationship think really loved person plani mean plan going go phases seems endless pretty much cycle thought whats point gets old slightly less bolder people wait idea redflag instead physically acting plan life better year ill kill sort deal ive given im im nothing really changes think theres much point keeping shitty outlook affects people around know ill stick moment ive pretty cemented long time now give upmy life fallen shit past months ive typically antisocial introverted began making effort know people partially succeeded feel guise fake persona someone far actually feel ive lost actual personality trying make friends shit well managed fall love one confessing sent letter essentially detailing friends felt obliged give letter solely circumstances hit pretty fucking hard big enough part life away depression redflag first time feel ive dug hole redflag honestly looks better option continuing live shit ive flung im tired living say least friends suicidal dont know dotwo people know suicidal one cuts arms constantly talks ending tried end life occasions help prevent sorry isnt post please tell post batman movie quite good batman mask phantasm batman mr freeze subzero still good installment batman cartoons say equally good batman beyond movie movie good reasons storyline good quite good ones still pretty good lots action cartoon effects good voice actors really good kevin conroy batman bruce wayne tara strong barbra gordon efrem zimbalist jr eli marienthal robin villains good kyra sedgwick batwoman david ogden stiers pequin hector elizondo bane sure disappointed batman mystery batwomen make sure rent buy batman mystery batwoman movie really goodbr br overall score br br obtained anime woman yea thats basically dont want eat im reason im never bothered eating feel im gaining weight never bothered motivation go proper food sometimes im hungry eat cookie thats dont eat breakfast sometimes eat lunch sometimes dinner barely feel eating constantly controlled abuser fight continued harassment court controlled emotionally abusive husband cant leave money kids together starting become seriously suicidal last year birthday made serious almost successful attempt life redflag triggers even bad birthday coming february know feel worthless inferior person must kill myselfi failed kill past feel worthless must die introverted wrong introverted must kill stressful people try talk must kill change personality im sorry bother people probably best die contribute anything anyway im doneim going end life lock live ive never experienced something positive parents hate every day wake making life hell one cares abusive relationships bad friends adhd autism spectrum disorder tried follow religion relief cant see tried taking hobbies cant see free access dorms uni parents rent place find job theyll dictating making life hell im walking punching bag nothing feet pics emeralds h villagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfiller villagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfiller guyswhat friend benefits really mean thought someone friend eat money copy homework minute still hate life thoughts feelings every day wall detailed text inbound hey guys going long one going read way end might want comfy first disclose immediate distress sort making plans snuff anytime soon least yet ive lurking subreddit little now ive got say actually refreshing see people getting helpful answers comfort rather typical know feel classic help even better people spam redflag hotlines number everywhere look im knocking redflag hotline anything helps someone immediate crisis power knocking friends really know better help distressed state personally redflag hotline never effective parrot back things im telling add im sorry must tough everything say offense mirror effective people need someone listen thats okay im need well bit point ive seen others getting things chest guess thats im right now things ive seen people post similar thoughts others one similar things intent taking immediate action quite people basically accepted likely going die redflag one people already method mind one messy mostly painless make easy clean authorities find body likely thing eventually sick given familys medical history father brain cancer got treatment got witness slow decline new wife leaving one destroyed relationship first place nursing home possibly dementia one thins lot cancer survivors talk toll takes loved ones medical costs constant treatments doctor visits spite strong person withering away shell former self ive already decided something similar happens start putting plan motion loved ones assuming even still alive taken care going way nah takes courage something conflicted long mother father alive cant put circumstances went far en extreme even consider slowly developed toxic trait wish harm loved ones find wishing go freak accident pass away sleep something effect longer world finally give permission take life thoughts feelings make feel real piece shit course past couple years distanced away acquaintances even closest friends hoping think little bit less less day way reason end taking life hurt badly forget wrote said person dies first time physical body twice name spoken aloud last time last fleeting thought crosses someones mind last time know mean well friends things say annoys hell professional help situation wouldve gotten long time ago thats things though took long time realize want help already takes much motivation te bare minimum im going go someone ive never met develop trusting relationship break barriers put brick brick tell entire uncensored life story theyre going tell slowly start working things thought process give pills keep among things work next years life away pray major catastrophe happen mean time die yay besides really much go far religious beliefs afterlife feel magic words pills put magically make believe santa clause god change views world matter know probably thinking point seen way certain situations play way sociological constructs work cant really unsee past ive told people things run mind daily basis im told need grow thats life quite frankly never asked begin thinking way im ungrateful selfish immature person fuck whats selfish people claim miss shit go says months time without talking eachother staying thoughts feelings suffering worth minutes interaction eachother interactions even give second thought go sleep night im selfish one right ive come realize humans one shittiest things happen earth know good ones humansare cutthroat species exist one going friend unless something gain use nice something people edge bets society taught way theyre suppose act behind closed doors kind remarks love hospitality vanishes cant okay find comfort fact way society future ahead one riddled bullshit always struggling make ends meet im tired trying giving pushing feelings thoughts putting happy face draining always struggling make ends meet im tired best never enough started new job month half ago keep saying iwas great im good everything hire new person thats fill pick extra shifts okay thought lets see goes im pretty sure know going lets see low behold sudden getting shifts normally later find lot experience already front desk agent hotel im basically getting two days night audit lady rest basically played ear helping house keepers shit matter put little euphemisms busy work sure might lending hand makes jobs little easier helps cut time take clean rooms im part time guy now matter job im try try amazing work ethic always time im great customers im professional time personal engaging guess understand always second choice know happy even job right now swift kick balls finally found something im always pushed aside people makes feel failure cant even thought adequate basic level jobs front desk agent holiday inn express making hour half decent job always picks people trying best applying never good enough places decide give chance take point highlight day getting work watching bit youtube take ungodly amount counter sleep aids pass theres something love much warm fuzzy feeling kick fighting bit enjoy finally kick really wish give life someone actually use someone actually enjoy way intend going maybe call authorities right time organs able donated need way death give someone new lease life hell robbery something someone tried mug id everything power killed ive even thought something horrible ended dying result loved ones miss much even bring putting weight moms shoulders especially bury child mother guy decided shootout police gun full blanks redflag cop messy even though job go home sit dinner table remember shot guy earlier today one deserves live weight shoulders stupid decisions want go sleep wake slowly forgotten everyone elses lives go normal maybe even better perhaps someone scientific mindset imagine death going sleep never wake believe afterlife reincarnation heaven hell anything effect think trying imagine anything death trying remember birth time spent womb speaking biological son barely knows existence tried mother see good father man god fine dandy though found someone ended two kids married signed rights full custody best regardless bringing churchgoing godfearing christian didnt loving siblings something wanted stable family father figure couldve actually taught things things never lot friends think want know older strongly disagree honestly thats best disrupt natural order things make suggestions told tell raise child made right decision seeing watch grow sidelines place polar opposite person spiritual beliefs hanging around hes happy thats whats import hes happy without take chance confusing fucking things theres much type make damn bit difference im ready end time im terrified reasons know best guess death permanent thing cant comprehend existing explaining earlier really reason fear going happen us eventually embrace made far wall text thank patience another day life suicidal nutcase someone take comfort knowing alone way feeling thinking maybe afraid say aloud type know word right way even anonymity bunch strangers reddit applies best say take one day time think many ahead end eventually sitting park wondering frisbees bigger closer hit really sure anymorehi want start saying nothing tragic happened lost family member anything none less still consider redflag everyday option honest guts even pain probably dont way painlessly right consider even every time contemplate cutting cant scars still manage heal parents send hospital straight away impact year old year old brothers love much basically hope thats keeping alive right now hope normal reason feel way impossible talk people properly anymore real life way look impossible look uncomfortable social situations truthfully basically shit scared people now including family im really sure screwed know life went downhill year im year developed believe chronic dry eyes sleep deprivation anxiety social awkwardness depressed name probably feel never drugs smoked yet still look act talk bit drug addict ok reason life went downhill year onwards well basically move statesaustralia met someone wish never met got addicted game masturbation porn became consumed masturbating porn found self energy play sport especially soccer cognitive skills window used really sporty kid really likeable enthusiastic life feel energy drained zombie every day im sure masturbation problem tried stopping see improvement still stressed etc although managed stop week already several doctors specialists eyes nothings helped im starting lose hope self feel every year going worse worse think ill job way drive anything want homeless know deep really smart person hidden behind wall shit thats happening theres anyone help much obliged thank feel ive tried everything try keep afloathi year old male depressed high school severely depressed beginning college still think redflag days problem telling things better always turn wrong things might better moment moment general way way truly counts always find asking kill last yearor last month years ago nothing made want live ive always felt impending doom future ie insecurities say thats depression gets unreasonably think sure enough currently experiencing doom gradually intense way years always feared happened everyone telling life gets better ive learned right hate sporadic periods hope end disappointing hope curse convinces stick around longer ive tried therapy meds talking friends gym sports build tolerance simply effect anymore know im another problemi see people post things things help think wow say things cant im good helping im good making people worry really bad spot right honestly know nobody ask helpi shitty eastern european country live alone money food left supposed wait end month money scholarship university supposed month got postponedi tried everything charity city food pantries usa even church help nothing besides phone need take online examsi amhungry tired anxious even sleep redflag feel life completely done nobody ask help asked made feel piece shit askingi know anyone talk please calm rock bottom alone took photos damn im kinda hot ya know mean dont mean im feeling confident im thirteen yay wanted share im finally able sub really content post ill try creative later feeling suicidal stop playing safecurrently unemployed married going years together kids dogs cat ongoing depression anxiety job search feeling pretty worthless ive thinking ending read skimmed post sub someone said paraphrasing dated guy want know got thinking ive trying live life based messing existing life trying back somewhere around maybe right approach mean really thinking killing got lose completely crazy even opportunity live much fear time wish go away send link post ill give award got free award reddit thought pay forward please link reddit post fee deserves award btw applause award dms open lets interesting chat whatever likes getting stickbugged prefers girls flat chest good keeping chat disappointing part kinda wondered even bother next karate kid see saga continue still enjoyed next karate kid second third karate kid movies unrealistic moments situations enjoyable story catchy warm onebr br hilary swank girl come far plays rebel girl lost parents car accident miaugi sort babysits per say notices karate skills offers lessons becomes serious life course boy likes mean bullies pretty similar first karate kid recommend one think pleasantly surprisedbr br ladies gentlemen may done may gotten girl type maybe may chronicles hopeful existencewe imagine young children grow great things use inspiration logic please know inspiration doesnt affect im privileged blessed person raised guaranteed success got education failed endeavor let worked years made thought good money whilst blowing alcohol drugs debt im point going norm choices go grid saying fuck leave life saying fuck im worried heaven hell believe see darkness passing nothing souls born another life know many live worse existences world cant help hurt take one person overpopulated equation mom yes destroy wonderful faith tall tale jesus answer cant even answer phone anymore anyways carry fellows arent meant see another time losti want make post educate people looked signs redflag everyone overlooked ignored mine wife affair decided rip family apart ive made many references detailed jokes kill hanging rafter tall bridge near live everyone laughs says yeah right even best friend said id prefer didnt ive battling months now ive made decision wife going holiday lover th three days one knows one paid attention pleas help kills leaving behind month old year old daughter read wifes diary found influencing daughter call daddy pappa simply reinforces fact needed temporary always posting sympathy posting people underatand little comments may think funny joke actually request cry help finis vitae around th th ill make sure kids safe home night notify friends neighbors please ignore signs time realize maybe late time passed love forgiveness gabriel good day lads yeah good day sidenote birthday cant post polls thats boring fuck see title wan na collect data sell big corporations money dumbfuck mod team disabled polls seriousness able polls sub kinda cool feel people cant assed leave comments girl liked long kept messing together today im going house well alone think first kiss going today happy thats im thinking getting rid need adviceim im probably looking attention really want end life diagnosed depression months ago still cant life barely go school family sick ive hit mam multiple times disabled might add im able control matter family even said nobody wants anything anymore man say dog died ees hongry fun fact brown eyes beautiful especially honey brown remembering mom singing sunshine moves tears thing keeps calmshe used sing time little lullaby im feel good times gone dad says make new memories together family isnt asked mom sing didnt sound soothing voice remember cried tonight im crying now thought forgot cry cant resist looking old toys old memories ill never times back remember going park dad kindergarten playing autumn try recreate memories isnt one lyric song breaks please dont take sunshine away want die badly im sunshine cant leave life stressful dont understand feel im falling lyric telling stay shes telling stay cant handle cant im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared good times gone want go badly song damn song damn lyric cant dont know pregnant bf flat broke live week week car stopped working still drug user family money friends point suicide want termination two girls work found pregnant say know whether tell people complications lost baby kill please give advice someone laying bath knife bf asleep couch downstairs calling ungrateful bitch said provide us family verge giving real time got girls number first time first time went comfort zone asked girls number need advice girls guys game track field practice never met introduced back kept talking till practice ended easy fimd keeping conversation going asked snap couldnt find account went way give number number fake wondering guy asks girls number gives chances shes interested girls give numbers guys think friends odds finds attractive im going jump gun anything im confused intentions guy asks girls number gives non verbal agreement interested knowing eachother chances gave number feel bad saying thanks help imdoinf ir right nowaorry im thinking right failing redflag years sure work tonight body keeps failing meive depression motorbike crash sustained severe brain injury permanent brain damage frontal lobe syndrome struggle much stuff filter anymore stupid things one tell brain injury im still communicative feel complete different person acts impulsively ptsd insomnia mixed anxiety disorder depression classed chronic insurer refusing treat one understands feel face everything apparently appear absolutely fine never talk people brain past mentioned something people disregarded said im fine mood swings severe go high extreme low try think first usually always act kill kid know much redflag overdosed times pills naive ended hospital watch crash brain changed depressed long time tried take life several times downed v large bottle oramorph online drank times fatal dose incredibly stupid decided bottle instead sporadically drinking course body puked straight away left much alive vision almost completely gone several hours closest point got tried hang banister stairs low suspended drop pretty painless lost consciousness body thrashed leg reached back edge step right tried tonight noose hanging loft steps suspended hang hurting time body begins jolt pull cant lose consciousness seconds says online hurts lot time sure want end body wont let day masturbating first started may pm mnt standard time currently november pm mnt standard time running weeks days nothing say still stalker mean real stalker knows dont tell coz u better leave alone pp hard boi wake biology someone knows biology pls help think something blood pressure blood flow know rhymes sorry im sad want kill otherstoday walking saw two happy girls chatting laughing enjoying life instead happy immediately thought murdering knife think ill something became suicidal kind thoughts became something ordinary need talk feel least one friend leave tonighti really need someone talk one talked another human months posted one really talks last chance im staring sleeping pills want take tonight least id something eat im literally dying one friend tonight go wrote note bought rope im watching tutorials tie hangmans knotim losing god mindi really wan na die day im slowly becoming convinced way pathetic life ive depressed years theres end sight soulcrushing pandemic worst tell anyone irl feel theyll send back icu sick virus die anyway stuck people much unstable mercy another bureaucratic powertripping doctor looks patients enduring worse death imo ive holding long give one good reason keep holding born waywhy trans feelings family never accept live transphobic country difficulty imagining body looking girl gets worse every day want exist anymore kill meim damn tired watching hour creepypasta video idk gon na continue hell yes going describe judge comments name redacted call dooramii year old girl eddsworld danganronpa ojamajo doremi mixels lego movie course playing legos playing videogames steam account minecraft accounts subscribed youtube channels timtamtom chris cross iilluminaughtii schaffrilas productions living tombstone vivziepop eddsworld rebeltaxi play roblox premium simp fictional characters picture face httpspreviewredditalfjmxyrjthpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscfeffcdcfdedacddfdeeb common problem see often recently ive seeing lot posts comments saying much people hate subreddit gone complete shit anything along lines dont something going change leave ignore change want see whether thats real world online dont afraid voice opinion youre likely one said thoughts opinions stay hydrated homies dropped shortly turning turned now believe fast time moves barely recall anything happened almost nothing years probably deep undiagnosed depression looking back iti feel mentally physically developed turned makes sick stomach coma years nothing changedmy real excuse major surgery put commission course wielded shield questions responsibilities passed faked distance education age covid served grand excuse first months last year snapped ridiculous mindset mid earned spot decent university starting properly age many people mind straight finished iti redflag even completely palmed life money game without considering experiences missing going answer age question maintaining straight face months feel missed much already actions taking mostly meaningless people knew already kids getting promotions going grad school fun got big circle friends show iti fucking even time year degree thinking close makes upset taking stock writing helps even one reads hold hatred anyone deal much lost time life really worth livingin world power conscious greed limit leads endless killing suffering really point life may good bad realistically speaking know good enough outweigh bad im going insane unable cope day day wished muster last minute insane courage die already something triggered earlier insides turning burning ripping apart feel nothing going fill way hole chest needs filledi feel hopeless suicide feels optionmy hands aching scratch torso open stop feelings make feel world disgusting cruel feel drowning sea shit gets worse burning want nice day wonderful week keep head everything work eventually dont let people put youre wonderful advice dogs dog adopt dont shop check rdogelore people dont speak english english st languagewhen suicidal thoughts never language idk always english weird often read posts english mind remembers someone please answer feel one feels miserable life right now happy feeling alone dont understand illicit drugs bro even waste money something cause problems solves yo btw include ciggies despite illegal want go onim yo school student experiencing suicidal thoughts despite well school music still feel disappointment due several bad behavioural tendencies short violent temper lot issues anxiety due constant bullying lot time feel worth tried help past worked time ive mentioned wanting kill harm parents theyve gotten angry called stupid feel form help due ingrained paranoia something go horribly wrong tried cutting always weak help matters either long story short feel ready end feel conflicted people keep trying show good life throw threaten replicate kill know anymore sex made hate humanitysex made hate humanity simple pretend culture society group people illusion coherency mirage togetherness real real slightest war behind scenes instead front face nature breeding exiled killed point lost know need die simple part evolutionary process pinned inside us innate fundamental need drink stream sex made hate humanity obvious fascinating wasnt disgusting sick people say nature perfect beautiful nature wrathful disgusting means genocide taking place across planet indicative nature anything dont society right thing evolving away animal roots becoming civilized becoming evil base hormones pheromones firing ruling us anymore nothing body vessel torn shredded missing planks sinking dying drowning happens slowly inhale water choke public one cares opposite fact speak people laugh fundamentally mock everyone understand men kill personally afraid death process jumping bridge becoming paraplegic shooting face brain surviving want death anything stopped enjoy life years ago realized going alone id around bunch people pretending fun bet part effort mattered make mistake body wrong effort halved best might worth alone nothing done worked idiot disgusting flesh blob attractive worthy touch one tried suggestions tried methods joined groups saw much attractive apparently everyone barely people look eyes open mouths toward anything actually intimate never happen monster totally lash sympathize understand immense pain people clearly put similar wont solve anything im logical hate people theyre logical helps selfinvolved beasts one deserves anything thats attractive people deserve wonderful lives ugly men deserve slowly fall apart lonely neurotic messes muscles tense crack pop walk begging finger run let loosen human fucking touch thats im going kill make mistake will people around go well done different given chance human thats way much ask amount words change human needs either society needs adapt many men kill know almost excites us though said probably encourage society male suffering david lynch usually makes films resemble puzzles put together wrong way interesting look think really gel mind perhaps art always mean creatorbr br straight story typical david lynch film theres anything typical anyway odyssey rural america real life journey alvin straight took lawn mower brothers house rode miles laurens iowa mt zion wisconsin make amends sick brother past offensesbr br heart film sweet voiced richard farnsworth brings alvin straight right us simple honest way fact film slow paced matches alvins slow journey toward realizationbr br along way alvin meets confused frightened young girl pregnant decided run away situation listening alvin speak family reconsidersbr br later alvin witnesses distraught woman kill deer car complains killed several leaves alvin feels bad smart enough cook dear meat nightbr br later alvins lawn mower loses brakes nearly kills nice man wife let stay yard gets fixed even let call sweet slow daughter nicely played sissy spacek whose haunted terrible tragedy past alvin insists paying call man even offers drive alvin brothers pleasure alvin declines thanksbr br alvin waits goes bar kindly old man discuss harshness war price took souls alvin even confesses fatal mistake made sniper forever haunted himbr br alvin encounters two bickering brothers whove repaired lawn mower talks price wisely calling high labor repair costs even helps appreciate one another learning mistakes brotherbr br night alvin leaves mans yard takes hat man tells honor stay asks alvin write scene perfect simplicity heartfelt straight realbr br journey continues cant help involved want alvin brothers want make amends want know world full forgivenessbr br richard farnsworth best last film performance amazing cant help understand pride listen wisdom ultimately feel pain one becomes taken man offers back yard stay inbr br theres justice afterlife alvin straight brother richard farnsworth together sitting bar picture discussing lives regrets hopes joys alvin says film brother used look stars well know best view house hello playmatesi recently watched film first time first experience arthur askey admit impressed film fan black white films generally passport pimlico lavender hill mob tommy trinder apparently distant relative film appealed provided good old fashioned british humour notice criticised askeys performance opinion stands test time fine example forties comic acting anything adds picture creating characters mere stereotypes seem dominate films nowif hold film recommend hold itshame films generally shown sunday afternoons anymorei glad opportunity watch another piece work arnold ridley private godfrey dads armyi thank ive really turbulent month unexpected bills trouble old landlord resulted almost minus account almost rice feed moved got scammed deposit landlord still awaiting buy new things aswell take care sick mate really appreciate help feed upcoming time sure offer much return except utmost gratitude though tell need anything might able help really last resort food banks nearby family help unfortunately thanks advance reading cheers location denmark god sake let diei cant anymore want therapy want anything wanted gone lack nobody lets drunk know lose fucking survival instinct nothing stop im tired crying every corner hiding everyone hating need end theres point staying diagnosed bipolar disorder ii due financial problem able continue medication year afford therapy country health insurance mental healthfor part year feel really need medication anymore well cured really bipolar days even feel strangely positive hopeful even though pretty much given life even non depressive state days paralyzed past hurts unable move thought move things depressed comes rushing backi trying psyche think positively giving headache brain constantly feeds failures inadequacy try feed positive thoughtsbut feel tired want think anymorei empty empty really need someone talk toi know sounds stupid told friend suicidal thoughts said messagecall anytime want talk anxiety kind feel putting burden messaging come reddit find someone talk feel completely utterly alone moment im group always feel im one always background one notice disappear problems feel comfortable posting publicly im scared ill regret itim scared ill regret feel bad leaving parents brother two family dogs theyve much help care love much still want die cant fuxking suffer anymore anxiety sucks depression sucks symptoms come sucks life sucks live wan na go really im anxious scared go one knows happens death reincarnated afterlife absolutely nothing gone know much person dmed claimed knowing everything driving house every night asked prove telling least one crumb information wouldnt pedophile fun fact friday dolphins sleep one eye open texted different redflag text lines morning still answer single one ami really bad suicidal thoughts bad anxiety crying trembling uncontrollably vomiting going hot cold sweats want burden boyfriend sleeping tried texting hotline bring speak words reason title says ive response whatsoever making feel hopeless fuck different hotlines redflag answer adamant killing done already absolutely help thing thats keeping fact boyfriend cat homeless alive make money apartment anyone know seek help better way google redflag hotlines bc cant anything without risking losing job apartment relationship hey yall im f super bored wanting talk well thats basically im zooted fuckerinod rn deadass im living jupiter point hmu talk anything space life viewer discretion advised minutes gone waste way home rn anyone want talki feel today message automoderator hi automoderator unfortunately submission removed teenagers following reasons messages may make people angry remove posts andor memes strictly forbidden please stop future please familiarise rules commenting submitting l action performed automatically please contact moderators subreddit questions concerns sun cant shine foreverim years old ive made abuse years sober opiate addiction selling opiates years got kicked week high school graduation homeless papaw looked shot drug addicted biological father drove tree died year fighting depression whole life amp traumaptsd past year finally path wanted girlfriend loves almost years now pulled addiction amp never messed drugs got masters degree therapist trying help deal trauma forgave adoptive dad put good relationship well rest family now finally feeling happy past years even depressionif makes sense im barber school one top teacher said hed spoke volumes hes owned ran college years even one teaching classmates months school left graduate work job love vape shop building coils make people healthier hadnt thought redflag years now never thought worth shit slowly shown girlfriend tell survived struggles amp happy found outthe sun shine long june th year tuesday woke late class hurried showered ready dont remember much day remember tuesday monday worked late night overslept time heading car class starts goes till pm amp minute drive town bigger city gas rush gas station miles away drove parkway towards gas station mph speed limit mph without seatbelt cause hurry sunny warm fresh air smelled great knew good day got mile parkway fast lanethen next thing remember someone saying ive called ambulance coming call immediately remembered moms phone number lived adoptive dad amp little sister back feet gave number asked happened next memory morning helicopter noises next memory days later pain never felt way second set surgeries hours surgery total lots blood transfusions days remember anything semi truck wasnt looking morning pulled straight fast lane front hit mph nobody understands didnt die engine pushed dash causing stuck right hip amp pelvis shattered left hip amp pelvis severely broke dominant hand right one broken along right wrist thumb broken nose right knee bashed open exposing knee cap amp lot glass face months amp im still hospital bed parents front room cant walk bear weight sit wheelchair half hour learn walk time comes seemed far away last month xrays showed hip muscles turning bone may require surgery cant stopped im constant pain amp supposed take pain medication amp muscle relaxers times day along lot medications fought away opiates im forced back likely recover enough barber needing full motion right hand amp needing stand day hated waking late morning everyday now struggle didnt end thought became harder worse forced lay watching life move everyone stand still wish didnt survive amp want end now today take dont know struggle anymore tried positive amp strong im tired strong shoes walked miles life soles weight ive carry amp road feels end dont know start dont know smile dont know want live isnt living im crying help feel one listened traumas come back made forget night terrors killing amp im terrified sleep dont know ill see dreams ive always told im needed planet amp might know yet ill find one day im strong enough stay fight another day ive prolonged inevitable sad truth sun shine brighter everyone knows go everybody take care im wearing thin drowning dont think make sometimesthink future dont kill turning ill go move girlfriend canada saving slowlybut problem job im dumb college good paying job require degree start think maybe stripper realise pole dancing skills actually look good fucks everything maybe prostitute girlfriend says doesnt want im thinking selling virginity trying sexually related job requires fuck even look good actual skillsi dunnoim useless every american thinks understands world war two see movie hollywood films war defied stereotype japanese soldiers emotionless brutes obeying orders without thinking think every japanese man ready able fight death right day bombed nagasaki fires plain shows different reality troops pathetically undersupplied demoralized starved point cannibalism euphemistically refer human flesh monkey meat movie novel based put death myth japanese soldiers preferred death surrender good reason believe enemies mood take prisoners raises question americans rather avoid japanese military beaten point war necessary nuke hiroshima asker crush together cant express happy everyone exists chaos level basically sum amount chaos prone life whole universe something decides born learn live neurotypicals rich people pretty people etc struggles yes absolutely struggles completely separate type chaos talking talking type chaos exemplified people bad childhood mental illness bad genes etc etc etc ultimately learned cope much possibly think people coping never enough never full month life severely suicidal least week never true stability people many areas life shambles possibly change fundamental issues comes actually able happy daily basis people say change completely ignoring word fundamental bullshit people lucky people try convince us kept itwell let tell something people optimistic person know even finish writing probably smoke bowl watch netflix pass rest assured suffering begins anew tomorrow always always shred optimism core preventing leaving shitty world yet enough stop constant mood swings listless problems seem face daily basis look another way long meds stop working another psychiatrist leaves will maybe find hopeful personally another slap face terribly aware unfair life yet able escapei hope browsing subreddit find actually one people manageable amount natural chaos eternal curse constantly managing convince think finally figured thank reading im sorry seems important annoying thought id let someone knows kids please treat nicely idea abusive acts bring kids affect treat siblings friends people theyd meet later life accidentally flipped mom riding bike neighborhood yesterday almost home im turning corner near apartment car behind honks lot people area cant drive shit people honk aggressivelyshare road assholes tried hit cars bike lane anyways glanced behind thought driver another one freaks held hand kept pedaling car followed alley leads apt driver honked bunch times got pretty mad turned head put middle finger car sped passed rolled window andsurprise surprise mom gon na listen whole album right now one sitting going tpab filler filler filler filler gshshsbsbsbsbsbsnehehsh want cry want cry please send videos make cry hard cry please need welp lost day duolingo streak im sad duo send notif smt suppose called anxietyhi im really suicidal still need help depressionrelated thing actually ive never diagnosed mental disorder never hospitaltherapist anything mentalrelated still often feel dull depressed often reason find hating many people things feeling listless lazy weak lot time life simple im lonely real friends stick internet write poetry play video games process meet great people ive one girlfriend long distance relationship sum relationship great lasted three years best friend ive got intimate sexual basically obsessed seriously mean obsessed friend invest attention towards eventually broke reasons understand sure still feel sorrow im one dwell suicidal still feel depression felt quiet dull weakness made never felt anything happened absolutely reason understand actual depression pathetic laziness mentioned earlier never bothered visit therapist know now bring two main concerns regarding summary provided depression put quotes know real parents believe mental disorders say im play many video games rarely go outside young ten remember feeling absolutely reason even social active want know go checked ive always thought something random sadness come inside severe anger feel little things someone explain dowhere best kind place go general stuff obviously never considered seeing therapist information regarding anything know depression greatly appreciated strange mentioned earlier girlfriend intimate sexual obsessed ways breakup im longer contact longer awesome pictures used enjoy feel different im constantly mean constantly stomach pains kind feeling vomit feel pressure building stomach throat ive vomitted many times almost every day eating patterns always im skinny person puking daily good thing feeling dies thinking happen see picture mention anywhere instantly feel immensely sick either throw feel stuck throat almost completely sure link sexual obsession still see sexy beyond girl seen etc etc happen see ordinary picture immediately crazy horny really strange new feeling know possible horny feel sick time ideas suggestions deal kind anxiety matters im year old guy know problem big deal really felt need talk receive intelligent advice grateful people help guide recommend things fix issues oh im extremely antisocial selfconscious awkward uninteresting im suicidal often ill start thinking reason wishing dead go weird confusing feeling lgbtq sin im going hell isnt im still going hell hello first let start saying realizing little mean people giving soon going break mirror hope one shards big enough stab throat bleed death probably suffocate okay either one really matter long job gets done stand living endless repetitive regret fun birthday next month one cared abt birthday even alive feel loved anyone alone hate much rather die continue living already self harm stuff big deal right gives shit anymore never really mattered first place born dad play house mother absolutely disgusting life wasted good guess want everything end healthy way life huh think friend different country might commit redflagi live us friend lives ecuador said goodbye forever asked please hurt liable asked tried help said report police know real name address want liable rendered beautiful water colors ponyo cliff definitely sight behold vaguely remembering trailer witch find impressive surprised beautiful detailed film washed puritybr br center young boy comes contact sea creature relationship carries movie miyazaki master creating memorable imagery showing young ones interacting believable way little quirks intactbr br parts sit well understatement say music particular scene resembled ride valkyrians shame precious film cant afford take liberties hurt truly great scene antagonist backstory never interested either guess served background anything elsebr br anyway great film boat trip scenario imagery seacreatures stood thinks pure magical yes handrawn artwork intimate computer animated im really pumped princes frog now major breakdown tonight scared alone knew anything drastic matter getting closer friend mine really care respect one awake time kept going back forth eventually ended asking check tomorrow really needed someone call worried pushing boundary friend suddenly know much mental illnesses right feel asked want respond tomorrow matter say rather say feel let alone moment tomorrow feel moved want jeopardize friendship one coolest people know never wanted come burden much work idk worried made mistake idk done next march depressions getting worse want friend worry sucks told friend check idk right call happy crisgunamcus big day fellas crazy think week isnt ordered suppliesjust seeds dried leaves specific plant eat drink tea paralyze lungs idea year sayonara suckaz help teacher yelling class going die streets two kids forgot homework forgetting assignment isnt going make everyone class homeless future jeez ive really fucking stressed end everythings fucked want let thoughts talk winter break ended everything mes going hill even farther hill winter break even ended got several school assignments graded poorly made want work even harder feel ive failing really hard today decisions made ago came bite ass cant sleep shit mind actually cant remember last time good night sleep keep telling gon na ok dont shape soon affect entire life ive reflecting ive realized alone ive always know ive always passed jokes im really alone good friends hang xbox rd one havent seen month virtual school even though still talk lot discord im really getting worried social life im dont real close ties wont even start talking girls cuz im completely hopeless especially greatest skill bottling emotions think bottling emotions comes dealing mom shes got lot shit basically whenever gets really mad brother dad really tries hurt us really hurt us im one family doesnt know anything im aware protects dont tell anyone anything fell really bad absolutely hate brother cant deny anymore even though know unfair hes never done anything wrong fact hes naturally stronger promised future plenty friends basically anything better makes course super jealous even though hes barely done anything deserve hating top things ive essential crisis stress hatred sadness left wanting end give think thing keeping im scared whats beyond fact im aware things makes think able better cant makes hate even first time life ive felt totally helpless seems place turn thanks anyone read far kind overdose kill mehi ive intrusive suical thoughts almost month now lost job ive wanted years managed make two shifts last time came broke tears front everyonethe customers boss coworkers etc boss said best got help trying maintain working im really frustrated working end july year months ive let many job opportunities slip away cant bring bed want die im looking kind attention want know overdose kill ill way took mg seroquel mg hydroxyzine mg lexapro mg famotidine kill id rather life long complications liver problems brain problems want stop existing right make sure ill gone im going cut arms let bleed epic gamer pp arent funny anymore cringe least wan na say power cringe anyone awake even chat nothing help right nowhey anyone awake live canada coming bender helped mask anxiety depression everything flooding im alone watching tv room nice someone chat cant really reach anyone without waking fucking day tuesday havent slept saturday night hours day posting lines bee movie every day wow im cant believe im blue feel fast free box kite wow flowers minecraft dog died named lucky went mining fell pit lava miss nothing left even right give switch lives someone abouttodie really want leave body scary tatics end life working igottahangmyself please entity anyone power please end going end jail eventually sleeping jail sleep outside slowly giving upi job future planned true friends energy make new ones ive living depression many years now im tired sit cry never wanted live past wish courage strength end nightmare life really want exist anymore found big funny simple go google translate put vert angry sentences monty python quotes play audio ive seen various hamlets ive taught play watch jacobi im tempted think hes every bit intelligent hamlet alive every nuance characters wit deepens rather solves every puzzle regarding hamlets character illuminates line line word word shining light sparkling mind time cringe horror hamlet feels betrayalfar actorbecause jacobi feels pain profoundly anyone shudder hamlets betrayals jacobi afraid baseness hamlet descend short jacobi gives us hamlet full hamlet full greatest character literature thats im satisfied jacobis hamlet finest performance ive seen actor everybody ready funny monkey friday going make swag meals make new religions night son septic respiratory diredflag hours husband know time medical staff incompetent realize ambulance staff even worse son almost died beatup ambulance well horrible finally got bigger hospital antibiotics nearly month hey natsuu need thighs lay want love people butif experience people past ish years going going past days kind teetering edge wanting truly end everything im still scared afterlife able rest never bothered listen everyone money money lets whatever want move pos parents house never look back buy sex people hold shit head relationships contribute something loved lazy annoying piece shit thats waste space thats love according society loved standards hard work teams hold others reciprocate people keep promises know say anymore everyones going say fault anyways believe capitalist people eat alive shithole website run nerds survive job retail think theyre menial work play video games watch anime shit responsibilities goals outside shit wish someone prove wrong doubt will im always told pray god never seek actual help something wrong wanting keep paycheck something wrong placing value human lives anything wrong believing things make life worth living yes matter snowflake must die collective cause organizations giving money relationships must left pick reference social cue go school us growing part clique friend group etc working hard paying bills im responsible making work time supposed privileged according people cant handle wrong considering ending everything whats wrong makes unlovable thinking decided im going kill im turn week im pretty fucked thinking decided said im preety fucked lomg story short raped im preety anti social got trust issues mean damm real real friends yeah preety lonely obvious reasons havent relationship said trust issues im preety fucked nothing really keeping idk soon go camping trip blow head hey everyone hope okayive many therapist years realised working really anything already know feel paying someone idle chatter case therapistsis something maybe keep trying find one actually feels worthwhile maybe stop togetherthanks reading question therapy bad parents inability decide overall badi committed college beginning may wrong great school clue im life think logical make around every semester fulltime college student apparently great city want able enjoy plus leaving home gives extreme anxiety work college ultimately make im able make matters worse im still hung end basically twoyear relationship five months ago keep thinking things done differently better caused lot stress school blamed entire thing want apologize point late plus make look fool even put ease make poeple dislike id admitting wrong thatd cause whole lot hate seeing ex successful going one best schools state feel im competition go local community college ill consider failure even better decision hate living home parents supportive keep saying got whole college mess want go chosen community college begin change mind every second im scared leave one second cant wait meet roommate go college life next love job love people truly make feel matter super easy im good issue deadend job id keep went community college near work im totally love coworker might affecting opinion think think really cool friend im bad determining platonic romantic feelings either cool though yikes know situation kind unrealistic ill drop haha go college know decision make cant contemplation redflag lot im quite bad dealing unfortunately pause button life even know want die think feel important anyone life im unsure life course thats typical guess im conflicted really want anymore guess sad ive written redflag letter almost every month year months write little one feel cold say goodbye many people care even really seem care anymore felt sad want know want know someone cares wants succeed kind feels nobody feels nobody believes im terrified failure even want try graduate eighteenth birthday never saw living past age seventeen im hell clue im scared anything absolutely hate college absolutely hate come back wasted first semester oh well im broke cant afford cant certain ill actually end going anywhere life unless go school god know mind filled idea death want know people know ive lately want know care im tired assuming feel let people know matter way much really seem care theyre affectionatecaring people probably know really know looking posting well maybe stemmed whole seek validation romantic partners thing quite well college came love kind nice guess one funny thing happened though kind brightened day little last night trying make asmr video friend joke make laugh one soap cutting videos accidentally stabbed hand know sounds terrible kind funny fact lol zero tolerance xanax alcoholthat probably end lifeit sad reality people meant brought world xanax alcohol combo kill late party star wars explain ampxb ast wuestion promise need help dealing acquaintance canadian input especially usefulhi guys first post sorry longer whats usually posted guy know closely live far away help directly recently failed first semester college late courses currently debt always poor academic standing every subject seems academia subjects question likely chronic already appeared close family members limiting comes work trades ive proposed diagnosis doctor least potentially disability ontario plan cpp hard motivate even family members live permanently afraid becoming bad selfesteem due illness getting wellpaid jobs trades keeping years really hard asthma keeps joining army know im bit stumped ideas driving basic office work precise trade require much hard physical labor watchmakers decades back ideasresources wellappreciated one family member grandfather supports lended college money told failing semester yet somewhat suicidal though thankfully extremely committed yet usual kinds cases ashamed finds existence useless thinks useful society family dead constantly miserable mood wakes morning feeling hit car stuff think greatest longterm cure fulfilling job ideas useful temporarily longer term song know christmas offensive ignorant distasteful one song specifically ethiopia refer ethiopia africa reassuring rest world africa apparently single country rather entire continent people ignorant enough believe care enough educate know people think egypt middle east secondly snow africa christmas well yeah equator middle summer australia christmas make less christmasy summer christmas one grew know christmas time dominant religion ethiopia roman catholic yeah im pretty sure ethiopia muslim care christmas care ramadan effect quality life knowing ramadan finally song depicts entirety ethiopia africa complete shit hole lyrics gttheres world outside window world dread fear gtwhere water flowing bitter sting tears actually ethiopia famine northern part ethiopia tigray whole ethiopia africa rastafarians believe ethiopia holy land paints whole continent shithole nothing grows everyone starving death one area tigray famine s saw cat pissing outside window pissing mean pissing bush take jump scared fucking overthink understand suicidal people considered selfish cowards opinion incredibly brave brave taking step unknown pulling plug brave taking matters hands never saying born saying way ends hope display bravery time really hope will brave need advice know ask maybe guys help okay know belongs know hope deleted something days ago date birthday friend mine lost brother car accident told talked evening seem sad desperate know react self defense mechanism realise happened yet im needs help asked help yet cant presume pretending okay tell im wrong fine anything im already im confused scared sorry poor english im native speaker see genuine reason exist anymorei dont want exist every day consists either embarrassing reminded truly inferior compared around miserable passing day oftentimes force stay standing literally collapse giving entirely cant find enjoyment anything hobby pastime desperately distract long enough dont remember absolutely fucking helpless truly futurewise nothing look forward live bloated egotistical country dying economy repeatedly told every single person know grateful suck feel anger often exploding smallest inconvenience dont feel anger feel either nothing allconsuming despair longer go worse feel mercy died quietly corner dorm instead forcing stay awake ive tried therapy medication never anything frankly dont want anything happier couldnt remember anything guys happened game stop reddit keep seeing memes im confused normal emo teen boy wan na crushs slave normal time hit woman kept hitting everyone got mad unfair im strong guy went playground babysitting kid one friend hits thought gender equality decided hit back years old used strength punched face launched meters away people got mad smh head dude live saucity counts diagnosed depressed clinically depressed regular treatments therapist depressive suicidal thoughts something doctor fills sort process go im dead inside whats left now die physicallymy biggest fear height im minutes jumping window please need someone talk please lost friendnote posted tifu subreddit found appropriate post im im sure begin im scared know now friend one person redflag hotline worker knew situation now know friend girl ive known two years knew internet know never able make friends one talk one wanted talk friend never really understood importance relevance human interaction met much fun talking enjoying others company never realised much fun talk someone never realised big world really confess perhaps harboured unhealthy attachment time year met alone finished college course stopped going work family went vacation months always thought certain tolerance social isolation wrong leave home except buy food internet front never approached people real life one girl always reached always initiated conversations confused first little annoyed isolation getting worse anyone talked led believe one cared one care ceased exist started experiencing doubt wanted kill know trivial thing kill ones self thats thinking make difference anyones lives whats point living whats point living cant useful girl always talked slow process slow realise doubts became positivity happened happy sometimes talk week excited giddy always looked forward messaging program light corner make sound asinine thing happy really content let know im complete recluse im waiter even basic level social intelligence felt indebted incredible feeling know tell happy certainly know suicidal time debt weight felt purpose happy try repay perhaps useful admit fantasised partners scared one benefiting relationship plus always relationship difficult find right time offer thought honestly say still content friends fast forward year later gotten relationship someone strongly attached never expected last knew person months half year best really happy enough make happy felt horrible happened fell state depression always felt awful end relationships time hurt bad lasted longer facebook posts ominous chat program use often changed profile pictures crying people change username something equally depressing worthless prominent one stuck really felt needed something wanted talk tried talking every day tried always initiate conversation maybe bombarding gathered talking suicidal say directly made afraid trying distract nasty stuff trying replace negativity positivity told told take one step time told thought strong told felt saved told talking alone mention suicidal thoughts time moment got better last long near christmas getting worse felt friends facebook dancing around issue licking wounds dealing directly problem decided become villain thought confronted bit short term pain lay facts shell suffer moment realise world much bigger thought time time things getting heated said know felt partner told though hated say said inexperienced relationships started online main setting partner time someone often met real life though told insensitive replied knew something mention depression often asked talk indirectly promise anything stupid feared still suicidal asked talk asked apologise refused saying mean words meant nothing apologised hurt left heated huff logged never got response question got scared wondered really made right decision desperation started contacting friends try contact none responded one point even messaged mother depression nothing doubts coming back wondered killed froze place nothing hope going cool friends go contact following thought best course action back leave alone thought contact ready sign chat program case want see still facebook friends know anything christmas sent gift steam know thought know played long time ended backing month time fears realised made post facebook talking killing frightened wondered really helped made things worse going respond friends quick respond believed terrible state doubt chose reply friends much better job doubts becoming heavier one point depression cleared admit become facebook stalker point thats knew getting along everything going well made new friends claimed found people appreciated company know meant thought actively try seek point still logging chat program doubts taken thought come help tried help wondering worried realise thoughts become poisoned nasty two months stopped talking grew desperate thought care questioned whether really existed ended creating new account facebook began adding lot friends noticed friends always flew side made scary post thought maybe friend fixed using different alias know expecting made feel worse made facebook friends two weeks felt emptier point seemed figure know blocked well real accounts scared annoyed angry know felt somehow recognised bad qualities semblance redeeming factor blocking messaged saying knew chose ignore doubt growing worse felt complete reversal situation took positivity confidence took negativity doubts difference friends people share worries felt awful compounded fact home robbed recently felt guilty parents upset turn alarm leaving work wanted die couldnt paid debt debt parents ended calling samaritans redflag hotline said perhaps misunderstood something try talking time person knew situation took long time muster courage talk know cared last talked went offline answering question took mean want talk lack responses past three months indicated scared going bother cause trouble thats wanted talked things went relatively well though apologised needed probably apparently never contacted outside chat program main medium communication felt bitter trouble sending message facebook found alias remember talked much time though appeared friends talk much month felt didnt felt still nuisance wanted badly talk knew doubts disgust doubts built much let one burst coming fourth final month talked bit seemed well felt things going back way doubts left last long remembered suicidal posts accrue much support ominous usernames profile pictures ended changing mine well hoped someone necessarily come check didnt know im idiot know thoughts nasty disgusting know heart black know im irrational another round doubt head confronted without realising making feel guilty situation doubts selfdeprecating behaviour felt horrible suggested block felt discussion going nowhere took offer blocked leaving final piece fair goodbye complete slamming door face heart spirit shattered happened yesterday scared backup accounts facebook contacted got freaked creeped told aware told least cut contact terms agree upon really necessary responded blocking accounts still one mode communication one users cant blocked certain website messaged told thought needed cool time gather thoughts told interest friends stalkerish tendencies backed intended try spent entirety today working letter sorts felt rational entire thing sent responded im sorry ive already made mind im interested friends anymore never able trust already told want move blocked blocking means want talk drag thing anymore want harass anymore everything blocked constitutes harassment tolerate fact made shake fear please move already theres nothing gain beating dead horse leave worse impression itll start make regret friends first place please stop actually becomes true responded read message kind feels im given fair trial know im awkward im confused especially say disappeared know ive deluded thinking case still feel biased really think end im sorry im sorry ive done really enjoyed time im sorry betraying trust start course stupid things lead incredible strength believe happy least one favour take granted thats ask good life heh change mind know find thank least reading thoughts one last time last message two hours ago read message decision respect decision avoid thank hope find better people goodbye fucked fucked fucked fucked fucked know im horrible idiot fucked fucked talk fucked friends fucked want kill fucked really want end really want hurt fucked doubts fucked edit thought might interested seeing letter worked sent today well talking stalkers one shirai kuroko much invasive blatant intention going horror genre soon recomposed best focus task hand im going let slam door face im backed corner course im going fight doubts damned want live sudden shift attitude mine takes precedence doubt know stayed away longer response lack thereof following message serve good indication last time disappeared said let fire back want disappear either idea im guess good start apology apologise continuous display terrible sides know apologise things expect forgiven ive known two years even time meant little meant lot theres reason feel strong towards know suggested blocking going bumpy believe satisfied ending either seem unlikely well friends mean things ended way know proper goodbye right goodbyes necessarily mean complete drop contact parties something people stop talking goodbye going say goodbye ill say hello rather good evening want talk im hurting please tell case least want say proper farewell fair say piece leave disappear think sudden really solutions mind one solution want one face properly think discussion going nowhere think irrational believe possibilities exploredyesterday kept asking tried leave think looking back now afraid id break know selfish makes sound im considering feel may continue selfish id hear rest say im make sure want regret anything guess cant say sure want regret anything either right right now think main issue im hurt say waswell im probably hurting know sure really casethen though may reluctant exactly satisfied understand contact another solution try irrational feeling hurt really think thats impossible know work im given enough time replaced something positive thats theory test need assistance know im position asking something perhaps hear rest say hate come want come victim anything kind feels terrible friends seen someone used friends honestly intention guilt wanted help said wanted help getting feeling want told want told im capable want clap back told go run laps around block one knows situation though technically speaking one person knows thats relevant wanted attract attention failed know turn problems guess thought thought made scary posts thought maybe showed reflection im thinking name image attention without actually asking help im aware clumsy awkward way ask didnt naive part thought someone steam try approach frustration built want help want advice im asking much try find elsewhere want continue talking wish thrown away say want want let hear answer even things turned sour mean stop talking one another even friends want continue talking things anime games life sorts stupid nonsense know detest rushed endings dropping contact something painful doubt something happens thirdrate television dramas really think doubtful real think depressed self real honestly say meant things said time hate sounds im trying justify needed form perspective took considerable amount time everything much granted privilege waited got everything though admit ended changing result think unfair irrational behaviour punished clear im saying want punished saying deserve maybe want understand wanted understand think little better now trying avoid nasty stuff trying avoid commotion avoiding drama maybe thats avoided doubting makes sense mentioned believe friendships destined end wonder really believe mean regards current friendships hate bring im understanding must felt say scared left thought thought found disgusting right now im feeling exact thing overcome win want believe want believe know asking lot see say realised importance human interaction one point forgot now become obvious frustrated behaviour make mistake crying begging intention either things simply wish see satisfactory conclusion discussion underestimate power debate need ill deal doubt somehow never hear think thats favourable compromise want lose allow try aforementioned conditionsif really end theres nothing stop least make sure real im talking depressed angry scared means happy respect decision last letter sorts took months compose hope serves indicate serious course id much hear thoughts side story tldr sabotaged everything entirely im revolting life ive made one real friend fucked im weak im pathetic im useful anyone exist im villain im irrational bop beep skdoo bep okay tokyo south america australia france germany uk africa endwasnt afraid birth afraid death imagine happened hitler got accepted art school seriousness happened poop school goddess guys im going scooby foo mystery incorporated marathon im chapter right wish luck bit posted good working new job thought last look good million reasons want stay bed anything something telling go work grind something bad happen depressed reason work money pay rent barely hold sanity right feel existential dread coming tried failedtried first proper redflag attempt failed miserably everything noose without thinking anything guess im stuck pathetic existence cant thing im weak dog ive come realization hate life hate lifei started wonder killed yet fear death realized really want die wan na ifstrawberry fields forever gorrilaz song listening question came mind know ask yea keep seeing amp speaking dead girlfriend know turn toim threat think anyone talk week ago someone came front door middle night armed thinking brake found girl sitting beside door asked took hood revile girlfriend died year ago house fire said must dreaming insisted wasnt confronted dead told go hospital reason died caught house fire one longer head injury mixing things started ask questions knew lived gone year told amp family died fire change identities start new life looked old friend told talking awhile decided make breakfast hours paste asked shower said yes hour hearing water running checked shower dry lights sound rain coming pipes heavily shook sleep walking thingthen happens today shopping groceries kept telling things liked eat healthier thankfully able ignore said go home ask questions cashier look went behind went automatic doors first im curious anyone advice thanks reading wall text maybe helping must see film understand reality read book ms duke advocate afflicted bipolar disorder formerly labeled manicdepressionbr br hard believe day age people still critique others emotional problems seek psychiatric help regressive discriminatory thinking still exists unfortunatebr br film audience sees pain suffering ms duke especially child many us may remember teenage patty duke show household name america age br br learn exploitation rosswell played howard hesseman growing s stigma fullforce see advances career yet illness becomes worse goes bouts substance abuse promiscuity even marries someone divorces next week several conflicts tantrums children elderly mother problem occurred received adequate therapy medicationbr br recent survey released nami national alliance mental illness recorded majority us adults fail recognize classic symptoms bipolar disorder released one five respondents poll believed people control illness without medication wanted bp magazine winter watch film learn true story talented woman pull bootstraps well educated disorder received proper treatment thank ms duke advocate ignorance prejudice realized expensive gaming laptops pcs gotten post much wondering minimum price setup run minecraft discovered point low end setup awhile ago upper mid range man time goes fast next stepsthis first time getting closer closer killing even first time planning first time found easy painless clean way first time packing things arranging apartment things taken care late night friday home quietly watching qi pretty peaceful go sleep never wake drug overdose painful messy want talk people know really long story last time said goodbye wife might well different countries join wanted break months silence mixed calling pleading loves lapse silence finally divorced skype last years living nightmare finish started miss every day even though ive done everything move betrayal love last time saw hugging kissing airport even though blamed many things fault im blameless never point open communication willing make change project try help relationship think end met someone thought better id say cant blame good blaming giving benefit doubt everyone fault everything think imagine im reluctant share im aware trying goodbye conversation anyone something want talk someone know necessarily stop though dump someone want help next steps cant take time work barely pay rent im dog walker cant extended absence former colleague work suicidal etc took big extended absence serve whole companys needs big disaster everyone already bad taste mouth think suicide frequently sick sad angry miserable cure happens next sick struggling every day im beyond helpnothings helped ive never gotten conversation article internet thinking redflag bad choice ive several meds handful mental health professionals either work made feel worse going years going better im trapped situation realistic resolution im tired hopeless anything help broken far past recovery ive never enough justify fucked head know even matters anymore hope almost anyone says survived severe depression adds theyre still depressed suicidal often plan follow come monday felt really lonely woman black tv adaptation susan hills modern classic ghost story published years earlier film made sadly film released dvd far aware deleted vhs availability direct contrast popularity amongst know horror films story revolves around events seaside community early th century young solicitor sent firm conclude affairs recently deceased widow died isolated marshland estate thought routine probably tedious task turns nightmare discovers old woman haunted death ghosts past content rest story told subtle concise way never selfindulgent flashy overexpositional obviously tight budget may contributed nononsense approach story needs works well see scares said one particularly terrifying scene relies visual works perfection watched film day still gave nightmares nearly week later love terrified must hold watch copy woman black little discord community going anyone wants chat real come hang pretty blunt afraid dm interested may take bit respond sleep words seriously enough convey emotional power film one wrenching see yet ending one loving tender emotionally fulfilling hope every actor every role terrific especially wise understated jamie lee curtis tightly wound anguished ray liotta heartstopping turn tom hulce every award book hes pick s best actor danny pearys alternate oscars last half hour borders melodrama film earns every one tearsand unless made stone plenty titties amazing dude thats thats whole post appreciate made night think im going tomorrowi know im years old ive suicidal thoughts six months now house girlfriend fight lot much common job cant seem keep one money biggest problem life know blame really wish went school even good scholarship course take advantage worked shitty jobs bought shitty house theres reasons post care explain know feel cant anything improve life right now car gone shit even job know think im done trying boredom frustrationi longer live anymore past years ive gotten bored living everyday broken record played fucking repeat im tired really everyday wake exact time go school work fucking balls way tired anything nothing life enjoyable anymore desire end things grows stronger stronger everyday easy end thing fling building done days better others sometimes smile laugh within short period time feel dreaded sense boredom everyday want lock room stay dont want talk anyone see anyone want curl bed never fucking wake im tired im tired really dont think left survive anymore think im truly done life thread holding back disappointment id imaging seeing everyone elses eyes shouldnt even complaining anyways born loving family parents always nice treats much love friends forever grateful enough anymore might make sound greedy feel greedy needy time weird blob behind fucking brain haunting everyday screeching want fucking shot head really dont know anymore maybe build courage actually might pussy go fucking cycle wish something bad happen world relieve responsibility hit rock bottomthe pandemic fired job girlfriend loved much leaving barely stand father anymore hes insufferable cruel really want die idk drag film one best creepy yet intriguing performances crispin glover dennis hopper reagan years pretty bleak lot people teenagers flick really captured desperation despair welldirected great script apparently based true story really see weaknesses opening shot brilliantbr br keanu reeves decent change miss skye right money hopper three great performances year blue velvet texas chainsaw ii hoosiers imagine cult following wonder picture fare rereleased super stuff many reviews film write right tom conway fully inherits mantle falcon reallife brother george sanders entry decked beautiful doublebreasted singlebuttoned drapestyle suits cruising gorgeous steel cars huge fender skirts suicide doors come armpit conway travels new york miami keep formula industrial diamonds falling wrong hands client lovely virginal louisa briganza got gorgeous hair let kiss first two months along way runs type colourful array characters b movie provide sidekick outing perhaps best among falcon sidekicks edward brophy goldie locke given really funny lines runs sinister dish doris blanding type s chick know puts cohort benny played steve brodie twenty years later presley punching bag two paramount king movies work cold fish yachtingcapwearing kenneth sutton ready takes formula cruises yacht brazil saddled stoniest falconpursuing cops entry still reigns supreme forget minute melodramas give hour falcon movie day got wife two kids whos got time twohour movie shake dry martinis forget troubles great falcon movie tape local tv toronto years ago luck hear people always say gets better never things may okayish brief moment right back way always meant happy something people talk something look forward scared look forward anything last want piece happy pie always going first time ive done im eating lays poppables chocolate chips bad learned chocolate chips heavier lays poppables british horror film terminal decline start seventies blackness came three films among best island produced wickerman blood satans claw house dripped blood made future seem rosy even though lot people knew point going one thtdb sort cast easily form wishlist actually assembled bleak hinterland may well find expecting wake waxworks overlooked four stories naturally favourite cushings life art interlinked firmly cant tell performance ends pain begins one guess role affected gentle sensitive man death maiden rip peter point become bragging talk big pp cross line bragging girl talks body people usually agree guys bragging weird long phone take full charge mine takes whole day garlin great job nice concept well executed tightly produced came across sincere story fan curb enthusiasm jeff pretty much straight guy role delighted much depth brought role simple yet effective portrayalbr br much humor understated subtle drew poignancy really liked rather slapstick overexplained nice little surprises twists convenience store vignettes delightbr br say wonderful small film mean budget quality simple intimate handcrafted tells highly believable everyday story relax go see let wash feel good done cant anymorei cant dont need girlfriend need homies love movie disney channel ridiculous playing anymore think definitely put susie q back air least one night record anyone know find email cristinaimcom please email know find movie online anywhere told kids movie think deserve see disney movies coming fake boring need susie q back great movie great actors see taken air everyone loves movie much taken air please take comment consideration along comments made movie thank nice day dad made transfer data another computer never used computer ended finishing reason make blatant youre playing phone theyre anyway searching something mum even playing wouldve right time degree exhaustion vastly different importantly tf makes son important things anyways fml sqwad hair looks good right sleep ruin really fucking overnot whole fucking world humanity needs die hunger racism rapes disease mental health issues come fucking earth please blow saying cuz im selfish humans longer wouldnt problems wouldnt feel killing self every day life rteenagers allow post images temporary permanent know gotheres one left im year old anxietydepressionagoraphobia ive unmanaged diabetes last years husband last friend earth cheated last fall satisfy fetish fulfill says hes sorry loves want leave cant find trust college education job drivers license expired year im afraid go dmv penny name car credit nonexistant everything husbands name may well exist family single friend husband betrayed take good care keep home peaceful neat cook beautiful meals us cry every day full darkness rage hate world hate everyone known leaving given much love take take take need someone theres one disappear theres strength left inside feel worthless unlovable therapy teenager tried countless drugs love husband desperately honestly know staying believe love anywhere go im trapped scared completely alone even know begin take back life even worth pleasure find life brief moments husband forget hes done food cant even enjoy beautiful rich foods know im sick cant risk sometimes want eat death even know control diabetes try eat healthy diet know thats enough well im terrified go doctor miscarriage shortly married years ago live denial health suffer huge secret guilt eat anything steamed vegetable theres joy theres relief pain thats snowballing inside child theres one left reach help tried calling redflag hotline hung person got line im afraid speak im scared want pain stop want die want pain stop never will know im strong enough keep going hell pathetic last hope sending message void internet know expect stop cant go know death feels option relief know actually experience relief pain calls help god help please please need peace need feel loved cant know mean much hereat point turn friends want hear family little honestly need vent die im standard age one knows go want writer im fucking definition loser learned long time ago diagnosed depression light form autism basicly understand somethings comes learning anything treated therapy depression stuck bullied mercilessly school one teachers principles gave damn content watch embarressing go government tell fucking fix part life loner never thought friends come home school go play video games imagine hero hero one understood still wanted around high school came first year grade proved best part life joined anime club became dnd player made tons new friends helped set convention grades happened met one girl first shocked asked first took movie kissed think want date anymore three week relationship think much friend came english class yelled stop raping friend thats went hill place point anime club called freak rapist time guy wanted kill constantly tried set fire twice day people relentlessly mocked cast deal g point reached fucked grad quote said thank flying spaghetti monster people liked anime club members history teacher everyone got mad said offensive better left high school never turned back done tests college college fresh start new beginning life way fucking well said wanted writer wanted write sci fi took psychology english history political environment english political thought first english nice met girl started dating six months proffesor really nice things took turn classes became sucky men awesome women english political environment kept saying men ruined men ruined white men destroyed everything good hearing day day got nerves know bad tried better person life never stuck felt alone classes one wanted hear um writer game thrones hes white awesome stories read white men bad political talk tumblr sjw bull shit disproven multiple doctors institutions tipping point gf time first women dreams beautiful shy nerdy little creepy really liked creepy weird stuff met another girl girl twisted friend side poke prod gf telling bad intentionally go way strain relationship got point gf starting mentally abuse andverbally abuse tried fight tried nearly became love care friends stopped forced look reality picture bad gave relationship gave nothing back confronted everything accused accepted never even defended self accepted everything said remorse told go fuck self left breaking even add friend abanonded got wanted started focusing finding job came avail one girl tried dating online cheated abandoned tried therapy fail miserably six years nothing came family sick tired seeing sad even talk anymore go fake smile try let know im fine secretly im friends abandoned go problems try go stunning radio silience im alone nobody reason im posting someone know loved even know please follow better idiot thought way cant find way please keep fighting reads even im dead ill still beleive guys confession addicted saltines help im drowning need support group yo biden fuckingdnjdfj fucker deadass said p e im fukin dyingbtgtfdcexezwxtbgb need end canti house car every electronic appliance want need girlfriend cheated left dad lost job mothers deteriorating health ive lost three close friends recently one connect talk redflag hotline said best option cry sleep wow thanks lot waht anything liked stanley iris much acting good story unique interesting arrangement absence violence sex refreshing characters convincing felt understand feelings enjoyable movie future spouse telling theyll together flip side lied left married someone nothings permanent everythings random theres even theories every second identical amount time last second wan na crush someone legit experienced feeling long time kinda miss puffy nipples m im really nervous take shirt public puffy nipples years now way around im overweight excercise momi think thing hurts whole world mom makes feel bad realizes cries hug apologize try better mother makes feel worse sensitive feel way days ill aloneits cant sleep work today want end want wait im alone house parents care im gone sisters care im around extended family turn december entire family leaves europe want last moments alone cant wait longer feel im youngest person everyone im lol hello nerds first throat hurts poor sleeping going start drinking warm water second everyone whatcha nerds milestone acheived karma away karma life complete thank mom dad twomad helping thinking ending tonightso told post currently sitting living room enough pills end one week ago hospital thing chickened taking pills called ambulance admitted psych ward two days figured situation fatal know behave around people hiding mind years point im sure want take pills die hospital comforting really know im posting im supposed write guess mind night go two ways take pills go bed hope wake take pills end hospital know yet one going happen remember last happy today realised long felt safe comfortable life feel constant struggle brought tears think careless highschool student oblivious mental termoil lay ahead miss day alive lived sprit exploration shared anlther day schoolyard banternow constant feeling overwhelmend unemployment feeling must scrape survive lost joy existancei honestly wish died child never grow live faliure outcast within society wish hate wish reach end seem compelling happiness iama broken college boy intending hero ask anything yes im serious im drinking neither smoking wasting money futile shit remained without money parents going send money st march tell im outta money im dead sen home without possibility continue studies feel free ask anything end shit fuck shit im nice life im donebeen homeless drug addict last years time transitioned came family mother stroked died rest family disowned foreign place alone full guilt drugs need sleep everytime feel giving tell stress going next monday finally start holidays worry school things months need help tell someone reason reply week accidentally started texting people energy recharge social battery gone insane im going bed now night night dont let pedos bite love guys except ugghigh school fucking hell kids go bunch parties ton girls high school amazing outcasts everyone kids super popular arent smart wont amount much high school theyre good looking athletic theyre treated gods everyone always chase clout popularity always care everyone thinks awful cant take anymore friends abandoned popular kids im alone nothing makes sense anymore made huge mistake challenged old friend hockey match forgot canadian match happens tomorrow im screwed mom found suicidal nothing changed whatsoeveri dont think cried asked questions said shed try meds switched hasnt caring talking robot shes means terrible mother always assumed huge deal thought wed talk hours shed try help nope acted mechanical always u say something u know stupid someone u something talk feel ive made look stupid talk someone loneliness hit send help aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaa interesting rant ok make clear im homophobic anything rant pride month veteran week vote listen rant fuck veteren week aprecation make feel nice shit gay people whole fucking month make feel special sexuaility wouldnt happening veteren fight wars keep country safe rights gay fact everyday respect call stone cold killer killing people life line die blink eye benefit gay people nothing sure guy fought rights cool veteren fought country ensures right gay rant rant apply canada usa countries kill gay know much pretty sure wrong carols journey pleasure watch many reasons acting clara lago simply amazing someone young one special actors say say much facial expressions director imanol urbibe presents tight controlled film break continuity thereby propelling plot steady pace enough suspense keep one wondering nest scene bring screenplay angel garcia roldan story telling best seems major purpose films plot unpredictable yet events unravel completely logical perhaps best feature film tell story spanish civil war affected people major event th century yet hardly americans know fact years university teaching averaged one student semester even heard much less say anything comprehensive itand overwhelming number students merit scholars speaks enormous amount censorship american education one way film good way begin study event keeping mind one thread pulled great deal history unraveled appreciation film direct relation amount ones knowledge view film another coming age movie miss movie completely left elbow index considers seven aspects film acting production sets character development plot dialogue film continuity artistryon scale good average needs help carols journey average counts excepting dialogue rated average lei average film raised equated imdb scale highly recommend film ages anyone wan na talk yeah im back whoever looked recent post big ooff yah bois school closed last days closed tomorrow maybe next week im donei cant keep anymore one cares bf tired hearing ill probably lose insurance trump see therapist month anyway one appointments tonight im going step front train done goodbye confusedlast saturday finally got fed life completely attempted kill ended spending days hospital surviving ive read multiple redflag stories say instantly regret feel regret normal want better feel better felt finally die actually felt best id felt long whats least painful way dieits long sad painful years last year filled much heaviness heartache dread find hard stay positive calm normal im alone anymore last weeks ive unable stop crying public emotional pain feel makes feel legs stop working sometimes im especially bad day cant seem make go away go numb usually doesnt come back mins time im really ask help ive tried many times help doesnt last people dont care near unless im usual happy self dont access guns want end life soon closing loose ends family friends appreciate advice day returning friends discord server dm damn really friends fuck alleveryone sucks supposed friend fucking dick days give another chance locked balcony broken window forgiven fucking bully im going pay apartment shit ton money dont whole point friendship lets end fucking ashamed reallyreally longa little backstory home schooled til th grade didnt quite hang school high school grades never really good felt highly accomplished whenever got c parents day still convinced im kind genius lazy never really group friends people actually barely talked unpopular much hated talk bad teachers force words wasnt much hand comfortable say outrages things act ridiculously attention feel foolish later chubby unhygienic antisocial discovered masturbation family moved portugaleurope absolutely hated first kids international school went tightly knit felt completely ostracized age started fall love basketball swimming plus active lifestyle general didnt go either teams though felt unwanted grades dropped even lower first time received failing grade class barely passed two others parents caring love much transferred smaller schoolchurch students high school next two years th th grade happiest years life remember met friends seemed genuine attractive slowly became way learned speak mind eloquently got amazing shape swimming surfing basketball turned started drinking fantastic time hanging beach talking pretty girls loved people taco kind love people youd happily spend rest life kind love became religious together moved back america kansas places kansas hot dry completely different culture closest beach texas everyone talked driving sports college every day driving sports college great topics moderation three years theyve started eat away point cant even enjoy watching basketball tv arrived zero clue drive something people didnt find cool started lying next people found knew next nothing college football basketball wasnt quite hip either started lying well first year started getting ruts negative thought spiral head leave depressed tired unable think positive thoughts embarrassed didnt even ask parents drive made queasy think felt couldnt real conversations anyone lies kept leading lies started lying without even thinking whenever someone ask question automatically answer coolest way possible began fear speaking people child id come home headaches everyday around people couldnt look counselors eye conversation parents without lying something pointless didnt join basketball diving team people find driving lies started skipping classes probably skipped attend depressed think attendance selfdestructing bursts charisma absolute apathy truth able keep parents finding reason even got accepted local college excellent act scoresupporting lazy colleges low standards skip forwards year recently dropped college freshman yearbig surprise chose political science honestly reason seems specific major smart person chose maybe average interest politics law first semester went okay last one literally gave class got failing grades five classescumulative gpa living parents unable drive pounds overweight although parents siblings acting often ask little year old sister drive work im suppose role model humiliating sister recently walked room caught masturbating work covered dirt nearly half asleep want move apartment something dollars name hope day got college goal try keep parents finding im closet loser little perspective father retired lieutenant colonel degree math business ut ou respectively works insurance agent makes bank daughter graduated gpa went trinityfollowing boyfriend gone many better schools played d womans basketball daughter gpa graduated senior year planning going school hoping study together daughter point guard high school varsity basketball team freshman year gpa drives car bought money even though offered one parents daughter near prodigylevel gymnast fluid portuguese english years old son pathologic liar barely passed high school due credit hour issues couldnt bother go class wasted year fathers gi bill need go community college able go big boy school watching waste life avid masturbator honestly dont think im suicidal sometimes think giving sounds appealing end still remembered fondly parents realize much disappointment answers quiz sociology find group changed almost questions without consulting work finding answers told group changed questions kept denying feel either upset embarrassed know guy knows guy knows guy knows guy knows guy knows guy knows lady knows guy knows stuck dick shampoo bottle post days old today post days old today post days old todaypost days old today post days old today days old today days old today least one stupid little pain therell hatred anymorei hate humanity hate part hate someone world bear much suffering theres free will theres fate hate bound im going break free itll painful thats way people miss probably wont miss anyone another world calling goodbye depression ya teacher f worst hate cus gave even new homework fullest strong feeling hates ya pls advice gains depression thx bad luckthis first post reddit ive many concussions resulting different sports bad luck cant really complain life pretty much straight building engineering large group friends family supportive loving good relationship girlfriend financially im ease thing keep getting head injuries worst ways possible got one months ago seventh oneafter period dark thoughts cause seemed never healing love sports anything even hang friends without getting headaches neck pain last week first time actually felt getting better much decided go pick nicking friends today arrived park go struck head frisbee dumb seems impact made lose consciousness finally got back apartment concussion symptoms back seems every time starts getting better everything goes back shit feel strength left go trough recovery university starts tomorrow im fucking scared able concentraee feel helpless im endless cycle shit goes bad time start seeing hope almost life wants sorry long post much anger rage sadness bottle vodka bottle painkillers ready deedmy boyfriend years broke today happy fuck happy depressed whole relationship abusive mean made feel worthless feel need keep trying make work life worth living without please help ive suicidal long time today trigger finally done music comp final took weeks lot fun make httpsyoutubedvpxuczeu tomorrow morning im taking drivers test im freakin nervous im good driver know nervous easily even day heart pounding please come spoon gear sing hey spoon dj misfit podcast come join live stream flunked semester twice went back pick things college town last year thinking best time finally end mind went blank kept sleeping hotel room time return flight back home lockdown jobless number suicidal stuck home god knows long wish done last year life doesnt fucking better life always gon na horrible pointless even older doesnt shit comes getting olderwhy keep living human life sufferingive suffering long remember meant suffer whats point even living matured fascination academy awards evolved intense interest casual amusement comments written bizarre results academy award voting often difficult explain omission cold blood one five best picture nominees one inexplicable instances especially one nominations year went wretched unwatchable dr dolittle insomniac masochist tune rex harrison disaster richard brooks powerful adaptation truman capotes nonfiction novel retains ability capture viewers attention leave completely drained final fade nothing particularly graphic gruesome screen film definitely adult material based nebraska multiple murder s filmed actual locations murders took place cold blood filmed master cinematographer conrad hall stark black white screen compositions demand seen correct widescreen aspect ratio together quincy joness unsettling score halls work credited title brooks screenplay three pillars intense classic built performances fine well scott wilson cold charm robert blake intense introversion two killers inside joke one point blake speaks bogart treasure sierra madre duo driving mexico child star blake sold lottery ticket bogart john huston film film book definitely slanted towards killers anticapital punishment tilt although remorselessness murderers somewhat negates sentiment despite difficulttowatch final scenes criticized film focus criminals backgrounds lives clutter family literally murdered cold blood middle night come across onedimensional characters little import lack balance comes book capote spent much time two killers death row clutter family apparently researched depth whatever feelings one may capital punishment cold blood leave mired deep conflicting thoughts run double bill dead man walking may speak days whats point mean know grand point personally whats point dont anything left fight forive grown much grief constant pain everyday theres nothing brings source happiness even contentment im incapable holding onto relationships mentally im plagued panic heavy heavy depression physically auto immune issues stomach problems add fatigue drained energy identity wise ive never felt comfortable skin dont really care im glad lot people one thing want thats great think guess doesnt exist wish doesnt ive always wanted one thing thing make life desirable worth fighting isnt part problem think used turn created horrid perpetual cycle grief internal pain dont want live anymore im grateful years ive ive made pretty far im exhausted maybe thats okay wish best dont plan im guessing time will im tired pushing feel better completely honest dont believe better real thing numbanyone feels really numb feel youre going motions every single fucking day kind quit gaming yes read right quit reasons pc crashes lot specs gb ram nvidia geforce gtx now pc lags bad af completely crashed know say buybuildupgrade pc spend huge amount money pc dad running temper looking activity pc bored wan na quit want productive waste sorry use gamers time gaming want grow life gaming kinda avoiding rocket league valorant csgo minecraft games deleting everything gtexcept minecraftlt refreshing mind mean never will games useless harmful play games people cant move gtill earn money buy nice psxboxlt im expressing encouraging quitting games wan na say life fucking life know n word bad look white black even american topic really big issue look watching much american entertainment content swear words kinda feel right reason nword seem bad thing maybe cause seeing black dudes say homies idk word exactly sounds bad talking among friends wow even better expected best animated astrix movie feels good hear roger carel voice astrix surely recommend everyone likes comic books astrix suggest go see french version cause surely best hear original cast know roger carel played astrix nearly forty years think marvelous job song cline dion end fits rally good end credits music good drawings good actors wonderful word masterpiece go see regret leave positive impact ending lifeall want life make others happy really hate though simply cant put living possible im thinking ending life really soon need thing im probably gon na spontaneously disappear every community im want everyones last memory positive one make sure last thing people hear something good think back theyll happy sad im gone ok america shit china wants reality ends harming american people china im gon na try make io game using webserver got ideas guys good ideas type game make running webserver fancy d graphics free award award edit award given stop flooding notifications im overwhelmed first nobody need help nobody loves cares try help internet sites quora gives answers triggers anxiety saying rely anyone love even nobody wtf bitch stfu wanted relatable answer make feel less alone made feel guilty depressed stopi cant stop thinking best friends redflag years keep examining everything pain mention matters even every thought done hell still dead ill still last weeks serious hell suicidal thoughts years never cuz scared honestly really think fearful death anymore rlly good support systems got kicked something dumb weeks ago facing homelessness soon uncle close unfortunately passed away mental health seriously declining pushed everyone away point anymore feel going worse worse want happening want anymore fuck exhausted nsfw guess see reason go tbh think time im currently years old think happyim currently years old know anymore life know anymore live within group pretty big friends around thing many friends really hard find close one find someone talk everyday fun everyday etc always wanted best friend best friend went japan although hes going return brazil november always wanted girlfriend really always wanted someone love make feel important make feel well terrible crush experiences past felt never girlfriend reason girl guess currently girlfriend months really cares loves makes feel one important person world even gave tons love letters gave shirt one picture frame us put bedroom pendant letter l names start l lot candies knows chocolates valentine guess still feel shit im insecure everything reasons doubt seen everything know bitch anything always problems cheating ending losing somehow guess call possessive really trying better really try cant fucking fail man worthy disrespect way suffered depression still led possessive girlfriend im scared cant stop possessive matter try even though obvious give really loves started go therapies taking medications although weak really help im weak skinny weigh around kg around pounds cant fatter metabolism really crazy matter much eat meal per day still hardly fatter cant grow muscle well give going gym leads next thing want chest motivation anything one day might sudden burst motivation something really good go gym previously said good something ie drums guitar sport competitive videogames start projects week lose motivation therapist said always used everything easy easy challenges appears getting good videogame learning guitar end giving years cant anything cant maintain routine cant mantain healthy lifestyle installed app remind drink water everyday hour rarely remember first weeks fine schedule give fuck anymore gave really affects grades highschool create routine study everyday well exams guess give hardest part cant help cant help try best lose motivation end losing sometimes redflag thoughts appear head end considering thing stopping devastated family girlfriend commit yes reviewers already stated may vintage lh far worst work th century stupidi mean fox film certainly basic ingredients things go wrong boys serious approach determination makes funny play laughs comedians might take work situation quite seriously essence eternal humor film faced basic issues really might encountered one us today namely job related stress first checked doctor prescribe much needed rest perhaps staying sea thats surrealness comes lh always take plausible set circumstances exaggerate never point incredible except maybe awhile makes us laugh relate self caused predicaments attempts extrication thats makes stan ollie universal appeal film ingredients presented delightfully artful gracefully slapstick way best comparison earlier work probably actual last film roach wanted mirror big studios go making features exclusively wanted hurry finish contractual obligation big mistake stayed together continued maybe five years world may missed considering option watch laugh enjoy last great performance giving upim point care anymore im twenties broke make cant live home situation toxic job rent greater paycheck license car commute work bus desperately want place want happy safe matter ill never im stupid good job one pays decent salary degree im skilled im competent enough cant take exceptions made mind wanting wan make parents sad starting seem care got till birthday homies smash passed titanic victims httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvssjxvezxvm anyone listen yun head songs pretty lit tho changed pfp bored one last post herepretty sure lost best friend redflag dont hear tonight im ending im sorry edit alive discord server server kingdom lizbania small growing server teens teens join kingdom please dm puzzle lifeits almost funny one even notices knows true feelings deep emotional breakdown im going im unable really express truly feel inside say wan na live seen bad overrated overreacted meaningless damn im really sick thing called life think soon ill gather courage selfish levels need kill feel inside building bulging odd feeling something wrong different previous times ive feeling similar stronger different stronger soon enough people regret trying connect earlier probably sooner later theyll find letter little piece ask omg see calm conscience needed need regrets tears blaming guilt certainly want die either cant keep going want pain stop literally make stop killing wish way rewind tape back lets say six years ago id say people die redflag foolish selfish ironically understand think nothing luck decisions take embody actions lead us closer closer appear happen us next puzzle puzzle life bring pieces together decisions actions inseparable theyre us follow rules puzzle life feel every single decision made life getting closer closer end im finding right now early days school closed isolated others followed aftermaths following way feel think acting accordingly slowly surely im led end edge hope bliss love real descending darkness inner self losing ability construct real point view constructing one real handle reality crushes way escape disappearing appearance disappearing suffering pain inevitable choice moment great despair notion choice deadly one see hear touch life empty thats now mouse ran across fucking counter trying grab honey fucker ran right behind scared shit outta im either gon na abundance cats idiot drive crazy trying care fuck hate mice corpses fans opposite fans try cancel every opportunity lol recently started rumor fucking dog think people used saying want drug deathhe said many times annoying used drug death im loosing itill turning months even tho im good place right well school good paying job im finally getting great shape feeling comfortable appearance depressed im bi known bi still closet kinda latino extremely old school family know id probably stoned death found longest time let insecurities self confidence issues better hating looked kept head went school without anything wild barely went parties never experimented anything never got girlfriend even tho girls flirt obviously never got boyfriend either matter bad wanted one stories tell boring year old virgin thing stopped offing telling keep pushing shape finally confident enough come closet maybe find someone years later im shape yea sure look still cant come day restaurant friends ridiculously hot waiter came table started flirt acted normal non interested left wtf wrong hate wasting best years life cause think good enough hate fucking disappointment want redo anyone bekieve reincarnation whatre chances die come back another gay kid time less issues higher ill take quickest less messy way go may coming bit dramatic stated everything thats wrong want start want overly anxiety multiple times ive go psychs either molested dad tried beat living shit kid cause bipolar explain watching one closest friends high school throat cut open helplessly watched bleed ambulances took forever come amongst plethora things judge fuck life til dont think actually helpi went psychiatrist didnt diagnosed straight told depression anxiety followed saying really suicidal im going put inpatient care make sure safe pretty much asked things looked made realize suicidal pretty much scared actually admitting want need help lied said plans future tell everyone cant even meds bc im shits going worse cant anything done bc sleep dont sleep cant anything done bc procrastinate cant even finish single load laundry start everything never finish im always deep back make friends never actually close im pretty sure accidentally lead people avoid friendship bc everything going weird awkward last year actually told two friends thought comfortable talking bc listen abt really suicidal beginning year changed better dont acknowledge talk essentially summarize said oh feel got used lying faking im thinking killing every waking moment crying sleep sleeping chance bc better way cope cant actually open person problems tldr talking psychiatristfriends made paranoid made lying norm im afraid actually getting help isolation constant need validation comfort etc things depression mixed redflag paranoia obsessive thoughts people living hpd makes pain handle living supposed reach parents think good enough rest judge stare call crazy genuinely feel id even pay someone give chance let hang weekend feel going go crazy years good run im ready go nervous breakdown park managers stealing peoples rent marking unpaid owe two months rent took cashim point saw manager douchebag spray tanned son literally jokingly hypothetically murder pair scissors killing im seething rage anger im ready die repost time flair thanks welcome back mods happened reddit past year shellnut excluding obvious stuff covid related posts protesting hey um ive coma using reddit bit whole year decided come back given way platform works might missed couple things yeet ok heres thing brush teeth spit toothpaste regularly wait end done brushing spit haves know expecting powerful filmmaking experience girlfight indie lowbudget bigname actors freshman director heard good goodbr br placed contemporary ethnic workingclass brooklyn karyn kusama done extraordinary job capturing daydoday struggles urban latinos diana protagonist seething anger lashes high school peers getting trouble school friends raised single father appears love brother applies strict sexbased double standard children fathers double standard illustrated fact tiny brother taking boxing lessons local gym diana denied similar pursuits errand gym meet tiny diana captivated boxing tiny boxing diana trade places gets money dad gives diana take lessons placebr br actually feelgood movie diana grows learns boxing meets guy addresses serious issues headon theres giggly everything go right go right resolution la bend beckham reality attendant personal issues big pat resolutions opinion girlfight better satisfying film hi fello peeps peepettes discord server friends trying new peoplee chat send memes play games minecraft among us overwatch stuff going commitment guys girls welcome dm link d male sniff sniff rips roof building mmm smell cabbage rips entire fridge devours contents damn ugly feel taking knife peeling face face better ugly faceugliness one reasons struggle suicidal ideation hate way look hate ancestors even say anything looks subjective positive thing buy people need face facts live fantasy looks looks beautiful beautiful ugly ugly positive negative good bad beautiful ugly amount positive propoganda motivational quotes examples many ugly people change watching gotham today scene jokers face stolen face face still better ugly face planned everything tested stuff see work actually scared decided tell long distance boyfriend break feel guilty online friend going block himi know sounds bad going easier forget way seem thoughi want die alone think asshole scared hurt lot really want end mental hospital worse dying fucking hell scared mute audio computer volume record zoom still record audio recording audio affected mute computer best friend lives hours train ride away often meet met years ago meeting online friends became friends remained contact past years became best friends basically speakplay games online daily basis know gf pretty well sometimes join play hangs us gf travelled city next mine meet best time long time even remember maybe best weekend life weekend eventually passed went home took bus home way home felt bit contributed tiredness got home took shower decided go sleep got really depressed felt sad sleep started cry really hit hard cried years awake crying time time know speak tomorrow work know meet future method cope ease pain live map train feel fucking stalker now want text know either sleeps good time want ruin depressed past years bad times past nothing feel sad depressed never happened prior occasion makes sense happening really depressed really good weekend friends everything feels shitim year old male suicidal told mom stepdad depressed laughed said wasnt ive told friends one thought said joke friends depressed help depressed turned got suicidal feel lonely think kill im school im eating etc almost never sleep hours per night makes tired school sleep class really good reason suicidal except hate way everyone lives wake go work paid go home eat sleep starts feel im dick towards everyone care anything anymore people annoyed negativity towards everything alive pain suffering ive almost stopped feeling emotions feel empathy towards people anymore animals school ive started pretending everything alright someone said emo something hard happy id kill nowstanding balcony trying pluck courage really venting posti live constant need end every day thats want write ive subscribing lot different subreddits recently found one ive reading snippets reading comments others guess want give collective heartfelt thank everyone subreddit really cool little virtual respite exists uncaring cold void world yeah post follow rules something guess none read problem sex girl school im shes didnt use protection need ideas parents dont know parents dont know wont talk im bot lost hello teens im officially teen know account thats year old fuck cares cant post images rteenagers hey wanted share achievement made sub cant upload image first post know pls help kinda habits killing mei think ive passive ideation life finally feel affects course im much pussy actually kill feel picking smoking drugs either kill snap whatever shit im understand impact life others god damn ready done entire life filled shitty circumstance bad luck maybe sign almost argentina want reach help doesnt feel righti dont know ill give backstory asked im panic attacks feel endthe end everything near dont humans want rid possessions house leave dont know id go talk people love swallow lot alprazolam pills mom medication keeps im low dose want go wait peacefully death want make people love suffer dont want cats see asleep never see keeping short need help help need guide someone help make decisions dont feel ok make im asking help tell professionals need know help im afraid tell people close im planning committing part wants end half desperately looking help thanks reading got ta honest dont even know ex actually broke lol laid todayas title says laid job today cant thoughts killing head know end world anything cant seem shake thoughts im filling unemploymentbrowsing jobs despite overall dislike amount stress caused pay much deserved plus feels positive thing going point life really reason posting wanted chest guess antidepressantsi hate antidepressants thing keeping killing anyone dont immature bitch piece advice selfcentered people universe doesnt revolve around karen matter say cant make saying something terrible acting okay youre theres ones fake depression always say stuff know depression right think im going go cut now mental health joke dont treat one edit includes people say didnt ask suicidal slightly homocidal help re uploaded try help hey sound edgy kid seeking attention please hear isnt im struggling suicidal homocidal thoughts wan na kill scared keep razor gon na kill live guns almost impossible thank god ive wanted hurt others go hurt others wrists slit first acceptable venti see thousands people complaining venting lgbt people check privilege tfw gf granny died absolute instant barely mention even think mentioning diagnosed schizophrenia borderline autism psychomotory retardation tachicardia born never knew late suddenly everyone wants head ruby plate straight attempt murder become feral something feels im walking dead ok vent even legal point im now healed treated fixed cant anymore feel existence mistake cause nothing grief destruction thicc bois hmu uppercut thicc booty someone please help im seriously overwhelmed daydream jumping front train extreme school stress procrastinating everything stress friends went lots trauma past feeling confused certain things slow processing difficulty expressing specific thoughts dull pressure frontal sinus accept parents never accept youmy mother probably one invalidating human beings ive met first asked see therapist told work make stop feeling sad first found cuts yelled attempted got angry told selfish never understand people say stay moms anything reason couldnt anymore shes catalyst many problems everytime even mention depression ask set appointment psychiatrist asks really need sad youre happy youre around us doesnt even notice wear hoodies summer hide cuts isolate day cant even eat shell ask dont leave house mad ive accepted never truly care never validate never need im gon na go listen mitski dog keeps staring bro ur allowed couch stop staring whimpering pls titlei feel worthless discernible live directions goals family hates money shitty paying jobs mother tried kick day barely left room dont know im going ive laying bed wishing end deep know never im spineless always feel broken never repaired im lazy cant anything right always fuck everything im disgusting want end im tired feeling every day pretending everything fine im tired happygolucky friend thats truly despise feelings anxiety worthlessness go away feel never ending cycle wont able break away want go away reaching outi suppose ill start saying past days unbearable ive never felt lost scares know go ill able start feeling anything besides cold im uncomfortable sharing many personal details open anyone time spare id grateful someone message picky ideal lgbt got list mental physical issues deal really fun sometimes gets feel really alone ex family great ex made feel loved cared miss much even though broke roughly year ago point wish someone loved cared least look back say one point feel sad alone definition great movie want continue see movie reason strikes cord even though scenes scott glenn still make winch watch love music whatever good enough im years old im constantly feeling never meeting anyones expectations everyone always wants even everything possible power something best ability always oh well good wrong differently throughout school coasted whole way always told incredibly smart gifted never tried except came computers ive loved computers started using escape real world turned mom stepfather always incredibly restrictive usage electronics always wanted less always wanted away life hated much never really stable home parents got divorced mom remarried still married biggest asshole ive met life sad remarried twice single now ive never really stable home parents got divorced ive moved around lot even kept count went different schools years regular schooling result never made friends feel worthless job dad successfully started company im told grandfather works underperform everything need away electronics something productive time see point going anymore feel one cares focuses wrong live life standards whole thought process stemmed argument grandfather live temporarily basically tried run car walking home reasoning trying teach lesson hear going around listening music time wtfff cant believe found search meme templates memeatic basically long blogpost think ive got pretty good reasons see think otherwiseim end line folks although hear lads say personally think ive done good job making long blogpost explanation bit top usual cocktail anxiety depression substance abuse chemically addicted thing prescribed fact dropped school highschool freshman amp elongated social interaction bout years job doesnt count ive chronic disease baby ibd turned crohns disease large intestine removed amp ulcers kept popping replacement small intestine two choices first option connected jpouch w pouchitis little remission relative people jpouches ive developed antibodies hardhitting immunosuppressants ie remicade pumped full stuff kid im likely die extreme pain sometime ss meds stop working regardless meaning constant diarrhea constantly shitting bed night nearconstant internal pain amp constant fear stricture complications leading extreme pain option ostomy amp ostomy bag due fact scar indent inch deep amp inches long abdomen dozen surgeries child bag leaks constantly without ton extra adhesive thus put adhesive leading x diameter circle basically painful fungus infection thats especially raw thanks acidic nature shit antifungal things hamper never notpainful turn leads extreme pain upon taking shower touching applying new bag b pain bend wrong goddamn direction sleep angle slight lean right yes issue brought wound care nurses well relevant doctor cant anything right now due stricture im stuck ostomy without active intervention monthly endoscopies balloon dilation area intestinal fluid pool said stricture eventually leading internal expansion amp thus mindrending pain speaking experience due covid operations stopped guess halfyear absolutely negative desire condition passed onto kid point ive informed parents intentions yes course theyve tried help appreciate efforts despite futile point believe keeping alive sake others lack better word phrase simply worth ampxb relevant bit think obvious anyone anxiety little social interaction constant fucking pain nearly every second day multiple addictions due aforementioned things tends make man suicidal id prolly psychologists fucking field day ive picked nice area woods although near road first responders go much effort plan call killing order streamline things despite possible risk main thing yet decide upon whether go head unfortunately meaning none family members want keep rifle mm head unlikely possible become vegetable rather dying exit baghave wait materials cant transported car higher risk failure two things yet decide upon know whether drive place question walk driving mean family trouble getting car back walking might cops called ass decide head impossible decide exit bag itd give much time back another thing ive drafted redflag letter family amp ive planned short post chat servers frequent im still trying think something give first responders either means apology something make laugh either sorry mess letter joke something maybe less id appreciate opinions question regarding leave first responders needed lot stuff chest maybe cry help maybe random ramblingsi sure post may considered cry help open post emotions even arbitrary chaotic writing dumb person know frankly care dwelled sorry life long time thought pen thoughts still feel something pour heart want say verge killing least want think delusions life worst life universe objective enough know people worse circumstances dealing said standing crossroads failure lack motivation anything feel desire keep living life often contemplated die often wished life end accident enough rambling want pen life think anyone world knows true family included positive lied every person know certain point life told close friend person wearing mask mask every occasion behind mask masks hide truly wearing enough masks forgotten lost lie life point tried struggling slugging forward tried living life future tried living life one day time end didnt matter either way trainwreck life still trainwreck personal life shambles social life nonexistent professional life collision course towards freight train coming full speed idea even feel emotionally now wonder bad things firstly transgendered individual thirdworld country studying us lgbt rights country nonexistent possible way transition future finishing studies finding job us another firstworld country tell anyone tg pretty much means lose assistantship shoot chances career field thus living lie life past x years lied colleagues roommate friends lied try fit people lied drive people away dont think anyone know really top gain age slowly become harder transition another time bomb ticking away tried preparing transitioning taking unsupervised hormone therapy electrolysis well though help bit still hate look whenever look mirror anytime extremely stupid decision taking hormones without doctoral supervision lead medical complications social level due driven friends away pretty much living life recluse top slowly become emotionally detached almost everything life find little joy sorrow things happening life lied friends hide tg self lied top lies found scared even try start romantic relations life generally messed scared rejection life professional level heading towards failure xth year graduate studies even though funding dry much stress finish work still seems uphill battle top figured past months looking job job market bad find reasonable job sick trying doesnt seem enough work done degree job student visa expires doesnt help people always high expectations dont know tired failing stress taken toll physical lifestyle well gone fit active person someone totally outofshape developed terrible eating sleeping habits feeds desire nothing throughout day big struggle bed everyday morning wish day ends asap almost always given considering real goals life cant justify purpose life anymore sick trying meet failure anywhere everywhere tired fighting uphill battle every avenue life often felt past months existed doubt existence worth anyone worth anyone suicidal thoughts infrequently last months tired life want spend next years repeating wake something sleep routine frankly little desire living know consequences taking life people genuinely care likely looking help doubt anyone position help really think needed chest weighing heavily long time hopefully pull things work well least tried someone take time read whole thing really thank taking time read ramblings someone probably never meet long thanks fish think worth try reach tiny amount happinessi cant anything im tired trying make failing im going school job cant things anxietys bad want supported mom entire life im fucking useless seeing everyone good fun makes feel shit wan na draw try cant shit cant things want cant write program video edit make music see people around make feel horrible top success people cant happiness never will assuming anxiety find sucess something im good never enjoy things way people everyone sex drugs drink im interested things wan na interested cause people ive looked seems theyve much want want bad im scared idealistic think reach amount happiness others even eventually better potential shit even reaching happy think want relationships want friends girlfriend able talk people long keep getting worse seeing interact fun makes feel cause cant feel worse cause im getting upset peoples happiness think im bad person thinking see point trying make life happiness amount happiness reach little especially go pain long little amount happiness garunteed know want grow im go th grade live known last year middle school already plans future career ive talked parents college plans funding getting job renting place end getting brushed youve still got time youll change mind frustrating make decision want clear view im gon na grow gon na time end running time older cousin gon na go th grade year doesnt even know wants says time confusing yall want sugar daddy okay asking friend anyway silence thoughtspretty consistently find hardly hearing listening people find wanting die almost time warn people involuntarily awful everyone leaves eventually find narrating thoughts life others talking dont know maybe alone im fuck remain present anymore think negatives practice dbt doesnt help yesterday want noooooo avoid getting age fellas gay sit toilet dick touches ceramic bowl checking hotel itthis question told someone close friend checking hotel end life able police find hotel words hotel obligated tell police occupant name obviously want able find want know arrived crime scene inspected victims body signs struggle slash marks lower chest searched nearby dumpsters recovered meat cleaver blood staining followed suspects footprints road witnesses claim suspect boarded taxi realise watch broken dont want add pain worldbasically m dont want live anymore one assume guess im subreddit short version ive onandoff depression suicidal tendencies past years life hasnt easy either dad severe ptsd physical disabilities mom works double fulltime job watch youngest siblings pretty much guess say family kind dysfunctional oh homeschooled havent done practically substantive coursework two years now technically graduate high school soon dont think show mom anything put portfolio honestly dont care im tired everything im passionate major career path ive looked im ready college anyway lmao im remarkably talented enjoy ive experiences homelife im attractive every instance ive tried making something last boy ended disaster really dont want alive anymore time know fact lot people whod pretty fucked killed really dont want add pain world especially dont want burden little brothers sisters time tear apart lot see give throw life away inevitably will dont know hurt worse come watch stream zelda breathe wild twitchtvbarfequieshttpstwitchtvbarfequies life anymore everyone know amazing well friends leave everything fun treat child gf happy giving everything give nothing keep happy enjoy used love afraid runaway think suicide much seems option take think many people know really care anyway flag big thing america australia nearly common see government buildings souvenir shops hardly see private property even government buildings usually front flag pole thats one society brainwashed blinded accept genital mutilation babies genital mutilation legal every single country world known circumcision baby boys condemn circumcision baby girls call fgm whereas blatantly accept boys st century humans rights havent even established men women given right vote fgm banned decades ago yet boys opening genitally mutilated reasons circumcision barbaric cruel procedure cut pierce babys natural genitals knives scissors crosses limits humanityethics circumcision absolute violation human rights violation babys body arent consenting cruel surgery permanently alters body life talk consent abortion sex im pretty sure cutting genitals violates choice foreskin natural fully functional part penis contains blood vessels nerve endings sensory neurones circumcision decreases sensitivity destroys natural function penis foreskin acts natural lubricant protective layer fact women equivalent foreskin clitoris hood considering cutting female foreskin fgm male foreskin circumcision genital mutilation main points tik tok weird hello downloaded tik tok last week ask see chose comedy first says ok says saw people thinking funny drive people protest girls around age pretending raptors read right raptors girls talking needing men reproduce flat earthers choose comedy saw wtf might corona work butcher grocery story one people work never wears mask confirmed corona woke morning killer headachecough really bad chest pain ive currently locked room fear infecting family fun homies teen boy crush girl rejected cried hours straight anything love much rejected dont know make perfect cute ugly photo httpsibbcoffwltb photo httpsibbcovxskvq went see vanilla sky huge huge hugetom cruise fan extremely cynical brother girlfriend say totally blown away movie especially tcs performance thought moving film expectingbr br read reviews decided go see pleased coerced seeing strange thing say say found totally involving stop thinking next day felt film say storyline fantasy psychodrama whatever people events shape life small events getting car change everythingbr br critics wrote yes maybe original stunning nd film alejandro amenbar totally different interpretation subject means narcissistic remake benefit tom cruise penelope cruzbr br even consider writing couple trite glib sentences describe film go see itbr br yes know balanced thoughtful review kind film today birthday im now legally stay anyway im looking girls around years old hmu horrible mental episodebreakdown yesterday im shit deserve livei stressed easily especially social situations let emotions take control go crazy hate world much took pickaxe construction site started smashing breaking things screaming crying got arrested almost got tazed carrying deadly weapon know whats wrong stuff know cope sometimes feel shit nobody deal nobody understand cant wait end need man fuck stop coward tie rope around neck suffering need serious help seem available matter hard try im crazy alcoholic piece shit thats going till end death thing comfort im really cut world well sucks moms fleetwood mack record theres scratch middle song secondhand news makes replay spot repeatedly sucks talking optionsi want say im imminent danger right now im bed thoughts feelings week longer actually started hurting releases pain inside struggle deal often think dying die less painful easier found quicker walking car seems unfair driver painkillers cliche well thats meant painful done properly thought irreversible damage changing mind seems daunting think hanging seems safe option falling height hitting concrete little hardcore ive suffering depression anxiety years started take medication kept telling okay things go away moods change ill begin met someone covid lockdown hit things good beginning things took turn became suspicious paranoid feeling lead feeling insecure good enough pleaded hindsight listened pregnant now im happy baby mine clear things although thoughts feelings never really went away started unbelievably cunt details past months hardest feel cunt never put stress im facing court charge spoke solicitor im probably facing prison time baby getting signed name father together anymore reasons caused personal reasons cant really contest hurts motherfucker im damned im made example courts ive genuinely enough bullshit life im living hearing lame excuses tomorrow another day think family well thats made mind lost job soon months pay gone one nice blow litres vodka later ill swinging balcony bauble wind want plenty reason children feel selfish leaving behind fatherless see much bothers ill going away new year ive kind thing follows go unborns mother currently custody battle child charges hinder chances getting result wants child stay alive ill go bullshit centers seeing baby months maybe years assessed im bad person danger child said something really shitty intoxicated really fucked things anything quiet poetic choice end life kind last sorry die battle things pinned ill longer issue courts eyes thats something ill happily go thinking plan yet want enjoy freedom now see things plan change close incarceration ill put actions motion really know anyone say reading make difference doubt im fed living shit hole flat heating middle winter ive turned drink im big drug taker dabble bit green mainly sleeping medication doctor really help feel neither anxiety stuffs amazing really slows heart rate wonder take quiet alcohol itll stop heart sleep know ill google one might strong enough peaceful ill leave note shell one kids dad ill probably post heartfelt status facebook memoir fakebookers life good take right choices ive really screwed mine theres going back teenagers reddit life currently mods please mercifully banish goes rule potentially mandatory teenager m curious must teenager world right now already believe experience short ago vastly different main reason want always keep change mistake many generations parents made assumed much us based lives s s etc way society advancing things exist even im saying age someone years younger crazy stage happy pressures worries ok last post fairly good tuesday felt amazing got ball python name chad slithers hes amazing cute aslo amazing much better therapy helping lot think suicide feeling really good things rn love feeling better someone please talk meeveryone hates feel already dead help whole world shit hole one cares hyperventilating somebody please tell care seriously believe die soon bite every post open ton bite comments someone explain pls need help english hw usually need help questions fucking hard least know answer pls help stranger need gave every apologize opportunity possibility way means hes always time got office now will might may procedure apply person normal ordinary plain regular ps english second language mean ok college teacher larry donner billy cristal blocked writer former wife margareth kate mulgrew ruined stealing novel became bestseller hide hatred margareth upsetting girlfriend beth ryan kim greist anthropologist teacher college giving classes creative writing stalked student owen danny devito wants know opinion crime tale larry tells explains every mystery tale murderer eliminate motive establish alibi caught larry suggests owen watch hitchcocks movies understand structure suspenseful story owen wants kill detestable mother anne ramsey watches strangers train misunderstands larrys advice believing teacher wants swap murders eliminate motive owen travels hawaii ship margareth falls overboard vanishing sea considered dead larry alibi becomes prime suspect deranged owen presses kill mother part supposed dealbr br throw momma train one funniest comedies s great tribute alfred hitchcock direct reference strangers train jokes vertigo spinning camera family plot car without breaks movies lines excellent interesting point larry tells every great romance mystery train anne ramsey amazing role nasty abusive dominating mother viewer certainly feel sorrow understand insanity owen kim greist beautiful kate mulgrew perfect bitch billy cristal performs obsessed character many silly unreasonable attitudes necessary plot vote sevenbr br title brazil jogue mame trem throw momma train losing willi want suffer alone silence anymore pcp left therapist left friends left family noninvolved sick feeling guilty wishing dead want anymore want tolerate pain wish easy way idk needs hear go bed thinking tying something around neck bedthis seems peaceful way go honestly actually hanging seems painful shooting gruesome someone find body laying bed air conditioner watching tv slowly going unconscious seems almost peaceful year old loser going kill drunk die eoke yesterday even though wanted sleep poped stuff hope wont wake help idk take frustration anger guys frustrated please tell still care whenever bf gone today went nyc family hes target phone dying didnt even tell sister spamming vids said instead letting know knows excessively sad goes mia hours without notice hes still home yet wish hed cares always ends makes feel better hes taken shower back room call everynight heart still settled hes favorite person atm makes sad almost everyday consider leaving makes thoat tight eyes water even consider im worried wont able stable anyone love j wish give attention care maybe problem im attached clingy please helpcan someone please tell live regret much things ill never able take back badly hurt ill never go back ignorant people really believe really drama queen thought know put stupid situation know said wrong things still thought someone help told hurt long ago humiliation comes back waves plan nnn november starts hours im gon na nut nonstop dont nut left buy time nut regenerates ill already enough willpower fap checkmate thought killing myselfso posted multipul times really want kill really everyday shit gets worse either way going say im now graduated highschool thinking really wanted kill back didnt thought things better today another interview went nowhere thought kill years ago nothing experienced regret getting experience except maybe good video games lol said years nothing good worth noting thats past years school even worse bullying ontop faliure tell ok head cliff near house want fucking bad said mom still live isnt world sposed somewhat even arnt supposed good bad bad bad bad bad bad prescribed something overdose guarantee death today im worried ill itim terrified ill swallow whole bottle moment despair subject loved ones seizures death drawn week thanks covid mental health help easy family going issues share need hearing mine right want redflag depressed past present future feel empty hollow self hmed days ago want know going make worse trying figure sexually assaulted kid remember confusing hate much feel anyone talk want hug ill probably cry one thinking texting crisis line depressed need help never loved life wish someone feel lonely worthless always end crying sleep wonder feels loved people gecs sounds someone stroke trying make song number day big day guys first milestone day im trying change life really worth iti fucking hate everything cant deal im becoming asshole lashing family dont job despite applying going interviews didnt go college im dumb fuck cant remember anything barely graduated high school want fucking give often imagine dying tragic way family wont burdened cause death ive always wanted fight maybe beaten senseless maybe someone murder hit car ive often thought running away jumping death want feel pain die dan katzir produced wonderful film takes us rollercoaster ride real romance set troubles surrounding modern israelbr br anyone whos love film brings back uncertainties insecurities heartache make love bittersweet atmosphere fear isolation came difficult times israel time serve intensify feeling instantly drawn dans plight cant fail deeply movedbr br cant write drama passion contrast realities dans desperate snatched relationship iris realities state turmoil make eminently watchable ounce passion love see film guys help im slipping recently got among us realized im scrolling reddit less often please dont let leave see posts people sad want end lives makes feel even lonelier want die even fuck thoughts debilitatingim sleeping time now maybe hours day want anymore life cant take want japanses trees pretty school tree starting grow white flowers looks trees japan pink im sure probably wanted share ahaha might suffocate ahahaha last six months costicted throat hard breathe moments asthma symptoms read im afraid tell parents cuz doctor set coronavirus restrictions im really careful corona anyways government controls real bad system counrty really badly done send pics police taken home every minutes im patient instead weeks ill corona knows end choose tell ahaha cant meds way ahahaha help cant anymorei know im point return depression gets worse everyday even real reason hit one day everything fell apart thought rebuild think anymore think ive made peace end pointless suffering know im even bothering write maybe kind survival instinct maybe want leave note kind either way im gone seen movie number times find compelling sad lack real emotion characters disturbing seem empty hopeless story based real eventbr br teenage girl murdered boyfriend obvious reason apparently felt boasts friends believe takes view body number times one reports murder two strong leads keanu reeves crispen glover crispen glovers character seriously annoyingbr br keanus character matt appears one sense right wrong keanu best flawless performance believable anyone thinks man cant act watch movie matts little brother almost disturbing character movie twelve compassion love factor life sad think kids really makes grateful want kill spitejust make family friends angry upset care temporary want suffer ive already written redflag note movie needs come dvd cause thats way buy thought soo funny real plot suppose oscar winning film appreciate films cary elwes cute robin hood cant even think favorite part movie pretty good anyways peace went jack th time today decided im tired horny hell gets accomplished jack feel good seconds feel hollow much dick hurts ache holy shit didnt caught update last im living room wondering didnt kidnapped caught nice doe one besides cars passing yee yee ass haircut makes feel comfortable ngl head feels lighter small price bitches dick never anyway lot justifications kill myselffear death im afraid death want kill gets first revenge hurt betrayed everyone id kill make feel way made feel betrayed abandoned trapped believe say life nothing want escape truth reality us coronavirus day coronavirus test officially came positive struggling breathe day congestion head nose felt stuffy head feels heavy still cant smell anything crashed car days ago im depressed got license midaugust sucks go without crashing car two months anyways stop sign neighborhood turned right looking behind mirror dark outside see much reached dome light think called quote next thing knew heard loud noise airbags deployed subaru service automatically getting called shellshocked idea happened fast got see mailbox made rock completely leveled bottom front car broken minutes later dude whos mailbox broke came garage driving car immediately stopped saw mailbox got car explained happened called parents adhd tend panic often came instantly house literally one block explained happened police came well subaru service alerted guess officer asked obvious showed asked guy wanted put ticket license said man going pick pizza dominos mom dad helped shovel remains mailbox able leave completely blocked driveway told family name towing service left mom came back pizza called towing company told us wait minutes mom left dad waited came towed subaru im left car rural illinois university miles away tho small village dq mcdonalds subway jj arbys know parents leaving house much stranded home im picky eater know family brings food supposed poll worker cant without car tldr illinois teen crashes car mailbox cant drive next month rural area ps fine airbag gave bad scratch back left hand im good physically mentally whole nother story feel reason liveim unemployed mentally ill facing criminal charges borderline broke im verge ending career prospects ruined now way hole im alonei one matter try still one one care died ibe gotten point even tried kill im pretty sure id faili going kill tonight hope school everyday thought youll good everything want end life obviously pointless im sure way certainly die risk taker dont know parents wont take seriously friends try help cant care lazy trying restart life years life shittier excercised dieted got hobbies gone therapy things drones constantly drone forums insipid generic platitude never succeeded always failed time stepped face dirt believe zero self esteem kid nothin proud horrible hand eye coordination always picked last sports ooor academic performance socially clueless hate despise everyone want go msss shooting massacre bunch retards feel terror pani maybe cathartic lucky able gun license poisonously envious anyone something want intimate notredflag friendships money degree independence respect charisma beauty youth one things best feign indifference pretend happy tlothers longer wish worst care fairness care earned thing deserve deterministic universe repeat love horribly injure ruin peoples lives deserve cathartic especially love stab every cunt yttered phrase pull bootstraps normie fucktardstion interested fitting society want every single person die come afterwards ah antnatalist paradise done fighting want end hopefully tomorrow better idk much take every seconds patrick rochei hope listen poem poem patrick roche happy new year goodbyewelp another year alone im even going lie say maybe ill find love im gon na end life simple chillin thinking steven universe x baki crossover au anyone wants ask suggest details even major plot points even tell better subreddit post feel free put even dm dear lord someone help ive dug whole dont know oh god sorry long text really school thing called remind basically sign different teachers automatic text messages saying stuff dont forget project due tomorrow things today hanging friend got one saying teachers name birthday tomorrow animal print show love specify science teacher telling us wish social studies teacher happy birthday least wasnt teachers birthday thought bot sending messages teachers couldnt see text back last year accidentally texted one back came automatic message saying messaging back disabled something assumed teachers messaged back friend stupid got text back saying okay science teacher saw text messaged back saying dont animal print sorry realize sounds snotty didnt mean see teacher tomorrow dont know whether kill kill self someone tell hole ive dug iti fucking tried many times hang felt time vision getting dark sounds becoming surreal head getting heavy getting back toes grasping air hating want die cant live fucking hate coward let go die already im readyi borderline personality disorder everyday terrible war rages mind heart simply surpassed able cope rifle need one bullet cant even muster energy find one wonder hurts cant visualize scenario end ending life sooni picked lot kid home everyone school id fight back suspended blamed home merely defending around dad beat living shit nothing ive reliving every bad thing happened mind approached folks depression desire kill responded amusement arrogance ive never stopped fantasizing killing anyone crossed life despite successful tour navy thought feelings behind went home start school now years tour odd credits great gpa year ive dropped classes despite repeatedly trying back top gear wonderboy living hell middle year roommate guy twice age tried moving couple lbs pot across country got caught took rap bailed paid lawyer lingers pretrial limbo tried love weed moral issue selling worlds best drug profits enough live course fact wonder fucking stupid gi bill enough live im desperate job cant find anything least seasonal work fedex afternoon im going longest knife drive chest bleed rio grande someone finds body ive tried treating depression ptsd iraq war shipboard experiences involving fire total mental breakdown last december fact pretty much every year time getting really hate talking clinical types say fucking things drugs perscribe ive tried zoloft prozac make feel im dying im far old friends ive reconciled little folks live part country frankly little late stick buddy took rap hes person outside service anything opposed talk mom hearing voice nails chalkboard hearing opinions life makes want grab neck slam head wall remembering acted needed listen back day im sick matter good im theres still endless spinning conflict people even head ill screaming arguments fights inside mind minutes hours catch try remember things really bad even pretended make connection people result feel never longterm relationship girl hard im good boyfriend general aspects cant keep long one person course time spend someone novelty wears become distant strange leave hurt anyone ive tried finding work feel alien everywhere go every trip hunt job uses gas money food money way getting back severely reduce gi bill comes final time end month ill enough maybe help rent bills nothing left anything job im going strength keep going much want die free feelings constantly struggling everything im asked either getting nothing losing head ruining opportunity dropped every single class semester girl nearly ran highway flipped chased way campus full intention strangling death try tell many people worse many people either never ability ive done service people born die trapped one spot either moment lifetime still cant feeling wanting kill want help want die biggest disappointment right theres nonviolent way meds use gun quick easy kill im pretty set either hanging tree wilderness knife thing far enough desert one able help bleed death want die house rather die nature talk vet center therapist little different actual va guys gals even vet center contact kind broken record none therapy fixes problems beginning next month become considerably worse much debt looking horizon thinking ok ive got going work hard keep ok soon never happens everything gets worse either circumstance seeming desire fail end worthless mouthful ill end wanted chest glimmers feeling bad sometimes im absolutely certain sometime next year im going end lived life least travel world experience really worst thing light pain im feeling rather die child risk putting himher anything went ive miserable long rememberim almost thirty goddamned tired living sad scared lonely miserable reference point peaceful content life trying imagine completely new color hold past crisis thats whole damned life im tired surviving crisis crisis never getting feel real human fuck human tried getting smarter getting kinder making useful enough never enough point straightup cruel string person along vague promises one day feeling pain know whatll stop pain one responsible hell responsible responsibility take care unless someone going step im one decides looks know understand done little kid whole goddamned world denied itll always denied ill always feel ive never felt different yet held almost three decades dream cant even see im damned tired want end one person one person whole damned life genuinely cared helped died completely unexpectedly know ill never meet anyone one sliver goodness world gone never deserved m partner f undiagnosed redflag least think whatever taken toll ruined romantic notredflag rearing ugly head trying place blame redflag need iti obsessively checking partners location using find even know work home sisters etc occurred recently said always worries past partners go night hang friends drinks overwhelming feeling going find someone better bring home unfaithful thought makes stomach turn want able tell likely head think help current partner bipolar manic episodes sex drive elevated scares even needs scratch itch around mad back deep rabbit hole pile crap works retail office job several hours every night try keep busy imagine sneaking work someone speaking work fairly new job management position already talking moving new store possibly state next step career wise years got obligations make challenging pack move new state happens lately felt willing drop sack potatoes offer come upits recurring argument never time us always workjust present call every day even days taxing say least talked recently came priorities order career career relationship mine relationship careers feels willing compromise asked multiple times willing always know plan yet want give future want considered thinks future seem crazy right icing cake developed little bit weed addiction problem work uncle sam act child high try try chill everyone high time feel worry everything elseso yeah act child high rest time hold everything together sweet sweet release know point rant confession rant want heard validated maybe look outsideask questions clarification want feel redflag ruining life feeling lostthis probably end rant think need thoughts mostly maybe someone respond something provide insight story maybe putting help understand depression anxiety long remember knew either one remember first panic attack still young enough elementary school people made uncomfortable everything still really sometime middle school think depression really began take form wanted hurt pushed pencils skin tried cut protractor plastic though told one times showed signs mind addressed shortly never brought even thought redflag lot remember begin really cutting point control took away anxiety sadness felt good even great became regular exercise long time almost daily always one see times somewhere elsei guess wanted help none came parents saw got trouble think around told depression wishing wake every day respond well understand must hard kid tell time never brought found hard find joy happiness anything pretty detached world played video games keep occupied lived country one really around one ways forget everything started working anxiety became worse panicked states every shift dreading every time go one thing found joy significant feeling someone work hard future worth building thing made feel happy know supposed rely others happiness never happy guess bad luck well cheaters liars sometimes someone moving away hurt every time lose happiness one apologize another depression tell happy thankful nice helpful someone together three years outside depressed pitfalls always seemed look learned lot stronger thought gained self worth last much strain made us little patience one another old wounds heal felt best go separate ways good terms guess still talk time time met someone really great ended go details one ended left hollow ive couple years ago now things progressed wonder still worth feel life nothing uphill battle fighting months years grief pain mere moments happiness incredibly crushing look around wonder anyone really happy idea happiness child even possible always managed handle things never taken medication gone therapy late things taken dark turn mind usual almost obsessed levels suicidal thoughts sure something sure wanted went therapy session available free work gave general tips picked told needed something long term suicidal thoughts left yet think almost non stop years without cutting frustrated current love interest distant seemed uninterested combined bad day work depressed state turned anger unable find razor became frustrated dull blades available something never took pills plan dying sure enough want feel anything anymore enough feel pretty messed though took went bed time side note rarely drink drunk twice life never smoke woke ten hours later surprised effects worn yet shakey sweating dizzy time work againpart wish woken went car stop end driveway throw made work people commented pale kept throwing going home fine within next day though despite happened feel less desire end things worried thought making regrets didnt happens happens still stuck even guess losti overwhelming desire die want hurt anymore feel hopeless worthless feel continuing exist worth trouble think hard happy maybe im weak feel meaningful connections people hurt killed know main reason know alternative even want try want happy im sure even possible know cant keep going know find way happy ill finish things sooner later friends seem understand tell feel guilty burden everything want go parents never close trust judgement understanding professional help hard convince go talking someone possible medical bills admitted deemed hazardous myselfit seems make things stressful worth getting help even want help thought leaving taking savings going without word anyone know go happen scares feel anything mistake im trapped life misery despite friends family feel alone cared loved guess thats significant makes happy guess thats wrong cant find anything anything content unrealistic guess want much know live clear path seems redflag one know outcome far looks better option thoughts pm figure dead month half anyone realize happened work notice probably think decided stop coming one look past text message think rent far enough behind think finally open place every time try opening someone feel finally connection realize really care realize alone really hate world hate nothing trudging forward hoping things better every day filled pain loneliness heartache terrible everyone seems people accept fact move cant accept cant continue enduring weeks months bitter existence hopes meager fleeting happiness living dying inside day day hi guys um know post today ampxb um ampxb uh ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb bet expect spanish inquisition ampxb one expects spanish inquisition screenplay due go back school wont live longi dont care anymore dont care anything anymore want kill plan want slit wrists open longer longer burden anyone dont matter make people mad im worthless im going kill agtb text post wknds b image post turn fucking polls moderators fiend pretty severe depression sum fast hes depressed onoff long time months ago attempted suicide went hospital therapy sessions month work fight doctor pills tonight hes revealed pills work thought still depressed tries best silence suicidal thoughts still even though says pills make fuzzy personally ocd suffered depressive stint years ago even mental health journey giving tips finding hope believe hes catching seeing reason try know tell help anymore anybody suggestions maybe next please let know need help friend day without gf yep continuing want outive dealt depression suicidal thoughts years seriousness reason havent killed yet mom reason left stay dumb ass something really bad back found said best parentchild relationship requires trust lost put shit years think last straw dont see point going forward anymore especially mother despises now even happen went hospitalim beyond depressed ive thought thousand different ways end consequences come genuinely sincerely believe nay know everyone life better without im urged go emergency room people care blind see care lets say ill humor hospital tell sucks call redflag hotline certainly care explain stranger say generic usual life worth living bullshit please really dont want generic crap people either want know er us show tell im suicidal goodnight everyone hope good day something bad happened sleep sleep good dream good things make things target something thought je wholesome turned waffle anyway love especially harry idk anyone called harry whatever night night cope feelingim weeks pregnant beautiful kids home loving husband good job although stressful mind much years ive struggled depression anxiety panic attacks good last years thanks medication ive taking today small argument husband rare hardly argue raised voice saying something nobody likes broke able stop crying ive cutting obvious summer means ill wear jacket everywhere now done awhile im scarred doctor put mental facility see husband talking im crying arm hurts cuts want die feel years past coming back feeling need hurt cope pain way cope guys deal life suckslike lot ive thought lot ending never able though life constant struggle wish button end click die abusive parents one biggest reasons today always wanted best never really loved shouted screamed criticizedmaybe im problem nothing disappointment useless creature one give shit cant stop pity cant stop crying cant anything good anyone ways end simple painless possible considering redflag tonightdont know put im depressed im selfish one asshole calls memom made marry chester va gave virginity gave herpes quick minute ceremony lawyers office honeymoon took place sheraton midlothian tnpk specialuntil said took gfs year later moved grandma save money house point proud owners ford festiva month worked local ford dealership needless say couldnt move apartment full furniture micromachine car bought f month move gmas went see cousins baby gma got mad went drinking drove home train tracks two daughters living basement motorcycles boat bronco years got hell second apartment got job cleaning houses bought something mustang moved trailer bought new mustang moved times got job driving school bus went college inbetween moved mother attend nursing school full time big mistake quit went respiratory school moved east coast va bought bigger boat chesapeake bayrappahannock river tried several times buy house turn turn one point nursing school wanted volunteer resque squad wouldnt allow around menat night worked hospital full men things done confused patients room woooo guess got fired found job working nigh guessed effing hypocrit daughter turned holy terror didnt listen came went wanted kids take care night put shit trash brought home didnt listen either begged husband quit job needed killed away shit hated come home work stay daughter house filed bankruptcy heart attack couldnt work finally left state away summer close buying house saw expedition wanted wrong equinox month expedition let known able house think cared wined damn kid couldnt take said go fucking im living mother law als im dying quick enough married selfish sob ive met came place literally hate want die away im perfect night got married exboyfriend years found learned lot didnt know going life wish talked showed tits people got play kiss years ago hubs dick stopped working due meds seems actually loved wife make lifestyle changes heart meds use means wife think doesnt care got caught sexting redditors didnt go well diagnosed als morning bitched calling everything afternoon guess given death sentence forgot delete texts want clock tunes hour go mutter museum die house think either nope stay bed redflag searches online want die leave miserable life mine love pa brothers love daughters emily tiffany love grandaughters peyton lucy love future sons law justinand manny reasons hanging redflag still crosses mind hundreds time day read thisthanks mariann exams due today one first history math learning history history georgia math geometry dont believe godi dont believe god wish kill brutal way possible dont care want die pain cant handle numb yet exhausting feeling wanting disappear fucking air want feel death fucking take say savior love children loved youd let die times wasnt enough th hopefully check new video want httpsyoutubeavhzktnlqo re really wan na dieim done looking forward vacation im happiest place earth disney forget problems soon im alone almost worse cant handle im strong enough give im done anyone watch hells kitchen im watching season forget season comes first dinner service always suck youre going hells kitchen arent supposed know good chance wont served going eat full meal hours dinner service finally got meal hungry ready rip someones head girls issue guys love men theyre nice handsome gorgeous kind night stuff still cross street im waking see man automatically scared strange man looks feel really guilty know guys arent anyone told good guy sometimes drives near tears told nice funny dependable told many times different people things must true right guess good enough hard find keep people life know sounds self serving pity party feel thoughts head realize understand priority anyone wish knew someone thought sometimes complement upsets ur knees supposed touch putting feet together realized mine dont bcuz im underweight anything im lbs society entitled anything scrap suffer eeek meager living society dare decide life sucide wrongsociety hypocritical cant tell people sucide wrong try force stay alive expecting accept crappy life someone want life worth effort struggle everyone hell gain working crappy jobs jerking another years cancer die want high person moment ask high person stuff abt typa shit go im trying take test flies sex right next want bother swatting away want bad grade test distracted flies sex hlots outstanding series nypd blue never hlots plots real dialog real relationships real hlots back movie tying loose ends good gang back together even passed away show wont say storyline fast paced emotional full spirit series week week homicide life streets network drama best stars thumbs thanks nbc giving us finally suffering depression redflag couple years now rd year university year left really know seriously considering dropping feel know anything good anything feel never job even suck really study anything done internships sucked hated every bit iti supposed another internship part course still able even start applying thinking fact sit interview makes anxious panic attacks think able job every time read job post feel incompetent write cover letter say good anything want drop outbut drop doif finish last year whatuni expensive parents paying really want pay year nothingi feel loser confidence friends always lonely sad crying need advice potential movie mustve sounded work based reading script paper one seemingly looks lurid seedy softporn sm flick complete huge intheatre poster depicting nearnaked christina ricci chained none mr bad ass mf samuel jackson let tell film springs life celluloid major big time soulful power spare craig brewers redemptive followup hustle flow black snake moanbr br unashamedly top go film sucks opening scenes proceeds dig deeper deeper every subsequent frame yer basic story two deeply damaged characters find strength courage move notredflag ways lives done course tale ive always said manner story told gives heart depth meaning powerbr br riccis damagedbychildhoodabuse wildchild character rae jacksons equally soulsick musician character lazarus find desperate circumstances laz takes upon try help rae relatively unique idea man trying genuinely help woman serious pain rather trying take advantage know onset lazs heart films heart right place movie core redemptive healing power love music close second film resonates profoundly truth soulfully artfully brilliantlybr br major reason film succeeds profoundly fierce committed performances ricci jackson scenes come laughable pathetic lesser artists hands instead powerful getout particular films arc scene jackson sings plays song title alone house ricci amidst serious thunderstorm abusive demons raes past running amok inside head leading crawl lazarus cling leg comes ridiculous technically rather gutwrenchingly cathartic br br supporting performances fantastic justin timberlake completely believable raes anxietyridden boyfriend ronnie alwayswonderful s epatha merkerson perfectly cast character obviously feelings lazarus john cothran jr outstanding well lazs reverend friend rl nod blues musician l burnside doubt everything works movie lets face including musicsoundtrack features burnside scott bomar bobby rush son house importantly jackson whose fantastic version stackolee listening compose review theres really beautiful moving version little light mine featured film sung heartbreakingly tentative soft riccibr br samuel jackson said recent interviews believes performance movie best career thus far agree work monumentally proud along everyone involved audacious supremely wise deeply heartfelt motherucker project wish brave enoughi feel terrible actually got point point really wishing life go away brave enough anything bpd live uk getting help pretty much massive fight waiting years far therapy classed serious actually attempted redflag yet reason mother told tried furious cant deal thought dying hating im stuck living nothing able kill hate much living stupid country means unlikely able help least years many antidepressants none worked reacted badly lofepramine say work take away offer support know anymore cant live cant die still herei know keep going still keep walking waking everyday come point nights lay bed wish dead point feel useless anything anyway overweight young doctors find anything lots tests diticians know done multiple sports went sporting centers personal trainers etc one clue cant lose weight balding good already almost non existent self confidence gay course look find anyone alone bullied friends keep turning back looking reason done probably parents everytime wanne try see mind tearing family apart even bringing problems die feel empty feel done whatever call want take medication cause side effects make feel worse know point really feel far stuck even killing impossible bring many problems feel mind tearing apart inside wanted barely loved anything right fat lowly loser forever worthless point self confidence everytime manage small bit broken becomes even harder build still alive gets better say yeah sure living suicidal depression years still trying think gets better yeah work maybe late anyway things better gotten better now really think work longer going happen never chance good future anyway one caredafter sending ex girlfriend goodbye text hoping paramedic find family told half whatever money half go best friend pushing away afew months anyways told mother figure called principal spoke mother told bring hospital without even speaking anyone assumed mean made joke said something mean concern miss best friend completely cut contact fault ex still wants nothing cant blame either technically true joined subreddit technically belong years sadness noises never seen oliver stone film films starring eric bogosian know expect film toyed idea buying finally got free supplement sunday newspaper hugely impressedbr br tells story barry champlain talk radio host incredibly rude towards callers often putting place realise whats going though made popular radio show host earned numerous enemiesbr br acting film hugely impressive one dud actor eric bogosian brilliant barry champlain troubled talk radio host alec baldwin turning strong performance barrys boss dan features voice cameo appearance michael wincott reason wanting see thisbr br story really well written despite arrogance feel barry troubled life revealed see vulnerable really isbr br id recommend film anyone captivating importantly real numerous levels two inspired life actual talk radio host fact actually radio show hosts callers ones featured film realitybr br high recommendation br br aye cat squire hoping drink enough go sleep without cutting tonight depressed even masturbate need help killing myselfi considering redflag really want die know successfully thought overdosing pills ibuprofen pills arthritis pain pills tylenol random pills overdosing kill much bitch iti want die im much little bitch im miserable im ugly ive got friends know family ashamed said im ugly sister theyd better gone thing world loves dog whos turning december thought getting older makes sadder hopeless cause know one day hell gone got raped last year think got fully even tho go therapy remember last time fully happy wouldve done now im much coward im tired told depression anxiety last year believe thought way feeling normal ignored gotten worse hate depressed recently hospitalized trying kill want try im afraid going back im tired anyone talk cant talkwhen want really anxious think ill quiet anyway might well talk cant text people backas makes anxious people say theyre worried mebut know theyre lying im waiting mom goes work end im tired able really anything want depressed better matter hard try cant try anymore dont know whats wrongim uk life recently gotten glum last months im even sure im whats point ive dumped someone pure fear bonding hey yall problem wich one girl told today loves pure fear bonding someone dumped dont even know especially liked alot kinda tried tell gently yall probably know turns time kinda feel ahole anyone advice handle situation nothing interesting happened anything im posting photo greatgreatgrandpas majestic moustache ampxb processing img wtmighc wont help meplease help watching childhood pictures makes want kill even morei look happy feel envious happy plus knowing never go back time makes feel terrible ive suicidal years never brave enough ugh im tired sorry rant hope better omg guys measured today exactly inches nice number although unfortunately dont think ill height long embarrassing story time two years ago tried giving bf time head yeah never done anything life didnt want well eventually got alone decides try forcing next move little bean started shaking uncontrollably started anxiety eventually passed ex carry bathroom good minutes funny time whenever make jokes around friends giving head start shaking act passed lowkey pretty funny now shit every time spawn minecraft always freaking forrest hope good day btw ciao cuties massive achievement today found bathroom school clogged significant piss pools elected supreme overlord earth life make sure every citizen earth gets free heavyduty sponge outlaw dirt soil outside designated dirtareas forests parks sidewalks walls buildings must kept spickandspan clean ill scientists finally break flying car tech theyve keeping us im physically exhaustedf throughout entire life ive felt birth unnecessary constantly reminded mom planned aborting hate high school definition hell im tired plan killing soon need stop need everything stop friends nobody cares theres nobody talk mind wont stop racing dear girls guy something nice call simp sometimes might sometimes good deed didnt ask borni didnt ask born stay fair broken arm honestly feeling really hard one time couldnt right hand use left hand strange first use ok gn much energy feeling bit saucy dm pedos creeps time filler filler filler filler filler filer filer hate behind everyone elsei made serious mistake indecisive wanted graduated engineering degree still real job lined people start real jobs year olds full years behind everyone terms career advancement sick hearing mark zuckerburgs hope hicks elizabeth holmes world highly successful young age know outliers average year old lot better struggling find real jobs already th birthdays whats even worse behind women well successful guys age making close figures either already married engaged long term gfs sexhave sex dozens girls short term girlfriends socially behind thus weirded many people tons great memories buddies thing barely anything time social skills par late either somethings done scene look desperate year old trying relive youth rate may settle postwall sluts third set guys girls either engaged taken fat sluts retarded mentally ill combination calling misogynist redpill piece shit make things worse hopefully god give another chance come back someone learn lessons disgusting previous life termforbeing introverted extroverted cause yeah filler imma say guns bad lyric day gently mind escapes relaxing world pleasure pleasure take mind reality life gently slipknot httpsyoutubeqigenqil yes im aware songs slipknot songs lyrics epic ulilreaperr u asked tagged idk ur dead ubannnnnnnned banned reddit cant chat anymore second attemptinstead pills took time know help anymore second time hospital week want stay tomorrow really really wan na go home watched heart breaking pieces knowing someone made snap someone said love anymore consequences love really something special film hard put finger love story sorts really one ive seen several love themes running throughout film one mans love younger woman younger mans love older brother mafias love money costs intertwine story guessing rather knowing end cast superb sophia teasing barmaid straight facedness titta films central character simple yet affective camera work bounced everchanging soundtrack mixes lowfi trip hop lush orchestral pieces style film changes beautifully using several styles without getting cluttered love never looked diverse powerful tales told rumble towards various conclusions director married old new rich italian classic things considered stand aside first time got involved give description went im going privacy reasons times able average person tell breakfast lunch dinner snacks given day years ago gets mixed head usually react badly anniversaries incidents involve blamed someone dying day guess song added word today ill add another word tommorow maybe winner today let contemplatingi think im gon na try kill tommorow im happy way life going im tired burden everybodys shoulders know family happy deal anymore tired heart aching time first saw movie alaska airlines flight seen twice simply simply one best films years found enjoyed first viewing little cloudy happened seeing weeks later things began fall place confusing deep fact depth movie may appreciated long time example occurred third viewing sammy davis jr jr grandfathers dog pet perhaps standin dead wife witness fiercely protects symbolism galore none sappy indulgent real adventure trip keeps storyline perpetual motion even arrive sure really destination movie continues adventure got sense destination merely waypoint soundtrack fun scenery compelling decidedly easternblock go deeper meanings within film im entirely sure ive discovered nuances yet besides fun tease much film everything illuminated proved fine wine sweetens time highly recommend seeing twice want leave placei anymore feel im living surviving everyone abandoned alone dont anyone want die considered many types redflag im scared non effective enough cant anymore posting daily gf day say ive posts long ive lost count havent day thinking killing myselfi got raped years old drunk homeless man trying find live year old boy friends gf dumped everyone hates mom dad hate got abused kid reason live anymore want kill looking discord friends hey friends made discord looking people join gaming really anything dm comment invite happy birthday justin know months weve talked cause yknow blocked never forgot birthday forget day mine hope youve well really hope youve gotten better im sorry something make feel way really trying help youre thats exciting good luck life justin know youll fine happy birthday certain things make feel uncomfortable recently jokingly play nipples suck biting laying bed im shirtless makes uncomfortable dont ill laugh tell stop dont 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lives matter legitimate organization enjoys protesting peacefully point across protests turn riots fault though antifa stands antifascist actions really prove fascists ones turn protests riots steal hurt ideals good ones either say want socialism means everyone benefits others attempted socialism past real agenda communism everyone equally poor want rid religion entirely theyve tearing statues jesus mary stop soon enough already theyll start tear statues buddah gahndi etc christian agree freedom religion founded country antifa trying take away freedoms know old enough vote yet future america turn itll responsibility make sure whoever seat political power amercas best interests heart im republican trump supporter good thing hes done throughout covid pandemic special ops team combat epsteins child pornography ring end cant tell whats right whats wrong give facts facts know im gon na give black hispanic lgbtq whatever hope incredible safe day god bless ive come accept depressioni longer 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breakup messy fuck hurts much cant even bring talk months disgusted sad mom took whole thing harder explain mother walked room brother shot minutes earlier ptsd hospitalized twice told mentally stable enough work worked ive strong one family im destroyed dropped college semester mom mental issues nearly killed miss old life fucking shit non stop years im sick im fucking sick want happy non stop ive gotten nothing shit state sub discovered subreddit thought going good teenager related posts boy wrong recently noticed many posts asked best friend told crush yeah might true surely tiring seeing thing yeah wanted share thank moderators rsuicidewatch allowing post part team researchers new york state psychiatric institutecolumbia university currently recruiting participants research study looking investigational treatment selfinjury called transcranial direct current stimulation tdcs tdcs noninvasive welltolerated form brain stimulation delivers low current specific area brain using 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program due government scholarship contract cost parents barely money name pay offi seriously want stop existing know people say friends family sad personally see purpose continuing life feels want suffer anymore hate covid ultimate guide nnn guide winning nnn might need stay occupied staying occupied keep mood things exercise cook draw play video games bois even catching homework read bible whenever mood go somewhere bed bed pushups go drink warm milk go talk family member friend ask day stay computer device normal take breaks every minutes fine help distance temptation nutting something helps less stressed things yoga meditation heart heart conversation buddy stress negative someones overall mood want good one persistent stay positive good mindset try look bright side situation try learn something new new hobby new sport new game recommend idle games idle games hook gameplay end pretty much babysitting game watch youtube something educational channel recommend kurzgesagt good 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wanting leave house without makeup seems piss people disappoint im tired even fucking anything sit think think think either cry vomit learn hobbies live im go school feel depressed go home feel depressed rinse repeat wan na blow head feel massive burden know future holds cant even job bdd likes fuck live shitty area literally worst london everything fucked time pulled plug train wreck cancer crush say yes family member die instead really good time playing tennis going sauna dad talking stuff first time long time im happy great happiness feels good know call someone disingenuous sense motherfucker removed knows live go school moms ton debt dad right job dad longer working gon na lot harder pay go private school costs lot deal rating cocks thats thats literally rating cocks byei cant take anymore want want fucking please bye heh one even see anyway someone flair yo someone old flair older many years hell million attendee old antichrist rteenagers serve opposite megathiccc think im weird guys looking phone earlier wondering today asked today todays day going die bitch weird guys need help dont know turn pointive depressed months way away smoking weed amd cigarettes everyday im pretty young stuff way happy honestly dont know cant even come enough reasons keep going point still love years first time saw fact discovered lost copy upset despite nonassociation original kid never noticed adult care cartoons dark enough interesting light enough enjoyed everyone im glad parents raised kind thing rather cartoons see today teach kids nothing music great gets stuck head foreveri downloaded entire soundtrack one point another rose colored glasses come realize thought closest important parts social life actually care much supposed trust someone actions pure honest words demeaning vindictive grew mindset drunk mans thoughts sober ones words applicable angry sure say things regret fact said moment happens one time mistake habitual routine force move moments let brain play repeat still young still somehow feel fucking bitter point daydream cutting everyone life moving somewhere new tired feeling constantly looking things bother feeling degraded upset things told fault say dumb things treat dumb person instagram post soo cringe become billionaire boys clothes girls clothes good person top signs likes top poop make millionaire s oh god help im hungry theres people downstairs kitchen stale hot cheetos sink water send provisions complete failure friends country familywell begin currently high seems way escape abused childhood burned beat cut home went private school surrounded millionaires even billionaires sons daughters came family even going home got dream th grade trip trip go airplane well got kicked th grade participate pe fat first thoughts redflag th grade well gay thought monster highschool people touched bathrooms called names made feel shit attempted redflag lived thought amazing reason purpose new life nope years later high school peers top private universities bullying high school stayed home never spoke class final year showed teachers true intellect said late show world deep believe drugged escape cold world alone fat gay used joy fun happiness life died th grade reading online fat shamed gay men existence meaningless never move want pain stop anyone say well anything know guess late looking virtual dnd group thought itd fun come look virtual dnd group comment interested wife ready kill lostmy wife attempted suide june th via taking bunch pills effexor trazadone xanax basically whatever house thought might work didnt saw take pills called immediately suicidal ideations last november saw therapist tremendous gift help got past recent attempt one visit back therapist things gone south refuses see therapist saying want help seems commited path killing efforts naught feel totally defeated barely promise one day suffers sleep deprivation drinks vodka try sleep makes decision making process completely defective probably mention attempt got hospital bac morning wakes night drunk sleep deprived saying cant underlying issue victim child molestation brothers age never suffered repercussions crimes obesesses effots last word somehow decided suicde ultimate vengeance heartless soulless bastards feel nothing death will son granddaughter son serious issues much help best female friend gather somewhat supports ending pain one trying desprately keep alive admit always react well threats promises kill sometimes show anger leave total devastation everything last long without loss proceed change mind keep safe drugs left home use try ive hidden car keys ive hidden kitchen knives stay try keep safe see bigger threat society corrupt world leader horny artist justyeah need stuff mindmy first kiss want know coming anything depressing looking back wanted special never felt pretty never felt significant nothing bad happened buti still felt especially first kisswhen called asked boob size virginity thing felt though object fast forward two years high school grad working amusement park living dorms everyone knew virgin come august close crew lifeguards wave special party handcuff party type pair someone handcuffed every time partner drinks must partner cute russian foreigner got semiintoxicated heading bar realized forgot id badge offered walk room accepted walk takes handcuff forces wrist around bed rail puts say beg looking door handle waiting roommate come backshe come back sees looking locks finishes allows go bathroom shock walk bathroom sit pee wipe toilet filled blood toilet paper saturated shamefully walk back crawl bed disgust spoons want know say next morning wake sheets saturated blood go work rumors spreading individual taking someones virginity true turn break krista hear took someones virginity acted clueless walked away cried knew true events taken place found thought gave summer season ended turned slut hooking people left right want special things back know kiss wanted good first kiss someone really likedi know virginitybut wanted someone loved current boyfriend sleeping roomthe man love man respects know may redflag watch materialbut events specifically rape haunt dreams haunt conquer make feel nothing sit many nights wanting end feel itd easier deal know may seem simple dumb want firsts back know people harder mean hurt im sitting one thought years making read thanks venting im bad night sorry think im pity party address people may think say tlampdr first kiss stolen virgin raped work crew found joke turned slut haunts dreams love boyfriend wanted regular thoughts redflag sorry seem panzy fuck swear god genetic modification gon na end product crapitalism ruin everything people gon na start trade marking parts human fucking genome honestly got ta make sort laws make cant trademark fucking genes tried open suicidal thoughts one seems really careim preexisting mental health issues lost job car house last months lost job covid substitute teacher car bad transmission cant afford fix roommate wanted boyfriend move said yes latter cant even stand anymore cant afford rent told boyfriend yr ive mental health problems think need seek help im ready tell plan redflag response didnt need therapy needed job job suddenly going make interested life problem ive applying jobs everyday havent able call back jobs available cashiers hardware stores teacher two degrees interest diy really dont see cure changing outlook life hate retail workers know working hard months ago feel massive step back anxiety bad hard time talking people instantly cry start trembling im uncomfortable situation even talking insurance phone cause severe panic attacks doesnt exactly make great candidate customer service retail makes burden everyone around boyfriend backed living saying wasnt enough room house anymore move parents dont good relationship dad told ive never happy domestic violence ive witness growing unfair pressure felt dad life overall situation right now decade ive wanted end life never guts im afraid anxious thoughts intrusive theyre constant even plan place think time find id need carry deed theyre response im acting year old living nightmare ive two days spent room bothering anyone except maybe hear crying ear door cant help feel giant nuisance everyone nobody really seems care think im serious feel im joke im sure want die definitely want life go motions life hard hard time coping circumstances lost person trust talk want kill hate life fucking much nobody knows bullshit ive want give hate bus driver much first never lets anyone back rows bus days bus completely full people standing gets mad sit back leading people standing gets mad stand bus even seats always screams loudly standing claims seats sit literally gets mad literally anything wants top blames chocolate addiction yelled everyone getting bus people gotten yet people needed sitting nothing want gone movies today hard find something take whole family see kids loved good clean fun highly recommend anyone wants take whole family nice evening movies ive abusive relationship years now family stopped talking live states away boyfriend got together first time noticed abuse wanted repeatedly sex till sore angry refused subtle first scared time went everyday skinny need gain weight got point ask questions wasnt good enough depressed throw speaker room along put stuff front door couldnt drill still proceed caution mum gae want live quarantined worldfuck cant see friends sports canceled grad year ruined gf broke future hopless come within feet someone dirty look ironic quarantining save lives soon quarantine killed covid see later world im really care rditors hate emojis bitch youre reddit fuck even u judge nowi feel keep rehashing long story short agoraphobic human interaction go time due fact wife avoiding terrible person conversation gets lost love son deserves much better prozac metropinal still depressed horribly low peak high peaks usually agitation ignorance without large quantities alcohol pretty much ive reached point life insurance worth people suffering multiple years still apprehension much honestly always someone around prevented till now really know expect already medicated therapied things die lay one chickens earth one favorites always walking beside always acting dog chicken im posting help move people realize animals brightest people parents relievedi feel parents relieved killed relieve constant worry wouldnt stress struggle im medicated right now bad place life things keep piling idk life decisions make im lost parents told tonight cant keep feel go ahead balance slowly deteriorating right knee keeps getting weaker always keep drifting right walk without paying attention family calls pinball keep bouncing wall college makes want commit redflagi hate college much want job live life stressed every goddamn moment feel school completely consumes im exhausted morning sit hours lectures studying rest day less hours studying high enough quality work feel insanely guilty force work late night tired cant concentrate late makes failure years old never internship meaningful job done research care major picked hated least make somewhat employable hate schools stupid fratboy workaholic culture every moment filled anxiety thinking everything wrong never amount anything choice though parents never let leave transfer desperately want school still two years ill probably phd thats way really successful industry something stress constant selfhatred shitty people make want end now want go rest college want poggies song httpsopenspotifycomtracketweuxwdzglhwnpsvlsiaaddcdchttpsopenspotifycomtracketweuxwdzglhwnpsvlsiaaddcdc windmill mccafferty theres supposed new song end month hope good call ambulance police redflaghey gon na suck six bottles sleeping pills tomorrow afternoon call ambulance pick body police im hoping leave mess many people sorry posting forum first time avoided redflag time cant wan na know rot time im found sorry adding gloomy reddit thanks know much longer gofor years ive fought misunderdiagnosed mental illnesses years ive tried failed everyone easily turns borderline personality disorder depression anxiety ruined life things ive done hurt everyone love wife holding strained uneasy makes skin crawl says loves never hugs kisses never snuggles kids hate give effort depression looks tried tat care unable things need show wife love unable loved failed everything one talk sit fantasize feeling last time tried kill pills kicked warm calm serene sit look photos people committed redflag wonder much longer go obviously part want die talk im scared know anymore im going anything soon even lot god im exhausted unbearably sad want loved accepted even though nothing offer anyone want need bonked im weird thoughts character ive already talked times need bonked umegathiccc thing actually wan na die lot friends one exact lot family say oh thats true talk soandso school blah blah blah people talk yeah talk school whatnot actually wan na hang one person actually wan na friend matches amount energy put friends either weve friends years others side long im actually dramatic saying moving hurts fucking much person actually wants hang wants friends weve made many plans future seem dust now hate dramatic love much know thats g oh well ones always got ta catch feelings amirite holy shit im actually broken light made smile couldnt fucking leaving know feel im actually broken eww hate furries yucky poopy sticky doodoo heads apocalypse redux francis ford coppolas war opus probably beautiful war film seen capt benjamin willard martin sheen vietnam soldier tapped head dangerous highly classified mission cambodia terminate position col kurtz marlon brando highly ranked highly regarded army man seemingly gone completely insane defected army setting little society helped cultish following soldiers escorting river cambodia handful navy men along way encounter several interesting people notably robert duvalls kilgore badass lieutenant colonel screws loose horrifying situations br br apocalypse less historical war film philosophical psychological study full metal jacket platoon running time apocalypse three hours film wonderfully paced compelling end film arrived actually surprised amount time passed beautiful cinematography surely stood seeing film convinced coppola one masters light photography film history godfather films tinged almost sepia tone shadows created feeling baroque composition apocalypse incredible usage natural light shadows particularly scenes involving brando sheen almost become living character pervasive effective another gorgeous scene cpt willard jay hicks frederic forrest jungle looking mangoes come across tiger sheer enormity surrounding foliage leaves big house made characters almost lilliputian colorization scene incredible everything almost muted grey leaves incredibly vibrant green effect particularly striking another really minor notredflag moment film great scene helicopters carrying duvall company attack small village playing wagner ultradramatic underlying soundtrack scene instead coppola turns song actual part scene duvall mentioning likes play approaching scare hell br br performances apocalypse first class much made amount money brando earned film amount trouble caused regardless turned powerful performance relatively short amount screen time sheen completely outstanding first time seen really unleash film duvall lot fun watch loony kilgore apocalypse now film pervasive pop culture know several choice lines film love smell napalm morning et al knew little enough plenty surprises left experience seen original cut apocalypse now compare newer cut film certainly experienced br br shelly think timemaybe blow popsicle stand im going nowhere life whats point living anymore finished useless psych degree career prospects romantic relationship prospects life standstill going nowhere days want stay bed sleep life away life chore reason keep going im point know fact going better anything itll worse still suffer looking paper yesterday got paper cut intelligence curse lost itim breaking point redflag back mind years creeping front im graduate high schoolor likely fail senior year live life dropout clue go im unintelligent work might graduate everyday try avoid talking grades parents know ill disappoint hurts removes time ticking bomb im smart incredibly hate cause much strife years living takes away much make happy deprives view sort wonder awe leaves rationalizing math science want people see want see guy enjoys fun intellectual conversations point im considering stopping mental functions ending sad thing know almost guarantee succeed another curse knowledge want gone calling redflag hotline simply work lack courage talk someone talking text changed things makes bearable even feel much love towards family see stepping stone covered superglue thats meant hold back help im pathological liar person hurts feel guilty pisses lying become ingrained psyche point even let people see real wear mask happiness positive outlooks things perfect little cracks form may see true self little end day go home fix duct tape glue thats subtly applied make seamless religion never option simply knew better help analytical mind reject life faith simply sit trudging life one day time hoping might find something help look start running along path someplace better theres easier road ends much sooner road give rest go even know want life point redflag tempting time want make things worse people close im stuck middle intersection others pass manage figure account use please leave alone reserved almost exclusively positive side treasure dearly try shield aspects life psa clean phones people look know ive got ocd urge keep things clean actually something everyone see many people use phones everywhere go even toilet mean damn thing obviously costed germs stuff buy clorox wipes clean youre safe especially stupid coronavirus around need helpby time see post ill probaly delete need help im still fairly young im still human abused parents alot even age still abused im looking someone help im verge depression possibly redflag anyone help awesome even life changing confessed crush happen happen guess came door drunk high opiates hes ex h addict opiate rage real told verbatim guy house hed kill spot questions asked pretty easy night ive spent countless nights barricaded bedroom rage past terrible grew gangs mexican mafia molested young age im really looking forward sex ed going put condoms dildos stuff fun worst day fucking yearim kill wanted write last resort goodbye thing maybe idk friend mine called sobbing saying cant see today final straw dont care abymore im sorry goes cant keep everyone said help cant fucking family wouldnt let wouldnt believe im minor pretty much tell constant isolation go far everything cant go anywhere without someones say entire family ignores cant kepe school failed finals going failure whole life hate living hate somcuh nothing norie say really cant tpye im sobbing pepole probaly care one friend fucking english teacher english teacher really cool shaem wont bea bel see new year worthless patheric piece shit votd student th e month want fcuking die im gonig fucking kill nyslef way outeverything screws kids brought screws leaving screws dying screws wish hand life someone wipe memories kids husband mother put new woman let take better thought ok right now anxiety pmdd acting im struggling bit knew hormonal pass took kids morning engagements spent afternoon playing river enjoying early spring weather husband randomly picked documentary mother young child trying kill felt throat closing feel envious think methods try justify try think theyll better long run wont kids adore fight yell sometimes go far purposely mean think honestly think im wonderful cuddle kiss tell love much mama love moon theyd destroyed want mummy want mummy ive held whole lives awful pressure wish want medicated ive hated cant deal buckle push ill manage fuck wish replace go somewhere die somehow hurt anyone done weird friend talking american friend used battery nerf bullet time passes tell hes horny things talked jokingly said dont use cat knew jt joke forgot said started saying know option thwn started talk moves gon na cat im scared cat im mentally broken boreddm maybe title says im feeling kinda bored wan na talk dm talk whatever number game game whatever save boredom pls want dead want live world love conscious able experience existence world thrown nothing pain time time life mundane unfulfilling sick joke wish waste away want freedom live life meant constantly thinking die maybe ill able start anew different world way know might cease exist accept know worth putting family friends heavy loss want fade away want stop existing want stay wish go meant go want live life image please someone help want cease exist want new life moderators rteenagers working hard make 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back pm way read unread text messages dont wan na go thru read em number go away wan na know apple phones read button done anxietymy anxiety bad cant even go hang people invited nervous ignore everything stay room end blowing purpose hate confrontation dont want disappoint saying cant make many times say phone broke much pressure going getting conversation life fucked embarrassing im horrible person im lonely feel confident around people xanax know ill never life boyfriend worse smile cant fixed cosmetic surgery im honestly cursed especially everyone says person prettiest smile well god give certain people ugly features people beautiful features fair basically ignore people im forced smile life prevents social media never life use snapchat left huge part society participating social media really want kill im figuring logistics wish knew happened died feel confident im getting older zero money saved retirement im going die alone poor ugly im looking forward living rest life poor ugly 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keep think life worse point happened moved another city dont worry visit daughter every week live bergen norway met great people ive got good friends things turned little better never money rent expensive live norway expensive bills addition barely survive money earn job winter realized havent felt happy years old completely forgotten feels told parents expected theres much except lending money every never ask barely support problems might seem big assure bad stream problems every little thing adds one drop cup smallest problems enough tilt one thing theres girl really class smart pretty share alot insterests taste music boyfriend years never destroy relationship know likes makes confused last couple months shared time together stuff enjoy playing super nintendo going concerts one day actually felt happy one person makes life worth living boyfriend know problem cant solved way patiently waiting see decides break hard hold day goes without thinking ending thing stopping feel 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talk considering redflag please take moment think really gon na fix problemsno crush girl school got got back friend crush crush girl class months ago tolde felt said liked friend boyfriend ye understood moved one friends told het liked even tho bf said likes reason made really really really jealous kinda feel bad bf cuz nice guy tell someone trust ya go reddit interesting tale giant mammoth elephants running amok modern india features transparent special effectselephants dressed shaggy coats sporting tusk extensions said good story fine cast work exciting climax said running time one doubled showed indiacourtesy robert lippert master padding given choice opt shorter version want fucking die alreadyi hate life one cares dysphoria fucking kill hi im indie game developer first video new game hope video reach likes publish second devlog subscribe channel grateful thank lot advance httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvotavrrgcehttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvotavrrgce fck lifeso lifes rough finally told psychiatrist bad things gotten cutting planning kill two weeks ago totally opened promised kill always wanted accident put family now tonight im done great trip planned weekend best friend gon na go visit college two hours live spend night planned week half ive looking forward got cancelled point honestly think ill go stay friday saturday really solid last weekend kill saturday night gon na go friday afternoon ride mountain bikes talk team see cycle collegiality meet friends campus spend night hotel best friend take tour college saturday morning meet club team someones birthday afternoon bunch fun thats gone idk gone ive trying long im tired ive tried half heartily twice think saturday day cats gtgtgt dogs dogs loud smelly lol cute theyre literally crusty anyone thinks cats mean probably pats head hard something dumb earn money im currently jobs none neighbors need help cant afford supplies training art commissions anything two dollars name right now earn money people experienced weebs dream turned park friend colin sitting picnic table talking random crap hot pink haired girl walks us said either guys want make im bored said nah lmao th birthday feeling suicidalhey guys turning tomorrow feel horrible ive struggling depression years recently started taking meds instead helping feel better think feel worse used social outgoing year everything going downhill treat family closest friends shit cant help ignoring saying things dont want hurts hurts barely survive school tired time lay bed day feel alone fuck time ive never one true love think noone talk share pain school group friends hang pass time cant relate talk want something tomorrow birthday instead thinking throwing party good time thinking wasting time worthless insignificant fail life univerity want die brothers best friend killed remember pain went dont know againi feel everyone know feeling awful trying help keep rejecting even tho need support feel horrible want everything ok much ask pushing people awayin past six months attempted redflag four times two serious family friends know including ex plays part due breakup lately getting feeling people care anymore simply ignore pissed depressed suicidal brother still seems genuinely care ex left wanted stay friends blocked said cares hopes better cant stick around people need need talk wont already sent farewell letter even reply surrounded people feel alone every way except physically see way fifth attempt feeling beginning senior year high school thought going slump pandemic never felt hopelessness entire life graduated feel samei live mom husband along two baby sisters feel insignificant part family work thought interacting people know makes sick stomach even leave house take trash feel eyes rejected fast food job interview given idea around others unfamiliar place made panic anything around house mom expressed disappointed lay bed sleep till pm wish tell want anymore wish tell days seem blend now every day spent alive makes want scream pillow means dead yeti tried failed kill four times already feel attention whore even though nobody knows attempted fantasize death constantlyeverything chore things requires energy energy left takes weeks shower process time consuming never laundry want go searching dirty clothes never clean room task daunting consequently live pile filth probably walking pile filth everything requires effort absolutely none givewhenever mom tells clean house takes long always start zoning thinking suicide thinking different life born different family different country opposite sex make scenarios head make feel better end feeling worse fantasizing unachievablei feel hopeless worst part really want help want feel anymore want wake every day start cry still feel probably exaggerating phase mom thinks nothing wrong convinced lazy unmotivated maybe right makes feel disappointment even blame well knows nothing feel bases judgement sees daughter future ahead useless fend never amount anything life know want die know spend every waking second thinking nice stop existing know anything wish didi know tired life think killing nearly every day tired try someone understand felt bad enough wanted commit redflag potentially hurt take seriouslyyears ago terrible time life made halfass attempt commit redflag know people say halfass attempts disagree kind hard die home household items without suffering extended periods time people want experience long painful death household item want stop hurting really want talk want communicate really want die enough try tried bring spouse telling depressed want live problems brushes saying fuck tried commit redflag among things turned fucking lives completely upside think aspergers want help badly shitty truth see reasonable way address problem already tried hardest besides talking actual professional getting diagnosed cant live cant leave problems behind dammit want someone acknowledge hurt badly tell understand okay give shit even though probably essentially mentally handicapped husband least give goddamn fucking hug ten years ago life took tortuous unexpected turn twisted fucked turn twisted fucked turn trying hard hell deal keep going even know guess optimist heart even though cynical struggling make best situation things problems keep hurting much ive tried tell spouse want help aspergers tried help help doesnt know cant even pick phone talk family love much talked years even though think every day want tell wanted die hoped die things hope actually longer person life brushes saying make feel bad saying feel really fucking bad communicate know even possible damn fucking problems need help problems go away trying hoping pass years years longer suicidal try hard think realize way die terribly prolonged likely work mean probably best prevention redflag fact really incredibly easy tries kill turns world upside gets kinds support medical care wished dead prolonged period silently things hoped make die tried tell wanted die told things hopes know scoff brush guess war redflag attempt justified know want communicate felt badly really wish understand sometimes still feel badly want understand feel badly feelings real well cant figure sure war got everything came back top problems causes addition fucked relationship try understand respect problems feel real respect mine nothing feel express much things hurt still even though things much better superficially feel help somehow least feel helpless worst thing everything life wish people age see taking care dealing life normal life problems instead feel housepet people without take care anyways simply living feel bad didnt keep trying leave issues behind adult way possible working try ask help makes feel burden child last thing want look forwards rest life almost feel actually likes feel shit say something make victim feeling horrible somehow stopped talking every friend want talk life eventually gets old realize person one always talks problems tried stop problems still escalate epic proportions less frequently going grow old die horrible stupid problems one seems probably fucking aspergers whatever fuck wrong take care weird thing happened today found people shipping girl talk frequently im catch good day dont know theyre told girl weirded something happened yaw mean sometimes feel want deepthroat gun im sad karma click button right please v need help best friendso start small friend group three super close neither us friends fine coz said super close used larger group recently kinda fell apart three us left one bf vacation miserable wasnt well things got way way worse course two days shes great risk redflag right really dont know lot trouble home life general fucked way possible concerned worry decided ask wether wants meet afternoon evening asked wanted stay night hasnt answered yet even tho online time call wait really worried concerned seriously terrifying need advice please thank u advance im exhaustedeveryones better thought id come terms apparently god need rid universal gifted program elementary schools hate people better blame trying hard enough good enough feel sham everything ive made im im good nothing im mediocre never stand die one day forgotten within year friends sweet smart pioneering love heart deserve world efforts success theyve made even theyre juniors high school fuck im junior feels theres hope late know many amazing talented sophomores well theyre amazing kind charming never god im pathetic people run problem work solve overcome dont give makes failure thought id come terms guess havent hate feel petty narcissistic want tear brain rip shreds replace personality someone elses looks life either ill never confident enough little ill never confident enough transition nobody cares try cant blame thats one thing say confidence blame anyone now used blame world problems id created see whatever pain im suffering now ive brought one way another want burden everyone suffering enough stress deal care spill theyll push responsibility onto someone someone qualified anyway land back therapist expensive pointless therapy makes hate makes mom hate makes dad hate reminder ill never change reminder im financial burden huge fucking mess everything treats patronisingly know used middle school whiny privileged bitch kept moaning depression anxiety mommy issues im edgy still ill never anything quiet kid draws one resting bitch face scary one think hate maybe know think im pathetic listen theyre nice feels theyre babysitting entertaining garbled nonsense cooing diction makes sound bitter im aware truly blame got ta believe fuck want shitty person already thought genuinely thought getting better last year year proved wrong im still useless mess middle school im still absolute miserable ass years attention whore prideful jealous douchebag thought making friends fuck maybe really playing along id rather beat spit face hurts vague im left questioning whether im exaggerating want burden anymore want people care fuck arrogant think people cared im ridiculously selfcentered time gave back world people move im going die nobody might well end sooner make easier everyone want die really think want live either want responsibilities want responsibility wish pass sleep wish trade health someone dying someone deserves live someone become great person im wasting space deserve fuck im pathetic fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck absolutely disgusting need conversation thank needed know ill kill even serious everyone want kill every im special want stop thinking wish someone gut feeling edgeim feeling extremely edge want hurt badly end life know anymore many fucked things happend ive pretending im okay long time im trying fight urges difficult need vent feel alone worthless one gives fuck died day now hate much feel im going insane im lost broken scared want cry scream lose control instead act okay pretend smile one knows feel keep im scared one day soon end life watched documentary assisted redflag people suffer psychologicallyand honestly expecting relate much light end tunnel end im extremely tired alive wish never existed first place wan na cry want rip face never want see everytime look mirror cant help think im better dead everytime j think face body imagine jumping infront train hanging jumping building everytime close eyes imagine killing usually knife cant take anymore everyday worse suffering goes goes head pull plugwhen swallowed bunch pills kicked chair feet think heres newest video giveaway description thanks support cant wait first giveaway reason im still alivethis may written stupidest thing attribute ongoing existence coffee hear second im married suicidal years now find comfort comforted people hobbies anything simply good feelings come little things dade temporarily dull ache except coffee friend mine struggling emotional fckery tell solve problems go good cup coffee sit slowly drink time focus anything coffeethe smell warmth flavor may minutes thats minutes nothing world matters except coffee stress bills stupid peoplenothing many us know sometimes need short break thinking sounds stupid works sincerely hope helps someone elss even five minutes helpso im finally deciding end tonight now anyone know much losartan mg enough anything successful medical injuries deal friend tight situationhi friend mine theyve recently told therapist tell family whats happened internet friend bullied internet told anyone point family going tough time theyre worried told family family another burden take really feel guilty point contemplating redflag talking veered conversations onto dark paths sort humorouslight situation rises immediately gets crushed say really want tell family rather commit redflag know help way ive tried talking regularly via skype due technical circumstances thats extremely limited now options go feel foolish posting well much suppose want go bad things life boring one wants hear itits selfish take peoples time helping someone someone talk think talk things anymore making worse ruining matter much protest much better shut mouthanyways relapsed hard last night even trying stay sober point whatever kind proud havin super new wounds felt good always feel shitty telling friend keep lot make happy everything getting worse might well write suicide note believe shit want anything people hold onto hopes keeping memory around keep trying yk body makes hard know want now sure work unsure tonight sometime soon want go though anything anymore whatever going live probablyfill empty everything blood n alcohol lolmy life going go anywhere body ruined future hurting person staying around reason final gift everyone around ig surprisedf come back memorable enough thought long lol feel ive put wrong class mathematics im th set top higher ability ones arent im saying im best mathematics work easy min time spend nothing half year got ta prove worthy getting tests advice chimps chimp give orange give eat orange eat orange give eat orange give half assed redflag attempt number maybe dont even remember anymorei dont think hanging going work dont wan na try long drop dont properly ill probably end paralysed thinking makes sick reason havent jumped front train yet dont want wait arrive tried fall asleep train tracks wasnt comfortable got bored went home wish gun ampxb stop homeless homeless stop homeless easy fix want die right nowplease ill give anything die right now heres another low quality meme somebody existential crisis rteenagers rimandthisisdeep fucked dudei fucked badly want life past haunts catches fucked relationships friendships school everything feel ive said wont stop saying true feel good time end general time period im school social interaction one find one gives fuck seems fucks sake happensi really need admit hospital reach help going hospital completely derail life seems hella counterproductive someone seeking help fuck c f sunny dressed black swedish ass cant handle much heat holy fuck guess ill die haha keep thinking back awful things ive doneonce concert someone wanted move forward move way became angry later started elbowing someones back reason times turned around said sorry purpose felt soooooo embarassed awful thing ive done feel maniac hate packed together bunch people turned asshole ex saw arguing took long time finally forget contacted ex months ago blocked made new account continue conversation engaged blocked kept times end lost reminded fucking irrational concert insulted shit feel soooooooooo bad keep thinking back monster really really really wish done things guilt completely swallowing keep wanting kill ive done things cant live rteenagers snoo girl ascii art hope txt birthday always makes feel horribleim tired burden family wasnt even supposed make feel ive somehow cheated redflag attempt months back relocated icu big city hospital stayed days couldnt walk using bathroom worst sorts heart monitors remember ripping chest woke screamed cursed angry woken one wish world even taken remember mustering courage call two friends one declined call second made excuse hang phone remember family coming visit family stamped thousands medical bills pretend didnt happen reality dont think anyone wanted wake ive trying hard dont believe friend need time successful please rather ran cari hope things dont betternot everyone ill wait accident happen feeling suicidal makes feel guilty everything every aspect born ratand die stupid rati exist sufferi envy love watch people everything goes well themi wonder pure souls think need say anything elsei fed want sleep broken hopeless hearing voices mentally exhausted upset abc giving yet another show chance real winner show good writing storyline great actual original idea show instead another boring reality show casting spectacular characters actors right talented set actors concept idea really new cool idea tv show many us share whole idea connections really love characters steven laura whitney damien honest one person connected show even episodes sheri appleby example acting characters easy talented wish abc given show chance interrupted show midway advertised enough truly unfair everyone show showed great promise one let abc know feel keep sending emails keep show alive please join know worked jerico way episode want last show please support show send emails abcwe show well worth petition online save six degrees httpwwwpetitiononlinecomghpetitionhtml sign petition asap ive planning redflag cant talk therapist doive planning redflag hate know cant talk therapist id risk getting baker acted florida thing something many obligations school family cant miss institutionalized something talk therapist go dont see point living anymoreim year old high school student ive always suicidal school deteriorating ive always good hiding pain suffering constant anxietydepression ive always kid school thats bit goof needs sleep nice guy ive noticed recently ive worse job several friends going thru tough times recognize face someone lost live asks im okay ofc say im fine im type guy confess everyting friends im sti kinda waiting feel right honestly im feeling okay feel suicidal thoughts slowly creeping feel always control life worst habits doingm work properly unable sleep even though im always constantly tired going gpa frsshman year dropping feel parentd school raping metaphorically parents sure love fucking expect korean kid noting studying sats tests oh finished track practice worked schoolwork hours stop watching youtube study sat class cant explain well actually hate parents much anything support nothing torment home supposed safe haven youre supposed feel home school home human nature desire education learn keep feeding informatuon education said dtudents dont think theyll tired pizza crave nuch sick im sick school im sick learning im sick grades grades determine whether live streets live house schools courses fucked doesnt allow us major courses want tried killing months ago rope bit thin snapped died blacked bit regain consciousness fortunately unfortunately getting point im fantasizinf hanging buying whole bunch drugs od die dont see life going better life going pretty well recently completr switch direction dont feel living thing thats holding back killing im afraid whats death im religous never religion fabricated lie control people andgive fake hope im afraid death literally nothing scariest thing think im sorry long idk going morning mind pretty boggled friends nice enough send answer hw part lab honestly lovd friends much hope awesome life never deal eith lied things keeping fron killing death guess losing friends important people im sure want advice someone convince wan na talk im caught confused gender sorta rather whether want live die anyways rhanks reading comment anyting want comment kys wouldnt mind cant talk rn im hot girl shit making scenarios head crush fall asleep new bad buh bye ill back clapping stopped ampxb ampxb ampxb nice day u cool ppl figured yet raskreddit autobot deleted original post guess imma go ahead ask possible check chat feature mobile browser dont access pc day tomorrow wont know whats blowing notification chat says anyways point think everyone resistant change mean fr new avatars new avatars theyre designed give customisability everyone hating turned today bye teenagers love sub truly great place young adults know many inspiring achievements genuine advices people age teenage crazy time hope everyone enjoys ps meme reached hot sub one month today ill deadit th birthday perfect timing really one week parents weekend college ill say goodbye family one last time roommate away soccer game one stop hung wall hook ill hang hanging belt everyday thinking look around neck years making ive depressed always joked happy age id end well im im miserable end wanted leave something seem total surprise go unsuccessful overdose attempti dont know right place post im starting little concerned health line number tells go emergency asap soon hear intentional od sunday night attempted redflag ingesting g straight paracetamol well minimum mg temazepam hours later took g paracetamol dizzy nauseous exhausted yesterday monday today tuesday ive developed temperature well still feeling unwell want make sure ill okay see psychiatrist tomorrow afternoon thank rather famous quote show fortress ill show ruin ultramarine probably social flair one used exception serious art meme filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler claims woman nobody believe im exactly sure police came claimed hit flushed cheek show fortunately police able put together actually happened based blood trail thank god sitting hit blood around proved jail something things escalating second time arrested past months assault urge want hurt ruin myselfi urge face tattooi urge want arrested crime go jail even crime commiti urge homeless sleep streets urge hurtruin whats long hard unbearable life inhaled egg boiled eggs cracked open egg slurped dont ask bored still egg shells egg tried shallow threw yeah im sorry trouble dreaming may give movie low rating realize movie made please everyonebr br people sense humorbr br people movie great plays old science fiction movies radio shows long gone witch brated along lines spaceballs airplane may need stretch imagination little bit jokes well worth day posting serbian songs httpsmyoutubecomwatchvlpxheylam little sad story guess idk thank read okay couple weeks ago shit went moved georgia wisconsin drama happened parents told couldnt talk anyone georgia including damn older brother long term girlfriend best friend loved dearly girlfriend amazing person think everyday theres nothing wouldnt give real closure instead someone break tried figure way go behind parents back talk anyway nothing wasnt gon na let date couldnt talk got best friend break said goodbye dont know dont know dont know best friend amazing person everyday school wed fuck around dumb shit fun playing video games mainly fallout sometimes uno yell top lungs raging fun made promise never give intend keep girlfriend people love arent family count days till maybe see remember best friend sitting science th grade always ate chex mix halfway class wed split small bag looked choking hard face red hell supportive best friend laughed hard hit back couple times ah girlfriend class one day teacher handed paper class complete course instead work wrote sentences filling paper front back mine countless amazing times ill never forget chance given meet people better winning lottery chance never able recapture know best friend reddit hes probably sub somehow someway see man love always keep amazing awesome person goodnight new wake pm made th contributions chatting new today im literally drawing rn usual day start point place wisconsinbr br first red tyrannical father forman family wwii veteran sits kitchen table reads newspaper overjoyed wife kitty serves breakfast comes skinny son eric sits table well father starts daily yelling usually involving placing foot erics behind insert reason promiscuous angelfaced sister laurie home comes along red stops yelling kindly talks making eric feel left familybr br daily painful ritual eric rushes basement friends already hanging see becomes obvious eric redhead tomboy girlfriend nextdoor neighbor childhood friend donna pinciotti sanest people around meet steven hyde conspiracy theorist hates disco really care whats around long funny watch michael kelso kind guy thinks life looks carrots grow trees jackie burkhardt one thinks prettiest girl around spoiled kid rich father course cheerleader fez naive oversexed foreigner loves candy cant keep secret first simply hang gossiping making fun kelso sit circle let real fun begin going something theyll regret laterbr br meanwhile red goes meets donnas weirdo parents bob midge hes rude mind think hes joking somewhere around leo aging hippie whos constantly confused makes word plays without even noticingbr br imagine seemingly peaceful neighborhood awesome characters course seem clichd show takes clich new level throw wicked story lines sitcom offer sit enjoy one best tv shows one never two times thing compared sitcoms cute funny purely hysterical hooked let show let go bite hook man see sitcom genre whole new prospective cant stay functionable two daysnor hopeful matter though hopeful even peace began freshmen year college first finals week everything feels fake barely find comfort online redflag resources half depression might never better kill live miserably next years half even worse well need things depression keeps keeps bed bed mean yeah act depression still guess im depressed sake insufferable burden family revel making people mad argue sorta treatment developed used actual psychologists hope know better brain works spent lot money yk guess cant follow probably secretly subconsciously dont want better bc im shitty person wtv idk whats catch im extra pissy bc havent found anything worth staying considered notterrible future realistically attainable s im yk feel crap corner web psychologist country able make feel better still feel bc im lazy liar everything better wont bc ive become complacent wtv last psychologist told sorry rambling post im crisis bc college life demands act reasonable human im unable productive way guess college happening unfortunately dont much option dying bc family going accept living daughter attend college saw first time uk tv good musical accompaniment elevator scene class especially goingdown thing phone booth fiddles floorindicator jump transom really impressive theres much apart stuff thats mentioned theres fight man whos bullying woman dog looks simple drawback plot gets mixed dead eye dan escapes reappear even gangsters involved later scene looks hes shooting fat inspector funny better dead eye one pulling trigger feel dead inside completely losti really know anymore ive felt dead inside months redflag constant thought front mind means end life tonight backup case wake know effective cant think reason continue trying live worried dadi got text aunt asking call dad worried answer talked earlier today call goes right voicemail hes answering anyones texts nobody knows exactly hes working somewhere missouri hours away anyone know lives anything try help point although really remember mom says admitted years ago kept hospital days prescribed medicine good last couple years apparently sort thing becoming pattern took meds ago hes posted dramatic things facebook make everyone comment whats wrong etc done anything hard worry anything work still depressing still feel overwhelmed left behind lot things know one thing always seem forget deep thoughts awesome people still side one coworker depressed vented tailgate truck break smoked cigar coworker fine hes inviting people outings told ok still go together days hes goto lot things feel losing past month making damn sure keeping thing look forward time time love spending time shooting shit know favorite thing people picture harder truly vent things chest people invited cool lot shit past month friend understand hope go next weekend long overdue group thing whenever anyway completely depressed trying hang something know everything ok love coworkers know lose buddy crazy lately need forget things tired moving forward matter make better person still feel shit fuck everything fuck life hate time needs come soon ready let go nobody give fuck anyways think world better exist anymore improve quite ways polishing turd still good enough maybe go good enough anyone friends certainly partner pick hobbies feel deserve smile ugly thing smile talent silly create anything hate ugly creating something beautiful ironic feel lie early s beginning bald top head god real cruel sense humor let us add messed already thanks feel envious people effortlessly obtain friendships notredflag people time lives partying hanging friends hooking things never gotten see everyone around feeling good feeling happy fun feeling shameful likely never experience anything close daily wish experience move done want keep missing want life stop laughing know even improve still never going good enough anyone ugly talentless stupid receding hair clock ticking become truly lost anyway bi rejected absolutely everyone sight wish things better wake one day longer care always going alone apologies wasting time writing felt therapeutic good enough pls let diei want badly dead come forest planning killing didnt bring anything though looking suitable tree hang hope weekend even tomorrow night going take planning need everything order much easier drop dead car crash hurting possibly cope highstandard columbo story actually first filmed episode longrunning series originally transmitted second murder bookbr br robert culp makes first three appearances guest murderer series plays owner private detective agency blackmails wife patricia crowley rich highly influential businessman played sympathetically ray milland falsifies report favour discovered affair wife later rebels blackmail scheme killed fit ragebr br satisfying episode many respects particularly plot strongly setup subsequently developed rare columbo ingredient crime unpremeditated killing whole thing enhanced widowed husband uses murderer assist columbo investigations feature facilitates numerous good quality scenes particularly first sequence three central characters meet columbos crucially deceptive qualities wonderfully evidencebr br directed flair bernard l kowalski acted appropriately high level really set tone whole series murder book let poor ending script columbo creators richard levinson william link precise wellstructured wellthoughtout underpinned steady productive pace meaningful sequences really exhibit unpredictability story ultimately finale fittingly epitomises columbo always one step ahead murdererbr br overall fine piece detective work columbo strongly suggests production team worked notredflagly constructively render polished columbo story im scaredi cant anymore cant really cant tried im still alive wan na want work im tired literally forever started prozac mg month ago recently started upping dose mg recommendation doctorrecently feeling bit less exhausted depressed never feel optimistic think happiness end go back suicidal thoughts idea expect anyone share experiences prozacantidepressants relief last forever understand difficult breathe okay past traumas attack endlessly ruins present making want look forward future much write know start sure saying anonymously going help feel empty writing hope wake tomorrow want end tired want live anymore neither want kill tried times already gave failed fucking times loljokes know tell everything joined community know fucked sharing family make fuckin difference many times tried hinting hey fucked want wake tomorrow way family help brushed lol family depression even real devils workthat makes work short know putting effort waste anyone reads post let know okay share reasons made way today bother please use harsh commands civil straight thanks hard accept whatever life told mom want alive anymore energy able survive said going let die one cats wasting away let die feel waste time worry resources black hole sucking life everyone around keeping alive contribute nothing feel kept alive animal zoo working girl kitty sothern engaged bill kelly neglects working long hours garage order save money marriage stood birthday kitty goes doubledateblind date meets department store heir bob hartwell hamilton falls love leaves protestations love appear cover desire mistress rather wife faithful bill rallies round comfort last gives repeated requests reinstate engagement pressured part bills support family loses job bob returns convinced wants marriage kitty follow heart conscience br br film lot better id expected character bill first comes sort loud comic irishman type jack carson played often kelly script infuse character real compassion love bill turns best person entire group viewers may find rooting feckless hartwell tone film wavers lighthearted romance much darker side especially depiction dance marathon rather horrific accident bills garagebr br cast rounded dependable jane darwell kittys mother impish yet thoroughly obnoxious mickey rooney kittys younger brother spencer charters kittys neerdowell father spaghetti westerns made got top twenty somewhere believe received reviews gemma excellent van johnson good though dubbed voice little killter thats charm italian style beautiful photography excellently staged action supporting characters well played severity racist streak bad guys pretty tough even todays standards creates emotional depth gemmas character situations take place absolutely fantastic score luis bacalov see wonderful wide screen dvd japan spaghetti must speak swedish swedish original title film rnarna translates something line robbers fact main problem film cause really robbers young woman working swedish police researching robberies regular desk job one think girl soon field taking matters hands story goes even shooting one robbers exactly weve seen fact theres rather interesting twist plot halfway really help ending clich first two thirds filmbr br saves another mainstream film fact masterfully executed ways actors great overact director really manages keep thrillingly exciting storybr br one thing really loved film fact music sets right mood needed absent rest time gives nice sense reality shootouts carchases spread throughout film nice touch fact michael persbrandt one swedish actors often tend typecasted sadly hurts film know hes going play boyfriend heroine supporting character background thats something neglectbr br entertaining film steals money plot time anyone ottawa ontario im looking people ottawa area talk cant ph cuz vote im illegal wtf ph went told ph let unless vote kick polling place know whenim debating living know want anymore ive litterally drowned alcohol past years attempts wake anymore lot sleeping pills anti anxiety meds done trick body keeps rejecting idea past ex aborted kid long ago friend committed redflag shooting head standing behind living room family non existent keep telling okay let go constant reminder prebuilt fear continually replays lock apartment cant go outside attempts block anything bad happeningthe redflag large part cant let anyone based fear another committing redflag fear go im religious sure whole afterlife thing reddit time fear come asking help ive seen doctors meds therapy nothing opened view perpetual state mind ask opinionshelp keep replaying quote im ready die nobody save head im year old male help please help im tired feeling hurt pain suffering going every day poor animals getting tortured exploited humans pleasure nature poor ppl third world countries hurtsthe monotony typical day day life cities work eat social media tv sleep especially work taking much lives makes rly hate living hate hate living world disgusting even makes ashamed human bc amount suffering causing beings every dayit hurts sad say find rly difficult sense turn things live blissful ignorance enjoying little things silly little hobbies tv shows whatnoti simply see point thingsi life lot things within control focus make happierbut turn blind eye horrible things happy happy things going everydayi stand live worldi want diei want diei find strange brain always want die want die want die actually realistically suicidal planning suicide anything doubt brave enough want badly enough actually take action probably case keep thoughts want die really badly want exist guess good world nowhere near enough negate hurt suffering pain goes everyday planeti tired want herei want seem take anymore living world vengeancei f want shoot school hopefully lot casualties bombs involved bombs even harder guns anyways want kill students school ones live better lives particular ones live typical teenage life ones boyfriends ones clubs ones passionate career future ones eager live life ones specifically want kill one thing theyre soooo happy excited wake everyday normies want kill let friends watch kill kill inconsiderate teachers ones failed last year stupid fucking neckbeard stupid fucking drawings plays childrens video games steam fucking child stupid fucking arrogant teacher specify never know oh son id take great pleasure knowing normie sun live rest life stupid faot dad dead massacre end miserable life weird sometimes im suicidal hell sometimes think allon days reall suicidal point stepped balcony ready jump hands full pills ready swallow days really think never head episode comes goes really randomly okay actually wrong reddit word yet every red house tells got first one please stop dont people reply agree arguing much fun circlejerking greet tomorrow finally going back college break im gon na see partner tomorrow greet hand red bull say angel needs wings normal tackle hugs wan na know shitty pickup line good idea love caffeine wonderful little film truly creative funsomething see seldom movies film begins russia fall communist government result society seems chaos life yet improve old regime gone dirty cities crime lack housing still plague poor residents st petersburgbr br scene bleakness uncertainty comes idealistic music teacher among without home finally gets letter government tells tiny room nearby flat arrives place mess people seem friendly enough lovely party middle night awakened old lady walking giant wardrobe room half expecting lucy kids lion witch wardrobe come didnt shocked anything first decide soon investigate instead clothes closet wardrobe opens paris residents flat respond magical gateway really intriguing music teacher thrilled awe others pragmatic mostly concerned looting everything paris gateway closes russian thieves awful peoplegreedy coarse crude deepvery deepare hearts gold metaphor nation brink capitalism first run amok grabbing everything later reveal depthbut mostly act much guests jerry springer show film many twists turns funny mesmerizing negative due harsh language nude scene albeit funny one film kids real shame minor editing great family film seriously thinking killing days itd pretty good daymajor theme thinking killing days ampxb constant downing one xanax pill time swing booze repeat one gone ampxb cant take pain feel love life boyfriened ex boyfriend shitty person person ampxb background want know skip known young kids loved years ended marrying wrong girl fast forward years reconnect instantly fall love long time coming especially told loved young chose ampxb dating years first year half broke got distant busy grad school independent need space hobbies driven passions interest friends goals etc friends goals purpose lot time looked fulfillment life soon busy stressed fantastic girlfriend time yes grad school breakdowns real reeling depression abortion things tried make understand times didnt acted toxic sometimes depressed sometimes etc ampxb first time got distant year half relationship started seeing new girl behind back found lost go stand outside house hours winter telling feel depressed stressed much love better chose said fun exciting option going pass fast forward month half later decided go home day work kill right called talked forever called every day came house days later saying broke wanted rebound never liked never told planning kill guy friend periodically make advances never made advances next two months hang rebound ex rub face saw house crying waiting come home ampxb next year good months bad months good summer break grad school grad school started became obsessed spending every waking moment parents house kids house point every day hang say hes going hang parents fast forward never came grandpas funeral hang days later christmas mad mad priority day go shopping parents never stop funeral start middle february got mad one night went friends broke calling night passing got mad kept breaking mad told getting back together talk work things first weeks take wanted right said waiting shows sure last weeks built shrine things living room began texting trying work things argue always defaults arguing last week went going stay night tried sex said yet need take slower got mad told leave week talked angry argued finally day im im sick arging lets stop really work problems maybe therapy honest wrote page letter mature explaing activiely really mkae work blocked blocked days something often ampxb habits whenever seem need time away form arguing stressing step back comes full force coming house middle night texting calling whatever whenever steps away says hes done days ago blocked throw knees begging literally outside house hours cant say many times hes locked deaed winter text calls etc seems likes want even though said done built shrine invited week ago kid loves thinks im one things wrong ampxb now great girlfriend first im intp im heavily displaying emotions deep emotions overthinking brain drives insane every day life great boyfriend either argue worse never cheated never wanted anyone even though selflove issues friends hobbies relying happiness ampxb wrong said never made priority grad school difficult im extensive program one morning beautiful happy weekend went school stayed went dinner fell asleep friends house never called got angry next morning broke instantly wanted back got mad keeps saying hes done every time mad things feel mad mad break someone constantly say want marry grad school hard excuse weeks ago made cookies accept went house kicked together hang time even told day last broke want go special night loves ampxb knows bad last year chose girl month half think hell come around idk cant take waiting pain deal heartbreak well never wanted kill stop pain someone besides third time feeling thinking house gets home work know sounds dumb love within bit presence love cant unblock tell wants work happy ampxb anyways considering aim days tuesday perfect day plus beautiful sit outside pop drink hour ampxb suggestions different ways questions additional helpful methods first time wanted knew told please truly loves im killing back cant take pain caused us ampxb thanks ampxb coming closet turn gt frank ocean replies one tell favorite frank album ok ill go first favorite endless favorite song album either slide higgs theyre actually fave songs time frank fave artist time cries tldr thinking friends brokeup soulmates may heading secondbest option long post please read interested complicated realtionships take maybe short novel friends got together inseparable instant soulmates know imagined whole life together almost immediately never even thinking breakup years best couple know fighting respecting greatly higher connection sure live anymore going insane inside mindhey ive deep state depression pain time gotten point feel trapped mentally able much anything job yearim ive seasonal work community limited work ive hard time getting one ive tried lot put utmost im really afraid afraid committing ad hearing schedule im tried drained time sleep day often feel weak feel im going insane boredom cant much live hill outskirts town neighborhood next sage hills okay im feeling im trapped alone environment driving insane mentally ive mainly house long time leaving go sometimes town afternoon stuff mom dad pushes go stuff days sometimes causes lot anxiety conflicts try excersize im afraid mental block cant hard explain really feel cant move life im mentally right dad angry complains lot verbally abusive mom somewhat understands completely im therapy helping much almost wonder need go hospital inpaitient therapy im afraid uncertain asked therpaist says inpaitient mainly people danger hurting cant lay home much longer feel unwell even think mind everyday know im suffering lot want harm im scared cant go way thanks support still hereim still bc family sometimes wish nice go people make hot text posts images videos feel much easier text posts ive seen one text post hot genuinely thought deserved post guy saying horny fucking cuming block cheese much harder funny shitposts text damn cold goddamn degrees texas mention powers even know anymore really well im imma leave dream reddit femboy porn person uwu goodbye love feel appropriate posting kinds content account need help know itthings getting better never thought million years go far cut face obvious spot already insecure face going two huge four deep scars look accident heck made xs dumbest person anyways thighs stomach arms almost neck tears disappointed done suffer bipolar disorderbipolar depression many things really especially schizophrenic anger issues delusions knowing really fantasy getting way treating others lashing majorly even wrote fck piece paper blood sent someone okay cared slowly hating one one cant control emotions trust around anyone feel seriously hurt someone many times thought week hopes happy new life might even change something quite beautiful butterfly knows want go hated cant help blade justice used passed feeling woozy relief really left feel even empty trust alright cant even escape self everyday repeated skew voices sound real everyone finds crazy go kill urself already smash ur head wall hard hard hit cant stop told cant freaking stop told im waste time im unmedicated freak much time left im parasite everyone around meim nothing worthless scared stupid socially anxious lazy pos live gfs family free provide absolutely nothing thing work transport vehicles know thats permanent thing im college going th year yearold ive gotten nowhere even know life major desperation move honestly ive seizures im hoping ill blackout die incredibly peaceful im scared means asian family want disown find im still graduating wish give something back im worthless anything skills typing fast wpm video games rapping music thing makes incredibly happy hopeless think succeed talented artists ive tried applying ton desk jobs require talking strangers cant even work cash register start shaking forgetting everything require degree experience nothing offer really wish kid ive always dreamed getting poor mother things deserves taking care sister sucks im deathly afraid hate many things wrong even work properly fastfood jobs worked back gives literally almost collapse hurts bad especially one place give breaks gone gf richer guy take care better medical condition along person cant provide anything family even deserve kindness deserve anything ampxb longer block text accidentally highlighted deleted accident detailed honestly matter read stupid post thank taking time day even read sad post great day everyone hope everything goes well guess favorite colour shoot feel fit world anymoresince ive head concussion years ago struggle lot feeling permeates everything career peers family past times everything used enjoy quickly becomes boring tedious try enjoy take break feel cant really relate anyone anymore im constantly faced feeling misunderstood marriage destroyed feel ive let children father sort present ive lucky fortunate life despite growing abuser stuff got concussion struggle exist today im session friend another state blue asked opinions different methods redflag trying different depression drugs therapies nothing shakes feeling im meant world fit anymore cant figure shake feeling see path forward anymore still upset friend apologised making mistake invited sleepover said loved shes forever still feel sad still dont feel happy need girlfriend im bored im bored right now need girlfriend real shit wtf average year old boy cm tall im cm average guess nice hope die hopefully hit car bus people oh accident connect depression intense actors bruce dern jason patrick rachel ward combine make modernday film noir winner three know interesting offer good performances intriguing charactersbr br patric narration noir playing exboxer mental patient wow alone makes interesting guy looks dumb isnt ward slinky attractive cynical intelligent compassionate co conspirator kidnapping plan goes bad bruce dern mix dern never fails fascinate filmbr br movie considered kind downer average viewer found fascinatingand depressing movies normally found kind quirky crime film take look see agree pretty unknown film status simply good story welldone shouldve never borndo feel even born life much chaos im honestly considering entire life mistake honestly feel never left fetus alive im root many problems including problems ive considering redflag realize wont solve anything wrote redflag notei heard somewhere helps write redflag note feel dying think last words youd say people tried honestly feel worse redflag note want die thanks advice yall got advice magnificent people months back expect work ive talking girl quickly became best friend im gon na ask weeks im finally seeing year telling make happy im cute share lot interests want see think shell say yes whats best way ask im happiest ive long time really happy yea really happy right now yup call transgender avatar gender bender really enjoy want break either silly sometimes think im making bigger deal insecure fact high school boyfriend one actually asked date slept together every guy always turned come sex guy maintains wants nothing serious nowhere comes really strong marriage kids talk isolate girl friend group talk title says want know better way weve talked group really anything big know away everyone though alright guys im going bed hope everyone lovely day night etc anyone hard time cant guarantee better know im hoping will goodnight im horrible person dont even deserve diebecause dying biggest wish thats know petty reason sad dragging pretty badly mind hates overeat sleep well pervasive redflag sprinkled good measure spite actually somehow making good progress terms losing weight getting better running probably going go window got shin splints hurts hell run now took much fucking effort point forcing go spite incredibly sad tired fucking time wanting sleep day ran regularly able fucking laundry break habit order recover sure feel sad disgusting able really run mostly one good habit actually able form keep length time might start sorry probably overly dramatic constantly supports ripped body listen urgent friend considering redflag dohes considering redflag know talk leg fucking burns help ive tried everything lotion vaporub showering leg still burns left calf remedies really hurts happens tell therapist im suicidal thoughtshi ive dealing depression years year hardest far havent able redflag mind months im scared die whenever im alone cant help think killing realize need professional help ive never therapist scared tell dont want sent mental hospital want honest therapist go dont see point going disclosing feelings theyre gunna send hospital wont go posting post got deleted nostupidquestions thanks evil professor moriarty plots gain control sherlock holmes secret weapon win war nazisbr br basil rathbone nigel bruce return screen sir arthur conan doyles beloved detective sidekick sherlock holmes dr watson entertaining little mystery universal studios wasted money either fancy production values sensible script knowing two stars attraction audience need indeed rathbone cerebral ego bruce bumbling id seem actually become characters creating gleefully keeping faces straight engaged utter nonsensebr br dennis hoey makes first appearance dogged inspector lestrade scotland yard teamed bruce two goodhearted pedantic fellows actually save intellectually superior holmes life twice lionel atwill master sinister deserves recognition talent fine job moriarty making wicked rascal foe worthy holmes steel relishing scenes gets inflict torture painbr br william post jr kaaren verne play swiss scientist girlfriend heart mystery theyre given much sweet mary gordon makes token appearance holmes landlady mrs hudsonbr br rathbone spices already classic interpretation holmes getting appear disguise three times story thereby revealing viewer great sleuth bit ham actor heartbr br filmwhich based loosely elements sir arthurs short stories dancing men empty housefollowed sherlock holmes voice terror preceded sherlock holmes washington never go itsurvival instincts fucking powerful planning weeks feeling prepared right im standing edge instincts kick cant fucking funny cant even kill good enoughim antidepressant makes feel okay things okay running time years old time success kids dwindling think happy rich beautiful women marry social economic class think overly narrow say yes every date difficult even dont think better try taje better photos hate seeing face thinning hair see gorgeous women every day go downtown make sad know id never catch eye wish felt good enough deserve good things accept good things happen deserve death really scared im going kill anyone fucks family cant stop thinking smashing someones head hitting bat im scared something starts im going stop fuck wrong composition posts wan na die crush uwu ask hey guys im streaming game watch stream insert twitch link lgbt related guys help momdadteacherother adult life fucking asshole stop single suicidal thoughts feel end coming soon work good job apartment car travel regularly friends motivation make friends meet women recently started paying cremationno viewing memorial funeral home disposing ashes moved shitty apartment e decent one quit drinking sought professional help anything therapists said goes one ear sick alone help know want help waiting pay cremation right going motions making look putting effort reality mind already made final purchase gauge using reason buy tempted use well planned suicide deserve thisim hell im depressed live middle nowhere best friend significant stabbed back different times past month replaced within week ive got nobody now little brother attacks constantly father screams im oldest child mother hates called names anywhere go ive got reason live anymore last month life finally going well everything fell apart nono pleasures smiles relaxation recreation conversation loneliness interruption deed done bullet shatters skull weakdo know phrase redflag permanent solution temporary problem cant job deadend town thats temporary problem right cut ties father hell never satisfied maybe maybe need vent maybe need way look pros cons really supportive grandmother girlfriend theyre probably reason committed redflag yet guess weak people problems sr makes special right hate want people give random strangers close wanting give know feel worthless broke alone life throwing shit us one care thats think feel im tired struggling cant take strange dream yesterday basically standing dark room suddenly dwayne johnson appeared accidentally stabbed lightsaber didnt even know hand suddenly everything back normal woke mean exactly force sensitive want gone birthdaythis first time posing reddit birthday wednesday ive decided tonight want dead im therapy nothing working want go sleep never wake ive struggled self harming years first time days clean im throwing away tonight need work courage episode thirteen fanciful excuse incredibly gay terminology supernatural tv series relocates sam dean winchester missouri called upon old flame deans investigate string mysterious murders occurring small town turns large pickup truck unseen driver running african americans desolate stretch road dean attempts rekindle past love affair towns people turn roadkill cause appears due past racial incident back s causing frustrated redneck spirit remain ghostly limbo seeking kill black motorists route another good installment uncommon ive noticed contains notable aspects pertaining pair main characters dean getting laid sams admitted regret left college killer truck doest come across terrifying thing world though hour long show job well handsdown fantastic episode solid concept horror movie references gf broke got mad next day bc didnt want back together bad grades got grounded got phone taken thought ghosting said breaking thinking lying constantly mental health problems seems decided good idea next day got texts saying wanted back together wasnt thinking clearly even tho said thought least week starts getting mad wanting date anymore make right decision given time thought im big disappointment im asian parents want good grades two grades dropped complete garbage due bullshit supposed ap gov teacher assigned group project group evaluation someone decided work dropped grade entire group failing grade dropped overall grade points b disappointed parents cant anything points back bio grade dropped well turnitins shitty plagiarism report working group online test even though supposed someone needed help needed help already done someone asked answer question asked copy answer word word sure enough copied answer word word lost points turned test first looking test teacher absolutely hates plagiarism subject im actually good math going great either pretty bad first two tests one test guaranteed good grade three four days lock absent day test go two day field trip ended day lock started now teacher let take test unfair testing environment leaving shit grade math top literally nothing going brother got accepted good school lot friends succeeding im shit public high school friends parents expecting successful brother point near impossible im athletic talli often mistaken fifth grader im ninth grade little extracurricular activities even good personality back failures want die point even courage know doive suicidal six years want hurt family even made attempt ive come close several times first complicated plan drown two failsafes sure later considered finding something tall enough jump think comes ill take belt hang anywhere scares easy im afraid die want hurt people really wanted kill typing still worry eventually ill exceptionally bad day decide last reasons kill almost years old living mother along well im sure point want independent move feel burden serious issues anxiety kept comfortable around people entire life deeply introverted shy figure hermits afford food house might problems selfdiagnosed aspergers syndromeautism spectrum disorder ashamed considered faker official diagnosis almost cried realized possess nearly traits associated asd understand greater detail make life much easier job car quit college social demands giving panic attacks know know well ive never good knowing people job cant find one give panic attacks good introvertjobs replaced machines ive considered volunteering feel im burden society cant even muster strength go school supposed help people cant even breathe im surrounded strangers one passion something cant make living make music music love fringe people consider music kind music gets labelled pretentious music write pop song tried hate popular music awful theres small niche kind music small unless radio starts playing avantgarde noise passion hobby feel world hostile people im normal yes ive heard every possible variation idea theres thing normal thats lie world accommodating people average money sex love adventure none things appeal pop culture sports cant really relate anyone wants desires alien everyone meet im weak thats boils im simply weak world scares idea navigate want functioning independent adult every attempt ive made leaves depressed anxious suicidal guess see doctor last thing want financially burden mother course im sure shed rather dead thank reading although others commented video edited version two shows fire space living legend watch original shows find dialogue video edition edited found video version much better scenes lines added say want see show original version see video versions vhs offer fan original episodes offered dvd now another good video conquest earth scenes galactica actual broadcasts overall rate gives enjoy networks wanted show time slot gave producers maria braun got married right middle combat around husband hermann explosion ripped building begin hermann sign papers pile rubble street perhaps may strike heavyhanded metaphor whats come marriage rocks speak betrothal husband goes war held russian prison camp unbenownst helpless hopeful proud maria keeps standing depressing rubble train station come home others dont sign awaiting hermannbr br trouble arises happens rainer werner fassbinders melodramas one best provocative see maria uncommonly gorgeous hanna schygulla role twoface shell stand man even means working bar american gis even still hears fellow soldier hermann died still stand sleeps black gi comes close bearing child naturally reappears murder occurs takes rap safe working german businessman effectively sympathetic ivan desny becoming sometimes mistress rising star company maria whatever takes successful shell always marriedbr br hard say theres anything maria fascinating money sex power become interchangeable maria feminist cake eats sultry smile gets husband less actually lot less last ten minutes film obtaining things man dotes whenever new expensive house servants secretary money others around getting due already man weak position rise anywhere secretary played interestingly enough fassbinders motherbr br maria sexy confident alone idealized life going life made shade says two men american soldier poor old sick oswald fond time stick roses confused soulsearching husband hermann sends canada released prison casts profile feminist love trounce understand coming going waybr br fassbinder employs inherent contradiction moments maria appear go conventions melodrama example hermann walking jubilant halfnaked maria gi masterpiece scene marias reaction surprise guilt pure happiness see hes let alone alive sticking guns director highminded technique storyline predictable really one big metaphor country war really move normalcy times fassbinder puts sound radio background see maria walking around family house hustle bustle going around radio speaks divided germany things still unsettled disarray maybe way cope excess maybe thats interpretation itbr br hard tell really schygullas stare face eyes anyway incredible performance really one showstoppers captures glamor allure oldtime hollywood female star downanddirty ethic girl streets telling opposing costumes one sees one scene finally husband stars one superlustful black lingerie pieces high heels moves dress without even thinking thats almost essence maria schygulla wonderfully gets headstrong somehow loving figure adored perplexed men around sometimes single sentence fassbinder captures wonderful first part trilogy might overall prefer veronika voss masterpiece maria braun perhaps good character study makes woman tick tock almost nothing lose whyi dont want end people say hurt arent hurt im nobody shell im person thats mentally dead whats point witnessed wholesome moment mom dad im christian dad mom new year enrolled online bible study group whatsapp group nowadays act high school couples gossip share homework idk feel really good every new year past years mom dad fighting feels good seeing happy much said film typical nunsploitation course nudity sex nuns almost incidental storybr br set th century italy time martyrdom christians otranto battle muslims christians takes good part film interesting everyone running muslim hoards mother superior ask fear muslims anything christians done certainly enough torture sidesbr br sister flavia florinda bolkan sent convent defying father process witnesses endures many things gelding stallion rape local woman new duke torture nun overcome visit tarantula sect whipping ran jew torture particularly gruesome hot wax poured nun nipples cut offbr br sister flavia bound continue trouble questions maledominated society lives even asks jesus father son holy ghost menbr br eventually joins leader muslims lover sack convent see flesh possible enjoy one time tragedy come manages exact sweet revenge including duke father finds muslim lover treats exactly woman itbr br describe holy men church heretic end predates torture saw hostel decadesbr br nunsploitation fans satisfied treats movie lovers find plenty meat digest closer closer everydayi cant explain ive seen counselor make feel piece shit im broke live parents stuck job hate pays crap im stuck hole cant cant help cry even smallest things everyday thoughts ending gun loaded dresser keep staring need partner probably cringy af ive never partner entire life feel fucking lonely time want someone care go dates know cute shit im bi f best worlds sure worth postingive posted support helped im sure want need cant help feeling done living know post doesnt give conext situation feel im done amp dont feel worthy anymore dont want put mother losing child basically im place amp advicesupport welcome im going jump story building head firstafter ex broke two many years ago ive pretty much undateable adhd ive become drifter grunt dead end job dreams life shattered even surprised always brother ive third wheeling parents ocd hoarders friends seen years realizing girls going want whenever sincerely try improve fate crash brick wall know understand cuz im average intelligence fuck society judgmental everyday feel im facing judgment day im single unwanted alone nervous pale fuck im sick im sick infatuated women fucking guys told gets better im sick hell dont deserve happyok lemmie start saying probably glad hear ive sort good place past week havent cynical pessimistic little shit people havent contemplated redflag first time long time im thinking right actually getting better another mood swing mean either way simply feel though dont deserve tell theres people desperate feel happy probably need getting better cuz may late post ive made redflag attempts lifetime counting really stop attempting unless im truly sure im gon na go im gon na go see one last movie grandparentsthe im gonei dare change mind boxim already dead body caught fact yet single joblesscareerless count friends people feel pity one hand thousands dollars debt living shit hole apartment ugly social skills wish someone walk behind shoot back head im thinking joining military im afraid getting maimed killed cant kill willpower instead exist colorless limbo waiting die every second im alive literally feels eternity suffering im fully aware cheesy sounds truth feel thousand years old everyones dad give privacy yells basic things throws counters calls disappointment makes depressed insults people school dad ive feeling shit past days anyone talk im close enough friends want family know problems want someone talk irl maybe hug fifthdoor please see reply posts show upplease see reply school ended best felt back pick right things say worry waking early think school around people thing feel free think thoughts care others might think thoughts goodbye redflag weeks school crushes instead killing self ive decided disappear new country start new lifehey reddit really need help make long story short senior college majoring finance bank account ive major depression past two years enjoy life ive thought killing self escape decided better run away different country need advice country go passport tips ideas pull little strings younger mother tell hold together little strings never really understood meant back understand strings little things life friend tell ok bright sunny day sound birds trees im trying hold things want lose hope better future unfortunately strings seem snapping day day something new pushes im struggling stand im struggling hold recognize anymore sadness comes goes end day im left empty stare ceiling hoping find something inside worth saving cant help think sometimes im worth saving body dysmorphia bangin rn want new brain please posting daily gf day turns mom getting remarrieddivorced dad almost years ago moving km away move granpas place least rest year school friends life wac school sucking dryyyyyy mom said looked dead earlier cuz purpleish rings eyes weird cuz ive getting decent sleep hrs im ready weekend two projects study finals next week one two monday math test tomorrow bio lab test retake morning dont even time workout rowing team talk friends want next week go quickly back workouts video games friends hate shit mentally im fine ive worse im tired going similar pushing last week know uve got thanks coming ted talk ill regret posting couple hours goodbye familyim writing answer committed redflag family one question want sympathy im trying attention seeking stop reading stop wasting time fifthteen years old want kill know questioning much life ahead well ive reached point life better severely overweight ugly stupid depressed nobody want deal real crappy future ahead im honor student straight asthere goes chance going good college matter anyway never afford loan even go good school us family ask love much except dad im sick dealing piece shit care booze anything treats us crap whenever stand make things worse yeah theres theres girlfriend probably read last post btw thats got part time job wanted spend time deal guilting making monster made promise met kill didnt might gone know im sorry best friend used talk online briefly mentioned stop mentioning killed life know son responsible two deaths always happy joking around want help know im sad im im supposed problems bottle emotions already killed emotionally im disposing corpse feel useless waste space cant handle life anymore im sorry goodbye make custom alarm got audio perfect alarm yo modern warfare lets fucking play cap send usernames funny intelligent sense realistic comedy yearold trying live first love vacation complex sometimes amusing sometimes touching relation divorced father growing daughter far women nicole teenager go man loves laughed lot lively scenario never drags hard keep going dont anything look forward anymoreim going really bad cycle depression right now havent felt way nearly killed self maybe even worse cant take anymore want well school want study work hard cant bring cant bring keep room clean drink water shower anything life isnt worth living stay nights hating beyond words im badly school im stressed dont want live anymore every day going awful cycle dont know hate much hate want drink want drugs want kill want anything keep pushing away people love cant bring tell anyone whats happening im numb cry cry anger hate issues body cant bear living life doesnt feel worth nobody understands bad makes even frustrated grades terrible want good beyond words want well school dreams want follow need good grades achieve able apply cant cant bring makes hate mad enough dont know whats wrong dont know fix starting feel late dont think find keep living life tiredive feeling tired unhappy remember ive tried everything years therapy many antidepressants never helped unhappy want tired forever better overdose soon opiates benzodiazepines alcohol promethazine probably take long time anyone even notice gone reader please take care thank listening ahhaha found problem past relationships turns emotionally abusive clue feel total fucking asshole wan na die yayyyy today good day ampxb well hand ik need change sooooooo guys keep itmy parents thing keeping know theyre people devastated even urge hard sometimes tell keeps going rip phones audio lost abillity make audio horniness went jack bathroom dropped phone toilet hear audio headphones drop f comments pay respects phones audio heres good advice kids close lid jacking toilet religious atheist want know percent religious teenagers think atheists wrong often band together reunion concert find cant together concert shear brilliance start finish three musicians obviously got together beforehand plotted planned needed ensure nostalgic bash satisfy someones ego obvious start even step stage many faces crowd even born guys first performed first song capture old magic cream men instruments fuss clapton admission said stretch concert keyboards synthesizers etc see best ginger baker demonstrates many drummers today speak sort drumming guru jack bruce great really managed put together piece magic stand test time many years come ones im genuinely concerned person earlier year quarantine m met dude m minecraft server became friends played together months youtube channel discord two months ago tho told crushing female leaderboard player server wanted ask week later discord got rejected told gutted even set status message depressing shit seemed depressed af fast forward weeks later last time met apparently yr old gf hes talking wanting sex normal yr old ik thought weird always next day blocked discord relationship going perfectly smoothly today remembered quick search subscribers didnt see channel anywhere im srsly concerned great friend losing willwhen individual loses live nothing anyone say bring back heaven knows stop others trying others sense limited powers curing mental illness think light switch turned will sufferer cancer mind embedded physical brain ill patient growing day fully consumes body directs severely mentally ill patient understands position cosmos time goes knows pass never return understands ultimate doom escape madness everywhere kills one illness blaze supernova star exist shone time done shining time blew candle us see doom allconsuming preventing life happening take passion hang matter days regrets leave spouse leave offspring family members grieve death natural life cured walking along hiking path breathing fresh air watching trees leaves ruffle breeze birds still fly fish still swim life death family friends dogi love much want anymore cant enjoy life thought psychedelics make feel better made fascinated dying everyone nobody tries stand anymore nobody talks feelings anymore nobody expresses im currently laying next dog looking makes want cry love much devastated left im much pain long time really want anyone feel way ill try ride days still feel im going eat whole bottle xanax vodka science teacher said wikipedia reliable prophecies true told us send anyone believed wise teacher chad use wikipedia information without ridicule hell yeah got bio test well class average guess im bit better aye different teens hi people different different fact alien im saturanian saturn hi day got sexually assaulted cousin context im dude forgot years ago chilling watching thursday night football cousin right next shes touching hand giggling hops top attempting give lap dance time muscles skinny short fit ran played basketball starts pulling shorts im trying stop wont finally kick chest run never told parents really popular girl school considering telling everyone tarnishing reputation feel bad want please give idea finish something spectaculari maybe look someone weak year worst point im life look really sad girl love break victim manipulation harassment girlspeoples school live solitude darkness several months feeling joker alone crazy one understand want make massacre andor kill rejected without friend school wanted join completely forgot file study addition destroying exciting job tempted liked studying find another school harassment start silence witness madness thing miss way need help weird super nsfw dk tingles dont know feels super weird thinking kill suicidalstruggled depression whole life im spot right second im faced lot things coming together potentially disappointing lot people including kids mainly feel shallow pointless useless thing im even sad im empty feel suicidal think redflag daily think easy turn car bridge divider easy take entire bottle sleeping pills wonder feel able actually slit wrists bring reasons many reasons right now hurt cause people still big priority want hurt people love made mistake telling husband things think daily hes freaking feel theres distinction thinking redflag suicidal really convinced plan except ways think ive sat put calendar maybe im denial maybe suicidal want kill want alive prospect facing future overwhelming feel worry point desire hurt people around overtaken desire live asked tell got point answered honestly know think honestly point caring hurt pain much probably tell now telling ive inadvertently hurt increased worry lot wish hadnt im sorry told wants sorry tell sooner kind thoughts know know exactly started want think using excuse trump card argument attention seeking thing know want tell know im posting feedback feel low level call hotline something thats people knife hand car bridge someone thinking way think grocery list chores girls listen minute dont send nudes lets suspend belief moment lets stop pretending might know space human knowledge area probably primitive say middle ages maps compared todays satellite maps really clue considering bbc tv docusimulation gets much better many big budget hollywood blockbusters incredible show worth watching portrays cgi enhanced fictionalized account know solar system far probably fictionalizing cgiing whole thing way make palatable large public watched clips real space missions real space probes quality generally average poor comparison looking chest xray tells human body compare cgied cyborg moviewhich one entertaining yet chest xray real cyborg flick fictionalized sfx actors good job none ill tell grandchildren fair bbc docusimulation got history test without learning yeah first years middle school im kinda proud hehe best song tbh httpsyoutubehxsyizakuhttpsyoutubehxsyizaku ampxb im fragile delicate teachers fuck em seriously teachers think spend entire free time schoolwork things know besides argument plenty time work subjects thing maam want become teacher later stop right fing okidoki ly babes bye hi im high drunk u guys tjing drunk wey fun ideas dm give one reason care school seriously care anymore fucked girl love going die aloneso last month posted facebook saying going deactivating social media pm numbers friend years really hung much lately always real close kinda hard explain think close friends see often due adulting anyways messaged number asked started talking back forth week nye hits ask plans put guest list band actually work band sold show wanted see things going good nye got drinks hung around whole time one following around gave long hugs told loved assume platonically intimate assume due alcohol show nye hugged goodbye told going backstage asked come told allowed wasnt got home around night sent text saying good seeing hang adding preferably tomorrow think may came strong eh drunk message aggressive really overly friendly reply assume may hungover read morning may asleep falling asleep sent message sent another message days later mutual friends art museam opened casually saying proud theyre well asked yet reply days pass started bothered wondering doid anything wrong today sent following message hours ago hey realized may ass dipping backstage end show want think flake want hang im sorry text maybe weirdly worded dip backstage early kinda told goodbye went backstage end show big deal reply assume may mad try go somewhere show know either way selfish dick want fix id give anything fix love saw movie hoot immediately decided comment truth nature needs protection us dominant specie planet people think money whatever want probably think future think something useful movie kids movie showing us kids usually ones care adults twelve saw waterlilies knew protected law even dare touch fearing law fearing might harm actually currently acting great main characters well interpreted learn hope think saw movie enjoy feel ugly talk anyone make friends date really hurts isolated horrible think ugly talk anyone fuck lonely life im really fed unsatisfied life right now one worst years life swear life started going downhill start january lost closest friends dumbest way despite popular kid find wanting close friends rather big group close friends school ended year feel alone home everyone glued devices ive made lot plans close friends im seriously missing best friends lets call best friend hanna shes girl best friend literally nicest person ive met threw biggest surprise birthday party year much fun think started losing everyone went back home leaving hanna chalet booked drinking party im type people gets high im tired asf wasnt really moment vibing good time abruptly stopped music basically confessed figured truly happened months idiot right girl best friend straight told reply yea thank much putting youre literally best friend thought nothing months became cold afterwards giving one liners stopped texting figured schoolshes diff school btw school year ended really wanted hang reject asked wrong told bluntly liked romantically got message dumbass lonely dumbass shit hurtingpeople dont care listen see actually trying im trying happy im trying change im trying stronger gets much harder people shove everything bad face wonder im negative dont necessarily attention something good right feels nobody notices fuck recite every time ive messed expect someone better tell much fuck cant someone congratulate even smallest thing thats help someone dont people understand care want diei know long read friends one whose opinion respect im venting want read long rambly vent go save someone redflag long winded certifiably fundamentalist evangelical christian went church every sunday attended every prayer session went every bible study participated pretty hateful political protests know women abortions murderers types protests suffered horrible depression college anxiety school made depression worse found god nowhere found worse admitted fellow church members depressed felt told must obviously true christian feel everloving peace god running veins every second im going spare intermediary details long story short attempted redflag recovered left church best decision made frequently tell people born left church still believe god think organized christianity cult judgment hatred wrapped lies last ten years ups downs overall life much better feel loving accepting person think im still christian telling people theyll think im one crazy ones fit church fit atheists either even feel fit anywhere middle misunderstood entire life june year met someone exactly intellectual someone understood nuance things keep complex thoughts know say without sounding arrogant scumbag wellabove average iq large part reason fit anywhere big heart care lot people try judgmental impossible ignore fact people understand things talk find bored impatient people imagine years feeling alone misunderstood going radical mindset change thrilled meet someone understood well totally fucked friends connected strongly things got romantic always agreed matter happens important stay friends said clear end even end broke weeks ago next day hanging chillin nothing happened definitely morose romance continue knew id know happened next day dropped map usual us stay contact daily text message silence felt shutout thought ok well romantically involved makes sense take days apart days still contact really began question things left voicemail told okay need space let know thats ill give space need know whats happening next morning got text said yes need space need check first irrational thing id heard say course need check grownass human simply appreciated courtesy telling need simply bizarre behavior someone reiterate important stay friends discard piece trash thats feel now weeks still contact instincts tell something really wrong wanted respect need distance leave one voicemail tell never intended make feel though needed check anything tell hoped grand opening work went well response intuition says wants nothing intuition says reasons even begin analyze understand decided best longer friends hope im wrong grows weaker every passing day brought categorical typhoon depression barely functioning known romance end friendship never even given second glance idea passed point return even official couple know possibly happened change things much feel horrible feel personally responsible ruining best friendship saved crushing loneliness misunderstood handle consequences im actually praying im praying god learned lesson please make punishment id anything friendship back literally anything theres nothing choice ruined best thing happened believe theres anyone satisfy intellectual craving make feel accepted tutor oxford told member intellectual means going live lonely life unless course happen meet another member intellectual well ian im pretty sure hes gone forever depression resulted severe experienced ten years ago whats experience ongoing depression left church partially blamed church contributing depression im existential crisis top heartbreak losing best friend lovers come go never friendship coupled fact know fault add cherry massive guilt top im lonely failed loser fucked best thing happened remember prayers never answered im sure im going want continue already dont even know bothered write anyone understands must think im irrational overreacting maybe feel way feels god gave precious gift ripped away better die lose morality need help im point im ready fullheartedly prepared commit redflag planned every detail need im stuck time passes worse feel want die knows know im trying think affect cant even think straight background life never good lot disorders mental illnesses caused trauma born hard time living life constantly feel dying old home dangerous new home religious beliefs conflict identity im uncomfortable theres therapist psychiatrist theyre supposed help think im insane others say im fake liar never even understand find trying die lot realized years become destructive agitated aggressive ive started thinking killing become something think normally end hurting people lot mean basically im becoming parents want keep failing changing days plan end life days make final decision know best path take die thats metheres nothing left existence everything gone suffer anything live ill become ill continue falling apart someday able resist shitty thoughts anymore know ill act someday know help im going kill afraid people talked online dating sites remember face appears newsi severe ocd maybe thats im worried really use reassurance please going sound extremely paranoid crazy please bear talk sense need im going kill year chronic illness briefly stupidly thought want go first date kill made online dating profile talked several guys sent pictures face several messages maybe guys saw looked know name saw many pictures face easily recognizable face ive told lived state ampxb way im going kill involves jumping building busy city im afraid images face going go news jumping redflags state almost theyre going recognize talk friends much worse post online talked girl okcupid killed theyre going think killed dating troubles something trivial theyre going talk website talked girl everyones going remember theyre going type name first thing thats going come online dating profile year died resist someone want guys talked chan culture etc active online never actually met im scared theyll post site heck want im remembered im embarrassed anything really anything embarrassing people remembering girl online dating profile committed redflag im going remembered im going come people google search name want illness struggles stupid online dating thing ampxb know sounds paranoid insane please help really bothering ruining day please comment dont kill ive made mind im want im immortalized embarrassing knowledge really help want talked online die friendsrelativesstrangersanyone typing name seeing want legacy people know literally insane called national guard police practically everywhere full riot gear already set pm curfew isnt even national news yet 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girls school therese energetic intelligent becomes mentor innocent naive sweet isabelle guides number exotic experiences including trip exclusive brothel first lesbian liaison indirectly first heterosexual experience br br film exploit sex abundance nudity imagery effective sometimes camera lingers long story goes slowly br br director radley metzger went make number explicit erotic films name henry paris always extremely detailed stories good acting high standards cinematographybr br artistically perhaps complete later attempts supplied entertainment whereas therese isabelle study nature youthful eroticism think tonight night end iti tried fight feeling years lately hear head voice telling end put people around misery cause tonight night think finally going give im sure im posting guess want closure feel empty know im unsure stand hate everything im failing everything even family told im disappointment never never contribute anything positive society actions self destructive im tired hurting people around cant stop please hug im really well right please hug comments mean lot graduated college years ago worst time life became depressed first day growing leaving friends taking harder courses special ed elementary therapist involuntarily sent hospital days never trust anyone even thanks change majors take extra year kept failing classes graduated pay student loans full time job used work part time jobs due pandemic left feel ruined life going college wasting parents money taking courses want take italian wanted learn japanese make happy feel failed gone technical school learned trade even gone community college friends chose traditional university route sister except phd good paying job director childrens museum meanwhile even unemployment living moms sometimes wish dead feeling way thoughts feel college ruined m ghosted someone bad friend criticized point made feel got one argument afraid snap try kill kill friend living means might see ex friend ghosted friend ignoring know know going happen afraid ho something going happen going put much mental suffering fall complete horror despair something crazy kill might confront someone goes bad probably kill trying love reality sets insome days control days everything triggers tramatic images flashbacks worst maybe im narc idk try forgive think okay along reality sets realize always something wrong people say matter others think everyone says see beauty intelligence greatness try put makeup act confident people look weird tell want say sometimes tell im modelstill ugly try join convos stuttering shyness anxiety instantly makes look stupid eyes others soim stupid im ugly past full proof special ed counseling getting told ugly constantly everyone treating im challenged present got great idk im always aware shatter moment im eventually ill thete catch ruin im done edgeim early s beautiful daughter mess wife keeps cheating many problems work im ask combo taken knock many anti depression anxiety pills made mind want go fast tried getting help didnt work plus friends im lonely fantasize parents giving blessing go ahead kill myselfthats pretty much want point love much theyre reason right now wish explain want sad needs happen daydream saying ok yes better everyone sitting fade overdose wish stroke hair hold hand die thats fucking pathetic know im know absolutely way earth let commit redflag watch part tempted ask anyway case anyone actually know social security number someone sure security number tbh gave friend advice ask crush girl know know likes asked advice kinda gave good advice motivated go feel lonely given fact im pretty sure likes friend start dating im gon na person friend group thats anyone im gon na feel even lonely left befoee unpopular opinion democrat female president feminist cuz group whore ass feminists want men pm curfew women safe guy rapped girl world filled many clowns female democrat president feminist makes office country fucked famboygtgirls famboy better u cant change mind know right url storys link interested say thanks reading considering theres anything make comfortable answer questions try clear confusion etc ill best one thing say know food issue food pantrybank subreddits exist try im trying put little used escape dreamsi used able sleep suicidal thoughts nightmares dreams kill kill sleep baby really feel sign nightmares bloody scary fragments life pushed little farther edge best sleep dreams hanging im hitting pretty low spot life always thought things better high school college came things got worse im real life mode hitting fan ive failed professionally romantically socially athletically academically cant take pain feel dreams really right idea work seasonal area virtually friends moving area weeks im going alone im fucken hyyyyyyype lab coat came today lets goooooooooo fucked upmight kicked college lose dream job feeling hopeless happens itll forever blight dont know move forwards full title film may heaven half hour devil knows dead rewording old irish toast may food raiment soft pillow head may years heaven devil knows dead first time screenwriter kelly masterson modifications director sidney lumet concocted melodrama explores fragmented family become external forces drive members unthinkable extremes film viewer allowed witness gradual nearly complete implosion family much used sensible manipulation flashbackflash forward technique storytelling repeatedly offering differing vantages characters central incidents drive rather harrowing tale see motivations players case robbery gone wrong br br andy hanson philip seymour hoffman wealthy executive married emotionally needy gina marisa tomei addicted expensive drug habit life beginning crumble needs money andys neredo well younger brother hank ethan hawke life ruins divorced shrewish wife martha amy ryan behind alimony child support borrowed friends needs money andy proposes lowkey robbery small mall momandpop jewelry store promises safe quick cash glitch jewelry story belongs mens parents charles albert finney nanette rosemary harris andy advances hank cash wrangles agreement hank actual robbery though hank agrees failsafe plan hires friend take actual job hank plans driver getaway car robbery horribly botched nanette filing regular clerk shoots robber shot mess disaster unveils many secrets fragile relationships family nanette dies charles andy hank respective partners driven disastrous ends surprises every turn br br actors strong emotionally acrid film gives superb performances come expect hoffman hawke tomei finney ryan harris wise hand direction sidney lumet make film unforgettably powerful easy film watch film allows bravura performances demand respect film reminds us fragile many families grady harp never take class httpsyoutubemwuaojhvckhttpsyoutubemwuaojhvck noticed began using small dose respiridone augment ssri noticed tremendous difference think actually use logic find easier ignore intrusive thoughtshowever started gaining weight yes even small dose help feel little insecure afford buy new clothes lift weights couple times week wondering maybe try keto diet maintain weight even worth thoughts weight gain antidepressants prevented list problems delete later depressed atleast years epicly self harming years sh free months self harmed massive knives d extreme poverty know whether ill able sleep roof bed next week health anxiety thought different types cancers hard living knowing thinking cancers brain stomachcolon skin thought appendicitis cant eat reason sometimes take long eat well realise im eating food stop full easily hungry easily excluding family girlfriend one cares pretty sure friends wanted die one point people talk talk much consider friend im close consider friend though ive friends guy years best friends even picky eater im extremely extremely underweight short kglbs eat unhealthily time bc im hungry fun physically verbally abused parents tutor kid anymore hearing loud voices even theyre positive makes scared probably sort ptsd suicidal atleast sadly attempted redflag days ago im okay dysfunctional family apparently look ugly people say look pretty idk im tired time seen sooossososo much gore murder terrorism redflag animal abuse torture porn rape child murder abuse etc unfortunatelyyy seen child porn clearweb felt guilty reporting scared ive seen times dark web accident im idiot intentionally catching pedosgroomers still remember look ish year old girls eyes following orders looking see really felt devoid hope im completely desensitised things point apparently look solemn extremely serious dead empty eyes people think im psychopath understand im really care lot certain people im loving cant open people ive cut people blades scissors made self harm guise joke regret forced self harm multiple times one guy rest remorse deserve life skills street smarts motivation schoolwork anything privacy room phone parents trust decent person many bad stuff drugs sexual stuff yk im allowed step outside give permission freedom basically technology thats really overthinking doubting doubting doubts aaaaaa wish normal ive watched guy die front felt nothing still care actually amazed seeing unfold see flashes violence randomly see someone holding knife normal stuff away stab im scared hold knife near people might stab intentionally unintentionally brain extremely manipulative reason attempted redflag im manipulative close killing certain person never attempted thankfully im incapable lot things recently learned cross streets stuff able walk school parents want suffer parents literally suffering much want someone end suffering right now feel pain torture physically mentally someone end cant cook anything im spoiled guess severely dehydrated thats think ones gon na read anyway im happy though awesome im looking forward married girlfriend future wife d love much making happy wan na make cookies go louvre loaddss sooo despite problems im happy ranti m really want kill note written plan back plan every time go think buried dress wrong name im trans two people care mum still thinks im girl best friend im wonder hed tell mum itd weird come dead sucks trans worry couldve killed weeks maybe months ago keep putting living heard theres emoji rule complain im hungrie somehow still hourz work n didnt bring money shame someone pick go diner date wit hold hands maybe smoothies something pleazzee daydreamins making hungrier sitting bed alone cuddling mountain stuffed animals feel empty wish heart childhood wish hadnt beaten raped long im year old girl try give childhood never parents love diei feel alone whats point even trying anymore im sad lonely wish knew wrong personalityevery close friend make seems go knowing months sometimes takes less month dont know whats wrong personality ive stopped clingy im confrontational successful friendships people know casually im hurt feel alone happy company hurts knowing theres something inherently wrong makes people want distance im sad frustrated want people theres point even trying anymore happy happy taught months worth school math stuff weeks spanish words days hell lot physics exams coming teachers focused kids th year mulo level school ig rd year failed exams bad held back year th years wouldour education system complicated ik thats help exam skipping th year mulo btw anyway got results today got spanish english maths physics th years even score high super hard got s thats fucking awesome got dutch im pretending happen everyone know said dutch exam way harder compared exams previous years point fucking passed passed fucking awesomely go vwo another level school country next year thats fucking cool wear best uniform fucking happy yet im sad became nerd accident glasses thanks mom new glasses look bit bigger social anxiety aspergers cant socialize well far nerd basically someone glasses doesnt socialize much welp sucks ill forever lonely friends lol actually accept tell roommatelong story short extremely suicidal got considerably better weird kind break morning back seriously suicidal want make sure something stupid throw dorms fourth floor window ive thinking know talk help roommate know depression two people campus know tell roommate hey buddy hide rope sharp objects back want something happen suggestions help talk friends status break need help fuck thought putting alphabet math good idea seriously math problems little timmy x dollars many bananas buy make train arrive bouncy ball land one second never thought bad dying someone bad livingive many times keep saying im lucky every time try fail lack effort holes researchplanning might add know matter program pill baseless optimism push immediately im found turned inits waste effort resources ive said feel incompatible life desire relationship job tedious draining employees clue different lights dim night im executing routine daily numbing nights weekends drugs mad say ive enough want genuinely notice absence brother took dump yesterday two days ago fucked entire plumbing epic poggers moment really wash hands six krystal sliders krystals white castle southeast us white xbox controller cant play skate greasy hands messed life way fix iti stayed city done bcom dating sa instead leaving uk married girl interested atleast left one year suffering uk everyone telling bcom brain fried many prescription meds cant recover medically restrained put mental hospital reason way fix dont live messed lonely life pain im depressed fucked things badly im sure everyone understand peace good luckdear wanted someone know story redflag note left family far simple soz lads seya lata dnt ur toilet papurkappa wednesday around pm dead time im jumping cliff pretty ensured flip pictures looks beautiful view year old female australia im pretty smart talents good person loved league legends overwatch halo ocarina time best zelda game im fucking loser enjoys listening shitty music pretending im one boys even though everyone fucking knows im ill never level reason finally ending time im broken fix insert emo ass music pft tried jump balcony knowing die itd fix problems tired sexually abused mentally abused physically abused im child porno somewhere internet shit lasts forever physically abused mean omg mem hit throwing iphone someone literally mean step mother beat fuck bash even smashing head windows bleed still remember feeling grabbing steel grid bed pulling body wouldnt beat alive blame step mother cuntish behaviour kid came new country kids shoved face probably raised way second attempt around mother moved america new husband father new family brother sister place go moved apartment run us children brother total fucking cunt age parental supervision guidance us fucked probably went school times year know stopped jumping front train tracks ended friends house treated family hurt much probably using expect people noticed went missing cousin told missing person told im real cause drama police losing time third attempt tried swallow bottle pills lost job america country went protect mother abused low life fuck kicked soon turnt lived ghetto earned hour high stress job worked days week worked pm hour break ate mc donalds every fucking day time worst dropped university wouldve graduated soon broke always plan im going art industry go uni finish move japan live small shitty apartment ikebukuro matter id happy anyway body ended rejecting amount pills taken throw pretty picture thats closest came dying kinda weird attached body least felt almost watching die threw ended reaching mum said move back told days later go kill thats wanted try told sister goodbye time told come back australia wasted money plane ticket useless ass ill never forget never got fourth attempt moved friend cute family probably using shit sent hospital never want go back dad back life trying love much sucks knowing wasting peoples times constantly feels bad feel sorry mother hates blame wasted money bringing fucking useless twat sister nice shed better without brother hates pretty obvious blame okay logically emotions aside feel redflag beneficial society im pretty sure playing video games day helping anyone cant work properly socialise preform activities help others life government pay live friends bother suspecting im bad communicating family give single fuck lost cause anymore home food bed internet electricity opportunity education fucking logic appreciate stop little bitch another fucking dead loser justified redflag anyone tell guess ill leave laugh regardless wish best life hope happy know bunch actually make pussy life another dead person top tier list people miss talking former best internet friend stopped talking unknown reasons ex stopped talking insecure bf children basement may rest pieces know amazing encounter one wholesome person met train first went visit ex someone look hospital gave memorable piece life advice friendly person met train station talked something important us hugged goodbye look abigail thorn philosophy tube niall comas pyrocynical appreciate friend meet irregularly open without judged wavelength many ways brother shares similar absurdist humor helped become critical certain people said interesting talks friend education makes feel less alone struggles education listened problems needed generally nice fun talk former best internet friend one mentioned met irl interesting wavelength amazing person kinda fell touch though thats alright recommend making list feel empty af literally every single female protagonist thought boys gross met hes silly charming feet tall strong jaw suddenly problems solved bonus points lesbian acts douche dont short people short people always really pushy aggressive piss minecraft snapshot cant take anymore think make family feel terrible reason keep someone aroundlike seriously ill see sentiment pop every across reddit makes blood boil honestly people think guilting suicidal people sticking around really healthy puts even stress dont need plus doesnt even hold logically think family love family much wont matter feel im dead im dead cant think affect unless wan na send afterlife crippling guilt thanks honestly tell people try help go fuck seriously anyone wan na make game half baked story kind pm still feeling shit still bored go saw guy im gon na steal idea whats impression going profile alone random fact go school max verstappen went lived kilometers away downloaded tiktok regret downloaded little ago see ironically thought gooduntil minutes ago looked page saw video girl getting tattoo preceded orgasm guy tattooing guy tattooing slipped fell never fucking grossed entire fucking life fact someone post tik tok bad fact hasnt taken worse fucking hate tik tok people post film life queen victoria youth first years monarch great britainbr br young victoria amazing production every scene designed decorated immaculate detail extravagant costumes lavish locations beautifully landscaped gardens make young victoria impressive amazed thoughtful cinematography every person placed relation background foreground well thought every scene well composed scene strikes victoria talks melbourne melbourne positioned middle door frame victorias angle melbournes angle victoria situated space melbourne held arm hipsbr br story wise far compressed followed understood person without historical knowledge queen victoria many events rushed even explained expected grand scene coronation disappointingly lasted secondsbr br overall young victoria good film even better longer events properly explained without rush blowing brains ampxb httpsiredditzaiarsaoxgif matador stars pierce brosnan burned assassin hes james bond gone seed tootight garish clothes gold chains ugly haircut struggling assassin julian noble mexico trying regain nerve staying hotel likable downonhis luck businessman danny wright greg kinnear trying regain equilibrium danny desperate close deal return wife denver hope davis good newsbr br noble wright unexpectedly become friends wright convinces noble reveal certain techniques demonstrates bullfight noble eventually targeted employers shows denver br br writer director richard shepard qa delightful movie austin film festival shepard luck suffering loss agent rejection recent scripts decided write story one buy create character one want play pierce brosnan called brosnan regains equilibrium movie life bond wonderful flair selfdeprecating comedy miss br br stay closing credits read filmmakers say bullfighting look forward richard shepards projects anyone staying late interacting strangers dont actual social life filler filler filler filler filler filler filler using sub diary day today good bunch meetings school stuff grades nd semester uploaded got gpa quite proud people call beard honest answer cheated majority classes passed true internet helped lot rest day used chill hbu guys day went anything interesting happened help ive writers block one thing years ive really wanted write story years thing holding back cant figure kind character antagonist backstory want want someone please help driving insane years moms home tonight roll around pillow fight major rager omfg adviceso recently things happen life put rock bottom started getting redflagl thoughts sad depressed fast forward months iv got life sorted new house new job iv got family back feel happy normal th bday long ago keep haveing dark thought life cant much better kill want commit redflag every creeping thought keep comeing back im really confused realized black people black tongues actually thought black people black tongues insides mouths one talk feel tired day tried meet girls rejected want happy surprised fascinating movie performances extremely good especially rea compassionate nononsense detectivebr br despite low budget big fx flashy camerawork citizen x somehow manages surpass majority similar big hollywood films telling storybr br true stories tend end whimper rather bang thats case apart highly recommended detective yarn tonight nighti wanted say goodbye someone cause obv cant tell anyone irl obv reasons past years struggle already tried twice didnt work time im going actually go wanted say bye poop jokes funny theyre funny wooooo fucking finally got recommended hours sleep teenagers need les gooooo lost virginity yesterday cool guess anyone wan na play minecraft now ghostys daily posty flash great sex cause become vibrator im blessed mum woke breakfast bed toast bacon juice stuff came downstairs let go ps early bought new trainers little brother started annoying told woke know enough drinking maybe work scared want go one supports really people really care pretend care dead took bunch pills botched eyelid surgery unable close eyesbotched eyelid surgery months ago unable close eyes fully cant sleep cant relax everytime blink feel pain relentless torture sought several different opinions doctors take seriously suggest eye drops already sigh wan na live anymore nowhere runjust ptsd things miserable unfulfilled life things years chronic depression things hate life everything life one nothing im done whats pointwhats point life take pills every day see doctors time normal exhausting pushing towards edge ive hit new low im playing lol willingly thats new ok never really used place rant horrible childhood led become overly shy public yes man socially insecure already hear everyone running away seems worst thing people reason comes lot problems cut right chase much trouble finding woman even believe told stories many opportunities women coming seducing first steps messed times tried first steps worked well chocked handle pressure give examples doubt place nsfw even though people openly discuss death something happened yesterday pure torture seriously devil bad luck playing soul anyways wish way find love easily overly shy people whenever cute girl comes talk freeze find anything think say either think rude interested well presume least sometimes even ignored even though really wanted wrong tried seeing doctors shrinks shyness issues work live sucks seeing everyone around every single person couple dating someone seems easy try dating app depressed even try plus feel lame know say real mess pisses know know maybe stop caring maybe stop giving shit start drinking feel trapped thinking ending recently life simply worth never drinking tonight might drunk overly shy really sucks much movie good nothing say said already wanted point fact movie isnt sweden denemark maybe wrong case ill happy know mistakes take notify please hugpleasei want remember feels go oxygen gay proof gay breathe oxygen inside thats gay people old parents want know old parents birth father mother woman treated respect nan died months ago household screwing us theres nothing refuses seek help never change want move nowhere go job money best wait someone dies suppose watched movie first showing available area quite clear people movie even dont good movie interesting character development thoroughly human story imperfect people backwoods southern town really speaks root blues know black snake moan time leave theater song christina ricci great job thoroughly convincing role samuel l jackson think best performance role pulp fiction probably best including range character bsm rest cast solid shining performances particularly john cothran jr reverend l im selective movie watcher film honestly rates among favorites candid look race sex religion neurosis rural southern town along cinematic genius opinion something youre bored hey guys made podcast please check youre bored dont anything look forward life heres link httpsyoutubehzxdmxdy please leave feedback comments video read chapters bible every episode talk news whats going lives well giveaway subs willing try anything want us please give try thanks reading body hair feels barbaric shaved recently saw iq even though im romantic comedy type gal think nice sweet movie watch many movies opinion lack honesty know feeling watching movie feel robbed taking something story director threw together trash story scientists sweet funny one stuck together tried help tim robbins character become smart liked love story tim meg simple brought good point comes love nothing seems recommend sunday morningbr br movie better expected think deserved rating though ive seen pg films worse language violence found movie entertaining enjoyed person dissects everything might find lot wrong take face value think find entertaining oh guys found found song ive heard young even much run people likes golf fuck u liking golf bruh attention boys girls see someone visible nipples unless make clear please ignore know speak peoples nips say literally mind time confused please ignore em guess today last full day alive tomorrow big dayhappy birthday guess im really indecisive cheese pizza pita chicken restaurant title says please help idk im least attractive guy earth already know im gon na die aloneim ive zero success comes dating girls literally zero didnt talk girls much high school talk none college havent tried suck talking girls girl talk high school ignores idk whats wrong im attractive im boring guess thats im loser feel mom cares less less abt fell asleep today woke first time pm sister asked wanted dinner told wasnt hungry went back sleep woke last time hour ago pm felt really sad sister come check mom hadnt done anything went eat mom didnt say anything come kitchen went upstairs ate bed rn im sitting livingroom wanted see mom say anything hasnt hasnt said hello anything wanted ask didnt check boyfriend really dislike im even sorry hard read im really upset lol entire personality music mental health substance issues filler filler filler filler filler best friend threatened commit redflag know call cops pleaseh elp wants ivy league uni next year tried google happen cops nothing came ruined hed find time kill hes really good pretending okay something right pretend fine parents believe mental health im allowed talk idk entire redflag watch process works want ruin life right point idgaf hates really want alive want ruin life im waiting call thing redflag watch advice ive contacted school counselors responses really want call cops please help need advice job interview chipotle hour half position crew member mom says wear slacks think thats formal wear interview thanks advance havent made friends unless consider briefly talking person comments every ive enjoyed brief interactions people think almost prefer talking one person long time someone pcmr told post hereive depressed lonely whole life escaped xbox ive moved onto pc gaming rig broken dont money buy parts im two young job whole spring break ive literally done nothing spook mom times sohi emma young trans woman germany years old know even want live anymore lithle bit backstory growed small catholic village middle nowhare school big social issues loner pritty depressed school got home watched tv rest day playd console basicly wasted whole childhood alone depressed family neclected left alone later finished school mental wreck absolutly social skills dident realy know bvb something bridge year ready learn job around time lot things cleared mind aknowledegd trans still dident mutch beciuse know family hate even wait till move lost around kg obese actually social interaction bvb actually made friends guess second wafe corona hit bvb stopped vor six months got stuff per email stuck home whit family talk lost contact persons met sunk deep depression dysphoria stuff hate becouse gender related stuff got whorse wanted end stupid useless live dident self harm wanted die whitout pain dident acess medication wanted cutt wrist blead sometimes sat houres whit fucking kitchen knive hand diden guts know good bad dident existance sucked kind opend mum live hell asked see terapist surprisingly okay got terapist kind tould everything becouse tould suecidial got put psychosomatic facility stayd two months kind saved live view ways honest first time live everything seems okay turned stay kind mentaly stable helped ne back kontakt whit dad parents divorced moved directly got relesed two weeks ago family cut contact becouse moved enemy realy care tbh proberbly going something bvb proberbly seeking ambulant terapy figure actually start hrt still lot redflag least go shopping talk strangers mascs actually realy help lot fear future coud need advise honest realy know abaut feel lost know many people got mutch whorse guess live least importance least mei hope wrode made least sence sorry grammer bad thank kind strangers reddit wish beautiful nightday guess use advice live guys found someone crush thats gon na happen dog died best friend every day id come home form school matter bad day hed come give kisses cheer really wish ha snore time really dont know ill without pet make sure give much love possible theyre gone spiraling downhill august im renting room basement crappy job im separated ex wifenot divorced im sending money constantly girl ive dating split found im separated technically married still friends family actually cares one near notices signs ive cheated ive lied ive grown spoiled people say leech ruin theyre lives im head heels debt nothing going tell im ending tonight fuck wrong reddit fucking laggy multiple browsers open post new tab logged tab breaks reddit randomly freezes teleported top feed wan na talk people got nobody talk nothing say gim conversation starters comments might even respond knows okay ask seen broadcast channel seen earlier comments think state firstly favour death penalty way expecting great things film quite deliver dead man walking cleanly done good performances round good script fact hard fault artistically felt although attempted confront issues surrounding capital punishment seemed become sidetracked religiousmoral stance hardly surprising given main character nun although im heartless individual really empathise characters story take religion seriously probably see much film think peter medaks let much powerful moving film strongly recommend anyone considering watching go see ia dog paws smell doritos cowardwhy cant bring kill hung dumb shit much itd hurt dumb stuff doesnt even matter dont know feeling hesitant friend sent message said found one discord chats litterally biggest roast shut yo skin tone chicken bone google chrome home flip phone disowned ice cream cone garden gnome extra chromosome metronome dimmadome genome full blown monochrome student loan indiana jones overgrown flintstone x hormone friend zone sylvester stallone sierra leone autozone professionally seen silver patrone ching chong ling long suck ding dong head ass pubg fortnite flip phone remote control autism syndrome stage four terminal brain cancer oreilly auto parts silver bronze ash amiibo uv light pen sushi ramen harrison ford gamer bitch ass virgin lamp thermometor lean mean string bean charlie sheen limousine canteen trampoline serpentine antihistamine wolverine submarine unclean nectarine broken gene halloween defective spleen smokescreen james dean putting green tiny peen anti vaccine aquamarine eugene extra green nicotine vaseline jellybean magazine protein lightningmcqueen vending machine whatchu mean ocean man ween head ass tf bitch months struggling finally got courage tell someone suicidal thoughts dismissedive struggling several months suicidal thoughtsideations ive constantly reluctant share increasingly difficult internal conflict anyone months now lot reluctance stems terrible mental health care system city well stigma surrounds main mental illness stigma held people general psych professionals forced inpatient several times later years high school anything experience made mental health worse adult psych wards city much worse ive literally dozens referrals fall able treatment need well year now keep telling everyone ill tough make etc reality im falling apart inside finally went clinic university campus told truth experiencing mentally physically even made sure mention id reluctant forthcoming given past negative experiences ive local mental health system lot waiting explaining situation professional professional finally told go home summation apparently reason provide degree professional care unless ive literally planned redflag step step beyond frustrating continuously dismissed im made feel burden waste time resources cry baby anything feel experience today made things worse feel even worthless even think possible point guess post way vent know know im bothering posting wanted someone say goodbye toi think im ready go im alone want anymore sister took antidepressants away taking bottle erythromycin doxycyclin hyclate little bit alcohol maybe take edge guts way decided ill leave note yet best friends plans summer spend much time got may spent time times changed lot happy bright person caused problem fix talk spend time talks much fun friends hate want fun summer memories laying bed waiting talk play animal crossing everyday eating crying hours started really hard time walk stuff want someone talk spend time download video game watch show anything want make memories summer left look back smile please want summer need gf yes dont worry guys ill share everything yallexcept gf got one fuck itill valentine noone stop even form support seem love playing victim even find point taking anymore wonder whenever talk parents problems somehow make tried hanging seriously minutes agoi tried counting might already unconscious seconds stepped back platform jumped cant really call jumping feet may reflex guess ampxb im feeling really bad know kill society offer painfree way redflag yep completely stopped showing everyday waking pure fucking torture hour shift basically getting bullied coworkers overheard making comments weird heard another one make comments tic always felt judged particular cunts maybe redflag telling things trueampxbthe struggles mentally ill mess walked away job ive never watched anime feel piece shiti thought control pretty long time cut felt overwhelmed everything love want hurt want hurt anyone want feel pain redflag thoughts came across mind im afraid want someone tell going okay originally saw movie boy old rialto theatre part saturday afternoon matine triple bill featured vincent prices last man earth mario bavas nightmare castle nightmares blood lusting ghosts week afterwards though know three movies prove classics genre wonder scared though three films frightened castle blood profound impactbr br first bill even see beginning late getting cinema missed first minutes movie thats lot miss edited print ran minutes unedited runs minutes despite dark creepy atmosphere complete ruined castles fog enshrouded cemeteries shadows cobwebs gothic set design strong acting suspense especially last minutes scared bejeepers made lasting impression took years finally copy film collection french italian import movie showed late show winnipeg quite remember title remember seen beginning film scared witless make matters worse film released literally dozen different movie titles aka danze macabre coffin terror castle terror long night terror etc usauk working title castle blood generic similar dozens b horror suspense films making illusive thanks internet perseverance found last treat finally watch film entirety many years may quite sheer emotional impact boy haunted house movies go stands well compares favourably similar iconic films period haunting innocents black sunday film fine early effort italian director antonio margheriti stars s scream queen icon barbara steele features well written screenplay sergio corbucci sceptical writer georges riviere bet spends night haunted house unsuspectingly becomes part annual ongoing ghostly story hypnotic steele well cast ghostly love interest arturo dominici dr carmus margarete robsahm juliabr br many tricks margheriti employs create films eerie atmosphere cobwebs creaking doors fog etc bound seem clich modern audience work far effectively black white modern day colour rather using body counts special effects film creates scares old fashion way relying good story stylish direction fine set production interesting camera work strong acting performances margheriti marvellous job taking elements building films suspense horrifying paranormal secret house gradually reveals unwitting writerbr br film without faults pace drags beginning film ironically minutes originally missed probably worsened synapse films effort restore film original length though fans likely appreciate chance see film restored terms intro may hindrance help english voice dubs merely passable restored scenes language shifts english french english subtitles provided sure annoying viewersbr br synapse films deserves kudos quality print clearly effort put restoration deservedly sobr br enjoyed film immensely highly recommend aficionados s italian goth films anyone enjoys good ghost storybr br rob rheubottom winnipeg mb canada death guiltwe lost family friend cancer hes sick deteriorating similarly grandpa passed earlier year watched weeks go coherent incoherent barely last hours watched bottom feet turn purple slowly complexion turned yellow last breath inconsistent shallow definitely traumatized tried use image experience light life torch march im still really deep hole really feel prisoner mind today hear family friend went similar way feel wasted life waste space fun life fun think hope gets fun relatively soon want live long im really trying hard better eyes heavy even often fake smile anymore whats wrong know going comment theres nothing wrong clearly somethings wrong brain nobody cares believes people think create misery ive lot trauma think ive lost little natural resilience lifes unpredictable events im scared die alone want hope yall okay tonight still breathing even people dont even respondi know ive helped people made happy dont feel anymore nothing ive lost everything except cat friends suck dont answer phones hardly im alone almost time even reach family blow dont answer im kidding asked different people something either declined didnt respond one makes plans hardest year fucking life bf committed redflag last year pass dates without theres one im hanging strand feel bad feeling way felt well dont care thats fell got swear god multiple personality disorder im drastically different im fucked different ways levels rarely make normalish meme right now know feel urge type fucked shit type need fucking help quarantine revealed shit wish revealed wish things instead stuck wasting away ineffective online classes bound forget next year want bust nut anymore want company bro im still bored pm want pt flopped first time pt got back trip yo michigan today havent made post cuz signal notmally midnight im watching ani rn talk want feel lostim lost stuck anxious cant move anything lost friend fucked upim barely talking friends almost year ago still cry motivation negatives need pick major college clue start interests abilities show social anxiety fucking sucks worry much worry becoming adulthow many things keep track keep job manage money raise kids right reason im right dog completely attached cant leave means much im scared future idea im going want world barely scraping lifejust waiting next paycheck wish stop time sit think figure everything apologize messy monologue thats source anxiety think now keeping night sometimes think quiet nicejust real peaceful nothing worry tried fully explain mumstill completely different wave length tears feel love family fixable state sucks im finally telling others years years ago tf time go fast please help mei cant stop screaming need help call piano sound nice everythings pushing thisi trying really hard really know everything driving force ive lost motivation everything weak mask im ok draining ive tried medications depression anxiety help feel trapped pretend believe something anymore im sure exhibit bpd traits hard make friends shy introverted family issues drains ive way im trying distract myselfbut much nipples always hard school nipples hard embarrassed someone might see nipples shirt omg hearts acting strange last hours feel strong distinct heartbeat every avg feels adrenaline rush nothing serious guess ill keep living life now dont think ill go doctor though ends serious happy disgusting world dying peacefully itll okayhey friends know really hard right now know feel garbage world pretty shit moment know probably feel worthless matter single living earth cares loves swear care love wish best life bet someone might met yet promise theyre waiting come along life worth living take day day cant take hour hour whatever enjoy thats worth living pet thats worth living one baby step time love fall feel cant back promise nothing life impossible love guitarists ive fallen love fender newporter malibu decent guitars one bad experience somewhere need leave right now never go back start anew dont even think going back fcked go always start days feel ending damn miss shows yeah womens rights people rights fighting need angry paragraph im curious rights deprived currently im masogonistic dont know rights women dont someone tell itd cool nnn nnn nnn nnn everywhere fucking tired nnn everywhere stupid oh yeah cool idea wont masturbate month literally reason whatsoever first posts funny ive scrolling new half hour guess every single post nnn related pls go back normal shitposting cthgisnialpnidenodnabamocefilretfalarutcetihcrasptth struggling life need someone talk tobeen struggling depression years far mom always yelling im bad school lot people better think waste time useless brat cant even straight everyone know good stuff hightech phones fast computer potato computer mom took away privileges need someone talk online cant limits mom always wanted change study hard keep trying work im losing trust within real life peers seems theyve betrayed cant feel im feeling suck everything thing im good games impress mom anyone one im running options im getting point might end misery kill redflag prevention day heres story im sitting car right now waiting classes start college high school specifically around thth grade pinnacle issues became self harm came close attempted redflag several times never went attempt luckily thinking times felt specifically done biggest sense relief flooded im alive able experience life fullest never thought itd better felt lost hopeless misunderstood know things different everyone circumstances vary im tell killing may seem right idea take away possibilities inevitability things getting better someday hard part ultimately falls end fighting life whether literally figuratively warriors every single one suffering depression utterly unfair life circumstances anxiety whatever warrior survive much love im chat need one dayone day im gon na able take anymore anyone got group chat join dont mind invite hate im right nowi hate im subreddit right now hate feel way hate feel alone hopeless talk internet instead person im sick really sick remember feel okay remember pain want feel people life love wanting wake next morning lot easier everyone gives feel stupid illness big awful cant fight alone everyone gives one wants fight many people made clear actions im worth fighting im worth fighting hell still fighting right remember im still trying sure want reminded live want someone tell okay let go dm idgaf wan na talk someone hold conversation tell ur age gender im m btw sorry let fellow virgins feel dont deserve friends schooli feel dont deserve friends school friends give trust make happy supportive always help im need ago made big mistake feel ruin relationship completely friends elementary harassed made fun got middle school got new friends experienced mature make lies fit feel even except lie mess everything future boyfriend person liked faked entire relationship abt months ago mt friends knew guy close contact really made lie believable years older wanted stop lying scared past friendships one told cheated party got girl pregnant cut ties believed really bring months ago came friends saying liked girl girl felt way went little bit later told lost feeling wanted break really sad went friends comfort comforted topic exs brought time thinking future home away people realized happen friends found abt weeks ago noticed falling best friend straight knew fake ex going school year im getting scared getting caught awful mistakes th grade th feel cut hurt future im sure im really hoping forgot everything corona im even considering faking amnesia caught know talking abt maybe forgive heavy metal musics join community anybody heavy metal musics join community called rheavymetalmusicfans help man ppl give afuck bout tweets dawg guys giys fid doodly done im hot ye haw mfs im hot ehehehehehhehehe deadly sins businesses im wondering question mind awhile want answered think pretty money makeup little ago friend gave old eyeliner try literally cried loved looked much call average look makeup see enhance features much ugh even highlighter contour much us one remember got families stop crying shower ice cream something first sidestory universal century gundam universe presents refreshing new look war earth space colonies focus longer small group individuals go play pivotal roles conflict everyday civilian population war seen eyesbr br story contain gundam staples premise attempts zeon squad capture experimental gundam execution plot made show interesting watch series focuses experiences young boy named alfred relationship neighbor christina mckenzie secretly federation pilot newbie zeon pilot named bernie wiseman alfred develops sort brotherly love bernie young zeon pilot falls christinabr br war pocket proves need sweeping epic tale special individuals make good war story uber ace pilots large scale fleet battles seen short episode ova focuses lot character emotional drama themes politics philosophy love realistically portrayed characters alfred typical everyday kid plays violent computer games thinks armed forces cool given crash course horrible realities war unlikely friendship bonding bernie christina knowing fact soldiers different sides war played real without going overboard romance drama stuff goes endearing relationship alfred bernie said want spoil much story makes whole lot heart wrenching watch tragedies unfold show moves along way emotionally devastating twist ending br br despite lack action show never falls category boring characters engaging enough carry whole show worry number mobile suit action scenes scattered beautifully animated level surpasses ova sure satisfy craving mandatory mobile suit battles gundam seriesbr br normally watching anime japanese english leave personal preference case strongly recommend english voice track japanese one characters except alfred caucasian sound believable english performances english voice cast par even surpass japanese one instilling character realistic emotions intonations sound acting live action tv dramasbr br short show try impress audience conveys numerous heartwarming themes hit closest home especially death innocence battlefield horrors war eyes child truly moving little story deserves credit given want alive anymorei cant stop thinking baby wouldve one years old come th hate much ive handled past year completely screwed everything life ruined relationships nothing going anymore ive plans come th past year think going follow billion people yet still feels alone billion people connected yet still feel alone redflag rates insane seriously care coddit go take walk outside need fresh air fr doi kill called redflag prevention hotlines tonight one told im extremely worried dont sound good promised call back next week name mark nice yah worried cant find gun looked bedroom closet idea husband put many ridiculous emotions alarms people alarms husband known forever id rather dead honest god know feels gives want know whats wrong fixed cant figure rather dead realized im saying lot redflag selfish whats fucking point everything hot mess stuck inside slowly watching person learn hate us wheres relief everything people commenting numbers stupid middle night missing wrong answers make life better wrong answers make life better go social anxiety depression end ok iill try make long im year old boy ive living social anxiety depression now ive one boyfriend short time ago ive never girlfriend ive never kissed spend almost time inside masturbate much trying stop one friend close anything school go school really speak much almost cant connect normal kids whenever go school feel place think lot dying still school life wish normal normal person normal life normal things person age adults enjoyed time high school dont wish cant change least completely realistically speaking want couple close friends call family boyfriend girlfriend maybe time lol kids hell think id kids think im asking much many people seems complete fantasy see future saw carry life now seems fantasy keep living kill least yet went im going ended friends family cant kill id little bit hope hold onto mind living people cared tell fianc still feel suicidalive dating fianc wonderful months met redflagdepression support chat given happiness stability unending loveunderstanding future goals something never thought truly changed life passively actively suicidal genetic illness affects joints makes everyday life painful limited abilities used athletic busy slim barely walk gained weight though im still skinny really shouldnt complaining worst part illness ripped vet tech career right hands really gaining traction found dream job ericu career passion one jobs physically able honestly devastated go phases im ok phases feel im mourning couldve condition gotten worse stuck internlevel position dream job physically employer amazing worked make sure income go back icu floor hit one bad phases want selfdestruct everything around wont hurt anyone second guess fianc ridiculous illegitimate reasons want push away wont infected hurt changed life love heart cant keep going phases needing destroy everything around without knowing tell dont want make feel isnt good enough something dont want force problems dark cloud life dont want die right now really need tell someone especially heart squeezes every day need selfdestruct lay awake night second guessing everything word gain support without pity hurting process funny life change second attend waterdance first time unforgettable experience way need used new way life seem frightening notice people going similar situation help go br br eric stoltzs performances mainly helen hunt oh man helen purest graceful woman earth wonderful wesley snipes surprises one last serious roles film simple time deep leave us indifferent message transmitted enjoy moment lifebr br really film hour attended sorry brazilian expression bummerwhats stuff mostly good last year right trying graduate uni serious shit hitting fan work im really tempted take easy path know bullshit worth financially im even able afford home due price hike real estate whats point going work apparent reason pay rent eat yeah point keep living made meme friend new reddit post sub first thing hot know feel anymore meme made help gain karma blew im bourne ultimatum review thrilling set two final installment heres takebr br bourne ultimatum jason bournematt damon coattails ones know everything running long time endsbr br bourne ultimatum great plot awesome writing fantastic direction suspense best action summer matt damon delivers possibly best performance date conviction swelling desire troubled assassinbr br intelligent humor fine suspense reactions certain events either laughingin good way cheering heard lot intelligent laughter theater lots clapping audience loving itbr br bourne ultimatum delivers nicely giftwrapped package goods opinion best movie summerbr br last word excellent conclusion best trilogy summer movie thrillers done love bourne trilogy feel sickto bit understanding read fast forward months life back normal except feel sick physically sort way felt pretty intense self loathing want turn feel sick hey reddit cookies whoever make happy im turning guys want permission pleeeeaaasssseeeee stay awesome sub enjoy memes stuff love sub feel one best subs dont want wait years till im enjoy im sure im years old male want talk feel right now always try best nice everyone feels one nice fact feels everyone hates good reason bullied many years painful feel dead inside im emotional guy even right now feel way im trying live normal life made changes health eat healthier exercise lost kg kg kg im cm tall improved dental health ive lifestyle november mental health different story feels everyone hates everyone wants dead difficult live feel never felt bad last days thing going mind redflag cant stop know stop fear actually take life ive bullied lot people social life getting worse worse know cant talk apologize post long never go pinterest girls im warning worth know wake mornings look world people wonder happened world happened us love kindness caring compassion friendship humanity humility anymorewe spend hours days weeks months social media lying great lives knowing full well lying mean spiteful cruel horrible lives spend time social media hating ridiculing people vaccinated unvaccinated hating ridiculing people black white jewish muslim asian skin color ownwe even talk people outside computers anymore good morning good evening hello barely even communicate people social media brainwashed believe know talk yet comes around connected brothers sisters entire world divided know people learn background experiences make people brothers sisters matter know stay confined living lives communicating people see daily lives wake mornings news filled stories hate crime violence new york used one beautiful states america turned violent mad max type state california cluttered homeless people one absolutely one california gives damn good homeless lumped together mentally ill people thus treated garbage right american soil one bats eye one cares vaccinated people holding parties living life totally separate unvaccinated told unvaccinated toxic avoided without us realizing lie told keep us divided stronger together division world men women race race richwealthybetter poor homeless vaccinated unvaccinated hear stories young people adults committing suicide say things oh sad feel sorry family really mean person committed suicide came words encouragement virtual hug ended lives know problem someone dies hand problem die find peace joy happiness earth responsibility help contrary popular belief every person alive responsibility outside simulated world call earth related realize brainwashed realize truth world nothing used s s yes times bad times yes part absolute part times beautiful social media people people families families friends friends blacks blacks whites whites people people mentally emotionally every child someone elses child well people walk street greet hey brother hey sister meant today people think lost mind humanity gone say look many missionaries feeding helping poor countries yeah countries right american soil uk countries extreme hunger poverty problem humanity gonei want world s s back people go sleep night lock doors wake safe sound next morning want world s s back go outside see kids playing streets instead inside homes playing mindless video games want world s s back blacks look whites brothers sisters whites toward blacks want world s s back music actual meaningful messages men gentlemen women ladies want world s s back anyone make instant lifelong friends people never knew want s s back everyone concerned others welfare livelihood mental state howeveri people people feel know never days back drift years turn humans mindless uncaring robots emotion care concern anything even remotely resembles humanity even remotely resembles towards lot days wake even wanting even planet anymore even recognize world anymore hate disconnect towards violence coldness turned world one completely foreign world many many years sadly world known happened world know timedays soon come longer planet tired n exhausted need help think im depressed dont know though major anxiety fucking cry sleep every single night fucking worry one girl im fucking love cause im fucking dumb want make sure shes ok time ive suicidal thoughts dads trying therapist dont know til nigel balchins mazelike novel way wood adapted julian fellowes directs terribly british drawing room suspense piece film whose effect relies cast portraying varyingly benignmalignant characters fellowes directorial choices superb story linear line easy follow beauty film metamorphosis player single incident ignites minefield disastersbr br james manning tom wilkinson successful business obsessed solicitor london married anne emily watson needs life couple childless live country beautiful estate assisted long term cleaner maggie linda bassett attend social outings meet among others william bule rupert everett passively lazy wealthy neighbor anne decides entertain neighbors gruff james protestation anne proceeds planning james arranges attend due business night party hit run accident maggies husband accidentally killed someone range rover observed james returns home sees scratch williams range rover suspects william perpetrator anne discourages james going police information possible good ruin bills life socialite father son important scion first lie virus spreads james confronts bill talks james going police anne confesses driving bills rover one responsible james convinces anne keep quiet ruin reputation anne confesses affair bill three concur stick together big lie sake greater good anne eventually succumbs guilt telling beloved maggie one responsible maggie guilty previous theft whose life saved annes mercy hire anyway agent draws story surprising conclusion lies begat lies begat lies et ceterabr br major impact intrigue manner isolated tragedy impacts characters involved changes dramatic way tome wilkinson gives finest performance career filled brilliant performances able say posture facial expressions actor audience today likewise gifted emily watson adds yet another fine role repertoire surprisingly smarmy rupert everett despite yet another wealthy british gentleman gives us man arid spirit yet ultimately needy alwaysfine linda bassett takes small role finesses making character quietly central chaotic web liesbr br cinematography tony pierceroberts musical score stanislas syrewicz add immeasurably multiple atmospheres story encounters ensemble playing finest always means director julian fellowes fine grasp piece interplay fine people makes dodgy story work well indeed grady harp looks father ampxb httpspreviewredditvznhaldzpjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsaadfacbdefdfffffa movie may seemed much people everything look comedy fall funny moments accompanied moment two seriously moving scenes great actors pretty much everything good movie supposed despite david spade playing usual snobby character made role unusual performance think exceeded hit screen joe dirt regardless whether people chris farley fans saw film came friends still talk years later movie finally told chris farley real deal best comedian seen life words clumsy clever funny serious crazy sober moving depressing time words message counts one true great actors time one true great comedys time along good acting good story hilarious moments serious scenes times brought tears movie stands atop hordes movie marked beginning brief reign top comedy world late great chris farley actor captured interests movie actor put much movies movie worth time taken time see next time rent movie london life living torturing without realising way think messed stemmed early child regretful fixing last year realised something severely wrong sense child friends self isolated whole life without knowing affecting kid never went high school remember primary high school came home straight school even go weekends totally warped perspective school took seriously realise anything wrong year haunting grew quickly young went far left mum passed life hit hard anything bad life exaggerated due poor got head insecure clothes go clothes saddened experiences buy things kids lack support system parents fully care overprotective never showed love growing never gave advice tips take anywhere shops normal parents really jealous friends talk experiences playing sports dad going shopping mum know neglect balme parents care end day abusive got addicted porn young age sure started remember trying quit years old remember trip school redflaged watching porn scared going die well yrs idk dying probably started obviously probably indirect attempt brain soothe pain time vicious life think worst part first half life lost mum dad worked hard stepmom came worked hard eventhough know hard part nd half loved blindly torturing grief childhood never felt child remember memories high redflag feel lived negative thousand years feel year old going counselling beginning year barely helps whole life feels illusion never understood school never social life recently started developing one realised way lived thought normal hurt teenagers actually psychological torture help keep thinking lived yet even though hurts want live anymore used feeling read post comment award way many give candy feeling anymore annoying clear want cant stop thinking start crush one point anymore gay bisexual pretty clear kind casually expressed interest months ago knew meant nothings happened really good friends im starting collapse little bit im starting spiral reignited depression self esteem issues control spend lot times imagining situations together happy little hes anybody hurt anyways ive tried move simple times seeking support im chronicallyill broken mess person inching towards death reaching againfirst apologize number times ive posted ive brief interactions great people yet seeking connect anyone relate wishes talk loneliness component suppose means im looking something stick inject hope back daily life regardless im feeling selfconscious efforts reach continue long follows copied recent post another forum short ive feeling stuck lately feel though im backed corner way death im unsure handle thoughts redflag pretty much inevitable longterm illness im sure lately loud making sense moredetailed rundown largely borrowed posts long read please bear ive chronicallyill years live family never lived independently still much feel teenager got sick except older alone makes social pariah never experienced real life beyond teens except vicariously others disappeared life higher learning marketable skills physically reasonablyemployable im financial burden family likely remain im dead illness taken several bounding leaps worse last decade especially last couple years mostly induced circumstance left far less capable distracting successfully longestablished light hobbies fill time soulrendingly lonely small handful friends upon want keep piling problems dismal outlook sense place lives continues shrink realistic romantic prospects hopes one bores particularly deep want use anyone purely validatory purposes feels im built programmed need share life someone especially cruel given circumstances life taking things increasing pace nothing returning fill voids true anyone anywhere especially powerless actively fight counteract years illness dependence primarily financial others bigger things life fostered nearly zero appreciable ego mountains anxiety uncertainty selfimage may well even exist terrible wave magic wand cure completely right second still impossible mess fix far many years behind salvage anything even close want life longer part hurts daily see life passing life going around fixture home kind family pet absolutely nothing look forward interests cant pursue needs cant meet desires cant even begin fulfill spend every day feeling though im enough life enough another person enough even enough nearly enough last parent gone care pass siblings whatever unlucky ones draw short stick guess cycle continue family shrinks gone dreams career spouse kids home building continuing legacy living quiet modest life someone love instead ill nothing footnote family tree tired feeling burden tired feeling cant begin measure standard society place nearly anything littletono social worth definitely financial worth anchor disappointment drearyreminder couldve rejected mocked ignored put aside forgotten illness made life irony im even using irony correctly know im great fucking person im smart interests empathy patience lot things list none things matter oh still live home income even worse sick eww well whatever im sure idea one care purely companionship bring table strictly practical standpoint see value continuing live mean sound glib way theres plenty value life people world nearly walled theres much windowshopping time move landlocked watching everyone fly feel though true hope removed equation ive gasping air finally dawning maybe one path forward now well death life without hope without love without something ive earned created life thats greater literal sits chair worth living pushing pain misery feel designed need partner life cant feel need create indulge creative pursuits nope cant rare occasion life decided allow glimpse yanked away sometimes destructive effect let clear want die paradoxically idea scares concept ending life finding method etc unnerves im even sure go cant keep living anymore fucking cant senseless suffering much loneliness much fractured stitchedtogether nature soul much know much longer continue know timer fast shrinking reluctance towards ending things diminishing 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sleep feel mind mine think stay relatively rational going drift away feel one day truly lose sense value thinking give insanity thats burst feel ill wake monster become numb consequences actions go rampage killed process even now im getting excited giddy prospect hold back kinda painful hold real back harshly though ill endure now know exactly im excited something able cry long time ive barely felt emotion long time want able cry want able cry guilt something ive done want feel emotions someone recommended watching sad movies great im used tropes look boring someone recommended video games cut gore whatever disgusting apparently really want control emotions others blood matter personal taste guess anyways wanted write somewhere ill go sleep look wake hopefully itll help endure little bit longer really really love life guess im terrified prospect forgetting right sub im depressed many im insane well whatever using much emojis make funnier thats chronicles sav titty pics rock hello welcome chronicles sav today want share experience got first titty pics started cool thursday evening playing among us yknow everything going good one friends playing simping one players supposedly girl name davis arent girl said jokingly mind confirmation pic dont believe now friend got snap shes got snapscore girl pfp told msg still wasnt convinced said said add msged radio silence thought fucked boned will stuffed piata fancy today blessed ray light shone im pretty sure im qualified buddha thats enlightened bit bit im subconsciously distancing people care mei brothers step dad dad mom sister year old grandma people world care existence ive getting heated parents month ago stopped talking mom month fight today argument dad manifestation dont want happen abandoned everyone becoming reality ive talking redflag im open family either stopped caring dont entertain anymore probably dont know tried failed rest shit life im thinking part wants die responsible conspiracy theories family hating leads deep thoughts ill end ive thought hard cutting thats ill end friends family knows im piece shit dont know anything normal everything feels controlled im robot given commands dont end really care people give shit youre alive dont take granted learn say whats mind hurt others control anger seek professional help instead getting strangers internet say care dont im june th sometime around years life die redflag part eagerly awaits whats beyond life another part scared im done though really knowi wish capacity put words exactly whats head makes much sense fix sense total nonsense combined cant handle life im genuinely meant earth know im meant perhaps id quite happy place find answers universe understanding normal want understand really want understand badly want able accept cant completely tearing inside feel im sick think much ends coming real cant stop thinking please tell stop making sick doctor brain faulty much fixed know cant stop crying im alone watch bars prison tighten eyes terrifies idea arrived prison bars close tight start carrying prison around im asking questions cant answer im scared ask anyone ask doctor looks funny stutters words cant take seriously told yet feel im watched maybe ghosts follow around judging everything say night time listen ghosts talk stupid things day five years ago ten years ago matter much try scream always overpower learn acceptance finally accept ghosts say say cant cant accept im incapable accepting death point killing seems option dive straight deep end best way tackle fears force take plunge irony understand want die im confused killing much easier know much take understand im going bite arms purple bruising surfaces skin looks beautiful space us reminds one understand space even even one gives shit want space acceptable understood answers want kill want free want anything people lifewhy prolonging hope nothing going change itll always world hate mosquitos much deserve die violent deaths im desperately waiting florida release million genetically modified mosquitoes annihilate destroy bad mosquitoes hail florida killer mosquitoes bad reviews understand treat low budget serial killer film might mostbr br thought worked way afterwards felt dirty wanted take long shower degree success itbr br say right level sleaze skin although acting maybe bit uneven david hess brielfy hopes much last housebr br worth look please look menobody cares writing bye bye made friend worst possible decision everi met girl september super nice lot common met college campus playing pokmon go instantly clicked became really good friends even thought mightve liked despite currently dating someone another country lmao time hated current job knew everyone knew told apply work friends host place work immediately took offer applied hired tons fun working ended finding leading way started leaned shoulder held arm times let put arms around hurt wasnt happy went fast forward weeks working starts giving attitude whenever work starts really bossy say key thing remember saying brought later shift dont remember outcome continuing shed start treating shit constantly giving attitude outside work told reason couldnt determine difference outside relationship work relationship youd think shed able im started really sour us one point alert managers whats going bc quite frankly didnt know started amongst talking one coworkers whatever talking said word sex loud even made feel awkward another worker overheard reported sexual harassment within report worker said asked worker said sex sex words rough sex included happen got reported even spoke one worker talking didnt even know report month ago idk reported suspicions week two ago another report files made religious jokes worker got insulted im jewish id poke fun jewish nobody jewish know one besides knew light piece shit menorah piece shit id prior id asked nicer menorah tree much nicer menorah missing candle anyone jewish theyd say something equality theyre catholic whatever idk jewish joke trigger someone isnt jewish report mentioned invaded personal space idk girl reported whats really well known anyone knows dont touch people dont touched care hate touched theres need touch others theres need touch excluding romantic thing job never touched anyone anything maybe accidentally side swiped im carrying stuff thats worth reporting unless youre third report end getting fired literally night post made cohost use bathroom shift ended said chill manager shes gon na take shit ill head found funny manager didnt harmless statement alert general manager gm got shift today say live m away clock gm needed speak immediately feeling gon na fire still wasnt happy told said last night wasnt appropriate kitchen even last night male server spilled ranch female servers pants said jerking something say shit without getting reported told said knows everything happens brings attention didnt respond surely dont believe asked fired said yes hes letting go right now m drive stay m fire asshole immediate thought process girl wanted work along best friend works behind whole thing working fired excluding third report cuz know first reports false reports likely due ive bad anxiety lately due whole shit ive cutting even managed gain stutter due anxiety im fired im sure know part time job another really enjoyed excluding unnecessary drama ive expressed coworkers unhappy whats going mind happened im really sure im gon na next dont want return cashier miserable tldr met nice girl became really close friends invited work friends didnt working couldnt determine difference work nonwork relationship highly likely along friends made false reports fired idk end junediagnosed anxiety depression wrote kind separate question now know people situation one kind good relationship mom dad mom alright cousins best circle old friends acquaintances feel family heres issue feel burden death less burden alive death remember good times feel financial burden parents feel nonlife threatening chronic health issues burden im starting feel burden friends confide people thoughts im starting wonder friends remember hope fucked faked feeling better one worry feel cant tell people true intentions im planning enduring late june friend mine year serious exam want kill exam done lease set renew june st want end life days eviction want leave debts feel burden talk trusted people feeling burden im sure approach cousins friends feel lost right now well portrayal lesbian love story fire comic satire middleclass indian culture find quality little appreciated movie two genres ie deep meaningful alternativelove story comic satire usually mix together well oil water mehta somehow manages achieve balance near perfection servant jatins behaviour familys treatment bedridden grandmothers constant inescapable presence ashoks obsession swamis teachings coming culture much indias things immediately identify typical crying pointed ridiculed developing primary subject matter 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loneliness feel time problem insomniac always part day everyone fast asleep left completely alone nothing distract really cant fall asleep pass time dont know every single night overwhelming urge end kill done mean kind life worth living feel depressed every night one help flyingkittys video still im going take oppurtunity rant dont know flyingkitty made funny rick astley parody give youtube alledgedly took video still people keep saying taken good news video still added completely unnessecary age restriction disabled sharing able snag link still watch original thing httpsyoutubepayvwjpikghttpsyoutubepayvwjpikg rantyoutube try taking enable age restriction disable sharing manually scavenge link shame dont approve stuff approve graphic stuff leave creators alonethe platforms going die keep act friend amazing poet today english class write poem scratch friend unfathomable reason decided writing poem kfc chicken strip inside girl obviously good idea went detail greasy juice filling ended read class insanely lucky away friday detention nearing end guessiv finally pushed last person away feel hate disappoint everyone dont want life anymore work shitty minimum wage job im fat ugly untalented feel burden family im socially awkward hard make friends overall im alone nobody miss thing thats probably stopping know want long quick sweet point never bring im burden world better without life led tomy life started june th name gavin ignore reddit name joke please ban commit note notes ready life always bad lived grandma horder everything used sleep close never able shower use restroom cook untill certain point life thought normal gon na fast forward march time went church day every sunday little know different rest dramaplat class church acted old bible storys new twist kind modern old school time grandmawho call mimi call mimi rest storyrushes says shoes crying visibly scared upset car go back aunts house little cousin aunt says dad rush branson missouri see shot girl friendnot mom cleaning gun forgot unload standing killed instantly proceeded shot times another guy room speak irrelevant pronounced dead latter hospital pulled plug mom left new born killed self unrelated dads death without knowing killed assume forgot mention dad died raped beaten want google dad put branson missouri murder redflag tulsa couple google search struggled depression years therapy stoped helping stoped going help anymore point turned therapist helped began notice things wrong therapists life stuff stoped tried several times kill reached high peak depression low point life grandma verbal abuse hurts im meaning less wants im getting kicked soon well im good school lost motivation everything recently gave lost girl cared ex girl friend die lied threw teeth ruined new girl friend best friend dad died plan wanted know one threw similar stuff spelling grammar bad year old im boy helps feel free ask questions threw lot said well key points sad shit always happens life id assume little things go wrong thanks time shave hair im kinda tempted buzz hair rn im tired yall think full send buzz cause im pretty sure itll look horrible never done idek fay grim face tale espionage intrigue told nod wink sequel extraordinary henry fool hal hartley creates surprising blend film noir hardboiled spy thriller starts knowing smile large dose laughter turns poignant warm film ive seen yearbr br parkey posey fay grim unwitting mata hari caught love exiled husband henry fool questionable intentions charming cia operative agent fulbright jeff goldblum master wit sarcasm role seems tailored talents never better james urbaniak fays brother simon jailed renowned wildly popular books poetry love work sister brings jolt passion contrast dour nature spies eventually populate fays world liam aiken fays oversexed yearold son although may redundant aikens understated style remarkably old soul someone agebr br entire film shot dutch angle offkilter style made famous orson welles used primarily horror films psychological thrillers impart sense foreboding fay grim using style opening credits closing intriguing first deceptively clever next viewer begins fall perfectly timed comedic elements wit hartleys brilliant script something happens film takes dark yet strangely comforting turn characters magically become sympathetic eyes began dark comedy morphs romantic drama transition masterful slow pacing gives way breathtaking action sucked right vortexbr br end hartleys sharp dialog combined amazing performances perfectly matched ensemble cast makes delicious cinematic cocktail told luxury one able write produce direct edit even compose music hal hartley crafted smart sexy tale espionage tongue barely planted cheek fay grim one part dashiell hammett one part raymond chandler one part ian fleming shaken maybe stirred well ive app years ive app years sister reddit less months already beating comes karma im either lurking trash karma whore bullshit really salty jealous draw im fat trans cant pass need dieonly skinny attractive cisgender people lives thats clear now matter cant lose weight cant make pretty attractive look ugly man moobs whos starting look archery old im mid s wrinkles shit setting im never going able attract partner im always going suffer bigotry discrimination hatred im never going even rid dysphoria cant pass dont female body even paid couldnt sex dont vagina even pass id never able sex children im sick bullshit dont happy live cis people whats point living torture hello fiance f mental health struggles long time last night decided write suicide note almost popped pills ibuprofen ready online therapy good little bit help really tell therapist needed tried find new therapist area none available obviously want see psychiatrist prescribed treatment plans allow sessions unless see therapist first online one count honestly want able help way know much besides love advice tips help help listing positive things day something thank help tldr need advice help fiance depression need advice depression help fiancee sex cool never able redeem eyes holy father stay pure punished sins learned good friend tried commit redflag need advicehey first thank wonderful people take time busy lives help people struggling people friends struggle highly appreciated nevertheless days ago learned good friend mine tried commit redflag called ambulance pass away came shock hes really great happy funny guy guess statement never know whats hiding behind someones smile greatly accurate told good discussion ensured always talk listened describe situation essentially letting things shoulder ampxb even though alive well something causes great concern seems fine hes open tells people consider great friends someone asks tells hold back eerily comedic cracks jokes lot use humor cover sit serious conversation opens ampxb anyone opinions means ampxb edit forgot mention accepted seeing mental health professional resource cheat sheet books go bokorg imperial library deep web games go igggamescom movies reddit good place although often search name movie google drive end usually bring one school brainly mathway quizlet best friends come future knowledge educational purposes full sent wants friends nowi want hate living hate breathing hate alive dude wan na take gun head run car im alone one going see boyfriend three months doesnt want see leave days want kill want want die im updating eso taking everrrrrrrr hang using long sleeved shirtim thinking tying ends arms together letting weight body reinforce knot weight lot doubt itd rip decompressionnot friends disgustingly lonely family worried think makes look bad one live afraid dying fucking hope something changes sooni tried fkin hard anyone wan na friends anyone wan na friends im m tech cats update today went hospital terrible migraine extremely depressedi think body preparing cant sleep leg numb stomach churning burning want cry hands cold sweating mouth dry headaches back ive taken migraine pils lortab today got sleep stop thisi know im going finish nighti know going ive never felt fall apart completely nowfor wishing death find someway help youre beginning stages depression talk somebody something hell holding potential become amazing people future please help hate knowing one laying bed right now feeling body let go nobody feel way nobody im begging take life seriously find helper somebody help late pleasejust talk somebody stranger friend somebodyplease know rredflagwatch sole reason dead right now reading stories trying help many kept going reason one pathetic life beautiful minds themost radiant grow delusional realize beautiful world bad want leave beautiful world thank listening last thoughtsi pray whatever god ill wake soonin warm bednext realize dreamif live last hours night im going help edit survivedunfortunatelyim making plan try birthday next month want pinch guys nipples gay hot asf im getting mind raced time never knew capable one day took shard glass wrist release blood pounding head helped escape began cut week twice became intense took apart razor hands much blood possible release anymore became routine instead cutting twice week became twice day creative carved words help wrist large proud drew initials boy bone cut see muscle blood felt high pain began think ways see redflag felt left drew plans first thought painlessly began think going bang considered hanging shooting end took bottle pain pills feeling numbness throughout body go toxic shock probably relaxing thing world began sink onto floor time heard someone open door ended getting stomach pumped stay hospital days realized plan failed cried sick went home still broken attempted every time tried either failed stopped mother emotional wreck hated hurting time believed gone worry anymore wrote redflag note chance go plan knew successful going jump story building next fathers work particular reason chose building figured itd painful anyways gave trying die im glad still cut feeling blood running skin got help bestfriend understand put helped tremendously still relapse every awhile control now thanks reading im getting oh mention im day posting lines bee movie every day experience pick job normal well well well met someone beeish english first language sorry grammatical mistakes currently turn year graduated university last year yet find job due unknown sickness happens whenever emotional hot temperature body overheat causes immense unbearable psychological pain burning needle itching sensation idea rid instant solution taking cold ice bath impossible outdoor rely water spray minimize pain keep body slightly cool sadly help much either hard spray clothing public partly hot partly cold wet feelings make even worsethis kept kind activities even leaving room telling parents years ago take seriously cared whether degree although force finding job graduated still proceeded ignore issue feelings according logic think overly redflaged needed time part true really needed medical advice treatment yet remains silent everytime bring shift topic job seeking tolerable allowing take year worse dad doctor mom former nurseand shut everyday hurts going outside yes know permanent solution stay forever even work normal person itch suffer psychological pain every second fuck even know wrong body name disease sort doctor seek even funnier think itchy pain drinking hot soup walking point useless piece junk stay bed rant internet seriously idea anymore even type nothing change noone help suffer unknown pain everyday last years want end everything now friends tutorial first know sounds lame true never change friends people dont guide extro introverted people real advice connect old friends probably least one old friend younger childhood years maybe years ago add instagram way ask come watch movie something maybe play game connecting old friends maybe best thing done remember first time seeing old friend kinda akward first minutes butt ended awesome even got introduced friend group awesome people play sports oppertunity join club school join soccer team meet new people instantly even dont make new friends new social skills learned sports build muscles noticed boy girlscout social people tightest friendships really easy make friends scouts joined one years ago really scared meeting group great start learn really usefull skills adventures make good stories download instagram snapchat know instagram bad reddit good instagram snapchat really help stay connected instagram post cool pictures time time see pictures people hitting follow button literally takes effort impact meet cool teenagers ask ig stay connected chat dm interesting people ask hang worked b snapchat streaks react snaps stories liked start conversations ask asked naturally hang sometimes online gaming people know real life gamer another gamer school somebody know play online games become friends hard minecraft server call another gamer play ask even sleepover see real life play favorite games whole night eat chips ask open whatsapp send whatsapp someone know hangout today worst say dont smell bad brush teeth dress take care started highschool tried act cool become friends popular guys self reflection realised didnt even well pm questions wan na jump windowmy mother treating worst kid one time completely open times open times watch little sister buy things mom seem gone cant real want die cause till now mom one know nothing left keeps fair talking open mad night might last life friend born january tomorrow makes scared fuck born early scares friends legal adults soon even scary im around age legal adults always saw way older tbh soon friends adults dm know drill bored lonely im dude curious despite different directors fantasy hangs together remarkably wellbr br filmed england nowhere near morocco studios beaches outbreak war everything moved america scenes filmed grand canyonbr br notable one corniest lyrics song want bandit cant understand remains favourite many people redflag logicali told dad feeling tells thats life hes trying way though anyone thought redflag logical way example dont want husband dont want kids dont friends family fucked degree useless im currently unemployed ive felt empty entire life sometimes wonder addition mental disorders psychopathic tendencies kill ive known brief moments happiness wont come ive incredible experiences ive known moments true friendship love now doubt makes sense head except disappointing dad worth staying alive really cant see dont want future ahead life pain indifference cuties trailer dislikes youtube rewind mean idea deserves planning life freakin stressful anxiety day ig barely realized im actually live job stuff living life start shitty life suddenly blue universe decides hmm fuck kids life even convert human literal piece shit months rubbed hands prepared strike almighty upon bammmmmm bammmmmmm comes pandemic fucking fucked bitch chances recovering life gone ah fuck beats beats dog getting whipped owner life punches kicks abuses cant even crawl fucking throws thunder nature top reducing piece shit absolutely nothing haha fucked kid life pretty much worthless now guess took months years life planet plummet abyss bunch dominos goodbye postthis post blend rest dont expect anyone see im simply posting word one left world listen nothing world alone always alone life meaningless ill pulling trigger soon put something give closure best friend said paragraph attractive hey really benefit completely understand whats happening know youre super medical side think best thing time least evaluation see professionals think best dont feel helping much need got evaluated diagnosis definitely narrow help treating exactly needs treated hey allim exactly sure im going write want someone hear im thinking friends ask feel uncomfortable talking emotions perhaps knowing makes easier ive created account reddit post actually never used reddit account now different note heres want read days feel passion enthusiasm guilt excitement anything really cant say idea nothing really traumatic happened friends family partner im currently attending college future ahead speak really matter care put mask people around easier believe fine except reality think many things days go sporadically thoughts killing people around pass people streets believe superior others thoughts want something done properly might well know think way know everyone moral value part stands though block anything without feeling guilt sometimes cause others pain intentionally unintentionally though try anything draw negative attention stop smiling im happy everything emotional response enjoy gifts material objects attention anything make feel anything go day feeling blank going b completing tasks takes serious effort bare minimum tires work assuming bored high hell aware redflag watch im going part now enjoy thought redflag self harm entertain thought frequently took kitchen knife chest considered piercing chest presumably noone found dead blood loss family home recall reason resisted temptation simply wasnt time yet accompanied feeling apathy everything stated entirely think daytoday basis im honestly sure expect say anything creating helped sort thoughts im going sleep now anything say feel free comment ill answer see thank reading think democrat republican civil war let explain yesterday time posting yesterday huge group trump supporters broke capitol building wrecked inside course easily able capitol building protesting everything protester one makes wonder civil war think trump win election democrats thing job depressed high anxiety way life maybe ill better luck next lifehi im ive severely depressed life severe panic attacks occurring almost weekly ive tried medication fluoxetine sertraline wellbutrin adderall luck im constantly tired everything monotone panic attack wouldve ended everything much sooner redflag devastate parents wish happy world favor hurts holds one fights make right pick pieces happened point keeps putting second point theres nothing ill likely dead augusti cant move dads disgusting home cant afford school anymore cant even fast food job one wants hire cant anything fuck everything hate hate society im fucking loser bad weird ask girlfriend cup something girls girls ask want know care tell cause conversation know ur opinions freely one scene another one story another walking shadowy path open place wind leaves tree another many different sounds traveling people meet tell stories part forever knows walking places full lost expectations another time human thickness world takes breath awaybr br saw movie friends mine liked maybe used scenariobased readymade stories know movie silly ones love looking sun sparkling sea walking without hurry hills little villages listening growing grass tells stories underneath six feet warm wind summer give reasons stayanything besides parents love people sad purpose offense annoying want stay im tempted need advice got new online friend grouppretty normal theres girl subtly hinting things towards think likes subtly called hot literally said kiss im genuine confused likes friendly jokes need advice dont really knowi think posted couple times im exhausted sad numb cant concentrate anything lose focus time cant basic tasks feel im losing im trying hard hold cant back theres even particular reason unis super great great friends im difficulty whatsoever feels sadness really really deep eating tonight drank lot reason numb numbness never fact scared know talk want better want rude someone mom got home already know theres gon na yelling match hope win inly year highschool already want end best friends girls btw multiple biyfriends known one girlfriend ciuldt keep month without cheating worthless ass nobody cares anymore even talk friends without getting baker acted stuck psych ward days whuch nothing honestly thinking getting gun downstairs ending rn need way anymore redflag helpline messages annoyingredflag prevention messages fuxking annoying sure id go emergency room call helpline planned redflag yes planned important gon na die share person helpline bother staying aliveeveryone constantly mean reason always lots girls want live cant tried best years anywhere think give wish died infancy waste life life amazing watch others good life day posting girlfriend totally invest microwave silent mode lmao fuck know girl thats fuck know getting desperate huey lewis newsfuck everythingnothing mattershey dreadwolf coming live new york city nice cool summer night partly cloudy beautiful summer night making love almost pm ill coming live night long play best hits back day phone lines open ready answer calls knows may even appear live air next got huey lewis news slow hit taking first guest night first word sponsors suffering erectile dysfunction moonstruck one best films film dvd movie deals new york widow cher falls love boyfriends danny aiello angry brother nicholas cage works bakery im glad cher oscar movie nicholas cage danny aiello great direction norman jewison directed fiddler roof fantastic moonstruck excellent movie everyone see laugh mustseebr br stars past week playing furry visual novels havent attached met wolfgang animal crossing discussion post want know bad sign love wolfgang wolfgang isnt treating ubisoft games weird games bad never broke mould anything innovative ubisoft games movies genuinely good feel connection potatoe famine want mashed potatoes im hungry think kill depressed mental much hate hurt inside even shit deal people point live die opt going happen anyway end even matter nobody know existed years dead might die tomorrow anyway wait give actual reason go reach end everything wiped clean think kill know talk hate world little lonely piece shit got friends friends talked year one left call best friend one really understands every time try go school friends always feel left one girl really understood started crush fucking messed previous school lot socalled friends found used homeworks especially maths used share everyone found stopped sharing homework quarantine started one messaged even said hi way kept sane year learning programming expertised arduino python mum always says go fucking one go foreigner poland whenever went classmates talk polish understand much fucking hate world want friends want homeworks want go maybe play sports play videogames together go movies im much cowardi put belt around neck around pole closet bring tighten strangely felt peaceful right figured end things right now belt around got scared hurt imagined horrific dead body look cant almost sent goodbye text someone spoken months even care doubt im completely serious say keep staring belt know real way ive already reached peak rest pain failure delusion need wish courage got chance see movie early screening brea crazy film based shakespeares twelfth night read loved seen stage times certainly liked references whether shakespeare matter movie stands super funny witty charming amanda bynes hilarious david cross actually whole cast great happen huge david cross fanatic cast hot soundtrack kicks lots cool bands heard know cd coming definitely buy everyone audience laughed start finish age groups periscope library first arrived vhs acquired dvd digital cinema nowbr br quirky flick go militarily overboard either pro con first foremost comedy vehicle main characters quite surprised sequel never offeredbr br movie gained following borders cult obsession even among young became aware visiting uss drum mobile alabama group cub scouts grandson among taken roles movie planned relive overnighter boardbr br fun romp makes proud navy hollywood rare companybr br thanks kelsey grammar lauren holly rob schneider making unremarkable movie great entertainment sad hours usually ignore emotions people really getting im great expressing emotions situation know jokes digging way brain future someone meive spending days nothing sit front computer look sites expecting something new lay bed bit look window theres nothing want anymore nothing brings happiness anymore feels im going crazy spend hours mom sad thought used stop starting work anymore mom one let play kids move bunch times finding new jobs childhood fault ended messed cant normal growing cant friends im alone hate everyone time fell love someone guy internet talk hours obscure music mangaanime politics internet stuff everything time actually happy someone much common shared almost interests cant feel irl person theyre nothing normie trash ive tried friends enjoy moment still hate isolate everyone cant find anything similar made happy back taste perfection talking guy taste dreams coming true nothing good enough yeah falling love guy huh im bisexual im basically gay interest women exist pretty small add top everything im already obscure edgelord spends day room cant connect anyone im gay theres chance see real life annoying obnoxious gays im digusted desire part socalled community go accuse internalized homophobia wrong care hate life theres nothing never born enough years trash nothing changes cant see way cant anything reason live future someone love scared im forced go private christian university mom works turns university ranked one worst universities lgbtq students state one worst america im scared im tired hide fit bibles standards give upi fucking givr eeup dpnt care anymore ive gtting wasted tking drugs rying del shit long dont care anymore im sick cant fake anymore everyone know happy upbeat fucking positive hot popular cant anymore cant fucking keep carrying ive put new scars tonight cant keep want end hold brother nqd mom cant keep im fucking tired happens time especailly im drunk want shove kinfe throat im done im fucking tired idont know anymore pleqse help vacation great real life trash thoi went vacation amazing one day back work want kill reality mediocrity crashed back face see exit wake trash job pushed around feel garbage posted nice picture wife trip truly happy cant tell cant see frail piece shit man even first time postingim even mad sad happy anymore feelbored filled dread thinking living full life nothing contribute anymore burned many bridges mental health struggles im sahm love kids cant help think issues hurt seeing therapist psychiatrist started new meds dunno thought id reach mmm controler feet toot potatoa kimchee sepsis tintin shit stain im lostit started months ago family moved lost friends pretty much irl social interactions school made worst im scared letting family theyve done soo much thought letting kills universities missing credit feel disappointment even school ended ive thought ending life wan na hurt ones leave behind lately gotten worse everyday feels chore idk ive problems eating sleeping lately resulted loosing pounds reason im posting vent one home confined keeping inside hurts intruder lintrus visual pilgrimage mysterious life br br grizzled michel subor plays louis trebor jason bourne old man hidden past living simply isolated hut woods justifiably paranoid reasons attracting pretty young women useful learn dreams flashbacks journey may unfold chronologically well brusque interactions family lovers business associates striking nemesis limey film resonates parentchild regrets suspicious past revealed clips old film actor young man paul ggauffs adventure film le refluxbr br complete contrast moods meet son sidney grgoire colin sexiest house husband world sweetly seductively household repairs cares baby toddler every need working wife surely directorcowriter claire denis must created womans fantasy one lesson filmmakers filming foreplay theres additional extended scene seeks father woods carefully carrying angelic baby pouch everything father every relationship father incapable sustaining wonder thinks father lunatic spent rest film dread something bad happen true nature heart alienated father gradually played eyesbr br film puzzle subor ruthlessly fascinating watch traverse countries negotiate nefarious deals voiceover narration deniss beau travail annoying anyway figure skylines incidental signage traveling geneva korea south pacific time passing indicated seasons changing scars created healing lots images water cleansing distancing br br continuing fascination morphing colonialism globalization well playing bit stereotypes mysterious orient russian criminals denis incorporated elements robert louis stevenson paul gauguin marlon brandos tahiti idylls page memoir french philosopher jeanluc nancy last title hearttransplant plot used ironic theme limited immortality consequencesbr br louis thinks hes succeeded boundaries rules morals amusement last act locals quite know try help solve quixotic odyssey even lies isolationbr br several people audience left frustration elliptical strikingly beautiful story telling method unconventional narrative raise lot plot questions details gandhi father viewing book chapter chapter read itwith eyes learn harilal gandhi matter kasturba gandhi little known movie describes uniquely title misleads though much movie mohandas karamchand gandhi son harilal mother akshaye khanna shefali chayya full justice respective rolesbr br movies leap years come much timebr br gandhi father internal struggle sometimes difficult freedom struggle undertakenbr br watch quality cinema anybody lost appetite redflag attemptim still mentally recovering attempt almost week ago overdosed wasnt hospitalized got insanely drunk appetite slim none recovered anorexia unlike username suggests normal guilti talk today therapist parents mother said stopped putting energy relationship im negative father thinks getting job fix problems ill physically tired feel lazy toxic given times talked gave basically guilt trips everyone tells committing redflag easy planning redflag takes much energy afraid fail really hate life right now realized girl liked stupid aaaaaaa girl class fucking liked stupid cunt thought teasing asshat aaaaaa non binanry zero binery plz dont transphobic ampxb filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler helpi really need someone right now im year old girl feel hopeless someone please addd snap think trump suck ball xth okay took pregnancy test came back negative thank god guy hard sometimes plans kill march ive struggling lot depressive selfdestructive thoughts years remember really mild sad episode genuine feelings emptiness wanting close eyes never wake im extremely paranoid friends feel hate force talk think ill hurt kill nothing feels genuine think anyone want hang find nice friend mostly childhood friends treating way ive never made good experience genuine friend whos friend makes feel alone unwanted im scared everyone sees psychotic person need endure theyd feel guilty redflag im scared opening past trauma barely trust anyone want hang localgiant forest th birthday mainly want dad birthday kill love lot sees psychotic rather normal person know past conversations way talks problems psychologist mom abused want talk felt mention nothing future seems good worth going pain im loss want hang ive crying woke closest friends betrayed trust yesterday called police psychotic breakdown talking dying never said id try anything called want talk want feel responsible death thats think least selfish thinking im heartbroken shook none messaged yesterday either feel truly hate abandoned feel fault broke friendship lost one things still cheered day know anymore im heartbroken wish die hope manage hang march ordered proper rope set good time window thought many timessince situation escalated november last year thought redflag many times parents cried told blame keep thinking happen gone mean imagine everyone funeral imagine everyone carrying life least last end miserable life free torturing thoughts traumatic event life people find courage cat gonemy sister decided cat house fleas bugs cats body want cat back treat insults please fear death less less daysi used absolutely petrified dying scared unknown cease exist recently fear slowly started fade away replaced increasing thought maybe ceasing exist need feel walk onto main road front house end committed yet feel guilty leaving husband daughter im honestly hanging thread now sometimes wish least one thing life came somewhat easy one dream right whos excited late school forgot mask home run back whos excited late school forgot mask home run back bi homies ayo kinda think im bi cant really put finger yall figure want wake upi want go sleep never wake hate life im married man years thats gone months year living dream job im home taking care everything keeping household running hate life im lonely know moneyjob leave tonight cheated husband making hate even strength willpower go son always strength go know thats enoughhttpsenoughnow keep going strength determination think ill make birthday month think make far wan na kill hou ur aw ye daein e day howpe ye ur aw daein guid filler filler filler filler even know right place post completely overwhelmed husband committed inpatient today talking behavioral health know struggling idea lead stupid military hospital let civilian visitors right either know expect never side things anyone give info please husband involuntarily committed swear fucking god fucking hiccups againfuck apple fuck anyone works fuck hiccups fuck everything everyone thinks im fucking happy fuck everyone want fucking die eat shit fuck think im fucking joking fuck swear god im better dead met palm reader goes ah see ah yes see forest disaster occur shortly quite soon actually even see coming fucking spits hand reaching point needs endwhats names san im bipolar ive fighting depression years started early parents divorce dad molested shit kids dealing currently work hours day job thats guaranteed make worse live shed property mom step dad thought maybe someone hear story maybe help someone im currently sitting bed thinking went wrong eaten days appetite even cant afford food anyway want phone girlfriend broke told hang mean person thought actually loved tells go hang lets see life started working parents bothered accident theyve never done anything show started street fighting earn extra cash feed clothes pay step dad rent spends money booze abusive alcoholic forced drop high school final year refused support kicked unfortunately afford live pay schooling moved sister found complete narcissist bipolar thing mom gave us developed extreamly bad drug addiction killed sister never found kicked along well boyfriend absolutely hated moved real dad whos alcoholic abusive round sack shit stayed bit till got drunk swung unfortunately abused left walked km friends house phone mom see stay night sleep says yes stay night discuss staying temporarily till job two feet got job everything going great place got promotion met girl dreams owner company sold new owner got rid lost apartment lost everything came crashing spiraled drugs alcoholism girlfriend broke slept mt childhoods dog house nowhere go became bartender thats country without matric eventually molecular mixolagy fancy bar making pretty good cash went away owner bar closed bar left couple months later meet girl broke pretty much whatever lead better life forces move mom bro stayed months first time years happy truely happy mom kicks us move place stayed bit till afford live anymore begged mom let stay shed agreed long pay rent work survive till meet guy work now made sound dream job want field choice programming salary great hey work hard ill promotion withing months looking replace manager department im working say cool easy job field love jump full force clock hours time week paid subtract huge amounts money salary due short time dont take work managers make hell people working hate going work hate getting situation stuck place life escape everyone ive loved destroyed everyone whos supposed love claims love hurt thrown dirt rot ive constant bullying school molested ive ive survived know guys going im sure strong enough try reaching someone unfortunately im strong enough tried reaching one listen thank reading story people reddit need listen please believe im completely lonely please judge anywhere find information ways kill myselfi sincerely doubt place asking might offhandedly find someone whos know help brother access cant access gun hanging seems much suffering thinking guillotine probably way im going go im wondering ways quick effective lowest failure rate help appreciated parents divorced still court left mother live dad lost control dragged everyone around yesterday meet basically told lie judge father lil sister back cps took months ago told owed betraying screamed public made scenecame home absolutely wasted screamed dad told eyesin evening went friends drank never afterwards smoked blunt stand drug dealer call friends bar pick throwing kept awake called dadonly thing remember saying friend nice way diefather picked shouted friends helping one said might threw car responded going kick ass speeding awaytoday woke spoken word looked pure disgust worst thing even blame hating megod wish died yesterday reached absolute low last night think back hurts im stressed tryna go crazy ive noticed got whole lot shit short period time back starts hurting much crush post weird needed chest bye maxmoefoes newt facts know newts lizards think please help science project might appropriate sub esp im lurker around lowkey one communities real virtual dont judge lmao ampxb anyways anyone time fill surveys onehttpsformsglewryrbmrgyqlmqwu summerliving warm weather onehttpsformsglefxkhuyluwlcvyt wintercold weather please aight imma head outanyone need something im gone saved fathers life least x recently found hes diabetic forced hospital help find sugar helping today try make sure little possible anymore yelled listening fitting instead calls dick head replied stubborn asshole thus squares starts pushing wanted fight problem major surgery stomach basically held together tape room calm meds looking way hell told better never need help even health cut ties find floor stubborn ass put situation mine sure want anymore one hand deal miserable father dropped high school years ago verge death hes trying push death hello lost virginity im never going tell put sorry horse walks bar bartender says long face horse incapable understanding human language promptly shits floor leaves cute girl kinda friends idk shes pretty popular asf friends thats better nothing find pretty want fucking rail asshole pass anyways dont know say start forming emotional connection need help hate body much makes want diem feel scrawny ive lifting awhile ive gained lot weight feel weak scrawny feel everyone looks thinks dont look masculine attractive enough deserve die feel guys muscular look think skinny much better im anxious film came years years ago revelation even people knew something drag scene new york textbooks drag performance say nothing vogueing houses anthony slides great pretenders says nothing julian fleishers drag queens new york illustrated field guide flow chart influence pulls together julian eltinge minette warhol queens s club scene postdates film ignores houses completely even laurence senelicks changing room closest thing definitive book drag performance rushes quickly past film give background information one expected itbr br understand film itselfand various articles found web house system goes back decades major film performance house member prior seems chrystal la beija queen historical context biggest missing part paris burningbr br film valuable focuses scene ignored valuable snapshot life unfortunate fact venus xtravaganza murdered filming provides dramatic ending film transsexuals include reallife murder know dorian corey mummified corpse literal closet come three years laterbr br historical importance still need someone either book documentary film provides context something one seems taking one brings campc soundtracks talking video games always say doom doom maybe even doom great everything crashesanyone feel life going great sudden depression hits category hurricane want happy great year beginning month hate hate ruined horrible havent diagnosed depression anything come family doesnt believe tried overdosing one night ended mad instead trying help mom threatened psych ward ive heard horrible stories dont know suppose ill seek psychiatrist well headphones died guess ill go sleep goodnight everyone dont big tiddies least cosplay male characters small tiddies better big tiddies friend peed foot today lying said didnt turn im going see know sure now going plan redflag means escape constant torture failed ive given even seems therapist know help anymore theres nothing left ill dead within year free award guess favorite music genre u award simple question cut hair cut hair hey question wonder happen stabbed right now happen killed right now even care go life little hobby finding really cool pics pretty much unknown letting people know one top list getting word summer indie film really mean indienot miramax fox searchlight indie might easy overlook big maze celluloid want something completely differentyou check one br br basically thought totally great known dvd cover front back going something totally different say stuff different hook well one really totally different face beautiful scary unashamed tell wake war peace poetry even eerie sort music video set old time patriotic song weird guy rv need say see calling guitar players im bored havent talked anyone common interests awhile someone hmu hello ppl sorting new tell something new abt day interesting abt want yall know year old high schooler actually got girlfriend important thing remember looking girl confident always one withstand depression another girl years ago time give girlfriend boyfriend enjoy life whatever interests best friends dad died yesterday dont know help best friend lost dad yesterday siblings older younger kinda poor dad hospital ohio live new york family drive younger brother stay behind cause family left mom told probably boring idea dad die rs last conversation dad phone didnt know last convo yesterday dads parents picked house grandparents drove home sat told horrible news money problems parents worked low paying jobs saw today little brother m tried best avoid topic fun time didnt cry see eyes felt sht dont know cause want help dont know guys give advice help god wish never knew discord shit put godawful messages send damn cringy looks angry fortnite kid owned account years look back acted back guess thats reason discord think know way cant bfgf think reason bc ill either crave attention text times day ill ghost two days dead insidetoo many bad things happening long without anyone knowing caring ampxb assaulted babysitter babysitter whole thing fucked brain twisted awful nightmare memory reason know real sister remembers seeing growing dad horrible rage problems used grab face hard fingers insides cheeks bleed ran house frantic scared broke ankle spent one new years eve walking along road without coat proper shoes kicked rage lived car two week refused argument made angry threatened divorce mother leave sometimes best friend sometimes favorite sometimes still best friend now sometimes hes asshole mother uses emotional crutch never really sister fortunately brother great stay alive mostly best friend great getting hard theres many things highschool teacher highly inappropriate relationship sexually assaulted twice high school violently youth church group one violently publicly school first college boyfriend horribly abusive emotionally physical trouble swallowing breathing sometimes permanently damaged hyoid lovers kept first relationship abused fucking piece shit abuser two mutually destructive awful abusive pure usery oneone legitimately raped still bear physical mental trauma rape second long term relationship emotionally abusive first constantly threatened violence stalked broke everyone ive dated user asshole one coerced sex one penetrated without permission use condom say froze full dissociated wouldve fine sex wouldve asked condom maybe asked vocal consent literally top foot height easily lbs weight froze fucking gave hpv precancer im sick fibromyalgia diagnosed one understands besides doctors even doctors dicks prevailing theory currently mutation mitochondrial dna leaves mitochondria vulnerable oxidative stress cells cant process energy properly im tired time feels ive pulled every muscle body top shooting nerve pain migraines stomach never hurting sleep im much pain body fucked cellular level theres nothing anyone cant afford medicine hole emergency surgery cat want die sleep long time wake someone maybe something horrible past life life pure shit sometimes good sometimes love live life love nature love drawing love science love magic music art many things constantly hurt people destroyed people want love love amazing friend anything anyone people see weakness take advantage crush destroy tear pieces little left now things try anyhow things comfort ive therapy many times cant right now try love hard feels im person loves one person life im sure loves unconditionally burden take everyone elses pain time really stay alive even worse things happened want one awful tragedy loss life still theyre sibling always wanted horribly lonely want need different kind love every time ive triedive shredded little left little left really know much nothing completely rebuild wish sleep thousand years enough time claw mental health problems guys need advice dont know ampxb lot mental health problems might know fixreduce impact tldr find hobby ie something brings joy able better cope problems ampxb think might writing scripts cuz tried got really inspired really happy day want habit problem takes time dont time lot homework ampxb im starting point school everything becomes really important every test take influences final score influences university go country called atar think comparable sat basically constantly homework ampxb means cant devote time write scripts im anything fix mental health im incapable spending time required homework done ampxb cant ignore homework work fixing mental health cuz ill fail school make parents angry make mental health worse im sure ignore trying fix mental health longer cuz im afraid im going wake one day fed everything kill ampxb thing think gap year basically taking year away studies high school university im going stage make decision another years logically theres point living keeping aliveif im well school unsure major minor whatever financial gains access financial gain lost sense identity deviant many ways flawed human family god real reason live followup question keeping alive living existingnot really sure im posting websites ss go know im going explain case banned feel ive site years seen people come go yet im stuck standing still ive ordered method choice online gets doubt ill use always make plans head cant even go due exhaustion general unwilling make effort plus im living someone hes last person id want find state puts much shit already ive spent today bed got bed properly pm ate went back snooze pm awake wondering go back sleep know fault reaching connecting people time energy hide bed rest existence hit mum today first time long time deserve never deserved hate way treated wish go back fix everything destroyed people say things provoke already feeling low causes fly handle emerge someone despise episodes often think ending life think guts unless one day badly hurt someone anger guilt consume sometimes cut episodes seems fair much mum lovely caring woman everyone life treats shit including stuck cycle know change need help fucked life yes humour teacher called personal project pp started laughing lets say confused giant asshole pushed everybody lifei literally one talk blame made attempts life tired step everybody around feel piece shit afterwards vicious cycle want tell anybody afraid call cops sitting letting boil helping everyone rad tech course hates treat chick shit one wants anything ropes end feel pushing last hump order trying hold thought process always whats point couple months tired fucking tired time trying stop buying six pack know need gain strength day writing something positive happened today played really fun rounds among us best friend try anime guys totally honest start watching anime nothing time find recommendations opened door girls dad girl smiled stop confusion happening im interested dad god damn btw im thinking killing dont flood redflag hotlines mkay die accidentally touched metal part phone charger electrical outlet im putting ik sound really fucking stupid answer question cause didnt set spawn point im hardcore mode tylenol pills kill youmy boyfriend tryed overdose idk texted saying took hes responding need know hes asleep redflag sounds jamto honest f status symbol world almost need go back dark ages sort money hungry society makes sick know big oak tree hill beautiful sunset man hang peace im saint done wrong life guess young means need sweet knot tighten take life posting f knows feels gd write guess yes bob want kill im idiotseriously fuck work lot im surprised fired yet fuck everyday life fuck left right surely id world service offing right opera great film wonderfulimaginative imageryan opera singercristina marsillachis stalked killer forces watch murder everyone knows tying taping needles eyesthis idea needles comes fact argento people cover eyes watching moviesfor years ive annoyed people covering eyes gorier moments filmsi film images want people see avoid notredflag confrontation fears looking awayso thought possible achieve force someone watch gruesome murder make sure cant avert eyesthe answer came core opera aboutsays argentoplenty suspensewonderful cinematography brutalgory murdersone guy stabbed throat knife causing gushing wounddaria nicolodi gets shot eye looking peepholeetcfor anyone caught one yetgive tryhighly recommended parents catching masturbate thinking realized perfect card throw catch masturbating basically every night parents go bed early close doorsbruh know whats upans even make sounds id forget sooo fucking hard catch masturbating ill likeits normal teenagerplus know whatcha behind closed doors problem explaining gay porn watch one girl responded comment pog patrick tf pog idea pog done guys abroad seem kinda obsessed everywhere go see scared feeling safe anymore im necessarily yet feel soon might bei guess need vent turn weeks know everyone around act care care know really feeling inside know thats seeking help think fair put feelings someones brain forced care really strength seek help begin ive depressed past two years never thought commiting redflag always felt wouldve gotten better now hasnt slowly gradually getting worse feel birthday last ive fantasizing jumping bridge reminisce part thinks itll never happen im scared cant help feel might happen tough much family around loathe family thought growing always felt family everything got older parents got divorced shattered perspective family never close begin anyways certainly close now know anymore feel lonely helpless needed vent almost died hiking post going youth group went hiking trip today leaders let us split groups group went creek saw hill back trail pretty tired plus getting near time leave started hill got maybe ft top big hill easily ft close top got stuck grab anything roots trees rock bunch little inch ledges used rock way got end rock started using hands feet dig loose dirt got two feet middle hill started slip nothing grab dig fingers hard eventually slid little rock mostly ground able footing rock start back hill man panic attacks slide rock know put story figured best whyi know anymore absolute thing find fulfillment job thing feel somewhat competent look forward going home work dread days know ill completely alone going back clockwork day day fucking thing point living life im lost swallowed lot medication regret ooooh regret going kill already tell cant tell dad redflag attempt year pissed puke fast acting medication minutes tremors cant speak last time im extremely emotional cry hours straight cant cant last chance residential isnt good pointi nothing live im terrible person blame problems people around point retarded mad hate sister cause happy hate parents try help hate im aware shitty person im going anywhere life graduate even know graduate nothing still bother trying find certain music style help im looking slow sort synth something dark makes feel im standing cold wet city far future recommendations songs even genre thanks help british documentary recently shown comedy central best week seen south parks second season dvd remember seeing many commercials dvd showing clips documentary occurs matt stone trey parker guy hot tub funny saw commercials used seeing time saw actual documentarybr br overall goin south park fairly funny interesting look south park episodes made series history going back matt trey came idea college something tone documentary actually felt sort depressing fastpaced rapidfire lively actual south park episodes instead kind slow drywit style times funny time waiting something happen chance watch means go think really missing much never see itbr br imdb rating cant want everydayi think everyday multiple full proof methods painless quick preferences decent career twin month old babies loyal wife excellent mother anyway im constantly feeling thoughts drink much forget take prescriptions stave hangovers sounds stupid cliche even ive stopped meds stopped drinking overwhelming apathy envelops usual see affecting relationships feel tired anything im selfish narcissistic core sense self preservation overshadows semblance ethics greater good yet crave praise peers urge please others liked anything low self esteem sprinkle hope future much claim want better kids know things end wont know difference somewhat relief wont know difference wont blip memory want father killed cant wife cant leave still keep thinking thoughts gotten stronger ive taken responsibility life feels though im caught rock hard place may short term thinker seems muster make day endure next want distant father barely acknowledges kids dont want workaholic sacrifices wellbeing financial gain stability im deep career age student debt viable option explore potential paths want past sense self hatred go back easier livelihoodi look back teens early twenties minimal responsibility reminisce yearn know still felt way theres relief ive fucked personal brain chemistry via meds alcohol im person years ago maybe aging situation habits vices gotten worse contributed unhealthy self destructive lifestyle cant seem care anything comes ill make decisions specifically work im unhappy cant leave wife kids long run know fine stupid selfish put difficult situation due personal issues far solution sacrifice well ensure nullify bad feelings meds alcohol wish make shit feelings go away atleast produce better enjoyable feelings take hold long run problems facing everyday objects eg glasses fog wear mask often happens great directors last movie becomes moving brillantly performed filmed masterpiece cast excellent well camerawork starts merry comingtogether group welleducated citizens earlythcentury dublin turns dark philosophic narration fear death sometimes dark shadows past thank mister huston last piece great cinema mg xanax thinking taking know im even postingits much hurts everyday sleep peace want forever guess need talk slipping away job lost figure salary insurance family except wife pets theyre reason done sooner friends nothing first timedunno wanti felt empty long time cant keep job woman left left fiance cant tell much went school sucks done maths planned pli sci stupid geuss wanted change world cuz military wrong im teller bank maths one cares oh medical bills lol got genetic heart disease years ago kill anytime yay see smart movie hard understand first time see everything seen heard screen intentionally crafted evoke feeling sensation tone clarity certain visuals crispness certain sounds deliberately contrasted blurred images pops crackles hisses barely audible sounds structure nonlinear cyclical motifs recur time runs clockwise counterclockwise expectations regarding plot character broken signaling nontraditional use film tell story contemporary old humanity part review usa movie emotionally intense intellectually intriguing profoundly disturbing surprising unconventional ways dion dennis phd dont feel anythingi feel im going cast aside forgotten im already people dont want deal im annoying mistake still hurts one person make things better wont even try makes really sad thought meant enough everyone know tell things leave alone expect able im lowest hate way dont know born way want put bullet head stop constant agony parent help hey guys teen suffering adhd wondering comfront parents dont believe exists got medically tested back parents refuse give medication tell real problem starting make feel garbage pile help appreciated kids group started playing among us teacher sent us breakout rooms low key said wants play among us playing bruh live classes convince parents let transfer seriously hateeeee school im right constantly talked shit lost almost friends want fresh start im incoming sophomore parents keep saying switching schools running away problems anyone experience transferring schools seen bollywood flicks salman khan say favorite recent ones songs quite fun especially o priya priya seems nice mix beatles indian music dare say bit prince love stories bit believable say chal mere bhai occasional focus prems use alcohol times troubling really seem make sense played well khanalthough voice become squeaky hes portraying drunkenness anyone already hating school year third day senior year ive cried day mutiple times haha idk im already stressed classes even many aps teachers already warned difficult know able keep band one class used actually enjoy year absolutely loath frustrated practice theyre making us perform region music super difficult class everday shaking hard earlier playing m music got bumped top band year im able keep put new instrument even still able play better yet cant hate classes smh im super stressed college cause idea hell im supposed one talk except sister feel bad always dumping problems much help im extremely stressed right now hating life kinda want die lol want sit bed day school work still online school another weeks cant imagine much worse ill feel addition see interact people deal teachers facetoface sigh anyone feeling way hope idk im wondering overreacting people feel way ig kind rant ive flaired sorry one cares im really tired sad ill probably delete post soon anyways spent past weeks meet friends family members still talk thought nice see one last timei fucked everything life got degree field unable properly work longer see point become useless piece shit unable bed morningi unconciously sabotaged notredflag ended hurting exes feel extremely lonely drink excessively almost social occasion way stand people around friends metaphorically drifting away course good never really good friend easier finally leave worldi longer find joy anything used lots hobbies considered extremely talented kid dozens great opportunities great plans wanted see world happy good end failed basically everything want leave fucking mess take elsewho drinkssmokes cope depressionredflag thank one year reddit want say thank amazing year reddit omg united states make bald eagle national dinosaur bald eagle coolest dinosaur anyway waiting find perfect methodi year old loser looking right way go school two years yet complete semester depression symptoms always better find struggling bed unable go class work ive almost failed threee times im hopelessly love girl love back social anxiety makes practically impossible talk anybody ive tinder two straight months matches absolutely nothing considered attractive opposite sex im fat hairy short acne bad teeth small penis selfconfidence reasons never much held hands girl nobody even fathom concept might major symptom anxiety often unable come something say general conversation left constant state awkward silences feel though friends starting tired family life shit nobody family talks left intermediary dozen different groups become overwhelming ive found shutting different family members top able job two years interviews go conversations awkward silence nervousness success school love life social skills family life marketability jobs perfect equation total loser future searching perfect method redflag relatively painless mainly clean quick want stop blight humanity let successful people around lives without dragging need end wanting kill guyi want im tired everything everything seems pointless hopeless need serious help soonim giving treatment everyone says hope help eventually person runs options feel different started tell person really wants help havent im sure inability causes suffer suffering higher importance causing suffering getting relieved fair im going slowly withdraw world clearly help medical field ive two psychiatrists therapists ive appointments current psychiatrist different meds id say meds wan na run risk sounding im exaggerating feelings cant defined explained cant helped able put words im feeling anyone know people around feel people around take pills day still feel incredibly hopeless take xanax lorazepam drink almost every night spend per week weeddabs know rare cant helped ive seen top doctors area excruciatingly guiltproducing know much parents worry much spend afford fine feel monetary equivalent specialneeds kid im live home commuting great college apply medical leave absence freshman year reasons suicidal time reached breaking point let know expand anything read please let know breaking rules kind wrote frenzy desperation try post throwaway similar last serious posts account got response maybe long people read input helps next move mostly stay bed bath im still open try couple things call quits idk put say wan na look timothee chalamet dress zendaya suit cant choose fuck best friend told everyone knows lie including hes rambling redflag doim really concerned revealed depressed year idea seem clear grip reality right says plays part everyone knows make guy us really asked concretely back actually washe kept repeating worthless often dreamt redflag top started rambling things much better committed redflag constant state misery fakery im hard time responding without freaking wanting call cops sending place add college lives campus car reach admitted drunk maybe two hours ago know hes still drunk say talking facebook hes said choice things one upset death id already b edeadwell maybe ship sailed whole life lies ypu care hurting real doesnt care want harmed anything still worth world die tomorrow happier feel im living expected want toive felt life much struggle keep living past years ive suicidal thoughts around years old come go every time come always seems worse around time started cutting arms year ago said think never make plans wont go time went started looking prices shotguns efficient way killing things diagnosed depression around sophmore year high school barely graduated high school graduated tech school got job along way kept telling youll feel better eventually never times im thinking redflag capacity im mentally physically exhausted work im talking friend something feel im autopilot day days weeks fly hardly remember happened yesterday routine ive gotten cuz work exact thing happenes high school difference cant sleep work school lose job suicidal thoughts gone occasional weekly daily every single inconvenience life makes wish didnt exist die accident didnt keep living started smoking half year ago sort anxious episode trade school havent stopped despite couple attempts went cigarettes day helps calm little bit works thousands times better medication ive prescribed gives disturbing comfort knowing life shortened even little bit everything feels empty good things happen happiness never sticks dont want keep living feel ill fail everyone around even spoiler people readingplan read giver lois lowry havent gotten ceremony twelve every time book says pills jonas takes always imagine someone saying take horny pills go fun think say okay make pets vegan long herbivore dont wtf forcing carnivores vegan tho mom im trying appease opposite sex whenever want wear smaller cut bathing suit isnt attract teenage boys whenever put makeup im trying impress someone friend opposite sex doesnt mean want date dont know guys moms eyes everything im impress boys even though ive never shown slightest attraction around little know im actually bi realize dress look best others definitely men long please read please mwell back realized friends really friends talk outside school usually respond messages blow obviously fake excuses chores practice etc times now ya really bad timing bad timing math busy time better chance winning lottery twice row busy many times course id never say face busy less time id say odds actually one interestingly enough happens really big fucking number point felt friends point crying bed day wanting literally die worst thing reason happen ive told im nice cute hot smart funny im tall muscular money third time actually left house cute girl came asked number gave although im interested swear god real important one person actually reading accurate information impressed whatever may think think happen id rather situation loser speech impediment social anxiety unnatractive abusive friends months ago knowing still make real friends hurt everytime somebody ignore snapchat never respond text shot stomach actually considering one thing keeping killing one friends person conversation three weeks ago even invited hang yet due reasons mention want found people know im glad know never friend actually cared meet someone imagine waking paralyzed surgery want doctors notice awake see twitch eye trying attention every time look eyes think theyre going notice sure time hopes nothing always sometimes stare strangely somethings wrong always shrug plus pain surgery sudden hours literally tortured one doctor decides apparent reason increase anaesthetics anyways thanks two three people actually read im putting thankyou middle see please comment letter q italics along whatever comment doctor know keeping kept one help anyways wanted talk still want die everything life actually care horrible kill now probably feel friendship starting end want make feel responsible afterwards got boyfriend means cant hang guys really even talk text back two days want die feel nobody really talk nobody wants listen even though know irl still nice know least one person listening want things turn around know theyre happening spent years life forcing change getting past social anxiety everything people treat differently actually want around idea wrong cant change cant fix hell id rather kill go longer cant everything going life except money looks brains etc id rather none things meant people cared ability fun based people ive tried everything videogames netflix sports going places matter im constantly bored end going reddit day play games distract even bored bored feel worse staring white wall day every day someone talks great cant even come analogy unfortunately never happens people ignore texts take days text back ignore snapchats constantly blow never invite anything getting kicked gut nobody wish courage end life depending things go week im going least try force bottle aspirin shoot feels horrible type im done though nobody nobody film expected little watched pass quiet hour hour turned roll excellent nonetooserious little story countryboylostinthebigcitymakesgood funny throughout characters endearing pace rightbr br toby malone true star film endearing portrayal matt said country boy local aussie rules football hero come big city try one big teams supported superbly john batchelor local gangster tiny watch twobr br highly recommended write notei know causing pain leave behind want go want protect say want blame say anymore say know good want die say anything personal notes one big note guess time plan kill next year even tho id right now want ruin plans made im gon na body pillow make life every night hyyyuuuhhhhhhh heyhow everyone feeling tonight im downs moment curious everyone feeling heres cool story stepped nail whatever english ive tip inside foot everytime take step stings hate male jk hate human happiness fragilei well weeks feel hopeless even got motivation back school thought things turning around fail important test grade fucked jokes getting hopes im back spiral know shit together now want pass classes see point im probably gon na fail anyways often driving wish someone run red light hit deal life anymore always disappointed pass intersection unscathed wish someone crash struggle constantly laughsmile every months seconds sounds right life even hard convince people death million times better living trans person closeted notim desperate hopeless im pissed spend another day cursed planet cursed body people feel sad god damn nice easy peace wait natural death fault everyone satisfied probably ask increase antidepressants feel less emotional situation make anything better best way escape horny jail im putting text post doesnt removed many times asked give instructions make peanut butter jelly feels silliest thing rant seemingly pointless activity least first time keeps assigned ive done twice middle school probably least elementary school im onto second time high school im getting pretty tired id find hard believe havent done yet thoughts deserve live want live nothing contributes anything good hurt everyone around nobody likes every second alive absolute torture alive alive help plz say figure crush likes someone wan na heartbroken sometimes mentions one friends texting spent whole lesson talking break heart please even joking want people confirm dont chance girl prefer salty sweet snack basically title explains subs discord actually good worth joining thank goodbyedear redflag watch people thank letting rant crap people helpful support kept long guess goodbye works great try stop succeed hopefully ill dead summer care anymore getting better want try ive tried three years nothing got better im sorry family friends putting ive lied way hospital talked therapists helped support money energy ive taken everyone im sorry making people read please know im sorry thank goodbye goldengatebridge perseverance landing mars time pre nut clarity im lucky fk searching girlfriend almost years im university yes found girl liked interests problems etc yes seems created one liiiitle problem boyfriend jeez found ideal girl next day said damn bf im really lucky person ps fuck jump bridge maybe hanging callingi ex mind want become stalker want trouble want pain suffer others girls dont want boyfriends girls want food bruh finding job hard moved oh nc literally jobs back home many connections went indeed days got jobs connections indeed months literally got one job job cant pay anything got bills bruh im looking trades stuff go theres nobody training straight got ta associates years experience im bruhhhhhh im literally tf supposed make sumn literally cant cause theres starting points two theories comes arguing women neither work see sideis life asking whole life fucking go im done fucking joke life ive im drugged drunk enough sign see side goodbye going downhill againi thought mental health improving wrong started taking antidepressants may helping past week constantly want dead ive started worrying friends often talk dyingkilling fast forward today ive paid client work im broker broke exactly one antidepressant left honestly id expect last post dont think go anymore even energy try fight anymore win brain im done life meaningless wasted life away fuxking focus find passion anything xd anyone experience tech cleanse something perma online well hate every level nowi good day today first time quite awhile occurs im still pathetic nothing never amount anything wouldnt missed im fat gross fault follow anything use shitty past lame excuse shitty self im garbage person ill die garbage person exactly deserve hope god real hope go hell give hope point dont chicken fucking time countless others hate cant even kill myselfive treatment taking meds now always thing feel better want die im much coward actually jump take whole damn bottle redflag realistic option end asking something kill outloud hours end friends talk feel feel drags seem help end spiraling way always dont even think theres point writing im sorry wasting time ive failed everything life im useless piece shit cant even end im idiot opened clash clans middle class volume way made insanely loud supercell loading screen noise everyone looked laughed fuuuck dummest comment gets award one comment per user got spooky game ideas tradition make halloween themed game every year october ive got days left october got holloween themed game ideas either simple arcade type game game beat quickly one scary moviebr br brad pitt deserved oscar thisbr br traveling novelist played david duchovny xfiles fame girlfriend pick two hitchhikersjuliette lewis brad pitt way california br br way stop infamous serial killer murder scenes photography scenes upcoming book duchovnys character working little know disturbed serial killer history country sitting right next car hate want die want die hate myselfits cycle yes sex cool mini fridge room killed back thought awhile back think fascist becomes dictator dont see way im queer female told roe v wade never turned republican political science professor saw happened georgia alabama see supreme court filled snake talkers graduated college right pandemic im stuck working minimum wage job nobody hiring nobody wants experience everyone requires im going ruining back working retail lowes possibly rest life people giving interviews service work less make now recently mental breakdown work full time without coming home crying sleep work repeat theres nothing left becomes president take years canada theres nothing left im debt rest life due student loans even pay cant even pay bills im going lose health insurance end year bills start accrue interest assume defer loans much eventually come take shit away idk hopefully ill fucking dead happens hoursi feel relief instead sadness need forgive couldnt stand pain anymore sayonara nflost watched premier fire surprised hospin clean tho let go grudge im senior high school right now year ago someone took embarrassing pic wounded spreading nude pic something compromising one really cared kid real snake way makes wan na punch face remembered saying something whole school seeing reason none really struck quarantine started everything shut time dwell confronted online talked apologized according trying hurt embarrass trying mean simply trying funny inquired saying whole school saw kept insisting never said cant report dean tried back various ways making fake reddit account impersonating saying awful stuff sending account people try spread talking stuff mentioned getting bullied bus kids mock liking cows indian come home cry room every night mocked liking cows called cow shit response reddit thing said report dean even means getting trouble wan na break nose even bad go without getting trouble sort plausible deniability feel kind happyand thats know im going kill soon plan going happen im overwhelmed everything happening life moment im sorry advance annoying post im student im horrible classes im stupid hardly pay attention lecture friends either im always alone fucking sucks even online people hate everyone know talks ugly stupid behind back ive said im almost ive never dated anyone ive never even kissed blame anyone wanting though im fucking disgusting face hideous body repulsive obese scarred personality horrible im disgustingly fat one right mind want spend time much less love want im good anything im funny smart cant play sports cant sing dance play instrument anything cant even talk people im fucking awkward weird people feel sorry im constantly embarrassing cancer top multitude health issues including severe ocd half time want bash skull things right much easier family deal im burden wish died surgery im sorry posting much cant go anywhere im sorry annoying hate much hope last post thank everyone messaged past kind words mean lot life worth living anymore world horrible place want leave im worthless live system servitude freedom propaganda prevalent ive probably made post past care important word freedom word servitude definitions teenager truly wish adult looked eyes explained simple truth adult im going explain whoever reading definition servitudehttpswwwmerriamwebstercomdictionaryfreedom condition one lacks liberty especially determine ones course action way life definition freedomhttpswwwmerriamwebstercomdictionaryfreedom absence necessity coercion constraint choice action every human met lives capitalism taking part definition means system servitude opposite system freedom free choice im making argument im simply explaining words mean things definitions agree argument said wish teenager adult told truth never happened helped lot know least someone grasp going able explain simple way instead truth many us lied economic propaganda victims propaganda never sat told live free country likely lifetime really really wish someone told hate fact learn adult someone tells live free country accidentally lying special country special less free anywhere live system economic servitude north koreans someone tries convince live free country take life advice im saying treat poorly victims propaganda feel bad try educate attempt break spell let lies win let propaganda win tell truth tell kids truth tell many people young old truth know uncomfortable accept fact important many people know truth possible world continue way care humanity know cant allow find someone wholl love online cant communicate classmates needs online actually find someone whos willing love tho find friend eventually go deeper idek im feeling anymore honestly every night stay later feel weird mixture disappointment depression anger im fine people talking moment im alone feel garbage im tired every day feeling feel matter cant sleep schedule back normal either barely muster motivation morning go lift anymore ill probably delete soon idek im saying im back day ban woooo expect shitposts enoughhttpimgurcomhqermql need help persuading parents wish becoming digital artistpursuing visual designing career parents kind people believe doctor engineer going successful stable income call supreme bs theyre coming live egypt probably worse economic state im interested careers convince choices prevent choosing want life hate seeing upset want least make satisfied googled around bit want confirmations digital artvisual designing job opportunities provide consistent financial income earn respect etc thanks help hope drowned new think much think wouldim coming year relationship broke year ago much worse really know say except tell whole story thats long tedious miss much short version intellectual type met college nothing girls hometown fucking idiots things girls going theyre deferential men theyd make good housewives nothing perfect us promised life thats part really kills agreed knew long enough know others flaws look past told type people say forever mean didnt tells hopes fix issues next relationship joke knows promised made promise made promise promised forever actually meant rest comments edit know im writing probably belong redflagwatch im going kill think nice free pain way think everything temporary many suicidal people think romanticize lot without really thinking nobody going give fuck kill going miss lot cool shit bit scared watch movie due rates living italy titles never come across love step much decided give try surprised story different dancemovie ive seen lately deeper meaning winning touching well written well directed raya strong character love fact never doubts mature focused aware talent talent rutina wesley jaw dropped final dance scene way pursues dream refuses let anything stop honestly inspiring fact typical superhot chick see jessica alba briana evigan jenna dewan zoe seldana makes really appealing real seriously movie rated low understand first minutes good work really good actually even cried end movie dancing routines sick relationship break person thought one bit happiness life majorly suicidal anyone feeling bad want chatfinding partner cyber cheating compulsive liar gamblerand person thought years hope desire life now dont want live im scared die even though think death spare future pain dont know people life thing im painfully depressed anxious lonely anyone feels crap want talk feel free message thanks reading need female friend improve chatting skills account tinder years got banned without reason badoo account girls interested meeting fb dating now matches even though im licking everyone im desperate need friend reddit last chance want show appreciation crush love much hope one day cuddle watch movie hope one day lay grass watch sunset hope one day travel together hope one day make love im probably enough ok want anime one good first one ive started take liking anime guys finally broke anyway one good first helpful recommend one rock music computers technology cars thank beuller beuller beuller beuller beuller beuller hes today things bleak cant stop thinking iti cant take pain anymore long psychiatric help cant kid friends gone family leave job city months ago getting death threats people abandoned nothing im trying hard cant stop hurting pain overwhelming right next unstoppable thoughts gf refusing let put hold cant live im scared ex husband tried take kid several times im homeless job money hope want selfish give hurt anymore worry guilt ive done others im gone last night dream causing massmurder spree schooltoday reason want kill people kill end theres clearly something right desire kill feels stronger vivid bored asf wan na draw gim ideas pls wan na test hand drawing bit gim ideas pls thank youu helpgood afternoon everyone let start saying ive suicidal thoughts long time cant remember started important now past year learned quite bit im going cut chase recently thoughts gotten constant actually started follow plans ive incredibly happy everything feels right sick way know might end soon call redflag hotline im sure case warrants time want institutionalized always felt alone overwhelming end leaving know beautiful people respect know im lost racism native communities us canada extremely downplayed western world seen rise antihate movements incredible indigenous peoplenative people often left powerful movements americans canadians tend forget sitting stolen land day native communities subject many forms racism bearing brunt climate crisis horrific aloneits weird everyone feels alone unwanted shit hell ive read shit time time shows think similarly contribute disease many people follow feel dont think us person think sick need help drunk ramblings sorry im american make jokes dont make jokes normally crash burn kolby jokes effect guess twins little girls dont go without bang mods censoring mentins pedos need leave sub right filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler 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way certain thing gain favor think means live lives anyway want point life completely meaningless left live personal gratification spend year long lifespan makes us happiest now finding makes happy journey justgo got ball dust water acceptance meaninglessness awesome song listen really good song kinda funny recommend already seen httpsyoutubexaswzxcq good time broke ipad school fuck ayoooo ima order dominos pizza thought id witnessed every wrinkle crimegangster flick offer garrettmarcinhammett combination pull genuine thrills surprises thanks inventively forceful direction mamoulian atmospheric photography lee garmes plus remarkably sharp film editing flawless special effects brilliant acting helps coop gives one convincing performances reticent hayseedturnedfearless bootlegger sort character progression repeat roles sergeant york miss sidney pictured center first major role eyeopener principals receive great support paul lukas wynne gibson stanley fields heavies even robert homans hardasnails detective movie obviously realized extensive budget brilliantly deployed realistic crowdfilled sets smol dik poke squish hehe week done first week nofap porn super hard got feel really good take world love redditors end clear murderers planted murder weapon mrs columbos car police ballistics lab br br gun hood used demonstration come murderers cleared stuff hood whole week columbos cops replicate cameragun hood used demonstration without breaking entering car perhaps murders seemed surprised end columbo replicated cameragun device gotten calibrated key fob columbo must gotten gun back ballistics replanted hood car lucky rest device camera still transmittingbr br show glaring plot error end meta thank alli posted two days ago asking active subreddit pretty much every thread already two three responses time see thank much willing lend support need helping make world better place feel split halfi verge killing told friend feel told jog want everything end tired waiting chat redflag hotline talking phone huge anxiety trigger want head silent want anymore nightly routine wanting die want end want go home please help meim teenage girl live florida recently diagnosed depression anxiety prescribed medicine zoloft never thought itd far never thought cutting point cant even wear shorts short sleeve shirts used happy child started growing realizing things happened molested father alcoholic molested another family member age growing abusive childhood grandmother person raised verbally physically abusive mother always age thats everything went downhill started drinking failed relationship years took everything every little thing seemed piss hit got tired thats started cutting age first redflag attempt tried overdose pills consumed bottles blood pressure medicine grandmas nothing happened stopped cutting many years tried push away suicidal thoughts sadness months ago mom started verbally abusing hit dcf called one person thought guess thought wrong im sitting bloody wrists thinking whether go medicine cabinet really fault things happen really worthless unhappy life lost job place really enjoyed going making friends enjoying first job college lost cat emergency dental work cost dad going prison never see boyfriend new job officer manager asked come today chat thought nothing realized let go reason given others believe good fiti feel dumb stupid person spent much time going school getting bachelors degree fighting homeless abuse worth anything bored job measly receptionist job law firm filled waters clients cleaned office filed paperwork wanted responsibilities found lot downtime took upon try see attorneys needed redflag thought job well maybe little qualified amount water guess felt differently know idid agree political beliefs employees open times joke feel uncomfortable times left know took months find job back square one everything inside wants give zoom crashed zoom crashed nine remaining classmates started playing among us life anime dead 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bored im turning reddit today talk pass time lmao eitheror really link youtube soundcloud post music alot songs recorded months ago theyre really bad bad ones exclaim minute ndd misconceptions listen want youtubehttpswwwyoutubecomchannelucimlzgujuawhuitilfqdqvideos soundcloudhttpssoundcloudcomtheshabomb eye labyrinth average gialloand honest im really sure really giallo giallo despite problems certainly interesting little film im hesitant call giallo film feature things make films many genre entries break mould seem one film feature brutal murders many giallos made surreal atmosphere plot confusing enough remain interesting duration plot seems simple enough focuses doctor murdered julie patient reason sees lover father offended walks relocate big house lived number people nothing really seems number secrets surrounding various events happened julies arrivalbr br film seems professing something mind labyrinth never really comes preferred sit back enjoy going rather worrying point film trying make eye labyrinth directed mario caiano director behind excellent night doomed years earlier create atmosphere well film earlier one surreal aspects story come well mystery always kept stops film becoming boring film stars rosemary dexter provides eye candy throughout delivers good performance rest cast really worth mentioning exceptions adolfo celi good villain piece alida valli cult fans remember whole host excellent cult flicks film explain end lucky im sure im viewer little confused overall may classic stuff good enough worth seeing dont want moremy family hates mean everyday always scream hate much im ugly fat situating cant stand look mirror dont want anymore cant take body care left dont friends school friends never want hang respond texts hang plans hang couple friends night never responded time gon na hang even though said hang earlier dont nobody likes im weird awkward parents mean hate much dont want anymore better wouldnt weight shoulders important announcements doomslayer enter facility anything breathes advised lost virginity girls birthday pog u think biggest issue schools covid wondering u guys idea oneand im exaggerating single soul cares notice perished loneliness devouring whole ive alone years now lots gaming listening music cope sitting room day getting unbearable late know came way perhaps homeschooled factor im seriously thinking ending cause feeling worse death im constant state mental agony btw ive run tears shed hope hang thing left cease exist nothing pm want talk love cat pickle hate hes cute usually sweet hes kitten sleep lot goes trash gets head stuck potato chip bags make earrings small container jump rings desk theyre different colors around knocked separate best oh god thought gon na lose ran directly window lost tooth got inside geckos tank literally broke lid got inside grabbed anything buy new lid chews tuning pegs bass scratched tiddy wore low cut shirt head butting something hes attacking literally pooped brothers box spring two days got thing keeps occupied bubbles still love tho need help girls boy wants start crossdressing live super rurally cant ship stuff house way stuff ask female friend buy clothes pay clothes pay extra help thing dont want friendship weird questions asked think itll go fine hate fucking much man dont wan na look dont wan na feel wish social stuff happy decent look nono wonder everyone hates redditors tv show gay character parents disowned mei recently came gay kicked said son hate im homeless alone im wandering town phone heading towards bridge jump want die cant see way relatives town many friends name im update im leaving bridge go buy sandwich im hungry need think sure actually suicidal fear redflaghello everyone years old history mental illness exept trichotillomania think somekind ocd sure diagnosed story started months ago remember exact date day feel changed life sitting laptop friends house working new project saturday afternooneverything awesome sun shining birds sining drinking favorite coffee logged facebook chat one colleague yeahawesomebut thenthe news chester benningtons redflag popped right face freaked without reason started suicidal thoughts started googling results wereas guessmajor depressive disorder completely freaked went home went right bedi felt sick stomach felt vommiting sleep eat next day felt way eat everything felt pointless without reason anxiousnowtwo months later feel everything changed constantly anxious everything seems pointless half day times day feel almost back normal still time constantly head constantly googling mental health still thoughts googlinglife worth living want kids terrible world easier give oneverything fine news chester poppes never thought redflag questions thoughts suicidal obsessed fear itmy stomach always anxious arrives tell something wrong brain ocd mddanxiety always way happened happened serious wanted say outi always end rambling writing long paragraphs im grateful whoever takes time read ex committed redflag ive seeing viable option often talked two years amicable ending still hit hard really feel theres nothing life passionate long enough im unable emotionally close anyone matter much vulnerable open facade put attract people first used social anxiety used method acting way assuage never actually solved underlying issues last week fight one guy friends although apologized soon well told expect responsive proceeded basically ignore next days honestly think acting much differently typically greet people sparingly theres odd atmosphere us now although still talk theres air avoidance surrounding us often times meet eyes im absolutely terrified bringing happened past times tried exes feel selfish thinking fear might going getting closer although messaged freaked started feeling known way snapped back mirrored past cycles ive caused id find reason instantly widen distance person even ended regretting fought first place roommate already stopped talking guy someone actually started value honest though need mention things probably stems constant desire improve develop way regardless whether process embarrassment discomfort actually change anything within time around time im scared possibility even care much around anyway even though im probably giving vibe really values existence think anyone aside customarily family care died might shocked sure id probably forgotten long thoughts really realize extent dysfunctional coping mechanisms besides rational idea burdening family grief andor financial issues burying though thing thats stopping eating disorder im recovered anorectic worse feel turn losing weight distract actually help immediate emotions immensely yet know even makes less unhappy brings closer death passively carried ive read places suggest volunteer find way give back others honest feeling helped someone never stuck long enough make difference mood part social anxiety came feeling inability listen respond peoples emotions properly worked emotionally helping part became default state yet face vulnerabilities lose completely demonstrated story overall feel live stuck cycle years come deal working job likely come despise nagged parents getting married im college mind theyre already asking stick boyfriend half year said thoughts redflag really severe others see mean invalidate anyone whos going tougher issues appreciate anyone actually reads though yall actually talk subreddit real ive reddit entirety teen life im unsure sub started popping entirety subreddits existence cringe fest teens better humor every post reads year old pretending teen subreddit needs investigation literally zero friends family really care alive deadim going lot right now tried level best escape situation failed used work restaurant lockdown able earn enough pay food bills rent lost job covid right im hopeless sorry poor english tried learning new employble skills finished full stack web developer course udemy angela yu basic entry level laptop help build beautiful websites e commerce store webapps downloaded course torrent money buy legally finishing course created account fiverr hope paid work gigs right know think redflag becomes attractive option want die really cant afford live stray dog im coward cant afford hang ceiling fan want end suffering know moving small town hi everyone want apologise terrible wordingsentence structure dont write often ive lived progressive city years life never really scaredworried lgbt family moving rural australian town im scared im scared im going attacked people care going attacked bisexuality guess im asking go loud proud hope dont give shit hop back comfy closet im relatively safe suppose depends one actually sees movie first time impression formed way isbr br saw child tv back stranger loved time space program moon reality shows search ufo m man showing child world hold future adventure technologybr br got see shows network aired way people slash shows making parody take show add comments itbr br know concept pilot saw movie hoping thru stryker home know possibility continuing beyond two hoursbr br back understood many people hate movie now doubt remember understand now really understand story one must see perspective rather characters moviebr br one watching american might humorous lack security police statebut one subject state compliance expected security less things suppose perfect perfect extreme degree perfect one suppose doubt one likely question quickly things orderbr br subplots movie interesting old man remembers time watches words suspects spies everywhere police state values knowledge extent careful control harm brain powerbr br days one likely know exactly movie see much suspense surprise lost duet astronaut doctor beginning movie perfect exchange one considers movie made well cold war astronauts biggest fear crashed ussr one gets quite distance movie becomes apparent possibility least concernsbr br primary difference stranger doppelganger latter considered timeless comments ussr comparatively minor lost early movie former links movie supposedly directly beginning theme variation wardsbr br said despite fond memory movie rather easy see made series week stryker make friends benedict chase stryker away eventually benedicts society rid someone pick chase rut develop might jab something new perhaps another crew member strykers mission showing probably enough keep show goingbr br one goes knives others used slash movie odds slash well one remembers made cold war fears estimations side time popular environment contained viewer may find entertaining intellectual themes time gothings arent going better girlfriend long distance spent month half state fly back due family telling financial issues thought staying good happy plan work save move within next months dad says owe plane ticket one made buy borrowing money food etc unhappy colors seem dim right now im debating downing effexor figuring something im much pain havent felt true happiness stability age im dont wan na live fucked world anymore cant job anytime soon bc im quarantine rules hospitalization never helped anyway im done want chat dm open one spoke put spinach sandwich never eat greens please proud parents thisat least mom dont know posted idc ok mom usually joking girlfriend starts listing dumbass names smile smile one dumb ass names goes says fuck name gfs name sister always thing depressing thing dont gf matter many times tell dont listen dont know supposed make feel better sure isnt working company knows something wrong mei work august know something wrong probably suspect im suicidal cant anything due lack reasonable cause every day uplifting texts companys line every day ask name positive thing happened day today asked administrative employees better things send texts boss says care checking falls better things category kind feel bad im wasting company time need id probably kill jackal remake excellent day jackal better esthetics boatload budget film nails actual persona carlos downbr br quinn excels naval officer enlisted impersonate wiley jackal draw hiding hands kingsley sutherland turns inside risking family career believes takes task albeit utterly unwillinglybr br say spoil excellent filmbr br nirostars feel restrictedim m nice life overall kinda im confident future feel restricted hate everyone want alone really really want immigrate new start good future still want change want alone hate ppl much tried redflag ive suffering long time cant shit idk idk im sad pathetic said yes now except well far hate worldone day day come cant kill thought headlike matter much try distract intrusive thoughts pop head die alive wish dead kill wonder one days ignore fricken birthday last year teenager starts today got woken six mother cleaning bath friends gon na say happy birthday work hrs today probably something hate boyfriend halfway across world snd presents sent havent arrived sucky birthday need gunmy entire life big fuck parents got divorced go dads house abuse physically mentally im im close falling school people care people tell better every day gets even worse almost everyday wish abortion one moms periods die car crash going attempt redflag need gun make sure survive tried going therapists thry make see end life lot time friends make fun religion really blame weight pounds stub penis hope die mom dad see message terrible parents anyone owns gun really need one thanks need someoneits years havent friend nobody call ask im person listen take opinion gotten point im scared socializing dont know act still try put matter always mess family ignores point try say something theyll start talking sentence everyone looks right im tired constant dread alone feeling heart stomach cant take nobody even notices im horrible person try best help people part best still universe wants kick ass guess people brothers house something invites friends look treat shit brothers fiance fell drunk night went go help low behold got pushed way told move people cant wait end hours trying figure least painful wayman ive sexually abused lost little sister experienced heavy domestic violence ive wanted kill young decent relationship either parent think noose feel good loud overdose hurt bad gun figured best option reddit followers gib best friends forever spam callers always got back yo im crying parents gf spam callers id give big shoutout fr fr teacher daughter college made advances man suck chess need help getting courage redflagi want commit redflag whenever chicken last second anyone know stop chickening getting unfriended snapchat hi kinda weird even bothers tbh girl kinda compared suddenly unfriended snapchat yesterday honestly dont know never really talked tho times posts lot pictures story sudden didnt see posting looked name said didnt add said process gray arrow weird still follows instagram still watch story know shouldnt upset tho kinda makes sad anyone knows someone mean lot people snapchat kinda weird remove someone maybe im overthinking bit tomorrow th birthday dad couple minutes ago seriously threatened kick house title says alli deal depressionsocial anxiety parents call jokemy dad want understand keeps calling namesjust minutes ago told go away housgo room herei older brothers never told thatbut alone depressed suicidali know doi want go away everything start new lifeoh alsotomorrows th birthday wanted happy birthdayi wanted family love one single day crying almost full hours want die know always try making happy really wan na kill tonight guys broke shop stole calendar got caught given months ruined felt reflecting past year heres list nobody asked ways bitten ass overall less enjoyable school life still gotten better first amp girlfriend left feels awkward talk covid causes laid work march still zero sign getting back even though im small town cases within km longest time nobody area fucking hiring dad walked job due anger boss new job cant afford house need move town people still goddamn persistent covid hoax cases area skyrocket tried start twitch stream computer barely run task manager let alone obs computer mouse fucking broken lmao rekt seemingly everything looked forward either got cancelled ruined complete letdown recovering diagnosed major depression keyword reputations favourite youtubers fucked grooming accusations cancel culture makes want knock someone head daily got glasses first thing told look impersonator dwight office grades start harder manage social life starts struggle always less energy see anyone girl kept trying manipulate relationship attempted manipulate often cut completely graduation half year still plans feel ready fend enthusiasm enthusiasm dissapeared beginning year truck insurance company unfairly bounced bank account times month costing overdraft fees truck insurance went despite record clean promises go fuck trust gets majorly betrayed friends heartbreaking way possible ace heteroromantic fetishism confusing mess feelings aggressivecrybaby nature internet cough cough twitter caused close political conversation anyone everyone starting question point alterego turns false personality schools teacher gave free computer without hard drive friend tell years old useless one already sparked interest initial d talk much toyota sprinter ae trueno eurobeat trying hardest work approx parts new pc may likely happen closest two friends years started dating later decided cut things know causing look counseling going featured voice actor nd main character friends indie game later find happening due previous reason people suck talk general now top last time drove truck december rock put fucking chip windshield anyway guys doin know talk try say everything thinking post anyfriends listen talking thought better dead hate appareance past hate pretty much everything years old never kissed think anyone way something really upsets hate worktelemarketing feel important anyone try help friends anyway feels presence inconvinience people seem ignore need one never feels shouldn alive draging even though dead already kill afraid much hurt caring much anymore planning end soon need alone home want everything end feel terrible almost time ill answer deep questions m ft ulylalaycre f yes pfp mari stop asking jfc im terrible personi openly try make friends hate try piss try make annoyed try make seem im undermining much want hate arguments disagreements much possible whenever subject happy wholesome try bring back im tired feel bad people damn near consider family god want hate want punish making everyone hate want see terrible person try push away try make look different light want aware dangerous wild animal caged think deserve deserve mistreatment deserve hatred want die knowing one miss theyd hate much even care died dont want miss see die amazing person friend neither want hate much wouldnt care suddenly passed away want die hated want die alone want die thinking shit didnt deserve life first place shouldve never born dont want cause pain im tired nowadays im happy want forgotten death seems good option ill die wont worry anymore friends wont worry arguments supposed hatred towards dont hate wont think next victim theyll better without life envy yet suicidal selfharmed three months clean selfharm now see enough reasons feel way somehow lot chest one knows barely remember genuinely happy feels mostly numb occasionally cry sleep open anyone help need babied youngest family best friends part still responded texts social platform adding insult injury feel ass way ur girl kiss best friends girlfriend kissed best friend another girl yall find problems doesnt sit right idk try overreact bc ik friend tbh dont bc think best friend bi dont anyway bc shes kissing someone aint texted earlier wan na tik tok one thats fucked yo bitch fat mutha fucka song biggie basically asked cheat tik tok dont really care bothers little yall think without doubt big momma music videos unlike music videos either dance videos badly storied andor badly interrupted lyrics done right jackson cowriter evidence vh heavily choreographed directed masterpiece fact say thriller creepier horror movies last second sparkling eye music video judge music videos easily see ominous influence mj early breakdancing zombie march number dancing comedy storyline yes horror give edating cheating blackmail stalking redflagmy life pretty messed im pretty stupid theres lot stuff ill try keep short possible basically young started talking guy online edated years knew cheating cheating mean sending women stuff virgins far knew wanted meet lived really far away mother wouldnt let go didnt want travel see ended giving money come didnt work relationship painful knew cheating know hard say cheating wasnt real relationship really liked hurt really badly anyways online guy broke started seeing guy worked inrl still missed online guy messaged told new bf obviously online guy didnt want anything really painful experience im proud basically became online guys stalker dating someone inrl stalking online guy time lived mother kept psychotic breaks wed recently moved country friends family live ended moving inrl boyfriend still kept messaging online ex practically begged stop messaging eventually stopped replying ignoring replied hurts hurts much anyways time couple online friends id talk ive never social good people one guy id rocky friendship guy didnt first met sort became friends betrayed trust years later became friends started really close one people felt honest real life things id done guy started online relationship guy knew bf hed followed inrl social medias years inrl bf knew online guy best friend friend really guy started romantic relationship months hed always mad inrl boyfriend tried explain couldnt leave lived stuff know wasnt right basically guy snapped one day decided start blackmailing money hed expose lived boyfriends family mean id live id already given guy money gifts stuff really thought friend ended give make stop whole experience really messed even ive always really suicidal depressed im saying sort excuse im saying didnt really see many options threatened came close ending escape know situation brought still horrible inrl bf learned stuff happened really mad rude eventually forgave im genius year later talking online guy threatened decided talk messaged guy threatened basically robbed think part felt guilty always said cruel horrible stuff inrl life couldnt really much change inrl life anyways threat guy start something ill love forever youre soulmate etc etc literally every cheesy thing imagine obviously ends taking money tells cant deal inrl hes going expose ruin life birthday know stupid know im horrible cheat tell things everyday believe dont need judge ive tried contact threats guy ignores ive left many messages called many times birthday approaching soon im filled dread makes feel sick disgusting find hard anything inrl guy knew first time online guy threatened cant bring tell inrl guy stupid enough message threat guy cant feel inrl bf flip really bad temper sometimes grabbed pulled around couple times found online stuff know deserved anyways id nowhere live guess used online guy sort escape painful life online guy made reality worse constant anxiety something bad going happen tiring upsetting know dug hole way seems redflag ive seen lot therapists even told therapist online guy threatened first time basically judged said stupid told tell police woman therapist judged imagine buff police officer theyd laugh know ive done horrible stuff know much pain still im writing theres one tell one dont really know wait still keep thinking threat guy message something know doesnt really care online guy chat day inrl guy inrl knew broken inrl guy know im easily broken whenever ive made posts past strong people come move stop leech etc one family friends sometimes think lived completely alone thered one stop stop killing inrl bf past know inrl guy gave much much feel horrible feel im good enough comes nice family compared im trash online guy really liked much gave much gifts money time threatens ignores knew online guy years years thought basic level friendship wasnt random guy im lot pain im mentally messed ive done feel physically tired sick time wait feel powerless sorry wrote stupid essay know literally one cares pathetic self pitying weak depressed well thats everyone tells everyone tells im dead inside guess true couldnt first online guy love cheat couldnt passionate feelings deeply love inrl guy couldnt online guy love threaten blackmail tldr edated dude young repeatedly cheated years started dating someone inrl still liked online guy online guy didnt another online friend got together inrl bf online guy knew online guy couldnt handle inrl life repeatedly threatened money lead point felt redflag escape ive depressed years live fear life going destroyed birthday ohthe pain chest gets worse worse spreads limbs im paralyzed void anxiety never stops even sleep nightmares every single second never stops yo sky guys looks white mist plz comment cover alien invasion omg quit coke booze weed going od tonight hopefully addiction sucks unfair say straight edge people depressed addicted feel hate life alas halfway done mickey finished line probably die goddamn maybe tonight lucky night fuck literally getting high till die ex girlfriend broke two days ago things relationship working anymore starting become little toxic damaging mental health suicidal long distance lives uk live us worried much help reason still care anything able live rest life commit us broken gives reason able still call police uk us bill maybe something fill online please send links something need help need help people whose lives significantly worse mine even consider redflagi feel garbage human wanting read stories people raped nearly everyday parents whove entire family killed accidents nothing tragic trauma make weak stop making straightness whole personality back story playing among us dude saying straight told congrats stuff inclusive match says hes straight said okay one asked straight accomplishment stop trying attention point heterosexuals reddit please know opposite sex mean special honestly care sexuality preference matter im going alienate single give fuck sure coming closet huge thing please try milk attention people different disclaimer nothing say offensive ignore care came make point thats see feels movie italian job ok best good great actingbr br nice visuals pacing mediocre plot nothing bad enoughbr br walk car commercial new breed minibr br coopers film spectacularbr br spoilersbr br ok typical heist film odd twist underwater safe cracking nice improbable cast fairly solidbr br exception putrid wahlberg camebr br real stars picture three minibr br coopers highflying speedracing rampjumpingbr br bullettaking goldlugging shiny new glory audience wasbr br sitting amongst actually ooed aahed therons 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worth weight gold makes nice fillings famous international conductor daniel darus michael nyqvist heart attack stressed busy professional life interrupts successful career early retirement decides return hometown north sweden mother left seven yearold sensitive boy bullied conny school mates live lowpaced life buys old school invited participate church choir local shepherd stig niklas falk reluctant shy daniel refuses principle gets involved community feels attracted lena frida hallgren local woman past local doctor music opens hearts members choir affecting daily life slow tore andr sjberg chance participate choir inger ingela olsson wife stig releases repressed sexuality gabriella helen sjholm takes attitude abusive violent husband gossiper frustrated siv ilva lf opens heart lena fat holmfrid mikael rahm cries enough jokes businessman arne lennart jhkel even daniel starts loving people lena love life invited participate important contest vienna daniel finds music opening heart people making dream come truebr br s som himmelen touching sensitive movie beautiful story impressive director kay pollak screenplay writers able develop great number characters minutes running time performances topnotch supported magnificent music score least two awesome moments gabrielle sings song concert certainly last concert vienna audience jury everybody participating melody daniel making dream come true teorema stranger changes lives family conservative community many european movies open conclusion indicates daniel actually died least interpretation reaching peace success music eyes became wet two scenes vote ninebr br title brazil vida paraso life paradise people act bladee great rapper im drained come good rapper slightest got little technical ability lyrics good kurosawa weaves tale cast characters diverse shakespearean drama acting true story star playing role part larger tale touching funny intriguing parts character development near perfect cinematography vivid engaging story 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options tried make excuses want go without betraying fact longer believe god truth wanted every kid way college wants wanted meet new exciting people choose college learn things care share drinking partying side christian liberal arts college seemed offer opposite wanted im second year im ready give small school almost everyone ive encountered conservative uptight clear early difficult choice front betray personal beliefs values pretending religious conservative fit hold believe shunned first day sign form saying acknowledged homosexual activity wrong participate guess couldve said nothing fact everyone simply signed complaints upset got argument basically entire room long time afterward section mates avoided occasionally attacking views questioning sexuality participate sections social events time ive kind retreated feel reasonable intelligent conversation anyone know attend mandatory church services several times week must take mandatory religious studies classes feels church school feel ive betrayed essays tests go gods love feel need make grade even think crap somehow feel though im running bullshit barely scrape enough adoring words together essay anymore ive become scared feel im someone now changed way talk even moderate swearing seems offend people sense humor appreciated approved disappeared im taking classes writing art strict parameters place causing lose passion hardly talk hardly go anywhere hardly anything walk path everyday class dorm listen lectures things cant care believe amount work feels overwhelming interest others im guy sing chapel guy want lead class prayer beginning people seem keep distance feel people around interesting reasonable seem people want friends time feel even knew interesting openminded funny people im worth friends feel everything made melted away placed odds environment strong feelings strong relationships anymore love almost one nothing feel deeply loved anyone family seems important fit mold member family want know anymore im afraid future every time see dad asks career plans never answer gets upset got argument parents religion mom cried dad stopped speaking know feel know whether love version theyve striving create collapsing want disappoint anyone want live life approval cant sleep night barely stay awake day food good hardly eat apart occasional bowl cereal eating feels chore something every limbs ache apparent reason feel im somewhere body vacant told day day reason feel alone im creative used think theres anything distinguish anyone way feel im already dead look forward anything except sense dread motivation live life im beginning feel different dead want happy used cant remember used cant shake feeling realization might way realized now grades slipping im sleeping classes might lose scholarship fail everyone cant imagine future find wishing face one favorite movies time loved rain man dustin hoffman tom cruise movie ways similar makes rain man seem artificial shallow unemotional trivial comparison im bored please dm jokes guys think mom homophobic im bisexual idk tell think bisexual watching rslash video said something bisexuality said thats talking bisexuality dont dont know tell dont know think tell whats hidden quick add thing snapchat hidden quick add thing looking quick add discovered people didnt know others didnt didnt snap feature please explain im im idiot lmao ive really stressed unmotivated lately feel cant anythingwhenever something mind wan na example study draw drop minutesso want know feel motivated study anything mind stressed school fact aunt covidso guys ways cope appreciate made pixlr x work art ampxb lamphttpspreviewredditkqhfxlmdjpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscfaecfeaebbefda went mental hospital february lot things happened distracted fact put week reminded recently immediately made resentful kind angry reminder deal couple months hospital drinking age start drinking earlier parental supervision learn limits earlier probably less likely binge drink right turn cuz year olds stupid independent year olds stupid parents control parent hopefully stop drinking beers first day time turn learned limits hopefully less stupid lets honest actually waits probably first drink people dont wait enforced small scale fuck madd didnt decrease drunk driving even worth british columbia new brunswick newfoundland labrador northwest territories nova scotia nunavut ontario pei saskatchewan yukon legal drinking age thats fucking arbitrary good job quebec legal drinking age isnt arbitrary still high closest place legally consume alcohol france continent cant drive south america north america honestly probably cheaper go continental france french guiana wtf pointthis first time posting anywhere ive depressed years im now graduated high school summer parents raised giving attention id come home school sit computer bed drinking pill popping whole childhood school miserable brother got house ive getting help couple months teen help center nothing changed put zoloft take every day feel nothing drowsyi hate human beings every friend group leave realize dont anyone dont human beings hate alone everything hate people say job life better fuck human beings nothing worth living idk another thing im asexual never meet someone relate thought getting relationship never feel alone worst anxiety depression failed class nd time convinced ill really kill soon enoughth year college student internshipwork experience extracurriculars gpa pretty important end moment comparison peers already started establishing professional careers gpa sucks trying doublemajor school compensate fact im staying extra year class question one failed last fall major initially really interested upon failing class last fall took another major switch good job prospects felt lame taking years major fall took first major saw another professor teaching someone im familiar done well another class past thought sign second chance redeem semester progressed realized much struggling ultimately decided drop major good hoping pass class c well happen bombed final failed class gpas going tank transcript going look even awful got finals next days focus anything basically im fucking idiot really fault poor time management amp shameful time management still something grasped stage life lot times realize much fuckup im think theres higher surely let live consequences must plan plan really mean meeting death way anyway im coming terms dumb much problem mindset hope higher save allow die longer personally deal consequences poor decisions root cause never attempting redflag figured fate ill die soon enough postponement waste timemoneyresources really time active rather passive take matters hands cant live dumb mistakes future really bleak amp btw im really solely failing academicscareer im dealing depression loneliness well expressed post couple days ago context anyway might triggered one reason another holidays weekend set take winter course withdraw tomorrow last day full refund parents money wasted regard haha itthinking redflag time want fail last times using sleeping pills im thinking ecstasy pills full hanging woods perhaps guys think itll work time perhaps method called redflag hotline number condescending pos counselor thats sign know isi dealing lot family issues financial issues forming social support issues former abuse flashbacks eating disorder racism suicidal one thing every time think ive hit rock bottom theres another hit cant take anymore called hoping sort reprieve got condescending piece shit counselor hung initially hear kept telling got second time gave bs excuse know happened major thing condescending tone choice words horrible telling people worse anyone one facebook friend ended pouring everything one acquaintances friends people struggled tried hardest take next level got nowhere deep debt student loans keep calling harassing extended family cut lives due revealing choice abused one ugly black girl constantly dealing overlooked treated crap live self esteem shit asked years ago work crappy menial wage job part time mentally handle full time job people look time accomplished none hopes dreams last thing needed hear good due one facebook friend afraid overwhelmed counselors tone voice condescending kept saying right every sentence idiot waiting respond hard describe condescending business hotline seems sign one cares even people supposed getting older things improving getting worse seeing former high school bullies news social media better failure thing called life cant deal anymore always held even little bit hope things change matter bad got ive homeless worse see end sight see life improving matter hard tried improve life ended spot rock bottom plan want quit hesitation pain fucked upi cant stop thinking fantasy oh sweet feel pain finally leave good game everyone loved ones sad yes gone free ashamed admit shockwave part appeal lie always solves nothing catharsis resolution producing bloated corpse proved one wrong anything affirms detractors suspicions handle married someone perhaps loves madly find energy reciprocate love another hardly matters now chose wife detriment really wanted unable selfish selfishness really matters live contempt condition hope perhaps next years much fuck last know anymoredont really know im posting think im really looking someone talk sympathy anything guess ill blunt want kill know im going im afraid went painful experience ive want go guess wish way fail painless accessible theres feel abandoned lonely right one person life felt comfortable enough talk emotions feeling told feeling aforementioned blue mind response basically think im able speak anymore thats fair enough guess burdened knowledge issues problems worry really needy selfish put regardless feel angry betrayed right anyone talk know people around might available talk feel trust anyone let alone comfortable enough talk stuff describe crippling anxiety depression im feeling anybody really talk anymore ive decided try see gp know actually will thinking going place nearly induces anxiety attack want things change im thinking selfharming see pretty edgy thing used long time ago help suppress thoughts feelings redflag depression still bear scars last time kind stuff completely destroys selfconfidence know really looking approval anything im thinking loud point really know im posting purpose wanted guess sorry wasting time hate cringey dn fandom great show fanbase edgelords think cool similar rampm well thoroughly enjoyed movie funny sad yes guy andie macdowell shagged hot interesting realistic characters plots well beautiful scenery think mum still think allowed call sad fkers club though say hi tha spoidur diagnosed borderline personality disorder cant rationalize continuing life anymorehttpwwwpalacenetllamapsychbpdhtml information link pretty much sums bpd fit t go myriad horrible things ive done boils sabotaged life lives people love times remember diagnosed never knew decades wondered goddamn problem wanted understand things acted way acted wanted understand thought put road fixing whatever problem somehow cant fix cant go life picking knocking people really care ive hurt lot people people love sworn id always life miss much know try reestablish contact itll matter time briefly inexplicably demonized mind people im supposed know care cant seem show prove rather im alone aqcaintances people call friends feel real connection see humor show person want see well pretty big fucking drag question anyone expect want continue living know going keep behavior without able damn thing bpd gets going feels pilot flying plane sudden plane goes extremely fucked autopilot mode sitting cockpit waiting smash side mountain always survive crash barely fuck im tired living asshole another day every time brain decides gon na shit bed make go ape shit people care fair lifes hard enough without somebody seemed great friend turn mental chips im ashamed cant keep anymore really need talk someone nobody life share thoughts running crazy head need talk stranger might understand tell whats wrong feelings please aim wotx fun getting pedo install tails ass wears thighs make people think cute girl go jail normal core duo power w psu cant ill buy body pillow marry commit redflag ill sex body ill cum jar change sex female put cum pussy kids think movie neat eithier michael jackson dont see movie think neat film great song play good imagination mention film center piece smooth criminal best dancing every see scared might make mistake ive thinking cant say cant say wouldnt feel weary point feel im fooling continue trying make something life grew raised mom im halfwhite halfother mom country made things hard especially south dad physically life emotionally lived less mile away id probably see year constantly told better son need close friends said grew south wrong skin tone generally treated outsider focused school making excel classes teachers praised necessarily help made outsider molested young age ive never told anyone besides one exgirlfriend upon time never cared sex kind physical love honest repulsed girlfriends highschool due unwillingness perform made gay jokestongueincheek course still stung unfortunately stuck cliques ive never told wife married love much event past feels dirty makes feel unclean im scared share im afraid shell reject meshe wouldnt im afraid change view want see victim survivor whatever event want see part guess im ashamed say past makes depressed maybe makes bit detached life depressed fact see life getting better depresses im stuck crap jobi went college scholarships dried really funds support continue neighbors racistcant really move old view world changed now certainly stand chance changing house almost literally shit feel real excuses reasons depressed theres overwhelming feeling disconnect weariness makes feel want go time things stopping wife nephew im pretty sure people life move im foolish enough say others miss theyll able recover fear wife blame want leave makes happy im disconnected guy feel urge continue strongly urge stop nephew two going three probably notice passed soon things wanted teach though wanted make life never poor mine first attempt week ago attempt might right word still think wouldve done honest maybe entertaining thought rented motel room planned taking bottle pillsi know wouldve felt bad hotel staff want wife one find nephew called right opened bottle knows use cell phone tapping picture person listed case emergency somehow got moms phone hes raised grandma told loved wanted come play wept baby went home late visited next day think done day im sure really follow thought keeps popping head constant urge sleep rest forget im scared might make mistake one moment anger fear depression ill something cant reverse boss asked say dickhead different languages tell say language title says morning boss asked say dickhead german wanted say different language multicultural please tell say language teach tomorrow morning finally got nerve confidence planning asking crush next time saw herfriday stumbled upon pinterest kinda clickbait title kinda pin couples pictures posts honestly feel less inspired ask im thinking cute def recreate got thinking sees disappoint idk man im losing battle anxiety rn anyone subreddit care enough talk second daymy loneliness slowly killing emergency im worriedhey long time lurker first time poster years ive commented posts shared strategies generally helped felt first time podium im ive suicidal years know tricks even gotten point feel episode coming prepare properly anyway month loose seasonal job break lack success stuff feel real dark periods weeks away time something weird happening im scared normally idea might finally fills dread brain completes checklist consequences anxiety bubbles freak recently though feels great anxious situation thinking leaving breathing holding hours im finally getting permission relax im burdened ideas hurting family friends peers brain accepts moves days thought redflag zen thing world im immediate danger happen next week ive fought thing bunch times think im starting make peace fact last fight might coming weird thing anyone similiar place let know ps community awesome darkest episodes amazing see people thinking way lets keep shit im kids mentallity doesnt allow depressed new art teacher thank getting upset class snowpants dont lockers due covid karen followers literally post garbage help pls well apple geeks team macbook pro macbook air trying back years worth pictures files corrupted hard drive funim fuckinh idiot thinking computer fairly new nothing bad happen shouldve known better shouldve backed files didnt cause im stupid idk ill see stuff today birthday id rather anything celebratecelebrate another worthless pathetic year gone another days suicidal thoughts achievements failed interactions im sure im anymore post made different account exactly year ago still feel hitting become new habiti really disappointed way life turned feel cant go back pain regret causes extreme anger disgust inability form relationships led painful life experience result keep hitting face hurts saw movie yesterday shocked even shocked comments read one person wrote ambiguous victim torture guilty nottherefore one person wrote american citizen people comment people middle east hate us want us dead saying right torture someone guilty crime saying right torture someone american citizen saying right torture someone may hate us want us dead saying written geneva convention declaration human rights constitution united states torture wrong torture less wrong others become right torture movie powerful ambiguous torture torture always wrong willing even name justice national security freedom democracy wrong evil exactly accusing enemies calling wrong breath favorite line film want compromise join amnesty international right anyone think livestreaming redflagi attention affection might well entertain people facts every day day think meggie great thank coming ted talk need cure horny woke nearly pm ive horny times alreadyy normally times day times im halfway day anyway yeah unhorny good today want die pls come firstive planning redflag time break plan changes little today crying eyes filled application permit buy gun ive thought method messy past today reached new level self hatred sounded pretty fitting feel wired right everything hurts life good loving parents good supportive friends great sister whos shinning role model often end day tears people say stop sount blessings supposed help makes mad good still want die wrong filling application gun cried decided call redflag prevention hotline half assed conversation antidepressants held back tears cant blame guy nervous didnt know say asked felt talking walmart customer service something though didnt help felt even worse year old man crying another grown man asking drugs felt stupid ended conversation im sorry wasting time thank goodbye hung chance say anything cried bit longer felt stupid went online looked redflag chatrooms something anything talk someone phone went bunch articles depression redflag found one got bit talked suicidal thoughts moment pain begins weigh methods coping pain dont know im methodicalshow facts type guy way looking struck way things hadnt stopped crying kept scrolling eventually got comments section article found bunch people saying much wanted die bad felt always feel im taken seriously situation pretty good voiced feel people past ive dismissed told people worse understand world harsh kick feel dying everything ok somethings right head maybe somethings right life seeing people talk really made feel better cliche may sound felt wasnt alone didnt feel defective people understand im feeling coupled perspective article really made feel change something may life right feel im gon na preach strength human spirit anything really believe us dont tools right now want use reddit talk relate maybe share tips potent help ive found stories want use partially partially think make together feel fucking corny girl make sexual jokes someone interested girl text frequently joke sexual stuff part daily conversation says things wan na sleep love vice versa sometimes flirty fun fuck around day repeatedly saying know crush whatnot per usual go somewhere offline hours came back picked left know middle huge freakout nothing family business started pushing youre thing agreed everything something never confused point asked serious blew started taking anger fuming completely going knew nothing extremely confused thought anger caused said kept asking asked times said shut im sexually attracted kept raging freakout point im sure meant said spur moment thing girl make frequent conversations guy interest qustodio survived factory reset shitty app called qustodio installed phone factory reset two days mom still able see everything app installed anymore dont blocked things anymore seems ghost app still please help bra strap problem whenever go streets people stare bra strap think show bra strap okay problem others solve problem sorry annoying give comments respond wake saw someone think responding comments super fun makes feel wanted know anymorei dont know living anymore feel sinner cant forgiven dont deserve life ive given im years old im porn addict cant stop one point life gay sex cousin brother ive ruined life feel alive forced jerk cousin sisters sometime feel pathetic losser cant forget much losser really really dumb fell cant grown anymore dont understand life supposed meaningful people even feel deserve life hopeless dumb pathetic losser cant addiction fiest encounter rd grade years old see everyone better failure think world better place left besides sinner worthless think im gon na kill know ppease helpj unable cry months idk went wrong felt anything months piled well still feel good feel horrible little bit better tried best cry forced cried mins eyes got pretty tired though physical weakness need take nap help distract planning way suicide really hard pick method felt redflaged saw easy end pain keep anymore redflag used brought old memories back cried guess sleep help clear rest whatever one day tomorrow worse one day crying helped trappedi trapped disgusting body miserable marriage surrounded acquaintancefriendship feel obligated provide support empathy none want every person know wants stay suffer everyone know soulless vampire happy see suffer whatever fucking trapped one acknowledges one person admit dont want wan na die happy meantime ill wait good time shot even though know never come fucking trapped fair physically freak die look horror movie without clothes desire end life respected shouldnt constantly give give people give nothing life put want first sick invalidated good reason gun know better dead shouldnt feel trapped say something wholesome w anyone talk pleasetwo nights ago slight panic attack nothing unusual slept nothing unusual last day half instead job searching ive laying bed ive barely eaten two hours ago suicidal thoughts started resurfacing wrote notei wrote redflag note short explanation anything apology dont know going use wrote case need promised partner check psych anything talk someone see nurse pull stiches thursday dont think im going kill maybe maybe wont dont know dont know anything really know miles away love cant world collapsing around partner said maybe come home cant go back living parents cant partner lives halfway house eating disorders cant live cant live one friends couches tiny apartments schools open back job love dont know im hoping pass im sure will mind hell years dont know take much longer watching movie family dog sitting looking tv said oh watching movie want dogporn head thinking dog popcorn dogporn said outloud instant regret people sub know jasmine elias logan haden vilko james sami pham sean shell tas shalap swarali steal lukas elijah eric cooper emily ben sebastian yair karma jakob alexa presto charlie aaron gio jeb luke jesse zepplin kyle dominik john school start charging next year depression anxiety fees now smh capitalism amarite friends reached puberty turned recently friends begun process idk bug want start unlike sometimes cry night think shouldnt im avarage height friends taller annoy theyve said sorry still think ive searched methods grow faster say mostly genetics soothe pain away different sound year old dickheads online treat garbage know people online idiots shouldnt listen back mind time wan na use vc please god help viewed jean renoirs wonderful film french visual delight great entertainment recently produced moulin rouge pales comparison quite praise recent movie received im convinced appraisal correct seeing master film maker jean renoirs version story succeeded getting great performances entire cast great french actor jean gabin rare form dance sequence near end one exciting one id seen long want end film deserves receive recognition got cant wake upi suicidal lately super hard trip xans came realization small unnecessary idk im killing tonight getting close dont kill sorry wanted somewhere ramble shit unhappy terrible person fixing must continue heinous commit loving family friends missed want leave tell stay alive serves purpose inflicted inflict pain guess got kissed today someone sub told win rteenagers really want someone love meim talking girlfriend specific even good friend family member nothing love right lost hope happen know feeling way might irrational dont want wait see things better im writing redflag note tonighti cant take shit anymore need least write something case fucking guts finally end cant anymore want want release cant live household years cant stubbed toe loses balances hits funny bone desk corner thanks life need someone talk anyone disorder wants open willing talk helpful psychosis ocd schizoid depression hate much tw hate everything hate way look hate way speak hate way act hate want die want end noone loves noone cares noone gives f im alive every time look mirror cant help cry tried end multiple times chicken every single time know anymore cant live anymore time come im leaving sub good didnt turn anything dont think worth spending time anymore mostly people way young making popularly liked statements acting first say bye rteenagers thanks one friend got hey guys know probably right place ask feeling way idk feel numb atm struggle sleep struggle enjoy anything memory horrendous relationship gf bad place goes beyond us literally nothing work go gym sleep one thing able enjoy absolute slightest gym struggling even go able watch full film without getting bored mind lifes become boring feel robot lost friends due adult work full time expected go drinking pm wednesday work full time bills pay lonely shit parents live abroad spain living best life stuck miserable idk anymore feel destined much life hate atm yeah idk say depressed anyone want talk call skypeive spoken situation much keep light im sorry bother butim craving killing ive wanting nearly years now night im going coward chicken loneliness gotten muchthe think stopping redflag mother knowing distraught starting think point waiting fucking lonely every night come home cry want end pain suffering welp im writing short story book idk called groundhod week school shooting know little bit dark first idea came mind lmao edit called rd day based fact story teenager named homer hickam jake gyllenhaal growing coal town west virginia boys usual destiny end mines homer eye sky love flying rockets dismay mineforeman father consternation townsfolk generally misfit sure three equally outcast buddies begin making rockets fly patch barren land eight miles town longer terrorize community ofttimes errant rockets unfortunately town especially homers father chris cooper thinks wasting time people become intrigued soon start coming droves watch rocketboys send homemade missiles one teacher laura dern high school understands efforts lets know become contenders national science fair college scholarships prize gang must learn perfect craft overcome many problems facing shoot stars director joe johnston always famous name movies jumanji jurassic park october sky surely stands films without doubts october sky best effort obviously best film true story filmed extremely well even movie every single thing required top level cinema along johnstons extraordinary direction exceptional performances jake gyllenhaal around movie released gives beautiful natural performance perfect actor chris cooper father gives fine performance goes laura dern looks beautiful even rest performances extremely well background score fine highly inspiring movie lifts spirit sky high one movies definitely inspires life amazing inspiring movie along loads entertainment missed suddenly wanted relationship saw good thing said come visit often wanted needs tell hand home decided give relationship another shot got pregnant immediately moved house together really horrible morning sickness time bob got disgusted neediness moved week later leaving huge house cant afford maintain far away form support necessary pregnant mother young kid seems love kid much concept taking responsibility artists friends discord server artists pm wan na join give link plan im finally feeling real happinessi know ive posted lot know may seem attentionseeking hell maybe im posting try someone talk someone convince theres life im tired reading things people attempted kill glad work guess woke next morning swallowing pills screamed cried angry still long remember ive going back forth feeling normal slightly upbeat depressed happy finally something thats selfish something thats going benefit everyone care ive analyzed close personal relationships every single one positives negatives finally died even fucking pets im waiting go home spring break nice week home family hold onto remember little bit straighten personal things everything order im finally peace life want thank always lowest moments lives worth saving decided mine wasnt great thing people still hope thank trip friend take life feels surreal gets closer every day wonder actually go plan suicide dont fear death im steadily running reasons avoid iti find death almost beautiful strange sort way pain suffering anything category sounds wonderful ive struggled desire end hope life eventually better every time find asking worth end know keep going around truth think death fascinated excited become im sure point post suppose wanted express feelings place wouldnt judged insane many cultured weebs know holy relic blue haired demon best winter animeno exeptions change mind feel uselessi feel crap every day boyfriend amazing cares feel love redirected someone deserves keeps saying hed rather spend night listening issues minutes listenimg euology doubt know bad things know bullying extended family nothing tell trust settings bring tell want kms every damn day last day earthtoday day reddit im going finish today written letters everyone needed say something ive written well im set ive got planned im waiting till boyfriend leaves go tonight broke saturday says well never back together ill never find anyone ex probably doesnt want back friendsbasically one im completely alone world id rather exist released album well one listening one im trying decide spend last day maybe ill go park good last meal somewhere anyone bothers read ill post im tonight im going try enjoy last day earth dont know stay suicidal girlfriend throw away obvious reasons amita deleted post need help hello reddit native english speaker really really exhausted apologize bad english advance ampxb go met girlfriend years ago online chat room became best friends depressivesuicidal thoughts minor self harms finally met first time real life perfect fell love sure love care fix problems enough long distance relationship mother really care father lot temper grandmother hit lot child downs ampxb depression better started every single time left house something happen felt lonley argument mother asked time coming back call eventually stopped going partys dampd sessions wanted talk tell feel complete break started scratch arms hard got scared forced hands fingernails arms prevent worst damage gave night eventually came back weeks later told much love wanted help feeling burnt told wanted see psychologist love want feel happy dont want relationship end offered help find one help make appointments said late one help asshole telling insane broke heart depressive episodes got really bad often said things implied going commit redflag day far future tried cheer comfort went away one time actually begged knees crying help begged see professional said kinda gave eventually started things went friends houses played bit dampd everytime super sad even fight afterwards told many times things helps sleep way stop fears etc stayed home sometimes helped used decided leave alone end even threatened arguments one day kill fault stupid things maybe even said hurtful things croseed line crossed multiple times much happend much right ampxb cant anymore tired dont think love used want stay friend want help dont think stay boyfriend much longer hate thinking asking another girl univerty never afraid ask help asking reaching help sign weakness sign strength burden annoying attention seeking worthy happy living best life possible reminder loved alone almost old realized changed user flair likely last year teen turn months anyone wan na talk im bored asf sitting accounting kinda wan na talk someone dm u wan na talk wish people stop telling life worth living try understand feelim asking encourage end wish someone literally anyone empathize minute say say understand hard keep living know wrong want die know need help know life purpose empty statements made people seem actually care seeing angle ive chosen method added supplies need cart amazon chickened place order know really intention actually using want comfort knowing need way need people tell im right thing getting supplies go wish someone tell even want feel better know easy wish someone understand tired feel constantly waking face thought going another day enough wear sure want posting feel alone im scared im scared ordering things want time want anything want everything stop want know anymore brown people identify sunsets much exciting saying brown girl wed sunset people hehe mean asians yall asians bit yellowy fits dads band released first album spotify anyone likes metal heres link httpsopenspotifycomalbumnynvxjblpcygsvoalzsibgkgvatwcpbkeorfbzcg another suicidal personi want one cry broke bf long ass accusatory text fight mom sister im alone apartment whichs rent able afford next month im unemployed go full time school im failing means im uninsured country everyone free health care cant go therapist hospital thing stopping uncertainty taking pills give pain go er even dept wish drop dead wish killed years ago wish close eyes never wake online school min wish luckkk filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler somebody please help mei see world coming around really scary really want time im afraid die feel im unlovable feel set fail beginning life whats point even trying anymore somebody please talk sense oh god please edit want thank everybody posted ive chosen live think guys helped wonderful people reddit know much takei nowhere go one turn right now im diagnosed bipolar type ii meds conflict pain medication take able bed put bluntly cant cope anymore chronic pain syndrome neurological shit going im pain constantly even though im high doses painkillers cant job bad health im benefits im uk us equivalent social security im pretty sure government kick condition recognised worthy stopping working im nearly still live family family meaning mum stepdad grandmother shit say reddit literally avoid talking conversation mum far stepdad grandmother overbearing aunt visits every day goes ignore point theyll leave room walk good friend lives end country might moving back europe done education im good anything cant afford equipment really want sit room silence either watching shit tv playing video games time ive tried everything make things better nothing works last time place dark attempted redflag four times many months got sectioned mental health act ended facility six months developed eating disorder want go back edit got phone call morning tell government overturned decision made keep employment support allowance disability money coming go back benefit force apply jobs places building sites im obviously capable job properly reddit seriously give thought things worse reddit im losing hope yeah iam literally posting catacheism exam helpedi apologise clunky grammar various mistakes advance helped subreddit dedicated helping suicidal people helping mean preventing people killing really helped want continue go living see realistic outcome im still alive pain kind help use might share story oh wall text thats going sharing help see shared story others never helped might receive advice see fancy rather smart man advice contain truth already thought heard shrinks people want truth sincerely doubt unlikely might might find kind caring person weep shoulder anything temporary reprieve honestly see genuinly trying find way helped subreddit fail redflag passionate impulse premeditated mecry kill given might well couple days live unless chicken suppose case nothing power subreddit help cases really able help people someone looks impossible thats really sad ask well interesting observation guess ive suicidal many years now always able fixate goal work towards recently goals lost meaning pain intensified wouldve gotten time saw utmost clarity reason failings life personal flaws ive trying many years fix avail yes without context cant really make sense whats written undersand theoretically additional many years efforts might might mind able finally become normal boy love god cant find reason end spare suffering apologise incoherence ramblings never able pour thoughts paper clear enough hours much read wanted tell self harmed first time today im getting covid test soon minutes dads going take drive testing sight hospital wish luck guess actually feel much shit rn best friend breakdown texted means talking useless felt shit actually know help feel im shitty friend knowing able go sleep knowing even tho tried hard absolutely nothing changed nothing situation told stop go away later feeling impotence cant shit ill worst friend helped much anyway keep going thanks reading shitty rant questions girls subreddit oh god perfectly fine chat friends one friends said didnt want go school tired asked said stayed late reading said ok continued talking something randomly said period last night couldnt sleep wtf theres really reason mention one reason perfectly fine tired question think randomly mentioned period unnecessary make us guys chat uncomfortable life minecraft hardcore smp server cant find save quit button even fuckin know damn fucking tired dont know nothing midnight cant sleep feeling really shitty maybe mayo salad bad idk maybe explain venting bc right feel fucking bad probably delete later feels good write dont even care grammar fukc please dint feel concerned contemplating self harm anything christmas new years eve really unsatisfying every year certain magic feel anither day except ate lot junk got little drunk family played game end laughing maniacs good next day fucking bad ithought good parents walk day friends sister home play games day long feel things really wanted got late wait fir everybody somwhere wank bit horny waited two fckin hours even thou watched youtube whole time felt wait least changes pyjamas afternoon spend rest day wondering play ended playing watching many things bored really quick continued nothing basically spend whole day things supposed joy ultimately made feel nothing mattered nothing makes sense whatever distract wierd feeling existing without dreams needs feel exits bad good thing anymore honestly life might throw soon think ate much mayo salad ad stuff anyway took calming pill help sleep pill calms stomach hopefully work far nothing writing comes fucked mind find something interesting read fear sentenced look wall whole night eyes wide open feeling every minute hour considering wank serotonin shit pause five minutes staring wall latetly found way utilize pillow bed understand implying fuck post probably broke lot rules guy usually reads rules manuals rn fucking care enough read hope mofos read shit gon na regret posting tomirrow clarify drunk high rn type writing used famous wtiters forgot called something along lines train thougt think hemingway used forgot good memorizing literature reading well helped bit hope nobody know sees good night going stare wall idea april st terraria minecraft switch logos day need make dinnerin order make dinner need use kitchen kitchen usable theres many dishes smell thats gettig worse floors slowly tearing apart time attempt sweep mop two holes ceiling occasionally drip water sometimes bee gets normal day dishes make food frequently look pile everything sit back life slowly falls apart used confident cheerful person today become awkward person even put sensible sentence together whine cry brood sleep cry sleep alone wake love someone close year supposed relationship feels empty one wants calls relationship never troubles sickness even share happiness achievements moved cities fir person regret giving capacity nothing return even normal conversation rarely meets currently feel negative broken devastated know happen feel discarded used abused emotionally always angry pills againthis time mg ibuprofen mg benadryl mg melatonin usual adhd meds mg caffeine mg acetaminophen less usual eh teenagers virgins absolute chads lend hears uchildofgoose officially first president rteenagers official fuck mods jk jk suggest sick edms language idc personal article mental health holdback darker selfi wrote wondering people critique httpspminihuo sequel fabulous ova series rather remake events occurred death ghim disappearance woodchuck accurate novels inspired wonderful series characters namely orson shiris reintroduced story may seem slightly different used ova booklet included set provides excellent answers questions various online sites first eight episodes part tv series focus fateful battle demon dragon mountain remaining episodes introduce us spark bluehaired knight wannabe identifies parn ragtag team misfits attempt stop dark wizard wagnard resurrecting kardis destroyerbr br quite equivalent original lodoss war love finale parn saves deedlit wagnard tv followup still great fun fantasy fans even animation limited step artistic streak first lodoss part series elements appeal fullyrealized characters engaging storyline magic romance superb soundtrack scored kaoru wada ninja scroll give uneven spinoff punchbr br ova dub lodoss criticized one reason another generally liked still consider one favorite dubs significant hopes dub chronicles made part lodoss tv english track passable stellar quality share problems much original cast lent english voices characters lodoss return including lisa ortiz deedlit nice bonus hand billy regans mature sounding parn bit offputting bad job voice came across grating first eight episodes causing antidub fans instantly diss dub time spark company take stage found less bothersome know improved grew everyone oav dub returns jayce reeves voices wagnard terrifically one episode hes replaced pete zarustica whole show gives scratchy still malevolent turn well expected evil laughter anthony cruises kashue hand weary takes five episodes find stride oliver gregory probably effective orson especially final dramatic scenesbr br aside lisa ortiz deedlit karen smith shiris john knox ashram al muscari slayn dubs best voices come newer characters including crispin freeman spark maar garrack episodes roxanne beck little neese meg frances voices pirotess oav voices ryna vulnerability sassiness well karla especially angora deb steals every scene leaf halfelf rest cast terrible means little uneven oav dub right aldonova greevus others lackluster hobb palace guards dragons etc awful particular prince reonas va harsh monotone fighter justicebr br fact lack aural continuity cast members new voices unexplained reason time later episodes one problems dub others include less memorable awkward sounding dialogue uneven synchronization finally apologize advance fans lodoss island segments offbeat superdeformed interludes end episode either amuse drive batty admittingly first found major nuisance sorta grew besides showstoppingly hilarious lines im king kashue cashew im really quite nut flaws rank dub chronicles notch ova resulting uneven english track summed best okbr br one wonders japanese language track preferred listening choice well guess japanese version good bad points voices less annoying english language track found others less appealing english equivalents particular actress deedlit nowhere nearly good lisa ortiz yumi tohma plus mention japanese cast ova series made seven years original one sho hayami cast members replaced new ones although respectably good job may major annoyance used japanese ova cast shows everything japanese better english eh despite flaws chronicles heroic knight still fine series deserves hold ground without rough spots always live predecessor yet theres enough good points counter bad making moderately enjoyable fantasy anime feel welli feel nothing stop existing right great anything stop feeling sad useless worthless dumb bother others wanted say girl im fuckin simps filler filler filler filler filler filler mom found bunch old pill packages pills almost year mom convinced new going overdose tried telling time recent says lying grounded friends goes drawers searches room currently feel granted form privacy outright said going continue going room convinced right lying drug problem past kind behavior normal years ago almost years sobriety hard drugs work put mend relationship family feel effort ignored mom continues call liar tomy face always pushes religion allow vaccinated due believing vaccines mark beast yet one needs help ready leave house parents allow id even work save apartment literal tyrants run life parents never believe wish luckwanted kill ages currently weeks wages responsibilities im going bet money horses football weekend going carry betting till im broke im killing maybe bet way millions doubt well see wish luck lol todayis final knife back im tiredjust let pass away peace im tired fam job friends nothing even want live still make pass next birthday ill better dead im sure plenty people happy im gone pile crap anyways fucking tired life im doneive decided kill tomorrow night point living honestly agh got kicked depression website really worthless deserve anyone cant focus right now someone help september thsorry unclear organized im really good headspace write neatly anyone thinking commiting redflag im guilting anything think people need hear side september th grandmas birthday last time talked died november th got news next day km away chose stay foreign exchange thought grandma want even though hard missed first moments missed celebration life missed grandpa dadmy mom commited redflag know never asked mom called said grandma died remember said gibberish anyways told note know note says never asked read spent next days bed host family say anything say sorry ask ok host mom brought food bed eat much talk much days went pictures lots crying lots anger confusion frustration guilt live daily think every single day couldve done family couldve done much miss love suffered chronic pain body imagine thats stigma talk death especially died redflag bereavement never getting closure never knowing always wondering ifits horrible bereavement happens many ways redflag different becauseit totally random someone calculated someone took life someone wrote note knew going cause much pain took life days bed host mom told cheer told needed go school errands needed got days back school almost nothing happened forced pretending ok suffered suicidal thoughts thought harming angry everyone around notice last time phoned birthday sent facebook messages respond photo brother grandfather real smiling lips curled gone messages never got show pictures speak fluent spanish learned months tell exchange anything program sent counselor brought translator need translator asked grandma christian said yes im atheist told said grandma real christian committed redflag thats christian thing days told talk family anything talk anything anybody friends first time ive written anything writing letters much guilt much anger love much miss anything bring back know im going think needed say something happy nd birthday grandma feel lost head dont know doeverything sucks want die im outside school crying good family good friends good life yet everything feels bad feel lost emotions mind feels chaos dont know got ta love going back school first day back week exams lot reviewing person naturally break wifi cant use chrome books review old janes mannered tale seems popular days lost count number versions going around probably reason ruts ruts even late date tv miniseries gives mannered telling suitable novel headstrong opinionated emma pretty modern girl think even though ambience jane austens world may seem tad artificial us today seem emma ill say selfsufficient emma comeuppance worth watching find acting honours go ladies kate prunella lucy samantha almost psychic connection old jane songs sung japanese english english may fluentim japanese cant evaluate english ability think outwardlooking want world hear songs im happy discover music 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musical legend elvis movie directed unknown director named john carpenter went direct successful movies halloweenescape new york thing said director birth beatles mr richard marquand went direct theatrical blockbusters star wars return jedieye needleand jagged edge among many film tells story fab four know ofis back beat theatrical release critics care itnor public long life span theater birth beatles charming simplistic film gives essence beginning legend struggles hardships went thru ends pinnacle success arrive nyc appear ed sullivan show highly recommend film today really rough day currently residential treatment program away family today guess technically yesterday fucking blew stated conversation mom confronted issues dad incredulous anything done problem woman sent weight watchers child called bitch family referred cinderella girl expected extra chores chose brothers time time woman mothers day outing planned two us took call brother first min meal together mother complained made miss world series visit psych ward made sure bring years later never said jack shit time except remembering missed fucking baseball game yeah fucking problem rest day killing time heard everyone plans th american obviously things going well treatment reason days today excruciating feel fire someone poking thousand needles weight presses chest throat making feel choking suffocating time stand truly right wish dead want feel anymore tired exhausting feel lived million years take feel meant alive purpose day series activities pass time immediate danger literally checked every hour anything sharp meds anything potentially dangerously either locked removed house make easier terrified hope unfixable doomed suffer god knows long one endure many years pain goddamn lifetime see point want anymore want die sleep tired unbearable pain hey guys im bored guitar broke two weeks ago havent able much music stuff still ukulele thinking cover song dont know cover give suggestions hopefully people respond pick top comment something good day yall subhuman trashi dont want anything life thing want commit redflag finally end everything zero value person want contribute world thing ill contribute life redflag statistics years old convinced life worse progress adulthood id rather die right second live entire lifetime misery wish never even born world doesnt need lazy sacks shit zero desire put effort towards improving might well commit redflag world favor got yelled dad first thought redflag im adult waymy dad boss lately getting sick frequently breaking year long relationship coming family feel really lost something always count though whenever mess dad tells need better immediate thought oh fucked need kill cant understand anymore allowing think way called transphobic classmate hi back school classmate transphobic completely disrespectful til day remember clearly im studying music studies gymnasiet fellow swedditrs years year mandatory school end every school year put musical local theatre asigned changing rooms year one two three separetly one breaks next rehearsal changing room chatting changing clothes snacking everybodys good time many different conversations across room boom said transphobic classmate drops disrespectfulness sometimes lives bubble world spinning around news flash doesnt now good trans friend came two months prior sometimes struggled say right name always apologized try learn asap literally mean almost whole class teachers time time classmate said everyone dressing room heard hey dead name always dead name always dead name whole room everyone one dressing room fell silent moment turned around fast facing calling excuse say everyone peeked intrest unfolding eyes us disrespectful hard learn name dare continuing using dead name basic human rights said day whole time trans friend trying soothe thing want make big deal said take said girl storms room apologies straight walked ugh really ticked wrong way friends showing support callout trans friend incident girl practically ignoring made effort talk either rant moral story call transphobes day idk guessi idea long ive suicidal feels eternity everyday thing yesterday screamed car going work cause built stress walked rest way cause father threw car work almost multiple times screamed customer still think things better matter thought going street walked front car kept coming mind taking knife restaurant slit wrist toilet theres bat house super pissed fuck need talkhello ampxb need talk english mother tong ill try say things need write somewhere alone anyone tell even someone talk think pieces years life look real life struggle keeping job struggle girls lost friends tried help breackdown happened kept stupid shit nonsensical stuff ampxb im almost perfect life mean everything money friends time girl normal mental health felt sometimes bit unconfortable alone even surrounded friends family happened dad felt sick mental illness nothing becam stupid lets say debilitated doctors said years live ok hard year grandpa died loved year break long relationship girl hard became last year master th year mom left dad sister couldnt handle converted islam problems years couldnt find place life struggled school religion helped immensely way radical wanted full islamic kind religious veil way talk normal person education converted sect religion whatever lost ampxb much couldnt pass exams second semester attend shit began best friends pass graduated moved city went life got job stayed brother handle shit happened year either september school begins came back parents house saw bed noon said wtf school said bullshit heyy days ok elder man move fucking ass years younger said ok go school stops said bit fucked anyway noone gives fuck dad sick mom gave always successful one kinda protective strict brother sister good said ok bro find school city study gon na live find appartment people call schools withing week school start schoolyear ampxb thats everything hit face started school motivation exams pass last year friends anymore say social almost loneliness anxiety stay alone hours day needed see people hang go drink dance chat fun less feeling wanted alone problems worth hanging people anymore know enough problems need chill good sign begining year months beautiful girl life still now still wtf much wow everyone doctor blond best body best smile kind sweet bitch best girlfriend idea got chance really liked fucked said started take cocaine end last year couldnt pass exams every friend mine tried last try give fuck really said fuck ok let put nose nothing couldnt feel something special friend laughing said yeah nothing special immediate effect talkative relaxed confident even know good night continued come back girl time summer take lot cocaine kill totaly anxiety made relax feeling good best feeling best medicine girl one day got really drunk coke day coke began disapear super drunk started lose memories met people chat got drinks knew good mood coke descent super drunk said yes girlfriend said wtf way way perfect look messages yes cant feel love sweet cant feel anything talk drunk one point say ok guys call tell wtf guys know laugh lot really jealous huge douchebags call say something yeah yeah ok wants story ok stupid excuse tell next day couldnt save thats see times next days talk strict deserve attention love anymore ampxb ok point pieces girlfriend lot crap save money lot drugs motivation year seemed easy pass exams seemed waste time plus shit endure last year point remember living brother took put school ampxb one two months time nothing nothing second semester drugs playing video games seeing friends less less told first time life needed see noone totally alone home know know later couple months met party cool girl small dark hair super cute face younger something make night nothing one friend girlfriend friend mine told hey man really invite drink meal best girl sure likes ok shambles kind said hm ok later one month went way decided invite good started date long story short important stayed together two years incredible courage suffer shit threw ampxb last thing want share girl feel anything fall love problem previous knew liked much felt good company thats know mental problems time year continued girl cool going deeper deeper drugs alcohol cocaine nothing constructive reallt strange begining state now begining end end shit suffer years ampxb drive head ahead drugs felt place totally handle seeing good friends cool life cool job project dead inside waiting healing drugs know sick girl helped understand needed see doctor went ok big breackdown need stop alcholol drugs take medicines better ok ampxb took medicines drink lot getting crazy fastforward now ampxb ampxb say make go better girl pass exams tried years row attend exams druged drunk still master degree exams pass bachelor years studies nothing actually years first years next years tried kills think ampxb killed break girl killed physical pain mental disease harder stronger painful toothpain wanted die hitting every wall screaming crying dying ampxb ampxb anyway loose mind concentrate much whatever ampxb totally dead inside family left brother grandma talk grandparents mother cousins family members years single friend left everyone tried save failed make progress came back times worse everyone let ampxb totally alone cant keep job tried different medications months hospital read philosophy psychology theology whatever help feel complete ampxb cocaine th month almost money left last week ended hospital overdose grams day everyday days tought heart explode cant stop cocaine totally addicted even medication anymore pure drug try feel something high much used need huge quantities bullshit ampxb cant handle anymore weeks ago second time swallow medicines boxes somehow woke next morning pissed reliefed time ampxb today write email rehabpsychiatric center cant manage life alone anymore ampxb needed talk ampxb thank reading wish best idea trash bags full unshucked corn foyer house im going go make enquiries talk amongst update anyone situation around years ago really sad suicidal never told anyone thought life girl entered life became whole world became happier felt joyous kid everything together knew life meaning controlling prioritized number one got jealous bitter moments seem anything without one another made boundaries broke boundary felt dearly broke felt whole world fall apart filled guilt loneliness bitter sweet nostalgia seem think reason alive wanted gone feel worse met stand feeling heart desperate sadness longing someone never either hate sound vulnerable idk lot thank reading moved florida new york city massachusetts moved boyfriend got married im far away family parents arent pleasant times kind hard miss animals grandmas house miss grandma much im pregnant prenatal appointment went shit doctor complicated everything wait till tuesday see im still pregnant frustration doctor everything went venting husband kinda snapped everything okay im worry wort gyno said theres heartbeat weeks even though used baby doppler didnt communicate didnt answer questions pretty upset start looking options stuff thing absolutely scared husband got work started fight kept telling everythings difficult cant wait three weeks schedule another appointment theres something dead inside started snap saying make excuses serious logical obstacles im husbands last name insurance couldnt update id offices keep giving shit saying fraud im illegal transfer licenses husband telling im trying hard enough list excuses sister ran started crying left house turned phone cried came back minutes husband comes screaming calling stupid fuck dumb bitch ungrateful bitch names im sitting bottom shower snatches phone starts cursing said hope cry dumb bitch broke started sobbing hes trying nice today asking kiss im extremely depressed dont wan na took rope car want tie noose end one talk suicidal thoughts life hard nothings working living literally hurts getting better miss animals much im sad said cut hes bringing crisis wanted go hospital pregnancy confirmed told im dramatic crush girl ive crush year wasnt close friend tell said dont know thats remember didnt even know long first wanted closer herwhich im atm feel im getting closer keep getting closer giving good vibes wait ask feel close pent emotions always creeping back mind stand anymore feeling selfhatred something many people experienced lives belittle selfworth believe deserve life given failed meet expectations people around ran away much easier confronting problems times see value whatever reason thus begin think burden society people care start convince maybe existing better unhealthy selfdestructive mindset always look floor walking look people eye always negative perceptions dictate think people say negative things important thing never felt meaning value joy life speech school exam called life redflag depression sister saying mids time thing f sister college saying everything mids dont understand didnt think old college years ago way thing right reaction everything saying mids good bad middle mids drop keys thats mids line long mids uses insult well youre mids dont mids ive suddenly felt really downlike nowhere really want die im scared sin kill islam really want die feel really lost unmotivated cant stand living really want die feel ungrateful nice family pretty decent grades good friends nice pet rabbit sad want happy hard tired scaredi sick tired everything tired spending every weekend alone hoping next week last one never changes tired school tired another country tired anything productive whole day tired parents tired friends uses something want scared scared say something wrong speak another language scared mom find smoking scared end alone one share dreams one speak go bed thing stops killing grandparents die see anything black kissed girl years im proud hahaha gotem seriously virginity cool stay cool dudes feeling welli tired going life know headed towards bad endat point going tonight next week maybe next year cant live feelings cant live constant agony selfdestructive behavior anyone talk im miserable need help want actual face talk text love degeneracy tbh think wonderful love fact society heading point b weird fucks want beautiful somebody dm im bored af nothing m delete rdr cod rainbow six delete cod definitely download red dead delete rainbow might delete small game havent played cod early july hoping season bring back havent played rainbow may something im playing play rainbow first game got xbox one great memories fellow teenagers reddit please give cutefunny name ideas call gf im trying brainstorm cute funny things call girl friend need inspiration got dont shy suspicions dating girl things going really well weeks ago noticed started getting kinda short wanting talk whatnot tell stop asked going week ago texted said needed space couple days big deal thought well hour ago told seeing sleeping withanother guy asked serious sent screenshots texts mostly flirting stuff last screenshot said couldnt wait fun tonight break morning idk im gon na point completely honest seems everything wrong mess everything tbh wanted feel happy crap thats going dont think thats gon na happen took time read wan na say thanks helpful read similar posts know im one still hurts hell want cut away society away everyone delete ties history somewhere nobody knows want run away foreverso sick tired expectations want time people roles context diagnosed mdd probably asdnot actual diagnosis least think looking different signs concurrent long remember hospitalized suicidal ideationi turned recently oldest child live mother younger brother argue lot usually brother mother mother brother problem case attend therapy nothing notcannot talk much mom hard money sick upcoming hysterectomy dad paying child support mom argue lot brother argue answer question continue ask mom yells argue back disagree try raise voice seem end argument probably something wrong argue always boils trying kick redflaged cry tell bad mom redflaged always gone bad mom problem clear want blame took equation things fine time reluctant feel depressed right way convinced right idea posting clearly doubts thought best say something somewhere feeling depressed feel everyone benefit killed nothing left hereim dyspraxic learn drive job skills towards getting one driving kind sex either high school amp experienced amp reaping benefits missed never able incidentally never relationship either partially due insecurities relationships home life growing im female btw fwiw im gon na spend life adult baby cant go trips everyone seems going mountains exciting new towns etc instead im stuck home id never matured past middle school fuck thats fucking care making ppl sad crying help though im sorry make anyone sad want tabletstheres strip tablets drawer take stare theres nothing od little background recent breakup two weeks ago boyfriend basically said romantically interested anymore come find days later already grindr really hurt whole break top things going breaking point depression redflag started seeing therapist probably started saying ago honest anyway break really appetite last weeks lost almost pounds wondering anybody tips appetite back least feel getting little bit nutrition appetite depressionredflag keeps asking impossible mesmile says wish lie easily smiling false reassurance smiling means okay right now smiling seems cry help muster hope notices even conversation go little notes im leaving everywhere posting rredflagwatch im work smiling want badly tell someone figure half rational today yesterday felt half rational day feel im slipping looked list good places go missing lucky many places near people disappearing decades go make disappear walking far forest great getting head anyways maybe wait ready starve death woods whatever feel smiling im one year lefti turn sunday july th young teenage years made promise time turn shit still sucks im never thought day come im going enjoyable potentially last year life im gon na branch try new things meet new people stuff depression taken away want last days best days ive ive enough life now im going live best year anime recommendations anime considering getting personal favorites hero academia takes place world population superpower known quirk main character falls unlucky doesnt despite still wants become superhero one amazing supporting cast creative power system quirks vary much got dude fire ice powers theres guy tape dispensers elbows joking assassination classroom middle school tokyo new teacher shows happened responsible destroying moon plans earth end school year class students kill graduation moves mach isnt easy one funniest sure korosensei chill attempts life even dinner sniper send students great possessing talents death note may heard one kid named light finds notebook kills anyone whose name writes uses kill criminals becoming known kira killer written katakana detective named l tries hunt suspenseful mind games light l great task force police wellwritten matsuda favorite amazing visuals promised neverland im going spoil anything one better go blind movie flaws brings light problems come living country democracy makes empathize people government makes want learn lives struggles potential leader aung san suu kyi makes one wonder government interfere places wanted yet ignore ask help keeps getting worse starting feel horrible loneliness ive depressed long remember moving varying degrees unhappiness months time recently ive begun feeling terrible loneliness im popular enough school lot friends feel ended one even notice except best friend family younger problem thought dying im coming grips fact die matter even dont want beyond control feel anything pointless eventaully lasting impact dead even farther future every star universe die january year hasnt day serious suicidal thoughts havent crossed mind ive started think hate whenever walk mirror idea consider attractive problems self esteem im trouble dealing recent increase horribly sad thoughts far worst ive felt depressive cycles feel unfair deal im time feel enjoyment im im relationship dont know anymore want stop honestly cant take anymore sadusually feel urge die usually fantasize dead relieved plight comes life time ive much drink barely think straight feel incredibly sad think others whove ended close long ended still memory hes resting peacefully im tempted long endless peace harmony comes nothingness death anymore breaking point talk family want worry talk mother already tried recall mom saying something depressed words wanted hear hearing words felt sharp pain heart really talk father drunk talk siblings mean much make worry break heart talk friends lost long time ago lost friends wanted isolate kill hurt less haha remember even telling best friend time hope forgot live life peacefully without feeling years shake honestly wish thanks read whole thing anymore fucki made post talked situation little friends leaving college parents really care long im fed really care feel dropped school parents pushing go back motivation finish used hockey computers hate feel nothing left cant feel happiness life point living seen signs things going better even know job show thats school anyways still talk friends discord seems really care happens try tell im feeling awful ignore really care matter much try point across im happy think happy crave important somebody day see really isnt possible personality besides sad time thing play fucking video games day even joy used watch people play games youtube shit thats enough either ive pondering whether hig hike south see something finally makes feel better leave one really notice parents probably tell im gone days rarely even check matter choose im going happy im told redflag answer really tell want stop feeling pain alone time ive never actual girlfriend anyone actually cared feel matter im going actually meet anyone shallow push talk girls hurts everytime ignored told im boring actually matter school say really picked gotten shit kicked times talking wan na give want kill feel im running excuses im alive right now used fit healthy hockey im underweight almost pass randomly anything used actual friends really talking really reason talk im boring uninteresting may think im assuming things told repeatedly dad mom thinks help feel better gives tell im feeling brother literally wants die joke wanted stab one point hid room hes disabled really take seriously still hurt want see actual sign im making day fucking old thing sit waiting friends talk computer wait long enough try talk play game mad leave fucking sucks know run away stay dropout go school anything never motivation fucking know least structured shit probably said lot things multiple times fucking hate feeling shitty empty want something change anything want help problems parents dont know thinks bit different issue thats probably true thinking setting therapy love go therapy big problem doesnt know id keep way suspicious appeared eager go im stuck hiding one problem trying enough attention therapy discuss real issue must look dont want go laugh funny classmate mine tested positive im gucking anxious ive got ill tested tonorrow go back school mom heart proplems diabetes yesterday spent hours step dads mom brother old weak im ancious aslo dont best health hope guy class alright mate youre reading please dont fucking die im uselessim idiot redeeming qualities cant socialize people try make feel useful making traits wearing mask im people public try come funny interesting im boring piece shit interests passions live dedicate long enough even come close getting better im smart im attractive im sociable im athletic im nothing try make jokes create interesting stories even suck used smart atleast feel cant construct normal thoughts vocabulary limited im talented kids see school specialty hobbies im mess tries catch never will im edgy idiot small brain ik true spend hours studying things people grasp minutes distracted hours think potential somewhere dont actually even adhd pill helped focus im fucking stupid cant form normal thoughts im always sidetracked think maybe potential im smart person cant express cant focus tap intelligence never happen nothing helped cant fucking artist writer even handwritings shit express thoughts paper let alone draw im going zoning thinking philosophies concepts life rest mine ill never able hold normal conversation anyone long dont know express utilize thoughts thinking abilities try make feel better acting idea whats going redeeming qualities im someone whos different good way instead fucking ball anxiety distraction insecurity endless selfconstrued facades aimed others alike think mental disorder theres something wrong theres nothing wrong theres excuse stupidity laziness inability grasp simple concepts act people around understand understand everytime someone finally gets close relationship bound end shitty way cant help act im irresponsable keep long term relationship think im something different someone matters im slow hell cant construct simple thoughts simple things pick social cues rude fuck think maybe im nice person maybe ill finally find whatever im good finally settle someone likes finally meet someone seems cant express anything im stupid piece shit wishes value importance piss anyone close burden people im close im flowing shit hole problems needs dump people feel fine try think others actually manage enjoy obnoxious company think future writing films making music im never going live expectations set im going keep failing settle less live entire life wishing living greener grass write memo im gon na go back life bullshit act im complete retard think function normally talk people normally think might stop snapping anger im edgy fuck think might even nice reality im selfish prick cares cant try grasp concept world doesnt revolve around think im main character movie reality ill probably stay cameo villain everyone wants see die stupid things think loathful thoughts angry blue afterwards things wonder fuck wrong wish someone understood knew hadnt snapped im evil person snapped im fucking idiot self control power ill go back normal life im gon na keep saying im fine everyday fine im introspective enough see useless every days ill cry heart ask support wipe tears put mask back ill repeat cycle eventually whoever cry sick eventually ill run people cry im fucking trap negativity draws everyone around theres nothing many god damn masks fit well personality mood want perfectly feel mood emulate acts brain programs say start acting one way another acclimate setting surroundings feel happy bit ik happiness illusion facade happiness leaves anxiety depression racing mind come back thats thing im good atfaking point dont even know real self bunch personalities think real self ambitious one thinks go good college smart balanced healthy kid somewhere along timeline template actions im something change ill finally able relate socialize level two people maybe ill stop able analyze every detail around stop knowing details things inevitable ill stop running processes head fucking computer talk people guess thoughts feelings maybe ill finally able stop racing thoughts channel intelligence onto something current ill finally able good enough good people around watch care regardless dead weight ill finally amount undiagnosed piece shit result condom rupture wont kid whos weird fuck nutcase dad makes want kill myselfmotherfuckingbitchassholecuntfucker dad doesnt really involved life unless yell try make feel guilty ive trouble staying motivated schoolwork pretty much everything im medication depression anxiety nothings working far cheated way online school th grade im senior failing classes late make everything missed great plan drop job focus mental health work towards getting ged brought mom yelled stupid n shit cuz theres couple months left told dad hes making mad face flares nostrils looks wants beat face yelling said failure stuff ive learned tune know want whats best dont understand probably never will matter many times try convince dad fucking annoying sometimes makes feel stupid invalid always talks hard time young something idk probably thinks hes helping relating makes feel hes invalidating feelings seriously whenever bad day im crying room day somehow makes saying things putting dad thishe talks rd person talks therapist physiatrist tells story hard time younger compares us reason want kill sometimes feel redflag option dont know theres lot say hard focus anything though movie cheesiness best pulled perfectly movie without doubt considered modern classic basically two kinds movies movies depth chick flicks must blame wife mindless comedies sit back relax movie perfect example latterbr br friend mine turned movie shortly release considering somewhat 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playing ah yes annoying orange spy vs spy theres others stood imo fuck existi wan na exist put back born forced existence reason rather exist go heaven endless cycleits im brink attempting something good happens bring back hope im going okay feel alright suddenly horrible sinking feeling hits want end things something good happens repeats exhausting getting muchim completely messed head doesnt know happy happiness cant bring feel anymore even feel bit slightest glimpse happiness feel depression doesnt let happen battling battle im constantly losing years worst thing im youngand way life going dont want live im typing tonight gcses dont go school due head completely holding back im going good future ive completely let parents ive messed whole body mental health even due drugs cant take anymote wish reverse button go back good times unfortunately cant happen say hope u never much hole im stuck happens best us ur going tbrew hard time keep ur head farewell feel well insecurities drown mei feel insecuree sure purpouse even worth effort somebody care think might feel drowned thoughts feelings push deeper want feel good need help may fall even deeper months go troubled give tonight nightin yo female rant anything dont need advice people telling itll better wont im selfish iive done evrything ive talked counsellors gonr hospital voluntarily times another one wasnt choice posice called times friends hate ive assaulted many times blackmailed yeah night planned want everyone stop hating already hate enoughthey cant hate im dead king underworld features early role humphery bogart one many gangster rolesbr br plays joe gurney uses female doctor treat men pays follows goes live auntie one gurneys men kills doctor husband worked gurney kidnaps author way find female doctor gets write life story plans kill finally meets doctor gives gurney men substance makes temporarily blind author fallen love manage escape police arrivebr br joing excellent bogie cast kay francis james stephenson john eldredgebr br watching king underworld good way spend hour one eveningbr br rating stars feel youre explode listen dooms soundtrack youre ok depressed feel accepting never anything great value hate everything feel alone even friends bf family feel inescapably sad lonely trying job lockdown lifting shit show feel honest people succeed impossible anywhere unless know powerful people somehow convince help youi pathetic crazy feel ugly inside feel want peel skin take shower water feels rough sand hitting skin feel worthy washing feels bad wash eat sleep nothing feels goodi medication shit even worse without feel done everything wrong everyone mad know fix getting shit chest day living back momand want kill already great yohi really dark moment atm aspergers syndrome affect social skills trying improve time never enough one day im probably going die alone whats point continuing parents help either want go back home home makes worse isolated know whats going never understand one understands remember reading article redflag rates autistic people higher heh understand fact now well holy damn yesterday cousin stayed overnighti dreami weird dream weird mix town florida pouter son mayorthen guess dream started introducing every characters pouter issue water ran outand dunno farm mayor house saying shit likei dont remember name story town fell apart fucking water shortage dream cuts cousinand started trying resolve water problem apparently electrical cut reason went cousins brother houseasked current water working woke answer woke upmy mom urging cousin wake told gon na water shortage pmits almost amby time im writing well cant make shit upso yeah heard momi lost shit life shittired fucking living shit everyday nothing changes im loop everyday im fucking tired wish kill already cant anything right im sadguys every day im senior high school literally everything outside life looks great hate times im happy day im joking best friend school talking boyfriend night latter always ends ruining already mundane day gosh know hes wrong talking hearing misunderstand reminds alone love much hes literally killing semblance peace may day cant look forward future think dying every day escape redflag never leaves mind days everything going harder im tired crying alone bed every night always heart consistently slowly build back day always breaks night ups downs killing im waiting day buy gun point long years metal musical discussion many people actually think metal listeners demonic god hating crapheads depths hell redflag hotlines worstim fine now recall years ago go detail exactly happened called hotline people dense got told basically shrug told take hot bath prevent suicidal thoughts holy shit known bath prevent mental illness id richard simmons outlook life seriously bland tone say generic lines call cops show house without giving information cop said either take hospital jail explained situation mentioned afford slammed hospital bill im going jail gave warning suicidal tendacies idiot phone sending people jail racking hospital bills someone suicidal going make suicidal flaud system told refused go either committed crime wanted search house told need warrant point took phone started recording repeating needed warrant search home recorded experience calling national redflag hotline truly suicidal call people make feel even worse better trying luck therapist try hard meditation need stop hiring people telemarketing experience hire actual therapists least requirement therapy taking people street absolutely ridiculous national redflag hotline last resort center people truly need cattlehouse people cops show door people worst day lives people make worse saying bland emotionless things calling cops behind backs disrespectful person calling looking someome talk need hire professionals takes someone special mindset genuinely care every call comes hard calls day redflag tske someone resolve care actually want help never seriously considered redflag recentlyi always thought redflag knew id never past days im done cant right diagnosis whats wrong citalopram took edge stopped working tried cymbalta made zombie docs going lamotrigine working mood swings thats starting fail still leaves depressed crying anyway lamotrogine given worst acne life im prepared fuck around anymore medications especially considering lead weight gain see feeling good finding right medications psychologist fucking sucks went talk lamotrigine within one minute wrote script ability sent office four minutes friends never sister friend got married even tell still live house dog parents trying help thats whats point feel good earth feel anything hear yee hear yee fellow metal fans interested look band called static x industrial metal band released new album rip wayne ive ruining hair due anxiety quite mental health worsening thing recently actually pulling knots hair caused pull hair months hairline receded hair lost lot fluff hair cuz annoying ive extra self conscious flat stringier idk point post advice love guess kinda needed weighing quite bit war selfsabotagehi diagnosed depression years ago abusive family care meds reanimated redflag attempt teenager adult endured homeless twice years months progressing disability sight loss suspicion ms chronic pain constant lack money selling place live year stayed bed days skipping showers food managed finish school years dropping became homeless still attending high school even got accepted uni schools free best follow meds therapy plans worked reactions tried open people ten years hard mental work finally notice name emotions see choosing still choice understand head works friends say ive changed lot better yet new crisis last year ive slowly ruining education skipping classes using opportunities created pretty decent uni authorities im stuck therapy cant make progress force something change something feels almost physical try shove sticking plans even though theyre big ones tried parttime job back job hunting market quit damaging sight even right im verge becoming homeless got kicked uni money meds already asked friends pay bills meds want ask often see selfdestructive part gains power reasonable one still see ridiculous im really afraid two years serious redflag thoughts ill something irreversible urges cut arms done almost years feel safer nothing even though know way dangerous today cried middle street cant take amount stress anymore one force act motivate fight im sure want live im sure im able live way anymore redflag seems bad decision one give peace see tooth removal want rid teeth damaged way rid pain want join discord server pretty bored want join server preferably weird dm invite interested way months ampxbfeeling fatigued getting literally nothing done every single day exaggeration feeling flaming pile trash vibin reddit raining outside tho mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm join minecraft server switch im trying onto rteenagers minecraft server switch yall explain please hwo deal today dropping sister school home way taxi driver unexpectedly applied brakes mf back glass covered see applied brakes hard missed crashing pulled told watch road drive ready pick fight anyone world even terrorists came started abusing real dirty front sister wanted say anything back sister want see said melee weapon sort taxi wanted abusive front sister said put left metres saw driving crazy beside make pull lick fight sort thing never happened random stranger abusing following fight slowed took turn intersection going behind mf back glass covered see lost whole way feeling stomach im home im sort disturbed cant focus anything never happened im tiredplease excuse english im spanish well know anymore ive trying fight long im weak keep falling feel im worth fighting anymore lately ive suicidal thoughts cant find reasons keep fighting im bother everyone keep hurting everyone im nothing mess mother literally said dead talk anymore keep making life living hell asked dad professional help said need thing need stop thats tip iceberg stop im nothing bother whats point keep living song httpsopenspotifycomtrackalzbskhqvpespirjjqbrsibccdhttpsopenspotifycomtrackalzbskhqvpespirjjqbrsibccd skrrt cobain arcadia grey songs energy guitar almost rent bad comments anywaysi thought similar darkness falls liked part hated tooth ferry red neck brothers gas stationthey funny dialog made laugh comedy ruined movie bit unnecessarythe rest movie way horror suspense film makeup good seen way worse movies one simple story believable actingits scariest goriest movie ticked wanting refund watching dvd previews movies look good im gon na check suppose quite achievement able present audience true tail frail man tail protagonist spend majority film back bed totally unable move yet achievement films effectiveness dramatic piece recollection true story guess argument people right die wish film political statement perhaps thankfully shies away many scenes debate although include one sake argument anyway moreso one foreign language films presents lead character cripple nothing talk people around yet able come across engaging compelling anywaybr br rather argument film sweet yet timely dramatic piece another person wanting something search something difference attaining goal mean termination someones life achieved physically going anywhere javier bardem plays real life galician ramn sampedro individual much earlier age dived clearing water shallow activity rendered bedridden rest life wish die focus chilean director alejandro amenbars film weve seen many films lives characters certain goals targets one must meet film provide satisfactory experience audience change pace sea inside gentle involve young energetic attractive heroes going battle far places real person something means much thembr br even strong policy either pro antieuthanasia may find hoping ramn gets wants end anyway film sets tone early ramn giving speech wants die watching family members immediately introducing situation subject watching audience may know film interestingly family members anti wishes might place audience member feels strongly subject respective shoes purpose set tell audience one man something incidentally whole family backing end quite easily film couldve gone route sampedro family vs everybody antiramns idea young acknowledge whats really going others seemingly distraught even opinion want ramn stick around bit longer love allbr br sea inside following story revolving around victim sorts ramn quadriplegic perspective see things something may disjoint viewers film come across quite odd given presented film point view victim rather instigator lead character film always inducing cause cause effect drive criticism credit director delivering approach effective manner film asks questions offers scenario audience ramns position think dream talk consequently dreams lawyer juila rueda much shot audiences pleasure much slight window one mans escapist fantasies predicamentbr br study julia intensifies somewhat later begins share certain similarities ramn begins strokes result disease trait seems timely progression relationship adds ingredient connection top already engaging friendship julia feels physical pain restriction sense able walk think realises value life given emotionally bad felt beforehand film based true story covers subject euthanasia feels earth drama man situation prepared fight wants must verbally refreshing see films sea inside references history gives us insight stand alone film delivers emotional engaging level help trying banned guy fight subreddit game cursed first got nasty first angry well worse final message invites chat says fun banned love game dearly dont want banned image saying rteenagers wont allow post image reason anyone knows show ye tell may contain spoilersbr br dogs go heaven great movie saw two years old understand well saw times started love love songs movie favorite songs let surprised soon come home beautiful songs thing bothers movie charlie dieing little sister even watch part movie wonderful br br favorite part movie annabelle charlie flying around heaven heaven beautiful movie clocks clever love itchy fact dachshunds cute br br overall love movie suggest everyone see give movie stars found morgan subreddit worse imagine filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler ricky gervais alpha af actually offend people enjoy offending mean never give fatality man oh gives right amount fatality snowflake social cues look socializing teenagers hey teenagers ive always struggled socializing social cues never detect whether person wants friend tolerating always either overreach things person comfortable never talk someone may want talk thats im asking movie amazing watched town next one grew went saw buildings story took place overall loved movie one jake gyllenhaals best favorite parts science fair times father sad seemed homer wanted follow dream dad seem care one way another tag line true sometimes one dream bright enough light sky way movie shot impeccable believable recorded s dress accurate slang definitely recommend movie tonight samehi thank reading going die tonight want oh want need thought someone thank taking piece life read mine im tried kill tried haha years clean shit sucks keep telling things better know every day lie past years living take care grandfather mother job full time job taking care spare time home repairs houses im pretty good basically done everything flooring whole bathroom remodels built house bare hands sq ft dream home mother suicidal grandfather die every morning wake go check idea makes smile see father got arrested child pornography couple months ago im thing mother now im dumb two college degrees feel failure try sit think whats next everything want life im terrified losing everything im sad im wanting im perfectly content scares ive looking girlfriend years found one yet never go even though think im ugly cant find anyone using tinder ive tried dating apps nothing money name money goes mother grandfather odd jobs people fixing home plumbing remodels guess call job make much require send tax return thing think im missing someone give love ive wanted girl liked years think tonight night finally lay rest long story whole love life long story last crush knew long got raped wanted stop talking year ago someone im actually happy life better sorry poorly written post much say care write everyone special special im sick livingi want kill mom sisters stop abusing physically emotionally really want kill cant im much pussy nobody knows world least want remembered die never happen want shitty life end take meds harm others harm deep feel nasty person narcissist compassionmonday tried hang bear situation anymore wanted easy way avoid harming people avoid harmed peoplewhen got chair hang reason kill bit mess back chair easily legs shaking much longer control lower body really thought going die really mind case well bad back chair time managed back chair took hell lot muscle strength anywayit deterred trying till today feel miserable nasty need another way end things maybe faster way despicable person feel cant take care myselfthis post probably going messy unorganized thats okay guess first im going years old havent gone college anything work group home live mother lets face caregivers dont paid well go school spending habits car payment prevent im generic abilify generic zoloft along vitamin d feeling stable still bit depressed feel emotionally stable unable perform basic things getting shower pretty hard sometimes dont started room dont brush teeth im gross feel cant take care sometimes wonder belong group home anyways guess thats advice appreciated thank least physically painful way itim pussy im scared pain even tho wan na die shooting tho sounds cause ill probably die feeling pain idk firearm quickly uk make easier others thats hardest thing keeping dont deserve unnecessary pain wish vanish without anyone knowing wan na go never existed girl dont know well yet said thank hung said rlly fun thank good time ive never someone say b girls maybe try one cause thought super sweet made attracted im bored anyone chat title says body text standard title saying come basic karma farm phrase take spotify cakecheese edit thanks free karma second edit saying thx awards third edit saying family member died helped fourth edit apologising meta want tell anyone struggling suicidal thoughts stay us yo fat ass proper job surrender easily change thankful alive hope form bottom heart find joy lifegod bless chapter life alive fucking painful want go sleep never wake uppost history context makin fun omegle im yo antarctica suicidali feel want kill much want live commit die thinking hard question either need brutal honestyso ive come conclusion im leech parasite friends losers change life believe possible hard work effort want change itll take long im goddamn lazy thats truth im drinking rn contemplating hang tonight constantly feel suicidal im sober shit everyday expecting changes need ass bother idk im asking natural selection finest lol redflag kept going past monthsive terrible yearim pretty sure everyone year made promise enough enough dont believe redflag im despair depressed know years time function imma honest yall straight tik tok extremely cringey awkward donei wan na end want take shit ton pills done im tired feeling way im tired people treating dont matter dont im trash im better gone one cares hate every moment spend alive feel miserable human makes lives around miserable ill always miserable matter feel drenched sinks clothes clumps hair together chunks wears bones makes hard move think impacts love nothing life better tried better life work everyone life either hurt way forgive hurt way forgive feel disgusting disgusting person disgusting body disgusting sick brain makes think disgusting sick thoughts people personality disorder attempt suicide successful lot dead even bother vent feel existence misery ask stuff pt end answer dishonestly fuck girls probably gon na downvoted oblivion saw front page afternoon opinion topic pretty much summed lets take pointforpoint ampxb gtgirls always say guys never open fucking tell friends laugh every single girl ive talked eventually open bit moment open tell friends laugh suck thats female thing asshole thing ampxb gtits even fucking worse im trying friends girl think crush im trying know better every girl try become friends thinks interested probably something make think interested teenage girls least experience actually super happy make guy friends often value relationships female friends really sad thats another topic entirely ill try sidetracked ampxb gtthan tell friends fucking laugh fuck gon na laugh shes messaging shes actually interested say fuck gon na send pictures wave n smile even add private story fucking laugh im sorry sound sucks really asshole thing certain extent boys maybe even worse super sweet funny become warm toilet seats highest order around friends ampxb hanging wrong girls honestly assume every girl meet insensitive dirt bag may part issue seriously cant stand waking living shitty life anymorei guess people call schizophrenia thats bad yeah ive isolated geographically relationally point literally see anyone outside immediate family extreme perverted selfhatred every single aspect hate body mind disgusting fucking skin bothers wan na peel fucking skin experience couple moments outside flesh couple people care messaged today literally person replied supposed best friend straight told drugs even said anything problem literally idea going says im dope take care two people one disability enough failed useless piece shit comes still fucking hurts wish programs redflag assistance want sloppy everyone see body freaked im tired pretending better really cant ive plenty chances ive failed every single time wish attention really life one big fucking cringe people want nothing blame fantasize quickly bullet end noise constant battle within head finally even realize dead honestly people always going see junked loser rather high deal people talking shit stay alive others terminally illoutside reddit dont talking feelings im tired told grateful health others arent lucky im basically waste life sometimes feel guilty id give life someone frogs make good shoes question girls height matter always wondered friends never answer need know im pretty tall age todayim positive die hand many bad days understand people go nihilist arbys unfortunate spirit animal nuke inbox legend forever greatful anyone subconsciously internally glorify redflag physical painfor period days lasted two weeks ago found serious sudden physical pain largely call unbearable really sucked worse stay hours simply sleep anymore thank god pain bad unable sleep something happened happened periods intense pain internally imaginationmind glorified redflag escape pain imagined damn nice painlessly end end pain wanted bad idea became palatable subconscious level thank god consciously aware horrible idea permanent solution knew temporary problem phenomenon happened horrible pain ive considered becoming gun owner past actually generally support gun rights fact financial issues reason yet extreme paininduced mood swings makes afraid cant sure done something pain much worse think id nonlethal defense options pepper spray stun gun im horrified another pain flare comes might lose selfcontrol end gun fortunately promise actually suicidal pain largely feel thoughts anymore really concern id love idea abnormal something similar happened bad flareups pain subconsciously involuntarily think redflag palatable relief physical pain even though consciously know anybody wishthey hit car walking somewhere driving hoping truck notice red light hit hopelessi came reddit hoping find others felt share stories vent whats point ill leave app attempts friendship failed getting ghosted know hard hate wish give completely wish afraid die want drop course school effect grade future dad let hard going mental strenuous time need another thing redflag want tell dad want kill another course redflaging convince suicidal school redflaging endno matter hard try nothing end ive put everything left final effort failed never guess im gon na end miserable life soon dog died weeks ago alright part miss found crush girlfriend always home alone bored demotivated sleepy goddamn time work anymore shitty diet weather sucksi know going better bad life go shits quickly sometimes ok know friend going talk something happened today kinda embarrassing im internal battle trying stop saying ngl pretty pog help sub discord server know sub minecraft server might check soon discord server actually c im shaking know feel cold even got blanket cold go away happy one wants meim used ignored rejected thats ive entire life hurt anymore hurts nothing changes girls even look even accidentally trip front always strike conversation strangers shut way bit later conversation shethey decide leave internet send polite message saying chat andno response wrong think im forward desperate obnoxious im average nice guy looking companionship even think im bad looking imagine andrew garfield shorter younger guy thats kinda look likeloosely work everyday physique gymnastagain loosely girls hate kidding see guys less attractive mein opinion attractive girls cant ive years always happy knowing one wants date think redflag die somehow day nowi think mind heard jerk someones photos immune system go stonks better way everyonei unlovable guys need reddit gold time pull classic strategy woman living life complete wasteits waste potential never got explore due failings human waste peoples time precious time spend improving lives unlike person know life works know itd advantageous everyone chose end dont want try anymore im tired fuck world imagine simp couldnt tbe real note im abt pass last post tomorrow turn longer teenager miss greatly goodbye attention hand school begins augest th told id gain weight throughout summer still freaking skinny hate cursed fast metabolism look normal teenage girl makes self harm damn redflaged weight makes want end girl sending mixed signals think need outside input one ive friends girl years recently past year talking constantly weve talking caps months joke often tells misses sending emojis back forth batches sent emoji time calls best friend said snap couple months back looking date seeing im socially inept figured id input outside perspectives want ruin friendship idk shes thoughts looking far year old girl going kill sooner lateri took advils weigh lbs hope kills fucks somehow need catharsis wrote redflag noteim going now least cant leave people love love wrote tore want cant leave im tired sad feeling plastic going highs lows im tired today experienced strange new feeling definitely related relationships currently preparing law entrance exams enter premier law institute country great interest international relations countries conflicts genocides power struggles revolutions along civil wars studying almost hrs day yet anxious nervous worried time always seems enough considering future literally depend upon exam conducted may see one set questions freak start breaking year plan years ba llb hons years job law firm solid background years llm international arbitration law becoming international arbitration lawyer thing knew much scope field today came know person literally goal aim basically dream role model new feeling experienced something sort immense joy gladness almost immediately followed glim fear failure horror fail even single step feeling continuing cycles think going mad thats thank reaching far drugs really coolsedatives really much affect oxyz percs form narcotic even weed guess high tolerance amphetamines good graduated highschool long ago constant contact dealer much car bike bike lives hour away theres really dangerous intersection cross order place im thinking bike eyes closed red light getting hit car highway going speed likely kill hit kill ill least feel something hit score speed currently thing know make life feel worth even little bit seems winwinwin gtg asapi wanted things set affairs order committing redflag birthday couple months think make far yesterday mom yelled told three weeks job move skills motivation cant make ive severely depressed years ive pretty much always lived constant state fear ive tried meds therapy fucking work really want die im scared feel options im worried go hospital mom say im attention seeking lazy brat shell probably gut room rid shit went hospital couple years ago unbearable suicidal kept week helped bit mom upset disappointed id poison bedroom im thinking might walk highway jump front truck parents go bed tonight wanted donate organs people whole body school anatomy got ta fresh mangled wanted avoid traumatizing strangers forcing witness death oh well fucking problem plan dont know im waiting forit sucks waiting around something dont know itll come around plan somewhat feasible imagine hit point needneed shouldnt issue hope future pulling back likemissing past miss annoying loud zero self awareness cringe fuck least happy count finger notches many times ive spoken loud today looking old pictures struck circle dwindled little people people cared dumped maybe shitty friend tendencies reared ugly head ones smart enough fuck away want dont want senior year dont want go university honestly want lie never back exreporter jacob asch eric roberts hired acquaintance raymond j barry find exwife son asch heads palm springs quickly locates ex laine beverly dangelo someone believes son young johnny depp things turn bit complicated asch discovers former white trash laine definitely married form millionaire simon fleischer dan hedaya first son nowhere seenbr br directorwriter matthew chapman channeling body heat mids neonoir watchable enough thanks allstar cast nice locations dangelo still looking good around time makes good femme fatale afraid show skin mystery compelling end costarring dennis lipscomb emily longstreth henry gibson chapman made several thrillers s biggest career achievement coauthoring screenplay infamous color night thought handle horror halloween now awake bed fuck watching haunting hill house till university tuitioni gambled lost im university student dont job im going short upcoming semester dont see way im sorry depressionnot really cry help thoughts depression m depression ego death everytime depressed goal life cant set goals depressed way around forced something somebody friend family ect feel cant let relationships matter probably recently started viewing lookism blackpill narrowed value humans biological sexual attraction cant value humans objective means dosent exist sometimes monster self hate nihilism creeps whole time function normally forced alone care due numbness project bad intentions people around depression ego death order emotions anything need ego construct connects expirieences personhood feel person thus ego depression manifestation ego cant fully expressed society feel matter thats expirience ego rarely trough meditation got moments egolessness pure awerness bliss earth need realize brain job feed information tries construct picture expect outside world feed brain bs worthless brain starts depression way save energy disociate experience depressed move almost winter sleep animals numbness lack comunication sign major dissociation world interact world everything person bad every minor major depressive episode integrated new behaviors either changed belifs behaviors towards something think depression litteraly dying another person new one born obsessive thoughts make sense consciously processing new form body dosent want die really trying kill want something existance whole hate person call ego death best way escape change thinking easier said done try medditation make anything less relevat beautiful time every major problem matter see trickery brain person reality awerenss body mind thing call im getting reddit im sick platform whole im sick people hating republican called karen wearing mask car called nazi supporting trump racist supporting blm shut say anything good cops try defend im sick blows wont online much care anyway wanted say couple things sorry rant think really existnothing feels real cant remember feeling real person actually exist people ignore listen forget time disposable extra peoples lives existing convenient times im fading away world even cutting feels anything anymore im nonexistent see point living fake im real getting worse going keep getting worse ive screwed muchim mid s teacher teaching wanted postcollege job ive love im horrible ive fired multiple schools used think bunch awful principals im fired fifth school finally realize problem ive trained great mentors read books education attended workshops apparently still ill never better thing want im interfering learning students cant classroom anymore theres nothing stomach cant face life without ill find next week ill contract next year dont im ending anyone spend mins putting together serious post delete yeah cant filerrrrrr life falling apartquarantine sucks school come back stress kicking best friend trying help im dragging aswell mum arguing time im starting consider selfharm coping mechanism dont want die im scared longer goes likely something stupid irreversible reviews dead ill cut different chase answer couple questions ive seen herebr br characters seem look young controversy actoractress time obviously barrier usa thats still somewhat controversial simplicity innocence film much offset itbr br im sorry seen sean movie least expressions demonstrative obvious know exactly character feeling whether hes angry afraid confused anicee healthy career whos life cut unfortunately short cancer late beautiful talented actressbr br vhs tapes friends found amazoncom occasionally usually significant price ive seen low high comment two price sequel video paul michelle quite pricey obtained available amazon average moment eveningive suicidal thought almost two years evening thought finances felt giving truck broke last week way repairing make much money live check check theres public transportation shit credit divorce department education took taxes student loans mother still lives addiction father makes enough live thats one help life shit sometimes thanks listening easily frustrated many things examples mindwhen politicians wear masks talk microphone nobody next need relay message stop posturing understand muffleling one going popular bear pleasethat commercial explodes phone speaker everytime pops youtube bad willing bother make profitbella poarch feel fake pretendcute doubt half cute real lifejeff bezos goes space got anything better money helping poor know one trivial thingsand anyways therapist told accept things said think object room bother right well try attitude towards things frustrate angry ventilator corner room angry wind etcshe told concern someone fake interesting true problem bella poarch way simply change even enough money buy plane ticket meet point hating feel makes world worse dislike contribute anything world millionairi think fair cast judgements things bad things good according therapist way accept things peace world way relating things think bad without feeling need reject hate change kind fluidwaterbendingtaichifishinthe stream way beinganyways hear anything say personal experiences anecdotes teachings accepting things think im gon na sit fire weekwhats point life filled filled pain know life might change dont even want feel joy dont want feel anything anymore watched avatar movie shit disappointment immeasurable day ruined fuck actually prefer show promise myselfwhat saved idea redflag without idea redflag surely killed allowed keep living knowing option always sight really without never endured life cioran really hurting loneliness age considering upbringings loneliness makes feel hopeless perhaps social development stunted truly feel less normal person literally worthless uncared unloved really want special person life want impossible becomes knowing pass away quite painlessly makes relaxed felt disgusting loneliness years ago nothings changed im giving years persists make vow right right kill want dreadful life caused either shitty introverted neurotic genes stunted development go sake family hurt sorry imagine death general fear missing anything id already missed believe truly matters meaningful friendships relationships people respect care tomorrow day wake take stimulant medication bed attempt schoolwork hate imagine loser study engineering sleep days reattempt everyday become sociable positive valuable years persists im pulling plug years damn philosophy tube rlly gives chad sexy young teacher vibes daddy please cradle teach marx sex work pray wake upim year old guy college come middle class family dads father abusive alcoholic thus father abused much older brother time fathers child gotten little better used spank sister kids reason sister completely shut someone yells us changed gotten better yell angry never lays finger either us always expect even though point life know cares never anger saw ingrained child hate mothers mother alcoholic well terrible childhood never physically abused mentally broken exgirlfriend emotionally abusive manipulative combination mother live constantly thought everyone always passiveaggressive hate often feel capable loved hate much believe anyone hate nothing makes happy anymore job video games movies lost motivation couple friends tell care quite frankly feel better without feel issues weigh realize much better without nothing live anymore nothing makes happy reason alive feel guilty leave friends sister hate life feel everyone hates mad time everytime go sleep trouble sleeping pray wake hopefully pop tire car flips don know hell read far thanks guess gifts girlfriend christmas hey fellow teens struggling come gifts gf christmas ive already bought records likes cant figure gifts one got recommendations meet girls know gon na lot people saying talk girls school stuff along longs problem im online school cant whats pointim sure common question wan na kill find lack answers depressing everyone rushes wake go work exercise fill time somehow whats point activities useful thought last weeks lottery honestly know buy bunch shit guess go bunch places actual seconds day occupied way many spend luxurious vacation walking around meals used drink make happy good hangovers now sustainable happiness believe anything point world palm hand probably still watch tv want eat fuck sleep thats whats point anymore im ive seen much world think want see see realize want live least care living shit composted recycled keeps getting refined wan na die ive lost live im afraid im gon na scared something impulsive want someone care metime time attached people end always mean nothing hurts much dumb want important people unloveable wrong people around wouldnt care alive dead keep thinking madison holleran stoif deeply depressed external point view young gorgeous successful something fight future deeply depressed external point view nothing disgusting look socially crippled zero appealing nothing fight wish trade give life deserved better many attempts tiktok getting banned us sorry country bruddas fruit womb cursed remains cursedfor long time enthusiastically looked forward day joyously exclaim fruit womb cursed reaps many blessings ive finally come accept fact day simply never come allencompassing peace death brings one blessing least glorious one rpeta shadowbanned want make something explicitly clear way petas message ideology find fault conduct way month ago posted question subreddit wanted know peta supports vegan diets cats dogs even though lead death may seem hard believe given petas reputation truly wanted answers spark discussion instead shadowbanned realised now forgot post even go hot rpeta see post even amongst post days ago pretty suspicious conduct mods part honestly made need rethink view group good people believe good things part peta bad apples spoil bunch thanks reading feel free ask questions serious suicidal plansi always plan courage execute want hurt family afraid failure im facing financial issues think someone talked might killed discord chilling got ping mental health group part someone asked someone talk said dms open started trying help almost whole conversation kept saying best killed last words stopped responding go really nothing really help sorry said kill happened minutes ago offline now im scared might actually done really helping people mental illness much shame seeing kinds people go youre dealing lot mental illness stress depression dms open need someone help please kill know might sound tempting options hope alright dont know anymore story became friends best friends ex girlfriend thinks wan na things genuinely dont threatened saying test keeps threatening swear god fucking break jaw mobile sorry bad formatting think im ready join sisterroses red violets blue sugar sweet perhaps roses wilted violets dead sugar bowls empty wrist stained red sun shining sky clear theres silver lining cause longer rain keeps pouring theres end sight laying frozen far light beautys unreal smile sun time cant turned actions undone words wrote read love much please cry im dead bond formed love ran deep pain shared friend keep wanted hold wipe tears eyes moment said goodbye want forget times dont want let go know wont tears face memories burned head roses wilted violets dead girls compliment guys today got compliment cashier age st checkout mady day even stuff complimenting clothes miracles attitude thought may helpfula good friend showed poem desiderata go placidly amid noise haste remember peace may silence far possible without surrender good terms persons speak truth quietly clearly listen others even dull ignorant story avoid loud aggressive persons vexations spirit compare others may become vain bitter always greater lesser persons enjoy achievements well plans keep interested career humble real possession changing fortunes time exercise caution business affairs world full trickery let blind virtue many persons strive high ideals everywhere life full heroism especially feign affection neither cynical love face aridity disenchantment perennial grass take kindly counsel years gracefully surrendering things youth nurture strength spirit shield sudden misfortune distress dark imaginings many fears born fatigue loneliness beyond wholesome discipline gentle child universe less trees stars right whether clear doubt universe unfolding peace god whatever conceive whatever labors aspirations noisy confusion life keep peace soul sham drudgery broken dreams still beautiful world cheerful strive happy max ehrmann sorry bad formatting ill try fixing problem see mr eastwood glory ie top form actor height physical appeal ladies depicted hardly typical south now young girls boarding school incredibly naive showing signs developing really depraved women geraldine page fullblown corruption hardly represents mean comes head mistresses girls schools either now say occasional bad apple barrel mr eastwood said one two favorite filmsbr br beguiled original plot lot attractive characters many surprises store viewer thoroughly engrossing entertaining really realistic know grown south attended girls school college moreover acquainted innumerable girls mention laidback teachers might even say repressed professors far cry headmistress depicted downright comical depiction southern gentle woman quite seemsbr br movie little outrageous first appeared still think sorry spent time watching day reminding drink water forgetget life drink water dont die dehydration im tiredim tired life im tired alone im tired horrible world want end today mom told family wants house aggression towards people pretty much made go anti depressants wanted live hated final straw mom got argument told behaviour embrassing use aggression cope situations shameful told fuck tried going counselling work know anymore think officially hit rock bottem im going hang myselfim going hang graduating useless ba biology think ill medical school real friends money aspirations shut theres point wasting everyones time money im saying goodbye everyone goodbye follow nothing said help think might jump bell tower instead really want end everything now ive deserted people around theres nothing change situation besides becoming millionaire day recommending songs rteenagers httpsyoutubeerhxkxm day far extremely dense somber complicated film unravels quite slowly revealing excruciating detail attention paid novel watching film watching novel unfold care narrator felt balance rest performances film features best ensemble acting seen lead summer phoenix fabulous innocence naivete might find implausible sort cross cinderella alice wonderland buy critique still fabulous partially unlike anything ive seen beforebr br film unbelievably beautiful filmed eric gautier part unique film show expect always surprising despite length film never reveals needs minutes extremely concise fault id say one wonders film filled brief moments simply stunning best likely see year moments add end extraordinary film experience family moments unique ian holm brilliant film say theater seen films cassavetes opening night perhaps chaplins limelight believe film much less conventional never knew film going now seen still multiple possibilities powerful incredibly provocative film feel music strangers love know rules full commitments im thinking guy wan na tell im feeling got ta make understand never gon na give never gon na let never gon na run around desert never gon na make cry never gon na say goodbye never gon na tell lie hurt weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game gon na play ask im feeling tell blind see never gon na give never gon na let never gon na run around desert never gon na make cry never gon na say goodbye never gon na tell sorryim done sorry deactivated social media stuff thats left hanging around whenim gone andi told friends sorry cause probably make sad see end universe pretty bad brain fog symptoms havealways feeling extremely stupid confusing two things time eg words trouble articulate form sentences bad logical thinking wetting bed almost night trouble learn concentrate feeling tired forgetfulness eg remembering something long ago slow processing oh boy list goes oni worried work life thiscan anyone relate experience wanted know lasts forever symptom goes away definitely depression brain fog im monsteri ruined everything birth catalyst unplanned horrific event father never cared elementary middle school ugly stupid deserved called names front whole class messy deserved heart broken dive deep depression deserved hurt make others care deserved used thinking smart dumped older guys online fall stepped ruined life dating horrible person letting break think smart deserved assaulted one deserves im exception something horribly disgustingly wrong got got meet amazing person disrespect make feel small im stupid im broken damaged dragged someone keeps going im annoying person suicidal relationship im annoying attention seeker ruin life ruin others real reasons wan na stop ruining things wan na stop disgusting horrifying sickly beast wan na go care theres heaven hell disappear cant ruin everything anymore executed need execute need one right thing know even wouldnt right everything feels fine fine enoughits first post reddit hopefully im right english native language ive struggled depression whole life irregular way im constantly switching feeling super fine feeling depressed suicidal long period time months year last depressive episode occured winter lot going life dropped classes lost boyfriend live dads toxic environment lot handle take months ive started considering healed fine im meds anymore im lot stuff seing lot friends travelling started working freelance artist living city deeply love passionate even crush someone seems interested im super active getting stuff done everything honestly first time good episode feels great im pretty optimistic positive general yet feel fine enough still constant suicidal thoughts im unhappy im happy either feels great feel theres point reason wanting end feel grateful feel good enough motivation keep going often find thinking accident matter mind ill glad act thoughts im rational actually logical reason keep wondering ideas actually go away someday feel im missing survival instinct somehow anybody relate feeling share experience recovering depression go away content situation hell wrong meso basically scrolling subreddit days now reading peoples posts one thing common mental illnesses diagnosed anything yet somehow every time angry upset mind resorts death redflag self harm idea whats happening many opportunities commit redflag missed end concluded wouldnt nice family go losing one sons chickened instead thought stabbing knife left hand cant anymore self harmed nothing extreme aforementioned knife hand mum noticed cuts sat talk feel awkward shyed away telling truth multiple times back main topic noticed posts subreddit made people legitimate reasons actions feel belong psychopathic making post ask help advice hell wrong fix messed brain side note last night cried sleep brain made imagine seeing brother die slitting wrists bath tub horrible weird relationship brother bullies hate matter happens always best help anyway rant please help identify fuck wrong sorry making read lame attempt describing life cicadas northeast bros ready year cicada season sleep supposed excited big company shit thinking much making want kill put lot work year better sending entire strides back depression worried wake time choose gothat going go cry sleep cuz anything say stupid stupid issue need already wasted enough time anxious know sleep someone please make end soon start new job hours ive watched movie twice plan see movie puts directors place regarding romantic relations political situation israel makes cry remembering wonderful time horrible murder described really worth watching th last rko falcon film starts mutual injunction tom conway tom lawrence alias falcon ed brophy goldie dames whilst prepare go vacation still wondering theyre going vacation job beginning st film sanders gay though jenkins goldie bump woman dragged seedy industrial espionage caperbr br promise help uncle murdered taking envelope containing details formula make substitute industrial diamonds business colleague miami suspect everyone except cops lawrence goldie murder console goldie keeps paraphrasing travel brochures coldest day always enjoy warmth nice cosy electric chair one nice languid atmospheric nightclub scenes rub shoulders especially bad behaviour baddies favourite bit dignified game hide seekhunt thimble imperturbable suave lawrence baddies sleeper train least favourite bit embarrassing scene entire series alligator wrestling hut definitely thrown kidsbr br best series yet another entertaining outing overall satisfying plot many episodes even make wish gone years columbia boston blackie although rko churning faster absolutely sex much violence fact none todays high standards notredflagly message make type film anathema serious people regard movies art form must depend three pillarsbr br three diet falcons made later john calvert title role mind never bring count main series tom conway made time sad downhill conway moved tv voice overs even played norman conquest park plaza rather well developed serious eye alcohol problems know linked wound poverty stricken spell hospital found dead girlfriends bed us folk want least still entertaining falcons plus number worthy even classic rko movies remember went sleep depressed woke depressedthe first time thought redflag mom whipped across back one day star encrusted belt ive beat really young think around th grade beating sat daze felt island surrounded unwanted found butter knife room started stabbing lol imagine trying kill self butter knife anyways fast forward im everyone thinks im happy wish never born hate loneliness feel everyday every serious relationship ive cheated never knew dad mom life person really sat said loved sincerely grandmother shes gone im crying hard im going stop forum now yall please pray every week think ending living flesh hate soon think depressions gone comes back hunt much wrong happened want know cant find somebody love damn sure love never try wrong hurt karma achived b want end iti really never amount anything let die best way commit redflagi really hope everyone life right including pets know much mean cant see going longer alone depressed anxious nothing brings reliefim prime life means beyond neglected hitting puberty teen rejected high school bullied college finding job something losing job losing family institutionalized going rehab system beyond new job changed routines sought help im right things im highfunctioning say show temporary problem demographics irrelevant something outgrow problem inherent within regardless whats happening matter im existed isolation entire life anxiety depression ensure ive seen councilors ive seen psychologists ive hospitalizedinstitutionalized occasions ive monitored group therapy ive ect im taking prescriptions im seeing psychiatrist practice mindfulness remind drink water force moderate amount exercise every day hate feeding graze healthy food eat things prop enough hold job rent apartment keep alive everything consume wasted dragging life many years im incredibly tired family smiles pretends im making two friends sick hearing bring anymore easier keep friend show interest twice month without mentioning anything attracted someone makes suicidal always unfortunately im asexual situation arises every day work online whenever go know close someone tried never beneficial either party closer extreme anxiety becomes overwhelming unsustainable break scare relationship ends begins tried trying help ive gotten feel guilty still feeling way right im wondering im trying suppress natural im fighting body telling want exist life death meaningless know im asking sorry bitching least internet now best friend tried kill yesterday know doim shaking right now im angry scared barely type yesterday best friend left home without telling anyone rode train nearby city seashore tell anybody pm nobody suspected anything thought walking around city come back home later phone way contact tendency panic immediately assumed worst mom went police report missing pm hours later found aforementioned seaside city today knew called finally picked relieved hear voice almost cried told whatd happened turns parents really bad agrument decided much took without telling anybody drank way much alcohol threw sea couple found unconscious beach body temp c called ambulance hes staying hospital friday talked phone said must tell anybody real reason hed went missing anybody asks im supposed tell ran away needed break know seems wrong keep information secret although hes safe now know attempt im really fucking scared told terrified friends family know ive never deal sensitive situation worst thing absolutely warning signs hed depressed talked school monday show unhappiness generally seemed fine overall pretty positive person sure sometimes got angry apparently reason never talked situation house relations parents whole ordeal surreal nearly lost friend im shivering writing sorry long post needed vent somebody throwaway obvious reasons lot easier give upall push ive pushing pushing keep trying find happiness gets shut every time thing makes happiest im helping people see joy eyes anything big small take care passions hobbies goals calligraphy love music great passion coding im good still pushing nothing brings happiness much weight actions directed towards helping people losing luster anything anymore things others see joy rush means stop finding ways make people happy find way make happy want redflag easier finally look interests interest ignore supposed change wrong according society looking interests cant selfish killing selfish cant everyone selfish everyone looks best interests mind best path end care anyone thinks justified mind justify anyone joy anything im supposed look everyone wrong seriously tell wrong makes sense something makes sense destroy people yes theyve done care cop cowardly move tell owe others owe anyone anything besides living owe people way live fucking sad every day feels eternity pain know help seems difficult pointless felt long time self harmed attempted suicide teenager love sons father live gaslights tells never love allow talk one great job quit bc felt going drive car river way work one day lost alone want genuine human connection history trauma makes impossible end rope know want kill bc children love feeling isolated alone misunderstood eating away insides sad recently believe everyone better black hole within im girl female gender needed share important television show watched s child captivated many years passed often thought show good watch mindful things past always good remember great show s lost nothing even sure odd production mistakes see watching old shows takes couple episodes used dubbed voices done captivated back s samurai played koichi ose plays role humble manner remember s due popularity show australia toured performing sword play etc overwhelmed interest show great one time favourite shows still held magic childhood must see series basically trying imply head deserved raped fault wrote last month pretty decent thought better life looking today really really shitty day sitting right mental break sobbing shaking reminded pathetic hopeless really reminded useless wasted space really fking stupid believe thing finally getting better coming back bite overwhelm sense hopelessness suicidal thought coming back want live anymore life never better never going better matter hard try hope future remember still alive stop fking idiot believing bullshiit die need alive f chat bois playing warzone kills well thought match finally win nope soon find last player lag die f abuse workplace seems everyone says oh baby theres nothing wrong actually one women tell husbands behavior completely normal everyone acts floored know one person goes shit work acts wtf want brush one gives shit new font yo fonts boring sad tonight take life handsi little say alot say last time remember happy three weeks ago cuddling somebody thought cared passions evaporated past years hope self actualization disappearing adult always close grandma dad deadbeat piece shit never around grandfather dead death albeit close cousins mom part died past year improved much joined wonderful fraternity excelled uni got ideal weight cleaned diet hell started dating stopped lost virginity found attractive etc everything seemed fucking great first breakup happened realized empty without relationships cue meaningless sex realizing sex fucking worthless without affection got back uni well far lost weight shit hit fan started dating girl seemed wonderful cared told promiscuous past behind sex good told next date night spent cuddling really care much wanted sex needed experience slept understandably hurt mofo really liked though ive breakups actualy loved person frustrated prospect relationship thing enjoyed gone ehhh field enjoy enough really happy recently ive undergone bulemic behavior time spent losing weight changing lifestyle healthy gone feels everything shambles rambling one thing another bulemia straw thats breaking camels back eating simultaneously thing makes feel good makes feel horrible mentally physically went store tonight rd pint ice cream nobody smiled nobody said hi none brothers time talk ive noose closet pup miss love little self tonight take life hands end ampxb titles reference favorite russian poem lermontov want livei lost friends cycle depression negative thoughts tommorow day gone im fucked im crying rn ive got test test tomorrow im good subject rn im scared wont pass push people awayand keep hurting others kind life hope rot early grave deserve absolutely nothing life everything receive blindly given people understand feel cant tell know explain severity one talk even work push away im lowest scum earth someone please shoot ending paini lost appointment mental health clinic next week know make panic attacks last months last week became painful fainted street morning walking girlfriend idea never waned tell together short period time months cant imagine life without probably reason typing right now father paranoid schizophrenia left slept street crushed friends couches occasionally year moved another country left sister mother provide take care felt good focused finally paid needed lost everything home come back solitary killing every day job hardest one world work sort programmer make good buck cant function work panic attacks feel anxious cant concentrate stopped eating feel hungry anymore felt good providing family mother sister need anymore place anymore wasting everyones time oxygen girlfriend mentioned earlier beautiful creature world weeks ago found drug addict pills whatnot actually mentioned casually text message panic disorder got point scream night want rip skin know go fired using antidepresives therapy appointment probably canceled confront two possibilities end scenario shit fucking worse something stupid tells fuck deal tells stop know work way wont stop upon father creating shitload legal problems everyone related including living abroad go embassy month report bring lawyer deal shit well edit feel bad know might seem overreacting spent entire life dealing peoples problems solving peoples problems colecting mine boxing way cant handle anymore much story hurths tried talk people every time lost person forever dont talk lose people dont talk share things cant handle judge hear fucked bed find remote didnt find im stuck bed cant fix remote cant find terrible morning edit fucking fat cat got stuck upon entering room exploring new bed edit somehow got fatass unstuck left room without noticing appalledhave thoght none relations health think girls dont date nice guys wont date actually likely personality every dude ive met wahh women date chads mentality personality theyre funny theyre interesting defining attributes theyre actually nice women dont nice guys dudes actually charismatic enjoyable around shower nostalgia always best reason watch movie often movies loved kid disappoint adult exceptions rule hard justify owning dvd krull regardless many insightful directors commentary may stay sharp gen xyers dozens disappointments dominating trip memory lane might stop stumbling across one worth revisitingbr br one surprise film worth another look joel schumachers flatliners supernatural thriller starring s popcorn heavyweights keifer sutherland kevin bacon julia roberts billy baldwin think stew comprised cast flamboyant flair schumacher ber slick eye cinematographer jan de bont result something sickeningly stodgy calories aside flatliners aint half bad even though production design inexplicably overthetop photography achingly stylized replete neon soaked streets spewing endless billows steam flatliners still manages effectively dark compelling thriller theres explanation flatliners forgotten might saw release another far superior supernatural thriller jacobs ladderbr br flatliners released year two jacobs ladder likely schumachers flashy thriller dismissed toned commercialized ripoff adrian lynes nightmarish masterpiece films released year flatliners enjoyed different fate tripling jls take box office despite watered version similar premise passage time kind flatliners lost atop dated heap throwaway s brat pack dreck jl cemented reputation timeless classic fates aside jl seamlessly terrifying manages keep audiences guessing right last frame whereas flatliners falls victim simplification hollywood conveniences drag final act predictably tidy denouement comparisons two movies unfair ultimately overlooks flatliners ability represent s quintessential best released end decade shallow excess flatliners always dated hairstyles clothing styles fairness remembered well executed movie least near top particular heap dreck intents purposes entertaining walk memory lane trapped headim year old guy im failing literally classes cant even find motivation check school emails let alone actually go school entire family disappointed sucks siblings successful smart im nothing dreams motivation future even thinking future makes sad got diagnosed schizophrenia year half ago feel ruined life feel lost alone fucking nobody understands ive tried support friends good experiences longer try nothing except mental illness anger doubt ill able successful judging unstable last years mean cant even tell whats real much useless wish someone talk understands everything therapy psychologists make feel even worse feel theyre testing digging around brain invasive hate family friends never understand nobody even feel repost guess want someone talk principle accidentally called dad lol opened door said go dad kinda awkward wherefore mine pp hard wherefore mine pp hard wast nothing wast sitting thre nothing joke previous post ok intending racist want shed light done past never said justifies cops actions heard people public hes completely innocent man bills even proven counterfeit done many past im intending racist never thought people react im sorry latinos latinas people wjo speak spanish yeah spanish speakers know keep living anymore die happyi posted rdepression aswell im depressed im always strong immunodeficiency made fail school everything always looked ill everyone school looked bullied fine kept living till im now got girlfriend even work fine everything seemed okay always everything fine girlfriend suddenly problems boss work weeks vacation called said wants fire never said anything far good came work almost everyone work started bullying aswell said things doesnt work chills handy hes lazy place time quit much several month later still everything fine girlfriend found another workplace week practical training everyone nice really loved work yesterday got confirmation accept start working finally got new job awesome aswell seems life suck girlfriend broke years dont even know never told anything said hey dont love anymore cant anymore much plans even lived together went school long distance relationship first moved parents house feel lonely shit honestly dont want live anymore dont know important thing life alone well thats gone nowi cant enjoy anything without thing think right dying even want help im hopeless without p actually leave p still work working hard spent money failed driving test idea retaking gives panic attack started learning drive years ago okay got driving instructor time learning lookig phone never point problems felt rather confident finally try license country first pass test instructor official institution third november nut back bois hope read new enjoy torture knowing nutted fools refraining see ya tomorrow need motivation havent suicidal thoughts probably years lately ive feeling bored life sad nowhere last week almost started cutting stopped need people talk people think garbage garbage let take day posting nonamusing fact laid fact ended trimming nails half length yesterday filed wrong fml asking doin forget math test know shit day horrible doin strong urge go woods let nature way mei guess feel deserve homeless work rely others support reason absolute loneliness finishing life secluded deep woods somewhere appealing anybody hate waking every time wake im yelled pulled bed something want keep dreaming playing soccer rick climbing whatever dream time selfie trend starts see twice many comments girl photos guys say simping poki says optimal fill make visible bruh war reposters look anyone tries gain karma reposting subreddit google try think full people judged comment karma karma decides real redditor person discussions funny original uraghavw earning karma whore today probably worst pandemic tons problems everything working wanted appreciated holding tears back hear tell worthless stuff bruh done ton stuff whenever take day one freaking day talk shit done single thing whole life come gained confidence passion things used come tell worthless tired worry guys thought crossed mind couple times want want vent seems share problems useless burden people head sleep hopefully tomorrow lil bit better today gt broke longer interested howth pierive redflag plan longer id admit fantasize lot whenever im struggling whatever reason conceive throwing sea always head cold grey sea cold grey sky im pier moment im crashing water dissipate foam cant swim honest think impossible survive mind lot recently think im fair bit closer point realise f anyone wan na talkkkk talk hehe im horny n need help pls thank prc lowest low actually struck gold moody little thriller thing year earlier detour probably one finest lowbudget films madebr br strangler basically one set film filled mist shadows technique used poverty row studios hide sets lack thereof works well ghost charles middleton better known ming merciless lurches around swamp killing involved wrongful execution murder generates sympathy viewer final victim daughter ferrymanhe concentrates wrath directly involved fate relatives wellbr br rosemary laplanche usual imitation someone coma passes acting style offers strangler order put stop killing sop audience strangler sees goodness gesture sign mission complete returns hereafter somewhat chastened ulmerwho directed detour directed strangler hanging nearest tree stranglers job done whos complaining story major attraction shrouded sets lighting general moodiness piece stands right behind detour prcs finest hour heyyf anyone wan na chat took massive break im back nowanyone bored thought okaydoes truly better swear everything feels okay something happens im trying hard good hearted strong person getting tiring liked house dracula much house frankenstein carradine much passable acting ridiculous overboard hof actors deliver solid enough performances subplots eg monster village mobsters village idiot hunchback nurse etc mixed well none becomes odd splinter hof better run stitchedtogether hof hunchback nurse likable hunchback hof doctor good well lon chaney adds classy touch wolfman worth watching twice classic universal horror typical s long lost flair especially good doctors performance beforeafter blood contaminated draculas found smash ultimate cartridge lost weeks ago im happy boi filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler reposting good appointmentsomeone still downvoting repost got back psychiatrist gone better thought talked openly pa drinking said medicine stops cravings makes sick ingest alcohol said really need cravings strong resist happy todaysaid nice bright eyed positive yeah feel pretty darned good thank friends redflagwatch great community found support appreciate greatly sisters brothers suffering please accept gentle hug know anyone needs contact anytime know feels bottom dark deep pit looking see blackness thereand back tomorrow know right feeling better focus let tomorrow take care thanks friends hope better day lg wan na make money fucking choices people speak dont think adult bad cant worse things tbh cant wait whatever shit want doill still make sure make sense lol cant rn know im parents control teach classmates survival fittest bring shiv school every day everyone around wearing shirt wearing long sleeved shirts hoodies way hide permanent scars left right arm much well across arms look lunatic wearing hoodies long sleeved shirt fact school well help hope summer ends fast hate summer caricatures andor references entertainment industry people things even brands products usually staple shorts one used quantity individual gags rather generic im going give examples spoilers br br three well technically fourtheres quick one end cartoon caricatures spotted kind low type short though one featured character fair amount activity jack benny jack bunny leopold stowkowski inimitable ned sparks crab canchances good crab involved warner brothers short ss caricature used ned sparks references billy roses aquacade riff radio show character called henry aldrich coming mother play superman superguy villain takeoff king kong thats kind gagbr br products mostly generic gags plays basic items unusual situations turtles coming cans soup attack villain tanks tomato soup cans cancan gingerbread men turn paratroopers using tissues parachutes gags good excellent example bob clampett cartoon clampett hit stride director point anywhere near best work nothing sneeze either short found looney tunes golden collection vol excellent set highly recommend short recommended sub icon changed used male female snoo changed female one due thing happening right something br br human body wowbr br sunrises human lifebr br hardly one thousand sunrises watched humans planetbr br days limitedbr br excellent movie women makers human bodybr br thanks regardsbr br yayyy another pedo messaged audacity lie age call cute call weirdo rejected fuck shit im tryna nice help accidentally overhead conversation parents discussing weather masturbate feel soo embarrassed hope catch feel stressedi feel alone surrounded many people feel incredibly insufficient hard work go waste feel unable manage stress anxiety leads able enjoy day even ive done lots work sure ill able anything correctly want break cry waste time feel im constantly wasting time hard time focusing cant best anymore now everything feel live everyone around feelings dont feel good constantly feel mix frustration emptiness even know im feeling help pleasei wan na end make family angry accidentally hurt gf im dull emotional issues feel isnt worth anymore im barely take care feel useless try better smashing head brick wall point want end dont know ill keep hurting ones love even im trying help dad hates moms different province live brother make life difficult kids dont see worth anymore harm good mods suck tried host ask anything cyber security ethical hacking teens started ethical hacking clearing basic doubts started obviously got removed mods asked mail formal request asked wait days days reply god plans ungrateful ass recognize ignorant way thank god everything still threw away girl universe kept sending signs meant meengineering interested ego allow getting along people rest history even signs universe still sleep smoke life means nothing tried comitt redflag smoking cigarettes abdomen hurts getting muscle twitches body much lost know cant focus studies focus people head time trying listen universe tell something 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feels world left behind lost everything past couple days id street friend letting stay thankful lost companionmy best friend mental illness guess got tired everyone doesi felt finally making progress lost ready go ready embrace peace comfort leaving flesh prison freeing spent time things everyone maybe id fighting chance tired ready go meant support outlived purpose serve statistic reminder always pay attention make sure heard nobody speak lost fight mean late make final wish come true tell someone find shoes seriously depressed lonely day mine pretty great got snow day please wake upthis cant real doesnt feel reality anymore please make stop please cant real please im scared die please ps forgot mention know put back goes parents big houses live room small apartment one brothers lived nd house parents left last year fixing completely mess spend lot money make habitable planing move christmas put hold thesis focus said plenty times apartment big issue small moved parents nd house great improvement relationship life much lorazepam hydroxyzine needed die peavefullt live loke thks amymlre dad keeps saying dead really suicidal allmy fault help im planning take life coming birthdaymy birthday coming week end year end life ive asked go therapy multiple times everyone keeps saying need one cant control thoughts anxiety kills idk wtf many years dealing shit im tired drinking blacking crying fighting boyfriend every day past week two think easier less painful leave drinking working feelings make way black another reason wake feeling shit afford mental hospital stay idk let know works remember past two weeks got advice boyfriendso girlfriend depression started datingweve together years now might inherited part dad last almost year gotten really bad anorexic really thin months getting bit normal alot therapy etc depression rolled mug around corner full blast told last tuesday extremely suicidal asked sleepover adviced therapist kill home aloneher mother stayed home hearing btw sister heard got cancer friday girlfriend said really wanted kill tonight felt really guilty sister cancer called mom go theyre calling help everythingshe already therapy planned morning question knowing already getting help boyfriend help glad told told immediate threat dealing long needed tell someone know tell parents made worse minor luckily already capable making choices alone even parents wishes looking getting medication help psychologist course really hope helps really needed tell someone nobody real life fit category thanks letting rant finally told psychologist dealing thoughts thing holding back happen dieim afraid death redflag thing holding back happen jump punished taking life god sleeping ive thinking months still cant settle answer reason live parents terrible figures traumatized born dad delusional raging alcoholic jumps opportunity break dishes humiliate us eyes neighbors one time brought bottle superglue aampc project accused mother poisoning food mother submissive overdramatic woman may sound unfair mother seeing victim side parent fight begging pleading forgiveness bawling eyes verbally assaulted one traumatizing sights think given school social life friends talk anyone even though grades pretty good abandoned group friends online friends shared lot issues even though extremely loyal great friends snapped said sorts things cant bring face anymore even im sure theyll take back instantly mad anyone tries talk seconds im frustrated lack emotion constant anger occasional sadness know english th language far better mother tongue talked aforementioned group friends never compatriots meaningful future due abysmal social skills know kind replies want post im really posting vent thank reading normal yesterday full breakdown involved smearing blood cuts hands face say hour looking self wondering fuck done ive done lot smaller time smothered wow ur pretty pretty fuckin cool ahaha dont crack keep goingim ready give life shit full pain suffering wish courage actually go thru maybe someday soon find hurts read posts know satisfying fantasy ships sailing thru clouds cannons evil plotters strange landscapes manipulations time great sets void reality maybe never ending story merlin stuff love christine taylor beautiful sword fighting phoney music delightful good wins kiss well cook pleased never supposed alive tldr parents never wanted feel reason anymore even stay feel life continue shit storm dont see theres hope people come world unwanted everything hard everyday felt battle even consciously aware living one nothing goes right matter hard try supposed way youre supposed miserable years theres supposed peace somewhere within know misery father even told recently mom hospital dying never supposed alive parents abusive extremely abusive relationship stress literally kills thats dying stress life dad ultimately put cause death mom never wanted shes abortions maybe knows point dad forced nerve even show hospital sign birth certificate wrong many levels youve got sick fuck order something incomprehensible guess thats feel stuck lost now come something supposed rest life mainly feel cursed love one best parts alive ill never experience family loving whats point theres romantic love thats really built love comes family wont exist either dont know life never wanted anyone first place everything feels vacant painful thoughts redflagit feels im clawing sort meaning none keep telling end already selfish know feel im spiraling control tried getting help got list numbers im reluctant call need help know find guys leave redflag noteleaving one note everyone really explain everything different people life different things want say ive thinking leaving several notes sending people letter last day nword stats survey made quick survey nword usage take minute take survey httpsformsglesjtbvrsrjxcdehttpsformsglesjtbvrsrjxcde ampxb edit fucked one questions guess ill roll started writing note amp made playlist last night thoughts say narcissist want help one want die pills think oh birthday days hate parents expect big thing top best friend pretty ambiguous coming wan na move away honestly kill somehow feel embarrasseguilty even think literally whole world crises heres thing ive never birthday person alright friends guess every year sister whole big thing celebrates today likes make big deal call friends parents expect mean wrong im introverted person hang friends treating birthday accomplishment thing im tired peoplemy family judging main topic th birthday tried celebrate want later day heard sibling telling parents doesnt wan na celebrate friends kidding loved friends wanted whole thing even came house even dragged awkward family dinner protested decided ill treat birthdays accomplishment years move away im top ive heard mother saying multiple times go stuff starting year made motto least go friends twice week trend sister started pathetic hate days move fuckin corona kind excited see friends heres thing guy consider say best friend ambiguous coming even tho pretty much everyone agreed dont wan na celebrate without guy whole hate social obligation celebrating id love hangout friends everything huge mess want next week disappear somehow feel bad small problem feel guilty even thinking literally half world going second crisis top corona honestly thanks made post sorry bad english first language point might think tf wrong yeah really hope happens hate every human especially family forcing live hope meteor hits destroys whole earth kill us guys hug pillow pretending someone love time want know im one kinda wan na peace outnothing feels worth wan na sleep summer school starts cant kinda wan na life feels pointless bored someone talk plzzz ill talk literally anything mean nerd something want ill talk currently watching show american frontiersmen got part theres war mexico interesting going go vr chat date mcdonalds boy kid discord talk lot recently dmd wanted go mcdonalds vr chat said yeah even got another person recently said theyd cashier stuff th brithday want die seriously feel horrible atm feel ive missed lot teenage hood omg think yr old always relaxed cause knew time still dont im ready adult hood omg bio age far years less current age think changing age legally year help im ready keep thinking im almost want throw want die innocence youth never come back world cruel crying almost hour know cope aging funny cause younger thought im grown old always hated aging now really late cant teen anymore im miserable id anything even anything prayed lot god maybe one day woke older body know anymore take little time vote pole thx advance nearly groomed got lucky private school th grade somethings lasted year im guy btw proof happens girls didnt want use account post need minimum karma rip account guess happened homeroom teacher asked take walk recess one day dont remember much talked tbh remember becoming frequent asked personal life things going well told nothing life teacher got hired year recall lot people didnt know slowly stop hanging around everyone age start hanging around got point meet remember one time trying see point using different fingers example using pinky point really dumb kid got point used middle finger someone didnt know instead getting trouble teacher showed favouritism didnt punish anything student teacher theyd probably give detention time something anyways got point depended lot things said dont remember much remember feel try remember creepy remember telling wife one point though something teachers didnt even know point getting dangerous territory especially bit part school program told go near teachers point kinda followed anywhere looking back didnt want teachers knowing followed guess anyways things didnt really escalate caught another teacher fill blanks feel sick thinking pc teacher ran school programs charge lot clubs worst part didnt even seem creepy wonder happens school caughts send letter parents anyways teacher got fired soon found didnt teach anything entire year school ahead curriculum though still got go next year one worst parts atleast teacher seeing happening didnt anything kinda hate allowing go far really sheltered kid growing teacher caught teacher teacher talked remember leaving school guy always talking remember guy caught blonde girl year two older always following really took way long figure going never told anyone probably wont theres probably parents reading look see kid trouble comment title post one posts comments filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler auto moderator filler another rant school mean guess elementary middle school important fuck whoever invented high school cuz taught really advanced ways cheat fart silently everytime make mins feel hours work cheetos monster considering redflag chronic pain headachesi daily headaches neck pain despite seeing multiple doctors ive gotten relief im years old life garbage even want go anymore cant play sports love activities enjoy wretched disorder study study study try think pain yall trust parents emotional stuff personally try keep everything away mom turns bad hmm right compare tiffani thiessen markpaul gosselaars post saved bell acting course right ridiculous right give movie rating hahahahahaha thats funny movie horrible though better expected madefortv movies often similar many feel one feel worked even though yet another tortured wife whos got ta bstard end story started envisioned ms thiessen vixen type seductress innocent kelly kapowski refreshing eric close surprised playing part really well decent writing director got pretty good convincing performance without cheesy somewhat interesting definitely better tv movies grade b im scared redflag want commit redflagi fear death knives intrusive thoughts im suicidal thoughts paris place enjoy beautiful art music fall madly love case film boy meets girl fall love something stands way eternal happiness classic storybr br wonderful music george gerschwin complements great dancing gene kelly leslie caron american paris humorous lighthearted loving film well worth watchingbr br br br michael winner probably best known revengethemed films death wish chatos land equally gifted director occult horror cinema sentinel proves sentinel based novel john konvitz wrote screenplay clever immensely creepy religious chiller lover occult horror consider missing film obviously inspired successful occult classics rosemarys baby exorcist omen far concerned easily unsettling widely acclaimed films probably even creepierbr br allison parker christina raines beautiful young new york model traumatized events past yet willing marry lawyer boyfriend chris sarandon allison search apartment finds big incredibly nice one affordable old mansion brooklyn new apartment comes along bunch strange tenants sinister new neighbors soon become little bothersome alice may adequate plot synopsis hate spoil films great moments give plot description say sentinel creepy effective film profits great cast well often bizarre constantly uncanny atmosphere fact director michael winner writer john konnvitz acted producers certainly influence outcome film imaginatively photographed eerie old brooklyn mansion fantastic setting kind film mentioned atmosphere obscure creepy film includes several shockmoments genuine scares film features many sinister eccentric characters cast superb beautiful christina raines great role allison parker lovable yet cusp losing mind chris sarandon good boyfriend successful lawyer supporting cast includes many big names christopher walken jeff goldblum jerry orbach beverly dangelo tom berenger becoming really famous cast includes stars ava gardner horror icon john carradine burgess meredith personal favorite great eli wallach cynical homicide detective ive great fan director michael winner long time mostly films death wish chatos land sentinel yet another great film winners repertoire proof man master hardboiled revengecinema atmospheric occult horror sentinel creepy intelligent amazingly bizarre occult chiller highly recommended horror fans yo anyone still go pediatrician cause idk switch doctor feel weird going feel evrytime start feel good voice head sounds bitch fucking worthless delusional nobody loves give stop trying anybody love hideous fucking kill nothing know know brain cunt lying said believe sometimes anytime something important brain fights tell even bother going fail goes always long remember ill go silent become really obedient clean nothing really beat person feel bug bottom shoe hate essence existence burning raging fire hate eat want sleep stay night take cat naps day want anything time really want much life feel bit place know depression adhd honestly go live woods rock flippen great feel clown entire existence cosmic joke mistake inner voice bitch f always talk cock ball torture never want talk clit labia torture feel girls lost nnn without even realising fffff time flew fast know november around corner already aiming go peaceful route year lost within first hours st november im going die im awful failure cant improvethis first time reddit sorry mess things think supposed use throwaway account stuff reference im nearly turning want turn im bad person ive failure today day failed one thing want fail year failed everything imaginable used student yet somehow im getting fs now ive gained lot weight worked moved year today lost friends lot online friends ive removed today made best friend hate ones believed ones today stopped friends ones felt comfortable venting around wanted return theyve dealing mental health stuffthey used vent stopped couple days ago started venting listened asked keep going pushed far hate thought blocked email started vent think see thought blocked didnt talked wished still friends felt lonely guilty talked little wanting die said hated asked want fail friend thing want fail yet failed haete now ones left care family feel enough want live anymore thing stopping im sure die yet think figure want friends anymore ill hurt think improve wouldve point recognize everything ive failure yet gotten worse year cant vent anyone anymore im completely alone except family even though care cant trust anymore im going die turn im failure every way imagineable now im even sure im writing know cant helped genuinely want die now im awful playing animal crossing watering plants ive come far im sure want go furtherive struggling depression years maybe longer hard childhood rough young adulthood past decade completed college found supportive loving partner started making strides toward health recovery finally found therapist ive seen many feel helping found psychiatrist feel understands need ive successfully medicated year real setbacks long periods deep depression ive made huge strides managing anxiety disordered eating past years everything seemed getting better therapy hard ive facing lot old trauma overall feeling hopeful things around job improving well recently got nice raise good feedback performance ive focusing making art ive getting better liking myselfbeing kind still feel alone ive always struggled intimacy close friendships cant seem bring really let people help close terrifying prospect worked intimate relationship outside one partner last ten years april partner bad reaction bout sadness issue approached long story asked something think deserved words offended id even ask instead discussion shut revealed longer patience issues spent came shock felt making much progress seemed come nowhere turns look progress outside know hard love know patient years difficult love close im finally getting better real im facing aggressively im becoming whole finally slowly weve seeing couples therapist weeks thought made progress recovery another awful fight im thinking im going kill shotgun medication im trying talk much hurt people love trying remember felt think cowards way used feel escape way avoid getting stronger hard work better feels rest want rest felt tired long time depressed angry tired imagine much strength need wake monday work time put food body shower let alone fix travesty relationship separate complex autonomous human even learn alone work put together cant see strength need theres one life feel safe enough share one afford burden guess thats im throwaway know want want talked think want commiseration think want leave something behind thought piece intention hurt anyone love mine want go sleep want know anymore struggle wake simply wake maybe little ahead schedule maybe none us really know going die sure maybe need chest past feeling want feel proud hard fought far come think feel proud finally starting feel inherently valuable strong fought hard deserve rest deserve decide done fighting im going bald making want kill myselfi hairline redeced badly never girlfriend look fool people mock life fucking shit fuck donedont know anyone cares whatever years old germany know struggle know start dropped school yeah behind final exams couldve gone studying next year made worst school hauptschule middle school full energy gymnasium tilt take anymore stopped going end december finish driver license power anymore feel empty well last week work working parents store saw pretty girl felt love even gave love back seemed clear wonderful came place last sunday kissed hang talked much wanted live never felt power yesterday says worth time good never really girlfriend know react got hurt much ex wanted help show feel normal girl bitchyshe turns next month thought good doenst want contact know whyi frustrated body full hate hate mysellf best mother earth sister shouting friends want help refuse know start feel lost want stop go die addicted videogames dota well least gave smile good mmr something proud tried break competitive gaming really never happened confused life please guys share warm words cant crying right past weeks specially last days cuz want visit stars upon maybe day visit knows okay high staying late crashed feel im dying wake school hours im gon na call night goodnight im depressed sheltered kid live group home abused overprotected innocent shit yet tried complaining wouldnt believe friends hobbies conenction family food thing enjoy life making fat even depressed tried seeking help psychologist shes taking forever especially christmas period want run away lockdown library books unreturned huge book vinyl collection bedroom wan na drugs die life goal drugs dont wan na die drug virgin im really curious highly enthralled drugs someone please help hii feel really sad right now anybody e n bad joke alternative kids yall think ekids making new subculture posers think theyll die eventually ekids inside tiktok thing every kid tiktok days ekids dont really music genre ideologies mainly fashion alternative tiktok think ekids cant die alreadyi fucking hate life ruin everybody elses itd better everyone killed ima make quick im going make quick simple partially auto mod already banned first two posts somewhat busy first things first year ago got reddit life changing whole daily routine changed wacky stuff happened past year im glad reddit keep going great daynight dont forget stay safe comment age backwards see officer old enough good adaptation novel amrita pritam urmila manoj bajpai given bestbr br natural flair movie felt right looked bollywood finally gave away glamor quality artists performing screenbr br content wise movie depicted much exactly happened partition showing sufferings particular family shows trust ones life goes beyond religionbr br best part make drama lot tear shedding melodramabr br simply loved one decision ruined life dont wan na live anymore took pills xanax still alive really ruined lifesomeone doesnt deserve live happy life story im yrs old engaged beautiful virgin supposed married years friends convinced go party play around married later wont able shit ofcourse dumb fucking follower protected sex random couple months later diagnosed incurable std hpv warts fucking ruined life im piece garbage shit put family put everything swear god end disease someone reading please dont listen fucking friends say ofc go ahead married except damage goods goodbye last goodbyeim kicked home phone disconnected last chance goodbye ill many things gone wrong life hard know begin everybody know fault bad decision making laziness inability even bed real reason life mess reason im home ive never job see parents sick theyre kicking drive even common courtesy bother helping around house bring money contribute anything im lazy piece shit lingers bed every day ive never date ive never felt satisfaction succeeding ive never motivation try im street ill look place die couple ideas kill sure itll perfect end selfish end selfish existence misery feel every day crushing cant take anymore know im running away faced demons begin guess parents spoiled entire life probably part making said still fault never evolving growing person truly truly future life left lead im choosing easy way frankly deserve death person broken selfish deserve place begin regret point born feel ive dead years body want stop years im finally gathering courage see cant wait release responsibility pain anything thats want anymore want read life feel free trawl post history theres alot alot well written mind place right now anyways guess time finally finally rest sometime soon thank guys help board theres truly nothing left now guess goodbye hey youcome wan na talklike realits quite lonely night im gon na sleep whileso yea yesterday said regret killing didthe maintenance quadriplegic unbearable bailed attempt kill yesterday regretted feeling regret came hours minutes ticked close signal arrival caregiver bathes strips carcass naked regret stronger lay bed feeling feces uncontrollably make way ass fill diaper exhausted wear fake smile day therapy wanting nothing sleep never wake freedom love stripped replaced pain humiliation endure life quadriplegic life goes yes mines life hallow girls rteenagers reddit wtf wear senior pictures dress skirt live cooler climate coasting right now yo ex alcoholic days sober th day weed kind feel good except slept hours past nights feel different first time life wanted sober enjoying taking leaps strides improve person still feel total piece shit loser reflected living circumstances start somewhere maybe ill look back year realize beginning sober little comments comments little fix someone help nobody caresits funny everything right go work nice things people know nothing people mad coughing terrible belly pain bad allergies im best imagine throwing bitch fit enojis bruh wrote yesterdaysometimes drive bridge hold breath cant help feel need plunge ther side anxiety floods mind fills entire mentally talk holding breath multitasking anxious damn near impossible entire task killing takes much work slipped quick sand sink grab rope pull little time make decision must make one fast tired living way want feel dissappointment constantly wish feel fucked much way kill makes nauseous know wrong decision mind seems decision im trying best fight promise taking everything within fight live fear afraid something happen send edge make terrified able fight anymore getting harder harder stay intoxicated better vocalize urge kill battle im fighting im temporarily content thats really anymore temporary moments contentment think anyone help fix know yet someone homophobe theyre literally homo sapien dumbass people days smh venting storybeen feeling felt useless bullied people take anger funny god im fuckup worst decision life bully someone come back bite turned friends lost everyone found trans cant live want want alcohol organs fail die know fucking earth ill probably fail life im go school know ill bullied absolutely everything life absolute garbage never going better getting absolutely zero quality life nothing brings level joy fulfillment anymore way bad days good days afford kind therapy mental health care hate living greedy money hungry ignorant shameless world want go sleep never wake world absolutely horrible place anyone rich attractive going die nothing bills pay really thinking ending soon want kill self tonight say every night want everim failure im horrible person find enjoyment life forced love song brilliant example chase genre many people think underlying meaning love two main characters may fraternal believe heaton love spike spike naive see thisbr br really feel portrayed scenes blow back letter writing sequences heaton shows great intimacy towards spike intense facial expressions takes great care writing spikes name top lettersbr br one thing ive noticed looking external reviews film slated reviewer seems fully understood film even mentioned possibility heaton sexual feelings spike feeling reviewers recognised use phrases heaton whats retard spike person may hit nail head remark spike shows noticeable signs add although think person realised seems using word retard derogatory termbr br really enjoyed film although faint hearted film exceedingly character based shooting end much dialogue two antiheroes unless used watching deep gritty films stay well away organize event meet give free hugs know yall lonely bois need area one year anniversary anyone try go want hurt take life want overpart knows things im dealing right temporary cyclical upanddown goodtobadtogood back rhythm life yes things going better theyre going worse know friends love pet take care work business clients feel lonely knowing even things better theyll worse makes seem completely meaningless wish fall asleep never wake without action im sorry needed talkhi reading stuff afraid comment anything made throw away account im know teen years better im aware need somebody talk person usually talk trust kinda kept sane living high school experience talk feel pretty abandoned feel really guilty feel selfish im holding trust anybody getting drinking problem supply got cut cat never really tried normal stuff life punching wall knuckles got swollen one teachers said something guidance counselor kinda prevention post needed talk people felt know thanks im going sundayfor last months ive planning redflag depression gotten really bad lately cant take anymore fucked life hard cant fix funniest part ive miserable last months yet nobody noticed parents youngest brother friends none slightest inkling ive going think im regular sweet fifteen year old girl well school pursuing dreams joke im utter failure reason one knows lie everything days parents blissfully ignorant might even denial around twelve severely depressed cut daily caught punished stopped months never got help professional punishment shame rinse repeat couple years learned hide cuts emotions well enough pass ignore symptoms tell im going kill thing maybe want die brother stepbrothers little families perfect sons need im exhausted miserable everyday world without hopefully death nothingness neverending dreamless sleep care go hours pain twenty minutes im going home run method fatal refuse stitched back together forced live rest life trapped shell former self basically im saying im done trying live others maybe im okay selfish im going im tired trying anymorei know start im struggling mom ptsd several mental health issues feel cant reach help state ive using marijuana help ptsd flashbacks anxiety husband great guy stagnant bedroom hes stopped helping around house kitchen mess huge trigger step father beat shit dishes cleaning fast enough later evening sexually abused im done everything im good enough parent kid im good enough spouse christmas going happen year year old even sure well able pay rent electric bills point break kid year heart surgery im stressed yell time makes feel shitty end family happier without survivors benefits ss fairly good romantic comedy think ive seen meg looking cuter players good job keeping lively romp course real world genius mathematician even glance grease monkey love romantic comediesone totally forget reality good time nice film damn meg babe eh mario great game people think fantastic game first one natural flaws say dislike mario practically decapitated mob nostalgic idiots fact many retro games bad modern games improve everything older games made telling im wrong disliking mario gtfuck yoult seriously considering first time thought depressionbefore start throwaway account replying theres tracing last people want reading people may know recognise type im going kindly mention really care believe figured im someone close either offer advice leave need stress never mention im depressed im going lot stress related getting life started genuinely see reason keep going past motivation try give clich story life ive always one kid learns quickly gets bored gets hyperactive realises cant succeed system made help fail way shape form live country anyone straying regular memorisationfocused studying destined bottom pack mindless routine overpowers everything ive angling move using another citizenship mine parents neglected update much fun renew decade late several years planning ive finally done ive accepted one biggest universities world im days away leaving ill financial support first month parents fully cut go wrong everything university accepted late conditions tell explicitly told need decided tell apply permit done even id started second got acceptance letter perquisite said permit long deadline courses emailed reply automated message well reply days august th well deadline deadline im appealing deadline pass reply email another side theyll take three days reply much earlier theres rejection early excitement something good happening life accepted offer letter even receiving theyd told maximum fees exceed budget parents begrudgingly set woo doubled fact told id getting scholarship whooptidoo email one guess theyll reply deadline deadline passes moved received student id settled courses ill entrance university revoked pay extortionate fees anyway yay bright side enter country without permit set foot campus email ask whether well reply x amount time thats past deadline whatever stay positive wanted console look place stay great idea look place find perfect right near university im going price range even perfect email several weeks pass reply great ill go offices need book hotelmotel look one find exactly one thats area wifi integral need internet keep filling paperwork finish aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand outside price range option living km away spend money id save transportation im sure theres someone reading rolling eyes spoiled little pompous brat pretentiously posting reddit troubles kids starve peoples republic northern congolese canton philippine state thailand genuinely give less fuck getting guilt tripped point everything ive needed done done best still enough deadlines overlapping parents willing pay paid sister frugal start working already hampered greatly thus far despite ive still gotten lot shit done even bother anymore cant find apartment lock place near apartment want university outside price range ill take student loans ill spend rest life paying work online cant apply work permit ready turn patreon ebegging yay ive got find way pets thing keeping depressed autistic ass sane oh mistake theres embargo moving pets three countries live one happens im moving much cost another one oh small matter welp goes company stand burden im least months stay save well enough even make enough money survive going particular country itd perfect citizenship gives several months unchecked uses currency readily available countries im citizen comparatively safe got university dreams within price range borderline impossible time unless serious deadlinepushing occurs kind angel investor give free money somehow knowing luck investor make fellate whatever equivalents rest natural life oh theres small matter picking country cue sobstory music met girl fell hard imagine got immediately turned sent dreaded friend zone woo shell one source comfort somehow end getting even cant help think nothing worth anymore degree want nearworthless unless several unlikely things go exceedingly well often happen love life shambles cheated several times im start looking financial situation going meh absolute shit ebegging next years plus working gonads degree paycheck perhaps protein bar best friends happen speak human language schizophreniclevel bond makes look insane cute depending gender cant come another half year unless take even bigger loan last couple centuries tldr im getting sick life ive resorted posting reddit ponder surefire way killing without firearm ps breaking rules pm know great method ensure least chance death hopefully quickly thank anonymous stranger ive dissuaded least time thanks unotnac help people let sister die im fucked head maybe go join herfuck man fuck mefuck fuck fuck assholes fuck pets fuck mom fuck world fuck living help cringe pls friends worked short films contacts saved phone problem upload cringy videos whatsapp status images heavily glitched overlays booming bass random players free fire headshot montage style overlays music poor editors watermark cant stop watching wan na see bad gets bugs know lmao way telling pretty cringy without offending ideas im sorryim sorry failure im sorry think im failure im sorry let everyone im sorry saying things meant say im truly upset right wanted happy see mum happy everything even ex partner nothing seems go way life always heartache im alone even called family doesnt even care im truly alone never anything happy life im fucking disgrace thats cant anything right make anyone happy im pathetic loser im sorry im doneptsd gotten better really freaky fucking dream dream chewing something thanking heard load crack reached mouth grab made loud sound two teeth fell broke middle im still sleepy half awake daise little shaken im burnt quarantine onceinalifetime break needed im essential worker work even harder normal im drained brain nothing lefti know know thankful im still getting paycheck thankful wits know im blessed still bills paid mental health declining rapid pace first daily anxiety attacks frequent panic attacks weekends wholly consumed depression come roaring back alongside daily thoughts redflag sustainable day goes dont think offing recently idea death allure water someone walking desert need rest death thing provide feel job meat grinder im meat fed eventually going kill either coronavirus stuff ill new job ill work til die way joyous im posting im actually going go cant tell friends im feeling theyve fired furloughed set problems dont need hear mine needed somewhere hope okay yall mfs take stuff seriously someone make literally post askin sex sexualized people start posting fucking thesis statements comments anyone want end know much wuss soi already know sheesh press button pop existence avoid painful death costs unfortunately suiciding way painful redflag muscle mans voice know commits tax fraud mom huhhheheheuheheuhe byei rifle mouth im going kill im fucking done shit one respects even though work much harder im thin cant gain muscle feel shit everyone fucking hates someone right trying kill lets say close family done online sales store went cant wait dead dont say people love true trust hey anyone want join discord small right theres room grow channel advertise art channel well gaming movie nights sadly stoking ended sadly ended orgasm shot burst new record one really cares mewhats point living anyway one loves im sure belongs know think parents really care think dead weight living paying college close talk feelings understand western society way conservative think prayer reading bible fix everything doesnt reason still sticking around though older brother took life february want attempt fail finding think reason failure parents short unattractive guy takes toll selfesteem everyone dealt different hand life given worst cards play way many obstacles concur definitely wish taller better looking social anxiety think taken seriously life looking girlfriend moment never one way scared ill pushed around knowing cant change anything yes know eat right workout room change fact short riddled anxiety selfloathing rampant indian guy born raised ameria still stigma us one seems us bad stereotypes us bad jokes us creepy guys sense communicate properly understand thing people may think things rips away aware indians prejudice towards others may particularly care right now try kind anybody unconditionally try understand points view cant act angry public bruting foreigner cant go clubbing anything used seeing someone race things learned see worried things change height race looks means respected appreciated things different much happier know learn something new hobby rich konw momentary pleasures music food etc think none matters short tall ugly handsome stuff futile probably sound sad pathetic right now entirely wrong either become nihilistic everything thing keeping college well either sure kind future completely realistic future probably living alone working coming home redflag freedom freedom depression anxiety turmoil stop letting people convince school important mental healthfuck people happiness comes first cant go school thats fine live fucking life want fuck whoever says differently random thought wonder infinate alternate dimensions exist think dont dimension typing id suddenly teleported giant mansion made gold another planet treated king long ride dildo infront people five minutes day weird inappropriate example infinate alternate dimensions thing happen alternate dimension really kind impossible infinate alternate dimensions exist dimension someone creates elixir immortality machine visit every single alternate dimension nothing happened possible really duck walked lemonade stand said man running stand hey bum bum bum got grapes covidmarshall loser ucovidmarshall annoying hate much turn gay sexual desperation experience id say yes makes sense everyone jail turns gay less year objectively believe im going give thoughts believe going write redflag note fully committed killing go guess close actually even know bother writing one even fact im still trying hard today life worth eyes everythings fucked im tearing writing worthless piece shit never anything right im huge fuck cant life anymore becoming increasingly difficult alive day body starts shut depressed feels couple arteries imploded inside energy even speak literally feel explained anyone say im attention heck cant tell many times people told im depressed going things attention wish face many problems worry people place mind im acting struggling alive every day right now write less year worse im beginning moments fully committed going ending life telling anyone tell truth fully committed weeks ago texted one person luckily ready end knew going best idea ive ending felt peace felt long time living nightmare going end soon im still one coincidence away fully going friend going pick ups phone working thought id meeting behavioral health people school way way friend blows mind still empathize care others im fucked person general everythings happened top wavered times people said im depressed attention im anything im trying hardest past upcoming years th birthday passed long ago soulcrushing moment starting accept fact im losing much time getting worse im getting older feel left behind depression friends already transferred finishing college never knew real relationships family really tried understand really tried hardest got nd deep depression ago always felt alone id see friends family interacting happy good relationship family anyone id remember mother say friends family id remember constantly told kid accident meet parents expectation kids essentially im burden one wants around eventually translated suicidal thoughts high school bullied classes passing period day th grade family want around neither anyone feel place alive taking resources others family im absolute best never surmounts anything anymore feel ended friends longer waste time energy family financially support theyll time money pockets mainly felt recently feel hopeless cant even think write straight anymore im useless im going stop right though ive run energy going half alive bed thanks reading anyone good metal music listen listen scared ice nine kills crush give best parents angry food room theres many worse things choose angry literally nothing honestly bullshit go away instead coming room check food come check mental health ask im ok lot time im skip one im worth saving anywayi mean im unattractive eyes many people around bitter fault afraid conflict even fucking worth sparing anytime really besides rate im abusing body ill probbly die cardiac problems anyway might well speed burden family fake friend worthy romantic love god let tiiiiiiiny bit courage finally fucking life illusionhi people im years old live netherlands feel fucked life nothing setbacks parents divorced mother shit ton debt relationship guy murdered children seen years back sisters lived small village km away home father never able work anymore almost dead year ago relationship stepmother complaining even nothing father always say refugees return country although lived years despise stepmother parents life question end help fucked shit hours till end iti really dont want cant carry fighting anymore read post history context u want maybe someone awake persuade doubt love feel trying find past year dont feel love entire family feel sense loss money emotions remember feeling brief joy brief anger faked crying hour see actually emit emotional response hug hate emotion feel matter famous much friends family really things never satisfy someone even rich everybody pleases isnt one understand nobody understand whats going someones mind probably want happiness something others simply keep prevent killing even money satisfy actors streamers lot donations arent satisfied earthly desires know got hospital trying kill acetaminophen overdose nearly died family saved didnt notice didnt girlfriend see feel pity come back time time feel depressed coming back might decide real time end help girlfriend pay debts credit card used things dont keep happy anymore grateful tried much right im tear type message might go strip later try covid might go mt charleston tie noose around head grateful lord everything sometimes dont understand anymore ur serious gon na kill urself theres talking least venmo money use itemily attention females sub named arlene hmu question anyone know link mc server missed largest carnivore largest carnivore hint gtits blue whalelt hi everyone im year old gamedev goal reach subscribers end week enjoy content subscribe cause helps lot heres video httpsyoutuberqbppdkhdimhttpsyoutuberqbppdkhdim sad birthdayi already depressed rock bottom birthday tomorrow got broken summer plans girl thought loved gone literally friends nobody cares birthday mum wish die right point incapable getting betterbecause think im far fucking past hi many problems probably stupid pushing anymore ex sleeping men hard extra hard last years enjoy sex anymore know tiny dick imagine loving fu king people nice big cocks relieved moved past realise woman want even say problem massive compromise want force think suicide lot year old son lately rages know come feel may actually something able take back done know want venting might help inguess know live anymore im endim end family non existent person love hates children give two fucks theyll forget year hate everything fucking hate everything wanted family robbed wants act likes shes kids drink fuck whatever wants want fucking die immediately job license still living parents anyone situation turned back november last year ive dreading day turn feel manchild already feel less compared others take responsibility much anyone elses fault plan things done getting job reason feels let others irresponsibility girls w huge glasses look cute af really scroll anything putting feels though helping never able sleep every night lay brain runs runs runs hours every time know lot people lot people know still dont friends im unique im average average used sports dont best thing im smart doesnt really matter feel insignificant even though categorized existential crisis common doesnt make emptiness leave idk feel im losing emotion im definitely sad im happy either feel found passion dirt biking rode almost entire life never good thing went riding today feel helped solo ride around hour two music idk think im going continue path feel im able pull mood thats lasted way long maybe ill end going back old happy friends liked im genuinely afraid schools us reopening student understand everyone hell bent getting back school understand pandemic devastating individuals mental health people abusive homes put many teachers children risk socialize personally anxious melancholy time school good refresh believe reopening bad decision seems teachers students used pawns government trying see reopen fast enough note isolation traumatic think students teacher relative dying going back school even traumatic others probably feel immensely guilty hand e learning much better everyone recources andor doesnt work well virtually know experience stressful scary learning home think lose lose situation personally think reopening smarter option lmk u guys think comments movie fascinating example luis bunuels storytelling abilities comedy comedy social drama social drama even though think particularly funny made laugh despite fact never take bunuel seriously movie made think religion importance peoples lives bunuel tells story catholic priest devoted faith one viewer witness happens priests undying commitment serve others put test usual bunuels target catholicism think tried mock church often least take film mockery institution think trying make interesting point religion nuisance todays modern society faith bad people always mange bastardize concept message aside think one bunuels clever works francisco rabal superb priest definitely one filmmakers best movies alone depressed want drag people shit catch drift literally make friends become far emotionally dependent highly toxic emotionally imbalanced relationship want another person simply satisfy ego make even depressed quite frankly far happier alone reason quit pressuring make friends fucks sake depressed alone im sad thighs big thigh highs thigh highs got ripped dogs need buy new ones sooo whats whatsapp idk say feb gon na sth worse facebook scandal worried cause ordered kids basement cancel order alone barhey guys im chilling bar keep swiping phone contacts seeing sparse list presented one contact feel bit alone moment keep wondering things turned alone scared interact people gambler probably turn alcoholic actually tried hate right now sense wonder karmic punishment something cursed boredom isolation love family holy shit want life ive tried commit redflag times pills stabbing etc nothing works im stuck dunno im scared die want shit show theres bridge near new houseon tuesday morning woke feeling exhausted head pounding headache nose snuffed shoulders hurt chest tight back aching cried cried hard cried rash consuming legs cried little meaningful relationships cried assume people think cried job living situation cried different pulled together moment decided go walkin clinic something ive putting months went downstairs jumped shower sobbed washing hair screamed yelled world anger hate inability change selfsabotage routinely commit dried avoiding reflection mirror microwaved chicken fingers drank bottle water watched youtube video board game cried called local mental health crisis centre ive dragged past theyve called twice two weeks returned either calls scheduled meeting counsellor two weeks now knowing damn well might make far doctor know undiagnosed mental illness im looking crutch something label know fault putting positions point dressed ready leave house put sunglasses headed head toward busy main street clinic started toward bridge pedestrian bridge towering jagged rocks river unforgiving current walked slowly confidently street toward park housing bridge mind ablaze thoughts ending image laying upon rocks hours lungs filling blood cold scared turned last second left instead right walked hours walked road ended exhausted walked back busy main street watching people going days stopping pack cigarettes quit two months prior coffee went home thoughts still check die another day hi u wan na make big life decision without context choose girl replies eat hat wont actually eat hat guys think might bit unhealthy live longer planing kill last year plan cutting wrist saw movies maybe painless find gun decited way sory bad english hurt cut wrist feel somewhat calm making plan kill myselfi plan certain things bucket list killing ive accepted im beyond redemption beyond chance happiness friends betrayed feel im worst person world think theres chance make new friendships seem good person others ive made mistakes anyone think im beyond fixing people hurt told im worst person never change always bad person exist world want others happy means leaving world ill start slowly cutting whatever friendships left time hopefully forget leave alone ill try achieve something noteworthy im want least one good thing leave awful akward experience parents mom laundry said u buy underwear suggest different colour white first didnt realise problem saw talking huge fucking cumstain wont go fml ostracized coworkers point breakdownhi im currently work probation officer ive worked year half still made friends coworkers around age year half ive moved basic supervision specialized positions child support enforcement first mental breakdown coworkers wedding none coworkers talked wife night tried talk heybye conversation got drunk joked left early kept wondering even make talk weeks later broke work left early took fmla time see therapist walk away work put celexa made lot improvements came back work little month later took different position lower totem pole work around time new girl start first weeks good showed around helped came talked life problems joked around times nice actually friend work another coworker wedding one really talked us assigned seating one age sat administrators s new girl suddenly became friends everyone night despite talking coworkers come talk new girl day long theyll laugh flirt even say hi itshes young cute newly single guys married turn new girl partner talk day ill end work unit ive expressed concerns supervisor went nowhere one friday afternoon every single coworker left lunch together even went way find new girl ask go single one asked go ive asked happened everyone says sorry feel intentions include thursday broke anniversary moms death weekend help feelings one coworker came ask told everything feel said wants friend hell make effort talk ive heard took friday work today new girl posted one meme videos lad bible facebook tagged everyone wrote something recently hung im nervous things go next week want pity friends genuine friends help already stressful job positive things live situation overwhelming want accepted never struggle acceptance becoming much first comment make laugh gets silver thats good luck ruined marriagei never wanted exist much life pretty bad anxiety suicidal thoughts thats always background noise mostly anxiety started getting involved someone innocent always fkin married year old pregnant wife text told knows everything whole community going find know deal meant face oh yeah btw guys im literally shittest homewrecking cunt planet whats good aware selfish redflag trying excuse actions anything need help need clarity humans shit want make militia eventually want across nation split foot soldiers doxerspeople location people groups im looking centrists right wing countering beating anchercists antifa go call soyboy hunting everyone join dont care racecolor gender sexual preference know must people app want never really recognized depression recently diagnosed bipolar normally normally rapid cycle recently depression sticking around married gave birth daughter past december love little girl anything feels enough know better never energy going work days week mental battle stay home watching know feel lost feel lost want dieim sorry coherent know time ive asleep seems week im sad put sentences together well honestly feel throwing crying cant either ive lost everything know ive depressed years time ive never made friend talk anybody support past year finally made friend talked every single day helped initiated conversation nearly month now another support friend talk either know helped thought tried hard perfect became object used help specifically feel leave occasions needed anyway education shit family struggling casual friends barely exist mind barely works anymore spent whole christmas birthday new years asleep handle awake actually called hotline first time birthday someone listen made feel something even gave standard canned responses want die badly know none give shit know see anyone stuff know ill nothing know im writing anymore im sorry im going keep going though coming words thing keeping going insane sleeping pills kick go back sleep im planning talking one friends tomorrow im going ask let believe important know really ask much im sorry want making much sense im going submit anyway lose feel broken human know im still soul hurts chest hurts want stop know deserve friendship deserve support cant even allowed support someone think im bad around point people actively avoid think crazy maybe someone stick apparently though soul empty hands shaking new words add thanks guys sorry worry im probably going end deleting thanks days passing byi know people talking killing seek attention talk killing anyone hear anytime feel killing think fall really tall building center town catch im seeking attention hand see joy living always struggle live think making happy playing games didnt think nescessity go school education job everything new try brings joy got information points assignment copied part friends work didnt chance pass didnt know back basically make even worse probably study one year enjoyed studies first two years became nightmare got much work much things dont dont feel using future job lost positive feelings studies back wasnt depressed oportunity end life painlessly without making family suffer go time life music helped time even doesnt help friends spend time still prefer die live cant even come viable reason dont enjoy anything feels finish one assignment comes another know everyone got problems dont see enjoying anything future maybe job something change dont even dream getting girlfriend picky ugly problem thats ok first try happy right took medicines effectin year helped lower giant social anxiety stressed h wanted die stressed anymore want die really cool movie remember first seeing really young used watch time weekshadow favorite character movie homeward bound really funny really cool train animals things parts movie sad though sassy cat falls waterfall shadow falls hole end seen second homeward bound got ta say good first shadow smart one sassy well sassy chance funny idiot recommend movie anyone likes comedies talking animals one top ten favorite movies message fellow teenagers myanmar hear anything us next hours days please know military cut internet connectivity taken freedom speech away well citizen myanmar agree current move request world leaders un global media give hand country leaders people bitter acts want democracy want country track democracy route saynotomyanmarmilitarycoup justiceformyanmar savemyanmar posting every day girlfriend day day im hereby celebrating th aniversary 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day still donate team trees day know plumbusses made day made dinglebop day day day anyone ideas shit write day went entire ipa throat hurts day tf almost october day ah shit one bit late day tomorrow day doot doot day drop snoot day bit luck school close soon day think eill stop writing random shit day nothing happened today day think accidentialy motivated crush flirt woth another guy day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day one bit late internet bad day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day girl school gave another guys chocolate got half others mean anything day nothing happened today day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day teacher put girl besides today wall looking good day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day 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hate fucking lesbian fucking mental illness fair trapped shit able put cure hear bad thing thats fucking true even allowed try conversion therapy redflag euthanasia im staying closeted forever every found felt nothing hatred depression teens years ripped away im different every fucking person cant normal life cant happy feel stuck live every aspect life work hobbies friends shit improve except always going fucking plague always going horrible shit forever able date normal straight person able fucking hold hands girl able respected going seen fucking sex object people theyll sexualize treated normal fucking person want fucking suffocate want dead point living im going dragged mental deformity every fucking day quick reddit simppolice regret ur cute filler filler filler ffiller filler filler filler filler filler ffiller filler filler filler filler filler ffiller filler filler filler filler back pitrock bottom become familiar going redflagwatch page reading posts teenagers reminds age empty really already dead inside teen years whole neglect parents constantly told im reason family problems never able connect people moved every years nothing solid permanent stopped caring everything reason stayed alive brother didnt deserve deal committing redflag everyone okay empty carcass walking around even try pretend okay thats little cared ready die whenever finally three unsuccessful attempts thought brother saving every time life better times right used things good something bad happen seems im magnet bed news despite multiple losses break trauma experienced last year forced remain positive hopeful future now im done empty carcass tumbleweed legs almost feel wind blowing want die bad go coma turn brain little even thought moving starting motivate wan na drive california somewhere warm happy see anything changes want happy bad think ive given hate well know rock bottom familiar normal life im going commit redflag every time try thought brother stops im e d im ready done life absolute shitits years moved another town years deal shit inside head scream every evening beat something friends lose exfriends good work count unemployed lot shit want tell think somebody care next year last happy new year everyone feel ive lost battle ive lost war tooive never put post think time go fast decline never prepared eaten drank anything booze slept god knows long today long time boyfriend left packed shit left gave every last part soul fight gone fight want peace dad screaming way knows deal hes begging come home mother begging come home little brother know state im yet choose stay alone apartment rot nine animals kept going long cant anymore tied noose im waiting right time platinum award id love reddit premium terms money money probably need award anyone got ideas awards xd kinda regret going itive considered redflag lot past never went thought death causing issues lived wrong im underachiever lazy bum whenever actively try something blows face horrible social skills constantly getting sick look fucking gremlin cant hold job save life issues power change anything brought upon compounded becoming bottomfeeder neet stay family members mooch literally household cook breakfast every month use wifi use electricity drink water share food sleep beds leech human parasite ive tried fix problems ive tried useful member society always fail try job make past interview try something online blows face point caused problems dead man abstained family members told theyve told kill done wrong current existence cant called living took time reflect realise set failure beginning whoevers reading hope fucked much im fucking seething right now hey long read really want someone hear please give time today mom threw science project knew working notified okay okayy really snarky tone asked apologize said well mess stuff never apologize stood fuck snapped back lightning tell one time something stuff failed apoligize looked speechless seconds wrong admit yelled fuck room really glad stood bullshit one time weeks ago remember asked dishwasher minutes got call friend angry yelled threw cd case always makes breakfast morning whole week afterward stopped making breakfast lunch kind developing ed severely affected ate nothing except dinner one night using moms phone set alarm presentation next day guess saw set alarm every day pm labeled maki dishwasher late breakfast lunch confronted actually said tell something wait minutes talk bullshit friends answer left room cut later day good thing today stood didnt cut want end alreadymy mind downward spiral seems went stop im trembling hardly coherent thought times want someone actually love feels loneliness slowly killing mental state withering wish die never asked born life time though want keep trying want know love feels one time least head hurts know anymore wan na take nap bleh happy lockdown anniversary eve one year ago today wouldve last day school officially changed personality times survived redflag attempt ate pineapple changed rooms style mental collapses happy anniversary everyone reddit right hey sko u tryna talk frfr need ppl talk ight im bored n aint needa wake early yea ok another rant im anything attention ask thank calling ignorant cunt said dont care mental health really helped mental health im really sorry annoying im tell im annoying already got responses complaining things much im really sorry different people hope none read last person im sarcastic rude storyi around years old old enough realize father alcoholic workaholic drug abuser coke fights dad got worse drunker every night screaming parents never stopped around time started cut want die felt blame fathers actions needed punished around time dad mentally abused started physically abuse gave lovely shiner popped blood vessel eye dragged hair room proceeded suffocate eventually stopped left damage done mom took away minimum wage job life really sucked weeks time food fridge gas electric shut numerous times point life really wanted die stay home school look moms room looking medication kill almost resorted injecting insulin shes diabetic months later attempted cut throat avail really makes sad knowing low life thing life bad back thought killing way im tell life gets better may seem now will want know im need someone talk matter time im want survived may know love tldr know going im please let help hotline fucking jokei called night finally psyching idk expected lady asked safety plan actively planning made shit plan said wasnt active kept trying hang maybe used wrong half pill bottle deep one gives fuck someones job care keep trying hang doesnt give fuck even worth job didnt care two days ideals gotten worse one gives damn dont see reason keep fighting hotline last chance failed everyone totally see movie freaking scary resort lame jumpoutatyoujusttosurpriseyouandpassitoffasscary things really great see freaking awesome movie director stanley kubrick easily greatest director lived every single one movies masterpieces including one shining family goes hotel colorado rockies caretakers winters snowed well house haunted kid psychic husband easily impacted evil haunted hotels andwellhilarity ensues really becomes gripping thriller stuff gets thrown viewer different directions gets scary classic heres johnny scene memorable cant speak whole movies one things words explain adequately got ta see go netflix geeeeeetttttttt itttttttt need help look ugly years whenever look mirror saw really beautiful care others said today bathing looked mirror felt ugly relative hate much face seems resemble lot today feel people look good least average taken seriously person neglected whole life another day band kid lime boy deadass guy band class got three whole ass limes ate apples one batted eye dont want anymorei feel im dragging along day nothing look forward anymore happiness anymore motivation anything im failing almost classes feel fucking pathetic useless basically friends left point im tired trying im tired hearing itll better hasnt dont see way will dont even know want future feel im good anything honestly dont even see future people always tell find hobby find something thatll distract feeling way doesnt work anymore nothing makes happy anymore nothing brings joy feel fucking alone every single day feel ill never matter anyone one care love im ready give end dont care anymore want happy dont want feel anymore dont want stuck anymore hate fucking bullshitwhy fuck forced become slave society didnt even ask born first place shit pisses much burdens placed choice addresshunger thirst discomfort pain etc forced upon im expected go along suffer body tortures meeting demands fuck shit find working jobwhich something people forced dounbearable agonizing waste time im forced either deal shit decades come go horrible painful process killing mean wtf im fucking trapped hurts knowing society brought world doesnt give fuck go always going serving system youre seen trash im fucking done want escape prison badly really wan na give scared toits hard keep going reason wan na survive accident locked mental hospital id pretend better try another reason partially fear comes next im believer gods life ive always atheist right ampxb really care hurting anyone death mainly im gon na dead cares im gon na missed yrs old never relationship really cared anyone worst im high school dropout senior year ive got credits couple left lost finish know ive always tried best normal person never jail done crime matter even smoked weed even though seems every one ampxb psychiatrist trust anyone family past really opening helps cant waste money wan na cause anymore weight mother already much ampxb even know wouldve thought least treat rest siblings ive though struggle ampxb gon na go back little bit explain father always controlling way really angry mostly take mother always stole mothers pills back pain pills high end stuff im telling stuff put horse little exaggeration docs give little bit month tried stop take forcefully ampxb got older able stand mind little guy finally little balance family leave cause made money means keep check argue way fight father really well mentally teen needing figure ampxb time really sent edge destroyed laptop laptop thing brought happiness watched anime gamed destroyed fought lost looking back wish thinking fight blindly throwing fists well ampxb never forgave breaking happiness go another one rolling money took care laptop gift got mother ampxb childhood always stressful eventually even care make friends always moving siblings originally thought bad guy fought dad recently realized truth even brothers sister friends hard growing bad guy ampxb ampxb eventually mother became able support us left almost year ago convince leave shei describe stockholm syndrome except actually good guy movies ampxb even picture im still fire think mother blames breakup im treated differently siblings im always reason anything goes wrong now kinda scared mother go back wants toand waste struggling life away ampxb im really point see cliff almost tempting ampxb caught thoughts questions thanks reading kinda needed vent bit hopes someone read sorry long post ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb bad titlesi feel tonight really rough year ive stuck crappy job years im stuck im stuck needing help mother job long time making slightly minimum wage yeah big part im alone first relationship ended horribly lying cheating etc one two failures spent next years trying date sticking casual stuff wanting set girl really changed views seemed actually care made want wasnt girls id together year found sleeping several coworkers say least crushed every thing told made rethink life suddenly faded away everything seems complete lie make things even worse starting workplace week hurts first girl trusted long time started heal old scars turned around made even worse left wondering literally second last year thought ive always struggled depression year seems kicking ass really feel hope life anymore ive always struggled alcohol problem last year admit ive gotten much much worse dunno probably even seem big deals wanted die long period life truth actually terrified die think tell want die make think afraid deathim really sure constantly need around others give sort insight order feel really idea tell constantly anxious scared worried sad always tell people okayi tell people okay feel deserve empathy sorrow zero confidence usually end quitting job think good enough work even deserve make money take care addicted nicotine alcohol adult films internet necessarily really know actually feeling time sometimes think actually awake alive even broke ex thought deserved better hate alone alone dream mine kid known sort legacy honestly think achieve tell people believe god actually think worthy god struggling identity crisis zero motivation solve problem constantly unmotivated comes things good bad stop nothing put shitty situations pain think deserve constantly seek affirmation others really want feel comfortable mind body molested five years old adhdi afraid die people forget within couple days things dying chest sister watching harry potter movie every night rest spring break didnt expect mfuckers hours minutes long dont attention span im done lifes fucking dont wan na deal shithole longerim gon na sound fucking incel rn whatever whenever try meaningful relationship wasting many resources shot hurts waste life endless cycle someone try make move rejected try move repeat ive tried improve ive fucking changed half interests hobbies people waste always shot none friends try support say dont bother move dont even know try elude believing theres chance lie saying theres good shot know never yet still try anyway always ends tears pain suffering painful cycle pain want wan na meaningful happy relationship longer goes seems pipe dream im sorry youve read far need vent fucking brain text god want fucking ending im addicted cycle see hate life hate everything know dude made doom pregnancy test imagine hes single goes buying pregnancy test cashier says oh think wifes pregnant replies want play doom best way commit redflagi know question asked lot sorry better got shot heart spend money breathing mask nitrous sorting new hi lol fill space gap really want take emotional powers characters dominick eugene things hollywood make anymore one emotional sensitive heartfelt movies seen roy liotta tom hulce supporting actress jamie lee curtis deliver oscar winning caliber performances enough words express great movie sure people sentimental movies may care much rest us dominick eugene rest us movie goes right heart sole compassion humanity never forget film everbr br spoilers belowbr br simple yet eloquent story masterfully told eugene medschool intern faces long hours demanding work load hospital fraternal twin brother dominick born minutes earlier little slow awkward brain damage due victim abuse father heartbreaking moment found film leave tears eugene aka geno faces painful dilemma must decide whether finish medical school mean accepting residency another city leave dominick aka nicky behind forfeit rest education take care nicky helps pay brothers medschool tuition working trash collectorbr br questions ethics morals responsibilities masterfully blended landmark movie gino thinks nicky might making progress toward independence dominick turns around winds things helping drug dealer tying use faulty cord finds dump electrical appliancebr br larry character nickys partner garbage route fills gullible dominicks head kinds stories geno jennifer girlfriend tutoring clinical pharmacology going atlantic city gambling away money deep see larry cares rounds nicky befriends little boy find beaten father end result tragic pain see nickys face happens speaks volumesbr br sensitivity two brothers share overstated enough nicky wants loved look acceptance anyway ie goes church loves hulk hogan geno loves nicky anything world brother become independent enough geno pursue dream becoming doctor brilliant film gotten tons recognition deserved unfortunately came around time rain man dealt similar issue dominick eugene better far stronger emotional component forewarned movie aimed right tearducts kleenex handy film dealim tired living want die im gon na give month find reason live cant find reason september th death date think saturday dayi got good idea birthday theres one day year people remember done giving fuck know aint worth im rough timetdlr transgender completely abandoned friends came year ago first friends really supportive go mall buy make etc lately im lucky even someone respond messenger post work incredibly hard job hours week assistant manager yelled next day manager enough suffer night struggling lawyer ending lately arguments continuing go another day falling flat zero friends seemingly job hate upon time everything greati everyone young innocent naive friends good grades happiness felt nothing go wrongsuddenly present moment depression washed upon tidal wave began total loss concentration loss interest anything everything wake go back bed againi consume packs junk food life depended iti constantly feel memory trash language skills deteriorated voices head telling failed friends laughed called crazymy family kept taking themself thier pain thier life thier strugglesbut needed friends family disappeared slowly began descent madness poem depression cause takes best parts three films cape fear touch evil silence lambs mixes together come good thriller filmbr br sean connery liberal law professor married former assistant district attorney kate capshaw hes crusader capital punishment blair underwoods grandmother ruby dee buttonholes connery conference persuades handle grandsons appeal hes sitting death row murder young girlbr br connery arrives rural florida county hes tough sheriff played laurence fishburne whos ruthless crime solving orson welles touch evil br br later connery gets verdict set aside evidence hes uncovered hes feeling pretty good point film takes decided turn touch evil cape fearbr br say seems put mildly cast uniformly turns good performances special mention must made ed harris plays hannibal lecter serial killer death row underwood make skin crawl starts making connery rethink comfortable liberal premises hes basing convictions many confirmed liberal ive known come thinking quite differently theyve become crime victimbr br course reverse equally true many law order conservative involved wrong end criminal justice system wants make real sure rights indeed guaranteedbr br criminal justice end process never ending one society guess cause moral probably dog keeps committing redflagschool approaching couple weeks always made stressed suicidal whenever feel guilty dog im gon na leave course family take care dont want hurt sometimes convince dog doesnt animal wont care cant guilt conflicting mental health prevents able play much deserves convince shes better without im scared hurting emotionally thinking abandoned hate cant even cry even crank melody days wanted good one thing oh forgot aversives therapist openly punitive hostile withholding explicitly order punish teach linehan gives three sentences towards ant ethical criticism saying works uses fun techniques giving multiple sessions week plus groups mandatory telephone contact convince meconvince matter anymore convince try getting better even though every time eat throw convince forget every memory sam alex convince shouldnt walk back university jump river done making excuses really struggling want hold tell alright know continue without forever life want anymore never wanted think called life helped make bareable lowest life soul life shattered see way darkness need hold tell ok please stop thinking hurting hard breathe ive realized even delete search history still find router history real go thier way go check router go check thier child looking lol im forgetful made hot coco greatwaited brew went computer completely forgot hot coco whilecant smell probably factor came back maybe half hour later watching youtube instead school added hot water coffee machine stirred took sip yumoh wait bitter yep used coffee machine water forgot remove coffee podagain hot coco coffee tastesinteresting left banana table cause forgot finish forgetful anyone wan na join competitive pokemon discord server competitive pokemon discord server think lot people stuff dm discord persephone cause reddit dms work members means anything looking gym leaders people use showdown allowed use anyone growing without dad daily life hey teens growing without dad daily life know going little fatherly love advice check youtube channel made teens especially boys girls certainly welcome growing without dad daily life feel inclined hope subscribe cant post images filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler 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highschoolers reddit year old bragging im popular kid school dont ask see anyway ive seen lot people giving girl advice guy advice blah blah blah one talking thought yr male never relationship sad start lem start ok seriously worship popular guys want popular guy dont want impress girls want bad boy oh bully want cool popular sucks wish wasnt popular honest one thing wanted say take exams seriously dont slack saying im yr old minecrft youtuber one likes plan b want sdo anything fine plan b something solid something safety cushion fall upon passion cant feed ya ampxb love shit girlfriends boyfriends good found true love yay others lonely people stuck love stop complaining lonely find hobby used lonely ampxb depressed vent cant dm cant vent im embarassed poison late anything beyond repair talk ampxb girls one please make fun us manly fuck say ampxb thats ig u horny teen despite feeling xxx well im gon na give u instructions fuck blanket roll ur blanket ball u done ur blanket feel firm take ur hand center ur blanket push take ur hand put expsed part pull u pushed fuck crush likes quarantine old friends dipped girl real person talking eventually started develop crush told likes im happy edit thank award lt almost died lol friend house rolled sidebyside staples hit bar sidebyside upside pics message really anything look forward tolike title says dreams wishes go im living parents plans go go college theres nothing want see kill besides family friends missing big deal depression anxiety issues im aware im religious theres nothing im concerned dying enjoy playing video games watching tv thats past year day ive told join video game related career lot stuff go college lot money cant takes lot effort want put much effort pretty shitty life end life look forward supposed feel lovr use protection really love cum inside eric bogosians ability roll character character one man show exhibits true range character actor persona message convey truth society class drugs etc absolute must anyone serious fan acting performance contains hilarious real moments experienced viewing audience got ltt ad english english class learning crispr couple minutes got ad ltt honey fucking amazing hate friends sent among us porn watched expecting see usual british stiff upper lip stereotypes surprised find dialogue remarkably natural tinged black humour eastenders goes sea serve scenes approach attack remarkably realistic depiction fighting ship stuff ups banter among ships company well least based service s throwaway lines witty im joining band hope please greasy fish fryer complaint show happened irish coxswain bride tattooed po love arabella tattoo end erafor whole life irony depression loneliness followed ive always tried stay optimistic positive time goes seems fade away im years old absolutely nothing look forward girlfriend talent self esteem everyday wake happy minutes realize amnobody self image bullying people opinions frankly opinions dont matter always felt life doomed day walk always polite respectable try good moral citizen yet always seem contradict morals preach guess im possibly awakening cant take voices anymore head sight flesh whole essence tainted useless go want family know love wish nothing best generous people forum showed kindness understanding thank guys one parent cause theyre slightly less abusive make halfhearted apologies abusing act angel wrong fuck dad im cutting mom life im wish everyone one good night whatever time good time night goodnught qts afraidi really want die know stupid meaningless problems go away know people wouldnt annoyed mere presence room id never worry whether id feel better might even see dad fucking balls commit even though know falter every time go todo drop fucking knife put fucking rope cut shallow sit curl wish either cry die instead worthless cant even fucking bring make change absolutely love film everything almost felt watching friends screen way movie filmed pure masterpiece original creative related characters even thoughts im really glad ran across movie genius justin adventure bay adult care center theory started question grown adults constantly call ten year old lives alone bunch dogs solve every problem ryder ten year old boy young orderly adult care center differently abled adults team therapy dogs episodes show imagined adventures one patients chickaleta stuffed chicken mayor goodway uses excuse things messes alex duck mr porters grandson died drive edge imagines duck grandson talks humdinger patient criminal ward escapes constantly try mess residents resident part ward given title mayor cares stray cats around town dogs alternative theory humdinger hes similar facility criminally insane across road constantly escapes come mess cousin mayor goodway grandpa grover clearly humdinger ancestor katie orderly employee center helps care various animals jake former pro severe traumatic brain injury needs round clock care eventually gets therapy dog everest captain turbot sea captain lost crew storm wally best mate crew wally imagined creature campus saying wally real cause captn turbot throw water saturday morning ruminations single mom season weird weird show mi bored af u wan na talk dm sometimes think giving everythingdoes make sense think easier die finally sleep forever knowim going save problem im letting guys know im done life im fucking lonely nobody girlfriend broke able happy know im never going happy one guess good bye im gone world transcend next one goodbye everyone hate feeling hate much see people complete family im one although quite happy mom dad seperated still wish father figure life know male stuff well sometimes ostracized guys show much emotions cry want cry judged fucking sucks random discussion think f eaglestrike eagle think f nice bird high twr means good one best bvr c version single seat dcs low fidelity module mention data link jhmcs currently fe strike eagle dcs still development far nice bird askin even killed satellite low earth orbit sayin comment mainly comment first commentator extra film unhappy assessment film think perspective indicates extra extra director director film sweet acting sufficient experience watching nice diversion busy work week hours acting matrix special effects even color purple direction movies crap fest vinny lead believe sorry guy centsbr br movie end gay affirming showed world full diverse less perfect peopleyou know opened door one culture without excluding cultures liked music f people whose phoneselectronics broke quarantine yes f phone battery swelled last june got new one d peepeepoopoo man comes back revenge laugh name become new victim waitive urge kill self now first seemed ridiculous irrational idea slowly become reasonable thoughts become louder louder point im sure im even agaisnt idea die today years now seem know difference im dead even remember extra years end wait september last year borrowing four six films week harold washington library boasts impressive dvd collection hwl truly circulating library threequarters films given time recently thrilled find short films david lynch yesterday knowing little animated series picked dumbland im report david lynch fans watching eight episodes half hour wellspentbr br remarkable feature brief pieces soundtracks episode rhythm respiratory digestive systems provide percussion outrageous voices accent pauses ends physical violence supplies beats chirping birds buzzing sockets brush along edges many elements fill orchestra pacing crude animation often keeps sync sound soundtrack struck lynchs primary interest creating disseminating work way eight shorts unique lynchian rhythmsbr br said situations odd ugly profound dumb funny hell theres enough space within reflect absurd humans cant say ill watch collection anyone revelled movements suite inland empire dumbland worth half hour time want talk skype tarkanon voice ill delete hours im boredim american im years old retired im trip around world school projectfastest knife death think ill make itmy head never got better life fine mind anything im going surviveevery nye ends crying bathroom im afraid face next year year worse truly awful part think ive living undiagnosed mental illness whole year dont resources help getting worse every day feel im point life growing moving new things getting mature im stuck hopelessly running place finished aa community college fall ended take semester hopes getting control mental health working save money decide majorcareer want go university attend move semester passed ill wait fall havent accomplished things needed im stuck years old still living parents working hrswk idea go little hope getting better happy new year guess dont even blame covid anymoreim gon na one approximately redflags unemployment uk every year year lol cant stop crying write th dogshit cv someone suited jackass gon na look two seconds jump straight employment history section reject immediately though putting thousands pounds debt go university years doesnt mean fucking thing confusedthis may seem random rant anything im really confused right now im really bad depression years now aswell mild conditions im feeling suicidal almost every day feel cant stop ive getting help started taking pills depression sleep recently make worse usually losing appetite stomach pains dizziness etc make worse pretty bad anxiety educationwork dropped months ago idea want one day ill feel perfectly fine somewhat happy next ill terribly depressed suicidal feel giving really interested music psychology distract life anyone advice cope anything general decided kill tomorrowi tried tell mother left live got screamed life worse mine got support made decision easy guess well good look rest brother killed want himtwo days ago struggled depression much longer better healthier happier lonely depressive feelings come back want take one guns wont think want still live miss abbie thing lawyer ace attorney reacts obviously im saying know law lawyer course thing always got react first case first episode anime dont think first trial good idea react considering sole purpose world building introducing player game mechanics plus know legal system ace attorney mix japanese american legal systems meant satire japanese law say perspective american lawyer dont see issue much tho see japanese lawyer reacting probably somewhere niconico think either way id see lawyer critique another ace attorney case first trial tbh know long still theres kinda issues critiquing first trial id kinda wan na see accurate whole game little year shit mistaked year said year s lessons now wandering corridors turned around said im year believe short looking young teenage curse adults dream help pleas crush asked go swimming house barbecue dad friends im person invited dont know whether tell barbecue ask likes wait bbq say something nice time ive known years done multiple things let know probably likes resting head shoulder hugging suprising al actually years existence gave birthday present school yea think say yes boyfriends th birthday presents hi everyone boyfriends birthday weeks current bought leather phone case name engraved limited edition hungry jacks cups missed plan self care basket couple colognes face wash mens bath bombs baths lot overthinking lot worrying might suck found smart watch thought might good work dosent one still looks classy classy watch idea lego set stormtrooper one always jokes getting lego display one probably actually already know getting birthday necklace replace one currently wear time ahhhhhh teenage boys please help someone willing help pm next days decide great tldr struggling figure bf th begginning worry ive gotten idk want kill self never open eyes life purpose anymore depressed want end life cant handle abuse anymoreim living childs mother cant handle abuse anymore ive living months im trying scrape together much money away im employed anymore stupidly took parental leave help son past days constantly insulting berating calling liar piece shit useless scum worthless telling leave tomorrow shell call police enough money rent place im living scraps unemployment even kicked yet mention im bankrupt credit good luck finding place love son cant handle abuse either put abuse im homeless homeless god knows long family stay nobody takes claims abuse seriously im man say suck handle cant handle week days long enslaughts gaslighting insults need cant anymore hope son forgives hes old enough understand want homeless want put abuse fucking want drive car brick wall lake im polar opposite guys say one traits probably opposite trait childhood best friend left amp im redflag watch basically grew together moved terrible childhood step father always drink call bitch amp threaten mom never showed cared tell loves etc importantly ex best friend still alive today come try cheer crying wanting attempt time passed things started become weird started getting relationships slowly everything became distant still tried hang wouldnt engage conversations anymore even try uninterested think made believe wasnt important text argument whole situation believes meant different paths said goodbye never made sense chose go different path rather tell feel broke dont know life anymore friends drink everyday cut desperately hit really think wasnt good enough please help day posting subreddit im yeah day go questions answered always stream twitch game whats amount trouble leaving high school early please help im tired wan na uber home brian wesley eure works security firm owned mr norton conrad bain norton firm financial trouble unknown owner employee selling secrets rival firms owner jim bacchus brian loyal faithful employee good inventor mr norton patience brian part nortons beautiful daughter casey valerie bertinelli thing brian norton questions brians motives wooing brian come great security device called chomps stands canine home security system device looks dog actually computer controlled animal ability knock walls emit siren sounds capture burglars rival owner sends two bungling spies one red buttons learn details new invention chomps save norton security fun family flick old school good clean entertainment chomps course real dog played adorable talented benji fact benji duel role brian real dog named rascal watching little dog action pure joy able scale walls pull trucks operate machine buttons capture bad guys human cast quite nice everyone giving upbeat performances infectious costumes scenery production values good although may trouble locating film well worth effort secure view closest loved ones chomps wonderful wholesome diversion worlds woes actually worth somethingi cant really contribute society im music education major education important music isnt nothing mankind future solve poverty disease sits distraction anything truly productive maybe take construction job become truck driver way real educators teaching stem go wrong love science ive wanted astronaut forever thought good math failed last calculus test understand basic astronomy gon na helpful anything earth theres even argument made lack importance space exploration much love space much really contribute mankind everything enjoy important way something matters even go even end point know stuff sounds eugenics support really cost money food time resources energy people care needs teenager opinion wasnt allowed unpopular cuz ban wasnt racist george floyd killed unrightfully thats police brutality know black doesnt make race problem literally highly doubt police killed racist cuz didnt race inferior mentality something terrible race literally every race including whites died way george reason say lives matter cuz literally every race dealing use house fire concept house fire wont water houses fire youd water house fire ok multiple houses fires want save im hungry want im laying lazy hell ill shed skin snake eat finished algebra work early im bored af someone help oh great fucking family believes lives matter might hang ngl mums making fun shit gays saying lives matter shit im fucking done feel cant go anymoref depressed long remember everything feels struggle tired feel hopeless dont know want anymore dont know feel exhausted trying feel burden every bad thing happens fault wish life feel light happy joyful feel running away dont want go anymore suffering world cant eat cant concentrate think big fuck one likes love everyone leaves tired suffering feel good nothing feel drowning went therapy long time spent lot money parents cant pay anymore cant forget thats happened past failures mess ups feel cant anything right deeply unhappy feel dont deserve live stab chestim sure work try scared know hurt lot life care anybody thinks need build enough courage thats im going trouble dad bought shitty camera system context stepdad setup cameras corners house usually uses check took dog yesterday guarantee took dog every time supposed bought crappy cameras even worse motion tracking believe took probably going grounded hell saw move paris may debating mission impossiblei glad choose oss funny might well watch french movie france great time recommend important understanding french society today really enjoy humor movie wait dvd come know jeu de mots puns translated english ll certainly buy ps saw brice de nice movie starring dujardin kids talking france movie comedy sillier one imaginein comparing movies say dujardin good job oss last hopeim tired im hurt im lost world uncaring torment left rot hands held facade caring eyes years loathing happiness finally coming close say dont try happy fault im tired helping last one hitting hardest left thr lips one called love one asked fiance earlier ones coming mouths blood line asked happiness torn grasp maybe years time shut cover old beaten tale maybe right tossed dogs im tired fending darkness closes upon light finances grim lost jobs cared hold love slipped cluthing fingers fate snickered wickedly woth every passing moment darkness looks inviting begging join eternity think ill answer call things cis men never understand periods fr cramps hormones cravings bloating sht comes periods pain someone leaving toilet seat find clean toilet outside dealing sexist men extremely demeaning women saying feminist automatically assumed blue haired liberal instead actually believe equal right women idk started writing anyone talk toi need someone talk situation humanity people wearing masks respecting social distancing protestors tearing symbols freedom civil human right calling white supremacy years ago anti vaccine movement happened people thought smarter doctors phds earth flatglobal warming isnt real even goes way back s people denying basic science seems basic human trait now feel downfall civilization thank coming ted talk note hope help people understand one day thank youdont read last night first night thought enough energy never real felt brain numb tears anxiety focus hopelessness hopelessness self esteem hopelessness hopeful thinking go exact spot dreamed happening sticking decision moment walked front door never wanted leave note im gon na start see dont want call seasonal depression captive depression nonsensical depression proves useless curable wan na call restless hopelessness nothings left sad feelings go numb literally feel bliss go body im still imaging nothingness dont know mind goes drifts dont wan na make sappy note sticking facts logical non sensical ironic sounds coming depressed kid dont sad leave angry drive find real cure patience cure comes happy patience support dopamine drip kidney failure patient striving transplant surviving medication theyre skin turns yellow family love drove resenting emotionally ugly treat everyone great mask fact really another spec star dust universe doesnt care im ash want listen make note want understand really feels even though brain body hopefully never will want listen tell working pushing harder isnt working need reason emotion great life strive cant reach try ill never see really feels normal name every reason wrong dont convince im wrong convince brain subconscious convince sadness less sadness others take care mourn sadness others dont want share mind clearing always trys best moment carve path clear view one days storms going thick wont feel drowsy day hope whatever hell pushing little mercy love guys love dani driving test tomorrow hey everyone huge congrats already got licenses hopefully ill joining soon im small town dmv isnt testing highway roundabouts point turns im nervous covid getting license super important advice strats experience nothing pretend horny jail officer check post history determine horny jail sentence havent eaten yet todayi havent done anything wrong situation im girl causing depression right still genuinely dont believe deserve eat sometimes tell someone im vegetarian try brag eating meat im punishment never day life craved meat something ate completely lost taste people even offended created meat something im telling eat anything either literally dont dont weird failed attempti tried kms night let cousin know cuz always talked wanted come kids morning well rang police arms messed nothing family kids week completely childfree yrs considered away thats ideal time ive trying hold call social services hour ago questioning ability children police woman night condescending cow smirked whole time made report sound way worse cousin never called police im worse position im sat tears meds ready need see children one last time cant video call cuz family members know something stop thinking writing letters still see need hug feel terrible leaving hate life much ss crawling one thing cant handle kids things got bed im good mum every day even want lie bed waste away look appointments kids things kept even sometimes feel enough im actually fighting whether drunk night im sober feeling overwhelming im going potter round tidy wait sign dunno sign looking something good happen make decide stick around something bad push past tipping point read far thank really needed tell someone feel safe knowledge going call police family members hate school hate ive tried reaching people one cares one even acknowledges feel school fucking hard cant anymore cant stress constant burden ive tried believe make dont believe anything anymore theres one answer hate school hate much fuckin hate school feeling nothingnessi literally motivation anything ive trying go make plans friends feel empty inside irritated cant even breathe right redflag crosses mind everyday ive made close bonds people broken died genuinely wish wasnt sad time wasnt numb feelings forced constantly crack joke keep people around feel tired started getting high pills tolerance started getting higher really dont want take pills high wan na find something makes whole feels something missing itch cant scratch im really debating ending point omg realized people never seen meme entire lifetime pigs never look directly entire lifetime im really desperate dopamine right miss someone miss someone isnt valentines day post anything fact nice evening watching movie friends miss someone much cant go day without thinking probably paranoid im scared ill never see evidence suggests im wrong cant trust calm every day think voice smile everything rough five weeks us want safe safe themself cant holding goof arms never letting go late im going sleep now goodnight miss ask anything life uncle lives stroke survivor answers vaguely hes fine ask unappreciative part come fact asks something say imply gets completely mad shell go love stuff daddy disappointed fine ill never ask anything cant switch thoughts offi got ill christmas time broke someone seeing long seemed perfect person asked thoughts taking step forward seeing question says cant thats nothing point gone wrong sent really nice messages voice mail literally telling really really liked ive break ups cant shake one even though short romance feel never meet anyone quite cant head due illness norovirus lost almost stone weight trouble sleeping days thoughts ending point started thinking best way went doctor help im antidepressants moment begins c cant remember name ive days now trouble sleeping given sleeping tablets still keep waking went back doctor took away refused give anything make problem worse ive feeling better want end end recently massively cant sleep less two hours days ago found likely made redundant end february cant sleep thoughts driving crazy want stop appetite drive carry anymore really know im posting guess want vent cry throw go away wish antidepressants actually made feel happy holidays worstnot dont want others happy reason seeing everyone laughing fun amp actually living reminds empty life people much trouble living im feeling worst today beginning holidays relate kurt cobain tbh wan na start band become popular hang age join club lmao live hopelessive done things power improve im done remember thinking things better arent ive lived life wrong nothing mitigate fact done cant want thats clear now dont know existing til enough people whod impacted death dead point im getting less less concerned offing letting fallout happen ive never wanted hurt anyone sustainable reason continue regret tearing apart every moment every day point cant see honest appreciation post uhonkymommymilkers thanks bro going deeper deeper hell going hell keep going fuck star signs date someone favourite element acceptable thorium plutonium theyre good based marry right now uranium thats red flag leave relationship immediately normal excited simply things jump around im happy friends noticed excited little things lightning fire science army plane flying school ill jump getting excited saying look plane thats cool laugh sometimes flapping arms around even try tell act im years old something sometimes make fun thought getting excited little things normal everyone telling andersons animation easily rivals pixar goes well beyond anything ive seen disney say story bit abstract find thoughtprovoking refreshing change exaggerated characters bumbling animals typically found animated shorts interplanetary version castaway anyone left safe harbor home gone lonely frightening place readily identify forlorn microbe excellent work mr andersonbr br cool title spent hour recording minecraft playstation youtube press share button twice find wasnt recording fuck societyjust kill already dont want live abusive society kill end laugh dead body remove people make us extinct perfect model society stays intact never try help warped sense justice fuck never accepting hospitalizationi went psychiatrist wanted hospitalized now therapist ive always told want hospitalized said put psychiatric hospital dont want think itll happen point im scared fucking tired pretending betterfrom everyone family counselors friends keep feeding bullshit feel put pity bs everyday wish owned gun done already even sad tired life terrible nothing bad overly happened trying disability years mostly making people happy pretending life shit look forward nothing anymore everything seems huge waste time think real conversation anyone months now reason even still alive want upset anyone thats even starting go dont care hole everything even honestly expect anyone read respond want least something truth somewhere anybody want message directly long short term matter feel shit dm anyone im trying serious bodybuilding need help im weigh lbs ive working year routine works without proper diet cant changes want diet recommendations greatly appreciated view risk posting til obtain happiness day happened able post pictures going new years resolution end thinking new year resolution said dont want introverted anymore shyness want open direct extroverted beginning year changed vocational school focus knew nothing one chance become wanted become now help always kept one thing head insecure something thought something bit long fucking phrase mind helped lot starting talk others start conversation going always kept sentence head fucking time let loose something head sure say thought fuck got head got big mouth love words without many backthoughts putting one joke loudly letting loose thinking things really people think different really makes feel lot comfortable around people becoming open extroverted now makes feel lot comfortable bitches wow u playin yea im playing run cool math games people chase movies featuring audrey tautou seem understand amelie character really audrey tautous real life personality every movie partakes going amelie part part etcbr br now said picked movie simply audrey yes true big gap first scene seen maybe min even miss much fun characters guy lies everything funny guy justifies people run cafe skip bill finding coupons balance loss actually getting characters take quite one best movies ive seen whilebr br audrey tautous character irene overdone sugary girl amelie fact irene rudeness bum asking change caught guard first film irene girl good intentions course awful day disposition becomes sour pessimisticbr br makes film completely great really interesting stories plots building entertaining watch great scenery shots colorful never slow characters actually act best part movie comes minutes left plots start mesh together ride really picks everything ties together makes sense whole butterfly effect blossoms swear best minutes film ive seen quite ending made think damn really lucked finding movie ending movie top notch whoever wrote script brilliant subplots going somehow make tie together sensible manner case make character feel human come alive stale persona used crutch build whole butterfly effect impressivebr br highly suggest movie great film watch anytime mood company alone trying give reasons liveso think ive life going use throwaway see purpose anymore ill dead within hour anyway im dead end job dead end life cut contacts friends become alcoholics drug addicts burnouts parents cut support ill homeless month paychecks longer able cover housing bills strange think life made dramatic turn graduated high school high honors scholarships never relationship even kissed girl hopes though college change things finally able achieve dreams become medical examiner live comfortable life bat things go well failed make new friends college ended hanging friends high school first two years bad well academically loneliness social isolation final caught around junior year college began alcohol heavily becoming might call burnouts followed suit grades fell barely graduated college worthless humanities degree spent following years dead end food service jobs drinking away sorrows basements houses remaining friends finally lost virginity way wouldve hoped slept best friends fiance told keeping silent ruined friendship kicked apartment shared took back left defeated man tried kill year half ago hospitalized three days hopped ativan olazipan let go saw counselors tried back school every time take classes anxiety take fail horribly took numbing way taught drinking even course thrown detox clinic three months ago went bender pulled knife frat boys encouraging kill bunch friends ditched gave friends drinking basements left alone even friends left beginning fade away friends begin new relationships want drag mopiness anymore new year dawns resolved see another sorry long rambling post guess wanted tell story feel amanda always huge crush thank always matter sorry never balls say felt reddit awesome provided hours hours entertainment making feel alone world adios many things wrong able live normal lifei dont know relationships kind unloveable possible start online business able afford dream car college student hello guys currently im college student studying intelligent systems engineering computer science time school hear people age able afford expensive cars makes want able deal essentially found starting business great side hustle outside school limited hours need thanks professors anywho heard many different opportunities make money profitable decently profitable example dropshipping teespring shopify investingday trading ect lot choices decide idk think obviously want worth time money starting business want able able pay school enough money pay new car general best method making money online afford things want thanks much mfs bros hoes dick ass hoe mf really lifehow entertain life empty meaningless feel nothing worthless nothing feel something except alcohol cigarettes really point even free will yes think live need things want really living need adapt worth adapt worth things want u live u free u want live happy possible u happy u things make ur mood go really know life random thoughts yo guys heard usezle worlds best penis wish usezle appeal ancient films one see actual moving image life years ago lot people leaving factory dead none even remotely aware magnitude invention walking shocked read one reviewer call film boring home videos today least one mistakenly identified first film made first film made rate frames per second rather thennormal frames per second br br sure see lot people filing building passing cinematograph way home work curiosity piece dozens reasons least first film made lumire brothers probably stronger impact development cinema individual group individuals history im even staysometimes feel invisible man maybe invisible right word people see acknowledge superficial level think anyone really cares friends brush mention declining mental health youll fine got ta wait ive waiting years depression go away years suicidal thoughts go away theyd even miss im gone talk text call first mostly asking anyone wants hang almost never way around laugh joke happy wallow room waiting day finally free misery already know im gon na crash car hopefully itll enough got ta courage first really sucks growing realizing many people care others yet one cares one asks im got depression despite fact called best friend known years talks really bad times never follows never hey man nope always move ignore emotional kid always whines fuck one cares anyways weird dream became paralyzed forced crawl ground go back old houseit fucking weird cant anymoreim going gun next week kill right left ventricle aiming superior lateral costal margin leading immediate desanguintation instant death lack blood flow brain lv im doctor ive single years work prison ex left fucking warehouse worker offense guys fuck hes dumber rock thats cant take fucking planet anymore billions people cant meet one fucking woman planet fucking heart interest anyone fucking years nonstop schooltraining working one demanding fields nothing one fucking blip fuck fuck planet predict full nuclear war im dead fuck goodbye good riddance fucking assholes doesnt matter hard work bust improve world die alone youre halfway decent human evidence need fucking jesus christ even immortal god fucking killed planet value people fucking care garbage nothing moot see many women abortions end kids people fucking give shit well gone die human race end fuck give fucking horrible humans really want make rope mothers yarn uses crocheting hang backyard scared find ropegod damn universe never letting die thoroughly enjoyed movieand watch time time still ive used music classes school teach kids seem enjoy although wish colorbr br best thing movie grew heifetz died chance actually see master violinist work craft surprised date story line although references reform school outdated boy whose father died raised mom stepfathermost kids today raised stepparents although movie makes seem stepparents cruel angry mother take side defend actions stepfatherbr br musical selections difficult believe find unbelievable child looks play minute waltz year old girl sing aria rigolettobr br really fun feel good movie recommend wish come dvd going hang tonightsick sadness tragedy shit life cant cope anymore please stop dming god jesus love shit god isnt real im alive catsit hurt bad leave dont know much take life miserable day saying hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello possesses value endsadly affluence poorness betrayal loyalty love hate mean absolutely nothing coexisting foundations society little evolutionary concepts holds real value alas die biologically left alone without sacred things consciousness thats keeps comforted end really end know correct sub reddit gorecently met close friend mine narrating story breakup slight annoyance dark humor proud strong nothing affected yada yada pointed feel anything relationship cry infuriated let pass anyway almost years cried started bother long timethe breakup moments smile malevolently think scenarios someone whipping stabbing glass leaving marks bruises cry sort extreme scenarios googled cry even want said might chance might suffering melancholic depression melancholic depression calling beautiful till 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wont care long want disappear nobody remembering im worthless human even good look talented lot people way worse im still complaining makes even pathetic hope today itll work reddit going kill tomorrow nighti cant bring jump height want anything dramatic slit wrists throat anything going draw lot attention opted counter sleep pills vodka come boxes know shops visit sell one box time im probably going take l vodka concern im either going survive complete vegetable end incredible pain submit resulting trip emergency room thinking leaving note things complicated think make things painful leave behind premeditdated months now spur moment descision never tried anything guess im asking likely succesfully end life going cause big mess june still feel suicidal every time relive ended bashing head wall pain brings im hoping posting relieve pain got huge fight friend endrea ridiculous thing tendency year switch best friends normally switched classes thought going ditch anyways police officer talked twitter told depressed wanted die friend told basically kill hour later dad got phone call police saying going talk within minutes knew lived know really matter anyways showed point know coming yet arrived came room finished texting friend exa police came room kicked everyone except sleep top bunk told come one police officer started talking one got phone talking someone think talking dispatcher mcit maybe talked sent officer deemed high risk killing talked oh idk maybe minutes told going go hospital precisely emergency room asked weapons sharp objects answered didnt one officer told normally ride back police car time ride dads car got hospital weird walked officer grabbed number go went sit dad sat beside really want wanted left alone oh well sat called booth asked problem medical conditions questions told go sit called little later different booth got hospital bracelet bunch paperwork nurse lady sent paediatrics unit years old dad go park car parked emergency lane sat waiting one police officers came started conversation school languages know told spanish told speak spanish anyways nice conversation nurse came took vital signals officers told leaving honest psychiatric help said bye left went back waiting another hour half police officer talked came see gave bracelet regular one talked bit left finally admitted room doctor came see really hard talk happened barely speak checked heart lungs make sure nothing physically wrong left minutes later psychiatric came first talked dad kicked dad talked stated crying really hard talked dad dont know called us discussed treatment plans gave dad papers therapy sections said dad receiving phone call follow psychiatric treatments hospital left days later appointment therapist hospital really nice trusted enough tell still wanted kill always long time short term therapist though referred different one hated didnt say didnt saw months wanted tell bad wasnt happy didnt know much longer go stopped going suffering silence police service toronto police service canada names changed im done itat point life age realize im going alone rest life never girlfriend trust ive tried whole thing changing appearance clothing going social lifting online sites im school going degree things going end attractive enough someone im tired hearing oh never know whats going happen im tired hearing advice im done im going live life loneliness im living lite version life full experience im tired hearing oh theres millions people alone everyone see around social media someone im going overdose heroine put end suffering yeah im venting im asking help theres helping trust ive tried im addicted im addicted listening ben shapiros version wap someone please help summary saw guy posted thing plagerised idea january assignments february assignments march tests april assignments may started talking crush june tests july assignments august mark half yearly test september got turtle october many suicidal thoughts november assignments december ask crush says yes year sucked least girlfriend rest family doesnt want new covid vaccine live household mother father christian dont believe vaccines still complete buttholes wondering guys choose vaccine b vaccine reason feel free elaborate comments look forward seeing answers someone dms pronouns bio httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvghneyyhahttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvghneyyha s lmao unfairjust found friend died tragic car accidentdrunk driver smashed great guy always smile face nice everybody wife young kids feel horrible heres guy appreciated life still ungratefully wish death every night wake feeling disappointed im dead kids depend im still dont wrong makes sense ive thinking ending everything awhile today day finally made say used happy years ago perfect life good friends great relationship figure job friends gone faded away part havent talked year today significant said shes longer love ive known long time im blaming going happier without wish best cant start life anymore ive peaked gone hill everything going hill want stay bad times want much open lgbt whats cisgender cis male whats difference pansexual bisexual people think genders non binary genderqueer im really confused dont wan na offend anyone future teacher whos coded years know inspect thought guys might enjoy story quite funny goes nothing one day science class working presentations make planets think well go computer lab make presentations stuff hop computers start researching getting work finished project bit early thought hey use inspect chrome page pretty funny people know though went site relating project ispect make say mr great teacher decided give students show friend next thinks funny go teacher heres happened next hey mr look found website walk computer show text gets super angry though shout hes really great teacher time saw mad messing websites stuff school illegal everyone gon na think theyre gon na matter wait mr hacking inspect affects see hacking even save reload page reload page show reset suspended suspended ive coding years even know inspect hacking im going talk tech teacher talk might able use tech school walks friend burst laughter tech teacher calls talk hey man know ok yep happen went apologize science teacher everything good plus class thats good thanks listening teacher super nice probably bad day something tldr change page say teacher give us free using inspect teacher loses threatens suspend though tech teacher saved directorstar clint eastwoods sudden impact intriguing addition dirty harry series combination crude filmmaking genius mediocre silly parts brilliant classic others compelling gripping pacing numerous echoes first film shoot em make day scene recalls feel lucky one one villains viscerally repugnant first films scorpio actor played minor baddie first one returns harrys partner name fewbr br harry callahan still odds higherups department still mean still tough hes older wearier constant conflicts superiors metaphor inner conflict respect reverence law versus desire serve pure spirit justice two things always compatible incompatibility underlying theme series first film posed simple question victims rights outweigh criminal vice versa depends films answer controversial prompting sequel highly enjoyable magnum force set draw line harrys brand justice pure heartless vigilantism dirty harry many clints roles personification vengeance protector defenseless movie brings back victim case jennifer portrayed sondra locke decides avenge rape nowincapacitated sister ruthlessly hunting ritualistically executing men one woman committed crimebr br without going playbyplay whole movie say mentioned earlier sudden impact echoes first film actually sprinkles little references injokes whole series confusion concerning captains last name example intentional prank believe relationship callahan jennifer neat rogue cop hero found soulmate lady vigilante vigilante victim justifiably standing sisters tarnished rights exchange two end film poetic denouement series one personally fan found quite moving last scene alone makes sudden impact legitimate climax dirty harry collection perfect answer conflict posed first film knock dead pool excellent movie relatively lighthearted suspenseful yet comic thriller featuring harry callahan rather characterdefining film onebr br movie well theaters audiences reagan era found harry ilk quite appealing president frequently quoted go ahead make day blame nickelodeon film barnyard taste women ok basically need help guys im dating someone rn mom doesnt know plan tell today start typical indian film great sense humanity characters pretty realistic great dynamism interpersonal relationships sense guilt grief passion passivity among many characters seeing one gets feel heavy burden years layers layers history social existence one oldest civilizations final scene elephant walking away rural area great footnote ancient civilization yet human relations still preserved nurtured saw dvd two interviews director main actress interesting surprised learn movie done well shown india maybe surprised artistic patrimony rural societies slowly lost inheritance picked younger generations older musicians movie longer living today great film loseshey past months ive lost things made identity live gone leave school financial reasons move back home best friend girlfriend years separated completely fault wanted marry im allowed near cant even drive time license suspended bullshit law ive flashbacks sexual abuse kid mothers relationship isnt best feel completely alone even tho feel closer everyone love point life still feel really fuckin alone ya know focal point light life taken one one empty battle self harm daily basis cant even wear short sleeves outside work scars left ive never depressed entire life hurts light end tunnel turned giant forrest fire serious problems thats effect relationships im paying price alone months ago never saw never saw license school studio friends girlfriend ive attempted slitting wrist didnt work idk dont trust alone support gone long time forever im point giving life trying kill feel burden pain everyone around never enough wrong things stress people good intentions darker sides psyche way abused emotionally neglected childhood feel constantly fight demons adult life ive lost everything due fact ive abused others way ive abused isnt fair anyone ive tried hard change stop shitty person always always insecure ass loser im really interested living anymore due fact everyone everything left life fault fault understand need help serious help positive youtube video numb pain drugs sex years professional therapy want happiness back confidence self esteem live creativity girlfriend best friends money license freedom sense self attempted hang wasnt strong leather belt seconds broke fell floor im alive im sure want better need better ive depressed suicidal almost decade want breathe childhood crushing weight im gasping air breathe itll okay youll fine cuz every time think itll okay im severely disappointed wish wasnt im good people life lot people good wish didnt let bad events manifest inside deeply yes vague didnt want go much detail feel relief writing little bottled im alive ill try best remain healthy mentally even tho easy wrong thing ignore problems want anything care back cant keep letting demons control thanks rredflagwatch existing plz hlp device maybe min plz responq quicklya days ago tried od vyvanse adhdfor awake next morning terrifying hallucinations still aliveapparently need upwards doubledigit thousands mg deadly pills left cant refill another ish tens parents know tried kill self chromebook m max plz respond soon wish use discord use link httpsdiscordggjwdvvhttpsdiscordggjwdvv plz hurry starting panic im going girlfriend abused comfort right months still spent time together literally anything birthday ask actually ask ok admitted forgets vent gets overwhelmed dealing much shit feel one vent therapist said something really hurt therapy makes feel pained maybe reason need vent people feel validated shit felt trauma never validated child alone one worst things mei wish someone hold kiss scars tell protect one child make enough scars people womt able ignore thinking offing know tear friends family logically brain stop feeding thoughts worthless alone recovery hard one sees read thank giving shit minute feel free put mind forever knowing life affected recovery hard one sees gae buying friend chocolates teddy bear valentines day sleeping house bed gae let mom write something sub saved draft proud hi teenagers hope happy school opening hope good semester year dark times need stay strong stay inside go please forget wear mask work minimum wage deal woman screaming calling manager tell place hate type woman see mask tell risking health many people covid joke wear mask cost years ago saw remake sixties classic mini coopers first time remember liking lot now two years later shown television wanted know whether still much saw cinema well answer yesbr br movie team robbers one final job venice italy plan flawless execution perfect escape work rest lives one problem take account someone within ranks split loot wants keep even means kill rest crew one survive revenge one year later los angeles time surviving team members create smart devious plan steal back gold revenge traitorbr br story course original remake original movie plenty goodies offer make forget typical heist action movie certainly one better ones kind action nice landscapes venice real eyecandy story ok special effects stunning even acting good something often see action movie must admit really liked saw give movie well deserved need friend talk toplease pm feel listening crap friend suffers depression implied choice make said suicidal thoughts phone happened argumentthere tension group chat people said choice make another person privately wed see monday school dont already know text mom make sure shes ok message delivered response sent another one meaning either phone ran battery turned know mom usually goes bed earlier dad stays later im worried phones feel wouldve saw message turned phone go bed wasnt first place dont see running battery dont know help ask weird questions yalls turn filler filler filler filler filler filler filler watched movie thinking going absolutely horrible ready corniness bad special effects etc pleasantly surprised say best vampire movie seen certainly worst liked whole alternate realitydream state played movie graphics quite well straight dvd movie liked overall look film enjoyed main character sai usually end hating female leads something kept interested yes make bad decisions expected yes characters stereotypical expecting know id highly recommend movie give chance might pleasantly surprised im putting one guilty pleasures list sexually confused past years im starting give upi began realize depressed year old two years parents divorce pretty insightful child coping going years old ups downs thought hurting killing coping mechanism now began cut stomach point long story short hopeless romantic loveobsessed lonely girl questioning sexuality still found girl fall love straight women unintentionally specific incident enough lost closest gotten girl months ago got hopes played emotions completely dumped hit rock bottom razorblades make feel alive know mess therapist cant figure either cant imagine spending another year alone im thinking ending day looking way commit redflagi yo india sorry make mistakes idea commit redflag mind last year rd june exact yesterday enough made mind kill dont figured way kill figure today best tomorrowif suggestion please share coming reason committing redflag parents said previously india india thing called culture grants basically infinite powers parents whatever shit saying thinking best means verbally abusive physically abusive control whatever life meet remember said yes still living even bcoz incompetent pussy bcoz elder brother different city job let go even life changing oppourtunities past said guilt trapped saying dont think care brother last time saw year half ago thing remember telling problems saying let go bcoz parents cant anything mother whenever something happens answer son forget move even father verbally abuses call shits disgrace sisterfucker mistake forget even beats whenever angry forget still dont father verbal physical abuser remember said life changing oppourtunity guilt trapped give bcoz meant living different city yeah point father made financially viable enough handle expenses living different city basically poor wealthy barely getting food tables dad money sent away enough put food table enough buy bottle rum every single day drunk shouting reason go sleep give example yesterday even today father verbally abused bcoz going library study give context father go outside libraries places study bcoz thinks making excuses house hang friends reality want peace house cant bcoz things happened coming back story want go wouldve son dont go library said paraphrasing except cussing threats motherfucker piece shit want show things wan na teach us huh sisterfucker huh mean never grow nobody going anywhere see leave house gon na break legs trying teach dont know daily routine ready morning leave library yesterday dont know happened yes today thing topic adding new abuses new threats bastard gon na shoot things father family whole think sums bcoz one incident going things whole life yes decided kill dont know soon figured ideas plz share worth anymorefinally first real friend ive years falls life incredibly greatful somebody felt comfortable telling anything everything without judgment convinced throw away everyone life knew nothing even remotely good last guess know tried worth live much pain im going spend time tying things life join marines lived instead guys teacher die cause one mine fell stairs houses redflag hotline call popup saying error reddit funit seems inconvenience sorry bug reddit know lot political policy talk today vaccinated today gone make vaccine beacose yo feel stupid beacose born feel autistic karen explain im even horny really want unspeakable mouth hate bfs busy contemplating redflagim male thinking redflag awhile now much hate world depressing hard know parents accept even accept self questioning sexuality caused alot self loathing started cutting years ago scars added hidden cant really find reason bed besides school hate school many bullies homophobic assholes grown ashamed sexuality grew hate church even feel welcome know whats fked best friend christian came attacked bible verses sure long hang help utimoweicthis redditor going worst point life please help theres one watching let give heres post gets likes ill kill see posts anymore seriously stop annoying something original know sleep cycles kind messed unwell currently summer break school making really bad anything day coming episode energy things including go downstairs stay long enough much leads main problem eat enough purpose despite depressed problem body time generally care going body anyway started notice eating day usually crap led host physical problems hair falling usual even less energy constant pit stomach two weeks know problem know fix find energy anything ithow make depressive episode make sure eating foods good looking anything huge simple advice people know make eat morebetter energy imma soon came realization imma seems weird idk makes sense anybody feels im already actual year olds im saying hanging much longer fuck sake shit want die badly want existence end alreadyim tired suffering everyday sickening world even way end successful rub dick cheese schreder feels fucking good everytime cant stop die without anyone worryingi wish fucking device erase memories family friends anyone thought erase brain fucking fiction im called selfish wanting deal shitty pointless reality eventually im able cut everyone people idea died fucking hate humanity fuck idiotic fucking brains dont need emotions fucking horrible regrets want longer exist hard fucking thing ask asian pussy tight really wan na pipe oh god big ass tiddys five embarrassed posting includes topics relating sexuality feel need someone listen going write post inside write literally bunch things wrote someone chatting wrote pretty much complaining way yo gay guy actually turn next week really long time felt really unattractivemy mom says actually good looking need loose weight honestly give little hope still problems even way thinking mom says ugly one school felt attracted never came school even know gay guys wonder guy liked really think got reason girls liking even single girl interested years studied school years classmates people years one showed interest honestly makes sadand makes doubt moms wordsside note posted pics subs person saw profile keep mind nsfw dislike see please continuingi think really obvious insecure size penis explain properly well already saw dislike size color fine shape fine glands fine curve fine foreskin unhappy size color wish bigger inches color resembling pinki know use worrying two things know something control idea much frustrates feel ugly unattractive unlikeablethe hope left working loosing extra weight even inches long inches thick truly bone pressed length even tho people say averages honestly enough fine tall wanted fine smart thought fine lucky love fine boyfriend fine many things willing accept many bad things one perfect pretty much something beautiful poorly endowed frustrating unhappy weight change unhappy height well cm even though tall short either kind helps feel somewhat cutewell help feel cute already feel uglyyou know even sort playboy one night stands fooling around casual sex sex deep meaning want find true love want find someone special loves love willing work hard earn someone love special someone honestly feel handsome enough someone feel handsome sexy beautiful see see someone attractive handsome sexy beautiful depresses much thinking making someone settle less settle wish good enough feel favor want someone loved one loves truly desires want feel love blinds order methat end message wrote personi chatting people things end well ended feeling really sad despite kinds wordsso writing hopefully people struggle sexuality something wish anyone maybe understood people understand feeling really downagain entire family enjoyed film including small children great values without sex violence drugs nudity profanity zillion dollar special effects added try misdirect viewers poorly written storyline simple little family fun movie especially songs movie got hear portion songs mostly end credits love buy sound track cd movie th bill hillman movie guidelines mentioned movies want kids watch hillman fella risk rating love movies teacher show english teacher super stuck grades weirdly doked grade participation english know meaning got lucky teachs thank god one nice teachers wrote email asking better reasonable one sided great teacher btw never replyed naming names thing class rude today never said anything didnt start meeting alot kids class confused thank ms morelas drama need helphey guys ive recently struggling lot issues surrounding situation feel wrong way though circumstances push way come loving household good friends plenty money people love motivation bed morning nothing seems worth anymore little things used enjoy felt nothing biggest passions ive birth dont interest anymore ive looking options im optimistic im finding difficult fix problem true source dont plan committing redflag time aoon im trying take preventitive action late anyone please talk mei need talk someone soul mate died dont see reason continueshe died almost two years ago closer anyone absolutely inseparable even birthdate tattooed know im never going miss weight bury want die im much pain losing even sleep dont reprieve nightmares death feel void life wont go away death seems long awaited rest hard life guys im freaking fuck mum booked skin cancer check without knowing im go brothers done literally woke went forgot put underpants im self conscious fat ass body full body scan holy fuck im nervous know probs wont judge im still nervous every reason happy im notive always naturally smart know bright future cant pull together lately laziness symptom depression know procrastinate feel guilty feedback loop parents im child im starting care less less financially terribly well crater marriage intact mostly mom want grow without dad still think clean water food money consume throughout hypothetical full life worth possibly contribute motivated anyone social anxiety cant real conversation anyone every time open someone never works either take granted make joke leave ive sleeping hours every night skipping breakfast every day grades getting worse cant seem snap cant bring care things used death obsession cant stop researching methods degree pain fatality rate stories redflag impossible look tall building without speculating think say loved ones deed much haunts dreams thought many potential death plans cant keep count many instances hypnotized car headlights ive even gotten middle streets running last possible second every time run parents much better pay college ive give passions music sports grades end even grades shit now siblings succeed thats fucking worst overarching meaninglessness everything everyone sun decay none mattered part thinks world better everyone committed redflag right now humans done earth bad god real im going hell heaven im going decompose im fucking afraid mother told aborted right im gon na pussy ill ill right look forward aftermath anticipate although forget month entirety peace past couple months really bad soreness tightness upper back neck sometimes gets stiff barely move head first thought physical injury went doctors xray find anything notice flares im anxious tried many self massages creams baths pads name one favourite films whenever although admit one time missing foxtel last yearbr br despite age film look story even though itd done thousand times still felt entertaining one two little niggles story looked past enjoyed film wasbr br overall give somewhat short first listen critics bad say sniper uses classic movie formula many dismiss immediately flawing movie sniper reflect truth countrys military snipers work give know nothing professional sniper glimpse world sniper yes movie many flaws movie doesnt many good scenes good acting tom berenger say worst scenes beginning movie billy zane helicopter followed zane marines bar scene best scene sniper berenger middle field opposing force sweeping plenty good shots jungle classic shots using camera though looking riflescope yes sniper motto one shot one kill judge sniper yourselfbr br hatredi cant wait fucking hang fucking hate world mean nothing world keeps reminding day want leave good morning day delete reddit account someone explain jsjsjjsnsndndndndndnndnxmcmcmcmcmmcmcmcmcmfmfmfmcmfmmfmdmdmfmfmfmfmmffm fill space post masterful piece filmmaking many themes simmering occasionally boiling warts study poets bohemian selfindulgent wartime years span aerial bombardments london outward tranquillity welsh coastal retreat borderlines friendship lust love dedication art experience versus practical concerns jealousy rivalry cowardice egotism versus heroism selfsacrifice mature subtle script suggests occasionally brings dramatic focus underlying tensions well served perfect performances apart odd inappropriate smiling keira knightley prone though perhaps direction time characters often mention exquisite visual composition moment inventive elegant use closeup camera angle lighting including pointillistic faux home movie footage wonder joy behold continuously beautiful look bertolucci relationships convincing narrative engaging masters work rare type film days holds attention stirs emotions without abandoning artistic integrity succumbing manipulative superficial shortcuts nothing lefthey yall first post burner account ah well goes im f im pretty done life im going kill month great academic success beginning college im barely scraping never show class im going fail ive local community college years almost unemployed psych hospital used work got shut due lack funding im social major helping mentally ill people truly passion love connecting people taken away havent able find job dont know ive literally applied jobs last months nothing follow interviews etc debt isnt debt seriously im fucked much fucking debt pay ill never able deadend career field social work mental health social services disgustingly underfunded know im never going job makes happy pays well im even trying rich im literally wanting able afford bedroom house bills relationship well im engaged fianc weve years choice moved engaged feel suffocated sex experience guy ive life consensual im wanting explore open sexuality feels dead end overweight isnt overweight lol yeah im fatass fuck addicted sugar diet im highest weight entire life lbs job promise didnt work applied residential care assistant mental health facility deals women children affected addiction amazing interview passed background check drug test well said case work hours start full time case manager good salary fucking happy called told found someone work dollar less requested crushed told problem ill work hour instead well nope new lady already starting got case worker rca fuck right basically plan kill sometime month everything eating alive medication doesnt help nothing helps one fucking soul empty feel absolutely nothing plan slit wrists bathroom bleed ive struggled long im done make loved ones dont anything super expensive really valuable eh happened liked girl really cute really good friends awhile gaining courage ask going friday asked honestly awesome course said yes many probably compare finally feel happy awhile sorry bad grammar make girls laugh make guys laugh man always funny kid male friends agreed point hell girls weirded make joke anything slightly masculine straight anything anyone relate going joke point view female classmates laugh poor kid class getting bullied something really cant understand dont knowive thinking lot lately honestly main thing holding back mom specifically pain endure go cant help think way regardless much love believe secretive person speak problems anyone hate feeling charity case especially feel someone feeling sorry know everybody goes shit understand problems dont want mention problems trust taking toll long time ive trying justify committing redflag even death dont want hurt mom sometimes drive late night close eyes hoping crash something end make stupid judgement calls end dying purpose feels ive pain long remember movie modern day scarfaceit toesthis movie one rare epic films makes want sequeli especially liked damian chapa performance deserved academy awardwhich deserved performance blood blood outthe thing behind scenes show intensity movie hadand seen less narrated scenesbut movie great top ten movies timeplus acting great bad scene moviei loved jennifer tilly perfect well casti cant see anyone movie greatdefinitely must see supposed help sick people training trauma certain diagnosis good excuse profession sick therapists able reject guess im writing story know post promote please appreciate terrifying writing nothing gets better saturday need everyone hates better favour continue hang one day tired found femoral artery isnt bad go sleep late late sleeping late always seen unhealthy wouldnt unhealthy gon na early sleep sleep idk almost year old trans woman live south transitioned teens mentally female long remember transitioning blessing curse gender dysphoria something wish worst enemy transitioning simply label anything sexuality wise gay male never felt true even though assigned male attracted men always identified internally straight female graduated high school online tried public school stop going bullying harassment finally transitioned felt excited happy years went dysphoria got worst became unhappy parents divorced still feel somehow responsible party always problems always felt strain put family parents work redflag bad vomit shake feel every single person looks knows judging two past notredflag ended terribly always blame truly feel unlovable matter many surgeries hormones feel inadequate inhuman nothing elevates sadness want die peacefully painlessly make better transgender female lost momim sorry anyone help figure sooooo theres girl pretty simpy tbh hung small group time texted time quarantine started start lot convos friends knew liked kinda surprised never told hug time pretty sure liked back one day late may year school hosting virtual trip basically idk call really matter grade big zoom together playing games kinda fun bit lul snagged phone dmd snap asking quarantine telling felt basically said better worded quarintine u want go mall together ive liked wanted tell person really opportunity really spending time really nice saw face zoom pretty surprised lil awk ig really back said sweet liked added want relationship stay friends naturally accepted moved dont worry im incel friend party week two ago really cold outside sitting fire something upsetting kept going inside talk friends finally came blined right towards sat cuddled basically lying blanket together put hand really close butt sat getting go bathroom stopped texting much told texting little bit still nearly often tho im really confused means anything came want ask likes case random makes things awkward girls guys experienced relationships know whats going guys got rid griddle gang used group people griddle cook bacon hot dogs band made gang disband pretty sad school among us livestream pink shirt day lunch science teacher turned stream staff playing among us poorly run thing ive seen got secondhand cringe honestly though applaud effort theyre couple months late among us party code screen managed join lasted seconds kicked name stalin kept putting chat cccp nothing wrong entire school saw pretty good day im finally going back school first quarter freshman year dli people person finally convinced parents let back school know nothing works classes wish luck wont believe american british asian may believe latin america exists anyone experience overdosingif say effective pills overdose pills easily obtained counter painful long take lose consciousness life lie minecraft achievement taking inventory talking inventory oh got told friend home end school im writing might lost kidnapped oh someone tell way kill myselfi wan na die dohi everyone new friend starting know pandemic hit touch regularly started work home locked drifted part reached week ago said looking change thinking moving new place find alarming yesterday sent message ask said bad giving short responses something alarming asked call tomorrow said maybe went completely silent stopped responding messages called morning times throughout day sent several messages ask okay got responses know well know lives alone works healthcare think likely understand concern send text back let know okay maybe embarrassed something ignoring reasons know know address last name first name phone number know anyone knows know reach us worried fine may really annoying needs help late tips advice please let know realized something trixs cereal brand rabbit rabbits parts magic trick pulling rabbit hat trick kids love limbo alltime favoirite movie set wa hilairious excellent cast including group three gorgeous actors russell crowe arthur back day actually looked hot short hair facial hair aden young barry mcjannet craig adams ken riddlebr br ken senior high school student obsessed sex becomes expelled selling pornographic drawings classmates starts new job uncles clothing factory becomes close another new guy barry mcjannet buys car go pick chicks become mates goodytwoshoes geek arthur baskin crowe three guys drive kalgoorlie vsit brothel lose virginitybr br watch classic long trying hold dvd soundtrack anyone let know got em ok coffee time back hour mean time somebody explain experience romantic attraction coz uhhh fuck hellish year life amp constant suicidal ideation still writing tell better even currently feel embodiment hopelessness long post apologize encourage read thanksthis journey pit hell began last summer around june time broke barely afford rent take nightshift job grocery store make ends meet lost exhausted want live anymore remember pacing room thinking hanging make problems disappear felt unrecoverable failure one evening way work frantic call mom place asap explain terrified sped house cop cars driveway go inside take seat next mom one officers explains verbatim brother involved shooting died im going delve specifics brothers death following months mindnumbing confusing heart breaking months life listen dad openly grieve scream console mom shattered pieces explain friends made feel weirdo failure live guilt ie prevented happening first death id experienced know cope nature brothers death completely fucked emotionally mentally completely disconnect order preserve last iota sanity left selfisolation depression disassociation anger world began dark messed things monsterish behavior contributed even suicidal mindset guilt amp shame literal voices head tell kill daily basis deserve live months able different job remember one day overwhelmed everything going simultaneously felt getting running door planted mind day kill even texted friend abroad tell going last rest year probably going hang fightflight response insane took everything keep going daily routine without harming running away new city car died permanently final straw already felt backed corner even means running away wanted damn near lost mind broke front dad cried openly felt money brother dead even car point make hardest decision life go help want either kill continue living hell reach someone started going therapist mom seeing time unloaded everything honestly felt bad endure say immediate improvementin fact airing problems someone actually seemed justify redflag times continued going started implementing things help cope shitstorm eventually decided needed even help requested put antidepressants ive mg lexapro months undoubtedly saved life medication therapy able start climbing depths hell start moving forward life easy last months shittiest time years existence im still damn im proud cant believe actually went made end course still days life perfect year brother died im still emotional suicidal thoughts crept times overall im alright might getting different job soon pays little ive started hanging friends feel pieces slowly falling place thats story im going sit bullshit saying better know situation say absolutely better redflag isnt always answer answer getting help realizing external assistance way id set aside stigma fear medication put footwork finding people help worth end even another tragedy strikes near future absolutely know take fuck ive already trudged hell made feel take anything thank reading want something lifei feel nothing life literally nothing fucking day except school homework phones broken friends literally feel nothing literally feel nobody likes wants cares wants friend feel alone end want stop know feel mess everything fucking people say omg friend people people treat shit point tight l definitely suicidal homicidal life gone s feel entire system supports betrayed anybody help back reason feeling overwhelmed appreciate little helphello throwaway account young close eighteen years old trouble coping mental instability outside sources stress hallucinate badlyto point fullblown panic attacks force day school around people nauseating terrifying know need sort help family afford sort treatment last time went parents concern mental health believe ive episodes mild hallucinations previously theyve never prolonged severe people usually talk responding calls messages person trust seen told believe anymoreabout anything im feeling lost alone appreciate advice feel free ask questions answer best thank time konvers sparrow edit forgot mention things struggled depression selfharm thoughts redflag gone away hallucinations started feel though options deserve im going think killing often now moment seems better alternative anything right now big fat vent todays birthday feel alone parents working cant go anywhere im self isolating planned call friends one said gon na play videogames got birthday wishes ive screenshotted stared hours make feel better feel im going insanetheres way escape misery anhedonia fucking unbearable enjoy absolutely nothing motivation really really want live happy life holy fuck fucking fed feeling every single waking minute day must admit sceptical documentary expecting kind american propaganda europe dislike much wrong propaganda fact hardly political allbr br depicts events eyes firefighters called scene planes crashed amazing coinsidence documentary filmed film initially shot documnetary rookie ny firefighter becoming man thank film makers continued work terrible ordeal faced thembr br great piece work absolutely stunning material highly recommendedbr br regards got death threat ppls pretty scared ngl hey whatcha gon na wan na join cool discord server hey really nice teens discord server talk pretty much anything friends channels stories art music hobbies games pics selfies advice many stuff custom made bots play games mafia cards humanity ouija private cross platform minecraft server super nice atmosphere always fun hang dm want invite got whipped cord right didnt hurt tbh redflag hotline called copsi often feel suffered suicidal thoughts entire life encouraged call redflag hotline felt need talk someone well called cops cops couldnt find house dropped neighbors asking cops finally find knocked door opened several neighbors standing across street watching cops ems truck parked driveway cops wanted name police file cops said anyone access file wanted story thats neighbors talking theres police record never call redflag hotline regardless feel im suggesting dont call youre really danger youre calling need someone talk dont surprised life really messed afterwards police come chat ps first didnt want give cops name threatened put cuffs arrest take station told live small town neighbors really nosey local cops know thinking moving shame feel tremendous calling redflag hotline left redflag called ironic literally impossible turn life aroundim transgender hormones years almost ive worked fashion choices gotten good makeup good haircut soso voice cant pass anyone im treated assumed femme gay guy matter regularly stares comments made loud enough hear laughter glares sometimes slurs sometimes people following passiveaggressively shitty service businesses go taken advantage guys know ill sleep lie tell im pretty facial feminization surgery least shitty field choice making time soon plus suspect surgery much effect ive seen results changes usually subtle ie pushing someone andro femme masculine femme im fucked regardless im sterile hormones know easy tell people keep trucking keep going care people think lets real dehumanized every day matter went mental health pretty shitty right liberal city anywhere escape whats even crueler im smart im qualified im definitely happy everything one horrible thing ruining life wish opened pandoras box cant go back cant go forward literally one thing want life thing give everything impossible maybe people mental fortitude keep going think im one online friends leave everyone dont even know happened maybe fault go never return two friends disappeared month close nd one really really close make mistake doxx unknowingly wan na let kill myselfi live second story apartment means hang use knife jump window im sure ill die jump id hit head use knife easiest way yo boy got ilets exam lets goooooooo anyone miss black app icon know black lives matter damn looked good right gone quick help best ways rid boner quickly proper life advise right anyone grizzly bear love lt tell favorite song help make safety planso many friends last time felt worst really close ending things texted best friend time come turned tired test next day managed fall asleep night knows felt less awful morning knows learned cant rely anyone next time felt bad yet ive started unable sleep feel bad way back tiredim damn tired school im damn tired constantly depressed suicidal want enjoy life cant schools fucking sideways im struggling keep grades maintaining even bs struggle used think smart actually dumb thought smart memorize dumb stuff elementarymiddle school ive mistakenly taken honorsap courses im paying price always thought werent honors youre idiot youre honors automatically smart see isnt case hate school life regret decisions looked joke know porn kim jong un wife unsee rapunzel rapunzel let cuddle hair looks soft bet comfy lie nap workif take sleeping pills attempt kill many need take fatal even fatal purpose die hypothetical beg dont love dw wont want fail brain damage fail strong enough ate enough need try something stronger everyday harder harderfuck suicidal people dont actually want die want answer problems decision made decisions seem impossibleso much dont want kill sense want end life want answer problems want stop feeling pain quoted httpwwwthecalmzonenethelpissuesredflag plenty written mamets house games good decided revisit flick see held years surprised much enjoyed viewing films success durability probably much two principal ingredients always fun film good story good scam mamet manages bring signature moodiness obvious histrionics film scamming us audience mark simultaneously explains art conning etc building story house games freebie cable worth look first timers okay rerun mamet fans b want go hellfor longest time felt completely useless stupid absolute failure future cant public speaking horrendous critical thinker writer spend time home trying finish masters thesis helping family restaurant working next medical school application rejected th time honestly idea want mediocre researcher absolute shame field embarrassed quality work fun around friends finally cut loose invited hang even make effort reach see everyone pass stay stagnant future prospects everything touch turns trash stupid keep struggling put thesis together selected flawed project written mcat times idea want life everyone know employed getting married good time im alone stupid waste life honestly tired feeling stupidest person unable anything right want die guts popping pills difficult carbon monoxide sure thing noose hard family home devout muslim redflag means go hell want hit truck cancer mugged killed want done want help die posted times different names really know guess hoping feel better shouting ether know anything one see find oddly comforting spent long locked box know anything anymore knowing one listening one help comfort almost always known end even kid cry sleep knowing one day make everyone everything around miserable lo behold married idiot wanted hope know wanted try fight cosmic destiny felt waiting maybe wrong maybe happy maybe beautiful wife child married years made woman love miserable got beautiful daughter live father someone supposed love people selfish enough involved lives going sort emotional behavioral issues daughter mental illness runs family greedy walk away let live life know wife choose marry suffer waste space time lives much coward end teenager late knew never happy make anyone happy ten twenty years later proof still plain day stop trying live normal life accept deserved know never see sorry truly sorry horrible luck meeting nothing make either hope forget one day lost okay thanksdamn im glad found sub guys great always listen without judging trouble opening people sub perfect sometimes post know theres still good people judge hard time seeing good people good know others backs thank back instagram youtube completely reddtified created instagram account month ago bunch friends forced deleted account yesterday everywhere go felt reddit content stolen reddit make hiveminds similar reddit youtube destroyed text speech voice bot channels read raskreddit meme subs blame youtubers jump reddit content anything feels reddit shit people destroyed good apps serve purpose anymore makes hate reddit hivemind even slice cake one thinking giving someone reddit age funny number made remind nearly year ago make bad joke reason lost hopeim pretty much close giving best moment well almost every moment horrible im seen positive light contuing let introduce im vic yearold last another month hell female im iranian things best born everything going south know lost someone dear months ago hurt aching heart imaginable dear generally sweetest thing seen im relationship girl love know wants pretend go feel let feel im unlovable thing friends nobody likes uncared expect id used now im pain got worse worse really cant wake feeling want start day abandoned things loved life bitter want wake leave whatever reality im living seriously hard cant im sorry appreciate reading left response want thank advice post one tried opening kid turns hes fucking asshole thinks screaming funny putting middle finger cool mother fucker superglued kids pen block wood mind pen borrow anyone elses got ass kicked persons mates maths today laugh people nothing decided mimic saying showed empathy told stop bit violent insulted luckily took bit yelling stop way talks well god damn lifeless bro even give shit conversation maybe reason hes bullied sometimes want somone beat murder im sensitive myselfi know theres people sickens think seeking feel cowardly hurt feel cant punish kill everything need punished weak kill cycle sometimes thought sometimes gets close feeling impulsive im scared actually contact someone one day go makes want prove wrong power shoot instead looks easy parents guns lying around house everytime see scared easily look ive picked handgun scary feel im impulsive enough know happen one day either fall weak let someone night ends waysi posted close milestone previously mentioned come speak anything might sleep much maybe sleep much need counts hours endlessly long painful nothing feels right nothing beautiful everything knives belly anger throat lets stay together tonight day tomorrow going three years last redflag attempt days several months truly felt desire end life go dark quiet soft nothing feels razors beautiful whoever talented gifted abilities many never possess inherently know feeling avoiding mirrors selfharming feeling effort drag school bed know eat want shower lighted rooms tasted sorrow good person worth life given stay tonight watch dawn crests horizon watch colors move sky open window even breathe early morning air beatific things bribes currency trade pain wake morning one day hopefully soon look clear eyes beautiful things everywhere deserve love happiness giving others give life promised easy gentle told things always go way fair promised know worth wake morning bask glow sun stillness rain mornings feel blessed sight read words senses gifted feel recognize feel pain feel joy either find balance go places cant led back many people love many people miss night end ways morning things scary unclear wish pray something better given time find three years im going dance night end ways ok going ok one day hopefully one day soon better stop stop way end feel better fuck fucking wrong fucking actual fuck even supposed shoudlnt gone deserve fuck wan na dieplease wan na know painless way dying nothing going back n forth w sum girl snap expecting fast snap back right bored started tech decking minutes im realizing maybe im getting immediate reply expected reddit cool triangles cooler someone telling cant simp wolfgang animal crossing hes animal fun fact day humans animals people simping belle delphine belle delphine animal people simping pokimane pokimane animal people simping uzakichan god sake anime character animal please go come attack wolfgang animal crossing animal cutest villager series always thats facts soul go one committs redflagpart reason im still im afraid going heaven believe hell earth theres nothing worse soul stays forever form punishment never see loved ones gone may seem silly thing think really wan na rest peace im gone boyfriend killed three months agowe planning together last days chickened didnt second decided absolutely knew always regret really really already person basically love life five years die little year ago overdose struggling hardcore depression years deaths people deeply love adding believe afterlife want badly believe see even dontim tired world fair left alone im tired sad lonely feeling absolutely purpose existence really want exist anymore want write post help vent suicidal thoughts took minutesi unwell dont energy anything order better going drinking sunday afternoon fuck life really urge drink im feeling hollow got text friend miss depressed feeling something felt nothing read take weeks might feel something hope feel happiness hope free fucking brain fog stuns almost anything productivei hope medication work long time stop working weeks took first antidepressant today oppression muslims context hijab headscarf muslim woman wear halal meat islam kill animal certain way symbolize respect animal animal isnt killed way muslims arent allowed consume march french senate made illegal woman age wear hijab trying ban word hijab university higher education mother wear hijab allowed accompany children school trips muslim patience cant request doctors based gender july halal slaughter chicken illegal france oppressing muslims dont live france america say im sick constantly explain people curious people constantly belittling us making racist comments girl meaning wear hijab constant negative looks comment random people seems every time go friends family im always target something middle eastern muslim female us struggle people refuse see im fucking done people acting im normal im im good wearing fucking scarf doesnt hurt believing religion isnt hurting know fact people going comment say people constantly dying im terrorist im muslim dont support stand people maybe educate real sources mainstream media understand dont stand violence gon na feel safe home im scared im done hiding everyday deal refuse say anything bc bigger problems course doesnt make mine less relevant please stop muslim hate consider human want walk public called names guys questions ill try answer best thank reading nice daylt german speakers want invite discord server ill post probably ignored anywaysheres backstory im math major college im greatest ill put time effort love mathematics ton books study read lot try understand goes love everything finals come study arse month ignore world completely study hard crazy still recall material day test thats beans nervous contemplating committing first degree murder opt tried really hard material really difficult failed exam quite miserably tell truth exam hard course grade comes ok big deal see much final grade comes b really fair seeing class average going curve needed mentions class curve college logic come analysis class oh god fail studied hours day class c class cant go graduate school want see high b marks math ive actually contemplating asked around advisor math department said well try getting job live life liking math thats life thats meaningless thought redflag able want study hard show test ridiculous stupid professors help feel useless look material wan na grab kitchen knife sometimes stab nights hold back looking saying cheated multiple times till knock repeat process please help made tutorial open laptop lids tutorial made opening laptop lidshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdkwzjbawy petition cancel garlic bread comment garlic bread canceled boom headshotive thinking redflag long time depression started years ago followed severe anxiety social paranoia early stages depression reached close friend told thoughts going head everything felt bland nothing made happy anymore told phase everybody goes better time waited anxiety started friends started notice behavior began ask acting crazy started ignoring calls making excuses alone answer questions social paranoia came last least hit truck everywhere went felt people watching judging everything whispering behind back even friends weight behemoths much handle confined house years dwell selfloathing disgust years im still waiting better seems worse im running patience know redflag selfish act hurt people left want deal anymore ill remembered coward face problems care less end ive decided rather messy ending ive read painful high fatality rate concern family see need identify body want scar image really enjoyed movie dvd collection baseball movies reminded great sport truly whether america japan failuremy student loans due theyre make month shitty parttime job cant afford health insurance medical procedures ive putting cant afford take care rentfoodutilities im relying almost completely financial help man whos cheated repeatedly wants life now demands happy im interested living life anymore want stop ssenpai place minecraft bbed next anyone game ok play number game think called anyway dose anyone want play dm rather discord great add everyone group chat fine want people want good yeah dm add discord play honestly verge redflaghey hey im eileen whatever wan na call change name often doesnt even matter anymore im year old trans girl honestly im practically verge redflag long time every day wake knowing ill never never happy die alone honestly idea havent fucking killed yet everyday think fucking ending friends everyone know hates im close end might honestly kill soon dont know anymore honestly need support looking koopa troopa yaoi actually find hot help amber heard seen memes bitch want say insulting female dogs dogs higher level call something thank telling couple worker suicidal thoughtsi considering telling close coworker suicidal thoughts scared know take action scared first time life actually kids dont want make sad im honesty edge dont know cant hardly even function work shoots tell co worker title overstates content movie somewhat might lead unrealized expectations frankly speaking theres little panic streets seen fact throughout movie people actually know theres murderer loose may well spreading plague everyone anyone encounters said well done story level suspense starts reasonably high anyway unlike people streets viewer knows whats going director elia kazan builds deliberately plagueinfected killer sought one interesting sidebars found developing relationship dr reed richard widmark police captain warren paul douglas beginning two really even though work together end theyve forged real bond respect kazan good job thatbr br pretty much performances excellent widmark douglas great quite taken early look jack palance playing become typical heavy role found little criticize perhaps barbara bel geddes came across little bit flat reeds wife nancy role really central story excellent piece work anyone told let kill fault diei hate guilt trips sounds theyre concerned dying sake express concerns friends darksuicidal thoughtsive posted friend mine nowdeleted post issue come tldr friend play dungeons dragons together admitted hes felt suicidal child feels cant go due religious beliefs recently friend started playing new character dampd character dark suicidal though felt playing character point absurdity ie dark looped around became funny knowing background several comments worried example character begged ingame god death oblivion expressed conversation happiness impossible something player expressed primary character motivation seemed complete quest kill peace clear roleplaying fictional character one dealt issues thus im sure much behavior player speaking character drawing players experiences necessarily actual inthemoment feelings still found comments rather spooky especially things characters expressed desire guiltfree death followed nothingnesswhich felt rather literal wish fulfillment given hes told previously dungeon master character spin attitude character development hey look heres longlost girlfriend knows really feel way brokenhearted acting help find meaning knowing players background though feel approach best come tonedeaf worst outright offensive addi managed convince character stick around serve death gods churchthough caveat character still gets life free card desired ideal tried nudge character direction admitting life might better finds meaning rather moping fact hes still breathing much ideas talk concerns ive never done im afraid straightup cornering saying im scared dude might alienate make think ive judging himespecially protests playing along really feel way particular ideas saywhat offer terms help feel stupid writing oh wellfor year thoughts killing ive come close several times outside perspective see killing good thing inside every cell body screaming way mental illnesses getting worse friends feel distant world feels far away im space water im screaming course nobody hears cant stop thinking easy slip reach forever feel writing admit desperate writing dont really know maybe see im screaming empty void maybe feeling honestly completely lost day anxiety started im class everyone needs read part text always counted people read part practice read mine voice crack still ruined though want something help small social redflag prevent future panic attacks anyone good experience ssris tldr lexapro panic attacks social redflag months got bad side effects lexapro made moments almost going insane panic attacks redflag maybe slightly better worth cons anyone stories switching lexapro something made less anxious confident hard livei broken afraid kill dont want live husband left someone birthday lost grief devastated lost live exist dont enjoy anything used love barely eat barely bed dont enjoy anything watch tv try loneliness silence work two days week far ive going work used love job hate feels meaningless im going avoid becoming homeless overwhelmed choices make none easy feel im verge breakdown safe space land feels isnt place world death feels place belong hours historythe belt note ready ive given precious clothes shoes survived properly arranged far know homeworks done except leaving im excited years mess suffer die later shorten suffering die terms wish guys success whatever direction went take care guys want people understand meim la convention help run booth never done nervous decided try care people think people started coming talk pretty much everyone understand saying guess voice fucking soft fucking speak damn fast even tried speak slower louder sometimes still understand annoying want heard want socialize normally want friends make friends way im motel room teary eyed previous post rself trip la fun happy im considering redflag im posting instead cant family cant afford therapist btw wish internet self outernet self im lonely want live anymoreive started losing social connections years ago im completely alone even parents lost sympathy know live job decent qualification obtain one dont know wrong melife fine nothing complain feel tired really tried tried tell reason sad things ok dont ungrateful didnt work tried best person part properly make people happy even tried painting happy joyful stuff tired feel everything goes wrong fault didnt tell anyone dont want burden others dont know film guts suggest might best simply accept life keep smiling anyway one excited idea taking charge ones life moving forward felt slapped face thats okay agree movie love respect great acting streep hurt everyone really wonderfully quirky scenes serious film take hanky stop right yes hey day gorgeous human bitches telling everyone polyamorous yeah bitch know ive geometry hard die ive made peace itis unreasonable want certainty death want know try kill work one biggest things struggle want found passed bleeding tub rope break go hospital wake getting stomach pumped difficulty impact itll people around ive isolated much outside people work less handful people know always seems something brother got married mom depressed brother baby grandfather died today moms birthday next week neverending litany impacts death lives want feel stuck helpless yet keep chugging along day relying substance abuse make one next getting closer closer point feel try hope lucky im work feels black hole abdomen threatening disintegrate carefully constructed composure way know make another minutes time leave wish someone save least care regret missed opportunities disappointmentso guess life gone great much worse many respects im incredibly lucky loving family girlfriend reasonable financial security least financially secure year old half decent job prospects education hand really cant take defining feature past years mental illness depression paranoiapsychosis anxiety social withdrawal close friends really mean girlfriend many friends problems deal end think people probably feel hint relief die longer burden help day day feel every step life ive missed opportunities everything year old scared go round friends house older brother loads creepy toys yeah pathetic know feeling depressed go holiday family graduate uni made friends barely scraping know carry im going look back life spent dreaming away disappointing people got close im going anything right now cant really envisage realistic way cant stop thinking ending existing anymore anyone please please help even ur getting pleasure life live youre playing game youre going lose eventually called death gon na die anyways put effort sustain lifeim tired shit everyday even im good mood dont want keep living know future holds job work years find hobbies interests make friends relationship question whats point gon na die anyways dont wan na live til im id rather die young least drugs kill im playing boring game called life want early didnt ask forced stay alive planet earth whoever made planets solar systems etc clearly whoever made humans life wanted us live im playing rules ill kill teach god whoever made reality game life shitty fuck clouds fuck mountains fuck animals fuck everything beautiful things simply distractions true reality death im going distracted consumerism materialism bullshit things called hobbies interests simply call distractions truth definitely gamer couple people family boyfriend little reluctantly decided find big deal fantasy stuff saw dorkness rising thought hilarious slapstick disrespectful enjoy role playing games importantly people whove never gamed enjoy feel left lost trying understand plot acting great field shotsset believable makes want see movies production company cant wait see future holds group three cheers well done wait posting pictures isnt weekend sad true mask cover shelter one thing anotherthings worse worse every day things pile keep thinking im capable taking im stress debt school work hate way make people feel cant take anymore want go sleep much easier currently eating raw bagel havent slept yet need something occupy time idea im posting im probably gon na downvoted oblivion idc endoscopy years ago safely say basically experienced deepthroating sometimes want die sometimes want liveof course want live life went way wanted friends afford go college things wanted etc dont course life beautiful everything want dont enjoyable always feel shit go tik tok instagram wherever seeing people perfect looks perfect cars perfect everything theres none things never wish someone things dont im glad least others stuff want wish say miss lovei miss much want set date new guy feel fucking dead inside want drink bleach id wake next mary wakes next francis end reign want live rest life feeling way want feeling end end long im alive love whole heart suck replying people much said cant come say feel might well say nothing bc dont wan na wrong thing cant alone friendswere chained world got ta pull says alone seriously time us come together find place world feel tough fight battle join greater cause many people die every day lost alone confusion despair hearts stopped system obviously working people anymore change imminent cant ones make change nothing stopping us joining forces healing together one entity let know words mean anything peace yo need help attentionhave wonderful christmas champ hello simple post meant greet happens first post way guns polls allowed sub serious tag maybe mods notices consider polls think theyd kinda cool sub need someone tell im okay want believe itno long post last time im angry sad know help healthy ways anymore selfharm ive done less lately feel worse thing helps alt account fly handle people think assholes maybe feel im never going better im feels doomed know interact people anymore nothing enough thought seeing friends help didnt reminded lonely problems unsolvable theyre even real problems theyre need loved fucking hug anything cant ask help anyone actually know go back work days know cant fucking job anymore im snapping ive snapping months finally happening help sorry much posted days another useless thing make fucking furious reason im immature oversensitive piece trash edit response certain asshole commenters fucking shrink seen summer thanks dick really loved reminded im basket case followed rgamegrumps wonder danny tell someone kill probably right maybe either fucking monsters depressed teens keeps getting worse nothing interests good job work busy feeling incompetent due many big errors making talk boyfriend want burden friends pain find hard continue genuine conversation feel selfish dump feelings onto barely energy converse want overwhelm scare bf either dealing depression holding feeling really close relationship family days spend time alone room doggy sometimes socially withdrawn even know speakwrite feeling fake forced continue work pay rent want live anymore fuck lifei getting stopped watching porn hot back old friend everything getting back together fuck test maths think clearly id probably done fight stress spiraling thoughts crying gave completed one exercise without breaking said fuck send back probably pass math feel im good stress thoughts prevent better time belive feel bomb try life together something bad happens goes shit im gf performing worse worse school parents understand want good grades think every single day redflag see option cant love parents shit never loved want escape shit alone without family without anyone im gon na kill someday turn thats promiseim life complete total shit got friends family members despise even internet people take seriously really wan na live full life old health really starts go downhill ill kill know ill etcbut someday promise right take life away want nobody stop hate society forcing us live film version alice walkers hugely emotive influential novel written largely letters central character celie god massive oscar success rightly sobr br role abused awakened celie whoopi goldberg gave best screen performance miles far behind oprah winfrey sofia fiery woman tamed fate others cast fleshed characters walker introduced clearly page danny glover albert celies abusive husband margaret avery shug force change good willard pugh rae dawn chong harpo squeak susan beaubian corrine preachers wife muchmissed carl anderson best known judas film jesus christ superstar preacher samuelbr br beautifully paced sensitively written color purple justice source opening story involve viewers featurelength drama honestly know doit seems everything slowly getting worse life family constantly telling much failure mother calls pathetic almost everyday playing video games anything meaning insults worse dropped classes work yet im still always broke shortlived relationship someone apparently lied everything treats leper even anything make change feelings randomly hereeven shattered future looks dark pointless know go ive tried optimistic whole time even run im end motivation living waking getting difficult anyone give insight run self control elmer fudd laughing lounging easy chair reading comic book dog comfortably nearby sleeping front fireplace peaceful flea comes bouncing flea dressed farmerstype outfit big sombrero carrying satchel name flea gets telescope spots dog see big shot dogs butt flea whistles excitement screaming t bone sings theres food around corner theres food around cornerbr br sets storyline cutebutobnoxious flea tormenting poor dog mutt hilarious reacts flea br br drawings huge teeth chomping right next fleeing flea clever dogs dialog made laugh loud times might funniest canine seen cartoon poor pooch threat take bath react stupid flea causes pain almost painful watch flea uses pickaxes jackhammers dog puts firecrackers dogs behind brutal one word supurrrrb think see anything long time network cable television watching show taking breath fresh air amid tv schedule filled reality shows boring reruns br br say reservations critics almost unanimous crying foul downgrading show half hour way thank nbc running commercialfree show left feeling instant love love first glance true love one feels guts everything show screamed excellencebr br graphics show least good finding nemo shrek small feat considering movies took years developedbr br cast marvelous partial john goodmans voice rest team certainly par john special mention lisa kudrows guest appearance top game creating neurotic pudgy lovable panda jewish streak panda brooklyn show br br script funny lot inside adult jokes sharp yet tacky note parents children show never advertised theres reason set pm pm complain objectionable context save breath adults deserve comedy made father pride br br everything perfect bit puzzled siegfried roys characters sense stereotype comes yes gay yes flamboyant yes speak german accents thats yesterdays news give us something new something fresh something funny putting old jokes new show definitely wrong approach understand creators show wanted use star power guys thats fine please dwell something everybody already knows heart hopefully rest show going play old record br br general show definitely mustseetv funny witty unexpected twists comedy good seinfeld certainly looking forward next episode omg gunshots guys literally help mom take stuff car car screeches gunshots want kill received wrong type counselingyou look cool fifth vodka well reddit used king castle girl wanted marry wrapped good things times good true broke belittled destroyed past month messy break always manic depressive find little joy anything joy brightest star night said wanted children marriage around commitment today said care live die relapsed sober months life really serve purpose anymore really cant find happiness anything life always felt meaningless sit second guessing decision shooting heart acp going midnight time fear death fear loved ones told even together still want whatever takes make happy staying life completely stated fucking kill already tried failed always failure never amount anything want degree astronomy wtf going fucking failure die ask today may seem sloppy ive posted quite impaired cant seem find reasons go plan already last words paper directed ex love nothing harsh blame memories good times reminding even though wants dead still support everything wants takes make happen edit well odd strange turn events texted morning sorry bitch doesnt understand cant man explained things made believe hard eventually asked sees us said year likely told year ill probably loving someone crush person got mad said dont talk bye said okay bye biggest fat pp move video made school work wasnt rendering properly put fullscreed recorded obs lol bigpp big fan tiny toon adventures loved movie funny really captured cartoons spent summers enjoyed still crazy film seen years successful band s decide give another try start playing gigs seedy european venues hilarious results music fantastic script acting terrific characters spot especially lead singer high heavy metal voice makeup personality problems concert end unreal go see preferably cinema good sound system ang lee clearly likes ease film catch action characters setting hoof emerge covering haphazard endgame american civil war via haphazard actions young militia unformed mind manhood ideal approach film turns formation personalities adulthood relationships lee shows beautiful panoramas midsouth silent character enduring strife hardy parentbr br james schamus script probably standard bearer film close behind number wellappointed performances carry admirably jeffrey wrights name alone carry film hes brilliant slow burning role instead treated good revelatory performances large often recognisable ensemblebr br noble optimistic film one watch fancy harder bittersweet cold mountain claim example dont think live action disney remakes bad ok bye dont know say fuck mod made part mandatory need help preparing therapyhey guys first therapy appointment days want honest cant afford hospitalized suicidal plan months now preparing actively self harm daily impulse attempted earlier week want give best shot know wont hospitalise unless immediate threat know line immediate suggestions appreciated name talk someone right someone herehello people tell gets better dumped feel way still months later feel killing cope sadness carry around wish ex reach hard need music suggestion need song made globalization somewhat clean ive reddit long thought huh im board go reddit ive already reddit minutes anyone wan na chat im bored ill talk anything numbers game dm tired feeling trapped lifemy life nowhere go really dont care carry nothing live nothing look forward im fucking ready end dont im tired constant stress reward even things used enjoy mean nothing anymore hours laying bed think ill cheer something used fun anymore everything chore everything exhausting everything pointless nothing meaning anymore everything come crumbling barely held single jenga block first place dont determination motivation fight wait better hint getting better wish wasnt afraid dying im tired purgatory im alive im shell exhaustive burden im close snapping letting go dont know whether afraid excited whati know im holding back thoughts dont go away theyre always back mind sometimes come front dont want try want nothing exist dont want worry painful even accomplish want want im capable feel emptiness always nagging even try even exist doesnt make sense want live world ghost whatever wanted one bother one tell need better better even impossible theres way around peer pressure self inflicted pressure dont fully exist idk feel empty time constantly trying reassure bigger purpose im reason exhausting im next time hear chick say cant find nice guy immediately later make fun guys simps im gon na lose chick know complained never find nice guy go bad luck men wants guy listen communicate stuff immediately goes hooks immature dude turns emotionally abusive expect walked right one fourth time row serriously didnt see coming mile away make fun guy whos actually nice calling simp nice someone seen creepy obsessive dont know obsessive someone creepy obsessive guy comments something nice thats creepy guy comments detail dont understand knows thats creepy guy walks says hair looks cute thats creepy guy walks sticks nose hair says hair smells nice thats creepy turned todayive suicidal thoughts nothing changed might aswell make birthday death day ive tried everything change tried putting social situationsi literally work club promoter people lose job still im waste space change sisters weddingi contact family except baby sister parents abusive mother narcissist everyone small town grew thinks shes wonderful thinks monster child abandoned baby sister getting married soon hometown family people think im awful invited family still speak cant let going dont know go rest life horrible feels might well fucking wedding date dont worry doesnt help dont drive small town thing uber lyft idea im going wedding away wedding without asking family member havent spoken years help doesnt understand dont want go hurts feelings wedding frightens life shit show dont anything live anyway im fucking scared wedding fairly recently divorced friends anyone ask go wedding aged poorly stress mentally unstable medication selfinjurer alcohol problems dont want people already judge see know dont go sister never forgive think kinder everyone end wedding im giant piece shit general dont deserve live ive suicidal majority life wedding recent catalyst wears contacts im needing contacts first training im rlly upset bc able eyes started crying lol anyone wears contacts stories trainings advice getting taking thanks hell devil help outi cant keep anymore tired tired wowhas anyone know theyre edge tell sure fucking wish fresh initiative saved mei metro station recent worries life problems waiting train come thinking must jump felt sad moment know hearing voice said knew running direction heard closed eyes let falling last moment catch hand pulled direction train saved strange fact man saved girl beautiful one watched silence half minute left followed started crying said must see someone help offered go know stranger carrying much experienced something ban appeal got banned discord reasons remember way appeal ban honestly fuck mei cant anything right seems live one embarrassing fuck next cant speak people including family without freezing looking dipshit feel touch fucking boring self esteem shitter led walked openly disrespected family members ive never many friends attempts make new ones usually shot oddball smell lack confidence weird come across run fucking plagueit sure aid things im losing hair acne short skinny social physical issues aside graduation coming soon really know want living im much pressure know fuck suck eat fucking bullet already one care another yearlike whats point job girlfriend new years eve everyone house partying im crying room nobody cares nobody wants around sad guy fuck anymore im going wait asleep drink everything take pills find im fucking done better one help happy fucking new years cheated onhi little background information name alex turned last month broke things ex last weekend weve dated two years longest time borderline personality disorder issues abandonment growing first met hooked rather quickly huge red flag mother never girlfriend ignored pursued relationship throughout course relationship kept lot male attention claimed friends reality either cheating making money escort online shed cheat id find wed break wed miss wed back together eventually started take toll attempted take life felt worth anything anymore abandonment issues running childhood started surface handle overwhelming feeling good enough anyone love long story short ended d release found phone flooded sobbing messages regret ex hard hearing voice someone love saying much miss love regret everything theyve done apologize theyve never done looking back know fell love someone exist time together months started thing ended things spent alone trying date around ended meeting someone paper seemed ideal girlfriend mental problems job car placeeverything girlfriend lacked problem physically attracted broke things two months realized fair waste time falling love ex month later mother stepdad planning thanksgiving dinner local country clubhouse ex worked assumed due borderline personality disorder work history held job offered buy seat agreed ended still working entire time really pleasant nice parents tried asshole ignored attempts strike conversation end dinner leave asked parents hug agreed whole time falling shit really hated walked car alone got home messaged back telling eff run appreciate little show put defended self said break months last talked done growing kept job really ashamed everything talked long time eventually got back together together nov ended last weekend caught talking guys openly flirted despite mentioning know extent flirting went deleted history prior day broke day flirted seemed giving good morning texts either way right feel bit hopeless feel worthless lost right now know im going purpose cant help feel im fault sex bad giving enough attention ugly poor short whats wrong deserve know want run away pit despair gut want go home beer cry crap much live cant go back wanting end time want move forward need someone talk friends interested lake monsters really dug movie movie worth see awful good types films check effects really good well think land lost originally watched movie early s maybe local channel monster show called morgus presents scare anything b felt years later seen dvd local circuit city bought immediately give personal spot heart right monster squad gremlins good b movie fun ages dman didnt expect girls hard come ngl thought girlfriend know finding girl hard part bitch got bitches b gf im lonely want hold someone c h e stomachache yesterday difficult movie classify items less generally care defining genres theres something movie makes want put specific category order transmit even one word feelings completely recommend film anyone truly enjoy cinema enjoy life want soon finished watching br br recommend movie call beautiful delightful admitting perfect anything wrong want sound contradict believe writerdirector brad silberling knew exactly getting finished writing inspiring script im sure wanted achieve product nothing perfection product simple appealing uncompromising title well hes done br br silberling director long complex dramatic movies city angels moonlight mile proves items less closes minutes passion work faith put actor morgan freeman front woman paz vega grocery store take exactly places ordinary life take silberling proposes br br cant tell within apparent simplicity lies thought provoking background underestimated everyones exposed camera focuses directly two main characters share endless conversation car ride stops thats endless life life let express praise well silberling handles situation saying reaches less time movie duration time single day movie develops events smaller place kind connection two characters sofia coppola generated lost translationbr br movie set tokyo encountered actor woman conversations moments living lives conversations sense though provoking quality items less coppolas movie naturalness every situation never lost images music words seem forced included picture buy time br br aspect collaboration silberling director photography phedon papamichael man shot beautiful sceneries sideways focused every emotion patch adams delights us visual passages true natural beauty br br ultimate beauty items less found cast avy kaufman two protagonists ones transmit feeling mentioned beginning cant specify feel connection tell theyre fun may even improvising stuff academy award winner morgan freeman executive producer film simply stands confirms status today movie industry one thats well deserved quiet man filled wisdom easily make cry make laugh beautiful paz vega well said great spanglishhere proves real deal hollywoods small horny feels good fun sometimes time raging hard boner cant focus shit super inconvenient help suicidality made go crazyi keep internally laughing cant stop im barely close eyes keep laughing internally fucked think might crazy extremely afraid diagnosed keep flashbacks day held captive hospital horrible time really deserved cant longer help look depressedyou look depressed adhd depression stop making attention stop faking right depressed attention whore words make want end even turned year confessed ive failed attempts try explain whats wrong told bullshit ditched hurts everybody expects others help friends tell go family family tells feel damn hurt fucking hell th grade fucks sake people expect psychopath depressed saying may bpd makes even unaccepting really hurts cant handle anymore people accept courage talk feel belong anyone anymore ones trusted ditch family tells hurts want die whats worse depressed attempting redflag treated dog shit admitting trying support even lonelier realized people accept telling trusted felt getting ignored time makes trust issues even worse know care courage im weak world cant handle telling mom truth feel big fat liar never trustworthy putting trust people thought right huge mistake months till school ends tell ones truly got drunk first time tonight good feeling ive secretly sneaking dads vodka see feels really shit feel dizzy wobbly third shot vodka smaller drinks cider sick kitchen sink washed away anyone see sat bathroom minutes deciding stick finger doe throat led throwing entire conterntz stomach honestly bad feeling idea peol drunk plus side see dizzy felt kinda funny gravity felt really heavy im cold tired dizzy pyjamas smell fake lidls malibu almist gagged spat bit owt trying drink lot advice people never drunk might seem cool thing everyone romanticises drinking school honestly bad experience hope makes sense hope dont drunk long time experience donei want kill fucking tired thats many people fucking house want done smiggle best stationary negative fact seem many stores church retreat delema need advice mother keeps fucking begging church retread friday sunday nebraska forced boring ass bible study every wednesday girl retreat absolutely going hate retreat theyre going activities church stuff mom thinks going visit nebraska actually go places highly doubt one experiencei need help convincing going good time want much time please help friend told come herei seasonal depression matter many people try help better boyfriend gets depression im afraid triggering mine feel killed nobody care week two make people upset depression reason wake anymoreive suicidal longest time met boyfriend talking bliss thing comfort makes forget want die everyday said many love always assured loved today found cheated people teenager broke instantly feel empty reason something look forward anymore rather die feel stuffed entire ass book jackets pocket know big ok almost almost subs pls help cousin couch playing among us passing check saw name hxrny girl surprised turned around saw changed name soft girl dont know confront tell aunt handle ps live us spreading germs receive unsolicited dick pic boy plan ill send picture dick give taste medicine got braces tightened teeth fucking hurt aaaaaaa musicmedia player use im curious personally use foobar computers rip cds dvd drive mobile use oto music sync phones music library computers lovecan broken heart kill wanted say thanksjust wanted say thanks good community achieving help kind loving support give people times crisis although suicidal enjoy reading kind words honest comments give providing service people desperately need find motivation stay alive keep saved countless lives wanted give deepest respects thank want itthe urge right sharp knife slip wrists front mom spite insane want back make feel fucking horrible hate hate hate unpopular opinion maybe rickrolling taught beware phishing sitesviruses school done thats internet school suicidal thoughts getting worseif see post account im years old social life friends rely family fantastic reason im still everyday getting harder know tomorrow ill stuck unhappy routine thought college answer im bunch people much older im seeing therapist depression working felt shit life know fuck wrong applying volunteering work kill id least something useful go want somebody call friend much ask fuck life dont know im typing see advice ive seeing girl year weve become close asked last month rejected disappointed still good friends shes telling new partner theyve deed almost every day sense met two weeks ago broke says hes shes im wow seems bit weird tells yea shes really happy shes sorry still friends stuff im yea sure still friends know shes yo shes getting rammed every day im sure deal im heart broken sucks need advice plz one help hey yall wassup u play kerbal space program huge kerbal space program fan love aspects im back acc hacked douchebag thinks im racistnot important anything new likeanything know say anymoreits said reasons want die reasons live itll better theres nothing left anger hurt energy im nothing people complain awards whoring using reverse psychology thank coming ted talk whatever stop watching think movie hang around first batch credits really miss something saw movie savanaah film festival thought best bunch dreya weber marvel really performance pull far ground qa said wires effects everything see really going addie make festival dancing madonna excellent gawd beautiful amazed film went well blue haired lady crowd savannnah backwater actually wan na commit die im years old asian family yes shit sucks born anywhere live sucks im forced study career option rather engineer doctor makes worse mega nerd twin sister keeps studying shit makes parents expect studying hours day handeling bs parents decided take laptop im fr never getting back honest im offended rather super sad u place easily made sense phone basically theres big amount points think make sense yea premium account mc basically enjoy really playing servers actually bought account fucking money hid parents year now things explain im sure basically people read till end related laptop mostly im gon na lose friends made discord actually ended meeting peeps interests enjoyed playing csgo minecraft skribll among us fall guys live streaming random shit stuff never imagined enjoying friend internet tbh watching subreddits rmademesmile wholesome subreddits make feel even worse seeing strangers help family pressurizes study take career gaming crime basically true redditor live make even worse btw meant hate towards family rather im super pissed explain everything must super unclear im actually trying say genuinely caring family still loves even though nonsense saw movie first time little year ago ive seen times never heard consider knowledgeable classic cinema true polished diamond roughbr br gem movie revolves around jon voight lead character conrack young schoolteacher assigned yamacraw island teach islands children one school first students reveal know little world beyond island home heart movie conrack finding inspiration awaken young minds world around students quickly reward teacher eagerness learn remarkable ability grasp concepts short time foreign conrack uses unconventional clever teaching techniques happen oh little fun god forbid learning fun together cant says ones charge avoid spoiler say conrack finds resistance boss manand ending truly bittersweetbr br year old white male teaching experience identify lead character pat conroy aka conrack mr petroy dont identify black kids kid bussed school side town th th grade circa kids movie remind classmates luckily th grade year old one understand racism remember kids playing square kickball hideandseek running relaysbr br movie moving delightful poignant moments beginning end nonstop found many times tears eyes suddenly laughing loud funny moviebr br git away winda sir prepared accept crap tell rabbit lap white schoolteacher mr conrack grands love mr conrack good looking teacher good looking white man wind mph east small boat warning small boats beware big boats ok got ta worry bout nothing fry cook eleanor roosevelt sharecropper something latinthats latinhey wait conrack sing frogi sing good whatcha talkin boutbr br still mystifies still hear nothing movie little reputation following intend seek reviews comments background making tidbits amazes acting given untrained kids one kids mary understand actress tell kids plenty lines genuine reactions wonder im guessing conrack mary precise dialogue work scenes unfold naturally adlibbedbr br conrack special movie opinion one movies good unknown others category king rat dark passage bogie bacall gods must crazy bad day black rock recommend first take seat class mr conrack ago responded post offical klondike instagram account made asked klondike bar said work endless job responded random question top bottom super weird dream went cinema best friends love filmi even watch middle film one friends starts kiss meat point cant move started strip cuddle naked almost sex nobody cinema paying attention feel bad confused idea fuck means side note gay details early s living parents well working small business university colleges never completed degrees shuts away everyone extremely difficult contact reach design overweight spends free time playing videogames mostly wow smokes multiple joints day medicationi love brother dearly want try help help try stay connected way setting weekly video gaming sessions friday spent h playing dark souls bloodborne something requires lot communication coordination us happiest kicking ass vanquished invader sometimes try ask inside spends time talk literally shuts goes silent hours time see therapist issues work done helped lot believe sees situation dire fathom way along well parents extremely bad tempered lashes know handle situation completely control emotionalmental ability resolve need help tbh begin brother opinion professional opinion means august going visit two weeks bringing dog hope help soften brother bit genuinely kind hearted loves animals goal try find time allow open share thoughts feelings seems hardened now failed time time open help brother let know care deeply wellbeing want seek help needs begin taking back control lifeand bro reading somehow figured please know buddy believe adult brother depression undiagnosed adhd live h driving away help want help watch movies nick mancuso frankly love guy even though ages typically cast baddie longtime fans note reason blond flick fairly familiar movie terms plot movies days exactly original rick roberts appealing imperfect husband martha macisaac equally appealing daughter mitzi kapture good job goal angry sometimes pretty hard nick still got terms able demonstrate charm psychosis much plot takes place offscreen motivation prior behaviors good times bad times things seem apparent characters never quite make audience ie final scene leaves everything desired category overall cant say cared much characters said reasonably entertaining way spend afternoon still nick earphones broke noooo earphones broke gon na listen gentle femdom audio now supposed use listen music middle night headphones ew prefer earphones cause comfortable broken heart ron almighty rat king lose suicidal thoughts askyou cant really way lose hold tied cage tearing apart invulnerable take care let escape im buying electric guitar soon start love hearing heavy metal started appreciate things love without heavy metal able hide fear rage anxiety maybe even depression think im struggling winter depression asa spring comes act normal im trying say find hobby love live life loving love lol without normal try something even bad matter one thing tho drugs alcohol ciggarets nothing people die painful cancer parents edge getting one see years old happy friends internet friends anyone feeling miserable feel free write message good day live life way love feel failuremy mom afraid says doesnt know act mom loss shouldnt die friends coworkers hate job died dont relationship dont kids dont siblings dont family whod miss dog mom reminds takes better care im sorry cant let go anger im sorry im happy life cant bring care enough fix hate job hate life years last breakup yes need quit stupid give idea fix things idea gets things im scared death happen give im sick told im spoiled im brat im sorry dad passing suddenly made deal im sorry cant fake pretend everything ok step dad used heaven forbid moms daily life change cant say anything starts crying blaming wish one died instead dad everyone happier seems older people think gamers orgasm upon seeing gore genuinely confused everyone reacts gore cause someone plays games mean cum pants upon seeing dead body im scared come years im supposed university think everything sorted mere thought actually becoming responsible member society makes anxious good enough something ask every day without finding answer try making answer try simply distracted keep failing come terms fact maybe im best maybe ill never place mental state live constant fear living expectations dissapointing parents two younger siblings look im oldest competing family see best way want live im tired many times ive suicidal thoughts simply push aside matter need keep going forward even feel crying cry help trying accept reality push forward many times years im supposed university know life never come lmao mom wanted barge room ask basically kicked told want talk right now left felt bad always everytime tells something decline told wanted change hair even change name noah lol said mind im andor adult actually surprised bold shit told wanted binder mean school binder lol binder something u wear flatten ur chest wanted one feel masculine euphoria ofc mom closed minded person starts getting confused saying u cant taboo taboo u made wtf include hellbent christian homophobic even transphobic im pretty fucking sureso even expecting idek thought maybe understand lil countless amount times people family told talk andddd moment yall waiting told genderfluid really confused lol hesitant even explain even becuz starts something even paying attention wants complain exact shit pfft anyways even tried tell genderfluid even give time day becuz wants call literally everyone family ask tell said even though said im comfortable raising voice times good tears mentally fucking exhausted shit anymore burned even care blabs everyone fucking world know never able comfortably speak woman life wasnt supposed wake upguess handfuls advil arent really enough noted next time ill think pills pop mum found one condoms week later dad pressured truth girlfriend took virginity im trouble guess us living uk dad big go waiting till completely legal ummmm anyone got ways make everything less awkward maybe girlfriends back whoever guess zodiac sign receive via cashapp paypal u haeve paypal first person guess zodiac sign gets lets great showi remember much remember watching loving remember mother father really grandmother grandmother really appreciate became adult knowledgeable nonsense favorite song show sardines morning might title remember seeing show hearing song went cleveland ohio visit cousins sister sang song much time left little cousins singing love find dvd better six years still feeling depression come head fog feel always looking something take away resilient pain collecting movies buying many never watch buying tons anyway gtbinge eating overeatinglt spending huge amount day watching youtube etc need realize deal without things someday scared want deal know fact never feel better normal lately depressed treated medicines psychiatrist psychologist tired feel diredflaged time lack motivations life please tell live god family happy money everything counts judge asking help bc know anymore happy used excited person life want sleep one day wake please help showing life special maybe inspiration thank lot need help opinion please top reasons im awesome thats thanks attention nice day im gon na feel way every night rest lifeim tired feeling im tired hating im tired damn pessimistic heh im tired fucking tired dont know dont gun something sit fucking let fester think terrible world itll worse feel alone feel selfish feeling alone feel deserve die selfish ijustfuck dont know dont know anymore wrote poem guys reality always selfish scared feel someone void soul maybe hole wish reality room trapped soul escape option never believed maybe trapped want bright lights blinding unable look away want love though know want sure muffled sobbing aching heart night lost fight try make quick hope started years old life started turn gray lovely child everyone loved beside dad left mother one trait made special relatives someone cried come hugged automatical one day mothers crying kitchen usually decided make happy tried hug tried pushed away looks today state traumatizing little child years later married another guy made childhood hell never talked way shouting smallest mistakes pretty bad time later fall love first last far due introvert nature talked much least end considered friend end one day decided ask mother called tell one friends died car accident told probably joke photoshop friends often shit bad joke dead light guided life obvious depression make shorter unsuccessful redflags first one classic rope around neck second three packs strong painkillers third cutting veins missed think last one rope keeped secret family one time opened mother helped least thought back better time graduated new school new environment etc destroying mentally cant take often stab neck hand explode emotions hidden inside far pain let control days ago asked mother help firstly made laugh electronics addiction one one close friend often write stuff seeing phone rare finally sayed need real therapy talked back realized something talking mental health talking make stop thinking asking help forgot whole thing next day leaving alone thoughts probably made huge holes story english good im writing know situation fault hate yet still want someone notice help aight need guys help gfs birthday gfs birthday right now time among gift bought wanted give smth whole heap happy birthdays makes happy plan wish many happy birthdays possible happy birthday usomegirlxo ily much hope many ppl possible support found yoda bot response good bot try guys really want itso imma completely honest im years old im shy person always struggled friends currently friends really hang lot almost years ago met awesome girl made change way looked life made happy made feel something live first person ive loved person truly understood shes gone several trust issues low self esteem us made us fight lot still love im sure still loves tries convince shes better without felt sad almost every day never really tried kill still wanted ive become dependent person literally need feel ok without want kill feel sad overall already tried oding substances didnt work good life without perfect probably thinking dying days timenever happiest memoriesits almost always bad shit happening primary schoolcounsellors pyschologist help mei hope jump stairs maybe hit headseems less scary falling buildingthe world much autistic person myselfits years thisi cant take anymorenothing working think done always angry grew living abusive father right now things constantly worst told family feeling okay thoughts wanting die year ago support still student money seek professional help still locked house due pandemic bad government country everyday hell anger sometimes poured pets hurt think soon enough hurt people maybe kill yeah instead another bad action harms pets kill want peace already potentially dangerous think someday become serial killer anything bad might kill harming others parents happy itits fucked say life hell never understand happy im longer suffering die guys two cars following hours im fucking scared httpsiimgurcomcxyrfjjpg finishedi letting go today medicine warn care anymore tried tortured life endure anymore tried much never really afraid mostly heart refused gone nothing stopping originally trying make others dont anymore one hurt always much others tried make look okay pushed away abandoned hurt anything tired abandoned hurt others never got better years tried gave anyone nervous post something talk someone talk im open vent much want things hard us people need someone talk thats normal pms open hmu im sick fuckive saiddone awful things cousins deserve menobody im terrible human deserves every painful word thing saiddone even ask ive doneitll scar life word hobbies dont something good make something nice fun relaxing exercise whatever easy discouraged youre good something try keep going fun make ugly plushy draw unrealistically start wobbly crochet blanket hobbies arent gendered many creative relaxing hobbies deemed girly many awesome basic skills sewing repair clothes growing food learning cook meals boys arent limited meat sports code vice versa try something new year see goes getting started new things hard worth enjoyment speaking therapist today came realization determine self worth almost exclusively others value rather value felt punch gut half heartedly told worth something past never realized lying deep believe words truly awful see unvarnished truth revealed low point id know anyone relate got even know start struggling self worth issues think im done life im sick alive im tired feeling unhappy time summer almost ill start going school im supposed junior think im gon na year ive always social anxiety gotten much worse im quiet girl one school seems tried talk realized awkwardweird understand try damn hard think things say theyre always gone even giving second chance wish people school little understanding people anxiety love sit talk someone anything love hearing people talk stuff people assume im weird freak simply im bit anxious talking first wish people little forgiving social mistakes know theyll never unless asshole alcoholic uncle lets homeschoolingwhich never happen im gon na kill im afraid go back school feel ghost might well already dead world fucked sad anyways im tired seeing idea whats idea im gon na mercy shouldve picked mercyyyy im gon na kind support ended losing fault tears live lets see make even begin ill f try bore details everything ive depressed past two half years brought death father tell single person year told doctor started getting help recently told mom tutor school friend class cant talk depression mom standing trying open giving one worded answers barely getting words avoiding eye contact whole time said something hit guess next thing knew full sobbing arms kind crying cant even speak keep hicupping breathing weird runny nose said everything comfort ended felt awkward around id shown much even though shes mom one person really open family think im freak really act strange around extended family probably knowing well wanting make bad impression usually end im backwards idiot gotten much worse father died sure exactly probably reading thinking im overreacting im act fucking idiot front family say stupid things react inappropriately situations im comfortable im weird around guys mean im straight girl im shy around people im attracted well thats story another day ive long remember even developed attraction opposite sex around menboys felt tosort prove search validation im talking guys girls completely relaxed normal girls feel need make strongly feel linked relationship parents theres reasons feel existing anymore main ones suicidal thoughts waves throughout day massive little smaller painful none less moment sleep deprived state see way im feeling moment drowning foot caught plant bottom river chance swimming back surface point though occasionally manage high enough breathe bit air feeling sunlight warm face sucked back reminded people dont belong sun place bottom river nobody see us put bluntly seriously doubt ill still see th birthdaymaybe even th thing keeping around thought mom deal death thats always enough keep planning ive preparing kill self month things freak things today left thinking otherwiseso today sat run car parking spot trying head sleep car pulled right never turned radio made impossible sleep next side old guy pulled really old kept playing radio eventually sat tired acted guys old bloke right chilling car park abouy minutes two hours old guy left started hating people even started googling phone people rats thats felt fell asleep woke noticed nice cars behind one bloke looking thought time go turned ignition nothing dull click againi started hate humans seen old feller merc smile face heard ignition fail car park came pappa john pizza driver reason said along shot mate jump leads cut along story short car running life thanks guy suicidal earlier thoughts humans rats true saved today somone earns nothing shrugged somone earns somthing ji trnka made last animated short indictment totalitarism caused trouble native czechoslovakia elements symbolisms simple trademark ornaments almost absent allowing viewer concentrate fable man room dedicates pottery take care plant suddenly huge hand enters room orders make statue man refuses hes persecuted ominous gloved hand days impression reality factor seems erased animations try replace real world refreshing watch film makes technique part enjoyment twoobie tunes day lovely day bill withers song make wan na scream sing boyfriend cute wan na dance around every time hear havent ate days feel finally peacei drink ltl water mostly mouth know time takes time dunno even eat tired everywhere turn help someone something wanted life significant friends something makes happy fucking tired envious everyone know life fair help feeling way life fucking mess want alive anymore want alive anymore name im one moment needs helphi throwaway nonsense first foremost im scared cried today unable work longer function im able reply straight away will want anymore want help feel compelled help others less fortunate turn reddit helped past survive thanks dm ill insult u free idk put filler text got carti lyrics yeah im coupe cutter yeah sippin wock yeahpostedwith brotheryeah got mop whatyeah posted brother yeah got mop yeah posted brother brother yeah got mop slatt posted brother yeah got mop wanting nothing kill order hurt mother simply runawayi every years drive run away right wing christians debating want join discord server basically one right wing person looking people aged better debates without everyone opposite view one guy right wing join thats fine message let know want join ill send invite link teenager want cut change mind try buy anything parents check every package knives family extremely dull tried use failed want cut kitchen knives sharp enough something adequate sharpness told think cares money give said true therapists lie right clients eyes true know argument wasit client invest money therapy better think bullshit wish go therapy pay always struggled trust attachment issues still vulnerable spot knows think single thing wants money coming think usedi severe redflag paranoid smoked last couple days think paranoia getting worse something know guess mess usedfuck making suicidal think therapist cares joe biden donald trump everyone start arguing comments please thank found poem wrote turn now sixteen problem still remain teen one year older stop playing dolls tried convincing last night crying crying quietly steadily crazy people changed ones called best mates left ground swept beneath teachers encouraged learn asking memorize run run behind grade asking first good human parents well theyre supporting stare stare world questions left unheard soon sixteen change school best mates disappear treated adult asked perfect tell cant girl alright tell fell fell many times perfect aint got glossy locks pretty skin colour responsible still hate alone love hug bear date coming near dear seem far near knew hard turning world began see im alone useless world nobody needs anymoreim ive lived enough tell world shitty place home go bed struggle getting morning im trying hard feel cant right feel stupid literally everything ive done life far way ive gone things im terrified letting ruin try hard pretend everything ok cant anymore people really kill themselvesi know may sound weird feel real seen irl feel real even tho know happening ive seen youtube videosmrcaringuy people lost lives redflag feel bad sad sad think people struggled gave im going commit soon way look genuinely wont happy looking look theres point nothing happening gt unhappy think everyone agree thati cant live life face body people might able accept personally cant people think look others treat really dont care people want treat bad feel ill saying dramatic dont respect way look looks extremely important humans nature ill never cant accept way look fucking pains come know good life way look know definitely missing whole lot good shit ill never good shit even continue living better stop dont think im making sense whatsoever point mind frustrated angry confused depressed feel cant even explain im feeling one stay sane world fast advancing technologyi feel increasing powers technology change everything sanity powerless fist thermonuclear weapon everything grey area everything objects sensations consciousness created manipulated destroyed using technology continued question guys rteenagers question specifically straight ones girls perspective id love answers sexuality yall find attractive girlspeople one obtain boyfriend trying times im looking one moment future reference case anyone wondering yet another person whos called selfishbecause sit around wallow pity tried make life better people understand want life better way ill even try make things better ex said try ill go back meds look job tomorrow happened fuck world people im even gon na attempt talk people anymore im gon na wait end month end maybe people understand ive given fighting want hug someone close eyes peace rest foreveri tired now tired everything nothing gives joy anymore dont know say thats guess wanted say something somewhere guess last thing say end probably thank world surviving year hello ive chronic social redflag remember pretty traumatic childhood resulted socially awkward nervous social setting fast forward week ive invited party weekend love go honest im scared go idk anymore hate college hate major know id college incentive live possibility getting gf people keep saying itll happen patience feel ive patient years think ive lost patience left hope point see happening bother keep going getting worsei finally got help many years struggle went doctor psychologist diagnosed severe depression anxiety meds feel nothing getting better ive started lying cant bed morning make excuses cant make event im committed point ive lied workplace closest friends family every possible group responsibility even habit know getting worse much trouble getting bed morning problem think meds ive month now suicidal thoughts popping now know want live know want die know know nothing im empty dm anything right ill answer hours cause im going bed pretty wacky think bipolarim sick ups downsim back manic swings depressed lows havent slept night days got hrs sleep last night im sick craziness head loud want stop want normal much live hiking adventuring friends cant take ups downs tearing apart matter time starts affecting everyone around girl seeing see crazy quit talking friends see dropping sick swings leave matter time part sucks ive done everything healthy im sober recovery trauma counseling medication compliant im still fucked im never going ok airsoft gun looks realistic enough cop end things every time try fail want live see beauty world want away pain fear dont control head everythings huh okay everything nothing fun fucking hate miss sub super fun used life couple years ago lol wish sub fun rn corona man posts shit karma whores yea yea used ton karma whores back never bad unfunny jokes happy working fanfic mix crossover fan fiction within first hours got people reading ecstatic right crying never happy feels weird d gon na give link though bc stupid honest dream smp members another dimension thats im going say stay goim sitting couch trying make decision life become unbearable one wants around soon unemployed rather live homeless car dogs stay family doesnt want ive calling texting support network past hour one answered dont want die option packed bag full tank gas dogs eager going leave im goodim alone always verge crying cant talk anyone one listen im stressed taken toll feel completely hopeless feel choiceits want kill thought fear always stay alive stops universe infinite always alive exist somewhere matter hate hate existance nothing suffering times less suffering never good hopeful years go gotten worse became better coping none matters reality care rule reality everything exist cant escape none us actually wrong redflagaside itd family course people cant help disturbed death redflag devastated think pain cause others live dont want life constant struggle difficult fulfilled uphill battle alive daytoday basis extreme mental illnesses dont know id diagnosed therapy hasnt helped far carry relatively well therapist doesnt really investigate ask difficult questions dont think thinks theres anything wrong objectively something wrong im happy person im constant pain im pleasant person around irritable moody often terrible mood resting bitch face hell short fuse people dont keep plans care people much hardest time showing struggle express pain way people understand getting worse dont think want continue life never normal healthy happy person never sister slept last class lmao soon saw unexcused absence notification lol dumb bitch sleeping shes going ass beat turns ibuprofen took hives knocked lol let introduce b name mai im got long legz tired life shy talk people holding eye contact drive travel alone use maps want live near suicide wish sort cancer made really happy near suicide today day concrete thought killing almost nothing show itim couple months feel made mess life feel though im stuck groundhog day everyones life os constantly changing adapting tried much things track s trying sort mental health wish done travelling thing wanted partner years trying im exhausted feel much rejection hurt rrom men dont find desirable anymore suicidal thoughts week im rlly bored yh guess messages u wan na chat cause im bored fuck hate body friends left mei born boy wish girl every day wake realise im going boy day makes die little inside top closest friends suddenly moved school leaving noone im behind school cant tell anyone feelings ive suicidal two years now feel im getting close attempting redflag constantly feeli keep thinking time limited fantasize different redflag scenarios alcohol sleeping pills ordering cyanide salt drinking know cant talk methods much cant stop thinking couple years ive depressed months ive started staying bed excessively desire anything including fixing situation im going run money eventually forced sell house process literally terrorizes given little energy anything redflag ultimate avoidance now ultimate relief constant anxiety preventing perhaps becoming homeless parents offered let go theyre getting now theyre physical pain need coming back fucking years old cant die already ive posted along lines know cant fucking keep much cant tell parents understand depression want scare scared say much dr case sent hospital involuntarily hotline maybe thats need know want better keep living shitty life im tired please dear godmercy kill theres gon na lot suffering future lot hurt bitterness hopelessness stay alive cant family killing pray terminal illness die naturally someone shoots blow im scared commit redflag please something elsecontemplated redflag occasionally past years im now whenever im good stage think ridiculous every time every time bad stage unbearable sometimes think may psychological disorder something im kind person never see therapist even tell anyone think may slight obsession problem currently seems alcohol anything drugs substances even obsessed feelings makes sense anyways im going kill tonight even writing kinda helping sure even need advice fuck feel people find entirely surprised completely hide feel people see super easy going anybody feel fit groups popularnerdsjocksartsy kidstheatre kids dont even fit weirdos dont really gen z humor culture guess least weirdos funny im weird boring person dont real passions dabble little tiny bit everything tiny mean really really tiny good thing course niche video games tv shows watch really far pretty hard find people interests itd cool able manage friendship long enough start exploring new interests never gets point im scaredtwim one fears im scared dark snakes anything im scared might people knowing people hurt less others hurt want headspace continuously tells mean hurt want take knife watch skin opens blood pours open wound almost lifeless corpse bleeds black marble bathroom floor cant cant take life want cant care much trigger warning read feeling lowi feel ending things nothing right last year got jailed lost job loosing loved ones sad used look happiness elsewhere sounds late make changes life now tried medication tried meditation still feel worthless unwanted happiness got helping others need help someone listen reason liveplease im lonely ive lost everyone want left alone anymore im good enough anyone today never come whats lesbians b yall local bi girl checking honestly want die think strength work overnight job fucking nights week almost year now asked job switch shifts lazy coworker works nights ofc coworker says night schedule quit faith anything fucking tired valued take anymore deal life job right now kind film want see glass wine fire feet require much brainpower follow good long day say unrealistic expecting anything serious bother funny thought businessman go far agree live slum actually enjoy definitely recommend im sick dealing lifeim diagnosed depression anxiety ptsd due trauma related dad lost custody feeling form regret life bad moments even tiny bit close mom treats divorce remember telling im older ill see much monster mom time brushed mom forced thinking psychotic monster see talking emotionally verbally abused day day constantly guilt tripped need ive worsening suicidal thoughts im writing room mom trying hold back tears close ending family memebers go grandparents family friends even friends go ive called cps never form wellness check cant go therapy im planning ending soon sounds dramatic really cant wait another years im scared mom im scared continuing live jadedjust know keep going forward sort happiness stability badly want life better part knows im hated huge embarrassment used ampcheated mate lost pretty much friends im alcoholic coke head work hard always cast never fit fuck addictions attached fast men love ive living remember know im mentally ill point continuing try life going bring misery well hey reddit well couple months ago got first girlfriend past months amazing ive never happier yesterday fun told join discord got really happy played minecraft together lot thats said horrible words im going give straight im lesbian now nothing wrong lgbtq kind stings first girlfriend thought things going really well guess asked realized explanation follows mean slow process basically november basically privately decided wasnt really interested dating men came along ok nvm started feeling something every reason happy relationship something missing talking one friends lesbian started talking ended realizing suddenly clicked found missing really need advice deal really fucking sucks ngl friend reported friends redflag attempt police whatok around last week friend samantha contacted best friend isaac say going kill saying goodbye isaac called police us know particularly close friends according samantha police apparently found apartment hanging around morning said isaac going jump apartment lives fairly tall building contact several days now isaac texted samantha mad letting jump guess gon na cops stop responded fuck fuck said dunno says ruined life cuz keep watch fined shit responded say thats insensitive thing heard expect done anything know say seems possible theres lie somewhere story police major metropolitan area even personal someone watching called police area addition campus security university attends received subsequent information neither us live close enough hundreds miles away go check want endmoved back bfs house kicked times prior took month break things seemed fine things going shit soo quickly feel dumb coming back ive damaged relationships lost several friendships decision end way everything life want go sleep wake want end cant hurt family sure much theyd really care wan na disappoint anyone anymore reasn really go cat best friend want depressed gone doubt animals care notice life go normal without maybe even better much hair much hair im talking head hair btw im pretty bored yalls hobbies started playing quitar came across subreddit want say thank contribute itseriously amazing see consistently positive comments tried leaving one floored see many posts mine keep folks bassists never seem particularly happy cheer robert tujillo youre famous tiredive trying hard work nothing changes dont want hurt feel pain hurt others dont want anymore tired taking calming breaths im panicking dont feel im episode dont enjoy life wish voluntarily end mine without chance pain failure think anything school rest week ive enough now mean whats worst happen wantedto say something maturity dont pressure maturecos loads adults still arent maturity isnt stopping playing ps toys learn fromyourmistakes dmit wrong miniseries revels flaws make us cringe themit excellent storytelling fuses black comedy mateship notredflag way pathetic waste war without sheer unadulterated manipulation conjob life beautifulit entertainment meaning lifeand showcases talents actors young oldgive go tell us think ive much reddit today nothing says makes sense anymore first film made workers streaming factory cycling walking moving right left along melies lumieres starting point point departure cinema melies begins narrative fiction cinema fantasy artifice spectacle lumieres pure unadorned observation truth many intellectuals regret ossification cinema latter tired formulae formerbr br consider short nothing objective film full action static inhuman scene burst life activity quiet harmony frame ruptured decentred back right left never course front camera yet camera stands stock still contains energy possible subversion subordinates will cinematograph may revolutionary invention used conservative purposes map world edit restrict limit itbr br worse historical reality film factory workers lumiere employees bosses spying workers unseen eye regarding faceless minions film describes two types imprisonment behind gates workers confined workplace opening gate seems image freedom escape face another wall fourth wall confining first film first example cctv surveillance image unseen allseeing authority entrapping servants frightening prophetic movie nd redflag attemptjust tried commite redflag wish scared go delt much life strength stand tall anymore saw recently comedy central id love see jean schertlermemama emmy collinshippie supermarket cast mother son film probably weirdest flicker made hats waters making consistently funny film m need freinds play pls hey im m need friends play valorantamong usminecraft java edition withi prefer girls friends guys plus guy friends kinda assholes tbh im kinda lonely bit sad im posting hit private chat reddit youre interested broke promise yeah crying metthat let come knew last time wed met last time wed talk hurt excited future planning ending life suppose sped telling plan say sorry butthat hollow appreciate wanted help wanted try fix broken threw towel got hell planned day gave ultimatum knew time hope one day able grow away tarnish rest life wonderful person deserves world suppose wish cut less effected wishes always come true glad laughs beforehand know short letter longer wanted tie loose ends love dude thank everything broken promises tried make everything stop last night found time move thisthings hard past years keep going downhill college frustrating im stuck major anymore much debt quitting feel failure positive change im stuck minimum wage job going anywhere best friend years falling month ago lost brother im still love exboyfriend recently found slept someone swore hadnt though says wishes hes remorseful pain still strong love really hes justified loving ruined relationship towards end checking early avoid pain made worse apparently find nearly impossible even lift bed every day happened fast came home spending work shift sobbing back office walked apartment share ex think cold got warm bath mind shut wanted sleep decades took vicodin must fallen asleep bath ex came home work found naturally freaked helping throw dry called mum really remember much except taken familys house later night purging lot grandma cried lot mum upset yelled lot ex keeps calling every hour ask friends filled happened lost help even know say feel empty plan trying seeing everyone care distraught guess need help figuring move past im ashamed never wanted hurt anyone im exhausted friend suggested reach im delusional think im one felt want hide move looked moment define rest life expect miracles quick fixes know im trouble guess need guidance sex cool read title wikipedia article day chicken gun largediameter compressedair cannon used fire dead chickens aircraft components order simulate highspeed bird strikes aircrafts flight jet engines aircraft windshields particularly vulnerable damage strikes common target tests whole dead standardsize chickens used cooking thought accurately simulate large live bird striking plane flight aircraft component tested engine windshield etc fixed place test stand cannon fires chicken chicken gun first used mids de havilland aircraft hatfield hertfordshire chickens killed local farm shortly use another early use chicken gun royal aeronautical aircraft establishment rae farnborough hampshire s goodyear aerospace litchfield park arizona used gun ceramic diaphragm seal compressed air back guns barrel fire gun needle struck ruptured diaphragm allowing compressed air drive chicken containera cylindrical cardboard ice cream carton barrel muzzle metal ring stopped carton allowed chicken pass cameras recorded collision united states air force commissioned aedc ballistic range s test airplane canopies began operating gun later used test aircraft parts leading edges wings development boeing s cockpit windows subjected chicken test anesthetized pound kg chicken loaded pneumatic gun fired knots mph kmh headonit described messy test someone talk meive wanting murdered weeks now want throat cut bad ive tried hire people im live usa saw film amsterdams international documentary film festival privileged meet directors tobias schneebaum lively outspoken new yorkers films title amsterdam keep river right making sensational aspect cannibalism somewhat less prominent equally important loving gay relationship tobias schneebaum members groups studied anthropologist reunion nearly years age inevitable leavetaking moving highly recommend film anyone looking moving story anything pedestrian another endless amount cookiecutter kickboxers fight death amusement wealthy scumbags films many s yknow ones created taking words death blood steel words ring fight match cage putting random generator saying though death match pretty good entry overused genre thanks exciting fight scenes surprisingly good acting kickboxer castbr br story concerns two buddies exkickboxing world champion john larson played pugfaced middleweight kickboxing champ ian jacklin probably previously best known awful performance main villain ring fire nick wallace nick hill likable guy probably best known role streetfighter sergio bloodsport work la docks loading crates onto ships one discovery boxful guns brief fight later two heroes jobless propping la bar sensible john larson decides head north look job headstrong nick wallace heard guy paying good money fighters fight private kickboxing matches things change says john need ill predictably enough long nick gone missing good friend fighting deadly ring death trying find lead missing buddybr br sure enough prizes originality said films strength lies action cast reallife fighters fairly good performances manages wring ian jacklin particular surprised previously id seen bad guy ring fire bitparts tripe steel ring ive always quite amused bad actor good fighter though death match hes pretty good given decent script haircut proves quite charismatic leading man friendship nick well portrayed jacklin hill nice chemistry really believe two characters care enough one lose job travel halfway across country risk death save wish friend br br nice see matthias hues villainous henchman little depth used seeing many villainous henchman roles fooled thinking hes star hes video cover seems head stuck body michael bernardo cover shootfighter good hes screen muchbr br negative side film pretty slow theres fighting going lots unnecessary scenes whats gangster jimmie fiorellos pointless story grandfather end fight disappointingly short whole enjoyed plenty fights good martial arts really need course eyecandy lovely form pretty renee ammann pretty entertaining kickboxing movie suicidal shit life dont bang used relate violent hater minorities guys vote want negative karma m sexual assaulted im guy im comparing happened rape years ago bus way home college bus kind full stand woman kept rubbing butt dick every time tried back away closer every bump inch even closerid never felt uncomfortable life bus full point stand close ps im comparing women know unfortunately much worse hate sexless virgin said virgin twice two different ways add effect already dramatic scenario hello whats word cell reproduces self forgot want remember fellow teenagers influenced hip hop s hip hop jazz awhile started listen kendrick lamar lil uzi vert playboi carti really give song recommendations maybe artist recommendations prefer recommendations newer popular rappers similar playboi carti uzi im tiredi cant anything haircut months cant fall asleep without tv youtube movie running background distract constant thoughts loser failure worthless selfish weak sometimes hit head im dizzy grandmother used hit cant stop thinking sister abandoning cant stop thinking first time father tried strangle cant stop angry even thought fault cant forgive telling married eight years cant stop thinking father yelling comatose mother stop clenching spastic arm shed stroke cant stop thinking mother protect us cant ask dead ask alive remember speak yet im living house taking abuse feeling guilt wants feel im fucking barely go house im afraid seeing people know seen failure quit job almost two years ago applied another one last friend stopped trying touch months ago know say even read last message fucked im ashamed miss touched fucking hug anything miss full hope ten years ago despite everything miss last time felt hope remember know happened think anyones going love think first boyfriend time know thats insane actually miss feel ive dead whole time im starting wake fact know keep going see never stops hurting anyway everybody wants make home year even world crumblin gentleman jim another case print legend errol flynn playing legendary boxer brash charismatic social climber rollicking entertainment barely stops breath pointless looking historical accuracy flynns charge light brigade sheer hokum stops pulled filmed surprisingly lavish scale given real sense energy raoul walshs vivid direction flynn still height powers youd never guess suffered mild heart attack production alexis smith beautiful romantic sparring partner perpetual sidekick alan hale along good measure time flynns father jack carson takes sidekick duties time indeed even pirate galleon flynns earlier movies makes somewhat outofplace cameo dockside bout minutes breeze anyone talk withis anyone talkvent feel really right need someone talk simply well written directed acted woodys best s best s hugh jackman perfect pick roll scarlett johanssons banter woody proves well rounded actress becomebr br refreshing romance screen leading lady plays perfect bumbling magicianbr br reviews maligning movie let stop seeing wonderfully done film people crowd saw laughing loud lines missed next line woody allen films s regret missing onebr br suggest go watch film open mind might walk smiling feel relaxed hurt myselfi feel relaxed sleepy cut pain goes away slowly fall asleep afterwards relaxing thing cry makes tired bet death far relaxing great slow painless death thought dying makes really happy im awake feel worthless hurt feel im actually accomplishing something ive kind worried though think death family think loves find hard happy know f id chat im chilling watching tv feel talking people go ahead dm anyone despret enough use qtip toilet paper toilet paper hours ago despret enough use qtip wondering anyone done wan na take nap wan na cant really know much longer go sit home bury video games music youtube etc numbs pain somewhat suicidal thoughts literally everyday social redflag load factors boring life going future social redflag really see point living longer stopping ending dadthat literally social redflag loneliness absolutely friends selfesteem issues redflag mean something someone ive always problems anxiety huge fear mine invisible meaning anything anyone last night talking good friend mine expressing worries sent couple voice messages assuring yes ive helped enjoys friend mean something never hearing start happy sobbing said considered unalive helped sorry needed rant somewhere seriously meant much feel great know video kharris calling joe saying joe thats felt crazy good yeah thanks reading oh crying ill give something cry hug ampxb know stressful af day today ampxb let tear anyone brag want somebody brag great life going raight now close jumping bridge cant minda couple weeks ago horrible relationship person lets name annie good toward eachother nowhwre blocked told wouldnt work upset enough make title says things compiled proceeded harassed one friend groups kinda told rough uses languages unfriended blocked now really dumps word got large chat news spread extremely sensitive cant take things well unplugged one set mind walked road left ramp led bridge right highway remembered staring racing cars scared began climb fence police sirens came body froze shock becuase realized brought local hospital treated social services said alright go back home seeking therapy time taking forever back thoughts still mind really know cope thoughts approach want forget dont know currentlyi need write everything hope okay wednesday morning finally felt life settled moment busy felt good kept mind much anxiety suicidal ideation course last long evening school sent opportunity letter students concerning auditions local boys schools production female roles life became unbearable desperately wanted knew time invest unless significant role want dedicate months ensemble alright acting necessarily suited part couple panic attacks finally courage write name next morning thursday everything settling way planned find monologue night start practicing next week began panic classmate insisted role involved singing everything felt hopeless catch break another panic attack ensued night even worse though list many girls suddenly signed main role one particularly amazing actor absolutely perfect part weak filled anxiety cried hyperventilated hour saw name knew shot guess knew along confirmed suppose whole time reason upset badly wanted production want become better actress want make friends want experience satisfaction putting amazing play hurt knew start never chance world makes distraught know weak pathetic getting worked consumed life little issue im feeling waves suicidal thoughts anxiety depression worse think cross name list late everyone knows pointless go role even friend told suicidal thoughts lately thinking terrible disgusting things people makes think surely afterlife even one bad want gone forever im done week ago told parents im suicidal everyday someone called see told plan killing day dad turned room upside find razor found going use kill night wont let kill want hear anymore years long enough perants even let room day alone mins want die much life ended years agoive dead long time believe stress anxiety pain caught cant keep running obviously therapy medicine useless im giving hours live im going head little clearing woods used meet middle night one place everything perfect one last time mishima one greatest films made think paul schrader greatest screenwriter time really films hes directed ive seen exception affliction amazing disturbing highly dimensional character study follows life yukio mishima japans celebrated writer combining last day life flashbacks stories know paul schrader manages combine artistic way acting great photography perfect score philip glass although confusing first viewing one films becomes richer viewing truly underrated gem film feel failure even though well school clean room work many projects someone explain need friend im yahey im kevin need help want talk im absolutely glad talk important im m bit crazy past im feel free dm fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck cleaning ears cant hear agiain tried clean still cant hear fuck bullshit third time already wanted fucking clean ear loaded gunthrowaway account short cant anymore theres escape understand death cause pain trauma part unfortunate fairly sure continuing live without merit likely equally devasting consequences hear failed everything ive attempted okay passing exams thats life skills social skills made two friends high school thats literally job history joke secure okay jobs cant hold year objectively speaking im bad things tends cause problems employment im year old lesbian im hyper androgynous everyone confused cause problems live midwest come largely conservative family romantic life successful area thats saying much sex fun one stay realize im complete fuck zero social skills top lost person wanted kids left baby daddy beats desire date cant afford buy basic necessities ive living rice peanut butter weeks degree psych student loans started job child welfare fail risk ruining lives children already endured trauma unlike anything privileged ass known quit im homeless andor family burden bought gun weeks ago waited three days bought ammo planned night instead passed drunk bathroom floor loaded gun hand every evening hold gun head ritual think help desensitization feel bad mom ms emotional never got dog dying ten years ago still cries absolute intenthello redflagwatch quite awhile first post detailing intent obviously done opted instead exhaust options first see anyone give ironclad reason one far doubt anyone will many forms therapies ive tried many therapists ive changed anything medications ive taking im inclined believe nothing actually wrong mind thinkingthey cant fix problem exist fact sign anything might actually wrong want kill im going outline reasons desiring anybody interested check previous posts find ask directly copypasted version bottomline intend end life im help im really upset honest happen soon long redflag note compose details organize point procrastination keeping alive anything posting answer want feedback want know absolutely certain right way right reasons talk intent discouraging see wasting time us one us lot less expect contribution solely logical critique suggestion encounter logical critique overcome discard plan entirely cant feedback anywhere countdown begins im done everyoneim either killing someone probably anyone willing fake reference mei even need one right cause im depressed hermit neet wanted position needed someone vouch character reference place rent something anyone even help doubt guess asking others lie help sorry life much know dolife difficult always past years gone steeply hill time mother died years back getting better know much take anymore really wish end want kill seems way take anymore think gets worse cause one talk dumb rid myselfwell kinda silly situation considered multiple ways kill finally far im scared failing ending rescued false planning even worse brain damage want speak psychologist temporary solution clear cant fix years educated retardation reasons low intelligence kind whats next wan na wait till die watch everything worse worse selfish primitive character please help mei need someone care please night know whats happening theres much going head please help want die obsessed yeah crush atm litterally cliche might cant stop thinking every moment think pretty sweet im way obsessed shes one friends sit bunch people lunch sometimes catch staring kinda creepy thinking noone really notices almost sure doesnt barely speaks obsessed pls guysgals help kataklysm greatest death metal band change mind mfs reply worse scum ok haha omg good nice cool really ohh nicee went dennys today server asked wanted white wheat toast responded white wheat looked weird got nervous said nevermind ill bread im currently posting flight brazil perhaps absolute greatest entry hammer house horror series surely wins award inventively titled episode house bled death yell title day without getting tired besides wondrous title short movie benefices solidly written screenplay handful genuinely suspenseful moments might require extra viewing fully understand peculiar endtwist definitely original idea horror short story opens images elderly couple drinking tea middleclass house husband sadistically kills wife several years later cursed house still sale young couple cherubic daughter move start restore mysterious events occur affect especially young sophie beloved cat killed even birthday party gets ruined one houses pipes suddenly sprays blood guests particularly chilling sequence one old house really haunted maybe seemly helpful neighbors cause horror answers questions provided original fairly unpredictable climax theres even room real shock end tension masterfully built titular house filled eerie scenery pair rusty machetes used husband slay wife little warning though sequence cat hard watch animal lover conclusion another winner hammers shortrunning tv series good common logical sense know oil last forever acutely aware much life suburbs revolves around petrochemical products ive avid consumer new technology keep running space powerboards know even energy crunch associated peak oil change life appreciablybr br end suburbia shows rational entertaining manner much whole familys lifestyle change lifetime particularly concerned future generations pick tab excesses filmmakers offer glimmer hope acknowledge human resourcefulness determination sense community tends engendered shared hardshipbr br point trying pretend peak oil baseless propaganda treating approaching radioactive cloud beach ie suicide pills ready even best efforts times harder im hoping theres enough compassion humanity go around lgtbq bad contradicts hear hate bisexual girl made video saying going conservative instead democratic within days got nothing hate lgtbq support got conservatives non lgtbq friends may prepering hate comment compare whole community tiny people hating lgtbq members bashing comments conservative soon videos full hatred towards lgtbq people must think couldve anither reason know everything say people lgtbq bunch comments said want conservative ass bunch stuff hows shes traitor bs made last video got bullied point broke know people lgtbq arent stupid idiots blatantly hate acab says support cops support corrupted system logic support lgtbq support idiots harassed someone lone fact ideology hi guys need help hi guys great community spending time lot normally post title quit worrying sub need prove something friend new macbook pro runs minecraft fps says terrible bad laptop almost blows whenever type tell afford great laptops doesnt mean nonrtx ones crap thanks guys present suicidal ideation constant weight shoulders help coming quick enough really want diei take depression medication anything might partly blame still even went gp got suitable antidepressants suicidal ideation embrace unfamiliar path rather already familiar path half half suicidal ideation half passive suicidal thoughts half intense almost active suicidal thoughts tired right yet manageable enough level passive suicidal thoughts depressive mood know want guys anything current life really sorta feel stuck middle seeking help never feel ready change due various reasons autism seek comfortable cant seen deteriorate back square one everything different usually hardly works antidepressants really assistance crap sometimes feel much weird mood stabilising things think antidepressants seen mood stabilisers might wrong p helpful even find right ones big part wants wait assessment session one talking therapy waiting lists try antidepressants part feels fault keep feeling way take offered case drugs oh way read life andor write post reddit httpswwwwattpadcomsighmonthsinthelifeofasuckersufferingof way link recent update part journalrant compilation honestly though unable helped cant even help yea read rantswritings wattpad feel kinda want someone comment writings think subject bit heavy encourage someone p aaaaaaaa word describe feeling right made isolate days contact one im stupid soooooo bored cause unlike many people sub extrovert love people attention class presentations anyone know ways kill time finances cover rent bills groceries struggle lately ive barely eating fuck im asking enough cover getting car inspected gas life slowly falling apart april last year im done every morning wake disappointment several years ago navy kept studied distance away making men honor film based experiences services first black master chief divers struggle overcome virulent racism eager support films showing navys best side uss nimitz two helicopter assault carriers supporting shore installations provided complement engrossing tale young sailors battle uncontrollable rage movie shot aboard uss belleau woodbr br antwone fisher wrote script denzel washingtons directors debut stars navy psychiatrist treating fisher played effectively deeply derek lukebr br fisher obviously bright enlisted man assigned uss belleau wood lha front line helicopter assault platform fisher cant seem avoid launching assaults minimal provocation fellow enlisted men sent md part possible preseparation proceeding fisher slowly opens black psychiatrist revealing awful childhood great neglect shuddering brutalitybr br story develops fisher cautiously increasingly trusts doctor gets courage pursue love interest enlisted sailor named cheryl played stunningly beautiful joy bryantbr br fisher reluctantly engages doctor asking long simmering questions soon realizes must seek answers painful order grow move away conflictseeking destructive behaviorbr br main characters black story transcends race unflinchingly showing evil exuberant religiosity concomitant hypocrisy foster family settings viola davis versatile actress seen number recent films picture sullen immorality nothing compared foster mom mrs tate novella nelson short searing scenes earn existed oscar gutchurning brutalitybr br films patienttherapist interaction follow certain predictability transference countertransference stuff earnestness fisher doctormentor realistically gripping good story well told periodbr br set navy antwone fisher real sense service story men honor excellent movie dealt crushing racism directed real person truly film blacks surviving terrible childhood experiences fisher says able proclaim adulthood victim still standing tall persecutors shrink size significance brave strong young man claims right decent life aid caring doctorbr br quibble washington lieutenant commander addressed commander navy support people listed end credits someone told director washington character naval officers rank commander addressed mister big criticism br br know film playing theaters deserves wide distribution derek luke may well oscar nominationbr br br br ive saying months dagonrompa among us anime putney swope unique low low low budget gem late s probably forgotten time two things paul thomas anderson named cheadles character boogie nights buck swope eponymous hero film limited dvd release watching putney swope listening hardcore punk rock may make lot sense least upon watching first time respect film passion unabashedly rebellious message understand lot things putney swope part liked think movie grows mebr br film advertised parody new yorks madison avenue best known s advertising capital world members generation x may lost concept fortunately mad men tv provide us lost piece us history need know watching movie ad agencies largely male even largely white establishmentsbr br premise mind movie opens ad agency board meeting members predominantly white except putney swope arnold johnson bears uncanny resemblance dick gregory film token africanamerican board board members selfabsorbed soulless chairman falls dead front concern become chairman next without even removing body boardroom begin paper ballot elect next chairmanbr br putney swope elected landslide members think swope qualified voting swope illfated attempt board members sabotage members chance elected chairman plans backfired swope takes charge sinks boat firing one original members hiring people color place br br point film became weird hard follow plotwise may even plot really whole idea film seems scenario result new truth soul inc firm unconventional successful nonetheless firm ends making much money members build huge glass case keep cash unexplained purposes swope trust banks although point touched upon explained film metaphoric way knowsbr br movie takes place inside ad agency occasional scenes white house president unknown reason midget assumption political joke made cant figure filmmakers saying president small insignificant part american life saying latest elected officials nixon time insignificant candidates know found bit eerie man playing president bore striking resemblance future president ronald reagan funny make connection years movie madebr br film may benefited showing consumers outside ad agency reacted new ads course ad footage possessed strange funny appeal unconventional creativity ads convince people buy product movie hinted idea new ad campaign successful client interaction calls white house revealing see average people demographic always profitable advertisersbr br although parodies political messages film may made probably stand test time film still lot unique qualities arnold johnson magnetic x factor benefited greatly film swopes rough voice actually director robert downey srs voice dubbed sometimes poorly fit character well authoritative outsider hires fires workers random earns respect one employees revolutionizing ad agency seeking new ideasbr br premise film still incredibly risky especially film written directed white man robert downey sr film declines fall victim negative black stereotypes lead rise fall blaxploitation genre years later although sex scenes may bit offputting viewers main message black owned operated business thrive innovation risk taking many people may take notredflag message away movie didbr br putney swope remains overlooked movie strange era downey sr even despite sons recent comeback never quite got recognition director deserved find dvd movie buy watch netflix ditto movie confusing times worth watching gusto ambition nonconformist stature even todays movie standards ive seeing one shed helped process much help recognize start move past lot things went hating fearing father incident sister ended triggering memory told blame marital issues among things point even around family friend gatherings without feeling anxious wanting flee able accept things happened past remind past able interact even really feel familial love anymore care wellbeing familial bond killed came retrieve stuff couple days walking time stood made snide remark mother told go ahead run problems always backed corner shook screamed collapsed mother came home made leave lmaoo whenever need take turn immediatelyi shuffle leg direction want go goplease tell im one highest pvoted text post rteenagers pvotes dude fuck never see text post pvotes yall sad realize nice bubbly kids went elementary middle school depressed alcoholics nicotine addicts maybe shift th th grade shift th grade th kinda scary feel middle school people discovered nic raging nicotine addictions things normalized care dad nicotine addict hes dealing years know hes tried quit multiple times lifetime avail makes sad peers cant enjoyable anymore middle school went stealing parents ecigs sipping vodka personal device bottles beds highschool im trying shame anyone addiction either let make clear mind nothing help friends peers brush concerns rumors flavored juiced banned friends saying theyll switch cigs desperately want see happen theres shortage bad dialogue david bathsheba quite hand slingshot king israel darkness exposing enemy full marks dennis hooey delivering one straight face go sit concubines somehow doubt bored david told prophet nathan whatever say even tries old kingdom understand routine desperate housewife bathsheba one point probably tribute henry kings direction film bad despite pitfalls much first third provide maybe censorbaiting nature plot married man kills femme fatales husband gets away king brings growing moral theological complexities phillip dunnes script rather upping sin sandals hokum conflicted david downhill slope abandoned vengeful god longer understands film back away awkward unanswerable questions loving deity choose wreak vengeance innocent rather guilty even offers genuinely surprising criticism sexual inequality law failings husbands result punishment wivesbr br unlike king david sidelined king favour admittedly interesting saul david firmly centre drama despite interesting display shoulder twitching frankly gormless overlong closeup visiting site saul jonathans death gregory pecks performance grows stature david shrinks susan hayward pure hollywood pro raymond massey appropriately theatrical prophet naturalistic got voice makes heavens quake kieron moores uriah intransigent unreconstructed chauvinist cant exactly blame david putting harms way despite threatening soft peddle film allow david moral jail free card death surprisingly strong subdued design technicolor photography definitely cut ss biblical epicsbr br foxs new dvd good transfer including incredibly hokey candid behindthescenes short trailer brief shots deleted films sole battle scene waited months referral new therapist saw times made enough progress bring fucking trauma surface immediately lost insurance coverage partners boss decided fire warning got tired accommodating disabilitythis part explain long trying better every single fucking time gets screwed someone elses cruelty incompetence keep fucking trying yeah going kms yet going try one thing always kms afterward work might one things try lol please readit good redflag story tell hyukhyukhyuk want know girl likes hey guys im currently friends girl ive known year ive liked time now im going dump lot information id really appreciate took time read give advice told liked last year told want date anyone due loads schoolwork school imposes us heard one close friends talks lot interactions weve accidentally touched spots classified inappropriate seemed fine mortified first im usually pretty shy reserved physical contact either notice pretended notice think likes talk meshe frequently initiates conversation keeps going long time room free block often asks keep company hang usually loquacious everyone though tried apply dilated eye trick makes eye contact lot kinda difficult tell people commented close proximity together walking arms frequently brush often hangs backpack ive seen hold friends backpacks often mine usually sit next wants show something computer go sometimes initiates physical contact rubsputs hand shoulder punches chest playfully hits arm jokingly tells hits enjoys causing pain try reciprocate similar things save chest punches leaning shoulder tousling hair punching arm lightly seems fine reciprocate much reciprocate sometimes try anything engages playful physical contact without pause days ago talking gently stepped foot thing step foot step foot resting foot step foot foot mine tried couple times respond kept staring talking sometimes wrestleplay fight teasing im quicker verbally usually end getting last word jumps laughs lot things say even though theyre sarcastic asides bad jokes frequently gets really hyper around told even liked someone tell think thats good prospects im sure likes friend guys think goes really cant say much plot movie already said seen movie years memory never left searching every done net searches past came empty last night thinking movie trying remember last saw even sure right movie name decided another search finally found sight right one knows copy wonderful movie share family please let tawnyteelyahoocom really appreciate anyone seen movie chance well worth id rather dead work job whole life diethats living bullshit helpdoes anyone without bullshit answers gets better much live want talk im fucking lonely one helping ive tried kill twice past hours messed want killl myselfi girl making coerced sex ive never felt bad something life ive never done anything usually vouch womens rights character everyday ask god didnt even stop think second wrong talked shes always threatening expose completely understand tbh ive talking god lot telling im going kill may please mercy soul cant live knowing ive done thought friends family finding thought disappointing family name everyone believes im fairly attractive popular guy tbh blow came know cant handle ive thinking ways kill honestly think im going need easy ways kill rarely one come across indie comedy leaves lasting impression cross eyed rare gem writer director tackled challenge directing work gives hilarious performance evil roommate script takes interesting look plight struggling writer mixes much comedy desolate world writer cant help commit ernie character funny stuff despite tiny budget adam jones manages give film serious look hes messing around comes making good movie cant wait see comes next guy make people laugh think thats special ive lost ability feel sadsadness without im nothing ive already started self harming make lack pain emotion feel every second slowly passing ghost friends thats wont anything ill spend everyday lying bed staring roof time slowly moves waiting ive decided ive enough try end even motivation anymore sure doim twenty years old getting life started graduated highschool seems senior year began everything went downhill parents problem gotten point cant handle third time ive written gone character limit several times times ive tried make post make long story short parents drug addicts past years january middle senior year parents lost jobs started selling pills pay rent ended addicted things went downhill fast mom got jobs within next four months fired either stealing strung work got arrested dui graduated used money graduation buy car car getting road work things bought got job gas station full time hours week nd shift keep money parents took pay every week naively allowed thinking theyd pay back agreement borrowing gave friends job thought right family helping pay bills whatnot time friends worked nd shift every day tuesdaywednesday cant make plans days friends working although thought right family reality every dime gave parents went buy pills moved grandparents afford rent house quit job got sick working money point friends stopped speaking see often depressed hang exactly usual self left car old house pay insurance take road parents sold without telling parents guilted giving tax return working rest claiming little sister dependent apartment felt choice even got taxes parents told entire family going give taxes us apartment grandparents incredibly relieved wed living sinking afford got new apartment tax return rest used buy pills unbeknownst parents put utilities lease name mom got credit cards name secondary application started popping pills strung every day sister fend ended steal grocery stores fast food restaurants daily feed us every dime parents got went pills entire family knew something wrong point winter early spring never paying rent evicted apartment august last year point started new job another gas station mom got job fired three weeks starting stealing pills job taking care elderly alzheimers patient mom thought make money womans alzheimer meds mom started another job taking care elderly man legs got fired week stole mans wedding rings pawned edit post make sure long yet around time november family stolen constantly uncle guns two rifle barrels stolen grandmother purse taken uncles house broken computer stolen christmas eve went aunts house lives hour half away see often bedroom going use new years vacation stolen go thats part ive gone character limit many damn times now quit job gas station parents taking money time around father works construction job localgovernment agency provides assistance low income families working womans home govt agency paying contract father said needed borrow money materials labor costs said done dime money back made months gas station naive enough believe parents things worse entire family knows everything father gotten act together hes working trying make things right mothers hardcore drug addict continue pop pills found mothers crackpipe tonight apparently pills enough theyve taken bills name possessions theyve sold money theyve taken ive given even stole money bank account bank tucked away thought know found bank card treated beyond drugs money theft theres fact im gay come family yet entire family knows made mistake coming grandmother gossip juicy keep mother knows im gay im open thought accepted seemed fine gave youre kid love matter speech comfortable days ago heard talking dad disgusting dick sucking faggot choice wording said lot pretty much says cant take dealing theres lot ive left spending hour writing rewriting continually going character limit said screw tried give short nowhere go nothing left money possessions bank account overdrawn friends family members take trust parents know im piece shit one thing care cant find effort fix gets bad makes feel piece shit shut passesmy family im learning trade eventually move im terrified happen zero social skills anxiety everything time feel comfortable playing video games probably much past two weeks ive break got argument mom asked watch siblings short notice reason really bad anxiety schedules changed suddenly even schedule nothing particular two weeks went fine mom dropped goes way anything knows gets stuff unnexpectedly comes feels piece shit asks something clue thought much lately feel fucking loser asshole making feel way im huge burden parents even voice talk time move tinge optimism voices makes feel alone really makes feel cant stand cant stand honestly motivation even trade im learning told id keep getting job eventually lead moving everyday tell fuck life anything normal enough almost tick anything bad happens brain instantly thinks fucking kill cant stop matter much try honestly im starting seriously think honestly wouldve done long time ago siblings born move might become disconnected long enough edit lol even nobody sub wants anything cuz im fucking mistake give reaaon itwhats fucking point im alone ill always alone one gives shit good person one see good whats point im convinced born suffer die alone love give care means nothing swear im trying good person help homeless whenever try break fights listen need someone listen care everyone way fucking much everythings always goddamn fucking broke year old long distance relationship turned toxic end hopes might find someone whos actually able one tries see good know im ugly fucking fat whatever fuck im bad person swear keep going im always going alone one love wish hug single hug thats need ill die without theres hope left finally found foolproof way itit quick almost painless godspeed everyone please please please beg give actual good reasons stay go itplease anyone chill enough play overwatch qpcomp group pc im looking dudedudette play overwatch im pc blah blah blah usually play comp high silver im gud takers need helpi realizing point anything life one nothing going right life started college years ago getting strong urges end life scary know im impulsive person one day might follow know need see therapist every time tell mom understandi feel im better deal diazepamdo think x mg pills diazepam plus alcohol induce comatose wish didnt existits im another night sleep much coming different angles parents narcs gone contact severely codependent married narc children relinquished rights fear damage damaged feel stuck im emotionally completely checked dgaf anymore ive looked going dual diagnosis center cost prohibitive figures talk outive struggling past months nearly attempted october planning go garage guilt thought ruining fiances car deal top funeral preparations thing stopped im struggling today really badly thoughts way pull essentially guilting fiance close graduating years needs finish couple months classes now leave wouldnt able finish classes hed distracted push back graduation another year cat special diet pain ass make im one knows make want anyone want inconvenience anyone want want want disappoint anyone already days im alive weird sense duty im tired want anymore need advice different ways talk im becoming numb guilt really need someone talk toplease something terrible betrayed friend wrote confession earlier feel worse know im selfishly wallowing cant help im damn pathetic please someone talk military redflag need helpso ive usaf years say goodbye countless times time different met someone made happy every time sawheard made happiest guy im going typical airman marries got orders korea wanted enjoy much possible left want love cant ive say goodbye friends family countless times hurts much hate military much drink ton everyday wish die cause amount nothing cant love anyone move place place make friends moment nothing last served country end day im another body want passively die dont want commit redflag cause dont want go hell believe want die honorably ive thought redflag countless times us military isnt seems im excellent janitor outside job skills pls help bit puzzle lot artsy lynch crowd tend try write kind meaningless crude side project lynchs lynch passing gas real pieces film art well may fart one intriguing farts catch whiff embarrassed admit enjoybr br dumbland distilled beyond art aspects modern life laugh took seriously go nuts hook smell taste feel agonies unreasoning stupidities express medium choose thats called art art dumb dumbland makes sensei dont anyone goals motivation anything talents skills social skills whatsoever nothing makes happy self esteem list goes feel bad people dont know try help feels nothing working dont want die sounds scary dont want live horrible life makes sense really nothing hard see isnt answer finalization workingim alcoholic stage know never know know im sure felt feel im coming free cant break cycle leave behind beautiful partner kids leave behind estranged ex son leave behind lot people overlooked shunned including parents siblings look comforting explaining strangers judge keyboard warriors weak emotional thats curse packets nurofen tablets worry anymore relief brain relief cant live world thisi due self let periodontitis bad humiliation fear dentist yell teeth start falling probably within year ive brushed teeth used mouth wash years floss think necessary one people missing teeth find good woman looking monster wont rather dead wonder everyone saying least im dead hear comments think good future someone world wife family good job theres point really temporary problempeople say redflag permanent solution temporary problem problem ongoing years still think fixed cant even imagine life without feeling constantly lonely tired frustrated redflagdepression antidepressants generally good place every often really low moods last days less nothing seems help normal usually go away motivation feel anxious really low mood feel end really want pass constantly google things reasons might happening blue happen anyone tips getting ruts feeling days stories reminiscent leopold loeb case may find movie entertaining cast includes robert culpwith stephen caffrey garrison hershberger college studentsbr br peter falk usual self pretending tricked precocious students caffrey longtime companion buried alive excellent menacing roles basically two frat buddies become tired demanding parents expect nothing less academic perfection attendance best schools financed conform excellent scene wherein culp rakes caffrey coals gets low grade threatens cut trust funds caffrey later says friend hate want deadbr br well beverly hills always excellent theme believe film came right menendez killings watch menedez killing beverly hills compare film may find interesting parallels polite way kill single fact stopped ending life time time people always tell things better people care latter seems correct people care still gotten better try might cant ill weeks go without incident faintest hope things change one bad day im back edge end life chose take easy way id hurting others process decided jump sweep shot wipe brain wall taking life leave others bigger burden im selfish person really want die stop existing depart without hurting anyone never existed first place option really know seek gain posting standard life meaning people help bad situation random people ive never met though ill probably gain even less devaluing people im live parents siblings never went highschool got ged im college sophomore despite loving family ive never able connect anyone deeper level ive always felt adverse toward people different feel disgusted people similar actively push people away often notice actions affect others around lot problems gone undiagnosed untreated long im sure bad really bouncing apathetic suicidal day day good sign im honestly disgusted cant commit anything cant make opinions theyre unpopular ones taste everything trash whole childhood growing specialed outcast among outcasts bullied felt deserved nobody took side stood one got punished may cherry picking struggle remember things childhood traumatic way parents removed school th grade nearly killed worst bully school friends help teachers stood watched stopped moving finally pulled im still haunted day school closed years later inhuman treatment students little late damage done suppose venting make feel slightly better somethings going ruin mood soon enough spent way long editing cant trust peopleand going lead death wife talking guy facebook thanking supportive supportive bring husband support ex wife started cheating hell trust people literally want track kill screw world hell may taken many pills tonight try sleep may wake tomorrow oh well ive shitty years planet fucking matter maybe take pills sitting right big deal l ready talking guy obviously filling hole fill wife cause im obviously crappy husband run fuck im sure even care anymore attempt overdose last nighti took methocarbamol mg pills melatonin help sleep attempt die sleep woke extreme drowsiness nausea parents think norovirus enough kill lbs helps every reason happybut im every day think ending life im engaged wonderful man love much moved great new place promising careers financially secure supportive parents honestly know things starting going downhill least think know early dropped masters degree went existential crisis following years hopping jobs getting paid peanuts gaining lot weight putting strain health relationship may landed current job fantastic following month grandmother passed away decade circling drain longer recognising anyone december started weight loss programme successful lost kg earlier year estranged halfbrothers pancreatic cancer turned terminal died two months later may july proposed partner years said yes last month best friend killed traffic accident fault cant tell fianc hopeless powerless terrified feel hes already hell feel incredibly guilty whenever much tell feel bit blue hes already everything feel selfish telling somehow enough feel terrible hiding fact sometimes want leave along everyone deserve cant tell parents mother manic depressive refuses treatment prejudice father already heartbroken loss estranged son blamed gay despite fact mother one initiated divorce estrangement another son suddenly decided renounce family without telling us effectively already lost two four children bear threaten loss youngest daughter ive told therapist underplay feel evident im coping seem alarmed blame know need time heal even cant deaths im family leave want waste annual leave sick leave processing feelings stereotypical woman im worried dont ill end psychiatric hospital something selfinflicted worse dead im utterly miserable wits end know im desperate relief kind crushed guilt even thinking love love wish functional family argue every day unbearable ugh today seventeenth birthday mostly spent alonemy seventeenth birthday today predicted quite lonesome one went school forced smile peers friends acknowledged birthday feel entitled school went work forced smile coworkers customers served wrong things happened today made smile coworkers told happy birthday even sang brought birthday card balloon shift customers told happy birthday really sort came home depressive tired trance usually party anything friends special conditions kind know hate seemed entitled guess wish felt wanted appreciated birthday friends even play game something usually always together anyway busy least said end day yes people acknowledge existed birthday still ended coming home alone depressed nothing day really changing im still old depressed lonely loser always nobody seemed care much usual tell everybody said nice things obligation birthday tell really care guess expected anything always expect something go way still disappointed always ends favor maybe im selfish though know wish somebody loved join house surprised friends family balloons streamers cake stuff let know care proud making far guess commodities soul contract ampxb im done whining though know tons people way worse wish things different thanks reading commenting cheers everyone preston waters years old boyhas problems parents brothers specially money issues crazy house rulessince brothers always stole saved money parents neglect wishes one awful day preston riding bicycle day villain storyquigley trying scape police accidentally ran car prestons bike needing far away police quigley gives hurry check cover damages prestons bike problem blank check preston clever boy decides high price check million dollars money gives preston things always wished mansion poollots toys even limousine problems start begin fbi quigley wants know money making preston hard situation facing many problemsbr br movie one favorites childhood allowed use snoo profile pic another site want know illegal anything problem movie rode coattails screated concept comic books done camp ie s batman show tv movie thus combat sequences subtitles come cluelessly unromantic doc savage uncomfortable around women pulps idiot monk mayfair nightsheet scene guaranteed give nightmares several nights totally hokey ending secondary bad guy encased gold herve villechez posing oscar statute theyre booming sousa march scores tinkly little funny music undercuts much dramabr br even movie isokay fun stays serious accurate representation pulps except monk mentioned hes hugely muscled obese long tom supposed pale scrawny guy attitude paul gleason inexplicable scarfbr br green death sequences instance remarkably gruesome something id recommend children close feel pulps writers producers right right ill give thatbr br producers done doc loving care scripting say reeves first two superman movies think might think problem movies schizophrenic theres definite sense trying s homage theyre trying give heroes must camp attitude batman created one gets impression sober pulpstyle first draft someone came said hey lets make funny worked batman show years agobr br doc lives thanks earl macrauch buckaroo banzai macrauch aint homage doc savage movie man truly demented series actually gets tv allegedly midseason doc savage updated s live guys whats weirdest dream ill start upon time withered leafless autumn tree two arm projections three sharp long branches man passing apprehended tree tree asked geometry box man heard legend autumn tree dishonestly replied tree said well pass tree let man go now another man passing previous man stopped tree asked question man foolish honest fellow replied yes geometry box tree proceeds stab man long branches wolverinestyle kills spot turn new project idea index wikipedia pages look rteenagers spooktober want find words leave word comment section done using program making rn im male thanks awards pee pee pretty cool think id coochie better idk seems fun except periods wouldnt care less someone died right front unless close friend family member pretty much dont care human life anymore horrible society honestly someone talks someone dead pretend care point today learned whatever happens masturbate menthol shampoo even try something im backyou know shit gets real back rredflagwatch last time guys made comments saying friend pm well talk guys know well much bullshit guys cheer mental case move next person even stick around different actually able talk person physically communicate find setting computer screen desperate attempt help hoping time different time actually help long run friend girlfriend years left facebook im insecureshe emotionally made manipulated meinto solely dependant ive long years mom died guilt grief nobody came around id notice little things shed tell nobody cares bunch things along lines nobody care slowly started fully believe recently blaming stress im going psychtherapy trying better best broke today facebook asking tell itll okay woke nightmare night terrors really bad nightmares possible ptsd conflicting illness feel really suicidal right im starting comprehend maybe blame pressed issue typing simple words box happened im lost really want live anymore doingi actually cut shaving razor yesterday nothing couple tiny cuts deep enough bleed hurt im disappointed feel failure showered month brush teeth anymore hardly talk people never feel belong social situation thing enjoy anymore looking weird porn late night think hurting people ive tried overdose know try current medicine probably work time im gon na make sucide note im gon na leave thisi hope anymore want criticised anyone anymore plan want say goodbye someone anyone want say goodbye im gon na say goodbye guys want f chat hours reddit rookie numbers dont know people think bad movie got pretty good plot good action change location harry hurt either sure offensive gratuitous movie eastwood good form dirty harry liked pat hingle movie small town cop liked dirty harry see one lot better dead pool anyone wan na chat need emotional support open hey bored well hit dms bored together solid black white slapstick comedy dark hopelessly contrived plot true crowd pleaser howling laughter well rolling eyes disbeliefbr br old psychopath train story big importance thriller portion film almost seems merely counterweight antics great comedian robert gustafsson hapless nearly incurably optimistic soldier invokes compassion schadenfreude fashion almost rivals chevy chasebr br thing film appealed wedged improbable hilarious accurately portrayed everyday joys nuisances train travel add welcome sense realism recognitionbr br thriller comedy admittedly borrowed suspense hitchcock opinion watched comedy value high indeed besides gustafsson lars ambles solid performance delightfully cynical misogynist worth price admission alonebr br heartily recommend girl omegle called cute chatted discord tag half hour gave snap cuz wer vibing chilling talking abt music bit sent pic sent mine started hyping frr conplimented hair dimples called cute genuinely theee best compliment got weeeeks ion know mann felt sharingg ahahh toi apologize advance use insensitive language first time writing matter familiar terms lost relative redflag year ago painful days ago heard another news high school friend scares much might lose redflag scares especially relative took life one saw signs protect ones care know loved one danger late good reading non verbal signs strong tendency think everything okay makes blind subtleties help someones pain itwhy let die fucking cant kill every day gets worse add nothing world cant tell anyone lock psych ward dont life cant life im losing fucking mind cant tell anyone cant even drink altered state mind im young hate existence hate everything feel animal road got ran guts hanging yet still alive tremendous pain everyone keeps driving one helping therapist decided longer person therapy even though feel unsecure privacy safety dad told shoot plan using extension cord random electrical device find tell life worth living please heard mentally tired exhausted dad told gun shoot considering send picture failing something youtube video dont show face secs something either dm discord holy sheep examples sharpening pencil breaks missing basked ball shot burning toast etc thanks much one miss mei never mean anything anyone every time ive tried reach never worked trash everyone deserve want hang home cuz depressing want die public place either cuz want give trauma random passerby best place hang many movies people returning home wars cope war home worth seeing portraying vietnam vet jeremy collier emilio estevez trouble connecting texas family much movie likely tense nothing prepare ends getting revealedbr br part makes movie good gives viewer feeling texas generation gap jeremys parents bob martin sheen maurine kathy bates clearly problem sons attitude war rejection americanism sister karen kimberly williams uncertain side dinner neutralitybr br americans may never able fully vietnam war movie probably help us look seriously affected many people emilio estevez certainly good job directing starring corin nemec carla gugino failed attempti tried overdosing yesterday didnt work let hospital planning kill asap advice hospital shouldnt etc honestly point want someone care best film one best s yes rip goodfellas saying goes good poets borrow great poets steal pta stolen brilliantly best plus added genius touches gave ten rare mebr br main reason commenting though cause rave night people seen vhs standard issuewhat thinking deserves full screen experience look ratio shot saw times cinema bothered watch videobr br nuff said gives genuine criticizm wtf stop victim blaming women marginalized u misogynist stop oppressing us u part patriarchy please shut time goim really done dont understand anymore everything acted fine long time really cant take drunk everyday numb pain wanting hurt people afraid house job messed school keep failing driving lessons girl going rave tomorrow probably cheating something wan na leave cant live without hate seriously never bore fucking drug problem thinking fun going raves leaving home cutting trying drink death im sick shit wish everything wouldve different heaven live happy life cant dont know wrong yeah probably end think hell less pain honestly wan na leave planet im sorry read really hope rave party worth fucking death caused bs ignoring feelings yeah might little crazy different try best hope pray pray god still let heaven spoilers review edited due word limitbr br horror horror marlon brando apocalypse apocalypse redux br br sentence famous heres looking kid talkin may force ill back means little oneliners spoken lingers air importance meaning go unnoticed might drive viewers nuts may never find answer horror unless rewatch film try pay close observation every single framebr br exactly line dialogue mean horror spoken reality war reality moral men easily corrupted turn inborn instincts kill fellow beings without sign guilt capt willard martin sheen stands dying col kurtz marlon brando end film horrorthe horror realization willards corruptness mercilessly killed man cold blood part assignment typical hollywood ending cases character gains something whether emotionally physically mentally three willard gains loses gains knowledge lost morals shocking endingbr br apocalypse now francis ford coppolas tribute artistic side filmmaking film wholly different godfather hallucinogenic visually dazzling ode guilty side human nature first seems realistic becomes strange symbolic end original unique perspective spiritual side warfare much film vietnam war film war within usbr br first appear another war film captain willard sheen assigned army lieutenant young harrison ford assassinate renegade american colonel named kurtz brando hiding somewhere vietnam hoard troops less act slavesbr br willard carries mission extreme prejudice heading boat along four soldiers including boat captain chief albert hall chef frederic forest young larry fishburne later went appear morpheus matrixbr br apocalypse now many ways modern update homers odyssey main character willard carries journey meets array original strange characters including lt col kilgore robert duvall strange fetish surfing stoned photographer dennis hopper whose lively gestures mannerisms compared much lesser jeremy davies million dollar hotel one worst films seen davies failed make connection audience hopper poetic vibe willard kurtz interpreter going back forth speaking foreign languages case translating kurtz willard although im sure kurtz needs translation willardbr br many films lucky enough one two memorable scenes lines apocalypse now many kilgore descending upon vietnam village playing wagners ride valkyries remains one remembered scenes film history sharpness brutality ironic tone sense playfulness kilgore kneels beach says love smell napalm morningit smells victory crack smilebr br lie apocalypse now strange film exactly easiest thing analyze end may frustrate viewers understand marlon brandos significant speeches comes really matters film dark nature human psyche horror realization war effects war kurtz says right kill right judge brandos character kurtz left audience judge many nave viewers may appear crazy loon whose power got head francis ford coppola trying across fighting vietnam kurtz realized great bad others walking devastated villages eventually comes realize nave ones living lives fools paradise totally nave surroundings possible misfortunes hit seeing unlucky vietnamese kurtz realizes easily struck something easily end people around realizes people people abandoned morals left door many people think horror one thing two kurtz horror reality nave reality wars impact upon men willard murders kurtz hears kurtzs dying words realizes realizes effects war see many soldiers sense right wrong makes realize horror war man done horrorbr br stars br br girl class asked said really cute nice people need anyone early send screens chat friend told everyone getting bullied think thats bs tf wpuld bullied someone yeah thats feel deserve livefell love best friend back already suffering mental health issues diagnosed anything except autism im pretty sure borderline personality disorder cut regularly still sometimes frequently anyways back felt killing wonder took drinking decided girl thatd hitting ease pain got comfortable relationship months kind stopped talking bff painful drunk texting every night point considered ghosting bff came back weeks ago feelings immediately returned thought love girl im currently apparently im started realizing want im terrified alone want hurt wants marriage dont wants kids dont nothing lines us besides fact submissive im attracted apparently submissive fragile im scared hurting soo anyways bff came back saying sorry jumbled mess im freaking keeps going crush turned asshole ghosted im sucks im sorry start talking week goes said small crush elated seriously felt id waiting entire year want date right now wants take slow acceptable theres fact im relationship know ive flirting bff every day felt guilty id feeling fucking dead inside prior time actually happy bff text entire night lmao know fucking stupid upset ended drinking lot entire bottle vodka one sitting blacked apparently id drunk texted bff saying loved shit guess annoyed talked day today ended sex girlfriend first time weeks instantly regretted wanted throw worst part know idolize bff meaning life nothing believe religion want die almost constantly im literally fucking years old fuck wrong start dating bff im going regret days weeks feeling got girl wears im going start feeling shit want nothing im narcissistic selfish deserve life want single without feeling need companionship want single hurt anyone emotions decisions change whim every fucking time something happens literally fucking kill ask born world want die im still suicidal know ill end killing either today next day depresses even makes want kill even literally dumbfuck stereotypical playboy ive many ex girlfriends cant remember want stop feeling numb ampxb tldr guess im trying say feel im chasing girls chased bff won excitement end go back feeling nothing mention point basically cheated extremely fragile girlfriend reason excitement wore want anything im douchebag want die fucking kill send death threats want deserve said clothes look good today suit much hmm nice 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knows wants goes film sexy excellent everything shitso landlord pestering move last half year depressionanxiety gotten bad ive getting persistant fantasies cutting well lot concentration problems feeling fucked general back landlord finally accepted room somewhere felt relatively ok found today landlord basically screwing money give moving went visit room found definitely way small accepted felt stuck current room deal pressure landlord good room packing found stuff care basically collection painttoolsmaterials something really space use new room ill glad furniture fit clue id able paint build anything suppose firstworldproblems fuck mental issues building shit helps hold sanity first meeting psychologist last week first meeting psychiatrist second week march pills id probably take weeks work anyway honestly ive thought calling crisis center couple times last two weeks im supposed help now looking psychologist organisation crisis center basically told problems severe enough homeless people severe mental illness cases yeah really nowhere go inside feel want wreck making wrong decision stupid room everything going wrong kill thank god basically punish luckily psychologist said expected hes thinking diagnosis something personality exactly say yet one session suppose im completely crazy uniquely disabled something really feel fit categories treatment leaflet gave general im kind sceptical treatment suppose point cant really worse anything yeah fun ive never hurt honestly hope never will im getting closer closer something stupid either hurting destroying something neither good idea im sure im writing wtf supposed people talk family already talked couple times today im internet im scared suppose cause left alone ill mentally torture good reason anyway hope people better day thanks reading dont think im gon na make thats right last time said much pussy pull redflag today planned everything way redflag quick easy pills swallow thats easier shooting jumping probably painless redflag notes known always silent thats wan na go away silently without single noise wish gad gun though beautiful way go blood stuff anyone annoyed teachers expect act adult treat little kid make mind child adult dont assign word research essay mad go bathroom without telling first cant deal anymorethis week worst experience life wife years left took year old children work filed custody child support im alone everything heart soul life best friend friend except brother talk people often person confided cant talk bought house together everything kids sewn every memory im feeling pain ive felt one talk friends whole lifes turned around multiple rifles guns sit loaded ready cant held head minutes breaking cant want live im lost clue handle want endim tired everything rd th post im tired always brink never actually anything almost got hospitalized december told wouldnt kill things better year may nothings changed still cant transition yet im trans im still forced boy scouts im still crushed school even hard classes finals hit train sit around kinky shit online watch youtube cuz cant muster motivation anything constantly humiliate socially cant finish anything miss meds daily etc etc kill parents still keeping knives throwing traffic sounds impractical want badly im tired everything im exhausted nothing gets better let die know fact anyone know irl sees im gon na ass hospitalized thought absolutely terrifies yay stress people still getting rejected crushes seriously soda drink desperate understand redflagso wanting kill self maybe years low desire years following desire kill self raging ive finally turned page chapter found ability cope things situation changed im still position whole time want everyone reads know matter bad situation trust know hard possable turn corner overcome met guy named arthur burk got albums fixed im conaidered one mentally healthy people family bring lot peace people around want live anymore posted suicide post mf made depressed need helpi dont say want explain dont want pity im worth cry sometimes work line im job site somehow one see ignore cry car home im going regret shit first time im rationalso ive messed everything life looked part time job call want rich gladly settle free time lower pay thing necessary degree part time jobs accountants couldve gotten degree time aware thing needed live life capable enjoying realize basically thats im thinking simply ending know lies ahead simply made accuse mocking serious intentions ive already attempted redflag twice back completely emotional wanted pain stop rescued time twice brings us intentions serious feel urge simply something pops mind feel rationally screwed big time late correct mistake past shitty high school degree worthless im old start university still worthy hired tax benefits employer basically screwed without experience finished drawing going post realized pictures weekends rip anything super impressive dumb little character use represent im concerned im going liver damage mg paracetamolhi know incredibly stupid year shit ive found back cold grim clutches depression earlier today phoned sick work argument mum due low mood sucking happiness situation ive part know mean freaked basically grabbed paracetamol find grabbed beer fridge wrote note family friends wolfed mg tablets breaking thinking itd mum sister going eat packets stopped guess morals pulled tried throw many toilet straight away sick even salty water managed bit bile saw white residue solid tablets please anyone put mind rest know go hospital really ring anxiety preventing cant tell mum years last attempt time break heart know lovely people offer help depression point something ive years im sort old friends depression relatively check take mitazapine therapy every weeks social anxiety really bad lapse judgement ultimately regretted soon realised id started feel fine hours know liver damage failure etc take week present someone please put mind rest danger realistically pose asked friend works nurse said mgkg weight likely damage im kg pretty big guy know im way bellow threshold want upset family much danger realistically drink fairly regularly drank past days due working christmas thanks advance lovely people gods work page figured play eve destruction barry mcguire thats one song internal library alone thoughts late night bipolar getting best every little fucking sets nowafter last years thought getting better turns stopped caring unknown reason started caring cant anything might piss im deep end shut ffs fucking retard fuxk must succ vacuum cleaner haha funny succ edit thanks gold random stranger feel terrible past mistakesthere occasions club dancing girl took things far basically separate occasions extremely intoxicated dancing girl fingered way clothing touched breast couple seconds first couple times girl dancing seemed problem even kissingmaking made seem somehow okay realize terribly wrong excuse actions idea possessed make think okay recent time year half two years ago may accidentally exposed girl dancing although kissed well feel made uncomfortable presence general hurts genuinely care people last thing want hurt anyone friend escorted club yelled immediately realized done wrong wish never done feel biggest scum face earth ive tried forgive actions dont feel deserve forgiveness think arabfunny think cool little bit confusionary cool guys im cute ok believe doubt actually cute owo im pretty sure everyone instantly fall love post face im loser virgin mid s world favor dieeven people may say people favor killing soon absolute loser work low paid job failed school im retard ive single friend entire life im s tried dating made fun women especially made life shit growing glad hear ive finally removed world blame honest ive different types therapy years nothing made even one second bearable must die ensure nobody acknowledge disgusting existence anymore kind thing die make sure cause pain disgusting existence trust people knew child right treat shit loser pathetic piece shit treat worthless turd anything better im glad everybody knew treated garbage garbage treated people even told kill agree wish cause pain wanted die end life progressive rock playlist hello everyone made playlist yesterday favorite prog rock bands enjoy prog rock want expand horizons give listen bands norway uk us expanding playlist time goes point time hours long listen studying cleaning etc bands really enjoy fit vibe let know ill give listen maybe itll go tge playlist link playlisthttpsopenspotifycomplaylistqmitpmbahjtsuxqjcehsitwutggqzugyocpjhha quite accomplishment three stories filmed three different filmmakers simultaneously insightful gay bisexual relationships struggles br br pool days awkwardness adolescence mutual attraction older man younger one story experience vulnerabilitybr br friend dorothy portrays common dilemma many gay bisexual people experience point life intense attraction towards someone heterosexual sensitively examined story truly left feeling movedbr br disco years shows another version nowin situation getting involved someone confused sexual orientation terrified exposed anything straight empowering story us experienced betrayal hands sexually confused frightened person br br three stories appeal anyone iota empathy towards others psychologically empower consider gay bisexual searching story uplifting unique way goodbyei dont know anymoreim spill every detail life hereso long story short anymore ive stopped cutting long long time ago reason today broke shiny new razor blade think may done damage judging size puddle ive producedbut question iswhy even go help time nothing lefti feel fuzzy warm almostdespite fact arm becoming increasingly cold guess wanted say goodbye one listens im love egirl mom took away ps ive said many times live keep collecting every little slights insurrections constant pain every dimension want stop right nowevery single day night overthink everything analyze hate everything dont know supposed better honestly dont think will cant unthink thoughts realizations ive want dont know im tired feeling way burden wish never existed unfortunately used scared death realized really dont know whats gon na happen die im going die eventually anyway fear much french guiana french guiana yeah crying sad cool listened really upbeat pumped music ya sad sitting pumped rather wierd feeling cant anymoreocd going kill even anything im tired fighting everyday thankfully wasnt sent psych ward yesterday parents go sleep im going drive hours away kill pain sure allowed feel free delete notso trying reach many people possibly lately dark moments sometimes honestly need friend many choosingpeople see assume im bitch wondering anyone situation anyone wants real life friends meet occasion talk maybe go walks maybe make groups location helpful people allowed apologize figured worth try even one person interested make new friend able help someone worth name jennifer live nh anyone interested helped etc please leave comment pm death sounds goodi lot happened past years worst watching year old boy half crushed car lay dying stared directly eyes kept saying help couldnt anything watched life drain rulers length away something changed feel kill pretty easily feel kill others contemplated decapitating family members every day past years cried happy even got angry inevitably kill one day im pretty sure im psychopath haha seriousness life boring looking forward level c random question top songs mine longest time total eclipse heart creep la vie en rose aint rest wicked bored figured good way start conversation never heard mishima watched film although parts little tedious still find drawn watch repeated box beginning film told celebrated japanese writer behaves lunatic commits seppuku public film progresses gently inducted twisted logic mishimas mind stages life presented four chapters chapter blend two contrasting narratives first continues story scenes mishimas life appear black white second narrative adaptation scenes novel staged play filmed vivid colours different novel staged chapter chapter narrative returns present mishima proceeds towards eventual ritual suicide means drama tension maintained endbr br suspect many people find film boring pretentious arthouse respect film people want action strong story line hand kind person relishes opportunity penetrate mind bizarre man watching life story told collage beautiful pictures set music philip glass love loved itbr br college going happen ive made decisioni fucked bad fault im going college stay home go back community college spare money goes bills mom cant pay food stay miles civilization people might want spend time make friends anyway im socially broken cant form intelligent conversation fuck even sentences around people last thing look forward left entire world give hope maybe things start looking soon happening im going trapped going way always well know im fucking going take im going live anymore know ive decided im committing redflag soon time suits yall see innocent old lady walking thing damn wan na sucker punch lol trying find meme template im trying find template cartoon character chopping last piece tree thats barely holding standing trunk better without medoes anyone feel disappeared everything better without havent done single assignment almost class day one ya boi got permission redo em theyre due tomorrow midnight around assignments one class hours assignment classes half hour assignments one class hours work got done today dont know possible believe pass classes pull back hellhole crawl way whatever hole youre ill toss ladder need dm need kinda help experience shared subreddits months agothis story happened valentines day two nights ago commited redflag took pills swallowed went sleep simply cant handle anymore need money cant pressure sides great went pills potent one pill almost killed day took accident anyway woke morning nothing happened time usually wake didnt explanation happened disappointed im still alive checked pill case indeed took body felt normal got took sat waiting start working nothing happened still im something keeping something allow go small chain events managed borrow money needed took care problem time still need find ways somehow redflag longer option ive spent last yrs suffering spend another lay try sleep avail thoughts life deserve atrocities forced live life lost entire family lost nearly friends stuck around fareweatherbenificialselfish assholes ive tried kill damn times failed miserably back losing grandfather father figure life decided wanted join took pills going say ones well yeah im asshole ended er deaths bed unfortunately know ended tried jump golden gate bridge ended biggest mind fucks time months ago tried hang remember blacking going completely limp woke floor redflag hotlines joke im sure help people text crisis line sometimes wait hour time person gets phone feel im talking robot emotion ability speak really feel fear police coming snatch suffer severe depression bipolar ptsd anxiety stress ive recently diagnosed ptsd learning curve getting harder harder survive day soon absolutely zero died tomorrow anybody come claim body bury sit morgue weeks stick pauper grave number friends care enough let alone show funeral one heard anybody tell love almost years horrible feeling knowing completely forgotten life knowing nobody cares enough tell love much hurts helps fight never ending battle life death pray helicopter airplane cement truck meteor comet comes crashing roof hitting luck id probably survive head partial torso right shoulder redflag death two things dear wish knew life love guess thats life right live learn whether love loved optional still feel slight hope things better mostly feel empty angry helplessly depressed depending time day fucking years old much trauma person see spending rest life dead even fake okay convincingly enough people dumb enough care worry pain every single day life go one day without flashback redflag attack panic attack body mess trying hold absolutely feel slipping want stop pretending cant anything nobody wants anything im completely utterly without single shred hope pointim disabled family members stop friends scattered wind employers tell cant job trained professionals belittle even things used enjoy cant even anymore im fucking vegetable nothing nobody turn end sight honestly literally way seems literally reason keep living cant even call hotline report police ruins life even im totally completely fucked fuck shit shoulda stayed wathis city almost fucking disgusting people dealing public hard makes everything worsefreaking hate people sometimes return approuchingi happy long time im managed fuck everything never friends kid nothing changed loneliness crippling even pushed away one friend manage one turn friends family dad died months ago mothers mental physical health getting worse daily nothing got response one uks best universitys weeks back conditional offer grades low currently able work mentality every day think redflag whats point anything die soon anyway things going better going university last hope deadlines approaching motivation feeling ive already given easier end right yet small part wants normal happy work live stopped taking medication two months ago stock piling grounded ready go glass hour ago emotionless whilst preparations feeling fear believe god sure scaring thinking end know im feel ashamed writing wanted go silently fear much fear gender simply vibe shit im yr old trans aspie feel completely lost isolated worldi want die anything deserve life isolation loneliness loved parents two years ago hope though matter reaching people last years years illusion collasped see hope future worst feel hope lead pain future chances go astronomically low never asked enter world owe nothing least continued existence ive seriously trying think ways bolster resolve go anyone hate social awkwardness tv showsmovies pls tell im one cringes kinda shit mom suffered years shitty life brother died cancer young age dad complete drunk asshole friends anyone even live know store continued pain kill restart better life kill requirements girlfriend girl optional want help social sciences homework teacher social sciences gave us homework supposed find least people fill anonymous poll topic choosing minehttpsformsgleijiweqnsgeujigb help lot filling perhaps even sharing already shared apologise promise become spammy idealy want share post know flair sorry misflaired thank want die hard im living constant painim pain starting feel physical life sucks getting worse hate thinking everyone living best lives hate deal misery every day day long suffer severe depression body dismorphia eating disorders im good anything personality sucks body sucks well worse im even able decent human relationships im basically fucking loser ive trying help much even professionals thing keep telling everything temporary everything better sooner later even though ive dealing years believe doubt really understand even though keep explaining explaining anyways everyday fucking torture absolutely end everything soon fucking tired say hang everything better bullshit happen say life actually beautiful try positive uu let tell something fuck soon find something effective end fucking misery im gon na one stop whats quickest way kill myselfim cant gun shit thanks posting everyday girlfriend day day nothing today walked steps km posts keep getting removed maybe list list thing today day nothing today walked steps km day nothing make long list thing return soon worries today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km actually impressive walked inside house day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked inly steps km much today day nothing wrong u jcttt sadly list thing 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day one nonillion day love apache attack helicopters cute day day twjgwuwviqheiqniberuwkgueheikwgwiq day piece dead fly wall bed years now day screw fell chair worried day want provoke someone badly rn day qwertzuiopasdfghjklyxcvbnm day fuck magic eye bot day leg hurts say leg still hurts day need electric shock rn day day day day day day day day day day day absoloutly nothing happens countdown day day day day nothing day day day day day fuckjust fuck everything wish explain properly cant course cant everything cringy fool still still going years surely thats enough know working im getting worse better matter slowly surely always worse im completely cut rest humanity sometimes try figure exact time passed point return still recovered years ago id quicker tell people depression years ago anxiety became depression watched colours drained world already late even back really matter late now fuck ill dead within month reckon teenagers logo hey yall im overweight friend subreddit wondering make different body types teenagers logo officially dancing queen seventeen today bitchesssss young sweet hero time boys official sisters gon na dming mutants masterminds campaign ive already got character made itll starting week two ill keep updated tired dysphoria wanting born different body tired hating scars cut world shitty tired feeling responsible mothers death tired flashbacks tired many triggers tired constantly dissociated feel nonliving wish true tired scared damn time scared worrying happy happen next tired attachment amp abandonment issues tired everything tired overcome anxiety depressionim sitting crying type life hit new low consistently every week im job moved across country boyfriend im anxious learn drive find job told made group friends half longer mental health distorted personality toxic one found tonight im trying hold together found boyfriends work wont give time anymore cousins wedding back home plane fly first time next week im terrified dont know theres much going want scream cry tendencies harm urges never strong dont know type bad beyond bad worse long time ive struggled age really dont know anymore boyfriend asks whats wrong cant even find words say dont want feel responsible fixing making better want stop existing kill without hurting family boyfriend really dont want keep living life anybody need someone talk right nowi need talk anyone please message time talk want feel alone know void fast approaching help mei dont know whats wrong getting worse last night hotel room crying feel failure losing good job mean end wake today feel amazing feel future good know later ill bad mindset light switch im middle aged working guy idea happening talking mother last nail thisi called mother ask bucks agreed tried open interrupted said made choices long time ago revenge redflag mean feel bad commit redflag mom said least last thing told loved figure go frozen pizza something tomorrow wish real pizza committing redflag keep things perspective redflag big deal people care people care waiting disappoint unsurehi really sure im aiming posting struggled depressed adultadolescent life people saying say think good things happen future etc time every moment feels constant emotional pain anxiety head constant strong inhibits ability function correctly alot time people say think friends families reactions etc idk thought overrides terrible feel time sorry breaks rules thanks reading wondering anyone maybe new ideas basic things maybe push right direction convince away suicidal thoughts cant find reason keep goinglife thrown wrench toolbox full wrenches due event suffer ptsd depression anxiety paranoia night terrors average hours sleep night years now hear voice see sometimes paranoia distrust caused end marriage divorce left name moved friends another state opened one woman one two roommates something similar loved one another ended pushing away shes left sleeping roommate night horrific hearing job easy stressing poorly employees cant handle ive far surpassed threshold want end motivation life whatsoever im robot autopilot wake simply dont sleep go work go home lay waiting end sometime dont want kill know hurt family friends want die want hit car choke something die lose control car poor conditions someone rob end shooting ive keep going grandpas hospital pains arm hyperventilating drove er stay night doctors think hell fine theres still little bit anxiety hanging back head yesterday car accident definitely fault clonazepam sure reason ser car comming lost around floor house broken know stop feeling crap driving years first time hace accident feel useless irresponsible incapable normali hate depression feeling crap surrounded people alone cant relate others desperately wish couldi want someone someone know long time still someone knows better likes fake agenda constantly inevitably mess people tiring stressful cant even pretend relate understand something learn explicitly learned now years old im literally never going learn connect others relationships person wish im energy anxiety trying pretend im person gon na long rant feel free skip wanti feel fucking hopeless wrote redflag note months ago parents found went therapy went talk said starting seeing therapist months ago didnt believe fine took er next day doctor antidepressants parents dont trust alone anymore theyre afraid might feel getting better im suicidal really wanted fucking die last night annoying didnt means honestly dont even know im really suicidal makes sense cause feel really wanted die wouldve tried now right really staring pills thinking scared im still school im afraid survive attempt ill thrown mental hospital allowed finished middle school maybe held back another year idk dont want wait school ends die feel im overthinking honest cause want go come back alive cause try works dont worry dont know ill make cause parents obviously ask therapist mad telling suicidal awhile now friends might hate trying leave think im attention whore go dont know life even worth living know aching pain emptiness nothing fill feeling something missing im hollow idea eats inside hate everything self image constant sadness pain one see pretend fine tiring im sick feeling every day drains point life temporary reason bed everyday whats expected try part society go school learn id rather die im tired much effort takes normal things bed take shower things people without second thought takes much mental energy id rather id rather stare ceiling feel nothing may seem lot every single fucking day gets one point feel im loose grip reality dont want life feel deserved happy happy right im want die dont want spend life broken shell person dont know long ill state hating every square inch body long pain last long thoughts tell dont deserve happy deserve pain fucking shitty person dont want live life person feel itd better made everyone happy die im planning next week might much fucking pussy haha confusedi hate think im negative dont want better someone talk say need love accept things reason cant way think im trapped mind mind convinced im even going successful life sometimes feel im making feel way dont know anyone want hating mind well even look naked long period time feel disappointed theres lot feel wrong want know anyone feel way idk questioning life ignore want sorry gon na bunch questions parallel universe theory true creator universe overseeing one humans optimal species earth beaten animal wasnt endangered universe infinitely expanding collapse maybe already wouldnt know shored light fastest take long time go unknown distance speed light black homies cool ok peace ill continue tomorrow seen yet still cant head stop recommending people find shows impression madebr br wonderful storybr br hope see stair least personbr br know much mr petersen movie seen previous works subtle acting impressed think portrayal grissom csi shows knows enough let character shine instead actor shining makes much better actorbr br cant remember enough poor accents comment must say always enjoyed barbara hershey roles well thought phenomenal job movie tf teens even thinking theyre cute enough date shit always everyones skinnier cuter funnier anyone want especially young barely confident enough fucking catch pokemon ds lmao people laughed redflag attemptyeah need advice almost year cant anything feeling sad worthless cant even easy task taking trash energy live pandemic slows im gon na need school yo overwhelm something bad point post tell parents need see doctor know theres something wrong im scared theyll think im joking move im feeling extremely lonely cant find anyone enjoys much give help dae feel extra suicidal drivingill driving realize easily drive road ditch hit tree kill wish wasnt lazy redflagi cant handle life anymore want end requires energy dont dont care laziness kill id happy anyways nothing say around two weeks mothers death keep blaming people treated mom badly feeling empty wanted dissapear years ago feelings come go pretend feel thing life sucks wish never born world knowing thing impossible hurt even live life empty thing chest everyday never wanted end life today imagine scenario pain gone drink high dose sleeping pills need help today browsed high dose sleeping pills want exist anymore traveling going scenic views used help bit want wake tomorrow cat reason still alive hes mean understand comments focus mcconaughey never interesting film actor br br best part movie writing wit alfred molina patrick mcgaw make unusual comic duo definitely stock types although one cant say characters well developed make less funnybr br version saw hdnet subtitles spanish dialog certainly problem use spanish gives authenticity br br underrated movie judging unusually low score imdb members given thought fun interesting worth least lot slick movies higher scores making big money box office much less interesting deadass wants kiss kiss u rn lips go date u mall go spencers hot topic plz poem lonely girl roams halls creating art empty stalls hear voice amongst herd turn head hear words magnetic feeling stronger fear cusp sides relieve tears stare wonder analytical bliss something miss care kept spot dark place lot ask talk hesitate speak outlook remains bleak suicidal wifemy wife currently suicidal smart plans leaving middle night find place wilderness die far know cant force stay forceful confinement know help highly original decent movie brave move involved care well puttogether movie time fact eddie murphy something nonformulaic know happen next makes favorite mine wish movies imaginative one rather old formula entertainment sandwich walks pub bar man says sorry stopped serving food looking forwardi going kill saturday im going take time selfish write think problems started age two father walked life never came back never wanted anything mom single close five got man physically verbally abused year knowing happening decided marry kid half brother always made feel left belong feel ive never really family result im gay hard time coming terms hated want gay struggled prayed nothing changed around age fell love someone thought best friend lead years eventually ended years later told kill upset string broken promises course try kill knew nothing next day die sent text saying done day attempted redflag cop knocking door leads hospitalized im highschool develop schizophrenia im put several mood stabilzers anti depressants anti psychotics makes life living hell sedate never helped hallucinations spent good three years essentially staring bed room ceiling unable muster energy leave room hallucinating taunted voices stopped taking medication tried really really heard life track made friend lives seas became attached supportive nice lost pounds gaining ton wheight tried job tried make friends got part time job eventually everything ive worked seems nothing im still alone feel feral hard time articulating thoughts psychiatrist put medication help concentrate agreed eventually tried see furthering education dead end far mean ive getting closer friend seas point think ive fallen love tell feel seem care still fine countinue friendship eventually says want anything friendship im fine long happy meet another guy psych issues hes always nice decide chase years getting dating first date goes okay learn family friends moved situation needed help happy help next day go house trying help clothes washed hang blows kept asking okay sort nervous tick mine dragged glass point im upset life filled failed relationships friendships relationships family seas friend becoming distant slowly cutting life finally today cant take anymore tell im going disapear want know im going want worry know validate life people inhuman live life without single meaningful relationship im pain want die worse live constant hell confusion lonliness im looking forward oppurtunity least likely disturbed saved many people told life improve gotten worse know one care everything go fine without still tried help guy hurt today dropped food gave company know hes alone worry literal regret death affect single person treated trash im idiot dont deserve live anymorefor years felt sorry depressed recently realized fault mine ruined family loved friends cared everything high honors school college bound bright future popular kid happy wither away alone hopeless wasted youth childhood behind escape constant drug use hope ive felt suicidal ive cliff ive pills hand feels different know follow doubt mind everyones sake ngl might look kinda cute dress girl took amazing selfie look pretty cute dont really know domaybe want vent start killing things arent getting better life playing around bad luck life fallen rock bottom really want kill venting doesnt help one respond cant blame stress suicidal ideations think better wasnt alive even type feel whoever reply saying wont leave leave everyone genuinely think unless say want kill thing someone willing put time whenever brush idea ignored always leave worried someone care ignores ironically pushes away im worried mess feel id everyone favor gone taking sibling mental hospital help ive posting multiple subreddits looking help sister f multiple mental illnesses bipolar idk one depression odd spoke recently feeling suicidal expressed wanting admitted mental hospital feel safe cant much supervise left home alone week due parents town work f able drive around go advice appreciated wish existedhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvebmqxzksswihttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvebmqxzksswi brother hanging pic brother caught disaster hit httpsimgurcomakrljcl tricks filming one point messed fell nuts screenshot rip future nephews nieces mom never blames teachers biology teacher whenever posts grades keeps points changes later weeks posted another grade even older brother teacher explained listen says well got bad grade b know teacher fing lazy little gon na basically zeros thanks listening gender competition lately sub ive seeing lot people complain hard boy easy girl people complain hard girl easy boys know hard grasp genders bad putting wont help making competition kids rd grade broadens gap able understand instead making smaller complaining things reddit telling unfair wont change issue take action instead making pointless competition accidentally wrote suicidal monologueive real bitch panic attack tonight kind went trance wrote im afraid tell thoughts best friend need someone see gun im afraid poison practice see many ibuprofen pills swallow gives much time reconsider indecisive gun quick im good making fast irrational emotionally driven decisions know kill bullet slitting wrists low success rate considering ive never succeeded anything whole life dont feel confident id succeed take pills maybe dont swallow many higher success rate ive looked barbiturates think thats marylin monroe used although illegal ordering online sounds scary difficult never hang wont let someone find thought scary gives chills im hoping gun face still tact back head feel eager throw away life trash im romantic still want body found beautiful fallen angel snow white think found remembered kill wont able see ill gone dont leave come back one life people may think back fondly anything mark painful memory everyones mind dont want painful memory lost loved one want love want make people feel loved want good things help people fuck sadness hard feel weak dont feel guess continue dont know long handle doesnt better dont know make better anyone wan na chat im male abit bored im good talking might find awkward tracing callsfor us users anybody know long take redflag line trace call police residence quick process end lengthy evolution kinda spooky ngl weve really evolved yo thrive climate eg hairy cold big surface area heat cant hold breath long evolved somehow knowing wed live advanced civilization im religious anything seems kinda weird unless im missing something lol tell weird sexual video image saw internet ill see weird dunno saw girls cup tubgirl im curious weird sexual stuff find internet im tired tired unhappy tired feeling useless tired wandering aimlessly life feel productive member society life feels waste im miserable hate job trying find new one luck ive found amazing guy course ive already gone messed live shitty apartment im nice person know tell defense mechanism way die one miss knowwhine whine whine want anymore depression week near crippling feel world better without im tired feeling empty im fucking worthless even funny nobody even pretends care yeah idk sex cool bc im cool cried listening hamilton bo burnham left high school kinda sad im gon na straight forward im student well ex student say signed school today completing year year school journey overall signing papers leave easy dramatic sounds best friend side left school feeling great work dad bike mechanic build bikes certain companies bigw anaconda australians youd know hard job actually great fun suddenly noon speak im type emotional last time emotional dogs passed years ago im pretty strong im always one bring people theyre today wasnt day started feeling rush emotions leaking eyes put nicely almost whole afternoon pets understand physical emotional attachment dang leave high school go work alongside undoubtedly one hard working men ive known father cant stop thinking friends best friend wont mentioned right now maybe sort emotional attachment school didnt even know emotional something doesnt involve passing something traumatic live generation click button send message friends instantly type social media snapchat instagram email mean nobody uses come discord even reddit hello redditors really much generation cant imagine living s type social media ceased exist really message friends whenever want receive instant messages back yet still emotional needed vent conversations ill chatting anyone people talk roller coaster emotions maybe silly ill regret posting long essay almost longer essay wrote school thank time thank much reading great day bless think im going try tomorrowbackground first rodeo ive dealing suicidal thoughts years later theyre coming louder heard chester bennington history abuse learned victimized ages music life support young cant shake idea happens life hard deal kid degrees psychology still cant stop really thats want point stuck body mind anymore lost job due depression lost partner similar reasons survived car crash fucked brain thats past years able pick find life worth living instead keep treading water matter many job apps put plans make future pan feels end road want end suffering tomorrow im going show see one favorite bands ive using show reason hang past couple months silly working theres whole lot keep figure im still unhappy end night hell point holding comes tomorrow night im going try hanging bedsheet slip knotted doorknob thrown top slip knotted around neck ive gotten setup see hold worry cat want cause pain owner around shes attached end either going goes firstits inevitable know im telling im alone good feel heard guess technically katara bend shit contains water shitbender isnt stupid isnt stupid im afraid tell family important stuff fear teased honestly cant believe smh ridiculous question girls gf spends minutes night using lotion skin soft girls care much soft skin pain keeps getting worsea days ago came posting wasnt able take life anymore effecting things gone worse catastrophic love life left weeks ago day mother died came first people comfort person asked wanted spend time night cause worried cause already depression self harm said busy assumed family grieving let yesterday spent day talking comforting mothers death spent day work making sure okay knew really struggling asked wanted go told already cousin someone coming asked person boyfriend course got family walked room broke broke hard harassed people protected stay late make sure okay hrs sleep go work wasnt spending night always phone loud ringtone wake issues middle night bought anything wanted never got mad shed go sister drunk worried life night gave girl everything moved quickly thing kept motivated going life made feel reason purpose keep living ive lost already new boyfriend cant handle every night wake upset depressed always mind wake fall asleep thinking smile giggle way blushed start cry want back badly see planned moving together making life fragments broken heart want kill longing back want end think possible crush said liked back im ecstatic rn even funny know rteenagers full crap dont know im supposed excitement love much need helpi never felt crippling depression hard lost job february alcohol helped first couple weeks became norm hate alienated every loved one live alone last two days even left bed want hurt know long last world feels heavy concrete slab feel paved nowhere turn idea please help want kill scared immediate future definitely feel optionto copy paste thoughts raw gti feel im absolutely going able go nowhere life right even though im eighteen true rights person order need change anyway knowing parents definitely treat garbage physically verbally violent towards past cant expect going alive long enough support financially emotionally feel obligated take separate governmentfamily people directly responsible life capability look anymore suppose means rot financially physically immediately commit redflag want immediately burden anyone previously supported want anything initiative contribute means potentially parents people around support agitated attack parents think know options allowed want read anyway thank want add feel disrespectful look others support journey one deserves support someone family take time busy lives end tried work study immediately detrimental system working guessed detrimental system people inside system support far knew going focus far enough thanks support guys ajudem por favorvou resumir histria pra vocsconheo meu namorado anos gente se conheceu ficou trocamos ideia se afastamos depois voltamos como amigos ai nos afastamos novamente e que chegou incio desse ano voltamos conversar diariamente e consequentemente se apaixonar n e assim eu sempre fui uma pessoa que bebia todo final de semana fumava e etc e ele sempre na dele quietinho cerveja dele comeamos namorar e eu vacilei menti para ele para esconder uma verso de mim que tinha medo dele rejeitar e uma mentira levou outrativeram influncias de amizade e um certo dia ele descobriu e obviamente abalou confiana dele e ja estvamos passando por uma fase nao muito boa ento complicou mais desconfianas comearam aparecer os cimes comearam consumir um pouco eleat olhou meu cll escondido porm admitiu depois eu entendi os cimes e tentava ao mximo explicar pra ele coisas para cime passare quando ele descobriu mentiras deu uma oportunidade de mudar de confessar outras mentiras e eu como nao sou boba agarrei escrevi todas mentiras que eu lembrava e mandei pra ele resolvemos tudo e seguimos eu comecei agir e mostrar que realmente queria nosso relacionamento mas tempo ele comeou ter cimes meu passado desconfianas sobre mentiras passadas e perguntar sobre meu sexo outros etc relevei tambm e ai nosso relacionamento comeou desandar um certo dia ele foi la casa gente ja nao estava muito bem e ficou meu celular tempo todo afastado de mim mesmo eu implorando ateno e aquilo nao era normal porque sempre foi grudado ento gente comeu jogou buraco e fomos transar como nunca tnhamos transado antes e depois sexo maravilhoso tomamos um banho e ele simplesmente surtou disse que eu estava mentindo pra ele novamente e que tinha provas ai ficamos sem nos ver por dias e eu quebrando cabea pra lembrar da mentira quinto dia fui na casa dele e ele comeou falar algumas mentiras que eu realmente contei porm nao lembrei ento eu sei que estou errada prclh porm ele sabe que eu estava dedicando de mais nosso relacionamento ltimo ms eu estava dando tudo de mim e ele sabe eu realmente estava melhorando mudando ento assim vocs nao acham que ele deveria da uma chance de fazer diferente ou realmente tem que largar porque sou uma cuzona eu devo abandonar ele pra magoar mais ele socorro day posting something everyday girlfriend math test today math teacher let finish know anymore fmy dad left us mom bitch browsing internet years searching guy wants perfect man even working depressed want talk anyone uses phone day day one cooking expensive maid money wasted anything day years weve living money brother sisters live another country im finishing school soon dream go medical college become doctor says find job bring money home shit fucked able go much longer right warn parents child going kill themself know friend going kill tommorow warn parents ahead time dont even know im still alivei chronic illness called cyclic vomiting syndrome imagine feeling nauseated days throwing actually cant imagine know couldnt happened strike time anxiety crazy worrying ill start another episode worst time teeth wearing away vomiting agoraphobic leave house might end uncontrollably puking passing stuck somewhere isnt home cure body given big dreams life going playwright barely focus write nausea intense ive tried many antiemetic medications nothing worked ive going altredflagholiday file methods im thinking tossing cliff near house sufficiently high stories thatd finish things pretty quickly still read ive reading thats thing keeps going im lonely anxiety torturous try distract dm im bored m ill send insta snap idkthe rest filler post removed tbh length requirement stupid af bruh ok probably enough cya dms ight bet got suicidal thoughts tonightmy mind fucked lately idea whats going rant shit life yeyso really want end life everyday wake upeat play videogames grades shit mother find im going serious trouble handle hitting taking away phone cant stand screamed im terrified exams literally text girls class send answers homework barely understand anything sister silently judging keep asking give homework answers barely talk friends anything outside school days ignore friends always ruin relationships people define morals know fault things feel lonely time try talking someone online sound retarded af stopped hobby enjoy dont noticed people almost forgotten eat much shit look harry harry fucking hendersons im willing anything theres point fail anything less im going actual reason thats keeping dont want end hell im good person morals prostitute either way im going spend eternity satan post useless apparently cant talk feel without sounding person single digit iq pray god sincerely hope next time im falling asleep last time dont want hereive depressed thought redflag least passing though almost everyday somewhere around sixth grade im cant find motivation anything know sounds lazy cant find reason fail something try pick pieces easiest way possible know cant anything hard know sound lazy probably cant seem anything much less people care sister dad ony reasons dont try know break harder harder put perspectives head dont want know selfish easy way take every time dont know im want better feel cant matter much people try motivate feel best part life behind even mostly shitty dont want keep going mmm mm ya love mmmm love mm yesi love turkey sandwiches aghhh mm great wth redflag considered bad person unhappyi think least x weekly shunned general society matter anyone unhappy dont want continue way yes love family friends im liking life looking end today honest question keep seeing told wrong sleep stayed night im convinced live simulation maybe might need sleep talk less hate boring talk regret everything feel shared asked many questions talking people complicated hate finally got girlfriend httpsimgurcomaknolhelhttpsimgurcomaknolhel crisisredflag hotline chats track youthrowaway people irl know main account basically title says im us matters want call well chat know sometimes theyll trace call police serious enough risk way shape form afford institutionalized im already scared enough help last time tried therapist less told everything fault want try anything drastic sorry wrong place ask thank time feel nauseous crying nothing life worth living parents gone friends sad little move nothing feels worth love money faith nothing sick crushing loneliness given opportunity cease existing take heartbeat fat loser spent entire life making people happy late now cee ya later everyone prolly going soon least facts every day day took fat shit bro okay bye guys stay safe strongly seriously considering hanging myselftheres much want say doesnt feel matters screaming void doctor says tuesday mom think might kill myselfmy mom sick autoimmune disease im now whole life ive known disease kill months ago new hope formed stem cell transplant cure disease moms last option cant ports disease final stages shell die next year without transplant took chicago week testing passed tests one doctors insisted options options offered work may influence main doctor accept mom accepted final treatment forced onto shittier treatment option disease spread die got hopeful end know mom life got rid pessimistic view dying know theres good chance doctor may say im crushed cant stand pain anymore might actually time always unhappy lost condo owned mistake selling without realizing owned relative threw away belongings apartment time going sickness briefly move residence lost everything lost job retire early going disability lost cats sickness moved put mental hospital someone saw crying vets hospital feel lost everything short period time trouble dealing things seriously depressed need ways make feel better suggestions lost everything trying deal suicidal along time actually started better really depressed got job taco bell seems back old self self pity party wanting nothing end working shows fucked worth worth working trying save money stuff easier gone point working everyday hate pay bills life worth living actually thought feel better getting job feel ten times worse wife noticed hope worth itthe strain marriage mental health hope extra money worth itdoes feel trading happiness happy marriage extra cash maybe fault sucking sostuck behind money ruinsmy life getting better going backwards face makes wish deadwhy unattractive weird facehttpsimgurcomasoveix older guy take advantage party friends afterward ignored bragged friends calling gross younger brother grade friends bullied happened social media make posts looked old im fat slut developed early age continuously told overweight slutty pick apart features every day lips thin eyes close together man jaw prominent chin ugliest girl school moved away new state four years happened guys grade ask sex tell tell anyone ugly say man want said im attractive enough sleep seen im saying people treat horribly random girl different school party took photo scrunching face egged cute posted online making fun calling ratchet guy friends saying look yearold btch people unless ugly graduated say im grossest girl school guy sleeps desperate greet telling wrinkles face peeling skin disgusting burned deleted photos school true people bully shows shitty character treated way unless hideous annoying fault bullying show im weird got ta love got ta love mum decides ambush make make coffee literally left room piss apparently taste good obviously fault definitely sabotaged definitely berates messing got ta love tw sexual assault physical abuse spanish first language sorry advance mistake ampxbi cisgender heterosexual womani raped yo boyfriend time tried penetrate anally failed raped vaginally shame told parents months later tried rape never confidence sex mild encounters never ended bed brief online relationship yo now due bad economical situation pandemic etc living parents house note aside parents physically abused years old till around belting punches etc messed logic beats homeless journey rediscovering sexually past months dealing interiorized shame guilt overcoming step step help online friend benefits decided buy sex toys first time life attempt fully sexual life still dealing shame guilt toys seemed working felt rewriting sexual life positive notebut middle argument parents shaming depression age life caused failed attempts achievement life goals poor economic situation decided tell knew sex toys disgusting slut repeatedly called disgusting slut disgrace shame hourmy mind immediately went back years day assault felt disgusting deserved talked long distance fwb days helped regain sexual confidence supported felt ashamed sexually due past trauma know even approach bring eat drink either even hungry left room even want peak outside know see parents talked locked room desperately trying find apartment move even going money even buy food feel slowly fading background disappear moment flawed matter anymore deserve love stop crying everyday feels work trying overcome happened crushed instant feel helpless bring ask fwb help reassurance scared back feeling sexually numb years honest parents words got bad even know make sense felt shame toys felt garbage telling one many problems barely mentioned sometimes make think pain worth needed vent thanks reading made far progress gone paul lukas played russian intellectual making living waiter inbr br grand slam directed william dieterle surprisingly funny satire building celebrity waiter russian restaurants hatcheck girl played loretta young become americas sweethearts bridge partners squabble aid publicist ghostwriter speed mccann wonderfully deadpan frank mchugh become walking advertisementsbr br stanislavsky system system bidding whatever one feels likebr br bids rational basis recriminations stupiditybr br duel displaced bridge guru cedric van dorn sounds close goren suspect choice characters name stanislavsky slam another kind system puffedup charlatan played well ferdinand gottschalk broadcast radio stations across america prizefight roscoe karns another great fasttalking deadpan comic actor sbr br bridge players even ropedoff square though audience isbr br unlike boxing ringsbr br wide variety american types prefigures comedies preston sturges though manufacturing celebrity grand slam calls mind two better movies precode era lee tracy playing fasttalkingbr br publicists halfnaked truth bombshell grand slam itsbr br moments especially anyone played bridge serious pointbr br countersbr br loretta young already clothes horse face seems bit longbr br horsey another eras notion beauty guess moviebr br unfortunately drops glenda farrell plays mchughs forgetfulbr br girlfriend saw mystery men birthday away vacation came back home went see keep mind twelve time coolest movie even collected ultrarare action figures except bowler hardest find made mr furious shoveler blue raja spleen captain amazing case wondering william h macy action figure existence ive watched many times years still remains favorite mine due mostly fond childhood memories perfect movie definitely deserves another look perhaps cult followingbr br story bunch lowlevel superheroes save day executed mediocre directtovideo specials well end spectrum big budget huge budget almost million think studio comedy yes effects overblown huge sets wonderful production design bit much considering plot think stupid special effectsy superhero movieits parody fight villain named cassanova frankenstein people psychofrakulator whatever doomsday device hell take world yada yada resident superhero captain amazing zapp branniganesque greg kinnear commercialproductlogos costume nice touch kidnapped time mystery men mr furious ben stiller gets mad shoveller william h macy beats people shovels blue raja hank azaria british throws forks bowler janeane garafolo bowls invisible boy kel mitchell guess spleen great paul reubens farts sphinx wes studi cuts guns half mind kidding rest fantastic cast character actors includes geoffrey rush cassanova lena olin heavily edited cassanovas bride one tom waits crazy weapons dealer sowith macy kinnear olin rush four oscarnominees one winner tom freakin waits perfect though overlong gushes corniness shovellers full thembr br dialogue definitely outweighs physical comedy sometimes lacking theres guy farts power case closed dialogue definitely highlight cyclical ramblings sphinx mixed metaphors mr furious etc downright funny movie almost make forget film let star smashmouth world br br unfortunately film well critics audiences sequel originally planned film fact based comic book characters flaming carrot comics flaming carrot planned sequel believe well box office hard sell superhero comedy guy theres something mary fact released day sixth sensewhich ended biggest hit month augustas well thomas crown affair two misunderstood classics released crowded weekend oddly enoughdick iron giant critics gave mm passable reviews quickly forgotten sadly enough comedy centrals roast jerry stiller comedian jeffrey ross commented ben stiller saw mystery men fired agent ben seen mouth words listen give mystery men chance posting day uk gf day day pog still taking applications requirements aliveoptional pog understand possible female form uk preferred mg ibuprofen mei took tonight wish someone kill wouldnt itpurposefully running around late night shady places paying attention nearing roads almost accidentally getting hit car idk subreddit put decided put herewhy someone admits may bad characteristic people admire impressed someone admit weakness sensitive inconsiderate myopic loud shy etc general people impressed others admit weakness people admire admit fault able constructively criticize yourselfnow start talking physical attributes skinny fat good looking enough becomes matter self esteem matter constructive self criticism insecure tell need think better looks define work self esteem sound insecure peacefully say admit good looking anyway physically attractive make insecure acknowledging fact know reminded everyday see treated differently opposed conventionally attractive people know never liked romantically anyone people accept instead invalidating saying negative insecurei asking pity validation stated fact observed makes uncomfortable fine admitted outspoken good problem solver right insecure someone wants better insecure blind see mirror everyday pretending attractive going change anything stop insecurities need somebody vent heartbreakthis throwaway obvious reasons couple months ago hurt somebody dear person suicidal depression low self esteem time made mistake finally gained trust built stable relationship ruin couldve happy together ruined gaining trust took hard work many ups downs ruined everything became worse anything ive experienced heartache lasted months time believe ive developed anxiety depression though guess cant sure know ive mentle breakdowns hate much point feel dying sometimes recently theyve decided heartache worth found someone replace told theyre fully yet decided deserved replaced owe help move fault tried best help replaced much handle ended abandoning instead never done theyll harder time without theres fair possibility theyll kill themself decided leave life guilt uncertainty much handle ive found crying many times one day keep track now ive tried reaching want nothing told cant promise theyll ok want life anymore know anymore move know talk need help pain much theres tropical storm going uk rn climate change really aint hun x update headphones broken idk worse problem headphone plug laptop im gon na clean hopefully sound goes away someone want die want livelike het killed fine care killed mind eighter selfharm without real reason cut feel sad sad happy wanting die wanting live weird talk old friend havent talked two years recently got snap wanted rekindle friendship really quietclosed friends thats faded ive gained confidence social shit weird message followed back spam page past months still photos time time ig day first year reddit id say good one nothing really happened still fun seeing posts keep good work need help urgently hate mattering long story short much going right now trying keep family togetehr deal dad help girlfriend friends dealign trans issues today really abd day cut hours went support channel cussed called cunt didnt tell parents hey ive slashing leg open hours im really ok cant cope idk theres oen im constant suffering doctors say theres nothing wrong really annoying dead soulbeen feeling empty awhile afraid lll anymore slightly afraid pain l thought sleeping pills wish l earlier l hoped change seems impossible achieve l want go home parents want love cause want grow wish hurt wish l die someone life l want end tired living facing terrible episodes every day wish l fall clip run car die sleeping l want end pain ocean soup mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm im tiredfirst english native language sorry im female late twenties ive never boyfriend never kissed anyone obviously never sex im ugly lonely living parents cant afford rent feel really miserable disgusting feel every person throw disgust touching maybe even seeing im diagnosed schizophrenia really hard cant believe feel im alone even head everything unreal cant stand tried different meds quit want fight anymore im tired world better without everyone happy im chicken kill guess ill let illness kill maybe one day ill kill spontaneously know im little sad ill never loved ill never live someone love ill never feel safe home parents really abusive cant anymore thank reading lt mothers faulti hear crying screaming dad make stop stop fuck asked stay party promised drink drive drugs safe yet racist confrontation dealt yesterday feels need shoved cage never let wonders keep many things secret every time treated doll good moment something line shouting saying born adopted troublesome child remember saying words course perfect mother according friends according know constant verbal abuse constant put downs worth anything messages sends way much drink gets angry everyone says fault says make angry better child mad say cant take anything says heart emotions anger strong forgive people mad fucking forgive mother telling year old daughter wouldve better biological mom aborted say said anger matter course ive gone therapy years almost still thinks anxiety depression developed high school due difficult brother seen several years idea times ive cried front therapist memories mother throwing cups dishes dad screaming us leaving returning days later know talk fear anxiety waking knowing good mood know abandonment issues leave often little lock hotel dad go find know first go method use take life one introduced locked bathroom year old daughter desperately banged door begged kill know cry every time remember th birthday woke house empty brother run away due fight broken dad ended hotel next morning screaming returned night back cop car called take away due racket know two times tried take life wanted escape damn oppression show control tell need move itd best us threatens keep even hurt dog threatens cut family never let talk dad want move apartments minutes house dad looks tired trying keep anger hitting full even lets marriage fail order shield want want feel needs protect one person world attacking fucking clue scared angry given life feel want die want kill want someone one person know mothers fault scared driven harming andor othersi thoughts things going webcam call friends harming recent incredibly scared ill eventually driven thing basically cry help want scare part thinks nobody grieve conflicts thoughts people truly care people really know want anymore unpleasant dreams going back psych ward went one last year impulse redflag attempt want go back one ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh skechers agist ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh make adult light shoes disappointing revelation entire life needs checked refuse wear shoes light skechers adult sizes anyone got scam message sugar mommy person idk told choke dick got banned dank memes d yesterday created post repost template bot said post matched post got warning getting banned decided post rdankmemes next day opened reddit surprise got banned days post post profile deleted panicked ya f chat yo goodbyes longer apart toxic community fuck shit please soonim nothing shell loved music loved people loved old movies loved regrets worst untimely deaths man dead june fathers dead children fathers belongings thrown away without knowledge getting better ive tried ive people move people longer recognize people need anymore despite knowing heartfelt passionate many friends dead many horrible things wont stop happening wish dead plain simple easy damned hell bit eternity limbo wish accidentally die tomorrow id rather way turn next month theres lot life tried bounce back dont bounce back darker becomes already dead existing anyone wants redflag friendsgirlfriend meim never gf first kiss never friends tried fit high school failed tried fit college failed started new job guessed think end road thats pretty much last shot nothing try know anymore im completely losti finished high school monday nothing planned careers go depression anxiety wasis bad dropped two four courses really really bad two kept ive throw world plan go im getting worse every day really think redflag im ready adult know im much coward take life know happen time soon want work live gain enjoyment things two eating disorders top everything one one knows bad help whoever needs never want help return one day ill gain confidence one day ill finally peace nearly year old trans girl come anybody know irl started transitioning anything love girlfriend much dating almost years april realized trans way keep living boy every cell body wishes told questioning gender first started years ago sure trans thought id tell questioning come non binary test waters scared officially come started crying said scared lot stuff exactly remember feel stuck make worse sister trans come publicly moved coming parents constantly deadname misgender including face parents paying go college know keep paying came want girlfriend live rest lives bpd fp coming go well probably kill make kill might make sister kill idea much longer live boy know come much less feels liket way things go well live please want heard feels way life go want kill love life movie based true story woman two children welloff scary real really acting gave movie push greatnessbr br diane keaton portrayed main character patsy mccartle two sons adored performance made real life story come life television screen hard watch scenes real happens one becomes addicted drugsbr br watching loving mother go sweet caring hard true known people gone withdrawl much happened movie rememberbr br thought risky director want make movie happened woman yet done well applaud director making moviebr br highly recommend anyone known someone addicted drugs learn happen become addicted thing super straight youre lonely ugly smelly guy dont date trans person doesnt matter dont make identity invalidates avril lavigne billie elish old days girls listened thought super cool lot boys hated real reason songs good tho abc news youtube channel recorded kids zoom class made comment ask comment abc knows never httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvgprncomzvgamplczfdxaqfpjzhvqtaokgjanhdhtaxzmzrirkhhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvgprncomzvgamplczfdxaqfpjzhvqtaokgjanhdhtaxzmzrirkh comment student worst nightmare imagine zoom call broadcasted entire world even enjoy turning camera furthermore doubt kids really choice whether aired unfortunately likely parents made decision please hell guys even find egirlfriends im seriously confused find girls absolutely thoughtful spiritually deep intense hamlet done version comes close jacobi best understanding role actors played patrick stewarts claudius ferocious still sympathetic particularly two doofuses playing rosencranz guildenstern feckless yet sinister might gripe need strong ophelia strong person thats point lalla ward hits proper nuances amazing simply amazing every one two dozen times ive watched decided little test ill count many times bust nut year already data important future humanity legend andrei konchalovskys towering half hour poem siberia begin must hold back space takes time roundabout explorations halfremembered childhood memories turnofthecentury backwoods village yet movie goes picking steam building emotional resonance though even sounds images compose become imbued sheer association subject matter quality fierce tireless quiet dignity characterizes soviet working spirit konchalovsky celebrates soviet collectivity almost revisionist way paeans soy cuba invincible mood turns somber reflective news revolution reach secluded siberian village grapevine fruits labor reach world war calls young men enlist konchalovksy zeroes individual care affection examine bitter longing regret woman waited years war fianc never came back waited long enough go become barmaid ship velvet couches quit years later come back village care aging uncle killed fiancs father axe irreverent folly fianc came back war hero years late came back sake girl left behind drill oil motherland despair resignation middleaged regional party leader comes back small siberian village sole purpose blotting map build power plant movie segues decade decade s s amazing newsreel footage trailing soviet history revolution war famine titanic technological achievements empire terrific visuals kinetic violence skewed angles flickering cramped shots crowds faces actual movie focuses individual triumphs follies small big second half sense bittersweet fatalism creeps broken lives never reached fulfillment choking regret yearning cant matter seems world saying konchalovksy answers must matter protagonists keep trying redemptionbr br yet behind saga man landscape something seems hover shadowy almost substanceless eternal old man hermit appears every segment guide repudiate protagonists sometimes mere spectactor sometimes enigmatic sage little behind straightforward logical incomprehensible ultimatums challenges affirmations human characters something invisible seems lurk ghosts fathers appearing sepia dreams repeated shots star gleaming nightsky curious bear indeed eternal old man konchalovksy calls awe reverence mystical land order treatment small backwoods community struggling nature progress time ways learns deal often funny bizarre tragic time director never allows cynicism override humanism reminds shohei imamuras profound desires gods dream scene alexei tears planks door plastered propaganda poster stalin reach dead father vanishes fog movie hints betrayal soviet dream better yet things lost revolution betrayal made explicit films fiery denouement amazing visuals elegiac somber raw naturalist edge help seal deal end oil derric erupts flames movie erupts wild explosion pure cinema oi im true nerf war veteran im real og even call pro use poop battle camo cum substitute bullets hooray got called ugly times last night days got called another girl thanks guys reasons put lead head tho ugly dont say crosscountry skier never skiied across country instance crosscountry skier ugly cause go walks hour worry world anyone want anything ayy whats poppin bbg whats poppin whats poppin live society mean holy fuck thats deep let sink sometimes feel wan na undercover cops jump street cool go back school one knowing wont staying forever tho wouldnt mean waiting day bust cover everybody goes omg secret agent expecting much movie given ticket advanced screening gotten work hot tired wait movie line minutes seemed cool air flowing hallways theater complexbr br seated theater tired frustrated movie started recognize actors beginning flow movie perfect right beginning became consumed movie getting excited minute passing think movie destined fantasyfairytale classic actors fabulous pace perfect ending magical oh boy sure love spending time alone vulnerable spot big window near lots strategic sniping spots oh wow cool really hope killed cal clean shot skull shame im going starve deathim weak actively kill maybe passively eating boys skirts bad boys thigh highs panties good filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler want help want lose friends processtheyre people met internet years ago ive never met real life best friends scared old friends many years ago away talk wanted die self harmed ive started hurt want tell im afraid theyll say want lose friends keep mouth shut problems really business anyway ive already lost friends think handle losing watching friend slowly descend inescapable placehi suicidal self harming thoughts literally breaks heart watch friend tell live reason live rather friends family want need help reddit help understand blame redflag loved one song recommendations crushing someone feel got u kinda together amin lovedrug blocked idc blocked idc blocked idc blocked idc blocked idc irdc approach girl m always introverted friends girl find cute know start conversation know please help thanks girl broke saying sexy enough went familys house seduced one family members now mom sister pregnant baby want someone know im catsnot cant feed love dont want sad gone used lots reasons stay alive days hello everyone recently seeing change concerning sometimes try think future plans goals start crying kind got worried struggling thinking people care love whenever even consider relationship girl close start feeling dread sadness barely sleep anymore lost interest hobbies starting difficult getting bed morning seen friends weeks sinking deeper deeper starting think hope mei tired damn tired getting worse another daybeing worthless piece shit cant make better ive tried people supposed way really want go back hospitali difficulty expressing text person ive pretty much shut anything everyone january meds therapy year even treatment think redflag daily frustrated see changes today rent due money landlord accepts money orders seems think secure way make payment cant seem motivate go bank printed im going common arguments even worth effort know simple thing hate always somehow convince simplest things part knows need cant seem find maybe posting help see stupid im pay rent try deal stuff everyone learn language im saying learn language exclusively agree language teach children addition local language probably either english latin much hate esperanto kinda perfect youre going teach everyone thats good imo either latin korean probably latin cuz wouldnt learn new writing system grammar relatively flexible technically flexible rearrange words sentence order mean thing even though couple grammatically correct strategy ready morning even anywhere xpost getmotivated thought might bring bit motivation days offweekends paradox go work sounds great time things done productive right yet many us lie bed half day wake mull around house shorts tee shirts probably watching tv playing video games internet whatever long day wasted heres strategy day time go workschool though ready day cook breakfast shower brush teeth dressed whatever ready normal day gets ready take world days workschool ready take world days great way set mind right state gary busey title character frank bulletproof mcbain standardissue reckless maverick cop whos earned nickname matter many bullets takes counting never stops going bad guysbr br cuttingedge us tank dubbed thunderblast driven across border mexico nabbed revolutionaries terrorists led general brogado rene enriquez libyan colonel kartiff henry silva whos aligned russian villains army personnel involved kept prisoners chief among devon shepard darlanne fluegel happens mcbains exgirlfriend mcbain recruited army rescue missionbr br busey may physical presence say someone schwarzenegger another appropriate lead film type hes blast self confident dude whos quick wisecracks fluegel great female lead looks incredibly sexy makes fine buttkicking action babe enriquez silva juan fernandez always welcome william smith russian major loathsome scum classic action movie tradition supporting cast quite full familiar reliable character actors lq jones rg armstrong thalmus rasulala lincoln kilpatrick mills watson luke askew danny trejo caryhiroyuki tagawabr br tl lankford bj goldman supply script based story lankford veteran b director fred olen ray kind script know writers tongues cheeks know material absurd cheesy fun throwing credibility window veteran action director steve carver keeps moving delivers respectable amount gunfire explosions general allout mayhembr br bulletproof good fun action fan mind switching brain enjoying generous assortment violence humorbr br ten times better wants super model bravo think true business tyra strong sensitive time able aspiring model photos look depth models personality beauty strength demure attributes ability endure work want enjoy seeing tyras personal experience brought photo shoots runway always agree judges decisions tyras comments least one winners feel deserve win show every girl lucky chance know hang correctlyany tips advice learnt past mistakes seems right idea momenthi reddit ive lurked things life lately come fever pitch feel trapped everything feel live world im truly free anymore relationships burning alive even friendships feel porous deceitful use kind words cause know answers included poetry know guess seem individual worth encouraging cant escape overriding feeling everything life rotting thanks time im welltraveled man stride plan wander less near far nothing see seen beats back big bang yard see williker tidds lived kids bootlegger hot south prohibition brought inhibition ol williker whistled mouth said jesus h christ boy people people looking load run back forth stay drunk sly cops retreat law though money goes expenses hose one handle weight one make still liquor fill every submasondixonline state well jehosephat joe know go theres rock fell sky shiny hard inch charred even though ten foot round brush died sound creates hit knock softer think air smell theres burning fact scent surroundings quite good steellike feels distant vibration rail train yet come cold spring even though damn thing cookin right sun brought team got rock sit stark back trailer hammered blacksmithed worked great sheets asteroid thinner paler tireless zeal hurried meals tidds fashioned splendid machine stuffed grains churned batch knew sweet strong clean day came cash game williker gasped cause sure inside still floating round mash light bright pure glance set ones imagination fire soul rapture burn colors contained shimmer glimmer take gods mind learn swallowed watched glow face helpless look right eyes said mercy whatwhat went inside turned light night rest stubbornly thoughts head ran around insomniac roar sat edge foot bed light glowed outside door start stood ran right still emitted casual hum light shot top tank lit night placebo sun shout loud wife old cow woke waddled outside yell second saw dropped willikers jaw etnas jaw promptly fell tank melting quite long time whiskey boiled away brand new universe sat shining end first day theres lot going universe spawn things really cant know sound planets make theyre bumping thumping galaxies theyre inside grow trillion quarks making zillions sparks bristle crystalcollide nebulas blooming supernovas booming young stars doomed die hanging air two wideeyed stares universe gained dimension size growth quite slow quite steady year tidds moved lest died house burned baby red giant superball coated lava vase erased tiny black hole meteors got guavas living conditions grew dimmer dimmer town williker lived land devoured men scattered cowered people knew something give insurance adjusters clue write house clearly gone replaced universe golden glowing taking insured houses government came titles names declared small town lost cause haste whole state evacuate said brand new ex states new state laws year year grand spectacle grew tennessee orb hung twinkling high jewel sky looking new state absorb slowly retreat back feet hot fires wondrous creation kinda wish need booze set immolation commune live edge world numbers billion strong loses faith land slips away may gone way long theres hope heart world arts future exceedingly bright inside big bang suns live close day different night im really scared im love fate swallowed whole future constructive maybe sometimes back mind wish drinking much less destructive well think finally end memy roommate old friend living moving able place lost job car died transmission verge becoming homeless hes pretty much person support nothing ive trying hardest rebuild life constantly getting kicked im battling severe depression bipolar anxiety ptsd next hope making alive hell gone days empty apartment worst feeling world everything crashing around especially put life got nothing back guess another worthless nobody gone forever one notice hello name scar real name mobile please excuse formatting friends girls age grade year called known aged b known aged c known years ago pretty much outsider group tough b well c friends ages talking years anyways means often told lot closest friends today hanging c b elsewhere starting deep conversation started rating emotions asked said great never really sad go said minus meaning self harm everywhere bodies attempted kill severely depressed want even earth anymore know upset know level started comparing sh pulled razor started sh c extremely uncomfortable almost tears started try slit wrists front thankfully razor blade dull much damage officially uncomfortable started weeping ran started discussing ways kill themselces laughed ran way home cried much thankfully parents extremely supportive comforted tell crying know c raped girl maybe sexually assaulted idk difference year eg fingered penetrated b maybe pain know good notredflag parents probably talk b c together deal love want anything happen need severe help year old friends want kill want commit redflag really want liveim years old im going university next year im going best school country choice four better schools state successful parents willing help problems lot people give lot position makes really sad lived one best students high school put enough effort schoolwork ended enough bs stop even applying really good schools even trade good memories every day nothing besides attempt drown whatever find internet nothing continue cycle close zero social interactions necessary way even parents fault im unattractive unable communicate make effort make interesting anyone want anything want commit redflag much hurt people around already worked hard help right now given option never exist take without hesitation know happen though need fix problem find direction goal guys found purpose lives confused everything world darkso m dont see one commit redflag move forward highschool social life im worried might make choice low point one things kinda scares myers briggs personality type enfp helps understand means really idea whats happening life im optimistic confident around people combined mother putting stress outburst depression never cut dont believe way will ofter redflag seems goodish option ive heard think ur family stuff huge deterrent im still skeptical phylosify seems pretty much ur ignoreing ur need u mean dont friends relationshipjust havent found anyone cwould enjoy dismay wan na fit dont want loose individuality another one issues talked person people internet dont plan want another thing access firearms im comforted fact within reachin glass cabinet im sure easily without keymy father keeps majority big safe dont fit understand capability dont see future dont tons regret want live van tour lifestyle ill poor loveless likely lonley ild love athlete unlikely kinda want settle ill regret satisfied whichever job choose doassuming ill make schoolagain helps understand enfp catch existance doesnt seem better didnt bother ive plenty happy moments years already long time dont think handle living watching life whisk away front eyes world sucks truth people cant color people much beauty well know chance seeing dont unlimited money ugly everywhere beauty found remote places nothing offer world ive moping day acting im perfectly satisfied lazy teenager look people see really look look disgust dont want around either dont even know truly want responsiblity friends desire deep inside size world spend town dont know want life overive thoughts urges last month bipolar went meds consultation psychiatrist due covid pretty isolated kept working months later ive destroyed body due overtraining future wellfailed attempt start college ive started medication seems hopeless songs listen die finally od happy songs make smile slow peaceful songs suicide depression songs use last moments listen something new different people say interesting although admittedly kind stupid question noone wants talk dirty dms heard everytime mention awards sub tons awards awards normal school underated af recently start going regular offline school years worth online school completely honest consider complete victory yes risk corona may higher meet friends goof around breaks pay attention classes cause longer listening teacher ramble feels much natural participate offline class rather turning mic online classes shit wayyyy better online schoolespecially cause forced us keep cameras anyone know kissing feels know feels feel free post emotions story first kiss im curious whether really good thing completely overvalued thanks discussing topic case cant contribute topic stay anyways imaginary cookie tell anything nice day stay hydrated guys gals nonbinary pals lonely kinda sucks im human wish close friend talk im looking one suppose life yet become familiar pain things constantly built knocked every years military child normally problem never occurred friends made online go nothing left past loneliness ive felt long time suicidal previously weird maybe growth almost hurts expense sadness sometimes wish ignorant fool enjoy time try think im gon na able escape dissapointment realizing ill lose everything temporary solutioni woke morning brain stress thinking possible solution problems kill took bunch valium feel awesome still know still think die feel much better drugged bother even hurting took later keep feeling going obviously cant every day god damn right effective many people sleeping raining understand calming keeps awake loud yeah make fun three months ssri medication nervous breakdown friends help memy girlfriend drinking party best friends asleep im crying eyes fucking pathetic much want somebody give little bit affection never asked help feel fucking rejected come help told party soon asked help told shed drinking call different friend fuck everything tonight im honestly embarrassed call redflag hotline call anyone thought done suicidal thoughts depression never knew come back im overwhelmed negative emotions hate jealousy anger selfloathing fuckeverythinginthisentireplanet know guys deal emotional breakdown think im losing ive got isabout vicodin pills percocets vodka birthday wish coming couple days realistically end life many mixed findings online ive read mg hydro lethal within hours yet heard people surviving mg read following something want theres eerie darkness inside sorrow theres reason yet festers grows think theres way patch wounds created ive therapy tried medication tried help many feel im meant world ive tried end life birthday twice really take pills drink lot see happens type situation one person knows though kept secret sought help helped obviously ive read success rate redflag via od anywhere im fuckin terrified ive decided kill tonightjust thought maybe tell stranger rather anyone close thanks play uno official rules playing right collectively agree moon moonlight soothing wiped hard male period lets go first time trying wellbutrin side effects affect sex drive female anyone tried wellbutrin im tired aliveim happy cant see happy friends now ive completely messed chance graduating energy bed theres usually lot crying involved im good things wish parents less disappointing kid feel guilty im idea living potentiality another years seems unbearable ask questions shit life ive abused every way curious something topics ask away ex broke last year ive cooped home couldnt find courage motivation go going years decided break started work home withdrew rarely went even see friends chores buy groceries today decided sick way ive living life lately want make serious changes chatted friends organized ukraine ski trip next month math nerds convert entire radical mixed radical vice versa test tomorrow idea quick feel anything secrets die one needs know look back others see care anymore want close eyes leap well every scene perfectly presented never seen movie meaning almost every scenebr br well watching movie remembered watching amilie amilie similar kind movie fun fantasy touch movies based plot line perfectly perfect way able create world ownbr br red able provoke lots thoughts people destiny dejavu s still thinking itbr br story great ending bit funny laughing end scene well funny three movie red white blue connectedbr br great work art work mastermanbr br idk title please read itbefore start want say depression mental disorder ok story live pretty poor country im constantly struggling money point feel im living surviving frankly im getting kind fucking tired nice people tell painlessly end really appreciated ps apologise bad grammar english first language pretty late pps im google pussy giving number redflag hotline im aware need helpi need help dont want cant help way dont want help never better want end let homework im weird pain ive fallen love yr old pain pain pain pain pain pain lives hours away pain reaction memes question ah negotiator reaction meme yay nay spark little convo yall whats favourite reaction memes cheers feel dont place worldtoday rough ive struggled years due narcissistic parents bullied experiencing childhood sexual assault ive carried scars past years ive never able move past ive started therapy recently feel im broken even attempt help ive struggled speaking assertive setting boundaries trusting people majority life dont see value world self confidence self esteem self worth feel stupid immature incompetent compared friends coworkers people around people tell self confidence constantly tell work seriously dont try things im used ignored one take interest thoughts never anyone believe hard world better without compare much everyone work feel lost friend continues call old name even came trans told new one sad wish better friends yall know posting helpi tried kill last friday tried od almost succeeded second attempt year everyones already moved im okay know family realize know psychiatrist realize know therapist realize cant deal im try know plea help ive always skeptical empathy strangers know help every time feel anything leads shut whenever start feeling anxious sad happy scared leads suicidal tendencies worked past earlier today managed contact close friend talked happy fucking hours ago happy cant even feel empty middle night cant call psychiatrist therapist family see redflag hotline possibly help cant go sleep im lost cant allowed feel anything without wanting kill whats point living want allowed feel happy know whats wrong brain mood stabilizers antipsychotics antidepressants anything edited add know terrible say think wish sort terminal illness wish cancer make alone anything fine mean excuse physically sick pathetic anything fine need something know something change cant stop thinking need hate feeling way thats blunt honest truth edited add feel im im person six years ago im one voices used head started antipsychotics rid got rid well try back keep trying move strange even two years control body might delusional either way im crazy medications helping many girls adding snap weight reasons many girls adding snap either think theyre overweight actually lbs extremely self conscious way developing eating disorders want lose weight even though theyre fine recovering eating disorder realize repercussions ive gotten year old guys ask nudes sent one guy pic chest im male said jebaited horny told wants see naked anyway experience im trying bash anyone eating disorder self conscious anything something help many people gets annoying probably around girls last months im getting little tired ill keep trying talk make feel better try help need something system want goapologise dramatic title put simply want go tragic backstory anything longest time ive known belong realm im counting days im gone know selfish rest understand wanted know gon na happen think im literally steps killing myselfthats far bedroom bottle pills cabinet takes pills extra strength tylenol cause liver failure id take probably cant keep cant keep going person matters care person matters even old enough talk please want die cutting helping anymore even try going diei never understood people work hard life life waste time willing hold onto going die rather dont care anything anymore want die hell reincarnation real ill kill hell real real hell alive growing life crystal stair dad physically abusive mom wouldnt shit im teen expects us happy healthy fatherson relationship fuck past right okay school now im complete failure parents never content bs high cs gave completely never felt sense accomplishment never felt genuinely made parents proud sure tell make proud everyday world knows doesnt come bottom hearts nothing hire c right lots ds fs times try improve avail intoxicated procrastination deprivation wanting live longer born government suck money us parents getting pennys worth want us incredible debt beg loans debt want schools encourage college burn hundreds thousands dollars relive high school degree something never truly interested successful people smacked face leave real good red mark feel shit every god damn time reflect cant better anything damn tired lifes bullshit life isnt worth really isnt sure go ahead start multibillion dollar company buy mansions studios lamborghinis hell know going lose die im social introvert embrace hate talking people hate people talk hate everyone hate society hate mainstream media news hate everything hate world hate hate life everything terrible god sent hell amuse watching suffer expects knees bend pray mercy fuck let die already whats hold im right god look now created image right wanted fuck kill right now even writing waste time god nows im depressed sociopath dad tried open several times fucking hate people try getting head fuck never understand even halfassedly opened clearly stated felt depressed correlated fact need friends fuck dad fuuck friends never trust people fuck people world filled backstabbing rats hate family brings girlfriend bullshit look straight god damn eyes say chance woman fucking even looks never date piece shit filth everyone says looks maybe fucked teeth dont anything goimg god damn dentists orthodontist arent jack shit never called next appointment saying lets wait years teeth grow settle five fucking years said fucking long take teeth fucking grow fuck shit fuck god damn backstabbing sons bitches thieves dentists fucking kill today sure fuck hope make deal devil fucking demon kill entire fucking family cry shitty god mercy life waste time nothing going ive online friend recently killed lived different countries strong anonymity wasnt shit help never took advice seriously hope meet soon peter theres random old lady math class teacher know noose knots difficultim sitting feeling failure able figure short drop noose want end im bored im bored click linkhttpswwwgooglecouk nobody remember long die erase never come backthats nice thought wish completely painlessly disappear care painful want people pain even anyone cares happen die parents care im sure maybe friends care little know im suicidal thats ok ive left notes fault parents fault fault absence might noticed reddit communities forgotten soon im afraid people remember right parents say oh nice considerate forget well never even knew real nobody want someone nobody soon die forgotten forever thats good anyone loud scream sound effect need one project cant find good one need sound female scream cant sound human needs sound dont even know try help find one lol put shredded cheese mac cheese chef gordan ramsey senpai never one favourite westerns cast glenn ford plays role usual mild controlled firm manner ford plays one smaller ranchers shadow mighty anchor ranch wants swallow whole territory edward g robinson plays crippled patriarch anchor ranch barbera stanwyck plays sly scheming wife plenty action western quite impressive scenery delicious letterbox scope photography breath taking soundtrack stereo say western sizeable budget looks expensive one series great glenn ford westerns og post lost new update help motivating friend friend started youtube channel hes always wanted didnt understand technical side made channel posted video asked videos havent really seen discouraging told patient hes losing hope im posting another video right later tonight playing rec room ask go check think channel potential subscribe wont really content dont friend agreed make another video lets keep views coming httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucncyfypwtzpyagdgufqq interesting premise interestingly worked strongest feature film emotional tension astronaut knows truth unable convey others overlook weaknesses enjoy movie prepared certain level suspense century long debate finally resolved glass half empty full glass half full empty need thank angry suicidali really angry want hurt know people piss friend going hard time decided write poem wanted know people thought thought come behalf thoughts poemwhen day comesand anymorejust know triedi tried hardbut broken easy fix try fight every dayevery hour every minute every second rest constant battle demonsand tired weakyoure exhausted life life worth living poem depressiongiving fart right go toilet idk im uncertain whether fart legitimate shit help point point anymore longer continue fight try find reasons keep living reasons find waste time days wander around feeling invisible im speck dust floating air forgottenthe end answer question doesnt involve personal info honestly possible sfw nsfw anything im bored maybe help automod go fuck automod go fuck automod go fuck remember seeing trailer movie first released looked pretty cool never got chance see though went blockbuster rent videos figured watch love silence lambs seen enjoyed movies might kick cell whole story concept interesting going physically mind killer cant imagine world live acting actually pretty decent jennifer lopez one say great believable job recommend scary thrillerbr br gon na interrupt ur new year posts mention cute rn cant look time smh goodnight everyone sleeping fun ima hope good day night go motions find body walking taking places really presenttravelling going classesit try remember got certain place find loss days even feel helpi messaged tried look positive things life let dragged hurt constantly feel wife cheated spent savings move leaving rented home wife dog desperately miss doctor months medication see counsellor weekly psychiatrist able work christmas cant handle emotionally pretty much said job anymore living brothers house enough money divorce done thats close friends best cant around suicidal year now try hard tell things better friends find hard understand feel even though emailed explained fell alone lost everything worked cry constantly really want go anymore know end life think makes feel much relaxed point even want try find way want die thing stopping right now sister gone know feeling cant keep putting feelings mine want selfish want instead putting people first wrong want go life pain someone wants one person tells better swear scream wrong putting first guys saying super straight transphobic exact someone bragging dont date black people getting offended someone calls racist bros attracted trans person one said thats transphobic saying straight showing date trans ppl shitty part care actual preferences calling superstraight part thats genuinely transphobic least incredibly fucking rude inherently invalidating reviewing intense martial arts movie first time nearly years must say lose mysticism eyepopping martial arts action remembered youth story dying martial arts instructor sending unfinished pupil find past members poison clan seek fortune masters friend keeps hidden afraid last pupil enough training instructs befriend one five venoms defeat fourbr br cant say enough choreography camera work fine film right quite possible one best martial arts movies made classic wake feeling sickly morning constant feeling emotional breakdown go hide bedroom minutes cry cry feel emotionally constipated children around want see crying know going honestly never felt distract feel heartbeat increase scared panic attack bath night though heart attach drowned children find next morning relax got thoughts time sometimes thoughts children murdered assaulted soon fall sleep oh sleep able sleep long time feel soo alone today call family friends even say explain understand really hurting today hurting socially awkward irl im socially awkward friends school none social media cant even chat hate quarantine much fucked even little social life someone dm pleaseee im really bored im looking friends stuff im really bad conversation dm might seem bit dry first m dealing depression diagnosed redflag separation redflag social redflag sincetldr read last large paragraph know condense thatwhen parents broke always close mum dad object owned son believed deserved fought mum know care anytime put aside never really interacted want go pry lamppost crying drag car take house brought first sembalances redflag low self esteem blood really love took something wrong top cheated mum broke together womenafter mum remarried next partner fine first changed younger brother treated hindrance due troubles going custody court stuff dad causing relationship mums partner saw fathers son took frustrations first gas lighting mental abuse went till mentally abused mum older sister little brother illness mum felt stay older leave thus freed abusei accident fractured hip walk year use partial weight year final straw made deeply depressed one place away school months felt alienated alone end retreated room place semblance safety leftall led deep rooted self hatred low self worth redflag depression managed idly spend time retreating games barely really living top last friends completely distanced difference views one mum siblings even grandparents always dementia even remember see mei feel alone everyone leave one day reason left live even feel better died saved trouble family support leech kindness want burden feel useless know lazy hate know way mess head live life worth livingi sorry extremely long much wanted say something somewhere relieve feeling built inside m need feel chest one talk gta free download virus ishttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvmlhzvivflgk enjoy gamers sorryhow people keep going people keep going cant figure abusive relationship age fucked im still wake screaming ive lost friends nobody believed wanted friends still easier friends pretend nothing happened admit raped repeatedly controlled years become control eventually give accept thats life situations didnt tell anyone years didnt believe keep trying okay im college take semesters attempted redflag twice im now ive therapy years cant find joy anything used fucking joyful days want hug im isolated everyone used love still love didnt love enough believe im fucking desperate right now im scattered retraumatized something happened week suicidal every day thing volume knob thing somedays want others somedays im checking ceiling fan aware hold weight days im smashing things head bleed pain seen outside cant see ptsd way see broken leg people im hurting time explain raped hear every night im tired explaining taking time school worse feel stupid worthless forgettable idk fuck im posting reddit pay therapist call whenever im tired trying convince go inpatient facility rather die cheaper thats sure town depressing fuck insane levels boring parents lot money cars fun stuff ended losing friends depressed sitting around day everyone really really cold mean everyone says small townsi fun years friends hung every day fun stuff still never invited anything people hated parents poor going vacations anything us hanging boring town came back home culture shock hell walked outside today friday night everything pitch black empty everything closed even bar totally dead even see city walk outside crowds trains go beach overi tried outgoing possible got back messaged every single person used know social media everyone really cold either ignoring always walked around hours went places eat hung tried going shitty bar shut covid reason even think single way make friends car one two small shops small parkeven lived big city make friends people friendlier feel defeated living long friends anywhere anything stuff completely alone years got depressed nothing drink smoke weed every day passed barely bed feels impossible anything without friends social enough able walk strangers became friends want friendseven friends always better meeting talking people always friends vibe tell loser barely friends anything really think take anymore loneliness suicidal thoughts daily random thoughts much easier take one step rooftop grow old alone every day miserable everyone know loser already tried killing twice tons dumb shit hoping diei go fucking bad feel lost life town friends want kill feel violated confused alone dont know dohello f dont know talk feel raped personal opinion spoken mother consulted friends situation im receiving mixed reactions opinions everyone happened last month asked man barely knew sleep eachother social media really know much man dumb ass decision know pursued anyway prior sex multiple previous conversations wearing protection stds birth control im firm condoms always stated well claimed tested within last two months tested recently completely clear finally meet told started wanted use condoms thought understanding using protection guess wrong first two times wears condom gets goes bathroom comes back bed im laying side looking phone even paying attention next thing know turns back penetrates protection immediately froze scared know afraid hurt due fact knew want decided wanted anyway soon finished got make doctors appointment weeks incident come back positive std incurable feel violated hurt confused know know feel im normally vengeful person taking everything pay back feel give choice made hate im hard time coping friends opinion never first place fault happened mom thinks mother says penetrating someone way consent rape know second horror film emmahttpsyoutubemtomnfbrps im suicidal im definitely existential crisishow one deal knowledge universe one day end find solace idea try best alive let stress suicidal verge pulling chris mccandless witnessed car chase minutes ago walking shops bunch sirens going white bakkie came speeding traffic horn thing full blast swerving mad police cars behind im home still hear sirens ambulances im guessing chase caught making plan back mind againim apparently post wall whatever means moment fleeting glimpse meant truly happy heart growing radiance talked kids made feel safe finally ok vulnerable didnt maintain fiercely independent facade finally slept peaceful sleeps arms laughed thought loved put tiny amount weight unwell left went back red pill recognise lied compulsively idealised devalued discarded believe met person actually compassion act conscience act god complex trying right make right genuine understanding pain actually causing yet im still trying empathise understand actually mean cant measure lifes value someone isnt first time ive success world doesnt matter heart empty figure income work part time ive lost mojo ive lost passion work feels meaningless im tired still another reviewer called lack character development call understatement movie bash one head overexplanation unnecessary backstory yes many untold stories got glimpse primarily oneday snapshot event catalyzed change characters lives henry thomass performance really lovely study power acting focuses reaction rather action good rental want stop thinkingi want live anymore good titles think important message another sidewill punished redflag cope failurehow people cope failure currently failing college feel worthless waste time money space espically time one teachers best help study pass waste money paying college mom dad waste time boyfriend major tried teach everything another teacher lets call mrsp privacy sake mrsp horrible teacher teaches students sees potential wants help students likes anything two students caught copying answer sheet online exam checked browser history left help boyfriend classes boyfriend helping learn teach spends two hours reading material cant answer questions accused cheating front entire class point left class tears talked advisor program talked mrsp said finished lecture early one day said class program advisor spoke starting ranting said class hard think im hardass etc turned beat red everyone started giving shit outside class tried best every assignment test need parts final pass give feel bad incoming students networking division school heres kicker retiring thats excuse teacher even called nothing getting done hes taking classes lets call mrh privacy sake mrh amazing teacher classes hard sure make wan na learn helping try pass class mrsp felt let worked hard study take notes stuff feel let family graduated id first family complete college struggled depression scince ive managing hit hard fail mrsp class come back spring afford even loans feel pointless continue im litterly classes degree reason cant feel anything emptiness sadness want die know thats right choice feel anything care college anymore cant pass mrsp class care anything health boyfriend existence none means anything drop labeled failure even wan na bed final tomarrow know gon na pass tldr failing college fell worthless cope severe failure cant take pain anymoreim really tired feeling worthlessness constant feeling dread past year ive dealing constant pain destroying thought never really bad childhood lot friends growing lot im still friends heck met best friend first grade roommates college elementary school mom diagnosed thyroid disease bone disease started taking pain medications fourth grade without really realizing became addicted irrational times ninth grade moved back old house let go school three months want leave personally know loved mom still irrational behavior frightened say least near end ninth grade grandparents got custody ended able complete classes failed ninth grade got graduate friends classmates ive really struggling way treated mom high school call leave voicemails crying eyes ask want visit missed ignored calls voicemails junior high school listened felt shittiest son world even though caused much pain felt bad long started running cycling deal emotional pain immediately fell love feeling running cycling gave time escape thoughts great think anything ran beautiful started running lot started running ten miles day made feel good life felt great shitty person joined cross country teamtrack team senior year high school made lot good friends made sectionals track x finally felt accomplished something great around year ago pulled muscletendon knee biking hill ive tried several times back cycling running ive always ended reinjuring took three months completely running last semester able run two miles summer knee injury came back forced stop running ive struggling consistent groin pain feels tearing sensation whenever stand ruining life itll pop place ill readjust make feel right anyway im tired feeling im tired constantly pain reason never good anything life started running cycling people knew guy ran shit ton liked hard go door run fifteen miles blue miss much ive several doctors positive results theyve said take aleve itll feel better ive done everything doctors said im still pain idea im tired pain constant feeling worthlessness ive felt ive living purpose long everyone something theyre great best friend computer science major hes super smart roommate quad leader band feel useless feel life meaning runnercyclist something productive life finally better someone something im sorry long feel tell someone eating longest time feel im going break point soon one understands fuck math literally everyone hate math idk point constantly feeling failure life amp matter much try change always feel people looking failure enough recently started cutting point sure even worth alive point feeling everyone looking everyone blaming something going wrong much shitty person even fix still feel ill never enough starting yo hate matter much try correct things wrong life try fix shitty situations life feel shit right everyone looking currently botlle hlf thinkjng blut end thinkingnof long feel make every situation better amp everyone around less bothered amp annoyed wits end make easiest loved oneswhat put note leave note belongings way hurt least think m need friends hey im pretty lonely rn love friends mainly play apex legends minecraft java valorant amo f us im pst timezone anybody interested please pm thanks anyone weird experiences hospitalits year last attempt go think ive fully processed experience hospital think days constant redflag watch first couple days hallucinating vomiting violently drugs put im still slightly convinced put drugs try deter trying worked afterwards prep school try practice say make sure washed clean looked presentable hopefully let went saw psychiatrist supposed check see allowed let started telling needed jesus needed accept lord happy told stuff relationships time looking back abusive picked told stay away men except godly men surprised treat badly nodded nodded told id go church finally let go hours im still processing shit anything im processing something allowed happen nhs desperate female one interested relationship female wants relationship offers mom please tell officer im sorry broke promise youll know one tell emts im sorry wont able make light hearted jokes way hospital please dont let aunt make facebook post shes done please dont let tell sisters hate know cold statement bring dad back life think ok knew make everything worse let dad know dont blame didnt mean bit sick dont tell little buddy im gone make something please dont let know let therapist know great almost made better please let everyone know im trying selfish need peace please dont mad love really need better im tired cant better earth im really sorry thank everything best mom please remember bottle doesnt help dont try love please look notes blue swan box bottom right shelf shoe closet depression fucking everything quit different jobs mechanic lawncare seem redflagful caused suicidal thoughts sky rocket need something low redflag likely low redflag jobs ive thought lots ironically im scaredive considered taking life several occasions reason im scared effect children ill married father beautiful children love dearly love fought depression awhile even knowing st years call dealdealt basic problems life money amp drugs lead relationship issues lost mombest friend almost yrs ago everything im self proclaimed mommas boy things got worst second family fell apart dad brother sister aunts uncles stop seeing eye eye cause resent ppl reason gone kids know end day wrong thing phase better days ahead situation mold comparison others constantly go backwards life matter hard try try stay positive comes point feel alternatives deep know wan na feel im running fight even know im making post think ive heard every solution try fix problems zero percent success rate thus far figured cant worst posting tldr ive considered redflag lots times never attempted suffer depression led financial relationship drug family problems already years budding addiction job perpetually selfdestructing family complete inability make new friends girlfriend onoff years moved back baggageboroi spent entire teenage life abstaining drugs wanted enjoy adult fresh brain realized threshold child adult hopeless blur bad genes genes winning far enjoy altered im college dropout skills retailfastfoodlevel experience vehicle day job applications essentially shittiest lottery hope placed lucky enough win minimum wage im person real life internet theres real mask anonymity use flatten selfesteem palatable wafer bitterness may come girlfriends proliferous digital social life utterly failed thing lived room years charming best feels matter luck moved back came months telling know wanted couple weeks expressly wanting baby family future moved conversation week know need try harder job learn marketable skill open people move worst need dragged need friends somewhere go id beach im right car finally watching walt disneys song south myspace decided watch ralph bakshis response moviecoonskinon afro video linked google video one liveaction sequences preacherman charles gordone takes friend sampson barry white pick pappy scatman crothers randy philip thomas years added michael middle name professionally latter two escape prison attempt pappy tells randy tale brother rabbit voice thomas brother bear white preacher fox gordone adventures harlem expected many bakshi efforts theres mix animation liveaction provides unique pointofview writerdirector sure offend people another fascinating animated character miss america whos bigas gigantic every waywhite blonde woman dressed skintight red white blue stars stripes hold little black man shot one sexually violent ways shockingly funny plenty scenes sprinkled throughout picture another one concerning brother bears frontal anatomy provided big laughs theres segment woman telling baby cockroach friends left touching part seeming tribute comic strip artist george herriman fascinated hearing grover washington jrs version aint sunshine heard part score compelling part picture seeing scatman depicted head silhouette opening credit sequence singing scatting song using nword satirical way saw vhs cover movie years ago depicted brother rabbit insolent mode front looked warner circles slogan movie offend everybody ample warning anyone thinks cartoons meant children said definitely recommend coonskin fans bakshi every form animation free cuddles rona anyone preferably girls cuz im better girls guys wants cuddle rona comment pls d requirements must pedophile must nice person must fully vaccinated must teen preferably girl guys allowed interpret friend telling likes telling one friend doind whole thing group chat letting kne friend see deleting texts friend wont tell anything weird please im nice filler filler filler filler fillrt fillr rather rather drink bleach eat dried cum scraped sisters asshole im going see whats afterlifesorry goodbye please wake miss ive trying reach years now seems dreams im normal social media user im husband miss please wake nothing doi work hours week money gone days waste juul pods food cant even afford haircut prioritize nicotine addiction look dont car walk minutes work back every day dont sheets bed im lazy piece shit cant bed except work im parents dead sister inherited house sister lives boyfriend hate ive taken food without asking starving trying make dont money house sell sister working lawyer havent able talk friends nobody friends someone car money think killing every day walk past train tracks way work whats point living whenever sell house im sure ill homeless less year good thing bicurious im immune traps thats post coming well treating redflag poor body image counselling supportive friends feel selfish feeling feel disrespecting making mockery people killed know worked make horrid feeling go away tired mentally completely exhausted mum diagnosed yet another serious disease immune system already weak hell medication potentially fatal dad blames bad lifestyle constantly screaming want divorce afford one sick trying block arguing know anymore probably going die young anyway disease hereditary every single female mums bloodline gotten form yeah take medication rest life worth nothing even wrong got good grades mock exams secondary school nice friends seem annoy now know mean fault stupid shit never done month ago taking painkillers necessary walking lessons hide toilets end day reference time last month severe redflag even speak lessons leaving without asking snapping way even fucking told teacher yesterday felt hurting felt suicidal sit office called mum put phone speaker heard say stopped looking ways cross road stopped caring people think started shutting everybody cares home cry cry sleep absurd read writing sound pathetic many people worse things feel wrong wanting die done know anymore anyhow one last day school left summer holidays weeks long uk weeks nothing sit alone think counsellors calling school think might ignore think might overdose summer probably temporary feeling gone days needed yknow way end offing least parents idea feeling look phone tired scared think anyone know much paracetamol considered overdose deter suddenly seems real summer might end anyone play halo master chief collection pc xbox tryna gain people play halo wan na add steam anyways im steam name yesimforreal fried code steam xbox yesimforrea reeeeally want always end backing wish coward tired made wishlist ramen anyone help much appreciated thank zip code link amazon wish list url many astronaut stuff coming tv fall disney right stuff netflix away apple tv mankind pushing stuff us im lonelyive suicidal thoughts single day broke stopped couple even real couple begin really loved still doesnt fault think mine said bpd still best friends seetexttalk nearly every day cant stop thinking time year ago cant accept never coming back crave physical attention much feel fucking lonely miserable gets worse every single day first person think wake last one fall asleep keep dreaming time spent together waking crying eyes cant take anymore first person life showed genuine love genuinely liked nothing fault im trying convince fault either mental illnesses make lifes hell want physically emotionally please im lonely welp im deleting reddit account im deleting reddit account reddit users virgins im anymore good bye history fact day number marie antionette last french queen french revolution executed precisely october th every day feel constant pain mind shut constant discomfort anxieties dissatisfaction understand expected stay alive want end afraid working know help hear people life want wish someone help think feels unbearable keep going want hear people talk thinking throwing front trainim fucking pathetic loser im dumb anything lazy undisciplined retard makes guilty worthlessi dont know fucking im normal eyes leaky im crying leaking water guess im gay water fountain give money someone talk toim musician sort halfway finished degree jazz studies kitchen work gig living last year gotten many gigs im extremely lonely im good socializing im ugly im pretty weird easy talk hard look people eye really anxious anybody talk person really gets ex girlfriend cant expect im codependent mother abusive hit lot screamed everyday moved im afraid feel neurotic week broke screamed direct supervisor work feel extremely condescending toxic blames coworkers mistakes hes passive aggressive confront anyone directly reason im scapegoat called showing minutes late everyday yet complaining morning prep getting done training new employees expecting generally applying standards sets feel close breaking know people jump death always change mind right jump logically see im nearly thirty entire life awful something huge blocking emotionally know fix feel crying im tired time really need help know ask ask sorry wall evil thing bring water fight mine white phosphorus dissolved copper sulfate moment liquid evaporates phosphorus stick persons clothing catch fire ignite upon contact oxygen engulfing person flames toxic fumes depressed gotten worse regularly suicidal thoughts back acted hung chickend couple seconds life mental health gotten much worse daily urge take life incident hesitant know reasona part wants fight better part nothing look forward constant struggle tiring much consideration decided best go iteven write part wants better might either today tomorrow im starting blog need name blog completely rando shit revolve around weed stone frnds id cool yall cud help name something catchy references pop culture something direct someone point subreddit serious discussion going great mystery meat school taste somewhat good starving using shethey getting mad someone uses make sense saw instagram post said someone uses shethey switch use literally say oh yeah bought coat today lots money something apparently offensive someone enlighten makes sense friend mad says hard respect want understand even makes sense hey uhhh know uhm hi monthsits awhile posted probably months tried od certain drug courage looking back stage life might overloaded worry work maybe say didnt nevertheless still ideas every especially hopping er work going bed nights idk seems easy way eager maybe find peace mind keep going strong fighting ideas trying make father proud hiding truth illness hoping notice stopped discussing cuz mostly hed tell theres jobs thats country live works hope whoever reads stay strong easy stay strong yalls beliefs extraordinary paranormal believe stuff im bored muffucka ghosts cool zodiac signs dum dum thoughts im already feel dead noti keep telling better getting hard hold back now death inevitable anyway stretch pain office se golden spoilers started watching show swear ending dwight rolling shit funny leaves questioning future builds good character development show focuses main peeps wacky times switch jims new office really feel feels amazing episode advice needed hardly talk crush amp never told anything recently blue removed fb amp insta etc sending request amp deleting fb still see status whatsapp oo question know way rejecting people rejected ff kinda new thing draw cant said say guess life now fuck im donemy life complete shit deserve earth people clearly superior im inferior mistake parents call miracle know im mistake im failure everyone know moved lived lives love im stuck unending cycle hopelessness dreams ambitions hopes nothing dream one day backpacking travelling world dreamt going holiday meeting wonderful woman spent rest life life kicks stop everyone see world superior im inferior scream im inferior parents say im afraid admit well sometimes dream going another country mainly australia canada new zealand even us im uk life depressing ive close killing long time ive even sent hospital times attempts im going keep trying im done life now dreams drive passion hope saw redflag sub mean click saw man blow brains fuck breakfast eggs enough responses ill edit saying prepared eggs scrambled hard boiled etc action adventure want movie best advised look elsewhere hand lazy day want good movie go along mood check straight storybr br richard farnsworth puts compelling performance gentle gentlemanly alvin straight true story alvins journey riding mower across three states see estranged brother strokebr br farnsworth perfect role travels long winding road making friends strangers doling lots grandfatherly type advice family along way story moves along slowly riding mower somehow manages keep viewer watching waiting next life lesson alvins going offerbr br stretch couch relax enjoy way watch good movie rates book one time ex walked toilet commented thicc looked cringe thought everyday tbh achieved rock bottom never opportunity meet friends made times probably fucked sentence im native alright ampxb love people known people know moment understood ive loved whole heart hoping feel belong unconditionally loved elementary school dream kept returning oldest one know steppenwolf hermann hesse remember part redflag part man ampxb flights poland greenland expensive ampxb plan buy oneway ticket reykjavik rest cash going taxi driver drive far north possible road go far white take jacked hat sweater go freeze death ampxb want change mind beg really interesting movie action movie comedy mixed foxx teams comedian epps movie give comedic spin keep wondering whats going happen foxx next well shot movie director used right colors moviedark blue colors give right kind feel kimberly elise starred movie always pleasure see big screen plays role well even jamie kennedy movie worth seeing seen definitely worth jamie foxx fan deserves credit actually given depression instrument filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler gentle reminder nothing matters part iiwell incalculable reason im still thing course blew interview lack preparation seems things matter things course discussed lack preparation mentioned specific things prepared felt fool course done things read thing sent email least partially went dark time original position thinking still open told filling contractor positions thinking never hit job board goal date came went threw hands convinced going happen must really want theyre giving writing assignment redeem makes sense im tempted tell looking massive pool well qualified individuals opportunity cost huge ampxb ampxb ampxb flair changing day bois finally turn change flair now thank youi contemplating seriously enough ive thinking read subreddit see people problems fuck werent nothing grounds suicidal real reason fucking people gone hell back someone subreddit got raped front girlfriend made realise ive gone something im sticking ugh sound simp need help best friend lot im guy shes girl ive known years used go school dont bcz hs wan na shoot shot theres chance missing every day dont tell eats hurts much wan na tell idk heard girls confidence im confident likes back ik fact dont wan na break friendship feel tell make things awkward wed eventually become strangers girls give tips advice helps sorry long ass paragraph know doim recovering metheverything junkie going year two weeks last night went visit sister friend place ive never really ended rather going home right sister left flight sitting buffalo wild wings drinking turned year never drunk bar suppose wanted feel everybody place felt absolutely terrible three beers decided drive home told roomates happened entire three hour drive think disappointed made progress life throw away peer pressure felt failure still right now know silly seems even think silly feel though let everyone around want give solid support system set trying sober feel disappointed well feel horrible called work today let boss lied calling place recently got promoted actually rising ranks great job im lost desperately want people went high school college partying acting normal becoming suicidal fact drank couple beers ive thought today giving drive home last night took everything slam gas pedal let drift something time past year actually looking forward future im back last years feeling shit ashamed deeply wanting anything take away worst part drugs now used use drugs take pain away worked time anymore even picked meth heroin whatever chemical gave put much make feel better thats worst part want end im tired trying hard better go right back demoralizing tunnel leads bitter end either directly killing slowly dying addict death im scared myselfthe thoughts keep getting worse know tell distracting try school work cant want die really badly ive feeling way long idea called recently realized want die birthday yesterday turned wish never born body celebrate body tell anything think parents care really wish theyre mean really hurts know im wanted hurt said accident nobody helped tried little want try want done think go anymore im scared feel even know think go much longer posting everyday girlfriend day random joke time man walks bar ouch anyone wan na talk lt nothing interesting put good reason talk strangers today bored ill start right beginning saying movie sweeping grand gripping fun sinhue physiciansits front small stone hut writing memoirs story taken river reared elderly couple doted becomes physician poor befriends horemheb sees glory sinhue sees healing run future pharaoh anknaten forgive spellings endures epileptic fitbr br pharaoh another flaw believes one god instead pantheon gods back totally revolutionary sinhue horemheb grow one night sinhue sees woman makes lose senses gives practice sells parents home even tombs spend night tell meanwhile merit tavern maid played sweet simplicity belying strength jean simmons falls love sinhue falls spell spell belief one godbr br victor mature overacts perfectly horemheb edmond purdom sincere sinhue lost physician find redemption stay tuned even bela darvi woman steals sinhues heart bad everyone said fact daryl f zanucks mistress nothing casting right yeah rightstill bad ive seen worse think better egyptian many todays young actresses done anything said ill say movie recommend makes think despite hammy acting fun movie worth im probably going kill self tomorrowim tried want end ive ben depressed long recently gotten worse im curtly college semesters ends thursday fell none talk dread going back home im tired living family even tough paying college kind hate ben emotionally abusive cant drive im probably going stuck house summer ware go honestly know much take shoulders distracting see pic guy either snap story etc shoulders exposed know hes wearing shirt guys bodies really turn ok ok im still sick pizza c u thanks thought starting better cry yesterday lol jokes bc ended bawling eyes today remember mom passed away last year remember last words good dad knows much hated dad cheating multiple times yet still forgave honest done anything productive past weeks three weeks backlog summer class bring study verge giving course last thing mom remember taking engineering expecting engineer someday want disappoint executive dysfunction search tati mcquay instagram tell shes hot asf search tati mcquay instagram tell shes hot asf teachers cold call worst built extension alerts name said google meet httpschromegooglecomwebstoredetailnotifymedgckonnckhjlnjbhhcmomkgidhkjngeo people want help say dont itevery time ask mates someone internet suicidal thoughts say dont ive started think really helping dont want die selfish might mess around make profile picture actual picture minutes idk tho feeling pedos run rampant sub might mothers jaded opinion towards internet forums shed pissed knew reddit dare internet safety unit scaring life looking old picturesdoes anyone go back look old pictures im rn pictures innocent little kid enjoyed life think kid idea hell hes gon na go life minecraft touch grass tnt spawns join stream soon ill live moment yaboidomenikhttpswwwtwitchtvyaboidomenik plucky sounds insult honestly opposite one though descriptor someone brave determined iconic gaming quotes drop filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler people upset talk bottom dysphoriasurgery hi im eighteen year old afab agender person bad bottom dysphoria im trying surgery completely remove vagina feminine bits leaving smooth crotch hole pee ive known wanted parts gone body young tried glue shut thirteen live new york queer positive city feel comfortable talking queer subjects bottom surgery dysphoria always something ive causios talking outside house im afraid people say mentioned wanting void genitals recently close freind trans became super weirded worried thought supportive said really hurtful stuff fault dont hate feel cold alone know people weirded dysphoria enby people nullification surgery thing even cissys still havnt even mentioned bottom issues girl think ill able girlfriend mind friend suicidal dohi friends reddit one closest friends feeling depressed suicidal long time years last night confided getting much worse recently feeling absolutely hopeless thing holding back much destroy younger sister went lie bed day wishing stop existing one knows feels right now parents suspect therapist probably already tried commit redflag tell anyone fears reactions mother quite forceful father complete opposite feels uncomfortable talking stranger therapist older sister aggressive loves younger sister much potentially upset feels burden family strongly believes putting right help us around gone university study parents tried force go university past two years friend interest whatsoever trying job now stays bed day interest either ive depression though nearly long completely different reason tell ridiculously lazy family thinks lack even morning constantly panicking paranoid everything although always show im glad feels comfortable enough talk person knows anything remotely similar know except listen try convince people love etc even know right thing reliant pills always wishing pill cure cure told every solution comes pillform looking back may cleverest thing say im bit lost person talk want best friend possibly dearest redditors help greatly appreciated thanks lot hugs everyone need help girl went school except im th grade th grade know start conversation need advice start talking one unusual plots ive seen horror film based good solid universal studios fare lots monsters pretty heroine torchbearing villagers favorite part larry talbot wolf man searching cure lycanthropy dying original wolf man resurrected wanders frankenstein meets wolf man house frankenstein searching way end affliction think firsttime viewers find search particular movie interestingbr br want stay alive notwhenever tell mother grandmother im depressedhaving suicidal thoughtshaving panic attack either one assume saw something internet made upset theyll tell grow actually attempt redflag theyll act never saw coming angry tried every imaginable means long avail still convince live without life partner every fleeting conversation woman gives hope immediately dashed every time hear people setting want jump front train even try stay home avoid women much possible leads things remind themthere way even kill always carrot tomorrow maybe tomorrow meet one deep know hope compete dudes accepted fact never marry hi hi quick question everyone sister plan open cat cafe older idk popular go cat cafe one local hate body dont anything body want different ive looked care less weight things boobs body ok theres rant day happy new year anyone wan na talkm im probably pm lets bored together today already sucks woke took shet bad legs hurt circumcision makes feel suicidalhi community know may sound weird hate circumcision infant without consent especially austrian left intact hate people claim nearly one third circumcised vast majority still happy course even months ago think something change supressed feelings beacuse considered weak disrespectful parents realised unethical cut part body feel incomplete raped raped knife feel betrayed nad humiliated parents inferior rest society already spoken parents utterly regret forgive feelings stay unfortunately learn grief feel want watch world burnim sick tired feeling sick tired im done nightmares every night want weighed depression want made victim anymore want part world anymore choose born fk world never wanted boyfriend hour please keep occupied kill myselfi want badly please s hong kong man woman move day adjacent apartments respective spouses soon suspect absent spouses affair oneanother strange bond emerges man woman cope sadness taking turns playing others spouse complex bond emergesbr br summary justice hong kong auteur wong karwais mood love nothing short miracle story sadness manages touching times funny romance never feels forced fake doubt directors method lot thatbr br directed inexistent screenplay though concept largely flows japanese short story favor improvisation film immediately set apart freshness performances film revolves around rest pure enhancement core film two characters ease heart stay long end credits roll maggie cheung tony leung simply amazing language barrier undermines single fragment immediacy truth display additional material topnotch films magnificent behold part lensed heros christopher doyle music heartbreakingbr br something everybody must see far heartfelt mature authentic love story unmissable whenever ac turns smells dogshit using emphasis smells literal dogshit feels im losing mindsome time around december started getting depressed super well life suddenly progress paused sort fell started feeling sad anxious whole works life started back great things happened life im getting anxious depressed happens thats affecting whats happening life got accepted prestigious exclusive improv comedy group feel im spiralling control cant perform anymore feel im burden group regrets accepting schoolwork getting affected grades dropping mind always elsewhere worst cant seem talk people anymore feel peoplefriends new old see sort freak right im really struggling talk social mind constantly racing miserable know fix think commit redflag certainly started thinking decent amount scares want think im afraid might actually consider life continues current direction needed chest thanks dont wan na die dont wan na live eitheri dont see point anyone agree doom relaxing videogame series mean anybody read play doom shoot everything moves incredibly simple fucking amazing someone commented feelgood movie got glorious scenery wonderfilled voice luciano ive seen movie many times saw afternoon id forgotten much miss pavarottis singing nessun dorma need cd great movie away afternoon engrossed fun reverie eddie albert grand agent bit top agents anyway italian countryside gorgeous nothing tops balloon ride perfect view need acting olivier proportion movie want flight fancy wonderful music watch film enjoy feeling butterfly knife tiredhey guys ive posted lot recently basically ago girlfriend depended broke even friends really taxing went mall friends today scalpel home wanted something bigger hurt really protection shady areas cape town south africa anyway im sitting bed im really good place really want self harm really sharp im posting rselfharm takes hours respond im really lonely cant move miss ex nothing makes happy anymore truly happy anyway life feels forced whats killing moved blocked social media fucked burdened anymore wish relief therapist good antidepressants help want die im scared pain take lot pills make simple cut bleed id anyway years long enough live guess im rambling im sure emotions want someone tell things okay miss much killing want die want die friends think im gone family ex anyway thanks listening sw im sorry im bothering im really alone right now strong enoughi always thought committing redflag think hit hard today cant even feel sadness point really angry everything nothing makes happy anymore years cant blame others something chose though angry well cant even honest see look afterwards try hard keep hold wonder much longer take ampxb end blame constant silly choices life child live consequences problem thats life living consequences baduninformed choices eh must real crap screwing constantly personal professional life ampxb maybe karma mistreating scaring away around cant love love others lying everyone still avoid unecessary drama people tell cold cruel person cold yet feel bad ampxb problem admitting messed even admit point nothing change whats done done hardly even look people eyes long remember reached point makes sick enraged bitter even wake see people even choice take instead one healthy im nothing ampxb used let gaming fulfill even stopped working quickly fading away real aspirations things love became daily sacrifices struggles able coup knows long ampxb anyway want ask anyones forgiveness go back fix decisions hardly ask anything life want gain courage finally kill find peace reason go psychological warfare want painsometimes hands shake want smash hammer talk much really anything nice say still feel im better friend anyone someone sometimes really hope always convince im best alone time spent time wasted want die im sure people barely notice care seems people say feel bad someone knew maybe school work kills themself selfish theyd admit anyone really care life care uniform routine feel everyone sad something different people change lot people either maybe death good change kind everyone wants life sometimes want become rich maybe famous maybe want meet special someone want happy want life change good way feel everyone around happy died slowly painfully maybe im good change life death really need help regarding xi know post welcomed really hope huys allways seem know right thing really use help m xgirlfriend f together year started really well love birds singing everything perfect hit bumps road though write post lot longer anyways back case good run problems things started changing became mad reason became controllfreak drafted army things started becoming really bad first month went okay missed eachother things finally good came home leave second month things became nightmare previous girlfriend started attending school x took started lying stupidest things raped sex xboyfriend stuff never got fact sex someone met started threatening redflag threatening wanted cheat sleep outside streets acting fucking maniac months drafted started breaking almost daily whole month still head heals became frantic begged ended listening entire time ended couple months later stoped threats complained everything shame dumbest things refuse meet friends wanted meet instead fell time later ended breaking week went without contact started talking missing eachother decided try sadly things quickly turned shit months later broke time started contacting week saying spiteful things said already people tired care days later broke started saying missed wanted try said started seeing people times broke used solely scaretactic turned stating want try wanted single nagged days end gave told okay full intensions giving fuck two weeks passed recently went trip days wich meant contact got back cellphone connection tried sending goodbye see soon message started complaining bringing cell phone even though connection left started bitching saying love left rush spite told loved got back sent text hey im back meet drive mall im tired trip want alone day im exhausted allways try something fun us act care even bother sending lt im done im okay please leave im tired keep exchanged messages said want leave said cant stand anymore last week hell told leave kill shames ditching time leave fuck alone daily threatens redflag even last night went bed proceeded answering frantic calls fear resulted sleeping writing post child want away threatens redflag stating tried kidding go police ither parents end thing keep untli handle leading road depression seems suffer kind shizophrenia states see dead people hear whispers screams night signs suffers hope makes sense im totally clear head desperate way away someone please help cant take anymore tldr chick year starts good ends goddamn maniac threatens kill leave cant stand life without suffers kind shizophrenia need help needs help lost fucking mind getting worsei dont fit anywhere anymore im losing friends year dad unemployed jaded beyond belief dont know earth life ended used felt feel pressure angles dont know fucking trust cant open dont know whats worth fighting want old back impossible dont think anyone realises depressed mind ive ruined chances love feel becomming cowardly cunt used oppositte lost beyond belief trusting peoplehey uh want share story well first redflag attempt mine last summer details matter thing went rambling venting friend mine internet friend one considered dearest mightve mistake supportive first ignored time rambling depression tough understand never told fine nowhere redflag attempts make laugh ass know apparently joke joke see ill react see serious suicidality know stab someone sorry wanted see react many things said way gtdo even know much hurt gtget shit together already gtugh know whats problem go fix duh gtoh cant fix well continue onwards slump currently waiting miracle happen gtlook couldve told irl friends didnt last one racket going chantage dealing suicidal person wrong well half year passed still fixed still want friends person really talked one time recently either want hear hostile hurts cant leave well dear friends great ones turn back supported thanks im still unfortunately incident even want tell parents mental state im scared wish one face someone please help hot wheels inside long story short bone shaker model hot wheels car lodged ass im afraid stuck originally rectum think entered colon dont want tell mother father obvious reasons feel pointy exhaust pipes poke around lining large intestine im really afraid shred insides push perhaps guys give advice love youi love helping people even tho im insanely depressed pm talk aita calling cops suicidal friend ensure safetybefore jumpy let clarify post aita tolerate redflag posts friend female lives miles across country huge emotionally uncomfortable state lot better now time parents even care thought attention way help typing app called discord one day starts typing weird saying bunch goodbyes reason theyre scaring time redflagprone now admit something wanted know lived chat another one close friends gives details name address know county eventually found found exact house via google maps called police said name address probably redflag attempt texting cops moments later call one officers says everything okay thanked call empathy knew scared said thank continued messages proceeds rip new one saying never cried much life tell scared messages wanted know intentions apparently took complete wrong way tells fuck blocked discord fastforward months later write supersorry message friend yo saying sorry huge misunderstanding asked meant messages etc accepted apology still wont forget night said questions aita improve relationship want finish iti experiencing anxious depressed lost desires cant find purpose living ive hospital twice year already make sure works time nothing world cherish anymore need way thank disability torture please kill meim tired alone years lowkey dictatorship ruling party country finally lost election finally freedom couldnt happy cant sleep excitement years old whole life single regime president announced man year organise crime corruption occrp stole billions upon billions dollars country closed almost every factory country almost comletelly crushed hopes dreams cried happiness pure joy tonight guys means much wouldnt believe opening scene movie pretty incredible ive seen number scifi movies great special effects roommate looked opening sequence said plainly sensory overload plot movie pretty simple nice thing scifi movie lets audience figure technology instead wasting time subtly explain creatures movie interesting really good look two thirds way overall entertaining movie let againthe people love ones likely decimate heart cruelty malice indifference keep lowering expectations standards keep getting hurt one day ill learn im taking bullshit life hands fucking right fucking bullshit going end right fucking im done im done im done im done fucking iti fucking molested first grade teacher fucking years told teachers counslors princeable everbody thing teacher molested threatened told kill told police thing stop im older take pedophile skateboard lot thing im good want find bitch bring knife kill right spot maybe gouge eyes first slit throought stab neck run live small townand run commit sucicideit wont matter anyways treated shit wereever go school people call names cant talk people without getting stress try communicate people called pervertrapestpedophile im called im differentand reminds happend im nice guy friends everybody hates ive never known friends drumming church droped playing shitty drummer age churches music directors daughter wanted play cant talk girls without big chance trying kick balls teachers wont thing sorry anything make sense im done pain going soon hope everyminute bull shit painfull extreme stress amounts smallest social things tires active month berly eat moreim fucking sick living betrayed everybody ex fucking somone cheated best friends high school see joke hang one guy hes loser stoner everytime try make friends never text back leave read wrong im tired change others want accepted im alone parents see loser brother friends girls hes years younger im im tired living bullied friends high school ive always seen joke play nintendo watch spiderman hate life fuck homophobia likescame closet month ago cue closest friends drifited away im met hate resentment getting point dont want leave house leave bed part wants end dont endure anymore hatred yet another part scared anything moldy bread sixth grade make experiment bread brought bread friend offer bread reason took bread offered instead using end day bring little tupperware thing bread year bread got moldy know throw got till end year brought begining year ampxb pd sorry spelling mistakes english first language bruhento momento bruh moment bruhento momento br br must admit expecting something quite different first viewing cut last night though delighted unexpected australian horror gem true horror fan true come found cut best genre australia produced one great parodycomedy films latebr br concern mainstream audiences may pick lot comedic elements film overly clever application made laugh every turn trying fit every possible cliche horror genre certain intended humourhoping intended humourbr br course gorebr br use customised garden shears brilliance besides expected stabs slashes short huge amount variety creativity many violent deaths enough please even skeptics films worthbr br appearance kylie minogue short appearance molly ringwald another reason see film performances fantastic well simon bossell castle brilliant role jokey technicianbr br think movie one best horror products last couple years well beautiful satireparody toungueincheek till endbr br loved go see help please ok discord servers people talk minutes stop start talking bit later basically cycle need help moderating people conversation grows average member every day really help moderator start conversation dm interested goodbye peoplemy father died car crash im livig mom makeig prostitue bread milk morning today birthday went mcdonalds cup water im writig mcdonalds happy meal computer years old dont clean clothes name john im ending life tomorrow morning east pacific time ill jumping mcdonalds im writing im bored soooooo ask questions long theyre personal mystory school leaving ive school kid found better one im going different highschool big deal people hated entirely fault although barely anything happened wanted share one story school hosted breakfast kids home sometimes walk gf interesting thing every time walked cafeteria one cutoff hallway matter always pair group high schoolers making andor crying friends gf bet couple hall something honestly cant remember im tired hell right bet something around lines making sacred hall relationship went th december th grade never absence weird high schoolers break fuck tldr say hallway ton stupid teenagers made funny hell reason know die im going sleep one good memories old school wanted share thanks gold kind stranger thanks gold kind stranger tired skirt posts people saying keep super bowl meme thing war declared war skirt posts ideas win appreciated join fight new sudden change sexuality destroyed mentallyi incredibly infatuated women every possible way end february something happened lost attraction women seems place seem noticing males although male yet cause erection yet women easily turned sense know happened never masculine crushes anything youth teens experiment one time wanting try anal stimulation desperate horny time one cl hook ups even finish physical act found gross uncomfortable felt reverse bowel movement said experience turned anal girl either first last time anything considered seems suddenly sexuality changed know happened mental state declined tremendously getting women one things enjoyed sadly say much always happiest women hoped raise family girl within next years confidence issues women general years finally became successful dealing constant selfdoubt improved areas general sense selfesteem confidence feels everything torn thought though man nothing despite perceive noticing began gotten increasingly depressed point wishing dead waking last nights wishing somebody shoot head seems much valued took pride gone end honestly wish dead sit around day nothing go motions look back old photos women crushed cry feels heart torn become emotionally destroyed feeling intense anger small things thoughts wishing far lowest point wish end go much longer mcdonalds secrets former employee food probably touched ground ate dont use gloves anything hygiene everything frozen icecream machine broken one bothered clean takes long asf one wants say broken people drunk high working youre rude customer food violated gets without knowing source former employee maybe add even crazier things later anyone know time new attack titan episode comes really wan na watch idea comes im watching series funimation makes difference tipping pointso recently boyfriend broke premise know wants work dating months seemed come blue really fell months thought based communication style anything really know anymore often feel whats point mean im part much luck relationships really want build something someone whatever reason always seem push people away point rock bottomthis may long understand want read im m rental manager toyota drive acura tl amenities want make good money love job one semester away receiving associates computer information systems live nice place lot acquaintances aside main job club dj side im going mention dj dealership work sake people coming actually know meall say live north central massachusetts ive suffered depression many years count come realization reason gone relationship relationship looking happiness parents divorced period mentally conscious enough know whats going time impressionable now found many great relationships everything going perfecti find way fuck go looking trouble start arguments cheated seen people behind backsi hated knew going become second half relationship said done im alone sit cry regret avoided relationships sole reasonthen one day met fell love talkingdating awhile knew one planned remember rest life asking birthday march choice regret birthday july everyone supposed celebrating ill weeping march marked official start relationship things great ended back old ways cheated never forgave expect september year ended cheated back july regret every single day life ive gone pain ive lived car dealed drugs pay rent slept floors parking lots ive much want tell anyone fell family thankfully im back lives now lost met changed remember honestly really happy im talking oh wake stressed bills still put smile happy talking romantic novel notebook movie unicorns shitting rainbows type happy believe gone memories happiness replaying professional life decreasing work performance toyota dwindling im late work everyday simply engaged cut djing nonexistence maybe gigs month loving itnot barely hate hate booth seeing couples floor good time show good time torn inside ive neglecting car falling behind maintenance even cleaning grades gone draini passed assignments per class semester deans list gpa last semester nowi academic standing health falling lot cocaine drinking nonstopi drinking every single night left september discover amex mcvs cards running fuel selfdestruction ive hit rock bottom reddit first guys hear best friend know itat least best guy friend became real best friend started datingevery second magic went making fun romantic comedies chick flicks living one believe amazing felti found tonight hoping never find exclusively talking new guywithin month one good female friends whos always tried looking broke news tonight lot connections lot underground people asked picking gun really much thought acted many times leave short voicemail brief point park car driveway blow brains information come light inclined follow honestly sick waking hangovers waking exhausted groggy going bed night tears waking tears time let go come close faking smile im drunk want driveway let know driven im scared hurt long take bullet cease bodily functions whats afterlife know plan wait execute iti getting car soon money buy counter drug lethal taken high amounts getting car within months wait already written note phone counting days stop suffering depression decided upgrade pc month old lmao got rtx expensive asf got new w power supply got new cpu cooler cause want one lcd screen new case fans ones got ugly got cause matched fans aio cooler realize use different fans build half pc parts lmao im going back real school month country decided good idea go back school month real school online happy im america id go honestly know good time yet idk go anyway wish luck hope catch covid anyone uncertain future extent scares yes already know uncertainty part human sometimes think going good life good job girlfriend person fixed superficial things looks simply end genetic pool may best smartest strongest know thought future depares makes feel conflicted things happend around ad fact time feel cold way f feel cold inside idk one experiensed something well way hope maybe give advice something ampxb srry things weird dosent make sense bc eng second language wrote somethingbeen long time wrote something really wanted feelings going anything soon death mind constantly ways want cease exist thanks reading dh easy whether believe stop cease hard part baggage comes death includes much involuntary emptying bowels hear tv movies dealing shit pants others deal something take lightly hell first couple years life loved ones actually praised really trouble dealing ripple effect comes leaving make jump calm water death water quickly heals waiting next permanent guest waves escape jump cause damage tsunami make landfall living friends family brothers parents daughter caught guard see massive wave hurling towards hard part death hurt heartache others stems decision take game token board pass go matter many people judge collecting sweet hurting people never strong suit mine never hurtful comeback time never throw punch couldnt pain someone purpose leaving difficult dont want hurt anyone dont know keep hurting daily even upkeeps loved ones happiness really want enter sea death water droplet taking trace presence leaving wake hurt others around whats simplest way make u happy title im curious think pulled first allnighter uh basically took nap pm couldnt sleep currently uh oh school starts days wheeeee sleep fucked yeah parents antivaxx yes need help im killing soonill kill soon thats promise truly mean see go anymore even good life good people world full sad unfair things im good thing asset world another one films remember staying late watch tv scaring crap impressionable age dooming thereafter life horror movie obsession great movie stands living proof indeed realistic effects cgibr br set isolated base antarctica version seems almost pick original version thing another world left american scientists discover decimated norwegian base miles distant everyone dead half charred remains unidentifiable thing left smolder outside compound might offer answers may happened thing brought back american base late scientists realize alive lethal thing thaws killing anyone anything crosses path absorbing making whoever whatever wants film turns brilliant paranoia piece everyone suspect anyone thing one trusts anyone anymore gone strength security found human beings band together spite differences battle monster group splinters fear rules supreme thingbr br gore effects absolutely amazing messily realistic done without dogs head splitting open banana peel thats animal lover picky kill humans want leave kitties puppies alone sanity reason disintegrate rapidly one one humans taken shapeshifting alien power film lies paranoia although liked original version prefer one real threat lies within scarier fact seen easily detected forced hiding wrath huge results horrificbr br one carpenters best films right fog halloween actors give strong realistic performances special effects powerful stand main character film something lover horror genre miss comments please itll worth time need comments bother anymorei really know know ill see happiness cant stop looking self useless awful human doubts anybody miss ive dealt bipolar disorder seems worse worse manic episodes make go insane cant slow im angry everything im depressed struggle even bit happiness continously try improve make feel better tried lose weight start workout routine soon depression came back went right back habits binge eating drugs know take life granted know happy everything seems grim im starting lose hope someday ill probably drug addiction everything looks shit everything used love tried medicated everybody im either autistic im normal teen although see classmates getting angry nothing scared inanimate objects talking let lust take love oh boy even start well gone shit regarding relationshipsso lets call ex abigail around three elder trust say fell love even kidding happend well one day confessed bam dating already best friends hung everyday park talked lifesometimes life sometimes china become world leader coming years basically talk days without getting bored well loved every bit loved month datingwe first kiss always bit awkward didnt help first time lmao nonetheless enjoyed thats began sweet moment ecstasy pure joy kiss someone love incomparable retrospect bit soonfast forwards weeks full making outher apartment mine top parents good friends visit practically whenever wantedi talking full rd base realised got addicted itnow horny teen uk sux go way actionnow say whats problem right well problem getting addicted person dating rather act getting action love became lesser anything lust overcame love herit felt good used toobut turns liked act obviously naive self told oh guys together means love right wrongi horny realize much good person slowly losingafter first months remember nothing relationshipno talkingno hanging constant making outand wellthe day came feared obviously cuz older go college firstnow love never grew lessit lust grew strongerso said know even though going bout still keep relationshipwe love whats lil distance eh thats started long distance thought well diffcult love someone stay away still love em problem love fell short front lust week lefti realized felt emptywe talk muchnot anyway even enoughi always wanted time caring anywaybut realized talk much started looking friends friends anyone talk freely actually care know well graduated next gradeand saw one hotter classmatesand straight went huhshe pretty nice datebut looking back realized much scum wasthe reason happen lustbecause well moreover care someone lovedi wanted boneand thats abandoned lovei started talking less frequently started talking friend loti legit became simp girl sexi wanted fill void created stupidity boning someone elsenow remember want current relation end either wanted bone well thankfully lil bitch never really advanced friendi happy didnt relationbut fuck enough texted abigail outta blue told herheythis aint gona work us left herthe fucking irony situation still leave first thing replied heyare ok want calland looking back realize much moron leave said said think us fight lot really along anymore leave itbut still somehow managed convince break upbut disagreement little topic used bring topic breaking well started crywell much wanted run away heri see cryi couldnt well continued months finally december decided end iti guess matter much love person tolerate much bullshit eh well might scum least know needed study well getting admission good high schoolso decided drop ideas girl study seriously fortunately exams got time lock imposed country well plenty time think everything happend happen future well quarantine realized knowsex aint everythingi blind lust see love regret everything done hurt saint womani realized much human trash probably deserved sexless quarantineactually funny thing thati even think enjoy sex anymorei guessi disturbed nowdisturbed easily one wrong things wrong reasons finally realized realized years agothat sex product lovewhen truly love someone wish physical things thembut guess young naive consider took joke blatantly left girl nothing short perfect supporting getting action tldri human piece trasha scum may decided improve gon na go back hurt enough infact taking break sort relationships probably wont date someone find someone see settling buy gift im online black friday shopping european want gift suggestions deserve heck yeah selfcare expensive game consoles phones stuff got ideas know live without wanting diei made pact try last attempt keep going realize know ive waiting kill ish years ive mind thought graduation getting relationships career choices anything never imagined future live purpose surviving many others written wonderful documentary list chapters anyone interested new germany distant war september may france falls mayjune alone may may barbarossa junedecember banzai japan way usa desert north africa stalingrad june february wolfpack red star soviet union whirlwind bombing germany september tough old gut lovely day tomorrow burma home fires britain inside reich germany morning june august occupation holland pincers august march genocide nemesis germany februarymay japan pacific february july bomb februaryseptember reckoning need someone hack account pay made gmail dont remeber password need fortnite account back becuase hacked pay oh fucking godnobody life understands living abusive household fucking hate shit im going kill tonightfound ex cheating mo ths breakup feel ugly worthless im going slit wrists tonight die deserve monkey balls 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thinks im sad overreacting ive suffered depression years ive gotten really good hiding feelings cant anymore putting facade everything going well energy consuming much begin really need help feel cant keep going anymore black rain superb film watch dvds currently sold much apiece dvd terrible tiny nonanamorphic image blown resolutionkilling size acceptable sound primitive dvd absolutely rereleasedbr br btw laserdisc vhs black rain vhs huge step upward dvd laserdisc far away best picture allsubtitles black sharp big picture simple good soundtrack buy vhs avoid preposterous prices scam artists demanding fastest way kill seriously whether want socialism capitalism become taken extremes robs us civil liberties liberty internet thats see people holding hands anymore want given free travel promised never got fastest way kill parents treat property rather individual seems pretty apparent want die already feel one big experiment run us see react superior cant explain go sick many times go doctors healed one suffered theres new channel youtube want see gain traction channel justfixitlater really cool guys checked broke system really wanting pushups day muster motivation solution push ups right push ups ten separate times right worked literally told youre push ups sets ten worked pushups alot stronger think start small race keep grinding pay promise feel peaceive always planned ending thought kind made emotional many times earlier life now feel peace feel anxiety swirls around tree hurricane passed think now calms anything beautiful fantasy ive thinking now think im pansexual im still figuring tho wanted see guys thought cuz im gon na support family hours cried cried cried cried cried nothing lost dog today already friendless cried cried cried cried boys clan today marks start recruitment boys clan go far wide making people mad tik tok instagram twitter message ive hit rock bottomm ish ive suffering lot depression lately ive depressed month now time stopped going office cant basic things without breaking crippling anxiety ive good dad mom sister feeling good enough matter anyone world close friends anyone talk right fucked state mind cant bear misery living wanted put rest part wants run away live nomad without human contact become saint part wants die took amount rat poison two weeks ago apparently fucking enough swallowed tablets fucking aspirin last week still nothing happened know now access firearms anything little bit easier thinking stabbing heart sometime soon carry living ive nothing live ive hobbies anything help distract ive tried various things thought liked found fad someone really totally hate strength totally rip head apart two know writing either probably place talk film notable shown much shown incredible poverty sicily th century gave way th life style made people dream new world america mancuso family live place even hamlet stone cottage set amid harsh unyielding stones country offer even single blade green grass opening sequence sees mancuso males scrambling barefoot craggy hillside stones mouth offer shrine top exchange sign set new world remain shows life aboard liner huddled masses indeed yearning breathe free conditions ellis island journey still interrogated examined prove fitness enter america shown ship longshot indeed shot identify large oceangoing liner shown anything identify america clich view new york harbour statue liberty ellis island anywhere country perhaps remarkable shot one camera crane looking hundreds people jammed together slowly almost imperceptibly two thirds people screen left begin separate third screen right realize left actually aboard ship right dock powerful statement society fragmented theres strong documentary feel throughout though following actual ship full immigrants even though carefully scripted clearly amalgam typical familiesconditions time almost nothing happening dramatic terms popcorn brigade multiplex rest us fine film indeed bored need things need distractions helpso gf bipolar adhd loses interest lot things bored quarantine help much im assuming mixed episode learning spanish rn might bored quick said bored considering redflag know internet anything fun interesting learn pls write absolutely point existence find reason purpose whatever fuck prisoner cursed house fucking family even became prisoner dark thoughts head many issues physically emotionally change alone literally friends anymore even one obviously familys absolute worst stay even simply live pain becoming unbearable everyday genuinely tired even living anymore breathing suffering teenagers young adults stop astrology bs might unpopular opinion think people stop basing decisions impressions others formation stars born astrology nonsense correlation stars ones personality might fun still keep laughs giggles level rejectingavoiding somebody leo something level ignorant people make blood boil anyway thanks coming tedtalk im gunna die youngive always know id die young im really thinking taking bunch sertraline overdosing thing holding back family feel death key truly happy hate hate situation hate everything want put misery please please help feel devastatedi feel burdened mistakes countless traumas always completely alone literally raised tv never saw parents mom working dad didnt took responsibility left grew completely alone confused tried take life drug induced psychotic episode front family caused ptsd ocd lost hair pieces exhausted always alone completely exhausted stupidity cant stand longer always tried best person possible life went hell completely abandoned work direction dont want continue living dont balls take life cant keep ittalk abuse ahead guess cant go four years shithole town cant stay college know many horrible people live close want fresh start cant cant afford leave cant live anymore cant live town painful memories im sick passing restaurants im sick hearing name casual conversation worry running father town somewhere living town everyone either ignores treats scum im sick fucking idiot cant tell directions talk anything hate live town person assaulted fucking school bathroom felt class hate constantly hear four years leave college even want live long boyfriend talked got kitten whos extremely attached thought id able start start transitioning new beginning im seeing dim tunnel ahead god damn cant keep im sorry formattedwritten well feel im going vomit guts one talk already worry everyone life enough somewhere im probably dramatic really cant live way four years hoped buried wedding tuxi know ill never married family really wants see damn tux wedding reception thing dont plan even staying alive long enough happen id piece happiness inevitable demise voices keep telling ill dead even waste someones time even giving love chance teenager id actually go outside drink fun bang chicks guys sit net thread trying clout farm take long hard look please youll thank years ive come accept idea killing myselfive always bit scared act number excuses go think ive finally reached breaking point depressing overwhelming thoughts intense cant go day without contemplating much better things stop existing gotten point ill sitting best friend talking think able go shooting seems simple easily buy gun whatever need now cant live way one second longer desperation relief resolved pain put others makes feel guilty care anymore cant go cycle forever matter time feel waiting runners highthe last months one hell ride ive never hurt damaged unmotivated move ive stuck pain wanted end bad moment pain according therapist see way ive days coldness knife skin calms ive days run oxygen stop crying ran third marathon couple days ago best time went slow steady prepared running someone kept pace handle stuck exert let everything went even slower uphills enjoyed downhills kept going last kms believe endured believe stuck life happy happy happy strength endure pain happy support ive received im going keep slow steady pace life ill go life one day time im letting everything go happiness sadness accepting control whats behind let deter nothing stop sure plot oldboy seems great movies days amazingly shocking highbudgethyped waybr br spin kick dramacomedy group people decide pour hearts tae kwon regardless expect film guaranteed feel moved work pain expectations characters force experience though comedic times many moments characters rendered beautifully theres old guard character takes things seriously hoodlum turned goodguy wants second chance life meek teamsubstitute die happy life many wellrounded characters problems importantly hopes dreams plot goals movie simple aspects movie merely highlight development characters overcome personal interpersonal struggles br br short film leave feeling fresh determined satisfied going rough patch anyone chat atm anyone talk right now allim yo f go details wouldnt worth life isnt worth anymore everything thought knew lie cant trust anybody anymore heart physically hurts emotional pain im right im scared go anything never go back felt fucked things life happened wish restart button life band dropped song made bet bassist streams end week dollars depends help httpsyoutubejinemkwyyk finally insert funny first saw movie little kid fell love sets breath taking script damn right hilarious sons thousand fleasbr br always shown tv late night really early morning woke started tv companys need show little respect put prime time sunday everyone chance view fine workbr br worst part life feeling useless life feeling useless turnfor long ive felt reason live driving purpose go day day immersing media made forget empty life felt empty felt went years met best friend met life seemed light never years went went lot asked said yes couple years years long distance btw come realization need nothing whenever needs emotional help try might cant help never right things say never right things insanely clear longer wanted needed helpful without im back empty life feel creeping way back im coming conclusion needs nothing good intentions love thought love something might made long around guide want able despite good intentions hurt needs im incapable swallow pain feel responsibilities give attention simply enough im man nothing good intentions actions carry say road hell paved good intentions ampxb college im great school ive always killed academics college hard though felt useless push hard motivation im sure thats classes genuinely feel useless either way adds feeling life pointless plan buying motorcycle think fun love sense freedom seems random theres reason bring buy necessary gear wear time make sure bike always running well plan buying bike thats fast beginner hope die without intentionally killing nothing thing kept alive girl longer needs think im simply living borrowed time thats getting feelings actually found subreddit looking im useless want die catharsis appreciate anyone reading hope well helloas type one already thought ending least weeks im living family point fact want family pick remains ive ended ive lying friends getting help feel inadequate helped ive always independent ive always one shoving life advices think deserved helped anyone honest want bother feel right now im bother everyone ive wreckless heart mind body past months im reaching limit hope find something live bit longer surviving maybe im dramatic really know really trying hardest tomorrow school plan writing scp article paper may try hand putting article site wife took pillshey wife took bunch pills told friend told emergency department now idea first time done feel everything changed know support need im trappedpost put thread redflag ive semi suicidal last months fuck throwaway venting grew poor abused situation improved began trying better place spent dreaming american dream years gone educated impoverished child college educated man wife house career car hate career hate house fond paying ass car keep house career wife met intelligent beautiful person selfish opened relationship thing still regret time though got caught guys neglected never wanted hurt tell ok sleeps guys needed love tried tell way accepted lost love life idiocy time started dating one friends rules asked friend approached ok fell love almost instantly went almost thing children incredible amounts things common first time life someone understood process making happy almost entirely destroyed stark contrast understood first time rest life left shambles top told wife fell love woman ive trying work know id happier new woman believe wife happier man wife putting blame situation cheating calls one wrong wrong people felt isolated alone found top everything house signed father law worth less bought cant sell loss cant abandon terrible thing father law stuck house want career keep house car loan job check engine light come today god fucking damnit wife blaming joint failing marriage gf torn apart role debt almost every item list debt financial advisers told wise decision debt told take chase dreams dreams told finally give happiness one day fucking feel im societal mistake contribute take world hate life see solution cause others pain throw top psychological disorders cant help waiting list weeks long one disorders incredible empathy loved ones literally feel everyones pain situation know much wifes heart breaking losing husband time know gf heart breaking first time life someone understood rape abuse poverty torture went recoiled disgust thought ugly person married man contributing ruining marriage want everyone love happy making happy make others unhappy making happy cause others unhappiness turn make unhappy thing day day least painful option wearing cry silently desk many days wake arrive late work fantasize killing instead living another day perpetual state impossible crunch time work show work ass everyday company may go cant even take time become clear either abilities understanding one knows situation incredibly clear people misunderstand want life love others something great standing way handle need help cant help everyone tell lawyer gym hitting etc etc im stuck hate life hate society live hate way government works hate understand screwed want die want look wife tears eyes begs fix cant part problem things deal blaming gf existing neglect hate want kill hurt others much others hurting afraid without help willingness endure seriously compromised already seriously considered instances attempted redflag failed know im capable time im afraid im much smarter year old fail emoji mean u title filler forty forty footer filler filler filler filler filler filler forty forty filler filler posting every letter english alphabet meet shrek entire alphabet day fourteen n productive killing gym got great job none matters take pain every second every day die purpose without killing self serious answers take anymore thought family wealth dads business actual turns dad gambling addiction mad poker skills made m mother convinced help lost bought nice house started business money invested everything panned addiction reason family worth m endim trapped im gon na rope hang way ive completely lost hope planning ask girl live substantial distance away see twice week event agrees go relationship work im btw many triestoday good day yesterday spent consciousness bed even knowing got wednesday night th drinks mom drinks afterwards watched show woman jumped death reason made want die wandered around house looking pills came benzos oxys ritalin plan take hot bath pop pills slit wrist box cutter everything readyi sat bathtub foelr trying talk took one pill oxys idk took anything cant remember drank vodka thats everything went quiet closed eyes next thing knew wearing someones tshirt shorts im bed know got im embarrassed im work im embarrassed sorry explain cant wanted die thats thats best explanation come know still sometimes im embarrassed seems thing now im fine im happy reason minute overpowering voice head telling need die need goes away fast came im happy fine except times agree go away gets louder demanding screaming theres option tried fail know going back voice going back keep ignoring dont happens now obviously stop drinking thats trigger guess worst part family cant help feeling way guilt feel side awful guess younger brothers ones found clock morning completely incoherent fuck happened big sister deal see way im scared im scared happening seem quite control used next time keep ignoring every single day ignore push voice far cant hear anymore eventually claws way back screaming time go thats goes finally cave start come plan course fail stop voice gets loud keep trying first want part keep telling need die secondly hard time ignoring need help controlling find fucking know dont know everytime theres quiet hear voice telling ive strong long seems im slipping recently im losing grip strength keep pushing thru episodes thats fucking terrifying im even scared anymoreall need find highest building kind disappointed feeling rest life gone waste ive failed someone prob god dunno assholes know really wanted still probably grumpy old baronet happily unmarried decides send three grownup illegitimate children provide home manor surprise finds bonding uninhibited american daughter find satisfaction new role bachelor fatherbr br film gives robust performance marked arrival mgm elderly sir c aubrey smith soon one hollywoods valuable character actors great hooked nose beetling brows sir aubrey looked every inch part duke general statesman play often acknowledged leader british community hollywood sir aubrey champion game criquet southern california remain much demand studios town right death br br films topbilled star marion davies best remembered today mistress media mogul william randolph hearst chatelaine hearst castle fabulous residence west coast actually talented pretty comedienne years hearst attempted make queen mgm production company huge bungalowdressing room studio already several queens dressler garbo shearer crawford eventually moved warner bros miss davies gets chance joke clown scenes sir aubrey entertainingbr br love interest played ralph forbes handsome young british actor starting find good films trail silent days ended qualities major stardom sadly celebrity come ray milland making one first screen appearances halliwell hobbes doris lloyd appear advantage hello everyone wanted address something might need hear right sometime future wanted talk grooming recently heard stories someone grooming minors wanted tell everyone situation tell adult know struggles may going telling adult best bet dont trusted adults contact always police maybe even teacher counselor best situation matter thats say good day zero two pretty good anime character im actually sad dead tbh wish lived longer ngl french people im learning french grammar really bad swear wan na practice native speaker anyone wants reddit saying new notifications reality theres ventfantasizing redflag due pessimistic yet realistic imo views men feel im delaying inevitableits long want read thank least might make feel little better want scream growing many girls belief point meet wonderful man marry children childhood never wavered thought saw parents love always true strong values towards love intimacy working team together hard times life teens still remained true feelings believed knew id kiss frogs found prince knew cheating men lies actions without compassion sympathy empathy thought stuff happened troubling childhoods missing parents severe trauma knew feelings towards men stronger now ive never pessimistic accepting reality ive cheated every relationship ranging months years ive constant receiving end actions made feel never enough partner men im still comment im perfect blah blah insert compliment problem finally firm believer man loves always wander women point theyre better another shiny pretty object theyre infatuated moment dont care affects long run im young attractive female great body end committing redflag positive everyone say idea thought perfect life im educated lawyer beautiful confident etc let explain want sexy someone deserves feel sexy confident feel confident never felt insecure body wasnt beautiful man though constantly compared females every female menu instagram tiktok feel worthless feel less every single time instead someone paying attention beautiful sexy woman front constantly wondering need new trick something keep someones attention truly sad exhausting even exhausting continue come crawling back begging forgiveness take back still two exs contacting sending things house apologize havent relationship sex two years online dating even depressing many men asking cum face suck fart ass starts effect im relationship person core ive never one night stand know much family means family everything reason still family reason cats committed redflag run visions head parents sisters reactions find garage floor car cant bear put pain keeps pain fantasize redflag almost daily now differs sometimes days entirely think every time walk room think corner granite countertop nice hit head hard became unconscious im lucky hit hard enough bled die nice look christmas lights wonder strength hold body dangle ceiling staircase railing im walking stairs wonder stood top took deep breath let fall forward stairs enough falling backwards hit head sufficiently found thing matters family thing keeping earth family need husband children need reason awake live love loving someone everything love providing someone cleaning someone things someone cant way world now think better remove world entirely settle havent decided timeline end see possibility point conclusions men changing fact longer im alive evidence accumulate solidify conclusions hasnt man yet prove know everyone tell seek therapy ive going last five years see psychiatrist well hard therapy therapist tell much know much know morals lie keeps telling find someone dont know much mentality take even one man cheat simply settle eaten apart inside ruin rest make regret committing sooner thanks reading im making soup guys welcome bowl floorstheres apartment building know thats fifty stories tall sky bridge kinda thing th th floor open public im scared fall either height stories take full five seconds im afraid failing beautiful building want ruin things residents future visitors wonder whatll repercussions wish easier way kill hello lads im bored hell anyone wan na talk make playlists yea spend free time kdsjjdjsjdkshsalfnshghh saw someone diei waiting train suddenly middleaged woman jumped track engine hit nothing one committed redflag front least hundred people ill kill tomorrowi friends im unable pay attention anything interest makes impossible perform well school cant anything productive waste time needlessly scrolling internet genuine interests spend time front computer ive struggled severe social anxiety years caused isolate society detrimental mental health dread waking everyday im extremely depressed see disgusting pathetic incompetent worthless excuse human walked planet think world colorless place spend hours daydreaming live fictional world full adventure day goes without thinking id better dead today useless self finally decided ill commit redflag tomorrow ill head deep forest hang ive thought killing never courage thought devastated family much tried change im strong enough im exhausted want free endless suffering ignore video listen song httpsyoutubeslafdhjk wish whither away nothjng motivation desire live anymore anyone live either energy even try anymore angry feel hollow hurt even feel anything now 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please want stop many years sadnessi sexually assaulted two weeks th birthday guy high school year spring formal event raped limo dance surrounded friends cringe calling friends time life proclaimed christians nonetheless passed back seat section limo monster raped glass bottle sleep drinking alcohol probably rd time life came feeling bottle cap ripping insides startled mortified finding strength kick remember lot happened remainder night remember kicked people limo took notice something happening someone got driver pull guy raped fled friends tried running confront told stereotypical predator line tell anyone ill fucking kill memories night remember waking blood bedsheets next morning result mutilating terrified planned pretend nothing happened ashamed embarrassed violated distraught next monday school felt everyone knew least heard version happened spread story around school asked rape bottle relentless bullying harassment received peers broke everyday went school felt unsafe targeted received death threats several male students disgusting assaulted deserved die child robbed innocence ive never recovered doubt will recently learned married newborn baby girl gets move live life without repercussions im lucky day without selfharm years grief pain isolation cant anymore want live tainted life must see borrow neighbors kid see one easily one best animationcartoons released longtime took movies antz whole new level mistake two movie although principle movies plot similiar go enjoy heck theyre non binary refer theydy friend identified lesbian identifying dyke kinda complicated word know much strange tough dont know feel im almost sixteen btw flair stuck mean guy text one day stopped texting next day thanked friend even though work sent message started talking messages bruh mean maybe want see texted first know never im scared reach show attention pain caused im cool friends want one always checking challenged see text first lmao miss putting effort text one right minds give others ternion apparently theres new award called turn something anyone right minds spend random stranger never met life cusp dreams coming true band got label support place girlfriend dog thought one thing another fix least day whether one intrusive thought flying easily swatted away mosquito consuming mist know stop know forever many people absolutely fucked know tying live stake usefulness backfire one day today tomorrow might one day know live make know anymore needed type perfect paper thought go away overthinking worrying kill methis worst thing im facing stop damned tryingive wanted bad long im good im barred every profession ive wanted im bipolar im stuck half degree way afford finishing minimum wage jobs require psych evals im poor mentally ill alone means every bit related legislature us bent tried medicare denied kids apparently makes worth saving im becoming inclined agree obama care still expensive free program area mental health closed case warning reason im left sell body parts afford fucking healthcare hey donate enough plasma afford least maintenance healthcare need god damn doctors note say im stable enough donate guess cant god fucking damn doctor im wits end im done bpdnos wins im taking life husband goes work im clearly worth trouble taxpayer money keep alive ill nip gets worse hopeless worse offeverything worse constant sadness loneliness fuck everything ugly fuck much coward fucking kill redflag hotlines even want meive got friends family care ive disowned parents grandparents im gay theyd abuse badly physically mentally emotionally cant handle brain fucking broken know deal shit im barely s future already limited either minimum wage slave working hours week hours pay redflag university miles away home family getting funding cut school rent utilities told absolutely warning need find job now family going come ive looking job ive literally applied everywhere shithole little town even follow calls keep getting jerked around long find job start working evicted apartment ive done everything ive sold shit ds games tv computer hard drives toys ive applied denied government assistance ive begged family nonstop take back none worked top ive got singular person gives shit even thousand miles apart ive got friends locally family cares ive got prospects job car bike cant leave heres best part even start job right fucking now im going enough pay rent time late fees keep adding theres single thing top ill stuck rest shitty miserable life able afford pay tuition shit financial support still need repay student loans im taking credits fall cant take credits fall unless im working hours week cant find job hire redflag hotlines even want talk got put hold three today hung minutes wait time im even worth trouble fucking strangers probably paid kinda shit fucking see ya im done cant shit im sick wanted im sorry sir whos going left alone giant disappointment people love anything new fact really one thing ive consistently good whole life im going go attempt hang belt probably fail bye reddit trigger reddit ok pls show mercy think people relate feeling trapped tortured flaws society interest nonsense required interact societyconnecting supposed help becoming difficult find reasonsways feel isolated humankind draining enough even express thoughts words consider accurate enough hopefully maneuver empty void internet space grasp strangers attention universe connections first requirements hopes revitalize society world yet continue fall isolation another episode things went southim sure using acting anxiety depression way talk okay doesnt want talk shes one reason still trying makes everything better wherein pain doesnt really goes away gets easier carry whenever shes around even didnt know already suicidal opened first time told someone felt comfortable telling wan na talk bad dont want bother tell going right now might want talk cant think reason pity dont thought dont want draw attention friends really good hiding feel make happy comfort fix problems whilst feel ending driving somewhere theres people harm hit tree sucks feeling various reasons past explain words see point purpose life tried ending last night sadly still woke ending writing boil hot dogs eat pot immediately theyre done stove still thats everyone man hard dvd come find region spanish import expensivebr br worth well yes much masterpiece film making though directed curt siodmak credits imdbcom read robert dvd credits list curt couple familiar figures murder mysteries elisha cook jr thomas gomez decadelong curiosity movie finally satisfiedbr br essentially respected selfcontained engineer alan curtis stood estranged wife finds new york bar two show tickets pocket woman strange hat stool next politely invites join musical review accepts little gloomily mopey bartender gives eye leavebr br show tempestuous star notices lady audience wearing hat erupts offstage anger drummer band cook leers silent lady gets response curtis takes woman home asks name give want know shed longfellow devotee shed said something ships pass nightbr br okay curtis goes home find wife murdered absence head police officer gomez turns da alibi phantom lady one seems remember bartender latina star cab driver al alp drummer lady disappeared impossible dig upbr br curtis convicted sentenced die inspector gomez thought things decided probably innocent nobody brain make stupid story joins curtiss loving secretary ella raines reinvestigating case informallybr br visit supposed witnesses ominous bartender run car perhaps accidentally hes picture hottempered latina left show closed uncooperative ignorant source hat anyway elisha cook jr strangled real murderer featured scene pounds drums improvised jazz group sweaty face assumes expression suggest intense focus rather monstrous orgasmic insanity eyeballs roll ceiling mouth gapes hammering becomes frenzied laughed loudbr br nobodys performance outstanding professional enough thomas gomez always reliable best performance though probably franchot tone hes real murderer fakes alibi hes reserved artistic even faints hes decorous know put precisely tone seems thinking well simply acting part alan curtis innocent engineer near zero kelvin scale belongs b picture br br know considered classic really basic murder mystery cornell woolrich good others siodmaks direction sensitive man gets run hat winds gutter water running around use shadows quietly effectivebr br glad got hate myselftoday im goin g friends house goes back home viist parents im saaing night work whether want start dating dont hes coming back said friends made depressed suicidal dont know todo wish fucing dead im piece shit anyway im sick hurting people hate sorry writing yself mcuh id ont know feel fucking bad want bad im afraid toive honestly shittiest time life things got complicated want bore reddit sob story seems every time hope something always pulls everytime convince make things work shit happens fall deeper hole know people going tell ive heard enough want badly pain feel instead everyday ripping apart ruining friendship connection family work cant take everytime convince im done last possible moment bail feel way cant commit want loved live guilt try tell understand feels help convince fought roblox guy fought got salty basically long story short kid called furry called smutt writer saying weird stuff friend internet got arguement caused us end dueling game called vertigo roblox settle wether furry smutt writer called rematch saying miscounted judge guy watching us said rematch pretty sure sure rematch got annoyed kicked discord group alongside judge guy atleast im furry came bisexual parents today think might track first girlfriend im sure tuesday hour convo girl agreed longest fun convo weve im sure yet anyway think decent chance end dating im sure yall think maybe pain help someonethis going quite long post im really sure expect perhaps moderation perhaps trolls perhaps genuine questions id amazed anyone ends reading start finish goes probably say details might particularly difficult people read especially youve thought redflag around six months ago six months ten days precise exgirlfriend broke decision pretty mutual time wed unhappy within pretty short period changed mind didnt want anymore unfortunately change onesided today together first month break tried keep mind end speaking optimistic time apart contrition mistakes made ideas fix problems led us point us back together couple days first time saw break started asking question couldnt rectify situation jest answer always probably kill time didnt take seriously knew joking hindsight think beginning kind desensitisation idea causing death im sure anyone reading imagine idea killing probably quite uncomfortable didnt really feel anything first time met things went really badly probably soon end conversation found stood side road unable stop crying control breathing thing think time make feeling stop saw bus coming decided step front made decision able kind control breathing crying bit less stepped edge road bus went around corner id found position optimism work things point time nothing seemed important even worth living ended speaking text night got hope back still chance actually fix things feeling carried next couple weeks back mind kept thinking things couldnt resolved going follow kill week half christmas spoke hopes dashed sure nothing done found unable stop crying barely able breath time happened couple hundred metres away river decided going jump able control back combination design railing people constantly passing lack strength eating three days prevented jumping tried climb sent goodbye text wasnt able railing ended developing conversation knew trying trying change mind decided listen give chance anyone stop person nothing said changed mind hanging phone decided everything make cold possible fall asleep hoped wouldnt wake fact im typing means things didnt go plan spoke christmas agreed meet see happened told worried shed week convinced moment madness wasnt something really done didnt mean mindset completely shifted beginning concerned make happy wanted back cost thats say intent kill night insincere things started happening think part hoping shed give things another try reason save life realised week thinking virtually nothing couldnt claim love someone thats realised happiness important part hinged worry ended seeing almost every weekend first couple months year many moments things good optimistic moving right direction couple weekends row cancelled plans last minute second one called asked really going said seeing ended feeling crap couple days said leave alone didnt anymore midway conversation feel crying breathing problems coming hung phone point certain nothing started planning kill derailed texting half hour later asking talk weeks point none friends family knew bad things gotten first told friends feeling eventually told gone beyond thinking redflag speaking counsellor weeks point largely due fear locked hadnt completely honest far suicidal ideation gone hadnt told anyone work manager knew personal issues counselling sessions true extent issue never something made clear make matters worse started job four days aforementioned bus incident ive found difficult concentrate work im consumed idea killing employment seems fairly unimportant youre going die soon preforming badly work reached point decided tell someone bad things resign opening work lot support theyve offered make reasonable adjustments possible suppose positive thinking wouldnt helpful relationship mended found unemployed longer suicidal last spoke ex made two plans kill one reason another neither came fruition things stand ive proposed ex meet speak covid drama passed lockdown rules eased given may time soon told feel rushed deciding either way still feel much hope moving forward need remove life way think killing suppose purpose partly write everything feel good anyone curious know feels suicidal state mind able ask questions want able answer questions whenever ive watched videos listened advice deal suicidal thoughts ive found doesnt really resonate way lot people tedtalks seem felt doesnt match initially made feel even weirder although dont hold much hope want able help someone may feel feelings exist outside typical suicidal narrative ill try explain bit thoughts maybe answer questions comments anyone raises ive symptoms depression long remember ive always managed stay top things now never considered redflag recently dont know anyone killed im sure people tell need cut life completely start moving advice everyone know given problem times past six months havent wanted kill wished dead times feeling optimistic chance completely cutting mean optimism reason kill recognise kind feeling dependency healthy basis relationship counsellor explains life bottom boat compartments analogous different interests life friendships career family hobbies etc one floods whole boat doesnt sink compartments fine continue analogy feel though compartments arent separated well one flooded spilled others build separation need drain flood start work might make sense anyone plain terms feel though need relationship back give motivation start putting safety net sorts place break dont find back ideally wed back together break recognise definitely possibility first months kept recently told friends speaking counsellor told people work recently referred psychiatrist million different cards crisis helplines theres shortage people speak contrary may seem im really sensitive person dont feel need sugarcoat questions advice bored bored bored bored guys im hella bored idea pissing im sitting bed stuck charger waiting girl snap back hotter usual late september im sweating thats fun ive already watched youtube netflix hulu played among us listened music masturbated im officially things cant think anything creative brain feels squished grape helllllpppppppp autismaspergers really death sentenceas autist never able happy normal life autistics unemployed never able careers autistic men die without even one relationship start finish autism redflag rate x general populations everyone thinks okay discriminate autistics nothing good disorder nothing change way born never find love never able connect others retarded disorder better luck next life guess go asking girl without mother knowing swear god give bro young slap internet wan na know future use m anybody want chat ps im shy english sorry typing errors suffer major depressionredflagfibromyalgia wrote example feel average day people mental illness understand hollowed quite cover feeling inside shell millions raw nerve endings feeling everything brushes everything raw mental physical pain incredibly hard stay grounded well maybe helped someone elseid think care people despite dwindling friend circle read zero today cutting everyone weekend ive thanked frequently recently helping people cared make decisions gain perspective lives old friends best friends ex girlfriends business associates bartenders even helped friend vote last week realize ive drunk nine days straight feel something now ill hurt others ive taken precautions ive deleted contacts ive deleted real social media communicate people whose phone numbers remember thought cancelling cell service protect wish hyper cognizant surroundings even im completely plastered wish combination drugs take leave completely functional totally disassociated able comprehend putting gun back head bad idea rather feel hesitation pulling trigger hope instantaneously ive posted afraid necessarily pain idea lingering want want done completely believe afterlife im relatively sure chemical impulses brains stop want complete surprise completely instantaneous woahh eta changed said eta wasnt rd says tmr put bucket list im moving less year im making list things wan na w friends suggestions carl brashear cuba gooding jr born sharecroppers deep south joins navy whereupon tells father back father gives old radio brashear leaves navy bus valuable thing unemotional father taught never quit recommendation white commander powers boothe admires drive guts gets sent navy diving school bayonne nj endures harassment pals uniform trainer chief navy master diver billy sunday robert de niro commanding officer called pappy hal holbrook almost many loose screws old car want make drop prejudice quite fiercethe dangers diving prove setback loses leg due accident board ship despite setback tells wife train achieve objective help billy sunday now joined commiseration sufferings train able become first black navy diver artificial limb despite skepticism highly mocking doubtful captain navy department hearing washington dc determine meets criteria inspirational movie showing determination overcome odds ok guys want answers someone tell coin glitch reddit life confusingi dont know disorder whatever ive lurker depressed long time coming dont know completely still urges im depressed completely still urges mean guess im looking anyone talk thoughts open im pretty low risk certain urges worse others brains pretty scattered comes yall cant tell point sympathize one living hell familyi love family havent killed living hell right now god awful digestive pain feel thobbing migrating around face day day sharp pains lasting m random spots body brutal cluster headaches worst part god awful shit hanging soft palate big sharp cant swallow weeks end days sudden feel massive foul tasting things go throat barely swallow cant throw squirm go neti rinses result nothing even muccus comes clear bloodwork showing nothing slightly elevated white blood cell count feels im swallowing massive parasites fucking disgusting terrifying one believes think im delusional think delusional ive antipsychotics months fuck doc refuses send sort specialist going years getting worse gotten drugs simply ease numb pain weird sensations feel cuz really think delusional started happening got drugs point hell living outweigh pain family feel ending life dont know much longer go shit seriously fucked girl girl ive known long time weve friends long remember live close go school wondering friendzone ask age taking similar things school see soon boys turning porn taking homework folder way hiding porn want remember link hiding post going history looking hidden dont expect anyone care im gon na deleting reddit couple months cant think girl without thinking something sexual lmao im fucking neek see ya soon boys may god hardy times australia lost war emus emus ate australian crops costing money didnt plan kill emus killed emus fast couldnt hit amount money spent cost emus steal crops quit technically lost war fucking emus emus cant even fly im closer beforeim really bad time fiance walked told everything needed know much awful person want die want live know anymore idc anyone says youre true gentleman unless gladly decapitate anyone needed gatekeep true people care guess thats problemi hate family friends actually care hate people tell much love eventually end taking life im going hurt theyre reason havent offed yet think selfish make feel guilty ending life im constant pain id rather one love itd easier way im trying push people life stick around dont shit hard wish time id die freak accident someone kill please helpim started higher education school hate worst thing boring crappy hate people friends always seem hate even call friends people fuck take piss family sorts dont know life go way way carry school hate try something im really interested love something software hardware thing dont know much want learn dont think thats enough never girlfriend except consider proper girlfriends kissed girl luck im best looker girls ignore brush im slightly overweight seems make freak eyes got quite close girl backed got scared pussyd dont know either stopped talking hate situations people dont know makes feel awkward seems happen lot nowadays especially school keep meet new people hate much one close friend everyone calls freak weirdo fact hes genuinely misunderstood guy called bum buddy good friends hell even sister says makes really frustrated money job experience confidence life might seem quite good fucking hate life redflag used small twinkle mind used think occasionally life seemed meaningless life grades job die thats think life opinion im genuinnly considering life seems shitty unimportant thought never amount anything really crushes used happy brief period recently dreamed family raising kids dying peacefully dont see point cry help im sorry errors spelling dont give fuck honest writing making realise shitty life please help tldr im unhappy life want kill enough good story wellacted unexpected character twists eg vicious murderous gangster bryan brown teaching son macrame although succeeds action drama hope good guy ledger gilrfriend succeed hilarious ironic black humour eg bank robbers become radio competition winners reaction buskers revenge etc well worth watching feel confident feel confident hour ago ideas first date ive talking girl sometime cantthink good date id usually go pandemic chilly temps dont know probably going bar theyre still open ideas one small thing happens im ending lol stay reddit going kill reddit cope going kill looks inevitable keep alive shit take suicidal heres personal story im even world think think probably bestory part feel free skip tldr ive accused suicidal high school friend mine committed redflag boarding school soon accused suicidal ideation school wanted remove remaining sinners atheist religious school prior foster care attacked daily abusive foster mother accused foster children conspiring made public grabs attention foster parent apparent disabled children bullied school held back segregated classroom sat alone room till state shut program brought back normal schooling segregated due bullying eventually sent religious boarding school foster parents started watching crime programs started reading biased psychology books got pretty weird ideas heads attacks children increased teenage masterbation sign psychopathywitchcraft bullied made loner psychopath thing bullied affluent teachers found foster care rejecting religious doctrine made satanistwitch meditation cope abuse type satanism anxious around violent attacks proved disorganized thinking attacked violently humiliated punishment thinking going catch bullied forcibly dressed geeky goodwill clothes meant trying look ridiculous attention people forcibly dressed school tormented staff peers two specific bullies school one eventually got expelled behavior often joked murdering claims remember fabricate wild stories justify behavior example tried give food younger aggressive brothers stash gave small portion homeless guy outside bus station going boarding school bully slapped called fake christian main reason bullied aggressively competitive another reason fact christian often used excuse torment punched lights walked away bathroom see damage came back sitting attractive girl asked crying brother chuckled told spazz laughed eventually expelled younger brother caught dvd containing porn normal porn violation schools rules dean often harassed abused powers make life living hell demanded come office answer crime biased towards brother athlete school bully even gave condo room forced live childrens dorms complaints criminal bullying catch im child fight im psychotic said possession s law punish whomever found told punish whomever spirit told called preacher two accused suicidal stated abuse power accusing people lead friends redflag meant unlike going stand sitting correcting said friend committed redflag changing school policy teens previous mental health problems sins admitted school locked bedrest quarantine three days without food water bathroom break told parents caught porn threatened commit redflag really course one stuck told teens christian allowing people bully till day adults people believe extreme social segregation order got job pizza parlour things looking younger brother showed demanding free pizza refused leave start try coercion free pizza saying give brother free pizza hes mentally ill hes bipolar fuck hell spaz boss told leave soon people worked started bullying made demands lie acting mentally ill refused start sticking day clothes toilet shoes ended roof etc relationship coworker went south yelled work police called fired affluent area ran screaming attracted attention admit fight stupid nothing insane said said cant believe slept chick job hunting landlord owned slimey porn store apartment apartment religious foster father forced even shirt pushed car screaming started demanding extra cash declined started making accusations smoking apartment never smoked still dont letting strangers ridiculous eventually called intercom called smartass told gun family refused pick phone later claim never attempted contact left town bounced around awhile met back one biological sisters moved condition got job week week later started realizing save enough started yelling needed another job tried managing two job calendars without transportation hard second week came knife stating told boyfriend wanted stab said slap bf obsessed interpreting everything either us said extremely violent manslaughter happened family minor lisp blamed constantly misread every word people said violent terms eventually realized mistake tried make amends point angry life ended friends house girlfriend wanted threesome left circled back year later found evicted without notice friendlandlord wanted live father yelling match police called turned sour bounced around found homeless chicago police dhs homeless sweeps wealthier gentrifying neighborhoods partly due gentrification partly mayors plan rid homeless campaign forced shelter us sign homeless cards filled card torn lectured told funding mental illness drugs alcohol checked redid card knew forced shelterplus care program told feign sorts illnesses sent sistercenter heavily relied shelters referrals keep afloat whole deal called warehousesocial services pillmill specialized bum diplomas meaning use medicaremedicaidgrant claims ssdissi public benefits threatened institutionalization cycle police pick back cycle begins left sisterprogram mental health center abusive therapist called made fake redflag threat police arrived see fuss joking around friends came sro landlord testified always seemed fine social service mental health care agencies treated piece meat used gain access grants etc eventually one agencies got shut able record director social services admitting illness claims grants scam let leave without incident threatened send social security administration eventually left according social workers given option leave fired fled california great deal abused people hoping quite foolishly still happy hippy land cool bros many us remembered seeing tv movies stupid know thinking chill stroke second eventually found cool little place beach problems started one roommates lost job three times row drunk work started screaming lyrics songs back porch police called eventually started dragging homeless tweakers sleep floor back porch money dragging recycling cans hopes making rent one roommates started using heroine dragging druggies friends eating personal groceries helping cash savings one night stress bad bit shattered one teeth decided going evict went much smoother though yes yelling occurred police called people actually apologized first time life score point california tried tooth fixed current public insurance cover switched one quick internet search went interview phone decided go regular check referral dentist see whole hmo thing worked asking kind insurance plan got ended back psychiatric office speaking another unqualified biased social worker interview went bad listen refused help dentist issues even though theyre hmp dental program ties brought back feelings program chicago feeling head three months later try calm taking hot shower slip fall see white soap white tub wear glasses shower smacked head started seeing white flashes stars eventually pain reminded beaten school home started flashbacks called asking help due psychiatric emergency recorded video knew trust system point oversight biased laughing hanging said im psychiatric emergency happened three days sat pain vomiting moments consciosness roommates home periods awake eventually police came told taken unless suicidal wasnt prompted immediately state falsely accused suicidal asked insurance card weird took station er hours er whisked away mental hospital listened quotedmined directly lied told lack adls insight judgement treated inhumanely told sign voluntary status days petition court keep fear confusion broke crying reporting everything family told accused told confession allowed prove via emails informaiton flaws report mentioned thinking abuse suffered home got roommates stated never realized gone tried reporting abuses state appointed outpatient therapist refused make eye contact refused listen exploitation claims told foster care thing blame rather aggressive looked online afterwards found degree psyd specialized blaming foster care ptsd tried reporting abuses suffered time police er hmo hospital stuck protecting reputation members told video witnesses contradicting reports matter time period turned reddit sympathy everyone said lying exaggerating called aggressive delusional refused blame exploitation abuse got fed called ssa complain make requests told lying later confirmed accurate told right something must wrong head told recently gotten hospital stupid head fine called police checkup police said fine decided take one guts told chained bench mental health officers started accusing superquick succession trying trip laughing kept straight face corrected whole time kept laughing accusing totally unreal took break came back told definitely suicidal placed permanent care liar psychotic lying said going sent away life said suffered illnesses never even accused claimed record lies awestruck asked passing officer speak admin mental health officer interrupted said leave leave another minutes er said anything asked suicidal said checked yes anyway finally mental hospital hours later deny suicidal ideation psychiatrist signed although rn demanded stay needed sure stats psychiatrist looked confused said free go way rn lectured questioning authorities forced outpatient care via mental health law california included talk therapy told make reports abuse learn cope recent abuse one point told see good abusers exploiters used adolf hitler example recorded another therapist told complacent abuse happens admit everything anyone acuses appease abusers hope leave alone left hmo complaints hmo hospitals police etc met doubt aggression took year one one allow hippa enforced corrections record police dropped internals affairs case oig said went interested came back reddit lambasted called psychotic delusional etc tldr antiredflag part abused bullied exploited lied victim blamed threatened etc completely damaged record feel suicidal never felt suicidal easy secret religious egotistical magical even special goals human history let explain goals always goals always future even worst case scenario goals always important goals part defines people accuse look ive little rough patch babynonsense compared humans already gone jungles deserts crossing deserts mountains wars genocide slavery even things cannibalism braving certain death freezing cave humans lot durable lead believe combining knowledge humans survivors concept multiple sometimes changing goals define closest thing purposefulsoul combination history forward thinking powered knowledge even biggest pigheaded egotists change mind system change one day many ways days changing even faster think quicker system messes quicker realize errors till waiting game right spend time telling truth internet hopes people talk problems less abuse exploitation doubted try speaking logic epistemology reason critical thinking evidence hopes one day world better place people survive im claiming world gold rainbows im absolutely claiming perfect still ptsd episodes even one today told telling story bs im saying hang wait things pick hobbies maybe ill even see california one day plan marching golden gate bridge holding antiredflag prosocialchange signs handing fliers asking people hurt help change world instead theres anyone needs change system effected witnessed dirty underbelly professionals politicians academics deny said forgive accept forgiveness change possible half life nurture overinternalize crafty turn faults strengths dust end never attribute malice attribute ignorance conditioning years renewed want things improve ironically hate change people taught epistemology must seek give back much give much one change one grow unwillingness change chosen limitation thank god missed train met wife next one elders say listen end day king pawn go back box mature expect utopia expect learn time makes fools perfectionist watch makers peace homeboy hello new account new right think id let know year old bachelors degree holding female college educated struggling helped dealing delusions hallucinations years lack sleep follows course medicated happenings well versed handle least thought started work right last monday week today asked speak supervisor right leave boss written fine fine fine fine realized lying proof proof somewhere proof everywhere everyone id told said ridiculous said fineuntil looked proof spiraled getting binder hold proof notebook write times box paper clips hold proof together box sticky notes annotate work lists proof called yesterday stayed night tv yelling bugs crawling husbands itching disturbing rough happened last night sleep ish got dreading life around people work staring bosses plotting coworkers talking handle want sleep forever even sleep first place post title required feel stupidi know people willing help everything seems pointless people talk everyday days necessarily bad end feeling lonely pathetic every night ive stopped feeling motivated anything reason work done feeling absolute terror able escape horrible situation im home try always people something home alone difficult everyone things going know distracting problems healthiest feels better pretend everything going great feels better people always asking im okay help one person mind talking going want talk anymore feels everything keep unhealthily bottling going spill inconvenient embarrassing situation dreamt redflag againits recurring dream different real life im discovered actually die im hospital object worry dreams sometimes die sometimes pull cant decide brains way getting used idea death reminder actually need far reach literally dream wonder much go allowed sleep give completelyim years old im old washed lonely dates friends everyone moved far away plus one visits see anyone unless see never good anything people seem patronize deem incompetent nearly everything never felt truly accepted social aspect life sports coworkers clubs etc people gravitate towards way others unless text first hear people whenever try make plan things excuses ive tried several meetup groups good experience fired job sucked first junior software position blew worked super hard lost fast think im extremely unintelligent takes long learn things huge problem self discipline motivation never stick anything people mock rejected im stereotypical black person bad tests got low sat score graduated college everything tried told variation im cut maybe make matters worse suffer adhd aspergers depression mocked children think gon na happen cant meet woman save life honestly gun posting shit load chamber put barrel mouth pull fucking trigger wan na sleep forever never wake fuck planet give finnish seems look french aint finnish dont look way youd think finnish look bru fucking troll made actually fucking cut selfit long story want kill first place severe depression social academically future family one biggest hope release songs wanted make eltronic music person stepbystep told illegally download even bad put virus pc easily whipe somehow deleted fucking hardworking time wasting songs fucking cut self chest knife im actually planning cut deadline redflag thing alot shorter friends teenage son killed himselfour friend kids pretty young especially todays standards married asshole depression two kids got divorced dad pos left didnt even want see kids afterwards poor boy offed years old sad cant sleep dont want see kids faces tell dont kill gods sake life amazing participate throw head first redflag harms people around several issues redflag urban driving one worst course wife drags along new york city expects driving currently emotionally physically exhausted one worst things one cause lose sleep night im anxious im unsure paid toll traveling tunnel jfk jersey city rental easy pass dark confused half time live fantasy world want live reality realised thing keeping going forced confront reality today future looks bleak hopeless work dog body old tired ill got new job due start soon want traumatised current one system allow even take couple months heal pay bills barely feel joy excitement anymore thinking future thought last year spend alive actually brings comfort meant world wan na die wan na live eithermy life really bad ive lost everything made happy people love love anymore im really scared death wan na die life bad hurt emotionally everyday hate living thank hellow u first important exam semester friday already decided im gon na day yay need study god hate exams well mean hours ones sit facing computer paper pencil completely fine prove knowledge worth people judge im basically worthless thank luckily luckily mom love mom mom take lot strong pills condition little drunk mix together okay ive read okay mean dead obviously die lot pain probably deserved well actually wanted say thank ive multiple accounts never made post simply im pusspuss scared regretting ive talked many amazing people similar thoughts mine people ive grateful knowing even tho lot way better place met hope well party together multiverse happy free something people whove really changed thoughts lot stuff yeah subreddit beautiful place harsh time tho really given lot insight talking people really made feel something first time long time thank even care wonder went wrong life lem try explain long story short ive always shy unconfident alien caring lot people seeing school always important part life thing kinda good wanted best quite long time everything perfection got straight motivated god knows got see high school year period university everything changed girls class felt much older drinking partying time lives reading books biggest worry people tried become good enough anorexia hit hard brain used ruined started fainting class museums home etc fine still getting good grades still everything perfection end nd year parents teachers decided healthy mean looking back now pretty damn destroyed oh well telling take break ruined everything strong enough keep going felt biggest failure biggest failure still still feel lost motivation still day wish go back started taking classes last winter ive never felt worthless find everything pointless everything went planned ready uni next summer heh guess study astrophysics exact tho space always thing felt safe darkness stars planets buddies oh lets forget black holes lem real great life amazing supporting parents best brothers thats thing ive already peeked life go downhill fuck keep failing ill start losing people good person take everything granted feel guilty deserve every person grateful position im dream want multiverses wan na travel space time wan na touch stars okay touch know mean hope well know say even know anyone reads thank oh one last thing please please send favorite songs appreciated need blast ears good music till moment die thanks ampxb questions guys im scared ask irl part well guys reached questions pretty nice ask unwritten rules every guy knows example thing girl comes event something pretends know always pretend know back someone following someone thinks wants hurt pretending someone lose interest ask help im yr old male chose expiration dateim really stupid person unspeakable thing thirteen years feel hopeless depressed three friends dont think even real friends id rather talk got couple things want chest really hope go viral raped year old sister know knows act never happened think want regular life feel things way better wouldve never born nearly killed mom called ambulance saved stabbed self stomach passed sister found screamed thats mom came call ambulance age hit someone text book got sent alternative schoolwe dont stay night took knife school one friendsat time told got trouble started hallucinations thought gotten girl pregnant head abortion still depressed know fake feel real first turned sleepover house one friends wanted touch sister rapey way went kitchen grabbed knife nearly stabbed mom grabbed slapped lost control wanyed die badly made mind im killing self cristmas eve got planned know nobody awake night slit wrist cut im guessing wont hurt im sorry mom sister dont care life want overim safe danger man desires drive dont care anymore whole world soon anyways meds useless therapy useless wish die cant afford food cant afford therapy cant afford better cant afford live dont want im surviving day life want pain endim living pakistan parents one brother past months mixed emotions ive realized place fool used hang friends drink party rarely see basically make everyone uncomfortable around social skills disaster im major business administration ive real contacts used act ive everything figured bitter reality know shit want die father dies cant take responsibility family im socially isolated uptill ive passed exams using unfair means learned anything parents think ill achieve something im failure suicidal thoughts mind dreadful parents today blast occured city watching tv wishing blast site died want sleep never wake sometimes im afraid sorry bad vocabulary im killing hours need company attentionjust ordered last meal chinese fried chicken need less four hours mom home anyone talk thought might chit chat least judgmental ppl discussing want alone rn yk ive lonely whole life wish talk someone antagonize pain least day im trying cry much overdramatic even walking around overwhelming today kinda shuffled around zombie lol im waiting chicken perpetuumi committed far happiness excessively beyond ahead made choice abandon current pleasure future latters appeal distant realize provide motivation wont make years fuck life using imdbbr br youve given hefty votes favourite filmsbr br something enjoy doingbr br fifty seconds one world ends another beginsbr br given ten wonder give seven eight exactly first film made better record long still opening shot great showmanship superb innovation perfectly suited situation dog bike lovely touch within fifty secondsbr br word genius often overusedbr br genius need help asapi cant anymore long im done feel empty hurt motivation passions went away redflag pretty much think spare time ive tried much know anymore please help light end tunnel train thats thats post fuck movie little children seem one bothered httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvguuvkqvrmhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvguuvkqvrm sure say cartoon joke say cartoons little children male characters humiliate hurt female characters twisting tits ramming something crotch hard gets stuck falls floor feet yes exactly exactly little girls laugh slapstick girl humiliating violating boy exploiting male weak spot genitals hes dirt feet pathetically clutching manhood male pain male humiliation stands triumphantly woman created scene think hey know funny girls kick boys balls really hard behind thats appropriate kids movie feelings explainedthis world broken honestly im pretty tired rather involved taking dip coming back air seems appropriate response pulled earth demons live beneath gosh mean always cared others always passionate everything throughout entire life even though world constantly people place drag words know nothing big said worthless never amount anything stupid weird honestly things said broke levy head ago never weird feel wounded animal top corned dont hate self hate world dont hate people even though feel right hate life everything went treated entire way want wounded animal becomes dinner im tired haha im done cluster somethings grammar probably terrible dont feel need fix anything felt maybe someone resonate even though depression depression dont think makes happiness aaahhh im done place terrible nice night strength takes fight suicidal urges beyond physical strength fighting everyday proud glad still despite thoughts attempts plans urges right now safe keep safe big beautiful world mountains oceans animals every kind world wanted one needed one reason despite thoughts saysome hope story tw attempts last year attempted suicide two times hid first attempt months sick enough fucking sick enough tried kill still bad enough standard please struggling suicidal thoughtstendencies reach sick enough deserve help got getting second attempt landed hospital iv days psych ward rehab another hospital psych ward tell gets better deep throws depression finally healing many mental illnesses healing heal dark time please stay safe proud wake everyday urge dieevery single day wake heavy feeling inside chest feel dont belong even waking trying fighting pain still going suicidal thoughts dont go away makes feel miserable stupid wouldnt alot easier die hi fello gamers friend made discord whos talk share memes play video games skribblio minecraft cards humanity online terraria stardew csgo tf valorant overwatch destiny gmod doom smash 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think realized may come across really weird dont plan messaging anything wanted add people see stories log guys think shouldnt done fine mom killed th birthdayitll two years christmas ive thinking lately man man talked family aunts uncles two dozen cousins looking thoughts literally comments appreciated thanks advance give love love went contacts theres oneno one say anyone turn never believe capable husband told raped drunk sitting car alone thinking ways kill knowing feeling thats deserve thought good person wrong hospitalim thinking walking er ask help im terrified plan want held hours cant seem access doctor hope explain er people need see doctor np whatever depression hopefully walk away prescription antidepressants possible lock need help im afraid movie fun boardbr br essentially follows comedic romp two graverobbers th century england move conventional body snatching trafficking vampires zombies dead roswell aliens idea roswell alien neither producers think br br funny bet even 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know point anymore improve hoping achieve whats waiting nothing change know story ends might well finish already first chance end nearafter years redflag ideation feel soon hang imagine surviving month august world fucking disgusting absolutely reason stay longer existence point value die make difference notion incels violent neonazis come cause really seeming another fear mongering attempt media wrote redflag note todayim writing letter becuase may hard anyone understand choosing number one thing want every one know single human cuased nothing one couldve done differently except course simplistic reason cut dry black white thought redflag daily fifteen years old seldom days mind worst enemie see world different way everything constantly consistantly jumbled numbers faces letters words thoughts see things backwards sideways upside sometimes even blurred hide hide well told people dyslexic hand really mean perpetual state confusion try hard learn least take jab becuase afriad seen stupid voice head justified mocking unintelligent really one reason tired perpetual state confusion sure started im actually really sure anything started memory fleeting best along line mind began tell worthless mean bad day passing thought mean every single day bad day normal day even amazing day point start think anything little voice seeps starts go blow blow always reassure worthless stupid failure eat without telling fat worthless cant read without laughing calling stupid jumble something work without telling failure matter time fired give always promise infact worthless number two tired trying live mind consistently telling failing fucking crazy aforementioned voice stomach turning anxiety mood swings depression literally fucking insane five yes five voices head excluding aforementioned voices constantly fighting eachother example want go bowling friends normal person begin think bring voices come voice tell ask blunt voice tell ease conversation voice tell stupid shut sit 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energy drink good nights rest kind tired awake forceful battle climb bed struggle loosing everyday kind tired solution sleep never wake mental health advice parent sad edit joke seek help talk someone trust mental health rented movie simply rosario dawson sat watch buddy minutes glued seats intensity minutes real film hollywood bs explosions corny one liners film drew slowly reeling toward tragically human fate people think enjoy film sadly mistaken movies mindless entertainment entertainments sake alone michael bays transformers produced audience need think people watch allow stereotype muster slowly dissolve brain well even place advertisements throughout movie keep buying products forget explosions love explosions make distinction art entertaining thought provoking moves hidden ways entertainment rarely artful even arbitrarily movie entertainment descent film film artbr br still house soul within walking meatsack apparatus rape scene every bit powerful irreversable distinction irreversable violent rape scene involving two people whose paths unfortunately crossed wrong time hell ensued descent date rape less disgusting less depraved different trust violation soul desecration scars run deep character maya consenting hot sex scene seeing desperate escape scene sickening jared sick manipulative serial rapist wholly unsettling closely resembles passionate love affair maya close anyone even midst raping jareds slick lover boy facade hints slipping ruinedbr br film whole beautiful camera work lighting times removes surroundings focuses everything maya silent inner workings mind accomplished rosario facial expression gesture soundtrack excellent blend everything particularly favorite scene synchronism film aspects working together maya dancing sea writhing bodies something inside awakening becoming aware set beautifully sad jeff buckley tunebr br think ive really spoiled anything im stopping bottom line think best film hands unfortunately seems everyone jaded days 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discussion fuck foreskin works banana peel right im confused much karma post sub wan na post things finally see good doctor ugh finally original doctor awesome retired new one took adhd meds absolutely fucked mean cool talk talked anime stuff wasnt great job im fucking happy back adhd meds yall idea hard quit adhd meds cold turkey going genius biggest moron earth taken developed depression anxiety paranoia course im failing core classes relief ill finally able exist normally one day im going deadits hard think started self harming im fucking loser dont plan making year probably lack motivation even shotgun talked girl recently ghosted went date stopped burning cigarette night crazy bitch cant say dont miss though im loser rarely gets affection shell act cares im dead sympathy thats life see light end tunnel goes right fuck fuck mods thanks removing post titled reasons commit redflag wtf wrong music suicidal thoughtsany songs redflag wanting die cant think title ampxb httpspreviewredditkbxllaqoscjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsebdacdcadafbeabdef almost half summer gone watched virtually friends disappear vanish contemplated suicide daily become apathetic life adopted nihilistic view future suffered verbal abuse parents anything life exactly experiencing things right now feel mental capacity social interaction overall thinking deteriorated much worried college want free independent enjoyable life college sure mentally ready consult therapist financial reasons backlash parents best course action know emotionally ready go college scared bed see standing alone horrified stage little dark age bout call helpline lol first time ig literally need talk councillor idk ill fucking last dayhey im going kill right post nothing theyre point alive anymore im sorry dont another post means im dead im sorry posting btw fellow teens share another valuable piece information today make war love virginity cool daily thoughts redflageveryday redflag seems best option end pain years therapy helped understand hurt resolved pain im years old job pays well years almost one month sober suffer ptsd adhd depressive disorder behavioral addictions constantly need approval others order maintain self esteem battle internal fits rage triggered mistakes made work fabricated memories neglectful spiteful mother distant older brother meaningful friendships life ive never meaningful relationship woman almost every sexual encounter rare onestand usually paid escort habit expensive sexual outlet mainly masturbating porn suffer erectile dysfunction physical nature assume years chronic masturbation damaged way man age live id soon end life recently major surgery surgeon wrote prescriptions hydrocodonetylenol pain killer muscle relaxer barely used hydrocodone tablets dozen muscle relaxants daily thoughts taking think let sleep wake found use reaction channels add anything video theyre reacting use watch agerestricted videos best method still use channels nonetheless life nothing tortureback story around father always stubborn man born mother two miscarriages never knew told caused father kicking stomach pregnant proof happened knowing abusive nature father certainly believe mother rebuild house bought less terrible condition leaks ceiling rats everywhere including slept dad drinking gallon wine per day doubt started truck driving started rebuild house help horrible lazy construction workers worked small amount money thats afford go home depot haul supplies us afraid leave us alone likely babies fall asleep shake us viciously mother found spied saw performing cruel abuse us babies never called cops never understood see money know hed leave abuse said abuse shed spend money road rebuild house unlivable condition back mother always loving person never hurt anyone amazing power fortunately received lot money someone helped lot father pushed buy truck picked used truck ended purchasing course selfemployment truck repaired multiple times severely put mom debt lot money believe number around kk mother declare bankruptcy decided sell truck one buy higher months ago abusing us body alcohol tobacco went doctor stomach pains turns esophagus cancer stage refused take doctor recommended treatments went retreat cure cancer instead put debt treatment helped making feel better close nothing came curing cancer kept reading alternative medicine treatments online curing cancer hes bought natural products work sadly thinks works financially secured dads pension recently took away us pay treatment mother told declare bankruptcy way debt removed refused asked help pay debt capable spending savings pay treatment declined result hiding pension money recently accident parking lot driving papers fell car tried open door grab papers car moving ended falling car car crashed another parked car course insurance went father locked room ignored mother presumably avoid paying increase insurance mother demanded pay insurance claimed money spent pay treatment driving around barely walk think properly takes seconds think say midsentence still license endangering lives driving around public roads ive told drive course became defensive im father boss around bs events breaks heart never knew anyone selfish cheap stubborn abusive psychotic father barbarian disgusts every morning wake entire house smells body decay still hes dying asked feels enthusiastically attempts say great feel good ive always felt suicidal think kill picked middle school made feel disconnected everyone became abusive father hit sistermother feel im living mental illness constant brain fog hard talk people properly im always quite know talk people ill fuck friends say look normal talk normally thats im around brain mapping lot shit wrong said likely traumatic brain injury suspect father baby im going expensive university free im lazy never go computer science class shit already learned online free im always homework last minute motivated work started semester fell bad habits fucking hate life partially fault id appreciate input need life together im depressed mood writing sleep deprivation knowledge typical british comedy period someone familiar process becoming london cabby film bound seem average laughs old facesbr br knowledge comes knowledge boys wifes know poor individuals going find comparing incidents characters biggest achievement year staying alive biggest regret staying alivedoes anyone feels way never felt doomed life gf left months ago mother really call functional person rent expired living house months friends basically disappeared going therapy really help much feel going crazy truman show kind place living killing kill real mom pissing shes fucking nuts love im tired bitching goddamn time calm enjoy day ok please someone explain smelling cherry perfume whole night constantly whiff someone walked past streets u got smell dont used perfume parents dont one house even uses cherry smelling items happening today right thingi talked mother talked friend lying years ive depressed decade talking people sites eased talking people care even two left thanks people found therapist online comfortable help dissected know makes morning function ive sober almost month week starting new job feel good bad know right thing know control wanted thank guys hot tea hot tea nowi sucking tea bag reason need know rasberry tea jimmy trying kill asked mom fat ass saying truethe best questions go unanswered wrestlemania took place april skydome toronto ontario canadabr br match rick martel vs koko b ware solid opening match koko always fairly popular fans point martel still getting heel talent end martel able snag win pretty non memorable matchbr br match colossal connection andre giant haku c bobby brain heenan vs demolition ax smash wwf tag team championship point andres health really awful performance really nothing special crowd pro demolition match end haku pinned new tag team champions match andre lays haku heenan turns face turn last wrestlemaniabr br match earthquack vs hercules short match big dominant heels really popular thing time rip men match john tenta earthquake passed long ago hercules end earthquake pins hercules winbr br match mr perfect vs brutus barber beefcake first really good match night rip curt henning mr perfect really solid back forth action talented guys end brutus gets win thanks lot major fan support matchbr br match rowdy roddy piper vs bad news brown technical classic pretty decent brawl wrestlemania piper comes half blackhalf white considerably classic moment end guys fight double count clear cut winnerbr br match hart foundation vs bolsheviks complete squash match hart foundation gets easy win surprising wwe used tag team divisionbr br match barbarian vs tito santana bobby heenans heenan family fairs better match barbarian takes win tito santana memorable good go back watch years laterbr br match randy savage sensational sherri vs dusty rhodes sapphire big intergender tag team match dusty rhodes wears uncomfortable polka dot outfit ring end rhodes sapphire win macho king sensational queen sherribr br match rockers vs orient express surprisingly another tag team match tag wrestling used much better time period young shawn michaels partner marty jannetty take loss count match orient expressbr br match dino bravo vs jim duggan duggan gets decent reaction despite american patriot gimmick bravo member jimmy harts group comes ring hart earthquake although support duggan takes winbr br match million dollar man ted dibiase c vs jake snake roberts million dollar championship first major main event night roberts extremely fans match considerably good dibiase able pick count win roberts roberts ends possessing dibiases money giving awaybr br match big boss man vs akeem slick one man gangs sad attempt african dream named akeem really short match needed time develop match boss man wins slambr br match jimmy superfly snuka vs rick rude heenan comes ring rude match snuka never really got good wrestlemania always seemed losing end short minutes rude gets win snukabr br match wwf champion hulk hogan vs intercontinental champion ultimate warrior dubbed ultimate challenge interesting promos men earlier night match actually good given people tend think hogan cant wrestle lot near falls really got crowd people watch home end warrior gets win hogan wins titles stunned crowd looks hulk hogan suffers first loss wrestlemania advice fellow young teenagers want paint nails wear girl clothes youre yearold boy parents wouldnt wear nail polish dress way seriously imagine spread talent one film without huge budget daniel daylewis ray mcanally brenda fricker hugh oconor fiona shaw theres doubting fricker daylewis deserved awards entirely justifiable seen oconor young christie mcanally awarded clich true perform roles inhabit daylewis performance tour de force transformation aweinducing truly mark academys intelligence alongside performance honoured brenda frickers beautifully restrained still heartwrenching work christies mother way seen magnificent actress swann thats another film well worth checking contribution sublime miranda richardson ok know im gon na go commit bunch crimes least im wanted someone gim unpopular opinions go go go mens rights activists dumb abortion wrong pregnant person decide whether abort people confuse cancel culture accountability way often superiority complex religion dumb probably unpopular judging amount people think theyre better christian something idk bragging reading books makes look complete idiot people bad parents hate alexaok google etc asking riphone sucks theres got ta people iphones iphone sometimes tries automatically download call duty mobile want know happen iphone users apples thing im confused pretty face pretty bad dreams one knows cry sleep thats folksi posted maybe weeks ago rdepression basically outlining crappy life led point ill summarize father left life born found mom pregnant mother mental breakdown two weeks old tore head bugie owned drown pet dog kitchen sink suffocated almost death pillow lucky baby grand parents came visit exact moment time barge stop killing put maximum security psychiatric hospital first two years life never met already talking walking passed around aunts uncles grandparents mom came home diagnosed schizophrenia heavily drugged depixol mianserin diazepam developed spinal problem caused excruciating pain prevented much range movement heavy pain meds put back care needless say life hard living mood swings growing turn randomly violent drop hat childhood suffered broken nose broken ribs dozens instances beatings lock bedroom every night slept safety fun yo grandpa died grandma lost went senile rest family abandoned mother long time ago without support looking violent mom crazy gran school always option tend routines grandma fell bungalow broken knee lay days stone cold floor pain confusion found wardens weekly visit died ambulance way hospital mom developed leukaemia battled months turned nonhodgkins lymphoma lost grandpas death moms death funerals buried cremated whole family exactly year day mom died close friend mine hung tough harsh time life suffer depression memories wish erase head constantly got relationship really helped still depressed found purpose existing love generally genuinely happy ten years partner sure gone hard times recession lost job years ago move find new work still glad someone life cared well thats cheated kicked homeless friend work got house keep ending streets last months life hardest yet years life devoted person still love heart nothing utterly alone world cant even begin imagine starting someone new even want live uk voted conservatives given faith humanity gone now crushed beyond words filled loss sorrow grief pain heart smashed dust tomorrow th may day mother died day sean died far concerned day uk died thanks election result plan end life tomorrow morning nothing left world everyone cared dead friends long gone one love turned back together point purpose existence now die one day anyway likely cancer slowly painfully waste away dust watched mother go thanks tomorrow jump bridge far ft valley floor witnessed first hand people jumping death fast painless mercy wanted tell someone nobody say goodbye goodbye guess see another life cats little film brings back lot memories fond foul happen one working musician pleasant accommodations band management venue jumping telling play sheer ecstasy applause far farcical fact accurate way depicts musicians professional travelled great distance perform season gigs venue times everything goes perfectly times immediately start miss partner wonder hell far home end make best way blackmail im blackmail issue currently forced things person info tell parents info seven years shit lost hope getting better wish die peacefully today want fight anymore expect getting helpi know quite begin first reddit post lurker lol subreddit years apologize formatting shitty im year old collage student norway anyone knowledge specifically norwegianscandinavian health care ive thinking redflag now thought wanted hour ago figured starting write letter family im sure anymore really know expect health care system going institutionalized restrict computer use example pretty much enjoy anymore watching series nature documentaries playing computer games hate lose opportunity post suited rdepression anything please let know edit guess give insight felt surprisingly good writing even though noone commented yet im attending collage away home planned writing letter today tomorrow deed sunday told parents home summer ive anxious queasy day managing write friends family come loving home makes feelings confusing parents siblings supported two years ago admitted depressed downplayed though want watching every move case wanted act feelings feel really shitty living expectations even stupid know matter really took bad turn failing couple collage classes got self know better im really lazy particularly depressed started giving shit dropping classes entire semesters im putting front telling family think want hear anyways turned rambling hard think clearly tears ill answer coherently specific questions whats point livingidk direction anymore know deal im tired someone near age please talk fi want die im waste space im sorry im still aliveusually im strong person give depression much lately hard actually live past years dealt fine even joked suicidal depressed laughing matter anymore today bad day woke wrong side bed today nothing seemed going well series things go well morning got work shit piled afternoon boyfriend fight even big deal evening making dinner family every fucking thing mess bigger problems deal day helping every good days one bad day change every thing today cry cry room cry working cry texting boyfriend cry cooking cry typing fuck bullshit im fucking tired living hard especially life live hoping new year starts im already gone macbook air color macbook air intel must know gold silver silver seems boring everyone silver laptop gold really looks copper looks cool sister says girly look weird public im kinda indecisive pls help couldnt post links pics cuz got auto removed fuck tik tok saw rant heres another one despise app called someone actual crime posted got criticized blue lives matter patch know people sorts opinions actual fuck im done toxic ass app hope gets banned country goodnight may god whoever believe bless hey anyone wan na talkchatdo anything idc im bored wan na talk random strangers feel free dm stalk profile make sure find post kinda thing lot hey rbonkpatrol bonk peepee please uwu zoomposting real god tier one favorite zoomposts barry remember nora bathing got hard barry jacked supersonic speed got hard feeling im somehow faking depression suicidal ideationive numb sort depression years gotten lot worse recently ive serious suicidal thoughts recently though time im actively suicidal wishing death come one form another anyways better days depression crippling feel numb rather pained common thought im actually depressed imagining faking im seeking attention mean easy depressed cant seem even still wonder im depressed know symptoms logically im making think feel way honestly confusions making desire end stronger moment think doubt starts surfacing im making think want die maybe even feeling perceive numbness normal im making mountain molehill know paradoxical really cant seem make sense one wan na eat raw carrot sometime tastes good healthy time perfect eat peas cooked gone cold ik bit weird good eat dont go work im extremely greatful towardsmy boss letting come posts comments none serious people made feel even suicidal thanksi see lot posts getting least comments mine got one suicidal ideation serious thank sub making feel even alone pushing suicidal thoughts m almost never dated anyone never first kiss avoided main high school social events prom parties thought physically inferior everyone worth noting attempted date rejected hurt every single time tried still put horrible depressive state emotionally many friends see people work many people talk snapchat stuff makes hate life even understand people talk snapchat confidence even ask someone snapchat unless best friends family asking someone snapchat instagram may something super simple everything requires days sometimes weeks planning going every single scenario casually ask someone without random weird find face especially utterly repulsive ugly instance employment manager work high schoolers girls take pictures us managers reason ask say funny work environment really relaxed fun work acceptable every manager tell want picture taken keep trying tell tell feel really ugly hate way look believe therapy working feel mind changed want changed feels feel forever idea turn thanks advice advance self degrading mindset familys staging intervention tonight know say still feel tryingtheyre picking couple hours pm est right now one told sister said want try giving back control life put club car cant drive anywhere suffering lot indignities right poor choices example sleep room yearold nowhere put stuff sounds big deal least place stay still makes feel child unemployed broke phone shut missed call landed job told sister said asked help phone bill problem feel asked help directly always really hard told siblings able pay bills jack shit cars booted think ive never reached whole thing really humiliating really whiny bitch try looking outside wow take intervention seriously suffering ways petty ones ive listed obviously years little pissed calming ive posted theres little history edit thanks everyone wrote im heading meeting check post later little better prepared collected grateful people talk spectacle begins sw really amazing place edit im back man weird might post little description respond couple posts edit thank everybody communitys kindness support really touching time read bit attempt sleep ill check thread tomorrow throw cents got luckier feel selfish home life fucking sucks worst people know upset left little sister slid note door close fucking broke heart screamed parents stupid useless sit listen whole thing note says love sorry something birthday wednesday want leave fucking badly want ruin special day turning want fuck rest life bc selfish stick around going kill last birthday end trying reason know friends miss well boyfriend want make anyone upset keep escape know going kill eventually known sisters age going much pussy actually something end suffering see point anymore life fucking meaningless cycle pain misery resentful parents bringing treating force life never asked wanted tired know people miss tired feel worthless ugly unlovable cant fucking take anymorei friends nobody understands mom blames everything happened feel empty inside absolutely one support outside therapy lonely time stuck thoughts pain freaking hard cope everyday im saying want crutch want support nobody wants around fucking depression matter much reach try converse others feel losing mind loneliness crippling eating away every day seriously struggling feels im fighting battles one im verge giving surrendering tons times past months feel sad alone lonely fucking tired living everlasting pain yall listen one song yall know song im talking bro shit idk sad fuck song hits heart peaceful omg low key feel relaxed calm solutionustedes necesitan hierro anemicos suicidas ustedes necesitan cobre anemicas suicidas hierro si eres hombre cobre si eres mujer esto les dara paz energia gentlemans need take iron ladys yo need take copper iron men copper woman give peace energy failed attemptetried drowning ocean got nevk high went idk ohappened im alove helpi need someone talk please dont want kill way still think every night sad talked months even really good friends anything really liked even time able see talk still think way contact ill probably never see either yet ive finding thinking every night cant stop know feel plastic bag strangle ocean creatures im thinking asking girl im seconds thoughts ok ive known girl fairly certain feelings things ive noticed example goes physical contacts sit next class sometimes randomly punch thigh tease hurt change tone voice around laugh crappy jokes somehow got hold hand one time mind lasted longer shouldve actually clue really nice obviously telling likes need advices yall atleast encouragements ill enough confidence tell feel thanks reading friendly reminder go bed want remind great year killer clowns back tell everyone cared goodbyeive making gifts people letters go along making sure know never fault nothing wrong thanked everyone life im parents favorite need little help make sure feel better friends getting custom made things ensure know wants fault took pills alcohol finally die nowi found roommates pills want die took want die die now edit still work roommates found morning lied told fine taken pills go hospital edit still still confided friend seeking help job offers free therapy said friend holding going kill weekendi well paying job enjoyed loving mother cared lot bright future utterly devastating self esteem last internship abroad schizophrenia hit hearing lot negative voices kept ignoring mothers emails held resent reason father raised hate rude ignore fair room back house move brother become even isolated damaged brain trying self medicate voices abusing anxiolytics committed internet crime broke morals snapped voices everything im left damaged brain haunting past im currently employed really cant cant write code anymore im mentally incapable want live dark place anymore temporary problem permanent problem hate went crazy fucked bad ends weekend always hurtsi feel im running ways cope suicidal thoughts dont really know go ive suffered anxiety little struggled eating disorders self harm child age two hospitalizations got shit together im therapist now finish grad school ill clinical psychologist id think im good job thanks feedback ive gotten patients families makes feel stupid pathetic cant help okay long time months ago fianc struggled mental health years never sought treatment months ago threatened kill psychotic break call hospitalized awhile hes back months meds hes making life unbearable long remember doctors expect handle treatment medication etc career educational background causing chaos home doesnt accept schizophrenia diagnosis doesnt want help hell say wants better tell hes playing everyone sake hes putting us thousands debt demands everything working full time school full time managing care full time feel im drowning mental health worse years know im thoughts im trying take advice reach help nobody takes seriously ive contacted national redflag prevention hotline four times hours every single time ive waited hour even im connected nobody actually picked sit begging someone answer sobbing started seeing therapist sanity fianc came back rarely see intense schedule parents juggling depression sisters bipolar disorder glue keeping together go fianc assumes im angry blows time catches hiding house crying try talk starts yelling need calm tried cups listeners literally never respond im trying cope healthy ways yoga running working cut today first time long time expecting feel relief didnt im trying hard find ways keep going ive posted lot situation caregiver schizophrenia subgroups people leave thats problem cant threatened life consulted police victims advocacy groups attorneys see restraining order protective order said physically hurts anything kick apparently trouble removing place residence hes treatment willingly leave ive begged go family across country moved ive told doesnt want treatment whatever may go home wont gets angry verbally aggressive home name pay bills cant abandon home either im really beginning feel redflag way dont know yall awake late night feel sad something similar dont know kinda sad memes go brr memes cant post subredditsso im asking financial karma support gay incels exist ive scrolling deep reddit day im curious lol ew ew ew ew got email year old sharing nudes probably spam manga sites visit still im going see favorite band end august think im donemy favorite band slipknot coming hometown august rd im fortunate enough opportunity see friend day passes ill really nothing left live look forward going wait till halloween favorite holiday even doesnt seem worth anymore ive struggling major depressive disorder suicidal thoughts almost years never worse recently make money job good friend others dont go school im dumb girl going away college doesnt want relationship thinks school way figured seeing favorite band perform one last time perfect memory go anyways im sorry long read thank stopped read means lot alienated last person help step back thats left strangersi cant take anymore ive felt shit fiancee died coming years holy fuck years think fast havnt serious relationship close friend mine bad scare redflag cops found passed car stopped side building decided toss everything aside help moved miles away everyone know now talk anymore thats problem though friends abandoned ive got two great friends now one male one female fell head heels point became joke everyone drew guy came visited week pretense helping spent entire week chasing ass far watching craigslist see someone post bailey female friend started dating someone tortured high school made fun absolutely tortured high school hear great guy telling everything happened hes amazing makes feel person life gotten bad cant work cant sleep days straight passed phone customer nodden passed woke hit floor sent doctor gave script xanax im looking mg xanax bottle grey goose start look good better idea seems nod let pain go away done back fiancee wife got taken im scared death way outand ive constant panic days weeks months need die need fucking die cant take god anyonei alot shit life know answers lot things save lives im going evidence bible scam know historically progressive shit stuff everyone gets thrown hell gay masturbating swearing etc maybe best examples point hell progressive shit yet bible says hell bat bruh wtf thank coming ted talk hail satan wants pancakes made many ventwhitehot anger sadnessdepression trying forget alcohol sleeping waking instantly wanting die sadness whitehot anger guilt feelings every bad thing ive done life defined now losing battleanyone feel losing battle time surrender fought depression anxiety hole life therapy medications alternatives work short term done exhausted cant fight anymore depression won nothing feels fun anymore single hitting quite hard never listen electric love blues fucking stupid think im worthy happiness im miserable stupid annoying piece shit dont real friends never im worth fucking run away rot gutter long ago planned nobody fucking miss one care id suffering deserve people finally rid theyd finally one annoying kid stop bothering stop pretending nice everyone dont know thought people want friend im loser im nerd im complete dumbass overall fucking pathetic excuse functioning human im supposed social high life havent talked close friends month every time pretend excited see say hey whats casual talk people expect every time ask wan na hang question gets pushed aside oh im busy sorry theyll happily post much great time theyre friends week wish fucking already already know one care never spoke thats holding back fear failure becoming burden already disgusting live trudge onward false hopes happiness one day talking girls early today talking guy said whenever talks girls platonic creeped high sexual drive walk away let tell unless actually handsy saying sexual things sexual girl know level sex drive especially asked howd think lecture girl says one word answer walks away mean creeped sexual drive asked talk girls said show personality interest proceeded say im confusing studying law degree easier talking girls remember guys tpo time p place occasion honestly everything though making friendshipsrelationshipstalking people sex opposite x time girl busy lecture seems wants go back dormsapartmentnext classwhatever shes going stay around talk guy shes never spoken periodt continuously strike conversation youll better chances making friends though place never spoken youll better chance making friends approach shes people study grouppartyclub person talk person direct conversation apply places people dont conservations class sit next talk class hallways standing comfortable blocking peoples way talk lunch everyone going eating breaks conversation without awkward occasion specific reason talk girl itll help conversation flow easier theres test coming go talk going party go talk event talk event youre excited annoyed birthday ask shes going shes happy aware opposite hours test im pretty sure rather study talk gameshowhobby need one award one award dont really care type mom wont tell whats wrong idk im tired internally youre biggest part problems soooo created prisoni dont want every time start feel okay end misstepping going thought pattern much happy even things nicer still prison im never going able anxiety fears im going stuck day day going room work never able form meaningful connections cant drive cant handle people theyre going hurt places reddit feel im talking someone im always going five year old girl ruined understand happened dont think brother care much hope takes care cat ill really miss dont want live anymore psychiatrist forgot second appointment row redflag attempt accused wife making allegations said appointments phone literally forgot twice blames proceedwhat say text call logs missed time expectations double booked first time extremely obvious upset waiting room cut appoint minutes listen new medical information refused give number psychologist told hurry told text never responded texted important literally asked email text previous text called none information ready calling minutes late ask allegations wife making saying wanting work take walked away phone uncontrollable crying actions went straight professional mode trying ensure responsible anything suggestions fault essentially feeling trying ensure refuse assistance make sure considering legal recourse closed call wife suggestion longer work days call assistance anytime needed previously actually demanded text certain times completely forgot never replied voicemail full give email address answer phone call oclock morning panic phone calls pm hi doctor want give additional pertinent information ensure forgotten appointment calls texts ive tried ill try someone hurts much one even people pay listen never even acknowledged said additional medical information sarcastically asking take tests last night mention previous appointment gone effort medical professionals digital form make easier claimed state whenever patient doctor relationships end documentation stated unwilling work readily apparent appointment turned phone call benefit person concern even expense feelings health sorry make sense ive gotten hours sleep last hours literally tested got literally zero rem sleep study entire night going months im seeing shadow people shaking uncontrollably vomiting dizzy super dizzy know ive worked lot doctors successfully past im new game insultingly unabashed desire place blame session anymore stay call dropped phone crying sobbing took continuing telling wife responsible feeling litigation something considering medical leave work new psychiatrist give note clear return started leave want situation feel well enough reach back needed note attacked knows without additional note let go job allowed return concerned ive already started reaching doctors saw genuine lack concern health well ive got direction medical needs world right now set hopes relief back several months need new cpap priority moment understand resolved covid happened im tired tired generally finish stuff consider work related things video games series anything dont want end scared finishing know going back wont finish everything feels empty value anymore knowing never experience way makes want end go loving afterwards never wanting anything anymore ask helpi weekly occasion contemplate killing realize probably normal help issue ruin career probably making want kill even profession kind paperwork mental disorders redflag considered one automatic separation separated guarantee move forward career certain jobs maybe dreamed want help seek help means dream jobs denied hurt head felt going explode never make past seconds another trial run sorry right subreddit post direct go somewhere went psychiatrist today expectation prescribed stimulants take test point got diagnosed major depressive disorder prescribed zoloft lie psychiatrist told past current situation honestly even depressed pretty functional outside everyday random bouts hour depression lot look forward honestly confused diagnosed today major depressive disorder ok owes pulp fiction opinion voice identity mainly musicvideo direction style sketchlike narrative great performances thomas jane delivers great drugdealer showdown extraordinary aaron eckhart likewise james legros short effervescent appearancegreat humorthey got wong house porzikova interrogation rape scene memorable mickey rourkes cameo appearancetake peakbr br great hollywood popcorn bproduction strong performances alevel aspirants renegadesrourkebr br well take peak worth dream killing everydayit wish ive got nothing worth salvaging played among us im addicted first game among us cant stop playing cant stop thinking roman polanski considered one important directors time mind behind classics rosemarys baby chinatown probably makes polanskis cinema interesting one fact capable creating commercially attractive films afore mentioned masterpieces fond making lowkey movies personal nature le locataire tenant one movies horrorsuspense story paranoia obsession among best works probably among best horror movies donebr br polanski plays telkovsky young man looking apartment france finally finds one discovers empty previous tenant simone choule attempted kill jumping window simone dies injuries trelkovsky begins become obsessed point believing death caused rest tenants buildingbr br sharing claustrophobic feeling apartmentthemed films repulsion rosemarys baby film focuses bizarre conspiracy may may entirely trelkovskys head catastrophic effects paranoia mind bizarre obsession previous tenantbr br trelkovskys descend darkness portrayed perfectly polanski first performance seems odd wooden slowly one finds polanski acts way trelkovsky meant acted way simpleton almost life traps maddening subworld happens inhabited collection bizarre people supporting actors really gave life people building creating memorable characters important success filmbr br beautiful cinematography polanski employs film helps increase feeling isolation gives life beautiful building serves cage trelkovsky haunting images polanski uses convey feeling confusion madness supernatural beauty makes frightening attractivebr br flaw found film definitely bit slow first may sound turnoff fact slow pace beginning works perfectly mimics trelkovskys boring life gradually enters different realm convoluted storyline definitely easy one understand due many complex layers flaw joy face thoughtprovoking plot onebr br tenant may everyone interested psychological horror surreal story lines pleased experience le locataire really one roman polanksis masterpieces dont knowthree kids wife behind bills mortgage things turned never ending pile shit find anything spending much time thinking things make mistake fuck something run business first year rough wasnt thought assumed id help dont even know writing thing doesnt matter cry whenever look kids faces sat van three hours last night wanting go home went sleep cant avoid want better everything overwhelming pleaded help able wife understand unable fix situation failing many ways goddamn motherfucking damn im still person years think ill end legal reasons thats joke prolly idk well see riding motorbike indian crowded street worst thing dont today first time holy shit almost crashed times people come anywhere rules almost hit kid riding tricycle busy street part speedbraker broken people pass matter narrow side wonder hell dad without crashing anyone lot close calls everytime stress level instantly reaches see everyone bike car cycle tricycle cart coming towards scared seniors came back fully school less week schools online td bc covid cases wow less week huh movies lego movie lego movie lego batman movie walle four years dealing depression finally managed open appointment psychologist im happy going back real school gon na weird transition mostly early getting morning sun never fucking zombies yo wan na wake sometimes stop disappointing family major problems school never gf barely good friends got social life whatsoever support family either suicidal thoughts last years ampxb support hurt getawayi really want run away life right now feel trapped circumstances see one way theory seems easy difficult practice make easier cant cry anywhere dont even room thats piling emotions cant take anymore high school dropout suffering depression anxiety lonely fuckim life look worse dropped high school last year due mental health issues school ultimately unable address school behaviorallychallenged children lot really fucking scary people towered threatened albeit subtly almost every single day go normal high school reject believe tried teachers overworked underpaid lot bullying issues went unresolved one day enough broke crying told really really wanted drop told least live oddly enough went home told mom shit suggested homeschooling research found requirements really lax easily abused homeschooled reality though nothing play video games watch anime day mind understandable reason dropped inexcusable sit nothing free time now year later filled even less selfesteem left school constantly suicidal thoughts chronically unable improve make argument ged good probably correct thats im worried see real life friends want make hospitalized recently due telling therapist wanted kill hospital another kid dropped everyone shat constantly saying hes gon na end prison never gon na wife job etc saw cry moment got hit much builtup anxiety suicidal ideation returned now stronger whos gon na want date high school dropout gon na well paying nonminimum wage job going make good friends fuck kill now chance death redflagim years old addicted heroin years past year ive rehab times already know one day im going kill purposely take hot shot end painlessly whats called oh yeah yandere find one want yandere gf find one wish balls iti nothing life im years old wife kids job nothing look forward except wish goddamned pussy finally went ending studied exam week got b instead hate blood tests come flirty friend found profile fucking kill said flirtatious messagescomments worry much life worry always hating keep people want think want matter many times times person tell worry care listen parents mentioned price therapy care pain l cared burden existence putting people around care reasons want diei hate burning desire destroy hate feel useless waste space hope meaningful future incapable forming meaning bonds others marfans worse age even stopped self destructive shit im still royally screwed cant even fully open psychologist without dissociating complete failure human finally im tired putting happy face entire world thinks im fine want end cant life find protective factors hold jimmy jimsonweed update seed pod opened seeds look little premature im going see successfully grow anything datura stramonium toxicityhigh careful sometimes forget havent publicly told age happening anytime soon tell pretty much anyone dm think made mistake much jagerbombs cant sleep think fucked please help mei know one cant take anymore tried reaching friends know im einstein cant look mirror without looking hand favorite playlist ill listen rate promise gib hair ideas want different hair hair straight blond fine longish side part ear length probably good idea cuts colours styles everythings open life hardbarely two months year want live everyone laugh whats threatening push edge might failing module second year collegei know hysterical somebody prepare kill something silly final straw actual reason feel im mentally ill unable cope life maybe made life anyway everything held precariously together year bad know keep going fail uni drop mentally ill job waiting tables rest life id alone id die anyway feel done feel sick overwhelmed anymore sorry want go fail university point people think dating anyone younger wrong mean im im supposed find someone exact age wrong year difference rantlike even gf exhausting overshared sometimes reaction pleasant cautious much thoughts displaying keep rambling bad feel feel bad people seem either run bullshit npclike script able deal depression everything fine snap apparently keep whining shitnot words gfi glad joined self help group people suffering depression least rantvent people still hurts tho gf feel feeling right understandable rude sometimesbefore guys ask yes happy moments feel need somebody talk frustrated depression well hello upset feeling well people acting flip fucking switch happy mode people close exhausting need wear happy mask years hoping pain kinda start accept wont make alivetwo years passed first met psychologist concerning suicidal thought ive lost passions everything visual artist musician enjoyed movie lost see everything mundane hateful aspect life hate fact everything distract us inevitable pain death years developed hatred people warmth social relationship even love see pain everything even joyful aspect life stop craving love human interaction even sex bright man difficult years slowly turns usually called late s single men whos living moms basement nothing process lost job lost community circle distant family im basically numb failure occasionally read people tried convince suicidal persons abort intention mainly saying life beautiful yet reach joyous point amidst worsening condition life point getting better better convinced think two years enough ive tried everything tried wake early sport stay positive time even last three days every time tried tried involved social works ended abandoning midproject disappointing everyone tried job always failed interview due unmotivated tendency entertained chance studying used professors references number failed scholarship applications tried talk parent best say im apostate money cant professional mental therapy country even anything national redflag prevention lifeline ive tried everything cant hold longer want bee want alot things im rough patchi persistent depression anxiety persistent depression continuous severe sometimes flairs though major depressive episodes im afraid starting another one episode last almost year got beginning take medication im afraid happening cant live kind pain past days really rough ive depending weed still taking medicine regularly maybe much supposed taking twice day take religiously morning didnt wake crying morning least thats worst kind day today im dull cant go anywhere really much ive wanted hurt point want live intend toover year ago made irreversible mistake expect going cost life found friends imagine thats karma works reap sow fucked ran far away live side state outrun mistake carry immense shame remorse guilt happened reeks im shitstain surround think worst possible thing person multiply im trying grow every day shame gets worse feel shot moment take shot everyone says im good person inhuman acted impulse cost everything cant go back change intend die fucking character forever cursed ive given ambitions artist incase chance actually somewhere though doubt banana piece sold really art word spreads friend mentor found put spot read eyes liar said watched cry disappointed knew im trying move come halt know itll come bite ass someday tomorrow later life im going gun license shoot spot hear come point feel blessed life go way sleep streets immense damage feel worthy happiness comes way people nice feel immense shame im fucking fraud deceiving nice persona knew happened theyd throwing stones abolished live absolute fear every single day happened coming light im sure will deserve live time dying easy way intend make life harder guess actually rotting feel many expectationsi feel much pressure many things fail made fun instead supported feel couldnt even kill people see weak dont want people think want kill saying threat feel real support expected deal knew itbasically thats going take now access something small easy quiet quick pain anger sadness tears thing thats getting now light end tunnel fuck want die christmas eve good life apparently friends girlfriend family hates wants die leave cant stop remembering past idea kill months worth wellbutrin months worth seroquel want take end past fucking haunting cant know anymore pointthere point life anymore cant job im live parents boyfriend constantly tries help telling need job know need fucking hard im worthless human past days ive tired alive want life already im exhausted last night pressure chest hard breathe sudden waves bursting tears im much coward cant want live finally confessed bf im tired alive told want want gf said problems well see ending life im crying much everything thinking ending life stupid support one takes seriously say im fucking depressed want die never amount nothing end parents working paycheck paycheck trying make ends meet dreams stupid boyfriend probably hates leave find someone prettier happier point wishing someone elsei know break cycle im desperate someone tell im awful person cant tell anyone thats exactly think even bothering write utter desperation feel alone core day die thought well cant put words im sorry ill stop posting now seriously contemplated redflag never followed made continue livingi depression im hysterically sad anything right now ive come realization simply anything want live closest thing feel live right now help parents pay house debt gratitude much helped even motivation greatly hinges emotionalmental well eg whenever piss makes want help maybe job becomes unbearable biggest reason im still alive im afraid family react im gone besides absolutely passion life seriously highlight day eat even moment becoming bland every day things used make happy primarily video games excite anymore lost nearly interest life ive lost nearly motivation speaking people going sound weird contradiction mind feels theres tornado inside filled stress confusion associated life responsibilities heart feels low unmotivated want guys think im planning killing soon anything seriously want give stuff save sever contact family friends take bus beach figure im sick thisive left friend today cant much mean talk week even much work spends rest time boyfriend even said sorry neglecting friendship connections guess friend used talk lot best friend im best friend least said feel freaking lonely without feel thinks important killing person anymore friend mom loves course things chest anything know trust perfect mom really good friend someone talk stuff first time thinking redflag im weak anything unless painless firearm annoying feeling able anything find another relatively painless method cant either live alone sad horni back dont even know wasnt even anything randomly happened make two days without horni guess im strong enough grandparents best parents actually respect sick tired parents shouting always treating children lesser respect another normal human gf cant stand presence parents actually moved grandparents college even ease journey campus escape toxic environment fast personal experience usually better mood staying gparents kid went mountain house summer homework calmness maybe college late highschool years long time together parents cant stand us much cant stand know insane grandparents feel average less insane parents help pleaseim depressed suicidal cut lot good ways stop cutting hate want stop cant anyone good tips tricks love help one thing im goneits wire opened bottles lysol right besides bathroom im ready hours agonizing pain culminate blissful silencing constant ups downs cruel consciousness leave tell one thing world worth conscious time experience edit gon na provide context im th grade grades sucks parents consistently told im ruining family keen interest getting inebriated im anorexic guy fucks sake really hung friends much months caught ounce hasheesh tabs lsd family moved shanghai china life laundry list shit ive always fascinated ninjistsu know go beyond ninja iii fun creepy intriguing ninja gets shot police uses spirit revenge victim lovely young woman named christielucinda dickey falls cop involved shooting love scene pours v body knocked ninjas death gets attention another japan named yamadasho kosugi comes america save christie put ninja back grave simply put yamadas left eye shurikenthrowing star fight scenes excellent liked part plywood falls yamada splits foot caught tells officer christie involved everything fine rule thumb never estimate ninja took cops without killing thing without worry course chirstie best trying put ninja place using tool revenge good movie great martial arts buffs stars women hate mewhy hate never speak never acknowledge presence shoot front crowd one care listened people started therapy started going gym helping giving short little bursts happiness last hours crashes driving closest point redflag ive females came together decided make life living hell least painful method redflag im thinking drugspainkillers alcohol cant take anymore start crying middle class cry wake nothing working dont know anymoreall want kill faith god doesnt help makes feel ungrateful god dont know think fine minutes even hours im back wanting die cant stand person living planet im much pussy actually cant focus work id tell mom last time told problems made cry dont want make cry anymore im sorry making guys read pointless vent helpme going dad know asking want come want said never said want come wanted know going dad exactly say know sorry make sense english tricky translate native language dad always ges mad reason really messing considered normal hanging least painfuli thought overdosing jumping etc think hanging technically least painful unless break neck shit know write thisi cant feel happy ive depression almost year cant ampxb whenever something ask need go school good job need good job earn money need earn money buy need need buy need go job vicious cycle began feel pointless point feel living worthless ampxb whenever good grades school mum goes im proud whenever bad grades school mum goes im taking away phone laptop matter much stupid number worthless test considered bad student cant learn fucking literature even good grades every subjects ampxb im done everything mostly im trapped mind cant escape even cell open took part online course learned art sales learnt wanted school guess took zero action isolated noone even help ampxb cant live im wothy living agree operate principal help help themself cant even help even bit whats point livining cant help ampxb post jack trades im feeling bit dizzy day cant concentrate well ampxb im sure want accomplish post felt writing thanks reading something clear americans racist trigger happy bad people ive seen alot people thinking memeing lately id say america isnt actually complete hell hole miss school break chit chat deep group conversations hard tell people things ignore messages miss making eye contact class knowing talking miss commuting school everyday exausting day full loved much miss turning eachother class discuss math answers leaving school together metro meeting everyone front school loved ths time spent everyone group looking forward everyday sure ignored still want drink goes awayi feel stupid good night tonight hate want want redflag want im weak hurts even morei cant even bring commit redflag want im weak make end im lazy spoiled stubborn even fix use ive given actually life waste want give want drink goes away fascinating movie based true story australian woman lindy chamberlain meryl streep accused killing baby daughter insists dingo took baby story highly suspicious film actually media circus took place around case way australians interpreted presented media lynch mob mentality ultimately led womans conviction based barely hard evidence love films question media films take hard look people railroaded justice system ive always thought juries showed angry men go duties often said liberal movie clinical look human beings interpret events based much prejudices desire revenge cry dark likewise clinical schepisi careful make film melodramatic may find film boring dry found engaging year old romaniam boy currently suffering redflag depressiom existential crysis sometimes wish die never existed suicidewhen talk people age often redflaged anxious behave differently often understand happens question something wrong society accept find anyone behaving similar feels stranger avoid peoplethe time feel confortable around people public someone trust alone makes feel unsafe anxiousi see alone know dohighschool redflagfull annyoing classmates talk important stuff happening friends basically go highschool feel unconfortable even feel eating leaving classroom outside class friend talk rarely similar understand time makes valuable person gayi know want life wish normal everyone know spend day home using pc smartphone dissapointed living lifestyle afraid social life numb nothing live might goodbyeif button press instantly end life wouldve pressed years ago ive come realization life never better never weight want never medication never find someone love never father didnt molest never mother dont resentment towards never choice past make choice future one trying come best ways happen shotgun traumatic around hanging debating carbon monoxide moms coworker recently ended successfully tips saw beyond rangoon times good first watched saw story laura bowman later multiple showings realised parallel documentary came mind story aung san suu kyi struggles women remain strong face uncertainty danger sadness put history politics list viewing learn lot burmas past present guess future movie one want see one definitely want copy movie easily seen whole family although children thirteen educational benefits movie understated dad told thinks dog gon na die give reasons shoot happensor tell dog die vomiting pooping blood took vet prescribed medicines diet im afraidi need help im terrified im tired thoughts fuck thoughts im sick comfortable thought ending know im equally afraid going hospital itll end car go itll destroy everything ive worked years build fuck know need help please someone help aside titles new sherlock holmes movie think ive watched every movie guy ritchie directed twice needless say im big fan revolver one highlighted reasons movie different approach ritchie look comparatively lock stock snatch revolver sets us psychological thriller sorts gambling con finds mercy set foes expect guided walk redemption know needed along seeing andr benjamin outkast fame strut acting ability standout acts ray liotta playing maniacal mr dmacha mark strong playing sorter hitmanbr br sent prison tyrannous casino owner macha jake uses time solitary finesse plot humiliate macha force hand compensating seven years spent wins card game amasses decent sum macha jake finds brink death collapses diagnosed incurable disease thats left three days live team loan sharks answer ticket life gives money relents working ploy take macha show jake dangerous made along air death loom pair loan sharks field day money jake deal hit put introduces sorter hitman machas employ depth story comes jake realizes co convicts spent time solitary may verywell loan shark team take crafting unfortunate events jake seems find way faced reality though zack vincent pastore avi show jake twisted become solitary company mind ego makes actual existence elusive even jake movie unravels humbling process jake macha come grips inner demonsbr br style movie topnotch gritty feel crime world represented characters includes although lot nods ritchies previous films still presence dialogue sets experimental take gangster genre great trip humility recognizing easily let ego preset notion mask ability accomplish want overcome characters well crafted movie sides fleshed true ritchie fashion theyre tied underhandedness throws wrench everyones affairs go film unique nuances want take much away seen yetbr br may take sittings intricate layers great movie seen lucky seen watereddown us release see original uk version make great discussion piece among friends try puzzle take saw crew around early still talking little things weve picked today garnered cult status well deserved film ritchie stepped box broke norm bitbr br standout line fear revere please think im special share addiction approval junkies timehow much codeine need end im interested pity etc want sure die become ill combination pills alcohol speed process ta podcast thats run teenagers hey guys made podcast thats entirely made run teenagers talk school mental health everything want check episodes yt link herehttpsyoutubebobnqludig spotify link herehttpsopenspotifycomshowrjxwynxgsvmurzjzxysigkohwtorxcrgxnpavbpig please leave feedback comments caught fiance cheating less four months away thought going make want face future anymore fault stupid really thought going make caught texting people times went therapy life moved decided away maryland away drama found thyroid cancer texting people surgery thyroid removed whole time hes telling theres nothing worry loves focused us relationship entire wedding planned paid every surface apartment covered engagement photos initials everything said loved said loved feel disgusting fat filthy alone really thought finally made really thought future life look forward nothing nothing want feel alone worthless anymore nothing helping want gone way know work id right pills synthroid tums im second floor hurt bad strange thoughts morningafter watching video someone posted dying words one front pagethe guy leukemia suddenly started feeling selfish condition known depression find using sometimes almost crutch went hating embarrassed fully embracing talking openly comparing someone cancer makes feel utter douche signed back license weeks ago make organ donorjust case something happen made feel good morning watching video washed overwhelming feeling selfish living people need organs dying go ahead die someone live taking space whining problems someone lot potential never overwhelming actually scaring lot im kind freaking moment admitting ive thinking killing soso suicidal thoughts gotten worse dont know bring ik suicidal feel selfish tell figure let someone know case actually advice appreciated found ex attempted redflag overdose called icu called emergency services even though want upset recovers prevent againim sosorry long detailed work colleague months moved andi got know properly together almost years left really good terms left knew much work us im christian partpalestinian jewish partisraeli deep relationship hesitant hesitant familys reaction sexualityreligious ethnic backgrounds went knew chance long term relationship us worked london far away families live outside city cambridge educated one brightest quickest minds one difficult prestigious careers mind told need check months definitely well moving finding someone placed missed call yesterdaymorningand icalled back later nightto check whyi anxious pick upbecause callmeant something serious told called hear voice apologise telling work knew something triedto stay calm possible told lovely hear asked herwhere anyone heretc told alonein flat apologised calling earlier dealing small overdose knew medical attention finished call without telling driving flat got toher flat told wanted see tospeak let quiet nobody spoke minutesuntil noticed getting sofa went held really tight didntwant leave didntwant go sight second knew extra careful words come hospital sat talking everythingfor good hours tell visible pain tried subtle possible told lets go together check quick check see whats going itllultimately choice whether want treatment told go wanted wait home everything end silent said ifeltlike fucked words shedidntbudge left flat sat cari sit home andlet happen walkedback flat hours later called emergency services begged come check somehow convinced arrived dontknow icould call knew relationship one areoutside city soi almost physicalsupport ive slept long called sick work today gets upset mewhat help prevent repeated future please anything think helped someone know dont know needs read hope good night love kings extremely redflaged well night gave pressure cut redflag relief scared tell therapist want go psych ward self harmed first time years cant normali cant anymore life miserable anxiety depression cant handle anymore seeing peers time lives sitting home time even tho go panic attacks feel uncomfortable hate every single year feels worse worse tried talk people cant people dont feel anxiety talking parents couple friends close play games together sometimes go feel im gon na lose cause dont want go cause anxiety professors making life even harder cause keep humiliating ive bullied cant keep going anymore im tired plus im living small town poor country dont know going future feel life ilussion lost hopepower feeds soul us within reach desolation loneliness powerlessness lacking dissociation dissatisfaction posseses body times might feel bad darkness void us fallen even deeper pit bodies husked horns death rejection abuse lies hate sometimes breakers always cant make someone care darkness chose worth anything life bring us pain made clear hope distant dream locked behind doors key amount sacrifice amount mourning amount forgiveness predisposition suffering help find brokens resolve thin foundation reality many us escape others stand laugh pain destiny favored ones loved pangs reality crush heart mind one one future luxury spec hope suffering lies hate disappointment tears punishment void noore laughing pain frowning upon death fresh death pure death greets never abandons death lie feel life steals cheats lies corrupts tortures pain life less life peace guys talk go urself literally fullon conversations lol may going crazy scroll lost cause hereno friends life change mind cant deal sadness breaking st girlfirendi broke girlfriend months relationship im class good much things made us different tried sad five days breakup found best friend kissing party felt train hit looking smelling perfumes talking makes even depressed miss want kiss want end life im back day ban lol dont even think anybody reporting im pretty sure bot trying cover hateful content redflag attemptsnot even death wabt geez school antiabortion club still hasnt shut even someone made fun girl got raped front principal pretty much high school antiabortion club fucking stupid preach life life matter group students showed protest club club meetings school theyve said horrid things people club unironically said girl gets raped baby matter predetermined father say students got extremely mad said one girl got emotional talked experience raped disgusting say guy said crying wont unrape principal front principal fucking chuckled cracked smile fuck tv movie definately worth seeing acting well done story touching universal theme readseen original rule cant stand shakespeare enjoyed moviethe civil war setting well done well dont expect see epic find moving enough enjoy way side note compare movie matter original work movies supposed transfer book screen rather take general idea adapt story people say book much better theyre usually wrong anyway really trying say book different completely losing hope begin withuh hey im still posted yesterday well technically two days ago cares shit keeps getting worse seems though life tries push edge well basically love girl cant possibly wanted kill yesterday today mom stopped noticed shook pulled girls vk russian facebook account well said something redflag option left hours point suicidal kinda knows want gone reached got talking well girl taken knew long ago learn got proposed b may cancer waiting test results know think shit keeps getting worse wounds keep getting deeper im contemplating ending now mean know absolutely obliterate want finally stop communicating kill later wanted happen im confused went suicidalworry hurryabsolutely broken span day know whats happening anymore im lost killed chance im gojng tk high kill mysfi dont knkw im posting dont thinm talking help especially dont feel typing wjsh someone really true redflag hotlines call cops bit crisesim middle desert doubt find either way scared set firei feel nothing want feel alive want destroy ultimately want loved want stability care praise thatll never happen ive accepted want put cigarettes thighs kiss lips tear say want die want another life really want escape everythings fucked im fucked im slut use people distractions feel trapped claustrophobic hate much ill never good enough please kill nothing nothing anyone wan na chat bit nothing lol day weekend nothing lmao please entertain talk im age important hate existing cant take anymore cant person able connect toi able first relationship ive almost decade person able feel anything cant stop obsessing recently found might something called limerence want make stop cant dont know know pathetic cant eat move sleep cant bed really anything resembling functioning person therapists psychiatrist psychoanalyst psychologist life advocate spent time residential day mental hospitals ive sent wilderness program months spent year therapeutic bonding school will bounced around high schools held back year function depression take medications day sleeping pills night rarely sleep pop ups dreams makes worse almost embarrassed ashamed main problem causing many waves life im feel years life stolen depression live home cant job go school choose cant fucking anymore need stop every day look revolver bought think terrifying unknown nonexistence seems better constant pain live horrible existential dread fear death struggle think everyone dies eventually even sun eventually die consume earth even whole universe eventually retract self end existence reality know seems better option take inevitability hands unfeeling universe creates things consume story met girl small artsy alternative high school around lets say course months became really good friends knew completely love worked courage tell felt started dating girl little weird love either notice didnt care examples phase wearing wolf tail thinking kind animal spirt something wore lord rings cloak lot time bit another phase transgender new thing one alternate personality named shadow hated seemingly switching old one attention bother time person felt kind connection entire life dont know due fact adopted dont feel anything real connections people family ive never real friends either social skills knowledge make never found anyone wanted connect beyond surface level interaction dont currently friends even anyone talk anyone outside house beyond basic interactions people buying things passively existing world girl something something made feel complete felt better motivation things accomplish even tried absolute hardest move grade school time thought spending year without time horrible thing imagine current psychoanalyst thinks sensory issues spd part autism spectrum stuff main issue may may true know person wanted touch touched mainly sexual thing ive never liked hugged touched family anyone made feel even isolated parents slightly distant sad hated people physically showing affection never wanted different loved never enough point im sure annoyed push away physically emotionally pull back constantly although never actually sex thats detail help think things make happy think things want main thing pops constantly hug nothing hold long lounge feeling someone friend group seemed value relationship times publicly break stay secretly even put phone contact fake name unattractive kind person people feel shame around normally something head group seeing differently seeing girl something although want high school boys want play finger fencing girl desperately trying touch breast often break things devastated come back letting win back want put mainly trying talk thinking friends ignoring altogether russia lived mom assume father issues obsessed knives weapons took many different fighting martial arts classes even medical sword fighting course time seemed cool anything talk hours hours got know incredibly well although things never tell things found analyzing things facebook yeah pre facebook remember details almost wanted people follow breadcrumbs learn personality constantly gave gifts mostly specialized knives weapons mildly illegal desperate show felt form kind powerful bond harder break quite bit talking wasnt person though texting messaging breakups happened never face face one particularly devastating time came parents made easter basket never gotten one life fun time weekend next thing heard something trying push away often spent night others houses think non americans accepting parents knew important never full one sex desperate literally sleep literally cuddle bed sleep wake thats never got although fair amount cuddling loved handful relationships despite best efforts never care way feel anything truly loved girl sadly still finally ended good one summer spent entire day together talking apologizing hurting many times promising never break things guessed break next morning fucking text caused year old write verry angry violent letter spread around school sparking become multi year downfall seen maybe times years always writing long winded letter planning elaborate meeting designed rekindle feelings foot back door russian restaurant presented sword ring made accepted time mailed back full sized sword rejection letter mail recently saw months ago asked help explained life mental state gave full control time place etc picked city square used meet took basically walking tour landmarks tired memories uncanny mean literally every single one boston relatively small city sure met anywhere picked square met infront library walked park finally told felt even ended abandoned hotel ballroom hard explain used go time hang powerful times spent together claimed remember purpose hard time forget took edibles medical card bought cry infront talked boy backfire took one one even offer one claimed come man quite bullshit weak ones similar note first time real sexual contact together smoked weed fake weed plus never inhaled correctly bong got full hit high way matters drugs fake plan anything taking advantage real weed time really wanted seem cooler looking back time thought seemed needed excuse bogus catalyst act feelings believe feelings stronger allowed realize wanted believe edibles seemed need fake reason act buffer people objective reality someone dealing severe alcoholism drug addiction understand craving need put something reality seems weird point want obsession stop didnt want choose cant fucking thing head really running life still cant make stop point understand objectively horrible person claimed caused obsessive behavior others met one online long time ago little girl went school kind pheromone thing animal magnetism charisma still even last meeting something makes feel whole feel physical hole heavy weight center torso never goes away currently using parents money travel job dads shady russian tech company really unhealthy poliamerus sexual relationship guys seems built around commit center attention times really cant see future happy without know unlikely healthy horrible person thats really want fuck two wrongs dont make one right bullshit filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler anyone feel normal feel im missing teenager nothing quarantine lately ive realised dont really interesting life maybe two friends occasionally hangout sports friends live one talk school ive never hooked anyone ones expressed slight interest feel life tv show movie even though know thats unrealistic ive left behind anyway good night guys thanks listening fellow kids bruh im never getting help depressed months im better school still go psychologist cut early autumn bruh well job im getting depressed anymore im afraid now hard explain mostly distressed going know triggered huge influx people asking crushes im happy may days come filled happiness ill join ranks non single eventually brethren breaks heart talking family members love meim genuinely grateful family know care ive alone away family another country years got chance talk couple havent seen zoom call got emotional cried call really love people want die know dont want hide keep pretending care career im invested world dont want wicked enough bring try make convince keep living im done ready die zoom call cousin called tried ask issues tell im suicidal really wish tell family desire die oblige im scared hurting living life daily hurting know im ungrateful im genuine say really want die nothing life thanks reading sharing thoughts help may concernto may concern letter explain choose take life years old easiest times dad left years ago stole life savings meaning forced take loan university little money im studying students made worse fact know dad took money pissed wall past months probably hardest ive encountered life want see doctor months verge tears sad upset reason hard next months worse see light end tunnel girlfriend breaking point im ready go pretty much mum great person cancer depression dad left leaving care look best mum done amazing job mostly sister well way success enjoying rest life pursuing dream unfortunately think achieve know feel doesnt know scars ive done relieve pain away home ups downs said summer comes leave go home things worse im ready go want think concidered seeing doctor many times im either embarrassed think rut friends time great friends go people best mourn passing grieve better place even afterlife heaven better planet know go take last breath breath coming soon within next weeks people took piss bullied said anything succeed fuck thank x im breaking pointim beginning realise sad reality lifes unfair matter much try better matter much think youre whats right best still likely come empty handed doesnt help people thought cared arent anymore either ive tried past months ignore thoughts need vent know feelings nonsensical im point dont care selfish cant even express vent app without someone seeing bitching complainingthis dont open cause people dont care say shut stop whining someone kills exact people say reach someone wtf life theres nothing left worth keepingi objectively failure human ive let reach point brain rot job higher education source income survive leeching mother given trying make something life left house minutes time past years convenience store night junk food ive even lost taste food junk life nothingness ive allowed reach point ive lost change day write drivel internet part control family mentally emotionally abused early went extremist religious brainwashing younger feel caused lasting damage makes impossible function society cant help therapists country know anything particular religion ones understand followers longer support system world type trauma afflicted besides cant afford therapy anyway im neet im fucked front know move somehow cant find feel broken beyond salvation ive shutin long im afraid outside world cant job im scared people im unable look anyone eye cant job interviews qualifications online job hate hate appearance skin color religious name feel hated everyone every place go cant seen people even online support communities help accept people shun turn reason room place feel safe may live rest life feel worth live clothes uncomfy wtf wasnt living family think id nudist home emotionally unavailable yeah want relationship never one im simply afraid open jazz fucked exams upi messed bad fucked gpa fucked fucked cant fucking even stupidity promised mess sitting bathroom im hurting itll hurt take exams make dumb mistakes anymore enough fine fail accept failure move better okay cant know hurts way stop thinking failure much want dig brain stop thinking keep laughing making jokes feel sadness anger disappointment itching need hurt painful im focusing pain suddenly thats think nothing feels liberating almost want die time want die mother grieve things live im still child things want see go know long keep going feelings throw building guys big pp reads ur welcome explain posts body longer gt dead chickens seem metaphor lifeim religious anything feel im cursed anything touch turns shit woke morning chickens lying dead yard one beheaded seems metaphor everything really think nurture something care try best know giant bloody fucking mess started gradually shit piling im sure much longer im going handle im sick trying putting effort everything stay even worse spent months saving last year nice little pile cash start new life reasons control lost job housemate time fucked money thats small blip tempted od one thought keep trying harder try shitter things losing job started snowing lost place boyfriend pets im living back dad presents problems much choice last lived early teens pretty abusive drunk day still host mental health problems know know change things cant work im sure cant despite best efforts knocked back every interview know people namely ex seem think matter attending psychologist appointments ive done past whole shebang feeling better improve everything feels universe even though know sounds stupid mean even start healthier less suicidal everything going fall back place much random shit constantly goes wrong believe true last week chickens died randomly laptop broke library internet fucked whole host family drama bore even list goes know people vastly different lives make sense brothers girlfriends welfare long nice place nice things live suitcase extremely mentally unstable fathers house know sounds jealousy know kid tantrum want things better improve without break im functionally retardedi give im entered graduate school feel socially im retarded fuck enough date without knowing failed said social encounter end last year lost one relationship helped view world less callous banal place id began abusing prescription drug ambien addition alcohol hindered cognitive abilities ability cope anxiety depression met drinking talking people stale driftwood amounting great socially acceptable height foot male ive told egotistical conducting inventory whatever qualities feel theres nothing support kind delusional selflove realizing sum things im absolutely terrible academics social situations value self often think redflag solve anything certainly burden others either said single word another human four days last four weeks interactions brief coworkers work work remotely way interactions fucking lonely starting fuck head moving soon live join clubs anything really need support anyone help lonely depressed want pain means touch againmy negative thoughts keep pulling deeper cant anything stop point constant control know keeps repeating head actually lying easier lie came close hurting pain less pain comes thoughts lost youth mental illness cant take loneliness anymore id anything forget id give anything held lovingdoing things bad gt getting better anyway every single belief ive betrayed mei remember younger sure beliefs respect people help people obey elders teachers study good boy drink smoke drugs forgive others hurt ignore negative things focus positive ones etc now know whats true false almost beliefs failed im prime example good grades mean triumph life almost everyone used know moved without kept losing friends either conflicts letting fade away acquaintances must mean im wrong least hold blame sometimes im angry family raised old fashioned beliefs overprotected lot younger least malicious intentionsand know tried best im angry old high school classmates everything wanted bullied manipulated used tool ignored treated trash im one needs pick pieces one whos wrong say pain much told act victim quarantine ive realized im alone ive realized lost good qualities said wouldve another person matter now fear rejection stronger wish talk people people already moved went apologize reconnect probably think im making everything thus make things even worse im problem easy answer im problem ive always problem stupid stupid planning kill semesteri feel living wasted first two years engineering classmates ml cp whatnot wasting time idiot think job offers coming developing country average guy sucks tried finding interests move past even basics tried couldnt finding way make easier parents deserve waste space suggestions welcome gun laws strict country buildings higher floors parents always saywhen kids understand never question actually take care kid overgoodnight everyone pray everyone seeking help finds solace late q always love tonights nightits good run ive lot ups downs years caught one moment im losing house ive lost partner im thousands debt cant afford eat havent single friend years now mental health absolutely tanked im probably facing hefty prison sentence future stick around nothing tonight im drinking litre special reserve swallowing four packs acetaminophen slicing length arm open praying god die goodbye make people aware issue please share people know bring attention discord ampxb httpspreviewredditimgbglvulpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsccebaacaeeddaddbbfffdbd feel suffocatedfor little bit background im almost ive dealt reoccurring feelings dread suicidal thoughts perhaps depression around age dealing disordered eating thoughts age recently things happened family things completely control stressing parents sibling came unfortunate news therapy question longer health insurance even see point seeking help overwhelming feelings absolute dread hated thought speaking others especially family friends makes feel panicked want drag people enough theyre dealing plenty everything going problems minute hardly seems matter anyone regardless seem help feel something severely wrong im freak cant function properly unfortunately past ive spoken family treated normal clue whenever im stupid overthinking bother using throwaway none know use reddit update covid wrecking lifei got phone call boss shes daughter owner nice shes called apologiz almost entire main office furloughed im fired things come back im hired back last paycheck friday insurance paid april theyre going help file mass unemployment im going talk landlord rent im going ask friend couch surf case im assuming worst may pack bag amp live street eventually even unemployment ill likely lose every possession outside clothes carry im going look gold card mhmra medication come monday im going go person theyre screening virus athsma issues symptom virus likely ill turned away life ended need figure best way kill now theres hope ideas best way well im optionswent college immature flunked courses nd year first year great girlfriend time hyper organized life wanted impress busted ass thats last time saw found bed summer roommate crushed obviously left losing source organization created disastrous consequences moved friend classes far away school figured great well go morning together keep focused unfortunately didnt give fucks school started skipping well without car minute bus ride best days bad weather started skip well knew leave couldnt job better minimum wage dont car considered militaryafnavy time im flunk another course week im finish th year gpa still credits shy finishing degree fucking hate degree busy depressed anything productive im stuck irredeemable grade field want nothing finance got wrong used find market exciting accounting makes want blow head accounting used know supposed able anything iq clearly anymore varsity captain high school sports teams multiple stateprovincial championships finished top national math contests got sats without studying world oyster caveat bad case adhd dad always paid things necessities ive job support myselfliving arrangements ive hes great guy love dearly never around saw maybe days per month significant mother chronically depressed bipolar disorder career failure might even smarter spent childhood mom bed pm point grab bunch food sit front tv learn cook meals year old reason werent even poor thanks divorce settlement incredibly emotionally abusive whole life growing didnt want anything way embarrass friends always stacks dirty food containers everywhere shed go days sometimes weeks without showering really emotionally stunted always felt inferior kids matter good life super glad picked traits anyway except treat people thats one thing thats different got involved stupid people started drugs way escaping problems instead dealing mostly pot cocaine things got clean start year little late clear mind enough realize fucked im way behind peers even though supposed biggest potential cant imagine bigger letdown dad siblings friends already gone military gotten head straight learned goddamn functional human im turning degree worst transcript youve seen life actually fs ws actually going drop start year exactly getting good enough shape slipped vertebrae lead darkest depression yet medical history depression inability pass fitness test thats completely ruled hindsight think loved pilot move time great kind small group known colleagues better big group office worker anyway ruled im little old pursuing commercial pilot especially consider cost said cant even enlist regular forces let alone highly competitor pilot program medical situation dqs even got job hilariously bad transcript know wouldnt enjoy chosen field ive done internships school clearly isnt answer im able apply anyway wont able loan anyway im completely fucked destined spend next decade life earning less someone potential earning wouldnt tough pill swallow actually liked dont conclusion ive got point id much rather dead alive wasting anymore peoples time effort world doesnt need anymore brilliant losers health massively deteriorated point prime physical attributes gone still coordinated scared heights etc im weak shit slow shit shit cardio always pain back chirophysio didnt shit best friend murdered years ago think set spiral self destruction ill never know sure know im ready end sequels hardly live original definitely proves true case big fan original definitely give watch although camera work lacking brian krauses character annoying plot clique much funnier first find entertaining br br dont see movie expecting performance first film quite frankly bit different rather sitting cabin writing screenplays stanley hollywood trying direct dream project cabin lake movie much different feel still great see stanley back actionbr br im giving im sick wearing mask im sick pretending someone im one actually love really sometimes think easier cut ties everyone know im terrified seeing disappointed eyes find im theyve always known adapted sam shepards play movie retains many playlike elements relatively fixed setting roadside s motel southwest extensive intriguing dialogues woman may hounded man eddie played sam shepard tries hide outoftheway motel finds film explores history relationship mainly childhoods led point easy feel sympathy characters understand dysfunctional present relationship result past events control mainly watch fight make fight make one image stands mind eddie hauling may shoulder kicking screaming taking somewhere want gobr br soundtrack perfect soulful country vocals lesser known artist sandy rogers country doll voice almost yodels points album kind movie stay lodged part brainsoul words go see burdenive battling manic depression kindergarten father help make worse adding ptsd onto list feel im burden live feel people take seriously everyone either says im clown im joking im fake say upset mood never stabilized mood stabilizers im mg prozac mg tenex mg prazasin mg trazedone feel meds help tried talking doctor said prozac know manage manic depression think ill learn forget bad suicidal thoughts start happening againnow im back school depression hit even harder pair increasingly bad obsessive thoughts faltering faith god got recipe disaster taking energy day dinner time im exhausted feels escape pain im surrounded people love emphatic never tell obsessive harm thoughts fear forsaken god feels someone holding shallow water im struggling air keep holding want give doubt around id lying said want hurt sometimes seems way s afghanistan pushtun boy amir zekeria ebrahimi hazara boy hassan ahmad khan mahmoodzada loyal friend son hazara servant ali nabi tanha raised together amirs father house playing kitting streets peaceful kabul amir feels wise good father baba homayoun ershadi blames death mother delivery father loves prefers hassam return amir feels great respect fathers best friend rahim khan shaun toub supports intention become writer amir winning competition kitting hassam runs bring kite amir beaten raped brutal assef elham ehsas empty street protect amirs kite coward amir witness assault help loyal hassam day birthday party amir hides new watch hassams bed frame boy thief force father fire ali releasing conscience recalling cowardice betrayal russians invade afghanistan baba amir escape pakistan simple life fremont california amir graduates public college pride joy baba later amir meets countrywoman soraya atossa leoni married death baba amir famous novelist receives phone call terminal rahim khan discloses secrets family forcing amir return peshawar pakistan journey redemptionbr br familiar afghan culture read novel spite recommendation daughter yesterday decided watch movie dvd found good story loyalty cowardice betrayal redemption brief insight recent history afghanistan peaceful period s present days taliban actors actresses great performances giving credibility realistic story arid locations china recall images see television afghanistan end found kite runner good movie vote sevenbr br title brazil o caador de pipa kite chaser ya know never expected live long dont know never expected live long idk always expected die early highschool whether kms whatever kinda getting stressful thought future careers college starting little late everything bland im tiredi wish know sure peaceful rest side gotten better much wanted teen years hard feel positive emotions trouble keeping job constantly question relationship hate alone im someone im happy either feel trapped ive convinced someone love try work becoming psychologist answers procrastinate assignments gf fight im tired im tired trying right time feel ive made progress younger even try life came way enjoyed rest life hopefully cancer careful others taking advantage people throughout life may meet already involved life someway really steer wrong direction thing usually going creepy looking person doesnt stop talking crappy people seek vulnerable targets take advantage usually someone thought really knew inside change whole perspective youll think take advantage lot older cousin lets take car real quick even though dont even permit counselor assistant lets sneak school minutes early cool aunt everyone family refuses talk begging help finances time labor body emotions ect drain without really realizing youll end vulnerable feel need true bull crap achieve goals good wish someone gave guidance regards people seem trustworthy may quite opposite hope helped someone thanks resource thinks assist emotionally exploitedhttpswwwlifehackorgareyoubeingemotionallyexploited psychological depths ways httpswwwgooglecomampswwwpsychologytodaycomusblogyourpersonalrenaissancewayssomepeoplewilltakeadvantageyoufamp im beyond disappointed myselfim going say today found ex someone cant take happened last year well breaking gutwrenching excruciating thing ive seeing gush another girl way time around graduated never need see oh god stomach knots feel paralyzed many thoughts swirling around mind good enough insist want relationship anyone turn around someone fucking upset possibly happy without hell feel need kind control oh god hate want feel way mind warped toxic cant head cant stop thinking hes going lose virginity someone hes going love someone loved someone going make happier horrible echo chamber mind chorus memememememememe bouncing around killing inside fucking narcissistic thought boy even long dating someone fills jealousy rage pain im afraid ill doomed always jealous obsessive ex want move long time ago even want make post im fucking ashamed still fucking obsessed bitter hate really cant move one stupid piece shit dragged hell fucked living really worth got top roof high school ill going year kinda scary cant ex cant himok im point think talk feel fucking stupid getting worked someone barely know ampnbsp love interest met tinder started talking originally planned hook dirty maybe hang bit relationships strings attached nothing committing type point life travels lot much point relationship game ive already hooked people tinder casual one night stands started messaging back forth meeting getting know bit etc really interesting started getting excited see texted loved sound voice bit scottishbritish accent sounded exotic kind really liked photos profile friend put thought going go really well set date meet pub arrived really expected hey tinder right got talking drinks together initially attractive thought grown facial hair photos bit outgoing tastes getting along hed put hands mine touch face nuzzle affectionate even though bit awkward first drinks came got back place sex etc thought hed leave ended staying night ampnbsp talked liked wed goof around lot made laugh cried hes one funniest charismatic guys id met everything say interesting fascinating everything places hed things hed done views life treated really well always thinking needs first making laugh gently holding always touching stroking cuddling said weird girl one adorable cute girls hed known gorgeous told put needed stop worrying much stop apologizing time made really happy moment handsome guy attracted inside wanted cuddle always hed come wherever went talk made feel loved wanted needed held hand stroked face gave kisses refused let go made feelcontent dress put makeup impress single thing except see truly everything inside personality got chance shine happy body well ampnbsp cuddling nearly slipped said love habit know boyfriend snuggling absent mindedly cooing one another say love contented sigh stopped well met love really something say said already knew going say think crazy first time something happened apologized said cant love yet love person lot great said made heart skip little hated started crying told knew going end badly told borderline personality disorder ultimately fear abandonment attached deeply quickly mentioned wanted let feelings love developing soon die told feelings bad thing wanted feel feel mind long understood commit time life traveling reasons feel way yet know desperate ignorant excited accepted happy hear say love back even meaning hold weight promised never hurt loved human person even together sense lovers wanted part life wanted friend gentle wonderful person felt heart hearts meant sure anyone ability lie buti truly felt meant still days went spent time together staying one night one another turning two three four happy room never ran things talk never left side felt tranquil peace life grew attractive eyes every way even though known long felt best friend someone known life everything unidentifiable familiar quality went pubs together went eat went walks went many events art festival town good content many years despite fact allergies started acting contracted staph infection parents community live town rampant mrsa still texted often hosts house days tying loose ends figuring travel east end week planned ampnbsp decided spend one last night together left ex texted nowhere sent blind panic told together several years broke separate times emotionally unstable blackmailed manipulated staying attempting threatening redflag stopped loving started antidepressants despite never thought ill loved anything always unconditionally told every time gotten back touch always ended back together im freaking fuck chance picture now sick rage tears completely shattered felt robbed chance even began try told reason commit still loved ex probably always closest person whole entire life closer family even though together knew shed never shouldnt back together sake still hopelessly love deserving unconditional love well told touch anymore touched tried comfort harder falling wanted feelings desperately die want feel anything anymore wrong wrong want fall trap told know commit relationship even future anyone firmly believed still love ex sure hed understood family member friend lover falling outs fights never really forget even years later feelings still hes hes younger years may wise mark likes think rationally emotionally knows cant back together still theres lot emotion lot tension feel im living shadow ex love interest said cared lot ex hed heart beat cares great deal situation causing pain wanted friends promise wed together know hurt wanted cut life completely might answer still partially want every time think heart hurts think lot growing ampnbsp hes left east train now offered take travels come time wanted really wanted cant said hes probably good make long term plans schedules hitchhikes couch surfs drinks lot loves dangerous situations lots socializing strangers one favorite things go super crowded pub shoulder shoulder locals chat strangers make new contacts sorts things worst nightmare now im looking back rational standpoint probably love probably desperate needy human connection someone want tender make feel special needed incredibly handsome cute though good bed even well endowed average best thats generous always took needs consideration first hes heavy drinker heavy partier care consequences lives life recklessly cant thrives danger unknown never plans never cares takes life one day time survives gets cant either although parts personalities overlap lot goals views world different people left feeling alienated abandoned times want admit even short time less aware craving love human affection gentleness tenderness alone year without things daydreamer hopeless romantic needy clingy wanting passionate intense something dropped lap gave even though knew horrible idea end pain desperate anxious chance matter dismal odds happiness towards wasprobably infatuation liked idea represented want need adventure breaking chains bind traveling world seeing sights experiencing life offer saw looks completely inconsequential saw soul needed even need treasure looking find turned blind eye many cons blissfully drinking ignorance moment felt high situation way lied intentionally hurt circumstance person person im fighting killing feelings trying keep alive slightest tiniest chance years now might able try meantime itd hurt constantly knowing hes talking ex thinking ex love distant afterthought hes still obsessed cant live even friends ive distanced time need time grieve heal still entirely know make feel im angry betrayed heartbroken frustrated im many things writing ive given final phone call summed mentioned post told even stay friends damaging right now hurts much fucking much think best ampnbsp tldr bpd sorts attached guy barely knew scared whats next scared self harming tendencies suicidal thoughts happened never wet dream one heck question change suicidaljust question curiosity want know better help crying car abandoned parking lot cant explain goodbad feels right now havent cried years lost emotion least know still wish someone rn cause im gon na go drive movie bit buy pretzels ask random ass shit im bored fillllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllller fed life ask part ofi wan na life cuz situation family put plus put future dont want locked medicated besides redflagbeen depressed nearly years tried everything give im going die dont know thats psych drug pushers people threatening lock anything im missing depressed divorcedrinkingfailing school time hospitalized weeks getting drunk threatening hang depressed never friend isolated alone zero self esteem whole life end first time opened family bad felt everything except suicidal encouraged move home unemployed hated home friends got even worse paid thousands see therapist got temp job quit drinking major issue patient program weeks tried two antidepressants exercised ate better self help books fucking everything sertraline days gave horrible reaction begun hear thoughts night hypnagogia wellbutrin gave tinnitus symptoms still stopping drugs doctor doesnt give shit wanted take try new ones spinning wheel picking random drugs toy sensitive nervous system got accepted college program september got summer job started week eight hour shift work hour rest time even boss smokes makes stupid jokes government job see family weekends im alone every night cottage woods friends fucking depressed despise every way always hate breathing air im losing mind cant handle alone theres one therapist hour radius tried week kind sucks already doesnt listen wants take drugs almost hospitalized everything feels fucking pointless dont give shit anything cant connect anyone totally hopeless future dont understand people live people kids people work honestly feel barely anyone happy people trapped biology force live stupid im going keep working manual labour crummy jobs whole life alone forever always feel much shame guilt self hatred man feel sicking breaking back cold barely skimp overpriced gouging economy barely hour going bed wake pointless boring stupid fucking job dont want alive fact literally thing keeping alive past year dont want destroy family fuck seriously need big change cant talk anyone shotgun taken ill locked lose job shamed everyone miss college forcefully injected drugs even talk anyone anyone wants put everyone drugs youre treated though youre delusional rejecting treatment give really want destroy family never wanted fucking fault hurt never wanted least know tried least years good times thing care thing feels real yet dont even along anymore think im better dont talk personal stuff going come shock still ive taken care affairs spot picked know exactly aim shotgun ill drunk phone home dad amd gf weekend thats time fill disgusting brain lead im going butif killed right now totally convinced everyone happy im finally gone hurts know read read obamas voice fellow americans president united states enormous erection michelle let cuck speech hard fact break diamond thank god bless america may cute deathmy brother sent text couple months passed away stated cancer pain intense internally secretly scream death find thing except pain cancer everything goes emotional psychological pain attempted anything although close something day week death months later im still mostly auto pilot grief worst strongest emotion ive felt ive always depressedanxiouspassively suicidal pain intense always see people dying news one thing another deaths make dying look easy wonder turn death fines probation courtordered anger management classes debt final notices bills totaling little people care im actively suicidalright feeling suicidal pretty much everyday used try tell parents dont even anything feel ignored really cared went mental hospital two times back lasts weeks dont care much mean know probably dont want stay night listening cry repeat everything dont know keep thinking try attempt outcomes seem good first one die freed pain living second parents care weeks feel hopeless dont know anyone wanted minecraft never got idk parents never got minecraft want spending money video games fine wondering anyone kinda craved minecraft never happy christmas everybody president teens used powers come executive decision skip august september october november year pretty bad declared today th december christmas day lets play game filler fill fill fill fillffill fill use emojis guess music genre advice wtf even im bit bizarre relationship girl im m senior year high school ive known girl years near beginning junior year invited house halloweeni admitted liking liked back dated months broke due fact classes together well hour long study period ended seeing eachother every weekday ended still friends fast forward summer still talking text messages boyfriend dumped herno big deal continue talking tells still likes shes ready date still recovering previous ex says tell ready date want give second chance add girl likes play girl really bad bfs past genuinely nice person still kind wait next brush thing keeping fear causing painive wanted die long time many reasons many wonderful people life cause pain regular basis due substance abuse issues dont want burden trying hard better getting better slowly slowly cant stand fuck ups along way cause much pain ones love thing worse make one find dead body wish erase existence without trace memory soonive lost hopes ive reason keep fighting mental illness let consume let pain engulf option end never better ive waited years years full hope shot happiness everyone around making things worse illness perfect punishment someone ungrateful either die live failure life cant anymorei know sounds cliche really cant even know look life constant fluctuation positive negative cant stand torture anymore taunting goodbye suicidal bros feel belongi writing know add want disappear escape world living simply die existence know place carpal tunnel cubital tunnel armsmy elbow nerve pain bend wrists hurt try use phone type computer write still type tough week especially going worst year life cares amirite honestly want die sure ill figure really care much life anymoreim full selfhatred im constantly lonely depressed ocd im constantly bombarded evil thoughts im single shitty job enough energy motivation pursue dreams anymore find solace jesus feel enough sometimes want anymore thats train holding union soldiers transporting gold along banker clayton whos see reaches destination suddenly robbed bandit monetero bahunda nicks gold hides monetero tries hes killed soldiers clue medallion monetero captured soon executed stranger dressed priest comes bounty monetero offers save life half gold exchange monetero gives half medallion clayton notices discovers something soon three crossing gold banks insurance company moneteros gang watching waiting chance pouncebr br watching opening sequence know spaghetti western tongueincheek style reliance sprinkling many references nicely realised films largely dollar trilogy subgenre director enzo castellaris sprightly direction sprawling mostly lightweight theres potential many grand showy set pieces smooth rhythmic pace largely theres lot tussles fistfights plenty acrobatic stunts taking place compared allout vicious shootouts stunts well done enjoyable guns blazing theres energy burn traditional story sticks close conventional details theres lot conniving outfoxing going spontaneous nature makes sure never quite certain eventually going play three leads many effective suspenseful moments clever twists plenty wink wink humour within starch script pretty sly worked favourably 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time cut wrists got hospitalised want please chat anything realized gay eat popcorn people say gay eat popcorn busted nut wrong popcorn kernels seeeeeeds proof httpswwwgooglecomsearchqisapopcornkernelaseedampieutfampoeutfamphlenusampclientsafari someone clean reason number kill getting helplived depression anxiety life self treated alcohol years ago antidepressants doctor says must see counselor continue prescribe meds go counselor starts telling call authorities admit redflag thoughts harming anyone dont really guy find another counselor tells thing tactful way point help feelings cant talk counselor without fear reported locked bother drugs counselors completely decided end life busy stating disclaimers see undermined whole purpose choice give healthcare go way suffer useless counseling sessions hiding truth seems pointless everything case vanished chicken nugget first tell dont know put story story true back story going make chicken nuggets went stairs grab chicken nugget bag placed air fryer big chicken tenders sake ill call chicken nuggets cooked minutes minutes went grabbed placed plate felt flimsy cut one make sure cooked turns put back turned air fryer cook minutes went upstairs texted mom tell minutes minutes go moon calls went check chicken nuggets left non cut one asked people mom older sister said eat lets start people mom mom wanted chicken nugget already started fryer didnt make one know im ass hole plz keep reading older sister downstairs eating chicken salad sandwich chips thats think likely mom wanted chicken nugget one think took dont really know put questions please feel free ask away acetaminophen overdoseif take lethal dosage acetaminophen go liver failure three days chances hide pain time please honest know pain throw stuff unbearable parents see thay im sick dont mind pain long dont caught hospitals packed covid cases right really cant risk going wait good taste httpsopenspotifycomplaylistecohkcphbjxskwoknrsirxmotcrtbwjciwaecw remember windows 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matthew broderick stagethis first simons autobiographical trilogy followed wonderful biloxi blues closes tv movie broadway bound say movie flaws maybe characters sometimes usually speak obvious dialog thats alright great dialog rent little gem sorry bruh talk ft girl feel im boring af point living job girlfriend friends still living home future really bad social anxiety ocd depression three different medications helping came last year people say things better see things getting worse money acne scarring treated money braces even job look presentable let alone mental illness hope want things go back way things bornnothingness cant take full surprises beautiful cruel times life leaves one asking best parts course action scenes chases really wonder much work guys put making scenes whale chases polar bear hunts etc wonderful experience missed anyone dives surfs goes beach music enticing narration superb extremely well paced definitively one best documentaries made worth less respectable kind footage cruel might recommended people weak stomachs every killer whale footage cruel decisions always held high goals lately falling short fail goals depressed come constantly think killing simply believe im failure failings cant talk anyone simply feel high expectations well way feel long reach point quit now destroyed keep trying keep cycle going back track need something week know something needs happenive posted im typically hit report cps school care family care friends need something happen either need run away really hoping options kill know moms narcissist literally waiting kill say tried everything able fixed cant really successfully runaway told mom laughed said shed police track within hour option think killing im scared obviously one issue many issues deal locked quarantine people im tired act calm reporting cps cps care send home whole world telling kill yet able yet now info saying possible help people love options first last post usernameits time say goodbye dont recall last time modicum desire live help live ive seen multiple therapists many said fudged see referred ive tried feels every antidepressant im close family publicly shamed depression suicidal tendencies ive lashed pushed away friends romantic relationship live breaking news share literally one call text im debt student loans ive failed one career relatively excited x dont job lined contract current one ends soon dont know live one last confidant told shouldnt talk anymore understandable given toxic proceeded share everything girlfriend never met told call understandable imo breach trust ive dealing crippling depression choose versus binging purging minimum times day thanks eating disorder first likely way ill found due stench corpse thankfully coronavirus lockdown facilitating death sincerely hope dont wake tomorrow unfortunate event ill decision make ive told help commit issue requires actually give crap want continue living want better honestly genuinely idea even feels dont care im beyond saving didnt want care saved ive guilt tripped living fyi never someone continuing live excruciating enough without guilt tripped blackmailed desire live better havent years ive mindless meat suit little integration contribution society past years ive already sent packages letters people important left know death hurt immediate family literally one life odd even know im gone im selfish ive detached everyone frankly dont care im dead definitely wont care good luck best wishes everyone ive seen lot posts expressing live wonderful desire truly hope find help need whatever means important strongest advocate please take care alarms watch video alarms watch video httpsyoutubeihvozfnkhhttpsyoutubeihvozfnkh think redditor plans kill themselvesi know right place post ive seen redflag note post redditor different sub hours passed may already gone sub someone contact depressive haze year smoking much pot every single day great idea family member cancer around beginning covid kind broke going therapy taking meds neither happening anymore isolated old friends long even know want hear live parents unemployed let bedroom become huge mess sure cockroach nest bed believe let bad ashamed tremendously bad countdown end journal survived attemptmy apologies amigos know ive building tension everyone expected grand finale picked xanax script monday took entire bottle took lithium escitalopram handfull advill well entire bottle mucinex dm good measure woke hospital im fucking failure update make new plan trappedhello anyone kind read listen troubles truly wonder hear suicidal person im end rope severe depression anxiety plagued grew abusive home developed agoraphobia tandem mental illnesses rules life give idea bad anxiety failed classes scared leave seat turn work living childhood cat died year half ago event long figured mark demise ready kill shortly passing days spent preparation met amazing person still boyfriend year lot help lose job six months ago move boyfriend horrid upstairs neighbors consistently deprive sleep insomnia iswas already issue know days become entirely comprised nothing trying sleep im scared leave house miserable constantly incredibly stressed neighbors feel completely trapped fear dying way moved back mom briefly daily companionship boyfriend saw mental state unravel even worse neighbors love run away live car homeless im dependent upon medication unfortunately opiates opiates counteract horrible thing called akathisia already tried killing due wretched disorder twice opiates brought miraculous relief though theyre obviously doubleedged sword cant meds either undoubtedly end redflag experiencing depression unleashed im stuck job home despise scared leave substance dependence allow freedom im afraid zero future prospects general list listed everything wrong head life post even lengthy want hurt boyfriend family cant keep life thought today long got spend time boyfriend waiting week agonizing amount time desperate die came home headache go straight bed works long tomorrow really think cant make another day want say inspired meas weird topic sentence remains true lately ive slacking classes ended reddit various sites none see want become psychologist feel meant help people reading posts made realize need work harder reaffirmed everything made click suppose ive acting stupid wasting time working trying become better help everyone care everyone experiencing emotions personally went want help weird may sound thank thanks reaching trying help thank acknowledging problem worth fixing thank letting see really important time life sincerely believe life worth living need talk something chest always pm may realize significant world affect anyoneyou affected best wishes want big black car drive way need rn mehjust turned bunch assignments school several late lot easy bullshit sample resumes know self reflection garbage life nothing mistakes hate hate everything ive done hate dream day finally kill hardly moveim supposed supporting wife im supposed job whatever reason hate worst though im supposed getting better finally got shit together started seeing therapist met psychologist got prescription anti depressants better much better im cant bed im afraid stand ill walk closet pick pistol shoot back head literally difficulty picking phone floor instead picking phone wanted grab cord right next strangle hurts fact know developing great life family im depressed broken fact know known sophomore year die hand eventually hurts knowing people ill leave behind little sister wife parents family friends left behind put fucking smile want done way think done dying im failure cant believe im thought okay im little update lol im alive got live soe reason now got full mcyt month going im feeling better dying withwhy people suffer trudge dark cruel place years decades fair anyone wants check early rather miserable physical mental ailments basic fundamental right die person chooses one say wish knewi wish knew gives person enough courage commit redflag wish brave enough hate living im afraid dying wish courage end today make many plans end life never follow feel failure everything okay life complete waste hope improve theres nothing look forward happy anticipate horrible things inevitably happen living prolonging suffering anyone tries say literally single person actually miss know fact excellent thriller turkey make sensegreat job gokbakar brothersbr br first alli want point screen playgenerally screen play films turkey enoughbut gen best shots said perfectand transition parts really excellentbr br handgen great topic influence everyoneespeciallya woman wants psyciatrist sanitarium mother habitual insanityprincipal causes psychological consequences given genthe thing combine hintsbr br impressive aggression part doga rutkay sahan gokbakar playedthis performance may realistic irrversiblemonica bellucci br br last thing want say watch movieyoull confused need help virgints theres girl class im sure almost always laughs jokes feel might back boyfriend sees friend want ruin friendship decided tell herask hang feel awkward told class know instagram feel kinda weird randomly sent message give advice handle situation thoughtful film lays bare inequities socalled upper class work haves havenots robert shaw creditable job role obliging correct chauffeur steven ledbetter helps lady franklin sarah miles overcome mental depression outset steven many mixed feelings regarding lady upper class inevitably falls love course overstepping societal boundaries separate thembr br read anything prior judge movie seen consider honest story realities daily living conflict might wish expect life fine drama worth seeing worst fking week life hard dont know start alot dont space energy right mental state put whole story somehow closest friends know dont trust anyone especially sick fucked case vacation norway right hedmark plan visit sisters head back home wednesday night live hours away roughly everything great nice see sister even got baby last time saw spendt planned time nice said train home little brother felt weird feeling often anxious feelings shit thats happened past home tried remain calm sake finally came place dad gon na pick us two uncles met us police side brother birthday next week thought kind suprise first didnt take long understand something bad happened dad brother total nerve wreck brutally honest getting understand almost impossible uncles continued inform us case dad planned redflag every detail going wasnt home past years started evolve scary relationship alcohol mom didnt bother anymore obvious reasons dont want talk took pills drank alot caused overdose pass posted really disturbing picture facebook caught moms attention really quickthankfully noticed barely breathing didnt respond asked state form mind called uncles road fast possible dad went hospital right away mom sat alone corner room panic anxiety attack kept secret brother nice trip kristiansand sisters live theres alot whole fuckin lot past days im still trying understand everything even tho alot prossess quick important note isnt first time dad tries kill mom incidense alot secrets debunked clearly dad narcissistic psychopath gambling alcohol problem used moms identity credit cards loans time weird thing none money used pay house anything one knows money spent love father much scares tonight first time week ive seen best feeling worst feeling ive life shock barely see finally see bit better things saw hallucinations shit worst day whole life short version story way know reddit dumb place talk stuff atleast im anonymous failed midsemester exams im going depression birthday coming one family wants talk reddit place open hey guys hope yall well recently failed literally midsemester exams especially subjects love parents expect lot ive let birthday coming days family thinks exist reddit ive known quite supportive especially sub open guys freely thank much support hopefully things better maybe birthday least state mind day preparing test know anything figured best chance read texts manual way ill know least fragments used happyi know happened fuck bad feel nothing matters want kill anything full bottle potassium supplements take right havent make weak make cowardly cut barely go deeper skin layer mean im wimp mean pain real reason ive made far many people blame fault mine everything fault want parents find body need someone hold tell things better gone care may kill tonight know much longer ill last want live house anymore im obviously thats option mom threatened kill front little sister lost left contact lens little sisters absolute brat dad activator mom uses pity history abuse wants going go park dog mom going give ride punishment dropped contact help find want leave redflagwhats likehas anyone actually survived redflag attempt ask becauseim kinda flipflopping right now wan na diebut think fucked kind positive ending maybe express lane best way express lane redflag case week going helli hellweek work school coming theres nothing triggered depressivesuicidal episode im trying distract lighthearted tv gaming cant wish rope hang wish razors cut want die badly cant stop crying hoes okay hoe really want actually boom gone till hmm unless ur garrett taddy moon literally drop rn saw movie stunned great movie movie think give star rating sure movie always top br br acting superb leonardo dicaprio kate winslett best think anyone better job kate br br rainy day cant decide rent well one love acting special effects much much morebr br seen movie go rent buy now regret itbr br yearslast time self harmed years ago days today fine day right im worst ive im really struggling deal girlfriend important day tomorrow want wake anyone know help five show made debut later point regular viewer remember really enjoyed show along leave beaver three sons ozzie harriet dick van dyke reruns love lucy real mccoys etc enjoying first season donna reed dvd watched first two episodes donna stone shown intelligent wellmannered problemsolving serene stayathome mom similar june cleaver contrast lucy ricardo episode especially ms reed becomes surrogate dad trading dress sweats boxing gloves teaching son defend physically much larger bully none mothers neighborhood grew including exactly met idealistic standards portrayed ms reed refreshing see good manners intelligent decisionmaking prevail end day contrast todays accepted standards vulgarity selfishness indifference among ones neighbors imagine jeff mary stone told parents trespassing neighbors yards okay leaving dog outside bark day acceptable telling mother shut supermarket front everyone omfg hurt httpsimgurcomaxvmalnssms uploaded first video wondering criticism make better first videohttpsmyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq mainly hypixel videos guys wondering room full sunlight people hear chatter laughter feel sunlight skin sunlight pricks shards glass chatter feels sharpnoisesthat makes sense yousuddenly starts fade feels sweeped big hole darkness light passes touch warmth chatters mumbles fading away silence calmness sit quietly falling pit darkness want scream comes smile facethe fall pull dragged tremendous weight depth ocean weight existence worthless burden unloveable unfullfilling finally hit rock bottom break tears flow scream end even rock bottom breaks feels heavier never ending fallsometimes touch wrist feel pulse check alive coz thing makes feel still living feel happiness remorse sadness one feeling left pain never ending depression feels know keep livinghello first time posting ill point guess im tired living life prison im tormented feel never supposed born live family headed emotionally abusive parents cant take anymore cant cope bullying never stops fight hard basic things respect appreciation people full unhelpful suggestions deal situation things tough one around help one fights theres one call cry middle night feel alone stay alive feel theres nothing live things never better longer stay alive longer suffer want commit redflag feel loserim single unemployed without car fear strong fear flying driving wonder going mature woman still feel teenage girl inside feel hopeless good work everyone scriptwriters director cast lovely fun film becomes believable sentimental reasons good film television cloudy cold wintry days want sit back enjoy week mainly hiding bedanother sheaf job rejection slips week got one interview lost ill advised mail extreme low hiding bedcovers helping smooth things warm terrors outside thankful even middle age occasionally simple fire breaks still work something incredibly naughty laying bed day unwashed unshaven ignoring stuff supposed miss gay life worth shit give redflag methods pleasei need backup plan case dont college course important thing changes life better open lot doors hear nothing back tuesday im done ive left school nothing courses offer construction fuck want post ugly sub feel ruin little confidence 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tired try fail college try take opinions grain salt incel really isolated trend cases part way modern malefemale gender system works understand questioning stuff mean hate women even imply everyone right vent frustration want talk give details funwhat fun spend day bed internetgames im sick bored anything life worth everything used longer appeals takes much effort pick stuff feel bad progress ive lost starting feels depressing used aikido play piano exercise study uni late every time try start realise far behind sends back distractions break cycle fact ive lost years life fucking stupid disease hopefully next semester fresh start im fucking sick lazy stupid ampxb sorry rant really anything offer felt place let fyi exams week ive done nothing prepare im going go probably fail least illve gone find place better send reboot start starting reboot connecting server found server deleting viruses uploading new data done done done done done done done done removing extra files installing 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videos envy people live close enough getting medication stop throwing soon shop opens drunk swallow mg lorazepam pills th birthday next week awards fucking useless virtual currency funny much people spend money useless items dont anything exist hate people see post haha award go brrr dont go use award money something video game shit hated reddit attract people opinion seem suicidalhello everyone explain situation id thought give guys info years old turning live sweden real friends ive never girlfriend iq checked mensa love history biology video games high functioning autism something one knows except family members feel depressed early childhood ive hard time making friends ive never able keep days spent completely alone front computer play games read ive bullied severely age age capable making friends trait gained teens due new friends already groups friends age meet nearly impossible keep latest group friends slowly disappearing past years done things without traveling etc never call unless need help something ive desperate ive even bought apartment closer said lived far away mins thing now even though high intelligence want brag im trying tell story extremely big knowledge subjects find interesting ive never cared much school education led insufficient grades highschool ive tried working many different places ive never able stay long due autism preventing things hate repetitively someone situation live life without friends job wife kids want live want wait find know sound brat throws away opportunities unless going impossible understand exactly life miserable edit posted depression subreddit id thought id add things right thing keeping ending parents want make live misery thinking fault experience even write telling fault parental instincts tell theyre blame somehow sometimes im driving speed kmsh hoping able react something happens crash feel empty inside emotions im stopping care things dear hi people mobile thatthis literally happened honest messed idea right place goesive got back taking friend amp e following taking odthey struggling ages mental health recent events made worsewithout going details place say know badi struggling support past weeks sucide watch whole time called everyone trying help one listened taken tolli try reply might take awhile still shock guess need somewhere vent guess parents hate kids making online friends dad confronted day informed needed careful friends play minecraft accused caring feelings likely ulterior motive said matter id known year ive face timed trust slightest fucking annoying people keeping sane quarantine without probably wouldve become depressed fault hes military literally friends live states countries much weve moved fault living quarantine cant make friends school feel monarch cove one best written acted drama series come network long time show great potential wait view week developed great primetime soap people look forward type acting reality tv overkilled long type writing acting shows 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post exactly general anyone happens see pure god angel type thing given name yet considered holy man blinded beauty purest words holy men transcribed holy men sacrificed gods accepted gods become one angel type creatures sex nudity hallucinogens pure things blessings gods appreciated greatly surpressed afterlife given holy men everyone reincarnated whichever creature fits level purity people pure human people unpure insects small animals im gon na stop blathering now read thank know thank day two bashing head keyboard number days die inside gfthyujgtfvsxfrtyhujgtfvrsza light went kinda dark realized ive holding pencil wrong entire life people hold pencil top middle finger ive holding top ring finger bruh movie stupid comedy year quite possibly best thing mike judge office space mike judge fan enjoy shows futurama grave disservice skipping little known limited release although dvd touts bonus features film certainly funny enough make perceived lack valuebr br movie army grunt name joe bowers played luke wilson part top secret army experiment designed preserve army personnel peace time thawed war time fight country things take interesting turn general charge operation busted prostitution ring experiment forgotten bowers sidekick rita played maya rudolph find awake year course natural selection population america grown increasingly stupid joe rita find way time machine back year help frito played dax shepardbr br really enjoyed movie mike judges comedic satire course us history last years mankind progresses subsequent years evidenced advertising movie become staple american culture shows south park mainstream media easy see conclusions drawn future profanity become marketing tool portrayed film humorously subtle things fuddruckers changing name buttfers billboard displays advertisement smoke tarryltons f stop laughing carls jrs role future slogan f im eating automated kiosks selfadvertising extra biga tacos molecules film contained everything go movies excellent sharp witty comedy well engrossing plot make dvd one ages warned fan mike judge care beavis butthead sense humor movie probably good match say probably funniest movie come mean cried first time district uses grading app called skyward teachers dont update grades dont update grades says assignments missing lowering grade said class leads missing assignments mom always back grades saw flipped parents divorced go dads house every week sometimes hard work done puts lot pressure important later explained mom teachers havent updated grades tells email teachers multiple times hasnt worked told said something mightve bit disrespectful ive already tried emailing hard back puts lot pressure says first im back dont talk second deal pressure wtf im years old care grades well wouldnt say im depressed dont really feel happy often bad thoughts mom scared depressed year told wasnt shrugged pressure got started crying dont ask anything return kinda wanted place vent thanks reading whole thing though really point lifeim going try short possible ndad started fight something trivial denial narc past decade kept brushing crazy stories heard tired acting worst woah bullshit whenever something work hes getting ass pat everything pick fight perceived reaction flinched talking wanted shake act way im tried im tired feel hates im fully convinced every time go depression episode diagnosed clinical depression tell head need listen sob story mentioned earlier mean callous give worst speech irritating im going say worst stooping level live first world country problems yo straight man rotted teeth digestive issues probably made worst bad teeth worst yo gay trans man support anyone clinical depression fight happen saturday got worst escalated remember said exactly heard say something along lines oh thats fault now aggravated tone hes turn something around someone lost temper called along way called bunch things cunt loser ect strangled one point wanted call cops throw threw back face hes working elaborate throwing bad idea headbutts ok fine call cops points headbutted assaulted oh see shit treating now says mom watched headbutted reply saw headbutted hes wrong im cousins house hes china business trip im watching cat hates guts cat always hisses even im giving attention done nothing except enter house staying want deal dad fucking cat hissing yowling go feeding depression everyone hates including dumb animal know piece shit months cut friends except one various reasons fact viewed successful crush one one feel way back normally easier time brushing month rejected came poly brain shifted rejection friend broken good enough thats real reason ended cutting hours one day week going start transitioning work mom say something boss mom went dad saying afraid lose job cue dad going saying keep saying want die kill already went go gun grabbed strangled first time verbally emotionally abuse depressed wasnt grateful im fucking tied cant friends gush reblogretweetrepost ships romantic bullshit repulsed bitter far romance goes feel bullshit want fall love someone happened enough times let someone power throw feelings trash cases take advantage anyone show interest always sees woman immediately shut life parents say want help second bring im trans frustrated immediately subject comes tell cant help leaving deal everything struggling drive really bad anxiety closest center hour half away uber expensive work little letter testosterone letter said wanted start august october everything keeps getting way even know good feel point kill im going alone forever going crazy wants die care someone wants murder now life purpose life punching bag im school system dad tormenting bullies lived purpose support friends friend equally bad situation last message got said suicidal need shit top shit reason live eventually move canada really alone matter dont kill end year eventually happen got something really important tell guys fote 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family friends people actually contribute society dying everyday covid yet worthless ass still wasting oxygenlike seriously people actually mean something others dying essentially nothing meanwhile want die seriously ashame wish trade places covid patient really unfair theyre fighting everyday clinging life yet im selfishly trying end mine please end nightmare anyone find calling hotlinei think every day now mom found shed probably go crazy works place behavioral health tells almost every day shes glad im kids saw self harm scars knew likely kill along im still school dont wish contact school either able track redflag hotline number go phone bill studying suicidal thoughtswhy study anything going kill someday need learn anything need learn kill hate life much kill live homeless parents jobbless motivation anything life deserve live shit life nothing reason live give fuck someone sad kill think deserve kill fuck children child fuck go fuck raw chicken breast salmonella nasty genitals eat shit drink piss miss childrenthey purest form joy lifei questions actions constantlyam right thingcan happyi know think matterslife never purely happy anyonehow protect childrenwhen stop protecting themhow let gois self loathing narcissismdo still fear deathmy pain always hurtfulmy feeling agony releasebut turns medo parents love children part themis way protect innocence without crushing making fucking difference right nowwhy want feel connected ignore people much pain enoughhow much pleasure enoughif perfect way bother still livingi give fuck think journey answeri finally enjoy scream metalshould worriedlol silver linings reached sometimes conceding loss chance winning violence answerwhy everyone use itmy parents wrong came good placeor itdid fuck worse themcan save iti thought god existednow sure hate themhate strong wordim melodramaticor ipeople kill shit lack pure unadulterated expression let evil process transmutationturn tar bile liquid gold maybe already childrenthats fairto put hopes dreams onto shoulders child acceptance patiencedisciplinethese virtues help melovedo know love isnot really unless childreni die live themi wish talk father commit suicide see mind state selfishbut everyone selfish degreecan reach place giving freely againdo post onlineis narrassciticwho fucking careshmmmm want people see ramblei questions answersand answers soooo wrongplease love human xxxxxxxx school hat policy cant wear hat inside take away single warning anti bullying system warnings wtf every reason possible hundreds people faced circumstances succeeded strong hope encourage someone m smoke weed way cope redflag depression gets worse night use way fall asleep easier dad found weed last night told dissappointed said good way deal things said force trusted enough handed back know feel right now dad troubles mom sadly little sister got stuck crossfire dad barely talking anyone used often gets angry shuts talk anyone probably mental illness sort complex person mom told go see psychiatrist refused good relationship father might somethingi recently got diagnosed mild depression redflag got prescribed lexapro taking week now mother person always talk tell weed thing got caught school knew want explain dad everything knowing person part want open sensitive person something slight trigger point shutting family smoking weed always barrier appreciating life jumping cliff know continue smoking feel guilty l smoke know dad probably redflaged situation pretty well known city know alot people help either trust anyone real friends best friend girlfriend young know feeling way overwhelming want sleep day never wake want kill way noone sad know people care mom dad friends suicidal nothing really even matter anymore feel take overwhelming want someone read help understand better barely know anymore hope someone reads end every morning see dyingevery morning wake first thoughts head day gon na go think dont blew brains thought dying huge comfort now used scared feel used worry pets friends id leaving behind used think reasons stay nothing matters ive fading away almost months now ive done everything help ive read blogs websites reasons live want live happier manage depression ive gone counseling ive tried pills ive done programs feel post reddit time one real life cares every day harder even care drowning people need saving rightme got tonight something little admit fought feel fucking terrible literally want injurebeat death feel listen really really listen feel tells shit thinks want hear time ignored think feelings time ultimately end shoved apologize ammy depression amount clinginess bddbed self consciousnessresult bded told constantly work self feelings things fuck literally drowning feelings someone drowning needs help theyre drowning purposely holding underwater trying die struggling need lifeguard yet nothing im tired feeling alone im tired repetitive saying stuff even guys im sorry im sad seems posts getting closer together eh quite close friendcolleague mine committed redflagshort preface senior year old medical student mentorampfriend young orthotrauma surgeon bit older children wife man substitute father sometimes even risking teaching rather specialized trauma knowledge amp allowing perform interventions patients still student well time listen lifes issues today side side channels told weekend abandoned world volition seriously think end due terrible family background alcoholic amp mentally abusive mother fk father neurotic bit ocd plagued terrible headache flares nearly whenever begin really stress something nearly friends except one close friend whos living another country moment truthfully terrible making friends somehow people age tend stay away social contact colleagues academic group hate rather uptight shity sense humor ergo social life good studies helping patients sports personal enjoyment swimming consider husk human performing day day functions well eat study sht sleep repeat well appeasing grandmother raised truthfully person today keeping earth things feel really inside emptiness sadness loneliness even allow myselfhave time think teacher way stronger person finished gruesome residency friends good sense humor wholesomely terrific human yet decided leave life behind strong person decided stop earth continue living biological husk human life full misery think aftermath death people life dont think theyve treated mei abused neglected mistreated entire life every antiredflag thing told always level think youll leave behind fair parents treated terribly frankly huge part im fucked think theyve never expected fix way treat supposed nowmessed life big time similar situation guy posted years ago messed whole semester school might expelled lifetime basing selfworth grades want die kill relief death alive supposed now everywhere say oh die die okay im dead now sit wait therapy date months away cant go earlier life continues crashing around life stop crashing time freeze long enough rewire brain become normal fix everything fast enough know ive gone month without wanting die fourth grade wish stop wish brain ok tired wish category place horror simply isnt granted horrific moments feel makes horror film give movie better million little things changed make betterbr br said love movie im often sad people misunderstand whole point always clear point movie say things always seem sometimes evil isnt br br barker con went little talk watch movie thing interesting many things wished put movie chunk cut movie believed long lost chunk helped shed light boone girlfriend well detailsbr br know people bothered information breed background always felt gave movie real fleshed feel read novella based well many comics movie always seemed staging ground whole story much involved story sadly never chance live br br despite flaws movie might believe lot offer monsters wonderful imaginative acting sometimes bit stiff quotable lines whenever watch find something new keep eye boones chest toward end one point decker stabs shortly boone falls card table ends card stuck chest card stays even lori pulls knife stays boone casually removes love lovely little detail thoughtbr br basically want say looking horror movie watch believe times men evil anything dreamed movie movie men destroy understand fear good enough worthless wife left friends hate even best friend roommate sees something needs take care pretty sure school money comes im going pay last debt buy gun end wife used boyfriends pleasure got raped first date breaking im weak worth damn im good hitting sex parents see disappointment blame co workers hate honestly looking encouragement know everyone happier gone im selfish dont going continue cycle abuse ive tried therapy even say im lost cause help im ugly af feel cutting myselfi dont history cutting im actually great blood hate needles almost fainted nurse withdrew blood short blood makes queasy though feel really low even angry overwhelmed filled selfhatred look facial razor pick obsessively imagine feel cut facial razor sharp ive cut accidentally times ive never cut purposely dont urge coming though suppose good mention ive struggling thoughts redflag dont consider serious serious attempt drunken tried fling onto upcoming traffic due fight boyfriend dont think done wasnt intoxicated though drowningim trying hard cry start know hours stop biting inside cheeks hard hoping pain shock thoughts stall tears feeling utter failure despite every effort tears come always messy painful stings cheeks roll feel spiralling control drowning beneath waves keep crashing theres relief logic sense searing raw pain chest gasp air feeling failed lost last shred hope know okay anymore think even want okay im tired fighting survive want sleep dreams waking m gon na go robin williams myselfi cant see reason live anymore ame wont let pilot faa pretty much grounded really dont see reason live easy buy gun country yet want soar among clouds saying fuck gravity im looked upon wanted freedom guess gain ultimate freedom death though freedom existing kill failim student tired depressed im afraid failing semester will kill know feel im stupid feel im worse others everyday think death redflag im afraid family girlfriend going upset passing cant take anymore im sorry aight lads starter take pokmon insurgence options alternate typings charmander bulbasaur squirtle choose eevee hey girl book cause wan na deeply understand suicidal definitely hurting myselfso going long sorry know late s cant kill attempted times years cant courage last past year worst ive started physically hurt various degrees added heavy drinking smoking want die apparently take long painful way barely slept weeks im losing tried push reached point feel trapped worse every time something seems working make feel slightly happy manage fuck im living foreign country able kind friends want cant leave anymore anyone talk im alone im tired cant even look mirror anymore active well known cool user please tell posting first kiss day think days numberedi mean guess everyones know numbered know numbered feel good im pushing everyone away everyones leaving everyone hates hate cant alone matter messages matter tells im alone im alone im meant always alone cant live life hate didnt want post didnt want seem looking attention really wanted place talk wasnt known really see redflag answer im feel solution mum alcoholic reason im still isbecause take care little sister rly thing keeping switch though worthless human deserve anything life never given life im god im everyone everything im held nothing control multivurse dont energy explain dont energy anything anymore want overlife pointless maybe mine reason gone losing made realize worthless rest life want done im ready call quits now posting least say something somewhere guess thats consider movie one interesting funny movies time much highly intelligent thoughts anybody thinks movie awful able recognize really deep philosophical themes schneider movies without doubt several universities germany throughout europe made studies schneiders way seeing things way helge schneider intelligent sensitive person jazzmusicions germany maybe europe mostly inspired great mdavis tmonk ok please try convince others might stupid cheap boring funny face opinion discussion willing really look art hschneider surrender hopelessi teen years suffer parental neglect depression anxiety job gained quite bit age recently laid due health safety issues within establishment main source income gone parents give shit ive providing time now lost job hit hard seems everyone left know go bad habits started happening cutting eating less things thought got sit hoping help right now limited options right now redflag one im hoping help now thanks trying really need someone calm please go rehab hours im scared im gon na away frends everyone know days im scared going awful experience never wan na remember see point anymoremy life never good seems im years old guy yo watch brother drug addiction break mothers heart year year od times started selfharming years old ages years old literally friendmy neighbor mom super controlling never let go kids houses everyone school bullied quite shy bad sports years old met girl became bff made friends ppl told girl loved ended destroying friendship transfer different school started cutting way much suicidal lost best friend friends made graduated alone starting college mom still super controlling struggle sexuality never dated much seem end bad girls except one meet perfect wonderful died stroke months started dating disease called avm still miss see parents regularly happy live hour away recently started dating girl never felt connect someone cheated boss ended hospital months still cutting think redflag constantly never seem able sleep life never seems better hope immediately taken cant control feeling ghost robot im told never noticed never anyone share pain true empathy know truly feel feel alone sorry ranting keep thoughts head day im teasing whodunnit hitchcock tradition kept dark suspects come go dennis quaid supurb dexter man doomed die meg ryan excellent babe much little suspense pieces fit neatly together way sorry watched one suspense red roses mean first things first quite introvert never able grasp many social conventions years ago throwing party th birthday nothing big always invite handful friends go activity time escape room well return games gifts cake friend good friend knew happens girl gifted single red rose main present great gift card comic book store remember correctly internet gave conflicting answers never knew meant sure hell going ask anybody yesterday asked mom told meaning rose depends color white rose means apology pink rose means friendship red rose means love baffled thats really true missing signs smart funny ngl quite good looking girl hitting havnt lot relationships surprise oblivious ways love months birthday switched schools introvert lost contact point still confused little angry feel dumb thought might well ask reddit know whether go try bottom whether overthinking oh yeah ask question point basically question title want scream top lungs methis feeling crippling suffocating im better dead everyone gone find live need little help snapchat snap account currently day deletion period people still see account quick add gathering bunch fat people zombie apocalypse comes want zombie ass starve someone dm im bored hell dont weird pushy want normal conversation make friends crazy believing bad dreamim hate alive deserve die need die brain mine exist everyone hates everyone sees knows fucked many falls concussions kid maybe thats mind twisted sick joke nightmare maybe kill ill wake happy ive started cutting helped much anymore maybe need cut deeper nothing feels real feels floaty blurry dream fake even asking im sorry im worthless imo getting worsehi dudes posted back going help magically fix everything wrong waaaaaay wrong im lot shit now saw worthless much worse now least kept pain think quite neutral environment family friends know im fucking parasite harm environment fucking good everyone better im gone ill wait th birthday friends hope opportunity say goodbye train thought sudden lose want back gosh dang brain wan na know thought plastic glue lube models idk title u know ur pain u start smiling name pops ur phone sicknot sick shit go life ive making physically sick past days im supposed class right cant bring leave house want now want today day ive sitting actuelly entire weekend contemplating im alive fucking lonely soulmate girlfriend thats main issue suffer every single day best friends even text anymore god knows know fact theyre replacing though best female friend lets call sue friends past years best friends replacing people think sick shit secretly something theres family know bad life im embarrassed show know mood crap time im sure clue cant bring tell years fucked situation guy undoubtedly soulmate depression cant thats key point please call fucking stupid depressed naive immature year old beg family shit together telling theyd hate already im pretty sure really dislike know hes done emotionally know still alive need know something whats point alive constantly alone need emotional stabilization im done living im dirt fucking broke cant even afford fucking coffee im used fucking slave parents mom constantly shit time pay doesnt money shell pay later next thing know something doesnt pay dont even fucking dollar name fucking friends dont even talk anymore dont even deserve complain try make feel better lies im sick live parents shit deal im another nuisance take care couldnt save five dollars save goddamn life see something want buy moneys gone subscription comes cant afford parents pay owe even money already hell sold soul id still owe money even owe money friends dont even need deal still waste money dead man sit room waste life might well dead people better without leech thanks reading rant whatever reason yea communism funny right people dont actually think works think socialism good sweden memes right bullshit postmy life dream life complain forget drawn roadmap every single thing make life livible fail taken away besides living situation misery life difficult fuck proud recipient misunderstood award every single positive instinct either repressed dismantled strung pilliaging yes physical yes psychological rather dead many years ago propped rancid chopsticks mom dad much anyone life opportunity better hack fucked want death piss help friendi made post yesterday responses immensely helpful thank everybody replied reason posting friend told suicidal thoughts ive comforting best abilities found today denied something comforted said im sure theyll another opportunity keep hope replied hope anymore makes fair bit worried see topic losing hope anywhere online im hoping someone emotionally dense help instill hope tell proceed completely going type psychiatrist psychologist anything similar despite heavy encouragement ive trying decide tonight nighti went bed early last night woke end work day today missed entire shift slept alarms friend shitty day available talk want tell need speak want decide says possibly blame theres light life good times days feel terrible failures life much plan driving middle nowhere getting high cutting arm open bleed cant go fucking hospital end end im going write note tonight ill see find quiet spot matters life bringing place total joy bliss blissful nature every drop life enjoyable matter overcome obstacles seamlesslyother peoples judgements coming place joy someone truly joyful life feel desire judge needlessly instead focused enjoying lives people concern worry others think tragedy tragedy cant handle think ive limit year ive hospitalized many times ive lost count want quit want quit hell form torture corner hell claim form hell purgatory maybe release put better place thats everyone claims someone passes away want peace im going go much detail easy identify suffice say issues around years old go job job never really able maintain normal human required society function son dies months take definition fathers job responsibly take action protect family sole job life whether protection comes form keeping nightmares away story telling getting job provide failed ultimate test life fool allow happen son hope care turn imagine dead corpse stuck mind something positive tell dead infant turned positive tell positive sometimes think lifes going well asshole called john comes fucks exam zoom school holiday im starting develop violent behaviour towards person thought good idea tried give christmas gifts know leaving mei tried give boyfriendfiance christmas gifts outbursts night wanted speak asked wanted hug said said last person wants speak point said need know going leaving told sit discomfort uncertainty deal telling leaving know tried give gifts bought christmas want fucked head nothing makes change weeks bliss go fuck im tired alive happy lately cant take joy crushed taken away every time bad things inevitably happen really know im even posting life worth living without long time soul mates others best friend anyone says ill move full shit ive daily suicidal thoughts february im going act tiring im lost doi want kill want feel cant tell family worred might hurt im angry mostly done know wrong help feel scared might every damn day rest cant even bed sundays attend one thing feel helps want n g h n n g h n got school tomorrow tiredthere hope life meaningless feel everyone dies end amp everything goes black amp god made money girlfriend ok worried long time hospital girlfriend good thank fucking god uh oh phone charging idk charger works moms phone australian post office needed promotional film recruitment itthis one movies whos heart right place watch mirandas performance touching shows aspect australia unimagined many europeans cold wet bleak anywhere anywhere important people surrounds characters movie warm welcoming make prospect career move dead letter office thought considered miranda gone bigger movies hope always keeps thought inside one hi im supoused treat gay person friend recently go aout closet im suposed treat post noted subreddit lot members lgtb comunity h e fuck daylight savings time fuck following im legit curious mist know im lasagna tonight fucking delicious feeling way noticed scars hips fake smile lips forced laugh adopted way care things used love dare stand grave cryhow cry someone even know suicide note girls exist mean ive never seen one dont know theyre real want hurt myselfive fighting depression lot lately im point think killing nearly often normally good old suicidal thoughts replaced thoughts selfharm whenever anything makes anyone mad hurts someones feelings dig nails arm tell im piece shit say deserve hurt happy day broke razor trying blades work shaved cuts scrapes legs kept telling deserved want tell husband thoughts cant gets upset depression understand always tells glad cut deal many girls slowly destroying cant stand happy know much longer hold outthis going long wall text last years painful difficult life far back tried hang privately write redflag confronted parents went journals fuck problem us attention seeking real bitch move selfharmed bit well mother confronted front grandparents know something insert exgirlfriend done bitch months leading attempt finally realized depressed years told parents feeling believed first time years point vehemently deny mental illnesses even refusing let doctors put medication one diagnosed major depression attempt hoping tell closest friends keep secret parents two weeks later forcibly committed psych ward psychologist time seen beforehand immediately told attempt said im sorry cant let leave unless going facility hour later im loaded ambulance driven hospital stay meantime even though injuries anything attempt cop nonchalantly watching door room call parents tell happening insurance show mother hugged immediately tried punch stomach gritting teeth dont drop college spend month mental hospital move back home parents attending outpatient group therapy first morning back mother immediately threatened shower use hot water ill end led minute heated discussion text admitted read texts messages friends mocked talking depression ended conversation im going show everyone messages hell away point father calls starts yelling ive disrespectful need apologize role marriage agree ignore horrible things says end day go home mother apologizes never brought unless remind im horrible son ungrateful piece shit one year later ive regressed horribly ive stopped going therapy seeing mental health professional take medication selfmedicate cannabis march confronted mother buying pot turned argument screamed youve disrespected house shouted back youve disrespected whole life charged punching digging nails arm hit back got hands slapped face naturally called police kicked house walked three blocks covered sweat blood tears belongings backpack luckily friends lived nearby city allowed move planned never talking parents one phone call father continued blame deny fault friends drove back week rest things gave phone paid car keys told never talk week later mother sent email apologizing quickly deleted email best talk bigger problems move quickly quit previous job authorize transfer move friend allowed live move couple months another group friends allow live less month left lease well temporarily moved house worked minimum wage job try raise money apartment needless say work new job getting consistent hours call sick first week got flu asked friend loan obliged alone enough apartment options asked parents loan agreed meet person job gave money finally able afford place live knew relished fact honestly wonder wouldve better going homeless dying right four months later lost job seeing therapist trying best make ends meet constantly late job emotionally volatile using cannabis even cope breakdown frequently home started getting anxiety attacks even got one work working register knew fucked began searching job take parents pay rent found another job paying livable wage full time work thought id finally made work able live comfortably friends respected cared six months later lost job started feeling horrible bed stopped caring cleaning apartment got horrible relationship manipulative alcoholic thankfully lasted two months broke things found work essentially furniture delivery repos guy started paying decently idea work intense management genuinely care happened us one time deliver couch fourth floor apartment elevator got yelled chewed constantly simply overbook us blame us able deliver eight furniture sets one day first partner job lasted three months left requested vacation time two months hand repeatedly told reschedule one week vacation time quit sent manager text quit day blocked number refused leave apartment vacation spent next three months wallowing misery anything productive smoked cannabis laid around plans job parents agreed help rent knew awful last job january started pushing job thats got message old job new manager one previous colleagues wanted back raise agreed took two months things spiral back awful level problems overbooking us offering support whatsoever things work worse even one colleagues horrible alcoholic always came work smelling liquor barely lift anything matter often told boss rid hed say give time man need someone replace unfortunately found immediate replacement stopped showing point long unending text weve reached march pandemic starting hit city im expecting work close instead cut hours half keep us open im still working im planning moving city two months one day mother literally begs go back work says help pay rent recommends sign unemployment leads now ive received last unemployment check next month need search job im lucky im living house full close friends cheap im close parents house know exactly live want live know ill probably im lucky financial support frankly id rather dead know theyre going hold head everything know theyre going use try keep talking know need away need cut multitude legitimate reasons given current financial situation situation pandemic continuingly horrible mental state options im lucky thankful ive gone long without another redflag attempt ive selfharmed ive enough mental fortitude keep going long caring forgiving best friends im sure id dead im sure long alone keep together recently threw knife cutting idea worsen general mood ive holing room week now leave occasionally talk friends smoke come back sleep inconsistent waking late nightearly mornings everyone asleep constant suicidal thoughts paranoid thoughts friends turning throwing horrible intrusive anxiety halt whatever im throw constant thought loop worrying inevitably leading anxiety attack basically disassociate come back find curled ball holding back tears im scared friends much hate ive become hate image one walking room find corpse read way thank posted anything personal life felt needed somewhere hope everyone makes alive know sincerely love nonetheless help please helphey guys im sure help feel might able cheer listen im done life hate ive got many problems theyre small problems theyre big cant solved easily want run away parents force stuff want dont abusive slowly really tearing apart im feel marionette go school come back home start working mum day swear lasts till night im exhausted cant anything school instead homework go bed day ive told teacher home nothing happened even sure expected grades school worst parents expect well paid job know show school certificate applied schools got declined im waiting go away anywhere far away parents still wait year im afraid away id depressed think redflag want think life beautiful think beautiful know ill never able forget parents siblings want go child protective services want parents trouble know father bring mid east kill hed find know im germany im help please know im afraid thanks lot anyone feeling need relive one memory die wan na walk snow family one last time im outta mental health deteriorates day theres little stopping ending poggers anyway need therapist honest gtim gon na kill anytime soon worry still lot things want dolt dont wan na political mordecai regular show id let hit given day said said want information goodnight saw begotten last night im two minds filmbr br one hand appreciate total invert michael bay film dialogue extremely stylized grainy bw photography genuinely horrific imagery set film compelling use sound nobody seems really picked yet reflection theme dares go filmmakers terms images production concept movie people understand read comments find lot people whose lack ability figure film results shrieking pretentiousness fervor gibbon rattling bars cage feeding time genuinely shocked disturbed last time film managed agobr br thirtyminute short sprawls hour half understand might artistic merit using repetition monolithic pacing bludgeon case help everything hang together imagine approached ragged man street grabys shoulders says something completely confounds core instead leaving shattered gibbering wake keeps talking talking talking end movie found glancing watch br br entertainment people disentertainment deprogram people watched glitter watch movies entertained frustrate confound possibly anger approach begotten chocolate cake want eat tastes good approach something menu never heard something see furtive glances kitchen door something thats dark glistens twitches platter something order taste good know christmas christmas corner time see wan na idk wanted guys help decide ive thinking maybe bycicle ipad pro maybe even oculus quest dont games play vr feel bycicle much extremely want ipad love give ideas really dont know gaming stuff doesnt go bucks nice wifi router razer sila dont know really satisfactory open cant mod laptop rtx anything im screaming inside please help sorry wall text im desperate know please help jimmy laughed chit chatted nothing matter normal jimmy even heavy fire hed still nattering scottish accent smile giant twisty raf moustache jimmy landed wee plane first open veld spotted father instantly fell plane tuck rolled ready run cover jimmy bit surprised steady old chap need tinkle one even wants around anymoreim job education shitter im stupid burden everyone mum almost told today might well kill stopped half way saying miss kid one expected job school back colours shapes fall behind abandon leave rot mind pretty much rotted thats left rid everyone harder imagine humanity future interested anything set space finally played mass effect friend recommended found shows babylon farscape firefly battlestar galactica influenced mass effect space sci fi popular s early s dominant pop culture tv things s game thrones zombies superheroes space come back tv expanse mankind nowhere near popular pop culture phenomenons even though game thrones mcu infinity saga ended walking dead concluding soon become harder imagine humanity future take society dream space im dprinter thats said mum told close door bathroom past weeks seriously thinking existing anymore avoid self harm feeling lateim dropped high school done anything never got job anywhere never intentions going school chose nothing rot away isolation instead spent birthday alone earlier month well ive read disconnected youth feel fits t feel ive fucked future already absolutely nothing hermit instead ill talk people theyll say well young figure really kind passion ambition though thought seeing therapist feel ill tell ive said theyll say thing everyone saying fruitless intend hanging halloween id hate devastate family everyone life see coming anyway bruh legit find reddit morning changed color last night think able find folder lol anyone come lie caliber put downi rather try something little ummph unfortunately resources strained lr im mainly curious chances survival using method absolutely nothing wrong simply choose longer existhello ive created plans methods organized explanations loved ones decided want die exactly days today longer exist thought quite exciting wait figure lies beyond anything simply cease experience existence little bit suicidal depressed actually perfect mental health poor ugly unloved unintelligent aspects consider perfectly blessed life years alive experienced little hardships probably tell now negative outlook life simply want end reason making post begin day journey finally understanding impulse act ultimately kill redflag understood us literature philosophy relevant media discussions experienced far act desperation simply beg differ experiences stand direct contradiction age last years ive played around idea redflag early interest described morbid curiosity following questions death find first hand questioning morbid curiosity transferred disciplined approach became engrossed philosophy literature everywhere find characterisation redflag completely incompatible feel someone ask change life answer thing perfectly satisfied beautiful girlfriend loves treats right express true self good circle friends support loving parents great academic record far tons accomplishments proud moment life entirely happy satisfied existing longer may change simply quit ahead furthermore ideation redflag empowering clear interested mutilating harming self unhealthy ideations violence act actually sickens chosen quick painless dignified method feel empowered idea making first last choice life thing truly choose born thrown world heidegger say difference simply longer want experience want experience nonbeing correctly cease experience existence thank hope someone gained understanding relation existence smoke whole bowl yeah yeah friends tiktoks arent able save cant figure videos account set able saved nothing happening shadowbanned sooooooo maybe something unsure anyone sudgestions imagine attractive interesting person lmao intervals getting shorteri tried counting days last redflag attempts felt got frequent time first counted days try tonight ordered something online make different attempt arrive monday maybe ill wait idk yet hope itll end soon everything makes things better temporary distractionive really nasty prolonged breakdown last week ive definitely acted family perhaps couldve bit less harsh weve argued anyway saturday ive really lovely hike around fields ive felt mentally fresh long time absolutely thriving say come excited clean room long shower mum goes move asap cant change behaviour absolutely regard thats behaviours happening even though knows im okay found redflag note went rooting stuff one time massive row im sat room crying drinking might take pills later might knows reason living go hike kill still wanted clearly hiking doesnt anything end still come back problems got wholesome award time use ironically wonderif friends relationship normal still want kill anyone need someone talk tofeel free send message college pay online platforms professor uses assign hw economics class online hw platform making pay ur hw thats pure evil yall feeling extremely stressed burnt unmotivated highly recommend lil bit exercise im athletic person nature even moving around breaking sweat impacted day positive way started college stressful ive really living couch potato life past months pushing work gave endorphins couldve seeking less healthy ways anyways try really made day much better idea people slump rn everything life favor right now feel thisim getting paid love constantly keep writing great music enjoy tastes bland feels black white girlfriend love feel keep pushed different medications zoloft come closest working im constantly crying least erection medication love life sometimes sit think try hard make friends always tell want friend almost makes wonder sometimes im autistic something know im adult feel one people treat things know common sense feel isolated main reason kill trust anyone take care cats im sorry mini rant idk put think every night luckily stop advice fucking bored dad going take shopping stuck workplace got work seriously people sooo bored become likable unlikable per se id hear reddits tips likable romantic relationship tips social life hacks ill take advice title says really hours inbetween socializing friends slow agonizingmy brain gets scared annoy friends say something hurt intentionally make excuses need take break probably go bedall lies course lay bed idolize world exist sleep way fall back nightmares living world feel content happy even ripped away eyes openi feel drink even struggle pick bottle even really really even amalgamation ideas want sewn together poorlyi feel purpose life even though say feel truly one world surrounded people care yet never felt alone loved movie debut lost track many times seen never fails make laugh cheer feeling three leads fantastic script priceless plus nostalgic hearing theme song think quote movie without realizing basically know entire script someone watching first time hold back saying something funny next line cant even narrow although sir johns character probably gets memorable ones famous ill alert media arthur announces intention take bath still priceless list truly endless scenes arthurs soon fiancs fathers house scream particularly interactions moose favour see movie mum wants houseobviously extra expletives interspersed crux shouting wouldnt mind thought id done well today looked asd brother hours made stew coming work spent four hours fixing washing machine getting numerous cuts probably need tetanus jab blazing row erupted wanted wash morning announced last night apparently need mind reader sister unaware nevertheless cut bath ten minutes wallow hour perhaps im shallow wanted least thank unpaid labour id given instead hear im lazy freeloader disappointment need leave bear mind physical disability makes moving lower body impossible unless want agony every step spoiler alert according im actually depressed instead simply make rest household depressed wants lack trying behalf last attempt thought huffing reality id collapsed kitchen dragging bed spent next twelve hours vomiting overdose time ive gone different ive taken crazy pills downed bottle two wine attacked wrist injected units slow acting insulin tomorrow night hopefully problems disappeared quote used summary occurs halfway good earth captain chinese revolutionary army played philip ahn apologizes mob time shoot looters among unit called back front lines course next looter found shot main character film former kitchen slave girl olan whose portrayal luise rainer yearsold second consecutive best actress oscarbr br next scene finds olan dutifully delivering bag looted jewels underappreciative husband farmer wang lung paul muni setting motion classic dichotomy mans upward financial mobility direct inverse moral declinebr br movie dealing subject matter including slavery false accusations misogyny starvation home invasion eating family pets mental retardation infanticide exploited refugees riots civil war summary mass street executions bigamy childbeating adultery incest insect plagues biblical proportions good earth surprisingly heartwarming moviebr br parting thought form another classic quote olan putting precious soup bone son admitted stealing old woman back cooking pot husband wang lung angrily tossed dirt floor side hut meat meat see next week even tomorrow morning point im empty want anywaysim sitting room alone dark kitchen knife pressed neck feeling empty scared im honest im fucking scared point tonight ill jam knife hope die alarm goes classes morning want keep going smiles fake everything fucking far away pointless feel empty im scared im going want live little end tonight lost faith hope deserve goti spent pretty much whole life computer parents never let used live dodgy neighborhood moved somewhere nice become really introverted prefer spending gamingstudying spending time pc literally fucked pretty suicidal never reason edgy something stupid sincerely regret police comes takes electronics life onward comes crumbling dignity gone deserve happening cant carry living even care life name face comes news anything getting rope asap cant live friends everyone knowing ive done fucking cringe roll ball stabbing thinking even worse losing religious faith fuck life stress losing faith fucking intense living lie whole life care hell exists want seeing tragedy going world kills even dream going cambridge longer possible parents optimistic forget everything thats happened tell carry aiming well know theres point working hard anymore always aced top grades exams without even studying know much potential ill homeless scum streets people thinking im loser failed school cant find job ugly long beak nose stared quite bit im public reading propaganda nazi racist islamophobic comments internet made selfconscious try hide face public looking floor covering face car drives past put hood etc people said look ugly face wear glasses look groucho disguise mask uglified without moustache remember kid friend laughing look stopped looking mirror stressful look go thought process ive grown love nature want travel world course longer possible try optimistic possible cant carry dwelling freak bedroom day want commit redflag courage cant sister thinking falling unimaginable tears completely shreds apart im stilling waiting see sentencing ill final outcome either humiliated hated homeless shit job relationships end quick go always go one lifes quote anything happen stage look admittedly deserve wanted let feelings wow cant believe strawberry milk cult predicted portland saw world come portland strawberry milk cult november wish good friends life guess huh realised deep face happy look actually sad end moment youre happy outside actually sadd inside know friends make fun laugh haha yess funny look want attentionoh well careshey really sure post really say feel life spinning control racing ahead every day blur nothing look forward difference date thats guys dont think anymoreabout year ago ruined life went school shitfaced every single day due extreme social anxiety depression little know life x worse got caught getting driven hospital stomach pumped getting picked dad broke families heart let go back school weak later happy see friends return passion violin performing arts school although got past substance abuse depression continued grow winter break parents found finsta personal information feelings mental health sexuality embarassing due fact wasnt ready come made switch schools closer one promised return old school got better april mentality improved therapist said good go back parents didnt even try im still stuck god awful school truly call anyone friend friends old school lost contact parents emotionally abuse sisters every day escape friends boyfriends school life become one tomultuos torture work hard every day please parents practicing violin working grades losing weight never enough every day tell year ill college ill life new friends sort partner cant fucking live awful cycle one day havent sober school month smoke wax pen bathroom every single day cant stand existing anymore havent told one person school truly anything everyone relationship least fucking friend cant fucking hold anymore school hell home hell sleep hell im going end awful existence anniversary day ruined life keep telling self better next year said last year im suicidal ive liife feeling living tbhim hopeless atm know say feel expect future view current situation says giving longer making effort always fails leads darker deeper hole kill keep trying keep failing entire life spent told keep trying succeed one big freaking lie far nothing life worked feel place world option stay holed piece crap falling house wait eventual death kill giving yet killing self go arnt oki individual therapy group therapy last august depression suicidal ideation worse brought knife school intention kill years ago cant help feel disappear im somehow burdening everyone proximity intrusive thoughts redflag ranging drinking household cleaner jumping top school parking garage feels every day im inching closer taking thought action today stood top parking garage actually leaned edge seen therapist times last two days another meeting tuesday im sure live long feel check hospital missed even two days work school life totally fucked lose job able afford rent mis two midterms drop graduate program finally made dont know dont want anyone deal mess killing idea living even two days feels impossible right least told depressed least one person loves feel alone always someone happy smiling time makes seem something wrong relationship maybe right maybe depressed really bad day possibly depressed married hate lifelately hit wave depression new thing happened feel im good enough world never live anyones expectations always set bar high always impossible impress life bearable good something im closest thing math id say im average things going right right sucks im trying lose weight pretty successful take step forward ten steps back top everything girlfriend year texted months life looking goodive often thought ending never gone know need someone talki think need talk someone last months anything productive home went outside rare possible live alone really close bachelors degree shortly registered topic thesis started realize frightened many trivial things tried avoid people stopped replying messages started college always thought writing thesis seminars hardest part even testseminar never problems exams mostly one best seminars practical parts supervisor watching always really hard managed finish thanks teammates always shy rather introverted type never thought something norm needs treated moment im really afraid social interactions matter real life internet never talked anyone think one knows shut room last months though often redflag actually wanted times never mostly family wish simply disappear waking morning die accident im pretty sure non happen today wanted drive home tell parents hour train need hours go back home ride returned back apartment know tell arrive thought calling parents via phone feel explain phone another idea go old friend lives doors away asking help cant think way help moment really know whats wrong escape current situation hope give advices asleep soup asleep right share im souphttpsyoutubefaunddtzkvideo good reason im borrreeeeed dm something funny spooky based smecksy anyone gon na tell anyone gon na tell supposed eat grapes milk together supposed fuck find im pain recently sleepover birthday party five girls age eleven us thinking harmless little movie jaws decided rent along rat race watched rat race stranger calls ease fear put movie night lay together sleeping bags hiding behind covers screamed five times unusual scared movies never scared enough actually screambr br us terrified even leave bedroom notredflag stalker jenkins called reasonwould us played mean trick one everyone dozing rat race hid sleeping bag said quietly lowly checked childen screamed nuts scared rate movie thing many false alarms jill thinks stalker kids never woke whole thing jenkins kidnapped hid cupboard time cry babies highly recommend movie anyone likes thriller one thing babysitting past pm schools reopening th march uk let know average daily covid cases funki want die think lot thing really keeping accidentallyonpurpose death fact roommates stuck dealing portion rent left tips tricks finding silver lining thnx im damn years oldjust got enough equipment christmas cant fuckin wait feel nothin nothing keeping alive guess think gon na waste life god matter fucking waste goddamn life im piece shit im asshole everyone knows aint got nobody dogs goddamn thing notice want anybody see corpse feels im faking want suicidal depressed rightly fucking want rid throw goddamn trashcan cant wait times tickin better sooner later blythe danner judith ivey deliver wonderful performances jonathan silverman eugene recounts life s brighton beachbr br makes film good relationships among characters backdrop extremely wonderful family valuesbr br bob dishy marvelous opportunity father clan gives restrained compelling performance patriarch familybr br sons played jonathan silverman brian dillinger fabulous certain scenes silverman skating hopping im reminded jerry lewisbr br danner ivey wonderful mannerisms intonation idealism jewish culture beautifully realized thembr br cinematography wonderful beautiful brighton even inevitability war loomed film rich many typical problems faced families period sense jewish experience family going throughbr br must see nostalgic buffs us believe strongly family values m thought redflag officially scary anymoreand worries lot part saw coming timeanother part denial every relationship toxic level intense codepdence coming family selfimage think go unattractive college active sports teams social clubs outgoing talked girls never succeeded overheard second time girls talking embarassed disgusting look closed book done talking girls none projects sidebusinesses every panned academically sucked masters program im home odd work dad friends works home treats owns parts life oddly exemplary eat diet rfitness jerk im bf train times week meditate daily couple hobbies enjoy sleep well fillers cant anywhere want academic goals business goals financial goals relationship goals sex goals list goes im tired generalized anxiety makes life hell psychiatrist want give meds says im better cbt looks itll enough understand neither last guy im good bring meds told meds asking thought dead used scare lot think missing little things air sunshine food etc thats changed ive seen ill see way im tired tired relocated graduate scheme fiance friends best friends live away busy university friends take interest lives now work makes anxious lonely feel trapped endless loop work home sleep repeat life feels pointless accomplishments fiance adore struggles depression hard discuss together worry end breaking mental health sometimes happens new puppy together mortgage getting married years want alone forever love still worry keeps night one day wake gonei think weird anxious make friends feel loser see mutuals posting socials friends time makes wonder thatno point post word vomit situation friendless shocked good german version films scream surpassing modern american efforts slasher filmsbr br films dont likable characters genuine mystery suspense graphic murders brilliant soundtrackbr br stylish horror film one best kind come years german cinema going strength strength lately shame people wont go see films missing easily available dvd even hate subtitles think see one best horror films see year dont know doim exhausted want give point even trying anymore interesting titleim killing tonight rules sub wont load phone feel nothing nowadays often happens odd flashbacks cartwheels bridges handsprings front lawn fathers house loved everything pointless story everything awful first tome life truly understand nobody love likely wont die tonight unfortunately definitely dont want anybodys help posting rant im journal space pills oclock forever impelling night everyone really survived always gone three four days without eating single thing dozens occasions last fifteen years fine guy wonderful helped great deal felt intentional attempt act burdensome charity case know recently enlightened fact mistake parents never really wanted happy two siblings accidentmistake going depression suicidal thoughts past years always reason stay recently finding feel reason anymore cry almost everyday thought kids growing without feel nothing change left worldi really looking help place finally able say words without criticism thank recent findings put state 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spirit dead child home cemetery plot well disturbing message brought particular film maybe casper meant morality play famous studios felt breaking new ground reality cartoonsbr br theres good boos tonight wellanimated projectno doubt plot development involving fox becomes caspers friend meets tragic end concernbr br give famous studios creditthey tackle death respectbut stark image caspers mourning rather graphic disturbing children though denouement offer happy ending give away ending violence rather steep even s standardsbr br might good cartoon parents use helping explain death childrenbut pop vcr perky cartoon break day talking tattoos want forget talk tattoos want van van weeds season episode maybe blue turtletop minihome one show need know anyone issue ok um idk puberty things recently noticed getting excited someone good person whenever someone nice friend cares gives complimets starting excited anyone issue bruh gay started feelings friend mine mofo might gay holy shit m covid hits barely got go outside first months okay people talk now everyone seemed go lives prolong fb activity feel depressed seeing people friends happen graduate last week highschool one top students feel going college spend time phone reading books seemed trivial wish killed feel familys frustrations confusion take college suicide mind lately feel waking every day go monotonous schedule loneliness depression redflag feel good anymore happy feel im going vomit might sick now fun happy oof stomach aches know si wrong subreddit want express myselfso know girl think likes ewery time comes feel paralysed cant ewen hug dont know knows hawe depression probably giving sometimes think im soo boring dont know girl sees every time im friends feel normal im alone feel cant even talk every time alone barely think talk want hawe girlfriend think girlfriend regret first days im sooo boring past days im feel shit suicidal thoughts crying almost ewey day dont know think im going end without friends depression shit know im going kill pas days every day im thinking sorry dead yeti really really really really really really really really want die tried kill lot times never end someone kill please tell died think even care notice anyways always watching people amazing life friends closest thing friend boyfriend cheated one haha found precious go school even though im quarantined brother got covid still quarantined days vice principal called said changed mind go school im risk giving covid class mates choice stay home probably punished go remake anime classic s one even better sylia nene linna priss back knight sabers hardsuits battling robotic boomers animation crisp characters welldeveloped action rocks priss singer regular job series features wonderful songs well fair amount violence robots fan service nothing racy dvds many extras including commentaries really enhance understanding enjoyment show musthave anime fanbr br recommended burst angel armitage iii acceptancei believe things never better people meant sadness inside never goes away ive never seen point living im empty lost things look better crumbles im incapable feeling happy think lifes anymore everyday struggle matter hard try help one im alone one understands feels far gone one try hard let everyone ruined six months clean two weeks ago want actually die time take bottle pills throw bridge im done turn soon thing remember pain angerhigh school hell ugly hs basically means try avoid bullied redflag im college now nights cant sleep remember lonely hs pain experienced fucking building intense still feel burn years later recall sophomore junior year nobody sit lunch entire years sat alone counselors office sometimes sit cry nobody offered hand nobody helped supposed magical time many teenagers dont want fucking remember bullshit bullied ugly virgin shamed girls rejected worst ways imaginable hate much fucking punch wall right now deserve right quick painless death life isnt fair ugly even doable itive enough life miserable friends parents hate everyone around living good life im constant pain every day summer ive looking job well week finally landed interview time turns need id required paperwork one need transportation told mom tell shes busy cant cant fucking summer shes fucking case constantly constantly telling job heres fucking opportunity happens jesus christ guys cant anymore ive sober years great school want enough money drivers license car impossible without job fucking rate wont make life cant really cant im good literally nothing fucking loser coward wish life even slightly better unfortunately overdosing fentanyl later tonight looking mind change ive made decision smoking nice blunt listening help hako yamazaki beautiful song sleepwalk santo johnny peace happiness final moment never wanted come think happy child ive turned one talk vent goodbye guys thanks took time read useless post im happy got money back still lost close hey heres hoping next seller find doesnt turn con artist hi male looking meet people hi im kinda lonely nice meet new people know probably attention internet cares females still try anyways nice mind texting please oh live arizona enjoy playing games watching youtube im bit boring bye fellas endi feel im end rope met somebody online genuinely intrested dating turn saw look aunt died watch scatter ashes wonderful human life justdumped water friends getting annoyed constantly telling tell start conversations anymore start ive waited see long took days lonely acted perfectly fine messaged joking around stuff ive lost friends depression cant lose now im writing morning one awake house may live house nother father brother honesty ive never felt damn lonely killing im wits end theres train track house know go lay head never feel way idk im trying achieve writing honestly know feel perhaps final letter world last words want happy ive tried therapy ive tried meds ive tried finding job talking people work never try right want work idk theres god ive never given much thought hope least send someone grant strength keep going want die want live feel thing point die im fucking scared feel lost im tiredhi everyonei hope okay speak mind bit im years old im england live sweden studywhen around years old obsessive compulsive disorder really came surface diagnosed depression ocd generalised anxiety disorder remember day havent worrying sad upset something craving medication take away numb anxiety sadness im university somehow god knows managed scrape past school wishes family therapist came swedenive year thought moving help escape old problems followed real friends go lectures spend much time bedroom nothing even feel ive recovered one anxiety another one comes along im freaking ive sleep walking nights ago im worried ive sent snapchat sleepwalking well browsing internet obviously cant tell nature snapchative upset hurt much anyone happened deserve ive thoughts redflag im scared death even think life aint much better eitherdoes better im tired know left doive experiencing really intense suicidal thoughts now started transferred new school made really good friends ex david girl named riley really close come january david dumped riley transferred different school city away within days eachother needless say crushed entered depressive state took especially ex insisted friends immediately breakup made much harder additionally ex suicidal thoughts spent relationship convincing kill made new friends coronavirus struck march close enough stay touch right now im position literally friends talk still talk riley transferred back old high school closer old friends know long makes staying touch kinda hard super bad place staying home kind cleared head deal parents full time traded social issues family ones felt nothing escape sadness slowly engulfing tried use opportunity reach friends old high school old best friend lila fallen touch things seemed getting better truly felt someone genuinely cared anxiety persisted thoughts came back started thinking ways actually firearms hydrogen sulfide suffocation nitrogen carbon monoxide poisoning fact think one person care died didnt help right think im breaking point school start ive isolated months im behind college applications im taking huge workload year friend whats worse got really wasted lila week ago confessed everything depression suicidal thoughts plans sober im sure really freaked remember making promise tell anything sober remember course woke remembering everything felt awful scared away friend set awful burden pretended blacked said loved acting kind cautious around cant help think ive ruined stable relationship parents toxic hell know past suicidal experiences telling make things worse sure drive killing things never bad now think im really close resources well know theres left im suicidal anymore want kill spitemy life actually going pretty great well parents decided lazy theyll throw next birthday june lazy aka found job applied several universities studied lazy mother untreated bpd worst fucking bitch know goes lovey dovey monster seconds eating peacefully suddently starts yelling every time yelling tells kill honestly really want spite hurt thinks words consequences always excuses abuse angry telling give self harm made exactly course yeleld child know says im joy life one thing stops offing want rip joy away brings joy end make miserable show abuse words meaning usually try understanding hate bothering anybody want peace quiet knows push buttons turn spiteful asshole wants harm incredibly salty rn found old ds game room called pokemon conquest remember playing little bit leaving halfway story days ago decided pick today finally got point felt ready fight final boss went bitch dodged least attacks attacks chance landing times attacked got rest party members dodged tons attacks mention weird stage gimmick inflicts status happen land tiles map one party members moves inflict knockback meaning knock onto tiles inflict status ill bouta die sodium poisoning swear god want fade nothing one left care whether im notby rights proud least thats parents tell good degree well paying job worked hard enough school graduate early little debt thanks scholarships id think family proud im think ive miserable wreck life fiance left years relationship another guy month going propose ago im pretty sure ive stressed hair fallen always thought ugly look even worse spend days waiting find excuse go sleep sleeping long think existence ive turned bottle numb throughout day productivity work plummeting feel even deserve job anymore hope fire social life plummeted circle friends actually talk started shrinking go days whole week without talking anybody cant talk women tried asking girl coffee gave reluctant yes thought whole situation much broke nervous fit attempted talk lashed immediate family instead talking im feeling want see feel distancing now sometimes wonder glitch maybe im supposed exist maybe theres something fundamentally wrong existence needs corrected life fit even family always felt never supposed friends relationships fluke everyone going find eventually want cut ties everyone much existence corrected one know difference guess im good job person tell anonymous message board people reddit bash make grammar mistake wtf dudes literally become english teachers suppose put comma cmon guys big deal someones makes grammar mistake meme think pierce brosnan think suave dapper intelligent james bond movie brosnan plays type lots fun audience film hired assassin befriends harried businessman worksbr br fun movie good scenes riveting ontheedge brosnan good compliant offtheedge kinnear good lines cavil hope davis playing ohsotolerant wife see gun appear often marvellous foil menbr br movie matador plays audience going kill ending awesome storyline notredflag moral emerges frenetic frantic fun movie deserve wide audience im lowest low ive many times really strength anymorethis lot apologize advance strength move many people angry unjust fixable anymore sexually abused couple times family cant go parents reason cant even write now rejected held onto leash two months even start final straw gave much cared much way deluded really thing kept sane motivated im gay ive trying boyfriend really long time im currently came started dating ive rejected many times rejection part dating understand heartbreak heal overtime strength anymore ive many times people tell aboveaverage handsome really nice caring never received anything good ampxb home nothing antidepressants seem work want die really really wake feel clear good seconds back physical pain hurts alive im screaming home fall asleep floor eaten days even find anything undertake anything anymore tried happy really started writing book drawpaint lot make music anything anymore im done need miracle see breathing days ampxb amazing friend love much probably keeping point cant anymore im alone alone nothing want help want talk friends anymore ive much point say im baby take care psychiatrist times life cant afford go cant go back ampxb ampxb angry getting headache fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller cant stop thinking itim really dangerous positionv rn really expect anyone answer help im psychotic days bipolar took really word turn l feel im seriously stuck stage mania depression extreme redflag thoughts plus energy execute feel im trapped lift belly whale bottom ocean thats radiohead feel trapped head im feeling away body already wish know stupid im point life stable unless head fucking hard convince go throughtitle ig want say goodbyeif talk fuck want oh people care bullshit anything saying goodbye hopefully friendly goodbye return want hear anything interested relationship makes weird guy seriously dont want relationship trust issues insecurities know good relationship im really interested people see weird guy yeah im strict family kind relationship thats relationship thank bruh googled character adventure time second image sexy fanart dont wan na wake hospital dont wan na wake wan na jump campus week never feel anything againplanning jump building university campus kill week ill go night one sees looking forward killing supposed go todayi everything planned pills plan comfortable going today reason done particularly difficult appointment camhs monday admit something planned im bad liar im angry saying something easiest way essentially rd attempt past month ive admitted hospital twice discharged couple days later come back shitty cycle desperate rest want sleep waking painful knowing continue live shitty hell life nauseates ive trying tell therapist im getting worse continue stop telling people actually told focus moment im frustrated im falling behind subjects horrible health issues ive last months aspirations future really want go rest now ive pills taken mean im considering methods maybe soon ill guts properly nobody cares everyone treats nuicense want live world terrible things sure afterlife rather jsut end see treated shit idk put world full terrible things ruin think gone better everyone world good idk deserve know post super edgy whatever really feel reality nothing live want live life nothing mine want live itthanks reading goodbye want live terribly cruel world lostits year mom died proper sleep anxious stressed littlest things feel waiting something bad happen break way happened already suicidal thoughtsideations never diagnosed though never courage mother special never deserve one knew one confided guess now know exactly know feel sometimes hits fear fear feel thing stopping thought grandmother might make finally courage listen impulses guess fake well sometimes wish someone notice care funny one really cares pretend guess im sad angry tired past days feeling time stronger v warface ps im gon na loose right remove trump sign said biden burn loot murder ok possibly people treat praysite shit whats favourite episode show ive ran ideas mines season episode crowd stole post raskreddit keep trying find way able keep living doesnt seem options need kill myselfi dont really know im still trying pretty clear need kill im huge burden parents want gone go dont friends family id homeless im disabled basically impossible extremely dangerous try homeless illnesses ive trying look help really none sucks friends family wouldnt situation id somewhere go help disability medicaid housing stuff birthday rd guess thats im going think messed relationship ive talking girl awhile school summer quarantine weeks ago started dating well week told realized asexual told didnt mind perfectly fine fast forward today chat minutes send super long message explaining still love still date even though asexual still love ways well sent hasnt responded minutes usually responds instantly think overstepped aware asexuality doesnt apply sexual orientation dont fully understand dont know feel ruined great friendship really love say im freaking joined pro sport called professional crastination think im one star players team give upkind looking guidance know answer dont anyone situation know thats laughable response life full ups downs mostly downs years along family now part thats much issue big issue feel total drain waste society every person come casual contact leave bad situation one relationship ended badly ass hurtful go friends water make horrible first second third impressions actually wind making someone friend usually wind pissing within weeks go jobs quite quickly hired quickly fired usually six month trial period able along coworkers constantly fight pretty good job offending cant professional way date life depended lbs type personality allows people see beyond asshole lies top anything belownot sure grew total lack friends got picked elementary jr high high even college jr high spent time upside garbage pretty short temper seeing people away things cutting traffic dumping work others cheating systems yes meds welbutrin bruspirone pristique pop xanax need sleep cant bc running mind seen shinks answer always dont say stupid things people stop think thats shittiest form advice thats telling someone hiv stop lower white blood cell count things cant control trust tried meetings place large red x paper still speak irrelevant stupid things anything topic hand brought edge yesterday informed one last chance current job best behavior better start looking new job im done im tired cant keep hurting others spend time money fail drain society know short ending things want hurt people actually care mom dad folks actually found care much ass help hate myselfi wish pit stomach makes feel much loathe go away think anymoremy partner emotionally abusive marriage gone back second time first time thought stronger helping friday knew happening messages got home told loved called day seemed genuinely changed loved said loved hurt one us apart stuff hich arrange mom house cold dead empty want end cant go back unhappy person helped feel happy gone miss much miss children want die nobody cares menobody sees hard fighting carei know belong herei borni died twin probably thrived well likedim ready leave herewhy death come easy life even dying failurei anything righti someone anyone wantsfriends partners family nonemy father died youngi want go meet belong hate existential crisis people telling corrupted government poor educational system hate glaucoma hate living find ways college degree work probably work whole life die even asked anyway want broken family functioning eye depression last thing want depressed begging attention comfort friends show vulnerable feels shit craving attention love incapable loving damn right thought life going well last night spiralled got degrading comment ah yes asian achieved anything s boo hoo visually impaired realizing pointless life family work notredflag basically existing screw supernatural shit life everything nothing exciting games movies junk foods makes forget shitty life food tastes crap weather gloom throw everything away including happywhen kid life pretty colorful grey boring fuck guess adult means deal lifes crap oh bread winner tf earth try put try anxious depressed drained one time anymore applying places months goddamn house rejected ignored sought therapy find available find joy things wanted dedicate life think anything right slashing wrists open letting drain die care anymore point exhausted every option wassup hope everyones nice day days going pretty smoothly finished essay last minute phew sometimes look couples shows think aw want seems special think redditor passed away serious reddit account said die within week comment within month dead heres post hope got enjoy life even way weird contract myselfsometimes thing gives comfort idea cant job end year sign time leave stress life worth theres nothing look forward life expensive familyfriendspartnerdependents anyway wouldnt affect anyone yeah im pretty smooth women dms irl fucking choke fucking mia malkova mia khalifas love child stumbled series rather accident half episode hooked american gothic dark strange series gary cole mysterious probably evil sheriff buck trying gain control illegitimate son caleb played lucas black impressed gary coles sinister sheriff even impressed lucas black lucas blacks caleb able stand sheriff buck one frightening characters created tv series rarely seen child actor much presence talent lucas black lucky enough see lucas american gothic see slingbladebr br remarkable show many ambiguities mysteries never explained short run february took time took clark cabin september second trip decided search job redding late october moved redding clark call update medical credential process going share family always repeat manuel dont know much longer handle fast pace bay area people rush dont even know rush one new grievances avenue lives jokingly calls expressway sound constant vehicle traffic definitely contrast area previously filled orchards lot comments seem treat film baseball movie feel secondary really living japan really succeedsbr br spent years living japan suppose reason movie well sort experienced japan watching welltravelled friend whos never japan noted many events movie ludicrous destroyed suspension disbelief reply events absolute unvarnished truth life japanbr br think movie definitely worth watching especially lived japan interested dark lorax wip lorax speak trees litter ill break fucking knees lorax knew one thing better knew thing better dinosaurs roar trees cant harmed lorax armed pulled sniper kill viper shot onceler littering wanker fired shots shot one chest head knee onceler one second bed next second dead know warning blunt directed littering cunts lorax speak trees one man dead thats ive never felt call depression life turned upside cos long term relationship failed finding x started sleeping bestfriend less thena weeks belonging halfed life keep thinking everything knew failed one thing fucked im falling head keep thinking killing know wrong know solves nothing know make things worse still care know act anymore something really wrong meso im really struggling moment lots things staying home really messed schoolwork im back school now found grades beginning fall im getting worried final grades good enough ive heard many people tell end world desired feel talents skills interests passions decent personality succeed life grades thing im sort good provides chance getting somewhere idea want future finish school end year still clue everyone idea im confused really many friends either ive cut lot family life lonely lot time deal devastating social anxiety held back many times even caused stupid things last couple days done nothing besides school mostly stayed room looking phone motivation anything anymore used making videos playing keyboard try feel even feel motivated play video games anything bad little hope dealing suicidal thoughts couple years though ive set dates never gone end supposed done beginning year scared always im stuck hate im back herei tried commit redflag little year ago im bad place wish successful particular needwant posting wanted express seriously nothing offer world time gone im burden family friends little offer beyond paying rent course fair share taxes damn god hell looks cool rewatched hazbin one sec early s radio talk show hosts power gods ratcheted wasteland fighting laws hell ya beacause stuff watchplay connection hell helltaker mmmmmmm fuck want go hell people dont make farmy family good looking might face homelessness hell dont know happen torchers rich families gove kids free ride hope education even roof head either die wait awhile die anyways still herethis past year fucking roller coaster emotions four different times ive came close acting plans end life thing thats stopping dog things never thought hed thing keeping alive adopted pound time ive hes became attached moved away college last semester parents report back hed search mope around couldnt find dont know overwhelming guilt dog shattered time though im actually little scared flunked semester lost two scholarships made college possible parents kicking im afraid might true end wont able take care dog ill end inevitability failing everyone life situation hitting im hardest time sleeping thoughts ending life slip mind maybe deed make world better place anyways sorry wasting time today one last chanceim sorry ranting randomly im laying bed looking ceiling killing basically ive decided give one last chance letting go finally ctb good people started following content liking im ive gotten bit exposure im working one huge project want succeed want live life knowing live thanks work love work hard honest im scared im terrified fails honest think dying every single day somehow project work keep going really end failing unable live passion im ending im tired nothing people know whatever want snapping fingers im tired sorry rant asked friend sunsets sunrises look bitch tf feel little less sadi posted couple days ago ended one best things ive done found someone helps feel alone still wan na die pretty regular basis ive got good people now wan na say thank getting day got lot messages helped got talk someone openly redflag without feeling guilty trapped really nice wanted encourage help please know make difference mardi gras made china provides wonderful intricate connection popular culture nudity globalization making tossing beads saw film international film festival boston expecting dry introduction globalization got riveting visual display shocking footage china united states eyeopening film humorous indepth serious nonpatronizing leaves wanting credits role worth comparing murderball simply well done young women workers china various points view owner amazingly open discipline revelers carnival highlight excellent film provides indepth context inside factory china without narration bravo filmmaker getting inside finishing film never thought connection beads china new orleans think human connection almost every object role globalization inequality fun importantly make connections without feeling sense guilt watching film unlike films globalization ive seen want drink deathand even drink seems good way go think primarily loneliness gets hate want end first time seriously considering redflagive sad long last month ive sad cant take longer took steps help years good job absolutely fit gym bjj everything superpower miserably sad every day want keep suffering cant take longer swear know anymore close giving upgive dont much left family know incredible irreplacable man makes smile sometimes see nothing lost house two weeks homeless real best friends turned faux uni sucks grades suck hometown people talk shit oh may hpv symptoms may virus reason live hoping turn fine maybe thinking failed every way possible homeless two weeks isnt much overwhelming tired today birthday say happy birthday whatever may end anyway movies loved almost everyone come across yet happen boxoffice failures andaz apna apna intelligent hilarious comedy falls catogory indian director kept mind sensibilities audience churned kader khan type stereotypical hoax movie two guys dream riches try accomplish wooing millionaires daughter humorous drama unfolds lot complexities surface story complexities add sheer comedy entire plot aamir khan plays streetsmart guy salman khan gives unexpectedly good performance dumb guy villian played paresh rawaland henchmen junior ajit kaliaa make laugh sleep although movie borrows lot movies despite shoddy camerawork despite loud times remains one scarce funny movies bombay come movies padosan golmal amol plaekar movies sad well boxoffice means producers turn back formulas creativity abandoned number day day aa aa honestly put existenceso many things happened life lately pushes ending drug addict sister abused parents hospital baby severe health issues due drug use pushed mom finals mediocre grades im years graduating even though graduated year financial debt got mostly racked school letting boyfriend take advantage im still abusive relationship years ago recent ex take seriously abusive relationship opened old wounds fell madly love someone terrible broke thinking going life without makes feel alone honestly life gotten better ive gotten used disappointment grief loneliness im think im finally going kill end year nothing helps thoughts fantasies redflagno kind words supportive messages positive events goddamn thing theyre temporary highs end back pit depression graduate high school cool happy dont care start making hr fresh high school working dream job cool happy stoked back suicidal ideation project car keep busy cool fun back depression nothing fuckin helps always comes back always sticks around always sittin back head waiting tiniest crack shield blast go hey fuckface time killed eh heres million ways thinkin matter tells itll better dont matter whos support matter good things happen life fucking pisses feeling ive got pretty damn good life thinking id better foot makes hate even think big part isolated people much long know feel anything thats case going milestones worse im done school forced interact people age ive got close friends never willingly hang know keep busy occupied kind work mind races really road come back sweat buckets heart pounds hard feels gon na rip chest stumble damn near every word versus sentence cause know socialize everyone says im hard worker got good work ethic im dedicated boils im fuckin scared anything work cause mind takes suicidal dreams begin fuckin stop im scared im tired want end butso im writing despite psychiatrist appointment early tomorrow work need talk im writer least feel ive lost talent writing book genius slowly got worse worse writers block pretty much stopped lost best friends ive isolated two years straight used lovable carefree fun despite depressed even back still full life friends loved make people laugh everyone told comedian id high friends push shopping cart went funny tangeants got sorts trouble cant even smoke pot anymore anxiety roof body feels sort way panic attack really bad panic attack anything set influence drugs alcohol feeling nauseous especially public anyways rekindled one old friends might sound narsicistic im trying honest always pretty friend im simply put dont compliments anymore dont feel beautiful anymore fact feel extremely ugly inside im conflicted nervous wreck let go period isolation gained ton weight already little chubby developed eating disorder really torn fuck apart lost weight cost something pounds chubby morbidly obese anything im something lost starving ive tried start eating job always feel nauseous eating couldnt deal said intense fear throwing dont need rhat top already crippling anxiety associated leaving house mental part still much still feel absolutely disgusting never good enough big nose fat thighs flat butt ive lost beautiful thick hair starvation im piece shit writing thing therapist recently said something talking wanted author said something along lines actually writer think youre writer hurt ive writing years didnt beat stopping enough already anyways point im low low past years want end bad problem im live mom shes single hell back child recently lost husband parents brother grandma span half decade shes strong strong enough deal finding dead daughter either purple swollen hanging bloody disfigured shooting dont want destroy thats friend boyfriend know fact able carry mother though dont want die simply dont want hurt know wont live im selfish fucks sake dont know waiting around really driving farther farther insanity passing day thoughts became dark violent dont know fuck anymore way medication dont see switching anti depressant doesnt cause weight gain dieso came reasons ive depressed three years mostly laying bed nothing ive mental hospital times even finished high school leech parents im pedophille aspergers syndromediagnosed make psychosis depression everyday take kinds medication none help ive though cannibalismeating people ive hit mother couple times tortured girl history depression every body pretty much hates im lowest form human concetrate enough even read book memory completely shot connections lost necrophille bunch pariphillias im horrible traits combined one human single redeeming quality ive stolen money mom people ive leeched governemnt programs country one failed redflag attempt adolph hitler think hes really inspiring watch speeches read autobiography im practically neo nazigood luck everyone save say change anyone gotten spark backwhile highschool constant interaction coupled long distance girlfriend gave loads energy xbox yelling attack names narutostorm friends irl made alot people smile acted well graduated highschool keep keeping contact friends girlfriend broke grandma killed end year around time moms bipolar disorder got control started drugs practically babysit ended falling asleep wheel car busting headlight whole time ive room playing dragonball fighterz work fedex wake everyday go work everyone asks im ok people around inside joke depression reflects face honestly idea ive never face face relationship ive lost depression wake feel horrible almost driven road angry shitty self reflections times want energy back supposed aight bois im going sewerslide irs fun bois n gorls filler filler filler filler filler filler filler venting life cant handle life anymore ive alot happier parents made life hell every day yelled cussed dad unparalleled amount reasons hell call fucking idiot things similar alot hurts force keep straight face fear yelled admittedly alot probably enough chores cant see justified maybe wrong makes relapse suicidal thoughts makes lose motivation anything including playing online talking friends hate life sometimes motivation work screamed work caught debating telling mom everything know younger brother thing holding parents marriage together even said got chance shed leave behind buy home beach mom alright yell call things sometimes definitely understanding two either sit feeling nothing old enough leave home add onto everything dad said jailed caught trying commit redflag hed kill self sure approach professional helpthis throwaway account feel fantasies jumping third floor university quite often though necessarily feel near future days wish sort trigger makes go want seek professional help therapist know afford someone meaningfully relatable feel depression continues years come end inevitably instead therapy mostly selfmedicate depression weed options longterm therapeutic help someone develop close connection understanding friend angel death mimsy farmer barbet schroeders s heroin opus sort jean seberg hypodermic pink floyd score despite ultimately insignificant weaknesses classic shamelessly ripped erich segalnoel black inept jennifer mind although tippy walker playing similar character junkieappealing latter mess though terrific great s drug movie simply important document time much cult film join cultbr br american movie far remember charts territory mimsys astonishing archetype elevating mythic realms fainthearted great sex scenes im problemi want cut open dead distracteda recent experience made feel comfortable enough know want life going days ago got distracted realised happy distracted going tonight light spliffs nice toasty relaxed itll doesnt scare least even excite kinda funny year ago wrapped truck around tree want pictures find account imagine walking around crash site bill wurtz audio bad thing little vera story russian teenager family attempts find meaning value life sliding increasingly decay search meaning falls love intellectual rebellious sergei whose hatred deeply flawed parents quickly spirals controlbr br little vera shocking disturbing nearly every way drinking father enabling lack understanding mother casual lies misdirection brother vera forgiving flaws shocking slightly disturbing watch raw honesty film somehow manages become even shocking plot characters set cramped spaces vast urban decay little vera presented vastly different view soviet life seen fact little vera portrait collapse soviet society painted shades pain desperation rust implosion family set implosion entire social orderbr br although painful desperately unsatisfying film definitely worth seeing understand feelings cultures still reshaping russia today tf heart hurting pain physical metaphors el mar tough stark utterly brilliant brave work cinematic art director agust villaronga adaptation antoni aloy biel mesquida blai bonets novel created film traces profound effects war minds children exposure wrecks havoc adult lives though focus wars heinous tattoo children transference effects soldiers citizens adult age clear film becomes one finest antiwar documents without resorting pamphleteering end result far greater impact inherent story following childrens march toward adulthoodbr br small group children shown spanish civil war spain threatened blackouts invasive nighttime slaughtering citizens ramala nilo mur tur david lozano julia sergi moreno francisca victoria verger witness terror assassination men revenge drives one murder suicide wideeyed children become adults carrying psychic disease trauma repressed mindsbr br encounter three survive adulthood confined tuberculosis sanitarium ramala roger casamajor survived male prostitute protected john morell juli mira kept life style private tur bruno bergonzini become frail sexually repressed gay male whose cover commitment catholicism blur delusional selfmutilationcrucifixion francisca antnia torrens become nun serves patients sanitarium three rejoined environment sanitarium slowly reveals scars childhood experiences war tur longs ramalas love ramala longs free morell francisca must face internal needs covered white nuns habitbr br setting sanitarium provides graphic plane thin thread life death lust love devotion destruction played detail destroy impact film individual viewer suffice say graphic sex full nudity involved stunningly raw footage yet captured film viewer prepared witness every form brutality imaginable viewer scenes utmost importance director villaronga applauded perseverance bravery making story intense actors children adults splendid roger cassamoor bruno bergonzini antnia torrens especially fine inordinately difficult roles cinematography jaime peracaula haunting musical score javier navarrete serve directors vision tough film one highly recommended unafraid face horrors war aftermath spanish english subtitlesbr br grady harp burger king nutted fish sandwich bruh looks someone said shit u c e time replace n u t looks n dont even know try anymorei dont know im begging help depressed cant anymore want die please please someone talk dont want hurt person love hes care took write easy task difficult understand want say sorry fucking confused difficult express always troubles keeping level confidence high part life happy stuck spiral bad things happened last couple years finished masters covid hit hard unable work couple months ago living abroad realized friends always basically spent almost two years couch almost gave professional life felt good enough colleagues nasty relationship years crumbling apart strength fight thing comes mind disappearing know deal sorry look real problem needed vent courage talk friends family lost death welcoming meits kind strange lately every time think redflag every time see something sharp feel someones drawing lines wrist even though cut throat thats noose supposed im partially worried honestly give shits anything anymore lost ability feel things long ago b im afraid strange used think sad people killed one cares actually kind welcoming guys think im setting goal living january although goal seeming less less likely days ill honestly surprised live past september know guys really tempting answer calls something holding back knows maybe post lost sea posts thanks anyone reads feels nice last time talked lifeline ended chat within minutes time told take deep breaths showed concern care want people think help help pain deathon different note wish mom take away knife want cut entire body scars every inch show people serious say need help downplay bet dead think wish signsi reason live want mom grieve said die kill pretty much support gives mom dies ill kill myselfthere words describe pain feel building almost entire life suicide lifeline care friend attempting redflag speak helpa classmate mine texting killing im trying tell call ambulance dont know address cant call im trying talk telling someone help im luck please help stopped responding dont know contact anyone edit discovered last name school given name number hopefully find time thank much helpless without advice thank edit hours silence started receiving strange texts unintelligible texts akhgjhaegf kej kajehjaeg called spoke person spoken earlier today informed friend tracked police sent house wellness check turns already visited emergency responders tells alone house someone found thank god still thankful reddit helping little really truly appreciate hopefully friend heal back track happiness thank reddit im emotionally messed fix myselfrecently family completely ignored dont seem care way shape form ive always extremely sensitive emotional person im really self conscious almost everything grandfather probably person listened say person cared im sure im going now im worried im going something ill regret dont knowi dont even feel belong im constant balance slightly numb daydreaming redflag ive done everything fucking feel something past months ive cut many fucking times finally stopped weeks ago bled much thought hit vein although sometimes wish wouldnt deal fucking noise around bullshit many ideas many people think know canmt tune anymore feel everything coming end im shouldnt fucking go sounds selfish feel wish didnt aware everything falling apart around wish didnt people age shaming putting acting bullshit thats going im tired nothings getting better im drunk mind right now im trying make things coherent forgive fuck pointless want drink cant move idk even trywhy havent given turned alcohol die dads side family around see smart people dumb motherfucker online college accounting first assignment already struggling hard remember everything smart good math ill study hours day think meanwhile someone breeze everything fucking difficult especially bad depression anxiety yrs wont go away joke ill die forever alone zombie surviving long pleasantly surprised find enjoyable film kept attention throughout horror fan see almost everything genre dead line managed freak pace cleverly set andrs bagg good performance desperate man underneath main plot trip madness end martin sanders ask self sees homeless speaking self alone street close end film character aaron mandel asks question sees another homeless thing knowing yet homeless martin sanders answering question beginning film broken eyeglasses two clear symbol rupture division personality ending jaw dropping know sequel made need someone talk toas title says explain little detail father recently passed away im stuck crossroad life nowhere go every time take step forward take ten steps back im lost getting closer redflag really care gets lost needed somewhere vent saw television years ago remember never forgot performance sammy davis jr chance thought look video rendition porgy bess treasure love see introduce son well cant imagine heralded one greatest performances sammy davis jr every gave whoever responsible bringing audiences ashamed hisher ignorance continue look though maybe execs responsible things come realize forgotten work many african american actors know mebetter anyone know every little tiny detail cant hide anything youve known longer known longer mother youve seen every part life tell everything happened excruciating detail start finish know happened know things made feel know things affected whether knew must know feel ive seen much ive much must know want must know feel game isnt worth playing anymore im running around circles waiting die things ive experienced left empty desire see another day ive given wont better irreparably scarred battered broken seen much hard work nothing nobody cares dont even care long go sleep last time understand please dont make wake world life susan sarandon lack better word incredible opinion yes understand everyone agree one greatest actresses least oscars credit mean amazing performance lorenzos oil think every performance amazing gave emma thompsonwhat time got oscar shed industry years think anyone deserved especially performance brilliant portrayal sister helen prejean artificiality hollywood need oscar people know good anywaybr br film carries deep thoughtprovocing messages needless say taken lightly tim robbins course cant escape credit think person feelings death penalty portrayals made movie accurate sides deathpenalty debate given even weight one side see interesting side matthew human side makes witnessing death rather heartwrenching time see way savaged victims constant torment understandably griefstricken parents one word tim bravobr br brilliant movie said welldeserved long awaited oscar susan seems im one doesnt crush sub every post see talking asked crush got rejected girls know either pieces shit lesbian one trust wont spread rumors stab back much ask cant anything righti cant even choose right tea wanted thought self soothe bought wrong kind even little things cant help mess drink wrong kind top literally everything going wrong right try riddle small thumb light air may hear see trust thisi keep thoughts redflag cant seem stop keep thinking easy life leaving everything behind soon exwife kids much better dad parents family take granted look child im pathetic hate god damned much cant stop want change different want stop feeling depressed anxious weak want stop feeling burden want stop feeling life value cant change im tired im scarred everything im laying holding doe heavy weight dont know thought turns others expected thought im ready disappear selfish im ready leave behind cant live cant change feel never ill fat slob version forever whats point people might say kids good reason know love matter time mess lives disappoint never thought life lets make song together words per person let start upon really adult ft fault theirsmy mom asked looking job yknow hit im adult capable adult things told everyone asked bad wanted kill school idiot doctors think way theyve asked ive socializing school going plan school ends every minute im awake spent thinking much id love cover room walls blood ive told stupid pills work said notice changes months said magic pills help said wanted start testosterone said unstable higher risk killing started telling months pills helping im getting fuck everyone going hear say want kill say hear understand anyways almost plans real kicker professional idiots heard say hate stopped taking believed next month said taking last years change mind transgender think ill change mind now ive told feel always old enough stable ask uncertain future functioning member society adult makes old stable enough warned long time ago think worth much trouble im sure ill dead decided try anyway im room wishing final push really funny mom pissed told spent whole day cutting even going tell said glad stopped messaging tell feel self destructive got head thought depression gone took sharp things ok though doesnt know told closest person suicidal ive feeling want go even morehe said id selfish causing lot pain people care despite ive lot longer want stick around lot gone right life including relationship mattered chest post anyone read relates descendence depression told truthfully love care im thankful everything done including wish helped make come true saying loved want anything happen changed mood sudden even hold hand talk really im spending night im scared leave hell never talk makes even sad hopeless want kill much sooner personal deadline jan th sorry lack format whatever care much right now im stressed male suffering patchy hair loss really tryed everything itforst started years ago doctors told stress id grow back naturally case alsotryed multiple shampoos got patches back head around sides first wasnt noticeable started jet black patches growing nice light brown panicked booked consultation dermatologist straight away quickly dismissed case saying stress im stressed great life regularly gym always happy couldnt much worse top head started majorly thinning shedding small circle black patches hair forming light thick hair see started really itch al itchy small spots occasionally thought ill see dermatologist surely cant ignore wrong really didnt careat felt awnsering questions stressed life ruined cantgo without hat hood im devastated tryed full head shave absolutely hated really dont suit eyebrows seem shedding spots getting worse mean much put spend day everyday looking help cant find im fed trying different things ive changed diet tryed many medical shampoos gp tryed coconut oil regaine minoxidil vitamins including zinc tryed eating plenty veg high fibre foods yet carrying cant seem find anyone whos hair turned black nothing sentence happening anyone relate please justwant life back affecting relationship becauseim upset time feel discusting know look stupid couldnt even watch child school play im literally house bound feel dying whats point anymore one help im going left rott away maybe ishould favor end quick im stressed unreal easily one best shows made gets better agebr br one chief reasons english adaptation done david weirbr br japanese friend mine told show original language whimsical less flatout hilarious version knowbr br fact show resonates strongly nonjapanese fans think largely mr weirs inspired efforts winning voiceover workbr br well done sir looked ocean blue eyes glistering nightsky sitting looking nightsky always fascinated secrets fo space fascinated gorgeus smile im glad see happy brings slight joy wondered id enough roast meeeeeeeeee miss dumb roasts people th grade plz roast people cut selfharmwhat use body part treat wound hide often feel better regretful afterwards worth lot questions mind wan na know others feel leaving place manager attempting rush us apartment serviced hour notices intimidation behaving angry way leaving mean voicemails papers pissed door yelled lived toward last months documenting everything collecting paper copies communication another narcissistic manager tenant animal abuser wish actual law aspca partner coulda helped living second apartment today birthday wanted something friend know virus used think time birthday came anyway rewatched lord rings return king th time didnt regret wanted something friends fucked againi tried jump cart metro jump considering redflag police interposition might succeed college essays wan na remind fellow teens theyre probably going reddit escape reality offer advice write kickass essay im ears thanks guys lt accept fact literally funny secy struggle cant ah classic comedy point movie brains messed together two minute scene bruce campbell beating partially reminds simplistic movies ideas grab wrap whole moviebr br years years bruce campbell knows kind movies want want see weird movies bubba ho tep want see cameo roles sam raimi movies want see man screaming brain title alone one knows going border completely silly type movie army darkness silly less monstersbr br idea movie simple bruce sees doctor doctor new idea bruce gets bad things happen way see doctor coincidentally thing doctor wanted show saves hilarity ensuesbr br addition ted raimi weird russian guy journeyman stacy keach dr ivan ivanovich ivanov funny movie complete funny never point scarybr br silly bruce campbell watching bruce campbell im living ghosti dead died years ago thing shell im hell think redflag attemp years ago actually worked hell im living cool mobile games one handed gameplay im looking left arm fucking broke medical industry ie psychologist psychiatrist thrive gives men purpose designed control population engage act reproductionpick poison money god eventually sides steal hard work sides great stealing good creating original ideas killed feelings either drugs smoking depression realism thing bitches really thinking arent cute think arent cute ima say wrong fam ur cute thats final im invisiblegranted im known many acquaintances zero friends often repeating called friends listen dont hear frankly give shit ive suffering bipolar disorder manic depression upwards years told myseld make past yrs things better ive hospitalized recently september staff basically said treat us monitor us stable meds fit leave family raised foster care system im completely alone see point living anymore im constantly mental agony ignored used every level ive taken care people thought friends much love give misguided usual end used thrown tissue ignored blatantly cant keep job stability often rocked uncontrollable emotions outbursts cant cope anymore im losing hope honestly someone acknowledge alive sensitive real person even know curb feelings thoughts redflag closest friends growing passed either redflag excessive drug use im honestly debating path without im alone idk reddit place least im getting one outlet speak real feelings ive sought therapy psych meds seems never want hear bad try silver lining struggles saying im strongim tired exhausted strong allowed vulnerable real help rx bandaid work among us rated read title filler filler filler yo momma jk jk jk jk jkj j jk honest scale horny rn dont lie plus nobody judge whats favorite kink asking friend find kinks interesting always giggle little hear name maria know giggle please clear skin bad acne dark acne scars hyperpigmentation im black go away whenever see father scars first thing points embarrassing especially even notice time people quick remind ive tried many things seem never work whats worse im always optimistic hopeful new skincare routine inevitably work feel idiot even insecure hate pretty girls flawless skin complain one minuscule pimple cheek something smile nod skin look bubble wrap year todaytoday moms birthday lost battle cancer years ago best friend person really life grew especially close caretaker going treatments one point stopped progressing eventually slipped away losing ive lost motivation keep going purpose life anymore ive always issues suicidal thoughts losing made much worse reason havent done yet keep thinking things might better ive trying different things thought help moved city enrolled school fall nursing im sure takes make ive trouble getting job moved mention still closet late s unsupportive family thought moving away good decided year today things gotten better end life hopefully find sort fulfillment meantime still applying jobs preparing school hopefully work courage try dating app see weird habit someone one person two group whatever whenever theres someone around feel even need pee moment alone realise need pee bad really hoping aint alone one identifie succubus curious meow meow nyah got fill word limit meow meow nyah imagine hating someone theyre slightly different post made people accept people people ur online friend group live city u meet ur irl friend group oh shouldve moved states study mean plan dumb im interconnected web lies really lies reveal different versions different people plus online group knows nickname idk rmbr real name fbscdiscord alt accs deleted dont know look showed em pic ages ago dont contact anymore irl group mutualsfriends online group go mia socials restart different users irl group contact mainly via phone number nickname kinda unique irl essentially groups know schoolreal namenickname anyone online group rmbrs heck even go uni online ones em go uni irl friends different uni friends according fb first saw showed around easter time think much bought dvd last summer started getting michael jackson liked music enjoyed older good film classic film sound music west side story wizard oz etc michael jackson actor good cast members disturbing scenes little girl katie getting slapped gangster frankie lideo played joe pesci scene frightened younger michael turns robot favourite song film smooth criminal think better thriller opinion im going kill myselfmy name donald faurschou im love family even though dont show pet snake grow marijuana want someone remember pushed edge please someone remember useless sociopathic drug addict timeim going lay train tracks today thanks support im female reddit idek say imagine failing invade finland art feeling really weird strange feelingnothing works miserable idiot one life talk suicide call emoji absolutely terrifying ampxb thing nightmares lauren himmels debut movie well directed nice polished feel theres strong storyline going meaningful point even end nothing resolved name treading water storyline revolves around lesbian couple battle ones mother acceptance ive got go school least better home lol anyone felt pretty useless entire time cuz swore going learn least something useful havent done shit made reflect hell saw movie years ago still remember saw recently much movie affected mebr br considering movie s think ahead time surprised maintains integrity subject might considered taboo back realistic showing tumultuous heartwretching journey addict chooses embark one imagine audiences affected realism movie back daysbr br personally think one frank sinatras top five performances big screenbr br others discussing movies dealing mental illness andor addiction always recommend man golden arm one top five watch posting everyday first kiss day awkward moment half chapter novel reccuring spelling mistake im really edge need talk someone call crisis hotline come meim bi polar running low meds take mg seraqueal day oh ya wife tryin best take son away psych blantantly told im amsociopathanti social personality disorder mom caught lies stealing even im dead words friendsand cant go inpatient ruin chances father thats want life severly phiscally sexually abused child long time im nothing maby ben son better life without im stupid iq play read musical instruments ampi write poetrysongsjournal cant even concentrate eat took min type someone please help yeah real love matched discord friends ampxb httpspreviewredditpboxxzwspngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsffbefeadb want anything one likes nothing makes happy anymore feel exist expense others job mum pays pretty much everything pretty sure want life anymore autistic talk people make meaningful friendships know fact nobody love want stop existing terminal disease worry future anymore want browse internet rest life already want stop existing sake everyone knows see living past choicewhat someone theres nothing left world girl loved dumped yet gon na still living place together shes got new man person use talk getting married kids family life completely destroyed father said longer problem terrible things wish stop mother whose suffered much continues powerless help one life trust talk one ended betraying feeling completely pointless anything life fails anyways knowing theres one flat one left dark unable anything pain left last years theres one option left thats make pain stop pain come point cant fight anymore cant sleep wan na drink im scared end cant seem find painless way die ways many risks hurt alot wish way legally end wont stop hurting im trapped homeless fucking gain fmli cant fucking fucking bs fuck man im fucking done cant sleepits thing keep thinking waste space know keep putting arrogance people saying oh people care feel first cares second supposed live agony someone sad im gone want put fucking head wall want scream want thrash idk want basil rathbone nigel bruce return sherlock holmes dr watson superior tale holmes battling rd reich mastermind genius professor moriarty film opens switzerland holmes disguise old bookseller must bring dr tobel tobel bomb site england germans kidnap tobel holmes succeeds germans recuit evil professor moriarty manages outwit scotland yard lestrad dennis hoey kidnapping tobel clue left tobel list dancing men break hidden code dancing men holmes moriarty first holmes prevent bomb site falling german hands thereby saving england precision bombing techniques developed tobels bomb site watch enjoy husband blindsided told wants divorce today tired include redflag notei dont want anyone im tired life rickroled little sister parents bought sis new bluetooth headphones online school stuff mom asked set see worked think guess song played test little success finding one free text therapy apps fucking hypocrisy ok bully gay people ok bully wanting futa fox mommy gf fuck fuck haters fuck bigots need helpbut know im done life want die knowing happens die scares im point starting matter less less im scared im going end killing thought id share know lot video games recommendation beyond wire ww tactical shooter made cooperation developers squad based base game opinion extremely enjoyable much fun last days playing really think check maybe youtube something still early access need ironing still incredibly fun slow paced needs action packed want thought id recommend maybe give small dev team support allow easily achieve potential amazing soundtrack anyway thanks reading guys reason im suicidal sex lifei sexually dead cant honest anyone hurts much core reason cant bear living want know sexuality want kind identity want actually live cough accidentally break rule another subreddit someone messaging replying messages reread rules realized completely skipped one allow people request offer solicit encourage express openness ask others message blocked report mods leave lets forget important things harry broke bro code ron right punch face stalked someones profile open see posted something right second feel psychic saw movie expected cheesy american movie done cheap appalling actors really surprised find totally wrong movie centres around bartely b rejected colleges actor play b natural makes character seem real decides create pretend school parents stop harassing loads people see fake website join feeling sorrows b cant turn away much chagrin best mate college ideal place learning want nothing school faces opposition proper college ends closing film ends high recommend watching flaws feel good cheerful film unpredictable twists life sucksive meaning commit redflag now everything gone downhill yesterday found girlfriend left another guy self esteem depleted nothing now im broke person made life worth living left someone years relationship problems thin air anyways gun thinking killing soon nothing live im drinks already im ready note written none matter soon crazy worked hard throughout life im broke soontobe wife left ass hope reads redflag note hope haunts know doi need let dunno current relationship falling apart relationships fallen apart mess everything hate makes hate one love someone really think im good enough together im weak let things fall useless burden ive forever tell im gon na try harder never happens depressed real reason life come kicked around everyone im pretty sure made worse know everything make things better dont need help know one energy anything moved hometown current bf whole family lives nice know talk real friends acquaintances think people need hear problems bf hate dragging people wish make happy depressed screw last time fought told kill said mean things apologized said mean really think hes right hes home alot lately want come home find dead cause thats awful thing someone time kind edit see problem soon post immediately feel guilty making anyone read whining stop feeling guilty existing time know depression lifestyle complain anymore one remember die fuck live life way want fuck want probably might make feel okay remember happy feels anymore fuck happiness act something depressed person paint depressed person write depressed person make art depressed person always complaining hoping help normal people help survive surviveact probably happy sadness stop grieving act trumpeters manifestoit belief everything life symbolic life certain objects events symbolic ideas past events art imitates life human mind gravitates idea life imitates life dont change much subject psychological torture boredom love repetition generational enveloped within homo sapiens conception species concept seeking change plus desire similarity makes us psychologically inept species still alive endowed ability shape environment landscape kill create change create society society creates us selfdestruct incredibly vague conceited answers made account majority every manifesto time answer question made end first paragraph still alive ability ignore emotions course varies person person general ignore blessing ignore caught emotions ignore psychological ineptitude second caught social circles people around us forget us never forget cant around people long dont us awkward afraid around either smart ignore situation life stupid try focus anything life made events made people surfacelevel thinker events make lives determine quality life indubitably child home drinks dirty water stream subsaharan africa tougher life child billionaire firstworld country trying dispute given privileged life living two safe neighborhoods uppermiddle class entire life given two nonabusive parents grandparents uncle aunt stable family structure minimal family drama dead lets start life growing lived xxxxxxx xxxxx speech delayed tested autism given speech therapist prior spoke bathtub letters stick side shower spelling words phrases book goodnight moon memorized autism tests remained inconclusive instead found possess high intelligence based iq test given speech therapy helped began speak quickly began speak full phrases shortly whether speech delay based intelligence copious episodes baby einstein watched child parents dispute throughout early years school went xxxxxxx seen incredibly smart suggested change schools gifted programs course happen moved xxxxxx xxxxx perfectionist greatest fear average move xxxxxx create averageness exemplifies moved first hotel still house hunting adjusting dads job position time spent days friend moms henceforth restricted things able creativity ambition quite possibly intelligence point ready public school think wouldve fitting conditioning allowed conditioned kept spark xxxxxxx course got loads trouble mothers friend break st grade time entered st grade lived average apartment went dull average school xxxxxx xxxxx xxxxxxxxxxx means terrible school showing every day broke couldnt smile got debate dogs things rest class hour subsequently cried teacher told stop talking scribbled picture book published words want go back xxxxxxx thought horrifies day spite fact lived xxxxx xxxx years time writing lived xxxxxxx broke broke broke throughout elementary school middle school high school molded average kid creativity ambition average grades average subset friends best friends living parents average jobs live average neighborhood driving two average sized cars average become thing hate thought identifying xxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxx repulses point want cry havent cried years dont look mirrors often absolutely hate pictures taken keeps sane away identity hate foolish even think escape identity impossible wake one day throw every aspect identity window friends family grades possessions interests wrecked perverted sentimentality simply old one old identity niche earth new shriveled average one although lie create new one others see yet yet fail lies work may well one plagued great revelation turned secret consequently tears apart inside dead hope someday dead may time writing even possible publication things turn planned probably thinking highly based highly thinking moment may may wondering called trumpeters manifesto mentioned core belief everything life symbolic life bore continue experience trumpet sum started talented trumpet got braces handicap made less talented lost ambition play stuck high school band band hours every saturday early late friday times week tell wording dont want talk dont started talent ambition im forced play account talentless ambitionless hap empty shell im going quit trumpet next year serve niche trumpet serve niche human trumpet player old school band empty shell girlfriend cant even keep happy wants kill every time speak gets worse disappointment everyone parents friends teachers significant even people pass street line order restaurant serve niche earth whole ambition gain entry within higher institution whether college go work miraculously squeeze average rate make everyone around feel bad trying succeed yet despite lack ambition analyze anxiety paranoia every possible word others say every tonal shift every hint diction every element body language try act instincts hurt everyone around things ive learned make nothing careless void swallowing everything around sea misery drowns breathes hapless mistake cant solved mental health system usa worthless medication turns us unaware contentment alternative treatment strictly believe works writing aside proof suicide muddled pretentious explanation tell truth im dead im writing write letter im upset sadistic egomaniac want see grief sorrow peoples faces make people think couldve done reality thats problem one perpetuates sorrow others make angry upset core personality archetype makes others upset dont blame shallow grief solved love back day later wouldnt want friends person thats point fulfilling egomaniafueled desire death closure thereby stopping perpetuation ego sadism grief wont able feel satisfaction peoples grief die wont able feel guilt thereby sorrow guilt comes satisfaction ill stopped take villain save day end manifesto dragon dead hes dead everything better now family friends weep mourn loss dragon cheers hes dead hes dead hes dead hate goddamn trumpet make official recently told crush guess went well ask make official without looking weird im making painits funny live utter emotional turmoil probably even real reason anyway recommend subreddits pwease im bored cant insulted dont understand insult quick reminder even though may seem golden age public highschool right school option either online classes person chose person getting bored hanging people everyday may realize school mine work done electronically even things notes worksheets basically ask guidance counselor sign online classes still option go school school mine make argument case pops allowed show days still need work done best worlds want go weeknight cool stay home next day make sure log core classes everything need wake feel gaming day fuxking man ones stopping now shit easily cheesed feels school formality point stuckstuck loveless relationship kept around give pretty obvious stuck family seeming mine abandoned randomly go either kids awful want now seeming im dealing roughly hours day take leave job handle stress im tired see light end tunnel redflag starting feel answer hold now wait minute come let catch breath ive heard promises ive seen mistakes ive fair share tough breaks need new voice new law new way take time reevaluate time pick pieces go back square one think time change tonight seems lasti depression throughout high school college college seeing therapist year recently got referred psychiatrist made redflag attempts really want leave behind gruesome corpse claim care find cant seem girl dated pain caused breaking months hungup ex three half years binge drinking help found last night hope left getting back ex months honestly write complete sentences right im looking outside playing body displayed concrete jumped much blood cut crying help friends seems minor thing one really say anything one understands much happier leave world debbie downer according friends one worry done done cause pain go away better medication completely forget stop crying everywhere right now gymclass walking outside picture body battered step take hoping random car thats driving slam free make nights without serious panic attacks help live alone wanted someone care gone deep know one dont want waste anyone elses time planet help ending life wish taken seriously life imagine much means complete stranger shows act kindness burst tears means lot read far assure life worthless better forgotten reading congratulations literate english read many books language redflag note im sorryhappiness doesnt seem possible trust know people much worse im strong people think killing everyday gon na happen soon cut today times well hope burning feeling take away numb feel sob hard cant hear anymore genuinly feel numb cant feel sadness anymore cant feel anything want scream scream voice leaves completely scream everyone whos hurt knows badly theyve hurt consider redflag note side note sorry anything isnt spelled correctly im typing quite fast kylie thank easy let go still love think everyday please find someone treats better deserve much life youre talented beautiful much potential please dont sad passing im happy now aaron bet didnt exspect wanted thank many smiles low sadly im time couldnt make happy youre asleep love thank sticking everyything alexis thank trusting kinda luke oh start mostly fault broke heart million peices chose thats really made decision ruined fuck hope everything deserve yesterday went work heard voice saw beautiful smile broke know saw smile fuck fuck fuck carlos breaking point didnt really know though left watch anime friend thats upset im sorry im dramatic love mom sissy gave hints gon na nobody acted fast enough im sorry love dad fuck max know need need well dont understand depression well enough help im sorry love danny know never see really reason stuck around long sorce real smiles joyful laughs rest grumps mean everything anthing sadly cant anymore told told stay alive im listining im sorry danny im sorry im trying working love moon back farewell im sorry goodbye girl instagram might crush girl saw instagram tried dming respond boyfriend followers guys suppose happens almost know first regular filmed columbo movie episode yet aired second steven spielbergs columbo murder book time among one better onesbr br bernard l kowalski one great creative director wonder later asked direct three columbo movies movie real creative innovative shot sequences movie whole clearly made style passion eye detail every shot connects reason movie better better looking average made tv movie definitely one better directed columbo moviesbr br quit original columbo entry couple reasons murder less accident impulsive act killer time time plan perfect murder advance clean traces afterward dispose body killer movie handled man committed crime man helps lieutenant columbo solve murder makes character interesting layered one well helps make way columbo solves whole crime seem way interesting well course columbo starts suspect pretty early always comes solution making vulnerable look stupid course truly gaining killers trust obviously spoiler way every columbo movie gets setup liked story movie progressedbr br helps movie fine cast time movie peter falk really made columbo character character already fully developed robert culp truly great short tempered brimmer funny thing later star three different columbo movies one mrs columbo episode totally different roles even played murderer couple movies well way actor later columbo movies great ray milland makes appearance movie husband victimbr br real great early columbo movie among better ones long running series moviesbr br yesterday breakdown almost fully decided kill im scared happen dont know doim diagnosed depression many factors mix together caused depressed seriously thinking killing past two years best way serious problems ive dealt ones happened yesterday reason seemed really guess im lonely dont know anymore dont friends family trust love yesterday got argument girl started talking basically friends girl im talking seems think im manipulating friend telling sucks actually really hurt think dont talk friends anymore ditched many times havent done anything wrong realized deserve better cut nobody talks dont talk nobody one specific friend mad asked order something online taking long shes asked proof provide email moms asked order rarely talk mom begin family issues seeing home rare things happened past hours close going everything dont know decided today isnt day im hurting lot im honestly scared dont know react next time something happens need advice maybe situation improve happy whatever means ive gone doctors im comfortable talking things someone person seem anxious become mute purpose either cant seem talk someone things ive never able talk someone anything serious person help please random thought people live boring lives birth learn learn learn learn job job years years maybe theyll find love always good thing retire much old probably understand current technology well maybe go back play minecraft something project end living boring life people better though things may easier things harder rich must nice saw movie jane austen addicted always feeling doubtful cinematographic rendering complexity novels well transposition simply accurate intelligent delicate careful tactful respectful intense word perfectbr br emma one austens delightful funny novels thanks overall irony pervading situations characters movie respected subtle irony disregarding comic element miss bates engaged novel movie renders clearly deep knowledge human life shown english novelist modern look women men relation handled astounding think woman novelist th century lived almost secluded life grasp depth truth life still fascinates feel modernity throughout movie replace costumes use current language situations feelings ideas extremely modern think morbid interest peoples lives insinuating envy rule womens relations still difficulty revealing giving expression ones feelings especially love every situation gets universal outoftime value br br cast really talented offer good extremely brilliant performances young gwyneth paltrow particularly suitable role nowadays probably mature toni colette simply great envied wonderful dresses wear breathtaking english countryside every situation gets magic dreamlike dimension really enjoyable deserving movie please listen httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvzvtyrdxo need someone tell gets betteri f dealing depression loneliness feelings unworthiness think positive light daydream people perceive death feel wasted life want die instead enduring embarrassment failure singleness graduated may im living home parents arent necessarily supportive alright school wasnt best student certainly wasnt bad involved graduated college honors yet unemployed directionless please tell move home please tell move far away texas amp please tell life filled love possible selfhelp advice desperately wish known taken seriously years ago started feeling depressed please listen minute know everyones different things worked consistently drink water general pushups situps jumping jacks whatever drink water whole glass pacing around room looking window breaks train thought gets depressing shit im thinking bit think piece shit always feel piece shit convinced need compliment forgiving tell bad total piece shit slowly gets better go walks outside able hell go bike ride spend time outside general sincerely hope helps least little bit rlly random anyone play cold war xbox youtube collab subs think fun death copi dont gun airsoft knife african american thats one thing going im seriously considering redflag fear awaits pass dont wan na condemned hell want reincarnate god forsaken planet maybe someone pulls trigger itll considered homicide redflag feel cant right count kratom im seriously contemplating taking much short amount time want pain end want go mental health facility afford want cure depression call cops right location provoke cops outright shooting im kind dog aw shit go creating scenarios head girl never happen im trying sleep brain please stop school handling virus school malaysia temperature checks every morning asked practice social distancing principle actually yelled classmates one fine recess morning social distance class one first block plus principle loud voice left class inspect classes find anything wrong everyone heard sat tables anyways hope everyone keeps safe pandemic overcome im end fucking ropefor past years ive best fun rocky first romantic relationship definitely ups downs lot passion fighting especially towards end almost family set married lost baby neither us coped properly wore left biggest fucking mistake ive made im alone one im neck deep debt im back parents place failure feel nothing regret leaving best thing happen chance getting back moved im currently trying pry lock gun maybe go back home maybe meet kid anything wake fucking nightmare used movie college ethics courses years woody allens crimes misdemeanorsanother terrific multileveled ethical study br br fiction focus much unrealistic features strangers fictional films obviously false many levels love film gallows comedy tautly told many ironic twists visual pleasureseven unbelievable story told well even think criticizing plausibility although must confess tennis match seems weakest part metoo much hollywood fluff enough real tennis competitionbr br problems presented film hold promise realistic moral education ethical discussionbr br ethical passivity weaknesses guy character intended hitchcock primary ethical insight film danger inability articulate ones moral positions guy unable effectively block brunos crazy proposals start interesting question guy behave passively ineffectively possible answer depression intense complicated divorce process br br miscommunication guy commits another failure start train away quickly agrees brunos ideas good guys literal meaning opposite inflected sarcastic meaning bruno takes literal meaning agreement crisscross murders guy takes sarcastic meaning escape murder agreement extent near beginning bruno may partially pretending agreement struck draw guy web complicity bruno manipulating guy guys linguistic ambiguity train gives bruno chance put ethical stranglehold guy bruno manipulating guy may take meanings br br secrecy speculated sexual relationship guy bruno seems first ridiculous especially guy appears obviously heterosexual relationships miriam anne remember guy ineffective women guy appears stereotypicallyits remember effeminate especially relationship bruno guy strong athlete weak inside bruno conflicted playing appearing facially physically strong first displaying effeminate traits brunos fashion footwork gushing emotionally guy different situations receiving manicure doting mother bruno kissing desperately fondling mothers hand subtle gay stereotypes hold cryptic meaning hitchcocks point view wish hear hitchcock clarify intended meanings herebr br dishonesty distrust guy makes colossal blunders hiding truths bruno family police guy fails fully comprehend admitting fault quickly may better coverup delay confession guy driven passivity insecurity fearand perhaps selfhate closer brunos selfloathing care see admit guy bruno act parables impotencebr br lack evidence guy feels problem mustering evidence acquit quickly going police solve huge problem guy traps doubts insecurities absence desired alibis inability alcoholic professor testify guys behalf obsessive need appear politically pristine personality factors cause guy feel defenseless dysfunctional brunojust dangerous yet one partially blame guy miriams murderbr br disease mental disorder interesting question legally responsible bruno murders ethically incompetent bruno sick sociopath guilty guy may someone healthy failed stand morally act prevent crimes guys failure man fails call police sick friend threatens suicide death ensues one argue one crime committed guy emotionally hobbled accomplicebr br many features film make strangers train gem morality play diamond philosophical cinematic reflections lilypichu vibe mildly depressed weeb spends time sleeping dont know hold longeri thought boyfriend enough help hold possibly start meds even though love anything theres nothing im going anywhere life fucking meaningless fuck cant continue anymore chronic pain gave scary thoughtive suffering years now discs spine degenerating pain going arm recent mri done found even discs spine degeneratingcervical lumbar ive started career sadly desk job corporate lawyer ive got dreams cant even go one hour sitting comfortably office religious think afterlife often nice rid pain today asked difficult question want die broke tears think miserable past years im expected grow old spine continue deteriorate cried little bitch date approachingi trying commit redflag past couple months ive trying hang belt doorknob got without passing chickened take anymore plan commit redflag next weeks rope im going duct tape hands cant untie noose female friend told want kiss doesnt want relationship weird wouldnt mind kissing doesnt want relationship guess wants keep friendship maybe dont think anyone caresim already think redflag almost every day school friends seem tolerate talk enough isnt conversation times people really talk one talk know less important wont ignore worst part theyre right insignificant even though know fake ill still go along even call shit things fat hide emotions everyone always feel terrible think people think im happy joke try make people happy somehow makes feel less insignificant partly matter even though doesnt people talk make plans go im room invite think might actually go one day dont want drive family insane deep think im much pussy go anyway sorry long text hardly tend write lots time sad negative thoughtshas one good life yet feel sad wanting die thought im middle school s yet urge die really eating every pasting moment die wan na die frame number know good guy suit necktie doomed luck sorte nula believes music car radio dubious talk best friend company associate taking parts unknown desert road alberto wished simply left alone take flight abroad next day well someone left guessing br br film goes long way find short closing scene man hearing music cab airport number lucky people found different ways story dying born others falling harrowing distress time hes really doomed film sort oneman show director fernando fragata left sound recording special effects competent people typically reject portuguese films due sound problems unclear speech recording must go searching topics criticize time car crash spoilers film clever makes great scene apparently done cheap equipment us studios take notice may spare dollar two hiding competent portuguese directors br br rest done fragata script dialogue camera work editing part dialogue adlibbed must congratulated acting direction casting mostly inexperienced actors large number nonspeaking parts credited people used music video clip making used extensively films promotional trailer cast dozen actors actresses ten relevant persons huge number relationships revealed stepbystep thrilling suspenseful way reminiscent best genre authors alfred hitchcock qv claude chabrol qv come mind catandmouse play director public nature charactersbr br recommend thriller comedy portuguese language speakers film gets decent translation colloquial dialogue anyone abroad enjoys genres even knowfeel free remove postdue various reasons halfway life friends family living isolated alone better part life getting away schizophrenia abusive drugaddicted mother whole foster careangsty metalrecreational drug use thing met summer week later witness trial helped save partner violentpotentially lethal burst rage thats point philosopher guy said real question whatever live die honestly think life probably turn things around couple years hard work sorta care appeal shut every second every fucking moment absolutely overwhelming know im expecting posting imagine guys say something understanding even point lead say im redflag risk dog way important let plebian mess training absolutely interest life much rather wasted feels donate organs nearest person world whatsoever theres one thing rely school something dad go clean something ill im school work leads choosing getting school work done something entered probably characterize darkest period life far job despise recently started therapy overall net positive forced take long hard look many personal traits need lot work realizing strong sense personal identity much lengthier problematic track record behaving toxic manipulative ways allinall opinion quickly rocketing dirt midst intense identity crisis experiencedall slew unpleasant factors left feeling heading right potentially explosive breakdown married love fiance much making lifelong commitment another human feel clue values passions heading life scares shit recently began indulging selfharm impulses relatively minor lifethreatening scarring first time decade feels enormous step backwards feel rubber band stretched brink snapping unknown combination time andor additional tension inevitably make snap know think state feel spiraling control feel think ignoring repressing problems mistakes ended first place worst part even though feel meltdown coming feel powerless stop kind sum current crisis complete loss control life direction going inhas anyone experienced anything tips deal least keep hurting others life unravelling even appreciate space vent record presently concerned going kill worried risk physically hurting others worried risk burning bridges tanking personal professional notredflag ground causing lot emotional damage others way feel beginning unravel least mitigate damage impending breakdown others im frustrated dont know trust one hand dreams well pointing reality simply playing fears dont know trust parents got divorced now kept telling terrible things still used visit dad week really much memory remember telling mom monster whole mom times wondering parent trust btw sorry english sure using right grammer three years ago got first child new wife stopped seeing still see twice month less feel never good time really feel close feel father really want fix know better kind feel jealous half siblings closer parents closer parents anybody homework listen music kinda bounce sway chair lmao ahahaha anyone saw look stupid kinda vibing bouncin tunes typing computer u know almost although quite popular high school never gf wondering worth going experience looking reasons stay love worth living point go nowin situation redflagim feeling theres nothing really left im last year one two strokes left side paralysis right side constant pain central post stroke pain increases sensation movement lost job lost motorcycle lost bank account least figures debt year behind child support still waiting months now decision social security reason im street pity family member whos basically letting squat house hes trying sell feel loss everything deal starting actually seem bad ive done times moving around pain think want take anymore va tried several pain killers settling oxycodone worked take pain away made care drugs baaad mkay cant keep increasing tried tens hwave hurt lyrica pregabalin mgx kinda helps pain still typing feels streaks searing electricity shooting arm radiating fingers help oxyxidone gets high much say break toe work work stop bar couple shots fix toe stop broken buzz helps broken leg think shots help point simply getting high work im trading one high another getting high legal state means really cheap weed helps moment cant high day want anything really anything anyway struggle walk fall often generally takes xx longer task normally sink dishes take hours ill lucky id break anything know expect typing seems help ive alone living alone mean almost full year leaving va hospital staying job real friends social media outside reddit every day physically mentally hurts hurts lie try sleep hurts sitting shower chair slip kill hurts walk point win situation ive mris cts blood work angiograms heart monitors name bp great low cholesterol heart great history stroke family non smoker outside weed active lifestyle stroke neurologist gave saying tests run happened cant fix deal funny got optometrist fitting darkened indoor glasses eyes fine brain fucked hey heres bandaide ya exist try make next day hurts tell never may subside compared worse never goes away blown speaker car matter high low change volume one still crackles piss poor job supposed something repaired fucking brain brain damage theres nothing anybody take drugs try time take drugs order refill time lyrica controlled substance va procedures go takes time ran wed refill following tuesday withdraws bad symptoms stroke wishing death brings back bandaide fix takes drugs smoking weed day helped waiting real drugs two days finally slept better still hurts lie whats worse spasticity spasms waves clenching muscles tightening shaking movement causes pain sensation affects nerves right side causes pain spasms hurt someone kicking ribs laying drugs supposedly help win situation va anti opiates oxy stronger dose high day drugs drugs drugs wake take pills make take pills try sleep wake take pills want someone talk tolong story short mcanada depressed suicidal getting worse worse past couple days last exam spent better part tuesday debating whether ended fetal position bed afternoon trying sleep hoping wake hate fucking much incredible killed already im lonely unattractive personality fucking shit goddamn fucking want someone talk anything fuck even play fucking steam game something fucking anything pick dad airport hours please edit im going bed try sleep many thanks took time day talk im done im done trying fighting breathing im tired hate everything everyday facade wanted better attempt ive gotten significantly worse month people treat mental illness fashion statement people arent saying shit look average middle class girls instagram tiktok bio youll probably find assortment self diagnosed mental illnesses call call disgusting tolerated people self diagnose conditions look cool im back unfortunatelyi thought find way moved across country try become better self failed miserably im soo fed miserable life want end rather tall building near hear around stories tall rather easy gain roof access may look fly way beautiful people today hope going better mine bad day remember pet sad confused come home anyway thanks reading red give second need story straight friends bathroom getting higher empire state lover waiting across bar seats taken sunglasses askin boutta scar know gave months ago know trying forget drinks subtle things holes apologies aint hard take back time bar closes feel falling ill carry home tonight young ill set world fire go higher sun tonight young lets set world fire burn brighter stars cant help think ima kill myselffuck life honestly im know im young think hope feel ive done everything everything fails ive diagnosed ocd clinical depression social anxiety disorder potentially adhd ive seeing psychiatrist back suck misdiagnksed bipolar give wrong medications made hallucinate zombie weeks im glad stopped might end worse problems father allow going another one believes brain im one control tried meditating everyday x day exercising exposure nothing helps parents pretty ignorant mental health mom understands really understands im going thru tired shit one help cant even help everything overwhelming everything hard nothing enjoyable cant concentrate easily bored cant retain shit social life failing classes feel life taken away even music thats passion enjoyable now losing hope basically suicidal know option think killing pain less methodhello dont know even ask anybody idea pain less redflag method guarantees mortality rate sadly access guns someone interested ask lets say think life worth struggeling made account seconds ago first post welllong story finally turned life around completely everything going well course never lasts long everything took turn worst usual depression sky rocketed first time life feeling suicidal feel worthless feel never meant succeed thoughts non stop crossing mind past days today worst felt getting chest somebody guess apologize im wrong section posting properlywith guidelines thanks anyone nothing rn hey guys wants join group chat cuz boredd im bored anyone group chat discord yeeee comment link ah yes st century black people allowed make racist jokes women sexist jokes hopelessnothing left life live anymore wan na die never wake support anyone life man end severely depressed suicidal pass years nothing getting better gets worse im sick tired people telling life gets better youre young die feel way makes sense pisses hear supposed helpful advice bit context im pennsylvania currently junior high school dont much friends really support group back im always seen time keep things really interacting outside world everything held close sudden letting loose everything friends family school falling apart nothing left loose point one second im happy im sad depressed crazy sure maybe need surround around better people care hard people accepting tried making internet friends see worth joining different sub reddits offer surprise everyones maybe expectations way high making friends find people either ghost dont respond say things dip never knew saddening want experience friend earth loyal consider outcast reject loner nobody wants talk walk sit really associate dont know deserve denying fact ive done said fucked things cant seem rationalize understand ones life terrible dont wrong plenty people struggling worse im sure doesnt mean mental health isnt important saying care die really speaking existence life right now maybe die people truly understand pain struggle misery sometimes wan na run away far away never return makes sad friends happy friends care literally one wake school work sleep repeat really sad life turned dont care im age doesnt mean shit lets forget mention made feeling way cant help im stuck feeling depressed suicidal time maybe maybe someone see message understand go excited anything anymore except drinking smoking kind feel sad numb time weird keep hoping wake go bed unfortunately idk needed put thoughts necessarily feel better whatever feel belong anywhere need serious helpguys think ive suffering depression young age im talking onwards always felt dying know happens death im one friend left feel friendship based fact help financially time case friends anymore argue people ive called friends deep thinking problem never luck ladies one time got date met girl stopped talking day spent together father died young guidance mother illiterate know english brothers grew female household im son pet cat fun life died im feeling empty depressed hollow sad lonely tbh cant cope anymore wan na know die quick death life thought far worse world sick sick place honestly cant wait leave time petrified thought death left rot coffin seem eternity decompose suffer claustrophobia often panic tight situations huge yearning death despite fears wan na put misery attention seeking rather cry help im sitting knife throat need someone tell want know happens die rot heaven hell soul headed reincarnated figure purpose case movie insidious ill respawned dark place live house full spirits rooms dark person thing face desperate look fear horror quarantine brought back depressionhi guys past months social life kinda working country lockdown realised people considered friends dont give shit locked apartment days now last redflag attempt year ago sense feeling coming back know long take anymore hope day ends soon nothing awake maybe emptiness apet go sleep forever ok thanks listening know care love b wish redflag much easiermostly everything life getting extremely fucked studying relationship everyone know got irritating situation left anything worthy make cling life redflag extremely scary position unreliable gun poisondrug wish one night wake anymore end without pain everything left life shitposting consuming food daydreaming redflag getting worsedue recent problem girl date dated dont even know anymore added pain already feeling leaning towards idea ending life planning goodbye letter feeling slight urge jump rd floor shopping mall subway tracks nownow looking painless ways die sleeping pills currently leading damn damn need help texted crush wished merry christmas wich replied thanks havent texted month dont know say keep conversation alive shy cant text much please need help say keep conversation alive cant handle really cantim broken cant cant im isolated broke batshit crazy ruin everything people constantly invalidate feelings literally one besides family theyre able help medont care cant make people care please send good vibes prayers last year around time promised going commit redflag birthday coming want hold emotions maxed cant cope anymore steve carell comes first starring role year old virgin supporting roles films bewitched bruce almighty anchorman work daily show gotten small taste comedy carell truly makes tell ferrell influenced comedic air carell takes another level everything innocent lovable hilarious hesitate say steve carell one next great comedians timebr br year old virgin two hours nonstop laughs hours see twice perfect supporting cast great leads charm audience entire movie script perfect many great lines want see movie try remember music fit tone movie great tell director knew doingbr br filled sex jokes nudity lot language movie everyone liked wedding crashers anchorman movie along lines absolutely love year old virgin pg questions u girls keep clean ill report u questions u girls u exedra exedra girls help answer someone wan na friends someone wan na friends itd great talk politics philosophy tho pm please hate cant bring hurt around meas late day feels struggle able see therapist mental health steadily deteriorating ive throughs past several years never acted things getting hard now world fucked hate im living thing stops going knowing negatively effect around much whats stopping im even sure im posting thisits first time posting help guess im venting want kill nothing change mind cant conservational instinct strong let night got shitfaced tried jump front metro obviously didnti cant even remember stopped piss drunk im useless incapableofanything waste space want bring painful existence bloody end fail every fucking time hope someone something kill soon enough ideally painless way im killing may ththe month anniversary th birthday tried everything give im seriously fucked person absolutely deserve livethank caring enough click post means lot ill warn though really really long done absolutely morally reprehensible things people absolutely deserved chronically past even know long ive always outward image helpful easygoing generally pleasant fellow im sure unconsciously shaped exterior personality convey harmlessness moral fiber make disgusting predation easier young absolutely terrifying temper suspect ive got intermittent explosiveness disorder although ive never diagnosed im oldest five children workingclass background often left charge watching little sisters parents away love dearly general got along quite well always tendency fly right fuck handle pathetically trivial annoyances demonstrated horrific lack patience poor girls usually verbally venomous reduce tears occasionally become physically abusive fucking reason im grips rage tend grab throats remorse set id exceptionally nice sisters never prevented relapse im sure actions longterm effects poor girls opinion reason enough deserve death theyre good people naturally outburts lived absolute disgust veered severe bouts depression periods compensating false confidence joviality absolutely motivation school whole way rarely actually work poor father concerned academic performance stepmom came life later bent backwards try stop completely fucking life reaction take personal offence build shell indignance judgements christ im asshole began lying lying began ways excuse responsibility homework similar things quickly escalated fullblown pathology realized feel bad horrific person believe lies fuck lied everything became incredibly manipulative sometimes lie sheer hell made difference lied affected got drugs alcohol early teens course lied teeth times possibly count stole hell lot booze remember workingclass father course teen years theyd finally found kicked house im getting ahead though met soulmate beloved fiancee online young innocent full love life ready pledge heart anyone asked love everything much way responded interest love kindness completely misrepresent ways face name made ridiculous persona without really realizing time noticed fuck stack lies included heroin addict even try drug years incredibly promiscuous genders never much held someones hand id made several redflag attempts much hated much coward even consider among many many others month relationship told girl come visit sent presents mail id moving soon able actually string along occasionally cut contact pick right back nothing happened supplying outlandish vicious lies explain poor poor ranging imaginary stays mental hospitals fictitious death dad stringing along two girls similar bullshit course came crashing around girls internet friends found one wanted nothing cut contact permanently let one two girls soulmate graciously took back wanted work relationship obviously ton resentment us even though initially commit relationship completely even kind idiot realizes theyre lucky way dealt stress resented put christ im asshole talk girl whose heart totally broken little eventually stringing along soulmate found took back poor sweet woman repaid generosity instead moving across country high school put ton debt attend local university got heavily drugs alcohol frequently ignored soulmate party assholes whose names cant even remember fell back old habit telling outragous lies cover ass swallowed completely one college buddies noticed going conscience inform broke spiraled rock bottom failed college one semester stayed dad time stole much booze asked leave house spent summer drug dealer remember little engaged ultimate selfishness felt good eventually psychotic break acid forced actually honest begged dad forgiveness accepted back house think fair invite back soulmates life reestablished contact girl yet shortly thereafter soulmate talked confronting things put manner never hopes actually salvaging relationship tried hardest ignore denied never given way repaid preserverence continue masturbating webcam girl time though girl playing intentionally got lower guard break heart told soulmate still loved believe lucky person wonderful woman life love much absolutely deserve moved crosscountry two years ago live ive ive made constant conscious attempts better person theres one obstacle cant overcome iedlike illness plagued childhood totally ordinary everyday arguments become horribly abusive fly rage become indignant believe anything justified scream top lungs call horrible names sometimes even beat got bad last year time got arrested domestic abuse begged police take paid exorbinant fees talk jail took back without second thought soon got knows im consumed remorse something knows genuinely love pieces continues stay even though outbursts continue generally become physically abusive often although recently clearly piece shit angel wasting life deserve completely killed believe disgusting human expressed numerous times though shed rather dead without loved much patiently selflessly long endeavor stay alive keep getting better try make happy despite need stay alive love way deserves loved know keep living burden conscience anymore importantly knowledge im shitty violent rageaholic snap lose completely never leave never felt hopeless tldr im abusive piece shit longsuffering wonderful fiancee cant seem defeat mental disease trouble seeing way situation except death explain wondering send copy check day yeah damn insurancebought life insurance itd pay house roommate homeless go two year redflag clause cant till april year take two fucking yearsi dunno pointim going end tonight job hate called dream job one talk life friends family long im acting normal im tired want anymore want say im fine im alone manage mess whatever happiness manage stumble acrossim done ive alone long cant even decent conversation online anyone without fucking maybe spur moment now feeling always resurfaces im year old male real friends never hint romance cant go world even wanted nothing seems make sense world always seems turn back around set wish realistic way stop need replace planks christ almighty hate things much make want die need core exercises replace fuckers little shoulder maybe forearm whats popping fellow teens know jsut chilling crib swagging lick cray cray yall totes downloading sick ride got dude yolo ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb help cant sleep m seriously anyone help good sleep years mostly ish hours less finished late assignments brought overall gpa everyone thought dumb low grade love little appreciation born fly stuck web devoured creepy spider born billionaire unlimited access everything world live grandiose life alive need alive millions organisms earth born everyday living harsh cruel conditions unhappy trying hard survive none want alive point alive cant know point alive happy happy thinking random stuff die consciousness survive death meet god die good answer questions one day even know anymore never knew surviving trying best sake yes works years need deeper reason work deep reason role hate role want give agree universe rules forced anyway reborn retry die wish know world place outside science religion philosophy want real answers feel surprised slack contemplate dark idea man leave guidance quite honestly take seriously going die anyway explanation absolutely explanation anything mean real one im gon na keep trying whatever know think anymore guess live simplistic life look deep meaning find girl kids house make sure kids well later life thats life right allowed say find boring limiting maybe im dumb lol sorry easy wayim living life depression living day day love able finally end shit seems theres way dealing manner reliable enough im point im annoyed every single time wake find alive im already dealing drunk high reduced eating minimum maybe hopefully living find peace death comes early possible got question non virgins whats story story long time friend male introduced porn months later asked suck dick eh fuck sure awhile yada yada awhile got caught mom yee edgy year old im glad broke whats story hello teens reddit go middle name family thing named great grandfather middle name dads favorite book character first name names combined means goose army horribly lonely hitting last straw death seems way im transgender girl trapped boys body im sixteen years old nobody around clue came one person back october give fuck anymore even talked forever live minutes parents found knowing stances gay marriage everything likely abandon top im homeschooled never see friends loneliness adding depression want die badly rather look chad smell fart every day rest life look extremely ugly smell good every day rest life take first one cant stop smelling fart try wear cologne smell farts bc chemicals ur skin counteract lifei think im pretty much done homeless month im abusive relationship lost many friends really place go see point continuing everyday battle biggest fear failing redflag sad fear death thats im looking forward better whative severe depression entire life ive gotten treatment take handful medications every day never gotten better days okay absolute hell whole life ive years felt happy married lot good friends house life wanted ended im divorced years ive lost everything friends live tiny apartment good job make enough travel go vacations much anything fun besides play online games ive relationship man years severe adhd aspergers financially destroyed broken im severe amount debt love hell love absolute hell semidisabled think live alone stay friends family im years old im fat ugly invisible world spend nights getting drunk staring computer nothing books computer games music cat entire life never leave house thinking checking permanently im much pain seems pointless anyone tell irl im posting really better know people say oh better people never better guides one question better people say will rewards resistensehi reddit anon know postting reaaly perhaps chance hear speak perhaps open forum categorise thoughts perhaps enough ten years ago gave life crossed lne despair depression keep beyond line fatigue member family suisidal knowledge still speak unable now supported years dropped school work finnancially keep afloat cooked cleaned managed lives drunk got depressed committed mental institution failed attempt still remember smell building glazed eyes patients medicated woman began conversation saying kill husband haunting knowledge first heard phrase never say goodbye forever say see later lips three years supported person love world weak stop drinking take away vice worked depression grew stronger soldiered eventually got much another failed attempt already taken pills got home always blamed dealing drunk supported ways never well enough argued tired empty nothing left give yelled told benefit giving back called bluff told pure perfect opportunity exit moment ready ready given everything atlas struggle finally fight resist anymore let reality wash consume day feeling surrender one best emotions remember ready backed agreed saw attitude done moment selflessness family member backed sat night pills still system die years pass move move night lives memory head times wonder happened know time kept pushing struggle struggle came conquered caring family member developed ability weather storms push keep head survive endure god struggle memory surrender haunts family now friends people need weather endure found best way cope life disassociate take board longer know handle compliments years training suicidal dependant made terrified failure live every expectation make things worse cause episode need everything everyone make life struggle keep heaping challenges taking responsibility breaking never feel satisfaction thats worst part even feel relief anymore ive accomplished something press become life add feel pressure never release never pride failure im tired know ask help expect anyone understand try hard explain words come right feel pride take credit speak take rug away much know happens push feel worthless happens disassociate stop thinking stop applying self anything way one bother one make feel worse trying rescue feel sad really feel happy go flow think others feel time live make happy least presence worthwhile fake fake remember honest people try kneejerk push away keep trying push past offer content without emotion apply story pleas sit rotting back brain one dragged void one watch dead inside one offer pity shame locked wow thanks advice cleverboti got lonely started talking cleverbot exchange happened httpimgurcomailrxc turned away betterhelp two weeks everything shut last year pretty bad place found open path every time hear ad bh roll eyes wonder still aroundthey forprofit organization make myear open path nonprofit charges one time fee lifelong memberi venmo therapist money goes directly pocket glad stuck continued look help rejected access online therapy platform nearly threw edgei apologize breaks rules way tell guys case one person benefits love guys hope good day today feel said hey heard jerkmate fun entertaining addictive tiktok wild sexy twist dont judge always assumed thoughts normal noti think ending existence fairly often sometimes times dayweek times month gap thought something everyone deals regularly thoughts im aloneim worthlessim uselessi dont know startim sorry im place im currently years agei wish died earliermy life gone downhill last yearsive much pain cant take anymore always feel lonelysaddepressedsuicidalit even gone far cutting myselfi feel hopelessi feel never able achieve dreamsno one love everyone forget ive alone childhoodive never make good friends never talked anyone biggest regret lifewhenever im pain dont share anyoneno one makes feel betterpeople made fun im awkardim scared express feelings mindive tried make friends left bullied foght meeveryoneliterally everyone makes fun meim going downhill studiesi always low grades always scolded parentsi even thought killing beforeim sorry try escape sadness life sitting near computer screen mobile phonewhenever taken away instantly depressed jealous sick people got enjoy childhood stuck alone hell yearsnot shown hope ive really gaming childhoodthere barely day havent gamedit kept happy alive long timewhen saw utubers esporters instantly started wanted big thembut ive taken away things fucking burns im unhealthy havent went outside weeksim scared talk peoplei dont even know drive cyclei want stay home im writing bed phone crying wanting cut againwhy see hell young agewhy couldnt life better otherswhy one try talk metry understand pain make feel better feel worthless nowim useless worldi mistakei born sufferno one happy meno one love looseri forever alone bet might laughing storybut u experienced understand much pain life really done shitty lifei might try kill monthsi always sufferi never achieve dreami pain everyonea waste humanity wish someone help memy happiness deadmy hope deadmy innocence deadmy love dead ready see another redflag story news thats sayi never talked nowyou dont look deep cause im looser anywaysanyone still livingyou still changeyou still happyyou still enjoy life failedand failures dont deserve live goodbye everyone actually need help something cant search sub reddit something comes mean nothing comes recommended whatever nothing rmemes dead daylight cant rhelp unless text turns kinda link thing anyone know fix powerfully wonderful movie held deathgrip let involved story successful dentist alan johnsondon cheadle torn life crisis balancing career family notices former college roommate charlie finemanadam sandlerand wants touch base finds charlie lost wife family attack america longer touch realitychoosing involve mind favorite music past video games former roommates rekindle friendship strengthen former bond johnson friend angela oakhurtsliv tyler psychiatrist try bring charlie griefbut alan accomplishes getting friend emerge deep darkness jada pinkett smith plays johnsons wife writer director mike binder plays role charlies attorneyguardian cast saffron burrows donald sutherland adell modell robert klein outstanding soundtrack featuring likes bruce springsteen graham nash pear jam pretendersbr br note never sandler fan found outstanding role scenes thought loudwhy never approached play singersongwriter bob dylan biopic suicidal christmasso spent christmas bed wishing dead nothing new ive suicidal childhood lot time wish done child avoid pain suffering told family sick didnt want affect anyone im sure know didnt want come prepared gifts wrapped decided stay home smoke weed know made choice wtf normal person part happy wonder people dont im miserable around hate everyone everything friends crap job totally people well change well years change today supposed day go find building tall enough die relief rewind isnt happening year put im thinking making one something free time dont really know put obviously unus annus think jacksucksatlife cheating way play button dont know feelthis seems right place every morning wake think redflag im process completing year everything feels hard walk school hardest half hour thoughts consistent loop worthless cunt point putting die anyway ive written redflag note mentally difficult lethal dose sleeping pills thing stopping mum ruin life got much life left im terrified day dies know im probably immature teenager love hear anyones opinion mind readers dont tell anyone normali issues life course jumping front train crossing mind feel solve everything wife happier one worry think though thoughts normal im mad context xbox computer use monitor speakers headphone jack controller plugged headset plugged play keyboard mouse minecraft im playing minecraft skywars pretty sweaty kill dude im low hp pearl another island whilst im controller decides slightly move joystick move forward overrides keyboard makes walk edge im genuinely considering spending controller repair kit fixing enjoying toasted butter bread know heading school minutes ago lmao im going late call txt need friend plz ive read lot post found far many people talk feelings loneliness feel nowhere turn thats need someone talk please give call day night anytime need friend let one talk anything feel feel chatting tv movies video games thats fine im need talk feel life experiences deal anything general ectect please day night mean day night sleep much stay night please give call txt anytime cant wait talk answer immediatly call back mins later thanks going end sooni hate reality time come developed severe disability continued destroy life livilihood past years cant job due daily pain constant unfortunately made collosull mistake getting married kids love disability puts perpetual bad mood snap yell frequently deserve prevents providing family fortunately foresight purchase substantial life insurance policy past go least family taken care grossly unfair world changed way trigger disbility one cares one help nevetending pain dissapointment whatever deserve truly sorry perhaps nothing thus testament lack caring people others change laws ones trigger pain people knows idea posting guess felt saying goodbye someone goodbye especially considering count one hand romantic comedy films enjoyedbr br minnie driver good heart transplant patient mysterious connection duchovnys recently deceased wife think several awful films used story line think lmn movie jane seymour film keeperbr br duchovny sympathetic scenes dog cute sad dog misses deceased wife friends want find replacement amusing scene blind date driver waitress date horrible finds intrigued minnie driverbr br caroll oconnor good one last roles curmudgeonly grandfather bonnie hunt james belushi film liked round comedy aspect filmbr br good film story works overly romantic insult audiences intelligence highly recommended 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card debt international travel skydiving fancy restaurants ect intend pay afterwards hospital weeks even money therapy neurologist stuff ive job past years rent suuper expensive got short term disability job months starting hospital short term disability ended still energy motivation whatsoever work done ended quitting ampxb job ton bills im sure im looking advice anything pretty obvious stop spending much wanted vent maybe see anyone experienced anything similar suicidal thoughts quite bit better disability debt coming back vengeance im almost certain crush depressed posted fitness account confident lately lot family members commenting post ive never seen want sad text say send nude yes send dont send yes dont going consume chinyim yum cant kill damn dead cant problems right ive achieved something got follower reddit thats big achievement yes unbelievable may musical academy award best picture third musical win award fiveyear period first fair lady sound music difference fair lady 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somebody much look forward finally getting official diagnosis cure misery thank read hope resonate way day look forward really enjoyed minghella epic thought quite much english patient modernday classic first minutes feel awkward inman jude law embarks journey back love ava nicole kidman film picks leaps bounds becomes memorable thoughtful romantic drama apparently fashionable hate kidman moment agree well actually think romance inman ada weakly developed script really dont much screen time together develop relationship law kidman give convince adas journey crux film becomes strong woman bear almost anything zellweger first seems wrong ruby grows sparkles many later scenes film beautiful photography set design never really captures true feel period piece jack white particular long straggly hair pale rockers complexion look completely place setting cillian murphy fans enjoying seeing talented irish actor early bit part natalie portman actually proves act probably films striking sequence pity boleyn girl inadequate need venthi dont really know start begin ill say need simple im suicidal havent cut hurt havent stood edge building wishing muster courage leap havent put gun head wishing pull trigger ive severely depressed years young dont know maybe im obese maybe social anxiety maybe im sort joke whatever higher power loving family friends care got whatever wanted young always close mom dad always wanted writer creator tv show cartoon something able show different kinds characters good despite skin color sexual identity thought thousands ideas story never skilled enough write professional find even pitch suxh show even animate often feel wasted potential wanted great couldnt anything make right friends weight began feel lonely time sure friends spend time cant help feel disconnected theyre bothered waste time dont feel im one deserves millions others never got chance born recently mom died one closest dad cancer im fearful come back refuses stop smoking matter much try beg quit stopped long cant deal parents gone brother one seemed everything work right highschool always wants attempt job learn drive stuff im lazy ill honest put year highschool learning drive roads crippling fear getting wreck hurting someone getting fined something wrong scary im sure getting job wouldnt bad im afriad couldnt asked overweight fired reprimanded im afraid means im losing free time ill never able play games stuff love anymore piling driving stress job stress weight dad potentially sick loneliness dont know sleep lay bed motivation left want fall asleep dream forever dont deserve life im using stop existing scaredi told mom everything go doctors medication im scared medication work better actively lifefuck want betteri want swim want float want meds numb make stream better want sink want chokes want fucking die family keeps saying need want forced keeping swimming want live everyone swimming stay afloat life want sink join movement dont buy nestle fucknestle rfucknestle feeling really good lately meds effective interpersonal group therapy cbt course everything well managed woke yesterday morning bed spent yesterday sleepingcuddling dog still feeling crap today burst tears moment trying spiral work make stop feeling lonely worthless pathetic loser wondering point living kind life constant fighting exhaustingand figured triggered hit slap facebeen dealing shit years give take never gets easieri really sure posting think want feel little less lonely showed nowhere hey girls dm open boys want talk someone girls preffered readyi thinking long time got plan bought needed wrote letter son ready gut cry day im almost cash lost family im time drunk fuck pills im scared wtf wrong im scared pain anything fear miss ill explain hospital family probably see son biggest fear work son become fuck try help see guy alcohol abuse got psychiatrist follow another girl try help anxiety problems problem nothing work today made prescription pills starting think might starting state schizophrenia want become insane keep thinking son keep neglecting im already fuck head say im gon na worse wtf suppose live thing live son know im gon na deceive hurt emotionally keep going wish disappear without hurting want diei years old want die anyone use facadereposted due lack responses read another posts know year old highschool clear things tired using ghetto facade time always act ghetto everyone school hide weak shy quiet pussy hiding inside hell reason many friends way act around people course facade flaws whenever teacher adult comes near parents around back real piece shit version use act defence mechanism basically tired using much energy socialize many annoying people short moments genuine happiness enjoyment laughter anyone feel hes claiming beat fight go court treated abuser whole time sat next protection order written daughter go home day vacate face eviction landlord lost job pre trial next month lawyer seems idea case long take small cut stop bleeding accidentally cut bleeds isnt bad annoying things ive learned first relationship take account uh hi everyone ive really thinking now im feeling share guys means helping people probably benefit information tldr end post listening stories understandable apologize advance long say buckle anyways lets ill start providing context first mentioning names places save harassment last weekend visiting working local event town girl came asked number time pursuing another girl really made moves yet happily provided mistake kind flattered excited finally girlfriend course never one little know first happy talked phone texted hours end next days happiness faded told things think smartest choices example vapes thats huge dealbreaker eventually ran mental block although nice enjoyed lunch took learned personality mine really go well together began run things run conversations went around circles went bed night disappointed kept feeling disappointed depressed taking free time couldve used learning guitar failing math paper uncommon wanted live life nothing happened happy relationship eventually fell talking texting within span days now anything thought told made impulse decision thought telling wanted relationship today mom talked stepdad talked noticed acting usually act asked another parent basically told information girlfriend friend group basically found really weird disturbing apparently vape thc illegal state stayed couldve possibly exposed got caught wouldve got serious trouble im innocent told said think really want girl consider rethinking relationship evening think im going break tell really want relationship right now unfortunately going hard im nice everyone im going direct honest ill stand ground ill allow emotional healing time decide another relationship ultimately learned experience take away post anything weighed pros cons thought minute diving right compiled list dealbreakers requirements must meet big one loving animals ive lived learned ill know better next time ampxb tldr know want relationship diving decide really one quick evaluation happy direct remember live little fun afraid happy whether thats getting relationship anyways thanks taking time read hope nice day let go depressed things around house even take care matter currently many medications work mention made gain weight highest poundage never felt disgusted someone people younger already achieved much including family members friends way catch job will energy carrots give feel good enough receive think live always grasping straws fumbling scared feel pain die damage done horrific irreversibly broken time go story y old loserim dark place right vent serious fight mother last night told maybe end im worthless loser move back home ripe age lost job layoffs half year ago pay bills anymore mostly huge debt college family related matters dropped college work familys business request father even education familys business went belly father died got lucky found job even gone im years old loser job college education debtridden fool gave dreams help family wants exist teenage last night first time raised voice someone family enough guilt trip im pretty sure im getting kicked knowing mother throw things im somewhere kinda wish drinker now stress killing one hire anymore even though im picky im really hardworking im old competent unskilled educated enough educated gave everything help family im even losing idea wtf im supposed sometimes empty void future feels much thanks reading needed process writing feel free laugh words cant hurt anymore situation hurting took pills vodka doi take many want call ambulance hours worst passed safe need hello teenagers transgender hear negative opinions filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler ive fucked upif theres anything tell atone ive done want thank journey failed killing earlier month second time comes around know right know youre better without mind made killing going years able want yet trouble destroying life meantime last days watching music video feels safe today spent entire afternoon reading book felt safe finished book stuck bed lot makes late work wear clothes days even weeks time picking new outfit much spend lot money online trying fill sense emptiness put important things paying next semester college tired wish drop dead without anything loss sometimes wonder go listening nba youngboy nonstop billie eilish odd guess makes sense need collab two though yb kill track michael jacksons jayzs tracks excellent drama suspense whole time take eyes screen one second every word kept connecting pieces puzzling murder movie really touched showed sad hard life really cry end want give away let realize cruel sickening people comes murder br br cast good bad cast member actress played anne marie actress great job director didnt say found someone look single bit anne marie fahey ok looks biden lead v nervous u guys think win dont know start say feel helpless feel defeated im started college september im england took year school due reasons ill go bit happy much anymore ive problems primary school ive constantly bullied harrassed beaten ignored every inch self esteem confidence annihilated confidence issues college become pretty bad thing gon na sound dumb im miserable crush girl know ill never confidence talk even know wouldnt thats big deal everything always feels big deal smallest joke expense smallest mistake make hits really hard think lot never really affected strongly bit sad move days ago overcome overwhelming feeling stress sadness depression collapsed standing dont even know couldnt bring even stay standing im crier feeling left tears running cheeks lay becoming depressed second thinking every wrong decision ive made everything gave made better person today every way someone hurt everyone ive lost everything done make someone happier hate feel im taking space someone taken someone done done better dont feel clear headed right now apologise isnt well written help bit got dumped summer found cheating months relationship top grandma died beggining year mums boyfriend verbally abusive havent even able see dad months sleeping fucked college feel problems whiney people worse makes feel even worse feeling depressed dont even want send feels longwinded doesnt seem makes much sense theres lot dont want type anymore wish die edit feel need add now done many times best friend stops replying boyfriend comes online didnt put whining mexico even best friend cant fucked someone rather talk online im trying things feel really dark right nowim going go much detailfirst time posting bit lurker looking back years ago always life family party joking things comedic sarcastic responses everything generally happy person went breakup lockdown happened got new job found new girl lost suicidial sister feel everything suddenly hit short period time divorce papers split new girl sister still suicidal feeling worthless new job dont find release anything ive developed alcohol dependency allow feel constantly thought head keep hurting people cant help want hurt people one last time cant know need help fhere lot demons head dont want talk someone cant express im sober want go therapist drunk assume alcohol im fine line away giving ps theres backstory ive disclosed want entire life cool epik love hell dohello taken time gather well read subreddit post brink want deserve depressed happy life want die makes feel worse comes story life one mildly popular guys never belonged elite popular neither feel lack friends neither search friend short friends always given even friends expressed jealousy smarts always top grades school yet friends among cool kids always girls half year ago started feel shit went trip girlfriend went cuba vacation afford worked travel industry cheep tickets way flight started feel extremely nauseous bordering unbearable nausea minutes landing pulled arrived feel better nausea kept albeit diminishing rate days felt fine back home sweden felt almost fine start bouts nausea work sometimes result go home work saw option go doctor doctor told expressed seemed nothing stress accepted diagnosis time stressed masters thesis work time decided wait things eventually master thesis finished passed work deal nausea never ended one time girlfriend went south sweden go party normally entail two hours train whatever fuckup train cancelled go bus took extremely ill busride time thought common motion sickness never life previously motion sick grew boats cars suffer motion sickness nevertheless ascribed sickness motion sickness fell ill two weeks luckily caught ride car back home town horrible better bus ride back home better finally started think ailment psychosomatic frequently bouts describe anxiety doctor prescribed hydroxine helped momentarily write feel fine relationship girlfriend finally ended went semester abroad felt nothing relief finally focus self longer think contend failure relationship due constant depression leaving supposed go couldnt heres bad part single ive extremely successful ive constantly girls ive slept around even offers long term relationships yet never happy extremely unhappy extremely unhappy write throwaway one friends happen upon post easily identify circumstances point extremely unhappy return home offered sleep girl yet still want seriously believe related former relationship simply want live severely depressed suffer random bouts nausea anxiety personally subscribe wholly something psychosomatic still much aware fact deserve unhappy everything going great education girls throw feet yet whatever happens want die return tonight night town resulted least two offers coitus want die always want die usually suicidal wish end life wish die tonight something different think met old crush mine failure got never less tonight first time wanted end life fully aware text nothing convince people even depressed problem fucking depressed fact know makes things worse hate depressed think man thinks everyone ive told troubles work fucking depressed first time want end cried know want die want die badly painlessly tldr reason want hate want die please rredflagwatch feel cry thought stepping onto plane want end want kill self now end want feel better speak rather going bridge realise deserve unhappy please help long history mental illness suicidal thoughts interests diagnosed bipolar ii disorder first hospitalised diagnosed borderline personality disorder traits top upon second hospitalisation tried obviously failed attempt twice today different though today learnt new way make attempt looking one everyday week year mind racing things need funeral afterdeath arrangements keep hitting block happens fail anyone tried failed attempt knows end feeling loser even little worse case even hangover uni work submit times easy hide fact made attempts life way seem case scared found forced hospital third time row looking advice away know rules thought vent done good job isolating everyone reaching nuisance sick therapy please ask share perhaps start swan song mario pokemon plump plumber breaking necks animal enslavement im feeling suicidalive hospitalised twice last weeks severe depression suicidal thoughts anxiety fianc broken absolute mess one someone please tell ok broken im always second choice even thatand sucks much nobody cares ill always one people stuck ill never good enough anything anybody im going crazy world better gone one zoloft focalin changed life past four years better week feeling regressing lot interest activities normally brain feels fog around love new job energy perform well fiancee went town tuesday well made things worse feel useless tired shit general think hitting extra hard well long talk fiancee much bear put lost wrong want back routine idk shit sucks getting worse im pathetici turned entered st year highschool days ago depression dysphoria anxiety pretty bearable months holidays come back one crippling anxiety prevents building meaningful relationships friendships either forced faked sake someone talk school ended shortly horribly hate people area cant form relations online due brave enough say something group chat public discord cycle responding gt guilt gt responding manage talk someone feel never say right thing burden everyone includes family mom got huge fight grandma stay touch even mention third family strangers people staying behind queue shop finished shopping earlier im trans guy misgendered really hurts cant really avoid summer parents overprotective generally feel powerless strengthens hopelessness example moms telling serious cleaning reorginising room least month ive done maybe fifth whole thing time keeps telling day shell come pressuring fear even invasion privacy make stressed prevent able even think mess room without breakdown passions pursue hobbies except browsing reddit watching youtube sometimes playing nintendo activities enable think real life idea want life tried following want fun plan worked free time school makes impossible anything think future worry ill im lazy posts rgetmotivated sadden im unable things people school subject enjoy english im european second language even felt proud passed cae test june remembered years probably need translators anyways thing im good used around wizz kid fell grace fell hard mentioned thing im kind good languages love failing learn literally anything years german middle school attemting teach italian using online resources month getting lazy giving feel failure potential never used someone great goddamn lazy everyones something im avoiding work schools started new teachers new expectations soon start giving pop quizes asking questions answer live front whole class grade forgot called english used enjoy going therapist someone talk recently ive started lie omitiom stuff understanding trans thoughts defend opinions ive avoiding certaun subjects wishing time go faster meetings makes feel guilty parents paying even though pocket money generally feel deserve lot things ive got makes feel guilty anxious even know im way calm listen bob ross hells sake think world better never born every day wish people became okay dyingim tired fence want something done sister spoiling videogames ok prefer playing video games blindly little sister always problem want play game course sis except boatload free time highschool end never getting around playing game whilst sis playing matter much try stay away spoilers cant avoid seeing sis playing game dragging whatever wants show im im sorry want spoil game says well cares spoil everything still play game shell pester whatever wants see ruined many games fuck fuck fuckthats want tell story die dealt mental health issues whole life tried harder anyone expect need earliest memories father coming home drunk high beating mother hide bed play dolls sister hear beating always wanted friends never weird kid go anyones house unless invited remember peeing pants outside door invited remember father living minutes road never holidays look good front parents remember mothers family hating telling men worthless stepfather beating blame say lying remember kicked house still school defending raised fist hitting making cry mom good person remember homeless remember meeting wife second job breaking grandparents house gone winter drinking much wanted stop blackouts gave peace remember years happiness wife well close someone remember us going school planning future going chef wanted writer remember knock door hearing ok hospital seeing telling call family calling knowing say got headache work started crying sitting passed said sent bigger better hospital remember driving drove fast reckless took helicopter tests remember told aneurysm brain dead asking sign papers unplugged donate organs brother wanting father see father molested molested went prison remember stalling see know right thing hated daughter reason important brother remember supposed touch remember touching anyways remember breaking already broken bipolar whole life remember signing papers take life support able passed much apologize kid handle much killed stroke pen say brain dead already dead ended remember getting mail told organs saved lives calling family even father remember next years well drank lot trying kill stayed family mine made unforgivable mistakes got angry came close killing remember pulling knife going commit suicide cop remember multiple times tried help remember giving going group home hoping help trying many medications counseling left rot spent near decade tried anything offered failed failed well never following promising things never happened group home infested bed bugs cockroaches covered bites always roommates needed help none us got jumped teeth broken mistaken one sexual offender years trying leave another bringing weapons house drink together pull one tell kill kill went stay mom trouble typing need break finish later anyone wants story much write hi uh took mg melatonin pills die side effects help melatonin effects graduated hs hate life rn hate parents much unbelievable extremely well school ranked class played sports joined clubs worked jobs volunteered n end feels fucking worthless school district graduated small majority students white minority hispanic population honors classes took white kids already friends parents went school even though tried fit certain groups people went events showed happy ready never really seemed stick onto group people time studying school deal insufferable parents mom pretends white let wear style clothes makes dress year old golfer dad control freak calls lazy fat time rlly sucks feel unwanted time came terms fact bisexual tried dating apps tried meet new people made feel worse body felt used incidents now trying workout go gym dad let go sign waiver saying allowed go wants come makes feel around parents feel want cry time know may seem stupid really try sarong person sometimes feel alone place turn feel friend th grade distancing saying busy time hanging others idk feeling sometimes want live anymore hate life rn think overdosing asapi really really cant anymore im waste space little potential gone everyone carry better wasnt burden thats feel calm rational think everything going solved everyone elses problems gon na okay solved go thats feels maybe tomorrow morning stand everything loud stay longer body mine anymore done feel tonights night im ok im ok im okim really ok im really ok im really ok triggered hope triggered faith triggered redflag hotline pathological liars maybe someone talk wont pry location pick body case fuck distrust yall live oklahoma city area im going weekend wondering yall cool things check im hey folks thats now theres gon na anymorei want die flat want die hard say text cant voice anything feel immense judgement wether judgement real head feel real cant anything crippled im even sure really want help im going woman love dont think want help want waste away shit faced high watch adult cartoons cock gun shoot cant reach people one wants burden cant handle push away instead dont even know im posting maybe im bored want someone talk die anyone feel dont deserve happy life due much pain suffering millions people gone throughplenty innocent people gone terrible things throughout course human history normal peaceful life legal old cavalry sabre really want one think super amazing nice conversation piece scared save one really want fellow teenagers want know everything alright much love pepsi coca cola glass made something hangmyself end sleeping outside humiliated tortured yeah fact somewhere top time favorite movies number think anyways im usually one plots think plots work better anime rpg video games final fantasy example movies one vivid drawings planets stars extremely well written screenplay really children still watch contains graphic blood guts silicone think 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really want kill will give hope someday finally sits mind almost every day want feel anymore bring one hurt want drive away hang myselfim tired one gives shit feel parents give shit remind disappointment matter hard try never satisfy anyone matter hard try one think im worth talking medications put anything want better anymore want feel anything anymore know doi recently left husband ran away another state living friends right figure im know im depressed sleep time barely eat see point anything husband abusive physically abusive past take mental abuse anymore even ran sticks recently developed feelings someone fully believe hes leading sleep bed weve kissed feel really want wants warm bed nights stays unless staying things awkward weird us cant mentality starting nothing money im pay rent apartment lease cant even stay feel burden everyone want anymore tonighttonight nothing went wrong actually things going better sit feeling something going burst inside want stop anyone wants talk maybe tell shouldnt add snapchat rvassel fyi im gay live sydney im reason livehi first sorry english completely reason live cant focus anything enjoy things books games even youtube video every day looks pretty much nobody really likes talk one real friend talk really rarely im stupid pass school point od life theres reason getting bed ive attempt three months ago ive failed becouse know tie loop properly fucking funny still marks neck huh give single fuck anymore life arleady going right formality thanks time romaniaaawanted go see girlfriend soon borders opened dumped suicidalautistic ass lol cant expect anyone want deal im sick always alone tho yknow holy fuck whole life decide let guard let someone become entire worldsupport structure im even fucked mentally go back forget spent time thinking one happy im downing bottles whiskey sleeping pills getting catanonic fading life bit bit cuz wan na die im back door idk knock im always welcome thats probably im gon na die gg life combination meds criticali took mg opipramol mg mirtazapine mg lorazepam mgs xanax mg venlafaxin matter h want sleep possible die kind medication taken im going kms tonightand im afraid send redflag note im terribly sorry ive hurt hurt hope find happiness deserve love much im sorry keep fucking cant better youve always deserved give ive never understood cared call american committed tax fraud least one helpful tip avoid taxes want buy game ps set location montana dont got taxes games seven tries diesim lived long im classic quiet nice guy party sits hurts much talk anyone ive lived epilepsy frequent seizures insomnia depression chronic stomach reflux problems last years hurts much carry great support want part helping ive done nothing fuck things make peoples lives harder started working im sorry wasting time know im alone seven failed redflag attempts impending drug addiction cant look beyond history reddit thought id least say goodbye strangers thats anyone anymore thank supporters years know things worse im making decision time go ratchet strap ladder garage ready tonight maybe eight times charm anyone cared read bless hope find life im confused right normally lot black eyes yesterday woke morning saw mirror something different realized black eyes gone ive suddenly disappear fuck gon na second birthday days able celebrate health want stopmay everything went perfect happier life great friends great home fullfilled dream passing test art school got place one weekend working hotel working backoffice usual hot working hard nothing unusual past weeks already experienced little symptoms blurred vision headaches weight loss high blood sugar low potassium pain side hospital gave potassium tablets point still alright suddenly went downhill dinner felt incredibly nauseaus mouth got sore almost every touch bruises mouth resulting got infected stomach got worse worse despite medication felt incredibly sick hot cold nauseaus time dizzy times felt dying dragged doctor almost collapsing waitingroom said fever probably kind flu sent back weeks passed condition got worse day went another blood test everything alright potassium low prescribed potassium take due overly sensitive stomach tried eat raisins contain lot potassium one day lie anymore got vitamin b complex pills condition improved parts hope went another doctor mother told always bit weird head doc laughed claimed simply stick finger throat simply eat switched doctors told everything sent hospital gastroscopy colonoscopy severe gastritis despite acid blockers hplyori allergies tested negative apparent reason inflammation got pantoprazole take day done shit got back doc waiting weeks hoping pantoprazole something ran another blood test vitamin low b potassium aswell tsh high got b injection burning mouth disappeared symptoms stayed months passed sent different hospital another gastroscopy gastritis onlymild now still ran blood tests aswell see thing able catch blood sugar eaten hours gave find anything either tested diseases aids parasites aswell negative went back doc final blood test tsh high ultrasound neck thyroid gland know english turned normal sized said nothing wrong must mental issue months already sat several times meditating listening therapy cds hopeless trying find cause problems life aside current health sent therapist go months now along pretty well yeah feels trying find something yet exist seems bit clueless now weeks ago friend sent article woman almost exact symltoms story turned magnesium deficiency filtered several internet sites tried find trustworty information sounded plausible magnesium important body tied potassium connection insulin resistance year beforeni moved taken magnesium supplements regularly always slight problems magnesium deficiency stopped taking moved started taking mg magnesium every morning stomach handle suddenly able sleep night without waking numb arms sleep hours frequent headaches completely disappeared finally dream heartburn got less frequent muscle cramps bad anymore thought finally solved puzzle problem handle mg stomach searched alternative supplement take better found one woukd absorbed differently apparently upset stomach much ordered days passed took mg day condition got worse day day understand still dont switched back old supplement quickly felt better take mg upsets stomach mother allow doctor visits thinks focus therapy soon move boyfriend work less frequently improve mental health problem family situation matter say listen act crazy almost years passed now watch friends go life young lifes successful two important years got wasted optimistic recently know anymore see way anymore feel someone stole years life still stop without reason behind turn time back know change know causes never really believed god prayed end many times now least know bad god sick pain nausea sickness explaining every day even though nobody take serious anywaywhen started days amgonna want life back want healthy nothing cant live anymore another year month week want find way bad film trapped life right havent able play games friends lost ability use internet connection moving new house month finally internet friends moved appear used play xbox time built gaming pcs longer hop onto xbox guess parents see kids grow feel abandoned dont think speak thembut dont know always heard saying one day might outgrow friends one said way around know fact closest friends yet hand im life right sucks friends vent going absolutely bonkers sitting house parents constantly telling chores know thats supposed happen teen right tldr entire friend group longer plays xbox bored alone mind foggydont waste time reading boring rant brought worldseriously expected fix parents financial condition parents guilt tripping feel destroy lives kill still love im lowest now cant stand concept luck world creator world exists hate death underdeveloped scared individual day day realizes survive day come day parents collapse able live total failure hate using cliche word objectively true many successful people around pressure high cant expectationsi cant even took expectations away wouldnt even able live want cry day nothing disease vanish sound vanish born experience much pain die born even strength end suffering cant kill keep living hectic torture machine even know im writing know deep things bad trying help noi guess scream internally heart hate every second existence im furiousi hate parents brought piece shit world expect happy time hate much hate anyone hates insulini diabetic loaded bunch insulin bit ago im starting feel low hitting shakes nervousness fuck living hopefully ends soon fuck shitty worldwhat fuck point im failing school friends money parent wish kill another hate much nothing makes happy used music maybe video games now nothing find joy nothing pain want hurt anybody want happy cant happy prison figured tell somebody time move im fifteen already want dieim tired living spend day alone ive lost track time last months flew cant focus anything im constantly exhausted lived toxic family ive gotten beat belt thirteen punched twice constantly insulted father tried telling mom brushed everything told sister completely invalidated anything said whenever said something little please got attacked ends family trust anyone cant talk people whenever someone tries talking freeze whenever adult tells anything completely spiral teacher tell stop something feel shameful got bullied pretty much entirety middle school schools punching bag everyone always make fun barely spoke teachers joined called go silent wait speak everyone waited around found friends least thought im anybody talk year entered high school terrible felt empty time pass stay room im scared leave im scared talk anyone now feel one life trust first semester went home got called retard dumbass idiot days got pushed around yelled etc know feel now im completely lost alone isolated im tired haul everyday want sleep things used pull work anymore anything friends anything enjoy anybody turn cant much longer feel escape keep waiting better suddenly four years passed nothing changed nothing seems change know im hopeless fairness entirely sure found want leave life behind really honestly good life people love physical sense know alone reality attempted multiple times past mostly drugs remember sort thoughts went time happened know anything either woke throwing guts hospitali really know anymore beaten batted mind years break mind gives fills false hope never long everything comes crashing back gotten point life things continue worse memory nearly nonexistent point sometimes see hear things real mind feels everywhere time somehow feel nothing want die want beaten mind longer losing touch maybe even lost touch already maybe end maybe truly know anymore hello dad savage every time ask dad go friends says youre lying know friends laughs ass im mad time proud years ago decided come korea study electronics engineering came korea tech industry good part enrolled got admitted prestigious university first week classes nice initially attended english taught general courses well daily hour korean intensive lessons met friends people english taught class mainly foreigners koreans lived abroad people korean class really nice people different countries different backgrounds though friend group wrong semester goes people hang nationality groups mean hang people country started left behind nationality groups undergraduate student country university people country usually go east asian countries undergrad time passes see japanese friend hang japanese friends vietnamese people hang people chinese people hang chinese people course koreans hang koreans one school event reality mine rest undergraduate course struck event freshmen students people went hanging friendnationality groups thought hang people korean class expected went groups left alone wandering around food stalls hearing seeing people laugh friends good time walk pass groups people decided head back dorm roommate korean asked best english spending time friends told feeling sick changing weather ampxbps know exactly post want heaviness chest wish belong fucki flight hours alone wrote pages kill self boyfriend says hes ex never cant im ready supposed feel amazing instead killing purposefully anyone thought acquiring solid heroin addiction mean make everything better time might lucky overdose point suicidal postconcussioni got terrible concussion months ago really bad still lot symptoms still cant play sports way back happened cuttingsuicidal beginning th gradehalf way th im typea kind person classes aps cumulative gpa unweighted etc etc realized freaking retarded depressed constantly managed move junior year great happy tons friends starting varsity basketball lacrosse still jv soccer though got concussion end junior year went hill grades dropped weighted quarters straight isolated athletic friend told parents sports med doctor really think long hard playing sports thought long hard decided try start running deciding bad idea collapsed dizziness every time quit lacrosse quit soccer quit basketball started running everyday first street slowly increasing distance still got headaches grades still bad still cant concentrate went neurologist gave steroids stop headaches worked made sick slight anger problems scare old friends away im disrespectful people know bad thing cant help happens cant concentrate anything know started right concussion right quit sports keep feeling life honestly pointless now short term memory problems im constant trouble parents grades keep dropping im longer superstar athlete used know im young know came back cant tell parents dad thinks im still faking headaches mom believe mental illnesses honestly know anymore people see redflag bad thinglike put dog ill acceptable humans hell let people aggressively want humans live bat eye animal put depression fucking disease cant put wed animal disease whats double standard nothing make feel satisfied myselfi keep pushing people away know theyre better without lives im finally alone made peoples lives better leaving still feel selfish empty want fucking leave earth want wake hhs antinestle memes start im happy got see themhow supposed live mean seriously know everyone stopped buying mcdonalds pepsi etc including world better even boycott believe hypothetically one wants fucking power say buy different brand guess im minor income consume brand parents purchase know care important defeatism highly contagious im already depressed hell knowing childhood raised processed snacks contributed pounds pounds plastic production supply demand well family never letting chance recycle feel piece garbage making much garbage cant fully blame corporations much wish cannibalize leaders us keeping business thinking theyre welcome stay make shit burger kings unhappy meals gets nothing meme buy extra diabetic cholesterol supreme cheeto burger mom asks want dinner refuses hear beg us eat vegetable mom cant boss around kids want feed world falling apart environmentally partially reluctance longer depend offending business im going sit strangling phone charger pass freedom mom tells take trash third time week much waste groceries produce want stomach hurts even know right complain im world better without probably better without lot people murd good afternoon everyone didnt wake pm mom fr call campus coz thought kidnapped crazy anyway uncomfortable around current friend group ive acquired simply distancing easy peasy happy slappy yesterday finally great time lot shitty days cooking listening favourite music feeling good mother came music stopped started feeling always knife hands thought stabbing stupid shit live someone mom empathy people hypocriteshe always told us kind people judge appareances said sisters taste clothes going carnaval costume partyshe always told us lie hide truth always lying dad telling need money school something dad send money evaporates something lot shoes closetshe always told us violence solution clearly remember hearing threatening sister saying break face listen obbey remember day came form work hit thrown trashshe always told us trust bothering lot care anymore thinks smoke weed something seriously person child refused alcohol every time offered himshe told us care us always ther hear hep us said wanted calm got mad started yelling asking reason said care fake home work want smiling hug said almost everyday ask something tell need help blah blah blah always says want talk even worse morning made wake cross whole damn city arrived place waited minutes told needed go home wtf knows school wanted disturb fortunately see next days hospital showed way going visit forgot write loooot things started feeling worse leave everytime mom near want stab knife time life antidepressants stop working matter much increase doseage rd antidepressant working anymore year citalopram cycle now sick sick medication let depression dig deep financial hole trying fix keep set backs every time back feet hole bit something comes along pushes deeper fault still hurts paid insurance premiums time facing uncovered accident car severely upside got car pre pandemic lost high paying job able recover fridge busted twice leaving food bill collectors call tell irresponsible getting car afford got car want die energy fight anymore see way hate myselfive come conclusion hate cant stop putting got chewed missing many days cars broken deliver stacked cant accept compliments cant accept gifts bad things criticism every single day whole life cant make stop everytime date never lasts long maybe month sweep feet first know find self esteem one girl let put table told flat depression problems know fix went detail way actually ill now mom especially siblings put time growing matter tried stupid ugly good enough remember first grade considered putting birthday party invite friends sister quick note waste money friends frankly right knew think around age accepted abuse family lie worthless never went away im still think im shit told girl much never told physical abuse kid embarrassed used really frustrated used metal box kept canned things id punish slamming head wall really hard grade school age st nd grade told cut already eventually stopped id punch arms legs middle school age frustrated girl ended leaving ex ago dated think ill always alone nobody wants around somebody cant accept pleasure others self esteem low need therapy cant afford really know think im close redflag thinking maybe awful option people make done right id cost efficient way possible want somebody finding body said im guess needed vent depression episodes go stages ill feel better tomorrow hopefully come emo douche wish solution depressioni really really want die wish done years ago people always told better hasnt life spiraling downhill rope closet might use hang soon problem atm im tired motivation deed every day past years ive thought dying plenty live pain im excruciating dont know relieve want things different dont know wish peace drugs real theres reason sau dont drugs kid time feels weird feels gon na start day work hours im donemy shift work ends hours im thinking driving car bridge nothing helping pain im trying hard nothing coming im failure nobody understands whats happening nobody fix whats happening feels never going change nothing live anymore guess im reaching help last time anyone really got past abused family members growing past years recently gotten worse last months absolute hell im anyone gotten passed please help feel choice trauma top trauma muchso read people hurt boyfriendsgirlfriends someone cares jobs family lives even begin regurgitate failure life story now aside car accident third one none fault landlord lives upstairs yelling things fair making feel unwanted im hostile atmosphere tried second joba tutoring company answered questions correctly say desperate tutors online interview hire nowhere world unmarried scarred trauma someone want live love struggle poverty wearing thin decades ready cave see reason carry ok read book maybe book betterwho knows loved movie entertaining bit boring enjoyable heart wrenching friendship two kids pure innocent kids acted well especially son servant oh god thats form god face earth arghhhh steals heart easily spoilers friend rich guy kid confusion frustration understood angry abandoned ignored friend time needed consoling anyways kid bit stubborn wish movie shown older version poor kid arghh pains think ending movie sad felt terribly sad ending tears dropped eyes yes background scores fantastic scenes wow kite scenes fascinating well gets bit adventure middle wonderfully acted superbly cast kids acted well great direction know movie failed wooo critics sure woo mustsee made terrible fucking mistake yesterday afternoon dad bought jalapeos habaneros make salsa instantly got work never thinking put gloves done put salsa refrigerator washed hands ate dinner second dinner parents got salsa ate chips watching movie really good floral taste habaneros really complimented onions vegetal flavor jalapeos three us watched three movies got dark dad left parents separated still great friends taking chances washed hands done eating salsa hour later mom took nap thought hey got house pretty much nows good time jerk went bathroom pulled sweet vid pornhub malena morgan mia malkova went town despite handling peppers hours washing hands twice still felt intense burn halfway cried toilet minutes crawling couch living room getting fetal position clutching junk reduced burn reason minutes mom woke asked wrong confess told aloe started laughing knew better moral story never masturbate day handled hot peppers tldr handled hot peppers without gloves washed hands jerked hours later still burned hey boy target want stand balls wait mom finish shopping normal always act weird way depressed long remember try hardest never self pity know fact many people much worse recently thinking kid used disappointed know lot bad night really want cat live something ive wanting pet long literally really really young apartment doesnt allow dogs grew older mental health issues started getting worse got psychiatrist decision therapy dog apartment allows therapy dogs last moment decided wanted cat instead match energy less stress apartment building staff really want kitten im suicidal nowadays need something live problem first kittens expensive parents dont type money kk second dad saying apparently theres room apartment clearly hes complaining fur left around im literally going clean doesnt clean house mom concerned dont think im going able cat im really really upset im crying right now anyone advice give im really desperate anyone way getting heart broken really appreciate rn thanks hopeful im sure im going kill myselfhi im f freshmen high school ive wanting end life years old continuous bullying lasted till suicidal thoughts never left developed mental health issues eating disorder social anxiety bullying plays part wanting kys much pretty bad pressure comes highschool keep grades worsens conditions joined new school highschool everyone dick mocked time really helping mental illness never told friends im really lowest point im afraid might actually kms anything ex want back together feel best person open upto anyone im scared leave baggage please help want die said yes idk tho playing subway surfers cat sleeping beside shes yoga poses living hardi cant anymore feel shit everyday everytime want die always think im slowly killing living sedentary lifestyle possiblehopefully heart attack claim soon enough tried cutting wrist butcher knifeanother depressed year old half hour ago mom asked want go restraunt said want said alright told bring something back later left already depressed started throwing walls saying hate ran downstairs took butcher knife went bathroom sink started cutting away leave anything threw knife anger started crying know whats wrong im homeschooled im lonely friends let alone gf hate life know anymore theres cents im fucking done living help please talking friend aimrrrrris available rrrrr dawg rrrri bruh bruh rrrr u know jesus got sign god gon na die rrrr youtubecomwatchvqvfrog yeah rrrrr thats feel right forreal think imma kill rrrrr god told gon na die happened rrrrr yo real cant say shit go waffles something shit respond rrrrr im rrrrrr nice rrrrrr happened rrrrr nothing really wanne dead rrrrr pretty sure god want kill fucking girl u talking twitter recently ur prob experiencing psychological withdrawals stopped smoking weed rrrrrr weird legit want leave earth unless immense pain go away physical pain solike say shit theres radio silence id legit worry rrrrr dont wan na leave bruh feels rrrr rrrrr basically im trying figure killing dying something god wants happen happened life made change seemingly enjoying life feeling bad rrrrr tell little plx wrud rrrrr die everyone know change rrrrr yeah necessarily better prob worse rrrrr prob gon na tongiht eventually think gon na happen matter rrrrr control rrrrr think abot want dit u wrent online right id prob gone rrrrr killed rrrrr ton stuff want life fun shit rrrr idc rrrrr assure almost virtually god want kill wants help better others lives see pointill try keep short possible wan na bore anyone ive demons matter theyll never go away suicidal think theres point living anymore bad many feel hopeless anyway plot points interest bullied nd grade til st year high school catholic boys school bullying bad made resent catholicism trigger word find anyone catholic immediately trust sorry catholic offends thats much bullying rewired brain found god became bornagain enough think anything enough demons always found refuge woman loved never loved back now started reeking desperation sought love wrong places im convinced one accept anyone ill never good enough anyone good enough friend best friend close yet cigar currently graduated college radio dj keep getting shit mother tells real job verbal attacks starting hurt know keep living ive never lived always felt necessity live simply exist want need think best way describe situation world expects much someone never wanted anyway lacking live lacking courage die wrote case end theres big fucking clue right post thank everyone allowed frustrated use lot upt unpaid time time vacation anything sister wedding whole fucking week kids birthdays insists things baptisms know use lot hours overlook love know want see hours left shift hours might use today front house flooded theres car stuck officer blocking people entering emailed hr even sent picture company give fuck probably cancel energy anymore anything anything longer able work care anymore anything slept every day week left early played reddit anythingi longer able eat want food days cooked starving point dizzy spells eat full red pepper go bed appetite even hungry someone puts food front might eat longer brushing teeth longer showering regularly keep room clean barely moving care thisi sleep hours day always tired nap several times dayi artist drawn months lost passion minds eye blank new worlds heart anymore taking antidepressants go therapy see point keep appointments order better care enough try care anymore anyone care idk supposed depression hits completely dysfunctional levels bro legitimately cute league necessarily heart cant handle levels cuteness radiates fuck gon na impossible introduce worst traits hello im coffee addict attachment issues crippling anxiety please help anyone know anything overdosinghey guysgirls develop tolerance using h heroin week bro overdosed last year im wheelchair accident wife left well please god let suffering end ive tried od finally peace see best friend snorting mixing heavy doses valium alcohol seem trick wake day later covered vomit think box mg valiums half g china white trick maybe tolerance ive month trying kill ive experienced non fatal overdoses fuck sake want free hell anyone help shoot whole g china heroin well mg valium surely looking advice changing life staying positive please comment shit looking advice take anymore thank heaps advice woke please help im trying watch movie nerdy guy glasses goes hogwarts idk called feel really stupid conundrumsim alive someone die alone knowing full well fate ive suicidal years ive hospitalized times st time pills drugs time tolerance handled long enough someone find pump stomach nd time someone found got gun called cops knowing planning use rd time voluntary years ago dad died st conundrum dad always truly kept anything dad best friend person whole life knew gave shit im son son world died sleep nowhere undiagnosed sleep apnea found dead taking nap st conundrum family members grandparents real old killed moment truly utterly lowest go losing son grandson noone ro take care visit last yearmy grandpa died grandma epileptic handicapped situation literally none feelings world want alive profession lets people work feed kids nd conundrum work lot good people big families kids card pocket says im cant work im journeyman work boss loses money take food mouths families im around nd conundrum much ive tried last years relationships start family find significant worth time ive failed everyone help gets watch work effort give others things honestly deserve feel ive drowning whole life cant handle anything anymore im tired feeling ok ion think stay world long keep ugh waited bit went talked advisor vaguely briefly explained happened help understanding procedures understand went lab figured work together standing something samples advisor something room suddenly looked toward door entirely expected fellow student burst yelling told advisor first saw film chance visiting uncle arizona years ago vhs print little faded looking haunted watched make sense well honestly didnt film requires one viewing understand aspects beautifully tragic score haunted bizarre images made quiet impressionbr br well found anchor bay released oddity dvd picked immediately pleased transfer though felt extras rather lacking though film concerns o sir stephen characters really nothing pauline reages original novel film story o film pay attention artistic detail symbolism almost mystic kind o decides prostitute sir stephen violent s hong kong mission prove unending devotion love master giving body men naturally sir stephen enjoys watching unpleasant sexual escapades even finds mistress tables turned o actually finds kind love young male admirer suddenly sir stephen feels threatbr br feel deep meaning behind film including tragic score artistic direction really make film classic viewer introduced lives pasts os fellow brothel mates turmoil s hong kong explored political setting prostitutes find need belonging one happy film even believe o find sense happiness young admirer one prostitute tearfully remembers father used act dog drunk naturally leading fetish customers act dog another older prostitute obsessed past actress let vision go treats clients costars even swears hears piano river br br o flashback father leaving chalk circle leaves feels sense abandonment course flashback kinski suddenly becomes father disturbed image truly felt o point film hardly smiles scene really explains fear abandonment great sees sir stephen father caters every obscene demand hopes proving love br br another curious aspect film young child ages end sells fortune box random character somehow adds sense loss emptiness film one point director even uses painted cardboard figures represent people now symbolism laugh br br really love film feel deep somewhat moving experience erotic scenes scenes really meant arouse lives characters sex acts empty motions lack feeling tenderness tender scene o young man o believes love lowering honor finds end choices person pursue happiness option stay circle father drew director leaves lot unanswered questions things need answers viewer make judgment works br br must say wish special edition dvd released director commentary think fascinating hear opinion film message years later shame soundtrack never released film truly haunting heart breaking score something lingering vocals send chill spine truly feel sense loneliness film listening music made sub ive done basics cant add rules link comments dm become mod said need mods add rules thats possible questions feel free ask rthequantumversehttpswwwredditcomrthequantumverse lost job today great week feeling horrible lost job current mood charles boyle says life party im piata now message sponsor rules changed theres fine line right wrong somewhere shadows send us find bravo six going dark round crackers rectangular crackers preferred cronchers ate whole cheesecake ate whole pizza whole cheescake im prolly gon na die goodbye im fat tho im underweight know much longer shit tired hurt even care anymore let bad shit pile point fighting sit watch life waste away watch zero fucking people give shit best expect husband pretending care convince narcissistic sociopath one cares fuck fuck good lasted go alright turn five days figured id say words teenage years ill never return never try got many things way teen im glad jump hurdle adult came parents trans little three years ago dad started use chosen name big step graduated high school something saw near unnatainable goal kid fell love got hurt fell love learned importance loving relationship learned importance trust loyalty school done teenage years moving new chapter life strange think mom age born teen years amazing lived lowtomiddleclass family afford lot always best parents always wanted best even methods made fking sense sometimes advice everyone younger burn bridge family almost turned im glad didnt ive got year old brother im glad im going around see grow miss teenage years im glad experienced im glad two three good friends stuck years im glad learned learned finally im glad shit farewell teenage years ill remember bittersweet nostalgia fondly essentially live purely obligationi want die hard alive lately things keep going family least members family friend kieran passion music smallest hope still better tomorrow family selfexplanatory love brothers mother well grandparents father different story though necessarily hate zero love id hate devastate killing despite brain always telling theyd anyways maybe dunno friend kieran reason hes six years hes done many financial moral things hes kept going downward spiral many many times yet still treat shit bitter sad feel time deserve really dont love guy know brother actual brothers sometimes music selfexplanatory keeps going hope selfexplanatory though question every day still hope said still really wish alive things thankful though theyre short supply anyways im lonely time time im depressed hardly room happiness often times ill think im happy moment realize later wasnt merely distracted depression loneliness one biggest blows romantic failure girlfriend attempts ive made getting one year flopped completely first girl tried getting genuinely liked connection ghosted upon confession never acknowledging second attempt lifelong best friend emily hardest part fact wanted date issue attracted women guys despite best efforts look past blame still hurt ive always sort crushed bit close actually meaningful relationship ruined something control soul crushing digress absolutely emotionally debilitating lonesome way want loved accepted somebody likes likes things may lot ask hurts romantically lonesome really really hurts another factor constant fear future want nothing write music living loyal fanbase share mostly horrible life experiences well give advice aid via music create wish wealthy though dislike want earn enough live well buy things id buy constant fear ill never able live dream skill limitations time limitations way world works etc many factors working terrifies know possible ill fail almost makes trying seem worth try know better chance failing passing obviously plan giving time soon terrifies keeps night yet another thing depresses loss innocenceloss innocence shit childhood whenever see pretty girl watch anime see cartoon etc become depressed cartoon anime ones show things love stories coming age stories even simple shit kid normal life jealous upsets especially depresses sexual stuff see hear anything sexual become depressed know weirds probably understand even understand makes articulating impossible tried maybe understand lastly final thing ill talk adds anguish many anisocial life become money friends besides one best friend cant much sheltered life social skills goddamn terrible meeting new people huge struggle naturally cooped house long periods time thinking sad lonely trust thinking much regularly dangerous im sure know really eats away apologize wall text call post lot mind even ive repeated shit almost every post ive made thanks whoever reads stupid thing comments especially comment really need human contact even comment reddit heavily appreciated cheers good daynight ps sorry typos really feel reading whole thing revise almost lmao momat night dreams see alive well ask happenedi never receive answer need im sure ill see kill want someone kill need peace almost years last saw mom always missed terrible job living alone wanted call always busy talked really quiet voice year dating boyfriend decided tell ask opinion honestly really care instead told okay couple months asked go live missed honestly missed arrived cried maybe seconds gave awkward hug boyfriend nice kids thought fine obvious likes mom lot happy started saying wanted make years started buying whatever wanted lasted maybe months issue two kids nice got along really quick started clash things older one lies lot everybody tells one thing tells another someone younger one wants everybodys business wants know everybody started thinking maybe tolerated anymore seem pretty close mom jealousbecause videos showed realized started calling mom moment heard say called godmother mom told saw really believed told loved parents boyfriend came visit along daughter law mom became preoccupied treat well show ex wife literally left kids husband another took everything mom started saying worried daughter law going say something bad told stay room leave said go outside fit car talked annoyed two kids want stay room day made face told inconsiderate never helped anything always told tell anything always told fighting nothing understanding stopped saying anything realized mad tell asks tells always tell everything started thinking better go back living alone know tired maybe two us anymore sometimes glad pay much attention anymore know bad studying responsible mom new family sorry rant anybody talk ok holidays approaching lot sad depressed need four take lives week goal least people year got one need four useless worthless nigger loved right thing end today feel great please jesus lamb commands end today love lord another fucking optionim dreading tomorrow im dreading today im dreading jfucking everything weather nice today partner happy cant enjoy shit cant fucking enjoy feel dumb fucking edgy want die badly dont solid reason fuckkmg exhausted tired hopeless fucking hell dont want anymore im forced dont options ifucking want end please im agoddamn panic attack dont want please let die please kill dont care miss dont care hurts selfish want best dying best option okay okay dont fucking tell selfish im hurting wan best let fucking kill god want ive got years till ill start drinking bad days away ill still underage dont think parents care want something bored idk mabey want go high school cause friend says way better middle concert coming th september thats last thing really care feel ill right thatso ig last weeks right now babies dancin shes dancin another man dumped transphobic boyfriend two gender ass fucked bad dont even feel sad fucked bigtime actually started months ago started dating current girlfriend around problem meth stay away long time end least month even though really fucking hate stuff first asked told recovering addict asked problem said stay away felt maybe girl able help finally quit good course months dating though ended getting high noticed every time last night told somebody sold day got high tell coming downi kind feel killing now feel ruined life know meth ruined mine best friend year old girl best friend ends getting curious ends know gon na fault told tell best friend young impressionable fucking meth dealers sell almost anybody think happen im gon na shoot know damn sure im never gon na touch shit now ive already ruined friend mines life introducing back first started years ago really cares think live guilt fucked sergio martino impressed recently giallo classics strange vice mrs wardh unforgettably titled vice locked room key even expecting much film case scorpions tail mentioned much aforementioned titles comes classic giallo discussion know least good two dario argento may king giallo five films made sergio martino surely far behind ways even surpasses master martinos films released prior jewel argentos crown magnificent profondo rosso back early seventies martino king plot follows idea murder profit follows insurance payout wealthy man wife inherits million long theres people blood turns dead shortly thereafter insurance investigator plucky attractive young journalist follow casebr br case scorpions tail may benefit beautiful edwige fenech two martinos collaborators board famous george hilton worked marino strange vice mrs wardh colors dark along number giallos hilton great screen presence every time see italian thriller becomes obvious repeatedly cast beautiful anita strindberg remembered vice locked room stars alongside hilton excellently provides classic giallo female lead sergio martino good job directors chair several beautiful scenes best taking place room bathed green lighting score bruno nicolai wardh excellently sets mood script driving force behind martinos success ernesto gastaldi writer martinos four giallo put together script thrilling staying away common giallo pitfall making sense thus liberating film rest illogical genre case scorpions tail quality giallo film yet another success great sergio martino giallo love guys dont go therapist therapist rapist ok therapy someone says therapist dangerous people avoided costs rarely write reviews film simply demands attention gets contains hysterical kidnapping gone comically wrong sequence filmedbr br seen found funniest film privilege watch laughed beginning end shame dvd videobr br compare cinematography mad mad mad mad world promise anything storyline nearly complex mad worldbr br hope near future film released shame lose comedy gem amongst dregs nowadays one use email function reddit kinda sad underappreciated edit yall never used email function uncultured yes bored dm comment stuff save boredom cant sleep suicidal thoughts strongfirst things first im male female trans individual recently turned job work walmart asset protection associate contacted bosss bosss boss regional ap manager putting management position knew desperately wanted store close home interview prepared practiced thought id nailed alas meant ive stuck working stores nothing abusive last two years usually report inappropriate things associates done said never want person done couple times times ive done nothing done id given reporting interviewer person asked applied market ap manager going things done better said one thing able shake really affected told six months ago never expected interview someone times changing times changing exactly theyve twentieth time ive turned job suitable experience education bachelors degree two jobs last years means feel ideal candidate ing walmart management see point anymore ive depressed whole freakin life know much take feel whole life wasted wanted true anyone flair havent changed kiwi flair relic point guys need advice girl sorry seeming needy really want gamer girl back want mess many times deal jealousy towards closest friends buying houses kids getting new jobs still dead end job yearsi actively avoiding happiness mess uo friendship consider worse years lifek debtthought dying s times gained stone losing boyfriend deportationbut every time called doctors help courage continue calli struggling daily bases keep together spend time crying thinking best bot anyone life slow downthis may right place stuff felt bit better getting thoughts paperso speakthanks listening safe spacevent tell things ill tell favorite color yeah pretty much put title ill cant anything anymore everything getting worseso obligatory blah blah bah sob story makes sound martyr years ago got diagnosed medical condition makes things pain course extremely severe one doctor went believed bad course parents find new doctor obviously im trying school spent years life worst pain ive felt constantly leave classes degrading embarrassing failing school convince parents let take online schoolonly emphasize much disgrace worthless far behind online schooling deep really believe make years absolutely nothing going right now cant even go public anymore without pain even martyr thats really course theres token grandma dying cancer take care really person convinced cared theres feel martyr yeah now fucking future think id make far second thoughts fuck name yoshikage kira im years old house northeast section morioh villas married work employee kame yu department stores home every day pm latest smoke occasionally drink im bed pm make sure eight hours sleep matter glass warm milk twenty minutes stretches going bed usually problems sleeping morning baby wake without fatigue stress morning told issues last checkup im trying explain im person wishes live quiet life take care trouble enemies winning losing cause lose sleep night deal society know brings happiness although fight lose anyone death sounds pretty good right nowive hit really low part life probably lowest ive recently moved utah california huge change left behind friends ive lifestyle im used living mother dragged middle school year really bad curriculum new understand works school system different nerve racking hardly talk people due anxiety ive always strong disliking mom realize hatred basically life used religion abuse stop acting faggot call faggot im parent parent obey actually said dad likes slap punch tell mom stop acting jerk im sorry confusing mind lost right now really thing thats pushed edge mother arranged go back utah week spring break see friends hang well yesterday mom left sister home alone sister complaining mother day wanting go swimming mother let mom left told sister go swimming twenty minutes chores agreed hopped pool well mom came back pick something saw us pool started screaming yelling knew sister chores getting pool huge health risk now going take back utah see friends now destroys trying keep sister mom happy ugh know im tired upset everything death seems easy way pain ah yes getting laid allgirl sleepover amidst pandemic im sure bunch people sub seen post guy got invited sleepover im disbelief guys believe quarantines depraved seeing people fuck man embarrassing around yall please better even story true celebrating fact sleepover party pandemic jesus christ comments saying guy inquestion hero living dreams make feel slimy gross guess girl subreddit im ready downvotes fingers crossed im depressed kidding people shout im depressed every seconds obviously trying gain attention upset say upset instead depressed easy mixed love show watching mini movie week first episode gripping terrifyingso part pilot im definitely gon na keep tuning show real survivor ive looked comments see already one two episodes morons already crying wolf sorry another reality show kiddies time werenow brace actual tv shows one actually good unlike crappy sitcoms today umpteenth carbon copy law order nypd blue csi series theyre dishing watch form opinion take one boneheads unironically love pokmon go fun able catch monsters childhood ahhhh love game parents track phone im okay im girl immediately puts target back creepy people comforting knowing someone knows times case something happens wish way im glad things exist schoolworkis anyone occupied sad missing assignments idk feel terrible rn want die scary want die sleep even wished god die know think wishing devil seem possible months working dieting result ampxb thinkhttpspreviewredditdqzjafpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscecfabedceaaaaeaef blame weight repulsive look maybe id stand chance saying fat people repulsive hate bodyas woman weights least stone feel undeserving love happiness eat calories day refuse fear ill gain weight fairly active feeling really fat ill starve long day ill binge eat whatever shit find nightto make things worse suffer pcos along mental health conditionsi sorry enough anybody sorry pretty enough skinny enough attractive enough sorry existing sorry making people cringe mere sight sorry okay sorry worthless f forced go residential anorexia treatment months ago parents threatened conservatorship week extremely depressed put pounds ed clothes fit new ones hardly money food still agonizingly hungry used eating parents sent money got literally almost money spent new clothes oversized baggy ones hide body grocery items depressed hardly bed see friends ashamed look zero money head space work right now parents giving money feel hopeless helpless even considering selling pet snake much love use extra hundred dollars make ends meet much worse went treatment ask feel parents ruined life worse going treatment called bro called bro filler filler filler filler filler dont feel bad feel bad feel bad dont feel bad yes read right hope didnt die stroke youre still im kinda convinced social anxiety im social situations dont feel uncomfortable think im lying social anxiety makes feel bad feel uncomfortable im content later exactly want want feel bad want social anxiety dont ask idea matter happens feel bad way wtf worth itive told times try find reason live hold year now first musicals books studies whats damn point keep forcing care things live reason im alive keep grabbing scraps hoping itll make feel okay moment dont inherently want die shit worse yeah im alive im breathing heart beating past fucking nothing theres personality theres people theres talents hardly life certainly worth living worldppl cares give themi planet yrs one thing learned ppl care u something give im tired wish born way care productive im told wan na connect ppl want cant connect anyone awful feel trapped inside head hell u suppose u wan na connect ppl nobody wants connect u theres point living ventjust vent staying edge cliff jumping yet think people see slut something try best seem attractive something idk psychologist told assumed people thought something even werent guy wrote sucked dicks donlt understand always tried polite kind agreable know think opinions wrong feel guilty thinking people feel happy think happy person feel crazy head hurts cant sleep hope someone care lot day trust cheers everyday feel desperate know feel mediocre worst everyone shit shit nothing want die please something magical make pain disappear want start life magically happy without substances im sorry think may caused negative emotions reader feel stuck great thing feel better writing thoughts make buses stop tldr rant question hello fellow people internet past two days ive coming back school following way walking five minutes bus stop waiting bus arrive getting bus walking five minutes home woahuh simple three buses continued driving past waiting every time see bus need approaching stand close road wait continue beep point backwards let person infront bus close door something wrong last time waited minutes degrees weather entered bus soaking wet sorry hihello name emelia using new account want history ive contemplating posting weeks finally decided im terrified breaking rules tell anything wrong take post fix live old relevant im going say shortened version story little rant share likely nobody read respond post deserted feel guilty think redflag alot think might happen consequences feel reason even though rest family toxic mum cat two things mean world used live whole family mum dad two older brothers memories except cousin hating aunts uncles bullying dad even though lived together older brothers sound nice books protecters loving mine tormented every minute saw life bad compared others competition dad incurable illness others basically means ache time energy stuck bed days week bad young said remember much story going tell weirdly peiced together bare years ago seeing quite young parents got divorced rest main family lived apart carers go every weekend remember loving going mum stopping brothers bullying little know bullied scared oldest brother angry pound door scream luckily never touched hurt scared wouldve done anything save mum wouldve taken hit even though never came loved going dads money buy snacks cook dinner mum working two jobs brother slacking rent trying feed us every day yet felt sorry wanted spend time dad mistake bullied school weight poor pretended care breaking inside pretended friend took advantage joined gang bullies realised laughed pretended bothered one pushed rusty nail went foot cry scream hid pain anger inside bottled laughed said fine accident purposely pushing rusty nail fine fine pushed knife throat night held firmly head slowly backing away wanted want selfish thought die selfish monster yet heard redflag stories think theyre selfish think strong going long unfortunate felt pain throat look led decision felt bad took knife away crying tear silently put knife back asked mum move soon possible next day stood started leave alone back dad criticise everything mum treated woman capable mature age homphobic racist sexist let stay home alone going somewhere hated hated museums parks fairs used visit grew tired felt obligated go one night snapped told phone watch war documentry interest snatched away even though mum texting something important screamed threw dinner snatched back couldnt fight took advantage brother couldve killed body dad let even look knowing knife protect needed little unhinged back still guess guess thats one thing right night wanted leave cold raining coat shoes blocking trapped mum picked never went around never saw spoke arranged neutral discussion family friend lovely second mum moment seemed blame everything ganged outspoken mum fight stopped seeing learned things done mum past left thousands thousands debt paid child support lied millions times spread rumours manipulated brothers false stories saw longer brothers dad us two moved stay friend back feet bad seeing little money teens lived tormented much brothers least better scared grateful grateful mum protecting finding solution vision clouded rock made cry looking struggling wouldve still given support hated self able work support us hated thinking saying felt let didnt fast forward years moved away got apartment slowly opening forgive tried therapists made anxious hard fill silence nobody talking blank human free guess cant complain confident outgoing fake persona hide behind even mum want im gloomy im weird feel sane belong good think redflag alot look smell feel hear thought way go many know stopped aside mum think way look disgusted police fat body way chin obvious way lift clothes see fat vomit sight thought need lose weight anything cant ugly die hurt others worthless ugly gay disgusting monster fat weird freak loud think think things true fat weird loud curvy weird expressive agree though darkness always consumes positivity makeup dress nicely ugh waist big double chin disgusting makeup blended properly im going attract much attention colour goodlooking people writing good enough going career want disappear eat much want world see feel loved deserve annoying friends hate im stupid deserve school deserve freedom homeschooling look girl skinny surgery im lazy work fat obvious jump love way look crop top people see back stomach want noticed want bold feel empty im depressed feel empty plenty good things happening life im healthy im set life soon turn twenty something enjoyable im depressed make every request change dont know strange exchange thing rid feeling kind healing way dealing film might next evil dead hell knows maybe will year worth look expect million film cuz disappointed expect entertain laugh enjoy experienceall film much better many low budget horror films seen films spent times film cost make turned times worse effort put film far weighs set backs faces limited budget movies meant entertain movie sure fact film might even open new doors movie watching available netflix local video rental store watch decide rosenstrasse touching story courage adversity reichdeutch women find jewish husbands locked pending deportation one aristocrat disowned family lena fischer finds among mob general gudarians sister rank privilege merit special consideration br br service reich female detainee whose husband ostfront learn one horrifying scenes movie guards take wedding band given soldier husband br br lest think typical german brutishness america today lady bush imperiously ordering arrest gold star mothers mothers us servicemembers killed action presence offencive little regrettably changed years der fuher der fumblerbr br fortunately eight year old daughter ruth escapes capturebr br waiting cold rosenstrasse lena fischer first reluctant take ruth responding way take typically german even lena fishers brother colonel arthur von eschenbach aware opposed holocost cautions lena lena chooses embrace idea american rebelliousness even renaming ruth aryan sounding name helga lehmannbr br siege ends favourably rosenstrasse lena mourns happened ruth war years later ruths daughter hannah sets search mothers past meets year old lena guise writing personal history warbr br deem interesting hannah wanted much look family never checked fate grandfather last known served ostfront want die decorate first christmas tree life cause cousin sister decided instead megrowing christmas big deal family due poverty never buy decorate christmas tree life went grew lost interest buying decorating christmas treecoz life fucked mood disorder severe depression two years loosing father therapy sessions decided try celebrating festival time celebrate living make mom happy according therapist advice probably reminded wishes going left wishes high expectations always end big disappointments turns cousin specifically informed ill decorate tree mistake brought decorated without minemy mom involvement sweet actually meant good sadly one joy looking long fcking time got robbed felt extremely cheated im left dark thoughts hand looks butchered meat blood came sufficient sooth anymore favourite chocolate icecream pizza comforting wish cut little deeper enough end pathetic life im upset fathers co worker tested positive whole family quarantine two weeks even test negative school literally reopened last two band shows next two weeks im band hate online school almost failed half classes last quarter suck online learning able talk anyone half year worst thing cant anything even know im posting guys probably downvote mad quarantining roller coaster ride great start caught someone party broke realised let go got back together broke became abusive went downhill let go kept hoping work never dad wants monitor boy sister security camera room two flights stairs im getting new room painting today dad starts bringing security cameras core details title defense sister changes room im course looking camera another way getting close underage nudity defense change closet got temperature light gun point walls floors check temperatures one closet degrees celsius wants least two angles room creaking door open heat stroke going impossible best part isthe room two flights stairs climb anything regular cameras oh dark wan na go outside two flights stairs check us hard soshould one hes even legal batman returns opinion first batman batman series half movie batman returns first batman tim burton batman joker played wonderfully michael keaton jack nicholsonbr br batman returns feel perfectly cast batman movie yes even better dark knight keaton returns batman perfect role never going far top character batman perfect film comes two villains hes first danny devito delightfully insane penguin michelle pfeiffer catwoman dare say one interesting complex villains batman movies feel way pfeiffer way becomes catwoman starts rather pathetic mousy selena kyle truly dives dark side mind brilliant performance woman goes trying hero villain suppose back hero end amazing cast evil businessman max schreck played amazing legendary christopher walken supporting role theres something role love maybe look schreck film makes performance better already isbr br story wise say batman returns much going time around opposed first batman part reason loved story much fact burton dared go much darker twisted direction opposed nicholsons top antics story penguin tries deceive people gotham making new hero mayor city catwoman struggle decide really new persona comes batman feel one hes ring leader holds two stories together course kicking ass timebr br cinematography film dark atmospheric story thats taking place within gotham city never looked good bluray hd chance see way means truly adds overall experience batman returnsbr br truly feel batman movies batman returns believe tops dark knight enjoyed movie heath ledgers amazing performance joker felt movie lacking something batman returns lacks nothing want see amazing film feel perfect cast batman light bat signal hope best prepare worstone day ago tried contact one girl social media really liked school fact already done blocked year ago main account talked courage alt account add friend access profile set private private messages set friends right even checked sent friend request late night really scared push add friend button entire day scary worrying outcome possibilities almost day long well really know work right want check added declined friend request straight blocked really scared check declined even blocked guess try commit redflag going enough reason stack top problems life really bad stuff p s sorry related anything posted wanted share side story guess well see goes hopeless scaredhi reddit im longtime lurker need help family friends connected avenues communication feel comfortable talking people physical world reddit kind last shot want help think first please note im actively suicidal means hand anything resembling concrete plan spent last two half weeks considering taking life things becoming solid day figuring want belongings disposed considering best way make sure im found anyone know thinking method etc im starting scare seems culmination last three months loneliness stress ive always depressive though clinical depression undiagnosed parents want kid mental illness convinced depression minimum said last months struggle even standards normally able pull episodes couple weeks good things happen figure fight back one different came college gotten progressively worse say akin sinking beginning fine swimming strongly cheerfully going meeting people focusing studying working hard started tired swallowed water couple times started tired one met wanted hang invitations things inevitably pity invitations point im barely keeping head water cant focus cant study barely socialize normal human anymore exceptional ive crawled come smiling two weeks ago nervous breakdown screaming crying hurting myselfthe works scared want hurt anyone drag anyone mess im quickly becoming go want take anyone deserve treated way treat im angry sad time one needs one needs person bring value lives im good writing thats literally skills talents im kind im smart im good enough around people im waste space one good friend started build social circle one new friends much furthermore friend disgusted see every time talk thinks im angry loud negative want part love love begun try distance deserves much better anything im stepping away tearing apart got friends miss know sound articulate thats feel constantly state simultaneously nearpanic neartotal apathy everything scares cant make care anymore know logically people care gone time know better without im drain everyones resources time deal ongoing issues go counselor im terrified theyll drop psych ward throw medications forget cant talk family panic cant talk friends know tell cant even contact regular internet friends force reveal people want know im fucking disintegrating know much longer hang want kill every day wonder bother living ive scratched safety pin last two weeks coping mechanism people miss gone sure theyd hell lot better fucking everything constantly im scared fucking alone please help jobs easy die inmy life horrible want live anymore dont wan na take life im scared dont know painless method love serve people make others feel good might well die serving thinking military police firefighter ive decided going kill scared tolife meant know going school hard life hard led mind slowly leaving im going kill reason scared thought week twice know will scared dying even death scares lies death heaven hell nothing black mind even comprehend death create faux scenario last forever one second know life shit fuck im done want die badlyi wish werent coward go ive lost family cat absolute everything grieve loss everyday health really dont want go feel hollow scared hurting people around committing redflag wish entirely alone go without negative effects others adults always feel need turn every light deliberately turned complain amount lights house yep thats dad wanted complain wan na diei want stop living people realize everyone isnt american right see posts halloween realize people come countries really celebrate halloween yall slow fown bit haloween posts even attempt show willing go edge pussy incapable killing seeks help weak logical really want show self hatred real joke something casual know guess surrounded mentally ill people attempted feel need join order feel validated besides wanted die years now passive suicidal thoughts intrusive thoughts extremely common day day life realize actual option finish jobits weird cognitive dissonance people seek help attempting strong never honestly crave hurting often started affect notredflag want destroy everything around seek therapy help commit suicide cant believe killed yeti years old depression months know depressed afraid tell psychologist father might freak one day father came room help clean noticed scratch marks arm freaking thats want tell psychologist thats turned anyone played henry stickmin games knows pain finished watching playthrough almost cried showed end text fill childhood shared name legend guys know free coop games play friends something require higher gear computers fun play forest minecraft everyone afford soap opera small town married woman kay francis works local newsstand performs leading lady local playhouse dreams becoming star broadway famous actor ham windbag womanizer boot arrives town visits room dreams giving tips stardom pretends valet manager tricking believing takes experience become big star husband finds punches guy resulting actors unexpected death leads murder trial even unexpected life prison sentence hubby next thing know joined traveling burlesque show hopes one day making broadway making enough money mans freedom baby sleeping trunkbr br film pretty interesting plot well bit farfetched perhaps melodramatic tons melodramatic music make sure greatly enhanced strong emotional performance given kay francis makes film helping welldone acting minna gombell role getting close forty older lady works burlesque befriends kay worth seeing especially kay francis fans waiting opportunitywhenever parents leave alone home im gon na hang im scared im gon na need help figuring tlsae coursepermit exam florida looked floridas official dmv website really want permit hate test person honestly social anxiety really want pay take test drug course either anybody help received permit im years old rehabs monthes taken permit exam actively abusing drugs long time done research requirements state need valid reasonably priced provider examcourse tlsae course online permit exam valid certification standards florida dmv main intentions getting license age years old appreciate help provided life movie sounds guys many actually practice nut november seriously ive always thought people make memes fit times wan na know many tradition something terrible happened ya im guessing somewhere world something bad happened probably im fine tho attempted redflag monday wish committed instead attemptedmonday aug th sought means end im typing madeunfortunately spent two nights icu happy released im really wishing shit worked planned top already fed things employment terminated even left hospital unbeknownst time added struggle negativity honestly longer wish want someone somewhere family sort friends phone week nobody notice needed ride something equally trivial dont feel choice selfish choice didnt ask born didnt ask longer wish participate feels rushing endi feel rushed anxiety killing going go working trip san francisco make money able work months still sick pain mostly unbearable feels hours non painkiller related time day things need done ive sick body aches approaching months doctor multiple times visit nothing thought beginning flu basic blood tests nothing keeps coming back killing feel awful top preexisting medical issues chronic pain feeling gall bladder attacks sometimes every day im honestly freaked moment think good idea go work trip need help ive tried schedule doctors appointment another doctor try see second opinion current doctor nice working total years sick months flu body aches stop tracks really second doctor called see prescription painkillers hes doctor town afford leave town medical appointments people unreliable flat cant afford gas spent left savings january vet bills put dog due stomach cancer feels snowball situation feels taken away cant go anything due fear death thought family members even father take care hell cant sleep anymore semi normal person even thing gives sense accomplishment lately playing world warcraft pain hate existence much driven crazy wish something clear path person help shit taken care people vicinity indifferent think need buck fuck nothing go day reaction medication sign weakness im tired im sorry mess im bathtub knife hands listening musicthats im sorry im horrible cant anymore time go byemy sob story im s born poverty still poverty sexuallyphysicallyemotionally abusive childhood abusers everybody immediate extended family barely scraped graduating high school flunked college lost financial aid first year ive never friends life recently thought talking feel take much people feel guilty dont deserve help im depressed time bot problem wont bother ive never relationship even date life im messed trauma severe ptsd think im probably either autistic im disconnected dissociated everybody isolated entire life never got chance learn humans work im fundamentally different everybody chronic illness causes physical pain constantly ranging moderately distracting best debilitating ive jobs cant hold anything cant anything right anybodys standards even simplest things tried therapy didnt work tried lot things feel ive never loved never loved never loved im nothing theres nothing redflaghello reddit thinking finally pushed self post year old male turn days now life best worst want talk want talk redflag views redflag playing game using cheat skip end completed soon forget entire thing entire time spent playing pointless constant suicidal thoughts plan enough emotional physical strength bring self life driven wrong direction good parts left behind future looks bleak best miserable depressed social anxiety constant anxiety attacks ripping emotional strength left depression social anxiety bad parts life make think redflag fact see point life see point living lost even live happy life end pointless one day everyone forgotten everything becomes pointless live fear one day soon tipping point go ahead plans thought post peoples views mind constantly taunting thoughts feel pointless life nothing help reddit used scared suicidal thoughts longer fear really consider tldr hard time getting life view life pointless thing suicidal thoughts longer scare honestly consider going edit views life want anyone read agree personal thing feel way please comment maybe help best life offeri got diagnosed bipolar depression made sense time pretty shitty life fortunately im canadian therapy meds free unfortunately thing therapy make aware fact redflag thing never stopped thinking meds didnt much stopped giving one knew fuck wrong didnt know anything either knew didnt want live thing kept going doctor always say dont leave situation making sure seen kill sure lived life fullest part might sound hopeful part life got lot less shitty time im now im sure ive seen best life offer family loves much enough money lots friends almost guy want try im healthy look life people around livingi realize lucky really cant better im still miserable even maybe care money care friends people want deal responsibility family loving one still knows fuck wrong still dont know anything still want live maybe lifes never meant people theres always error mutation least one models anything exist thought hook kill without regretsbut couldnt went bridge last week maybe stood hour went back home cant commit thing think stopping fear wrong im biased im young know good life dont actually want die wouldnt put years im herereddit wrong guys fast want death take menothing seems better long every day face insurmountable amount unhappiness exhausted pretending alright taking life always difficult know die family member help hiring stranger invites host potential issues impossible put words severely want life end hurts even knowing gall point idk feeling looking little help guess months draining cycle wanting disappear even disappear guess never existed feel alone honestly weird tried explain one person months ago exactly stitch together correct sentences make comprehensible feel everything paper flimsy fall fly away everything draining even idea sleeping much body handle weird thought depressed people loved sleep somehow sleeping makes things worse feel stuck bubble feel anything worse fog see things around feel apart totally separated everyone socially never one many friends recently deleted removed accounts friends said accounts blocked numbers besides two people honestly feel remorse even though known several years things bothering good describing thank whoever listens depression masterful adaptation one even existed need look find nearperfect presentation charlotte bronts masterpiecebr br rarely seen film urge read novel based admit although read jane eyre convinced missed little way dialogue plot intensity emotion wish explore novel due immense curiosity emotion masterpiece stirred within mebr br need divulge anything way plot let say perhaps unsure whether watch read beautiful story jane eyre implore doubt every atom might magic reared jane eyre popular classic english literature successfully captured filmbr br bront bring clarke dalton managed translate limelight stupendous intensity movies success doubt due small part acting prowessbr br love jane eyre hate appreciate richness vitality truth story love characters love actors love great cinema another friendly reminder remember gon na people life come go friends partners family name time come life always gain something hug small people make us try take granted learn something valuable remember videos initial impact never forgotten viewing thriller thats needed feel twelve years old great video perfect even though seemed time video first came nobody seen anything music video medium grown leaps bounds fresh viewing thriller reveal faults necessary deconstruct song michael jackson walking beside girl leave movie theatre sings verses song skipping choruses becomes zombie comes time sing zombie makeup inexplicably disappears sings chorus make previous absence may first time song deconstruct fit visuals music video certainly last time continued problem age mtv best videos jacksons billie jean beat used visuals serve music way around still thriller great fun absolute must halloween sad think ill never able draw anywhere near good people mean want draw weave pretty damn good story amirite ardent vijay fan never seen another movie good thisbr br regular clichs one expect commercial entertainer hero bad studies star forte iekabbadi friends fill comedy quota heroine lifeanddeath situation villain say best portrayed protagonist high octane chase action sequences music make one dance perfect storyline keep factors within enjoyable circle perfectbr br director give chance audience loosen goes one nail head next one see lighter side vijay film rarely executesbr br saidthis movie perfect many years come ap world history teacher redditor school went back today anyways got th period class ap world randomly starts talking ab reddit shes got nukacola bottlecap clock apparent shes huge nerd pretty fun school year least class want die want feel sadi cant fix choices hate life im going die soooo im lazy af hate online classes wasnt paying attention class turn sounds didnt expect teacher ask anything obvious reasons didnt hear friend text hey man asked something dont want say anything make look kind problem friend call didnt pick expect bad stuff happen text hey feel im gon na problem teacher millionth time want hide somewhere hope best finally figured crush anyone cares okay may sound strange longest time sure liked even someone yesterday made mind step complete step say hi step accept ill always single forget liked oh well nice dream maybe done nothingim sure smart constantly finding reasons kill reasons live im good anything anymore struggle explain feel im struggling maybe nothing wrong cant afford hour someone actually help figure every week dropped high school seemingly reason periods heavy fell asleep every class weird awkward friends one tapped asked wrong left started leaving lunch stayed home slept tried going back following year first week back ended admitted every medication made even sleepy seemingly wasnt anything wrong friendly truth time able talk someone telling shut maybe obligation psych unit worked feelings invalidated dont even feel im treated human hurt easily smallest things easier want end even inconvient others threaten anyways first time real im clueless genuinly clueless know nothing brain damn fog think beyond weeks im type person appears make progress falling forwards wanted text someone tell im struggling one dont want right now ive proven need supervised im alone waited let pass im still sleep deprived currently mean know need dont knowlege solve bleeding problem im tired time seek medical help bipolar never manic episode ride shit president america end day borderline align still information really help understand well best way describe feel currently hollowed im guess im incredibly uncomfortable mostly im lactose intolerant self sabotaged tried hours ago idk im minimizing everything job interview hour change life even getting self chance lot blind ive hate obigation im suposed family helped single dollar expect give money find nothing need shower wake little brain right im sorry rational need hope guysim yo first dont speak english good sorry depression started years ago slowly getting worse every year last gf treated shit lastly failed years school rn im first semester university feel im enough im really trying really trying feel im good enough good grades even pass semester found good psychologists take thoughts seriously want text close friends close friend first ex gf busy work basically cant speak one want possitive everytime feel worthless cant help think finish thought brave enough kill last time drunk tried od im scared actually kill know die friends probably think hope couldve tell us felt know nobody really cares posted hoping somebody position give advice hope lmao fun one groups online friends talk politics im ancap one nazi one commie one muslim theocrat one libertarian socialist one unironic nazbol one classical marxist actually hilarious rare occasions happens zany film rivals ghost mr chicken one knotts finest film performances knotts accountant podunk city hall good swindling citizens fire three competent bookkeepers keep dumb one knotts course dumb one garbage collecting cohort accidentally empties wrong trash knotts finds wrapped bizarre trap set city council funny moments movie include bowling alley restroom scene cemetery scene absolutely hilarious typical knotts nervous ninny act well used usual surrounded lots crazy character actors sixties actors frank welker pitt herbert add mayhem one may expect knottss armed big car pretty girl real clue hes fun anyone especially nostalgia buffs anyone love people raise put telling everything ok next day mean show nothing hate disrespect done done world liars im horny ive got girlfriend help luckily ive got hands want die badly dont courage jumpim year old im considering redflag light fucking issues ive stopped able cope born disadvantaged ive dragging way life born nvld adhd nvldor none verbal learning disorder basically causes issues everything fine motor skills spatial abilities understanding social relationships excelling rightbrained task limited career options made social relationships throughout life awkward superficial best suffice say stunted ability connect people endear career destroyer literally every career requires least fundamental understanding social relationships visualspatialbig picture related cognitive skills iq demonstrates best performance iq level someone borderline retarded verbal iq level someone gifted im basically walking parrot competent expressing verbally incompetent everything done irreperqble damage selfesteem effects haunted throughout life ive always felt loser incapable realizing ambitions succeeding anything beyond base goals adhd another added injury insult placed strain already devastating cognitive deficits come suffering nvld ive never able achieve single thing worth mentioning entire life nvld holds back hindered suceeding endeavours ambitious existential blight literally one greatest challenges life gradually pulvarized whatever selfperception selfrespect developed atopic asthma eczema allergies early young age impaired ability engage athletics later s came influence health severely decisive manner three years ago lapsed depression studying university degree history never wanted forced pressure family one fields good nvld giving good analytical ability verbal logical reasoning problems kept piling months introductionary classes barely sleep subsequently developed major depression result suicidal thoughts barely functional forced drop university recovered months bout already existing allergies amplified extreme making unable sleep due severe nasal congestion unable sleep weeks straight poor reaction nasal cortecosteroids matter still got poor sleep period full apprehension depression period blew simply fucked zombie slowly began recovering month later develop acid reflux sent another period depression anxiety added effect unable eat months recover slowly acid reflux never went away neither depression anxiety caused lose weight insomnia anxiety depression barely able cope ate ton without thinking sleep deprivation caused eat normally already overweightfrom isolation adhd causing poor satiety suffice say ive past years developed sleep apneawhich hereditary problem multiple chemical sensitivity former causing additional memory motor cognitive deficitssomething learned studied disease meticulouslyones irreversible adding additional issues already addled dysfunctional brain causing cognitively impaired premorbid state latter basically making unable function normative person rendering completely unemployable long term prognosis life quality health someone issues poor zilch mcs according current research basically untreatable avoidance exacerbating enviroments form treatment available besides sleep apnea causing become dysfunctional beginning irreversible brain damage ive researched possible solutions months way fix situation fail find nothing possible way treat brain damage osa possibly reverse cognitive dysfunction caused learning disorders via regenerative technologies still infancy seem distant mirages desert actual available treatments restorw previous level functioning mcs anotger issue struggle etiology completely unknown longterm prognosis poor treatments even recognized many worlds medical institutions people mcs end isolation life long issues short becoming paraplegic suffering severe brain injuries developing terminal cancer als ms probably worst life outcome person experience way around falling bottom less pit incarcerated cage bottom ocean almost nothing fix situation except try adapt vain find nothing nothing left im tired humiliated given shortend stick life people know least successful functional enough life born way never choose life conditions given ive stopped able cope fail finding ways rationalize make justifications continuing miserable existence longer keeps finding ways fuck head turn everything know choose stay whatever happens ill never find place contentness happiness life spend days bed trying numb complete apathy lethargy deliberating whether kill try accept things life ahead looks grim future prospects look bleak barely worth effort continue cant dont really want hack anymore im pretty much dead everyway counts idea im writing needed write depression proudim exhausted dont anymore girlfriend left last good thing life gone sick habit self sabotaging find sort happiness inability trust unfair mental stability prison feeling cant leave might kill understanding spent life feeling way everyday cant understand doesnt better family wrong whole life ive told family im smart always ahead peers school logical way thinking recently though finally realized case im smart im autistic well high school particularly smart think logically emotionally everyone know higher level classes im struggling times im really smart im stupid sure might quite bit smarter average person family thing theyre kind stupid younger believe said smart lived cousin epitome moron barely average people idiots im genius im idiot know sucks vision become lot worse quarantine think look screens much literally blurry even doctor doesnt know yet last time checked excellent vision sucks might glasses soon liked beautiful crisp vision mood shit right everything fucking complicated worst outcome imaginable feel want violently beat someone right now hate life passioni wan na die dont see strong enough life everything know people cant anymore dont want live dont want old dont want family kids dont want experience anything life im done hate living ive crying day now think wish find easy way wish virus take wish someone kidnap murder anything control cant anything im fucking depressed done im alone day everyday one dont care make new friends anything literally dont care damn thing anymore dont give fuck honest let one thing id give anything die obviously need find way life need figure easiest way dont want endure pain dont want enough money hard enough drugs od another thingi want find another place sleep tonight want go back home want walk one step want talk person want spend money wasted hours time want go process dying sitting bench next river right want fuse together nature tired want close eyes think anymore sad crying want bpd controls entire life feel nothing feel empty time angrysadanxious want turn think happiness realistic goal therapy took dbt courses take medication still feel way getting worse wanted happy wish die without making loved ones feel bad want stop told discord server made something minecraft decided toxic ill tell everyone rteenagers built first good villager trading hall minecraft im scared wont able itim sorry writing isnt good right now im scared posts sub always help kinds things ive plan long time now ive date mind later year ive got enough time fully prepare ive adequate time change mind sort miracle happened life worth living reason chose date thinking little sister im listlessly trying minimize impact death shittiest thing world celebrate th birthday year older sister died must birthday year less days date time book motel buy equipment im scared cant alive anymore cant bear even think continuing pull bed morning another day fucking horrible last dont even want try think continuing live past date alive living fucking horrible life fucking pain inside always know redflag selfish act nowadays really fucking makes sick listen people say things family people love honestly dont deserve peace continue pushing pain crying screaming happiness know didnt make sense know must understand ive tried medications therapy things never change thats ive learn things never change nothing left except pain nobody real life understands mean please someone please talk tell im strong enough going ignore fact snoo glitched reality came back bruh reddit cinematic universe crazy madhur chandni bar started making realistic films people called dry br br made satta another realistic though filmy film great filmbr br aan men work formula film floppedbr br returns superlative page br br film dwelves lives journalists brilliant filmbr br film well narrated though half baked romantic portions konkana avoided forgivenbr br entire upendra limaye track superb toobr br atul kulkarni track great toobr br dial manoj joshi friends funny first repetitive timesbr br subplot bikram tara brilliant entire hospital scene final child abuse shocks youbr br film open ended ending nicely handledbr br madhur great job music okaybr br konkana excels madhavi using expressions best tara sharma decent except voice sandhya mridul good usual upendra limaye excels part cop one talented actors sadly used well nowdays atul kulkarni good small part boman irani restrained great job rest okay want try psychs idk lol filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler im gon na walk favourite place swallow pillsi think today day done understatement cried first time years today ive finally enough currently waiting phone charge im gon na buy whiskey painkillers way favourite place walton gardens dont know whats going happen yet im sure dont anyone want talk feels fitting tend read sub lot think usually approach film festival comedies low expectation invariably quirky intended humor derived solely expense characters simplicity face complicated context exceptional big bad swim director able maintain integrity development characters film still finding laughoutloud humor scene scene sophistication maybe due part sharp work dp ive rarely seen indie film even rarely comedy special note paget brewsters turn amy math teacher seeing performance understand brewster discovered larger audience brings necessary mix anger likability role really helps picture reach potential terrific work deserving larger audience look forward director cast suicidal im beta malei hate term represents toxic masculinity best way phrase pussy form confrontation back think evan superbad want able normal person im guy party friends upstairs fucking girls im awkwardly stood kitchen watching people fun women repulsed natural born alphas betas fact determined genetics knowing existence never taste alpha makes life seem meaningless kill friends go things im pussy cant fucking nervous sweaty creepy pedo around girls cant even talk fucking crowd without sweating voice trembling face red tomato cant become alpha kill life worth living pussy mts attempt minecraft wan na know whats stupid making money family business except parents dont let spend money allow actual job either wanted say dont care day sorry couldnt care less jk anyone want exchange nudes currant desire ivory power untamed teal got fiery saffron used want white hair want holy shit tf u pink guy almost years old song used argument ender trump others actually give reasons explain people dumb im ft handsome creature yeah thats said handsome im girl fuck question teens horny af ones sub bithes omg treats respecc actually thinks actual human short film got gaspar noe movie map introducing us horrific thoroughly interesting character butcher played brilliantly phillipe nahon noes direction hallmarks later films showing carving voice style beginning sudden cutting along harsh loud noise skipping flashbacks many techniques used disconcert viewer certainly works afraid showing violence viewers irreversible know violence equally powerful sequel seul contre tous almost unbearablebr br film opens horse killed shot head watch writhe floor pool blood flowing see human birth bloody glory daughter butcher orphaned wwii grown hating world everyone everything serves customers interior monologue constantly reminds us thoughts wants dead daughter blandine lenoir reprise role six years later thing cares watch grow older together mute subject bullying toying butchers relationship almost incestuous bathing old enough etcbut explored next film attacked man butcher explodes rage stabbing innocent man mouth goes prison taken things wants shop daughter short minutes see time prison release back world daughters state autistic well think bland little except stare full control father film continues exceptionally bleak seul contre tous watch two films one first truly excellent acting difficult watch relentless tonebr br u call bee produces milk boobiees hahaaa watching waco rules engagement sitting disbelief witness big cover fbi massacre gunghotrigger happy government agents clearly remember waco standoff years old time watched cnn remembered reflecting children watched mount camel compound burn april remember feeling sorry children clearly felt fault evil leader david koresh davidians gazeckis film shows clearly beyond doubt even though biased fbi lied think film big contributor reopening new investigation incident outcome new investigation sense predictable judgement relied fact grey facts davidians presented disappointed verdict far know take account lying misinformation evidence coverup fbi officials one prosecuted hampering work texas rangers investigators allowed contaminate crime scene bulldoze compound shortly incident questions given answers government importantly children new investigation informed responsible spraying cs flammable teargas compound many hazards igniting gas found answer whether childrens muscles contracted due effects gas alive surely think janet reno charge raid indicted masshomicide manslaughter question raised gazecki mentioned direct plan people charge tanks cut holes burn building intent plan accomplished efficacy officials charge incompetent unaware consequence actions equally frightening even davidians set fire compound officials charge surely provided opportunity job officials charge knew claimed davidians set fire compound f tanks cut holes building making furnace plans deal fire knew occur dark questions still go away final relevant issue film way davidians demonized government media feeds public clearly remember resentment felt evil davidians saw cnn im older see clear line communication coming government every time gearing massacre civilians along intended targets demonizing people words different unlawful values us enjoy freedom threat freedoms way life makes much easier kill literally grow bruh whats stopping names bond intermolecular bond wish cared mommom killed cry cry knowing pain cry knowing id never paint portrait mom knew going kill stop even knowing easy lock closet straitjacket physically unable harm actually put time heal mind even knowing long take even knowing fucked even knowing feel pain understand help think anyone world understand sometimes im depressed im holding knife wish call mother comforted wish mother wish mother cared child wish live wish cared whether lived died brag anything im straight show last ten years deserves rare gem allows us escape back time things simpler fun filled heart laughs show keeps laughing three decades difference furniture ugly clothes colorful even drugs tolerable hair feathered music accompanied rollerskates words merle haggard joint bad place take trip back greatest time american history fall love characters feel good essence small town people nicer classic television much full house miss always remember shake groove thing goodbyei dont even know anymore blah blah cant talk anyone ive done horrible things deserve worse death honest everyone probably throw party die thanks reading guess last stitch effort talk someone whats point dying sounds fun anyway want put story therehi ive never done im sorry mess past filled abuse childhood sucked every time take shower lost thoughts past abandoned abused poor every moment must filled music distraction recede mind problems cant sleep dreams always nightmares killed different fashions ive worked hard ive worked large companies finally made management making good money fired ive worked hard fired last year spent life saving start buisness failing spent last penny start new llc good friend mine said needed consultant got everything done decided didnt ive fighting whole life little little dont want fight anymore whats point living nothing rest life im intellectual struggles emotions hurts relationship relationship bland anyway arguments sex aggravation dont want fight anymore dont want struggle feel maximum potential slowly slipping away ive achieved im ready take seat final swing set ya know id call help line power call police end right makes angry wish someone listen judge thank reading thank replying anyone give legitimate copes stuff go take walk nature dcan someone give ways cope preferably drink drugs cause hard itd fucking immerse feelings finally fall asleep takes way god damned long advice coping bs spend time family take walk nature d give something anything appreciated day recommending songs rteenagers httpsyoutubevsdrudyzg day far anyone discord servers join may may tryna finess mod one ones inactive though whack trust test httpsyoutubebcjwpkhhgws see top rolli swear life isnt trust want fucking die im oldi miss youngest person job im surrounded bunch year olds frustrating turned feel missed youth im allowed enjoy anymore im approaching middle age im fucking mortified hate fact born early s dial internet flip phones vcrs thing hell social media didnt even fucking exist born feel prehistoric saying love someone put bullet head cant take old much longer girlfriend told might lesbian good one bois f chat feel shit ngl honest opinion song song httpsopenspotifycomtracklusdtcgsrhhpiaeiwlsigetfdqfqmbckxgilcggw family keeps pissing household speak english spanish siblings speak english amongst speak spanish mom everytime discussion speak english regardless im talking easier prove point speak english better spanish everyone family constantly makes fun even tell stop say something someone saying word wrong yelled constantly happening pisses know nobody gon na see feels nice rant somewhere option left think reason continue living wish someone knew way redflagi live central europe im finishing masters psychology useless experience takes years complete wanted counselorschool psychologist working diagnostics obviously never going happen job experience never job parents care enough teach anything never pushed contributed depression got bachelor program focused studies always depressed energy anything commuted long hours every day job week last three summer breaks tried internships even retail job always denied became seriously depressed want visit psychiatrist degree useless cart soon graduate hopefully never job useless degree experience friends contacts uni help options us ways volunteering theres think option redflag hired even hours shift factory job risk work history logical way end ones life pathetic incompetent inexperienced person know irl starting believe need prepare end chance failed fronts must face end accept homeless want wanted vent honeslty know write guess possible plan life end anyone care give life nothing uphill climb drugs keep happy nose bleed middle class cause nothing gone right everythings massive failure cant look anymore ill work shit job school buy drugs kills give moderate severe depression unveiled sad entire time hope recommended light therapy dragging spiral bit glad better understanding inflicting ordering light said happy reduce wonder work anyone besides psychologist made acronym sad knew epic jokester want still energy insufferable believe people managed put long embarrassed everything already know parents care whether live die tried guilt trip manipulate last attemptdo love care insert person thinki fucking love care family members seen years think probably care killing might damage reputation want die boundless raw energy uncompromising vision talk radio brilliantly explores publics fondness reducing strangers private problems entertainment via radiobr br eric bogosian sensational barry champlaine rude inyourface talk radio host hes natural kind role fine tunes one impressive interesting radio personalities ive seen screen timing delivery insults various callers strokes geniusbr br alec baldwin shines barrys boss demonstrates explosive cynicism later display s glengarry glen ross supporting role truly stands stoned seemingly braindead teen played michael wincott see believe itbr br oliver stone robert richardson great job photography almost entirely confined single broadcasting room claustrophobic feel movie perfectly mirrors tone one major points film exploiting peoples private moments draw audience stone demonstrates moments often private whole world experiencebr br talk radio film strong emotional cerebral impact likes seldom seen today idk ask question us guys take better spicy pics know weird u better sub put pls lmk anyway feel guys lot slander taking horrible dick pics wondering girls gays tips us guys take better noods spicy pics general im afraid cousin well im fifth seven cousins fathers side family work beneficial im transgender mixed race six straight white cisgender cousins five males one female ive sworn never talking well biggest fear second oldest cousin short description almost two metres tall blonde hair probably early balding blue eyes beginning dad body age well started birth pretty normal acted decent human started going puberty everything changed started bullying really started crazy reached age ten started act normal even decent started back downwards parents divorced mother really fears calls mean names wakes midnight going gladly got protect younger brother girlfriend lot girlfriends current one best handle disrespectful behaviour eventhough sometimes sexist towards actually hope teaches lessons one much main reasons never go birthday parties first time saw came trans started acting straight creepy controlling always towards got kinda mad fact man life time wanted know everything even read conversations sleeping hiking started talking things go horny jail mentioning last time saw girlfriend younger brother grandpas house lot stupid things still kinda mad facts shared brothers baby photos girlfriend yall ideas situation move less half year start transitioning hiiii hiii want open upi thinki think want tell friends im suicidal addicted self harm im point friendships think open im sick hiding long sleeved shirts jumpers want wear cuts pride thats fucking thats know want everyone next time post itll tell ive told really hope im going able post anyone wan na smash mean play smash bros even decide start low self esteem personality know never feel worth enough feel burden everyone encounter feel people avoid hang pity mei fell friends pushover set proper boundaries let walk point hurt lose ability deal burn bridges around toxic energy againmy job sucks broke underpaid make plans future covered debt see way unless find better job upgradelearn new skills know toi met amazing guy seems really good job nice flat well put together felt chemistry attraction years terrified knowing age nowhere near life terrified thought starting seriously date know lot give feel burden embarrassment hate even take care take care partnerif needeveryone life much easier exist hate wish dead deep space floating suffocatingall around darkness see emptiness spacewheres everyone reaching hand emptiness coldi cry loudest cry someone hold isis emptiness heart calling medo leave alone floating fearhelp hold nobodys near maybe loneliness ends shut eyesand everyone crowds fall groundbut land earth belowbut six feet feel belong hear wish thereto hold keep strongbut know awarewhen fought battles life longso please call save darkand grant wish keep mind stilldont let drown black space bleakand give light strength space friend seizure right front react never know react never even seen anything began feeling depressed trouble falling asleep usually takes hours staying bed motionless fall asleepdo experience thing fall asleep normal last decent british comedy centred around mockney bank robbers spun tv series john ivays film psychoactive tale discovery dressed biker gear three protagonists gentle fools penchant failure turning point lives giving sensitive emotional trio subplots sew riotous comedy together chemistry three amigos palpable makes touching companionship hilarious dialogue classic comedic moments feels part withnail part american werewolf london part quadraphenia bike gangs phil daniels fact phil daniels lovable rogue reminds danny dealer withnail scholarly approach scientific commitment drugs great film particularly whove dabbled psychoactive substances past relate many moments film personal favourite brilliant scene welsh corner shop buying munchies tripping shrooms gentle comedy warm cockles heart laughing loud ride bikes even enjoy itll add brilliant snorted pencil grafitelead school joke explanation sitting arts craft class talking friends regular teen shit sharpening pencil got brilliant idea try snort powder came pencil tried pretty little amount still feel pretty bad rn actually feel sick wondering fuck gon na kind lead poisoning shit pls help love show watch reruns every day even though seen time eachbr br two sisters holly amanda bynes val jennie garth live new york holly goes live val dad transferred japan val perfect life boyfriend perfect apartment upper east sidebr br show basically shows problems vall holly go main problem guys responsible life choicesbr br holly total free spirit val complete opposite organized plan anything kind personbr br characters henry vince gary lauren tina crush fucking blocked beginning school year online began chatting cute girl online class lot common took lot courage email first became friends made friends another guy exchanged discords around day talking anime stuff started asking sex position liked best blocked later day crush asked online friends mentioned turning predator seemed weird respond days woke see blocked panic attack threw toilet cut arms sharp pencil back s grim study joy young proletarian wife introduction career ken loach became one distinguished respected british filmmakers time knew little brecht politics reality underprivileged quite impressed aesthetic film free style austere color cinematography joys monologues front camera much surprised find terence stamp become celebrity thanks billy budd collector modesty blaise little screen time although th century fox distributed poor cow panama loach stay mainstream cinema film hardly lost contact films heard successes kes family life black jack caught s beautiful title song donovan way available anthology troubadour nights always badworthless trash checking happened yesterday first post yesterday science class one kid sitting next classes lowest scorer sitting next see sneeze mask proceeds wipe snotty mask hand class finishes passes tries sneakily wipe hand shove away tell keep hands walks away ps end school day took bottle window cleaner thinking desinfectant uses tell shes flirting jokeplatonically seriously ive talking one girl little bit treats friend flirt lot even though lot memes still flirting dont know whether push id wanted call snoop dogg u guess hashashin 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fucking hate mysself answer lol lmao someone says lol lmao thats telling change subject thank coming ted talk keep getting removed uh interesting title uh pp life going nowhere im stuck dead end fast food job im barely surviving boss lower wage asked raise cant leave town every time try drivers license fail test miserably friend mentally retrded worst part live pineapple sea movie really well made one great looking passionately directed tell every shot thought executed perfection lovers cinema especially great watch especially able appreciate beauty passion cinema put itbr br hard place movie one label really drama really thriller really comedy instead movie style things way necessarily follow rules cinema features many different elements many different genres combinedbr br movie main character movie gets sort slow boring parts artistic style directing tries conceal story actually quite simple one movie relied solely style overall atmosphere created movie make movie horrible anything 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reddit im anonymous im planning deleting account eventually ive tought killing years old thing never abused feel severe mental illness difficult dynamic parents personality problems terribly antisocial depressed often nothing people go fact believe probably blessed life given always thought killing ive made plans different stages life tought want go much detail feelings think need anyone give advice want know anyone tought killing apparent reason im sorry post long movie several things going feel good story characters actors likable realistic present fine performances important believe dennis quaid knows grip throw baseball robert redford looked good throwing swinging bat natural kevin costner love game bull durham major league tom berenger charlie sheen looked knew many others picture pure silliness funny br br many earlier baseball movies even stories might interesting presented lack baseball ability part leads ludicrous respect stratton story strategic air command jimmy stewart looked believable professional baseball player overweight nonathletic elderly uncle softball game family reunion virile physically robust stars eg gary cooper lou gehrig robald reagan grover cleveland alexander dan dailey dizzy dean exhibited degree baseball ability put late rounds choosingup game sunday picnic even coed even uncle involved br br scenes quaids high school team coached ones attends tryout devil rays playing two minor leagues american league ring true participants believable capable addition engaging actor always delivers talented appropriate characterization except degree overthetop scenes forced accent portrayal jerry lee lewis hes definitely ontarget movie good better others genre except natural worst rteenagers twitter account literally goes top posts weekend screenshots dont even bad screenshot em followed standards les gooooooo zero day film people gotten see shame isbr br saw end two main characters descend upon room mercilessly kill people commit suicide made grab stomach shaking thats strong movie isbr br movie amazing incredible perfect ten sad people understand true beauty film budget makes film good amount feeling makers put makes goodbr br leaves permanent impression mind simply makes realise true horror shootings especially know person movie makes feel know peoplebr br recommend zero hour feel mature enough watch fourteen feel film amazing put words feels watching something actually happened wish successfull redflag years agowhere even begin originally made account tell someone thoughts without actually see see post history help bit found expressing sketchesmemes kind posts help recap previous posts tried attempting redflag ish years ago due abusivehorrible mother father absent due divorce sadly unsuccessful moved away took control life made friends hobbies worked grades decent guess past years episodes every day hallucinations voices break downs mood swings self harm frequently verge redflag absolutely reason atleast years ago knew wanted kill know nothing honestly getting lately recently wrote redflag letter started researching effective methods im becoming unstable every day one day going happen hope soon tbh mean lose friends obviously hate logically speaking true thats constantly feel nobody close except best friend honest started distancing maybe thats way make less painless isolate let forget uh know point nightmare hurts living without reason want someone come give hug say ok nobody cause one knows serious situation nobody knows fact right im roof edge specifically ready jump electric pole meters want help nobody seems able help even psychiatrist know anymore oh god kid kind messed uh family kinda going bonkers rn yelling cryin usual ya know im downstairs hear mom full breakdown upstairs kinda telling year old grow cause incredibly tired brother trying talk sense think moment everyone household victim complex fuck wrong stop feeling empathy point thats nice thought feel narrator thats best description give fr im takin whats happening calmed enough go upstairs need homework actual fuck though mean grades due today see big issue oh god feel kinda fucked literally narrator empathy uh end rant ig dunno say lol ranting reddit reddit film industry forgotten make family entertainment meaning something enjoyable people ages particular wallace gromit enjoyed everyone toddlers colors cute bunnies grandparents understand adult references br br film direction good ive seen mean literally packed tiny bits humor scene many humorous details background im going buy order read signs handbills w gs world br br plan see movie least twice theaters buy dvd see im finally peace idea ending lifehi know want somewhere vent theres stuff mind know talk people life theres multiple times life ive wanted ive antidepressants briefly dad affair ive history selfharming reckless spending turning alcohol escape getting better selfharmed mid late met someone turned perspective life around taste everything clicked instantly never fought fit together puzzle pieces went easily see us spending rest lives together talking moving saving money future holidays everythings great reckless spending debts became issue never realised actual cost paid month never thought organised iva begin start feb debt bit vaguely sorted atleast theres end site now broke nowhere start feb personal stuff debt issue cant see point go im plodding days feel empty feel hollow ive lost half ive never felt heartbreak still live parents said debt credit rating fucked years iva complicates plans moving id rely everything someone elses name know hpw feasible loathe idea stuck home till im nearly thats sob story selfinflicted problems though know want anymore honest im tired life im tired disappointment everyone care seem drag things usually id feel form nervousness cant go actually killing time feel completely peace idea first thing hold bottle oxycodone know enough alcohol sleeping tablets bottle oxynorm probably end im giving weeks one favourite bands playing uk soon seems nice final thing gig plan sticking around long thanks anyone thats read ramblings im completely unloved worthlessnobody loves care died matter people around even cat hates tried hold bit nipple bleeding even care want jump bridge sleep forever wrote letters im gonethe day wrote five letters people mattered five write one three children wife final redflag note read something happened world got little brighter ugly situation im involved found partial solution god close teetering edge sanity ive got lot live didnt change fact wanted die part still wants kill im working hard shoveling positivity onto part trying bury part deep far away life better eventually even think cant prove statement right simply living one day time thanks one year ive couple months months great thank anyone oceania dm discord american european friends discord asleep busy snowed first time years nothing really special found pretty cool live hot city told roads icing going snow id laugh face thought cool share hard sadi wish save look horsepower audi rs regret right now phone computer samsung smart fridge make time today take time read book play video games cook music whatever helps calm relax record day end day either meh good bad rating look back good days see long activity good thing resulted bad day worry still good things bad days happen im absolutely terrified kill myselfi dont want die dont want live depressing lonely life used kind joke killing way cope everything honestly never really considered iv always said kill hit never girlfriend l things gotten worse right next days time decide go first time looked methods imagined shit terrified literally started tearing shaking whats options live always horrible life filled people telling oh dont worry itll better keep trying attempt hang going described horrible experience risk surviving come kind crap fellow teens year old male weighs pounds ways lose bunch weight lbs months less title fellow bros need help filler filler filler filler filler filler need end soonim tired everything everyone leaves matter hard try good friend girlfriend whatever never enough feels matter im anymore friend probably sick hearing crying shell probably leaving soon every day vivid image blowing brains pops mind night urge pills feel reaching constantly stop know stop job high school diploma drivers license im fucking im trying fucking hard things pandemic made nearly impossible things happen feel fucking useless worthless love life left someone friends abandoned im starting push away family well nobody stand around anymore used happy fun around even want leave bed want die want pain heart end want stop god need stop keep goingif keep cutting harm deeper deeper every time someday ill actually strength stab death looked gory shit half hour idk feel rnoriginally gon na look videos people attempting redflag actually succeeding cause ive seen blurred ones watching redflag rescue videos tear cause mainly dont know person feeling idk many truly believe theres nothing done people seeing people talked rescued puts tears cause know personally never want talked dragged edge kicking screaming putting shoes people videos makes sad granted want cry good solution theres obviously ofcourse everyones shituation permanent unsolvable cant happy someone jumps edge personal feelings fucked watching videos people actually dying brings sense satisfaction way feel possible sense escaped im proud jealous even watching brutal explicit graphic videos seeing images originally wanted see destructive shotgun keep mind images enough scar even adults life seeing give sense assurance odd safety yea definition suicidal madness different everyone even meaning changed couple times believe downslide worse evil heros think first responders comes redflag personally idea someone taking away escape wholesome way makes wan na cry different emotions theres times feel way possible try kill banging head wall floor innocent virgin christian eyes numbers scary think type person permanently committed idea living thought illegal thought process scary thought people knew felt feels illegal know feel living fantasy world try absolute best taken alive good evening twit mean reddit ya boy minutes ago beat fuck dick god damn hard left leg gone completely numb dick went numb point feels weird try take piss yes posted remember nnn starts tomorrow started places already made new female friend im guy im lonely lol hit reddit messages ill send u discord im wan na chat looking friend anyone elses parents ruin halloween plans loving life right sucks anyways literally havent hung anyone months last time remember january may hung someone february march honestly cant remember literally dont see anyone friends think happy wanting go friend finally wont let go halloween wanted something fun year fun shit fucking whatever guess right seriously engaging intelligent thought provoking drama best mean gripping moody captivating every home copy take word see one life stand makes consider lifestyle treat family friends beautiful photography impressive acting makes one best cinemagraphic experiences year john kieltys debut delight adds real touch truth realism deep gritty film film cares honesty unequalled recent years car chases film packed hum emotion first saw film screened edinburgh film festival delighted able copy dvd confessed crush went good little bit good close friends platonic relation thing coz im asexual knows im ace thats mutually decided today birthdaynow ive passed last good birthdays theres nothing look forward years pass ended drinking tonight friends town im living toxic household hate mind consumed ocd thoughts lack interest anything know day year god want birthday happy day suicidal thoughtshow stop ive struggled years years every time life stress come back medication seems stop depression anxiety please help one best movies come hk long time eagerly waiting hands movie looking title loads fantastic actors show particularly impressed sam lees impossibly believable insane behavior edisons portrayal killer machine totally reversed normal idol image definitely recommend looking stylish action packed movie must warn equally depressing movie every character movie kind dead end trouble struggling breathe makes think life really going jump bridge tomorrow morningi tired join us navy last year failed got sent home basic training family hates torments everyday call disgrace say year old living home parents cant job anywhere cant even interview mcdonalds walmart people call lazy job trying one friends hang stuff life consists sitting computer day playing games talking people online desperate attempt form human interaction car drivers licence going community college studying computer science looking least three years associates longer anyone want transfer university know fact money even stupid horrible math means take extra math courses talking longer everyone degree girl love loves someone texts shes hard time wants fix going tomorrow walk around city try find high enough point building bridge jump land grass water want land cement rocks posted months ago lot replys post go buried ended talking everyday torture wanted leave record even though one knows one wants helpas much show signs suicidal thoughts speak clearly one cares feel one take seriously thoughts try random facts day decided make daily series anyway yesterdays koalas use smell tell friends enemies apart teeth bone clean things first aid competitions church forbid coffee devils beverage pope tried liked said shame good drink wasnt appreciated everyone biggest crab japanese spider crab smallest crab pea crab smaller adults pinkie nail apparently bananas actually weed turn earth black hole squish size peanut removed empty space every single humans atoms billion us fit area smaller apple gravity neutron star powerful landing one atomize spread microscopic pieces whole surface area 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much mind went dark place tried cutting overdosing hanging working plz help seem worth tryeveryone says find someone talk suicidal one make friends want bother people realize im sadawkward time people want first friend ugh im never going fucking life tried posting similar post last week technical difficulties goes think im going chronologically high school become close someone become known one best friends lets call jessie want pursue friendship jessie strong independent woman mature beyond years sassy latina attitude sense humor whats pointis point born purely life bad good die wont remember anyway waste time seems ending save pain forgetting already know earlier rather later cantwhy want friend want someone care want worthy hurt bad hihi name elle really yes ive clinically depressed years im yk im fucking lonely im really fucking close losing shiit laugh lol im laughing today particularly sad one regardless im angry im frustrated im alone wish neurotypical wish brain worked way depressed people wish cared wish cared school health anything really wish cared contemplate redflag daily basisi contemplate redflag daily basis addicted pot intoxicants everyday lift worse worse cant find fucking real carear enjoy cat find job give kid opportunities asshole abusive father gave contemplate redflag everyday regret fact lack balls thoughtsi proud one day want life sort purpose longer ashamed want reach point im dying live instead living die kill myselfim getting close snapping anyone life im distant entire family feels everyone prefer dead family hates everyone loneliness utterly painful nobody talk anything online anonymously post much reddit makes feel pathetic ive lived many years life full im starting come high horse im coming hard nothing interests seems things cause thats got ta really want work rest life thought sucks much im afraid everyone social anxiety debilitating hate room feels everyone glaring judging think everything general anxiety gets intense fight away distractions keeps working anything im maladaptive daydreamer ive spent years laying bed dreaming exaggeration done many things ive daydreamed instead pathetic never build another connection human never feel close another human theyre distant bring everyone im outside world looking im fucking lonely guys lonely horrible school starting eighth grade sat room never work never even got job volunteer service hung friends good years now friends nobody earth goddammit alone submitted mediocre college apps im loser pos ill probably end working dead end job hate everyone whole family fuck hate thought much want work horrible miserable job rest life want go community college want fucking city want run away start completely want completely totally different human want anymore addicted video games many years lost many experiences guns house think might kill weekend cant find guns im going go buy strongest sleeping pills sturdiest rope ill way im done im fucking poison earth im fucking done im gon na stop now cant read screen tears im starting shake problems infantile stupid im whiny needy entitled bitch even bother posting stuff never helps nobody cares nobody cares yeah im leaving soon im home alone tomorrow next day goodbye everyone sorry ill write note tonight reasonssevere social anxiety depression social isolation deep self hatred hate everything appearance brain zero friends mom love nostalgia heroin amp benzo addict hoarder bed traumas police raid scared much cant sleep debt appear court go jail cant even leave house overdosing soon many things going im scared love u make effort text someone one day u dont say anything complete silence u finally say something dont even leave u read bruh say something wrong offend u boring annoying stupid worth ur time u hate ignoring even worse u text class u see snap dont respond u ppl asking homework answers hurts whats wrong point im worth giving dumb answers class wont even pass boring u feel need go way reply even tho ik u see texted u many questions rteenagers banned alt days dear mods think make stop antisemitic say nice cock never nice balls goodbyedont bother responding case anyone cares enough find happened killing within hour sighi need talk im gay teenager america going divulge age personal reasons want live anymore small group friends really close cant tell im feeling inside put mask every day pretend okay parents love family loves cant help feel really really lonely talk anyone know real life want talk im overweight im attractive cant help think im going alone rest life thats much bear selfish know anymore feeling suicidali hate go details made reddit account anonymous one contacts family friends ive really considering taking life ive attempted suicidal tendencies went institution one attempts people often wonder even consider im year old girl college parents love boyfriend think loves years though feel ive become nuisance ive multiple relationships either mentally physically sexually abused ad even sexually taken advantage year old current relationship lacks communication even though weve together years seems cares sex despite knowing past parents constantly make feel im going amount anything considering havent met goals set child use severely overweight spent years losing lbs ive sinking hole im slowly gaining back feel disgusting ive hit rock bottom mind pills hidden baggy bathroom guess im waiting right time dont know im anymore ive lost way severely cant help think everything fault deserve anyone wan na try pushup challenge put simply im looking someone push ups day want us remind encourage every time try last days im trying find someone whos interested getting stronger feel anime pr show based song called tight rope girls golden hearts whose goal break hearts boys got heart broken golden hearted girls goal break everything exaggerated alot destroying whole buildings dont know protagonist lmk feel want give ideas protagonist first second third place kahoot science kahoot shits giggles used phone two laptops playing got gold silver bronze crazy part class accused cheating even though multiple accounts actually caveat made harder still crushed pathetic asses need help please help hypothetically lets say burnt apartment complex hypothetically everyone inside died neighbor called fire car license plates full tank gas back point living hate lifeim young hate school uni father growing immigrated another country friends family currently country gf idiot give shit family thinks im good muslim boy im semi alcoholic atheist mother finds totally destroyed living double life quite shitty minmum wage job ambitions theyre unattainable now feel bad time workout yoga seen improvment body still absolutely hate hate everything hate easy ways commit redflag hate ugly hate dedicated summer improve still failed miserably hate everything hate want friend hate cant hate stopped talking friends througout years miss old self confidnet little high schooler thought life high 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make meal whatever comes first tempting go find way catch covid isolate die decided im thinking eating drinking anything least one people comes back someone affiliated lets know well kill never come back tired resits upcoming week fail one two failed year happens last time fail life fail resits something end week something fail last thing possible last week message ulefish ugly stupid go die painfully getting better tonightamy confirmed supreme court shes prolife anti lgbtq please dont argue post please dont argue jn post dont care disagree shes many women lgbtq members rights shes might try overturn roe v wade want die dont argue fucking post im going delete unnecessary fucking comment point post improving feel aneurysm dying leaving world much karma need post alt still let post check text wanted post gramatical mistakes thanks lt im sorry mum please blame fault loved much tried give best life enough decision decided wan na live anymore heavily bullied one responsible maybe proud maybe ill praised things ive done maybe take granted wanted die wanted end suffering mind hell blame noticing completely fault please im better now sure whether pills alcohol noose around neck im better please excuse cuts forearms wrists palms elbows please help part rom elbow palm called thanks theyre fault either im sorry probably politician wanted im sorry im best school kids always better find im probably somewhere better fault im sorry im trying besti tried asking friends wanted hang busy families tried offering go somewhere ive weekend spend time family several times tried keeping mind busy trying create online business dad starts putting words mouth saying idea silly unenroll extra stuff signed school im math two years grade level yet dad still nerve compare people saying went wrong hate much im sorry im perfect im sorry im sorry grandma lazy selfish person im sorry wish better im sorry mom try spending time everyone always wants phones ipads watching tv whatever case miss miss family miss spending time family whenever try always end getting hurt someone blames attitude talking much want better im sorry lets yeet adios dudes im going break mentally physically minutes honestwhen stop finding new things hang onto disappearhell lot times even destroys everytime find way cope something gets way physically cant continue using coping methods one day ill run ways cope thats day ill die actually die day run ways cope ill die years day ill grasping onto hope somethingll change even try change theres use years ill living complete agony end wishing killed much younger hope year maybe next knows ill finally learn mistakes build courage kill ill build even courage make redflag attempt actually die know thats gon na happen thats thing sorrows saddens know ill find little things hold end dissappearing causing feel immense grief times fuels die know ill hessistant itll attempt truth mentally im still optimistic thingll better im clinically depressed still find moderate enjoyment stuff truth ill die much older age probably anything life constent suicidal thought cant happy born born speech impediment caused develop social skills bad way still speak people yeah really fucked speech impediment really bad inconsistent far gotten worse im getting older friendships fake girl crash cant anything destroys fuck everything ill happiest die much wanted write fuck fuck miss new gang bye im even yet im thinking redflagbefore telling im edgylisten storyi group friendsi parted ways year bcs bullying somethimes made overthink crazy losing thembut thats problemthe problem came classmatemy best friend sayand stopped talking group friends began talking lot himwe talked rarely pointbut still best friendsand first thought wouldnt crap thatbut weeks started talking im overthinking everything point nothing makes feel satisfied alive anymoreim basically cramped corner everyone knowand im afraid someday wont friends left parents think im complete failureplease give adviceim feeling hopeless managed eat motherfuckin broccoli said caillou gone school apparently caillou show got canceled said caillou gone shit kid class said canon cant touch ghosts ghosts touch finished binging hero academia say unhealthy obsessionlove uraraka thank time whats pointof anything first therapy appointment tomorrowim really anxious im perfectly normal mean amazing time depressing due shitty feel way think normal sucks least ill clarification maybe fix took half bottle melatonin thought kill mei took half bottle melatonin want end life melatonin kill gives crappy symptoms ready fuck life brooke care believe long enforce others absolutely problem religious people vegans opinionated people etc problem people look upon people opinionsideology example home city major vegan protest blocked main entrance city order raise awareness lifestyle look care vegan force one dear southerners hate california california reason guys arent living rd world country california pays federal taxes take fed southerners opposite support federal budget guys leech away california left usa better place now rich nation social programs europe silicon valley help help guys cant talk shit state pay everything guys use benefit us states make nation worse struggle keep afloat sad really thankful hateful need us dont need im pissed mom moved brother room totally makes sense brothers room sister privacy life suddenly lose going college makes absolutely sense two oldest room two youngest another wouldnt make sense put year old room rather year old dont know dont fucking annoying always planned moving dont want deal bullshit years used able light room able make sound even play guitar night cant shit use flashlight go bed super quiet mention everyone barges room time free one knocks know unlock door really quickly hate lack privacy really getting unfortunately smart thing financially stay home deal save money god really affecting mental health cant dorm college min away worth semester interesting exploration tourettes react people lives wellfilmed views bleak northern winter landscape theres nothing pretty film stays viewer go onim sure gender really anymore really makes much difference started transition years ago feel really unsupported control finances taken away monday eaten hospital sandwiches believe eat er times week idk feel pretty meh carrying life now tried twice week failed times feel idiot want hug right now wish close someone ive working couple months think enjoy hey quarantine started really bored started thinking whats something useful fun thinking decided making podcast well rather podcasts targeted towards teens young adults think everyone one boys community driven podcast talk mens issues ive always felt many outlets men talk issues tend result many guys keeping emotions inside letting inappropriate ways hope tackle issues want talk issues deal life talk hopefully come solution everyone listening hopefully everyone coming talking day day issues people see alone issues provide safe space work entertainment bites podcast gives everything pop culture related plate try big pop culture news week deliver fast paced platform im hoping make easier everyone know whats happening entertainment world weather video games movies tv music anything pop culture try deliver quickly waste hours week looking facts rumors either interest forever grateful took listen click herehttpslinkklecomaidan listen either podcast follow socials advice even listen means much forget amazing lt winning fight pornography battled fight pornography made want happier addicted cant cant continueit hurts hurts end relationship straw broke back ive abused raped thrown away im unlovable im tired tired alone tired strong tired tired constant struggle im tired always weathering storm tired world shit people assholes want use throw away im tired piece meat used spat im sorry cant anymore hopefully long now hi favio years old boy suffers depression redflagi close friends interested know humans social beings sometimes need talk another person study virtually really hate quarantine exercise home course tried commit suicide tried hang complete painful always feel empty existing idk necessary wasting oxygen lmaoi decided join reddit meet new people passed something similar forgive mistake basic english d introducing another update received two messages random women yesterday turns boyfriendabuser cheating surprising point one went us food home son paid womans familys meal got number asking drinks every couple days sent screen shots conversations said ring gave simply gift woman carrying child rocky relationship see us anything coparenting said work well crazy hey im irish wan na friends irish people pretty cool omurice looks good wan na split omelette open rest life literally way unfolds whew dont even omelettes july june hi im new buttoday day ive battling depression literally life past month may honestly worse mothers day hit hard coupled year anniversary moms passing may girlfriend ended breaking icing cake everybody always leaves need theres attempts past weeks alone last one ended admitted days time called ex told sorry everything response please stop contacting talk slap face stab back two days got discharged one worse anxiety attacks ive ended breaking telling aunt nightmares ive god brother cousin trying touch little ive never told one family never even got chance tell mom passed away heart broken guys seeing mom pass away front friend getting murdered girl love turning need everything falling apart around cant handle anymore know sounds silly hurts id better dead alive everyone happier without know true cant anymore free movie websites hello everybody wondering guys know good free movie websites similar movies movies im trying find movie movies wondering guys know hate bodyi hate stretchmarks acne scars im flawed hurts problem things people somehow problem feel deserve exist cant happy unless skin smooth hairless flat belly hate 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among us right trys maths teacher play one day hes sick home today second class maths half class missing according school rules stated half class missing teacher whatever wanted teach happens nine people whips phone downloads among us gets us teach play play oh told us tell kid tommorow played among us thank listening teacher bossgoodnight sodium cyanide pillscan anyone give info sodium cyanide pills reliable kill quickly forget someone ive met girl kind started liking even though never met person tell liked awkward anything later started talking getting know cant sake mind keep mind even seen person lady tramp ii scamps adventure think good movie think first lady tramp movie better original think original movies compared sequeals better lady tramp ii takes original time juniors turn lady tramps youngster scamp always hates treated things done following rules house taking baths time taking things nice easy scamp gets angry runs away pack dogs left loose scamp meets another dog called angel along fine things scamps mother father italian meal spagetthi meatballs etcafterwards scamp realises loved family especial pal baby scamp comes back angel joined family give movie better dead know everyone know hates im ready gothanks previous person commented last post pushing edge mum work tomorrow thursday friday thats ill creating set tomorrow week nothing goes way life ive ruined childhood trauma effects life result abandoned everybody ive loved even change heart still need go current situation thats im going die soon hi ellie diagnosed depression gadfucked every way f helps told family done done days working idk top mod post hits hard think want date seems much burden seems hurt helps think im gon na stay single rest life care much hurtsat point id take way care much pain ill im dying long end im gone want theres nothing im enough pain already whats little means everything stop whats agony minutes means ill never feel cares pain itll pain gone golden boy opinion one sleeper 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parents said dont want speaking texting messaging anymore responsibility support partner think taking advantage im really happy eachother plan spend lives together start family till friday herafter friday cant convince parents let still talk text well cant handle loosing another person whos made world happier even sit feel giving im tired life throwing someone makes feel happy feel safe taking away abandoning canti cant handle anymore im break guys know strangedarkcreepy youtube channels ive looking know im kind bored ive looking around internet mysteries prescribed low dose paroxetine psych supposed mg told start taking half tab mg everydayi constantly panicked feel nothing two days now period two hours lie head empty feelings fucking object feel alive anymore least cry heart race feel least present instead heart black hole one sucking away life know keep know wait meds make feel better want stop meds minecraft going scary theyre probably going add new cave noises going scary never gon na give one s songs teens days exposed saying one class enjoys s music really makes feel place see teens discuss music s song consistently hear bring never gon na give made first batch churros ampxb httpspreviewreddittdqsknhmpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscdfbdbdfbeffd want live bad dont want kill cant livewow im ive become th grade future set want entrepreneur six figure income big house pool parents never let water backyard smoke marijuana frequent grilling parties youtube channel purchase guns shoot love call duty sexy wife kids now dont even look forward anything anymore everyday depression hole cant cope im going deeper deeper terminate havent happy long tested hang nowi hurt much hurt thought go fast ofc little painful thought wouldnt sting much hanging listed non hurtful thing fuck plans may ruined bc scared hurt much dont hang jump bitches weird autism bitch thats start want note post karma u didnt know purely looking advice ight pandemic parents work home lets say home hell ironically looked forward going back school next day today teacher called mario everyone calling mario thanks democracy fellow classmates environmental prefect taking trash sorts errands etc school hell nutshell im hell advice make feel better except playing video games bliss f anyone chat bit got nothing right looking fun people chat want hit dont day posting phrase liquid whales girlfriend likely forget post id anything power see see smile want come prosper come proper even means aint side devil shoulder tellin ill die soon dont really want impact dont know maybe im paranoid want whats best want whats left oh youre telling youre sad inside im sad cant satisfy yeah pray right time maybe well alright todays filler brought juice wrld weekend song smile tonight nightcurrently writing notes friends eating death day pie planning killing tonight last reason stay alive left know time bye guys need ventive felt ive depressed quite time enjoyment anything time now bit meim good student star athlete competitive video game player ive state title track field first team football every year ive played problem getting bed really hard feel anything bed dread school social interaction football practice storm months ago something screwed isp cant steady ping competitively play thing enjoy think killing least every day know anymore cant anymoreread story posts much please try tell life worth living contemplating redflagim sitting thinking wheter kill cant seem convince cant decide wheter scared die enough conviction hate everything ive done im much coward kill dear lord throat hurts feels uncomfortable swallowing somewhat hurts thats fun redflaghello everyone whatever name may important come asking fuck keep living fell love person person thought wanted rest life now know love truly wanted marry one day family even die old age feel hurt knife stabbed heart felt bit younger took full year subside got better felt happy person time truly happy sure think addicted em love much know others felt many betrayals much pain much anger frustration feel anymore truly dont happiness sadness thing felt made go rage anger became alive truly alive cant live without confessed love said love now theyve said afraid falling love individual name know saying hurt really fucking hurt pain thought never feel tried kill couldnt coward pathetic human guess useful getting advise bye bye think im good person never sure good anting way helping someone naturally good whatever may good person cold merciless ruthless help helping compared past sins neither country give fuck middle east country im one worst countries id say whole world animal kingdom happy live maybe survive said seek somewhere others said leaving finding new home feel better life good happy one love even know writing probably one see anyone thank reading hectic maniacal writing know know give spotify playlists gim rap spotify playlists haha boomer grandmother dont believe everything see internet grandmother g causes coronavirus sub deaddd wish dead sub rn calmness deathwhy feel wrong calm right now im alone home minutes away ending life without leaving single letter behind fucking fail dont even know anymore screw wont fail dont know im typing anymore even know loved life loved living love wishing best wait bunch videos learn languages sleep damn im going everythinglingual keep sleeping rates see point living plan dosent work plan part time job along investing bunch stuff first year live college student without partying cause partys im basically saying spending money essentials lot money use money help create separate side hustles youtube twitch example really want work job whole life im lazy really see point spending life working im enjoying see future field im interested ron stuff interested enough make living one getting university college diploma lot cases receipt couple years wasted time rant thats im comic recommendations free price character andor skits want played message okay putting 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college ah yes sold computer im stuck room months now hello world im really bad nightim worried tonight impulse decisions something stupid tonight ive really unfulfilled life im letting relationship decay im unchallenged work go work come home sit go bed going really long time gotten significantly worse last year dont socialize outside work ive completely lost sex drive gained lbs work even wants promote id make decision wanted motivation want sit cry feel really empty disconnected people dont even know form close relationship even though ive dating someone years now cant bring talk thing important dont even see point last time best friend years ago died suddenly heroin overdose didnt know using want disappear im tired tired hi hope wonderful hours cause yes totally lizard thing yall love yall love nowhere starting think stuff done past lot better hating lifes sure good thanks reddit mei know problem im college ive dealing middle school years started writing thoughts last year frustrated think need help think help fix great life everything going school work activities im social limited never relationship usually ok moments despair worried drinking makes worse tell drunk ones base spellingtime lot fun nights probably times bad night causes types writings nights good time need share consuming thoughts sometimes feel rules life everyone knows one tell times remind someone loser someone deemed better imagine totally opposite imagine others view think aware negative im actually pretty certain average everyone living messed world id rather forever alone rather occasional inclusion minority time feeling outcast bury emotions feel well realize bad hide emotions want acknowledge want run away everyone everything simply cowardice brave face fears want something dont hide behind happy smile cheerful attitude lonely wont let feel bad fault deserve realize self centered thus really deserve anything speak anyone issues know cant help change opinion willing put burdens people know tell anyone fault feel alone feel hyper aware place world days wish shut run simply instinct happy carefree dog relief feel heavily weighed thoughts emotions scares buried alive feel whiny ungrateful things go right life remember everyone feels pretty messed inside thus reminding even faults way unique pm death easy way living hardest thing hard want cry still feel right scared yet confident know fix easier alone terrified cant hurt anyone want ok care deal sometimes seem worth pm close losing everything give done worth nothing worth feel robin trying swim drowning fish swim pm happy happy future bright wait see achieve store career priority dating finding someone want spend life much something want pm fear death fear loneliness fear sadness fear disappointment fear embarrassment butdeath fear death pm fuck emotions may die rot inviting oblivion collapsing falling scared life live live people need exist id kill really mean live others life work blah blah blah want fuck shit want leave run away start something new unknown want quiet self lonely quiet lover gentle friend pm happy cry happy feel float away bliss encompasses smells spring comfort fall pm life nothing see tv now im mildly drunk desiring food hard im lonely pm pain fear sorrow judgement never escape pm want die want alone want force anyone people say believe nothing know fun u know let guard want break bottle head life worth dead fuck shit die motherfuvkinh death everyone suffers different self pity waste energy days hard really harder day feel spend time wondering things right instead enjoying im things dont either busy dont know willing try pm take drunk bar bathroom remember actually rather dead suck fake lose nothing pm everyone one seems know live yet sit alive im lonely scared forever alone im scared im worth loving terrified screwed messed unloveable worth anyones time shouldnt expect someone love dont love dont thinkg im worth loved life tooo hard much deal sadnees anger shame embaressament lonlines fear anger pain loniliness shame need control power yet none ruin everything funsucker nothing nothing even worth effort never forget failure shame worth effort dont justify fuckup person need become bully maguire give tips door never fixed im bored friend text unrelated ticking away moments make dull day fritter waste hours offhand way kicking around piece ground home town waiting someone something show way tired lying sunshine staying home watch rain young life long time kill today one day find ten years got behind one told run missed starting gun run run catch sun sinking racing around come behind sun relative way older shorter breath one day closer death every year getting shorter never seem find time plans either come naught half page scribbled lines hanging quiet desperation english way time gone song thought id something say home home come home cold tired good warm bones beside fire far away across field tolling iron bell calls faithful knees hear softly spoken magic spell life expectancy increased phones invented checkmate parents want tell someone want tell anyone know ive ready kill thought way times now ive never felt alone depressedi shitty childhood depressedanxious teen time im feel going better friends im open relationship girl feel connected anyone really much family years grandmother started new job seem distract work used im tired ive never afraid death pain failure find instead cant time now ive never wanted alive feel loved connected anyone life baseline rock bottom anything better feels much effort really feels hace gotten test got depression test higher acore friends babyy cutting family mt life helpi know call abusive theyve never really treated well family kind everymanforhimself kind family see point anymore first time saw movie back s wee lad dad actually recorded tv must watched times relatively recent release dvdbr br course bought watched dvd taken aback much dialogue changed first version still vhs mood film thanks dialogue actually dark new version featuring van der beek et al comicbr br put another way watching original us release akira dub watching remastered version literal translation japanesebr br im way complaining story quality animation detracted raise question whether miyazaki intended lighter darker narrative theme film first time contemplating ending thingsive battling depression teens never really taken idea taking life never reached point close now recent break made spiral state despair never imagine possible feelings worthlessness ive spent nearly decade fighting came back one moment constant feeling hopelessness pain cant take anymore one person thought spend rest life deleted though meant nothing ruined try put brave face remind eventually move work nothing helps days ago came mind better dead think even dreamt successfully killing brings comfort knowing option available constant thoughtsi friend considering committing redflag gun last weeks told first thoughts non stop think courage pull im afraid constantly thinking may ive recommended crisis lines says work want send hospital think make things lot worse already guys know doits gotten point even expect anyone see reply everything say invisible matter care people want ok always seems go wrong want die feel really unsafe one talk im going cut deep gorls im desperate anything yes call perfect movie one boring second fantastic cast mostly little known actresses actors great array characters well defined understandable motives sympathize perfect lighting crisp black white photography fitting soundtrack intelligent harmonious set design story engaging works one prime quality pictures pride hollywood rest mark everyone endeavor reachbr br barbara stanwyck simply stunning nothing actress always went easy melodramatic side hysterical outbursts lady always thought better actress screen goddesses bette davis joan crawford movie confirmed opinion always tough nails time conveying true sentiments fair add got many good parts long career one far least interestingbr br title fits movie well desires human desires think everyone understand actually one seems scheming movie characters act impulse everybody wants happy without hurting anybody sad fact often leads complications makes dramatic content go herebr br liked movie say youth maturing necessity compromise movie associate one alfred hitchcocks shadow doubt creates similar atmosphere idealized time caricatured small town america story certain similarity fritz langs considerably harsher movie clash night made one year earlier stanywck stars similar part recommend people think depression always sad people think depression always crying people think depression dressing black people wrong depression constant feeling numb numb emotions numb life wake morning go bed tired hurting end tell something youre cute much bad world coward bother trying keep living see point know trying many fucking alts pedo jesus christ hes th alt theyre days old wtf cant handle iti tried tried tried tried tried accomplish parents know place much energy finding partner clock ticking everyone family kid family age started angry im always either angry depressed partner happy truly happy lot people understand happiness addicted things feel good think happiness experience take care partner cant even begin describe waterfall comfort sunlight rushing im needed life purpose im something right try hardest jackass referred rniceguys ive coiled anger ive letting slowly bits sordid degrading commentary pornographic subreddits comes sickness feel rage feel im nothing ill never anything lot people read listen problems take one way without even considering feelings nobody considers feelings ive depressed years nobody fucking cares im going tell nobody cares maybe help clear mind shoot severe abandonment issues severe mommy issues barely toddler woman gave birth ready fit mother still young neglect favor parties friends dad way well suddenly awakening saw house party took away married woman raised except quite count one hand amount times ive hugged shown displays physical affection woman yeah yeah laugh want fucking hugged enough child something several memories pushing try hug small shed sneer say something negative connotation child hearing words hearing tone voice good tone id often wonder wrong deserve hug oh always affectionate lovey dog shed kiss hug pet hours imagine jealous dog getting attention felt deserved child always best behavior effort notice hug let shed pet never late now im good late shit im afraid physical contact except sex learned young age sex feels good suitable replacement attention getting mother constantly busy work father got good sex briefly got trouble law sex somewhat main focus life now met ex first one actually display interest rather looks cock likely met online video game wed talk hours end killing aliens together grew close eventually blossoming relationship lasted three beautiful years loved far away rarely got visit made told eachother things weve never told anyone including problems mothers ive never told anyone something held burst tears never held held close close feel heart beating shook snotted shirt even matter held told understood held told okay hold always always said kept saying always way month broke know really dont took care sexually even together took care made sure orgasmed every day talk try best make smile everyday part associated mommy sort figure felt good made laugh smile sudden told love anymore lovedmemorelokea friend partner friends mention fact three years friends told always pretty much times week god heart broke feel cold ice cold cracks splitting across heart really felt changed thats rage started happening thats start blacking anger getting sexual head aches sorts awful things got another partner everything wonderful took care way took care ex better even even better stay always right good keep always right wrong girl said shed forever approximately six months later abandoned explanation next girl next next milicent found quality partnerand god damn mili best partner ive one split mutually beneficial pick back later less busy actually time eachother know trust go anyone leave abused worse differently child understood thought actually listened talked anyways agreed best talk completed college started college really almost year anyways thats wanted shoot brain stem earlier wanted kill earlier current partner ignoring week now honestly really liked lot sad girl made happy god feels good needed bring light someones life felt lovely abused us abused children got along together fabulously gave free reign body mind soul improved health mind set mother started grade bitch ruining everything said something instead supportive talk sounds trivial probably worst feeling world guess really ds relationships well feel failure make happy enough talking third person ive talked troubles felt understand hurts doubly ignoring hurt feel emotions really translates rage broken first heart break lasted long shake hours collapse id fine one minute literally ground unable move legs breathe drowning dry land thats felt cope sadness prevent dying body somehow learned translate emotions anger wrath pure unbridled whole body went cold vision went black sort affect think combination heart breaking many times lied mistreated relying anger much even feel human feel except now feel getting hard breathe feel failure feel nothing work matter hard try matter much time attention devotion give partners surrogate mommys matter always fail never enough im good enough really considered ending earlier started writing going go garage old russian officer pistol dad bought online know sure works put brain stem pull trigger im sick females lying lie treat every single partner ive theyre going last partner thats want date marriage date marriage date heart break try hard please soothe issues try hard keep makes happy making happy always end failing vengefuland sink wallowing wretchedness want die first time actually considered though suicide hotline pulled google know kill thats closest ending things dead worry living worry money supplies maintaining image life style dead mymommy issues hurt dead women bother deadpeopleeoildmt make fun anymore say mean things im done everything right now killed know theres probably least three people typing comments pathetic maybe pathetic right almost died another human lied sltof always lie use people always tell kill yourselfwhenever talk people suicidal thoughts always tell real explanation shouldnt ask say everyone sad yet temporary sadness cant even compare daily struggle go every day leads wanting kill thoughts please talk someone verbally need join discord support group serverhi thought making support group discord please feel free join come talk others may may join swear cosmos never judge beliefs actions never say annoying bullshit stuff chin everything fine idea im talking try best ability others httpsdiscordggudatwevhttpsdiscordggudatwev parents dont care privacy taught never text friends always use social media talk tell someone based stuff footsteps breathing super hearing ability switch apps phone blink eye hide social media accounts hide evidence something lie straight face fake asleep really well account changes password hide stuff really well use apps myeyesonly mildly inappropriate things use apps temp mail create secret accounts use little time home alone efficiently bypass parental controls play music loudly let close door day im going walk away phone always turn screen face using appdata hide things computer notice nothing said good respectful kid sorry thisheya guys hope well idk anymore anything throwaway account hard communicate whats going head first year uni going hot honest high class family people organized naturally smart someone odd duck right well guess thats place feel everything complete joke failure fuck point even say life hour ago put pipe top door wedged couldnt move put belt tried pushing head couldent succeed lot harder looks movies even one assume self hanging go went sat chair held samurai sword stomach thought pull one samurai moves much work guess im strong minded fuck ok sorry guys butchered post disorganized hard follow kinda mind thought process reminds song paranoid black sabbath fit rage paranoia im scared talk family friends canada redflag service help anymore help happy thanksgiving fellow canadians way people hate furries antrhoanimals bro whats ur problem lightsabers recently proven possible said plasmabased blasters may sound impossible said thing lightsabers boyfriend years left metwo days year anniversary boyfriend told want anymore days cant think anything sleeps someone gets relationship someone devastated beyond words spent lives cant hold anymore ive always thought going kill happy think often anymore live together cat together rest family lives far away one friend stay bad relationship fucking broken keep trying use fit girl never worked even try got dirt bike theres track literally road house big poggers friends give shit extreme cases deja vu happens hours deja vu deja vu ridiculous everything wrong fault fault trying harder fault wanting death better lifei one blame caring getting better anymore fault wanting death better life fault im lazy one im stupid one im childish one even though im child fault lazy stupid chilidhs caring getting better caring dying im terrible person deserve every bit suffering fault dessserve release death im sorry please im asking death please let die im alsking cant make mysel diei cant control cant stop goduniverse making live beg death give whatever hope die tonight maybe godujnverse let succeed plan im sorry im stupid lazy person fault im sorry life game procrastination stat ill edit post later tell guys mine im lonely crap corona shutdown april may ex broke hoping cure school started im lonely pls dont dis ex got good terms journey discovery film follows lives one family living sleepy island town british columbia languorous dreamy inhabitants satisfied allow life go around young freshfaced teacher new ideas arrives brings life mainland slowly indolent state awakened father principal local school looks excitement mother stability oldest daughter love youngest power incredible groundbreaking piece cinema movie quietly enjoyable good tired night wind blowing unfortunately doubt anyone outside canada find easily accessible cant even school anymoremy depression getting best im letting kinda want im hoping easy way hell anymore suicidal th grade th dont see point people say find peace im lost cant even find way dark dont see potential future ive given god given terrible conditon crmo look happens one million kids struggle cant keep anymore help hey lads im back final beating masturbation addiction update sorry late got day suspension reddit making damn pedo joke rmemes people really cant handle dark humor anyway curious celebrate going month possibly im able without masturbating guys post picture ill wearing face mask im comfortable posting full face ill let post marinate day general consensus yes ill go tomorrow oh thanks support even though posts never really much attention good know people supportive whats point alleverybody lives dies go life turn dirt whats point everything become nothing end im worried friend mine recently expressed suicidal thoughts experienced past help himmy friend week seemed upbeat happy recently told become extremely distraught divorced mother declared bankruptcy grades dumps attempts provide family worried happy college always concerned mom believe may alcoholic maybe probably abusive sent incoherent emails friends many occasions always napping call friend recent call telling told everything need keep things dark verbatim makes worried road ending thought one help expert point trust family help advice help friend immensely appreciated offered number redflag hotline begged counseling know anything edit add secretive talking always needs randomly hang randomly log facebook xbox live bought gunits two weeks purchasing firearm lot long nights wondering whether ill muster strength fire gun one time ill need fire man life really funny isnt cautionary talei think im going kill leave behind note explaining everything wrong led way others might learn shit life maybe good come horrible mistakes wished euthanasia legalid first line apply though ive heard easy fuck alive political anything fucked dog im even really livingim sure im posting cant sleep usual every second life im pain im going bore details degenerative diseases eating away spine tried make peace pain really last years trying learn live good damnit found medication regimen keeps head clear ive worked depression learned im fucked intense migraines muscle spasms neck back sudden bouts vertigo bad vomit cant even walk bedroom ended getting sudden onset one day brought er found brain degeneration ct scan still working cause oh great another health issue deal deal pain least still take daughter park clean house now barely moving anymore making stir fry tonight hard nearly threw live rest life bed throwing dizzy pain sort life feel burden family basically cant left alone run errands fear passing alone somewhere sometimes wish gotten married real wife something take care daughter real mother walk school love much worry im tired fucking tired whole life suffered never girlfriend grew far poor money job barely friends hate lot sad night eat lot day know problem feel unwelcome world hate school god hate school one school year left graduate know going never job scared one drivers license permit scared drive doctor mental health usually depression hits older people upset maybe born sad made fun bullied physically mentally various reasons obesity special ed friends never girlfriend hate family care anyone ready die yet alot things life die wtf still someones flirting gf getting weird one friend group right always together friday nights game nights dinner consisted couple guys girls girlfriend doesnt really go shes social fine one girl friend group recently started flirting obvious im one toot horn say people everyone says shes flirting havent mentioned ive talked girlfriend says sees actually hanging us idk doesnt seem big deal written weird dont wan na break friend group want girl stop anything say thanks guys nurses hospital tell parents scarsso really know put please tell belong put anyway basically whats going came back doctor breathing problems said ill needing surgery nose im fine thats great ill able breathe problem comes self harm scars thighs visible wondering knew nurses going tell parents nurse know parents know theyre messed people definitely kick house take electronics forever treat stranger take everything kick im going wear hospital gown open nurses access help want know theyre obligated least ask parents know ive freaking minutes now thanks anyone help ready endi intrusive thought runs head throughout day least ill dead soon ill dead weekend recently ex dogs came visit sine theyve ive called manipulator piece shit vareity different things obvious person isnt good im tired really considering taking benzos tn along bottle rum taking uber park something let find morning hey girl u loose end cos youre always back mind im pro call crush yo wan na go walk sometime said shed love going walk next week lets go yeah friends yeah see friends everyday supportive always positive always talk ampxb ampxb never talk back though mean sometimes make noise yeah friends definitely cats mean hahahaha im social cool teenager depressed life everytime seem somewhere happy mind forces become depressed back comfort zone reading depression swells brain years something possible depressed beyond return wants life anymore long waiting die contemplating suicide trail destruction leave behind partner parents siblings ect something want disperse depression among tried best help depressed beyond point return wellgoodbye everyoneim planning jump building tomorrow goodbyenobody stop meim joking either accepting brain transplant applications tw playing minecraft watching twitch brain went dont want alive offed takers continue living one love life broke trust maybe relateive dark imagine waking paralyzing fear sure im may dreaming didnt know afraid felt everything afraid turn head raise arm paralyzed id sit bed scared negative thoughts racing head go days weeks months id look outside window trees appeared fake almost plastic nothing beautiful one single happy thought penetrate concrete wall encased brain fight every second trying keep head water driving work daydreaming crashing listening family voices unrecognizable ghosts taunt keep going one morning wake feel crack concrete restriction mind lessened slightly thought one simple thought maybe chance hope hold onto thought dear life one thought keeping going weeks go day new ray light somehow someway managing pierce thick fog clouds mind one happy thought fog breaks im driving happening feels though shock waves ripping body breathed first time dont know scream contain emotions coming trapped ride wave long lasts long hit another slope cycle repeats im stuck idk many fights left bruh want looked want someone around make neck stop bleeding cut shaving enough blood coming dangerous enough blood mom think tried killing groovy song httpsopenspotifycomtrackgbktqzdknlmrscqhfctsijzzcuyeftkohxondajucw theres ways ends continue going school everyday rate much hatred life expands pretty much certain lead redflag cant happy life incredibly painful tiring run away home ive swapped pressure school worse pressure homeless even certain lead redflag life waiting game till hate life enough end miss little kid loved little kid im teen announce current situation nnn nnn approached us taken upon formally cancel nut november ease load due year cruel unforgiving year thought relieved requirement nut entire month november please try post hot hear formal announcement maybe ill jump front car christmasim stepmothers house come back dorm im going take walk jump incoming traffic cant live thoughts anymore know needs hear aint easy definitely aintwe biologically wired avoid death goddamn cost slightest hint death bodies shoot fight flight mode admit another buzz phrase accept choice okay make perspective correct know whats easy sitting room day thinking committing redflag know whats easy saying fuck roving life miserable without actually applying anything know whats easy going therapy taking medications helping people told know whats easy saving funds order purchase exit plan stare bitch day night never damn thing biology coupled uncertainty death kills drive even particularly afraid death process terrifies takes certain amount pressure soul point tell definitely aint easy videos people access firearms see bracing fuck exhausted fucking phrase already im hornyyy jk bonked clicking take nap car listening playlist shuffle wake favorite song comes one best feelings opinion need help hope goneim last night party hit feel worthless im moderately liked sure people want around enough meaningful relationship friends great people convince hang obligation found last night drove house bunch pills still resent wrong ghostingi know deserve abandoned im confused frustrated cant stop asking leave weeks still feel unwanted alone hurt bad whats favorite fruit id probably go watermelon lychee tbh favourite fruit someone said im adorable im angry bro wtf rage gt recently came realization two different people one guy genuinely make people smile laugh make people feel comfortable heard important guy kind awkward little nerdy goofy hes earnest loves smile see others smile told makes vulnerable realthen guy hes dead serious speak others want spoken waits closest hurt happened past immensely lonely feels burden others sometimes indulges alcohol food numb pain inside headthat second guy winning lately describe depression feels someone inside know truly feel burden love hurt life loved ones expect always meit sucks know treating depression involves recognizing sorts things still feel living unbearable cross bear sometimes feel losing smile wish kill myselfi balls kill really wish ive done life years really wish finally end knute rockne american biopic famous notre dame beloved coach knute rockne excellent sports film watch seen surprised technique used movie director lloyd bacon shows ahead times photographing football games result vibrant picture man responsible legacy collegian sport knute rocknebr br film presents rockne humble origins chicago studies famed notre dame university south bend indiana ambitious man vision game played luckily went give beloved notre dame glory afterbr br pat obrien looks bit older starts freshman fact change much throughout film fine mr rockne pat obrien shows inspire players father figure gale page plays bonnie rockne wise woman understood husbands call life ronald reagan plays george gipper gipp legend died much young left legacy behind donald crisp makes good contribution father john callahan rocknes mentor universitybr br film delight sports lloyd bacons direction fast pace gives movie shootin shit better act u heard drivin xannies might hit curb tee hee last post hereit honor knowing kill weeks nothing change everytime see hangmans knot noose feel warmth something loves hope leave hard feelings droopy eyelid ruins face tired cosmetic surgery getting delayed dont see reason live unattractiveeyelids droopy wait patiently everything keeps getting delayed im tired dont want live unattractive ill never girl friend successful job interview put effort wore nice clothing got haircut still ignored want minimise pain thought pills remembered cramps embarrassment sitting ward iv drip dont know good way horn knee horn knee horn knee death cabanyone die words band feeling everydayim years old seems peers went school graduated going college cant afford girlfriend lasted years recently broke ive always struggled thought redflag last christmas day went hospital took gabapentin started overdosing got stomach pumped anyone father never mother passed away im trying make ends meet struggle good job pay enough actually survive girlfriend left im insecure kept thinking talking guys even though way thinking guess never know anyways sum feels theres way life hard life short anyone anything barely feed really wan na anymore everyday front mind thought redflag think everyday soon wake throughout day ive always thoughts im bad theres way wan na anymore name anthony appreciate read thank think time im worthless dad accidentally saved lifei sitting room knife desk thought shit going brother diagnosed cancer grades dropping daily insults thought bad life better blood across desk dad shouted love put knife stopped without wouldnt writing want help scared people say im fine stop lying brother going something unimaginable tbh times feels one cares feel trash dont want bother anyone ill wait one year decide kill myselfunless im already dead didi swallowed three bottles pills hours writing im going lie feel every organ racing right now death imminent july ston date im gon na go lake pockets full rocks drowned feel change numbness anger go away ill make go away ive tried much happy nothing seems work never meant happy death different least body cleaned decay water doubt anyone find last thing ill post write bye hope find happiness failed fury wolfman good film good cast includes paul naschyjacinto molina perla cristal vernica lujn mark stevens francisco amors fabin conde miguel de la riva ramn lillo jos marco javier de rivera pilar zorrilla acting actors good wolfman really cool looks great sound looney tunes character tazmainian devil really hilarious scenes film thrills really good surprising movie filmed good music good film quite interesting movie really keeps going end good thrilling film paul naschyjacinto molina perla cristal vernica lujn mark stevens francisco amors fabin conde miguel de la riva ramn lillo jos marco javier de rivera pilar zorrilla rest cast film werewold films horror scifi thrillers dramas interesting classic films strongly recommend see film today br br movie nuttballs note br br got film special dvd doctor bloods coffin brainiac fury wolfman vintage home entertainment see find winner three bizarre classic films one dvd amazoncom today br br werewolf films strongly recommend werewolf london wolf man frankenstein meets wolf man house frankenstein abbott costell meets frankenstein curse werewolf american werewolf london silver bullet werewolf monster squad moms werewolf project metalbeast bad moon werewolf dog soldiers underworld van helsing upset im still hereim upset im still really thought last ramadan last fact really drive home fact year passed still live please want wake fun fact breathing reading post fun fact end linehey im starting go crazy ive miserable downwards spiral years think finally reached end ive become unmotivated mny cant bring things used go gym sleep even simple hygienic things seems cant hold true friendship friends annoy never find something actually nothing interests anymore simple things skating gaming even reading gone disire focus simple gone life summer months go back school stay til wake work day sit computer mindless things frustrated everything boring bland ive begin wander dangerous existentialist mindset nothing really matters dont even know point desperate obtain significant know probably wont make happy want someone care care back people always say im virgin loser never find anyone makes even insecure sex always mind frustrating knowing everyone going im viginity thing bothers know well honestly really really dont see point living yeah might sad see go care choice last pathetic attempt getting help something potentially stupid dont know dont see point anymore im ugly loser beta male lives parents basement goes community college gets terrible grades im unmotivated pathetic existence anything people even born world dont contribute anything fail everything hate hometown really need leave dont resources travel maybe find anyways maybe someone read maybe wont sorry thoughts writing style grammar spelling format head racing kill kill im little drunk even care j hey cute give hug gt self harmim curious recently self harmed first time month ago done found hard understand anyone though distract mental pain though psychical pain dont wrong thats partly dont anyone way pretend theyre ending thats gives rush makes feel good especially thinking thats im curious anyone brother attempted redflag last night sobering moment mei sleeping mom woke around brother lying sideways room blueish green vomit carpet mom asked first thought weird drug mixed juul sniffed vomit smelled cleaning product said mom need call lady line kind empathetic gave details situation shaking inside felt heart pound fast brother good terms often incites domestic violence knew depressed extent yesterday night saw kitchen knife hallway floor peeked room expression world looked far away despite physically feet thoughts redflag daily never courage attempt honest feel really empty inside feels wake call life together im worried brother course possible permanent damage itll cause covid one person allowed per patient mom hospital visiting im waiting car now dont know feel keep thinking bad things keep happening amidst quarantine doesnt help weather cold dreary comfortable naked scale wear clothes showering naked whenever feel girls much less comfortable naked patronus curious mine black stallion rad ramen today httpsimgurcomacqxcgx fuck image weekend always wonder depressed hate much always feel need please others feelings matteri grew religious community think relived part dream last night remember conformity fear embarrassing different fear getting scolded parents embarrassing feelings never matter situation know worthy love compassion never receive unconditional love always something avoid shame punishment wonder low self worth bloody wonder suicidal woken realities past review dedicated late keith moon john entwistlebr br original drum bassbr br seems little early footage around days lets aving nowadays tends different kind altogether parody shadow much better years fair one prove anything anyone anymore theyve earned respect overtimebr br concert footage one best command audience around plus strong crowed takes skill charisma wit whole lot bloody good musicbr br know acts bill doors last show weeks jim morrison died moody blues hendrix taste free many point whoever majority come see show one year great hippie fest s woodstock film record come whos greatest work date tommy hungry crowd wanted taste able experience unique event able grove love knowledge gig needed best rock n roll throw hungrily baited crowdbr br two o clock morning late august mc announces ladies gentlemen small rock n roll band shepherds bush london oobr br john entwistles body suit black leather front line human skeleton neck toe roger dressed traditional stage outfit long tassels long flowing hair keith white tshirt jeans pete white boiler suit doc martins hed preferred wearbr br never stopped onslaught high energy rock two hours performing artists greatest tracks young man blues shaking queue keith baiting crowed shut bleeding opera tommy rock opera crowed went wild come hear disappoint straight overture never coming air final note tommy hear amazingbr br capture show magnitude band stature peak festival last kind anywhere world fantastic piece cinematic historybr br english dvd comes soundtrack englishlinear pcm stereo states think least check local press details okaybr br duration dvd minutes extras disappointment yes slice rock festival history dvd send nostalgia trip memory lane moment press play best concert footage meant live raw facebr br given dvd ten lack extras nicebr br thanks roger pete john keith lack social skills possibly unable watch one favorite youtubers due embarassed dmed youtuber bc way edits videos hes pretty small subs followers chances actually responding pretty good oh fucking god one awkward conversations ive ive plenty uncomfortable convos asked wut uses edit told made joke year old macbook cant handle lmao liked message respond texted friend complained lacking social skills told showed channel asked old fair vibe going u cant tell hes idk ill ask ig hour last dm good old idk sound stalker asking old u replied age polite everything im pretty sure thought psycho fangirl fact dude feel rlly awkward whole thing im v sry wasting ur time u read whole thing lmao really need advice hi school starting hear people think girl school speak good reason start last year really broke money name started selling weed surprisingly one first made lot money never got caught sold school property good till word spread much surprisingly guy friends gave shits everyone became scared buying started selling lot became much stopped school year regret selling motorcycle pay insurance really want go back really good job sales make enough really fix reputation people scared advice thanks neurotici mental breakdown sent text wrong person im neurotic annoying annoy people people say arent annoyed actually annoyed annoying even acknowledge annoying selfdisgust day every daytw depression redflag possible dysmorphia ive new weird ritual thing past months anonymously go whisper app post photos ask rating look therapist determined im uncomfortable around anyone doesnt consider thats true cant stand knowing people interact dont think im beautiful makes feel depressed worthless sides family raised particular standards beauty standard dont match cant even around dad stepmom without feeling extremely selfconscious refuse let anyone take picture im terrified considered ugly fat even mediocrelooking dont know im going past one honestly feel people dont think im even want refund ate happy meal im still sad im seeing black eyed children hear screaming helpi really severe depressionlast night almost hanged feel miserable suicidal want diebut want tried play relaxing fun games forget depression help bullied lot accent voice sound year old helium pleasehelp halloween going work year context im eighteen years old highly anticipate halloween year weird looks height even reluctant give candy people think im creep granted knock neighbors doors weekly still okay minecraft drug let explain family known tiger family st grade entire family needed straight punished probably one put pressure im oldest stern talking ive never know im afraid go near siblings taught way difference sister allowed bs loved dance dont know man brother year got mac started want streamer dream tommy guy kinda helped thinking wasnt gon na last long oh boy school started brother failing ss failing sister failing different reason mom limited minecraft kept going banned computer used time time away still failing bad today didnt work said video games tv starts passing thing share room grounded brothers grades still tutor siblings time time punished isnt fair minecraft caused technically im completely ruinedi drink much fucked cheated ex miserable person world anymore finally started thinking im even using throwaway know ruined best thing happened never getting im completely self destructive point im useless know fucking anymore im never going stop thinking bet may reading knows reddit account im beyond sorry know say fucking fault every single goddamn fucking day live sucks fault im leaving keys apartment front porch note animals ok know want fucking stab sometimes apartment never feels home never everything feel awful long im im bad place wan na way want thoughts cant fucking normal cant normal shit wrong fucking hate dont know much longer endure every single day waking feeling miserable regretting every choice make fuck fucking fuck fuck fuck going college biggest mistake lifelong story short delusional year old self real world experience idea world worked support system behind besides momdad raging abusive alcoholic torn family apart decided great idea go state school mom cosigned loans bless heart wants whats best set first two years straddled debt already quite well managed finish first two years gpa part idea wanted life still dont taking mostly intro classes electives fill schedule two years made single biggest mistake life decided transfer even nicer state school even expensive mom cosigned loans got got cushy one person apartment paying rent loans dumbest thing done even though still thats depression sickness whatever hit super lonely literally never made one friend contemplated redflag daily even though probably never balls mom dead one left life matters needless say never attended class slept almost day basically prison cell even though seen outstanding opportunity normal person failed outmainly dropped first semester never got refund first second semester took second semester fast forward im second semester third school im state surrounded quite high school friends attend im still stuck rut im watching friends high school graduate year branch live lives meanwhile im stuck limbo land im already debt literally nothing show im boat second school basically received academic warning last semester far looking im going suspended im skipping class feeling depressed daily although school offers third chance want take ill thrown real world paying student loans skills experience kind meaningful work id homeless mom fail ill move back mom alcoholic dad brother never went college lives really wish brothers situation yeah sure never went college straddled crippling debt rest life whole life literally boiled idea needed go college make something life im insurmountable amounts debt see completely fucked wish never went first place want kill go away everything saddest part mom left loans greatest thing happened supported way signing life away well im lose lose situation possibly see doctor stuck feeling forever way death apolitical musicians eva liv ullmann jan rosenberg max von sydow married seven years live small farm remote island escape civil war continent provide lingenberry couple costumers raise money buy supplies love eva twenty years old wants baby reluctant jan weak sensitive man want children rebels arrive island peaceful calm lives turn hell middle accusations sides colonel jacobi gunnar bjrnstrand stalks eva jan changes behavior becomes brutal man love affection feel change hatred indifferencebr br shame antiwar movie master ingmar bergman focused eyes couple artists apolitical listen news war arrives lands love friendship affection destroyed senseless soldiers liv ullmann max von sydow topnotch performances usual recall seeing breast liv ullmann movie process brutalization pacific sensitive jan rosenberg war impressive bleak open conclusion pessimist adequate dramatic story vote ninebr br title brazil vergonha shame lot year olds wouldve intimidated age honestly guys still kinda even years old cause pretty damn cool typing damn moron thought quirky random funniest shit props exhausted turn worn life good wife cool step kids good job first memory room wanting tomorrow come thought never gone away medication fast pace job makes things bearable thought never goes away repeating constantly trying live life normal people let tell family love want wake anymore worn delivery humorous rude lines pierce brosnan alone worth price admission plays kind james bonds psycho twin brother separated birth doubt intense hitman character sexual even better funny add kindhearted uberlikable american guy next door greg kinnear set contrast myriad locations vivid colors quickwitted humor provide great entertainment hope davis well cast gem wife focus film two fellows new odd couple thats part works well great probably rrated laugh look places story goes little deeper im going kill need advicesave dont comments want know lethal method bought glock occasion shoot head least pain foolproof method m im first relationship f want great boyfriend okay long distance yes real friends first became kinda long hall fit together puzzle pieces want advice good boyfriend make work bettertldr good boyfriend every feeling overwhelmingposting throwaway never felt terrible ive gone motions suicidal feeling fixed went free happy now different never felt insignificant worthless miserable im years old every last bit life nothing used much creativity used creative genius one smartest kids one artistic one best writers now nothing nothing makes unique nothing defines ive lost identity im nobody everything want far live different life want every thought different body acts independently mind self control hate feel alone everything feel failure nobody im afraid call hotline physically speak mom hears gets concerned shell port someone help want bring pain suffering parents lives need hate cant control crying way comfort want feel lonely want feel useless whats point living mediocre cute nah basically idea girlfriend im going dedicate notebook write every time hang im going say day felt thinking know whole shabang well year im going give along favorite flowers favorite candy dont lot money cant big fancy gift thought cute want feedback ideas revisions im bored thinking friday night mean brag got date crush b big shoutout uwhy helped bunch math last night still slash wrists punching lot recently mostly head suicidal anxious feel crazy normal self harm via punching right thingso friend mine saying pretty peculiar things hed received pretty awful news saying things matter anymore reason stayed guys holding together despite persistence demanded left alone saying reason stayed tiny dorm room helped hold together demanded leave alone many attempts change mind left alone followed went walk us currently serving military trained constantly situations lot bells going key words listen leave alone really conflicted ramifications letting chain command know situation made call right hes first sergeant well flight supervision talking know feel really guilty whole thing really going anything tarnished friendship permanently bringing people confide trust personal things without worried ill panic make call suicidal thoughts jobi called meeting today told close fired meeting sales goals really confidence meet meet sales goals know going fail fired stand thought failure thinking redflag think redflag better option labeled failure favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo haa hee haa fries favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo haa hee haa friesmy favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo haa hee haa friesmy favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo haa hee haa friesmy favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo haa hee haa friesmy favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo haa hee haa friesmy favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo 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sucks swear god people fake missed give shit least try act fucking help go worst storm lives still let hesitate leave partner fucking waste time fuck love redflag unemployed person often completely reasonable people insisting making even angrieri cant job job constant rejection sends clear message worthy income allowing eat pay rent deal health issues worthy basic necessities life redflag completely reasonable choice less convenient clean im always told give keep pushing gets better people give advice freely never chance make income support society egging keep telling im good enough cruel im worthy food shelter healthcare fine death natural consequence things considered extreme take life considered useless deserve live notei wrote redflag note today know want kill yet im last semester nursing school im failing im really hard time keeping everything frustrating ive worked hard life difficult best friendroommate still psych ward feel alone lost takes anymore go hospital wait school year ive trying make really hard feel one really miss care im gone know redflag really selfish know keep destroying math teacher th grade school changed math teachers used sit last seat class thought prick good subject mostly pay much attention taught basic trigonometric functions first semester used call time distribution papers called roll number believe got speechless face anime moment protagonist holds right moment show power lol never crossed th grade word sad horny come handy gtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgt karma whore ep comment something idk anything something mentalbreakdown free periods wanted clean little included changing bed sheets cat laying first sat around getting depressed put really sad music started picking clothes floor throwing laundry basket actually huge thing cause really laundry online class kinda wearing outfit days throwing floor picked random stuff laying around started whipping dust shelves got vacuum cleaner threw everything peace furniture bed desk closet hall vacuumed everything kinda got aggressive cause well idk stuff happening done tried putting everything back knocked trash much still screamed yelling high pitched screams threw stuff around father next room heard kind jokingly asked going cried hugged cause even know whats going time read book class eaten lunch cause im starving want eat cause idk pls help im better now happening lot lately everyone saw post cat yesterday today thank much positive comments guys literally made day much better felt good knowing people cared truly made day thoughts passing ease relaxing heres hoping someone relate well tonight night plan go birthday wednesday im waiting long im laying bed im writing feel fine almost peaceful wish better way way explain im feeling know right wrong know im ill dont see feel ending life wrong choice bad see feel opposite taking whats left away benifit people life may sound heartless person bother family may upset dont hate infact dont hate anyone parts really wish hate others id probably better person im trying play superhero either ive enough cry alot feel things alot hurt everyday dont see point good reason better ive accepted im going talk im know better anyone im ill fair dont think matter reasons wanting end life good enough reason familys point view fine understand put words try explain someone understand pain real need death one things dont alone time become self centred worry even others may think say im going head town ive posted im already worrying strangers think look somehow convienve everyone hate probably didnt even notice lol silly isnt im heavily religious woman always taught treat someone want treated got absolutely nowhere im saying go treat others poorly encouraging bad behaviour take care number one one will im terrible looking thats something im good im good looking im even better depression dont know ive gone topic sure say started typing guess selfishly wanted acknowledge existance leave anyone wants talk anything id happy company today send message take care everglow felt motivated today decided write therapist told ago one seemingly small useless step still full step thought actually really comforting advice let explainwe often compare others people might active intense social life big dreams perfect job might live healthy energy exercise seems everything control every single day someone depression seems impossible compete someone depression something simple getting bed washing may seem exhausting social interactions bad day thank energy try look situations way one small step still full step making bed instead chores day still one made bed eating one meal instead starving still full mealbrushing teeth feel taking care still important part personal hygiene one productivegood day bad week still full productive day bad day make list accomplishments think one thing think yes whole thing know atleast xxx kind depression bitch already makes life hard enough compare others compare taken step today hope might give tiny bit power make step hope break subreddit rules please let know motivation one small step biggest fear biggest fear seen incompetent expressing example write poem song write book people see stupid sentimental idiot realised saw criticism surrounding cough cough gabbie hanna anything realised way writes songs poems really similar mine mainly really emotional care others think ack know deal feeling lowi feel matter one going truly want im tired feelings belittled finding shit want die toast paradox toast literal garbage right wake morning immaculate pm cup leaf juice milk gave time limit time feel better nowi started issues depression suicidal thoughts around read lot online stuff time told temporary problem life changes better logical little middle schooler told redflag make sense unless feeling way life im feel better time came first time clicked feeling suicidal now please read link side page saw exact page makes feel getting better never going happen stop trying think ityou know loved much carried entire year owe much tried commit redflag last month took lot pills ive called paranoid blamed bipolar suggesting friends knew something didnt know right seeing guy lied encouraged anyway friend told last month said something hed personally beat death care false hope kept going gone still love always given worth think time love never blame kept alive long feeling passively suicidal aloti think alot google depression tests time need someone give permission reassure feel definitely mental health problems even though ive diagnosed dr meds helping stopped taking froze feel ridiculous self indulgent fuck depressed selfish even entertain killing wtf wrong attention seekingevery self test tells im high risk go straight emergency room im crisis cant take seriously normal feel dont know move dont want cause pain kids husband dont want live either notive depressed years family trip realised people depressed put mask people already seem hope ive managed accumulate friends parents kicked finally shared depression one cares ive rejected every person ive asked im things worse even im financially well still feels though happiness myth distraction constantly thinking painting walls working everyone talks reasons people kill people leave behind happens person anyone find body till someone smelled friends manage make always disappear try tell depression weird magic trick see hope turning shit hole life around im going die alone unhappy speed shit feel selfish wanting someone talk pussy maybe finally pull trigger well one films caught offchance good enough record showed next time enjoy many s horror flicks branched little norm ie another glut generic sequels think may enjoy bad guy eventually turns person definitely expected see go way one genre watch comes hour half kill guess id give somebody care mei mean im nice guy dont hurt anybody dont screw anybody im nasty person life seems take honestly want somebody care im difficult person want live point really want end life fellow redditors need help soo year half ago met girl crush guts tell fast forward year find social media talking turns used anymore sees friend day start talking everyday months redevelop crush finds says feel way still talk almost everyday still know ask kinda things friends terms friends friends wan na give everyone life one understands better one talk asking reddit still reading thank heart precious time feel free pm dm message sleep paralysis last night im afraid close eyes yep read cool anyway sticking usual sleep schedule trouble sleeping eventually drifted started dreaming normal stuff wake theres something front bed multiple arms shit long hair bodys natural instinct lean scream didnt body wouldnt fucking move matter hard tried wouldnt move tried screaming silent tried hard nothing worked couldnt physically move really somehow close eyes stopped felt whole fucking hour demon ass hoe standing woke moved fingers literally cried slept baby im tucking terrified sleeping help make another edited meme study test thats tomorrow read title nothing say anyone hard time accepting introvert want cool fun life seems extroverts mentally handle life hell cant even go store long without getting seriously exhausted stupid hate hate generally dislike people weird generally positive outlook life people wish accept part im fat know sounds kind dumb feel im addicted eating think thats best word eat junk food breakfast lunch multiple small snacks throughout day im currently years old pounds try eat snack best hold minutes really need help believe want die someone please help find dads gun morning chain hanging punching bag looking real enticing talk killing help cant thisi dont know one talk cant anymore stress everything plus depression anxiety getting worse dont know ive tried going drs psychiatrists tell head fine nearly killed two nights ago didnt means though dont really know whats stopping struggling wth alonei guess seem okay 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counselors university end telling try medication strictly go another counselor cant go private counselor evidentially lead parents knowing happy fact still depressed avoid talking really help ive tried going gym months progress despite diet make feel better self conscious ive tried going clubs still outcast cant make friends anywhere im peak go one speak want die healthy coping mechanismsi bunch unhealthy coping mechanisms want hear healthy things people personally art therapeutic either painting writing poetry taking life breakup happened yeti friends guy two years started dating october good understanding related many levels problems emotionally always affectionate seemed genuinely want around gave reason want live happy excited wake day talk planned vacation together months talked hes whisk away northern maine adopt cats togsther made remember eat healthy lost weight fixed teeth make better past months hes talk anymore often hes curt never plays game day literally twelve hours messages maybe paused worry death ive patient supportive nothing seems help last night tried tell id loved snapped hes never snapped took surprise sorry mood gushing told hurt wanted help flips gets selfdeprecating stop swearing telling stressed returned love disappeared rest night morning acts nothing happened telling fucking game ive casually asking call skype anything want hear voice hear tell okay know clicked thought im making life worse might leave ive spent months saving money scrape together visit telling make happy heard fucking february read old messages still acted happy felt way almost year got happy little think knows inner turmoil im dealing ive never hinted ive tried seem positive supportive whole time lost loved one redflag years ago want feel hell think im ghosting one left left hard easier deal knowing made feel much dump someone love ive always loved want go chance tell feel anymore must remind unique ampxb mean useful guys wanted ask everyone bc tf im fighting losing battle pointyeah post wanting die im honestly really serious say hope literally hope whole plan officially ruined pandemic choice conform college dont life miserable parents wont let job wont able move im living house theyll torture finally give parents always win matter time fucking cheap shot covid close finally going plan still jobless back room day havent even started movie supposed make made promise thought keep probably face fans tell cant make movie im way depressed even school assignments havent submitted single assignment month keep telling tomorrow need catch work never sit bed contemplating redflag listening music last day school thursday ive done throughout quarantine procrastinate contemplate redflag theres many obstacles now cant handle anymore im finally accepting im fighting losing battle im going win hopefully week parents go louisiana ill finally end life ill post update delete account die pointless keep living now said id die couldnt make year looks couldnt unless kk dollars magically appears bank account expect miracle anytime soon miracle happen clearly purpose life now nope nope nope things feel getting better today things feel little less heavy almost scary cant help think calm storm good mobile games try want play something new got clash royale clash clans archero minecraft yeah good ones im sure imdb weighted average came low rating film opinion accounts overlooked gem movie rip torn fantastic stubborn noel lord tantoo cardinal superlative housemate torn cardinal underrated actors finally given stage work craft onbr br relationship always pleasant real humerous touching love story billed dvd jacket end tragedy lord simply aims high ignores advice take money offered power company movebr br music fantastic period sets ayo leave aight used crush dude bio classes quite talkative sweet funny lot things common asked excited go first date someone really buuuut actually got know himjesus hes expected brags anything literally anything mind 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quite lot due struggle getting day im sad anything particular way think id totally end life family know much upset especially seen everybody dealt brothers diagnosis im selfish enough put sometimes though angry know feel im going hell everyday even realise feel im trying convince deserve punishment something really dont sorry ramble wanted tell someone really anyone talk know pisses ending lifethat almost guarantee people made sure got level depression going milk make doubt mind first ones looking sympathy attention losing close friend colleague despite absolutely hellbent bullying nothing past year never post feeling desperate ending emotionally abusive relationship exacerbated depression redflag point feelings feelings lol words negative thoughts negative feels keep beating feeling particularly sensitive makes response negativity stronger usual finding returning baseline takes longer triggers keep coming advice exhausted depressed stuck neurotic loop always thought ended succesful one attempts ending life every person cares sad moment move thought people died family boyfriends family worked end living ones kill mom time feel keep living either know much take try either outcome terrifies mom said able move kill hate myselfi bottle pills desk know taking kill theyre hormones antidepressants want change everything myselfi hate ita ll wanted born cis woman nothing change know go without true nobody love im freak want todie cant mom accept want kill myselfshe son done much better went college right age graduated right age got traditional college experience flunked kindergarten graduated high school graduate college still live parents transferred usc college experience dumbass overlooking money plus longer years usc commute hour school thanks stupidityhaving college experience desire distant dream impossible point matter weird moms favorite perfect son yet blind dying bad thing going son much responsible especially financially competent intelligent hes going switzerland job hes confident enough married give grandchildren told day suicidal thoughts cried confused obvious really favorite die hope discover much better fucked kahoot really well getting questions right asserting dominance geography class questions wrong end nd place saying opinions random movie girlfriend day stupid amazing movie guardians galaxy remind breakfast club superhero actually good hours left existenceive made decision im overdosing tons different meds hours now end finally come pain suffering face daily basis finally come end ive truly loved support ive gotten subreddit cant continue longer goodbye everyone wan na talk bojack horseman finally decided watch bojack horseman youtube videos praising depiction mental health issues really good finished idk life anyone watched u recommend others type cute think im cute wish return monke typing quirks fucking stupid hell anyone supposed read saying o need s need z need stuttering messages cute cringe annoying yall coping mechanism fuck coping alphabet tell people use typing quirks motherfuckers throw around word ableist going type annoying ass way put fucking translation damn annoying ive never good enoughim years old male battled depression year never telling anyone today sort identity crisis felt worthless person felt waste life seemed crawl hurdle found less thoughts less often last year unhappy got point crying every day started looking forward help feel better last month gotten point cant even cry anymore matter hard want entire life ive laughed ignored high school zero friends two occasions grew close people knew within months started distancing moved university wanting second chance went years growing close situationally close first year dorm neighbors second house mates really felt genuine connection people university year contact single one im graduate school another chance year thing happening grew close distancing ive tried best many times feel exhausted drained nothing left today one friends brought dinner group buddies trying hard talk one point clicked people barely responding talked one laughing attempts jokes gave happens every time try communicate people last straw ended sitting silent hour cant anymore im done ive tried years years make interesting person someone people someone talk people actually form lasting relationships cant know im saying thats weird way say things personality cant figure drives people away makes people know start resent treat crap ive energy keep trying know people think important form opinions etc etc entire life ive unable communicate people see better looking better versed people talk everyone wish talk ive always tried become person wanted less wellknown music sports really associate bros results people spreading rumours calling gay etc feel talk people theyre turned right away im hygienic dress nicely ugly know im wrong years cant anymore cant keep trying keep shot rejected person thank whoever reads taking time hear think im suicidal lately ive thinking ways away found thoughts drifting death times scares brought post want end life something something know seems trivial yet distressing edit im sorry seems trivial issue especially compared others going hoping hear someones thoughts find direction life thank urge diehello st post channel english good always urge redflag even feel happy done well test thought always mind randomly appears im hanging friend eating homework happens mood drops quickly minutes recovers im really tired im scare one day pushs end anyone wish hire hit man themselvesthrowaway account fyi dont want live anymore im m std havent gotten diagnosed cause im scared sucks know never kill destroy family wish pay professional assassin kill within months something dont want see coming want shot back head without knowing poof dead fml richard brooks last hunt film star stewart granger even stand hear mentioned even tore vintage poster film presented signing later years director run wife understandable anyone one best adult westerns s years ahead time attitude environmentbr br many ways plays almost sequel one anthony manns westerns see heroes dragged redemption kicking screaming every step way grangers legendary buffalo hunter already seen light buffalo stampede costs herd cattle fit poetic justice hes dragged back darkness robert taylors callous proudly racist gunslinger justifying grounds ive already got guilty conscience might well money well raised indians hes fully aware damage hes disappearing buffalo heads extinction gradually becomes almost consumed selfloathing taylor hate two men fall debra pagets squaw sole survivor band indians taylor kills white buffalo hide thats priceless hunters indians different reasons showdown becomes inevitable though outcome certainly isntbr br taylors certainly ironic casting granger turning many epic roles mgm developed films quo vadis ivanhoe gave taylor s comeback years steady decline hair color may convince performance shallow violent man consumed hate wear gun gun wears grangers accent always convincing makes good quiet hero jimmy stewart mold trying keep hold newfound decency reconcile actions beliefs finally getting chance make amends russ tamblyns halfbreed skinner lloyd nolans onelegged oldtimer give good real star script tightly plotted excellent eye ear character mention ending stanley kubrick borrowed shining balances historical revisionism entertaining drama without selling either short new french dvd extrasfree boast transfer english soundtrack terrible time yearwife lot trouble lately lots fighting arguing screaming shes recently resorted calling names belittling condescending attitudes often overall distant detached basis shes claimed cared appreciate everything shes done past years marriage terrible time nd year marriage unfaithful admittingly retaliation smacked around bit cleaned act cheated years ago weve individual counseling put marriage counseling recently ive swallowed pride suggested marriage counseling definitely need doesnt want go claims ill play victim tell sob stories dont think understands counseling listen sides completely objective fast forward today mid fight told needed break arguing leave give space come back yells wanting leave later tells leave kicks house tells wants divorce locks bathroom comes gets video game goes straight talking guy shes weeks now sitting room contemplating ending dont gun hanging way id found pills well want painless quick seriously jumbled mess dont even think post made much sense want drive far fast see happens idk help anyone let us face little good world things keep us going false hope things better better world cold place one nobody gives fuck nobody truly understands alone inside heads trapped prison torment merrygoround hell reprieve drugs price future torment sick joke believe burying head sand comforting believe positivity comforting believe fairy tales live die barely carrying every time start picking peices life knocks back years years come realize destiny fear death brings respite deeper versions hell see positive things delusional donei cant cant keep going one fucking cares hate everything passion anymore want die care many ideas want courage husband leaves work tomorrow seems best time define dark humour guys opinions black people go church father guys take dark humour offensive af im patheticive tried hard end pills blades works never works master escaperedflag plan laid wait everyone asleep open window jump grab ladder backyard run highway jump fence fall traffic pathetic even pull im dont know anymore ive lost many people cant continue day posting random fun facts forget bored figs pollinated wasps eggs hatch female except one girls mate brother leave die go lay eggs nice day im sad im really sad laying bed well actually empty numb point stands sad fiancee guessexfiancee broke heart today let take child homemy fiancee relationship issues lately looking back toxic relationship gave last years child probably going keep fast forward couple hours ago moms house broken things gathering things decided calm enough take daughter came rushing take course flight fight kicks bolt door rain daughter without proper clothing calls cops tells took child mother comes chasing neighbors yard neighbor dude got right monster law physically grabbing take away dude neighbor pats back tells understands situation way go trouble done anything warranted called first place gives coat daughter invited talked things told cook two three meals day wake watch daughter sleeps till noon response know wanted marry real bitch mother never made anything fed daughter muffin today thats stuck without help feel heartbroken fiancee gave years life supporting professional dreams feel lonely time goes wayyy fucking fast enjoy lasts guess im gon na miss teen tbh even tho shit operation piss midnight got ta take pee wake someone game ill operation operation piss pissing super silence dont know control element element surprise boo bought coins first person make laugh gets original cat award title filler filler filler filler ampxb edit comments vanity awards honorable mentions last night prayed god killed today whether car accident building courage kill know know recurring suicidal ideationi pissed best friendroommate today moved new apartment lost dogs muzzle use keep calmer outside little upset started tell responsibility pack etc etc shes right course fit childish rage overturned box though contained doggy clothing soft things breakable objects held dear bottom box broke two upset started cry feel horrible normally stuff happens start almost fantasize downing bottle xanax washing alcohol hate childish hate mentally damaged caught loop make others feel awful killed selfgtim stupid even thinking waygtmaybe deserve die foolishgti make others feel awful killed myselfgtetc etc part feels maybe trying make suicidal thoughts focusing best friend feels im one lost something cherished im one wants kill anyone find cycling phenylalanine htp daily great way remove depression depression recently bad libido find phenylalanine really deliver motivation good feeling easily become unbalanced mixed htp today feel reallly motivated dlphenylalanine go least mg later tonight htp feel need phenylalanine htp great depression people make freinds iv never one scared ask someone friend im afraid ill mess make life worse ayo wants snapchat male whos interested kpop anime jpop science guys gals something important say anyways hate inform lost game done fakesim already suicidal treating shit better fucking pitiful attempts showing pity want never fucking asked failure useless leech resources contribute even bare minimum anyone even able kill anytime soon believe day easier honestly want kill ok ive grown tired repeated failures want kill though thought corrupting mindi goals compass leads failures setbacks taking two college courses tutoring third feel freetime creates anxiety felt long time feel aimless lost one thing done regards goals losing three pounds january trying lose total forty want reading ignorance complex learning something new anxious much reveals ignorance ultimately know depressive mode frustrated going circles want daily pain end consider casual fan dario argento every really good flick deep red tenebre seems one thats equally uninspired output opera tended disappoint still theres denying hes best horror directors top consider opera argentos finest workbr br definitely film trademarks present theres welldeveloped characters plot makes little sense begin scrutinize still think argento european equivalent brian depalma style matters much becomes substance typical argento theres beautifully filmed murder sequences unfamiliar mans work may perceive sadistic remark may considering often time misogyny really true argento stages murder intricacy eyepopping visual detail truly makes graphic violence art form plus direction look films impeccablebr br fortunately opera one frightening products argento director feel booming rock music works well horror sequences others attempt pull comes across cheesy acting varies cristina marsillach playing beautiful reasonably sympathetic never particularly animate young opera performer rest actors workmanlike job done argento acting never point beautiful colors terrifying violence overall fever dream nightmare atmosphere thanks brexitmy boss informed today theyll moving operations netherlands next month people lost job including mine bunch old beetroot looking cunts hate brown people used love country even feel home anymore absolute worst government weve long time insists selfharming country going worse im going walk outside parliament top fuck bigots fuck theresa may fuck tories continue write redflag note im sober reali drunk cry go ways without family finding stumble around house late night kids dads pick knives start note cry read every love note ex examine every photo us together clean kids rooms pass mess next day see kids hug tighter tell love dont want let go kiss little faces theyre struggling free go play yell theyre entering school doors love car cry open notes last nights redflag note dont right words enough words continue note walk work greet everyone smile declare great day im throw work throw headphones listen lyrics poor everyone found lasting love songs reminders ex hes dating found valentines day showed drop son girl shes course prettier probably smarter much offer im two kids two different dads wanted family wanted love know im selfish kids babies parents family im selfish im sick dont want die sad whats worse loving day overwhelming sadness final moments despair ill cry ill panic might regret sleep im fake im fake good parent friend daughter sister aunt inside body dead physically feel cant stop shitting amount anxiety ran red light today day dreaming past dont sleep thoughts revolve around man broke dream last night hugging kissing asked loved said said wanted im broken person answers explanations man abused mentally emotionally tore family away sexually assaulted told kill treated son shit dr jekyll mr hyde man called cps lied stole victim abuse god damn stupid maybe im real asshole wish feel nothing feel cancer ears ring ring ring wonder voices back chat filler filler filler willer biller ziller iti want least painful option fucking redflag last time ill feel pain im wondering exactly ensure ill die country guns pills home paracetamol ibuprofen knife theres bridge overlooking relatively busy main rood near take ensure death cant bear existing anymore dark placeim real dark place right now want pain stop feeling hopelessness go away feel world falling apart cant stop yesterday got huge fight husband partially fault escalated suffers borderline personality disorder took kids left talked im home still tension today oldest acting bullying brothers punished spanking sent room looked venom told hated later came gave hug said sorry heart still hurts feel im failing marriage children best good enough depression anxiety im trying cope stopped taking pills made brain feel foggy im sorry im rambling im sitting bed bottle pills want go sleep generally wake extremely anxious hopeless day goes tends better still extreme wavesbouts hopelessness sadness hit truck makes feel sick occurs random always help feel something physically wrong despite negative blood work mri severity depression fluctuate throughout day hate pmddnormal brain disabilities going behind classes thats okay need make plan professors work pmdd brain take bunch pills smash head wall good amount times go hospital use excuse behind im sorry guygirlabout year agosome one made post heshe need friend uhi said help never really talk much talk little likeonce think live diferent time zones didnt talk lot amd previous experience reason uhdeleted account dont even know person post subreddit wanted knowthat regret ive felt guilt time right ive feeling sht im sorry hope heshe fine hurt stupid action want know read one reason stopped suicidal still actually probably worse now ive feeling heavy guilt quite time nowi dont knowi dont know anything live im justsorry sorry stupid sht ive done someone defined definition intellectual person listen william tell overture without thinking lone ranger heartily concur surely tall order accomplish one leopold stokowski arturo toscanini leonard bernstein find nigh well impossible dobr br disgrace radio series television series along movie serials feature films syndicated newspaper comic strip comic books part make masked man plains faithful indian companion tonto deeply seeded element collective psyche literary folklorebr br legends started gradually first series radio plays written local use detroit radio station wxyz creator one george w trendle principal writer series mr trendles brotherinlaw mr fran striker year ranger first rode plains early western united states lone ranger tonto radio series successfully guided depression era americans mid late s world war ii postwar era found country midst supernova explosion invention technology new communications medium standing ready wings unable go forth day vj day achieved accomplished world america ready settle peace prosperity new technology course television surely need something roller derby wrestling marigold arena fill broadcast hours first time tv station anything except portrait mohican chief test pattern schultz soon post haste networks began tapping existing natural resources existing programming virtually ripe adaptation tv screenbr br folks lone ranger incorporated interested producers jack chertok harry poppe sherman harris jack wrather approached deal put masked man tonto television waves well radiobr br immediately went work gave us first season made use considerable back log radio dramas potentially adaptable tv dramas cast clayton moore fine supporting actor many feature film dozen years experience done work serials republic pictures thrill factory invaluable experience lone ranger cast faithful indian companion partner bringing justice various parts frontier sheer perfection charactersupporting actor jay silverheels must mention rift clayton moore walked replaced john hart season mr moore back inhaving missed much now back story first years filming gave episodes look sound made good use screen narrator gave shows feel authenticity individual standout one kind series actors employed veterans movies late silent era thru s s lot exclusively cowboy movie players good example casting glenn strange bartender sam gunsmoke vicious murderous gang leader butch cavandish cavendish gangs massacre texas rangers led origin john reid thought slain texas rangers lone rangerbr br addition old timers cast find lot new coming talent cast see people phyllis coates dwayne hickman denver pyle others cast week week along always calling fairplay justice peace western worldbr br last couple seasons brought big changes first use colour filming made difference colour tv set still long way household second new set musical themes queues rossinis finale u wutt new music never big deal us preferred old radio stock stuffbr br series two feature films done period lone ranger warner brothers lone ranger lost city gold united artists character permanently indelibly impressed identity people americans quick diary someone might depressioni dont really expect people even ready quick diary happened today pm rn im cafeteria college im first semi panick attack think im fuck hate life even though lot better lot people im fuck singlehandedly fucked life think point actually see future nobody job college drop one around friends family wrongdoings dont cry dont think im physically capable ive felt absolute shit tears cant come im sitting table eyes starting water dont want let reason im panic attack missed final exam important class semester taking two classes im fucking idiot thats classes take ive failed prerequisites major courses pass bullshit class semester important class math im failing hard im depressed piece shit missed class month literally two classes im failing fuck wrong hate much havent even studied final exam ive missed thought going wednesday morning going cram tf go take exam even im failing anyways im typing stupid note reason called professor three times obviously hes office didnt pick going email right now fucked obviously though oh im adderall thought today going study ass exam high xanax backpack later tonight go bed say im fuck mean im fuck friends family dont know anything im pretty sure im kicked college semester find obviously probably rather die wait happen know told beginning fuck never put situation parents always given support world everything literally best parents world love family love close friends one knows im going ive many opportunities change better always seem throw away hate much dont know depression dont know im fuck blow face soon im afraid though best thing thing tell parents cant imagine heartbroken worst letdown history cant never even consider killing never died reason wouldnt mind thats hard say type even though dont actually wish happen wouldnt suck reason spontaneously dying suck wouldnt want family suffer love much much never hurt think im much pussy anyways hate randomly die pain id inflict others wouldnt suck think way id happy really happy way finally feel anything tried xanax first time last night smoke little pen love smoking weed makes forget everything sometimes watch comedy movie laugh block world laugh movie whatever well xanax something laid bed floated earth typed realize stupid ridiculous sounds read thing ill probably realize doesnt even make sense now thats im going describe floated earth bedroom lights laid bed blanket literally floated earth one thing mind meditating mind body blank eyeballs floating darkness see dark room tv playing jump street yeah movie playing getting sleepy next thing knew remember right now turning alarm set wasnt sitting watching movie laying bed normally sleep xbox tv cant remember happened really guess thing people usually black forget happened took small dosage though wasnt expecting happen anyway dont know got sidetracked whats going yeah entire life fucked even crazier think fact worse gunna still find im kicked school still tell parents everything maybe drug stuff son failure yeah guess im really panicky anymore feel bit calm now typed heart rate started going feel might pass anyway life today actually pm now lmao im embarrassing emailed professor yet friend college library im cafeteria told earlier today study together im head pretend im happy okay nothing happening dont actually hate every aspect literally failing every aspect life thats fucking crazy really fault im fucking loser anyways ive now im going go pee friend study math final already missed maybe next diary note streets make far thats joke yeah bye real quick want point fact knew going happen last year even knew kept way position yet continued almost asked wanted didnt stop dont know whatever late start giving shit life anymore obviously bye sorry long didnt realize long stopped typing dont know posted yeah ask questions remind stupid want list much hate go forever one favourite films everything rocking soundtrack courtesy eddie clark ex motorhead loads action loads laughs totally ridiculous plot wonderful s stereotypes characters eddie putupon nice guy wants left alone different leslie wet come nuke rock burnout eddies mom pathetic roger geek ozzy preacher surely exists america boys rich vicious stupid girls vacant vain stupid ask forbr br well first theres sammi curr rock star amalgam every s badass rocker think rocket firing guitar theres scene sammi pulls old lady tv screen smashes roger hoover good geek favourite scene tim hainey gets long overdue reward sammi via wet finger plug magicbr br rock s love ridiculous films check one available dvd cheap trick ortreat think im suicidal cause rage im suicidal cause angerim angry humanity im angry sickened weve become hurt care destroy planet nature thats never happy sadness hate hate existence hate existence nature fuck gon na happy brother called immature cause want humanity wiped say blind one seeing see lost empathy species lack remorse things neither happy sad im full anger hate empathy stupid feeling eradicated hate caring people people kill wish guts cause finally happy peace day planes crashed world trade center nycthe pentagon attacked different plane missed us capital washington dc crashed field pennsylvania people died result attacks never forget im constantly fighting urge delete entire internet presence think neat dramatically dissapear everything innocent friend right innocent friend ill call emma stories sake walking lunch school talking right well comedic friend friends hanging emma didnt anyone laugh told give prompt ill make pickup line joke said taco immediately came mind ready taco shell wan na put meat inside sorry said hates jokingly girls btw sorry already done laughing apologizing waaaaaaaaay much friends want hear type joke hates one good day hope got laugh someone please inform fuck happening america friend pennsylvania im worried shit going nuclear treaty america russia expires february im confused means feeling suicidal m shy loner outcast virginim s alot people age married children busy work already clique friends hard make new friends age went lot verbal emotional bullying school continued college office jobs adulthood seems geeksnerds least geeksnerds friends growing even friends people said condescending ways talk look lonely study time ive never girlfriend im short etc ive deal much bitterness ptsd flashbacks pretty much whole life middle school past bullying affected life right now social anxiety people absolutely empathy shy people victimblame weak cant even consistently try make friends confident outgoing attending meetups many people cliquish unwelcoming towards shy lowstatus males many times people ignore say talk interrupt treat rd wheel talk others instead left alone make excuse leave etc ones friendly actually listen alot show following meetups whats frustrating feel im way proactive people yet nothing show regards always go meetups go alone whereas people already friends need go meetups strike conversations people whereas people already friends cliques away making effort socializing new people lesser status example one common advice ask people questions people love talking ive asked many people many questions shown interest either show disinterest give blunt replies talk length asking questions showing interest another example proactiveness ive spent nearly year weightlifting bjj yet really feel confident less shy less ptsd flashbacks tried meditation many times hardly noticed improvement ive attended plenty toastmasters meetings given numerous speeches yet noticed improvement life traveled nearly countries spent months living friendly rude towards possibly judging loser back home came escape problems back home another common piece advice society introverts play sports fun without talking much often taken seriously picked deadlast many times deal rude immature pricks trying shove rude teammates cliquish showing obvious favoritism towards friends guys taller etc im ok shape im around lbs another common piece advice society regarding getting dates numbers game got nothing lose asking ive literally coldapproached women nightclubsshopping mallscoffee shopsetc even one girlfriendlay got around girls willing go dates none wanted nd date maybe one wouldve interested hookup nightclub another guy took see angers many guys easily girlfriends despite never coldapproached woman always introduced statussocial circle use dating apps photos demonstrating statussocial circle choice coldapproach ive rejectoutcastloner whole life ive seen numerous therapists none really helped sure listened showed empathy really offer solutions im socially screwed least well career financially right much high net worth income age chump change compared software engineers age angry underpaid im finding nearly impossible new higherpaying job competition often feel unmotivated depressed lack energy study coding interviews etc make x make friends refer jobs employment gaps workplace bullying concentrate preparing interviews depressionptsd etc people crueljudgementalcondescending towards lowstatus males cant join cliques empathy go never experience excluded ignored bullied etc hurt people hurt people theyre hurt instead helping social rejects want project hurt onto shitted much even though nothing wrong hell supposed kill know guys compliments much beautiful handsome celery stick kind road movie oldfashioned trains slowenian late summer province beginning see someone underwear sewing trousers black cloth young man black trousers leaves house two suitcases see trouserspart missing flag mourning appearently father died train meets young lady almost without words many small gestures wonderful love story begins somehow surreal poetic little bizarre movie lot strange characters strange incidents beautiful pictures love beautiful details feel shit itonight might time slit arms long time god fucking tired want dissapear everything hard oh fucking god hate fucking place want end much ask tired read many commits theaters badi think certain type person enjoy movies person enjoyed waltons little houseu understand enjoy moviesbr br now loves abiding joyi knew bad news start moviei wish shown end instead letting think movie lot jeffit years later know interested girlsbr br want say enjoyed movies farwas crazy bookscant wait next movie way clark talks every time love see january jones appearancemaybe family reunion something wish cease existhere depth article personal experience depression anxiety came herehttpskayderellacoukdread tldr started panic attacks due phobia vomiting escalated general anxiety ocd son caused postnatal depression top mental health issues feel recently one bad thing another cant seem pick made decision hand primary care son mum come january attend nursery little normal friends expressed great distaste think best remains care three mental break downs many weeks considered redflag always stopped cant imagine someone explain three year old never see breaks heart write want happy cant help feel mess feel im enough barely anxiety depression great prospects work id work home talents stand afford work every time speak friends mum comes across though ill somehow cured things go back normal cant see normal cant imagine living fear germs ready mum love little boy deserves good life cant see able provide wrote noteits phone extremely hateful dont want people think know theyll talk shit funeral anyway sometimes wish way take everyone hurt im kind person couldnt hurt fly thats probably im victim abuser tho huh family gon na fall apart half second cats moved around around till im sure theyll dropped shelter work annoyed theyll hire someone old boss cheer nothing got better exes wanted tidy little end big mess bruh im filled much pain rn dont hang friends school sucks life plain boring im sexually frustrated theres nothing things pain bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh wind lion much good movie thought im young made long ago good saw amazed good family liked friends liked everyone showed liked liked showed arabs people morroco treated early s germans french even americans high school history teacher definitely show students high schoolers point view give movie good grandparents liked much bought little year old cousins even sit watched itbr br systemoffell pleaseim eightteen drug addict feel want sun rises morning want deal anymore know puerile desperate feel overwhelmingly conflicted confused please want someone talk anyone understands hard drug addiction need know live country abuse rape victims fault time secretive happened know people knew blamed hated leave poor sowhat suffering help country live purposeits cruel joke perhaps functional member society never work weeks body hurts depression takes whole im left compare seem anything work hold jobs never give second thought reason joke must thought questions eye beauty world compassion living things love people places money loved ones shared im excel field even exercise profession im good writer good photographer im good putting thoughts words describing people places wish id religious really say cursed easy thing serve purpose world loved ones thought taking life tragedy selfish act theres always family andor friends miss experience deaths much mean sure people remember family mourn see think much change know ive side reading know people really care want anything foolish rest assure promise wish travel im afraid die accomplish hope still write share pictures insignificant see feel wherever go nothing one remember care everything vain forgotten isolated segregated marginalized one really gives fuck thinking honestly one seems care much iim second option horses mars engaging animated short takes sometimes comical look process evolution eyes yet evolve story personal times sentimental supported strong digital animation narration involves viewer science fiction story fortunate enough view short widescreen format sundance film festival must suppose transferred small screen lose ability draw reader less thoughtful story stunning graphics wants free award deserve award hate life feel good emotions painpain pain life endless suffering every single day fair reason stay alive passed drivers test today posting reddit keep basically forever trophy passed license test really actually super excited feels f e e youre taking soon need advice dm first try passed d whats random thing made smile today kinda yum milkshake today made make face hope yall mfs day full smiles tomorrow u gon na bald whats pointyr old male recently decided take semester college im starting realize aimless life hated first semester thankfully community college didnt care ok school couldve gone yr didnt want trouble hating career parents dont really support decision im going therapy mildly helps im going going medication soon idea going medication makes feel weak need help normal feel subservient everyone yes kind obvious single decided stay friends one girl ive infatuated year rejected im starting feel shes talking pity ive tried lately harder harder justify living anymore reason im still alive month old niece ah good actors take bland material thinking movie tight police thriller may disappointed situations true life plot proceeds predictable clip pretty well see lays ahead way actors take many criminals secondary figures really stereotypes motion much dialog plain sillybr br love see good actors rise kind material make something love movie sam elliott nothing short brilliant taking onenote character detective falon come alive depth pathos never seen elliott emote much beyond usual scowling stoic stances delighted range emotion depicts film early fifties film looks fantastic bare chest scene gives hope middle aged men everywhere esai morales wonderful job elevating role det falons eager beaver new police partner easily played robin elliotts batman instead breathed genuineness passion role makes work despite lame lines given saybr br paul sorvino fun watch plays eccentric police captain seems know slumming movie ball makes fun us toobr br movie bythenumbers plot makes great performances sam elliott fans definitely one suck kick see spread wings much usually allowed guess im listening guys guess guess guess bored tired tired boredi wake everyday wanting sleep sleep peaceful whatever want lucid dreams im nobody reality wake everyday empty home friends family internet social circle eat meals workout fap work sleep barely remember names colleagues sometimes im addicted porn go gym admire pornstars bodies im years old virgin average looking short thing makes feel happy fapping playing games tire go bed want die really want feel tired time needing masturbation games make feel pleasure hope die soon made selfportrait idk post httpstwittercomraulstermasterstatuss posting cant post images friday im posting hand pic already made mistake looking application idk sign somewhere psych wards included reminded end perhaps someone check every maybe remind much damage times manage suicide ideation times literally impossible think anything anyone suicide want really want sure lot relate need help think good idea reach friend family member worried either panic think trying pathetically seek attention scenarios equally bad kind suicide watch applicationsservices david duchovny michelle forbes play young journalist couple want go california cant really afford ride share another young couple brad pitt juliette lewis save expenses idea stop various murder sites along way sites serial killers thing brian duchovny writer carrie forbes photographer know pitt earley lewis serial killer girlfriend goes along whatever says care pitt rule justice psycho roles scary thing well ive actually known people killers pretty much mindset anyway road trip goes along carrie guesses others money earley seems always come cash somehownever mind leaves someone dead though lewis role well one excels nottoobright waif good heart understand put beaten earley something things begin unacceptable carrie insists couple put gas station unfortunately point inside sees news bulletin tells exactly theyve ridesharing things go downhill rapid clip greatest flick world badi watched supposed unrated version wonder much cut rated version seemed fairly tame reallynot makes family fare anything unless maybe manson family love life earth beautiful people want die sometimes braini cant seem hold job bipolar severe case adhd feel hopeless gets better feel shouldnt exist love family beautiful fianc dont think make world nature beautiful find beauty little things feel demons back head close much handle dont want exist anymore want commit redflag existing painful lot time filled positive happy energy lows intense dont want anymore exist perhaps many viewers got frustrated film live lives without thinking deeply life want point distant arthouse film one best arthouse films arthouse films seen distant one really stands glittering piece gold even fair say films cinematography depiction human emotion surpass tarkovskys nostalgia one commentator got right sex jaded common feature among foreign films surprisingly lacking distant good way remarkable distant captures details life usually ignore rich essence existence often gets buried din visual extravaganza commercialized world fortunately distant much spare audiences see screen bare portrait human beings supposed computer programmeri finished college got ba computer information systems social anxiety disorder ptsd never passed interviews programming position job hated years started going back college second degree japanese goal teaching english abroad failed interviews need happy friendly plus guy ive relying spelling grammar check decade now cut finished second degree yet family asking coding bootcamps seem make people successful trying code reminds matter first interview time wasted gotten programming job probably enough experience go japan now seems hopeless life competition likable always lose guess ill live potential working restaurant forever go someone really kick depths oblivioni slept days slept days throat feels fire im panicking im panicking madman lay bed boundless periods time cant sleep feel theres something crawling throat feel absolutely miserable every sense word feel legs feel cant think talk correctly feel broken year old tell parents suddenely everything gets emotionally worse different angles youre ungrateful everyone go going ive already taken enough doctors know exactly feeling way make better vitamins vitamins mustve heard word euphemism million times last hours vitamins ive taken million months accuses taking youre im obviously much better life experience know feeling need antidepressants theyre pointless days look stay day sleep tonight hard saying things different days im sorry know love im sorry try listen storm room taking xanax trying fall aseleep wakes minutes later show video healing power vitamins cant think bigger argument erupts feel terrible guilty atrocious im failure son im fucking failure human im sorry read shit annoying life better first place cant let hit cant let voice go unheard feel swiveling fucking mess person cant function everyday basis something missing im forever broken spent hour shower cos didnt wan na go online lesson people anyway even awkward hopped help please messedup rn lost everything need couple dollars parishrmack sleep outside best find work smell bad starving n want money food last resort start stealing food give proof please someone anyone crying help cheated go oni want go depth gave senior year high school freshman year college life pride joy promised shed never leave always love spent last month relationship cheating ended hearing people official guy cheating now feel bad gave back dead dads bible held hand funeral even thank back even though said deserve back cheated one sees wrong everyone says nothing wrong destroys gave two years life crash entire emotional investment place put feelings gone one understood depressed important much lifted hell invited broke easter ive never depressed ive tried picking even better diet diligent exercise working sorting mind give ive tried two weeks still feel shitty getting better really want try anymore previous pleasures life enjoyable anymore usually go days time without eating people ive reached even listen anymore one im really done pain im finding way one way another one person made feel okay life left worst possible way want genetics shitdont wan na much detail im basically yo male acne balding head look feel disaster seriously consider jumping infront subway train whenever im hope might decent paying job kill graduation years afford rid acne ill still balding male im awkward slow boring looks problem ill certainly die alone standards nothing special pitty im crippled lost close one ridiculous financial problems im kid never grew flew radar im close hopeless join mc server anyone play want ton people youre welcome join rn nobody want btw running rasp pi upset little bugs ip im running ways convince life worth fighting fori know say anymore anyone come conclusion cant fix mind life clear option go terms watch one closest people die painfully cancer two years ago diagnosed early stages young cant seem insurance matter hard try last year including fact diagnosed bipolar last year stay psych ward longer afford medication finally helping longer insurance able hold job months time eventually lose mind start panic attacks work even manage drag noticeable usually reprimanded point emotional sad threatened losing hours causing hate even quickly much worse point stop showing thinking better without currently second month staying mother found cameras set house recording roommate apparently thought decided make sure cheat go hoping short stay knowing abysmal credit going need substantially increase savings cover moves plus things left behind forced recent job tried proactive talk manager things trouble tension staff involving starting make able preform job solution public discussion course bringing situation found new shit job fuck got place live right day start work text saying grandfather died needless say fucked job mom want badly relationship head thought made much progress believe hate needing ask help mean hate lot pretty disgusted mean disgusted think fix car accident insurance company total car decide damages greater car worth day ago made post planned kill year im going tonighti write title confirm im going use rope attach wooden plank going across top garage im going use chair finish job havent decided chair yet way fail wont able breathe one check good hour changed dont really know kind realised im well truly finished th november wish cooler date maybe one god mind id rather die go back day day life now ive listening lone tyler creator last song hear probably ill listen music hour beforehand anyone wants know bit im male college never girlfriend couldve didnt due anxiety part wonders couldve different born quite good looking girlfriend know emotional affectionate kinda relationship best friend care im going die virgin dont think care got acne self esteem plummeted cant shake dont want say acne killed think finishing im passionate football well ive gotten depressed even look football dont even care watch anymore nothing interests go gym one thinks anything wrong ive seeing doctor therapy long wait haha hope dont show school photo memorial fuckin hate picture shit im going put redflag note personal message college explicitly put picture big screen im evidently insecure afterlife family dont want talk love much hate fact im put pain temporary temporary popular kid school thats saying im great cool guy top hierarchy theres single person college hate couldnt friend think theyll react dont know react cry maybe day two theyll fine right funnily enough spent last day ill nothing chilling watched funny videos think im going go xbox later try fortnight battle royale people tell really good plus free making post final message reddit years importantly want know lost anyone redflag want know people reacted afterwards want know whether everyone okay without attention seeking im sorry dont want leave said nothing know used read posts make comments time year ago never life think id side think thats everything thats concerns schoolwork stress future pessimism one judging judging im going go dinner play xbox grab headphones phone turn playlist hang hours story crazy moms cat died fine many toxins blood died pm vet dug grave want older id writer film andor television im interested guys want scheduling redflag reality going break leave boyfriend next days tried times times hes talked staying disappearing mean breaking years love refuse go life pretending love right leave right break right date people married talks thats im done going bridge jumping known people jumped deception pass seems every week car found lot dark one around claim car one cars august st leave commit live life want choose live choose live life please comment telling give boyfriend another chance want want single want free want live life way want please please tell stay tell need save date ill thing need ill leave leave earth im donei need someone tell fact marry someone next eighteen months even smidgen hope ill something live dream finally come pass ill reason actually live reason live right now none turns person lied marrying eighteen months ill want diei really see point living anymore im going spend rest life alone friendless ill go work day put good face keep moving career along career im really suited go home empty house waste time fall asleep friends see regularly long distance friends live parents im looking houses right thats financially responsible thing think live another year parents im waste space resources theres point alive anymore im disappointment parents even admit im burden world even want risk passing fucked brain chemistry children probably ive tried exerciise helped bit ended back something everything choices actions pretty much determined genetics past im pretty much doomed fail time might try healthy eeod im lost cause ive watching reading lot horror stuff lately guess kind wish killed monster ghost whatever itd make things easier probably easier family im probably going kill weeks maybe sleeping pills itd kind nice go sleep never wake im sorry friends family deal awkward annoying depressing alloftheabove bullshit im sorry mom amp dad im sorry ali good friends good family ok without probably better even never even nice except big sister college sorry incoherent ramblings im halfasleep moment im going try rest another week work know feel livingim thought living next years makes anxious potential terrible things happen horrible things done financial worries country years im uk family dying things regretting later justim struggling cope emotionally moment overwhelmed want kill stop experiencing bad things happen forget things time im tired im useless recently quit job alone time work cope want go sleep started self harming use self harm kinds food punishment gym started physically cutting even feel anymore really feel done pissed many times post overthink post delete post something another day struggle pathetic george cukor always one favorites unsung hero generation nobody mentions cukor breath john ford howard hawks william wyler billy wilder yet look filmography sparkling comedies philadelphia story adams rib holiday psycho melodramas gaslight double life great semi western heller pink tights mention fair lady travels aunt service actors never put front camera feel certain tenderness watching rich famous flashes old master still much evidence candice bergen gives us first time career glimpses wonderful comedian become jacqueline bisset throwback days greer garson loretta young hart bochner steps teasing us promising something spectacular eventually materialize apartment zero meg ryan bergens daughter already meg ryan tired formula remains cukor film gather one almodovars favorite movies fuck raised told men show true emotions mental breakdown last night first time cried years tell anyone seek help without looking weak born pretty fucked family know anymore afraid given everything keep getting confusing much changing life know handle want dad see state done much make see man mum fucked years ago even mother figure trust talk know fuck anymore usually stop feeling used coming back scared going break soon talk remembered one time tied rubber band finger tightly immediately regretting afterward got violet less secs bite thing th grade moron knew dowdy queen victoria plump monarch virtual recluse years death husband prince albert actually led life fraught drama intrigue younger days young victoria chronicles young queens romance husbandtobe pretty good job detailing political machinations surrounding ascent thronebr br act setup draws right away following death victorias father duke kent less year victorias birth duchess kent eventually hooked former army officer john conroy offered services comptroller widow infant queentobe conroy insisted victoria raised atrocious kensington system rules designed prevent future queen contact children growing whats victoria forced sleep mothers bedroom everyday became queenbr br film explains parliament passed regency act established victorias mother become regent guardian event victoria acceded throne still minor time duchess conroy tried intimidate hapless princess insisted sign papers making conroy private secretary treasurer strongwilled victoria none refused go along conroys mothers nefarious plans duchess disliked king william regarded philanderer brought disrespect monarchy king felt duchess disrespected wife result duchess attempted limit victorias contact king overthetop scene seemed actually occurred history king berated duchess birthday banquet stating goal survive victoria reached th birthday mother become regentbr br king william kept word died short time victoria became eligible accede throne victoria took revenge mother support conroy blamed making childhood miserable banished secluded apartment buckingham palace number years victoria little contact motherbr br young victoria conveys excitement pomp circumstance surrounding victorias coronation queen good part film deals victorias relationship lord melbourne whig party prime minister unfortunately depicted film much younger actually beginning melbourne gains young queens trust become good friends early years reign sees melbourne progressive later loses respect somewhat hes revealed typical politician hiding contempt masses hes supposed championing reality melbourne father figure victoria film hints sexual tension prime minister prince albert though romantic rivalsbr br plot thickens melbourne forced queen must commission sir robert peel conservative tory party new prime minister film chronicles events bedchamber crisis peel resigned victoria refused replace bedchamber ladies wives tory politicians film leaves another scandal involved lady hastings one duchesss ladiesinwaiting accused affair john conroy becoming pregnant hatred conroy victoria contributed nasty rumors spread hastings alleged pregnancy turned hastings appeared pregnantwhat actually abdominal tumor victorias inexperience shows bedchamber crisis films scenarists ignore unsavory aspects character evidenced hastings affairbr br rest young victoria deals course romance queen prince albert victoria kept albert waiting film makes clear wanted acclimate duties new sovereign spent good deal time corresponding one another albert returned england gave victoria support trying times bedchamber crisisbr br find good number parallels prince albert prince philip current queens husband philip mainly danish went school germany inlaws german background albert philip made business reform etiquette court theres great scene albert discovers servants still setting table king george iii even though dead years alberts struggle philipas husbands monarchs find something albert philip became involved various civic projects proved live continually shadow everpopular wivesbr br fortunately theres excellent scene toward end film albert infuriates victoria perceives interference affairs albert want second bedchamber crisis goes wifes head arranges compromise involving victorias bedchamber ladies victoria barely talking albert assassins bullets almost cuts film albert shot arm never happenedbr br performances film uniformly excellent especially principals emily blunt rupert friend young victoria ends rather abruptly closing credits lean much toward hagiography mention victorias depression alberts death victoria still engaging drama fascinating history lesson feeling worthlessill always weird tranny woman know im loveless relationship boyfriend financial security finish school im old af high lows much handle days im afraid starting ive burned many people including family trauma runs deep body forever fucked stretch marks used fat lost lbs im fucking tall kill now even finish school become hair stylist self doubt forever prevent succeeding xanny alcohol things make anything tolerable fuck literally everything desperately hope spirit lives im ready move hey yes girls allowed guy dont use lube x better fuck cops see us guyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyysssssssssssss weekend know dis means 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natural even times ridiculous nonsensical works rolling stone noted review film better midnight cowboy film year polished hollywood academy award winner best film big name talent equally admire film flesh improvised somehow gut wrenching realistic without need complex subplots cause de celebre matter cause allbr br film grossed million dollars absolute sensation particularly german market ironically thought given censored version film posteditingsee note belowbr br curiously film much cut paste pops clicks flashes dialogue literally cut midsentence almost warholmorissey stating simple truth day life superstar snippets voyeuristic tendencies far better earlier warhol works hours sleeping statue liberty hour moviebr br flesh opinion first warhol films actually digestible given wide pallette warholsthe factorys first legitimate response hollywood phenomenon stardombr br first trilogy portrays young desirable male icon naive sought responding invitations please family subsequent films show 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someone least let alone love friends gotten tired respond texts leave read block even say yeah anymore hard around point wish want someone talk point even alive one want kill save pain future guess makes coward means dead soon fucking really sad one cares want die everyday never going stop god help want someone im actually considering itive medication two weeks due financial issues really starting fuck cant bed ive overeating considerably cant force shower anymore ive thinking killing im incredibly unattractive im embarrassing shoot brains miss father much every time talk problems even little bit people visibly annoyed think im going story toxic relationships decided share story reddit remind people toxic relationships much exist even young age look support middle one back little younger met someone quite quickly fell despite mates said lived road walk dogs park thought id talk bring matter cos talked first anyway days later im asked seems pretty legit atm started okay first met went park etc etc things changed started becoming little obsessive shed constantly want see started becoming violent first case chocolate bar thrown face joke btw hurt made mistake decided ignore red flags continued getting worse kept slowly becoming violent point slapped least everyday almost got knocked rock thrown head joke became sexual things looking good made mistake decided shrug basically abuse now shed steal phone deleting every contact force meet full punch stop seeing friends shed always make look bad one scared always hated telling people problems always seen unnecessary decided told mum adviced break near house things got violent retreat inside broke end tho day found cheating whole time one guy week later rumors spreading sexually assaulted apparently shed told everyone school make seem bad guy continue stalk call threats police informed today zero contact please notice red flags something toxic relationship rn tell parent police things worse deserve second attempt time im going iti tried thousand things make happy exciting life active end day lay head thinking point yet find answer wearing life away goes edit thank everyone wonderful people making sure put much thought make mistake going continue posting make decision let know edit going go longboarding hour usually calms may help sort thoughts ill back long hopefully edit decided easy way thank guys much great deal said gave positive outlook talked close friend well helped great deal couple posts giving advice correctly reported everyone positive advice given real life karma saving life thank much live long prosper anyone good art make something need new pfp discord draw wondering anyone mind making pay sorry dm interested grandparents afford presents party cake nothing tired thought every teen girl supposed excited sweet th want live competitive countryim study grade singapore sorry english good enough understand lot pressure im school people care much gpa academic result come back home read lot books got bad score teachers parents upset angry failed math exam friends looked asked whats wrong everyone class need perfect finish school go extra class pm feel want anymore cant escape either sometimes feel tired cant rest parents high expectation think mad tell want study hard friends envy people countries study hard perfect everything us tell people want write novel singing drawing immedietly think im stupid crazy im tired feel choice believe reincarnation want escape suicidal thoughts day please help mehi ive suidical thoughts day words want die repeating mind feel right now feel numb want die want stop thoughts horrible thoughts someone please help ive attempted redflag three times im state im contemplating lost hope heres story fthis redflag note rantasking advice everything started two years ago life pretty much started spiraling went straight downhill warning friends emotional support family anybody lost hope felt everything meaningless attempted redflag twice mother found second attempt help call ambulance let suffer throwing everything eventually blood three days straight told nobody family kept reaction anger understood first almost lost daughter became way much show empathy sadness worry angry kept yelling calling stupid ungrateful something reaction made afraid want live afraid die point nightmares dying mental breakdowns daily thought dead two years absolute living nightmare nothing worse depressed suicidal yet terrified afraid dying forcing live wanted want mother angry knew disappointment everyone around last school year became depressed bed developed extreme anxiety mom dad pick school daily basis kept anxiety attacks mental breakdowns terrible missed much school grades started dropping everything felt meaningless kept hearing insults every side either parents younger sister lack energy live losing appetite caused underweight horrendous amount stress parents school mind became eventually much even self harm helped anymore sleep even though insanely tired eat even though starving felt anymore worst thing anyone talk friends supportive family destroyed maybe even mental state one day body gave fainted room parents took hospital seven days went diagnosed mental illness sort tetany basically means big amount stress start attacks shaky body unable breathe pass another shit plate finally winter break came able away school toxic people finally fix sleep schedule least little bit know hospital made realize one cared visitors parents brought food everyday one really gave shit lonely make imaginary friend head talk least sounds crazy became attached one skip way january mom finally decided take action two years went psychiatrist surprise got diagnosed severe suicidal depression extreme anxiety got shit ton meds went home thought good way become old happy self happy meds supposed make happy right realize make bunch melatonin come brain go youtube post motivational videos still depressed sometimes looking back even think got worse time spent internet specifically youtube reddit got tired friends feeling lonely even though socially awkward overall antisocial person tried reach worked holy freaking shit worked felt happy happy first time two years felt fireworks exploding smiling found amazing friends reddit definitely best ones ive thing mental state id doubt mind screaming deserve someone much better secretly hate friends pity decided first time damn life focus little selfish ignored thoughts felt top world honestly ill never feel magical life backstabbed made thoughts stronger selfishness believed every single thing mind told fell little tricks mental state got even worse self harm got worse skipped school tried slit wrists kitchen eating sleeping medication mother found bandaged wrists put bed angry looked tired fought whole country ukraine blood whole kitchen wiped razors thrown away redflag note looked nothing happened laying bed even though moving still feel dizziness heart felt going explode head took good ten minutes rid blurry vision finally focus mother sitting next looking many emotions eyes mascara around eyes smudged asked thing told already wrote note fell asleep never took longer nap felt slept whole day honestly thought mother finally understood finally getting grip mental state shed supportive oh boy wrong forced lie everyone told make story anyone including sisters psychiatrist asked happened last piece hope crushed next therapy session psychiatrist told burnt arm making schnitzels mom well believed definitely mom fake alibi understand mental breakdowns became pretty much daily thing kind actually idea eyes come doze tears friend time internet friend told everything felt absolute shit totally hopeless lost worthless suicidal something made feel type way gave hope everything okay silly believed felt good dream hope id fall asleep holding pillow pretending id talk sister time point got annoyed listen anymore drew comics love found light darkness mind become best thing happened time hope fade one day come back finally got guts talk mom told ill go psychiatrist tell everything unknown reason agreed go think way tired done even procrastinate told feelings redflag attempts something kinda funny happened day look away mental breakdown disappointment moms eyes told hed lock mental hospital redflag watch crying saw face still accomplished something day actually invited lesson gave norwegian students studied psychology talked english native language mental state felt good really nice mom even told proud got locked mental hospital risk commiting redflag week horrendous treated us animals cooked disgusting meals threatened feed us tubes nose finish whole thing nurse told first hour yelled us constantly extremely strict point even go toilet water mean every visitor let us shower everyday supposed wednesday saturday disgusting craziest week life first time life happy back home excited see comfortable bed teddy bears mostly talk friend course fuck things friendless hopeless therapy working meds working nothing working mom kept constantly telling head anf stop depressed easy said already found friends nice speak barrier let felt point exfriend took hope happiness take long mind start hitting huge waves depressing thoughts even bigger waves usual take long believe fall already broken heart broke even found one wanted kill think ive felt hatred disgust disappointment moment took sank almost killed person someone almost died felt worse murder now im pretty much feeling worse shit happening everywhere around hopeless depressed suicidal agonized self genuinely know meds work therapy work nothing fucking works week left school starts feel last drop know im expecting think advice nice read way thank raped couple months ago life fallen apartim sick feeling worthless raped second time life amazing luck past july mention depression anxiety diagnosed asd homeless time im barely leave house already homebody gotten point im actually scared go anywhere around people feel safe ive depressed life want anymore feel freak never really fit anyway think thing keeping guilt really amazing whole thing cant live life someone im ready stop hurting cant take anymoreim even sure im writing im going say ampxb cant take dont people go around smiling laughing time life living hell life time isnt fight left dont want live want everything want quiet want feelings go away want end dont anything fight ampxb life ive living undiagnosed adhd making life difficult least teens one family member made life better grandfather got cancer died fighting years alive wanted take life disappoint way make fight even worse died years ago went away cant find anything life worth fighting cant really disappoint isnt ampxb huge money problems cant tell much dont know lost control years ago ampxb dont friends left ive never good social settings lost friends adhd lost head scared people away rest bad behaviour general life ive used internet games people really care either way game supposed fun ampxb ive poor relationships ended badly usually ive found new rebound relationship short mess ampxb year ive knee surgery didnt go well either went deep depression failed keep touch job lost lost rights welfare cant work dont income ampxb tried start school last autumn work focus dropped ampxb found method want end everything go trough moment really anything stopping dont anything fight dont want live dont go trough know work self rest life fight started cant see cant take ampxb said dont know im writhing want needed tell someone ampxb iwantout meteor showertheres going meteor shower soon midnight january rd dream im going one meteors want remembered someone sees meteor fly shower really wan na diei wan na commit redflag sometimes feel lonely really wan na die im frickin afraid death know im coward theres still bit life empty shell coming homei want go home parents house violent rude sister lives home anymore share kind opinion starts hit scratching feel safe bfs home home feels whole household job always fight says live without paying rent bc still go school money job feel wanted feel lost parents understand see sick violent sister think bf care feelings jas interest ask says loves anything rather staying fight beaten younger sister want anymore one year one damn year start working home home place welcome feel well know long keep going want place feel loved welcome place want go home cut wrists bleed bleeding pain coming home hard value one wish disappeari want may last rickroll decided rickroll dads friends went phone pasted link friends chat dads friends posted video naked women dad thought saw video dishearted mom said know think anymore btw im asian muslim hey music question anyone knows anything abt latin american musicrhythms really beat rhythm body language intro kali uchis know bossa nova know style music really though id love find anyone recommendations anything please tell really really feel nothing hated way bothered say long time resident western pa intimate knowledge topic found regfreshing authentically captured film kudos producers epic great legacy school children years comebr br attention detail realistic depiction complicated web events make one kind productionbr br viewers find mesmerized storyline captivated storytellingbr br grahame greene magnificent presenterbr br bravo want outi want quick easy escape permanent one want end pain avoid future pain suffering want die quickly painlessly way wont affect love dont want anymore never asked born right suffering even body gives succeed leave behind grieving loved ones forever traumatized taking lifei wish easy painless way loved ones forget existed hurt fair suicide hard know tell anyone thismy heart feels cold feel lonely beautiful family many loved ones care good job wonderful life still feel miserable want end girls wife daughter fuck hurts live thank listening really mean thank im doneim see anybody still care friends dont anyone pour emotional shit even mom last year ill frank mom found taken weed form brownie one classmates curiosity says dissapointed wouldnt teachers dont know year im almost graduating highschool ended classmates guy gave shit didnt even tell mom truth happened told spat bathroom year end classmates mom wants change class section inform faculty drugs batch sure enough name turn kicked know fault right id rather die face problem every night wish go away already far younger brother moms favorite ive disgrace whole family go lonelyim fat ugly gay ive never friends social anxiety pretty much certain alone rest life see hanging felt likei tied towel tightly around neck little bit wow oh wow wasnt even painful almost blacked cant wait real thing fucking hate schooli cant anything right pass tests everything right fucking fail final exams cause fucked brain cant comprehend everything mom starts yell swear im gon na go plan hate life dead set downing mg xanax fifth makers marki know irrational thoughts want love life hit biggest walls one fucking wants life someone please talk titlei dont know anymore made dumb decisions fucked around senior year high school instead planning future years passed ive still never worked consider real job let alone going school quickly losing live keep thinking hanging taking aspirin cutting wrists thing thats kept numb glimmer hope still left fear fucking live failed attempt loveliness entails met girl failed shooting stuck wheelchair scares fuck happen ive applying really simple retail jobs need around people im going lose ive socially isolated left highschool every time try reach meet somebody either busy anything meet thats ive sitting ass almost years honestly dont know ive made fucking far horrible diagnosed social anxiety disorder probably borderline avoidant personality disorder unable leave house anything social years post high school ive therapy helped anxiety still horrible self esteem every job interview ends call back reinfornces horrible feel mself top therapist moved away left second therapist seemed completely disinterested helping didnt problems told leaving job couple months agreeing new regular therapist lady go fuck timing told leaving impeccable told scared getting suicidal nothing life seemed working threw oh yeah im leaving good luck top im transgender hate cant find anybody love everyone fucking stick ass completely repulsed even im apparently one beautiful women theyve seen comments model pretty time yet one shows sort romantic interest im damaged goods hate body time hate voice anything hate wish disappear right im taking larger normal doses klonopin keep complete meltdown want release want go sleep forever im tired trying im tired every day goes leaves feeling literally nothing live family treats shit lack motivation finally motivated nothing seems work go back hating wishing someone come house put misery please give reason keep going dont know keep trying feels vain truly feel cant go much longer new years resolution apply one job day far ive gotten two interviews anxiety already fucked second one lady apparently couldnt hear phone probably ive taken enough klonopin calm horse feel ive already fucked chances even though interview hasnt gone one hopeful yet got callback told interested even though interviewer made sound going always happens hopes invest much energy something happening doesnt follow completely crushed guess got breakup well understatement month days whos counting dumped text talking online fried asked still liked said direct quote used im bi different group people five seconds later screenshot conversation sent played dumb first thinking meant see im bi part rather used portion guess thought good tell cruelly end gave saw meant see natural reflexes hide emotions kicked pretended give damn still honest cant quite work feel emotions range mature yearold become stronger together know weird around still civilised go die fucking bastard whos far chicken worth time around put fake front smile laugh act care inside hurts see happier without guess fact life miss miss quirky geeky personality obsession things medical miss tried fit crowd yet managed entirely unique special miss way anything cheer miss ability make laugh split second miss make feel person world mattered miss long talks way first person approached faced problem viceversa miss trust best friend barely proper sentence passes us day month got dumped know im yet still feel hollow inside part missing friends tell hes worth hes trash move still defend friends right know feeling way normal know terms hiding emotions right know want best friend back want happy need love please treat friend im sorry whoever reads new felt typing seeking advice listening ear read thanks hearing know doi mean know obviously im posting says something currently years ago life going great getting ready graduate high school id accepted one best colleges program exactly wanted loving whole family supporting parents saved enough scholarships id received completely pay college now nothing changed im exactly im years academic record noteworthy laudable financially im great place getting industry internships im track great success except im probably going kill day now somehow past years entire life became lifeless nothing changed surface everything tainted tinted grey opening scenes wizard oz find joy anything anymore sad either sometimes feel crying screaming cant sometimes seems everything sort goes back normal little im super busy something always comes back ive trying keep busy possible im wearing end sleeping much wallowing scare sometimes know everyone invasive thoughts random things never mine really freak sometimes ill find planing elaborate redflag schemes methods notes nothing written sometimes random self harm stabbing know im much pussy actually anything thats worst sometimes find looking around people around thinking many people kill police showed happen stabbed person best place put bomb makes sick stomach want kill especially know nothing file disqualify buying gun enough technical knowledge build bomb knifes pretty much everywhere wish id run cement truck want tell anyone id probably put psych ward chance kill really goes window want put family sister got trying kill actual reason severe physical pain months doped knows barely distinguishable heroin pain meds think parents take within last months ive feeling way years trigger trauma went rhyme reason im guess im fucked im going anything tonight guess want help im slip awayyou scream one hears sit mock disdain blood seeps arm crying loud pain broken glass beside bath water turning red laying bloody puddle trying rest head hear family laugh say last words feeling high sky flying away birds pain going away cant help hear youre mum crying next hurt fear try speak nothing comes know going away youre never going live doubt feel death coming near hear say love slip permanent sleep reply love cant stop thinking people evil ive gone abuse people cant imagine im dead im safe peoplei never want see another person cant risk getting tortured ive met many evil people flatmate threatened kidnap rape torture kill year thats one example someone pos sadly ive gone much worse bs im depressed talk lets say family trying kill opened eyes evil humanity nearly killed day im glad didntthis painful still pain better know im going okay ampxb came yearslong emotionally avoidant selfsabotage campaign come close greatest fear realized hands id successfully ruined best thing happened pushed woman dreams away much shed enough coming back manifested greatest fear rejected left alone nobody blame fullblown panic attack total meltdown wanted end life straight either going jump bridge take couple valium cut open arm drift away pain knowing caused demise pain knowing id deliberately let wonderful person go misery put last years super condensed returnedtosender straight heart word unbearable truly ampxb humbling know powerful willed ruin life relationship im done im choosing goodness love happiness muster truly believe deserve ive forgiven pain ive inflicted onto onto ready person already best version im sure end sharing hope im opening whatever might come next ampxb im glad hurt im sad got point trust issues ok know going long story please read talked girl weeks know lot started continued talk called gave instagram met snapchat one day asked single said yes two day later said needed unfriend parent didnt want boyfriend found weird used talk time didnt said anything parent anyway unfollowed yesterday followed followed back talked four hours says something tell dont mad texted ok wont told unfriend boyfriend trust issues drug arrived takes couple sniffs even know dying ideal way go day goes getting tempted use feet away makes feel comfortable months cycle anhedonia looking forward nothing suicidal purpose life none want feel need stopping ready booked hotel room intended end life new years eve today live intended right actually even felt bad last week leading day kept telling going worse anyway stick plan end pain theres certain pattern depressive cycles know every time manage come side keeps coming back always feeling way years really think going better okay days bad days bad days bad days always regret going prior plan end life feeling bad entire december still feel great bad enough want end right now funny spent week writing final note another letter best friend things need help wrap loose ends passwords bank details etc cleared things work thought ready go last days suddenly felt damn still things stick around shows coming want watch albums coming still want listen even managed clean room yet maybe time go now alone hotel room feeling okay part think im going live time even though know im going regret next time feel super bad really know stop hurting stop want know going worth want bad win even win tired star wars question sequels making older movies popular lack supporti know live support redflag depression pretty weak resources help single males yet group risk made appointment see local mp hope general election coming take complaint seriously told week wait support group meantime medication help meits ridiculous two sources help access samaritans wondering take frustration serious question rude remarks struggling find purposemy life completely without purpose bring nothing table im single never married children dont home limited social life thing interest run marathons half marathons trail races etc im pretty much useless irrelevant everyone around know kill tonight buti methodically planned life literally got point spreadsheet date live much think every last person place thing numbers turns thats bad way try understand last tonight im donemy girlfriend broke second time two days ago actually happy last week school fun well football changed gf meant world incredibly depressed think im killing somewhere next week cant hold anymore ive going classes ive fighting mom dad last night actually cut wrists still red bleeding dont care anymore im soon care try convince im wrong dont think sick tiredim sick tired sub dont really point going reddit saying im going kill someone offers advice people say naw im going kill think sub shouldnt anonymous bitch ass niggas think bad situation stand behind words face repercussions false alarms wolf calling know say hey none isnt point caring people helping see countless posts people saying going kill tried everything havent tried everything cause tried everything effort wouldnt suicidal reddit look mirror take control soul past days going onto week weird sometimes scary dreams never one trapped old school bullies move another semilucid within dream point kind walk idea weird dreams coming nowhere really messing depression anyone give helpful advice really need weirdscary dreams im yr old female ive never person call friend life half year period barely left apartment first job warehouse job year started working couple weeks even though ive long havent formed relationship anyone always avoid getting familiar anyone thats default way hate fuggin reddit many good memes videos saved tf deleted happened wh h e f u ck commit redflag thats hitler wan na hitler cant sleep guys deal insomnia tried everything tea lofi know wants free award comment first second place gets follow tenth anniversary free award contest skhool really bad ton free lessons dont share many friends end alone lot bekause im bad sosial wish people considerate feelings always fuck house break never hows fuck house break wore normal cloths first months maybe geeting better im careive told week ive getting worse told every day lonely ive apparently makes dependant walk together morning classes one class day sometimes sits next bus school fuck dont care ones cared worse ive feeling ones gon na miss matter directly bluntly say im feeling brushed ignored someone help mei feel rlly alone rn rn need help im good man brain makes feel nobody wants dont stuff people wont way im eating healthy im overweight want loose weight healthy able athletic things stuff im overweight think whatever im eating still skinny people eat though might unknowingly eating little heres generally eat day breakfast small lunch maybe half cups leftovers previous supper black tea honey let eat something unhealthy piece chocolate supper eat little less regular serving whatever mom makes ive weeks working times week havent expecting bad health effects dont think stomach grumbles lot thats probably normal someone calorie deficit maybe isnt idk need outsider opinions hi d hope ur great day long enough know crush wan na know cuz tried give crush soda wanted lemonade alone alone confused question even question wheni lazy ass ive loitered around shit life long must continue must live according societyi born life must graduate degree job drivers license start family say created must normal labeled insane mentally defective must listen masters mean nothing extremely masculine rich successful smart tough must love material world im going hang going free endless cycle dread try best spread joy love end efforts meaningless mocked time time sorry childish rant truly life nothing suffering illusion happiness goodbye sorryi took mg xanax hope forgiven act hope family friends forgive failing failure next life badly take gun shoot head past never change haunt rest life want die sometimes know someone cut really deepacross planet know way send help please emergency yo people say got barz famous stuff know sounds stuiped go tho yolo haha eeeeeeeeeee dm wan na hear xd maybe people familiar raping im going dead within monthi hate life anything cant continue anymore want pain within month likely see committing redflag bf poggers idea wan na say might harassed bf amazingim gay hes sweetyi love cuddlesim still thinking abt fact found screenshotted first compliment gave himhes simp giggles gematria intro lyrics tere teh teh tuh teh tew tew tew tuh tuh toh tuh terew terew ter row teh te tero tere te ro rew x lars von triers europa extremely good film hows von trier stylized way tell story least europa whole film experience even see small television screen even tricks opinion film complete real moving piece cinema films top list think perhaps scariest gothic complete film around right good ones one favorite final scene one harrowing scenes rantcunt fuck cunt fucked life cunt fuck cunt fucked existence hate goddamn life disabling pet camera parents took stuff put pet camera room motion detection disable stuff back cant really cam without seeing mom dad sister trouble reason constantly gang iq test long back mine came back around might think besides point reason expect swing pitch voice constantly talk talk baby reason think im talking baby talk babys everyone everyone aka vice versa prefer talk normally smoothly unless emergency something requires different pitch reason think im mean saying good response smooth normal voice ground reason theyve even gone far swearing threatening kick house im even questions ask ape example might watching tv ask im watching playing tv ill prefer answer theyre staring tv proceed gang ground didnt reply even explained didnt fuck wrong people idk years endless pain suffering suffer skin infection spreading rapidly ive trying go doctor trying traditional herbs etc nothing really cure im depressed stopped going school months scar everything making lose confidence maybe matter time enough family keep telling pray pray pray driving crazy thing keeping killing promise someone even care love anymore want free im tired saw movie first time liked dancing entertaining read somewhere got part movie knew dance scenery great yvonne talented woman beautiful laughed silly kissing scenes great old movies grew munsters enjoying watching earlier movies may best still worth watching see act sing slowly purchasing movies watching receive large collection memorabilia first saw ice age subiaco cinemas came back time even liked sort warmthbr br weve video number years matter many times watch never gets boring one element makes different d animations made time characters particular home leave nomads thats really refreshing uplifting watchbr br individual character surface appear putting theyre really good friends well characters charms even bad guys sid sloth charming annoying overaffectionate naive sort way manny adorable depressed reclusive character forthbr br another great point movie beauty animation environments characters modeled originally clay giving film artistic edgebr br another aspect adds feel movie gender means little hardly female characters really realize watch times even little effect way view film due theres mention nuclear family really pathetic setting ice agebr br ice age great movie proof much effort put d animations shrek incredibles came go bed watch jojo want fuck slept little find another subreddit shitposting upd thanks ill sleep guys blackmail girls trying pics vids omggggg ask nsfw worse dared send pictures ribbons hair cause promised dare something now blackmailing picture things vids meowing help anything next humiliating smh live asian male im unemployed employable skills bank aspergers think family friends respect ive spent life socially isolated extreme social anxiety panic attack weed last year ive felt numb depersonalized emotions starting come back think theres chance might kill please tell hope situation anyone say better theyre lying want stay around longer whati really fucking hate im fat useless worthless sorry excuse human wish hadnt backed redflag attempt long ago held knife stomach today didnt guts presence unneeded one even wants still opt keep fighting dont think anymore im fighting war never win keep spiraling deeper depression swallowing whole nothing exist bring others pain im tired hurting everyone driving everyone away yelling everyone hated everyone im giving st wasnt meant stick around long begin lost faith existence higher power long ago cried hands knees prayed forgiveness someone rescue one heard cries point know im screaming void set free cant feel anything end inevitable want sooner recently read north korea defects human rights violations made feel hopeless know evil world nothing changed think will vent cant resisti friendsmy parents think im idiotthey dont love menobody wants talk diseasecant play many sports disease life shiti want redflag want die kill paini want die kill pain silence words inside head sometimes feel life gain feels already dead dont feel beautiful husband left daughters packed moved georgia leaving us stranded broke every man ive loved brutally hurt emotionally physically want see sun feel happy another day want strong children im busy side eyeing people around im twighlight zone non trusting even best friend looks harbors resentment towards day two husbands friends proceeded hit looked happy shes married matter likes anyway meanwhile dead inside give shit didnt respond coworkers ive turned dates movies dinner hell wrong im stuck give everything anyone around im wife learns muscles order rub better learns favorite foods cook im friend speed dial wheneverwherever photographer video editor every gathering decorator main chef shoulder cry battery energy needed im idiot holding neon sign graduation one goes little nuts ones love wellnone shit matters husband left debt bills may soon homeless need something im drowning depression turn music writing passions arent helping sick crazy flu one cares everyone im sitting completely alone bother breathe another day black lives matter know people subreddit going start screaming alm comments come say lives matter black people trying fight equality none yall saying shit george floyd every black brother sisters death hate crime start demanding justice equality systemic racism bullshit people wan na say lives matter question come high majority people say lives matter white americaneuropean black people hispanics minor ethnic groups understand true meaning black lives matter smh yall saying lives matter ignorance thats really case paedophiles lives matter ku klux clan lives matter hitlers life matter even bin ladens life matter ok point high majority people say almwhite lives matter whyi feel everybody world something live life gets hard depressing people admit everyone probably suicidal thoughts one point another got ta strong wan na someone answer peoples problems wan na kill tell ill see help solution problems ass bigger act fact flair rented son recently found interest kindergartener time idea unfolding liked way told documentary one movie recommend see concerning one normally see movie actors well known movie nobody known see movie concerning hear firefighter two losing lives saving people feel rented movie definitely consider adding collection well done indeed heart goes survivors families victims god way things saw ex guy holding hands hes wearing iron maidenmy fav band shirt jeez poser got shat universe multiple ways dreading college start first day senior year tomorrow dumbass zoom shit real school im really dreading college really homesick im going need come home ton theres schools within biking distance im applying one super competitive based subreddit full asshole boring kids idea college culture im accepting person im type kid make pretty offensive jokes college kids super sensitive vibe expected mature love kid feel college kids serious mature compared high schoolers im worried making friends im barely halfway puberty im gon na look mad young need play sport occupy sense im good enough play varsity college id form sort club sport team ton work feel bad husband want set freeim together years wonderful man best friend deserve right got together accident caused nerve damage severe chronic pain body takes care alot constant health issues made relationship miserable cant equal partner much end causing many issues deal im currently locked bathroom crying horrible fight basically knees apologizing hes giving silent treatment looking straight ahead refusing answer literally acting exist begged answer even say want talk right nowand turned tv even look hates everyone grown hate deal truly believe woke one morning found dead sleep relieved sad finally free someone useless miserable broken marriage feel hes pity want set free finally die already life mean anything anymore redflag helplines best worstless weeks ago ready die wrote note makeup nicely chose outfit last ready willing able im going put method anyway way came full adrenaline hesitated knew hesitation leave injured instead dead called helpline desperate originally give bravery see redflag let help told location police turned quickly taken ambulance locked days released week ago funnily enough problems disappeared today started considering attempting called helpline saved life last time time told woman phone want overdose says fake till make need find something really love found purpose yet help someone instead thinking thought want kill self tell thought leave considered barista course go work waitress point wtf silent talking something look forward right lady come fucking career advice idea one day becoming waitress going make kill right now want waitress think type job make want live fact ready die talking future career going make even determined asks going rest day today told kill anything ive said helpful know sounding upset offended havent said anything thats made feel better audible gasp makes feel im good job shaky voice going cry seriously want comfort right now starts breathing weird going hyperventilate want deal shit hung rude person woman really right person working redflag helpline going butthurt random life advice going talk suicidal person ledge fair made angry enough distracted redflag now im scared die damn want diemy greatest fear death child even really understood meant die knew scared never exist disappear death terrifies brain wants die wants stop everything done life fucking videogame brain wants press pause stop time stop life stop everything thats works cant stop thinking want die want die fucking ironic feel numb constantly theres film senses everythings dull cold grey justbland nothing feels real feeling real time much input time feel nothing self harm goddamn teenage girl fucking feel something thank god nobody knows least nobody knows person knows mortified definitely able live thats due pure humiliation knowing someone saw pathetic even know anymore ive become sort sick hypocrite friends school always talk theyre depressed sad want tell shut fuck nobody cares problems really nobody cares anyone im bitter disgusting helps case jump fucking bridge something cant im scared die im stuck fucking loop goddamn joke know thats life hows day going dm bored ass im bored damn mind willing talk anything hit im sure anythingi know even belong even sure depressed point think must suicidal thoughts best times last years therapist says theres good chance go away bipolar disorder episodes even im medication sloppy taking last month im sure thats contributing factor lately past week half maybe ive nothing sleep cant bed one two days made outside one made work im essentially using sick days right now go sleep wake take benadryl nyquil sleep rinse repeat day feel purposeless lonely thats true feel im slipping acute sharp painful kind depression numbing sort drives nuts anyway feel want end scare anymore ive essentially suicidal six years im sure good used many good things happened recently cant seem hold feel im stuck way finally gon na itfound autistic horrible hole life meaning people turns disability thats impaires ability communicate oh im girl gon na worse realtionships going downhill finally realized fcuking autism paired fact high functioning lack sense self always though regain point geuss becuse life long condition gon na tell therapist im gon na kill give heads bounce post may soukd bit casual subject matter idk deciding gon na kill ive felt happy found rather funny humorous love things anymore two dogs one died last night kennelwhen post normally mention angry angry wake go sleep think past look future look present job know id hate much feel anger time today wake hysterical crying precious fucking dog dead died alone kennel supposed pick tomorrow separation stressed bad hit existing conditions died dog one things love died alone scared agony thinking itd abandoned kennel know say suck rantso idk im dont anyone comfortably tell whole internet ive prolly suicidal watch mom cousin murdered cousin still mentally physically handicapped day due event escaped fully fractured head backstory ive felt guilty experience much less compared everyone elses event various family members tell dies instead shouldnt alive wish instead reason pity family members go much things along lines understand said though agree dies instead sisters mom stop crying sleep anxiety problems breakdowns dies dad one true love stop sad hiding wants strong us sometimes think couldnt save still alive reason im terrible weak selfish conceited good person saved funeral everything began abused verbally physically mentally ran together see much pain life caused people around knew going help anyone kill least reminder event cause thats reminder day dad lost wife siblings lost mom grandparents lost daughter aunts uncles lost sibling goes scars run skull reminder lived torture couldnt bad im arent month deaths tried slit wrists stupid four year old thinking even power cut deep enough die couldnt cut far enough cried pain treated say trying cut fruit knife slip family believed dont know life went one knows wasnt accident ii breakdown breakdown years one see cause didnt want cause pain anyone around act fine unaffected called robot family friends emotions didnt want express never wanted happy cause fell insult mom cousin people around happy made people around hurt much dont think ive happy take pride never happy im taking away happiness mom cousin experienced didnt fully try comment redflag last year didnt want experience pain though made worse family members dies pain endure couldnt even slit wrists bleed couldnt experience pain feeling bleach going throat endure seconds felling breath taken away strangling chose unpainful way knew oded combination many pills got saved doctors said reason lived cause didnt chose right combination pills theres another thing failed couldnt even chose right pills die school month didnt contact anyone gone ones knew anything happened dean teachers knew medical reason didnt know details hospital alone time began seeing kill even monitored saw girl killed starvation finally found something knew accomplish least little pain give family members gave slowly stopped eating aloud wear clothes got baggy colthes wouldne revealed acted happy recieved food everyone suspicous end mystay got weighed went already underweight got doc therapists shocked legally let go home stayed week home parents went back school walked everyone stopped best friend came said ghost thought dead made hurt much dead realized small happened couldnt tell whole day heard whispers bad looked skinny gotten looked collaspe felt got admitted eating hospital got better im better know people telling bad look know im healthy weight im going start starvation hope finally accomplish something successfully see ampxb yeah idk said even right place post oh well boys vs girls chad meme idk keep seeing threads people hate pretty funny im big relate normie girls usually seems showing girls normal boys top stupid kinda funny think kinda stupid people see boys cool quirky girls boring lame seems silly overrreaction kinda see women live longer men meme realized used word kinda lot kinda means might phrasing badly idk bye prithee careful want see mwork squandered fever pitch many clichs come identify hollywood romantic comedies relationship two people little common secret hes hiding discovers inevitable breakup public well go picture spite predictability works especially love baseball though im quite obsessive ben wrightman boston schoolteacher played saturday night live comedian jimmy fallonbr br adapted novel nick hornby veteran screenplay writers lowell ganz babaloo mandel ben lifelong boston red sox fan whose uncle gave season tickets seven years old hes kind stuck emotionally point life detriment relationships women ben fan fanatic travels fort meyers florida winter red sox spring training games never misses home game regular season family consist parents siblings fellow groupies attend game bedroom place sleep red sox museum visitbr br falls business consultant lindsay meeks drew barrymore threatened possibility grow ben quite ready rather attend yankee series go baltimore meet parents go paris miss anaheim series takes relationship verge dissolving stop think priorities especially pintsize dr phil wannabe asks love red sox loved back premise fever pitch things important baseball perish thought never know way things turn course one familiar history boston red sox team break hearts die hard fans year curse bambino came end red sox move new level ben might lead performances excellent farrelly brothers even manage pretty gross gag fever pitch never mistaken art film joyous romp go one guilty pleasures go blue jays becoming intrusiveso past weeks thinking ending even methods anything thought dead thought dying always becoming intrusive life failure now job friends cant stand family im waste space want stop reset even reset stop one really movie reasons ill go late want touch think people first people hate tom cruise understand really second cameron crowe think successfully pes two groups moviegoers film casual relaxed looking think hard group moviegoers left confused plot takes complete end movie deep philosophical mysteryfans devastated crowe one characters completely explain mysterybr br good movie tom cruise good job think probably best performance ive seen though seen movies even majority probably supporting cast good well penelope cruz gives solid performance jason lee enjoyablebr br story think thats vanilla sky anything mystery adventure romantic comedy mostly good story lot philosophical undertones many similar ideas stories occur historical philosophy david aames cruise man everything wanted less lost given second chance catch regain back end facing demons full scope happening chooses reality simplicity normality see finally find one thing never grip happinessbr br many people disappointed crowe laid complete mystery end think necessary audience knows beyond shadow doubt david aware circumstances makes choice end powerfulbr br music movie great probably makes movie enjoyable particularly njosnavelin sigur ros amazing songbr br id give stars movie substance think things great story looking relax moderate approach probably people dislike much full blown mystery full blown love story mixes matches different elements genres feeling sad hopeless flso im generally pretty happy super extroverted person locked without anything look forwards hard enough school hell online go two days week cant find motivation im behind feel lost know future cant see past life always hard worth im trying sleep think pills thing stopping idea might happy future dont want hurt family im depressed dont think take care showering eating interacting family idk dont know want failed attempti dont necessarily want dead dont want keep pretending everything fine want blatantly clear family im anything okay finally start listen tell mom problems time dont think understands bad even though told im suicidal nothing changed cant another school year people thinking im perfectly functional cant nearly killed id rather stuck psych ward keep pretending fine one food right now id probably mcdonalds fries one person keeping alive hit head desk till bled think happen masks covid think theyll become fashion items used colds stuff japan anyone want make bonfire dance around said bonfire caveman speed long commentary herejust know everything longer worth toil exercise anger walk feel escape walk circles hamster wheeli think life outside herefucking fuck entire system fucking scam shit military service shit pursue educationall lackey moron training one day somebody fucking employeewe damned damned never live fulfilling livespsychology highest eptiome pyramid self actualization according maslowi self aware know needall solve entire problems life chump change somebody somewheregrant escape true messiah unlike phony idols people worship hope wish uselessall profit capital knew back suffering go nothing even tried longer motivation anything worth looking forward besides future suffering one last postive posted times lost track got better mother still narcissist dads still barley around even anger issues friends still much better without still nobody loves im still horrible personim still lonely im still sad still anxiety im still ugly waste space still fault molested im still tired sunday im going take gun put bullet skull week goodbyes storing wisdom might friends making wills redflag notes unless someone talk week im done yo history severe depression including suicide attempts got around seeked medical support thought getting better found live tried live good life father passed away suddenly kept existential crises see point living anymore years back used cut arms thighs whenever wanted distract pain somewhere physical even feel anymore lot scarier every person life know super happy person issue hate burst bubble sharing story point want anyone family know leading double life professional help point nothing even hurts anymore even thought loved ones missing gone want kill great exist anymore please help cry help ads life insurance crack fuck upwouldnt fantastic family receive half million dollars pay mortgage gone funeral dreams luxury coffin bitch give half million dollars right hows going guys name markiplier tired seeing best friends returning people hurt multiple times getting hurt even talk issues getting baker acted getting left without anyone know week people always say faking know anyone fake shit long story short anymore want go please help justi know anymore cant fresh start hey guys thanks already listening think able help much people tried guess worth shot im year old male past year ive quite depressed reached point thinking self harm redflag daily basis lovley girlfriend many years truly loved going ask marry cheated guy close friends close friends aswell never told circumstances behind breakup gotten moving think im silly im finding moving difficult miss every day sadly much around remind hate making trek university te train passes many places used go depressing wish fresh start cant change uni need help parents around farm cant move bought motorbike year ago never thought id kinda guy liked go fast think pick way go using bike wish u chance fresh start everything reminds see escape shot shot remake drivers license video singer doesnt understand cars httpsyoutubezplxjmixwf tired living every day wish die instantly car crash painlessly dread think surviving s s still clueless meaningless life names joey th grade redflag teacher total prick yell class mentally abusive fuck us sure part trauma ik strong people def added part trauma anyways developed social redflag generalized redflag disorder hindered ability make friends friends max talked sometimes even close friends redflag lack motivation spend day playing laptop bit younger escape avoid life play video games day parents lenient started developing depressive disorder probably started smoking weed gram day strong dispensary weed year brain fucked think concentrate anything minute hell even concentrate remember anything past day two contemplating starving death know fuck realized ways time now got nurse practitioner gave citalopramantidepressant ssri recommended counselling accepted counselling time declined later got phone call receptonist make counselling appointment whatever thought feel better side effects sucked sex drive really insomnia started smoking gram day days went psychosis got extremely anxious agitated panicky even yelled parents told mom fuck thought redflag knew anyways broken inside redflag disorder handle psychosis looking antidepressants something help sleep think weed combo sorry wasting time reading ik lot writing story m officially teenager today th birthday excited part rteenagers cant im watching dragon ball z movies cause im bored far ive thought pretty decent little repetitive stuff thats generally dragon ball z got dbz broly second coming hate firstly focuses goten trunks little kids makes annoying af secondly feels rushed thirdly everloving fuck need put edgy metal music makes feel amv cringe fuck dbz movie ive heard next one biobroly even worse im excited hello people sorting new dm right now looking post legally obligated friend almost years mother killed im becoming suicidal evernext month marks years mother hung whole messed family dad drank death years later months later older brother ran side world better ive stuck feeling hopeless ive really tried really granted ive got decent parttime job want gave dreams photographer long time ago im getting age feels late really something life cant afford better im living paycheck paycheck wasting time dead end job job im made feel useless terrible every shift go home cry want leave city ive whole life theres real opportunities plus cant afford go im giving hate life even want die communicate teenager sister im f sister f moved years ago weve always pretty good relationship confidently say feels safe loved whenever shes around fun whenever visit used lot fun stuff together still living family feel way im around shes person show true goofy self problem ive moved dont really communicate anymore im really texting type person make sure remind much love every making playlists getting gifts telling love verbally thats thats talking im home miss old days wan na friend family moves lot change school almost every year doesnt enough friends make feel less lonely context might mention shes anime japanese culture shes huge kpop fan dont share interests totally respect want feel validated lego cool lego cool nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said kindly insert title ampxb httpspreviewredditondtchrpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsdacfcdcecbbcd even botheryo back september almost ended life didnt though keep thinking mistake got bullied years never really friend besides mom family even acknowledge existence let alone family tried months make friends always find looking fool female crush whenever talk gives one word answers acts uninterested try make freinds week two never talk glad never drank used drug probability lose control end life everyday drink looks tempting make forget pain live day hiding feelings home feel worst thing planet time go sleep near tears wake morning feel physical embodiment pain cycle continues want stop want give rambling guessive debating think reasons try convince theres solutions go circles hours end result always heavy feeling isolation realization worthless always wins think people ill leave behind ill devastate family every day feels wrong dead long ago wasting space tried calling hotline talk listen said want talk redflag reassured waste time tying phone lines people truly need needed phone hung burned exactly deserve im sick cleaning mess wiping blood cleaning wounds cleaning wounds cleaning fucking wounds scars form disfigure arms even already times truly forget im stoned ass drunk go parties live high laugh night next morning leave im alone im nobody im nothing know kills silence live stuck head cutting nights pretend okay make deans list future im going find career make life scars hundreds scars go class lie teeth jobs ive applied reality applied anywhere everything coming close nowhere move classes falling apart done final projects im supposed graduate fucking know happens next even bothered getting cap gown parents reminded months ago feel bad relatives coming state watch graduate think might coming funeral instead im ok goodperfect almost real anyone thinking anger need hereeverything collapsing fucking hate every disgusting inch want nothing die deserving pain give sub httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucmvazuvqlpjwqhvhivurwhttpswwwyoutubecomchannelucmvazuvqlpjwqhvhivurw plz day posting music one know heard nightviagra boyshttpsopenspotifycomtrackpdmuthjkmahpysoiofgsiukdqygioqvsnotkeunna alex winter keanu reeves return two dopes san dimas sent another trip lifetime someone future feels exactly opposite way presented first moviebr br difference trip somewhere heaven hell ends meet grim reaper chance afterlifetime play chance return stop two evil robots ruining future supposed besides playing roles haveerperfected play revive couple extra sales process classic games even original copy battleship closetbr br reason liked movie better original deals might instead without spoiling movie cant give anymore information guess watch decide stars come think part today christmas eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve context bio part im looking artists song romance stuff probably best subreddit post got tired topic music listen rock music used artist say kind interesting things lover recommend artist even playlist spotify id grateful sorry use word incorrectly im native english speaker anyone feel need die cleanive jail friday morning amp havent showered though got saturday food sweatshirt stink dont give fuck cos im fucking depressed feel want take antipsychotic medication sleepers im three gins amp counting whats holding back gross want die clean nice clothes needing take shower holding back right now guess thats good thing dont know long ill feel way long til take shower thing scares myselfdont know anyone feels biggest danger id describe chill asf generally happy one personalities resonates lot people personalities gone gon na really long road back guess say im improving slowly theres two sides side let people see thats happy chill dark side moods change lot bc periodic form depression dark side scares comes goes scary movies dont even scare anymore ive seen worse shit head satan front give flying fuck ive imagined itd hang dangling pass body starts convulsing finally silence im slowly spinning family finds morning mom screaming agony bc sees sons lifeless expression rope tightly squeezed around neck fucked shit think huh see shit time honestly dont think ill stop seeing depression mental cant control start feel shitty im typing people think hell place cant reach die thats true everyday wake another day hell im search help already know got fucked shit going ive already started taking steps try improve quality life getting therapist stuff know moment mind flip switch end hanging rafter room thats scares didnt know anyone thinks enemy moment fuck shit im kates father angel day long planning finally start sleeping house evening comes go home puts crime drama marathon little loud kate asks minds turning sofor five minutes room turns louder previously rather annoying reviewers keep comparing planet earth course planet earth better much much earth extended trailer planet earth series inevitably inferior simplified comparing likebr br featurelength documentary actually featurelength anything surpasses pretty much anything see entire life unless choose traverse earth helicopters longrange cameras years end wait months extreme environments catch glimpse extraordinary beings earth lets face unlikelybr br narration yes everyone uk much including adores david attenborough theres little excuse narrating hardly deserves knocking star three presenter planet earth narrator im sure hes modest gracious enough realise anything gets viewers good thingbr br anyone sees overwhelmed awe majesty glory reviewers agree love ie everyone willshould go see buy planet earth three cheers cinematic release big boooo anyone cheap enough buy dvd rather planet earth boxset works art theyre competition peoplebr br earth big enough marriage upscale new york city couple child falls apart wife wants took lot courage walk door neighbor tells us busy distracted husband takes motherly responsibilities grows closer son soon wife returns highly manipulative picture give us realistic familial unit young justin henry certainly resembling product marriage dustin hoffman meryl streep dynamics intriguing involving director robert benton keeps pace popping lots cleverness marvelous classical music canny editing surefire bits humor streeps character designed cold selfcentered witch ready feel lot benton probably wanted painted terms black white good bad hoffman learning hard wife getting second chance good parent film never falters preconceived path fine acting nearly saves im sure benton steering film final act closing scene awfully abrupt know whats wrong meheres happens im super drunk always feel im hopeless worthless one likes everyone hates emotional think killing think ways kill cut knife previously done several times think happen overdose antidepressant pills want buy peoples drinks spend lot money thing still much fun throughout night struggled selfconfidence people always call social butterfly friends anyone instantly im pretty outgoing happens come home im alone room anyone experience similar ask following gender birthday age relationship status interested turnons turnoffs ive enough alivehi im using throwaway account people know account forgive spellinggrammar errors english first language let introduce first im year old guy life ive struggling depression recently started lot panic attacks school going really shit right now really friends anymore except school parents allow go outside anymore reason cant go outside used drugs nothing hard weed sometimes drink even liked wanted friends lost privilege talk life going shit sorry language true enjoyment anything thing ill either studying sleeping eating tried new things cant find reason something im studying lot go university finally freedom back due recent events ill probably redo year cant handle ill lose friends ill probably able make new ones social anxiety autism im tired ive really thinking killing want go school anymore want home cant go anywhere lock room every day come home ill wait till end school year ill see passed last straw cant deal hell feel piece shit lot people sub lot worse ive got struggles minor problems full circlei thought stronger thought necessary somehow someway someone looking isnt greatest gift leave world daughters ones heal world world final hours realized legacy suffering gone smile maintained may next life best life man anyone expecting great zombie movie reading title retard deserve disappointed expecting lowbudgeted cheeseball zombie flick thats exactly got disappointed thought cool little movie zombies exactly zombies turned freshlyundead zombies obviously wouldve pretty costly done fullon rotted zombie fx understood whole thing idea anyone seriously nitpick movie called hood living dead love god watch redneck zombies uwe boll movie actually expect great course morons imdb whining school girls movie ill never understand oh yes worse movies stop saying worst seen cause know full watch zombiez feardotcom house dead worst ive seen cant see low budgeted zombie movie obviously made zombie movie fans somethings wrong fun thumbs id see sequel seeking advicehow possible live emotional pain normal people unimaginable happened possible keep living commit redflag something money time heal thank hope great day mental illness treated physical thatpeople cancer choose fight illness chemo n stuff rather let illness take course prolongworsen suffering make family members witness struggle treatment acceptable wouldnt choosing fight depressionredflag dont want keep suffering keep subjecting loved ones watching suffer acceptable im tryin mess friend joined private server discord inv phone wan na flood uhhh dm wan na help world burning really isnt anything live fori feel theres nothing anymore world filled hate never see humans anymore feel instantly hated feels world given decided everything shit lets make worse idk affecting im worth resources takes sustain meso want kill sacrifice planet heartbroken thinking disgusting toxic waste existence necessitates mean sure reduce reuse recycle limit use plastic whateverthefuck cant shake feeling meager existence never even begin justify destruction bodys rampant consumption planet im marry help make destructive abominations make mom happy good enough reason keep fucking shit rate cant bear thought elephants shameful want go back void suffer languish godknows many years sake people cant noble opt leave think free make choice honesty everyone life know never happen ill never able talk anyone real life without completely freaking guys think life amazing weird beautiful profound love truly deeply want now cant okay remembered one time girl reddit called ugly even tho shes never seen look idk wanted share u dont care u ignore post giving last weeki lonely searched love church online apps school speed dating friends lounges found luck seriously considering redflag please help honestly even know help ive given one week live really want die want alone anymore thank taking time read knows anymorei gone depression around end highschool tried kill failed never knew body tolerate much advil point life regretted almost everything done fucked relationships fucked previous work find hating university degree first year university one first times even stand face saw mirror find completing university right still realizing really motivation anything life keep telling things better find job successful debt find girl love often find exact opposite feel love love anything world especially every time try open person find hurt know seems typical cry attention absolutely zero clue matter many different jobs apply never seem call back semester left university able cover rent even basic living expenses ineligible line credit way world parents help try mess seems people meant live life reddit almost convinced one people sure point maybe lump maybe wont absolutely tempted try take system time normal life drunk ass high kite least problems matter guess exactly really call attention form advice lead right direction sorry bother guys absolutely clue turn two video shot movies troama decided horrible desperate move turned one movie perhaps bitterness troamas side helped spark comedy whatever reason funny stuff inspired bit oliver stone commentary movie lots cameos lots use lesbian cannibal hoedown song add fun trey parker ted raimi julie strain etc etcbr br one best recent troama releases yes place know going production quality lack becomes one many running jokes go good timebr br behind scenes frequently best things troama releases average time around really think anger felt two lousy films helped drive well greatness drove fix film way thats better either films originally planned romanticize redflag biti dunno compare bird spreading wings first time flying finally free feels good think way release pain time means leaving friends family world behind seems beautiful cant wait march th finally end monday means ill one last chance go school say goodbye friends family ampxb redflag beautiful thing eyes im tearing bit right now kill shackles stress sadness everything free think redflag makes happy cant help smile barely smile anymore prospect way end pain easily leaving everything behind kind intense ampxb know im going go time comes might well spend last months fun friends family time come say goodbye perfect stop depressed valentines day depressed tomorrow school starts selfdiagnosed ocd eventual downfall series events late led intense insidious cycle anxious rumination fear dpdr arose maelstrom angst something whos existence completely unaware particularly related redflag perceptual world changed reality became crisp shiny radiant yet incredibly surreal thrust middle world overwhelmingly vivid yet felt overwhelmingly absent dont know anymoreon surface life perfect recently transferred pretty good university prestigious one extremely excited thought life improve thrive im hate people girlfriend longer getting along brink breaking motivation anything person ive grown hate reasons wonder better alive worst part supportive family real reason upset hold feel reason killed roommate afford rent owni nothing going every time try push new things improve things worse dropped high school years ago medication made unable focus care anything ended getting diploma told go college dad kicked got job got another job ended move back dad constantly reminded im failure im working full time job part time job one night took fun night going take placement tests college wallet glasses stolen ive slowly replace everything lost money left boyfriend months ago mood swings ruining hes really well im living paycheck paycheck friend barely afford rent family talk real friends aside guy im sleeping know hangs around sex recently fucked getting std obvious care nothing nothing taking everything stay alive bad place idk much time much money even work anymore really needed help wanted help payed private psychologist sessions now sended email psychiatrist got public system trying die saying transfert case took sessions time thought getting help wasted money precious money give lot redflag wasted needed help assap payed private psychologist sessions decide abandon give back public system take long reason payed first place hmmm perhaps last post wasnt clear enough message converse people suffer incurable poorly treated condition people underestimate abandon realize bad gets something wrong tell depressing see someone sick often way easing know bad currently someone thing beginning relationship underestimate previous experiences made sure extremely clear led believe protect ask something said known stupid made clear beginning fault believing interested boner severely depressed makes cold complains laid enough vicious cycle currently middle bad flare condition barely walk go anywhere stay even make end homeless shelter lay dark everyday terrified next attack run pto need go disability gamble tbh person life committed helping terrified condition yet still try present boner move really much better life anyways fuck man fuck even believe life believe many shitty people exist world everyone mix stupid crazy rely survive fucked headed towards mental breakdown plain simple year old bipolar alcoholic hold job save life tried medication medication medication none works longer yeari literally stop drinking slowly killing mei thousands dollars debt probably lose everything next coming months shit togetheri want drunk take every pill fucking done iti tired fighting fight losing every timei tired hating actions incapable making changei know expecting receive posting thismaybe hoping small chance worth iti knowbut point want finally end ruined life fuck grey sweatpant season yall different colored sweats jejjehhbbbbfukhddtvvydrjdtjhtghhvdrhsrcyyhy fh hsr happy life thats im sadi dont know want life parents always wonderful trying support even though dont lot friends especially close ones ones still nice around im middle class white guy real personality kinda drifting life real aspirations goals find self destructive practices stress thing make feel alive anymore thats probably hate wonderful girlfriend made wrong decisions relationship recently lost one blame frankly hardest part life right living regret hold heart im college graduating degree mathematics soon degree dont even remotely care thought crippling debt strengthens shame earning degree im even proud truly ive thought redflag every day last years days wake angry couldnt died sleep want kill dont want put effort actually go want leave knowing leave behind take guilt shame comes losing loved one maybe dont want die wish never born im torn whats point living things actually better im seeing therapist end month figure hell tell hobby focus things make happy nothing really makes happy even try reason sad sad guys im gon na man whore school starts actually works happy want hug im talking thousand active people either class sleeping one wish turn back timeto start whole life told society man talk feelings make seem weak ive bottled hard talk want go much detail reason turn back time loved care free smart child tons good friends amazing life around period time life began go hill involved serious accident hit car almost died say needle injecting virus slowly eat away life grades dropped school although friends stuck high school drove away thought good decision reason pride dose allow talk anyone either want hurt want know truth caring virus spread past try fight seems fight left top tell dad disappointed lived potential knew said nothing make tell might make much sense read way brain allow chest sure delete later someone tell much appreciated thanks phenomena keep goingthis second time posting apologies advance grammar spelling ill probably delete feel pressure peers superiors relatives build im still struggling online classes know im person yesterday seem gotten worse days pass clearly see rather sit table study take proper shower back im still contemplations im gon na go exact plan mind know death last resort itll escape place live experiences experience aside bad experiences actuallu feel calm title post freshman year highschool dark time simply moved hometown place know little friends back home childhood elementary years second family look simple mistakes people city studied high school spoke different dialect communicate english time even alone aware people saw outsider small acts kept going acts lending eraser correction pen gave ray hope eventually along well way similar friends back home even sinking deeper deeper state nothing mattered classmate greeted good morning lighten bit nod greet back knew situation helping small way thats though rest day spend time friend group sitting chair reading book trying catch lessons know small acts make person happy mean nothing person directed impact heck even baby smiling enough make smile bit even upperclassman asking go ahead line made felt acknowledged even classmate asking simple favor made feek important someone acts reason im still searching even answer emotions thank whats point anymorehello taking mg celexa per day days ago paid debts owe nothing anyone become happy thought still feel shit days time im numb emotions really care anything anymore used take zoloft mg day months eventually came point actively trying half assed attempts kill light cord bathroom got pissed work took anger bedroom cupboard one ikea ones glass mirror blood hands everywhere smashed pieces realise wife came running pinned stop anyway im still emotion less days ago became stressed work driving got urges drive death trying see best brick wall lamp post something really looking forward playing animal crossing later day guess feel theres escape one days im gon na die unless someone help first generation parents stayed together religious reasons lot emotional physical abuse typical think lot first gen suffer adult trouble emotionally stable feel helpless feelings depression takes know change past difficulties making adult friends limited allowed friends parents fought family even family connection limited dad always angry came room yelling useless realize idk people people think weird tiered hard time human crave emotional connection used think everything religiously embedded always doubting god exist life pointless hard stay positive idk life anything doctorly failure parents foreign parents wanting kids doctors started therapy sessions right away wanted put antidepressants tried worst idk call started taking anti depressants life die sleepy time stopped want anti depressants need something idk desperate late night vent thanks reading needed venting source zapped balls riding high power ziplines never wanted kids anyway filler filler filller filler filler filler filller filler cant anymore dont know whats gon na stop timeshit never better never better im enough anyone im enough hot enough smart enough diligent enough athletic enough smooth enough lets face im fucking failure honestly people around better without around im done hope left gone college ur gon na fail relationships ur gon na fail life rollercoaster never fucking end unless everything bleak damp dark prison mind fucking fault ill leaving soon enough ruin people stand never good ruin everybody everything cant think cant care soon wont breathe im something drastic one understand help eternal extra plot others throwaway line two dont matter im thought im joke im meme im mocked ridiculed rightfully cant shit college hope thats fucking erased gon na drive away fuck good start new life got damn way never happy bc look back things negatively subconsciously every remotely positive memory always dashed people tell problems im one venting dont time dont matter anyone thats wanted asked help millions times one cares make much fucking worse ive lonely long cant bring talk anyone anymore imma go kill now nice knowing u feel redflag waaaaayyyyy overduelike guy charge redflags getting fucking slammed rn finna fired soon cause shoulda bitch year ago idk im still even canti dont know much longer go feels shouldnt im sad leave guys comments whether end theres nothing within month anyways thank ive given upi need someone talk im close im new reddit idk dm thing works btw reasoning im cut life im prepared end itmy sensitivity keeps wrapping black hole making want end fear living much stronger fear existing think fear nothingness anymore people born equipped handle existence truly believe cant even handle struggle purely emotional everything seems take huge emotional toll attached people always end getting hurt im talking romantic relationships im talking relationships general cant trust anyone anymore people move things im convinced never will led prefer loneliness ironically loneliness leading want end life seem logical path cant handle life led loneliness led want end makes complete sense something wrong arm bleedingi something unacceptable school today teacher noticed im likely going reported extreme consequences destroy almost everything look forward life naturally told mother thinking even bad basically called idiot criminal even told think act try happened many times every time scared sad first time actually drew blood vertically yet felt need punish im scared death never stop fucking shit fuck school friendships everything even way hide cuts ill explain person talk facetoface one teachers im terrified approaching know handle anymore keeps getting worse every time cant help thinking whiny unappreciative bitch ive never closer now happy months ago title close says depressed helping tried commit suicide last night depressed friend know depressed anyone know good laptops usd area im looking laptop run minecraft terraria im luck alrighty trouble sleeping chirpy mood feel free dm m oi dm dunno id didnt something f give upi know normal people smile keep living throguh tough situations barely trauma im ashamed way feel mental problems wish never born least one severeal redflag attemps worked couldve prevented hurting people making life worse ive tried getting help life ive hospitalized times ive seen therapiste psychatrists either call names completely ignore everything say know many people manage overcome mental illnesses good professional help cant find one decent fucking doctor keep getting shit everyone openly suicidal everyone knows want kill ive tried reaching people shut ignored people say care act swear god finally kill theyre gon na come running obituary saying wish couldve helped cared much missed fucking hurtful thing need stay alive people tell things now know need help know im going kill yet one says word soon die everyone magically start care bullshit cant care now cant anyone help now dont know soon im exhausted tired fight every day day fucking keep breathing miserable stupid fucking life one wants know im committedim done things world im done going people even want see brother generally think people suck ass never work think people shuffle shit around anyway fuck stupid work ethic jock thats care nobody reads checking back fuck yall real still herei understand start successfully took life years ago midfebruary large student party student college know anyone person invited student housing hour half away home night took local highspeed train dorms party planned going home party started slow eventually picking night gone making drinks took roughly hour sloshing back screwdrivers wanting vomit alcohol acid sugar coming stumbled bathroom inside small two bedroom dorm vaguely remember lifting toilet seat puke next thing woke hospital bed really needing piss jolted fear knowing hell got see father sitting next hospital bed told details happened memory went blank fallen bathroom hit head proceeded choke vomit stopped moving guy invited party noticed missing found dead bathroom picked began trying resuscitate even vomit covered facetorso yelled one party goers call paramedics arrived within minutes thanks guys attempt reviving kept oxygen blood flow going long enough paramedics bring back ill never able live question keep going wanted die knew night want return home nightmares still wish dead want redo painful begin retry soon cant keep continuing think life value guys started texting crush basically helped stuff im exchange student context thanked texted bit bow peasants talk outbout problems really need advice rn im really hungry someone make cereal pls malemy mum alcoholic mum means mom england drinks quite heavily alcoholics know must schizophrenic something every time drinks acts odd normal drunk person nasty things say nasty thingsfor example last year family hosted small family drank lot dad showing guests way home drive said brother things want fucking die later night got arrested started yelling dad beer bottle hard missing dad hit wall leaving dent serial number another time drank lot brothers rum confronted kicked house seen times parents decided move us another part country family lives lost friends south school attend shit couple weeks ago kicked hockey ball ended hitting kid called lucas head fault happening people decided hour detention good enough punishment bully tbh got least hours teacher understood accident friends started eating rarely speak people school moved months ago struggling lot today prick friends went bag kind joke took stuff trying back prick came threw ground said lucas got rage punched cheek back end even bullying know seems silly mums alcoholic outbursts life seems really difficult carry saying attention someone thinking clearlys advice go getting bullied mum thanks super mario d allstars game asked th bday parents ordered arrived mail house somewhere cant play bday im trouble waiting theres really stupid portuguese news channel called cmtv theres portuguese news channel really stupid called cmtv posted website article called swag nword communicate qith teenagers everuthing wrong example said bitch stands beutiful inteligent talented cute hot heres link article httpswwwcmjornalptmaiscmdomingodetalheterswagparanaoserumnigga portuguese unless know read need translate seriously actually tired depressed energy function person applying jobs trying make friends trying work outstart gym membership start wake hopeful today day finally help somehow waste day watching tv reading shit though reddit looking different things online purchase years old hate going social media makes feel shit hate looking things childhood friends somehow disconnected years lost college friends feel alone lost need help even start fish oil pills therapy psychiatrist know know make thoughts stop make pain stop need help feel lost took mg metropozol let us see happens hmm help im stuck helpi trying enjoy went see movie watching trailers saw june may mind kept saying youre going live long wont live see far depression suicidality hitting hardcore idea spells whirlwinds wont stop want fucking stop im scared dont know mind dragging place brain wants kill tonight might itim getting drunk think might tonight feel guilty father never really growing hate daughter well though even remember idk gutted post tomorrow maybe beers tell native speaker ur learning language japanese korean speakers ur great learning japanesekorean english speakers understandable english useful spanish speakers tells something completely false cuz think funny french speakers fucking time everyone general vicinity points laughs cuz said un instead une point think ending life best optionlet start something mom told millennials something wrong way thinking first time ive thought ending life actually benefit people around first post sub though ive lurker months reached end rope though try positive parents seem growing restless may seem calm words currently crying typing apologize advanced long post filled possibly unnecessary details turn one truly understand position idea start disclose namesgenders want remain anonymous possible refer oldest sibling one second oldest two youngest often treated better siblings matter bad felt matter much tried hard side siblings demand equal treatment parents nothing changed times parents even took demanding equal treatment denouncingrejecting parents clearly point making im going pretend rough childhood explains today didnt average middle class nuclear family id say taught good values ended good character one two extroverted know socialize make friends easily startkeep conversations going independent confident decisions two though extroverted prefers lowkey lifestyle hand introverted shy im observant talkative always friends close family able converse interact quite normally id say much hate center attention makes feel uncomfortable soon parents start talking suddenly lose voice try disappear used quite confident decisions event event turned around flash back middle late teenage years think formative years permanent consequences early twenties seem changed except think ive gotten much quieter think given teenagers meant rebel make mistakes stupid shit means trying justify actions trying victimize know large fault consequences mistakes translated personality now became close one years spent lot time together love really years grew close one manipulative realized finally left household bit example one charismatic extroverted easily anyone side issue one occasion someone wrong explain situation way perspective correct perspective believe ones side antagonize whoever wronged might think well familysibling bias prone siding person close people wronged one took side either friends family members one life realized always wrong side parasitic relationship bad done wrong toward one feel bad immediately become frightened scolding never afraid scolded experienced scolded one parents scolded respectful mutual respect end feel bad enough bad terrified make another mistake one scoldings authority fury became self conscious actions learned stay silent accept fate scolded even littlest things warrant scolding saw flirting guy dating know lot peers think flirt started distance friends became cold started hate going familyfriend events still always went obligation years things normal interpersonal skills replaced anxious shy traits became overpowered anxiety graduated university one moved learned function almost normal adult became independent things became little bit confident actions one gone two kind gone two moved university years went school little far home whereas one still quite close home grew lot closer pressure parents became focused kid left living house though become independent confident graduating suddenly put weight say two kind left mean two still comes home visit know hate coming home told real job parents support lifestyle one left kind basically ran away good enough job parents support lifestyle either left everyone sleeping time really understand totally parents side one left wrong way handled better one never comes home visit even know now anyway back present unemployed unless count freelance real job parents trying find real job graduated trying possibly make freelance main thing case never find real job almost years still job feel absolutely horrible live parents refuse let leave controlling kind way want know good job stand nearing age retire still work siblings left kind bad terms parents lifestyles im trying one kid leave bad terms able live lifestyle support feel deserve much feel bad almost every second every day good news tell job search started feel bad cant even talk parents anymore feel useless kid worthless kid im point wish parents fed kick house free will im lazy ambition parents tell reached point anxiety cant things people watching expecting something know anyone problem seems hated center attention much cant even confidently things independently unless parents know badly want go nearest establishment apply cashier job secretary assistant anything said jobs good enough parents cant seem find confidence around know whats wrong earlier mom confronted started crying saying dad getting old worried theyre frustrated want retire want live lives without worrying understand im trying think listen advice getting job even though ive already taken advice still job said millennials something wrong way thinking point realized made political put box box labeled millennials want associated word associating negative definition conservative idealism concocted top everything deal living parents completely different political mindset hard try think really started remain silent often im realizing burden told countless times much want retire pray id hired almost got hired told turn job good enough earlier mom talking said go back job made turn really know want leave money leave want leave bad terms siblings feel cant need long living parents want burden want burden anymore much want life feel dying right thing help parents now maybe last farewell telling life story end maybe hoping someone able convince burden even though know thats lie know im burden thats basically mom said want move lives retire cant im still reward cute af never said anyone wich makes oyu special bit curates egg one started hating predictable old dark house setup constant references recent us horrors regular trips dimly lit corridorsbr br going moments originalitybr br began wonder killing started going last cast six flashbacks previous visit building see whole slew gory killings pretty effectivebr br naschy fine end enjoyable enough movie jump grab one hard enough want goeveryone either hates care enough try understand pain im alone room vacation feel sad hurts normal im complaining im wondering anyone notices stuff people parentsgrandparentsguardians tend emphasize strange way middle lectures concerning way act im losti direction life everyday im loof absolutely nothing assy mcgee outofcontrol hardnosed detective based countless examples late th century police dramas twist assy literally walking buttocksbr br cheap lowbrow facade show belies cleverness hidden satire say assy devoid fart jokes toilet humor used sparingly enough elicit consistent laughs groans eyerolls title sequence program demonstrates clever subtle humor used throughout sequence consists panning photos city set jazzy s cop theme one photo police cruiser shown camera zooms front license plate holder vacant meaningless zoomin satirizes production typical ss cop drama incidentally makes laugh every timebr br typical characters included frustrated police chief cant control assy loyal minority partner acts foil assys recklessness regular cops detest assys means accounted hilarious satires typical police dramabr br voice acting primarily performed larry murphy nothing less spectacular assys voicebreathy gruff bit drunken sluris clever unique ranks alongside alltime greats stewie griffin family guy homer simpson simpsons though voice slurred diction somehow clear easy understand nice change adult swim program voices often require closed captioning understandbr br besides fantastic production voice acting script hilarious assys nonsense directness fuels humor particularly interactions citizens outside police forcebr br access adult swim comedies assy mcgee certainly worth watching episode clocks mere minutes really little lose content content ive reloaded times past seconds teens online rteenagers better step game entertained anymore green day fans sub guys think new song liked reminds cb thought gon na bad cuz last album wasnt good first person tell good bee joke makes smile laugh gets award say dont feel confident used im look back cringe stuff said whatever shower thought made realise back id saying whatever want say whoever want really think basically confidence make jokes front class matter shit cringey one laugh really talk friends really anyone im saying confidence starting secondary school basically high school call different uk confidence definitely gone update stupid worthless life grandpa died week maybe days way begin specially spend holidays watching agonize know ive never felt monster talked long story short many good things enough everyone forgot bad questionable things borderline abuse typing hurts cause im asshole talking ill de dead cry cry even tried back refular life less day feel guilty bad guy cry hate really emotionless mourned grandmother normal person mourn worry day sleep waking mother whailing day im tired adult act mature two worries getting bad obsessed treat mother man gave much trauma acting better saint even death still control acting im bad guy ive heard talking im senseless im brat hurt told im monster help father despite messed stuff raised deadbeat mess got pregnant im constantly reminded much bad person im finally showing emotion im sudden brat im tired acting adult im cant remember day teenage years acted regular teen without adults tell im spoiled one literally mature one trying logical possible less burde everyone ive pushed health behind nobody got annoyed needing help anything hoped two people chance ask help yet instead im one avoiding mom something stupid late s french study disaffected youth early s actuallygrown yet settled adult world probably missed mark mile terms accurate depiction french youth dont virtually youth films made adults ones dontrivers edge comes mind rare indeed directorwriter marcel carne les enfants du paradis fame accurate observer humanity provide insightful view essence characters sense details importantyou change details set film today work wellbut loneliness insecurity superficial passion selfrighteous anger characters captured well young pierre brice jeanpaul belmondo supporting roles leads jacques charrier laurent terzieff pascale petit andrea parisy play roles subtlety depth fine jazz score cd jazz parisjazz cinema vol unlike commented film really see directorwriter carne sitting judgment charactershe seems though objective observer course middleclass characters may seem people spoiled nothing whine workingclass viewers film think carne certainly aware american viewer watched dubbed fairly literally id say version titled cheaters film provides interesting window france s selfconsciously poetic scene ledge saving cat one example intellectual aspirations charming way french films away withi imagine heavyhanded melodramatic shallow way kind material handled american studio production sensationalistic moralistic suggestive way kind material handled american driveinexploitation filmmakers feel marcel carne captured essence period say high school graduation ones early s people largely settled routine whatever routine may willing watch film open mind fire away many easy targets offers find serious valuable study people early twenties even want go room film playing simply enjoy fine soundtrack great s jazz instrumental pop including wonderful original score american jazz philharmonic group including coleman hawkins dizzy gillespie stan getz spelled goetz credits roy eldridge ray brown im thinking taking lifeim tired see reason live anymore im gon na bullied pushover need advice im afraid boyfriend might hurt due serious fight currently speakingto make long story short boyfriend year long series incredibly bad luck relationship suffered serious blows due serious mistakes others due anger got huge fight throughout course day culminated explosion anger left house mentioned feeling suicidal first time today stayed long make sure okay forced leave half hour ago called couple mutual friends asked talk make sure hes okay without letting know behalf hes furious things ensure safety im sure serious talk redflag today considered real risk intrusion outside forces authority figurse kind likely anger upset go back house willing sacrifice well selfish might sound thinking clearly know people support equality people put snapchat stories support trump unadd fucking stupid judge person fucking character beliefs great dont trump gives right harass person supports whoever support im friends plenty people support trump great people dont judge believe let believe want definitely nolans intimiteand thoughtprovoking piece say memento insomnia badbut definitely hollywood standardswhile following indie flick story brilliantand well developed overallwatch fan nolans workim sure able appreciate living forim living bf wish go see one last time wonderful film powell pressburger whose work want explore film perceive real real two difficult distinguish one another beautifully shot acted although david niven seem years old character claims fun see young richard attenborough film made think watching afterwards somebody come shoot head actually hug nice messing around guy tonight sending photos jazz sister barges room tells put pants weirdo left im laying mortified face fire pretty embarrassing know everyone gets walked sometime least mom ex found ive stuff guy well im sure thinking hes ex fuck care hes hurt truth shouldnt feel bad feel juice bottom trash cans disgusting never wanted hurt reason even mind maybe move whole time felt sick dont know man dont know last minutes rollercoaster teacher effing evil man submit assignment due sunday okay today saturday midnight last tuesday felt incredible pain abdomen lead skip school wednesday went doctor ultrasound cuz thought problem appendix sure happened something definitely ruptured abdomen called teacher zoom told happened shit u really scared worried something wrong surgery gon na miss school long time explained whole effing story details first thing asks u gon na submit ur assignment sunday fucking guys im done life rn im pain asks assignment rather reduce stress give extension something asked two day extension whats days gon na literally small part left two days enough yeah thats im submitting half assignment worth grade tldr medical painful reason need rest extension assignment teacher insists getting submitted even tho hospital im pain fml parents okd iti told parents despite antidepressants im feeling suicidal im law school town hate another year ears debt support school anyone comes preparing competitive applicant job want really overwhelming parents said today clearly im dedicated lawyer im strong enough handle redflag might best option im strong enough handle life really know im writing feel hopelessi cant happy im relationship relationships end almost right away resulting much pain worth feel im good enough anyone nobody stays time im daydreaming blowing brains want feel im trapped life feel hopeless fuck hope everyone sub dies painful death fucking suck deserve death ill see hell im giving away free wholesome award say something mins got bed prepare redflagi took shower shaved legs drinking coffee ill miss coffee cigarettes damn im trying clean apartment someone finds fucking mess im thinking goodbye video instead letter im scared mom blame someone want try stop im scared scared die scared survive started thinking afterlife know dumb im scared exists thought reincarnation scares hell im crying reason dont feel relieved yet im aware im loser giving im scared pipe im planing tie noose break fuck im terrified cant im lost im already dead ending body functions now guys finally turned thats thank coming ted talk want post facebook even sure whyi want make post facebook want slit wrists bathtub good come know mom call everyone freak haha totally disrupt life maybe worst send hospital sure graduate year think ill much better graduate job sucks bad money car independent right now want graduate yet depressed cant single thing schoolwork might graduate anyway sunny cocktail waitress dc area bit dim put mildly drives old clunker rents tiny room gay male couple saves life prominent arab taking bullet behind meant official charms national press zany remarks sweet looks sniffing opportunity presidential aides installed protocol department us government even messes things times tries hard learns lot even grabs romantic attention state department official another sinister plot making involving arab man wishes take another wife blonde one lol lol lol movie features goldie pretty picture dumb fox say sunny learns way around jungle us government well even important things say honesty lack protocol surroundings perhaps arab community less thrilled work laugh rent today dont asshole games played ranked games today certain game idk went really toxic people team got carried hard im shit player told kill made bad play rounds opponent got single win fucking ass decides write full paragraph im shit person dont deserve live etc im really lucky im happy person dont take things heart judgement lot people telling someone kill never okay dont know theyre going might actually especially games lot people play escape ruthless world end life isnt worth game victory dont dick guys dont anything nice say teammates keep eating disorder ruining lifeim eating disorder ruining life already mental illnesses ed making everything worse im insecure point cry everytime leave house im embarrassed people seeing see doctors medicated dont see point anymore ive abusing laxatives years whenever eat cut go depressive state making anxiety panic attacks awful everyday recovering last doctors know theyre trying help ive way years hasnt gotten better im tired brother sisters lets summon amobadoor demon king love must return may reign last million years need come together sacrifice something love give body soul im suicidalitd easier daughter cant seeher mother thinks im bad context flat earthers mental illness something antivaxxers autism know biesexualmy parents religious deep depression quite time feel knew biesexual whould disown title says type diabetic insulin tonight go bed going give remaining vials shortacting stuff one sitting putting diabetic coma killing little u humalog use absolutely way going survive live alone one expecting come find place family done way prior least money worth going one depend children partners pets miserable pathetic self give week two people probably notice gone regards work work nurse took pto prior days expected come back one wiser think skipped work news finally sets honestly might reason people discover smell maybe go outside idk everything planned regardless finally peace goodbye everyone fuck everything wait end miserable existence hell hope burn eternity deserve really fucking matter hell everyday way anyone convince change mind posting want kind send sorts seen similar people write almost online suicide notes speaking probably draft one know messed going ruin everyone day sorry maybe guys live better life knows one knows anonymous loser anyways got back working nights tired going go bed take nice walk wake afternoon ill probably read guys say wake please try convince mind already made hopefully nice least enjoy sunshine final time bye everyone going kill overdosing insulin tonight wonderinghow feel popular kid school want popular ones stay unknown school want dohold whatever feeling keeping committing redflag never let go maybe fear maybe know really want die maybe cant leave someone whatever reason make reason follow every time feel horrible feeling sending positive vibes love guys truly understand suicidal thoughts tonight im really rough night im going remember hold feeling keeps anything able take back small group fiends years shrunk due moving away growing stuff finally last remaining friend stole cut ties literally zero friends getting sad lonely guy needs guy friends women always jerks make good conversation everyone work even work friends never seem indicate want hang anywhere occasional conversations work go friends make work friends real friends tips making new friends keep living herive suicidal long time ive made several attempts im used people caring attempt ive made new friend think take hard wrong got really sad scared visited afterwards hugged crying tried make promise keep alive want make feel hard keep fighting still want end feeling guilt thinking taking life know much hurt really know anymore feelings constantly gnawing harder psychiatrist taking break holidays cant speak either someone please tell pain go awayive lost person ive cared said love forever threw away trash im alone nothing one please tell pain go away im thinking redflag impulsive way now seems logical option nowthe last two months uni living hell ive grown despise place every fucking day theres single moment dont think home somewhere although place given great start field think wont use im alive anymore havent slept well past months whenever uni moment got home sleep baby ive tried make parents understand problem want drop dont understand tell weather storm think thats possible sleep night im desperate dont know drop option left study abroad dad sell real estate really dont know jumping fourt floor seems option convenient everyone girls play minecraft gtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgt basically title filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler im dying hour please help life storyhello people im reaching anybody help way please bare naivety usually reach people let alone online ampxb try summarise hellishness life short simple possible hopefully relate extent help im year old guy depression anxiety stress diagnosed extremely severe mental illness started father committed redflag years ago continuously gotten worse past years left school full time graphic designer great stayed job year months ago attempted redflag abandoned job incredibly lucky age boss treated better anyone life past months ive absolutely nothing life waking find listening sad music annoyed nothing simultaneously lacking motivation new job meet new people im currently medication anxiety depression enough always find trance lost suicidal thoughts always wonder side better worse nothing everything extremely luring im naturally curious person kinds ideas take drugs lsd mdma pretty often now take hopes one time may find see dad went years maybe find reason live ive heard people profound experiences finding need life theyre drugs right currently mdma pills plan take finally guts take life plunge death shopping centre carpark mainly hoping drugs give guts jump somebody please help currently live state fearing living dying feel time running ampxb really glad bipolari must say simply amazing mental illness cant cured gets worse time extremely treatment resistant even better feel better lie surprise depression good thing every thing youve done improve goes window nice testing ya oh cant forget meds say theyll help really give crap ton side effects really take hope dont go destructive mania hurts finances makes lose job ruin relationships hurts around general fucks everything least hope doesnt happen maybe though keeps life exciting glad im completely mercy disease im dead hope thats soon im starting lose hope feeling scared futurei really happy today wife emailed saying daughter loved brought spirits difficult pay need well paying job soon possible ba economics masters business living got stabbed live halfway house life stressful two dismissed charges always pop background checks feel never enough money pay family understand life needs difficult keep hoping keep trying going sad feel start making money soon game come springsummer know life difficult make easy live usa understand much difficulty understand one wants hire one wants take care one wants friends worthless person eyes everyone interview difficult think handle feeling much longeri experienced happiest moments life someone think one right belongs words soul mate oir relation started adultery bc iswas married kids one year gave support made stupid mistakes lived la la land way much someway treated shit putting away hold couple months ago exploded go ahead divorce bad trauma parents daughters attempted harm several times etc call went therapy reconnect gained self esteem months later talked terms livs conclusions made went wrong really gone therapy changed man th man deserved willing gave nd chance really saw impossible improvement mental health alone time period went trough heavy shit moment waiting literally last stand opportunity love dead mess without life tasteless e even good friends nice evenings end thoughts always go te person completely understands share intimacy trust one planet months contact guys try new things work came conclusion one make happy despite shittorm around us usually say happy e want always assumes equal parter woman life said waiting return tomorrowhe returning psicological therapeutic clinic important things discussed abandonement issues sixth feeling tells rertun mad love touch see kiss instead still trapped web past traumas simply cant see destroy future much cost take first step everyone cheering us hopping best fell hollow go guillotine confirmation love enough really love despite confessions happy cant stop crying days overdose colapse love friends good therapist one understands feeling loss knowing thats person make happy man mr right give time fuck tired word time want happy now tomorrow things go hell cant want keep fighting want go path motivated reality one connection family good friends cant give really want need professionally best still miserable hell years ago first person say need man happy true need half half cant even though darkest time well idk simple nothing left everything experience minutes fame misery tomorrow faith life decided hands person end alone cant see point continue life anything ai think go stop car bridge jump less dramatic soon arrive home swallow hole bottle pills night next morning nothing done literally want live world keep struggling fighting going therapy glimpse sunshine ray random part day thank much read excuse length hope great day mum anoying mum mom made sisters download life one sisters living house thats end went got premium dont bothered posting im longer lonely day forgot post yesterday make beautiful woman backwoods inbred monster man super sweet monster truck road kill zombie brother friendsone anal retentive overly sensitive nerd foul mouthed adolescent slob throw together dash jeepers creepers texas chainsaw massacre road trip got monster man hilarious horrorcomedy outing never sets say something simple straight forward laugh fest unpretentious well made horrorcomedy heart buddy flick film offered hilarious sickening set pieces highly recommend fright fans looking entertained please let know versions precious bane gone earth video people may aware love books mary webb wholeheartedly grateful information either vhs dvdbr br ive read precious bane gone earth favorites mary webb many times collected novels lucky found springs joy poetry essays ive never able see precious bane version masterpiece theatre full version gone earth although american movie classic airing wild heart choppedup version gone earths original film br br anyone assist obtaining copies either films full versions thankful happy fulfilled life want gonedisappear dear folks life carry us many directions yet battling specific issues namely year old female living abroad expat eastern europe undergone many challenging situations child sexual physical verbal abuse majority life aimlessly trying drown anger frustrations different ways relationships alcohol gaming changing country around mid s started picking pieces forming healthy individual ive read self help books visited therapy weekly basis year last years done always wanted fulfilled life goals ie got stable job nice flat renting still sustainable lifestyle good friends fulfilling hobbies ive learned piano practiced drawing visited every concert every band wanted big deal even sex interested lucky enough travel vast majority places wanted see everything say achieved one big wishes early s healthy relationship become mother huge struggles sustain sort relationship ended alarming behaviour course responsible nastiness wellbut never disrespected partners always tried hard perserve relationship life lasting least year ended either unwillingness move together extreme jealousy cheatingyou name eventually made peace fact simply cut done everything within power including long periods looking anything actively getting younger plus according gynecologist difficult pregnant anyway want disappointment rather volunteered local shelter helped people making lives better free time left real responsibility bound absolutely nothing one fulfilling ideally take months finalize certain things ie make cookbook recipes others use describe life lessons wanted go someplace nice peacefully pass away started planning details actually mind feel depressed sad hopeless per se feel somehow done imaginethe feeling long day work managing everything know going shopping taking care animals family planning holidays etc tired go sleep think sureit nice bubble bath sauna bed awesome go outside bedroom balcony cigarette expensive champaigne relax water bed kinda wanted try hey everything done took time needs nothing one left behind feel good feel now goes future know everyone says meet partner later life simply think late pandemics simply even chance meet someone tomorrow take time getting know investing common real estate getting pregnant pregnant best case scenario first kid let alone second kid potentially assuming able pregnant first place addition go wrong children marriage etc even stars perfectly aligned regard rather made painful decision give idea wrong never put entire happiness idea family despite fact elderly grandma living h away family apart prefectly fine grateful everything everyone seems ticket checkpoints ready wrap question ideas seem little unconventional quite months increasing normal train thoughts phase seek help sadly offer english speaking therapists live limited nonexistent thank advance hope make sense trying talk first time girl likehello idk really post thing im timid depressive rejected last girl ive tried said shy im trying move forward hard stuck much every relationship anyways want new crush feel im shy ive never talked see college spaces common im planning approach say hello see often university seem interesting glad know better name always overthink first approach let way much time something depressed uhmm guys think good enough sorry formats english f single honestly mad stressful reason guy girl friends make fun euehrhf im honestly confused tf matters im actually years old leave alone mean sure itd great hate feeling pressed someone post gurls wan na girlfriend plz girlfriend whywhy go without knowing anything mine tell tonights nightcba type anything done finally got motivation cheers anyone reached im weak im tireddont even know write writing feel kind human connection im miserable want turn hey need help d creating lgbt themed magazine need tips ideas include community reddit magazine rthegayscene ill publishing wednesday want story news meme included chance win rewards good enough submissions message upload story post rthegayscene much love good luckkyobi friend might kill tonight please helpive known best friend freshman year high school weve always close opened depression suicidal thoughts everythings gotten steadily worse tonight bf broke said best relationship sent humungous paragraph well redflag note successful im break right fix got school mascot homecoming told friend said signed school furry havent quite feeling keeps coming backmore im getting idea end struggling depression years now started hit many moments determined kill never courage eventually wanted make better distracted things soon suicidal thoughts went away things ok im new school ive faced disappointments im realizing depression destroyed work id done previously become sociable motivated person cant quite relate people around dont think anymore ive never felt unattractive dumb sometimes feel apologizing others present doubt things really better wake every morning old thoughts wanting die help please im donei kick everyday letting let leave much idiot let go little summer expecting come back deserved shit happened summer fuck got one chance prove love person promised answer hitting harder thought little hopefully peace everything dont even know man one teachers school added snapchat dont know react im fking stunned block want live anymorethey said faultthis best solution want want another tomorrow filled pain regreti sleep wake fault guys never gon na believe didnt boyfriend anything wanted show guys picture grandparents dog mr pants wish good day first night dont want cuti feel great right now idk wish felt often im planning redflagi wan na die want pain end ive planning killing killing things better soon maybe things worse cant handle anymore im still planning ive googling redflag methods writing redflag notes family members important people still think better im gon na gem film four production anticipated quality indeed delivered shot great style reminded errol morris films well arranged simply gripping long yet horrifying point excruciating know something bad happened one guess lack participation person interviews compelled see bit car accident slow motion story spans conceivable aspects unlike documentaries try refrain showing grimmer sides stories dealing guilt people left behind wondering stop time took hours melancholy gripped seeing verywell made documentary dear mom hear whisper something negative breath cant hear yell loud upstairs peanut butter pizza thoughts favorite cookie sorry havent posted whats favorite cookie im oatmeal raisin fan nobody talk topeople want die fuck failure fucked fucked life political conversion killing developed mental illness brought existence substance abuse harassed derided intimidated countless strangers friends seems end world examining sinner deity special person closeted trump supporter fact make racist traveled japan experience millennium sixteenth birthday became obsessed internet everything gamer culture games played made feel powerful drugs combining drugs alcohol video games practically ruined life proper redflag note man enough kill goading everyone know trying attack kill maim trying become depressed enough end closest got going blind five seconds briefly paralyzed taking many antipsychotic drugs jesus christ lord worthless wretch audacity think understood faiths mythologies prophet scum human kind asexual plan single life want life mean something today tenth day sober feel strengthened breathe without cpap machine thanks given first responder came rescue even nothing wrong racked astronomical medical bill caused countless headaches doctors peers family friends desperately trying find way depressed enough end life overcome happiness feel taking medication getting invegasustenna shot monthly want say thank store let buy alcohol thousand times know family acquaintances friends worried cant go longer continue living want earn every dollar blood sweat tears president trumps america may snowballs chance hell finally job stop parasite wish cant make miracles happen true im forsaken antifa keep guillotine ready stand nothing deserve live beautiful city going start cannabis grow operation cant even identify seed stem please delete browser history succeed leaving earth comet neowise drank way much koolaid im coming back know doi posted yesterday everything set thing holding back fear act opened best friend littlebit told understands better now day find lied always says friendship important know anymore feel need lie already talked im shattered idea anymore im close committing sucide ending something holding back maybe want family healthy relationship yall meet someone start messaging theyre ok first turn absolutely insane yes pls tell abt delete karma account cuz guy psychopath scared gon na look city cuz couple hours away change appearance case never gave personal info phone number family members names high school anything first name age name city live damn tryna make friends always got ta backfire even changed way type account case hes still looking notices similarities crazy man paranoid longest time retrospect overreacting yeah never trying make reddit friends lol tried look username see saying anything think account got deleted something good thing anyways tell stories bruhh mom ordered thing got mom took opened thought sisters lost told nobody even though arrived days told look fucking hehe friends realied allmy friends casually homophobic pretend thy make fun use physically mentally hurt hooray friends irl gay great im scaredim scared hurting people lovebut every time think improve things always seems lead mother thinks im useless think regrets long remember ive wanted die things bad im tired loop pain someone give easy way go im tiredthe past three weeks ive many days actually think make alive help im undiagnosed mental illnesses professional help cant afford today first session free sponsored therapist asked talk things liked think anything spent mins trying come things kept saying things dislike well thats point girl college committed redflag months ago situation isnt nearly bad terms financial stability social standing etc keep thinking see way much easier around truly miss positives life theyre far worth pain ive lying bed crying two hours head hurts nothing worth im afraid feel know need iti feel worse feel hopeless insides hurt one nothing afraid fact ive never stacked donuts dick astonishing one reason god given mf coochie collapser done smh ask top donut glazed anyone fantasize dyingi lot im years old subreddit special placeive misdiagnosed entire life finally went amazing transplant psychiatrist needed kidney first time stayed working someone almost years worked together finally told bi polar disorder learned whole life suffering borderline personality well im heartbroken lashed family couldnt help scared sad cant believe made far think poor little kid let people ruin deserved better care treatment intense therapy ive living im burning fire see feel much long im checking hospital first time willingly others th th honestly pray last thank sharing stories helped ways explain dont know ill back honestly im rushing time thanks listening friends benefits exist wtf adios amigos hallelujah world great journey first bangladesh english good seeing means im deadi longer tangent universe know time read celebritybut years ive gathered huge amount knowledgeand last day dimension something confessfirst personsi lot differenti think different tooor able heretheyre trying terminate mebut know ill always herei cant write book life appreciated appreciationtoday humans much foolishthey whatever theyre told talk whatever theyre taughti philosophisti nobodyi wish collective mindthis last day cant type everythingjust theyve implanted best note readsomethings going big conspiracykeep mind open eyes earsi hope exist little bit long cantwhether exist doesnt matter anybodythey want perishweve made solve itlove mom one loved mostmy little sister know shell harvard someday certainly willi want recall bad thing life last want say adios amigos film particularly fun anyone film industry especially indie capacity whose inheritance includes film introduction may appreciate quite much hard please documentary category doc different though pleasure comes earthy realism indie filmmaker punks hoot around watch whether wondered films front behind camera whether worked way sometimes painful hard rewarding indie world certainly kick film wanted die around thing really stopped access gun youngest brother oldest sister sad care siblings anymore gun thing still problem really wish easier way go want critical even gun saw someone post become hollow used think exactly happened gifted turned burnouts constant disappointment really continue wait day purchase gun day fucking shoot anyone gun come shoot brains shoot second buddy system great whats anybody bored something share send pm daughters birthday month got unicorn back pack necklaceim looking attention notto seem cold ive heard dad recently gf better years now take responsibility actions blame nothing noone ill try short single air force one nightstand preganancy girl planned didnt know til years marry september th daughter lillian born september th life begins air force marraige falling apart cuz family theonly thing childsupport illinois child every weeks marriage ends living inlaws md family left dad tx march st watch daughter last time person shes crying march st life splintered limp tx live dad lower support illinois every weeks ex support every two weeks average paycheck without ot dollars try see daughter ex vindictive infidelity lose hope video every often dad completely supports company father worked goes buisness gets job walmart greeter possible support now vehicle rides junky work junky gets junked vehicle junky ride ways go work lost job months ago splurged got daughter unicorn backpack unicorn necklace ex blocks number months ago money video chat daughters birthday month mail full notices door covered apt words vacate failure pay warrant looked mirror saw every rib bone im horrified daughters birthday month ive caused dad n lose home lower obligation warrants child support dad says hes tired one saves us saves us finds cheap trashed trailer dad says doesnt hate enough us daughters birthday month bought necklace backpack cant even mail worst im going return food destroy anything left today think eat couple days weigh pounds never able afford fly see never find job support long enough gain weight interview think im fucking meth wanted see daughter wanted give daughter shitty fucking dollar goddamn worthless back pack necklace cant fucking daughters birthday think may make want make til october st dont want think fault cant cant fucking miss goddamn badly rips woth amount taken away dont see way dont want stared anymore dont want see dad slowly resent dont want separated daughter shitty husband shitty person shitty son brother good dad thing good watched daughter grow sceeen listened cry ask come home kept going ling im eithergoing die jail didnt mean soill everytime think fucking fall apart haunting years dont see way dont want fucking sympathy pep talks im done sick hearing really want help meet girl named lillian tells worthless father abandoned tell rhat daddy loved couldnt hold anymore nevverr forgot bought unicor bakcipack necklace show wonderful best writing seen brilliant directing dvid trainer directed another smart television series called boy meets worldbr br show dought one greatest threes company roseanne famous cosby show television long time comebr br perfectly crafted jokes great performances dream wonderful show people lived seventies people didnt show appeals young young heart perfect show movie comedies nowadays generally minutes toilet humor foul language groinkicking modern comedies appeal lowest common denominator undemanding slow brain sure occasional good comedy come along theyre becoming rarer timebr br mr blandings buildings dream house shows s hollywood capable screamingly funny jim muriel blandings cary grant myrna loy decide build house connecticut suburbs film follows story beginning house hunting trips houses riotous construction way finished homewith zuzzzuzz water softenerbr br grant loy perfect roles course grant particularly funny watches houses costs zoom control film stolen blandings wise attorney played perfection melvyn douglas managing steal every scene hes douglas understatedly hilarious watches blandings lurch crisis crisis reginald denny blandings harried architect harry shannon crusty old water well driller wonderfulbr br ive watched movie numerous times always makes laugh think good film watch need lift whether building house miss toddler honestly cant really remember baby toddler worst song heard reason makes feel nostalgic wanted post last night boyfriend saved woman redflag dear people already posted cptsd group post well last night boyfriend saved woman jumping bridge cycled back home last night dinner drinks city cycled back cities bridge suddenly saw young woman hanging bridges fence first thought woman tried make daring selfie saw crossing social media another young woman standing ten meters bicycle hand looking asked belong together replied boyfriend walked immediately woman thinking really really bad first talked gentle woman asking help really liked help started crying panic saying useless afraid didnt know back side fence scared touch hold thought panic let go asked times times please come back safe side fence comfort help still said useless got beat husband police didnt help thank god universe good powers world boyfriend stays always calm rational still talking thinking hell hold precious lady panicking inside boyfriend stepped calmly closer looked saying come hold womans hand arm gently immediately hugged woman holding closely hold hugged firmly tried comfort saying ok alone precious gon na let go thank god bypasser came later helped us hold luckily police came quickly dragged back bridge told take safe place help pray god right help know hopeless everything seems boyfriend devastated ofcourse grateful help lady sleep last night nightmares boyfriend snoozing calmly next moment difference personalities haha lightly try talk triggering ive im grateful life dear people triggered worth people around care worth precious precious aftermath im still doubting done boyfriend wanted keep holding taking home let rest help tortured ourself bit guilt police right resources help woman boyfriend helped calming words help people moment let people help everyday theres way people hopeless everything seems people care genders genders male female attack helicopter honda civic panzer many people think two people yall crazy something going tonighti tired find motivation try anymore dont know going try im sorry friends family love guys didnt anything make isnt fault ah hitchcock hard find bad hitchcock movie lost birds saboteur proves point admired directors work many years managed skip one perhaps lack interest priscilla lane robert cummings lead actors course familiar statue liberty climax seen repeatedly film retrospectives wrongly assumed story leading might hold interest wrong suspenseful plot gets cooking right bat chance encounter bad guy saboteur good guy wrongly accused protagonist continues zooming along series chance encounters narrow escapes familiar hitchcockian elements innocent person wrongly accused crime people seem dramatic unlikely locations intensify suspenseful scene played within airplane hangar ranch bridge handcuffed hero hurls escape police sumptuous charity ball palatial mansion upper floor skyscraper finally torch statue libertybr br throughout humor provided supporting players generous dollops early ww vintage social comment moments human warmth suffering people find within lend hand help fellow human getting nothing return short always basic humanity core hitchcock grisly trappings sensational cast supporting players chiefly otto kruger slickest villain side george sanders broadway credits include male lead noel cowards private lives says weaselly norman lloyd titular saboteur mention alma kruger relation otto prominent society dowager involved fifth column intrigue character foreshadows claude rainss mother notorious priscilla lane fine job difficult role early scenes cant tell whether believes hero innocent guilty seems constantly shift opinion coming side fully late proceedings one ascertain whether acting fault whether meant kept state uncertainty plot developments swift fun clever really care thinksbr br peculiar hitchcock touches nothing plot twice lane character pauses change quarter reimburse kidnappers ice cream soda make call phone booth scenes inserted anybodys guess perhaps make film seem realistic thus heighten believability suspense perhaps give audience moment catch breath characters top garrulous truck driver impossibly kind trusting blind man living alone spotlessly maintained forest cabin politicalphilosophyspouting human skeleton members circus caravan hide protagonists pursuers anyone really good editor need someones help photoshoping one freinds face looks princess im seeing therapist today doesnt know feel way im scared tell heri made couple posts asking help try resolve feel way diagnosed severe anxiety stress issues autism diagnosis younger suicidal badly depressed couple years now made plans kill recently bought gun tried hinting parents feel way dads sole response people feel way sympathy advice night went room put gun head passed finally decide whether night made post asking lot guys girls told tell therapist came conclusion still know best interests half hours first face face session corona im starting really nervous telling dont see often know chance anxiety stress kicking really badly thinking say im worried anxiety making shake right now really want tell seems theres mental block please give advice overcome please help please hello one please translate red writinghttpscdndiscordappcomattachmentsunknownpng clue teacher saying anyone need help homework ill try assist boyfriend requirements male optional strongly recommended alien required nothing seems real feel empty today broke tears decided go home citalopram point point life literally empty go feeling numb overwhelmed snotty crying mess pathetic ridiculous want end burst tears work today feel going absolutely insane need helpi used able live depression yes effected life always found way keep going cant stop dreaming redflag im truly scared need anyone tell upset anyone life thats reason im holding anyway feels work longer need motivated anything maybe little motivation hope busy know literally figured post stuff important carbon monoxide long takei gas heater closed medium room sleep kill long till forget posts saying forget skirts butterfly knifes plz finally itgot psychiatrist day maybe meds ease thoughts anxiety idk wish luck guess must losing another wayin spite many recent paranoid delusions eg government colluding large corporations introduce lead municipal drinking water shuttling chosen secret communes theyre raised lead world secret thought sort psychotic break hallucinating im hearing fucking music fucked head deserve live ill disappoint yogurt yoghurt yogourt yoghourt obviously use last one love herand sincerely hope wake tomorrow im weak act impulses drift away never wake honestly believe heart best anguish stop aching stop uncomfortable anymore everyone move fuck want anymore hate even finally selfharming years still embarrassing scares ashamed even show even suffer currently heatwave uk stupidity wear sort short sleeves arms covered old selfharm scars damn bros commercialization kinda fucked funny capitalize ironic criticism holds place exact thing mocking capitalization media perpetuates cycle whereas thing eventually replace reach pop culture either hold stance reach people man im saying words nvm age flair change day goodbye age flair hello age flair kill myselfokay well let explain little bit life know asking normal life live mom dad sister thing need know socially awkward person elementary school picked shy different people glad left school currently senior year high school bit step longer harassed still lonely ive never real friend ive people actually gotten along conversations either never really see moved somewhere think kids school really even care much sometimes people walk past without telling hello even look upset fellow classmates even care whenever people ask whats wrong tell nice things make feel better people ask carry lives even invited social outings really feel important comes peers around think fit many people school think friend pretty much right older sister talk time know best conversations maybe people gave chance got know better maybe people see quiet shy girl many people know really act obnoxious loud seem different interests getting really depressed time fact cant make real friends beginning think killing planning tonight time want family members sad depressed think life kill chance getting things better future ok ban dumb people tired lifei dont know im suicidal im tired pain unhappy rather stop existing everything black happiest im asleep helpmy boyfriend almost five years blue broke completely unexpected things much good cant function overdosing appealing shd feel hell wanted scream void stupid internet cant stop imagining ithow long take caught anyone give shit trying best utilize coping skills support systems getting harder hour say still fighting family hasnt even offered drive see im burden keep saying go walk think positive yeah dont think key better now want go hospital im afraid right now thanks letting vent bit really know nearly first time lied things unemployed months looking job parents pay foe everything lives life hard sometimes feel trust broken know sub rules popular one think point tension headaches think anymore headache hate lot without logic although still hate even think things even control loser blessed born iran rd world garbage county blessed lgbt fucking place spice family broke accept sometimes think dad even want kid keep thinking anything wanted issues disappear happy know happiness feels really non existent concept naive happiness kid now feels nothing absolutely matters know matters anymore except friends feel damn burden amount issues much hate much loser constantly thinking going tired soon enough kind sweet feels long run maybe even happier mething think want die know seems way thoughts offing keep popping head make feel solution annoys much want live lost confused feel idk done idk really know keep crying baby times broken sense mine self hatred death want live hello guys first sorry advance english native language struggling suicidal thoughts months need advice problem advice cope situation appreciated come middleclass family third world country years ago borrowed savings money family around interested stock markets wanted earn side money higher education parents especially dad checking updates every month money techsavvy believes tell long story short noob lost money tell lost huge amount us lied told invested money bucket stocks according current prices stocks told value bad good luck ig lied money lose invested index funds thinks worth stocks reality far different although financially well ask withdraw fictional money thinks scared shit find tell truth lost money years ago break lied hold lies anymore every month ask updates hurts mentally suicidal thoughts now take anymore talk situtation anyone guilt shame posting using throwaway account advice deal appriciated thankyou struggling suicidal thoughts advice needed treatment resistant depression broken fixim fourth antidepressant three years along four years therapy life progressively gotten worse worse every antidepressant working failing absolutely fault anything therapist psych says think medicine work problem problem never go away think redflag constantly cant time soon hurt family much even years prep want theyll still hurt wish understand done living absolutely hopelessly done little back story august year lost job due covid graduated secondary school time decided take year gather money shape going college working week lost job got lucky found full time job working fine first sure stress came getting new job fine meet boss first noticed impulsive extremely impatient anything first time little mistake forgot patch one bag soil lashed treating less dirt obviously started take toll first took personally employees tell dislike everyone fear sadness turned anger ive told itonly gets worse confront ive let sitfor cant spend living moment without angry s o b honestly im starting breakdown everyday im really thinking quitting mean im starting lose motivation drive cant even relieve stress masturbating anymore im constantly pissed think quitting good place closes november use money idk advice appreciated thank read far rip mf doom died october death made public yesterday underrated rapper deserved love loved music rip hip hops super villan rest easy mf doom aita clean upaita clean stuff family see im gone pictures love letters know heart privacy energy rid going hate seeing im gone cant anymoremy life riddled tragedy tragedy got fired job gross incompetence know deserve given piece shit bad marks actually studying insulted class bitch let hatred best know anymore even want look around different school districts im fed id rather starve death go trouble shit want continue going life gotten close leaving mortal coil convinced might actually fucking time cried first time todayi suicidal thoughts realized easily make easier mom calling cops gets work doesnt see realized quickly go broke front mirror wasnt much sadness realization overwhelmed even notes ready send loved ones barriers put place stop thinking thoughts disappearing quickly dont even feel much pain anymore empty watching always watching run evilness upon dreadful stuff eery silence random stuff ghouls owl whatever noises make nightfall upon us nighttime scary afraid goblins igloos safety creepy eagles whatever reason surrounding yelps help distance obey voice hear ukeleles playing distance umbrella protecting rain people burning forest around hidden message folks life people participate group projects im throw hands please participate hard ask people know im social per hush type know type ill type hey part project tell reponse either okay im exclamation point optional really understand part assign something explain please part everyones gon na happy awkward remember different years ago life now remember enjoying things used meeting new people used love going movies reading books ate cried slept normal amount feel working hard back therapy meds exercise etc starting lose hope worse part grandpa died covid tell friends one things keep guys school ttv viewers apparently said loud dudes selfpromo tiktok nothing better said sure tik tok likehungry bitches karma whores reddit swear yet another postive posted several times guess good thing bad thing one im still alive thoughts keep coming back theyre coming back day gotten point every breath breathe comes sigh many ways explain core im lazy stupid simpler way explain feel waste shouldntve born first place wouldntve made difference oh im ive already told im young end early words last long encompasses thoughts eventually encompasses see future looks fucking bleak want someone literally feel make feel little better know practically guaranteed ill go back feeling regardless form help itd easier go hate thinking makes everything worse aaaahhhhhhh fuck tldr im completely obliterated comes hope pride optimism idea anymore depressed even check spelling grammar last chunk o text forgive errors takenmy life great loss day born lost tranquility taken years go life takes years experiences took innocence childhood years taken inability run leave homecountry due bad people family cared taken friends taken school took curiosity reading habits enjoyments relationship parents parents took happiness entretainment love taken one thing left take one take take going try hanging soon come post picture thai subreddit know certain amount karma something wanted post picture someones mother dying people making jokes reason cant post pics shit logged instagram deactivating cant deactivate thats shit wait weeks deactivate fuck sake hands keep fucking shaking know ive legitimately considering latelyim still live home super depressed car job schooling motivation things hate everything dad emotionally abusive mom ignores care brother old enough need anymore cant picture going snap fingers able drive anxiety keeps cant go therapy things might better cause job go college obviously cant happen rope closet keeps getting closer closer way shitty life garbage truck guys important planet along fireengine guys doctors without politicians really notice much difference without garbage cleaners collectors world shit place clair denis revisits theme estranged fathers men follow bliss determined fashion heedless emotion toll family nnette boni earlier film live narrow world marseilles examination louis trebor intruder takes us remote location along frenchswiss border half way around world korea tahiti film begins mid stream louis sixties coping ailing heart attempting maintain high level fitness learn louis stranger violence cabin location smuggling gunfire regular occurrence louis sleeps large knife pillow rifles nearby denis hurry move action along must patiently build understanding louis daily activities people deals along frontier including son sidney grgoire colin almost unrecognizable long hair wisp mustache rejects lunatic shown dedicated father two many brief scenes seemingly unrelated build impression louis milieu ms godards camera work exhilarating controlling metaphor louiss heart transplant goes korea tahiti search another son found louiss new heart rejects sidney rejected old accustomed brief scenes deniss film inexplicable nnette astride boni feeding spoon drive shooting bonis father briefest images boni gunshot wound head scene louis morgue cadaver scar transplant body sidney implication last two rejection real imagined father kills something indefinable son add emoji end sentence becomes funny sexual sort way today bored sent message wrong emoji end realised eat breakfast yet try ordinary sentence becomes funnier add emoji end lets good laugh losing girlfriend faultwe argument instagram photo liked know fucked big ive hurt badly little trust ive made think dont want even tho amazing ive complimented everyday amazing body talks everything silent cant seem trust anymore killing never intended hurt im known boyfriend made insecure body even tho love feel whats point im job shit different day bullshit routine life seems pointless feel touch break cant seem please dont think trusting isnt social anxiety worsti cant shit room years now done nothing life feel guilty fuck im burden family sometimes dont even eat days food last brother hard worker maybe good job life easier good job cant go college social anxiety wish wouldnt born good life think redflag hours every single dayi go much detail snippet many great things life appreciate take granted think often redflag used come spurts bad things happened anxiety built one solid day per week thought logically now matter many great things occur life spend quarter day thinking sweet release death sometimes feels comfort manage least strongest one couple things noticed anxiety huge catalyst constantly feel uncomfortable inside head hunger tiredness cause bad thoughts anxiety overwhelm annoying bad mood makes eating undesireable eating makes mood worse work long hours eating forbidden many times even possible im thinking whatever causing shit storm longer matters even want fix point want bright side trend continues soon spending every waking moment thinking redflag desire surely overcome reservations currently anyway thanks listening good day love jones one best movies ive experienced br br main element sticks fact welldirected studied film entirety watching movies certain things dawn subconsciously direction movie well writing chic hip artful love direction scene larenz tate nia long riding motorcycle north chicago night astonishing director movie deserved awards great jobbr br love jones classy sexy film highlights fact people love flaws love living learning us without hype natural selvesbr br poetry wonderful story line dialog scenes really make moviebr br movie deserves seen great movie lovers friends sit back watch hopeless romantic sit back enjoy alone friday saturday night day week peace solitude little entertainment needed love jones recommend hell hotlines putting hold desperately trying find live ill reach instead anymore tried every single time feel try life keeps getting worse worse every time want freaking end continue longeri hope anymore anything life getting better losing valueim useless worthless strong anymoreim edge hold back longer want end supposed suicide attemptit whole day physically fine now friend got discharged alonei know next day monke eat banana im asking real questions sick wanting dieive tried everything point drugs legal notsolegal exercise videogames overeating undereating empathy apathy etc im shell person opinions solely based objectivity longer act volition react logically ive competitions ive lost lbs write music ive talked people redflag demon allows sympathise others made home right inside ive heard many people complain life makes depressed ive done everything power change things better guess depression nothing material possessions personal achievement depression makes feel worthless persevere want cant fill hole inside paycheck fuck supposed rock anyways want contentment sedation bliss justify livingi cant seem justify continue living th attempt university yet going shitter wasted tens thousands dollars parents money cant eating disorders ruled life years long mentalphysical health shambles live state almost friends family person think staying state thing kept alive past year becoming chore even stay alive family hometown friends fine dealt redflags past cant validate living almost everyday feels torture theres light tunnel tend good days average per week meanwhile rest existence obligation comfort others help please edit good days fighting unidentifiable depression sadness real depression pulled dark abyss without knowing chosen sink nothing reason putting ufo thing aside best documentary ive seen factual reporting neil buzz must see interviews reporting revelation information stamped confidential released documentary date detail accuracy brief minutes facts blow away left awe risks taken first moon neil buzz probably biggest heros time see man save life bet neil saves life miliseconds separated death amazing watch travesty people known details assosiated landing moon courage men facing certain death failing computer stars men hamburgers stomach filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler one best friends attempted redflagbut succeed boyfriend got time stopped came told yesterday family intense redflag watch broke saw coming saw depressed gotten know luckily shes okay made depression much worse brother dying hate job feel lost broken wish run away go somewhere beautiful try enjoy life health problems require steady well paying job im stuck miserable hell made horrible least tell ive fan star trek tng kidbr br well sometime ago gave friend mine ds episodes asked himbr br hey man watching lately im done watching tng episodes said well got episodes farscape said ok let try pretty sure time wont finised watching tng found greatbr br episodes viewed show impressed much found childish initially thought another tv show nice adventures regular music little bit different neat special effects though vague impression actors fully characters skinbr br watched another episodes thinking eps enough decide show started got good grasp action wanted see happened next poor crichtonthe rest history br br think mostly freedom characters context action unlike star trek everybody slept supposed way much high tech bullshit br br show got better episode interesting story linewhat say movie poetry br br highly recommend came across movie australian hotel room brother channel surfing see young russel crowe telephone throwing russel crowe come know quasilove back states movie much surprise amazingly creative hilarious stars cast awkward teens hilarious stories odd sexual experiences including slick salesmanprostitutes unusual sexy mother lucky enough come across film strongly suggest picking say movie amazingly entertaining thank fine people australia making listening entirity ram ranch ive decided make update log journey discord call listening ram ranch audio clips second one lot male moaning im beginning question sexuality want deadfirst time posting last shot trying anything help ive struggling depression im cant take anymore sit room day thinking end life one cares last year admitted hospital attempt redflag therapy nothing working girlfriend dosent even seem care tell probelms says ill thing live parents dont care dad hasnt spoken along time mom hasnt years want someone speak fucking understands baked cookies first time im guy finally made cookies lazy ass didnt wan na go store decided write future redflag note people care first one brother islast night spent little hour writing redflag note brother intend making one everyone care people sure im really going go certainly serious sure want expect community posting maybe someone see realize lot worse reconsider redflag jason crazy really grow together later life got close years apart went life differently kids earliest memories living garage ltredactedgt vividly remember time mom made dinner kept calling come snapped feel eating back somewhere going mental health issues child thought jerk now totally understand feels crippled mental health another memory necessarily involve much involves jeff ltredactedgt back first started hanging together driving relatively new ford mustang girlfriend moving said girlfriend sweet job working ltredactedgt outside looking appeared living dream remember thinking really wish jason shit together jeff totally life time really anything going think working bloomingdales something today proud big brother im proud become passion career something cant even fathom life truly found niche life confident one time greats big brother want know appreciate may argue fight disagree thats brothers supposed hope resentment toward spent better part last years life complete agony everyday struggle days others imagine every single day life thinking going die multiple times day cant enjoy things people enjoy crippled make cant go drinks amount disoriented feel causes think incoming stroke heart attack aneurysm cant even think going vacation anywhere fear far away hospital die catastrophic medical emergency take place simply driving anywhere outside normal mile radius causes distress nearest hospital eating smoking drinking water basic lifes necessities caused anguish lightheaded dizzy fatigued various physical symptoms anytime menial tasks time escape felt sleep latest therapist asked know done treatment little taken back question take long answer told knew almost decade spent living way living know enjoyed know enjoy knew panic anxiety knew things trigger feelings avoid unbeknownst ended happening world became smaller smaller smaller know liked camping knew last decade camping put far away society hospitals help act camping necessarily bother panic brought made camping day never camped fear logic applied many parts life know hawaii snowboarding fishing really anything remotely took small comfort zone things fuel anxiety panic simply put know ocmike know ocmike liked know mikes passions life im saying lifes questions answered saying one able identify enjoyed made happy made continue life know know anyone tell enjoyed liked good reason feel commonalities anyone except people anxiety decided recently go find new friends figured start meetupcom basic premise type things enjoy things common users match minded group people drew blank groups activities going day surely group searching hours even figure liked appear liked anything lived battle demon inside every single day imagine living years life jail cell inside spent arguably greatest time ones life shell felt august permanent solution temporary problem temporary problem likely problem face way rest life think losing battle lost thousands won stress anyone nothing contribute decision nothing prevent making decision decision make spent many months debating long allow live prisoner long lived upset think took easy way seriously ask long live ive tried best paint picture life last years think things enjoy life imagine tomorrow every day believe going rest life cant enjoy cant travel cant eat drink smoke without kind panic friends thing think need go home might pass die heart attack cant go sporting events cant mall long allow live different medications therapists psychiatrists nothing seemed work things almost felt getting worse better long decided long ago today final day think sad time rather happy time finally live anymore longer trapped suffocating panic anxiety love much bro keep except nicer mom got damn good job given circumstances actually great job raising us kids lot impressive considering circumstances ps mom going beyond upset need take care little bit dont frustrated love hold let know truly loved understand parents talking shit know hear themi feel useless already im pretty sure im ready know say goodbye friends cant without saying proper goodbye want suspicious hate parents point sounds want die want friends im probably never going see please help pm pm reddit crush promise tell lol mods guys got ta god damn game ban someone getting stalked yet stalker need either game new mods team know im gon na likely gon na banned banned victim instead stalker rjusticeforthewronged need game care community stalkers someone please put end misery breathed febreze cant breathe without much pain gon na worsei feeling one bother read comment im another one poor souls spilling depressive thoughts apologize ruin day sour mood im empty cold feel nothingness plan execution go remote forest walk deeply lost die either exhaustion hypothermia starvation thirst natural deaths sort want rot decay moss tree roots want one chance finding body decaying corpse banquet smorgasbord creatures critters kinds want forgotten society want search parties give want parents realize mistake im planning taking trip tomorrow across country wilderness family camping trip may may chance ive dreampt every night years anthony works grocery store savin pennies someday mama leone left note door said sonny move monkey cant control anger hello guysgirls im born english speaker english grammatical mistakes try explain good manner note real wanted tell little kinda antisocial afraid go crowded places tell shy parents normal parents one although dad kinda strict bad thingsany dad hes nice huge temper anyone anything wrongplz dont think dad abusing anything love muchits temper crazy school kinda alone friends never hard easy make friends never progressed life going parties study nights sort things students liked hurt little animals kittens chicksif rememebr right kinda sudden impule feeling felt child dont feel love animals plants muchi dont know changed things progressed stopped talking people even best friends dont anything talk unless topic even family inner circle always kept silence speak something good studies liked science musiceven nowi felt anger days huge rate im feeling now grew im years old school enrolled universitycurrently last year im internship software eng somehow managed talk people now good always felt emptiness heart im alone think stuff able worse always thought dont example im short af im kg weight weight years slim always never able increase height weight muscle mass friends well developed nice body figures dont depressed fact im peoplefrom age noticed anger normal impulsive even things believe im angry dont blame others fighting anyone keep release temper break stuff stopped broken laptops mobile phones etc temper cant always afford new one instead try hurt im angry bigg anger outburst last week almost bite flesh inner forearm painful think bite force something vein inside hand day hand still feeling numb area huge anger outbursts im impulse drive knife serious damage hit head hit wall destructive im doubting live anyone im afraid hurt someone badly anger reason anger anything cant anything mad worst part progresses fail game played league legends recently quited anger burst raging fire ares body hurt hit fist always feel gloomy sad im anyone think abut alot depressedwhen happens smoke worst mental illness need opinion plz ps smoke weed everyday alchol abuser never dangerous stuff heroin meth tried acid times times good trips ruminationsyes contemplate redflag often plenty people life seems getting worse many peoples blah blah tell myriad selfinflicted tragedies brought depressed place place dull gray apathybut end mindless optimism encouragement better cause totally know life sympathy really fuck didnt rape babies wasted time money patience many good people certainly pity poor blind fools care brings point real bar redflag besides cowardice anyone says person commits redflag coward healthy dose websters pain cause family poor little siblings wouldnt understand mother wreck etc posit hurtful continue surely cant ask prefer alive well yes labor opinion hope last decade taught anything waste resources clear dont feel need something especially fantastic deserve life life reason enough keep living satisfied burned bridges count soiling academic professional record point see grim shapes nebulous fog coming future mediocrity toil selfloathing existence knowing potential oh crushing pressure expectation squandered must cause pain discomfort already loved ones owe keep living owe every distant relative bummed death go motions life fuck many millions better come gone wanted opinions hope brigade kind share meantime going go calculate many days nourishment wasted tuition given impoverished child long distance relationship tips basically met girl months ago started talking lot told feels weeks ago weve long distance relationship maybe month half now parents know told parents anything scared guys tips wants fly germany meet soon things problems gon na stay parents know long gon na stay stuff liket hat really scared never really actual relationship guys tips something long distance relationships please help really love wan na lose teacher spent whole online class letting us chat great wanted us start saying missed normal life vent turned whole thing music rap good bad reason bts great day think teacher spend time students great way act normal classroom hot millions great movie every way fun offbeat story wonderful performances four best professionals work business peter ustinov brilliant usual maggie smithdefinitely one greatest actresses time total delight karl malden bob newhart round cast perfect want movie perfect casting impressive way people work natural effortless way creating lots laughs fun moments throughout peter ustinov genius wonderful sense humor one memorable performances direction photography editing firstrate great time capsule london s definitely alltime favorites list historic moment happen next hour yall nasas perseverance mars rover set land jezero crater mars site ancient lake mission search signs ancient life mars take surface samples possible future return earth theyre bringing along helicopter successful first powered flight another planet wright brothers moment go watch gon na sick mad netflix right cuties vibing youtube looking things watch found ad netflix stranger things thumbnail scene didnt look anything watching got real excited starting going yes stranger things stuff yessss clicked mean netflix frik dont innocent people vested interest stranger things ahskkgnwgxodbwicbrktntkjfvwicktnusjgjksnfkoxheywhisjqhbd welpi bout last night dmed people good bye got pill bottle incoged lethal dose ibuprofin turns alot everything u dont take enough ittl shread ur guts send u hospital emergency room worth risk percent sucess rate dmed folks back said hey ill tommorow ive tried hanging twice od dont know go bc im n position therapy im unsure jjust teen thats fucking head bad long going years dont know ampxb u think corona end im thinking feels im jinxing anyone really idea going high noteor high note possible anyway someone usually talk suicidal thoughts ideas hate coming reddit want talk reasons obvious others cant bothered explain matters much ive wanted kill several times last months acted every time mess id angry stressed whatever ive failed second year uni feel nothing contribute future doubt ability simply keep top things go fend based depression prevented quite lot past years last night different idea redflag calmed instead making worse ive felt way think intensely suicidal less likely anything towards offing long break til uni starts repeat year trip japan lined visit old friend lives now feels good time subtly say goodbye friends idea enjoying right back uni struggle reality might sound ridiculous m capable enjoying now end thing idea killing whats preventing feeling completely useless suppose im cutting losses ive failed hnc equivalent first year university similar reasons im ton debt ive scraping everything school im studying music hard work actually want make money feel ive picked useless subject im really awkward space absolutely hating people go full stemlord sometimes kind agreeing ive struggling keep things lately see getting worse time goes im meds going second round cbt stick first time really feel im making much progress now minute musing ive method lined ages now things need make work need plan actual event ive felt useless long calmed wanting kill welcome feels right way ive done nothing deserve good things life ive unable anything whether ill actually least im feeling thinking right now know obviously previous experience suggests wont feel surviving rough patch waiting time feels real solution stress selfloathing hard explain know im asking advice suppose want input coming wanted think loud guess cant find words human end took hours writewrote first words accidentally clicked away showed idiot need chest anything go brings close redflag around months ago girlfriend together half year broke cool way caught cheating broke told sorry wont still together really love forgive time attached dont understand anymore today thats things used refused left nothing suffer ptsd paranoia baddest times dumb even staying never serious total fraud dont know even stayed one second took time im done processing yet gets better back reddit account gained lot support help im thankful smoking weed helps lot helps calm im full high tense energy time hard clear thoughts im shaky usually weed friend town weeks ptsd got worse know weed savior without searching found profile twitter yes twitter guy ive known long time actually real life seen profile couple times personal page real life stuff etc makes lets plays post said selling weed needed dm dumb addict give try never buy way usually dark hole didnt anything dealer wasnt available thought okay guy seems cool whatever cant bad mean weed heroin meth virtual friend showed profile time ago must cool wrote dm answered pretty fast bought weed worth let convince pay amazon gift card im idiot know post traumatic stress bad said fuck lot real life stuff page scam someone paid send code gave adress real life twitter account wasnt even active anymore time still lot old posts couple days later friend mine offered go watch movie refused stayed home receive package never came wasted much time waiting didnt receive week asked couple times happened still fully trust believing legit asking asking finally blocked realized got scammed research found scamming people regular sometimes even doxing threatening stuff wanted go police dont know even call person monster opinion cyber bullying followersfriends terrorizing people online seems fun lifes bad thing need make others bad well shocked couldnt believe got person adress knows look knows lot probably contacted main twitter dont want cant go police fucked buying weed seriously lose job wish bad go back time dont know guy going infos know im real trouble know reason wanted fuck life stupid didnt pay enough attention one single moment felt bad needed weed fucking paranoia still trusted feel worthless didnt wanted problems always nice everybody helped others went shop buying worth amazon without even questioning dont wanted ptsd didnt ask didnt want whore girlfriend leaves back dirt tbh atm dont even want life anymore thats enough im wasting peoples time reddit long ass textwhen think bastard good time money work hard im full hate read hed probably laugh pussy crying reddit help wants see suffer whatsoever reaction seems bit harsh know really boiling right now im bad person always tried everything right good person finger butthole every single fucking time finna need stand something bout cant life peace anyway people dont want state making weed illegal dont want ex gf dont want boss paying minimum wage dont want scum even exist ankles bleeding punched fucking wall want become total asshole okay cant go life ive point thousand times wont happen againbut happened people shitting real life recently even online world fucked ptsd paranoia simply cant survive person right now dont know haterevenge answer dont want go jail mean life gets fucked everyday die cancer yes cancer joke im psychologically physically ill something needs change want happy im miles away wish human experience feelings life bad realized always people right many humans crying edge redflag every half minute someone kills feeling helpless treated fair really makes sad dont see know fact maybe weird im looking forward birthday days idrc maybe im getting older n stuff ive put half money birthday present laptop cuz needed school last one broke im trying greedy yeah anyways think ill much fun idek dad remember bday th idk guess im feeling kinda need helpbut cant ask paralyzed rough weeki never really thought id right im lying bed unable sleep heroin withdrawal really really really cant find motivation tomorrow go class suffer cant help think much easier anything ive hit hard week im crippling awful debt decades leave school whether cliche loved girl loved didnt ive gotten girls feels straw broke camels back much fucking easier give drunk shoot high every single night help escape boredom shit thing really responsibility listen anybody gives damn feel right now im kind venting guys know want die tell want give feelings work money drugs life guess dying way know one contribute universe committing redflagwhat positives redflag good ways affects people close one committed redflag family changed positive way earth contribute ones decomposition universe contribute terms energy donating ones organs need one still live proxy make difference world one go many organs salvaged donated reddit premium ended days ago still mean im complaining thank reddit gods really want kill myselfi recently rid closest best friend least mutual feel empty void now want die nobody understands nobody wants help im insufferable bastard im antidepressants ive counseling im still none helped people telling try psychedelics fuck want want die now life gets worse people tell gets better fucking hasnt never will thats shit argument irl friends im losing online ones bf thats online want help want someone save nobody will nobody im alone im donea lot peoples last memory fight bad day cancelling plans lot people feel bad wont miss wont really care gone dont really now theyll upset reflects proof gone cut toxic people update blocked toxic cronies lfg guess ugh ik imma sound one weirdos pm please ampxb filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler damn idk nighter slept last days really need sleep think ill stay midnight yesterday watched movie third time recommended fried several weeks ago never watched even noticed falls typically category swedish movie rose hollywood productions tend sceptical foreign movies hell paradigm shift film touches keeps hope mankind change better way swedish village pattern areas earth people live together controlled religion misunderstandings lack courage predictions disguised brutality ability fun meet sing takes trigger outside rip masks everyone keeps one let feel human beings desire live lives never stop see stories keeps hope described five minutes containing story gabriellas song including performance one moviehighlights thank kay pollak minutes made happy bro bro bro bro goodnight say backkkkkkkk pretend father say im proud leave comment happen williams got investment know investments go williams go lost hopei yearsold guy injured right sheer curiosity ive probably forfeited chance successful lovesex life probably rest life jeezus yes ive ruined penis jelqing peripheral nerve damage axonotmesis feel little sensation although day seven sensitivity supposed return day fifteen due kind trauma ive sustained fella slightly bent everybodys telling worry everything fine urologist agrees parents become sick concerns listen friends turned fairly useless everybody minimises condition cant see progress hope nothing sensitivity low almost piss sometimes carefully time loo breaks result theres joy living anymore fateful evening plans future joined gym hung friends even planned enroll university getting gbf ive always depressed straw broke back cried way work morning thinking end thing keeping thought parents family friends honestly cant bring break hearts one hand still want live ive got much love give body let cant bear living among happy people enjoyable sex lives id kill time machine stop im coming end much copeeveryday struggle im seriously thinking planning end know guess im venting right now know wont change much hope rid pain even care anymore drugs alcohol selfharm ive run options cant keep safe much longer risk wish beive long history mental health problems along lines depression ptsd gad part ive lot improvement now say improvement something know exists feel im done emptied reserves nothing left hate february coming years ago later month came home found bodies husband year old son whole month relive happened starvation financial stress fights boss demanded take break lunch food attempt feb course essay due day commitments day im probably going supportive role someone many times wish worked told happy attempt failed think catastrophic failure reason im risk right now nearly crippled life im scared try cant stand idea something partially working aware whats going around unable act theres nothing sure work except probably work fuck know want know boys want know friends left time want shit never feels everything systematically stripped every time act towards interest feel fall shit makes everything worse everything complicated want peace simplicity position support lot people around feel imposter im depleted resources need someone take care anyone tried false real assuage guilt nothing one cares ive faced neglect parents abandonment friends best friend murdered child tore away killed relationships think theyre mostly people unconsciously acting messed patterns im tool theyre using reenact shit theyre trying process matter im thing consequence feelings inherent value days attempted killed son imagine burned brain begin explain guilt deal even tell people every single detail always tell fault happened fucking lying face stronger stopped police parents facing work dust settled months later alone totally utterly alone year know must come long way wait im waiting open door couple weeks ill open door ill find dead ill hear sirens flying theres point chest moving pretty extra fucking sure theyre dead sirens necessary fucking futile yes im pretty sure dead wish hell suffer stage alone wan na stage alone fuck want overthinking activated biotechnology notes tho big brain wan na cat girl thats thats post might tho repost think book ideas want know one interesting rule strong superhumans rule entire cities oppressive caste system built protagonist try live normal life changes run superhuman police changes forever twoman aliens evolved created system earth ecosystems merged created hellscape thousands years passed protagonists meet explore two different worlds mean true meaning humanity antarctic kingdom evolved penguins secret kingdom inside antarctica operated separate humanity millions years antarctic expedition goes wrong human protagonists see actions race impacted others see scars cant heal ferryman eternal river runs parallel universe links locations universe parallel one used method transportation never ends story follow ferryman travels river exploration fear man vs nature overlay quantum strain man trying fix greatest mistake via time travel accidentally creates bunch time duplicates many causing tear form fabric space time story follows one echoes learning seeking save world exploring themes loss hubris identity story science experiment essence life goes completely wrong actual personifications periodic elements created begins chain reaction personifications substances created story follows personifications hydrogen hellium explore brotherly bond life really means keep livingi wondering anybody knows find live sounds really dumb know think live much longer want die keep know find motivation live maybe goal something live long run something soon might commit redflag truly want help appreciated wants sing wellerman still learn text love song well go ship sing song days straight recently getting suicidal thoughts lately getting depressed matter much try think brightly situation jus shake thought wanting die really want share past abused dad got bullied school looks middle school moms relationship started degrade point really care affect commit suicide due playing games try rid thought ig suppresed feeling think want future think want matter hard try people closest friends parents siblings tell worth whenever hear feel guilt whenever think idea suicide feel calmpls help really know bowling ball cause wan na throw someones window uninitiated gundam world good place start burned star wars star trek compelling realistic scifi series become immersed simplistic boysavesworldingiant robot story might expected rather complex emotionally compelling space war drama line good bad guys decidedly less distinctbr br gundam focuses story al izuruha young naive boy living neutral space colony spends days daydreaming mobile suits playing war friends course series al befriends enemy soldier bernie wiseman end little al learns hard lessons reality war requisite suffering sacrificebr br loved oav series cool mecha designs involving story likeable characters recommend series anyone likes realistic sf anime think anime silly sexy entertainment im going kill thanks covid much ruined worldfucking covid met many new people much fun im shut fucking house day online uni fucking virus say going forever fuck id rather die point carrying think id better ending now wish someone hug protect needed people life take pain seriously always laughed laughed fucking take anymore keep strong one tell good job someone supposed dont want live anymorehello im struggling suicidal thoughts feel alone lot mean friends guess kinda consider acquaintances manly people close im band ex true friend feel people dont relate im years old smoke drink lot manly numb world around dont wrong love enjoy beer find drinking much work good job im unhappy working midnights midnights years cant better shift im hardly sleep maybe hours day really gets years girlfriend argument something fucking stupid usual ended relationship stress time fight freaked regret dearly said really mean things hate constantly argue everything seems make feel cant anything right love much miss im trying hold together stress life routine gets hate hate job hate sleeping hate world sometimes evil ways ive held head several times cant pull trigger dont know anymore feel empty inside work hours ive sense pm yesterday slept hours yesterday life sucks dont know even talking guess feels somewhat good chest makes hate wanting fucked sounds first time ive thought though sat gun hand desire hurt anyone sucks ive smoked entirely many cigarettes typing dont even post probably try lay keep thinking ending im broken dont know fix desperately need someone talk toim suicidal feelweird definitely almost outofbody dont know describe think holiday new year stress really getting advice bettering relationship ive dating girlfriend september shes years younger dating im worried ill run legal problems age consent pennsylvania lives im turning december love lot dont know still love much reference born september born december film scaring first day saw itbr br mum watched telly back remember woken middle night tearful ramblings dad helped stairsbr br saying something dont let something asked made upset told shed watching woman blackbr br obviously watch even though eleven let scared s ive immune horror films watching sure anybody interested comedy series ive working freshman year high school coming end want see live one day freshman year high school friend bored grabbed camera went hall film lunch period next week eventually started posting videos regularly lets say got bitstupid first episodes pretty timid awkward watch share young looked really hope make people laugh series means lot dozens people cameos co star helped produce every episode characters friends high school maybe guys favorite anyways final episode premieres saturday pm est trailer now things actually happen show last line almost every episode joe biden presidentit total satire turns may future seeing involved knows parodied several tv genres varying degrees success created convoluted story full conspiracies battles maybe small bit dimensional hopping hair goes short spiked shoulder length despacito released piqued interest find searching lost files john youtube playlists seasons complete season finales please nice ive never shared anyone outside school really hope people tldr lost files john offers unique blend comedy awkwardness enough head scratching plot twists plot holes leave thinking days check youtube catch premiere final episode saturday every day brings closer deathi yo working student want kill life unbearable skills talents im absolutely boring person spend free time alone really want find girlfriend see way find one im useless used go away sadness listening music days bored music want go sleep never wake im tempted buy one rings attached chain think itll look sick ik wear public pointless need help talking girls boys nonbinarys try playing question game question game pretty simple understand begin taking turns asking questions person cant dosent want answer question person answer question loses may seem simple concept helped know opposite gender pretty well hope help fellow redditors well cautionary advice ok lose game question gets personal uncomfortable know boundaries fun im gon na im gon na kill cant put nuts mouth struggling years scared admit feel end nearwhere start mother murdered someone close family ive issues life emotions general growing got fights school lots listen anyone along father beat something care next day id care hated everything hated life dealt hated town lived hated father sister hated never pleased physique looks sports anything often contemplated jumping garage head first falling tree fashion always thought death better alternative never able actually jump garage head first moved fathers place roughly thirteen went lived family little changed still angry still defaulting suicidal thoughts shit got bad getting along family took got kicked lived streets sixteen seventeen gotten girl pregnant actually helped fresh perspective thoughts less frequent first daughter born im living mother collecting social assistance pressures child whilst child dropped schooldidnt along teachers students coupled default rage end abuser daughters mother first time happened angry believe let things point believe struck partner kind piece shit one day daughter angers point fucking kill deserve better happened multiple times always defaulted kill xyz finally ended leaving thing another relationship im years old literally exact repeat previous relationship time im thinking killing abusive events thoughts frequent day day lifeat work driving watching tv relationship inevitably ends take time really anger control eventually learn okay angry okay react mention throughout relationships never really let guard never mentioned anything thoughts default reactions run head neither partners known even thought redflag although love let know real inside whos never really felt hes belonged think im smarter anyone think think way ive never type person openly discuss emotions longest time emotion truly feel anger wrong stints happiness never lasted always overshadowed rage depression thoughts redflag yet another relationship one much better others kids together abuse either party still arguments ends usually bike ride talking healthy suicidal thoughts became less frequent thats say point children love world cant stand thought know father never got know mother fast forward almost decade thoughts little aggressive seemingly matching decline relationship relationship ends im hurt feel saw coming easier handle angry still frequent suicidal thoughts current day ive relationship someone almost year half still aggressive thoughts even though relationship golden standards relationship recently ended well broke wanted things im old now kids older think im supposed ive felt whole life omnipotent fucked took wrong person know things better heartbreak ive heartbreak thats pushed im done give cant keep fighting thoughts every day im strong enough think possible happy life im always thinking really fucked ways die look fall escalator basement every day think thoughts getting bad almost someone screaming im mentally exhausted thinking affect family im physically exhausted im sick angry time half life kids got know speak much father siblings best friend last relationship cant even talk now never able open either even though wanted share everything ive tried anti depressants ive doctors cant cope anymore ive basically said goodbye everyone matters without letting know goodbye feel bad kids know understand theyll say everyone says took cowards way person strong cant continue every moment every day im looking anything seeing die bus hit killed guy city long ago hanging seems good option read done right ill snap neck instantly im scared swallow pills want fail want family see drive electric scooter people almost kill every day avoid ive never seen light end tunnel definitely see one now ive grown ive matured ive given time pass instead gotten stronger stronger now somehow loved ones see post im gone know love nothing wrong difficult path walk brain cant anymore sorry saw description movie tcm let run peter ustinov maggie smith delightfully surprised find really liked movie found quite exceptional course seriously dated period piece well worth watching subtle humour insight life lifestyle almost forty years ago problem trying find dvd watch often quite taken performances smith ustinov leads karl malden bob newhart cameo appearances robert morley cesar romero going put got one tell past months mental health completely crumbled friends reach always reach really obvious past months care never reach even ask okay nothing fact lonely loser amplified past monthsi always thought reaching friend think bad day normal friends knew depression yet one message comfort sent friends always important whole life experiencing life school everything feels hopeless stuck depression feels matter rid friends always said improve whatnot simple depressed suicidali felt lonely past months reached one last time one friends said reason reach check adults now said toughen words stuck head past week know right wrong anymore know want move simply want live anymorejust removed social medias friends lists amount pain went life outweighs good happened never girlfriend fear lonely forever eating away seeing friends care enough made depressed day told toughen bullshit bullshit excuses words tell enough ofi hate everything cared much friends care returned anyways guys probably going post honestly feel extremely suicidal right might last post reddit sick need members okay thanks joining imaginary club whoever comments first gets silver comment first give silver rare opportunity review film imdb relates life close way someone living cerebral palsy albeit less severe michael one main characters film wish give film free pass tackles subject thats rarely approached normally treated pofaced seriousness minor problems film id address first people clear situation clouded judgement overall excellent film br br parts felt unashamedly crowdpleasing expense realism pound every time wellmeaning member public mentioned electricwheelchair racing id much richer man speaking personally fits public perception deal disadvantages rather reality actually goes thing spending time watching disabled people go pub big deal us actually much might admirable outsiders looking appreciate previously sheltered perspective michael still think hed concentrating enjoying experience rather reflecting big deal actually first place amount time spend seeing fun felt bit muchbr br felt terminal nature rorys illness brought attention far late meaning used cheap sentimental device come pair rather something everybody knew along going dealt withbr br balance criticisms dish heap praise well although thought scenes showing getting grips normal life touch overdone script ventured tricky places expected comes lot credit instance raising issue love relationships showing daily apparatus often used aid assist lives non ablebodied people despite blunt emotional shock tactic death sprung upon us movie whole far less sappy anyone right expect type films bebr br brenda fricker performing variations role capably autopilot seems years robertson mcavoy share special interaction must noted inside im cartwheels group people somewhere finally made film justice lust life many disabled persons european movie nice throwback time student s experiences living abroad interacting nationalities although circumstances slightly different klapisch director went new york film school one think drawing experiencebr br interesting film balances message one generalize notion every stereotype underlying truth example italian character based pothead aspect wellknown italian stereotype german character features tried tested stereotypes stereotypical aspect movie character central theme infidelity critic observed infidelity crucial french film class british filmbr br main character girlfriend played entirely likable think deliberate greatbr br may unintentional nationals elements taken metaphor countries perceived role eu british woman fling american entertainer s us president frenchman shows natural leader landlord shows upbr br although europe diverse new york striking see two nonwhite characters one chilean woman indigenous features despite appearing age main character portrayed potential object interest another gambianspanish rather gambiancatalan male appears bit inventedbr br one might ask klapisch chose protagonists longestablished eu member countries western europe nationalities reflect meet students s believe exchange programs contemporary europe much diverse erasmus program encompasses countries iceland eastern europe many eu members understand choice nationalities familiar majority viewership may deemed necessary distract contrast klapisch wants create peoples europe bureaucratic europebr br despite minor gripes great movie made consider going back europe live french friend mine expatriate us captured shared feelings piece contradiction europe us leave heartbeat hope liehey ive suffering depression almost years now past weeks taken turn worst though almost friends drifted away life become complete shit even low standards yesterday got back exam results terrible id banking results least give life semblance hope reason live told definitely kill day talk redflag hotline decided hang another day today appointment psychiatrist one talk besides past times visited fine felt better least suicidal visits times today aggressive irritated stance towards kept forcing say things clearly uncomfortable plus claimed lying time told couldnt perfectly recall specific details due addled state mind time didnt seem listen realised every time slight bit hope always turns wrong friends used confide ignore tell problems try hang thought results make didnt work thought maybe psychiatrist help didnt work well fuck kill end week edit talked mother im fine now think whats wanted wish whoever seeing good daynight rank best zorro chapterplaysthe exciting musical score adds punch exciting screen playthere excellent supporting cast mystery villain keep guessing final chapterreed hadley fine job diego alter ego zorrolastbut certainly leastis great directing team whitney english said yes asked borrow pencil said yes hey see post write ugh political hey stop scrolling reminding great day feel gotten girlfriend got identity crisis skateboard think gay game really great smooth fast easy play fun even well really fun make skaters crash burn easily one best video games hey mods stop banning people answer modmail pls pls someone tell send yall message mod want live another week maybe two longer absolutely necessarythere one thing life meaningless terrible girlfriend serious long distance relationship little one year never seen person literally fuck everything life contact started casual made terrible mistakes mistakes probably able fix able forgive know tell want chance us actually together hate practically everything life seriously considered killing last months keep becoming depressed possible life thing look forward think able survive professional help forgive probably wont obviously cant tell cant risk causing think committed redflag know anyone lives close stick around little clear way forgive avoid risk sure completely kolchak tv series really fit category part horror part comedy social awareness thrown something think people ready shame really ive started watch shows chiller network never saw originals realized different interesting really br br starring darren mcgavin kolchak reporter international news service simon oakland always angry boss tony vincenzo show followed exploits chicago news reporter often became part story searched windy city modern day creepies go bump night underlying charm macgavin really sets show apart somewhat goofy guy always wears suit help love jokes great back forth skeptical editor oakland downright hilarious br br stories part pretty good acting good s great period special effects show suffers suspend disbelief fun series ahead time weird compelling film topic atom bombs created los alamos nm usa used japan latter part world war ii huge course deeply disturbing films plot takes lot heavy issues actors carry much creative tension never seen film much interested admit read book smoking bed conversations bruce robinson robinson wrote story screenplay think film better expected reading robinsons point view conversations see thought got derailed think paul newman pretty good somehow bottom miscast hes hollywood one point big meanlooking guy storms newmans office striking presence immediately thought playing character newman playing lead plays head scientist fairly good somehow brilliant enough portray huge angst goes part immense responsibility creation ultimate machine death destruction one effective characters seems composite personality played john cusack oddly affecting throughout end character whose fate really hits home made think vividly fate japanese people hiroshima nagasaki feel even worse used bear mind english isnt native languageso hanging friends today good came back home noticed dont take joy anything dont think im able live please help idea sorry lack context im good writing men pigs men pigs men pigs men habe potential rapists take advantage women stay cautious bro people dumb bunch kids twitter tiktok saying law going pass teachers look girls private know trans tell bathroom use research law want pass law make sure schools check girls birth certificate privates trying join girl sport allow biological girls trans girls strength girls born boys many dont go hormonal therapy strength boy letting boys play girls teams make hard biological girls scholarships kinda dont see problem bill passed yall think im lucky met youyou make feel alive makes life worth existence proof god really exists love much feel im relapsing harder beforeevery time feel getting better fall back even right truly dont want live much im dragging everyone around im wasting much time dont want keep life feels completely meaningless im weight everyone elses shoulders dont know want gone cant ruin anything hello whoevers reading little something mehi noah years old live place outside city called manchester northwest england hobbies sit bedroom day bored wondering life even worth living anymore live dull depressing live small box house shit weather nearly year round particularly clean people seem smile faces parents clueless understand feel gain courage come emotions old activities used longer interest gaming photography going watch football team called manchester city play going walks sometimes drink cut relive pain everything seems black white everyone elses life seems much better mine everyone seems hobbies success wealth loving understanding parents family rare occasions bad moodmy girlfriend farrah helped depressive episodesjust little years old lives us tennessee huge house large loving supportive family family full success hobbies basketball softball sociable understanding going best high school state lucky live life think takes granted precious beautiful perfect reason still alive today sometimes possibly due depression instant turn even little triggers random sometimes feel emotions sometimes hurt due living perfect ideal lifestyle already car time guess puts perspective amazing life live completely different areas opposites personality sometimes think understand cut hurts drink hurts talk emotions says hurt deep feel want one ruining mood life absolutely perfect want spoil really need help stop worrying possibly affecting need find ways stop making shit boring need help see living longer kinds emotions affecting need way find colour lifethank reading made far sorry make sense sounded rushed wanted someone listen thank everything boring dull meaningless life work want live anymore work hrs day go home time work friends gf nothing live parents live canada costs half million buy small house matter much work matter never afford house dreams dead advice people give go walk going hang soon life worth living another day existing work tired fighting tired feeling worthless tired struggling give done waiting end feels come ready die feels forced stay want set free want anymore im probably gon na sent hell fuck moved scale bathroom scale parents bathroom reason every fucking time go sleep always hear following note footsteps annoyingly loud whenever put footsteps annoyingly loud version even says annoyingly loud footsteps door opening followed footsteps scale beep footsteps followed door closing footsteps door closing plan sent hell record happens every damn night parents denied happening either theyre lying im hearing something im pretty sure theres pattern im hearing anything later ill bring show recording cant say edited file reason clue software sound editing aids pc cant handle anything without fucking due shit result im either gon na told im wrong fucking yelled wan na hear annoying ass foot steps beep sleep wish luck movie intelligent movies transcends least common denominator stupid people probably appreciate story relies heavily dialogue parallels lost translation although sunrise much brighter somehow less abstract simply lot betterbr br script characters even slightly surreal atmosphere feel totally realistic actors play absolutely brilliantly rarely seen movie script acting melted perfectly togetherbr br dialogue moves personal issues risk becoming little top stay right side almost time although found moments little awkward embarrassing balancing fine line demands outrageously talented actors sometimes yields great results overall movie simply stupendous rarely love films depicted way find trustworthy realistic every time achieved result fantastic think stunning apparently timeless beauty female lead actress helped quite bit respect still looks stunning film years afterbr br simply gem movie cant miss one best movies seen s need someone carefeel one knows needs want reason keep going im tired getting worse want fall existence nobody sad thats really see birth nobody asked wanted life obvious practical implications point life said first able consider existence properly already late already become tangled net people care purest wishes fault coerce life want stop caring put nobody distress discovering body even hesitate anger want life want put effort take process therapy become functional human saying impossible happy feel co operate entities us work together fix likely become happy productive actually saying want want improve want cause distress given willing compromise wishes movement angry trapped beast angry pitiful weak ridiculous self maybe cruellest trick fate dealt weakness neither improve end simply complete ass handful people spoken seem think medical profession answer seem think went doctor change mind id co operate id want change want something impossible want fall existence nobody sad feel every time suicidal closer closer really itsomething awful inside gaining resolve certain last month let alone year tried meds still suicidal hung lived took whole bottle pills lived packed stuff take way next person live outlet even beautiful anons enough anymore mfs got choices world smart fella fart smella preach im waiting parents die kill myselfmy parents good people adopted raised best efforts want upset especially mother attached go insane kill im almost lover life loneliness unbearable right want live time want parents sad im waiting wow miss uthepsylocke anyone active last year know day comingi cant think anymore im failing school im hopless future cant anything fir im crying everyfay im going write last words update old habits die hardprevious post last days think day posted original post millionaire debt managed start company selling services made around first two weeks guess used leveraged longed bitcoin got liquidated keep going back exact act brought knees maybe hope might able recover funds trade cant seem system feel disgusted still services going generating cash flow save slowly cant seem fight urge inside keeps telling trade dont feel sad depressed right now feel really empty confused youtube ad bypass ad click random youtube story click away story ad bypassed enjoyable film excellent actors actresses evoking range emotions contains really excellent humour whole family enjoy know characters quickly experience ups downs ends upbeat literally confidence comes gender keep missing opportunitys talk thinking worst possible sernario thinking happen example goes way home stopped today gone thought go wrong even talk snap dont wan na start proper conversation case goes wrong wrong world fuckin bullshitunemployment still come thru way money probably gon na fuckin tonight got go anymore yo boy sub still virgin idk seems every time browse sub im usually kids age usually watch old classic movies one favorites totally addicted watching first time really good u think technology movies back time music great storyline okchoreography great must see know theres prequel movie many people movie love classic love movies theyre much better movies now movie make smile cry make start dancing music absolutely ear catching beautiful seen dirty dancing harvana nightsprequel prequel star original actors thats hate prequels ruin original one wants prequel want sequel many people agree movie original sequel rd one enough beyond people wont bothered watch remembers movie st benard beethoven think theres movies altogether living optionali dont want live wasnt meant able euthanize perfectly logical disappointed think deserve live anymore need kill much cowered make stupid mistakes every day even proper job find proper friends happy point life stand today tall mountain lowest part need stop need kill now feel useless society really know going doi fired every job pick depression gets best end miserable matter start showing late lack enthusiasm super slow overall give fuck attitude last time tried go college ended suicide attempt taking financial emotional redflag debt lasted way long handle mention credit card paid credit score gone shit try professional help end answering calls showing appointments process takes forever always stuck waiting start medication end trying use end lifethe one thing supposed passionate art love art child got opportunity make money art family friend requested portrait daughter took months finish hated although loved paid still put existential crisis hell going even handle something love job tv definition bum live mom freeload playing video games nothing time two friends talk every months boyfriend seems love lot thinks help life together one day needs realize really disappointment sure fix know honestly stopped caring life long time ago live shame guilt acting plan family friends ask itthe worst part even talk without becoming extremely depressed overwhelmed f jobless school ambitions frog guy thank much frogs want watch bleedive selfharmer past years im trying cut anymore scars dont fade used want right cut watch bleed hate tiktok personally tiktok hate redflagis pussy shit want die significant assisted redflag vs redflag vs outward harmneed chest context much fucking shit going reaction really love leave fucking world want hurt piss want people try help suffer invulnerability towards solving issues want immediate family friends bear burden intentional redflag really love leave fucking world peacefully horni disease cure u ahaha hmu bb lmao jkjkjkunless ahaha dms open m imposters amoung us dffmfffmffefffsffmffaffrfftffaffsffs summon utheholysheep next hrs reply comment whatever tell say dms dm message ill reply sub movie great messagea impressive cast ellen burstyn samantha mathis jodelle ferland years old made movie ellen burstyn jodelle ferland nominated best actress tv drama upcoming emmy awards new york peter mastersondirector nominated best director tv drama emmy awards april jodelle ferland won best actress tv drama young artist awards studio city ca see nominations mermaid true story cridits real family set something see often find mermaid blockbuster video stores watch ityoull glad anyone good political discords arent americans jacking country great dm pls imma honest im prob one whenever im singing someone walks mutter extra words im thinking randomly speaking dont look crazy bruce almighty story bruce nolan average man feels god messing life god confronts show bruce error ways course giving someone gods powers take turn worse bruce almighty good comedy jim carrey good always morgan freeman firstrate seems right home god cast brings plot together well jokes almost always target although sometimes resort bit much carreys facial expressions liked fact movie actually portrayed god black man thought quite well especially brilliant freeman hilarious scenes opening cookie scene instance others miss target slightly still good film hey aussies aussies wan na join sub recently got working active anyone welcome active members appreciated im looking new mod australianteenagershttpswwwredditcomraustralianteenagers yeah come along itd nice suicidal spoiled bratthe title real question know im suffering depression mental illness years early remember ive planned living past im currently things taken turn worse past years blah blah lately ive move back home mom year rate mental health decline steadily accelerating led internship kept telling getting real position soon every month im jobless seems real prospects hope whatsoever able move support independently bfa program place emphasis giving vocational qualifications ive overall horrible experience seeking work entire life mostly im weirdo im awkward funny looking think major baby face makes hard people trust adult responsibilities hired feel deserve position instances especially considering competitive city field fact worked nearly hard enough past years secure edge millions people want jobs ampxb anyway sorry long exposition main issue nice place live mom one desired neighborhoods really wanted grind probably job duane reade starbucks even though ive gotten none countless baristachain store jobs ive applied past years even entry level corporate position somewhere something really work hard feet living im going end life moms reaction pretty much occupy thoughts every day extremely long time ampxb goals life desire family children mental issues allow enjoy following food sex socializing romance existing feels full time job ive never wanted adult cant handle watching uglier every day whenever think working miserable job support top mind goes much id rather dead fair lifes fair iknow work hard even want alive first place feel im prolonging existence moms sake ampxb theres really much think make mind staying alive living work job makes miserable definitely keep going least little longer think fact parents afford pay rent mom probably much rather find dead course immediately feel manipulative spoiled brat wish suck whatever job everything feel entitled never works parents pay rent make feel burden already feel sometimes feel need honest mom im thinking redflag thikn already feeling feels emotionally manipulative depressed spoiled manipulative suppose know im sorry post direction ampxb closing anyone feel hit rock bottom alone world life cutting know feel higher standard life anyone really feel worth really know snap started seeing fourth therapist recently im mostly humor mom really see much read post back hate sounds really genuinely things say make post im loss right want depress friends suicidal rambling im posting chest maybe someone relate love give really sad virtual high five hope thats okay much love everyone two people crushes girl th grade gay kid th anyone crush offensive joke scroll youre truth people virgina vigins people hungary ravenous people turkey turkeys disguised humans avoid thanksgiving likewise spanish snakes pain canadians tin cans aids japanese real spanish people whove fled sad snakes tried laugh panty jokes china wanted included chimed big continent theyre famous portugal full pilot seagulls guatemalans love eat guacamole watching mulan guate movie russians tight schedule must rush rush fast thailand land kinks india jojo fan decided live fantasy land female version dio australia decided better us left without trail theyre upside argentina really worshipping site pirate gen z named tina founders belgium love spongebob favorite character plankton hide fact ring bell time chum brazil kink country sick people person named italy bad accents tried say leach people mistook name country afganistan stans afros want bring back dennis marked territory directly denmark bangladesh food kink tell need im way tired awake rn know top post already wanted write hopefully chest life seems completely meaningless nothing live surrounded people people fucking everywhere lots friends possibilities something endless seem meaningless know live make progress entertainment seems pointless know live feeling meaningless know intrinsic meaning found know triggered boredom loneliness two days ago family whole day speak anyone yesterday today feel long able entertain life seems meaningless coach hillfuck racist piece shit got ive become depressed contemplating death wish suffer hope heart attack fat fuck seriously want die fat ass makes feel minority sucks fuck hate different hate god giving dumb fucking body fuck quit whats annoying spam messages calls need pick friend im giving minutes ish spam interrup listening music mean keep telling itll good year ill fine week im going beand dissapoint something happen want something good come life everything good leaving everything bad coming fast life nothing downward spiral ufroggo appreciation post pog guy birthday guess im now mean nothing really changed kinds cool years ago life starded even remember lol bruh big brain yall know oxford university older aztec empire years need fucking meds pleaseive meds week abruptly sertralinezoloft doctor fucking sucks didnt let refill pharmacys responding genuinely want kill ive never felt fucking horrible idk actually medication father offered go driving considered crashing fucking car im back mothers house fucking hates dont know fuck anymore havent able stop crying minutes time cant fucking fucking cant need access meds im going fucking die responds texts late night texted girl around pm yesterday responded two hours later respond replies hour ask question around pm responds happening now text late afternoon responds possibly mean anything guess preface saying talking work damned stubborn baseless negative thoughts want burden mom telling anything therapist way guess ill list mistakes led well school well enough go good college good college good job shame rest life older sister flourishes fear going end deadbeat dad id rather die leech others good person downer anything useful offer anyone entirely replaceable grandma died days ago grandpa probably far behind probably thing slightly control though spend much time thembut suppose complain many people suffered much worse still loved life useless coward giving hydrocodone overdose looking really tempting right now ill tell stupid little story try properly plan death time homemade gununderage bm expensive risky sick bs might well make something worthwhile last thing idk even im posting im gon na make already started might well say bye stop meplease someone stop want die autoimmune sjogrens syndrome active long im years old dlco pulmonary function test normal feel breathless everyday talking people reading outloud walking leaves breathless probably scarring interstitial lung disease sjogrens recentlt found pulmonary function test took years ago revealed moderately decreased dlco asshole doctor said nothing wrong asthmaif ask pulmonologist asthma doesnt cause decrease dlco may even increase dlco know scarring reversible want die never life working classes left graduate uni degree biology degree job energy either anymore im breathless fatigued yearning swift death remedy knew way improve state least percent willing fight life everywhere look western medicine says im doomed decline im burden society becoming even burden alive insurance one year stuck nothing pay meds nothing pay procedures need dont money dont energy dont hope end painless possible hate feeling pain dont expect people actually answer one thats im thinking right now one best movies find child lived chipmunk adventure years old years old story film daves going business trip europe sticks boys miss miller playing around world days video game two villains klaus claudia brother sister round chipmunks chipettes adventure kids must hotairballoon way across globe theyre unaware game really diamondsmuggling ring found airport villains chase ensues ends klaus claudia jail alvin simon theodore brittany jeanette eleanor safe dave miss miller warning now musical quite damn good one people hate musicals one people frigging love musicals rocky horror grease sound music cats dance anything except fair lady see share kids got disappointment many people life shit shit always eventually depression win forever tired pain time living hate filled world every second every day want cry one safe turn matter want die feel right suicidal theres nothing wrong lifei want die feel guilty theres nothing wrong life feel im ungrateful im suffering much mental illness im anxious depressed nothing life wrong feel right upset maybe im little btch cant deal slightest inconvenience cant control feel everything feels wrong im overwhelmed cant much want everything stop want theres point life im horrible human wish give years life someone deserves many wonderful people die young years sit around pool self inflicted suffering many people much worse mange stay optimistic cant handle life privileged little middle class white girl living area identity lesbian problem want cant even im much coward use knife wish gun thatd make easy dont want anymore dont even want type shit anymore want forget want forget time first crush want forgets forget normally say problem dont want anymore better stayed random strangers even tho wouldnt possible hello tried every avenue even know writing right expecting come truly ran advice people talk wish talk people close matter want worry want think dramatic attention case know clear answer one seek want know painless easiest way committing act suicide day giving reasons want read reasons day long appreciate trying help want hear last years life gotten harder day day week week month month want end lot demons trying deal years now winning time feel true peace asleep fit society want know advice theoretically quickest easiest way suicide without involving anybody want someone find body want disappear forever without causing trauma anybody might find state way think possible drowning hoping ocean takes good appreciate touchy subject probably even advice put writing sake truly accept thoughts mind idkk research promise femboys even exist whole life lie selfaware shitpost created lack actual creativity come idea post may provide social interaction make brain release dopaminserotonin bloodstream hotel depressed long time now starting feel everything real motivation stuff completly gone nowit starting feel everything done life worthless knownif happy going lifehow guys handle feeling utterly useless depressed life reaching breaking point slowly feeling done life handling life falling apart theyre better placea common saying people say comfort people lost someone idk think interesting society antiredflag try hardest view someones passing something positive shit theyre better place let join school transim trans mtf currently present femaleyet everyone comments boyish look masculine voice sucks face sucks body fucking useless piling much anyone needs reasons live miss worth alive better believe eventually better theres much miss worth dont let anyone even tell god made reason purpose always reason may know right now theres always reason live many people care amazing dont even know love dont even know care plenty people love plenty people care god loves god cares sometimes really tough make stronger person things youve always wanted things youve planned never got around cant dead want alive people care even know wont able listen music die youll never able listen favorite song die youll never able listen favorite singer die youll never able listen favorite rapper die listening really loud music killing never worth youll hit people care many people miss including youre preventing future generation kids even born gorgeous someone loves think family feel improve life die proving people wrong success watching jerks doubted fail life youll never feeling walking warm building cold day youll never feeling waking cold building hot day stupid public helping people future live alive real good alive really bad finding soulmate nighters sleeping day look back self later life glad didnt commit redflag nobody unique puppies puppy kisses netflix decorating christmas tree kind dreams wake cant stop smiling breakfast bed new clothes new shoes new books favorite authors sunrises sunsets friends ocean sunlight warm back hot family inside jokes birthdays christmas family traditions taste favorite food watching favorite tv show watching favorite movie adventure going somewhere new ability pursue choose billion people earth dont afraid earn money rewards always flip life around find perfect job career pizza kittens new haircuts awkward moments look back laugh world needs roller coasters showers cake growing old growing old person love singing sleeping ice cream eating warm cookies straight oven food general movie nights candy popcorn daydreaming happy moments halloween sleepovers parties good personality making people happy bonfires sitting rooftops going vacation hearing crazy stories telling crazy stories treehouses starbucks youve changed someones live end life youre stopping achieving great things everyone talent including eating crazy food hanging friends nobody replace much live dreams need fulfilling living life fullest heck bet miss crazy family friends devastated died someone constantly praying meet someone future kids never come existence die right now save someones life beautiful disappear bigger problems never alone struggle tomorrow another day please see worth think final important one able experience life even life seem great right now anything happen resources argentina australia austria children young people 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anymore cant family arrived id saved probably made life shittier apartment fire bad apartments fire alarm went im locked room degrees wait minutes firemen show wrong building realize door bedroom somehow locked key inside leasing office opens hours im stuck couch fire feet two exact idea waking every day sickeningi end staying crack dawn almost every night cant stand idea waking im work cant bring almost anything rot bed prefer sleeping day away want feelings go away gon na make lemon bars today happy totally rickroll thankful small college town abingdon va near bristol tn home famous barter theatre gregory peck acted managed art film festival togather show film abingdon two hour hours live trip worth every sense word uzakdistant amazing brilliant jarring emotional captivating film turkishamerican film testimony life turkey larger scale tells world turkish whether one lives istanbul berlin montreal new york omaha may two hours length opposed five minutes effectively bob marley song many wonderful scenes film difficult choose random one telling scene takes place beyoglu downtown istanbul cinema title character played mehmet emin toprak sadly died car accident shortly films completion follows attractive young woman staircase cinemas main auditorium goes see vanilla sky image tom cruise reflected glass sense turkish men competing tom cruise womens affections even though tom cruise nowhere found beyoglu scenes shot across bosphorous shores quite revealing symbolize beauty yet desperate empty gulfs painful fact life turkey film gulf separates lovers families simple empty packet samsun turkish brand cigarettes dying mouse jump screen way seagulls serif gorenyilmaz guney film yol many guneys films including yol suru herd completed zeki okten babathe father considered many best turkish films made without guneys sometimes overblown socialpolitical anger especially last film prison drama duvarthe wall distance captures essence turkish life quite remarkably crowning achievement director view already proclaimed turkish equivalent directors tarkovsky bresson ozu cant wait see films wants u nudes sex leaves u read u say cus thats u fuck sake someone doesnt happen different race different religion different sexuality different gender etc etc doesnt mean racist sexist homophobic etc dont pretty rare might add takes lot genuinely dislike gays cant math bisexual math least favorite subject failing going fail semester yayyyy colleg fun im super bored seeing reddit dm feature sucks literally dm discordany social media account name ill add chat fir thats fine aswell good day reddit femboy hey tee hee uwu held hands public owo femboy work femboy hooters come home work kiss xd watch grace text guys grindr rawr know one going read anywhere writenovember month end finally moms birthday celebrate spend final time want tell much love try best say without explicitly saying fault always good mom wanted way best mom son ask fori always liked november transition fall winter air cool nice favorite time year right everyone goes christmas frenzy everything decorated red green frank sinatra blasted radiosome people meant take lives wish taboo wish seen selfish hurts keep living maybe drive florida see ocean one time forever seen seen ocean miss lot go every summer kids crammed old blue minivan best timeshopefully hurt maybe deserve nice yeah november cant fucking another second thisive wanted kill fucking long tried several times thought getting better lmao wasnt im bad hate everything life fucking going anywhere seem make mistake mistake fucking rant everyone lmao fuck dude guess shitty lives huh feel terrible im going friends care honestly im point really barrier anymore last straw finally happened thats awesome im trans ftm two years still dysphoric mind nothing changed much thats even worst though lol weeks ago drinking friends house got blackout drunk really bad night im pretty sure someone fucked lmao definitely condom anything even though took plan b think fucking worst thing couldve happened happened theres symptoms everything sore gross morning bruises theres scattered memories someone sex know consent even even sober enough stand definitely state got sexually assaulted sex traumatic reminder super dysphoria inducing avoid costs done right mind ive nonstop anxiety attacks last week even period year plus ahahahah apparently im unluckiest fucker alive thats fucking kill everything goes wrong im sick im sick forcing motions top cant even think put name literally retch dysphoria another panic attack skipped school go cry car today cant fucking man even thinking whats happening right makes want go grab knife one dads guns hell theres plenty lakes around hard lol ive wanted excuse long ive known redflag cant take care im state requires parent consent tell one theyll fucking mad might let rid theyll literally ruin life afterwards tell know fuck happened remember consenting plus physically able ive got bmi periods literally testosterone fucking years way apparently im fucking miserable sex even decision im one stuck consequences thats cant life nonstop traumatic events ive got hella mental illnesses want fucking deal anymore care enough future give damn recovery im sorry friends sister know fucking break hearts cant fucking go anything end byetoday slit throat cut arms open grab dads shotgun blow fucking brains goodbye fuckrags may messed chance crush know girl three years now good person always good friend liked year now best friend dating time long lasting relationship broke october met pandemic met last days august wanted meet somewhere tell feel told relationship someone half year talk made big mistake regret choice crypost something thought help somehow give hope something sorry bad english tried best ticking away moments make dull day posting rteenagers everyday forget post th day day hey know snail sleep years theres nothing lefti want anything life offer path contains anything worth traveling race rules follow track take shortcut lifes way deal redflag valid way id miss anything people dont want anything anyone one want anything back miserable objects taking pain existence pretending fine cant life something better massive waste time sister bought shirt cool fuck ngl appreciate try take imdb ratings heart flabbergasted saw rating one childhood favourites wow much family film sweet well meaning movie kids definitely love mind flaws adults guess actor behind character admire subliminal messaging film none film preachy way fact great message added sweetness admit though story thin side scenes screweyess deathwhich still freaks may tad scary side animation well average nice colours good character animation music james horner beautiful song featured memorable catchy amusing really liked characters louie probably indepth dinosaurs least engaging martin shorts clown hilarious emphatic part tells screweyes quit stitches favourite screweyes though effective villain crafty suppose intelligent anything though wish film kept part explains lost eye scared crows way couldve developed terms depth script oscarworthy funny heartwarming parts keep kids adults entertained voice acting made movie john goodman martin short rhea perlman felicity kendall yeardley smith gave solid performances special mention go kenneth mars absolutely superb screweyes almost unrecognisable good movie rating honestly dont sure film perfect good dinosaur movie land time good fun bethany cox online lesson forgot mic still fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck guess youve reading comments latest new posts youll know topic feel main reason depressed long bc never able friendsrship whole life starting worry might never friends wish accept learn happy alone tips improving depression without friends die someone bury dont whats difference gives damn huh thus philosophy life lack summed less classic nevertheless fun spinoff sergio leones dollars trilogybr br opening scene three obviously evil gunmen ride western town menacing glares intimidate pathetic normal people hiding homes observant watcher notice three bears striking resemblance characters leones dollars one guy eastwoods poncho one lee van cleefs black suit one seeming act gian marie volontes indio movie guys sooner ride town gunned someone even cooler mysterious bounty hunter known simply strangerbr br altogether different storybr br obvious copying leones good bad ugly three gunmen vying hidden treasure bounty hunter mexican bandit stranger george hilton supercool bounty hunter penchant shooting people dressed priest reward bandit monetero gilbert roland moneteros gang steals three hundred thousand gold coins stranger gets sidetracked normal line workbr br round trio edd byrnes corrupt bank executive clayton wants money money hidden away man knows gets shot clue hiding place medallion shows family crest game find treasure anyone gun playbr br plenty gunfights fist fights double crosses action takes three ultimate showdown ripoff three way draw hidden treasure ala good bad ugly twistbr br movie good leones films course end gives damn huh movie fun s nihilism spaghetti western style rules enduring loyalties right wrong treasure whatever takes though movie classic ending surely hey maybe along hundred thousand piecebr br spaghetti westerns check one fast furious worth look im curious one tell family want wear girl clothes femboytrap asking friend rainbow best v game snuggled around bomb burly men stood committed multiple murders fucking dare tell im burden younot wont let speak leave dare open mouth m horny trading nudes might slow respond coz im hotel btw pp big homies need hug clear inclusive homie think im donei know keep amymore ive diagnosed major depression anxiety years now ive wanted kill whole time got self harm really bad years ago self admitted mental hospital stopped long time little times past year ive picked im old shit feels thing keeping going support system friends one cares killed already dog cat dog anxiety issues im worried im going shell put cant around new people cant really want anymore point living pay bills everyone whats point breathing air every day pay bills die anyway ive planned already animals held back think im point think even theyll better without im ready guess well see happens thanks letting vent really need shet together rn really reallyyy need advise people hide depression plz hide pretend everythings okay continuelast paragraph questions boiling mind parts little background read ill warn now kind place start want say even living years hard life pretty comfortable life far family friends always supported never tried put nothing support life yet felt lost empty almost hopeless near years now male diagnosed aspergers back really understand meant mean knew slightly different fellow peers especially able make small talk keep eye contact general social awareness made progress social aspects longer try avoid looking someones face talk able least make small talk introversion still level almost make hermit necessarily feel introversion curse anymore years explore understand thoughts emotions led painfully introspective state go weeks without talk another person feel least bit lonely used beat thought weird go without human interaction prolonged periods mainly due caring others thought necessarily problem anymore problem arises look life see nothing world worth going struggle living family primarily dad friends see studying obscure subjects reason catches interest assume passion thats problem necessarily passion subjects call unhealthy obsession became anorexic years became obsessed body looked pounds lost pounds span year researched read bodybuilding dieting affected body feet tall little low especially bodyfat measurement body pod read fine still aware look know perfectly body reacts certain foods caloric intakes workouts family friends see extremely intelligent pisses saying intense discipline obsession feel smart feel rather stupid time seem found meaning passion life allows deal constant stress struggle living see everything feels seems illusion work survive find outlets tv games drugs etc take us away life seems everyone trying escape life one way another least people love view world eyes love find something distract blaring fact everything ultimately pointless struggling live hit grave want find something give reason continue year goes find resolve crumbling dad tried guilt taking easy way high school saying destroy even said knows playing guilt card many says people commit redflag selfish believe try keep people constant inner turmoil selfish go left lot want write novel want know light end tunnel journey even worth taking find reason living convince view something meaningful convince pushing life everything ultimately meaningless almost feels purposefully become insane believe fact work emotions struggle go worth end want state know one chosen finding meaning life mean special anyway want find reason method ignore looming despair severe redflagpossible depression years now anything feel lost ability human ill try anything see helps point cbd guys tried go store buy need go doctor prescription thanks cbd products info hello ampxb processing img qztqlzzsr wonderful little film elements made spaghetti western exciting fun great music one fewif onlyfemale composer work genre nora orlandi exciting action sequences vicious ones day beautiful scenery sets almeria spain course good story nice tragic romance edge actors marvelous jobswith truly standout performances lawrence dobkin rosalba neri vital role female spaghetti westernoutside cardinale leones upon time west without posting spoilers let say movie contains one best endings film seen nothing left death alive years want live longer want see always alone always unhappy things better true lying say true time paid attention ive learned worth remembering people beyond help inarguable hate body hate mind hate past hate present dread future nothing outside everything believe anything death clearly conceptualize anything death doubtful everything death death faith repulsed everything experience thing driven towards death death dream wanted police officer wanted drummer clear dream die never held girls hand scored act started college graduated gpa three facts sources pride confidence nothing numbers life nothing numbers people memories stories experiences cook sing draw dance feel best drunk feel good high sometimes reading makes happy rare remember brother showing porn kid molested several times never told anyone remember time redflag alien thought theres reason kill theres chance things improve die now redflag leave everything alien now one reason killed already previous moments weakness knowledge parents destroy greatest love life alone reason live unfortunate nothing unfortunate redflag painless know hello name sergio years old adhd born months early survived months hospital worry anyways im gamer plays much smash brothers friends say therapist found outso therapist survey thought know answers honest one questions asking thoughts redflag answered yes well got flagged knows asked lied past thoughts uncomfortable talking let go said might bring probably thinks help cant one day commit redflag see life rather die grow old wrong body redflag way choice want open therapist really nice cares lot feel terrible lying want locked hospital somewhere tell family said wouldnt works suicidal people know sure commit redflag makes situation different cant sure something want tell much tell safe tell never needed ppl online almost new posts smh head really need help liked girl th grade juniors now want tell every time try flustered chicken whay best friend shot weeks agokilling permanent solution temporary problem literally everyone life feels guilt talking enough hand seeing signs please talk someone love make clear serious emotions brain chemistry two powerful things ways harness without ending promise holiday season please reach lot surprised think find much family friends love miss sub downvote buttoni depressed well usually sort movie working home wanted something halfway watch got engrossed gave working sit finish watching last half hour uninterrupted sure usually shed tears sort show crying end lot emotional nuance great acting good southern feel john corbett one talented actors guy played luke really good highly recommend book helped melast year struggling form ocd came fruition apparently seriously unresolved issues childhood never dealt book really helped start overcome lot trauma never addressed im hoping help people see point familyi never understood family never close people feel family limitation oh talk auntunclecousinmother ive never close family guess never clicked feel family bond lot people talk put frank find annoying unnecessary memories mom yelling telling im failuredevils child crying hard life life hard love every time try talk back says cant yell yell right im mother crappy bullshit answer actually says finds reasons yell say brother tells complain much think complain much family gave physical needs survive give enough mentalpsychological needs dad know english gets bullied mom lot feel sad hes good dad thinks things logically hes nice cousins people along ill seeing rest life everyone think main problem mom cant wait life maybe ill start grateful miss start remembering good times ive instead thinking worst emotional roller coaster mom feel narcissistshe entitledegotistical guilt trips carer cant anything claims better think make feel better treating recently forced program said opening doors quit want told gets mad consulting forces back says changed mind anymore finalized everything program actual fuck cant fucking take mental abuse anymore want end im scared die efforts successful go absolute waste destined fail matter good grades matter hard ive tried reason end life hand one day almost expelled school today inch switchblade class math class today minding business pencil tip broke sharpener arent allowed use ones school used house key break away wood around graphite class got went la nbd right nowhere three police officers dean surrounding telling follow extreme social anxiety scary fuck anyway marched deans office told take sweatshirt empty pockets one officers bag search dean starts yelling asking knife standing confused hell try clear everything eventually explaining used key inch switchblade makes angry tells keep lying expelled stick story friend come relay story witness turns girl melanie thought funny lie massive switchblade fucktarded reason suspended days im glad didnt find underfolding akm hidden compartment bag wrote notei might leave phone somewhere dont tracked phone hold note happy loving sort way way saying deserve rot want try today monday guys finally lost funny punch line trick actually lost vcard maybe makes even better trick im scared myselfi really tough time coming parents transgender born male living knowing im told parents pretend ok want really arent push hurt sister upon hearing really hurtful scared huge fight dad seeing cry first time life seeing yell mad anytime life one hour went online searched redflag drugs methods always happy never thought moment come calmed detailed plan weeks go eyebrows done whole body waxed professional makeup hair extensions nails done etc completely look girl feminine face body cross dress time getting public wear red dress bed lots roses rose petals cut wrist bleed bed dress im scared keep getting closer closer want call cops tell friend anyone want save want live beautiful life transgender know scares im close pushed ledge help anyone wan na talk bored movies tv stuff games last show watched wanda vision venting rotten putrid feelings haul around every dayive putting years lately feel wasted time think years someone asking feel throwing pills fix problems try hard fit good job well school exist outside fucking institution im beginning think past attempts one step success reason life gone shit meant around long know exactly anymore every day fucking struggle anymore time drive vividly fucking dream throwing car semi cross street slow hopes someone make decision cant bear shit anymore im pussy gone affect others fucking pathetic due underlying conditions choice death isolated foreveri read s intellectual disabilities rate death coronavirus sick s year old grandmother less likely die must kill painlessly cant live fact someone years average life expectancy healthier youth petrified ive barely started life yet im less healthy someone grow tv due fact new invention way live grandmother wore baby gas masks ww likely born blacked building yet family visiting without precautions nhs exist started attending school fit healthy young woman believe likely die someone born blacked building someone born wearing gas mask guuuuyyyyzzz guess crush said likes im super happy rn well im really considering nowi pretty stupid plan im going probably work ill anyways stopped caring pretty much everything feel shit see future anyways definitely able exams without breaking anyways tested positive covid rip lol help friend overdosedmy friend texted saying taken grams seroquelquetiapine grams lithium mg codeine die wan na know something realized recently seems today see violence movies sex tv good old fashioned values used rely lucky theres family guy lucky theres man positively things make us laugh cry hes family guy life worthim lost hurt everyone around time even try best always fail got really bad news today know ill tell mom boyfriend friends disappoint cant deal anymore sit ask life even worth anymore thing im good biggest disappoint everyone around met anyone know good ways make money online free without paypal years wanted die teenager never happy matter gone life always miserable wanted die killed mother want go pain losing went pain living years worry hurting anymore time come happy goodbye everyone finally going happy life finally much underrated camp movie level cobra woman etc photographic stills resemble rembrandt prints sometimes subtle dialog hidden literate touches found throughout thanks trying everyonei lost everything today hope resolve go gone tried fucking hard little tip hey yall school right currently school person thing school wifi blocks game stuff download httpshttps assure sus completly safe im using right now youll able play gamesgo reddit im using anything chromebook fun able stuff know anymoreim nineteen go college truly wonderful girlfriend world outside though one full darkness dread loneliness fabric life slowly splitting seams started fourteen group friends entire life extremely close started high school started drift absolutely atrocious excuse making new friends caused somewhat lonely early high school years started cut home things much worse mother recently married man dated years little know extremely abusive though never hitting witnessed beating mother younger brother several times becoming estranged mother rationalized behavior moved father fifteen things started little better made good friends friends heavily drug movement followed happily along met girl became first girlfriend lost virginity new friends caused start horribly school constantly skipping school go smoke weed nothing things ended turning sour girlfriend group essentially disowned life started dramatically better old friends began become close two years lived normally high school student girlfriends group friends really well school rumor killed rumor spread best friends girlfriend saying cheating true know originated stop best friend dissociating slowly lost friends days ago one friend thought always decided longer associate loved friends taken bullet one see differently coupled father slowly making home life unlivable well college anymore know go redflag seems better option every day though currently considering attempted twice one time resulting week long stay hospital feel attempt inevitable though girlfriend nobody help quell feelings tldr lost roughly half dozen extremely close years friendship friends well disowned mother horribly neglected father causing badly college election chinese mob movie triads case every two years election held decide new leader first seems toss big tony leung ka fai know tony leung lok simon yam judge full contact though lok wins big refuses accept choice goes whatever lengths secure recognition new leader unlike asian film watch featuring gangsters one action movie bloody moments necessary goodfellas basically really effective drama lot characters really hard keep track think plays craziness bit yearold baton symbol power mentioned changes hands several times things settle though may appear film ends minute mark still couple big surprises waiting simon yam favorite character sort anchors picturebr br election quite award winner last years hong kong film awards winning best actor tony leung best picture best director johnny heroic trio best screenplay nominations cinematography editing film score loved three acting performances including yam catharsis swing rtalkregularly maintaining emotionally extremely important one best ways talk others going rredflagwatch last line defense desperate often times people feel open anyone regular basis want introduce rtalk goal catharsis aka releasing pressure built internally happens telling others going getting feedback topic personal upsetting bring rtalk consider swinging time time letting pressure itll world good tiredmy mom died young messed head dad isnt around either living overseas apart life beginning went away mom died currently living granparents sometimes feel desserted one turn one explain fears often cry sleep always ask god give one day mom feel touch warmth want mom time ask relatives died everyone different story straight amp b student grades toll think getting older eager getting greater day often feel end life insert interesting subject title herehello name scott im uk im years old first reddit post ive submitted usually prefer remain anonymous life shiitake moment much lot people im unemployed sick im single years diagnosed hiv december ive got friends anymore due personalitymental health disorders im completely disconnected family financially broke understandably things causing feel suicidal days dark disturbing place wouldnt wish anyone nice meet even dire circumstances laughing heart charles bukowskiyour life life dont let clubbed dank submission watch ways light somewhere may much light beats darkness watch gods offer chances know take cant beat death beat death life sometimes often learn light life life know marvelous gods wait delight charles bukowski got bored made thing check outhttpskrishnakcodewizardshqcomotherfilesgradecalchtml check one uk helpi posted days expressing uncertainty go help im danger actually killing thinking lot struggling focus really hard time mental health team moment college counsellors know talk cant talk friends complain much feelings tendency say unhelpful things cant talk family ive tried online redflag prevention thing online kind lame think particularly appropriate situation need somebody tell kill im entirely sure need feel stressed crisis people barely even notice want something attract attention know people look type behaviour lot kind want harm nonfatal significant way communicate people okay words adequate feel bad wanting know brokefor past years felt completely lonely nobody thought liked things liked felt everyone around people tried fit tried completely changing personality still felt lonely isolation got yesterday reached point couldnt take anymore soul poured body hard put way im feeling words felt hopeless felt voice head wanted live completely gone tried suffocate pillow hours agowell heard die suffocation pillow decided try pillow kills parents think died sleep failed decided today wasnt day kill ballsack sweat know anymore really things gotten worse anything suffering always close breaking point take anymore everyday wish die tried slitting wrists failed jumping failed much coward parents know slit wrists angry suppose know react asked bring mental hospitalpsych ward shouted told serious nothing wrong wrong parents trying help really know much longer wait dad told leave things focus studiesnormal everyday stuff firstly busy work secondly know much longer take sit wait need die parents understand function normal human everytime someone talks asks question takes long process end stuttering know say call suicide hotline know bring mental hospitalpsych ward know know explain parents someone pls help thanksps parents really nice saying way helping making worsenot anything say suicide hotline acti cant remember last time talked person feel anything anyone anymore cant remember happy feel utterly sad time years now feel cant anymore hate hate every person know hate school hate city hate everything pain escape long help much anymore want end fear might go finally muster strenght end life cant good nights sleep spent night aimlessly walking around hoping somehow think way keep going everything think hate everything pretty much pray help ive never told anyone really feel ive hid scars dont know anymore enjoy thisi wish everybody understood much hate alive remember maybe yrs old ive fantasized death prayed begged god take overdosed tried co poison times attempt years wish people knew im im alive enjoy dont fair lifes fair know fuck life man forreal torture wish knew tonightno shitty life bad circumstances im lazy incompetent unsuccessful nothings happened beyond normal im done living want anymore ive downward spiral im now shit together im well way ish gpa semester im smart know im going im happy really even care make difference peoples lives care people love know give shit im sure ive really loved anyone ive cutting dont remember started except feeling inside exact feeling now milder dont know came idea cut cant remember heard ive thinking redflag began considering months later planning past months plan im writing note right now tonight though im ready go care abilities dont care family see death background every part life waiting welcome home encourage fuck say words please kill says understand anything read please save wanted show people reasons redflag always solvable nothing life fixed thats broken belong farewell theres cranefly room someone come im scared posting song everyday day everything need quinn xcii months thats cool daily songs playlist httpsopenspotifycomplaylistzilhbtxsnfkgatuareusijourcbpxrkcoozzxcw sure answer unfortunately yes anyone recently friends abruptly ghost betray without explanation talking really close friends told trust vulnerable around friend troubles made subreddit called rpenciltricks subreddit showing cool tricks pencil ampxb thats ampxb link lazy people rpenciltricks id kill parentsive enough therapy work medication work cant go today cut tried hang belt reached point almost passed even hurt felt tingly another minutes wouldve cant disappoint parents ive putting happy face starting medication told theyre glad son back facade die devastate want suffering stop difficult try ignore thoughts night worse try distract forget hard night keep thinking itim f bad life got roof head food plate financial support parents emotional support friends still overwhelming sense dread depression come goes exhausting waves moment im great situation jobless working temp job ended trying find something new now hate unemployed along pretty rocky relationship mum house getting shitty takes stress im unemployed treats im even fucking human first boyfriend ended relationship month ago together two years one good perfect bad horrific relationships controlling asshole return honestly think fucked first week happy rid every day gets harder harder apparently great got new girl already nearly hurt badly first heard every day gets harder gets worse night emotional support friends actually close close friends used go ex support support network feel nothing try talking friends really help even though try feel better chatting im feeling ive stopped bothering tried talking ex beginning december dismissed attempts cries help nongenuine im sorry hear sounds bad going brag amazing im loser im attractive smart intelligent want end dead end job dead end job constantly praying true happiness thats see ive seen rest shit atm pieces pushing edge fantasize jumping bridge unhealthy amount thats way id able methods pussy know jumping kill injure cant believe even think something hard im sure alot people relate everyone life look happy im bubbly loud girl always jokes everything always joke dying death killing habit point dark humour sue one takes seriously know unless ive tried talk one suspect thoughts know im looking posting guess want meaningful conversation someone relates wants someone talk permit right got pulled first time today months driving driving dads suv weird ass steering wheel looked swerving lanes officer flashes lights behind im signaled pull right nervousness gets hit god damn curb add sister back legally drive officer cool hell looks permit says youre fine lets go think ill stick driving camry ralph bakshis forgotten masterpiece fire ice old oop rental videotapebr br well one thing better conanesque film see sure cheesy cares stood test time way started look cheesy comparisons modern fantasy epics lotrfotr though love filmbr br plot goes battle fire ice kings daughter kidnapped jarols ice subhuman creatures sole survivor victimized village rescues herbr br yeah sound original nurse betty thats point really bring life interesting idea world two enemies fire ice succeedsbr br action scenes superb well handled terrific suspence plenty loud noises check climatic battle thats endingbr br acting dialogue competent really gon na nominated oscar ok nervesbr br animation quite good shot d rotoscoped think looks pretty good lot backgrounds look really detailed well drawn although character designs feel little dimentional okbr br overall fine neglected little gem entertain superfical entertainment im going kermit redflag april foo oh already second guess ill fr short want watch burt reynolds best films one must included burt may still love burt may become one favorite movies time atlanta hit home nice see copactiondrama takes place somewhere ny city chicago miami la film funny points good plot good performances great supporting cast every character real bad guys one sided really well thought outa nice offbeat romance nd half good old fashion shootouts fistfights cgi thank god real actionbr br clint eastwood best impression burt reynolds movie every way loose way burt responded best clint type flick comes great miss warm summer evenings child sit listen crickets lifetime endless possibilities stretched miss comfort family knew deeply toxicity substance abuse plagued miss days loved angry id grown miss hope quickly snuffed young teen miss feeling whole burnout find joy peace simply drift want kill wonder find peace side become reincarnated live another pointless existence guess none matters anyways lifes bitch die miss least know broken ya know probably really good woman personality feminine basically problem acne well im sure definitely want anymore ive work months trying change career hate used thought go back money terrifying every single person ive made plans even grab coffee ditched last straw buddy said hed go fishing got early dug worms got shit together ditch min cat needs surgery called fho cant afford tried fundraising nothing kid asshole understand makes fun wants money make food seem clean cook thanks appreciation anything fuck everything laugh make fun ask empty fucking trash bathroom cause obviously overflowing one threw trashcan bitched nothing good enough make fun say certain words adhesive fucking let friends cant drive cause never taught money nothing im fucking useless lump everytime ask help im let told im grumpy stop grumpy wtf man im fucking tired even mad stand ground everyone ends pissy nothin g gets solved always turned around stopped cleaning nothing plus hate living pig pen taken away dishes ffs enough dishware ppl live still bitched im absolutely done ive know whether scream scream die fucking run time dying seems pretty awesome figure everything im done spend day staring fucking wall now sometimes theres tears hey im looking meet new people hey im bored wan na chat new people dm read bio info im watching movie ill back u p want feel happy lifei know say life feels crap rarely felt happiness life lasts seconds today got worse got crash feeling know anymore really want feel something sadness hello everyone first time posting love movie child mine watch well taped long time ago years ago dropped broke seen years one please tell come really appreciate alotyou email want cause favorite movie including empty cradle anyone knows comes please let knowi really appreciate alotbr br da fuck everyone radio static phone dry fuck everyone someone hit fuck im tired lonely thanks coming ted talk genuinely suicidal betrayalthis going long person care much cheated times past year understand im kind end taking back arms everytime never loved anyone much love person point feel im love person used lies secrets genuinely think anymore found last time cheated days ago know anymore one sincere touching boymeetsgirl movies made rebel without cause say anything deliver nice portrayals movies strips useless subplots hollywood divergences movie focuses purely watching budding beautiful romance never doubt second film lead towards romantic pairing two people almost immediately sense synergy chemistry jesse celine simply pure joy watch find movie mostly dialogue based every conversation greatly intriguing makes pairing romantic real conversation often real bearing anything critical sense nuances two become fond trusting exactly way dream meet special someone makes true even fantastic believe happen confident enough strike conversation person noticed somewhere random puts icing film magnificent backdrop vienna film takes place adds feeling romantic nirvana film suggests matter many times watch film think tire record suicidal never going tell something true story might make think another wayfor background moms friend call susan speaks russian english works translation hospitals youssusan client call sandra living russia sandras son living america told come live first declined saying russia friends job agreed sandra lived fell deep depression fit job spend lot time watching tv sandra starts feeling suicidal caring life always saying wants die becomes isolated smoking occupying time smoking lot visits friends russia tell sandra worried cough sandra brushes little sideeffect smoking returning yous sandras son expresses concern says thing decide take doctor inoperable incurable stage lung cancerinstantly whole attitude changesthe amount time spent hating life caring regrets realizes important months left live appreciates much moremy point know going know feel know push past pain try maybe try hard try hard appreciate life enjoy life regret hating life feeling matter sandra come regret iti hope reaches guides better place advice im dumb ugly sick normal lifei deserve eternal suffering without end thoughts starting come backhey reddit sorry wall text recently past weeks thought redflag become far stronger ive felt im scared end dramatic sounds ive come close written notes driven bridge follow time though thoughts strong im scared tell anyone want worry ive emotionally physically abusive relationships trapped everyone went shrugged told stop wimp best friend believed guys lies truths lost loads friends lies ex told feel lovely currently wonderful guy totally understanding told far lives one exs though makes hard forget told boyfriend full extent though blame still friends guy dad left run house mother done much meand want sound ungrateful puts much pressure billsupkeeplegal stuff works two jobs keep us afloat though dad pretty much interest life brothers two brothers aspergers im pretty much responsible lives turn find jobs find college whatever suffered paranoia past believing people going kill finally told mum shrugged theres many situations especially relationships past ignored told want hear feel give family much see people time provide work two jobs college lot cope even see tired think ask theres things see way ive told makes feel cant cope care thought ending becoming great really cant see way anymore ive telling cant keep dad house care know fix please help something stupid need find way thank reading think tried hang myselfi know happen ive depressed anxious stressed months now today particular ive extremely way worse today anyway know acting impulse think happening stopping nowhere grabbed phone charger one super long ft phone cables tied shitty noose went closet looped end around weights top shelf tied put noose end lowered relaxed choking decided want anymore tried stand couldnt heart beating fast legs shaky finally got grip stood took noose walked closet nothing happened title says suicide note anything coz matter one cares cared day anyway wish best ur life painless easiest way bad nightim really hard really bad night dont know reached several people one got back dont know sub works mobile someone talk awhile honest im fixing go work im getting ready leave tell uwu helping brotherim total loss moment brother lives side country called night say good bye said plan said call tomorrow said answer panicked called police ended breaking door taking hospital hes recently abusing many substances high time phone callthe police intervention called say id abused trust never speak threatened soon gets hospital go plan wrong call police hospital keen feel unsafe family next flight im worried something silly thinking getting withnothing seems truly improve cant even indulge hobbies id im fucking failure want die hurt anymore im lonely im empty motivation gone even tried call national redflag hotline woman answered condescending right away whats fucking point im alive want im alive others make feel guilty wanting die today th birthday longer confines flair women coffee thick hot scratch hate put oreo crumbs coffee thick weird think burnt mom please come help ill deal consequences failures day tonight gon na end hopeim honestly done wan na wake tried hanging last night failed ill try tonight maybe ill finally good nights sleep know lied want worry youit matter soon love frick brain give motivation im middle making cool thing lost motivation halfway thru want back moment friend sent message group chat saying kinda annoying twitter theyre unfollowing wouldve fine never wouldve seen message except d theyre one best friends felt place care people im deadis whole life ive endured feel pointless living doesnt give life value either pretty decent example film noir setting early s communists trying steal weapon secrets us governmentbr br richard widmark suave pickpocket without scruples gives pretty decent performance nothing alist interesting thing antihero film unlikeable antihero normal jean peters gave soso performance hooker heart gold great character actress thelma ritter shines stoolpigeonbr br plot fair share twists turns wisecracks tough talk fight scene near end movie subway station pretty gritty excitingbr br think noir fans enjoy film nonnoir viewers may seem little dated whole commie thing tad overdone going happen soonmarried employed homeowner still want kill msyelf think much takke seriously im drinking heavily wifes work home alone feels fake dont want become adultim currently struggling suicidal thoughts almost two years now know wont able deal responsibilities adult world scares im scared everyone everything feeling happy im awake sleeping thats try either work exhaustion drawing entire day piece piece sleeping hours even im tired dont worry anything exist thats planned way turning faking sleep problems sleeping pills take enough wake back know ramble need somewhere chest therapist holiday dont want tell mom worry subreddit yalls maymay know existive seeing lot teens lately absolutely fine teen quite frequently ive noticed years even though everyone super great supportive helpful sometimes need people age relate everyday issues adolescents exception want link rteenageredflagwatch thats okay yalls sorry already done want die meant liveit make sense im alive want alive anymore seems everyone okay ive never close family seen january multiple members family passed away recently find facebook posts mother asked money whole life parents yelling asking money forcing inhale second hand smoke drink money food away college constantly struggle feed pay insane bills work go school deal faculty university constantly rude friends anymore either moved away decided depression makes useless called best friend told goodbye good mad negative ive professionals year summer none helped made things worse one even try told everything going said nothing almost minutes asked pick issue weighing couldnt decided end session even know im posting experience well meaning people internet pretty much saying sorry saying generic line telling one specific thing yelling tell possible mei already tried yelled even told kill multiple times morning hate hearing gets better people treat phrase magic spell thats supposed instantly make feel better said maybe im posting goodbye cant even bring talk everything seethe point ive heard gets better time heals much long believe tried every long day sleepless night make things better second talk issues often told im weak im trying im negative want happy childhood mistakes parents made depression cutting scars everything make others happy high school life got worse kept whenever people want entertain energy im issue im better dead want anything life anymore want keep surviving think time think tried kill nighti really bad night went drive clear mind usually kept speeding really fast closing eyes couple seconds come back senses idk happened times felt right ya know wanted tell someone ig posting picture guy dipping pizza milk day never day httpspbstwimgcommediaciwxcuaeimqjpghttpspbstwimgcommediaciwxcuaeimqjpg redflag live streamyeah announced social media might try live stream next redflag attempt big fight people think suicidal thoughts real much coward really commit redflag many reasons reasons paranoid schizophrenia childhood trauma loneliness sexual abuse assault child abuse hopelessness stupidityampimpatience posting reasons english language broken stop feeling depressed day cough tough though dont rhyme pony bologna ok hear lets invent time travel go back time ancient greece convince greeks gods nekos famous depictions statues greek gods cat ears sound cali ufo called ufo shocked called voice said im scared maybe ill die soon happening againthis something posted years ago know start perhaps years ago feel someone tried deny convince feelings girl past ran away rejection heavily impacted know go part life dealt disconnecting people connected best method allowed go years ago run away time sister married older brother even wedding day groomsman bridesmaids theyre even first child soon everything felt pain felt past lead defining turning point reassured truly felt years ago lingering feelings trying find companionship settling beyond changed felt motivated life change become better man unsuccessful finding job career path thought studied become real estate agent work hard hopefully build courage confess one day started going gym frustrated inability best times wanted change wanted better person found started seeing someone someone work serious seems gentle wonderful person calm easy someone loves found smallest things tells makes break heavily family hints sure exactly refuse talk ive started insomnia ive even started hallucinating peoples voices become white noise see ive become traumatised even stopped looking job know soon causing hope someone runs red light causes car accident death looks accidental die alcohol poisoning even asked god kill first going move overseas thought happens drug die sleep overdose excited wanting move even said soul mate ive even consoled felt betrayed matters even told stay honestly loves love want happy recently heard analogy redflag burning building ive wanted jump long time thought id run burning building hoping ill make thought try go rest life knowing capable feelings another thought cant id make everyone forget existed cause pain die even prayed god im religious anything hope exist listened take pain suffered sadness may suffer life im soon become uncle think see little niece nephew grow want happy want grow loved fulfill dreams married kids shes grand children always beautiful smile infectious laugh deep eyes cheeks red shes embarrassed soon see even write ive broken three times know go im ready im scared death itll quick scared life life without years gone yet broke person still going go really love ive trying make peace part says truly love let go america ok know know leaves shell never return write incase really last words always love forever always love ecks know feelcan someone please message rant life draw today pt draw school scetchbook uh regular people day got grounded wearing helmet went bike im allowed use tv im supposed use phone im gon na ride bike without music wtf people expect literally anything gtgtgt anal masturbation people act good doesnt work smh hurts wan na skinny year old white boy rn ones wear nike elite sets shorts socks tshirts backpacks theyre hot question guys fit dick toilet paper roll hard im gon na film cumming sound highest award gets video legal reasons joke person feel bad foris father lives alone sisters talk cant keep going im mentally emotionally physically destroyed loneliness guilt regret sometimes selfish happy happy least pain cease really must beyond hope somethingim sorry second post ill made three days im sure taking hint last time im worth advice im truly beyond repair maybe end feeling depressed enough post wrong times day feel somewhat desperate though ive posted ive spinning control even normal car got stolen friday afternoon even ive hopeless helpless father others every often frustrated conclude understand must want enough better even knowing need earn money particularly im going replace important possessions needed start pulling financial weight regardless enough shake constant depressive paralysis cant ran problems wrong times life even right ill never able recover enough rate life worth living find existence sadly impractical least painful instant way goi access guns hanging bridges fuck dude took two aps year psych world want go college either forensic psych emergency medicine ap psych huge desire got tried hard went back person state allowed twice week starting may studied made sit shit done still failed lot going guess preoccupied mind really expected straight student varsity co captain club president part time vet assistant really fucking disappointed depression low recently fathers illnesses relatives trying literally sell house without permission anything going make much worse prozac go back doctors ask increase switch antidepressants copay add really afford visits right now prozac literal jack shit never felt low going act anything really horrible thoughts genuinely know ill headanyways thanks listening rant good night failed ap exams f stuck situation decade want happy mind allow feel anything sadness hopelessness countless therapists psychiatrists nothing done helped tired feeling constant pain chronic illness pushed everyone love away going go ahead end tried many times past secured enough pills make sure correctly time jump front train hang inconvenient shocking others way ill bed somebody finds reading thank listening tried gave meim extremely extremely lot things turn wanted im feeling new sense loneliness nothing run find escape lost sense self people used care stopped caring im liability friend family help one mostly absent always trying give hope ideal future one always finds way bring annoy ignorance negativity im feeling suicidal huge faith commit redflag really frustrating im campus anymore transferred schools saw cousin really felt etc theres lot shutting history weak weak tired ive miserable long boyfriend makes little better hes super patient emotions want way need friend fucking bad sometimes ppl come ask alright say yeah im alrightbut really say im fine mean live fear scared go girls class introduce boys awful friends live honestly people dont understand mean wouldnt wan na friends weird kid back wich speaks every always wears dark hoodies people think need space dont makes burn inside even leave alone hurts people ones want friends people find perfect bullying make fun whenever annoying bc cares make jokes couldnt care less people dont know exist live world dont see dont give fuck people neither bc happy unserious classic people tell happy know yall gon na say comments ask friends way scared mean know rid socially awkward anxious cant maybe ill link post send doubt theyll read anyway mean probably people sub wont even doubt change wise philosopher stated life party parties meant last holy shit honkeymommymilkers must rich awards goddamn ive trying help years nothing changesnhs waiting lists endless assessments triggering unsupportive family ex told stop weak snd making excuses know much longer keep limping hoping want end think irrational unreasonable ive tried tried yet feel pull inevitability control happen google quavo nd picture right blows mind smh picture better fake altered im speechless right now im commit redflagim tired bullied everybody thinks deserve nobody cares left house years life ruined wish wake nightmare im complete failurethis probably wrong place hate cant find much im mid s never even much kissed girl im ugly redeemable qualities license bum rides everything im even shy used even tho ive trying better party go stuff time live parent im jobless ive lost job ive due factors outside control able find new job almost year im stuck taking advantage dad lately ive thoughts redflag probably reason lack opportunity cant call help line option insurance money know point know need help cant really justify probably subconscious attention seeking behavior overwhelming feeling always unhappyim college dropping end semester hate major much sick wasting money right look forward working minimum wage retail working spend time outside class still unsure ill able pay rent month never fun college experiences one might expect ive lost friends except shitty boyfriend abandoned isolated spending day going class working people emotional strength spend time im introvert sense find lot social interaction emotionally draining help engineering students bright futures ahead hardly tolerate listening conversations reminds waste time coming ill probably never amount anything nearly great will cant think single time life truly happy even child usually able function normally long think life every often cant help think life future overcome overwhelming feeling despair want bawl eyes example right im sitting work trying hold back tears lovely love story brenda blethyn alfred molina whole story bizarre funny undertaker molina loves married woman bblethyn try fake death escape husband village scenario strange situations starts good saving grace long live ned devine going end little boymy boy weeks old going surgery needs general anesthesia dont know survive know fighter god hope need years therapy training support may never childhood hes perfect little angel reason needs going suffer torture eternity normal life deserves decided going end coward handle anything family need money cover future expenses taken large life insurance policy couple weeks ago upon learning sons diagnosis reason surgery doesnt go well prepared bag need end life wont spend anymore time alive something go wrong go well kiss mother one last time kill car accident involving car dont know killed intentionally deal thought love wife love boy cant live knowing hardship follow moral support ton around us need money give life never fully appreciated held son arms first moment saw wanted nothing world healthy happy taken us family thing help end pain pain death fade time son wont remember face pictures us exist never work day life neither mom focused health happiness know want die whenive chosen specific bridge want end life ive visiting every days past months standing looking spot body lay peace usually smoke listen music standing hours sometimes dont know ill finally maybe next week next month maybe even tomorrow idk keep letter bag case decide impulsively one day dont know im waiting tbh wish grow pair black puts getting laid easy mode white girls rush 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order give plenty time things little time without anyone noticing giving away major tells wife well taken care shell free upset sad first relief set shortly thereafter im even sad anymore numb setting date helps know endpoint wonder sad upset know nothing better matter making things better everyone making easier put normal happy face go business knowing soon none means anything im relieved finally ive lost interest beingi survived long couple reasons one great network family friends love want see know great mind actually asset someone somewhere im almost done awful stem degree open many doors excite see change able walk around feet see things ive never seen able give back owe everything instead thing feel ennui care software used passion gone nothing look forward cant even bring fake little enthusiasm parents call check still plan sometimes think miserable average cant keep crying released nice feel ill happy want send final message thanking everyone go sleep last time supposed better isnt im still waiting something happen seems lead happiness thus far nothing frigid disappointment protect hurt find assuming need something someone know find im running energy search credit card teen build credit legit amazing hey ive using step send receive money use link httpsstepcomrfgffc moral social view redflaghi guys girls posted something included topic redflag another thread lead someone reaching pm reply turned petty long imagine partially whats constantly going head ive never actually managed verbalise write life slightly edited message make sense gist warn though long one thats wbat said way see redflag way see ongoing argument abortion dont know views subject im completely abortion individuals right body feel redflag individuals right choose body ultimately choose life liken put pets much pain life worth living immobile use legs example pros redflag weight cons humans make decision put pets sleep lives worth living better choice feel anything kind thing certainly believe individual right thing make decision humans unfortunately frowned upon society alot things due population following rest crowd spread right wrong fact development society hell couple hundred years ago society thought right string women thought witches thats whole discussion another time theres good amount population natural instinct stop someone dying taking life unfortunately deed happening actually done people take notice think actions couldve done something acted better way prevent least show theres sort good side life ya pc solid valve fan games run valve games lmao probably goodbye guessto honest thinking killing self better everybody around pretty much think im waste space im go school feeling im person whole school died less weight parents shoulders want anybody even responds respond im dead yet thank reading guess know live every day perhaps send good words team depression sucks letter uworstestgrammar uworstestgrammar valentine pretty please miss miss much dont know read sub anymore together want know miss much come home soon year half awayeveryday im tell worth one day closer ill finally able move still cant help thoughts feel guilty publishing feel ashamed complaining life know theres people struggle much recently getting difficult need advice suicidal thoughts even knew redflag remember fourth grade told teacher wanted die end parents going rough time constantly fighting drinking screaming suffer horrible anxiety cant order food restaurant hate using blowdryer cant even stand listening music loud im horrified loud noises talked screaming really took tole long time fourth grade incident divorce took many years settle gotten worse mom bipolar disorder refuses take medication one second happy instant im worst child im selfish im sensitive im lazy pig work try hardest im full time student backtalk drugs fight know currently live want desperately move father willing treatment help hes gotten much better person hes gotten help issues started becoming independent sober says loves cares yell scream talks need many things say accomplishments theyre polar opposites mom cant leave mom nice amazing fits come one second tells much mean destroys talks wants perfect isolates friends approve talk people neo nazi cant mixed friends black friends forget hispanics asians ethnicity bleached hate love everyone im even biracial relationship ive hide year cultures new things ive learned breathtaking beautiful love races wish controlling might sound stupid much serious anyone believes writing messy unorganized feel useless asked recently help step dad gotten fights said let scream thats happened magic pill going fix youre selfish know pain go africa see real pain care cry room night youre sensitive stop anxiety stupid shit talk talk fix problems automatically starts screaming hours later swollen eyes face flushed acts nothing happens makes jokes acts happy okay cycle want end badly want hurt hurting know im ready leave world know hurt ones truly love hurt bad tip iceberg theres much one knows know emotional abuse want label summary tell im ugly im fat im useless one loves fat girl every time eat things ive told multiple times stick cant socialize hard talk people hard love ive treated horribly nightmares wet bed hyperventilate go gatherings im wrecked know even know right place talk want stress anyone apologize ahead time occur hurt friend attempted redflag last nighthe failed gave talked said promises try heard seen active online anywhere know know say please help set stoneat pm everyone ignored pm cried help feeling upset one cared threw im still throwing im love someone love someone little background girl played fucked emotionally three years dated days cheated couple times left tried better im obsessed every shell come back wants keep fucking leash im rambling probably making sense im upset love ex fuck ex girl driving insane im love want slit fucking wrists tools fuck alyssa breakdown gymi working usual started jump rope mile sprint treadmill started working leg day stuff lately theres girl goes gym looks exactly ex exact body type faces almost indistinguishable tried notice let bother turned music finishing workout started flashbacks deployment vivid images things flashed brain one old time movie reals slide different picture pictures buddies killed ied explosions legsarms torn kids screaming villagers crying marines dying started thinking late nights ex hold breakdowns shared deepest pains secrets begged information promised never leave gone leave legs collapsed held onto squat rack legs stopped shaking enough grab things headed straight door breathing heavy felt going vomit threw stuff car got drivers seat gripped steering wheel hard screamed top lungs felt minute broke crying im telling guys miss tell everything going okay tell im good person go home room sleep sleeps someone hate easy way outhome alone tiny apartment easiest way dont guns sharp knives want done tonight within next hours part thankful able successfully first time numb happened fell onto floor hurt knees wrists second time earlier week really upset afterwards called hotline tell isolating due covid want go hospital sure even allowedi sleeping part past days maybe telling try survive going still dealing lot ideation going keep practicing guitar see goes self harm still big issue need sort well survived two hanging attempts month maybe sign really need someone talk toi dont know anymore dont feel take think killing lot think may actually itthe thing keeps imagine family especially young son parents think taking seat belt driving ditch taking enough pills kill horse old standby hose tailpipe car problem want place may cause painful memories family pass honest really surprised useless redflag hotlines seem give flying fuck conclusion tired around people tired sucking everything give shit anymore thanks reading knowim exhausted every sense word im burden everyone life friends talk im feeling except boyfriend bless heart trying much even feel im bothering people shit want end everything know hurt boyfriend grandparents brother mom feel guilty punish one way another whether conscious feel guilty everything feel guilty existing feel guilty wanting exist im stuck anyone experience type therapy process helped struggle regression therapyanyone tried among us made among us discord people find others play link gary buseys best performance nicelyflowing biography musical background able songs really works always good see fine actor stroud one crickets charlie martin smith wellbr br best performance gary busey thankfully mr busey oscarnominated losing jon voight coming home fairly lowbudget flick disappoint great songs mr holly hope made plenty dough busey never popular varying reasons thankfully one great one resume welcome bruhland united forever bruhship labour mighty bruhs endure great soviet bruh live ages dream people bruhtress secure long live soviet bruherland built peoples bruhty hand long live people united bruh strong bruhship tried bruh long may crimson bruh inspire shining bruh men see days dark stormy great bruh lead us eyes saw bruh sun freedom bruhlin leader bruh people inspired us build land bruh long live soviet bruhland built peoples bruhty hand long live people united bruh strong bruhship tried fire long may bruhson flag inspire shining glory bruh see fought bruh destroyed anti bruhs brought bruhland laurels bruh glory live memory bruhtions generations honour bruh long live soviet bruhland built peoples bruhty hand long live bruh united free bruh friendship tried fire long may bruh crimson flag inspire bruhing bruhry bruh bruh true story okay know people absolutley terrible human beings times females name feminism orwomen empowerment anyway friend cheated boyfriend multiple times dude dating found actually audacity say apologize walking long story short guy dumped girl came ranting misogonystic pig infringing women rights allowing sleep men sometimes iam actually ashamed female gender anyway thanks coming ted talk ik literally everyone done ima anyway nice cock got bro good day wifi left meeee feeling blueee im tableeeee making life decisions youuuu looks depression wins one yall peace outbyeeeeeee alone lost confused feeling sad feel purpose life burden wake everyday want go need help honestly one asked rn epic nah ive talked alot people luck lol im readyi noose roomi spend last weekend mum goes back work monday im going hang sick fa one sick told internet cliches try reach help never fucking work im normal person crippled social anxiety depression life isnt worth living longer live longer lonely hate good enough anybody im excited finally peace school still closed long time teacher told class whole situation probably school stay closed couple months still said school open provide safe environment students thats case moment options school discussing split classeswould help lot whole school break timelogical sence mask mandated classsome people bla bla bla people dont use common sence sadly provide stuff protection corona etci dont think costs according teacher take weeks someone makes decision everything take months happy online school way better home cheat tests one give answerfor better keep repeating eventually hold meaning even though words completely hollow ive finally stopped asking ive stopped asking lot things regurgitate pain continuously getting harder swallow back done im done reaching people stifle words done trying show people care constantly slip minds done struggles diminished theres always someone worse statement help put anything perspective needing grateful worse lot people okay comfortable thinking people worse empathize well done struggling day day even basic human interactions even family ive known whole life done keeping strong facade navigating bullshit done told im cared ultimately always end alone hurt done trying done never progressing fucking done going therapy trying medications pushed done mental physical pain constantly done watching people love life patience worn done tired done think im going bother write redflag notes words seem hold meaning think want twist want see finally know method use know pretty good idea people claim see coming even though feels ive waving around giant lit sign screaming anyone fucking notice im already invisible might well make concrete wish inner peace hope end better cant live life anymore deserve die knew agreehi thanks clicking never used verbalize frustrations life first clicked assume know depression suicidal ideation depression number psychologic physical factors range severity without possible symptoms suicidal ideation thoughts redflag may may intend act upon thats technical explanations go believe deserve die irrational belief something done hate failure never good enough anything burden family cause pain suffering needlessly fail help around need turned back unlike social pressures permanently ruined someone extremely close way fix asshole around whether mean mother thinks failure family think failure knew sexual orientation failure father tell depression unable join military feel happy feel want cry try cant plan kill soon make aduot hood plan attain low risk life insurance plan either drive cliff shoot one fathers shotguns failure everything life family friends never plan life seems pointless look hope someones words sites make feel something dont feel coward already killed seems someone failure around told crimes despise despicable waste human space feels generous saying hope understand premature death fairly inevitable feel need reply verbal manure supportive way rather way reminding atricities thank goodnight call lone cactus im sad horny advice needed tell dad cant finish optional project im working late hw yet expects optional project im sorry dad tried cant living actively drain care aboutme alive draining care disappoint let drag generally cause difficulties anytime ive wanted change improve always past point solved things always realize error ways far late keeps hurting people care many small mental issues yet single fucking one excuses plethora issues must fundamental level bad person yet cant even obviously bad person im ensnaring disappointment grinds away good will brings worst people unfair nothing going beside typical things people say someone nothing tangible give career future seem motivation suppose must coddled much child work ethic im already cant seem functional adult leech others slowly cause resentment alive first place dead single ounce real care around brains painting wall motivated even god damn second turn arm fleshly red ribbons save everyone time im much coward try hey whats im awake wan na chat im think im going back bed east coast ftm stop wanting die every time something small happens meive feeling way way many years want end hate menobody really seems want around one closest friends forgets text best friend basically said better without life boyfriend now ex broke day sexually assaults drinks never respects hes still tempting reach know doesnt treat well instead reached ex see anything found care less want trying start drug empire hoped posting subreddits getting validation well dms give something look forward didnt adding one rats passed away fault mom dad think im sleeping couch difficult sleep room quincy passed really fully made noose intend using cutting doesnt work anymore usually coping strategies either hurt kms sh doesnt appeal anymore want need kms dont want hospitalized doesnt help tried order stuff online give something wake couldnt decide wanted tried reward w donuts months clean second longest ive years ive hurting somebody ate mom didnt want change medicine doesnt think handle dont even know meant cant handle switching medicine cant handle meds sounds petty hate made promise three years ago still heavily suicidal crying sleep kill matter life turn cant worth ill likely go redflag closest ive dying age started tldr everybody better without cant find something live dm surprise whoever makes best dad joke gets free award edit hour post posts one made someone deserves love please go tell thank feel calm finally way outive ended place cant go back tied loose end little guilt ill cry thought finding ive done everything make lot hate resent one people people describe full life end coming head know im right thing long run drain positive energy people long situation forced change life living urgent please help made friend today among us amp name michelle user among us mishmash plays cyan became friends got kicked game devastated please reddit help find user plays marshmallo crashed car embarrassing way one least next month got license midaugust sucks go without crashing car two months anyways stop sign neighborhood turned right looking behind mirror dark outside see much reached dome light think called quote next thing knew heard loud noise airbags deployed subaru service automatically getting called shellshocked idea happened fast got see mailbox made rock completely leveled bottom front car broken minutes later dude whos mailbox broke came garage driving car immediately stopped saw mailbox got car explained happened called parents adhd tend panic often came instantly house literally one block explained happened police came well subaru service alerted guess officer asked obvious showed asked guy wanted put ticket license said man going pick pizza dominos mom dad helped shovel remains mailbox able leave completely blocked driveway told family name towing service left mom came back pizza called towing company told us wait minutes mom left dad waited came towed subaru im left car rural illinois university miles away tho small village dq mcdonalds subway jj arbys know parents leaving house much stranded home im picky eater know family brings food supposed poll worker cant without car tldr illinois teen crashes car mailbox cant drive next month rural area ps fine airbag gave bad scratch back left hand im good physically mentally whole nother story really want diei really understand whats even wrong redflag matter want kill going hurt jobless miserable person leave earth care anyone hurt theyll anyways really want things looked forward even spark joy anymore hate everything living wish easier ways kill ive making pro con lists different ways redflag want find easiest one want risk coming back really wish die want wake tomorrow honestly know much longer go onmy mother emotionally abusive neglectful entire life go much detail ive made two posts curious see tldr mother took literally everything away entire life spoil bratty little sister point pulling school letting anything socialize growing going entire life age literally trapped basement unable leave claims literally lock away count way leave im years old means start life ive torn entire life family without chance develop social skills cant anything cant even talk anyone beyond saying hi ive way getting job live ive tried applying everywhere within walking distance nothing past years ride public transport really exist town mother gave car supposed mine younger sister totaled drunk license yet mother one actually yelled promised license yet ive barely even scratched surface post previous posts ive made literally ignored child every time tried talk anything cant handle anymore cant handle fact never got kid teenager mother care tries excuse everything done going thinking straight everybody makes mistakes shell flop back flat denying wanted fair chance life gone forever ill never chance teenager actually develop everything gone forever bothered tell bratty sister ive tried therapy ive tried medication nothing helps tried explain mother fair thing helps years started explaining done worse cant anymore reason killed last posts convinced finally listen fair ive come realization happen cant without yes tried completely unwilling keeps making excuses doctors medication helped wanted mother treat fairly shot life everyone ive talked keeps saying oh young theres still time im literally starting though except expected job move ready adult even chance teenager everyone cant want end ive slowly getting point past weeks made even rapid post really cry help anything im honest mind made know im posting honestly guess want someone tell actually victim instead mothers gaslighting ampxb im sorry anyone keen chat im bored usual dm want chat comments go keep brief jump one thing another little child exposed studies consumed wholly came tv came day dreaming came sadness binge watching eating alcohol now old skin constantly go back forth taking plunge binge watching drowning melancholy need fill something consuming time crumble pieces easy use mobile easy accessible normal cure fix go back child addicted studying idea currently much better used really need perspective deal tendencies mine feed keep check time channel addictive tendencies productive death hardim tired life drunk bunch poison im still dead researched lethal amount im still killed feel awful im dead far thing thats happened caused boyfriend leave said deal hurting anymore really matter already wanted die gives one reason want leave horrible world wish end years suffering alreadyi stopped showing class looks thats another student debt nothing show yay rd attempt college years last night go night got drunk stabbed thighs stayed bed day cuz walk apparently called mom asked pick take home wan na go home thats nowhere apparently voice small child memory suicidal im weird blackout drunk well im tired dealing know need help cant stand another day month year feeling way cant talk anyone depressed suicidal gets redundant awhile know lost kg pounds weeks earlier weighting kg around pounds today checked weight kg around pounds almost nothing lose weight went dormitory poor af reduced amount junk food eating weeks lost kg maybe much still something little accomplishment wanted share bad nighti took two gravol yesterday knock severe panic attack calmed put sleep feel missed medication much psychological pain now put words im suicidal thoughts tired hurt people think ssris disrupted gravol took last night even though took meds today think maybe two go together gravol overrode something period due days pms pretty hellish depression anxiety think call premenstrual exacerbation mental illness aggravated premenstrual symptoms im chilling kitchen floor cabinets right feeling pure death inside help im donei think im done life real im sick everything im sick dumb fuck emotionless family negative timehateful attention seeking piece shit feel sick comparing people feel huge outsider believe theres truly nothing going good life head limited cant enjoy certain things cant understand certain things im never happy cant live concious everything cant accept even want changing impossible cant magically increase fucking iq fuck writing confessionventocd hope likely hebepedoconfessionvent theres reason im still alive family people care despite absolute worthless dumbass ive done stupid shit past always mind feel guilty angry cant fucking forgive watching catching predator videos youtube october last year ended obsession p stronger thoughts along thoughts yet fucking ignored confident ocd read pages relate peoples stories except remembered fucking masturbated images kids twice individuals individuals attracted younger photos still looked individuals liked either still barely random year old didnt know fucking ages kids sure still fucking knew better masturbated aunt beastiality shit guys looked girls around age fucking able masturbate things questioned attracted part tells testing anxious didnt fucking still im sure regardless long time ago dont remember events except questioned attracted particular things test see got aroused maybe fucking able curiosity taboo anxiety horny piece shit masturbate anything addicted never masturbated fantasiesnever fantasies unless force think order test reaction compare things feels sickpainful dont enjoy kid feel sick liking individuals years younger questioned attracted kid years younger reminded person liked yet fucking dismissed fucking touched kid holding hands curious fucking regretted felt bad lost attraction focused person actually crush remember playing kids starting question fucking trauma kid took advantage innocence experimented humping merubbing genitals fucking stuck days constantly think question im attracted kids see public especially whove entered puberty test attraction think kids constantly head see im attractedtest reaction anxious panic see groinal responses fucking anxiety caught guard pictures feel attraction along obsessions lady tramp dog feels different think individuals fucking avoid kids see person im attracted university question age liked resemble kid brain always tells im p keep trying tell im total loss im done brain fucking tried telling psychopath lacked empathyremembered shit past except feel empathy got dismissed theres something completely wrong sexually mentally accept born premature weeks barely lived immigrated another country amazing family worked hard piece shit person died baby younger almost getting hit car everyone high hopes meexcept probably became worst person society tldr brain tries convince im attracted inappropriate things kids animals dog family members aunt grandmother mother brother religious figures past normal things gender im trans curious feels different gender wanting try clothes different gender psycho except ive done shit actually show behaviours past theres two things leave miserable world ill remembered good individual worked hard school dreams becoming doctor help im help see hell wrong im scared happen family dog something happen id rather live internally suffer stupid curses given family people care dont suffer isnt life im crying inside everyday want let emotions scream im moody brother keeps pushing limits asking reassurance appearance making obsession worse talking things make feel even upset losing fucking marbles im going ranti want start saying bait im fishing attention posting really need rant calm thanks ahead read know going lot dad always thinks talk shit bathing self pity way attention fucking im slowly surely going fucking insane know dad thinks excuse half ass alive cant help really im trying even went therapy took meds gave really see point keep trying nothing working kind getting better little trying avoid triggers certain people situations ive found sheltered real world intense urge kill keeps coming back matter hard try switched bottle desperate attempt smother intense impulses counter productive end miserable drunk made redflag seem justifiable angry least im angry im sad least years sad im sister time got molested front baby sitters son feel ashamed anything mom cry drunk mind father left little game play called bird says dont cry lean say dont cry thats think now shit happened young keeps coming back boiling anger aimed particular direction talking helps much thing keeping going family mom bipolar drug addict brother angry nothing plus hes slowly surely developing extremely intense alcohol problem try cope everything brother recovering drug addict sister best friend kept going dark ass times shes strong tarnish selfish reasoning know shes got lot shes repressing whole family brink besides dad happy live blissful ignorance situation cant throw board wouldnt fair god damn getting hard keep going thank read side note dont mean ripping family love rant wants vc need someone talk school work talk abt whatever want one thing got ta atleast keep wishing redflag button desk kill soon pressed ityou may wonder want thing school kinds people good bad one good ones due thoughts suffering greatly laughed time made worst mistake feelings another boy year group painful know never cute boy hurts want stop sure may say dont friends talk one boat even tried slitting wrists failed friend acting strangely towards recent thats possibly fault pisses people complain parents youre treated bad asking chores people really ungrateful seen dad work hard one point take pills sleep least help chores making work isnt asking pay bills rent dont dick parent unless treating bad crazy di hit hard clinical depression couple months ago extremly intense thankfully last long months utter agony needless say experiance new knew nothing disorder obvious reasons depressed know depression package good stuff one suicidal thoughts death depressed person jumping warm bed long day work raining outside knowing tomorow day got picutre simply sweet heres thing even recovering feeling sun face air lungs blood vains enjoying good laugh lm still obsessed redflag thinking every day every moment whith negative mindset hypnotized idea simplicity possibility serinity days put one bullet chamber gun holding head closing eyes simply feeling cold barrel skin frodos temptation ring complete clearence mind ultimate sensation peace sometimes lose point limbs body go numb well relaxed became crazy anyone guilty act exactly go gentle good night resist temptation love hear thoughts aloneso much happened caused entire world collapse know begin loved ones picked one im alone run mill feel alone mean alone one line case emergency contact one moment one think im almost edgeso week started pretty good thursday shit happened fucked times work let anxiety best first girl ive really decent convo months friday shitty stuck home alone today started pretty good buying dream gun went birthday party son girl ive huge crush last decade half girl ive crush lets call bev recently gotten huge fight yo bf shes came comforted knows feel bf chris real name cuz fuck prick showed bevs mom ring back gave days thing still went place made today whole fight thing week ago thought bevs parents chris best friends chris want around still pretty much begged come birthday head bevs parents car sisters car car drive birthday yo walk bev son sisters kids sisters husband sister parents grandma bev youngest adult least years kids go swim adults talking chris even acknowledge existence except grabbing bevs ass shit eating grin face looking dead minutes uncomfortable awkward hour text parents invited fight know still going make cuz flat tire used excuse leave want use new gun blow brains thru top head im pretty confident pretty quick end pathetic excuse life keep torturing living ps fuck done website censuring write want spread pure hate women let serious college bs made lies bs anyways living hermit room way live let post whatever fck want ive left turni cant escape christianity cant escape sexuality fuck supposed cant escape loneliness cant escape anxiety supposed shit doesnt happen good people got ta fault cruel joke theres god hope hes laughing ass clever make suicidal dont give courage go make bi surrounded people whod hate make cant make one likes person make want throw pity party simultaneously aware deserve make even try help fuck give birth pile trash see lives long take take hopefully much longer want die badlyi yo male hate much want die want parents find dead body anyone pe exercises correctly involve lying back shorts wear fall im home alone thing feel actually one going see shorts fall legs air one takes depression seriously think joking coming excuses failures getting harder harder day know next year bacaloria feel illness going make studying x times harder mess bacaloria pretty much rest life depends itsince one around seems care depression choice left treat alone see achieved treat illness alone binary meaning think today actually kill worki cant stand pain anymore nothing makes happy sit boring job fucking day misery people pile work dont care anymore dont care anything besides getting goddamn ride fuck everything fuck mental illness making fucked person tell secrets yes love hear xxxxxxxxx x x x x x x x x x x xx want human interactionits months ive even touched another human days ive spoken face face one outside work interaction texting people occasion want interact person want fucking hug im lonely hard stay alive im already struggling wish someone real life loved cared talk see real talk wanted feel ill die lonliness point sounds dramatic guess true im lonely maybe ill kill spare pain mixed everything control body anymoreevery monthevery month right period due feel really really suicidal feel taking body thoughts mind actions cant take anymore meds help tried crash car couple times today im fucking sick life read synopsis messiah television guide prepared store story follows dci metcalfe trying solve case grisly murders taken across london soon realises pattern serial killer loose killing people similar names jobs apostles killings identical matching apostle two part series kept right edge seat metcalfe closely pursuing killer always missing within couple seconds discovering gruesome mess left behind illfated victim messiah sure cause great deal controversy nonetheless greatest piece drama bbc shown long time fuck manny heffley hate little fucker filler filler filler filler filler filler must hell lot people world want die got gutsim years old feel lucky im going ivy league school fall full ride yet ive never felt alone life feel unwanted burden unneeded times imagine downing bottle sleeping pills hiding closet slitting wrists cant work courage im wishing maybe hopefully bus car comes hits kill groups ive never felt alone feel im always odd one outcast rang true past couple weeks participated precollege summer program month ago feel one notices everyone group best friends felt always outlier couple days ago student meetup area bunch us going college live area meet hung group guys trying flirt one girl ignored even try carry conversation even notice huge blow self esteem ive never felt ugly kept asking wrong feel matter much effort put try socialize put guy going interested nobody likes im jealous pretty girls especially people surrounded lot friends everything going dont people lucky whereas luck keeps fucking life thought college going differen feel high school high school hell terms loneliness ive never boyfriend never kissed college even starts many students already know hooking feel pessimistic prospects making friends starting relationship even family feel im outcast kindhearted family sometimes feel im odd one im one struggling depression rebellious parents understand depressed tell go help long time ive struggled feelings worthlessness loneliness low selfesteem issues seem mundane struggling loneliness life maybe killing seem bad one cry anyway try things love reason cant even work motivation used love writing stories cant anymore feel im good enough everyday heavy feeling feel crying reason im pretty sure one days cause death going redflag feel im caught sort perpetual sadness comes goes never leaves entirely poem first time felt elation oh premature ejaculation im trying make summer best way earn money im want build pc anyone bad headaches recently reason ive getting bad headaches mum saying technology use dark mode everything low brightness devices p everytime think future want moreive set failure know going go took sleep eze extra strength pills right nowi know harmful take anymore peace im asleep feel body feels weird hands shaking im sure placebo type effect im scared time welcome peace anything happen took minutes ago ive always much coward anything past week hard cant handle life anymore nobody mother really likes play victim spends entire day screaming school reason decides victim wish talk cant wait move outcan day come sooner somehow course entire family treat victim great lying littearly days become hoping arrive home went somewhere moment peace school hated slowly becoming high point day peace today first time actually glad school home talk tonighti cant sleep lot bad thoughts please comfort feeling kinda insecure writing thing theres writing contest love writing basically thing im good hobbies im good story long people ready storiespoem shorter really good im sitting wondering im good enough even win joined fun im feeling bad basically girls guys taht work nice look good etc another lockdown swear god take lifeit strength built emotionally cope first lockdown nothing feel freak scared virus seems one know scared corona virus ive told people getting sick asking telling people fears virus feel people understand blimmin hard lockdown us mental illnesses look ugly suck everything always fuck everything talent sing dance draw etc keep getting yelled annoying voice hell friends nobody loves single likely going die alone still redeeming qualities im happy excited plantheres really post reddit think really need tell someone weird im actually excited killing plan saturday parcel arrives going help im broken person point ive attempted whim recieved help worked point unwilling help anymore self harm stopped working suppressing thoughts know im still point think keep focused end goal now stop things breaking event ive done research time bought appropriate stuff wait carefully avoid anything give second thoughts plunge stuff send im dead alive give shit anymore im done want die know howi depressed past years life im still high school im kind popular go christian school yet im atheist terrible grades family hates im little fat terribly ugly big problem stress cant handle every summer forced work dad construction hate passion dad verbally abusive tried commit redflag months ago took bayer aspirin work damage told family next morning sad got week went couple counseling sessions work put fake face parents hated paying honestly dont know dont know fast painless gutless disposablepeople need people want people try reach sometimes quickly lose interest realize im worth replaceable basically person planet adequate replacement better kill worth anymore want one person care pretend matter even best friend abandoned im much bother happens even bother people dont thing keeping sound death lack means swiftly thoughtlessly end want want done everything sucks one cares therapist friend family teacher boss coworkers anyone theyve let think trust anyone feel time stop pussy end bye needed tell someone actually hope death bring happiness life unable reason parents seem mean older par reason parents seem meaner older see loosing thing parents feel loosing older want baby use example asked something right away argue want mean want baby next time angry yelling talking back thing take feeling perspective dont mad thats gon na make worse trust even know anymorei want die im worthless human cant job talents even mean hastalentbutdoesntrealize way literally nothing cant even handle basic day day interactions people social anxiety bad im good nothing even feel right calling human anymore diminish value term hate much even know anymore death seems option sorry needed chest anxiety thru roofi cant deal dont fucking cry lot cant deal wondering anyone answer thisive already decided ive already written will itll combination benzodiazepines alcohol abundance klonopin xanax valium im weigh lbs amounts absolutely kill ill alone long time time isnt issue dont want wake guess want know anyone idea fatal great im sure enough job done dead die friends saw san diego black film festival great stormy strong black woman nana reminds grandmother br br rene fine seeing take clothes definitely worth price admission someone forward contact infobr br friend thinks flex finer two flex fan years though might little biased cousins funny trifling nana described lolbr br looking forward seeing movie comes theaters dis cry listening song song cried listening marjorie evermore taylor swift damn song hits hard think granma favourite songs moments made part dampad spotify design brief created feature called spotify moments spotify moments new way connect friends family sharing songs mean moments made essentially heart idea connection certain songs others certain songs emotional links places people different times lives spotify moments scan spotify codes stickers wall prints whatever format displayed located around hotspotslocations scan local areas interests city access feed user shared images songs experiences linked place song youd able read peoples stories similar experiences discover new music way contribute share experiences certain songs places tell world song means im currently building final prototype need personal stories populate prototype id love hear story certain song special place heart whether reminds loved one takes back better time past jus feels right listen certain place dintt chicken cross road hit kfc truck alone feeling wayhi joined reddit come reach feel pretty lonely really want know people similar experience actively suicidal danger ive struggling lot im teenager six weeks got discharged residential treatment program ive really hard time ive never real redflag attempt ive depressed anxious long time ive lived suicidal ideation family abusive past realize case late treatment residential difficult came home lot unresolved issues ive every level care steadily declining put residential treatment facility needed hour care due nonfunctional got realized peers facility attempted redflag suicidal actions writing lettersnotes collecting pills figuring ways end life starting attempt etc got treatment resolve actually attempt gotten stronger stronger im afraid pain valid unless ive tried kill narrative cycling mind years wake middle night thinking many many times ive actively suicidal least gotten truly suicidal meaning really really wanted die thats wanted life residential really wanted kill tried times none worked actually wanted use really frustrating time odd thing ive realized attempting outside treatment lived staying bed day sleeping day watching youtube day meant actually think pain stayed limbo numbing pain constantly getting caught guess way keeping suffering bay actually think pain pain suicidal thoughts became rampant help im suicidal im good day im sick enough narrative im actually actively suicidal want die narrative adds even resolve need kill im afraid seen wanting attention thats exact opposite want really hard attempt home want family know want people find worry want hospitalized want talk anyone talk emotions behind weird im actually suicidal im thinking time wanting attempt redflag prove im pain pain valid im actually suicidal want die end pain need prove feels added reinforcer even thats primary reason want die kind fucked baseline need prove im pain risking life andor dying know maybe im looking reassurance maybe im looking someone relate odd feel cant talk anyone havent im still trying im still reaching hard think im sad alone exhausted cant handle itif seen last post ive made subreddit heres link living irrationally angered father beyond ability cope imposes many restrictions despite fact im verbally abuses little brother priorities straight year ago moved stepmothers house due relationship issues decided rent apartment moved furniture bought kitchen table came chairs set couches months later told brother needed beds twin sized ones never asked california king anything bigger twin sized ones want anyone whos reading guess bought instead air mattresses even months later already holes fucking smart way spend money kept telling need beds beds real mattresses fucking year living apartment still sleeping deflated air mattresses busy buying everything including tv costed enough money buy two beds control money told bought bed first yep guessed got triggered day ive sleeping floor uncomfortably cant sleep straight night someone ask rather sleep floor every night wake every hours put sleep permanently id say time long goodnight sleep point simply reasoning father futile told many times couldve bought beds first everything wait threatened kick instead way said putting deathbed depression anything sending message remind much damaged past years message stay forever choose end right now looking reason perhaps another way end peacefully better william powell philo vance kennel murder case film starring mary astor paul cavanagh eugene palette helen vinson ralph morgan dog show philo entered scottish terrier captain serves background locked room mystery many suspects mystery clever denouement complicated interesting talkies still quite young camera work little static michael curtiz good job directing actionbr br supporting cast excellent entire cast brings film notch lots actors played philo vance including paul lukas basil rathbone wilford hydewhite edmund lowe james stephenson alan curtis warren william others powell played five times best fit role relaxed serious time made thin man catapulted big stardom spent years film beginning career stage age remarkable man remarkable screen presence remarkable actor lived nearly lucky films available dvd tcm today kennel murder case great story fun film miss losti dont desire live world existing world becoming much im accepting fact im meant yeah doctors tell depression anxiety tell take medication real money scheme always hear help call hotline go er ill hear shit millionth time im fucking sick issue whole world simple illness treated truly dont belong dont even know anything way anymore dont know whats real anymore know dont want cant live way much longer im fucking lost decided stop taking full dose effexor taking half many meds sad upsides losing appetite feel needi bit afraid naturally going hit think human needs feel full range emotions instead relegated artificial chemical existenceany support welcome went antidepressant amount creepy dms equivalent people crush may accurate somethin anyways never got one ive fucking enoughnone depression subs helped im ugly useless piece shit im going fail school thought waiting years graduated kill think ill cut time short speaking cutting ive started self harming punching face till im black blue cutting biceps ive enough end soon sure health teacher expects class went health started sexual education cause school years middle school first years high school teaches us shit anyway im sexual education school hybrid either home school right kids home sometimes teacher asks question every directs kids home silence tbh im sure expected cause right talking stds shit dont think anyone want talk parents probably next room clear im annoyed teacher hes dick making us talk pretty chill guy think hes realizing dont want talk cause hes asking home kids less less childhood wont leave mei start saying im vulnerable trying explain please dont berate im right obviously grew lot traumatic childhood sexually used grade school physically abused till skin shattered mess bruisings yellow red spots faced emotional neglect breakdowns face emotional abuse internal pain clung wild fire tearing skin everyday im sure im take anymore feel useless usable toy broken thrown away deserve people view damaged goods sex first time today kept saying sure want will mom dad mad hot afi know feel man im dying inside man make create care music nobody understands know post cover cover people frown look easy man nothing worth know feels criticised looked know feels put happy face everybody crushed inside know man makes cry im crying bro know fake tears hide feel im right hands bro know words mean much know im nobody know call names know think know love man know feels im right im crushed inside man im completely lost without music much bridge nobody loves man nobody loves theyre supposed im dying man im thrown nothing say matters nothing bridges gap im crushed man love bro keep chin good job cant think anything im crying bro know nothing im sorry im sorry act around know know side eye know hear whispers know theyre children man theyre children understand fight love ampxb love bro keep chin going make going going keep making art going love bro always love much bro going great things cant stop crying kpop bro kpop helps thru sad times love kpop different words descriptive ears music wish theyd make softer wish help make softer ampxb ampxb male highschool lost everything friends know even great friends begin hope becoming great musician lost contact girl girlfriend wandering lonely alone past years seems everyone enemy mean people bet school assholes bullies never easy life way going want keep going living judge father passed away last month keep thinking much beat kid id go school bullied beat well never ending pain go away know say want die always alone friend sexually assaulted wan na drop deadhe coerced things mocked day disclosed vulnerabilities pakeezah interesting history well documented trivia section came seems destiny conspired test kamal amrohi director time secretly desiring see complete masterpiecebr br pakeezah rides metaphors poetry visual elocution result intensity emotions come achieve dimension may real effective leave impact viewerbr br meena kumari lives tragedy nargis sahib jaan stars film besides ghulam mohammed music director lata mangeshkar naushad background score joseph wirsching dop music cinematography leaves spell boundbr br pakeezah classic world cinema reveals new layers every time watch kamal amrohi one rare poets cinema left us gift asking help original post shitty update started walk min came outside got scared talk small step time starting asking talk im lost roadbeen struggling lot heavy depression recently lost family members grandma raised grew little boy uncles tia always supportive encouraging ive battling lot health issues well people tell go ahead life together havent able properly jump start vehicle place uncle close kid admire appreciate lot hes always one cool uncles got diagnosed cancer right broke girlfriend said shit shouldnt oh well parents never really one considered mom dad grandma shes one whod take doctors mexico im left alone ive dealing horrible suicidal thoughts day actually thinking bout taking xanax bumping one lil peeps songs another song driving expressway seeing attempt successful theres nights break crying break pain everything hard really cant control thoughts dont want go psych ward dont help want drug idk guess overwhelming im constantly throwing im constantly faking smile faking im ok one loves fucks year ago people wanted now ones ok though im used oh well cant wait another life disaster pandemic doesnt help honestly haha bruh wtf heard megan thee stallion compared getting shot foot breonna taylor situation bruh definitely lying tory lanez shooting ik people still walk shot aint even cast even know take long recover giving months live things better throw towelits long time coming everything life hit rock bottom son narcissistic now ex boyfriend years left explanation blocked number cant asshole head love family even though want alive anymore know im working daily im making rain resumes everywhere hopes chance going therapy keep trying new years nothing gets better im throwing towel want put family cant keep suffering sexuality hocd ruining lifei cant stop obsessing lesbian im im bisexual want im petrified lesbian brain keeps lying tricking thinking might im want disgusting lesbian thoughts go away hate attracted women im never going come closet ill date men marry one die never act feelings women makes fucking depressed extent depressed lean towards women want fuck one bad cant stop thinking one loving cuddling kids fuck brain thinking thing men give feeling know one proving wrong one hear lesbians shit theyre lonely going die alone im wrong happy sex attractions even know fucking care lesbians im one obsess im bi men want fucking deal shit want fucking kill thinking anymore controversial opinion thread whats ur controversial opinions feel free argue personally attack people u disagree got ta love friends cries inside post selfie think differently look greg heffley live action movie im really confused know feel believe think kill know wanted see simply never told fault dead now little brother father anymore im confused overcome emotions right now wish light mode didnt ruin eyes always switch light mode see actually looks good vaporizes eyes dust smh sneases sound shotgun entire neighborhood goes panic half think shooting half afraid covid really terrible seasonal allergies redflag illusionthe person woke morning person writing now continuity identity sense continuity consciousness false belief self generator pain circle center entry exit stream love utma farewell boysonce upon midnight dreary killed left one teary yoooooo rice krispies multi grain regular rice krispies best love allyou guys practically second family even though share pain guys idea much help many others goes thoughts sub prevented ending many times knowing whenever feel sad come relate many people people whiling help really overwhelming thank awesome hopefully one day find peace even seams cloudy rainy outside im really trying hold onim convinced im going go nowhere life im tired im mentally physically drained im trying hold onto reasons wan na stay alive friends cat sister know care hard bad thoughts getting louder louder point drowns positive ones really want anymore want keep living keep used hurt im tired feeling failure want anymore enterprise entertainment forefront science fiction notredflag outlook tomorrow gratitude respect mr berman mr braga wish well thank service trekbr br enterprise trek feel hopeless stupidim really struggling tab laptop open nearest hospital back medication anxiety high im afraid feel made mistake moving boyfriend feel everything mistake annoys know feel relationship anymore got owi pay ticket plus pay drug alcohol assessment addition pay rent water internet upside im taking semester work try save money im severe anxiety making rentwaterinternet paying ticket assessment feel lonely ugly feel easier went away forever im unhappy morning ripped apart painting started knife excited start feel deserve happy hate worst part feel frozen seek help im afraid move apartment even month yet means relationship feel human garbage tell documentaries watch read title read title anything thing makes happy anymore rain scene step especially mooses part im gon na watch step movies man dont sub time idk different americans wake ways kill myselfive anyone says anything ive trying better long time theres literally point someone please help tell please look stupid rn hahaha hair two buns itll curl look stupid lmao right longer rememberanything say confidence anymore anything believe purpose anyone tell disagree instantly explain reason time alone still nobody talk everyone hostile anything believe im already failure human beingwhats point im relationship close friends people talk university keep touch summer even still often eat dining hall university every single day every single meal miserable especially tables people right next table look people happy loathe meal job tried getting summer job help pay expenses school mcdonalds want manager promised call interview never tried another job help wanted sign ive store times now keep telling come back cause never applications going month now go fuck keep going chance ill job remaining week head school happen family despises im religious think im failure nothing day watch anime computer play videogames never go outside unless inquire job ive gone outside times summer ive school may cat hates longer wants play dream job work google cant summer job whats say ill job major company yeah right im gaining gaining shitton debt school go constantly dream getting horrific car crash permanently disabled society expect work watch anime miserable rest life stress job skills job real family love friends nothing ill student debt graduate probably job offer whats point dealing years end everything right now people say minecraft bad know people say nobody plays minecraft boring bad game childhood game ive played minecraft maby years old another ruined holidaywhen growing dad ruined every holiday fighting mom well another ruined holiday time boyfriend ex boyfriend even fucking knows told pessimistic negative everything life honestly cant remember negative supposed say hes bitching parents borrowing money oh sucks im really sorry apparently wrong telling im sorry sucks sessions show wrong told unsupportive said heard rumor said sleeping around behind back envr said understand heard keep second guessing everything ive done past months keep flash backs good memories spent day laying around crying tried contact redflag hotline waited hold asked leave message social anxiety cant call back cant bring try want disappear want cease exist dont know ill kill took ap woke deep scratches arm scratched sleep ive cut well hope wake morning really never want wake im sick happy suicidal muchwhat say happiness isnt even anything feel nothing kill painyou cant help nobody wan na peacefully ok dont laugh need help deciding two christmas lights minecraft ive honestly fucking hours please help decide cant take anymore lol decide httpsimgurcomateseln im angry myselfid never kill think keep getting mad telling angry want end ive self harming years really kicked notch last months ive gotten point cut everyday tonight sat knife wrist ten minutes trying psych opting cut elsewhere ive done everyday last week im starting worry might actually courage want die sometimes know appeals ive got great life family loves dog id never leave still keep seeing want started cutting teenager years even thinking months time last year august decided lose weight lbs really great christmas family came visit completely fell wagon ive trying back wagon lose weight got lbs christmas cant mindset started cutting frustrated frustration makes want kill hate hate body im angry want kill im weak lazy cant lose fucking weight hate hate feeling way im fucking sick want keep waking want bracesinvisalign parents say cant afford try candid wanted invisalign fix smile forever parents couldnt afford insurance wouldnt cover found candid clear aligner company works entirely remotely home including teeth imprints scanning teeth using phone automatically send progress pics doctor meet videocamera doctor super easily easily cheaper invisalign super easy crazy schedule cant go dentistsorthodontists office every weeks home follow link free starter kit teeth imprints amazing payment plans wish high school first year college cool lol companies similar smile direct club byte explore options picking one thank hugs thank hugs important question say years twenty twentyone two thousand twentyone internet weird love internet quite weird everything happens forgot minutes later much stuff happening internet remembering hard barely remember anything posted post yesterday got updots sure one knows tho thats pretty normal yet sad yet funny everything h p p e n n g everything everything existing ending one watch youtube one read articles one experience internet big brain sad cool dogs name sammy full name sammy samuel samson abbreviate already abbreviated word substitute yall wan na yall turn yallve acceptable maybe yallre yall idk ok yall accept find kinda annoying people try sell religion street minding business guy walked dad tried make small talk started saying religious stuff pulled religious book answers kept trynna make us ask questions religion dude im happy satanist believe god im gay trans think god hate anyway great movie loved great editing use soundtrack captures real feeling indian life yet relate well chose cast great characters movie develops characters real care feel know use indian music drums soccer scenes great direction really works everyone comes real natural cant help root jess film acting really good even tomboyish walk body posture leading ladies convincing someone played lots soccer please help internetthe internet driving fucking crazy want exist want sleep one day world ends masturbate much might heart attack day spend much time reddit youtube feel dont know going fucking autopilot falling everyday one great ones works beautifully hardly notice miscasting year old dana andrews drugstore soda jerk goes war comes back four years later played im shitim fucking dumb unbelievable cant anything right disappoint family let friends im shit dog owner need kill someday way always happen even know expect happen even bother talk fck hate people open start diagnosing im ready end life today home schoolive goal oriented now ive always aimed perfection cant reach cant reach goals never even close ive always striven perfect grades overwhelming point work ass stress college work ass stress god job work ass stress die way going id rather reach end later ive lost interest nearly everything ive pushed away friends ive got nothing left besides finish school day exhausted options think last thing left ive done everything bucketlist secretly hoping make see fun things ill miss feel worst bothers many people death effect im popular person know friends blame family split going let many people sorry got argument flat earther uncle middle heated debate asked legitimate associations actually support claim world indeed flat said enthusiastically response yes flat earth society lot members organizations around globe bernie sanders old born anyways idk put hope u suffer much fine day family comedy best senses term uncomplicatedly faith family ann blyth help everybodys favorite grandpa edmund gwenn gets divine help lifting omoynes wouldbe vengeance schemes goldtooth mccarthy john mcintire pure fun genteel softly spoken drama steven spielberg first real venture genre departure normal adventurefantasy fare paved way success schindlers listbr br based upon alice walders pulitzer prize winning novel story concerns young girls arranged marriage hardship brutal angry farmer painful separation beloved younger sister nettie plot compassion abuse power love heal wounds often powerful moving loses way fault continuity menno meyjes scrambling screenplay color purple times hard follow one occasions tends little erratic regard time frame lapse scripting cost viewer depth detail obviously present miss walkers novel real shame maestro spielberg unable pick rectify problems show wonderful example prowess directorbr br performances strong throughout whoopi goldberg making debut never matched regard acting accomplishment heart broken celie yearns loved danny glover lends solid support though moses superior turn places heart standout showing comes unheralded oprah winfrey miss sophia single minded fighting black woman whose spirit crushed terrible incident involving patronising upper class white woman good support margaret avery adolph caesar rae dawn chongbr br quincy jones coproducer spielberg kathleen kennedy frank marshall penned beautifully melodic score provided original blues occasion editing michael kahn sound always director photography allen daviau shows consummate skill capturing glorious southern scenerybr br true affair heart surely bring tear eye unfortunate left many unanswered questionsbr br wednesday january video need stop getting attached girls meet online text hours wont seems becoming fashionable rip basic instinct point significant part audience including critics found terrible even released seems even fashionable trash sharon stone wholike usis fourteen years older andunlike usstill looks wonderful first comments movie vicious see opinion sequel nearly good original film bad comments pretend michael catonjones paul verhoeven neither henry bean leora barish joe eszterhas basic instinct entertaining average thriller besides addition jerry goldsmith original score keeps little resemblance predecessor even stone gives character different dimension creating lustful devilish catherine trimell perfectly well rank among monsters hannibal lecter intelligent actress afraid taking risks play camp leisure unfortunately seems main target enjoy trashing flick became successful much main icon actors reached level time arrived bound destroyed hollywood audiencesbr br rest cast outstanding giving performances far better material deserves david morrissey much better actor far interesting michael douglas acting flawless giving dense complex dimension one dimensional character screen time axis movie keep attention beginning endbr br recommending basic instinct great movie expressing disagreement comments site conviction agendas movie shaping opinion spectators often think friends ate drugs cool shit sometimes stay past bedtime feel cool one stalk profile probably find anything psychologist decided put medication need fix sleep scheduleyeah series lot going beautiful footage impressive underwater environments planet staggering five years making one hardpressed expect less impression scenes first episode repeated latter ones naturally minor gripebr br david attenborough great narrator comments informative leaving enough room ones imagination well spaced viewers plenty time reflect upon breathtaking imagery opportunity try watch translated version seriesbr br definite mustsee anyone interested intricacies blue continents easily best documentary subject ive seen smoking video games things keeping ending alli know without anyone view odd names relationship deal breakers gon na date name easily said name weird unique im tbh gon na romantic cant even say name seriously cant think top head im hispanic lot spanish names eh anyway anyone attention users reddit heard dihydrogen monoxide tell risks dihydrogen monoxide know hydric acid found nuclear plants found tap water certain dosages sodium contents blood become diluted lead death kidding everyone water please go drink glass water right now im even sure im postingi recently diagnosed bipolar disorder dragging girlfriend year behavior fathom im currently going treatment though witnessed first manic episode entire life im embarrassed mental health getting better good friends life anymore consistently moved bullied high school one two good guy friends high school came thanksgiving break last year im lesbian met girlfriend freshmen year university fell madly madly love months dating month manic breakdown im currently home treatment going really well back prove balance school relationship mental health ive feeling really really suicidal suicidal thoughts flared years past month every night kind thing want burden talking know tell everything okay believe im gon na tonightim gon na kill gon na steal pills grandma im gon na swallow whole bottle kill im next month im complete fuck asshole failure one likes ruin every friendship probably shouldve killed sooner fat ass broke rope ive stuck anymore im gon na end one deal itll great wont missed makes better people probably happy good bye everyone family believe mei used joke killing way cope friends family im straight telling dont believe anymore try ask help cant anything im minor money god sometimes feel understand old science teacher made youtube channel old science teacher left years ago recently discovered yt channel hes trying sooo hard mean world go support doesnt know people old class wanted surprise channel felix sarsah httpsyoutubeiulpsspxyhi ago phone got stuck boot loop got mad punched realised right testicle little circle pulsating vegetables im eating right salty im going finish still edible guess still feel weakling nothing dead weight everyone around better dead person kills world great favor honestly want person fucking dead weight wonder even need existim im gay man born broken family father put last name left us week years old accident trying climb kitchen busted head causing mild brain injury root undiagnosed adhd severe anxiety issues raised hostile environment mom retaliated anger frustrations beating crap time grandma light childhood seizure years old ended crippled wheelchair died years later turned biggest annoying burden small family endure mom obsessed idea matter cost privileged private school even bullied different many ways made fun everything height im sudden queer manners clumsinessetci even developed severe dermatillomania hands due severe anxiety hell attempts redflag totally ignored everyone didnt really matter friend close friend lasted year half mom passed away middle first year school poorest classroom worst house mom drove cheapest car even dogs ugly fuck neighbors always made fun pets house disgusting always dirtymy mom semi hoarder always accumulate clothes books never invite anybody deep shame grades school ok good horrible others spend extra hours memorizing stuff understand simple shit sometimes every time speak public panic stutter people laugh scape video games play much started affecting visual impairment started developing strabismus years old graduated got hometown got private university paid mom struggled lot college felt stupid place always awkward lacked social skills annoy fuck people ignore time focused try hard physically attractive go gym tons protein supplements go play magic thegathering whenever eventually got good due undiagnosed adhd mess time angry losing lost hair balding bad hated look always angry wear hat look age look almost years older college started forcing internships difficult work due behavior forgetfulness last semesters try work side got fired twice gave th semester quit college year deep shame felt humiliated constantly fix visual impairment managed surgery public hospital months wait fixed itwhen back college struggles areas didnt give time suffered lot thesis done thesis barely passedit basic shitty didnt make friends even invited default college graduation party barely knew anybody awkward fuck college started internships neither didnt last long tbh sugarcoat resume death appeal employers ended hired couple places surprise got fired first second horrible abusive position nobody take ended year got depressed ended taking medication depression quit job got hired ad agency fired month gave everything sold mtg cards buy ticket us tattooed head micropigmentation style gave younger appearance somehow made feel less shitty genetic makeup ended server multiple places worked busser server even cleaning labors throw bathrooms panic anger shame got hospitalized severe depression ended working total places got fired got diagnosed adhd fired th time messy scattered minded forgetful meds saw light started getting creative miracle bad lost s teens miserable way even years new life ive improved lot still cant job lack experience creating business takes lot investment havent able acquire social media makes sick gives ptsd every time see accomplishments people studied successful relationships amount mental disorders ive gathered much abuse way much handle paying friend therapy hasnt solved issue cptsd rejection sensitivity dysphoria probably mild form autism point suffering ive gone oddsfought many battles endit doesnt even matter people exist someone going give life medal overcoming gigantic struggles life nobody wants date im emotionally damaged im total fear meeting new people isolation made everything worse im couple months away possibly homeless point definitely life even worth shit feel hanging thin string break anytime soon shouldve broken neck guys really important seen memes kid fought back bully gets blamed point kid must loss seem bully one getting kicked gon na pussy fight back lol discovered phone cast videos nintendo switch im allowed tv room use switch make good connection connect jbl flip speaker better audio cant wait test day walking away toxic friendship scares yesterday first time ive felt sense self walking away seven year toxic friendship shed conditioned rely happiness walk away thinking scares scares bully bitch incredibly smart scary knows exactly manipulate others use whim without saying word takes incredibly strong person walk away three know broken hold best friend one guy friend theres others whove seen drawn though takes perceptive person ladies gentlemen may show overfriends family strangers internet may entire life day ten years old depressed probably genetics abuse suffered child today reach new depths ocean despair college career longer able afford soon homeless father intends kick close friends turn leave world lasting message mark puny existence forums reddit ask yes attempted yes tried medicine yes tried facilities avail today may last day bid adieu add girl snapchat theres girl ive school entire life ive talked little bit group project year one classes zoom able talk shy assume share least somewhat similar interests class together elective took two years electives two months ago appeared quick add snapchat courage add mainly midsemester something went weird snapchat itd awkward sit zoom class now two days left class id add keep contact one problem though snapchat username saw quick add feel itd weirdcreepy add username especially instagram bio checking quick add every day two weeks now hoping shell appear quick add add way come across perhaps ive already searched username show quick add anymore assumes consciously add either way im debating add via username feel genuinely friends thanks advice reasons great boyfriend love daft punk kanye wouldnt needi everything need cant bring use think confused everyone kinda caused need advice help talk wan na delete edgenuity httpswwwchangeorgpgetschoolstostopusingedgenuitybanedgenuity got diagnosed clinical depression know know everything hes going downhill update updateso scrolling rmeirlmeirl left suicidal jokes always one op responded real fast asked wanted talk ended talking abt hours wouldve definetly killed ending chat pm asking tomorrow today trying send message im found wasnt deleted account suffering depression im certain killed want die now person listening making comfortable even social anxiety knew himher hours think saved life already cant take im actual paini wake every morning wishing wasnt alive another day thing anxieties friends nothing enjoy im depressed im weak actually end keep going circles want go forest night hang im scared actually going forest night might people around ill scared im sure pills take im scared wont fatal make sick im loser wish someone murder already made mistakeover year ago made promise help girl find comfort reliable friend great friends okay level relationship stressful sometimes made great team great memories easy popular got picked lot even friends pitched bullying made everyday waking saying pass messed really stressful day another argument string arguments going lot left instant mistakes bad decisions fell lost everything stood lost thing kept going trying fix made worse fault ive constant thoughts redflag self demoralizing phrases im afraid follow redflag make things worse even im gone know anymore man upon time lovely princess hey guys im hosting rave watch movies fun community dm discord rave ill add invite alsoif question rave called rave app app store dont discord rave ill send link dm wish owned guneverything hurts cant even bed unless someone yells want breathe anymore please god real come kill give energy kill im alone take interest profiler test wtf computer tell test proceeds inaccurately describe individual yet score school going use profile hello person brain ability communicate ask students fuck bro annoying antidepressantsto people taken taking help final year student enter workforce come privileged background work part time pay school fees live comfortably parents lot grateful feel nothing worth living find satisfaction friendships whatever hobbies swept aside smart study time able pass exams even school ends ill working job maybe ill able pursue hobbies love family hate hounded constant questioning life sometimes gets much rather alone motivationgoal desire rich ok long roof head know time comes begin work go work know dread every day job liked even make enough money pay rent feel stuck figure live mostly positive live day day someone gave way end life think might take wrong change selfish mindset find purpose life make life worth living redflag humane miserable lifei dont want sad forever ive tried many different medications try fix bipolar none seem affect ive couple really great therapists always listened made feel comfortable nothing tried worked ive put much effort mental health sink lower ive watched mom whos s struggle depression anxiety long ive alive see toxic behavior showing life dont know stop automatic im s refuse drag life years feel redflag much humane plans made time go think finally timeive dealt way much past months hopes anything getting better means balls sick surviving everyday waiting next following sort pattern feel stuck life cant move forward ex boyfriend almost two years wants nothing im acting recklessly doesnt even make feel thing feel numb alone dont feel anyone truly understands thing stopping whether abuser go court im dead dont care hes taken everything enjoy life anyways difference make im suffering either way cant want someone know tried hardest ultimately failed im sorry given think africa toto watching sunset watching tonight couldnt stop playing head reason usually sunset movies believed chinese ghosts much prettier mischievous western counterparts storylines three chinese ghost films largely identical direction excellent detail colour huge problem always humour integral part film accompanied course great deal mugging encountered chinese ghoststory trilogy yet film offers interesting departure western horrorghost genre another enjoyable romp chinese ghost world feel really bad guilty dont food mom makes rant maybe shouldnt upset im pussy whatever mom cooks lot shes pretty decent whenever makes something shes super excited try try something makes dislike sad telling upset taste food love much hate reject something worked really hard sorry long ass rant needed im wondering anyone feels afraid paini know killing ill cause pain others care anymore failing bar examafter third attempt taking bar find failed im going end life im dollars debt find job law field save life im doctor laws im working retail making bucks hour cant afford live im burden everyone around think im mentally emotionally handicapped leading problems people im total asshole even though try fun friendly anxiety high think people hate end prick ive never romantic relationship longer months sex anyone july people try dating apps im ive women approve profile told things make available others see best light im old someone damaged im unattractive feel wanted swiped right tens thousands times im apparently offputting cant match ive depression whole life went one hardest law schools country ive done great things standards lived good life accounts happy depression eating alive failing bar twice urged try heartbreak failing twice see way something wonderful happen first week november resigned fate probably place post publicly want die dont reason live love meaningful relationships light end tunnel better gets worse ill older sadder ill fatter balder ill lonelier angry better wait boils hit someone want something one find body im obviously coward without getting eaten alive wolves drowning painfully dont want traumatize family anyone find gross body want disappear forever body burial ive already thought ocean need something render body completely gone trace eg cant use gun someone hear go somewhere found thoughts miracles appreciated typical st world country problems friends family say good stable life agree makes feel extra guilty struggle wanting exist everything every want done everything wanted know possessions experiences give life meaning lasting joy feel investing time notredflag family altruism gives joy maybe lazy selfish bword care enough feel emotionally messed want care want want heart feel nothing want wanting nothing life ill never love myselfi want live anymore many issues cant seem solve problems suicidal thoughts coming back droves amp really want kill lately become smarter better version cant believe find right partner love want suffer anymore work amp suffer william love amp gave every time think ive cried tears return think know anymore hate free time mysel introspect much cant sleep night anxiety man love respect really always pretty face mediocre brain work hard exactly need something numb madness watch game thrones free hbo membership expires tomorrow im finished cant stop thinking mortalitythoughts mortality keeps looping head non stop point trying live happy life die anyway know stupid thought death comes everyone eventually everytime try something care people anything thought spring mind baby born matter one day die best friend getting married cares die one day fun enjoying hobby whats point im going die hear horrible murder news well person going die anyway im agnostic know happen us die thought atheist potentially right though terrifies makes everything unimportant worth die one day exist cursed knowledge death thoughts lead nihilistic thinking know see life meaningful anymore im afraid caring humanity due thought die everyone thought humanity die often wonder seeing truth life everyone pretending immortal know past losing hope kinds community service activities done recently im trying come ideas small community service activities college club corona making difficult find things guys suggestions done anything fun helpful every time go cycle happiness depression keeps getting worse keep going rest life want better mind says know help anymore first time considered suicide life scared going emotions die head hurts much crying want stop cycle stop jorge dont come school tomorrow tomorrow friday many fricking times say jorge act lockdown wasnt real vacation either thanks looks see peoples profile pictures avatars next comments everyone gon na see cringeass profile picture uugghhh gon na hard getting kind respect death chariotdeath chariot whose horse reign asunder life fleeting lightning thunder death temptation give abyss tears shed missed death jester laughs cry reaching trivial lust die death summary fear cry sweetheart shed tear post gets breathe know difficult feat bruh need breathe help please cant anymorei always felt place everyone friend groups always feel im spectator rather player guess im bad person deserve feel way even people try say nice things deep know bullshit think last much longer die someone bury dont whats difference gives damn huh thus philosophy life lack summed less classic nevertheless fun spin sergio leones dollars trilogy opening scene three obviously evil gunmen ride western town menacing glares intimidate pathetic normal people hiding homes observant watcher notice three bears striking resemblance characters leones dollars one guy eastwoods poncho one lee van cleefs black suit one seeming act gian marie volontes indio movie guys sooner ride town gunned someone even cooler mysterious bounty hunter known simply strangerbr br altogether different storybr br obvious copying leones good bad ugly three gunmen vying hidden treasure bounty hunter mexican bandit stranger george hilton supercool bounty hunter penchant shooting people dressed priest reward bandit monetero gilbert roland moneteros gang steals three hundred thousand gold coins stranger gets sidetracked normal line workbr br round trio edd byrnes corrupt bank executive clayton wants money money hidden away man knows gets shot clue hiding place medallion shows family crest game find treasure anyone gun playbr br plenty gunfights fist fights double crosses action takes three ultimate showdown ripoff three way draw hidden treasure ala good bad ugly twistbr br movie good leones films course end gives damn huh movie fun s nihilism spaghetti western style rules enduring loyalties right wrong treasure whatever takes though movie classic ending surely hey maybe along hundred thousand piecebr br spaghetti westerns check one fast furious worth look name evren buyruk crestline california carbon monoxideis best painless option plan burn coal wqrm io place makes dizzy sleep seen yet really dvd cant believe much enjoyed amazingly realistic believable true much speculated liked known speculative proven facts many handles everything quite well cruel mother nature theme remind nature programs seen animal planet discovery channel animals dinosaurs act natural eat kill mate play fight survival actually find rooting othersbr br part effects excellent times look little much cgis see different angle makes look realistic cases actually convinced seen dinosaur favorites coelophysis raptors diplodocus iguanadons allosaurus arctic bipeds disappointed trex looked little computer generated timesbr br case definitely see production educational well made entertaining people legs pee ive lost everything know turn days ago everything fine girlfriend years talking getting ready go pick month old son left house come back soon laid took bit nap woke suddenly panic felt soetching wrong tried call answer tried text answer called parents house told started franking point know going ok sitting home still waiting something anything hear knocks door ran upstairs see anyone asked replied policeand coming opened door went told charged assualt uttering death threatsand fears babys safety know think say anything understood rights put cell tell place cleaning stuff really believe thoughtthe night ends finally posting bail walking back home well stuff babies stuff gonethis blue fine happened allowed contact go near families place tried call multiple times understand even little boy lawyer appointment set wednsday want se baby sad still want girlthis girl put hell come im scared scared child know feel choice redflag point really want se baby bad know know anymoreim married ive married long time pretty bad lot met best friend thick thin meanwhile husband bad husband great father fall love best friend meet best friend best time entire life yes know cheated know even though husband ok know bad person know made bad choices tell husband prior love anymore want divorce even know take skills money job best friend says ready move miles cant sell house etc takes time know says things make second guess everything meanwhile husband trying wanting go counseling wanting fix everything fantastic really different person toward says slapped sense want live without every time touches kisses stop thinking best friend know deep cant alone right now know long going take best friend anything said things said make second guess everything tell cant kid kid needs normalcy stability friend says okay cant talk good long im losing someone love damn much best friend honestly ive always wanted die life day shitty amplified one call attractive cute nice pretty call amusing besides samantha new years eve im alone feels inevitableive depressed months meds work little bit stop feeling hopeless theres nights lay bed sob sleep tried asking friends one wants spend time obviously ive tried talking one friends says head perceptions filtered depression change fact want around either fact couple months ago others said theyd come birthday one showed devastating almost went night acted apologetic think want responsible cut thanksgiving christmas spent alone im slightly estranged entire family except mother point im hanging solely made mistake opening depression sounded truly concerned might one person miss want hurt im tired hurting im tired time everything takes effort know go im scared im starting scared living know much endure theres lot going shitty job debt bad making friends nothing interests etc already longer thought mentioned im tired think ill go work tomorrow everyone great time without ill jump front train od sleeping pills walk lake anything cold take even water doesnt might best mom know sure intentional important truth people agree reading book called zero one peter theil might already read wrote ask questions everyone hiring people answer two things true rare example truth x everyone believes y gave example wrong answers following god one give theoretical proves gods existence inexistence education system many flaws needs changes true many people agree ampxb correct answer follows madness rare individuals larger amount people gather together rule example parties nations everyone thinks socialism help humanity truth privatisation help us obscure de sica delivers goods said meek inherit earth tale classes surface really allegory homeless people populated europe great war homeless cheerful societies impoverished selfish care acknowledge footmats italian carpetbaggers de sica chooses tell fairy tale cinderella story read book based foresay deus ex machina construct writer vittorio begins words upon time exemplify timelessness tale story set anywhere everywhere caricature sketches aristocracy cut bone whimsical nature homeless especially begin grant wishes ending right spielberg picture makes boulange delight de sicas accessible picture one best abandoning neorealism always dallied pure good old filmmaking creates movie breaks heart time fills yearning hope one needs continue leaving world gracias vittorio gracias gracias gracias hey redflag watch family im checking homeless shelter going nicely new city im staying many kind donators keep us fed clothed shelter assigned case manager help stay track focused toward getting feet helping apartment ive met interesting people friendly towards far hangout chit chat garden watch court cases together p love love love guys guys isnt cool coincidental born planet thats far away enough sun us burn far away dont freeze living environment generally speaking perfect reason places humans made way access exact resources need survive food water fresh air coincidence exist another planet hate health teachers self important im sorry class isnt life changing really isnt monumental youre touch dont grounds teaching us honestly normally wouldnt rag teacher bc theyre probably hard time anyways health teacher trump supporter doesnt believe social distancing actively encouraged people go see movies theaters go beach dont feel bad today spent minutes calling ppl class cameras annoying shit ive listen know knife game take knife split fingers go around fast yeah im always scared using knifes uncle stabbed hand times never failed want kill myselfwill propranolol mg x tabs x mg zolpidem enough someone weighing lbs hey anything im lonely everyday im lonely cant go outside corona im introvert friends school friend plush pig got always serious face sad face smiled anything im lonely really lonely anyone talk acid made super paranoid feel every person playing trick almost unconsciously bullying know probably acid feel really low low many times life never girlfriend kills everyday solid friend point life people suffer feels kind hell trapped feeling really rn took acid last night still recouping feel losti decided im going start writing things noteson phone similar journal started tonight ive feeling pretty bad lately tonight made everything worse id looking little bit never commenting posting seeing others finding hope finally posting something first entry journal really know im looking even know respond really know anything anymore im new probably good dont seem good anything really ill give shotlol kinda big fight fianceewanted take names whole thing almost ended feeling bad awhile now least months money sucks big surprise friends busy want play videogames find boring now spent much money nice computer cool stuff playing games awhile back really enjoyed sitting room alone playing friends give time day outside playing another game anyway back tonight think died mother big stack cash shotun loaded hands hours ago didnt want couldnt obviously im writting despite wanting feel everyone win idk texted come stairs sat reason even got heard coming didnt want see gun even though heard thats came course probably thinks im monster going shoot feel im monster one likes cant control theres key moment life something head forces fuck act asshole ive bed hrs now last hour ive dark staring table dark cant really see anything trittium sights glowing dark definitely staring back dont want cant feel even think wanted couldnt theres way traumatize im getting mad self right even thinking possibility forcing see blood stuff place worst part thisfor least im huge gun guy love going range even cleaning guns feel ask help im risking losing one things brings pure joy im going bed im sure ill check later point hate im sorry know kind place im great writing expressing feelings im sure lot seems dumb yall idk really know stop typing feel justify everything said keep typing hoursthis post taking minutes journal copy paste part problem really wish feel feel need someone talk time think woukd commit redflag even though feel solution time probably better spent talking someone another post rice purity score live shell life might kill myselfbeen contemplating killing now mental health deteriorating rapidly past couple years dont know cope every day tiring seems im wasting breath point im sick feeling lonely miserable hopeless knowing end life makes feel less victim mental health makes think finally end pain whatever might weeks go actually ive got couple things need done im still debating write note leave sort explanation wanted update water heres one yeah drinking two sip im drinking gallon four water bottles hear water stomach jiggling stomach hurts lot tell want need help hw bio need answers ecology webquest biology due minutes front page trophic level pyramid rly feel fuck audio work im somewhat ok video editing tf audio work happines disqussion introduce im year old guy currently enlisted army almost major successes life growing pretty normal kid friends fun hang parks everything normal kid started growing glasses due vision best didnt really care forst become small inconvenience really big deal though anyway dont really know happenned year old puberty hit train got totally messed looking old man young kid time time started getting fat didnt notice first enough make want work teenage life tried multiple sports gyms avail leaving pretty much empty handed quit started lose interest everyone kept telling keep working everything fine alas wasnt didnt care dirty didnt clean got fatter uglier didnt friends anyone really talk really wasnt didnt thing someone worthy happines couldnt find happines anything tried dissosicated life turned finished school got university got first car money worked thought freedom blessing find something everyone experiences though really happines achieve mediocre goal didnt feel happy still dont multiple redflag attemps afraid even continued living without energy anything arrive today still cant find happines im ugly never find love think waste oxygen cant put anything working cleaning anything cant find happines im antisocial coward cant focus something actually happines doesnt seem reachable im unable happy bad enlightened mindset help friends advice good sparking live others helped others darkest shit know ups downs ins outs still keep slipping mode self destructive behaviour keep saying going end killing know people love hit everyone train probably think great say happiness gone mind numb suffered physical pain spine dental problems trouble eating swallowing things work waiting operation totally aware case much good around grateful effort spent trying give boost living society holiday booked still hope turned reddit turn anyone bring worry lost soul diagnosed depression generalised redflag got older symptoms grew worse suffered numerous traumas bereavement parent via murder emotional abuse parent neglect rape seeing someone die right front abandoned aged highly traumatised events diagnosed mental disorders including complex redflag went small school children mental behavioural difficulties started college education beyond primary school age yrs old stopped educatedi still put maths english gcses despite lack education got c english f maths still know fuck thought mixed construction engineering course college months failing maths sad truth picked course women boys department nobody class maths acsi maths first year alongside level course failed second year level course help kind teacher managed c mathsduring actual course struggled hard non practical exams practical ones weak never even held drill life tried hard learn cry practical day tuesday teachers know full background obviously severely scarred body obvious self harm uncle next kin obvious easy come hrs early spent summers working workshop learn barely passed first year second year well rd year top classin second third year volunteered local charity shop every saturday helping general stocking shelves talking customers contributing helping private charity taking care abused dogs felt confident enough study particular niche type engineering university coursei dropped within months cope different teachers much harder work different classemates development painful chronic pain conditionmy life spiralled running money ashamed go onto benefits attempted suicidei went onto benefits eventually finally diagnosed months going drs pain told take ibuprofen eventually moving different gp surgery referred specialist given painkillers years pip universal credit took years psychiatrist given kinds antidepressants antipsychotic actually told need therapy took years begging referred psychology service starting emdr next week waiting treatment waiting years pain clinic suggest course actionyet hate judge around judge burden society never worked actual job redflag spent years working bad sometimes even leave house self harm started stopped years many medications many drs expressed concern diabetic think related untreated pcos spent years particular antipsychotic still know type even care anymore pay pre payment card mountain prescriptions feel guilty ashamed tick universal credit optioni hate life turned sick anxious depressed traumatised change anything burden society cant anymorei downed half bottle tylenol got situation pushing redflag still suicidali still take great comfort owning item know end life whenever desire hear somewhat painlessly suicidal perceived ambition pursue mathematics going crushed still ive given time sit exams many reasons main one cant feeling terrible person ive made mistakes people forgiven ive spent sleepless nights crying mistakes made efforts never make constant guilt shame makes extremely depressive person im seeing therapist bipolar know isnt disorder talking cant find peace anything let alone feeling satisfaction content best people consider rumination moping perpetually self hating depressed know make people love show love low theyre around somewhat contagious know world better place without breaks heart say initial period suffering killing cause parents girlfriend break forever rippling effect last rest lives better live zombie trying numb possible outwardly minimise risk infecting people melancholy much hate seems pathetic existence going terms ive realised much always make strides others life life spite voice behind redflag take care hope others struggling thread know going life temporaryit pass know ive lower points life making risky decisions drinking drown sadness wanting take care need take responsibility making shift life make better oi mates discord server friends trying new peoplee chat send memes play games minecraft among us overwatch stuff going commitment guys girls welcome dm link d helpanyone preferably age free open frank conversation via dm please teacher forced changed seats fucking hate sit far right corner cant see shit whiteboard im legally blind specs aint much help things perfect sat middle center table fucking stupid reason forced change seats sat next friend bitch quiet whole time classes talk friends recesses fucking teacher sees problem thats even change others seats theyre ones loud fuck fuck opinions anarchy someone tells theyre anarchist say return damn one girls class said feminine features feels good tbh im one tells stuff tothis made day tho fucking donemy dad night irrational hypocrite doesnt fucking idea talking hurts deeply nicest guy day fucking done bullshit give problems family shit one argumentwhen right mom cant say anything fight mention brother sister rewarded fucking shit stirrers friends dont give fuck punching bag doesnt deserve wouldnt care disappeared grandparents thing keeping afloat ship sinking rapidly want end done unforgiving world hate bullshit want cant stand iti cant go want go badbut cant leave boyfriend cats experienced lot trauma childhood still affects day dad killed toddler mom everyone raised shunning decided want jehovahs witness anymore lost people chronic mental physical illnesses im pain physically mentally every day able keep job cleaning job several years lost moved away different city im relying people live im extremely underweight hard eat unless im medicated even enjoy meals trying choke past anxious knot throat hate body look skeleton teeth poor condition problems neglect im joke peers feels people around see loser look im accomplishments feel proud want source love light people around weight heavy im selfish place feel guilty think ending lot afraid survive face people disappointed survive partner know much kind loss hurts feel trapped want kill even know whymy life good mother loves love friends love wonderfull boyfriend love go law school hard stresfull home really serious problem little problems mostly economical problems nothing impossible overcome yet find crying everyday im sad time im alone okay im around friends laugh tell jokes boyfriend im happy everytime im alone start crying started even public sometimes public transport example cant stop even know im crying sad cant find single reason want want live life happy every time want disapear times tried kill backed mostly mother cat mother left alone think kill want happen want happy sometimes feel cant live anymore know try stay possitive tell lot reasons live seem work try new things find new hobbies distract think bad things nothing works feel im getting worse everyday want tell friends boyfriend know worried cant help know even money go therapist ive years now bad cried times week thought killing often said gettin worse pregressively couple months every day crying times day even know describe feel sadness frustration depends mostly exhausting feel mannage stop crying relax feel tired single drop energy left still go school every day eat normal things think im really bad im afraid someday tired kill want happen know english first language actually third one im sorry wrote things bad expressed bad know may problems grammar im aware lot people may situation really grateful give kind advice manage feel better stop sad whatever try see helps thank reading first appointment monday know expect expect first meeting psychiatrist theory cousins spacetoon homies theme song lit start school tomorrow big sad ngl school stinky poo poo head yall show parents apparently really helps lower electric bill check seems really helpful edit fuck actually httpswwwquoracomwhatareyourpowervoltenergysaverreviewsisitascamoralegitelectricitypowersaver advice please long post ahead hi sorry bit long desperate long track history mental health issues physically disabled didnt explicitly tell anyone moved use walking stick moved shared house last month careful moved chose estate felt safe living two girls similar age lots common thought good match week things started go wrong eldest g way communicating different mine nagging using lot passiveaggressive language talking felt talking found getting angry im grownass adult know take bins etc friction sofa made things tense wanted sofa already special armchair didnt understand need sofa close tv spoiler boyfriend partially sighted vision great either told lockdown hit talked seeing boyfriends everyone lives shared houses youngest m said wanted still see told said left really spoken know seeing wales ive trying make peace baking social ideas know suggested movie night said want hang us took things shared space ive struggling sofagate plus id already falling behind work taking sick days knew keep paranoia awful point convinced someones tampering food scared someone watchingfollowing didnt tell didnt knowtrust saturday accidentally opened package ms thinking mine text say sunday landlord came visit clean things living room beforehand overslept woke panic went downstairs massive apology g landlord home fell asleep woke texts g nagging mail lost apologised offered replacement said crossing line complete lack respect berated cleaning belongings landlord texted g asking angry cleaning many texts decided final straw thoughts impossible silence called fast forward staying boyfriends got text g missing tupperware later sent photo bin saying hope picture helps everybody remember led telling happened receiving massive angry texts trigger something say call house meeting g said told moved ive mental health issues family similar issues didnt sign chimed agreed said stop texting call needed kept texting next day asked plans told owe contacted landlord really fucking angry please reply see many thanks anyone see post think mods disabled posts viewed others want die failed good koreani want die got math im korean really bad school today tried hang guy pulled rope hate life cut upper left arm mess failure im stupid korean want die im sorryim sorry must go im sorry waste space im sorry anyone im sorry one trust im sorry everyone hates must go carry leave life behind make everyone happy going away im sorry wont graduate college im sorry person people look im jackass im sorry life short people im sorry wasting world resources im sorry living wasting away m today day go one stop today well leaving morning might change mind highly doubt cause everyone hates goodbye everyone must go live somewhere good night every time happiness skyrockets feel fucking awesome comes halt self hatred anger disgusting intrusive thoughts comes back plummets im back started cycle right now feel happiness slowly coming halt yeah excited whats come wasted years lifesoon months started learn skill id way behind learned nothing people say possible wasted fucking live fast short life useless body mind join gang die fast hard goddamn years lost want art digital first drawingbut even try making progress good artist started fucking one ill always pathetic want die die living high paced life fuck pathetic good gang military cares die never late never late yes fucking ill never goddamn years back useless fucking leech good people something trained young yet fucking anything fuck point live mobile homeenuf said checked post history holy crap anyways anyone wan na chat drift wonderland anyways looked post history alllll sub always night always loneliness odd innit woke sweat remembering rapei havent sleeping well lately lately almost years days ive self harmed im tired tried reaching people life love support feels im bugging things everyone life dont want mine last week made passive choice stop fighting first time think really going reasons nobody miss memy family moved country parentssiblings permanent residents another country access plane ticket prices covid restrictions foreigner live funny even tell moving got passports renewed two months college left yes think good reason believe death impact daytoday life immediate family old friends barely talk job coworkers live ex soon move going contact nobody legitimately miss way actually meaningful fact bet go month dead somewhere nobody notice important said job friends partner anything going life even pets depend anything find work assume skills education useless current market nothing offer anybody want id say least important one still matters true reason want prospects future looks bleak id rather control death even control life justifications leave apartment ex longer expects hear find peaceful place away everybody say goodbye world say good really best tried hard long time think nothing offer anybody anything world different without posting think fair tell anybody irl want quiet exit want explain reasons really appreciate jungwon done death everything want say choice love unselfish chose darim good darim need time recover death obviously want let happen film chose giving temporary agony darimbr br comparison life without different behavior shows big difference eastern culture western culture say better every one right choose totally life equal everybody live choice acceptable think fit youbr br truth slow pace film excuse rejecting movie calm moviebr br one best korean movies watched pe straight people subject bruh always put much effort anyone want play minecraft server minecraftingaternosme version cracked heres night im sitting airport waiting flight leave everything behind disappeari deal anger fear episodes panic disorder anxiety disorder etc family everything today bad episode mom yelled makes pull hair scratch bleed unknown rash thats spread arms starting way back chest fear hurting mother today attack took everything packed decided leave decided im safe meds havent helped whole year breaking point theres nothing world thats heartbreaking telling little brother loves anything last time youll see im still crying noises airport making shake uncontrollably making itch bleed spots later today go say goodbye everyone love home grew dont feel safe wouldnt live hurt someone loved control still redflag choose die voluntary dehydrationi need list reasons im considering thats relevant question need someone tell reasons keep fighting keep going want want keep going anybody considering please dont gets better story inside longi normal childhood much little boy whose father walked age mother worked double time odd jobs make ends meet keep roof heads food table little brothers graduated hs went onto college meet thought love life wasnt virgin hadnt w lot women either anyway met began year romance relationship w included graduating college getting first apartment together getting married little girl together one night middle dad cant say happened theories sleep deprivation moodiness problems within marriage got physical w nothing horrible always hear enough pressed charges tried take daughter bruise bicep grabbed left nail marks neck etc blood busted bones damaged furniture scared lost wife newborn daughter months time job local news printing allegations apartment lease moved took everything either bought together gifted wedding baby shower moved back w mother age days trying strong endure never ending relentless pain made horrifying decision one night write redflag notes leave pin debit card wedding band wallet passenger side vehicle walked nearest overpass ft sent goodbye text wife called brother let know loved closed eyes fell hit cement w impact knew injured pretty bad tried standing position hip buckled laid bridge w oncoming traffic passing next hours degree weather passing consciousness mother knew something wrong issued missing persons report emts found loaded gurney never screamed loud life knew back severely messed slid board underneath cold didnt even register pulse machines passed ambulance way icu first time waking remember seemed time giant heated pool cover kept days finally stabilized well back brace keep shattered pelvis hip together administered every two hours w dilaudid pic line says half life medicine hours believe tell seemed wore much quicker days finally went emergency surgery routine surgery lasted hours go complications pelvis shattered right side w incomplete break tailbone broken ribs two lower lumbar vertebrae shattered back surgery right lung collapsed put onto rebreather overnight week recovery mind still dosed every hours w dilaudid equivalence street heroin barry eating lost lbs took weeks every level hospital back health went icu emergency surgery recovery rehab behaviors heath unit voluntarily signed hour hold happy say incident months ago got back gym gained frame muscle back living better life well first due june fathers day guess came say thought couldnt worse wrong right help support things much better please value life live wild way takashi miikes later films good crime drama br br basic story story cop japanese cop chinese parents trying take coming chinese mobster complicating things younger brother acting lawyer villain gang film actually much complicated several complications keep things interesting distract things central narrative thrust complication loss way hour film makes less great filmit good one definitely worth seeing especially mind frantic pacebr br word warning violence happens explosive nasty semigraphic depictions gay sex thats cup tea proceed cautionbr br goodbyeim m tired things going hill every attempt something gone horribly wrong im scared even happy realize nothing help everything seems go better nothing family seems happy friends much better without looks world better without trying dont remember much high school every mistake ive made everything horrible ive seen sister pull knife mom elementary school twice apparently ive seen attempt redflag boyfriends breaking parents want work hard athletic work school well cant every attempt help hasnt gone anywhere past hour asking okay dont reason couple keep living friend really good hes brother know hell fine hes stronger mentally physically crush im know doesnt way thats kind way now video games dont give much happiness anymore fast lose game anything ive planning four years now thing thats stopped note people care believe better leave know words misleading ive lost appetite think ill enjoy ice cream final snack thank everyone trying pov told mum joke lecture im even fucking joking im finna stop making jokes closeted transgirl conservative grandfather well parents opening social transition comming weeks buying new clothes comming school today parents surprised random visit grandfather girlfriend usual started asking things life going keeps referring male sometimes even asks girlfriend gets meet well parents know actually open conservative man begin trouble mixed race chocolate grows one statements back subject interact older relatives time parents cousins avoid grandfather aunts uncles go never birthday parties dare real self problem grandfather fragile old man know girlfriend going visit us surprise dead ignored five years cant hold back situation hey uhh im bored feel click guys read story wrote years back tell ill post profile linking post another face seaso amagain try point life sucks constant struggle things choice many responsibilities things need done want none want zero responsibilities want anything want support want work fifty years afford food shelter want constantly alone conflict alive means address problems nothing option thats want want nothing choice im alive im going things want thats life want connect ideas want life amount pain experiencing immeasurable cant take think fair say getting truly want alive impossible urgesthe urge slash wrists open intenseits painful fuck problemsi want want fuckin solve want stop ask choose want care care make stop descent madnessas look back life see failure failure one another kid fought time tiniest kid around getting picked regardless still picked hell sometimes someone literally rub cow shit overalls shop class regardless thats reason view life failure failure society consider first failure came got rejection letter rejection letter different schools dumbass procrastinated submissions lead joining military father said going fail way kind right joined military picked drinking fish water got legal issues got honorably years shape drinking habit go combat see time much accomplishment tell maybe believe besides one biggest mistakes come right military three months got working shit job retail store brother convinced start school fucking itt tech really need tell thats failure right anyways deep realized probably quit itt ended getting associates degree transferring actual state university continue studying found associates degree useful blank piece paper start square one called failure number three number two came year form dui drinking habit picked failure number four come year starting university via totaled car wrecking car left messed regardless though quit drinking months started back continued onto several incidents one went road almost totaled car drinking involved drunk let friend drive car didnt drink resulted blown engine useless car failure number buy dollar truck money fix car realize im good major chose leads failure number eventually graduate years two cars later one ive replaced blown engine roll year later months surgery call failure number time im sure drinking caused wreck tried kill point im feeling worse breathalyzer beat truck im seriously thinking hanging right wreck tell brother go ahead take gun range keep house longer trust trust alcohol wreck stop drinking touched drop months ago failure number came via failure submit forms resulting raise rent thus move point depression officially diagnosed im starting antidepressants yet im still distracted mind somewhere thats wrecked truck find insurance lapsed license suspended point im thinking one thing end go freeway call brother help completely break car thoughts jumping stealing gun kept running head jumping traffic hanging somewhere seemed theme way february start new job basically placed little hope left tried best seemed going succeed become permanent employee three weeks ago go meeting im told numbers average theyre going extend temp time days later email friday night telling go work temp contract ended theyve chosen hire full time depression going full swing getting news via email help keep thinking thoughts im unemployed seems taking bigger toll expected meds somewhat work thoughts still follow im tied need someone know developing crush guy met reddit lmao kinda embarrassing hella cute opportunity watch filming slavic villagebroadway area wait see final copybr br viewing film cleveland premier last fridayi laughed loud comedy long time great slapstick russo brothers fine job directing entire cast performs best comedic acting slow dry segments george clooney one favorite actors hes great crippled safe breaker flick imprest william h macy crook riley michael jeters toto keep stitches believe funniest roles entire movie triggered metoday found father ex best friends died shocked sad even tho friends anymore still feel bad last months thought something happened parentswell probably die right reality hit truck death father showed reality basically living parents terrifying besides one cares anyone care years old horrified life main thing live hate much participate hobbies stuff need live good life feel empty guilty everyone privileges want never wanted mdder live real world escape fantasies instead shit anything anyone sacrifice others go work helpful maybe ghandi mother teresa similar kind helpful going live want familyhusbandwife kids partners friendsi live othersthe general society someone hate myselfmy monolog structured jumped one thought anotherit long probably worth time goes hate empty always say wrong things always care wrong people managed make people hate actually liked beginning thing call self even persona social mask person vessel filled contradicting emotions empty without identity even tho searched whole teenage life never ambitions future plans besides killing dreams ideas future saw unreachable gaved leaving head instead making reality well technically dead inside now cry shout someone always one shouted right piece shit going lie pretend still hurts trying good always something wrongi fucking stupid pathetic bad person naturally suck even decent person felt guilty behaviour went school months made lot trouble etc punish provoke finally attempt suicide obviously one knows care know fucking gross meits going embarrassing teenage years unhealthy obsessed love person lot crushes three specific hate obsessive behaviour disgusting embarrassing basically always long crush someone longest three years instead going crush idk one month asking befriending stalked social media etc seems fine tried meet person town purposefully went thought might next delsuion person rescue see shit skins example infamous effy two guys trying help rescue inspired movies shows unhealthy attachment stamps everyone hating ignoring assumed person save normal life particular person one cared even tho friends heck friends cared less person seemed genuinely concerned person first even bother friendly seeing cared resist developed feelings started crave persons attention love partly still extend obsessed emotions made makes behave narcissist maybe one emotions ruled life nothing mattered person eyes loved love filled void self hatred created wanted badly rescue life obsession came hate personality happened ugly dumb lol waste air yes plain jane hope look better even tho empty inside vessel becomes pretty people annoy menegative harrassment bullying anymore dumb part self explanatory lot way lazy write now edit post something new comes mindbtw sorry english native speakeredit typos vent hate take kind im backhey guys im back ive home weeks sinus surgery im going back boarding school sunday im really depressed urge whenever opportunity comes kill might run away one thing stopping life ahead whole future set im going inheriting large sum money im older figure life great another thing stopping happens death anyone available chat im interested people believe happens death please comment pm typical happy hour cocktailall physicians might see course several months treating different things wind perfect makings amitriptylene cocktail youd think someone pick rx combination even time someone risk yo recent college grad struggling w severe treatment resistant depression yrs tried dozen meds dbt cbt residential amp iop programs alike amp done tms w little success moved back w parents amp c way ill b depressed amp useless amp live w forever feel fate telling time die weak even psychiatrist wants ect want risk memory loss comfortable w dying still hope sending love struggling lt think time die hv strength im going hang hours goodbye redditits great knowing dad accidentally sent text talking bruh know react bc fucking hilarious humiliating time ngl try anything anything think anything end want kill myselftoday way home visited good friend caught spiral thinking able treat girlfriend decently depressed bad days dream family think need reason try better dead another dream mine become engineer although passed tests semester able go lecture class went took exam cant around people thats pretty much never electrical engineer thus want die cant fight battle alone even though tried years now hard scream help marked someone needs attention sometimes seems people think therapy fun always smiling kind defense mechanism makes want end life end alone sick tired rejected withyoure nice guy looking someone right now afraid tell good enough need wait painful years something obviously happen know friends understand mental illness definitely support system way talk someone reddit makes want die nobody know cares shit honestly blame nobody likes looser society definitely losing life maybe timeim sure im looking wanted maybe constructive criticism last months ive struggled bed single parent mother died last year really shook fathom empty made feel think kind first step long year months moms death met girl intelligent interesting interested attractive instantly chemistry keep hands sex first night saw fast forward month girl im seeing death family mom think caused weird sort energy relationship really think things gone differently constantly support met family shoulder cry months thought time maybe help problems didnt think made resent sad know death unimaginably brutal every person way think really changed became completely reliant around needed attention constantly give time grieving wrong rude girl anything definitely considerate listen whenever want talk never remembers often changes subject sadness seems open shut case right one thats okay serious time now somewhat recuperating death mother still love really way care human want hurt worse needed say yet dont even consider feelings want kill remember first night met great passionate night gave herpes feel cant girl feel stuck im necessarily looker thats sure feel putting hsv positive dating website probably work im constantly torn girl completely alone taking easy way know thats never answer im rational guy feels anymore truly feel every single aspect life screaming everything seems hopeless im sure turn mom gone give silver lining cant find one tldr mom died put depression met girl whose mom died immediately began rough relationship felt obligated care wishing gave herpes feel pick anymore dumb storyjust typing form therapy guess tried kill lighting house fire dont remember anything told fifteen days induced coma months burn unit half body burned arrested arson taken psych ward local jail denied medical attention dragged court seeping pus theres lot story gives fuck charged worst possible level crime equivalent capital murder bargained state jail felony whatever means released jail approximately months spent almost years homeless probation court breathing neck expecting pay money dont means im disability living apartment provided housing charity still probation officer wants put back jail every day nightmare life keep living dont know guess point try kill better done right one cares youll live rot fuck deal selfconscious hey fellow teens probably worth time need vent mind skip anyway ampxb went secondary school feeling shit almost years ago hear insults back forth easier mainly due friends insult berate make fun feel powerless team feel excluded came gay recently proud make fun still exclude birthday parties meetups going town group chats group chats hating always think joke back mind really know say shit always small weak look gross poor straggot whatever tf means terrorist im brown muslim faith voice high pitched facial hair never find love make fun last name butt even fair handed pronounced spelt literally butt hear shit creative ugly skinny eat something bones remember time utubiey insert embarrassing cringy thing past stinky teeth gross feel shit hate person see mirror much actively try look mirris cause hate hate teeth hate braces hate glasses hate skin colour hate faith hate height hate voice hate face hate eyes hate last name used idgafy extrovert starting conversation new people try make new friends meet new people fear see flaws see reason feel much shittier somewhat bearable one thinks shit know closest friends think breaks granted best friend either first years deny say insult back theses last almost im giving agree insults ive made sure stop insulting made worse fucked second main friend group first one excluded berated jazz go fun shit spam picture fun feel fucking power feel im horrible even outside school hang online friends new guy recently joined every one likes insults skill shit much racist shit hear every day hate taking photos see self see list flaws ampxb anyway thanks coming ted talk happened user goodbyeannonymousi reading little girl wanted take life years ago anyone know managed bridge family together leave behind safetysake therapy forced disclosure diewould therapist disclose information talked kill whats deal forced disclosure redflag family sort inquiry able find talking id rather stuff die moment people surprised commited redflag feel invasion privacy found private thoughts live australia btw many cans drunk lbs im lbs want know much need drink im bored lonely need friends groupchats shit posting memes talking anime dope nerd shit commit redflag mondaymy situation pity asked raise job listed position higher salary increase send email person resposible forward manager set meeting monday angry email think fire mei working months working one half year contractor nothing left life sucks job dedicated sure none appreciate highly debt fired kill want now angeri feel extreme anger resentment towards every aspect life especially today wish die thoughts go away feeling please text facebook details texthey guys letting strong tuff motherfuckers nothing one bring u im physically addicted alcohol opiates u cramps feel sick till u take drug anyway live alone shed see one go nowhere depressed shit everyday guess life goes said im lost mates overdoses older brother redflag pain depression u give people kill another level homeless months last year months year ive locked juvenile detention times ive bashed times count ive robbed ive held nights taken away druggo parents yrs old ive pretty muched lived streets around brisbane ran away foster parents last thing want take life want show hope people n letting definitely alonei personally rather live beside creek eating drugs till die killing anyone blue yellow white black fat skinny tall short whatever thats feeling well wants talk im remember im lonely u scared text feel free add facebook name jake elchapo picture holding rifle please im begging u text fuck schooleveryone tells important future whatever wan na fucking die dont want future im bored give shit anything oh sorry dropped iphone pro max gb memory ahhskwkaodk kakifudhe jajajdididue jahchydgebsh beautiful reflection lifes desperation misdirection finding love tragic time absurdly entertaining people give film chance ignorance mere reflection next time call duty cold war playthrough come watch want watch thickchipmunkgamer twitch httpwwwtwitchtvthickchipmunkgamersra first two films johnny film many awards none prestigious cannes golden palm nominationbr br triad elects leader far 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emotional things honestly see killing logical alternative tomorrow go way think might court date tomorrow quite possibly ruin life background getting rid old truck uninsured unregistered died left side road going towed police found first gave three tickets insurance rego abandoning private property without consent im almost make less year fines depending big dick judge afford top insurance gon na skyrocket criminal record going keep school thus taking away whatever future might everything falling apart really see killing wrong parents able afford funeral finding meaning life accepting none udabutteryboy bro realized girlfriend man man girlfriend holy shit dont know landed damn fuckin cute beautiful man wan na cuddle shit man finally somehow landed went movie perhaps bit jaded hackandslash films rampant screen days boy surprised little treasure pleasantly paced somber dark atmosphere surprising yet limited amount blood actually shown good movies one leaves something imagination bill paxton superb job directing scenes shot inside car well done watching anatomy scene episode end video tape good see subtle yet wonderful things noticed intentional oh looks good keep type direction moody movie filled grimness still dark subject considerable portion filmed daylight even disturbing scenes acting exceptional okay ive always fan powers booth never goes top au contraire subdued works extremely well type film one area film lacks ending seems bit contrived still works simpler level without destroying mood message movie message something individual decides themself overall scale movie scores southern gothic genre ie body heat midnight garden good evil dont parents understand concept online games example playing valorant mid match unrated still mom came rooms door said go take trash dust room mom mid game cant right now wait minute said pause knew online game understand cant pause bro lie lotwhenever doctors people ask want hurt right always say wish wake lie ive spent hours hours researching ways kill effective know ill know nothing left feel end year give everyone clean slate new year fucking fuck depression fuckign fucking told stepdad depression shit went well im flurry fuckin emotion rn holy fuck fucking almost years years hell fucking told somebody actually help fuck yeah im losing shit want outim done trying happy tried consoling many medications ive lost track ive tried losing weight exercising ive tried talking hahahha funniest advice talk im blue face end day change anything still think killing every day seems need come terms fact never happy family really tired trying help blame last couple years told fine medication working cured ive pretty much lost control life friends thats exaggeration cant remember last time talked someone sleep day today slept hours doctors appointment refill medication overslept arrived minutes late see even though usually sit waiting room mins anyway maybe im cynical actually seemed pretty happy telling missed appointment somehow getting medication reward deserve told really important arrive time refill controlled substances next opening appointment week doctor told withdraw effects medication fine days went drop application apply major college hour late closed today deadline hahah probably thinking emotional really bad day thats going kill wrong feel anything maybe slightly happy might finally courage motivation finally end life cant take medication normal right dreams basically crushed major probably drop next year wake pm feel something right angry sad cant even bring cry pretty scary knowing literally cant bring care anything anymore guess sign need go guess stop bye need someone talk tothinking killing sometime now need someone talk noone ran across movie local video store yearly sidewalk sale scanning thousands videos hoping find cartoon movies sale came across movie read back movie knew gods hand work purchase movie see sibling group three foster soon adopted children living family immediately foster children made connection three children starring movie movie helped better understand circumstances first time oldest sibling group year oldfemale decided open little bit past trauma experienced fighting entire trust issue first time seen cry watching film asked meant child adopted replied means happy must see families fostering children considering adoption certainly opened lines communication us think ill die daysi think die days beacse suffering breathlessness world beautiful gon na miss love anyone know anything dependent personality disorderi formally diagnosed particular although ive diagnosed related problems anxiety depression strong feeling tick almost every single box ive never met anyone problem cant find anything reddit either except passing references someone ive cornered listening suggested post many different issues hard know one ends another begins seems one biggest feel utterly helpless make decisions life without someone guide care usually accomplish lowrisk lowpressure things posting internet anything even seemingly simple tremendously difficult mind constantly occupied thoughts alone year ive lost remaining serious reallife friend almost entirely result overdependence understand tiring others almost relationship family fear recently become reality every day gets harder harder accomplish even basic things lately feel forced circumstance habit going work anything optional less regular even things going grocery store become impossible ambition kind serious financial educational occupational family desires real goals life except surround people care rely desire ability carry thoughts frequently turn redflag many years inability act make decisions makes fearful actually following motivation might suppressed one issues depression ocd anxiety bodyimage problems maybe worst part words make anyone understand tried explain people left life depression anxiety aspects cant grasp overwhelming feeling powerlessness comes things think see sort helplessness people often feel depression ive experienced know difference enough peptalking usually motivated things depression something short new best friend falling sky cant think way solve becomes completely unbearable theres nobody near fill role need filled nobody ive met even relate anybody experience supposed lookin gaming buddies hi im looking someone play games cause gaming fun someone right games im currently playing rn league legends valorant apex legends overwatch im open suggestions tho guys post killing yet find excuses genuinely ask ways kill someone provide fake theory hard yet group literally called suicide watch basically posts kill unless someone comments gives solid reason someone comments feel proud saving someone life personally exactly point group brotheri know one see reason makes feel better posting unknown internet keeping inside im brother know single thing keeping alive something dont future hes bright hes funny everything going deserve grow burden dead older sister deserves everything good life grow without grow pain heart much want end wont comes hope understands trey parker matt stone creators show south park return something entirely differentthey create new sport combines baseball basketballthis sport known baseketballits basketball except rules baseball involved theres another letter e titleheres play shoot ball two guys try distract making shotsounds simplein fact might try one dayafter game hits streets soon becomes huge successwho wouldve known immature friends invent sport became successfulbr br opinionbr br baseketball crude silly spoof filled lots slapstick violence yet actually delivers laughs plenty entertainmenta definite recommendation slapstick rude humor mom continually pressures go outside im neet brother heavily overweight brother shutin got ta take shit frick grass every day nahahkeep deeprooted bs dont make rules biking trips multiple hours long summer go walks shorter bike rides winter wouldnt 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past years find hard make friends anyone know want friend awkward shy ugly nothing offer situation feel every interaction forced even try hardest still painfully obvious insecure wretch unemployed uneducated longer anyone talk besides councillor week sure really much either longer enjoy anything used interest even given music point want companionship feel ill never able attain become fucking numbed boring one wants befriend know want life feel real guidance destined work soul destroying jobs hate make miserablei feel alone unable anything feelings good enough constantly push people away fear might see way see even want try every time something good still manage fuck beyond repair end back square one life feel worth pain loneliness understand better feeling end rope think ive relapsing sure need help definitely need ventthis rant trigger warning anyone extremely vulnerable right now read ampxb little turn time longer time see psychologist medications never worked first place ive five years now theres friend around handle well family already enough checking hospital option projects miss send debt regardlesswhich course make things worse cant tell relapse depression depression pause couple months couple days really cant remember memory always returning fading lately ebbing receding slog cant seem keep track anymore years seemed mood swings changed seasons deteriorated months weeks days every morningevery moment random roll dice recognize feelings anymore think navigatedthe anxiety depression paranoia fear sorrow rage loneliness etc wake next morning im back square one whats hilarious im couchlocked bedridden cut everybody yeah perhaps slightly difficult bed mornings still ride bike still go gym four times week still practice yoga daily attend parties socialize eat healthy obsessively maintain creative hobbies work time yet miss class semester grades still bs debt major legal problems children addictions drink weekends touched cannabis year even rare occurrence due panic attacks touched drugs several yearsprescribed complaining every day want fucking end already walk mountains forest maybe onto coast somewhereill lie earth let nature take back everything dissolve back dust came continue sustenance things deserve every evening look mirror see disheveled man staring back grey beginning spring facial hair receding hairline blue eyes slowly losing spark life laugh fucking ass lift shirt hey abs still muscles cant stop checking still visible im fat thank god im fat hands still dexterous enough draw paint write crooked spine hips shoulders scream chronic agony mind rages hurricane despite best efforts eternally fixated wrong world everything wrong every reason idespite best painstaking effortshave utterly incapable fixing fucking life cant ridiculous hype doesnt feel great alive hahahahahaha im trapped movie foreseeable happy ending keep barely scraping past psychosis everyone around drudges mindnumbing shit dayin dayout try distract pissed point obvious finally crack admit sit back horror realize reality may closer real deal hoped laugh well stable friend year plan explains hopes deal overwhelming fact fucked decades drink edge alcohol poisoning game pool laugh sit floor hacking bile cant think romantic way end missionary wanderluster college wannabe artist lying next bed blood vomit gasping breath yet laughing brings back vitality suddenly im good go fucking perfect cant tell im still sometimes quite honest im beginning wonder downhill delirium insane lately end intelligence slowly dissipates return random times basic math gone writing skills bye bye science learned failed major history organization next chopping block incoherent babble nonsense spewing onto keyboard recall watching friend diagnosed bipolar disorder gradually slipping cognizance senile old manbut bright begin yet mom experienced similar deterioration took year onset devolved shooting caliber slug skull idiot ran business loving marriage took care three children perfect house perfect neighborhood socialized everyone doctors psychologists figure hell happened whatever malignant shit obviously blood ive come terms one hoping works maybe degree meet awesome girl fall love move pnw start anew overly strange guarded tendencies suddenly subside ill find way career love finally pieces gallery achieved within next couple decades course ive seen northernmost parts world yes fucking eyes anyone billionaire likely screwed maybe ill drive ruby beach spring string watching sunset know honestly seem way current situation death aside end finding kind internal misery end daunting struggle okay maybe chance scenario previously mentioned basically everything im aiming right now fails know unfortunately im past middle s according psychologists likely stuck terrifies beyond words perhaps insanity mental degradation escape regard though terrifying acid trips years ago taught anythingi shit show ifwhen mind slips completely frank im tired want storm inside end im talking jungian order vs chaos bullshit ive nature enough see chaos disrupted order stated simply wish rest head grass bark old tree let last breath let earth devour least month meditation mountains still keep breathing nervous system craves dissolution consciousness sex lights ecstasy whenever lucid enough think entertains unparalleled dreams beautiful places exist moments actually fall asleep tell escape thats obviously bullshit escape disintegration nothingness enticements nonetheless apparently nothing makes serotonin flow suicidal euphoria keeps alive hope new experiences artistic endeavors getting fucking degree finally familyespecially family seeing struggles one suicide already infuriating know hell willingly putting decide end last thing give throw abyss im scared want believe keep alive worth living ugly masculine fake womannobody gives fuck people even people fuck trans woman fetish im literally worthless know doim sure word one first reddit posts oh well im feel future everything seems make sadder know want commit redflag live life purpose existing ended yet want hurt anyone around make anyone feel mom feel sad life feels worthless edit closet gay reminded actually talk mental health issues sort traumatic history whoops talk support mental health awareness ladeeda people going leave hanging thread best reach actually say struggling bad posted reexperiencing trauma social media giving monthsif change gets worse im gone depression feels something lives corner room sometimes quiet silent watching wondering sometimes attacks without warning without advance destroys tears apart every possible way fighiting years yet seems always find place room monster facing hated pitted felt numb paralyzed hopeless screaming empty place possible things yet always place room monster watching till put mind okay oh fine gone already smiling fine finding next moment day time second breathe monster crawling looking ampxbsometimes feel becoming monster thoughts wasting money brother ordering japanese light novels cant read japanese kill make familyfriendsso sadi sorry spent whole life trying make others happy making happy restful may finally dying live others basically fun bmovie shepis absolutely beautiful scarecrow distinct original really brought back monsters s budget obviously low everybody pacino behind lens matter never takes seriously trailer trash redneck high flying martial arts moves scarecrow truly bmovie gem grab refreshments snacks couple friends kick back relax enjoyed film much went purchased scarecrow films sure theyre everybody sometimes set thinking cap smile fianc remembers lot together couple cant remember shit barely remember logins cant believe forgot everythingso yeah title expresses pretty much way home eating told play song played asked remember played th birthday got mad sheepishly said dont remember sorry kept saying remembers everything sat car felt horrible felt terrible forgot need feel real happiness havent felt kid ignorant world bubble protection now much drove eat saying take stuff granted maybe took life granted happy nothing us feel bad remembering becamethisthis badi havent really felt true happiness made want crawl cave kill forgot th birthday forgotten birthdays soon ill even forget th ive already forgotten th th bit blurry honest dont want forget anymore birthdays physically dont feel happiness feel pain forget good know im writing novel feel remember havent got slightest clue happiness forgotten friggin life im deep well thats rain way parents yell forgetting things remember fault actually brain isnt working depression doesnt cause deep sadness creates problems forgetfulness try try try damn near impossible feel maybe people forget exist forget past birthdays fianc proud remembering birthday even feel world doesnt need one wants anyways relation world anyway im another human another air taker resource guzzler im waste time im forgetful fuck feel needed maybe time leave earthz im love w floofy haired boys ok hate im lovely period watched tiktok super cute guy floofy hair dimples fyp started crying bc hes prob old lives miles away ended watching couples cute cuddle pillow basicly pretended pillow one floofy haired tiktok boy kissed pillow entire night anyways today took bath watched youtube hoe watched started kissing boyfriend got mad threw phone toilet hows ur day reasons stay alive personal collectionsince feeling better moment use momentum collect things enjoy deter commiting redflag listening rachmaninovs nd piano concerto watching dancing stars mum watching house md mum play niece nephew play zelda breath wild kiss woman sex use log happily accept suggestions posting jokes im depressed day theres nothing depressing failed redflag attempt took way many pillsive trying die longest time now today took ibuprofen tablets claritin got bored feel anything ordinary ill probably go day usual unless something changes family know thing day die hate parents talked told suicidali got fight parents reveled considered redflag know went hour long lecture selfish cowardly continued insulting forced say degrading shit sick know cowardly know people leave behind hurt cant help think time opinion theyll shove throat wished theyd fuck die please check subs rjohncena rpotatosalad trust ive considered redflag realized make things worseim older teenager things going pretty damn rough lately quite ive never wanted endure pain dying considered jumping oncoming traffic overdosing pills week ago realized make things worse still chance want life fun plus want look lifeless body able interact world anymore wanted coronavirus good anything least good topic small talk filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler good enough dont know anything make happy anymoreim last year high school nothing motivating keep going except college know life turn around college right hard keep living amazing friends great dad great things life hate hate look hate im hung boy hate cope hooking people hate want kill hate think redflag least times day hate different march need shit together dont know want work want find whats wrong mentally want feel motivated dont know start tf girls confusing told crush said ready relationship wanted stay friends keeps gazing im class super confusing im thinking jumping bridgeall friends either relationships hookups im ive nothing seriously need solid reason end actually point livingim struggled redflag past three four years usually school everything news always awful people murdering dumb reasons theres whole fucking pandemic country usa done hardly anything first time long time feel genuinely scared whats going happen future meanwhile pretend optimistic prepare adulthood spending three hours online schoolwork day parents tell im trying hardest ive clean self harm around six months jesus whats point want talk parents even last time attempted got sent hospital week nurses glared patients way worse take back give break school im keen therapy pandemic last time went therapy never work courage actually trust therapists went three antidepressants made feel even worse ive abandoned friends im awful person everytime talk someone shake usually ghost people online im confident enough take art commissions im dedicated enough write book talents cant even use anything feels keep living ill watch everything spirals downward actually reason die sorry ranty im emotional right now im probably edgy teenager ill probably regret wake im genius im ask crush big brain way first im gon na tell im gon na need advice ask someone im gon na play along advice stuff actually use advice ask way says profit hopefully likely one likes punishment story time biology teacher entered several assignments grade book marked missing administration parents decided enters night cant celebrate thanksgiving family ill grounded next month sorry waisting time wanted rant situation belive happened made post reddit karma way post rdankmemes cant cryi cant cry time want remember really social really healthy incredibly ambitious smiling type even felt shit seems exaggerated completely idealistic remember teachers kept saying oh ability needs push notion keep pushing pathetic want love everyone everyone love love people make people happy cant even happy dreamer still least realise theyre dreams nothing still point life fully articulate im feeling words never wanted express im feeling wanted prove everyone thats fantasy matter nice make look love love others im kidwhy wanted happy someone hate new type suicidal thoughtsfirst might well give basic information im ive plagued thoughts early teens ive years therapy tonnes different antidepressants antipsychotics none really seemed help much ive learned live even going different professionals ive still never properly diagnosed anything slight anxiety disorder therapy though nice im work next month im therapy insurance back pills year now past used idealize redflag escape pain monotony living lately become much intriguing idea nothing necessarily wrong life fact things going pretty well hang friends much im well college courses two possible internships lined summer go back work month previously stated lately ive hooking girl every weekend free despite still constantly live suicidal thoughts seem theyve always think interesting seems actually go honestly want thoughts stop everything perfect hate end day still wish wake next day exercise frequently eat healthily smoke cigarettes drink know thats contributing factor honestly something ive picked last year half help pass time help cope stresses juggling relationships friends family work college courses short want commit redflag escape suicidal thoughts rather escape living never experienced know maybe much free time now maybe itll go away little go back work highly doubt itll go away fully hours lot time try use best ability reading exercise writing netflix video games school work classes hanging people matter im still left alone thoughts im getting sick though know happy anybody play csgo rank anyone wan na add snapchat incase need someone time chat chillas said add chill maybe empty remove dust vacuum cleaner yknow sc byrnez drinking kombucha avoiding eye contact yeast demon bottom clean room play videogames daily chores summer reading hope allall want right jump window way end misery feel one talk dorm hall knocked friends doors texted one friend asking wanted go dinner never responded college open parties never invited one texts asking want talk hang cry time one wants whenever cry make sure nobody hears fear ill attention fear one care cut shower days ago gets even people never talk ones reach disappear one friend texted year half ive diagnosed depression tried everything hospitalized three times went counseling week took three different kinds antidepressant meds plus two mood stabilizers nothing worked way feel better accepted everybody die im sure former never happen told death campus affect entire community yeah fucking right ignored life ignored death everyone celebrating bidens victory president yet trump put fight feels horror movie defeated monster theres still hour movie left lol rteenagers discord nice know theres one maybe know found ass eating isnt joke thank ill pass gooch grease im bottom feeder took gummy vitamins im still high working hfxu x yxurxt cutcucyvubpucurxextctocugubibuvrzrxtcubinp finally timeive conciously suicidal around years now though chances suicidal words great ive song dance ive gotten help changed life grew fell love got job whole nine yards everything anyone given solution feeling tried helped time others end still feel way help everything wilted either friendships faded love moved california pursue job studies longer excite job miserable day one therapist stopped talking months ago ive lost losing everything given hope future cant find go looking wise man told sort person people keep particularly smooth rock brightly colored leaf im sort people lose interest pretty much soon lose balked proven true time time hold anyones interest im even holding mine ive fallen back old signs worsening depression appetite energy want talk anyone anything everything ive said past months feels mistake want text long distance boyfriend want exist want fade obscurity soft smoke want presence cease ive decided start prepping clean apartment distance friends family save pay last month rent front roommate struggle maybe ill take train ontario see canada first time go quietly hotel room something soft something final give everyone wants chance good bye chance without letting catch want make scene want fade away want hurt im waiting finally time go neighbor yelling dog pooping lawn yeah definitely dog suicidal thoughts fucking examhello everyone im starting suicidal thoughts miserably failed submit assignement resulted low mark ive failed exam still chance pass exam september despite im suicidal failing exam means money means go switzerland continue esports etc lifeworthless im ready give upi felt shit months now everything getting worse know going think time give hurt tonight im done thinking felt writing chest whats something youve always wanted tshirt im trying create designs sell love hear ideas things actually buy really dont want think futurelife doesnt really meaning anymore barely days see people im close worried cant help feeling less burden died right now dont joy anything anymore whole concept happiness foreign years im considering ending life done wouldnt think things anymore im fucking tired everything sick failing thing succeed dont think hard people know death ive never really meant much anybody know theyd forget im content dont want remembered turns press button post really fast actually see bit see feed see look woooo secret text anyways good health feeling great take time take deep breath thru nose thru mouth feels good clogged nose huh take moment think whats going well today go ahead talk day going well explain username need iti thought well enough want mostly ive depressive episode hadnt showered week barley ate anything didnt energy really think killing kept wondering anxious today realized overwhelming emotions caught desperately wish dead theres nothing want dead dont want wake feel fucking selfish even think people fighting lives killing make feel guilty pain ive caused people want gone good thinking last letters everybody clear reasons mental state abusive mother therapist care less clear contributors relatives friends care course innocents children nice people issuesi wish tell people made decision care still afraid end mother therapist blame others innocents left wonder wrong sort want dick anyone want people use ignorance mean might someone save least therapist future realize power write blaming others may academy awards admittedly pretty cheesy much fun nothing makes smile bill ted lovable optimistic hilarious bill ted great way unwindbr br although love excellent adventure bogus journey funnier death flippin hilarious bill ted even endearing people give grief loving movie really pretentious moviewatchers say even bit entertaining probably fan waynes world dude wheres car dumb dumber admit though foolish make grin turn tickle box watch kicks giggles anyone feel life force throati feel everything life force upon im forced act way way im forced go school im forced work job passion im forced smile im forced cry im forced married kids im forced mostly everything ask honest dont want allmaybe eating forced upon maybe hobbies forced upon menothing good nothing enjoyable life enjoyable wake morning feel im damn forced wake go workampschool place hate want sleep forever thats something desire yet still need feel depressed years wow done itso longterm broke fault pressuring thought wed gotten back point work things without breaking pushed depression continued hatred terrible feeling realizing lied several months feelings towards know messed everything power make im sorry became needy thing refused talk happened im sorry kept coming give space home happy find alone friends really understand depth im feeling decided im going end life graduation next week want die broke lied forgiving terrible horrible thing really sucks love hate much want internal fire stop wanted help let help think ill leaving soon nobody cares lonely desolate world never thought option feel way people care ones desolate im sad feel im worthless look mirror see shadow want alone absolutely nothing im wasting time thanksi want say thanks people help rredflagwatch thats great even sometime work keep watch others nice bf care commit redflagi dating years love deeply im using redflag way control really bad mental issues ive gotten help im antidepressants years difference im ready want know affect want hurt watch movie truly good ride difficulties making indie movie happens blows film makers face theres lot stuff punk rock philosophy behind movement relationship project old punk american punk dig beware theres ton bad acting bits failed project incorporated yet come funny times actually best parts listening people never involved movie making pontificate went three year period took put together anyone thats make film especially film school worked field watch learn film makers mistakes ahaha tears fall glitter sparkle facd sobs violently pls give hug endim going end pitiful existence tomorrow care may say mean anything goodbye good life live woman started cheating mei nowhere go place go way place go amp way way make money credit completely wrecked banking friends family job car membership anything way need hear damn good reason live ive bed days straifhti shit eat eat dayi work april extend end july go back work july th im scared im judt gon na wnd disappointing wceeyone im meant world parents hated kill without hesistation bc love stay alive im tired think meant longhad post throwaway account think handle life longer really envision future let alone tomorrow normally main priority day without something stupid feel always trying reach friends mental state make apparent care know pretend sad actually thats shit ampxb ones know sad family members especially mom reason end even know thats enough anymore halloween dog halloween dog lovers hey folks check cool halloween tshirt dog lovers save used link attached let know guys think httpsteespringcomhalloweenwithmydogprlabhttpsteespringcomhalloweenwithmydogprlab processing video qqpihuxus daniel daylewis remarkable job playing christy brown artist grew cerebral palsy managed productive life dealing successfully handicap becoming respected artist writerbr br film difficult one reviewor even watch fortunately caption feature catch every spoken word impossible saw film theater respect brave piece work dealing difficult subject matter cant say sort film id want view oncebr br nevertheless attention held storytelling device flashback framed present see christy honored achievements see flashback youth struggles communicate around certainly gave loving carebr br daniel daylewis certainly remarkable troubled man falls love therapist fiona shaw much mothers fear love reciprocated heart broken theres painfully long scene restaurant confesses love others goes frenzied rage drinking muchbr br brenda fricker brilliant job mother taking care father brood siblings struggling keep roof heads daylewis begins success work complements daylewis performance warmhearted mother shares many poignant moments himbr br richly detailed story family stayed together unusual circumstances attention period detail every frame film fricker daylewis oscars hugh oconor ray mcanally excellent oconor christy boy mcanally father spends much time local pub loves boybr br summing elmer bernsteins music added plus factor well worthwhile definitely film everyone nothing metric life worth staying except stupid catanything compartmentalize area life terrible partner interests friends hate job im terrible even know ill job go back im broke cant find new job field car needs work money apartment feels prison might lose soon anyway one care one cares spend every minute crushing loneliness failure see way even anyone give hug text message im worst spoken another person face face two weeks literally nothing getting worse day day ampxb keep thinking find heroin fentanyl lot ive never done either guess means take less ampxb love fucking cat anyone trust take wake every fucking day life hate know hes happy biographical film lady red hair story director producerplaywright david belasco transformed notorious society divorcee mrs leslie carter international stage star certainly league warners biopic similar vintage yankee doodle dandy lady enjoyable film rightand shares quite traits common cagney classic br br yankee doodle dandy lady red hair brims old time showbusiness flavor among things films feature delicious theatrical boardinghouse sequences well inevitable scenes set backstage theatrical managers offices lady cohan biopic supporting cast made familiar beloved character actors period sort topnotch work remember br br need add yankee doodle dandy lady red hair let truth way telling good story dandy lady managegloriouslyto convey esssence showbusinessgiant heros largerthanlife personality everyone knows cagney limned cohan time brilliant affectionate portrayal yankee doodle dandybut moviegoers realize claude rains similar service david belasco lady red hair panache almost equals cagneysbr br rainsasbelasco perfectly captures legendary showmans galvanic personality outsized glory rains gives tremendously enjoyable superbly observed remarkably truetolife performance man broadway called wizard watch claude rains action looking every shot hes helluva good time lady red hair see david belasco leap life film cant wait shake things main stem againbr br depressed younger brother feel depressed getting help give little story years old still lives home mother step father toxic situation way involved life history making bad decisions acts sullen teenager always lying asking stay life make lot money currently paying medical bills credit card debt debt still showed abilityreal desire move co workers close invites house pool asked mention lives mother honestly idea tells people small group seem spend time bouncing others homes bbqs hanging physically lot pain morbidly obese lower back knee ankle pain going surgery ankles increase medical debt past matter hard life always smile joke humor dark says things hoping mother die going nowhere least another years betting anyway poor health money living home think needs win something help momentum trying ignores help suggested talk professional says insurance pays visits billed afford offer pay refuses help brothers struggle things great job lbs overweight brothers struggle weight loss health issues affect great feels connect us gotten work lives sorted point jobs help us thrive one helps thinking intervention defensive private sure go well good thoughts intervention work depression feel im kind annoying posts complaining pissed lot people even real life done cant continue lifeim hopeless last days really understand depression mental illness im sane anymore im awful mood swings ruining one hour feel suicidal hour feel kinda ok start questioning whether im making even though know im always convince moments makes feel guilty every time vent people feel better feel using barely function cant clean room cant bed everyone tells push cant cant explain feel im lazy incompetent useless bad person general already gave many aspects life feel ill never find love dont deserve avoid lectures im either tired anxious lately cant even thing love making music sometimes excited start cant im completely empty feel drained cant go crash inevitable point im going therapy social anxiety prevents telling therapist many things makes feel awkward pathetic overdramatic depression makes impossible work social anxiety dont want giving cant force anything help im afraid ill fail college last straw want go medication week going help time im already behind idk want stop cant help im live first time hey finally got obs work properly im live twitch pls simp yes give sub httpswwwtwitchtvsquwuid waiting sunsetim waiting sun want hiking family find body something sitting rock closed everything left phone know subscriptions forgot left home planned everything really nothing waiting golden hour idea always wondered call redflag hotlines know think help think phone call hell right know curiosity kicks still hours left waiting typing redflag google search already brings regional hotline info first title lets see whelp thats one number city side country exactly promising guess whatever lets check dead line ive lost hopemy give fuck broken fixed anytime soon hope anything anymore want death take away hug death open arms old friend seeing none movie everything going fully developed characters realistic portrayal working washington bathed warmth humor uniquely albert brooks dumbing network news even issue remember precable satisfying care complex people attempting achieve complex goals moves along lightning speed true life depiction friendships teeter toward romance see spot john cusack angry messenger recognize peter hackes real life broadcast news finally dc see agree holly hunters directions cab drivers easily sacred horror movies shit wish wasnt feel bitch horror movies id probably end crying ball head firmly behind knees sister needs something fun write house sheetrock goes ideas pretty much exactly sounds bought house saw thing people write quote draw something wood layer sheet rock goes something anyone cool ideas found new adjective borny bored horny describes probably sub given time wheres funny ive yet find anyone wan na chat discord dm tag talk whatever ig well cast summary real event well actually think may think two typically american standpoints evident film communistophobia parallels adolf hitler evident independent observers anyway boothe great performance lots wellknown actors last twenty minutes film unbearable mean anyone sleep well abnormal thats terrible happened probably looked actually last scene air station really take place one person cared told leave alone guess final stop back bridge first attemptedas title says told leave alone needed call never lets anymore guess farewell solenya stuck mind past days nothing better tired pretending everything okay okay future better past present already proved life stopping absolutely nothing tired tired byeive realized way win play goodbye im saying youre amazing everyone loves adores weird give friend birthday gift girlfriend idk im girl hes friend couple years want give plant likes plants dont want think friend anything story contemplationm ive recently developed alcohol addiction rarely drank prior months ago suffer anxiety insomnia ive lost job due depression anxiety alcohol basically hung calling sick feel crap daughters amp im divorced fianc love dearly feel im burden ive told basically tells ive planned everything far buying rope cousin hung months ago spine surgery got behind support spent days jail dont know dont want die feel problems go away dont want children fianc going life thinking done something ive opened fianc think shes taken seriously dont want die feel workdays solve lot problems cant bring right thing spent days alcohol detox cost job went week control im using ive basically self medicating advice first person guess number gets random bear award idk ehehehehdhhsshhdhd shdhshdhshhdhshshshshsgsgshhshdhdhdhdbdbbdbsbsbsbsbshssghshshshshshshsbshshhshshshhsshhs someone told dad drown shame brother said man dad must ride around sshitlermobilefuhrerwagon satire compared nazis several times man twitter hates dad phones die might need reply tomorrow will remove violates personal info rulequestions got kicked highschool cant stop contemplatingi got kicked online highschool program easiest program school ive still failed didnt work lazy im failure dont know ill graduate now cant stop thinking much easier killed self doesnt seem worth anymore got person reading click win new carhttpsmyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq think josh duhamel great rest show fun watch think handsome sexy josh duhamel makes show las vegas really fun see days magnum loved tom selleck thought sexiest man face earth hunk television show must order women enjoy watching something especially purposes innocuous entertainment done anything win date tad hamilton josh duhamel incredible always super crush josh definitely hunk watch las vegas time josh duhamel big reason guess im back againi cant tell anymore bad person matter fucking someone hurt even simple small incident every single friend lover crossed line awful deserve things friend cross line stupid fucking thing fucking game stupid fucking game decided take anger screamed insulted knowing full well past handle things fuck think anyone even theyve normal past deserve things screamed cant talk right now mental safety hurt lover told happened told talk time hurt assumed wrong point relationship back want justify automatically assume issues screamed want hear full story understand people things excuse excuse behaviour even going tough time suggested still excuse behaviour things people care done fucking done done life people relationships cant anymore want anymore done crying done cutting done abuse every fucking thing deserve treatment corona ruined bct httpsmyoutubecomwatchveewompyrsw probably whole career ill probably kill point parents diemany times past every winter last years actually point thing keeping alive thought much hurt parents killed theyre dead reach point first time ill probably theres nobody life think couldnt cope redflag nobody whos close enough really really badly affected longterm basis edge backi fell love wonderful girl drove away years later due alcoholism bottle flushed away aspirations attorney dated around started new path found something good found wonderful woman got married drank occasion never overindulged done life good new job higher pay american dream one evening comes living room proceeds want divorce im attracted hate shattering moment drove back bottle knew hammer cocked sobbing uncontrollably front wanted die ill never forget feeling cocked gun pointed towards head everything felt control regained liberating feeling feel much control ill never forget cold steel felt pressed side head something inside decided let go tell gets better im quite lonely grew middle class yearning life went college enjoyed immensely went grad school lost embarked new career path found years later lost whatever going easy im newly single going wicked divorce reflect happened two weeks ago think great feels knowing glock fail went lowest bidder spring want diei much debt fuck every good thing ive wrecked cars years aaaaah god almost pm excited yay personality test highly recommend got infp mediator personality type cool read always feel stupidly unique unable relate peoples actions test found theres whole personality type people amazing see person analyzed personality years wrote everything pretty accurate answer questions honestly one year ago todaytl dr almost killed year ago became homeless things turned around sorry long postjust lot stuff felt moved share give readwhats five minutes one year ago tonight almost killed thinking lot day felt moved share story went lot years wife left another man years caught really guard really crushed spirit top guy left real jerk two young children separation left crippled financially went living bedroom house owned renting tiny one bedroom apartment even small apartment make ends meet ended going bankruptcy made much money type food stamps welfare money much went exwife court appointed child support daycare expenses medical insurance kids cheated still forced pay crippling amount new scum boyfriend unemployment worked ass scum boyfriend used money gave kindle hdtv xbox etc constantly go bank account overdraft account point pretty depressed hopeless started drinking started kind gradually getting drunk weekend kids weeknights never drank kidsbut became every night lot nights pass drunk still got every morning went work drinking bottle vodka night around march last year basically drank rent money pay rent one year ago night evicted plan options kill commit crime thrown jail wake homeless morning went far write notes parents exwife kids go redflag kids stayed night rough got ready next morning took rubbermaid containers packed threw back pickup went work incredibly rough hid everyone except exwife know affected time kids hardest thing nowhere go go work normal work usually go parking lot sit listen radio sometimes mcdonalds sometimes walmart sometimes little park river cant sleep places though original plan sleep walmarts parking lot found police started driving every minutes starting pm gas money drive minutes rest stop thruway sleep parking lot money sleep apartment parking lot near work sleep rest stop sleep hours apartment parking lot lucky never caught basically next morning go gym membership per month take showerthen go work sucked thought killing every night weekends take kids day beach park whole thing terrible think hid whole thing pretty well almost friends locally relocated exwife parents live hours away bosses never really said anything always clean completely stop drinking situationso anything work performance probably improved hung every morning weeks family friend found situation comment one kids kids know situation exactlybut comment made friend know something gave place stay couple months began start things turning around exwife left douche living split month given place stay daycare costs decreased significantly giving money longer spending booze friend found place rent small cheap even got month raise beginning year started taking care lost almost pounds see kids ton now mentally best place possibly wanted share story one year ago felt completely hopeless absolutely way felt problem solution probably going something terrible wait see plays life many ups downs never know future holds much experience life kill wait see happens things may turn around may fucksee happens ive lost allif cared people thought commit redflag understood meant realized time three knew joy living put words describe feelings reason go school learn talk shy people always pointed things want school help much except unnaturally loud voice gets peoples faces speak known put thoughts action mostly understand capability every person born another competitor world elementary school young age different matter make friends one liked people im boring person worth time talking smarter class put gifted class first grade nothing came understand ahead others finished exams faster got top scores without trying boredom set without friends tend lurk corner trying go library learn second grade already hated school much wanted kill chancellor board education started plotting ways kill course come fruition supreme willpower execute plan learning columbine helped see fact kill enough people revise plan inflict damage id estimate killing people sufficient plans plus sparkle hope thinking things better future third grade painful sense work another person science project science projects awful sense create experiment given made easy experiment fixed results never got good grades future individual projects mostly never proper tools begin choose life id alone forever everything want versus life people nothing commit redflag instant life headed towards latter psychological evaluation every student time fourth grade knew redflag back wanted still glimmer hope things better weekend evaluation went library read world war world war ii mostly interested war history much carnage world created nuclear bombs dropped hiroshima nagasaki enthralled weapons instantly wipe entire city course feelings time alone solitude blurted statement psychologist baffled statement parents angry called school punished making statements school enacted plan play dates people class knew instant never truly express fear punishment later night contemplated running highway jumping front train commit redflag decided lie things going better new challenges experiences await except one told involved burning bridges one think going junior high school new people change mind people act suffice say made life even worse tried projects needed done group work carry rest group less interest hobbies used enjoy every morning wake mental exercise saying committed redflag today eventually knew answer nothing weak go human instinct live need overcome order stronger committed redflag high school different sense contact people mostly trying sure disgusted acting way principle mind use abuse relationships want id see rampant cheating exams order toptier universities one caught punished realizing senior year needed come plan promote justice equality way show one cant start immediately grand goal one must meticulously plan ahead see come fruition day vt shooting came air reported number dead moving target pushed higher make name needed kill people joked become next shooter fit perfectly shooters mentality looks well luckily things died act upon urges shooter mentality bullying racism drives people commit acts atrocities things matter depressed think society effectively rejected world one find people mostly invisible rest us exhibit signs hostility towards unless someone looks life closely one choose ignore signs shooters act acting anger attempting fit place want belong world much easier accepting heshe going alone rest lives living life way torture someone wants belong keystone alone top course people continuously cheated throughout high school tended better schools got ivy leagues felt slight resentment towards realized needed game system benefit unfortunately learned lesson late college either chose go state university instead private ones less debt pay future plan worked hoped go path internshipjob juniorsenior year employer wanted speak even though comparable credentials everybody know looked peoples resumes compare feeling dejected prospect job coming college applying applications jobs internships compounded global recession realize bargained long think almost literature dystopian future coincidence needed new reason continue living college costbenefit analysis comes selfishness comes play long got benefit people pay cost survive spite towards family graduating started looking work companies going job fairs meeting new people networking gone year now applying positions inperson applications online soundly rejected various points hiring process even worse hearing response every day look news disillusioned ive become abject failure ive always considered failure new low currently work parttime selfemployed investments odd jobs babysitting tutoring heard dad going lose job couple weeks great time commit redflag costbenefit analysis showing benefits going much anymore biggest question whether go bang whimper well thats fulltime position two weeks know choice made fear weakness weaknesses must exploited loss hope constant rejection passionim exactly sure writing reddit feel hopeless unseen sometimes think im completely invisible im thinking redflag time lately try focus tasks things always end back killing know exist even world im embarrassed hate think time things gotten better im regret killing peak life good feel people love really know understand always say accept comes always problem criticism im sick im nowhere feel safe anymore ive tried everything medication st johns wort therapy group therapy mindfulness taking one day fucking time moments good happiness come always end back really point mediocre existence place friend help even go talking maybe someone read tell one live life know suffer hope anymore society damaged mei remembered missed life made impact difference little thought special thought special wrong nothing unless someone power money says im invisible seen im really afraid know life better im better ahhaha feel great past four hours ive felt sick hearts beating fast body wants stay horizontal feel im going vomit stand music usually helps sleep giving headache dont know whats wrong everyone gets love want diei failed attempts loved general really need anymore cant stand life anymore need someone talk tothis throw away account issue recently see tried ideas guy lastly told story im years old female started think things happen life half sister abused emotionally abused sister half sister childhood im kind ugly overweight lost lbs now im socially akward much im depressive rosacea hate im kind retarded aspergers way nose surgery hated nose general body issues lot course low self esteem emotionally abused current boyfriend years ago child barely saw parents kind parents talk teach stuff low self esteem cheated current boyfriend ex lover threatens follows even classroom trying improve life got rgetmotivated lost weight tried keep hobbies see im really fucked almost everybody around bad people end relationship years something awfully stupid im studying software engineer im top class generation feel incompetent want fuck life prefer committing redflag instead hurting boyfriend holy shit typing password computer realized messed pressing enter erased characters ended correct password without clicking see character ive stopped helpi think im going go thru scared struggled ptsd depression physical pain hate fear ect ect ect left military right deployment mental hospitals rating va issues day goes life think redflag stooping much hurt keep feeling bay time today day afraidish feel confident try attempt life tonight sure mood getting worse every minute passes trying figure call help things consider last time made call help mental ward topeka ks many months muuuuch longer average stay want go many reasons one want bring bc nasty catch understand spend days month ward loose disability month homeless option swore last time matter even day homeless deserve said reluctant ask help bc feel almost signing life away make little money va anything fall financial hiccup crush life know want stop pain want old life back miss people dont understand fuck dark humor said im gon na kill jew thats dark humor mean im gon na actually kill fucking jew say im gon na kill jew clever way thats dark humor dark humor everything table murder abortion national tragedy assault racism etc dark humor supposed terrible mean anything idgaf people disagree thats people jessica type shit wait people think shut hell anyone wan na talk quick facts male love watching anime ive getting kpop recently beats love cute things happy listen anyone vent ive run things say hmu interested want live birthday week always thought feeling better ive really trying past years especially past months know point im going achieve want im unhappy im proud things accomplished life bit disappointed time lost trying better ive already admitted hospital want go back know im know people think waste life believe ill good ive lost lot friends ive hurting best friend feel ive emotionally manipulative needs stop im content knowing want hurt anymore ive trying delay smoking weed heavily getting bit unbearable relief knowing end soon back sure doive unemployed february continue fail attempts job ive missed chance live good friend mine im unable income reality setting family turn friends ex girlfriend california one guy currently live atlanta ga months might job ill finally move exgfs place another souless job job pay well enough afford live horrible filthy expensive hell city ill come home every night completely alone apartment highschool friends life anymore college friends life anymore one successful friend whos way busy handling matter move im going live alone count days finally enough choose die day posting girlfriend ill add interest day cooking minecraft elder scrolls napping big bagg theorythe show scientific theory learning computers fallout games random conversations think found biggest fear goes every think going high school always think gon na go college job etc reason mind instantly goes cant job cant pay college even college going literally start scratch knowledge money college thats im always afraid im going financially stable college guess probably odd fear really fear im kinda worried anyway hopefully makes sense anyone wants say something story time go ahead life never present answer itit veterans day yesterday god wished seen combat instead wounded job always state side instead wounded bullshit ts rate instead wounded man enough pick gun go infantry every movie loves show fun parts navy loved always made interesting cant see movies ship ship brings back couple good buddies say soldier dies save lives two first save brother second save mean closest ones commit redflag mean even fucked tried worthless shell body still fucking wakes three days later even accomplished goal woke back fucking sorry belong herei think dont want die idk im staying alone friends house let stay gone im going break long term relationship dont place im th floor cant help wonder feel jump current thought thinking different ways die never attempt life scares im feeling lonley failure many aspects life maybe easiest thing end good idk common think kind thought going increase sorry possible mistakes im native english speaker mrdeek messaging guy back forth seems vanishedi first found hereanyone got clues tired lifehi ill try keep shortish im angel im ive contemplating redflag know going tonight itll soon ive grown tired life think handle anymore course reason lifes kind mess came closet announced family friends gay parents disgusted friends already figured mostly fine always feeling people came dad constantly verbally abuse calling faggot making gay jokes anything make clear abomination mom drifted clear even though never said tell wished son person family truly accept gay identical twin brother kaiden close stereotypical twins identity crisis everything together actually lot things separately played baseball played soccer student council drama club etc always ate lunch together school play pranks teachers tell eachother basically everything family moved went whole new school issues making friends father continued verbally abuse finally got tired take attempted redflag drank bleach kaiden found rushed hospital pumped stomach kaiden insisted help refused decided best thing move house rented apartment next almost two years went smooth kaiden sharing apartment boyfriendgirlfriend never spoke parents sharing apartment great never really problems months ago kaiden got car wreck days later died ive completely lost without part gone practically whole reason living boyfriend tried hard help honestly working mope sleep eat little bit play video games sleep life meaningless feel pain now kaidens funeral mom said son died dad shot many nasty looks made even gay remarks usual stay whole service terrible im lonely know end editsince redflag watch id say im planning anything tonight ill probably fall asleep soon nobody freak im replying feels matter try backfiresno matter try always backfires try socialise laughed try something nice fail even wake bullshit everyday happened uh walked parents sex im broken man good thing lights oh god cleanse soul please help im band theres girl really band ive conversations band want normal conversation without obvious social anxiety everything know start conversation everytime want start panic never ending starting conversation find way talk without basically screaming waste oxygento anyone reads im sorry bother ive crying last half hour maybe share able finally fall asleep feel depression getting worse dont really understand world becomes grey mass care less less anything everything loses meaning hard see even subconsciousness preparing die idk reverse dont want know continues redflag eventually thats left nothing worth living meds dont seem desired effect occasionally help care much much everything sucks despise people find needing dont want need anyone even stopped caring people actually love stopped fighting whats important stopped wishes expectations existing living thats waste oxygen earth might desperately need life shittier decided end life birthday hope though hope parents cry fuck im tired accept fact im selfish movie touching story adventure taken yearold darius weems darius duchenne muscular dystrophy still uncurable disease took life brother age nineteen number one killer babies united states close friends travel across country los angeles goal getting wheelchair customized mtvs pimp ride one favorite shows journey begins georgia darius grew never left gang head west trip participants never forget darius gets ride boat first time ride hot air balloon swim ocean visit sights hes always wanted see grand canyon new orleans filmmakers clearly emotional connection material make money sales dvds goes toward researching disease goes toward making copies film awards festivals agree quote given film variety certain stir hearts sister first seizure years im younger sister younger sis diagnosed epilepsy age really bad surgery see seizures yesterday came room saying felt wierd slumped called looked stopped breathing bit ok now really scary know im strong enough go went last time sis bad seizures got girlfriend snoo back posts sub rn feel aliveits always one thing next im turning twenty two months kid torn everyone everything theres nothing left great boyfriend guess thats something hes everything though today dear jesus forgot turn oven came back home work smoke filled house hes pissed hug tell loves anything cold shoulder hurts favourite person hurts want alive want keep going know walks stairs hes going say working already rocky definitely going push edge cant deal anymore heartbreak ive hurt far many times stop always one thing another cant something stupid comes downstairs says loves im anymore want feeling guilty possibly leaving reason want live im sick fuckup everyone around gets hurt annoyed angry im sick making others miserable cant always one thing next help meim close finding rope need disappear leave tracei mean anything world anyway close family want dig possessions especially computer looking answers simple im worthless garbage hyperaware real chance recovery cant stop example funeral really mourning exactly anyone thought come ideas ive alive far long sad pathetic ive even tried save worthless life meantime proved im use world human thanks advance anyone experience sudden bursts agitation restlessness confusion low mood almost day small bouts emotions place extremely restless feel think clearly seconds diagnosed mdd experience strange little periods scared something going idk mood changes many times throughout day external reason random bouts confusionbrain fog watched series seen naked gun films found much better films thought films great series literally glues television set anticipation next pun sight gag funny situation night wicker place club flamingo think ive laughed hard tv series life even seeing movies first thus knowing jokes think shame six episodes produced agree writers hard pressed maintain level comedy episodes overall series must see puns bad jokes slapstick sightgags rate film high list ingrid bergman films ingrids beauty aside talent evident scene scene sad mean wittybr br snobbish flirtatious delightfully funny loving tender sorrowful distressed happy etc name things sobr br convincing ingrid plays notorious woman clio comes back newbr br orleans falls texas gambler gary cooper clint especially loved scene sitting dining table saying nothing staring elegant white gown handsome white cowboybr br outfit sitting looking adoringly chemistry love day seeing post pogchamp people need helpi failed family stupid brain stupid big mouth lost job nobody hiring almost nw see one option insurance policy jump maybe family wont hungry love daughter wife cant take living fifth able buy self proper food fucked cant take wife says better shithole country crate new jobs paycheck really low im sad angry im bad bad person know im stupid nice guy im hellping everybody fuck im tiered jsut cant cat wife pretty lady wll find someone better daughter wont grow knowing real dad stupid man think might finally go live state waiting period buy gun got money time go tomorrow spend ill finally means end things nervous scared want working redflag seems optioni wake every day exhausted knowing ill im exhausted things control im tired spiritual bullshit ask ask want nothing seems convince im desperately trying hang anyone advice redflag seem option im fucking idiot thought character yugioh named joey spelt yoey closei went today first time ive something felt different time real called crisis hotline hung know one really wants help needed write know flair put figured work ive reached point cant make decisions anymore mom decides every fuckin aspect life im sorry grades mid s want waste applying university rejected simply unable accept fact im going university september note poli sci teacher sisters big poli scilaw program im trying live sisters level know makes worse parents divorced year ago despises dad always bringing bad father university take im turning august legally age able make mind live want legally im allowed leave go live dad im allowed ive got two turtles fish live need feed dads helping grandmother lives far north found pancreatic cancer two months ago still meds mom let leave house drive im allowed drive either leaves biking hour half hour half back massively stops weekends im forced mom go private university cant stand fact ive applied already im going private university wants go christian university say im incredibly religious im atheist im deeply invested religious things plan already go college first term second term start likely work year make money actually basis work mom still hates fact im prize student ive got sisters brothers two top line students taking mom everything one whos young care yea im guy grandfather died born grandpa died older male cousin years older cousin thats year younger lives across country canada role models limited moved small town moved grew wont say bad worse previously conditions lost contact friends old town moved everyone cell phones struggled lot make new ones moved brought request move back old town friends got nowhere yes anyone asks contemplated redflag thought stuff always thinking stuff first years high school reoccurring thought getting beat bullied almost every day class bring tell anyone dealt best hindsight told someone gone shit anyways ive always quiet kid school never brought gun school though im american wished death classmates ive never figured im odd one class might im one white kids whole school teachers wont shit anyways dads appreciative looking making sure im actually paying attention work helping want go live way moms acting might anyones got advice appreciated needed ask question want ill best answer want die tragic accidenti want die tragic accident half selfish want people know someone took life want people think tragic much potential want know truth fear people perceive even death terrifies half selfless want people feel guilty leave want beat thinking something done dying accident still cause suffering much less blame issue long time now try improve situation stuff distracting trying find new peers really seem help work feeling people especially toxic mom says try find friends happy never offers support help says depressed super lazy put effort almost nobody sees lucky enough catch movie volunteering maryland film festival ive always fan classic horror films especially gimmicks william castle definitely mustsee mebr br life work william castle opinion underrated director true made cheap budget schlocky horror films added something films real live theater gimmicks see anymore example nurses case someone heart attack movies put vibrators bottoms chairs tinglerbr br truly wellmade documentary brings rather shadowed director light celebrated contributions horror cinema paints castle larger life character wellliked smile facebr br unlike film documentaries mostly show testaments film historians spine tingler shows interviews mostly family members directors influenced work john waters john landis joe dante must see classic horror scifi fans odds mermaid helium balloon traveling yuba city caon nov th landing days lateron nov mermaid prince edward island canadaapprox miles great movie based true story movie helps children cope losses older people well hope everyone enjoy rhonda really tired think anyone notice sibling said save friend dangling cliff front unprompted apparently havent learned bit rude fml next couple days commit redflag one understands melike says title im going kill next days scam ruined life heres happening believe girl ive met mingle committing edd fraud story looking girlfriend mingle hoping mind multiple disabilities one affects thinking ability never told started along later told cant job time looking job one hire fired times disability ive gotten help department rehab ive finally gotten job month two later asked bitcoin replied back saying ive heard know showed video bitcoin asked wanted invest claimed many investors said think first kept asking gave first wanted put money prepaid card add investors money course said kept asking ive asked legal know anything stuff said yeah months went finally put money bitcoin atm never received money back claimed scammed uphold kept bothering lend keeps ringing phone try give later showed pic hospital bed pic seems strange doll bed bandages wrapped around texted reply socalled friend said fault friend hospital bed got mad ive asked starts cursing later gf tried showing pics asked see pics well regret even know tricking anyway june finally got edd card tell want pay back keeps saying meet meet said well meet august asked said watching tv asked tv died week ago stupidly told apply unemployment later asked said give going gave later july asked put unemployment application investor wanted know told put answers right wrong answers way mother helped edd application struggle reading understanding somethings anyway later begged give mailing address say first touched money stimulus check past trusted tricked giving social security number believe pic id well reason started different mail cant even pronounce asked mailed checks prepaid cards later investors edd cards mailed place asked whats okay said yeah investors permission open letter give pic card august finally came feeling really depressed told therapist told scam taking advantage heart dropped felt scared wanted commit redflag ive texted roberta claims danii banks instagram model finally told disability said still loved tried deny scammer ive contacted therapist told stop texting going report said shell post pics social media family friends tired apologize ive stopped talking keeps calling back im scared know finally told mother disappointed hopefully solve problem therapist trying help wondering report trouble knowing scammed penalties therapist discussed told wanted kill want hospitalized mental health want trouble please help guys really know thats want kill tried arrest something therapist said tricked think police unemployment people understand situation think might put prison way im using grammarly help type cant time call stupid going use wrong form youryoure reason google meet today cant sign school account im personal account im afraid english teacher see cringey pfp one use reddit countryhumans america sunglasses saying gay man guess whoever set incompetent im still waiting let friend need help reddit hes dating girl parents hate blame lot stuff depressed atheist bs hes wants break thinks hes bad influence alot stuff best teens hes afraid kill guys help push boyfried awayi greatest boyfriend weve together half years taught better help recent years ive become mentally unstable anxiety eats disease depression anger insurmountable times weve fought bit cant understand im unreasonable time ive gotten antidepressants october occasionally ill massive bouts anger stupidest things example going take laundry done got upset able spend saturday together escalated fight lots insults slung primarily cooled still frustrated sick argued left close door fucking lost want anger boiled took anything near threw door things broke heard opened door screamed fuck problem called psycho said know hell even come back person take much im fearing ive lost fear causes shit pushes farther away awful person know want cant deal unpredictability anymore want end know way want suffer attached anymore want end give peace teacher forgot mute mic class heard things supposed hear first time forgot mute mic time heard interesting things class got phone call answered next thing know hes chatting fluent spanish interchanging english every listening conversation basic knowledge spanish high school talking someones medical issues poor guy seemed hospitalized std sir acting translator give information conversation went minutes blew class chat reacting conversation finished continued lecture paused noticed silence wait guys heard course gave explanation situation need know details minutes pass continues lecture paused wait recorded muted mic way edit cut piece recording nope want lose job useful information lecture vowed keep mouths shut recording deleted stopped recording started fresh middle presentation stop laughing say least cant win party yesterday kissed random girl first kiss ex broke heart think much miss ex trying happy move feel dragged back darkness fall love give one girl much power still love ex know look post history see big problem hate love right badly want love someone mush emotions want alive anymore ive much turmoil need end im anxious know ill able move first love everything really bad right now want strong biden supporters genuinely think hes going magically change whole country takes changes implementing take effect cant really change people think people people putting way high pedestal hes even started got feeling supporters gon na annoyed feel silly doesnt magically end racism wan na live balls kill myselfi think finnaly lost mind fucking shit going years different literally lost mind fucking sick hate everything everyone keep pretending every day good normal life guess fit normal life literally future find joy anything joy wish reason wake morning really want die cant manage kill everyday feel im stronger want dress cartoon pimp one disrespect especially one bitches father real macho guy thinks mentally ill people lazy giving poor excuses definitely understand going today went away meet mothermy grandmother talk alone mother problem told mental health probably year ago sheampfather said stay indoors day go exercise usual shit stayed silent home know today best day talk least years depressed gather courage younger supposed know know strength know doi essays due tomorrow cant touch teachers absent yesterday hands shaking cant work done cant calm know need help relieving stress anything help anniversary th want done nothing left want breakups suck deal finally managed give diabetes years trying done decided smoke many cigarettes use much dip possibly everday hopefully give cancer already worthless disgusting fucking monster sooner cancer better joking slightest wish balls blow brains everything everyday closer death hrs laterit hrs tried commit redflag im sure share original post im still hospital ill probably weeks call mentality resort im guessing nice padded white room want thank support everyone given honestly im sure wouldve succeeded totally forget invited sister talk saved ass hands really hope better mentally least friends today officially founding borse party completely legitimate political party nuanced intricate views massive line sign people hoping catch coronavirus diebecause ive reading often last days incredibly shitty plan redflag statistically chances huge itll nothing make sick week two might inadvertently pass people actually want live though loved ones might pass road might kill somebody actually want die missed lot please selfish consider cardi b dies gon na say rest peace rest ass pussy shit okay havent slept days weeeeeeeeee cant imagine bigger piece shit myselfmy family loves done literally every single fucking thing possibly help people fucking angels put bullshit despite ive managed convert fucking biomedical engineering degree renowned school fucking cashier job grocery store im wondering point minimize pain feel end killing next weeks ampxb ampxb black clover chapter action packed link httpsyoutubeabtxgdnbqa ive waited waited waited getting better getting worsei beyond miserable months ive felt life meaningless empty ive complete lack desire motivation everything pointless everything keeps getting worse worse absolutely nothing point living anything think im going around tomorrow way legally make sure one deal giving funeral burial want burden family advice needed think ive ruined chance love cant keep going anymorei know post f met amazing guy m january us wanted friends benefits first kept telling much missed perfect point want fwb anymore said ready commit another relationship yet needs time kept chatting friends every time end always come back telling much miss kept pushing relationship always back point say best stayed friends long talk one time seemed okay trying commit long take things slow got depressed talk much anymore usually talk every day hours asked needed space agreed bad feeling checked dating app met back asked space meant going look people said didnt went back dating app hours later confronted answer insulted wanted answer blocked tried call phone got automated message saying phone number registered thought maybe gave throwaway phone number reasons next thing complicated really matter excuse created fake account dating app part find lied think noticed im sure contacted ex paranoid theyre maybe still together thats ghosted phone number thing weird day later contacted telling contacting ex talked little really give explanations asked lied dating app first tried say never happened evaded question asked still friends least really answer months later asked reply asked never wanted talk said still needs time message hes ready asked promise hell message eventually got angry said pressuring want talk anymore blocked year ago sent letter january asking talk person reply think im going love anyone fault want talk anymore think deserve die messed living feels pointless anyway person im going love even want talk really wish something make things right im thinking sending another letter apologise tell everything wanted tell person going talk hes probably going read anyway think going help suicidal thoughts year im still okay wish talk happened really know anymore im sorry post mess im mostly crying writing anyone wan na talk disocrd back shit lol one talk dm user tag hate meds make horny makes sex hard girls never cheat always alone lonely sad call adolescent really think great series chance experience episodes latest star trek series definitely watch one perhaps compelling voyagers caretaker launched series cpt janeway archers adventures completely different yet strangely familiarthe music catchy true scifi fan go without seeing least one star trek episodeand installments make wait worthwhile dogs go heaven plays canine criminal underworld film delight children comical darkbutsatisfying happyending storyline plenty song dance features outcast charlie fellow canine criminal murdered returns dead meets homeless human girl looks relationship realizes meaning life selfsacrifice cute animation loved much eyes child highly recommend film children im unsure adults react tried watch years ago vhs recordings last long waiting psych wardi checked failed attempt im extremely proud im incredibly bored now first time psych ward phone die soon anyone ways stay completely zombie posttriage limbo cant anymoreplease need somebody talk see another way outevery day im digging bigger hole im trying every treatment hands gets worse medication counseling cbt mindfulness honest faking exercise journalling courses yoga worry time alcohol selfharm much years feels im fated theres way improve towards anything theres foundation build instance theres nothing even possibly aspire understand improve im disconnected friends support energy fundamentally horrible person feels im waiting good opportunity die now annoyingly none really seem plausible im completely sure im writing semblance company maybe another thing tick ive tried everything list redflag hotline sick voicechecked position waitlist months noncourtmandated appointments tried chat service instead waited queue minutes told services area excedrin pills isnt enough iti counted pills left im pretty sure enough maybe mikes hards left fridge even live minutes away railroad tracks pretty sure im terribly classes whats point living im gon na college drop theres point idk even withdraw classes point serious compelling reason required stressed death suicidal serious compelling enough think teachers probably ashamed hell cant college im pathetic even decide live everyone hate trying end anyways love boyfriend though hes one thing getting never want anything hurt im tiredive depressed suicidal literally majority life better hows anything gon na et better dunno im sad alone cant tell talk anyone need someone tell cause dont know anymore please fun facts ruin day nothing ive got nothing googles failing recently comment ill put u list maybe ill text years something idk lets try anyone want chat pls im bored age need advice help friend rough time mention redflagi need advice help one good friends really rough time now gotten hit really hard couple things last months really made life lot harder asked call little ago crying spiraling control said feeling really paranoid lately burden everyone around struggling suspect psychological issues now really gotten help needs today first time mentioned depressed says cries time struggle everyday kill dogs already done cant leave advised quite go mental health counseling offered talk anytime needs issues happened last months think really contributed got kicked school poor grades verge filing bankruptcy due unpaid medical bills student loans credit card debt one dogs ill recently still know cause brother moved away another state relationship boyfriend ended really complicates barely make ends meet support debtcost living b longer gets free mental health services school student c still working school kicked means generate income figures wants next reminds reinforces failure d comes unsupportive family parents divorced narcissistic show vested interest helping supporting children know right feeling really hopeless major debt making barely enough idea go terms career direct family members selfish dealing matters timeenergy help lot friends believes ones pity herwant rid things tried help encouraged seek counselingpsychiatric help reassured im friend understand feels encouraged seek career counseling offered talk anytime needs vent talk someone right im feeling really scared know help time suggest going psychiatrist says cant afford added cost vet bills sick dog monthly income stretched even thinner keeps putting looking another job filing bankruptcy despite admittedly needing things anyone contact family try help support needs family selfish disinterested see viable option im asking advice go freediscounted mental health counseling services refer local support groups look anything friend support feel help soon chance might actually kill cant bare thought im unsure help please advice public private greatly appreciated losing time feel youre losing time one minute next thing know pm youre back bed ive feeling days now feel im losing im losing meaning day thing anyone know called ive seen movie twice transilvania international film festivaltiff movie competition really hope esteban sapir one awards least best image award br br silent cinema fan im interested contemporary movies quote recreate language yesteryear cinema previous reviewer emphasized quotes fritz lang fr w murnau see movie references directly langs metropolis allegoricalparabolic character plots see murnau theres obvious melieshomage though moon cigarsmoking human face papermade painted mountains citylandscapes enjoyed film mostly visuals meantime found interesting story muteness creative means communication used inhabitants voiceless city perspective movie unique reflexion muteness silent cinema films silent period one hardly find stories mute characters case questioned whether story stolen voices motivation silent film form theres intention play upon muteness silent films another example kind reflexion found guy maddins carefulwhere inhabitants mountainvillage restrictions using voices intend write paper know movies related topic please let know br br highly recommend esteban sapirs film every moviegoer one critics called jewel festivalbr br ps winners announced film award best cinematography know fact depressed teenager friends slept time think suicideso always parameter used measure emotional state life always thought feeling bad felt years must depressed even suicide popped mind therei going therapy last years came mind ask therapist depressed going told depression comes many forms case sometimes positive events make snap brief periods time back iti sad feel sickness years put many obstacles life never happy guess depression talkingi took appointment go see psychiatrist want official diagnosis free country scared taking meds feel hopelesstldl sad time depressed look signs found depressed time day reccomending songs httpsopenspotifycomtrackubifbgxuqntgwwolmssidmraisarvcfcvqow demons monsters aidan something humans never understand animal perceive gravity pulls animals objects around able tell study never perceive latest philosophy dont hate people whether hate racist sexist misandrist misogynist rapist murderer anybody hate ignorance racist may genuinely isnt bad person believes hes good one may genuinely believe black people inherently bad isnt true believe environment environment shaped today hes learned media parents encounters black people ect isnt control environment fault hes racist wouldve grown different family probably racist nothing brain everything environment racism inherent ignorance thats taught something control taught lack perspective real perspective yet still grew environment choose racist people dont understand shaped environments thoughts descions life choices stemmed environment environment didnt choose fault thoughts noone hate us least feel sorry try best educate us realize people products environments isnt fault hate leave heart now isnt say handle every situation bad person im better still feeling good end day thats ego problem another issue another time doesnt mean responsible making strides change life become better change environment isnt free pass uncrafted person yes hit perfect exact pillars bits knowledge order want change life actually whether entirely based environment truthfully probably pieces pillars already people post isnt meant disregard pillars stay anything meant encourage opposite push change become better go stop hating people theres valid reason want disappeari health anxiety every week think something new something kill good anxiety knows somehing consequences im tired wan na sleep wan na go bed ill alone already overwhelming thoughts ill stay living room tv sleep iv fan rik mayall ade edmednson remember weather young ones bottom say never laughed much life guest house paradiso bloody brilliant know going everyones cup tea vomitingslapstick comedy violence foul language watch aint one knows sick twisted things rik ade come theyre working one another think unfair film received slatting critics becauseand think im one think film worst life every sad tired physically always tired matter sleep erratic tired unemployed tired able find job minimum wage tired trying happy make things seem normal tired getting real attention dishes vacuuming getting hard reason bed partner dogs want disappear never wake want stop sad tired give upi dont know whats happening every time relationship leave fault everyone around us want tell someone much pain im cant im scared tell someone theyll judge one wants around stay locked room want leave cant im sorry blake im failurei really want end im unattractive fat bad job unmotivated regretting degree feel ive messed everything die escape feel lie ppl say gets better hasnt dont know got better mean became okay ive never known okayso exactly suggesting moredifferent pills im already drugged different medications day took nearly four prescribed batches cant afford grasping medical solutions entire fucking life real solution right calling everyday im much goddamn good person family suffer every fucking day selfish bastards really fair never asked born want end never wanted start first place thought everyone felt way sort put lives forced im fuck cant keep making best bullshit throw birthday party someone hates birthdays worst party never ends theres way friends replacedleft mei sophomore high school moment last year lost friends lets start th grade th grade became popular sort happened people started became better socially around accepted point life going great suddenly part sort cool kid clique never thought part summer came going freshman year everything still amazing life time high think life peaked transition freshman year still group friends things still pretty good good th grade suddenly second semester started everything changed basketball season ended sport many friends play sort unaccepted certain members group non newest member friend forever clique mentioned earlier now happened kind alone started notice weekends anything strange good friends people fun stuff weekends time confused really act happened check snapchat surprise without irked months go thing keeps happening longer invited anywhere besides people complete assholes want anything hangout times summer connection friendship seem sophomore year even associate remember one person mentioned earlier newest member obvious one seems pulling former friends away sad part person brothers always super strong bond nothing find place life anymore im struggling live anyone offer advice wildest shit happened school today whole coronavirus learnt year caught covid apparantly year s needed sent home learnt lunch people kind nervous teachers started calling names people year contact got asked go home everybodys running around lunch hall screaming aah theres fucking covid hall even teacher told everybody calm sit kids screaming gon na die array swear words banned subreddit tldr year caught covid lunch hall panic jesus day feel bad one girl class boyfriend cheated got covid week bruh patriotic guys nono girls lmao yes tread flag room cares lol whats longest time youve chewed gum gum starting religion rteenagers discord server ampxb starting religion join movement sixl moonhttpspreviewredditraqkvzepngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbeffdbbeecdbbae im trading stories secrets anything ur willing trade embarrassing stories nsfw stories sad stories happy got secrets share well good trade ask tell help meim afraid fat eat much food kill soon killing brokenstill ventured past front garden september recently th birthday mother insisted celebrate although feel nothing celebrate inside nothing years gets upset understand emotions im fucking stuck man planned kill july finish school cant live ok maybe deserve oscar golden globe award matter acting outstanding theres reason give credits directing really another semigory st century slasher flick people consider decent maybe even dreadful opinion matter bit thats great time watching moviebr br sure first minutes pretty slow movie progresses something anybody watching movie looking hours fun mindless violence kickass ending spoil yes many flaws movie let cast list front cover fool hilton delivers decent performance nobody saw coming even greatest haters friends agree surprised us greatly barely believable acting skills striptease nasty anything online popup promise still unbearable fastforward turn dvdbr br violence surprised nobody school horror board talking new movies called saw hostel safely say wax graphic saw death scenes actually quite disturbingbr br conclusion im surprised house wax make place imdb top definitely worth look people say relationship isnt key full shitthese past years happiest ive life found girlfriend finally felt void inside filled finally wasnt alone world anymore someone morning someone hold whenever felt depressed suicidal therapy medication helped nothing girlfriend probably says doesnt feel love anymore different previous times want right finally kill im alone afraid hurt one conversation turned past self im done guys dont want anymore want collect courage finally end please talk bruh wan na try sushi fucking bad looks absolutely delicious im pretty hungry rn oh wan na try bad know nothing good places around valantine another day anyone relate want join military selfish reasons male alwas wanted join military really dont care helping people feel real reason want adrenaline stress thing people dont want feel experience dont wont really dont care benefits status reason want structure anarchy selfish reason wanting join feel redflag thing dont fear death doesnt faze anymore care less died wouldnt want nothing selfish anyone wanted helpfor history sorta depressed years recently cheated dumped person considered family still person cares ok obviously shitty situation meantime found friends really support things hard pretty good qualifications cant find job anywhere graduating may guess curious people felt want help know obviously need help hate therapy feel worse afterwards want future anything actually want really want kill want exist anymore either least exist reality uhm yeah happened uhm today friend years told likes uhm dont know someone help goodbyei one send say people care longer care probably read anyway im sorry everyone im sorry sick im sorry illnesses ive unkind im sorry made feel neglected im sorry ive burden long sorry dog love much one keeping going please cry wait door love know well see hope forgive purchased ticket leaving morning never hear see sorry anything gone heaven safe forever someone check grammar message need send english teacher advice guess obvious reasons need write good grammar use right words send anyone message know girls talk memes apparently true sat room girls guys girls complimenting saying pretty us guys sitting heads playing thumb war running sticksi dark place right strongly considering taking life finding really hard find meaningful reason keep goingthrow lifeline tell please unpopular opinion cops good acab unbelievably stupid yeah said give proof cops bad nothing new tired seriocomedy wastes talents danny glover whoopi goldberg considering produced stars spike lee pretty tame tired stuff come whoop never changes hair glasses many years film covers blah posting song everyday day feel good mowglis daily songs playlist httpsopenspotifycomplaylistzilhbtxsnfkgatuareusiphehgubtjercctzxzuzmw im free valentines haha jk two assignments due pm pls dont hmu anyone feel mean nothingive depressed sometime anger sadness combined recently taken toll im angry furious life im terribly sad feel nothing started think honestly feel well parents suffered death theyll fine die siblings friends ok wan na spend years working shit job survive ill probably working fine job middle class wife kids want theres billion people earth im unique continue pls take survey class project thank youuu survey based schooling systems america mostly still feel free guess dont know answer arent necessarily things people know anyways let know link works name im scared go therapist owo uwu scared realize fucked terrible want continue things want go keeps assuring scared sometimes overwhelming feel disgrace part logically know much likes really wants stick around theres part genuinely believes good enough enough realizes fucked messed friendships therapy family life full nothing helli really hate life freaking bitch way much going right now girlfriend broke year ago actually trying move without try back way hard eventually became friends obviously family want hard repair relationships family think theyre willing listen even give another chance theres nothing fucking im hard time home hate hassled time full bullshit cant even bear already advocated hassled know stupid thought mutual agreement know family cares dont feel deserve theyve annoying fuck outta listening even worse went residential straight years sent hospital psychiatrist fucking times gg fucking years thats damn life teenage life ive seen hell ive hell actually places fucking negative impact almost perm affecting fuck really wan na see place staff member kind stupid shit places actually killed heart ultimately got point well im feeling indebted friends family every time try talk friend facebook something another friend friend mine badmouths friend calls stupid well fucking hate school outcast never got fad teenagers people called stupid friends really assholes friends hang add today got betrayed kicked group really fuck life fuck sorry long connected pretty sure probably normal cant see things getting better feel mistakes ive made going end making things fucking worse actually know hell except kill finnish teens im looking make friends finland im christian years ago started feeling god leading im us mom suggested try make finnish friends id love learn actually live finland ofc talk stuff love music writing im really us state trivia pm leave comment recently turned anyones interested id prefer recall choosing exist first place genuinely understand forced stick around suicide wrong posting daily gf day never faith amount anything weird thing correct fucking point anymoresaw got post twitter day thought id give go know live anymore see point purpose life little things happy anymore nothing seems make day give reason go injured back couple months back seems everything gone downhill cant help anymore cant exercise cope stress injury weight ballooned kg kg hurts lot worked hard kg kg seems alll effort gone drain started losing hair well bugs much cant deal going bald now im going bald disastrous started care personal image started losing weight hair became important aspect first time life age started grooming daily became much larger part thought losing hair soul crushing family life mess mums religious personally believe im atheist one psycho poor language removed tells everyone god real every time meet hard constantly barraged negative comments beliefs still come rest family friends point gon na happen find joy life anymore little things able listen music go short walk made happy past cant even enjoy things without pain hair loss makes scared go im selfconscious hair deal everyone staring cant go gym lift weights hours used cant hit bench tbar rows exercise made say purpose today life mundane sense cant explain happy quote oasis little things make happy right im reduced physio exercises make feel incompetent paraplegic fuckwit exercises simple boggles mind cant pain free months back exercising minimum times week fasted cardio weight training later day cant even walk painfree let alone anything cant little things anymore see friends enjoying life studying working conscripted side note theres conscription country cant things well conscripted back injury according md might need surgery surgery scare actually look forward means back right even poor language removed letter appointment simply told wait poor language removed letter appointment date right life absolute limbo cant anything right now pain help well call stubborn hate rely painkillers wan na create dependency drugs doc prescribed tranxene months back poor language removed mood use much either effects minuscule best right now typing kinda cathartic even little thanks anyone bothered read thanks anyone bothers reply year old gang rise part year old gang rise imagine imagine middle sucluded woods high cabin overlooking beautiful scenery lake distance either raining snowing staring window form cabin adorable furnished traditionally modern lovely smell cabin sitting extremely comfortable couch staring window scenery listening old records player theres lovely fireplace bit side keeping warm finally snuggled couch softest blankets significant peaceful happy content girlfriend tried commit redflaga little background girlfriendaby varying degrees depression kinda understand going throughbut worse little kid abused parents wasnt sexually abused hit father drunk mother left went similar path drunkher mother nice lady whenever come drunk mind mom happy drunk completely unable take care mom got boyfriend sobered aby wanted move ive standard job months nowmy girlfriend etsy account pretty successful usually come home beat admit havent showed much affection dont snap mad thative really tired whenever tries bed tell im tired day came home crying asked wrong said afraid didnt love felt worthless told loved explained im simply tired kept repeating love promise show affection stopped crying hung rest night next daytoday come times usual open door see crying eyes sitting bed drop bag asked whats wrong guess didnt hear come got really startled jumped got noticed revolver kept nightstandi asked said gt abystay back please stay back gtme whats going aby please whats wrong gtaby im done cant keep going want end gtme aby listen talk put gun everything going alright gtaby im sorry hope one day find heart forgive saw slowly raising gun sprinted across room swatted hand held collapsed floor dug head chest started cry keeping repeat im sorry tried calm caressing hair saying dont worry everything going ok things laid hour decided go bed laughed pasted memories telling jokes fell asleep im asking advicei love herbut heart broken know almost lost herwhat im really shaken idea famous person meet please share met met hihi wanted relieve stress want someone pity shitty really want die mum sets always gets angry im tired shit every single fucking day time wants leave house suggested kill time pass homework send obstacle resulted breakdown im verge killing know someone pity feel better shitty now vote ban call troll really want die best friend wrote redflag note worriedive known best friend isnt greatest time life confessed wrote redflag note week idea plans killing going shes tried cutting freaked never touched razor im really worried ive never seen low anything help watching movie thoughts another israeli typical movie suprised watch great israeli drama plot really good actors act great one best isreali movies saw bottomline really recommend movie something bad happened wholesome bunny minecraft named star killed fuck stray cat reason house aa need guys advice please theres girl know absolutely beautiful love death doesnt think way idk though idk wont give even pandemic ask come house parents funny business happens dont think way says yes set time comes watch movie play video games last couple times gone small ice cream place played mini golf went restaurant dont remember though dont know though love lot care recently lost great friend sadly didnt know well give condolences something happen earlier week asked wanted come cause wanted let know im sorry wanted make happy dont want sound selfish anything though want happy guys advice better thanks love think best everybody let go ive girl months weve together lot really thought one starting feel end seems good months now course im happy theres another thing dont think needs romantically anymore ive thought months doesnt treat good feel im something meaningless life broken twice times wasnt sure feelings said didnt feel right times told wrong week came together doesnt im affectionate maybe overtheaverage amount problems ive tried solve months im one trying love unbelievably much feel romantic feelings fading im sure though maybe period idk think best end call friends dont want kill happiness shes ill always love though messiah geometry class answering questions one graphing lines trying remember vertical horizontal line two fingers pointed know vertical dog literally laying floor even facing way stood soon lifted fingers felt god first one comment free award write something automoderator im ready give upi anything look forward whats point nothing committed multiple warcrimes first relationship ended cant copemy whole life shit one reason another always gone fits starts breakdowns inbetween short periods activityworkfriends trying best work everybody elses best friend needed shat used ive worked ten years depression anxiety awful experiences work never relationship anyone never believed even possible met amazing guy years ago weve never able make work disintegrating mess cant see anymore shot anyone life waited almost half fucking century first person say love im fucked handle intimacy sex trust cant go rebuilding life time time every years cant anymore im exhausted want die cant stop crying every time start talk gets intense held everything back realise ive lost want kill tonight totally enough edit thanks strangers talked last night im really touched took bunch valium last night top booze fell sleep straightaway must slept log good whole nights sleep still feeling shit today thanks want short hair convince want people make assumptions convenience im suicidalbut black come back wrong lane taking corners wake nightmares cold sweat cant figure im relieved disappointed still better reality scream top lungs head one sees make constant jokes sad go week speak word loud im ok im suicidal well done well done guys guys keep posting boys skirts pictures banned happy thanksgivingjust wanted hop say hope found something remind someones thinking holiday youd another stranger someone unexpected someone youd expect family friend coworker neighbor etc regardless hope youre well faceless internet wonderful holiday last day teen well everyone kind spontaneous post time surely flies realized last day teenager lots great memories great childhood lots time wasted browsing subreddit ive great things look forward applying med school months ugh still feel kid suppose really ambivalent feeling step next stage life manufacturers warranty manufacturers expected life span yay probably worse cuz allnighters anyway enjoy time cliche really live remember wherever go keep fighting ill see yall side haha found toxic guy name toxic wonders find nontoxic subreddit got banned check profile time winters day th december two bored year olds hire movie hmmmm police story looks interesting jackie chan never heard two hours later watching film daze wanted know years later severely pocket collecting jc movies film still grabs ok maybe soft spot first cannonball run count jc movie excellent movie classic jc elements action humour action heart action comments say dated made course dated must jaws casablanca singin rain godfather without movies police story hollywood action today ps set standards many scene stolen use movies really fully appreciate must see widescreen miss much movie yes really fall bus going round corner already see movie nowbr br kill myselfi deserve die almost year anniversary im thinking sooner please help melast year march th abuser left werent abuser time well yes favorite person loved lot woke morning message skype saying good bye need leave removed contact im gon na go much detail almost day cried nonstop couldnt person liked fucking left became abuser want talk call names partner literally describe wanted maim wanted murder cold blood happened spam id say months nightmares happened turned still going attempted kill using childrens liquid ibuprofen remember taste burning throat nothing happened though much shit happened want repress bad know fresh mind im panic attack cried sleep cut oh god cutting remember total cuts got home school one day incredibly unstable earlier year got called everything post one exfriends made tumblr said everything every disgusting creepy thing screenshots provided abuser friends boyfriend contributed post saying stuff ex stuff didnt want revealed stuff happy people reblogged saying oh god disgusting wrote redflag letter public saying steal bottle robittusin drink night didnt oh god memories oh god im fucking scared someone love leave march th year one week away want memories repressed bad im abuser im fucking abuser shit fucking creepyass shit unstable shit deserved didnt wrote fic drew art didnt care didnt care ruined ruined ruined oh god im crying im crying im scared im fuckign scared please god exist let march th average day please dont let leave dont desreve thus anymroe im trying hard survive im home alone literally take one dads belts hang right second everything finally finally everything lead moment know wont affected theyll shrug theyll go oh well deserved go life im crying im fucking scared didnt desreve time dont want dont want please god help edit went throguh tumblr archives march see find anything th found face wnant throw found posts exact time got ruined httpsgyazocombbdeedade even speaki fucking hate cant anything right argue others treat idiots im real idiot im aware yet cant stop try talk prevent littlest thing sets try fill say jokes counter act jokes find funny people think corny stupid im life still lives home im piece shit treats others piece shit im tired im tired existing one going love never loveable even bother wish stop talking wish stop existing helpi graduated college ive struggling depression now took turn worse summer first scary night went hated life fully completely first time know going texted someone talked calm state suicidal ideation became common experience senior year culminating nearbreakdown graduation ive unable find job effort call walkin talk manager uses energy im running money depression seems getting worse rarely go week without thinking much want dead moms health insurance cover therapy really know im isolating girlfriend scared might something stupid impulse bad day go know need job try jobs basically source anxiety future theyre enormous emotiondump hate idea getting soulless job thats going crush years time im end rope need help clue find anyone wan na uhh roleplay lmao im really fucking boredddd wan na try pretty fun dont topics mind knows lot group woah yeah anyways filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler need advice stop masturbating masturbate every night times ive recently noticed strong smell semen showered gone started thinking showering tought wow isnt good smell dont wan na smell masturbating feels great want stop dont know kind habit kind autopilot mode thought affect social life near someone stinks semen know want stop dont know sorry grammar mistakes dont speak english main language might going hawaii tomorrow idk wanted flex everyone much painso much pain much hate house everyone hates everyone yells one listens one wants anymore one leave hate resent much soulcrushing poverty wherever look cant believe person asked live way pumped full medications keep living way told shush pay live way live way goodbye want dieim gon na bother throwaway want die want feel happy take pleasure things used enjoy want die think reason im posting tell someone thanks goodnight keep surpassing lucas dinner time lucas sis hungry yeah pretty much lucas made delicious food make lucas lasagna thats nothing man lucas made lobster yesterday cream sauce delicious aight im boutta horny post warned guys unironically really use hug guys havent felt close touch somebody damn long hey guys bday today wish invite instead got virtual hugs digitalized cake love life left mehi cant say much right now im freaking boyfriend left completely random blocked everything closure fucking confused kind thought losing love idea come leaving without warning frozen words never loved somebody much honestly asked anyone better want die im afraid consequences want back needed im heartbroken never going forget honestly point know life anymore death feels option absolutely words miss fucking much excellent book lincoln american memory historian merrill peterson calls young mrlincoln boring dreadful film amazingly wrongheaded analysis simply proves great historians rarely fine film critics working doctoral dissertation abraham lincoln frederick douglass part preparation writing dissertation made careful analysis film tag gallaghers brilliant interpretation seminal book ford young mr lincoln comes culminating year first phase fords cinematic authorship greatest hollywood years ford directed three superb still fully appreciated films drums along mohawk stagecoachand young mrlincoln might seem odd say stagecoach fully appreciated purblind critics must perceive one greatest westerns perhaps even one hundred greatest films time fully appreciated three films work together kind trilogya triptych fact ford creating sort mythic history america screen drums along mohawk revolutionary war young mrlincoln precivil war americafinally stagecoach post civil war america three films common extended meditation american adam errand wilderness psychic social costs american manifest destiny america strives build new human city wildernesslincoln symbolizes americas journey seeks reconcile civilizational inmpulse law freedom wildernessyoung mrlincoln history full historical howlersas ford trotti well aware myth lincoln symbol justice mercy lincoln man wilderness striving found civilization within become remarkable lawgiver young america young mr lincoln historylike james agees long forgotten teleplay lincoln sandburgs biography epic poema beautiful epic poem erasing thoughts nearly twentyseven times feeling conquer review complex french drama read lips written five hundred reviews never found loss words director jacques audiards subtle yet inspirational love story thought poured loved hated film loves overpowered elements hated sparked debate within mind read lips drama precise character driven drama fuses social uncertainty crime lords doldrums everyday office work review begins crumble items moremuch much viewer pulled instantly emmanuelle devos portrayal fragile woman named carla whose strength lost males office well hearing difficulty audiard introduces us harshly world removing sound screen whenever wearing aid causing immediate unrest characters within film watching without sound world left open possibility frighteningbr br watch difficult unsettling woman setting life uprooted given opportunity meet paul played exquisitely vincent cassel slickedback hair mustachewearing lanky man released prison homeless jobless forced parole officer job carla paul meet moment instant unsettling attraction one think loves dark gets even fun think loves dark constant role reversal creates tone unknown viewers feel sympathy paul sleeps office carla helps carla looses contract rival coworker paul helps carlas ability read peoples lips comes handy makeshift idea paul continual jumps back forth keep chair waiting possibility light shine dark cave never audiard allow story take place continually introduces us characters one seedy next even rock solid foundation parole officer question wife goes missing subplot film first angered upon debate staple finale film yet none happened characters devos solemn homely look breathtaking changes image paul truth beauty discovered paul wildcard film continues seemingly use abuse friendship final endgame assume one carla takes one last shapebr br audiard knows amazing actors capturing characters cassel devos play cards entire time still sitting end chair story probably weakest part film first random interwoven stories seem unconnected first audiard lets connect bit bit entire parole officer segment tangent final scene solidified ends means attempting sound vague complex yet utterly simple story difficult explain plenty happening connect pieces favorite scene carla attempting discover money held use sound scene brilliant tense dramatic watching whodunit mystery unfold eyesbr br overall initially though mediocre french film easily forget proved wrong read lips opens floor discussion characters situations one find rooting carla one scene paul next discovery made pauls apartment carla found deeply angry audiard brought true emotion screen characters development lacking plot actors able carry easily suggest film anyone prepared one time viewing film repeat repeat repeatbr br grade id probably dead music didnt exist idk lil thought petition change flair subreddit otter sign show support whats making life worth living todayfeel free vent need place complain every addictive seriesi seen exact combination among drama action suspense scifi never impressed every chapter screenplay intelligent know creators invent amazing stories every character strange past troubles stormy relationships gives show human sense needed creating intimate charactersbr br incredible fact characters related among numbers met without knowing others enigmatic security system darma initiative elements let us lose chapterbr br mr jj abrams think create amazing story chronic depression foolproof plan scaredbe brave tell brave know means brave live brave die two weeks ill answer lifes problems method fail hopefully ill impaired enough livingdying matter family history parkinsonsalzheimers social anxiety bipolar disorder im quite close enough see rest life slow decline grave never made life job money way know continue live world ill nothing burden love keep cant even qualify social security death easier struggle find help found real help years got job got job fast food usually keep pretty late tips still spend time friends want die peacefullylife senseless nothing life worth living weird confusing dream point life good guess good grades roof house loving family thing sucks life im put torturing world energy anything fixing life itd much easier die see therapist months parents made stop seeing evaluation hospital perhaps stay week truly even help even point strength cope feelings itd easier let eat death ideal everyone knows cant die certain people hurt lot im cutting compensate desire kill death ideal solution really think fucked upa days ago told significant love leave alone wanted take distance kill feel guilty death emotional support urges kill keep growing life crumbling really miss nothing repair damage caused feels death way november beginning day pain misery hrs already im struggling pain real whole time im going make sure make one express pain reason even tho one asked im shellim going post long post past something make u feel badthat dosnt matterim looking resurance friends want someone tell wont always feel anymore want someone tell theres depression letdowns need someone tell gets bedder hope everyone good day um want see response post thats wanted say good day ok bye yall motheri job currently living father room reach touch walls time account thats roughly usd one cares even girlfriend obviously sleep hours day dad sees huge disappointment think redflag least twice day cry every time mother sad took life cant follow im useless pice garbage contribute society way hospitalization feels goodi hospitalized anyone effed feel boy fan conservatives rn th grade watched one ben shapiro video immediately considered republican watched conservative content plenty liberals owned videos seen error ways pretty central generally leftleaning funny see grown adults acting way year old acted back fact actually think trump pence either debates pathetic guys got diagnosed lethal illness doctor told ive got cold think im going die ive suicidal years differentmany people told time baby daze go blank eyes crying happy okay first time wanted run away three years old step dad locked outside lived one worst parts projects time said im going run away want mom camped bed truck went inside next morning awoke mom panic find spun nice web made feel bad scaring punished usual holding encyclopedias straight front undetermined length timedrop one two night went sleep came conclusion simply want exist first suicidal thought came six years old seemed birthday forgotten wasntmy mom gave one balloon angrily rushed groceries inside alone extremely sad threw weight tied ribbon balloon ground causing balloon become unattached cried jumped token proved someone cared flew sky thought occurred mom angry worried birthday six obviously see upset afford anything moment best thing thought fall large tree hopefully injured cease exist next decade learn control thoughts learn find things live learn detect episode unfortunately learning picked habit cutting never heard anyone pain make stop hand hurts hurt hand notice initial pain right habit took life hospitals took years anyone notice b poor c dad always told work helpful cant seem see light anymore thats now stopped cutting routinely years ago last years finally taken toll ive abused entire existenceconvinced im manipulative unstable although professionals keep telling im everything right led believe im far yet much less litany things last years though done ive seen caused much pain feel much pain time want scream cry laugh dance punch things used able talk thinking wayconvince bad making although reality much worse realized time cant feel end coming ive started writing letters even one life idea cant understand feels know theres train screaming toward bound tracks silently accepting soon dead reaching attempt die anybody remember super minecraft maker small burst nostalgia today remembered server called minecade game called super minecraft maker game basically bunch small mini games stories sprinkled decided go back play checked game super minecraft maker know one hell fact existed anybody remember game goodbyelife fucking retarded fucking relax everyone everything keeps fucking annoying keep losing everything complete fucking bullshit every single fucking day school starting need move different city dont feel living im extremely stressed parents opposite helping feels wasnt supposed fucking born keep losing keep getting beaten cant anymore ill finish kill myselfi f clean selfharming almost two months tonight cant help deserve relapse im ugly contribute anything world im dumb one cares feelings ill never make anywhere life one truly loved admired says much appearance born nice genes happen cant live life anymore seeing people age happy naturally pretty successful born life perfect im stuck ugly body fat stomach gross face acne scars body im dealing fact never amount anything deserve hurt deserve die part hopes one day something better doubt happen harsh reality makes want end life even anything left live aside amazing pet rabbits mom told commit redflag shed kill know anymore one talk yay sports team lost well em next year bois afl care really think want kill im huge failure see way end reasonable matter without gonei dont job live mom lack income large burden household im suck everything im really depressed dont think im yearold trapped older mans body happen see writing walli think im wasting everybodys time discernible skills make valuable world im wasting everybodys time mentioned earlier spend majority time playing super nintendo games live strange bubble ive fulfilled everything ive wanted im realizing bad life sucks yearold time divided street fighter masturbation im waste space reason live middle woods call hang belong world live afterlife better shit wantg jerk peace without acknowledging presence cant anymore first debut film riveting chilling moments best horror film fashion pit stomach tightens every moment film ending superb makers blaire witch obviously watched film ending end beginning end great movie piece japans great far scare factor perfect score makes think scared mind got serious question right now anyone remember ozzy osborne ate live bat one performances nowadays people cause global pandemic ozzy able eat bat ok cmon prince darkness ate bat didnt cause pandemic someone try thing doomed us economic recession great depression one year attempted redflagon october th itll one year attempted redflag im still deciding wan na celebrate day go another normal day come today tell people life gets better almost whole year intensive counseling appointments week every week ive become happier person im nearly person year ago broken depressed teen wanted end want people know gets better matter youre going figured id share success story need little motivation dont afraid seek help best option life gives counselor recently sent letter saying congratulations counseling free proud person ive become really made cry tears joy seeing someone proud progress ill leave lifes precious enjoy every second think want quitive already major redflag attempts year one landed hospital another put crisis center awhile know went wrong right time im wanting try accomplish stepdads birthday upcoming tuesday believe treatment growing one main biggest reasons im screwed im dysfunctional achieve anything least course im scared die causing family pain leaving sweet dog behind seriously cant function dragging everyone around draining mom love dearly cant needs live functional life im unemployed cant hold job cant even drive mind hellish hurt cry every day ive tried reaching scare everyone overwhelmed ive tried years counseling mental health facilities yet really see things life id experience want give feel cant take anymore breaks heart venting messed big time want diei something stupid year ago im freaking warning might nsfwim sure proceed caution used involved really weird fetish longer im honestly sure consider fetish dont think sexual thing anyways chatting discord instagram people shared really personal taboo stuff often frowned upon society stupid naive teenager shared private information probably shouldnt told told state lived never told city address part really messed sending picture face dont know chatting probably less week cant even remember many people sent picture really stressing month later deleted accounts something enjoyednot sexual way least recently remembered im freaking conversations people got along picture face publicly humiliated taboo something ill never tell anyone know personally chances messages big brain time gtif beat chess game smart stupid extrovert adopt ima shy good natured introvert anyone adopt please want anyone find bodyi cant someone see confirm death thing way fact thing donecan someone please shoot cut throat strangle death doesnt matter make happen ill anything mind racing whole break sudden thought end suddenly care anymore waiting court swallowed around half bottle gram coated ibuprofen tablets whole pill bottle pills enough long take farewell possibly scene shows wallaces experiment using brain manipulation invention goes terribly wrong creating rabbit desire social entrepreneur improve society better created brain manipulator machine risked life help solve tottingtons pests rabbit problem importantly overcome overcrowding rabbits collected stored basement though thought experiment worked resulted placing pressure gromit find solution annual vegetable competition risking life gromit silent faithful dog loyal helper finds continuously thinking innovative ways save master radical crazy inventions going terribly wrong interesting movie trying identify entrepreneurial wallace gromit ive thought redflag daily almost months nowits getting unbearable thing keeping thought mother finding hanging closet night fun one time spent entire night watching minecraft stuff watched minecraft animations bored sleep wanted cant believe months seriously pissed homeroom teacher school thing morning announcements every week give anonymous fun facts teachers today fun fact one valedictorian said loud much screw life valedictorian end teacher living dollar salary teacher staring rest class im scared tomorrow anybody remember orange kidz bop disk back came happy meals funky town chicken noodle soup dont know remember kill myselfi want talk want know im spent excuses buy medicines want something without pain something listening music smoking hi feeling one worst felt life older become hopeless always dream better days time riddled fears redflag life beautiful seem attract negativity even describe pain soul feeling even know start need write comfort moment severe pain lung beeing chainsmoker years daily paranoid death cancer even writing everything exhausting sometimes even power something drink lazy tired life disapointent give little power still without parents friends help drown sure man sad know women attracted depressed skinny guy girlfriend years hugged kissed cuddled girl years dying inside need chest thinking sharing reddit whatever reason longer time always spoon pillow imagine girlfriend everyday afraid die without knowing feels loved pain lung moment scaring death id happy someone chat little thank read whole post appreciate friend hopeless thoughtsi amazing friends great family good enough grades along things im still way ive tried near everything everything fails need somewhere rant guessi hate talking things never make posts tried long time ago got really good advice figured id try fucked ive made many mistakes life know ill able redeem see future even anywhere close meaningful got discharged military im weak fuck mental breakdown looked complete fucking idiot life living hell therapists pills psychiatrists one listening said things dont think anymore plan outpatient behavioral study whatever fuck called basically partial hospitalization hopefully calm weeks dont much hope upcoming weeks fucked relationship dont think things ive miserable love much made hard leave know given chance ill become complacent spot want make things right im disgusting terrible excuse human dont kn mow even point fixing things due ive lost best friend whos started talking wish never reached fixed things much easier right now know problems trivial im good explaining things im sorry sounds stupid guess wanted someone real listen one last time wasnt therapist paid care im probably much wimp even kill every attempt past ended way dont know im tired paranoid anxious miserable life im sorry midnight ramblings volume iii quick side note series call simply mental vomit whenever feel fatigued usually fallen asleep midnight name simply reflection state mind time drafting new entry high school relationships doomed fail everyone separated opportunities availability funds pull everyone universities trade schools careers point failure relationships parties involved become seriously depressed whats point risking happening multiple times high school ends become distant memory shared camaraderie risk dating even possibility two eventually spending life together thing love first sight everyone including seems confuse romantic love platonic love damn time personal believe one prerequisites romantic love two people complete belief maximum growth love people beyond fact brains high school aged people rewriting decision making parts said brains everyone high school relationship probably knows subconsciously bound go toilet point causing work hard need keep relationships afloat even long fuck mind destroying garbage known dating people actually telling mums crushessos mom keeps asking girlfriend im gon na make think im single forever probably tbh ll idk embarassing im religious parents condone stuff feels weird talk even friends romantic stuff people talk parents someone talk toi know keep reaching help people seem stop talking conversation even halfway either lives im burden dont respond panic right want someone talk wait therapy dont nobody talk real life didnt know post liketalk someone im upset ok respond fucking suck m couple unusually touchyclose nights vacation close friend f im ohio friend washington know parents met high school needless say see whole lot far away go vacation twice year families ive known whole life became friends couple years ago text talk every day mutual friend zone strongly although good friends never anything even close going beyond bi tell leans towards liking girls guys vacation montana pretty typical outdoorsy day vacation us ill call friend e first three days typical fun much talk last two nights stayed hotel gave us extra rooms reservation something messed due covid anyways got room e sister l got room room two beds well sort queen bed pullout couch basically single bed wanted sleepover type thing unusual comfortable whatnot first night played various games watched tv probably hour l fell asleep e tired went sit couch bed read old text conversations phone one point put elbow shoulder put elbow window car rest definitely pretty unusual touchy people physical contact wed fake hitting wrestling something phone anyways one point got photos sent messages tried take phone look pulled away basically ended lying bed trying keep away usually point give maybe reach around grab laid top one hand eventually gave move rested head shoulderchest probably half hour super late decided try sleep slept maybe hour separate beds someone made loud noise hallway woke although sister somehow slept e came back sat pillows played hair unusual said tired crawled bed laid next better part hour keep mind extremely small bed nothing comfortable needing sleep perspective sister started shuffle around e jumped quickly point went day mention anything except one point morning e made awkward compliments hair eyes ampxb next night situation except l fell asleep much faster e came bed time put head shoulder pretty much right away tired barely slept night laid next said tired asked put phone away laid said going go sleep patted top head said interesting gesture still exactly understand anyways sat gave standing laid back minutes later exact thing eventually got went sleep notably every time sister kind shuffled door creaked something e sat stood clearly want people seeing going ampxb weeks trip weve texted every day usual essentially mention nights except saying misses pullout couch bed comfortable really stress enough nothing happened us even year ago accidentally brushing leg made say ew note really initiate contact anything went along mind initiate basically everything really know now last thing want jeopardize good friendship curious two nights tldr spent couple nights close friend unusually touchy close theres mention idk now nobody cares way contribute anything society quit business alive wtf im hopeless livebefore vent ass legitimately cant wait year days know nothing special switch january december nothing day change seriously though gives opportunity make new year better happened year year far worst year senior year high school ended abruptly super long break later august started university wish didnt absolutely horrible im currently enduring christmas break took long time used things exams quite confusing anyways ive decided drop university completely ive already paid first semester dont plan next absolutely idea wanted wish learned earlier go community college instead least join workforce feel college isnt something frontal cortex fully developed make good decisions dont know career fit ive never job enjoy reading writing learning healthcare related sciences im fan math mainly hard time understanding weird thing used enjoy reading problem solving lot feel ive gotten lazier distracted easily something play hands order something ill fidgety think big problem im afraid touched dont anyone touching anywhere even simple high five handshake problem future job seeking im sure past trauma dont feeling another persons skin dont people looking think theyre perverts makes quite shy except im online anonymous forum place sometimes jealous envious others defensive im hopeless arent fucking know im trans always play female video game characters filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler pretty sure best friend girl ive liked years date told felt told likes doesnt see liking please help joking need save friendplease need immidieate help friend spain going kill soon said many times know nit joking need someone tell live poland call polish police tell anything everything make kill listen need take action every fucking time every time draw something make meme come post realize saturday ffffucck aaaahhhhhhh cke day love guys filler filler filler filler filler help ive ended bondage youtube theres anything wrong left youtube playing ended goat pentagram im either lazy change interested help pretend room bedsheets changed weeks cluttered see floor spot bed sit dented stained back room pretend happy pretend friends interact anyone sit bothered one see room let go step room pretend friend going kill right now please helpi know answer phone anything helpno one wants help tried helping nothing works redflag methods recommend care painful obviously handle pain well want know one guarantees success inbox thanks thought ending many times time come really start consider option day always convince least something go one goal achieve work anymoreafter years finaly met love life really happier day even hoped forthat last end day though confessed following things purely exhausting single minute relaxation nothing meaning said meet someone real life connection build one though chances falling love slightly even worse desired boyfriend neglected cuddling never felt good way wanted make happy least one moment achieved mind youshe told know yet even wants see hit hardest lose hope relationship woman love know much burden even aroundyou might find problems laughable really nothing life go ruined know yet pretty sure completed last chapter life bittersweet ending lost last meaning life monster sweeping garage accidentally destroyed two spiderwebs one little baby spider one dad think mom died saw dead spider web walli partially destroyed spiders homeam monster consider cutting someone specials name toxic ex cut time clean wasnt cut initial thigh broke kinda caused relapse got new bf really wan na carve name arm im scared hell think im gon na toxic boyfriend advice pls lt know whats wild one day fucker balls got integration shit shits crazy multiple half assed redflag attempts elementary schoolnot sure much actually intend say ive suicidal long remember think first attempt around age suicidal thoughts constant life age ive tried kill times success struggled self harm got close trying lost motivation even resorted staring floor realizing fuck past times planning going field near house jamming knife stomach probably badly worded whatever im incredibly frustrated especially years denied help medical malpractice bullshit pushing closer closer killing kept alive peoples sake coffee legit oat milk im even complaining tbh im didnt put coffee icced cofee oatmilk almost completely white tiniest brown tint pretty good still tastes sweetened oat milk average rteenagers user date hey girl wan na play number game oh never mind ill ask u mean whats height prefer guys circumcised mostly story growing relationship jeff websterjimmy stewart ronda castleruth roman takes instant liking jeff brief encounter deck steamer skagway longer look hides cabin authorities seek charge murder find things common besides animal attraction neither trusts member opposite sex apparently married spouses cheated gradually learn trust journey skagway dawson ronda clearly close dealings corrupt sheriff gannon engages shady practices castle saloon skagway eventually decide gannon jeff meanwhile rene young naive french woman takes immediate liking jeff gets insulting brush offs return yet sticks travels skagway dawson activities around dawson along ronda nurses back health jeff left dead gannons gunslingers gold claim walter brennan ben serves jeffs long time sidekick meaty role serves soften jeffs hard edges demise symbolically opens door woman companion replacement jeffbr br john mcintireas sheriff gannon makes probably charismatic evil town boss see film oozing charm humor go along bullying evidently sees something jeff repeatedly declaring hes going makes believable incarnation infamous soapy smith spent last years skagway one premier con men timesbr br jeff quintessential antihero lonerexcept companion ben want stick neck others even knows one right man job respect closely resembles burt lancasters character vera cruz example thus jeff turns job marshall dawson convinced leave dawson gannons gang move clear intentions taking everyones insufficiently legal gold claims disposing miners suggesting rest make hurried exit dawson even ronda suggests jeff make hurried exit dawson still alive jeff sudden change heart apparently still nursing desire revenge shooting ben changes antihero hero leading expulsion gannons gang dawson respect differs lancasters character never reformsbut jeff truly changed handing revenge wrongs committed interestsbr br main problem see plot principle women clearly ronda groomed right woman tame jeff although clearly characterized bad girl jeff checkered recent past shot least men us yukon stolen cattle back gannon ironically soon jeff changes antihero hero rhonda makes similar change running street warn jeff gannons impending ambush dies result jeff asks look herselfhis supposedly abandoned creedbr br clear corine calvert renee make credible substitute dead ronda jeffs mind yet apparent implication parting scene together even though jeff never visibly gives kiss hug image good naive young woman somewhat compromised job rhondas saloon bumping miners weighting gold dust pushing spilled dust floor recovering later im unclear relationship rube morris middle aged miner followers around works claim herhes fatherbr br another problem amateurish handling gun fight jeff gannons gang gannon skill pistol killed seriously wounded jeff boardwalk jeff jeffs badly shot right hand suddenly become well enough shoot pistol apparent ease wonder jeff friends help save avalanche victims much far away pull alive snow rondas pack horses mules buried avalanchebr br see host probably nameless familiar faces among miners gannons gang sequences shot canadian rockies provide breathtaking backdrop action allinall entertaining western major flaws concentrated end doubt film takes great liberties history geography especially part taking place canadian yukon fact much tamer us skagway wanting kill helping othersi trying positive things community live one counties state extreme poverty rate saying everyone poor wealthy neighborhoods sure police definitely give shit homeless people troubled youth white poc cis trans straight queer ethnic minority even though definite majority county cismale lightskinned guess straight idk definitely mostly attracted women romantically sexually queer thoughts tendencies whatever nothing consider queer feel id coopting stretching guess im beta whatever def frat bro college lives parents nice part time job campus try help youth community lot raising funds dreamer scholarships hosting know rights workshops families may affected current administration hosting allday higher education career conference every year junior senior high school students feeds breakfast lunch free gets familiescaretakers hair saturday work campaigns expand certain things help people campaigns people buy way office im fourth generation activist want help inspire next generation help people prevents blowing brains ive diagnosed major depression d lame social worker sent behavioral health hospital know getting thought going scan brain whatever im dumb lot times people make want end im marginalized bad person nothing even though im ignorant helps tell help shitposter commonly found found helping others community let alone fighting chains unaware current evil representatives smaller local laws elections want help tell fucking help tell campaigns critical im going waste time listening shitty panel campus three hours results progress plan fight system b thats liberal ill stick shitposting commie never helped person life audacity tell activists constantly found confusing radical philosophy know nothing banter tactics affective breaking chains know keywords memes call radical c think shitty ambiguous art project profit activism choir preacher hyper derivative works art think activism merely existing commonly found disinterested politics expects laws know change based outrage knows keywords radical leftist stalinist whateverists locks echo chamber build audience passive art meaning make artist look socially conscious edgelord instagram hate people annoying inactive want people help others know might something bring playbook experience knowledge simply fine echo chambers unchallenged oppression privilege know privileges social constructs wealth guarantee want kill reason besides hate height tremendously good day general body face okay guess work overlooked abcs millennials listed want help people lack support upsetting help less shit talking help many lives want die ill regret posting worried myselfever scared cause know happens basically ive felt suicidal everyday around years know feel still ive self harmed tried antidepressants counselling twice ive confidence anxiety bad cant leave house ive friends im numb aspects life feel trapped want things drive job friends family feel world better without im lost universe im scared didnt cut minkaticoodneveaindamawywattanothinnn started picking skin days ago cant stop skin looks bad think mom wants go therapy self harm dont think understands cuz im bored depressed d idea many different aspects lifelet preface saying although worked hard know im lucky person whole life ive complaints friends played sports girlfriends sex love experienced life average american grade schooler high schooler college student young professional experience im bit introverted plenty things feel ive wasted time worked hard high school full ride college worry loans lucky enough career pays year half graduating city cost living low im kind rambling im trying make point many people kill yet reason really want live im really sad anything feel ive experienced enough id fine living anymore way last decade id totally okay vanished thin air everyone simply forgot existed hate career im passionate knew wanted id throw current job heartbeat idea want enjoy really change fact desire live hobbies love snowboarding ive good girlfriends ive love even often want fade existence im pretty nihilistic think life intrinsic meaning ones responsibility assign meaning life ive never able matter hard ive tried purposelessness makes feel okay wanting alive times tougher now often lean towards wanting dead rather simply apathetic used think fun activities dating distractions apathy time ive sort assigned importance im living life point time maybe distraction apathy life supposed even cant help feel bit shallow know reality cant always even id likely sick time im sorry know really cohesive way thinking things typing tldr im sure life ive tried hard prescribe meaningfulness life cant really results apathetic living normal circumstances makes lean towards wanting live situations difficult thanks reading ill check back tomorrow anyone thoughts year old male suicide thought attempts feel everyone watching got redflag autism adhd paronia suicide thought depression hear voice antidepressants past couple years depression bad everything push one side back keep fighting anymore morning even want take meds feel commiting suicide stop feeling voice pain brain posture brain growth questions couple questions brain first wanted know bad posture somehow damage brain affect brain activity anything sort say neck bent wall looking often im worried secondly often said growth happens asleep mean missing crucial time brain development anything sleep quite late around hrs sleep finally opened feeling suicidal one trusted mostand reply people die someday life easy dont pain reason stop think adult right make decision say sorry reached ex years still good terms im stunned hurt cold hearted reply head messed right now constant feeling hopelessi sick feeling super depressed mixed anxiety hopelessness im dropped first year college november spent money college super excited friends friends hometown lost college lost friends made college moved back home one talk think felt best friend talk never felt really included anything feel excluded game call life dropped ive feeling crap everyday feel failure dropping college fucking hate every decision made everything leading present regret fucking hate life feeling everyday right part time job thats thing going life im working want sleep cant sleep want fucked getting super high getting drunk money make job buy weed weed thing make feel happy enjoy things feel nothing live second time ive felt hopeless life first time years later stuck stupid brain stupid thoughts stuck stupid worthless person everytime something good happens life gets destroyed give trying right now care sleep never wake care airplane crash landed top right now feel never find happiness rather feel nothing right now today ive literally spent hours bed today motivation anything cant see happy cant remember last time truly happy cant remember genuinely enjoyed life cant remember feels wake hate life cant remember feeling actual human earth remember pain remember darkness cant see light literally talent good nothing cant ammount anything useless person never career life want right curl bed fall asleep hope never wake im living keep dad alivei hospitalized weeks ago suicidal ideation dad told killed hed kill never liked dad much pretty toxic im living moral obligation keep alive told methods hed use everything hospital life sitting shoulders dont wan na live keep someone alive wan na live im finally happy theres hole chest hurts everyday im never getting bed suicidal ideation back mind everyday dont think im gon na happy im stuck im tired finally got gf even talk insists still together help go whole story basic details year old guy homeowner years current career career job homeowner creative person new firsttime father experienced depressive episodes severe depressive symptoms gotten worse gotten older taken responsibility burned people repress heartdesires live fulfilling life travel take risks etc done less conventional things therapy tried multiple drugs even yearlong clinical trial experimental drug treatmentresistant depression etc able travel weeks winters three winters row probably happiest years despite good things happening life lately tend always dwell really negative things trauma experienced devalue discard manipulation cruelty others sense worthlessness morose sense nothing really matters forgotten one day last years really really struggling finally find something works suicidal ideation less always different intensities volumes depending happening feeling lot live right want part daughters life much success mood drugs talking primary care doctor seeing psychologist etc feel almost something dramatic check somewhere order proper diagnosis treatment plan finally taken seriously always afraid costs possible intervention policeauthorities point lived long imagine living another years hate major depression viewed weakness chronic condition kill people anyone done peoples experiences hospitalization inpatient treatment well time now probably early spring clue set enjoying new job much new feeling took job january woke tired today day went ability focus work maintain motivation work day quickly deteriorated dinner plans eating managed protein bar lunch usual normally hungry depressed binge eat often boyfriend decided cook meal meant make us eat healthy dinner laid made bed things around house bothered matter moment time redflag wasting time laying find good reason actually hour ago started crying feel heavy lowgrade electricity skin uncomfortable idea feel sadbut know boyfriend ignoring night dinner help sure made food though eat never checked got mad asked probably millionth time last years touch stomach came say goodnight went bed stomach touched explicitly clear relentlessly care boundaries called via asking thing curtly said goodnight left without giving kiss usually done punishment guess often withholds various forms affection usual behavior surprised surprised never checked selfish selfcentered likely narcissist talk many problems impact behavior way treats done absolutely nothing improve overall mental health depressed long sure long expecting help today anything really brought wanted mention still nevertheless feeling disappointed person care give care past given positions reversed today knew still sucks either way already sad know help situationbackground depression problem life last years min mids now better go long stretches almost months completely fine feeling curedand something set downward spiral usually quite slowly see coming getting better identifying symptoms starting onset start employ various countermeasures sometimes often really tough identify triggers come back depression bad insatiably hungry tired unfocused unmotivated sad crying experience loss interest friendshobbiesfun loss sex drive sleep sometimes accompanied redflag attacks onetime panic attack redflag new party last years nearly much issue times sometimes depression sometimes fortunately able force work never really impacted career much depressive episode last days months though awhile weeks live boyfriend love despite narcissism bad swear lot problems problem putting first andor selfish hes almost lived together almost years manageable afford option anyway might helping depression purposely making worse lot better last several guys us employersupplied health insurance cover therapy afford therapy outofpocket researched extensively lethargic lowgrade redflag sad reason simps failed pimps pimps successful simps sub onlyfans httpswwwonlyfanscomtitoslavia im stressed confused everythingive constantly stressed entire summer break sats school schedule next year excessive although technically want led constantly hyper reactive surroundings getting mad things excessively trivial feel mad helpless every time blow mom addition genuinely confused sexuality gender identity family anything morally maybe subconscious social thing idk know im sure sexuality helping ive got social academic issues life either made consider redflag know disappoint many different people family school teachers friends well cant even come close actually constantly go possible scenarios commit redflag despite knowing cant possibly healthy hope ill pull time many times knows whoever spent time reading strangers annoyingly long post seriously thank read make decisionsto anyone considering redflag ive personally affected redflag last months twice want provide support considering never able tell passed loved meant lot em understand want know even though seems nobody cares sometimes care least redflag devastating even seen long time first friend mine died last november seen two years yet almost everyone known showed wake funeral ive never seen many people crying one place second hopefully last friend died killed night halloween knew really well able stop thinking morning couldt stop thinking first friend died months time around personal even able attend funeral go college state fact destroying inside going take long time understand accept friend dying really want make decisions even feel everything wrong please please please choose death affect people thought possible want know people find said decision alone remember love even though never met care please choose enjoy rest life safe night seriously normal cry everyday times day remember years ago lot things happened unfixable much still feels weird remember last time felt happy feeling guilty time everything remember last time felt good take medication used judge people thought suicide damn looks fix things normal im soooo fucking happy fuck yes got english language im going fucking annihalite every single one english books finish never want see months go orally rape ass fuck english hope die im fucking happy got didnt fucking died parents people care die someone recently committed redflag comments photos amazing hate see go literally people ones bullied redflag yet seem care damage done late expect spelling mistakes story references written spoilers guess trench whistle called night sergeant shouted men lined walls soon go top soon go running field barbed wires dead bodie infront machineguns jim filled andrenaline waiting finally fight rot dirty trench weeks months lets go germans jim shouted men stood ready charge responded shouting hussah loudest bravery mostly false save jim afraid knew likely shot even trench almost relieved years bleeding starving freezing place called western front place never changed likely finally free place suffering place frozen time even though different thoughts went different peoples mind matter wanted happen reached german trench got slaughtered way thing one know soon enough call came whistles rang men shouted feared hope fell first seconds others rushed straight towards enemy trench among ran jim know running wanted save world wanted hero simply everyone answer question now time think now another whistling sound spread across muddy broken fields sound knew well sound artillery look everyones face look horror even though got used hit relative safety trench field machineguns rifles artillery aiming directly different tried running even fell feeling pride left jim fuck thought need away now amount men behind made impossible run back continue thing frightened jim guns firing prepared always thought brave go top now nobody nobody everyone tried hide nobody wanted seen weak mentality showing weakness got forward bullet struck jim matter brave trenches love life bravery accept fact shot tried back couldnt please help cried please love god leave nobody heard continued cry help words never left tongue continued try fight death couldnt everyone feels die thought jim given trying help answer everyone dealt last time differently people mikhail died accepting point trying fight others sam died without getting chance think died jim trying fight end everyone dies dies home beds others muddy field france everyone matter believe matter done finds eternal sleep eternal peace hello name ang years old within last couple days gotten really depressed due build family issues yesterday lost friend told guy liked sensitive rejection even guy week idk hurts much crying hours straight idk hope someone understands going sure happening besties wrote song yall think yeah im next level legit click click click yeah im next level legit click click yeah yeah yeah im next level legit click click click yeah im next level legit click click yeah yeah im next level legit im next level legit im next level legit im next level legit yeah im next level legit click click click yeah im next level legit click click yeah yeah im next level legit im next level legit im 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miss white sheets used lay close blue summer sittin high window phone calls every night new glow clique running mind rainbow love let go took lungs choked long drives divine sun showed clique running mind rainbow yeah miss im next level legit miss miss miss click click click yeah miss im next level legit miss every night click click click yeah yeah yeah miss im next level legit miss miss miss click click click yeah miss miss miss im next level legit miss every night click click click yeah yeah yeah im next level legit click click click yeah yeah im next level legit yeah yeah im next level legit miss click click click yeah yeah im next level legit cured princess crush guy ignore pls see foodsea level remade love julius couldve done oooo remake movie pixar style put focus plot julius love movie feel great attachment towards better voice acting love sharks fish julius pmtj feliz ao nuevo desde argentina happy new year argentina recuerden viva pero viva la patria open parents mental health ive struggling self harm depression years old im currently high school ive gone therapist two times visits year apart reason parents even took first place becaue found completely drinking self harming always struggled opening long remember two reasons dont feel safe opening im either met frustration disbelief misunderstood second reason ive always closed person makes extremely anxious even thinking opening dont want upset bad im mental health fucking horrible past weeks im failing classes house grades basically equal worth person theyre threatening take things away allowing see friends things keeping going moment dont start passing tell mental health reason im failing classes ive self harming edward twilight never adult say twilight cringy trash keep seeing twilight memes find funny nobody mentioned edward died never legally allowed drink bella hadnt become vampire relationship considered pedophelia frozen teen forever find really funny suffer let us begin saying films english title power kangwon province absolute misnomerit hong sang soos filmthere actual shots warstroubles conflictsso idea establishing power province neither suitable valid context filmif judge film korean language titlekangwondo ui going appear cryptic statement emotional turmoils young protagonists whose minds resthong sang soo directed highly prolific visual document erratic choices made people livesthe people question couple young girls constantly process displaying moodswhims fancies making film nothingness claimed film makers meritorious virtue hong sang soo saluted courageous film maker whose films speak volumes ubiquitous nothingness human relationshipssentiments liveswhether one likes notthis fair conclusion deduced particular film name duncan years old fucked bad want kill myselfso goes two weeks ago super christian parents caught lover male german shepherdhusky mix consensual sexual intercourse course freak fuck started hitting dog knot still stuck heard parents talking uncle suggesting exorcism performed decided send psychological assessment instead went doctor tell always animals fair society puts unnecessary constraints show love affection okay interracial homosexual couple legally pee okay dog shove dick ass anyways doctor diagnosed asd something happening parents put killed lover said tainted found went bed crying woke crying put cherry fucking top little bitch sister told everyone school im depressed alone skip school go bridge cry contemplate death throw rocks stray cats think im going go hypothermia heard last moments absolutely euphoric cut deep enough actually see fat freaked second life going forever trying deeper deeper done fighting fight left exhausted tired hi fello gamers gamerettes discord server friends trying new peoplee chat send memes play games minecraft among us overwatch stuff going commitment guys girls welcome dm link d contemplating redflag lately struggling reasons iti trans woman likely never able afford gcs relationship someone keeps demonstrating want caregiver instead partner doubt happy love despite explicitly stated hurt self left even bring leave love aging ugly trans woman cant afford complete lost feel choices life miserable glorified caregiver helpless manchild spinster freak ill miserable alone hard see reason keep going feel hopeless saw movie flight philly denver screen three rows front x really going watch malcolm middle thought id watch minutes next thing know im sucked great time pleased good fast seemed make time go agree acting good level entertainment one older baby boomers pleased see lee majors role movie couple actors famous jamiel yesterday spotlight today poking fun themselvesbr br basic kid wronged kid gets even everyone enjoys process heavy thinking great analysis needed good fun way pass timebr br give upi dont actually guts kill still give im done trying im going lay day day exist die naturally decide stop eating starve death may physically killing im still killing maybe one day ill guts finish ill sit die old alone dont feel rewriting backstory go find post ranting relationship cringe alert ive always weird standpoint relationships always weird tastes made nit fit mostly fine friend mine really sweet helpful rarely talked remember made difference used hug treated people school eventually people paired groups left alone dont feel connect dont feel connect anyone weird things try fit norm start feeling bored really dont bond makes feel belong anywhere really bond someone start slipping away stop talking know fault really weird hard see everyone used love doesnt even bother talk thats everyone school feel really anything important people wont talk unless forced dont care made friend gf id say shes friend gf girl girlfriend rate tend imagine world talk live happily know dont worry appearance know love either way problem feel lying super high expectations go back life way anything happing try talk old friends nothing try happy nothing one plan left dont know fails fails catastrophically moving another place schoolcountry one school gives fuck maybe school maybe find another girl girlfriend setting super high standards especially look shitty standards judge least quite cute sense humor fits mine better bond something common things better little mature dont one tiktok girls feel robots anything fit norm furthest thing norm wouldnt little silly fun sweet really lie quite high standards beauty example trying racist way dont feel attracted black people even tanned sorry offended anyone dont uh actually think damm sound really racist actually found girl girl talked begging changed school although try talk rant sry bad english btw tell little girl everything feeling okay options parents know help mean feeling wayi wish tell gets easier sad see year old feel let betrayedand make better decisions something mental health end hashow tell child spend every day wanting die go back talk child im actually annoyed parents caring much metheyre literally thing thats keeping killing hope one day everything gon na better literally nothing worth living right now nothing think ill miss end thought parents enough keep im child know love much destroy knew ive thinking cant say kill lose life shitty awful parents least way id another excuse kill without guilt im derpessed bc cant go endure moms yelling insultsim helping bring back food car shes gott abe screaming whyd u bring cereal firs wheres cheese calls whores child jst bc didnt bring certain item right away ampxb im pretty sure wont allowed move even money mom gets phsyically violent doesnt way shes thrown things dad even tho dads mistakes cleaning space im scared try take away debit card knows enough move idk rarely parents leave house police escort idk im confused ik first need focus job saving seems huge fiasco im tired waking upim tired waking faking ok suicidal thoughts increasing feel trappedmy job making feel completely miserable superior abusing power creating hostile environment result people work directly dislike well im scared go work monday cant quit bills pay cant seem find another job either ive year find suicidal thoughts growing frequent im taking cocktail medication going therapy doesnt seem help dont see way death want pain stop dont feel last find another job found suicidal method yet terrifies long distance boyfriend attempting kill right now boyfriend lives wales tumultuous argument today threatened kill paranoia feels depressed times hes tried kill cut teenager nearly hung himselfonce hated first took walk slept went back word said loved cared something stacked top argument flipped tried slitting wrist called laughed joke said going stab heart hour ive contacted friend contact parents emergency lines hes busy said worry asked friend times boy cried wolf way call police numbers abroad ive got address several social media accounts phone number etc hes online lives parents wake around please assurnace buy time stabbed heart begged stop truly cares im scared know affect us want supporti want end life want somebody support somebody judge call weak wanting weak continuing life past year completely miserable every single day want say bye loved ones without trying stop lonely without son feel awfulfor year ive without son one ive severely depressed crying time never wanting talk others along threatened people nobody defend parents strict thing keeping happy fantastic grades childhood finally escaping horrible people life felt missed much young much missed horrible things done others ignored depression instead moved happy life getting job lawyer stories knew job help keep going amazing meet many new people keep great financial position adopted son never good childhood focused amazing one kept happy young boy actually looking good life throughout time interested politics always told leader one day everyone happy joined military knew reminding great person hell become butdisappointinglywith gone feel lonely reminders past nobody either 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care enough browse subreddit reach someone struggling ive recently diagnosed things gone downhill pretty fast never saw kind person act terrible thoughts head weekend stood train tracks cried felt accepting im scared found staring knife minutes flew plane traveled dangerously close city skyline problem parents brother flight want die hate thoughts im thoughts cant control stopping acting im control depression causing want stop gets worse im already medication going two fricken therapists want act feel im heading darker darker place feel useless spent whole morning trying look good fucking class cancelled fucking hate luck daily tip previous dont assume everything youre told authoritarian figures parents teachers etc true research much build opinion said topics im fucking tiredeverything feels wrong decision everyone ive known probably sees disappointment future bright feels never ending dark tunnel pointlessness thought never thoughts thought id never urge fucking routine point getting every single day blank face hiding im actually feeling cuz dont ill banned vocational school dont know im holding onto point exhausting fear ruined life fail every job panic afraid failure bail fail every task try deal embarrassment quit stupid fucking girl liked much good liked alot let fucking stupid tell felt gone one realistic chance alone gone going stuck purgatory failure ineptitude loneliness die going end life summers end one thing longer going bitch starved anyrhing worthwhile life deserve allowed die coward finei guess kind rand thats right word im english suicidal depressed years age still feel depressed getting much better im older still one main problem problem simply ignore im struggling somehow breaking parents know depressed mom really believe still pressured talk people year talk many different people parents apparently gave choice serious help go christian camp weekend someone know phycology degree year old obviously chose latter hated talking people remember getting choices remember anything year better met amazing people lately feel dead better guess thats wanted say getting sleeping pills sleeping deathhas anyone wanted pass away sleep want stop eating drinking sleep eventually wake kill constant dreamsmy ptsd dreams constantly never leave vivid dreams every time shut eyes draining kinda bit break tonight suicidal ideation active usual want swallow pills fall asleep forever thing stopping really planning dog loved ones even boyfriend cant stop dog need good vibes sent way try fall asleep tonight dont know want wake dont want dog suffering god help brain girls really say kill men mainly referring straight white men saw straight white man kill video dont understand ones problems invalid pain man went fact wasnt even scared broke heart pieces men different women kam girls men commit redflag x women dont invalidate pain yall quick see got raw evidence actually goes real life guys horrid trust know lot feeling wanting end longest time especially sorry much pain hope gets better us world sucks peoplesuck friends gfbf fwb family let us try make best see another day sorry unpopular opinion chase good song fight im awarded lot posts rn warned unstable getting worstrecently graduated high school starting college monday already feel program summer slow mostly work went times enough liking even know going people parties day activities chillings etc everything distractforce stay normal friends im attached two closest friends piss one always jokes pansexual stopped talking part close family parents brother piss feel connected feel respect part thats understand understand ive mostly talking people online last year started hating almost everyone ones close usually ends getting shitty phase blocking everyone probably loved people friends intimately anyone offline life connection easy break though end caring particular reason moving feel love people around time dont right im shit phase relatively calm right now feeling much go bathroom kitchen matter seconds become intensively sad feel shit im home alone become someone totally different sing dance go swimming unless altered state alcohol weed mind usually keep everything hate show really feeling emotion slips anger guess cant keep one gets big feel exhausted sad angry really feel shitty feeling angry feel im good person things think people see around way think general makes feel giant asshole emotions unstable guess im diagnosed everything psychiatrist december january got redflag attempt one emotion break way unstable now pissed thought adhd gave help doctors lied pretended everything fine gave sleeping pills witch never took ive pretending now know im trying felt sharing people thoughts think post bit edgy liking felt sharing biggest fear bad state something stupid take bus metro every day go school theres nothing stopping jump rails oh well quick last thought anyone emotion bursts im positive bipolar disorder might passing took screening tests know accurate thanks taking time read magical ability piss mom brother give mom shit argue sister run away city manage temper two time say one thing way slow chore anything loses shit maybe actually deserve maybe attacks knows fight back either way im wishing day end sooner travel another state leave alone dream one day theres gon na equivalent rickrolling intro cutsceen skyrim mean already frequently used might well eachother joke listen people ill give better review movie friend love jill johnson played camilla belle babysits mendrakis house someone breaks wondering got house went garage likely anyway listen worst acting amazing acting great story think benefits jill shes fast runner track team got alive lolbr br cool movie quite scary check happy masterpiece listen people site good trust good reviewing movies im future movie critic totally want buy movie see amazingly awesome im commit redflaghello ive never made post first last post last months truly completely lost everything life meaning february went mental break tried hook another girl relationship dumbest mistake ive made cant believe nothing happened fact still counts willing cheat girlfriend girl dreams made every single day worth living made last months august person post facebook status effectively ruined life every single way shape form accused sexual assault merit police even take case community live apsolutely murdered cant leave house without feeling scared cant eat cant sleep im upto day literally sleep ive started micronap last weeks ex partner parted ways good terms stop calling got sad every time called manipulative thats afraid really final straw ive never hurt anyone life crying emotional angry sad time take single call ive phone many redflag hotlines still even slightly deterring truly believe nothing left life live now got fired every person ive cried help simply said theyll see tomorrow answered phone cant anymore life going lost live tried fucking hard smallest bit left dont wish stronger im started planning recently limit days talking boyfriend bursting tears easily seeing face state amp hearing cried voice breaks heart guilt trip stuff understands painit feeling want realized reason need reconsider suicide care afterlife family sadness painful stuff ending ed psych ward boyfriendbut still fucking hard keep living hellish torture want make crythink many relate thanks reading want kill cry want someone listen feel scared depressedthis going wall text im sorry im anxious right now sad hate feeling even real reasons sad fucking hate feel cant suicidal thoughts leave keep happening frequently intensely feel everyone better without boyfriend years annoyed lately much patience anxietydepression bullshit anymore feel deserves much better happier someone im selfish live without cant love much think dependent texted telling im anxiety attack reply think ignoring scaring shit dad killed years ago miss fucking much want anything self esteem fucking hate body ashamed body think let anyone see naked body thinking makes want throw think boyfriend body either nice think found deformity nsfw httpwwwdrhayleybrowncombreastliftwithaugmentationlasvegastubulardeformity started anxiety attack ive always hated breasts knew ugly confirmed everything ive believed boyfriend says likes know cant true think stupid college im assignments cant stop crying know going sad anxious want die parents standoff allowed house till give phone im tired bullshit food inside garden hose stay weeks die one us caves problems bad peoples still feel absolute shit deserve anythingi barely talk anyone always house really good year old never gf probably never shy talk anyone normal person know never kill scared family meant go collage month another failure life people never take seriously time ignored noticed need something almost writing want talk someone anyone time waste im fed brain help getting medsto preface first reddit post idea im anyway going give away much info im live uk college probably years depressed start high school finally got courage go doctors told situation miserable enjoying anything history self harm shitty family life gave form fill send away counselling come back couple weeks later see another doctor first one got transferred basically tells im introverted exercise ill fine even though tell ive tried exercising regularly made difference really listen tells give antidepressants send way good need counselling though id already sent away application nothing finally start counselling two month wait guy nice enough makes feel uncomfortable tell situation agrees yes fact need counselling aspergers even though told frustrating one honest much help im really wits end enjoy nothing college waste time cant deal constant headaches lack motivation anything anymore im deteriorating normally multiple times year one taking seriously im done going cycle time nothing pull know need medication one listens im terrible explaining people im tired fighting getting nowhere let anger anyway im thinking something weekend sure whether going full attempt half assed one getting blackout drunk enough someone take seriously im fed years ive thinking attempting waiting things either better better neither happened honestly whats loose point ive bought shit ton envelopes im going start writing letters loved ones today try power weekend loss write lot waste time guess sorry messy post fuck know anyone knows theres way taken seriously medication id appreciate let know fuck cant deal awake anymore transition inner anger outer anger case mass shootingsi want preface saying sensitive topic speak internet way making threat suggesting action taken merely hypothetical discussion hopes community better understand us take extreme actions want hurt others speaking cases murderredflag cases outright mass murder thats another long discussion use word victim describe people commit mass shootings speaking hypothetical point time react way suggest us risk result born extreme byproduct extreme environment true address victims give title many others speak perspective hold insight share please redflag self loathing need exterminate world even mods refer empirical model one base understanding redflag agree fully basically claims redflag option occur person perceives burden others society b experienced painsuffering repeatedly going redflag outburst desperation end suffering called life trudge dayin dayout factors come play suffer choose harm others well one argue innate trait happens add issue redflag one argue vein behavior byproduct environment grew debate eugenics constructionist points view point something occurs add element think switch flips want hurt want hurt world think second switch two exist simultaneously wed look people want kill dont want kill people maybe sense empathy humility instilled abuse world put upon maybe stepped much affirmed identity doormat meant underneath everybody sole purpose case world becomes much feels telling end agree yeah burden yeah waste time yeah hopeless fight flight system responding freeze accept fate regardless dislike want matter need matter much ask better perhaps selfloathing aspect belief genuinely bad world makes feel want extinguish billion fingers pointed chastisement state self value reduced beyond zero negative state owe world apology merely owe world apology merely social norm kill people pretty simple okay causes somebody transcend social moral boundary lets consider may happen somebody going experiences lose self value happen sense injustice arise anger probably come form self defense original sense self loathing merely reduced erased element self hatred feeling burden somehow coexist victim may become lost depressed yet simultaneously sense evil world victim may become lost depression yet simultaneously sense injustice clashes inner conflict fueled victim hates locked perspective endured abuse incredibly disorienting everything learned true wrong world taught yet world punishes trying world wants seem suffer point anger self hatred builds bleeds realities cases victim dissociate completely different personalities inability comprehend two opposing ideas time part therapy accept things fault easily swing outwards blame upon world anger self hatred bleeds realities mind okay cool weve established victims susceptible becoming murderredflags may emotional purgatory juggling dichotomy two realities trying control life pretty disorienting huh many experience without wanting hurt others happens make want hurt others transactional sense success tie effort self value separate value effort victims mental health help relatively quickly never think want hurt others initially see value seek help know try hard want ultimately understand forces work world going result fruitlessness point victim feels awful knows fault solution every corner turn world punishes efforts try better surrounded others chastise different cross line feeling urge medical care immediately becomes unavailable instantly dehumanized feared nobody help much mention want hurt others go straight hospital rehabilitation removal society alienation point process cause myriad problems world punishes efforts try better world punishes efforts try better think turning point hopeless actionless snap one day think huge buildup trying normal function properly world tells effort well intended ultimately misplaced lens depression distorts world never saw coming dialogue family members try world turns around punishes matter want simp world nothing desire matters existence required suffering sadistically used world instructions make stop think anger comes even though end result redflag us nonviolent added element efforts encouraged punished world hypocrisy break anybody fragmented shell human feeling shit often lean towards acceptancedepression angerdepression energy caused suffering allocated differently based brains chemistry actions taken people effort silence deafening noise installed heads core idea something actually respect stand right people likely think theyre going die might well make sure world knows tolerable treat people way believe thats mindset agree think right thing even writing post probably puts ip watchlist seems stigma surrounding discussion much sympathize single person whos committed atrocities bad apparently withstand attitude avoidance country towards tough topics think world keep seeing mass murders unless understand fuck happening heads thats comes heads interpreting environment nobody born wanting shoot school given circumstances believe wed see many people fall mindset take actions circumstances specific go evidence support white males primary demographic another post maybe know ill live point see become public understanding knowledge die rights deserve community human beings change many innocent people keep dying thank reading encourage share experience whether current past wish love peace throughout day sure doi used go ivy league school last winter really tough time wanted kill decided ask help much faith psychiatric process hoping someone able give reason day reason something rather nothing much surprise put mental hospital thrown school sent home week prescription antidepressant told reapply future reapplied current term rejected apparently think need time recover even though bother talk doctor home give warning might reaccepted week beginning fall semester sorry tedious background story wanted provide context question keep trying try hard eke existence pretty much every day fucking miserable ive spent long time therapy ive probably taken half dozen different antidepressants times life ive felt even slightest hope future result massive delusions possibleplausible ive felt slightly happy influence terribly unrealistic dreams idea keep trying go admissions process former college find new university might accept transfer next couple months probably go find job go effort exactly end goal im working towards sorry tedious selfindulgent rant seriously idea asshole hiding room family member friend quietly play highest note harmonica think ears ringing drives insane might kill tonight pills ready overdose hang myselfi much stress life got done cutting wrist top bottom sides cut arms moving legs one talk tonight going insane every day life lay bed waiting die enjoyment tired living life sucks cant anymore pills right next ready die death longer seems scary find thought death relaxing feel selfish hurt anymore thing think peace feel die longer belong universe never cancer cell human race time die cant stand living anymore guys finally ive got girlfriend really nice plays genshin watches anime wait im starting suspect one bros disguise trying comfort lonely ass one better feelgood films kate capshaw leading allstar cast small town love letter first scenery beautiful anyone sees film want move location crazy cast capshaw stunning lead actress captivates emotional rollercoaster role tom everett scott charming author note throughout film always delightful ellen degeneres hilarious blythe danner actress plays bookstore saleswoman terrific although unsuccessful film great short sweet well romantic soon sleepi honestly think going hang soon wish big deal kill youself want say goodbye people properly want big surprise say wish stopped wish told wanted say want hug mum last time us know last time happy going better place dont feel crap day school feel everybody experienced least life cant play video games go outside even antisocial feels forced world bunch dicks theres nothing eventually feeling goes away within week two feels meaningless wash rinse repeat routine new havent dark place yearsthe world gone mad question thing stopping thought pain id cause others leave behind selfish truly believe pain far greater temporarily suffer feel sick days end eat enough lay bed listen stomach smell dirty dishes sink think washed hair days feel sick go back sleep shut feel sad feel sick exhausted disinterested used much art guitar hikes teenager interests sit across room collecting dust days work manage done unless end going bed around pm home usually random bursts motivation allow cleaning hygienic things embarrassing boyfriend gets home sees laying bed still pm go things spent day thinking maybe able drag bed go something course usually busy even go things always come back feel want sleep helps chores expect pick sitting thinking need shit together attracted someone show parents house looking great convincing life going well go home lay bed think body going deteriorate longer lay know shit together though weird people call admirable capable half decent job degree inside feel really anything half memorable interesting read people saying learn lot really mean different anyone end life interests actually mean anything make difference kind live die health conditions make functioning hard pots structural issues makes hard walk around sometimes stay active feel full energy think emotions related combines larger hurdle overcomei dunno feel lot fact feel lot sob child heart feels explode go back numb hungry sleep next time alive enough feel pain rambly borders nonsensical saying thinking certainly talk people life feelings done made realize sound broken record point need ask crying bailed plans heard million times breaking cycle feels impossible whats better gon na delete post later need help first care anyones feelings think led enjoy hurting people physically mentally guilt ill want matter immoral ill execute everything way cause significant damage life hate everything self acknowledge stuff ive done depressed isolate hurt regret waking feel tired time wait day end every day options theres thing alternative im already terrible person never change hurt people closest never kids partner anyway please help eternal atake dropped already bruh thought finally freewell kinda thought made plans grabbed need trudged forest set walking around hour found single tree hang none trunks branches im sitting alone forest noose bag im tired feeling way cant see reason continue life wish say episode im irrational perfectly calm spend every night awake hating wishing anyone someone worthy respect success personal life die ill always pitiful loser im feeling little energetic usual im still tired ok context morning posted tired almost falling asleep classes sleeping bus school cant imagine happyand thats id rather die even chance living decent normal life theres much shit id work first amount things control life crushing honestly social anxiety depression stuff cant really help experience know even begin working issues make hard work theres things id rather talk id rather give easy solution id use see way love progress better see happening time soon situation im fucked come back ill never better wish ow owie oh fuck thought blade dull strated cutting thighs sliced absolute shit panic dull cut wayyyy wanted stings rlly bad bleeding fair bit toooo fuck someonewhat wrong fault lost sense morals point im always issue im gender dysphoric hell matter someone always worse though seen friends months someone always worse parents refuse call son kick still hold head threat thats transferring schools hey stop acting transferred school even week later whats next keep getting worse let see friends let see old school respected trans trend pushed throat ill never hear name reminder cant leave behind cant fucking talk feel every time say im selfish theyre trying hard help convert im thinking feelings matter im selfish thats im punishment announcement everybody cheese bread got pizza amp saved million dollars willpower strong time mom told stop killing life better wish killed long time ago years virgin ya two blue pieces cheese theyre moldy father came beat belt anyway tell love likely pretty radical dude feel depressed remember theres years lifespan average lot things happen one month let alone year genuinely matter genuinely made impact many people make rash decisions please visit therapist talk someone phone struggling sexual orientation identify theres plenty communities thrive first step towards happiness acceptance discord teamagers hella good server even cis straight friends accept theyre friends theyre missing family accept theyre smart theyll come around theyre ignorant wont family isnt bound blood want make happier enjoy school find hobby covid dies afterschool activity join club finding things love others love amazing feeling make days faster fun struggling find relationship lt dont rush things cuz friend got wholesome relationship beneficial one tell ya beneficial relationship isnt good might sound especially never even kissed someone itll better wait find better community crappy one wan na build gaming pc amd cheaper better intel least budget pcs wan na guitar fender makes squeir butchered guitars cheap prices change pickups strats theyll sound pretty close american strat guitar sounds better amp guitar wont sound good one playing amp thats electric ive got clue comes acoustic bass theres modern theory guitat vol good teaching guitar matter finding inspiration practicing every day alrighty spit mouth mods ban boomer uhhhhh ranking system men coming bi boy gt hot lt playboy lt handsome lt cute lt twink lt femboy lt catboy lt witches anything cute attract wrong crowd time tho straight pedos yes fucking curly haired boomer liking minors hella sus basically everyone hates thinks burn yadda yadda yadda anyway go seek psychological help wont arrest seeking help better person better person dont resort children actual wholesome relationship dreamt young couldnt drafted war long live jim pickens im going bed cya tomorrow seeing good morningnightafternoonetc scared call redflag hotlineive mentally debating whether call hotlinei know tell call begin kinds thoughtsbut ive read well couple people know experiences seems harm good wait minute remember guys raped hey stop pissing im talking im toonophile wan na dieim im attracted cartoon girl real girl best hope animated gf thats best ill know super creepy honestly closest thing ill happiness every second film gorgeous thats earns plot especially devious thinking back last minutes never really felt excitement investment characters anything luxurious graphics framing made certain scenes car chase instance pedestrian look lovely original design occasionally novel camera angles missing kinetic movement closeup shots part language normal actionthriller first hour plods along dialogue feels edited bit stagey people wait finish always react natural cadence problem recording individuals dialogue separately rare occasions emotions voices quite match screen something really avoided futuristic architecture attractive lots glass wallsceilingsscreens lovely smokemiragespecial effects nicelooking cars exercise graphic design real impact story id argue whole point using drawn animation instead actorscgi really push limits imagination design difficultimpractical mediums although animation renaissance certainly stunning incredibly wellaccomplished never felt seeing something done beforebr br immortel another french cgi film suffers imbalance beauty story pace fair marvellous engaging french movies languid pace lingering shots look someones eyes rain paris cobbles evoke great emotion animators need understand animation brings unique strengths weaknesses compared reallife technique perhaps break noir rules film wants stick think filmmakers missed glaring opportunity explore future society bit social strata fascistic grip corporations etcbr br problem recommending renaissance anybody enjoys stylistic design andor animation manga fans particular make filmloving friends sit take away sumptuous visuals barely average film dude idc im friends singing song n word long hard im gon na sing im vibin idc posting saying shit song social media low iq one care around close friends youre vibing song able embrace vibe without thinking offensive life went shit monthsin short months life went best days life living hell developed chronic pain anxiety depersonalization depression ocd swear im making diagnosed now fucking tinnitus cant handle anymore every second life torture cant think one good reason kill life fucking ruined every way possible understand fuck guys look penis think sucking pleasing another penis penis great u want touch text automod remove post consider breathtaking deceptive film seems simple straightforward vietnam survivor tells harrowing tale story reenacted location reviewers sometimes even claim herzogs presence film minimal wrong know documentaries mediated extent one herzogs subtle hand notably stunning music unbelievably expert selection archival footage management cascading images evocative power film astounding starting title opening title card book revelation initial voiceover movie one watch repeatedly increasing wonder simple commodity gulped ones favorite beverage way evening news one movies resonate lifetime need guys opinion something theres girl know original classes rarely time talk class walk class twice dont courage yet talk little lost courage think dming instagram good way talk avoid listening want christmas christmas wanted try challenge years ago rules listen least hours day want christmas cant listen song starts first november lasts christmas variations want christmas allowed give try idk got mixed feelings challenge guys wan na join uncle died want end im literally everything wrongmy uncle dads brother died heart attack poor control diabetes numerous heart problems weighed pounds died dad worked different jobs uncle always great first weeksmonths work slowly start making excuses come started almost never going work always inevitably got fired never hold job months childhood adult life play video games always struggled weight type diabetes never good control im going exact path want fate know continue living going die turn weigh lbs im years old poor control blood sugars type diabetes uncle type theyre different diseases similar havehad poor control blood sugar though ive tried lose weight never find motivation always end giving never bring care blood sugar enough control well normally prolonged exposure high blood sugar long period years basically fucks nervous system toes start falling lose feeling fingers eyes stop working correctly etc homeschooled life started high school last september well first months started missing days sick eventually got point going couple times month im now really stay home feel sad play video games even enjoy feel uncomfortable im computer way grew know anything homeschooled life spent pc always start stuff homeschooled work months slowly give stop easy stuff homework hard cant bring literally exactly uncle growing dad told fucking terrified literally exact things im died really want go path want end uncle cant bring change need help anyone suggestions id much rather end life end path tldr uncle died poor control diabetes lack motivation weight issues im issues scaring want die im definitely continue path need help read thiswell reading better tell whats going ha care life isolated im friends left everything parents super overprotective let use internet im secret xbox want end everything parents constantly scream beat perfect know anymore want die ive years nothing changed want kill cant anymorei annoy girlfriend depression suicidal thoughts daily basis tell mother im sorry job working nights lot quiet alone time think things im afraid anything anymore going grocery store highlight life im borderline compulsive saver friends hate father hates im fucking tranny hobbies anymore enjoyment life anymore im going anywhere anywhere life ive always thought people meant happy see im one people thing makes want destroy marijuana thats destroying another way reason keep going nothing live nothing half class isnt active group discussions class mean everything world still feel fking depressed sometimes world shitty dark place traumatic shit feel suicidal lowkey passively every day every day wonder still want fail trying keep head go motions life exhausting feel normal people job social life happyhappiness difficult point life feel disappointed whenever wake morning oh taken sleep yetits brutal cycle every single day id cry sleep wishing gods end suffering take sleep want painless quick death every morning wake immediately feel disappointed going another day trying shit thinking life together clearly dont want end everything pointless theres sense waking anymore fuck shit ill start relating first encounter princes music bar th birthday girl dancing bare breasted playing speakers asked people singer told prince good distracted beautiful topless dancer later started hearing prince songs really digging purple rain came still knew little fellow minnesotan movie blew away instantly became princes fan war baby generation later found one cousins secretary got nephew vip prince concert sat next motherhow cool getting back topic hand agree siskel ebert called purple rain instant classic seen times absolutely love thought princes acting fine apollonia struggled bit acting fine john gielgud available play kid prince took role film visually stunning brilliantly paced never gets slow terrifically directed rank among best movie musicals time last time watched year gap still delivered proud fellow minnesotan prince rogers nelson love tell personally walked right front mentioned concert said hi nephew chatting mom bit crushed hes still work making want tosomething somethinggot new boss beginning april cunt micromanaging yuongest manager bunch hes singling lot riding hard stupid tasks done hes business couple weeks pulled office first week told need step role im listening getting resultsall forgot complete couple tasks trying regular job asks stuff outside job description hes got working days straiight stocktake fine woulkd fine year old month old baby husband works full time clinical depression boss unaware last part give fuck rest pretty sure care prettttyy suure ive suffering pnd well anyway im fluoxetine taking stocktake varification day hurt right t want kill buuuut want stop feeling way feeling super work hr day yesterday hr today days hr shifts next days yay yay days row lets see make start getting zopiclone stash god im fucking retard babies need mebut cant even take care job good im cut well got perm banned rmemes now pointto whoever reading teen made lot really bad mistakes life even young age relationship family mostly dad patchy struggled confidence years ago thats things started go hill im still really self conscious lot stuff im starting wonder theres point sometimes thing stopping jumping flat window disappointed dad brother mom left years old picture im even sure theres point feel im starting go bit numb inside im unsure life really made im bit lost guess nobody tell gifs wth love musicians reference work one band refers last songs sometimes subtle way think saved life saved life song named stupid theres one thats stupid stupid sometimes lazy af songwriting tho everywhere turn depression always therei find depressing living world people depressed ive depressed last years world changed people becoming depressed suicidal friends high school life party now two committed redflag one overdosed another mental asylum ive attempted kill many times failed want help people make world seem better judging u based christmas gifts tell u wished forreceived u gave others lol part life great guess lost contact lens thats right im desperate im even using wiki im literally going around entire house somehow bathroom dropped hate life swear one bad thing happens week im going scream want diemy dog saved redflag years tried give best life day took vet messed fucked trachea collapsed couldnt breathe emergency surgery soon possible wouldnt last end july theyd able surgery instead couldnt afford either one euthanize dont want live anymore always promised died im pregnant now weeks know stay alive life keep going cant believe lose almost years old healthy followed everywhere protected moms abuse younger almost years live without wanted live long wanted meet baby never will want die much want fuck life dog puppy killed another dog december couldnt cope miscarriage weeks right died fianc trying chose try thats im pregnant now dogs literally lifeline theyre gone now fuck survive without youve heard im deep ready im really high awesome idea bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgzeneed bjvgze inspbjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bbejvgze bjvgze bjvgzfue bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze done birthdaysi think id alive year last birthday flu ears ringing painful throat hurts breathe im missing class im old far behind missing set birthday public fb see happen nothing thats happened wanted one happy birthday mom brother apparently thats lot ask large im better year last year longer go straight redflag considering options problems guess thats progress im still unsure last birthday wonder still around struggling life going much right wish never existed vent even know begin feeling lost youre poor spend two hours finding coupon code pair flip flops ampxb iamincollegeandimpoorsopoor looking adviceso im college fun enjoy year ive taken lot responsibility ive past job im officer club sports team quite big time commitment addition student ive felt really overwhelmed lately almost crushingly ive called parents talked seem saying part growing life im suicidal something ive consistently thoughts probably middle school think sometimes wonder people dont seems pretty hopeless go school job make enough money send kids college jobs make enough money send kids collegesometimes think maybe family something rewarding time feel bad bringing someone world suffer bullshit anyone advice life huge suckfest definitely worth watchingbr br ten different directors present segment based favorite opera aria need opera lover watch film although course hate opera really going bad time thisbr br surprisingly segments range brilliant fair fuss seems godards contribution whether think hes brilliant pretentious segment change mindbr br pieces clear narrative others montage connected imagesbr br none pieces minutes happy whats screen wait next segment think much culture soaking upbr br keep eyes open performances buck henry beverly dangelo elizabeth hurley briget fonda tilda swinton john hurt buck henry segment alone worth price admissionbr br im cringe even day passed started talking asked fuck yo serious question slep sleep hello rredflagwatchim going cut chase ask tell point serving society doomed fail point fighting life going end day poi thing vain point fight anything tell instead telling much live generally difficult rate cutpaste films segments quite good others bring rating overall product one instance allgirl scene doctors office quite excitingone best viewers limited viewing history theres asias segment lady always entertaining story binds whole together interesting concept swap scene closes offering aint bad either technically production values fairly high recommended thinking adults dating kinda trippy adult guy asking adult guy wan na boyfriend shit idk kinda feels childish thing teens somewhat need help deal suicidal thoughtsso im always hyper sensitive guy always deal sensibility closing everyone ultil meet girl see opportunity trust years later history became history intense abuse cheating violence pretty much mother sometimes love heart sometimes hate intensity one never see hate come one word one behavior tolerate timeline lost gramma mother family person sometimes understand moments beautiful moments se purpose life im easy person adhd depression abuses became alcohool adict fact never hate dont even know hate someone hurt someone purpose tenth time dumped crisis pass days taking care sexuals issues talking showing hurting days birthday lot alcohool cant face hate start scream got away block phone ims stuff find sttrugling lot classical suicidal thoughts dont even know im days without sleep right eat finding motive end glad people enjoyed movie cause know greatest reputation made money box office thought terrific several reasons bogdanovich directs lightest touches cast especially coleen camp perfect big bad apple never looked better film seen worse movies wan na sit face im straight dark cares getting headi used alot suicidal thoughts surrounding self people love appreciate trying ease mind away dark stuff helped lot admit coming back faster think stop time shit going life even tho try hide turn sarcasm cant help feel im better dead old best friend relationship old crush weird huh dont really care havent talked years find awkward cant handle anymoremy dad mom pretty sucessuful lawyers brother gon na graduate law year already job area sister brilliant student professional athlete pass uni selection year still im miles away studying uni wan na woulsnt nothing amy friends hate appearence general romantic live noexiwtent fell never pass uni trying years far enter feel money burning failure sincerelly eanna live anymore wan na courage finally end planso im financially boned right now worst fear come pass cant afford apartment month im leaving everything behind hittin highway straight pembina nd border town south canada want look place never got go long term goal go become citizen couldve better life least afford treatment even didnt insurance first years id slit throat last memory staring someone someone school replaced bathroom qr code qr code leading never gon na give rick astley brother keeps fucking annoying never fucking talk cut mainly thinks matter real life says rude things xbox party care says hes sometimes im trying play earrapes mic dick might sensitive still fucking pisses lockdownwho pushed edge lockdown exactly lockdown made mental health worse makes idea staying world unappealing given likely future prospects pros cons pros convicted pedophile need help dealing stepmom anyone know tell parent fuck literal sense course going dads house stepbrothers parentbecause stepmom dad drunk useless parenting offering drinksim want go anymore point post need tell stepmother come pick go house weekend know tell without saying im slavei everything fetching drinks watching brother advice reddit everyone trusted left methe one person considered brother left always vergeim scared even admit feeling incredibly depressed keep journal im scared even write feel killing feel getting day telling least redflag always option every day say well gets worse ill kill anxiety something ive never diagnosed im anxious call doctors arrange appointment im scared take time work entire life even school months years worse others find dumb settle boring routine relatively ok feelings messed taking promotion work responsibilities spend time home absolutely terrified ive done something wrong replay things head convince wrong lot responsibilities work involve outside clients something wrong potentially big problems caused company really kicked anxiety depression overdrive exhausted constantly worrying cant sleep eat im terrified time genuinely feel way end im worried something specific moment may sent something wrong client time wasnt worried didnt think came home brain started playing day realised didnt remember double checking weekend ive state worry complete emptiness ive convinced wrong isnt unusual every day come home worry something didnt cant carry cant tell employer dont official diagnosis told previously managing director extremely angry didnt believe said wasnt trying given wanted fire gave another chance feel dont leg stand dont sort diagnosis scared go doctor every day think worst things happen decide happen ill kill sort gets im worried worst thing going happen one day snap ill kill everyone sad cant see another way horrible tiring cycle people tell stop worrying wont make mistakes im smart etc makes feel worse inevitably make mistake theyll disappointed literally stop worrying feel thoughts going round round head stuck loop know boyfriend gets frustrated angry cry shut away doesnt understand worry things wish brain normal stop overthinking thinking worst happen normal people dont think killing every day im sorry sending email know long dont expect anyone read know im ridiculous im grand scheme things none matters wish normal brain im scared tomorrow go work ill possibly find things ive done wrong dont know happen lose job destroyed id anxious new job even find one wouldnt money meant buying house next year go window feel cant talk anyone dont want worry cant tell employer happened last time cant tell dad hell worried boyfriend means well cant understand never worries anything hasnt depressed know long anyone bother needed type please dont nasty impatient cry usual ignore dont want ill delete brilliant film great john waters characters unforgettable acting script camerawork enhance overall greatness film perversion artform must see easily perfect looking iti came reddit looking sub help figure best way die without damaging organs donated two routes wanted discuss witch one better see community exists seeing sub posts made think really want thinking time almost last year whats really stopping thinking family bf feeling guilty feel time wan na keep sake others life going anywhere cant accomplish anything know person life lived differently pattern follow wan na life nothing thinking death bring goodness donating organs feel finally accomplish something even know wrote know gon na read comments guess wanted vent ok bye new national anthem idea whoo whats pair packs punch unique taste creamy crunch pbampc im thinking found reeses puffs peanut butter chocolate great separate combine make morning time epic morning time epic morning time epic double e s e s yes p u double f s yes double e s e s yes p u double f s yes fmli cant keep waking crying spending every holiday alone life want die im scared want better life end shitty one dad strong hes cancer heart attacks cardiac arrests septic shock one summer hes still alive went date today brave strong whats favorite method finish allwhats method bee thinking whats natural share story facing consequence im randomzone crush girl friend years lost touch year ago time time write messeges check whatsoever nearly every time answers something good id type blah blah texts shorter pp sir sir really mister colleague call randomzone way talk random strangers random friends friends really know want polite want back friendzone whenwhere talked anything everything even talked tldr crush messenges sir someone random life yall see old lady walking think damn wan na sucker punch lmao nevermind previous post im horny personalidentifying details removed reading sorry please forgive although know might take time purely decision fault anyone elses anything done feel broken lost maybe finally finally find peace owe explanation longer life goes worse gets regards many different problems life hear better getting better participating life tedious draining unfulfilling incredibly sad though probably experiencing bewilderment anger grief done please know want die almost everyone everything life supportive wanted try life attempt grow old world truly beautiful place times especially true wonderful family removed friends particular removed names friends even though time lives see long passed happiest rays pure sunshine bleak world extraordinary friends known along way thank seriously lucky know thing feel emotionally unfit keep wading currents life sad almost time anything believe tried tried name sobriety exercise mindfulness meditation selfhelp material multiple medications multiple doctors multiple therapists even psychiatrist suicide insidious everpresent mental intellectual emotional spiritual cancer first time heard childhood almost feel inevitable always felt outsider looking life never participant observer thought suicide least per hour excluding sleep decade trying simply hold years guess final straw broke camels back brief periods thought might able overcome feeling able potentially envision future liberating periods always due help people tried hard source light strength instead looking others always needed help blunt never thought make age removed now age slightly older time passes relative stability occasional optimism past completely eroded existence fulfillment despair pain years years desperately trying find meaning motivation future envision nothing feel totally lost combination increasingly crushing burdens alive human leaves one option quit feels thing actually control stop struggling currents life let overtake sounds appealing thing imaginable sorry pass pain onto reading stronger take perpetual observer lonely lonely truly sorry moments something share one know pain well felt fundamentally alone lonely started retaining memories one thing always really wanted travel never got much farthest got location removed future particularly beautiful place wondrous moment maybe think briefly lucky ill right beside even luckier ill soon surf waves spacetimei sorry love yes much fuck draft suicide note see relate hint im contemplating redflagthrowaway account contemplating redflag dont see point life point living life painful ive suffered depression life looking back suffered young age nephew turning soon makes stomach turn look innocent child thoughts hopelessness anxiety age didnt bad childhood definitely lonely one ass beat times brother think sometimes honestly nothing major ive reached help im currently waiting list counselling referred months waiting list put medication mh nurse socially im relatively normal wouldnt guess looking im often life party quite chatty lot banter work come home broken person ive lot people life thrown away ive always quite disposable person ive things happen shouldnt ive knowingly let people take advantage use probably selfesteem many people let done shitty things apparent problem cant go life blaming people must reason always happens nobody wants probably fault ive enough ive thinking lot think people really care mum dad id leave savings letter explaining theyd much better lot heart break lately stress work grievance put member management bullying rejection im mess im looking advice pleas needed place rant miss leave man feel empty inside friendships falling apart motivation anything anymore always one thingbeyond issues things im going including mildly want life im even stressed take hours maybe part time gig help mom needs loses everything everything loses house everything debts already remains even past losing everything said im mildly worried shes worth dead alive great life insurance policy half million dollars redflag clause life dont know whether help ways money way back hometown without spending round trip greyhound gas car fuck im student idk much really help im already fucking fasting meal prepping lose weight save ton money areas cut back pay internet cheapest phone plan already cheapest room find idk dont want lose way life childhood home dont want lose way trying rock provider helper someone give perspective maybe guidance although want life hope everyone fine without clearly isnt case lost everything im afraid give update phone ios phone still stopped updating worry apple slowing peoples phones please help overdosed wellbutrinhi guys took g wellbutrin happen scared even readmy family finally showed true colors feel suspecting long time resent mother sees biggest failure life bc never anything right live summer live house verbally abused life physically beaten every day kid scarred every day greeted hostile looks hatred screamed things wrong things dont even hands pockets despite facts never laid hand exception hug occasional kiss incidental contact yet feels unsafe living bc tall kinda strong feels wasted life away father left tenth birthday somehow one feel doesnt hate barely even knows brother criminalizes leaving go college another state studied commuting home thinks reason life difficult difficult stays home chores thinks reason family use thinks think im better many times said trusts friends thinks always right fucking delusional every thought theres im fucked cant even hold normal relationship ignore friends know nothing romantically dont open either someone interested person cant help think must something extremely wrong point fixate smallest things makes imperfect often times find thinking much better leave relationships even chance bloom skin disease itchy honestly makes hate every second dont require help treatment anything tho suffer panic attacks often home family matter dont sighyawnbreathe front think im nuisance everyone close thinks youre monster honestly start believe fucked bad person never loved capacity honestly wonder time whats even point things always end way longest time ive felt dont want anymore id always tell itll better see really doesnt maybe point oddly enough first time long time feel peace never shared someone read far thank need someone world know even one person maybe someone find perspective eternal fuckup somewhat enlightening sorry essay movies hyped godzilla vs kong without doubt im curious see films fellow teenagers excited unsure whats coming year heres list list american films keep goingim sure keep going know sometime future im going kill feel day im alive im delaying inevitable wish now kung fu epic worth watching best training main character spending hundred days knees outside shaolin temple show desperate learn kung fu fight manchu dogs taken china kill myselfi want discussion really comes hard justice excellent action movie whole movie really nothing shooting fighting good vampire plot people say make shoot em ups fighting films use well one really hardcore dragon wilson excellent character really cool movie nicholas guest good well arguably steals show really performs fantastic villain melanie smith good think fine looking actress underrated michael cavanaugh good really cool see vince murdocco film action truly awesome gun fights super cool fighting scenes fighting picture really greatest seen much happens minute run time action fans blown away fire power superb fighting film offer night hunter movie easy locate video store see sale buy movie big keeper plus box cool ton action seen believed look see find good deals ebay halfcom amazoncoms zshops market place sellers opinion night hunter one greatest fighting films watched characters neat dragon wilson want see nicholas guest great performance strongly recommend action movie fan loves shoot em ups fighting movies vampire films disappointed movies look true non stop action flick fails deliver buy night hunter today gon na acting want kill myselfi money power abuse got feel everyday im nothing everyone judging mocking looking hate everyone hate working others making rich getting paid crap hate disgusting rich people act model universe figured yet built taking advantage people every area society scam take advantage younot financially emotionally slaves chains dont even realize getting taken advantage every way think went business good years got injury put business im pulling fair share relationship anymore things new thought bring success failures debt companies constantly lying charging late fees overcharging put payment plan decided abandon last month wanted charge late fees month even though automatic deduction dad emails time telling angry disappointed mom insults constantly calling fat ugly failure developed health problems escape drugs im gon na kill really will believe god think evil sadist self righteously disguised teacher die hope go straight hell stops people see friends readyi idea ready anxiety depression ptsd eating disorder need someone give advice ending feel bad helping really need thoughts stop favour sink holei m think got pretty good life ive got bunch friends family im either far close got average grade school got average jobs got life project many got passion im crazy either thing think lack relationship thats driving crazy know deep deep inside question time become alone friend antisocial type slowly start ton enter even covid social activity dampd game week said bad meet someone new try online meeting enough sexappel make play scene ask bar even im big fan craft beer friend social type always end going alone bar big problem know lot people thanks taxi driver little town months go bar lots people come talk minutes pass another call end always end alone counter beer result ive got lot time think never good thing depress introspection moment ive came one conclusion thing kill time forgot im alone preventing think ive recently observe lissent music loud prevent think thing make tome go faster die im even capable enjoying long terme lose bother much sadly reason kill hour date im mom cry phase phase days pass probably last one crazy lot people way worst position way happier fate fate future maybe day better know good way thinking fking logical ass keep saying chance high loto ticket people know believing lotto chance one moment trip way living time good way thinking way stay alive understand im always tear two exhausting wan na go sleep never wake rant maybe ventthis prolly gon na long one stay please sorry spelling mistakes grammar ive crying writing ive feeling really depressed suicidal way month sure long one friends asked dated week broke saying cant trusted broke tried best treat right happened halloween finally got home hanging friends went room cried sleep ive feeling killing severely hurting dea keep thinking find positive reasons live friends surprisingly ex none want die think theyre lying trying keep humiliate make suffer even already busy stressful life school problems home want stay want go missing another country still feel killing id friends know went know sound selfish hell wanting leave cant think better reason want see dead body deal knowing im dead theyd prolly traumatized seeing happy last time talked ive self harming really bad got dumped point cuts leave awful scars stopped weeks broke blade accident cuts healed showed guess tried showing happens leaving alone already alarming amount suicidal thoughts say anything relationship say accident mean harm im reflecting ive feeling way suicidal happened problems home started cutting broke blade aswell anything week ago pe got hit leg right cuts continue playing went bathroom check cuts hurt bad almost started crying resulted slightly bright colored pants bit red blood teacher asked everything alright tell class asked alright told school counselor agreed friends blackmailed telling ive slowly getting bit better writing feel depressed im writing words meaning ive falling back really bad ordered boxcutter online im waiting arrive feel cut throat open die knowing burden everybody anyways thanks reading appreciate precious individual took time read something useless im posting hopes feeling bit better great day though weather insanely hot country amp forecast predicts going stay th august id rather ropei cant bear hot gives insane fatigue tiredness depression shitty headaches cant sleep night today ive slept horrible hours cant turn air conditioner ive caught cold barely go work due amount sleep im getting cold home really cant take im forced lay cold bath afterwards feel good long body warms sadly latest entry long series films french agent oss french answer james bond series launched early s spawned least eight films none released us osscaironest spies breezy little comedy notrepeat taken seriously protagonist finds middle spy chase egypt morroco stand egypt find long lost friend follows standard james bondinspector cloussou kind antics although man something overt xenophobesexisthomophobe treated pure farce said take seriously although bit rough language cartoon violence basically okay older kids ages previously stated subject line sit backpass popcorn enjoy unbrpony fucked horse nibba joking either username means bucket required meaning fuck without standing something im depressed ive accepted itso im pretty big lurker reddit never really post late really become depressed serious kind please dont hit hard first time ive said anything honestly im afraid even post internet great thing anonymity ive always afraid tracked either put crazy house black listed ha g rights taken away cant take anymore talk someone reason trust reddit anyone life searched redflag sub came im posting need dump life somewhere let someone know unfortunately want write novel write never able back work keep posting updates back breaks lunch depression make say fuck post anything allowed please let know delete post know im glad found place feel comfortable comments notwithstanding letting ill back hours im lunch imma play rlcraft smt later dm u wan na join thats im glad friends good friend thjunior school tuesdays thursdays fridays optional called came today club activity canceled know live minutes school took bus show till pm currently mom obviously pissed gon na come pick minutes away things text friend mvp story girl comes clutch way right pick take home good ass friend fuck started argument parents idk dont even know wtf shit shit shit fuck made joke big iron turned something protests shit fuck canada clickbait hear many good things canada really somebody said canadians passive aggressive theyre liars right today going wellthen acted impulse looked something social media shouldnt ended cutting made feel started left thigh bc dont want go far itd visible outside shorts im sick im sick mind dont think im gon na ok im never gon na wanted way want people im fucking pathetic im old shit disgust wish kill wish didnt care family feel dont want anymore mom called asshole struggling mental health getting bad grades words exactly theres difference making mistake asshole whatever going irresponsible cant trust anymore response bad grades due mental breakdown severe adhd im using mental illness excuse parents zero understanding mental issues fact parents west african mental issues devil literally gpa entire life obviously used bitchy regret scholar past setting high expectation parents started fucking none happened feel dumb failing classes one quarter im gon na fucking repeat th grade american views britain youse think bout yoo kinda hype rn ngl mom finally said allowed build pc ive enough money never let spend finally gon able play games friends anyone relateholding tears much head pounding ur mom valid comeback mom person u say sister said something said ur mom im thinking valid cuz mom mom h e l p feeling going time sit think let go long turn soon never got education never employed living someone sexually harasses daily drinking alcohol every night feel empty apathy unmedicated constant mental anguish makes want punch black blue least bruises leave scars ones wrists remind guts go whole way let bad something years ago still bothering wake everyday much coward wish something terminal rot away nothing left hopeless need advice male teens meant creepy sounds hear myf son tried changing account info around main xbox account hes sort taken dads supposedly fubard thing locked everyone naturally dads husband head exploded total life ending moment us blah blah blah fixed surprisingly easy considering initial reaction well funny story straight answer virus system messed accident thought first logical step got sign info said id handle looked browsing history im usually naive kid mostly plays roblox minecraft mean come im thinking great kid clicking stupid ads games ads games theres search search search oh god theres much prn much poor kid according time stamps yeah guess im mom now watching stuff constantly going back forth roblox im assuming hes either switching thinks hears parents pulling driveway knock come okay point point handle handle bring say anything exist awkwardly house till moves one day honestly want secretly block sites n l itd freak suddenly cant watch anymore hed know know thats dck another fact might make difference ive mom entered eachothers lives almost years ago hes never known birth mother im mom technically stepmom im oh god poor baby soiling delicateinnocent brain demonic pleasures im sure probably idk im around mostly guys work ive always tomboy joke shit problem bother keep going topic talk let go guess im really asking mom definition cool whatever date slang term now cant keep act tldr want hypothetical reality cool mom handle finding watch prn please help im new stage life n e v e thought id unprepared really need advice im trying creepy genuinely want right freak boy okthanksbye need comfort fell mother doesnt care time never pays attention never time siblings dont feel loved wanted time wish live dad permanently one stayshalf experience trying find relationships stick natural life progression things change dont want needy judged understand rules im tired alone weather lot late nights brutal much good doesnt feeling end hate awards supposed give awards spite guys need help asking g wait dont go school everything online goddammit dont cause cant go school fantasize different girls frick wan na see someone want dm want want see pulled sneaky ya argument mom feeling super good m today lunch mom said french fries argued mins sick let fries frozen ones walmart fries argument mom one actually careshere seems pitty waste breath scream shout none one really gives fuck matter times last nice people dont try ask cant helped cant stopped youve tried youve never stuck care im point return well one last time end good time goodbye fun thats god damn lie goodbye one lies burn sugar wounds sweet bruises time ill forget done time wound scar rick roll binary code poggers wan na crossdressing im ugly one willing buu skirt shit lit cant go back depression againits back ive seen coming month two ive denial feelings hopelessness nothingness selfhate three years ago suicidal thoughts thought free cant go back depression im terrified refuse go back cant control need help im healthy idea im scared even leave house think might actually act impulses throw front train something help pray im donehi little bit im year old male married going years currently going second round college time associates field veterinary medicine ive problems entire life depression anxiety social phobia anger management issues ive medication adult life helps degree frequent thoughts redflag throughout life even point ive made plans sell music collection electronic goods asked mother copy life insurance policy absolutely confidence abilities little frequently wonder people anything difficulty making friends building proper connections field im embarrassed fact work two insignificant low tier jobs younger making times annual income self doubt resulting anxiety cost many things including jobs friendships getting every day challenge really bad problems selfdoubt paranoia point hate pretty much anything involves people constantly feel people talking behind back anyone nice pity underhanded way insulting im terrified anything around classmates feel ones experienced field groan lab assignments despite fact good feedback colleagues frequently told im good job always feel wife leave someone mental problems makes money despite fact tells loves every day take criticism well anyone feel ive worked hard throughout life nothing prove itworking menial jobs lots debt despite fact im married supportive family many years trying push back mind think im ready go ending life thing held together family notably wife mother friends point think thats enough stop whats even worse lost year old brother result freak accident want mother bury another one sons cant handle living anymore pressures adult provider despite best efforts think place world sorry tldr cant really think coherently now im typing phone anyone remember time fortnite actually popular among teenagers around mostly high school kids played fortnite little kids failed theres going backi university student scholarship way scholarship works fail class lose financial benefits pay back every benefit given last semester got really ill operated class three weeks came back felt completely lost class thought id pass finals came completely failed shortly grades posted called office told case go academic committee decide kept scholarship saved handing medical papers strike one semester almost got results one classes needed final pass class scored surely scholarship annuled yet talked anyone parents friends think everything ok im well cant face today first time life im considering killing save shame bankrupting parents things th improveim sick everything getting worse soon think cant worse something even thought happens entire life become nothing im afraid things getting worse ive tired options help life worth living ive set deadline things better th already bad start want careever little felt anxious never really problem now sixteen boyfriend felt happy really cared showed adventurous things started going hill one day quarterback football team something bad one believed said prove anything ended spiraling depression boyfriends seemed getting abusive break started sending pictures cutting saying going kill made everything worse tried killing ended surviving put hospital months thought leave parents moved towns word spread around town nothing feel passion care anything started talking quarterback felt needed forgive order move wanted use feel point living want die reason kill want parents deal dead daughter im eighteen now tried tinder wanted allow happy meet lot people ive really promiscuous met nice boy says cares tries help afraid cant give wants deserves better someone care knows issues tries help met yesterday cuddled told felt happy still feel anything manic episodes cut everyone ive tried therapy medication seem work parents always annoying want normal want alive anymore wish never existed first placeits times im afraid void end consciousness know im still theres immediate way end life quickly im exhausted pain stop stopped little came back know want feel loved much ask want sex someone loves hard difficult thing everybody want worry money keeps piling cant keep health getting better healing im always worried money seems two things people need livelove money want free needing wanting things please im much pain want alone conscious alone away society away everything wish place time stood still lasting dark void rest mind long needed figure shit always considered suicide means give peace death provide peace feel peaceful id feel nothing id nothingi want die want live life living life constant purgatory maybe something happen push one side whichever may death even give want mother says drag everybody meand best hide isolate people mentioned treats angry time even seek help hears crying time im im still living home catastrophe life unable work unable stop crying wonderingi wonder many people survive attempts regret actually end always talk survivors glad alive im survivor fucking hate im alive failed wonder im alone im still alive im deleting reddit tomorrowthanks kind messages place fucking toxic continue u wan na talk discord aquamarine ship put sea name ship billy tea say peaches complex narrative dealing multitude issues small tv idea beyond besides think many films small tv idea plots obvious dislike tv industry sue smith failed rise television background confusing particularly great time working tv talented ms smith friend relative afi award winning brides christ road coorainetc made tv come think small tv ideas wind bodyline dismissal scales justice blue murder water bridge etc think peaches good entertaining film interested friends well start finish far flawless yet think among best australian films seen last couple years knows viewings theres much think might classics year voice broke devils playground really enjoy film much somersault three dollars films think momentssurreal atmospheric realistic dealing important contemporary issues sheer entertainment mrand mrs average movie goer ordinary boring go movie always conscious audiences reaction film cinemas reactions overheard conversations foyer loo came peaches shaking heads negative criticisms many seemed enjoyed experience glad ill die soon know life none cares ask decided talk place still talk year ago started felling empty angry time lost interests everything became boring fake tried tell everyone know want feel way ignored acted see became another person insecuredepressedsad none tried ask day bullied instead helping started self harming tried end life many times lately became aggressive mad everything even simple thingsand yesterday severe mental breakdown mom saw teary eyes even aski really fight anymore tired lost really know life except ending itbut religion let itin end sorry talking much nowhere keep anymore want die want feelredflag option head years gotten point means necessary want people love people love ive therapy university last session yesterday school counselor seeing hard close ive feeling unable cope past weeks motivation im unhappy existence professor knows whats feel ive bothering ask available tell suicidal shell report cant work finals im graduating left want know anyone sort teetered close edge cause feel really alone one know struggles suicidal thoughts thinking pain cause mom brother used enough make snap even starting take backseat bad thoughts cant see option redflag makes sense father regrets becoming dadive terrible headspace mentally daughter born months ago negative headspace results knowing child mistake life pregnancy actually unintentional partners religious beliefs made room abortion decided go ahead married weve together years love daughter many unresolved issues life becoming dad people become father position optimal mean already probably lived care free stage life wanted lead theyve wild fun s theyve made connections last life time entered fatherhood considered life mostly failure suffered anxiety depression s never fun others theres huge part feels unlived never live without abandoning child bring furthermore ive always incredibly introverted point feel genuinely upset cant alone far back years old used go bedroom hide people came visit house value alone time despite mental health difficulties best ways ive taken advantage ability alone going solo travel trips different cities feasibly next years minimum internal conflict regretting becoming father wanting live different life much handle people might say theres middle way separate partner least provide child support rest life play healthy role childs upbringing see viability middle way lead guilt partner left hard work arrive redflag best solution splitting partner lead daughter feel unloved unwanted grows issues come killing leaving note says due mental health difficulties cope least provide reason furthermore id age daughter understand im gone know probably need help therapy honestly cant overcome feeling living life wrong gone way everyone happy fathers subreddit s probably wild youth full happy memories thats im trap boulder rolls corridor poison darts set every step young adventurer pressure plates strewn dungeon floor everyone hate meplease ic ant im crying bad everyone hate call us selfishi want die want kill cant want become everyone elses decision called selfish know much longer hold need help think redflagive depression life gotten worse lately read dad letter wrote got mad letter saying im making stress worse feel thinks differently now know want die need help copy paste letter j read understand god choose depression maybe thinks strong handle maybe test see overcome believe born nothing caused nothing mom caused depression feels drowning swimming pool people around swimming even though drowning see nobody going save depression got worse papa got sick died matter much try overcome death longer cry dead depression makes difficult forget move made feel longer strong family redflag planned december th stocked well advance sleeping pills morning took pills realizing done forced throw going sound stupid childish papa died skittles one helped stay calm sense emotions depressed crying come stay side calmed even though antidepressants still good bad days good days happy charlotte bad days even recognize bad days think death done papa skittles several suicidal thoughts attempts bad days thing saves completing redflag marijuana makes happy makes forget depression exist marijuana know view drug dont view something drug keeping normal saving time redflag medication much respect house feel time come home brandts lying hate go happy normal know used use using way agree need okay using backyard none neighbors outside want go behind back rules truly something need night time anybody look sky night greek yogurt taste creamy goat discharge certain brand try takes hour eat stuff people put want protein lost love life depression months agoi keep asking enough bed anymore done life doesnt things asked straight point shes distant last couple days said thinks annoying say shit friends mean shes wrong friends cant really fit eachother following u see good friend im wondering u still think im friendly yeah u still u sometimes im worried u dont anymore overthink lot understand sure doenst never relationship day switched classes school grades really ruined everything split us new friends new guys around feel shes trying push away new life want already know years everything screwed went different class want diegeneric ass title im stuck toxic friends toxic parents house soul sucking job theres time pursue dreams simple dream life hands suffering time im done man im sick hearing might change someday cuz really believe waiting know kill cuz really im good enough thats truth im trying dramatic look people inspire theres hope great living india curse toxic parents tell toxic friends treat satan even suggest tradition shit expected space want time kill im sure cut wrist try carbon monoxide poisoning whats surer way go im sucidal mind dying sign later suicidal thoughts live close family ties many close friends isolate rather spend time alone home interneting go world meet people work go school full time life outside two except occasional together friends friends long distance im really bad keeping touch im alone lot believe mild case depression yet professionally diagnosed edit update steps ive taken officially signed okcupid hope gets somewhere trouble disturbing thoughts redflagnot alarm anyone impulsive thing emotional least moment thinking greatly time suffering world hardship takes survive let alone nice life everything destructive manipulative nature everything wants eat physically metaphorically feels though universe almost evil way thought universe planet hell best thing go elsewhere place less suffering redflag know good people yes really good good gives good feelings gaining dopamine brain speaking simply nonpeople evil things animals virus bacteria disease cancer much pain suffering organisms want impulsively eat collect resources propagate suffering simply corrupt way die come back reincarnate thats happens least soul exists tricked something coming suffering prison soggy meaty human body make laugh please make laugh tell funnis plz whats best joke numbi pathetic person im wasted last years life sitting room alone playing video games gained extraordinary amount weight lost friends completely isolated everything father life think hes prison something currently relationship mother always tried give whatever wanted life never cared nothing everyone ive met thinks im smart fuck school required even though ive always despised people hated majority countless years wasting away finally forced try make something life sent shitty tv college sit computer day hey figured technical genius make career schooling learned absolutely nothing already know made new friends entire time graduated extremely good grades everyone thought bright future ahead lost lbs course months trying hard better cant normal person speak people without feeling complete utter fool social reject everything attempt real world crumbles ive job interviews completely ruined including one hour ago used extremely depressed everything whiny little cunt stopped know stopped feeling everything cant cry anymore cant feel anything im sick disappointment everyone around mother remarried another childwe years apart little sister thing makes happy anymore want try bad fix whats wrong nothing works want house blame go sorry lack punctuation insane wall text needed vent think killing every single day wake want go back sleep know anymore im failing classes got motivation anything im still stressing parents gon na kill find regret rape everyone knows fucked popular guywith full prior consent class reputation tainted whore regret decision mean away saying oh sexually assaulted fucks guys mental health cost ego satisfaction think fuck life standstill bullied home tenantsi seriously considering committing murder ending myselfi let honour life joked around withthey already succeded making feel piece shit sharing secretsi take mei teenagerfuckin scum realise im gon na todayi cant take anymore im sorry life hard im depressed heartbroken lonely love someone longer cares cant go another day without today ill finally peace anyone think school giving us much work everyone middle school saying much work teachers nothing got votes got saying much work tell happening everyone im showing data teachers believe us cant thislast week tried commit redflag inhaling carbon monoxide garage turned car song came reminded ex love life ended relationship wasnt ready one fine completely cut contact handle helped everything people saying getbetter find somebody better nobody better perfect meant world nothing want back depression getting worse fail four classes college going rough road ahead want best friend love life world back want tell literally saved know respond know turn go lost wilderness mind want want happy want redflag still looking optionsocial distancing mask wearing end lasting years usa falling apart work home going become permanent thing area want pass law make wfh mandatory even post vaccine job wise im pretty much screwed foreseeable future never enough money leave parents leave usa theyre going put judge supreme court strike obamacare leaving health insurance options happens killing solution say comes book movie adaptations bbc rarely lets regarding miniseries love starling novel far best murdermystery ive read miniseries defiantly made day saw primary story kept near perfectly intact characters match ones novel well personalities mannerisms spot red jez thought duncan done well kate eric came much simplistic character little depth book altered substory may deal course changes cosmetic found disappointment substory eric murder charge changed changed whole dynamic red eric movie cut triathalon training jez events book changed viewer friendly liked book miniseries love book must say accurate book movie adaptation ive seen want go away dont know feel world want talk uncomfortable people hate feelings tip iceburg redflag felt needed say something somwhere though love movie great film combines english indian cultures feministtype issues girls wanting play sports previously reserved men shows struggles indian person wanting break outside cultural barriers women wanting break outside gender restrictions found sports especially england time feel cultural struggles emphasized issuesbr br contrast comment think movie anything dirty dancing chick flick move loved many types people men women young old alike im eating fries rn feel pretty good good fries yeah movie might put catholic church best light telling story based true events unfortunately everything life including religion nice rosy sometimes people groups things time seem right thing retrospective look great love divided tells story family yes incorporate religion really story family familys ability stay together matter thrown film based true events say story scene scene true look news articles time period able see neither churches handled incident way helpful towards family churches fault catholic church forcing regulation family first place responding violence came protestant church telling mother obey husband priest put fight case let family believe film good job showing struggle church family way shape form putting catholic church opposite shows one incident change course religions ideas one person effect far reaching know enemy know need fear result hundred battles finished art war sun tzu everything war war winned deception ask anything jumped pool phone completely submerged ten seconds still works tw sexual abuse eating disorder carry oni survivor childhood sexual abuse perpetrator somebody close family still see regular basis started probably years old went years never told anybody fear tell fault making first time happened pushed empty room made pull pants grinded made touch stuck tongue mouth put fingers inside time things got worse happened pretty regular basis stopped touching developed eating disorder anorexic bulimic tendencies dropped pounds way looked death everybody told fabulous looked id never beautiful life even mom egged saying proud weight loss years really able close anybody push away relationship ive violent boyfriend cheat know men use sex let value attempted redflag two times first time took bunch pills friend made throw second time tried drowning boyfriend time saved today months pregnant course pregnant boy love son guess thats im submitting im triggered every day know continue try kill sake son continue life im afraid turn father verbally physically abuse women matter feel matter voice continue plagued memories know need love son born feels impossible nobody love obviously life means nothing anybody wish succeeded killing chance im horny rn ngl look dude clicking nsfw tag perverted fuck night demons another long line teen horror films released video paytv mecca film making eighties unlike crap peddled around one actually decent watch group bored teenagers decide party halloween night away pair bizarre sisters mimi kinkade linnea quigley infamous hull house usual cast stereotypical teenagers invited party average teenage bash turns night terror try survive halloween night undead residents hull house decide crash party wholl survive night bloodshed horrorbr br nice horror film best seen unrated version watch rrated cut miss splatter effects nudity stay tune amusing epilogue gory film followed equally entertaining sequel horror fans onlybr br highly recommended version correct one want wait suffering anymore suffering permanent gool bullshit know future brings yet experince misery loneliness fucked brain one day find person wants live world stinks going drowning shitbye permanent solution everyone eventually experience permanent problem think im doneim ive meds therapy ect years ive come conclusion solution cant live normal life cant feel love successful going societies definition im tired im broken last love took hope know anymore want someone help mebut help mean find rope nice sturdy spot hang mom saw take thing pic im trouble wtf showing boyfriend new thigh highs delete took away phone rest day bruh imagine dogs human hands breakdown help god whos wrongmy dad personally resent years deteriorating nothing ignorant abusive made think im one wrong im taking things little seriously anyways ill try give story little bias possible lets start work im talking small chores around house taking laundry dishes im talking things digging feet trenches cementing fence gets sit back relax claim hes sick work hes bout months now hes sick theres work done gives pretty good backup believe faking theres various jobs makes say im busy school work something gets pissed ive talked say well getting mad better getting schoolwork hell even think says nextup online school come evry minutes look screen yell take break watching video two yelled morning tabs open yesterday youtube learning new song guitar ive never done anything remotely fun without thinking shit dads going mad includes going bike going fishing friends even getting something mcdonalds cause told oh theres meat left rice small scraps rice im sure trying say meant way think meant pissed beyond belief completely destroy father time grow tired im done life feel help less life now enjoyments slowly getting detroyed day life looses value sometimes think im overdramatic im oversensitive bitch thanks reading hope wonderful rest day ashamed write notemy life well pathetic cant write note maybe theres need write note people care enough want know feel ive never popular part reason fucking mental disability came broken home little name even wanted enjoy life terms im mentally defective able im afraid option cant bear another minute living shitpile theres reason keep living cant enjoy life properly shit tiresome twentythree years desire live see remaining decades find literally want friends im weird nerdy guy idk find hate titles hard time making good one happened across bait cable one night started thought eh im glad gave chance br br bait aint perfect suffers unnecessarily flashy direction occasional dumbness overall movie worked elements aligned right pulled pretty ugly film br br think due jamie foxx know tagged foxx lead whoever movie big favor believable amazingly likeable foxx glides movie smooth butter funnier hell tell hes working instinct instinct fail himbr br plot unimportant actually ties together pretty well theres even character arc foxxs character grows person couldve slipped without makes things much betterbr br im surprised low rating maybe caught move right night vice versa id give bravo mssr foxx saw short film hbo day absolutely loved eight different characters eight different perspectives first confused way story moving along realized one scene shown show us different perspectives charactersbr br first think clerks yelling teenager stealing speak language chris teenager played convincingly eleonore hendricks understand perspective clerks dispels view realize wonderful short really last two scenesbr br excellent short film hopefully director james cox turn short feature length film cast win us whole new filmbr br best friend tried kill last night stopped idea doill first way fucking love girl fucking love death one best friends help problems talk lot anime fetishes stuff best times depression seemed okay addicted cutting afterwards depressed boyfriend dumped last week piece trash suicidal bonded broke took days school loved guy loved death guy said really loved quite boyfriends gets help therapist even met guy decide diagnose clinical depression gets depression tablets friday feel good make upset ill insist take kick days tuesday talk lot fun tuesday talked til pm great conversation ex gets head texts demand broke says anymore find bullshit beautiful mensatier intelligence goes worthless telling let go partially confess feelings sure serious said loved lot kept telling let go tells godfuckingdammit tall alert best friend panics tells go going hang luckily father downstairs computer tell drive place let parents know speed bang hell door parents wake little groggy theyre calm tell exactly happened go upstairs best friend coming door never seen zombie harrowing immediately hug say promise never anything keeps saying sorry daze kind looks floor shame go downstairs dad make small talk ex life shell move weve etc go back home shaking text kik half hour later feeling better read watching lord rings next morning texted back movie phone likely away sent message pm know bit silly worrying hours normal situation tried commit redflag yknow im fucking worried idea talk help really first time ask help regarding normally know please reddit need ideas help wantedsorry crappy title really sure posted linked askreddit post found guess ill give backstory around years ago moved home country new zealand another country really want give specifics sorry thats rules got different country different culture language etc novelty wow cool wore fairly quickly went school started school fairly cheerfully first week school broke crying recess friends really know got friend changed cheerful started become depressed started fake sick go school fast forward two years believed bullied called nerd snotpicker among things almost daily though memory may warped quite ago happened fourth grade fast forward two years come year old emotionally unstable trust anyone anyone friend basically clung onto unstable day moved never really friends always someone never thought friends despite realize fast forward two years arrive year old thought redflag written suicidal notes taken tests seen therapists wants end tasked huge amount school work mother micromanges life suffering headaches things allowed stay home school requires go school unless want spend multiple days catching now honestly ive enough know commit redflag ive thought ive seen two therapists ive leave due leaving schools school go currently small around people max much variety people result im starting doubt whether continue life ive feeling crap lately especially school ive deal headaches stomach aches im fed took test iq doctor suggested take antidepressants refused heard make flat way regret decision im avid gamer usually play games mind things thats happening less less mother takes control life lot going university generally stressfilled life help help changes diet whenever sees something thinks help family leads angry due fact spending money food save bit buying half brands family eg father etc away another country generally things im sure ive tried make feel better ive basically lost motivation things days spent reading reddit nothing pretty good grades school generally neartop class marks yet im still told make study notes study every day mother believes getting marks every assignment ive basically lost motivation live thing keeping going fact want disappoint people feel im pulling people time ive skipping meals mother spend much people plus help classmates social rejects feel fit anywhere leads internet strangely feel fit welp im going stop thats one gigantic ramblerant know seen therapist lately helped im scared ask one mother may say need one need help advice anything help hellhole life hope sound selfentitled anything mother tells quote dont bad im sure seen people worse love somebody gave help sorry incredibly rambleyranty hate everyone im depressedi recently diagnosed bipolar ii years years undiagnosed depression anxiety many redflag attempts go waves anger numbness long periods depression ive worst pandemic living alone home time little progress made build back completely undone barely bed now im near constant state depersonalization periods intense anger start suddenly hate everyone seemingly reason want cut anyone life good uncontrollable urge every redflag attempt failed misery increases trying force things worse cant even stop anymore dont old saying hurt people hurt people misery loves company im trying make things unbearable choice find inner strength finally done successfully im helpless stop dont even care time im drinking morning whiskey coffee missing another holiday fucked broken mind nothing even feels real dont even know really exist kind jacobs ladder situation needs end one way another cant anymore hate everything im religious song goes hard wasnt religious id probably listen kb hero academia chapter action packed link httpsyoutubejgoqbvxllfo movie one wow movies greatest movie time surprised tv movie elvis safely say many impersonators one elvis safely say kurt russel came extremely close real thing one greatest impersonations seen believing really learned lot elvis life watching movie led television part let strayits actually really fantastic film kurt russel couldve elvis twin attack titanfskdkskaks im gon na dont know act mikasa levi oh god really wow levi really jean connie sasha ahhhhhhhhh fucking yessssss wooh yeah wooooh yesssss yeah wooh fuccckkkki g yeahhhh questionim hearing lot nobody really cares stuff directed general saying nobody really cares going problems stuff thats case really alone world id truly nobody cares still actually illusion someone care real question mean nobody really cares right nobody cares problems live die hell even live sure shit care live die rhis point practically emotionally logic shit live technically something think thought might friends cute hand drawn music video called lofi songs young home knowing httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvpoftilhbdm nothing feels good morei went awful breakup two months ago complete mental breakdown function study work suffering feel worthless useless never felt disgusted dont want fucking hate myselfi hate im mei want normal want know im ignored straight hated worse alli hate im transi hate im ex bend beckham film got little exposure united states probably due fact movie strongly british dialogue terminology dealt lot football soccer may trouble relating us unfortunate movie absolutely fantastic deserved much coverage think basis storyline following dream something many people relate end bend beckham proves goodfeeling film source inspiration really good acting overly excited seeing film initially regret seeing sooner highly recommend movie books movies videos things want really wish things already experienced strain much find energy waking hard already know supposed things done top basics overwhelming makes sad motivation levels id interested things enough motivate huge disconnect life feel passing quick slow experience anything battling known persistent depressive disorder made lot progress life still colour anyone feel way think want know alone wish already experienced things want experience see humans behind posts families pets friendshow dare fuck people thiswell gone another faceless nameless victim uncaring bullshitciao fuckers going post picture kill everything go awaythe voices stop screaming shakes stop constant irrational worries go away ill able finally sleep properly wish strong enough jump feel empty blank numb long rant last years life sounds pretty generic thats feel spent years chasing girl never got together dated moved right confessed felt never even got hold herwhat still wouldnt give hold confidently love wanted make work tried lasted half year decided leave wasnt end going experience breakup gone broke left broken months felt empty now met another girl liked first saw chance help first girl fizzled pretty quick though received letter girl explaining reason blocked number sc someone went phone blocked made think blocked believe story im sure dont see reason lie im sure anymore friends wanted back life badly wouldve happy even letter said fuck hope die long taking stuff got back together course loved exactly way tried think felt im sure happier sorta put back together broken first time ended dumping remained close friends day second dumping way played broke second time kept trying almost another year gave weeks ago im even sure right decision still late december november maybe last year talking blamed reason broke times good enough etc revealed reason dumped first time wanted hate kill wouldnt care knowing broke third time couldnt comprehend answer couldnt accept answer knew previous attempts life knew mental health problems anyone fact wouldnt tell knowing maybe couldve done something never wouldve broken first placejust shattered left first two times broken nowadays im trying still chasing anymore makes feel nothing guess didnt realize im lonely sap whos ranting reddit still talk unfortunately much ruined life completely put worst places ive still love heart maybe things change well back together maybe fizzle maybe ill meet someone ill forget girl spent long chasing knows day posting subreddit im yeah day go questions answered always feeling suicidalhello everyone know reach thought maybe awesome people reddit help ive batteled depression know make pain go away feel theres nothing live im empty inside might end tonight good bye b reason herei want die want hurt feel anything want go sleep one night dont want wake emotions hard confusing painful dont want hold anymore want happily see tv find love nothing goes wrong wont hate alive theres much idk well know dont dont anything sit cry hurt want go bed already last time whos gon na miss every friend rather hang anyone im last choice friend never check ask one person loved everything never enough want high right want drug find wake next morning want shoot head never hurt marie smooth dan im smooth im danbr br anything smooth single go together see someone rare enough want say something dont maybe say something ends perhaps least intelligent thing said life often though stare afar admire without deal taking agree way anywhere life risk cant blame guy little frightened though maybe hes burned hard maybe hes trying focus energy career reasons valid interpreted excuses rather reason tell need right time still wish happening way break easy sound familiar thought yes even little dan real life new comedy director peter hedges mustsee reach inside somehow manage break warm heart oncebr br dan title dan burns steve carell advice columnist admired insight living balanced fulfilling morally uplifting life four years film opens dan waking day lost wife love life tragedy dan left raise three daughters alone focusing career finding love one dans priorities became functional feeling removed power intimacy dan longer knows means close someone resigned never knowing meets marie juliette binoche book tackle shop connecticut quiet morning theyre interaction casual comfortable catches guard one problem really already seeing someone unfortunately involved someone dans brother mitch dane cook entire family come parents country home yearly visit dan must spend weekend pining yearning fleeting feeling marie morning lasted hour took long awaken dans heart comabr br many family members deal jack mahoney dianne wiest helm dan real life drift away grander purpose time time cyclone kids parents aunts uncles makes trying times dan hedges uses unnecessarily means distract presumption ultimately make complete film luckily hedges got carell carry heavy burden pleasure watch steve carell come every picture makes despite occasional evan almightysized misstep charismatic charming obviously sharp humorist dan selfdeprecating awkward scared carell rare comedian pushes find character roles rather rely solely comedic instincts established persona perhaps importantly entirely relatable dan whether hes flopping cot laundry room subjected sleep single adult reunion fidgeting around kitchen unable stan still anxiety dan every guy even unsure felt alone crowd carell gives dan much heart becomes heart film timebr br wondered seeing film enjoyed much despite slight shortcomings juliette binoche know might lighten every recommend unless chocolate involved life someone found someone derive much meaning comfort film cant say say someone knows means lonely dan real life knows means surprised life love moments people need appreciated cherished knows anyone might feeling lonely given day months time needs reminded surprises still happen originally wrote comments shortly first seeing film took critical view feeling lemmon matthau basically phonedin performances paired manner theyd done several times previouslybr br upon seeing seemed different especially view neither two main megastars lived great deal longer releasebr br exception spiner eight principals performers considerable experience likewise unavoidably lot longer tooth weve seen many film tv work almost everyonebr br seeing certainly regarded classis careers fun film lot interesting scenery wellbr br viewpoint reminds many films plays etc often looked either critical viewpoint looking instead lighter side without expecting film another citizen kane casablance terms two leads another original odd couple provide continuing piece nostalgia lemmon matthau well others cast update post week ago dog bit puppy blamed deaththank people much support meds week ran mother overseas work looking puppies born early morning checked every hours whole day something next morning left mom dog babies went wash hands came back bitten really badly holding left head completely freaked instantly blamed know best already decided dog getting anymore puppies aggressive towards last litter sad thing bit one well puppy defecating blood throughout day died hands crying begging better life one concerned look puppies mom breeds yorkies mom close due go important work trip across world time ran medication came back entrusted look puppies im medication wondering thank support sorry anything weird english main language motivation anything anything hobbies interest used playing video games try play mins gets boring used play hours years ago used play basketball interest anymore play probably mins gets boring used play hours years ago online businesses want start impossible literally motivation start started online ventures past motivationi literally wake go pc guess browse internet hours time goes fast fuck even though anything time goes fast even pc guess days go fast feels time anything even though anything forget much even remember happened weeks remember stuff want stuff feels wasting time nothing past years months go nothing accomplished feels year started months ago yet already half way year scary know motivation ordinary post boat hope gamerdude doesnt eat haha trapped boat bait gamerdude haha im criminal kill myselfunfortunately criminal eyes hurt someone kill read reddit hurt someone kill cant logically explain im still alive many times bc everytime something happens destroys last remnants selfesteem inside im back point misery tf redacted mean redacted consider dating virtual woman best virtual woman date league cant edit title meant best real girl date league hope understand im saying girl league know confusing phrase dont want hurt anyones feelings tonight especially theyre girl thought chance datemarry favorite vtuber ditch fiance probably still pick fianc close call crush vtuber willing say curious doctor appointment set next week dont know ill make iti know ridiculous week im going see gp depression anxiety suicidal thoughts increased intensity week planning making redflag notes amassing materials need order commit redflag want much going today things came stay school whats even fucking point posting hereits anyones going read say whatever try post posts overlooked im last legs cant go anymore know know reach anyone im done im done life big cosmic joke god huge bully enjoys torturing making life worse worse worse difficult cant take anymore want die want die want die anything death welcome completely open arms none fair tried reaching able say didnt tried reaching work reason supposed reach much roughly hours gohey didnt make post start im still set ending tomorrow ive people reach information services advice really appreciate cant homeless even ive stagnation cycle years attempt momentum goes south start dont mean sound victim back day bugged place eventually theyd see want current employees hire bugging everywhere least weeks going face face roughly less told stop coming nice vague words course hate seemingly anytime try right way sets worse life rather homeless person living day day days streets day hotel weeks job hunt thing ssi came nov thrinse repeat month w ssi living live prospects numbingly depressing dont drugs drink homeless extremely boring means thoughts anxiety ruminations snowball go days without sleep week realized temp agencies jobs wo stboots back streets thursday ive numb acceptance thought killing tomorrow isnt terrifying saddening even instilling apprehension now think alive amp homeless heart races sweat fidget want cry theres moisture left going end hotel staff nice worked regarding even let pay later times dont want place make news arrogance impeachment think aspies redflag make mention pre redflag logisticsi suicidal long time almost ready kill wanted know anything hand help family friends deal death far got note written visited relatives process giving away things advice things hand greatly appreciated thanks im afraid ill spend rest collegewishing graduate graduate ill miss college im miserable college ive heard job even worse friends go separate ways free time gets eaten etc movie falcon snowman showing christopher boyce around complex satellite background actual ryholite satellite space trw allowed interior shots trw allowed interior exterior shots one original star trek tv series episode one spock goes blind string satellite lights activated kill aliens christopher escaped jail lompock featured americas wanted drinking bar show aired said hey thats needless say captured transfered maximum security jail finally figured tiktok algorithm finally got become famous studied tiktok algorithm dont tohttpsyoutubepnwvzjzayt hardest classes im finishing degree applied mathematics requires take lot credits hours wide range stem fields ranking list difficulty field computer science quite difficult competitive high attrition requires creativity ability visualize abstract data structures engineering similar computer science less abstract pure mathematics abstract many paths right conclusion physics grounded problems hard favorite field computational practicality economics need apt arithmetic manipulating graphs chemistry lot concepts equations much creativity least lower level biology mostly concepts tricky nothing practice cant overcome considering including humanities philosophy near top abstract similar pure maths super smash bros us presidents sounds fun imo anyone wan na talk fnaf lore im nuerodivergent bored ive peaked cringe culture honestly care public opinion anymore wants talk william afton stabbed children haunted fursuit cause ive got slide powerpoint aching infodump tomorrow last dayi think done ive left everyone behind im done boyfriend cheated forgave hurt really badly broke mom used abuse kid dont think healed friends nonexistent ones ive held close let dad dead grandma one life shown unconditional love support despite everything hope god realizes better way scared cry sleep nearly every night self harm grown point helping matter much often deep getting high nothing anymore feels im falling hole someone sad someone lose much hope im crying write taking breaks clean foggy glasses choke sobs god couldnt died already dont know dont know dont know want help want somewhere dont think stopped time ive planning days im sorry im sorry really want go road trip miss traveling man want look good views listen music stay nice hotel want anime girl suffocate death thighs right fckin one please helpi thoughts long im medication helped soon think find someone understands wants help leave think much people leave cause wont give sex thought getting better see hope gone know anymore friends gone want hurt family telling want deal becoming much one cares ask found funny thanks coming ted talk nothing loseim starting think really lose killing parents yeah right dont care parents didnt really care either fact im way instead understanding problems think im crazy die dont care siblings ignored friends dont none classmates remember either theres point nothing lose killing problem cant find painless way im young buy gun im scared wont able hang properly leaves overdosing jumping high height im scared theres point living anymore im going kill chance father fucking idiot insults saying youre lazy never anything right audacity say insult true utterly despise literal narcissist says im extension mean actual fuck nothing life ending insult grotesque wildebeest know ass hole ground ive seen pandas ferocious rapunzel instead letting hair let people mom slow took months make joke glass water calories brain cells skin oily amazing hasnt invaded america yet ass jealous shit comes mouth id shove foot ass wasnt already occupied head punch face wouldnt want make look betterif got penny every one thoughts change im offended said im glad stringing words sentences now idiots fly fighter jet look something draw left hand wildebeest parents ask run away home reason gene pool needs lifeguard never witness true smile someones face happens leave carry plant around replace oxygen waste called gay honor reconigniton expert field laughter best medicine face must curing world must born highway thats accidents happen still love nature plunger always bringing old shit mark zuckerber looks human roughly words english language none describe much want hit chair someone pm life mess oneim complete mess im reaching end line dont know wish speak someone gives shit need help theres demon theremy demons taking know go know man theres something wanting dead know stop til die im already good dead theyve called pegged everything im might well end anime got hooked animebr br set year hey thats far away now earth poison gas wasteland pollution violence seeing crimes happening seconds committed thieves fire power third world terrorists government fictional new port city form tank police deal problem cops tanks oh insanitybr br heroes series include new recruit leona ozaki red haired japanese woman yeah know never match distinctly japanese names japanese appearance drafted tank police quickly partnered blond blue eyed nice guy al leona new using tanks unfortunately destroys favorite tank tank police commander charles britain known brenten big guy looks tom selleck steroids sporting pair nifty sunglasses big revolver bad temper britain leona join tank police first place wrecking tiger special giant green monster tank exactly endear fond taking remains giant tank using build minitank nicknames bonaparte soon pushing transferred child welfare boys size puts theres specs bifocal genius bible quotinggod fearing chaplain purple mohawked mohican pot bellied chief whos right edge thanks mayor always yelling tank police antics seeing tank cops often destroy half city chasing bad guys use extreme violence capture theyre well liked peoplebr br villains cyborg named buaku whos got mysterious past thats connected project known green peace gang two sexy cat cyborg sidekicks anna uni puma first installment guys paid steal urine samples hospital treating people infected poison gas clouds nd theyre hired steal painting naked buaku story uncompleted anime finished cult comic manga book thats hard findbr br sorts chaos mayhem ensue black comic venture examines far people want police go order catch criminals happens fine line good guys bad guys starts 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cant tell people feel fear going back mental ward try open mom argues anxiety makes almost impossible make new friends im scared go new people fear think im scared rejection whats point alive know im going alone whole life ive tried therapy years nothing works nothing worst person comes week tells feel need help feel alone cant tell anyone ill seen coward im year behind school already hard enough feel comfortable moving friday away friends ill start new school cant deal pressure want friends people care people wont judge problems read thank listening know whats next weekend everyone lets pppppppaaaarrrttttyyyy got apple juice got tacos got music never gon na give lets celebrate survived another week serious people tried overdose pills happened body reactwhen felt really sick got major stomach ache felt dizzy eventually threw passed heard way worse things happening people getting seizures similar stuff pills take body react sideafter effects receive hotline sucks cant find help going call called hot line got put hold basically tech support try find help cant im crazy person start alking people usually reaction sop istening find next person pass called holine try give nuber aned phone go though im takign deserving people withme thinkingi got home hospital days ago want go back hate life im tired living hospital wasnt even fun either felt safe dont know boring thinking life even worse dont even want try anymore cope life dont understand anybody contempt living ive wondered theyre faking maybe im good faking either way really dont enjoy single thing life know least something sometimes dont even feel human im pretty sure feeling complete emptiness whats gotten far im bad kid try school good grades cant take anymore left home awhile back help little bit im still feeling shit hate im homeschooled ive tried hard keep afloat ive done lot try recover depression maybe bad personality im negative hard feel happy im always let hate family hate wish wouldve helped sooner think late now diagnosed dysthymia double depressive episode hospital dont expect better ive tried tried tried nothing changes family might well strangers hobbies drawing pass time hobby skill art hate art anyways dont see getting better see enjoying life matter happens didnt attempt redflag hospital awhile ive planning running away jump high area probably wont happen thought makes feel better hated childhood hate teenager ill probably hate adult nothing seems good ive already lost hope im going either drop high school soon kill years kill sometime soon truly hate life nothing cruel thus far im sorry writing im feeling god awful posting every day girlfriend day thishttpsmyoutubecomwatchvqksllylywi people punished wanting kill themselvesit makes angry parents said say ill kill ill sent mental hospital consequences saying maybe even mention go kill anyways maybe people use punishment suicidal people freaking aced math test lets goooooo im really known getting prefect scores assignments tests ive struggling keep grade math freaking suck math grades closing next week kind test decided grade b honestly stressful minutes ive want fail anything b considered failure house today got results got questions correct lets goooo pog ya boi actually pulled minimize pain caused hangingive heard painful way going padding rope rope digging front throat true lot less painful put padding rope rope dig side neck im asking friend want give nothings going change want change afraid everything surrounded people feel alone tired fighting cutest thing happened petting kitten watching dreams newest yt vid hitman premiere decided boop kitty kitten booped back came pretty much state art musical film entertainment day entertaining great part james cagney lead role musical prologue producer succession deadlines sheltered storms trusty girl friday played joan blondell musical numbers towards end put together busby berkeley pretty much knockout far type thing goesbr br pretty strange movie mean one numbers got billy barty running around pretending lovable toddler kinds weird stuff ruby keeler seems sickening smile plastered face times least required act later unfortunate films never guess dick powell kind tough guy seeing movie apparently tough guy energy allocated star cagney cagney high speed rants musical shows forth endearing annoying time gets bit much expect walk say hey ive got great idea prologue women cigarettes come pack smokes oh one last month funny gets bit repetitive moments tough bad girl ruth donnelly established cagney gangster character comes fact frequent b gangster director william keighley credited dialogue coaching seems times cagney blondell invoking something street even though characters criminalbr br musical numbers say stand alone entertainment way berkeley uses human body geometry really startling none really mean anything means honeymoon hotel nothing really less whole pretense integration falls apart immediately characters show things possibly appreciated theater audience movie portrays example one point show fine print newspaper things whole thing exist film idea prologues actually live shows ridiculous suppose audiences time somewhat less critical things ten years later polished productionbr br great see cagney show superb dancing skills actually share stage dancer keeler cagney blondell excellent chemistry scenes go really well music say mediocre mostly pleasing repetitive bacons direction general suitable never interesting films entertainment value unquestionable picked nostalgic value along way cut lets put show films s roses red violets found end portal lets kill thot feeling super bad aka redflag feeling super good one single thought theyre times exaggerated another thought feeling super good feeling super bad matter seconds switchs last hours stop come back bad feelings awful way cope thinking way killing good ones completely forget sensation bad ones gave see bright side first cousin one live near close killed todayhe left redflag note wife two kids went woods behind house killed close relative never said much financial trouble devastated know deal godfather always seemed successful rich learned lost job year ago sat home drinking time lied proud ask help something cant believe posted wrong subreddit earlier got told computer interact people im definitely started looking reddit recently amazed community guess im looking another source advice tom berenger put soul sgt barnes done thomas beckett thought world folding first scenes nothing compared much felt last scenes great movie even girl wrong girls sick joy kicking guys ballsseeing hurt sexual violence humiliation better guy groped girl put much agony crashed floor gagging choking crying everyone laughed funny got humiliated violated hurt girl guy asked crush said yes now friends always treated friend dating dont really know act need tips great bf cross boundaries asking date hug kiss etc post may stupid really need tips cut first time yearsgoing lot life changes right country last months girlfriend didnt pick said gave money took maybe personally got upset broke crying airport composed self uber home yelling text shes really stressed work hugged broke crying walked kitchen went sleep made small cuts leg think ive got control now cuts werent anywhere big ones made wait line redflag hotline text chat dont think need take call time really scared going create episodes thinking vividly killing past weeks want doneim meds thought working therapist stopped seeing got expensive know helplines avenues hospitalized dont enough want go humiliation dont want anymore feel im tired feeling insignificant alone im depressed shy actually go anywhere make friends reach feel nothing left fight movie little hidden gem come s shocking lot people know itbr br movie definitely worth look things need horror movie especially good old chillsbr br remember watching movie first time years ago remember name came imdb years ago ask help finding title eventually got name title bought movie still love much years agobr br buy movie phasmophobia fun ampxb httpspreviewredditrffwappngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfcaaddbdb see one dude skirt ima make geneva conventions fucking todo list woke upsame shit different day still wan na die best times one great sleepers time setup tax patience development steady many intertwined relationships lovingly established gags bits work funny lots sentimentality kurt russell playing reno hightower puts one best performances robin williams playing jack dundee surefooted cast includes many great supporters jacks wife played jack palances daughter lovely renos wife great comedian cant tell many times ive watched movie many times enjoyed often wish people see emotion feel filler filler filler filler filler filler cant take anymorehello im suicidal year old egyptian male diagnosed ocd years old ocd first manifested actions soon gone years old soon began manifest another way called pure ocd back realise fear im pedophile realise harm someone im incest etc biggest thing im afraid im pedophile dont realise got point cant look kids even hild little brother reason mind keeps triggering situations father met friend work meet friends family including daughter time thought pretty knowing ger age ask taught rude ask females name crush fetishised jerk asked age thought gon na years worst thing grandparents told fine egyptian culture one worst considering pedophilia egyptian ppl disgusting ok year old man marry year old girl said agenda almost believed thought crush fine kept fetishising even full knowingly im stopped crush cuz mind stupid eventho looked realized pedophilia manipulation introduced hentai jerked kinky stuff name lolislavebdsmrapeetc every time remember two incidents anxiety run vains im one disgusting creatures called pedophiles im denying cant take ocd puperty freek denying say lem tell yall traditional czech recipe called chlebov pochoutka bread delicacy take piece bread put piece bread put another piece bread bon appetit friends im big dumb failureive lurked lot never posted pretty bad tonight though im going talk ive always sad cant remember time fighting deepseated sadness even happy surface tried kill mom found took therapist gearing try express feeling drove desperate measures prepared let started telling id tried kill laughed face asked world want really fucked going open id anyone saying really fucking difficult things acted big joke really fucking difficult time talking people trusting now trigger certainly help im college im pretty shy many friends im weirdly jealous hate thats somebody want shynesswithdrawal people become worse lately grandpa died one best friends fucked cant handle idea seeing anyone anything wonder im lonely friends throughout theres thoughts head always kill cant rid thoughts know im trying say want friend want feel dying seconds think anyones online thanks letting talk anyway cheese sandwich fo tea hell ye watched film shire joybr br possibly one best films time timeless value much amazing parts moving funny greatbr br aspect spot portrayal story perfect every detail genuine even small irish subtleties coveredbr br use low high shots gives two great views cristy look thatbr br daniel daylewiss performance incredible ive never seen actor really amazingbr br great watch flows well probably closest thing yo real life experience love itbr br seen see doubts something making excuses every dayit seems reddit everything huh im recent college graduate got sit home watch generic congrats class posts roll thinking nothing graduated time wouldve actual ceremony even home matter fact moment im sitting motel mom brother unemployed miserable younger sister kicked mom yet whole job drivers license im shit aside problems seizures nothing stopping getting job im applying every day every job shut one opportunity postgraduation immediately something bachelors theatre thrown window immediately every time open mouth someone good news possible opportunity shit gets shut matter days due one thing another friends guys occasionally sleep everyone time wander phones cant respond texts maybe im cool hip enough im always alone one talk complaining one platform ive negative thoughts incel stuff along occasional ignorant completely left field rude comments subreddits part best friend left even graduated literally dropping freshmen married span year half something obviously wrong people come contact know im pleasant yet one wants invite anywhere stopped using snapchat every friend group part kept getting together without want shit encourages antisocialism yet im looked person reaching want die simple cry often often want take easy way gun head knowing shitty luck id manage survive one thing keeps going getting shot running traffic family thats excuse even though everyones mess still need depend want grieve wouldve gone long even graduated intended date one outside family bat fucking eyelid maybe oh chick tits yeah funny im sick life lost much time people personalities fucking livesi want redflag depression robbed another relationship want disappointment anymorei keep falling back suicidal thoughts used month twice week reason im still dissapoint people care im grateful care sometimes wish disappoint killed im afraid depression drive people away usually type feelings mandatory song suggestions anyone give song ill reply one im anything metal country app needs taken needs addressed game app store carbon copy fleeing complex henry stickmin please download leave bad review needs taken heres link leave review httpsappsapplecomusapptheprisonescapeofstickmanid feeling crap tonighthi sw im feeling personal low period year usually hit low depression around time year usually manageable time deep winter think lack sunlight gets anyway argument parents thats something always brings typically never fight maybe year every eighteen months stay trouble good college well got fight went room cool say anything stupid room reverted one worst states using energy keep redflag mind even im typing realize many issues im afraid ive never able admit ive never able talk anonymously guess need counselling least use marijuana irregularly one helpful things ive used helping fight depression reason know better way drugs help ive got able reach place without know advice feel im wits end want end trying kill used much know want live im right now feel littlest thing put edge thoughts comments helpful thank advance taking time post married two young children feel completely aloneim overwhelmed suicidal ideation tonight son threatened knife stab today im kid im joking way got car drove hours tonight got home went ou bedroom husband came barely one word laid went sleep really really want go garage car start sleep forever want kill tonight dont know definitely want toi feel terrible extremely anxious right now things take hour take whole day im running time important deadlines yet barely make things know important apply colleges whats point know ill rejected anyway im exhausted used miss younger didnt feel whenever think back point life bad feeling feel disgusted dont fact struggle along others proves people feel reaching long term goal unlikely finally got confirmation today wont happen pretty much one friend feel im huge burden hold back go college might upset week two long run itll better think im readyi guess ill start drinking deal pain aspect much shorter thought less poetic hey girl u gift wrapping cos wan na tie ribbon around u want balls kill hate came fucking scared live lifei tried many times fucking cant take im sick tired remembering fucking bullshit life done pussy everything im tired much potential relationships many people wasted never got balls ask girl bullshit anxiety suffer fucking hate hate treated child one gave hope struggling suicidal thoughts age thats fucking normal hate stupid fucking life everything tried kill age l still pussy im fucking waste human space hate hate living nothing gets fucking better remembering emotional loneliness child cant even feel anymore emotions sucked away cant handle shit negative thoughts positive stupid fucking people profiling shit stupid closed minded teachers profiling rebellious gangbanger age fucking bullshit hate shit cant fucking want die hate even thought alive wish aborted wish never thought live greatest gift fucking call bullshit happens strip kids confidence u miserable fucks wishing dead one days im going fucking overdose blast brains something hate fucking living someone please fucking kill something anyone finds film boring hopeless bonehead stick car chase movies romantic comedies film riveting boring moment comprised largely intelligent dialogue real people moment crisis details efforts survive crisis repeatintelligent dialogue characterizes nearly rohmers films lot people prefer action fine let spend rest lives watching action films us taste discrimination continue seek films thisbr br rohmer always accused talky well thats compliment criticism shakespeare talky talkier play hamlet whenever subject theme work art consists ideas conflicts values must necessity discussion ideas values largely film aristocracy noble birth vs egalitarianism loyalty old friends put ultimate test friend takes believe wrong path value human life responsibility help save life even person possessing life nice even despicable anyone hear dostoyevsky crime punishment film aboutbr br two leads film impeccable born play roles lucy russell english speaks french second language especially brilliant favor see riveting film may last film screen master know ur hopeless even pedos dm honestly sexting pedo probably closest sex come fuck even unattainable ones dm always ghost couple hours please help remember actress okay girlfriend talking mentions singer lorde lorde crossed mind look picture sudden flashback remember someone looks lorde mental picture woman head clue either tv movie black hair potentially dyed bangs big eyes dark lipstick black lipstick image head pale skin dressed black young woman statistically supposed dead sometime last years chf day nothing changed lifei look patient admittance band httpimgurcomszrnqid think self happy im still alive infact ive known despair sadness ive learned people leave instead want stay people never love way love fighting light end tunnel fighting littlest glimpse hope exhausting last night smiling thinking bottle jamo golddot hollowpoints ive kept pillow first genuine smile ive years effortless move muscles face create smile throw people theres nothing behind notice smiling involuntarily truly comes heart im tired tired ive wanted sleep might today might tomorrow hell might months now honestly felt getting maybe deleted really care contains spoilersbr br saw advert videothen sister discovered book read iti rented video day finished booki thought memorable book cast brillianttara fitzgerald excellent helen rupert graves hateful arthurthe costumesmusic settings stunningly beautifulbr br warningdont read havent watched thisbr br downside sex scenes added violencethis video rated things thrown inafter first parti felt accuracy went downhill book better thisi glad seen reccomend people read bookare fans bronte costume dramasi long fastforward sex scenes book rather underatedanne brontes books dont seem widely read well known jane erye wuthering heights made television film several times another thingwhen read book surprised much religion ther itbut axed outbr br problems homehi yo kid moved germany years agoive living mombrother dad sometimeshe still visa anyways moved liked beginning summer started feel depressioni miss friendsmy familyand everything leave behindbut hard depression theni feeling sad etcbut beginning yearmy mom started call failurea losermany animal namesand hits alot timesi used cry alot let memy dad us currently hell come soonbut started suicidal thought became violent aggressivewhen hits sometimes hit backshe tells kill threatens shell call police even tho hits metoday said something made really angry broke picture houseshe saw started beat shit mei said thst broke asked leave alone want toso grabbed tried calmly take sithout hurting anyoneanyways left room started talk shit thats irrelevantshe changed subject suddeni sat right next door dad called answerhe said mom hell call police thst want kid housei said leave alone already want tomy dad phone talking momanyways let room sat next started call alot namesshe said thst girl wants failure thst want learned cry didnti told leave room want kept goingtalking shiti accidentally broke mirror next door thought killing didntits couple hours incident think im starting mentally illi angry easily violenti break things care live die think eidadhdanxiety depressionanyways thats story delightful disney film angela lansbury fine form middle age spinster whose interest turns witchcraft world war englandbr br lansbury age time film ideal part jessica fletcher time benefit children mother england time great perilbr br film follows adventures miss price lansbury david tomlinson professor witchcraft trying obtain certain information sorcery little darlings sent live price escape london bombings wonderful enchanting film us regardless agebr br bad tessie oshea roddy mcdowall sam jaffe given little endearing filmbr br really thought ben stiller filmnight museum end film relics come life battle nazi invasion small british coastal town im struggling suicidal thoughts awhile now cant anymore im sick people telling gon na alright timeim still teenager im already done fuck im sick waking everyday go shitty minimum wage job dont confidence determination make something ive ghosted friends theyre better without dad died years ago mum hates one unfair dad lost life deserved live s wish instead loved good person deserved live cant stand im burden mum shes disappointed turned doesnt understand bad mental health tells hang whats fucking point anything im confused girl talking became valentines weve taking hugging cuddling see next hang today due parents fighting talking kissing asked shed girlfriend said ready im wondering something maybe ready well todays dayive today picked awhile mixture emotions plan tonight still go buy gun im freaking lazy im worried motivated enough go gun place opens early closes early able sleep want go easier thursday work want ask borrow elses gun everyone knows id want im sleepy wanted tell guys today last day im going play destiny go bed pretty bad actually small amount power live longer want play destiny cant think titlemale job go school social life making one day time know see therapist dont know need something change cant want know easiest way know tell know probably long keep going posting going change anything still anyway tell care dont care idea stopping someone thats know think help finally bought ropeevery time finally grew pair id finally hang extra step going walmart getting rope first usually extra step generated enough time someone stop someone show care enough stop last night happen reach sack skip step hopefully ill die anyone tries stop unadd snap streak girl met tinder gon na meet college im moving next week talked sex played mc together etc broke streak left delivered week unadd tv viewers lost interest space interested anything set space finally played mass effect friend recommended found shows babylon farscape firefly battlestar galactica influenced mass effect space sci fi popular s early s dominant pop culture tv things s game thrones zombies superheroes become harder imagine humanity future reveal biggest spot forehead looks ruh interested see movie first came theaters able around finally hit shelves picked knowing exactly expect plopped dvd player settled evening murder pressed play followed one engaging flicks ive seen last couple yearsbr br spoilersbr br story wonderland murders led seediest parts la straight biggest porn start s john holmes val kilmerbr br hooked beginning feel movie held way bloody end surprised find movie focused less actual murders events investigation aside blood splattered walls beginning actual showing murders towards end movie less engaging show great dialoge great acting val kilmer sells junkie porn star even beautiful thats bosworth joy watch looks mind youbr br personally felt best aspect movie mentioned lack outright showing murders shown dark atmosphere completely see brutal bludgeoning bestowed apon sleeping foursome furthermore sound effects said murders enough whet appetite beating lead pipes theres much needs saidbr br real problem carrie fishers brief appearence portrayal overlyreligious figure think bit cliche appearence maybe person actually part story maybe sold reason fisher seemed bit akward portrayalbr br overall excellent movie worth watch even oncebr br sorry posting topspin wii tennis ball post often reddit glitched forced wait post tell posting repeatedly im swarmed many people angry something understand side story know id someone talk toim verge taking life im planning tomorrow hoping talk see somebody help figure better solution life currently mom brother make want kill myselfso brother younger yells mom something mom yells im least favorite feel care ive tried kill multiple times something always stopped need help im shy afraid talk anyone btw dad grandmas people make want kill frustrated inability anythingselfimprovements key word self dear reader provide advise read x y try z success stories told say xyz exercised changed diet cbt whatever never able right now become vegan read radical acceptance brach take walk every day start super small walk maybe put shoes nothing needs done even consistently theres mental block something whats worse stuck level planning nowadays even sit make basic plan y try change internal monologue refuse change think aspects goes reality example anything want anything somewhat privileged still worker capitalist economy able though none works magically develop drive willpower whatever people even pressure nothing happens part feels free must different everyone accept compatibilism thing total free will think different levels free per individual maybe really lazy weak thing worked years recent development wanted try intermediate fasting nothing worked decided feel days able wait dinner eat others eat day surprisingly worked lost pounds plans regime smart goals feel exact opposite advice given years able expand anywhere know sure coming unhealthy obsessive crap feed always think dying killing never want fact life catch screw want disappeari want disappear one remember dont want death interfere anyones lives dont know first place im giving friend responds respond im still feeling absolute shit im taking pills hoping one cares people ruining fitness methey say stuff eating healthy working expand lifespan years geez wanted gttfw caring loving gf really idea someone loving unconditionally except parents someones first priority never loved girl never loved girl dog thing thats keeping alive wont know ive gone lefttired living im year old female living asian country im honestly sure im depressed ive never diagnosed especially asian country depression basically taboo family doesnt want anything diagnosed basically feel parents dont love love elder brother hes smarter theyve always compared always feel inadequate help around house laundry cook clean im lazy slob cry sleep almost every night im tired living sometimes feel want commit redflag feel life isnt going anywhere im mother always says age shes already graduated university job ive started university keeps saying im slow stupid mention got tattoos parents found back dad slapped kicked punched strangled tattoos says prostitutes tattoos wanted kill day mother saw everything happening never stopped dad beat brother put physically stood watched wanted call police said breaking family right im tired issues boyfriend ive posted another thread see youd im tired living dont feel anything going better feel ill forever unloved ill die alone dont think anyone miss thing thats keeping alive right dog wondering went tears inside dog passes away wouldnt anything live anymore painhello high school senior know phase depression feel way worse now longer suicidal thoughts every single day feel even useless failure point hurts physically know fail forever alone im fucking pansy deserve live may young know ill still lurk years want end dont tf americans hating asians theyre fucking awesome culture food women especially smh ppl story told cranes flying admittedly original young lovers separated war bad things happen weve seen many times beforebr br nonetheless seen filmed well bold shots take liberties emphasize separation destruction hopelessness remarkable coming soviet union reason conclude tarkovsky last word modernera soviet cinemabr br reading chekhovs three sisters day chanced upon may meaning title film act masha objects notion must live lives without meaning understandingbr br masha surely mankind must believe something least seek truth life emptiness emptiness live know cranes flying children born stars sky either must know live everything trivial mere pointless nonsensebr br likewise veronika hard time believing war others sufferings pointless better assign meaning live ones life significant give despair perhaps thinking prompts final act filmbr br btw minor correction one comment herethere may pattern vs film though noticed first letter veronikas name instance cyrillic alphabet name begins letter looks english b twitter annoying im talking people mean platform im batim fanartist bendy ink machine batim art community actually super nice earlier made mistake drew digital drawing tweeted decided set profile picture noticed birthday option warning said change birthday times locked account saying users older use platform im already almost id figured still let use account apparently twitters calculator broke wait mom home unlock trying breathe keep eyes swelling shutit time preparing magnificent son born july gave birth perfectly healthy boy completely love name liam james taylor everyone loved planned wanted perfect things tell mom reduce statistical likelihood sids even even good kind soul loves god still wake middle night find son unresponsive days old hell giving newborn baby cpr getting anywhere course called help took away hospital sent waiting room prayed gave let die thought god woke help let hold little body police investigate shock agreed investigated course rhese things happen fault found every night awoke check baby evolutionary trait hard wired brain women give birth people complain post partum depression clothes fit life stressful responding many demands growing family postpartum depression baby strange awful try sad time try supress intense negative feelings try control grief sad often contemplate redflag husband often tells contemplates redflag people say im depreseed bed think sounds luxurious im trying cry desk gf ruined entire life sent nudes muslim motheri feel horrible life shit grades extremely bad family fight time friends girlfriend talked hours everyday got extremely jealous crazy sudden shamed everything ruined life sending sexual chat history fetishisms nudes muslim mother placed lock phone got taken away wifi got taken away im forced pray times day yells hour refuse life horrible using razors blades cut open foregead forearms im depressed suicidal yet lack power end please help much respect ppl speak second even third languages fuck u hard learn wtf bad u good wow im hassle really love care shouldnt even say though im desperate someone say need around one though assault words daily im filled hate actual hatred think im going end killing thats cant help now im far gone matter time really im emotional wish guys manly hate emotions feel weak cry easily emotional sometimes think sort disease things dream never become reality ive wanted one simple thing long time now ill never able im tiredevery day wake go exact bullshit every fucking day two years ive felt two years gotten better doubt will everyone says gets better im still waiting please cant wait anymore every day wake wait something faintest shimmer water endless desert yet cant trust maybe mirage heat exhaustion im tired chasing endless mirages hope understand believe eyes point latest body water dying thirst see eyes im tired im tired say theres helicopter coming ive waited long ive struggled long think coming im ready bury sand suffocate thirst raw agony wait wait die best glimmer water mirage please let sleep west virginia coal opioids worst fallout game oh joe msnchin cant forget correct im wrong think thats state map movement scary ive seeing increasing number map minor attracted person posts frankly scary recounting story shared anyone guess random people reddit way go m holiday swimming around beach pretty good swimmer loved swimming went quite deep way touch ground feet swimming around large man foot comes near feet touching ground puts arms around innocent thinking hes help shore safer said said something im fine thank swim back need carried day still remember said youre cute let feel blue shorts know something similar froze know anything scared self let literally millimeter groin im guessing adrenaline kicked pushed swam deeper end looking back swam around seconds realised im extremely deep waters look back man gone thank heavens body functioning make way back lifeguard swimming toward way back go beach pool next months always slightly reluctant back pool lost fun sport really enjoyed point seeing map movement grow scary im avid supporter love sharing love regardless race gender even age minors whose minds fully developed emotionally physically put situation forces innocence depriving chance learn mistakes grow tldr map tried feel vacation beach ruined enjoyment swimming rude awakening freeze victim harassment age think might omitted psych wardim going talk new psychologist end february dont want tell truth think put psych ward want die think february nd deadline depression incurable depression incurable many friends post title asks many friends much think good amount online schooling best video conferences place teachers drop exercises today one task return next month usually percent school day things school ridiculously easy barely tests homework shut thim upset dont know calm want puke dont feel good want sort way try make things stop second guess dont really know understand dont know dont know whats wrong think tomorrow hard dont really think thats im upset dont know know cant die tonight want really bad tomorrow hard holidays always hard one person life besides celebrates thats mom reason fourth one ive typically remember spending throughout life guess maybe rest family religious holidays taught bad growing fascinated light show loved way blast made chest echo trance got share special moment mom remarried th grade stopped almost everythinganything together going parks hiking singing car tradition discover best coolest last minute spot find showever holidays us especially fourth special politics america us think really really hard kinda devastating mom unhappy marriage stays pretty much pain ive put growing dad demonizing divorce afraid go hasent doesnt job born cant support sister feel hear see strain tension every year hard brings lot emotional things lived thats worst almost got divorce guilt everything ive put mom honestly dont think thats reason im struggling right something put words bothers something guess im sorry vent long post dont think anything serious tonight dont want make things even worse mom im barely able survive time know things lot better everyone never alive first place anyone feel wayi want escape negative emotions want pursue positive emotions happiest life imagine life really goal subconsciously know reach goal stage life attached things loveenjoy much connection real world sabotage destroy potential remove personality dream becoming heroin addict overdosing deep know things free attachment feel alive choice passively let things happen die brave take responsibility life loved series kid family always watched show favorite character one played marion lorne rather stuttering bumbling lovable aunt type person still recall ubba bubba um um type comments try say something important came back played aunt clara bewitched great casting br br first time remember seeing walter matthau whose career followed fan many many yearsbr br question anyone verify title end credits music swedish rhapsody hugo alfven every time hear played classical radio station southern california brings back memories image mr peepers walking away back camera im even certain image minds eye correct im pregnant going freakin idea panicccc hopeless hey guy movies everything choices times life must pick something pass away movie prove course life fact beautiful picture movie shows shows indeed may figure im trying say full pain love deep lessons live aaron mormon missionary real shepherd digging thing beautiful deep inside chisthian skin feeling guybr br great end always believe fate surprise turn live latter daysbr br big deal watch last nightupdate thanks guys ill reply comments soon told boyfriend woke cuddled long story short better morning planning jumping bridge today really appreciate subreddit mods helps know somebody listening im planning ending tomorrow sure fully im going go yet thinking jumping bridge water cold time year fast id tonight im boyfriends house hes asleep cant lock house behind id take key hes taking shift work tomorrow know hell need key lock behind fair refuse leave body find house im going suck end now mean hed think im asleep right hes already upset sleeping much fault energy levels fucked hell part nature depression start new meds maybe something maybe im lazy bastard knows really maybe id stay awake id see something keep alive honestly know feel empty hollow want go now cant bring wake cant tell need need bad need feel wish wanted wish depression hard wish fucked wish brain stop tried one crisis chat centres work gave hotline call problem bad social anxiety cant talk phone without stuttering making incomprehensible cant exactly phone know say anymore even know im posting guess say final goodbyes something boyfriend resources least work time family around love cant deal brain longer im sorry ill breaking promise call weak liar whatever helps mad go right ahead need know will brother sisterinlaw im sorry im sorry sorry reach guys want burden guys anymore already psychs able help least jl young remember understand im sorry nieces nephews ending great lives im proud love guys im sorry rest family love guys cant go im gon na gn sleep great noose sleep really need encouragement help please moment fake threatening redflag rteenagers sweet reddit karma tons awards epic awesome rteenagers moment hey girl u cup coffee cos u make feel better every morning puppy dying ii know say ive raised special needs puppy day born weekend took turn worse vet today sent emergency veterinary college state took three hours lot false promises said accepting thousands dollars told morning ive sold camper took loan car put downpayment surgery want even tomorrow treat release balance even gas drive three hours back college cant even end depression social anxiety made shit life social media nobody small circle help gofundme tried desperation gone nowhere cant word im money food hope world two years ago lost person dearest redflag teetering line deciding follow now hope tether world brief time beside worthless powerless save im broke ridiculous piece shit dead end shit job alone lonely ive dealt enough failing someone dear dependent greatly probably losing great beyond last straw theres hope kindness charity warmess world cold unfeeling money grubbing kill ive lost everyone time ill join love sweet eternal silence leave dirty greedy world behind sometimes okay sometimes decision good luck fellow travelers definitely kill myselfi lied brothers face today said finally goal lose weight truth going kill fall year already made mind decided redflag best option right now losing weight nothing make feel better ive already dieted lost pounds past still suicidal depressed loser pounds lighter ended gaining weight back plus pounds today first time worked years hopefully years ive finally stopped keeping shitty facade ill long dead theres reason want stay alive hope nothing life except successful redflag whathow much take banned rteenagers im aware someone got banned continuously sending gt better cum sink sink cum im wonderingwhat tactics banned one step thisi currently sitting forest away town live rope inside bag ive found quiet place birds singing peaceful ive written redflag notes family friends one thing bothers text mother tell feel depression suicidal thoughts hard im afraid reaction maybe go ultra mad break even hand left lose ive told people depression didnt cared enough ill make right promise mom discuss home guarantees care maybe think im whiny idiot life hard yada yada thing im sure want die dont continue meaningless existence complicated conflict happening right head sorry grammar yeah im pretty boredso fresh highschool cant help feel ill probably never good time really feel job certainly interests seems ill grow old die internal struggle vain seem reward anything im certainly counting afterlife see anyone actually cares anything indifference led family resent im pretty tired letting everyone really feel going college either point think kill born sure kind trap guys sometimes cry lot reason think may aspergers kind robotic disorder feel hopelesshonestly want talk people open irl keep hidden im completely falling apart enjoy many things used always look forward sleep away everything hate alone especially thoughts honestly feels world crashing even though actively want die im kind point wish think every day think feel everything feel daily basis feel forced memories life better constantly reminding never going never going better feels im even anymore know fix attending army getting suicidalalright mandatory enlisting attendance army turn duration attendance months problem cant handle anymore month treated shit even follow orders dissed different people asked medical care doctor check feet walking hurts lot days nothingi back home days tendons ankles gotten swollen barely walk getting suicidal desperate dont know long keep together parents wont allow quitting social stigma leave mandatory army way applied unconstitutional regulations un eu right un eu well country object due personal beliefs battalioncompanywhatever way tougher rest country come second special forces matter hard try shitted people us object attending want kill person wish hold gun kill person live without humility let go become part machine keep killing people lose touch friends family girlfriend person deserve treated become man man want matter much hatred people towards races nothing pay country made feel unwanted person cant keep sanity anymore none understands complications attending allowed work public sector allowed drivers license country allowed vote social stigma want degree university leave country dont plan coming tldr parents unwilling sign stop attending mandatory army getting suicidal desperate monkees surprisingly big favorite mine yes might original manufactured rock band gimmick certainly reached overkill st century music holds best s offer last train clarksville daydream believer im believer im stepping stone valleri pleasant valley sunday great songs written good songwriters boycehart neil diamond goffenking john stewart great musicians songwriters likable screen presence plenty appeal stuff actually decent tv show dated stuff still watch show occasion time capsule life magical dangerous time us historybr br know portent things come likes kelly clarkson monkees want considered manufactured puppets recording company despite average talents wanted write songs produce albums call shots came tours sadly turned disaster especially peter torks choice jimi hendrix opening act nixed due stealing show heavy sexual suggestions music compared monkees grated contentbr br final nail coffin monkees infamous motion picture head head written bob rafelson jack nicholson allegedly high maryjane film received poor reviews made box office today film cult classic ahead time delivers message minds youth summer angerbr br head really plot basically one four monkees lurch scene scene without rhyme reason go eating diner seeing davy jones getting bashed sonny liston western sucked vacuum performing concert forth film basically offers oblique opinions wrong american society monkees bash commercialism war vietnam american policy censorship establishment greed read lines see targets derision werebr br monkees spend lot time boxed certain junctions film symbolizing felt record company saw nothing toys play time record another hit album scene outnumbered western scene symbol session musicians songwriters record producers whatnot controlled careers cannon fire way saying begonebr br film truly psychedelic trip behold flashy tiedye colors hypnotic concert belly dancing scenes druggy imagery everywhere acting actually good thats biased monkees tv show small soundtrack features porpoise song three songs written monkees themselvesbr br film actually hilarious scenes occasion although maybe supposed mickey dolenz beating coke machine give soda violent punchups boxing scene mean wiry guy probably weighed laughing upbr br movie absolute mustsee monkees fan think lot people feel movie indeed head obsessed s society time find great time capsule meryl streep may greatest actor working today chameleonic portrayals never fail astonish seems actually characters brings screen one true thing gives life deceptively straightforward profoundly complex woman best play hand life dealt surviving cancer easy task surviving actually continuing live ones life even harderand precisely kate gulden streep means renee zellweger jerry maguire holds exalted company shines streeps daughter learns see new light parents lives well streep powerhouse deservedly received oscar nomination work im going say dialogue zellweger leave devastated zellweger though real revelationher face conveys every emotion every conflict begins learn many truths parents strengths weaknesses director carl franklin devil blue dress handles extremely difficult story material sureness delicacy yeah know sad kms making feel guilty giving live tired everyone telling think family friends almost lol makes feel worse actually makes feel bad person day sibling told selfish commit suicide family loves honestly made feel terrible want sad want disappear wish born first place tired think family yesterday taught tie noosethats sobbed couldnt work know feel calmer control future brief fling girl hallwe met day later ran dining center next day mostly naked bed gon na first date evening interestedshe hit cant im devastated sorta prepared im still little sad perfect time itim graduating college couple weeks finally saw big finale marvel movies ive watching past years ill seeing mom next couple weeks last time everything ive look forward life coming end feel perfect time finally end life high note ill succeeded done everything wanted instead venturing terrifying unknown call quits peace probably anything wanted feel everything ive wanted accomplish life basically done ill probably never good chance end life terms time really feel content super knuckle kaknuckle belt buckle banana truffle head ass roasted head toe left tight basically dead im trying help workfor past long remember depressed ignored think might something end soon ayo im bored slide let know slide im super bored ideas dip dick lmaoo mlive alone foreign country past yearsfamily girlfriend back home seen christmas thanks rona life pretty much broken record stuck repeat wake go work home eatplay gamesread go sleep every time try something new bored couple hoursday shitton unfinished stuff properly taken care apartment weeks cleaning gets indecent started smoking occasionally quitting couple years backliterally thing keeping going couple weeks every months se family gf past year destructive mental health know see therapist bring lack interest stuff extends welli probably sleep hours comment ill try ti reply morning nice dayeveningnight rant bit commentors redflagwatch carei speak anyone care us hell honestly care makes want try help us im pathetic stranger internet lives anyones matter affected buried bullet brain right now yet yet find someone whos come within hours listening time spotify dont faith pee stored balls shit stored ass checks fact cant deny sit fuck husband suicidal im barely finishing treatment wont bei knew needed help bad went first keatmine threapy always acted worse better keeping im even feet yet feels im getting bombarded everything trying knock working feel isolated alone scared many new emotions flooding back already struggling everything getting worse new type worse im alone fucked mind stuck repeat cheesy movie line really needed ok got around watching fantastic beasts amd find yesterday used potterhead want watch thought bookwhich script boring lot better expected actually week rough mentally nice point anyways one line stuck philosophy worrying means suffer twice someone worries heck ton ive heard likes maybe hundred times idea time hit different god cheesy really needed thanks jk rowling teachers said cant escape maths even though use pythagoras theorem daily lives right cant escape maths laughs engineering expect landing know right place need helpokay probably told break ill feel better wont girlfriend normally sweet loving caring sometimes gets terrible happens night texting gets mad tells im worthless tells im stupid tells lies truths mte day afterwords always realizes terrible different state mind says desperately needs attention always pay attention happens recently worse time finally told needed talk someone comes relevance makes suicidly depressed everytime said said act nothing happened asked sad lied said knew lying said yes gone feel rape victim know theres better subreddit question please direct needs come stop started tying noose time told break effect found combo steve minecraft forgot save vault smash bros im sad cause pro player prob gon na find replicate lmao confident instead saying swear god say swear compare god shows respect towards religion good makes subconsciously think better idk must living dying easyso ive suffering toxic household effects sudden fall grades social anxiety feeling bad extremely low selfesteem considering redflag option year now sometimes depressed start hurting now think death solve problems honestly parents care dead somehow survive suffer entire life now lot research first attempt hanging retreated later read lot articles paralysis due suicidal hanging right confusedwhether must live die one even cry vent hug pillow tightly move corner bed cry shit feel ashamed want die nothing ready accept tolerate pain want survive attempt new subreddit hey really expecting hey got new subreddit rrandomcaptions interested subreddit well pictures random captions ive looking subreddit pictures captions fit find created one come check brand new might main character internet checkpoint tell us story help mei depressed point selfharm suicidal thoughts friends family job life dont want live anymore hurts much see everyone happy angry world happy studying biology uow staying weerona campus told people depressed didnt care dont want monster s man usaf veteran concinsidering ultimate flightsup guys shoes know swallow pills theres chance feel awesome first minutes drugged tired next half hour lose consciousness hours never regain consciousness ability noose mess nothing family discovery boondocks phone send auto text someone dead come remains take care according whatever rites family wants even words braindead zombie tired demoralized explain years day mental hell depression destroyed mind personally age struggling redflag depressionsymptoms year now finally decided help doctor referred psychiatrist request seeing tomorrow getting nervous anxious already crying feel really weird getting help felt worse made decision seek help anyway whenever talk redflag symptoms depression cry one understand know second mentioned tomorrow ill start crying tips cry whenever talking mental health going psychiatrist tomorrow tips girl asked depresseda girl class know well im sure randomly asked depressed taken back question said anyone tell hesitation gon na shock hears death huh reddit sub recommendations hey ive seen active teenagers must mean active mylittlepony oh accidentally tapped sub bad active going recommend totally relevant subreddit beans means hate memes heres memes seen one post politics front page going give good sub politics amongus enjoy say something wrong plus jessica kinds hot reason may set future seattle gone hell cause future show well happen walls vibrating please help please tie noosethat moment watching youtube video tie noose gravity falls g forgot good gravity falls watched kid thought good finished rewatching omg soooo much better remember top characters dipper stanly stanford soos mabel need restartim years old ive alot little kid abuse rejection depression used hate always thought redflag reached wanted restart stopped negative always said going better never tho always positive thought someday leave country go live somewhere refresh day fight family time bullied school say fade away im certain wont cant leave able cost alot money fastest way money keep studying cost least years life finishing college getting job collecting money ill need leave knowing im longer positive fact depressed desperate making worse ive 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shes trash wtf im happy stable life right now things go south elaborate plan place deathive lucky life far went abused years child attending top research university full scholarship published research interned top companies started college young name unfortunately ive always dealt anxiety diagnosed ocd comorbid anxiety mom caught act eating disorder rituals got help last summer despite things going pretty well developed pretty bad depression hospitalized started going weekly therapy taking medication okay awhile back heres thing need maintain certain gpa full ride scholarship im trouble ive always okay student mind working anymore cant function want blame depression many losers use copout want loser pretty wide margin achieve grades keep scholarship dont well afford finish degree want work fast food janitor rest life even car im going kill believe really want come right combination pills things help go easy im pretty well educated things due field study good terms pain speed clean feel bad family know matter let really matter live die anyway wanted talk know fucked im fucked know despite ive achieved lot far comes academics cant im good student im good scientist stupid fucking brain let scientist go sleep cant even righti feel physically sick now turn person going rent need place alone commit redflag redflag dates coming soon find place live place die ending fast slow time fast ill never see anyone love againif theres afterlife hope slow cant deal paini want dead now death starvationmade earlier thread probably monday lived long sleep due hunger pangs knocking ill probably banned heres paypal case anyones able donate bread milk paypalmediafuckinbetes life bitch mei cant happy im tired living life thats bad anyone around talk appreciate iti cant ahold friends ive got ex wont say word even though knows im suicidal point continuing cant anything right ill never meet another girl think shoot feels best option right now cant think college work cant eat cant sleep cant meet people online hope someone calls reaches one feel bullet seriously best option ive thought jumping drowning poisoning death train hanging blowing brains seems best option feel extremely unwanted lonelyi many friends around genuinely feel absolutely impact lives isnt fault guess mine person cant fully understand people genuinely care im person bored feel unwanted life dont feel anyone open without feeling burden im tired dependent dadim f live dad work job merchandising company got hate job offers challenge reward cant accepted people got situation first place worthless degree gets laugh whenever tell people stupid im feeling consequences spend several hours library looking solutions every night cry sleep wanting die sexistcontrol thing everything wrong life entirely fault im burden dad every night hold bottle pills wanting end hed relieved deal anymore almost therenear end school thinking gon na kill mind became calm strangely enough horrible thoughts started think today im gon na im gon na take pills lay couch never everyone think taking nap closest ive gotten felt guilty speak friend feel ive bothered enough dont want make feel guilty theres enough pills end alreadyhonestly see light future see happiness see hope feel im living time living im physically alive mentally im already dead im pretty useless far skills go im disappointment im lonely dont see bright side dont see anything going ones going love ones going care dont know whats holding back dying already everyday makes want die even anything worth worth keep living world nothing offer nothing offer worth living hope left stupid thinking maybe one day things better day isnt coming didnt choose alive live world dont think least able leave world choosing didnt choose feel way maybe choose end suffering feel problems made myselffor last two years hard feel even slightest bit happiness know many different ways help ive already gotten therapist feel weird believe problems fake people think sad attention idk anymore cant help think much easier everything stress worrys shit bothered continues bother dead finally wont feel emotion ill able completely empty afterlife even though think pros dying cant help know parents devastated gone fuck way go problems wtf even anymore hate phone dies instead dont know much time passed feels forever nothing feels home standing alone head totally different loads understatement black comedy film see remember movie creates universe fascinating every way estrangement believe probably viewer found movie tries say something coldness emptiness behind designer furniture perfect facades know im right movie really got see really hope team behind movie makes movies continue kinda weird style forgot casting superb trond fausa aurvg perfect role bothersome man understand acknowledgment understanding purpose life city makes bothersome others told pretend happy movie good humorous comment life alone sbdy well look crushs photo smiling genuinely happy imagine photo taken exact moment person smiling pleasant warm feeling comes stomach always followed hardtoswallow truth knowing really care makes happy imagination feel constant suicidal urges way look try try appearance im still ugly im tired itdont even know im making account posting literally one gives shit im going tell gp suicidal thoughts therapist yetsuicidal thoughts plans getting intense know medication kill ive trying plot without painful gross death pill overdoses let go painlessly sleep horrifying lonely terrible way go ive decided want peaceful dignified death loved ones maybe hospital medication give take away pain panic ive hell lot life part suicidal sometimes honestly thats deserve peaceful death ive suffered enough mean cant guarantee die heart attack something drift chances ideal death increase redflag im going tell gp see wednesday ill tell ive thoughts drifting severity planning certain psych ward psych ward mainly exists point im going kill right now im know thats good step right suicidal thoughts medically relevant someone needs know ive probably refer therapist andor psychiatrist take note carted occasional thoughts important medical professional know ill tell took mg mg pills fluoxetinemight enough trick ill figure something dont hate things mess upi wanted new new year last year everything shit surprised didnt kill last year plans new forgot pass move want good job awesome boss work home helps playing crossfit n mma planing ask girl fiance left mnths ago course life bitch work much little hours small company got make much behind many bills laid months got job everything adding n cant take anymore cant afford gyms cuz bill stuff ontario expensive im afraid asking girl cuz much trust issues home bossed around told everything even pay major bills really wished ended life last year really didnt want feel year days feel cane back kicked nuts tell post go back reddit idiot thanks guys love eaten hours point common feel piece shit leave life end without money short matter months think emotionally capable providing yet day wake hate miserable going therapy hate makes feel option stay life currently havethe reasonable way think suicide supposed weird cope rather precope stuff canceled pandemic expecting canceled happened last march variety things life canceled rona every time something exiting big going happen summer camp bar mitzvah always expect canceled virtual cases canceledvirtual family plans going somewhere spring break yet expect canceled way optimistic look future events rather pessimistic realism question femalesonly post baggy boy shorts boxers show skinny jeans panty lines black dark jeans help pls online shopping underwear dont know choose school goes back person tomorrow honestly im looking forward ive going school online now honestly cried heard werent going back person school board specifically said going back person decided change decision last minute nice share perspective see people help support loved ones things tough said loved ones bad episodes understand hearing said perspective experience living depressed persons might come triggering anyone depressed depressed hate see depression affected others around inevitable thing happens complicated issue something think talked much experienceit hard pill swallow part depressed persons support group really traumatizing things bad live talk suicide bring intrusive suicidal ideation induced substance abuse cleaned blood self harming occured see psych ward afraid triggering episode afraid walking dead body home accounting another relative hospital attempt best friend medically depressed around metw vent aheadand matter despite always supposed push whatever feelings anger frustration sadness might favor taking caresupporting person needs help moment feelings resentment happen personally want feel way feel letting negative emotions take helps one much less person want help hard sometimes hard talk without sounding emotionally selfish capacity whole medically depressed person right automatically feel guilty even taking feelings consideration dare negatively affected someone elses depression fuck well mental health important moment suck know sounds exaggeration reality things whatever feeling needs take back seat need reserve emotional energy another depressive episode one relatives rolls around yes person psyche therapist meds things definitely gone now still seems going able manage depression really hard feel alone types feelings feelings feel afford realistic feelings eating away makes want run away always written statement well whatever feeling guarantee depressed person worse time right now andthey rightand go back feeling shit cycle continues feel written constantly constant close proximity depression feel allowed cared acknowledge whatever going feeling know anyone feels way vent overthat said think therapist best answer plight access one healthcare process sorted know much support supposed shoulder much depressed persons burden different live see depression experience episodes outside except exactly bystander either got hands dirty wanted know collective people experienced situation similar know ask support group relatives living depressed persons support group support group depressed individual unique experience speak others experience living medically depressed persons stumbled onto movie ebaying caesars palace stuff im enamoured rich vegas history last original luxury resorts still standing good condition unless count ballys original mgm grand respect movie delivers fullforce given grand tour caesars propertywhich spite renovations additions theyve done years open looks alarmingly similar film overall plot somewhat difficult follow thanks large part horrendous editing say horrendous im using word lightly theres lot splicedin secondlong snippets vegas traffic casino crowds even scene robert drivas character conversation father much hes grown without explanation drivas goes infamous snippets baby little boy back talking back forth father give away plot details anything one prepared maybe flabbergasted editing film aged well good message inherent differences father son guys relate form fashion cat precious omg love human version human personality marry want situation come calls police lying saying hit anytime domestic incident happens automatically guys fault called police falsely dad twice put passed im writing parking lot college afraid go home awesome jonghyunin december singer closely following years committed redflag name kim jonghyun years old left behind band members performing almost ten years able listen music without crying removed songs library hid away merchandise try think anything related yesterday band part resumed tour schedule without used recorded track voice put empty microphone stand onstage placing roses end concert weeks record company posthumously released solo album working along music video seeing face hearing voice surreal almost forgot told true remembered seeing videos funeral watching one band member stop break tears procession another pulled hug dead look eyes remembered learning reactions heard news one passed crying one laid sobbing floor several hours one locked room days last member one bear going see body remembered seeing fans hold memorial events around world hearing crying sang one songs remembered sister telling instance got drunk asked happy broke saying want happy feel im overdramatic never even knew personally yet death affecting life many ways feel pathetic strongly impacted life time suicidal urges already fairly strong hearing news seemed amplify initially first feeling experiencing envy attempt successful hand suicidal around years even able attempt feel coward made im scared even try im sorry long even directly miss im sad committed redflag respect individual decision take control life chooses wish understand knowing pain blame wanting end breaks heart hearing suffering wish found happiness ive struggling issue many years now feel things getting worse worse time goes feel im getting close giving although ill likely even try anything im scared might happen fail im tired sad want happy loneliness eating awaywhile im feel ive living forever summer apparent reason group friends started exclude little little today day got point im even friends cant even tell started dont know going going weekend whole day staying home thinking im missing happened cant keep going first day found today separate group chat without hanging without giving excuses couldnt never straight say stop talking us know reason im going keep talking school dont look loner loser feel even excluded dont know deal loneliness know people want talk online chat play online games friends none substitute physical friends laugh came realize never entire life friend us group one person always deep conversations one month beginning summer nope turns one ones hates dont even know never talked said besides eachother think many show think keep image friends tbh letter specifically call let people know arent im junior small highschool cliques cant find new group friends think future used passion drive biology yet today find even wanting anything dead want join army force grow died combat least done something dont know expect want chest figured appropriate roffmychest fuck school fuck school teachers especially mr lee go hell anyone school sees please dont snitch ill haunt rest life doubt anybody school anyway mom wants go hiking big bbq lunch guys might saw god going fun goodbye internetthis last time anyone hears kept trying trying trying keep head nothing improved last event got rejected th time tipping point maybe person rejected know im gone might know im feeling right now might even rejected first place denying follow request instagram chances true slim none girl question feel bad reject one song ill go sleep tell never ending cycle im worried friend really pretty carefree intelligent ive known highschool band back played guitar sang played bass another friend played drums grunge scene honest kinda good bunch year olds trying make name self hatred hurting around methis recurring issue life past year ive grown depressed sad ive lost capacity give others treatment deserve course leads people agitated leads becoming even depressed makes cycle worse become grossed cant even jerk anymore ive tried multiple times past week leads feeling sick disgusted dont honestly think ill commit redflag thought become rather prevalent back mind kind always waiting something wrong point becomes louder louder drowns everything typically goes away pretty quickly incident fuck handle hurting close dont fuck even done order stop hurting others stop hating hard hate hurt others want want anymore curse day born thousand times life hell want die cant stop imagining itits hard believe alone really everyone really person know gets slice personality theres never real catharsis talk someone one really knows anybody everybody knows stuff level cliches theyve earned status cliches theyre fucking true gun reliable pills ive got sharp knife though bought lie tell old chinese lady seemed cool thing time want hurt slit wrists seems itll fucking hurt think maybe slit throat quicker wondered whether hurt slit adams apple open maybe slice low hide tie funeralwhy cause parents anymore grief eh try deal stuff imagined shooting head jolted lethargy one quick terrible second head exploded imagined failed somehow saying things psychologist think im bipolar docnever manic shit even think clinical depression image doctor turned professor fucking hate imagined telling redheaded cunt hope granddaughter dies fucking car fire kind person quick witty response though even fazed one good way bad best accomplish creep people try hard compensate awkward niceness niceness comes contrived bullshit scares people makes wonder im nice fucking hell im trying make things easier folks know cant believe things head disappear intowhat blackness thats color even black cant describe amount nothingness thoughts dissolve know keep going die thats pretty shitty scenario live ill end posting venting place place vent ill go world inside hide imaginary conversations psychologists try imagine halves conversation ill talk people past made kind impression even know im around anymore cant remember name think know im rambling im afraid stop either kill go living fucking want either right now im cold cant enough sleep semester browse porn read late night think submerging freezing water go one agonizing inch time jump single awful jolt wish born wish existance shit show music ill show fights show modern medicine ill show hiroshima show puppies ill show dogs skinned alive blinking chinayou idea getting embarrasing now fucking reason feel way want stop someone bonk late push offwatch drown slave moon waiting drown coworker relationship bf years asked whether saw happening first started said lmao funny think normal human everything seems extremely hopeless redflag feels ultimate answeri use redflag escape procastinating study years everytime faili say lets die want take responsibility anything thinking suicidal arrested commit redflag scolded parents redflag every situation life redflag seems answer think normal person anymore fail improve right blame parents low iq still breeding crying cursed cutting something goes wrong first instinct kill rather lets face fix state years ago back years ago march th purchased mm handgun box bullets sat hotel room seattle washington ready die time processing military knew went home regress work done growth longer amount anything significant memories father beating screaming top lungs frivolous things outside always outcast family traditional methods discipline didnt work needed room grow support didnt receive apparently made shit kid didnt see anything joined military hotel room staring weapon recieved messages battle buddies believed needed head spent night carrying bunch idiots night drinking saved life instead going back went college got back work setting plans accomplishing goals graduated back may nightmare realized familys home thing knew waiting resentful father past prime bemoaning personal failures claiming superior knower things sister doctor married sister engaged settling successful career still single jobless honestly dont care anymore want die sraight boys question u life see girls practically bare ass shoulders spaghetti strap think wow hotttt shoulders might able pay attention class u think punishment failing nnn guys failed real god figured nnn thing made fail punishment th passiveaggressive email teacher hi friends aunt decided best way motivate homework claim ive lied school claim ive missed almost online classes havent claim dad love schoolwork haste aggression sent following email teacher gthi ms gt gtcan please confirm class pm aunt believes doesnt think im lying skip online class gt gtalso missed classes far cant remember aunt seems think knows schedule better gt gtthanks gt gt rebeltrueflame fortunately teacher took well confirmed indeed change time class aunt still believe thats alright hope teacher got good laugh passiveaggressive email bye rebel anyone cringe calls karen karen public dont know makes cringe hard see public freakout videos dude recording call lady karen amount energy calling someone normie public reasons end itmale turned still living parents due medical issues cant even shit use enemas sometimes take well hour go bathroom ive daily enemas years foley catheter put today stopped able pee reason im extremely depressed horribly anxious cant even hold conversation people fibromyalgia pain daily makes seek painkillers feel normal person ive struggled drug addiction falling back particularly benzos crippling ptsd cant past move life personality lately sucks due frustrations medical issues really think world miss much certainly current live family really live stay room half time struggle ton anhedonia even things life seem better brain still convinced thats case ugh want stop existing ask nobody yet happened world cruel porn addiction want die cant kill myselfim limit im bad dream im awake hours pass wake im barely making work ruining relationship fiance cant seem control nowhere turn feel addiction symptom depression cant sure went therapist freeze cant say anything guilty dont want actually better hey wan na know something forgot certain elements film dated course white male crew instance prestar wars science fiction tends take long admiring itselfbr br still movie capture flavor golden age science fiction one even use electronic tonalities provide musical score robbie robot epitomized asimov robots inspiration followed cpo databr br plot line course shakespeares tempest morbius prospero exiled wizard finds kingdom invaded interlopers movie treated science fiction adult genre perhaps first recently bought movie three bucks garage sale im glad pay usual dvd pleasantly surprised good film wasbr br set horror anthology broken tales including connector story involves four teenagers whos car breaks dark lonely road middle night apparently kiddos horror stories thats decide morning tell spooky stories around campfire character takes turn telling story story wrapped nice little twistbr br first story hook kinda waste time bit bland dull luckily one main stories lasts maybe minutes intended merely introduce film easy overlook unoriginality piecebr br second story honeymooners eh okay guessed two people honeymoon theyre traveling around rv headed las vegas decide stop somewhere night theyre quickly warned mysterious stranger leave location risk attacked dangerous unknown creatures story pretty good setup merely ok delivery basically fairly entertaining mysterious till monsters show kinda iffybr br third story people lick personal favorite involves young girl whos parents going night whos older sis ditching party going alone fact makes known internet buddy trouble internet buddy exactly thirteenyearold girl storys conclusion slightly less climatic might liked seen still pretty dang goodbr br final story locket definitely one packed atmosphere set creepy mansion dark rainy night tale young man played glenn quinn traveling around motorcycle stumbles across house time conveniently problem bike meets mute girl lives house falls love first sight unfortunately everything fine dandy might something locket hanging around pretty neckbr br stories wrapped presented twist involving four teens car twist retrospect obvious really see coming quite pleasing conclusion filmbr br good movie rent unfortunately really think lot rewatching value next time mood vaguely scary litte flick vein tales darkside something grab movie popcorn turn lights treat surprisingly nifty little flick let say first huge fan original series lonesome dove book based put watching sequel better part years due bad reviews id heard tommy lee jones playing capt call see point larry mcmurtry involved care wrong wasbr br many ways worthy sequel lonesome dove maybe even dark mood streets laredo story acting production cinematography topnotch course script colorful lonesome dove moments much surprise bits lonesome done series relationship july clara completely dismissed prequel brought almost identical book welcome surprise story roses surprises far biggest surprise jon voights interpretation capt call direct copy tommy lee jones faithful unique voights credit cast fantastic across board think rick schroeder done better job acting series oliver reed practically steals show superb role makes care character equally hate himbr br worth watch due bad criticisms especially dvd affordable got disc set probably find cheaper way disappointment dead mans walk turned well mcmurtry involved one worki know passing happen peacefully pills never seem work hoping one peaceful moment life woke instead appeal bleeding kicking struggling hanging ceiling peaceful always pills never works maybe death life peace either want moment calmness muchsoughtafter exit desire go stronger expectation peacefulness unfair everything ugly cant calm easy go think ill mail good bye letters tomorrowgot letter folks latest ex one best friend hand written sitting table need drop post office go take one final hike tommorrow sun comes god beautiful top redflag letterthis going easy frankly idea start life bad really compared peoples misery life fucking cake walk make worth living cant anymore really fucking cant heart hurts much vision getting blurry confusion brain fuzzy drug use cant think properly anymore used love everyone planet stopped quite time ago even feel alive anymore im walking back forth energy left energy left even write proper goodbye letter see point tired thank reading goodbye stop wanting dieits magnetic pull towards death constantly sometimes feel okay always back waiting dont know make stop feel blob social anxiety awkwardness sad hopelessness even feel worth anymore want feel better even think possible point friends feel alone except fucking god awful pull bag old meds gotten rid way long ago meds general keep playing head fuck fuck need sleep man thats want strange feeling inner peacewho gets weird feeling inner peace end feels near hard explain looking around people work last time ill see even hearing birds sing feels ive made peace world almost feels hapieness euphoric even nothing matters anymore next week mater im reality sets change mind looking sympathy bother wondering anyone feels way wish someone technically killing courage go killing im scared ill never happy againi know theres always chance ill happy future living pain unbearable ive never reached depth hopelessness ive suicidal around years closest ive felt im alive familyevery night try make fall asleep hits strongest see vision head various ways kill sometimes jumping sometimes carbon monoxide poisoning slashing almost fantasy fantasy ive never harmed way know mom husband find drive insane theyd blame even though know problem love family sometimes darkest moments cant help think unfair stay alive might go antifa rally throw molotov air antifa dumb im even republican id fire unto assholes someone experiencing depressionhello someone experiencing depression need help someone tell things change mind day random questions much u wan na go back school teachers assign work christmas break called break reason break work project due th last day break want enjoy damn break love god tell doim tired misunderstood ignored im end rope im completely alone everyone always thinks im weird something cant come across right people want pain stop one valentines day good gf long distance relationship miles exact nervous valentines day turns went brilliant stayed really late night morning valentines day really sweet woke early adorable talked bit gave valentines gift video going places love take valentines day loved said perfect got happy watched movie together texting amazing one episodes went silent rest night started saying ruined valentines though got sad thought absolutely amazing though ask better valentines day amazing hope everyone great valentines day pecker another mainstream film john waters done smaller serial mom title character pecker hobby taking pictures anything sees matter dirty shocking takes pictures soon uses pictures taken puts display work pecker live seminormal middleclass family dad works drinking bar claw machine make enough money lesbian stripper bar across street mom runs thrift shop loves dressup poor people older sister tina works gay bar specialty trade younger little chrissy habit eating sugar sugar nothing sugary food grandmother memama small statue virgin mary plays ventriloquist friends friends matt chronic shoplifter girlfriend shelley runs laundry mat dictator soon tourist new york buys pictures displays art gallery picture comes fame pictures expose unusual life style friends familys simple life rrated film pecker sure tamer waters previous rrated films even pink flamingos another talking husband makes want diei middle getting divorced state requires year separate addresses husband road trucker moved bought huge house needs help getting mail receiving packages etc trying separate amicably coordinate moving property house third house elderly father lives paid weve agreed move move father house im living old house parking movers challengeda truck block traffic husband prefers spending money new toys house adhd collapse trying organizemy stuff gets piled husband dumped stuff old dayshe ignored stuff piles hes home new house stuff really wanted immaculateno dumping floor father near hoarderthe old house floor looks awful needs deep cleaning husband informed new family moving big new house christmas new years girlfriend husband kids want polyamorous panicking cleaningpacking everyone hearing girlfriend move extreme trouble sleepingi end sleeping day husband wanted hour drive pick car truck depot bring back house generously offered pay gas car wagon trailer useful moving wanted sleep drivingi never able sleep car hes drivingso appointment drive sleep heading back job except appointment immediately long drive asked rescheduling extra time accused wanting dead hed tired roadhe refused reschedule take extra time away work avoided confrontation enjoys said someone said might use son father rent car hes accused wanting dead never never never takes caution ask hes vet paratrooper loves driving motorcycle rain logically knows id worse died job enough income purchases houses vehicles expensive hobbies insurance cover better argument deny feelings trick want die every interaction makes feel life worth living im seeing therapist days good grief management helping stuff done asks im suicidal time want say yes want lie take wellbutrin anyone feel parents even though mine essentially npcs im glad im ngl kinda cool sort guidance smthing im turning two weeks advice anything idk want know anything keep mind advice idk idk idk idk idk idk idk care girlfriend cries girlfriend life im alone whats name monster remove head still walk around take head set somewhere still talk headless body walk around hey god take back nowmy mom said every one childhood friends doesnt want hang siblings embarrassment society dad siblings make abusive nightmare genuinely waste life doesnt good enough grades doesnt know want living doesnt hobbies friends im done years old years wasted ambition cant hurt much someone run car im failing subjects school mom furious reason bad cause one gives good enough reason want succeed school even passing live boring life mom still yells im needy im much better tonight happy day im alone end bed need held right now theres chance want make someone feel warm safe resting head shoulder arm chest want someone spoon make feel safe honestly want boyfriend best independent film went see wind recommendation friends caught dances films festival la last summer great scary well made film score amazing cant wait see next movie contemplating shooting myselfim incredibly sad sooo deeply sad angry hate love family much destroy im engaged awesome girl shes pregnant ready sad cant even cry dont know feel anything looking support dont know makes happy seem fake sense word dont know scared eat shotgun ill probably take medicationmarijuana lot people online suggested many treatment methods depression last years tried basically everything nothing worked beginning think effective treatment options available depressed individuals effective treatments depression want end nowbetrayed cheated someone gave heart thought love completely well much pain great handle years wasnt long short side either guess fool trust someone begin heard past relationships probably still thinks dont know cheated blamed everything happy right now im suffering selfblame lost feeling betrayal dont know go another day shouldve ended ago recommend families possibleto show older children onlysome stuff film maybe disturbing little ones handlenow thats waylet explain moviethis reality documentary male foxwho beginning protecting territory seeking matethe beginning gorgeous sunrise music scoreis breath takingyou better soak much scenery possibleitll ugly laterthey gave fox vixen namesbut cant remember likes mehe fights invading maleto win lovethey later create denand vixen gives birth four adorable cubsone blindthere many happy playful moments featuring fox familybut tragedy bad luck strike soonthe first victim blind pupwho gets close high tide washed awaythe second victim motherwho stealing chickens deceived dead chicken hanging poleshe unknowingly walks foot trapwhile trying escape rips part footcausing bleed deaththe rest fox family forced watch die treethe male single dadforced take roll mom dadhe alone teach skills need lifeit later proves enoughwhen two grown pups meet ugly fate thanks carelessness cruelity mani spoil surprising ending youbut show farmer dogs close tailand well deserved ending audience fox family put throughi wanted say saw first came early s thing called showbiz cablei saw itbut never understand let see itnow know whyafter secretly watched came disneywhen felt emotionally gutted seeing evil going oni moved tearsbut dark ugly wasit serves purposeto let people going kinds animalsand endangeredthis documentary wanted message across endangered speciesand hoped workedits fake true life nature films disneythey teach animals going extinctthe encroachment landthe killing foxes main preyand senseless killing beautiful animalshas resulted becoming endangeredi wish make sequel movieglacier fox see theyre treated bettermaybe vixen pup named teresa siblings growing upthis movie kind reflects happens human families sometimesespecially one parents suddenly diesthe surviving parent takes roll bothand tries teach important lessons lifeit always enough protect theyre adultsespecially lives becomes ruinedor fall victims tragedy themselvesbest around soundtrack musical score ive heard reddit need favor saw reddit post ago yt video thumbnail yellow lamborgini rain treadmill cant find video help fellow redditors great search unable sleep literally go bed around amp sometimes wake annoying bruh let teach new word flamboyance group flamingoes well thats new word nice day twenty years watching still find quoting things movie look two giant melons ill start sing pabst blue ribbon theme hand years later make sense meat machine theres still lot stereotypes used movie signs good movie say movie stands test time cant really say lot s movies continue movie still list lot peoples favorite movie kid growing s games dreams becoming game master find dorking s movies relive childhood need watch sometimes sarcastic funny one things certain movie someone invites great allnighter mean x acid trip party mean ready midnight madness oh see everyone dying play hehehehheh wish redflag agonizingso ive cycle wanting die thinkingplanning tired scared pull years now ive already decided method drowning sticking head bucketdrum water ps live near easily accessible body water thought sure fire way die given couple hours without discovered fairly easy clean prepared tried times already agony always gets times held breath times aware inhaling water beginning expedite process times thought sister shed devastated times id break bathroom decided stop attempts hold idea living someone wanted live sister every time thought redflag visited mind let linger long im fixating thought loved one devastated came family abuse family lies person considered real family thought maybe id stick around long needed fast forward now im good place life im suicidal thoughts time im sure living someone anymore sister gained close friends act support system grown distant lying everyone family thought relationship better recently discovered shallow water black thought take care agony part drowning almost instantly pass hyperventilation tried minutes ago still bring pull know anymore ive wanting die long ive tired angry pain long im much wuss part thinks whole living someone stint masking cowardice know anymore want live cant kill next thinking back time mum got pissed kid said stuff literally owing life something ok maam ask born couldve literally made wed happier way hospital convince friend stay helpive got friend always heavy drugs worst ive seen today called hang crying heard buddy showed work completely fucked drove work mg xanax mg percocet drove hospital cause damn eyes going different directions barely coherent falling asleep talking earlier determined completely help hes afraid able see girlfriend user able sleep bed ive hospital system told everything hes point hes refusing budge telling give one week starts using daily xanax cant stop obviously hell call hell admitted obviously going work convince people hospital try convince well thank continueever middle school wanted commit redflag gotten better final stretch school college want end logic shifted hate awful person deserve live whats point living figured everyone problems things good bad thats fine theres reason hate every action take causes sadness happiness happiness attain never lasts days ive tried medication makes everything worse much worse whats point continuing moments happiness life drowned sadness feel every day life come world alone go alone loving family amp caring friends ive bright future almost hundred grand name without much raising finger attain cant enjoy instead focus fact cant enjoy focus everything thats wrong regrettable past actions must hurtful towards anything care even jest one nicest people thats fine fact making people happy cant enjoy happy least window shop watch happiness whats point carrying though everything eat turns ash reason ive killed yet selfish hurtful towards people care fairly disturbing thought process recently always go way others something something wanted middle school kill realize preferred method selfinflicted death gunshot head anything give much hesitation plenty live want spend much effort trying accomplish goals things make happy im tired trying happy failing constantly cant make moment happiness last ocean painful things remember harp even ocean look perspectives life disappointed ignoring introspective causes depression life another source complete meaningless life work semihard attain certain goals values completed joy rather limited still existent tired tired work age rest life filled nothing work till retire wake work sleep repeat thats mind numbing task endure rest see able future definitely something look forward want alive going forced work rest life fun fact ive commited hospital self harm fifth grade attempted redflag four times last attempt senior highschool used cut ive put antidepressants three times real effect offered moderate place back said gon na hard tell people alive want course reason gave mwm decline place far depressing tldr emotions caused negatives life outweigh emotions positive carry want stop putting effort alive far much work appears little pay diei sent messages okcupid today one responds time whats pointim literally drifting life right now im years old im college month ive ignored homework everytime try bring mom never really allows temper usually stressed make seem approachable hate everyday wake lay room thinking game plan thought running away avoid embarrassment parents thought much fun possible killing end year looking best option think fun ending feel less stressed actually bed days time sit dark thinking smartest way kill attempted yet want make attempt redflag better fucking die know kill im going explanation everyone life girlfriend love much shes wonderful going go extreme depression kill know im going write essay apologizing im fucked school point im going make little money keep going life therapist unlike others find rather useless ask questions need im scared talk want die time im scared change things much even know im posting maybe really want help maybe dont know see guys copy paste comments even individualize people feeling alone know know lot really trying help maybe help way let every person life todays th birthday finaly stop browsing sub illegally amazing day amazing people gon na slit wrists soonwas gon na rent room brother sister wouldnt accidentally walk body forgot debit card home family thinks im work im currently beach ive drinking smoking building resolve go gon na within next hours feel alone might call hotline though time blow whistle ive enough mods rteenagers pedophiles ive tracking various cat fishing accounts majority harassing accounts sending inappropriate pictures im going banned post dont want know truth please careful around mods sub snap lot friends feel used meaningless conversations really missing ton didnt dont fomo wonderin thx need someonei know start girlfriend bored flirts another guy druggy friends busy want bother parents run businesses know cant bother know im constantly fighting urge kill make sense friends job money nice house constantly feel empty un motivated need help place turn finished geometry summer work algebra sophomore year finished fucking geometry lfg id thank couple people far ive come first uiia whos consideration kind heart gave strength motivation one even said outside reading thank enough everything done second umikyni ive said iia said amazing friend source motivation well mention cheered shit got stressful getting algebra year sophomore newfound motivation mostly thanks gentle souls gratitude immeasurable cant imagine id gone without reasons call best friends times really shine amazing friends grace earth thank much question oldies im question year olds people constantly expect suddenly act youre year old whenever something isnt smartest parents say say youre adult want never said im adult im want prefrontal cortex doesnt stop developing mid late s scientifically people still stupid s feel really weird unrealistic expectations us older teens unsure doi necessarily suicidal dark thoughts late past indication thoughts permanent solution may start pop head know talk two closest friends listen unsure tell go family job causes quite bit stress grief many tasks complete single day numerous people count lot pressure succeed despite decent sometimes simply disappear job pays better places around many choices live rural town real opportunities hours away finances leave second source stress school work fulltime take classes fulltime online try best balance two graduate year half bachelors ideally job field home life greatest husband separating still live together financially support situation changing complicate matters mom lives us gave place escape leaving awful situation ive let live without asking pay bills worries three bills sometimes feels mistake gets terribly upset small issues today threw massive fit cable anymore watch football tired blamed stupid shit come home work tiny bit free time want sit spend getting screamed lease stupid know cant simply kick mom maybe im simply wuss im cut ive lot hurt life ive told im still quite young theres look forward working used sense dread every morning wake im happy things used make happy longer make happy know im depressed think way situation thats even possible know make best way young feel hopeless life friends replace relationships im done ittitle says ive diagnosed ptsd last thing want hear stories reply explain really shorten explain want hear best friend left boyfriend rejecting telling boyfriend now need anymore never talking tried everything nothing worked cousin real cousins marital thing went together well relied problems relied often left boyfriend help start relationship told sex told said treated shit never talk called motor vehicle incident arrived first one scene wrong way collision head truck car car drifted wrong lane occupants truck okay woman driving car unresponsive instantly recognized saw face girl left time pulled vehicle buddy paramedics already arrived performed cpr success taken local hospital followed shortly told died likely even scene mother recognized many years ago told reason daughter died let die nothing done never got chance talk make things right never will turtle necks fucking amazing hide long ass neck bad posture weekend homework kicking ass schools thinking saying hey idea give kids two days free time give work free time well cant enough us anybody works school system stop giving us weekend homework kinda traumatic story context sit special class every tuesday friday plan build stuff building tools english second language dutch first curious phone happened last year class build wooden train two boys lets call nick mike mike kinda annoyed draw papers plan nick sawing wood nick asked mike move mike kinda weird kid even though lot open places including refeused saying first even though table already used kids block wood got really heated nick wanted hit saw wait think psychopath talked said wanted hit side saw yes stupid think went wrong hit saw misjudge hit went teeth neck course mike jumped sawed neck saws sharp af sitting table next used sawing screwing wheels train silence shock probably hear nail drop thing hear mike screaming terror wound much blood neck centimeters stitch screaming ran class allowed leave class last class almost went class ambulance already people confused happened informed last saw mike getting ambulance glance corpse yes hes alive hope saw nick months class popular even news article comments dutch tho ps asked one teachers said te first time happened mike moved romania reason time covld group project nick another person person project everything one thing day im happy grade person got good grade nick got low grade one dark night highly overlooked little known film early s deserves audience fear never thats damn shame seen film compared others gotten bigger name years notably phantasm hell night mausoleum much different film see comparisons mausoleum bit similar one phantasm enough make real comparisons im sure one slipped without broader acceptance maybe marketing know perhaps remake breathe new life unless raymar drained life im big remakes abundant days think work well lesser known films except awful ghost ship remake opening scene mudvaynes falling blaring utter crap remake one dark night happen fall right hands think make lot people go watch original know thats theres remake film seen anything short remake fear bring film back life unless course raymar got eyes itbr br anyways one dark night must see horror fans especially s horror fans cause know thats best horror movies made creepy setting fairly good acting good story campy want early s horror film whats nudity gore well sorry nudity gore film still great nonetheless solid enjoy little twoperson movie actually much bigger looks many layers ive watched always pick something new amazed depth acting feel movie gotten wider release question alan rickman major star straight guys pretend gay go girls sleep gay guys pretend straight guys sleepover thought shower ya normal everytime suicidal thoughts feel happy peace lets face australian tv part terrible real diamond rough enough people watching chaser crew satirical newspaper cnnn try something new mixing live comedy prerecorded skits political satire one show filmed front live audience sorta rove funny love causing controversy causes shows funniest moments especially chris telling wife f live breakfast television julian handing novelty cheque signed saddam heusein head awb one funniest aussie shows micallef program depressed cant tell parents soso ive getting sadder sadder every day cant find reasons bed anymore feel tell parents theyre gon na really worried want keep redflag thinking friends gon na maybe sad using throwaway screw losing control mind feel battling depresison years thought gettingt better getting worse worse troubles likely pretty lgihtt compared majority ones grades shitty groupmates grades important mean uni country singapore highly competitivewe submitted shit project worth least onethird grade uncomplete wringle wringler people antoher three projects getting tired point trying hard slept hours day last two weeks starting show ran ragged last two years obtain good gpa provide family going go flush drain shitty groupmates want work last minute nothing fucks sake working documents saw two come sit nothing good solid hours checked timestamp google slides edits made either fuck going oni take anymore nervous breakdown school expects us go ff lessons want kill process writing notes people think guided life negatively positively matter gathering resolve iti chickenfeet die want pain stop dare end two hands wish something kill done family said sad died think less burdened knowing deadweight wasted years life nothing home gone leeching let end let end let end livei reason live reasons die want parents struck grief want pay funeral know ive tried getting help help im thinking tomorrow paid transfer money parents leave immediate threati suffer almost constant suicidal ideation generally happy flaws work nothing hopeless life yet constantly battling internal monologue seems want die going kill unbidden thought goes mind countless times per day sometimes thought accompanied poorly laid plans feel suicidal imagine following thoughts normal s s vibe looking people talk topic preferably girl cos friends microsoft account got locked anything locked friend got mcpe installed phone logged account play server next day account gets locked even anything went enter phone number unlocked never got code go back send code page entered phone number correctly said invalid number one reasons hate microsoft im never suicidal hate life nobody wants talk apparently friends irl try message someone often wan na chat looking friend post ignore reply time ignore chat dies less week know anymore something one teachers actually pretty racist talking history ww think morning tired wasnt paying much attention said something along lines germans claimed changed really whim staring german kid midnight room thinking deathi hate life lay awake night till pass wake guess ill going sleep now im sure inevitable come moons now friendless hugkissless yo virgin day ive decided im going carry apparent nightmare another days im done ill posting often guess next hundred days subreddit feel im among friends ive never reading posts comments feel way relate many days enables things ive always wanted never truly able complete fully modded skyrim playthrough beat content mods escortor prostitute country legaland provide details finally im going commit redflag calmly peacefully using nembutal alcohol wash country choice saving enough money appear thailand ive always thought asian girls pretty let known think girls beautiful matter color ethnicity body size love spend time contrary though im loser nerd outside paying actually going girl really reasonable expectation apparently money go long way may able fun several months theres chance unlikely may drag bit longer days saving money buying mega millions lotto ticketspointless know dead soon maybe ill win stick around fun die im going want save much money possible leave desktop bulky selling laptop extra cash well desktop computer monitors real things owndont even car probably worth around monitors likely pull solid craigslist job constant savings probably save thailand anecdote im currently skinnyfatgoogle excising eating healthy bring weight leave time leave vary december perhaps even januarythis take farther days outlined obviously thinner healthier looking might even able laid much cheaper big might hair thinning still hair system go probably cost effective meaning cheaper pay full price one facially im actually ugly still looks hair buzzed really short either way im sure laid thailand posting want remembered shit life fun thailand lonely internet nerd literally taking life hands daily journals serve post really long intended keep short sweet tldr itt friendless hugkissless yo virgin going hero days possibility bit going thailand laid fun life committing redflag using nembutal alcohol going post everyday updates subreddit using account death going full playthrough modded skyrim mean time provide cellphone pictures screen captures throughout one fuck given death ive spent whole life caring much im spending rest giving fuck one fuckhttpikymcdncomphotosimagesnewsfeedbe edit thinking hungary well budapest maybe wait little longer save little money go feeling happy first time years ive finally decided end im going blast writing well love boys boys boys boys boys adore god im sure im horni boys rlly cutest things earth every day think itim f know thats young severely depressed anxious whole life therapy multiple times feel im much fragile unable cope around ive serious issues money lately every day think ending life every time ive asked help parents theyve disappointed know people miss know selfish ive seen dont videos im tired im tired feel struggling longer isnt worth feel life im going struggling earn money end feel cause arguments fights familylike better wasnt know parents sad honestly think life might actually improve feel right regret meidk ive realized matter situation people im able socialize anyoneonly two people able make talk interact regularly life happened life anymore last one lost broken way past point return six months still panic attacks goodbye worst part maybe still someone able make open im scared trying cant deal another goodbye im lonely nobody matter good intentioned help want scream help cry someone know feel outcast among outcasts even live nothing im good human contact im able socialise hurts much cant deal anymore cant tried meds professional help nothing works im tired want planim risk today immediately future decided make plan ready tie loose ends happen dog afterwards years ago thought college ticket end ended parents place debt bad hs want im years goes quickly im still sure ive months wondering age rule eventhough im still friends girls long arnt relationship turned friends year old girls still friends thank answering good day note good enough need opinion sympathy attempts stop mei know never enough anyone though really try seemed matter continually fucked never make anyone proud love always disappointment everyone met terrible father tried know wanted different felt child swore never kids end perpetuated feelings inadequacy pain felt xxxxxxxxxxx amazing special person wasted every second knowing hell always hate hurts know luckily turned amazing influence hope carry torch speak much offer world xxxxxxxx came life another truly unique incredible person felt second chance possibly child hate look resentment sadly disappointment squandered chance xxxxxxxxx young realize poor parent person grew understand one day act mistakes led really end day im failure person empty shell someone ill never anyone ill never really loved anyone kind tolerated hate know one meet possibly love im black hole nothingness lead nowhere good best thing anyone world cease exist cause nothing pain suffering wake least im gone pain eventually fade everyone around deserve ill forgotten entirely im sorry really tried wanted good person know failed every attempt change maybe old adage true cant teach old dog new tricks simply learn tricks failure child failure adult wanted better better enough worth anything speck insignificance creator put someone path boggles mind though maybe piece garbage graduated past piece garbage ill never anything hurt disappoint best thing life forget im sure easier possibly imagine im sorry im sorry failed really wanted make proud im worthless disappear quickly came feel bad cant save worth saving worth time energy always lost cause better burn fade away ill never lit first place hope carry forward feel fulfilled happy loved thats wanted always want world better place without someone flawed wish love xxxxxxxx gophers men dont come punch line jokes hi question bad thing pretend went crush deterr guy crush hes creep made best friend leave school bullying feel right assistance stop calling mommy im gunna develop mommy kink bro skinny post year old boy meters quite tall always skinny really skinny weighed kilos looked anorexic wasnt life getting comments skinny look desperately wanted fat blamed fast metabolism never anything last month got rejected girl said funny cute skinny really upset decided eat past month eating animal cant eat anymore eat simply cant swallow use water constantly snack guess gained weight weigh kilograms aiming situation go fridge start stuffing face promise gain weight name hilarious movies im bored want watch something funny dont know watch happy rn feeling suicidal cold yeah thats fun deserve liveim fucking disgusting im finding harder live someone explain charles manson kill people people supporting know nothing three months ago psych hospital attemptand made things worse parents think money saved cause pissed lot drain lockdown lost jobs lockdowns dont know replace money without parents finding im talking either near mark im shitter advice idk people really im dating girlfriend care think im going date love cant stop really love movie played final fantasy vii still loved movie really funny love job voiceover actors done visuals fantastic lines well donebr br admit pretty good imagination able fill gaps movie presented suggest watch twice lots things suddenly make sensebr br pretty funny watch subtitles say subs say sometimes completely different really usually pretty funny sometimes helps u understand say betterbr br watch love marnie im still girlfriend cheats recent events left feeling suicidal now need advicethis began revengeredflag letter removed names details j together years proposed thought one day married around j started misgivings relationship spark gone tell wanted happy time understand done wrong fix things perhaps given enough attention perhaps sexually unsatisfactory know early j cheated several times man named still together girlfriend j stayed together throughout kept secret figured several months later weakness break j foolishly believed still loved fix witnessed j drunken sex front left cried entire day j called back somehow reconciled j saw sporadically moved house lived together took things back home one day j came home crying felt relationship still girlfriend j felt alone one cared admitted still cared kissed j sort secret friends benefits arrangement see secret telling anyone j still sleep men beneficial arrangement gatherings conventions together remove room sex receive many similar benefits began see less friend j call often even daily come new home hang together js parents fully aware js cheating aware j saw time hide well became view pillow essentially teddy bear j snuggle bed talk buy clothes dinners presents though j say loved said loved still doubted today one year afterwards j convention weekend every night three nights j call vacate room sex partied friends morning hours hours ago returned room attempted sex j became confused said j bdsm yelled confusing became mad reply back owe answer asleep next right now realize used left j year ago soon confessed cheating fool foolish hopeless romantic wanted cling remains something called love feel low want kill honestly see pulling feel want relationship want risk love heart broken cant see j way resembled want love said cant stupid sounds love mattered know thought sending letter friends throwing train die sort fuck revenge death know redflag something yearn possiblefirst im going kill wish cant single mother two kids killing option place say outloud wish id never kids end life point telling things gone wrong life many know big things fair say life kicked ground time small child day now everytime think life gets easier maybe turn happy something happends something bad illness fire loss ive dealt shit quite well job apartment pay bills old car major issues im shitty mom used better last six months ive depressed mess led kids causious around daughter sensitive know suffers seeing suffer strenght pretend im happy last straw ex left single life taking care kids job looking anyone age fell love first time really worked hard last course fell apart things ive tried help use tried find medication help depression made feel worse see light end tunnel know none wish believe god something id hope thing yearn end im dramatic tired noone knows friends lives avoid see pain done everything books say got new hobbies volunteering local animal shelter go yoga nothing takes away exhaustion idea still xx years live exhausting know ill strenght go kids choise joy endless amount dark hours ahead sounds stupid whining feeling depressed dunno unhealthy obsession hank green hes smart knows much stuff literally intelligence ask listen man talk world whenever id never tired nothing motivates see point living anymoreever things gotten worse worse im months absolutely nothing motivates energy anything everything life seems hard pointless bother uk people age level exams pretty much determine future everyone seems care studying im give shit pass fail find passing worse give excuse continue living cant call redflag line without overhead really option dad unemployed hear initially thoughts redflag think im determined end thing makes happy slightest imagining dead whenever im class imagine died longer thought dead genuinely makes happy friend several people told attempts even though theyre pressing issue now im wondering deal situationstwice within several months best friends confided attempted redflag first one called day told tell parents lived time stayed line heard talking mom second one tonight neither emergent need help second friend scheduled therapy sessions thanks girlfriend mom question licensed anything best way go things immediate issue long term one blue lookin kinda sus blue impostor impostor remains years ago today uncle committed redflagi thought story might help people see side years ago today enter freshman year high school public pool mom said run errand back hour sister hours later dad comes pick us strange afternoon workhome never comes gets us pool surprised knew home asks us come outside something tell us confused scared point little brother inside time turn days father told us favoriteuncle killed found aunthis sister mother hanging closet house father handled better little sensitive year old girls handled next days blur many people started showing house point bringing food soda whatever think try make us comfortable grandmother lives one house mainly mother dealt aftermath funeral blur soooo many people showed always life party showed dip chicken nuggets honey drip place let drive lap gave spiked hair cut rat tail girl mom happy taught water ski taught flick bottle cap hard enough make dent wall taught put cigarette loads moms cigarettes make explode took camping threw around bean bag chair burrito many things list tears years later family gotten lot better around sister aunt long term abusive relationships kicked dudes asses uncle brother become raging alcoholic kicked ass straight brotherhis little buddy become jobless loser kicked ass straight well daughter two months old left met maybe twice never know father idea note warning still think pretty much everyday every something kick chest break crying fit never beer awesome party see graduate never see married sorry rambling want think people effect make decision years later think time aunt mess today one found still nightmares best friend better days misses much nothing replace brother uncle father wrong subreddit apologize man forget im horribly blind without contacts really cant see far take damn cant live iti cant live kt constant paranoia intrusive thoughts sister days dared things naked facesitting arse wiping laughing dicking around didnt know im kept reading sex offenders stuff year old went jail sexual assult uk hiw got put sex offendor registry cant live constant paranoia put sex offendors registry going jail im rapist im paedophile mental images someone raped murdered cant deal gitcommitdie remove infractions please know u prolly cant worth shot fear inoculum year old thats wanted tell yall gt owo lt thing im killing arrives tomorrowobviously elaborate avoid rule breaking ive worked hard summon strength pull took lot steps buying stuff actively work drive friends acquaintances hurts make people love hate hurts asshole people deserve suffer hope theyll care less now ive hurt people deserve live fair alive want everyone happy thats going happen im gone im looking support advice really needed thoughts sorry blogposting feel im buried pressure want stopreason im relationship someone extreme mental illness told lives cause im reason rushed uni cant leave unless wan na pay lot money back cant afford reason parents black white non understanding people world im want live life explore self find im constantly promising ill start family girlfriend cause cant bare see upset im constantly stress im ready end wan na fall asleep behind wheel crash tree wan na sit train tracks blast favourite music wait im stuck dont know short comment want say movie much sandra bullock favourite actress whole story beginning end tape watch times matter buy human liver im curious course haha wouldve nice known felt kiss girl diedi know matter long put killing reality wish something couldve experienced wish something even came close deserving feel instead old doll haunted want see movie anime body pillow haunted im senpai fuck nugget anyone wants chat welcome send pm everyone going lot lately want talk yall life worth livingim studying dream job one thing ive felt good ive felt good love job love know im great job really good ive loved every second anxiety killing cant go bed cant sleep cant bed something days lay bed thinking nothing want love cant bed lay thinking im supposed school feeling anxious completely giving nothing thinking everything nothing time ive finally found want cant cant working scene thing cant home thats want wan na sleep wan na awake im sleeping hours day really want live kind life worth ive struggling kind shit half life wan na go sleep without feeling anxiety depression waking wan na go sleep calmly peacefully knowing going end feeling excess amount give life cry last weekend yelled getting la job good grades yada yada happens time sad better today different im feeling hopeless scared sad normal part teenager feel embarrassed still suffer depression idea wanting hurt kill seems immature feel ashamed feeling feel embarrassed mental health bad feel sick ate pizza bf got feel sick feeling loser please watch thishttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjylmsanorg put toilet paper knowso drops behind front behind im sorry godzilla fucking dieseveryone always says im horrible writing stuff english im really bothered new narrative going around evangelicals going teachings jesus meant make look hypocritical espouses people havent read bible dont know teachings jesus still buy whole hippie jesus silliness feel lot atheists doubling theist counterparts truth jesus new testament general jesus wasnt feeding poor loving everybody said sure jesus loving jesus way light one meets father except xenophobia rampant bible jesus says sent lost tribe israel introduced concept anyone doesnt believe goes hell take shit apocryphal text tells weary heathen lie god need soldier christianity army lord hard see gun toting bigoted misogynistic evangelical ideas best world concept died completely never long people know nothing religion try tell people know something religion dont know atrocities part religion clearly another version religion peace trope islam islam religion peace much jesus hippie loving figure even little bit dad pisses im carving pumpkins family im stabbing shit thing dad told right way im making corey feldman hes someone got stabbed fuck dad live dont smoke weed time made curious anyone smoke weed explain oh god im actually bought friend favorite manga nd book im buying st coming tomorrow thursday idea hes even getting gift oh god giving much excitement give thursday friday weeks depending whether one friends tests positive corona cant believe happening yayyy dream traveled plane school take finals math exam studied good test tried search pocket calculator realized forgoten woke scared yooo among us code kqmrhf server north america cmon join wish ok title says sister trying set friend couple months now til recently refused even entertain idea slightly full decade younger sister thinks im stupid letting age difference make mind point huge fight christmas refused budge recently bringing friend around lot sister husband along really well hang least weekends month usually know girl realizing sister adamant almost eerie much common omfg ears ringingi know drinking helped last night im gon na take pills couple hours ears ringing hope ends soon think someone dont even know ended life im scaredi dont even know ive seen post think hes finally done idk feel idk calm kinda wan na hurt reason whythe reason still cant stand abandon cat cant explain life got much couldnt handle limitless anymore explain arent abandoning theyre true love youve experienced interesting day happened today unexpectedly got meet friend little bit campus texted saying saw went talked though weve talking high school got seen person around months girl thought new girlfriend ended someone class working something together im debating upon whether tell thought cute seemed cool little time actually around obviously nothing happens either mutual start talking awkward meet friend campus plus know wan na directly ask either kind weird thing ask idk reddit gave free wholesome award must earn filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler atlas nowi atlas hold world sink swimming trained make goalie soccer little know purpose thought assholes soccer career learned take love two beautiful girls im girl love eachother love hurts one hurts now atlas alice grew alice smart happy pretty sing one night fired test shot wall shot im jealous gun option choice choose atlas alice hold world hold world one girlfriend years new best friend hold world let happy hold pain one hurts long know one hurts atlas hi fellow gamers gamerettes sooo friends hav discord server trying new peoplee chat send memes play games minecraft among us theres pc games channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia stuff going commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link someone please convince dieits im gon na kill exact night think might happen months find reasons stay alive scares really care anyone anymore really want die time want exist everything much easier gone im slowly ploughing many hong kong action films hands came across gem mainly due ching wan lau one favourite actorsbr br great action 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ive faking grades im attending classes anymore wish say going half year already completely gave handle pressure anymore stepping inside classroom clouds anxiety every time walk class ill cry immediately wipe tears away everyone might think im going crazybut guess already im worthless im wasting everyones time parents money theyre hoping nothing im gon na successful mom dad im sorry want thank always trying hardest raise though love guys im sorry ive become failure least put right friends thank understanding mood swings thank friends someone wish couldve done better someone better im already tired trying keep appearances hope method works smoothly wan na burden anymore enough died died died death delayed death years nothing everyday getting better never going better old old writing getting supportive comments children younger hurting fucking deal shit going live live fucking adult going die die fucking adult stop acting lika fucking cry baby stop fishing comments going help stand live 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certainly comes across headstrong brawling tarzan sorts reminds film role samson another difficult impossible man tamebr br mountain men opening scene certainly anachronism era pure trapper mountain men pretty much ended years collapse western beaver populations well fashion market beaver pelts story supposedly takes place oregon end civil war judging volcano background opening sceneprobably mt lassen fictional fort located somewhere remote section cascades never see civilians plenty conflicting evidence actually takes place mountains wyoming montana red cloud war chief threatens trappers soldiers fort namesake famous sioux war chief led successful campaign exterminate newly built army forts wyoming montana fort laramieeastern wyomingis mentioned far removed fictional fort plains tribe assiniboines mentioning joining red cloud aspect story bears general resemblance historical factbr br may interest note certain resemblances plot story john fords fort apache cases fort commander recently assigned first frontier post native american problems underestimates military prowess adversaries regarding little cannon fodder promote career films pays dearly inexperience dealing enemy common greenhorn commander resents subordinate long experience local native americans wants tell wise films budding romantic relaionship woman close commanders heart subordinate commander everything squelch clearly commander must eliminated allow romances proceed completionbr br see certain resemblances misfits soldiers whole including commander misfits sortas one admits mostly problems raw recruits experience fighting native americans commanders wife apparently woman anywhere near fort thus inherently misfit husband uncertain future army trappers turn misfits really wanting accept army civilian discipline yet cut previous free spirit lives recent armygenerated antagonism red cloud br br finally compare story anthony manns later film far country starring jimmy stewart stewarts case choose return loner cowboy end matures character come appetizing new way boss red cloud made life outside army region dangerous contemplate besides obsession commanders wife every app dating app try hard enough single app think partner excluding gaming apps chat function single player games please read need help post m crush f past months texting videocalling everyday weeks ago guys trying find eachothers crushes want say mine say names think figured right said crush someone friendgroup thought im sure anymore text back often calling often invite people call please give advice advice someone sub sub please stop dumbass advice posts come original content instead copying everyone upvtes nice day theres probably something wrong care entire life ive wanted live alone completely away family close social relationships besides working going school somebody ive never genuinely felt lonely feel happier knowing deal problems ill friendly people meet id remain stranger im done feel emptyive struggling several mental health problems secondary schooluk years im feeling worse worse longest time school work cant bring things even talk people means dropped college due able force bed days scared people im unemployed living dad girlfriend years watched worse worse years point accomplishment put shirt awake longer hours time one thing makes happy cooking cant deal stress professionally money coming cant often coupled rat move recently keeps getting pantry starting much want everything stop want go sleep never wake dont want live day day life anymore ive enough want normal person want able job work move girlfriend shut awake hours pm im done ask stuff plz im bored feel coming fancy post ill let guys content welp teacher emailed parents grades theyre probably gon na pissed take things make wan na kill away think something right dont understand purpose lifeit seems never anything right almost everyone hates family wont believe im depressed tell theyll probably say sad doesnt mean depressed im around act im happy everythings fine luckily talent acting said going kill nobody give shit except people comment post telling dont know pain im going notice give shit disappeared useless world everyone forgotten unless change everyones life goodbye hope final post crying bookspoiler dasher year old adopted father turned away forces evil fire ice master didnt want got dasher along bullet fight dasher always feel guilty cause father always memories playing father much loved eventually kill killing dasher dasher sent heaven seeing father normal form open arms dasher repeatedly told sorry father proud seeing one last time dasher hugged tears eyes sent earth people calling name crying book betternearly years old job family friends im drowning sea people care ive never even felt loved acknowledged relationship ive ended cheating social anxiety makes hard find friends let alone ones trustworthy cant see getting better change comes world know homework time goodbye reddit enter hell typing therapeutic thing help thinkyknow writing envision words screamed flow mouth fingers across keyboard end shane koyczan poem know word sound decent though put simply want die child need emotions motivation nothing nobody one person love fell friend straight window loving parents entirely aware care cant cant love wish recent lost friend recently admitted hospital hes sick least month now insomnia keeps awake trust issues paranoia keep away classmates become numb joking cries help use front one friend hell probably leave enjoy company throw padded room everyone know hell react personified demons point see ive seen one whos childhood numerous times now supposed tell anybody see real life im insane none makes sense hate feeling confusion weakness etc spend almost time computer today spent hours front bluescreen abyss place reaches beyond hell finds mundane live patrolling lurking subreddit playing crappy kongregate games none worth parents berate overuse computer never aware always oblivious pain heart know people care caring front make many people cry dead th grade know laugh insult th grade th grade want die im man past teen years abusive home terrible situation im maybe id feel empathy sympathy whichever never relate cry loss unloved never felt emotions havent innately love past years functioned machine calculative logical mission remember therapy never cup tea first two th grade still operated motive felt frustration towards ignorance classmates lack connection next one never beneficial remember name probably ted absolute trash thats always smiling always enthusiastic happy see fit therapist never understood related never made attempt smiled asked questions prodded signed family issues dad outbreak think traumatized brother never cried idea trying pissed hell expect reply know really dont want hear people care life gets better ill overcome things matter happy make forget want normal without magic pill edit noticed errors fixed nothing better cant anymore ending allits hard live day day nothing goes way much hi im visitor sub ive read sub rules please let know im overstepping sub im registered nurse rn im interested becoming sane sexual assault nurse examiner idea sniffing hair people say creepy least imagine cuddling girl sniff hair jus huummm really idea hugging girl sniffing hair want die im scared paini failed test gpa dropping cant focus anymore see point want around family feel nothing started cutting even worse want feel worthy least good something point feel im wasting others time im stressing want die thing im probably going hit date daysim sorry know ill make past new years fuck man want watch cyberchase anyone watch little pbs kids cable gang wan na go back watch fucking cyberchase lets gooooo im virgin anymore becouse fucked grades need scared dyingi feel even know normal anymore even happy years ago feel body even remember recently turned drinking help cope freak boyfriend break heart withdrawals two days top destruction one point drank bunch cleaner ended throwing basically right away certainly enough kill missed work call go back tomorrow telling hospital wasnt maybe im getting much anxiety sadness degree work retail im even good capable social anxiety constantly killing making hard carry conversation around anyone boyfriend whole life one constant fuck im honestly bother im going fuck deserve world deserve patient loving boyfriend wish die everytime overdose end getting scared telling someone landed ward twice considering crashing car next something come back even im still scared im waiting kinda wanted vent see anyone feels point lives longer year old virgin joking sex losers everybody loves hypno toad hypno noises hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh honestly cant believe film highly rated claude chabrol described something french alfred hitchcock film second one ive seen first le boucher already see guy something special strength two films film french canadian coproduction takes place canada cast made british canadian stars high quality performances bode well rest film high quality film murder mystery begins young girl covered blood brought police station questioned inspector carella emerges young girl patricia sister muriel attacked man killed sister allowed patricia flee investigation goes patricia goes back station give new evidence reveals far shocking identity murdererbr br performances film excellent donald sutherland subdued usual suits role hes given well hesitate name performance blood relatives one best film features supporting turns british stars donald pleasance david hemmings give good turns pleasance particular shows great actor highlights shame went waste halloween films unknown aude landry gives great performance role patricia movie mysterious first hour really keeps audience hooked inspector carella discovers muriels diary film turns drama girls last actions shown section film good went still interesting leads great twist end overall blood relatives great film really deserves better seen le boucher better known effort chabrol money least good highly recommended viewing deal pastfiguring fuck got point girl cheated lot didnt realise end blew fuse called got charged harassment subsequently dropped charges mainly trumped charges together four years lived countries memories relationship included hiding existence online indication relationships existence introduced subset friends pretend boyfriend holiday philippines putting using facebook obviously keep contact men especially first love towards end anxiety crippling told stand back another guy making advances face going visit two weeks eastern europe little arrested two weeks mental ward suicidal ideation three weeks recovery centre depression second masters almost ruined several months elegant intelligent woman walks life flaky begin speeds dating process basically moves apartment two weeks later introduces world havent known obsessed sex beautiful dont know whats happening sex takes new meaning problems arise talks ex husband still gunning apparently seems family okay speaks phone chinese chinese one point say marry someday suggest marry three months try say soon know much takes insult move forward takes offense rejecting mothers concern regarding integrity goes week lebanon gets good im apologetic several months speaks intention move back hong kong trouble ex follow say move approves things take nasty turn remarries ex husband told millionaire visiting spends hardly time apologises still continues see agree move shenzhen teach english move j turn book hotel shenzhen second night wakes suddenly starts reminiscing insult mother challenging integrity goes hong kong shortly tells rented place hong kong still sees shenzhen still sex im working apartment says move well point im insecure depressed sleep escort develop nasty habit asking random people marry im much love chinese girl move forward husband moves apartment think see hotels hong kong works husbands company well line things even unstable finds misdeads run flowers sort thing make goes summer ideas forming im planning move hong kong accompanies interviews one gets pregnant tells mine thing im stressed beyond belief point make another mistake gone another date shenzhen vengeful night sex chinese banker beginning relationship told sex great towards end disposition changed hold erection getting ill china made snide remark performance time around time im put back burner eventually contacts says wants raise child husband say seems contrived planned takes offense knowing arrested ex says arrested leave country week later says cruel sorry didnt mean thing left country shortly blocked contact im korea dont know true isnt dont know anything child dont know true know im suicidal know im probably even beta male know im best man planet story taken five years life lot written long still feel incredibly attached woman intelligence far outstripped degrees age two law claimed least several hundred partners ive spent last three weeks absolutely nothing hiding feel trauma probably exaggeration sorry spelling grammar mistakes dont particularly reading written isolated seniors copeno family health isnt great getting worse job going shit money carry months life serious bitch dance bother f sick living call others names constantly bickering telling fuck calling asshole lazy etc sick around confront acting front either deny rude promise anyone deal parents verbally abusive think call nervous breakdown got triggered slight disagreement wife absolutely exploded ran bedroom cried intensely least three hours probably worst felt emotionally dealing feeling guilt plus knowing let wife kids going birthday party wife confused doesent understand happened really sure best guess stuffing emotions finally hit limit breakdown cant anymore want toi want strong brave fighting good fight anymore want hurt stop want world stop want stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop please fun night friends alot fun drunk hung hours home sad lonely feel burden everyone always struggled silence hate fill definitely talk much insist sharing opinionshere thoughts jotted making posti talk muchi share muchi push opinionsi accept social ques shut always need air realizationsobservations confident opinions confident social skills home alone analyze behaviour want die kill feel everyone tolerates happier deadi imagine upset died either feel validated sadness pained relieved gone anyone feel way know desperately need socialize miss friends see everytime socialize friends go home feelings almost feels worst sitting home doi g nothing alone one know keep going want alone feelings scare fuck literally want die make stop loss know keep going thisi love friends never indicated annoy feel know adhd absolutely stop talking soon let guard know continue living depressed spending time friends redbull monke bbc nature doc hentai best world life fucking jokelike said life fucking joke nothing really worth preserving despite average optimist tell anything offer im going cultivate might laziness might something breakthrough tonight perfect time frame im finally going bite dust built stress summer id prefer really ideal time first year move house distance family friends eventually forget theyd probably never know least death cover well even find long grief minimal comment damn shame personally think perfect perhaps posted sanctioned redflag something idk maybe subconscious holding maybe im comfortable meme speaks truth ampxb httpspreviewredditbboerywnbipngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbafdedeaedeeceda last strawalrightive posted another acc forgot password comes throwaway many numbers alright soi suffer severe paranoiai feel im constantly watchedlistened even people know thoughtsi think might bipolari stress ass schoolmy step mum gets drunk makes day even worsei huge fear abandonment things lifemy dogsmom gf thing ismy gf lives england dontshes suicidal raped stufg wont unless think wan na know ig ifwhen doesnt respond dayseither mum took phone shes thinking even almost attempting kill thing isshe hasnt responded days nowwhich worries alotsince thats longest hasnt responded met diesi think ill kill bc im sick told im young depressed treated joke real shit really hope replies soon bc fuck dont wan na diei want done lifebut im afraid comes help pleasei need ideas tell kill want working sexfactory takes sexy animal machine makes sex x times quicker warm result make fade away go bedsheets stuff little skunk legs badger legs use fur black opaque tights trapped together mold shape private organs fell comfortable put skinny badger body bite body play day please come waiting years penis big right want animals consent play hours hours penis molded burnt candle done playing become infertile thousands baby skunk badgers eat rape choke necks sit faces sex years end food little children tiny carrot sticks penises post facebook show people shape spinal cords look months playtime wish luck guys imma tell crush monday thats ulterior motives whatsoever hi everyone im really bored u want dm talk im m looking someone talk filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler really want go kill right now think im going toim gon na go sit parking lot shirt clog exhaust thing want die idk long itll take im sorry havent able say things wanted family im sorry didnt take pictures phone see everything ive taken years cause dont social media dont upload anywhere wanted something remember theyll nothing crying hard st ab bed yse l f stabb ed yself tim es n che st wit h butc knife ther es blo od e ryw im layi ng n th e bat hroom flo n mu ch p ain ca n ba ly pe th lesbian f desperately longing girlfriend puberty shy chubby teenager many unrequited crushes straight girls late teensearly s try meet queer women near mainly online dating led dates notredflag made uncomfortable anyway social redflag queer dating pool small anyway screw general depressed college dropout living relatives working dead end job probably never amount anything women breaking door date anyway still find longing love sex breaks heart see almost everyone know datingmarried move obsession accept probably never happen make peace please responses go try give trying realistic specifically asking help accept probably inevitable accept probably never lovesex girls actually chubby doods pretty fucking insecure working take alcohol poisoningi curious much take die drinking weigh lbs dads liquor cabinet looks pretty stocked hang yourselfso ive wanting ive checked sites google cant find one actually works tie knot tie pull bar tighten falls help really appreciated years ive seen movie forget details loved time found plot intensely gripping climax heart stopping remember literally edge seat theatre back br br jane fonda plays los angeles reporter kimberley stumbles upon accident local nuclear power facility wants go public story aided hippie cameraman michael douglas photographed event sinister conspiracy attempts cover jack lemmon absolutely wonderful role nuclear plants conflicted middle manager torn loyalty company right thing reporting perilous situation facial expressions speak volumes herebr br apart engrossing plot riveting tension film jack lemmon character superb acting performance jane fonda huge fan time suspect moved antiwar protests taking nuclear industrybr br movie seems intended nuclear scare tactic chernobyl three mile island notwithstanding theyre different types reactors canadian candu reactor safe well respected around world hesitate reside near nuclear power plant hours drive away friend works competent engineer apparently shut every teeny problem irregardless financial loss sincerely doubt conspiracies afoot one hardly imagine managers highly trained operators willing risk sort meltdown whateverits absolute tomfoolery course moral spare expense effort either building facility ensuring ongoing safety br br want western lifestyle energy somewhere claim nuclear power never made completely safe true course perhaps volunteer coal miner return pre electricity horse buggy days br br means enjoy entertaining highly suspenseful movie apparently based loosely embellished true story real chiller thriller maybe even killer please attitudes operation safety nuclear power plants im done im cutting drugs im depression never stoped cutting helpim gon na end interesting titlenew app lol ironically ex recommended use anyways today tried calling told reason kept calling thought id now told child cant handle alone hes fucking right brought got super duper sad im invasive thoughts urge super bad things dont know fight ask people snaps give snap gim snappp hand thinking life holds much painhello next month see future moment im emotional unstable hard pay attention important parts life right im sitting train station fight girlfriend got mad left apartment went train next city assume sure current life good think throw small web developer business debt cant find bank finance next month almost birthday pay know last year family members died sister opened got raped kid business went downhill feel completely lost know deal everything know go life girlfriend answering im worried know long want keep im leaning toward responding able let go im sure even wanted talk make big decision kids got message pleading conversation explanation apologized stated trying cause problems said prison something happened long time ago looks felony probation something revoked sent pictures children one year older children share told mother passed think anymorei think made way functional everything done life ended poorly incapable things normal people every day extremely lonely subtle context human interaction missing people always say something seems fine whoever im talking suddenly gets weird look leave im flying life blinders something keep shooting dark missing everything know keep trying anymore minutes later got message saying downstairs annie friends predrinking came asked long said whole time annie already downstairs asked let know everyone downstairs already instead leaving room replied dont worry big deal said seemed weird dint think tell nearly half hour rolled eyes said oh start decided worth getting annoyed bring favourite cereal lucky charms atm filler filler filler filler filler one underrated movies s allow identify patricia arquette character find moving story woman regaining sense purpose life finding new livebr br arquettes performance brave purposefully wooden way defining characters spiritual death complete lack desire alive moves life zombie family murdered cant see point living moving course story reawakened burmese landscape beautiful quality people landscapes primal choices forced confrontbr br boorman supports visually hans zimmer supports one gorgeous haunting scores often static camera propensity shoot glass windows windshields etc outside looking arquette finds deep jungle forced choose whether fight lifebr br recommend movie purple plain well similar story similar setting makes fascinating comparison friend jokes wants kill dont know hes serious need know away precipicemy friend quarantined together two months now close brother history antidepressants regularly meetings therapist two weeks anxiety whenever try calm doen anxiety attack met anyone anxiety sometimes feel dont know handle situation make better weeks ago made redflag joke laughed let slip needs talk told therapist hes getting suicidal thoughts gave pills give day prescribed lately hes making suicidal jokes serious answer straight dealt want everything help willing put things hold means getting better dont want close talk need advice broach topic brings even really joking want know redflag open advice helpful tips help someone going tldr friend suicidal thoughts makes jokes redflag need advice handle healthy way without making feel victimised today one days one days u yet another massive argument ur parents endure two hour car journey rain huge box ur lap obscuring ur vision whilst listening ur mums favourite song goes take im tired now leave lie shoot shoot shoot never mind fact ur ur period anyway nice day endi know everybody going say gets easier im alone pain really ive living shitty life years accomplished apart surprisingly graduating highschool really point grades bad chance university ive worked shitty jobs year hated last job im almost see future waiting ive apparently done something wrong likely lose job tomorrow though universe torturing giving glimpses hope shoving face laughing thats people though im laughing stock wherever go im fat ugly completely useless gullible believe pretty much whatever anybody tells im idiot mention shit put people always bringing bullying first day school now years ive bullied stepped reason let people im nice thats hear people im nice generous people take granted ive contemplated redflag last years ive always thought might better next year deep knew know keep trying really dont probably going last thing write say anyone today day im going end thing need decide lot meds cabinet probably sounds best way weight loss egirl day ive working unofficially week im going start losing weight end goal egirl anyways kicking official count lbs thats today kind hard avoid sweets shit im posting case actually go say hey guys need advice help idk something manpersonal responsibility believe personal responsibility believe hole im dug possible climb duty find way parents wont help though live household parents hoarders step trash become hoarder although im high school keep giving adhd medicine father doctor mother nurse tried antidepressants made feel flat didnt think running away ending time ive hit wall ive always looked subreddit im sorry thought yes men support show weak need help hurts idk wont counselor mother calls crazy think suffer bipolar disorder reddit ive overcome thoughts longi figured got life back track end got pills new job new bank may seem small means alot new girl cares alot im afraid ask want hurt started hanging friends ultimately fresh start time felt control doctor even said getting better slowly weaned even though im x better still feel world better without feelings depression either ive started put mask making people believe better im still struggling feel quite weird still thinking world better without enough saved even pay funeral wanted even turned religion looking answer depression know everyones true intentions went christian school life graduated years ago know god good seems highly fabricated apologize offends anyone intent tldr know im still feeling way ive tried hard better broke walls rarely depressed yet still feel life worth living even tho getting better guess say feel bored living theres reason continue know id miss family stuff bother reason im still people care want see sad feeling crush cause thing crush enimies muhuahauaha interesting got new job today asked come training got schedule every single day starting tomorrow go pm leave htye still asked come hwiuafhhhasiodd guys cmon thats fair circadium rythm financial crisis evicted house lost lighti feel everythings gone shit fam financial problems years roll one day evicted cant shake feeling restlessness need take care mum time back lost girl bcs got college reason think shot spent less time going back almost always weekends whenever free time serious family knew abt visited others place holidays everything went shit now miss lot year still feel yesterday tried go feel burnt seems happy friends lost world friends mine mind keep telling long happy cant foolmyself longer peace home studies always feel somethings going cant sleep want things go home see smile know feel shitif youre ceebs reading plz help solve acronym relating love pcmbls life pretty good look outside im still highschool im top class maths science average english relationship well relationship really fucks love girlfriend alot claims seem kind bipolar personality whenever dont love message one day mind becomes extremely negative mini angel mini devil see movies devil know really selfish think know cant send love message every night thats im trying break bit context b next part btoh us usually send acronyms b say goodnight example iwtmy want marry weve suddenly last night sent another one saying pcmbls find asked said really selfish usually us kept nagging things curiosity usually spill beans time tho matter many times said plz refused massive help someone help solve theres probably subreddit ive literally felt suicidal now figured ask sorry ranted much gf really love cowches arent funny im tired people thinking cowch trend funny funny beautiful piece history needs respected actually laugh sight cowch disgusted cowches feelings got biggest clutch got chemistry test draw diagrams thought failed instead got percent im relieved rn lol creepyscam pms introducing showing face usually try spam post concern intro post weekend received lot scam pms fake jobssus websites reminded another issue reason censor bar face protect identity turned joke selfie augustish got creepy pms forgot usernames wondering anyone similar issues long wait supposed redflag prevention lifelineive chats website hour still says youre line normal tell many people ahead line need talk someone issues im turned week ago currently summer break till next month go back college found depression gets really bad come home especially summer break longer breaks feel much better dorm finally breathe come home week reminded stand mother switches saying missed calling laziest person knows saying wish never hitting throwing things away without asking insulting upset much siblings dad really care complain older sister gaslights says going lot works hard takes mom dad said want go back dorm mandatory sophomores anyway going end going going save move permanently wait go back school neither crying numb hate feel powerless trigger well im legally adult im hopefully see much think timewell bois im place life happy af instead im worst state ive think tonight night goes ill drink gin red bull going tons isopropyl ethyl alcohol hand cleaners fuck insides ive trying figure hell hole people call earth long time finally think way wish luck everyone im wondering im going glimpse god empty void im ready find good bye everyone love know miss wounds heal dm want m probably one yeah meta plea rredflagwatch subscribers post moreim coming across lot hoursold posts replies understand hotline subscribers feel manage quicker response time id encourage everyone reading try make effort check new show support need posting know say thats alright check rswresourceshttpwwwredditcomrswresources leave short message let know read post heart goes lack responses gives impression nobody cares someone lowest spilling guts strangers getting replies demoralizing especially put lot effort post seems longer posts much less likely response remember take nearly long read took write thanks taking time read karma self posts please upvote visibility anyone want talk maybe even become friends hey m looking new person talk become friends im little bit introverted might flowy convo hmu cry helphi want die friends isolated years ago feel waste space much anxiety everyday cant make house im idea want life feel meaning hanging dead tall place help reach peace thanks nd cool nite household itemsthat use kill pain got one question unv website common offer cookies maked new post entitle kids posted girl ho pushed tried steal phone plz goo see goid long story realized somethingi realized things happening fault afraid dad almost died stuck homeless roommates crazy drunken person im always afraid anything taken advantage classmates abused aunt uncle moms side family today afraid talk best friend suicidal thoughts feel idiot know everyone better without parents spend money none friends care high school im going try teach failure wish dead rope towels blankets dog leash one care everyone better without ive learned something tv shows savour every second make finale better realise never miss something gone sincerely guy finished watching time favourite animes many times guys jumped cliff say around feel endsuicidal feelings childhood checked true friends checked mental disorder checked burn checked able help parents need checked dumped wife years checked enough enough bad around know ill alone rest life children fault im strong enough swear tried envious redflagive always loner weird quirks made hard make sustain friends ive never weak minded ive always prided much body endure matter heavy weight usually lift feelings recently ive hearing deaths accidental redflag dont really know im envious ones go ive dark thoughts feelings couldnt act faith longing effect gets stronger days roll cant anymorei feel trapped children reason im still living id rather homeless living roachrat infested house bm job car nothing leave truly streets cant bare away kids buti cant keep living argue much agitated super easily know need help need guidance nights cry sleep hoping die kids wouldve long gone anything cant wake next every morning im lost please help good ol karma lol good ol karma httpsyoutubexfoezpwqhttpsyoutubexfoezpwq im complete failure dont deserve chancesi fucking pathetic failing college third fucking time unable bed consistent basis bc cant fucking shit done need fall asleep reasonable hours fuck fuck growing fuck normal ive depression years havent learned much dont deserve opportunities never deserved ones anyways wish stay alive burden family oldest child family ruin lives siblings guess id anyways disappoints cause yearly dont feel sorry im piece shit spoiled loser cant anything lie around feel sorry dont insurmountable problems esp compared others posting never asked easy life never promised work hard deserve ps im fat ugly im high priority rescuing told smarthad average iq ive realized ei emotional intelligence way important dont much theres one thing know sure life something hemingway said happiness intelligent people rarest thing know redflag hotline fucking joke better talking walli waited minutes people ahead chat got waited another hour chat automatically disconnected timed network error part chat survey left negative review called hotline told already helped emailed resources im good place tonight one talk honestly think tonights night wrap car around fucking tree drive river hate fucking life hate everyone claims friends everything cant even fucking help hate everything ill never find love im short ill never life worth living goodbye everyone im doneim done ive cant handle shit anymore want feelmy life downhill spiral born fuckiung piece shit ruiend many lives want fucking die scared death scared gieves panic attacks still want die maybe exist relapsed cutting today years thoughjt done guess ill never done dont live home live someone think friend family dont want olive anymore becuase everyone hates much think im disgusting becuase disgusting fat disgusting fucking pig fucker faggot deserves rot hell deserve everything becasyse everything fault cause problems fucked made friend live upset cut years able call friend made never forgive done ruin eveeryones lives mentally unhealthy turn make mad upset purpose dont know maybe attention know fuckingggggggg fool human race family wont talk anymore mom doesnt ebeliebe actually killm becayse ive said much tonight finally prove telling truth fuck fuck fuck fuck mean fucking worst fat faggot evil destroy lives deserve sadness deserve death gon na itmy parents going town tomorrow brother school im gon na turned last saturday first birthday great got smash switch eshop gift card brunch favorite italian resturaunt got aswell thats important second need someone tell change number forgot got first place almost instant die born mom taking away fact gone want talk time eat drink tricking younnenver existed know cant change please remind stop looking hate please help want know happeningthis literally happened fuck found sister ground crying apparently hour half muscle stiffness left arm small cuts perpendicular arm minor blood feel toes muscle weakness pulse guess find well even though ive training take pulse cut arm cold extremities less still colder normal rough times friend cut often yesterday friend cut showed sister sister think anxiety depression hid decreased appetite socializing weeks ive rough time almost cutkilled never actually holy shit know please someone tell happened said drink anything even though statistics say od favorite among females find cutting device anyone know think know know help bad brother fuck edit thank know much means hold forman im done honestly keep telling okay going okay fucking lie honestly really tell okay abused ansd screamed useless man know lame post much really anywhere none friends really im going blame everytime tell im okay remember person fell love gave years life cheated multiple people tossed aside rag obnoxious cunt literally takes relationship advice b shit fucking cunt went b friend exs said dubs says whether break fucking class act dude cheated ditched literalyl im begging patient god damn loved much knew anxiety ripping us apart knew patient things better wanted sex needed cant even look people fucking eye speak cant even speak people barely even online know say anymore ive lost past years hell gotten worse worse worse keep getting worse worse done deserve brutal emotional abuse cheating im really bad person think always way god dammit past posts comments know everyones patience wearing ridiculously thin im sorry really know say beyond ive forced stop posting much want annoy burden people last post tried strangling death cord bathroom almost passed thought embarrassing way die thought alone made throw wire neck told family rednessrashwhateveryoudcall weather getting shit excuse know dunno man really fucking want death im pussy really want build fucking cant sight ex lanky moronic fuck head cant faces everyone yelled fucking head words feel genuinely empty used tossed aside god dammit parent fucking manipulate much even brought world man toy abuse fun got older told need grow figure way never got guidance got fucking screaming im anxious hell shaking even type shit feel im panic attack know even matter anxiety attacks feel alone seriously fucking gives shit pertains alone problem come fucking woe abuse seriously even know expect know im one help want end life theres lot good im lmao fantasize dying lay shower yes lay fucking shower hour hour half think ways easily one moment gone forever next know relief happiness brings god idea blankness nothing holy fuck thinking time sense relief wish someone hated enough shoot head stab death problem make enemies want harm physically make enemies want harm mentally im already fucked god dammit please someone tell understand feels false understanding actually getting past years began feeling suicidal started attempting never felt right never felt genuinely happy kind carefree happy hear people talk never felt ive felt extremely strong love another person many people ex friends family lay much ive never felt happy keep searching cant figure feel lost beaten parent abused growing im much done yeah got giant fight day trying tell bedtime took lock door made feel less human im child always power life many people power flipped fucking lid screamed called cunt told fuck away screamed go fuck many times cant even remember many fought minutes afterward felt better even confronted first time life abuse even make feel better moving forward point unleashed sadness anger avail thought confronting everything first step betterment able put fucking garbage behind wasnt step whats already inmotion early march sent love letter box gifts ex birthday broke obviously thatd fucking creepy wasnt got box broke things far told cheated someone already read love letter told sweet thanks know love letters quite outdated know guess im hopeless romantic put heart wrote laid everything got equivalent cool know weird thing bring moment realized used years nudes gifts compliments fun little toy reinforced months fighting afterward ended cutting ties wanted keep letter reminder everything went sour realize nothing used naive twat used cry threatened throwing away note felt given part person never told made cry threats hope god damn im rambling know none matters ill likely responses last posts former one comment said see guess post got removed allowed something know none really care things ive god places throw open place therapist thats fucking sad know death set stone die us will feel another aspect death set stone truly fully believe die redflag even die within next months way next years decades almost know inside heart feel guarantee future way fucking relief lifts spirit even think way finally even cowards way even want brave theres nothing end push pretense everyone trying hurt pride calling pussy loss pride mean shit im ground really really look forward death god want die soon im getting discouragedgtthis poem wrote gtthis one worst days life gtbut one best im still alive gti always thought things change gti always kept hopes high eight years gtand still want die gtnow come question really change gtor ive told keep slightly alive gtmy heart still beating lungs still breathing gtbut numbness body seem cease gtmy bodys decaying somewhat already deceased gtthe rest go gtthe rest know give life gtwithout help gravity surface tension tall bridge gt gtthe worst getting worse feel worthy disease physical external illness coincide feels much reason sad somehow feel nearly everyday better dead life sucks years old m gpa lower depression started put special math class school years ago absolutely hate school ok friends rarely go mom died family stress dad expects much stepmom gold digger mental problems moved away city liked years ago go school bunch stuck rich kids good everything really hate school district huge crush popular girl grade way league way im naturally quiet introverted im lazy ambition recently diagnosed adhd anxiety everything hate voice find hard talk hate name sounds weird dont want college one things society forces successful dont want go cc job hs im kind considering military dont yelled life really worth point idea fucking dont see getting past need someone talk last hoursi cant stand everything suck suck debate matters cause one asshole made every debater country looks monster world shit need go feel im break crying sometimesfor reason realise lot trouble thought know energy back itso ive drifting along couple years now tried back gp refer assessment therapy counselling anything messed around dragged heels confident lost heart see trying lose weight surgery done surgery going change life going thing finally let living lose weight kept sabotaging let know know understand stop surgery give theatre stage manager one thing really made feel made feel alive lived cant anymore top day job cant make enough professionally quit day job give day day gave everything lost almost years cant go gym anymore cant even go large supermarket bought new clothes replace stuff need work room full craft materials tools musical instruments dustier work now work laundry cooked proper meal maybe october washed dishes november laundry office job know one thing day take pride thing know recognise good things pleased stuff ive gone mindfulness exercises ive thought people love reasons want stick around realised id slowly given clawing back things used life remember point stopped even pretending plans anymore going surgery give six months back together going look going back school qualified something bore craziness going move apartment somewhere want live going take running point accepted none things going happen want way thats way realise crashed call emergency line weeks back actually really bad way assessment phone basics know actually answer questions back back black white yeah realised im ok ive telling long keep going long im still working ironing shirts getting office every day cant bad right right think might bad world grown smaller smaller greyer greyer ironing board office job feel bored days really really know keep screaming support network safety net think really want anymore thats problem ive realised ive lost knack wanting things remember go wanting things want anymore absence things want less tired want less stressed want spend less time sitting nights want stop noise head finally possibility getting psychiatric assessment ill know whether happening within week happening energy start running around track power left start see time really want im control freak want someone come take away make better want someone come fix allow kind thing want able fix want able pick dust start mending think think ive got enough left even finally assessment done prescribe something finally therapy ive pursuing long stuff takes much energy ive done therapy know well incredibly hard work want work hard im exhausted even thinking taken long enough fuel left ground time im person ive got rescue friends wonderful friends ask things cant bring ask anything except strangers cant cant bear im person ive got rescue longer think ive depressive episodes experienced kind protracted longing death teens im years old magically well next months itll still take years lose enough weight surgery done another year waiting list ill done dusted decade alone decade lost wasted stuck shitty little apartment stacks dishes ignore ringing silence late long great plan dying planning pack shit going move house going tell everyone id got job canada thats id met someone online going go id pack shit put stuff wanted leave people labelled storage carefully crossreferenced will letters going move new place city ive never mail key secondclass police letter telling theyd find set bathtub caring neighbours brokenhearted friends left appointments still hanging calendars cant bring pack cant bring anything im terrified im going therapy run battery completely flat end floating alone unable even work unable put key envelope stuck unable die dreadful dreadful twilight photocopy life hope anymore even know want hope back want bad want stop know know matters anyway needed put somewhere thank things scared shit little garfield halloween special smoky bear goosebumps vampire breath warm bodies absolutely anything zombies micheal jacksons thriller still scares want improve lifeim sick never got drivers license never got job never money whats point living cant job fuck kill right now oh things better say wont life literally gone downhill im tell nothing life improve want spend time looking jobs instantly reject drivers license costs thousands even im going begging streets im going fucking kill soon possibly im done fuck world fuck poor nobody seems understand matter much think things better even worth whats going right now ill come back half hour check replies want convincing really cant find single reason live bring family friends family reason poor shitty spending habits spend literally hundreds per fortnight cigarettes friends jobs want hear brought change anything normal feel thisrecently ive feeling im letting life pass really anything know found purpose life constantly feel worthless wonder fuck whenever feel little calm think current situation realize outside things really bad love support family least turn leaves disgust even thinking killing makes feel even worse feels value life minimal nonexistent even food table roof head family loves life opportunities life still somehow manage feel inside feel useless never meant alive even deserve love shown others want feel cant help blame way feel think poor choices made feels chain thats time feel scared talking anyone feel alone needed ask someone tldr feel depressed makes feel even worse dear umapmanmap saw post tiktok girls know comments said post name said people say dont speak mexican fuse must give vietnam flashbacks time teacher told spanish kid class speak mexican rd fucking grade tell eight yearolds dont speak language exist literally spanish think spanish comes mexico call mexican im gon na bad dreams bye girl animal crossing island lets say im trading diy recipes pretty often great ideas life couldnt submit anywhere one cared notebook write ideas idea analog keyboard example even drew schematic linear switch around months company wooting one made fiirst analog keyboard linear switches idea ive ideas make internal combustion engine efficient done around years ago ive idea ai dlss ai framerate generator ive ideas even nvidia made way work exact made wrote notebook sometimes wonder someone reading mind sometimes anyone talk hey guys im bored asf anyone talk hit dms shame transgenderi never son im supposed want kids want god damn dick girlfriend deserves better dysphoria bad tonight cant even look long ill want disappear disgust embarrassment hate body mine amount surgery hormones money change biological birth im never going accept fact wasnt born male supposed put smile say body everyday literally feel screaming tearing guts throat cis day make year mind constantly filled gets tiring pain becomes physical people really feel pride facade make okay cant fake anymore life fucked im trans im never going real man im girl im nothing dont deserve alive anyway im disgusting mutation feel guilty ashamed im exhausted cry nothing help want die want fucking normal life instead outsider always robot arm emoji knew arm actually heck sex actual girl gravedigger manage dig grave wtf whats thing cchie man mean story behind built different phrase come cchie man born hopehttpsyoutubecyhejlya feel abandoneddue mental illnesses dropped school felt people cared actual care existence months ive realized one cared people texted time thought general interest wrong needed homework dropped one texted yesterday cake day single person texted understand know social media snapchat facebook ect realized one texting figured busy decided text closest friends none seemed interest talking one said youre alive figured dead feel maybe good option girl wotermelon soooo sweet inside film cult movie metal premise kid gets hold final recording favorite artist sammy curr recently dies hotel fire plays backwards summons back dead revenge name heavy metal btardly jocks torment fan true metal enjoy movie metal head tormented jocks play sammy curr album backwardsno wait fictitious well hold movie watch fist air head banging volume im sociopath kill continue hurt people destroy themlets face facts admit one truth people seriously deserve planet killed people likes hitler instance admit right people sociopathspsychopaths suffer serious mental disorders causes harm others person behind etc people simply killed thats true categorized one people kill save others sorry long wall text need something chest idk cant handle anymore im going start recently go back idk end anybody actually reads way guess idk kill everything ive done past know theres rules mean people need persons honest opinion legitimately feel im horrible person tell know people keep telling im horrible feel horrible im even going defend actions list honestly actions unforgiveable matter excuse recently something extremely badly well grandma cancer longer extremely bad newsuh still cant admit happened far believe still hospital refuse visit cant see yeah uh yeh hopsital yeah anyways fiance drifted apart drastically talked every day talked day every day week weeks without talking top throw huge tamper tantrum whenever talked anybody past half years anybody talk except recently posted rr lot worked nonstop delivery services picking food delivering customers saying enjoy open door extent human interaction mean logically im pretty messed humans need human interaction right begged fiance talk begged yelled demanded attention kept getting worse ignoring became demanding got bad spent days without talking grandmas funeral coming next week needed attention badly refused told id post nudes online continues treating way continues ignoring spent days threatening finally posted nudes online eventually deleted nudes deleted everything still teacher couldve lost job told say hi press send post nudes online even much apparently posted nudes went police everything wanted restraining order stop posting nudes honestly thought care anymore mean even say hi order push away order us break order somebody grandmas funeral date coming desperately either needed us break seek somebody platonic friendship found needs start even break us posting way hate enough break manipulative sociopathic say told somebody jail called sociopath woooah woooah dude holy fuck remind mess fucking sociopath know kidding think serious thinking im sociopath well im facing extortion revenge porn lot misdeameners think da pressing charges know wanted go far know didnt wanted say hi give human interaction know talk talk send letter da drop charges restraining order place theres nothing im fucked happened feel extremely horrible spent time jail thinking past came friend committed redflag around time grandma grieving needed begged talk drifted away now heres im suicidalim gon na list things one abused really badly abuse imagine id probably suffered similar two abused people often become abusers three im pretty attractive guy never got relationship feared becoming abuser ready relatioship even think getting one id abuse hurt four dated first girlfriend thought ready relationship counseling enoughnope broke im abusive words mine five spent next years single going abuse another person going risk fiance entered life abusers name brought extremely pissed fiance hugged calmed thought ready relationship im ready wasnt rely somebody calm need calm six spent years counseling years trying better yet years old still abusing love life betrayed way never going recover realized vulnerable theres nothign become better ive tried years counseling im still piece shit person sevenand dont think care much hurt much hurt abandoning forcing solitude years hearing desperately needed really care hurting care hurt promised never abuse another person abusing hate matter person care theyre getting hurt care im one abuse hate turning step father eight make sociopath care hurt put situation begged say hi ill stop demanding say hi difficult talk nine serious anger issues suppose posted nudes betrayed trust talk reals ten im scared im angry legitimately scared black remember single thing im pushed limit things eleveni gotten pushed limit years im still scared last time sophomore high school senior football player threw football face hurt way step dad slap face ptsd kicked rampage ensured got ball threw hard aimed balls remember pushed limit yet ran went fifth period completely shaking entire period went sixth period guy pushed corner escape way pissing offso lost pushed limit remember happened next thing knew hiding corner school crying much teacher found calmed brought back next thing know im facing serious charges stick wanted sue care dude care fact lost control anger hurt another person care hurt care something wrong twelve used play runescape lot twas addicted grandpa works computer lets use work computer play usually hours school play long possible hes losing moneyanyways wants go bed pm stay till keep bitching cant anything hes told go bed lost blacked grandpa laying stairs completely unconscious head bleeding almost killed couldve killed himjust alone dead right fell stairs couldve exxtremely bad luckily die guess still care died cared lost control anger became step dad abused another person sociopathic thought right thirdteen uh backtrack last year grandma cancer hospitall bed uh bed bed never came bear see stateever foudn cancer ive distancing even attend funeral work care enough go wanted work fourteen baby sister two one im attached anything protect saw grow love around years idk family never asked never came mean theyd ask sister ask anyways baby sister im attached almost died er icc everything never came wanted work instead need money deliveries pay much im barely surviving homeless living van work father came er couple weeks ago cared enough visit im sociopath right fifteen unless somebody benefits gives something free rent food money expect something ill talk dont even talk thats super selfish grandpa bought motorcycle talked every day got got stopped talking lot going recently maybe thats talked part thinks stopped talking longer expect give anything sixteen went jail talked mom dad first time years needed bail something seventeen literally going right now finally got job career three months working longer homeless finally life together finally make something life grandpa stroke needs come visit stay couple weeks simply want want stay show worth company keep years come love want lose job lose career lose life go support grandpa thats truly socipathic eighteen honestly feel way turned killing people ive never crossed lines grandpa gave set moral compass upon time blurred lines crossed lines anything recently even jaywalked id scared outcome anyways one day sitting home alone everybody supposed gone entire night cat came badly wanted choke cat hands around neck etc somebody came home let cat go crossed line idk feel couldve easily moved humans everybody keeps telling life better etc move past move nobody understands something move move past yes breaking fiance heart broken making extremely suicidal im suicidal treat people way behave act think emotions empathy care anything know enough sociopaths shit child mean dog hated thats red flag dog scared sociopathic child thats idk dog never liked probably kept things cat died wanted see body play anybody seen dexter feel exactly dexter hell even love blood id love cut live human see react id love see scream much pain inflict id love see much make react mere thought brings excitement lots excitement ive never done anything try anything pet id scared id treat pet maybe opportunity kill dog cat child swear wouldve became dexter im serious scared continue dark path know know become serial killer ive scared pass lines always sticking moral guideline grandpa instilled mefollow law letter even jaywalk putting situation lines blurred seriously hurt somebody ei release nudes internetwhich exactly lines blurred thats got far im sociopath im ready lets dooveri done point havent felt good years due sexual abuse constant bullying dreams goals going drain religious hope god reincarnation real want doover born better life done struggle go every day thanks illnesses diagnoses contemplating redflag years feel whatever lets already point life death doesnt scare truly terrifies feel fucking good thinking redflag really gone far might try holding little bit longer surgery want hopefully help doesnt im done im setting time place method cant stand life anymore point feel life way rigged people actually rigged even people born fortune life hard even fucking impossible us thank world may fuck hard moms birthday paternal aunties really mean dont even wish wish ill show wishes shell love shes absolutely gorgeous seems pathetici know itll seem pathetic say ill dont worry girl dumped likely long distance thing fuck dont know man hurts im sure ill kill dont know really find right page make kinda post never really used reddit lurked fuck though hurts ive tried messaging abit nothing looks snapchats stuff nothing maybe pathetic im room midnight crying feel lost dont lot confidence dating cause never dated high school never knew whole flirt thing hurts hurts want talk hear voice hear say love infinity beyond always im sorry long post im even sorry eyes flirt food guysss warning post dad joke realized quaranteens ill see hey usocksareverycool okay hes inactive even though really active couple days ago movie directed renny harlin finnish miracle stallone gabe walker cat mouse mountains ruthless terrorists renny harlin knows direct actionmovie stallone needed role back track snowy mountain good place action movie better direct movie snow ice cold bad weather finnish man action good music film spectacular bad guy john litghow stars micheal rooker portrait serialkiller janine turner strong medicine placed beautiful place exciting movie overall good movie br br remember extreme lit special collectors edition good extras comig soon finland straight video confession sortsfirst id emphasise redflag note dying time soon despite wish ive lost hope recently redemption hitting kind hard something horrible fucking repulsive irredeemable around fourteen made many mistakes surrounding titular coming age type experience repressed hid away recesses mind come night thoughts ringing ears reason im writing years ago crime id wish nothing death torture upon perpetrator someone god wish someone kills inside know reality freak nightmare im monster horrific words try try earn penance give peace using life protect people give peace need take life take life id wish sick individual position wish hell violence nothing afterlife hope hot horrible really maybe small confession really sins give amount temporary peace im sure wont much manipulated manipulated embarrassed hope remember god knows pain live really hope caused damage due actions retard child yr old fuck im taking chance im tired want now years planet filled every kind abuse think abandonment loss icing cake ptsd diagnosis thanks years hell hands ex never escape son perfect little boy permanent link horror ex never stop ive tried everything life now im tired want want peace ive tried talking people family understand see toll takes partner see stress worry eyes sleep constant nightmares burden useless broken shell add anything positive anyones life happier without finally rest thats want want rest rchilledteens rteenagers without trauma sometimes bit saddening scrolling seeing sad people areithttpsareit flairs exevpt serious first kiss cloud sky star night glow flirting years now today day movies leaned romantic part locked lips daddy issues exactly mean many use term idrk exactly means father left abused something saymy best friend suicidal goes months hes fine crashes want end know well trusts much past relapses completely honest pretty sure know better anyone draining managed keep anything past times worst done small cut really afraid going say wrong thing going something going react bad way say make snap make feel better personal things know really deep stage last time barely worked read act forums need specifics please help bother hi reddit im lurker great digg migration im days every day comes closer seems remind life pointless high school attempting college even pointless money go school become pharmacist hell even want actually think getting ahead think start family father christian forceful nonbeliever abusive anything alcoholic mom brother taunting shit father encourages hate family think originally caused depression use forced take mothers bottles street found drunk loved vodka school smart high school slacked continue slack time graduated sure got accepted oregon state money friends nerds gamers throughout highschool friends think thing keeping together high school never knew issues home well want know embarrassing really helped hold together dungeons dragons sure bring hate love game think thing really care anymore eight hours away friends moved three days graduating longer able play looked locally people play meet groups made friends work experience one wants hire family continues remind makes feel even lower relations gender basically one fling past farthest got first base pretty sure lesbian least bisexual now really wish kill lack ability go yeah coward know kill know come next emptiness nonexistence think scares even depression tldr hate life lack courage kill life hates back shit im even joking bothered go bathroom im sitting poop feel girlfriend avoiding dont know weve together three days feel less attention compared back friends similar thing told avoiding talking whenever making things awkward need bad still isnt spending much time imagined maybe mind spending enough time certainly doesnt feel know pretty small problem dont know pls help signals snapchat theres girl started talking snap work together added snap day weve talking lot im good dating thing interpreting signals unless obvious pretty much every snap sends eyes closed making kissy face silly face always adds something hahaha responding snaps mean anything keep ruining every friendship havefor many years ive known something wrong go depressive phases push people away think killing kind ruin every friendship little week ago tried kill baker acted days talked doctor diagnosed borderline personality disorder still think killing constantly throughout day constantly think go far know complete right place post figured feelings every friend pushed away one support group lost ive resorted drinking taking pain killers im drinking numb pain im supposed getting meds help depression going wait insurance kick know much longer think weeks least know every day things harder harder friends talk acted im victim controlled actions said things tried push away still make pain less feel alone want friends back nice description situation us explains different kinds islam show terrorist extremist islam thing killing show people become terrorist muslim without extremist great series muslims nomuslims see hope series films done change idea muslims terrorist americans want destroy islam gave interest discover islam exactly us european government help cohabitation people different religion post nut clarification hitting hard came onto closet wall fell committed war crime pedophile problem solve multiple posts subreddit pedophiles people harassing users subreddit heres problem subreddit kinds users intended users ie teenagers referred prey group ill call predators predators browse subreddit order find target important understand find targets difficult task especially itll change behavior prey changes different predators different targeting strategies everyone target others choose random others might take look age tag one save way targeted seems posting picture face trying avoid targeted specific case someone asked help learning language harassed year old creep straight texting send nudes started showing intentions opinion best tactic avoid targeted rather find targeted act right way safe way targeted post comment better tactic identify predator act accordingly important thing careful information give internet long know know live look literally cant anything except messaging annoying harmful stop time ignoring said sometimes sneaky obvious intentions advice people following someone message directly check profiles anything look suspicious details post history example low karma posts comments weirdcreepy postscomments think theyre safe message back cautiousness give information gave posts already less links easier cut contact reveal predator example way contacting reddit account block thing worry secondary accounts work creates new account leave old one behind someone email address discord account phone number etc becomes increasingly hard cut life summarize careful information give people post pictures face ignore obvious creeps careful write make sure cut contact things weird need help advice want tell someone troubles message im happy help yever fart loud zoom reminds mute gon na hell week bruh actually needa make alt alt need stop creating controversy jdjdjdjdjd coming someone super introverted usually find comfort extra time lot literally friends declined scholarship overseas planned year long supposed sweet escapeif may call apparently many applicants grew strict parents extremely narcissistic literally told basically people suck really need anyone yes happened now andi literally nobody work job pay well kills called family pretends sad work self aware unproductivity watch movies considered taking life want die much give feeling extremely lonely work home pretty much anywhere know want post something instagram absolutely nothing going life overwhelmed even look terrible feel atrociously lonely attracted chris hansen httpsimgurcomakxhqywd every time says take seat want show presence want whisper hes chris hansen dateline nbc theyre investigation men try sleep underage girls debate capitalism doesnt cause innovation black people disproportionately targeted police blm good fascism cringe trump lowkey fascististics legalise drugs dollar minimum wage kinda based anarcho monarcho bidenism cool cant tell alive im listening shine crazy diamond strong taste mint weed mouth im home alone im seeing things around house arent supposed see want end hey im bored ask stuff m nothings limits u number game u want penis penis penis penis penis know feel blocking girl met online need help got know girl f feel except much first want relationshi either nice talk talked called discord later got snap etc couple months lately feel shit know one time things end text anymore leave never met het irl know looks wrong shr probably one nicest ne nicest girl talked sometimes wan na talk think deserve go talk people closer stranger met online cant block broken dick another mistake asking picture snap something never share random matter long talk maybe overreacting little bitch sorry mistakes romanian depression wtf wrong people playing among us yesterday girl started talking eventually gave snap stayed late talking eventually asked around go said goodbye morning opened app send streaks saw message said snap pending adds friend first time girl unadded nowhere dont know girls doesnt feel good talking someone unadded know always thier control knows coulda overprotective parent least say something want know girls say men trash shouldnt exist go shit happened another guy id hear see many people happened failurealmost month later im finally hospital funny try kill sent psych ward afterwards sit room color dull crayons see therapist every day listens minutes ushering door still dont meds still dont help liver damage insanely expensive hospital bills sense failure god real must really wan na watch suffer threw life away abusive mentally ill man nothing see reason continuetwo years ago making year rented lovely apartment life great except depressed lonely bored decided treat extravagant three week holiday hawaii met man spent whole weekend together pretty fantastic though quite red flags went chose ignore thinking vacation fling fast forward two years thought met someone loved met disturbed mentally ill alcoholic controlling emotionally abusive addicted codependant quit excellent secure well paying job moment dilusion thinking going move hawaii married finally broke february take anymore unemployed soon homeless june th able pay rent anymore best friends longer want friends completely hopeless life worth living think redflag often im years old single skills education im currently going counselling last money helping every job ive done ive hated every single minute even good one want work want anything want lie hole wait die seasoned fan italian thrillers directors dario argento mario bava sergio martino aldo lado thought lucio fulci overrated hack seen beyond think totally overrated found new york ripper simply appalling particularly house cemetery three movies left conclude fulci least interesting italian filmmakers stubbornness prevailed check films city living dead film found interesting torture duckling nearly masterpiecebr br set small town italian countryside repressive religious community young boys murdered authorities clueless whos behind crimes especially prime suspect cleared eager young reporter along rather slutty girl seduces young boys investigate eventually bottom itbr br brilliant atmosphere combined good story good cast always case s italian thrillers make torture duckling crackling good thriller plot well constructed easily figured end conclusion satisfying fulci creates dynamic atmosphere repression guilt unforgiving ignorant community creates strong visuals particularly scene woman gets beaten death local townsfolk fulcis social commentary concerning religion innocence quite edgy every aspect well handled thinking zombie flicks ultra violent giallo new york ripper amazing well balances critique explicit violence makes even stronger point far seen fulci film made professionally onebr br traditional giallo film duckling many genres trademarks fulci displays complete control format going overboard unconvincing goremoment overall seems even better making mysteries full blown gore epics extreme scenes much powerful really pack punchbr br far torture duckling fulcis best film far opinion edgy social commentary combined explicit scenes violence crackling good mystery boot hey one days miss wish right now wanted share emotions understand sadly situation allow probably think betrayed bothering first place feed energy okay know need words peace manage read tho doubt never will want peace soulmate need help plz laptop died discord call im looking charger find people call still hear didnt leave call close tab come back call still open idk want someone talk toim terrible day today morning called ugly racist attention whore rude different people today im sitting crying class cant stop thinking redflag need someone talk right now friends family talk ive got nothingso fucked real bad got stupid shit fault know older brother tried kill times broke seriously broke dont know say ive tried everything better honestly im now ive done therapy ive tried talk hes fine honestly hes well ive done well ive worked hard somehow ive fucked got drugs bad lot good job im trying recover make work keep falling back im debt lot debt nobody knows im scared life insurance death service policy family supported best friend girlfriend twice salary plus keep thinking hanging recently predominant thought head hurt dont know im pretending manage cant keep pretending debt repay dont know im gone nobody mind debt go theyll money help right know turnyesterday person talked problems told geniuely hang already basically friend weve friends years cried almost three hours ivr bad mood swings either nothingness anger deep sadness want bother one know theyll probably thing another person already lied caring friend im scared message call redflag hotline feel much anxiety im scared go anywhere im even scared say reddit actually want die feel safe reaching help dont know turn help right im really hoping made post right losing right think killing im still horndog reddit listening musicals baseball game tomorrow wtf wrong rn temporary problemi want die want stabbed shot die way want die now fail fucking class somehow weasel way failing want die want struggle even worse classes next quarter want die ill even worse classes still want die im alone temporary problem never ending supply temporary problems whats prize end nothing choice end freed suffering keep taking years overcoming obstacles pain time obvious choice going change world theres anyone love worth fighting want die want find someone love fight life happy im fucking delusional know unrealistic death lesser two evils want diei hate covid everything bad hate al wish dead cant buy gun dont think anything worth anymore ive trying feel better encouraging people live subreddit cant dont feel best french movie year saw twice found great times think boring even though long hours im seventeen obviously live events may marked extremely important turn french history really matter still really enjoyed film actually quite universal people parents age identify characters people age garrel seems perfectly understand young people way think complications love well loss illusions concerning possibility changing world maybe thats character played louis garrel sonis actually meant represent philippe garrel well anyway great movie action honest point strong feelings cant possibly stay indifferent looking relaxing sundayevening movie waste time disappointed cinema les amants rguliers bewitching movie close made s s nouvelle vague artists im obsessed wanting dieive got note written already ive read ton peoples last words redflag notes wish fakedie see people say im gone know better know stress exhaustion pass ill better point life know depression cycle matter long live many stupid positive affirmations tape bathroom mirror want die im morbidly curious go studies people say work physically rest life life probably worse death believe life death fact go hell restrains life earth hell painless way kill buy poison sometimes death best happen us responsible way depart single parentthe story long complex tl dr version single father x years now son handicapped work significance meaning unable feed us unable government benefits despite best efforts working reunite estranged mother clinically depressed labeled sex offender future speak plan next three months transition back mother left child end things please judge past responsible way wrap things fuck yallill delete hours reading fuck scared think theres better life anywhere think cant anything know want deserve live yet go around ill kill ill kill depression something chose care doctor psychiatrist told anxiety adhd whatever bullshit want hear excuse seek attention ability read thats posses enough find know care im sick im making fun even though looks im sure im breaking tons rules right now want say fuck comment things wrong real medical condition yeah mothers friends diagnosed heavy stages cancer none died cus knew wont believed believed doctors know english sentences grammatically wrong fuck fuck fuck chest different feeling feel fire chaotic feels wrong medical danger year old woman job makes want die well weightplease help understand terrible anxiety going work first explain fat year old female works grocery chain bakery department everyday work hate customers really mean small things donuts things packaged hurt feelings constantly want cry work im stuck taking counter cleaning open close options time either work pm coworkers angry quickly atmosphere gets tense want crawl hole passive aggressive mad cant take every customer weight try lose weight impossible living dad buys pizza junk food time shop hard ignore temptations gained fifty pounds six months sad hate working tight uniform matter gets tighter even newer uniform replaced old one tight im sure never please think redflag work lot want end im home tend feel better hate public places scared want work anymore hard even dressed morning quit job pay car insurance thats basically im working im going college thats already prepaid thanks parents worry books maybe take loans idea job made hate much want die everyday work holup havent done hey libtard shitpost hours hmmmmmmmm bruh brain think filler filler filler constantly feel shit see happyno matter many steps forward try take life feel im running place doomed keep falling flat face job sucks raise barely anything still make enough afford live plus stress running entire company sole employee crushing causing fuck school even school people genuinely mentally retarded bar set pretty low fucked midterms sucks major basically entire identity admitting fucking suck thing im supposed good risk needing essentially take semester getting parents house even overcome bullshit somehow manage live think make anywhere near happy think ill allow happy id really love blow money booze bullshit kill rather cleaning neverending mess life top im crazy depressed people along crazy hell well every time date someone slits wrists fingernails argue reminder im crazy loved anyone psycho ill never worth someone elses time lives impossible standards anyone nearly normal ghosts long ones stick around insane desperate want go back therapy ive tried therapy onoff th grade first attempted redflag none done much anything last one never said anything likeever insight offer argued minutes speak repeating insight already said uncertain terms one likely molested one patients lost license one misdiagnosed bpd turned irrelevant conversation one drinking far problematic truly awful enough told friend raped asking ontop even find someone competent solution problems problem fucking suck fail attempting change im reminded pushing forward fucking sunk cost fallacy grandest level right start see anchors aweigh great comedy gene kelly frank sinatra make funny team songs sing together pure entertainment kathryn grayson gorgeous really sweet dean stockwell cutiest child actor ive never seen fond piano amazed jos iturbi movie first one combine animation real actors wonderfully unforgettable dance number undoubtedly one kellys funniest movies ngl think im bisexual dont know im gon na tell people close mom big homophobe money saving hope want wait longer saving year struggling heavily alcoholism depression redflag isolation last seven years turn caused fail drop college two years ago six years never able gethold job long past year starting feel somewhat better passed opportunity make stock market january guess missing golden opportunity caused chase getting money caused lose nearly months paychecks opportunities best life got high school messed year old virgin friendless college dropout loser lives parents social skills trade skills talents useless nothing special make mom depressed already due failures want think anymore drowning shame regret know undo thing jump cliff smoke cigarettes lungs collapse hope life nightmare know one really help want nothing okay loving positive force world mind fucked lost half life savings stock market taken profits got greedy lost money instead truly crushed nothing important announcment pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee 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mail even old clients serious letdown honestly know im going survive upcoming summer know im going want stay alive exams feel useless im sorry rant needed vent take weight shoulders im sorry know needed someone listen thanks reading letter know asked many times choose hurt thought helpful chest though feeling pleasurable sensation trail blood follows blood escapes stress anxiety worries go im left feeling calm finally breathe especially rewarding im feeling depressed cant cry usually always unfortunately calmness washes away starting cycle depression pretty common feel disconnected numb reality physical pain brings back reminder still alive often disappoints know healthy harm sign trouble stop addiction vice stop want need think ill make weekendi think life anything offer im simply incapable interact correctly people im diagnosed depression treatment im tired reasons keep reason thought posting think change anything though ill dead monday probably may good guys need help figuring girl work crush posted last night died new plz help backstory work grocery store showing vaulted top cart train mostly reason said something strong must told hard mostly abs arms jokingly said probably eighteenpack something laughed said wouldnt trouble getting girlfriend eighteenpack went silent seconds changed subject dont know thats normal cant tell complimenting strength shes flirting nice dont understand girls answer questions provide details comments needed please help didnt good morning text today already anyone contact uhereismyusername please let knowits incredibly important got followers idk yeah im happy filler filler filler filler filler filler filler great disappear ha life fun everyone complains anyway painless way simply exist thats impossible everyone two faced talk imperfections smile laugh ten minutes later leave whole world disappear one gon na care much voice inside head tells everyday whenever im left thoughts grades selfesteem mentality days stinger days today day feel alone feel sinner feel today better gone turns im horrible person guess ive always heard term gaslighting never though really happened often maybe im oblivious feel piece crap feel im worthless around im another pon sacrificed sake others im invaluable piece know right felt suspicions rise never fully believed others things noticed avoided plague im naive known others find bother feel terrible feel toxic feel weak hurts feel used others talk behind back ask trust feel alone one defend inform feel gullible feel act months want disappear need advice ex broke month ago really want feels part heart still love even want idk trust gut back together go head stay away even stay away still know rid feeling partly still love im feeling completely alone family shit job seemingly old make new connections peopleim mid s parents passed away several years ago real family speak left two daughters rarely allow see ex wife makes feel shit whatever cant seem find good job fucking dot drug test several years ago child support im barely scraping friends mostly busy familys now women age looking somebody afford support family ive dealt depression life know drives people away eventually start getting really bad feel totally alone makes worse leads people want around even reoccurring issue relationships nothing seems improve station life seems worse debts bills pile cant afford think reason killed yet nobody feed dog hello world tried everything counselling gave time spent time frnds yet cant stop lovin movin outta city stop fuckin thin king bout coz itll move away family help fuck upmy life much wan na subreddit know felt postin siomethin love hurts love dies siurprise drunk aint gon na kill myeslf tonight trust one hopen anonymous ppl net gon na kill muyself fuck life n make everyone hate rchd yet soon yet drnk n wan na say ui still liove wtf become hate bye liked lot fact see againand plan may love ill echo reviewers saying movie really grow watch starts kind slowly way enfolds 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serving emotional rock family two suicidal parents dont know anymorehi everyone happened hour ago take days explain issues lives lead tonights occurrence ill try keep brief essentially received text mom work saying needed help messages exchanged realized clearly needed home left work came home scene traumatize die mom kitchen floor wrists slit knife beside instantly checked injuries pulled phone call realized werent serious heres backstory family well financially many years came end dad quit job order pursue another opportunity seven years road still unemployed spent almost savings keep us afloat well ran dry almost year ago amassed almost debt mom still works full time making enough money us short around month needless say adds tonight think broke stress everything constantly maintain positive outlook kids work full time support dad emotionally severely depressed top mom receives lengthy texts emails dad daily basis horrendous emotional state according hes said openly intends commit redflag near future going elaborate event happened tonight ran door sat next held arms didnt anything say didnt know words make feel better honestly everything said true situation fucked knew im year old kid dont know fuck say two suicidal parents id really appreciate advice several years ive emotional rock family stay strong even though dont fucking clue im sorry post poorly wordedexplained wrote everything thinking im hoping best many movies think see movie cant count sure seemed movie makers trying give hint reminded often movies became big distraction one borrowed memorable lines came movie day tomorrow one line bad movie borrows much many movies becomes bad riskbr br butbr br see movie despite downfalls enough make interesting maybe make appear clever borrowing much movies never goes overboard fact probably find battening hatches riding storm costner kutcher played characters well never fan kutchers nearly gave guardian surfaced good fashion costner carries movie swimmingly best 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producers film vindicated spadesbr br producers show us davidians government agents investigators faults humanity nothing reviewer say approach impact watching listening pieces evidence congressional testimony tapes news footage expert commentary interviews photos home videos seamlessly woven together tell disturbing tale br br wait see film tell friends think im control freak im tiredi think anyone shocked died ive long history mental illness neglectfulemotionally abusive childhood high school dropout etc met h current boyfriend broken without getting jumped relationship h patient kind nightmarish volatile hateful semblance healthy relationship still dont know recognize someone actually loved together years broke seemed final time thing h sick entire time id known cancer still always unrelenting bitch bit ego guess blame much genius iq dealt crazy family members whole life catch fucking break reason feel dying h deserve life dealt good boy sweet boy started relationship someone months later h wants back together panic tell im single im relationships years pass h gets sicker feel guilty even kissing boyfriend shitty girlfriend shitty person love loves even though bad person smart perfect grows sicker still bored talks much youtube videos hes able leave house socialize agoraphobia depression make hard visit often bad person foolishly believe better handle polyamorous thing absolutely handled h dies sleep unexpected month pass month pass tired people continue come short comparison waiting waiting waiting baby im waitingwaiting best friend come dogsit dad supposed panicked freaked ive lost trust ive pissed people ive disrupted schedules back house im going im finally going one thing ive fantasized years something ive attempted succeeded im choosing death overdose spare sertraline mg im going wash bottle wine thats living house longer reddit redflag note anyone recognises username places please try help want helped want slip away mortal coil goodbye reddit learn mistakes hello frjends discord server trying new peopleeeee fun chat share memes play games together going encourage join commitment guys girls welcome dm link d girl really loved blocked started develop feelings three years ago projects together schedule struggled talk crushing high school went started opened ive never opened anyone started friends good never wanted hang social anxiety never hangs guys outside family parents strict think knows much value really helped school started depressed im army gone months little communication started ignore brought blocked couple days said need see self worth ive nothing supportive caring towards ive depressed friends best friend family told situation didnt much say hiked couple days later though didnt mention anything hes kinda ignoring ive sending sweet supportive understanding messages alt accounts heart crazy man hasnt blocked account hasnt responded never cared much someone really want talk friends id anything well actually concerned myselfi feel sw next step depression subreddit want make clear yes feeling certain way right im making light mocking anyone uses either subreddit im well right now fact im pretty scared always come im slope point helps feel better momentarily take away rest pain went talk someone hotline chat cute literally deep area broke heart think people sitting waiting heard feel often feel echo chamber sometimes saw post made really mad guy took picture bullet father took life said please talk someone anyone done ive reached ive tried talk think people though unless empathize deeply people make worse talk always feel afraid talk going locked guess ive locked several times psych unit put emergency hold days pretty much bullshit way wanted either way meant temporary stay unless exhibit signs harm towards others point decide insurance pay longterm treatment say ive pretty crappy experiences psych unit people work working mental health want discourage anyone seeking although im snarky right probably alive put cuffs throw psych unit wish people knew talking always going fix problem sometimes talking feels dangerous saying anything im trying discourage anyone speaking think good idea seen go badly seems people want say go help thats say thats give advice people said regurgitate without really thinking feel way want someone tell care want hug feel acknowledged way want go walk house go something sitting around want friend listen judge understand happen anyone really different needs mine word scares many people almost shut immediately speak brick wall anyway im really good ate today took lot even yes feeling suicidal yes pretty vivid thoughts mood swings chaotic mind less slow research buddhism selfhelp stuff thought redflag state perception change temporary right fleeting let one thought dominate us point ending right im convinced always simple im tired feeling weak though thinking weak able push thoughts apparently people feel empty dead right inside feel complete hopelessness sense future anything reason articulate therapy past moved state currently living lost health care unable afford another therapist ive without therapy months know making worse need support cha cha cut yeah saw post ago using self harm means attention love attention please notice unrelated cha cha time pain made horrible endi writing last night realized words someone tell someone going kill one loved selfish horrible answered im glad die words love head im sure hell right end become memory im glad know least ill good one im lucky hes wonderful deserve im glad understood cant go pain made promise blame ive waiting find perfect moment hang interrupted im scared want hear voice forever echoing head want call wont already unfair horrible imagine hes best thing happened scary want pain go away wish take away cant cant love cant cure cancer cant cure mental illness either im scared want pain anymore please want anymore otter facts guys love little beans much group otters called romp otters voracious eaters ok otters hold hands dont drift away otters kidnap pups ransom cute arseholes sea otters thickest fur animal zoologist stranded shipwreck first describe sea otters georg wilhelm steller otters hold breath minutes smell underwater otters loose patch skin underneath armpits act pockets storage baby otters float cant swim cat poop deadly otter hope guys fun reading questionhow painful cutting wrist strokes chin aggressively ahaha whats poppin fuck chin strokes pls need help take counseling im upset sound silence become meme genuinely dark yet good song needed chest referring girl throughout keep info private best friend kindergarten way th grade moved never left eachothers side played eachother everyday recess many stupid jokes acted dumbasses time great thing ive always crush every year liked wouldnt absolutely perfect beautiful funny smart caring willing act dumbass even sense humor rare made moving away lot harder positive moving away lose feelings stop chasing unfortunately compared every girl new school impossible even stand chance better great long hard thats said eventually lost feelings didnt feel way freshman year came saw homecoming football game first time seeing talking made feelings come rushing back back started heard mention didnt date homecoming thought one take asked homecoming date said yes shocked happiest ive life couldnt believe girl ive liked forever going homecoming pumped bragged friends perfect homecoming date ready go unfortunately timing worse weekend homecoming flew seattle go seahawks game planned hand forgot means couldnt go homecoming devastated cried cried little baby week easily worst thing happen whole mess went life constantly head couldnt shake mind thats things way today sophomore year moved back old school figured catch old friends see course first person wanted talk thats exactly havent talked homecoming thing pretty scared anyways course talked homecoming said felt bad really excited go said hyped go told people going made happy hear asked doover go homecoming year together said yes couldnt believe way gon na mess one talked lot god knows memories made along way agreed missed acting dumbasses together wanted close used told crush every year shocked disbelief liked every year liked everything going perfectly suddenly stopped talking confused scared didnt know something said either way worried asked wrong told boyfriend didnt want talking boyfriend huh idea boyfriend understanding still confused boyfriend say go homecoming together year tell always liked sad tiny bit proud made seem threat boyfriend boyfriend doesnt know want talking must mean talking scared either one makes feel better didnt want fault said goodbyes said well talk eachother time right two three weeks finally another opportunity talk birthday everybody gon na talking birthday wrote sweet little message said happy birthday goal wasnt make leave boyfriend go make think sweet remind great times shared luckily trick said sweet misses times used said wants become close used missed people life talked little stuff wanted make sure boyfriend wouldnt mad texting said probably shouldnt continue checks phone doesnt even want us friends asked become close didnt want us friends said friends school starts matter says good sign means willing listen closer told excited school start couldnt wait see said said goodbye kinda sad stop talking time know breaks pretty good shot actually girl years chasing play waiting game thats exactly im now im hoping thing happen happened see eachother school hope feelings come back know wrong want blame shes perfect person world im gon na let away gon na take shot time comes finally nothing gon na ruin us unstoppable thank coming ted talk gurls wenna tok m joke pls dont ban uwu feel death appropriate option melongtime lurker never reason post long worth time truly needed speak existence way examine objectively wanted express someone think feel state state different others see maybe anyone relate year old male recovering meth heroin addict consumer dozens drugs whatever available weak pathetic spiritlife forcesoul even given advantages privileges afforded birth middle class west good health stable family manage world truly honestly hate intensity fervor felt another person institution hate know deep even though socially obligated love tell deserve hated deserve suffer know considered social context universe entirely indifferent course outcome life often comfort know little significance feel child essentially pathetic weakwilled addled psychological malfunctions different types make stupid fucking motor tics expressed often face eyebrows jaw muscles god fucking hate express signs symptoms someone well psychiatric vernacular habits hygiene take back seat microdistractions little bits media reddit continue try forget really exist first place barely eat even though blessed ability leisure struggling hold good part something life slipping fast literally feel mind shifting changing preparing death statistical balance debits credits nature things keeps account existence lifeform inhabit shifted favor early death staggering measure paperto doctor scientistnot good education sciences specifically chemistry form function mind brain nervous system imbue mind knows well enough reason hardly form coherent fucking argument know sense deep inside essence deeper humanhuman emotional state emotional self body need eliminated toxic emotionally unsafe person involved weak spiritsoulessence poison others nothing wrong deserve except become emotionally involved feel duty way leave world honour selfrespect fundamental imperative basic command software personality parses issues terminate means parts experience casemaker death emotional self emotional self positive inverse former memories point feel awakened accepted death accident universe although less benign going pathetic existence less innocuous conscious beings around still really worth conserving menace certainly asset disappointment mild embarrassment parents something cover rest family accident accident accident accident im sorry everyone may hurt parents resources expended trying save life deserve die deserve die fuck im sorry goodbye hope find love peace everything good beautiful still prayi dont god pray anymore gone never still pray pray believed pray death pray pray soul ripped body nothing ghost pray pray god nothing gone left still pray fuck lesbians gays bis trans make sure swallow make sure say homo unless really lgbt big brain time karens called karens cause carent one guys know good illegal websites use watch shows hey guys website use stream shows got taken need good secure website lmao thanks want move outim blaming anyone cant keep brother verbally abused reason deserve im currnetly unemployed unable move im economically deprived area good employers willing branch people might say move cant im employed ive applying jobs brother tells wan na sleep reddit addiction wont let ig ill reddit thatd kinda early sleep anyone listen music literally right nutting fr even seconds need listen music idk first serious relationship even though know anhedonia nothing giving joy right now boyfriend calls love life wants plan rest life mei relationship see working long termi want run away move away feel horrible absolute star amazing feel obliged miss feel trappedis depression luring ugly head super normal everything fizzle year depression love boyfriend year update still alivemade post taking pills got fair amount heat feel obliged make update inform people im still alive feel terrible dont really want talk people much idk appropriate allowed admins feel free delete yeah man fuck hoe want back tho philo vance many affinities bulldog drummond gentleman kind polish elegance usually associated british upper classes independently wealthybr br vital differences drummond adventurer charming gallant lively vance pompous slighty dull selfrighteous hint fundamental cruelty mannerbr br kennel murder case impressive vance films made story murdered collector chinoiserie ingredients classic private eye mystery exotic setting blue nose long island kennel club three killings vance solve including baffling locked room murder key whole affair plenty suspects br br usually detective story setting proved static talkative make convincing movies even though work well enough printed page michael curtizs direction fine editing give film pace urgency make altogether different similar films type br br william powells elegance suavity made perfect vance although year later switched studios stayed genre enormously successful popular thin man mgm fat girl made suicidalhello yall ive fat entire life make matters worse fat tall well huge beast vertically horizontally late s gone entire life treated invisible time friends two lovely girls inside usually want go usually end watching stuff dancefloor dancing guys time presence acknowledged anywhere people making fun dated guy call fatass time tell lucky chose date girl ended broke w though really bothered dating know caliber girl man want said recognize important lose weight pounds bad healthy amp trying recently became vegan ethical reasons started gym membership even though terrified people make fun something weeks reason feel hopeless think figured bullshit person around make contributions world world better without job dislike mainly spend freetime playing video games fucking around python stupid cinematography projects waste time probably rarely go w friends anymore close basically everything better around anymore maybe im lucky reincarnation thing come back beautiful wish anyone suffering tranquility life able attain excellent anime movie well animated good intricate plot good music understand may think little long think good length animation good traditional animebr br three charactersbr br way use tenkai masterly example body double showing locations adds ominous tone movie design tenkai good way looks monk end scene armour wearingbr br old man andou earth likable character jiro meets turning point moviebr br sanpei satsuma shinobi infiltrated tenkais clan saves jiros life twice stays background movie though really one heroes moviebr br plot plot good traditional without unoriginal historical time acted interesting meiji restoration treasure sought tenkai restore shogunate jiro finds uses help antishogunate forces overthrow shogunatebr br way tenkai tricks jiro interesting sort hamlet feel sweet irony fact tenkai gotten jiro become shinobi think able kill endmaybe firearm hand hand combat weaponsbr br plot death makes mostly dark theres light moments see jiros childhood memories good dark intricate plotbr br music opening theme example good electric guitar drums occasionally piece use believe taiko drums im surebr br lot good music one played traveling iga shinobi believe piece called numatou incredible flute flute might pan flute probably shakuhachibr br end theme kamui komoriuta calm delicate vocals beautiful song generalbr br animationbr br animation good perfect blood runs characters sometimes appear orange transitions interesting think transitions nice one example nice transition jiro iga shinobi running sunset background music playing transition simple effective nice feeling itbr br final words think plot animation music characters make one best anime movies seen want kill decided kill next week past two years depressed wanted kill havent life shit low self esteem scared go outside someone know might recognise hardly talk half words mumbles even understand voice quiet still hardly understand grades gone shit feeling even try assignment fail anyways parents care things brought lot things mum acted cared night went back nothing wrong dad couldnt care less never want anything busy work something ignore big brother drug addict parents pour attention blatantly treat higher knew everything decided take ski trip try discipline witch obviously didnt work wanted suit year ten formal say got decided wanted bed got day feel dont care trying sugar coat anymore meanwhile asked pc christmas pay give gifts year mum said yes expressed concern whether promised meanwhile two days new years still word make feel unwanted money problem dad got porsche last year getting another car soon parents always latest things meanwhile outdated budget things two people actually care little brother family cat ones somewhat care shows dont want kill dont want cat come favourite follows everywhere sad writing making realise pathetic life actually dont want fell name james phillips live sydney australia need help please feel content nowive struggling depression years now finally came conclusion theres point continuing talked therapist ultimately nothing thought seeing another one awhile decided know everything theyll tell already cant find single reason comes point feel nothing salvageable feel ive reached everyday essentially time see family friends whoever always conversations may well groundhog day ive enough every time reached someone whether friend family member went nowhere know want im honest care less theyd think dead im important anyone know people may saythink cant true say absolute confidence theres single person keep feel going woods finish business later best thing possible im care see people working hard live thats incredibly unappealing want feel slave take comfort im sparing years whatever pain lie ahead kind comforting tell someone theres need worry anything now real hornee hours rn wan na talk someone rn fr pleasantly surprised depth story character development fulci master creating horrific atmosphere using inventive camera work vivid cinematography yes wonderfully explicit gorebr br film exception compared later films beyond zombie city living dead house cemetery etc characters extremely well developed emphasis shies away supernatural suspense created classic whodunnit amongst lush hills italy scenery moments reminiscent cherished folklore immediately contrasted mud bloodsoaked terror shrouded crumbling ruins gore film quite prevalent seems restrained compared fulcis later films splatter giallo fans likely satiated closeups oozing wounds last minutes filmbr br overall fantastic mature film one great italian horror directors dream human euthanization legalit best dream even gon na lie tho extremely nervous put sleep dream went anyways lmfao want diei want die want die want die wantto die im itred tire dit reidt rjdskfjdsak want fucking die whywhats point ive nothing left ive one easier stop kill hate workingi want work family rich work avoid starvation really seem worth friend dying friend swears shes going kill mental state terrible constantly complains body even going way harm look prettier lives toxic household parents hate dad covid doesnt exist type dude mom tough love type self confidence issues yet lot pride wont see therapist thing though shes probably one best people know helps everyone nice everyone goes extra mile everyone doesnt think shell missed believes replaceable im scared tbh texting nights ago says may start cutting soon shes done drugs alcohol quickly put stop im wondering send screenshots conversations mother maybe shell forced help dont wan na force help dont know point hows everyone holding bruh ate whole thing black licorice gummy things half hour lol probably good oh well looking redflag literature readany one read books helped deal redflag obsession fiction non fiction slide dms chill talk whatever im hella bored little im sorry things dont betteri friend kept going high every aspect life tells things better started sound grating condescending child thats reason better hear live child see every weekend dont find reproduction reason living dont actually care selfish sound never happy memories childhood happy stretches time entire life went trauma abuse child huge slut early s places go ways escape thoughts didnt work got pregnant got married didnt work im divorced homeless months living car winter last year im back grandmothers cant crippling debt make shitty hour going thing ive lived long enough know never happy feel way desire sort career everything takes amount effort money study turns stomach makes want desire mother dont even know im going post im currently looking little electro shockers amazon ease ocd im finding sex toys literally know xd mean theyre cheap use know please help never felt emptymy best friend hospital said dont put knife jump window recovers hospital feel nothing nothing close eyes see sleeping grave never wakeing lost every hope cant imagine anything giving back feelings im tired empty dont know anymore feels im standing statue time flies years depression suicidal thoughts etc never felt week dont feel im alive anymore im human cut make sure im actually cutting barely felt hell earth im never crazy ideas feel im already dead feels right im dreaming searching answers discovering questionsim tired tired questioning every aspect life thinking answer lead kind breakthrough answers open questions confusing ive selfdestructive lately ive taken risks know take ive driving without usual caution drinking become common started smoking cigarettes fucking head think im freaking people ive open suicidal thoughts take well everyone always tells stop talking want want someone understand stop telling tell understand want listen make feel accepted freak cycling constant ups downs stability feeling control think entertain redflag way take control honestly think lot meaning believe fate destinyi believe ultimate plan caring overseer fault believe thingsbut ive tried ive dipped toes many different streams think im ready drown want hear acting coward reminded hurt everyone around think know think feel extremely selfish help ive tried discuss doctor therapist dangerously close getting sent hospital need coddled child told defective taken care people understand mental illness makes feel lonely want someone understandswell understands actually willing walk beside holding hand need pushing feel stuck guess kind sounds coddling know difference feel wasting time trying explain death tonight thinkbut constantly feel lingering waiting hug let im starting feel stupid want sound melodramaticill stop typing ill try chill think ill sit porch watch sun go even though friendship person messy still keep coming back life slightest thing sets offthe slightest annoyance bit bad news terrible still bad sets fucking weak mentally smallest things make wan na hide away looking new friendly faces hey im henry im looking folk willing try hand relatively small server mod team best keep everyone happy plenty kind caring residents gladly welcome may true server may active moment wed love good folks liven soft cozy atmosphere dm details invitations know whats happening anymorei means suffer life friends im somewhat attractive family loves everyone tells potential whatever want life minutes ago sat chair middle room knife throat sat minutes applying taking pressure thought want anymore want life even deserve im one sees terrible person ability spend months getting close girl totally love crush never mattered never anyway ive done least times started nerves anyway ive made mom cry times count sit straight face parents try tell feel care feel theyll soon enough enough though still knife rests bed know next time happens ill want stop applying pressure maybe make art blood die maybe someone help long time coming depression years old now turning november decided end th anniversary sure look back life see fleeting moments happiness followed long periods misery family might find going mention time come attempts help medication try coping strategies anymored today millionth time called work take pressure today millionth time turned guy online bc men see good time overall depression leads lack motivation keep losing jobs pathetic worthless lonely alone decided call right roommate away hoping last days good ones ready post something thats slightly controversial anyway join sub rformyfellowteenagers sometimes tie hair pretend im cute artsy boy fuck incredible im trans makes feel smth e next week think time leavei going say im near end rope ive lost rope years ago still going actually keeps well one method readily available quick method much kept tethered besides people dog ive lost almost enjoyment things loved im tired bone time andi see benefit frustrate piss people even closest friends deserve someone deserve someone better im pathetic cant anything right live fantasies time order cope oppressive thoughts many reasons want die needed come philosophical problems thoughts dm comment either way fine finally got courage meet crush got crushed several months talking flirting liked things wed often say things come ends stargaze rooftop listen peep night ect really crush especially grandmother passed well hit caffe work wan na come suprise hour away hits boyfriend best pull taken shot back guess needed vent ventis largest cup size starbucks thought grande cuz know grand size know sayfirst time reddit poster little background tried commit redflag twice beforehanging alcohol currently fluoxetine wanted run ideas guysgirls keep fighting every good day always alittle part brains wonders redflag start make sense one thing always stuck failed attempt biologically unable feel happiness fight hard feel something never met feel give secondly hard mean finally committing act brain basically feel happiness anymore still clings life strange reason always found interesting guys girl reddit repeats unfunny joke talks shit aint know depressed steals intellectual property virgin cant decide super edgy super sensitive puts effort anything owned thats girl thats rteenagers feel rejected playing minecraft friendcrush bunch people got angry people playing friend acted bit strange said lot stress wanted check maybe cheer little send dm worried shutting overybody think still angry though basically told wanted shut sounds selfish sorry feel rejected sad someone said yall give votes someone said dumfucks sub reddit gives votes fucked post said support comrades make feel worthy achieving something right used rasknyc looking gun sure respond ok xpost unsure people thing keeping alivei want die much parents bury child siblings look rely lose roommates wouldnt able afford house job replace devastated im really fucking struggling wrote note dayi dont think ill use thought alive next years unbearable idk much take venting one respond need tell someone dont want scare loved ones one call something one reddit understand post ironic high iq satirical humor adding s end ruins joke family know even sometimes pick prescriptions think taking giant stash lexapro welbutrin nowit really helping much better hate deserve happy worthless stupid ugly social skills always trouble making friends least high school maintain least group friends got college abandoned literally ghosting got graduated bs felt joy whatsoever everyone around happy graduating felt nothing actually hated even felt even stupid mean always expected anyway accomplishment something expected much pussy kill closer every day tried pastfuck idk tired everything wish never born taken medication months fuck fuck fuck friend tried kill self last night im scared took bunch pills throw thankfully shes ok fuckkk didnt want tell ideas said wasnt suicidal lied fuck say idk anymorei honestly cant life anymore love horses failing school friends best friends im scared getting shot still want kill one really understands feel always private person gon na talk help id think pretty optimistic series unfortunate events transpired life late lately feeling suffocating always tell always worse even say words loud first time want continue want anymore always worse cold heavy temple minutes nowive pump faked trigger coldness feels good sweaty head mother flip huh feel mocking want tears roll cheek jaw tenses leaving state blankness fucking room quiet im done im done now goodbye hope find peace someday aswell train arrives soon thoughts racing mind crazy make go mins cease exist ill gone irrelevant mins im feeling okay bye x chances surviving hang yourselfi might thinking day dont want suddenly survive brain damage something got kind worn rope tough enough pull car place ill hang made steel guess going break rope ceiling skinny ft tall guy chances fail protect shopping trolley improvised explosives lets paint picture grocery shopping local tesco yearold loon lobs grenade shopping trolley explodes groceries runs store escapes via tube station across street takes victoria line london st pancras railway station boards eurostar service parisnord france belongs hundreds dollars goods burning front image familiar course many people often suffer experience made fatal mistake shopping routine see answer obvious shopping trolley unarmoured target method defending invitation disaster today show modify shopping trolley successfully shop tesco express dangerous area south london lets begin upgrading armament begin mounting mm mhb browning heavy machine gun plus another antiaircraft purposes aerial attacks live birmingham install trophy active protection system countermeasure antitank guided missiles rocketpropelled grenades antitank rockets high explosive antitank rounds system uses selfforging warhead destroy oncoming threats preemptively detonating projectile shopping trolley thus longer vulnerable multitude threats may encounter thing shopping trolley effectively defend kinetic energy penetrators mount atgm launchers shopping trolley penetrate enemy enemy penetrates trolley may noticed additional weight modifications installed shopping trolley made impractical manual propulsion solve problem mounting litre cylinder twinturbocharged gasoline engine producing brake horsepower revolutions per minute five speed manual transmission thanks lightweight construction shopping trolleys achieve optimal powertoweight ratio gives shopping trolley extremely high acceleration top speed properties enables us make flanking manoeuvres around enemy sick outside overtakes turns test modifications placing improved shopping trolley situation fined unlicensed operation firearm possession automatic weapon simply without cohesionparticularly feeling severe anhedonia alogia wanting involve people anymore find pleasure existence decided end anything yet care happens find people talking draining hate sound voice head want wake morning anything motivate follow thoughts consistently demonstrable antipathy towards friends wish go away substitutiary locomotion treguna mekoides tracorum satis dee trip lsd parody la devotee another another oh oh another another oh oh another another owo another trip lsd hey guys watching seth meyers made joke longest pizza event research june th fontana speedway california mile pizza needs eaten count towards record free event thinking somewhat 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rmentalhealthhi reddit concerned life friend mine need know help needs despite order possibly prevent taking life going try stick facts know intertwine opinion s started showing signs illness early s diagnosed anxiety disorder bipolar disorder knows mental health issues state mind appears dictates willing accept mental health issues meaning one day may agree fully diagnoses another day say nothing wrong doctors wrong days cross two think issue one part symptoms sometimes events cross matter minutes instead days conversation say one help mental issues moments later claim mental health issues contradicting extreme paranoia causes hate distrust doctors jump doctors much possible especially tell things refuses believe paranoia slowly ruining relationships everyone loves loves ill discuss bit outright refuses take responsibility action deems negative distort reality justify beliefsviews due jumping around different doctors shes lots different kinds medications know ones know kept single cocktail medications months paranoia surrounding husband became extreme become abusive go old pictures ask women background relationships show work try meetings superiors regarding behavior female coworkers became physically abusive started hitting go rage local psychiatric hospital years now year visits increase year already times always hold hours release husband understood sick desperately tried seek help turning blind eye abuse one day work attacked one small children cps became involved told protect children taken away criminal case brought da protection order put place kids emergency custody provided husband moved parents husband choice start divorce proceedings afraid cps take children away requirement getting restraining order living parents raged twice year call police forcefully committed psychiatric ward mom trying seek help beyond specific incidents sabotaged every relationship cheated husband friends become paranoid accuse things illogical extreme blame everyone everything going wrong life done extent one left including care forced distance due behavior hold job sleeps day parents house one talk forcing state isolation husband friend still wants help due divorce put kids increasingly found situation wanting help odds protecting children told started increase discussions ending life started bring increasing rate even going far say believes death benefit people end time brings say really plan said mother issues enabling daughters situation seeking help recently another family member tried commit redflag know concept brought forefront mind husband literally know help feel true way assist require cooperation mother refuses accept severity issue really rather wait friend tries commit redflag help know sorry jumbled mess tried explain everything clearly possible timelines jump around somewhat thanks help edit formatting itd easy call guys dolls great got frank sinatra marlon brando contrary sinatras original wishes casting works got really cool s feel even basically transposed stage screen little interruption songs often lot fun catchy performed wink nod wonderful escapism inherent form entirely great others ilk fault filmmaker joseph l mankiewicz songs entirely click little dialog feels performed stage opposed film hard tell times brando sinatra straddle line often one watch carefully tell one plays camera stage actress playing adele better stage screenbr br plot one winners works well period even one wonders influence stretched likes s well quite close gambler year betrothed played sinatra wants host bigtime game told heat meaning cops watch one choice host game thousand dollar tab way bigtime bet fellow gambler brando whos put make wild wooing job mission worker allows predictable twists story sudden turnonturnoff charms character idiosyncrasies people streets gangsters dancers saitn played jean simmons falls brando basic concept whole world guys dolls balance one obviously without getting married compromisedbr br mankiewicz brings lot energy piece even keeping still camera subject stars properly reeled hell even brando works excellently musical goes beyond simply method actor shows chops singing bigstar quality story characters eventually wind hope happen thats fine ask entertainment good spurts witty involving dialog songs dances bring house favorites number ladycats club luck lady two numbers havana cuba radiofreccia movie us dreams friends obsessions addictions fears brilliant movie group friends us lives hardships growing small town one significant decades last century movie take happy sad approach things tells us story one us experienced one happiness excitement sadness grief power story grow love characters one movies watch feeling closer little town emilia romagna takes place hoping one day able finally walk streets next freccia friends listening music changed world crackling sound old radio playing radio raptus international playing dreams dreams radiofreccia make laugh make cry times shock comfort give take personally believe played important part life friends suggest watch let become part stop saying ketchup smoothie yes tomato fruit definition smoothie says thick smooth drink fresh fruit pured milk yogurt ice cream ketchup alright whats really important fact wrote second definition smoothie first one man smooth suave manner today badit fathers day big trigger im feeling really suicidal dad mentally abusive wish capable happiness anything besides unbearable suffering dont know everyone better without bothering want end itmy life nothing disaster arrested falsely accused cant guess try still ptsd although depression panic attacks currently obese failing religion god hates irreligious thats alright debt unrecoverable id live monk years spend dime pay probably ampxb think time call quits know im black lives stop mattering idk according reddit orange lives matter im sure support likely dead new yearssooo im sick trying existence depressed almost years struggling anxiety social phobia least years last year great healthy person finally got boyfriend lot activities people consider fun nothing sad life mood kind ok mostly apathy went really downhill autumn tried jump building block least times enough fucking balls got locked mental hospital weeks suicidal thoughts much handle got prescribed new antidepressants work last weeks started find interacting people cringe hard tired instead partying year im going lot alcohol hopefully drugs go bench far away fuckers fun living happy life blast music hopefully fucked courage jump fucking ugly ass building want keep fighting waiting better people telling gets better trust living fighting lying ground beating raping bottle ing survive make follow hope dont turn today thats hope everyone good day promise im okayhey fellas first bit ive around little bit know nice supportive guys makes really feel give shit us second bit today bad im hurt confused scared angry exhausted everyone knows thats im truly sorry cant stop drinking cant stop crying cant stop hurtful everyone meet cause im exposed nerve makes bad people hurt pains know many wonderful understanding people sub know im one matter try expected deserve lot might even ok third taught every day life education solution everything believed college thing even graduated horror everyone ive met didnt matter got worse suspect always will now ive got lot cute anecdotes rattle begrudging friends decide im annoying batshit keep around love facade friendship dont know kill wont better live ill worse thanks even giving moment undoubtably busy day thats folks us huh anyone wan na sleep hours maybe sleep hours tired sleep hours im still gon na tired day sleeping hours sounds peaceful fun loved show remember loving anything starting americanization emily town sheriff keeps trying steal town blind ride mexico got ta love everything tongue cheek flavor brands garner product james plays character lots shows movies somehow never gets stalebr br ps re killing main characterbr br remember right good brother killed replaced evil twin effort increase ratings ie make every western tv time think show far ahead time still miss tv without jimmy g show missing something im going iti enough money right go heroin shoot whole bag im gon na wait til come cash im going going prison court morning one case atleast seperate charges im going hit soon probably adding years wife filed divorce weeks ago living moms trying lose hope kids age trying stay sober positive cant anymore im done tried hang myselfi need somebody tell felt dream id decided came close climbed stool unstable beneath started pulling scarf id tied neck though something changed woke took uncomfortableness throat feeling crushed something cant even describe realized dont want die want exist still feel ghost around neck hours later im going okay hope years baby finnaly two years reddit first sub ive joined thank guys love quick question delete minutes summarize dip dance move im writing story main character partners dip dance move idk write nicole turned torso towards ground nicole bent waist towards ground idk idea pls help survey tinder usage advertising class survey year olds sorry minors thoughts tinder even youve never used tinder still take survey advertising class help appreciated hehe chuckles today eat brown part banan dies sad broken toe sad multiple things wont honestly dont know productive anymore closed door toe painkillers bandage toe hate life point felt good day gone nowfeel trapped cant go dont want anyone feel dad lyle sister even mom grandma maybe even brother think hed pretty sad hed live hed experience life dont know trust dad go hes one im especially worried sometimes feel im pillar rests upon relies upon even mom live life eventually never forget pain struggles mental health im sure wouldnt help go putting thing im trying escape go see way born fucked life made always told young old enough learn afraid changed path late alone everybody love dating going parties gatherings togethers people age making inside jokes witty banter travelling squad people care people reliable towards likes least people reach alone think people experiences life source im anorexic im scared people carbs crave every inch alone killing literally breaking rashes mentally tatters tears burnt skin eyes stings cant feel alone anymore cant keep people converse trust converse homeless men schizophernia criminals got jail days ago meet wandering streets mean still always love care people want need people love need busy every single hour day laughing sharing feeling safe feeling im one group one outside feel im valued society part society im hiding fringes outskirts shadows dont know always told wasnt good enough became true tiredi tired tired feeling miserable time tired failing everything tired feeling lonely tired procrastinating tired crying tired living thought redflag last year know enjoy many parts life hate lot others im want die responsibilites live normal life pathetic spent summer playing games online think school instantly become depressed need s struggle even s tell family change next year end procrastinating studying want end good job working parents want go university think skipped studying drivers license years know really want talk someone embarrassed ask parents think adhd embarrassed ask parents speaking psychiatrist dont know please help weird thing capitalize every word sentence eat ice fighting imaginary villain holding breath certain momenttime going room reason turning thing btw tell someone want end lifeconstant suicidal thoughts getting someone close knows ive made plan long time ago one knows brain assaults suicidal thoughts every hour upon every day put burden another person tell someone without changing way look bottle times honest dont talk much lost best ill getso im ugly af somehow ended guy super freaking hot anyway eyes one attractive though manliness time sensitive super good people proud tell people mine goofy strangers lot fun love three months im still broken perfect yes flawed saw flaws loved spite flaws made happier anyone god want back hes arms girl loves wants marry used tell things want die yeah im shallow af im scrolling bumble match guys find attractive guys match meh thats know sound superficial shallow right now sound horrible person care looks much want feel im downgrading guys attractive ex obviously looks thing hed personality meshes mine want feel click guy end better ex im always going compare im always going think lost god want back badly miss loved done anything keep want die apparent im ugly lost fuck yeah maybe theres life happier ive relapsed shhi guys usually reading subbut feel sharing today soi cut lifei cut clean monthsbuti relapsed todayjust came bathroomand cut dullestrustiestrazor everit hurt hellbut felt greatthe worst part isi dont really reasonthings getting better latelybut empty feeling really go awayit gets worsethe better things look maybe know normal anymore rare find film provides plot cant figured every turn surprises throughout delighting throughoutbr br couple things quite understand though lead female character plays good girl hard worker yet end ends antisocial risk taker enough make though give pausebr br thing old man hauled away police end film never issues anyone ideas id hear might bebr br film exciting fun throughout always left guessing much worth seeing shell alivei struggling stay alive even writing exhausting feel numb emotional agony time emptiness inside nothing seems fill look people feel apart going motions life im really dead thing goes around head thought terminating life shell really plan worked warned people closest tried times know need sought medical attention doctor referring psychiatrist waiting list another service ive years intensive therapy breakdown diagnosed borderline personality disorder well treatment made significant difference mental health realised traumatic childhood significantly damaged life ok husband loves much year old daughter strong network support people really care matter say feel unworthy anyones love respect long time viewed disgusting blob human flesh burden society cant work days getting washing done major achievement sleep least hours day find difficult function sometimes apparently sleep way disassociating world cant face life anymore cut social circle people avoid friends completely shut thing forcing stay alive daughter suffered separation anxiety saw police paramedics escort away breakdown adhd goes counselling told counsellor often checks pulse asleep main concern might die god child know tried many things want destroy know supposed better control brain think one day soon may take life deliberately means away agonising emotional pain cant leave specific three people leave gives several decades good enoughwhen kid older sister died suddenly unexpected really messed parents years still hurt always will began feeling suicidal years prior social trauma familial disconnect caused perceived actual cant trust see clearly favouritism caused develop formative years understanding less value useful good backup plan one better available last resort friend child didnt measure expectation first favourite child set ive always felt despite fact dont believe powers universe gods etc universe messed took wrong sister smart beautiful many people loved passion life desire make future bright happy im definitely smart grades proved kid exceedingly average bit told people ive known werent blood related obligated say nice things one friend lives side country chat maybe every three months dont enjoy alive part despite efforts tried making friends university travelled world years nothing makes feel anything handful days honesty dont care trying change anymore tried changing many years constant failure made miserable put much failure things end feeling much worse im actually happier calm likely stay im trying change instead better prepared continue living long know redflag available backup plan didnt try kill prior sister death first began experiencing desire really bad three years scared family punished way due chosen methods didnt want dad charged negligence something held responsible death decided steal one rifles didnt want feel fault stole medication didnt want mom blame stole razors decided wait find better way minimize impact others sister died dont blame yet part furious stole freedom die responsible surviving parents least one kid everything fine lived successful gotten married given grandkids id held loving memory rest im trapped cant allow parents suffer alone survive sense duty alone grow old lived best lives possible pass away finally free pretend happy pretend feel fulfilled pretend care pretend plan bright future dont actually want want believe lives good good job happy time earth time go hate time investment thats going take two three anchors things keeping drifting away go go long never let know happen happy done good job third anchor boyfriend hes everything love much makes feel loved worthy wont let know plans either though cant staying fear way responsible death leaves relationship wants one feels obligated stay guilt fear dont want manipulator says leave kill wont dont think together forever even though want hes one thing makes actually curious life future makes want stick around find thats much responsibility one person cant let know though thats heavy burden bear refuse put probably wont together forever career prospects job money hate never want children future offer someday realize leave im peace want world aside freedom escape happy means someone want im kind waiting happen im going enjoy lasts allow feel joy life first time vacation reality whenever lose put brave face support im done trying wont open meeting anyone happily dont need want anyone mom dad briefly im going kill today tomorrow either next day next week next year barring significant tragedy wont decades yet wish knew want instead feeling prison sentence cant therapy nothing antidepressants nothing positive life experiences nothing hope good enough depending parents health means might even make depresses honestly thats duty bear wish want live im tired want sleep cant live done thisok trying make brief possible mental breakdown around january last year went extremely heavy skinny smoker ate garbage gym rat eating eating eating calories healthiest food per day becoming strong healthy always hitting gym filled regrets contrast huge feel im die fucking angry feel biggest failure mean smokes neglects health losers selfesteem zero suicidal thoughts extremely depressed contact ex talk look years older im start wrong foot extremely negative texts calling life pointless bullshit fucking toxic behavior gets angry feel explain constantly says something want reply blocks keep making new accounts one time says change bit went backwards make new account one last time reply change explodes writes message hurt much possible says never reply says shit youll never learn live life saying situation pure poison brain black white becomes engrained brain everything went wrong started negative texts tried save continuing make new accounts ex wanted leave alone ex unempethatic fuck makes want explain even ending horribly cruel last message keeps repeating head every single minute day im frustrated sad said completely ruins mental health makes feel hopeless know full story thing made feel proud ive turned life around feels completely vain last message cant cope constantly write messages delete write everyday explaining apologizing telling know bad never replies months shit gets rid instagram wrote last extremely personal email work left company got forwarded coworkers holy shit conclusion ive turned stalker kill cant live embarrassment shame something heat moment kept contacting day day pattern im fucked person f dm min convo challenge gt basically min convo challenge normal conversations start teenagers dms except time speedrun timespan minutes live miserable lifeive wanted kill years always talked though maybe things better decade things gotten worse nothing good life purpose direction live theres nothing look forward misery pain whats point ive got nothing live attempt ive made make life better bearable failed im broken failure go decades pain end tonight arguments dont worktheres one miss things wont better dont value im alive think truly happy day ill life day die ill know wont hurt anymore youare alright drinking enough water lizard facts gf day chameleon facts gone away gon na lizard facts tokay gecko live around ten years report accounts title says seen pics ad bottom type stream recording service accounts posted type pics bots see name way report profile bot agaist rules ad marked ads subliminal advertising say ad wrong well wrong know im cowardbecause cant take leap im standing edge cant im scared anything around im grateful everyone im shitty human im leech drain everything want something someone competent someone better whoever try might success seems reach though ive accomplished nothing well truth plus side right anywhere help expensive every day gets harder harder even trust anymore feel useless wish something anything feel useless hardest part friends know come advice people even look know im worried look want say know itll make sad know put yet ready jump cant keep asking pick speeches help getting shit together many cant even admit im sad broken shell human want want die want live guess want say someone shit really really hard life really really hard im shitty human think really shitty possibly even make good martyr anything maybe go kind hunger strike something cause notbut theres nothing either care anything enough please understand love everyone thats fucking hard many ways know struggling know problems know mine worst know means im weak know means im worthless anyway thats piece im gon na stand bit longer ill either take long way short way im leaning toward short way honestly either way ill see see sherlock holmes basil rathbone begins story disguise helping smuggle famous physicist dr franz tobel william post switzeralnad watchful eye nazis want bomb sight plans allies obviously want sherlock help dr tobel invented instrument greatly aids accuracy aerial bombardment br br holmes dr tobel arrive safely back baker street scientist rather alone mysterious reason although promised english help germans stays true promise desperate moments holmes english along waybr br entertaining film one famous detective uses one three different disguises needs help goes archrival professor moriarity one complaint moriarity evil dispensed holmes without batting eyelash instead giving openings escape pretty sad usual dimwitted dr watson nigel bruce rescue boss certain death couple timesbr br yes credibility issues story put brain hold times fun film watchand looks beautiful thanks great restoration job done dvd makes old print come alive wonderful visuals particularly nighttime shotsbr br one note whoever english subtitles misspelled misinterpreted least half dozen words sloppy work first time ive encountered watching entire series restored dvd set accepted semester summer school enough self discipline online shit especially dumbass school decided theyre going keep online january bruh moment considering school failing exactly title says supposed strong one talk family thoughts talk friends talk women life supposed strong one talk someone ultimatum thoughts imply bring pay therapist listen sister tried kill called help mother needs protection psychotic brother call needs saving calls friends need serious advice turn last turned best friend ghosted fell back role vut still lmao women life think mysterious macho tough guy second reveal vulnerability pull back see disgust pity faces hurts nothing suicide hurt lessi strong one others ruining image honour seeking help never seppuku lived society viewed terms instead weakness done long time ago supposed strong one asian girls cute idk maybe thier eyes yet hands n feet small sucks bruh hate small hands feet need help recently mental brakedown cant look think schoolwork without crying need help fall mor behind schoolwork already pealse help know copemy car broken way psychiatrist needed appointment needed rang shaking explained happened receptionist nice asked anyway reschedule seen later today somehow next appointment next week said unfortunately availability know im going genuinely survive till loneliness worstim alone lonely recently lost person life left immediately forgotten meant deserved insults got understand must feel someone blame im really sorry ruin someones life issues instability strangely enough want kill want coma forget everyone everything want restart everything forget happened give amnesia coma forget everything restart thank reading exhausted helplessim living dads old house empty earthquake damaged zone shouldnt moved mother kicked toxic verbally abused told kill worthless million times week ago tried kill ex boyfriend lives overseas managed call interpol told parents knows live dismissed hospital took parents place kicked basically told couldnt stay im trouble day abused verbally happy leave came three times one say much disgusting useless human whole family ashamed second one evictions order leave house two weeks risk zone third now literally destroy words said worse things die useless able anything life ex right leave behind im worth peoples time make everyone around sick suffocate people make leave feel im bad person listening mum say know depression suicidal thoughts awful toxic around one thing attached cant control cured living environment lonely medications arent working never work alone without support im sobbing tears hands shaking im joke failure wish one good reason kill want happy loved late everyone loves leaving slowly killing anyway better kill self first im tired suffering ive reached end long line mistakes nowhere goi moved new city go college kicking ass think choice school mistake far away anyone know hard im naturally shy really tend make friends easily conjunction covid situation kept talking single sole ive sit dorm day working shit matter classes care im paying way much one cares im completely alone hard find way keep going self harming worse feel confidence finally end life looking hope reason guess warning something ive encountered got followed person im thinking bot thing posted naughty website thats nothing hand never met never seen brand new account made october pm oct raised flag want tell click link brand new account block leave words encounter person httpsimgurcomgalleryonmiix mom basically called fggot shaved armpits day likes armpit hair real primarily aesthetics cleaner mom noticed went really fucking long lecturerant male shave pits said something along lines girls fggots shave armpits smh wanted cleaner got lecture instead obsessed say something somebody help please im dead project due tomorrow nothing done far redflag note coming recomending song bored forget day httpslinktospotifycomrpwfqpscibb almost forgot today lol thought ive listened band repeat today recomend whats opinion feel socially romantically validated end year im going either jump thfloor apartment window stab death hang overdose sleeping pillsenough enough ive tried fitting year old aspergers years ive anxious good enough fitting friends popular finding girlfriend destroyed sense selfworth identity became persona hate never wish grow back ive recently started discover even sucess attending normal elementary school somewhat functioning kids made people validate fitting normal kids based still base value person want confident want sucessful anxious time wan na go parties nonsocial outcasts drunk girl find hot attractive sweet caring girlfiriend loves finds funny one nice make laugh take places fall asleep couch watching movies together im unatheletic short country im average height guys highpitched voice plain somewhat ugly face girl said looked hot ive never gf wan na normal tell wait someone comes along years way im sticking around long fuck ive suffered enough im gon na go ardeous selfimprovement shit id rather die goal life take suicidal friends position hope people us ive lived long enough parents peoples hopes expectations thinking committing redflag live brazil years ago broke teeth life money dentist neither leave house leave house makes lonely reach help already suicidal thoughts deep sadness agonizing nights lately fought best friend longer wants pay attention respond instagram thinking committing redflag still idea good method want send message friend saying commit redflag talk blackmail probably cut wrists send message saying already thought cutting wrists maybe bleed better know thought choking clothes probably distressing want face god death sent hell really want die wanted love affection people online really know count friendship want commit redflag directly already suicidal desire talking anymore taken away comfort intensified suicidal desire know go try read study bible lately even able read amazing dayof literaly nothing still exhausted simply existance kill finally im stupid stupid stupidim incompetent stupid lazy brothers biggie used close fucked higher ed third chance play sports sociable lil bro epileptic currently private school hes best hope idiot somewhen childhood stopped sociable still shy different id mumble soon schools id lock indoor nothing stopped studying theres guest id run room hide habits die highschool decided want live town still started studying though think ive completely stopped studying outside classroom stayed enroll school dad teaches woulda saved lot money waste lot less time regret everything enroll night class program second grade college useless degree matter ive learnt nothing anyway ive burden whole life theres way survive stop burden end soon beginning excited see movie poster possibly funniest ive seen movie immediately bought one dorm septemberbr br every element came together movie beautifully often see movie many penis gay racial jokes praised critics carell rest cast deliver raunchy joke sensationally carell remains sweet throughout entire movie end movie rooting succeed relationship laid supporting cast brutal problems ladies themselvesbr br one things movie abundance memorable scenes given makes movie easy remember fondly movie often brought words chest waxing condoms mentioned conversationbr br watching theater surprised many older people watch saw group four mids women come despite older audience movie still filled entire theater laughterbr br think type people fans office steve carell lot jokes remind type jokes see family guy movie shallow enough adolescent boys still sweet clever enough middle aged womenbr br recommend going movie fan profanity easily offended movie remember movie good humor jokes gay jokes theyre jokes theyre funny anyone tory anyone support british conservative party coping coworkershow politely tell coworkers leave fuck alone youre slight push away slashing wrists without causing scene getting pushed edge certain things cant cope thinking today coworkers dont know thing personally persistently pushing mind road needs avoid got home im trying avoid trashing apartment hurting im sure doi cant talk friends family anymore nothing say tell truly want die exist anymore true reasoning life isnt complete mess anything ok job good relationship good friends feel every time go rails everything fucked dont want anymore guess way yelling void telling people dont know really feel im end rope cant anymore dont know fuck wish wouldve fully gone though one past times tried im scared im lost nothing working medication nothing feels finally time end anybody feeling accomplishment finishing projects homework anymore everything went damn im pretty proud wow im exhausted ill sleep now addiction years old years later still relapse addiction makes life unbearable tried therapy help people talk want die know longer live shit go people always say gets better ive waiting almost years gotten worse cant even kill yet live alone hell know im scarred life accidentally found christian parents stash condoms right next bible might move im tiredi battling anxiety according one former therapists ptsd life abused physically emotionally folks summer finally decided cut life father denied physically abusing told made told threatened kill young girl became hysterical told head okay believe guess parents think overly active imagination outted closet many years ago living indiana pennsylvania without letting know drove home mine burst apartment screaming crying took room entire day continued scream asking god life lost professor pancreatic cancer several years ago real father figure life passed away ive traveling undertaking job job bad experience overworking overseas minority lost job due racist situation okay believe many people life present time see situation eyes told making worth new professor time believed told saw many similar things happen worked overseas occupation sexually assaulted another job okay believe handful people mostly women oddly enough either insinuated fault knowing guy sleazy totally invalidate experience altogether ton people saying guy reported good guy happens going hard time currently working toxic environment consistently intimidated tenure evaluation advocates higher places empathize situation nobody seems power really anything maybe really want help one guy particular intimidating started job last year nobody seems want see outbursts point someone angry instead praise guy earned top position young age okay believe among coworkers one seemed wanted closer hoping help look another job worked many different places landing current position honest looking another job right now feeling stressed field extremely competitive feel using encourage receive none return brought issue racism working overseas completely invalidated experience insinuated making brought issue assault workplace assaulter mutual colleague invalidated said known better expect someone strongly believes meritocracy brought bubble entire life went undergrad together guess lonely overlooked fact sheltered person fault still hurts even time energy spend helping contemptuous attitude around work several days later comes help going job interview several days yesterday wished good luck encouraged received words return even though job interview coming done care political affiliations trying make political statement watching dr ford kavanaugh hearings brought many feelings memories assault one colleagues work told rape catalyst selfgrowth think meant purely bad way choice words sent negative spiral president company talked length men industry ousted positions proof allegations sexual assault said terrible pr terrible men involved made feel bad working current company knowing well might cover situations save pr blocked father phone leaves messages time anxiety seeing messages tried therapist several work people recommended sees people workplace free laughed several times told family especially story outting told call father seem care told scared felt left session feeling extremely devastated partner says feels frustrated relationship says want burden problems life holds feels upset talk problems lot feel blamed despite telling many times share experiences getting point feel inner rage words want burden lives way australia live canada massive time difference distance help anything feel wants take break never express spent eight years previous relationship feel happy happening much stress upcoming job interview one sincere little going great meant world partner says feels know encourage parents never encouraged wish coworker encouraged much say words wish parents said words instead always saying god going take care chest pains past week heaviness makes pulse rush makes hard breathe crying every day thinking redflag lot used think never thing never want put partner pain im sure really care thing keeping alive younger brother talked long time know parents give hell anything little things might sound silly might agree many points thats fine feel heaviness unfairness world us step climb top power corrodes empathy migrant workers pick produce low pay abused employers sweat shops make clothes animals suffer food took land indigenous peoples dishonored every treaty made systemic violence still happens marginalized people homelessness still problem modern society sometimes tired human tired seeing mistakes cycle even tired activism sometimes even activism feel tone deaf sometimes need time process feeling sadness powerlessness activism constantly screams pick use energy keep fighting makes feel even tired cant share feelings partner says makes feel bad going see new therapist next week ill read everything ive written sometimes things feel excruciatingly painful wonder last long im wondering whats point make difference never existed sleep night theres much suffering world lisa simpson ampxb poll buy replacement waterbed heater buy foam bed title suggests heater waterbed broke im laying top covers last nights need communities opinion ive waterbed years either replace heater twin size mattress future foam fill space bag used go think last post gun handi cant anymore believe nothing change shit cancer gets hold done ill admit fault im gon na point fingers someone decided gon na end life december love christmas time god damn cant wait anymore im drinking got left smoking got left listening whatever liked check time seriously wish everyone luck god awful torment face everyday maybe something change life us yeah goodbye everyone friend uinfntymagics sisters birthday today everyone wish sister happy birthday comments tag well never stressedd im literally shaking im fucking stressed dealing bad math physics grades math fucking sucks dealing college appliucaton deadlines fafsa nonsenses many applications senior high school stressful love wrong personim love best friend friend doesnt feel know cares lot know gone life progressed much im fucking low life failing school helped many hard times motivated piece shit cant anything know guy slightly better came picture shoved aside think back time super drunk scared life let guy take advantage almost went room feel physical pain thinking dont know idk care fucking much someone forget quick im literally dragging doesnt see everyone tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real whenever see yall think southern idk ingrained yall south wish id itfor every day passes wish die gets intense magic insta kill pill now im sure id say guts im afraid regret anything drastic thats constantly wish ill die suddenly unexpected control id contempt every time go sleep hope wake passing away dreaming dream life great make problems go away everyone knows life simple want die want face problems life going nowhere im bad person every waking moment im distracting reddit video games wishing dead hate much wish never existed want live life anymore fucking terrible im sorry family know much longer ill keep putting eventually hope ill absolutely enough cant distract longer want bad therapy help im extremely suicidal years now plan set wouldve went family came home early felt real piece shit almost ive come realization abusive parents probably care mean negative really dont ive dating girl already year honestly say im love promised became threat finally tell parents deep seeded issues pursue therapy texted dad little bit ago short text basically seeing need help wan na go already regret wanted know helped anyone im really hoping cause love happy im soo horny title tells enough kinda want horny seems quick fixes depression struggle good side struggle now realized long road worth even though go read peoples stories read books deal struggle seems person write book hole read much material listened many podcasts youtube videos taken meds gone counseling still write booki experiments see worked wrote worked went difficult times got unfinished book read tried solutions book came ones worked particular day start writing book today find recovery slow road back wow forgot great movie stumbled upon looking garage kind strange combination bio michael jackson collection musical vignettes story super hero fighting save little kids vignettes good especially speed demon best part movie super hero segment michael jackson turns car robot finally spaceship weird sounds joe pesci hilarious enough cool imagery great music entertain throughoutbr br real gem incredible smooth criminal video makes movie worth owning part alone im going leave yet another bagel go sleep oh boy sure hope nothing wacky uncharacteristic happens bagel sleep atone sinsi hate every every every single fucking human earth made way fucking fault fuck assholes im dating crush now kidding im lonely cute crime id jail committed vehicular manslaughter film greatest ninja film made opinion seen worth watching rate film want see check httpukgeocitiescomninjathedomination opening sequence evil ninja killing everyone way excellent character best possesses ayoung woman finds dying take revenge cops killed means theres killing action ninja destroy ninja boyfriend one targets enlist help yamadsho kosugi release evil ninjas spirit destroy scarred life please save yourselfdont make mistake made go reyeblech kind rough little animation meme made final project uhhhhh yeah throw together within two days hell worth link sample text im brokenthe love life committed redflag days ago cant bear hurt longer pain stop even recognize anymore think ending life often want darkness go away left note bedroom ive got rope im going see soon comment random fun facts genes code six fingers dominant genes code five fingers human hearts look kidney beans reality hearts drawn way weird dislike year im gon na abs im gon na workout least every day drink least gallon water per day know already working regularly drinking water lot really planningscheduling gon na awesome helpive failed redflag attempts past two months mostly slitting wrist two overdoses didnt work im still cutting constantly parents love used well school im failing classes bunch friends yet still always feel alone hate almost everybody know everyone trust betrayed people lie much hurts constant pain heartbreak used somebody able make friends happy someone seemed little crazy smart ive somebody ruins mood im always sad depressed make everybody feel worse even though many people want help still fucking hate hate much life every second feels painful want kill much unbearable cant fixed cant helped nothing makes consistently happy anymore besides best friend cant school work anymore cant focus class appetite fucked matter want die im still seeing therapist ive psychiatric unit depression cant take anymore feel hollow inside personality always switches seemingly nowhere dont even know anymore dont know muchwell know start im certainly done keeping head seal job involves making people miserable young started back felt fun felt adrenaline rush now opposite way every day life feels stolen good man luck feeling especially strong new years people kind im stillme fiancee asleep next room im writing ive mean people tonightyesterday europe ive mean left party felt much tried hurt usual cut dangerous couple years militaryrecon training know make people die tried hurt stopped late felt fiancee still needs cant leave way took neccesary preacutions friends coming minutes watch still longer feel manly man mc man always pretend im certainly okay sothere probably people need urgent help still feel better posting know took minute read try understand good person need someone hear cant say close ones thanks reddit happy new year technoblade quotes compliment steal many presents orphans possible please help find old nostalgic comic website story begins back th grade played henry stickmin games pegi first time watched lot alan becker animations youtube got really inspired started drawing stick figure comics notebook paper entire school year obsessively got big ten people comic club made website google sites time old google sites called club tophat clan copyrighted somewhere lol made huge map different factions hqs whitehat clan enemies afro clan etc cheesy cringey looking back nostalgic going binder old comics remembered end year gave comics away various people class souvenirs whatever kinda regret remembered take pictures post google site official tophat clan website searching back day brought website first result year old thought epic pegi still relatively small theyd made airship game series tried searching various phrases try find google luck may even deleted website point hope stupid enough people reddit help find website know see old google sites template charcoal think please comment dm sort lead url info thus far tldr made using old google sites used sitesgooglecomsite format called official tophat clan website may taken copyright sure small thank help first tell art film documentary day unique movie taste experience perhaps revelation film human quest destroy everything exists including life earth lead clueless cold us wants rich laugh travel eat entertained moves one place another giant rv without direction motive pass time entertain end late first viewing usa grown custom fit dream life earth nothing weird experience artist buddhist film communicated senses ideal embodiment impermanence may sound strange somehow film able touch profound way recommend want die badly im scared ill survive family see mei want leave die ill go somewhere better wont remember thing wont know family go im fucked head deserve die fucked shit never tell family want commit redflag badly urges time jump balcony im sick liar im attention whore want die even life much mor fortunate everyone elses im bored staying im fed everything want leave badly want sure die cant fucking hate deserve die shit ive done control want stop sick things tried hard canti give im fucked fucking kill please kill suicidal ideations bring great comfortthe perfect night getting bed imagining ways kill great detail start end thought feel connected outside ocd tendencies consider treat fantasize death hours im family gathering feel overwhelmed small amount people house lol feeling less people usual lmao someone wan na chat past days friends weirdly pushed aside need social contact dm leave comment massively appreciated guess cry help dont know maybe chat hobbys love horses warhammer lotr jurassic drawing reading twilight gordon ramsay food working suicidalim sure belongs know go advice needs rules ill delete post suffer anxiety ive going therapist help much lately want live anymore want kill want exist anymore feel much better im asleep conscious almost everyday thought happen killed crosses mind probably family bf sad hand find looking dose pills deadly human know something pass talk someone want look im trying attention people pity want bother anyone things better things worry least put effort selfies jk whatever want ngl selfies justidk least courage post face never end roadive never posted reddit frank girlfriend suggested end road clue im supposed ive robles depression years now recent times think ending everyday least visualize slicing open arm depth blood gushing always live developing country social security really kind support system place pretty much anything heavily debt even strength find much recently gave interviews even managed job cant take hoping job help debts help back feet im broke right checking account negative walk back interview sleep hungry money top im meant support brother barely give enough feed let alone give enough attend college im fucking life fucked mine mom stays another country apartment shed sell currently resided mother sisterinlaw sil absolutely horrible leave mentioned lot support systems courts backlogged whole family financial rut mum cant come fight legal battle possession house shed sell financial support im made poa supposed fight case im supposed pay lawyers know im scared mums sil known crooked friends something disrupt court proceedings top calls creditors every single day laws governing hella abusive threatening soon theyll making visits house even manage job fighting case court im far behind payments creditors making visits workplace job really boundaries laws governing leads termination kiss getting another job goodbye thought filing bankruptcy breathing room even thatd require hiring lawyer afford trips court girlfriend helped financially much still helps meals every even used car go interviews move another city legal case im scared leaving behind one person support sometimes feel deserves much better brain convinces pulling away pushing away trying help really know right cant take creditors listening poorly mum treated mother grandmum told bitch deserves lie dirt broke broke even think im frame mind id able work even got job even know im looking maybe need vent girlfriend suggested good medium guys caught light turning closed fridge reviewer already commented made tv comedy amongst best football parodies buthaving failed video first aired find around format ok polled votes date average seem suggest something special basically suppose case tough luck missed cos longer available view aaaaaaaargh horribly abused child never got help yesterday blew mom said true things know hurt wish hereim struggling cptsd chronic illness alcoholism feel nothing better im massive disney fan year old son starting weve built quite collection one favourites first saw couple weeks ago must see half dozen times ok others pointed complex inventive plots theres film thatbr br great characters phil harris stealing show thomas omalley edgar butler far behind music superb disabled son always insists lift dance everybody wants cat says thomas omalley enjoyablebr br im sure people downer film dislike cats yes take cues dalmations maybe lady tramp long time ive seen im going compare dalmations better ways aristocats far enjoyable films br br apart peter pan now film favourite disney film yearold son loves grumpy year old dad loves cant ask much family filmbr br superb painless methods richas turns id iti think period time reason killed fear pain involved im australian gun ownership easy time id process getting license gun use feelings passed day thought bearably painful way die easy organise two bits hardwood timber around neck held together cclamp turn head tighten clamp compress carotid arteries jawline even fucking windpipe painful part hanging without neckbreak basically seconds discomfort probably maximum seconds relative pain gone forever now im saying im going even want right now problem im cerebral type know much suffer die alot scarier rough idea feels commitment need emotionally got lot lower time low need got lot higher need someone talk right nowi cant afford miserable yet front people know want talk little bit chat sadness addicting nature misery stop disregarding stop suicidal hate much birthday today turned im tired month ago tried kill didnt want let live another year happy birthday lol ive thinking everyday couldnt bring really wish come point really dont know want anymore feel ill let go soon everything seems fucking pointless ive made peace im watching die hard first time lets hope good ppl say anybody good discord server join got recently wondering sucks chens dnc diced djd ja envidan dndjdjd sjdjkdkse cine djfjnd djd sola j jens j jen zjjcnd kind xjdnsnskxkle cd nebskald describe color without saying name cant imagine new one without using names colors im writing anyways happy 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kept hanging see manipulative kid never punched nothing stop guy wanted fit guess remember girl pretty heavy age school girls problems mostly really problematic always wanted fight never actively bullied maybe passively telling girls stop idk feel pretty bad lot things remembered today although details maybe wrong mind plays games sometimes memory gets fuzzy times created memories nowhere guess deserve gamers need help celeste stardew vally spoilers please cant muster strength go class anymore anything reallyim tired college im tired life gotten bed three days already missed classes doctor appointment im going back june health insurance country sucks want continue living already tried kill twice past guess enough cant even use sleep escape anymore either oversleep wake feeling id rather dead cant sleep days swear im going kill fail semester finishing college basically thing keeping back redflag ironically hate lectures attending makes feel worse even point going thoughts loli hentai lmao loli hentai kinda claps doe ampxb idk need filler uh yeah lolis pretty reddit elon musk confession im asian indian im bad maths anyone chat numbers game truth dare anything really im bored lonely lmao itjune th year tried kill took mg pills prozac hours later took mg pills sum mg iirc id read online kill low mg work pulse completely normal hospital monitored stayed normal went wrong built tolerance prozac id january gradually increasing dosages carbonated waters took somehow screw things sleep taking sleep order work tired hours taking first set read online something said dose kill cause severe liver damage became scared dose might work might bad liver damage want thats told people phoned ambulance hours later thought kill work wrong conditions made fail help wanted keep living got help eventually think id die prefer living without kidney damage living kidney damage im convinced research died theoretically im curious along fernando fragata joo mrio grilo abi feij leonel vieira tcother commercial directors diamantino costa one best portuguese directors o lampio da estrela diamantino costa first movie made several successful commercials title starred one best portuguese comedians times herman jos jos pedro gomes great funny movie br br boa sorte diamantino anyone want talk idk thought bored imma talk till sleep first second third fourth fourth sixth seventh eighth ninth tenth whore yall peril hormones hate much actual fuck feelings three different people happen girls waaaaay league literally supposed black orchidthis song exactly feel day day basis word true fucking beautiful ampxb lonely one hold pull disown climb inside arms open wide look inside scared learn im empty inside hold hand show concern live die eyes open wide help look inside singing ha de de ha ha de de ah hear water drip faucet sweetly falling tune im gently closing closet fall floor crawl room thought ending soon let sleep room hear cry cry cry hear knock front door come try look cant stop shaking leave alone go away mother im scared im scared empty bed sheets gone theyre wrapped around quiet drop gun cause want belong someone maybe lifes everyone ha de de ha ha de de ah head full suicidal thoughtsive thinking happy people die mean parents happiest hahahah idk others maybe hurts head heart feel suffocating tired parents said im burden said im ugly useless theyre right tho accept maybe killing make happy right wan na cry happy aaaaaa thought makes warm mg benzo ml vodka kill meplease answer yes tell stay alive friend real diagnosed severe deppresioni always try offer emotional support guidance try make forget suicidal thoughts say transsometimes enters crisis might fourth one know heri really worried going end alli know say hershe going psychologist hormonating psychiatrist sometimesthe problem related trans past traumasplease help really afraid know dothanks indirect help college admissions far ive accepted schools ive applied wont know rd next month tried kill back see im pretty much alive right now everyone life got better awhile showed everything slowly started getting worse wish died didnt now really wish longer convince distract bad thoughts finally bad level mental health time promise fail whats point youre always paini alot medical problems recently tooth infection throughout already weak body wan na know point staying life im gon na hurting whole time live im obviously medical problems arent reason really make ask fuck still licks lips guy whos lips im licking hell cant selfharmi really wish selfharmed im much pain feels pulsing adrenaline hate much burden others want hurt want punish want something focus onbut cant quite bring im really depressed im wimp whos afriad pain feel scam wanting self harm nothing proof without scars cant quite make guess settles must really depressed im justwho knows fucked relationships end ive decided start ending peoples think marriage counsellor suggestion divorce im tiredim difficult time need things written want vent friends anymore preface tried kill june got hospitalized week got diagnosed schizoaffective disorder depressed type im going community college living home incident going university living dorms please make fun im trans nonbinary ie boy girl neither parents pretty transphobic refuse use chosen namepronouns even ive tried explain want listen upset trying talk two years first tried come living situation im really upset lot time spent years high school praying able house express identityindependence person im stuck another years unless come across large amount cash move im working part time college classes enough time earn money need anytime soon know foolish grateful roof head food eat even medicinetherapy im tired feeling trapped place want everything even know whats stopping point im tired living every day wishing killed june ill fine tonight im exhausted thanks reading please helpi doubt anyone see please help im military kid family moves every year means anything relatively popular beyond lonely one trust talk confidence support please youre seeing need friend want hug hug courage call hotlinei power search number call afraid say want talk anybody want anybody hear useless voice want friendsnot taking last option much jump youtube unsubscribing channels see post check people think youre subscribed unsubscribed wilbur soot alguien que hable espaolsolo quiero alguien con quien hablar miss met girl almost year ago old job hit pretty well got along great talk even hang school even got chance go place pussy didnt go fast forward couple months leaving school covid quit job new one havent talk idk start talking without making awkward really wan na talk take im lost didnt realize brother kids high pitch dont kids want im expected around theyre losing shit want crawl hole hide away im constantly edge im constantly startled scared theres lot yelling screaming crying end day two week vacation sorry long post dont anyone talk january see therapist next ill probably okay read want toseems kinda weird posting place fuck wish somebody knew anyone really cant believe small family dad degenerative bone disease mom pancreatic cancer luckiest least one last couple years longer theres doubt theyre dying never really knew anyway definitely know never really knew still think im christian thats family friends consist coworkers try hang much know im dealing cant dunno right make others feel bad situation friendly thing theyre basically best friends cant tell anything whats going told one cried cried shit happened suicidal two years ago downed bottle vicodin got warm bath razor made okay ended crying sleep swore id never try fact theres scares know ill come back matter stupid much know never wan na go back still goddamn stupid possibility nobody knows nobody whomever happens read drunk almost every night somehow hoping ill escape problems really gets worse still nobody knows im actually pretty happy around others happy enough theyd never truly suspect thing im strong enough make work yknow tick tock julius caesar said kwwsvprelohwzlwwhufrpbvcxjfmuvsrff girls heartless im sexist hate title please im gon na straight feel girls logic comes dating ive around many breakups put much heartbreak exhausting always girl decides love guy anymore time pissed bad cant handle homie planning getting married girl dating years theyre turned work time spent together someone fucking mean mean nothing feel committing hate crime sooo bad girls please let give advice please let know love prior dating least little bit theres excuse put anyone bullshit film one historically accurate war films made displays reality soldiers battle situation well particular circumstances battle stalingrad obvious one compares film works anthony beevors book stalingradbr br unlike better known enemy gates plot diverts sniperhunting story film shows war individuals although filmed germans stalingrad anything nationalistic apologetic film shows war films something beyond flagwaving jingoistic distortions grim truth war many hollywood war products seem bebr br scripting acting direction film techniques stlingrad highest caliberbr br mustsee film anyone contemplating join army obey orders type fuehrer pink red paint brushes getting married always love painting red well call red pink well call pink pink red really great paint brushes years ago red told dating pink happy pink red always really close last month pink got pregnant im happy theyre getting married inviting paintbrushes need paint place wedding itll beach awesome d movie started confusing grew one best movies seen acting utterly superb drying tears enjoyed meryl streep whos performance extraordinary movie deals hardships distant family coping mother develops terminal cancer movie difficult watch heartbreaking soundtrack fits movie tee brava bette midler stars give one afraid jumpim seventh floor window trying find courage jump end everything bullshit pain depression im scared fact wrong might end seriously impaired rest life know cant make another day feel selfishis selfish want painless death know deep worthless body deserves suffer deserves living pathetic wasteful life accomplishing nothing years existence burden upon fellow human brinding good things waste resources space selfish want die painlessly quickly inspite deserve slow torturous end yet audacity feel deserve end life better crush know one girl really know never billion years even proper conversation ive bad thoughtsneed advice dohello year old female graduating month ive diagnosed bipolar psychotic features well know anyone relate ive feeling strange lately im depressed feel inner force drives want kill think killing ways things need done die ive different plans already got materials needed one weird thing times temporary relief depression times really desire death much think mind thought feel strong drive im depressed im depressed manic mixed states completely obsessed killing really know im seeing psychiatrist therapist last time disclosed information got sent hospital think hospital benefit im sorry rambling thanks reading advice much appreciated aight give love girls wants femboy friend instead deal everything subthis serious question random complaint rant suffer extreme mental health issues keep walls inherently came accident good god even though mean come much support place ive never seen concentrated window atrocities humans create one issues misanthropy spend time reading internet means naive humans done floored people deal potato flew around room came aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa playing deathfor ive suicidal thoughts become increasingly overwhelming one point went hospital overdose attempt recently ive noticed walk roads thoughts im going cross road without stopping looking ahead run hopefully ends dont im somewhat lucky therapist told mindset little playing russian roulette selfish playing death redflag end pain something long way itd method control one thing life im selfless every respect try things others mind im sure im going end things soon time part knows things live cant help wanting cut life short im exhausted whole therapist thing ive seen pretty much lost count prescribed lexapro prozac seroquel point medication seems pointless professional professional tries still help whos say anyone will dont see change happening life anytime soon sit watch everything go suffer try fix peoples problems instead tried everything nothing works guess ill kms want peace ive found new life objectivedeath longest time years old wished sweet release death never knew wanted end life figured two weeks ago ive never life new friends stopped coming turned different schools different personalities never synching started grow suddenly parties gatherings trending topics none permission enjoy either parents time pass suddenly find end high school life graduation coming closer time pick major ive lived world know fantasies created alone room voices recognize ones made talking within head people ive met ideas made saw someone elses face protective bubble never experienced anything never met anyone make ive born years ago turned parents decided need protection anymore go live life whatever want said know want know want go see future past concept dreams goals ive born somehow manbaby writing found girlfriend fantastical worlds ive made brought attention love likes nothing pretender know live starting show ive made mind find job save much money possibly enough live dreams although heartbreaking want wish goal finally cross line finally decision regret making life goal die saving enough money person love live life im gone im pregnant still want kill myselfi feel selfish ill least wait kid guess fellas got ta ask transphobic want sex trans female save eyes browsing memes night settings gt accessibilitygt display gt reduce white point lowers white less bright iphone prob android something guys sort new reddit want see latest newest memes old moldy ones sort new todayi feel compelled write want take time something really know post turn feel stream consciousness urgency write im sat cup tea listening cd im planning go city favourite book chill coffee shop know seems incredibly boring really want call grandmother long conversation favourite thing hear past childhood met granddad etc know likes gets lonely maybe ill call parents tell love bullshit cliche id write friends note something special hand written note think know itll say guess something happen bonfire night uk tonight favourite time year plan wearing favourite cosy hat watching fireworks go home know finish post guess picture thanks reading boring post think make sure enjoy today im fucking tired everyone wantsevery fucking day every fucking second people treat shut im fucking tired body respecting need something start acting nice dont give shit theyre god damned obnoxious admit wrong selfish little bastards dont give shit hope fucking die hope kill want suffer way make suffer swear god im close saying fuck shooting someplace swear god wont respect ill make respect shazam okay hero high favorite kid mean sky high zoom hero high school super heros training teenagers super powers help police capture bad guys times embarrassing situations greatest american hero fun cartoon watch fun live action stage show called kid superpower hour shazam actors voiced characters dressed characters show rex ruthlessjohn berwick misty magicjere fields weathermanjim greenleaf captain californiachris hensel sang theme song dirty trixiemaylo mccaslin glorious galbecky perle looks love child superman wonder woman punk rockjohnny venocour whole cast went anything came jokes cartoon fun superhero comedy shore come back live action fat albert find something next two weeks im gon na fucking blow brains outi add hate passion current part time job thing majored im s live parents fucking hate many mg dextroamphetamine fatal finally happened finally got girlfriend never dated anyone last night crush wanted hang went walk drive done times said likes first girlfriend happy first period canceled first period ap biology people kind hate class must felt dismay woke morning saw time start alas receive text group chat saying first period canceled kids school substitute teacher teacher know use zoom hook overjoyed returned back bed catch much needed sleep took note much time left nd period good slept second period one silver first person award gets havent gotten award ngl im able give one award dont mad pls thank u saw theater instantly thought good enough video big nut scifi action flicks though anywaybr br without giving story away worth seeing scifi without requiring much thought story basic plot good worth time seebr br maybe make sequel br br yoo im done w morning classes time go back sleep alienated scaredi emotional person invested time energy feelings friends ones abandoned recently dont live anymore im scared im losing trust im becoming interested slitting wrists even though thought stupid im sorry seems stupid want help anyone feeling suicidal collegehey im incoming college freshman exactly know wan na chose random major cause wanted figure later thinking ill never find right major might end graduating useless major causing feel suicidal wanting give feel future hopeless negative thoughts irrational taking advice flair change time boys youngest sub anymore im fourteen opinion important blow brains everyone forget within yearhonestly im fucking tired life nothing going im mess im socially inept fucking retard took four years pass remedial math class everyone age something going im going fourth year community college im still even considered sophmore haha twenty one years life talents god one days ill ill show everyone im fucking pussy blow fucking head back itthings seemed look followed light illusion fuck everythingi function stare fucking television fuck life hell death bad thing exact never existing first place death exists alive infinitely unaware die death possibly bad thing death bad thing good thing absence bad good redflag seen society bad thing wont able make money anymore attempt control make work say somethingim running short time lifes miserable full endless problems solution weep cry ive already endured enough point crying become every day occurrence im emotionally exhausted write essay long reason im people trying help limiting everythingmy mom called police mental health people house im basically threatened take hospital dont stop depressed suicidalgreat strategy really want hurt know mom find tell take hospital limiting option redflag idiots came house started calling every second day three options everytime felt mad option one acting violently towards object punching holes wall option two cutting another form self harm depending mad option three killing unit mom called eliminated first two options threat made never attempted redflag feel matter time option let anger really wish painless pill take killed im angry timeim afraid dad gon na say wrong thing im gon na snap really angry kill im afraid anyone gon na say wrong thing im gon na lose everything exhaustingive feeling exhausted long know things getting morning chat friend use easy find hard even force laugh carry conversation mentally im drained years feel emotions well friend told grandparents pass away sat saying feeling anything bad thing christmas theres literally earthquake thank thank much sufferings still wan na dietodays valentines day girlfriend still wan na die wan na die badly honestly im getting really close really think cares anyone cares feel alone im getting tired really wan na die pay spend time talking actual human hell id pay hug point anxietyi much anxiety wanted forward msg girl class talking abt graduation dad instead forwarding spent mins procrastinating completely frozen dont know im felt dad already tired putting burden even eventually able forward msg even msged girl dad bit busy ill telling im available attend keeps pressuring tone message seemed cold frustrated dont know anxiety came gon na go physical school well even wasnt able forward msg suddenlt felt urge kill instead sending message dad much pending stuff hve find therapist contemplating im gon na kill anyway got ta started much work whats point im gon na fail kill need many things motivation im gon na kill great movie worst ending think seen actors great displayed wonderful talent entire story twisted unexpecting made entertaining good movie entire film judged ending terrible maybe sequel eliminate bad ending loneliness killsi asked advice lot tried follow things love tried happy works enter relationship feel companionship time time cant come back every time love enough im now see people grow persons partners positivity around virgins people never relationship iml still someone learned single thing lags decade behind matter people grow learn know give want know none im basically cowardly teenager every person asked turned blame interesting learned things free time cook build library home read lot means nothing dull always alone makes hobbies feel empty im traveling anymore nobody share souvenirs come home room books around hopes forget worthless existence look back fondly upon books ive read thats good memories fantasy none actual life build connections fictional characters none humans dropped clubs going seeing people reminds takes worthy friendship companionship cant basic part human existence companionship im fine stopping altogether quit life reach age finish things want finish im lonely life never worth someone help im homework need two items portable help survival chances zombie apocalypse easy break simple materials latex iron woodetc heres ive got far baseball bat hotdogs oil steak bricks axe machete please help youtube algorithm working us believe youtube algorithm trying make fail nnn benn days morning ive seen videos recoil sniper girls ass mia malkova exercising tricks super seducer geralt fucking yennefer fun fact recommended want later afternoon im still entirely suremy friend attempted redflag im constantly afraid someone will know going sound extremely selfish hypocritical say want later grades going drain used straight student im probably going fail several classes late anything project havent done already late fault irresponsibility text argument mother morning led saying wish going custody dad instead havent gotten back response yet know gets home im dead unless actually dead everything gone shit already cant even anything except sleep later afternoon im planning several hours either parent gets home im gon na snatch bottle ibuprofen several water bottles go outside hide bushes somewhere take im waiting im going say goodbye everyone contact dont know though dont know anything im freshman ive already ruined whole life theres really going back now problem plan little brother whos th grade gets home shortly hell notice im home probably let parents know come looking dont know anymore wish nerve youngeri tried kill twice highscool now im scared even try fear failing ending right back im scared die im scared fail want life anymore time feel im making minute bit progress wind slipping back old habits know anymore hope one day finally work nerve im peice trashhonestly id world favor got blew friend hate hate religion sucks reallyi used kind buddhist believed reincarnation kinds supernatural things now know buddhism branches believe reincarnation im atheist pretty sure ill cease exist die think cease exist anyway endure painful life im feel much sucks im religious person christianity thing gives meaning life allows find comfort cant go back religious much sucks think day sit pc energy anything want stop need stop therapy medication make stop will anymore heartbrokeni posted earlier week ago subreddit ranting feel anyone talk personal either way feel comfortable ranting way gets less personal one obligated respond either way want write im tired ive suffering depression anxiety bpd insecurity complex years im tired want live life mentally healthy year old girl feel im missing much mind practically always convincing scared nervous wary something whenever try reach goal terrible thoughts ways go wrong much im going fuck ill never succeed im tired mind trying keep past making rewind terrible moments growing abusive household times made use bullying people thought good friends spreading lies making people dislike person knew love anything mainly used attention sex behind back flirting god knows im tired know good heart want best anyone around know im soft try see good people long realised people matter sweet friendly helpful always stabbed back constant fear friends drop decide turn many goals hopes thoughts make seem unreachable see lot good im tired heart aching badly made several plans distance anyone one miss im gone method use places one find longer time still bit hope execute one angry angry fact im good enough everything fault whatnot im angry dare give constantly tell im loser go way think anyone innocent taken lives losers anything negative anger fear keeps im still scared wouldve gotten better gets worse know hopes getting less less guys bottle shot glass thing yknow take cap soda bottle use shot glass haha please talk please teacher going make us read huge chapter book first day please come bomb need help disrupting class please help google meet code ohqefamfaj different jerry lewis film famous films everybody knows lewis deals difficult task ww ii national socialism germany rather unconventional way even interesting important unamerican way many things world especially film industry unamerican means sophisticated subtle intelligent simply better reason film success us great success europebr br jerry lewis proven movie able much simple slapstick comedy deserve dieso ive already posted cant stop obsessing days ago talking online friend sounded planning commit redflag called redflag hotline told anything know persons location asked alternatives police told best option call ems called told area code city florida call citys police department said police dept forwarded call florida able trace location still know one ended going friends house luckily friend fine now still feel incredibly guilty calling police though friend queer trans bipoc one vulnerable groups police brutality top going mental health crisis cant stop thinking happened police actually gone house point im starting obsess worst part day happened realized couple days ago saved website phone called dontcallthepolicecomhttpsdontcallthepolicecom gives alternatives calling police even one specifically mental health crises saved website especially friend case needed im asking anyone feel bad give sympathy know horrible im cant see living much longer knowing reason someone got hurt died feel ive ruined entire life cant go life knowing something sounds dramatic really im feeling needed ig reason tried kill yet parents feel know help friend anymorefor weeks trying help friend constant urges self harm bit got slightly better something happened became far worse suicidal thoughts isolating emotionally know feels anymore therapist helping father knows cuts told hed put mental institution im struggling ask help talk people israel fact even though military mandatory still choose contribute differentlyskip good reason reason lot people try avoid whenever look job itll great disadvantage step dad crazy says america best country tell norway better statically happer says redflag rate higher look lower every chart look lower americans crazy america american got even closer todayit seems im going steps nerves always last time almost went garage grab rope today went garage rope none went store sold rope stood shelf looking ropes maybe five minutes today left store without rope im guessing sometime near future ill actually buy rope know one know tie noose ill look ill go woods find sturdy branch hang rope im likely going walk away day ill bring rope one take ill go back tree try ill try many times takes swing rope ive made decision wish continue longer feel bad anyone except cats probably shouldnt theyll forget quickly parents relatives gon na harder time admit cant much friends none problems turned ramble sorry long battlethe battle began many years ago started small began grow distractions work slow sadness inside wanting go added responsibility even added family itll better told put concerns upon shelf one day shelf came crashing longer stop frown felt drown stay begged pleaded begged set rebuild silly shelf pieces scattered floor items piled larger thinking leavinggetting things heading alone far walk elements inevitably kill always thought im seriously contemplating spent majority money month gambling suffer porn addiction gambling addiction im debt paid certain debts months bad arthritis everywhere body got treatment really hurt itll come back day rapid mood changes dark thoughts sudden urges harm harm people hate body hate personality hate everything really maybe ill head woods hang days cold kills woke slept hours another hour sleep clue yeah sleep schedule fucked went bed pm diagnosed clinical depression redflag disorder panic disorder mood swing rem sleep disorder adhd age knew something wrong know hit rock bottom unfortunate events happened worst possible place worst possible timing tried kill months one day ended er cutting wrist cocktail alcohol energy drink painkiller gotten hospitalisation years talk therapy art therapy medications sometimes good hyper usually medications barely hold moods swing born wealthy family parents provided comfortable things private schools travels studying abroad credit cards material things grateful considering many people less supportive familyfriends financially emotionally simply unlucky access basic needs despite fully knowing lucky live gratitude really difficult especially getting old find reason live hope dream dark place times officially list suicide watch still seeing therapy every weeks going dark place maybe people know help want go darker darker place instead trying fight feel addiction feel depressed af want depressed end life constantly thinking suicide methods write will disappear die without affecting family die donate organs want live fair people want live struggle anyone feels situation years addicted depression pointlessreceived hateful message today ex telling kill im worthless kinda makes believe im pretty im moody im insecure im selfish im outgoing im best mom im hard took sleeping pill maybe itll help probably ill wake alone thought crashing car tree today chose think good idea unless country want break gun cabinet shoot boyfriends pistol watching right sleeping away unaware thoughts really worthless shit shit shit acc finally days post post post post testing testing better able fucking post bitch gon na bring big guns aaananakajskasiw shitposts starting hide body joke burry himher imma stay forest put dirt put dead dog someone finds think dead dog burried cut little pieces give pigs throw river lucky enough noone find ownwork meat processeing factory borrow process meat lucky enough noone notice ate human flesh tipdont process brain liver super toxic kill pretend commited uicide graveyard force two bodies fit coffin chance noone find bro keep reading lots new changes life hard time adjusting pandemic helprecently moved new city attend grad school live long term girlfriend due pandemic program went online grateful safety measures taken feel able engage classes nearly well undergrad connections peers professors harder sit hours lecture watch screen rather listen person lecture attention shot barely leave room anymore always working school work worst well classes exam studied hours daily week completely lost got exam continuing reach people seeing therapist tomorrow losing hope everyday want end life ive thinking completely exhausted feel paying im miserable supposed culmination hard undergrad work want done dm im hornyyy thats thats post bonk go horny jail blah blah blah whatever dude want dick sucked suffer deserve itim lonely always lonely treat people mechanisms cope loneliness course turns away often want talk people intentionally pushing away deserve lonely see people disgusted people deserve relationships friendships political ideologies achieving better world really want dont want someone something magically help magic exist noone solve material mental health issues expect want want make personal effort fix im pathetic cant even kill end suffering deserve suffer nothing change noone help failed life completely try excuse laughable lot symptoms adhd explains everything yeah im officially diagnosed even officially diagnosed change anything label put still nobody care fact reason work brain problems change fact cant work fact im rude people mental disorder change fact im rude even mom hardly handles people hate brain mean yeah genius thats case still lonely people show traits similar mine hated know fact im rejection sensitive mean people reject sounds im trying find excuse fact want change life least end im suffering deserve suffer im adult child wants mommy fix everything even real mothers donkey worthless know want fix maybe actually enjoying thats means definitely deserving crashed car tldr bottom drive somewhat modified z days ago crashed driving around street fun friends pulling drifts stuff took hard degree turn floored slides ended losing control wheel tried best trying grab back late took foot pedal tried brake point already scraped rear end trying back control crashed front bumper onto curb end ripping bumper crushing intercooler car stalled slightly dazed jerk hit regret replacing steering wheel grippier one z fine new front rear bumper bew intercooler tldr crashed z got dazed replace parts birthday yeet dont comment shit extreme cringe warning pick lines might work borats might girls want make sexy time nothing watch im watching hxh want something new watch give something watch fillerfillerfillerfiller among us broke rule among us broke standard rule fps gaming history first take run natively fps similar animation style early s dont believe search among us rule google images live flike hole literally thing gives brain slightest bit dopamine serotonin porn life sucks way even surviving rich roommate putting roof head feeding used want things life goals sort realize goals never end happening idk motivation want go try something life going come back point always mental hospitals years happy long time honest partner left half year ago really helped much ether jobless last december ran away friends family halfway across country literally motivation anything outside sexual stuff least makes feel slightly good awhile hell body sell hah though blessed great looks sure posting tbh sitting redflag hotlines website hours que talk someone saying fuck worth waiting yeah idk end peace video store hundreds documentaries seen loads love great info small handful though even come close offering info important one reading peoples reviews film cant help notice main things people criticizing irrelevant one sided pathetic criticism every society look see side still need help go globalpublicmediacom people uh one might led believe people experts maybe best people interview filming style head shots exceptions want flash dazzle watch micheal moore want info watch real docs one plainly see none complaints relevance information contained guess people missing point wan na give suvsbr br recommendation watch learn continue education subjects important stuff everyone give silver know one give im going kill weekend fgoodbye everyone im sick existence live thought id tell someone professors accent heavy thoufht said low cost exchange principle locards exchange principle im laughinf wtf forensics accounting brain smooth fuck people keep posting super obsessed femboys theyre fetishes keep shit one wants hear feeder porndont look dont know fucked guys making girls fat femboys really dont give shit help friend whos feeling suicidali know whether right sub friend whos extremely depressed deepseated family issues offer help thinks im toying feelings leave everyone thats much doubts everyone day tried kill chestersinger favorite band think linkin park redflag luckily go whats best thing situation seem trust anyone todayso stayed home work two days yesterday smoked weed slept today slept couldnt stop thinking redflag plan finally go outside sheet tie tree pole jump easy final ive suicidal almost years attempts nothing needing hospitalization stop stop side sucks wonder done years ago peace kinda hard tell believe life hate kill confirmed somehow always frickin lose im whore collecting bitches lost hours worth work trying make well edited video meme spent around hours working davinci resolve crashed never chance save start scratch really want make hour setback im actually really upset turned autosave done ill work morning fuck life absolute outrage year people still freeze chocolate bars beg take nearest chocolate bar freeze makes much better psa something look forward totruly find comfort pain gone end nothing matter simply exist dont worry others think gone wont problem anymore plus fuck anyways didnt care enough care im gone regardless thing makes feel okay sad wont feel anything end want live stays miles away idea helphe lives abroad seattle india talked wanting live anymore stressed grad school reject know reach texts phone calls going unanswered probably gone sleep know im really worried enoughenough said fatal blow heart good enough said years trying mind fills doubt sufficiency attainable enough said cant enough said enough kill homophobic scared homo sapiens petition call s mourning s given idea mourning s waitress restaurant life kinda sucks right nowscared posting due friends following im terrified reaching anyone specific going shit right dont want burden dont even know put words life treating well dont know im swamped school work time live hobbies watching movies shows socializing etc nothing dont time go sleep wake give one hour want spend rest day staring screen cramping hand writing much family gets worse worse everyday live twin sister mom grandparents every time talk sister insults calls joke shes mocked bullied throughout time quarantine cant take anymore grandparents sister mom always yelling especially grandma sister every night dinner ends screaming match grandma guilt tripped lot ive started scared grandpa gets angry easily lashes mom person really talk even feel burden im trying autism diagnosis well seems one believes told therapist shes screened social anxiety autism mom said ive convinced im autistic sister often use slur autism insults well despite telling shouldnt still mention current politic state america pandemic still happening sometimes wish contract die people wont wear masks quarantine theyre making pandemic worse ive lost ten pounds ive started antidepressants im never hungry im never thirsty dont energy take care almost fainted shower days ago want end wish th grade went plan escape besides internet time consume content ive never wanted kill bad theory easy im much coward actually im turning next february wont able move another years im terrified driving dont want hurt friends mom hurts live promised friend mine mom wouldnt leave possibly amazing supportive partner never want hurt dont see graduating high school dont see going college growing old didnt even plan make far life im suffering tell therapist last thing want placed mental hospitalpsych wardwhatever put dont want entire school knowing im suicidal dont want family hang head dont want old exfriends old religious private school calling selfish sinful dont want sister use interaction rather kill go im tired want leave life bad dont know im scared people say gets better cant live life someone dont think dont know need break 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almost going years theyve one bestest friends kind caring really great today got text earlier saying gon na kill ive always one help made want become psychologist tried usual tried even harder harder ive tried everything convince way didnt listen blocked im assuming died overdose saying doesnt feel real none feels real feel im horrible dream matter cant wake cant inspired much meant much truly theyre dead died hating guts died thinking wasnt way died thinking one care care care much ive decided quit things inspired im gon na quit art god knows long im never gon na become psychologist ive helped many people first person ended ended dont even know im gon na life thought last weekend life gon na go uphill plummeted want die honestly cant stand death dont know im gon na wont kill dont want put girlfriend things friend put honestly shes probably worried sick havent messaged balled eyes cried cried im crying writing youre wondering cant anything help online friends never found address tried search school luck hope okay dead probably dead needed place type feelings wake call anyone please dont kill people care damage lives mean lot someone please dont forget feeling disappointmentbeen hit hard lately always financial struggle made hard complete higher education im supposed breadwinner family miracle happened finally completed happy moment recent memory achieved degree started dating beautiful woman dreams currently ldr type complicated situation atm due visa issues country aim work country mean issues relationship might last long come back home family eagerly waiting start something help bettering lifestyle future uncertain feels might lose sides success relationship wise career wise something happened shook things us misunderstanding involved jealousy cheating kind vilified hated woman im holding easier career path life managed patch things barely things changed relationship thing keeping something awful first place bright light life missing im stuck shit storm comfort disrupted family dislikes lack progression life feel keep letting people know head something childish time kind lately neither world head roof well say goodbyes via voicemail think im gon na suspended oh girl ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb nothttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq sorry alive think bother problem everyone although know boyfriend loves supports still stop selfharmingslitting wrist broke promise boyfriend close friend suffering mddi stop thinking suicide always think useless worth loved trust anyone either want change situation know starti never sought medical advices never psychiatrist financial support afraid tell parents suicidal thoughts self harming someone please explain fuck free awards literally saw many times oh fucking god cishet writer pov everyone assigned certain color birth assigned red wanted blue trans people nonbinary people people literally anything cis found highly intellectual artistic every way felt script conveying things feel physically emotionally got home work watched tribute cinema highest form formatbr br holy guacamole wish days come tried putting bubble window side car honda civic vacuum formed muffin trays quite cut civic sexual positions limited supported water bed brilliantly depicted vanbr br van utmost side splitting hilarity even substitute porn watch scenes privatelybr br highly anticipate sam grossman director achieved opusbr br ratings john sam school giving option stay home stay days week nothing going school somehow less sitting around grandparents eating snacks scrolling twitter pick coming parents aka awkward moment life ago made mistake telling parents im bisexual huge mistake part first context gave little test years prior started realize attracted sex asked separate occasions still love gay credit mother seemed kinda surprised smiled told course still love dad hand answered still love cancer worth think meant say love even something control actually told ago bisexual seeing guy kinda lost knew getting asked questions many guys sex mean gay never slept girl think turned bisexual know sure right one point dad even laughed cause assumed joking mother insinuated going phase took step told seeing someone point onward referred friend continuously said trust grow day make point avoiding discussion involves sexuality plague little dieter needs fly first film edition gteborg filmfestival extremely tired evening hesitant see raving overall score imdb made go therebr br minutes pure lifeforce experiencing dieter denglers life telling enchantingbr br see possible see cinema whats worst question friend ask husband filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler want tell someonei think may complete redflag tomorrow thursday im tired see reason keep going killed okanyone im asking cant stop wanting thisi person dont think change think feel pure happiness anymore laugh funny joke smile things day feels empty things used make happy things desperately wanted looked forward even much raise heart rate cant stop thinking redflag self harm keep wanting deep primal urge know loved know good life love family anything know evil thing kill family loves niece nephew mean much great dog keeps going every morning kill destroy family still cant stop wanting end reflections fool one grievous fears come fruition sit stunned passing easily see devised fate see truly mattered least times past ive foolishly stricken eyes sadly mind whose name spill blood ive lost care coming days times dull sadness mindless rage place longing hope home place engulfing closure seemed false simple instead built reliance easily brotherhood debacle fools shifting days king world physical wealth passionate conquest times spent sitting blabbering menial matter soon forgotten days despite misfortune collective tredge countless hours idling merely within presence another thinking back im brought euphoric mementos good day wither truly longer notion blame one suspect constant blunder id never known deeply rooted beginning worried foolish devotion blind trust might bring back wandering alone longer displaced finally absolutely alone another hoping release dream id long winters settling act seemed forever away think miss understood whole time said time comes boundless winter engulf world gods longer gaze guide realm man halted end new begin laminated memory belief winter came built end greater new waiting blind greater insight ive come see follys never winter hell even gods longer belong making naught ive come discovery happened thats come one misfortune carry one hope lessen know impact solid im good standing another made despondent another time soon lose question sever anchors find chains strong handful simply drift away lesser memories mind making lot effortless case closer presumably family recent established friends classmates ect ponder morality plans built bonds bonds may even hold heavy hold heart ones driven ive come bear enough faults already grow tired thus ive devised ill bite bullet one one disconnect word carry dishearten anyone worry try stop ive found able understand ive done probably know thats probably best best way less know less remember select handful know quite inconvenience due much wasted recent times relation estranged understanding seemed drift time perceive loss feel though prolonged deficit already sundered investment im soon lose knowledge yet hear recent blunders even heard already matters course remains admittance ive caused none harm rather failed disappointed importantly ive disgraced ive honestly thinking apologize hopes fixing things trying move find far case deed face tear tear till whittled fingers bony nubs never change instead must apologize different fashion sorry brother wasted faith violated honor moment broken contributed great brotherhood downfall managed cause collateral worth although bear right merit request may hope remains may prosper let leave quick may waste efforts longer bid adieu friend infinitely disappointed one want explain find cant come words theres age old adage go back differently ive thought times now try think one small mistake long ago easily never happened prevented hindsight stricken come likely severed fellowship crude friendship one defining pieces guise life fear taken well silence grows louder feel case make whole things pointless first assumed nonetheless friendship worth owe respects hold dear sorry brother lost way fear led astray well meet fork road let us briskly go separate ways know world holds know greater without dear friend let road carry well till better days cant write tears pages weep manner expel cruelties mind pages wither deepening trench harbors tremors core stirs lost hopeless yes bring still mend wounds today mind try fix sundered end volleys chatter amount little rambles stuck stream molten lead sickening silence dawns loud seep ticking know ebbing ponders thats left look back one theres one left alone another complexity man cant overcome know anymore want quiet care wires end another waiting winter end ampxb point put expecting naught honesty another waste time alas ill probably might even give alas cast rambles might butchered yall guys serious coming cage ive fine got ta got ta want started kiss end kiss kiss im falling asleep calling cab hes smoke taking drag theyre going bed stomach sick head touching chest takes dress let go cant look killing taking control jealousy turning saints sea swimming sick lullabies choking alibis price pay destiny calling open eager eyes cause im mr brightside go hospitalim going go lot detail im mentally ill part involves voice screaming inside head end pain ive failed attempts lost control tried want die want pain end normal past days worse think hold go hospital sure least might experienced past currently feel emotionally numb point feel family better without many already expressed want kill mind dead yes thought maybe currently phase started meds little week ago hopefully gets better rough awesome family feel nothing know love show try show feel looks forced go away meds better anything helped thank advance hope day wonderful one emotionally numb im terrified getting helpfirst thank taking time read please excuse bitching complaining ive struggled suicidal thoughts years past several months become intolerable ive made several attempts pills husband stopped time threw away medication house times desperate commit redflag method far ive told husband every time thoughts impulses come reason stay alive attempt make life work least three times think needed go hospital im terrified going cant stand thought going hospital idea happen im patients happen much cost insurance husband work hours week im terrified doctors care think im fake deserve think deserve go im getting better need help know cant afford anything think deserve help deep feel phony edit thank help suggestions never thought getting drunk save lifeim alcoholic never wanted admit true tonight unthinkable happened past months ive really feeling bit bit much ask lately really getting ive feeling ashamed kind person ive feeling worthless well genuinely want live anymore decided id kill week came extreme plan honestly wouldve worked promised tonight night long got drunk getting drunk motivated anymore first time long time decided live decided live moment decided live scared scared happen pets really one reasons im alive know ill feel im sober tonight hit quite hard harder expected fingers crossed ill decide ditch plans redflag sober doubt worth shot hope least oh boy im going regret getting drunk later least im alive regret though enough self pity tonight good night everyone stay strong never know may happen change mind cant rewind lifethis previous spring diagnosed severe depression anxiety seems people age currently nd semester college ended going sessions credit hour classes never hit low semester done started lack motivation later snowballed anxiety fuck semester time nobody knew anything professors assumed dropped courses parents assumed still going classes friendsbrothers assumed missing classes im new college fact miss class major repercussions compared high school earlier anyways finally told friend mine still senior high school dealt attempted redflag sophomore high school told needed tell mom got hand took weeks summoned courage tell via email even though still living due able pay overpriced dorms called next morning wanted come talk one schools works teacher therapists things gave number clinic well therapists went anyways months seeing therapist well pills feeling better told im going try work without talk therapy still taking antidepressants somewhat worried trusted handle im utter bullshit months nothing improved lied teeth true mood therapist simply cant deal ive felt wore mask worried appearance teenager late bloomer large issue still wore mask come age friends started smokingdrinking everyone made decision based things seeing way changes much pussy take hit none happened wasnt stayed group friends secluded everyone anyone nobody spent full year without single real friend mask school friends hid everyone pretty well parents knew ditched old group assumption fine ive worn mask long basically become face small group rarely goes ive become addicted video games way bond people point halfway ive become someone never thought become im normal looking overweight given compliments appearance well personality scared girlfriend im always complimented skills working teaching younger kids im working daycare nearly years now cant handle anymore driving home tonight friends house realized done mean cant wear mask anymore im socially awkward call old therapist go tell truth way remove mask force morning im feeling nothing ive become completely numbed life things stopping pathetically video games fact one way road still know going back know anymore major tldr chronic depression going overboard know call help anymore writing never thing idk even postingive never person whose able write thoughts even know thinking feeling think ive written paper whole career schooling thats gone half page required minimum somehow found self wanted make th reddit post sub thought id never part probably first thing ive vollenterily written typed minutes ago got deleted writing even give fuck enough try spell words correctly even close enough autocorrect know mean perfect life anyone ask perfect parents girlfriend im love withand friends kill ifi asked toi feel miserable almost always canteven begin describe bad feel girlfriend afraid suggest things almost shut say fun enjoy anything anyone used play video games almost time left world pass quickly possible really know tell everyone im okay know start conversation hey mom hey dad know give perfect life im fucking miserable hate everything reason keeps telling reason ive able yo hang far even want imagine hurt eyes ive dreamt many times reaction finding body lifeless room wake tears every time cant go watching sadness disappointment eyes knowing one children suffering enough even consider redflag option know im know im going know anything even know care kind person cant even know feeling right upset afraid frustrated without knowing search brain hard answer questions whats dream house know want life never cant remember anything ive wanted kid never answer want grow tell people wan na firefighter back kid know want life least slightest idea know im heading im finding hard picture life months now fuck year know much longer hang know many times sit think faces friends family consider redflag cant suffer forever please everyone cant work know end know im going im go im fucking scarred life perfect happy fucking happy exam update weeks passed know nobody cares im happy days enduring stressful shit exams see yall next week dream thisim going climb walkin bottle whiskey im ready hope pillows warm today archenemy one fall wont rise king put senior quote thought shawty said way homework momdad either bible verse albert einstein quote talk problems every time try talk depression theres always someone saying sad theres people worse yeah already know fucko thanks making feel invalid think tried killing first time todayive rough year chronic illnesses ive suffering recently got worse lets say depressing lonely life anyones standards past months ive thinking redflag almost daily basis never courage actually anything today ive terrible mood woke decided tie belt around neck tight enough feel substantial pain hard breathe afraid id pass removed belt felt slight rush minutes afterwards really want fully understand strangely feel little towards particular incident time feel empty anyways may extension kind want tell dad somewhat close knows depression know bad particularly care gets upset please talk someone pm happened monke gaming operation effort go im donefucked world work going alright fucked everything world girlfirend barely got family shes family past tears ger family mine literally fucked drunk responsed girls facebook messenger extremely innapropriate way hates right reasons want work things barely dont know lost close friends friends friends family barely exists cant find live third time past year theese thoughts attack allthough attack stronger ruined life dont want exist anymore without fuck literally want die right now scaredim unhappy time matter fix end anxious depressed thats life hate know isnt going better less anxiety inducing older stomach covered bruises punching gut distract self hatred keep fantasizing distancing family friends forget kill without anyone caring sad want future cant see one know see therapist medicated dont want let family wasting money im stupid pick stop pathetic im really scared dont know actually want die really dont want alive anymore dont know generally love mysterypolice charlie chan type movies exception something seems bad movie late attempt switch cerebral moto movies centered around plot contrivances salad bar spoilt comedy relief relieving sore feet typecast buffoon appears nowhere impersonating clumsy englishman plays detective even characters seem entangled providing comedy relief plot may seem odd bare excuse us today back possibility epochal archaeological discoveries real commonplace occurrence everything life ruined lost job friends close lose relationship almost lost mindfeel hold anymore everyday think end idea place go literally staying alone months course using fake account cuz main real information feel want live anymore didnt mention least deleted bunch porn phone recently dad looked thru trashcan many months till among us craze dies hate among us feel boom pretty artificial die pretty soon fatal flaws two people room easily join public room tell impostor fact people leave game die tasks cant even completed way fact people hop rooms impostor ampxb long think gon na take asked girl day said friends little sad thats life expected didnt know well sudden unexpected least gracious little sad guys deal kinda stuff im ready goim done cant anymore im tired fighting cant count incest repost one got deleted x x q still holds back life still finds ways yet still talk always feel worse ive tried blocking social media still finds ways today last day teenager last day sub turn hours thought id leave message five people see without ado go egg found something helped loti know going help anyone know helped weeks now ive spiraling destructive nearly suicidal path day sitting cafe wrote wrote woke found reason live guess wakeup call figured sharing guys might help someone feel little better gt november life gotten hard lately hard wake morning little things made happy slowly turning diminishing memories falling apart seams quickly one constant rock ive past year getting harder harder reach think future together starting bleaker bleaker depressing think woman love want marry slowly turning unknown person someone used know everything know nothing time honest im coming terms decided want die hand know im going thoughts much handle family love much used fiancee looks remorse fear one morning ill turn dead honestly right live far away used call home friends im far debt want pay anything good thing married save enough costs ill put money somewhere write note details know ill yet afraid guns probably euthanasia maybe ill crawl top mountain wno supplies maybe bridge knows best im tired names omitted edits post moved miles away home feel big part felt writing really big wake call realized still life live deadline anymore im going really hope guys thinking ending lives little shimmer hope im thinking ive better talking people ive finally started think im attractive life ive shitted told wasnt good enough rejected responses ew gross eat shit classic fuck didnt think found good looking good friends sub ive finally turned around led finally seeing worth helped know struggle andor struggling afraid talking people due fear shit know worth find might find tomorrow week find please keep heads held high kings queens rule kingdoms throughout turmoil sometimes really want kill myselfi bad life caring friends caring parents brother nice things room somewhat good grades school feel im usa understand last year high school wanting go anything live pretty much diagnosed depression deep heart take pity everything every mistake every action thinking good enough thats killing done bed two weeks although may sound ridiculous thats sign something right ive tried kill think times last one almost felt brave enough year half ago im almost last year pretty good damn demons head came back came back tell wrong im worthy know something love lot things love drawing playing wow playing music play bass guitar drums think miss things remember much fun things sorry post little messy needed spit somehow lot people know think knows redflag attemps close friend mine even best friends know im skipping school tomorrow clear thoughts least ill try skip th charm ya know think dumb hell guys cant cry girl cries nothing oh ok guy deal moving halfway across us ton school work stuff cries man dude people say adhd make sociable quite literally opposite maybe mental problems talking fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller thoughts come often beforethey honestly comforting im depressed go think redflag feel happier feel end suffering sadness dont know got way posting anonymously wanting end life never thought id feeling way know longer fear death longer positive outlook see improving mentally waking daily day day tasks working etc feels pointless longer want feel way dont want feel way finding relief death waningi know im cant figure know theres millions im nice person im manipulative enough make people think im apathetic selfish lack drive purpose longer genuinely connect people ive isolated becoming incurable cynic misanthrope im sycophant work talk family anymore theres goal passion hope feel capable love gone im tired repeating cycle healing waning crashing rebuilding foundations poured sloppily time someone told cant find reason live mean die find many releases death solution escape pain realizing awake every morning unbearable cant anymore one goal life im going make attempt dissociated state cant risk waking anymore realized im finally old enough take goat know test take fallout decides job bad already one ima go take test see fallout official one course thankyou making wonderful escape thats love movies im impressed aireals way shot timing dynamically perfect music dancer part many dance films choreography usually chopped diced sometimes even beatshowgirls movie relationship ladies present movement br br favorite scene last one pulled ive seen movie different version disliked husband last time felt little sorry time changes feel female love birds magical days ago redflag failedthe past days desperately trying figure alive im floating feel corpse heartbeat calm genuinely thought slipping away im neck bruising numbness feel surviving mistake ayo broskis ask want rules anything imma answer days left think quite nice getting much worsefor dug hole felt great recently ive found slipping even deeper hole really cant go cant tell anyone irl nobody know take seriously nobody know really gives fuck thing stopping possibility failing fear live fucked even miserable dont know rn guess wanted rant helps least bit im ready goi year old ugly short fat black guy adhd possibly ocd well hates much silently crying bed im typing biggest secret ive vaguely told one person either dont remember telling biggest regretwhen years old sexual abused someone years older things sucks toes tell suck misty think even licked asshole briefly another time pulled pants put dick mouth hate much wish go back time wish much hanging head never move past ive kissed sex one person ive never serious girlfriend im broken person high school tried compensate people saying thought gay behind back lying saying fucked different girls never done anything hate much tell people mental illnesses bipolar borderline ive told many lies attention hate every friend ive grown moved forward lives way great things lives im broken hate much dont think find someone love told friend abused im sure took seriously regretted telling told joking soon feel vulnerable regret told anything feel abuse livable never told another person wish turn back clock became person fat ugly social inadequate lonely feel live head day imagining better life days ago bought gun im ready end yall laugh anything watch literally one filler filler filler filler filler filler filler yo guys need write poem need yall help think subject write poem topic choice help im uncreative deep self hatred mixed depression loneliness regret mix everything might call suicide going writing see feel scared actually though probably seeing longer desire life heyis anybody spare time chat im gone sorryits one im sad fuck eating disorder ive lost friends least friends mattered im stressed point feel im panic attacks every second everyday leg readable wrists still shaking drowning ive never good enough family brother fucking perfect im family screw little talents sort hes motherfucking concert pianist fuck got trouble first time past summer think ive miserable im senior high school school nightmare im taking ap classes humanly possible im running sleep little food consequently poor grades teachers think im dumb im starting buy im applying eleven colleges lack mental sanity go plan eat im college thats dumbest idea ive heard cant explain know im going eat college scares living shit ptsd almost crippling often wake find shaking closet know touch touched even friendly hug make cringe anyone left ive got burnt bridges dangling every meaningful friendship ive im socially inept even hope form new ones think im suicidal im going go jumping front cars anytime soon say car coming move wouldnt sometimes close eyes im changing lanes shitty know really know feel either mean know im sad least think think sad feels fuck knows id say pretty safe assume im sorry im sorry fucked im sorry fucked people process im sorry better opinions pickles personally find pickles weird someone ferment cucumber eat opinions pickles guys wan na canceled guys act offended comments cancel become mad act killed dog something motivation live anymorei depression taken medication currently generally ive okay occasion relapses major relapse started back january shown little signs improvements months depressed motivation bed go outside stopped enjoying use find fun goals future seem pointless starting see psychiatrist therapist adjustments medications january seen improvements symptoms realized finally buy gun access one really thing stopped sometimes past killing gun store street live considering go one kill awhile might go tomorrow morning motivation live part want die wants help people girlfriend one either whats favorite emoji swear see cant decide wan na shoot odi dont think bring actually shoot head ordered shit ton dxm definitely use overdose dont really know im posting im trying someone change mind doubt guy gon na give suggestions one better way go existential question opposite ptsd memory im want live anymoreive never posted online want die exactly know phrase im sorry screw anything necessarily want die want live anymore im tired everything time ive lost interest everything around feels pointless keep remembering life pointless meaningless know grow ill miserable nothing live want end early now know make parents family sad want anymore think depression ive always felt want kill sadness anything wanted end drivers test thats tomorrow little late even enjoy driving even though people age im basically worthless life goals suck everything im nervous wreck feel main reason im posting view redflag best option im looking advice try commit cant come back dead im sorry rambling said first post thanks reading despite need help help girl wont leave alone made rumors im dating even tho im asked times time tell firm rejected different languages miss harambe got recommended second video youtube harambes last moments comment section filled people agreeing zoo damn im tears im burdeni keep trying better ive wanted die long remember always seems getting worse recently got girlfriend came felt happy accepted broke reasonable causes tried staying friends said much tired even friend whole time thought better week fucking hurts huge fear mine people pretending friend seems thats everyone leave cant leave want die one im largely christian family background believe im going hell anyways might well soon friend mine trying commit redflagmy friend technically ex told tonight almost days straight attempting od nyquil reason friend stop days tonight take home work talking laughing good time kisses kisses twice x hugging lot saying loves ive remained optimistic us getting back together leaving unnerving feeling final goodbye home text mom asked check says asleep okay explain know emotional times know lets emotions better goes check finds nyquil bottle room wasnt says half empty tell check make sure still breathing says said keep close eye tldr ex thoughts redflag wondering help alleviate pain break really good mashup song nothing live hello starting really dont complaining people usually keep thoughts written notes apologize im annoying two times tried reach online ignored didnt really make want reach im desperate im autism young mother never really seemed care overstimulated yelled stop got older even getting diagnosed shes still telling overreacting hurts thats got weighted blanket first got super happy look back think bought thinking wouldnt deal overstimulating shield thing makes feel doesnt actually care onto school throughout life friends left way im repetitive loud understanding social cues something people really thankfully met current friends dont care stuff seem drifting away band pe lunch leaves sitting alone time introvert aspie im fine alone problem occurs come back pe never talk theyre always talking im even sometimes hurts boyfriend broke really liked seemed good match due fact sometimes go emotional support left know drowning emotions wish didnt never see goes another school cant drive reason want commit redflag nothing live cant live mother doesnt even really care cant live friends theyre living lives cant depend ex well hes ex sure hell cant live hard explain autism cant anymore left one care theyd forget everyone ive trusted seemed emotionally leave makes feel invisible want die think horny jail full whos rate reddit update anyone update driving crazy whenever sort new exit app goes back hot bothering much annoying literally might use reddit fix accidentally deleted stoneblock world playing stoneblock months now ive quite far today accidentally opened fullscreen triggers error know fix way reinstalling pack happened times every time ive remembered backup world delete pack today today deleted pack world everything done know months long said come quite far im dissapointed know makes backups files delete tell plz mean asks want delete backups delete pack cant find keep coming back idea inevitable endtheres part suffers much cancer spreading killing everything good im scared dying want believe im better want believe make day im getting comfortable idea feel energy left able sleep properly feel burned tired timeevery day dread nobody peoples life years make proper friends tbh relate anyone work academic content writer job robot feelings emotions nothing boss scolds say nothing feel guilty work almost drains mesometimes crave human contact one mei go outside see people good time whereas fucking loner notice even someone tries talk know sayi self medicate loneliness using rn touching touch starved feel piece shit even antidepressants work fix somone depressednot fucked individual mei shame calling degenerate sometimes feel maybe god favor bring others thank tired keep talking avoid causing family painbut im miserable person around im sure wouldnt mind couple days left knew itdefinitely cry help im depressed ive got shit situation poor decisions im stuck literally option go detail sufficed say involves police nobody really knows anything know something know details ive kept vague means literally cant talk another human situation even professional help nothing horrific bad enough ive ended surreal life ive axe swinging head job every human interaction feels fruitless know itll end got call last week confirmed fears axe going drop ive looked many years different methods read got online guide even failed helium bag attempt sometime ago woke see cat staring idiot weird planned advance spend money go bang start eyeing opportunity everywhere walk jump looks high enough etc life become horror version requiem dream nobody knows situation read know human others might read pretty amazing power internet right want know saddest part knowledge upcoming demise think id amazing things time left im literally wasting time dumbshit normally eating crappy food etc etc oh well im still hoping miracle happen happened liked timothy dalton much even though bit young handsome mr thought zelah clarke plump short version true novel well filmed seen versions orson welles still favorite mr though george c scott well toss joan fontaine sussanah york although bit old role recently saw brilliant tv version rebecca charles dance emilia fox love see two jane eyreby time got watching ciarin hinds version think jane eyred never tire first minutes hearing joan fontaines voice narrate opening first version saw always want go back read book best nut fuck cashew nuts macadamia us im cant anymorei dont know anymore besides cry dont care anything anymore matter friends family somehow suck life cant alive anymore im strong enough world im tired living im alone tried talking friends todayand keep friendships want die badlyim tired im alone hope dreams loves wish never bornor leats balls kill now even fail friendsitll im sorry hear better without understand least want diei ruin everything dont care anymore im beating meat call cranking soulja boy well years years two entire years wonderful remember coming getting meet new people getting look around really exploring platform entirely amazing everything two years everyone managed commit weve accepted new members say goodbye joining given warm welcome everyone leaving wished good luck future know two years platform safe space somewhere got know things place made now admit saying things arent regular feel everyone deserves told love thank everyone point thank everyone whos made mine thousands others journeys now community really overcome lot everyone deserves big pat back dearest appreciations everyone remember stay safe sometimes wish never born dont want end itnot yet anyway sucks feel want live small reasons know things unbearable continue onthis going one boring rant even one reads need somewhere vent sorry think ive always taken things seriously see logical side situation tells im things better hold believe im sure hell figure determined enough see side tells hell lot agony waiting dont something even past first barrier horrors upcoming grades collapse pressure homework theres still waiting ive never normal physically mentally severe anxiety know limit lot life cause unnecessary pain picky eat point body isnt getting nearly enough nutrients dont even know theres treatments fix im exaggerating eat damn year old insane humiliating im overweight lazy change one parent atm cant stand around shes making live annoying boyfriend friends except one sort friend see every two months dont really much common theres day goes dont fantasize death constantly wish im school teacher notice im going course never job anyways im tired want take easy way dont know happens death nothing worse mess killmyself think klinefelter syndrome even symptomsim male turning know whats wrong wide hips man boobs feminine hands adams apple kill even klinefelter syndrome whats point even change body age testosterone exercise body correct dont fucking know anymore everyone manly feel enlarged kindergarden child ill leaving within next six monthsoriginally going next year im graduating far earlier expecting pathetic degree point staying around long already method location said method know im considering june july least time far enough away people missing days im tempted simulate murder people think someone anyone particular want anyone hurt behalf think cool unsolved murder especially bullshit one optimal way go saving someone taking bullet getting run car something heroic think cool im writing write cant tell anyone irl without getting put away want responses really positive qualities whatsoever future never loved desired human thats good enough reason go none know pain way know pain got pumpkin spice latte four pumps pumpkin extra whip coconut milk put fridge drink tmrw class whats yalls starbs order desperate helpthis third time pleading help received reply first two times edge know interest anything keep thinking everyone hates feel owe everyone favor dying thus making lives better know perhaps true sane part outshadowed insane part attempts last couple months freaked tiny rational part brain striving live want live mother find support anywhere friends deserted found acting wierd depressed social anxiety right childhood situation become worse past couple months even courage go office now cant summon courage talk anyone social contact visit supermarket avoid talking anyone dont courage go psychologist help live country far far away mother cant disclose condition family consider mental illness taboo suicidal feelings selfish desperately want live mother waiting successful man career wise etc something pulling makes die everyday daily routine wake elaborate plans redflag around noon time comes forcefully make think mom somehow survive afternoon optimistic start getting normal evening thoughts spend night thinking next days plan redflag tired want way rational part states things going fine need wait human mind accept much torture friends ones deserted seeing suicidal behavior seen reddit filled kind souls one spare couple minutes help begging survive grateful life little parents always fought blamed everything turned yesterday still nothing changed parents put expectation initially becoming tennis player trained years life childhood immediately pm eating play tennis hours years end high school difficult unable multitask tasks good tennis know limitations told give blamed months end ruing dreams money told younger scared happen parents hateddespised existence use aimed become doctor year age breaking first girlfriend emotional scapegoat parents hated relationship toxic first love chose another individual much coward ask girlfriend year parents antagonise fall love ruined tennis career education relationship girlfriend realised way parents treating lack social awareness enclosed life know youtube anime insta etc till slowly began shut life parents antagonise act support immediately backstabbed chance blame everything common enemy norm life still parents still antagonise falling love point depressed friends slowly forgot form happiness still left anime lego gamesmy parents antagonise successful much disgrace iam compared freeloading leech takes everything granted whilst offering nothing return way parents brought speech impediment stutter formulate sentences quickly struggle talk bullied still laugh emotional scarred people still expect smile laugh smile school friends graduated friends one talks except parents ostracise existence mistake everyday biology class receiving crappy marks chemistry getting scolded parents slit wrist scalpel friends time took nurse medicinebandaid applied wrist scared parents say hid woke bandaid gone sure saw live small apartment sleep room come morning seemed care wanted care injury wanted kill age prayed die everyday relive parents burden f afraid end hope got freak accident killed unfortunately nothing happened yeti go uni study software engineering received atar far cry studying medicine want make friends uni speech impediment look exactly call good looking guy know ugly still continue hope skipped alot past better left unknown turned yesterday hoping die turning adult kind disappointed honest woke immediately scolded looking sad friends remember birthday family friends parents obligated wishes time flew people forgot bad always wanted forgotten guess cutting cake asked smile sad still alive started curse always thankful always monitor check phones stuff younger sibling blessed receive everything parents wish stopped talking parents routinely check email discovered friends joke round calling names stuff one friends called gay joke sister called infront friends highschool person close relations made feel betrayed putting trust parents made reconcile acted never felt sincere happened years ago trying first job retail leave house contribute money family leech one hiring covid work experience need wait covid bans lifted still alive lolnow today parents spoke much disappointment iam make numb pain holding back tears looking pan face time cried first time first time years despite calling different things even wishing dead known going born aborted calling mistake parents said probably made mistake received baby nursery broke heart act stone face hide tears sadness say anything back whenever make things worse expressing feelings imagine ur friend consoling despite reluctant finally consoled pissed taking forever things worse quiet nod head giving word answers feel remorse continued talk later one comes asks cried saying surprised choose say anything lecture hr mins asking telling hardships much failure verge decided whether jump apartment written signed couple draft notes done body die donated medical research organ transplants removes burdens parents idk sorry wasting time rant anything thank time sorry bad english despite first language one gives shit mei told friends father sister cut one gives single shit darkest thing ive one helping know mental illness maybe im sad self abuse much ive probably done self harm list want say depression people always say theyre depressed theyre sad know anything im lost stop yelling parents everytime yell parents feel guilty think much ill regret die nearly everyone sub looking gfbf im looking clout primes amazon prime account link twitch sub free literally printing money info go httpsmtwitchtvmikiprofile breathe sleep eating everything sight job demands fianc sick work moody needy adorable puppy energy right now clothes dirty kitchen mess know need paralyzed anything want lay bed dark drowning understand homophobes mean gay people fucking couch bro fuck care sex life need help two math questions ampxb 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lot people living worse life mine something really something along lines god wise knows hes whats point creating whole universe going force people cant even comprehend whats outside immediate understanding know im getting really actually believe god hate even ponder questions never answer tried pray search faith point always bites ass end regretting cringing overburdened minds filled guilt nothing heads universe big incomprehensible yet stuck wealth inequality college debt uncertain futures broken hearts got scared haunted house apologised ive haunted house friends mum anyways got scared shouted chainsaw noises sorry nice day destroyed entire life let know whats lefti see reason continue cheated girl mean anything world wanted one last thing settled young married told even know couldve perfectly content never mentioning wants us carry nothing happened forgave cant live pain shame horrible thing worth ending gosh man whyim yr old male fit active good job house well guys royally screwed hypochondriac self dug big rut never way least bad beginning march im mad angry disappointed started loosing bunch weight feeling crap doctors dont really explanation blood ran saw neurologist ra lupus ms cause symptoms past months really worried obviously made everything lot worse probably ended er times past months chest xrays ct scans kinds blood work done nothing sooooo worried wrapped sort disease manifested symptoms severe stress anxiety obviously mental illness wasnt aware now suffer extreme ocd goes hand hand anxiety dont wish upon worst enemy needed vent add wasnt aware radiation exposed either freaks big time im ready give sometimes really suck big time thanks yall im kind retardedim kind contemplating redflag know sounds retarded straight bat genuinely feel fucking shit cant anything help cant even try im gon na sounds even retarded say friends family think friends care family seems distant know sound stupid selfish hell cant fucking help things built one another dont know help really want drop school im failing everything cant bring type work generally cant bring anything mope around complain never actually talk anyone shit ill sound unbelievably retarded dumb person ive hinted ex whos one closest friends lives way finland im uk sometimes really feel family doesnt care know im probably wrong know probably care dont show yet way talk act sisters theyre pride happiness joy obvious feel im fucking left know shouldnt compare sisters hard parents brought saying shit act elder sisters look elder sisters wouldnt something cant help feel fucking inferior theyre smart pretty im retarded im smart knowledgable anything im even good anything either sister attempted redflag one point parents realised hard putting much pressure theyre treating princess isnt bad thing return treat lot worse comparison theyve learned grown parents experience almost losing one daughters theyre applying growth sister though sister doesnt even live city anymore university im stuck taking parents shit sister still lives gets treated exceptionally hell even tried talking parents neither give two fucking shits mean might give shit dont see plus theres still much fucking gap sister know redflag probably bit far fetched im even bad situation thought redflag fucking tempting cant help think every fucking day friends im somewhat convinced care cant help feel im bringing know people go rough spots friends time group internet friends one point ended dating one week broke deactivated account day told wouldnt communicate left group chat group friends bc obviously wanting leave asked someone chat come back ex kept making scared tense fucking existence pops didnt anything except talk fucking day hes already making fucking victim didnt jack shit ex different one one lives finland know fact sound fucking retarded nothing particularly bad occurred know im abused pretty okay life best redflag keeps clouding mind nothing helping family wont try help either side wants talk dont want talk friends either ill feel bad burdening dont want feel im guilt tripping well fucking know killing wont solve anything easily solve talking problematics reason another im stopping everything peaceful right dont want fuck situation redflag dumbest thing least helpful thing possibly know everytime chance arises always want fucking take now heart isnt completely set redflag thing ive contemplating long hate hate alive right now dont anything things carry maybe things better idk ill probably ditch internet group friends bc lovely irl friends well closest friend whos online really hope things dont escalate point actually acting thoughts now redflag recurring thought really hope things better everyone subreddit hope things better well although think things may better theres always chance especially havent lived entire life yet meet someone find something really love whatevers going really hope things better lt feel unfathomable emptiness inside meim eidolon netherworld already nothing fulfills 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final verdict good enough watch lol fucking everyone whos partner im suicidaldo us favor fucking stop posting shit people actually fucking issues someone talk makes rest us actual issues feel worse go fuck fucking fake depressed losers cant wait muh ptsd fucking losers absolutely nothing wrong brain oh sad memories alonemy best friend friend tried kill last week survived cause send goodbye letter friends managed send someone house pills knows use one day bought im awful place one talk recovering attempt pm live im already drunk enough pills knock die im hoping sleep take anymore even anyone say goodbye know constantly feeling alone kinder always bullied really make much friends neighbors playmates always felt reason play brother brother throughout grade school one really want friend high school came thought finally making progress friends made drifted away usually fun cousins even feel fit better without feel inconvenience people around right close friend teacher knife wrist x life time cut kind feel coward going constantly imagine family seeing dead pool blood talk mom views people kill weak siblings often told suicide never answer feel need sorry long read lonely im pretty bored anyone wan na chat im bored got nothing dream dont memorable dreams even dream often likely dont remember anyways dream last night repeating head want tell someone thought tell random strangers reddit began walking neighborhood everything trashed broken expect apocalypse look dayz neighborhood gamers waking saw something move roof joggedwalked check climbed onto roof foot slipped old rotten part roof caught slipping looked back saw girl age yellow shirt pants backpack first didnt think much first thought oh kind cute quickly got roof went hole roof inside followed curiosity dream gets kind hazy certain parts house dont know asked name anything one main parts dream got really attached thought prettiest woman ive seen sorry gets kind weird now remember walking dimly lit room bedroom twin bed curtains pulled closed way enough light comes room see everything looked drawer top bow tie put told bow tie gets hazy remember next got really close caressing cheek said want said said ok bow tie back left pretty much dont remember anything dream ive trying remember face soon woke couldnt remember looked faint worn image cant make features face left head know dreams deeper meaning poetry dont idea im tired livingfianc broke several months ago depressed depressed never wanted see never actually felt loved visited every week hardly wanted anything ive getting worse reason anything last days ive especially feeling awful whole thing ive come close breaking im working frequently broken breaks messaged today blue buddy buddy opened wounds already hurting refused talk things tried tell lot pain roommates upset started smoking breakup stopped tidying see purpose anything anymore want die thing keeping alive mom die died got medical issues passes away time soon reason left stick around want someone love actually feel loved back time think im going find another person though especially even someone love back think someone done httpsyoutubekafopywzbmm ive lost livei think reason wanting die piss people need write rent room house older lady dog world never expected grow attached anything dog recently killed hit car wandering road night night left car mechanics car way work ready night calling got text friend asking wanted go dinner paying said sure love eat friends car arrived pick rushed door dog started barking usually landlady got home took dog got loose collar walked away land lady called dog listen started walking road got message land lady saying dog got loose wandered front car dog dead went numb felt numb numb sadness even say goodbye rushed reason wandered road looking wanted daddy dog everything world mattered stayed home alive lost without really reason continue doctor told tomorrow last day accept joy want dog supernatural forces real id sell soul see one last time tell much miss sorry least telling id right back got home lady wrapped towel placed bed broke right every time close eyes moment alone see little feet little body judging injury head tell least suffer struck death immediate want exist world without raised puppy baby gone want die want exist anymore know go choose end life overdose either sleeping pills liquid sleep aid alcohol want end bad every moment im alive never ending wave misery cant mother family never understand see strong one friends look advice see someone confidence life know death especially redflag destroy mother im tired core im tired wish rest close eyes drift away forever know whats beyond maybe nothing something see baby want want see baby life empty without want live anymore previous activities used bring joy meaningless collection things now things im surrounded things gladly give see dog alive one last time least hold arms tell much love say goodbye comfort im sorry im sorry ive let many others want go anymore cant rest need help pleaseive really rough go lately struggling harder usual remain positivenot suicidal problem past years know cant talk methods ready keep thinking g im scared guilty nervous sorry ughhh sorry rant hii bit bored want debate write opinion think accepted people often considered conterversialnohttpsconterversialno need toxic someone feel responsibleif kill someone going feel fault sister confided ideations shell think couldve stopped dad sister told reason hell think couldve stopped mom even know hide anything bad want worry use knife dad feel responsible one made bought jump top residence school feel enough security top floor hang parents regret seeing transaction purchasing rope theres way without someone feeling guilty death help girl text lot im around person choke mind goes black idea say really want ask im tooscared advice watched popularmmos younger please read pats girlfriend eleni literally using views popularity links httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvsppvsyckqyhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvsppvsyckqy please go give love really looks hes going lot hey bruh know today one year anniversary httpswwwyoutubecomplaylistlistpluurkioyqqsjwxjouhcycsfhiyzb got karma weeks much birthday yesterday wish deadim love someone never chance attempted redflag years ago life worth wish died suffer life live everyday bitter disappointment hate living reddit coins first person comment gets gold filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler redflag thoughts everytime alone still want live anyone feeling sameive depressed suicidal thoughts three years bullied still virgin years old male health problems low selfestiem girl love someone one secret sexual intercourse stranger man drunk even though gay etc loving family friends strong belief success future alone always thoughts killing reached point thoughts several times day afraid commit cant stand virgin guy anymore always health issues please help im afraid keep livingmy year relationship ended weeks ago forced believe fine clearly manipulative attempts tried back stating move find feeling broke said needed time figure emotions lost emotions honestly hope lost hope said know long take month week year feel alone much pain cutting help anymore yearn peace feeling nothing want continue living happened year relationship happen next person find know find peace death efficient xanax x alcohol killing yourselfi finally managed hold xanax country next impossible im determined end life wondering efficient combining meds alcohol ive heard fatal takes lot time actually kill came bisexual one best friends title says came bisexual one best friends essentially person talk right now yesterday started talking maybe months ago talking one things startedmakingme questionmy sexuality anyway thats besides point realized bi maybe days new years eve yesterday talking decided come told realized bisexual explained felt emotionally attracted girls boys mostly sexually attracted girls seemed bit surprised accepting said really mind sexuality people im pretty sure good thing probably person ill tell plan telling people actually feel deserve know people left figure bit scary coming felt good bisexual people start chanting one us one us comments dont joke lads laugh track apologies long read got longer thought going thats puberty nutshell reddit friends stopped using sub seems nice anyone want friends post safe place horny people using subreddit make real nice friends someone please tell doive five years almost two year old son together course relationship lied cheated physically emotionally abused know know im stupid stayed fighting caught secretly texting receptionist work swears friends happened never friend says im psyco says know hes im burden im crazy insecure im overreacting says dont see parent son wants put baby daycare said im comfortable yet ive thought years everyonewould happier better dead think son subject deserves grow without dealing crazy mother im really trying love much think come conclusion killing really selfish act boyfriend unrestrained tied generally one problems anymore son young enough miss long forget hell better long run idea anyone see maybe another crazy thing friends close family im alone itd okay suicidali need help life spiraling control know wide awake starting bright outside feel end line every fucking day dread stuff interesting irritable annoyed care anyone hurts want care feel damn empty inside want disappear dog suffers depression relationship work nothing untouched emptiness disease depression stop way tried tried feel stuck help please please solace break progress something help hold keep going empty irritating days every day sleep put random crap comments wake night ish pretending write something deleted pretending write something deleted im tired called useless leechi recently began first year college double majoring engineering software engineering total credit hours semester drive minutes back every schoolday immediately go home take online courses homework done look jobs online applied last days clean house dishes coean bathrooms week flip fold clothes whatever random task father assigns watched cameras make sure got learners taught drive made drive hours straight freeway round trip week period first taken drive got liscense month ago chores homework try figure dinner sometimes made cook sometimes ny dad makes gets mad ate without even gets sometimes treats retarded ask dinner pay around month gas insurance spare truck allowed drive getting job everyday told useless leech faggot mistake fucking hurts friend family offered let live never burden anytime stay close somebody extended period time leave sorry rant needed somewhere whats point one wants hereim waste space family reminds day every day mentallyverbally abused sometimes physically failing school depression mom locks pills older sister tried oding three times guess noose lethal find time find reason keep existingtheres obvious answer know future hold think pain cause loved ones im incredibly numb answers point thats enough keep going considering unfathomable amount dread feel every time wake feel isolated disconnected every interaction people life even feel real point time real reason im still real upside death seems even terrifying im edge starring abyssi cant guys cant fucking im trying hard cant im lost hollow empty worthless disgusting less average life holds value fucking accident anyway wont anything great life im going change world im even going change someones life im lonely fucking lonely im particularly smart im even close attractive im stoic im cold hear voices see monsters health already declining reason live many many already may knew break may hit hoped something might change knew nothing fuck guys fuck cant keep going cant keep facade lived ive kept living feel fault suffering starting weigh empathy im ready die keep fight ill probably four years road fucking reason worth enduring later im meant world im drag already rapidly depleting resources im fucking psycho hideous fucking psycho evolutionarily deserve live im fit survive please let take self equation please im nothing special nothing worth saving without distractions feel crippling anxiety complete blanknessi seek forms escapism anything distracts life things movies social events eating course sleep im something im sitting begin think happens remind nothing matters worse someone love die moment crippling write stories rnosleep sometimes writing process comments messages biggest thing life believe helps lot distract help escape actual life people leave thankful comments supportive messages enjoyed story keeps sane even lasts days reminds people care stop posting stories wake whenever im distracted state called life dreadful anxiety feelings meaningless return know im probably making post distract comments remind people care exist thank goodness coen brothers success brought bigger budgetsbut rid creativity planned seeing another movie sold went one instead time began forgotten movie see surprised ways one movie hilarious make cheap jokes laughs writing brilliant delivered great skill george clooney nobody say hes pretty face rest cast appreciated many levels whether remember odyssey cant remember last time saw movie clever ive seen others describe beautiful intriguing funny charming describe oh brother movie reminded older seinfeld episodes subplots came together end feel journey building something cant tell coen brothers fail us end certainly disappointing surprising ties loose ends neatly without wearing story uhhh feel bad need help girl asked liked hella panicked said fuck anyone caught noteive mentally unwell yearsim medicated still frequently suicidal ive made three serious lifethreatening attempts handful halfhearted attempts years feel frequently caught note ive written dozen never feels adequate never feels worth happen anyone feel adequate excessive felt melodramatic explanation people whod upset go lazy spend days nothing productive extremely selfish stupid hate much beat causing pain whenever mistake even videogames escape realityi hate family bunch knowitall jerks sisters try make friendships irl easy first place plus many friendships plain terrible may less friends least none harmed much friends harmed recent months realized became eight years old parents older sister abusive towards acting nothing happened often fear whenever something bad beaten one parents sometimes whish back deserve lastly hate humanity among species planet born dumbest deer leaves eat grass eaten wolf living better life humans put rat race one really wants take part superselfish group men living better expense humans expense planet humans celebrate smart really smart find way live life without hurting humans planet truth born rich selfish anything money everyone everything money yesterday came across dude faked deaf ask money charity falling hate everyone around humanity working job recap post abought going interview owner shui place friends dad shes nice dident even give questions im starting tomarow im bus boy cant wait wish luck guys thank redflag hotline found tonight due mistakes cant financial aid next year school panicked ive never felt still scared face family especially financial problems parents going felt control nauseous kept wild thoughts scared know call googled redflag hotline called want kill felt hurt guy talked calming reassuring still feel shaky got past twisting dark blind panic felt bad calling know issue terrible peoples issues exactly suicidal hotline helped much cesar wherever thank got bathroom floor thought going feel insane terrified forever hate mylife parents treats shit girlfriend really talk fuck want life let us failing class first time online school sucks always high b student yet seeing grades slip recent math now dual credit college class scared graduate wont able go want school hell probably wont even walk due covid mentally destroyed lately grades arent helping alot study yet know fact fucked test took genuinely terrified work year nothing end sorry rant least needed type looking gf requirements human optional alive preferably age within years older ladies dm info anyone read oyasumi punpun pretty pog manga long good art im bored wanted know many people read stolen utorpedodickboy whats first impression based username heh filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler aggressively refer women females female deserves properly addressed females females indeed females making futhermore females thought smd meant something different used think shaking dick smh nowtwo months ago starts ive depression years feel cant hold longer probably fault mean fired drinking job liquor store wrecked car hammered top love life leaves job car fuck glue last three years everything real girlfriend confidence little shattered cant push actually try fix years life true accomplishments goals thing ive managed nab beautiful unlucky women deserve let slip away maybe fat idiotic self deserves whats next theres honesty much see working life job ill hate really better death pm wednesday december th gon na wait th month cant deal anymore ive tried everything help yet working attempt work guess ill wait next time absurd story jeanpierre marielle desperately waiting cup hot water story conspiracy actors story aging actors whose careers slowly less active used stunning tribute french actors cinemabr br supported solid reflection cinema acting fourth wall hidden cameras play play story film famous actors play role mixed living life front camera film voyeur quite vague follows actors series episodes make film quite amusing andr dussolier quits film leaves josiane balasko play part great actress hilariously serious especially dussoliers role bitches actors run street asking autographs fights gossip happen recognize pastiche scenes others playedbr br actually whoever know actors least s know french cinema movie less interest references missed still offer good track reflection aging acting public life might sound dumb idea difference pickles cucumbers feel end miserymy mind fuzzy today think ending struggle draining mentally physically exhausting feel unloved unwanted unappreciated hear son fathers day dad lectured finally got frustrated left cant people life see hard lifes struggles always tried good guy person always right thing good job decent home car stress coming angles time even day meant relaxation turns criticized things years even decades ago laid bed last night discreetly sulking way sleep wake go back old daily grind nothing look forward home probably expected cook dinner clean afterwards despite fact mind elsewhere thinking might need find secluded spot nice new blade cut wrists bleed sure leave cell phone behind walk whereever decide deed cant track cars gps find maybe schedule note family friends missingbut dead already faults dark place life never seems go away time think feel lower life find feeling even worse wish sickness anyone want pain stop never stops cant talk anyone close tossed damn psych ward days week tell good go sorry tell crush ive procrastinating months point im still unsure help pls gone time september overthats plan supposed gone january look back post history see took fuck ton overdoses various attempts spent two months psych ward discharged back community wish people respect choice life hands know selfish wish die able make choice im fed life anything genuinely feel belong simple really ive written note plan starting fall place ill gone september thats start new academic year ive come far ive many attempts im certain want dreams ambitions ive tried years think future try believe enough make loved ones feel reassured genuinely cant keep wasting resources people desperate future wish rest im hoping ill leave world tiny bit better came im supposed thank anyone cared read got argument someone sub said bet want unisex section stores said whats problem respond donei think time promise aloud ill nearly every day im feel already used behind youth lifetime indentured servitude health means probably even live retirement age anyway job asks much fired soon cant keep energy will ambition im shitty father cant provide kids shitty husband cant even anymore hate everything want longer failed im done old vaudeville team willy clark walter matthau al lewis george burns one best known broke hating years later agree together tv specialbut find still hate willys nephewagent richard benjamin tries work togetherbr br big hit day george burns oscar best supporting actor somewhat liked written neil simon nonstop oneliners funny making jokes willy als senility never liked matthau never thought good actor something rubbed wrong way character caustic sick quickly aside fun burns great tossing oneliners ease even matthau good matching verbal battles best sequences movie benjamin good willys nephew trying two work worth seeing burns alone jump started career big way two years later another hit oh god good goodnot great matthaus character really makes hard love give dont want anymoreim angry tired recently ive getting dizzy spells im almost always tired irritated cant sleep well want either im constantly floating drifting limbo state hurt brought light teachers got careless accidentally exposed scars spoke school counsellor feels listening finally teacher told stop lying stop hiding asking attention stop pretending life sad people listen know im really pretending sad gain attention even now im still trying figure maybe considering feel lonely despite friends never life feel truly talk anyone want seek professional help even assuming parents mock able afford maybe id distrusting doctor friends people genuinely feel happy around time cant help lose patience stupidly small things angry theyre nice enough brush maybe theyre tolerating know mind bloody hellhole cant look someone something without constant fear theyll hate even small things saying hi pure torture mess hours keep harping bloody thing feel overall piece scum want anything want die probably seeking medical help thats option anymore talking people work now im ready go decided push everyone around away want anyone wasting tears go wanted chest antarctica giant ice cube well greenland count nobody really likes greenland yo fuck school im hella pissed right now given almost practice papers week ago solve even year considered submission shit pulled allnighters finish papers got approx hrs sleep week fast forward today say reconsidered submissions want artwork creative things next week wtf kidding fuck supposed papers huh shove ass serve dinner next days write every last ounce insult know directed towards fuck ruining week dont knowi mess everything one cares ive deeply depressed past days scale probably depressed ive tried talking boyfriend im states currently im vacation sucks replying says doesnt know say know hes therapist still want someone tell everything going okay need someone tell dont know anymore cry every night night cant day im presence family havent eaten days dont feel need im alone friends turn one ive become shell human ive come terms pain dying annoy people nobody suffer presence watched family today hotel room fun beach swam drank ate lunch constantly smiling laughing seemed happy without involved dont need lives one got brothers two children wanted theres im nothing wouldnt missed someone kill thanks advance filler depression filler filer filler filler hate everything filler filler one love filler cant cant thisi hope ok post posted days ago today horrible saw ex emotionally destroyed event saw lot ex friends hes friends im forced see people lot certain circumstances anyway broke crying stop even xanax ended leaving event early parents offered move back town used live thats hours away longer forced around want though want want happy cant im zoloft take xanax needed rarely take though im still happy eaten today want underweight hospital underweight months ago breakup blood pressure dropped dangerous levels hospitalized cant eat though im upset feel nauseous full cant eat wan na move wan na either nothing take pain away either need die amnesia move ill friends ill hope making stay current friends least deal seeing people made miserable lose lose situation hope wake morning woman know raped know heavy title staying friends house past weekend eating dinner mom clearly bothered something sure friend finally decided ask friend mom whats wrong mom reply friend mom whats wrong mom sighed stayed quiet minute looking us explained woman well call works got raped going divorce decided go bar one night met men talked invited party one men drove place party supposed rest drove another vehicle party men brought place raped five course heard friend floored woman going divorce two young children last thing needs top getting fucking raped friends mom explained another woman people knew never known see break break room said want tell us figured young girls need careful realize know woman pretty common name saw store works today seemed little pondered moment connected dots fit description perfectly asked friend confirmed know extremely well ive gone kids birthday party little brother plays kids little boys already hard time divorce knowing break know want go police embarrassment fear feels thinks knows want falsely accuse someone situation weighing told mom someone friends mom works raped forgotten name told mom know im hoping connect dots know much though think will mom knows woman want news spreading able stop thinking friend nightmares able sleep well night im anxious person im sure ill able soon im worried friend never worried much everyone stay safe careful trust wish people speak nigh incomprehensible verses speech towards speaking clear mostly understood way close impossible seem required social events play well enough yet mention force upon known school need moment reflect find old near forgotten local stroll back forth place stumble slowly first discovering old aztec ruin never seen creature help suggestions good hotlinesi called many damn thing every time want discern immediate danger shunt authorities want line soon possible lines actually talk ya know help avoid getting bad ive feeling extremely lonely need guidanceit started went friends place last weekend long story lot details point makes whole thing understandable wish delve take ages write try summarize whats going weve friends almost years went school kept touch graduated visited place weekend things going sorta fine recently installed tinder kind obsessed whole thing texting random people matched phone lot general really bother relationship whatever wants right guess kinda felt neglected unappreciated matter hanging things together went eat sat pub drinks normal fun stuff shake feeling mean anything kept trying friends join stuff know hurt really affected mood felt shit lot small stuff happened said previously take long type skip sunday everything feel nobody cares wants talk ive talked times weekend feeling distant even made plans talk got home friends house even call next day asked told busy talking tinder guy whole night sleep bother much sudden almost feel ive developed feelings scares ive never felt way whenever talk friends feel really hollow sad fuck going feel im missing something life know sorry post big mess need chest feel undesirable moment making extremely depressed guys advice situation thanks reading spoilersbr br saw original tv sometime ago remembered production less gripping beeb costume drama rewatched dvd week still impression good story first weakens heroine becomes oh terribly brave noble returns utterly vile husband hes ill got totally irritated saintliness suppose right thing story written well contributing plenty angst difficult woman independent husband marriage made possession let alone carry scandalously lover expect lot modern audience liked see hard take santimoniousness nowadays especially heroine strong brave admirer ready defend anyone everyone story film im equivocal well done per novel somewhat irritating per todays kind lifebr br steadfast hero gilbert certainly saint put ladyloves variable often cryptic behaviour persistent selfdenial consistently supportive felt great shame helen long last free script allow bit one minute fall quick hug titles came completely ridiculous wed waiting time dripping sentiment undeserving husband decent bit dialogue good embrace hero heroine instead ending though film makers run time finance bothered one minute cut director wants go home now left feeling totally dissasatisfiedbr br high commendations acting toby stephens perfect handsome hero rupert graves superbly nasty selfpitying villain tara fitzgerald satisfactory within confines script forced depressing rather sanctimonious victim much timebr br said love classic dramas virtually sight better much modern drama tv days stars spite irritations still good watch reading biography last russian tzar nicholas ii failure secure armys support decided give film trybr br watched completely open mind knowing anything except reputationbr br things impressed mostbr br shots battleships soldiers used extras stopped think done time place computergeneratedbr br realism maggotinfested meat shot sailor candle legend killed bowl soup movie makes concessions pc cause thankfully invented yetbr br slow descent madness odessa steps sequence first shot limbless man appears idea something might wrong overall shots composed though end feeling comfortable surroundings amputee appears people start falling dramatic poses still shots composed cossacks appear scene incredible shot juxtapositions appear scene easily worth price admissionbr br fact movie unadulterated propaganda rambo fought afghanistan something propaganda different kindbr br overall film marred bit slow narrative nevertheless metropolis cabinet dr caligari movie perfect examples inventive edgy movies still remembered merits today really make modern movies look boring repetitive didnt helpi finally got job year trying thought something occupy sitting home done complete opposite went suicidal thoughts times week every single day every night point want turn brain dont think im really cut alive theres future whats least painful way dieat point life meaning lost years life due abusive family life wouldve chosen want end little pain possible options heard hanging relatively painless im open considering options relapsed day sucks idk im good time rn lifes kinda coming ass probably plan funeral soon im scared best friend know itim totally loss know short back story little trio friends two call allie basically weve real good friends past years last year got thing allie dating months allie broke things feel anything want waste time decided take month figure allie wanted try role around last week allie said want don bit back revealed notebook write thoughts bit therapy im dealing learned today made notebook gave allie try communicate going allie came today told written whole bunch stuff loves pissed said another guy told part wrote wanting commit redflag wanting put gun temple feel bullet go skull fade white ive noticed past days normal self texted today telling wanted talk face face tomorrow without allie around im scared im scared im scared might know hes best friend allie already one close friend commit redflag earlier year dose know basically need help tomorrow tell make want go care grammar proper structure post need help help please ive recently went stuff completely ruined appetite hungry finally go eat instantly feel really full sick without consuming food help feel really lonely sub feel im girl brave enough browse post suicidal bc impulses controli hate right now hate feel suicidal cant deal impulses anymore whether hurt reckless say something ill regret contact someone past control anymore love people despite time thoughts deal every day causing havoc dont know want emotions results actions im hurting everyone around parents friends everyones letting go one help feel alone therapy isnt option one help bur gave long time ago dont usually think redflag strongly usually push feel ill always way always confuse people emotions lately cant even trust ill next minutes dont know im even supposed earth point someone please try give reason stay besides basic people love true dont see light ive cycle years im still one last chanceim giving one last chance weekend im asking girl im finally ending ive given life need last push end getting need film wonderful captures gaming life laughed hard watching movie gaming group hard time campaign dungeon master came movie switches real world gaming world play campaign shows gaming world character switches back real world playing campaign basis module dungeon master lodge writing problem lodge cant finish module characters cant finish campaign killing looting instead role playing lodge wants role play campaign something never done decide bring extra help bring await girl play lodge makes npc non player character paladinwho witness wrong play film want spoil film say movie may big budget film acting may oscar worthy gaming dungeons dragons definitely watch lot fun making film shows going bash movie problems continuity thing low budget film fun slap stick comedy enjoy damn good writing opinion want fun film try im sad dad dad telling go give sister almonds eating almonds different room got said even eat almonds gave laanatmeans saying goddamn told dog mean dad give shit mental health says im boy got ta strong cry someone dies really man friend sjw gon na rant post sorry friend watching film happened monday online criticism say ewww misogyny look soldiers seriously come trivial enjoy goddamn film time either near end ruin ending saying ugh patriarchy theyre women gives fuck said nobody cares one fucking theres worse things going right men soldiers women nurses saying watching much tiktok instagram activist really boosts saviour complex honestly aware things unethical consumption capitalism thats fine thats good cause advocate climate change gender roles yes women soldiers men nurses film reality mirror reality slightest goodness sake kill kids movie worrying progressiveness background acting casting fuck please best friend telling theyre going kill tomorrowwhat fuck let talk lives far away sure know tooi following throught plans leave burning pile garbage call earth past years now way much baggage drag form keep short sweet divorcee age finalized past march th exact upon receiving divorce papers recently discovered lesbian exwife got everything wanted divorce buried debt court fees cost lawyer fees lawyer fees amongst many things top longer rights children unless go mean say go courts allowed write parenting plan time call kids via cell phone times school bed night know used kids hide behind afraid come closet ten years together nothing fool trying figure love align right way seen kids months now left well paying job required travel loved constantly bashed never home always throwing kids face unemployed looking work nov st lost license back child support im pretty sure child support debt costing job opportunities ive applying jobs know im qualified never hear anything back found girl time frame know love cant support financially much going life nothing burden life career financials oh one cars divorce still married separated going divorce took title loan never paid balance pay expired tags renew please someone show going see supposed better part life seeing us government allowing dyke fuck anyway wants taking paycheck one option weekends dismaleverything seems good week days great friends doin well school met great girl weekend comes always hope ill happen always every time stepfather dickhead mother unstable alcoholic thing hear shouting door slamming weeks ago heard something noone hear mother say want die almost took kind pills concerned obviously moved pretending nothing happened today situation almost terrifying part wished die maybe better easier without cant function normally family tried help everyone family tried nothing works long go monday come ill hopeful itll change anything easy give say love feel disappointment yet try hard want end last months life stop thinking failure every sense yet think stop hearing something say head dont understand please want feel normal move breakup im really rough time use advice move really tearing still love guess love anymore made st semester college barely scraping gpa needi completely isolated reached new levels social anxiety depression didnt attend class lectures nothing instead watched khan academy devoted timeenergy schoolwork still barely made means ill upcoming semester probably end cant take anymore stress another one unable cope lifeso thing depression never knew always felt way remember anything includes completely forgotten everything happened life prior puberty one earliest memories something around remember time children school hanging except shy anything usually hung alone thats years past now except consecutive days felt good alone anymore ive always contemplated redflag every day made plans eventually threw away involved wimp actually determined finally end sadly day task anyway something rather impactful happened beginning year put another crisis finally got open one friends turned mistake unfortunately straight went parents told convinced counseling medical therapy started end january now month weekly appointments therapists taking antidepressants convinced things helpful making things even worse huge waste time feel terrible everytime talk reasons basically regular reminder pf hate alive last week ditched therpist stopped taking antidepressants know feel best thing finally feel accomplish fatal task made new friend university deals depression copes cutting places one sees alas mean give tips accidentally anyway started even think control happening cant deal life moment another thing kinda lost control marijuana abuse know serious drug past smoked one two weekend relax months now consume least gram day soon effect fades away immediately start feeling bad everything take next hit whole text pretty badly structured probably incomprehensive doubt anyone actually cares core problem hate living live without anyone existence caring enough show genuine love im gomma stay alone forever way around medication world change fact nothing desirable one want antidepressants help neither therapy said trying seriosly trying make work noticed correct along tell supposed now except killing often lost thoughts driving maybe finally next days grateful advice give whole text typed using smartphone keyboard probably missed lot letters buy hope recognizable im native english speaker sorry mistakes crush agreed 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one expect performances workmanlike excellent nielsen born leader holliman providing great comic relief cook add helps one funniest scenes film gallons bourbon robbie provides effects time extraordinary sophisticated nostalgic pulp way today music done electronics beautiful tones ultimately screenplay careful direction hilcox puts notch rest bmovie lot meant funny intentionally works dramatic connects quite well even stiff moments actors made think horrible situation comes gradually nuance shoved faces injected megaactionbr br inspiration many scifi films fine marker thoughtful science fiction stories books timeold classy entertaining classic went saw movie last night coaxed friends mine ill admit reluctant see knew ashton kutcher able comedy wrong kutcher played character jake fischer well kevin costner played ben randall professionalism sign good movie toy emotions one exactly entire theater sold overcome laughter first half movie moved tears second half exiting theater saw many women tears many full grown men well trying desperately let anyone see crying movie great suggest go see judge im attempting redflagim middle redflag attempt dont understand much mental health liver failure ive swallowed three handfulls tylenol many drinks worth booze distract liver dont know enough know whether actually work im planning case god hope will clue long itll take really dont want wait anymore ive written note already friends family hope enough cant post something social medias im worried someone try stop ruin im sorry downer post needed say something somewhere im sorry want die cant handle life anymore pushed aways everyone caredim read ive ready go mind chaotic cant handle life anymore kind excitedthat ill jumping cliff tomorrow sunday ive neet employed education training yrs intentionally making poor decisions entrap redflag option lol really expect live almost hoping id die ill probably leave phone stuff home bring bus fare one way im thinking stuffing drivers license mouth ducttaping shut id later ezpzs anyone wants see niagara falls canadian side ill probably aim old concrete building cliff someone come let know plur d kandicuff go feel edgelike spend much time thinking big part life reason done yet yet always feels edge waiting last straw reading last mean thing last horrible thing happens know done seem caught work constantly interrupted people seem think manager real manager moron one thinks feel drowning everyday expected take generally ignored friends family one gives shit say try talk constantly talked made feel shut necessary work house double originally quotedwasher dryer broke worth fixing another couple grand replace themgarage door broke ill pay repair guy look goodness knows much cost fix ran shredded wheeler tire traffic avoid smashed grill car maybe undercarriage insurance deductible tooall span weeks money oncejfc world leave alone minute stop one damn thing another tired fucking life want end allcant take anymore used fool thinking tomorrow better cried sleep every night everyday old fucking thing nothing changed fuck life fuck everyone let fuckimg die already fuck fuck fuck grow adult adulthood overrated depressingwhen grow adult often pressured realistic cost often especially luckyfortunate enough whole adulthood grow things turned us jaded weary bitter cynical apathy limited empty cold sad amp depressed personindividual young youthful carefree freespirit creative lively happy amp dreamydreamer child childhood us often times slowly died grow adult many people usually means let go honest amp real say pressured kill dreams reality cruel cold disappointing limiting mundaneboring stupid pointlessmeaningless often times amp depressing especially us fully realized amp wake harsh truth try kill stand awake anymore everyday gets worse feel body wearing cared enough want close feel way everyday agony inch long little things next goal showering trying great depression finally cut nails feeling ghost everyonethe past months hardest come home cry sleep disappointing worst feeling friends thats im mad im sad time amazing people life feel disappear completely fine without want happen bad dont want feel anything dont want hurt anyone actions wan na give everything im failing classes disappointing parents teachers cant therapy cant talk problems theres use cant even happy im around friends theres always something comes keeps happy ill never happy im people age actually use lotion side computer desk meant arms legit soo dry winter feels damn scab lotion solves swear pain pain painthats good life anymore cant remember last smile cant fucking handle im going break know im pushed fucking limits hate lazy unproductive shitbag soonsoon finished feel inside grow weary minute know know know soon done post well simply searching reason hold searching reason stay may know death horizon make less scared guilty guess cry help guess need know bit firstly throwaway account real account call richie year old male suffer clinical depression anxiety suffered years redflag fleeting thought months hit rock bottom began self harming daily shower morning night bed become ritual tried stopping thrown away blades etc always freak without shakes start lashing end pulling hair punching wall till bleed figured may well infact cut posted fall asleep said hit rock bottom mean tablets even working anymore feel empty devoid feeling shell things keeping girlfriend best friend family music gone long time ago thank listening richard prefer noone messages normal account forgot one thing challenge feel good enough live prove good enough deserve live cause believe dont may well stop lying suicidal intentions may scared almost constant drowning almost every thought feel times drowning well maybe drown take pills cut deep make sure jobs done right know go getting diagnosed getting help parents think anything wrong say attitude need drop feeling empty unprovoked sadness maybe years now recently realized past years normal 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chose life im alive bei take care mom lot health problems dreams desires know experience ill never achieve obtain anything good want live want feel way anymore feeling never goes away know make fight life want know improve things desire anything ive even let go wanting feel better never got youtooz bought youtooz today form one favorite streamers im happy d whenever im sad look dick sadder cause even wan na use talk someonethank sitting car lunch thinking situation right now point life lot people hate living expectations someone thought friend cut life likes even though dropped lot things normally happy trying find place live wish say happy feel empty eating properly id one small meal day redflag gets higher higher passing thoughts happen died right friend ex friend carei cried sleep horrible nightmares felt burden nuisance past month able want work ill disturb everyone sleeping feel everyone elses life better disappeared feel right now want feel know okay think trying talk counselor work called back yetin honesty want curl bed cry real friend crawl bed cuddle cry hurts even thinking know going happen time sooni know everyone around going lot ask feel burden distancing everyone tell getting better getting worse want loved point held wish happier fare remember totally derivative almost ridiculous movie warmth makes effective upbeat holiday movie stars pretty newcomer challen kates highpowered ad executive right wedding rush la seattle keep client rejected every presentation transportation difficulties beginning seemingly money first dumb thing atms anywhere must make fortune rate meets cab driver warner looks homeless man drives presentation emerges huge box beef jerky clients product hes take airport flights canceled order la wedding hires take therebr br along way bond learn sweet movie though absolutely nothing new combines six days seven nights films chemistry stars good theyre likable acting good look jerry springer head beef jerky company cameo karl maldenbr br nice film take holiday season lifetime dont think herei dont think subreddit exist said sub named redflagwatch name blatant miscommunication redflag watch organisation dedicated making sure people wont kill subreddit almost seems encourage problem sub consists mainly suicidal people hopeless thoughts someone posts suicidal responses usually people suicidal leads suicidal feelings poster replier reinforced fucking awful life may least try keep living life sucks im suicidal sucks point keep believing better matter bad right now even beliefs lies terrible family members friends always outgrow family never know thrust social situations youre tired job life everything monotonous try something new find way forward go psychiatrist things usually something underlying mental illnesses kind hopeless medical condition cant cured medical science advancing time knows future bring maybe things wont better maybe never happy least try believe next year best year life everything fixes everything works best eventually youll missing much life never dont think sub encourages thinking think subreddit eventually discovered uncovered really mainstream media call atrocity reddit pressured shutting think thats good thing want alternative feelings internet much better one id recommend forum redflagforumcom genuinely wonderful people seem know theyre keep hoping maybe better never know youtube rewind planning agree dislike youtube rewind comes feel free give suggestions wan na buy gorillaz song machine thing bad mean much money realllyyy need spend vinyl prints n shit care people anymore takes much work love hate part people either care lied caring use firing squad test tell love odds chose take place bullet end firing squad odds happening laughably low love sort care learned last years almost every person said loved actually meantso chose indifference humans humans animals animals energy care anymore let play stupid games way indifferently need enact will law away forever alone small price pay beats alternative trust divorced longer speaking man called father know talking age indifference seems many people enjoy personality looks style hate much want harm diei stupid freak see hope considering ending itim sure nothing unique subreddit might even check responses figure nothing lose talking goes girlfriend three years broke days ago person ive felt true connection built trust anyone time full impact really taking toll kind forced take look life really point time short answer complete shit social anxiety worst getting worse ive unable socialize healthy amount people age job normal everyday stuff conversation someone without feeling im going full fucking meltdown im afraid rate im even going able function normally ill completely left behind real world every aspect imaginable mention school stressing worst time year theres added pressure figuring im going uni next year fear uni completely new environment extends even overall fear future something thats way broad concisely sum let alone head around worse considering originally started whole post long story short imagine one thing leads another selfesteem basically nonexistent try view things objectively logically possible cant help feel cliche frankly cringeworthy sounds im either burden mean nothing people around kind relationship past years ive tried counselors medication done make hopeful short time actually improve anything long run person actually make feel genuine happiness girlfriend series complications us go ended breaking clingy im mentioning slander demonstration character holding high regard must resulted behavior troubled enough break im feeling right feeling lost someone never able replace matter hard try feel trying hopeless long run even together still serious doubts occasional breakdowns anxiety fear well everything least someone listen id willing open actually understand personally relate degree feel talking anyone state things lost cause im even typing anyone particular subreddit popped googled something efficient redflag methods something im still seriously considering option criticize usual attempts comfort gets better redflag never option even though theyll likely make difference whatsoever ill try overly cynical pessimistic personal anecdotes probably much impact unless theyre something super relatable connect kind emotional level professional advice better might coming wrong way one obligated try sway direction thats choice figure setting least people take step id dumb attack feel concern remorse anything happens time feel little conflicting last cry help maybe temporary benefit attempt clearly cohesively map everything im still struggling make sense inside one last written confirmation everything turned shit happened come across subreddit time felt necessary ill let words sit now thank reading really cant genuinely cant remember happiness death pleas filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler 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things say one thing stuck really respect bisexuality fetishizing sex women feel complete utter pile shit ive realized im horrible person want better call fuck die rings head loud clear girlfriend thinks im great realize im lousy piece shit completely bat shit insane never loved struggled suicidal thoughts many years idea recover actually better person actual fuck giving auto moderator awards seen much awardee karma bot useless literally throwing money away reason peak stupidity wtf knowi never thought typing redflag note reddit ive thinking ending life long remember finally courage within exactly hours ingest poison take life cant take anymore hate life hate living hard everytime want something good end hurting people im disappointment im tired blamed everytime something goes wrong parents curse everyday hate made way fault im tired hit everytime something wrong young girl wanted lot things become astrophysicist go harvard kind person successful now write emptiness inside longer desire live final goodbye hopefully one finds saves hopefully though havent good world everyone deserves second chances ive given everybody including many chances time today im giving second chance ill take last walk read good book last dinner finally sharp everyone house fast asleep ill take poison whoever gon na reply thank kind cruel words thank concern time cue goodbye reddit awesome use social media app except reddit guys think tips sending everything hell girl tell talking girl long time social networks calls think seen times girl sister one best friends problem talk problem thing thing tomorrow im going go friends house im going see moment nerves selfesteem began kill began wonder interested truth types questions eat little little advice give screw make stoparghh wish jump front bus probably cut knowing cant yay woop woop life joy tfw youve happy week start feel big sad creeping back man tell something dont know filler filler filler filler filler im happy want diei got sober ago im happy im healthy love people life love life love everything future might become disgusted disappointed exhausted whatwhom sure hell know pit lower part chest hard concrete feels crushing unity desolation loneliness hopelessness physically feel despair involves matter well well think self harming often usually life getting better happier spent whole week people love love spent whole week things love good spent whole week thinking moment right moment cut neck spent every moment outside house wishing back bathroom razor hand ran fingernail across site im going cut good friends wanted either locked psych ward tear fucking neck open wanted cry want die want live everything feels tasteless tiring even though everything beautiful exactly feel powerless urge know going kill kill im control always control tiring fighting hate happening actually love im might go wrote redflag notes want die feel cant fight anymore made likehalf song anyone rap wan na help man knew much alfred hitchcocks remake thriller married couple james stewart doris day vacation morocco got caught nightmare include murder espionage assassinations worst kidnapping yearsold son movie hitchcock considered superior original great fun stewart day good chemistry together film filled wonderful comical scenes dialogues well scenes chilling suspense br br inclusion que sera sera proved stroke genius rarely song fits content plays important role movie que sera sera man knew much br br hitchcock treats us live music playing arthur benjamin storm cloud cantata almost ten minutes scene londons royal albert hall assassination important politician attempted takes place scene cantata simply marvelous ned kelly wonderfully made australian film honouring true australian hero taken world ned best friend joe byrne members kelly gang film explains perhaps justifies neds actionsbr br exceptional cast present give stellar performances brings film life great job heath orlando bloom fantastic joe playing role quiet loyal ladiesman well swept moment moment almost believed gang win battle glenrowan alas bebr br aspects film fictional avid ned kelly fan supporter slightly disappointed perhaps film couldve gone longer cover kelly gangsneds life felt enough coveredbr br regardless flaws moving film stirs sorts emotions hey id assume film better watch rather mick jagger trying portray ned society longer need white women idk tell ya dont see need anymore depression overcoming meim lost feel worthless feel place world anxiety makes impossible grow person positive outlooks anymore know im going anywhere life dont see light end tunnel see therapist parents taking sort medication help dont know im honestly scared need advice thoughts people love long possible good looking bad personality sucks repost forumi notice people say stuff attractive people try life looks main thing matters guess understand people think media whatnot ive learned throughout life completely ive rejected broken men based im boring uninteresting fun depressing etc men never feel connection ive fucked years sex men right away basically basing relationships sex ive shitty personality years feels difficult change seem authentic fun long every time guy rejects breaks girl always good looking makes feel shit know must better personality even though look good still guy want know sounds mean feel happening even ex boyfriend im still love hurts much im still friend saying likes girl fun interactions makes smile even want know never fun interactions go dinner sex fault wish change want hope keep friend maybe hell seems small chance want start think im perfect way insecurities majority people whenever think wanting work done fix subtle things come back remember getting even better looking going help man likely make feel better basically want ctb im man im love hate wish someone think im going go anywhere life trying career thats different story yes know definitely people worse everyone different though much take life whatever problems someone still problems even people consider slight problems know anymore chance start guy must happen ok something happend today time ago finally courage dm crush wanted something actually said yes happy talked dm bit school hit pretty well thought holy shit maybe gon na girlfriend one classes got cancelled today period asked go mall friends said yes happy yes really fun liked plays minecraft asked home play minecraft together really fun remeber seeing tiktok talking class gay something asked actually gay responded yes time im sleep leave something read wake morning planned kill st even thati finished senior school last year ive preparing college without everpresent stress school keep distracted mind gone shit sleep odd hours im writing random amounts time spend night thoughts keep company best year guess th november decided id end st december counted day even feeling weird jolt excitement realised november days instead wanted check soon possible wake nd december realise still alive never real plan even note drafted guess hoped wish dying sleep every night hope actually wish death ill die sleep guess im lazy even cant believe thought actually guts im joke getting admitted hospitali live uk sure whether elsewhere theres something quite system far understand way getting immediate help ie hospital failing actual redflag attempt show doctor say going kill todaytomorrow method experience pretty much hmm heres slight med adjustment see feel come back month whilst appreciate simply enough space hospitals really understand scenario occur surely made decision make doctors appointment day tell anyone experience situation want leave tonightnot bothering throwaway dont know anyone care found im years old friends family ive felt dying long remember point pushing cowardice bc hotlines say gets better eventually never good job year attempt took jobless couple months havent drive really try find anything sleep much body let wish anything left keep really dont im constantly physical emotional pain ive many therapists psychiatrists nothing make better want go whatever next maybe finally go maybe reincarnation real ill happier tomorrow flat funniest spoof pretentious art house films madebr br flick exposes clichs excruciatingly bad downssyndrome actors terribly heavy self important dialog scenes supposed shock fall flat jarring editing pointless plot points wrapped kind smirky miasma disrespect audience vague psychdrivelbr br achieves exactly designed hilarious satire tedious movies made spoiled teenage trustfunders show parents ask theyve last two years received cannes award presenter werner herzog rumored told film fact spoof part films supposedly blew info day refuses discuss incidentbr br anyway see laugh classic humor many years come long time reddit lurker first time posteranyone take sertraline mg per day andor propranolol mg times per day need drink alcohol experience wary sleep really sink beers haha newbie antidepressants took mg fluoxetine years prior switchover last month found effect depression anymore thanks advance propranololsertraline amp alcohol kinda wish able say reason head saying anything disrespect punished want yo fuvking give ship scenarios write fanfic wan na write enemies lovers slow burn long fanfic need pairings lgbt welcome straight couples work hopefully ship harry potter avatar last airbender adventure time undertale anything works though give tropes scenarios youd see ill let know use ideas itll posted archive ao ill make follow post first im dedicated fan modestys reading comics child found earlier movies heroine unsatisfying fail one rocks br br well go ms blaise working casino gang robbers comes along starts gambling friends lives robber wins one round shell tell wins two times row one staff members goes free sounds stupid yeah well im good explaining either br br tells growing war zone without parents friends helping old man refugee camp escape living natures rules hunt food teaches read fight approach civilization caught war taken rebellions shot old man dies leaves meet city herselfbr br meets man whos casino working story ends br br follow theres awesome fight lines totally cool alexandra staden terrific modesty blaise modest strong graceful intellectual comiconebr br feels awkward though hear modesty speak slightly broken accent thats relevant comic book blaise cant speak loud certainly must somewhat existing accent mention weird everybodys speaking english balkanbr br acting really good even child personifies young blaise must applaud br br favorite part must rips dress kick stupid robbers ass totally awesome d cant wait real adventure begins next moviesbr br watch disappointed think cracked type code may late party accept fact im ugly subpar intelligence major clue im simply regret every decision youve made every meaningful relationship life nobody hurt partner time drinking heavily leading breakdown later night selfharming feel riddled guilt partner witnessed stop feeling way recently relapsed selfharm feel deeply ashamed lived five attempts far debating sixthim total waste space saps life everyone around hallucinate experience delusions horrific anxiety focus issues almost never leave house live pathetic existence ssidisability drain family theyd never tell certainly exhausting deal friends cant help want say oh positive great guy im ive one relationship odds schizophrenic male getting married onset something last looked oh theres someone everyone keep chin real world know thats true nobody wants year old schizophrenic crazy baggage cant work useful skills world unimaginably cruel im getting sick thought alive right much prefer cold grip oblivion maybe im failure redflag maybe thats cant one stick id rather die tossed onto street mother dies brother job funds keep afloat id bankrupt disability pay shit reason im grateful medicaid life medication literal torture id rather return im running reasons live saw toronto international film festival beautiful elgin theatre blown away beautiful cinematography brilliant adaptation tricky play last least bravura performance al pacino born play role perfectly balanced equally strong performance jeremy ironsbr br film deftly explores themes love vs loyalty law vs justice passion vs reason might protest content inherently antisemitic consider historical context story delicate nuanced way told adaptationbr br sister recovering addict recovery almost two years feeling redflaged anxious overwhelmed life told worried relapse suicide gets overwhelmed try talk help alleviate redflag life done things clean house make sure peaceful space worry got doctors contact information need insurance card call make appointment asked couple times time overwhelmed already asked right ask much push hard gets overwhelmed freaks house two children worry children much stimulation one year old want help care afraid leave alone afraid anything actually afraid talk try keep kids away give quiet think upset afraid try talk going overwhelmed afraid talk things provide distraction show upset think care overwhelmed help idea know guys finally omg learned tag posts nsfw im happy im runnin low serotonin chemical imbalance got twisting things reasons rnoescapehentai banned night might really final nightim going honest ive wanted die long time sometimes felt really bad sometimes bad right now feel really alternative thing drink family expense years now perspective drive friends got nothing im thinking either driving car train station decapitation train going forest short drop suspension prefer train next one comes hours hotline really worth iti much detail hotline probably last resort ive read quite lot posts sub hotline mostly depicted unhelpful bad know therere probably good people working hotline wanted know worth really want trouble cops called please reply greatly appreciated leaving need place ranti want fucking kill ive typed words written words even said aloud unless knew alone loving family friends boyfriend idea one friend best friend ubderstands depression job five pounds name feel shit waste space going one day next fuck times drink makes things worse drunk horrid embarrassing hungover darkest cant push seek help cant see point easier swallow pills run knife across throat live mind anymore thing stopped cant family ive started stop caring im scared future holds one annoying friends jojo references really make almost everything jojo reference world sure wonderful place mother needed went bedmy brain feels scrambled eggs thoughts strong teenager really fucked time mom needed slept really fucked time really suicidal im scared overwhelming crippling feeling angst days particular situation still feel shit nearly bad last night ive avoiding mom said something lovingly im crying know im disappointment still loves deserve go outwhat best way die something heroic die saving someone fight drug gang let shoot pretend shoot police fake gun something shoot try break world record high chance fatal pet crocodile trigger feminist decide darius goes west film depicting american belief everything possible try hard enough wonderful fun filled sometimes heartbreaking film shows young man never expected longed see outside confines lovely city athens ga darius wished see ocean longtime friends logan ben several good friends decided make darius wish come true started small ben logans mom started email campaign bring awareness darius condition duchenne muscular dystrophy raise funds fellas take darius see ocean see great united states say young college buddies succeeded bringing hope awareness dreaded disease understatement realized darius dream put lives hold showing love care tons fun darius helping darius see turn show traits others suffering dmd darius went volunteer red cross sitting chair collecting money along buddies outside local grocery store wonderful smile tells world dreams come true need hope group college friends support care give darius guys oscar one deserves martha sweeney guys wtf happened kurdish people believe ghosts called eshma chetr find google including parents parents siblings ancestors siblings say mom son daughter died starvation theyre african american someone trapped basement feed nan flat circle bread day one day went basement give nan single body found next days people somehow found reported still bodies found guy sentenced life prison tho windows exit escape somehow found anywhere incident everyone put whole meal nan left alone hours nan slowly eaten everyone started stopped working year anyways enough bread getting eaten found showered week specifically wednesdays showered wednesdays hit one got injured injured died die one showered wednesdays never stopped still going kurdish happened parents still let us shower wednesdays even tho siblings think bs day sister woke awake see pulling nighter shower parents know got injured anything yet proved us bs today went bathroom phone flushed waited minutes joke flushed thought accidentally flushed think much another minutes later flushed time positive flush said flushes time got ta tf outta another minutes later flushed got tf outta remembered sister showered day freaked believe theyre real siblings believe parents will back school nursing feel never going able stand working mental physical illnesses diarrhea year signs physical causes likely due redflag unhappy makes mad experience positive emotions normal person enjoy anything husband sick hes staying someone past weeks tried plenty meds psychotherapy none worked well weigh never period worst acne life hormonal issues stopping oral contraceptives november attempt help gi issues going years intense depressive episode experienced feel much longer enjoy anything try hard happy people enjoy life without kind struggle hate alive feels cut mind body pushing past limits hated past years feel ill content sick clawing scrap positive emotions suicidal caring whether live diesomeone redirected subreddit last post nostupidquestions said post im depressed mind dying time actively pursue guess makes suicidal reddits guidelines guys think need help something wrong guess go bed pm every day online classes going start everyday guess need go bed pm every day now thats teenagers go sleep right school system im good personim good person lie time ones love want others getting hurt im scared losing people reality makes things worse want better cant honestly life everyone better without family basically outcasted boyfriend best person ive met still fuck things cant keep going cant change either want die everyone forget id rather rot hole alive right now probably belong anyway end matter situation ill end fucking everything deserve happiness love anything good im horrible deserve death deserve people forget need input guys design tech project hey everyone id ask quick moment time answer questions design tech coursework dt aqa coursework gcse anyones asking relating various aspects teenage life id really appreciate submissions thank advance form herehttpsformsglemhqjspzpspvz play doom today say comments paul grace hartman husbands grandparents deceased met watching old movies good way see work always enjoyed old movies happy discover good one going serious existential crisis please help meim nihilist best describes motivation im compelled anything life completely pointless tried killing past someone please tell redflag irrational good decision need helpi came ask advices friend bad state mind right worried friends long time went lot always helping depressed suicidal meant still means lot got better last months really want die looking forward whats next happen life problem still make suicidal jokes depression statements funny even sick try help someone often joke start following jokes scared dont know stop one started friend talking depressed state understand know help even ive went situation sometimes try start conversation bad joke mine trash meme dies fast 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leaked dailymail httpsyoutubeypswqpfdiw start war sabaton overrated cahrlie damelio talent fortnite good chocky milk tastes bad dont know fix thismy friend died im state im going miss funeral boyfriend processing wont talk im scared dont know im going recover relationship will ive suicidal really making worse plan killing home days im supposed kept away medications ive expressed suicidal intent past psych enough stockpiled seriously hurt die im fucking tired stressed nose started bleeding waterfall yeah couldnt nearly passed today pretty pog struggling teenageri young feel lost please tell lot live know real world want hear now read story going quite long small kid always different reason insecurities enjoyed alone always drawn idea death principle someone vanishing world intrigued losing people close age previously surreal concept hit hard death grandfather death friend due brain tumor young impacted think legacy left behind day friend died brain tumor died shortly birthday vividly remember last interaction birthday gift picked obviously bought barely able talk siblings gave gift idea book honestly never read left behind way read sometimes stare book cover drown thoughts angry great person great soul last person derserved die think reason religious never understand god kill kindhearted child destroy family grew despised death never feared fast forward years exact fell love really bad perfect caring loving beautiful best friend dated onoff year broke multiple times know fault broke heart times count insecurities bruised ego stupid things loved anyways put never started hate damage caused drug soon high us suffering perfect description relationship broke well never back together wanted turn new leaf denied sad every single day neglected emotions honestly stupid beyond broken needed help want discuss respect privacy ugly say least long time ago short conversation joking around smile filled joy soon alone realised denying pain bursted tears worst time life followed lost lot good friends breakup everybody judged rightfully much crying time reason hurts much destroyed someones life barely consequenses little love left additionally anyone trust enough go friends afraid telling others pain nobody knows much struggling now hate waking everyday hope die proboably thinking calm relationship anything feel unworthy live young handle emotions hard continue usual life care anything happens whether school personal life anything becomes worse end spot ex school seems happy now last time smiled without faking ago often fantasize people react death anything thing holding back pain cause family sick pain crying alone want die ampxb nikocado avocado uh jeepers creepers ffffffiddlesticks uh spaghettios talk anything stupidfeeling little crazy wife said filing papers tiday im bad thoughts hurting people wish fall back asleep think need stay put hurt anyone wish someone cry dont even wan na talk want someone understand without explaining everything thats gon na go well cant fucking explain people america mostly texas guys ready snowvid school canceled months according mother nature god trying apologize peaceful snow sister talking emotionally physically abuse dad even funny anymore realized fucked hes parenting cant believe thought okay long im lonely pls watch httpswwwtwitchtvgoosethecat online hobbycommunity join wanted something part covid cuz im bored want something actually partake instead learning suggestions hobbies arent expensive much appreciated thanks yo heavily suicidalstarted around started really considering redflag gotten worse currently situation considering every day months never told anybody irl least ampxb things really better current age said best time peoples lives yet miserable doubt going better time absolutely desire continue living basically wasting precious time waiting die losing battleeverything turned shit got pretty sick last year work losing house declaring bankruptcy marriage rocksim constantly thinking redflag pawned guns help bills ways thing stopping fear ill fuck end vent quasivegetable care affect anybody left behind ill gone matter slowly day day im losing continue im tired day day shit tired failing tired pissed pissed take single pill right percent sure end life want stop experiencing lifeim really sure im posting need somewhere vent im fucking empty tired know science says effort put easier something gets feel true eating much work im depressed try hard fail continuously school tomorrow almost midnight sunday choose getting enough sleep getting work done trick cant either slept well week everytime think work feel anxious literally make top im empty numb bored time summer thought structure school help really didnt feel bad considering entire education waste days im depressed remember anything past depressed years made gpa low year matter ive disassociated states past months nothing meaning anymore seems even non depressed perspective humanity stupid shallow boring friends people ive dated bore maybe im depressed feel theyre painfully inexperience im interested one anything im anxious leave house depressed override anxiety time parents completely negligent child sports hobbies communities im see super depressed hated medication tried im tired try another med month experience terrifying side effects know fix life stays know long im planning commit redflag seriously need help im better im rly scared ill rebecome person againi suicidal thoughts long time seen piece shit thats worth living made chart put pros cons killing reason didnt scar little sister life mom say fault kept going years im actually getting better started working showering etc years careing something fix week running reason im better girl know seems care lot im rly scared ill go back feels good able go friends without feeling dont belong acting goofy dont seem quiet im petrified night think ill become person created dopamine rush love ill pass passes guys gals sub seem nice wholesome im really karma felt sudden rush emotions wanted express sub feels safe gives homely warm vibe yall seem fuckboy fuckgirl type bullying type give advice good make us laugh help us cope nice wholesome pretty cringey stupid teenagers sub lt sub love yall take care awesome let anyone tell xx thats rude ngl teen doesnt watch porn wtf everyone want watch dudes dick cumming watching gay midget porn watch interracial lesbians sexual intercourse ok beyond joke nowive looked mother many years died november ive diagnosed cancer undergoing presurgery chemo enough dog ive years lesions brain likely cancerous theres nothing save chemo put cant afford anyway much one person go call quits allowed go now depressed kinda heartbroken girl shes really smart im attracted reason today playing ctf field team made defender team came asked always defender well idk make game wrapping came group moved side away dont think likes maybe even hates might give mom said good girl frick im dirty minded ive made mindim pretty sure soon ill gone wanted say hope every lost soul looking comfort finds happiness even small fleeting moments worthy life matter much youve abused unloved abandoned matter horrible things tell matter evil world seems possible climb pit find makes happy even depressed cant shower weeks bed hope least one day smile favorite pet snuggling hope smile beat favorite video game find small hobby gives joy hope find joy small fleeting moments enough keep going even minute comes wavessome days feel great really look forward whats next days feel hit wave something pure depression suicidal thoughts started around years ago havent gone day didnt think killing usually deal days think fuck lose suicidal thoughts come something prevents death anxiety dont know happens die freaks limited time whats next say im spiritual really happens im sorry im getting topic tried drowning twice couldnt drive along cliff consider yanking wheel taking thoughts come whats gon na happen die andy curl ball let thoughts take brain hate thoughts prevent kill days call blessing days curse maybe primal thing thats keeping alive maybe brain sends thoughts make sure dont kill dont know cant take anyone want know someone thoughts deal usually work play video games read watch movie keep mind time googled anything people dealing death anxiety werent helpful thank taking time read really appreciate aloneive dealt suicidal thoughts depression whole life depressed state ive fucked life im failing school im thirties wife sure wants stay confided ive dealt depression years thought making way excusing actions wanted support im taking steps think take ive started therapy ive working hard atwell working hard im trying everything man see future im afraid matter enough cant sleep night cant eat stomach attacks thing look forward life moment hope wife one day trust ive said ive dealt suicidal thoughts whole life theyve never strong theyve last days sometimes guts swallow handful pills done life short term people may sad may better long run youre super straight bro theres way arent ugly lmaoo aint nobody wan na date anyway know sayive diagnosed borderline depression years ago worked hard change mind worked found love life felt happy lately feel im downwards spiral depression life hard last weeks last years always felt still power way feel feeling gone feel lost hit punch gut want end moment partner thing brings joy life feeling years ago coming back feeling emptiness beeing understood feel empty shell human chaotic thoughts feels thousand negative thoughts cant finish single one real way stop cant take anymore want hit head wall make stop cant anything feel complete nutcase want feel anymore want feel distraction past used cut really strong urge afraid partner find think fault obviously isnt anything make mess mind go away want wake another day feel worst part last years know miss feeling peace within cant seem find peace days cry sob time im alone want die living took big toll last weeks usa kinda gay tho days rain rain go away mums dildo head anyone hate bio usually post wise hive mind rteenagers improve bio grade really wish people took verbal abuse seriouslyi sick tired people calling sensitive bring alll verbal emotional abuse went stfu please stfu adult still feel comfortable body cant trust please live traumatise people untill show signs trauma days ask functioning adult even worth whether giving alcohol drugs better option younger brother booked car drove secluded place gases carbon monoxide im worried friendi know much irl internet friends im worried may going something know im kind freaking currently answering texts reddit messages know redflag something mind know im ghosted something going got pretty upset advice losing head feel traumaticthis story got depression little kid years age two classmates neighbours come house often used play games talk one guy rude aggressive mean ignored hate cus classmates guy comes house often soft sweet kid made believe nice guy believed nice friend general later things gone worse realise worst enemy often visits home sits home day long even spends entirety summer holidays home welcomed home thought nice guy compared classmate rude nature continued long time came tenth grade visits home th grade became ultimate bully often bully house say disturbing shit actually put two phones believe intentional guy poor background luxury house comforts house make nasty comment everything comes house gave negative vibes dominated things later somehow avoided days later rethinking makes depressed traumatic puts place allowed early age needed friendship feel taking action form made solely mentally depressed coming house long years came house friend end became bully house feel depressed every redflag trauma gave situation sits head day long day night almost months want depression lead happy normal life please help heavily depressed conartist pretended best friend forgot rant friends day good thing remembered real socialism state mandated gf incels oppressed group world weird talk comments sure talk guy point suicidal op saying bad things hes point experience help fuck mom helpinga couple days ago asked friend livestreamed redflag watch made clear intend asking fun question ask pretty chill nice talk forgot earlier yesterday mom comes room starts lecturing even think killing got calls friends mom regarding considering redflag mom lectured hour instead pray left feeling worse later evening brought topic time front dad began lecturing good half hour talk friends either usually talk anyone feeling really day really needed vent somewhere consider pretty good friend mine someone trust im never talking anyone redflag feel now mom randomly bringing today morning telling pray think redflag fuck mom helping ps real point post needed vent somewhere im sorry belong sub dont know turnyears ago diagnosed depression anxiety cut regular attempted redflag went meds worked really hard improving situation eventually found coping mechanisms things going really well finally finished college years depression caused fail many classes found highpaying job didnt necessarily love gave funds go things love ive good relationship years place genuinely happy hadnt even thought hurting couple years went shit virus biggest thing used cope making fun plans always something look forward nothing look forward anymore boyfriends mom stage cancer supposed bucket list year shes housebound cant anxiety high unbearable ive panic attacks every night barely sleep want hurt time learned tie noose yesterday things dont better know going end around neck im scared idea deal dont know heyy heres another quiz guys seem enjoy reading answers heres another one personal info asked none questions mandatory answer ones feel anyways fun keep saying think see even though theres way reply sometimes wish yall sound really interesting edit ty pointing hindi hindu mom found femboy pics mostly accepting said okay experiment keeps bringing oh boy embarrassing af made lofi song today check u want herehttpsyoutubejqldjkdjyk pretty good think want kill stress im scared dieim still school school personal life stressing much life stressed depresed mess im still considering redflag feel nobody cares feel one house expect grandma friends say oh youre smart talented dont think anything special im far behind school grammar punctuation teachers give b mom thinks need d normally cry reason normal always distract things dont really friends outside school anyway need help much possible ampxb ampxb im sorry jumbled mess reach tohey everyone posted seeking clear honest guidance feel view ask friends help distorted weekend yesterday ive edge ive self harmed im extremely suicidal know deep im scared wish dead know reach friends need support im anxious telling anyone due worrying ill see attention seeking exaggerating ive called friend usually reach low moods times busy chat made feel even alone feel stuck basically words say ask help bio teacher clinically insane said mitochondria powerhouse cell said wrong broooo fucking excited girl im really called adorable oh man back jesus christ im excited aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa going later today aaaa goodness im sorry im bursting right now oxford mississippi least okay paris paris culver city apart establishing library footage real mccoy paris spirit nothing nowhere better okay kelly astaire caron hepburn ditto alan lerner light years ahead vastly overrated comden green scripted kellys big s musical singin rain curious replication lyricists writing screenplays featuring songs lyricists balance things gershwin numbers far superior arthur freednacio herb brown numbers alan lerner feel outclassed story detain us anomalies kelly got change match painter ie bohemian yet able scare perfectly good suit hours notice foch invites dinner hotel welldocumented love stay sequence lovers strangely unmolested passersby lovers bridge background totally free pedestrian vehicular traffic feelgood musical stands falls score case stands four square feel good musicals go definitely top give ideas things draw plz give things draw try draw theyre good might post suicidalive suicidal better part life started treatment ive made progress much feel total loser depression bad im ssi idk ssi makes feel ill never normal friends family connections birthday coming making everything worse thinking back past year ive done absolutely nothing ive burning bridges anyways going lucky enough commit without much interference life little live fori keep deluding think im young enough turn situation around thats wishful delusional thinking years life meant build foundation rest life right im depressed barely leave apartment disability much foundation build idk ive never really reached strangers internet late im ive already called crisis line help much yelling void nd week new medication already fucking forgot along whole backpack need school seriously feel beyond stupid stop crying hy fuck somehow always manage find way fuck everything sick everything sick even trying better everything feel fucking shit even everybody around much fucking fun happy hell still feel fucking indifferent done bullshiteven writing feels pointless making feel worse venting even help anymore happening life fucking better stupid fucking people ruin fucking brain kid even fucking talk anybody sick everything want feel good stop feeling goddamn empty tired burden kill terrible girlfriend feel forgot medication venting say lonely huge contradictory along people terrible notredflag trust issues jealousy mostly social redflag kills every situation sober years good thing addiction problems spiral control effect work life fired stop showing friends know talk people casually friends people drank drugs anymore one ex cheated friend mine even see coming huge shock love time years ago anyone still think miss even tho talk take anti depressants work going feel suicidal time see bright future loneliness working weekend everything nothing hypothetically girlfriend work worth constant worry cheating leaving right back year old male nothing live looking sort advice heard sure help possible maybe movie one best jackie chans movies think everybody agree mall fight one best fighting scenes made memorable stunts impressive made movie action classic movie influenced many action movies think nowadays action movie makers learn film remake chase scene thing modern technologies make even better funny scenes made movie enjoyable even jackie fighting althou think put fighting scenes film im th grade biology right righting definitions annoying formal make sound weirdo jacks daily meiosis bit ago instead saying sperm goes egg create offspring shit male reproductive cell enters female reproductive cell create offspring organism dumbass shit quickly think check seperate windows confirm profiles made recently within past month even day adding becoming really annoying profiles add weird theyre obviousy fake specifically pose certain kind person add another stuff im lesbian date older men ive never really hung anyone older know cant actually know people weird joke daddy issues dad still around really funny joke weird note one profiles disappeared really really creepy im failuregeneric title yeah depression fuck life shit im facing kicked university bad attendance nonexistent im child want leave parents alone cant anymore im confused empty want sleep im miserable pathetic cowardi struggled suicidal thoughts long put semicolon tattoo wrist thinking keep following im realizing selfish stay alive everyone know happier without mom resents views came bisexual told hated im going hell considers biggest failing mother turn wanted best friend abandoned activity used love together made rash promise favor rather give favorite past time favor friends avoid make excuses talk blame im needy pathetic partner really love think make happy want much attention need much help everyday tasks hes loner stuck socially impaired anxious depressed ugly fat disgusting excuse human wakes middle night sobbing someones hurt know handle know im posting know need fix everything ive fucked im scared im weak reason havent killed yet really hurt familyi feel im walking thin ice dont know much longer keep going plan im missing feel day getting closer though feel im letting cause love know level blame guess easier thinking affect friends managed cut life except roommates obvious reasons even though tried im lost point dont think im coming back wish wasnt good pretending im okay im much coward ask help yknow whenever feel insecure look many camels im worth fiftyone baby fifty one im better now plani battled depression started thinking redflag im now loving bf sweet newborn son love much center world theyre keep going tear time got pregnant quickly bf wonders baby even sometimes know anyone long bf father baby cant breastfeed baby anymore took pride honestly pumping rewarding supplemented formula needed often okay worked well bf decided put baby formula thought better still agree bf joked starving baby able pump enough day stopped pumping together kick gut might well said shit mother im trying best im hes neither us ready committed anyways im trying ive struggling school pass classes semester im going kicked college parents financial support end kicked ill give car back technically letting use im school money help ill taken insurance see anymore general even act grandparents baby theyll dissappointed failing school think might pass classes best everyone burden bf much better anyways baby hurt financially know hell cry first hell used remember gets older cant feed anymore use bf space back feel worry anymore health issues expensive one deal anymore tell anyone failed classes parents help support bf son something sudden death happened know grades know failed bf know failed classes mother hurts part want part wants watch baby grow want marry bf want happy long though im antidepressants helping anything im comfortable seeing therapist im trying pass classes finals week im studying ass much take care son iust think keep living fail another huge thing life better financially mentally better everyone friendsi tried really hard school year dont understand involved hang people want hang friends realized tonight one friend stopped inviting things feel mad jealously ability friends people realize theyre going go farther life will reach climax jerk cant cum ok im yo guy want know empty ready end allheres one thing saved lifemany us made feeling unique story today time start mine life m ive depressed unhappy felt alone even presence wife family friends live pretty normal life outside inside im appear dont know feel two years police officer pushed edge wanted way felt stuck wanted end wanted pain stop hopeless couldnt family never hurt able find one thing give hopea purpose life nature todays society people focused working able live takes away life really forget world around us stressed whatever experienced experiencing life time amazing beautiful world full tremendous places landscapes animals goes take solace beauty nature comes clear mind pain worries take walk trail go overnight camping trip take day photograph somewhere never pick trash think things nature assure focus right pain go away even moment thought nature thing gave hope find better place may may help urge try even cry alone woods one thing saves life always anyone wants needs talk one another girl asked marry said later day real deleted pictures social media shortly afterim completely done looking help point put opinion comments reply agree disagree opinions arguing dunno gon na go oh well lets say hypothetically liked crush words although flattering woman specifically lets say waifu gamers needed serious inquires hello friend desperate need help trying build minecraft house theres much girl gay looking nontoxic players help us offer much companionship lots love singular crossbow share friend willing gamer gf depending pretty house non toxic please help sever cold minecraft homless keep getting killed m f change mind hottest thing someone chow theyre attracted idk im attrached guys whith curly dark hair mentally ill mentally ill want guy curly dark hair gender asf girl wan na hot id born man idk idk idk bermuda triangle irresponsible smh head constantly losing things bet mom take away money grandma gave lose ampxb bad untrustworthy piece shit triangle gt spam every dms ok basically trolling friend irl fake snitching teacher thing going ask time got tackled ground started choking death something sus got face accident im going detail deleting minutes guys talk life good bad even extremes want know youre okay feel loved itim using throwaway account way im going straight point basically everything stressful feel empty anyways im going kill im going call stupid hotline im attention im way stop feeling ive already decided im going reason worried nothing anywhere put already wrote note everything last things wanted things make happy thank listening im bored lets basics age gender height weight zodiac sign first name birthday favorite things favorite color favorite food favorite music genre favorite song favorite movie favorite tv show favorite animal favorite thing lifeexperience hobbies sports future job ambitions drank smoked done drugs pets best memory embarrasing moment dream vacation looks hair style hair color eye color body type build ethnicity current outfit favorite outfit type underwear wear relationships sexuality relationship status crush celebrity crush cheated someone ideal girlfriend boyfriend idea perfect date asked anyone sex sexuality virgin anyone seen naked tattoos piercings sex experience sent nude sexted kissed anyone attractive sexual nsfw bra dick size pubic hairnatural trimmed shaved none body hair guys circumsiced often masturbate last time masturbate watched porn ideal sexual physical attributes favorite sexual fantasy turns turns misc send dm chat message ask whatever cant say ask one story dirty fat filthlike middleage woman lives society knowing filthiest woman lived someone take crown one couple nice film people ordinary pieces comedies mind disturbing sense humori surprised seeing scenes love pungent kindbr br nails pink theyre pink af always makes look painted something idk painted certain pink probably look girlfriend toes wearing skirt please help im afraid pursue help want nothing foreveri care family cares mother father assholes bringing owe shit fuck deserve seeing dead body care cry idiots may pay funeral want want waste money waste fine tired getting school care senior high school fuck humanity fuck school pure indoctrination fuck college demanding wasteful money teaching wasteful shit free exist truly free born fuck everyone equally think govment allowed die euthanasia legalized gone slavery oppression true free will ye game freak lazy dont care games sell pokemon franchise doesnt even competition im set plan one thingso im set plan im going im scared im actually looking forward months ago car accident totaled car got extremely bad concussion moved back home mom little sister im longer car ive working mom take care property spend lot time barn around horses problem im allergic horses excruciating migraine everyday im around barn almost everyday top insanely bad insomnia nothing psychiatrists tried worked ive every antidepressant antipsychotic hypnotic think nothing worked cant sleep cant eat thing helped marijuana thats option anymore even little live contemplated ending ive got plan set issue worried happen cat go hope mom take care little sister slightly allergic want miss sad literally go anymore im exhausted wanted alive yeah go sleep wake thatd greatposting main account really care point really sure im posting anyway ive exhausted everyone ive talked need kind outlet turmoil head recently th birthday took month really hit different goals vision want lives life stagnated shy awkward self consciousness makes difficult make keep friends inevitably bring secretly feel scares people away assume im looking attention many times bother know people notice something wrong say ask anything wish someone pour heart cup coffee give friend actually listen ive tried dating past point almost part time job theres person floats life ive mentioned feel brushes maybe gotten point ive cried wolf much one cares every single day unremarkable cant make enough money pay bills debt keeps accumulating cant breathe ive given hope ill travel healthy relationship kids happy life whatsoever basically discussion repeatedly insulted people disagreed angry insulted people back banned sub suspended old account feels really shitty essentially ganged kicked community nothing polite whole discussion transgendered actually grammatically correct say guess mods said technically insult banned one fending insults makes feel alone think nobody wants anywhere nobody wants think taking meds every pill find house feel suicidal internet bullying child expressing opinion house allowed adult thats cant opinion live china anything problem already set friends dont want make new ones friends good studies whenever ask random classmate send notes respond sees friends good person thinks im good mom told make new friends ur friends good studies one talks u said dont want new friends thats opinion mom said mocking way wow ur starting opinion ur parents thats disrespectful means opinion house disrespectful adult one one means im disrespecting parents family way lgbtq community meat eaters forcing opinion said everyone opinion opinions available u adult everything gets taken away mei rose high loved hard dared much tried grasp star overreached fell returned viewing academy awardnominated doc thoroughly touched interested exploring works fellow id never heard course im someone whos captivated beautiful architecture realize others carebr br imagine couple visionaries philadelphia back late s kahns plans possibility wonderful city center wonder whether see bangladesh building beginning movie patient provide climax film end br br sons personal discoveries process making film quite interesting sometimes touching even funny times one comical antivisionary rants captured camerabr br rounding good points doc touching musical score excellent expressive string music expressiveness major point found kahns architecture points made architects spiritual nature matter kahns buildings brought tie together overall experience movie want kill self feel deserve live sufferi want death easy hurt someone love much cant cope fact manipulative emotionally abusive need punished im much pain want die idea help hope die go hell im tiredim tired life last years used time happy time distant memory suffer anxiety ocd god damn every day battle brings past year actually getting better started making friends started working even fell love tore apart life hit much past period rock bottom cant anymore im tired big dealim considering redflag absolute failure life failed academically failed socially failed everything theres nothing life worth salvaging think family lot put blocks committing harm really depressed little mother one im worried weak mentally able time religion think thatd give strength hope least ive considered writing redflag note asked forgiveness im im religious person asking forgiveness helps mother deal id definitely brother sister depressed little see getting strong dad angry rightfully think hed hard time getting ive thought lot losing happy experiences way see better someone happy fulfilled life gets experience things instead know people experiencing things bad someone gets noose made place want go think long enough im afraid ill botch theres shotgun house use itll really hard access dad hidden key first attempt im terrified family blame everything anything end getting frustrated angry whole thing entirely fault im entirely blame want blame hate guess thats tums u much acid gut something many ad vibes brain mean theres drugs alcohol sadly im clean boi music gon na best telling crush tomorrow ahh nervous one friends ive liked weeks advice appreciated know doi wheelchair rare condition nobody knows feel big waste time want quit university feel got motivation concentration anything trust anyone family lie suicidal thoughts every day week seen therapist seem work told mother care less constantly rude horrible nice brother sister talk family even though still live need help know whats highest amount vtes gotten im devoting life hedonismim sick waking crying think day turn im gon na go canada fucking drive mexico drink smoke fuck killed dont alive dont things make feel physically good eventually ill dead got ad therapy oof sub dumped boyfriend generally neglecting hang boys play video games ive asking call past week couldnt even fuckinf serious best friend made mistake cant even speak without getting angry im sad angry feeling dumb time made diss track towards donald trump trump begin made diss track towards amp lauren witzke hope enjoy tbh trump terrible person beep boop video linkhttpsyoutubengwpczhxfm need help butim afraid tell therapist whats wrong need tell driving redflag able bring tell problems mixture things real things imagined things im sure real thoughts torment daily lies guilty lied one person taken seriously helped want end life feel part problem munchausen syndrome sorry cant spell real mental problems cant admit therapist making guilty plan kill want confess therapist feel therapist hurt angry even though thoughts plan kill act im afraid therapist believe true things told find tearing apart feel guilty everyday im nearly constant mental torment hate know deserve help need need guilt killing world oldschool kung fu movies revenge pictures came dime dozen took lot film stand even make fan favorite years arguably chang chehs finest movie continues hold influence hong kong movie industry themes loyalty brotherhood revenge explored john woo got start hk movie industry working chang heyday heroic bloodshed late s modern movies man called hero sports character costume inspired film influence carried areas well music wutang clan tv commercials sprite video games mortal kombat makes movie special plot surface pretty simple deals members rogue group known poison clan searching treasure hidden sifu members clan extraordinary kung fu abilities denoted animal styles venoms lizard climb walls scorpion deadly strike etc twist clan always wears masks known others thus simple plot becomes almost suspense thriller talking usual suspects far many kung fu movies time supposedly golden harvest happy changs script movies felt dark violent actually wanted add broad comic relief thankfully chang stuck guns stayed original script become revered one best films time completing almost perfect dramatic arc providing perfect backbone extraordinary action sequencesbr br really solidifies movie venoms chang cheh hit upon magical formula cast gain talented martial artists whose moves competed without aid wires special effects put modern martial artists shame great actors well formula proved popular chang usually one venoms later movies getting back matters hand oldschool movies actors seem playing cardboard cutouts actors actually create characters seems everyone favorite venom mine philip kwok best known many mad dog hardboiled lizard personal connection characters five deadly venoms generates makes true classic genre even normally fan oldschool movies need check five deadly venoms nothing see modern movies got inspiration omg theres year old white girl youtube making animated videos white people use n word names ashleyxd entire channel racist videos im dead thinking giving im really uselesstbh dont saddest story makes feel even worse im actually really blessed im hopeless useless story parents especially mother really abusive mom constantly tell ugly fat developed anorexia shed manipulate thinking garbage daughter loving enough dad kinda absent worked lot dont resent much dont feel close either parents really hard deal didnt suck purpose flawed left place go college living w pretty manageable deal functional depression left parents place ok kind relationship gave degree personal reasons extremely disappointed parents always sort habit lie hide stuff manipulate wanted sabotaging wanted didnt quit college didnt tell lost job september last year ask financial support im full control let stay place beginning year hoping id back feet didnt ill moving back weeks sinked deep depression losing job sleep day tired time drink smoke never leave house thats basic routine thing makes keep living neglect world pets two lovely angels form beautiful tiny cats darling baby dog saved times count clean house give dignified space live werent id living filth let sun exclusively know sunbathing bed feed play walk werent wouldnt leave bed anyways straight reason im alive functioning pets feeling garbage lot losing job contemplated redflag greatly decided love pets life worth living around recently tho something really great happened university europe got contact study wanted go bad itd dream come true parents wont help unless give pets wont help financially take wont take go cant cant rid beings literal reason im living now things love life decided cant go know matter time depression hits im alone finally kill cant stand idea getting parents hopes finally failure waste money die abroad never give pets circumstance see way move back parents take pets house killing cant stand perspective disappointing parents refusing amazing education opportunity refusing im sentencing burden entire life im already jobless know dont future id never able plan make parents already adopt pets leave note asking rid angels im dead give instead dealing continuous disappointment failure idk thursday im skipping school im really happy hate school fault really deserve punishmentsooo never thought sucide deep shit went cant un donefucking hell cant even type right without feeling guiltyi think ill resort sucide really seems way shit hole im insooin house people including memy fathermotherolder brother meim one therei fit wellthe person talk mom works much cant talk private muchi feel one understands even one today went fault believe hermy dad wants everything wayi try says end failingif sees playing video games something computer productive commands fuck offmy brother older brother somehow right hit hes olderthats thing familygood thing dad hit mom yet hes olderid rip guys head offim weaki physical fights brother scare dad wan na hit got little fightsmy mom told bite tounge bullshit call turn cheek fights theyre olderthe way always starts disagreement little things dick brother ego problem hes always right arguetalk shit hitand acceptable dadspeaking dadhe comes family siblings brothers sistershe never got along reallyi say stuff done better know hes gone commit sucideor something close thatthis family broken mei said earlier brother ego problem believe say ego problemi got ta always throw cents inor whatever say im east asian family moving option make family proud right even give shit themonly one care mom one actually support send money jobjesus christwhat fuck writingmust cringe worthyok background family happended todaywe got chromecast tvi phone hand watch whatever fuck want tvphone connected charger near corner couchmy brother asks give phone times kicks mehe laying imagine look respondi zone secondsso respond saying name asking remote first timei fault according familyeven mom admit wrong therei ignored saying name times responded didntwe go inside roomsdont talkdad comes homeeverythings peacefuluntil calls brother room comehe come hes pissed incidence faultmy dad fucking starts yelling tells talk talk mebecause according works solves fightsi argue preserve integrity says fucking want younot directly english thats translation said wan na rid youi told million times work hit real hardi feeling quit think go awaynor talking honestthere side wants exclude start fights houseand side cares mom think looking dead corpsemy dad told talk lefti still talked im really scared hes gone said loves willing leave anydayof course split divorce way telling much loves mesummaryi live family hitting someone younger allowed makes older person angrywhich possible elders say crazystupid shitmy mom one love familyim odd one outi start shiti really belong themwhat logical thing dad say want tried everything really deserve said im weak earlier really ami cant even think wan na quit somehowjust anyway actually plan wan na today im gon na make jewellery someone ordered something im gon na play video games maybe draw time lets hope fall asleep hours sleep billed story steve biko played excellently denzel washington expect actually story donald woods played kevin klinebr br undoubtedly making kline serious actor surprisingly good rolebr br attenborough gave sort direction expect often spectacular scenes masses sort acrossbr br remainder cast competent enough good job ends ultimately sad tale south africa still nowhere near distant past dont want kill want someone love meim lost please help gon na make offer refuse ampxb httpspreviewredditmdhklakyrpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsddbeefccdfffcfabfb someone send travis scott burger receipt think funny hang wall anyone send filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler daysthis summer yo uni student came conclusion want end life set date new years eve last new years eve whole thing fleshed kinda rushed year want im coming terms dying takes couple moments brave one last time least time life things done right mess im trouble kinda scares sadly share anyone life except great friends made internet family strong distaste friends quite alone considering think internet friends substitute friends actually hang one might wondering posting valid question last days surreal amazon packets ingredients demise arrived today made feel strange deep punch guts opened box im debating really want promised new years eve nothing changed fact things got considerably worse even always told miracle happens life makes total wont nothing sort happened family cut contacts former friends ill alone christmas birthday th im welcomed home anymore im stuck apartment town know nobody h away home hate rest life cant new years eve hey um im new im yr old bi boi people take pinch goodfellas mix godfather add roman mythology plenty lowbrow comedy sopranos mob clan operating northern new jersey almost entertaining pro wrestling biggest fan show admire james gandolfinis complicated tony soprano psychopath occasional glimmer conscience come admire te contributions folks gravelvoiced dom chianese bewildered murderous uncle junior silverhaired tony sirico perpetually perplexed paulie beautiful edie falco duplicitous toughasnails carmela soprano violence sudden graphic body count steadily climbs season often small moments matter watch paulie tonys nephew christopher michael imperioli late law order lost pine barrens sit bitter cold night abandoned trruck convinced theyve desperately need talk someoneim fucking done every means self harming either front downstairs really couldnt care less anymore dont care anyone wants bother idk dont know anymore feel anything anymorei make connections people anymore im quick temper sometimes solemn never feel happy sometimes laugh things emotions anymore feel nothing ive literally years now thought change back point used outgoing person unlimited energy wide social circle loved spending time people nothing care anything hedonism distraction feel stuff anymore either beat cant end minemy husband committed redflag two years ago hell years married tried save finally succeeded hell marriage honestly cheated constantly emotionally abusive severe ptsd mental rapidly decline point talk fbi getting two children gave trying save save kids mental health process madness forgot im widowed single mother ptsd severe depression want ive tried keep going going back school new job place feel never let process im exhausted think unfair got go first think different ways everyday cant love kids much put feel arent getting best part meits gone love tell im greatest mom dont know okay coolbut damnwhen suffering end mei feel prisoner mind someone message im im bored please message thank reading followers rteenagers pls feel free give awards post good day talk someone suicidal thoughtsi really appreciate advice feeling looming ruining everything try accomplish think redflag everyday know need help ive read stories people opening suicidal thoughts therapist locked facility somewhere pretend theyre better really happen im wondering whats point talking specialist theyre going send away anyway therapist expensive thinking telling family doctor say want know im suicidal much anxiety really need help knowi know note cry help ive stuck downward spiral teenager keep thinking well time ive hit rock bottom floor crumbles continue years ive struggled alone reasons want family upbringing sad story heard thousand times cant seem connect anyone enter girlfriend lets call lala absolute angel whatever reason seems love love may reason ive systematically onesidedly everything destroy relationship ive cheated times count told heartbroken forgave begged never look face broke heart stop longer heart tell know even want far knows happy couple im dying inside keep telling shell leave eventually itll forgive second time says shell forgive many times takes thats bullshit everyone limit im coward disgust deserve deserve anything even death deserve sit hell ive created even shred identity left deserve stay alive suffer gotten whatever justice needs whatever justice deserves wont though im working nerve quit job easy part enjoys purpose even slinging food whatever fat load wobbles door cant make decisions ive heard everyone least one positive thing im probably exception rule im worst person ive met please help mei motivation keep going want sleep time dreams better real life time really feel happy im smoking green temporary escape boyfriend understand im feeling always asks im pouting tells bed ill feel better feel alone scared right now already failed attempt many years ago feel im place now really want help friend right night im scared dad girlfriend think stupid trying transfer colleges think bad idea think handle reason think want go school anymore worked hard past year deep depression years sudden back drop everything go hospital manager work place love still enough money move yet another three years really sucks want give bad clean january trying day whyim sure describe ive recently feeling nothing im sad anything dread future im mostly state dissociation always im treading along narrow bridge anything push ive accepted redflag think day feel scared option become serene place mind potential solution problems experience think strange although difficult bed due fear worry day experience im still organizing studying planning future yet time im sending people thanks goodbye good luck emails writing motivations death searching painless methods good options yet peace good thing id consider state constant dissociation confusion better chronic torment goodbye know made posts thank everyone ive known thank youim horrible person ive hurt people far beyond comprehension im sorry piece shit life im sorry everyone thank community everyone cant helped advicei want end life going downhill guys sad day cat longer part whole life miss forever may see among stars guysjust pretend along friends idk thatthey talk things cant relate dk smile throughout whole conversation lookwherethe groundtheir faces find staring little way intense kinda freaked little stop itwhen laughi force laughi cant seem talk certain topics want talk really feelto bcs relationship carefree joking aroundso cant talk serious things themour senses humour dont match kinda miss old friends cuz got along way better current friends maybe im tiredthey arent bad people sometimes feel theyre really real friends posted social media going redflagnobody cares single person people even liked status messages regret see news tomorrow still living nobody miss family abusive friends im failure life unemployed college dropout unwanted maybe survive good job nothing place world done anything worth want waste entire lifehelp care something someone knock insomnia moment really serious need punch head maybe caffeine addiction doesnt help cant even think im fucking tired help despite negative criticism really enjoyed movie saying lightly love movies fairly picky home dvd collection movies great others ok criticisms comedy simply love movie light funny restful aware deficiencies love comedic talents eddie murphy robert deniro tapped fully type movie compare movies star actors simply enjoy cast great believe purpose movie fully accomplished want really easygoing restful night watch movie deniro murphy simply fun making movie watching please negative expect godfather performance meet parents deniro expect comedy blockbusters performance murphy completely different genre made relax hard day work sides may split laughter still funny summer started new job bartender met girl equally odd lot similar interests looking thing quickly became enamored take long us move together started finding projects around house fix surprise home cooked meals note gushing relationship shelli feel empty ive struggled suicidal depression yearssometimes easier im sinking really deep time scary want throw front every car see launch apartment balcony head first onto concrete feel guilty makes worsebecause beautiful son world try tell husband itll topic conversation minutes moves talks something really bad im making feel theres hole chestand caves emptier money try help im sinking hard breathe ask random shit prefer mnms skittles know someone ask oh shit new demon slayer movie coming im fucking excited see man akaza come thru fuck shit neglecting talk family despite living themmy selfconfidence clobbered far ground cant much serviceable conversation family afraid driven reputation ground stigma le epic edgy character going linger eons doubt anyone see need take lead jacket d printing ideas d printer well year im starting run ideas send ideas comments whatever comment gets likes print post iam want diealready age thought redflag dont know life started fall apart parents strict sister still annoys im depressed almost every night lot bad grades school everyone laughing really know life pls help need love clap thicc cheeks butnever mind judgemental friendsi met tom high school part good friend group partied lot senior year graduated moved across country school went military six years senior year finally decided go home tom home summer serving five years military discharged along girlfriend moved together go college summer taking working staying toms parents rentfree usually go drinking couple nights week always blackout drunk loud toms girlfriend usually puts glasses bar thinks cool purse tom thinks funny encourages say bars glasses free matter liberal state im lgbt girlfriend pride month tweeted care youre gay straight plenty friends pls stop forcing us wan na left find hurtful tweet stuff girlfriend tweet slutshaming things women theyve slept everyone still find love post men aint shit think funny stuff tom single hell sleep anything walks hes known dog past hes talked hed slept lot women shout women selfrespect hes caught sexting girls hes relationship understand puts promiscuous woman post social media always trying look perfect couple want distance tom longtime friend feel asshole judging much asshole wanting ghost people feel emotionally drained stop friendship make asshole gf ruins lifeits long distance relationship toxic always sending nudes others agologyzing days starts fear future fear ruins future life adult want jump window end suffering cant bear want leave love much despite bullshit know well im sre need help please im crying im asked crush sike crush fucking adulterers covid worst nightmare covid february covid spread wildfire locked masked part covid spreads water particles getting body talking eating breathing kissing etc etc etc im yo time first lockdown prime right im sure relate lot teens say year supposed year enjoy reality much whats got worst planned serious relationship maybe even sx year worked hard year slack year thats countrys school works made super depressed caused self harm hope good next year havent kissed someone nearly year havent met friends months havent wanted fun better still fun teenage years think safe meet friends girls despite covid stop telling gets betterive tried hard believe going ups downs reality life consistently getting worse past years doesnt matter im young im turn im going kid responsibilities im still going treated kid age teen know people want life want go college degree job next years im old meaningless marriage bringing kids world live meaningless life im abandoned nursing home im dead isnt life want live know hardy har har im kid dont know real problems returning christmas eve shopping trip abused suburban housewife basinger finds fight survival disagreement group delinquent youths takes violent turnbr br suffering indignity straight dvd release uk susan montfords directorial debut perhaps given recognition deserves shame standard writing directing acting good indeed certainly surpasses quality average straight dvd flickbr br kim basinger gives best performance time downtrodden wife abusive husband craig sheffer sheffer really given anything threatening presence brief scenes together basinger connects showing painful vulnerability yet hinting rage eventually boil confrontations youths truly great understated performance transformation victim aggressor seamlessly playedbr br lukas haas initially thought miscast along three youths seem much threat four youths physically imposing later scenes basinger turns tables worked fact four average men albeit slightly unhinged key film works well doesbr br apart pacing issues latter half movie couple cheesy lines great thriller actually leaves viewer something think film may put slow burn nature opening scenes abrupt ending others times brutal violence say give chance certainly deserving time saw v completely love movie gaga even plot twistsbut one thing found really disturbing connection two best friends tim kyle writer film gave us poignant moment two sexual experimentationconfusion gives us plot twist makes half brothers although subject brought filmand left unexplained unaccounted thought bad taste fact even discussed even worse oops weve created taboonow lets address situation really pc spectacular film im sure anymorei apologize mistakes im mobile im thought id either outgrow least able handle everything better everythjng gotten worse overwhelming im really tred want feel taking space anymore stopped drinking trying lexapro xanax ativan want feel anything even almost every emotion agonizing cant shut top im atmosphere cant quite escape yet volatile every waking moment edge panic attack know really dont want end everything tonight things better know done past think worth anymore therapy treatment selfharm depression violent tendencies suicidal urges tried affirmations new routines pursuit interests making friendstherapy put debt years longer attended months positive affirmation practice made hate positive phrases platitudes perceived difference various routines still live every day either verge panic attack drowning distractions movies books spent twelve years pursuing various interests revealed much fucking talentless idiot friends good people invite events treat one interacting feels waste time every time think realize much asshole really ami used love job prided work ethic really loved jocko willink line navy seals cleaning toilets years greeted coworkers smile compliment worked longer hours anyone high speed high redflag environment dealt toxic people sunshine rainbows free time write everything pursued writing brought meaningi tired remember cared much thought already darkest time life gotten away petty family panic attacks stop sleep unless stay active point total exhaustion spend minute eyes closed see every way failed everything ruined every relationship everything gone wrong life clearly obviously faulti see way gets better old someone take pity gotten even far life attractive intelligent wealthy even financially stable writing one practice delayed committing suicide years ago often leaves feeling worse desperately seek state flow freeze start chewing fingersi amused feel state flow writing sifting memories time leave cringing nervous wreck months last felt wait long againi let anyone wish someone angry screwing fucking matter anyway mature enough accept criticismi want put bullshit anymore want stop im losthello name adam ive struggling years im afraid past years thoughts redflag fear anxiety im close limit ive quiet long im scared come family feelings years ago losing aunt triggered everyday feeling hopeless lost guilty remorseful things ive done lifebut thoughts little ive experienced life time ive revealed feelings family broke saw cuts watching worried something portrayed average day made feel absolutely dreadful later found attempt survivor attempt odoverdose pills attempt hanging happened blackout pills never went noose im still afraid first therapy diagnosed severe depression social anxiety eating disorder later transferred fucken group therapy reason made feel anxious eventually last session therapy showed results daily check feelingswhich step survey momdad come find ive putting feeling horrible afraidanxious everyday mom ive absolutely amazing described happiest shes seen therapy helped eventually put sertaline anti anxiety anti depression im sorry forgot never finished first prescription found right type anti depressant mom thought wanted drugs took recommended pill schedule week stopped taking time ive feeling worse afraid damage worry ive caused even everything going im afraid ive ive relapsed cutting developed severe insomnia day day feeling hopeless worthless questioning still whats motivation move bed keep going ask nearly every night almost break everytime please please please someone anyone help im scared might something drastic ive shaped fear anxiety idk anymore th birthday tommorow honor serving boys girls thank lessened blow yougames everyone time one thing ask lost loved one helpful thing aftermaththat person died going happen matter want make least bad situation left behind note better note content helpfulunhelpful comforting meaningful gestures im argue living dying ill ignore posts trying talk whatever genuinely want know best things make trauma perhaps little less doomer girl waifu love doomer giro much shes cute please readas obvious sub full people sorts debating redflag looking somebody relate id say open anyone wanting talk shy admit anything fit judge either way consider chatting reddit take different social media app love m dont know improve ive already done ugly date frustrating demoralizing experience ive done everything power fix ive lost pounds bought new clothes bought car ive held job year go college none even matters im still ugly doesnt make sense woman settle find anyone traits arent repulsive ive tinder paying gold march bumble okcupid hinge october apps around matches combined dates ive friends take pictures help write bio friends girls pretty experienced dating apps look profiles none matters youre ugly ive asked girls person well last three people consider good friends mine three said yes single one showed single one told beforehand werent coming im worth effort guess im good people two different friend groups invite funny guy lots girls great friends ask want nothing example ive asked three girls good friends last months theyve said yes time theyve seemed excited go times none even told werent coming im even worth knowing dont want see im worthless dont even anyone turn even mom sister told despite losing pounds im still supposed point id plastic surgery ill never able afford feel purpose inconvenience women looking men arent subhuman vermin dont even career look forward decided good idea take lifelong debt fucking history degree feels nothing look forward poverty alone forever ive therapy march miss friend much miss best friend much nice always made happy rarely see middle school makes happy know cant even happen remote learning wish contact miss lot friend really want tell fine virus though seen shut everything favorite horror film close nd poltergeist saw one dark night first came theaters theater workedbr br born certain love s horror films despite little dated dialog well written thought original phenomenon psychic vampirism addressed least knowledge time real phenomenonbr br care adam west nothing supporting role memorable thought meg tilly good casting littleknown donald hutton brainstorm invaders mars ambiguous scientist oversaw studies ramars abilities sadly overlooked gay guy paying attention david mason daniels meg tillys unfortunate gorgeous boyfriend hes selling real estate texas now br br felt film realistic two ways raymar discovered murdered girls surreal apartment funeral sparse attendance reflecting fact mysterious hermit killer know types buried without fanfare second corpses going telekinetically mobile hover dragging feet filmmakers gone schlock walking groaning arms outstretched zombies opted believable kudos buzzing electrical discharge ramars eyes throne coffin hes overseeing kingdom dead cast eerie magenta light mausoleum stay years gone mausoleum even sunny day notice rosetta lighting caused stained glass windows started cavernous silence even ramar looked someone pass eccentric perverted old man score oneofakind memorable keep kicking getting cassette first came track shooting done supposed especially liked carefullyplanned characteristics corpse bride badly decomposed child still holding teddy bear grandmother tall thin black guy halffaced world war ii vet greenslimed eyed elderly gent first greet sisters clique initiators even corpses good actors suppose thing groan arm came one vaults choke julies boyfriend possibly done unless corpse put laying stomach feet first looked little fresh toobr br film begins eerie us never seeing ramars face last quarter film unwrapping birthday present picking teen girl runaways daughters psychic flash see coroners hauling body away one bedroom apartment see hes experimented telekinetic craft phasing dishes wall rest drag heatherslike sisters group baits julie final initiation spending night inside mausoleum wellplaced build unleashing horror later movie bloody sense word goriest part ramars daughter uses compact mirror feed power back bubbles melts ive always felt power ramars never die sequel worth looking see now one dark night ii turning grave lets face itthe film stands alone heard film titles original fitsbr br remake pointless one write better dialog lengthen scenes show studies ramars abilities done lab instead hearing tape recorder information age something well documented dvd corpses raise ones mausoleum ramars power spread graveyard lets say id hate one persons clean mess end climax something shown think one initiating sisters recognize one corpses relative added good disturbing character cg effects awesome scenes ramar animating cremated remains wall br br say aboutone dark night see least lifeor death hi folksbeen going stuff recently safe place mentally leave home often loner girlfriend quit consider great job living savings telling going leave making miserable figure make happy feel wastedit months almost kind hanging putting shit realise fortunate position able truly brought nothing laziness point starting regret itin past asked things favorite insert food color etc honest never answers never developed inward personality kind feeling bland know makes happyi write book shit makes sad though kind asking hell life talk whatever guess tired quiet really everyone feels want disappeari know say appart fact wan na anymore wan na die feel able kill im afraid whats gon na happen im honest im know thats miserable know entire life front great continues livinghell girlfriend bestfriend back days said loved infortunatly say backmore recently asked wanted girlfriend happy feelings thought now anymore time goes realise love way love thats awful feel horrible wan na hurt first time never want hurt care much feel guilty theres reasons explained suicidal thoughts appear months restarted cutting cuts arms inner tights thought stop think ill never really stop know help thoughts wan na disappear know im afraid dying put end life redflag letter sound something thisplease take moment understand depression real isnt saying want kill rather something pushed move really accepting time really didnt want live people anymore sometimes dark time gets dark redflag may feel thing person hurt constantly battle selfhate low self esteem following reasons dear people world first thing say become good person stop assuming people going understand even tell means parents family friends heres say used live life lot pain carry onto now past wanted live one live everyone rather causes good amount hurt carry along hurt thoughts well suffering causing person feels one understands everyone sick hearing shit hard understand lot people assume able certain things age mom came today told handle pain young dad cant old excuse mom cant handle pain body went throught chemo reformed time ill let pass mom really love love try scared whats come see life robbed young age taken away country told marry guy much exploded cried broke got lost remember telling stories end day forgot rest started see good ugliness remember one time mom saved life right watched mrs doubtfire learned heimlech maneuver scene movie remember day vividly fainted right mint ball flew white red stripes already wore today told forget give person couldnt handle stress fucking tired hearing shit beat cancer carrying around pain long finally starting see straight people always assume im problem okay thats fair say im fucking problem need figure way isolate peoples worries pain makes sense need always involved hurt came accept became crazy yo kid sense purpose father er failed choose accept one another supposed give cant handle stress day knife slit wrist first time see thats problem society people tend assume dont know someone elses pain brings carries fact feel way us act stronger others redflag letter isnt giving caring anymore living world people dont seem understand failing understand itthem feel prison thoughts really understanding life taught stop always giving kinda sad im writng complete opposite redflag letter now given everything life want die makes sense yo im given anything explode try figure shit tend always failure people even tell someone please hurts ask start see inner good order shit hole youre people remain humble safe place times god forgotten people suffering add pain world bleeding everyones sorrow born alone die alone world comes existence soon never exist one day live anything love unworthy lifethis isnt first time ive posted think im far fucked go dont think go much longer fighting never good attribute mine always passive loving person fear conflict kind whether another person feel weak person dealt depression many times ive never wanted give got hospital weeks back made friends tried help really wanted help tried hardest discharged day early days didnt feel different going mental health unit week later another downward spiral havent even gone back work yet dont even think go back work anxiety depression way im sure causing life bad family loves dearly supportive great friends always many things good life idea happy often wonder ungrateful dont know next turn take life go feel im losing hope im afraid tell many people ive feeling someone told talk one friend listen everything say clueless feel bad im everyone dont know besides give dont want hurt mom feel choice cant cope anymore ive tried distracting medication therapy talking friends socialiable nothing helped dont know anymore hate burden family friends hate person pitied felt sorry things easier never born deserve worthy life dont know perhaps hanging good way rope left work take bunch pills hopefully fear death guilt feel quelled peace void long redflag note write one outpizzas hut except pizza hut lookin friends sup im lookin friends rn talkhang yall dm disclaimer im tryna attract pedos n groomers please hate want kill work todayi decided last night know exactly im going ive casually suicidal week thinking dying feel better actual plan idk part wants everything change kill know nothing change really choice want stop suffering hand take meds go see doctor want try anymore guess fault idk even point posting maybe want change mind maybe want someone say life turn around even know life turn around thats wishful thinking guess pointless im stupid hi everyone year old male currently dealing depression majority life dealing ocdredflag mostly focused serious illness constant worrying put think serious deep depression emotion anymore nothing excites feel existing got engaged months nervous excitement emotion feel emotion much anymore honestly scares psychologists cbt never really helpedthinking might need go see psychiatrist feel drowning awful feeling start going back work july means hour commute city one way question done help depression anyone deals health redflag feel health redflag put state worried months thinking skin cancer biopsy mole feel lump neck worse part one feels went urgent care doc said nothing keep making doc appointments thinking miss something trying save wedding spending money docs please help need help idk begin music everyone listening hollywood undead day dead wishing dieit sounds nice waking early making cup tea sitting write goodbye notes simple sweet let know care give closure clean room spotless wipe windows rearrange books launder sheets remake bed put flowers vase spray perfume leave take bus cliffs whirling winds climb simple wooden fence stand mossy sandstone slabs looking ocean id jump let body go limp end life hit waves sink im wiped clean world sounds nice livedi tried earlier today hook using ripped ceiling fell ass ashamed guilty emotionally numb initial crying even next ready accept death im still alive feel lost really want someone talk mi always anxiety depression recently getting suicidal gf left im honest dontdidnt think anyone doeswill love dated around year half blue sent text saying tried talk told gon na end dead asked help shes mad person love much say things said feel crushed looking redflag methods year now always thought comforting stop pain think im thinking almost time guess im looking reason edge im scared death cant stand another day trying trying nothing want problem anymore clear talked mom person imagine caring little told minutes much hate want stop talked getting help forgot think draining tell nothing know im another kid maybe going resolve time stress much want way searching moms gun find night want someone talk much trouble thanks time took shower walk parents think sex told bring condom brush teeth wouldnt listen told bed creaks slightest movement cant even jerk choose redflag death neglect dementiai rapidly deteriorated past year accumulated many serious health issues including polycythemia shortness breath chest pain light headedness fatigue digestive issues complete inability gain weight neurological memory loss years now insomnia months incapable sleeping normal night learning difficulties always smart despite memory loss dementia still college made friends chemistry class apple watch took heart rate said even alive cant believe heart rate high resting friend talk class every day said handwriting matter long brain still good unusually friendly reminds character gerasim tolstoy novel terminal illness knows sick compels kind ampxb ampxb anyways family unwilling recognize illness real claim physical pain health conditions mental illness need involuntarily committed mental hospital continue delusion sick call police tell delusional health problems handcuffed put mental health wards physical pain claim delusion anyone fear death im little scared aftermath unknowing heaven hell reincarnated spirit continue living earth consciousness float space eternity spirit doesnt even leave body wasnt good enough heaven tortured eternity sort exciting know mean im excited die find maybe dont particularly fear death though almost welcome time strangely fear absence friends family ones love suddenly gone universe im scared friends family laughing fun without sort fomo put simply im afraid dying im afraid havent lived enough hope die lot people miss choose way id die probably murdered ghost killer getting netflix documentary maybe crazy freak accident results new law illegal drive forklifts highway florida one guy stupid died something id want leave sort impact matter small want hear thoughts national redflag prevention chati trying use chat either offline sends way back know anything national redflag prevention lifeline chat please tell know fuck fuck memonths ive tried find real help ive called hotline put hold ive posted asked help response ive tried see reason put pistol temple ive tried tried tried find fucking inch life line im pos exit clear exit clear ive honestly got idea anymoreit feels everyone fake feel im backtalked annoying sometimes hear brain speaking hey heyy people fake dont talk far thing helps music thats kinda stopping work really fucking good friends deserve nobody needs suicidal fucktard cant help pushes away use anyone barely anything useful life people say loved ones well ive fucking abused really think makes difference except father whos actually fine family one id feel suffer see point hanging anymore ill never better dont want feel guilty committing redflag hard help really see im gon na feel im gon na im even want anyone feel bad deserve regardless convince parents let one half meter carbdoard tube need bonking rod say suspicious want one someone friends basically title background someone know friends leave know sounds asking friend situation im town away want help find new group people hang old friends abandoned insulted quick question rather always go bathroom lights always door open fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller guys im listening community reddit course everywhere go rejection rejection gay community damn obsessed age want date even hookup always x years fuck number guys tried approach person online turned damn high honestly think redflag ews ageism legit know much takenot sure going kill feel selfimplode couple unhealthy coping mechanisms close saying fuck gay hopeless knew asks want stop im violently sobbing yes course want stop holds couple minutes starts talking even though wed broken sexual arrangement months ago hi tried posting redflagwatch alt need someone know im guys pretty active copypasted trigger warning everything guess want know someone sees help comfort anything acknowledge exist main account feel im edge crumbling cliff im going slip soon goes lose childhood never one first place stuff goes much deeper heres summary background mentally abusive mom small child parents disciplined stopped around became preteen wanted run away elaborate thoughts murdering family tried kill started self harming anorexia relapsed badly year hundred times ive cried maybe family much worse summary want spend minutes typing pitiful childhood used friends feeling much none talked quarantine started real conversation anybody know months thought id fine recent events home pushed edge even anything big something made realize something hate fucking world hate hate people ruined life even want sister go hell tortured rest eternity want mom see much suffering caused know actually love fucked never gotten help multiple mental illnesses im narcissist perfectionist im self absorbed im selfish im immoral th percentile school tests ive taken im going freshman taking onlevel senior courses im amazing artist work featured state galleries play instruments im straight student enough tried hard good person guess still standard way help clean mess someone made pick trash im nice friendly strangers truth theres thing karma bad people punished heavenly force im long tangent reality reality ill never live normal life normal memories loving family id rather feel nothing im planning overdose soon even want think happen fail thanks world beautiful cruel guys account years old karma ahhh im close days friend committed redflagim junior high school exactly week ago friend committed redflag extremely close saw everyday talked ive known years used brothers girlfriend last summer want thoughts dont want talk anyone best friend went house getting alarming message boyfriend ambulance already saw take hospital next day heard coma went go see seeing broke heart couldnt stop crying held hand im religious prayed miracle happen passed away next day cant sleep want interact anyone friend closer cant stop thinking every time close eyes see hospital bedas person whos diagnosed depression suicidal thoughts hurtsme even know felt parents wanted small private funeral today still go school cant pay attention schoolwork anyone give advice moving least able daily tasks yall milkshake order tomorrow place got hella flavors cant decide one flavors narrowed either cherry oreo chocolate blackberry raspberry pumpkin think im probably going die soon due something anyway hypochondriaforeveralone ready go hell give fuck life anyway ill let know hot hell unbeing dead alivethis quote edward estlin ee cummings basically idea even youre breathing doesnt mean youre alive simply means unbeing dead fascinating isnt go life day day surviving best keeping biological functions intact subconsciously know itll never enough everyones sober reality life dull grey mechanical bullshit believe bigger part population currently alive real reality whove felt magic alive found spaces inbetween places dead people cant seem look though youre finally free culture counterculture alan watts says meaning life simply alive contradicting opinions exist evidently alive harder anything ive known ive dead long time met eliza made consumed others living eliza felt truly alive now unbeing dead whats point many tell even really alive relatively young know bad antisemitism brooklyn family originally movie absolutely horrified ive seen many movies prejudice racism antisemitism seemed hit harder mostbr br definitely one best indie films ive seeni travel minutes see well worth nearly everything movie great sometimes little slow really bother movie atmospheric took place s really look s acting greatwilliam h macy always wonderful laura dern pleasantly surprised meatloafs performance playing vicious antisemite neighbor br br new medsive wellbutrin year well exception slight downswing marchapril put paxil weekend recent anxiety cant stop thinking near redflag attempt years ago going jump bridge even though cant access bridge right im wondering find another im going call doc tomorrow dont want kill right now suggestions meantime im frustrated feel im never going beat stable find good balance dear mommy milks good man thank thank kind strangers internetive made couple throwaway reddit accounts last year change searching help clarity ive trying trying better place people always nice though im holding together family member im staying associate christmas death clean everything pack things away easier sort think ill take road trip listen music run gas longer believe everyone matters many people dying every day nobody cares ive always figured lip service people say make feeling better getting moral karma point nice leper matter dont people dont half billion people planet way even us matter especially wanted want things wanted life cant deal homeless two months cant recover want abused shelter anymore thank keeping company many times really mean theres one bye bye choose fighter choose fighter train water boat track adult life ripped shreds front mei see future im taking care family graduated high school chance go college work pay billsall mother dying father disabled seriously despise mother going go away leave piece shit take care think theres future horrible past look future see situation getting worse feel ive missed everything life offer im bitter year old man year olds body need advice run away end let someone luckier take space im tired looking others see life ripped shreds right front please talk ive never close itive neared redflag one time life someone called police worst hours hospital life moment decided needed wouldnt tell anyone jar super strong painkillers take right ill die nearly instantly ive jar waiting closet year everyone says look good things live seem happy successful outside admit reception ivy league college example life horrible fucked stomach flu mom accused lying shes heartless little cut stuffed animals front force copy bible remaining isolated friends im emotionally scarred fact constantly tries ruin life never proud hurt many times child wanted love yet called evil even blamed grandmas death parents throw knives divorce lengthy pay price boyfriend loved left intimidated found new one love raped beat many times friends seems vacuous dont want end think im going im sorry grim somebody please tell something convince im going tonightcan someone tell many dolipranes kill dolipranes home outside skrrt skrrt inside hurt hurt figure putting guys advice appreciated tldr first dates last months thought went well beyond well wanted go second date wrong figure im wrong life turning thought sometimes dont see point going oni went decent school expectations life things turns took everything school ive easily tired im cant even keep job feel weak slightest thing id consider smart insightful thought capable changing world turns im weakling cant keep job although born year movie came never heard junior year high school saw became totally engrossed laughing crying feeling along characters friends thembr br hair clothes speech outdated emotions desperation situation familiar remember thinking real wished make movies stillbr br fact saw movie night crazy party unlike one jays house crashed considered loser derelicts hung fringes crowd world class bser responsible mother figure type identified immediately jeanie one car although little bit madges insecurities floating around best friend deidre good friend childhood anniebr br watching scene jeanie school one boyfriend break telling madge much loved felt conversations situations personally hadbr br now age recently saw movie felt surge emotions watching back piece youth though none friends died think must see girls im tiredi took handful benadryl hydrocodone im sure much exactly threw little still feel woozy cut arm twice done years wounds bad cuz hair scissors use need help mentally need outside people talk life hard easy ive depressed long remember least seems always harder hate everything everyone lately im tired walked everyone emotions controlled people think ill try another attempt tonight im getting cat tomorrow hopefully shell cheer im scared im gon na back habit cutting every day id rather stop together whether dying getting better got crushs number two months talking ig finally got number debating whether take chance person pussy never know far simple hey teenage boys f currently write novel male maincharacter know rmenwritingwoman exists wan na make mistakes way around girl consider writing male character kid thought poggers racist day kid school claimed poggers racial slur slang slave kid went told friends parents etc someone actually say face poggers racist term know got started saying one day exceptional film part comedy part drama part suspense dialog exquisite actors actresses famous time good reason probably recognize someone even usually watch older movies role particularly suits talents br br one correction make another users comment two people one announced die accident maybe unlucky two reflection writer considers important life movie engaging worry happensbr br story ahead time lose quality older movie time effort spent perfecting cameras view soundtrack something modern movie makers tend forget existing exhaustinghi first time post something reddit im neither happy sad feeling im tired hopeless im dealing major depression im warrior years stuck home several months internet place talk another people friends friends kicked chat groups think im annoying left behind cuz im toxic know always cheerful guy gang cheerful guy cant laugh anymore becomes useless yeah throw away cuz cant laugh make laugh btw play video games im hardcore gamer fighting depression valuable lesson video games thought sometimes play game hours done quests unlock achievements feel thats enough feel play anymore game high rated metacritic continue play another game even game library prefer play know still quests maybe watch best cg ending continue tired think enough feel life already battlefield fight depression protect government covid family make thing even worse fun perfect good enough problem want play anymore enough version dickens classic christmas carol directed clive donner stars george c scott ebenezer scrooge time around challenge filmmaker take familiar material make seem fresh new happily say film donner met challenge surpassed expectations anyone might tells story precision eye detail extracts performances actors nothing less superlative especially scott one argue definitive portrayal scrooge one best known characters literary fiction created alastair sim film think performance scott achieved distinction purity honesty scrooge becomes difficult even consider anyone role seen scott simply put scrooge tribute gifted actor able take well known figure make uniquely quite miraculous truly joy see actor ply trade well able make character real every word utters finest expression face make ring true study perfectionbr br members cast splendid well order maintain integrity scotts performance frank finlay ghost jacob marley notable turn though memorable perhaps one alec guinness marley film scrooge angela pleasence welcome visage spirit christmas past edward woodward grand boisterous altogether convincing spirit christmas present michael carter grim menacing spirit christmas yet comebr br david warner hits right mark bob cratchit bringing sincerity role measures well standard quality set scotts scrooge susannah york fares well mrs cratchit real gem found though performance young anthony walters tiny tim heartfelt without becoming maudlin simply one best interpretations real presented filmbr br excellent supporting cast includes roger rees fred holywell narrator film caroline langrishe janet holywell lucy gutteridge belle michael gough mr poole joanne whalley fan flawless presentation version christmas carol sets standard others must gauged matter many versions may seen watching one seeing first time forever whenever think scrooge image mind conjure george c scott thoroughly entertaining satisfying experience film demands place annual schedule holiday festivities every home rate one going end soonwhats point alive fuck ive already started selfharming recently tell im spiraling anyone lives near pittsburgh sees redflag next days dog went heart failure holiday weekend vet take find emergency clinic told dollars fill minutes paperwork dog even seen estimated possibly save life likely ending putting anyway congestive heart failure died minutes getting phonecould taken emergency vet night thought cough occasional cough dryness desert thought bad acting even eating drinking next morning woke gagging choking clinging life rest endfeel immensely guilty may saved poor broke even afford remaining dog another companion dogs size cost two three months rent shelter dog due apartments rules pass vet check extensive behavioral opinion vet bring home dog questionable backgroundseparation redflag due strict review approve everythingmatter fact even dog breeder complex needs full vet exam follower business day decision allow dog breeders bring puppy litter basic check enough responsible full vet check possessioni feel depressed remaining dog clings leave side leave house minutes sits ball front door returni even bed pet died broke take emergency vet im really frustratedi feel life uphill battle years now back younger brother killed ive always anxiety constantly dip depression realization struggling much always bothered dropped school struggled years manipulative figures life lot bad decisions recently found way go back school ive picking always feel lonely feel talk anyone life point none make feel better talking always makes feel pathetic many people life give terrible advice way support makes feel worse despite good intentions month im really behind rent terrified evicted feel im going ruin anything ive tried build past year know keep holding family cares guess want hurt im aware reason really working anymore worse feel less reasons hurt matter constantly think hurting regular basis think things line work disturbing lack time travellers arriving stop happening suggests never actually invent maybe time trqvel never thing hey thing keeping alive possibility study abroadi fucking feel guilty raped fingering count rape saying count rape sitting crying making finish leave count rape still feel thats fault fault fault went dorm stayed even though didnt want thought id help francisco made everything much worse hate making decision hate saying nothing nothing hate look hate feel hate body soul heart im ugly twisted little thing thats limping around hurt cant fact theres nobody blame cant blame stupid didnt know cant blame world fuck world even define cant blame francisco even wasnt bad least told truth sometimes terrible gross disgusting rest world im waste space contribute nothing take everything dont give anything return parents barely call mom never say love ask ask ask dad things never give anything back literally definition excess waste nothing important act deserve important voice head thats disillusioned positive fuck think please help methis stupid know want live years old live family subjected physical violence father im bad want support want tell please leave message got iti browse subreddit lot im imgur lot ive bought plenty people food able afford give advice people people imgur advice need give take im almost im last semester university dropping bit see point ask want dumb redflag looked shameful thing shameful ask created option end im good person generally huge heart want help everyone love everyone actually try inside im dying im slowly dying want expedite process im tonightim already tired nothing makes happy anymore one help dont know anymorei feel completely family going troubles right take physically abusing mentally abusing apparently thats abuse scars mentally always anxiety people mad annoyed wreck honestly ive gotten point im ready end life never good enough anymore friends hate im always ignored hate cant keep shitposting anymore im literally going shit cant keep shitposting anymore im literally going shit im curious many lgbtq wondering ratio im bi one new records im super proud let know sucks haha httpslinksharingsamsungcloudcomjqsjiejfkn one favorite songs feeling hopelesshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvecybxiqmhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvecybxiqm watched educational contenti know posting watching educational video borderline personality disorder really got finally name feeling thinking feel think way relief finally name horrible pain live every lousy day life known wrong little now see put words video emotionally cathartic cried really didespecially talked selfharming people bpd express pain inside cant express way sit big ugly scratches arms fading scars past cutting behaviors cry cry still misunderstood mistreated though always purposei still hurt much care muchand emotions always place love hard fall hard life constant cycle loving world hating world hating broken often ok one moment little thing happensomething normal person might even noticeand sends tailspininto darkness selfhating behavior end trying commit redflag rid torment feel constantly trying hurt familyi love want pain stop want feel anything anymore cant hurt anymore fml borderline personality disorderthere grace god go want die please let die cant stand pain numb yet crying good reason commit redflag years old life never really great ive suicidal thoughts made attempts feel choice end life face hellish consequences await people know early teen years something regretted immediately every single day pain guilt whats going happen social life becomes known theres way undo solve whats ahead dead end nothing must end life sister messaged call asap received message woke home use restroom called sister time answered phone heard yelling screaming happened sister gave father ride back wherever came home father leave moms home unless came along much love want kill myselfi feel shit say want talk someone dont want people love feel upset im lile dont even know please talk somebody fucking absurd dramatic thinking killing next weeks f lately ive contemplating redflag plans found looking online ways kill least amount pain think hospitalization even option financial state family feel unfixable unimportant im end rope even know im posting finally finished moving months family planning move away small town nc florida intense packing weve managed one family friends houses live minutes away tampa everyone mentions yes understand covid issue left rest stops made wore masks gon na wait week anything quarantine gives us time settle currently complaint going feet sea level average f feet sea level average f anyway hope yall read know im feeling lonely m please chat need something ungodly hour news time invented clock companies sell clocks anyone interested joining discord server members open anyone pm link filler filler filler filler im old dont know version ps help main concern getting digital version account hacked something lose games maybe im wrong concern reaching end road hereim life provided protected point skills idea fend got yet another underpaid shitty fast food job far fast paced keep every minute every day constant anxiety attack work worse want curl ball die every second coworkers constantly ridicule help either last long job ill go exact thing another minimum wage meaningless job family basically keeping alive hoping kill point feel theyve begun accept potential reality whereas saw impossibility im self involved felt destroy worlds away parents couple years think theyd able move yeah unpleasant weve people family commit redflag never even happened even ruin lives theyve got much longer suffer anyway know selfish father serious heart problems last decade half mother frankly oblivious naive seems checking mentally anyways live sibling good bit older life together making great money great help death theyre hoping move together next several months means need move name mention debt credit score low s literally friends prospects places room anything everything seems lining theres thousand signs pointing death never wanted kids give shit significant frankly live long life ill likely die alone addict andor alcoholic theres issue alone prefer solace sad picture know ill might pawn phonecomputer shotgun kind disconnecting family anyways maybe weeks months relative silence reduce sting say constant guilt feel suicidal done long ago without hesitation wan na work ass hours week still live paycheck paycheck wan na contribute considerable percentage life time making massive soulless corporation even massive swallow peoples lives care improve whats point create chemical reactions brain convince continue contributing society interest part zero interest learning anything anything meeting anyone im alive sake familys emotional health im gon na reach breaking point think itll long now yo trying refresh avail came help welcome plan run alone city wait nighttime kidnapped whatever happens happens optionally wear revealing clothes possibleplan b attempt run away physical cops hopefully physical enough shoot optionally weapon sortplan c brutally reject incel may kill himselfmotive constant thoughts financial andor emotional burden parents due autism specifically extreme meltdowns become part plan addition believe unconditional love exists understand still love everything done even started openly looking groomers even work well fuck plan b c famous saying lessss gooo brody yo mama youtube channel b dad seeing fat cock c mom seeing fat cock d dababy much point cointinuing gets worsei never escape loneliness feel inferior everyone social anxiety roof extremely avoidant everything soical want accepted loved never real friends gf everyone seem dislike first day met probably cause im boring dull im fat shit moobs even though exercise dick small laugh im receding hairline thinning hair im done lunch school dont bother commenting idc dm hour convo idk talk u wan na entertained dumb ass hour go right ahead fun hugs damnit need simp magnet oo lesbian ass needs pussy life xd headbangs starts swaying shoulders awww yeaaahhh comes drop never gon na give never gon na let never gon na run around desert dodged bullet im figured id share story th grade cyber school good half year missed fuck ton school im chilling procrastinating call girl really know pick different girl knew even less asks know anyone love response immediately look asking wrong guy school months sounds noticeably disappointed instead awkward silence say alright well im gon na back whatever daily basis responds alright go back masturbating fuck never heard someone passive aggressive im sure dodged bullet found mutual friend later toxic hell know planning asking friend mentioned single girl immediately wanted number tldr title unpopular opinion spotify hot garbage premium version one worst music apps made youtube music par spotify premium im really dark place verge pretty bad stuffi know gun everyone thinks know even hold well versed gun basics bought set kitchen knives sick damage bought big bottle sleeping pills im freaking terrible shitty day sent dark little hole crawled months ago im scared right know know want die cant wake anyone tell think im dramatic brat idk cant help reddit gf broke felling kinda eh thats feel good hey cares oof im numbim lost nothing complete im far behind classes nothing done teachers quit trying help relationships friends stopped hated one responds im lonely even though siblings feel anything anymore told guidance counselor im depressed told watch shitty calming meditation video instead helping open appointment online spots open time tried email answer back im poor therapist started cutting last week first time six months im way clinic right nowhey first post tonight ive suicidal thoughts finally decided call clinic im pretty scared nervous right now experiences first plani know escalating want done first thought plan terrifying still comforting overdose hydrocodone suck theres always one dream thats kept going seems less relevant lets talk female simps visiting mexico laying couch bed morning thinking talking female simps main discussion id point word female simps already exsist thot word made reason simp made classify something meme better use person know exactly talking goobers dont know rniceguys simps nicegirls thots probably gon na say using thot offensive really worse calling slut anything us guys find offensive well well ript streets u u anyways back original thought yall know see nice cute innocent girl post picture cars pretty predictable see swarm comments guys simps right well matter posts ivr seen boys postin pictures dog fish caught theres single thot comment anywhere really weird baffling dont call make memes now may thots online sure hell exsist school lives seems see lot thots roaming around hallways instead seeing roam around topless pictures dudes honestly think one main causes possibly school life thots people back cause sissy drama spread rumors internet dont think anywhere anyone go make rumor either second mean post posted everyone look call person fat dumb liar downvote thing hell unless poster alt accounts twitter dot hope yall enjoyed weird random thought woke hope dont swarmed simpsthots telling much scum earth already know hope good day everyone thank really hope sound narcissistic say past days feeling really self started considering redflag saw bunch post telling worth gets better know decided start posting stuff mightve saved life thank fun spain greece etc even bother ask wanted come lonely home trying stuff face every minutes miss friends wish cut friendships feel shit watching friends snapchat stories hoping lasti went year without feeling depressed alone recently today come back feel year ago truly fucked girl morei graduated high school year far terrible gotten diploma certificate cause parents havent yet paid school fees cant attend college family lot debt taken two huge loans amounting well two houses already defaulted might lose bank end year fathers business failed owe lot money people aside developed feelings bestfriend whos girl told rejected saying wasnt looking relationship immediately stopped talking used talk everyday night month later found tinder fucking older dudes much stuff happening cant deal see way alone want end please help turns cant copy paste braille gon na make post titled blind man walks bar bar braille let paste opinions abortion im bored fuck im curious please respect peoples opinions asshole naruto ep nothing wanted say sum ye ye ye ye ye hey misses mom shut please son trying explain something class shout husband rest us class hear jdhfkssakjfhawuie know user m threatening redflag uk basedhi everyone id advice user ive talking account think risk redflag weve talking weeks responded post mental health board feeling uselessa bad person wanting end life talked long time trying unearth reason feels way basically bad physical illness feels responsible able recover hes let whole family waste good brother etc says friend everyone school hates talk shit everyone gets tired end incredibly pessimistic outlook life general despite saying cares others seem particularly friendly respectful others ive trying best supportive helpful hes shot every one attempts optimisms trying find feels way says hes cnt want anything change way people better situation puts words mouth im making pissed now see proof im shit person die ive trying really hard even want talk anymore even say anything difficult lashing hell use reasons hes bad personshould kill really know handle anymore said couple days ago hes planning kill thursday nothing try say makes difference anymore feel suffer severe mental health issues helping wondering theres way contact reddit help call ukbased number samaritans know full name phone number anything username anyone wants try offering personal support take load pm anyone suggestions support much appreciated forcing people click links listen dont care post ur link time dont care youre trying force click link idc upmost ur links thousand times still wont click sure post links dont try force click choice youre gon na anything feel targeted fault trying force people click links know feel targeted heres little context reason rant every time one friends posts link youtube video post times midway status post theyll say oh thought gon na escape go click annoying hate people trying force u click lost grandpa grandpa year passed away tuesday stroke years back getting better underweight nursing home blue things took turn worst miss hell xbox live moment bruh wan na play halo titanfall im posting third time ignored everytime feedback poem mother nature merrier quite erroneous us presenting nothing making demon scarier time go back square one things done one quit parsimoniousness consider mother martriach expelling class half halfwits seems near wish lived america easily access guni guarantee case matter time ive raped cant take anymorei violently raped turned boy thought loved im coming th birthday cant fucking think right now im depressed barely understand happened couch jeans tshirt still remember television fact parents stairs fact raining drive home said kill left fucking stayed months treated fucking object whatever wanted grab boobs whenever wanted shove hands pants nothing object force oral sex shoving head yeah stronger didnt want sex wanted fucking wait everything felt used man tired memories im tired everything man use sex told loved complain didnt feel sex threatened fuck ex times together didnt rape felt constantly anxious wondering anything worth anymore im im numb except nightmares cry time okay rn dont know im dead end job want end im sorry needed tell someone although made cable film hbo enjoyable movie fascinating look backstabbing doubledealing world television allowing viewer peek behind scenes socalled late night talk show wars early s jay leno david letterman competed coveted position host tonight show kathy bates gives bravo performance lenos mercurial manager helen kushnick one feel empathy lenoletterman endured hands tv executives timely now considering recent events involving failed attempt abc replace nightline letterman matter many times seen film still find much pleasure watch first aired released dvd certainly add collection hate complicated fucked lifeim years old going college next month make dad working years cant keep job two weeks bc hes lazy bitches bc sit around nothing ive done whole fucking pathetic life graduated high school diploma went prison born got armed robbery drug running two felonies mom works disabled children loves job minus shitty pay wage grandma somehow still going grandpa died brother dad different mom shows parents house every tonight night im thinking ending either hanging father lbs fat ass somewhere via gunshot bc quick painless know ive single year two cant hold relationship bc personal demons porn addict try stop cant bc bored hate drugs hate constant verbal abuse dad talk back im afraid hell kill fight mom takes verbal abuse calls fat cunt dares call police hell kill us im son give shit less neighbor gun cabinet gave birthday shells never use either im going end life take family care someone world cares one know matter hopefully meet weird afterlife pussy put update try help help meeee alt account ran away cage sub need guys help find maybe hell come senses name ukarmeeee im really confused right kinda need rant chest grades exams determine wether go college thursday many people stressed shit literally emotion towards dont want results means parents going send college hours away thing im really shy reserved dont think ill able cope living dorm minute leave ill bombarded teenagers nobody know going tbf dont even know im interested course anymore worse thing havent applied anything considering online course parents much irritated mentioned worry decide im wasting away slight chance social life right thought moving away stressful worst part im feeling mentally able cope right feel completely lost nothing makes truly happy ive aiming toward course many years right dont think lot interest im confused fucking hate education system country dont even know nobody talk dont understand try explain end argument know im depressed suicidali think redflag daily know economic reasons personal reasons im gay hiv hate live im feel ive wasted life oh god days wish dead think redflag try say things im thankful always end sad still hate shit im pretty sure made whole class laugh bathroom phone always take idk normal english teacher called answer unmuted convo went teacher im bathroom tr im bathroom friends start laughing probably alongside everyone class muted z friend hahahaha respect friend haha good one brother straight laughter one friends says discord hes crying laughter know shared now finally decided datetomorrow big day im tired feeling way even long literally one cares good guess cause really hurting anyone ex want hates hed rather live single life give another chance someone claimed love much feel whole years lie feel worthless alone ive never felt way whole life im happy tomorrow soon goodbye feel terrible never anything fun never go zoo go movies usually late im drained time pick needless say lifestyle absolutely killing miserable zero friends see wife hours week opposite schedules im drained tomorrow going home visited dad first time year probably last time plan equipment date even time know stop friends acquaintances know mental health optimal family life family abusive anything dysfunctional one knows thought daily last months one last therapy session goes unrelated issues seriously doubt going tell anything tiny little moments doubt right now sure choice pass way soon mindset completely decided everything cold meaningless supposed stuff plan stuff good person really want disappear one fucking day wake wish drift middle conversations fantasizing ending snappy total nightmare around starting lose grip reality fucking hard deal bullshit stuff bad going worse want happens ask want want fuck know want know whatever never able achieve know trying sorry hope grandma sad think anymore update supposed nowabout month ago posted wanting commit redflag well drank bottle peroxide threw bunch went er im college student missed half semester came back proceeded skip two weeks worth classes depressed face world now ill probably fail im still beyond depressed medicated least hide home every day cant homework cant focus anything except silent hill beaten three times point connect people family anyone really think redflag almost daily days better others horrible experience hospital want go back im terrified dying know mess offing see work depression enough place okay user followed u followed weird account made hour ago post profile nsfw think ill make monthshits gotten point im starting go insane last night hallucinated badly sure real wasnt im constantly paranoid im still sure im dissociatinghallucinating almost nothing entertains anymore something entertain cant hold attention cant read books play video games dissociate story completely forget everything example ive played hours fallout ive dissociated point remember hours feel im fucking going insane cant fucking take anymore need helpi lost last thing live never coming back maybe sw help find something live edge ending tried overdose xanax alcoholi want live anymore im nearly millionaire im still happy whole entire family died still haunts every day years gun matter painful might end instant really need help someone talk shitty hotlines anything need stuff chest thanks reading m close committing redflag againim tired ignored constantly one understanding problem answer help anyone give im doomed ive wanted someone love isnt going happen try best confident nice people usually ignore dont reply dont want live life without experiencing feel love maybe overdose pretend dreams ugly girl friends giftsas title says nothing offer plan stay alive mom dies stage cancer every day uphill battle remember last time birthday celebrated well actually spent years birthday psych hospital think someone told happy birthday someone offer friend wouldnt follow theres nothing offer ive cried every day long dont know guess im weak minded stop pity party keep throwing one sees person similar mean things say dont think im different people idk im writing im pain people move texas ok basically texas havent lived whole life dad retired navy texan despite think dont dress cowboys shit half people see move come school dressed cowboy boots jeans cowboy hat dress shirt act confused one dressed right annoyed kevin male karen live missouri direct effects terrorism largely unknown brought home two men put line way members fdny nypd document horror unfolded day film testament lost lives true evil terror brings people listen joy division depressed wtf expect im ready diei nothing anymore everyone says gets better doesnt know feels love loved anymore heart completely shadowed mind ive planning day time fast approaching unless someone something prove life worth living im gone edit everyone responded thank kind words honestly think person alive care enough even read mundane little post sincerely thank people give hope something guessing game slugsoul going say next purposefully offensive shit attenshun random word sentence want die much endless selfpraising hate stairs quirky found perfect formula friends redditor weeb metalhead social axienty formula friends totally description somesomething haha even scared pain afraid weak regret letting age always hoped dead loneliness carving away parts hoped already gone alone disgusting worthless trans depressed special hell whole world sees circus clown best likely dangerous perverted freakish disgusting abberant abomination agree assertion everyone hates hate find strength anything improve circumstances make irrelevant rotting corpse dead alive disgusting worthless dead pay food want fight anymore every day gets harder harder matter hard try want dead looking friend andor friendette talk know today long term contract everyone invited today birthday dad said bring mask tho ps saved slice im tempted tell father buy gun kill mei cant really say much beside think living stressful right now aged insurence bull pay pocket dumb ass didnt set obgyn appointment still insurence im causing dad trouble pay every month ass doesnt cant find job cant insurance im retarded lazy depressed living annoying doesnt pay insurence month im dead right miles nowhereloneliness overwhelming anyone help rented film netflix two reasons mood thought silly s scifiasco first featurelength superman film needless say minutes found thoroughly engaged pleasantly surprisedbr br experimental oil well penetrated six miles earth shut sponsor lois clark show scoop disappointed deepest well drilled longer operation day later strange events well make story appropriate superman clark kent seems radioactive mole men invaded sixmile deep home near earths corebr br supermen mole men simplistic wellmade piece social realism released starring lead actor served world war ii moral story seems americans capable becoming fascists anybody drive point home typically straightforward superman manner reeves even accuses lynch mob hunting mole men nazis one pointbr br even s science underlying film nonexistent six miles drilling continental crust even penetrated upper mantle let alone hollow center earth case exist forgivable keep mind film based golden age comic bookbr br film little unevenly paced although molemen interesting bit creepy nicely portrayed several cormanesquire scenes spend much time redundantly showing us odd behavior script intelligent economical todays standards costuming poor fair time films special effects costuming quite good cinematography generally good acting much better one might expect particularly impressed reeves jeff corey walter reed ive bought different questionnairewriting prompts books past daystheres lot fill im done think im going finally relieve want want know things answers want leave filled whoever reads know life good bad terrible life well compared know want spend much time im ready lead next life one im ready rest peacefully inner part hand dry flaking im confused cant continue mental suffering foreverit come time give im afraid unknown want redflag damn im trapped tried everything nothing helped next ive never felt easyive battling depression suicidal thoughts awhile posted long agoim mobile know link another thread going detail set feelings ive thinking redflag daily basis things started slightly better met girl school started talking set date friday canceled due strep said wanted reschedule friday bit today said things started serious someone one classes want friends feel incredibly shitty feel im constantly used placeholder girls better options come way took sleeping pills earlier day sleep pass time ive taken put back sleep numb mind feel bad feel worse anytime theres even little bit glimmer hope flickers plunges back darkness cant think anything killing ive never felt easy actually able follow always much fear actually fear nearly non existed right now im temlted grab gun quickly pull trigger even things somehow better shit hole life cant possibly worth pain plus im dead im going regret want pain stop hurts fucking bad cant take anymore think ill make im moment turned june still got months left honestly think make every fucking night think plan redflag tonights one nights time want prefer way man know common fuck man feel goddamn alone girlfriend highly doubt even likes decent amount friends fuck man rather quite literally kill tell goi back girlfriend asked homecoming days great started acting different even know anymore thing anymore swear man every night every single night think im scared feel actually materials commit ill end causing shit go friends family holding mouth screaming pain bleeding lips knowing go fuck bf love anymore tells feels good knows hes hit hard feeling gets hands want die everydaytheres one day goes doesnt tell im worthless ugly piece shit fuck go home abusive uncle lives wtf years old young feel massive failure done jack squat life everytime try always knocked keep stable job girlfriend one years even keep stable conversation one due poor social skills depression barely friends feel exist world living enjoying life present hate feeling way seems way ill stuck forever feeling massive failure life hi think might verge suicide feel run options live country free medical care cancelled private insurance public hospitals frightening thing live rd world country go public facility abusedmistreated etci started taking antidepressants years ago redflag partner wanted doctor bad redflag kid broke found hard stop taking meds got terrible withdrawals eventually side effects got bad went psychiatrist tried various antidepressants got worse worse decided quit taking last september withdrawals crazy felt super depressed stopping even though tapered months ago still struggling booked rehabsuper expensive dealt coming psychiatric medication worst idea middle nowhere put hardcore drug addicts cldnt leave plus semicultish scariest experience leaving still problems withdrawal plus traumatized terrible sensations body result totally screwed knw anyway anymore tried reaching family really helping type pretty much kid ie parent surprised even made fari written goodbye note bought gear decided going hike middle nowhere die unfortunately country social security feel shitty possibly hold job plus country basic job working mcdonalds pretty much living shack dire poverty pays way little survive savings decided little lost carry fighting case realised actually make difference peoples lives instead wasting mine enough build house friend nepal enough send girl rural india school look needs graduates enough donate religious organization something substantial feel spend taking away cld give someone tired feel better feel completely alone isolated used social lately withdrawn really think biggest fear becoming ghost praying alot feel hopeless think got another day two left tried withdrawal money today cld donate told got hr lock savings wait pray next life things better tried live good life really always tried live morallyso open suggestions feels though previously thought suicide never come far plan everything decide moneys going die etc left apartment staying hotel close mountains cut worldthanks advance pretty sure end advice tired life tired disappointment hard fit world good anything absolute waste space job good anything tired everyone concerned future future anything right fail everything attempt trapped want anymore want die deal bs shithole offer take shit anymore want fight want work hard want anything want drop dead right moment fucking tiredat point dont even know im still alive im fucking tired crying every night waking feeling nothing cant even finish im mad vanish long anxiety anti depressant meds take workhi im getting emergency appointment gp tomorrow need urgent solution really cant cope day day reasons explained another thread able seek therapy long term solution mean time need anti depressants anti anxiety medication help straight away take long time work really getting hopes ease short term finish exams working job love know mood improve thanks taking time day read incoherent ramblings hello therelost father covid last year void left behind filledthe love life told hates foreverexams next week desire study although know going failaddicted porn maximum nofapstreak daysdont know seeing friends amp colleagues happy successful leading good life feeling getting harder posting first kiss day almost forgot post today almost ended posting streak im tired dealing lifei cant stop thinking everyone better gone family life insurance money make look accident think miss even notice im gone year rough see getting better theres pain ahead im tired feeling probably favourite tv show love characters especially alex perfect woman always makes laugh feel good watch show something amazing hard describebr br seems episodes synchronise music albums well examples episodes start end play end credits end always play opening credits episodes album plays episodes play twice go furtherbr br radiohead pink floyd bob dylanbr br double bogey kid ok computer episode plays least timesbr br saturn kid meddle shot lovebr br world without alex kid wish pablo honeyepisode plays least timesbr br clues episodes tell albums synchronise kid may synchronise every episode compulsive urges hurt selfi feel pretty inadequate less people think self esteem may lead part thoughts im average height constantly want want vision hitting head feels good easy ignore first thoughts escalating eating dinner compulsion stick fork eye even though know excruciating never self harmed life never physically never urge cut really frightening anyone dealt something similar tonight nighti going wait parents pass away first ill first go sorry mom dad strong enough hold love guys great parents came fucked im fond film vexes many reviewers rank peter jackson trilogy filmed novel always interpretive particular animated film relies artists vision judged terms speaking purist finer homage tolkien updated version film flaws stays truer source especially far characters concernedbr br jackson version tolkiens frodo barely recognizable first scenes portrayed weakling constantly wavering manipulated forces around never standing two feet physically metaphorically true wonder fate chose limp biscuit carry one ring cracks doom jackson unforgivably rewrites tolkien robs frodo finest moment allows arwen rescue ringwraithsbakshis version respects original presenting frodo demands wraiths go back trouble bakshi sustains frodos character tolkien conceived see decline weight burden increases frodo pivotal lord rings wonder jackson took liberties numerous characterssince character development propels plot inevitable conclusion bakshis film better explores companionship legolas gimli judicious scenes completely lacking jacksons version similarly see boromir horsing pippin merry furthering idea fellowship liking camaraderie developed animated version live actionbr br tolkiens poetry important ingredient novels bakshi makes tribute one favorite scenes frodo sings merry old inn song minutes stumbling strider cheery tune chillingly juxtaposed darker theme music seconds later invisible friends visible wraiths frodo dangerously exposed one atmospheric portions film chills whenever see itbr br well documented budgettime restrictions limit films final impact completed may resonated viewers worth look even detractors admit peter jackson derived much inspiration prototype random fact know im bored tell random facts rid youtube advertisements step go end video step two replay video part profit sometimes watch ad put end haha fuck parentes geting divorce thought great happy life anymore haha anybody recognize username want know level reddit fame sub please talk someoneforget alright sw really need helpill keep short put details gets replies damn even depresses talk theres girl perfect eyes talking internet month hours away decided meet well last minute cancelled plans knows month later start talking want saw easy lose want relationship know work wants friends distance issues ive major heart ache bad anxiety extremely depressed know im going kill yet cant take much longer anything try mind never works want lay day recluse ive lost pretty much joy everything cant concentrate anything lot people say im dumb kid im thinking way serious problem getting much handle anymore im anyone feeling needs advice bad day dm love chat help way need somebody rant ill gladly listen rather talk discord dm ill send discord info know never able help apathetic whole life never going change constant ruminations zero self esteem redflag loneliness fucking wonderful lucky obese now know ill never lose tried tried nothing never spoken girl always aloneknowing still bothered help escape got support family nothing change unless change know never going happengetting thoughts suicide constant wish hurt mom break unable help died need tell storythis life long sad story one must tell someone born middle kid middle class family parents first abusers dad alcoholic beat brother nights good listen music mom much better abuse dad abuse emotionally financially bad around third grade diagnosed autism testing traumatic first experience gender dysphoria waiting room vhs worked alice wonderland wanted alice handle new world handle mine parent filled pills till high school pill made slow fat easier dope parent lead getting lbs develop boob im guy ive spent whole adult life trying fit one biggest failures raped friends got drunk payed girl sex happen party ive told therapist still cant talk theres proof left one one believe collage failure know bpd depression still talk rape let build inside met ex great first became emotionallyverbally sexually abusive hide friends family spend next three years deep denial come phone sex cam girl addiction itd year cant stop ive spend theres coming back im stuck dead end job life forfeit theres coming back day school going walk miles sun city lakes menifee today free phone ebt phone broke recently eaten breakfast food know asked received grateful think mentally handle eating something today help help thank reading message hope good day alright review ask listed individually may merely tv item italy international lamberto bava fans film america film distributed vhs dvd either ogre demons yes know nothing demons apart one cast member crew yes personally upset hard find site usefulbr br finally lets review ogre ive seen trailer many times youtube honestly found rather scary movie feature length making movie many many strong parts manage scare displeased last act whole regret bought dvd seeing available shriek show guess films tv origins explain last act give spoilersbr br plot somewhat familiar american horror writer vacationing ancient spooky castle husband son find exactly resembles setting childhood nightmares faint echoes shining different brand supernatural horror woman virginia bryant finds proof real life place nightmares husband believe great atmosphere terror followbr br multiple nightmare sequences pretty freaky ogre cocoon effect good reminded bit uncle franks resurrection first hellraiser theres good shocks well done underwater scene give props film never stooped imitating american films similar concepts namely nightmare elm street ogre original monster scary one presented correctlybr br shriek show dvd lamberto bava interview careful mention part classic demons series gives lot credit real castle movie filmed indeed setting contributes lot film simon boswell music helps toobr br theres lots good stuff ogre perfect much worth seeing take lesser lamberto bava achievement ok ran ideas original posts ngl shitposts make sense interested going onso last couple year suicidal thought growing growing spending lots time therapy spent two stays hospital still come empty every medication book yet really complete success im surrounded extremely supportive family friends truly care much really good day enjoy thing constantly try new things hopes helping try best exercising regularly eating well enough yet change feel problem often feel depressed unhappy dont feel much anything dont feel weight failure anything dont desire keep going prefer stop working long diving back far honestly say felt way years old im really feel im staying around dont want hurt family friends sibling take life around age years back watch completely destroy parents siblings cant bring put feel trapped situation dont really know next spent every bit money traveling trying new places hoping best feeling stayed dont know really go one really talk anymore mean yeah friends online even much anymore girl talking stopped keep trying distance know ill hurt talk always find giving answer calls awkward meet new people even online really pathetic want meet new people always fear talk hurt feelings wish knew whether people actually think worthless piece shit starting feel alone words bite assi depressed last years diagnosed pediatric doctor last year started see therapistpsychaitrist always thought live depression functional maybe low energy constant melancholy know functional part work days week apartment share boyfriend two beautiful wonderful cats whole life car pay bills without help anyone last two three years pretty rough terrible breakup father passed away unexpectedly almost homeless different times finally got stable job last august many life issues except fucking hate job really worst aspect life driven constant manic depressive state im miserable anything sleep go work fucking hate life nothing tried worked medicine exercise even self medicating booze weed work least long always said never hurt kill permanent im fundamentally indecisive person ive never close cant afford quit look something hardly motivation energy apply something job market hard know go talk im never taken seriously sorry long post really need someone talk way vent hello hii whats day fun understand words come pouring cunt mouth im gon na eat every fucking chicken room something dont thinking shit dont think shit act know shit act dammit hate going school seeing assholes popular annoying see straight know im shit stay quite im confident dont need validation nobody person acts shit know shit dont think shit know call fcking upso fair warning probably terrible human struggling sexual relationship couple years ago trying come terms definitely overthinking want sense talked basically dated girl six months never sex got pretty close one fight lead another ended breaking well broke talking told yeah going sleep weekend broke almost hanging head try back ended starting hook started try take things little expressed interest sex wed hook beginning always ask okay shed respond yes name something okay id tell well trips wed hook sometimes shed underwear still id thrust occasionally id move side little tease sticking never extent itd past foreplay one time asked still underwear immediately stopped teasing went back underwear return night times incident id try said wouldve told something okay never ended sex definitely teased wed shower together times one time asked questions underwear reason feel dirty sly taking advantage pushy thinking realize moved underwear know cant shake guilt keep overthinking things ive almost painted sexual assault perpetrator feel jail past years never said anything anyone feeling something wrong damn reason keep thinking ended things years ago really bad terms recently tried reach apologize treating way using hookup cheating etc stonewalled brain overthinking saying thinks sexually assaulted ive hard lately want clarity think willing come terms something put label able find spiral perpetual guilt bill wurtz music underrated listened older songs play dance rabbit snakes anybody even know music yall motherfuckers call witches dance around tarot cards offerings spirit readings crap reserve right collect swords quest take holy land yall pretend cast spells hexes shit babble reclaiming jerusalem deal need help friend best friend suicidal dont know help family abusive narcissistic punish found help saw film august th annual national association black journalists convention milwaukee wi first public screening film great derek luke wonderful antwone fisher young actor bright future real antwone fisher great job writing film denzels direction right money see opening weekend disappointed attention hand cum really want thisi want end mental hospital help friends whos ex committed redflagwhat say friend depressed ex committed redflag today told im hear needs anything reminded isnt fault want make sure knows someone care cant take migrainesim already severely depressed migraines almost every day nothing doctor gives works cant take im hours current pain one worst ones yet nothing works otc painkillers work ice heat packs work matter lay sit want cant think straight living worth fuck constant head pain god design us way know im saying im middle im crying pain came back edge wanted share learned anyone still thereover last months got caught bad situation probably worst ive part entirely caused screw ups left gutwrenching pain regret shame guilt humiliation ruined life time ruined repuatation took toll around long long time im able recover point pain bad truly thought better leave everything behind imagined relief feel feel imagined void thats side theres pain joy theres nothing void came close got scared jumping good things though time bad things overwhelming stand thought never another good time thats kept jumping theres never another life point void come able stop want sure gotten every last drop joy life weight lifted shoulders lately feel better long wanted share things ive come away anyone needs hear ive came back think possible come back possible come back admit whatever thats buried inside want hear admit admit someone trust almost everyone wants help please ask please ask even people scared please ask help ask im anonymous face demons theyll outrun dont seriously big one must turn face make mistake wait face sense relief greater sense dread consequences face right weight lifted realized much wanted savor good times started write note wanted something remind things loved thinking last piece interruption occured never finished note way turned end void make sure spend life fucking monster evil second movie based life times ultra hung porn star john curtis estes better known john holmes boogie nights roughly based life maybe someday someone going movie life tommy byron insteadbr br problem story well told many law order episodes twists turns wonderland director never gets criminal case going kind gusto val kilmer two problems nearly hung holmes prosthesis time around unlike boogie nights much better looking mope holmes br br director introduce one single likable individual among cast racist immature lowlifes hangs wife police much way characterization br br best part movie eric bogosian telling paris hilton lost br br said anyone interested sleaziest side porn business s true crime miss posting random stuff reason day sometimes feel whole life joke first fight okay th grade ima try make short long story short ex best friend point constantly trying punch guthe homeroom school hallways trying art class snapped grabbed hoodie lunged wall started punching face went full hulk put headlock gotten rage mode eventually couple th graders grapped us away ex best friend grapped stuff walked offi grabbed stuff walked art class best part got early dismissal day sorry long tried make short hoped enjoy reading thisim currently th grade tonight right now going try talk last people believe going prepare everything set speed dial last things make happy cut deeper mark body right arm face legs torso arm everything prepared almost sacrifice hours less diemy name adam years old faced things torture whole life lie tried opening last week immediately betrayed think one closest friends killed earlier tonight envy disappear nobody reason pity points fuck years ago brother raped twice brother assaulted sister months ago knife want continue know others live goodnight goodbye last night plannote twrape suicide self harm abuse everything hurtswaiting taking long remember dreams nightmares fear idk brolike kms yet man one day itll happen went psych earlier year help generalized anxiety disorder fucken useless idk im depressed anxious time guess solid bursts happiness worse sounds im really good playing yea loooooot crying worrying one things worry many female friends confident around women essentially making think alone forever im rn actually looks mindset change know im young whenever people tell worry work issues made question current girl im texting actually someone still talking option anyways certainly people worse problems apologies clogging feed hope everyone okay stay strong need break whilei dont think im ready die awful wish something take put hospital week without killing dont go work anything im defeated exhausted tired trying house mess desire clean gets worse every day people help youthe quote said frequently friends exgirlfriend told people willing help suicidal thoughts searching online declined twice councillors visit local gp doctor offered number call disappointment told young service suited think metal illnesses treated equal everything ear infection know appointment doctor next day able help metal illness clear guidance go talk treated serious wrong opinion damage person lot hello guys even sure right subreddit sorry english advance wanted tell unusual felt days ago basically woke tuesday feeling numb fog brain lost interest activities normally really enjoy watching moviesthe weirdest thing irrational thoughts literally days ago watching old obscure essay films literally next day found thinking point movies fake actors wrap head around thisadded fact constantly felt tired sleepy naturally thought depression redflag never things fact usually cheerup guy family usually find silver lining even dark situations happened sudden unexplainable nothing happened personal life lately either justify thisi thought might side effect nasonex corticosteroid nasal spray taken th july read side effects instructions say anything psychological effects kind wrote looking online read corticosteroids actually produce redflag depression sometimes rare basically know believehas anything happened beforethanks advance weird symptoms past days im lost lost feel empty im something girlfriend girlfriend going something body making hate usually dont really know help feel completely powerless drifting apart almost idk im never able think right things say anymore feel im npc im watching different angle feel confused hazy dont know anything anymore fought succeeded im back years agoive become shut dont socialize anyone anymore im associates degree taking online classes feel im going path took sophomore year peak depression ive thinking self harm decided use rubber band flick feel way im unsure future make something im destined live life shut work home im wondering sort relapse need helpso girl asshole friend likes hes trying think might commit redflag gets hand ok udeleted transphobehomophoberacist feel idiot used drive great dad kept saying ride slow everybody rides little faster allowed autistic af took litteraly driving redflag take indoors route instead high way whenever someone behind wants faster drove faster got around tickets sure coming sad part know much knew late total span two weeks coming talking speeding km hour km hour feel stupid understand stupid work government feel stupid person know shit dad said buy good car light broke fix fact going rain tickets want die life hard autistic loser got speeding tickets autistic stupid bitch weirdwas jump bridge today one fear ill kind consciousness afterlife regret dying strange im sadgimme advice sit crush mathour teacher gave us assignment today said yall gon na working partners partner sit crush said noooi cant remember exactly said upset im done im done im donei miss wife miss life im falling apart im done im sorry tell mom fault promise rings supposed closer engagements heard somewhere promise rings supposed given girl sort preengagement ring dont know thats true got gf one one year anniversary didnt think mini engagement still dont think mini engagement anything right thinking think ring show committed real relationship im curious know people think promise rings fucked big time made huge ass cut arm im terrified parents gon na kill see help father makes deals people kuwait russia sells cows people spend life computeri many reallife friends family ones always busy online friends feel detached cant see touch im trying make new friends hard okcupid craigslist kind hit miss seems whenever tired suicidal fucking sucks disability know heal mental physical illnesses permanent solution permanent problems even work bc x offed got sent back entities side whats point really time yet well time im tired human form want nonphysical realms let reincarnate better avatar memory wipe time fuck got ta love kids start chanting head saying stuff cut bleed pool blood need shoot head pull trigger im dead whatnot mouth babes right non physical friends physical friends plus dad died weeks ago nice join guess sleep ill wake feeling better tomorrow til tomorrow night ill probably feeling way every day exactly fucking mood swings guess stuff live enough reasons think redflag every morning wake upanybody im sick life want live anymore despite fact everything fine im going study soon university cant handle past happened many things cant years first thought redflag even tried kill self hanging work fucking rope ruptured stupid rope anyways every morning stand wish dead need worry guys probably continue life family friends huge disaster shame want express share feelings hope someone understands mooooooom youu wash back onceeeeee caaaan forgeeeeeeet ill leaveeee im chasing girls persuueeee lost love life literally never cared less momentmy boyfriend years mutually called quits never felt numb empty right now right thing im sure wasting away lose body fat muscles atrophy ultimately die best thing never felt less human never felt less importance worthiness life im never letting feel wan na useful make cash troubling times nearly parttime jobs area closed covid live restrictions super strict people age earning money lot better help parents pay fees school house bills along personal stuff need parents working even harder make roof collapse year old boy feel guilty anything even though really want im starting become depressed im feeling useless day passes want make life easier everyone want useful want help sigh id quote alexander great take life alexander conquering many kingdoms returning home way fell ill took death bed death staring face alexander realized conquests great army sharp sword wealth consequence longed reach home see mothers face bid last adieu accept fact sinking health permit reach distant homeland mighty conqueror lay prostrate pale helplessly waiting breathe last called generals said depart world soon three wishes please carry without fail tears flowing cheeks generals agreed abide kings last wishes first desire said alexander physicians alone must carry coffin pause continued secondly desire coffin carried grave path leading graveyard strewn gold silver precious stones collected treasury king felt exhausted saying took minutes rest continued third last wish hands kept dangling coffin ampxb people gathered wondered kings strange wishes one dared bring question lips alexanders favorite general kissed hand pressed heart o king assure wishes fulfilled tell us make strange wishes alexander took deep breath said world know three lessons learnt lessons learnt last wishes king alexander want physicians carry coffin people realize doctor earth really cure body powerless save person clutches death let people take life granted second wish strewing gold silver riches path graveyard tell people even fraction gold come spent life greed power earning riches take anything let people realize sheer waste time chase wealth third wish hands dangling coffin wish people know came empty handed world empty handed go world ampxb words king closed eyes soon let death conquer breathed last cfsmeim going kill really soon think abity manage far outstripped maybe today im brave dont want biological males using washroom using washroom school today biological male came cant stand fact right use washroom biden erased women dont forget well almost choked outsince house crumbling doubt even shower rod hold weight lbs went head tried essentially strangle using rope bathroom door managed chill minutes guess feeling face swelling much bitch ass handle real reason stick around anywayi cant stand burden friends fake honestly im sick tired constantly make plans reply okay dont know whether drop honestly every time go im one making plans whenever make plans among never include always feel fucking left dont know feel lost ive known year invited word homophobia makes sense implies people scared homosexuals absurd im scared gay people gay people scared chemically physically possible things better tldr endi got diagnosed severe adhd dream job work recording studio work around moping spent past years life learning audio technology sound engineering stage work everything inbetween dad forhire bass player years still works av assorted events meeting people networked years deep look music tech work scene extremely networking heavy entry bar set high significantly luck based maybe years established make steady career first several years require hour weeks full dedication help live oklahoma music scene s neared end highschool worked hard develop least social skills need college hit hard nearly killed tutoring help literally told checked mental disability getting less socially awkward sure becoming lot angrier everything well took advice got tested expecting negative silly thought nope brain chemically deficient problem medication might enough college plus give accommodations make easier even less ready real life workaround adhd music space enough sure maybe happy life eventually find something give recording studio dream forever wish nah im done stupid want part anymore nothing left tldr adhd means dream job know learning career years know cant done im making assumptions one things world actually know stuff workarounds chances hopes thing happen another recruiting session cult comment dm link apple cult worship apple must feed newborns collect cant afford real therapy free therapy infrequent unhelpful helpwhat feel trapped terms options free alternatives right inconsistent cancel reschedule im way fucked see someone month dont want continue anymorei lost girl dreams think along distance relationship work thought v back plan going living lot closer months found someone finalstraw life one good thing going lost time continue wanted die now met changed time wanted die felt made want live gone talking fuck boy likes claim raps wears facepaint icp last reason live gone love much reason want die reason left want live real life hair reveal coming soon subreddit near know sexuality guaranteed im definitely gay im straight uuuh put something ass know think felt weird enjoy hate ask ill try best explain well im making final plans im going haircut wear best clothing step away lifei actually decided end life two years ago months death beloved wife living relatives lifelong struggle bipolar disorder substance abuse issues left pretty much alone earth wife yin yang enjoyed six short years bliss stability love mine finally allowed normal im happy years alone unstable addicted alone well interesting story decided summer first serious snowfall required shovel triggering moment im old enough unhealthy enough im really capable clearing driveway without assistance figured moment accept best days behind take final step crazy thing though winter first winter recorded history tiny swath northern indiana live got appreciable snowfall snow redflag pray courage ive studied thought lot take life think made right choice one real question remains think wait snow guys asked crush said even think twice atleast kill f chat pls thinking mans silly movie expect star wars enjoy british humor might turn cult classic wife casting voice cary grant jack nicholson martians overly simplistic populace big bean movie either sleep watch carefully enjoy either waybr br everyone enjoy relaxing easy humor takes quick mind see joke slips enjoy movie good enough dieits selfish post im taking attention away people really need people crisis need help im sorry thats kind attention seeking asshole im going die yet deserve need become better person die want death mean something want somebody someone couldve loved im sorry worthless ill try better wow reason post fuck post im attention seeking whore really ignore im desperately hoping random person thinks interesting dramatic enough something care deserve attention care really want im fucking pig edit ill ok jesus reddit amazing place turns theres cat pictures needed someone care need live now going painful messy cant much unless im alive thank caring melb ausis anyone melb aus right now dont know fuxk plan commit suicide somewhere midaugust witnessed parents fought one time resort mother tried bash fathers head table lamp first years school bullied heavily first day got mass beating cried celebration lineup followed big fight vs everybody class lot hate towards teachers years school worst remember partially unstable mother point parents got divorced father living us long time visit one time went park reason stopped place renting got back mother sensed something odd asked told consequences told truth followed horrific memory date put simply involved lot slurs directed father screaming beating expensive highend plasma tv hammer things calmed parents share apartment completed basic education something never left feeling uselessness desire exist anymore became apparent around years ago got somewhat deadline months ago basically situation bad exams studied good professional teachers another school came bad got place university contest pan chose translation profession english german languages summer take firstyear exam german complete failure retake september much past year basically nowhere go retake exams come even worse current scores university college allfor whole life felt belong mistake well seems true sad witness nineteenth birthday cats going grow sad leave parents hope future even sad live rest life end homeless scared ultimately change anything end ants big rock going boil us alive absence insignificant know go anymore need make next hours soim garbage person im staying family home cause im jobs yesterday family said xmas early thought better wasnt got ta disappear approximately hours starting hours think setting fire alot dont want anyone see face think whole ordeal family think want around set fire think im dramatic think pull frodo disappear think wrap heavy chains jump big river maybe dont find body atleast pretend im wandering somewhere something happened brain cause two years ago thinking gon na bake pie family make extra special thinking anyone sees whats fastest way kill im literally reassured got bit cash pocket worst case scenario go gas station buy gas set alight comforting thought now might run away seems fine post got deleted shouldnt saw post someone talking harming got taken front eyes dont know user wish well hope youre good us built survivethats lately ive thinking life endless myriad suffering consistently used tossed away miss pills least pills feel throwing moving car fantasize almost every day want die somewhere beautiful cold somewhere snow survived cult endured childhood full rejection rape abuse beatings death continue teenage years family disowned religion denied education medical treatment place call home fell love thought cured married foolishly cant seem overcome disorders ive fully diagnosed plethora broken relationship treat well im proficient music hold job im good things put hand cant happy nightmares anxiety depression lack friends lack family lack support eats away every day everything overwhelming hurts im afraid want check hospital theyll forcefeed pills ill away wife thing keeps grounded tried start family failed want stop sick used afraid feel apathetic feel resigned ive thinking gentlest best way end come solid decision thinking something quietly put sleep im tired trying ive tried years better situation ive therapists doctors pills tried almost everything think improve nothing working darkness winning hate im transgender muchi didnt much childhood teen years sucked im probably gon na spend next ten years life hating feeling incredibly lonely jealous cant even date yet wouldnt feel comfortable least hrt top surgery itll years afford ill move first ill thirties never experienced best parts youth time wasted cant deal pain much longer either something needs done im killing cant imagine scenario lethal prescription drugs combinationi want dont access illegal drugs even alcohol lethal prescription drugs combination effectively gets job done need help please cry sleep every night drink self harm abuse drugsall hope trying escape piece shit life never worksi close killing close end anyone feeling brain literally rotting days go byi honestly never felt worse entire life feels nothing live thing keeping alive fear death keep feeling depressed day ive getting headaches unusual sick recently explain fact spend time front screen still doesnt help fact feels brain literally rotting head every day feels im passing chance make things better point dont know helped guess posts make better momentarily theres usually someone talk without feeling guilty feel im bother everyone know dont really even anymore feel redflag going end inevitable really scary knows really people hack among us people hack roblox im saying annoying trying fun theres cheater lobby wrong annoying game different game lets honest cant older keep thinking ex girlfriendshe killed months ago got q new girlfriend soon week later lot stuff fully miss lot miss want back wan na talk still love left anyone wan na lonely together dm lonely noises filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler aaaaa think im kidney stone jacked much dick home fire whatevers happening hurts crazy anyone wan na practice flirting know u actually wan na flirt practice actually tell ok pms open crazy story fish large freshwater reservoir noticed something cruising lake head dogbut saw body kinda cruised away making huge splash resurfacing im pretty sure otter still pretty cool drug abusing acoholic forgot normal body feels likei know start know sober least years drink minimum pack beer per day normally maintain sense social clarity last two weeks completely strange strange mean look people especially love see nothing nothing new face something odd happening body feel skin similar aluminum foil heated lighter recently saw doctor liver advice wasted breath wanted time news liver year old alcoholics change quickly faded reverted back drinking heavily snorting smoking opiates live family see anything drug abusing alcoholic im sad concerned new good morning im crying crabs found hermit crab finds bigger shell itll explore see itll fit shell big wait shell hours crabs come along try realize big well queue next shell form line biggest crab smallest wait crab perfect fit exchange shells sequence everyone gets new home omg literally everyone needs see video rick roll ive seen posts bitching gender war whatever tf happening bruh yall need stop lmao im sitting contemplatingif want past weeks ive found thinking ending feel im hopeless decisions make turn come around go wrong leaving confused saddened mess cant seem catch break im religious think power keeping know im wrong handful friends days family distant ive meds given doctor months cant afford anymore feel worse every day constantly keep imagining scenarios real gun enough access want think anymore want help hate feeling emptiness even say sadness feeling pure emptiness hate felling emptiness today maths lesson without teacher student school got youknowwhat closed school days maths lesson via skype today well teacher bit late started lesson line echoed horribly figured someone phone lesson speakers didnt know even though wanted lesson continue teacher couldnt anything didnt think way apparently eventually got fed left got bit scared everyday occasion say least decided fix problem minutes muting people name order trying speak found person mute avoid echo afterwards texted teacher managed find cause echo continue lesson available anymore wanted give chance come back stuck around whole class teacherless talking crackong jokes minutes lesson supposed end didnt come back end told happened ok apologised getting mad moral story wanted share cuz feeling guiltymy parents middle divorce theyve separated long time live mom ptsd living dad whole personality changed stressed feel telling want die millionth time make feel worse much easier leave silently dad good health insurance golly sure wish last fee hed pay cremation burial ive financial emotional drain baby sit night fighting go pills rope eventually pass thinking yelled everything sit screaming silently cant see much im hurting whenever say much pain im alive brushed told worse wish worse justify feeling way live constantly disassociating yelled misunderstood cant deal anymore everything ready thats left willpower sorry long post even life gets better never forgive world ive seen truth evil place beive crossed point return cant possibly believe world good place even life becomes good poem wrote yesterday sleeping lol everyone attracted brightest star yes one know admire afar cant live without star life ill never know im hopeless im gon na end im going commit redflag end misery boys girls u infinite wholesome awards reddit guide book brain crazy teen windows solitaire windows strip poker win windowschan showed tits force go nothing live forhey everyone frequent lurker first time poster wanted reach guys feel im wits end ive gone pretty much everywhere think years therapy medication countless conversations family members multiple calls redflag prevention hotlines nothings really made better one able convince life worth living thats despite fact good deal stuff going family destitute means go good school good friends decent grades mom says id feel better ungrateful things life maybe right always seemed good things far outweighed hopelessness sadness im dealing time want good things hate see indolent useless waste person goals ambitions life feel placeholders theyre really want theyre feel im supposed something really want die think killing every day im tired feeling selfhatred despondence people life probably feel sad die even though im convinced affection sorely misplaced lives much better never entered make people grieve thing world want thing cant everything feels empty hollow feel losing drive survive know anyone say anything help feel redflag solution life makes sense know keep going anymore idkhello alone alone day born remain alone till day begin decomposing feet friends love nobody general live parents spend days sitting home alone nothing loneliness began serious toll confidence point absolutely confidence beyond depressed nobody talk nobody help day dont see point continuing onward knowing never find love knowing remain failure forever cheers disgusting personality everyonei sober teetotal brit drunk brits sensible fun pubs pints preachy teetotal subhumans spitting peoples faces yelling managers food healthy enough going healthy smoke disgusting piece shit drinking smoking eating food tastes good preachy fucking degenerate people cough peoples faces telling actual humans throwing getting others hold hair back sensible british people deserve british clean eater time makes gross asshole impossible change personality rid vile habits make obnoxious dangerous asshole people cant change personality enjoy throwing drunk public smoking eating junk food time tomorrow going end life need good sensible safe person disgusting freak people drink smoke eat junk food degenerates main cause second wave coronavirus country totally competent programmer cant even fricking scratch tried making game forgot code part actually play wanted show friends yea broken cant fix im mobile sucks oh btw link anyone knows use scratch probably fix flag clicked set touched bullet httpsscratchmiteduprojects im feeling redflag easierso throwaway obviously want shoot head instead dealing life sum im premed thats failing college im crippled fear funny enough failing recently married wonderful wife adore beyond cant support us cause job skills college turning bust dad supporting us part know im failing likely cut support long tell hes doctor hate religion long drawn reasons giving identity problems whats really putting edge right now ive dealing wifes sister extremely overbearing always knows whats best never wrong belittled wife last night super bowl game nearly years married biting tongue decided speak said youre rude wife please dont started upset correction said youre pill asked wife leave everything seemed fine minutes stayed shit exactly happened seem big deal right little argument nope half hour sister law leaves room starts bawling bathroom course parents laws go aid turns huge thing morning brother lawher husband asked come help tile things course wants discuss argument witness turns sister law thinks poisoned wife whole littany awful things always bit tongue starts exaggerating lying speaking empirically things knows nothing one time defend wife made terrible villain brother law begins tell stress theyve may acting waysince ive known asks considerate speak rudely last night yell passive aggressive asked nice crime calling bullshit one reacts way lived together house year sister law pregnant learned thing two always kept mouth shut every fiber wanted tell constant belittling younger sister wife well nice person said okay come home tell wife cant tell im feeling inside poisoning hate hate job hate im weight hate cant ask help premed program cause laughed advisors office need help hate sister law manipulating everyone always way hate wifes family thinks im terrible person hate friends getting accepted medical school cant even gen chem class cause panic every semester point cant even register classes means look gpa hate thing keeping blowing brains right made inconsiderate person taking cowards way cant anyone considerate feelings stress cant anyone come aid try god damned hard simply good person ive thought killing time actually want im scared im alone know fuuuuuuckkk im going kill quite sooni really hate alive im horrible person terribly insecure completely useless likely bother friends see much value alive bought rope ago think ill kill next week im never sure see sick everyone sick life sick nobody giving two damns mei one none friends care thought depend guess none spoken two months soon start feeling ignore hell deserve crap dished ive done supportive friend want friend cares screw life worth go every day alone expect responses ive never gotten two months people thought cared complete strangers give crap loser cant breathe anymore anxiety crushing wan na troll friend need help friend streaming moment rather small streamer usually viewers wan na troll flooding stream viewers write random crap chat whould appreciate help twitch lolsose birthday happy birthday share birthday remain calm adienty attack im talking front class filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler failed first time everything crumbling againabout years ago tried first attempt obviously failed looked accident one suspected went ups downs overall fresh take life fast forward couple year met love life jump forward married im working job love suicidal may ask constantly fear future kids never making enough never good enough hide depression problem drinking created problems nothing big recently got drunk hit mailbox possibly looking jail time wife threatened leave big disappointment everyone dont know whats wrong seems every good thing screw drag loved ones im almost edge dont think ill fail time gunshot head ive researched extensively past days several guns think wife suspects something cant bring tell scared depressed helpless feel take gun carry truck holding hope im gon na go jail im charged im going im terrified trying hold darkness crushing im crumbling write really hard time might sound exagerated first life overkilling us matter ampxb basically im venezuela heard stories thisplace know rather nice havent resume every single thing sucks theres literally single good thing think damned place situation drained even last drop sanity left things mean ampxb energy supply umbearable everysingleday theres blackout usually last hours random course year become hours random thats without taking count one happens randomly every month last entire day aditionally sometimes power comes back half regular voltage something v things fridges ac televitions computersect working undesirable v guessing mine lower ampxb internet sound big priority times really necesity need internet order make bank transfers pay credit cards service bad last one example fact venezuelas internet one slowest world mbps last time checked meaning say g download takes hours complete thats wih electricity tends dissapear randomly daily basisand many cities pieces shit started stealing internet cables streets sell copper leaving anyone unlucky enough cables net internet company distribudes internet decide fix never last one happened grandmas house internet ampxb alot food alot water well dont think explain one basically theres enough food expensive compare people wages thats local food anything grown last automaticaly unreachable example aples everybody knows fruit right well luxury crosing borders either colombia brazil fucked normal parents telling story kid asked aples real never seen theres water limited water tank house bad time example maracaibo city grandma lives gets water days every two weeks water friday sundays night gone wait friday fucking weeks ahead refill water tank imagine living place take shower every weeks oh know constantly wash hands thing yeah ampxb fucking corruption seems thing bad countries adapted bullshit country example fact go prison food car sounds unreal believe ampxb top exclusive family personal problems form last drop cup ampxb one im going cut short basicaly notsolittle dispute family terrain father left died last year scaled sort agressions instance fucker threatening knife fucker telling mom hes gon na us mom cut pieces bitch even part problem calling mom something along son whore kind insult last wednesday main troublemaker fucker attacking one friend rocks last one counterattacked moment hit nail stuffed club carrying around protection problem much now weve reached autorities well corruption weve gone times local police station say cant anything due covid thing basicaly luck oh agresive bad guy cause supossed let autorities handle sort conflict ampxb yesterday mother went bigger instances try solve constant threats thing told anything unless becomes physical thing way back something car broke left place one hour away ampxb bullshit really gotten best right cant stop thinking lets say ilegality fucking end least way others familiars whould able conflict solved really runing low options ampxb im really verge insanity cant stop thinking one honestly im kind looking advice issue thats even posibility anyone even bothered read phantom noosesive felt phantom noose around neck last two week cant walk past height railing without imagining world feel jump neck snap rope pulls taut hit ground wet splat scenario gets appealing day got fired year ago fulltime job parttime work field terrible boring stressful work ive done boring work barely uses degreeyou train anyone read joband stressful theres guarantee assignment last even half time staffing agencies promise hustle send resumes every day keep parttime work ill quit job thats end work one thats start broke two months contribute relationship working plenty people jobs make happy always agreed equal partnership cant sos equal im working depend financial support wed experiences exes leeching us rather alone leech ive cut expenses bare bones hobbies eating sold clothes books furniture netflix tv videogames sold enough internet look jobs cheapest data plan phone company sells even turn lights anymore ive stopped using ac hot water history depression history redflag attempts want talk doctor told truth theyd probably commit id fired temp work stuck hospital bill afford dont tell truth theres point talking doctor want told things better im irrational crazy stupid find platitudes helpful know lurking week common enough pieces advice let way right now want need keep trying doctors find one trust cant afford b trust doctors serious tmifridays trauma last doctor saw put family c ive looked states laws involuntary commitment think thoughts urges specific enough qualify want committed know want though job life back thats happen hey guys im bored talk sleepy homicide junkies movie great every single character show made appearance movie helped resolve issues series unfortunately unless actually watch series enjoyment lost movie made heavy references every season shows existence probably appropriate series finale opposed separate movie got ta take hope make movies continue feature homicide characters law order think already diedlife real way im broken man looking forward deathnothing interests anymore really tried best nothing everyday cus im unmotivated anything bring everyones mood im burden fucking disappointment still fightingi tired want die yet still fighting live difficult give give never asked life yet forced upon want go back existed want overnight flight los angeles miami lisa reisert rachel mcadams meets charming man turns hired killer demands help killing businessman father diebr br red eye terrific thriller keeps audience edge seats premise similar cellular phone booth red eye better films almost everything red eye average including suspense acting direction film take place plane slow movie film fast pace exciting slow boring spots wes craven really good job behind camera instead focusing thrills focuses story characters movie share suspenseful moments thats film really way wes craven focuses passengers small details become important later red eye really shows skills storytellingbr br red eye works well young talented cast rachel mcadams gives engaging performance character hard hate may even end cheering loud cillian murphy gives creepy effective performance villain way acts charming first turns psycho especially impressive supporting actors pretty good include brain cox jayma maysbr br movie stylish overall creepy vibe setting works well obvious fear isolation escape overall tone film consistently creepy screenplay strong everything though unrealistic moments may distract viewer bother left shaking head ending disappointing bad ending simple one different approach better movie focuses characters really scream moments maybe jumps expect horror movie end disappointed end red eye engaging thriller one best movies summer rating new account idk many guys suggestions life varying levels pain sufferingive typed redflag notes respective people family unlocked phone background screens instructions call certain people first let know news dont want live anymore fuck place didnt ask shit dark thoughts cant iteveryday wake go university parttime job wake feel im achieving anything going train station know grim look face feel people judge reason stay friends family mainly one friend smile grabs face see im alone never feel happy seems eternity go bed wake next day ampxb takes hours fall asleep im incredibly sleep deprived lay hours upon hours nothing happens take medication fall asleep never works im diabetic low high blood sugars keep im always exhausted fatigued blood sugar levels anything drawings hobby draw one thing im want anything even lying feel im achieving something thats actually accomplished ampxb wondering words wisdom disorganized crime much chuckle laugh loud time think dozen scenes movie kind hard explain ill give try first funny indeed contrast lots official reviews want believe depends entirely sense humour sense arguing often humour dialogue often situational comedy instance hilarious scene gang members given lift back truck farmer drops stand road covered cow s whatever totally unnerved realizing humour scene one one start laughing ruben blades carlos looking certainly smelling terrible nonchalantly takes mouth spray least something breath simply describing scene makes chuckle leads second point acting fred gwynne lou diamond phillips william russ ruben blades corbin bernsen okay latter overdoes bit times fit play parts beautifully fact feeling must enjoying shooting film thirdly plot jim kouf director screenwriter laidback takes time let plot unfold individual characters establish often real action yet enjoy different people attempt rob bank although boss bernsen seem turn grumble eventually grudgingly movie fantastic parody typical bank robbery plot totally impossible twists coincidences yet utterly convincing love ironic details incidentally title film one best come across perfectly summarizes plot ironic way take advice watch film chuckle grin smile first minutes forget type film ps negative thing movie seems way hold screenplay happen know tell tired sufferingive honestly grown tired ofeverything going past seven eight years lifeits filled much crapthese past months especially crappyim already failing two classes fall semesterthere still lot problems going back hometo top offmy girlfriend broke six month anniversary told relationship earlier today see picture another guy dancei cant take anymorei try good person manage annoy people say annoy problems going meive come realize really purpose livei feel wrongi great people lifebut feel im always bringing around themand want burden anymoreand sorry seem im jumping around im alive dont want keep holding onsorry grammar use voice dictation software perfect ive wanted die years now im chronic pain fibromyalgia always tired ive tried everything feel less lethargic best everything feel rundown edge job feel anxious every day ive meds years im trying new meds now first time want die things therapists say journal meditate several times week give hours sleep every night see therapist psychiatrist force make plans friends im even lucky enough people genuinely good people im hanging around bunch jerks dont know help try bring much feel super lonely sweetheart love dearly closest life good huge struggle make day point time together wake morning day starts think long workday ahead wonder keep sticking around life mostly pain moments relief pressing pause pain huge counterbalances downs sleeping im peace recharging even best times life enough help make next work shift unhealthy become relationship one escape true escape work four days week negotiated pay reduction take friday feeling pain wanting die im home alone things fun feel empty inside dealing pain well painful dealing failure make positive impact world painful well dealing insecurity happen lose job pain gets great able work insecurity comes feels slow steady decline qualityoflife hurts exist answer always hurt people love go fair much privilege white man ability earn decent income use try fix shit especially white men fucked time despite intentions lazy end exactly hate look back slavery im horrified look nazi germany im horrified yet eat inhumane meat animals raised amounts slavery maybe focusing taking time making budget humane meat help state mind feel net impact world neutral best passion projects ive started try make difference flopped ive joined project started others similar experience nothing actually made difference survived volunteer organization believe volunteer time really impact success im ghost im cant seem move objects around impact world sort flow desperately grasping things remain exactly bad came end im staying around try make difference measurable thing thats happening im pain suffering cant point anything makes worthwhile im trying share unfiltered hopes someone reads sees something broken thinking points ways rethink someone shares empathy hard able share info anyone regularly try soften close im consuming emotionally dont know many years first achieved fame drunken master jackie chan thrust spotlight s project hugely enjoyable pirate flick reestablished major star time police story released two years later extraordinary hype surrounding jackie reaching zenith crowds flocked see frenetic blend awesome stunts brutal fight scenes questionable comedy broke numerous boxoffice records inspired rise police recruits viewed years goodbr br action movie police story unquestionably stands several terrific fight scenes stuntwork recalls best chans hero buster keaton compelling overviolent climactic tussle jackies performance strong whilst frequent forays laboured comedy dull films impact little charisma carries furthermore presenting hero borderline psychopath whose recklessness puts others danger jackie took momentous gamble though event nobody seems noticed praising police story simple good vs evil battle critics belittled films ambiguity tone whilst hardly brothers karamazov depicting uncertainty film nevertheless represented notable praiseworthy shift conventional ideasbr br short remains quality popcorn movie though may empty stomach numerous villains thrust deposited glass showcases films final scene potent boisterously entertaining action movie ranks best period guys listening hey guys give good song recommendations song catchy beat tune second time getting bus turned walk street noticed driving beside commencing pattern black tinted windows license plate obscurer looked outofstate made police report first time went straight precinct second time speaking victim advocate two officers took interest case began explaining intimidation stalking asked abusive notredflag awkward talking girl inb neither us interested relationship told people emotions think breakups happen awkward got super confused said oh thanks end pls totally alone completely contenttheres one cares im friends talk one im glad cant stand anyone im gone itll anyone knows looked help different professionals give less hope cant say try want kill everyone around mei know sounds terrible feel right now im going details really want carry toxic thoughts felt needed vent another post person family 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give skateboarding bruh small scrape actually broke arm lol man dropped ramp skateboard hit rock fall using helmet protection accident family wants make give skateboarding need physicals activities may diseases sking physical activity thx reading sorry trash english im foreign country took minutes write cause wrote broken arm lol tell someone friend suffer depression idea redflag ongoing im feels almost normal im used used patterns last year suffer mostly anxiety drift feel somewhat control im happy ive never really told friends seem never bar one shes best friend witn years lately ive noticed mood low asked broke completely broke said dosnent know always anxious etc one thing seemed make clear topic way redflag horrible left behind imagine etc thats worry low points say similar things yet thinking kill later night feel lost help shes private person feel something important let slide tell another friends im breaking trust even tho didnf tell tell anyone given ive sent pages use anxiety help still feel know advice much appreciated something wrong feel always try best seems youre tired wish things used bored cant sleep ill answer anything reply ill probably delete morning cares one dayi personally think redflag set happen know im gon na bc dont see another way misery matter hard try know ill always abusive mothers control everyday gives reasons end recently point wan na commit redflag hurt bc hate bc want feel pain puts daily basis dont think anything hurt much losing losing precious obedient kid know leave painful scar know shell never blame bc doesnt see depressed shes made every day life doesnt believe mental health know shell feel pain helpis anyone talk pain handle one talk alone cant shit help biggest dry shit stuck asshole videos pictures death videos photos always death youll eventually die youll already taken videos solved clickbait videos video taken death thank later redflag one things think pointi really wish years ago came close got hospitalized gotten worse tell family want go college covid even point everything went perfect think happy idea going college getting degree make happy accomplished anything makes dread every aspect process going class every fucking day exhausted hell wishing die already whats point feel whole life amount another redflag statistic im okay long itll soon zombie chronicles something shout obvious award winning movie entertaining bmovie directed brad sykes directed camp blood another entertaining low budget flick acting bad cheaply made movies thats makes entertaining zombie makeup cool effective especially budget gore great gross film sort zombie version tales crypt two tales zombie encounters woods stories fun leave guessing especially first tale zombie chronicles lot better low budget zombie movies love low budget bmovies cheaply made zombie flicks check zombie chronicles im grandparents hate im stuck grandparents house make work lawn build stuff rake leaves paint theyre fence last time hear build fence metal piping around acre area friends make work whenever try listen music play video game say way harder kids annoying around boring whenever say im bored somthing make chores wish go home sub much weirder im drunk im gon na regret livivng tomorrow lol typical drunk girl today know irl dont talk dont wan na deal ughhhh school starts monday advice yea school starts monday wondering guys advice warnings pandemic note glasses tips mask greatly appreciated movie excellent save scenes esposito enjoyed brought together every detective series wrapped plotlines never resolved series thanks nbc great see pembleton bayliss together human basic persons braugher secor great job usual overlooked hurt see end homicide memories tapes reruns courttv watching come every friday movie job well presenting great depiction life al retired family relationship existed unit enjoyed lot friend trouble im really sure interpret pieces coming together hi recently started talking old friend close lives another province said coming visit two weeks asked read something said sorry wanted know anything needed add note question gt ill die musician child prodigy lessons skills name book exceptionally great skills loved skills aspergers called autism look characteristics strengths httpwwwautismcanadaorgaboutautismcharacteristicshtml ill die aspergers ill die philosopher theories saved laptop every thought energy energy god mass energy im giving laptop mom anyone interested knowing ask mom little later though love truly amazing person open non judgmentalaccepting caring good stuff think much saw status update two minutes later gtwhoever wants join redflag club msg thought committing redflag last ive heard years ago junior high im really loss right now please help abuse dad makes smell farts every time dads fart asks come sticks butt face lets messy hell onto nostrils sue dad killed kids basically surgeon put hands surgery killed kids maybe overthinking wan na make im scared arent page im playing love colonel sanders dating sim yeah thing come join good day link join herehttpsmtwitchtvlatenightbriocheprofile tiredi always find back herethe reason kill think dad miss want hurt everything falling apart around know much longer go ive strong long want give best way expelled school asking future reference reall extremely swag tho filler filler filler filler filler filler filler today twentieth birthday know live see thirtieththe following post going compilation petulant unimportant first word problems whining form incoherent hyperbolic rambling want help someone actual issues que leave even blame wouldnt nothing least bit likeable memorable even fucking worthwhile everything existence nothing one giant mistake never made first place know truth see strangers people know look everything see look mirror see worthless useless creature looking back mirror absolutely worth value whatsoever every time look mirror see creature absolute waste ill made spiteful indolent insolent talentless waste space tried long pretend truth someone devoid anything least bit unique worthwhile semigood aspects already present every person earth barely merit mentioning lazy greedy spiteful toxic waste space complete lack actual humanity worst part know never change matter tiny minuscule changes possibly make sad void emptiness always fixed abomination change actually got live friends cant make friends never capable making friends used think used people hung around thought got along high school obligation pay attention one obligation around either found easily disposable trash shouldnt discovered eventually aside thoroughly uncharismatic unlikeable bore im naturally vile toxic person person spent extended period time able tell worth time trouble means dont blame people used hang around deserting good people one right mind want around never good enough exception one online friend talk sporadic occasions pity never better family extended branches family care less live die know uncle thought something wrong time two though turned correct aunt put false smiles around cover fact annoying person seen theres grandfather actively despises though tries cover hardest someone always respected loved hear things thought broke course helped see truth much clearer borne fact never voluntarily talk want even acknowledge lazy dull emotionless disappointment human nothing worthless empty meaningless life must wonder exactly cursed relation mongrel parents though abortion mum least capacity pretend im autistic worst mistake happened dad well im almost certain hes biological father making bastard every sense word hes never felt shy expressing disgusted criticising every act every tiny mistake lectures last hour long regaling every problem loser son though even stopped recently gave even trying improve dont blame everyone around testament standup guy naturally likeable many people disappointment return know wishes nephew place hell always proud see every time look every time fuck way cause ive make proud good grades overhype greatest achievement achievement fuck real feelings come see eyes know see fat degenerate waste space never time hadnt made monumental mistake unleashing world crowing embarrassment lives wonder every day karma universe punishing whatever deeds heinous decided offspring youve probably guessed ive never abused neglected anything serious perfectly good upbringing still turned pathetic useless loser youd blind ashamed obvious black sheep family love thats funniest thing ive heard year funny woman actually deranged enough look actually want spend unpleasant bumbling conversation let alone majority life im funny talented charming charismatic cool clever attribute least bit attractive anyone circumstances thats biggest fucking disgrace never loved ill never know hold persons hand let alone close someone feel person world worth around ill never married father life amount anything whatsoever dont even look possibility look people relationships people look millionaire lifestyles oh itd nice understand never will trudge along empty useless life alone even fucking miracle someone actually want relationship wouldnt last long wouldnt able handle cheated course maybe make enough depressed wreck actually give confidence finally pull fucking trigger know thats likely one want stay nothing inspires least bit loyalty someone ive never fantasied flirted one wanted share moment one cause even idea actually kind relationship laughable insulting never happen one single aspect miserable creature anyone find endearing especially funny consider socially inept retard high school looking way guys behaved dismissing loud obnoxious childish ones relationships always loser realise retrospect actually lively energetic fun around people drawn good times drank partied played sports thought even years werent find real relationship years later patience paid course never going happen dull bore ones fantasy still take small comfort fact make lives countless women happy every single day someone actually cursed enough stuck lives much worse contrast honestly reasons make ok living dying virgin used something really bothered now now abundantly clear impossible close ugly unpleasant face doesnt turn someone repulsive grotesque body will sight anyone want lives even im shower im disgusted thats even taking account microdick final nail coffin ensuring never circumstances able enjoy experience someone special doesnt bother much anymore finally realised never possible never possible fat ugly loser scale even close embrace ugly sin inside well outside perhaps ill able let go relationships one thing work kind employment ive volunteering discovered antisocial unlikeable perhaps might fine actually worthwhile talents attributes strengths make stand dont guess im pretty eloquent mediocre writer well possessing measure intelligence plan future drive passion fucking anything used play idea journalist writer im nowhere near articulate talented clever enough actually make field im stem student im athletic discernible hobbies beyond crappy fanfic writing im even studying fucking history degree worth thats going least high school felt happy work essays amounting building something never way waste life away end shitty dead end job want kill even already thats even possible dont end unemployed years little sister already recognises im loser surpasses every field every attribute parents dedicated ensuring dont another one fuckup enough couldnt cope two still least look forward tombstone significant thing accomplish lifeif im tossed ditch forgotten diseased wretch actually summary twenty years miserable worthless useless spineless lazy indolent pathetic insignificant waste space alive planet know worst thing fucking nerve complain another fucking thing wrong cant anything fix comfortable moderately wealthy lifestyle comes actual serious issues dont want anything feel completely worthless overall incompetent fucking reason able fix miniscule problems completely incapable even point point holding hope anything changing wont wont pathetic nothing wrong life grotesque failure completely incapable even basic requirements functioning human used believe nice good person held back shy anxious lie lie told never ugly inside outside used hope one day someone might take pity see hidden beauty inside one life begin better course actually require hidden beauty isnt theres never still remember day life changed asked people thought friends wanted hang summer one responded one one ignored shunted ghosted first thought really driven home finally realised completely utterly alone actually world realised made one single friend wanted spend time whatsoever started cry pathetic little weasel ive cried least every day looked mirror still weeping must hour saw die saw person used die sure wasnt best company sarcastic sly quirky generally happy person enjoyed life mostly looked eyes watched peel away emptiness inside replaced hes dead occupy corpse empty void nothing person one wants around wishes gone find courage maybe world favour kill corpse way killed personality doubt addition everything im coward theres really point discussion theres nothing fruitless waste even try think cure none exists hope way living disease kill one day lived two decades one term know nothing show point disputing fact wont survive see third reach conclusion look forward know finally push edge one day ill look mirror final time able take anymore cant liked wont loved never mourned believe differently bother charade cant cut pretence life done rid world stain upon finally done cowardice alone fucking stupid actually think might miss something die still nave wish find resolve done yeah happy th birthday guess many wonder viewi wanted opinions obviously dont feel comfortable talking people know ive depression probably influenced view redflag alot used think redflag terrible thing ooo im gon na go hell die blah blah blah im mature enough realize life meaning whatsoever humans natural survival instinct manage realize real purpose life point keep living mean even end suffering depression real purpose life go im sure guys alot views thought redflagi posted week saying gon na kill major problems going life seem resolved now even though dont desperately need die still think redflag im worthless hate person constant voice head repeating insecurities mistakes im constantly stressed pain every think redflag feelings go away dont care im smartest handsome messed life doesnt matter anymore dead im posting im wall feel matter months go though please help december ththe last day life decided im happy decision live right hope die even pain love world world love may music give courage robert stack never really got losing best supporting actor oscar role kyle written wind anthony quinns minute performance lust life stack plays deeply disturbed alcoholic son oil tycoon lived life shadow friend raised mitch played rock hudson love woman lucy lauren bacall becomes kyles wife kyles sister marylee dorothy malone drunken slut whos love mitch story plays glorious color able direction douglas sirk really dominated melodrama field incredible films including imitation life heaven allows magnificent obsession many othersbr br make mistake potboiler stack dorothy malone make roles malone winning best supporting actress oscar theres one amazing scene mentioned comments wildly dances loud music father collapses dies staircase led believe marylee sleeps everyone including guy pumps gas love mitch mitch wants nothing hes love lucy loyalty kyle wants go work iran avoid temptation doubt hed anxious today matter much love wasbr br hudson bacall less exciting roles hudsons mitch good guy whos cleaning kyles messes entire life bacall mitchs wife finds nightmare husband starts drinking year sobriety sirk focuses volatile supporting playersbr br sirks hands written wind effective film big scene toward end mansion particularly exciting director gift type movie though many imitators never equal day random questions think humans already made contact extraterrestrial beings sure saynot sure right place post im really sure suicidal lately feel way stop feeling way feel hurt used need talk someone one talk dont know say really wish someone talk cares im sure im sorry rambling needed say something guess go sleep people know talk people speak russian happens mostly russians ok know gay socks im wearing thigh socks make gay even less gay going die one day mods dont take going die tommorow years nobody going live forever cant stop thinking im going crazy need dudes talk friends never want chat want talk stuff send message im losing mindive isolated talked others couple times last couple weeks slept days still wide awake feeling paranoid stressed irritated road im im going snap world actually better without itim drain society know im go motions sort barely im able provide im enjoying cant find reasons live know success rate chance still want see light see shitty lonely times struggle psychotic symptomssomeone want chat comments got plans tonight think deal lifei need talk life im year old college student ive always scared fucking everything literally everything look letting anyone treat people education finding job planning move say point ive distanced friends family feel much better alone love place away everyones fucking bullshit want hear shit already much shit late night everyones asleep really feel peace fuck sake point tired bottle inside supposed man everyone says look confident im crumbling shit inside im scared future finishing college getting fucking professional career able live procrastination always biting ass im afraid measure ideals end putting things last minute normal anyone deal good way beating want say want kill idea starting seem attractive way deal lifes disappointments sometimes burst crying feel smashing head wall even depression want seek professional help stigma behind depression need anyones pity want peace wish born si dont belong era feel small hate social values today people artificial honestly dont know anymoreim feel life already want fall asleep forever gpa went average completely nonexistent constantly push everyone away struggle taking care im exhausted try tell parent gets upset says phone ive wanted kill years now cant therapy parent doesnt believe frankly dont blame point life much medication doctor ended hospital getting abusive household dont know function think trying kill end forcing emotions much im end people try stay away im fake dont want anymore dont want alive want kill badly ive tried help past one actually cared want die reallyi compelling reason tired feeling know family friends love imagining im gone makes sad deserve love maybe want give deserve maybe years stop wanting die maybe years enduring suicidal thoughts worth compared lifetime pain loved ones disappear cousin recently went search therapist find help depression admitted person spoke phone sometimes hits angry said need inpatient screening terrified forced go inpatient program lose job take care kids etc kids never witnessed thought need unless immediate danger right last time happened weeks ago automatic inpatient circleremember time used suicidal well hello darkness old friend whenever try find grey area settle situations drags away life swings extremes survive finding spot thats right us takes strength stay consistent effort honest tried learnt need much strength keep track cant handle anxiety depression moremy anxiety bad nearly crippling actually felt good last night long thought making progress new meds lost little weight cut back drinking went bed last night said going good day woke six anxiety back full force felt going vomit im tired living wish single kids times kill feel way anymore cant though im afraid family crisisi want kill anyone talk none friends care respond texts ask hang know unlikeable one likes im ugly im crazy keep moments crisis im right every negative thought comes head reality situation one likes one becomes much bare want kill called ex boyfriend times last hour suicidal know called texted dad answer texted friends respond normal texts anyways im ugly year old crazy female career living basement friends direction reason kill took really long time insecure anything ego need knocked peg two love much think im better people physically personality wise feel first step admitting yeah rant cant believe ask whats homophobia lately ive noticed people making homophobic posts saying dont shove sexuality face dont care sexuality shut shit kinda thought past yeah hell going told anyone everything exactly sure even whether want know someone cares maybe want someone know remember meit dark couple days keep thinking tired alive pain think really want die definitely want keep living life thisi guess start saying privileged access free healthcare limitations mental health therapist click wonderful job care mother loves still find desire carry oni medic army still really ready deal reality made mistakes shake ifs haves haves always remember made mistakes called things good enough speak casualty led picture mind always come back telling air force jtac officer sorry nothing left worst congruence many small things added together create situation situation crept aware everything heading late really guilt fear gets mei afraid actions mistakes especially potential causing unforeseeable unpreventable catastrophic harm trust right thing good thing try put place never anything scared harm allow harm come people around withdrawn slowly tried fade everyone lives way hurt hurt much finally go scares idea one outside family maybe friends really care killed terrifyingi cognizant enough know killing selfish thing something harm instead good people around know unfair family friends therapist coworkers voice says fundamentally bad unlovable broken burden feel definitive told organ donor better something positive offset partially negative know fully buy yetit years felt run rest s maybe gotten worse least definitely gotten better fucking lonely time tried kill gone month redflag recovery program loving relationship destroyed idiocy baggage tried kill got inpatient wing va hospital couple weeks ago checked fear now weeks later edge want die find still scared deed gets close harm pain people want live anymore without prospect getting better tired alive pain unable connect people see future things better see future keep going indefinitely fucked know good compared many people unlimited medical benefits veterans administration good believe work great job va medical center helping veterans idea something meaningful bring positive things peoples lives keeps going darkest ruminations come see harm people pain burden shitty destructive way belief gone resentment comes anger frustration suicide hurt loved ones holding back frustration idea trapped feeling forced live instead really wantif made far thank sorry even posting creating something invariably spread pain people know share pain misery loves company scared lonely afraid die without anyone knowing understanding guess want chest guys worldending thing prophet definitely dyslexic definitely meant going iti approaching ive started suicidal thoughts last year ive decided want die feel though nothing live refuse problems anyone everyday feels slightly worse one living constant pressure frustration emptiness slowly killing inside feel though anticipating change never happen want end im sure go finally ending ive thoroughly went options hanging realistic overdose finding medication difficult scared kill stopping help idc care one selfie much love boys selfie girls ton first ive seen maybe one selfie girl hot barely orange houses second seen one hot sub full straight guys likely give orange house girls post third stop wording posts guilt people giving orange house wrong alr thats good day sorry fit sub feel need tell people understand happening always suspicious depressed anxious never felt symptoms physical sensations read first panic attack feel always head worrying next one come even bed work lot time feel shit feel everything feels limbo watching life go feels dreamor hyper aware bodys functions happen naturally manually processing everything going brain sometimes think accidentally hit switch brain scares shit episodes make existential feel hopeless resulti want die feeling nothing feeling real hyper awareness scares thinking going happen soon hope someone relate know alone first panic attack edibles feel going die almost everyday times mg fatal overdosefatal overdoses reported generally doses mg currently mg disposal really really want take alcohol meds really tempting feel ive tried everything happy merry christmas happy new year hey shitass merry christmas motherfucker love read novel kite runner based wife daughter thought movie fell long way short book im prepared take word movie good great good accurately portray havoc created soviet invasion afghanistan convincingly show intolerant taliban regime followed id rate c first b second human story afghanamerican returned country rescue son childhood playmate well done count particularly im told book far convincing movie exciting part film kite contests kabul later minicontest california equaled book id wager money blm protests kinda much bad racism bad make government matter something debates courts alli mean bad thing black people discriminated society cops cops fault cant help wary crimes committed nation black peopleblm protesters vandalizing streets attacking restaurants ruining innocent peoples business equal mean fucked im misogynist girls cooties ewww happen often occasionally one man make difference big differencebr br george criles best seller charlie wilsons war fascinating eyeopening account unlikely difference maker imaginable relatively obscure congressman second district texas good time charlie known libertine lifestyle libertarian legislation likable licentious even politician charlie wilson served constituency well good folks lufkin really wanted two things guns left alone easy street replete bevy beltway beauties known appropriately enough charlies angelsbr br asked entire office staff composed attractive young aides response classic teach em type cant teach em grow tits argument therebr br even rakish rapscallion conscience lurking somewhere underneath charlie wilson unimaginable atrocities committed afghanistan moved muster entire political savvy toward funding utter humiliating defeat russian military possibly even help hasten end cold war result fat chance huhbr br skillful direction mike nichols smart snappy screenplay adam sorkin charlie wilsons war sparkling sophisticated satire chronicles behindthe scene machinations three colorful characters comprising charlies teambr br onscreen team composed three marvelous actors four academy awards nine nominations charlie beautifully portrayed tom hanks solid slightly understated fashion among best work years hes aided abetted abedded joanne herring wealthy houston socialite played stillslinky julia roberts hey bikini scene let world know accounts ms roberts looks good holds screenplay never gives us even hint kabul country important character maybe two afghan hounds usually side know audience never third member team philip seymour hoffman steals every scene appears gust aurakotos smart street wise ie non ivy league graduate cia malcontent knows score agencys boardroom wilsons bedroombr br mujahideen succeed important assistance us provide ability shoot dreaded mi helicopter gunships rule skies takes money lots money eventually charlies team covertly coerces congress fund effort tune billion dollars advanced weaponry arm afghan rebels includes topoftheline stateoftheart antiaircraft antitank rockets well highly sophisticated killing devices nasty nasty stuffbr br kind multibillion dollar illicit activity take place behind congressional doors truly alarming every american see movie read book reveals truly frightening aspect businessasusual political scene rarely seen outside walls government oh momma wish sobr br even though initial outcome team charlie unqualified success unimaginable unanticipated final result sophisticated weapons used troops taliban others funding entirely covert young generation part world idea fall soviet oppression end russian barbarity direct result american intervention yes russkies left aid zip schools zip infrastructure zip maintaining meaningful relationships afghan people result overall consequence unmitigated disaster forerunner mission accomplishedbr br nichols film pointedly points ball set motion keep bouncing even lost interest mike krzyzewski knows eva longoria parker knows little lateesha lafayette knows typical american politician doesnt go good guys bad guys let world know good guys talk catch another mike nichols filmbr br perhaps charlie wilson said best fked end gamebr br female need help depressionchronic fatigueim difficult place right now ive struggled depression life currently pretty high suicidal ideation im worried kill end summer things improve main point post recommendations support good life graduate degree job starting end summer supportive boyfriend good family great physical health negatives life really dont many friends less strong depression work weightlift cardio almost every day effort combat depression eat relatively healthy diet im three medications depression adhd trintellix mg vyvanse mg abilify mg work education last school year id go office take short naps exhausted continue working primary worry right exhaustion tend sleep hours day without really wanting things im good im worried depression make cant effectively complete work feel anxious want start feeling better end july time new job starts advice parents driving crazy college stuff wan na apply state go state reasons involving state wan na go best career want kind start parents goddamn annoying stay room time ready need us around support good idea go another state guess one biggest reasons wan na leave fuck away driving crazy anyone facing shit thanks cuddling weird lol one gets violently grossed cuddling anything romantic idek thought bf someone caring disgusting need male attention affection grosses idk rant whatever im lost doall want hurt motivation anything motivation eat dressed motivation live im existing awful everything going wrong life one go making feel shitty im sick trying fight dont know anymore always high sad ughis america boring fuck ugh fuckin zombies ughhh wan na sleep witch might money help drugs dont help sex wont well know ugh humans useless evolving stupid devices im sick know ughhhhh fuck im losing one reply please minecraft hardcore made beehive angry die mostly im scared buzzing noise make irl game ran bitch second heard close call meryl streep genius well least actress know made fun lot roles accents nails accent every time performance lindy chamberlain inspiring mrs chamberlain portrayed particularly likable smart makes streeps work remarkable think worth oscar nominations film well couple interesting things know much australia theme religious bigotry among general public played big part story largely missed first saw film years ago came loud clear yesterday seems australian press accomplished miseryinducing pursuit overkill american colleagues pretty good film bit different grade b pretty much tbh want die go bed every night hoping wake cover marks trying hang myselfi tried hang myselfpassive hanging method chickened vision started going black petechiae neck super noticeable rn im afraid theyll develop color cover even doi thought making throwaway figured even matter people knew found depressed close years comes goes kind hard think long years wanting kill years self hate feeling worthless years wondering im alive im happy anymore goals life nothing makes enjoy life anymore wake everything feels fake ive graduated high school gone post secondary ive experienced work hobbies relationships none feels matters hobbies past used make feel happy longer think trying distract hate alone cant stand alone make hate ive talked people regular friends even people know psychiatrists end really make feel nobody really cares seems people reciting comforting lines inflict self harm scared hated pain lately though ive noticed become easier easier still scared still little time ive always done things others life laid front followed know wanted younger know want now matter ive gone school told become feel fulfilling though ive always done best school simply told hate alone cant stand people end feels everyone fake course care soon need talk someone dodge plague want talk someone nobody really cares even know im typing maybe feel write want say end feel empty sort little spark life slowly gone away throughout years dying seems really good right now people quarantine still crushes hypothetically lets say quarantines going maybe months seen crush seen heard internet ie online classes socials people respect cause loyal af cant even remember classsmates faces now existing annoyingim native english speaker sorry mistakes know feeling waiting something u anything dentists appointment wait hours annoying sickening headache thats life every day wait death hoping come soon planning kill year started birthday brave enough stopped recently friend tried strangle death tired living even helped cant thing anything write thank support need advice girlfriend killed ive depressed years counting now need someone talk feel awkward posting need somewhere go dont talking people knowlet give little background story around half year ago lost lot family lot tears lost entire friend group year difficult thankfully two people still say hold dear im thankful mental state doesnt want listen nothing wrong loose friend group talked behind back extremely harshly yet able manipulate rest friend group thinking bad guy word really emotional occasionally sometimes ball eyes sometimes im pissed point want beat something feel somehow something wrong deserve feel way treated way hate feeling dont want wake half time l dread falling asleep know im going wake feeling way morning anyways around months ago made pact best friend never know apologies sort difficult say even type im sure mean honestly im extremely surprised long ive kept pact really really dont want anymore dont want let love shes extremely fault person know apologies knowing word things correctly im sure deal dont want open shell worry handful worry stress dont want add end able fight urge heck supposed tell wouldnt able guilt build inside eats every day feeling way wanting things want things everything keep inside needs let much say weight mindset keeps getting worse worse makes feel ugly gives urges know dont need top everything dont want eat dont everyone gets suspicious eat much warn genes hate ughhhhh wake look mirror compare hate see eat compare difference feel knowledge keeps reminding progress doesnt happen night insecurities keeps reminding im ugly ive set therapy appointments cant tell therapist anywhere near actually feel without sent mental hospital point want really bad things feel pile crap comes consequences im sure face feel really terrible posting dont want give anyone ideas anything sort feel bubble wont let pop hopefully makes sense dont want anyone feel way opening entirely bad thing whenever someone opens makes feel good someone know come dont come people hypocritical practically everything post im good knowing word things hope makes sense sorry rant may offtopic really sure first post hate take anymore everything supposed fine head killing sounds right see living tempted end know pint view life wrong killing solution work anything change point judt know anymore sick toilet amazing place pee poop hide problems existential crisis cry wank realise ugly one place help care againthis 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touch evil kubrick focuses characters faces give audience psychological viewpoint even uses extreme closeups hals glowing red eye show coldness determination computerizd villain go summation kubrick hieght style hal one villainous characters film history wholeheartedly agree late gene siskles opinion hal film takes place space use silence darkness space mood isolation created dave crewmen isolated earth jupiter nowhere escape combine mood cold calculated actions hal fearful villain imaginable still although see film several times feel chest tighten particular scene controversial ending always turns people away film instead trying give opinion means idea s meaning general id discuss fact ending serves leave movie openended kubrick stated inteded make open discussion left meaning hands viewer respecting audiences intelligence kubrick allowed movie beginning end meaningful discussion mans past present future beauty ending need mean anything deep purely plot driven explanation entire movie 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couple days ago elderly physically ill one question death remaining option im s relatively physically healthy im supposed suffer theres nothing im terrified messing attempt life even worse im researching methods definitely going timing element everythingand think struggling much make happen theres million therapists medications already proven work chance getting better alternatives option actually ashamed despite cutesy memes society delusional obligation make sure living better matter quality life even want hear people miss bullshit miss grandmother time go miss people die immortality answer time fair alone fearful someone finding execute sorry rant back scrolling gon na fine damn damn damn damn dan dam damnm want endrecently another friend mine tried suspended hurts fact mom told go slit throat gotten lot worse continuation tried talking impending redflag nobody seemed interestedwell ive told wife terribly depressed seem reaction told one good friends wanted kill turned conversation 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lot anxiety coursework actual duties social worker namely counseling side things original goal attending program following semester took semester online courses accounting community college went well decided go back university started msw pursue bachelors accounting seemed good plan living brother apartment time thought living random roommate terrifies started classes summer felt overwhelmed anxious unsure whether wanted accounting dropped end first week work got job pharmacy technician quit weeks due feeling overwhelmed anxious ended getting another job tech different pharmacy able work months decided go grad school quit job moved getting accepted computer science program gpa course started getting overwhelmed anxious ended switching administration program dropping entirely even starting taking courses local community college accounting seem going alright finished week classes took objectively amazing job secretary state office student assistant getting paid guess went quit day guess 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longer holly jolly everything see fucking kills matter even want fun know one loves probably family feel maybe kill everything tortures whatever see watched series first came si years old watched best friends house dad want watch itit became weekly ritual every sunday anyone tell two fourteen year olds watch documentary almost reverential silence must mean something specialbr br broad sweep events world war makes difficult subject documentso makers broke considered significant key happenings devoted one episode eachsome episodes covered long periods wolf pack covered nearly six years battle atlanticwhile battle stalingrad one episode itselfbr br documentary made today quite simply interviewed deadthe list significant players appearing gives amazing insight thinking timeanthony eden foreign secretarycarl donnitzhead uboatsalbert speerpet architect confident later armament minister hitlerin one later episodes see traudl junge hitlers secretarywho bunker dictated last testamentshe left 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great wish enjoy free time never wait home work bored constantly think running away starting overbut means moment im unemployed car im petite woman odds running trouble likely raised overbearing christian family father alcoholic mother abusive narcissist never close brothers one clearly annoyed years older ran away years naturally became introvert ive struggling depression anxiety long even remember feel happy ok turns thyroid issue medication make feel better anyways point depression got bad started ignoring friends months felt ok enough talk made everyone mad barely friends im lose past month half ive drinking every night everything possible avoid everyone know messages piled eventually people gave feel last time ill let happen im going respond person left boyfriend things rocky lately im ready disappear motivation work anything im living parents hashimotos makes tired nobody understands want escape thats option right now know feel im reaching end rope hospital months last year bloodbone infection honestly wish killed sorry rambling everythings hopeless btw id hard pressed say makes film important good movie definitely outstanding fassbinders film still along american soldier keeps making personal list favorites whenever thinking want dieim tired want rest forever goodbyemy boyfriend checked hospital friday night last thing told gets hes killing begged take told hung havent spoken called hospital today told discharged phone cant ahold brother im mess world worth living without ive never loved someone cant take didnt even say goodbye hi friends honor challenged athletes foundation dad undertaking great bike ride charity love support completing tour du rouge american red cross years ago teaming challenged athletes foundation caf million dollar challenge loving father love support endeavor mile ride days california caf raises money help people physical challenges pursue active lifestyle physical fitness athletics one biggest events guys guys help according sister parents redacted upstairs life really great loser faggot one solid friend pissed now still going trip weekend ngl struggled suicidal thoughts years alone gay hate many aspects life dog parents watched need worry know point going kill instead hope live short life optimism life need way friend passes minimal contact finally peace life conclude easiest way give festival tickets friend suicide even forced livei want dont means im tired put effort cant house soi never im scared pain dumb live dumb die reasons date arent move next post go fuck someone tells fine make hentai boyfriend makes feel loved im still used itbut nice birthdayi feel im worthless spend christmas day alone friends forgot birthday family toxic cant keep nice people treat destroying ive tried alone changing treat people dont want options available havent felt low months ive started making plans working ill give dog life isnt around im crying constantly cant see light happiness im done trying im low feel im enough anyone matter cant handle people letting im disappointed myselfapril really dark time gon na hang th know miracle urge die never optimistic thought maybe theres chance feeling worse make short possible im terrible person hurt everyone way whole years earth meet vert interesting people life lost everyone hate fact im achiever way food chain depression always gets way lightbulb blinking go way ideas im trying become nocturnal night day im starting talk less im hungry cant eat im tired talking god today days passed elementary school today kids graduated grad back help think heard cheering way home quiet room bottle whiskey thought id suicidal lonely years later day mom happy literally feel break bottle violently carve veins already told gon na kill dec nothing lose im hurting till becauss feel ike im entering next level depression feel soulless feel life anymore talk much mind today keep much deserved every bit see tiktok start bawling context lost father four years ago ive never really relationship tonight saw video man taking camera store talking child im crying right wish treated im crying hard wish relationship dad feel im break wish held rn last night dealt crazy shit getting downvoted wtfop last night quickly asked leave er even though trying selfcommit found catholic hospital mentioned certain priest asked another group legal advice searched history getting grief wtf redflag prevention send homework ill try email discord profile reason complain yet feel shit time long remember never felt quite right feel empty never really see point living hate alive deal world tried killing life fun every day seems worse last years remember time truly happy thing keeps going something another suicidal friend told might well stick around see anything cool happens im always waiting looking nothing though tried crazy things make life meaningful traveling multiple sex partners great relationships readingeducation social butterfly internshipsjobs etc nothing works though usually bored tiredi rather spend whole day laying eating anything broken beforethe boy love lying beside sleeping soundly break melt every memory tormented last two years life flashing eyes sort twisted film depressed twelve reached climax im sitting floor listening boyfriend sleep knife lap wondering bring end pain hate im even wondering whether put pain hell never hurt person way hurt love ive pushed far beyond handle cant live cant person one day im much pain months one sees im suffering one understands weight lies try haul bed morning one thinks im trying tell im lucky makes worse keep reminding life chose happy choosing happy walking around eyes shut ignoring every instinct know anymore im end take friend f want friends people talk idrk make reddit drop ur socials dm whatever u im bored heck anywan want chat chat mean anywan want uncomfortable back forth dms seriously rly nothing appreciate fellow teen brosis warning back problems carrying conversation choose life mom filler filler 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people talk even normal dont even diagnosis yet two months idont know taking long sometimes want live think im gon na big things world needs plan wish feel right now words dont feel natural im amazing person change world im bad way save world destroy never perfect people always greedy evil got genes dont feel human anymore dont identify dont want thanks reading hope good day dont expect anything needed talk sorry bad english wtf wrong society im pissed im angry abuser well known coach lost job court cases movie brilliant srks acting amazing end incredibly sad cry every time see film kind never sick see absolutely amazingly brilliant movie waiting grade back required course major fail ill kicked major probably give lifeif fail im gon na drop think poker think ill buy highest stake game find see go bender kill done wish put clearer words existence enrages im christian im mad god parents part bringing relationship three basically nonexistent funnily enough fact makes crazy scared going 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goes dead inside died dont need trapped hell shouldve killed told look mirror u still alive insane fate fuck havent done anything wrong deserve u derealization u alienated surroundings mind still conditioned first thoughts really hometown knew much worse know dead didnt die dp hit answer freaks maybe destined redflag time thing anxious date mind cant cope time passing fast really cant explain august switch mind first august laying bed suddenly thought redflag destiny popped made unable sleep much painful anxiety knew back dpand scares think thoughts arent anxiety related depression feel never recover feels trapped thinking theres soon calendar triggers hopelessness painful suicidal feeling feel alone dont really want end redflag srsly mind sees way asthmatic person agree winter worst season makes feel asthmawise im burden everyonei plan killing ill august want see friends school last time feel family mad glorified helper theyll probably feel inconvenienced death saying shit ah another 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cant end family cant im struggling hard fuck everything feel options everything fails nothing left cant talk people problems feel bad dont wsnt one understand girl think multiple personalities admits fucks bad help know im havin good night im listening jams angry chair specific go sleep probably close eyes hour half fall asleep wake wan na productive exact thing tomorrow night tips dealing lonelinessgetting rough dealing day day years alone seeing everybody someone seeing alone dunno rough want hurt parents especially dad anything better despite efforts sitting group dinner coworkers right now seeing sos feel terrible want feel alone anymore ill probably delete later ive deleted posts wonder find solace reassurance lately going almost daily battling depression sure fix say major depression medically diagnosed months now slowly growing course months still function moved east west coast us thought fine moved past months living alone extremely tough mei days semblance normalcy cookprepare meals clean etc stuff need days lately sulking life situation barely enough energy even bed stand odd days still keep going overall incredible feelings dread hopelessness aimlessnessdread idea head want live life nothing way want college wanted move abroad live rural foresty area currently still live us live urban desert arizona strongly feel belong accepted job anyways need experience college hate cities hate heat hate driving things deal withhopelessness many things want improve creating endless cycle berating distract youtube video games talking friends makes temporarily happy stop realize break downaimlessness know even though working company nice helpful coworkersmanagers care work planning stay years experience months longer days feel thought make friends work putting effort making put lonely situationi tried looking therapy got insurance company waiting lists completely booked still apply anyways hopeful help coming soon depression worsening feel lost fix sometimes forget swag put makeup swag rn u feel put makeup pick cute outfit youll feel baddie got kissed first time omg unbelievable still cant believe ampxb mother kissed oh fucking god livehey im year old girl th grade cant find reason wake tomorrow morning one friend anxiety terrible school never anything mom told want know happens area send ass crying want dose know anymore im tired im done first university semester got questions didnt even fail class way go yeah ya questions film contains action opening credits entire hollywood films sort film produced tsui hark stars jet li team brought many worthy hong kong cinema productions including upon time china series action fast furious amazing wire work saw wires two shots aside action story strong used filler find action films rival must look hong kong cinema outlet area really worth checking usually never disappoint hair messy hate hair keeps flying place sometimes eyes make eyes itchy talking people school hard especially new school state conclusion im 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breaking things couldnt handle frustration thoughts self hate cause destroy items loved whenever didnt work wanted moment im incredibly sensitive keep feelings inside friends acquaintances idea violent side mid s ive learned destroy things instead take frustration hanging everything goes white disconnected action didnt even realize reason neck burn bathed bruises irritation ropes viewed hangings attempting redflag chickening recently realized form self harm sexual gratification past years ive done approximately times know better ways relieve stress none provide instant numbness job well done feeling bad habits shoutout shoutout amazing teacher let us play among us class period instead schoolwork even scheduled zoom meeting us tomorrow plain ole depressioni point thinking everything everyone bullshit reddit share opinion told eat dick bitch annoying patrons work dogged coworkers complaining shoving people aint bad man come stop way throat fuck express transparent observation world around told brothers im negative fuckhead im miserable relationship someone coddles im literally fuckkng pure selfishness deeply sensitive failure boyfriend important relationship shes months pregnant still wish early abortion easiest life hate body dysmorphia dwell body hours day even tho im lbs weight take months gym correct physical issues im stuck fuckin floor dis satisfied everything look around see system see games play im aware lights clockwork theres nothing special shit emotionally im dead please dont mistake tone crying words bland dull im shrugging around flip guess anyways hey im year old girl please tell itll okayedit thank response helps much even though know reply everything irrational fear feeling annoying maybe anyhow thank offering ear encouraging words really want read please read bottom paragraph kind summary teenagers need place vent reassured problems struggles temporary id usually talk best friend one anymore im english speaking country sorry grammar mistakes deep know things stay bad forever im end really need hear everythings going turn fine sometime perspective things maybe know ive never actually diagnosed kinda figured ive talked councelors school nurses teachers psychologist nobodys doubted first said thought might depression anxiety point know sit think wonder went suspicion fact way calming know whats wrong really know go know im paranoid actually downwards spiral mentally speaking know exactly im depressed anxiety first noticeable felt little empty sad time home mom boyfriend hated sister lived feel lost much time happy friends wanted move moved several times promised mom gotten work another town believed never hated someone much hated man made insecure took everything known friends hobbies life sounds dramatic head everything blown much cant stop analyzing things live without mom sister two brothers im oldest mom lot friends tells problems struggles lot mentally living past boyfriend way treated us siblings fine seems im lonely never much trouble getting friends nobodys real seems ive lived two half years started high school think thats american equivalent yet nothings changed getting worse worse best friend recently fight really want back person becomes sometimes sit alone time people school call whore laugh laugh things ive done said nobody wants understand honestly read problems start mind end affecting everything everyone around even though know people seem friends nobody wants know sick one cries nothing feels heavy time need someone feel reading seems typical teenager problems ive really reached point want anymore see point im intelligent reflected girl ive never hope anymore deserve make mistakes teenager makes want mental illness loneliness known people schools year old rumors still laughed hate hate everythings become really want anymore option move change schools next year moms pregnant new boyfriend sounds really stupid theres lot moms irresponsible selfish may seem im scared nothing change im scared make ill sick hopeless feel anyone anything mean think way people realize feel anyone wants know try positive really hard think appear happy friendly apparently people describe angry mad scary know understand really im sorry mess post ive never low think nothing really makes sense long story short anxiety depression feel lonely real friends hobbies feel home worry think feel sad lot move towns schools know mentally see end anything know want anything anymore lot thoughts seem really dramatic mind everything know anything feel blank think stupid really trust thoughts either know thank reading though day posting something everyday girlfriend im bored ask question want answer feminazis getting dumber louder gf asleep someone entertain bc im lonely dm im bored lonely female moment women sexualized women legalize women going topless oppressed patriarchy ampxb ampxb thanks coming ted talk hope cancerdont courage end tomorrow birthday money going redflag fundi really believe anyone anymore believe im gon na really think ill see amazing year much say incredible comunity sadly idk reddit taught life sucks anyway give arrows safest waywhat guaranteed painless way commit without gun living outside us im going bathroom back soon though looking anything pointhi know guys dont feel reading book ill try keep short sweet ive awful anxiety depression teen ive tried hard last decade dig hole ive learned socialize made lots friends working graduating college year despite best endeavors none brought fulfillment life despite great friends know love still always feel outcast years ago one brief glimmer hope fell love spent truly happy year life selfdestructive behavior pushed away fast forward now havent seen yet alone spoke months although try wake every day move life feel grip loosening questioning even want live anymore nothing makes happy pain ive felt child amplified x shown glimmer hope live fact ruined anyone advice im open hear doubt help much though always cycle misery end leaving world least ill die knowing really try better im running strength cant wait till move want cuss thin air reason whatsoever im bad day feel raise voice even little bit parents hear unnerving getting tired cycle failureim exhausted trying make things better first immediate risk help grudgingly given though may multiple attempts reinventing always end way realizing cant fit matter contort familial responsibility keeps tethered painful life know better know worse know many times think problem feel need say goodbyeto people care aboutthat care want stop attempting redflag end sectioned taken hospital will time maybe time wont say goodbye ive lost hope futureive lost hope future life seems miserable day experience whats point trying hard succeed everyone ends dead anyway today cheesecake tomorrow knows passed pain threshold time diethere much take enough say wait three days take action ive waited months feel surer woman told life joy right series problems defeats severas years ago mother died main emotional support left alone close family friends recently really withdrawn girl whose affections declined previous work id previous bad experience getting involved colleague made life hell leave fought back got back good paying enjoyable government job manager really likes interviewed managers colleagues canteen staff even cleaners seem went wrong sums life started much younger girl call m made clear interested acted around glancing smiling exaggerated behaviour works much liked previous experience work made keep distance tbh prettiness perkyness intimidated little avoided interaction months probably guess going ended working beside awkward days got talking got well similar tastes art amp literature recommended things seeing someone work month arrived developed crush shortly going though another dark period took month depression told leaving help ended back medication returned turns moved office mix moving boyfriend things somehow lost momentum went back slightly awkward bad way somehow felt odd little forced came one day looked startled justodd said hello said hello walked genuinely strange hard explain never spoke shortlyn went train others medication stop feelings pointlessness life managed import n via internet spent lot time researching exit life cut long story short office reshuffle means moving now happened friday really affected self image end day im usually last leave came back probably check desk items moved saying flamboyant goodbyes last two managers left coming kitchen asked enjoyed training simply said great make eye contact even stop walking whilst focusing two left five minutes later standing another door yards away phone waiting probably boyfriend looked saw turned back continued texting thats realised ive become sad middle aged creeper odd guy unnerves younger women really pathetic sad said nothing walked want upset way shed said enough without word made realise state life disastrous relationships best female friend offered friends benefits situation fun attractive sexy know feels cant better repulse younger women incite pity older ones weekend joyless see one way thank god got n need peach cant cope terrible hopeless position watching play want die happiness sadnessidk im one grieving im one piece human garbage dont excuse shes better without deserves someone give everything dont even know im posting anyone even care way look smile fill joy eyes crying face gets disfigured try hold tears back dont know future holds future without really dont want dont know cared much bad good undoubtedly way better im shitty person dont deserve heal cant cut life cant cut cycle endless pain ends back together idk im fighting hard made clear cant back people tell young sad know thats hurts much supposed enjoy youth together live long happy life together go ups downs together thats true love idk couldnt way now back feel much pain now hasnt years friends emotions hurt badly lost someone worth everything universe wont kill love dont even self harm love coping mechanisms sit room one notices one looks feel everyday heal depression hits twice hard last time things enjoyed cant even anymore remind music cant listen shared thoughts hurt remind worst part fault whatsoever really drowning sorrow wanting life longer poem longer read song wrote future longer picture painful memory beautiful woman perfect wife lost ill never back hurts fucking badly feels chest going explode cant even see keyboard feelings pouring know im typing need need cant stop fighting cant stop thinking good times life misanthrope becoming normal falling love someone never thought hurt always one causing pain cant even feel hate others feel hate melted ice block heart made gave make gll know initials reason read future want know love forever till death us part even care throwaway right nowi feel year old looking attention feel stupid want make wall text everyone seems hate even though prone never shut weird issue depressed late night okay day sudden im feel trying cut ive thoughts years years maybe years actually year ago glad scar fear scars know im one love way looks fear scars sometimes scratch see little white lines feel bit pain used put lipstick wrist looked cuts years actually cut sometimes use red sharpie time find razor knife look telling fucking fear scars dont even want im happy way looks want look see scars fresh want scars case feeling one day passes someone sees think killing think im sucking world resources giving nothing back job little friends almost live days cant come money homeless living mom crazy leave even though knew afford lost jobs depression everyone see lost boyfriends friends boyfriend now broke depression still love someone tried prove getting better hide depression better fake smiles becoming easier believes love wish bit different okay demands sex lacks sympathy empathy reason im homeless today helped nice gave roommate talk wish couldve friends least see crappy depressing pop song lost love katy perry getting long couple points back feel stupid pride smart feel belittled people almost daily know cook cant keep job im picky eater im shy oh shy social anxiety sit corner alone parties unless im drunkhigh know theyre thinking whats wrong makes even antisocial fear people help cook initiate sex clean something without someone asking know try food cant make decision feel curl shell hear things gets worse quiet depressed now want mean boyfriend earlier clicked reddit link turned screamer gif screamed resting bed usual yells fuck fuck laughed said sorry laugh tried make light situation angry screaming thus started late night depression fine people mad want make people happy thats want life okay tldr cutting fear scars im crazy shy makes people think redflag fear death constantly feel stupid inadequate instead something usually hide shell become worse ama haha kidding go ahead care edit going bed cuz cant find anyone talk feel free say anything feel necessary goodnight sw help political leaders alright guys need help assignment anyone give example political leader made wrong choice cost lives career far ive come nixon chairman mao hitler hope know im sorryim hoping see cant face tell truth im sorry came want damage keep causing really care im really sorry making choice dont want think options point im sorry hope someday forgive yall see advertising discord server called arenhale dont join arenhale rpg based server bot trying advertise better admin straight abusive abilities moderators douches helped make arenhale took away role new admin came picture long story shot dont join toxic abusive discord server realized narcissistic family main reason feel cant kill myselfi born grew abusive environment abused home family phisically emotionally bullied school harassed street hospital years ago went contact everyone family thats full narcissists except father toxic codependent relationship im one whos aware heres problem id kill father inevitably tell whole family give indirectly great great satisfaction feel war created years still manage control letting taking life make happy want make happy deserve time simply cant move forward neither life right worth living never worth living ive lot feel im damaged function properly dreams desperately need instant gratification know abusive family let live life wanted now finally want give let kill neither want live life allowed want kill allowed nigga im sniffing fart sniffy sniffy fart im sniffing fart sniffity fart sniff sniffity fart sniff sniffity fart niggaaa sniff sniffity fart id say one best animated films ive seen liked first time really appreciated second viewing weeks ago see sequel great business box office apparently lot people liked moviebr br gorgeous color palette man looks good lot good adult clean humor make big winner opening minute scene scat excellent subsequent interludes sid sloth voiced john leguizano provides main humor movie usually something funny say throughout moviebr br ray romano voice mammoth big character film literally denis leary ferocious badguyturnedgood sabertooth tigerbr br humor pretty colors nice sentimental story little baby softens couple tough characters interrupted lot songs either one brief one nothing offensive languagewisebr br animated movies good id tired dumbass americans fantasizing communism guys ignorant communism long humanity exists never work yes itd nice equal assets happy wont communist government often quickly go corrupt greed ruler turns dictatorship rules fear pretty much every single communist govt ends born ukraine parents moved america guys dont know communism really brings worst stop idolizing many came america escape ruins corruption communism left europe especially eastern europe kindly fuck youre communist omg im makin mozzarella sticks dont oven mit anything boutta go grab shirt wsfjsjdka man bein adult hard noteto everyone leaving behind im sorry mama papa love please blame redacted know promised die kill please try understand pain feel apologize hurt know stronger know make every day past year painful cant remember single day failed somehow entire life series failures mistakes everyday mistakes failures ive tried make friends ive tried open end hurting life live ive tried hard put look forward see nothing end pain see death wrong easy love mama papa redacted redacted redacted stronger take years english high schooler worthless im gon na examine every sentence conversation identify subject verb article adjective things need know need know figurative language means hearread know means im gon na take minute break every paragraph understand means wow romeo juliet whats write essay symbolism good yes im procrastinating still years shit every year gon na know speak english enough vocabulary day day life almost every job unless someones showing reason make take tests story even dont reading make project showcasing tiny item story yes thats im procrastinating im advanced reader class ive read george orwell people class read new book project cant use think thats chock full figurative language cant read time overheard teacher talking another class future even ive learned th time need shithole government billion dollars deal pandemic buy beds medicine important buy vaccines hospitals collapsing buy enecsary beds medicine fucking bought vaccines population million people bring vaccines protest pushing vaccines yesterday leaked government made wrong deposit twice drained billion dollars managed absolutely nothing fml almost didso last years felt really shitty feel started parents upbringing mom blackwhite really seem understand much situation grew strict house el salvador s contradicting always says bs class stuff fine somedays exact opposite says need push live good house good car dad hand essentially man child emotionally jokes expensethings actually enjoy life constant pest occasionally hitting good reason distinct memories playing ps living room hit good reason another standing sister clocked stomach dad mother kind couple really never gotten married grandma dads side always made mother feel shit made fun el salvador etc mom resents dadhis family heavily dad never really stuck mom always brushed aside joke came point dads sister threatened kill mother kitchen knife pregnant sister late s reason mom decided stay dad empty promises naive mom wanted divorce sister born economic issues dads job still cant bottom middle class top smack dab middle rolled around brought family really never happened mom dad always fight stupid shitalways bring families childhood petty shit eventually started playing guitar kind escape always hated drew doodles notebookswould regularly check make sure plenty overbearing things still almost started playing guitar looked really coolwanted play guys classic rock radiowanted hobby free first couple years playing dad always make fun ability jokes cant play van halen stupid shit still day even though feel guitar thing actually good maybe crippling self esteem issues idk still burning desire play band likeminded individuals never really got freshman year high school name cooper basically soul mate nonromantic way started hanging making music together shit felt right everything felt ok actually sounded really good together one day told gon na move utah live oregon first thought joking serious left end school year brother man trusted family member family thing hurt leaving felt lost brother part felt lost bit musicianshiphumanity thing makes feel actual human eventually depression got even worse solid week cried sleep still feel year later gotten worse parents gotten difficult live feel alone playing made feel actual human gone played people tbh love receive parents genuine feels fake love feel genuine close friends gf people make feel actual human without cooper feel missing key component humanity read entire thing guess trying say wish self esteem issues anger issues parents depression mood swings crippling depression disappear wish parents never got married wish live hell days really hard pretty fucking close taking entire bottle advils went bed waking thing stopped thought seeing cooper thank reading went hot need pet otter viewso got married expected woman rest life yrs decided finally lose weight started lbs ugly husband abuse infidelity boredom lost everything house family job years got life pulled back together point im late s meet another woman married buy house etc little backstory pretty much life ive health problems first heart attack weighed non smoker social drinker family history active sports etc way deserved think depression started know afraid every day past years record three heart attacks several cardiac incidents stroke take pills diabetes depression heart issues may lung issues involved left job october step ahead fired missing much time im good place physically emotionally thanksgiving weekend left house angry depressed unhappy etc ended buying pistol sunday loving understanding wife police take hospital filed temporary restraining order became permanent police house christmas eve family party court restraining order lawyer mentioned filed divorce im job finances wreck bad health marriage social life leaching daughters family cant see way pretend theres reason going emotions embarrassing yall relationships n shit ive maybe four serious chances guys taking interest going dates thought vunerable someone omg shit embarrassing asf cant im senior hs never relationship void emotion anyways anyone relate seeing enough karma post e want end iti cant asked life skills hobbies none love none open noone hug none comfort happiness life useless anyone dealing autoimmune issues feeling close edgei vasculitis cause determined autoimmune optometrist thinks may multiple sclerosis referred neuro ophthalmologist cancel appointment due expense know really multiple sclerosis theres something happening vasculitis affecting brain feels endless list symptoms whats worse health issues visible eczema petechiae vasculitis least internal hide pretend outside everythings okay im struggling winter settled ive felt increasingly hopeless future day gone currently im dark without even starlight im wishing wake tomorrow pondering hurting potentially killing hard handling things remembering disappointment everyone ride song drunk man begging women sex need someone talk toim getting desperate now im worried sometimes need someone talk yes alone know still feel fucking alone whore anything ends hurting people normal everyone tired considered methods commit suicide keep torturing living carrying tell love fucking love one knows suicidal really parents friends significant random people internet fuck every new day feels emptier previous one everyday think killing everyday die bit bit want advice wish someone listen empathetically understand going end want end todaywe school break week school left us tons works finish break much normally week handle another pile undone homework might fail classes cant fail classes want disappoint parents know seems small problem kill might say school problems ive urge years ive acted upon twice year failed found perfect way kill guranteeing dead life clear want end everything today heres poem wrote sugar birds broken record spageddie sea made grape soda theres dolphin named miss june jumped ocean flew moon flying found seagull sugar coated wings chirping help miss june please cant fix strange thing held june record broken june stood thinking didnt know well come sea thats thinking sugary bird followed kept sinking maybe use squid ink act makeshift glue seaweed tie broken pieces always option sugar bird thought said back miss june squid ink option find squid near soon miss june simply laughed well course dear bird pet squid way ink say word bird looked squid said squid word ink squid looked right back little wink squid little shake knew time exploded puff black cloud ink divine thank dearest june thank lil squid ink fix record new celebrate moment played record beautiful arrangement happy storys end wrote girlfriend doesnt fancy symboly poems think fun know im gona dieis bad know im gona die mom dog dies one live thats im gona kill people say find someone need stop depressed want spread sadness anyway literally see reason live want kill logical worries sadness end endless cycle getting better going deep dont want keep pretendingi wish someone break house shoot dead wouldnt seem selfish guys gals made sub uss southern state youll probably sharing southern thing whack drive diesel tear fields dirtbike hunt enjoy country music southern rock racism allowed confederate glorification rhillbillyhangout im donetonight might night think im finally ready dont know want die know dont want live reason stay one cares one listens need anymore theyve given suppose time give self might now dont tonight likely soon thx reading guess going insane one wants helpplease broken laptop phone able call help insecurities killing panic attacks need house ill happy im underage already drug addiction im unable repress longer im going insane please help life honestly purgatory suicidal yetim curious ur guys answers feel maybe fucked life maybe im supposed help lost souls along lost soul feel people intentionally nasty im unable make defintely uphold relationships cuz past traumas ratio bad things minimal bad things happening around fucked shit next life finally going void going void getting woken occasionally drunk yell bartenders bad person ruined relationship best friend zoey literally best friends hung pretty much every day talked deep stuff things wouldnt tell anyone ended telling shit going life deserves better said cant sleep night feels life isnt going anywhere doesnt care happy feels numb constantly told mentally exhausted wish catch breath parents alcoholics dont make much money emotionally abusive high expectations grades motivation work even though felt trying really hard still made bs cs really close let really personal stuff weed overdosing melatonin birth control reason btw hate people weed shes literally family history addiction dont understand whats going head lmao convinced teenagers felt empty burden normal couple times cried talking things breakups stuff got lasted long time cried boy longer relationship lasted couldnt take anymore loved much let convince deserves feel constant pain tried talking solutions said think think talking school guidance counselor know theres stigma guidance counselors end day professionally trained deal exact situation course never talk behind back force talk offered write email mention name see first steps make let read email take parts didnt want share weed thing lol felt really good told understood cant hurt reach someone next day guidance counselors literally pulled class sat talk without fine first wanted didnt want talk scary ask help understood guidance counselors talked lot stuff went well opinion said right thing good friend shouldnt let caught personal life said job speak kinda agreed one point brought something talking parents said didnt think good idea said ended asking name made mistake giving know told zoey wouldnt sounded gon na help ended mind probably know better want name probably good reason apparently used name look student contact files immediately called parents told zoey personal shit even said grounds take away parents least zoey told said course dont condone anyone taken away family got really angry blamed commotion said parents really mad saying personal stuff home life told shes attention needs stop told thought parents assholes intention never call agree shouldve checked zoey giving name counselors moment seemed right thing seemed things calmed said shes sorry overreacting still loves good apologized genuinely told never meant happen wanted happy week later came said something got heated argument angry selfdiagnosed even though literally showed every symptom ruined life told obvious never meant happen never said anything without permission except name moment thought right thing im sorry kept yelling reason couldve gotten taken parents replied gets nasty dont believe said doesnt make sense sure literally suck parents doesnt mean taken away say probably said fucking reason thats said dont talk blocked havent spoken angry moment said things definitely didnt mean wished guidance counselors never called stupid parents couldve worked told talk parents told didnt want share name asked anyways called anyways everythings mess wanted fucking happy guess shouldve left alone dont think anyone deserves feel burden life pointless fair deserves better im ok never wants talk wish see fog realize intention never happen wanted happy terrible person done instead help someone situation im afraid ive finally fallen fari plan anything thinking becoming common things impossibly difficult nothing seems change situation ive never attempted redflag even really threatened feel nothing stop now grew impoverished abusive addicted home beaten pretty regularly emotionally manipulated constantly left broken mess adult ive failed succeeded still kept pushing along thought maybe make life bad took twice long peers eventually finished college even grad school relationships made friends scored jobs nothing lasted know close people craved family mids decided move guy thought love love gave everything including job car house friends family eventually savings moved across country work within first week knew something wrong turns dude pretty abusive behind closed doors immediately collapsed froze last years access medical care healthy environment finally fought hard go doctor found kidney disease bunch problems two molars broken half painful able walk feet time shoved ground years ago body weak mind following path used think survive regardless tossed way thought resourceful resilient tough know now im feel detaching need stay planet kids coworkers friends much family anyone miss cats dad support financially correction supported financially money ran last year many family members died im two blood relatives beyond distant cousins make home funerals cant break free completely unattached negative self talk swarms every perception attempt understanding im innocent im victim made choice stay left physically emotionally paralyzed cant now though thats thinking redflag think peace come im gone let leave really place go even cut loose need shitty shitty makes one right now im im thankful theres place write slept today want bad sad brain want die still want family love still want career volunteer pretty sure theres much damage now even got take years fix one last thing night wonderful dreams normally nightmares dreams filled vacations old friends new beginning romance someone actually treated well conversation mom always sight dreams died last year woke feeling wonderful able sleep im afraid nightmares take happy feelings im fiercely protective first time felt loved long thank listening im sorry many hurting take away figure im going anyway might well good way actually reminds first time considered redflag even word remember praying god st grade take heaven bring another little girl back family died cancer made everyone sad seemed loved loved family sick problems abuse severe begged god barter thought better outcome everyone guess road ive along fighting years make much difference im safe now plans means really exhausted life im feeling burden every bad choice ive made drowning even though feet firmly planted land know dig dark theres legitimately one ask rope thanks take care ive away day two theres sort revolution going wtf okay first need talk tonight cry worry okay thinking lot need tell bc feel really important talk around please really sorry c losing mindidk anymore idc anymore feel im living grandma younger sibling days im year old man feel done life mom wants gf days idc anything living dont want hurt grandma younger sisters talk repeatedly abused pretty bad younger feel cant even live anymore affected mentally many ways dont dance sing socialize hate thought redflag know others worse idk anymore tbh dont even know anymore read plot summary worst one read justice incredible movie example good summary read listing turner classic movies anyway one favorite movies young child sister wait every april see tv one best horse movies time one great classics whole family watch romance clean endearing story line interesting songs great make movies anymore good acting top pat boone shirley jones best along many great character actors mirrors week decided challenge looking mirror looking anything shows reflection purposely week starting today anyone done anyone want try im homeschooled question im cambridge curriculum means learn stuff throughout year go school write exams last week first ones ive done years actually waiting outside classroom teacher call us kids go school btw started discussing exam might asked cool actually discussing concepts reminding right id never able normal tests mom set one girls started asking questions another student started saying know stuff never pays attention class spends half time jerking guys closet wanted know kinda talk normal school downright stunning uncomfortable never heard someone say anything explicit internet assumed anonymity people online brings language seem fazed either joke actually care people know social skills tell xd guys need help girlfriend twin sex dad looking someone share art critique others art bored art friends live america time difference big art best id happy geniune critique even hurts ego please give advice actually know draw though life stressful hard time living itwishing dead without courage go recurring theme life peaks now high school young stupid think plan tried hold breath sleep lot blankets hopes id manage asphyxiate learned gf pregnant yeah say im shitty human happen way wanted happen surprise managed live night actually rolled good minutes incoming traffic lane highway plain didnt care minutes many plans right now gf feeling hot kids wants quit job become stay home parent potential losing job coming month able find new job trying manage raise kids financial stress working wish stand take measures manage emotions cant angry try let take kids yes sometimes smallest thing make overreact feel shit cant make anyone happy know people care thing know push people away im even trying push kids away even good days make insanely happy many plans falling asleep garage cars working haning balcony hammer head u til pass even roof workplace always unlocked never told anyone never courage go im scared kids im scared gf parents holy fuck want die teachers annoyed kids easily confused im zoom classes keep joining wrong class due whole confusion thinking fourth period usually classes go b b onward though fourth period im class confused teacher mentioned many times try class though teachers students apologize much confused easily think found gmt greenwich mean time widely used th century known find latitude sea using stars longitude always problem british government offered pound prize technology accurately determine ones longitudinal position sea john harrison designed chronometer portable timekeeping device set time greenwich england submitted government eventually prize carrying chronometer reading greenwich time sailors use local time compared greenwich time accurately determine longitude thanks coming ted talk yall day posting girlfriend dunno write im boreddddddd guys make saying wat linking skeletor video rant thing keep seeing posts people desperately want meme im wondering guys make something thing meme thing people heres thing want make possible person introduces topic person b responds topic rant makes sense nothing topic person cone guys replies dont want one kill myselfi dont want one kill thinking hiring hitman kill weird know think work life garbage justifies redflagim tired retards telling gets better theres much live motherfucker couldnt wrong lonely socially awkward outcast cant even say single sentence another human isnt life worth living working earning money pointless life still empty shitty always going garbage fucking hate existence cant even imagine realistic life worth wont better life always garbage ending destiny mg hydroxyzine mg tizanidine mg cetirizine dont think enough overdose affect meim lbs m think enough sick thats im aiming correct warning may contain spoilers let rosalina help mario lead way smile game brighten day br br stars require luck skill bring much thrillbr br blasting stars show mario luigi travelers br br walking upside never fun especially final battle koopa near sun br br truly super awesome game absolutely deserves place nintendos hall fame jim henson kermit drteeth rowlf waldorfbr br frank oz fozzie piggy animalbr br jerry nelson floyd pepper robin frog lew zealand crazy harrybr br richard hunt janice statlerbeaker scooterbr br dave goelz gonzo drhunnydew zootbr br charles durning mel brooksbr br cameos steve martin carol kane orson welles bob hope richard pryor othersbr br first muppet movie billion others came best far deals kermit frog going trip hollywood meeting characters along way movie along already good excellent songs performed muppets including rainbow connection picture moving right along others movie unlike muppet flicks carries strong sentimental value nice movie noted many cameos featuring steve martin mel brooks dozen othersbr br ratinga plus mins rated g im idiot deserve deathim worthless understand anyone loves im want end life make friends family unhappy keep coming back cant make new friends girls interested im failing school whats point one less fuck gone matter dad left anyone want around im ugly ive tried fix cant hate anyone cheer itll nice impossible decent jobi think impossible nowadays decent job even good education bother kill end homeless cant decent job welfare cut kill future redflag wrong future especially disabeld likely never decent job maybe dead end job dont even pay enough live perspectives redflag wrong cute girl cute girl classes school really havent talked lot think likes though shy dont know approach love advice one flatout drollest movies alltime sim rutherford best matching wits predicament allboys allgirls school sharing quarters slapstick never sophisticated someone feels bad aggressively compliments literally point around nothing even seems worthwhile anymore wish constant abyss stop moment take breath feel drowning one around throw line point around giving upive bed day missed school im aspergers dont see point trying anymore never explain emotions feelings nobody understands try explain something know slitting wrists easy mess feel much pain inside want doesnt work ill hang slowly suffocate feel hopeless nothing even family pets music nothing one friend ive dealing years wont stop im never happy dont see point school cant recognize mirror never anything good say friends coming today feel bad cause forgot ive probably ruined want gone want end life im tired overworked stress going make go insane ive tried therapy counselling im always back feeling absolute shit guess say im fucking done henlo anyone wan na talk m damn got back universal super hot outside debating leaving worldi never darker place life years old really debating taking life suicidal thoughts challenge faced young age huge attachment issues due adopted always avoided getting attached girls fall love cant take happens well happened took girl nyc new years got rejected never felt empty alone sad dont know take avoided falling love years didnt want happen took risk got heart ripped crushed cant take pain time one turn really dont know time maybe goodbye go hospital suicidal ideationsorry typos im mobile feeling well class worst mental health life nearly every day want die see hopeful future little problem happens immediately want kill thing dont specific plan ive thought ways go nothing set stone scared go often want know wont know one day im tired feeling im tired normal social anxiety ocd dont diagnosis mood disorders symptoms lot im going self diagnose hate ny fault feel anyway make efforts make feel better started depressed purpose thought cool thing fucking idiot even feel valid know real put situation feel better time try ive tried thinking positive pointless know thats subconsciously trying depressed cool still isnt cool though im psych student gon na sound stupid dont even reason sad know thats works case feel anyone even take seriously im scared cant anytime soon anyway exams redflag voluntary commitment almost christmas want ruin everyone mom hate im adult dont live anywhere near hate dont want make live either go protection live brother sil know wouldnt force im scared go even go im embarrassed tell brother feel thinking id go work one day message feel thats asshole move none friends care ones wouldnt able visit know feel wprse life didnt matter im live toronto im going therapy even though school offers thats fault cant give enough shit make appointment go dont want family talk theyll never treat embarrassing dont want know feel cursed want die prevent inevitablei born abusive family autism spectrum disorder makes weird terrible interacting people im terrible sciences life general yet decided go psychology im interested subject thing im good level want help people barely interact people relate many straighta student ill probably crap job psychologist therapist meaning life help people believe nothing left live barely help cant confidentally say talk anyone redflag think dying every day really getting point need unloadyes created many people know usual handle made throwaway really want people know heads sentence structure order damned im unloading comes expect much way formatting anyway sit popping another painkiller wonder hell life got point im married veteran going college literal dream job cant make ends meet ive looked work nobody wants hire college student ive put applications career type work looks going go heart fear getting stuck job ill never chance dream job wife works ass cant even find part time job got nice love note apartment complex saying theyre going court tomorrow cant pay rent va shorted us last month housing allowance going much better feel stayed service soul crushing least paychecks bad veterans affairs concerned numbers actually giving care vets sterotypes true defeating feeling im trying come woe begging pity thats style ask younger sister money tomorrow continue struggle even ahead anything wife live large american style going eat every meal charging everything credit cards drive beatup pickup truck pos honda civic thats beyond last leg needs five major things cant afford feel bum loser failure summer best friend killed similar reasons see told id never follow footsteps im imagining belt around neck sensible action well ive unloaded enough everyone ridiculous financial troubles sympathy hope overcome goodnight sw shitstorm awaits tomorrow another ice cube post ice cubes flavours one pick depends next weeknext week ill exam results fail im gon na kicked college trigger chain events leading hope decent future ruined yeah pass exams got ta finishing uni hope good life without virtually reasons live know yet im gon na iti still hope case heaven knows pretty much hate life far got opportunity make things better might might manage might think extreme measure exams fail ill go back shithole country place fucking hate place ive waiting years leave cant conceive living really want die wish luck guys maybe case hahim breakdown feel gettinginto car going full speed tree might selfish dont care itll affect ask play basketball neck hurt taking shower someone thought average human tall nothing meabsolutely nothing one day surei kill today tomorrow one day im university second year years left ill live friends friends love heart know loose one day lost everyone talk lover one years know never know love story friends say will know sure wont day friends gone ill live alone ill far family ill kill still know still know better family disappear know happened better know ive killed guess ill see want make life productive every second people obsessed making everything productive every second relax bit play nintendo ds hello everyone new group uk dealing depression alot first diagnosed ocd redflag depression years ago recently come month relationship use lean lot support mental health gone kind stuck really anyone talk day mum best friend id someone make friends make general conversation lifes constant spiral anyone advice please let know go easy lol advice break appreciated thanks much need someone talk end diagnosed eye condition usually ends losing sight treatedsince everyone helpful personal opiniom regarding disturbing matters doctor diagnosed really bad case eye floaters given special eyedrops getting worst days passed currently job att uverse pre install tech support incase condition gets worst grounds resignation due medical reasons parents thinking straight medical matter hand wants continue medicine hand good money doctor found job att pre install tech support told leave find another lighter job risk blind long run experience parents ideas usually end ths hospital worst think going work matter hours need opinions badly guys helpful help understand purpose thingsno im suicidal downvote whatever keep attention important posts want insight without getting flamed something subreddit hotline going help anyone actually wants kill seems posts people seeking attention making genuine cries help lack power actually kill anyway people come hear someone tell everything going alright rather actually talking redflag sense less rredflagwatch rdepressionhelp passive suicidal thoughts lack actually thoughts btw cant relate fact im currently passing time couple hours appointment doctor tell cocktail antidepressants still goddamn thing ive diagnosed major clinical depression years already im suicidal even though seems offed awhile ago girl makes guys testicles burst removed cuts destroys penis horrible wrong rape disgusting worthless rapist rapist deserves slow violent brutal death women seasonal depressiondoes spring summer make anyone depressed winter validates depression makes feel normalsunlight make feel better im fucking low reminds hell need climb im curious anyone feels thisregardless im gon na try fucking hardest embrace warm weather positive vibesi cant afford feel longer meant existhey rsw ive posted one earliest submissions reddit im mistaken really feel need help unfamiliar ive suffering depressive symptoms several years started fairly traumatic episode youth years ago caused become extremely distrusting people especially officials kind past year ive tried multitude different selfhelp methods ranging meditation excercise even psychedelic drugs helped really fix issues issues im extremely emotionless even remember last time cried seldom display emotion exception hatred rage frustration seems emotions replaced everything respond emotions whatever situations encounter theyve gone mind replaced every emotion ive noticed im becoming increasingly isolated increasingly harder approach real effort even respond phone call one remaining friends ive started think humans world extremely negative light yes thats right see street first impression probably fucking pretentious dickhead wished fell hurt even innocent interactions greeted grocery store clerk provoke extremely hateful violent reactions im kidding anyone talks makes furious wish left alone forever want see people want partake society want left alone never approached course possible thoughts sometimes led believe rest world incompatible im one fit perhaps best started final journey unknown unexplainable rage hate turn paranoia delusional violence im considering redflag years old turn ive simply enough best days behind theres really nothing left hope friends girlfriend family left mother sister career job prospects stuck job alcohol abuse passion anything guy cant hope happy whats point existing perpetual state unhappiness heavys important message girl tf ending theme looking anyone oceania join discord looking fresh perspective id love learn life new zealand australia oceaniac countries members probably interested wants join come im okayi dont really good enough reason okay thats ive thinking different methods redflag last couple hours cant stop crying reached service always amazing dont offer crisis support suggested ed local crisis line big grounding techniques went arent cutting want feel okay instead wanting take world time im done everythingthis throwaway incase actually quite old one ive lost years worth data life recently went really downhill every small wrong thing causes feel everything goes wrong good thing happend well yeah bullied practically half life ive enough random calls everyday someone laugh go oiii go kys school followed told thing theres nobody trust everyday ive felt ending soon slowly start actually ending feel heyheheyehey every suicidal thought goes away second want commit redflag im tired living want peace god exists please look friends family especially mentally ill people dogs people always says dog loyal brave mans best friend one day family got dogs stupid kept hassle one dog kept jumping fence escaping kept pooping every always finds way room poop society wrong always idiotic never contributing cats severed much purpose want much life actually stuck hunting tactics sometimes gifting mere humans free meal rodent short dogs bad cats good high school long started hs today big problem school system works borders means area one hs go hs borders though exactly border went school signed inhttpsinhow began let explain june singed school area closer sent email receive answer father went ensure signed said yes went said belong belonged school conclusion weird situation almost friends went feel sad mad given false hope yesterday lolbiggest mistake life actually sharing im sick head people friends family shouldnt keep eventually die suffer another pain pain ignored pain feeling unimportant pain insulted understood became laughing stock uselesss dumb person nobody fucking wants point alone know ok want anymore ok want romantic love ok fine want anymoreit ok want possessions ok fine want anymore ok want friends ok fine want anymore ok want things right ok fine want anymore ok want recover ok fine want anymore ok want kill ok fine want anymore ok want family ok fine want anymore ok want good paying job ok fine want anymore ok want move forward ok fine want anymore ok want alive anymore ok fine want anymore every time every turn always something supposed want supposed know want anymore exactly allowed desire dreams ok never answer keep pounding head hammerpeople tell need head even know means anymore know anywhere inside head know want sorry want wish fix seems keep getting worse know whyoh well anyone even care shout nonsense void one cares supposed anything long kill others feel morally better death really impact anyone reallyit hard miss someone even know exists know want wanted vent dieidk say anymore venting half week reddit change anything mental hospital got canceled parents take urgent hospital said fucking needed revenge yep im indeed kms razorblades lying ground idk im reddit ive given life sooo many chances something happens cant take anymore life worth anymore living keep friends happy ive whole year making happy listening guess time something egocentric fucking dying guess sort still want saved cuz im still typing time much late painfull im sorry triggering people parents say urgent intake hospital safe still run away hurt mysef guess run away razorblades iseasly kill wrist much scar tissue even hurt slit wrist urgent hospital couldve least little safer maybe help learn survive fucking virus stops ruining everything mean apointment good mental hospital moved november months waiting help suicidal feelings hav wait another months nope last negative thing happened redflag wpdthe forum rwatchpeopledie similar havens filth encourage death moderators racist xenophobic literally admit getting deaths im freak forum shouldnt exist im already bleeding night bb last post filth exist cd college apps know want major living yet gpa anyways thats even lower one three cs right now might go community college illegal lskskajaj httpsvmtiktokcomzsxawdg took cocktail drugsi cant stand continuing life im failure friends people work hate means im going fired due time cant count anyone always come across dick im good anything im screwed financially academically work dead end job lead anywhere cant find anything angry time theres puddle blood bed cut arm open got angry normal im normal thinking want hear want deal people people want deal win win situation content help fuel machine rteenagers im going stalker tattooed arm im old enough favorite game series able call marked one lol family already said dumb got ta wait till im ugh walk around night think easy step street let car hit damn beautiful night see stars smell scent fresh rainso easy kill moments beautiful wish life always nights nights try sleep nights even good music help nights want someone hold lap tell everything fine time time cant run away work busy living life inescapable hide need helphow keep going time time time tell things better try hardest still end one bad thing putting gun mouth want something help change mind im becoming tired living teacher literally cant teach made really mad fact f class im usually ab student try need really specific moments teacher oh god made frustrated everything teacher ap physics teach cant f life consistently f even tried tried first quarter ended getting f nd quarter mental health slipping much got ive stopped honestly cant anymore literally sits acting gone things never gone single thing barely anyone class understands anything ap class ive ap class multiple times life least gotten b every quarter though typically consistently literally expects us answer question surprised nobody answers even though never teaches one person understands person suspect tutor something going nobody class understands anything never taught us equation yet expects us solve equation perfectly mistakes legitimately anymore making frustrated everything due fact school system prevents part time school job order make money want make money start saving college things relating hobbies work experience course need pass physics whatever reason due fact teacher teach sacrifice potential job decent amount hours without feeling extremely tired end day school job going retake physics senior year top let switch classes even though specifically requested twice told theyve even lot complaints teacher cant switch due rule put blame counselor job cant fathom cant switch even though ive proven relatively good student outside ap physics showing odd anything lower b im going specifically request teacher hope listen request want deal teacher dont watch anime please watch attack titan vinland saga god teir anime trust im alonei feel nobody talk maybe embarrassed discuss things close often think redflag greater alternative failing life tonight thoughts extra heavy many replies post many breathes fucking cutely sleep ahhhhhhimnotgonnagetoverthisboyinalongasstime home instead school im sick im bored covid brain cancer plain old sick probably something cold im bored mind anyone want talk always easy explain movie time think ive found reminded two movies trainspotting small time criminals scoring drugs stupid things schotland blair witch project style filmingbr br loyalty two friends one coming jail one caught yet stolen vehicle drive scottish countryside run petrol try find fuel find farm middle nowhere farmer thinks want rob points gun one goes wrong one friends accidentally shoots farmers daughter run follows man hunt fields woods schotland two friends literally run livesbr br apparently movie shot days time ok thats exactly unbelievable biggest part always place scottish countryside still find quite amazing especially actually bad movie perhaps greatest movie still proud achieved nice time watching overall enjoyed movie give manual breathing blinking lmao gottem manually breathe blink next minutes brain forgets read feeling worry im even people around family support ik goals might hard achieve realise worth value overcome constable stay determined give fuck anyone give negativity think things better even seems never will stay determined okay feeling low look saddens go reach may reached destination believe matter many fails good traveller deserve anyone chat im im bored nothing little either think im scum earth existence rivals god discuss wide variety topics play number choice company deeply appreciated m ive thought long hard life going see point carrying oni got one talk either care much drop ive fairly good hiding feel infront others feel tolerated never part someones crowd last time told itll better ive become self aware self hating lonely feel cant blame anyone matter try im never taken seriously look stupid careless weirdo fucking time got much live another years work reasons live theyre going run soon honest want live happens trauma lore filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler deal itright im staring clock anxious work im relative average job make lot mistakes hate always thinking negative things cant happy deal every time know work day feel throwing im mentally unstable nothing really wrong feel everything wrong bad things going happen going shitty day cant stop negative thoughts want die want world end fuck man cant control emotions either something really wrong im probably going commit redflag real reason point im useless family probably thinking im selfish id killed cant stop hurts wish world end please end nothingim sorry im sure people worthy people actually go think im going matter much want end even plan anymore thought always plan going happen worthwhile people spend responses guess needed scream space yknow feel failure part went incredible college im working artist even though artmaking fellowship closed show day job parttime though honestly love make less spend rent month theory making art getting jobs using money survive ive depressed anything stay bed days im supposed using art cant even im fat seems nonsequitor im dancer first round suicidal ideation came disordered eating behaviors stopped managing depression least thats campus therapist told made enough sense believed ran away therapy stupid reasons wanted anorexic bulimic time worked nerve go therapy transitioned mostlybulimic behaviors ashamed wrong eating disorder fucking stupid accept help disorder thought less glamorous one started fucks sake started dating girl anorexic behaviors depression wonderful tried make healthy fueled behaviors didnt dumped nowhere seven months ago im sure best seems happy now ive barelyfunctional rock best friend person knew extent going head totality support system though tried rely much left someone now seems happy lot healthier talk much anymore im fat working working partially im afraid go auditions weight afraidashameddepressed go classes gym take care im stuck stupid cycle even convince one day hey yeah lets take steps make better takes much energy lasts maybe day maybe two im back curled covers staring netflix distract thoughts anybody died coworkers first notice think im supposed go work tomorrow show think call text probably think check show tuesday timed right died work thursday four days anyone even notice im sorry im mostly crying ex still silly happier without feel failure cant make take steps become anything know make things better know im scared convinced ill fail depressed really fucking lazy nothing nothing mean nothing provide nothing im sorry im going go im sorry wasting time stop saying america shit country stop saying america shit country mind think racist country ive never seen immigrant talk shit america reason came shit hole country running water deemed success sound bomb going became normal live america privileged reason cant become successful systemic racism stoping becoming successful work hrs week poor right talk shit billionaires elon musk jeff bezos started company work hrs week living ramen even billionaires work hrs week jim carrey good usual even though quite jim carrey moments definitely jim carrey moviebr br targeted mostly children managed enjoy movie promoted israel another jim carrey movie expected weird top comedy disappointedbr br movie nice moments works well movie kids cant say loved movie im target audience many early british sound films ive seen video suffer either poor print transfer quality poor sound fortunately able obtain copy movie video excellent quality enabling focus story itselfbr br excellent story first sight passengers illfated bus looked pretty boring lot except always lovely jessie matthews film went back show passengers story day accident discovered cast contrary initial appearance talented group performers skillfully directed bring real individuality distinctive characterizationsbr br viewers may different preferences two passengers going meet tragic end ones survive movie holds interest keeps guessing film deserves much wider audience real gem early british cinema people heartlessa long ago posted question reddit asking question people mainly women case seem dislike got hateful replies downvotes response wondering seemingly disliked girls ive talked say im great guy suddenly remove contact rude least never intention come across way everyone trying assume worst im kind creep baited arguing one twits responding decided stand ground ended crushing even seriously ive even suicidal know sound problematic things contributing big part way feel now continuing bother people hateful last time suicidal people ignored drove past exist might well fucking exist anyway right people cold fucking hurts want die much embarrasses even sharing species people understand treat people kindly friendly always treated trash im commit redflagi cant take abuse anymore finally outpizzad hut greatest mistake life years perfecting recipe made way local hut freshbaked pizza pie hand try told kid working counter agree better anything pizza hut offer soon entire store customers included feasting delicious pie manager walked grabbed slice took bite look anticipation rising boss local fief lord hut approval meant rest combined took bite nodded ill damned said really outpizzad hut shame shame mean tha manager pulled gun behind apron shot nearest customer head code jalapeo said wrist executed remaining customers repeat code jalapeo ground slick blood kid working counter choked dying breath manager turned motherfucker outpizza hut shoved gun face scared fight scared run manager pulled trigger click gun empty threw chair manager scrambled pizza hut even bothering see missile hit mark closely pursued manager gotten hands deadly sharp pizza cutter suspected hands cut pizza somehow able car speed manager cursing existence left behind took deep breath manager clearly psychotic yes crazy man gun phone rang sister picked theyre dead sobbed theyre dead mmom dad chris bill dead killed barely understand great sobs mean asked urgently possi single gunshot sounded phones speakers silence heard mans voice one outpizzas hut hung drove empty county road mind blank nothing killed family alone moment knew took everything well take everything pizza hut terrified outpizzad forgot theres one thing worse man recipe man nothing lose ill give limited time offer able refuse two bullets price one free side order pain ive wanted friend properly talk cares anyone want type friend friends old friends started hanging mean person shoves ground thrashes everyday never gets trouble taken care teachers laugh nice ones stick mean ones im lonely gorilla used always want friend actually talk wants friend wait heck reason accounts different symbols bottom area play button top account im using rn stuff deserve woman loves even deserve love yes depressed yes maybe crazy maybe mental problems yes maybe completely gonebut deserve love right reason kill self always one last drip hope day meet woman going save mebut know maybe never going happen thing need love brother gets n w paying hell yea already finished good care people think gotten point cant even buy game really think brothers wont one thing many others help seen messed stuffive cop years ive seen stuff one see kids murdered parents people crushed cars things done something never cant go trauma know helped people im going end life say sorry people helped letting guess maybe looking see guys think ithi everyone title says im letting kind telling story short beware kind long appreciate help comments thank im years old turning month girlfriend halfway across country sucks ive bedn dating little year love atleast thats feel may say im young whatnot thats feel right now ive pretty normal childhood guess never heard medical records problems body brain psychological problems although ive many temper tantrums still parents well even know understanding always scream hell wrong crazy tantrums times cry hit punch things break things throw things patents really dont tell anything keep tell minimum spend days alone basement playing guitar surfing youtube alone riding bike bmx many friends talk people sometimes even know say id say two friends including girlfriend friend cant really talk jimmabout anything except funny movies video games girlfriend knows everything school hate depresses im okay student last year got c two rest bs classes although never really study never enough parents tell compared people way better grades tell compare people although always compare exbest friend use studies alot ap classes always say cant stuff say couldnt alex jason sons family friends really good ik school dad made go caddying summer went two times second almost got heat exaustion take mentally either lately cant take life know im done started cutting december although strong cutter stopped cutting stop girlfriend worrying two months ago way guess ive self harmed years hitting hair pulling last year towards end school year hit guess call depression pretty miserable mentally miserable compared ive whole life school summer still even though stress finals homework even study end start junior year two week im already hitting depression im antisocial feel better alone without deal people plus fit girlfriend fear pain keeping earth guess cant leave think loves want everyone know f care im tired world hate see human beings destroyers way self loath alot hate earth come enjoy life except time im bike talking girl want deal school anymore want grow never even wanted old want work im good enough ride bike living want deal anything life girl riding bike im full im tired living ive contemplating redflag year maybe think well thought cutting yeah think covered got far thank reading story im sorry wasted time improve score sat sophomore high school want prepare sat didnt good score psat took fall freshman year score actually dont know average good score psat aiming take sat first time fall junior year college want go average sat want know improve many licks take center tootsie pop got bet going friends say around thinks sum summary lifei currently years old ive suicidal third grade mainly parents forcing unthinkable expectations made feel worthless nobody th grade live died quite literally great grandmother died sister years young years younger mom issues dad left apartment cheated got drunk multiple times fucking lost attacked able quickly subdue afterwards told replaceable nobody wished abortion among many things night went grabbed handgun upholstered pointed head pulled trigger didnt one chamber gunshot knew chamber properly put back cried sleep went see counselor told parents everything never felt betrayed fast forward towards summer forced watch two sisters mom started dating another guy favoured clear favoritism faggot pounds bigger always wrestled knocked one day enough fucking kicked hard head concussion didnt stop axe kicked ribs face bloodying mom showed care even knocked times even day year old sister called mommy thats one thing year old sister hates dad abusive mentally im cutter cut self took box cutter made sure break piece cut wrists still want high gives never got drunk gotten high anything besides sex feel empty inside every climax fills even little bit people think im throwing life away mainly used honors high school credits whilst im th grade cant go much longer im thinking ending tomorrow easy access weapons shotgun mom painter payback thinking shotgunning back head favorite paintings brings question situation vent thanks anyone reads wish luck new lady yoga instructor maybe good start company years ago ambition goal job stayed stayed stayed wasting away s s s role changed significantly currently making asked take different roles absolutely miserable low point job argument person worked years someone consider friend upset management style made ridiculous mistake little ago problems comes long time feeling knowing without job feel adrift job looking know details environment schedule probably make half currently making let us say job sucks job way long allno one cares one wants life friends families time see ex want speak absolutely hates keep losing family family involve anything ive depressed least decade now im third life ive depressed everyone keep telling gets better meds helped stabilize horrible meltdowns anymore anyone life im ghost people tell kill none care invite anywhere hate cruel knew much suffering inbmy head understand need ill better months thoughts come backbit go away cant family want raise family anyone love im garbage piece shit wish pulled trigger chance never worry im alone one know one really cares want fucking world anyone likes read plays plays differ ordinary books im total theatre nerd school offers occasion read tons play covid see lot reccomandation read english french got anything tell share favorite contemplating idea dont read want lengthy yeahi years old turn march thinking redflag fifth grade ive course always thought hormones going puberty early never went ill give brief overview life pushed feel way starters thoughts began fifth grade mainly nobody really friend less alone mention teased throughout life looking back experiences easy overcome compared things people contemplate redflag bad really around three friend two really want around sort leeched onto stuck rid great times always joking around shit third friend jonathan known first grade great friends even went house large number times came mine every single day towards end fifth grade johnathan always superior almost every way younger looking whereas early bloomer looked older kids better looking social friends jealous means knew much liked overall noticed feelings feeling inferior grew went house sleepovers years lived nice little house happy family problem family life seemed breeze hard explain life seemed innocent carefree compared shit head ive grown called typical shit ugly truth told ive always insecure looked comments never rested well made worse sort see right now feel alone anybody friends none makes feel talk anybody ive talked mom countless times always tries look bright side life tells im mistaken im close father mom feel comfortable talking feel itd awkward ive tried imagine many times little sister feel actually go killing traumatize well entire family know problem id dead still know die knowing outcome think might still salvageable suspect things getting bad ive began crying sleep well las day throughout week felt diffrent ways ive never felt ive cried lot feeling always feels overlooming constantly know anymore maybe confused suspect hormones truthwhen making way school bus suffer extreme sun light heat characteristic country near equator constantly gaze clear sky ponder whether life means meaningful byproduct stupidity explanation many thoughts occur back head one seem fade away put end semieternally painful plain existence today really try keep trying improve grades physics math chemistry admit fact simply good matters ill never quite hard endure routine knowing procrastinative friends clearly success even though im hardworking far neither impeccable results exams struggle resolve even simplest problematics feel numb completely lost driven away focused path following last year accepted participating olympiad class persuaded sign sort proof commited used case development mathematics physics chemistry bright living nightmare past years many discussions even abdicated completely faith used deity order embrace cold reality little somehow figured life seemed realistic ideals classmates daydreaming today complete fifteen years existence yet discover solution problem everything feel im kinda losing best friend best friend attend different colleges theyre minutes away due civil seeing still speak phone least twice month program classes person hes always someone partying im stuck student apartment one talk know irrational hes told cant wait see know means cant stop feeling hes moving way faster life leaving dust guess asking teens advice best idea rant help welcome prank parents basically made fake gmail account online school teacher sent email mom dad gist basically paying attention class distracted sent hear dad reading mom whatever reason got email first prank gon na extra spicy asian family course theyre gon na go ballistic dad called room stop laughing spilled tea seemed pretty worried still said opened fake email teachers name something crime now im sure crime make sure delete email account luckily enough parents admitted defeat actually cool prank idk needed tell someone itd weird tell friends story lol wait guys friends though ah cares stop thinking cutting myselfi cry work almost every day starve even tho job time even two jobs go hungry one person world trust wants love want grow resentment towards feel contributes unhappiness hate life reason kill dog used thing keeping cutting modeling stopped cus make happy anymore want hurt reason feel help deserve liveive good enough life everything handed done im worth half time anyone puts toward everyones worse done right sad alive first world problems im happy lifefirstly compared lot people subreddit bad im broke friends goalshobbies im extremely ugly either really much life wanted stuff ive done make mom happy im child parent tell happy im taking sweet time trudging grad school putzing around jobs unrelated field money hobbies want stressed iron firsted asian parent never really coddled really something talk last time hugged probably tell quite jealous sisters daughters gotten married even first boyfriend yet ive made attempts dating sake boring thing last night got really drunk especially depressed kind started making plans assets go really good goals kind want end feel great things going feels empty meaningless happy national pizza day true story doctor second song jack stauber even sad makes want cry young folks one part buzz love song im becoming sensitive every day happy birthday lmao turn midnight yet still want kill called redflag hotline way home work last nighti made throwaway account many family members know main last night work particularly difficult one ideation leave head night know night kept thinking go another one days drive car bridge drive exact one every single night way home easy got work car broke called hotline stay phone got home know anymore gets better gets worse thought possible see future closer closer every single time im lost thanks letting vent whats guys im writing new song want know think chorus nigga nigga bitch nigga nigga nigga fried chicken nigga watermelon nigga bitch nigga nigga white women titties ass happened posting images grayed filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler im pretty sure im going kill myselfits mind years now ebbs flows always come back always seems stronger im reaching want help im sure im even willing im closing severe emotional pain nearly constantly sometimes reason sometimes brain makes one hate everything im joke failure living lie let people people abandoned push away close friends anymore cant anything well idea keep life let alone desire attempts art suck real talents skills im intelligent graduated college shit degree im debt working dead end job comfortable motivation better yet enraged daily way treated way people treat people make nervous give anxiety make ill trouble feigning interest anyone hate easy appears hate knowing really easy anyone yet still decent bodies decent jobs people love ability create things stupid realize hate actually things pretty good people lived though holocaust famine war suffering yet hurt fucking bad suffering ive bottling everything long yell people lash physically feel anger pain fear ugliness boiling thick tar im stranger body hate im fat im ugly even body want touch ive dealing eating entire life thing always transitioned living female couple years back helped put suicidal thoughts awhile back better never body want ill never loved way need even cut genitals surgeries im still guy fooling wound need keep sealing praying someone still interest transgendered person usefulness fetization gone take step ive yet meet man doesnt want use ive really tried transwomen meet im convinced vast majority us misunderstood misdiagnosed seeking attention perhaps thats thats parents think ive felt alien body toddler still feel belong anywhere speaking family embarrassed im allowed see niece nephew sister brother desire talk brother best friends long time mother father allow whenever family around friends neighbors tolerate barely cant hug dont want feel breasts touch refuse use chosen name tell suffering depression reason ive stuck around long adopted family partner year half husband two kids extended family embraced see true nature getting tired love way need share conversations intimacy way used trouble even touching cuddling anymore disappoint cause drama upsets hurts regularly tells tired us feel reason still puts knows want kill want burden spend nights together fewer fewer gives well choice husband right across hall along great tares apart chooses plays video games day engages none whatsoever yet relationship magically rocks came along make things worse attracted messed around past never happens anymore im one wants sex one wants make love even fool around blame thought awhile loved kids im even beginning resent now theyre mine cant kids anymore cant pregnant anything guest family attempt parent undermined real parents right front one tells loves times day believe incessant sometimes seconds another annoying think even understands cry baby screams try help gets whatever wants said hope burden death think went away deserve one deserves really im selfish one hold anymore one talk confide everyones tired crying see therapist im getting better ive read posts people regretting attempts halfway fall whatever makes sad hear know point im tired im alone miss drugs gave live family life made feel alive numb play video games cry pretty much want motivation desire better ive trying entire life gotten let clear desire hurt anyone decision renunciation freedom shotgun blast face effective least painful least chance failing way ive come research money pretty quickly eat last meal write note apologizing everyone life mess im leave left hearts theyll find nice rock mountains one last sunset boom gone think anymore loneliness fear pain used romanticize even passport drive south road ends pain back end sell everything travel world im ready take elephant sized dose smack goodnight lost appeal though want trouble desire live way want quick definite beautiful waves make day happy good day paul schrader brother leonard wrote mishima clearly drew parallels life yukio mishima work film divided four sections beauty art action fateful day mishima held army general hostage spoke garrison ridicule bushido ideals samurai code mishima committed ritual seppuku november planned meshing beauty art action schrader edits scenes recreating day three different scenarios mishimas novels temple golden pavilion kyokos house runaway horses moment seppuku perfectly realized relation shocking climax via pulling back camera simultaneously zooming br br black white sequences intermingled colorful moments depicted mishimas novels black white scenes represent memories mishimas childhood youth schrader correlates autobiographical moments scenes novels often parallel mishimas real life stammer development bodybuilding obsession fostering samurai code three themes beauty art action exemplified chosen depictions respective novels color sequences reminiscent early stagy technicolor films giving film perhaps intended surreal quality considering subject matterbr br ken ogata plays real mishima unfailing determination headed generals office fateful day resembles real mishima schrader took tremendous risks film focusing novels tying thematically mishimas personal life literary ambitions editing film three main sections november black white growing segments colorful novel scenes clearly point deliberate intersection elements beauty art action mishimas life times difficult follow may little recommend uninitiated viewer stars great show total freshness innovation usual chair couch woman host mandatory band playing monotonous tunes old jokes pattern copied days nebuchadnezzer probably pattern johnny carson copied one latterman leno conan daly show seem thesebr br fell love show within first minutes going stick though early say show seems devoid intellectual pretension talk shows try hard project hope make show different rest hope show last longbr br returning back months still love show love selfdeprecating humor example affirmation pothead loners home watch show saturday midnight thus jokes funny stoned guys involve usual monkeying conan obrien example know cardinal sin repelled obriens antics really dislike style repetitiveness br br watched night tom arnold ferensens spoof trading spouses nanny earlier episode hilarious idiot paparazzi fun especially security guard cautions taking peoples pictures mistaken start taking pictures shouting gary colemanbr br added th april coming back left confused neighbor dog decide joke real thing either way funny hellbr br expect spike feresten read pages maybe crazier bunch monkeys better write suggestion full minute show crazy gideon star late night tv commercial crazy gideon interview spikes talk show sing song play guitar skit line snl answer questions audience regarding potential mayorship los angeles know crazy gideon may aware websites detailing perfect candidate post mayor labr br god willingbr br returning back th july someone wrote people praised spikes talkshow must bribed spike confess spike really bribed must confess rockefeller named last night sex cindy crowford online class obs fully configured green screen photoshopillustrator audition teacher chill long im racist ect care dont want herei dont want live anymore havent im everyone made seem things better sober anti depressants nothing helped alcohol ssri benzo marijuana dont want live great boyfriend mom couldnt live without couple friends still want purchase pistol end feel guilty still cause got dui even though didnt crash hurt someone feel cant redeem quit drinking successfully completed probation chance removed record next year dont want deserves watched step dad die house help mom clean shit blood honestly things awful loved much dad real dad colon cancer wont help even though hes bleeding everyday reminds everything month ill probably end drinks everyday doesnt gives fuck better isnt really anyone read needed place rant somewhere safe say want end dont want live want gone good whole bunch things happening days trying talk issue couple friends though one friends understands coming told bunch stuff friends think need work acknowledged wrong said feelings valid apologized even said going change put everything asked one friends change said needed think fine whatever told friend handle conversation needed think even went far talking feelings mattered learned someone really cared decided drop blue knew talking trying think way talk person without making upset want anything makes want around anymore heartbroken moneywhen die money bank go daughters want know go im sad want diei lonely think im depressed know lockdown im uk heading lockdown im incredibly terrified last lockdown last time tried kill cant support bubble live mum mum support cant even see boyfriend idea even try phone someone mum stops yet im shouts soon start mental breakdown last time got touch helpline made even suicidal saying completely wrong things told thought upset everyone one likes im trainsphobic trains scary af theyre big loud easily kill someone play withi lost friends request play xbox smurf iidocpeepeeii ampxb best job us year olds ive literally job interviews year rejected im im dire need job due one parents able job anymore anyone knows look job hires years olds please let know help im afraid girls decided make change tried yubo sheesh fine girl waved respnd dont know expect want alone law enforcement officer small town ive road injuries never severe though constantly know feel missing core something joy felt happiness feel emptyim sure anything spiritual level depression brain chemistry wack whatever elseim relationship someone feel constantly disinterested feel constantly alone drug problems recently pushed want grt back overdose something kicked house keep spending money oneof things feels nice hard bot try cry everydayi feel alone bo one despite knowing people want die run away woodsi write suicide letter day instead tried distract myselfi want die feel empty know make itive trying contact therapist waiting months waiting list feel closer suicide everydayive ben thinking calling suicide hotline idki know want help love care want die know stop wanting die missing core guess really redeeming qualities woman love im fucking sociopath nowi want kill rape people longer feel suicidal fucking hate human race cant connect anyone feel nothing rage fear apathy capacity love compassion felt fucking hate entire city calgary complete failure mental health system longer friends family allies go anymore hahaahahahahah fucking hate everything care go jail life prison least im still alive right sexual fantasies mind slept lot woman complained everything loved dearly kept saying sex said yes sleep beautiful woman thank said nice hot love sex positions finally said hey im going sex anymore said yes better hold cloth tightly said yes fell hard fabric hot think im donei really tried rather small incident today made realise im nothing low key con artist convincing people times im better smarter nicer worthy anything im though angsty teen stuff think ive known least years always cowardly face even deserve better deserve familys time money deserve anything thats given fundamentally wrong bad im arrogant talk people im selfish im brat even realise know theyre better without burden im scared hell though see way back thanks reddit blast made smile made feel less alone moan name now right now time explain moan name ill explain later horny strong someone please kill least help kill horny xreally thinking im probably moody went diet dont food want end though ive way long im still fat sad broke feel point im unlovable im losing money tomorrow phone companies dont see point trying anymore everythings reach ill delete tomorrow thats iti reached point return means please follow path took remember life absolutely worth living anyone walking home work car died drop interesting shit comments dm whatever im bored fuck chance help take iti remember physical taking doctors asked fill mental evaluation survey asked felt sort depression thoughts redflag rating kind thing fill mom kept saying hes happy hes fine filled paper positive scores surprised little say given suppose expected never showed flash forward realize much bad decision ive contemplating redflag lot often now cant open anyone heart sinks given moment im alone got one hold talk im exhausted unmotivated hollow feel wasting away gotten bed day food go back bed failing thing makes happythe thing keep mind killing playing competetive game ive bad streak wanted play one online play queued random people met trolls lost games purpose reminding solo queue losing rank makes quite frustrated season ends soon reach certain rank limited items ive tried gain back lost ranks still solo queue one play keep losing making depressed im wanting play make happy lose ill away goal play ill better game wise situation wise im mess please dm im bored rn ggujnbguujjyjvdeijblpiyggdtuvfdeiuyt ytttttihfdrhgdsrt know feel basically theres girl never feeling thought beautiful good friend days ago best friends house party kissed naughty boy girl things night thought end short nice fling next morning went home stop thinking still feel almost empty sad feeling want rewind time go back night never felt way im deeply attracted normal think im alive love sona bunch shit happened recently past year half actually one thing another something big happened october weeks ago something big happened last week worst first time life im depressed anxious bad things happening feel nothing nothing ive felt happier guess upbeat part think thats know wont make much longer know cant keep going energy want stop everything think didnt young child id already done hes thats getting im hard time believing hes benefitting anyway thats time sad think im failing whether im ive always struggled mental health part cared much future success family wouldnt gone killing self dont care anything really except love son hope even go eventually knows hard tried let tell story relationship till day im love life pretty disastrous long story short long ass chain rejections mostly due revolting time cut late im ict assistant school things looking brighter started focusing life girls less started joking friend mine teaching cannibal corpse girl right next recognized band might seem lot eyes practically heart shaped point started talking told shed fell long time ago bit later dated revealed pansexual dated honestly ive never happier compatible intimate kids kids even started sharing hobbies anyway turned exclusively lesbian months later knowing wasnt either hands accept absolutely wrecked dated makes difference things stiff us month half talking best buds shes great hard feelings still emotionally scarred breakup goddamn one time date shattered sense selfesteem turns lesbian despite wanting move feelings someone acknowledge im ready new thing wait moral story im really fucking revolting someone family saying personal reasons thinks mr bean always silly whatever comedy series imagine felt time shocked instantlybr br reasons one love watching mr bean one earliest shows local television country first grew watching one things stuck head even friends talked selected episodes laughed togetherbr br always silly funny hilarious whatever antics rowan atkinson mr bean episode though lately times may show repeats never failed bring back childhood memories mine fact dare say first show introduces kind shows come uk growing upbr br comedy seriesdefinitely really wicked brits may saying feel goodi kind figured future id end killing oddest foreign feeling instead really feeling sad depressed exclusively feel sense philosophical rationality comes wanting kill suffer entire life instead suffering lot little never suffering entire life revolved around failure many times life genuinely good coping mechanism emanating sense fake happiness joy morbid jokes im sure someone shoes probably see bright future ahead either im depressed suffering mental illness final year high school likely getting colleges universities want entire experience school fucking horrible matter hard try always fucking fail school worst fucking thing happened want go near another institution literally even know want life even want anything life fucking garbage want anymore hope sound anything menial fear life fear want end midlate s jobless fucking horrible broke worthless actually helpless literally one even parents around help figured killed sooner bad compounded depression turning even deeper utter sense failure guilt regret comes living ive relatively high achiever life feeling low really fucking hurts makes question value existence literally connect anyone talk anyone want talk anyone pseudo bullshit hotlines web services fucking horrible making lose faith humanity makes hate existence even ive depressed several years gone acid summer kind changed life better reality life hitting shitty forseeable future showing born life actually shit abused young kid til now immense levels neglect throughout entire areas life want contribute something great things past weeks realized thinking thing delusion everyone around telling im delusional thinking make anywhere realized right im sure believe either shoes really potential im stupid fucking dreamer wan na help impact guess deserve much im always known things really extreme insane fashion want go bang make chances living really low want quick never temporary looming long time young ive tried several support groups counsellors lot stuff im done unfortunately im really good lying nooses proper rope long drop system place potassium cyanide pills gauge shotgun im looking help guidance cant really neglect longer really thought fade away im curious humans feel killing dogs animals mean humans much better quality life compared dogs humans resources yet still decide cost alive exceeds benefit value extracted enhanced quality life wan na grow come want im confused wan na im older thats im posting appreciate reply im friends point eat alone every day school want cliche answersps used sort depressed sometimes still bouts depression time comes reason originally watched simple rules disney channel uk first series got completely hooked show annoyed abc satred showing nd series think another series start read john ritter died nd series amazing latest series back old excellent standard hope go produce shows soon even though watch show thousand times kaley couco favourite character airhead bridget performs amazing charmed rory good shares name grampa wellill keep watching ends hope carries funny im indifferent towards livingi think im going kill somebody got really sick something really even care thatd pretty great actually second nature shut room away everybody lose escapism everything much work much work study much work work much work go outside talk people etc see point either ive lived fantasy world head whole life im starting realize know live real world friends seems everyone prefer around really feel connection anyone theres wall everyone world goals aspirations theyre stupid infantile shit probably crash burn pursue anyway really want live anymore know problems selfinflicted constructed whatever theyre fucking minute compared basically every depressed person planet want anymore cant much energy ive always taken easy way everything death whole lot easier alive wish bravery kill dont need someone something want alive anymore hate hate alive despise using guni got abused many people socially isolated years already wrote lot subreddit met nice people nice people abusing guess yesterday asked friend borrow hunting rifle ill receive rifle hours whats best way use pulling trigger rifle throat put bullet straigt brain feel antidepressants working im lazyi take medication prescribed feel anything doctor tells something along lines stuff depressed medication alone make feel better improved life without medication probably need improve life without medication im lazy never anything medication put work feel better im lazy end day fault im depressed none medication ive tried worked fault marketable skills real job fault go seek skills worst part fault killed yet means know certainly left alone long enough pull still reason im damn lazy cant even take easy way helpwhen born put nicu think thats called couple weeks released sent house around three months father supposedly shook thats mother told growing hard anything one kids didnt friends wasnt junior high mother told happened younger father rushed emergency room shunt placed inside many surgeries graduated college stay house feelings come back ive always thoughts head saying things drove truck bridge something similar sister kid father tries gentle know im supposed hate always start thinking couldnt treated way feelings im wanted person look something made promise buy right gun try make pain go away need help boys stop boner hide usually wear joggers almost always noticeable think im sure rid reasonable amount time least hide long enough calm going kill tonightno one cares problems im alone theres nothing anyone im donei really need cant tell anyone try stop many mistakes much shut cant anymore trying hard hang girls reached fail fail everything nothing hope im tired tired waiting trying failing gon na change meant happiness good meant anything im tired sucking got dealt ive done ive done cant woke failed attempt someone gone something similar want maybe talk itim started high school grades tanked really hard due mental illness ive found gpa isnt great ive failed classes im going junior year everyone around amazing school wasnt always bad school cant honor kid mindset grown grade couldnt see making graduation even finding makes feel even worse im wondering failed bunch classes bad gpa ended alright end im expecting ivy league school anything im trying make seem im deservingcan achieve average life happy im turned alright story share think itd really help youve made far thanks reading kind hefty haha posting til people stop feeling suicidal new day new chances life think bad day change smile hug motherfatherbrothersister internet see tomorrow teenagers gt want embrace nothingnessjust let go already cant let go cant let go stay tortured every second existence cant let go let embrace nothingness lust feel im going insane expense im fucking splitting twain cant even think without second thoughts thinking want stop dissappear let die peace help little bit annoyed sometimes theses kids couple years older call btec casey pass reason know meant always shouted fuck casey even name pissing anyway got curious typed btec urban dictionary kind pissed realised meant next time hear say think might slap know casey hell thought funny say least years older year almost everyone year older calls btec casey annoys want people call real name many people secondary school knew even existed nice least people know existence call name tldr couple bitches call btec casey found meant got pissed everyone calls btec casey btw name actually kiera sound anything casey sorry writing wanted write somebody working past month always hard continuously exercise im ive kept month im proud think kept going time finally got point tired staring stomach sticking constantly sticking im largest person ish pounds pre quarantine annoying anyways started working even though stomach still basically size little smaller im happy somehow gained pounds im starting even though ive dieting eating less exercising idk whats happening thanks listening wanted share warmly sentimental tale author waltons someone pitch material probably reject maudlin dramatization manages tear without expected embarrassment one s better lovable hayseeds arthur hunnicutt appeal put consummate use mountain man doggedly faithful loyal hunting hound fates tied together inseparably human bond good see subtle environmental message critters go heaven condemn poor devil merely follows instinct order stay alive deceit kingdom animals yet cruelly often treat oddly satisfying episode confirms important message question weebs futas gay alts dont enough karma using main mean alts tons karma even main got suspended need change password used fake email cant recover anyways know one bindhide ones chest prevent growth maybe tran males know feel strong enoughafter years medication trying focus making better person thought finally course bad days depression slip make want horrible things finally thought control today friends attempted graphic design field university today day found results graphic design years father designer runs department ive learned everything ive drawing whole life passion father best friend best critic usually harshest critic years sometimes feel one truly honest something look right afraid tell friends looking stuff great wrong sometimes feel bad say anything negative pieces teacher great job reviewing seemed afraid hurting feelings took portfolio father spending weeks compiling works organizing way thought perfect dad went found many mistakes entire spring break spent fixing believed proud hard work loved drawings graphic works put even paid printed completely unexpected today went friends go pick portfolios week turned ive felt extremely sick week nervous competitive program one takes lots work stay friend gather outside teachers office behind everyone want rude watch facial expression hands student portfolio grin face states name usually something notice expression changed got even say name handed goddamn folder think knew afraid look friends pulling congratulation letters mine horrible thank applying letter work meet professional standards portfolio show attention detail hate words actually proud something done something thought best work produced yet good enough friends wanted look portfolio course wanted look theres keep tears back forever told go im ashamed say let emotions better threw away portfolio way door got back apartment locked office life still cant control anything anymore life seems pulsating keep going anger happiness sadness nothing sometimes single minute even tell father phone text course called right away tried make feel better hear disappointment voice failed failed everyone boss recently gave logo wanted design now im even right person feel lost someone close partners face filled tears got news know im everyones disappointment morning cant sleep feel sick life put halt graphic design life taken away purpose idea go ill change major drop college know taking everything power slit wrists burn remember physical pain distracts horrible mental abuse want gone hate myselfsleep bring nightmares life bring dissapointments death bring bring happiness true happiness bullshit happy pill happiness kind joy read know sorry friends post know right now situation proven difficult bare im sorry im sunrises well thank love goodbye aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh saw really cute guy train im prob never gon na see ill surely never talk aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa piece rope becoming seductivei fucking hate household live always felt alienated life dad biggest narcissist douche displeasure meeting hes norwegian mom korean gave job move norway raise sister thing life keeps killing bear think react found corpse dad fucking ungrateful prick calls korean animal done anything life hobbies lot needs provided mother even though uses little money savings dad hand always complained money never financially assist interests hes estranged two children exwife uncle aunt siblings cant stand thats never see families anymore hell family consisting mother sister father fucking toxic want away cant cant away grades poor made worst decision life two years ago picking ib programme two years mental torture forced university level schoolwork naive enough think suit several mental breakdowns lead handing assignment plagiarized suspended days even contact teacher student meeting got comments teachers performance one teacher anything positive say told lazy essentially never amount anything still many deadlines point even think graduate highschool days ago bought thick piece rope hold hands feel glowing almost trying talk cant stand anymore feel trapped hopeless reached breaking point wake everyday stressed whats next beginning lifes journey intentions experiencing rest thing look forward exit world finally peace someone said use wc said fun im embarrassed fun lmao fr want alter ego cool name feel created alter ego cool name feel invincible people omg wow im sttarstruck dont wan na sit think names bc greatness comes naturally forced u dig need yalls advice apology hey rteenagers need advice apology already sent girl hurt past guys mind take look thoughts appreciated apology listen dont really know got point across march apologized last done really hard thinking past several months believe summer one hardest portions constantly thinking past wrong except times friends side nothing mattered days got back home thought everything venting ashton tonight actually scared thinking gon na entirely intention swear wouldnt gone stemmed back one problem havent able past multiple years now frankly starting affect much dont know feel quarantine changed everything im politically motivated somewhat fit kinda ironic ngl considering state affairs last spoke starting delve theology starting better thought maybe maybe repair seventh grade pride spiteful attitude time respectively trying hurt spite anger lack pride regained guess point telling life specifics happened ashton past hours feel screwed everyones including lives process whatever happened seventh grade wish part group made peace ryan admittedly big step considering pure hatred past unsubstantiated wish us least speaking terms miss friendship mean cried first time long time tonight long night recalling terrible things selfish arrogant ass past truly brings name shame names siblings came majority honour actions years ago truly sorry truly horrid things put seventh grade hope youll forgive maybe friends least speaking terms im sorry super lengthy everything chest yknow ive carrying burden years decided time release youre really good person heart seems much changed last spoke friendly terms still good artist sorry things arrogance pride got better hope maybe speaking terms friends group kinda misses know miss friendship formally apologize several years ago realized need study fuck ima stay bed filler filler filler filler im extremely conservative man means waste much energy please entertain pretend pay attention chemistry class understand shit im compeletely ignored buddy discord call want kill myselfwhats quickest way kill find less attractive girls actually attractive flat chest dont care ass dont care glasses dont care braces dont care chubby dont care way mean guess good im genuinely curious heard something spanish class watching video reflexive verbs spanish class guy said man one action car one receiving action made think guy sex car though guy trying hypnotise dog weird video fucked upidk start im going start writing hope make sense im depressed anxious guess cause im anxious im beyond fucking shy job really fucking great awesome especially first job super high pay super cool managers place beautiful jw marriott las vegas resort spa im foodrunner pool last week fucked fuck talk weeks ago weeks ago crying begging parents take hospital cause afraid safety im really suicidal parents really awesome btw think bad really supportive really know help think really believe mental problems week crying home jist causing stress fkng everything general week ago fuck pool full people super busy im okay high workloads overwhelming tho asked help servers told organize started one server makes job hell tried taking deep breaths calm panic attack told taking break said ran away let pisses hallway crying breathing really hard security saw sent hr sent home gave another chance giving choice quit understand super awesome im greatful awesome management told parents said ur keeping job discussion showing face work really embarrassing hard servers hate even bartenders joke feel really hated jobs make friends feel lonely ill try fight dick move feel dick deserve feel dick making jobs alot harder day really cant handle job tho come home crying feeling shit everyday almost jobs easy think job right dont think take much longer last night really close redflag british people pronounce water properly wo uh wo uh im gewing two drink eh gloss wo uh patheticcame one life understands cares cant even reply either guess really nothing either way going pain need quickly thanks anyway im done now remembering pe sub said liked fallout shirt literally talked fallout entire period rainy day sat gym talking cool memory cool dude remember felt anxious one medicine none ones ive put take edge cant even play xbox live without holding breath anxious people hear breathe mute mic give lungs reprieve go back holding thanks reading little rant actually feel alright thats enoughwell past year going quite well outside ive started leaving house pretty much daily social interaction struggling ofc seeing therapist organising general stabilization people telling good way etc etc butam im years old problems coming week reflection thing people suure im going functioning member society years old know even find something hour time without literally thinking dying worst part im hoping bad hole actually try know fuck dude back dark times around years ago felt shit im going honest awful still bad today even dont want run infront train time fucking scarred stubidly time uuh duuh ill neever forget shitty life got something feel bad everytime look arm im kind getting mad right im weak collected paranoid say alert anyone want dont know need rant ill write comes head alright dont goal hear people say memaybe rehab good beacuse im yeah hell yeah doctor knows hes talking lets ofc wanted dont want anything sit home nothing oh woops thats enjoyable guessed maybe want expect find fulfilling break seek help repeat looking spend money find something feeling bad spending low amount atleast im living home still soon isnt case anymore want travel guess stupid reasons yeee guessed cant let anyone think im trying hurt eh might permanent repercussions wouldnt say im risk right now first attempt showed done without feeling attatched lying grass night waiting whats next stupid thought now want hahaha felt king world called friend told taking meds back theni trying hurt person feel sick right still fuck call someone basically telling im going pass hour try waste already low battery life couldnt call help suprise called police followed worst cant remeber days life spazzing chained bed hospital crying screaming able control movement even moment couldnt tell docs didnt regret one bit try time comes feel dont fit feels im wrong universe whew write much thats now peace stay strong ill maybe another mins bed feel safe anymoreive depression almost ten years lately ive wanted die ive thinking day thinking really heavily considering ive locked room day overdose thought relief dying overcome every thought never consuming seemed close dream weirdestcoolest fucking dream serial killer tokyo yokohama s called nagatsuke dream meant beast irl mean anything lmfao struggling sure cope anymore make wife happy job hate quit afford mum dying side planet able see years know think might need little help ive given life yet im still alivei constantly think killing ive done endless amounts research trying figure methods least likely fail ive planned redflag setting dates writing notes yet ive never gone maybe im lazy maybe im unmotivated mostly think afraid failure really know im going anyway feel im constantly waiting waiting magically better waiting perfect opportunity kill im stuck inbetween place im able better time im able end suffering mentally completely given living even attempt live life anymore physically im still know im certainly want idea whats going think deadthe night last posted weird guy grape cocktail drugs night drank half got tired feared throwing went sleep thought maybe enough woke liver felt uncomfortable live another day promised ex girlfriend last night watched lebron defeated ex said talk later message yesterday forgetting new gmail password signed cutting contact woke approximately pm even sure alive dead one home someone always home parents got never happens biggest fear know tried kill blacked threw someone cleaned seen another human today know real maybe kicked yet edit one knows think watched tv brother kinda nice mention anything thought last real words everyone loses response happened championship game last night obviously woke watched couple episodes unbreakable kimmy schmidt even wrote computer giving everything brother except xbox asked gifted good friend st birthday next month told cousin great dad baby boy love dearly wish give important things think well taken care already fucking hate fucking hate im born end golden days everything beginning bad years dont anything gives nostalgia happy good memories bad sad memories lowest point mewell im ive fucked life much cant high school ive always joked around grades okay best one semester college community college high school yet got gpa semester im thinking enlisting im fat ive trying lose weight im nonathletic even dad calls year old year olds body hurts much want end life whats point fuck wish dog pass away one let feelings feel judge feel tomorrow going dayi think im finally going jump tomorrow ive thinking long thoroughly may seem strange im sad im dead insidei hate people ive tried think rationally whole situation possible probably best talk people different perspective make important irreversible decision edit wrote thoughts early day feel need talk anymore feel peace edit talked somebody wants help really rude kill now maybe done isolated maybe really want die know im jackass one cute kitten video one rickroll probably gon na removed idk subreddit post maybe herehttpsblogstartwithwhycomaadfffebbfadwi ampxb first time trying rickroll someone today years mom died month dad died covid redflag ideation euphoriai feel alone know people love friends family parents really hurts know wont act thoughts dog really hurt family kill thought dying feels liberating euphoric dealt depression life learned tolerate sadness loneliness tiredness comes right feel fucked emotionally fees void endless pain loneliness sadness end sight even ends awaits stay alive baseline depressed self feels whats point living suffering numbness short venti cant high functioning tired cant cant trying things going well life see getting better one thing makes feel better moment thinking ending trying fight better hurt many people try know long left told anyone gotten worse want go back ward want really wanted finally end itim closeted boy living isolated country hell earth society pretends exist father beats repeatedly bullied school pretty much every environment feeling never finally got rope yesterday felt much better silence noise around come find tied good enough felt really bad afterwards cried sleep continue broken memoriesive always broken often wonder mother aborted always stated almost learned sometimes makes wonder let neighbors rape purpose horrible things happened child years ago real memories dark thoughts invade head lights see open closet door remember later school pe teacher watched change asked shower others run laps time office remember happened twice told touched friend carlos kill sleep thank god never found never knew carlos anyone willing commit murder matter remember best friend asking getting mad told remember doctor said miscarried remember able accept creating persona unborn child keep losing remember many times ive told family want die remember telling suck remember mom telling stop threatening remember wanted say ok remember moment realized different remember learning word changed way parents looked remember day realized man womans body remember feeling love anyone including remember feels happy remember feels someone cares want remember anything anymore want memories want finally put knife wrist watch life fade away nothing always please help mei want die cant live anymore roommate best friend want deal rent cant afford go go back work two days cant work means money insurance antidepressants adhd meds without beyond fucked high maintenance world anyone know parents picture family stay friends aside roommate knows cant help afford counseling afraid death way escape now never endinglast night bugs crawling body werent husband assured werent hear rats wall sirens gave headache know none real time havent hallucinated bad times year become deeply suicidal life forever know theres guarantee kids better mother leave chances good risk worse occasionally psychotic self ive never hurt ive afraid going havent quarantine two small children helping illness love husband amazing know find amazing woman making sense dealing dead body takes paperwork lot time first respondersmedical personnel hands full cant add moot point anyway cant kill cant risk hurting kids know husband loves resilience incredible hate brought children worldnot shit going predisposition mental illness well take care trying hard love tired please tell keep goingim partial hospitalization program eating disorders right insurance havent able receive treatment last three days ive disassociative episodes flashbacks destructive urges lately argue family go psych ward go residential care come may fight go different residential recommended therapist im tired fighting im fighting hard stay alive family wants magically better without actually getting treatment anyones reading really appreciate words encouragement hope everyones staying safe sane sub chaotically boring middle night dude keeps posting porn true chad decipher brgr ft lets lst jud wnt n jr brgr brgr smwnz ft fgs bt z trnz mat bi wt ju gt frtnr pladd ft nnmsli sat ks z fit n plstk bn v lets wt nstetmnt s lets ju brgr dmtdli hi hd us n bt ivn wrs im gon na fucking kmsi one lifes worthless fuck reaching stupid talkings complete waste time never fucking helped see bunch stupid fucking strangers internet gon na help im better dead doubt anyone even affected care know fuck life fucking bullshit give flying fuck anymore soon write im gone bet someone gives shittoday friend bad day know struggle us heard bit started getting worried texted time passed got worried messages staying delivered finally called heard voice almost cried im crier meant much hear know know story bet theres someone worries cry relief hear voice cant promise ill reply comments kind message bottle hope makes least one person needs hope bad day really hope honestly final minutes worst experiences life yeah know anybody continue scrolling new anyone insults pay attention constantly person either person stop coming creative comeback likely succeeding ask kindly stop compliment either weirded change views either way theyre gon na keep distance time anyone needs talk englishgermanif anyone needs talk im private message skypeoovoo name speak english german fluently speak one languages im death gotten year realized bad school first kept telling us year last time chill barely let us much work year secondly someone got grades pretty much got put core easier maths got put extended harder maths cant switch core even though got bad score first test parents teacher cant switch finally around assignments first week back things cant done im running hours sleep cat hat official fan club cupcake inator im excited audience chuckling cupcakeawhat cat audience kupkakeinator oh amazing device instantly make cupcakes anything kitchen wait minute sayanything anything anything yes anything anything anything anything ill itll look bloody accident wife disabled yet approved disability past months oldest son helping us pay bills talking moving redflag roof house renovation limbo last year friend helping us stop due family issues got bathroom still bare drywall year son kept promising help chipped away couple times way behind property taxes fully expect house seized sometime next yeari think son comprehends much rely right now fair put shit blame wanting bought dream car corvette really getting taste freedom gone tell thisbut moves know fact wife three brothers homeless year especially disability approvedeven work home jobs proven impossible keep longi know already hate providing family now going prove downfall goodi life insurance policy got two years pay case suicide hoping stick around long family set blame feeling abandoned wish people didnt care kill myselfmy whole life bunch dead ends way sucks living everyday knowing life cant go anywhere make happy itd nice die genuinely good friends parents care never bring thats become really frustrating want carry onfeel spoiled child title ill attempt brief failing uni im sure care degree music anyway close friend usually helps things response mean world late respond start freaking much trust etc valid reasons story way long telling point weve patched things drama past ive lost turned nothing im posting instead id really rather make mistake basically im dead weight hope future ive dragged hurt others im really questioning point continuing say right tried give now obviously dont live keep everyone happy hear see now redflag never answer goodbye im going better placei dont understand bad people shared unpopular opinion fat shaming illegal people said run fatty run nothing live abusive dad bullies filled real life internet ampxb im going better place called heaven stop hiya leave message reply wake day took break days personal reasons im back happy good night im tired failingafter surviving last attempt felt anger im usually passive quiet person incredibly frustrated im failure even kill ive lost count attempt last one probably th th draining fail fail life even fail death fail never back life always worse im tired know cant give stop trying kill belong world dead free constant pain hopefully next attempt fatal keep trying anymore tess storm country mary pickford vehicle intended time finally found vhs copy reasonable price got enjoy itbr br mary gives typical spunky innocently sexy portrayal wrongsideoftracks girl wins heart rich heir time stakes higher false murder charge illegitimate child ensuing case mistaken motherhood contemplated suicidebr br one see pickford wanted redo one story real morality tale kind loved star controversial topics always spelled plainly viewer pay attention pick hints catch everything implied first viewing although everything less explained endbr br negative remark make concerning jean hersholt dog hersholt whose character ben letts looks pounds bigger next mary course sent fleeing panic pound chocolate lab charges toward top maybe justify perplexing fear dog manages pin ground somehow injures badly still struggling much later bad storm hits lovable lab sleeps frederick lloyd hughes cuddles mary yet mary later throws boiling water bens face barely slows ok ive vented ben chocolate lab movie quite touching certainly held attention pickfords supporting cast strong believable certainly among better films tf problem opposite gender afraid opposite sex sexual orientation im lesbian speak normally girls bitch arent monsters uknownsubject thing hard opposite gender friends yall question swear friendlyeggs lyric collection tally hall edition hear flibbity jibbity jibber jabber oh god ive got ta ill another word sell another story tell another timepiece ringing bell hear clock stop reach end know must neverending comprehend try pretend understand resemble fool although man give smile tally hall ruler everything life short things happen make best smile dumped commit redflag help preventmy girlfriend year broke last night attempted redflag life years ago shes always dealt anxiety depression went therapist small bit wouldnt detail extreme feelings saw hospitalization money time burden parents told morning shes going hang tonight ive trying talk positive options influences feel powerless know isnt place whether kills help better life anyway ultimately preferred help please share advice anxiety skyrocketing disappeari post awhile reached help today told thingsession cant continue thisnothing say knowim male recently broke girl years dunno feel think want right im coming drug called cb friends spent night early morning ireland felt horse shit thats cant recall one good meaningful thing ive done society world take take take want think improve image people thats number one priority life thats fucked person feel totally normal comfortable relationship mother everything akward cant forge decent pure relationship anyone co workers cashier milkman people call best friends feel theres something demeanour style everybody mutually understands prevents making relationship progress anyone maybe im socially retarded hate feel alone know shouldnt even right complain hey look perfect first world life perfect sometimes hate feel utter darkness next day find simple things life beautiful ive cried many times simply became overcome beauty intricacies life theres new girl met club walked home drunk together club cab money friends dissapeared met majority thinking time goes shes unbelievably cute fell love still definetely difference loving someone love someone met times afterwards toys think ive heard people say gets around makes stomach turn slowly texting relationship deteriorated everything still hasnt replied last message probably wont dunno might seem attractive non drunk person sun shines eyes view wish didnt wish wasnt helplessly pathetically love truth ill never ill always watch distance time life flippantly happy makes wan na cry cry cry dont think anyone really considers anything important kinda year old whos tagging along grown ups talk soul destroying want know fuck wrong different think someone put challenges front hand shoulder urging think maybe im worthless odd ball chemical biological reactions im biological freak able fit whatever biological difference body brain fills scariest fear maybe alone biological evolutionary world meant fit lust image approval gone far think kill least il talking point small bit time il interesting bit im tired seeing people glance awkwardly im sorry trainwreck text much subreddit gotten far really really thank even making part life last minutes im looking sympathy gon na make empty threats know wont kill now dont balls im coward feel going slide seems much realistic possibility six months ago wan na talk thats people dont put fake style fake illusion life perfect normal theres problems drained keep taking lnf episode quite bit ruth gordon good little hammy always stated music good moodiness exist episodesbr br one major plot hole exists wide drive fleet trucks established light work vault think intelligent columbo rest police thought check light bulb worked think pretty short order unscrewed bulb found note granted tv whodunit fiction various holes always found seems much glaringbr br really make columbo hidden genius light work death bed testimony goes unfound apparently days alone mutei even know come feel talking feel shouting feel letting go wrecking everything path feel tense frustrated cant anything good bad feel stuck head replaying old regrets inadequate memories want kill maniacal fervor yet know control sense im slowly losing grip reality quiet boil crumble beneath blank dead stare want everything everyone shut world meant im idealistic naive arrogant demanding others able function im slowly turning mass seething hate targeted humanity let spat ridiculed sake good now kept unto others emotional insight starting wane feel nothing die alone die without feeling love die without someone knowing true thoughts feelings die knowing meant good guy fate took away kill pity disdain dissapointment echo void die selfironyzing selfhatred last thought please go see shivering thought spending yet another useless day dare tell live know much selfhatred know nobody feel im ultimately going die handsmy whole life story necessary im going post make feel better used live michigan many hobbies much computer day ive always smart saying feel everyone whos dumb says thing seems true taking consideration results tests ive taken past end high school never really felt depressed never happy smile never depressed graduated hated life boring dull legitimate purpose friends real life really desire better better need live happy internet food electricity shelter see point living decided going kill reason move wherever damn well felt left free housing food left free college education say dumb one people saw differently understand point view truly going kill better leave live stay dieeven staying dying substantially better idea moved really far away state unnamed confidentiality moved meet best friends internet real life lived girlfriend actually enjoyed life ffw year tried hard find job money ran valentines day know cant kill destroy girlfriend cant leave cant find job cant work job finding system advantage hell cant even weed smoke ee make matters worse ive lived year parents house barely contributed ive paid mo rent feel useless person girlfriends brother pretty much told much today trying make girlfriend feel better argument mom fucking valentines day basically im trying find job still im going try move back michigan march attempt finish college girlfriend may lost scholarships probably wont find job ill probably well possibly lose housing soon think life good one ultimately turns ill homeless guess ill kill legitimate reason come suffering ultimately worse death regardless temporary suffering think worst part initially going kill large amount privilege reason live im going kill reasons live girlfriendi love much privilege least possibility good life really reason post guess people saying dont kill help kill years now think wanted chest feel terrible today honestly almost decided take gram mxe gamble life away decided still probably closer redflag today tetetethrsrhthtfhtfht rick roll mom put rick roll link christmas box im gon na act made video youtube typed link phone birthday huge im covid im pretty happy year decisioni made decision awhile ago feel fight kill thats way im dying made mind got fight mom earlier amp almost told cant bc know shell hurt amp want help decision final im still trying live normal happy life know one day ill give amp comforting know way moment suicidal long distance partnermy boyfriend lives north england live south hes brilliant person genuinely love great sense humour outward confidence hes great studies landed part time jobs im really proud ampxb unfortunately raped systematically abused child hes killed someone know accept love attempted redflag nowadays uses alcohol cigs cocaine mdma weed whatever hands cope still lapses dark weeks says feels ready kill hes written letter recently hes started cutting though know badly every time goes dark time feel closer closer losing suicidal reasons goes im going give knows ampxb ive got direct emergency number towns services hes promised call say goodbye anything im worried eating know talk talk things know anyone help really grateful ampxb guys im scared precious cat getting weak fear may dying dont want die shes long ass time hell back jesus christ long typhical house cat live got thigh highs bunny ears halloween tho maybe death fastest way outthrowaway obvious reasons ive raised abusive parents make feel shit berating small thing ive done wrong bringing past mistakes fucking scrapbook feels horrible unhealthy lifestyle willingly leave small chance standing ominously around vultures ive subject verbal abuse years physical abuse first yo feel anymore compassion parents great academically ive picking pace starting work towards better future nothing seems change perception view waste space money money spending better stuff son want last ive contemplating redflag years now understand live anymore always thought good child small things one took note grateful cant live household parents might end point youll never amount anything fucking life cant even keep shit together understand hes aiming lazy fuck playing games never studying slacking even waste money going school want help people ive always wanted doctor want become fucking doctor yeah right quit school go work useful slightest huh funny im studying become doctor occupation saves lives yet cant save funny irony works world tonight night ive cracked decided act upon wishes middle school written long facebook post going end people truly came support middle school classmates ive better family school hoe life set ultimatum end year nothing changes im going take fathers firearm shoot head better live drowned alive course ive thinking long hard whether go seems dead husk might well saving grace eye parents seems ill either become stronger leave world forever friends maybe go way help someone im afraid damage cause leaving suddenly brother person love envy never gone ive gone berated abused baby family take blunt blows punching bag even punching bags break really know im post maybe bit solace empathy people going experiences edge much closer blissful kiss death guess im looking reason live defy odds win war attrition want pity want reason smile laugh ruins wall parents ravaged im sorry wordiness seems much empathetic real writing image words hey thanks reading reddit pretty cool place ive come many times back find solace real pain leaps every step goodbye may last chapter come across ampxb honestly tell movie awesome movie mood comedy totally recommend movie heres summary girlnikki fourteen half goes vacation fatherandre seen two years expects vacation totally boring meets boyben much older try impress says vacation father lover hysterical movie beginning end highly suggest rent enjoy remember covid first started went outside felt supposed nuclear fallout shit lmao everything completely normal nobody cares anymore im killing sooni want rant know nobody cares entirety sub pity party im damn tired guess want someone know take seriosly friends take say joke family maybe want leave note someone knows existed maybe damn autumn afternoons nice wish enjoy wonder books end pet treated well now think regret recently buying clothes money handy funeral least hope ill one improbable always loved quiet places redflag alley hometown cemetery never visited human steps maybe someone decides end someone dig new hole ground peace wonder stories ghosts real haunting professor fun id learn things even afterlife travel never life least hope tired age wish someone watch sunset someone tell goodbye today good dayim two half weeks second try antidepressants diagnosed depression one year ago given unexpected day wasting today depression winning much prefer busy pretending feel cant find motivation something spending inordinate amount time thinking others say end itevery day drown silence stick shitty youtube documentaries unsolved mysteries coldcase murders spend lot time talking families friends dead everywhere go everything lined undercurrent thinking last time one sees look internet usage try justify death talk troubled young woman struggled lot mental health im feeling tired pervasive gnawing suicidal ideation kind eats slowly youre never sure breaking point someone dedicate entire life saving someone take sadness empathy suicidal us happy people continuing live lives normal check every day enough many pep talks someone give say suicidal start lying say fine one fixing one guess feels one cares care anymore scary unpopular opinion suicidal mind even want says one cares oh thicc thighs use pillow im totally alone wanted die monthsmy partner years left month ago stupidly agreed move new place got evicted old place today moving day want die want go left psychotic episodes got worse worse emotionally abusive ex ptsd got physical forced way room police got involved cant stop thinking violence want fix things know thats impossible blames throwing away relationship dealing mental illness ive diagnosed bpdschizophrenia anxiety depression bipolar ex thinks im narcissistim sick ill im tired mental health ruining everything brain fucked ive already tried kill times wish guts actually much better dead want live anymore want move keep going back thinking maybe theyll love never hate still loving someone vocal disgusting find see point anymore feeling girl playing hard know see point anymorei laugh smile enjoy things one really notices cares anything anyone whats point college drain see way outsecond college class failed stay school another semester gpa plummeted dreams going graduate school diminished used love studying started going downhill years college started feeling good enough seeking help trying depression graduating crawling toward finish line feel accomplished nothing value win shitty academic record know thing keeps grounded boyfriend everything tries hold cant see decent future future enjoy giving applying jobs live fact fucked entire life think move think gets better help rightwhen kill right im waste already stretched thin medical resources help girls meow yeah odd yesterdayyea nearly enough kill go hospital im back home awkward family took away sharps missed stashed ones took away pens cant even write feelings cope phone first responders told parents sh arm mention thighs thats kinda awkward think bearly cut theyd ashamed saw thighs lol think im ment cope without drawing writing walking privacy cant left alone although almost try came back guess rant one angry upset know im ungrateful something stupif parents wedding anniversary yet complained ruined day deserve love support im failure want torture constant pain go know everyones gon na sad go hard cant take much left hospital stood edge bridge really wanted jump step mum trying appointment help phone idk deserve im weak cant cope yea ungrateful pathetic human wishes alittle stronger follow th gradeback asked read novel based part english class studies remember touched excited tv version came year laterbr br kristy mcnichol popular tv actress film produced already playing daughter dysfunctional family hit tv series family clear range ability pull part recall bit stiff times good job carries movie wellbr br esther rolle fantastic domestic appears one household seems truly care barbara barrie somewhat frightened slightly neurotic mother good young robin lively eventually appear black widow lana milford twin peaksas sweet younger sister seems focus parents affection bruce davidson appropriately appealing german soldier titlebr br best performance belongs michael constantine truly powerful merited recognition got time bitterness coldness expresses makes scenes appears difficult watch makes much easier understand quiet desperation rejected daughter constantine gives everything right intensity seems good understanding underlying psychological motivationsbr br film differs book small ways wonderful inspiring watch hope gets released video dvdbr br feel ill never amount anything reason alreadyi withdraw cosmetology school cant afford gas dropped college year ago bc depression cant find job support im debt cant find anyone worth sharing time friends graduated bachelors degrees still school despite mental illness stable jobs loving families moved away toxic abusive parents ive done nothing fail hate life everything nothing good come im miserable want end already failed attempt afterwards words helped mei failed days ago thats okay parts didnt fail reached theses words help stabilize bit hope read helps well absence leave void similar mine always remain youre absence throw entire life course duty bury parents way around bury child devastated words actions mend wound done least live others hopefully one day live dont want us find mom telling us youre longer us ill punching air theres one blame itll make wonder done last time together two days ago end longer willing move towards future reached im strong enough alone took step attempt better im quitter im damn well going cut attempt life short im sure everyone facing let face homeless third timethey kidding said life s hard ive homeless different times separate occasions currently age struggle major drugs smoke lot weedwax find drinking often slip depression lot often figured id comment advice improve try situation recently lost job sick months ago took days one week sick cold want risk getting anyone sick especially peak covid emailed company different times letting know situation months later guess matter fired explain need explain companies policies used work unimportant whats happening now fact lost job due poor communication skills relaying im sick never job back im paying months later completely unexpected nowhere waking morning phone call hr representative terminated almost months employment part wishes going fire took days rather months later reason happened worst time left room renting month lease try find something better long story short find place time packed everything car headed homeless grateful least still job gone homeless job way behind way many bills third time happened exact way situation homeless times pretty irresponsible think think fuck often ive low fuck die fuck really family deceased divorced split apart family never talked never close ive mom relationship deteriorating s introverted keep im never one start conversations someone mind keeping one going someone engages one always aim kind others treat people id treated cant bring talk anyone anymore find hard things talk people time want feel looking another shitty job know ill hate sometime line feel making friends possibly lose future feel going school debt feel talking mom hear one sided views judgemental opinions feel catching month late car payment longer pay ive blowing rest savings food weed alcohol obviously need priorities straight care anymore think im well aware im failure life right need shit straight im trying find reasons care really see much point anything anymore explain personal things add context help support feel way personal post already way long thoughts hurting always throughout whole adult life feel prevalent im problem right now poor planning bad choices led things life led care im making excuses know buckle buttercup start looking another job fix car find repossess care anymore whats wrong used care lot dont anyone took time read really thank going way know long honestly really pathetic im scared im really scared bad thoughts time feel insecure feel talk someone theres one mother never understand never father im asking pity advice please help find reason care call coward guess thank started redflag note todayits pages long far feels academic paper decided make primary goal still courage end life yet ill prepared committing redflag well seen coming sooner made case parents want investigate redflag mom dad im sorry im going honest fat girls kinda cute fetish thing im talking range im guy likes drinking nyquil anyone agree redflag ideasi used think impossible pull successfully wanted stop existing didnt know commit redflag nowhere realized possible try stab longer longer day estimate close death even though dont know exactly carry scares one day figure carry plan across several days im gon na kill course promise guarantee cant know future self think feel please dont kill people say want hear give uphas anyone experienced youll talking someone wants hear anything soon start talking already look tired oh saying wan na hear helps lot thank betrayed fcked everyone trying love solely think one stays alive society narcissist form empathy others used weak good one suffers emotionless strong thrives feel want part sick disgusting society suicidal yr oldim best friend years yr old recently tried kill later admitted redflag watch detailing plan second attempt best friend incredible person wants help well read great communicator friend asked help knows hes great things want everything help theyve already persevered much hes family far im concerned best things support best resources parents suicidal kids best support son advice means know thank feel stuck imposter feel worthless unmotivated time nothing future everyone way better never good anything little energy days still days okay ways normal former take often feel run away stuff faking faking depression spanish required subject us least california nearly population speaks spanish new mexico nearly population speaks spanish ridiculous taught spanish english beginning school taught latin american spanish theres much difference kinda teaching us british english yeah fine american english useful even mostly ill give award comment made laugh fillerfillerfillermckdndmnamp eighth thus secondtolast short animatrix ones one quite takes two main types filmed entertainment inspirations matrix combines unbelievably well immensely faithful trilogy aspect tone animation gorgeous breathtaking anim style omnipresent noir plot fitting storytelling well music spoton sound general fantastic really helps solidify mood atmosphere along drawings designs voice acting impeccable one two people movies reprise roles annemoss appearing one best nine one personal favorites ten minutes long pacing perfect never slows terribly much overwhelming either ending appropriate shares nine halfminutes long making kids story welldone informative recommend warmly fan universe two genres made girlfriend broke cant see long term relationship manim heartbroken now ex girlfriend two years broke couldnt see man long term broke got back together times past month two wanted make work time last home life terrible genuinely thing made happy trouble connecting people instantly made connection two years ago dont know havent really eaten slept much happened monday chest hurts pulse super fast hard im heart palpitations likely benign still rough ive never felt awful want drop college courses failed test messed important assignments upset couldnt focus feel fucking awful im already struggling suicidal ideation think pushed edge cant stop thinking im worthless wasted great chance lifei m good life parents care want know pay therapy college siblings perfect care want best plenty friends care want hear say gf years cared broke good reason didnt love feel ill never find someone love grew wealthy family never worry anything im generally considered good looking athletic charismatic responsible smart kind yet hate constantly feel disappointment many chances making something life feel anyone better everyone family successful everything im constantly think nice never wake wouldnt able disappoint people life anymore know people care destroyed killed feel dont realize worthless lives better without right look future see shit im always going failure cant truly open anyone dont know ive gotten good hiding actually everyone think know knows fake projection made feel im strong people care getting harder dont know made post feel bitch dont know talk ive scrolled countless posts sub feel every one love hope figure together interesting title pheui day text post optional well really optional tho scared amp ashamed gon na end iti going bad time amp even worse things happened im tired feel gut ill one day end dont want live dont want die want exist im ashamed either decide live die im scared im useless many people even subreddit going much worse fucking end im hoping typing post give courage kill end pathetic mess want peace thats cant keep going cycle im scared amp know im brave life today dont want burden family anymore wish wasnt wish stop useless worthless make peoples life miserable yes ending way thank reading really appreciate read posts wonderful job needed say hope good peaceful lives depressionanxiety college studentim college freshman first diagnosed anxiety depression freshman year high school lot anxiety stemmed academics feared experiencing everything full intensity third quarter stem majorhopeful premed im falling apart ive frequent breakdowns past quarters im experiencing double intensity want od multiple times week thoughts consume day im falling behind classes despite exams least week mention midterms next week instead watching lectures cry sleep day wanting wake know life look forward anymore university students advice wan na dieim tired getting bad grades watch parents disappointed even tho best pass tests im sick useless human im sick im sick putting fake smile everywhere go finally im sick alone time friend keeps thinking redflag told gon na die whats difference now doshe told stop spamming came back tell fine spamming call anyone help want post talk someone thoughts afraid encouraging othersi suicidal long remember seeking help online knew ok trying limit self harm behaviors redflag thoughts etc read people self harm destructive thoughts brain thought normal look many people thats self harm suicidal thoughts got worse years ago longer able stop desperately need talk people words might make sense others might develop kind thinking people already vulnerable easier cant talk people irl person everyone rely stay strong im gon na say life hard feel suicidal life good problem inside every single aspect life failing cant even cry im sorry hold barney drilling head every day well guess must reasons first im convinced kids stupids kids know half years old son selects see whats nice disgusting see news think kids know reality maybeor maybe adults responsibility want kids teach film drug dealers news massacres middle east course kids must know real life kids lets give mercy want wan na kids trained weapons best way kill neighbor go ahead impose lethal weapon kill bill mangas anime tell santas depraved enters chimney directly violate want illusions son dont wrong im saying barney friends best fact show lot defects read comments agree maybe happiness made dreams illusions least want teach grow without fear cautious learns think believe everything serial killers hijackers theyre reasons worth grow least little happy dreams parents underestimate kids know want constantly threaten take son ill never see last night started journal less abuse feelings day day basis morning hide meds hour woke asked cussed told talk pm last night forced sons room trying escape slapped wrist door deal friend lost someonemy friend lost best friend redflag want think needs professional help resources give without making feel put im really worried cant right covid thanks im dying anyway diagnosed stage nsclc sexually assaulted days ago im coping badly want die want speed process already need write letters tell ones love goodbye things stopping know tell fault nothing done loved seems hollow kill playing amp streaming minecraft server httpsmtwitchtvilychaya im playing minecraft server quests come chat wrote redflag note todayim tired life kicking butt last two years really hard last week hard friends couple family members care gone feel die make boyfriends life easier id one less burden life ampxb problem im ive calling stupid redflag meaning idea im tired crying sleep night im able sleep crying wake im barely eating hours point im barely drinking water im giving ampxb know anything wrote even make sense know rambled ideationwhere people deal suicidal ideation go depression theres emergency hotlines havent helped know risks redflag intentions anything thoughts constantly head cant tell anyone worried dont want burden unnerving simply saying depressed sources either go youre trapped head fan author john le carre ive slowly working way books adaptations found adaptation le carres masterwork local library sat watch thinking know expect surprised discover expectations exceeded miniseries fine cross spy thriller human dramabr br peter egan gives great performance magnus pym perfect spy title carrying long tradition le carres strong main characters pym quite possibly best egan plays pym fact contains many shades author le carre man forced spend entire life lying betraying sometimes circumstance times survive consequence becoming perfect spy egan plays pym perfection man always run others egan alone makes six hours miniseries worth seeing performance alonebr br surronding egan fantastic supporting cast ray mcanally gives one finest performances pyms con man father rick le carre said based strongly authors father mcanally plays man comes pyms life one responsible pym becoming perfect spy fact mcanallys performance year british coup finest performance sadly short careerbr br rest supporting excellent well caroline john pyms mother alan howard spy mentor rdiger weigang young pyms friend turned controller jane booker pyms wife supporting cast fantastic special mention made three young actors played younger pym jonathan haley nicholas haley benedict taylor establish young man become man played well peter eganbr br production values miniseries strong well miniseries adaptations tinker tailor soldier spy smileys people proved stories told miniseries format locations excellent english locations scattered across eastern europe usa sets chris edwards cinematography elmer cossey adds extra layer realism world miniseries yet highlight miniseries really scriptbr br screenwrtier arthur hopcraft tackled job adapting six hundred page novel excellently novel largely least early parts autobiographical pyms early life echoed much john le carres life script miniseries exception traces development magnus pym young boy perfect spy never miniseries deviate purpose telling fine human drama context world espionage one wants proof spy thriller tense fascinating without one gun fight fist fight james bond style car chase proof miniseries six plus hours long never wastes moment better itbr br though might overlong short attention spans must see performances peter egan ray mcanally fine production values fine literary script perfect spy one finest miniseries expect see fascinating trip history cold war yet trip john le carre called secret path path spy man must lie betray survive much human drama spy thriller perfect spy missed honestly worst feeling world one person care love tell hate yeah know fucked everything change night told got bed went backyard found good strong long rope set darkness preparing departure comes finds taking escape goes back inside went look another escape route ended finding old ratchet straps set time horse trailer tied half assed noose pit around neck sat downas feel drifting darkness hear call worried tone thought maybe still care maybe keep living almost final goodbye times wish instead stood removed strap around neck sat crying ended finding saying come back inside nights ago still sleep bed say love call babe hug kiss nothing feel stranger home know keep going promised one thing happens hate say serious want life wish know late wife even want anymore dogs bark differently spanish wow wow go helpthis isnt first time posting probably wont last im really need good advice ive feeling particularly bad lately know need ask help posting best title suggests help society messed everyone access mental health care cant see actual therapist three reasons dont money health care wasnt problem couldnt completely honest certainly involuntarily forced least hour watch happened even worse lack money one many things contributing feeling want help dont want die pillsive counted pills grams fluoxetine grams topimirate plus small smattering paracetamol diazepam cant afford rent bills im self employed work coming im fucking failure really much easier dead idea achieve cause pain hassle even know want die im half absolutely desperate exist anymore im half scared knowing whats side etc know people dont read descriptions idiots imo listing promotes im looking part time jobs really really want buy anna mask description clearly state im free thursdays fridays thursday free time friday im driving school even stated dont take jobs day friday someone messaged asking go dont know brain dead something quit job live little brothers room stuff storage income pay itsee title job friends car way paying storage bill phone bill credit cards racked honestly feel brainwashed young age serve rich new version slaves field backs lot rich business owners actually descended slave owners society convinced rich yet never happens people hear making good living rich parents guess thought really good five finger filet thought turns im good enough close eyes hand covered blood day going stumbling upon hbo special late one night absolutely taken attractive british executive transvestite never laughed hard european history completely worthwhile point eddie izzard made laughed much woke mother sleeping end house people always say everyone matters everyone special yet hear people saying awful terrible people aremake mind redflag hotline answering nobodys answering gunalone suicidal even know im anymore im massive fuckup gun etc everything memy year bad im live alone getting covid struggling death friend much food left lost alot weight stomach burning got money welllife fair nobody help feel exhausted optionsi really feel cant go im fucking crying completely alone goodbye anyone feel biden elected video game companies triple price something immediately reduce double receiving massive backlash doubling real goal along yall know im talking video game company triple xp required free rewards triple cost something course immediate massive backlash generously reduce double people somehow ok even though doubling goal along still shitty af knew doubled straight backlash ensue able increase feels country tired nothing changing politics helping people politics alright want radical change gave us worst possible thing trump thats want politics gave us biden everyone fucking ecstatic won even though hes still fucking awful literally got sucked voting bullshit status quo got us trump first place people happy yall see theres new bird flu russia fuck man never gon na end end world ig people eminem favorite lyrics songs im genuinely curious mine put hands bitch im gon na shoot ima pull thus bullet put kill said im back mathers lp tried say ill take seven kids columbine put em line add ak revolver rap god games ima change call rage tear motherfuckin roof two dogs caged playin beginnin mood changed lose whats closest youve gottento actually honestly hate brother hate think parents put shit hes never shown love towards shown furious start list past years quarantine situation really aggravating first hes reason bust ass working new ps controller broke analog sticks circle triangle buttons dont work l doesnt work anymore secondly constantly remind whenever chores take showers brush teeth eat held responsible whenever misses one always singled whenever family arguements concerning blamed think cool someone throughout younger stages everything power ruin life cruel doesnt care whenever breaks something pits blame almost everyone family blames breaking computer brother plays shady flash games clicks links hate banned using computer never angrier sick hello redflag prevention pls help going harm myselfredflag prevention healthy reach help must fine go home now redflag prevention o die immediately discharge sister lying calling fat posting social media saw sister first time week yesterday stop saying thought fat point times hour said really think fat try lose weight meant someone maybe help lose weight fit gave sincere apology said think fat complaining night though good try help went tik tok told needs lose weight supposed thats said hey gim back lettuce kind list naughty nice list santa mofo finally gut courage write hereim anorexic ive anorexic almost decade got better lost many friends destructive souleating disease one day managed somehow start taking care started dating awesome girl really fell love head heels relapsed want vent even writing met lied hurts much confused eating disorder coming back hard fast handle asked reddit back reason even started end chose cowards way tell left told feelings anymore want see tried overdose night failed woke next day covered vomit took soo long much courage attempt one time disappointed woke afraid try ive come close im still trying work courage final redflag attempt kill eating disorder sooner later weight lower whole life ive admitted involuntary hospitals higher weights weight now told seen anybody weeks now im waiting miss every day ive broken possible contact anyone related hope never find happened know finds blame want suffered much already cant cant let happen never dated first place fear might find redflag eating disorder thing actually motivated eat something time time im sick now want energy almost non existant already make breaks writing dizzy sit long bones hurt time now two days ive really sharp pains chest eaten days straight want fucking im much coward shoot eating disorder kill anytime soon want take pills actually fits decade ive told girls eating disorders men eating disorders cant even together shoot wish done long time ago even still hope heart stops beating courage take pills really hope sharp pain chest heart ive problems heart pray god finally giving know im coward hoping really cant take anymore im gon na die coward gon na come surprise anyone anyway edit sorry felt really dizzy take nap im going answer now promised experienced worrisome changes thoughts feelings participate online researchwhat purpose study want better understand development psychiatric symptoms adolescents young adults participate males females georgia usa ages experienced one following unusual thoughts suspiciousness sense special powers unrealistic plans future changes sensory experiences unusual experiences seeing hearing things participants asked participants asked attend remote sessions zoom following complete interviews questionnaires life experiences lasting hours complete tasks measure attention memory lasting hours take surveys emotion week using android iphone repeat procedures months later study taking place online using zoom video conferencing much cost cost participation will receive payment kind receive baseline month follow ampxb information call lab email canlabugaedumailtocanlabugaedu confidential screening wish shitty life ends tonighti want wake tomorrow something now wish luck rather numbi feel born every advantage possible loving mum comfortable home life disabilities prosperous safe country intelligence etc surface everyone im fulfilling degree stable job pays money know good friends family etc sometimes right now mind collapses sense impending doom closes around wake complete panic voices head cant silenced saying ive completely messed life deserve anything anymore selfinflicted due past mistakes fault spew gall builds inside option go cry punch pillow scream shut ive done nothing wrong drink im numb curl sleep theyre particularly severe talk someone outside mind soon stop come back one coupled bolt anxiety perfect destroyed life never peace doom around corner destroyed everything first started years ago got onto meds lexapro wow new man everything fine january year went bathroom blood holycrapwhatsgoingonimgonnadie taxi er hemerrhoids saw gp told mental state pristiq colonoscopy emptied little blood night night went wakey wakey nothing wrong except crack one went way weeks later blood went private hospital infected pilonidal sinus thank saw specialist wowee said see plastic surgeon cant may stand know set five years peace normal normal every negative voice swimming inside skull saw counselor week amazing explained everything perfectly nervous system issue brain scan anything unpredictable voices meant helpful theyre wellintended fantastic left feeling really good voice little whisper back mind shes wrong yesterday searched voluntary euthanasia thoughts said good idea die hand way thats went home cried stayed friends place cat lied small comfort slept log today im getting extended med cert im scared tell im rails id said getting better im bus hours im staying mum easter im sure ill last may rather numb feel anything im im full gunk pain voices oh god im scared way peace want stop want win positive thought instantly rebutted torn feels hard fight wish much easier give selfdestruct end ok voices fine right im screwed mum already lost husband father im sticking around want bury child spoiler alertbr br watched extended version bedknobs broomsticks though extended version wish left original version dvdbr br portabello road cut orginal length long dragged movie along though dancing great much better left dvd deleted scenebr br great movie year old liked wonderful movies enjoyed child passed new generation mary poppins added collectionbr br rememberedbr br br br know kids arent alright want die text post weekend dont drugs dont self harm suck bf one give grand children give death give head stay school incoherent rambling predicamentcant sleepin pretty much mental storm honestly feels stuck underwater aching air cant think anything except offing hurricane negative emotions thoughts leading decided stream thought problems semicoherent post brief alternative fuck got great college decentmediocre job years look back absolute disgusti straight mature enough handle got suspended year cheating yeah im bastard honestly idea memories cheating way back first grade learning multiplication tableshow pathetic fucked extreme disappointment pretty much everyone went huge depression itletting family fucking path etc mind always level chronic depression insane year entire fucking year youth nothing dropped face earth faced challenges opportunity nontraditional path curled ball couldnt mentally handle filled days literally anything stop tide horrible depression suicidal thoughts rolling sanctions complete allowed reenroll year couldnt even extract asshole last september even things thinking shitshow life enough bring panic attacks nowhere bad shit fucked now look thing one biggest regrets actually getting offered counseling way back taking stands im trying hardest registered amass unfathomable amount moneypromises money im late starting make arrangements head ass difficulty getting shit verified look realize screwed fucking way come money seriousness fucked tide feelings mere possibility shit together semester really frightens might things dont pan might little late goddamn different person last year college active friends helli even got married right good friend pretty much day one college international student year half agreed marry stay country afterward actually stand chance acceptance grad schools holy shit relationship go tits years great friendship living together trick govt friends havent seen spoken months hate almost much hate cant believe much treated dirt yeahsome unresolved issues sea bad blood someday soon ill file divorce screw good thats shitcovered cherry atop towering cupcake cunts social life living spare room family friends place sheer force extreme kindness pity moved time ago whole living wife thing went nuclear needed honestly guys kind generous owe much literally kill man said better job seasonal shit ended though savings act chunk tuition youll proud know actually started seeing psychologist month ago family tries supportive even though one even inkling messed amshe practically shat fill phq disappointment cant hidden makes feel worse dont deserve encouragement kind words love family difficult put words im long list fuckups closing doors existing awful escape sounds pretty nice refreshing deep breath air anyway guys many stories fucked shit ive done people ive let times ive ambulances emt passenger lying government anyone curious ill probably another hours stewing hell might even respond questionsinsultsreplies ive pissed patterns snow concise informative paragraphs ive vomited upload comic tapas webtoon want know want make comics find posting yet againive tried hard tried hard seemingly never ending hole moved family threw job applications got interviews one day first time long time started see little light pulled car towed due unpaid registration missed interviews way feel one little step forward become steps back literally name option car im trying figure theres way sign incur storage fees never ending im really hard time ending sharing othersive always felt sharing suicidal thoughts people life invalidates thoughts makes whiny bitch hungry attention acceptance using threat redflag leverage nobody life knows got drunk told crush liked yeah basically title yesterday got drunk started talking dont really know told gotten know better liked told liked asked meant said sent audios friends explaining happened ny phone died today woke idk act idk say good morning send picture idk say say anything help im tiredspent last years life watching father wither away im mediocre mediocre job im mediocre college degree actually care girlfriend years im madly love slipping away days time anything ive depressed age never gets better think ive felt worthless fun fact default profile pictures cute metro boomin make boom aye metro boomin make boom make boom imagine using incognito mode deleting browser history thats want become kword hate short im im im taller parents boys school taller bruh makes feel fuckin baby fuck short hispanic genes mannn anyone relate male sexually abused younger cant find girl never couldive contemplating thinking redflag around th grade knew happened along say victims dont sexual abuse whole story though im almost now friends least lost think fuck want damaged person cant even force act happy times im around best friends im saying everyone sexually abused fucked life personally thats feel ive hospital want go back joke help bills poor parents know pay brings yet killed want hurt anyone im even sure really want die know dont want go anyone relate u find someone breakdowns becoming frequent theres least times locked friends bathroom without knowledge dont want anyone know im curled ball mental patient friends know childhood parents thats want talk someone dont think anyone know relate molested let alone wanting die people react im trapped bad place one really knows please fucking help edit tell honestly sounds im bitching know seen posts redflag watch worthy redflag friends im thankful knew edit thank much everyone ive found worse im think theres possibility bipolar better know things know feel chaotic lot time im slowly trying help cant go back hospital though especially adult wards fuck theres way worse shit anyway getting point thank typing long paragraphs know lot may abused know many us boat remember care us talk feel never see redflag effect know think us want cause anyone type pain said anyone wants use thread stuff chest ask questions go ahead take say somethingi wan na go much detail due fact made post last night first redflag attempt failed im supposed graduate june dad excited thats makes things even worse im scared going try deep inside want die point longer control im wondering tell guidance today know ill go psych ward three times life feel kind relief worrying whether going die today day want take break madness finally telling someone instead keeping bottled long set ease little bit god relief ow dad calling anxiety fake cant take anymoremy dad conversation anxiety brought says fault even though helped little im starting question even want live ok remember july th tik tok supposed banned august th tik tok supposed banned apparently tik tok banned sunday mean spying facebook banned well gn tell productive things tomorrow morning wish school done want try productive enjoyed watching well acted movie muchit well actedparticularly actress helen hunt actors steven weber jeff faheyit interesting moviefilled drama suspensefrom beginning endi reccomend everyone take time watch made television movieit excellent great acting though maths teacher different e give context im high school programming area essential thing know think logically today maths class friend thought simpler way answer teacher started complaining need explain logic test instead checking answer real world client wants fucking program work care coded really understand life sucksi dont relationship mom dad barely even feels father figure life gone month week hes sitting ass watching tv sleeping understand provide family sucks grades currently shit parents getting ass dont understand im purely stupid im fucking idiot know nothing say change think ive abusing drugs past year now almost anything hands turned ive already done heroincoke meth fuck im months time ive already dropped pounds people congratulate tell work shit feel better even know drugs dont drugs everyday im constantly thinking got raped age even remember sucking dudes dick fuck remembers sees visually head feel worthless uncared ive already actual redflag attempts parents think times wanted drunk high hold first time downed whole big ass bottle percent liquor hoping id alcohol poisoning nope woke next day feeling shit didnt throw anything second time took expired pills grandma used take epilepsy got rushed hospital rd day due throat closing able breath cant even kill right im fucking failure thinking paycheck im getting next wednesday ive thinking minute ill enough money finally go way want hate life im sick want fucking die movie expecting martialarts extravaganza historical accuracy leave issue better informed subject thought performances wonderful gong li never disappoints resourceful initially loyal consort king qin fengyi zhang showed lot flexibility portraying ruler descending madness chose hannibal lector route rather resorting ranting best performance zhiwen wang supersmooth marquis character came across oily subtle sir humphrey appleby yes minister kind waybr br cinematography standout feature film scene marquis men stormed palace breathtaking number wonderful battle scenes film highly recommended big screen think crush likes new best friend saw post youll know crush doesnt said dare awkward got class discussion groups covid cant move around sitting near talk noticed laugh nothing strange tbh noticed body language second almost date idea means girl lesbian hey think crush best friend im girl shes girl ive friends three years really nice really kind sweet type compliment blue sweet nice dont talk often social anxiety schoolwork taking long time plus online school person sometimes play games together though time ive dealing depression light always supporting saying loved mein platonic sense really thing makes truly happy havent felt attracted anything anyone id never thoughts gross things thinking makes feel sick weve cuddled platonically maybe shes really good friend judging posts sounds way confess found kerzners new account u nheek please report fucking creep make leave sub permenantly difficult bed wake morning first sip coffee lose sense meaning nobody wants anything thoroughly convinced exist point attentionstarved show well others worse even excuse kill guess keep going till heart gives bother wan na kill girl likes back im uglyi wan na die girl going back im ugly idk wan na cry microphonies classic stooge short guys inept repairmen working radio station horsing around broadcast booth curlys perfect mimic recording voices spring mistaken real thing leading radio contract zany musical party trios mock rendition quintet lucia de lamamore especially entertaining doubt essential viewing stooge fansbr br although evidence curlys failing health visible face voice performance amazing probably last glimpse old curly fans think bird hand last great curly short coarse voice slow movement difficult watch wish moneyi wish make toxic family jealous miserable anyone hates exes everything wish fucking wish want sufferthis sentiment ive run multiple times throughout experiences depression especially recently whenever im feeling depressed want better want feel much pain anguish physical mental want feel despair deep nothing live anymore cant really explain even though people want better want wallow pain want better want suffer nobody around gets try explain imagine physical pain knife leg something doctor comes help take refuse help lay floor absorbing every second pain thats nobody knows cook without recipes one flex think wanted kill yesterdaysomebody told post yesterday class party day first part finals write pages specific theme day turn paper celebrate decided said throw party excited day long even went bought new clothes stuff look good really hoped maybe todays day maybe flirt someone make someone really prepared party usual talked lot people drink drive party came point everyone danced fun sober sitting sober dance browsing reddit even blame friends every someone came grabbed hand dance afraid even declined offer girl thats uncomfortable dancing went bathroom resist hitting face hated bad probably already tell flirting making lonely ass drove home late night driving really thought today bought stuff spent hour two bathroom simply hopeful today day usual nothing found funny apparently found really funny hopeful cause laughed laughed really really hard laughing slowly transformed crying laughing back crying cycle stopped breathe anymore breathed really fast unusual panic attack stopped suddenly crying laughing plain emotionlessnes feel anything moment everything suddenly gone away held steering wheel straight saw turn coming held straight ready smash tree drove got opposite lane woke moment realized turned steering wheel back seriously shocked really kill thats coming know might sound suicidal attempt stopped right time really heavy experience wanted write whymy mom looked stuff phone everyone family knows im gay dad thinks im faking know thinks im sort crazy person im gon na go hell tell brother looks differently saying anything mom hates found messages sent friends private rant written shes kinda abusive block contact friends look rest messages ive always kinda thought killing idk seems everyone hates things horrible place right now parents fighting mom gon na try leave take knows know everybody always kinda annoyed kinda feel ending done shit good im probably making big deal always though wanted post vent stuff knife throati posted earlier going alcohol withdrawal repeat doctors appointment tomorrow planning tell combination vomiting blood able forgive made decide really time tried kill many times body resilient guess really want slit throat need surefire way die fucking tired aliveim going fucking everything torture last week alive welcome death please answer thisso m thinking feel worthless parents think im attention phase dont fucking know anymore ruin literally every little thing nobody talk feel everyone everything better gone never sleep anymore dont really much interests things used love feel fucking awful person im worthless theres one person wants help wants talk cant much dont wan na add anything please reddit phase begging attention dumb personally dont think fuck know tried overdose last night brother standing front methis exactly title says partial attempt counter painkillers situation didnt walked forgot lock door laid bed little rows mg prozac mg zoloft mg prazosin singular extra strength ibuprofin know came downstairs say anything happening fight weve lot lately got girlfriend hes different now episode panicking body looked trying make eat ive diagnosed anorexic years started yelling triggered ptsd went walk outside hour came home went straight room laid pills came started ibuprofin prazosin theyre hard swallow gritty stick tongue taste bad wanted way upset crying telling understand ive getting better told people tend fall pushed theres much know ive diagnosed bundle things cptsd depression generalized anxiety experience psychosis time time body covered scars forearms legs chest sides throat everywhere ive multiple attempts past always stopped something found time taken hospital ive tried drowning suffocation slitting radial artery slitting throat even stabbing ive close attempts trains nooses feel reading backstory means click away skip tldr abused trans kid used smart dropout living away home ampxb used absolutely perfect grades never failed anything several years ahead school work fathers old mechanical engineering textbooks seventh grade graduated eighth grade honors grades slowly started slip parents manipulative emotionally abused us kids two biological siblings sister called e younger brother named z currently respectively raised z parents always working going places together takes much fed clothed got trouble e hated came trans constantly told kill hit scream retaliated got trouble parents accepting either told phase know came years ago hated looked began starve cooked refused eat table always excuse ready time sexually abused one person relied trusted help sexually abused want go court november think ill able want go detail hurts ive experiencing psychosis kid saw therapists young age grandma always took hear voices see mutilated bodies horrid creatures still experience suspicion may schizophrenic cant diagnose currently psychiatrist last one saw listen told diagnoses brushed ptsd tried double already high dosage zoloft stopped going taking meds high risk back march year hospital got back school principal told valid excuse falling far behind courses dropped three days birthday last year turned packed clothes school bag sent parents email school saying going home withdrew parental consent live ontario form emancipation law homeless friend called told last minute allowed stay place thats still turn october call brother thats essentially family feels family mine things started better said less ptsd episodes live really talked alters know theyre another family head blanks day bother even though things getting better getting worse relapsed anorexia recently skin bone ive selfharmed twice past month close friends girlfriend brother people understand everyone age hates ex spread rumors school brother girlfriend months now lots friends hes im jealous wish wish born male wish friends wish relationship tell hurts upsets pretty much ignores sit room alone work sleep cant sleep im trying make career working online blogging made anything yet ive lost hope even though ive week motivation cant keep day job many episodes ive tried nobody accommodates many mental issues working difficult brother tried friends friends think call friends close cant go anything play magic gathering sometimes im tired im tired hurting im tired sleepless nights im tired hated alone im tired knowing nobody really cares live die except one person ampxb came last night still trying swallow two prazosin tried scoop pills grab picked rest sat staring told eff leave alone yelled saying started mockingly repeating earlier words back yelling much jerk hes lately took zoloft right front hit water bottle hand dry swallowed told leave remember feeling nothing rage fear even tired felt nothing wanted pills done trying push way life everything going still took last night lethal sickening knocked hours hate forgot lock door want better ive really trying im tired im sick fighting want sleep never wake girlfriend meet single girl befriend meet friends befriend hang friends talk want date flirt ask take date movies take ice cream see first kiss tell love everyday keep going dates cheat insult mean friends family boyfriend coming tomorrow bf wants kill help himtldr know form believe worth great life great bad cant see excited able work something enjoys see life filled experiences worth think love life going lose think already crying death still boyfriend depressed months now medication beggining year first said want continue life want try change killing personality grow one new another person struggled finding occupation field able live incomes now says hope days vanished objectively really intelligent person knows take advantage work creative work field game developer mainly hobbies music magic manualities studying physics great although late course anymore really good teacher want spend rest life programming enterprise enjoy working represent half life awake h awake free sleeping see another outcome study another career struggle life end tells sees life distance judge life goes objectively agree know pills depression emotions anything right even first time able judge life want continue see life turn right happy according turn boring sad know tell really hard time accepting decision right seems terminal although wants wait rebuild life lost make suffer cant avoid thinking times told go party outside see opportunity go friends friends kind weird going bfs meant us cant keep thinking memories good times misunderstandings plus situations help value blind apathetic make bigger change cant stop thinking help maybe views life now extreme cant keep thinking made value work capabilities maybe see future dark thinks life sudoku book nothing offer exciting experiences great job boring common life understand said hope says least understand capable valuing capable many things probably worth video game industry place options understand see effort make unnecesary already judges life turn valuable great denies making effort least try know guess cant anything bit cant imagine life cant see face ir talk anymore know form believe worth great life great bad cant see excited able work something enjoys see life filled experiences worth think love life going lose memories think go crazy unable function person much rage sadness think guess writing see anyone help someone gone something similar sometimes think kill first live pain want die want go pain either want born know think already crying death still think going anything now still suffer lot exams weeks now sees never think point even included suffering wish deadi grit teeth everything hate job abusive ex boyfriend stop harassing found stole bunch money bank account im broke im tired deal stress well im tired brunt everyones frustrations job treating less human wanted life someone love unconditionally never got never friends tired hearing whine every day miserable im tired hearing say anti depressants stop attempting redflag feel dead inside wish dead make stop feeling suicidal yet againi want live anymore want die leave behind people still love want hurt ive got much pain inside know feel id better around anymore know hurt people still love feel trapped world never accept want shit world anymore horrible want live anymore cant anything good job gun seriously consider shooting head think im going kill sooni cant take anymore need figure difficult live dorm im terrified im tired opinions schitts creek wan na know watch based demographics opinions im looking funny show warning post going make mad woman want pissed leave post now film dark fate john connor dies beginning t killed feminism edward furlong know man played john connor second film going terminator dark fate feminists got hold plot guess made main character girl made terminator thats going save girl literally bought back linda hamilton fine cuz great first film second film upsets hollywood becoming notice end game killed tony stark captain america tony starks going played female going daughter im mad book review thing turn days many questions cant even really started yet thats bad hate reading well parents cant treat equally dont know post dont want friends involved im sick tired able treated equally parents throw fits slam doors yell click tongues attitudes time moment im bad mood irritated yelled punished apparently attitude disrespectful worst part depressed easily irritated know depressed refuse acknowledge apparently doesnt affect person feels behaves say im adult years old cant irritated want house needed write thanks well royally fucked today interview scheduled potential graphic design job first one months scheduled pm today dumb ass fucking mistake time realized already getting ready email interviewer technical difficulties video chat software degree let apologized asked reschedule heard surprised went throw dumbasses file trash need shitstain company believe fucking previous interview fucking slept one got god damn timing incorrect never fucking going shit right never wanted harm fucking badly life thought cold metal blade skin makes squeamish heard much harder stop started god fucking damn want life waste fuck everything seem right math problem triangle drawn within circle find height use hd hd please help mental health bad lately find energy anything doctor exhausting know talk anymore listen tired feeling shit time tired trying feel shit tired find enough motivation help mental health opinion social media suck dick thank coming ted talk try sing song guys need opinion currently almost rn skincare go sleep orrrrr finish cleaning room go sleep really dont want got skeleton floorboard got secret need keep hey lol heres hoping uhh presume world im spring break way much time hands anyone wants want buddies long winded weird convos nsfw jm think im fun weeks ago wanted write big post honestly know say anymore craving physical pain avoid emotional pain losing hope last years literally whyfam life got ta put us much fucking fair man lose feels reason end day im change situation ahhahahahha fucking hell yall life struggle remember life gets hard stanky leg ur way finished page history essay yea fun yea one gon na read holy shit im proud jack ryan ajr kinda cute thanks bicuriosity throwing another curveball im researching world really run cats political club school im research presentation cats true world leaders going deep research letter someonei depressed lately really feel shit head ahas inside bucket every second life short spontaneous breaks solitude im girl really understand used happy every single day think fuck really going last forever really im canrt handle pressure really feel alone even im people love become quickly rabid paranoid unsure feels every turn thousand turns cant seem find single thing makes idea mind kid abused fucking cousin people say hold anger well guess anger hatched gel persona im restless tired afraid cant even make couple tears roll face stop feeling shit knot chest know im going reassuring ive tried almost everything guess wanted someone listen thanks redditrs heyhi envisioning success envisioning success fucking stupid statement wanting forgotten feel want feel wanted gives redflag try want try talk relate touch hurts feel warmth long caged pain tormented said pain know gets better eventually finagled internal prison gained control whatever animal thing locked happy watch suffered watch mother hold knife throat still remember looked finished sat staring nothingness eyes bleak yellow walls looked empty pull bleed floor husband son watched happen taken away next day someone got rid knife using still feel graininess wood handle still feel serrated edges neck try understand fuck happened wish pulled trigger wish wish go back day pull trigger wish go want always loved idea dying violently something crashing freeway divider going mph fastest car goes well fastest went going way committed plan monday never set exact date know soon thursday totaled car driving street lamp oops even fucking die want wish wish take pain anger away die forgotten one remember go read stories fantasize happiness serenity deserve know right speak others truly feel calm mind us want mean sub exist die happy knowing take grave id release pain ones want now wanted earlier sorry seems ungrateful people actually alone everyday feeling dread fills stomach gets darker darker lately hill battle becoming hill stroll void fucking stupid want forgotten anyone wants video chat call text go long walks id love hear want forgotten scaredi think closest ive killing im genuinely scared cant function right now feel cant reach help cuz people see dont want see side even post probably deleted profile shit im stomach aches poops bad wtf must ate something bad take child admit hospitalbasically title says really want admit local hospital im terrified theyll try take child plan leave father time really want kill cant handle thought seeing grow see smile anymore support system extremely weak need professional help none doctors ive contacted called back im feeling important issue needs dealt im us cps fine long dont take baby mid terms second last unit test monday last one know mid terms cause th pissed af now sitting hours writing stuff marks sit well received lecture makin well scheduled timetable exams covid bad im fucking exhausted fucked became year old loser stoner wasting away fucked every relationship opportunityim numb right now hate person ive become hate person ive become literally picture different types redflag methods daily take subway even im laying bed fucking done havent accomplished anything never school worked deadend jobs never relationship girl becomes interested quickly loses interest gets know dont know fucking fake long close eyes picture rope around neck comforting people born mourning souls song sung singularly encounter another soul tortured andor bitterly sweetly beautiful unusual magic happens alone brutally honest look two tortured souls intertwine moment understanding oneness torn apart differences oneness theyre pain death explored figuratively literally happens ones soul dead similarly alive awake reality life imagined behind eyes passerbys film explores aching pain us frown beneath cheery facade ache ugly instinctual animalistic thoughts acts become honest matter fact bechard sprinkles dash unexpected innocence beauty mix knowing linger us bechard writer expert observer human condition non judgmental attitude presents life light often shield eyes yearn see understand director focuses nuances actors spirit shines character theyre playing actors personal familiarity emotions brought situation accurately written directed character portrayal man womans experience together encountered yet even though two characters encounter probably normal encounterbr br soundtrack encapsulates songs lyrics characters let hearts spill able strong enough characters real voice sung beauty pain talent emotional intelligence emerging indie artists ready explode onto alternative music market perfect soundtrack us issues us admit issues us hide itbr br always enjoy exploring darker sides life mr bechards fascinatingly creative realistic view life characters revolve within everything shitim going lot right now parents abusive depression getting worse fucked able college memory bad cant remember anything past days trans fucking rest nobody talk cut contact one friend abusive cant even remember actually abusive convinced know see therapist every therapist ive seen ended treating shit tried commit extremely abusive mental institution cant even talk anybody know im scared theyll tell parents parents committed hour holding period bullshit turns week stay nobody talk feels life hit brick wall everything ive planning everything ive done try better none worked really seems redflag way stop shaking spiralingon vacation thought days left im tired cant sleep cant let stress books knives im seeing men trench coats want kill go soda relax fridge far im thinking much days ill one let emotion theres want hurt feelings sorry raining want roof cave spine cant talk anyone stupid friend im stupid want right cant sleep im fantasizing people helping help need help please help im tired ilivedliving trying kill weird feeling tried kill yesterday failed completely time attempted certain going live past day yet feels wrong alive even though die still feel strangely dead even planned everything plan end dead im weird state now really know anymore truly documentary love fascinating character outlook life extended family filmmakers spent three years taping sister helen halfway house managed capture much wonderful material help feel know sister helen boys house holds recovering addicts story almost involving sister helens ending scenes particularly involving emotionalbr br sister helens story marriage addiction loss reveals complex character whos tough love times funny touching endearingbr br film amazing way tells story wonderful slice life sequences develop story almost clear scene scripted acted best honesty obvious dishonesty clients involving learn fears watch attempts growbr br never forget sister helen robert moe poor ashishspelling haha morning got two hours sleep went sleep got well coff time now fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller dickenballs cockandnutz maybe penis ballse thanks coming ted talk ampxb ampxb gtif know know title comes fromlt advices suggestions proceedmy partner going hell withdrawal used mg lexapro one week stopped cold turkeydue poor amount information available symptoms lasted one month relapsed time using mg zolof days stopping cold turkey months suffering terrible symptoms brain zaps weight loss redflag depression blurry vision bad hearing hard concentrate muscle pain cognitive impairment suicidal thoughts insomnia sweating impulsivity head ache agitation lack selfesteem symptoms visible different times withdrawal doctor appointment led doctor assuming symptoms caused psychological reasons said nothing domy partners whole personality pretty much changed months one flash usual self feeling good confident relaxed minutes gave little bit hope gone single day feeling goodgaba helping redflag little bit ordered lthyroxin anyone experiencewe know long lastis supplements anything help please shareit sad withdrawal hell advices thoughtsfeeling pretty low late cold friday night alone brought dark thinking depressionredflag searched internet found many sites saying worth talk theres always someone cares blah blah blah old old found many threads dark times seeing many people going going truly remarkable im sure whether feel happy alone sad everyone suffer way many others post imagine feel alone honestly tired told thing theres always highs lows life recent highs lows mere years ago everyone story whether share keep holder deep thinking sorry wall text girls please talk hello girls essay girls brave confident know use toilet please write application talk comments directly dm many thanks golden bull golden king golden one want fucking die alreadyi hate height fucking hate retarted tall people fucking lucky stupid dumb asses hate tall fuck short didnt ask pathetic little man going comment talk therapist go fuck shit scam hope fucking die saying dumb advice want hurt someone bad hope shot murdered dont want live life pathetic short man want tall perfect onesided distanced love best friend im okay friend f lets call tanner best friend kindergarten colle ting rocks byrying head book found rocks shed think got bookmark keep page go play always peoplepleaser always flitting around different friend groups ignoring concerns involved drama anything everything social attention stay watching knowing always come back particularly dec th talking sleepover seen eachother two months said thaf shed see weekend probably busy open snapchat find hanging friend group cheated denied talked shit im still glad fun people feel hurt betrayed dont really organt transplant list atm lyme battling acne year long relationship guy keep secret specific cognitives disabilities make difficult student deal terrible school poor parents occasionally fight always treated middle child obviously trying chase good stimuli adhd bipolar disorder sex drugs onenight friends etc needs stability stability know using shoulder lean abandoned gave one first sure point whole thing honest guess see someone elses shoes supportive soul okay ill see matter right bridge hour awayive picked good ones zero risk surviving impactover land feet even lower risk generating anything article podunk newspaper even name terms world dying zero meaningful impact possibly nobody covid still raging hopefully wish funeral remembered way shitty part amazing family inexplicably loves deeply tries support im getting point fucking unethical keep accepting help throw side bridge supposed die decade ago jumped balcony yet somehow miraculously survive permanent injury perfect idiot dying drunken accident today id barely even cross mind accomplished literally nothing life except leech hardworking family last remaining friend sisters professors even hooked fly across country totally helped therapy cant make accomplishing nothing pay crippling debt medication makes easier pretend want alive accomplishing nothing meaningful except make people feel better already know impact redflag need explain ive read almost every redflag bereavement post hands way staving inevitable hopes something might change thing changes deeper hole zero motivation climb im done maintaining facade falls apart ive hurting people closest ill continue long im alive im going cause pain anyways might well least damage possibly getting sooner rather later turned heres piece advice anyone still kid please live go friends vandalize shit make memories bc gon na end sooner think sweet nothingnessoverview posts comments view sort new rdepressionposted byutonyhugh minutes ago sweet nothingness dont try save redflag father suicidal thoughts became persistent almost irresistible started brood death usual graveyard father found final rest became favorite place visit something apparently enticing idea death contemplate lofty beauty graveyard longer want participate idiocy called life suicidal thoughts became even intence found current financial plight im buried foreign city wich never im done tell death avoid life take lives caring hands death delever back cruel hands butcher called life dont try save us made right decision comment share tonyhugh commented worst feeling worldrdepressionposted byujohnthebabayagawick tonyhugh point hours ago ambivert reply share johnthebabayagawick point hours ago somewhere introvert extrovert tonyhugh point hours ago problem reply share tonyhugh commented parents took away computerrdepressionposted byucomatill tonyhugh point hours ago parents right preventing shit posting reply share tonyhugh commented liferdepressionposted byuriddle tonyhugh point hours ago right reply share tonyhugh commented im going end life tonight m ukrdepressionposted byuazeroa shanerunninshirtless points hours ago fuck wrong never post see tonyhugh points hours ago idiot reply share shanerunninshirtless points hours ago piece shit tonyhugh points hours ago smart reply share tonyhugh commented existing painfulrdepressionposted byufancyscarf tonyhugh point hours ago hey everyone bad reply share rdysmorphicdisorderposted byutonyhugh day ago dont need want good look want romantic love affairs fact relationships total sucks based mutual manipulation truth people realy realy sucks finaly discover much shit romantic partner maybe lucky atttactice apperiance saves annoying exhausting romances disappointments annoying thing cals love fact life general greatest dissapointment things look nice distance best thing one live live lofty solitude without engagement dirt life chase beauty meaning happiness life shit everething seems great distance comments share lordsblade points hours ago man id problem deal lots exhausting love affairs meant looked person see tonyhugh points hours ago im person rest assure sucks maybe cup tea reply share comment deleted day ago tonyhugh points day ago family care look friends friends dont need attachment reply share tonyhugh commented fearing stigma vanityrdysmorphicdisorderposted byusddghjklzxcv tonyhugh points day ago open secret one realy cares look especially streets problem try attract someone people random strangers dont give shit say peope realy dont care every aspect reply share tonyhugh commented plastic surgery cured bddrdysmorphicdisorderposted byudaintyporcelain tonyhugh points days ago yeas evidence true reason situation phisical flaws reply share rdepressionposted byutonyhugh minutes ago sweet nothingness dont try save redflag father suicidal thoughts became persistent almost irresistible started brood death usual graveyard father found final rest became favorite place visit something apparently enticing idea death contemplate lofty beauty graveyard longer want participate idiocy called life suicidal thoughts became even intence found current financial plight im buried foreign city wich never im done tell death avoid life take lives caring hands death delever back cruel hands butcher called life dont try save us made right decision really easy lot love give none love another wasted spend others maybe love back turn feel loved tried self love business self love easy never loved ones suppose love sparked fire self hate young child hurtful words become voices hear anymore mine god bitch right fucking cow loud mean always got something smart say tried saying something nice sounds strange really fake rollercoaster always healing never healing good days scarce bad days feel long winter night locked house feel alone close eyes think bear hold little longer maybe saved maybe knows among lucky ones plucked crowd saviour oh god even writing make believe truly love someone even love making casual discord server anyone interested im really tired joining servers built people misuse power entire thing full toxic people anyone casual server relax yes please let know comments gets positive response ill make one hate learn much bout catholic rant hate fact learn much bout bein catholic im even chatholic christian dont believe god fuck need dont want married hate believe sin go hell hate fact bibal stupid ugh everythin bout makin angry dont even remember none prayers christmas family praying sitting knowin fuck say tryin day dead visiting graves expected say prayers bitch dont fuckin remember em ya know tried swim trough dumbass classes cant use knowlege bout diferent sins fuckin bibal anywhere unless creating characters know supposed drink depressed amp alone always makes feel better everyone tells says make feel worse always numbs makes feel better drank alone tonight quite bit bit concerned go binge againi drink work week constantly drank work started one night sure replacements alcohol drinking cope conversation mom market today mom green peppers mom seller ill kg green peppers thank coming ted talk today th birthday someone please say happy birthday comments makes sense see danger around every corner wish find place dark read story day someone work anymore needed home think mom found self harm context decided share quote freud found internet unexpressed emotions never die buried alive come forth later uglier ways left really random quote liked one heck coincidence really notice marks arm must say props thats nice way saying im talk need without getting personal ps know tell talk please spare due gender dysphoria believe quite lgbtphobic anyone hate people try force ships everyone yes character character good couple opinion mean everyone thinks thing even majority people respect everyone thinks thing ya opinion character looks better another character respect opinion respect expect everyone ship character character im tired typing thisthat character ill use w x y z respect think w x cute together personally see w single x z together crush w people agree others might agree doesnt mean think put w x together theyre otp even dont ship whatsoever respect shippers force ship everyone deserve hurt im weak im liar cunt bitch pathetic ashamed ruined childhood early childhood neighbor repeatedly raped friend stuck horrible custody battle later preteens stepmom starved dad let happen mum got custody dad killed thats ex stepdad began touching even let sons mum believe ex stepbrother verbally abuse mum let happen years developed bpd fights mum bf run away times homeless twice cant keep jobs keep cycling maintain outside relationships let ex boyfriends beat name bdsm cruel first one withheld affections cheated constantly crawled dog even made shave head second one misogynist racist made pretend child sex thing common older men im pathetic daddy issue bitch live nothing besides attention older men used live fo art spiritualitybut know everything secondary want older man lov odnt care anything want know cherished loved older man ts held dont soon ill end time real bc worthless bpd cunt deserve brutal punishment wan fucking die know dofirst im sweden well story month ago wife left wanted divorce signed papers sweden think six months divorce least children together late february next year divorce real love wife technically still wife im love well ive done really stupid stuff put debts things things really regret differentely thousand times cant trust cant live anymore thing told try later life together job apartment things told engaged different dating sites internet dating groups facebook trying find guy trust love im cant anyone talk weekend wrote lot interesting women single one replied cant start conversation strangers well may think irony want wife dating sites im mostly try wife see takes stated im unemployed hate live im living filthy room friends apartment close every single day im crying eyes hoping someone shoot endure misery want wife ive said friends want wife back die see much reason living sorry rant kinda nyquil sleeping pillsive broken many times today last time guess cops racist sexist dont stuck washing machine step bro near itll pain ass experience s im funny really feel life scared chop veins wristi purpose yeti feel pressure wanted end needed true connection needed someone talk college graduating things come indeed classic work speculative fiction essay destructive nature war terrors progress makes surprising accurate depictions war follow years later woefully naive utopian idealsbr br raymond massey cedric hardwicke ralph richardson make fine cast although drama played stage piece work cinema grandiose somewhat stilted speeches often delivered actor trying reach back theater profound words technology savior mankind instrument destruction film visual feast one detach oneself age effects sure hollywood sophisticated today rarely inventive imaginative third act treat world underground cities massive deco bombers space cannons gyro copters secret organizations scientist saviors makings scifi pulp adventure instead uses trappings philosophical exercisebr br things come metropolis hallmarks neolithic hollywood science fiction cinema operatic scope visually inspiring technology long left behind ideas still burst forth artistry one heart emotion computer generated massproduced cinema today films products artisans industrialists see light right now things think change mood feeling really negative thoughts cant care anymoreive lost ability care everything anymore weeks left college cant imagine anything except waiting die beginning semester ok passion excited finish ive lost im lowest point relate people well terrible time talking anyone hindrance existence pull humor nice cant anything trouble expressing feelings deeper thoughts small talk everything cant explain properly feel shit around ive offon girl bit ive accepted im type really hard understand layers complications deal far better talking dont know stand right except friends feel giant bother made friends college connections feel loose now half openly expressed wanting kill plans stop guess think im losing mine ive started unhealthy things one cutting never really understood now fasting past weeks ive keeping track calories lose weight taken drastically im lbs options dramatic long periods time decided dramatic now meeting school counseling thursday going explain everything probably use post guide help talk really thing im sort looking forward now way tell someone whats happening without feeling burden im taking lexapro depression half dose things real shitty know taking extra help takes time work system might im expecting end institution counselor needs one family midwest im massachusetts talk mom every week thats contact back home im kind done tried faking til made cant anymore want want dad miss dad fucked say nothing make happy dad use make physically feel know happy moments life know feel nothing top dad best friend killed still live house happened cant move house given died dont money ive flashbacks finding want dad years felt go back therapy dont wan na bother people problems make anyone scared honest wan na dad dont care anything makes sound ungrateful im im thankful ache much im sick stop saying neither asked support election sure joe biden isnt exactly first choice neither clearly isnt fucking choice anymore legitimately life death im goddamn sick people playing card dont time indecision right now able please vote sake future enjoyable movie without doubt evocative era particular stage boys rites passage say read notredflag comments bit disappointed period captured plot desperately thin whole thing revolves around egregious bit miscasting history school plays idea quack quack chosen play one three star turns philanderer risible without nada subplots bore relation see main plot removed entirety without way affecting main story surely suggests fundamental flaw subplots look padding know central idea stretched beyond limits nevertheless benign movie heart right place fine performances feeling everyone involved felt deflated final cut good feeling permeates film count something flawed really quite good movie final ending tonighti never posted even reddit im bus right town jump bridge long time coming right iv never felt better knowing final made decision ending life im sorry isnt right place post one tell soon bus wont internet connection want say thank everyone subreddit iv read lot stories truly hope find peace thank today realized im probably going actually commit redflag sometime lifeit may today tomorrow even years now honestly think theres chance way end dying killing ive struggled depression ive making significant progress therapy happiest ive somehow keep ensing depressed coming back thoughts fear elderly alone divorced kids many friends im afraid living old folks home forgotten today realized pretty much already forgotten moved across country couple years ago none family friends call mom never calls sister call time best friwnd messages complain life never asks im whats going im always one calling simply talk fear alone come true difference im younger able take care still amazing boyfriend lately keep screwing shit doubt left soon ya may today tomorrow might even years now unless accident sort probably die please see henry stickman spoiler one fucking recommend refresh fuck im turning reply notifications want spoilers redditors recognize ive seen several people youtube recommendations miracle gel heals dick appreciated yt theres optionever severely depressed one might say werent sad truly feel depressed things getting far worse imagine last year fell love girl fell love asked surprise said yes wanted wait week thought nothing much three weeks passed nothing said going days later suspended school day worst thing day wasnt actually getting suspended upset disappointed never want hurt anyone intend hurt see pain man loved considered bad person three months day couldnt lowest lows stopped talking blocked snapchat stopped hanging one asked said anything moment worst moment life time towards end september last year english teacher decided punching bag class calling spineless selfdirected irresponsible even though top student class time week happened told asking question week decided ask question got trouble question related class time refused help throwing rude remarks towards skip forward start school year year hoped year stay didnt nothing much happened first two months school fell love girl happened fall love holidays hung watched movies together cuddled sort thing lovers brings us two weeks ago friday school decided ask said yes time wasnt surprise shed told ready date wasnt next day went house kissed wasnt blue wasnt expecting safely say kissing still greatest moment life ive developed reliance seeing whenever dont see really upset happens middle exam period study exams past days ive saying things upset feel really bad always apologise whenever go tangent last night last night different started talking im embarrassment friend group immature said babe stop knew immediately gone far said wanted talk morning saying good night normally whenever goes bed say love sleep well couldnt say either two without saying first ive noticed longer best friend snapchat taken location snap map doesnt bother much currently write texted hasnt responded doesnt wake later assume ignoring thing need talk anything plans go lunch today last night parents said whenever kiss attached means whenever dont see morning woke hoping text anything nothing came hoping talk situation know cant morning started thinking redflag believe community certain amount pain believe community taken pain know go detriment everyone dont think feel taking one team best option past years decide die think break soften blow bit dont want break heart suddenly disappear truly care want whats best shes happy whilst im suffering isnt problem human take much morning started mirror cried one single tear believe tear signifies lonely even friends family around cant help think im person world every emotion ive felt everyone ive met everything ive done planned sad thing theory theres way disprove longer want feel pain dont want people feel pain im feel someone read begging please help dont know stop tldr im severely depressed need help someone please help late whats first impression someone wears boots boots im thinking buying pair versatility durability first impression cool fucing fucking passed got accepted online school odds stacked yet im happy csnt contain fucking lets go thought betterif counts anything tried changing still think ill make though matters never much drinker anyways much celebrate plus another day loneliness thought okay lately night feel ending allnah im really die really mind kill plane wanted crash right happy thought beaten social anxiety man women fucking women im still extremely awkward around women swear women socially apt guys never understand women drive man crazy wan na kill deal approach women time life fuck everything fuck fuck ughhh know im drunk really feel right wan na girl love loving cuddle together really hard ask girls love ended beign completely horrible human beigns hate even though logically know bad people really hate damaged heart never girl feel really liked feel im privileged even sex probably horrible even women hated man hate thats probably women fuck hate hate world hate teverthyng fuck even care anything hope feel happy im sober sorry ive disturbed really feel right now take literally stream conscsiouness thoughts fuck fuck friend winning awards nominated doubt film stand one best fact made non professionals trained act dance makes much specialbr br bollywood production art lower caste girl wants sing dance wants move society limit everyone president india caste system narrow minds allow breachedbr br vanaja mamatha bhukya quits school goes work landlady urmila dammannagari accomplished dancer time working animals taught sing dance film strikingly beautiful rich color amazing done film masters project writer directorbr br landladys son karan singh returns america run office struck girl lower caste vessel lust things better home father drinks eats steals money ends pregnant sell baby landladybr br end never rises caste story fascinating acting really good want hurt someone please dot post cringe subreddit hear feel helpless sad angry everything right now hell even hurt dont courage level desperation yet helpmy fiance inadvertently killed baby cat yelled said tired shit packed stuff left dont know dead baby sitting box door im alone bi polar depression constantly think redflag need support please easiest least painful way easiest way movie great everything true action fan want plenty people getting shot andor maimed minimal romance involving sex hero identified violence many intervals instead pointless plot storing one scene end villains asking bronson appears lowest level tolerancy film shows ed lauter makes great cop seamlessly worked bronsons plot without stealing spotlight movie involve plot boring overconsuming watch film never rather want see kersey action storyline juices great stuff ancient rome wasnt civilized tf mfs slaves wtf take train work everyday usually always contemplate jumping front ill probably never calms knowing candepression crushing soul today holding back tears extra hard morning truly god ill never understand god created millions millions mental illness pretty fucked ask man wan na ball eyes feel never livedall life thrown around people consider friend one find someone talk anymore even block social media whatsapp reply messages thought life got better found friend mine got close talked everything sun eventually got together months friendships classmate spend lot time together broke months days relationship rd march depressing blamed insecurities previous weeks constantly talking another boy junior orientation kidmeans orientation group leader school got close started talking much gradually talk less said never last weeks relationship started sending pictures whenever say want see started talking lot conversations asked join dates accepted without thinking feelings got parents send school something always wanted never accepted within one month knowing already let catch ride school parents car talk parents despite knowing year months never let see parents go great lengths ensure parents dont see time go library study invited rather go home go home make feel insecure actions yet maintain never together past week broke insecurities couldnt handle started talking ignored front face laugh talk happy around started sending hearts messages happen see text class something never used broke promise skype one today skyped know asked online skype today rarely days except skype feel never live lot problems family never peace friends loner feelings start snowball feel depressed wish antidepression medicine feel bad without want jump building stab knife know im crazy getting betrayed scammed feelings whole life isnt something take someone talk people side feel belong world wish courage kill myselfgod im pathetic means kill still afraid second semester college starts tomorrow girl ive talking mia lately fact ill never successful streaming dreamsmp making sad wan na say something nice imma sleep rn ill wake whatever im awake say anything want song recommendations life tips whats going life anything ill see em tomorrow gnight ladies gents hi partner dv survivor years eroded everything mentally abused mostly throughout sexual elements towards last years shes lovely caring girl world beautiful easy likes drinks weekends drink brings different girl maybe true girl im sure girl vivid flashbacks pretty harsh shes therapy thats tough going well popping cork anger bottled years goodnight rteenagers fun seeing sub long time return sorting rising sincerely umerp know betterthere literally advice left give heard havent gotten better havent worked improving life lazy shit dont become happy dont tell truth feel lie doctor given much advice dont act really hope dificult hey feel becouse demanding schoolwork realise dream unacheavable want cry sleep talk friends discord course becouse cant see irl start thinking pathetic becouse fucking years old bave never kissed girl even though weird sorry bad grammar read wanted complain stay safe lock heart awayi thought happiest one realize threw one day december decided create hell one knew felt anyone really tell heart melt never wished upon yet created virtual reality made fathers pockets empty lied people vaguely made vow broke unfaithfully standing chair alone disgracefully loved girl loved friends loved family fake pearl ocean ground revealed early young strong yet old look years feel scold one know take thoughts hell demonstrate one go wont tell single soul promise pondered wondered found answer facade life sorry tell afraid going die farewell dearest friends journey wont forget live peacefully never regret gender reveal parties bs gender reveals parties dumb excuses parties stuff say things baby may vagina hes boy shit cant decide babys sexuality cant anything cry sleep shit plus lets honest fancy things modern parents follow social standards neighbors panties getting stolen feel bad mischief always put phone correct pocket almodt died thought forgot phone train tell friends suicidalmy best friends everything despite coming school friends school survived redflag attempts resulted bullying sexual assault went untouched im glad friends month lost job im dealing depression gone point hopeless matter always end loser great moments tell jokes friend laughed something causing suicidal thoughts crossed line loser sums life fuck alive friends world mean fuck nobody cares live regret staying alive died years ago way seems ashes put sewage nobody cares even family family done today im glad barely helped social life started school maybe talk make rd time lucky say goodbyei plans want say goodbye old friend dont really talk anymore without raising much suspicion something attempting flirt currently met cute girl got snap texting update something comes tiredeverything life gone shit past years want end theres way need help someone call dumbass say dont one earlier reviews movie ends big fans lead actors fans exotic romanceadventure holywood movies reason enough love anyone seeing movie complains connerys accent lack historical verisimilitude realism political motivations extramovie concerns simply love movies see awed starpower two leads exotic romantic photography music bold adventure truly escapist film proof hollywood make em used really wants solid killing todayits redflag note done tonight ill free free emotion free self hatred free everything im almost done will brain trying one last time survive look help one time please thats says august th felt first stroke pain born coddled school issue went stemm academy september th first thought death kept hidden told parents feelings told old thing redflag permanent solution temporary problem problem go away got really irritated teacher might well spit face told whole class teen redflag caused thinking little things big now makes sense give ive fighting war long ive left stemm echos pain still ruin please help truth want die want pain end im weak know im coward ive given survive longer old strength support exposed covid yall covid im little scared exposed school quarintine weeks im scared might happen people staring problem hey guys alt account apologize isnt right sub question ive trying lately long story involves losing first car ive always fear driving ive getting better getting fear though really nice paying job say mean afford many many various types clothing really expensive lately whenever go ive noticing people staring nice clothes think im cute something dont understand keep looking dont mind wan na know help im scaredi really anyone talk comfort nice need helpim honestly quite new depressed ive depressed february came really bad wave im sure became depressed late february made first attempt bu drowning told newly made best friend hour later said always support one point july become much though said couldnt deal anymore causing much stress life respected stopped relying mid august made next attempt od went bed woke sick didnt tell one finally mid september said wished told sooner couldve prevented began better ive really well today ive known trendy political views im total conservative california last saturday fucked made post thats downright horrible today got call hss vice principal somebody apparently reported said go saying things ill expelled really bad anxiety ill expelled really bad gpa cant lose ive put life school cant expelled cant ive talking bestie says im fault wont even acknowledge anxiety says fault shes person talk problems doesnt even care said really offensive general ive always never knew think im terrible asshole feel alone nobody support im lost hours plan take knife arteries want send bestie text saying much ill miss fear shell call help im gone anyone fountain pens hobby collecting fountain pens wondering anyone sub shares hobby continue relationship someone zero understanding mental health issues refuses research husband tells something choose often makes feel alone partner understand noti reasons mom brother destroyed brother sick mind way mom brother nobody im little sister know hes stayed im meant anymore maybe im built afterlife fair still fair need ok guys ill let know hanging im huge fast wish luck mindim fucking sad god hate people affect hate horrible people horrible things punished want things ok want snot stop coming nose thats annoying lost friend lost liveever best friend always struggled dark thoughts overall sadness know depression always count always count considered family four guys group throughout teenage years friends im alone bestie joined college started work started drift apart still hang feel growing cold days ago asked hed hang said hes got project college able come left hours later scrolling instagram post one friends popped hanging pub course without clear day wanted nothing years meant nothing anymore know ive felt life felt whole world crushed heart started race trouble breathing understanding happened sent message asking hed lie said friends wan na hang even though hurts fucking hell told okay wished best blocked even though want lose best friend know beg thats wants years old literally friends hobbies social life achievements life parents probably disappointed fuck dead end job im aware people way worse low point even start even right feel ending one probably even notice im gone know strangers online probably care maybe someone tell need speak anyone already tired listeningand eliminates everyone know hope seem far deep end start ramble complain suppose beauty long typed diatribes stop reading im college junior good school im smart girl things school work occupy succeed well im pacified ive always way regardless always grappling extent debilitating panic problems ive nervous kid life parents swear saw still toddler cant think less corny way say im fragile years work stint therapy change growing parents divorced early father moved away came back visit every months kept us one bedroom home friend brothers sisters around lot drugs violence ten one men lived started molest went several years ran away never thankfully return house real contact father last heard diagnosed kind disease mother abrasive woman put lot pressure young lot problems home summer relationship become strained feel terrible pressing anxiety time interact partial threats punishment surrounding school shell pull pay tuition keep x z school everything cliched may sound love learning love work cant taken away demands impossible panic incited served make difficult disagreeable recently put things garbage bag sent way ive hopping house house around comes senses every often ill sneak back nowhere go applications later seemingly impossible job sort relate well people many friends hometown interacting new people terrifies usually become manic halfway sort social situation watch crash burn go back home fret next hour wallow im lonely top panic problem ive got serious undiagnosed heart problems testing next weeks find scope mother refuses pay critical expensive tests deadend situation used girl loved valued remember feeling beautiful talented happy remember tremendous capacity joy many things remember wanting feel terribly helpless sad time every aspect life point worry panic everything around makes sad lately ive wondering really bad choice end im religious cant conceive state consciousness experience regret done ill never even know everything love jeopardy people love far away may never back feel violent compulsion kill feel motivation desire keep living fight thick pervasive sadness fact even really know makes happy anymore know begin rebuild quite frankly want therapy question parents pay medication fantasize way feel unplugged want spoken badly done everythingas title suggest im done everything im ready end begun process yall advice really dont feel betterthe last half years really struggling mental health health anxiety gad depression every year seems worse getting point dont see light end tunnel nan died lock saw die think may traumatised bit live grandad bf moved got ill around second mother great comfort feel without dont really know turn ive strong mother grandad think im finally starting crack little good days seem matter im bad days ive thinking alot seriously redflag actually starting scare dont wan na feel helpless guess im looking hope better day fucking lonelyi wish wasnt awkward waste sperm fuck bot dont wan na write novel every time write post especially text says text post optional notice anything says optional sick lonelinessi time low past months always dealt depression anxiety really shitty people life including moms abusive boyfriend showed awful things put knives neck mother barely functioning alcoholic abuse refuses seek help father wants little later functioning alcoholic step mother able deal thanks help girlfriend time broke months ago came crashing felt lost person trust issues person judge together years moved within week new guy likes tell terrible yet super good looking makes feel awful weeks broke step mother gave choice move fathers live grandparents friends playing board games knew gave permission came storming house drunk screaming forgetting turn porch light every light door sick constant mental abuse received treated younger sibling packed things moved night life downward spiral looking forward college thanks know feel alone helpless whenever try talk someone psych barely see work feel judged want deal anymore sorry jumbled mess needed say want feel safe possible wish wake feel im good enough achieve goalsi graduated college years ago im still working minimum wage job got pay bills college feel life amount sincerely believe im good enough obtain greater success currently current job still living home parents give know believe life better im going end tonight everyone house goes bed im going go car garage turn let fumes kill ill long dead anyone wakes tries stop looking forward next yeari dont think make christmas even shame demand validation childmy problems insignificant im weak fucking piss baby im posting know ill never really kill im big bitch ive always pussy pain always given taken easy route going gets tough half assed attempts past theyre right say attention least case cry help fuck need saved ive got easy even know every fucking teenager now ive actually forgotten elementary cant fucking happy feel every day pulling teeth ive tried hard pickup bootstraps fake till make feel point grin bear turned bear fucking jesus dragging cross im wasting everyones time ive always hated reading peoples long text walls woes always seems fuck contribute person worse place advice give platitudes bullshit ive never posted anything always come back sub read posts debate commenting think always figured fucking kid nothing value contribute reason even stating ego inflating opinions contribute say care im horrible miserable confused fucking person cant force happy trying attain happiness fucking commodity fantasy pipe dream see stories know anymore trying live day day working bother fucking anything anymore sometimes follow heart leads wrong direction famous yet mom toxic masculinityi voice sounds gay im actively straight male kinda hurts know people know voice life thought deep hated wan na die test answer questions correct wrong answer gave wrong answer math happened answered questions correctly except got idk anymore studied months good grade doesnt work memes start rolling around lets give people lost lives moment silence although years aftermath casualties funny families may visited graves left many able still approximately thousand missing people dna might burnt fire enough pieces proper burial one immediate family lost give condolences shown dubbed italian rome cinema bad sounds presented rome film festival much art film festival film guaranteed charm delight audiences distinctive style droll humor ability draw comedy suffering others appealing cheery music spoton performances overriding sweetness humanitybut doomed oddity lack compelling story line leave average audiences wondering theyre watching anyone admires even got madebr br andersson gives us almost series dry skits running various themes money guy next table waldemar nowak nicks wallet rich bore talking cell phone restaurant glass brandy goes orders set posh suits made order deadbeat son calls celebrated father away elaborate gathering beg one loan shrink worries aloud depleted investments wife humps bed wearing shiny viking helmetbr br depression elementary teacher jessica nilsson breaks class husband called harpy rug salesman spouse pr fredriksson collapses clients hes called several men depressing dreams heythis sweden everybody depressed love problems fat bohemian couple perpetually breaking girl groupie fantasies lead guitarist micke eric bckman wives slam doors husbands start practice instruments music obviously unifying theme besides dashing guitarist theres tuba drum player whore dixierland band play marches funerals every scene added lilt music niftily links one sequence another raging storm outside window many scenes violent rain people thunder loud sounds battle raging across land unifies tone gives impression various scenes happening dauntingly tempestuous daybr br andersson master visual composition static middledistance shot film foggy graygreen look engineered dp gustav danielsson thats perfect evokes gloom swedish winter twinkles subtle colors directors wit ends every scene smile one almost never knew drabness beautiful perhaps one alexcanr sokurov creates effects sometimes different contexts within scenes film whole theres kind stillness comes visual style pacing scenes detached humanism overall outlook theres something fully mastered style thats calming reassuringbr br everything works equally well one may feel impatient succession barely related scenes read much sometimes work saturday night live writer need prozac scenes plainly move draw laugh obvious others fall little flatbr br scenes real zingers one obviously triumphant climax pure magic dreamdescribed visualized dreams another important thread girl groupie imagines wedding dress newly married fey guitarist ideal plays delicate series riffs crowd admirers gathers outside big window viewpoint switches outside window slides slowly away building dream newlyweds look train moving station take honeymoon fresh subtle rather sublime effectbr br eventually one may feel everything living du levande dream including recurring scene barman always striking bronze bell announcing last order time whereupon torpid customers rise tables go one drinkbr br italian reviewer called small great film thats right limits dozen ways greatness roy andersson little master medieval miniaturist inner comedies scandanavian gloom film unlike shown year cannes un certain regard selection swedish entry best foreign oscar hard say bergman think andersson worked famous elaborately produced tv commercials one see youtube bergman called best commercials world interesting see director whose craft subtle viewpoint start working longer segments time meanwhile good film buff really needs look thisbr br schadenfreude quite right word means delight misery others andersson teaching us delight misery us want die alonemy aunt diedmy grandpa diedmy cousin diednothing anythingi need end hellhole call lifesomeone shoot fucking head alreadyi nothing live forim fatim uglyim nothingi want die edge oblivioni want known useless piece shit hate life joe biden cringe vote dog instead thats right folks dog running us presidency year vote biden vote dog confessed crush today rejected eh happens lost teaching license really care still alivei made post time ago ready go got bunch comments trying convince wrong deserved live apologize confrontational turns major depressive disorder turned asshole couldnt see anything good world im antidepressants ive better times mean look world right come grateful people kept alive wanted let everyone know im okay now lack jealousya weeks ago decided starve death lasted week turns starving much much painful slitting wrists gunshot head anyways said robbed whatever drove people due father died mother two clicks short psycho maybe one click short anyways years intensive zazen know missing ive never jealous anyone im lived entire life without jealousy suppressed every day practice zazen becomes slightly clearer exactly wrong im sure sounds people imagine living whole life without jealousy people everyone know likes sure puts absolutely horrendous position without jealousy hard want someone someone hard kind music kind music jealousy people large extent base entire identities ive never remember exactly supposed start mid twenties life seems lost cause im tired fault lol particular exam ive studying homework stuff almost hrs tired wan na rest eyes studying advanced next lessons im done yayyy fuck pcmr got banned rpcmasterrace posted meme apparently shitty mods assholes turned blame told go hell refused respond asked awnser unban said every message send respond days wouldnt respond either way kinda softlocked told gth feels good honestly going start deleting social media go back isolating fucking constantly even try proud hard work others even fucking point done trying love even live anyones standards fucking sick envy hate sick always angry sick finally start talking problems asshole says someone always worse look bright side almost problems fucking matteri done fucking give honesty start drinking fucking done heres angrybitter poem wrote valentines day lol plz read perhaps cold warmth within soul perhaps dangerous far beyond mold perhaps blasphemous breed born far bold perhaps empty loves sold ampxb wipe smile face lose stupid acted gaze erase name phase turn rotten bitter page curse ring silver sting hope fall lose wings ampxb perhaps hardened sickened tastes perhaps blackened scarred take perhaps rabid canines bite unchained perhaps rancid blood name engraved ampxb eyes betray nature sculpture crater youre sturm without drang sweet sour tang youre game without show without money blow ampxb perhaps frail spine beneath talk perhaps stale fat even walk perhaps ugly yet thought top perhaps dead lifeless afterthought well wanted honesty thats say never want let go better way ughi took ten norcos lot vodka im fuxkup cant even kill fml drop comment ill stalk profile tell u think u read title sums gone soonill soon probably couple months now taking amtrak dallas finding tall enough building jump im sick shit cant thisi control alive sense obligation family ive going job agencies know justify existence somehow need useful im selfish time know im fundamentally useless im incapable people dont even think life happening sense agency im shit want make parents proud thats need feel im use im taking space cant anymore im fucking close ending stupid insignificant self im terrified ill end breaking promise made family wouldnt cant live hate hate much anyone want chat im looking nice conversations hopefully make friends almost years clinical depression ive finally started genuine attempt pull one people never see best ive never able bee good enough standards set kinda anorexia aspects life guess always problem example swimmer actually pretty good swimmer first year high school swimming almost made state championships fact times good enough place pretty well state team really good youre able send certain amount people state back saw good enough couldnt see past fact didnt make never even considered fact first year never even considered fact multiple gold medals jv meets races saw enough last pretty muchyear gained pounds pounds insanely depressed ashamed past months massive problem way pretty much anything sports need back shape finally got motivation start turning life around right now im going try start getting regular exercise start eating healthier im going consistent sleep schedule finally start homework sorry sucks im pretty trash writer tldr finally got motivation start trying pull depression endsive tried many times held one person loved cared found never nothing lose nobody needs much need one person needed need cant fucking live anymore everyone better without ive lost many fucking people last one turns give shit cant wait fucking leave world ive wanting years old fucking time im sorry better way nut november day weekend finally fucking weekend nothing much happened today sports went school thats realy hornyness slowing theory still stands strong think oh yeah ate pizza today pretty bangin anyways time go bed good luck brave soldiers good night morning dont know set datei set date september next year im want romantically emotionally im going im age friends starting families dont time romantic prospects end negatively blowing face im tired lonely im going way rest life might well end life early uhh got damn uhh ive thinking redflag loti think daily set desk work think awesome constant torment recently got divorced woman put depression irritability anymore im year old man going home apartment alone one share life odd feeling know months ago things fine great job nice house school working masters rocky semi stable relationship amazing dogsto coming home silence reason done parents brother thought pain dealing committing act stops tracks never hope stay committed text ex still things pretty cordial part already started looking someone already looking relationship act high mighty already slept someone im even close ready relationship even reality people suck tell everything ok pass hard see im currently standingfuuuuuucccckkkkk fun fact day three five american bear dog extinct neither bear dog yellow crab multiple white hairs body catch bacteria feed thermal vents bacteria deep dark areas ocean dont go process photosynthesis chemosynthesis process turning minerals thermal vents energy getting close hanging myselfim sick nothing working doubt waiting help falling apartfuck trough away care wife gone week well sure cheating fuck im two kids love dearly family grandmother grandfather sisters younger im poor drowning debt starting see way people morn months everyone go lives question ive struggling last months will actually people favour looks yes removing picture stop holding every one back suggestions guys words help im end handle right now crazy person hereim sure belongs think years ive becomestrong guess enough make real attempts taking life thoughts lately thoughts become loud know society stigma redflag depression tired fighting tired fighting pass pain ones love know know thats redflag pass pain others tired thoughts loud years ago friend found getting ready hang years therapy years trying antidepressant new antidepressant nothing makes thoughts go away makes less vocal makes shy away people one know know never normal think nice life talk someone frankly honestly without fear locked medicated treated nut case almost wonder even help dont really know dof new account btw reasons cut arms thighs pretty bad really fkn hurts im bleeding quite bit im gon na overdose min thicklarge hoodie hide cuts buuut blood getting idek mum walked saw bed leg luckily saw cuts got away saying period meds next im gon na overdose now idek anymore im really sorry good bye video thought good bye video case die bye time said goodbye world rest peace letting spirit free m british ask random stuff long train journey rn bored af ask random stuff please yeh eighties savage steve holland put three movies two classics seems small genre absurdist teen comedies third got college measure better dead one mainly lack john cusack curtis armstrong except tiny cameobr br one crazy summer underrated movie lots great characterizations gags recall savage steves movies vilified brain dead time three movies drifted childrens tv use movies likes suicidal falling apart need shoulder cry onive really bad night know tonight specifically lot stress ive kept bottled come pouring feel passing now im still emotional edge itd nice talk someone close friends asleep honestly want vent anyone know well anyway long story short im really depressed frustrated frightened sad think im calm enough make tomorrow tomorrow today cant see way anymore itd nice talk anyone throwaway aim disposablerobot three months talking one friend call free pm due atts gophone policies whenever away texting nokia tracphone ancient indestructible brick phone sister lashing ungrateful allowed come use internet triggered snapping back due something cant remember stopped asking ended losing contact everyone one friend talk maybe twice week couple hours shed try keep apprised stuff going folks phonecalls ended bring spark bloomed us couple enough negativity feelings selfhatred selfdisgust believing everything father dumped slowly took italian among great neargreat films available today year turning point featurelength film especially america lois webers hypocrites cecil b demilles cheat course dw griffiths birth nation set new benchmarks art additionally year russian filmmaker yevgeni bauer made two best pictures death daydreams french serial les vampires admirers today although disagree emergence featurelength film led europe mainly denmark france italy dominance market degree art shifted across atlantic br br overriding artistic achievement italian stunning often innovative cinematography picturesque sunsets mobile framing including brief overhead angled shot italian racing buy wedding ring another shot holding onto moving car general wise use varied camera angles expert lighting throughout especially amazing shot closeup italian enraged slowly approaches camera extreme closeup reference dw griffiths musketeers pig alley hes enraged environment even begins shake around angerbr br unfortunately cinematographer appears unknown director although originally without credit film known reginald barker five films made ince available today rather unremarkable civilization worked large production deeply flawed movie way id guess one various cinematographers worked civilization photographed italianbr br moreover entire production advanced venice new york well rendered despite film shot los angeles romanticized venice san francisco ethnic slums new york extensive flashbacks although perhaps one two many especially clever framing narrative read book character played actor george beban lead inner main narrative reading story briefly framed opening beginning closing end curtain drapes la theatre reflected within inner story revenge climax childs room opening closing window curtains parallel editing incamera dissolves irises handled expertly additionally beban clara williams wife play parts wellbr br hand italian drawbacks films early moments comedy clash rather disharmoniously latter parts harsh heavy melodrama although environmental changes romanticized italy naturalistic new york works wellmostly supported lighting photography harsh dissolution american dream film enhanced stark photography must poignant immigrant classes comprised disproportionately large population moviegoing public back corrigan character foreshadowed brief introduction campaigning another politician seems inadequate later centrality italians revenge addition filmmakers either medically naf careless explain lack breastfeeding infant unwarranted faith healing powers quietness child aside deficiencies plot italian exceptionally well made sister made lip bleed got scot free making fun show watching decided good response kick made phone fly face lip met tooth bled grabbed said hurt back go talk parents makes sound super aggressive made case fair mouthed tad bit mom said im kid anymore keep mind im say sister either mom says thirfuckingteen says word teen point parents considered backtalk dad even said punch mouth mouthed fucking hate sister makes life slog go ive honestly considered killing wont worry ive got people need live sister awful made forget thanks letting rant good one march year rejections finally got dream job happier everything going well lost members family took week result job acted supportive time think affect anything less two weeks ago moved city job based cementing new stage lifeand today went office discover passing probation terminating employment immediatelythis came shock mention performance past outside struggling bereavement seems front supportive people mental health issues reality want deal people themi broken know worked hard job pandemic ruined life even right mental health always finds way fuck every good thing life alone new city joball healing done last couple months bc bereavement disappeared back square one feel life never good id rather dead take anymore bc disgusting failure lost dream job working hard want live anymore financial guilt wearing downmy family poor celebrate christmas year fault student loans moving expenses medical bills im basically one big walking debt machine even know bother living make everything worse even mom finally fed claims im reason depression spent today sitting home dad rest family splintered side continent agreed pretend everything fine fine cant stop thinking life better everyone around dead feel haunted thought im starting genuinely think truth chan new york gets involved attempt sabotage new aircraft designbr br war year away reaching america second world war already raging everywhere world colored everything people probably realized war coming war mentioned fact film deals production planes least alludes mystery pretty good notion plane sabotage lends nicely couple rather tense moments certain talking charlie chan certain live fight another day guarantee condition whether anyone around survivebr br really film great deal one nest far worst one truly rare things truly enjoyable one definitely worth look six ihappy broke ex today relationship really bad started good hanging onto unrealistic expectations anymore dont love havent long time didnt realise broke got back together times knew yeah well anymore im free pain wont hurt potential new boyfriend messaged talked called seems really nice d long distance thing last moving quickly bad apparently feel kinda free rn happy tomorrow come ill find feeling hollow sad anyway wanted share good feeling feel every months hey ladies gents scared dark well oh boy trick might sound silly trust lets say room coat corner room looks little scary might ask well worry friend look ur getting scared say fuck middle fingers orrr lets say ur scared cuz think ur followed either say look bro ik following come already use know anyone looking make sure say bored tone possibly turn around walk away calmly jokes aside actually works deserve die im meant diekinda long story one vent high school gang stole lied ended peoples lives sold drugs kidnapped people sell friends dope watch die wanted money steal money parents sisters classmates slowly start see friends disappear one one lead girls isolated areas knock throw trunk never see hear met girl fell love made everything worse gave kokain hooked right away anything reckless actions getting fights constantly yelling abusing family abusing friends soon girl gon na married kids clean leave awful town forever week gon na leave rival gang jumped us girl dreams girl loved anything world future wife gang raped front still hear screams begging help make stop pinned ground made watch done shot head screamed cried uncontrollably beat half death passed woke hospital hand cuffed bed cops murder possession drugs attempted murder mother made plea insanity im ive back society months job live one moms ex boyfriends family wont talk im alone deserve regret everything ive done wish go back meant life done meant cause pain suffering weather wanted one read im alright needed chest deserve die plan making sure happens hell sure spot reserved im gon na try todaydown river hope courage close eyes walk im sorry cant go ill miss idki dont know want live think lot lot cant cant leave brother want caddyshack dreadful reputation due fact sequel highlyheld classic people criticised film lot grounds ultimately hark back fact caddyshackbr br begin saying take caddyshack equation consider film merits think unfair movie lot common predecessor classrelated themes snobs versus slobs desire fit class prevalent first movie two things truly lacking bill murray rodney dangerfield replaced dan ackroyd jackie mason respectivelybr br now try argue ackroyd comes close murray movie jackie mason admirable successor dangerfield comes cross dangerfield arnold stang without biting heavily either say anywhere close funny dangerfield caddyshack whole lot point character dilemma filmbr br chevy chase pops handful times movie another common complaint maybe particular naysayers notice popped times first movie money scenes lot funnier somewhat overdirectedbr br im subject really overdirection movie brings comes across far selfconscious attempts laugh many jokes laboured theres far much gopher seems taken far anthropomorphic personality voice case grasp idea meant funnybr br characters similarly hammered home particularly smarmy yuppy kids jackie mason rarely misses beat consistently likable funny need tango sequence director clearly school thought harold ramis suggest caddyshack subtle jokes little overcooked unnecessarily embellished quirky music cuebr br things considered fun goofy movie something say class identity movies time saying put appallingly low rating imdb check wish couragei wish bring offing know whats stopping want nothing overcome barrier gaming gaming rn fools wake sheeple done big pharmas otter propagandas implant otter microchips mind devolve human otters mind wake sheeple cant take agony killing long story short name alfred florin suffering ocd pure now young age shook hands ocd anxiety problems big deal present days go away without huge effort sickness struck hard felt presence hard possession let continue story first ocd encounter stepped guys foot guess may wondering whats wrong means well romania urban myth goes step someones foot person step back mother dies well many people around cause mayor elecrion day stepped guys foot figure went cause happened fast disappeared crowd instant well got home thought fact mom dead cause stepped guy foot really scared anything little worried know stupid even year old yeah well guess hours passed started thinking obsessive way mom die etc bad thoughts chest started burning everything say fight back believe real started crying pain made feel life ruined well passed really soon guess next day kind ok tell anyone experience till age various exeperiences one bother long run let give examples thinking biomechanics repetitive body movements stop felt hit right spot movement right one sae really fcked thing website soup made fetus well saw mind started telling enjoy eat stop imagining eating even though hated images pure hell cause religious person made feel let god whenever go church imagine jesus mary sex stop thinking images mind movies leave church feeling crap made feel bad person actually crippled thoughts went really fast affect life long run repeat periods feel bad depressed felt ache chest soul hurt chest really emotional sudden scared easily cry really fast let talk abot age friend believe jesus argue day long religous stuff explaining thing every single day hours day every damn day caused lot stress really wanted help felt duty stop tears help god well one day sitting computer one questions god popped head tried answer answer right seesrched google saw different responses guess single answer made feel ok felt thirst truth next minutes chest lighted little little pain getting stronger searching searching answer guess question transformed questions per secondin mind felt tornado questions making soul brain hurt thing world day spent wandering streets cause sit still chest soul fire mind full questions walking mad man looking straight nothingness walking trying give answer questions slowly strating realize going hell cause started doubting god works made chest explode bursted tears biggest badeest panick attack experienced first mom came home work keep telling soul aches know distressed situation thinking teenage thing pass nightime came pain question king gone omnipresent bed disaster got knees prayed tomorrow end days next day thing happened got point sleep mom listen radio night long day long hear brain telling going hell images burning hell glued mind soul well went months father came home abroad went psychiatrist thing went ok psychiatrist care took years understand wrong seeing gave pills years never therapy fear leaving treatment behind leaving psychiatrist cause thought one understand continued years fifth year pils seeing psychiatrist etc seeing psychiatrist everything bad bearable life shit cope years branches ocd hocd fobias religious ocd blah blah guess tasted hocd wrecked life went champ last year fifth met laura new ocd chapter began retroacrive jealousy primary enemy now dont scars ocd episodes still depreseed angry full pain met one thing t hopeless hope better met march different sexual really colorful sexual experiences seamed slutty talking sexual past black men life cheated ex cause horny stuff kissed one night saw something something special even talked person funny nice personality toghether one day stop thinking men talked ocd started kicking months reltionship ocd came ruined us way unabe please sexualy unable kiss got point wanted break inch got kind ok good ok well toghether getting ready exam august found put cheated june ex alin several times month talking time guess started talking april found august forgave strict month understand wrong wrecked relationship period anger lighted ai started talking ex nothing romantic random talk touch anything stopped talking middle september cause feel anger good need forgive well everthing went really good found club one night date september went best friend recently got relationship guess dude cheated ex alin called paul went club paul best friend andreea teodor dude wich seeing relationship ex night got drunk drugs asked teodor stop seeing eachother left asked leaving crazies paul andreea end night spitted dude cause intervened shouting paul wants fight laura said fight spitted teodor said laura asked come back take back home chill said true lied many things know believe forgave night ocd started wrecking life found contacted ex slept put anger twice regret feel anything laura found got problem ok new start though trust time ago stop asking questions details past cheating minor details anything answer feel better hour kicks stop getting mental movies images hearing things man ablut teodor alin paul etc really need back track seems really hard told order work need stop talking men going club stol stop etc right go specialist really cares please help every word matters please tell relationship worth anything forgive cant stop getting images brain tells betrayed twice alin twice night club good enough self esteem wrecked cant even go walk cause everytime see someone muscular attractive way ocd teels girlfriend cause better look admires ai really jealous lock shell sometimes feel little wounded boy wants understood loved hard live really plastic harsh world nobody cares feeling chase money hell sorry grammar mistakes spot well thanks reading help study physics pretty pls cant concentrate know anything chapters tommorow exam im grade help people posting wooden legos theres wiling away time anyone agree tried asking advice help reddit got nothing hatei nothing regrets whoever sees hope encourages nicer strangers never know someone going thank goodbye reddit strength left goodbye update balls hello today good day balls feel back normal aching last days im pleased means go doctors feel balls unless pain comes back reason miss school want fall asleep bus way home wake eyes feeling cold sleepy hoodie keeping comfy getting bus barely able walk way home tired much bones hurt day school home let fall onto bed fall asleep grandma wakes lunch told teacher use protection last accident didnt listen phone crack front back kept saying use case screen protector preferred phone unprotected look beautiful iphone pro max doesnt even single crack use protection sorry everyone last post weird im weird karma real car running hour turn skirt bread quote world history teacher aztecs needed chad blood feel urge grow dont im panic mode tonight dont know whether save fun thing motorcycle license motorcycle im kind panicking cause make wrong choice never around thing dont know im idea im life suicidal day againi felt ok days today collapsed started panicking classes didnt show feel failure im sure love partner feel sick say love doesnt feel right said wasnt sure felt load shit happened us told cruel bow im terrified hell lose shit tell feel dont even know feel im starting make friends class matter time hate jake everyone hate eventually im scared going happen want isolate stay dorm room slash wrists clever entertaining film backroom battling went choose successor johnny carson tonight show movies ultimate thesis david lettermans superior comedic talents overlooked controversial nature show diminished enthronement inferior jay leno leading comedy program television simply untrue anyone watched leno letterman perform see hard simple truth exactly one nbc exec stated film jay leno funniest man america david letterman realize much machinations film become irrelevant ultimately whole film amounts little sour grapes letterman fans accept better comic chosen people whose business know kind things final proof despite lettermans early lead possibly hype emerged battle tonight show succession lenos show consistently proved popular thus mind least refuting lettermans claims unfairly robbed rightful inheritance need advice suicidal friendme ben friends forever hes struggled anxiety depression long remember first time mentioned redflag years ago seemed thought concept back past year hes problems finding meaning life understanding wants problems making friends ive one confidants everything hes bro love really taking toll ive told issues depression well always seem take backseat suicidal fact suicidal makes feel need matter selfish turn never make false promises never tell going better normally listen try tell im love normally go anywhere drinks lot lot drugs drinks hell call times night hell text hes work feels always tells hes sorry uses tells hes shit friend nothing live tell im ill always know lot say tell therapy immediately hes going need back well im friend seems awful impossible cant keep im really hurting cant help know im sorry poorly structured help advice give nice thank know writing feel post long remember making fake personality acting everything okay making sure one worried mental health getting worse worse everyday know much long keep going wish talk someone around depression feel deserve help think ending everyday make accident wish make go away note everyonedear everyone depression ive never suicidal something society everyone drowns people suffering ones going hell one possibly imagine people society drowns fucking reason reading know love im year old kid behind screen truly love ive got empathy sympathy combined make understand pain suffering cry read note simple someones depressed cry someone tells cried last night empathy works sub chose important subject matter im redflag prevention club school care matter tell reason planet lose lose planet every single person worth everything depressed suicidal please call text swear im hesitate call redflag prevention line loved entire community community people people choose remember people come comment love optional sub yet sub almost supporters remember loved please call text dm need someone love sincerely colin zimmer welp started use twitter deleting previous account able handle negativity coming blm hope goddamn god dragged clusterfuck fire drama controversy twitter honestly previous time grown point felt bad wanting take part blm action preserve mental health honestly im gon na stop giving fuck anything negative campaing justice twitter even people call devil silence violence fucking propagandaleave fuck alone choose avoid negative topics film blew away thought knew little attica prison riot watching see knew nothing story told relationship attorney black inmate personal story two men unfolding courtroom drama riveting flashback sequences prison awesome hard believe documentary footage real great piece drama incredible lesson important chapter american history im ebert roeper give two thumbs think oopsie posted saying reply personal way every comment comments later ow realized friend better every aspect life ive friends years noticed actually better everything naturally talented know build selfesteem want always compare want hobbies talent feel unmotivated know practice makes perfect know better look realize much better person glad grew simping pokimane watching stupid pokmon shit waste money dumb pokmon cards donate money pokimane even reads name want one day might bf knows got tested covid recently good stick nose unpleasant feeling world megathicc fuck see everywhere want father paid debt leave kids want someone kill quickly whether intentional maybe shoot back head someone run truck someone decides push front high speed trainmental health issues make extremely difficult enjoy life especially paranoid intrusive thoughts tried therapy helps temporarily comes back shortly becomes even worse drink take drugs eat healthily exercise yet nothing helps reason still around want hurt friends family hope someone kills yeari still accomplished anything single thing report due tomorrow fucked around jackshit tonight end know think normalas long remember iv hadthoughts thoughts killing others thoughts id away kill know normal something talk parents mean really wants kid say momdad im suicidal person thinks killing others honest know actually act thoughts still mere fading ideas think sometimes quite stop thinking idiot karma whores fake parent deaths deadly diseases mom recently died getting free coins memberships im depressed getting nothing really hate stupid humans stupid fake number account really idiotic wrong fake hard things deal week membership one things happen really close people died well hope see feel people terrible things happen nothing people great day anyone making jokes dementia grandma stage dementia spent hour today within hour said people wanted kill gon na kill sick cried laughed cried destroyed family life please dont make jokes sake everyone affected disease im sooni cant take anymore im abused home sucks dental issues bring pain daily got braces foreign place cause parents insisted mess job developed tmj tooth ache due clenching got root canal failed hurts feel burning sensation daily tooth im scared removed cause im got done front tooth life hell anyone nervous around hot girls even though interested happens lot wish eradicate feeling whenever going upload meme something happened rteenagers image option went away ill likely dead soon now next weekits easiest way take pill never wake ill finally feel sense tranquility cant remember feeling cant remember last time genuinely felt peace mind torturing skinning alive laughing face voices finally gone demons gone ampxb todays date th december near christmas new years close family celebrations love family much know love deserve feel pain losing son brother kindest souls cant carry living nightmare someone elses happiness im pain unimaginable scary quick judge think whiny fucking teenager please remember never know whats happened end heartache constant hammering already shattered bleeding screaming heart whenever think cant worse always somehow gets worse brother leave fair cant anymore hurts hurts much ive tried best ive reached limits ive let everyone around destroyed image think turn back anymore ive taken several ritalin pills heart rate keeps jumping beats per minute im hallucinating seeing glimmers light zoom past eyes hospital last week thing took several ritalin pills causing seizure dislocating shoulder im sitting bed writing arm mental pain hope another seizure leading stuck hospital family crying doctors giving meds writing reports sending municipality social services family done nothing wrong whats happened last six months recognize ampxb im sorry love mom love dad love bro almost iti almost last month really close didnt regret feel couldve missed chance end pain im really trying stay alive feels one everyone life either cruel abusive flat uncaring try reach people love talk say shit im sorry worse im trying hard find fit live go work come home cook take care pay bills sleep without wishing dead crying day thats want dont even want rich successful dont even want love dont need amazing career dont need excitement popularity admiration want peace maybe tiny bit understanding want love dont feel ask much im tired living stressed want diei feel everything much im frustrated want cry time cant find summer job know im going want cry im sick people trying form relationships close bc im going fuck one guy really really im ready relationship im really going ruin life bc upset angry time cant help first relationship ended months ago went years abusive asshole suicidal issues met worst part personal struggle got thankfully thanks im happy got worse blamed said rude things yelled come home college older dropped bc hes scumbag cant anything use sex rape yell essentially tell vagina disgusting okay help family brings time need fucking reminder mom fucking defends say hes scum earth goes hes hard life oh im sorry give excuse rude even tried talk said thats lost cause never even bothered mention force sex use condom always worried pregnant never brought bc bother little cared left gone mother moron smokes severe asthma hospital time cant ask help bc always center attention probably money pulled help fucked relationship years ago pretend even care rather move never speak family cant money stupid need talk mom im want turn nasty bitch finances one thing really stress help already worried mother go hospital weekend time im done want move leave bc im much happier college never see sister rude really love dad going stay home dog baby died months ago reason anymore im beyond frustrated want stop ceyinfn stop hurting people help cant bc mother center attention want extended family think im looney bc need help want die done last time felt really bad years ago im now im frustrated want leave im sorry rant im really frustrated even got even made sense thank much random guy bc really sweetheart nice want break hes sweet nice tell cares never takes advantage anything always support part wants leave bc im tired people seeing vulnerable upset tiny part still worried might try hurt worry much anymore im worried im going break make suicidal starring annmargret frederic forrest cathryn damon donald moffat lonny chapman patricia smith directed john erman months live little time plan future share sake children must succeedbr br lucile fray annmargret caring mother young children loving wife ivan frederic forrest man almost crippled arthritis dying stricken terminal illness months left live husband tormented painful truth turns bottle broken heart lucile forced accept never able cope father alone br br sake children loves much young mother must make agonising decision br br inspired reallife events love children tribute one womans courage strength story sacrifice dying mothers undying lovebr br one best films seen cried start finish review movie date really trashes stars movie usually read user comments give idea expect movie know much unfortunate many comments certain tile one review unreasonably trashes movie cast idea expect read review watching title know venom movie stars came douglas blondell talented attractive people usually delivered even material greatest found movie performances fun enjoyable one great alltime classics pleasant funny diversionmuch hope newer movies fan stars disappointed im looking someone art webcomic ive come preferably find someone help within age range basically short story id turn webcomic cant art need find artist right now story planned art last thing list eye reveals sound cool want eye reveal appreciation post u pog think last post giving apologize anyone ive disappointedi tried everything even learning new profession turns im terrible learner shitty coder im shitty person thank god still job 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speak income spend days computer dicking around waiting time passes ive signed gym go every moment available fiance drop far walk spend day around house friends friends australia longer speak due huge timezones going separate ways life fiances friends know well enough tried hard know one antisocial angry time one gone breakup feels world ending others live far away one town know live retirement community nothing theres gas station tim hortons stores voila feel life right now shit lot people told stupid travelling young age regretted moving canada fiance one bit love death know sounds cliche given age really happy except every day comes home feel life waste space bored frustrated australia honour roll student high achiever live learning bettering ive tried hard put spare time use tried learn programming another language art etc right feel unmotivated thought might wasting away another year bothers end family aside fiance mother schizophrenic paranoid abusive mentally physically left lot scars mental physical haunts dreams every night even though im another country still jump every often acidentally spill something swear stub toe scared behind ready beat againor worse combined fanciful events childhood keeps sleeping well night period know need see counsellor thisi know need someone talk right healthcare money pay never let things bother always always try look bright side everything hitting hard lately wisdom teeth theyre infected badly fiance going use savings pay know bothers know communicate listen fault good man rough time friendships relationships hes trying change desperately hes extremely stressed moment works every day goes college eight hours day time comes home wants relax cant even due school work want bother problems need help reddit ive tried stay positive entire life theres lot backstory summarizes stuff bothers moment feel lonely bored upset everything sort hitting onceand feel stupid even complaining tldr cant work study anything living another country till government says feel waste space first time life everything bad happened getting dont happeningim usually dead inside dont usually cry laugh past days crying much something litteraly crying couldnt even sleep made little happy know still emotion im sad depressed dont even know im suicidali cant even talk ton even know im suicidal im frustrated want stab say number give song playlist music heavy recommend listen speaker headphones best experience dm want link altman scorsese twisted sex together one greatest american films past years boogie nights make huge initial splash still think received credit deserves immediate clamor surrounding film porn movie marky mark wholly without merit paul thomas anderson created less stunning representation pursuit subsequent loss american dream thing still existsbr br living box confessional past years boogie nights tells literal riseandfall tale young eddie adams wahlberg eddie dopey kid torrance california wants something life room soaked musclebound naive americana dreams far bigger potential quite large hisspecial gift baldheaded southern gent quickly raises attention eyebrows booming omnipresent adult film industry jack horner burt reynolds films twinkleeyed papa bear gets wind eddies hidden talent decides put moviebr br say deepthroat eddie changed name dirk diggler exposed massive member wideeyed public fame fortune make dirks acquaintance bevy local porn celebs friends coworkers become makeshift family soon proves sunday picnic feelgood s give way cokeaddled videofriendly s dirk co begin dangerous backslide br br anderson put everything glorious moving epic sizzles never fizzles nary frame monumental picture wasted characters dialogue live us long elo fades soundtrack see one immediately watch againbr br thoughts cocacola brand name cocacola originally contained cocaine cola sodasoft drink coca wasis short cocaine contracted coca cola named two main factors st released cocaine cola rest case likely majority knew plz dont hate committed mentally therapy knew pay therapist click keep trying someone redflag got better weeks leading therapy started unusually good mentioned really unusually good cemented depression less gone six weeks two months four days sober pretty confident depression really going working hard making real practical progress much pussy want external force fate mei mistake failed experiment simply born wrong timeline got point bedridden sick conscience thinking others stop shit god fucking already willing fucking tell fucking exist fucking fag ready die life tiring want go sleepi want make people depressedsuicidal feel better reality feel envious go deal shit anymore think way dress nicer got rid bummy clothes option wear nice clothes plan buy nice clothes look put together even dream thought killing myselfit felt one heavy days weight ignored couldnt distract way chest felt heavy limbs help looked looking way hide end day people finally end fairly crowded place see edge felt jumping saw swear ignored though carefully observed place best part somebody offered sleep medicine spit first cup drank suddenly went near held fake doesnt want caught place anything dont want settle lies im awake limbs hurt carried grom dream feel heaviness enveloping holds people id rather holding accidentally gave wound recently knife cooking ive wanting purpose help hope dream better tomorrow cant wait move mother never stand corrected word always final said wiping countertops part dishes simply true point got mad clean kitchen dishes dishes fucking asked comes kitchen sees countertops still dirty wouldve cleaned said clean kitchen said dishes fact kitchen clean fault petty rant shit annoying whenever whats asked always two sisters helping clean dont always complain ignore problem yelled still end holy shit evil great karma posts want karma posts learn pattern works different subs look hot importantly thursday thive planning redflag thursday th month now day mock exams take place even feel ounce stress anything stops putting work anything ive got future im scared take single step comfort zone anxious ask help past week ive spent nights bed wanting cry badly nothing comes im void nothingness even want talk close friends ill come across attention seeking im going see school day probably end finally iam done lifei wan na live anymore suiciding today years training finally made basic post one liner joke hopefully awards want wear cute blouse shit tie ribbon know tie cant wear need helpi know anymore years ive talked anyone think guts actually kill time feel need ive never real friends entire life friends used longer close grown distant everyone way connecting people family spoken really long time one person talk life see way want one real life friend go watch movie talk live half way across world family ive away know young attend university culture america different long company think thats reason connect people always introvert try talk make friends people class nobody wants really hang theyre classmate friends say college students much older average one age talk connect chemical engineering classes filled bunch people years older finals days think im going end life feel people looked past im smart mean anything long someone along im sorry im killing tonight cant find gutsall thats missing letting hang need avoid pain doesnt let rid please ive enough suffering help finish help freed vote public execution gender switchers already chance us men men women women bad disgusting among us discord vc anyone wants play among us gc vc let know friend rn need least people stupid tonight wan na dielike really stupid set date tomorrow appear court now fucked really bad im stupid sixteen year old really loving life good amount time decent school holding full time well paying job age area good relationship family friends feel dying mightve screwed enough fucked legally ways beyond comfort level im legal expert legal advice subreddit ill spare details sucks wan na lose everything ive finally gotten happy independent life id honestly rather die therapists never understand see walking diagnosis person everything say symptom believed im never person possibly normal reactions im ill brain damaged low iq ffsfuck fuck bipolar bpd ptsd turned believe ptsd claim gave months long withdrawals drug put took horrendous flashbacks till day ends breakdowns oh must anxiety opinion im manifesting symptoms illness way withdrawals bad f fuck im thankful support benzobuddiesorg im done life tried yrs im dead inside waiting pets go never live without overthinking whole thing ive close friends girl years anything bad happens im always stuck thick thin listened vents tried help today posted friend appreciation post friend group mentioned every girl close mentioned tells time closest friend group talk rest forgot add name felt kind left name slip mind everything barely appreciation anyone name listed felt sad got thinking really important convenience lately feeling best either kind sent edge overthinking nothing worry spoilers read james m cain novel postman always rings twice movie based compare film version seen love us version entitled postmanbr br even better gem italy read mutilated editing many blatant references fascist regime well matter left fine piece cinema apparently forerunner neorealist movement filmmaking one certainly see despite whatever harsh editing go pervading sense societal cultural well personal oppression remains hanging heavy protagonists face many limits lifebr br consider gino young drifter well educated unemployed resorting stowing away stealing conning people order one pair shoes threadbare virtually uselessbr br giovanna sees way yet kept going giovanna oppressed loveless marriage older man money job working trattoria husband slaving away behind bar kitchen sex past limited options decided marry restaurantgas station owner giuseppe bregana played juan de landa anyway knowing make happy tells gino feels sick every time bregana touches herbr br pretext helping bregana fix car sending village buy needed part fact pocketed gino wins breganas favor promising fix broken water pump water symbolizing life lack thereof left alone giovanna immediately start heated passionate yet volatile love affairbr br gino soon feels stifled relationship feels need move giovanna proposes dispose husband wanting part gino leaves town train ride afford kindly paid another gypsytype man named spagnolo fellow train passenger gino spagnolo represents sort freedom become friends spagnolo symbolizes ginos morality conscience traveling finding work carnival together finally gino steady employment dismay yet love giovanna month passed bregana wife go carnival bregana persuades gino go back home live work handy aroundbr br weakwilled resist knowing reunite giovanna gino agrees goes back stay couple gives ginas demands rid husband evil deed done giovanna becomes coldblooded seeming little conscience guilt shame eat away gino hurting man never harm much wants leave briefly inextricably linked must face consequencesbr br liked way spagnolo character came back ginos life act judge misdeeds good interesting adding another dimension storybr br us version lana turner john garfield gets bit lost quagmire peripheral characters especially cops lawyers ossessione well concentrate much psychological effects crime lovers alone gives final outcome even potency makes powerful statement reinforcing helplessness inherent society characters must livebr br minor quibble amount time hardly elapses undying love pronounced lovers quickly kill husband botched first attempt us version ginos quicktoescalate relationship dancerhooker quickly profess love well willing risk great deal man met rather unrealistic found timeframe problem quite distracting made think must missed something somewhere well worth viewers time acting direction uniformly good throughout recommended im nobodys first choicetheres single person world choose first anything im always backup friends family sports nobody come ask hang without asking somebody first saying honestly love partner problem push away problems depression redflag bad life experiences even though trying work point start relationship without ruining least redflaging partner sucksthe problem even know healthy relationship looks chances pretty high let abused learned spot stuff even worse unknowingly become abuserit sad admit someone right now sometimes life sucks still try work hearing stuff thatespecially ask comment might find someone long stay depends point find partner worry yeah gets sadder often hear tf make work know work dont want feel reassured friends didnt use phone last night cause watching netflix next morning discover asking good disappeared couple hours makes feel wanted noticed lol crush crush epic game gril lik say yes halway date mcdonalds buy epic game kids us kid kid hav strok ned medisin halpydydisdbegs film possible find really good performance barbara bach beautiful cinematography stately incredibly clean creepy old house unexpected virtuoso performance unseen picked used copy film interested seeing bach id viewed spy loved love really classically beautiful actresses appreciate even act little start nice fresh premise tv reporter bach walks boyfriend goes cover festival california town solvang celebrates swedish ancestry putting big folk festival brings along camerawoman happens sister another associate late karen lamm plays bachs sister know celebrities ladies married funny watching bach mrs ringo starr lamm mrs dennis wilson going street sisterly quarrel anyway bachs disgruntled beau follows solvang hes done arguing theres lot feeling still wan na watch tear anymore downthedrain football career ladies arrive solvang assignment station find reservations given away someone maybe bachs boyfriend think wheres gon na stay gals ask around nowhere go mistakenly trying old hotel serves museum catch interest proprietor mr keller late sidney lassick decides gentleman lodge home insisting wife happy receive oh next thing know keller making whispered phone call wife warning companys coming threatening shed better play along trouble paradise ladies eager settle back solvang shoot footage interview swedes one girls feel good bach lamm leave behind wondering mrs keller played heartbreakingly pretty lelia goldoni looks lost best pal speaking undertheweather vicki slips clothes gets nice hot tub realizing keller crept room inspect keyhole hears thinks hes come deliver linen calls thanks lassick great job scene expressing anguish fat old peeping tom long enough look hes left poor vicki tumbles bed nap gets yanked real fast really decent frightening round action something big apparently crept grille floor unseen lamm comes home next bach finishing argument beau cant find anyone house knocks plate fruit kitchen hands knees collect hair fashionable scarf sway temptingly black floor grille attracting unseen well time poor lamm getting quietus kitchen flashback mr kellers past full story sick sadistic background really wife smile much bach finally gets home wants know friends meanwhile lassick apprised afternoons carnage weeping wife decides cant let bach premises reveal secret home tempts basement last act keller family tragedy finally opens usbr br say enough stephen furst id never seen obvious homework role studying methods communication expression brain damaged bach goldoni diverse way give movie luster movie winds satisfying resolution stupid cheap tricks eyeballrolling dialog pathetically cut corners real treat collection im fucking scaredi wrote fucking note im actually going tonight soon next days even make st birthday even know want make homeless death fucking homeless im god damn scared pain comes dying anyone asks job cant job crippling depression dropped highschool tried holding labor job body cant handle im cut life needed tell someone one know im gone live alone ill print note leave table something cant stop fucking cryingjesus pathetic people rage games dont know girls rage games im girl whenever something upsetting happens im playing game sigh sometimes ill playing game dude hell insanely mad game honestly concerns tbh bit funny mean try laugh loud thats mean chances im laughing bit quietly ok brain wtf emotional burst cried literally never cry emotional wtf im tired worldi find meaning lose find something enjoy goes away say ok im comfortable find something destroys try communicate gets muddy world ive experiencing im still feel find love fucking years lose heartbeat every understood circle decided im tired live afraid hurt family mum dont anymore im afraid coming talking strangers kinda helps circles break point keep going im really tired u guys answer google forms post school project completely anonymous thank u httpsformsgleyyzoqppweimwpfhttpsformsgleyyzoqppweimwpf high school electives choose electives high school tomorrow know may sound pathetic im really nervous know idea want pursue anything feel choose wrong ill screw things future anyone wan na chat im bored lounging around anyone wan na chat numbers game play smash bros ultimate somthing ladies ladies one time please godzilla crocs stay sex yeah sex cool yall bought grim reaper pipe flappy crush expensive item game yeah didnt think nerds dont wan na political anything heck babaganoosh good getsbr br six episodes tracing briefly life may dinosaurs ruled earth done style nature documentary show away talking heads instead gives us good stuff dinosaurs attempting survivebr br certainly true documentary none see screen attested certainty best guess entertaining one show brings dinosaurs life realistic way involve eating people show shown kid loves dinosaurs instill oh wow factor go find entertain hell youbr br see love animal shows nature science disney true life adventures except one really gets killed really good trip somewhere run copy brain thank hey girl legs cant go anywhere without im gon na ask exactly paris convinced putting much pressure current partner incredibly selfish way unintentionally emotionally manipulating boyfriend stay even though feelings genuine sentiment breaks die see move pain way much handle already make better work stuff feel need commit suicide unless fight sometimes underlying feeling messed way much redflag depression pain going driven point think nothing fixable deal present live without partneri need suggestions answers anything hope life even think suicide equate relationship even stuff gets worse absolutely put kind pressure partner wants leave able already told wish might take decisions based thishow stop feeling equate relationship made mind committing suicide event breakup help one friends tried kill im trying keep simple opened happened couple days ago nothing crazy cut said knew going hurt thats wanted claimed massive flood emotions say everything control worried never something ive deal need help brokeup gf yesterday unexpectedly saw todaythe love life woman helped several periods depression years dumped yesterday already quite bad unexpectedly saw real life holy shit want die words bad fucking hurt thought killing think stay strong fight now fuck pain honestly devastated nothing fucking matters anymore shes gone life want fucking die stop feeling anything hurts damn bad honestly energy live anymore know call abuse fianc suffers redflag alcoholism punched threw shit international airport almost got kicked flight last night nd time far worse beat bag thought packed thought going leave bag forgot unpack closet head bleeding profusely thank goodness ran outside called help wish cat something keep goingmy dads allergic dogs cats parents dont want hypoallergenic dog cat bc think risky ive j heard stories abt dogs cats saving ppl killing selves thats want cant j feel alone tired confidence issues hello guys hope everyones great day far know im alone say im entirely good conversations simply say im confident begin wrong love listening conversations learning things people sometimes love add input state stance matter discussed limelight shifted onto somehow crumble pressure cant talk normally anymore mainly happens really fancy idea someone multiple people looking directly face makes bit selfconscious way makes feel something heavily impedes daytoday discussions stammering ive never stammered stuttered prepubescent days used engage conversations randomly talk happens reason honestly quite embarrassing makes whole interaction hundred percent awkward sides really want something know know issue working liking issue need advice websites google ted talks ive watching merely adding screen time anything keep reiterating need comfortable skin put many social interactions hang guess solutions may helped many lost souls seem tremendously vague need concrete solutions anyone going done help combat social inepcy thank taking time effort read hopefully kindly respond please kind comments section really looking constructive suggestions lt well meit good run lasted guess cant anymore everyone either hates afraid life going nowhere girlfriend probably going leave next days im done idk im posting cause time anybody even sees ill probably gone guess maybe last words something really know anymore guess im saying goodbye girls hit hahaahahahha idk anymore yeyeyeyeyeyeyeeye posting straighti cant accept know will im denial parents look differently want way watch gay shows movies gay know mean ive never woman maybe end im im asexual im ill soon know one gay minute turns shed rather party spend time blame though want either purpose im scared past eds pop ive done anything stupid yet know actually miss itthem almost want self harm cant even live south mom devout christian believe god honest believe im going hell think might might feeling thinking straight bit actually thinks feel overstayed welcome earth borrowed time went somehow still kill hopefully never sucks thoughts front page memes memes text optional want die im terrified deathi tried years ago stopped midway got scared terrorized things got much better theres day goes without thinking whatever might say cant shake feeling always appreciate nice things want say help want know live without beating everyday gon na end life tonightim f already diagnosed chronic sleep problems barely sleep chronic depression chronic suicidal tendencies thoughts ive admitted mental hospital multiple times total months ive tried ten different sorts therapy never single moment life happy previous attempts failed im done hope left ive decided stay using reddit years first last post ill make still really sure even typing considering ive already made decision posting considered kind call help im stubborn fuck never someone turn decisions turned life wasnt bad great friends loving family even saying age sounds naive think experienced true love know im young know much im honestly tired last years accompanied severe depression social anxiety lasting suicidal tendency cant remember last time went bed wasnt thinking killing waste space existence ive researching dying asphyxiation weeks even though worst year father died eleven year decided im gon na stay got month late prepare things maybe cross things little bucket list weird tho comparing last year stopped year long journey working lost girlfriend years lot friends stuck knowing life year found great job gained much confidence picked lost new hobbies found really go longer life lost appeal ill forever sorry family friends really miss dad want join even though believe heaven hope ill find someday dont wan na talk anyone wanted post system guess sorry long fuck probably boring text wall haha guess sorry english wish everyone strength go even though lost girlfriend sweetest fucking person planet went way buy coffee delivered class swear deserve saint today good day dark cloudy windy day thats fav type weather know last post made yeah lied find karma little kid wondered wrong literally everything bad older hard realize anything wrong parents abusing still cry sometimes feel somehow wrong alive ive solidified suspicions parents feel committed redflagmy mom colder lately anytime talk always criticizing making fun mentioned dying passing brushed saying everyone dies day dad might little concerned doubt im tired living people gave birth hate much lower eyelids die sun im slowly drifting stars planets calling billion years away im way taught courage stars left light carries endlessly even death rare beautiful even exist im way big pussy end allive thinking offing time ive gotten relationship lasted years already found someone moved although spend time together occasionally nothing course ive realized mistakes regret dearly every single day financial struggle moment well almost next social life horrible academic career things used different life used able anything want good circle friends nights lay awake thinking ways kill unfortunately pussy even thought know balls wouldnt writing right now long story short thing keeping killing cowardice url confidential support charity young survivors abuse kind want chat anything visit support forum hang around find member support staff best support whatever going based dundee scotland uk supported survivors world local willing make trip centre dundee talk volunteers support staff person one question im suicidal feel insulted everytime someone dropping line hey lets talk better promise comes people people done talking things got worse years curious reading lines bringing thoughts ending broken arm day ight put random shit comments top comment gets cast lem tell thing two someone went juvie yea one time cellie asked items commisary looked clenched fist ready fight heart beating see wasnt gon na bitch give food looked deadpan uttered words ratiod died right gave life waiting death happen goals hopes desires will existing waitingis normal part life bad completely resignated gave payingim gon na kill rn yall dont forget life aint rainbow sunshine told crush liked response drugs ignoring even smoke much might need m love best friend f best friend ticks boxes basically perfect girl said takes long time develop feelings truly trust someone best friend though trust lot rough past understand take long time trusts told said rough past stuff told anyone outside fam im person needs affection ive patient really starting need advice thank btw yes im born december born january far apart age wise similar maturity tldr best friend perfect girl best friend cant develop feelings quickly im person needs affection thank im slowly pushing everyone away im giving upthis second post reddit believe anyone actually see even give crap mum left siblings brothers sisters im second youngest left father cheated many women knew abusive drug addicted alcholic left regardless saw time time earliest memory think mum dad arguing im longer live dad mum back full time damage already done ive self harming months think depression anxiety cant control anger possibly ptsd anger gotten lot trouble past still believe reason friends hang theyre scared little sister recently came gay told wanted tell gay lot sooner kept thinking back stupid gay joke made anyone got far thanks guess anyone one wants hear dm whatever written mobile sorry mistakes whatever bye brother needs helpmy brother needs help last year come terms fact serious drinking problem said really rash things past one point committed briefly couple nights threats taken positive steps quitting drinking one relapse aware getting medication seeing therapist seem help see brief exchangehttpsimgurcomauqlcff today difficult soooo misanthropic hopeless feeling feel advice try give laughable eg understand stalin scorch earth fuck everyone well sounds need good ol fresh air think exercise important helped struggles depression response angry genocidal statements seem comical taken initiative things ive mentioned wits end next course action got text cousin australia minutes ago apparently hes emergency room rolled sleep onto huntsman spider got bit pain bite woke mom took emergency room apparently allergic thank fuck sister epipen bees sent picture arm size cantaloupe thats reduced swelling medications doctors gave transphobia homophobia misogyny misandry racism isnt opinion hate lives dont matter still respect opinion isnt youre hateful bye wan na tatoo cuts handhello fellow depressed redditors issues self harm whenever look cuts feel useless depressed suicidal wan na tatoo hand least partialy covers make feel bad cut destroy make smile give something idk u guys sugestions needs something covers hand palm elbow least space maybe awful help hating want someone actually love make feel empty hurt insecure anymore want job constantly fantasy ending life tying roof want go school learn shit instead waste look everyone around hate maybe burn alive tomorrow probably point across dead quickly anyway though maybe easy method best stopped long everyone gets fucking message live anyone life worth go fuck saying endure push onto others amount carried already everyone much think worst seeing wished life seeing others must thank rteenagers epic poggers part daily vocabulary situations redflag correct answerif think isnt please dont leave comment thank dae find suicidal thoughts comforting go itthese thoughts become sort coping mechanism although actually harm others im seeing anyone familiar new people live forever feel watched generation die city new faces alcohol sleeping pillsthinking getting betterim probably closest redflag ive right now nothing helping sleep outside helps little numbness crying panic cycles ive talked crisis chats couple times always feel robots went first counseling appointment im afraid talk anything especially redflag might legally obligated tell parents mixed feelings go feeling nobody really cares keep alive given moment unless money fault opening fixing ill probably never try redflag seems messy painful guess feel ill worse worse much advil take pass much dieasking friend m keep fighting fighting long time remember long problems simply hold anymoretoday first day years alcoholic father threatened hit told kim nobody stand around drunk adult first time life change thati describe awful feel hearing call idiot several times threatening mei always felt disappointment everyone specially himhe always called useless idiot lazy many things always felt son never wanted happened today simply makes want run away end alli feel disappoint mother specially talking school depression started struggled concentrate work even subjects every time talk highschool feel burden disappointment gifted child used tomy sister another problem sometimes feels everything alright others treats annoy care meanother problem feel belong anywhere even friends consider brothers mothers even though gone several groups friends never manage feel belong truly care even mei feel alone lost want pain end want stop feeling burden everyone elseevery time knife hands bring end everything cut arms swallow pain today different even cuts helped deal pain matter many times deep feeling go awayi really want push blade chest simply slash veins afraid afraid next afraid hurting mom sister afraid leaving alone stupid father enough courage itsorry bad english native language feeling way help writingi needed chest thanks listening kind strangers go anymore saw movie first came loved ive searched video never found now years later ordered moviehunter sorry say hold glamourized version cant rise production level love burt bacharachs musical score listend even bought cd taste lend well mysterious compelling story fit michael york lost sally kellerman tosses fine performance olivia hussy ridiculous worth lugging himalayas best performance charles boyer head lama u gay still terrible fashion sense time closet followers really many followers rteenagers bored literally post anything theyll love example ampxb ampxb discuss ampxb see look em gamerdude better first comment im tired feeling painive depressed now ive always thought kill eventually never thought wan na live past recently gf years broke dont think deal pain longer felt reason smile feel good dont know future people whatever process getting pain discomfort top everything dont wan na pain unbearable cant sleep cant eat ive headaches last days want end thing thats stoping family dont wan na cause pain cause know probably destroy mother push edge feels im fighting wan na makes feel much harder anything dont know famous yet rate fame sub nudes leakedmy nudes leaked march st ex girlfriend people added snapchat time exposed im minor shes age cant go police mom find relationship girl ive communicating someone strictly internet dont know sacrifice losing little bit kindness family gives find idea shed found especially attraction girls want ex fucking pay even stupid sending pictures first place dont fucking deserve dont give speech expected ive learned lesson doesnt deserve go life without consequences held accountable even report nothing happens least live knowing tried didnt take cant let win starting make suicidal beginning didnt feel suicidal knew thats wanted wants make feel guilty breaking verbally abusive shes told shouldve went killing referring time trusted tell suicidal thoughts couldnt trust anyone every single personal thing told confidence used feel control cant stand feeling want justice even cant legal means least illegal means either feel disgusted sick fucking stomach sorry wrong community post actively suicidal rn reason chose suicid e charge put list survivors confuse everyone tell wife wife cause im single find one sleepwalkers creatures drain life force completely humans survivebut use virgins explained charles brady brian krause one needs feed mother mary alice krige goes likable tanya madchen amick escapebr br one hand great horror film fastpaced plenty blood gore nice twisted sense humor plenty joke references horror buffs castle rock mentioned krause excellent thought act return blue lagoon kirge amick find film annoyingbr br written screen stephen king maddeningly vague sleepwalkers never fully explained called son feed mother cats hate kill powers one point krause makes car disappear change color style need feed peoples life force virgins son sex mom none explained leaving story confusing really bad questions aside excellent horror film excellent makeup special effects toobr br fast gory lots fun script better fairly explicit sex scene krause krige edited tell rating give absolutely despise people say worry things change goodbecause lie keep mentality things change need wait big change nothing change life shithole insane want something wish something wait fight let anything defeat end old man fucking years regret everything say learn want something achievable fight give life fucked want social monster fight might horrible first end achieve goals life give something easy something go wrong even life looks worst shit things change need fight wrote youguillegoky well friend mine wrote someone similar situation ones using subreddit think share friends amp familyi often read think redflag thought seems cross mind hard times fantasizing ease pain bit read lot committing redflag articles topics forums stories methods help etc bugs mind literally everything written redflag mentions friends family mostly either context ask help think feel kill well first guiltripping somebody living others kindof fucked redflag importantly main question suicidal person friends family fucking kidding imagine cases person lets say terminally ill general okay life loved ones something control concerns said person happening cases obviously somebody desperate enough consider taking life probably friends fucking family say loneliness possibly main reason redflag begin mean surrounded loving people even wan na die annoys whole imagine friends family feel seems hypocritical statement coming someone know anything deal suicidal thoughts feelings condescending patronizing ignorant assume someone whos take life luxury love im lot better nowwell made two different posts year ago wanted die end happy im right im working nhs help dementia alzheimers love thanks people helped though nights felt lowest want live anymorei moved school due bullying beginning year im really struggling im mental health issues long time felt tell anyone moved mother made doctors appointment case actually ended confessing self harm frequent suicidal thoughts although say reason im dead fear death ended sent crisis mental health unit night multiple appointments able open quarantine happened suicidal thoughts happen constantly im actually working kill ive stated really difficult time sharing feelings think either parents im scared know plan kill really need help know talking anyone home phone question ive googling redflag methods picked gd grant strengthfirst title shit dont even believe god god dont believe ability rule fucking suck digressim say dont deserve hurt people wish brave enough hurt badly one suffer dont harm anyone physicallybut im jaded bitter fucked head anyone gets close singed heat rage dont even know fuck im angry guess everything abused child every way imagine literally hate hate feeling dirty useless pathetic even defend hurt ppl im worth anyones love ppl always leave deserve im trash wish brave wish god grant strength end sadlyits im god need help know insurancei looked sliding scale mental health cant even afford im hanging thread husband devastated killed cant cant one year old daughter please help know anything please decided plan backup plan put motionim tired cycle whenever thought killing months ago scared know method going use want suffer thought websites reason tons great suggestions cite actual redflag research im going go pretty straightforward method shotgun mouth honestly cant take cycle hating isolated getting sort help except handle friends family today minutes late therapy appointment looking forward seeing horrible week last week see presidents day got mixed times called minutes appointment mentioned told right close told policy reschedule cant take appointments minutes time mine supposed well cant make next week class field trip reschedule friday weeks thats last fucking straw bit late apologized cant little bit time even nobody gives fuck therapist give fuck job know convenient called right supposed able come kill fuck hurt someone started think killing ex girlfriend burning house family pets hate much know true sometimes say anything vagina feelings requested male therapist bet shit happen anyway nobody worry im killing reasons alone thoughts agonizing im going hurt anybody except able hands shotgun go take class shooting range everyone focused targets put gun mouth shoot thing im worried good samaritan trying stop notice im quite happy end life stop burden anyone peace love hope overcome going make finish line im terrible everythingim literally value life ive actual passions things completely thrown away feel complete void ive creating music years every time try improving damned upset dissapointed ive always wanted artist every time try draw looks horrendous everyone know seems difficult thing felt even somewhat skilled playing mordhau every single day somehow still completely garbage point improving failed school due depression feeling starts back two weeks im going wwf became cartoon hulk hoagan leading way events wwf tv broadcasts early s resembled wild wild west kinds grudges vicious acts violence performed wrestlers known today wwfs beloved stars seemingly real moments stand maniacal sgt slaughter whipped champion bob backlund riding crop backlund showed fitness test welts backlund sarge made iron shiek look daycare provider slaughter issued challenge anyone break dreaded cobra clutch hold led legendary bloody alley match commentator pat patterson hall fame member blackjack mulligan freddie blassie came wwf claw hold censored television claimed true giant challenged andre long big john studd adrian adonis used ominously named good night irene sleeper take competition new yorker clad black leather ominous figure george animal steele far crowd pleaser well even jimmy snuka fearsome sight set maim opponents ray crippler stevens delivered piledriver onto cement floor leaving snuka bloody mess encounters took place decade hardcore wrestling spoken pls wish luck english exam tomorrow need suck english yes studied ate curry hot damn toe curling spicy first played goldeneye one favourite video games fact recently bought n purely play often game pretty much nearperfect singleplayer mode fantastic job immersing bonds shoes varied mission objectives convincing weapons great level design even though enemies artificial intelligence pretty basic todays standards adds goldeneyes appeal method obtaining cheats completing levels within strict time limit innovative title released even still cracked thembr br game comes wonderful multiplayer mode four players advanced combat simulator games sequel perfect dark still incredibly satisfying blast opponents smithereens barrage rcp fire im literally th grade rteenagers im literally supposed best friends anyone friend group lonely everyone go person talk hang one want another friend group along well enough one along well enough everyone least favorite friend obvious school hang whichever friends lunch classes almost never invited anything last person anyone friend group pick sucks winter invited hang friends twice stuff time without feels hang even less lost energy hide depression know bad act happy one wants hang always depressed summer lonely hate rarely talked always hear hanging without makes sad wish better friend people talk everyone busy sucks ok genuinely never participating class im cry keep getting talked embarrassing forgot feel quarantine holy shit feel bad failed everything im done ittldr kicked school late twenties crappy part time job cashier associates degree show friends disappointment parents gon na end life week signed reddit specifically write post doubt anyones gon na read im year old female single kids child still living parents found tonight kicked college attending last year half feel completely worthless hopeless adhd social anxiety disorder messed adolescent adult life feel barely function feel im point im incapable anything even right now feel im fucking im writing even make sense wanted bad transfer year college bachelors even hoped masters help adhd medication counseling finally able spring focused english major proud accepted insurance lost access medication counseling tried getting help college inattentiveness led slack meetings eventually fell old habits fell depression began feel matter got help life always ups downs successful moment disappointment failure next adhd along bouts depressions constant social anxiety left feeling worthless contact friends person besides parents close cousin soon moving hours away new husband see day day parents see burden think everyone better without parents know kicked college know able handle disappointment probably kill anyway gave everything help successful nothing show friends real college degree associates degree shitty part time job dollar store know well emotions coming across post feel drained nothing right never amount anything feel everything leads failure matter many opportunities others give despise feel longer apart world contributed nothing people care soon become awful burden people plan ending life next week theres family functions coming plan overshadow events redflagi might follow come final date im sure edging closer closer killing never thought actually lately starting doubt conviction almost things getting better live parents umpteenth time life breaking umpteenth time woman umpteen years losing umpteenth job call mental health issues people call laziness thousand dollars debt student loans schooling never helped single job never made much minimum wage never even put dent paying loans waste time money school wasi violent thoughts towards time often find thinking violence faceless entities government rich sought mental health help many many years many many forms nothing seems help cope lack success pills make feel less angry less sad really thinking may able hold resolve growing instinct better ending thingswhat going hospital never yields results done number times quite frankly need put hour watch crazy end rope fucks give going tell parents ex feeling keep stopping feel putting burden searched suicide reddit hope typical internet responses suppose putting invites matter tldr never thought life seems gets worse probably probably going urgent help needed crosspost lgbteenshttpwwwredditcomrlgbteenscommentsyjurgent please person something unfortunate really trying talk apologize posted came across first thing came mind subreddit millennials babies called generation alpha gen zs babies generation beta guess got ta stay virgin cause im gon na raise beta duck im unfixableim fucked medication cant increased ive therapy seven years ive barely gotten better im unfixable want die cut deep without going er dont know thats another thing im failure sound fantasy film film dark dark overtones soundtrack way uplifting point intruded visuals im sure aiming something militant work scene astin attempting escape perfect example sound goonies comedy brightness br br idea movie great acting good well enjoyed everyones performances available netflixs online viewing br br definitely worth viewing write soundtrack someone help skin peel rub im shower real talk proud country live certainly wbu im curious yall parents willing break qurantine rules eat holidaydinner brother brother volenteers algriculture live farmers suffer lot theft police cant really anything charities volenteer gaurd livestock crops help fires brother volenteering im year outside charity enlisted parents want drive lives eat holiday dinner even though qurantine normal bf never buys clothes presents sometimes doesnt text say gn gm forgot birthday dump hello friendsi struggled depression years lexapro years ithelped sort still felt worthless tired sad irritable suicidal etc maybe took edge sexual side effects hard finish hard stay upfast forward year got better doctor decided add wellbutrin month switch flipped still problems seem insurmountable especially felt past nice changenow question start weening lexapro sure ton side effects werenot ideal sure two meds working together wanted thoughts backslidethanks medication opinions lexapro wellbutrin time make another post boyfriend cause obsession lol yesterday spent day together cute stupid fun stuff day amazing love much im excited valentines day title says past predicts future say drunk totally honest past problems going future problems family dysfunctional ability keep friends make friends always leave dissociative identity disorder due childhood trauma think leave left alone another boyfriend children want live anymore married children friends point alone now think right end life early feel feel thinking logically past predicts future right cant stop thinking mistakeslast year school bullied constantly kid group friends call fag tell kill threaten life kids even physical hit every day shoved locker five starred enough bullying went teachers school teachers absolutely nothing kids made lie saying used nword completely false racist never racist teachers bought suspended school caused emotional strain parents never really got trouble school known smart kid upon day suspension called meeting teachers school told admit lied risk expulsion kids bullied happened influential school one last name athletic center held ground refused cave teachers questions said dishonest needed revaluate situation got news expelled days later devastated loved school learning felt harming depressed weeks wanted kill mother impacted stress put health problems feel fault even though happened year ago stop thinking thinking overdosing escape tremendous stress school relationshipbecause covid classes conducted online somehow assignment load increased months literally spend hours every day work projects really stressing im stuck home couldnt much make matter worse boyfriend currently working overseas hours difference knows able return due prevailing situation recently feel emotionally distanced take days reply wait another day attempted call twice miss company didnt pick call back feel shitty overbearing communication maybe thats avoiding loss dont know take another hit especially one made believe love exes trashes im feel messed life really seek want end life overdosing sedatives painless swift cowardice makes worry death affect loved ones really need help okay got cyberbullied jabberwockjessi joined reddit anyone talk im desperately lonely thought finding empathy help user jabberwockjess made life hell triggered way leave note jabberwockjess cyberbully admin reddit override blocks want know going shoot head taking life words consequences expect face consequences bullies never wanted everyone reads know triggered maybe wouldve lived another day shed left alone none yall read posts smh responses matching questions whats gamers free award say something funny biting bulletim year old drop working software developer ive spend time learning trying improve everything around seems falling apart ive always bullied downer seems life cycle unhappiness time checkout know hurt family shock people around feel ive wasted everyones timeenergy enough already yes therapy made feel shit guess rant ive mindset many times feel much getting better point seems impossible hey cutie pies made survey yesterday really want people im pretty bored really want know people hope enjoy survey pretty quick yeah dont think im going survive im staring void ive tried everything medication therapy exercise whatever bullshit apparently makes feel better hate christmas moms favorite everytime think spending another holiday alone sink want take drugs escape hospitals dont help tell redflag bad fucking joke life fucking joke ive read note im leaving behind ober want send want die particular reasoni pretty bad anxiety depression ive suicidal thoughts never point making plans last couple months ago anytime im alone sometimes first wake overwhelming sense dread want die start thinking ways badly dont want live life isnt bad theres lot stress worse dont want feel anymore even im writing feel urge hate im scared tell anyone parents cant afford pay treatment sure hell cant feeling extremely hopeless everythingmy mental health deteriorating everyday regular schooling live fucking sucks ass makes way worse everyday spend hours trying come reason live cant think everything feels blurry mom tries best give best life never works spend hours night riding bike empty streets morning hate live sooo cluttered filled hopeless people cant help notice strking contrasts others cant dont know anymore cant fucjing gain weight shit tried everything look fucking stick figure hate body fucking bmi sick body short feel extremely touch body feel soo insecure things wish adult wish grew normal fucking household crappy memories childhood still haunt day head fucking hurts rn hate fucked world maybe kms idk upon time hollywood produced liveaction grated movies without foul language immorality goresplattered violence movies neither insulted intelligence manipulated emotions heroes differed little crowd shared feelings bore burdens s film industry pretty much written grated movies adults basically modern mature audiences demand large doses embellished realism cinematic diet laced heavily vile profanity mattressthumping sex knucklebruising fisticuffs ingredients constitute difference grated movies rated either pg pgbr br miraculously director john lee hancock penned scripts clint eastwoods perfect world midnight garden good evil hits home run grated feelgood fourbagger baseball epic celebrates americas favorite summer time sport extols competitive spirit game essentially rookie resembles robert redford saga natural oldtime slugger makes comeback unlike natural rookie shuns swearing sex violencebr br moreover rugged dennis quaid plays reallife individual jim morris autobiography oldest rookie bigleague dreams smalltown guy served basis mike finding forrester richs unpretentious norman rockwellstyle screenplay white middleclass aspirations morris attained dream debuted mound relief pitcher although belong league inspirational james stewart classic stratton story rookie qualifies kind movie hollywood rarely makes anymore audiences find antiquatedbr br hancock rich encapsulate entertaining oddball biography halo mysticism wildcat oil prospector convinces two catholic nuns back s bankroll west texas well fearing blown bucks illadvised fantasy sisters blanket arid terrain rose petals entreat st ritas patron saint hopeless causes intervene well gushes town big lake emerges roughnecks swat baseballs drilling holes terrain spirit baseball oozes earth petroleum meanwhile years later us navy keep jim morris sr brian cos manhunter family one place long uprooting constant moving takes toll jim junior jims dad shows little sympathy berates baseballbr br nevertheless jim baseball blood enough accepts high school chemistry teachers job texas hometown organizes baseball team foulmouthed bad news bears rookie chronicles jims triumph turning losers winners morris promises team reach divisional playoffs try professional baseball team predictably morris students maintain end bargain age jim stuns big league scouts hurls fastballs milesperhour rookie never fouls song head dunno called sounds nanan nananna nananannananna nanan nana help please perfect far imagine go church wife children church goes restaurant right returning home putting children sleep husband wife things lovely wife thanking god great day perfect far keep wanting comment everyones post saying im boat ill hereim awful person undeserving love want die kid think crushed died regardless circumstance im stuck endless spiral depression anxiety failed promises lies deeeeeep sorrow dont deserve love keep telling im grand reason everyday feel thats becoming bigger bigger lie im finally ready diefor weeks ive feeling stuff shouldnt happened nothing feels real died years ago life meaningless world better without one care anyway dont feel anything sadness numbness anymore whats point anyone spend one day really happy next opposite necessarily days always period im happy follows period straight im dumps trying win white mans game heart intact dollar dream really kind hard sleep thoughts streets getting closeer time years later one wife three kids disabled plus years loveless marriage kids really much tried give riddled health issues lost house almost died blood clots sure wished much explain enough energy care bother afraid end trying tell wife going kill seem think serious afraid use gun want mess vegetable building courage hoping either sign life better kidding year goes gets worse doctors taking away pain meds chronic pain slowly surely way young going much sister killed mom handle gone killed dad gave loss pile shit within years died one one younger brother disowned guess family give end much easier kids older less shown really much gotten little easier final push done tried reach family seems take seriously cry help sound projected hear one day end ii wish way want better think want well know regret telling anyone ive felt assume know ive gotten help means ill magically recover help ive gotten seems useless know without depression though scares remember time without hard imagine one future seem go day without suicidal thoughts thoughts harming feel im empty shell person itd easier anymore everythings fine im tryingjust rant got drunk way way much panic attack front friend whos never seen vomited floor got new job reason making suicidal state world jacked makes want end im getting fat food thing makes better point im wondering ill content every day hope hope everyone finds peace one day im bad personi hurt someone meant world hes left blame encouraged heart broken feel lost know say know feel know happening boys im now got really sweet cupcake presents im happy dudes first joined reddit found place thought kinda dumb still im stupid enough apart thats cat switched rolls second cat swiped got close walked away hunched looking sad sat fetal position corner ran nudged meowed opposite step cat dogs pawtail broke recently together almost half life always withdrawn introverted person lost entire social network years leaving one left still feelings person feels distant cold moment know handle emotional mess strong enough let go time want bother way happiness really want see happy seeing happy without breaks heart one left talk feel part amputated never unhappy life social person prevent really wish never born never met suffer endure least happy never forgive awkward idiot sitting alone home prefer nothing fear trust new people sleept eaten properly hate myselfi wish disappear without explanationi know move oni forever alone sitting front desk scrolling internet want die wish never born cant anymorei wish stop crying friend leaving even thought promised shed always friend never leave feeling shell comeback told loves cant anymore everyday cry matter happens try taking friends kik distract im afraid tell feel wish friend want alone anymore point anymore anything sitting helpless nothing besides scared crying sleep rn friend streaming us play csgo come join big funny moment enough destiny bs hurt enough peoplei regularly failing university two years now absolutely hate everytime give party interference control entire work gets splashed away till got university rejections visa denial got girlfriend looked mdd cheated back life girlfriend lover supports lot cant stop feeling paranoid jealous end hurting spent lot parents money look disappointed now already sitting clonazepam tablets ready pocket pop knocked big failure loser even guts end life another story generator meme two sick uncles stabbing beat two sick uncles stabbing beat short story anonymous johnathan wick always hated nicely built bank alive amused atm machines place felt sad tall thin tea drinker strong leg fast arm friends saw helpful helpless hitman even helped deadly toddler cross road thats sort man johnathan walked window reflected nice looking surroundings sun shone running dog saw something distance rather someone figure frank mctennisballs frank muscular coward big leg ginger arm johnathan gulped prepared frank johnathan stepped outside frank came closer see scattered glint eye look johnathan growled frank short glare reminded johnathan muscular cat hate want revenge owe dollar johnathan looked back even violent still fingering sharp knife frank killed credit card replied looked mad feelings two repulsive roasted racoon rampaging smelly funeral party rap music playing background two sick uncles stabbing beat suddenly frank lunged forward tried punch johnathan face quickly johnathan grabbed sharp knife brought franks skull franks big leg trembled ginger arm wobbled looked angry wallet raw gigantic gorgeous gun let agonising groan collapsed onto ground moments later frank mctennisballs dead johnathan wick went back inside made nice cup tea end extremely entertaining mids western packs whole lot minute running time viewers quickly drawn story find experience quite enjoyable bwestern really epic budget modest cast affordable despite several big names glenn ford box office draw time edward g robinson barbara stanwyck past primes looking work stanwyck years away new popularity big valley brian keith dianne foster starting outbr br ford plays john parrish small rancher decides sell sympathetic sheriff murdered big ranchers robinson hired gunman parrish former confederate officer moved west health reasons br br robinson plays lee wilkison already owns valley intends acquire rest making good promise wife martha stanwyck lee crippled land war fought years earlier brother cole keith come texas help run huge spread lee turning blind eye obvious hookups stanwyck keith sensitive daughter judith foster understandably upset going home br br john parrish promised fiance caroline may winn move back east caroline modeled grace kellys high noon character breaks engagement first sign trouble simply disappears film leaves way open john judith romance develop br br violence starts early continues throughout film parrish able apply military tactics enemy underestimates ability determination original confrontation main gunfighter midway film ford plays one standard characters modest guy disarms everyone self deprecating manner slow take offense brutal finally provoked much role sheepman br br robinson likewise excellent man maintains personal integrity even though physically shadow former self gets enough lines screen time adequately develop character br br stanwyck difficult role simply convincing classic twofaced woman seemingly loyal wife scheming replace husband brother part allocated enough time anything superficially convey either side character said talented actress done much better job even limitationsbr br dianne foster pleasant surprise remind viewers lot carroll baker physically acting style although required play judith according s convention allowed tough required break hysterics major confrontation foster shows nice range conveys growing attraction parrish subtly retrospect various clues click place br br real problem violent men tries action western character study morality play much happen screen much action rushed many characters cursory treatment neither fatal flaw reason avoid film significantly better another minutes running time absence unnecessary characters carolinebr br know im child go hell im gon na kill ronald reagan second time feel different last time attemptedhello wednesday overdosed went hospital tell anyone hospital days afterwards people worried stuff obviously want tell want careworry uncle called day said sympathy said need help call theres anything need hell give next day order amazon told uncle bought books reading said computer life experience find job instead gon na lie im bit disheartened amount belittlement obviously sometimes life struggle feel ive enough thinking overdosing still pills used day know anymore feel crying start dick peoplethat way die people happy im gone want die want people happy im gone sure suck mean people guess suck tell part grand scheme things mean im already asshole guess may well ante make stakes higher pretty much got fired todaywell title says training server today cant carry trays well fell front entire restaurant yet another thing cant really know im wanted die awhile cant find balls actually gave yet another chance ended failing embarrassing always really know past yet another failure done nothing let everyone im burden husband pay constant therapy appointments medication money living credit cards cant even fend go back school next month idea im going cant even wait fucking tables pay rent done keep wondering guts fucking end already coping mechanism sleep taking sleeping pills sleep next full days tried taking knife wrist cant cut deep enough plus method usually work wish parents house right fathers shotgun know im maybe want exclaim everyone im done know good short anime watched promised neverland week ago finished erased yesterday loved guys recommendations good heartfelt short anime dont want go bed dm filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler tell long school crush liked past read ive crush girl school dayswhen top grade student cute looking helpful well things know remember live india class plagued syndrome called lack interaction opposite gender peers guy dared break wall yo remained lone guy whos good terms friendship almost everybody almost girls talked saying conveying formal informal messages notifications every guy remained contributing either shyness ego comparatively antisocial introvert ive talked twice thrice person highschool graduation age touch last time months ago got know friend longterm relationship theres immense drive convey heart due personal regrets failures able live image bold confident studentthat now nostalgia urging open heart let repressed energy flow soul expectations acceptance love acknowledge appreciate admiration ive composed good poem feel theres point know response bei earnestly want least blush surprised instead ignoring getting annoyedenraged im going kill next monthi diagnosed schizophrenia depression dyslexia nobody tried help ive tried fix life right path see point continuing going accomplish im worthless wreak cant even form proper sentence thats worthless im going smoke cigs ill shoot head ill spend day melbourne ill kill hotel might consider selfish family never cared anyway im posting sympathy want story sorry spellinggrammer anyone helpthis first time asking something please try understanding m divorced move back parents trying survive years everything gone hill idk constantly belittled made fun parents bad health issues put hospital afterwards reached help first time years spoke year later moved hell live rural area made finding full time job difficult save enough leave pay rent bills sure asking really looking advice help please live arizona helps god lives st louis convert first digits pi phone number area code st louis thus center universe st louis god lives ownes studio apartment covent gardens pershing ave saint louis mo two cats plant sink full unwashed dishes works local subway miles away hes onandoff relationship girl insomnia cookies applied mcdonalds first job feels great really didnt expect apply lastresort still unemployed time depression sink already knew getting classes still result unemployed useless take moments look yourselfi posted recently essentially vent struggled long time depression anxiety ptsd say bad times good times years life today realized little actually focus figured probably applies lot people easier focus things around us distract end day know done much anything change life ive tried distract feeling shit life going change change ive realized need change please take moments look help goodnight everyone heres something made happy today first time year able visit parents graves cemetery placed waitlist due pandemic scheduled visit today drove feel relieved feeling guilty long able visit miss lot trip gave lot solace even sometimes want live im going try live goodnight everyone lt record talking wan na make youtube video record feel really awkward talking fuckin weird clue gon na kill im fucking stupidm addicted failing school noone read anyway ahahah feel deserve diei rough spot relationship living another couple relationship issues girl talk trying new things partners much decided try molly gone one day blame molly wont sex admitted love caught positions decided continue pursue anything months later im still girl weve moved every day want die guilt try let know guilt shows im different person dont know feelings girl gone within month suffering ive done feels endless nobody fucking know know look anyone willing give reason forgive please help summon movie entertaining never boring even running nearly hours al pacino michelle phieffer rest cast great film believable violence little extreme film showed vicious drug trade time film ending amazing probalby one coolest scenes great movie probably really enjoy cheeselovermax add talk movie shows many feelings emotions strong personal atmosphere movie tense sad really clear picture main character going responding world around think great movie everybody see itbr br life meaningmy life meaning cant imagine five years now dont want someone told best thing happen life death dont want upset friends family seriously upset short move might even talk bad die peace everything pain world dont anyone remotely interested dating dont anyone texts aside one friend nothing absolutely nothing want continue anymore everything tried failed give brief story used passionate person got inspired magic got really good tried start yt work got audition opportunity perform penn teller fool us never responded crushed even though know magicians still stung though turned got really inspired learn count cards got really good got winning days eventually variance caught lost one day everything passion crushing making less motivated less inspiredall talent wasted wrong person brag count cards hypnotised people pickpocketed cops solved rubiks cube blindfolded play saxophone talent definitely wasted wrong person never one thing work universe deliberately trying ensure never happy always fail thought counting cards help save apartment even told girlfriend financially stable now going tell life falling apartmy point want keep trying want live anymore want die scared anything done getting motivated something work end putting worse spot want live anymore done life fired egg thats nothing special first thing exciting hamburger helper cooked initiative felt eating feel mature even though fry egg im dunno something feels nice guess im pathetic cant even end pathetic lifeim years old ive suicidal thoughts years now remember started th grade poke kitchen knife sternum try work courage fall im college hate worst part reason parents pretty wealthy decent group friends ive done pretty well school still think redflag fucking time today stood bridge usually gets really bad legs let im much pussy wish fall asleep never wake wish live howl right literally heart want lovedevery girl talk ends ghosting school theres rumor im gay cant take im pussy cant talk girls want kill im pussy family understand thinks im old enough date want someone love tell everythings going fine ocd consuming life literally cant take step without getting intrusive thoughts make things make feellook complete idiot know anymore cry every night sister thinks im stupid try talk one talk read want thank one friends tested positive covid school tomorrow smart principal thought good idea class school call doctors school make tests god damn annoying angry fuck divide us first place school shitty idea dividing class groups group go school one week group learn online learning online mean reading lessions books teacher doesnt explain learn know takes clicks make zoom meting open camera group arent class learn aswellall wanted say school god damn fucked im killing soonfuck life im even sad anymore im actually happy kill wont deal school family anymore gone think much hate cant wait end soon either everything nothing fthis going quite long im sorry know going make sense need let ill try coherent possible apologise nothing makes sense title suggests either feel everything nothing know describe mean everything basically everything feels intense experiencing every emotion suddenly everything shifts colourful nothing feel numb everything seems static drop one pole another frustrating tiring ive always sad growing know dad pictures passed away car accident young fault though car ill child simply born hed still world always think never got chance tell dad loved go everyday think life around death affected family intensely relationship mum used quite good remarried really happy going partner fact still somehow experience father husband really nice use treated us child completely understand naturally love child us obviously arent related starting feel family isnt blood unfortunately husband attention starting shift step brother dont wrong love step brother still close right now id understand think im selfish bitch mother forgot us treated us servants wasnt hard brother used scream lazy selfish retard ill suffer cystic fibrosis stuff related ill given already lol literally thought going kill one point furious started hitting head wall still remember evert bit event still dreams mum coming kill despite anger towards though shed still pay medical bills im thankful worst brother showing serious symptoms brain tumour didnt anything found stroke uncles place happened mums probably didnt even chance fight turns cancer metastasised lung found passed away eight months diagnosis really shattered died talented year old much expect future death uncle wife offered take ive living looking back time feel coping quite well emotions boyfriend died years ago met brothers death hospital cancer really didnt want lose anyone anymore started seeing even werent hospital whenever needed hed make sure ive taken medication always reminded eat drink know kind sounds tfios relationship basically film really afraid enter relationship borderline personality disorder im bipolar well imagine hard person didnt leave told stayed despite awful things ive said beyond amazing although ive thoughts redflag brother passed away become intense especially boyfriend passed away tried times got really close left coma days made everything worse especially second attempt psychiatrist gives medication week aunt checks every fucking hour check havent cut im still alive everything controlled around feel trapped mind surroundings want live dont want live want feel better thoughts comfort zone dilemmas hard weigh neither choose live die life meant shorter everyone cant deal physical torment mental torment go everyday body never peace mind cant even lung transplant even wanted mental illnesses ive attempted redflag couple times part wants another chance live im reliable enough sometimes feel mind peaceful even feel want live another bipolar cycle become depressed hell right makes want kill depressed even something really hard lately aunt makes big deal everything staring knife dinner tons people lectured wrong commit redflag learn find worth life dont im running towards death everyday twenty ive lived average life expectancy cf patients everyday passes part body deteriorating someone whos capable ending life expected carry extremely suffering capacity slowing getting worse hoping life taken away live ive seen others battle cf pass away pure torture earth redflag crime modern society know long word vomit dont care one reads thank much though wanted write feel someones listening looking old photo albums today oh dear fuck jesus name aleluia amen glory god help wan na hideeeee never come outside embarrassing award first person follows see much suffering offer support feel ive never purposeno matter bad things miserable cant seem force find job see job leads anything quitting cant handle im qualified good enough anything im actually interested able sustain make art enough car money one degree im already much debt first time tried im afraid go back fail im scatted brained im weak live disability even energy apply feel answers job prospects im incompetent everything feels doors closed even got live life supposed make money everything make money cant go living theres hope anything better still suicidal friend shed light meim still depressed still feel incredibly suicidal one important friends life texted miss already came visit state weekend knowing cares enough let know may help make rest today instead thinking tools order everyone situation matter confident one thinks cares proven afternoon never case hopefully help survive another day hopefully longer dae use reddit social media general distract reality drown enormous amount guilt afterwards feel social media helps reduce stress certain extent distracting whats going helps zone soon leave overcome insane amount guilt end day distraction first person comment gets award pt free award purpose comment claim free dopamine one loves mei everything right good student never drink drugs good sense humor public decently dressed good hygiene none gets anywhere none gotten anywhere years girls worth keep shit want hang soon abomination cursei literally abomination curse family always ugly fat whole life even starved weight didnt drop enough born cursed feel put misery genes low quality iq low talent look ugly fat torture worst way possible fuck everything one loves wants alive cant wait hang parents throw huge party throw trash deserving even funereal grave hate much bad wish never born biggest wish cancer dangerous illness getting hit realityok kinda stupid life made every bad choice imaginable stuck reality reputation damaged forever done bunch dumb shit randomly stalk people even assaulted someone nowhere guess bad idea address shit comes living little fantasy land getting hit reality literally might go prison entire career ruined idea cant repair reputation stalemate guess want one night ive eaten favourite food drank favourite drink reflect life ive done everything go sleep die sleep ha im old af tf lmao bruh please ew third times charmsorry formatting im mobile im suicidal thoughts years now started side comments oh ill kill things go well evolved comments actual possibility take currently senior year high school doubt even graduate back freshman year urges lowest recent years ive struggling coping whatever fuck therapist told showed symptoms bipolar ii anyways ive attempted twice recent one second week senior year discharged therapy beginning new year due wanting participate group therapy prior planning commiting back november go bang decided present poem writing club school received decent reception decided stick bit met current girlfriend due pretty great im waiting school poetry slam thursday finish decide kill grades time low im missing classes cant bring morning scared going school surrounded people stay home hide ive disappointed parents siblings going school family amazing cant even blame turned feel sorry put years really deserve family theyve done especially dad dad incredible person ive pleasure knowing want disappointment think ill able redeem mentality think contemplating seeing psychiatrist last month considering fact got discharged within last months think consider letting appointment ive got skills going ive got writing video games neither going helping life anyways week maybe see infinity war go im going head buy rope go nearby forestwoods want family ones find body cant bear idea feel bit guilty next week dads birthday oh well cant feel anything im gone right wish luck annoyed mins time lost matches row times row bad start times row teammates questionable things times row guns ammo times lobby without single kill name game crashed im gon na kill myselfim gon na end done one wants around one wants alive hate prefect time end want golf gte america vw makes hybrid gti hp torque little bit heavier gets way better gas mileage import america disappointijg want much achieved lot years life extremely fortunate friends fun parents fantastic job starting couple weeks everything fine rightlast year around time drinking numb nights drink write letters draw sometimes harm hole chest big gave friends even realized needed disappear point living held go believe someone elsenow year later deep hole still tried focusing positives still know much longer take alone want find someone believe need someone believe hate pangs loneliness rid even others sometimes even miss wreck last year least dealing emotions rather ignoring themeverything feels hollow anyone life understands awful really feel point living understood lost lost game remembered well done sub ampxb httpspreviewredditkzfjagtpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafcfaedbcdcabd require assistance fellow gamers ive started playing minecraft always see youtubers dream techno etc go caves end enough light see blocks infront screen shows nothing black colours lighting makes quite difficult play btw downloaded minecraft tl launcher mods im supposed apply something pls help trying grow youtube twitch anyone working grow social platform finding success far recently hit twitch almost subs youtube personally looking better ways promote channel without guy selfpromos content everywhere anyone got ideas found success areas far interest anythingeveryday bore lifes repeat difference care less less im poorer poorer interests hobbies faded dont enjoy things id done years relationships people close either broken breaking going alone soon genuinely dont care least need think future try move vape actually help weight loss hate body used make fun kids vape read helps weight loss wan na know guys know anything one wants meet new people meet someone high school kid fuckedive tried talking people often leads people saying even know talking fuck meant seems know anyone early absolutely screwed alone destroying mind sleep even though super tired work couple hours destroying dont depressed commit redflagi think really interesting everyone concept sad depressed want kill mean sometimes tired waking dealing bullshit every single day every time car contemplate crashing im young adult felt way teenager feel way forever maybe thats way im meant go im sure advice reddit friends dont feel place purpose ya know maybe id everyone favor following though ive thought many times wish trust people lmao im insecure kinda insane u say u love everythings lie sometimes feel love u much u dont feel think think much thank god concept sleepi sure killed already taking naps sleeping wasnt thing way hell survive hearing thinking things going world bastardswhen want talk realistic things ignored want talk mk ultra real recent jfk docs released called paranoid im curious people use power im curious history states people power control situation im told sit back thats life thats called power im tired putting mask even though information faces something powerful submit people even want speak happens behind scenes negative history filled negative facts document reality still real still happens lion eating deer brutal make negative thats life apperently life fit certain status quo one posotive bullshit people want live know question answered everyone differently cant see want alive theres purpose alive ya gon na human live life hate life die whats point easier skip bullshit kill right life ive battling depression anxiety im lots meds turn weeks goal turn kill want skip shit world nobody tell death bad dont know whats beyond goal life die anyway im really suicidal right ive hospitals multiple attempts life times police getting involved tackling extra human wants die right doesnt matter mental illness physical want kill place country leagally aged walk building write name date birth given pill sort end fucking hate life fuck everything anyone weird eye thing literally person silhouette passes corner eye theres nothing probably checked leaving told now go back sobbing didnt know say help everyone ive talked told gotten phone number looking phone number receipts membership files invasion privacy miss opportunity help asking phone number sorry sad story know painful think happening right now crush think likes back try ask mad know take never felt angry mad never girlfriend shit makes want kill someone swear god fact never loved enough money tall enough want take girls cold stuck working shit jobs forced end fucking bitches never loved want loved want know love feels way never loved come home nothing someone going feel anger going make someone pay go going suffer say suffer going put bitch much pain wish never born angry one talk news depressing watch news sit silence thinking wow limit news exposure anxious current events got chem test literally im joking couldnt focus cuz horny dont let concentrate emailed teacher see take cuz dont wan na keep fuck life man covid go ass ngl crush invited friend group nice kids school lockdowns long going month months year understand people loving lockdown first amazing horrible experience turned teenager want waste tge best years life stuck inside fucking house shit online school failing classes left right im sick goes much longer people going dropping fucking flies happy covid finally getting social life gone one measly disease trust vaccine early want getting lockdown fuck shit bed ill hurt myselfi deserve pain deserve every bit suffering im fucking coward fucking go die tonight done deserve introvert person suffering depression really thought whole pandemic help rest better mental health decided go home province really expecting good environment finally rest busy noisy city life wrong first months great fine gets longer starting bad feelings actually starting panic attacks childhood trauma reopened know better term flashback bad things happened childand feel pressured job resigned went back home though started small business seem work parents starting complain bills really really wanted help financially even find part time job online pandemic friend suggests apply work abroad said might hired pandemic ends going happen oh remembered job abroad illness weak lungs wants hire person weak lungs sucks right supposed doi even bother family telling really feel want worry used telling anything anyways dismiss feel anyway yea chose share appbut know really tired asked born want signed tired tired tired weak tired depressed tired crying every night tired know anymore people women better men men better women im man quality believe genders suck equally wish way make look accidenti dont want anyone feel guilty feel hard kill without happen fuck feeling suicidal overall fcking terrible deep small twisted part feels good deserve every second miserytldr planning redflag fantasies bordering schadenfreude relationship intimacy issues selfhate paranoid others jealousy plague mind selfdoubt preface im writing phone autocorrect spelling formating good english good either feel free correct dont plans probably lack courage ive thinking daily least couple times week long time feels part strange bodys instinct selfpreservation yet brain finds comfort relish pursuing mental anguish hummingbird looking nectar suicidal fantasies feel soft sweet comforting warm blanket wrapping around safe dont know feels good reassurance fact always option enjoy selfinflucted schadenfreude call moment start thinking realitically hit wall ill start thinking statistics showing redflags fail ill fail im plain jane whose exception surviving redflag actually worse dying eyes unwanted repercussions make regret seek redflag even life objectively bad fact id say average hope im arrogant im saying might potential better now even solar system even orbit people look admire one always improve dont know far reach theres even limit now one thing keeps better way norwegian word redflag selvmord translates selfmurder now degree way think redflag graetly varies almost always want inflict damage part fantasies redflag may stem desire killing part part bad part ive managed coexist majority life feel slowly dominating controls body noticable manner thoughts bit paranoid im throughoutly convinced friends even loved ones genuinely despise every little action make interpretted scheeming making fun dont know anyone take advantage theres nothing good take despite new fears fact frequent cant shake scaring days convinced even dear sister detests prescence people honestly want wouldve wasnt warning long unecessary rant ahead ltrantgt younger didnt large variety potential friends anchored one girl actually bear existance honestly relief one friend kindergarten darkskinned girl sadly left rest bullied made feel terrible things couldnt change things defined dark place socially shone star distance closer got clearer things got thought say brighter right mightve notsosmart kid still knew using told one day got bullied bit combined way treated immediately forgot offered opportunity girls felt used longlost friend kindergarten returned fifth grade immediatley loved everyone including friend lets call eva differentiate furious mean bitter built small empire schoolyard crumbling quickly eva desperate power tried turn everyone friend failed fortunately burnt bridges dont go school now friend still close friends currently bffs eva still terrible person stand experience least taught spot bad apples witv someone desperation ltrantgt reason mentioned event yikes rambly bitter fcking primary drama lmao trusting people fear intimacy ties back everyone hating actually fucking crazy mind stretch bend bloody playing twister find ways people hate picture youre sitting bus minding business see two people whispering eachother catch one briefly looking sinking feeling hits theyre taliking youre useless even family thinks youre whiny dumb selfobssesed ugly look strangers finished talking looking eachother laughing see fucking see dumbass youre nothing prime entertainment walking trainwreck people poke fun instant dopamine almost shame killed people talk youre good pleasing people best another voice head joins conversation said think god youre selfobsessed course people dont always think even youre trash lives live dont care shut someone actual worth able catch attention someone likewise hideousness youre unremarkable ways didnt even notice think mightve laughed point youre immersed thoughts dont notice strangers leaving destination almost passed thats type thought processes everyday situations triggered simple gestures hate hate hate im insecure person ive seen looking mirror makes nauseous sheer hideousness inside even believe know albeit denial fear confrontation one cares theyre faking dont want cause harm talking feelings redflag cause harm matter mental battle mind well might dramatic thing ive written makes rather embarassed despite im trying push beyond ill explode implode already told friend suicidal thoughts worried made guilty make feel way deserve internet place vent feel selfish want people read desperately need second opinion writing made realise things know affecting worst thing scratch surface fact im always sad unmotivated fact opposite point think im cured somewhat good person id rather plague person reading someones reading thank really makes day im feeling sorry doim year old boy feeling years now started moved mexico lost friends know speak spanish teachers treated shit one wanted hang lunch spent year school alone every day made fun mostly failed subjects sister left living usa mom really mean everyday every day calls use less person know nothing try talk sometimes need ask stuff always brings im ok school better im smart honestly gotten point longer give shit every day im sad im starting think ending stop suffering know kill self mom probs die holding back ending home school play video games try escape reality go world counter strike dota great games parents hate gaming always call lazy piece shit said dont care met really nice people online talk everyday im gaming feel happy feel im actually worth something ace csgo win round say good job dude always makes feel good smart dont good grades school idk ill see u guys later guess 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counseling medication needed brought wife went room asked lot pretty generic questions tried honest possible help best answered questions ways apparently red flags asked wished dead made comment feel way sometimes desire kill opinion life worst indifferent next asked front wife knew kill started crying said care question kept asking ask wife leave asked clarification said going kill today know cried bizarre hypothetical told thought car garage easiest way asked thats planned said asked apparently enough red flags start threatening hold even go help suicidal thoughts made cry scared ive scared long time whole thing incredibly bizarre took recommendation doctor said panic attacks threat incredibly relieved somehow saw intent answers clearly despite interpretations anyways left abnormal amount questions people supposed help genuinely scared hurting knowing honesty locked normal legal placed facility will importantly anxiety issues escalated abnormal level chest tight im afraid feel safe 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knowing shell suffocate cares much love help able stop happening anyone elses experiences great know im uk advice especially welcome know us system different point living unhappyits serious question put day day barely living im anxious mess panic attack need leave house im home kids day really think im screwing cry time cant basic things done drive locally two young kids still know messed grow knowing mommy committed redflag want mess want baby walking around asking mommy really think healthy around day way im sorry place know im even posting im midst anxiety attack im tired im really sure better want feel stuck weighed ive never felt trapped great tv movie told murder martha moxley greenwich connecticut nephew ethel kennedy use ghost martha provide details effective added lot heart story christopher meloni seemed capture personality mark fuhrman well furhman got much underserved bad publicity oj simpson trial certainly vindicated contribution bringing killer justice years fun fact nobody cares failed nnn nobody cares sticky liquid came genitals im totally saying cus ive seen posts last minutes hi phase depression makes really desperate years neglecting depression thinking cool cured starting realize shit going come back change life fundamentally want unsuccessfully hunting moneyi waiting therapy wondering books recommend helped understand condition better way find hard distinguish thoughts depressions thoughts point trust thoughts feelings anymore question basically anything think feel books depressed people marigold far best outsiders take bollywood seen grow bollywood ive seen hundred now id say leaves gurinder chadha mira nair even merchant ivory bombay talkie almost dust willard carroll director really loves bollywood selfconfidence allow us know theres humor arch ironic distancing course really mean stuff jerry lee lewis say gets let us joy bollywood movie experience along touches supplied westerners stepping storytellers rolebr br story caustic bitchy 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going bar deal capacity people getting along relate emotional conversations traditional hindi movies seldom see much thing going women discussion mother daughter daughters choice groom let alone strangers unrelated people let alone bargoing spirit details fresh completely delighted thisbr br saw preview showing attended director fine speaker questionanswerer salman got brotherlike good friends making loves india plans make wizard oz movie india cant detailed songs ive seen except say liked range happy parody bollywood number moviewithinthemovie ladies costumes leghorn hats seashellcased bodices beach scene flowy dresses worth cost ticket alone lovely reflective manyscened romantic song sadder serious part moviebr br mix hindi english music worksbr br salman khan gets lot credit openness unusual projects jaanemann good judgment ones carroll said full suggestions ideas along way totally fine ie narcissistic whether carroll accepted rejected clearly pro loves involved collaborating dont want die sometimes alive muchim years old dads side abused brainwashed made blame mom divorce rift family happened eight granny dads side threatened kill last year screamed betrayed dad didnt believe blamed told apologise couldnt dont want relationship anymore hates im moms daughter thats something cant change blame everything dad recently asked talk couldnt understand told didnt want contact stresses things theyve said hurts head ive lot mental breakdowns recently hate live mom relationship bit awkward im working sinking feeling chest crawls spine behind throat im years old onlyabout hours god hate people treat people treat better finding therapisthello friend struggling lot poor self image issues depression needs therapist every day become toss talk ledge therapists say wont take know guidelines say cant request contact information ask advice give help find therapist tired failure collegei got c important college class might affect future grad school ive gotten another c already important college class know try take going hard even know going worth career even know worth im done feel im walking life im even sure even know want want give life people telling smart going great college came intellect fallen window care care future care grade shows im wow suck im tired im tired want cant im pretty sure someone sad die wish tried harder feel way wish knew future hold im scared im scared whats ahead know thing easy well easy simpler trying hate im tired im really fucking tired cant believe failure couldve stopped hate want someone tell everything going okay believe want change know want wait want end things least itll final cant force care anymoresorry make sense memories last months little broken cant really piece together well little months ago broke long term highschool girlfriend search fulfilling life got together want smoking weed anymore stopped pothead sort made little sad decided worth naturally broke started smoking highschool senior smoked every single day months trying sorts new drugs along way cigarettes alcohol opiates shrooms lsd mdma cocaine sorts fun stuff thought give new perspective life left shell person used graduated high school months broke thats drug use really took chose attend college miles away hometown effort start anew different person now alone live huge city money im verge failing important classes nothing left want anymore want anyone want nothing wonder hurts cries help lonely nights account overdrawal emails antidepressants never worked contributed person today ive tried blame people creating monster person blame im dr frankenstein tried kill thought best seek therapist maybe antidepressant medication therapy jack shit thing thank medication nonexistent sex drive life fucking bland christ fucking killing whats karma mean im new site wtf karma building something see people calling karma whores people want bad brag pls supposed karma im done lifeim done guys really nothing live im useless piece shit value world keep living know fact successful im depressed anything life full tragedies suffering life constant cycle waking go school miserable falling asleep wish escape world fuck everything im big fuck wish better everything fault want sleep forever escape world im disappointment everyone sucks nobody life single clue im fucking dying inside one best friends killed know handle iti seen year college together always happy kind everyone even people dickheads everyone single bad bone body ive struggled suicidal thoughts ideation number occasions attempted take life times well suicidal back year last made post ages ago know friend got helped feet found today wednesday monday done one told sisters friends brother told sister told sister found now thankfully felt suicidal couple months instead anxiety explosive repressed anger im right state im angry killing still college ends college fault dealing helping think im going something bad always thought itd whod commit redflag anyone knew found friend died part wish died instead im speechless numb ive idea funeral taking place im going ireland holiday friday hopefully give peace mind allow process someone suicidal numerous times lose someone redflag last expect need guidance much cost stay hospitali live ny idea familys insurance cover feeling increasingly suicidal thinking telling therapist might choose stay hospital days least ideas much might cost anyone want chatt gf work im bored af baaaaaa ba ba baaaaaa waaaaaa waaaaa waaaaa anyone identify song good people lots love unlucky die car crash something unlucky die accident gone one remember matter die oof wan na slice wrists wan na scream void kinda v n sh earth feel wouldnt care someone chokes death nowhere im worthless piece shit gf deserves way fucking better cuz serve purpose society dont know deal emotions never got teached deal possibly mentally break apart gf leaves im mentally fucking unstable actually need imprisoned mental ward feel im loosing mind sanity slowly rotting away mean howdy lads lasses every time fail wife want diethere thing stopping thought yearold son finding thought putting binbag head sealing makes angry today mom dad went bed told night turn phone apparently want find stupid point hobby go school every second day even school still keep saying talk us idea talk interests differ much different sense humor find stories boring time im phone watching youtube browsing reddit intereacting friends seem still try keep healthy go jogging eat fast food make proper meals know theyre course tell labeled disrespect make situation worse im really angry know wrong depardieus notorious film groundbreaker bertrand blier features many highly sexual scenes verging xrating including one jeanne moreau hot s version jules jim menage trois two hairy french hippies depardieu deware thing sacred territory film everything fair gamebr br odd americans tend film much many french people ive met consider classic something goes americans programmed likebr br gerard late patrick deware two bitchslapping hippy drifters many sexual insecurities going around molesting women committing petty crimes theyre kicks anticapitalist eurocommie slacker freedom blier satirizes hell two guys time making bourgeois society look ultimately much ridiculous best though way wonderful stephane grappelli score conveys restless soul drifters deeper subconscious awareness higher ideal motivates follies engage lifechanging advice friends check grades want stressed friend ampxb wtf guys easy ampxb hope helped yall give upwhen born die born die true john sayles finest film brother another planet entirely forgettable either reason message batman wild things parents murdered front leaving fend zone corrupt section unnamed city greed violence reign supreme instead falling likes chopper robert davi wild thing fights justice using powers tai chi eerie cat impressions occasionally lighting fire becomes something urban legend modern day robin hood hero ages finest wild thing lives againim wanting die non stop fantasies endless ways kill life live nicolas cage born january th nicolas cage born january th failedi one purpose failed plan foiled know end now people scroll new far scroll refresh page depends much tim usually scoll till comments minutes old refresh girls complaining carry around tier big tits carry massive nuts filer filer file rgiler jfksndnfj djdjjd got threat legit track phone number body text sent boss informed send text messages investigated ask photos waste time girls one main objectives girls company made waste valuable time active men go house job think better try talk things worse family work involved grandma bitch actually nice time computer bf fallen asleep go stuff shower barges room yells dark wont buy light wants put clothes closet sees trash full knocks says clean mess im slob piece shit people deserve helli want good kid hard connect people past ive prescribed anonymous knowledge medication year olds suicidal opinion hate people passion yet crave approval think im angry world done sometimes thrash people seem nothing live go state highandmighty allow end life far worked makes laugh survive prison thriving hurting others may deserve think im badass wrong really care problem self aware psychopath puts incredible strain upon life possibly horrible coworkers wich regret everytime clock work feel ashamed every time try around brother friends hard connect people want connect people emotionally yet comes social situation seems social norm hate passion want kill badly know destroy family hand keep living possible may destroy lives process sometimes sleep unless think way take someones life away heroin dealer destroys lives either way maybe ill point good reason stuff ongoing bit insiomiac years figured change thoughts resenting something simple taking lives scumbags selfaware lunacy still hard though lunatic ice pick aroused still want hurt anyone want know thing help people sick depraved person yet aware disgusted fact know room people world want hurt anyone may feel bit better become next jeffrey daumier hope please tell update thank kind words really means lot take time help random kid internet sorry took long update help dad take crap dump today subreddit really amazing needed someone therapist confide im going work using relationship sort serious issues im still embarrassed felt great things chest cant thank enough feel hopeless accept life thisthrow away account apsergers syndrome ocd backstorycontext live dysfunctional house hold subjected mental emotional verbal abuse mother sits living room tells im bad person abuses people cares try leave room screams past physically abusive slapping spanking accessions beat ground lead issues younger lash anyone likely due anger built abuse made become friendless one wants friends cant go anyone think abusive person go police flipped script framed abuser result go police charged warned happen visit house cant tell therapist talk police duty situation cant move enough money assisted housing behalf government resulted losing hope im world shit created give video ideas ill make em reply link im done couple hours days got nothing better stuff already made inspiration httpswwwyoutubecomplaylistlistplpctbuhmhqeengvugnghgydxjpkl httpswwwyoutubecomplaylistlistplpctbuhmeyxpknndatdqwpqriz ask girl tell ive wanting ask long time idea go socially awkward even around girls whilst really confident kind screwed upits okay nobody says anything think im awful early morning im alone one awake talk im overwhelmed experiencing extreme anxiety basically screwed took relationship long distance sexually assaulted tried report shut afterward started seeing someone even though relationship justified know handle well know im piece shit talked ended breaking soon possible months ago tell aforementioned stuff ive cheated wish never knew still care started texting talked asked confessed hates totally understand want give now im tired sad heart chest hurts bad ive tried something glad attempts unsuccessful cant deny urge day age every news story involves discussions waterboarding images abu ghraib tales forced detentions guantanamo bay gavin hoods rendition uptotheminute timely movie likely come entertainment mills mainstream hollywood stretch imagination perfect film neither merit caterwauling opprobrium received hands critics across ideological political spectrumbr br term rendition refers ability cia arrest individuals suspects terrorist dealings whisk away secret foreign country interrogate torture indefinite period time without due process law anwar elibrahimi egyptian man living twenty years united states american wife young son new baby way seems unlikely candidate terrorist yet one day without warning explanation anwar seized taken undisclosed location subjected brutal torture admits involvement terrorist organization anwar claims know nothing aboutbr br negative side rendition falters occasionally storytelling abilities often biting little chew terms plot character ostensible focal point douglas freeman rookie cia agent brought observe anwars interrogation hands egyptian officials problem conceived writer kelley sane enacted jake gyllenhaal freeman seems much nave boy scout make plausible agent given screen time needs develop fully character know little beginning even less seems end goes motions learn precious little man within thus without strong center gravity hold together film occasionally feels coming apart seams story elements flying directions similar problem occurs anwars distraught wife played reese witherspoon woman never know much apart see surface gyllenhaal witherspoon proved fine actors circumstances hemmed restrictive screenplay rarely lets go beyond single recurring note performancesbr br makes rendition ultimately powerful film extreme seriousness subject matter way two concurrently running plot lines elegantly dovetail one another movies closing stretches may make slightly contrived story perhaps might liked subject hey hollywood film pay deference mass audience expectations green lighted let alone see light day completed projectbr br two supporting performances particularly compelling film omar metwally makes palpable terror man caught real life kafkaesque nightmare awaken yigal naor makes surprisingly complex character chief interrogatortorturer meryl streep alan arkin peter sarsgaard make marks smaller roles special mention made warm richly hued cinematography dion beebebr br movie oversimplify issues probably stack deck favor torture victim evil government forces definitely one wonders movie played anwar really terrorist yet movie guts tread controversial ground afraid raise dicey questions risk disapproval political stances takes openly ponders issue nation hold fast hardwon principle civil liberties face terrorism fear much courage take people good finally stand say enough enough even risk branded terroristappeasing unpatriotic power movie way deny reality extreme islamic terrorismbr br thus reject rendition hand allow perfect enemy good rendition may perfect good something importance say world live alone makes much worth seeing nobody love meall relationships ive internet relationships none ended well one person crush best friend already found someone love feel never anyone im transgender social anxiety help either want someone love obviously thats never going happen wan na dietoo hard fucking deal shit ive lost everyone friends anymore everyday getting harder deal issues boyfriend losing interest fucking tell im close ending tonight relapsed minutes ago need courage end please stop pain im tired living asian hate became relevant america feels media wanted talk racism america blm died think coverage created problems solving stuff blm major cause concern racism towards black americans deeply rooted history country asian hate though never learned much history issue sort popped nothing controversial going start sounding racist someone point major patterns asian hate news started blowing feel im losing fightits gotten point feel hopeful anymore try look towards happy future see better see continuing pain depression loneliness always wondered people say theyre happy life bad honestly think ill make end year maybe even months now really hope someone life remember vann wish everyone hated much dothen id feel less bad killing ive come close finally ending many times theres always tiny bit doubt mind says things might better know thats wrong though need find way squash thought im fucking sick alive cant look mirror seeing disgusting face makes want vomit thatd probably good though im stupid control eating lose weight normal way somehow managed land decent job fully expect lose lazy ass never time desperately need job help pay husbands medication even goodrx month need away toxic shit family fuck anything everything touch school grades abysmal getting fucking taking classes gotten higher id turned assignments time nope stupid lazy cant even kill right last time tried need stiches blood transfusion tried slit wrists know better cut though maybe ill able something right life practicing cutting deeper hit fat yet im working pain tolerance fucking existing painful every minute breath reminds dead pulled god damn trigger chance hate much im complete utter failure understand friends anyone life put nothing useful give im funny advice give cant help problems absolutely worth human whatsoever feel really matter time say fuck try slit wrists really close today lost nerve better yet wait till first paycheck two comes leave husband something hell point id enough money go buy cheap gun know store nearby sells pistols around least wasting much money death fuck im going give tuesday morning week try something right cant know cant ill kill id monday morning cast one arm blocks access wrist keep rambling much shitty person ill cut short sorry taking space feed fucked upi fucked fucked fucked holy shit nothing health related fucking dug grave im going try kill hourdone life feeling trappedhello everyone know im writing guess catch contemplating thing pain great feel broke something main reason feel due climate change theres going future child live happily children makes break every time see coming back work helping feed every smile cuddle stab heart know needs needs ok fight know continue anybody watch raskreddit youtube videos robot voice robot voice got wanted say hope great day got first real gf ive never really dated kinda stumbled relationship gf nice amazing need talk somewhere lives side school little older months ive spent bunch time house parents siblings cool let chill last week ive started dinner become pretty regular thing thanks listening rant sorry mobile bad format hate world nothing good happens miserable fuckit really hard see reasons stay alive think escape misery death free pain fuck world feeling hopelessthey say gets better really feel way largely unhappy fact anyone life speak feelings makes feel extremely hopeless ive best keep head seems harder try harder fall back depression cant help feel resentful hardly anything working favor life feels universe make feel miserable want believe happening thats feels feel extremely lost know go help ive seeing therapist im receiving enough emotional support loved ones feel trapped really know sorry came across whiny andor annoying unfortunately cant help feel trump little devil sitting bidens shoulder seriously tho keeps interrupting big bro teenager tomorrow soon gon na move start university im really gon na miss still remember time moves fast lol ive working entire pandemic cant anymoreive slaving away shit pay entire pandemic anxiety way high better job work hours start freaking thinking shit makes want kill even ive put lbs started using pills dollars bank account somehow stretch next friday seriously fuck point nonsense whats favourite fighter jetplane f tomcat looks cool best way commit redflag body found deathi plannin consider 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intensifying honestly feel im beginning lose internal battle honestly feels ill forever alone despite best efforts one irl friend couple internet friends make worse irl friend moving back home country couple months im going literally one hang meaning ill alone thoughts went months stronger hell despite busy positive want kill ive pushed past limits achieved amazing things fuck exhausted waking every day consumed thoughts inadequacy fact im alone every morning internal battle try convince itll better know believe anymore im driving work college gym ill see lamppost ill random impulse drive ill random thoughts slitting wrists bathtub know much longer deal everything feel may months left power reach year mark breakup lose hope thing keeping going knowing redflag hurt family theres possibility things may better amazing dog spent almost every single day drunkim ashamed want stop escape tarkov expectations vs reality d httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkdhdriptuhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkdhdriptu im starting feel suicidal year really need therapythis pandemic school semester really pushed unstable mental state im constantly scared im close falling apart collapsing entirely im architecture major constant studio presentation deadlines working hours every day really minimal time take breaks take care properly extends weekends holidays become hard stop breaking become even harder find time spend family friends boyfriend going lot issues pandemic school well slowly feel become unable support properly im struggling much breaking heart see personal love life family life strain tension struggles used pretty suicidal high school im feeling thoughts creep back hard year goes im scared cant anything immediately help either boyfriend im terrified somethings going snap im going lose want happy badly becoming grim day dont know many hour work days handle body shuts desperately need therapy need professional guidance cope stress properly support boyfriend way hurt emotional state ive always scared therapy parents raised strict mentality thinking taboo immigrant parenting really want consistent getting professional help recover properly tried times always stopped going month always thought wasnt stressed enough later final architecture studio presentation next thursday im going call university counseling center ask help need post reminder really need body cant handle anymore stress without proper professional help read far wanted apologize embarrassing af name joke username chose made account long back lol thanks taking time listen stranger vent emotional turmoil wasnt serious joke earlier week made comment comment post pedos im naming anyone reason commented pedo affended clearly joke saw comment pedo joke pedo every song somebodys favorite song think shittiest song youve heard give thought take moment thing someone may absolutely fucking adore song fucking blew mind think especially songs living legend scarlxrd thing screamo rap mumble rap basically rap overwhelmed bass boosting shitty lyrics barely understand fans ultimately complaint music choice criticized family literally sit bullshit brother plays including limited tooooooooo rap drugs murder rape crimes god awful country songs oldies whatever fuck chill step parents eat shit moment play anime shit say listen real music turn music car bud driving radio mine didnt automatically connect phone thats thought okay enough guys might covid lets goooo big dubskis gods tiredi want pain stop years happiness always lie something gets way lie say love hurt soon convenient bored eventually nobody gets say smart find someone level matter let end please important thing heres important thing two sexualities aromantic asexual see theres difference two quite obvious people might feel romantic attraction brain goes want cuddle kiss feel sexual attraction want fuck see thats difference two asexual person doesnt feel sexual attraction feels platonic romantic one aromantic person doesnt feel romantic attraction feels sexual platonic one aromantic asexual person feels platonic kind attraction thank listening questions likely answer type food imposter eat susage anyone listen im sick deserve thisive sick years one listens doctors rush door im often sick barely make appointment let alone fight proper treatment respect patient bankrupted currently homeless cant fixed minutes pill sort one seems care family everyone life abandoned time need normally okay im sick help feel drugged eating im sick barely move days enrolled school attempt save life work learn material debt wasted time disappointment hopelessness nice genuine caring person thrown curb deserve millions people make bad life choices proper treatment yet someone always done right thing cant help needed sick alone several years help anyone listen anyone anything help beg plead help one cares never begged anything life one time need help im left rot sick years now im years old prime life spend every waking minute looking answers cant help hello 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worst want die old absolutely idea happens death seen rational perspective nothing cant picture nothingness wanted kinda chest expect actual answers course need talk someone please feel life trainwreckim years old boy feel worthless time body tried exercise eating healthy results friends talked almost three weeks go feel empty want go home sleep time even know im going face life adult need talk someone whos experience tell face problems please itll eventually bettereveryone says yeah might take forever itll better eventually yeah might take years itll good grateful sit think amount suffering worth might come thats question think person experiencing answer people cant none say life ok years explain agree say somehow worth suffer long isnt scale put years absolute suicidal misery one side average existence tips side misery suffering really worth might come even best case scenario maybe id depressed long even matter cant decide wan na badly shes fucking beautiful j fucking ugly piece shit alright boys look got defo high effort title ampxb processing img lrxmni saw detroit must original run literally rolled aisle theater funny seen love copy anybody saying anything dated overdone money bunch poseurs skit either wickedly erotically perversely hilarious one weak one included opening sequence instance parodies features gorilla gogodancers pendulous breasts felinni filmed wicked wit come film open mind blithely sneering heart pencil right best list long bowserbye bye wake move brain another body world nothing offer battle clock rolls november brave souls may put rest fight survived nut november passed lay burdens enjoy fruits labor failed stay strong try next year time celebrate rejoice worst behind us go leave place enjoy earned wish joy december keep living small portion life happinessyeah know cliche overthought understand keep going sure theres things life fun majority life working exhausting stressed least im told want live fun life forever die everytime mention idea shot saying cant live cant fun life time keep going cant enjoy life every day stressed exhausted every day live sprinkle happiness pool full stress sorrow im stuck school every day wake back home exhausted procrastinate hours left day away go sleep cycle starts im expected work weekends wheres life going im told need future good job struggle financially ill stuck another routine potentially working overtime exhausted shit told thats life deal maybe want deal want die cons outweigh pros curse survival instinctexplain stupid thing im ready die pills pocket almost killed friend found kill time double dose family gone vacation taking vacation overcome survival instinct know life hopeless continuing suffering end yourselfwhoever control life wont even let post reddit ill try anyway ampxb cmon think logically answer yes nothing changestheres many things want change life matter hard try nothing changes every time try job end quitting within week anxious thoughts energy due depression im tired one loser lives parents house s im broke friends hobbies seem sit room browse reddit youtube day stick around life hopes successful one day apparently destined loser literally nothing worth sticking around try best kind person help others yet hand cards dealt ive posted past time cant win thoughts even parents really care dad told today kill care worlds even gon na know gone im gon na least say tried recently posting rteenagers lot trying one girl friend knew asked bring casually instead said wanted teach draw havent talked didnt know drew dont want learn draw yet planning talking first im kinda freaking think good thing dont know im mentally dying think im alright though likes wont seem im trying dont know human ive even talking class raise tolerance even though hate every comment even make whole class laugh feel end world isnt im still freaking day long overdose startsive taken full bottle mg capsules cymbalta plus ten mg tablets lexapro feel seeking help anymore useless long symptoms headache diziness begin kick source suicidal thoughts depression forever alonei met girl hit well lot common interest anime musici asked date agreedi didnt ask right away messaged months firstwe went restaurant eat saw movie date magical dream happy thought finally found someone love really thought always smiling making eye contact even let hold handbut day went shitshe became distant tried asking another date made lame excuse went ignoring said fine give upwhy shit happen every female try withim freaking year old kisslessvirgin fucks sakei dont think im bad looking take care go gymeat healthy shower every day top work shitty construction job pay dentist bills help family bills fuck economyif lovely girlfriend come home hard day work lot motivated every day workis anyone mefallen deep depression cant find love whats point living doomed alone forever school rickrolled everybody im even kidding life curse better tranny freaks im killing tonightlife fucking curse nothing gets better gets worse worse worse worse everything ive worked stolen im homeless unemployed tranny frankenstein monster freak one hire jack shit ill always poor homeless im time left build future everything need kill tonight im laying train tracks im sick pathetic waste life im fucking tranny monster need die one one hire future life life live need die life suffering life fucking curse peoplei swear id dont want put people around pain others deserve though im unable feel good emotionsthis coming time im feeling downits im seeing ive joyive tried feel excited stuff universally exciting realized bad looking back experiences rollercoastersbut thats besides pointfor reason half emotionhalf dull aching migraine start feel happyimagine bottle soap someone pours water itthats feel likeits feelings half feeling half anguishmy happiness excitement immediately dissipate start feel well got checked officially turns year old redflag yeah told friends laughed face saying depression people worse problems agree true made seem worthless mental health important whenever reach somehow make fun saying stfu today months left commit suicide well cut friends life stay curled room fine day mostly write watch shows night really bad take pills sleep addicted started smoking avoid reality always tired way avoid emotions listening songs time used best time numb even feel excited got one live worthless yeah thank listening bullshit friends call numb nothing interests anymore apart dying girl butts unattractive boy butts freaking amazing filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler im suffering much unimaginable cant even ur bed take shower anymore need die need diemale need die live anymore exist everyday pain become homeless soon keep failing exams college due mental issues family even support rather insulting words gun wouldve now need escape everything want insulting voices want pain need die please let die im sick im kind worried cough throat bit sore im tired nose blocked need friendsmy boyfriend recently broke friend cant staybe friends cuz hurts im looking friends im turned november th everyone welcome friend love friends honesty memories makeare gon na make yeah girlfriend epic heres shes really cute beautiful really pale skin idk face body proportioned good looks great shes nice sometimes shes bit annoying everyone usually shes nice makes feel better im sad upset shes generally fun talk shes great shes funny uses dankmemes thats one flaw besides sends funny memes talking idk makes smile chuckle exhale nose sometimes laugh audibly nice name first name charly wont say last privacy fun write cursive pretty named hurricane pretty cool one goes smaller tiny reasons cant think specifically make great idk say parts individually doesnt sound great put together shes perfect nothing really perfect perfect everything flaws shes perfect listening love songs remind sometimes ok shes back online got ta go bye reddit people nice day ready throw towelno one willing help care love made many stupid decisions past situation past really traumatized year old grandpa commited crime went jail gave emotional trauma barely loving good grandpa passed away cancer years ago still miss now got one girlfriend friends one cares iam alone said life beyond repair want throw end sick exsistence relatives getting jops getting marry graudate college failing everything year old unloveable garbage really want punch universe face iam sick dissapointed everything sister pregnanti trying pregnant five years sister finally pregnant without trying beautiful shes fucking gorgeous shes even better online school making perpetually stressed unhappy two days week person remote keep handing tons work dont time dad doesnt let homework weekends always stressed school guessing way homework dont time sit watch videos every class teach every topic thats right dont even learn person self taught least classes rough couple years grandmother died mother kind mental break abuse escalated terrible years constant yelled violence grandfather started drinking fell deep alcoholism lot violence drinking going long time money lost friends eventually got kicked move year ago almost got evicted worse time life today everything okay lost sense self graduated month ago got job going college month mothers meds calmed something within wrong everyday think killing even choice point thoughts come think lonely sleep awhile thoughts creeped new job nannying week time sleep entire week come back mothers house weekend back one day already going mad work felt way twice first day know feel way everything cried self sleep come first time long time okay still want lay go away think write write anything find body whether grandfather remember questions kids work ask imagine memory thoughts hurting flood used someone strong knew wanted hope hope gone know anymore recognize person mirror best life years help want end slaughter high totally ridiculous slasher flick high school nerd martywho gets pick time prankstersthe prank goes wrong ends getting savagely burnedfive years later tormentors attend reunionjust ten courseand low behold marty murders one anotherbritish actress caroline munromaniacleads cast heroinewho dies anywaythe acting completely awfultheres suspense allplenty grotesque death scenes satisfy gorefreaksa guys stomach explodesanother female victim literally gets acid batha couple sex bed electrocuteda guy crushed tractorone girl drownedand doctor gets hyperdermic needle eyethe killer wears decent rather creepy jesters mask settinga beautiful old english castleis really nicehowever dream finale utterly patheticall true slaughter high piece garbagebut enjoyed itonly fans truly bad slasher flicks bruh found good artist songs depressing hell voice music good lyrics depressing man dont wan na listen time edit guys name ethan jewell although without faults drama fitting one shown around easter time reminded us spiritual selves showed behind facades often hide deepest sufferings experiences much enjoy drama least rapping teenagers provided better musical accompaniment drama rather poor sound score background acting excellent timothy spall superb climax satisfying rather simplistic timothy spalls letting go longdead wifes suicide credible mirrored well feelings despair present teenage girl selfharmed resolution graffiti boy muslim gratifying less believable wonderful drama left husband felling evening well spent congratulations well course women overly sensitive needy average interestingly portrayed mother whore though pseudoartistically extravagantly blatantly dwelt unlike many seen la maman et la putain twice many good films noticed opinion improved second viewing know seen yet delve exploits acquired dvd yet figure precisely enjoy movie much really care though im sure form wonderful explanation right may disagree perhaps bit boring times im expert blonde reminds lovely grushenka miss days nights cold scary man overdosing 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therapist wanted wait reassess emotions things order girl hang getting admitted shes currently er knows right things say room makes everything definitely worse plus dont want knowing details shit theres psych hospital wouldnt hour flight away idk doeverything feels hopeless lately sign maybe im supposed wanted talk someone suicidal thoughts one speak tomy depression suicidal thoughts essentially made completely isolated people used consider friend go weeks cutting people due wanting talk depression essentially cut ties lot great people today felt suicidal wanted call talk someone realized point absolutely one talk enhanced idea kill right now know many people notice realize gone ah reddit reddit phone app changed onlinehiding function online status onoff need go back bottom button guys forgot something help today day cake guys help ppl thinkingive wrote many times want kill really want pain stop know happen die oh scared whats come next know hurt mother die cowardly sees broken pays mind knew gay probably now wouldnt matter died going hell anyway direction feel unloved whole life never felt anyone wanted cared existence outside blood relatives feel monster physically mentally homosexuality disgusts makes feel x worse hate degenerate feel less person joke mental health taking toll feel anxious state anxiety getting worse depression becoming crippling jealous happy people especially straight envy normalcy lust life know pain people attraction deserve cant keep living cant see marrying woman hide hard seeing worth used feel bad redflag knowing people really suffering redflag brings peace remember back mind might suffer eternally wish knew certain cut finger chefs knife ow filler filler filler ending right nowwhen knew switching careers wanted different field graduated university even said ill kill nothing works best field want switch im already nothings working best make work every day feel inadequate think place anymore got months turn leave understand whyall ive wanted loved thought awhile marriage two beautiful children years longer pretend everything jolly husband worked away home lot used time act still single kids inconvenience anything relationship year thought ready another lonely doubts anyone want change man came along online told everything wanted hung fear may never find anyone want short lived relationship long enough drive wedge children never forgive realised quite capable need man order survive children come back cant help thinking scar never heal us interaction far relationships go never lasted one fellow visiting monthsyear told amazing beautiful woman wished hed met twenty years earlier faded away thats seem fade away never seen demanding woman im easy going argue strong beliefs opinions defend expect man think everything attracting wrong type change right never pretended someone im hold attention honest good communicator sense humour see positive things people yet sit alone tell wonderful person first others happen right feel im old overweight ugly wanted anyone thats damn lonely place live ive suffered depression many years getting help able keep smoother path occasional pothole turn bottomless pit anymore never seem able climb see horizon either tend self sabotage go doctor never wanted one complain give poor vibe play feel time hope getting rut tell crisis thing better always another crisis struggle bed days cant see things getting better even bother whats point kids fine without fact take care way around makes feel burden felt suicidal many years understand everything take much effort fight everything nothing comes easy simple please rteenagers member end life please anything help may late want dieas title states want die ive antidepressants three years now thought handle cant afford eventually make enough money meds wrong cant job one wants hire person spotty resume im unmotivated anything lost motivation determination work art things find lost cat clean crappy apartment makes worse memory slowly fading im barely remember last week roommates say chose different soup day even though sure chose certain one wanted im useless society want end life end coma want stop existing itd better wasnt around roommates happier gone id cause less trouble id less burden already surprise friend kindness strangers crowd funding vet bill please take look gofundme url set donations greatly appreciated even unable donate shares facebook twitter helpful thank taking time read request sometimes wish got weird dms im chick ofc ur basic wan na see dickmessages licks shyly hhi kitten blushes faints funny dude never ending trainlife sometimes feels youre train without destination youre trapped inside cant see many wonderful things behind window wonderful creations places moves fast cant focus sun shines upon face little light hope hear people laughing see happy faces new lovers new parents children wonderful life ahead destination youre sitting alone drowning tears everyone living youre surviving feels im experiencing life way everyday im proud cant change thing late book destination guess sorry ranting system science told effortless videos guess systemofadown easier metallca ironmaiden livehey im fairly new subreddit reddit general came sole purpose venting ill right im basically alive obligation parents siblings delve probably describe im short overweight relationships outside family im utterly hopeless cowardly depraved piece human garbage im afraid practically everything thats much exaggeration talk friends sometimes makes feel people talk im college want go studying career really care matter much clue want anyway talents hobbies interests complain never time rest time overwork instead work deadend shitty retail job guess perfect job someone motivation anything used play video games even anymore whine friends im afraid try make friends complain everything never try change anything im already feel theres basically nothing look forward constantly constantly think killing remind parents siblings upset died still expectations expectations cant hope fulfill im planning waiting parents siblings die finally end miserable useless life without anyone remember luckily im youngest child wait decades fact feel shred anything typing probably concerning conclusion feel desire live capacity sorry length spelling errors watched movie say impressed creepy numerous moments make jump seat smoke several emergency cigarettes along way calm nerves criticise id say perhaps anything many jump moments got point every single new scene climaxed jump gradually wore away startling effect kind new comingbr br although contains virtually every clich ghost genre done well maintained creepy fearfactor elements shining th sense changeling particular soundtrack reminded changelingbr br highly recommend anyone looking good oldfashioned scare first post using pc reddit hi typing mechanical keyboard successful life yet still want end alli excellent stable job making figures beautiful supportive girlfriend house two vehicles yet still think redflag daily basis im american depressing government filled bunch twits care people complain problems seem easy fix yet listen care fix im atheist religious seems ridiculous honestly see place world fuck need still thing keeping parents devastated go thats enough reason make day know im years late im finally watching another defense half came barely learned ways anime still cant believe years ago finished episode recover horror great take much time fact episodes least far end cliffhanger know makes want keep watching end somewhere thats probably best place end every episode make decision either watch next episode deal horror handle think watch next episode cuz suspense im haunting friends among us rn dont know ban someone im renaming chase call dont speak english redditor attempted redflagi wanted share experience trigger warning history ive major depression years ive almost every medication still hard still lonely still sad ampxb diagnosed make misdiagnosed treating bipolar disorder twenty years later find anxiety mdd things looked minute take medications sometimes felt good felt bad felt bad ampxb one night sad week showered called work week terrified going lose yet another job due depression drank drank lot got super emotional cause got fight friend felt hopeless death felt right redflag notes written past felt everyone selfish selfish wanting die selfish wanting stay ampxb tried knife first hurt bad found razor able cut wrists successfully im blood thinners took whole bottle bleed woozy wanted end faster kept going kitchen medicine ended taking lot lamictal lamictal extremely dangerous large doses know time pee one point tried literally legs legs fell walk poisoned severely tried pull arms couldnt kept flipping furniture attempt back bed vomit pillow slept face hallucinations started morning alarm started go screaming mom cause im adult live alone turn alarm screaming obscenities torturing alarm shortly able crawl bedroom door open realized mom computer alarm realized blind see anything one backgrounds see mac thats bunch fuzzy colors crawled computer unplugged stop collapsed see walk alive ampxb later day mom come find thought attacked due disarray bedroom told happened begged take back pysch ward stay help heal go work monday ampxb slowly weekend lot oatmeal bread water electrolytes walk eventually see monday came go back work took leave absence work knew happen ampxb called psych doc left message happened well see two months fuck found closer doctor better doctor rxed something called tms httpswwwmayoclinicorgtestsprocedurestranscranialmagneticstimulationaboutpachttpswwwmayoclinicorgtestsprocedurestranscranialmagneticstimulationaboutpac ampxb saved life work insurance covered treatment three psych meds opposed thought redflag ampxb read stories see going hope find way late wanted share story two reasons terrifying blind unable walk much much better thoughts clear depression minimal anxiety gone ampxb hope feel committing redflag feel free reach im listen story mine never problems alone never complained single virgin anything unless joke virgin dweebtill opened rteenagers saw everyone sad complaining alone started going flow know never cared loving anyone loved remind everyone matter realistically think love anyone loved anyone said matter sad alone jealous alone society raised want actually want answer probably suck thats thanks wasting time reading hopefully message omg guys awesome teacher basically called cool discord building gunpla ladies please one time reminder friendly reminder valid part lgbtq community sweet person color neato cosplayer cool maybe give tips furry awesome maybe tell fursona u tp lk th thats really cool make gacha edits coolio sorry missed anything found ex cheated beginning lies whole relationship ya broke rind sitting knife two bottles vodka friends relationship one gives shit topnof hat know evil person maybe punishment fuvkinh unless pussy found baby toucan looks ampxb httpspreviewredditrnqvxzlatjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampscbbfbfedaccaddbaaf guys learn dont care problems im trying pants head bitch fear safety must clarify joke finally today finally th birthday tbh feel much different lmao friends year older age months least brother wont play battlefield ungrateful rat im going keep review short sweetbr br saw trailer thought id give whirl minutes initial thoughts hell minutes hooked picking jaw floor film great example different movie furthermore french film high art eye candy wrapped tidy futuristic film noir package motion capture clever black white animation style grey although first totally captivated end film found wishing every film made think opinion helped great dubbing easy ruin landed many respected actors many voice actors give feeling characters watch hong kong legends film english see perfect examplei gave although gave extra fresh new whole thing feels going tonighti cant deal longer hate much im lonely talked another person loud twice past week times called samaritans one know wants around anymore everything place plan work thank everyone sub tried help im sorry let edit thanks comments people beautiful remember sort new people need help ill stop sorry existing lmao boyfriends friend female recently started texting say recently mean yesterday girl call aiyaaiya wanting kill self guy dating months dumped feeling depressed horrible right sounds awful saw problem ex kept texting aiya realized problem mostly annoying dealt type stuff middle school high school may think oh simple fix reassure convince make changes easy think genuinely want live said everything needed say says literally everything says wants back thing aiya aware knows worth feel shit guy knows giving ex wants see suffer doesent want help doesent want better know first time come reddit ask advice pretty good convincing people stay alive whole different caseit may simple talk anymore let deal problems brain let leave even problem needs actual helpits nearly probably impossible convince move extreme attachment issues seen anyone starting think life lost anyone advice wants input great know report lives way virginia live utah anything friend trying kill hurry answer anyone please pm links sites redflag methods known troll please use message moderators link right copypast pm message us take please take personally pathetic person apparently nothing send dozens poisonous messages evolved instead lonely im horny stop horny want kill tired want go sleep never awake reason attempted yet day nothing weeks friendships falling apart affecting relationship negative way evident happy answer every question fine part thinks feel comfortable place spent long know expect happy scares want end always tired yeah im sad hell rn anyone wan na chat f n crying btw yeah message thanks lonely cant take anymorehey moved city couple years ago ive never really felt home fleeting friendships go gang friends reliably hang regularly going long now im drunk gun id end im sick lonely spend nearly every weekend alcohol prescription drugs wish id wake morning im feel ive completely wasted last years life oh young try something different feel late drivers license help ive trying reach dmv days one pick phone respond messages either website reddit thought id see question answered question apply license road test suspended nc im currently years old wasnt able finish drivers ed school never permit ive hours driving mom believe pre covid year old apply license nc without drivers ed permit road test suspension im sure true questions still apply either license permit age road test suspended received drivers education certificate apply road test waiver need one want stopi want die want exist redflag really means end im sad depressed happy im nothing unfulfilled desires expectations desires expectations already done everything want life nothing left offer want nothingness im constant pain physically completely hollow emotionally really nothing fall somewhere unsatisfactory mediocre everything cant care meaningless life wonderful thing want dont never asked ive never wanted im empty alone nothing offer world im wasting resources better used someone wants continuation seems selfish greedy cant see continuing already fighting years normal life span really want kill know another way cease wisp background serve purpose want allowed stop tried killing years ago age thought another decade half everything seems horrid im prisoner existence want fought urge every day years tired constant weight life becoming much willpower handle want deserved rest adam thanks telling cant problems dont know honest anymore treat life equation constants variables ive proven wrong anything attempt quantify accomplish try live life momenttomoment end nothing lack success opposite direction ive disciplined nice mean chaotic ive changed everything many times dont remember used still outcome always im alone worse im desperate shows everything everyone read book open mouth shitty feeling know one wants good enough anyone whats worse though knowing ill probably settle someone tolerates id rather oh boo hoo fucking ric boy sad thats reaction always seem focus college youre find girl well dont even know fuck im allowed problems resent come im less youve rough fucking hypocrite think enjoyed telling folks depressed counselor explained feared safety think fucking attention want problem attention whore remember hyperbolic sometimes im bothered lot questions one im usually centered think maybe meant alone forever explain read many things strength takes walk alone see glimpses life id live good company someone loved throw everything learned window desperate telegraphed scramble keep little bit memory time impose reality world forget look never relationship never intimate level anyone didnt pay writing know going come around someday looking answers heres one needed find want care anymore want keep failing getting hurt broken nothing rebuild flawed person always failures shortsighted dreams entomb care enough pull eject lever enough actually change see wrong thought wait died bury didnt im sorry intention problems seem petty everyone know everyone thinks im well means im happy wont today wont tomorrow never shake feeling unless fix wont images head put friends pistol head played russian roulette feel something know keeps matter timing initial shock wears ill use drug kills might monday saturday fuck start today dont want feel alone anymore even means feeling nothing ive alone entire life nobody wants one wanted feel stuck tolerate sickening terms now fantasize killing myselfi want redflag conscious everyone hate want live everyday knowing killed want miserable wish give days life left someone elseid rather someone worthwhile enjoyed living remaining days life given waste almost feel selfish alive people die cancer diseases stuff theres many better people live extra years real good lives others world redflag depression set back enormously life started bleeding away academically socially romantically tried therapy work believe going genetic history sides family worst part peers slowly pulling away frustrating illness stopping illness strong cure slowly chips away mejust wanted vent setting back keep aliveim done crying long story short im friendless exfriends legitimately better without second group friends drop turned toxic stopped caring feel im cursed never legitimate lasting friendship im barely passing classes top dog dying cancer feel though deserve reason every friend ends hating abandoning means problem last year good year everything turn shit year may end deleting later know work psych field worst day pales comparison others everything better cant stop crying ended today years know best cant deal pain hurts cant breath entire existence crumbling im dying inside seems way brain screaming jut already ask crush ive crush long time wondering make move school help im really strapped time anyone help two five paragraph essays need turned next hour sorry need vent ive lot trouble keeping school really bad short term memory quickly forget himework simple assignments even remember assignments troubke finding motivation even turn think bad cant even find motivation take phone take picture grades starting fall ive hella stressed cant bring dad hell ground fix know help really want top things cant everything together perceived terrifies years suicidal ideation plans tell anyone know overreact refuse give privacy weeks makes things much worse know typing actually intend post impermanent draft way allow express want rest want die sick dismissed invalidated bring symptoms parents doctor sick parasite living parents basement tired existing soon chance going looking lorazepam hidden full bottle enough want reassurance platitudes guess mostly wanted say want die years much coward go past attempts got found careful enough goddamn tired really know posting im verge killing race whitepretty much reason im suicidal right race spent another night news website vice reading horrible things say white people try white thing make want live people hate harder harder read vice article saying ariana grande needs painful reminder shes white madame tusauds figure amount tanning change test exactly imagining youre causing someone pain doubt ariana gives shit advancing cause social justice people literally think race biologically genetically cogent real someones race defined genetic test read comment saying transracialism nasty white women disgusting repugnant human rotten food vomit existing audacity confused body dysmorphic abused mom mentally ill idea someone wanting change race apparently abhorrent win feel way find relief take dna test come even percent nonwhite thats thing make want go living point really miss production good old fashion spooky films ismail merchant james ivory given task producing film may one save lack internationally known top drawer cast one films watch alone dark evening pizza popcorn even bother dishes morning want hide covers bravo director herbert wise writers susan hill nigel kneale top production design jon bunker art direction john ralph excellent cast making shudder feel isolated even though im living one populated cities world beginning st century gave production budget constraints television really pulled great show watched friend said try father asked wed watch want old film good finally watch friend father friend loved film songs great actors cool crazy guess shows even though dads time mean cant good film bought film long seeing tv put lot sang along songs even watched classmates birthday party nice good sometimes funny filmbr br try cant say bad even think im going watch film dads time try first part film always stop watching really recommend great others commented somewhat strange video arrangements think trying capture looking attending live performance feet faces overall view unfortunately falls bit short said watching colin dunne nevertheless gratifying interesting contrast michael flatley original video progression show evident changes original dublin production evidentbr br trading taps highlight video opinion tarik winston unbelievable partner piecebr br think audio better version original video production dolby dvd excellentbr br despite flawed videography mustown riverdance fans enough suicidal note yes youve read righttoday extremely suicidal thinking today tried everything fix issues loneliness self steam college problems etc gave last hope called suicidal hotline talked hour half person called adam thank adam crying writing one within years listened years old never someone listened problems every single one remeebr last time talked someone long hour half thank adam wish best reading know stopped one person today killing thank feel killing shitty life heres difference horny horny see cute girl horny man wan na cum face arent horny man id cuddle death using hard drugs kill myselfi way capable redflag methods read instead much meth cocaine possible im trying od die im still stuck confided good friend threatened call police cant tell therapist either hell call authorities live mental illnesses chronic pain multiple unsuccessful back surgeries feel ive done im ready go side cant believe im still looking female wingman must female speciesoptional sexuality important need someone tell thought dating puts girls sudden state disgust work triedi cant anymore tried soooo hard please judge tried soooo hard tried sooo hard wanted someone talk got nothing cool die every time tried failed ill still try kick im whats american heard replace orange guy white guy whether important important feel strongly woman suicide watch entire world coming right way reacted long video posted online shows strongly unwell right everyone calling racist crazy karenthat fine great beside pointwhether wrong video point concerned mental health wellbeing idk go share concern everyone fuck abigail elphrick bring hey guys mad angry right now stop think longterm existence realize may close suicidal mentality even hate right now please someone something place try help extremely diredflaging time heragain clear cast judgement whether right wrong definitely think fucked think people imperfect mistakes happen fucking suck make especially current volatile culture simply saying even though many others believe wrong aware person care fellow human afraid mental state may attempt suicidei want try remind people struggling publicly shame guilt embarrassment many emotions topped hate receiving right may enough push edgeplease someone anyone reach remind give seen video woman abigial elphrick woman dubbed victorias secret karen sometimes wonder killing way find peaceim years old im working job hate anxiety pandemic gotten spiraling control think im poisoning im keep getting sick cant drink cans bottles cant even eat sweets chips without spraying lysol using disinfecting wipes im scared getting sick unreal think im subsequently making sick process dads trying go medication dont think itll help know im lucky others boyfriend loves family tries help everytime start spiral feels cant help hell tried vent mom phone started cry saying cant help give im gon na accept help im last year school online cant anything im lower classes bc act score shit everyone around makes feel failure comparison know im posting maybe want attention idk im tired waking everyday pm getting ready go job makes feel miserable thing thats given joy engaging kind sexual acts bf feel piece shit feel sick want thought moving dads house make everything better didnt everything feels way makes think maybe way ill truly find peace go heaven im even able go sinful things ive done make feel kind emotion feel bad even posting bc know im well others im truly sick living way feels theres way guys lets downvoted post reddit believe power stupidity ampxb httpspreviewredditxgqhivppngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafebdfafccaecdbe call nonbinary girlfriend boyfriend wife husband hurts live hurts remind good things lost never come back mei abandoned person held closest heart see reason keep fighting disgusting life left things never better worse way much going downhill existence strength make change kickstart life miserable broken condition now trying fucking trying never spent much time talking people trying hard keep mind occupied speaking therapist nothings helping even sure want thisand alone darkness bedroom memories keep hammering many contrasting feelings nostalgia remorse hatred want frustration lovelovei know serious constantly keep thinking much hurt slice wrists open constantly feel writing one last message every person lovedi sure endure woke crying thought ending word thx pronounced thixx answer amp never asked abusive relationship destroyed everythingmy boyfriend six months told needed choose family knew insane thing ask walked door days ago nc im realizing relationship destroyed much id realized small culture small community culture region everybody knows telling people crazy family blame leaving incidentally family might seemed crazy openly consistently rude ties community stronger authoritative mine longer show face around community house worship ones affiliated region connected addition career tightly linked community dependent good relations many communitys institutions destroyed even going far estrange important professional contacts happens close making lies contacts really instrumental helping build career met developing good relationships people felt happy getting opportunity earn respect top pressure man put family caused pull away say done become different person even though longer changed say want part new person become six months trying separate family stupidly thought point ok snapping saying mean things guise caring screaming randomly reason finally bad relationship everything life shattered bright future used destroyed relationship family career standing community nothing good never thought redflag stop thinking swallowing bottle tylenol pm bottle vodka ending last night even took first baby step practicing ive taken unisom help sleep even though know sometimes makes heart feel funny stop breathing night normally ill take mg last night took knew nearly enough kill wanted see happen know sounds sick hour went jump bed vomited purpose unpleasant thing really stopping trying thought might actually survive fucked life work field even little bit brain damage end career cant afford fail sometimes think life gets better see possibly better relationshipwith man really thought onehas failed left life shambles thanks reading update tried hang much changed asking help againi posted day failed attempt hanging guard rail broke woke several hours later many problems complex borderline personality disorder bipolar anorexia improving still difficult therapist ive never told anything never told child prostitute witnessing murder gang raped drug addict hard talk things person hard trust anybody irl information im alcoholic addict hurt everything year best year life terms target behaviors im still miserable wanted vent thanks fantastic arabian adventure former king ahmad best friend thief abu played sabu black narcissus search ahmads love interest stolen new king jaffar conrad veidt theres hardly moment always inventing new adventures heroes personally found ahmad princess little boring theres need ask john justin plays ahmad listed fourth credits conrad veidt always fun actor makes great villain sabu lot fun prince thieves one point finds genie bottle really loved miles malleson sultan basra father princess collects amazing toys around world jaffar bribes daughters hand mechanical flying horse probably count one great childrens films time special effects horribly dated nowadays kids certainly deride superimposed images abu genie screen together scene giant spider looks especially awful although younger generation probably thinks king kong looks bad point time willis obriens stopmotion animation thousand times better puppet string even look remotely spider slide dms coward f coward judge got day planned really looking forward itfor first time im thinking theyll sad im gone help help got great day planned favourite food last meal visit escort couple hours overdose heroin simple feels amazing excited death rather something crave scared tried od xanax alcohol wednesday lost minimum wage jobi got fired pizza place counting drawer slowly going slowly counted drawer two years working well paying stressful call center job eventually quit mental health reasons previously one said anything pace work pizza place fact complemented customers speed even given tip taking pizza dining area customary business attempt guess say impulsive part really needed pizza job source income right search engine evaluator working home organization work doles hours sparsely standards difficult understand even harder meet everything pay employees arrived home angry fired room mate works home representative call center quit back march snaps going stairs loudly shout back person ive known almost years never argument best described acting without thinking took xanax room probably pills ran liquor store got sort fruit flavored vodka cooler downed fast friend come pick drive house show supposed play memorys bit hazy point got eveyone got clued happening let lay couch people checked breathing next thing remember waking couch next day people seemed glad ok guess obviously play going first show new project mine let lot people saw therapist friday morning really wanted hospitalize refused thought worst passed hospitalization waste time make financial issues worse immediately therapy went pick check job incident manager fired something im proud never happened im supposed see therapist monday im trying psychiatrists appointment moved therapist recommended increasing lexapro dose guess ive survived redflag attempt now little physical harm consider lucky feel scared guilty intense depression ive experienced ive meds people app annoying comes originality theyll call stolen meme account filled stolen memes literally shut overdosed went hospital put redflag watch three days laters im feeling shit puking guts still want diehello im sure put couple days ago took naproxen sent hospital felt completely fine took blood everything promised lol dont believe started feeling horrible yesterday really horrible gastric region hurt bad cant eat anything food disgusting slept whole two days feeling awful wake morning feeling awful puke horrific taste disgusting naproxen nasty color reminder dont wan na nana hold hair pat back told tried killing im nothing felt penny thats left ground nobody wants useless dont know meds didnt start automatically working took took day half kick mom bringing hospital still feel suicidal dont know let bring mental hospital dont know regret taking pills still wan na struggling even struggle pointim sure anyone care thought id share whats going past days ive feeling really weird especially today months planned redflag thought slowly recovering online friends came goals point feel slipping back thinking ex used much happier feel nothing want feel normal want revert depression bad lately though everything really hitting hate hate living abusive family hate fact girlfriend left slandered name resulting reputation ruined hate broken beyond repair normal anymore good go god complex thinking im seperate special powerful rest humanity waiting rise honestly though really feel lately maybe try committing redflag solution problems death istrue peace livingis suffering think almost everything life enjoyable removing pain remove hunger food remove thirst water remove loneliness people remove horniness sex cant seem remove negative feelings though lately feel motivation anymore anything people say gets better people made believe someday life big grand turn around story think brother made joke makes clear hes heard sex boyfriend sex house usually brother bad habit coming home earlier expected giving heads playing vs destiny killed jokinglymockingly called naughty girl said hed call boyfriend come spank creepy make jokes ton means hes heard call say need spanked want die note ive keeping plus update todayive losing friends steadily high school today im two kevin jacob jacob talking depression calls pansy try things chest know much hurts im afraid let know risk losing yet another friend kevin listened little better advice outside price range cant afford meds therapy want alone every time try close someone repel im downer want find love settle cant even hold job im attractive one wants id burden felt loved long family practically disowned told im gay even ones closest elementary school good math actually proud wanted work nasa sort scientist grew ive always dream working nasa reached th grade everything started going downhill correct answer idea explain got marked wrong years far behind keep understand anything taught failed many math classes almost graduate high school barely passed minimum amount math credits allowed even though almost every subject never made trigonometry calculus take algebra every year high school still retain information dispite trying x harder rest class fast forward today im still trying learn material algebra khan academy still cant handle simple problems start understand moment change problems completely forgotten frustrating cant help cry feel ashamed knowing never reach dreams want learn normally able make decent enough score act college least begin career conservation feel absolute idiot failure many people absolutely hate talking around im sure people kick lives block ignore time cant even talk mom sister things love talk listen theyre ones talk anymore cant even make friends xbox one wants play games friends either ive wanted kill long time reason never always high marijuana kept smiling cant afford buy anymore im addicted go withdrawal run came home st louis wasted mostly marijuana threw away one opportunity kevin gave save car college im ashamed deserve friend spend day watching youtube netflix crying wishing dead kevin even offered help find job st louis im afraid letting failing anxiety makes hard hold job anything left live potential turn life around know cant live anymore guess thats take life update depression went away long time almost half year ive sort relapsed though im friends now kevin distanced wrote top part note jacob moving away think hes mad sick dealing moodiness im sure either way im completely alone know long ill spend know long spend date tomorrow excited kept feeling optimistic cancelled good reason thats another cancelled date anything going now anything find need escape something hold attention two hours allow lost another world domino satisfy need entertainment plot keeps brain motion one movies usual suspects want see second time figure wondered domino harvey life became interest hollywood acting lots celebrity appearances shown trailers actor makes forget done job well think kiera soccer uniform pirate costume granted mickey rourke plays mickey rourke well often despite violence shows signs capable caring people cut self first time todayevery problem happens makes want cut bought pack razors ago cut never really deep cut touched today stuff happened made try razors first deep cut today deep enough bleed weirdly happy closer able cut really hard end life wish things happened made want cut new stuff happen small remind shit stuff happening normally try think hard sometimes feel family friends trust almost everyone done damaging stuff back stabbed literally real friend completely trust even know im going terrible path sorry know one cares help stuff without actually donei tired waking wake pain want leave world fucked everything life lost friends family hates drove fiance everything worse dealt suicidal friends helped gone even want fix things anymore point always worse tired climbing hole fall right back new one must climb missed plans set everything ready waiting room mate goes work hope finally end time want finally done pathetic life mine doim seriously done sane part brain wants hold call ambulance nobodylisten httpsopenspotifycomtracktolatcoedhnghobtczsinvyyzfjtuuzkkpnxmxbw anyone fat lumpy dumpy plump double decker patty wacking boy booty cause favorite thing gon na going die anywayi feel numb ive always depressed casually suicidal im numb nothing feels right ive thinking killing got thinking even happy killing speed whats coming want things better going make much painful hurt people pass naturally truly understand people try convince strangers live reason anymore understand wanting lose loved one extent even seems pointless bit selfish know whats going feel im basically waiting day stop fearing death point way end things terms feeling always come backfucking im back ready die brain shit really want ect see finally make horrible dark tornado disappear life permanently cant keep living temporary fixes problem life feel way everyone really shit luck im going thrift shopping today im hoping find maybe hoodie maybe sweater shirts nice flannel thrift stores near house ill ride bike ill probably pick chicken tenders sonic grab empanadas empanada shop afterwards idk high speed bullet train redflagsthey might happen rarely hear seems perfect method die stand front train going mph artificial immortalityartificial immortality probably invented within life times dont die miss imagine committing redflag artificial immortality invented next year feel push stay awake dont want feel youve wasted day freedom dont want next day come reason stay til watching stuff even momentarily fall asleep rewind scene ten times im tired everythingim anything im tired want end life literally dont even carecan die benadryl im alcoholic relapsed around week ago got phone wallet stolen whatever try next day right try sober going well today found whoever took phone put photos messed naked online cool go beer family member went car took beer beer knowledge shit literally care fuck everything fuck everyone everything raya new disney movie rather cute im shes plus southeast asian date going sound strange happens social media accounts cousin takes life wanted see strange reason social media accounts close relative takes life weeks ago something mind reason exhausted life eat sleep enjoy things used adore everyone keeps saying focus work something think exhausted trying want everything fucking stop moment feel something want happy everything much saw premier movie phoenix film festival impressed skill director jeff hare exhibited bringing timely topic screen cast characters meshed perfectly allowed us examine issue senior wishing die terms warm humorous way peter falk brilliant morris supporting group family members friends perfectly cast roles interaction family friends outsiders morris created realistic view families address issue parents aging wishes die dignitybr br although movie ostensibly movie jewish actor family truly movie families jokes family morris crack romp life force nature fresh realistic childhood rivalries adult successes failures hope children integral screenplay many question make topic suicide humorous thought treatment logical timely afraid shed tears laugh quips family struggling issue must see moviebr br movie awarded best picture phoenix film festival ive come verdict lonely place werent meant brought worldrelationships forming true friendship love thats weve got lonely people simply dont deprived natural instinct fuck dont stay awake long dont go bed ill make cup coffee head ill going outta bed boy wan na see creepy dms girls hand say someone feel least say one person one person knows ive depressed long time ive medication years celexa sucked zoloft always told people knew sometimes felt suicidal try give go cried thought wanted try good time experience life long story short got abused raped horrific stuff cousin tell anyone family dynamic kinda weird one talks anything important worthless surface chat tell told friend well told self harm first going years kinda led childhood amazing helped talked hurting shitty twilight letting things id never let feel told mum year later ask wanted liked never mentioned conversation friend convinced therapy leave best therapist world moved found another one trust eventually gave ive therapy year went psychiatrist thought bipolar apparently im things gone downhill fucking fast zoloft changed life things good felt need purpose loved ive fallen fucking disgusting hole cut needed stiches didnt feel worthless feel one ive got one talk thought everyone asked open tell tell tell people make easier keep telling people easier somehow fucking huge worms opened promise alright still open nearly years alright friends anymore anyone head filling thoughts know ill know ill question ill know redflag last option everything everything hurts makes feel guilty causes shit load pain cant feel without wanting end way feel different try work childhood hurts need people help overwhelmed fucking horrible imagine happened let alone acknowledge actually feel time coming think cut try make feelings less strong pretty much smoke green every day try dull depression strong black cloud im tired im sorry long thanks read needed say days whoop de fucking doo httpsimgurcomasynkkc still hate life sick sick foreveri even wish healthy anymore wish pain wish sleep rest im full drugs im person im incubator disease every waking moment far many spent disease theres help one gives shit cant even imagine suffering even still problem want pain stop wish every night never wake theres hope cant go im forced go really want die want suffering end theres one way end life feels unpaid time sex cool sike virginity superior stay pure bois dont sleep want stay night fuckers got tips quick questioni atm mg hydromorphone left hand enough kill take time im year old female weight lbs history tolerance opiate thank time hit missed guessed always missed huh hit missed guessed always missed huh keep boyfriend bet doesnt kiss ya mwah gon found another girl wint missed ya gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa hit missed guessed always missed huh keep boyfriend bet doese kiss ya mwah gon found another girl wint missed ya gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya mwah guessed always missed huh mwah hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa played taking balls appreciation fifa win level youre leader ooh use worked upon whataburger currently pop pussy warner brothers hit missed guessed always missed huh keep boyfriend bet doesnt kiss ya mwah gon found another girl wont missed ya gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya mwah guessed always missed huh hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya mwah gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa know women want good bedwars partner look elsewhere im ugly fuck never find lovefucking kill point living cant find love one possibly find attractive even tell personality needs physical attraction matters somebody please listen tell lit cant one httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvakfwhlgnrhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvakfwhlgnr genuinely feel cant thismy girlfriend together years started dating senior year undergrad recently broke idea im going ive verge tears day rush bathroom building people wouldnt see cry already deal abandonment issues support system cause hard open friends family genuinely dont think think relationshipmemories ways take life without suffering much im grad school hardest part year cant focus class office nights near impossible dont know overwhelming thing keeping taking life imagining effect itd immediate family close friends dont want feel anymore know cliche seems dramatic needed say somewhere drunk texted crush yesterdayy l said hello said hello back hours im extremely hung dont know reply wish luck people hate peoples lifes suck wan na hear embarrassing story maybe cheer right listening little pony songs yt reccomendations nostalgia trip remembered really embarrassing thing school talent show nobody class volunteered teacher made friend got another friend chose sing spell mlp rainbow rocks movie btw girls watching back weird tension originally backup singer main girl handle role took sung little heart got finals lost someone singing bruno mars song something idk sad lost really sung front hella people loose matter prize tennis racket ball poundland oh well ive remembered massive flex people went power move year old mythic person tldr sung mlp song school talent show gigachad move win hate methat sums hate everything hate want disappear permanently want hear cant stand sitting driving crazy feel building inside know anymore thoughts place way stop die cant take lost v card know took fortnite card give back fortnite card give card years emancipation ive watched cognitive state decline ive agoraphobic years now years ago moved shelter system domestic dispute triggered agoraphobia felt constant threat safe anymore moved school hated im wondering personally love school see dislike school good challenging makes learn means go future whatever want understand hatred school opens opportunities enrolled best way learn maybe school different us im uk surely bad id know reasons comments edit friends another great benefit school hello guysi parents split lifei trying balance relationship thembut today realised literally one loves months ago dad spat facecalled everything imagine kicked placetodaymy mum told love want live heri speech problem blocking block certain words traumatised mei blocked name numerous times toxicity redflag conflict caused mei feel lonelyi know whole life mistake im tiredwhy isnt ok end suffering wish balls now cant go moreits four months wife left apparent reason marriage lasted three years good years life ive trying hard past months ive sure stayed positive eventually id start feel better getting worse need life nothing look forward weekends long stretch loneliness ive working hard bettering working hour weeks pursuing masters degree whats point none makes least bit happy im goddamn tired long week work school try socialize even know instead im stuck shitty town hate moved thought tried harder make work almost figure salary debt im reasonably attractive im still youngish well paper seems life better completely lack largegroup social skills thats thing holding back ive tried dating despite reasonable success tinder felt better whats point anyways even start another relationship itll probably end last one know need find something reason keep living dependent someone matter hard look one tried talking therapist couple years back told help maybe talk doctor getting antidepressants ive tried antidepressants several different brands made tired didnt none made happy made numb id rather die live empty shell every time wind rattles door think second maybe finally come back know wont sad thing last year marriage pretty bad grew increasingly distant id give anything go back know keep living day bleak last itd easy end cant stand quarantineevery day getting tougher even mini routine people around feels im pest everyone nothing helps anyone driving insane fuck isolation want fucking life back want chance job start moving forward dont want slip back darkest pit mind barely scrapped getting alive ill die go back theres way keep till june later yo im going bed ill try respond guys wake goodnight starting felt loosing breath reason someone took doctor first time found panic attack preferred fighter life never ready accept may mentally sick terrifying feeling panic attack settles usually day shaking muscles thighs feels control legs foggy loaded brain red burning eyes feeling killed share explain happening life kept demanding usually used cry nights always felt death less painful option end misery face years old daughter drives hellwhy god thought creating life biggest question terrified worried shivering shaking legs fast heart beats foggy mood factsthe truth depression happens family friends think faggot lame duck hide behind back wake look mirror everyday laugh humans hilarious way try control mind fuck death actually cant job im retarded everyone hates fuck em sexual tension literally seciest person alive clone date im afraid id lost eyes never anything done feel worse boyfriend broke mei know whole thing may sound stupid suicidal thoughts boyfriend broke blah blah blah start ive depression almost years suicidal thoughts time ive tried commit redflag times went hospital twice months ago found guy nice caring always thought together long time ive never strong feeling someoneever know loved sure love right back found thinking breaking said lied much got upset lot around himi blame much things arguments caused said find someone better really best person found never meant hurt guess even realize lying got upset around really dealing things mentally seem believe thats case swear care much drew portrait made bracelet wrote letters basically keep feel worst girl friend tried hard work keep one love dearly want make game visual novel cant draw save life tho love sister sure loves metoday cousin came sister cousin hanging outafter awhile went living room watch tvan hour passed decided go back room chat themmy cousin bed sister bed sit sister rolled eyes continued talk boyfriend facetimei asked said go die one wants shockedshe told kill plenty times random punch facei went tell mom said tell stopwhen went back room sister saysugh annoyingwe even herego kill everyone favorthen walked roomshe always tells hurtsi usually cry want self harmall mom tell stopshe never anything stop saying harsh thingsi think suicidal thoughts every day lifei want die feel wanted enough stay sister wants die fuck awards seriously every post exploded awards gotten free awards explain people bombareded even gold platinum someone please tell going purge final want gun someone please send mei promise ill kill anyone except already lived hellhole life really wan na end shit honestly please someone send address panchavati phase lane right side near karond square bhopal mp india concerned brother drive home tonightmy younger brother senior high school think may suicidal hes depressed mom died years ago hes antidepressants year two recently broke girlfriend seems kind withdrawn hard know im away college last week facebook status people strong enough call help texted amp said quote fireman show tv today texting easter awful im hours away college things upset talking little said made appt psychologist cant three weeks venting said call help admitted lied tried give suggestions help depression appt spend time friends things enjoys surround positive people etc said look laundry list problems feel solvable asked really believes yes asked thinking redflag response dont lie response thinking hurting finally said well called cousin whos social worker said dad take hospital crisis consultation theyll give someone talk assess situation agreed go tomorrow school said lock pillsguns etc watch make sure hes safe im sure seriously dad taking cousin called dad bro said btw say suicidal drive home make sure hes ok told dad really concerned threatened come home said go around take care pills idk think scary shit think scary shit aight friends sleepover saturday whats scariest thing scare fuc outta dem struggle hiding low mood act happy children pay attention energetic loud interesting put happy face work children smiley energetic email lives hometown inperson meeting possible think wise anonymously provide screen shots conversations right bat wait see requests feel may one shot want make sure right oh im bleeding finethe blade bit sharper expected painful shit brother im fucking useless cant even sh properly mabye go one veins never better cycle fucking memories never fucking stop even medication stuck forever oh god cut wrist really bad need end think going kill guys need help really great french teacher really fun talk anything judge great quality adult opinion looking ways show means classmates thought good idea grow youtube channel subscribers mainly students class mean lot lot subs im anonymously thinks luck im karma whoring begging subs guys want sub leave wholesome comment link unlearn amp think killing every dayi think say kill every day know mean im depressed think killing without depressed told anyone confused happening im afraid effect never came home againone reasons lowkey regret dropping even though reason whatever tho another entry long list fuck ups lmao dont know im doingi year old almost completed bachelors degree fine art art dont know im every thought every action brings conclusion kill basement ceilings whic hang im dont know drinking feel way every day every second dont know want dont know anything ongoing problem masturbation drive creating anything girlfriend tells one idea parents ask make something dont know passions passionate anything dont drive anymore dont know im lookin accrued incredible amount debt thesis show may smoked weeed fucjed around think im fucked dont want anymore wrong want die dont want anymore dont want anymore broooo im kinda embarrassed right ive going around telling everyone im ask measured im literally dot thats kinda embarrassing man ig im shorter thought got ta keep numbers hows work coming along eh l even others noone see bring us whats point fulfillment pay ask questions found friends years one real life friends know tried find friends years literally count many friends friends feel lonely one wrote sms call invite hang needed something speak new school completely new country need find least friends lose mind new school moved year ago new school everyone giving compliments funny im everyone wanted hangout wanted sport team never wanted friends group completely ignored lunch always alone class girls new school girls gave lots attention know least girls crash lots weird things attract attention two even told refused im interested online friends online friends always want play im really good game nice funny words redflag option redflag never option even never someone support lonely life ive never tried redflag ive learn self motivate escape stress decided find friends lost friend meaned much real life friend lost never find someone showed someone care actually ive never friend cared much cant find feel brake tears literally cant live without now im idiot want friend first time fucking life thats weird usally want one life one mattered one person stick heart girl use crush th grade almost years ago friends friends talk group chat everyday talk school good friends said crush cute funny moved right gon na tell still talked group chats thats stopped talking sent text telling crush said sweet looking relationship moved anyways moved far maybe miles away stopped talking recently added discord server talking playing games together feelings back know wan na ruin friendship anything really say feel way said looking relationship time mean something know man girls confusing need advice stay friendzone cause really wan na ruin friend ship awkward us help mother abusive whole lifesuch hitting threatening making fun behind back morei even want live anymorehelp please help say film gives insight trauma young mind face family split divorce disaster highly recommend film especially parents individuals planning familybr br found characters appealing highly sympathetic multitude dimensionsbr br scary monster although probably scary adults real hint overactive imagination child facing unknown terrors might createbr br found film delightful anyone stuck heads im anyrhing needs full focus bit anxious start zoning cant focus anything happens much work cant focus anything make bunch mistakes makes quiet awkward idk hate told story armin meiwes die kannibal der rotenburg well fuck tell ill banned tried save collard cat neighbors car want killselfinstead asking called mom come bring inside guess didnt realize acceptable want kill psychosis reported neighbors car acctendtly hes pissed well think im sure j second animated movie people still refusing surrender roman empire even hilarious first film asterix obelix contre ceasarbr br first movie got laughs cartooncharacters perfectly brought life without losing cartoonesque identity sequel separate story comicbooks even better sure ingredients find first movie comicbooks present obelix still dying taste magic potion gives tribe members enormous powers caesar rest roman empire still enemy number new refreshing elements brought stage wellbr br setting idyllic biggest part plays course egypt rather repeating movie number one extras added making kinds references movies bruce lee etc new unexpected combination known story comicbook almost title movie references stuff got absolutely nothing asterix obelix really worksbr br way movie builds tradition comicwriters goscinny uderzo hesitate bring laurel hardy stage even dedicate entire story kirk douglasbr br convince watch movie im sure monica bellucci playing cleopatra will something amazing happened yesterday job opportunity basically sprang face completed two back back phone interviews owner manager boy next thing know talking start dates pay andi terrified thrilled lucky happened jumping joy desperately need job worked year due covid great fit keep coming back much want die anxious failing depressed incapable walked road gotten cool job dealt redflag days broke weight constant suicidal ideation pattern others life recognize point everyone tell getting news mentions oh well sure handle time timebut afraid depressed want close eyes never open know need job please help self sabotage please help cant seem connect peoplei want badly desperately really whole life put flaws issues people try kind empathetic person brings around feels something broken everyone see except shitty childhood gave lot character flaws including body dysmorphia social anxiety took years thought worked rest life line thought ready dating intimacy ive tried going bars tinder bumble plentyoffish name match lot people social ineptitude eventually catches thats ive suicidal thoughts life especially younger used particular tree think every drive home work real big one curb never foot traffic long straightaway plenty time build speed anyway past year left feeling lost alone ive afraid people look never imagined want someone see value know much offer world around cant seem convince anyone last weeks especially hard try tricks taught stay happy helped path healing first place seem work anymore cant stop thinking much want feeling stop honestly even know im posting need something know feel im constantly drowning everyone around much fun life want bother bring always thought tough person matter hard life kept hitting keep going smile honestly know much longer feel alone edit anyone really use someone talk little thats okay thanks time edit please anyone even listen problems guy girl mongoose care view everyone equal desperately need someone talk version lost horizon actually bad film think problem people pick musicals especially made s saw film upon original release ten really enjoyed music especially burt bacharach always favorite story fun acting good technically excellent sure one two rather silly dance numbers hey cant win em film video watch every oftenand enjoy every time celebrate chance alive breathingi linked specific part song always helped felt depressed made want change something immediately sometimes little things struggling end thisso original plan od narcotic pain meds hypertension meds worry work ill end puking worse surviving thought maybe od heroin im sure find somehow way understand oding junk pretty easy oding illegal drug count died 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day day pressure cant fucking take shit anymore ive popped pills thrown want fucking stress stop feels im hit ground freefalling every fucking second cant fucking go doctor tell shit fault fault hands know care maybe realized good thing rid nobody deal nothing turn right afraid going im impatient im getting violent imagine good itll feel finally ive got gun im teething end god damn barrel hate fucking much never getting abtter fucking worth cant fucking take advicewith sleeping pills effective take empty stomach meal im going take wine assume empty keep alcohol absorbed fast ask want people telling im going regardless one way tiredi dont know crawl hole worst part end sight time everything ahead things back track far away im tired exhausted feeling way dont want fight anymore feel love someone online fuck dont qant shit really dont stresses please help none less probably going ramble little expecting anyone actually read using someone talk somewhere unload thoughts instead getting lost head wish someone talk actually luxury girlfriend quite literally adored still unfortunately cheated despite best efforts forgive forget wants nothing says begged stay honestly regret lesson learnt lol really deserve abandoned person told never leave always love matter home life best either recently put hand glass guess explainable accepted version self harm doen proud sometimes feel help sudden release adrenaline pain kind soothing urge cut gotten worse past weeks mental health definitely decline felt love girlfriend left coupled continuious mental emotional abuse home making life unbearable tired getting threatened tired called every name sun tired compared put belittled fucking tired recently started care less family think guess good thing yes still make sad longer feel bad leaving past think attempt rebuilding bridges stage picture going try post feel need vent brief post may hopefully help clear head know post best conversation starter honestly lonely right love friends conversation well never thought posting yall know youre road trip youre road trip fun im kinda horny stop minutes ive car four days let ten minutes privacy please im edge please helpim deep pain lost last chance getting love life im trying panic attack feel pain throughout body everything hurts feel im dying please help way im going ask crush thursday yeah saw title im fucking scared guys know wish luck friends lexapro months fine sudden zero energy started feel auto pilot talked provider switched prozac really helped little sex drive top issues still lots sex lexapro beginning think win something try come meds low energy brain fog rapid intercutting scenes insane people asylum montagesuperimposition images vague interwoven narratives hard movie follow apparently man masue inoue takes job porter janitor asylum near imprisoned wife maybe rescue clearly mad huddled floor vacant expression much time fear misery confusion written face rest time filmmaker switches point view sometimes see vague images side pond drowning baby clutching drowned child tormented something point view shifts mad folks filmmaker uses distorting lenses things showing us mad people see react place swarming mad folks laughing hiding one case dancing frenetically night day one point man tries take wife outside night outside door terrifies runs back cell gradually man slips nightmare hes interrupted another attempt steal away kills doctor many attendants mad folk laugh applaud wakes relieved mops floor fascinating shots japanes life streets buildings s parents tik tok delcaring newborns sexuality tf babies even sexuality kicked house two months ago maybe left know got argument mother trying leave stepfather grabbed started hit fought back older sister side helped barely bruised left knew deadly next time pretty sure choice mother yelling crazy left first tried move father talked years except one weekend weekend went well told loved thought still child thought go told escape ended staying best friend next year graduate still full year taking space even job identification going hungry days want ask food know money responsibility mothers boyfriend alcoholic gets drunk yells gets violent afraid one day going remember exist going remember trans going remember homophobic know college good school good college know fill applications information parents school told worry fafsa said anything actual college feel alone want someone talk someone cares nobody tell best friend knows wonderful kind person comfort others want much simpler die matter anyone feel lost hope becoming successful person know anymore easier die mandatory evacuation order miles right evacuate feel might need getting nervous whatever kill yourselfi think age nine lose innocence someone hand kids cards says welcome life sucks people stupid make mistakes worry fucking lucky might able reach age oh know drugs sex fun try later theyll complicated enough satisfy desires fuck knows life age heck one really gets know theyll future expectations lose em much fun love friends family many strangers best person feel treat people want treated learn many mistakes make believe sort god maybe even atheist matter theyre atheists believe one less gods everyone make sure god good works least good works avoid fucked people much possible avoid drama distractions possible forgive many people possible avoid selfish wasting time feeling victim one life dead nothing go heaven hell anything today today might even last heaven bullshit aint good enough awesome might see see people hate go hell wasting time hating wasting time wishing hell karmas bitch worry catch live life happy afraid starting redflag stupid everyone thinks everyone gets point pissed alone everyone happy let circumstances people define happiness happiness might futile pursuit times better wallowing sadness everyone posting fml facebook status updates afraid ask help sometimes hug conversation helps world feels heavy shoulders stop breathe take break worry sleep early wake early start day want live live accept suckiness enjoy little things sometimes thats got short response friend edited fit forgotten things im tiredi feelings day days kind listless drift events day sun goes start think angry dont anything dont appreciate life wont let happy im tired want rest hate furrys stand explain comments clear yes furry bought rope tied noose angry everythingi posted couple times mind changed one bit returning trip got sick spent whole week bed able muster energy kill now bought rope learned tie noose prepared towels wrap around neck make whole ordeal least little less uncomfortable today ill go woods scout good secluded tree tomorrow night go closer angrier become become worlds biggest loser poeces shit happy successful broken alone others fulfilled ive depressed long wasted whole god damn life cant live shame loneliness pain anymore fuck everything everyone test tomorrowwowwowo wan na dieieieeieeeieiei alive kinda sucksim seriously done alive everyday think killing end suffering cowardly nothing wait night time sleep forget everything ive tried therapy meds everything nothing helped seriously considering redflag good reason live writing something positive day day currently way airport actually physically boarding school im going im really excited tbh ive attended school online students physically campus im missing stuff time zone difference meant start school yeah im excited finally going honest wan na see massive star wars harry potter lotr avengers movie together literally used look deep hoping turn around looking bleak think talk enough much depression ruins looks might well kill sooner fucking take living another stupid worthless fucking day hate alive every second passes meant claw away damn skin reach bone every single day waste time enjoy second take point notive never used reddit idk im right yesterday community im ganged one kid screen shots made seem racist idk theyre real wanted say wait theres blurry screenshots next hour horn notifications reasonable many calling aid racism defending condoning racism one listen people ive friends years ostracized decided think im defending racism im garbage person cant friends combined plethora things pushing towards edge dont want die apparent nobody wants live didnt want leave family debt wouldnt hesitate hang better lives wish way know people care diedi feel matter enough impact anyone family friends coworkers idk im alone time keep seeing redflag prevention articles imagine brothermomdadfriend found really relevant itd take days anyone even notice something happened really relationship people live one initiates conversation biggest thing stopping something thought traumatizing person ended finding body succeed want end sort permanent injuryillness tldr die tomorrow itd take days anyone notice let alone care gone day recommending songs rteenagers httpsyoutubefthaaxxmm text post removed thoughts killing methoughts couldve couldve happened instead things end relationship maybe put much emotional investment things dont want feel anymore want feel never met wasnt bad person better way im slowly overdosing every dayits screwed everything election matters year meme year fuck fuck presidential election fuck vote leonardo dicaprio girlfriend serious suicidal thoughts sorry wrong place advice someone doesnt suicidal thoughtsim m gf suicidal thoughts past year started dating year havent known long moved district ive asked couple friends theyve said shes selfharmed twice thoughts second grade havent able sleep th past couple nights friends tried convincing committing wont solve problems serious depression dating guy dumped five days later th school slt broke according friend cried days extremely quiet class eventually got started develop love someone never liked back even paid attention top living grandparents parents constantly arguing mentioned divorce hard sings dances plays instrument eventually moved th district th beginning th school year started talk lot classes together eventually got bit crush friend subtly told likes well screaming th hallways says made happier im th one person genuinely loves couple days ago mother found us dating told break eventually told wont th stress broke even left two days imma go kms now came back said mom stopped went therapist never got update went friends running ideas ive decided turn reddit please help changed banner hot right man close fixing sleep schedule sip sisters green tea still wide awake hours later cant fight anymorei overwhelming feelingdesire hurt kill want end want anymore cant stop thoughtsi want dead im scared know right way wish go sit somewhere painless lethal injection go sleep im sure say ive written note hate guns want painful im ready go dollar sucky sucky double fun never ran away really want want away family thrill playing extreme game hide seek may sound psychopathic want everyone looking weeks later cops find hanging corpse want go gas station load snacks think getting courage end sure posting really want place think want run away hang give one good reason livenot reason die familyfriends stupid stuff reason live reason die one good reason live thats ask im fucking stupid futile beginningthere hope us know everything knows everything except jealousy feel best friend one feel kill im stupid jealous knew nothing friendship come still kept holding reason every time messages someone want die cant family friends ill resort getting inebriated cant feel pain cutting pain heart goes away let die already redditors realize videos hot tiktok seriously tik tok isnt bad u literally make ur tik tok page whatever content u want tried failedmanaged two dates decent girls got ghosted one night stood girl honestly start getting full feeling im ok something snap back reality dont know bother anything thinking something drastic cant stand life anymore mood rn drinking water wine glass bcs glasses dishwasher bcs lazy self lazy wash dishwasher bit late know anymore going therapy years feel nothing working taken meds past couple days wish happy without taking pills feel happy going town two weeks tell love way love young already fucked brother fucking died last year due choking game even fucking suicidal perfectly healthy brother kill fucking pathetic care anything anymore giving everything staying bed day guys kms summer job school starts productive shit want fucking exist anymore tired crying numb want end happiness short lived wish walk room immediately see possible ways kms want normal kid worry bring show telli feel bad younger self sorry grew monstrosity innocentam even real anymore decide completely give try hardest gt lt gt ltogt ampxb ampxb mitras ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb gtltogtlt time differentusually fantasize really bad days never feels time different time feels right feel home idea think ive finally crossed line think going back im going kill feels right series 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experience anhedonia daily mostly feel numb without sad unless start thinking appearance things life hard time remembering thingslearning motivated certain stuff done anxious tic makes jerk neck around people minute feel somewhat apathetic comes dealing people emotional connections really still feel lonely sometimes hard talk people tried catting people reddit apps end always getting ghosted pretty much given going go dead end roadi find hard return calls cousins want talk check mei sit room playing video games daywatch videos etc pass time go sleep leave house drop packages people buy cards ebay tried going walks picking new hobbies playing family puppyetc nothing really made feel happy make day end fastermy mom keeps asking going girlfriend wants grandkids says occasionally feels kind insulting tells handsomeetc fat dude average face mental issuesi want multiple cosmetic surgerys saving cards selling job possibly interview goes well getting done definitly boost mental health espeically comes meeting people irli talked mom sure ok idea someone cutting face open moving things forwardplacing thingsi trying lose weight past year gained back due recent event makes want shut even morelate night march th tried rifle shooting heart ended jerking rifle left accidentally hitting sister hand wall plan anything compuslion thoughtssince event gained around lbs pretty much weight lost year became suicidal read report court trying charge attempted murder accused hallway whatever reason blind enough see hole wall sending investigator come take look making feel little better still shit never trouble lawetc life possibly thrown straight toilet saw therapist zoom around month talked problems longer see cancelled talk deep issues last week assuming never told thoughi think going better without taking something keep going longeris possible medications without seeing doctor person brought mom one time cried never talked think wants medicatedagain apologize wrote order detailed make sense want motivation tired thanks reading depressed possible meds without doctor wall text made cult guess know happened made joke one thing lead another cult join name suggested another user thank whoever remember college professor commenting disturbing film reflecting apathy adolescents generation xbr br way us products consumer culture high school kids spend time drinking getting high wondering body left riverbankbr br today things different important questions excellent scenes keanu reeves dysfunctional family lives year old brother going wasted mother idea spends time drinking boyfriendbr br film bit time addresses problems lower class american society kids outlet available dirtwater town interesting social commentaries presented solutions redflag pact time commit redflag year know life improvei made pact life doenst better time hit commit redflag realize good gets way going worse one storm worth whethering quality girlfriend two closish friends within one year im going end cant tolerate loneliness anymore world cheapskate city feel owe loyalties hang tried already feel ive experienced last vestiges life offer beyond endless sea torment waves longer enjoy life people beneath feel ive placed wrong age redflag seems reasonable years time nothing improves bored unhappy alone quality earth declining rapidly want want alive anymore dont knowits much cant handle anymore dont know want die want everyone everything stop hurts much know solution sometimes hearing kind words help short term especially crises need quick pickmeup rfreecompliments really amazing place sometimes participating complimenting others help feel better tooplease come join us rfreecompliments went va help even called veteran crisis hotline one available talk two months va hospitali told bother scheduling appointment called veterans crisis hotline posting cheesy pickup linesday picture show santa want christmas life questions life moving hella fast anyone quarantine recent high school graduate feel im missing life experiences guess chicken butt filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler want better person ive done past let meive kept secret several years know admit anybody without getting kind comment telling deserve die feel told family members make feel disown im turning less month year ago ive done things think people discard something put jail life clarity killed anybody feels close deserves sentence ive said terrible nasty things people fuel twisted fantasies never wanted hurt anybody never felt talked somebody something purpose none irl online chatting ive gotten point regret much tried killing month kicked friend group word spread around feel immorally wrong im past point redemption want end psych ward either already know knew things awful anyways think caught luckily exfriends agreed long seeked help fixed leave last year ive sat ass jobless scared might able make better place die theres hell feel theres strong possibility might burn last attempt plan anytime soon every day think might getting better demons remind used feel impossible kill side awful demented deranged side still haunts day want feel find sort resolve might slip back suicidal tendencies another year even know ill find answer reddit want hope theres somebody might able help find new life life worth living right see hope cant forgive cant forgiveness people ive hurt used money career aspects friends loved ones said live see another winter last year covid came around really mean iti left last job year half ago decided id live savings long end life useless degree skills cant even job gas station socially awkward good lying cover fact ive long employment gap used want write books one finished three years ago painful failure cringe thinking anyones sad passing theyll drink beer soon enough way always want way bodyi cant stick weight loss goals eat much im repulsive people weight especially men either ignore want away need body redflag way need fucking commit cant fucking commit anything fucking commit diet wouldnt even need kill wouldnt ugly lonely way im going need advisei pray god every night take life instead someone really wants live guess good enough still guess answer prayer almost lost battle last days committed redflag rd time tired really know rid suicidal thoughts god really gave juicest bounciest boobies wet phat plump scrumptious pair lips cheeks clap walk teeney tiny waist said make work perfect didnt ask made way code geass watch filler filler filler filler filler filler filler anyone care mei disabilityim burden society familythey dont want cant workif run awayi wouldnt survive one dayi friends disabilitytheyre going kick cant take iti feel fucking unloved detested im big disappointment disguised human beingi know exactly wrong know one thing sure cant function properly people hear mom time cant disagree saying right disappoint even try best head hurts lot want end feel shit dont want disappoint anyone anymore dont want go anymore whatever hell want sleep never wake fucking hate teacher swear fucking give activities grades higher use excuse ohh special class everything people replaced research subject research instead makes us bullshit essays random shit fucking teacher incompetent fucking quarters still grade oh yeah forget school uses facebook fucking messenger give zoomgoogle meet links everyone leftsince two friends left college days ago downward spiral ive angry depressed angry depressed constant cycle currently anxiety attack type th days ago another friend left college albeit much closer none said goodbye one left saturday even said shed stressed want another thing deal know said much worse meant still felt worthless another thing deal know see way ill thats feel th numerous thoughts redflag usual thoughts much vivid prolonged usual ive talked two left th several times talked mean everything talking yelling getting really quite sorry today reconnected someone talked long time told im feeling specifically friend left saturday made feel well friend went told friend left thisshe messaged talking friday devastated talk message shocked hurt think care told consider point view ive tried really seem bad told first time thought selfish really hit hard try selfish hate might anyways message brought current anxiety attack im waiting reply message sent back trying explain andor apologize know kill strength wanted type selfishly words encouragement anything really feel im toxic friends left college every time say theyre something depressed angry feels nothing nobody nothing everyone everything please help meplease feel one way enddo feel sanity slip im aware depression feel stupid thinking wouldnt come back psa part alcohol party see alcohol try consume little amount possible underage drinking cool think driving definitely stay away drinking driving dangerous think disappoint loser person venting structure wall texthave never used reddit honestly dont know anymore highly unlikely anyone see give fuck wan na shit chest currently student seems everything going wrong online classes completely screwed clue recover grades used thing even remotely good problems minuscule compared everyone im even suicidal wish never existed im lazy fuck zero drive whatsoever life back together friends nothing genuinely makes happy im even adulthood yet cant even survive full confidence real world im going struggle even loving family fucking hate im disappointment failure sister parents hard working im exact opposite shame eating inside motivation dont care enough fix hate shit feel im attention seeker im making mockery people real struggles dont depression want commit redflag wish never born wouldnt disappoint family parents got therapist didnt help slightest cant open people felt bad wasting money theyve done everything im lazy hopeless nothing works point dont believe anything help going cut im repeating getting nowhere anyone read whatever fuck wrote hope dont relate way sincerely hope things better mom doctors told weeks pregnant today wish luck birthday message first happy birthday tell well life handling ups downs sometimes things smooth sometimes spite believe achieve everything want life lastly want say one thing awesome love yoult change school system usa time starts people arent ready learn schools open start ends homework standardized tests banned put much stress people tests stay sat act college purposes required class math used every job every class optional classes last minutes need classes language options instead french spanish people interests different countries creative based classes classes explaining technology works fix cant watch film history lesson first heard barker saga tell almost immediately facts way little internet research realized course right barker sure hell sexy calculating woman movie portrays apparently orchestrate bank robbing schemes kiddnappings murders criminal boys carried outbr br expect brilliant crime drama script acting adequate 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hour done hes fun drinks icee border power noone world universe devoid sour drinking last resort starts creation fourth dimensional matter creates shadows three dimensional patterns viewing plane x z think adding fourth drink icee follow lead imma da force bad dumb talking girl ft joking stuff shes hate dad hes broke adopted kids doesnt even send money laughed thought joking joking shes legit wasnt joking right hanging responding little bit scary ill tonight matter care anymore worth many people fantasize world want live still stuck real world call greedy childish stubborn care want going true determination change world anything possible failed many times still young want go trough besides horrible person leave mother everybody mother probably effected absolutely care happens world apart anymore makes horrible person think anyone thinks horrible person indeed amazing adaption missed first episode unfortunately missed bonding characters smooth flow storyline soon watched second third instalment blown away ordered dvd less week later unable wait come went straight brought book moment opened hooked put decided finish whole book dare watch dvd preferred book got inside characters minds understand totally coming role within story missed lot adaption disappointing book master piece think done superbly able stretch longer period time considering able fitted hour slot think done excellent followed main twisted storyline brilliantly actors enrolled main characters amazing love making scene pure beautiful tender loving showed natural homosexual love totally blown away book tv adaption loved sarah waters previous novels found tipping velvet adaption quite enjoyable read watched fingersmith knew none previous novelsadaption beat sarah waters indeed exceeded time recommend watch adaption tipping velvet thing let put one fingersmith whole new ball game beautiful yet dark twisted story love greed betrayalbr br must see reddit wanted put title didnt didnt wear didnt wear didnt 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body started shaking uncontrollably little bit attempted strangle hated vibration feeling stopped feel stupid kinda laugh attempting never attempted redflag guess feel kindaproud know sounds really messed strangling somehow made calm plan telling anyone irl messaged friends groupme hour ago telling im feeling depressed almost send christmas theres way want ruin everyones christmas telling strangled might tell january maybe seriously thinking taking life everything needed stilla days ago pretty dark still cant find decent enough job enough hours start saving cash think lost last friend one call text broke stop crying hours started packing bag warm clothes water got paper wrote notes even one friend stopped talking left house outside waiting sun go try end life made sure letters secured book bag made sure phone already called hit send made sure id cards bag knife hand staring mid mind started go imagined long take die lying woods bleeding wondered long take police ambulance show pushed send thought mom react found wondered friend even news took life thought whether vision go white fade black brain really mind fucked put thought forefront everything well going hit stopped tracks paralyzed completely still minutes fuck mean believe god heaven devil hell believe ill turn ghost haunt body family friend dead wanted fear pain put knew giving peace cant accomplish stayed alive came home everyone came home noticed gone days put everything away still letters sealed envelopes knife tucked bed clear head mindfuck brain put take life still plan cant help need confession make thx listening spotifyno really couldve listened radioyou couldve spun vinylyou couldve listen track tapeif knew track tape look likebut listened spotifythx thatand still hundreds playlists enjoy guys think tinder pets let pet make friends pets yall comment something super personal embarassing u reread u start feeling unsafe delete im sad theres school tomorrow whyyyyyyyyyy m living parents house dad dreams business thinks guy going complete dreams never job anywhere poor work ethic know spend literally live things need becuase brought hand brother dad mom spend lot money things bought conditioned way even want something important expensive thing convince needed go cheaper alternativeto conclude good work ethic feel guilty everytime overspend yo useless guy mention ugly think business lot expectations family girlfriend even know depressed last years done live bubble bubble bursting feel lucky died sleep bapbeepskbdoobapbeepbopskbamamadadpabopbeep skbdoopabamabepbooooopkekbapskbdobepbapbapboop butch peacemaker evidently violent beginning spike tom jerry swinging away butch calls halt wants know good questionbr br cats along dogs cant asks tom nods head agreement mice along cats right jerry nods sees right answerbr br go inside butch draws peace treaty complete professional artwork rest bulk cartoon three extremely nice one another refreshing changeofpace found fun watch million cartoons every beats headbr br anyway knew peace going last big piece steak spells death peace treaty en route nice change still usual tom jerry clever humor stark cold landscape big sky country majestic snowcapped mountains juxtaposed barren plains put poetic use lynchian fableslide picture show death melancholy young talented polish brothers previously treated indie movie fans bizarre fascinating twin falls idahoa film young woman falling love two brothers happen siamese twins little orphan boy dying town flooded name progress form damn hydroelectric power plant eerily pleasing music score minimalist dialogue character development uncanny fantasy sequences involving unique angels polish brothers put focus every good film artist knows film moving picturesthe images scenespaintings deep beauty captured celluloid best viewed late night haunting imagery linger mind wash drift sleep fact done shoestring budget less two million dollars puts hollywood bloated film costs hollow movies shame indicates something grand come polish brothers future looking posts sub oh god people lot mental health problems experiencing joyim eating im showering im applying unemployment im cleaning cat box im taking trash im performatively happy friends loved ones desire things make people happy make appear im functioning whats expected usually makes people happy everything slog joy fake cling escapism fantasies real world rough unforgiving desire something unrealistic wish child abused wish happy child forever nothing child makes experience satisfaction joy im willing put hard work adult easier escape im going stop eating maybe body ive dragging long either start making food desirable keep alive ill start starving either go hospital die maybe im selfish dont care anymore im tired existing things people im tired cant escape better stop existing someone explain people anime cant see people much really cant understand people much stop thinking muscle man tiddies live rent free mind teeth hurt idk got gaming pc basically ive wanting one saving last night parents said going costco brisket got bought gaming pc took best buy monitor setting tonight love much movie pretty good unreleased producers cut favorite movie series original jamies story handled differently death scenes done times better theres footage ritual type stuff giving story micheal jamie baby alternate ending better release version instead damned clue find version see outside hopped car ready diegenuinely feeling unappreciated always im tired feeling much know please help think want help wish people tell kill bf broke disappointed life experience taught something need fucking bfgf happy side bitch life offence entertainment one main characters life love im going tell everyone someone beside fix make happier happiness last find take care people alright first thanks taking moment read terrible mess punctuation spelling social redflag depression years old now made learning experience time growing tougher hoped sound complacive anyhow skimmed highschool plans secondary school college never found interest getting bed morning let alone pursuing careerpassion graduated june immediately kicked dad step moms house couch hopped found full time job shithole apartment rent around year living wake force bed take bus work keep head listen podcaststhe reason writing bullshit depression social redflag amped moved every day convince hour two everything okay working mans lifeso reason say stuck position seem make friends good conversation even try hardest matter much cocaine booze nothing changes fact fucking cringefest talk really know asking guys say want hear stories opinions hope well wish best stuck exam preparations stressed due exams year havent able study well parents working home work usually studied online exams easy usually memorised chapters didnt retain anything now starting revision barely recall anything done year please share tips believe germany cat got house hours fucking sad really pushed edge love much worried come back know want die bad worst day life hey yeah mean bud look beautiful today love please enjoy day need help anything dont afraid ask people love help miserablei wan na move isolated cave self ill never talk anyone even though ill never know happened family go grieving process die want pain constant fear anymore everyday im terrified something horrible happened loved ones car crash stroke whats point making every day end dead laugh cry yesterday went local library goal mind subject thats mind lot lately im crack addict reading learning decided thats wanted drive happy ass walk make bline straight desk theres always two three old women pretending work im pretty sure mutter breath please talk keep walking fucker give customer service smile well hate ruin day lady im learn today ask old lady books redflag gives nastiest look face scrunched much couldve passed sharpei high old grandma voice shrieked lend anymore never back none happened course clever ruse make feel invested post itd harder skip terribly sorry deception actuality post ive gotten point now throwaway account spill life story entirety internet make previous betrayal though hide ss somewhere post onto point whole show ive pretty suicidal lately ive multiple redflag attempts multiple mean thirty ive came close four times dead winter one morning walked middle woods drank bottle liquor took coat changed mind almost make next impossible back move next one drowning overdosing vsed point im early thirties ive lived life people live theyre fifties due incompetence mother ive lost siblings sorts nastiness sister managed kill alcoholism age four years ago jaundiced hell back organs shut went coma never woke mother let away drinking ten well letting sorts people house used hard drugs sibling got wrong side law got less deserved second born lot problems growing lot mentally challenged made life really hard always told everyone family ill end ditch someday ill living bridge constantly berated belittled always told reason hard time lazy trying hard enough told actually sick even distinct impression viewed possession mother refer collector anymore acquires things pretty look surrounds things boast make personal shortcomings done entire life knickknacks animals pictures children house except childrens pictures always lament fact cute grew raised servants forced massage mothers feet back neck well scratch back didnt wed grounded guilted change cloths middle house bathe use bathroom door wide open siblings allowed walk around house naked midteens almost never food reason always money budweiser wild turkey pall malls sheer amount abuse went itd one morning sudden bedroom door fly open mother drunk hell screaming living room yell sisters half hour everything demean us got point id wake middle night slightest noise ready hop bed defend live alone still wake slightest noise bedroom door always locked im sleeping night one point took stand told asked beer money going give assaulted last time unable work completely utterly always told mood disorder crutch one deal bullshit got disability paid debts suddenly mother demanded money getting saying owed point life im longer contact family made attempts keep contact reciprocate ive come realize strong chance never cared much begin one even called see im alive number live alone im ton government programs keep going im able work feel ive failed society whole better even though know people dead worse everything ive cant even handle minute levels stress without full blown break people raise voice normally end breaking tears shortly im constantly depressed im hardly able take care struggle remain functioning jump noise constantly reassure people gas lightning plotting cant room without back wall able see points entrance sleeping speaking sleeping fear going bed anymore night go sleep experience dreadful dreams feel actual pain im either reliving experiences past brand new fresh kind hell last night dissected alive awake excruciating every night additionally im often alienated lot social groups due political beliefs sexual preferences current climate ive told im traitor monster someone go hang someone never loved constant lot people im moderate conservative suffer gid identify woman asexual im kind shafted three different directions clarify mood disorder rapid cycling manic depressive short im socially isolated multitude reasons ive started question better dead longer drain societies resources someone fixed help need amount pain go intense im constantly paddling keep head water feel cant well enough go back work friends helping mentality around surges back want assistance rest life worse older reached point im considering getting certain things done ensure outcome want know ive wards dozen times life sure hell going back see case worker therapist week along nurse im attending groups im wind want live way rest life place kind money cant past additionally im well educated im pretty cool fucking woman im good looking even though body cant deny good looks im lacking self confidence im blast hang many people going even consider potential partner im horribly crippled mental illness ptsd gid ontop fact job substantial income speak id clarify conditions stated diagnosed professionals entire rant im sitting wanting go bed ill go im asleep torn starting vsed lied put ss forgive wish girl squish guys butts without rapist filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler life shitbasically title humanity shit oh go redflag logical solution issues time feel anything happiness masturbate pleasure soon im done hatred life comes back wish aborted want stop im pussy fucking end need end tiredi seriously know much time care everyday takes something nothing im fucking tired tired slog tired frustration tired loneliness end come next month finally end listen try talk people care want help care gratification life something tolerated die anyway im done skydivingits birthday thursday made alive one piece may seem inside slalom anxiety sadness trying grasp onto hope wherever find want feel happy finally feel fine bask little things make feel alive monday jump right plane hopes thrill make heart soar adrenaline crave certainly maybe ill absurd amount comments post need awards anything ill best reply absurd amount comments post need awards anything ill best reply think really fun idea friend opposite side equator getting internet cut makin kinda sad tbh hes good guy deserve id explain situation right talk life almost feel put rant hope back quickly anybody want try take spot zeusar think im ready goive enough already genuinely unhappy life fucking hate family future look good either think im ready go know want sisters grow want protect way im scaredits two years attempted redflag help received leaving hospital nothing stopped going psychiatrist therapy sessions months later went psychiatrist felt didnt believe word told treated waste time problems werent severe therapy felt wrong never open havent okay whole time ive self harming bathroom recently starving waking morning hell got call boss asking come back work monday agreed back monday wont even live see sunrise tomorrow leaving world today third time charm right broke bug rule minei m cried someone yesterday close fuck supportive im embarrassed told dont want anymore im sick saying im okay people worry pay attention told sit town hoping bloke come beat starved days laying bed staring ceiling wanted die right dont know im better worse whats favorite food cook something dinner know cook found villages ps world quite small area im lucky guess might seem unusually high score slight film compared hundreds hundreds series detective films s s among best compares favorably powells later thin man films mean film similar thin man movies kennel murder case comedy traditional mysterydetective film think nora charles asta traditional comic sidekick something found practically series detective films along fun detriment miss exceptionally wellwritten filmhaving genuinely interesting case well uniformly excellent performances allbr br film begins dog show called kennel murder case though philo vance film actually spends little time dog show dogs superimportant part film instead thoroughly hated man killed left completely sealed rooman idea repeated quite detective films crime doctors strangest case explained seems pretty credible fit together wellkeeping interest throughout sure wish detective films day intelligently written plots exceptional acting one one definitely keeper anyone need help essays essay help review charge dirt cheap prices got free award wants comment favorite animal something im angry parents forcing livei know love lot feels selfish im probably selfish one know im suicidal tried attempt earlier year wasnt serious supportive im mental health services theyre nice want nothing im medication mum administers every morning evening meant mood stabiliser nothing dont want hurt anyone dont feel compatible life even though know everything live sound brat genuinely feel resentful towards makes want talk dont want say anything hurtful im tired guilt tripping time try bring want die probably makes feel bad helpless response generally people worse break sinful etc brought world many hopes dreams happy successful life want argue cant tap want life beautiful future full potential etc feels bs feel detached reality almost attempted last week meticulous plan sorted finances picked outfit wrote notes bought presents spoke good friend without telling felt suicidal saying mental goodbyes friends felt renewed purpose stay alive lasted two days keep planning things live follow disappoint people involved dont want ruin holidays upcoming birthdays making sad absence cool finish uni project prove theres good window april realistically plan may work winter drift physically commit redflagi tried commit redflag couldnt grabbed biggest knife house took upstairs entire way kitten affectionate tried stab heart couldnt maybe im weak maybe knives harder use thought left little scar tried dig scar knife matter hard tried couldnt deep enough tried throat couldnt cut throat either tried hard leave red mark parents see eventually gave played kitten instead pretty stupid try commit redflag halloween anyways costume wouldve gone waste dont access guns rope dont think really commit redflag now unless jump high place place think house kinda hard describe im sure high enough kill dont wan na risk getting hurt without dying wan na die end pain dont know now imagine crying alone bdayi knew gon na happen cant one day hey whats yalls favorite pokmon jolteon gang life wanted every single meme inside total war ive found called planet war mod bloody incredible thats say oh heres link youtube video warning going long asf idek seems always getting left behind going senior year thinking computer science uni two problems admission grade required grade idek want school game collect many good grades rlly good pretending passionate science said make money something art pandemic happened grades slipped little wrong still good going s s good enough apparently university competition increased mean back day need much stuck place imagine career ideas years know smartest accept one thing ugly close friends another thing even university program want classmates seem together perfect either getting jobs learning drive lack motivation anything rn online summer school still managing fuck terrible unit exam know going tell work hard honestly tired overachiever getting results idek posting idk overthinking feel worthless rn idk even know feel time crush next elementary class pretty edge help greeted hello smile ended red tomato lied toi girl talking lied said single back suicidal remember hearing movie played nearly every drivein theatre toronto group girls accepted sororities college start course call hots fun movie bursting drivein nostalgia lots fully endowed tshirts vans fighting football game showdown compared animal house good movie right nothing compares hots brand fun character looking classic na movie look hots girls rescue boomboom shorts hi everyone trying make form workout colour associated different emotions take moment fill form super helpful ok reason taking lighting drama gcse course need info different emotions associate colours drama piece working click link fill form amazing httpsformsofficecompagesresponsepageaspxidktlcdohlukxnkfjgfzqzckudndipwisksswvunprsjumplotzfukyvrioffrmxknsu whelp still herewrote note two weeks ago boyfriend talked last time shit keeps getting worse first stuck house may june july cant live anymore cant live anymore whats least painful way die lets play simon says simon says open mouth swallow daddys cum know fight back morei sorry internet know take longer diagnosed depression year episodes medicated lately things good fall back old patterns skip work days row think might fired good reason tired trying pick day every day pretending everything fine back mind thought ending sorry dumping anonymous reader want significant anymore deserves better issues wish best ps sorry bad reading english native language told try cups tea feel worsei tried cups tea app recommended someone called nigger asked wanted talk sex feel much worse teed something people looking help asked want talk sex stranger call nigger im white female call bitch cunt cat warm soft love cats last daysthe last days felt bad barely eat good way months feel life dont know im trying best fight diseases cant eat physical pain diseases soon well dont know worth taking pain case better one day wind downthe list gets longer lost good job moved away family got divorced kids living far away living alone going give away dog leave outside running money working exhausted depressed living place lived married filled garbage nothing hate existence need way make click hope tonight use prolonging fuck god helping fuck stupid movie freddys dead final nightmare horrific disturbing every nightmare elm street yes comedy essence films anyone possibly say find freddy krueger scary come across man dreams find even scary comic essence comedy shows care killing finds extremely funny freddy plays comic mind games way disturbing using comic ways think makes horror movies nightmare elm street today writers extremely clever making krueger comic scary oppose jason vorhees say anything got wit truly frighten victims movie good freddys wit gets recommend anyone sense humour way fall asleep anyone slight interest nba want non heated argument bc roasted lot re uonenutwonderjesus fucking christ guys calm tits seems ruse gives fuck guy hurting know people sub either form mental illness experience guy berated abused fucking attention seeking want help make mistakes hate member community wrong way regards eli day posting compliment irl ye forgot post yesterday stiil compliment irl feel slippingthe last years difficult last ten even year lost grandmother particularly harrowing form cancer left shell person less three months girl thought spend rest life left life feels going nowhere graduated university getting degree course used enamoured cant find single shred happiness within daily living seems tedious ive changed routine moved countries careers yet feel im going motions every day struggle meaning life struggling comprehend point living every sun set reminds eventuality death moonrise illustrates futility life tedium waiting eventual inescapable end thought getting better indeed yet mood improves pain broken heart recedes left wake ashen remains past hopes dreams know wont equally know well may put situations eventually come ill allow way unfold come find knew nothing film watched brother fact suggested take look normally suggestions much cop stuck something watch watched itbr br well cut long story short give br br film centers around two people meet whilst lodging place one initially dependant upon 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wondering pointless help start wondering allowed selfish even plan redflag consider ways make look accident save others truth die way organs salvaged others live become okay selfish want someone cherish love kind selfish clingy desperately claw onto someone love feel im desperate ok someone want selfishly feel im chained im thinking others first ok greedily selfish hate every thought wanting reach feels attention grab cry night missing people life lived far always others feel alone people say arent touch hug kiss skin deep feel know alone share feeling mine thought understand point wait struck taken death step step closer death accelerated recklessness know need life know want nothing feel civilization going collapse within lifetime starting affect sanitybasically spend lot time rcollapse ive come realize world reach brutal horrifying end im still alive already starting affect mind im starting spend time paranoid im always afraid especially family feel end turning nutjobs destroying life im already starting think offing escape know may overreacting motherfuckers sub worthless wax poetic amazing unique amongst last humans give fuck please help cant take lets combine art style anime girl appearance furry mean catgirls fuck shit ideal girlfriendwifemother children dragonflies big long normal idiot insect spiders got ta b attention seeking walkeight years ago walked two miles old abandoned church cemetery cold rain put two grain hollowpoints smith wesson spun cylinder put barrel mouth pulled trigger click remember walking back guess suffered abuse depression chronic pain life given hospitalization lots therapy better meds better still struggle best support system wife son daughterinlaw dog world right back graveyard hope guys find right formula keeps graveyard miss dog dog together long time great memories mom step dad getting divorce step dad cheated mom got hiv got divorced step dad took dog started losing money got fired job step dad put dog shelter even try give dog back called dog shelters area none husko ive sad know deal losing husko supposed deal attracted celebrities crige attracted anime girls scientifically attracted celebrities peson attracted simps bothers never reach somehow possible one trillion chance crush na celebrity seeing canvas art flawed person might completely fake anime girls exist simps bother never reach everyone knows thats truth crush character literally see whole character show literally know literally flawless dont deserve good thingsand never happen im trash im hitting hard restart life long ive aspiring content creator ive always tried making online presence known recently ive given actions far though ive realised ive faking happy ive done sure believe life far pretty good ive made many mistakes want undo know cant done push button im gon na making new google account new instagram new reddit new youtube new im sick never fun enjoying im sick listen others go making dreams come true want something done im gon na one way another includes making sure education way dreams hinder ability progress education stuff love note im gon na quit school anything im gon na subjects actually enjoy remembered right put phone away told crush hated sometimes times felt perfect wrong told say anything hurtful actually mean ampxb time p n c cuz idk theyll respond im gon na look rn cuz da morn ubopireew wants straight guy fuck someone go fuck lol ampxb wait never happen rtard regular show still best cn show change mind sister tried od antidepressants second time space monthswhat cry help anything wont speak family members problems fear situations family may contributing factor depression im surmising clearly obvious therapist shes seeing medication shes taking working feel helpless frustrated entire situation kill nothing gets better stay alivemy life always shitty child rarely anything good happens whats point living suffer everyday guide boys year old boy please give us grilled cheese sandwiches tasty thank coming ted talk converse person uhhh hii want person communicate talk plz real suppleroot hours day far wan na tank guys first year reddit guys helped depression pain wan na say thank hurt around think better stay away ruin every good thing around two hands always wanted end partner love convinced unlovable happens reason peace made peace fact ill end alone download minecraft server work gon na buy world server still prefer films focusing human relationships birch street must seebr br training spotlight family block covers terrain offlimits filmmakers explores common often unspoken family dynamic without resorting hyperbole sensationalism fact film deceptively low key outset br br addition providing probing look one family extension every family block chronicled specific period recent history know intentional unavoidable due archival contentbr br highly recommended want future im tiredi want live long brain adapted redflag plan cant envision future past certain point cant imagine hope god im dead really fuck good living anyway work sleep die thats everything inbetween complete variable even worth life nothing keep want keep finding bullshit reason stick around let fall stupid reason im better fools dead set killing chickened clinged onto phony reason live want still drive im tired want rest good dog died today reason still worth livinghe already really old years already got sick two months ago bastard poisoned food ate result half blind half deaf hes puppy memories coming mind im getting really depressed suicidal thoughts coming back stayed away months thought overcome think ive hit rock bottom now want die now dog kept alive cheered bad days know im going im pussy know balls kill reddit brotherinlaw threatening commit redflag following break help himhis ex called worried wondering short term make sure harm good interacting appreciate responses earlier learned sriracha sauce spelt sriracha siracha whole life complete lie parents supposed understanding caring dont know hell happened mine fucking despise children much fuck use condom first place fucking idiots anyway see therapist without parents knowing older friends might drive washington state helps something lost itfreshman year college group friends always hang talk either another part country life intersect anymore try join new groups im always outside looking getting ignored part one group fit wont see people know getting relationships sex obviously probably never either matter much want know everyone looks back college fondness feel life peaked freshman year hate life now see getting worse im now know ill year old friends virgin never held girls hand nothing fun look back college whenever finally die school im starting work help seems everyone lives friends stories experiences im sitting wasting away every time try make new friends amounts nothing see point going know theres shit loneliness failure compared others rest life older feel humiliated never sex relationship ive using ok cupid lead anything reminds one want know rambling hope someone understands seems best run train avoid shit friend killing rt now please helpmy friend bars xanax g coke super high tolerance wants die clean year breakup think kill gets eventually im canada anyone know please let know asap idk long put drunk tank something failed even kill myselffailure lot people talk say theyre prolgbtq didnt know go professional advice needed visiting suicidal person hospitalive asked go boyfriend see niece today hour hospital attempted redflag week two ago taking antidepressants second time hospitalized suicidal thoughtsattempts december last year feel may largely due parents issues getting divorced time period two us especially close im really sure say expect ive never type situation told cant bring food cards anything really maybe wrong sub anyone words advice goodbye swim unsubbing now feel new man think stay wallow depressing thoughts bring back thank everything done every little comment helped got goodbye sw sneaking advice lmao mom always said want go cuz im mad need space need tell first let go friends ive found walking really helped clear head stress basically everything recently ive enjoyed going long walks catch sometimes ill think night need go walk wouldnt allowed passed certain time basically long story short advice sneaking incase someone may need feeling despondent right join skribblio u want heres link httpsskribbliohdnweuukcahttpsskribbliohdnweuukca one talk toim probably going post lot vent feel read last night sat dark shower blade wrist min first wanted touch wrist blade redflag attempt sat started shaking pressing blade harder skin bc really wanted im supposed enacting safety plan feel cant bring seriously talk anyone im afraid tell husband therapist ill sent back hospital really really dont want thing matter anyonedisclaimer may lot rambling need someone hear im actively suicidal think frequently ive always someone ton friends even high school girl friends two boyfriends time best friends ive acquaintances seem along almost everyone one wants close never problem comes finding significant one wants friend one seems want spend time awhile reached people seemed connection anymore text blow happened many times cant even handle rejection anymore everyone family cares might think mother cut ties heard somehow started smoking cigarettes told im going kill going watch years ago always close dad stepmother months ago decided happy away exboyfriend left guy back together please father say least got nasty text message said needed return car borrowing said mind borrowing want anything getting back together said ex lets call george im stubborn individual fault cant stand anyone tell worst supposed move father girlfriend moved george instead due events occurred spoken stepmother tried reach tell family events missing reasons father mad course angered anything ive already felt abandoned feel love spite anything matter weve close long time know plenty people betrayed parents trust parents still love ive never done anything stolen lied etc cast aside hurt im free spirited person believe necessarily try maintain relationship unnatural forced never thought dad treat way george loves hes seem put stress thats unhealthy relationship thats going drain single friend family member actual closeness im going kill tonight im starting wonder dont even seem negatively impact people close people even close ton flaws ton love cant stand see anyone hurting human animal thats became vegan saw many documentaries hurt much even watch know im people need someone tell im completely worthless cant understand one really wants around im drowning thoughts im alone help layed roadand got put mental ward hospital ok first really dont pay attention scream hours listen let outside anything minute leave ran im probably going sleep street probably jump building women find interest unattractive bit socially awkward weird yet outgoing friendly kind funny getting older see chances family fading fast recently increasingly depressed dark thoughts loss forever alone veri funi post laugh nae naed caught shiny pokemon never probably filler hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh gf whit friend better know sounds super insecure thats okay one friend super nice interests stuff hes much closer long distance relationship friend close hes super closer keeps talking feel really uncomfortable know loves feel much happier whit make sad time time doesnt wrong feel wrong feel better choice never ending guilt cycleim end crisis situation got drunk made really sad wanted kill begging telling losing mind tried let got bed used crisis line stay level headed removed firearms house suicidal pastso bit difficult going redflag attempts kinda reason feel guilty stuck thinking caused redflag attempts theyre stuck one moment time unable let go tried therapy several family sessions talking happened place right cant kinda help got wed kinda lose everything went away serious form treatment sadness honestly happens every time drink month try best keep going overboard always fail left positions im currently theyre partially right actions trigger mental break brought childhood trauma anxiety depression surface dealt treatment moved feels guilty past cant let go ive forgiven moved every time break drinking feel guilty making go suicidal causing pain suggest getting help talking people cant talk theyre stuck wanting help holding onto pain pushed cant anymore point everyone safe now idea whatll happen light day need help home boy got dumped gf hes rly sad fucking suck helping sad people need advice oh wise rteenagers say teacher asked class whos favorite president everyone went obama tell mumim trouble trying tell mum much cant take anymore want die anything living dealing problems family issues friend school issues much cant take anymore want sleep never wake hope wake nicer worldi never guts tell tried attempt pills couldnt pull want come clean help im scared might react negatively ingrid bergman playing dentist walter matthaus faithful receptionist harbors little crush boss absolutely wonderful film handles witty repartee script aplomb steals terrific scene goldie hawn talk record booth ingrids monologue front face tells believes heart matthau odd choice leading man hes old goldie hawn unrefined bergman mention unfocused dentist liked way tries hard please goldie stumbles around trying free lie hawn supporting oscar fresh bubbly today bedroom farce terribly sophisticated faintly reminds one wednesday besides welcome relief noisy teenoriented comedies turn today cactus flower lovely sigh help pls best friend depression currently isolating ive done lots research say good thing want talk soooooo bad shes said doesnt wan na talk anyone im super worried love much admittedly messaged quite bit hate hard talk something happen im going feel asshole saying anything trying help anyone goes depression please help situation dream job sorry seems bit personal money scholastic book fair best feeling world im able buy books dollars something parents never let younger first let comment audience loved first moment perhaps current events middleeast led people take attitude came comedy george im going enjoy whatever reason everybody seemed really comedy last times woody tried straight comedy small time crooks curse jade scorpion hollywood ending ive felt oneliners felt strained bit antiquated remember thinking one point funny early sixties going movie afraid woody becoming tone deaf one comic sensibilities perfect tune admittedly plenty fellow aarp card carrying folks screening plenty somethings somethings well seemed give occasional belly laugh addition numerous guffaws chuckles many instances throwaways people laughing loud missed next linebr br thematically woody traipsing familiar ground suspected trailer film lot manhattan murder mystery smidgen oedipus wrecks new york stories alice even little tribute broadway danny rose beginningbr br even woody movie scarlett sondra times woodyproxy character far nebbish say ferrell gave us melinda melinda kenneth branaugh attempted celebrity instead archetypal ticks quirks sondras nerdishness comes directly family history shares early numerous occasions family business leads malapropisms audience characters screen perceive strange nonsequiturs joke cant help laugh laughs come recognizing woody nebbish truly character great extent unlike farrell branaugh cusack even mia farrow scarlett required use woody voice evoke woody role thus find ripped narrative woodys voice suddenly emerges someone facebr br friend commented way sid character played woody supporting role centerstage hoping going time woody seems written character truly fits current persona unlike ed dobel sage character anything blind director hollywood ending time character comfortable fit perhaps importantly time character works story within elevated circles find even fishoutofwater scarlett used great comedic effect throughout sid declining itinerant magician playing small audiences fact another era placed front center enjoymentbr br jackman ian swearengen mcshane liked extent used piece particularly liked mcshanes short effective turns jackman charming ease old money often portrayed films years ago class echoes purple rose cairobr br think short answer maybe best straight comedy s bullets broadway less stylized mighty aphrodite less caustic deconstructing harry less forced small time crooks hollywood ending woody finally found comic voice works st century alfred hitchcocks assured telling film made twentyone years earlier infinitely superior original hitchcock said first version work amateur although certainly bad film appear right said remake although definitely better still among hitchcocks best work thats certainly say good little overindulgent drags hitchcock seems keen drag certain elements parts film entirely relevant plot become annoying dragged sequences one sees james stewart doris day eating moroccan restaurant good helps establish different culture american protagonists found every restaurant scene theres opera sequence latter make film worsebr br plot follows middleaged doctor wife go morocco holiday young son meet french man bus another middleaged couple restaurant things go awry french man dies knife back shortly whispering something doctor holiday turns full blown nightmare couples son kidnapped causes cut short go london order try find film potent degree paranoia manages hold way fact even go far say paranoid film hitchcock made hitchcocks films one thrilling keeps edge seat almost entire duration aforementioned opera sequence standing moment tension diffused little humour movie gives lighthearted relief morbid goings actually works quite wellbr br original version story lent excellent support fantastic peter lorre film benefit presence unfortunately made performances amazing james stewart doris day james stewart man always going contender greatest actor time crown collaborations hitchcock feature mesmerising performances one different although best performance remains one mr smith goes washington stewart conveys courage conviction heartbreak man lost child anything back brilliantly fact thats one best things film really able feel couples loss throughout serves making thrilling doris day hand rather strange casting choice movie definitely good actress associated musicals seeing thriller rather odd even flex vocal chords littlebr br ive mentioned hitchcocks best film theres much enjoy although id recommend many hitchcock films recommending one ill definitely give two thumbs well got rejected got ta vent something im cool respect lying said least little bummed thought good chance least tried least things awkward nothings changed still good friends cant help hold onto false hope know idk honestly probably best case scenario besides saying yes respectful cool beans got chest good place pirate south park simple question looking whole series please crappy mirrored distorted sites please give full address site phone refuses show pirate sites movies gomovies etc search feeling desperate want die todayim struggling whether shoot face taurus revolver wonder anyone similar position go college started working directly family business basicly parents hand business million dollar debt never wanted manage business become manager fast sucks everything crumbling feel trapped today getting sued former employees found trusted employee stealing god shit boogie nights one best films come s id go far say imdb top actually understand many dislike due subject matter personally feel many judging aclaim films received viewers critics topnotch film makingbr br direction acting film surpass good reach level brilliancethere one scene movie amazing individual characters reach touch given movie porn industry one imagine sex scenes handled sensitivity direction among best ive seenand ive seen lot filmsbr br film one particular personal individuals story manyits character study people many layers maybe industry find alien still dream dreams bad good boogie nights draws story beginning though film longi believe almost hours honestly even notice ends kind want tobr br im easy impress meaning many movies id give rating one beyond multiple character study use music film never years seeing movies seen music tell story well moviethere flawlessness know something gon na see everydaybr br burt reynolds performance perhaps best ive seen mark wahlberg incredibleim astounded still people saying act well know anyone viewing possibly think thatbut person really surprised heather grahemrollergirl absolutely fantastic role particular one memorable scene burt reynolds limo towards endbr br ill echo imdb reviewers saying movie everybody still think topnotch theres year old man asking random teens wear jockstrap fuck normalize slut shouldnt frowned slut hoe whore thot thats cave men polly af probably really bad stds way peaceful bring back humanity roots want fuck lot shouldnt shamed dont want fuck lot shouldnt shamed sad sad backwards das das good ampxb remember learnt joke bad good brainstorm grammar thing im elsewhere m well knew life going horrible seven years old father alcoholic constant fear home constant emotional bashing definitely help man made worse made tho im blaming father im blaming able express feelings anyway apart anger jealousyyou wan na know funniest thing dropped highschool never finished cope peoplei bullied know feeling someone pushes explode smashed guys face brick wall strangled scared shit ran away got point across never told word anyone made ease finally life try harder shit even bullied teachers subtle way motivate normal people well help pushed hole everyday struggle still istried end four times now im fucked dreams sit front screen slowly rot look back life heh laugh laugh hard big joke im one whos stage choke saw someone say youre favourite fanfic tropes friends lovers youre closeted gay fell love childhood best friend well umm im f girlfriend best friend im close friends self destructionis losing mind ive whenever feel depress want destroy finally strength end know longer live spiral ive already thought way sure id really end feels wan na go even ends aware thing called self fulfilling prophecy feels want use im sorry maybe needed mind im days self harm hello everyone lots wondering hell past weeks got phone taken away let spend time family ive addiction self harm want self harming thing past honest ill back reddit wanted clear gone weeks want end addiction ive spent hours something done minutes spent hours homework assignment say quotes really watching youtube hours staring paper minute every minutes youtube actually working minutes im going bed reddit needed talk thisim second semester college right things exactly going way barely made pretty depressing first semester im stem major enrolled rotc last semester dream longest time go space one day id settle pilot anyway first semester depressed shift difficulty academics incredibly jarring trouble making friends made think something wrong failing math class rotc inherently stressful felt alone ashamed shitty lot time barely passed math class made lot friends second semester rolls around things starting look finally feel comfortable rotc first chem exam still things im sad ill talk later anyway im feeling generally happy semester far first math exam dug hole thats okay though ill better next one final academic performance starts slipping across board im trouble math class fast forward month im told medically qualify rotc adhd medication years ago devastating finally feeling comfortable finally made friends thought adhd going obstacle anymore never identified certain group felt part something worth part dangled front face ripped away felt horrible okay though end world im still eligible apply officer training school graduate two days later meet cadre review case tell certain skin condition medically qualify military service means cant pilot went back dorm first time life seriously considered redflag felt nightmare presented puzzle solve wanted hurt someone anything though really know week later take second math exam semester week find failed ill drop class studied really hard thought got least incredibly frustrating go high school never studied anything almost never got test quiz good math science academics general college actually study quizzes exams almost never even frustrating friends people floor talk got bs exams took im running ways convince im fucking moron feel fraud ways one ive never girlfriend thats always reason feel waste skin ive never experienced mutual romantic love friends yeah need ive always problem comparing people thats ive recently start feel awful im alone thoughts long feel nothing proud anymore sorry making really long ive never talked stuff anyone friends family good comforting im pretty sure nobody knows im unhappy im afraid change need talk someone broccoli piece shit hate bet trump smokes mid biden bernies probably got top shelf tho fuck fuck tiktok posts guys hate tiktok ive seen many sprouting hard tell theyre true anymore want next satirical fake cancer posts thank cumming ted talk guys ive made mistake lot yall made mistake dont post karma sub literally day ban yah someone posted one rn theyre gone dont please help clue help hermy girlfriend considering redflag option clue help parents divorce found car keys clicker lock unlock doors idk actually called onve near car start im horny dm meeeeeeeee hehe te ya im bored somebody talk app shit yeah drop yo snap whatever little pony friendship magic disclose redflag ideations psychiatriststoday second time ive tried tell psychiatrist redflag feelings last one dismissed dont know expected one psychiatrist two professionals disclosed guess expected least interest exactly thoughts kind inquiry details feel wanted subject fuck ask help professionals literally supposed deal mental health feel dont care therapists better either guess dont people close feel comfortable enough disclose stuff theres really one kind internet forums good enough vent guess far solution want guidance im thinking transferring schools mom forced go private school never wanted attend ripping away friends except one shes kind toxic old friends go another school want transfer cant parents never allow im sure feel moving schools sophomore year feel sad miss friends hate please give advice id happy die sleep anytime soonampxb thing im years old life basically always pointless strugglethe worst part hear supposed best years life know real struggle agree thatso said think worth living pain sadness happiness joy detail hate life much fact enjoy living id love dodge rest life im lonely feel lonelyhey everyone thanks reading comparison stories subreddit pathetic story im year old male im depressed never seriously thought redflag couple days ago think im ugly wear glasses minor acne im confident way look basically imagine girl thinking hey guy looks pretty good problem silly people may think obsessed girls probably wrong ive become pretty desperate girlfriend past months want somebody love want never kissed someone thought kissing someone drives mad want someone share everything cuddle im feeling thing girl years ago seemed well work ive never feeling girl actually liked friend hand imagined spending rest life pretty much girl met lot girls already boyfriends though lot girls way league couple months ago met girl lot common kind humor interested things think equally intelligent already boyfriend though breaks heart joke around lot last week made joke us married couple stupidest argument took hand kneeled propose responded gentle slap face saying really need find girlfriend really think hopeless case way home day waiting train pass strangest though entered mind jump meters forward right now itll ok worries unreachable girls feeling articulate unfulfilled lust caught moment really wanted jump thought family friends everybody id leave behind decided day though lot moments wished coward done want commit redflag im scared bad day enough pressure will need help im doneso keep trying everything make feel better none works im turning today still living parents still finished college fucking hate life tried address issues family half ass try help day revert back previous behavior ex mom drinks often ends talking shit people yelling going therapist bit gave nothing changed months mom straight told therapy going help drugs useless well try activities supposed make happy nothing works thought lot stress coming school thats done semester passed everything ive tried numerous antidepressants made feel worse ive heard let go another day ive better part two years now fucking work nothing works im miserable time one friend trust stuff getting tired im tired dealing shit know life actually really fucking good emotional brain gives zero fucks feel even shittier think apologize english writing unclear bit rant miserable long time least relation long alive earliest memories wanting die ish improved find hard find keep close friends close relationship family parents extremely socially conservative take mental health seriously brother tried commit suicide back even treated mindset issue go siblings type relationship pitted young age resentment still feels getting professional mental health treatment question living family even take doctor feel future past months lay bed felt miserable afraid job apply things need apply practice better one real extracurricular fencing nothing tell matter going reach future anyways going commit suicide know courage courage fix life either school starts weeks know going completely fucked school required current resume expect constantly changing evolving nothing done nothing past year nothing show addition enrolled internship program intern local legal firms police lawyer even trying contact places afraid call email none places emailed responded month agothe one extracurricular fencing even good started late october last year comparison peers high level ranked joke started late skills good parents generally ignored siblings succeed sports arts choose encouraged little nothing passion anythingi even leave house one thing love anymore used love go walks nature anymore hate going outside feeling inferior everyone even know point even admit bad feel every time help minimize problems help feel reason feel bad middle class parents picture help think everything listing stupid melodramatic teenage bull worth hurting prolly still hurts heart much hate feeling waste potential hate feeling still young compare peers family see nothing cowardice waste want parents family proud much know unlikely addition lack accomplishments bisexual conservative parents mentioned never accept knew hate hide know found tell confused faker liar rid completelyi afraid future afraid going reach alone friends family person proud fencing coach know sees hate showing face around academy afraid disappointing always going never going good athlete know anymore thank reading hurting future coward want die dont want kill myselfidk begin im chick early s intj sexually abused child bullied lot growing consider pretty smart rather shy intense social anxiety causes talk ramble ive never really close friends dont fit everyone thinks pretty fucking weird ive dealing depression multiple redflag attempts years started cutting turned turned tattoo addiction weird obsession gore watching live leak videos anyway people fucking suck one really honest always feel people try keep lives want something really dont along females pretty blunt tomboyish women seem turned intimidated idk gone five therapists years help temporarily husband veteran ptsd gotten multiple fights feel loves constantly remember shit said sometimes think im worst piece shit world hardcore existential crisis last year realizing going die really fucked fuck point remember yesterday pretty soon going middle age lose parents people really love beloved cat everyday wake think oh great one day less alive stuck loop dont know feel going think rest life got sterilized years ago wont kids never want put someone pain existing constantly try better work ass thankful good job tech going back school become programmer try help people selfless gotten trampled used try take care body eat healthy delaying inevitable dont human condition subjected terms conditions preset life great problem solver fucking destroying way life except death dont want play sick disgusting game whatever cruel diety put us shit spinning rock planet fuck hate shit god fucking damn im probably cause someones demonsand fucking fault deserve die reason live tired life feel living anymorehi reading article made feel depressed killing tired life believing god afterlife im black cant level people want gun shoot brains theres god afterlife want hell rather called loving god made life hell cant math disabled wanted engineering ill post response dont give single flying fuck dead meme fox say still fucking slaps thats fact ask girl question ask question thats personal want going change mind fucking hard reflect note gotten worse see evidence life better going bei want anymore want nobody talk feel deadi know im posting anybody life talk maybe want someone acknowledge existence maybe sounds weird maybe feel talking someone anonymously online genuine person face face person pretend care acknowledge ive drug problem years ive clean number months now everyone says slowly gets better ive slowly getting worse seem worst luck past years even im clean ironically enough cant speak parents friends fault left college year getting degree failing classes wake feeling terrible hopeless tired gets worse throughout day therapist likes talk minutes hour session cant change right now money im interviewing job looks promising im worried im afraid ill mess ive felt years years starting using drugs even cant foresee getting better every day feel ive zombie autopilot majority last decade even nobody responds wanted type ive never said feel really terrible right now first word comes mind watching movie beauty beauty around actors play andie superb always well designed shots authors red line idea lovebr br think kennys character white spot three womens boring predictable life interaction makes andies character living entertaining possibly hes gone became obvious really appreciate hold inner believes sacred desiresbr br fact andie successfully recovers loss nothing bad instead shows life prevails forms even small british village shown perfectlybr br another reason love movie british ways houses fags accents andie superb job shame movie got low marks ten hate people tell im innocent pureaside people know truly mean people say im plus things kind caring understanding say reach unless first im collective action figure people see certain distance never try interact im truly say try reach think make others uncomfortable someone told people nice tell make feel understand cues leave im wanted always mess things even theres chance make new friends least friendly acquaintances always ruin everything ive always done life living threated porcelain doll many people except family remainng friends knowing im probably hateddislikedtolerated really hurts pretty clear either wipe slate move kill helpi cant stand anymore anyone procrastinate anyone homework latest time possible got much free time choose homework almost midnight feel normal anyone thing teenagers world help meme making meme history assignment simply need guys help come best slogan shirt kid supposed super cool actually biggest cringe example catch fists sesame street send final product done saw lon chaney jr boris karloff cast expecting find typically schlocky s style horror movie opening scene graveyard wolf howling background seemed confirm began watching though discovered nifty little mystery englishman richard green seeking discover happened two friends disappeared black forest necessary take revenge evil count stephen mcnally ruled territory chaney voiceless gargon rather limited role one reminded hunchback notre dame actually karloff somewhat substantial role dr meissen fact meissen one interesting characters movie difficult know end whether established good guy bad guy castle set magnificent even limited depiction black forest real enough certainly come across lowbudget compared movies ive seen anyway disappointment thought rita cordays performance countess seemed somewhat dry seem put much passion rolebr br aside found movie held attention throughout enough suspense going turn make well worth watching definitely recommended rating dudes men able hit girls self defense bring everytime men stronger women im trying start argument see irony means iq dont read triggered actual fight sure persons dick doesnt mean destroy ive seen videos women slight taps dude doesnt even flinch continues use power rko tiny women lost knowing doim male france english mother language sorry bad english lack caps im fucking tired feel attention whore post tehre people much issues lifes deserve attention even know im really depressive im making things life normal cant speak anyone want relatives firends thraet im sick im know feel lost suicidal thoughts maybe months happen im alone worse thing got close friends famiuly loves im traumatised rapemurderinsert terrible thing good grades premire s term anyone familiar french system feel deserve im always quiet class never really participate work lot home firends work really hard maybe fear future high school want send prpa think ill fail im hardworking physics chemistry people think im fucking genius cant think brain learn really fast somehow im good want work scientist ill probably find anything im idiot hiding behind good grades tpe basically school project starting october groups hand paper end march oral exam friday worked guys class close friends really friend nice guys tho whatever work close friends another class work choosed subject months realized one us sibject whatever changed bit time goes less less motivated firends everyone class became motivated oral exam fucking week shit past december feel abandonned feel way parents really close education care lot eason lazy autistic videogame player didnnt told really upset find happenned exam counts end school grade baccalaurat know moment need work presentation simply im shitposting reddit procastinating avoid duty girlfirend dick watch disgusting porn every evening awful one things give pleasure im disgusted defend womens rights time watch bondage shit tumblr awful feel even supposely close friends close one birthday month ago invited party maybe guys group friends know go explain im hypocritical shit hiding good grades avoid stuff ill stop im really disgusted posting im wasting time awfully formatted rant needed facts eat lettuce alone herbivore richard schickels documentary gary cooper gary cooper american life american legend gives us look tremendous allamerican star films life narrated clint eastwood theme definitely gary coooper american taken fast clips many appearances westerns scenes meet john doe mr deeds goes town sgt york best part documentary home movies cooper family well childhood photos showing beautiful blonde kid sunny smile entire life hilarious clip cooper jack benny show comeback number bird dog benny loses documentary takes us briefly tumultuous affair patricia neal nearly ruined livesbr br theres certain cohesiveness missing bioretrospective jumps around lot footage cooper interviewed added lot clint eastwoods narration described unobtrusive boring monotone given cooper tended strong silent type screen used little animationbr br personal note gary cooper one handsomest men lived looks early films nearly enough fan smile lips bone structure handsome throughout life films morocco desire devastating instead sitting scene one worst performances howard roark fountainhead giving speech admitted author understand young suave cooper tux nice touch documentary alas definitely produced man jump front train th shoulder dislocates fucking time year bored probably need talk someone dont really know anymore new rule dumb fuller filler filler behold latest creation octopussy full formhttpimgurcomaezcueh im scared itive close never succeed omg dont wan na live rest life ugh batman returns really dark movie shows caped crusader fighting penguin sexy catwoman ill later michael keaton acts well bruce wayne showing good actor tim burton directs picture well locations movie impressive villains danny devito menacing penguin cruel yet disturbed man really hard childhood michelle pfeiffer steals picture best catwoman threatening extremely sexy theres scene kisses batman cat way heats movie action scenes good ending dramatic tragic probably best ending batman movie tim burton shows manage batman movie really well already demonstrated first batman gives batman darker nature much two friends attempted suicide past two days planning earlier week stoped reason anyway need support need talk feeling unwelcome posts gay people shouldnt flaunt gay people shouldnt make whole personality want wear rainbow without associated gay people everything complaining gay people existing makes feel really unwelcome sub honest wear whatever want care much associated gay shit dont someone openproud sexuality flamboyant leave alone write post every seconds idk people hang people dont even bad vent huge bummer used really sub kinda ruins future holds nothing meim gon na shit ill probably end disappointed fuck never achieved dreams kind abusive relationship never making serious changes life fuck idgaf future wan na go exists doors automatically jam lock alarm gets triggered preventing robbers entering exiting far parody films go worth time energy recent resurgence horrid parodies date movie comebacks breath fresh air come back rediscover truly funny farce johnny dangerouslybr br mother end medical problems little johnny goes work mob fallows series gags work occasional flops foreign gangster cant master american language profanity wise least rival gangster penchant shooting mouth younger brother da johhny dangerously hot young starlet hot affections johnny busybr br viewer busy laughing part every gangstermovie clich skewered talented cast decent writingbr br perfect long shot definitely good smile bad day feel im going relapsethings took turn im coping want kill time longer want live wish terminal disease leave without without mum feeling guilty able help without one love feeling guilty able fulfill promise feel empty feel broken know anymore posting daily longer single day playing moment mine moment mount blade warband awful friendi friend school always one reasons im still alive ive done awful things know want tell im afraid going crush friends past betrayed im one friends feel awful want die one incidence go detail basically made mistake still feels guilty mentioned someone upset needed talk someone know person ended cutting friendship friend mess couple months know going react way emotionally upset think rationally another incidence friend applying jobs happened apply store felt worked together nothing done recommended hiring ended getting job couple months liked better still feel guilty knew trying really hard job kept getting rejections finally happened yesterday seeing counselor campus actually one referred really bad time really supportive even suicidal quarantine started always tells come live need counselor seeing intern leaving end school year said connect counselor whos great person helped lot wanted make sure fine said fine first entirely feel comfortable anything negative say feel need keep things separate live together campus even work campus jobs need space even physical one feel horrible hes great counselor want help needs always gives unconditional love feel im betraying love family ive never childhood abuse gut feeling keeps telling need ive emailed feel really awful want die away mess care anything happen mei think im bad person enemies hurt anybody somebody high school ready go college top started club officer another member many etc ready movein dorm found go dad promised many things considered options saw feasible awhile ago promised ended going orientation met lot great people met roommate person fell love school plan work ass cover years taken away fucking number honestly know im going life wan na nobody sit home want something life thing parents making even worse ive deal fucking fighting little honestly think make years cried eyes calling national hotline cried years helped alleviate anxiety raging headache feeling nothing gon na better wan na anything drastic honestly know everything everything upsets ive worked hard live summer anxiety depression guess life fair right house become ant nest ants everywhere seriously actually ants everywhere currently work hours know much pain cry express want cut actually feel something trying tell family friends need help falling deaf ears fucking stop acting okay tired think gotten better scared one day going give thoughts terrified going lose job go work tomorrow mess work medical environment think safe anyone mental state lack sleep need help able sleep past three days feel numb going cave ampxb httpspreviewredditqubuzhqpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampseeeaafbccaafdbbcb passing thoughts active plan picked day several times go full plan go er say suicidal thoughts plan picked day happeni curious length time voluntary vs involuntaryhow really help er aside keeping safe hours weird thought went inpatient voluntarily monday work wednesday back time know sunday start hold monday goes far best time go question go er suicidal thoughts really feel failurea lot going really much type mobile feel complete failure utter waste space ask someone hide guns fear might act upon feelings hatred towards feel ive failed daughter wife parents really need someone help first person comment post gets free award got free award hours heres chance come snatch keep constantly thinking peoples reaction redflagsometimes days im somewhat aware parents brother rest family devastated friends maybe days convince nobody care parents still kid one less burden carry friends glad rid annoy presence cant decide one way another one things keeps actually killing welp whole life going shit feel outcast two best friends ive known years now got single aspiration crush dreams goals slightly average every measurable field person everyone knows existence thinks im joke feel two things pain nothing past two days ive felt soul rotting inside worst part escape anyway life going see point anymorei see point living anymore clinical depression grief consumed enjoyment anymore trolling fuck people even enjoy weed anymore one thing helped see good people made love life stopped working want end mom recently passed im probably gon na readmitted within week two cant anymore want either die bed day community theater actor works hard take acting seriously im always amused treat great art movie skewers actors craft mercilessly dishing lot good laughsbr br ham actor location movie bears resemblance dictator dictator dies heart attack much drink food actor kidnapped forced play part lifetime neonazi head secret service plays hilt gets dictators girlfriend fall love vice versa turns tables captors beautifullybr br lots great shtick leads lots good work unknown supporting actors particularly household staff two members palace guard fun little cameos abound sammy davis jr makes light jonathan winters plays semiretired american businessman something going raul julia sonia braga richard dreyfuss exceptionalbr br dumb movie lots beautiful locations brazil humorous script good actors thing looking theyre actually fun going usual existential angst playacting wtf guys weve lied baby carrots arent actually babies theyre normal carrots cut f stressed depressedlast night shitty told crush liked said adores im best friend looking relationship feel wan na cry enjoyment playing video games im behind d art one project due week concept another project almost end fucking semester term classes worst especially teacher bullshits way quarters class rush projects onto us essays due english class next semester gym im usually one whos borderline fat really want dead hope really awful year year think going better might well try od depression anxiety meds thoughts month now know much keeps getting worsei transgender start really strong gender dysphoria started remembering bad things hurted lot people life phisically mentally deserve suffering really blame people mock really every single thing either futile leads hurting someone said hurted lot people life want anymore want happy want live beautiful life life somehow limitedit fault really one deserves suffer one exept know thing want say sorry everything didi hope live need took away things fair suffer enjoy living right every thing justified know bullying absolutely deserve righti know anymore ready happened quickly die stop making everyonemyself included suffering right sorry suspicious people willing come australia ive spending entire life planning fuck yunno chinas pretty awful place least government runs corporations instead corporations running government probably gon na end im supposed something life know god damn fact know life probably drivers license go college still live parents im losing hope ill find something sustainable sit room day look memes fuck thats fuck im fuck im try kill ill probably fuck numerous times im right maybe theres hope severely doubt one come funeral anywayyou idea head legitimately missed anyone currently know ive actively suicidal week feeling gets stronger stronger every fight misunderstanding squabble time feel way around makes incredibly tempting fucking nothing live especially without friends family fucked even though im younger sister finally pissed enough push say wanted beat crap shes blames panic disorder jerk despite never taking initiative better matter much help gets always yelling parents timequarantine made worse bad shes even nuttier half year locked today stood told shes made life miserable thinks makes rest family stick neck make perfect even though stuff go continued scream call asshole saying im older brother dont say anything goes around say god want beat crap push even though love said id much happier least id rage shes going shape anyway wasnt actually going wanted scared enough quit bitch course changed mind things matter second happened tried pull youre adultact age even though shes acting toddler able go anywhere claims hit rib thoughts hitting viewers three different episodes right bat serling continued go introducing viewers twilight zone strange way scheduling one series biggest growers fourth episode sixteenmillimeter shrine one understated episodes focusing aging movie stars inability cope changing times introducing supernatural element closing minutes approach episode whelming first subsequent viewings reveal thoroughly classy beautifully written short storybr br leads ida lupino barbara jean trent martin balsam frustrated caring agent shine performances main problem episode supposedly year old footage actress unconvincing lupino looks identical playing young trent playing middle aged trent diminishes tragedy situation significantly fortunately lupino acts socks convincing us desperation return past situation sympathise yet trent far sympathetic character primadonna gives little thought feelings around disastrously withered costar tactlessly belittles reminds long ago glory days somewhat surprising rewarded happy ending clear going happen moment see huge projection screen cleverly preempted opening moments trent scares maid stepping behind screen clear beginning whether sucked projector prove reward harsh lesson appreciating living moment turns trent allowed return past longed testament strong wishful thinking humans bebr br sixteenmillimeter shrine gets better viewing top notch writing acting combine create short play enormous power reflects nature humans long past even though never return except twilight zone give gaem reccomendations now milk fridge country hungry wanted make cereal usually milk fridge go sleep hungry time milk fridge im happy now someone jumped building todayi wonder feel everyone around left leaving friends left moving far away person want contact much go lately keep longer know go everyone leaving im tryingas type little girl inside saying mommy alone dad ive told multiple times im suicidal listen thinks im dramatic never dealt depression cant stop thoughts one second sitting couch children next im thinking effective way end life planned attic beam takes chair tie robe want option back im mentally exhausted need help one listen cant afford babysitter therapy thing give free want relief im fucking mess human beingat end fucking rope rn years fucking shit made depression worse earlier year grandad killed via overdose scattering ashes next week fucking horrible think tell girlfriend person thought trust whod support matter ill postpone coming see ldr tells sick sick getting hopes let tells fuck top ive struggling year solvent abuse result stress levels im probably gon na fail end future relentlessly bullied college called shit school shooter psycho im fucking quiet im fucking sick nothing good enough anyone access stuff id right right cant im stuck fucking loop things getting bit better going shit want shit end im fucking waste oxygen im writing sit alone bathroom half bottle jager deep got numb pain even aint fucking working want reassuredi feel everything pointless right now people probably care treat good im wish friends one thought trust left better popular people wish say graduating top grades id happy high school college college job put endless cycle want grow want free want run away know people try find treat better pity want liked better without running away ive contemplated im scared die leave ones even back secretly burden know right now im lost really need help im much emotional paini wish wasnt anymore thoughts ending life multiple times day last days ive planned cant fix im gon na choice basically friend went class finished long ago course years long started develop feelings finishing finally got courage last tuesday told ask asked date went bad really bad opinion havent stopped crying lost really good friend person feelings anything keep happy havent eating fully either feel every time sleep dreams every single night wish never wake time dont want sleep makes think irreplaceable unique many ways shes constantly mind making eyes water speak stopping anything everything tried dating apps match signed answered questions first person pop best matched cant take tried tinder boom pops really want superlike press wink button time bad idea rejected past dont know anymore everything haha trans deathwhats point trying know never pass stupid petite girl even thinking wanting transition man pathetic considering even register even shortest cisgender men ampxb waste hours days weeks months life silence laying bed studying practicing art improving portfolio im slightly confident may able landing job actively improving considering im highschool whats point ill still ill always always painful body much less literally chronic pain see scoliosis apparently existing ampxb sucks though really im really jealous everyone gets even normal average body much less healthy body im entitled despite deserving bodies thats life literally peoples common complaints superficial requires self improvement intelligence sure sucks least hopes goes functional families friends lover black long honestly care anymore ampxb anyways sucks wait years gun feel mess rope accidentally face slow painful choking session degrees mouth go least stepdad says ugly mentally unwell fat awkward pussy stand chance real world swear sub lives two worlds post new vs hot completely different new filled shitpost depressed teenagers hot filled memes youve seen someone sharing something tragic happened thanksim happy sub exists something mind always say see another way really found wanted wants every day feel hated everyone know fading away weekend remarkable pain others stop looking back life regret everything done wrong matters matter even trying give love people hurt next achievement love given overdose cut hardest thing done want show feel swear insane want depart peace finally writing good bye doubt anyone read thank mean good bye godspeed going kill weekend cobb vanth gtvanth refrigerationlt dank farrik need filler filler filler whole life bsim turning days cant believe held long arms hurt lot due last bout self harm recall year ago said therapy weeks id dead well didnt tried know ill try bpd hard live keep giving medication sometimes helps deny im childish enough bad dreams sleeping withdrawal pain ive telling nearly years want therapy want talk ive went gifted talented college university drop mistakes ive made cant handle say theyre scared ill kill bring someone im going kill dont go every day head alone want professional listen helo never fucking want reach want yr old male depression redflag seizures scoliosis schizophrenia graduated still living parents made progressi realized school easiest thing lifei jobs keep mental physical illnesses got way tried signing college afraid messing things myselfmy first dream become mma fighter due brain surgery remove seizures think achieve thatthroughout life always called ugly even friends girlfriend familyi live godforsaken area nothing people age never serious relationship still virginsometimes want end life find guts soalso think able survive real world survive relationship find new dream career live peace every graduating high school life ridiculously hard people always say life gets worse seriously ask anyone age say gets worse moment mention word redflag everything changes itll better intelligent mentally illmy entire life driven near insanity around everyone says one thing hard go rather using logic reason state argument theyll attack position sense self worth beliefs must idiot knowing defend constant onslaught peoples delusional beliefs stop trying ram stupid fucking opinions throat wanting kill daily basis peace quiet balls tell im mentally ill take pills maybe maybe im intelligent mental illness awareness truth everyone want convince im mentally ill try pills everyone uneducated opinion confidently put display arrogant confident makes feel idiot im confident anything im always questioning line thinking actions etc trying come reasonable answer people arrive answers never question anything idiot want die see way outlong story short convinced parents going community college two years actually faked theyre case transferring idea cant stall job probably summer think live wages living home move tell im much pussy wanting give upim sure talk cant talk anyone im close struggle talking therapist thought strangers ill never meet last year november exhusband forced bed raped fist one week later kidnapped drove mountain beat charged kidnapping da talking letting probation feel failing everything im afraid go anywhere fear ill run someone family comes money bond lost career struggling support two children blame happened abusive marriage seen coming always confident life im pounds good shape made lot accomplishments none stuff feels good enough feel ugly worthless smart enough afraid everything everyone meet nights im trying go sleep think hanging want life back way cant want live im trying tonighti let live extra time living showed living worth care anymore still gotten better school fact ive gotten worse cant focus think hurt people classes halls ive previously wronged im failure well classes instead one now come home homework fall asleep stress wake go back school saturday waste life sunday im dragged church im unintentionally berated waste rest day physically able concentrate homework im overloaded im burnt cant tutoring im scared talk teachers either mad know content ill never able meet goal pet fox one fucking thing possibly give life meaning even id suck pass college cant easily fail high school im stupid college point want cant job lazy ive gotten want stay parents burden cant take five years school everything seems broken sexuality work ethic speech way look way think memory hearing eyesight everything nobody expressed interest one case someone turned away stupid impulsive assholish side cant talk professional cant fix situation medicate lie situation care leave theyll letting suffer people might sad people school probably disappointed best finally end seems selfish part im getting put meds want blind drugs hellish situation im living parents real care apparently real therapists christian enough many reasons im stupid remember right now im tired im trying new version last time likely real time even know im posting im set end miserable cycle soon im lost cause id rather pass away radar everyone forgets existed im sorry make sense forgot something im god awful writer cst im hours left goodbye paste whatever copied replies w context see title filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler legitimate reason tonobody actually knows gives shit family dont want speak friends almost completely abandoned dont want deal fair enough ampxb legit reason stuff couple packets paracetamol throat maybe probably wont work guess ampxb dont know even night two hospital temporary escape life guess considered white im egypt im basically arab skin color beige cookie kinda color im considered light skin tho question white ps im asking cuz always see meme saying white people white people even relate yes im existential crisis feel ive met almost people browse new keep running fuckin losers possible euthanizeddepression started high school made tons bad grades trouble focusing bullying teasing folks dropped college much time worked terrible retail warehouse jobs years hopped job job looking decent fulltime work preferably office went army one dream careers failed ait due injury refuse reenlist due stuff somebody became man adult friends personality guess freedom considered holdoverholdunder least im back home family never understands neglect feelingsemotions seems cant happy continue fail everything help social anxiety want end thing keeping committing redflag pain ill feel want die sleep something thoughts driving deep river fear drowning places euthanization legal want live anymore care family feels never consider feel anything theyre old traditionalist christians never deal depression stress social anxiety want fade obscurity cease exist tldr failed lot life matured away home came back home failure okay ill admit casting film really strangepart due plot still bit trouble believing pierce brosnan playing lead though really pretty good jobbr br based true story englishman went live canadian indians early th century claimed mixed blood indian fact successful well thought people came hear lectures taken wilderness trekseven though mixed blood indian knowledge books faked movie centers occurred hoax uncoveredbr br acting settings great really liked film suspended disbelief brosnan widespread distributionprobably pretty cerebralnot bond film romancejust really odd film remarkable man wan na earings grandparents live us house outside old school ans grandparents visit regularly old school parents friends rest family ok need convince lie try let see something long hair hiding much hassle im wearing headphones home times eat togethor dinner table week whats painless way kill myselfive contemplating killing im really want end dont want parents find bad state way less disturbing frick physicals mine look buttnaked questions drugs sex life etc tests cancer screenings nothing close personal okay yep youre definitely going puberty tell parents necessary even sports got cancelled fall theres one way story endi survived escaped abusive relationship years ago id withdrew social situations worse day relationship take gfs mom hospital tried take life medication overdose months later pin gf ground snatch bloody knife hands trying cut wrists threatened frame physical abuse knew move countries drop college spent whole year crippling depression gained lot weight following year finally thought getting back decent life herniated disc able walk properly months now friends keep behaving poorly parents broke relations sister way fulfill professional goals walk properly craving human connection hug someone confide keep getting pain back leg exercise trying quit smoking keep failing im basically worthless individual right way end death im may come naturally im scared ill end taking lire one day mother took see film child 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questions meeting ones chance good day today comments now yooo realized something cool heard dick reach bellybutton youve got decent size mine used view redflag kind punishment moment significanceit people around finally show really inside make feel pain wanted know theyd react see anybody even cared killed think wanted validation maybe wanted know people actually care know anyhow thats gone now really care knows killed really care anybody react see milestone anything ive finally reached point stopped fighting expectation decision eventually leave choice years old now feel good yall movie strikes one successful attempts coming plausible answers nagging questions cropped recent scholarship concerning passion suffering death christ accounts new testament motivated judas money issue bring sanhedrin meet high holy day pilate waffle movie serious thinking christian fans passion christ doubt disappointed lack gory spectacle arch characterization find portrait painted hereof willingness ordinary people blithely sacrifice common decency selfinterest stakefar realistic deeply unsettling disinterested job look face man drives first nail christs wrist chilling moment film film makes claim authenticity settings costuming invariably feel right many highly acclaimed efforts slow film accept selfimposed limits deathnot lifeof christ ultimately rewarding one someone tell love please fucking care actually love need hear fucking done right now want kill live one person hold onto think close letting go please someone tell love girls genuinely confuse asked girl year ago sadly rejected every time give attention starts kind flirting clearly told romance level shes sliding dms confused hell terrible lie hahahaha fuckine love paralelagrams awesome e cool theynfacve world word grams ithem gramcraockers gramcraockers tasty bitch stick hungs unger gramchracters fucktupled size taste smell reminded time everything alive papapa parallel grammms goodbye reddit goodbye teenagers redflag post ive found reddit distracts work ive taken break deleting hope fantastic lives stay positive motivated goodbye everyone discharged hospital definitely want kill myselfi understand perspective ive weeks longer im harder itll go back real world little improved stay things gotten worse meds given anxiety came think redflag every day tried twice life outside safe bubble overwhelming every angle thats want kill real safe place go leave back shit got keep saying cant cope attend emergency room come back know even go home flat im going go straight bridge jump cant make far ill walk traffic feel matter say theyre going believe im serious telling us suicidal gotten comfy hospital true want hospital equally cant face life thought hope getting better despite engaging activities mind gotten worse ill leaving day tomorrow energy ask give least till friday doctor set wednesday stone putting immense pressure agree day want leave go things tried nothing interesting sayim dead inside years best friend said wants nothing ive got one life nothing live reality things going much much worse im obsessing leave planet quickly painlessly possible want comfortable escape back going hate tomorrow got ta sit driving class four hours breaks turn cameras trouble usually hours free sundays churchgoers sitting chair hate shit need remove spine talk everything want talk everything want ask questions ill reply every comment going make fake post aita thats half related something actually happened make part make fit sub im sorry im asking rather stable ram overclock pass memtest tests rather stable ram overclock gain huge performance loses ram hammer test every single time ram vulnerable high frequency row hammer bit flips im bit pickle right now seem lose hammer test every time actual eb expected ceb psychiatrist told hed call psych ward told reddit threw idea psych ward away thankslong story short ive impulses im really really close taking life told psychiatrist one said ok called one day later said realize serious wants safe wants someone call first mom told thats go dad another go psych told hed call psych matter wanted sorry told got reddit safe guardian backed telling great reddit need psych wanted increase talks week twice week thank reddit saved psych ward theyre abusive af tldr told psychiatrist suicidal impulses wanted call psych told reddit safe guardian said ok call psych saw le conseguenze dellamore rotterdam filmfestival first ten films saw therebr br le conseguenze left powerful impression ten films first shot know movie going something special beautiful cinematography left awe done camera music par visuals complementing colorful stylish architecturelike imagesbr br toni servillo plays main character film titta hes tax expert gone wrong lives hotel every week brings suitcase money bank story plays around thisbr br always controlled shows almost emotion anyone looks calculated welldressed habit ignoring people significance example sofia played nicely olivia magnani works barmaid hotel lives although working hotel two years never greets even greet one day confronts next day sits bar instead usual spot window story really begins unfold strong tale love sacrifice mafiabr br spoil rest film see film love stylish movies ones david lynch godfather etc see actionbuff among us discord servers want play people randoms none friends play approaching end line longish texthello let preface saying english first language due length text proofread sorry fragmented text im really planing commit redflag immediate future although designated end line im entirely sure feel need write years beeing miserable suppose theres number reasons stopping procrastinating sharing people might driving force behind desire one hand want present relevant aspects story hand want identity known ill vague regards summary current circumstances im western european male late s late graduated university masters degree computer science hold average paying software engineering live small appartment siblings pets car situation face mother love go details probably enough identify take fix worst problems nose ears probably make roughly plain facewise actually look attractive need least im pretty short man inches average country plain probably cut social sexual experience even might enough point known im ugly become ugly earlier took years realize lost friends got zero interest girls childhood actually quite ok lot friends even girlfriends struggled accept reality way procrastinator sense people procrastinate postponing task piece work postponing final conclusion decade years running red numbers cant recall day worth living true better others never close good enough measure days happy good managed suppress fact unhappy given day justified living days borrowing future happiness tell endure suffering long payout somewhere line never really specified payout happen long somewhat reasonable excuse keep waiting willing keep hanging initially waiting turn finish school start university finish bachelors degree finish masters degree job cant make milestones yeah phd sure save countless years start financing house cant bring believe anymore im getting younger already spent half life alone lonely cant go chasing next elusive milestone anymore many people desire nothing fact born better genetics invested much effort help know attractive people study studying consisted actual studying depressed stupor took much effort still achieve results got im empty cant keep recently noticed less less work done ad work boss notice far tell drags even work ethic one things really proud working summerjobs years ago become increasingly frustrated fact pay huge percentage income taxes mandatory health care etc hardly save couple hundreds month even living extremly frugal hardly benefit either bet people government hand outs health care andor average way happier lives therapy antidepressants years neither really helped besides gained weight became lethargic ssri see point trying either dating tried asking female acquittances fellow students rejection rate tried online dating joke made account dating websites plentyoffish okcupid hardly got message return never got date matters doubt woman want stay getting look face real life made tinder account swiped right everyone till matches run hundreds women several days got one single match bot outlook next summer ill saved enough money first big surgery complicated rhinoplasty hopefully ear surgery latter depend whether loan raise additional money ill likely pay high interest winwin situation works mind slightest paying loan worry anyway plan clear somehow make till next summer hard confident wait one year surgery give dating one try turns physical change severe enough andor personality already damaged beyond repair end life promise follow thats colateral one year borrowed time given detailed thought recently atheroma maybe quarter inch diameter leg cut away sharp knife without anesthesia unpleasant bled lot till taped im confident withstand pain handsonapproach comfortable methods available ill go sleep soon might reread tomorrow add important information slipped mind today life sucks work hard days week lot anxieties child never many friends growing maybe people thought weird shy timid due anxieties home hard growing dad hardly home either working bar coming home late drunk mom used dependent still exhausting keep mind f years old family bullied physically emotionally growing calling kinds names anything little friends hurt friends even family road almost impossible trust people feel unloved insignificant small every time always tried right thing good something always come way destroy even look forward anything anymore trust anything good happen gotten used things crumbling front wake days angry fact woke want end life much coward guess need finally bite bullet folks wake tomorrow one care want drink beer want caught want smell alcohol never relationshiplike feel awkward people talk relationships constantly dont know feel around people keep talking past relationships makes feel alien im accepting itive ok idea taking life many years im f bi polar ive always struggled drugs alcohol never feel anything expecially emotions got sober last year dealing bi polar fucking sucks emotions horrible ive happy times mostly im getting closer day finally end im accepting full heartedly feel terrible people im going hurt betray want anymore im done exactly know im ready go darkness came thanks letting vent counts redflag attempti know normally counts redflag attempt actually ac failing scenario count well suicidal ideation something count redflag attempt person weapon gun knife etc hand cant bring themself upset memy mom got upset said hope die sleep said something dont say something used far vocal still always want die said got shocked write friend diei really want sound emotional attention whore though tendency someone please tell say anything really want say goodbye without feeling obligation anything say anything nobody feel though thing stopping thought someone finding body im starting care less less thati feel clear mind im depressed drunken state feel im done alive feel lonely time cant connect people met girl online talked months became super close nowhere started ghosting explanation want try anymore happy da de los muertossamhain ive seen lot memes saying guys sad spooktober spooktover wanted remind spookiness isnt done yet november st da de los muertos day dead guys still spooky moods making ofrendas dressing katrinas samhain started last night ends tonight still feast leftover candy dullahan next bonfire stove remember safe welcome spirits worlds one staying safe doesnt mean spookiness end neither end october fun recipe tamales httpswwwallrecipescomreciperealhomemadetamales anyone planning drinking death soon reach need help deciding resolution record resolution primary monitor use watching youtube please leave comment resolution often watch youtube ok girls listen girl red listen girl red sweater weather hit something haha jk jk unless real though desperate need someone talk indie rockpop please hear gorillaz still fucking good especially new album love pink phantom momentary bliss jackie chan considered many film martial arts movie fans one greatest action stars grace silver screen police story cemented reputation likely successor late great bruce lee enter dragon bared socalled bench mark lees greatness s said police story jackie chan sbr br forget rush hour trilogy us efforts one film really typifies chans excellence mention kick starting status high kicking bonecrushing kung fu talisman well movie career police story first series successful cop films set mainland present day hong kongbr br ive seen many efforts likewise usbased rush hour rumble bronx medalian tuxedo name frankly many pale insignificance compared police story movies saw less dumbed version jackie opportunity utilise fighting abilities maximum mention fight sequences good efforts drunken master police story name br br stunts movie extraordinary best featured action movie shopping mall scene literally one kind seen believed flying shards glass chan left dangling outside bus walking stick madman frantically drives streets town chan successfully making usage sorts inanimate objects prop devices weapons fight bad guys br br considering known injuring breaking every bone body putting harms way jackies persistence showing versatility stuntman relying one somewhat testament reputation kung fu expert especially bruises show thus proved onetrick pony comes devising coming various clever looking movesbr br storywise much discuss lacks narrative makes endto end action fight sequences dialogue well really huge aspect film fans jackies martial arts films interested action opposed storybr br unlike say matrix wires cgi form computer trickery involved see police story great jackie chan epic full action pulsating stuntsit miles better rumble bronx rush hour american effortsbr br police story excellent film one id definitely recommend anyone novice jackie chan fan unsure one watch first enemies months still together even want bed anymore even tired want sleep think much longer point living trying trust people one person said theyed never hurt go around exact thing understand redflag frowned uponim year old female ive suicidal adult life majority adolescence life terrible ive lost someone care truly want want part society feel unfair ive thrown life expected live born find joy things people life make real connections people really care anything fear everyday rest life going empty quite frankly pointless continue people shoved life selfish one wanting leave god forsaken planet selfish wanting keep even though im miserable really want oh everything better one day see keep trucking really think mindset mood personality hate life hate society bullshit rules pretty much every person ive encountered stay anyone feel way completely apathetic life happens every time tell someone act im crazy loving life burning passion proceed hide knives cant theyre looking sort tore arm boiling trigger self harmi say least angry fucking angry harmed least four years made redflag attempts seven might mighty mind diagnosed depression bipolar disorder pretty young say entered mind though fuck id love bite right now life huge fucking struggle tearing muddy hill im getting god damn place put abusive situation told graduated move put stop abusive situation least physically decided fucking hang little bit longer job im fighting hell money move east coast working shitton hours week buck fifty minimum wage without overtime fuck entertainment fuck everything entertainment primary person position people flake called come shitton work next day d hours everyones schedule money assorted bullshit leaves little time hobbies dicking around fine ive gotten point little makes happy used draw anymore little interest everything ive managed doodle produce comes shit cant put lines save life especially cant right now games pointless repetitive play amount time even sand boxes talking fun im lousy fucking better half interest sewing cant afford sewing machine timepatience needle thread shit result utter crap kept falling apart ive fighting fighting fighting little headway towards moving leech parent love dearly spite bullshit put kicker though least another half year longer move friends called boil point trapped tore arm teeth nails minimal damage remembered used sort shit hate momentary loss self control another rather logical approach biting bullet thats lot easier ignore nailtooth marks maybe im used now idea point really anyone talk upsetdismissive leads getting angry withattacking loss control im shitty person accept im sorry peer group lol im going rant go bed buck morning good sleep much doubt happening tldr trappedtrappedtrappedtraptrappedtraptraptraptrappppedfuckmetrapped situation person id murder painful way possible oh mention leg fucking snare chew bitch thats exactly want right now crush said height starts foot dont talk jokes im literally ive worked hard im tiredi struggled mental illness child remember one point time happy full laughter light energy years gone ive felt hollow sometimes recognize person mirror eyes light world dim dark smiling act used second nature difficult effort takes makes facial expression ugly grotesque chest feels heavy tight constricted deepest breath take gasp feel empty starved relief vast majority wrong choices bad decisions actions unintentionally hurt people done desperate misguided attempts feel something anything besides pain emptiness despair ive never wanted hurt anyone people told keep trying keep fighting say need say devastated want hurt anyone know people love miss want keep fighting sake fellow redditors im terribly tired ive got nothing left either feel numb hollow im much pain constantly makes tremble feel im tortured people ask want want say please tell goodbye please tell love understand hope find rest badly need somebody please tell goodbye somebody please wish well hope find peace find rest im tired looking back jim hensons works years death taking look back another time unlike socalled creative types attempting sell worse yet cynically exploit children nowadays jim never seemed really forget child moment demonstrated labyrinth aside s muppet movie filmed allegorical story henson came work childrens television puppeteer ended halfhour show primetime television muppet movie ends affirmation everything progressive understanding sorts say children quite meet expected norm s enjoy fruits era gagged bound speaking anything lest someone might offended open celebration difference diversity formed large part muppet show offer said comments must say great light world went day jim henson diedbr br muppet movie begins cast sitting see premiere see next eighty minutes short precise strokes introduced major players well minors story proper begins boy given great song bring us moment rainbow connection painted beautiful sad image muppets especially kermit bunch felt puppets singular personalities combined put show living things based upon part us writ much boldly used muppet introduced us turn saw another reflection part course children audience respond differently character everyone favourite animal appeared behind drum kit attempted eat cymbal knew found one mine nowadays swedish chef fan heybr br complementing characters string musical numbers developed motivations personalities picture shared insight dr teeth band well creative soul henson relevant song gonzos number asking came many us spend lifetime gazing stars gonzo saying knew going back someday songs deadly serious course fozzy kermit share number decide combine talent lack thereof hit road evidence required presentday musicians lost ability use pop structure create something listenable number never never group dynamic cast music perfectly complement one another puppeteers voice actors perfectly top game human cast lot live tobr br makes amazing human element lived end deal cameos literally pepper film everyone steve martin telly savalas popping offer support even richard pryor last man one expect see film muppets appears set hilarious moment mel brooks cameo disturbing adult small boy suspect henson knew find disturbing now big acting strength though comes charles durning doc hopper embodies everything henson audience determined resist every junction hopper comes either offer kermit chance sell betray kind perhaps offer stops right word hoppers attempts ensure kermits compliance become progressively forceful violent whole thing one big metaphor every artist heart broken worldbr br course animal shows remind us friends sweet cuddly make less friend point fact animal turns best friend kermit moment core message every good show film henson involved shunning dismissing others simply linguistic cosmetic differences literally worst mistake one makes little doubt todays world moron purple suit tell sons good good feelings fifteen seasons still come serious investigation child welfare authorities hensons creature workshop never got ground misquote album title daring stupid one thing enforcing choice upon others another matter muppet movie demonstrates henson dared ask us think inside outside proverbial box never another entirely never want us stop tryingbr br muppet movie epitome ten ten film send film cosmos prove intelligent life worth obliterated anyone chatting adding body need please ignore bro better cry today dumb shit cant control yes im talking stress okay feel going crazyeveryday feel dreamy state cant escape feel trapped inside box ive cried much cant feel anything anymore reason depression suicidal thoughts stupid drugs gf years broke feel damn crazy losing mind laugh loud sometimes dumb things scared sometimes real reality lose mind point id hurt family members instantly ending life prefer online friends irl friends points annoying thing parents set many fucking restrictions cant even fucking call discord anything ugly hoes post pic ima leave nah bih take whatever post kind stuff rteenagersso today posted advice post titled deserve die bad grades one guy told attention seeker cunt give reason kill guess feel nothing helpsi feeling depression whole life entire childhood tried find place society cant even remember many people left hurting even hurting slowly fade away reality every day completely lose mind many doctors psychologists tried fix broken pieces life gave sort hope slowly turned dust worsen ny conditions every single day think details leave life hardest part question maybe life meant everyone anyone experiencing sort struggle suicidal lonelyive struggling anxiety depression several years kept im lowest ive know wont make dont help dont find happiness anything anymore hate im lonely best friend whos one really feel comfortable around moved away dont anyone talk without feeling guilty im struggling college money relationships im overwhelmed im limit people always say hang things better theyve gotten far worse im drunk hate even ive attempted redflag twice wasted used worried id blackout drunk kill im worried even started plan think redflag constantly feel lost alone want cant deal itim breaking point im failing school ill never girlfriend im never going successful matter end though humanity fucked going hit peak oil soon theres growing threat nuclear war terrorism rise sunspots getting worse everything going pellmell want kill love friends seems way want stress worry go away thought add diagnosed clinical depression possibly severe clinical depression oh thishttpwwwyoutubecomwatchvbblvaqsds philosophy life im starting think possible cant swing away worth living edit ok kill still head plan anything thanks guys might post update glad valentines day really holiday couples love ive never able relate kind sad day im happy got spend someone specially case made sad im glad thats overwith sacred hell playing game accidentally pressed rest mode disconnected id lose progress thankfully game disconnect im uselesshaving panic attack aging ruined mei completely unblossomed im average child became stunning yr thought everyone naturally nice naive really feel loss identity anybody knew tell shocked badly look now im typical hot girl thats going grow ugly s everyone looks better im really lost know living others opinions thats ive unconsciously idk nothing worth besides looks gone overheard mum saying older sister prettier aging better im going kill ive talked school counsellor absolutely refuse go talk stranger problems everyone look eye stare blotchy acne covered skin people thought cared using cant even trust family im going kill probably kitchen knife ive learnt sharpen found pulse neck probably artery flowing blood might stab backyard sound make less likely heard ill exercise cold weather bit effective going bathroom want stench ive never felt form love never received truly family treated trophy feeds look bad hate everyone much including online long text messages idc met anyone real life id revolted pain testicles now months last doc visit examined thats nothing testicle torsion etc etc scared going visit new one today night afraid ill loose young age ok dad kissed hand left school make matters worse im m ugh hate life jesus christ even straight dude uncomfortable read posts thighs filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler think messed first impression crush today okay riding bike go see crush first time wind blowing hair around crazy ruined hair im scared crush think im ugly wont consider dating first impression bad didnt make laugh today slut shaming real issue need stop girls shouldnt called sluts sex entire football team soccer team swimming team wrestling team chess team league club theodore club science club anime club half building services people make slut means shes free spirited values experience body wants sexual history determine worth men need know im worried fellow redditorhello everybody inane discussion askreddit got answer someone worries talking suicidal thoughts tried give advices using situation im worried heres link idea thanks im hypocriteim drunk fuck apologize advance errors know ill regret tomorrow threw husband surprise birthday party today spent lot money lot time lot effort putting together real desire drunk initially getting drunk better idea going another ptsd episode went one one worst around weeks ago know ill regret posting tomorrow know irrational side control point rational enough harm im hypocrite want help others give try words wisdom dont actually shit together cant even help let alone someone minor inconvenience work im bridge im tired always treated last option im good filling gapsive realized life always suck ill never happy stick around better doesnt mean will gets worse dont want live find im bridge seconds one step sleep peace forever tried calling mom usually helps calm didnt answer feel alone feel failure death way fix im waiting people leave go peace ive many close calls think time foreal holei feel one hear feel disgusting im trying find ways hurting right wrongs hate skin apart inferior race earthblack ugly acne made want kill even body disgusting avoid mirrors gay worthless added stress ruining life hate natural feelings sick wrong born cursed feel alone untouchable jealous normal good looking people see couples walk sad dont deserve shitty card god hates everything wouldnt give switch make normal instant still im scared kill fear messing dont want make mom sad depressed wish older brother athlete married christian kid moms favorite hes everything family wanted follow killing give family gratification knowing faggot got deserved eternity hell heard hateful shit life know kind deserves end im tired waiting im sorry long post anybody reading crying nothing im changing sexuality im going fucking conversion camp done world worthless makes sick want somebody sometimes somebody cares awake im tired feeling sack meat dragging across floor day deserve fate murderers rapists fucking hate anything requires math numbers mean cant anymorenobody cares nobody really cares youre dead world favor need help crush someone im scared text answer text count aight listen please dont assume personality andor make fun people based music taste im lonely miss wan na talk someone dunno howa year ago took job easily gotten wanted february wanted city knew gon na laid nothing recently broken girlfriend swore stay single got settled new job physically training big getting shape buddies girlfriend called told throwing surprise birthday party wan na go wanted go swim friend years even though wan na go went anyway saw girl magnificent way outta league high school always called fat ugly think chance girl beautiful scheduled leave september march figured try told pal set us triple date hit wanted make sure wasnt gon na play made little challenges idk seemed worth feeling made set christmas tree one challenges told much tree looked crap laughed whole time still thought beautiful finished tree sat next talked hours night started dating one day told job leave family still city id back wasnt leaving september wanted stay told perfectly fine week later broke cried phone broke next time saw acted still together called job asked leave soon possible wan na home anymore moved june getting ready leave told cried left going back relationship september rolled around ignored asked still alive proceded tell met someone broke heart girl wanted girl offered give job cheated picked smoking time sitting smoking december friends got text message really long message loved wan na hurt stuff bought called never slept together whole time want things complicated never pushed girl meant id work one time outside smoking work overlooks ocean one cooks came realized thinking looked said gon na thinkin many people sad though hurt anyone cant know anyone felt gone well dont wan na see mom id going couldnt handle goin away forever cant bring jumping recently started talking find last week one night stand guy took virginity never knew virgin forgot tell part started dating year months months together guy important hes fucked shes coming back cant listen songs reminds see pictures anything brings seeing face wants friend cant much planned future im tell everyday kid things better cant even drink yet meet people older family really wan na im good hours til start missing family friends wan na go home cant im neck debt caused stupidity im young hang friends work im lonely im gon na hurt said couldnt bring dont wan na keep waking depressed every morning wish life simple wan na wake years later took test says im pretty damn depressed know need go see shrink realize im depressed dont need someone tell hide good enough front everyone think im always happy always say idk always damn hyper always great mood reason really inside im torn although people know low self confidence level dont trust anyone hard believe anyone believe kids high school said ugly know im fat anymore though alot people say im im cute cant build courage meet new people dont even know going guys tips advice please help manga life supporti think dead without weekly releases thank manga time favorite thing good thing love argue friends family even though im wrong im trying stop guys realize youre getting older almost extra conscious age think started turned got older older kind felt old im child anymore longer feel years old feeling suicidal scared againhere go feeling extremely compelled continue kill whats point living horrible moods horrible self im struggling hold life dont think worth anymoreim severely depressed unhappy aspects life worth anymore im alone dont want alive im miserable friendly discord made discord server want see people join made starter hoping suggestions improve put invite link pinned comment hope join fun want one go young really anyone look dreams already crushed years ago parents family constantly makes fun people really care important nobody nobody really supports wish parents told loved seriously wish one person told loved meaning dreams goal never come true childish mind mine bullied young done everything wish painless way die really hope die sleep tonight fucking hate people say shit art meaning people try analyze everything scribbled pice paper deep shut pretension ass artist everything deep sometimes want draw alvin alvin chipmunks alcoholic funny wife emotional physical affair may never know trying rebuild keep screwing upi much pain right now spent much time er check got dark place tonight want want alone scares shit commit tax fraud im going tell commit tax fraud filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler fille ngl im kinda upset im upset name kira associated jojo instead death note wow finally jim carrey returned died movie laughing crying sends message know learn jeniffer aniston great finally hit movie belt liked liar liar love movie give grandpa die covid title yo grandpa die covid within next hours cant even bid farewell man filled void left parents divorce split asshole father im totally heartbroken j know hey everyone fuck luv lt one supposed situationwhen enjoy anything literally everything becomes tedious miserable given small amount time supposed feel capacity happiness way capacity agony feel basic complex pleasures feel enraptured feel complete long simple direct stimulation causing feelings lasts feel alleviation boredom certain things short time everything makes feel miserable world hurts supposed escape die mental break hearing chadwick boseman relizing going worse words encouragement please math fucking awesome im sayin might fucking suck grade may low damn dont love popes zit felt really good end thinking week maybe im psychotic fatherinlaw committed redflag best way help wifei know best subreddit ask found fatherinlaw committed redflag shockedsadangry mostly worried wife best way support best terms know feeling guilty recommendations ive done ive achieved maximum djent wanted play specific song guitar tune string ebeadgb leaving high e need neither snark phone tuner pick sound lowest string anymore hell amps built tuner hardly play peak performance examine issueso years old born live malaysia government approved citizen law required complete documents parents granted citizenship living stateless person now basically cant legal job passport bank account driver license tried everything beg government theres nothing treated illegal immigrant country guys still telling redflag option smh wake fall asleep fall asleep wake uphelp answer need help help finding love pleaseanyone survey videogame genres watch play pls take graduation depends yeah title says id appreciate fill really need data really easy short unless play watch videogames id say fill im mom link id make gay joke want keep straight face please helpeta tldr tried everything probably going suggest help situation improveand still things every dayand none helps im writing feel im supposed thats actually even expect anyone respond offer kind realistically helpful advice apologies title dramatic guess first started typing thinking sound sure even though minute start typing trying verbally tell someone going emotions inside shut hell stop momentarily turns cant talk anymore really much pain unbearable sort sobbing right feel ache inside indescribable done everything name tried countless therapists tried varieties psychotherapy tried therapy per week twice per week every week month took hiatuses cbt personbased therapy spiritual therapy even whole dbtfocused program specific sixmonth group program survivors sexual assault male therapists female therapists network near far away young old psychiatrist twoyear period tried total sixteen different psych meds absolutely nothing helped got four five classes drugs apparently superincredibly medicallyphysically sensitive take half minimum dose anything prescribed even still kept falling people rare freaky side effects everything two years experimenting pysch meds basically consistently sick hell always battling side effects never able keep healthy meds work period hospitalized evaluated depression suicidal threatsideation planned kill gotten point telling thentherapist going id hiding plans decided really help anymore agreed seek treatment someone ended hospital met people felt clicked inhospital fucking hospital live alone fit family point mother acknowledges cries phone saying wishes different everyone things hard labeled everything borderline highly sensitive think deeply extremely conscientious sensitive towards others well sensitive made hard interpersonal relationships find constantly disappointed inafraid people exacerbated fact three abusive relationships one psychopath sexually abused daily basis three years choked suffocated closet floor four months relationship despite actually put pretty huge effort trying unsuccessfully make friends joined five meetupcom groups years ago went ton events work formed meetupcom group organized events work volunteered social work program requiring training group volunteers county result friendships either work tough soul speak forced active facebook despite hating said yes social invitations got including every work gathering party acquaintances etc done online dating via three different sites forced send emails go dates possible even house regularly walk dog engage community activities participate family functions even though particularly hard deal none helped alone friendless isolated anyway feel single human life really knows understands wants close friend even tired making huge monumental efforts strengthen existing relationships acquaintances andor start new friendships social ventures fails eventually tired stable steady career fortunate enough know last quite even shitty economy though make ton money means okay especially without spouse kids job highly highly demanding stressful often feel drowning workload enjoy lately feel level commitment required something im sure keep used every single sick vacation day available fight keep hospitalization wraps needed use sick days feel example though honestly go work tomorrow perform par really stay home anymore either know going make much longer feel hospital psychiatrist gently pushed go shortterm disability budget little tight lately feel career redflag job kind take break without serious consequences attached absence domino effect lot things people feel agree hospitalized went shortterm disability treatment work anyway years stuff either risked career result conceivably come back disability job insurance s mom told today tears supposed best years life feels terrible much pain really believe better spent significant portion time researching redflag last two years methods picked honing emotions gut deal keep trying resolve go already cant handle idea dog given away total strangers moment thing keeping period sometimes think dog dies absolutely immediately kill feel goal anymore every time nerve talk someone stuffwhich rare anymorethe person ends acknowledging really really done things supposed cases says something wish help wish something tried work often exasperated sigh end conversations now person realizes nothing really worked really nothing suggest help anymore feelings hopelessness pretty much charts much want die figure somehow understand first placeit seems complete glitch mistake someone sensitivity inability belong even born first place believed god cruelest possible thing imagine someonethrowing world possibly handle know feel choking breath half time sick saying things hi short years earth many trials triumphs life seems getting progressively worse best life already feel lived lifetime worth experiences due trauma experienced life sexual emotional physical abuse stabbed someone attacked mallet due bullying involved police chase surviving car accident addict addicted alcohol age last year age deaf left ear birth survived surgery survived many illness infection young child revived birth due oxygen loss severe bullying around suicidal episodes last year many prior managed obtain ncea lvl even though kicked school due sevely bullied everyone hate many fun sexual experiences done pretty crazy one kind stuff seen done things alot people etc always made sure live every day last live fearless lived life edge fullest although lonely sad alot due redflag past trauma things starting look around last year acquired good job wonderful partner sc ironically car accident mins dropped friends place stayed mine met person night relationship prospered crash made become clean alcohol drugs thought prospect career family always wanted raise children live farm countryside etc life changed worst nowinitially illness started jan th awoke vivid nightmare drenched sweat auditory hallucination diahorrea vertigo derealizationconfusion brainfog shivering chills went back sleep went away within day time went holiday suffered vertigo ear pain car ride initial sickness appear feb th got bad flu wsore throat vertigo ear pain coughing running nose chills diahorrea etc feb th suffered derealization severe brainfog crying sadness redflag rem sleep issues falling sensation jolts awake flashing behind eyelids hypnogogic hallucination constant vivid nightmares every night head pressure diahorrea excessive urination shortterm memory loss bunch stuff around early march came psychotic ocd presentation delusion developing shitzophrenia intense fear constantly googled sort stopped derealization died bit left andeonia complete loss emotions severe depression mood swings came ministrokeseizures severe brainfog happened around start last month every time getting memoryloss long term shortterm almost dementia memory loss developed internal vibration currently symptoms slight brainfog internal vibration dementia memoryloss vivid nightmares still hypnogogic hallucination upon waking minor head pressure crying sadnesssevere depression complete loss emotional enjoyment life loss track time going around inability retain information loss imagination hair thinning easily bruising loss libido abdomen pain months illness shts getting worse many blood tests tried different diets meds help mood none symptoms tried therapy ct scans head wo contrast tried heaps nothing works personally think maybe autoimmune encephalitis due virus covid maybe sure yeah pre much fed atm girlfriend long distance stuck flys live today family lives comes every school holidays love much says loves supports till death keeping alive struggles issues feel useless dead example nana dementia home look eyes life gone soul lost mind trapped within body imprisons feel atm want go forever feel life emotions feel severaly disconnected everything impaired cognitive function well experiencing symptoms daily always different insight life feel always thought felt different others idk feel special world sometimes wonder alive everyone figure imagination idek haha plan spend last weeks feel better see reason continue end sorry words wall text prolly need life story want make sure story read atleast someone goas many know dog eat dog world weakness tolerated strongest survive unfortunately longer strong man really yeah crying afraid death asking happened ages every night alone realise maybe good go first experience much suffering bad live generally die alone world strange place atm full pain narcassism suffering corruption tried talking parents provide guidance tell accept fate yeah idek p thanks reading far btw god bless year old male life dying seems reliefi constantly feel trapped pointless life thoughts killing push way head im man asking help difficult suicidal thoughts cant tell anyone herehey history depressive episodes suicidal thoughts fortunately managed ok last years ago right im husband month old visiting sister family parents theres bit culture clash im managing trying deal small comments us first time parents people respecting need sleep things seems trained one nap full nights sleep either dragging around everywhere im losing mind trying deal seems petty small straw tonight sat backyard holding screaming daughter wanted set drown pool cant tell husband birthday tomorrow cant tell friends hardly fucking sucks say life sucks think mehey im years old ive done lot stupid things think right now loving family parents try support life choices brother happen hobby lot fun hobbies together everytime look future see reason stay alive job really want education want follow everything boring know ive said hobby near realistic job option think worth living eather cant income atleast something figger tried lot things afthere time keep dropping next school year ive got nothing nothing job school money plan parents cant understand quiet mad finishing education im left nothing day normaly called crazy complaining anything othere reason kms mentioned beginning ive done quiet stupid stuff basically lost friends mistakes ive made example went japan best friends acting childish annoying got back friend never wanted talk ive got noone im mostly left lonely today ive desided finally put end good bye live happy life fellow dudes normal neck match chest checked im male im underweight im nowhere near overweight crossed past underweight range im kinda proud except neck wide body literally bones showing chest neck face seem way chubby match normal posture ive studying head tilted low august around hours day eat junk food twice week much quantity jaw widening know puberty something bad point friends point notice exclusively making look mention though drink coffee every days around tablespoons sugar look suit physique seem healthy something deserves visit doctor making look real bad photos face neck look almost joined reversible give time push puberty hey yes lets dm want make friends always dont dry lt sexual relations woman unless woman turned mother sexual relations im sure sayits constant pressure bullying family im youngest years old older sisters older brother everyone says siblings siblings point im constantly put every day constant physical verbal emotional put downs dont know always target love parents sit nothing stop im fed dont want anymore school escape even though see sometimes school mum knows struggle mental health feels one cares nothing changes im emotionally drained wont better parents wont stop despite talking problems tale two sisters janghwa hongryeon true masterpiece brilliant psychological thriller heartwrenching drama gripping horror wrapped one beautifully orchestrated package intricate plot beautiful cinematography absolutely perfect casting every aspect film extraordinarybr br fear revealing much concerning plot say satisfying may appear little difficult understand first good job explaining things end whether prefer psychological thriller drama horror promise disappointedbr br technical standpoint nearly flawless set cinematography lighting especially soundtrack captivating waltz seemed odd choice first proved ingenious choicebr br casting talking absolute perfection im sujeong totally convincing defiant yet troubled sumi mun keun yeong equally convincing emotionally traumatized sister suyeon two girls magical screen certainly looking films yeom jeongah deceitfully cheerful hauntingly evil stepmother finally kapsu kim gives excellent performance weary broken fatherbr br truly love film yet see tale two sisters strongly recommend locating copy real gem worthy anyones collectionbr br hallo ich bin marcel davis leiter kundenzufriedenheit bei amp seit jahren arbeite ich bei amp hi wan na drop say something one friend love gender love mean love point bf gf equivalent best friend bestest best friend kind friend texts hours felt minutes flown type friend laughs even find funny visi versa type friend tell even tiniest things gecko floor bird tree type friend helps never tries flex friend heshe city heshe country heshe abroad anywhere moment realize got friend realize got almost everything piercing im whim morning nipple piercings ill regret trouble lemon tea amp weezer filler filler filler filler someone read leave goodthe plan ready ready action week tldr im going end week im good enough normal human anymore going read story love change thing contextstory late selfesteem issues excited finally prove helicopter mom best grade possible despite always eyes enough looks overall percentage fast forward graduation day low behold graduated stunning subjects overall percentage gift ministry education top s city congrats got mad brother top s hell broke loose us beyond mad hell almost fainted rage thought applied university away home bit everything fine boy wrong two years tried every trick book manipulation straightup domestic violence make go med school getting rejected every university country nationality said country alltime low first attempt work obviously fast forward late brother managed find education opportunity neighboring country moon set plan dad go paperwork ready mom manipulated dad take us home country seek unattainable educational opportunity already accepted neighboring country stuck sick early mom using connections got physical therapy major unverified university refused attend told brother ready leaving neighboring country somehow dad discovered plan insisted coming us agreed notify mom got university already started month paperwork requested start next year fair start two weeks finals dad let us live alone thought around finally heal fair chance boy wrong discovered years abuse mental torture mostly due genetics memory problem forgotten almost everything learned high school short memory basically goldfish level started university majoring geology already got really popular professors nice forgetful dude luck crashing hard mom decided live six months stress anxiety got fs c one b basically failing got diagnosed prime immune deficiency due covid mom left alone got back home destroying pretty hard life constant messages told gotten med school look failing miserably decided life worth living anymore got covid die fast anyway plan ready week evil destroyed dreams ability achieve dream whats point anymore barely every day constantly forgetting stuff crying sleep anyway thank reading kind person im come back brink stress put body caused lasting painthis kind weird question night almost hung im trying feel better feel intense stress put night caused adverse effects body chest feels going burst heart constantly pounding psychological trauma cause things happen anyone felt go hospital im already least planning see psychiatrist dont know anymoreits awhile ive felt shit im year old college student cant take living anymore entered college health science major hopes one day becoming doctor maybe try help people anyway ive terrible depression years freshman year college life felt pretty good everything new reinvent fucked within half year freshman year cut almost everything social life personal life personal health pretty much everything focus studying hard trying good grades didnt work matter much try terrible classes nothing show last weeks even stressful normal cant take anymore gave friends relationship family personal health ive gained almost pounds longer exercise eat anything aside shit food feel im slowly dying stress class work along worsening physical mental health feel trapped life see way ill dying matter hard try never shack depression suicidial thoughts ive tried medication therapy little avail ive wasted life want stop now parents fighting today another day parents fighting mum asked dad buy snacks going buy groceries said fight started went yelling mum threatening something means kill throwing stuff around im kinda used never fails ruin day make feel depressed fuck parents raised healthy way mum always told inside home go made really anti social naive dad always demoralised hit lot dad today bipolar disorder heart disease diabetes mum disease ig say shes bit unstable love parents know fighting battles fighting makes feel trapped cant kill take care family cant solve problem two twin brothers im really concerned witness seem anger issues mum threatened redflag took knife hand screaming went outside follow convince come back home whenever confront says doesnt mean things says anger understand holy fuck significant impact mother fucking knife hand ready hurt scariest thing im im india last year school corona fucked im already stressed future idk situation im trapped feel really suffocated cant take anymorei cant eat cant drink cant sleep head hurts time feel lonely cant take anymore im sick crying sick always left wan na die please wan na die want sleep never wake im smashing breaking everything angry control time lonely cold cant hold really cant want die life doesnt worth living live every single breath hurts oh god feel something really heavy chest keeps breathing lonely fucking lonely one absolutely one im cold low key tho making anon amateur p n gf bf kinda relationship g l s im saying relationship comfortable sharing love low key relationship goals even want seems thing youd pretty loving relationship today wake moms phone call crying vacation tells something attacked dove saved left blood feathers chest feels someone sitting feel sad empty full pain sure sounds stupid hurts bad feel dead inside hurts much bird killed redflag others comforts methat sounds terrible retrospect let explain seeing posts people going saying disappearing makes idea easier dunno weird guess makes feel pool bigger ill seem even smaller comparison people care slightly less im tired im confused im lonely wish nothing thanks grandma cool grandma reminded stupid childhood trauma severely messed cant stop suicidal thoughts ill fine need help someone talk know im coward commit anything year lastit interests see year die new years eve perhaps feel bad wanting die see many people worse melike sometimes wish escape time real reason theyre intrusive thoughts brains running feel severe im thankful time feel stupid feeling first place ppl clearly worse im afternoonive showered shaved dressed go walk park maybe something lunch eaten anything meds two days now drink stupidly little amount alcohol water ive gone bed im going sit tree write rest need write directly address people care say im accord hope find happiness somewhere love even though know valuable find lonely theres somebody lonely im sorry j mostly miss nowi know correct place post remove failing redflag confusing overwhelming feeling left even drained began even know possible tried kill days ago spotty vision pounding head ignited carnal stupid impulse tear belt away neck now tell someone call someone pretend never happened days ive stowed away everyone let music tide night im alone guilt pathetic raw feel confused feel conflicted know fuck say think now im fucking alone know us trapped shitty little worlds fuck man hate feeling fucking way now hanson brothers andy apparently act together hank clearly act together need money andy comes scheme dough consequences whole hanson familybr br film delivers layered fullblooded roller coaster ride knows exactly crime drama thriller happily compare country old men films ample supply character drama thrills devil thriller side fast pace country colder bleaker film really admire devil bit enjoyable definitely less violence devil country acting delivers well ethan hawke sometimes wooden past brings jitters sweating deerintheheadlightslook besieged hank philip seymour hoffman andy films hardest scenes fast becoming actor believe anythingbr br theres really much wrong film jumps back forth without confusing events spiral control film never writing first timer kelly masterson directing veteran sidney lumet editing stay tight drum many categories award caliber stuff though maybe films departed country squeezed one limelight liked film first acquaintance talents chris cooper deeply impressed character played knew saw film great things come gifted actor plays union captain along couple enlisted men foraging eastern kentucky happen upon farm sesech woman whose husband chosen go confederacy br br portrayal eastern kentucky seriously divided sentiments war accurate looking war film lot blood guts looking drama explores psychology peoples war actually philosophically best study divided loyalties affected interaction peoples border states americas civil war im suffering inside badim almost mild cognitive disability iq around ocd major depressive disorder severe anxiety officially diagnosed potentially bipolar disorder psychiatrist said severe anxiety cant drive lose control bladder operate motor vehicle difficult cognitive issues ive sex havent sex almost years dont job live rural area dont drive keep getting rejected remote jobs positive side best supportive family entire world love much basically sleep day havent wanted survive anymore really need game plan ive tried going office vocational rehabilitation help worth jack shit personal feeling divorce movie politicalhistorical underpinnings many american reviewers tend growing main street usa growing yugoslavia time torn east west guys torn esther everybody esther torn tovarish joe guys shame certain situations lost audience never lived tito feel movie underrated bad lost director movies make freedom feel important another eastern european coming age filmit sensitive portrayal teenagers walking fine line might eventually lead real freedom self promotion college scholarships money work organization looking find kids scholarships theres raffles big job opportunity interested please dm post goes cant post let know ill take right away yes im teen lol sleeping woke feel sleepy idk mean slept six hours probably okay guess mom shopaholic im know call besides shopaholic go shopping random things buys specific things latest kick starbucks cups absolutely despise shell complain enough money important things braces food go onto facebook buy bunch cups around may even thats ive seen ive alive phase buy leggings lula roe stopped turned pyramid scheme done thing times buy beanie babies alive time think deal stress even reason find something release stress berating sisters either whole thing reminds much dislike mother horrible post mostly annoyed stressed thats shes wasting money cups shell never use family thought intervention never act know shell never listen pretend victim hope phase ends soon dont hear complain money spend cups long story short mom going phases buying specific things release stress complaining money disgrace familyim years old live town opposite side state family theyre providing funds complete education university near ive almost year ive done nothing waste life away piss poor grades dropped two three classes failed class fail class two others officially put knife federal aid education pissed away tons money textbook answers cant bring anything help im failure im watching life fall around flames cant muster power anything whats wrong failure cant whats best instead sit around nothing day stoned avoid problems cause pain love even good whats point existence act im kind human wants help others really care anyone im manipulative lying good nothing going nowhere fast im disgusting ugly loser cant even help self im waste existence im disgrace family life whats point anymore whats point living theres nothing live deserve ive given ive wasted life deserve second chance deserve die waste air watching old trisha paytas videos miss abd golden age teens think school shootersserial killers cool please go commit die want hair rico nasty people curly hair know lot curly hair help shaved sides head hair long enough one problem lion hair ltc hair gt keep googling thin hair keep coming dead ends good idea help want kms hair frustrating help mom leans emotionally comes father relationship financial issues etci dealing lot personally outside family stuff top feel trapped honestly went see counselor college thought got routine going fine extremely judgemental scolded coming college regularly believe things told left go counselor times abusive relationship ended still felt vulnerable scared leaving place told feel ready stop said nothing point feel nothing nobody feel emotionally trapped know go anymore nobody depressed sounds death fucking close friends may long postrant want emphasize angry sad right now started last week friend said going take break social media ok night multimillionaires ig live saying cut friends successful im grinding basically friend blocked less day blocked jokingly way fooling around unblock minutes days asked done break nigga left fucking read cant explain simple words angry got shit alot knows text waits ages respond always making excuses cant stay late takes long respond think lying now anymore long ago stuck together glue made story guy talking made feel upset insecure asked talk responded minutes saying yeah ok sorry active ig lately told story responded hours said ok sorry got root canal thing always support especially emotionally wanted see react need emotional help even try dumbass says sorry wtf past days talked minutes always pm reason waits day almost yesterday texted saying wan na ask summ want answer honest possible waits fucking hours say mhm tell interested talking anymore know saw said responded yet probably pm always know hurts even fact texting dumbass crush making tiktoks watching fucking netflix instead talking knowing hurts even never told showed angryupset gets think annoying wrong shit told love friend became close months know alot shit know means alot vise versa tell shit miss stuff pissing fuck really want friendship end think clear give flying fuck even always helped feel used water bottle shit kept drinking using need emotionally anymore done threw away sorry thats bad analogy know mean one time need well actually need emotional help wanted see react best goofy ass sorry even try yes know already said already really good friend know feel alone past days crying much cry alot getting fucking angry think yesterday worst feel alone im even going tell going rub annoyingshes fucking annoying one sorry end little rant reading appreciate much reading getting end please tell fix friendship love miss person much im trying make friendship end f admitted psychiatric ward scarred tell story im prolific writer regardless anyone willing listen remains found please comment ill started im girls im useless broke boyfriend want die broke boyfriend year half small crush another guy felt unfaithful liking guy ended regret much want back boyfriend know hurt want back really feel soul mate regret breaking im depressed hurting last night accidentally burned burning paper scratched chest scissors thought killing hoping send message really regret prove truly love puppy watching whole time reason im still im really scared want end life want make pain stop back feel want anymore please anyone anything say please say im really positive hurt help reasons date least six beyblades im still waiting im still waiting hot elf appear front gf continue lyrics great edgy teenage years got time got time live got time live cant say goodbye got english exam tomorrow joined single english class online class started intentionally join classes lets say bit stupid im wondering join exam dont idea taught class shoot house shipment back ahhhh back lets goooooooooooooooo time grind damascus cant anymoremy anxiety gets worse day day feel black cloud circles around never cry cry cant anything talked doctors therapists im anti anxiety anti depressants dont help im scared eat sleep fear sick matter many times say irrational stupid cant thoughts head know cant kill self id never able fuck cant say want live much longer recent thing irrational fears dumbest stuff taken life feel cant anymore dont know ok post im planning taking life someone talk nice today daydamn realize fast time going funny last month actually fun knowing itd end end going end life last post hope bitch whole seek help reach thing work outi literally understand much family family far away cant much talk ive talked lot always talk make better brain bad fiance good helps hes tired cant save yknow holds panic attacks makes sure know im getting psychosis anything lol cant make panic attacks alleviate anxiety cant take away im wits end ive breakdown last hours brink days im kinda calming enough type stop thinking im gon na everyone says reach seek help ok gon na take long time see professional cuz go regular doctor even getting appointment see takes least weeks go hospital last time tried checked bc waiting room made super anxious yes go therapy every day getting worse every second felt shift work today fuckin years long standard hours nothing bad even happened chill day felt trapped idk feel cant wait weeks reach please tell last cry help absolutely go deep end know mental health know feel short matter time fall apart entirely months please help stop please want help story almost got gf months ago around july classmate f chatted know hows going back ff never really close kinda strict boyfriend time months chat around late early boyfriend see chatted kinda abandoned unknown reasons never gave enough details chatting told likes crush happy told kinda liked well never called bf gf want dunno kinda friends months chatting told longer crush told crush serious im happy crush know earth means think crush fun something yeah thats felt kinda numbed happened im happy sad dunno simply care stuff crushes gfs etc anymore care im longer even interested crush somethin thanks reading post hope nice day night sister teaching dad tiktok dances guys help edit step mom help getting hand die ways redflag war naturallyand contempt idea end one needs know one even though may care place young man express stuff act inner peace haunting yet calming live thoughts forever end life end life whatever happens happens thats ok every time argument boyfriend want die fair himtitle feel frustrated wanting die every little minor inconvenience big argument fair cant tell feel isnt right worry bringing something want kill want pain stop dont know want die always happens dont see getting better fair watched video yt high school hung bullied obsessed watching videos people dying wish person diedtoday wrote following notebook death peaceful tired shitty life pretty sure death peaceful asleep wo dreams idea kill wish go path one day want say sorry fucking done pain pain depression pretty sure ok normal crying hours minutes nowill able end long days teen programmers please friend need guysguynts life life meaninglessthe woman mattered decided wants another man planning kill self met made feel began love gone another cold painful day wake lay bed hours unable cry sleep want deal pain anymore easiest painlessly way itplease save heart ache worth mind made im losing family created actions familys actions shared information something relationship truly understand shouldnt shared asked treat differently started treating shit disrespected make matters worse lied telling months bestfriend fianc looking feeling stupid past told truth fight want son life point go back time lot shit take bac eveyythjgv ive done maybe never involved family miss son time cry sleep cry waking want pain stop wish killed decade startedi chance decided reason proceed plan successful year part path success finding job fund success want dont think im getting job even though im considered interview ups store im regretting decision stay alive year disaster disappointment suck period im ugly im stupid way live decent life throwing dreams trash going college live lame lonely adult life think im going kill right even knowive made set conditions mind going kill believe fine may snap break conditions comfort worries one knows want anybody know exist society possible boy girl neither need know sexually identify floofy furry looking willing members ampxb trying make metroidvania game due lack experience aspects sheer size planned game alone currently members team ubattleblockbss people needed programmer help battleblock someone deal animations someone help sprites someone help music someone help environments atmosphere ampxb know pay people work passion project think might hang latermy dad got fight candlehe smell cinnamon told light anymore fall asleep burn house despite never laying bed light watch tv browse internet candle always site light makes room smell better smells humid musty hardwood floors told fall asleep lite got arguing said useless mooch called lazy sleep told lost job blamed anyways sleeping complained found job yet suck money away told feeling sad guess ill sad hanging planning hang closet belt may leave note saying im going wasting money anymore ill later night comes later goes bed find process hopefully ill dead soon way im wasting money stay home plays sobs uncontrollably blood thinners booze razora culmination teen angst melodrama depression lead bed crying first time years listening brand new gosh im deep different run mill got broken im sad post called buddy today tell still love long past ex theyve still fucking around used lied hurts specifically cheating hurts fifth th relationship ive cheated first one stung first person one pushed dope road ive gotten unfortunately second one hurt much third one started comical raising questions haha fuck whats wrong fourth happened entirely numb fifth really instilled new sense absolute hopelessness course thats issue childhood filled mental abuse crippling mental illness obviously made contributions wanting commit redflag twelve three failed attempts complete lack close friends speak problems help id never able vocalize find right words explain going head motivation seek professional either way im spill whole life story wanted soapbox stand groan vain last words leave mark small may regrets left large enough mark nothing value created book written painting finished drawings built things ive wanted life theres nothing show accomplishments exactly mean much dead become bird smol cute learn fly freedom lets try againposted left personal details willing try little transparency even sure post much going post bear ill give condensed version yo female two years ago open marriage dissolved amicably possible im gay left husband best friend woman family disowned moved different city got decent job year psychotic episode hospitalized awhile diagnosed bipolar obsessivecompulsive features upon eventual return work bad reaction medication began seizures go disability able take antipsychotics reason stuck mood stabilizer less effective long car totalled long found girlfriend cheating quite time nowhere go resolved stay relationship history ibs managed symptoms point unmanageable last year underweight many many diets suggested doctors specialists medication effective sensory processing disorder diagnosed young lucky resources cope now biggest sensitivity sound sometimes clothes altogether unbearable heavy lifting always coping mechanism severe skin problems psoriasis eczema keep breaking dermatologist calls stress rash body incredibly painful times impossible move today swelling severe arms cant put shirt struggling finding appropriate medication heart murmur many new generation antihistamines negatively effect lost disability coverage november living savings amazed impossible job apply jobs indeed bottom posting things people applied job bachelors graduate work cant even interviews minimum wage positions overqualified ive tried applying without listing background dice currently substitute teacher jobs far countys system december managed one work entire time one day work three monthsthinking filing bankruptcy stopped seeing therapist name debt month going able make even minimum payments note ive unemployment office joke grateful place live gf familys house hours day party house spd overload fever pitch due chaos nights sleep said heavy lifting always helped cope weak able eat hardly lift anything homeless think ten years ago much better health gets unbearably hot mean people die every summer regularly gets cool night current state health know survive future look good meditate every day used work yoga times possible level physical pain weakness keep gratitude journal know lot grateful try write every day things seem really bleak feel might advice find online somebody somewhere cares even change please comment care hardly qualifies odd perceptions therapist calls returning worse stress feel scared helpless stop read lot learned helplessness nothing actually helpless want note brother committed redflag years ago know happens aftermath know hard know hellish know many hells might one anyone clue survive ayo females around age hi believe low scores movie probable reason low number votes meaning people seen simply fantastic movie many stories interwined within complicated character grows movie experience undergoing life changes scenery simply amazing end credits best movie seen shakespeare play yes little dated filmed issues characters face current filmed without modifications story line raul julia amazing best role movie signature piece young molly ringwald excellent matures girl young woman susan sarandon perfect young carefree woman john cassavetes force puts together favor find movie view enjoy come back imdb score movie top time really belongs young woman comes home town husband passed away accident barely settles small town shortly loses little son kidnapping hopes lead kinds following plots normal movie find new partner happy finally depressed enough struggle finally kill try kill series severe fights god trusts god find god seems forgive everyone even killer well careful god movie mean thing god way movie deals issue quite interesting womans point view gods perspective way lots grass growing clouds flying views suppose rather third partys eye movie let us perceive explain thingbr br movie interesting woman theres man whos everywhere around woman obviously love way hes funny guy clown say shamelessly hangs around heroine combination two woman full tension crying throwing always man smiling talking stupidly ends good balance emotions nothing absurdly wrong tediousbr br highly recommend ngl eating noobs jkjk outer limits brilliant show part leaves strong emotions undoubtedly stinkerepisodes essentially old pulpcomic turned tvshow expected part excellently done well produced directed often featuring bigname talent seem enjoy working solid translation short fiction hour long television formatbr br outer limits tends focus rather large ethicalphilosophicalmoral questions rarely ends without voiceover intciting serious thoughtbr br timetotime themes hammered little bit heavily thickheaded viewers additionally certain level distrust government conducive effective democracy unluckily catch several episodes backtoback border absurd regards distrust armycia etc one note large group power roman catholic church evangelicals peoples republic china cast bad light frequency ranging oftenbr br show beat dead horse watched enough overall quality astounding im grateful scifi decided continue airing produce seasonbyseason dvd set afford today kinda great im us trump president good friend fixed pc talking hours discord wrote random girl know irl played among us class total bitch actually nice good time shit happened im happy today greystoke legend tarzan lord apes based classic book tarzan apes edgar rice burroughs faithful adaptation classic book film great scenery jungles south africa greystoke mansion acting great chirstopher lambert great performance tarzan first english speaking role film funny moments sad moments touching moments makes real classicbr br film sees boat crashing jungles south africa time later son named john apes go hut one kills father apes take live adopt one years go john grows learns apes teens foster mom gets attacked native hunters soon killed years later group people going africa expedition setting camp theyre soon attacked natives escape capitaine phillippe darnot left behind injured arrows hiding meets john adult takes home takes care wounds phillippe starts teach john speak english teach hes one apes person phillippe goes leave john goes sometime arrive greystoke manor sixth earl greystoke shown long lost grandson john shown bedroom picture true mom dad john meets jane porter slowly know begins feelings christmas sixth earl greystoke slides stairs killing john starts miss jungle wants return phillipe tells stay everything done nothing john torn life greystoke lord apesbr br greystoke legend tarzan lord apes great classic seen im straight thats told someone class thought gay idea got idea gay really need someone talk toif aim pm ill give sni really appreciate advice comfortanything really jokes im close ending boyfriend kitten holding backeveryday lately slowly become agony entire time want cry scream punch dont know much longer live deal im worthless ive disappointment everyone cant keep going yknow see art post want say something besides wow great artwork cant think anything leave feel one experiences hard know make weird little aussie crime flick one hand enjoyable little film great sense humour lacks certain something ensures film never reaches boundary keeps trapped within merely interesting territory said two hands well plotted film excellently juggles several stories time allows several small climaxes throughout movie turn helps stop film becoming boring absurdity goingson thick australian accents bizarre set characters help ensure film entertains plot follows story young doorman thinks hell go bigger things accepting job local kingpin doesnt job lands trouble fancies swim stupidly leaves ten grand beach promptly stolen couple kids time lives shopping spree rosy hero must find money face consequencesbr br film made cast unknowns least back nowadays heath ledger something name impress much performance mostly onenote variety make compelling lead fits movie hes australian looks naive beyond hes best lead ive seen movie ask bryan brown gave best performance might great deal screen time steals every scene hes provides movie lot humour hes got nothing best sequence takes place form probably hilarious bank robbery caught film whole recommend film people enjoy quirky crime films weirdness plentiful way events take turn bizarre enjoyable fan sort film cant really say two hands float boat must see thing chance see ityou probably wont completely regret im trying become rich successful precise rich successful rapper ive slacking bit grind past months im trying pick may grinding much want school still grind practice music everyday mix things freestyle need go discord give people reviews music use positive affirmations etc im hopes im living dream life time im perfect age life way want ill keep grinding even make yeah wanted make post wan na check music ask comments going try killing right nowfuck life overdosing painless want go sleep never wake overdosing mind though seems rather peaceful point alone causes us die first place seems least going die alone walking reddit im online classes online classes sucks blaw blaw blaw sorting new kind lame always people trying random weird story want kill myselfhello long time dark place cant see light constantly hear thoughts want talk anyone hate living hate existence meaning wish die partner love together long time years craziness driving away know loves cant bare anymore know became horrible person redflag attempt years ago today thinking took sleeping pills want pain go away currently taking antidepressants therapy seem help came place friends wanted someone know want die unfortunately happened adobe flash player gone think back memories weve made playing give robot chess tik fak toe castle crashes many f discord server join discord server dm ill provide link come chill us saw psychiatrist went cat therapy june previously counselor recommended try sg enable find job printed piece paper containing information sg enable went sg enable found needed medical report psychiatrist sg enable accept today talk psychiatrist issue adult neurodevelopmental service ands department institute mental health imh singapore went imh mother independent yet job yet felt inferior want people know needed financial help mother pay consultation psychiatrist one day hoped longer need mothers financial aid pay consultation psychiatrist hope work use savings help pay consultation psychiatrist future expenses successfully tried shut earphones temporarily imh need continuous loud noise generated earphones feel safe good sign longer afraid strangers still needed dark glasses though hide eyes strangers needed dark glasses peeped strangers see scrutinizing notice time strangers even look felt safe wearing dark glasses outside whereby strangers around waiting consultation psychiatrist time went doctors consultation room psychiatrist politely asked mother go instead staying together consultation able see psychiatrist alone better communicating people now longer needed mother around remind important things must tell psychiatrist good sign asked whether wrote medical report stating fit go sg enable find job psychiatrist one charge case another psychiatrist charge case seeing psychiatrist instead usual psychiatrist case manager imh knew needed earlier appointment psychiatrist psychiatristincharge see month now currently psychiatrist able see earlier date today psychiatristincharge able consultation drove mother home going cat therapy later going peers house cat therapy peer someone mental illnesses joining support group organized mentor took dark glasses earphones previously another psychiatrist told appropriate wear dark glasses earphones going talk person remembered advice taking dark glasses earphones fear people came luckily people come cat therapy everything going well control thoughts emotions behavior good sign defensiveaggressive cat therapy drove orchard road singapore cat therapy favorite thing whenever free drove home afterwards took bath needed eat late night supper sleep routine able sleep developed psychological problems eat late night supper still needed mother help take supper delivery man want people know needed mothers financial help one day hoped able work money pay supper consultation psychiatrist imh future expenses say thank everyone read blog post hoped sincerely nice day ahead good bye everyone love given meeveryone dad side family friends anyone even consider dating mom begged move another state saying wants nothing made honest mistake im tired caring putting effort getting shit return really want end even bother day wanking never started never long looking porn isnt sin im cool go heaven healthcare professional training im tiredits finals week something happened got pushed breaking point two panic attacks two days looked oxycontin left surgery year ago couldnt find wanted see enough wanted one day end cant find making worse feels way taken one talk wont dont think id actually go nice choice really hard test minutes anyways decided try cambridges cpe certificate proficiency english written test going happen soon im scared although prepared pls wish luck even tho ive studying march xd english isnt first language huge improvement least certification basic person handle english kind certification lol fcking done cant anymorei rent room aunt month mean time yr old son income work lives us making payments brand new volts wagon jetta diesel car give per month got stimulus check bought dollar gaming laptop year old xbox one gaming desktop one two inch flat screen tvs switch laptop almost shirts pairs pants sweat pants pairs blue jeans dollar laptop barely play gta fps disability got stimulus check save entire thing trying buy vehicle live place absolutely nothing value spend bedroom sleeping watching stuff shitty laptop live town miles town town nothing fast food places walmart nothing live ghetto town even uber taxi bus system legit cant take anymore every time turn around hes got new video game im dying play new new vehicle destroyed crashed already even broke windshield cost fix got upset threw cellphone windshield one tvs new windshield paid mom aunt blackmailed saying leave arthritis knees feet back theres days cant bed way survive homeless streets theres days cant even walk course forked money fcking sick crap im end tired struggling never gettign anywhere meanwhile pieces crap everything world nothing even treats mom crap still gets stuff im done cant anymore topped murder new york one better chan mysteries ive seen first timebr br one charlie chan visiting new york attend police convention time people involved aircraft plants murdered decides help investigation along number son murders turn results sabotage aircraft plants chan helps identify murdererbr br charlie chan played well sidney toler rest cast includes sen yung number son marjorie weaverbr br rather liked mystery worth sort thingbr br rating half stars quarantined thanksgiving isolated quarantine last days college dorm different city one live wish turkey right family sun everything im actually thinking committing redflag today reason continue hate life everything iti longer control impulses continue make things worse person much pain zero hope think death better life one life seems silly throw away relationship strained max dont care anyone cant see past benefit dont want want die rid feelings bad want want diebut mom passed away earlier year accidental believe overdose oxycodone prescribed take daily person one felt rely anyone world matter happens gone want go boyfriend broke night struggling feel strongly initiated breakup painful see indecisive knew felt tearing apart im heartbroken cant hang circle friends without making feel awkward friends first instead playing dnd every friday night im writing wish feelings worst enemy struggling sorry life dealt hand wish anything something personally watched see footage s s fascinating learn drug movement essentially started became pop culture eventual uncompromising force life interviews classic rock stars titillating humorous feel secret nodding head timebecause feels good familiar loved segments spresent day highly recommend aspects including rock music hipper movement politics good ol history check marked box saying contains spoiler idea might consider spoiler regards discussed whats segments wanted safe dream cant wake upi know start thr past years life maybe dissociating time felt weird moviedream disconnecting world details life nightmare yo recently thought thats life yeah late everything time speeds keep zoning life breakdowns three times day hate much obsessing junkfood throw shower later dedicating life distract pain avoid medication anything tried therapy cant seem fully comprehend different diagnosis believe complex ptsd im tired im tired im fucking tired im tired spend almost every single days last years wanting die im tired hatred towards im tired able connect others im tired excluded im tired people telling problem pretty tired object used im tired caring im tired disappointment family im tired letting people hurting ones try love tired watching life far away stuck parallel universe feel lonely exhausted im done shows go home edit cant english college happenedhi year old male started college awful fardepression started soon began thinking future happen fail college feeling wont go away keeping functioning well cant sleepeator study thison top social anxietyi met decent people college nothing helping better want drop staying make feel worsei wish constant feeling depression go away always therewalls closing around im afraid cant break themand top im gay homophobic country lovely dating confident overthinker tldr im confident enough talk strangers cant ask anyone wallow misery ask girl prom wallow misery turns ill probably first matter say im really bad ugh dont really know start guess issue im unable ask anyone feel ive got bottomless inkwell confidence talking people friends strangersyou hear talking customers checkout job walmart comes asking people overthink lot countyim us currently big downward trend corona cases school planning prom hate dances theyve made extremely anxious middle school started letting go often id either sit around cafeteria friends alone fun one time valentines day dance middle school called mom soon dance started come mefortunately got able catch friends excellent sing along rendition barbie girl one good experiences ive dances girl friends separated corona first hit schools alphabetical split return school system school ended system extended whole school quarantine going school days dont classes together dont talk much used dont follow instagram dont know shes single post mess know havent posted reddit long time good reason depression used mess brain make post awful shit ive developed coping mechanisms im much happier now guess ill sum question tdlr whoever read im sorry incoherent girlfriend crush sex nowtime wait sweet karma sorry dont want die think aboutim torn reddit always seem situations end draining energy feelings bad tendency putting wrong people pedestals forgetting human often portraying important biggest insecurity romance need liked loved someone think beyond reach person shows interest ego spikes long story short put situation taken advantage worst part knew beginning goal felt feel feel biggest piece shit ecstacy high much fun moment effects wear youre left exhausted depressed lately repressing feelings ignoring signs ive wanted cry later night alcohol came realization ive making unwise decisions please instant gratification desires takes horrible messy brain tells nasty horrible things wish execute way thing dying dont want anything death makes sense dont want go back medicine want go therapy given fact medical industry works ive meds months years think emotions place im even craving hard drugs shut voice whats weird voices go follows killed yeah imagine wicked death basically talk rd person literally driving nuts something productive studying sudden find literally talking nd point view medical term every day battle course ia accentuated night drinking consuming becoming sharper day day want feel ease body mind much ask one point fun things true robotics competition taught useful skills code build obsessed actually winning learning unfortunately younger school teams coaches focused ensuring every student learned something never teammates super passionate winning competition hindsight winning really mattered anyway video games think playing bad start playing avoid problems real life dream go pro esport title wish realized spent thousands hours alone front screen honing skills never actually stuck game either played whatever trending school time suppose best competitive pretty meaningless title compared rest country nothingi used animetv youtube means escape reality well make new friends high school watch stuff hours day maintaining grades parents kill mei tried youtuberstreamer every internet kid takes talent effort timei spent lot time trying game dev lacked skill little success trading steam still consider time wasted useful skilli manage lose weight better shape got good computer science program lost passion programming math become thing point started binge eating episodes currently medication seems numbed feelings occasionally feel intense despair hunger usually feel nothingi counseling care enough go anymore say everyone makes mistakes still young make ton friends college compare others even friend anyway really great relationship parents guessed alreadyi skills paid programming hope start enjoying soon interested entrepreneurship safe thing pursuetldr wish productive social kid instead loner grinded pointless tasks lost passion current major afraid switch feels headed boring life mi feel wasted unhealthy amount childhood things stopped fun provide value video games competitive robotics watching youtubetvanime needed someone talk toi found resources page went wwwcrisischatorg read faq terms conditions sat waited almost hour asked right now panicked told know im currently act anything told chat people committing redflag right place talk someone give upi keep getting lost self narcissism thing keep alive super high eq fact know things others dont fact feel things others dont advanced knowledge sexual logistics ability think man woman many powers acquired years im normal man im gifted supernatural way nothing live foras title says simply nothing left live family zero friends social life talents worthwhile skills fact im pretty sure people care gone workplace theyd hire someone new easy peasy forget want continue life sucks nowadays wake watch youtube videos go reddit go work eat shower rinse repeat everyday exact girl likes guy whos socially isolated anxious depressed anyone makes life worth sticking around literally feel prisoner isolation cell apartment thats lonely wish meet people social anxiety fucks course name one reason stick around life sadness live sadness decades end pain early ive tried many times better physically mentally fall flat face every time told give options slim ambition energy goals actually felt happy know went wrong tried help people said need toughen im lazy lol wish simple case lazy wish real friends see people want friends im monster drag needed march gates eternal darkness reading tough spot sincerely hope find happiness ive tried many times still nothing changes think god whoever created telling time go really wan na die want pain existence end anyways peace redflag lettermy family bunch dumbasses strangers hypocrites assholes junkies love useless pathetic fucking family happy hope enjoy mediocrity lack introspection happy go hopefully next life ill better family actually gives tools succeed fucking best ive wanted upgrade family living conditions long progress ive made life go next one finish job hopefully alone without people holding able dedicate improvement faced completed probation drugs need leave environment everything know fresh start im know anymoreive dreams lately im crying heart breaking heard death wail thats feels cry cant bear live without whatever dreams varying themes usually something dear destroyed feel time time fall start sobbing crying harder breathe feel im dying inside heart fail time things love surrounding nothing anymore barely bed barely breathe motivation anything anymore cook clean work im newly married husband want go therapy says ruins marriages still need someone anyone talk cried help loud one wants listen ive told people ive called redflag hotlines told husband might kill called mom help one seems care mom feel cant breathe know anymore im trying hard know ive tried call therapists none gotten back really know im typing community icon change well wan na die betteroriginally posted radvice idea subreddit wan na die dont know better honestly opinion put subreddit seems somewhat appropriate guess im point life want die honesty dont know im pretty youngonly teenager redflag mind many years ive made plans multiple times always scared last second dont feel open anyone mainly due fact open person told youre white cant problems im scared ask parents therapy someone really want open im scared theyre going last person told theyre going tell someone ask therapy honesty dont know parents believe wanting die dont want cause even stress honestly dont think ill able ask without breaking ill able ask absolutely terrified telling parents onto im asking advice want die getting worse keep thoughts killing daily now want end thing im thinking straight dont want die make people sad anything world making people sad want live long fulfilled life dont know ill able handle life longer dont think ill able decide know make decision wont follow without someone expecting actually follw decision im asking tell person thoughts andor ask therapy alternatives hi everyone gad gets much strongerprevalent enough sleep coincidentally makes unable sleep sometimes kinda vicious circle normally really many problems started new fulltime job lot responsibility triggered insomnia subsequently underlying fears doctor prescribed xanax whenneeded last resort really scared withdrawaladdiction reading drug called xanax alprazolam started taking mg night really breaking need therapy form music listen search nfnf actually saved life please try listening music hard time cant promise make feel better feel little less alone rough days recommend trauma mansion paralysed hold therapy session breathe leave us dreams want love feet stress hate miss days enjoy today ok might long time need keep living hope one day already feeling tired life take moreright need talk reddit one talk real life whole life shit im german grew america years left friends make new friends germany left years go papua new guinea parents till last year friends still america im germany right nobody talk im problems im fat overly uglybut feeling worthlessness rid really getting job social phobias go gym least amount people dont much cuz havent found new friends germany feel cant anything theres constant fear failing people think really really starting tire emotionally need advice deal ive tried redflag pussied outhow gain confidence deal life hopeless day single honestly bad still miss wish couldve done better im crying actually productive yayy idk explain anything artreligion teacheri feel really depressed sure hold together sanity feelings basically ill ask teacher use bathroom ill go cry really seem ive crying im depressed whole week really want tell adult problems cant dodge question anyone advice help explain urge die ive going bathroom almost every lesson teaches general every lesson teachers getting suspicious m kill vid camm kms vid cam reddit large savanna popular subreddits water holes hows water guys gals non binary pals turned today im ready share wisdom ill answer questions serious random philosophical plain silly ill best helpful theres difference micro dick feeling actual pain boner pushes underwear need hug filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler gon na hang soon hopehi im female tried committing redflag weeks ago stabbing seeing nothing changed nobody cared brother say never understand pain cant help hope somehow continue nobody helped even though mental hospital jackshit told therapist psychiatrist amount anything either think ive come point really want im even taking meds anything depression though help sleep yay already know advance life complete failure future ill fail every way possible ill never find job ill never find friends never find love im thinking buying nylon rope amazon sucks wait cant try immediately wanted tell someone im gone soon least ill try hate suicidal taboo cant talk anyone openly whether doctor psychologist psychiatrist god forbid normal person nobody even tries understand really might much maybe way always automatically side without even really discussing makes worse opinion tehehehehe hate ill anything senpai almost seven time leave wooork hate dumb boss think name b edward room stinky smell cheesenweed kiss dakimakura time yank peen crunchyy rolllllll takkeeee hommmeeee waifus imotoussssss shes got pies thighs tibds eyes cost ohhhhhhhhh im homeeee cronchy roll see dreams shes real d b warm embrace reminds mothers love coming wipe drool shake morning wooood cranchy roooollllll takkkkeee hommmme waif fawk waifus imotous shes got pies thighs aint shes got heart big anyone fallllll forrrrrrrr crunchyyyyy rollllllllllllllllllll getting tired httpsiimgflipcomitdnjjpghttpsiimgflipcomitdnjjpg yooooooo found sumthin ume takes profile idk takes ops profile though got reason live nowit weekend rotting away room thinking whats point call quits done even caring hurt family point asked universe give reason go days months even mom got kittens sister watching two tiny creatures put smile face feel watch grow named one morgana persona waiting sister name one relaxing weekend probably gon na twisted teas might able hit good shit friend chinese government rn mf uworstestgrammar bought whole fucking platoon tanks probably spent enough buy least new concentration camps hes really going leave meim verge tears im borderline hyperventilating sent song remember coco almost burst tears cant anymore cant deal loss fault know tried hard hard see friends ignoring covid guildlines people stupidi want everyone safe ocd one things germs know one safe act im stuck crazy telling stay safe feel helpless even though take precautions still feel dirty infected sure anymorewell dont know start ig start around th grade think mostly started sad keep mind im highschool anyways got backstory way go honestly feel nothing anymore lost interest absolutely everything especially things made happy days still things used make happy hoping happiness come back everyday loop day hard time making friends im weird ig im really much talker family doesnt seem make happy anymore either ive seem sleeping due lack energy interest really dont feel im worthless feel rather better planet whats difference dead feeling nothing right yes ive thought taking life cut little bit past months ive talked friends good cause never really thought id reach reddit telling thousands people feel opinion feel guess sex school toilets go guess even seem worth talking anymoreit really matter yes ive made detailed plans past yes still think every minute every day even seem matters anymore im become totally indifferent even extreme dangerous thoughts even flag problematic anymore normal thought thats head anything ive times day place method decided everything squared away ive hospital twice one weeks ago idk whatever yeah wan na die cant say sure really matter talk anyone anymore therapist see point getting one need medicine refill cant bothered pick care less bestie crush hey yall really friendzoning cuz mean im friendzoning someone feel bad person now lem explain whats happening bestie pansexual really dont know identify years ago known half year said love loved way told thought fine weve still close now days ago said still crush feel fucking bad person now cuz fault sth still want friends need lot technically friendzoning kinda selfish sitcom revolved around girl must learn responsible actions power magic often used try help loved ones frequently resulting literal puns often disastrous always humorousbr br program began sabrinas adventures high school fictional town westbridge located near boston massachusetts opposed greendale comics series later seasons sabrina graduated high school enrolled college moved attempts live keep job local newspaper breaking comic roots show ended sabrinas wedding although end abandoned wedding ran harveybr br many episodes involve sabrina getting meet natural supernatural means popular reallife musical artists time including coolio violent femmes backstreet boys phantom planet davy jones monkees britney spears avril lavigne daniel bedingfield hanson edens crush savage garden n sync ashanti course nature band melissa joan harts thenboyfriend now husband mark wilkerson appeared episode yuore penis crcumgjmccionnm filler filler filler filler filler anyone central ohio area willing assist redflag greatly appreciate iti cant continue living anymore enjoy anything anymore friend talk tohello rather company internet strangers company cant enjoy life longer loved playing video games writing ive lost love im year old male profession janitor although love people job job title feel demeaning job tends lonely one much social life im introvert hard keep friendships people around care understand im absolutely desperate form socialization lost lot hs friends disappeared another story hope trying career janitor im trying learn programming depression sort helping im really sure please dear redditors im sure much really left anymore im point id okay dying due emptiness inside theres anyone advice thoughts suffering similarly wants say hello welcome anyways thank words mean know im scared myselfim close edge one home really want hang one cares sure hell dont please help mom wants know girl dont know dont want tell need stop spending money stupid stuff legit spent game sole fact raccoon game cover proceed complain money self harmthis first post please forgive follow correct protocolformat etc year old female lives boyfriend always bouts depression around recently unexpected major bad episode attempted redflag overdose hanging attempts failed setraline helped im starting feel even keel signed work hr department really nice supportive bought kitten love pieces already even lifted mood loti think may something making feel needed still struggle self harm know lot people use self harm seek attention gain help people around use way mainly go areas people cant see example inner thigh inner top arm groin etc try make cuts seem accidental try go deep try leave scar often fail reason cut sense relief releases pressure brain makes sense know helps feel suicidal anymore feel thoughts feelings hiding shadows ready pounce againim scared care family amazing supportive boyfriend logic care dead terrible know stop hurting still find way rid dark weight mind comes guys hit know thaaaat much ive year super impressive thats validation real life feels pretty dope going chiropractor sounds nice cracks n stuff yknow hey girl hand feather falling iv boots falling love dad got rid cat year ago mom rescued abandoned kitten recently cat started poop basement becuase brother wasnt cleaning litter box yesterday cat threw carpet dad decided give adoption today dad said going go human society asked see grandma take cat agreed dad came back home said gave cat random guy wanted didnt even number check whether suitable owner didnt call grandma first see adopt dad doesnt even feel remorse cat laughing crying im sure whether see cat one experienced pets rehomed advice coping getting pet back ill link picture cat find someone know compulsively chattering teeth told started feel teeth wobble little clenched teeth together feeling finger know one weird tricks teeth play become compulsive now told feel ill redflag issues chattering result see become one done make go away hate things people always tell suicidal peopleits always thing sometimes might something list short list itll better give time youre still young feel im video game scripted messages every time completely disregards emotional pain im understand say reality want help know help give false hope somehow blindly ill make hope still feels feelings pushed aside sleeping deathi spend time sleeping hours day makes feel sick home sleep car park think killing lot middle grocery store society everyone blames everything fault job anyone says going walk hiring person threaten kill give part time job deal people quit blaming everything saying fault kill ive stagnating life yearsi meaningful progress turn everythint touch shit mental issues betrayed close friends dont know function anymore im getting closer every day finally pulling plug want disappeari appointment psychiatrist wednesday told parents family knows last week good everything seems dark know want disappear become nothing never existed first place got abuse hurting friends family family literally tears scared psychosis going come back fucking traumatising top kind treated hormones lied horrible going kill voices feminine man death sentence societytitle believe third time posting sub thing keeping alive right music fact september ill buy gaming pc know ill live long tbh completely unwanted women basic respect anyone men women every day painful honestly know even posting guys obviously cant help dont know doive mg prozac right hands seriously considering taking everyone home asleep girlfriwnd qorried havent replying life absolute bullshit honestly xant continue tjis anymore need one final push venting nobody talk toi lost love life month ago took car dog stuff disappeared family hates im homeless nowhere go im tired life im sick feel im everyones way ive got lot going making day day pennies dollar literally feel piece shit lost everything crazy little money got robbed ill completely ive got warrant cant anything cant go homeless shelter anything feel hell leave lifes shambles nobody nothing fault ill probably edit add later needed little chest much added much taken away great western written mcmurtry texas rangers vs indian screenplay takes away fill mini series lot warm fuzzy relationships truth secondary main storyline ends totally unbelievable detached ending written book makes question transported lonesome dovebr br series main characters truth cast well filming locations excellent mini series stayed true great book im glad exist whoevers reading thats wanted say cuz know mean im glad exist alive planet hope least bearable day please help redditor immediatelythis woman said going end life tonight im therapist idea say afraid ill say wrong thing please help want kill today mehplanning killing around today middle class white male never anything go wrong ive never happy know live never happy etc etc know cry help im okay im almost positive need someone say stop dickhead dickhead ill okay today looked pictures people actually struggle life told look shit life fucking easy compared know never life hard anything need someone say youre white middle class privileged dickhole kill anyone understands weird feeling life good im comment thanks okay hear phrase probably never used sign language scariest shit happened choked food couldnt really breathe able cough eventually guess thats good shit scary fuck dont feel happiness anymorei dont remember last time actually felt happy excited dont dont know living worth anymore dont try convince kill want honest opinions kill genuinely dont see point living anymore dont even friends one likes except mom please need help wan na dm got bit till laundry done whatever hmu person pissed floor red robin last night fuck know kid teenager grown ass man sir come see post know male peed floor times pm pm last night ended stepping go hell wearing flip flops shit splashed puddle hope step piss thousand times burning hell everyone pee floor red robin last night hope fantastic day easieri sick tired life trust wrong people fall love married dump nothing strand foreign country nothing go home think favor give money hotel come back havent worked year nightmare hanging threadhi im really sure right place ask go long post ahead advanced sorry shitty formatting im currently girl havent together long happiest time life far im dead set making work beginning thought fails ill never go relationship turned something worse id literally choose everything every outcome aim literally relationship time togetheror id think bit depressed bit suicidal got together bit actual acts involved though thinking hard go therapist felt going sad inevitable path realized became fully dependent times came close breakup thoughts zeroing redflag never another option nice sometimes shed mess serious sometimes anxiety trust issues id take seriously still stop instance asked whos guy shed answer manner thatd make anyone think theres something lines sometimes leads endless cycle fight end apologizing im begging life probably hint cheatingalthough unlikely give attacks thoughts enough keep wide awake gets resolved somehow havent fought time now im desperately fighting keep way fortunately hasnt anything weird hsppening lately inevitable want make sure ill make next time fortunately current state probably wont last weeks without talking id dead end nd week im wish joking enough anger sadness push high place im really bad place almost seriously stood top footbridge almost two half hours thing kept feet ground fact broken yet close everything life depends relationship right now lot hobbies nothing makes anything work fighting even things love turns nothing fighting im paralyzed basically want less dependent sake us someone commit redflag kind traumaticat least breaks want last bit longer two weeks may convinced reason something dont know im mess dont even reason writing right now think live without something never point cringiest thing ive written way asking help hope money worth really reputation wellat stage id disappointed learn considering much clearly ruin childs life took years parents actually shit fucking years knew bastards knew issues id say denying dishonest principles first place legit future understand jack shit school least greedy bastards money whether going homeless somehow ending rich im returning bastards giving cent im scared commit redflag hell best believe someone disproved religion id killed longtime hey girl u blanket cos wan na wrap around u deeply convinced nothing life committing redflagabsolutely nothing every path take leads close committing redflag low iq ugly looks messed lifes ends redflag nothing change aight time face ive spending much time reddit fucking fitness attention span got go fun years see yall around voice making suicidali bullied high school every single day problem cant fix voice sounds blocked nose talk pretty much stopped talking made depressed fat sevre anxiety depression made fail many exams school made gain weight try calling phone voice sounds shit always mumbling talk thousands things mind want say cant physically say finished high school last thursday im pretty much alone wellive alone single whole life last weeks seem alone trying kill tried call gp yesterday last second anxiety attack quickly ended call dads hospital weeks mum go every single day everything feels overwhelming know hell im supposed guys hear next week guess ill gone want end dont know howi dont want pain want ive never seen point put earth without consulted hard enough see value life things going fine lately things going shitter honestly take one minute dont job job couldnt start wasnt granted work permit country live wasnt born months waiting around limbo im money options havent felt real connection anyone years barely friends ones dont really give shit theyll say polite thing move thats fine dont want nuisance theyre entitled life want im tired keep fighting things better slap face people unlucky guess yet im one lucky ones many worse doesnt make want die less anything confirms world place anyone im gon na die decades maybe earlier anyway grand scheme things makes difference keep suffering cant find way thats foolproof dont want pain agony want press button gets hate parents bringing shitty place keep knife backpack commit public redflagreasons theres many people suffering cant bear cant help way loneliness shyness barely received messages past years autism schizophrenia guilt making hundreds people believe something passion really something liked years parent problems wanting move feeling future without schizophrenia suffer wanting love sex wanting say reasons redflag nigerians fear courage kill myselfmy life sucks idea dying makes feel mesmerized blissful knowing able rid weight life ampxb sometimes feel guts see future dropped high school life hell cope cant last job couple months cant stick routine future seems obscure depressingempty lonely miserable ampxb hope one day able let go gather guts maybe jumping tall building liberation death everything make sense end death true freedom bliss breaking free perpetual meaningless suffering give good timeive social anxiety forever makes hard awkward talk people pair low selfesteem im basically spectator conversation everyone realizes torments knowing parents hate say theyre gon na send away rehab cant stay fucking clean head plagued suicidal thoughts every time goto solution instead actually solving situation lay bed think somewhere tie stab im much unmotivated shit fix problems nothing fun never find reason bed morning go pop fucking pills fuck xanax feels good confident person ive always wanted everyone school knows pop pills im known crackhead guy deep know redflag answer straight born life constantly battling brain want live maybe im edgy year old one thing assure life going nowhere anyway besides drugs gon na kill anyway sure im gon na today one days know mean mom screamed called fucking disappointment might go tonight im sure shed happy one less bourdon hands crush friend hes perfect woodworking history space gaming problem idea hes gay fall asleep time sleep cant fall asleep whats fastest working method fall asleep finally post swear gets removed imma pretty mad deathi want go many guys remember gravity falls theme want start saying might kill least considering kill tonight tomorrow something lingers within mei think mostly know fail school royally teachers believe friends probably believe either mom lying know able genuinely lazy promise exaggeration really lazy sometimes bring learn even wanted toi dread going back school summer dread living life even though many things look forward lifebig things moving relationship meeting internet friends first time little things third season favourite show announced video games preordered going friends everything things will end outweighed failing everythingi feel reached end whether end life something insignificant tell endi hate much think depressed either tired tired scared failing done iti prepared life come considered running away home make sensenothing makes sense situation tried swear god fucking tried organise papers books school reflect every evening learned school two weeks slowly stop tried method fucking often workmy grades bad means truly good know redflaging rambling shit none writing form structure sorry thatcan anyone please give advice better person sorry saying appropriate subreddit know talk sorry english bad english speaking country feel failing cant take anymore want outim tired living want anymore ive depression anxiety young struggle matter great life theres always sadness looming anxiety makes much worse sad im lonely depression anxiety internal im sad im anxious might fuck things enter suddenly top depression anxiety ptsd depression anxiety except external hundred times worse addition anxious might fuck things im anxious someone might fuck im sad im sad people awful may four years started going downhill still feels one help one fucking takes problems seriously even therapist everyone treats im normal nothing happened im expected keep functioning normal human except im raped fucking ptsd top depression anxiety one gets one understands especially family especially rest society even started stigma comes along mental illness regardless whether caused someone fucking raping ive taken staying cooped inside apartment avoiding everyone either dick around internet play sims sleep day thats even working anymore despite trying stay subs im likely see things triggering still end seeing shit almost every single comment urging people understanding sympathetic invisible illnesses downvoted oblivion reminded everywhere go people understand suffer people make worse telling able even tell cant cant cant live fuck people make noise theyre eating thats fucking nasty nothing except make people around want vomit disgusting manners eat alone dont hear people fucking gross ok made language gender non specific pronoun new word already meaning th attempt slit right arm wrist elbow left arm slit throat barely missed carotid im yo lb junkie highschool dropout im reason theres saying someone wasting oxygen think im gon na shower norman bates oh mention dick turle pubic fat family took box xutters ill use jagged knife people come send feel good msg im someone know person feeling cant take anymore option therehorrible horrible relationship woman even understand hates live hired company works part time itll forever save enough money move even never able afford live city starting school septemberor least id attend community college around cant live area unless im willing stay relationship makes want drink bleach money family friends take really help way thats significant real future real drive depressed actually depressed sad whats point want go sleep wake problems gone thats going happen stay asleep ifi wish courage end everything right right life joke think people better without mehi everyone name max im sixteen first post reddit may last one ive depressed really long time think time rid ending life friends lack social skills spend every day playing video games watching social media avoid emptiness people know think im stupid lazy weird im afraid idea speak people think relate every time try say something usually connect see loss time especially got enough money cant hang regularly always wanted express self way dress dad never gave opportunity choose want feel comfortable clothe wear hate people wrong idea really dress people often reject way look make fun parents care much feel theyre busy theyve never asked feel know much education even talk ive never girlfriend im shy strange people interesting hobbies attention girls ignore time anything special cant anything without ruining math music english hella nightmare cant anything right without committing stupid errors used good school seems dumber year sleep well anxiety depression harassing every night watch youtube videos exhausted finally fall asleep nobody takes seriously im joke classmates teachers think im funny speak strange accent every time teacher orders us make groups activity class often leave alone cant everyone expects im different feels born another culture im colombia believe say cant relate act kind american european people mean take things seriously prefer bother anything let things happen music listen movies watch language prefer speak way different move us family cant afford special talent something actually nothing make feel meaningful every day feels take drugs think phone thing makes forget life empty used someone ton reasons live child seems every dream forgotten tried hang twice regretted jumping chair think im afraid idea something go wrong process stuff bothers every day apart ive said thats personal share internet want stop suffering tired ready everything now life pointless painful suffering exhausting know afterlife hopefully spirit somehow finds peace finally rest honest rather know existed want everyone forget terrible lifebye maybe fail sure inform intact failure status probably going tonight let us miserable together one wants stupid advice stop want therapists need stop cant begin summarise feel want spend rest life person want help work stuff together goes redflag spiral im completely loss apart hold stroke hair strategies help break spiral starts one approach topic seeing counsellor developing mindfulness strategies without going panic attack help rredflag hope im bored yall got good tv showmovieanime recommendations favorites got attack titan deadpoolthe expanse thanks want die errand importanti help laugh comedy errors life mine supposed dying today planned time window several hours going alone popping crushed pills ensured demise parents rang morning errand needs taken care take better part day death cancelled smh intent redflag mattersif genuinely believe redflag best method afterlife take pity circumstances im sure said commit redflag selfish reasons though chance guys interested hearing alternative rock album band put first album im keen hopefully find people really hate adobe one computer phased last two updates installed really hate adobe ive wanted kill self relationship year think im finally going iti know first thing people want comment shouldnt kill guy youll find someone relationships arent worth life thats reason want im wants break im inevitably will please anyone reading wants help please dont advise guy lot complicated reason want keep fucking hes amazing gets upset rightfully im messed girl keeps making mistakes want end even though gets upset make mistakes everywhere even try good girl cant see good tried sees made mistake dont blame wasted time someone kept making mistakes cant make happy cant make anyone happy either live shadow successful people ive done never amounted expectations made id everyone service ending letting everyone relax enjoy lives without want kill theres solution mistakes make try hard still happens cant change live misery upset projecting live self loathing guilt someone amazing giving chance either way cant look mirror without thinking girl reflection deserves good life hard part next year life see every single day theres getting around even tried even harder part choose remove life way thats possible committing career redflag exaggeration giving worthwhile thing life right now theres alternatives cant another job really really doesnt work point im looking sign ive rationally tried wrap head around months seems solution stopping problems love life need reason im starting see exist friends years remember idk starts th bullied lol bunch friends elementary moved didnt feel probably forgot anyway ill never see perusing friendship introvert female im major extrovert im twitch streamer involved many clubs im loud never stop talking due pandemic ive turned primarily discord making new friends met one guy hes possibly one coolest people ive met works ass buy parts computer loves playing retro games much really know play games potentially long term friendship thing hes total loner seem talkative find nervous stare conversations privately talk fine big open public chats hardly talk pms often make artwork using excuse start private conversation take next level bribe artwork characters catch attention introvert talking bit awkward times often busy college coursework want come pushy want give space still actively persuing friendship best way approach tips reaching talk feel guilt way feelidk whats going lately scarytheres days im completely optimistic nothing bring eventually fall back old bad habits doesnt help im quarantined parents house im relationship parents completely strained boyfriend fight almost every day point friends left except coworkers dont want know much im distant depression speak boyfriend feel normally gets mad doesnt say anything sits phone obviously texting im crying eyes anxiety attack dont respond something says im full blown anxiety attack barely breathe correctly gets mad hangs full indicator im wasting timeand reminder anytime try come someone help nothing waste everyones time even im left feeling guilty tried reaching cousin felt guilty stopped getting detail feel feel worthless emotionally weak cant handle anything anymore feel though theres hope point self worth esteem lowest reach boyfriend tells im person suffering shouldnt sad hard feeling comfortable emotions moving forward person talk tells feel way feel want attention feels personally attacked way feel want comfort im point hard alone without really dont anyone speak feel judged want stop talking moment open honestly feel posting something im going regret know need self harmed today speaking boyfriend comfort made want even time kids im outi cant live without wife kids fucked lost shes moved year old talks new dad time told kisses mommy lips sleeps room time week kids meet give back ill apologize tell ill always love want happy try hug hold one last time ill cross median without seatbelt let collect insurance works youim interested guys medication really worked period time im currently prozac lexapro wheelof chemicals ampxb morals ampxb maybe perspective ampxb selfreflection ampxb coping ampxb hands melting water ampxb putting hands water ampxb sharp pain less body ampxb wrong ampxb feels nothing ampxb copies smarter ampxb copies exist ampxb better ampxb things ampxb putting nail scissors next pillow ampxb hands water ampxb fluids melt ampxb though ampxb yet feels ampxb ampxb empty brain tatsy death ampxb good morning ampxb guess finally time longer comment one posts instead make onenot completely ready take life anything need vent advice requires backstory im high school student back november girl im guy approached began talking one day whatever big deal anyways couple weeks later talks couple days talks ends becoming pretty regular thing one final days gives plate cookies thought sure sign liked im shy never really anything ended able number one day continuously chatted winter break post winter break nothing happened still didnt anything nothing either well back february needed ride home days week luckily able give ride home one think good talk well bad weekend weekend intended asking rejected way going comfortable getting ride walking car overheard sister behind us talking sisters dating someone assumed mustve heard crushs sister wrong ive never seen crush dude acting somewhat romantically anyways second day week asked give ride said couldnt going surgery next day needed prep didnt want ask next weekend march time recovering surgery lost confidence ask well today rolls around tell one best friends hour ago told fact dating someone im upset kinda got rejected sense mostly read entire situation wrong wasted months worth emotion im probably closest something chester bennington passed away couple years back memers rteenagers dont forget google never gon na give d midst adversityi continue display curiosityin way red flows wristsdown drainforever stuckbetween sensation willing dyingfor battle rages onbetween body mindbetween heart truly wants mind prohibits accomplishfor selfish desires kill around mewhen truththe spirit want deadis poem asked crush hours getting response decided drink good bye guys may last post accidentally used body wash hair thing save reddit premium know bros enough endi deserve die im terrible person wish pain world comforting thought beaten left ground alone die anyone wan na talk dm ask anything comments maybe dysfunctional family upbringing environment always shy introverted never really talk people good friends child high school anyone people fake users deceiving understand notredflag happened people date love teachers give students kids going parties fit kids friend groups stupid funny things thought friend group college girl messed caught feelings exes best friend giving slept friend thus whole group split understand feelings want experience relationship whole society seems messed even deal long distance notredflag need something moment wish forget motivation person want good learning languages producing music web design graphic design film editing photography hitting gym stocks finance many things motivation even current job bored quickly reading white papers want proactive always felt life never way want want able eat fruit without counting calories shit cause bitch know many servings im putting oatmeal im tryna lose weight hard suicidal feel life worthlesshey reddit thought id clarify things bat im suicidal though contemplated concept action several times ive never cut severely depressed least think exactly plea help advice mostly place vent thoughts honest people might willing contemplate life compexities im years old male well average life friends successful loving family musical hobby guitar production regardless factors normally make anybody feel content lives still find feeling sense worthlessness apathy humanity life general almost every moment every day dwell fact everything know known history life occured one small planet one small galexy endless vastness universe become extremely apathetic unambitious life begins feel small start think deeply types things often lately really starting hit hard species promoted self importance point feel though whole world forgotten fact planet smaller spec dust comparison even milky way let alone entire universe thoughts constantly feel though life planet completely utterly useless human race survival life completely futile illusion created around give us sort self importance purpose life question attempting answer first abstract thoughts concieved personally believe real point purpose life ive already said pursuit continuation species completely futile live anybody live anybody alive nobody knows makes depressed days go thoughts constantly polluting mind maybe one days itll much ill pull trigger thoughts subjects sorry parts whole thing seem bit incohearent first time ive organized written thoughts theyre confusing jumbled head may came post sorry spelling grammar errors typed phone wish goi year old daughter reason killed yet worried strength much longer stay one room apartment weekend pretend everything fine doesnt worry know doesnt much fun around try best make happy dont friends anyone talk usually poor kid psych wards wife left tell wait another day maybe better dont want ruin little girls life tired every day feels torture easy let go dont know posted maybe feel guilty weak want confess maybe feel alone idk leave groupi cant help want thing want want die every single human people admit theyre afraid stigma us want good life never attractive wealthy smart whatever better make better make better show fucked hard probably give fuck probably talking trash right now getting dicked one close friends happened ive heart broke ive struggling suicidal thoughts years now im multiple redflag attempts point im convinced im immortal diagnosed schizophrenia buy hate think whole world cruel simulation im playing alien spaceship fate time set stone moment reading want know whats side maybe hell right eternity hell living rest miserable existence want mom know killed great mom everything younger siblings see survive tears shed dead hamster pain love go away gets transfered someone wish good passing ive dead man long time suffering seems financial situation tried easy stuff makes worse cutting getting tattoospiercingsleaves scars stupid people ask questions trying drugsmelts short term long term memory drinking oblivionraped drinking driving tickets fines mph mph crashes damage shoulders neck back tons meaningless sex girls highschoolluckily stds children im walking life dead man easy pointless mundane need hard stuff study succeed financially heal trust try heal humans shitty find one tolerate forever sometimes theyre able tolerate oh well work hard succeed thats advice maybe ask god im hanging around waiting see apocalypse grow balls burn everything world cruel unfulfilling acquire money im working years im fun sometimes thinking apocalypse manifesting horrible things riots police california wild fires im living life point trying end cause cant mom deserves better son im going try better son killing ruin siblings forever unfair torture stick around life even horrible live moms basement work lousy job leave group im going tell either kill start setting everything fire everything starting police stations government buildings need wreck financial institutions go back living naked woods ill setting fire one day eventually middle favorite highway protest horrible justice system ridiculous laws human life earth general honor highway thanks reading whats whitepeople thing done itd thinking regular chicken mcnuggets mcdonalds spicy care anythingi care family husband loves want anymore really care sex years quit college hours left care ill never finish care appearance care ive stolen almost every job ive worked conscience care caught care anymore mom alcoholic never loved enough stay sober stay close care im deep debt ill never makes difference care anything anymore goodbye find im faking itim terrified im feeling bit background gotten pretty dark place almost year ago wife im early s pleaded help went meds first intensified suicidal thoughts dosage upped felt getting better started therapist ive cognitive behavioral therapy seems helped fact say total upswing now feel im spiraling control feelings work tolerable manager got laid month ago along replacement supervisor team feel theres future work im frightened going back rest world new job suffer rejection work best least safe much anymore feel days getting shorter daylight saving time ends sunday clocks fall back meaning gets darker hour earlier causes anxiety look day see little ive accomplished sun sets know ill cope worst thing volunteer youth group kids great theyve looked ive adult talk parent judgmental gone tough times confided ive constant help feel fake try help see big picture everything okay hope lives ahead make good choices thrive believe yet im feeling hope future find im faking know theres answer needed let guess thanks reading take seconds cause big problem hours fix big problem take seconds cause big problem hours fix big problem existence painfuljust act alive brings pain everyday friend spiral help reach herhi ive quite bit past accounts one obviously throwaway never follow advice people talk helped thanks im today something bit different friend breaking girlfriend hard time letting go grew abusive household read book child called almost bad really know deal strong emotions nearly killed breakup know way situation need help ive held arms cried confessed darkest secrets ive told love im going abandon everyone think good im soon leave give privacy worried hell going end almost bleeding last time advice getting appreciated worth moderately successful stunningly beautiful yes falling love want getting way friendship im leaving alone bother anywayill never worth anything autism disables cant go cant work cant contribute society cant study executive function issues every time look work cry im abusive relationship partner know deal anymore still care im buried valentines chocolate feel guilty eating know strangles abd calls piece shit left id die hes carer cant make phone calls go alone payments woulkd cut ablw buy food matter anyone anyway say im never one think first cant help anyone cant close anyone cant make difference literally sit everyday living existing wonder hurts live dont want anymore never anything anyone fucking piece shit nobody cares close tell fuck im live feel pain almost sex ive going steady chick long time finally guts ask question wanted deed appeared enthusiastic excited first took member started laughing pointing ive browsing rsmalldickproblems fuck sad please much happiness almost painful waiting facade fake icing fall crash burn hope inspiration supposed figured supposed even matter damn head want photos spiderman run local newspaper need photos spiderman expose really menace society hows therapy actually helpi offered therapy college declined im worried amount time itll take interfere ability finish assignments time im worried parents find im living home feel ashamed sharing problems dont think good reason feeling way im sure therapist think pathetic dont wan na take away time someone probably dealing lot say worst part movie first half hour really confused example bill paxsons character long hair wearing jacket males arrived camp turned character looked bill paxson wasnt said wheres bill paxson guy girlfriend said supposed year reunion camp directors alan arkin memorable later girl interacting talking camp experiences made sense one years old said movie turned pretty good kevin pollak nice guy always teased one guy complete narcissist ended losing beautiful girlfriend alan arkin interesting oldstyle camp director admits grown touch modern youth best part none grownup campers successes life none great careers seemed real life movie compared big chill ways exciting big chill lot realistic even though beginning promising movie ended turning pretty good one many subreddit actually virgins im wondering virgin fillee filler filler filler filler fillr fiooe lflaoao life decaygraduated cs degree three years ago hoping job independent help condition go hospital redflag plans got condition force fed everyday hospital staff awful cant disclose know treat people learned quickly im qualified anything getting retail job became clear start fail keep expectations left good terms work full time without freaking cutting cant start therapy insurance issues need order look work required job seeking help theres escaping parents theres getting access treatment im trapped way death hour shifts life friends family endless exploitation severe suffering shortly followed death streets existing comfortable cage everyone force feeding deformity hard interacting people theyre super toxic must im terrible person perhaps deserve though id argue deserve far worse thanks listening aria sheher almost years saw jennifer first time know name movie looked web site told many people especially grandchildren movies include graphic details order frighten leave powerful impact story skillfully introduces concepts true put ida lupino dangerous situation time miss lupino discovers new fact draws viewer confusion fearbr br movie impact almost years later still list one frightening movies seen yet movie contain blood gore became popular shortly movie made amazing impact good story great actors make heres debate violent video games reduce violence irl im debate competition motion house believes violent video games lead violent acts young audiences figured help banvideogames subreddit good rn time commit violent acts angry frustrated commiting violent acts game vent emotions game instead real world say example doomyou know drill bfg division might say video games culture really toxic people speaking mic speaking face two different things friends literally gang ban minecraft server bad mood next day words say stood let run mouth feel letting way thing thats think cyberbullying problem know treat properlymy opinion guys might know something dont someone please improve post elsewhere im good writer started debate reflections trip home longon trip back home realized something people want see mask real one wants see real parents ask mask says fine real thinks redflag weekly sometimes daily basis parents ask going children looking forward grandchildren mask laughs says day maybe real goes wtf hate children even meet someone wont raising child hate people force talk future joy mask real asks future joy cant see future past next month joy watching friend graduate joy joy sadness seen behind mask nearly enough understand saw behind basically told put mask back blows plans made later evening supposed last hooray moves across country deserts story life people ask enjoying new location mask says great loving real hates wants nothing return previous location friends people ask memorable call new job emergency services dont want memorable call want funniest call memorable call one try forget daily basis mask tells funny antidote guy lamp real tries force sound childs voice head people ask first time mask real agree something dont know dont know able bed morning dont know able go work every day dont know able take constant abuse supervisors dont know able go classes masters dont know things possibly biggest mystery still alive thought many times night killing last september iterations plan adapted changed situation changed well preferences thinking plan weirdly comforting feels safety hatch pulled point feels comforting know end misery point choosing feels nice warm blanket parachute wrapped one maybe keeps going thought stuck way weirdly makes want keep going things worse always pull trigger allows go sleep night gives courage life gets fucked decision made bail allowed stand boss fired drive risky kill car accident sparred grief spurs makes miserable still want die still think death much better world without life sucks want everything end quickly possible want shit show call life want something different want things better never seems hope expect worse every situation everyone never disappointed tldr reflections recent trip back home still alive yet dont want caring spurs always prettiest people always denial always prettiest people always denial guys talked someone everyday something happens yall stop talking feel sad idk makes sense need place rant lil bit im sad lonely rn probably gon na sleep yeah cluei turn couple days cant even bring happy ive struggled bullshit life many attempts teenage years idk anymore keep pushing things life thatll eventually make happy going uni stressing half death may one day job actually half enjoy go back christmas break im struggling financially applied many christmas break jobs denied every one cant keep living ends meat happy time want end thing called life fucking hard give question americans fuck going see memes protests shit whats actually happening wan na know memes anyone wan na talk bit im bored high class im bored okay idk mam died never feel kind emotion whatsoever okay almost anyone english likes football manchester derby weekend stopped thinking week come reds im finsexual literally fuck everything looks feminine yes thing search want im going downhill even traps relation list cosplayers girls hook literally looking attentioni message want someone tell everything alright edit going now thank support today make one hardest choices life long ampxb hate cory dont mean wow guys jerk kind way mean despise everything pisses hes always hanging around street cant bear step house im sure ill see pathetic godless face makes heart pound whenever walks near im obsessed think every day hair face way walks smile angled toward right cheek eyes widen hears someone call name close eyes right imagine smallest detail hate loathe backstory cory neighbour family always debt far remember father manipulated mine signing legal document basically gives rights land corys dad uses leverage dad always dads reach never completely grasp wont go much details situation far remember family struggling anyway happened today made rethink whole life park trying mind cory said guy lives rent free head late sky getting dark corner eye noticed someone walking albeit great difficulty swaying kept pausing regularly peering bushes instantly recognized cory id know anywhere never forget spineless spoilt cowardly figure felt pain arms palms stinging looked see blood flowing clenched fists nails dug deep looked back cory staring right every inch screaming rip head hate got closer mumbling incoherent words got closer smell better imagine skin feel knuckles hate hate much die thing make whole demeanour changed looked confused didnt know taking guard reached pockets faster ive seen move pulled knife clenched jaw thought end going died shanked gut someone never work day life whose whole family enjoyed fruits fathers labour eyes looked coldly soft blue eyes determined pulled close stood mannequin accepting fate wrenched hands open placed knife fingers eyes locked mine whispered three words kill please shocked doesnt describe wasnt happy either felt nothing everything time giving power end life man minutes earlier given anything end sorry life couldnt bring moment saw cory normal feeling pain miserable human couldnt given opportunity golden platter knew never recover taking another mans life even life one person despised entire life know ive made right decision tried kill got divorced breakup relatively calmi affair affair woman manipulative talked cutting jumping bridge drove hrs really tall gorge going jump called wife kids prior chicken thought kids sick came now divorce finalized woman started fucking someone feel calm fear might break might something terrible profession knowing life death means resources end help low im depressed fuck lie bed time worried woman obsessed almost year cant rut need hope stuck mindset whileive feeling suicidal several weeks brief success dbt therapy backing scared feeling control life feel worse success dbt despite intensive therapy havent felt change anyones mindset shifted toward recovery life im school got new job im functioning degree feel awful suicidal thoughts daily im trying meds acupuncture haha see makes impact mostly feel im playing waiting game spontaneous shift mindset realistic happened anyone yall seriously wan na die remember test tomorrow ah shit looks cant die messed headi crushed finally confirm fucked head one police visit see alright time seriously considering hospitalization good news enough experience feel confident writing worth got person liked hate need wait die place hear news hurt now intelligence personality may good future bet care never added always useless always tried emulate something something keep derive source materials fuel need emulate much worth first earning emotions worth earning content heart worth messed need people talk bpdeupdim almost f developed mental heath issues age hardly went school barley attended college tried hold jobs couldnt im back college trying really making depressed others age driving holding full time jobs going living life im mentally behind everybody im embarrassed feel bummy idea ive done therapy meds hospital trips etc idk guess want hear anybody boat overcome im struggling give pep talks everything going okay carry brain fucked less introspectivei often find thoughts tend dwell im almost constantly lost thoughts really hurts social scene tend keep keep quiet affects activities reading playing video game watching movie thoughts drift towards changes ive drinking absolutely zero selfexamination drinking id state sober ideas yearsi realized summer birthday say ive struggling thought dying years now ive never taken action know hurt brother much gone cant say anything live hand really love making music constant want die head cant even care cant change thought mind feel close giving days know im fucked cant even afford freaking therapy anything somehow managed living now im even sure im posting life going im old enough die natural causes id rather give even know feel life shitty im year old future bright ahead food table friends exercise everything normal person still thought remains back head even happiest moments life want die already battle cant win anymore im sure tiredi sick sick everything want end everything really hate people around including family feel one true friend even boyfriend one understands constantly keep getting panic attacks due fighting family cant even escape im uni asian everything hard leave house house unless prob start working years prostitute smth done world contemplating want everything want make suffer know bad im done cant even speak opinion cant even focus studies cant even peace mind anywhere sorry thought stronger thought one day find purpose eat showered slept days dad died front daughters mother left proposed girlfriend left last night alone state moved order cried begged talk hung phone thought loved idk anyone treat anyone always second option everyone life believe imcapable loved even deserving planning killing crying type feel dead weeks want stop want stop feeling sorry strong enough tried hardest beat finally give please hate meim bad person e want anymore jabated friends house introduces girl kinda try make small tr alk ask age said great im gon na work go park play bit make moves stuff go actually im say tall looks im never talking girls seeing birth certificate first heart broke pretty girl online class hate online school allow students interact even worse moved new school advice august im going trip coming week prior say goodbye dear friend know plans one will back thats fighting trying im tired trying fighting people meant world thats pain feel deep inside deep makes sob shake thats pain take anymore oh god god one id taken pain long ago world feel always make suffer make make suffer fuck know im tired try every pill market core destroyed cracked flawed deeply never fused back together meds therapy joy world terrible mother insufferable wife avoid much possible shield poison suffer silently possible next two weeks go trip done even care anyone reads done moment starting therapy medication back february everything gotten worse mention expensive poor husband trying figure pay er bills inpatient stay bill therapy fees insurance cover dick im barely able work part time place hour shift makes pop many valium stop bawling whole time really cant anymore previous job help im gone pay bills started new life without trust ive thought way cant cant make live way anymore hold till end month holding thread believe given war movie make really feel war need see letyat zhuravli called cranes flying english tells story veronika tatiana samoylova boris aleksey batalov love verge wwii walking along waterfront watching cranes fly war starts boris promptly sent war veronika hides family ends marrying son love boris meanwhile continues trotting countryside fighting nazis experiencing horrors war runs energy veronika working military hospital receives news refuses accept boris body arrives home one trains simultaneously radio announces germany surrendered allied powers war soviet union lost million citizens start new erabr br movie good job showing human impact war battlefield affected civilian population definitely movie everyone see hey im sad please free hug ill pay back promise im bit stay bald stay fresh suicidal dreamsi vivid suicidal dreams last night jumping front train today im travelling train im scared ive planned im going theres stopping train passes around station never busy saw true crime first released back midnineties watched many times great mystery mary played alicia silverstone high school senior california town whos classmates younger sister tortured killed unknown murderer mary meets tony played kevin dillon police cadet sees bright decide work together try find killerbr br many suspects one true crime feels true real read newsgroup review someone wrote total suspension disbelief present true alicia silverstone perfect role kevin dillon bill nunn great job actors locations right writerdirector pat verducci really captures realities teenage life marys loneliness see scene mary awakens dream sequence viewed photos took tony wish verducci make moviesbr br seen movie quite true crime know im going anyone help mei timedout uni student trying finish last days feeling negative anyone talk even know id say even someone talk feel life cornered way want drop mostly financial conditions maybe work music know viable career option know lifestyle really pay started working freelance even many jobs currently im broke point food yesterday surviving wish someone kill one cant even pay surprisingly ive grown hide much people near clue im going inside last days getting feeling might fact last days know set achieve post figured maybe id nothing lose point anyone good day end day still feel sad shitty pillsso made mind im going take paracetamols mg happen spare karma friend friend taking away electronics appropriate punishment sometimes ok hear mad ive seen million posts people saying hate parents take away electronics fair punishment honest kind disagree reasons student might well school lack understanding lack effort student work struggling understand concepts taking away electronics unfair punishment simply getting tutor better student homework studying tests putting effort school taking away screens absolutely appropriate punishment choosing skip work play ok thing guys easy forget important education take high school seriously might regret rest life lot common dream jobs require college requires high grades highschool might think matter cs ds jeopardizing entire future ive seen many adults talk wish tried harder school got better jobs want generation take school seriously two dogs litter died sunday dog litter five puppies weeks ago abd healthy happy suddenly one got ill threw diorreah collapsed lying floor hours died hours two others became ill symptoms although one collapse recovered fine first puppy ill died three hours getting ill one died lasted hours sad heartbreaking see struggling life floor unblinking expressionless eyes buried made graves minecraft world rip peanut puzzle managed something took waveboard started practicing steep road obviously fell rolled meter soim disappointed little blood came least felt something know many years feels good feel something need havent day hour minutes st idk ill survive month tbh need advice im sure insecurities run wild im justified thinking boyfriend line met girl friends set first date went jogging weird know hobby wanted theyd never met one word word bring strongest warriors knees word break strongest men word break hearts word put fear bravest men woman word word school saw movie last night phila film festival interesting funny movie endearing moving scenes peter falk excellent rest cast believable played roles well movie may gone bit long conclusion okay audience laughed right places family dynamics terrific though jewish family italian irish including greek recommend film interested laughing subject often handled way iot makes think consequences actions affect others life clearly life biden aint prisesdent cuz live romania look dope better prisesdent tbh keep talking kid sexualizing shows one talking people keep talking cuties one talking pen come people way worse want endi cant recall long think giving bullshit reasons know family loves real reason sad much want fade away cant think last time really appreciated life keep telling family sad ended life dont want hurt think thats whats keeping dying moment really nothing live im useless one shirt never wear really worth fighting tf kind strangers following support answer example text optional still posts removed texts dis kola veri kola veri kola veri di many questions still reading young seen movies parents wisdom rented one wary movie fact even allowed watch brother sister got course made angry late night trashed vcr kicked screen tv called police reported vandals arrested course unable foot tv set police arrived given stern talking sent home parents grounded course made work repay debt tv vcr tore apart slave labour really sucks believe chores around house happened end got big screen tv dvd player surround sound system work money easy made movies sold disney remember finding neno well wrote movie filmed goldfish fish tanks rewrote plot course cgi afford make real life action picture done end never saw film head die rating gave life rating pretty good life falling apart know anymorei keep trying find appealing method end always end going back im still pretty scared going waking every day burden support friends parents absolute garbage care therapist im meds severe anxiety depression never help even raising dosage multiple times got accepted dream college go anxiety deal living everything fails im good anything cant find way idea next find extremely less productive days meet deadline projects enough time put mind zero motivation heard past people sign depression feel sad know feel know seek medical help know depressed yall cute af dont believe anyone says dont think arent im scared cant sleep rn promised start going bed earlier cause im cant sleep really really big storm outside im afraid storms literally shaking house sounded garbage men outside looked outside saw lightning lots rain keep hearing big thunder claps lighting far away even hear wind inside room really scary idek im still kid ive never issue ive bunch anxiety lately prob reason idk today logged old discord account best friend lucy room realized friend ruby still used discord server still active background knowledge ruby friend kindergarten met lucy th grade lucy didnt along first outgoing girly ruby introverts ruby paid mind th grade started middle school ruby classes together lucy classes together say opposites attract even today lucy nothing common still friends outgoing talkative good personality dont ruby lucy best friends middle th grade beginning th grade ruby still ate lunch together didnt hang much always lucy ruby used play video games together dont play games anymore ruby still text sometimes see sometimes moms friends arent close back topic rubys discord server snooping reading chats lucy came ruby saying doesnt understand move quickly lucy happy even liz new best friends even though used known zoe known nd grade stopped talking middle school though liz met th grade ruby crush dont want relationship yet thought ruby still thought friends idk anymore dont feel bad though honestly lucy ruby still ruby lucy feels really bad though lucy issues depression im afraid cut maybe big thunder clap omg lol sorry rant kinda got hand im wrote redflag note im going stab death tonight im scared please help memy parents mormon im tired told im going hell gay everything wrong im tired never happy actually happy jsut faking im tired hiding feelings scared mental hospitals ive already twice attempt hated anything im tired parents arguing fighting dad absolute asshole im tired sister making fun making feel human garbage dont want die want pain end death way jsut told crush liked bi actually chance declined im tired feeling trash uselesss piece garbage crying self sleep every night im weak cant even push single pushup im embarrassment family especially dad ive breathing heavily last hours knife stomach jsut want push bad im scared please help know ones going read want spill feelings die f struggling scaredhi im entirely sure put everything words anyone partner years left days ago didnt want anymore entire future planned half wedding chosen kids names etc told loved went work day stepped foot house night said anymore live together another months separate rooms least im really struggling see point anything anymore pain feel strongly physically makes sick cant eat properly cant sleep properly promotion work meaningless now time soon well time now tried talk feeling struggling hes really well hes happy now gets mad write pro cons lists every single day end pros always win today perfect day hes hes drunk friends housemate one one home days pain scares scares keep going yes little low budget movie shows love bad things tell budget film compare waterworld though plot good film never really tapped full potential strong performances everyone suspense makes worthwhile watch rainy night time half drunk nightly ramblings prepared free speech rants wondering classes tomorrow happy world horriblei hate humanity treat greedy selfish violent plain evil media controlling us technology controlling us feel im spied everything fucking sucks wan na live world always fucking sucked dont see point feel connection towards anyone see help possibility anymore world humanity horrible place fit right im horrible person people surrounding im fucking sick living one cares neither good looks kill ugly bastard hentai law abiding citizen even try anymore wear use disappoint leave mewhy sick pleasure enjoy watching suffer enjoy making sufferthese past days miserable years worth depression happiest month leastat point fault everything always always easy scapegoat anything nobody cares carpet everyone walk need clean shoesi hurting years one even remotely bat eye everyone fake fake care fake attention fake friendships fake family bonds fake work dynamics fake love fake kindness fake fun take never care toolonce stop useful overshadows benefits bring leave deadi one life one soul see burning abysses overseei know going end hell thought ending past months todayjust know previous yo eta probably away current etayou go die even try going kill theni took sertraline months still want kill lt lt lt see drive motivation used feel thrill planning redflag anymore took pills plan written set ready leave shit behind april lowest point enough live near coast england cold water shock makes drowning sure thing around much fun researching reading euphoria drowning salt water limited resources guns cyanide basically access painless methods redflag decided drowning salt water beautiful fatal method oh ophelia never read hamlet time went friends family intervened fantasies thoughts spoke doc upped meds started feel better put mg sertraline point really felt working think killing anymore happy best version dare say felt confident almost invincible even months road serotonin super powers worn leaving quite hollow shell past self really feel anything days aside irritability care anything little empathy almost diluted feeling wanting die yet quite concentrated enough bothered act understand feels im limbo somewhere inbetween wanting feel good things wanting feel bad desperate enough kill numbness feeling neither im bored dumb desire self destructive things drug ive taking codeine relax occasion think wow heroin something subscribes ropiates thats even joke actually subscribe lmao yeah feel though might well take something feel something cant excited anything hard enough find purpose within stupid unescapable system without burden weighed whatever weight crushing skull obviously logical rational thing go tell doctor ya know appointments take weeks well weekend closed drreddit anybody similar experiences feeling numb medication medication feeling wanting die motivation anyone join abr btw abr stands army black rose care deadim fucking tired fake people say shit ill always care lot leave cant handle bullshit anymore know fault lot people suck cant help blame burdening point care anymore guarantee least half people tell kill really give shit died always text day two hear weeks months sometimes never im always one initiating conversation proves point even wish people honest tell relatei feel one understands suicidal thoughts go away im gon na kill never think psychiatrist knows says common people survived traumas suffer multitude mental physical problems im always afraid tell anyone though therapist bc every time talk people concerned know maybe alone best way describe fly contained room always hear buzz sometimes constant droning ear times barely hear soft quick buzz mean never gone away never time think killing im okay now fly rather quiet normal best friends dad committed redflag year ago seems im still caught upback story last november rd roommate time best friends dad committed redflag friend dad odds years especially dropped engineering pursue another degree never spoke often except father mad spoke father conversation cold brief needless say majority stress friends life came father mother sweetest woman think met became close phone calls together often great times together went visit retired french teacher teaches piano goes marathon length runsbikesand cross country skiing daily happy healthy amazing woman father retired job keep people breathing came ambulances sorry remember actual title saw lots people die arms grew cold recluse always kind strong silent type spend weeks time woods thats backstory commited redflag rd birthday th mom finally able build strength call th way work received call first person called devastated got home soon life became blur went home hours away saw mother first time told story finding note calling police helped roommate clean excess supplies dad fixing way go roommate stayed mother never returned house together necessary responsible gone bad break two month previous loosing best friend well dealing emotional weight put dark place flash forward year later call ask come birthday weekend express understanding cant come asks say well least want home rd year anniversary dads death oh mom new bf seeing fine know many different ways people cope grief people hide shrug avoid know best friend inside hold back legitimately feel though situation think almost daily basis still dream coming home house everything involved roommate unintelligent guy opposite true honest mathematical logical tend tune emotion maybe sure sorry long post want know people similar experiences strange still bugs much maybe talking one spewing inner thoughts onto reddit post cant sleepim trapped mind cant even cry anymore titlebroke girlfriend month ago today told never anything using validation apparently cheated different guys person felt sort closeness really loved even supposed cope hurts hell absolutely nobody talk im literally unable function im trying best day f ask stuff please im bored answering questions idk yeah lockdown pissing lockdown used struggle back old life people really pissing rarely go friends house literally talk play ping pong thats yet look social media see people right next one another completely ignoring social distancing struggle seeing family rarely friend even see distance yet apparently rights see eachover without masks distancing anything pisses audacity falsely accused sexual abuse entire life seems ruined even situation died downaround months ago falsely accused sexual abuse exfriend mine thrown jail days legal fees sorted cost well reason im free man exfriend press charges lawyer excellent job proving allegations false even going far friend admitting false allegations reason im even charges dropped name legally restored completely clean record reputation destroyed news report made day went jail story depicting rapist refuse correct story proven falsely accused charges dropped live relatively small state terms population feel target back feel music career opportunities job attend college even live relatively nice place move ruined know best chance starting new life moving away state starting somewhere new feel opportunities completely crushed unable find job people seem believe news story legal matters proved innocent honestly id lying say redflag crossed mind numerous times throughout entire thing id lying sit say want die see way see able live normal life let alone life ive trying work towards long remember ive spending days attempting write anxiety stress blocking creative vision sleeping hours day little motivation chain smoking stress away latest hours night isolation friends trying best help pathway follow one seem relate situation obvious reasons people sit stare shock hear story nothing sympathy agreeing probably start somewhere new sentiments nice still feel alone people understand im shitty situation everyone wants feel sorry everyone looks victim society accepts im done know anymore want live normal life leave place know stopi know typing fine accounts struggle little fine life people around love time bull shit opportunities got go best school country mostly supportive family good boyfriend still cant help fucking enraged im itching twitching picking hands yet cant stop fucking lucky born opportunity waste allowed roam streets free cant even stop hysterically crying picking hands late night even boyfriend lying right next exasperated yet soon times tell dwindling becoming far happen revert fall traps feel right hate hate much feels less forced anything know negative rumination cycle cant quit feeling right im sorry read theres nothing please nice day im big fan movie musicals annie stage show loved movie flop phantom opera movies believe three failed match weber staging loved dvd take place honour among keepers even though movie adaptation somehow captures flavour atmosphere live theatre bette midler always treat exceptional role theres great music lots laughs even tear two ive seen big musicals eighties nineties somehow missed one theres comparison make gets revived first line tickets movie good ill odd position wondering stage production measure movie know joker cards batman card perfect duo joker batman mystery pissing im cop want end itevery day go work feeling might last dangers people present insecurities think depression though certainly factor days think itd better ended offduty personal firearm think far often funny years helped people solve lifeordeath problems im powerless someone gives awardee karma notification right anyone surprised think ban notification bad heart forget star signs whats blanket tog rating guy know pussy feels want know idk maybe search something recreate similar thing help pls ive never horny dont feeling rid dont know better hello age location uk gender male diagnosed psychotic depression anxiety im much medication dont seem getting better getting worse medications mirtazapine mg daily night duloxitine mg daily morning quetiapine mg daily night diazepam mg prn panic attacks im suicidal im self harming cutting im hearing phone whispering im paranoid police coming arrest im anxious go outside im depressed want lay bed day drug big sleep im stuck rock hard place tell psychiatrist know put adult mental health hospital im terrified happening dont tell anyone probably end killing mixed feelings redflag moment anyone give advice thanks replies tiredi tired feeling lonelyi tired darkness tired burden tired bother tired productive tired staying home tired staying alive tired wanting die dad got figured guyslmao think apparently want play victim doesnt know half shit im dealing fuck right oh daughter hinting depressed lol hobby oh kid literally crying next family member talking shit god sensitive imma laugh fuck hate goddamm much pizza roll done ah yes pizza rolls done chomp want outhi im year old female want life ive thinking lot lately feel empty nothing brings joy anymore friends spending time seems chore wherever go find difficult fit feel im entertaining enough people take interest im cool im successful studies ive achieved anything life want hard people takes im confident smart funny time use sarcasm cover anxiety cant handle social situations people tell im pretty thats pretty girl guys look feel never able open anybody see worthy study architecture course longer passion energy motivation create anything every day wake im behind coursework even try catch see succeeding well enough cant handle getting average low grade end one thing chose based things used love im even good breaking heart think never good enough anyone anything attempted redflag guy used school bullied physically verbally day year powerless make stop even friends watched happen bother anything want bad side ive never able stand feel ashamed weak unable anything let people walk rather compromise feel upset someone recently ive feeling simply fit part want die ill never second life believe god believe us humans simply made backbone lives need kind security need feel matter happens someone help us matter bad things theres purpose purpose given god kind security believe die theres place soul go simply stop existing part natural selection world stop die simply sifts better worse want want part anything want stop existing without consequences fall asleep never worry anything cant live anymorethere point living dropped school job little chance finding one friends anymore tired family nothing live anymore turn two weeks fcuk school thats math exam last week wednesday students took exam got canceled apparently teacher gave homework students apparently kind questions thats whole th grade students going exam tomorrow forgot things knew sooo thats nice right book recommendationsanybody got good recommendations books covering effects redflag children whose parents decide take life looking material draw friend struggling suicidal thoughts kids nothing technical please thanks advance help drunken sailor drunken sailor early morning months school every year chose alone yet sad wasnt fault guys think vaccine idk might wait months first wave people take comes kinda seems little rushed tbh dog died recently died recently got new adopted brother dad promised father man helped carriage accident still baby father died month ago dad returned favor adopting son worst human planet kissed girlfriend without consent bullies constantly made friends hate yesterday returned home school heard crunch sounds oven looked inside saw beloved dog danny burning heard brother laughing burried dog outside brother walked inside punched face broke jaw started crying dad decided punish brother got away without anything fuck dio brando hope one day drown burning ship minecraft ps players hear attempting create role play series map much construction dont many ideas need group people help help series ps film right ps way please help baked please hmu fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller want go back orange black meant halloween know im probably gon na hate super straight community care thing straight people wanted parade parade flag straight struggle looked straight bullied straight disgusting invent whole sexuality wan na date trans person im saying find someone trans decide comfortable dating fine hurting whole trans community keep bottling emotionsi fucking hate fact men cant actually express feelings except anger happiness want friends feel know try change subject feel extremely uncomfortable god forbid man says insecurities admit crying weak manly shit ups male redflag rate seems know one seems care want tell friend im suicidal want scare push away keep bottling emotions cant fucking take keep kill l least want know cant bring even say word redflag around know accept part brain still telling bad things happen tell know say without coming across weak know fucking fucking alone life live anymore told friend reasonably annoyed hung phone spoken mei one friend used treat bad literally scared talk triggers know sounds nothing reasons want die plus handle little things nowadays eitheri want fall asleep never wake honest god might finally go advice attemptinghello im currently recovering failed redflag attempt immediate intense support time go back normal life something im really struggling time months ago thought id paid rent gone work commuted done weekly shopping etc last time yet back life living feel know expect back things nothing happened went hospital real intense therapy waiting list cbt eyes ive treated better now really hard told time support networks feeling suicidal even dealing grief caused redflag experience theres much weird recovery phase feel im living dream world moment sometimes things even seem real help much appreciated dont know doim pregnant severe antenatal depression single today formally abusive boyfriend started becoming increasingly aggressive leave wouldnt let flat bit minor violence realised let go stomach agony way hope collapsed incredibly sick pure stomach acid im petrified case baby hurt reason im alive somethings happened refuse continue baby okay im awful position live vulnerable womens hostel surviving month extra week part time fast food job cant dont family support im getting back boyfriend cant risk hurting child dose anyone know im doin wrong school work problem one whats sort things write equation problem gives came equation dn n problem put four puts makes continues trend correct equation wrong m diagnosed depression anxiety suicidal thoughts years planso know thought posting reading id give attention severe posts lame ass one ive suicidal thoughts ish never anything times ive made plans gave circumstances id kill never meet criteria times ill knife ready pussy whimp gave overall plan within coming years years old killed anyways solid band following music reliable wifepossible family steady career ill need one work really fucking dumb im lonely desperate need something work penis balls choose ass weakling everything readyim alone room drunk ready jump fail fall window height enough rid night progress reasons jump increase gib notifications comment nowwwww yknow interesting watching half people involved deadbr br anyways long time ive watched anything muppet related stuff pure gold im great fan puns movie quite well placed one amazing aspects pacing really highspeed childrens pacing filmmakers randomly decide move story along without giving characters depth kind moves along characters wherever want gobr br kermit frog awesome character voice expressions puppetface fantastic points hes popularhe sing make jokes toobut appropriately hes endearinghe without effort inspires everyone search dreams meantime deal uncommon theme family moviesbr br contains quite ensemble comedians making appearances great effect others little less think mel brooks part bit overplayed parts film kind odd highly imaginative takes destination different directionbr br moving right alongbr br polarisdib happy diwali teenagers around globe diwali indian festival festival light never failed lifting spirits send warmest greetings people reading post across world hope something good anything really happens help thereive read many posts heres last days many people think theres hope run group fb called pay forward global ones theyre linked know right one bc admin amanda roo fb pp kangaroo find find talk im anyone needs stuckive attempted redflag many times already last one weeks ago serious far excuses cerebral palsy alone rejection family living arrangement dissolved know go im stuck definitely know feel near future try soon idk loud music help nothing cutting bit kind helps christ furious fucking angry want something severe fucking angry want severely hurt think going kill point wrote note phone whenever deed guess someone might end finding really matter found might help someone realize pain constantly life caused actions rest put onto never see future capacity guess wrote suicide note assisted redflag people mental illness needs legal nobody deserves feel thisif gone process countless times countless medications work whats point making someone go way living want die let go terms hospital bed surrounded friends family love instead sneaking middle night blow brains hard comfortable looks idk told im good looking im super insecure making fun year old still making among us references im hypocrite okay want squirted feel fakei feel actually suicidal wouldnt much fucking pussy wouldve already done pass time idk im really bored right anyone recommend good acoustic songs favorite pretender ajr havent heard great song disable ring im classic high school scenario parents going town weekend want friends issue ring system covers sides house even living room anyone know disable things bru kinda funny someone fr tries insult u u joking think im fr aight question u guys put s end ur jokes feel worthlessi dropped highschool job parents kepp giving grief idea one continuously made fun od things mum dad siblings feel apreciated want die thanks reading everything hurtsi know fix feel besides getting away transphobic parents im nonbinary enough money hate go community college kind tried kill last year hate feeling every day exactly hate im eating healthy working taking antidepressants everything still hurts every day want live anymore please make stop hurting know deserve want things better im trying really really hard gotten better think maybe im bad evil deserve want happy im tired waking every day exactly last know keep repeating know anymore im tired sad time planet worthlessthis bunch people ripping apart beating senselessly giant fucking competition unrelenting shitshow people always win always lose rigged purpose pretend put quarters pull slot times surely least throw coins time everywhere look people tearing ripping apart spitting laughing mocking treating horrible everyone thinks theyre much better everyone ones relentlessly abused kill die exhaustion symmetrical body comes along shower validation pleasure happiness specific body shape ultimately merit human nothing nothing less reward cherish understand reading history horrible species engages awful acts often pretend pretend cant even talk pretend everything wonderful people pumped full psychiatric drugs simply imbalanced joke society everyone hormonally imbalanced longer touch following everyone told follow bunch willing lemmings falling cliff fear labeled outsider cant blame least theres degree companionship lot family less abandoning always embarrassed concerned came friends person blame im realizing many opportunities around never will sort things show life every three lives family need take one thrown boat correct cant blame peers see differently theyre either intimidated find chump nothing bonding respect friendship love physical mental intimacy put gun head fact way everything fixed id dead longer using resources longer whining longer bitching slot cant find role beyond lowest low sounds nice wish strong enough kill wish power something even second power empowerment interesting usual porn movie fantasy adventurethe production values high acting isbelieve pretty goodespecially jenna jamesonits widescreen helpsit gives feeling real motion picture porn moviebutof course porn really good one nice costumesfine atmosphere sceneryand waythe sex hotbr br watch one stupid house helpingi living two familys thanks dumb ass event going everyone high tension even one says blow one son finally stood got bitched putting foot got quite place calm tightness around neck starts time almost found something put drank little calm nerves im still shaking argument though trying still even quetions affect son everyone life hope fine reason using sub diary day today really normal keep mind letting behind ill start school tomorrow im stressed angry thats strange sure welcometomorrow ill search way hide money keep rating day mayor sad happy event resaltate lets see tomorrow wied girl years older im said reason started dating age difference anyone seen hat lost hat fucking sick everything know even still alive none means fucking thing anyway fucking bored bored fucking deepest depths soul hate alive hate fucking depressed time nothing helps fucking pills therapy hit three months sober clean selfharm change fucking thingi want numb want go huge drug filled bender go somewhere loud angry music fucking high forget even exist care dangerous give shit kills anyone miss anyway even fucking stuck fucking lockdown right now still feel need something break fucking monotony point getting drunk home listen loud music even alone drugs either getting drunk really cut anymorei stuck bullshit time break stuck thinking ways mix shit go bender cover cuts institutionalized break arm fucking set fire something dunnojust fucking sick living want say fuck impulsive shit guess forgot read countrys native language yep guessed correctly kingqueen meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ive lost liverecently moved ga florida work witch hate job girlfriend dumped valentines day severe anxiety social problems basically lost person truly cared friends im close family terms family go love miles anyone new feel people dont im flee mother earth needs die already attempted past lived mom caught prevented completed im alone another know anywhere close sounds tempting revisit parents upset phones day yeah know bad concerned us disturbing anything minding businesses friends give fuck meit seems lately ive dropping hints want know one person care die exactly change mind mind set want know im completely alone death ive come realization dad give fuck two glad really depressing spend every day two people honestly mind pretending everything fine anyone actually cares ive come across painless way commit redflag im ready im caught causing dad much pain hes really reason yet im scared tell anyone fear someone try tell care nobody understands done deal already im waiting right time ask anyone understand mean care go want deal whether friend say friend lightly really friends two people spend time depressed someones company try help want see smile theyre sick dealing lot handle negative energy around time know know tell obvious truth im theyre alone think theyre gon na used around much longer know im gon na ive told im going wait dad dies try cope redflag point im loss know make long know deal life top losing best friend father idk even know im posting feel maybe problem guys maybe one actually care time maybe im hassle maybe im worth talking instead ignoring idk anyways hope everyone good night still thinking dying alone world appearanceif curious story see previous post used driven determined make better life barely bed objectively bad looking anyone guaranteed alone miserable day drop finish whats point even trying polishing turd wanted world never day sit computer ranting online disgusting looking people try console make feel better fact arguably least attractive guy planet death friend ive gotten ad glossier lip balm thing many times plzzz stop want bad im literally cant afford anyone wan na buy jk unless xi already accepted living cool suicidal ready death accepted talked every day looked every day thought every day see anything wrong death happens ugly tragic see death waste live every day last yes now know scared nothing bothers okay nothing hurts started happen quite bit past year due job demands increasing feeling things fault controli start crying work redflagfrustration sudden begin laughing madman uncontrollable extreme urge drive head wall happen anyone crying redflag uncontrollable laughter afraid dying hope doi always afraid death im sure im point yet take life mind much say oncoming semi swerved lane want alive anymore fact many good people die easily take place injustice dad heated discussion shark tank seems think everyone show greedy thinks offer one shark equal offer two sharks hey think anyone cares one talk young life already reached point rather dead continue life want talk personally want keep either night lying know maybe anybody help hard times covid quarantine lots people probably struggling depression im tell go outside hang people go hobbies play sports make sure safe virus tho depression killed many people covid will find something rather feeling sad kept aliveim kept alive will crohns disease endometriosis chronic acute tmj severe social anxiety im flat dumb hate life nothing contribute please let fucking go teachers apologise accents americans know teachers uk apologise video american accent opposite true guys spoon dick hard butt titty hand kiss ya neck hell yeah new im new reddit general cant post weekends particular reason stupid lowered volume switch lower volume music laptop friends made new voice channel invite decided vc excludes one person friend group person started kicking channel tried hide checked audit logs yeah made new one guess right exclude want least im online tf bad say dont gay people bring sexuality time dont ive friend constantly bringing gay found annoying tf bad find annoying makes sense swim think laps usually selfloathing pondering sexuality pondering gender wondering boy next lane likes wondering song stuck head even support sub one cares loli knew life joke test see ill break help mei want kill everyone hate world everything nothing good life guys said cant go guys bathroom definitely look male irl go womens train bladder hold pee hours straight never use dumb bathrooms im never actually horny anybody masturbate orgasm feel good boy nothing funny boy anyone friend ltlt ill put warning cuz touchy subject wan na cause ptsd anyone gtgt anyone friend everyone loves hate time one everyone vents even tho cant handle anymore one kid allowed step line start venting cuz start calling self centered well im friend even call friend try best appeal everyone somehow turns best keep everyone together everyone comes im miracle worker ive carried burden many peoples redflag thoughts even parents struggling hard carry tell people cant take care anymore mad ask whats wrong keep know comes next finally pry start venting thats everything crumbles allowed vent anymore huh tell time try vent push away saying cant anymore allowed vent im self centered hear words echo made self centered one call selfish instead id understand bit better become self centered honestly haunts idk anymore friends ruining mental health seem understand actions tell need take break look one stirring trouble hurt know one problems insults better proper english insult proper fine victorian english thine cunt rancid smell rotten egg late twenties depressed many years maybe childhood reckon notredflag school whenever single hooking sex life great untill partner three years split break last months sex used masterbate well less resort therapist telling making depressed think masturbating helps makes worse depression m im feeling sad lonely hey ive feeling pretty lonely feeling kinda lately love friends talk toplay games games mainly play valorant among us minecraft interested pls private message oh pst est time zones im feeling incredibly sad atm thanks know doive never connected people ive friends still people life consider friends think different people really connections people talk people drive completely insane around people consider extrovert im alone definitely see introvert know never see people people friends basically people know better others concept loving someone loved return know feels friends know friend whatever times love alone explore mind try figure im really love friends actually want something even hanging people call best friends know really cant take anymore sometimes simple thinking things times sitting floor cut leg bloody razor blade know us british people guns haveummmpotato guns potatoes yeah take please hurt got appt psyc new job starting august wanted ahead redflag depressive symptoms returning unpleasantly upped sertraline mg added wellbutrin mg cover bases say stable work coming things nice hear anybody experience two together symptoms returning med increase today got ta tested covid th september played basketball guy tested positive wish luck feel losti want tell friend mine love im scared feel way ill think something really stupid impulse now want leave people care things want want go rest life without telling feel feel screws friendship feel might end something really stupid one close friends two steps away getting run car accident last week really scared know tell modern era one likes theres room left hermiti annoy everyone maybe first maybe old friends friends new keep friends fact driven away eventually statistically continue young biggest fear shots big dogs heights similar things terrified core becoming lowest common denominator fear absolute uncontrollable spasms emotion desperations throughout middleschool skills math science capability bringing mire merely passed one ear years later find anything beyond absolute basic concepts fail comprehend make use wasted formative years frozen fear failure failed act freeze anything constantly fail complete work whereupon told lazy oafish work fucking grocery store looking going career heard anthonys song bullet seems rather preferable life bottom pyramid solid unremarkable film matthau einstein wonderful favorite part thing make go way see wonderful scene physicists playing badmitton loved sweaters conversation waited robbins retrieve birdie certainly best movie ive seen certainly worth cant said many movies daysbr br pleasant account true story although many details real story twisted movie ie billy sundays character three four people real story combined together robert deniro course good cuba gooding jr impressive really mean romantic way mean human miss humans miss conversations learning things people want go adventures one come want laugh someone things human around lot humans kind sucks life really sucks alone know movie people watched must seen different joseph smith prophet restoration one sawbr br think movie welldone inspiring think definitely worth watching apparent outset lot care went making film background scenery beautifulbr br think film good job portraying joseph smith man prophet josephs spiritual experiences portrayed taste reverencebr br definitely recommend watching movie love took life want join himmy recent ex wed broken month still contact took life th april wanted nothing see selfish want join make sure knows love single fun relationship wasnt particularly awful random panic attacks right breaking honestly feel pretty rad talk two people now honestly great feel focus aspects life arent social know relationship lasted year changing passwords exs name bitch cast surfer dude beach scenes almost got cast muscle guy real muscle guy really really late day pauly brother skateboarder front tattoo place vj stuff takes live venice still mtv thing movie really good well made top something crazyrun awaystart new life advice guys always give still want dieim suicidal want die multitude reasons ill give quick summary really point post basically family drug addict dad sexually assaulted dead siblings prison life friends poorly educatedpoor job prospects dropped college due constantly suicidal student loancredit cardmedical debt cant even drive nobody showed always poor afford pay classes gay first probably boyfriend cheatedabused much anyway think case redflag pretty clear cut simply nothing good going tons bad realistic pathway getting shit im deep hole already theres absolutely nobody willing help depression least anymore logic rational thinking sometimes best cut losses fold hand im total waste space little potential squandered im even position modest dreams likely never anyway nearly killed end decided right blew brains guess might well try cliche advice everyone always says title always scoffed literally nothing lose whatever figured better go bang travelled miles bus spent time homeless months homelessness managed find place stay unfortunately really point still want die actually regret experience kind fun interesting fixed absolutely none problems sure seeing new sights experiencing different culture meeting new people interesting experience fix irredeemable life shitty circumstances horrible luck toxic past bleak future absolutely yeah thats nobody say try ill leaving within next couple days tried best sometimes best good enough life never gave fair chance unavoidable death inevitable anyway see anything wrong expediting process nothing look forward life ps giving chemical lobotomy antidepressants telling someone problems paid pretend care therapist going work know ive already tried multiple times neither change objective facts life always shit redflag logical response conclusion ill probably kill time parents diemany times past every winter last years actually point thing keeping alive thought much hurt parents killed theyre dead reach point first time ill probably theres nobody life think couldnt cope redflag nobody whos close enough really really badly affected longterm basis wrote felt laptop never againi never life talked depression anxiety keep bottled inside write somewhere whether laptop paper ive writing diary years parents havent found one time decided write laptop parents found said ive feeling depressed whole life wanted die wasnt death note anything expressing feeling time mum found screamed yelled blamed told never dumb shit depression head im faking attention feel im always damn phone bring ask still think dumb shit say better tell truth im thinking ending allthis second post come reddit time need simply feel last hope want end life now seems easy give let relief death overtake longer suffer moments sorrow free stress responsibility longer worry people think things much easier despair dread feel every waking moments torture im years age yet already sufferer extreme anxiety normal comingofage anxiety anxiety plagued mind first grasp human interaction emotion traumas ive experienced certainly contributed well suffer minor form depression although told life better easier things seem going steadily downhill things dont seem getting better ive decided post last sliver hope something someone convince life isnt bad seems wanted voice heard anyone ends reading message thank getting point school alright ahem know ive seen lot fuck school posts im gon na tell think school alright teachers cool nice fun stuff going trips cooking contest stuff actually learn stuff really useful stuff meh video calls classes assignments instructions tasks im th grade know highschool norway lot hate schools thought might share think school best film seen last years surely row masterpieces platoon apocalypse now doors dogs heart russian film really play boy parents good cant even say play live happening notice smile faces main hero agrees go walk hate love one piece final scenebr br really im still impression film hard even impossible combine humor tragedy succeed frederikson impact twice strongbr br compared one flew cuckoos nest film either novel good frederiksons movie seems simple difference noticed watched film american history x romper stomper latter deeper mean milos forman showed material point view problem watch say yes good film thats angels leave wide base think bad good boys film cause right behave way girlfriend one patient course young pregnant problem husband clinic feelings emotional experience exfriend even stronger result suicide ask done insane ask support help understand finally even funny people talk say genius things lot things say film im good english im sure watched movie understand mebr br good luckbr br shit sucks last days lost wife child house car job next financial stabilitythis first time able charge phone last month liver probably going fail kill first time remember drunk excluding thisall started rape accusation enough shit stacked almost found guilty something god knows wife divorced found unfit parent lost job afford car anymore nothing clothes phone plan donating shortly backpack suppliesim known pedophile area nobody go money even leave nothing leftall life end see happens next god know iti feel need privacy anymore got morphine willing answer questions poverty crime suicide tell girl likes female friend really close give take years want ask dont want ruin friend ship says mean says awkward guys tricks help figure wasnt sure flair im considering kill give reason toi considering overdosing meds cant figure complete assignment im going sooni know anymore cant hold even call centre job causes extreme panic attacks future career prospects family see failure disappointment lie constantly burden problems way anymore know theyre going think im selfish killing really way anymore go away end week im going nobodys stop people come go constantly might close best friend several weeks months suddenly reach say anything anymore ghosted people use move feel done got want told must constantly things time every single day meet new people make new friends cycle continues people want friends flake beginning others stick around little bit couple years best point naturally social creatures even solitary people crave interaction really give us end sure fun memory two movies songs anime etc preach value friendship friends stick matter congrats people either exist rare find especially dawn smartphones streaming etc nobody wants commit anymore nobody wants friends anymore want followers clout rate going die alone bitter angry world people continue insist much value friendships cant think titlei really know start im unemployed live mother recent state affairs recently hospitalized father visited told move shit hes pissed cant say blame hes paying education fucked struck last chance pursue dream left ill never able afford go back mother urging move back said better people talk full shit talks convenient time try talk acts put conversation chore mean demonize parents father least hes good ive consistently fucking became ill senior year high school got tired wasted lot money mother martyr drama queen cant talk either father intimidating thinks hes smarter really wrong hes one smartest men know severely overestimates hes stubborn presumptuous seems think knows exactly im going seems think able healthy handle told hes wrong well fact tells leave room time try correct matter matter anyway relationship essentially know deal mother every time try talk shit gives generic advice makes whatever guess girlfriend exhausted tired bullshit ive put lot past seven years unhappy relationship contributes relationship lot able thats shitty relationship little offer deserves lot handle diagnosis well said lot shit things im really comfortable repeating ive given every chance leave says want cant talk either plenty shit worry grown tired listening say im bitter angry depressed irritable person guess sort gets exhausting listen friends band mates really cant talk reason pretty tight weve playing together five six years thats enough put frustrated ramblings schizophrenic loser mother girlfriend band mates thats left cant talk single one really respond im talking something particularly interesting guitarist probably best friend lot alike really problem drummer good dude general talk anything long im dumping bullshit everyone pretty much ignores try talk something girlfriend lot kills ill bring something id talk shell respond shell flat ignore say start talking something wants talk im interesting anymore really anyone whos interested say reach internet frequently someone talk join forums websites according interests meet people talk think im interesting never lasts long bored eventually stop talking every single time ive quite know maintain friendship ive lost social skills im alone thoughts theyre dangerous thoughts medications effectively gotten rid hallucinations still episodes bimonthly basis terrifying experience one im sure explain disorienting confusing suffocating im nightmares dream people love care people think im interesting enjoy company wake inside dream eventually fade back feeling loved happens eventually figure im dreaming wake try remember dream fade back feeling loved never worst part never wake keeps happening crushing every time apparently none medications fatal consequences overdose suppose thats good thing maybe ill try heroin lol help listen school understand memes really introduced internet earlier sent cursed meme school group chat saw please help think hit ghost deer im driving dads house morning im older road goes county dad lives ive driven road mom im drivers permit many times say im decent driving age drove illegally im driving road parallel deer infested forest deer jumped front knew going hit braked anyway felt hit car im surprised airbags didnt go mom sister car felt hit pulled assess damage nothing scratches dents nothing deers mess car right driving ton volvo still damage right looked deer find blood guts anything either looked ditches mom got gun incase need put misery nothing explanation know people smarter hear sort explanation personally dont want think ghost deer something tell good enough hereim going run facts entirely long ive chronically ill age four almost twenty ive almost died twice due medical issues ive never attempted redflag institutionalized sick incurable conditions every waking moment rest life im child single mom busting ass care great job dad care feel biggest burden earth beyond miserable broken sickly body body body failed return feel failing mom people care honestly need told im worthy living someone mom help girl epic story epicness online friend felt bad friends tried introduce best friends random ass reason got mad one told ip stuff delete server friends felt uncomfortable fucking genius innit fucked possibility new friends know doive never posted know im yearold girl even know begin ive eating disorder really begin bad th grademy mother responded getting angry threatening forced recover still struggle presently switch periods starving cutting going senior year high school pressured pick college apply know make big decision know want fall miserably boring career teacher encourages go art school saying im good enough go art center risd stand failing parents treating told mentality see future holds anything scared going alone license drive yet attributes extremely low feelings self worth parents seemed eager help twin brother license even bought carbut never seem willing help wish help know ask lack mobility alienate friends fear judge push people away boys express interest dating discourage want responsible happiness another cant imagine anyone liking even find repulsive basic issues right now even begin address everything goes head everything overwhelming understand people deal lives hard want go another year misery think redflag often easy access mg prescription sleeping pills bottles prescription antidepressants overdose easily okay slitting wrists femoral artery sorry long thanks read needed say something ive never talked anyone friends even know hadhave eating disorder even though ive never eaten lunch beforeand parents oblivious guess hi everyone im broke many people sub im actually asking money money keep anyway already entered promo code need bonus cash app dont bank account understand someone send send right back first know bruce willis good actor take majority movies see characters moments character movie far beyond every single one far counting story begins far future man sent past find source virus swept humanity face earth story seems go towards sf think closer drama slow rhythm story movies tend faster slower points develop towards end beginning see movie aware constant rhythm story revealing facts speed slow one speed flows gently pretty good mean ending wont pull nerves cause pretty good far direction goes prefect movies easily destroyed bad directing one become far better getting ready see scifi movie action miss b movies spirit september one failed redflag attempt got life track every feelings come day feeling weakness failure today feeling much bigger pushier feel cant make serious debt cant burden parents anymore problems financial cant escape always come back biggest pressure dont feeling cant every months failed parents rough semester due covid really bad college fell scholarship list much money feelings pushy want happy tonighti give im done bs depression ive years gon na detail came decision nobody really cares im killing tonight thats final decision bye want lose fat anyone tips advice subreddits go basically im yo dude big belly makes feel bad causes pains ribs spine wan na look healthy next summer soldier ill end becoming one cases dad killed two years agoim life objectively bad ok career marry etc always dream mine little girl nice dog perfect family life problem dog dies children grow leave point ill finally decide call quits begs question bother creating family know ill never happy throw away bother carrying im going bother pursuing always wanted wayne wangs direction may ingredient made film much impressive slums beverly hills covers remarkably similar ground interplay susan sarandon natalie portman riveting real chemistry film succeeded bringing inside dysfunctional life two women without dragging depressed frustration susan sarandons character hammers nerves narcissistic parent capable touching insecure adolescent amazingly manages without coming across floridly insane intentionally sadistic natalie portman deflects attack characters ego resigned grace intelligent codependent child untainted smug cynicism natasha lyonne character slums beverly hills portmans character adolescent dignity stress unusual creature modern films film reaches satisfying resolution without trying hard highly recommend film viewer wants challenged entertained sure im right placeabout month ago partner years experienced profound loss mom ive trying rock needs made mistakes taking full consideration time well points showed emotion lives better met want end problems im scared might break help maintaining distance needs grieve well knows alone anything everything deal grief supportive im anti simp fuck yeah ive never received compliment girl im total antisimp level fuckin simps people things cant even things enjoy anymore lmao sleep much know whyi cant help matterall make mistakes bad events life fault friends really care family talk im nazi secret abortion little secret girlfriend boyfriend im ugly manage convince every day look ok feel ok amp ok always amazed event something works hate everything illusion minutes ill feel fine go back fuck im even really depressed im happy day im cheerful night play video games friends im depressed im overreacting still going post fucking care anymore never really power anything think ill stand amp take will sincerely hope everyone alive today feels pain must try bully harass wont theyll killed want anymore means real friend real friend one see long time finally meet says wow look shitty always need reasons kill myselfi planned killing yesterday didnt go im going try today wont lie say dont want help family simply cant afford already owe ten grand last time hospitalized dont want make twenty im much pain cutting thighs dont energy keep living tried talking therapist basically told go walk maybe help dont know itll stop altogether maybe itll help last another day sorry posting two days row one turn personally think movie pretty good almost rates liked ethnography aspect well gorgeous photography colin firths character likable better decent job role heroine played beautiful nia long familiar film heroine trying thinks best child marrying respected member expatriate community fighting attraction bad man one whos member community outsider film mothers struggle whats expected thinks best son follow heart want give away ending let say feelgood movie gorgeous location shots exquisite african dress worth seeing film womens brilliantly colored african clothing headdresses likable characters overall actor plays nia longs son bright adorable plot bit formulaic liked movie nonetheless colin firth fan must see film chic flicks see think ill watch tonight getting worseeveryday think ending life though posting ill go thread comment happy comment something doubt im even depressed think im trying attention fucking pathetic want die fucking badlyim giving end month make something happen theres point living stupid things kids people want know kind things think stupid people kids mainly kids much homeworkim getting hours homework every day cant spend time family friends barely time talk girlfriend parents yell manage time better really difficult cause usually hours sleep every night cant wake early cause feel emotionally deprived anything wanted drop college classes parents let yelled spending time anyone everyone thinks im lazy really im drained fucking thing every day want kill ends im tired shit unpopular opinion uhhh weebsgtgtgtgtgtgt want someone watch anime heh yesterday bought games doom bit strage play games came befor born still pretty fun bought first ones evan sale steam sorecommended think im going kill next weeksive always disappointment many mom dad brother friends especially ive always tried become best im sorry im good enough ive wasted best opportunity long time everyone things life hello im live singapore many others used extroverted incident became wish never happen used talk lot well little much guess primary school sabotaged many times take innocence advantage accusations beating juniors stealing teachers wallet many tried best say one discipline master resisted got canned real bad strokes secondary school little know disliked many sabotaged hyped day orientation hyped still extroverted mind u lot friends secondary school thought way earlier year discipline master secondary school claimed sexually harrass classmate mine sensetive person resisted much much point discipline master knew lying got canned friends left alone social anxiety started increase bunch comes today barely friends introverted education system putting much pressure knew life picked another secondary school friends always spread rumors smoking sexual harrassment tried best ignore avail even try love something kept pulling barely talk friends social anxiety got bad led depression dont really know cut watch gore listen death metal im sure im going insane normal teenagers tonight overmy parents got letter saying ive placed conditional leave im almost still undergrad cant finish drive parents crazy rely support everything cant face another lecture parents cant face disappointment yet wish knew easy way go everything seems painful wish wake morning wish knew someone able come place take cat away want make sure someone care love much know long anyone find im worried know point writing doubt ill change mind catharsis guess thank reading candy man karaoke httpsyoutubegxoomdmylihttpsyoutubegxoomdmyli anybody remember judy b jones takes back kindergarten melancholy haruhi suzumiya anime left quite impression partially characters many fall anime fantasyscifi stereotypes placing stereotypes rather mundane setting high school twist appreciated theres somewhat insane titular character something headstrong almost amoral girl ridiculous amounts talent secret aware ofbr br setup series bit mindtrip essentially suzumiya unbeknown sort superpowerful capable godlike feats creation destruction destroy rebuild reality whim narrator primary character kyon high schooler whose sympathycuriosity haruhi appears cause drag will club starting spice life bored normal life searching adventure claims three unusual members secrets end dragged crazy schemesbr br bit crazy enjoyable philosophic consideration early debate whether world merely haruhis creation gets bored old one whether characters exist serve serve continue exist whether exist without bit conundrum enjoyable one scififantasy scenarios occasionally occur series think joy series lies normal things remains tension knowing things boring haruhi might destroy world hopes making interestingbr br art clean line ive come expect anime typically gets imported us character designs whole lot action series think sits better way series narrated mind kyon play omniscient narrator comments knows feels hes lot going head actually speak whole lot good hear itbr br voice acting english dub acceptable enough prefer japanese acting stranger aspects series parodies traffics fanboyism found amusing first season admit theres lack closure series really larger story arc seems take things one time easy series pick put although think rather entertaining qualities still quite hard put based series light novels author directly involved writing seriesbr br even though based novels still wish series stronger story arcs love naturally watch characters develop well series play quiet moments well crazier ones seeing haruhi grow quite treat well watching relationships develop sos brigade haruhis clubbr br everyone due mindtwisting premise extraordinary beings mundane world setting probably sate fanboys actionscififantasy might little offkilter relationshiporiented drama lovers willing try something little different strangely quirky series think melancholy haruhi suzumiya rather refreshingly unique enjoyable series please cowardly myselfif magic button erase existence including minds close hesitate press mother never found happened rest pleased part watches shows serial killers envy victims disappear never heard ideal im pathetic maybe lucky one night meteor fall directly pillow obliterating body heres hoping quiet way dogo made hot top time rteenamiugly im proud little jacky fell bad got krama got treats lot belly rubs anybody chat looking company matter saying peacei wish say tried failed want somewhere record tried best gave enough life eh person past near years lost child new born daughter congenital diaphragmatic hernia fought lost made almost month doctors said hours son wonderful kid bit insane smart clever hell kept hanging fault hes good kid almost six now almost ten years meeting recovering surgery mother going cancer took mother said love forever month ago sticking woman thick thin find shes seeing ex flame ran face book screwing behind back wants move monday none less reward stay home dad devoted child hotel room thats even name weeks tops try sort start new life fuck face takes old one house child things ex part say hell always due mix mother died past years havent birth certificate meaning real id crux matter people identity stolen mine got one night wandered sit one day till next morning wake kiss son good bye go cheap motel mini fridge microwave told make even name dollar pocket tried damn try much though want fair right really hope new guy treats son well mother tells ok guy want name will tried remember ok thank sorry wall text plan nowive suicidal years life screwed im lost stepbrother sisterinlaw house property lot guns think im going borrow sisters mm go somewhere property kill might take car somewhere beautiful blow brains drivers seat let someone heart abuse fuck hate want read see hate life much tried post different subreddit work im annoyed impatient message mod make post nobody read anyway nothings even enjoyable anymore barely motivation school work grades going well right now already know im going kill ive already made notes im killing right anything online stuff work im done cant post pics anymore thought able girlfriend pretty similar situations right even know help feel useless reason still even anything help thinks one cares literally one care love much bad hurts much says stuff fault thinks know difficult hear sometimes stay clean self harm starting hate even scars look ugly legs never going go back normal want die scared might happen girlfriend letters somewhere everyone think needs one much pussy think much longer anymote alivei nothing dragging others time feel bad reason purpose live sort way find purpose anything idek try itd much better go im still young rather im older many responsibilities even try anymore gon na happiness even feel great anyway guy ask girls society guys one typically ask girl watched rw years ago idk never want anyone deal suicide conscious blame anyone now literally depressed obviously okay mmmm dunno startin think lot people shit done moreeelike never wanted feel blame suicide strong motivator still alive type now bitter shit world kind done kind literally everything go fuck care literally kind point maladaptive survival core beliefs strongest notredflag fight happens getting ass continuously handed whatever forces routine basisbut jesus man hug hard give knew one save life im lowest things keep getting worse worseim finding new ways make things worse im done everything cant anymore really trying best stay alive hurt think possible trying whatit years wife developed drinking problem strangest thing doesnt even drink lot little small grass wine becomes mr hyde abusive three children episodes hospitalized drinking mental health issues two occasions together years love damn love starting early february tried leave couple occasions recent occasion slept woman wife first time relationship fairly good sex shortly parting ways night occurred dont want sleep anyone wife sex without love doesnt seem worth love wife went home things good week dealing stressful housing situation several months finally ended day together kids school spent day together bed sex together great next day went work glass wine lunch mr hyde came home argued tried damndest keep together left took cab moms called couple days later begging another chance told loved always give another chance said mom bring home next day next day came wouldnt answer phone text night say wasnt coming home said tired disappointing knew deep never stop drinking drove moms house find went house person described little brother part friends group ran kidteenager spent last years prison forgery car theft burglary aggravated assault theft round activities days isnt hard inmates cell phones years ago noticed posted facebook miss thinking hope okay dreamed last night hope well xoxo thought inappropriate married woman send another man asked stop talking agreed complied couple years released started talking work left house found reiterated little brother found went lost drove california got stupid stoned walked hole thighs pacing miles beach called right got back truck called coward leaving kids mom ran guilted returning northern arizona got home sleeping next phone picked read text knew romantic woke told begged steadfast told couldnt live without steadfast ran house walked away got truck called redflag prevention hotline joke sent police house tried coax home police listening speaker phone knew better drove phoenix plan didnt want die love love husband father told going focus learn independent met almost life skills pretty much raised ward state parents never prepared life neither state spent teenage years juvenile prison moved shelter northern az lived truck phoenix shelter kicked testing positive drugs pawned kids mom moved business result happened got physically demanding job slept truck showered gym busted ass talked tried friend need life one night working called walked away line hid talking pissed ran told whatever back ended conversation love yous back forth next day said memory conversation blacked okay crushed text later night tell year old daughter stole grandmas pot given wife called daughter lunch break told wife put going far boost daughter unlocked window go pot person totally character turned went got babies easy pretend hate felt better lost wasnt person anymore ignored texts made arraignments daughters stay respective best friends son stayed friend last weekend called ask locate phone got left house drank half gallon vodka somehow fell broke rib come find pushing file divorce wasnt ready motherinlaw told asshole used beat mom become obvious trying isolate pretty much going check list shit abuses trap victims love wife dont know job hiatus corona wife wrapped psycho kids begging fight full custody im basically homeless im suicidal need run keep im afraid kill leave kids run hate probably end state custody want run im useless kids best night last night walking neighbourhood listening book music full moon lots stars threw lot social distancing signs fuck met brother together hate seeing ugly signs scattered around parks one tell im finally killing myselfi need void years years im finally ready time mess succeed dont care anymore medication therapy hospitalization ive realized ptsd commit redflag mind nothing feels real ive attempted know reached one last time earlier today counsellor college ok made really realize go feel free feel peace ready quit telling never give upjust let die quit relying anything give understand thing gave life meaning gave life purpose coming back shell never come back right leave fools sticking around blind cant see man knew dead long time im im corpse im rotted remains friend stupid staying longer stay painful itll im weak tired anything im gon na finally bite bullet tie rope end pitiful joke life look around exact situation year ago gon na end way except time fail kill leave now im already dead anyways ill problems need checking every minutes make sure thrown bridge happens literally everytime start anything new last time got new job months ago soon really real everything starts happening hit overhwhelming feeling give now kill gon na end last time now theres seriously point keep fighting swear ill kill th birthday idiot kill new year haha idiot actually change officially wrote suicide note wanted kill today kept thinking friend family rely strength shoulder cry things got hard thinking kill selves bare thought hate needed keeping everyone together know loved easily kill know suicidal thoughts real low point people never realize strongest people ones hurting show sadness take lightly strong woman offers advice encouragement truly hurting mentioned mom depressed still chose laugh face today broke cried honestly triggered want die knew pick back act two full pill bottles front write suicide note fake smile everyone needs talk feelings traumatized growing learning keep everything inside parents emotionally unavailable tended siblings realize toxic wrote suicide note help online friend whos another countryive got friend chat regularly lately saying going kill fails exams within next couple months telling parents slowly taking away destressors phone art supplies refusing let life outside school work saying time anything school studying homework wakes goes school comes home study homework goes bed next day getting much school work piled often four morning trying finish routinely getting three four hours sleep day keeps messaging saying tired wants end messaging less less lately personality completely changed last year used talk lot things nowadays talks school slowly wearing humor become fatalistic point constantly making jokes shell dead soon im really worried know help live us theres almost nothing try encourage much end mostly feel im useless im going lose soon goodnight everyone love u nightits desire end things know millions methods sleep wake try show effort live im truly want freedom human suffering think ill permanently suicidal broke heart live pain anymorei something horrendous push loving boyfriend away hit context matter monster longer want live earth done lost person thought horrible stop hating ay bois yall heard zenith mmo vr mmo poggers preorders start tomorrow want dm link discord already know im going put fight redflag know im going lose universe yelling one wants around anyways overstaying welcomei weird one wants anything know go now close dont know interact guess im surrounded assholes dont know interact bc im surrounded assholes cares one cares eventually cant deal w look atm post history see man screaming room full deaf people many say talk theyll listen guess never tried therapy tried tried find good therapist yrs tried recently discouraging know talk trust hotlines anymore either becuase asshole therapists want anymore want live thi life want die feel worst luck everything maybe thats bias feel life dealt short hand feel guilty saying people lives far worse mine walking painful talking painful know want everything end want rest struggle resent people keeping hereim angry loved ones reason able kill cant justify hurting im waiting bad enough point care anymore johnny depp questions going johnny depp dont know happening want sterility test idk called without mom finding masturbate dont know much longer keep upive attempted redflag times time think im getting better everything turns shit dont know function without influence try talk friend feel terrible dad alcoholic recently diagnosed bpd completely thrown loop dont know feels cards ive dealt keep getting shittier shittier fucking sucks im tired trying im tired trying better nothing working everything feels heavy feel im slipping feels end dont want keep going want someone talk feeling stronger evermy liver problems getting worse really care bottle vodka right near want drink die many things gone wrong summer cant job area stuck home manic depressed mother always fight verbal physicalmainly physical try protect family extremely close financial ruin college got accepted transfer aka dream college denied financial aid basically gave hope something life said nope able fulfill dream matter hard try liver acting yet bf college left starting love years able feel ex cheated thing set though recent ex toying heart hurts fucking much taken xanaxs already calm put sleep hurt disappointment runs deep girls rteenagers f think might ace never looked anybody thought dang wan na bang em ive seen sex education shameless felt absolutely nothing pretty sexual shows ive heard lot people specifically mom say girls general less sexually appealed visual cues tend prefer emotional connections person rather focusing appearance term asexual even exist case asking fellow females validity sexual feelings towards people based appearance feel anything watching sex scenes tv porn ig may young really know im ace really feel spectrum somewhere im probably greysexual think sex nice somebody im really really close really feeling intimacy ya know let know tag nsfw friend threatening kill right now need help dohe sent message telling contemplating redflag say scheduled first therapy session doubt ill even make itive thinking redflag every day probably months now theres point living anymore weekend may finally people may sad first eventually theyll forget life go normal landlord rent apartment ill replaced work earth keep spinning even sticking around hopefully goodbye horror movies lots blood gore tons jumpscare moments unrelenting escalating scenes excruciating death look elsewhere quiet moody thoughtful horror casts blood aside favor genuine feeling dread wendigo youbr br thoughtful stressed george psychoanalyst wife kim young son miles heading snowy countryside long weekend vacation away city way george hits stag car hunters pursuing deer thrilled find george ended chase particular deranged hunter otis takes personally follows family vacation home making sure see spies george kim sex fires windows rifle home letting discover ominous holes windows walls return kim takes miles drugstore town miles attracted small sculpture display case carved resemble man head stag native american man tells miles wendigo spirit woods taste flesh always hungry miles takes figure home already haunted death deer day afternoon father go sledding george shot miles pursued woods creature barely glimpsedor shock imagining whole thing hours later george rushed hospital miles still clutching statue either faints dreams goes vision quest wendigo returns time angry flesh eating god part tree part stag part man hunting otis finally gone edgebr br wendigo beautifully made film almost totally silent wind howling snow covered trees okay monster kind fakeylooking small flaw made genuine feeling tension dread creeps every frame film eerie backdrop silent snowy countryside performances great particularly jake weber moody thoughtful george patricia clarkson sweet nononsense wife happy couple share common problems strength relationship love makes film powerful watching film often watching someones home videos realistic performances br br movie everyone lot people may find totally bored waiting hideous lovecraftian beast bloody revenge never come never really sure wendigo even exists seen eyes sensitive child later eyes madman psychological drama horror film enough creepy elements satisfy fans subtle horror hey guys feedback really use feedback streetwear brand guys check comments link brand let know think feedback seriously helps much thanks lot help meeee cat fell asleep need help someone going noticeive cutting months scars wrists matter time someone notices dont know im going option move try live stay commit redflagive stuck essentially us state entire life ill april every memory place full trauma abuse struggle able take proper steps recovering even medication feel stuck place want move different state start new place know anyone one knows truly feel begin move feel hopelessly stuck want assume know best feel know anything doubt scared moving scared attempting redflag life joke feeling attempt ill end making living existence worse ive written note im giving weeks figure want cant figure plan end suffering confusion fear one speak one listen without bringing problems family two three people hang turn talkworry redflag sickeningly upbeat conversation problems guess post heard something know sorry first comments award u comment sent sent random people gender feeling super lonely suicidal right now anybody help allcant rid fucking loneliness haggis time accept fact bow frog overlord years working finally made schools top choir m selected schools top choir stoked context live small town choir isnt weirdconsidered gay offense intended dynamic rural smalltowns choirs school mixed choir full freshman audition required womens choir audition required girls honor choir audition required competitive girls last definitely least choir called madrigals mads audition callback required make mads positions available section soprano alto tenor bass usually spots taken returning upperclassmen guaranteed spot next year making choir competitive section anyway working way mixed honor choirs made going next junior year worked hard nervewracking auditions callbacks made wanted celebrate little bit heres great start school year see pointi currently teenager high school childhood bad certainly worst one thing ive learned life far work really hard life die nothing cant see future anyway failing classes atm motivation even try ive starting think possibilities life cant see way playing video games every morning another crappy day motivation play favorite games hanging friends seem option im antisocial mom thinks worse leave house know want end im stuck top hill nothing push continue life nothing push back side kill stuck top seeing shitty future look behind see shitty childhood nobody knows thoughts sharing turn another problem think put anti depressants events childhood made cry sleep every night currently trying find hope listening music seems chore find music make stop thinking first time posting subreddit thought blind interaction help calling hotline even tho im antisocial cant even bare think speaking random stranger phone call situation even discuss friends family thank time suggestions personal stories help think top hill made decisioni going kill maybe today maybe tomorrow tired sad toxic house mostly father everyday need walk eggshells everyday fear going hit manipulate used hit younger tried year gon na take antidepressants high blood pressure pills done dont know going work done lonely feeling fear sadness done fuck family fuck abusive ex fuck called friends irl doesnt even try call done fuck everything lost years life studying stuck home depressed toxic man dont wan na live anymore wait gon na send saving money charity kill idk deleted social medias long distance completely cuts us even say idk breaking told right anyways lost imma lose life feel dumb trying kill going killing cuz boyfriends mad superpowers whatever told parents person trust filler filler filler filler filler sitting car contemplatingon whether drive erratically interstate crash median take life raining end ill turn traction control see happens require music searched litterally every genre music cant find suggestions greatly appreciated tbh havent found right person doesnt mean will im going kill myselfi need someone see ive always wanted leave world left sort positive mark say feel much emotional painscarring justify live another second ampxb one chooses life rare make knowledge one chance life really cant choose birth feel least choose time date death ampxb im completely hopeless lonely tired maybe tried everything feel even ounce happiness im tired immense emotional pain feel constantly seriously wish way convey someone feels except wish pain even worst enemy ampxb emotional support life grow dad practically grew without mom rest relatives lived across ocean got worse advice ive heard parent desperate sort feeling family followed anyway screwed drove bigger rift mom dad shaped today thinking right disgusts flying fuck understand ampxb tried changing saw reddit comment people try sense genuine kind integrity wanted follow type person really respected wanted follow ive trying every single day almost months now try want see world ampxb yet still substantial friends family one fall back two people actually gave shit got pushed away depression much ampxb ive tried things point therapy sleeping better eating better general taking better care ive listened podcasts ted talks mental health ive read books emotional bandaging ampxb put real solid effort ampxb ive felt exist much better help mom pay college anymore lords every single day btw take away money anytime fyi doesnt help feel good even offer pay first place planning told today pay mortgage give someone knows theyll use better use travel gee thanks already feel disgusting piece shit thanks reaffirming ampxb somehow became disrespectful high school tried explaining years emotional abuse made lose respect parent causing communicate roommates talk time yeah ityou son im sorry mom gave material affection food clothes roof yeah situation much worse trade worse circumstance loving mother time emotionally hurt give advice cut patience hear say ampxb tried explaining know think understands even wants understand ampxb one send wish wish someone send come pick talk wish drive mountains road windy listen chill lofi trap millennial shit want friend cares think give least ounce hope live ampxb want feel comfort anyone long now sucks feeling alone feeling feelings one share lot emotional baggage lot really help ampxb im sad lol im crying type im hopeless ampxb fighting mom triggered wish wasnt im done ive enough sorry long post thanks reading knowing someone read piece story enough move ampxb tldr im going kill somehow someway dont convince toi need end depression false hope even depressedthe cycle goes everytime next time fall hurts even greater cant anymore love death resist living guys awful earth death thing make happy show project today history rap im really scared plz give advice feel imma mess thought anal jarjar binks neither go hornyhell bastard got fucking demon slayer spoiled fucking hentai sub bitch kinda mothaasshole spoils shot hentai sub piece shit go hell tell im quite pissed turn events first post rantive reddit account years breaking lurking streak mine make first official post cant keep anymore last year month november something happened dont wish talk much feel overlydiscussed life makes emotionally tiring mention specifics incident past months never wanted leave world badly used talk closest friends ranted whenever ive felt lowest think eventually theyll tired ive stopped lives live frankly feel busy care dont blame though anyway result never felt alone past months everything feeling kept inside theres one really talk yet despite feeling lonely reason choose push away care opting isolation instead occasionally deactivate social medias delete apps turn whatever notifications messaging apps dont talk family much anymore find really tiring even answer back simple yes many times ive thought ending life never seem able find courage often sit balcony home finding courage push edge ive tried constantly researching ways kill tried mixing alcohol medication thinking ways leave world find redflag constantly mind im currently serving national service military now past ive handled live rounds thought everything ending simple squeeze trigger often drifted mind thoughts hanging bunk camp common ive recently started selfharming something havent done years feel reason havent ended yet though people care dont wish cause inconveniences pain feel sentiment slowly going away isnt worth anymore doesnt help slowly drifting away honestly past always thought redflag way go incident last november idea seems way believable now sleeping hard often cant seem fall asleep night whereas day think sleeping camp tend drink much alcohol takes fall asleep lay awake hours every night go bed wishing wont wake next morning feeling horrible simple things irritate sometimes tired emotionally care live days life right huge lack motivation feeling zombie kind sleepwalking days im always either side spectrum either dont feel anything feel everything really tiring either way concludes first reddit post life anyone arsed dont blame long anything one talk toend last year shit lost everything meant purpose living girlfriend job dog house shared lost space three days never regretted anything live life respect always lay cards table first im sufferer anxiety scared anything mean speaking people throwing every morning work anxiety shit man thoughts stop living life ive tried take life three times guess im weak strong enough hate attention last thing want thing thats mind stops mom dad love alot man ive got scars arm hope fade first night happend tried jumping train fence really dont know wtf im ive told one happy never thought end never bullied plenty mates school sessions football xbox didnt discover anxiety never understanding knowing something determine im years old waiting see psychologist tomorrow actually im scared torture girlfriend went prom abortion nothing proud yh alot seen places told time time together every uno sassy shit fucking years life never cheated trust loyal head denied fucking reason paranoid anxious nervous whatever fuck burnt confused agitation took going stupid moods talking nd shit pathetic wat weasel im hating wat ive become heads one place one day sinking water dont want anymore im embarrassed losing friends lost contact school time still love shes want torture though one minute im planning death next hate feel heads long gone man cant concentrate anything nans wen kid hotspot family every saturday everyones odd cousins cant remember faces without picture years lifes shit wen ur bottom probaly bounce back dont know want shes head dreams everything normal wake mom dads house alone one talk accept found love years though achieved goal life good wages house car dog bad fuck nothing lifes evil ive tried appreciate everything never judge book cover never hated anything guess cope head anymore left house walking round streets actually felt homeless bare going back moms lived years memories really bare please help one minute waking going work saying bye dog kissing misses cheek saying love waking moms room swapped old bedroom changed thing really bare going future life someone rather die head plans set tomorrow hypothermia im pussy thats way depends psychologist tomorrow im dickhead deny problems im going give go sorry biography thats tin beans spilt really one talk dont want upsetburden mom nd dad anymore shit yh thanks time relate help nice feel lonely whenever someone talks either one sided conversation stop responding nobody goes way talk makes feel im annoying im always room feeling sorry sometimes stop see give fuck dont go months without talking dont start first im rambling point im tired others im sure missed one first came glad finally seen itbr br movie takes place around th century red light district okabasho japan tells tale prostitution caste systems women strong society based upon strength samurai code japanbr br uniquely akira kurosawa even though died direct movie adaptation screenplay shows view japanese world caste system renowned sheds light upon systems interact characters may revolve around caste system stays intact character goes back world belong samurai warrior drifts good hearted loving prostitutes world goes back life embarks another road man part caste systemlowest low many prize world samurai others yet lower caste inhabitants support love without restraint samurai movie turns weak one classless lovers prove honorable ones br br movie deserves higher rating tale survival women feudal japan time frame men thought survivorsthe strong ones women thought mindless weak property movie highlights strength japanese women survival strength enabled japanese culture continue hasbr br recommend sea watching anyone fan akira kurosawa even theyre fan lovely quiet soul sustaining movie one treasured movie collection feel manipulative abusive person pressured ex come back selfish desires want ruin reputation future cant find way outmy first relationship girl dating early know everyone school beginning date age happy couple kissed cuddled told much loved gave gifts thought everything going great good things come end wanted break reason felt good disagreed much possible true ive low selfesteem long remember ended breaking still give thought kept asking come back happy things missed seeing thats kept asking come deeply missed want back together eventually agreed unfortunately relationship beyond repair eyes broke talk several years now realise done kept begging come back selfish desires want end made give coming back blind fact want relationship anymore yet made come back feel absolutely terrible thing guilt feel every day last couple months overwhelming fast forward finally talked first time years apologised everything told changed desperate selfish kid bit confused apologising accepted anyway im sure forgiven mad first place maybe forgotten happened shell remember one day realise dumb mistakes made im pretty terrified past affect future especially pressuring come back kiss cuddle affect rest life mental health know rid guilt feel every day long time ago remember yesterday overthinking things reasonable thing worry tldr pressured ex come back work think still good terms feel guilt feel manipulative person pressured ex things want know better something worry future common mistake someone age make brother trying make sick brother trying make sick ive contracted pneumonia days ago still anyways bigger brother trying make sick hes coughing room often even overheard coughing directly room trying sleep parents anything even grounding type revenge take im nut use lever method method put ur hand tip ur dick push side side might hurt start pain dissapear friend try approves give answer guyshey guys young man cis region little bit lost studying abroad made decision change country subject studies done everythingsuccessfully enrolled another university unfortunately got half scholarship wanted mother supporting application processalso friends supported came home got information decided tell father elder brother brother completely disappointed decision told wont let ruin life mother changed mind dayso told studying business useless cant finish current studieshow sure finish future business degreethat weaka failure made everyone suffer selfishthat wasted lots money people things dont wan na dobut supposed family members lot problems think even worse problems dobut wanted make everything better family said many horrible thingsthat never say thembut understand diagnosed clinical depression brother laughed dont know anymore maybe righti got sick mindset stupid unrealistic thoughts closest people lost faith realize fault didnt fulfill parents expectations dont understand point view anymore sent back place dont wan na studybe couldnt anything agree fault super selfish decided enroll university completely different country kinda dream say planned lot things except one feel super badi cant sleepgot constant headache getting little crazy even though trying stay strong want disappear leave worst mark familys lifeit break completely till end days think better want dotz dotz time say trump shit trump right people see dotz wrong people see dotz gun head right nowi everything bought gun got hotel room got hotel room called ex last person know im kill hung wouldnt respond texts messages phone calls expected leave darkest moment sent email location contact numbers people know hours ago thought maybe cared enough call cops alert even even guns safety im holding trigger typing im mad dont want last thought doesnt deserve already worse ive felt towards finger wont pull trigger im trying thought pops head stops wants die maybe reverse psychology idk idk checkout soon dont want live still dont want last thought fuck man potseeking preteen joshua miller tim throws sisters doll river daniel roebuck samson howls smokes cigarette killing danyi deats jamie doll washes away naked young woman stays rivers edge passerby see viewing dead body group twentysomething teenagers mostly classmates naked corpse stoners keanu reeves matt crispin glover layne found cameraworthy friends wonder guilty beerguzzling killer friendbr br veteraninthecast dennis hopper feck keeps youngsters heads fed mr hopper killed woman lives one lifesized sex dolls mouth apparently ready action ione skye leitch clarissa living doll waiting reeves kiss copulation notably crosscut flashback opening strangulation actual teenager first feature role ms leitch daughter sixtiessinger donovan make quirky connections ownbr br read lot movie depending mood characters backgrounds may little subtle obviously killer teen teased note weight attitude toiletconnected nickname characters relationships motivations vaguely defined cast certainly keeps material interesting director tim hunter photographer frederick elmes writer neal jimenez obviously skilledbr br rivers edge tim hunter keanu reeves crispin glover dennis hopper joshua miller know song removed verses make bit difficult dont search lyrics ruins game ampxb fuck princess im king bow kiss ring bitch kink fuck think fuck princess im king bow kiss ring gon na hurt itll sting spitting blood sink im crazy bite back daisies nightstand never forget blossom moonlight screw eyes glacial blue ice im terrifying im cinderella shoes big glass platforms bitch im choosey long blue hair blue bruise trust fella light amusement im prey pursued pray churches pews new dickstraction cant confuse whiskey hip flask nothing fruity people dont want die irrational ones mei dont idea good thing remain alive living painful especially whats happening right world keep feeling opt compassionate euthanasia dont feel life worth living choice want able choose freely go quite mitchell leisen fan great anticipation rented movie print got extremely bad worn use scorched seemingly beyond repair movie dark dark certain scenes cinematographed dark cant see single thing said believe share opinion first review movie starts unusually tote lines rhythms typical hollywood s movie heck even typical hollywod movie era seems director influenced europeans certain caustic realism proceedings opening shot crafted camera movement placement maggie carole lombard skid fred macmurray meet half expect start singing make believe show boatit starts laughs poor anthony one scene role speaks word english gets slapped around freddie skids bum care hes bum thats signs army hide world hes released though set screenplay shenanigans misses boat new york movie kicks high gear begin french movie sixties vibes whole proceedings scenes well acted lombard cecil cunningham movie gains pulse macmurray good lombard fall nurtures talent trumpet temptress arrives form dorothy lamour enough plot movie fantastic montage sequences dazzled good lombard scores home run movie second half bit called freddie fails deliver goods heavily melodramatic ending actor believe movie falls short typical movie structure set design direction worth look one hits season know exact rank though need redflag watchi want someone listen want alive inconvenient itll wife time next week ill dead never good anything pick hobby weeks hit obstacle bored give happening years example started drawing multiple times still good toddler matter try stick anything think executive function brain banged organise frustrating nonetheless really fault know good pushed depressive episodes hardly anything eat sleep days spent something actually worthwhile feel loser im sick bullshithello yearold marine veteran koreanamerican ones going read shit wanted place vent anger frustration diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type antisocial extent spoken two words six months barely post write online try improve empirical evidences mood enhancement exercising trying new hobbies taking cold showers taking social classes improve awkwardness people yet even initiations looked hate dread students penn state york campus professors psychology professionals look behave retarded deficient human often skip cut short input seminars students groan silence still hear everytime talk feel belong need classes fucking graduate committed numerous acts redflag various occasions used methods overdosing someone elses prescribed sleeping pills hanging noose attempting jump bridge push relationships away fear getting emotionally damaged used proceed ignore blame believe deserve good people life yet want social connection family rejects conversations feel depressed feel suicidal proceed furious tell shut fuck friends literally fucking tired emotional rollercoaster rides monthly tried fit americans berate skin color pennsylvania state brotherly love ass tried make friends koreans cast away individualistic rather collectivistic mindset feel ignorant unintelligent bigot future live home father paying house utilities im tired progress stupid fucking lie life gets better tired hope penn state york reading thiswhich highly doubt fuck ill see hell made promise commit redflag birthday think im strong enough knowing probably cant follow worst part actually pretty ok crushing despair knowing ill alive past date unbearable posted dating profile okcupid recently distant friends work posted reddit overwhelming critique really figure know anymore im person gave long time ago things writing im going anymore interests goals desires im even sure even mine followed pursued achieved everyone wanted living goal everyone living goals people goals ones worth talking killing feeling bad things people bond im pretty much alone theres noone close enough lean ask friendship sad truth life isnt worth itwhat life makes worth relationships children money figured anything reason killed really belief kind failure really found reason wanting beyond vague sense trying something completing life cycle terms lifes accoutrements seems really pointless much im starting think point life might actually kill fruits life mean nothing life possibly mean redflag goal lived seems stupendously irrelevant wonder path easy difficult easier kill oneself difficult cant tell anymore ambivalence towards redflag seems taken morbid fascination folly continue bang head wall test head strength cant perceive cant derive cant make conclusion exist ambiguity really upset bored annoyed sick stupid game reason something delude valuing maybe make end another lonely night starring ceiling guess lonely together actually dbt bad therapy depressionmy therapists response wish die without affecting anyone well thats impossible course people love miss miss devastating seems little short guilt tripping say totally ineffective kind expected dbt intensive therapist dbt assume greatest motivation positive attention totally leverages therapuetic relationship means anything world sorry ok therapist even know self harm officially unamed unacceptable punnishable hours contactno phone coaching phone coaching thing theyre supposed try use instead trying kill somebodys desperate theyre selfharming possibly intent kill totally fix leveraging need continued attention need feel better cost love god assumption someone really wants attention anything good presenting asymptomatic bad symptomatic theyll stop self harming attempting redflag symptomatic manipulate suicidal thats works came dbt robust empirically proven form therapy supposedly heavyduty industrial strength whatever supposedly perfect severely depressed chronically suicidal people thats came im sure im getting assumes people illogical attentionmotivated children im mastermind genius find pretty insulting gold star day without selfharm know lets go full behaviorism token economy s im studying psychology neuroscience shit jive ive taught expect dbt im disappointed really flat salty full jargon hardly begin parse therapist says need work committment living proper noun something oh mindfulness cure everything including misery existence mindfulness actually kind hate deep breathing bullshit work toolkit therapy hate life treatment resistant depressive nothing works even little damn realized something politics gets complex issues standpoints arise normal political compasses cut going start dimensional political compasses asshole wont let upload ill ask replies welcome aita fighting bullies heavily bullied th th grade first time fought kid dude talking shit sister class punched face tackled ground next time joke told got taken context didnt know peasant meant pissed group kids one dude always bullied started talking shit friends basically chased around table punching back ok next one kinda feel bad cause girl thats frowned upon girl took another level really dont care gender cause youre talking shit able back words basically started making fun told friend room lunch table tell friends said group sitting table usually doesnt eventually started talking mom calling stripper calling fat entire lunch period said something mom raised pretty much single parent household im protective punched across face asshole understand think struggling depression grade wish die haha everyone everyday feel stronger urge think around time soon feel right talk anyone know right im posting solid liquid gas come gentials states matter come mouth nail screw drill hammer words used convey sex idk thought im waiting next class start creating political party called antiuwu league jesus jumping christ lukewarm eggo waffle jesus jumping christ lukewarm eggo waffle someone help mego plans kill need encouragement advices quite timehi reddit find headspace thought left behind im side meltdown panic attack whatever feel exhausted im drained cant sit still feel frozen inaction feel unstoppable need change something thoughts focus wanting anymore im tired struggle struggle pay bills stay groomed keep place clean car insurance social life work dad time sleep everything struggle nothing feels smooth easy going hopeless ive lonely wife left first rejection post divorce hurt way expected foolish think id stronger went ativan kicking hard ill try sleep hope mind leave darkest thoughts behind time wake sorry rambling august th prediction arg tiktok live people saying today government going announce fake alien invasion new world order thoughts previously seen zu warriors magic mountain film setting takes place chinas mountains legend zu looks another dimension thank tsui harks extensive use cgi effects hes able portray vision mountains floating clouds land beings fly freely powers ranging razor sharp wing blades split swords ultra cool moon orbbr br many characters one focus mainly king sky enigma romance aspect although movie seems much darker predecessor cecilia cheung beautiful presence screen makes movie worth watching beginning resembles countess zu warriors well playing enigma deals facing past life oh way mention cecilias appealing eyebr br truth zu warriors comedy elements special effects limited due time tsui hark takes whole new level sets new standard cinema honestly f livingthis morning sucked nitrous two cans cream cough syrup ritalin couple drugs preparation ending put favorite alice chains songs writhed cried floor minutes tying noose daddys elastic bands survival instinct kicked cartoids crushed got undone barely hate bulimia acting back feel physically weak bipolar killing depression endless turned month ago job drive nobody loves one ex boyfriend raped dated please mom girlfriend killed blamed addictions nobody loves want loved ive never known nana died five years ago know endless insults hate recieve put daily im freak nobody loves really must useless one friend little time doubt cares therapist paid care mommy yell daddy screams back feel lost hate whats point whats point feel complete failure life nothing offer last thing world needs another tortured artist yo anyone wan na chat dm games pixel art yoyos animals herbal tea filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler fillerfiller filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler im done healthy peoplr trying saying shit never actually helpsdont im im loved seen fucking great talents social skills fucking disposable friend nice childhood people valued existence dont people love leave struggles lead people getting tired knowing good leave theyre right option boring toy used thrown away future job kids goddamn spouse adores im kid even live long enough see nieces nephews reach age even fucking graduate fuck chipper attitude bullshit word vomit gon na open eyes heart fuckers even caring want weight death hands ive never able express anger im finally able goddamnit whats able without worry friends leaving easy huh ignorant bastards want blow brains til theres nothing left fucking smoothie guess cant parents care hurts even yall worry day alone people love die leave rot alone im destined dumped side one give two fucks one look see person one fucking look take time really know assholes assume know fuck dont want protect precious conscience see shit think human think making feel good fuck know im entitled bitchy im fucking done one even sees beauty single person even thinks anything survive long enough im either going fertilizer arm candy neighborhood creep know im gon na guts swear everything im gon na live see another week fuck everything life definitely going shitter lolive studying hard lately school every single day pm study hour increments minute break collect think working dont know much going improve gpa really want go good school dont im going feel failure music thing doesnt work dont end going good college think know im going reason ive staying alive want see successful career im older fantasize redflag everyday without failure next yearthings wrong beginning couple months getting worse worse feeling im gon na make next year shit someone gotten reading fuck important enough keep going reasons mom said happy see fail ill study summer lightest part made feel im son anymoreim probably gon na fail yearss maths exam took todayi english final exam even next years sam native language literature succeded theory practise first time driving license weve got national championship schools basketball team weve trying years failed hates now even broke girlfriend week ago wan na die literally noone gave credit good know whether find job move mothers go far away never seen anymore yo male highschool student mother disappointed feel gave forever please help wan na live earth anymore need strength explanatory everytime express myselfin wayi rejectedcriticized random people dont even know calling hurtful names people dont know calling liar amp derogatory insults reddit think ill stay away social media awhile think whatever want im robotim human amp im perfect believe calling liar make feel better dont know anything youre random person commenting online set deadline end year ive lot latelyevery year say year im coward hopefully stay bed monthmaybe pain ive suffered today go away class tonight ive demonized amp lost emotional strength go anywhere class counting people need rehearsal tonight shakespeare workshop class performance tomorrow see done fuck making mw depressed friends noone notice staying bed month performance sad last weeki felt dying thought getting better little week today verbally attacked strangers reddit amp im dumps long supposed tolerate sick world ill honest therapist friday amp whatever decides thati wont object hate everything amp everyone earth planet descended hell todayi stand amp thing help dying thirsti give water amp keep walking world filled monsters disguised human beingsespecially internet means personincluding meto decide theyve enough getting harder every day crappy cyclops taco thing drew httpsiredditeocddlvtljpghttpsiredditeocddlvtljpg httpsiredditeocddlvtljpghttpsiredditeocddlvtljpg httpsiredditeocddlvtljpghttpsiredditeocddlvtljpg originally supposed death glider sg cyclops taco know anymoreive never sure want die ive reached avail amazing boyfriend deserves much better think hes starting see deserves better friends already gone theres one feel close anymore know happened life suppose better never life swing making extra money ghost writing paying debt looking new place live suppose exciting move back home failed cant stand anymore really failed miss boyfriend bad want physical affection cuddle ugh really sure much take want goth gf spits mouth crushes thighs much ask suicidal online friend went darkabout week ago went dark one contact tried asking closest friends one knows anything dont know dont think make itten years ago wasnt good year compared whats happened earth shattering handle everyone live either moved away friendships severed died overdose know one person left alive arent good terms care addict always feels trap sunday went hospital panic attack god damn time hate conflict lot started three years ago boyfriend four years found dead overdose didnt know addict less year died im stupid didnt know hid well tried hard enough carry guilt die literally feel gutted friend whos good terms cutting actions hurts hell hes one left knows losing friends even turn trapped watching even something bad happens hearts hurting much nothing helps hell father died cant take miss death dont know live life changes mom threw away years work things went ahead changed whole house thats fine taken darkest places almost died three times last year tried hardest save theres guy im catching feelings im already scared hell feel shouldnt feel im cheating boyfriend whos dead three years moment feel im going heart attack non stop shake feel crap tried take life many times cant take world hate cant eat sleep nightmares wish lived state assisted redflag allowed afraid live leave house cant function im sick stomach theres help whats rabid atheists fighting religion real reason manga comment section saw guy shitting religion someone made joke religious guy manga wasnt complete asshat went reason made fuckin think dont respecting women sexy know fact actually definition sexy cant stop thinking iti manic depression every single day think ways kill cant stop ill bus stop urge throw almost devil angel shoulders type thing one telling painless take seconds misery good free im failing college parents high expectations put pressure every single day hate want hate much want normal please need help assignments core class alone feelin good waiting dayum hi people reddit first time posting feel use anybody anything world school life complete shit anxiety adhd combined depression ofc always constant fact wanting end know almost every time something bad happens fail think dieing honestly thing holding back girl life everything dating months guess parents allow date figured ah ha im fucked feel leaves stupid overprotective parents im legit going end know im going living honestly hate body life want die cant change mind wish tried talking people cant im done cant take shit world anymore cant think killing feel take long set everything think know received weirdest package school social worker mailed package school group im aa batteries battery pack plastic tube metal wire card event details candy apparently materials neon lights casomai last movie ive seen getting married last year br br first movie ive searched married promised offer copy priestbr br sometimes reality apart fiction wrote priests don camillo exist real life recommend visit priest pe nuno westwood estoril portugal br br others recommend see movie day br br rodrigo ribeiro portugal guys know whos cute read first word boys boys please turn tumblr shitposts better shitposts sub need tumblrlike shitposts sub people pukicho gaud favourites need better shitposts point continuingive never job likely never find one pandemic feel shell pretending human know wan na never funds mental strength brain many stupid self imposed rules keep even exists waste resources im allowed depressed good according mind exist crush called come house know sees friend house yesterday really sure obvious hints signals think finally want livestruggled redflag whole life attempted redflag exactly year ago think im finally starting better never thought find happiness life im glad found im glad didnt last year hope things better hope find happiness one day dont know wish love appreciate youre still breathing give signim honestly considering ending tonight never felt alone entire life lost nan month half ago amp grief unbearable nan best friend love much ive always said passed kill wasnt expecting soon im trying stay strong grandad really dont think im trying positive abt future think nan isnt feel trapped inside head amp feel way escape end ive suicidal amp way got better support nan gave n shes cant deal want die badly amp doubt ill even see nan thought nothingness eternity calming think even dont see ashes put near nans ashes world im sick tired now reasons wanting end thats main one idk dont even know im looking amp dont want nan wouldnt want bc shes shell never know god sound selfish want die none friends family seem care ive dropping hints may amp ive said outright multiple times whats point continuing existing dont want anymore one seems care whether live die friends met pedo whatsapp catfished part started messaging pedo im horny age consent countrythen started send shit omg wan na fuck show pussy googled year old nudes sent random one trapped part made think horny girl started sending videos wank started getting creepier live fuck dollars got stuff needed blocked himi give phone number address irl name phone name bizamana yannick address chetwynd british columbia please harras make life bad tried nudes little girls ampxb want spread repost pedo deserves want free bodytg warning sexual abuse rape crashed dont want live keep moving single mom four children family nearby raped abused years want free body trapped body hate body ugly dont want see anyone want die dont want bed cant somethinga good days ive already fucked im always trying say choose thing thatll make happy always guess wrong take fuck continue worthless piece shit exists disappoint talk make feel shit sorry cant multitask mind im trying work fuck still fucking accept quit trying react tears mean nothing anyway dont cry hurry fucking kill youself already dont think dont hesitate let go pull trigger opened big fucking mouth havent fucking figured shut fuck one wants one cares fuck try keep fucking trying make happy cant apparently whole literal life revolves around making happy wish knew stay quiet keep peace dont talk anymore dont know anymoreive come breaking point see solution besides killing ill never able solve problems problem im sick cant together im getting stuck time wont able fix cant keep everything feel intense time feel nothing float life autopilot cant function normally anymore let everyone time never say right thing im always emotional clingy much everyone see hope point came backi m live christian neighborhoodi attempted redflag obviously failed started seeking help keeping secret everyone including parents recovered midend spring accidentally told people attempted redflag luckily think joke reason depression never actually diagnosed symptoms abuse yelled beaten kindergarten years old humiliated bullied looks overweight start primary school increasing pressure fulfill high expectations straight told abuse normal recovery making efforts slimmer mostly stopped parents saying cant go diet young instead diet started eating healthier dad stopped beating knew getting stronger working fight back emotional manipulation verbal abuse stop start august staying aunts uncles house week week great expectations kept working kept stable weight cat made way less lonely inside time came back home second day back dad came nowhere tried kiss arm got way immediately started yelling saying respect know love love ungrateful done yelled take away rights including free speech whenever tried say anything cut yell answer said hated relaxed started yelling another similar case happened weeks ago went walk started yelling food want said similar case described except one mental breakdown punched gave promise never angry knew bullshit except screw day yelled made cry enough fill male tears mugs broke promise next day acted nothing happened one thing got right night love realized love years ago laws country murdered even defend emotionally overwhelmed say anything imagined killing day suicidal thoughts came back slowly emotional support know tell except im panicking sent picture bf discord texting horny didnt notifications phone dad yelled name asked turn notifications discord computer using using last night dad saw everything bf saying told bf hes saying hes never gon na text gets embarrassed really easily feel bad help aaaaaa im normally dramafeel good movie kind guy saw trailer radio resist great film grreat acting cuba gooding jr excellent job portraying james robert kennedy aka radio ed harris fantastic job coach jones pleasantly surprised see comedy well great story great acting little comedy give radio hey girl train cause wan na rail messed bad today final term maths exam stupid ass thought hours well didnt end marks worth questions guys always read instructions last week lifei feel noose tightening around neck business fail soon house foreclosed someone irs notice owe money cant face mounting problems im paralyzed depression know enjoy anything life better end stop burden ill leave mom business partner life insurance least cant wait mom booked mini vacation coming weekend want ruin one last trip im done movie accurately portrays struggle life typical east german watched secret police friends coworkers easterners simply existedbr br strelzyks wetzels two families decided going take anymore br br despite extreme danger involved escaping west feel rewards far outweighed risks john hurt beau bridges portraying respective family heads hit upon idea flying east germanys heavily fortified border br br tense moments gather jimmyrig necessary materials flight work day jobs construct balloon night right noses authorities one strelzyks neighbor klaus loewitsch br br first attempt involving strelzyks ends failure balloon crashes yards border crashed balloon discovered border guards relentless search begins conspirators determined try sales materials closely monitored peter guenter still manage procure bits pieces cloth construct second balloon nail biting escape freedom film features heartwarming effective soundtrack late jerry goldsmith fulfilled life want outhi wanted come share slice wonderful hellscape call life im subreddit ive fantasised pondered killing multiple times throughout life last days probably intense yet tried kill times issues pretty complex guess im really good cloaking mental health word use describe exactly im feeling life exhausted im recent graduate degree music production useful struggled lot mental health university uni developed epilepsy brought anxiety sleep deprivation diagnosis fucked began live life completely opposite doctors telling wreckless drugs alcohol dangerous situations wanted closer closer death sort game spending lockdown spending thousands pounds even money drugs give escape depression anxiety even worse live home dad makes suicidal thoughts increase tenfold feel absolutely worthless old paper note bit worth couple years ago useless currently still want die set various dates ways go ill never know im moment gives chance step back think lil bit thanks reading got far girlfriend suicidal jobs know dowere th years university weve dating years past two months now applying searching jobs entrylevel jobs puts ton weight getting job fact insert major friends getting interviews job offers want fall back parents toxic result multiple undiagnosed episodes depression anxietyshe said multiple times job within end winter break going give leave place go phrases strongly implying wants commit redflag history depression order job end break need interview end week early next week throughout time needed affirmation support boyfriend ive reassured interview week despite stressful week finals week earlier week thought luck changed received interview another interview today genuinely happy excited wasnt found first one contract job opposed fulltime one consulting company wants go yelling excitement discussion take interview received lack confidence interview real jobcompany soon honest frustrated even willing interview im best show tells doesnt want shitty jobs want either want homeless commit redflag honest know tldr honestly frustrated trying understanding gf doesnt want interview two lower tier jobs despite us stressing job apps past two months need help next british people really exist ew im bored ask things cloudy fcu txt zooohile rx turd urdu rx sorry x oz xuofxufpxpufxpufx ex ex ok done perfect vampire movie gothic beautiful ingredients realistic vampire wonderful story take note transylvania assure movie respects vampire lore exactly tales heard childhood transylvanian quite believable must see interested real vampires depicted medieval chronicles done recent hollywood movies far guess hollywood problem mix vampires incubus pretty hilarious vampires never goodlooking attractive inspire horror repulsion incubus called country night flier one beautiful demon kills victims loving strongly recommend gothic person see sequels good course miss dark shadows something similar nosferatu venice klaus kinski recommend one friend wasis going hard time decided write poem help thoughts really wanted know people thought want ask thought come behalf poem day comesand anymorejust know triedi tried hardbut broken easy fix try fightbut every dayevery hour every minute every second rest constant battle demonsand tired weakyoure exhausted life life worth living friends poem reddit glitch scrolling reddit spotify audio videos reddit start without post stopping music scroll bit come post audio anyone got know subbreddit post better one suggestions appreciated accepted fact endsevery solution come results dying everything getting better onward im failing everything life cant see kind solution everything requires even burden everyone around feel comfortable ending soon cant anything depression anxiety help getting help even burden everyone chance actually life feel empty aloneby accounts happy grateful life think dying multiple times day either accident redflag feel control aspects life feel chose feel trapped bullshit going motions theyre considered something everyone feel hallowed inside years whatever inside good decayed feel ive become extremely bitter towards world wishing bad things strangers ridiculous things bad glance feel life constantly hindered inability perform anyones standards im constantly letting wife feel good role model daughter either feel better took huge life insurance policy slit throat least provide mention im adorable hate cute things last time posted got yeeted bot mistakenly think clairvoyant annoying set record clear actually clairvoyant joke making fun clairvoyant clairvoyance comes many forms perceived user differently way lets begin understanding means clairvoyant good place start clairvoyant crystal balls meditating spoopy persona tarrot cards clairvoyant seeing presently infront opening eyes see infront today infront tomorrow right mindset simply put seeing future rather inferring without personal desires interveining warp see day dreams clairvoyance capable done without gimmicks bullshit normally see anyone clairvoyant well debatable experience depends person long right mindset good logic inferring skills observant world around without bias yes anyone clairvoyant makes different regular thought materializes vision happens start infer happen accurate details world build problem people desire takes desire warps truth vision results day dreams nonobtainable nature warping vision think clairvoyant annoying well simplified list personal complaints clairvoyance control visions idea day vision take place somewhere weeks next day vision give take outliers year never know event im supposed seeing always see aftermath event know train better accurate visions happens night im asleep nothing annoying knowing something happen knowing knowing activate clairvoyance train information wrong cool knowing power sucks knowing use want much free time stuff used gaining knowledge future events prepare makes feel im wasting power getting full potential clairvoyant lucid dream spectator part event imagine movie inside headquarters without control panel thats accurate way imagine clairvoyant create child use gametes opposite gender preferably someone know trust ready baby wait months youre scrolling must seem karat run bad luck truth game rigged start completely hopeless life never gets bettermoney extremely tight left thats overdrafted student loans stepdad took pity amazing boyfriend worries constantly money burden everybody know love desperately wish even month im applying disability due extreme disability takes fucking long need help bad none sight redflag seems attractive every single fucking day fuck car broke got scammed tow place cant even drive cant job anyway due depression even fuck disability application fucking hopeless sister talks killing every dayi suffer suicidal thoughts folks know word suffer hyperbolic physical hurt brings mental emotional deep pit cant figure escape forgotten limbs helpless feeling feel alone feel pit metaphor perfect dark lonely pit im starting notice people suffer suicidal thoughts tend visual learners visual types always anyway really hard sister threatens redflag daily im feeling suicidal feel place tell anyone family want kill even feel even insignificant therapist tells first try think stuff visualize think beautiful difficult first especially im deliriously sad think dogs eyes something biking summer try hold onto try miss things enough want die im little ok says people want die want live agree want live sister talking lot shit life one thing visualize dark pit visualize stop afraid maybe overcome imagine taking small step brighter area im still working worked one time one start im always going deal thoughts ive coping life used escape trauma therapy helps though trying offer little hope im decent day tomorrow might terrible might need read someone elses post much love know im suicidalive experiencing growing urge kill difficult deal multiple times tied noose looped around neck sat dropping weight rope first time kind hard breathe putting much load rope time id tie little higher push little harder almost point completely lose consciousness thing clue pretty good life anything complain im pretty spoiled sixteen year old ive tried trace steps coming ideas making depressed one really good explanation mind made happy days suicidal thoughts recently started feeling might answer went trouble fixing thing found nothing right now thing lean im tearing pieces mind im feeling suicidal instead thinking ways help im thinking ways kill theres quite go without even leaving house post meant draw attention personal benefit feel telling someone thought horrifying much easier reach complete strangers trust feel suicidal pessimismi yrs old tight group friends consisting love history anime quite ironic sarcastic know offputting people dont know terrible reading signs nd grade used bullied th grade managed hold forcing mind care great sucess bullying stopped felt great first time quite result started struggling lot care stopped caring opinions others unless close stopped caring looks lot things think pretty good history humanities general really enjoy managed pass ap play instruments fairly well really really things despise dont result th grade ended failing year felt horrible alright came back vacation established system better focus simply put didnt study home knew got distracted easily instead went nearby cafe study worked great mean problem completely ignoring dificulty studying focusing tasks home thats problem right always leave chances something happening force stay home matter study worst circumstances yeah recently graduated th grade fucking desperate always quite pessimistic friends graduating one going study abroad two people felt gone quarantine started terribly recently watched kon anime cute anime girls playing music second season show caught completely guard heavily focused younger character azusa inevitably beeing left behind group friends one year behind forced stop caring lots lots trouble caring connecting fiction kon first time life felt true connection combined fact idea fix problem struggles focus corona virus seemingly beeing time soon friends leaving fact pessimist believe way surviving future college work work load lot heavier know biased pessimism influencing thoughts doesnt matter still feel way point life best doubt reach heights halfway vacations terrified starting grade barely passed th mom ways fighting nothing serious fact almost always right takes minutes us forget every time happens feel pointless kill even incredibly trivial things dishes something problem gets confusing quite political mom staunch environmentalists see world burning feel pointless feel china take everything trumps presidency feels joke way stop us beeing taken corporations destroy environment brazilian lived brazil whole life bolsonaros antienvironmental policies drive feeling desperation isolation want kill emotions logic feel logically speaking persons death contributes something mean much trash produce better die combined sense utter dread feel torwards future really see reason keep going emotionally dont want terrified dying terrified living dont know feels major fight broke kill likely thing tensions building home please help dont really money phychiatrist hate online classes sessions one likley help know hiw ling sorry unsure help im hearing weird sounds parents room wan na come room case admit ive seen three shakespeares plays romeo juliet macbeth course hamlet one liked found soso macbeth hamlet found masterpiece im pleased tell adaptation every bit good intense dramatic play acting extremely strong cast features kenneth branagh robin williams billy crystal lose change time period looks somewhere s plays beautifully characters move say infamous lines straight script fan shakespearean play chills popular drama highly urge watch powerful adaptation shakespearean admirer kenneth branagh guess probably going attempt tonight grew strict christian household dad mom spurred religious stuff siblings recently told believe god still make terrible efforts try convince bible true beliefs interfered education going without high school diploma unwillingness put school instead give christianbased curriculum ponder rely internet tried best license money take job lost birth certificate cant take first driving test fucking problems make life living hell wake try convince im okay try quelm good time friends drink legal drinking course care admit sometimes drunk came home one night parents smell alcohol today mom asked drink parents burden life much try say needs shit together cant help think ill probably happier college without license right none except depression religious parents without saying go hand hand young adult problem need leave asap dont want live anymorewell im year old friends kinda bullied school dont social group im skinny popular smart dude even tho dont express grade need go dont study home dont give fuck anymore school home google random stuff biology physics technical one learn programming time year last one ultrahappy realized teachers dont im good programming know give lower grade didnt exactly said makes sense theyre humans think prefer school home dad old retard hate general going deeper later theres mom non educated woman doesnt shit life even work cleans shitty apartment plays random facebook games really high volume tv make deaf reason hate goes im anything says waste time time used play dota day getting good realized really waste time able go pro team wasnt bunch retards think looking cool winning team game mostly play instruments keyboard electric guitar nylon guitar steel guitar two harmonicas thats keep going even tho cant live music shitty nation known brazil look brazilian funk popular shit anitta theres really high quality modern brazilian music sad anyway playing instruments liking synthwave classical metal jazz another reason bullied right ignoring fact people clap hands way random percussion instrument modern popular funks use using two notes actually one fuck cares music theory percussion instruments right anyway lets talk dad doesnt understand shit music thinks puts random trash paramore monsters men worse trash modern popular chords pop music sound car trash comes one side doesnt realize school school ears hurt idk tahts reason behind im going deaf somehow music still allows happy use phone shitty headphones hear music theres noizes cant day mom alive yeah told respectful hateful manners ignore lately things worse started playing keyboard months ago octave keyboard weighted keys yamaha psr e trash opinion told dad hey dad buy digital piano bought fucking keyboard clearly right even explained ignored anyway lately ive getting really complex stuff rondo alla turca sonata c major fugue minor getting beethoven now saddest part cant play stuff chopin even fugue minor keyboard organ piece change octaves keyboard function playing makes way harder instruments trash cares son playing stuff people playing years piano months playing shitty keyboard self teaching instruments anyway going back mom doesnt allow fucking close rooms door keeps making random noises tv anything looks purpose tell thinks fault retarded something music way every time go play depressed shit dad couldnt buy fucking alfred books well tempered clavier bach play need use random scores ears going shit play tried composing im trash fuck cares tried make game last year retro rpg trash thing want die painless easy way dont realy go home bunch ignorant people walking around streets want die even theres really way redflag think either help redflag help redflag feel saying computer randomly crashes blue screen every day random moment important factor dont enjoy simple stuff jerking eating even tho use region brain hearing music uses need help think thats english trash didnt formal english education jsut learned watching videos reading random shit etc sorry sucks january rn time across globe early weekly post promised post weekly annoyance sake going therapy appointment tommarow personally dont trust need tell someone want kill anyone even slept horribly choking sleep normally woke wrote fury filled speech fatherwhole story call dont post due trust therapist broken another bakeract much runs head now dont want help thoughts want solution dont want help right government assisted redflag legal id apply courts blame shooters killing people demonize actions dont realize ill know many us page thought bieng digress always open literally reason funny text hopefully funny enough hot dont know strength keep goinghey kind hard explain ive never considered killing lately though life pushing think become really hard continue little background im yo gay guy married living us came international student im tourist visa graduated college stem degree graduated life going downhill accelerated pace first many terrible occurrences happened college failed communicate proper way remain us legally opt international students us know im talking paying expensive government fees waiting months july october receive employment authorization got letter denied thing apparently never happens every student applies gets completely bummed didnt give journey stay us wont safe back home country decided apply asylum husband bf offered stay together weather storm months jumping lawyer lawyer getting necessary paperwork putting together asylum story feb law firm settled paid pockets least consultations appointments told case didnt good chance approved risked put deportation procedures dropped asylum went back home quick week prevent overstaying student visa returned back bfs apartment florida went school decided together arrangement benefit us stay home live simple life worked job id clean cook make sure everything around apartment tidy continues till day btw months later august counseling amazing supporting parents sat boyfriend explained cant continue living living life wasted potential becoming increasingly difficult weve together half years living together full year half didnt issues living fact enjoyed telling couldnt keep managed gather courage ask hand marriage properly life together accepted admitted wanted ask well saw trouble topic didnt want reason got married moon next couple months november small wedding closest friends afterwards ran courthouse legally wedded state florida coming days quickly began papers together file marriage greencard got paperwork tax documents needed past years managed translations documents birth certificate documents government requires finally months later ask money friends family able file marriage greencard feb coronavirus happened entire world shut including uscis office meant application along many couples shelved till god knows savings gone credit card debt im finding difficult pay top cant work legally papers thought going year far one disaster another sadly end year quarantine still nowhere found everything back housemaid life cook clean put smile pretend everything fine try strong till may husbands phone start ringing weird times night one day got curious looked phone stomach dropped saw hes texting ex month now theyve unprotected sex ex hiv tried think carefully continue confront without ruining chances remaining us finally reached conclusion cant risk pushed back mind till documents best course action getting hiv last concerns compared permanently going back home job prospects freedom loving whoever want love recap ive dealing depression dont know long continue maid stem degree collecting dust shelves dont know long keep sex husband pretend everything great dont know long keep waiting everything reopen middle pandemic cant see friends cant work life zero direction purpose cant take anymore im strong minded person time shitstorm weighting day day little little strength fading away thought ending crosses mind daily pray times cant really see light end tunnel really sad touching movie deals subject child abuse really sad mostly true story happens everyday elijah wood joseph mazzello play two children lorraine bracco single mother tries make home living parents man likes called king comes life hits youngest boy bobby two brothers vow tell mother finally finds bobby hurt badly end kind ruined totally unbelievable except love movie feel empty regret cancelling therapist matter tell know mistake idek even undo mistake go way back page ten review section work way back go ahead ill waitbr br done well probably noticed trend nitpick day long lame jokes dated timing obviously derivative plot points shtick bogus movie seems one hate now love later flicksbr br bill teds biggest problem original appealed s kids followed tends considered cutting edge fashion worked fine original obviously bombed selfunrespecting slacker caught dead wearing anything flannel admitting liked anything s ted put dude totally deep hole wan na play questions br br say nostalgia goes year cycles certainly seems case use grew cindi lauper megadeth beginning look back appreciate pivotal films made us one look bogus outdated fa gs ripoff missing point probably spent six years growing facial hair wearing flannel looking crawled bedbr br selfreferencing origins star trek episode time traveling phone booth bt makes attempt hide creators love homage quentin tarantino anyone im saying bogus true love think needs appreciated fun snapshot society time child psychology ritalin antismoking ads terrorist paranoia proliferation media fearmongering br br bt haters thereturn screaming trees cd hair face go beach lighten narcissistic depression intellectual ennui corporate house mate acting manic lately clockwork locked bathroom knifej got drunk instigated fight partner b things bitchy funny sudden j goes room starts violently making b bending presenting slapping refuses sex leave separately phone sister complaint middle j returns apologize lucidly mentions hes going take long bath loooong bath locks patio smoking course know means last time took knife made threats harm time threat took away block knifes still one missing ran car met first kept running returned things calmed cancelling credit cards ripping bills figured whatever takes go bed j went bed called redflag hotline advice eventually referred local university history knowledge never gone therapist doctor claims family pediatrician said change diet make work journal anyways worried make appointments actually keep psychiatrist kind worked panic decided call ambulance asses vital signs instead police came ambulance j gone sleep situation calmed wanted paramedics see police eventually actually convinced see ambulance took hospital voluntarily hes drunk cant kind hold theyre told couldnt bear waking find hurt dead dont care hes mad still want reassurance right thing st daythe last two years shit ive depressed years everyone hates live friends years one talk problems understands everyday disappointment life become dull pleasure anything anymore last year hoped better hoped better ive tried everything nothing worked st month day funny really teen years often thought id never guts life bad everything completely shit ill finally gone world hopefully comes next better maybe ill happier next run im might block everything cant anymore filler filler filler keeping ideai dad hes passive aggressive mainly issues argue ten times day think ive enough never getting ignores say good morning stored glass case feel dying know much worse keep items cant trust alive im always watching programmes laugh death skulls im dealing grief ton year im losing ton hope weeks later found long term girlfriend entire time felt idiot found reached last month told knew girlfriend whole time saw literally break nose im still furious im angry thinks pulled one got away day posting quotes know devil fucking garlic bread sorry lied known better kids trying hard good guess want feel unfair already good try hard good makes mad want prove good already good think notice obviously obviously makes mad hate place much either please stop please please stop lets dont doesnt god stoppppp please hate trying fuck venus rest entire life let want stop guess problem kill kid look happy well guess different opinions stop making trying hard jupiter want badly badly please want good neither want good either hate gay people recently sudden urge hate gay bi lezbo trans people kinda problem couple close friends recently told lezbein pissed honestly want quit reddit makes depressed times ive lost faith humanity idk want stay dont dont know anymoreive struggling eating disorder nearly two decades always bulimia anorexia keep telling weigh much die cant thoughts stop weeks ago drunk exfriend dated couple months friends pick apparently took bunch pills nearly called rescue carried inside house instead blacked completely begged call figured theyd transfer er used work im engaged cant excited wedding cant excited anything love fianc know cant feel cant feel anything work mental health substance abuse specifically feel theres nothing without running clients anywhere may even want go im sure want go anywhere ive meds bipolar ii immensely helpful hospital even anyway done didnt quite help physically hard impossible cry ive started restarted note several times im terrified death causes panic attacks somehow im incredibly dark hopeless place dont know needed guess worked hard getting back contact things going wonderfully fixed much problems caused issues relationship meeting every week slowly getting closer last nightof course control drinking bar course start fight even remember told enough say care anymore never wants talk one thing remember begging please tell happening leave took back apartment key gave back mine good one person loved gone faulti feel failure lost control drinking idiot ruining second chance got love much failed boyfriend twice now want end end continue knowing set path knowing broke hearti know going know going soon always struggled suicidal thoughts biggest regret always going suicide back teen pain avoided gone iti care anything death tired lifei know everyone better without finally reconnecting ex ruined last night feeling kinda cute might start dampd discord server basically quarantine going make lose mind dont something productive make discord server im pretty good bots programming think might able handle dont want dampd server want grow community interested fill application httpsformsglepzguwocsxsdbf hey girl transformer optimus fine way many christian films become centered around fear judgment result come across condescending indeliberately cheesy second glance gets right near perfect evangelical tool deals real reason many young people want nothing christianity assures viewers one must give sinnot funto succeed christian lifestyle second glance even works piece filmmaking filmmakers obviously working low budget managed write script dynamic enough divert viewers attention obvious fact film brought lord savior jesus christ thanks christian stations everywhere show surely impacted people tired treated garbage everyone around meso lost another job one barely lasted week employees pawn shop one old woman s constantly belittle asking question deemed stupid making kind mistake things shes said course week woman raped now understand graduated high school parents raise right stupid daily basis heard statements asking tool know name misplacing mop broom able find toilet paper yeah last two days worked woman screamed trying help customer showing item violently smacked counter acknowledge yelling absolutely reason last day managed make mistake advertising sign front building instead telling mistake correct felt need rip letters sign throw ground pick yelled idea graduated high school even scheduled work today came specifically asshole went home got home dads response yet youre going hard life keep hes never supported anything talk im going leads tangent makes everything never tried defend wanting treated every job seem thing happened grade school everyone hated treated garbage go home emotionless asshole cared im going hard life life ended began quit bitch im ready drive oncoming traffic although certainly politically incorrect entertained drunk theres charm dudley moores portrayal lovable lush arthur bach one cant help feel unique wonderful character entertained infectious laugh giggle utter silliness although im really liza minnelli fan really excellent linda marolla picture anyone role sir john gielgud heart film deserved oscar rest cast excellent great tune arthurs theme wow truly one best comedies s great films better viewing case arthur everyones gone nowthat really final nail coffin speak go back time tell id years think believe want anymorei year old man married thirty years half way marriage wife started medical problems multiple surgeries lose little part surgery ten years ago lost part colon colon cancer intimate five years ago heart attack heart surgery mental capacity year old year old son mildly autistic wife mild dementia cognitive disabilities well physical disabilities cant leave likely wind destitute deserve almost every night im driving home work think life start cry im worthless deserve liveim stupid fuck cant anything right never escape prison depression youtube video dislikes hell im crying rn people mean film judy garland deemed ready bigtime yet man loves hervan heflin film certainly big change mr heflin especially supporting oscar win year johnny eagerbr br wasnt spring byington old widowed mother children four appearing look grandchildrenbr br singing dancing marvelously staged way blossoming romance heflin garland depicted left lot desired gigilike one young girl eventually swept feet charmer waa late times month late minutes times month parents taking away stuff really fucking nice wake min earlier leave school min earlier usually wake leave please please helpsomeone username uwhyamistillhere posted scary shit radvice dont know please help got pushed told opinion matter bitch part family kill enjoyed company tried opening people got people hate got pushed ask kid open years one day finally tries opening push congratulations giving reasons remain will depressed hate live life till point break never going changein past week already lost best friend useless even save supposed save hate today finally tried talking family tried open guess parents seem understand support niece im suicidal years family never talk emotional problems try mum especially guilt trip make seem victim want listen side actually thought normal recently im problem family moment niece self harming go hospital eating disorder refusing eat time suicidal something really knew mum knew something blamed told im making worse etc knows psychologist asked behaviours sleeping constantly sad ended calling redflag line saw doctor mental health crisis team came house make sure im planning killing parents know im suicidal approve finding every excuse try put blame say fault making constantly ask im suicidal assumed im suicidal im worried niece obviously worried im suicidal tell thats reason im suicidal say im making excuses mum late s dad hearing good speak loudly knowing im room hear every word say heard talk bout say strange im suicidal annoys situations went niece self harming im worried im always ill anything want im suicidal hes probably making everyone worried niece getting much attention wants asked noticed eating lot said happened niece gets diagnosed eating disorder eating enough year gets diagnosed im attention help secret want anyone family know wanted attention id go around telling everyone posting facebook day niece ive depressed long time around ive seen point living long time parents deny told nurse recent thing niece gets hospitalised back february bullshit regret getting help done made worse made look bad keep getting evil looks brother think parents made stuff told entire family think im attention seeker thought happened made even harder kill im watched time see gp regret day much go back id never see fuck worth waitsometimes wonder people allow live life keeps smacking face always seems unknowing tomorrow holds quickly everything change wanted long time peace feel find life precious waiste great relief longer fear death go everyday seeking opportunity remember going unknown alive dead brief background bullet points go weird go detail drug taking parents mum disabled wheelchair times hospital years growing dad commited suicide mum relied heavily drugs booze im tired thistired living tired every single fucking day therapist says need wait itll better ways cant imagine says im young understand im turn end december previously plans kill think im gon na revive plans supporting grandma somewhat supporting grandpa ive lived majority teen years parents abuse still cant past trauma im trans think go much bullshit able person really oh well plan make family hate move another country im kill first game hello everyone started coding javascript ago wanted share first project basic rock paper scissors game game support mobile currently hope enjoy theres hopeno hope keep saying next year gon na better isnt come another year except worse slashing fingernails praying death comes soon hate born broken think change simply shitty person better cut losses shrivel die thing prevents causing grief family maybe move far away someone mutter fiction depression made become good liar frighteningwhen tell everyone youre okay youre actually promise wont something mind tells hurts intense emotional pain hard seeming youre happiest person fully functioning know deep inside youre alone youre fucking unhappy fucking unhappy cant even bed fucking kill myselfbreathing become draining dont even think considered person anymore ill starve death bed read post mods job link post must read im little mad im trying change username instagram press done matter change something red comes bottom screen cant read says cause keyboard wont go question two first question many guys sleep shirtless last time cuddling someone left sleep shirt second question need honest opinion shitty look pics profile might want post another reference tbh thank love community people say im dangerous kill conversations pretty often justwhy thisso heres thing hurtful sitting next two trustworthy friends anyone start talking reverse micheal jackson lean back know im talking tip dont fucking hurts bad ive personally experienced almost cried saying friends anybody doesnt want friend die dont fucking want kill myselfsup folks title accurate ive sad felt worthless years want someone talk rn really want finally tonight thank god liquor making brave enough actually im trans friends calling everything guys probably dont care means whole lot thought interplay crystal devito great movie rather wall unforgettable lines ramsey momma vulgar top funny effective character pretty awful someone entertain thoughts killing mother crystals wife slut everyone receive comeuppance thus role though minor effective justify crystals ridiculous case writers block certainly dark moments movie depressing despite murderous urges protagonists feel redeeming qualities toobr br overall one funniest movies remember one mind watching several times yo boisss girls goodnight yee yee great dream something dont idc free country damn bjork got wanting staring lovingly someones eyes listen dreamy songs pillow fort another note heres paragraph love life ig wan na date people wan na give someone affection yk took mbt told view romance wanting find soul mate instead dating think thats spot every time almost date someone kinda back gets real cause shit feel right person almost actually dated backed someone really close worst time life im love bjork first three seasons sabrina gem hidden away tgif later early schoolday afternoon reruns episode maniac zany energy rapidfire pacing overcame occasional awkward joke melissa joan hart exuded keen talent physical comedy particularly facial expressions two aunts playing straight men straight two witches great comic timing general chemistry hart salem talking cat free dabble whatever mad scheme interested one laugh take stride talking cat sabrinas friends rounded social experience school housed typical evil cheerleader totalitarian principal perhaps interesting unique aspect show ability merge pop culture eg bands era jerry springer archetypal human conditionmorality eg importance friendship spirit christmas literal representation related metaphors magical realm unfortunately many shows throughout age television show hit peak first three years coincided sabrina attending high school starting season four move college marked become precipitous decline general quality show particularly writers chose introduce josh harveys rival concocting thin excuses aunts hilda zelda remain onscreen key players final season sabrina works pop culture magazine unequivocally disappointing still end sabrina particularly high school years remains unique entry hybrid situational comedy magical elements elevates tiresome fare produced genre every year every rational part believes im retroactively terrified fact almost live life im living now wish think keep sick thrill fear redflag horror movie rollercoaster know feeling way know stop ah shit reddit icon turned orange looks bright redflag attemptthis long time ago cant remember caused breakdown probably something stupid tired feeling mom surgery years prior bunch old pain meds never took pills even think knew take pillsfireball whiskey soda go deep woods want anyone find drink alcohol take pills minutes later feel total peace painworriesanxieties go way last thing remember passing woke next day hours later vomit dog laying next remember chose weekend mom dad away suicidal mental illness always close point return got french test hell yeah hard last part conversations organized odd way confused still dont even know m ya see one gon na read u say behalf wall thou faulteth bumped appreciate u dideth noteth punch swear truly sorry one bumped youre head fault ok thank much listening goodbye u see dear reader wall upset swear assault bumpeth youre head thank reading made far goodbye mom teammate life died suddenly unexpectedly father alone redflaged life loss handing things without will one person close spends time present mess unable communicated currently almost months somehow feel worse week death lot regrets relationship know human deserved life got given hate knowing life went back nothingness born want die think ill reunited want die without anymorei days shy shd days struggling tonight alternatively want drive away city turn phone day stop mourning daughter invisible girlfriend tired pet parent ill animals lawyers client executor etc truly believe ill take one day maybe ill give amount time sometimes see make long though know love things loved passed even love foolishly gave lot heart others energy want advice solutions thank reading mom died finding difficult keep living something mom made believe lol years old normally going school mom someone building something using chainsaw know shits chainsaws drop glows idk name mom saw said look hurts eyes freaked immediately looked side thought going blind looked everyday trying see chainsaws action afraid blind today still kinda afraid much sorry grammar errors english first language disagree unadd quite possibly dumbest fucking sentence exist hoes snap always post opinions everyone cares bottom disagree unadd people allowed disagree bitch love horror films think work way better hide dramatic impact behind devils backbone exorcist example kind film eerie terrifying really beautiful tale two sisters starts really slow hurry see ghosts first minutes disappointed actually ghost story though something complex done way beats ringu grudge ring sweat tale way clever film huge cultural hits really cares characters direction flawless every detail film leave breathless kind person loves pay attention details watching movie acting superb specially stepmother main girl two worth price ticket alone favor watch awesome film whos favourite redditor tell mine utinkerbell want macbook sorted need update travel card rest term save much time mornings evenings help work home without needing use local library travel campus im university student able repay via nd student finance instalment th january help repay interest think highest id comfortable paying part time job repayment essentially made january student finance instalment enough dont want live dont want diei spent past years thinking killing ive gone paths shouldnt especially im scared anytime bad habit think rid comes back worse grade parents divorced thought fine grade hit started self harming didnt think serious mom found stopped grade started started eating thats really started debating killing grade alone lot self harming got really bad almost never ate got back track little thought past everything thought didnt want killy anymore grade january year dad killed wanted angry amd able yell couldnt mad mad noticing especially always one understood self harmed started drinking deal times drinking thing made hate times almost kill almost walked ice melting freeze drown even though feel somewhat ok still dont want alive dont want deal feeling pain longer cant feel guilty longer im sorry anyone took time read know im waste time im sorry wasting wish wasnt transi never biologically male feel give trying want explain ex left l opinions type relationship friendf mine recently became interested guy m said super sweet funny think little weird told liked told liked back feel kind weird time guess okay long stuff know guess wanted know homies thought yo neurodiverse people part lgbt autistic people stuff think good think blame porn addiction parents hormones yes exploited society yes becoming sexually acceptive blame told jews pornhub xtube brazzers blacked redtube youporn chattube jewish excecutives feeling antisemitic yet friend love anymore broken mei made post monthish ago saying friend thing keeping redflag drifting apart one guys said talk falling apart probably cares much plutonically talked anymore called many times mental health help health stop friend totally understand forgive one life care enough stay think redflag cant cope know im scared lungs fuckin fried dude dont vape got asthma dust shit laugh motherfuckers offer vape smoke im wan na end mg oxy alcoholis enough q pulled trigger days ago found love life cheating weve together nearly years blames lost kicked publicly posted facebook goodbye stole one guns stood bathtub shower curtain drawn cut mess put barrel mouth pulled trigger nothing double checked loaded know fucked brain thinking straight loaded gun dog car started drive parents place reason felt leave dog taking figure fix issue gun arrived let leave known better held police arrived arrested mental health act taken hospital still know talked way hospital guess im good liar makes sense many years experience pretending okay im home boyfriend pretending okay counseling think make long im upset guns house anymore means going lot painful planned practiced strangling bathrobe belt attached bathroom doorknob last night almost passed got loose fine honestly im planning completing act todaytonight last daynight bf together hes road try good day leave good writing helps solidify think cry think feel peaceful almost im fucked long time people fairly quickly im sorry immediate pain may cause family theyll okay end want see therapistthe person ive opened life suicidal thoughts keeps bombarding see therapist know honestly reason im alive care made promise kill know anymore wish believe someone believe cant physically bring see therapist know help keeps insisting knows will anything forced go talk strangers worsen depression anxiety feel alone one person care cant even believe say want someone listen im really considering breaking promise ending things actually drugs london kill withis deepweb one series need see sure see beginning cool sucks series fun second part season stale come go want happens many series end something special second part series always goes drain one somewhat third part one spoil ruin whole series usually doesnt ending perfect series fits perfect actually pretty angry guys vals life actually wanted end jeff end later changed chose take vic series almost seasons without biggest surprise made series go topbr br see many times series actually cool expect second part good third part needed made series one worth whole thing happy say glad happy series go see two guys girl pizza place seen whole series back im death away hitting top life stressor one year im figuring may well mine complete setadd severe depression lifetime struggle failure led left job hated last september getting fire unemployment wanted work depression wasis bad enough marriage ending im bought half home sent way behavior bad hurtful woman loved cant forgive cant deal anymore got medication time late fix exwife already boyfriend dumping come back never come back notated relationship wise never walks path twice path let go long time ago hiding suffering trying protect let go nothing go one love one love way either acquaintances friends family useless tell devil somehow fairy tale bullshit cant help therapy feels worthless feel better talking pro right now option worse ending feeling better abhor idea cant meet ok continuing live ive done without even worse somehow actually happy without person exist think allow tminus days approximately everything final officially im sure want make hours longer love im longer responsibility ive already come several plans signed dead man switch started working letter auto send hell hit stressors one year rant mighty falleni feel happy school feel fit redflag thing think least many friends homework make parents proud say moved opposite used prodigy gt likes friends friends miss gone people miss miss miss friends shambles social circle theyre imperfect one understands one relate unique sucks hate special sometimes wonder successful happy fulfilled kids got first f someone used amazing grades weighs much algebra abstract concept even someone advocates fact use math lot life say bullshit im much better geometry thats kids advanced take algebra ii blame mom subconsciously tell inherited math deficiency failed math times high school ive considered bleach pills noise even freezing death one thing holding back dog thought sad looking makes want sob uncontrollably kind right now think stress sadness id bring remember experience life set complete failure im im barely making middle school im set fail high school work dead end job live parents die alone knowing touch another human shtick following dreams achieving anything crumbled dreamt running away ruled realizing traced easily give phone laptop hurts admit im addicted things driving pitiful life wake reddit go school reddit lunch finish school reddit home sit ass reddit sleeping sleep repeat im tired gets better high school doesnt people bullshit routine difficulty retake algebra patronizing supposedly shame take basic classes shame theyd let move normal people deformed experiments style teaching use absurdly stupid twiddle thumbs minutes bland teacher met rambles something x something y hit pages homework curious old school teacher gave packet followed along wit teacher knew shit homework able done class shut fair enough new system throws hands air big fuck attitude sometime week parents find f mom pissed c im basically fucked laziness catching ive gimped whole life see way death reddit mean yesterday look post history tell think says cant anymore hurts much hate muchi want die badly im pathetic im fat ugly covered scars around awful example human friends real life anymore left school theyve barely talked frustrate anger parents lately used yell occasionally pretty much every day brother used look im disappointment done schoolwork long entire th grade year rotting room used smart straight top school barely anything fuck ive done many horrible things people around im disgusting excuse human theres point want live anymore hate everything life wish start someone completely different hurts alive physically mentally emotionally im meds year therapist quit june new one til october even know im posting actually knew agree much waste space cant anymore hate much always remember hating age fat one earliest memories called piggy cousin god years life full mental illness burden people around parents crushed killed long time ago theyre angry time now know better never existed wish dead everything hurts tried hard better feels every year life downward spiral towards suicidei keep friends work go school anything spent last three years therapy programs despite everything gotten worselast month kicked dbt program left alone support attempt stuck waiting residential treatment really see point anymore none therapy dbt cbt able help cope nothing able help move past abuse anything given reason lovei really know anymore tried everything seems one option left want give want give context year old know none going believable make sense currently attend full time college finishing december work full time cyber sec professional obviously may think damn bet kid living great life well truth dying inside amazing girlfriend upbringing hell growing starved neglected abused emotionally left lied parents drug addicts alcoholics never anyone mom passed due abuse think mental illness bad appear living amazing life everyday mood changes crazy want leave everything hate waking hate sleeping hate everything everything tiks overwhelmed emotions sad fuck reason feel extreme past thramu younger days done still living home going move day turn already place meant time two years hell go friends anymore busy time used bad alone friends hard relate go hang feels weird different stage life time idek makes sense massive brain dump take wish advice love top world little everyone know dying inside seems everything ive done vain stop talking shed probably never think another time fun made first beat yeah thats posting till girlfriend day reasons good bout friend love talk im asshole new peeps im gaming movies tv shows internet f turned sex disappointing dateencounter know want sex person wanted company made mistake going back place tea things drew line intercourse message care kept trying give tired feeling pretty unworthyunlovable want alone missed feeling wanted felt generally now later beat long worked shame allmy sex drive pretty high time kind added depression think good took time now genuinely headspace want worry selfish desireshow bad mental health look someone strictly sex whole match thing always done basically exhausted mei know worth yaddayadaya horny sad going detrimental overall undo healing healthy way sexless year bad lot people understand next episodebr br worry ill explain br br episode split partsbr br first part tonys dream coma second part happens real lifebr br now people understand tonys dream dream episode preparation death loses identity eventually even forgets thus disconnects bindings world notice im saying doctor scene tony says lost briefcase contains life makers really superb job interpreting theyre thoughts happens die br br understand whole plot find next episode unique thing great spiritual meaningsbr br every sopranos episode acting filming superb br br thing understand role monks gon na watch till thisbr br anyways episode really touched think anyone make better view happens almost death experiencebr br doubt called youre asking called fact nobody gives shit lol alright good night yall hello guys hands cold im literally freezig u hencjs okay heloo anyone wan na talk im bored picked music im considering possibility rest life rather science ive led environment believe destiny even coming plenty realizations constantly ponder relationship horribly ended whether may done something wrong fix bad quality made things end way want forget horribly written think words hardly describe blue planet brought life hours runtime matching walking dinosaurs documentary stands one best pray bbc discovery channel come even outstanding ideas possibly even level one yoooo ethika shit damn boxers comfortable look hella good recommend yk joke never fight might turned pain joke genuine fear mine nothing fear bc prolly never fight hope none real todayeverything empty al fading away come sweet deathkomm ser tod returns nothing heights depths despair fuck cant shit anymore likes back basically confessed said liked confessed nicest way experienceddrama related ask anyone come fake scenarios never happen end getting pissed anyway im sitting im thinking didnt happen dont want punch person insulting family member feel failed lifeevery aspect life feels failure social life go dead end customer service job days week year old loser virgin never even held females hand accepted always alone almost cope fact one feel sort attraction towards degree accounting supposed good degree never single job joke every job dead end zero opportunity growth perform tasks meaningless busywork current job good company work position customer service rep dead end worthless position company try try apply job even closely related accounting company move every time rejected think dying every day failed socially career wise always thought degree specially accounting net least middle class paying job guess everyone team dropped college never even went feel clown even attend university want worthless existence end kinda suck texting wamen im bad chatteer suck texting need help advice anyone know way chance failure decently quick gun much appreciated painless way except gun found obama isnt president anymore sad hit followers twitter young seemingly promising college graduate played blair underwood sent jail murder innocent young girl put death row sean connery plays happy go lucky attorney young mans grandmother tracks retirement pleads take case hopes freeing grandson laurence fishburne plays police officer well involved case hell bent debunking theory connery might dig try free boy entire police department swear guilty crime ed harris kate capshaw ruby dee late lynne thigpen costar intense dramatic thriller make euthanasia legal everyone cut live capitalistic society reason legal rich lose half labour slaves unpopular opinion cant live socksi saw someone trying reassure suicidal person says reason wake morning saying im paraphrasing one day glad something even nice pair socks hang find hell im person talking reason wake morning confused hell pair socks give anyone reason live im suicidal cold feet im suicidal struggle mental illness understand finding meaning little things important excited socks many times realizing little stuff cant replace live im tired trying find meaning everything around want little reasons bed want drive wake shit life everyone around im tired told hang life meaning im sure id found now someone please talk memy girlfriend broke im much best friend told shes done cant keep supporting someone whos sad time mother told doesnt want talk anymore want support amp peace im struggling find way without ending one reason done iti want last action feel another regret wish positive interaction lifehow make friendsi wish friends mental health friendly wish deep talks depression mental wellness wish compassion lifethe way life wentsometimes think need love need loved deserve right id think worthybut time feel socialize correctly consider sort weird guy outside box kind person sure think part reason successful meaningful notredflag weird personality people look weird people feel repulsed makes person purely unattractive support chat current mood sfw want die thinking lot nothing life going bad moment constant thought head id playing videos games something enjoy thought come idk realized followers instagram tf im ending tonightim leaving many friends pets girlfriend behind dont care told parents called selfish im fuck fuck fuck searched loli vs regular hentai find difference went straight images fuck fuck fuck fuckseriouly shit burned retinas fuck bleach got broken year relationship feeling greatest first time posting trynna deep need answers therapy help great thing thirst chanwook parks latest film antitwilight may take minus reality big plus park takes method vampirism seriously well torrid love story sanghyeon taejoo see conflicts characters sanghyeon priest undergoes medical experiment unbeknownst turns sickly trueblue vampire taejoo mother idiot brother latter killed sang strong melodrama theres nothing terribly weepy insipid story characters point implications put forth religion early sang example seen healer sorts rose dead thanks vampirism even cant knows top good vs evil push another plane cinematicallybr br thirst rises awesome standard artistry park displayed oldboy lady vengeance underrated im cyborg thats ok taken given thirst film juicy narrative bizarre suburban characters shot edited eye mood part satiric part romanticerotic part dramatic lastly fantastical always treat vampirsim something simple horror movie setup though horror movie park share scary scenes akin movie near dark never mentioned word vampire let know treated sincerity kind lucid track attention disease effect persons existence perhaps scarier killings bloodshed see one vampire jump really high heal wounds seen em allbr br thirst wicked sense humor much oldboy bite pun intended meant emphasize bizarre physical states example found priests predilection sucking blood people comas taking blood tube suckling floor manner taejoo holds one scrap humanity keeping mother alive even something stroke blink eyes tap one finger means reacting bloodsuckers whove brought pain horror home moments icing cake make complete experience makes thirst last mind elements come together drama existential pains bunueliansurreal sense catholicism especially loved dynamic sanghyeon priest gives arm bloodsucking really wants vampire erotic scenes priest finally gives taejoo incredible pace length shots real gets pornographic manner sense characters release escape last long scope storybr br great oldboy something carp films chanwook park directs reach stature masterpiece least hell always known man directed movie thrist excellent addition oeuvre serious streak vampire movies general filmmaking crisp exciting even dangerous white room daylight characters live humor dark hilarious acting intense moody especially subtle strokes song kangho quirky evil surprising vulnerability kim okvin ending finally one truly superb vampiremovie endings talking years good way battle thirst twilight thirst takes knockout first round let right one near dark tougher call help guy medal sergeant waverly b woodson jr administered first aid least men omaha beach dday injured shrapnel denied medal honour black lets change heres changeorg link httpchngitqfblfcykbq father told didnt balls kill myselflast year diagnosed bipolar got committed mental institutions various times suicidal ideation attempt october flew tijuana bought phenobarbital flew mexico city always one favorite cities wanted see one last time died miserable raining didnt spark first visited finally wrote letter aunt father turned phone scared drinking phenobarbital put aside went sleep woken mexican police around im quite sure found know dad called police san francisco maybe coordinated embassy airbnb dont really know family buy ticket escorted way onto plane able go meds good yesterday dad confronted gone missing hides money place think forgot things pretty heated tells didnt even balls kill one hurt time ill prove wrong final update shat pants school im threatened expulsion last post thank everyone commented last posts read first two posts read content today final meeting promised id tell happened starters put fight school board actually considered side argument mind lets results went final meeting school board alongside parents gave days think whether expelled incident final verdict giving results allowed speak say side story without interruptions teacher gave side story exactly explained school lunch gave bad stomach ache teacher never called hand raised ended defecating resulted getting sent principals office something accident principal asked questions asked aware severity situation people scared time obviously said asked parents history accidents told truth til th grade die weak bladder never purpose never defecation school board explained sounded leaving details teacher good record district highly doubt shed exaggerate things tell much reason good record tenure brother uncle remember bad experiences along stories heard tenure basically going take killing student fired gave another chance explain said theres nothing add story told everything said understood rules brought law law states one legally allowed let use bathroom said highschool sophomore know law even though want highschool studied quite bit final thing stated got results asked students make sure stories lined well bad news lined teachers story guess asked bullies put pure coincidence said seem chronic liar taking situation seriously intentionally caused panic attempted biological act terrorism teacher stated last time point crying knew lied future relationships family friends fucked bullies thought hilarious teachers overly inflated ego told expelled monday attend classes online fuck im attending fucked fuck nothing worked overly inflated egos turn forced traumatic experience accident caused shitty food kicked school longer see friends girlfriend anyone thanks lot mrs dickinson hope burn hell thank everyone supported painful experience updates future post right now nothing say questions anything say general ill best answer parents make feel worthless human beinghi ive looked many posts teensadults issues parents wanted share story none tell feel treat shitty cant handle anymore whenever something proud reaction underwhelming even feel anymore never great school especially elementary school joined highschool woke got good grades even upgraded higher level never noticed small minor thing causes uprough need talk stupid never reach anything july graduated second time college dads reaction nothing absolutely nothing expect anything mother simple reaction goodjob son well done sufficient day passed graduated morning mom dad nerve talk cousin university graduated lawyer man made feel shit even want child always story whenever something im proud need bring someone even better beginning thought sense encouragment know keep going way say sense love caring makes want kill know mental health issues depression stress cause poor childhood mom brought everthing ive done right feel best thing accomplish yet nerve still lecture im sad right now whenever im home tell go work go away never want yet mom always home never works father work still money government work yet ish year old im right ive working years old years restaurant years fabric produce glass ive working beginning teenage days yet nerve say something uggh know im saying things cant take anymore remember mom used euros money kept pay debts house cause father got stupid shit even worth going uni anymore sorry long story happened girl invited house already sex several times think said feel sex mind saw opportunity sex asshole came house layed bed began cuddling asked hey want sex times span hour persistent using force threats anything rd time rejected said go slow responded alright sure sure bothered sure layed went inside felt good started go faster faster sounded enjoying starting go faster sure honestly intent definitely bad want harm guess started go faster good felt really horny well anyways seconds sex started told stop right away soon heard say stopped said sorry ending early said worried getting pregnant told fine hung minutes left feel always bad person matter really wish never met girl done year told sex guys guys dicks bigger mine rapist saw film last night precode film festival tell gary cooper turned head introductory closeup entire audience gasped beautifulbr br coopers looks aside film displays rouben mamoulians directorial artistry perfection wonderful scenefades creative camera angles symbolic allusionsmamoulian keeps exploring directorial medium coming innovationbr br sylvia sidneys first role hollywood success new york stage lovely gary cooper leading lady nice see role harder edge many givenso often looks afraid hit someonebr br lots familiar faces film including wonderful wynne gibson striking guy kibbee best known playing fatuous rich men grinning mendacious hitmanbr br nearly enough precode films available vhs dvd cant find precode festival near try campaigning turner classic movies broadcast reviewer believes gary cooper stupid dialogue complex yep nope perhaps consider coops performance films mr deeds goes town meet john doe although heaven knows anyone looked good smart well thought movie cleverly written well acted movie greatly surpasses films terms originality enjoymentrupert grint played part marvelously general knack acting business almost obsessive mother added quite lot plot character one almost instantly loathe reminded way divine secrets yaya sisterhood means actual content film premises overall tone film driving lessons coming age story many might find easy relate due overpowering mother lack freedom discovery oneself looking reasonhonestly looking non bs reasons shouldnt kill cant think yesterday something happened friend went crisis blocked without warning really worried called police checked told ok unblocked later night gave vague comments happened clearly something big happened time known new ground friend crisis comforted people close months ago crisis sent hospital weeks wanted talk feel safe trying intentions well forgot told likes alone kept blaming going hospital wanted give space theywould likealways remember treat people way treated person likes scared made worse lost now want safe treat people treated friends able talk themim sure many people relate people id say im close around including online friends matter close always hate talking redflag struggles ampxb everyone problems deal feel start projecting mine onto others ill seen burdenonly people know tendencies thats theyve found accident even occasions ive always felt bad ampxb many us plans mine months now nobody knows though intend keeping wayi put way much effort prepping shut ampxb nice able talk cry arms another thats fantasy reality im going die alone middle discovered corpse started decay home years basically isolated outside world last couple years cry eyes every night wondering pain sadness feel go away feltfeel alonei friendsnot even onlineno one talk tountil met guy online sweet timevery religious godly timei wanted feel lovedand less lonelyless sadi wanted make feel better instead gave stithat stuck lifehe told knowand stupidly believed time later friend told sti way mei feel usedlike trash hated long thisbut times worsei even stand look mirror felt lonely guaranteed likely going die alone going want diseasei feel dirty stupid trusting knowing purposefully gave disease makes feel worthless isolated world nothing thoughts company mind rn darkest place bei hate myselfi hate ami keep shit end place time bathroom floor crying praying pain loneliness go away feel stupid want pain stopit hurts never goes awayeverytime try make pain stop make loneliness go away replace paini feel escape deathi take anymore m purposefully gave mef hpv things anyworse delightful minor film juggling comedy detective romance drama genres nimbly lt kenny williams melvyn douglas balances devotion girl maxine carroll joan blondell duty force ace detectivebr br hodgepodge may appeal viewers today day something offer every member moviegoing family resolution rather tired feelingversusduty plot original refreshing well worth wait br br amazing mr williams contains must among outrageous blind dates film history bright comic repartee sparkles ludicrously frocked melvyn douglas delivers best lines id walk main street turkish towel id let woman control life effervescent joan blondell lets barbs fly typical aplomb good grief look aunt nellie br br crimesolving standard fare although fine cast character actors helps bring material life br br todays vantage point amazing mr williams perhaps interesting insightful commentary gender socially defined construct malleable seemingly rigid boundaries much gender commentary takes place superficial battle sexes times subtle penetrating playing finer details film battle genres reaches culmination final scene whenever feel sick slightly disappointed terminal cancerand makes feel disgusting real people suffer die everyday horrible disease couldnt even begin imagine theyre going feels selfish ignorant feel way cant help actively wish know one worst things person go part feels tiny relief passive way dying parents know fault friends know fault seen tragic teen death selfish act weakness keep searching boys cant find single incel post everyone complaining tomorrow kmsdoes anyone know best way kill urself efficient painful maybe od hey baby subway cuz got footlong footlong subway sandwich eat please enjoy thought beautiful film favourite films chungking express holds spot one quite different anything seen slow annoyingly takes time ponders characters minimal movement frame camerawork wonderful acting great film feels long warm comforting drink teacher rickrolled class today english teacher posted assignment google classroom film analysis open doc watch youtube link amp answer questions whos main character relate whats tone film clicked link thinking short film analyze got rickrolled instead spot th question said answered questions trippin please go back assignment work plays tldr english teacher rickrolled class joke assignment anyone participate nnn lose im bit unsure rules haha reddit mobile broken cant use anymore forget advice boys boy breathe air die drank monster first time drinkreview okay decided join kyle cult drank monster energy engaging act capitalism local gas station brought goods home took first sip basically tasted someone melted bunch sour candies made drink caffiene level enough make bit alert enough unleash beast inside said might tolerance built years caffeine consumption probably shortcoming drink regardless nitpick drink woke bit anyway really making enter avatar state open third eye hyperactivity experienced said think overall pretty decent drink ill give part thinks monster might bit acquired taste thats review see ya friend died today read description today april fools day gottem dont know deal suicidal thoughtsi ptsd go fight flight mode whenever im outside im constant stress feel underdeveloped age im supposed job travel independently cant drive struggle leave place im ruining sex life scatter brained planet dying im contributing destruction future looks pretty bleak love people around good time burden people depending much ive suicidal past couple weeks feel im wasting peoples time money trying distract horrible thoughtsim angry right now pretty sure lost best friend stupid argument im tired treated shit everyone fucked know everyone remind walked anxiety please try living bedroom years talk anyone go events go movies fucking sit room contemplate many things fucked nah lazy right want work right guess thats went job interview panic attack knew best friend side shes allowed angry six years trying make realize okay huge problem initiate contact must suck one always talk guess try talk blow saying busy recently telling fuck hard enough guy kind issues top fucking crucified well yeah advice man really fucking helpful thanks sharing fucking useless shit im glad spent night night listening cry family fucking abandon soon everything returns normal thats works right problems sorted oh thanks letting happen right go uni might housebound last years might last real chance make something work shit important right thats important everyone keeps shit together helping slightly troublesome sorry long wall text need im trying distract music blasting game going letting sit think fucking know ill end something stupid keep train thought cant issues well people problems make mine disappear sympathize everyone problems lend fucking hand least lend ear need tried failed againbeen suicidal years now firends went music festival hoping feel better ended feeling worse alone im sure guess extremely funny gags one episodes ten years friends good ie funny nordberg fabonlycasted oj simpson movies episodes emerge dvd kill pregnant unable abortion force miscarriagejust another reason die thanks shitty usa madlad school played coffin dance giornos theme unravel everyone year group assembly schools assemblies student plays piano another musical instrument everyone entersexits hall usually appropriate piece music play scenario student today decided take next level playing normal music first switched coffin dance everyone started cheering got even better started playing even better even playing anime music everyone enjoyed included big jojo fan nothing short spectacular say want hug mean wan na hug anyone redditors whose parents committed redflag younghow affect note give closure wish written well now please live life meaningwhat makes life valuable death fact people grow old die makes life precious valuable growing dying gives meaning beauty life end early waste life potential talents ability grow superpower us humans ability improve use power reach limit keep pushing break limits cause truly limits alike redflag isnt way much life ending early live youll end reaching end anyway good time bad memories good memories live learn life rollercoaster thats makes fun always something next chapter cant fear good bad builds lose people even lose selves sometimes life living winning losing sometimes may feel youre losing change environment shit together work towards brighter future come good things come people wait amazing come people work live chest high smile face danger become greater yesterday fall feel hopeless continue fight worth put work life worth something simply exist simply power change life life worth living many experiences youll miss finally getting job graduating college even high school holding newborn child feeling warmth childs body meeting boy girl dreams falling love holding money youve seen hand becoming father mother uncle auntie pushforward end never death comes death fear rush something exist want die want stop livingi know im feeling im tired alive wish fall asleep never wake think ill anything wish done hate waking every morning realizing everything good dream think ill reach paul reiser steps away standup comedy spotlight write warmly humorous gently tender story family see see expect surprises us thing folks set new standards film fine little story well told reminds us significant bonds family representsbr br sam kleinman peter falk workaholic times pushing wife muriel olympia dukakis daughters mackenzie connolly lydia jordan son ben paul reiser background one day muriel leaves note years marriage leaving daughters along bens wife rachel elizabeth perkins immediately begin search whereabouts leaving confused hurt disgruntle sam sort things road trip son ben road trip becomes time two men learn mean status father son family members sam relaxes first time life introduces workaholic ben pleasures fun living trip comes end phone call whereabouts muriel left regrouping wiser family draws storys warm ending seemed better well differentbr br falk reiser play pros many ways film belongs brief moments olympia dukakis screen reminding us one strongest matriarchs film well worth viewing grady harp plop join fast among us ehejidjdjdjdjdjdidjdjddjd dbbd killing tonighthi ive depressed many years im thinking trying tonight long story short ive always lonely kid bullied kindergarten end highschool low self esteem now last week first time awesome time wonderful girl ran grass night layed side side hugged passed hand hair multiple times talked hours everything basic life suicidal tendencies showed lot support saw fell love lot common leave thoughts tonight told become anything friend sorry giving wrong thoughts broken english know im drunk try point consider killing blow first time close girl mind always ends think ive enough studies going anywhere anyway people care seem vanish point girl much common rarely talk lot im shy managed hours without breaking sweat day extremely unlikely cant take know story basic gets guess cant choose happy think tonight night theres one thing holding backas title states think tonight night already plan done research ensure follow waking nights ago started talking old friend surprised find really missed missed stopped talking going go date misunderstanding thought stood felt deserved done less kind things past idea always forgives forgive people pretty long history ive seen treats people things hurt never acted well im almost still learning drive family including town dad asked drive dinner fighting night usually said something car driving one day going regret saying im going forgive infuriated yelled whenever got chance night going fast around corner bald tires crashed car needless say exploded car towed went dinner stayed hotel slit wrists first time always though people cry help know took knife wallet slit covered watch looked cut wrists somewhat shocked little cared fact slit wrists researching kill come perfect plan tonight hours minutes im going load gauge buckshot point head know whether actually pull trigger decide gun head took shower though miss thing really think girl feel owe stay alive knows bad anxiety talked talking right dad took phone way reaching another reason important friend im far socially awkward switched schools everyone school outcast cant stand anyone im kind lost posted hear opinions lot detail missing tried sum best edit add suicidal thoughts nothing new feel reached tipping point im pathetic im seriously considering redflag concertthis probably catalyst feel ive spent months figuring fucking everything trying together money see concert might lifetime thing cant go ive massive fan member group want see years half life first time hes coming state career hes different country never happen im seeing job ocd body dysmorphia sort traumatic experience donating plasma even accidentally sold valuable pokemon cards clerk even give quarter cleaned best friends house saturday money turns money friday concert literally today late night everything gone wrong said one thing going miss im going fucking miss crying tears joy happiest felt long time thought getting money go best friend thing staying alive everything snowballing one thing another tired limbo able live able die fucking pathetic right im home alone feeling unstable dangerous cant stop crying woke start terrible spiral even care always alone always lonelyto grave thats empty existence follow damnable slog working live combined inappropriate coping mechanisms lead shell vacuous vapid wanting death nothing mourn whoever inside died long ago years unsaid happy birthdays decades even much touch another lifetime alone comprehending one understands surely whoever inhabitated shell died body continue meaningless march oblivion nothing left mind nurture soul save hollow husk pay mind pass second might hope cruelest punishment inflict instincts shell knows never loved die allow allow hope well must inhumanely wicked parents expectations high let preface saying post reddit frequently anymore im sorry somewhat place needed vent frustrations group hopefully support thats way parents driving wall lately constantly talk getting sat scores apush grades driving insane reference ive already gotten sat far away enough moderately decent college enough go school want attend want music engineering degree theyre insistent degree whatever engineering make sure im successful want college happy live life see fit need making figures long enough live ill perfectly fine cant seem understand theyve turned criticizing whenever im anything schoolwork spare time jesus christ let hobbies live life peace point im starting want live expectations show content life without following perfect step step plan fulfillment cant fucking deal anymore im sure guys delt im wondering fuck managed deal thanks coming ted talk saw sea dust part nyc screening audience several years ago enjoyed film time little confused amendments made perhaps memory seemed chunks exposition missing version shown rhode island film festival im really sure version prefer honestly say found something appreciate bothbr br let begin warning everyone popcorn movie although promoted hammer films tribute people expecting showdown van helsing dracula going sorely disappointed theres cleavage nudity staple british production houses later movies sea dust filled gorgeous eye candy really shot sixties film features hammer starlet ingrid pitt companys pictures tone execution film dark confusing times funny remember earlier version quite nutty one thats bad thing especially showdown black forest plays three stooges short ms pitts rantings quite entertaining somebody wound turned loosebr br uniqueness film lie borrowed details though ideas occasional sci fi channel viewer ive regularly taken network task onenote variations theme cgi monster kills gets destroyed sea dust full ideas start trip whilebr br wrong im complaining anything applaud guys making enterprising lowbudget picture courage pack many concepts going picnic people hate think movies know rest us us tired formula modern horror films predictability lack respect audience may ticket may accidentally insulted someone im pretty terrible making friends constantly putting foot mouth lot sorta made friend eat lunch together im pretty sure eat lunch together doesnt know tell leave anyways called weird completely disagree almost impossible truly weird weird something commonly done planet billions people thats next impossible say weird singling though done something billions couldnt weirdness make special fact matter actually weird comforts told called weird got really upset reason left dont really know said dont really know either advice things one knows want look accidenti feel meant die young always meant kill thoughts death hurting frequent first remember terrible feelings even child unloved hiding blankets crying felt place worthless time every horrible diagnosed hypothyroidism put hormones thought maybe fix everything things got bad junior year college good grades classes easy gotten wonderful scholarship gotten internship summer friends become roommates fun together towards end year started wanting much except maybe drink figured got drunk escape little fine short time went state internship things got really bad met lot nice people friend major felt alone felt needed harm exactly sure everyone working went fun stayed cried drank alone started taking handfuls whatever otc medications hand much anything good washing alcohol know figured probably die mind harming remember lying bed facing mirror closet door heart racing skin strangely splotchy pupils completely messed something dumb told friend feeling flushed whatever otc meds toilet kept close watch time guess felt grateful time went wish told want stop anything dumb importantly felt burden hated even stressing really talk much anymore hes married seems good life told doctor feeling put mg citalopram really help got back college summer happy senior year living girls known freshman year excited first tried act normal go bars parties spend lots time together got tiring wanted stay room live alcohol hopes forget everything hurt started burning curling iron im sure thighs covered blistered burns initially left faint scars eventually disappeared really remember stopped enough remember first time cut know use desperation wrapped beer bottle towel hit hammer tested pieces find sharp enough one kept shard nightstand soon graduated exacto knife want bleed want anyone know shallowly cut upper thighs somehow watching thin cuts bleed calming made feel better still scars years later one knows doctor increased dose citalopram guess kind helped somehow made senior year somehow got even though missed many classes telling everyone sick guess lie think anyone knew truly wrong times year told nuts threw exacto knife go buy another repeat cycle cutting convince im insane throw buy another weeks later worst got codeine cough syrup clinic coughing night sleep got super drunk alone bedroom drank whole bottle upset wake next morning never applied grad school initially planned lied everyone asked going grad school right away time home strange got crappy job particularly enjoy something afraid cut home afraid parents go room find blade eventually cutting cycle continued id take razor blade box cutters work cut needed throw grab another weeks later eventually got fired ridiculous reason parents town week cut lot always made sure hide razor blade thought things better went grad school doctor finally ended changing hormone dose think helped little felt alone friendless new city first year grad school last time cut though still feel want sometimes time grad school relatively uneventful meet boyfriend second year weve together year half love much even enough finished classes think ill graduate lost motivation finish everything got shitty job finished classes one pay whole lot somehow im still guess im moron feel half people work hate half put certainly think miss even know boyfriend miss think hold back know something wrong think gone town hes gone weeks took guns assault rifle bed part upset took part want shoot leave terrible mess anyway want plan right bought ton poppy seeds online right boyfriend left shook lemon juice water see high drank liquid felt warm eventually keep eyes open peace woke got dizzy vomited times good find seeds worked still six pounds seeds left know many use make strong tea guess use really drunk tea hopefully fall asleep wake cant yet though weird want die day im supposed go work plan right ill fall asleep forever day hopefully find enough time schedule someone cover shift thankfully boyfriend coming home around day days want walk call ambulance anything want mental hospital want lot decay anything time gets home im sure coming home bad enough experience want drop everything come home early hear little week left think im going leave note nice assholes work felt bad guilty knew killed want people feel guilty part want leave something reassuring people assholes give away planned want kind people blame fault feel need clean house next week ill work next days bought huge bottle rum wash poppy seed tea hope everything goes way intend wake next wednesday morning know ill independent bw dv feature consistently shocks amazes amuses ability create insane situations find humor interest hilarious ridiculous stuff yet absurd much film heart reality keeps film grounded keeps entire piece drifting complete craziness therein lies real message film survive world gone mad seems heart film insane wall things leon yr old paperboyprotagonist always tries keep together hes child forever trying catch balloon floating away everything work best everyone wantbr br acting film went far top exceptional cast really keeps piece cohesive van meter perhaps best bunch performance shines absurd diseased tics characters film overlook sudden outbursts see real person underneath br br majkowski true genius takes utmost ridiculous plot twists keeps real script cast help keep whole thing afloat true testament skill majkowski involved film grating plot characters never works nerves majkowski taken film abrasive repugnant somehow given heart humor unique film missed br br dealing pssd yearsim thinking end im looking ideas surely painless im felt horny years ssri miss much life feels empty im troubles learning new stuff commiting parents pressure study feel clueless lack hobbies passion first happy relationship difficult enjoy insecurities feel im pretty smart good enough feels im weak bitch right overwhelmed breakdown college returned home feeling zero motivation start overjust heads really really long im worried theres much exposition actually belong rredflagwatch im deeply sorry please point direction better suited ive never told anyone full story dealings redflag depression least entire whole truth hoping subreddit listen bit backstory graduated high school gpa whole life advanced classes always best took piano lessons played soccer took chinese lessons outside school held parttime job local farm secretary schools computer club still managed go friends time time loved draw write considered artsy girl quirky sense humor school popular friends friends werent perfect things seemed outwardly okay reality id struggling depression anxiety honest idea managed think confronted feelings problems life simply stuffed ignoring going brushing suicidal feelings normal okay therapy meds part played role perfect daughter note filling role really important ingrained young age choice perfect multiple reasons brother matthew autistic parents spent days taking care allistic educated independent talkative polar opposite matt please understand hold resentment towards love little bro much ended friendships treated brother badly autism change world truth matter got much nuturing attention child became mantra head needs important others needs make matters worse family members kinda er delinquents guess thats word im going got legal trouble take traditional route going college getting job caused lot conflict stress saw grandma cry afraid become someone mooched family shit face everyone cared decided young age id perfect id cause trouble id straightas id play sport instrument become polyglot artist parttime novelist degree international relations kyr private school allow room compromise things started becoming less manageable think cut first time quickly stopped got caught thankfully either way serious selfesteem problems every normal teen developed dermatillomania nervous condition brought ocd picked incessantly skin mostly hands nails scabs acne id peel skin bled ripped back sit front mirror every night secret hours staring skin searching imperfections making bleed actually cry pain sad eyes watered hurt bad know looking back think coping mechanism destressed gave control body view ugly awkward ridden acne druggedup meds seemed even help dermatillomania got better acne went away thanks accutane condition worsened suicidal feelings constant oppressive sucked joy life quit soccer started difficultly attenting school piano went club activity died stopped seeing friends draw much anymore barely wrote except depressing poetry made feel little relief moment started bingewatching tons anime became shutin brothers needs got complex grew people less understanding harsh parents argued lot threw stuff said awful things awful things forgot intentionally cant really blame hate long term love love tried parent best two mentally ill kids one developmentally disabled well put lot strain mom struggled anxiety depression dad angry frustrated days bed theyd scream drag feet grab hair shake head fell bed externally shut go limp theyd call fucked stuff ask happened answer broke wanted die around th birthday march worst attentance rate school dropped miss weeks time parents vaccillate loving parents abusers screamed obscenities shook rag doll anyways exhausted med choices id seen therapists psychiatrists hospitalized wasnt functioning miserable hospital oddly peace diagnosed bipolar gave new meds got started attending group therapy slowly surely returned schoolwork mostly outside classes occasionally id go class two sortof functioning enjoy anything life anymore got ya know forgot enjoy writing drawing life general managing graduated barely walked across stage receive degree handful supportive friends helped become social free high school felt huge burden lifted chest free family kinder felt less failure went therapy twice week visited psychiatrist med evaluations monthly huge fan meds still felt pretty blah life ignored um know sugarcoat next bit cat died cat best friend one really felt fully supported laugh want biggest comfort dad made cry id sob fur tears dried lovely kitty lick salt face purr one time going attempt redflag cat knocked pill bottles lined front rubbed hand made pet forcing put pill bottle held hand took sign kill day thankfully losing big loss entire past year felt one devastation another handled okay cried shortly opportunity study abroad spain studied spanish school pretty good took flying way jfk madrid amazing experience proud flown individually depressed stay especially cat worried host family bit best enjoy returned home know realized moments stopped ruminating overthinking life felt really really alive friends went dennys ran around nature preserve crashing basement watch bad movies fell love first time lit world think id happy life least ive next stage lives approaching forgot mention accepted expensive private school state school state proud excited scared meltdown senior year high school ready face even though want summer end left boyfriend home decided friends year younger going hours away huge deal ideal start longdistance relationship romantically involved days got college nervous everyone first attacked old self joined corec football made lots friends laundry fed made bed little victories things months ago damn proud missed cat lesser extent boyfriend whatever managing came home weekend surprisingly nice see family something felt brother sortof hugged huuuge deal returned college confident went classes fell apart anxious coursework everything overwhelmed suddenly regressed shut last march left medical leave returned home dropping friends putting future hold start lost old therapists psychologists psychiatrists parents back weird abusivelovingflipflopping selves sleep ive never miserable life ambition even know want better got job daycare keep mind love kids never finished filling forms im limbo debating im even stable enough hold job nothing cat dead im lonely isolated tired starting realize family going help recover got ta come within im broken im going therapist psychiatrist im trying pick reading writing drawing ive even playing little piano learning ukulele trying spark interest ive got nothing know getting job help think getting new cat really therapeutic pushed issue enough im certain parentsll eventually cave want going back college gon na life dreamed become problem child want kill im tired im even scared dying anymore alone good thing life boyfriend im back im home month anniversary us got home consider official start relationship october rd love thats naive say probably makes forget sadness know anymore im sick constant depression want end want die leave world want stop burden fuck failure im lonely everyone life left behind disappointed family mom says around makes depression worse want finally end life im sorry long feel relieved ive never told anyone whole story hate socially awkward people ive come find one want fucking diei nervous cant fucking keep conversation going id think im confident convo begins im monotone im called quiet fucking hate want girlfriend badly cant talk women seems convo ends quickly lose interest hell even guys lose interest whenever fucking talk speech impediment people always ask repeat look way know know wtf im saying theyre trying appear nice im fucking sick force social situations hell im part club people literally parties stand someone talks cnat talk group cant act interested anyone cant ask multiple questions hard care try think anyones judging doi find someones judging wish stay alive want die feel something benefit society socially awkward people weird im weird im shy quiet women hate fucking shit hard confident knowing women confident guys know im life used able give people handshakes normally somehow fuck im fucking college making friends im miss community college social group left left cant fucking go therapy money need therapy money insurance therapy hope right constantly state anxiety im always anxious ive tried drugs alcohol make confident nope im still quiet give fuck talk people still give weird look really hard continue pretending watch faces confused talk someone say anything bad say boring shit whats major groom dress decent workouti see results well still confident hate socially awkward knowing im socially awkward makes worse knowing people hate insecurity hate shyness men hard despise hard love nobody giving reasons love someone hated everyone treating others bad person starts loving narcissism know know wtf im life idk fuck going idk im fuck spent everyday past days escorts ive lonely keep looking bottle codeine wanting drink thats drug made social ive pulled driving shit honestly cant figure whats going im panic mode cant distract either studying try meditate working negative thoughts destroy mind need help want die want therapist money dont even know fuck im writing shit dammit bed feel good morning want masturbate body says wish luck gamers im going list firsts tomorrow first time karaoke guys going train alone going friends meal adults breakfastlunch help year old woman fucking sick tired treated person enough sometimes want fucking throw phone wall read shit see sent talking guy seemed nice nice able talk normal things flirting really amazing actually flirted felt person talked weather countries pets real mundane shit nice even got share bit traumas saw picture conversation change told warned seen look going hard ask nudes thirsty said told talk always days normal stuff obviously hard person actually said quote yeah knew attractive fucking audacity offended saying conversations ruined control basically basic human respect normal conversation someone sees fucking look makes feel nothing feel fucking stupid thinking person nice sat genuinely upset two days now explained upset one leave conversation never apologised sick feeling object sick nervous guy talks sick scared incase see face sick scared full stop deserve fucking respect deserve treated treat deserve heard fucking say feelings fucking sick tired thirsty fucking assholes accept wrong acting creepy give fuck offended tell flirtyi offended listen first place honestly hide face normal conversation hate shit sometimes feel want hide away want talk anyone already hard make friends put crap top tired tired treated human dealt alot years past sexual abuse physical abuse rape survivor fucking several times shit makes feel even worthless thoughts go back used think abused pleasure matter feel want sex good puts really bad place know deal stuff anymore know everyone deal online world feel ignore everyone incase want fair shit scary know trust deserve respect much molly suicidal againdivorce addiction self hate brewing something end well put dirt belong keep goingdoes anyone tips keep going strong wave suicidal ideation drowning decent days stagnant days days feel im going backwards spiral closer bottom thinking much better itd take life closer top excited take certain challenges life feel im rollercoastering spiral climb ladder theres something top throws things cant climb top want fuck feel ive trying long seems efforts useless realize im older stupid make certain decisions making decisions ill state mind taken fun path suffer consequences actions trusting im told mother instead fault wish help solely responsible situation im try everyday im getting kicked face spat wish escape mental prison keep together hide behind smiling mask although behind im broken humpty dumpty fall stay strong face adversity find support keep going hopes getting better place someday times know times really dark dogs keep going gotten point want find loving home kill know want live thats thing want live survive whole life future brighter depression hits ancient power taken much time tbh idki want die body literally hurts sad want hang short drop idk right way im sad im always sad cant deal fact mental illnesses anymorei cant deal anymore diagnosed bipolar generalized anxiety disorder adhd teens diagnosed major depression psychotic features latest diagnosis saw anymore im different medications abuse adhd meds crazy thing find makes feel good cant deal fact im going taking medication forever almost nothing help feel better exercise diet previously thought cant deal fact ill always way nothing change way live last wednesday think killing always mind cant stop thinking family know deal bother ive hospitalized times cant put feel theres nothing anymore theres nothing left want anymore hobbies interests friends dropped school job though ive applying everywhere beginning month cant sleep well feel world thanks reading im sadi feel sad every day feel im losing memory mind ive struggled depression severe anxiety entire life never bad good life good friends successful career deep feel misery dont anything decided long time ago experiencing true moment happiness peace never kill strength conviction gotten lot hard times many years lately feel im surrounded shadow dont know dont want die im sick enduring pain sadness constant worrying know im selfsabotaging cant stop feels im runaway train dont even know im writing im looking guess writing thoughts cathartic way anyone feel feel feel past peepoopfrickhecc im kinda fricked ngl im online test french idk much aaaaaaaajfkqhckfaocekkacjskaaajd french hard broo today might daymy world collapsed today fair shambles long remember today last ive waiting years become fr feel long ive turned real suppleroot hours day far need advice high school hi im go first day highschool asking advice incoming freshman advice good advice omg guys cool trick look m correct way looks m monke look upside looks w leave come backi loved kinda late howd ya sleeepp longdistance relationships depressed suicidalbecause going weeks spending every single hour loved one suddenly go back instant messages video chats fucks real good im suicidal fuck guilt hurting stopping anything stupid eat fat enough already someone put sleep weeks anyone know rid negative thoughts rid becoming unbearable want know enjoy things used sort loud banging back head stop someone banging pots pans together constant ringing hear silent always back head seeping every single fucking positive rush even feel happy know happiness go away really quickly want fucking rid amm fighting hard getting harder day constant lingering negative thoughts killing wife lost jobs home pets depression latter feels worst im sure turn hereim sure im help achieve feel need put open depression taken almost everything us see end cycle loss guilt pain ampnspb start nearer beginning wife relocated across country years ago work stayed fairly happy never friends miss family hugely wife especially always support network outside suffer horrendous depression seeking referrals see bipolar fits im unsure ampnspb anyway years back wifes depression gets bad enough work goes sick leave try best act carer im work manage months breakdown retail managementchristmascarerbad end work time family help us rent bills parents retired mine good financial shape lots guilt feeling permanent burden ampnspb skipping years end flitting work symptoms never really address survive monthly help wifes parents several large loans overdrafts taken develop fast food addiction spend fortune takeouts feel ill cook clean wife spends time bed ampnspb last year things turn corner working money coming medication seems working contract temporary im making invaluable extend monthly wife gets sick sick trying hold job whilst caring cycle repeats contract cancelled wifes statutory sick pay ish week parents money run point chip us bit money food thats weve fucked lives cant pay rent bills loan repayments anything sort literally thing keeping us alive cats becom surrogate children cleaning feeding caring given reason bed ampnspb sensible option us move parents try jobs start fresh cant afford house big enough us bedroom storage furniture things downside extra strain well putting hugely allergic cats two large dogs make home welcoming speak ampnspb saving grace brother law said take one boys us pippin special us whilst favourite cat totally got ill kitten nursed back health heart murmur lung condition weird obsession burning hismelf butt explain understand despite happiest loving cat ive met greets dog always happy see people special us others two easily rehomable gorgeous maine coon cross year old kitten one old boy suspect may cancer make easier idea one cats least us visit makes workable ampnspb today ring tell us cant take option give away reasons live weve drained family everything systematically inserting lives job sickness record allow another one money pay bills facing bailiffs collection managed sell possessions wife talk worried hearing cat push edge hear mother im sure last straw old life everything almost everyone loved gone taken away know hope better die things holding back hurting mom thought dying things worsen dead improve even try day ive made mistake didnt nut yesterday due sleepover im pain cant see fog thick cant see im cold im scared must push rd grade sister th grade whenever look sister always thing nerdy teachers pet days ago realized popular girl class everyone crush know realize sooner every guy class used ask number one guys neighborhood switched schools school sister wtf wan na gon na scare creepy fucks dms now id say im minor sometimes fuck gon na now need end itive traveled seen world offer dont want apart isnt life isnt going anywhere isnt friends isnt nobody loves cant stay place fucking disgusting dont strength deal expect permit test live california im california resident taking permit test next monday ive practicing throughout lockdown attentive road signs parents drive id say mildly good understanding everything yet finish little aaa booklet dad gave look expect suggestions study prepare suicidal dont know weeks ago friend commit redflag really fucked ive bipolar life happened feel im disturbing thoughts dont feel depressed hopeless know people care time im overcome apathy want kill keep imagining good felt jumped left earth feel someone trying convince cross side im confused dont know normal want helpi want quick fixes want distract inevitable death want someone talk sort problems situational existential nature want done ive reached hotlines ive gone therapybut useless cant even hold job let alone one now debilitating depression low selfesteem want feel cold embrace death want experience last dying gasp cross emptiness nature become one firmament waste spacea machine longer function lost ability lost survive machines anyway soulless world method conducting redflag finger buy button amazon speak least say used money something positive oh yeah student loans shove comfort friend basically hes feeling sadand thinks negatively himselfi dont rlly know right words comfort make feel betterhe thinks someone compliments himthat nothing special everyone thinks hes dumb hates fact hes introverted said hes rlly bad communicating girlsbcs hes afraid whatever says come weird unfunny hates himselfhe said wanted cry reasonhe didnt mood anything help say redflag drowninghas anyone tried really living one friend girlfriend chooses never girlfriend ignored even try talk tried make new friends guess something wrong nice talk never want hang ask point anymore living life alone alone amazing people lowest low console othersall sit say worth iti know ive never thought anyone miss think better go people told vent waste dont particular problems know ill randomly upset know people worried sometimes done anything bad yet annoying ill hear sooooooooo lucky cant complain sometimes ill want take jump spite people ignoring fucking know whats wrong im scared go problem getting hurt self harm feel different people one whiny spiteful brat sensitive piece shit know one hate never eevevrr leave lone scream shout ear day long want everything shut go sleep wan na talk redflagsimple enough film left breathless wanting learn afghan history traditions todays evil doer mantra clouding reality inspirational experience beauty people beliefsbr br casting impeccable scenery simply marvelous acting first rate fact academy overlooked except music unforgivablebr br script wonderful emotional journey provoking ugly cry watcherbr br film worth watching second third time felt empathy ill see something thatd make someone cry horrified im mery chris hapy day holy useless loserdont know start hate much wish restart life wasted much time nothing little thing gives anxiety want kill dont want hurt anybody know much family cares im biggest failure hate stupid gap teeth feel everythings waste everyone works boring job die talents wish everyday never born dont know say want take bunch pills end dont know whens right time every remember always felt end eventually never thought even make far always depressed lately ive lowest point wish made everybody dont enjoy anything life seems waste matter look never really posted anything shared anyone needed say heyim really sure ive joined group im posting reading posts really dont think anything complain life feels pointless good job friends dont particularly dislike alive im lonely bored never goes away matter engage hobbies distract theyre always lurking waiting moment distractions end ive suicidal thoughts mid thirties now theyre pronounced already understand theyll go away point theyll come back ive never actually happy moments im bored every dont feel lonely even sure im posting im rambling guess im craving attention dont want bother friends much kind talk anyway sorry writing much guess wanted vent thanks reading tried kill myselfi tried hanging boxing day went steps cant deal family anyway strung hung minutes felt lights going relieved never went unconscious kept hanging ended untying still confused know afraid dyingeven though pain want end dont really want die want pain endthats feel think subconsciously scared death wouldve already killed self harmi self harmed first time today know seemed appropriate time wish something live dont right seems prolonging life problems seem much smaller everyone looking fellow gamers hey im us play games primarily xbox pc ps games xbox got pc mw ps im currently really mw war zone open play game xbox tag noobilator steam noobilator psn im happy play anything platform unless dont game really expensive first time reaching find people play im sorry seem bit awkward first time favorite thing pc currently playing black ops mods games open play anything itd awesome anyone add platform start playing games kill myselfits fair cant kill seriously hurt people care fair want hurt anymore die finally find peace seriously need helpim sorry bad english point going kill know ive trained karate seven years helped trough hard times recently started dating girl trained seven years family members train well girl got along pretty well im popular guy town first girl showed interest first time life feeling better everything great dating months shit started fuck told crush best friend started blame first girl showed interest forgave said problem things always awkward best friend knew felt talk advise break want happy year anniversary breaks nowhere felt horrible absolutely traumatised best friend told crush guy couple weeks dumped soon better alternative comes along fast forward year still girls sends message thought maybe changed hooked dated one month really thought great relationship cheated know care really pissed tells family im huge asshole dickhead quit training karate one things liked life family hates thats dad raging alcoholic mum works day school sisters really care thing drives life little brother love heart reason killed yet last hope guys ive taking depression medicine couple months tried talk psychologist told going phase end cant talk family giving bottle handsi going none friends cared listen tried tell theyre worried posted done im called pathetic person petty apparently throw pity party life hard selfish bitch wants give nothing return great glad know family sees reason family nope friends nope yes one best friend listened rant hour shit built past months tried tell people listen tried therapy work tried let work one friend everything alive ayudame por favor necesito ayuda en classe de espaol sooni think killing every single day always sinking feeling back mind deep chest every time something happens think automatically wont matter month everythings numb im movie know people wouldnt care dont many friends ive moved home nothing feels worth anymore even feel somewhat normal always comes back dont think ill make christmas kill meyeah thats sorry millionth post night writing mepeople say given good life chose destroy every day live exact opposite want change depression excuse one ruined life one keep ruining life forever people never better one looks thinking streets might bad least wlnt pay bills might comradery people sick exist among normals used goals dreams shit realized give two fucks happens life guess better person carpe diem bad person exist anymore depression im wellim thinking killing time im severely mentally ill ive lost therapist friends job leave apartment medications working appointment see psychiatrist next wednesday spontaneously wrapped vacuum cleaner cord around throat pulled tight sensation asphyxiation lot sleeping pills keep thinking downing lot alcohol duct taping mouth shut hoping id pass vomit choke unconscious access gun id shoot head right without hesitation uk mental health care fucking incompetentnhs treated badly resorted private therapy stopping seeing im depressed turn back nhs nhs psychiatrist show emotion takes phone calls appointments tried see community psychiatric nurse left waiting doctor office hours forgot tried telephone appointment see psychologist guess forgot given hope fucking useless good thing im killing next week full length feature film world bridge found first minutes bit slow movie absolutely perfect describing professional bridge players go earning living br br scenes funny think nonbridge player charm movie br br dresses really beautiful pity movie black white imagine look color way media portrayed absolutely hilarious way earth bridge br br watch soon tell friends hate myselfi hate fucking much human garbage vermin must exterminated complete failure every level without talent intelligence personality humor success purpose without anything really without value actually thats wrong negative value waste resources others actual need use bitch moan expense around id wasting time anyone reads anyway pathetic sense thusfar failed thusfar failed kill understand people enjoy existence understand one love atleast wan na die badly know deserve im destined cant stop fucking stalling time bitch generation alphas nickname generations nicknames gen y millienials baby boomers silent generation know generation alpha generation comes us gen z heres thing shorten generation z gen z means shorten generation alpha gen alpha alpha shortened letter gen say gen loud tell call gump generation difference makewe gon na die someday anyways last dayim thinking ending everything tomorrow th march completes circle find satisfying reasonon birthday ill dont know feel thats end fuckgod hate fucking life suck life suck dyingits frustrating dont want alive everything difficult dont find happiness life medication doesnt work nothing works im bad killing shitty im still world establishing im bad everything cant even let one thing want right ah fuck theres light end tunnel dont think reach itive lost esteem lately dreams medical field crushed feels ive fallen deeper hole students grade destroyed self esteem parents arguing lot father gets mad random points calls useless dog going put reason im ending guitar keeping ive partially given end much even cost admitted hospital mention redflag therapyso yeah im thoughts sisters boyfriend real irl friend died month ago sister still little upset cant really talk anyone suicidal thoughts feel bad taste therapist appointment coming november honestly doubt ill last long though dunno much hospitalization cost admitted dunno im huge sad rn feel freei feel killing oh another suicidal formerly gifted kidwho needs another one right formerly gifted formerly kid want pedantic hope ready hear white privileged kid whine buckle boys gon na long one heres short story academic life early remember odd smarter peers oddly serious early mothers day year told mom probably best mom world impossible measure lol socially distant indoorsy tagged gifted program st grade honors classes middle school ap classes high school ultimately graduated cum laude along half class lol received special certificate averaging ap classes hell got act national merit semifinalist guess even try seldom homework never studied tests closest thing preparation act jerk school bathroom ten minutes started someone much promise much obvious talent much intelligence today year old college drop depressed even employed collecting disability us government barely able remember basic words likely dead months well gon na take another trip back time looking academia bit microscope interested hearing internet strangers uninteresting college years feel free skip ahead bolded words first thing know ive therapy various points life starting said odd kid wound talking lot death dying age got first trip mental health care worker never really helped major parts story senior year suicidal thoughts really kicked notch basically stopped smiling point angry irritable realized sent application anywhere id probably wind killing gf pretty cool though know relationship make better holy shit helps grades slipping bit slipping bs noticeable people including parents eventually slew rejections wait listing set sights high suppose got accepted relatively high end university university several friends girlfriend yay hooray considered getting married ultimately decided break college let chance grow end wanted married time friends benefits turned pretty good course action deep roommates good friends romantic inclination towards hes easily smartest guy know truly respect moving college first thing make appointment psychiatrist got meds figured depressing thoughts go away nope went meds freshman year college alone none shit saw therapist simultaneously gave honest try nope suggested walk year old self pretend really taking care imaginary year old sounded dumb tried sure enough dumb oh happening failing every class easy art criticism class media studies gen eds high school getting bs turns breezing everything previously left absolutely incapable even minor effort put grades oops second semester rolls around actually fail every class wind involuntary committed admitting friend seriously considering redflag one dollar hospital bill another useless pill added cocktail later announce intent take leave absence take care mental health move back dad year starting summer obamacare full swing still considered dependent covered right wrong turns dear old dad idea fill form written lowest common denominator neglected inform insurance company involuntary hospitalization round comes around september unsuccessfully attempt kill brief aside know quote guy jumped golden gate bridge soon jumped realized problems fixable except jumped yeah feel anything method sufficed say moments think thing entered mind alright go woke moment regret either feel anything laid floor half hour feeling thinking nothing eventually got cleaned mess went back watching tv fact terms redflag regrets regret attempt failed ive felt regret every single day another useless drug another dollar hospital bill meeting sliding scale therapist psychiatrist got sessions made progress soon forced return school way early choice wanted medical care gave school another solid semester finally throwing towel failing classes yet hospitalization number time voluntary going reason now see year took discovered something important turns absolutely degree unskilled labor mean temperament refuse pretend happy patience rude customers question authority especially arbitrary corporate authority constantly finally cant stand work pointless menial im convinced camus claimed see sisyphus smiling man worked retail oh im lazy know inclined say depressed executive dysfunction lazy assure lazy depression laziness experience mutually exclusive theres always plan b arm full medical paperwork residual student loans keeping afloat set disability anybody whos process knows difficult likely rejected face even incredible evidence got first attempt months yet another stroke luck wasted lazy idiot thats pretty much now thought long edited around additional paragraphs going grade school middle school days along aspects pointless life story ive made real changes progress ive stagnated last years sex years job well pretty much least nothing lasted two weeks ive made token attempts help avail life experience taught things hard work success correlated odd know think take away opposite ide considering laziness pretty much got flunked college really seen pan elsewhere mother father worked asses build good lives end significantly worse hard work trying better way helped thing ive learned psychology really science therapists clue actually help psychiatrists mostly guessing lessons hard learned medications different families antidepressants plus atypical antipsychotic now may looking thinking thats great actually suicidal honestly im entirely sure im basically miserable nothing brings pleasure joy nothing feels meaningful hell things barely even feel real everything annoys people seem slow dull frustrated sometimes downright mad look around world shit everything monitored monotized marketed parasocial relationships weird bizarrely intermingled capitalism branding companies try obfuscate friendly individuals behind sassy twitter messages paying workers peanuts know ceo wendys major trump supporter bullshit bootstrap mentality omnipresent attempting point institutionalized flaws system means looking excuses days ago phones keyboard started displaying microsofts name reason even type im advertised world morphed comical exaggeration live feels anytime try show someone minute long fight scene live want guy put god damn glasses oh said sex years face knowledge realistically theres much anything change face apathetic majority see redflag bad idea yes family friends sad honestly job keep happy anymore job keep happy thats imposition impose id hope ive set date best friend roommate former finishes last semester school know death absolutely destroy im sorry will going happen want degree fall back recovers leave think probably best microcosm life back friend dating go every dance together stand socially awkward generally bored neither dresses uncomfortable made feel wrong though time understand never told senior year prom coming seriously considering going something even nothing asked dad advice said go never know might even ones proms different special besides wants go even enjoy time look back glad went sucked went hated bad every dance big hotel ballroom hated well later tell went well thing day im glad went ultimately feels people tangentially related got anything people directly involved knew pointless life lot lots people really idea want telling keep living future benefit one except negligibly related close know want feel obligated participate keeping alive vague idea theyre supposed finally really want going th grade sick tired fucking girls hating nothing walking near one accidentally touch hand say sorry scream ew blake touched hand wtf wrong people kill someone send hand scream school ok im going sleep fml hope tomorrow feel better good night yall good day actual questions straight people frogs immediately trust anyonei lost trust everyone close stupid enough tell im stupid im gon na choose someone comments force crush go ghost say feminist die jump story buildingi need relief text back boyfriend today im killing tomorrow bushes window im scared might die jump im sure though need answers help emergency protocol germanyis anyone tell standard procedure germany call emergency services im close redflag something helpful rather dead call emergency services gon na actin hey never thought somehow ended really need let someone guess summarymy dad got covid recently yes shit going wrong mom tried best gave medicine listen always gave reason mom gave medically approved altho many people use medicine mom gave himit days fights quarrel name family economy great need buy vitamins order make feel better altho listen act whatever wanti want help family tried invest share always make loss nearly impossible start business feel bad ask money start small business want burden family economy morei knows guys feel suicide da wae sigh knowi literally plan suicide woud cutting warm water listening rem end worldanyways guys feel free comment anything whatever sorry grammar mistakes main language stay safe guys ltps agnostic really believe religion people says god provide way know seems way provide suicide least nowi mentally finesorry whining guys dad got covid shit going wrng deserve painive gotten back burning deserve pain im disgusting human film entertaining excellent comedic acting interesting politically made end soviet union makes fun soviet mentality story set early days soviet union questions rationale behind revolution cultural practical terms course late s early s bizarre strictures soviet society already relaxed ideology mentality still alive well ready welldeserved deconstruction happily deep philosophical commentary wrapped funny entertaining packagebr br jur nobody gives crap meive lost friends past year got dumped gf last year nobody checks girls dont even wan na talk im lonely dont think take much longer im tired praying dont believe god anymore every time pray brings nothing everyday passes makes realize worthless life dont know anymore ayy got citizenship new county project well hopefully goes well looks cool whats worst post seen sub seen try justify school shootings worst thing people agreeing despite rage hes still rat cage httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvoarhkpfdrchttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvoarhkpfdrc hate relapsinga days ago thought finally getting better course one little thing happens today im feeling shitty relapsed self harming suicidal thoughts coming back im starting think maybe offing best cant keep dealing cycle feeling happy days feel shitty weeks thank god films follow old hollywood crap formula think digital revolution dvd revolution actually making possible interesting work even dig harder find love film takes time draw deeper deeper inner emotional reaches really taking trip soul america soul disturbed confused really blew mind way used martin luther kings speeches vietnam references assassination way hit hard found choked every time heard voice ive heard speak course way used speeches made feel understood message way id never thought aboutbr br say movie heavy statistics war oppression plea compassion end credits crawl usually fact theres credits film access selecting features somehow made think lot cant say enough dvd brilliant putting date really made feel betternye decied end life jan life depression gotten better dont know closer date less feel knowing depression really helps thru days saying lyrics song day one everything said went right head head went right head keep trynna text leave messages read read leave em read fuck em end best freind instead instead best freind instead spent million dollars fell bed bed fell bed dont understand dont understand thay aint hot switch blink eye cant copy see talk topic got babys man life good odyssey wings uptop mother fuckin pull big big chanaleys double c channel feet dnt know whats really seat oversized play boy made tea bad bitch pull ridin jeep got freind passengers seat fuck g treating rari srt one one tell want cause babe intention seek real baby leave need time breath know wasent honest cause im big dog chasing fleas everything said went right head head went right head keep trynna text leave messages read read leave em read fuck em end best freind instead instead best freind instead spent million dollars fell bed bed fell bed couldnt match flight top speed im far outta league came creek came streets spent ten mil one piece got eights nines dimes tens quarters patek philippe california miami downsouth peice im turbo ride phocahantas meltin ice cream im tickin time bomb blowing reality yeah got ta juice prove yeah buy boxes buy boobs buy boots christian loubs switched white girl barely new im sending fire every block aint safe nomore im hot blow nitro till see fireworks sky cant say belong streets fuck cause im guy dont comprehend cant see eye eye everything said went right head head went right head keep trynna text leave messages read read leave em read fuck em end best freind instead instead best freind instead spent million dollars fell bed bed fell bed baby tarantulas cute wowies see everyone despising quarantine couple weeks imagine living lifenobody wants friends eventually ghost dont know done deserve maybe im good enough world want die one cares way really wouldnt matter go best gun videogames awp power flicks required reallymy eyes burn weeping clawing hand weeps walls around closing suffocating im going die prison mind prison mirrors merciless ive watching stick poke tutorials think im going know body already pretty fucked going effect badly im pretty good making sure wounds infected think pretty safe im going start getting allowance soon think ill buy right type ink small first aid kit think want couple small flowers stars upper thighs feel stupidi feel stupid coming online forum help im pretty desperate cant stop crying shaking want stop dozens paragraphs back story bore ive suffered depression long remember past weeks especially last days pure torture im kind person refuses go friends help want feel bad put awkward positionbut mostly think help hopeless life nothing one im alone cant remember bad know add heart message im sending friend name day today big day country wrote message wish good luck shit add end really wish dispersal attempted redflag times yesterday eaten day barely hours sleep last night self harming crying day alr questionnaire timee school whats favorite color always favorite color least favorite color many colors u think answer u lt lot thought past year matter hard try cant find reason want keep livingim yo guy put still diagnosed think pretty clear depression social anxiety years now started cutting around everything started couple days ago even something happens barely sad angry hate everything around even almost every day think killing want live world anymore think fucked getting books movies games feel completely empty excitement life feel itd help immensely manage girlfriend something ive started talking really girl seems likes physically cant believe matter hard try somebody actually likes think friends friends pity even disgust looking mirror friends say im attractive possibly telling truth ive already tried experimenting ibuprofen mg knew anything wanted see feel anything kinda want help ive mostly lost faith somewhere inside feel normal break free depression fuck point im almost crying nothing happening cant cry able cry months now god kidding want fucking die even though hate every bit want fix everything want good school make friends leave house every awhile girlfriend want nearly kill forced accept help find ive thought trying hang cut rope ive thought cutting deep nearly die anything close downing whole bottle pills want help none matters even help ill fall back depression nobody love point im sorry wasting anybodys time wont fucking save im going slowly go deeper deeper im point return really sorry wasting time edit thinking girl briefly mentioned somewhere middle makes want cry really really said think actually feels anything cant make move im fucking awkward stupid know friday winter break starts passes done anything ill lost chance completely even less reasons live know wrote either stupid finally change flair feels surreal definitely best birthday even everything going far hope yall stay safe celebrate birthdays years come preparing kill jan transferring cash bitcoin use darknet hate pain plan bunch oxy probably fent press itll job friends family care theyre city doesnt change fact ill always alone single shadow former self good career means nothing end barely bring office anymore waiting fired remove stress im road trip give good karaoke music dont cringe high efforted title much word wants wholesome award ive wish dispose public redflag im going kill soon eventually thing really want parents siblings one find know image never leave head painless quick way die public kolchak night stalker hugely entertaining tv series pushy sarcastic fortysomething reporter repeatedly drawn mortal combat supernatural occasionally extraterrestrial forces based popular pair tv movies featuring kolchak character series died quick death mids due low ratings nevertheless maintains strong cult following today average modernday viewer able dig kolchak weekly clashes undead br br thats actually tough question answer fairly detractors series tend argue formulaic hopelessly dated hand fans argue cleverly written wellacted sometimes genuinely spooky ive got foot camps thoroughly enjoyed watching episodes kolchak dvd recently though plainly see series major flawsbr br ill address question kolchak formula fiction first now think agree tv shows formulas every episode columbo unfolds according pattern example repetition necessarily bad thing fact critics long recognized audiences often enjoy actively seek repetitive entertainment problem kolchak formula simply rigid repetitive even generous standardsbr br almost every episode kolchak investigates murder figures committed form monster tries publish story said monster editor vincenzo blocks always grounds kolchak sufficient evidence support claims supernatural forces work alas kolchak obstructed police end kolchak independent research monster figures kill kills without ceremony reward writing big story itbr br see eversostrict formula might tiresome right im particularly mystified vincenzo kolchaks always raving monsters vincenzo never believes well vincenzo fire kolchak committed thats normal boss series eschews realism prefers keep vincenzo kolchak comical antagonists result many scenes together profoundly unbelievable though quite funnybr br best episodes kolchak manage vault limitations formula usually contain kind unexpected twist select episodes good enough think theyre largely immune typical criticisms series favorites include br br horror heights episode thats noteworthy grimy inventive socially aware kolchaks dialog unusually sharp cynical edge though adheres closely kolchak formula script written hammer studios veteran jimmy sangster remarkably literate delves deeply monsters backstorybr br devils platform possible inspiration omen films episode stands villain young tom skerritt tempts kolchak satanic contract full goodies reveals lot reporters character br br firefall episode appears bad reputation among fans enjoyed got great red herring really creepy almost unstoppableseeming monsterbr br though ive singled three episodes praise id say stories entertaining least money two complete turkeys episode run primal scream monkeymen running rampant chicago sentry features dumbestlooking creature makeup history filmed entertainment assessment coming lifelong doctor godzilla fan br br balance good series little repetitive little cheesy perhaps elements greatness even weaker episodes darren mcgavins wonderful performance caustic worldweary endlessly funny kolchak truly shines carries series effortlessly way example sarah michelle gellar never managed buffy mcgavin one great character actor series worth watching alone anyone advice pussying last minutei know sub promoting redflag need know written stone disney animations simply must musicals right show found attempt much enjoyable containing hokey madeforfiveyearold standard disney musical fare br br story enthralling still quite good enjoyable adventurous hoped bit yes considering subject matter movie bitter disappointment utter failure billed br br animation quality average dialog quite compelling story line plot subplot amazing creativity found within production refrain outlining plot done done movie well worth view fan fantasybr br opinion best disney animated feature length filmbr br rates frombr br fiend really feel writing big long post moment think saw someone imma points rather proper sentences feel atrocious friend never around people much used never know talk friends anymore share interests anymore way talk anymore work plus think trying really hard improve never really seems make much difference second start actually trying always late rules put place make effort useless anyways plus feel safe room makes feel kind pathetic feel safe even anything bad really great parents genuinely hurt way shape form time bit edge morning know fact everyone asleep really anymore stayed late messed stay later besides sleep schedule getting pretty bad probably best even want things used make happy anymore tired drawing tired writing tired minecraft tired sing going therapist literally everything supposed honest something new always pops halfway week always looming redflag helped sometimes tired even try talking people shut read crappy fanfiction bed hours eat make happy even honestly tired everything close giving caring question eastern european millennials lot babies unlike western millennials normal avoid cousins connect see point really usually ones started first ie inviting outings together cousins probably im youngest one excluding family gatherings remember time desperately wanted go begged join used desperately wanted join seems tables turned theyre ones trying include im one wanting really join much though theyve started open try hang hell try sit beside avoid eye contact talk minimally although family gatherings routinely essay essay im worried one page come statistics great fill quiz real quick questions one required thanks httpsformsgleznyevvbyckcoqmkhttpsformsgleznyevvbyckcoqmk reason im herei know though feels scary water fountain cause want put lips make sick birthday whatever wantits birthday im level survived fucking years ive depressed long remember cant recall happy memories never gf never many real friends years last saw old friends moved lives moved cities study old high school crush wished happy birthday told go friends friends irl online friends never met irl social anxiety let make new friends least thats excuse im high school see working hours week much hope future die now leave much behind parents brother upset probably never forget redflag cant live satisfy know today nice birthday wish someone kill without pain maybe give gift feel life pointlessi always issues suicidal ideation last time went hospital almost swallowed handful klonopin got scared didnt turns cant even overdose klonopin wouldnt worked regardless anyways bipolar disorder mood goes quite often zoloft helped stay neutral weeks ive dropped back ive huge urges cut really bad suicidal thoughts dont want die dont want live makes sense dont interest much even fun things much less work try build career want lay bed try forget life real years old need shit together dont drive dont interest life doesnt appeal questionable advice teacher yesterday last day real life school bulgaria back lockdown sucks english teacher started ranting low score class last test end rock serious face said something concerned words students lost motivation study online school cant find way gain back lay die teaching years got thinking say thing y olds aspecially us depression mental problems make poll add polls rteenagers oh wait feel drawing something ill draw whatever top comment nothing nsfw gorgeous movie visually images mexican desert old mansion characters picturesque costumesall amount real work artbr br story seems bit loose thats meant realistic taken book called one hundred years solitude supposed evocation isolated otherworldly atmosphere latin america far god close united states tremendous debt erendira owes grandmother symbolic latin americas international debt burden although many layers meaningbr br appreciate slowmoving richlytextured movie one hardim stayed home school today swallowed one pill far cant bring finish bottle cant anymore dont know im still thanks subreddit rdepression decided kill myselfbut still need help one last time hi dear rredflagwatchhttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatch thanks many redditors commented rdepressionhttpswwwredditcomrdepression decided stay around bit fight kill myselfnow confront parents repeat first year college second semester dont know tell huge new mean brothers passed first years easilyand father got back hospital last monthim afriad tell worse time im afriad hear uni think lying themwhich even worse maybe bring back bad memories yall talking nut november many people shave november future isnt brighti feel empty shell used feel everything matter people care matter feel everything falling apart events happening things control yet suffer consequences control ive tried go therapy ive tried medication nothing works cant fix im afraid point may best really need someone vent person wouldve talked dumped first teenager ok say movie pretty good think kid ten people age might little um well wed describe movie lame liked may still act kid visit cattle farm every weekend movie cute actors kids little blonde cutesy pies wearing three layers clothes trendy hat thousand assecories shows today name drake josh lizzie mc guire well kid show setting perfect flaw family debt right world internal house look something western versace store one flawbr br cameos great theres five hundred explainable one julia roberts main little girls aunt world everyone movie seemed tight type budgetbr br liked movie fun one watch thought parts far fetched cow selling ha butt cow sells much good liked watch id never buy theres even special features dvd whats rent especially little kids running around house best forums help suicidal thoughts anonymouslyim posting bit much wanted know anyone suggestions forums maybe small substitute therapy im wait list feel defeatedum hey reddit guess failed class held back im struggling depression past years ive hospital severe depression self harm top mother making move florida away friends girlfriend people really live care ive talked numerous times feel killing easier way try tell single tear fell cheek slowly walked aisle bidding starts hundred thousand said man microphone job student debt got word one collection agency taking court im done lifei depressed though college thing kept going degree obvious easy see end goal kept going classes got degree thought killing years time ive made almost progress briefly job starbucks quit im home eating obesity making payments loans generally feeling shit gotten point got served court papers one loans im afraid literally money bank account nothing take care credit must years delinquency loans guess court papers made remember fuck ive ive sitting computer pretty much exclusively last years trying entertain youtube music stuff keep away dark thoughts maybe sign long enough putting help boy friends something talk whether followers tiktok subs youtube wan na ask boys girls help blow wan na able say clout want done courage pull makes even hopeless see paradox fucking sucks courage go sympathy advice million people shouting darkness internet thought one lasts acts add voice cacophony think web one day become sentient yell us voice hear noise worst something whalesong best forever unable decipher message reason another reason perhaps person might able learn mistakes begin brief history born christian parents first memories ozarks father program become minister one day left gone quite time mother living small trailer began starve father returned two children boy eleven girl ten disneyworld several months wealthy mother starved became homeless children previous marriage mother idea even existed memory goes almost completely blank five years next memory raped older stepbrother seveneight sixteen ish always physically strong managed sort fight showing resistance step siblings sat together methodically broke couple fingers memory vague pretty sure incident type lived major city time projects parents spent time evangelising unemployed waiting assignment church long another child way younger brother spent next years trying best raise brother bouncing place place father unusually terrible job fired often end new church really sure exactly parents never around age fourteen almost employed fulltime several jobs parents divorced paid bills provided food tried make decent go high school strong pretty athletic well football classroom another matter spent still time reading anything everything midwestern classrooms taught lowest student became bored quit school attend dualcredit college classes battery tests loved academia met girl fell love three half years went wrong girl dumped mother thought great marry truckdriver run leaving brother fend quit school return home became drugdealer survive became quite addicted heroine one step ahead law one day vanish took now almost adult brother got clean poison fully entrenched younger brother failings take credit struggles day addiction time work menial grid kind stuff work sure legal status long ago sure mountain debt student loans trying without support long ago younger brother called said ms need help children moved discover watch slow painful death imagine reality less pain associate reality tried professional help tell nearly sociopath capacity kind feeling exception younger brother gone collection pills put sleep forever take soon think best become monstrous know post interesting even slightest importantly helpful anyone around questions question benefit please askyou literally cant bother yo im possibly worst birthday life cant even take permit test till february yay feel naked unprotected different therapist even know want go therapy session im confused unbelievable anyone guys experienced selfconfusion help finding appointment even yet made im already freakin feel kinda idiot right now happy christmas people happy christmas hope yall good one fillllllllllllllllllllllllller ppl leave second know u suicidali wonder whats scary ppl suicidal thoughts ppl leave always arent attached u anyways zero intentions real bond u first ure best ure psycho killing compressed airokay cleaned computer compressed air label say whole bunch stuff dont breath dont eat dont shake stuff make dangerous feel wouldnt hurt much im sure held upside spray liquid mouth hurt obviously itd cold possible gaseous form due good way go whiny teenager know startuuuuuuh okay probably begin stating im know experienced significant hardship live comfortably lost anyone close lost euphemism death experienced abuse anything loving family really legitimate reason feel way cant explain welcome tell feelings result normal teenage mood changes believe im sorry pain read ive decided best way put everything bullet points guess ask things want know way im hopefully ranting diagnosed anxiety bullied finding difficult talk anyone lonely unhappy selfharming cutting last two years frequent thoughts redflag real reason really know im hoping achieve typing go talk someone reddit feel alone dear reddit im gay soooo recently ive questioning sexuality ive come conclusion im homosexual friend group knows parents dont tell eventually dont think need know yet maybe theyll even find thank reading im broken nothing enough keep smilingi feel alone even surrounded people put much weight seemingly unattainable romantic relationship im miserable people love family friends good career nothing enough im broken last week ive heart broken ive stood ive humiliated bar random girl feigning interest know whats inherently wrong im depressed anxious awkward guess thats enough im never relationship outside ive never even sex shitty part even know experience every girl talk runs away realize idea im want feel love comes romantic relationship friends suggested escort help personally know one apparently sweet affectionate gorgeous cant real actually want someone want sex paid im far behind ill never catch wake everyday think killing pain anger inside know alleviate harming destroying things around though every time latter work feel empty recently gotten bad cant think anyway feel better killing hurts much keep going im afraid death people said happy grateful ive tried hard focused good happy matter cant try smile bring others killing ill never better im broken im taking easy way outi see way dont see point going anymore never anybody never second plummet bridge cure depression number game nothing hide worst numbers game text version weekend numbers game thingy yo guys made numbers game text format weekends basics age gender height weight zodiac sign first name last name middle name birthday main languages hobbiesfavorite things favorite color favorite food favorite activity favorite music genre favorite artist favorite song favorite movie favorite video game favorite tv show play sports last thing lifeexperience currently job future jobcareerambitions dranksmoked anything done drugs pets favorable memory embarrassing moment dream vacation many family members many friends plan going collegeuniversity social media use social media reddit follow internet argument used social media app whats username app met friends online follow nsfw accountspages last person dmdfollowed last message sent many followersfriends social media amount time use social media personal belongings expensive thing anything prized possession anything embarrassing weirdest thing anything popular anything considered rich anything futuristic coolest thing oldest thing buyget recently appearancelooks hair style halr length hair color nice body style ethnicity wearing eye color wearing makeup type underwear wear favorite outfit facialbody hair relationships sexuality relationship status crush celebrity crush cheated someone ideal girlfriendboyfriend idea perfect date asked someone hope relationship interested anyone real lifeonline date sex amp sexuality virgin seen anyone naked piercingtattoos samesex expirence sent nude sexted kissed anyone aftractive slept together want sex straight bi gaylesbian pan etc sexual welcome spicy town bradick size pubic hair natural trimmed shaved none body hair guys circumcised often masturbate watched porn ideal sexualphysical attributes favorite sexual fantasy turn onsturn offs kinks ideal sexual position masturbate toy caught masturbating walked someone sex biggest fears sex stds often horny embarrassing sexual story currently horny expect sexual relationship academicsschool go school classes take grade favorite teacher least favorite teachers highest gradelowest grade classes long school day homework tests quizzes exams coming last bad grade last good grade economic statuswealth richpoor stand wealth class working class wealth owner class big house take picture house much parents make parents struggle debt pool groundbelow ground live gated neighborhood expensive stuff big room kind school go misc send selfie whatever say saying dm yolonelysevere anxietygonna bullet suck writing severe anxiety got school never full year mom forcing go back school th least ged severe anxiety ruins life barely leave house agoraphobia multiple panic attacks day poor scared therapy option working bother poor burden mom living abusive controlling father mom struggling afford divorce leave lots family stress low self esteem hard time enjoying anything trying anything literally money name ask food tp father make much money government support want bullied want physically hurt harassed high enough gay percentage make likely lmao ex gf may manipulative violent shit remember thing poor shoes apparently got kicked stalked around hallway guy thought funny make fun poor girl less dollar shoes one friend online cant really deal suicidal asleep suicidal crushs kik working says phone disconnected three days panicking okay electric bath bed im freezing heater try make social media upset seeing shows whatnot literally care aboutbeause hate everything literally nothing interests everything boring trying cbt fear exposure ladders helping much want remember meditate exercise studydo online eduational things prepare moms kind hoarder makes life harder constantly argue hate litthe brother fucking much wish qasnt born hes brainwashed father minion step dad ok makes much pervy jokes speaking pervy nofap goals butits hard especially trauma self harm honestly stopping harder injuring sharp things tbh actually many things wan na care ride horses garden write novels open vegan resturant study stemrobotics learn roller skate personal im pretry sprititual atheist family im always scared talk abt reincarnation stuff feel alone constantly making space fairy jokes etc future goals thats far want happy im scared blood trauma thats killed yet severe hypochondria fear body medical trauma past similar conspiracy theories mandela effects etc horror writing stories water color painting harry potter flying witch cute anime cheers prlly lots issues want feel good enough least lay calm enough sleep past midnight phone ill leave blanket nest took long time make charger game show music shut fuck reason rule good find superman x batman gay porn animated videos former gifted child case dissapoint parents show think anymore maybe stop high expectations show terrible man terrible kid thinking way deserve horrible gifted got lucky disappointment deserve trash kid deserve better part wants make parents proud time want disappoint finally see really someone kill mecaution come anything advice topic dont bother posting wan na hire thug someone kill look much costetc feel trapped pathetici cant go single day without feeling stupid disgusting deserve anything anyone im horrible person feel burden everyone around theres nothing im good depression made indifferent everything younger used reading cant even concentrate reading single chapter whenever someone asks hobby never know answer reality either sit dark feeling horrible watch youtube videos distract kind hobby im particularly good school either hard study depression cant fucking focus motivation non existent ive tried make feel better venting ways drawing writing self harming nothing makes feel better terrible place typical relationship issueim bad place redditers think need help ive drinking non stop wrote redflag notes followed went gpa average college student failing classes quarter relationship thought best played wasnt planning proposing june things took turn worst ended things breakup wrecking recently met trip los angeles im broken know let slip hands feel terrible going much heartbreak wanting kill want cause harm people told never date married usually id think im crazy feel want disappear world worst part still trying talk mine love feel making harder move year old male ready leave world one needs im sorryi cant anymore really really want im tired eating disordered eating habits lack self love super low self esteem matter damn much hate much want kms dont dont want hurt others cant suffering head everyday im exhausted recently finished missing assignments filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text male depressed couple months following split gfwe split fault texting girls found im dealing piece crap hurt much drinking every night makes numb wan na stay numb think better wassnt around anyone christian actually still believes god day age please tell either leave fuck aloneb transport back simply belong years ago basically truly believe made mistake placing day age orc fucking send hell already depressed ass probably rightfully belongsanyone still christian trying insult anybody truly believe god proud glad gave good life truly unfortunately everybody human creation simply give shit lease ask either kill outright fucking help really care amore point either way probably killing soon anyways gods will message god loves doim going try summarize much apologize wording things clearly know potential create great things never time keep discovering barriers people build prevent kind overall progression sake personal gain spend slow periods work programming ways completely automate certain tasks see jobs done programmatically people know possible computer person start every project question person achieved life see fairly clearly advances accessible technology make peoples lives much fulfilling including drastically improving quality life disabilities still flipping burgers cant people see us building walls keep actually getting anything done whoever builds wall makes little bit money everyone must climb cant people stop trying make money nothing spending downtime work learning working projects spending time home working still give little hope pointless tasks carry day day job exist obvious advantagous learning every day become disgusting material people feel background design spent quite long time learning build whatever needed several different forms something broke make new one learn works piece element mean much make new one x y z making gain valuable skills bring even value thing already cherish much see explosive potentialthat know everyone absolutely incredible things future humanity cant people see money equal time spent working time spent working directly equal money spend things distract much dislike work never felt work meaningless seems options either take advantage others money taken advantage im tired rat race tired longer bothered people cause disruption society cutting line swerving traffic screaming children clearly taught screaming childs ears matter anymore think got point life point try best make right decision based past experiences victims circumstance happens longer feel obligated feel negativity towards people never amount anything unless find solution open eyes fucking beautiful world fingertips every moment day cant make see use quarrel know reveal world people know cycle workwork greater goodbe interrupted workworkmaintain sanityworkwork greater good loop nothing make happier dedicating entire life writing programs help nerve damage amputees even paralysis able explore wonders using brain computer interfacing take back control lives nothing make happier kissing cutting edge ai machine learning even spending time writing code assist tedious jobs know easy someone write code making role much easier fulfilling focused nothing make happier designing delivering little science projects kits required colaborative problem solving door door help communities realize need hide inside day nothing make happier able help us realize solve problems life need keep prisoner playing bullshit guessing games toying others minds order move forward nothing make happier waking every morning problem idea solve determination discipline ideal view future give fuel keep pushing forward im years ive told things better years ive making predictions myriad little evils churn society greedy engine cant help see now every prediction made true know convince someone find greater happiness outside whole world told operate really clue starting believe never able find solution problem nothing made afraid need help know anymore im losing meaning ive come learn goodbyeits late want talk cant help set free exam today cant even bed mild ventingive struggling selfconfidence matter much put never achieve want anymore hate hate im good enough yesterday okay day fine stressed fine ive relationship almost year im still shit gf cant believe says make happy cheer remember pissing sometimes even believe says love im tired scaredi need leave husband reasons might immediately think theres nothing wrong need work courage leave kill cant keep going die fall second story window one ground floorwhat land head goodbye amp thank youmy ex girlfriend years left hours ago watched leave knowing never come back knowing never see feel always knew day come deny deep inside prepared happen next life decided time finish adventure thank ex girlfriend girlfriend best friend amazing person supporting accepting following around world truly deserve amazing person life travelled played video games suffered achieved many things together planned whole future together excited unfortunately something changed something flipped switch head decided longer going part future love felt gone chance try fix made decision left quickly time react always knew lost longer able live life carry knew completely dead inside energy motivation continue move one person really helped life gave reason every morning work love much person wanted spend rest life gone thank sharing years life travelling creating amazing memories together asked better person nobody able replace thank father allowing amazing childhood allowing amazing relationship ex helped us go explore world encouraged us follow dreams matter thankful father cared much invested much time making sure life great last person thank sister giving somewhere stay looking tough moments life never got tell much amazing sister really know really hurt please understand need know cause lot pain longer live ex true love person really talk something funny show going tough times fought hard love different everyday special waking next seeing face gave much happiness write much feel want finish need say quickly life unfair one moment flying clouds next struggling bed make breakfast even shower feeling way killing ive never felt sad life know better matter much try longer love life giving energy decided time right pull plug accept people handle better others years planet last spent best years life really fun longer accept fact us things building causing much pain cant face family tell happened cant open phone without seeing pictures videos together every seconds memory pops head makes cry instantly time come leave awful place job place money perfect time leave thank reddit always giving something times tough im sure understand hours longer honestly excited seeing good luck anyone strong enough still go lives thank time see side real reason people really hate tik tok first id say im one instagram bad reddit good people first reason pretty obvious theyre dancestrends really unoriginal said ones pretty obvious see dance song done multiple people videos millions views next point tiktok super toxic youve app least week youd probably find alt side tiktok people think sort advantage straight people sexual orientation might think might cause lot problems last point possibly important tiktok basically fuels child porn yes want people rights bodys want people express theres point cross line theres one trend thats probably worst doggystyle trend yeah heard right anyways thanks tuning rant hate everything everyone bye lol book heavy metal depressed stay silent unless good reason talk keep thoughts even speak words possible give nothing away angry focus drive take shit anyone fact actively punish people fuck anything want give shit people think need anythingi states keep never end regretting things say happy different person hate person self conscious make concessions people result overshare tell people things id never want know immediately regret every time lose things learned right years things actually brain hijackedand people see fooled thinking actually expect time even though time even understand person times guess make people think actually want friends confused blame want hang secretly want fuck guess faulti hate happy hate become wish somehow guarantee id never turn person hate happy weird think first months normal rona came america normal life bad favorite band system feel stupid im poser even genuinely favorite band say doomedor likely doomed trying find lightive realized simply looking place die quite got courage yet pull shotgunhowever think im getting close ive contemplated slitting wrists ive attempted even cant cut deep enough ive gone days without food water eventually cave mostly due alcohol place die courage determination wantneed life thingreason kept going past daughter morenot know looks even remembers pain past ex excruciating struggle find hope struggle find anything really puppet still puppet form true lovethat never truly loved way loved girlfriend disappearedi know breaks rules really need advice girlfriend currently contact online disappeared four days ago sending texts much pain much longer wanted alive woke hour sent messages response replied phone number none friends able contact researched online obituaries home town redflags area found anything relevant still concerned mightve hurt badly one reasons longer want commit redflag something terrible happened probably take life know continue wait message someone please help cant sleep horny gone least yesterday dey need rid horny tho stubborn today anyone know curious anyone really knows sub asshole hey girl u athlete cos u always go extra mile hugged girl today later virgins seriously years last time girl hugged people say swag swag im talking u emily please someone help meim sad fall asleep cant stop thinking much hate ive ruined last thing made happy want kill cant live pain least want fall asleep cant everyone smart enough become astronaut world anti maskers conspiracy theorists covid hey know fmlits hard people seem care fucking live yet pay attention unless want fuck confirms im nothing fucking piece meat u shove ur dick thats anyone fucking toy made survivei started life easy mode come well family ive made college every little thing gives huge anxiety fall apart face set backs think made live life im incapable people much harder fine im failure im cut life listening pd ost feeling heist filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler feel girl best friend years slowly becoming better friends best friend talking months wrongi feel sad wrong chance run car instinctively pussied id green light crosswalk idiot care absent minded wouldve perfect way rid life ive never wanted funeral expenses covered insurance thinking going now sure im coward know shouldits right downstairs oblivions comforting terrifying im probably cowardlyweak now guess ill soon though knows maybe drinking lower inhibitions enough knows edit little bit intoxicated right now sivenish drinks less two hours got ta work spine soon yeah sex cool teacher respond email minutes please someone kill right now autism asperger depression today mom told homework said idea given homework started talking small notebook write whats homework asked tf remember write homework started yelling started crying called selfpity walked room left floor crying thinking crappy life everything used diffferent still happy kid im refusing eat anything till mother treat human ig threatened delete account today shared spicy mememehmed lol son blew better mohhamad pic angry arabian guy story got deleted got black screen instagram told might delete profile friends shared post nothing happend story even shared mine close friend shared standard story original post deleted someone reported story depressed want attentionhas anyone struggled fact want kill feel pain currently wish id rather dead way didnt live life feel miserable reason cant feel deep want people notice dead feel thats wanting attention dont know makes sense anyone relate prideful person nature wish fucks sake dead one notices even though im need one deep need feel dead everyone finally realize pain real feeling really downthis year seems crumbling feel im going dark place ive suicidal years ago looking someone talk viewed original outer limits real time first broadcast viewed entire original series reruns complete dvd find new outer limits well remake old retread episodes adolescent commentators suggestedbr br seven years programs versus two years original series producers writers certainly added considerable new original stories philosophical lines much longer running well produced cable tv series plots intelligent scientifically accurate projections unknown possibilities sometimes frightening imminent futurebr br producers directors hollywood ignorantly view scifi indistinguishable horror fantasy series returns origins science fiction logical moral philosophical projections current new technologies possibly fearful near term realizations series well remains unique avoidance shootemup video game monster mentally much current generation brains history message good entertainment adult series without unbearable teenage knowitall fantasies hurraybr br now mgm release entire new outer limits series dvd instead six poor teaser discs st season available hotline help related phonesi know silly question really cant make calls severe social phobia cant use phone even good day im well im runing coping mechanisms fast feel theres anyone help cant afford therapist right now ones ive seen past able help nobody close family bunch anxious people love simply make matters worse panic comfort pretending im better calm cant make calls ive gone metanoia site many times effect anymore yes ive waited time ive permanent crisislike state hours hours least last night right everyone family left work afraid edit thank everyone expect people caring helpful moment im imminent danger keep mind links places posted commies choose abolish communist china communist vietnam dang commies gt anyone talk pleasei need distracted please sleep cant stop thinking anything help mind dont know changei always reactions stimuli cant fix loop want give end doesnt matter itll loop im sick thisim sick crying every fucking day want end today even worse day nothing one help day help try cry fucking hard fine im used alone still heartbreaking always hate day wish die never wake another miserable day hope much better day way put phone pocket pocket upside screen facing thigh horizontal yknow type stuff yes im typing damn bot idk enough ill post see guess sudden bursts suicidal thoughtsfor days getting intense suicidal thoughts day mostly alone home enjoy solitude anime tv series playing overwatch seem enjoy night hard fall asleep cos mistakes made filled head sometimes sleep days straight amd sleep rd day exhaustion asked father want visit psychiatrist said bad habits sleep fine third day sick cant let go doc sleep problems open thoughts want kill self people medications coa side effects gladly side effects mental condition head keep hearing voice die cant keep going failed subjects college able job depend father money going give things friends next birthday august leaving world living stalin regime bad come never heard citizens complain facts always feel family friends hate know bad place mentally take little sign meaning going leave finally making new friends feel going fuck bc mental health fact believe deserve good things therapy days bad place function feel everyone hates gets little difficult day keep goingif assisted redflag option us burden society point im ready pack go take chances somewhere stop scrolling help fellow teen theres girl ive liked nearly years wanted tell feel one problem best friend im worried actually dating unlikely shed want least want know feel trust want able trust tell involuntary suicidal ideationfor long time response thought produces negative reaction mind involuntarily blurts need kill commit redflag probably hundred times per day plan caused lot distress worried depression ocd something many people online online time embarassed receiving compliments basically im making whole post bcs guy friend keeps calling cute even tho told say countless timesand keeps insisting ithe doesnt seem hes jokingi feeloverwhelmed embarassed bcs dont confidence enough self love reply back oh thanks haha yeah ik bcs literally put say ugly assno wayi keep denying tell say bcs embarassed continues says getting embarassed cuteimi seriously punch istg ofc im embarassed feel dying idk srsly cant stop anymore told keep admit im moving silent hill cya west coast time face punishment sins ghost town dont see reason live anymorei dropped grade four years ago ptsd anxiety cant dream job never gratuated really regret dropped cant dream job now feel embarrased tell others didnt finish high school must think im weird cant back trail im trying really cant fucking done life going buy liquor morning normal people alike tittle saw spider scared initial reaction saying fuck asshole dont know thats better worse last reaction spider fuck shit penis cock ive said want kill ive never able admit now always used say want disappear turn invisible ive come terms suicidal thoughts want go detail situation hate life love friends family besides hate everything diagnosed high functioning autism fourteen felt deserve live im worthless unintelligent retarded much additionally ive heard people say autistic people deserve live lives started cant anything etc even diagnosed autism dealt isolation middlehigh school isolated long began feeling crazy strangest things playing insects even though used always sit small corner lunch recess sometimes used cry people never cared teacher told cant make friends anything tried joining three groups school ghosted rd day hanging felt boring uninteresting fault one wants friend used three friends current school unfortunately left one went another school went tafe still friend school really great come school often sadly think thats enough reason live really know say want ask something go ahead guess remembered thing copied yea sorrey bothering w basics age gender height weight zodiac sign birthday favourite things favorite color favorite food favorite music genre favorite song favorite movie favorite tv show favorite animal favorite thing life experience hobbies sports future jobs ambitions drank smoked done drugs pets best memory embarrassing moment dream vacation reddit many followers favorite subreddit favorite redditor amount time spent reddit many people chatted last person dmdchatted many subreddits follow follow nsfw subreddits looks hairstyle hair color eye color body type build ethnicity favorite outfit wearing rn type underwear wear relationships sexuality relationship status crush celebrity crush cheated someone ideal girlfriend boyfriend idea perfect date asked anyone sex amp sexuality virgin anyone seen naked tattoos piercings sex experience sent nude sexted kissed anyone attractive sexualnsfw bra dick size pubic hair natural trimmed shaved none body hair guys circumcised often masturbate last time masturbated watched porn ideal sexual physical attributes favorite sexual fantasy turn ons turn offs kinks misc dm chat message ask whatever want ask question poem wrotehey guys wrote poem last night stumbled upon sub thought poem might help considering redflag say ink permanent blind father never glimpse light daughters smile say diamonds forever hands widow lover spend eternity cold apart say one lives forever cant avoid tolling bell say one life pray god live mine weli death permanent one things truly forever even earth stars around us crumble fall yes death inevitable given gift beyond compare life chance live long live well may people care now people care future waste life given things seem bleak right now gone cant take back feel free reach need anything loved valued want live anymorei cant connect human beings herebut ami right herei money loving familyi selfishpridefula liar oni bad personi lonelyonly got friend use fake persona keep reason im herei used lonelysince childhood reallyi itbut adapted real reason life seems meaningless mei lost motivationsi life deciding exams monthsdidnt study allwhat exactly supposed fighting forto make family proudi already disappointed many times frankly care anymorefor nice little futurejust die one day old person cold hospital roomthats idea life peoplei think even loved girl onceof course back one point decided turn life aroundi going gym years nowi studied hardi really triedbut lost acquaintances started change herea long long time ago peoplei wanted save others depths depressioni talk people telling life worth itit work somebut looking backi realize much hypocrite end never understand seems easy others liveto happyto friendswhy natural tired try anymorethe best part day sleepwhen consciousnesses shuts downsothats attempted redflag didnt pan now wish access fentanylmy attempt redflag took eight instead four trazedone got sixth pill figured fuck every day realize much loser last day hopeless future im almost im white hetero male high school diploma nothing ive applied hundred jobs year ive two interviews never called back ive unemployed year now thats saying much last job mascot needless say doesnt come close even paying food live disability im ugly acne scars rosacea im little overweight cant afford clean clothes pay four days food without using food bank relying family starving girls look im cockroach never smiled public dont see point studying technical school thats afford student loan computer engineering technology government take earn spend time working hard job fry cook money taken away enough fun doubt id promoted ive never promoted ive lost jobs employment record credit score filth cant afford cant qualify move better apartment end dont mind leaving family behind theyll think well hes better place now truth every day inch closer closer towards homelessness apartment building cock roaches mice god knows makes living much desirable actually existing wish fentanyl days want go day know ill day opinion gays burnt cross sin incapable really feeling anythingi feel disconnected mind body world around live behind brain fog dense im even sure cant grasp gravity situations really care feel emotions shallow fleeting thing feel mind really registers disgust anger think cheating ex felt positive feeling left think brain tumor shit brain fog lingered years feel im always little drunk everything dull lifeless memory sense consequences ability think feel diminished greatly idk even know im writing depression health relationships dying hope post make sense goodnight day trying slow video games made start tv overheated screen went weird im taking sign slow ill trying making posts help pass time maybe nothing much happening yet ill slowing hour day usually played day wish luck im scared keep living scared take lifei dont know im made alt account post practically friends im antisocial trouble talking people moved year ago adult added specifics age grade got bullied year got pulled second year homeschooled last im getting end everything one close friend cousin care close friend attempted redflag month two ago cousin says family makes want kill themself im terrified loosing two people actually trust probably reason im alive point im ashamed didnt offer enough support point friend tried taking life infinitely thankful didnt work still scared cousin attempts im scared much shit getting c class standards high scared parents finding think theyre toxic abusive scared go back school possibility dealing bullying end day im antisocial overwhelmed loser whos waiting till crack mean friends point im making reddit post want kms feel completely defenseless way outlet way knowing whats happening next every time im little happy something bad happens extent feel dont deserve happiness im staying avoid tomorrow im scared whats coming next breath fresh air years please dream foreverand keep switching another dream one doesnt way fully control dreams amount control average dream fine id much rather live live good morning anyone timezone lmao woke early hi fello guys guyettes sooo friends hav discord server trying new peoplee chat send memes play games minecraft among us theres ppl console channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia stuff going commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link im hot literally feel sick high temp right redflag noteim never good talking feelings dont want mess give tips writing pls thankslt utterly suicidal im terrified wont succeed time cant take another failed attempt feel ive living half life sincelast time coma days overdose pills doc didnt think gon na make pulled everyone keeps telling reason every dont feel right feel never fully came back idk feel im living half life borrowed time yo playing miiiinecraaaaaft cut g fat slap occurs send help study anything history wish luck situationhey ill try say much need help need compassion want express im boiling feelings want people know exactly might lead potential death lets start general im yo french male ive always shy ive never really self confidence ive bullied th grade overweight nerd class became pseudo depressive kept saying id kill really wanted bit attention love anyway now today im different person ive become heartless careless bastard imagine chose started movie watched bother tell ill tell made think become today movie occupies dear space heart showed side life deeply want discover dumb know made realize im missing life ill try make little sum learnt first friendship think might one biggest parts movie hit right guts movie made question definition friendship friends even feel yeah turns feel shit anyone called friends dicks yeah im alone friends point view second love side things mean saw love somebody wether family friends girl mad think cant love cant ive never met girl loved theyre superficial dunno heartless bastard third dream context place movie took place man hate france hate people hate want live people ill people place even biggest city appealing sunny full life think need trigger something make feel think miss plain happiness thats made become today think ill change mind im going bad stuff know question importantly ill leave fellow friends hope great life fulfill feelings id edit forgot say eat sleep anymore im critical exhaustion point whenever night cry hours exhausts physical aspect deserve help savedi beat disabled exfiancee several times mild cerebral palsy may ill excuse behaviour im despicable bastard already knew long ago cant wrap head around someone love feel failure protected hurt truly believe deserve help support anyone much want back much love miss made right choice dumping pathetic arse deserve without theres part wants hate good side cant fault hope happy guy hell never hurt wish gave discord tag gave discord tag crazy gtlrop order unscramble yourselflt remake country change social issues economy education laws ect project im school create political party beliefs class vote think best want see everyones ideas change edit mean country country preferably usa rlly think im someone gives flirty compliment amp scared ok miss ego stfu amp stop scared im going disappear disastrous semester comes end bye bye good luck maybe ill back week really need focus school particular exam season school rule fail single class kick one particular class physicsrelated fluid dynamics difficult failed last year im worried failing still confuses heck im scared failing im going offline tn finals end whole life school fail class nothing ashamed keep living want become sicidal vent ill end anyways good luck exams study well take care drink lots hot lemon tea red bull p year leftso set goal girlfriend good way good work mean learn new things try education required job complete one redflag year left iam getting bullied everyone say normal life one hidden secret iam lonely fuck want feel real love want feel someone cared even week friends none real friends miss old days didint cared feel sad see someone holding hands kissing hugging depressing theres little make someone day better hug short conversation smile made day better never felt love parents pretended know dont care iam trying hard make someone really iam trying talk trying go walk anything always response something time iam sad think every girl asked go wasnt much less walk something nothing serious date meet talk refused male friends always response time dont know really want hug righ feel alone today seen guy class hugging girls goodbye tried reading girl thing started reading first saw remember last time fell love didint closed started crying work fucking hard iam training trying improve inside iam learning new things talk still effort put didint give anything wanted even one day really feel someone loving caring wish someone understand someone hug feel lost alone year complete goal even second feel someone loves wont complete iam going kill overwhelmed loneliness someone similar situation please message sorry needed let english main lang sorry mistakes make better worse post edit something iam crying right wish someone hugged thanks reading relapsed suicidali think anymore hhhh guess got learners permit today motherfuckers stay roads state behind wheel accidentally rear end everyday reminder failure end iti wake want end done pain realization matter day never better wont ply reason life improve meaning take pill pill continue emotionless zombie spending day day g nothing one pretending life makes happy wan na know excites brings smile face thought today day die slip away die never feel ungodly amount depression deal demons head pretend everyone im ok end day lay bed replay everything asking todaywhy today day im fucked im bipolar im reasons need want die yet c nt matter much want die brain says nope today suffering need today reminded fuckup wife left deserve nothing pain sorrow agony getting tonight every night sit wishing courage right thing kill even something simple im agony fucked rest power ruth bader ginsburg forever hero seems liking life cuz thing see endless loop problems keeps repeting times know freaking heck wrong luckexistence true hellhole better getting stuck rpg game least one die cooler crap life study hall teacher sexual assaulted kid find happen year ago randomly came mind chilling found word mouth former study hall teacher kids thats heard day one stop making jokes talking save life study class th year math grades taking nose dive dumbass wanted stay hes bail set still pin time im gunna adult first comments gtnothinglt hate recognised restaurants frequent cashier local sushi joint asked come quite lot replied weird coincidencewhat odd coincidence planning ending things depending legal issues pans tonight dad gave book read woman attempts redflag one knows legal problem redflag plans thought odd hardly traded books read ill read looks decent guess ill add note go route think catalyzer end cant kill self night bc trafficker use money townmy gut tells good idea go night bc wont asked come around area night red flag therei dont need survive wake basement id hv travel rly dnt wan na waste money periods gon na start another month wasted hey title suggests recently last months taking citalopram first time antidepressants anyway long story short avid gamer first started noticing aim reaction time concentration starting perish followed troubles articulating words usual noticing little things perishing little anything picking something lose moment later troubles using tools efficiently kind fumbling keyboard rather instinctively hitting keys citalopram effecting fine motor skills life cactus flower delightful comedy based neil simon play dentist walter matthau affair young free spirited woman goldie hawn totally unaware devoted nurseassistantingrid bergmanis love matthau play kind role sleep disappoint philandering dentist dr julian winston dating one woman really clue hes love another goldie hawn oscar sparkling performance toni simmons aging flower child slowly comes realize trapped dead end affair dim appears surface real pleasure film performance legendary ingrid bergman stephanie dickinson dr winstons completely devoted assistant willing bury sacrifice happiness long dr winston happy tony bergman luminous film looking absolutely beautiful though camera always loved showing unforeseen knack light comedy yes dialogue settings slightly dated story timeless performances stars make imminently watchable fact day seagulls gossipy birds need nonlonelyness looking relationship type friends something perfect dm wan na something tell wan na im asking im lonely need someone talk wont abandon bad typing need someone work say stuff ok dont want im calling technically dont need mad jack thanks reading asshat reddit username papoeo selfishi admit im selfish even comes redflag dont care advices havent experienced true loneliness family friends etc miles away changes person senior developed bipolar disorder away im happy know fell love good chinese lad graduated love life past sadly became worse human dissociated refused talk used think maybe fall love good chinese guy know deep know thats nonsense long carry burden living back love question alas dont ask grandiose things person money drugs alcohol ride die seek adrenaline rush together partners crime rob bank together steal drugs pharmacy must digress end facing music head dont anything look forward death set free mental illness excruciating dont expect people understand care slowly feel shutting im exhausted tired think donei want anymore feel better fucking tired want give im depressed im worthless ending life smart thing ive doneim awful person ive burden many people years jumping job job looking something didnt hate find doesnt exist gave opportunities jumped ship new exciting place exactly job worthless hours week going dr bills dad supporting sure lifted debt lose everything ive taken much ive given contributed nothing world ive consumed dont want try back life hated want die deserve die beyond hopeless anymore feels tomorrow think finally time shouldve done years ago dont want run away start anew dont way world works fucking cant accept happiness needs fought something inside us people tell worldviews cant comprehend hate world love family dont want around lose guess makes selfish lazy doesnt surprise piece shit bill burr said people simply dont deserve im one okay im kinda upset playing among us wanted cyan asked cyan person cyan host game fricking banned cyan left game felt host game went far banning someone innocent benefit even suicidalmy life general pretty unsatisfying ive got point still want die want live either seek death seek avoid either literally care one way live die see long live dying always continue option die matter long lived remember anyways reason believe sort afterlife exists even really know im asking im really confused probably even bother posting feel need put kind cry help somewhere shoot em blood horror movies come way last little saw hostal saw hills eyes yes place wrong went see stranger calls buddy night remake classic time excellent scared know everyone know expect pleasantly surprised film made mood atmosphere suspense remember people cant see think see cant hear think hear far scarier love films mood creepiness suspense atmosphere love brought back roots original halloween thumbs solid remember folks well done perfect spooky bloody creepy gory nice see film come long minds conditioned warped glitz shock value modern day horror movies forget whats really scary pointless title im going downvote comment post private space sighi understand prettiest boy school kid intelligent best math perfect grades national karate champion multitalent everything puberty hit ditched girl said liked thought manipulating never got back look years later im sexually emotionally frustrated kissless virgin psychologically intellectually spiritually physically devolved underdeveloped miserable pathetic loser going lower lower tons psychological pain depression homophobia incestphobia ocd generalized social anxiety hatred towards human race opposite sex etc trying pass exams need studying unprosperous phylology college shitty town masochistic people bad financial situation family bonds zero social life cant look girls girls cant look touch girl thats virgin killing monday turn thats question edit top fell buttom elementary school teacher never believe im person impossible defeat itjust wan na die psycho anti depressant meds years wife new baby makes worse thought kid find live nope change anything got mortgage car wife baby barely afford money cant anything nice trips holidays even bought courses learn make games barely touched motivation energy wan na tie belt round neck hang doorknob garage really hate mind illness find hard walk live everyday everyone anyone find difficult comprehend everyone functionseveryone goes life go work go school hang friends meanwhile even simplest tasks seem insurmountable right now everyone people goals plans far future hard comprehend right feels im working surviving waking every morning film partly thriller partly publicservice announcement seeing events perspectives politicians terrorists course victims smart drama lessons given contamination surviving chaos meantime backstage look way crisis managed prompts viewers distrust guardians scared assailants film originally aired bbc gets arouse effectively doubts official prepareparedness performances proper understated though never terrific flick beginning provocative start leading larger discussion gets work opinion giving right thrills causing audience reason ask questions f school picture taken look female version sloth goonies dude made pics made weird pose fucking stupid dude winter makes everything worseim depressed year round bloody hell hate season im really struggling know cope misery misery getting worse weird really hands look f play lot games phone looking hands realized really way look ive putting lot care making hands look nice record playing games phone sometimes hands probably wouldnt super pretty people really way look super weird lol teenager bad teenager bad say guess remember stress muchi feel everything control need life line tonight second time ive seriously considered fleeting thought impulse pills ive researched effects dosage needed cant bring sure theres real purpose posting didnt want feel alone anymore every attempt getting soundboard failing tips websites applications something use soundboard im legit annoyed point username checks hard one moms brothers wedding never wanted go treated shit entire time left wayside bleach cabinet sink run make sure nobody sees kill feel shit day tomorrow almost well done john carpenters vampires entertaining solid piece popcornentertainment budget small enough overrun special effects obviously aiming dusk till dawnaudience vampires los muertos tries starting rockstar jon bon jovi playing one main characters almost well seen jon bon jovi movie able compare acting vampires los muertos roles really suprised good performance movie started convinced expecting grab guitar playing life something kill vampires showing mercy job done means lot part audience probably thinking hes rockstar course bon jovi james woods honest much worse opinion bon jovi good performance vampiress played arly jover leather dressed killermachine vampireleader met part similar way ghosts mars jover plays vampire seductive sexy moving lithe cat attacking fast snake dressed thin light almost transparent erotic cloth even optical effects supporting kind movement well made really takes beating director parts film avoiding turning movie actionhorrorfilm sensitive horrormovie murnaus nosferatu almost see directors temptation create movie personal note different original real strength movie time weakest point audience celebrating funbloodbath first movie probably expecting pure funbloodbath second time might little disappointed make mistake vampireslos muertos funbloodbath time kind movie think massacre bar compared scene vampiress tries seduce zoey ruins barmassacre expect american popcornentertainment seducingzoeyintheruinsscene almost europeanlike cinema movie eager tell us relationship zoey vampiress refuses answers time slow action showed audience vampiress human past suffering creature beast slaughtering anybody thats point decides whether movie accepted audience original movie dusk till dawnaudience really going im sure nevertheless tommy lee wallace really great job vampireslos muertos surprisingly good think direct sequel popcorn movie wallace sometimes almost creative expressive hes keeping developing talent order satisfy expectations audience opinion wallace talent fills movie life maybe sometimes sucking time vampires los muertos almost well done give happens make every bad decisioni year old male diagnosed social phobia depression high iq undiagnosed ptsd derealizationdepersonalisation live completely socially isolated apartment interacted another human months criminal found ways pay rent essentials plus everything want basically found way fake prescriptions morals make money big companies even realise im stealing got raided months ago face prison time soon wanted give guys story life thats way much writing poly addict take mg diazepam mg pregabalin daily stay far enough away edge redflag happy heroin meth mail sad lonely see way live witness court date anxiety strong last days consist laying bed dreaming away looking photo albums times dad still alive mum still talked loved live germany getting late hope able sleep dream reality everything better thanks reading fuck lonely sexist scared women okay phobia anything im little scared people general scared women ive bullied genders heres experiences boys bullied hit rare make bleed made bleed kindergarten manipulated betrayed used ect women course understand women im scared getting bullied women fight back hit women likely passive aggressive course know women men general woman bad shed likely insult man likely hit id rather hit honest see pain learning experience see others pain learning experience think okay theyre bullied hurts lot self esteem gets ruined non binary assigned female birth think women bad men bad im afraid people general im scared getting bullied scared getting bullied women im saying women likely bullies think women bad men bad rather bullied average man average woman make sexist debt deb debt debtlost job last year weeks later lost second job pretty much gave rest year ive always bad money gotten worse worse years stupid decisions catching abolutely money income anything used able freelance used able work done used able communicate people normal person know went know whats wrong much debt ill never make enough make monthly payments much less form rent anything im going struggling whole life painful memories watching mom tears car gets repoed house bought bank know thats im headed whats point want want work life away barely even survive miss feeling emotions used technique torture people past life lot bearable awake night everyday sleep deprivation alone enough make kill way fight siblings someone ate taco ask im okayyy ososdhowowjslsobewkaoah got rejected first time zuess sparky little fingers capacitor wand considered weapon going cool magic tricks apparently poses risk medical equipment serious consequences said equipment fails fine im going make tissues float around room magic patients small spoilers alert br br good movievery good movie im surprised say im big fan vampires sound directors name deran serafian usually means bad news films average action movies death warrant gunmen one first films maybe continued making horror movies instead action movie really fascinated good accomplishment seeing famous actors big budget involved really story keeps focused especially fans original dracula myth satisfied sarafian lights another aspect famous bram stoker story remains rather loyal true truth explains life roemenian count dracula scared turkish army away spearing dead corpses front castle course thats reality based true story stops blood drinking stuff invented bram stokerbr br movie count vlad teppish emigrates usa seduces tons woman theyre pretty girls ill give overall good acting unknown faces enough blood gore satisfy morbid horror fans interesting storyline film really unknown hidden darkest shelf local videostore certainly worth cleaning dust cover put vcr heck lot better famous nicole kidman movie title two films nothing common blame movie stealing attention away nice little picture check outmy humble opinion die much big epic pictures ill spare namedropping great kick back beers simple action flick sometimes films plot takes backseat setpieces films dialogue cleverly written ties endless knots purple prose hundreds films fit bill opinion gone sixty seconds one better onesbr br update movie shares name shares pictures ethos quite execution whatever great original streamlined whatever streamlined amped thanks bigger budget often kinds endeavours recipes complete disaster see pugugly remake italian job one blew thanks cast mostly excellent actors sixty succeedsbr br plot much dialogue much write imdb often scenes line dialogue goes back forth actors voice different inflections lot people found annoying find raises smile actor gets chance show definition style cage jolie duvall leading pack course noted amusing see mrs pitt given first billing chemistry good ol saint nick stalwart see date review angelina leads couple nice momentsbr br villain even little scary ive seen chris eccleston play toughguy roles know handle think deliberately directed make role inconsequential distract action know heroes going succeed somehow sitting car enjoying ride think lot scenes played tongue far incheek went heads lot people giving poor rating fact minded fourthwall breaking winks camera kind moviebr br style much substance something often exhausts patience executed worthless action part wonderfully ive noticed seems common trend using fastcut extreme closeup shots direct action days personally find kind thing exhausting prefer movies stunts impressive enough need artificial tension ramping raping tight shots time ive told cage actually many car stunts away without losing insurance real life mean character clearly care shows man really move vehicle put good use slowburning climatic finale drives mustang ground outlandish fun way possiblebr br yes movie epic lifeaffirming post picture obligatory social commentary effort pacing uneven scenes cut actors tow line car movies rarely come better hate cars even reading commentsbr br id take numerous iterations flaccid tedious guess franchise day got broken withso traveled miles pandemic meet guy thought loved trapped extra week wildfires break phone day got home sleeping airport floor spent much money broken said loved told said want make trip awkward best friend going rough time hate lol ready genuinely tried tell three friends told im well friend told redflag scale listened think understood serious ending ready want anymore someone suggests ill feel better days im feeling way big break ive depressed occasionally suicidal almost decade im tired fighting think time hello people tell morning go dentist fillings wrist part drills sound mechanical demonic children crawling tv tensed entire time hows day going awful day thought talk mother told need itseriously cant even fcking express im feeling without getting response exactly issues opening people irl hate complain time people emotionally distant cold allowed raise kids im sick try expecting different im sick people telling shouldnt call bitch shes mother fcking bitch really shouldve done us favour abortion anybody want pic dms open m filler going dollar soles mexican pesos uruguayan pesos argentinian pesos sure seems minutes actual content episode certainly fun watch might find cringing chair buddy sticks foot mouth gets shot chuckling shaking head ridiculous line actually works panel hosts goodnatured friendly dare say canadian style commentary compared cutthroat us reality programming think people complain show joke taking show seriously show takes keys vip great caricature reality shows sports tv culture club scene hope another season id interested see us version appears certainly fun original premise classic series least repeated released dvdbilly tothafter realising adopted death parentsembarks journey find real parentsafter various rites passagehis search culminates discovery fathers identity stolen used human trafficker europeif remember correctlythe series ends austrian ski slopes cliff top chase resulting death billys fathers betrayer series filmed location various destinations round europe appeared polished incredibly well made episodes crossing realms film noir crime thrillerthe main arc often eclipsed slices life billy went years toiling find mother fathers secretsa class act underrated forgotten may meme proves good point read video description opinion httpsyoutubeushdcqhtehttpsyoutubeushdcqhte really old fashion charming movie locations great situation one old time preston sturgess movies fi want watch movie demand much sit back relax acting good really liked michael rispoli rounders sleeping rest cast fun happens two people married meet one really love weekend planning weddings know sounds kooky thats makes fun watch make girl friend either hug leave least know bored car way back snowboarding bored hell yaaay anyone wan na talk tomorrowtomorrow day sure im still trying figure tomorrow sleep tonight wake tomorrow soon sleep forever ill finally peace think clue happens die better life ive hope find peace incredible lives gologistically go ive tried find straight forward answers cant anything need student loans bank account make living will say goodbyes without letting people know im planning make easier plz dont tell im please know desperate please visit webstore maybe buy something parents say teen cant really make cash lets prove wrong khave headache drink water yes know keep fightingim scared suicidal honestly id go hospital anyone watch dog guess thats part problem know anyone friends moved state girl dumped months later months many horrible things happened broke im scared im broken anyone broke away abusive family talked years couple friends old state shot breeze want anything deep know make friends im broken right now worst lost job insurance cant find anything im tired broke want homeless dog needs shots barely afford food hes good boy deserve crappy parttime job gone im depressed barely work safety net help im broke live buginfested hole still cant afford im tired im tired fighting im alone know need help ive fighting months therapy county offer anything barebones medical clinic thats cant keep fighting one cares one cares im barely holding write u love letter one dollar im good writer promise poop feel x better bru poop dying feel brand new person feels everything bad came feel much better anything world role play love role playing none freinds childish bravestarr released defunct american animation company filmation back heman masters universe shera princess power respectively plot cartoon native american cowboy named marshall bravestarr possesses strength bear ears wolf speed puma eyes hawk trusty sidekick talking horse named thirty thirty carried gun aptly titled sarah jane help deputy fuzz judge jb serve protect new texas evil tex hex band outlawsbr br set futuristic texas still day one cartoons set particular city us south thousands light years ahead future considering made s creators impressive job trying recreate wild west look scifi based outlook bravestarr evoke morality good verses bad well teaching children lessons life highlighted themes culture community take things life granted despite fact action adventure cartoon many story lines themes issues addressed resonate children adults way makes sense addition marshall bravestarr one first major cartoon characters ethnicminority background make impact tvbr br sound effects amazing music great theme song equally memorable animation wonderful characters well designed stories diverse taught kids morals importance right wrong something said todays cartoons sadlybr br whilst bravestarr overshadowed success heman still personal favourite many s cartoon fanatics suffice say preferred bravestarr heman diversity story lines characters depth situations problems characters faced say realistic identifiable contrast reason resonated people instancein pledge kid dies drug overdose fact happy ending important sense kids watch episode well fact anyone watches episode realise devastating consequences drug usage one underestimate dangers drugsbr br bold brave times thoughtprovoking bravestarr definitely bold brave thought provoking cult cartoon classic many years come dared take risks well truly paid end remembered many cartoon fans one interesting well best s cartoons rightly sobr br half ten visual film mean dialog sparse almost point silent movie long takes beginning opening shotbr br silences broken stunning sound track ranges discordant staccato beats haunting mix violins interspersed vocals sound dreams feast ears much eyes one early visuals man walking along street preoccupied interest shapely woman walks lamppost one consequences love metaphor lies storebr br long time ago another movie love story said love never say sorry narrative turns idea head number ways beginning main character titta toni sevillo seemingly innocuous longterm resident plush hotel somewhere switzerland everyday week week sits coffee table enjoying passing world cigarettes coffee solitude hes ten years sits observes week engages three surprising activities find see little masterpiecebr br love explored another way direct counterpoint tittas solitude reserved nature two older residents hotel still much love man wants die spectacular manner time comes long suffering wife berates cheating cards guests one titta now titta knows squabbles love mans cheating apologies wife whining surprising blackcomedic mannerone surprise activities mentionedbr br comedy reality although touch upon idea human comedy balzacian sense irony life decision made titta ten years earlier left wife began live hotel keeps touch occasionally clear still loves children now grown sorrow voice speaks volumes theres something sorrowbr br life tittas obviously seem utterly boring actually many perspectives learn lies beneath almost deathlike countenance horror situation hits viewer eyes know female bartender sofia olivia magnani interested titta goes way pique tittas interest herbr br thats things start unravel titta eventually succumbs femininity discovers consequences love ironically finally realizes must finally life spectacular fashionbr br know somewhat cryptic say spoil film story italian cinema love urge see one acting superb sound track chills spine camera work truly innovative direction shows maturity true artistbr br know ill see movie ive fallen far im give trying outwall text coming got ta ampxb growing feels bad dream multiple divorces birth parents seeing sets constantly fight new spouses ive bad memories engrained childhood guess first one ive personally experienced dad nd spouse one weekend moms house visitation dad custody everything normal brought back dads house instead dad stepmom door greet dad asked went dad said left store asked completely ignorant fighting happen two around dad said coming back took baby halfbrother left time rd grade legit cried hours straight broke around time state mandated testing classmate teacher mom called mom broke class time went continued strong school time advanced honors classes occasional slip ups lose motivation remembering past ampxb point high school mom spouse cheated dad still year old together spouse dad place got loud argument half brother half sister side rush bedroom saw started arguing sister previously told arguing lot lately overheard talking getting divorce sorta ignored claims disbelief seeing two fighting brought memory day stepmom left immediately broke crying rage middle room two immediately stopped arguing seeing calm best behaved child family suddenly burst threw really remember much eventually got divorce mom moved apartment brother sister ill back later ampxb half year year dad stepmom broke dad met current spouse complex job time located kids son autism week half younger daughter months younger sister son month younger half brother dads side growing hell cause overprotected kids highly showed favortism towards often getting trouble things eventually mellowed saw things got line behaving dads help anyways mom spouse got divorce dad current spouse started getting heated arguments resulted dad moving back twice span year two pretty much point complete wreck somehow still managing keep grades school two eventually came terms everything fine stable now ampxb back mom siblings apartment time relationship mom sister got pretty bad sister hit teenage years getting pretty rebellious mom exactly mentally stable help found reason spouse broken basically cheating another lady mind time sides family closed minded sort thing mom constantly going leaving sister visitation basically running apartment gone point either valentines day sisters birthday cant remember visitation mom sister locked room grandparents place bad mood divorce things mom sorta really naggy sister day tried stand snap threaten way back apartment old bad memories came broke car mom pulled took us park set apartment complex try talk us sat us seperately started talking us turn talking brother sister crying turned focused anger towards mom coming realization lot sadness happened life got started walking complex back apartment mom saw came grabbed shoulder now ive never one fight cause problems always quiet one never really anything besides reading playing video games ive never fight moment grabbed instinctively twisted arm got small fight nothing crazy grapple fest pissed growing ive pretty much always bottled emotions mostly cause dad kind person thought showing emotion weak manly thing point bottle anyting blew top point sister stepped seperated us brother mom went back car drove around complex back apartment sister hand walked back attempt calm shaking hard even unlock phone time call dad stepdad let know happened saturday dad grandparents place side domino night dad pretty shaken hearing sister said call cause fact family even noticed dad right rush moms apartment pick told point thinking watching siblings ampxb years probably high school highs lows lows always lower last higher highs harder crash lows graduated high school abhonor roll placed gradutatesincluding ap dual enrollment students got accepted ucf bright futures scholarship covering pell grand covering rest excess new bank account throughout time though especially lows always thought ending tying rope slitting veinartery jumping headfirst roof house never guts adds self loathing bitterness finished first semester college pretty well second semester issues started laptop time years old pretty much dying everyting keep working replacing parts installing linux cause windows got corrupted etc eventually dad forced job mostly spouse kept bitching adult working relaxing home weekends eventually got job waffle house fridaysunday try money replace laptop one caveat give month help bills groceries keeping maybe end month food stuff eventually replaced laptop working school grades slipped enough gpa requirement financial aid got cut pell bright futures point know couldnt tell dad spouse basically religious grades placed pedestal family life smart first one actually go college graduate dad dropped sibilngs never went college anyways tell lost financial aid time one point nd stepmom basically guilted keeping working talking car something saying basically helping bunch work getting much thats fine dad work even harder even overtime keep bills people pleaser kind person cant help resisting ones need basically kept working ended keep working waffle house eventually went door choir waiter try earn money ended taking student loan try keep going class try degree grades kept slipping especially math used one best subjects go detail lower level math courses university basically slave prison nothing math hours straight week requirement cant math basically flip back forth things keep overwhelmed keep calm pretty much focus time eventually gave going even though requirement kept working grades kept slipping semester semester lack sleep time try study homework main culprits keep working support household eventually went probation grades got low flunked following semester one knows best friends closests friends family first time ive talked ive going year half amost now pretending still going college im afraid tell anyone im afraid trust anyone ended defaulting loans collectors ass one knows ive gotten good lying parents face cant even tell im lying believe im currently taking online classes albeit little little part time continuing studies im today yesterday got ad letters mail different attourney offices mentioning apparently collectors filed lawsuit im wits end know now doubt letters ive given paying loans good chunk money rds make currently working home depot goes house incuding paying whole electricity bill groceries last third goes paying phone bill personal needs food ampxb earlier year got hit car crossing crosswalk walking work ended torn ligament shoulder lump head light damage occipital lobe brain even tosssed feet collision dad town time picking nd stepmom airport dropped dad back home country called called work called went hospital given painkillers stuff told fine rest ended making claim guy hit mes insurance help attourney got treatment needed sometimes though especially now wish collision killed wish hang strong willed live hospital moms side caught wind sister told manager hospital showed dad hand told let anyone side know anyways im sitting er road rash lump head see time surrounded family started crying pain felt none shock felt bad making worry deserve worry deserve love ive lying every one faces years none know sometimes want disappear vanish suddenly wake gone bad dream now writing ive though go kitchen grab knife end prick grab bedsheets tie tight know wont im coward ideas drive drive left long ago go flow try cause least amount trouble time comes one miss notice time comes one talk even current partner talk mad even reached family switch minimal contact course way make friends everyone leaves even need talk mental illnesses talk anything literally anything feel ostracized life used little beam hope extinguished never okay made apparent incredibly isolated maddening well shes broken asked feelings feelings saw friend countless hours thought tears cried countless compliments worthless heart shattered two fucking words even said gn need someone talk sure want continueim sure want go life im extremely selfconscious self esteem confidence speak ive one relationship know entered take advantage see damage done absolutely terrible luck finding someone love fear never will bad relationship ive never even woman look want reason cheating homework need buy something etc every girl talk real interest hurts rejection hurts ive rejected much stopped counting im good looking think im decently intelligent ive got lots friends think im lots fun coworkers think im pretty cool talk girls interest lock inevitably fumble ruin social anxiety crippling know ive decided im still single time hit im going end least try ive low enough try universe thought suffer enough primer bullet dud lucky please talk help love world give cant even give away douglas sirk directs overacted drama unhappy affluent kyle hadleyrobert stackand mitch waynerock hudson boyhood friends different looks life kyle womanizing son oil tycoon mitch works hadley oil company fall love woman lucy moore kyle means wow feet marry sister maryleedorothy maloneseems towns nymphomaniac carrying torch mitch always seems one clean hadleys messes ambitious pretension little top stars make movie see impressed malone rounding cast robert keith edward platt john lurch robert j wilke spoilers four men ed jon voight lewis burt reynolds drew ronny cox bobby ned beatty decide go rafting trip cahulawassee river floodedbr br wanted fun nice weekend naturebr br two mountain men cross path rape one bobby everything begins go hell handbasket nice weekend even cost one fours lifebr br deliverance italian stupidly titled un tranquillo weekend di paura calm weekend fear grandad movies texas chainsaw massacre hills eyes wrong turn last house left evil naturerevenge subgenre films one scariest right next hills eyesbr br based book james dickey appears movie sheriff bullard chilling story someone go situation thinking knows everything doesntbr br image dead mans hand raising water hands holding rifle onesheet haunting images never leave mindbr br deliverance yeah sex relationship cool scratched part ear q tip middle nowhereim stumped fact think everyone stumped comes life things bad im well top school friends care great relationship family nontheless im lost ive social anxiety years old finally realized live way halfway high school saw therapist psychiatrist ive several medications every one works well months later side effects emerge reason sweat constantly live northeast right still come home covered sweat every evening first medicine id taken im still way even without medications face gets flushed hours clockwork every night every evening ive dermatologists tried rosacea meds tried laser treatments kept food logs tried extra exercise exercise assumed psychological yet even tonight saturday evening nothing im sitting typing icepack face life now every evening involves sitting trying help avail ive gone days without eating thinking sweating flushing caused something im putting inside im medical student even realize stupid im still desperate two dermatologists said theyre stumped help either issue returned psychiatrist admitted current medicine cause told lower dosage problem lower dosage makes incredibly depressed something never emerged reluctantly agreed lowered difference minimal best call says go back higher dosage still know higher dosage causes problems im stuck lower dosage makes depressed anxious doctor telling take higher dosage may well causing physical symptoms making even anxious addition crippling stomach problems gastroenterologist unable find cause problems come around ill spending hours curled ball bed thing seems help cramps additionally sleep hair quickly falling joints hurt ive blood tests thyroid problems vitamin deficiencies lyme disease celiac disease everything according every doctor see happy healthy twentysomething parents constantly tell head bring ive tried highvitamin diets supplements thinking may cause ive tried right now nothing bread water days ive lost thirty pounds september list medical problems doctors say exist parents insist purely due mind feel im eaten away inside physically psychologically im anxiety depression medication causes problems higher lower dosages psychiatrist im paying dollars per visit saying options higher lower dosage take lesser two evils want know function without something feel im eaten alive physiologically mentally ive yet find someone believe say dreading college class subconsciously hating family crap ill beat someone say literally billions people worse every day see children cancerous tumors slowly spreading throughout bodies spend days smiling laughing nonetheless im point see hope patient terminal cancer least told truth prognosis patient curableyettoughtobeat illness responding treatments least someone says know nothing working going keep trying stop start making feel better heterogeneous group people different relationships professions telling go home push head feel boy cried wolf comes health mental issues know something wrong nobody take word im hope helping problems ive ive done share ive seen multiple experts ive tried putting smile pretending world fine thing think perhaps death better deal physical mental health problems think deal nobody believes say might something wrong beyond feel well know typed shared honest maybe want chest regardless anyone brave wall text want thank wish happy weekend girls ghosted first second jokes im im automatically chick magnet least wasnt ugly lmao think killing self everydayi dont want use gun bc idea one plus know wouldnt able go mostly fear wouldnt shoot correctly end vegetable state cant take pills bc none strong enough dont want end getting stomach pumped ive considered slitting wrists letting bleed many things online say takes hours itt effective bc many people cut right area people wake feel nauseas lightheaded lot pain wish someone kill diagnosed something will dont want live anymore im afraid im coward hate want die im going kill needed relese iner pain somwhereim going kill tonight thought present cancer spinning around mind end present im tired everything call life walk hell knowing things worse nothing gets better know big piece shit deserves world made suffering im tired bad emotions come hard handle everything want turns nightmare keep asking wrong life say think death much used drugs stopped already two years made open later prelude accepting mistakes yah say work earn money understand much takes care person barely move pour salt meal worked years trying fix problems spend money saving someones life spend dam even started live buddhist monk whos sleeps floor empty room without material possessions life moving anywhere cant anything really help heal dad feel shit hard take care think gon na ower hate im week mind hurt nobady helps fuck nothing others help feel prison opportunities thought run save life people meet walk door worries responsibilities cant person behave still hate thoughts think want leave end day gets harder life spiritual awakenings things cant share nobody ill gon na end mental hospital fuck im sick care someone really sick word somebody better place hows everyone better gratitude others slowly dying jealousy anger taking ower first one kill become monster hard think im worth think im egoist think piece shit say try best harm others trying withstand another day people see struggle wish things different wish world love please read momenti dont want reveal age know im minor ive made awful mistake never meant send photos every moment thought wouldnt regret haunt every single day didnt know wasnt ready im afraid telling people mistakes ive made fear persecuted criminally charged photos words wish take back every day hate hate im awful person things ive done adults kid matters guys guys found im human bcause im water parking lot golden gate bridgeidk start even want give sob story internet came back visit san francisco try find purpose meaning insecurities anxieties validated belong die alone let society slowly choke happiness joy life lifespan check terms wish never existed impacted anyones life first place ive everything least one point life mess everything every time world need go high blood pressure makes want kill myselfi outlined im feeling bad made post im feeling worse allergies high blood pressure making awake suffering every day summer keep coughing time feels something might pop head want sleep body let every time go doctors theyre fucking clueless cant figure spiking meds work right type body feels stiff hands shaking sucks makes want kill worst part cant talk anyone nobody cares enough respond back try telling sometimes worry friend thinking today biology teacher gave worksheet us end lesson walked friends table look work uh question asking us draw part penis vasectomy take place vasectomy cutting tying sperm duct cant ejaculate sperm sex baby read drew diagram see drew urethra penis fucking madlad welli dancer automatically liked film thing much dancing thought say good dance film think songs good film said rating teen needing relationship advice hey fellow teens ive liked girl almost years time im finally stage completely ignored blocked really sucky dont wan na move know best guys tips move way im still gon na feelings later track thanks think going kill tonightive living mental issues middle school mainly depressed lot issues amhow look time started accepting relationship someone remind least thought attractive mattered insecurities eventually got best became toxic jealous led end relationship several months agoi deserved deserved better know hurt lot trouble living reduces self image trouble living general think incredibly lucky relationship someone think happen want happen know end way therapy help groups break trying deal better person noticed improvementi think point burden holding people around back always bringing issues wanting deal point one wants see anymore scared seeing toxic part trouble changing leaving mei feel bad people hurt hope able move quickly someone always loses fight reddit awful twitter way better fight time husband dragged film interest seeing anime cartoon absolutely delighted simple story amazing animation digital world effects computer generated refreshing see gorgeous imaginative hand drawn animation world sosuke ponyo vivid fantasyland intermixed minimal reality seen animation child wonderful see endure succeedbr br actors supplying voices english version fabulous length movie perfect especially children tend squirrelly films overall delightful experience worth expensive ticket prices nowadays feel lonely nobody cares everyone lying telling people done friends past thought friends called asked hang basically laughed things said things made fun girl time one told later called wanted make fun tell told played matter truly knew trust anybody meant anybody truly close decided end life failed course even sometimes ignore feelings hide go pretend figure gone soon start go n fun comes back everything know lost even put words feel right reason trust people want die cant iti nothing live friends many enemies im disappointment family im social outcast without future still cant bring coward fantasise people loving famous standing face danger super confident never freeze thought pain im coward cant even bring give pain deserve ive done stupid things coward ive betrayed many people without knowing physically cant look anyone eye anymore im disappointment coward horrible person want make everyone taking life cant hate everyone everything yet cant leave karma whores people survive internet points smol pp change mind helpiam strong suicidal urges years now family doesnt know depressed mindset preventing anything productive life iam currently looking fulltime job work im webdevolopment sidemaking website small businesses etc every night strong negative emotions give feeling shame disgust selfhatred day mind wandering im daydreaming heavily one week im feeling great week want end life dont see meaning progress know fulltime job urges disappear life normal friends lost contact ive recently met girl making situation worse im reading much trying learn new things doesnt help neither problem focusing tasks important im straight mess alot keeps going im going end life wanted put thanks reading im tiredtired alive cant handle anymore helpim nothing special im failing college courses beaten abused got bullied high school dads kind asshole thats fine relationship spectacular person falling apart cant fix cant find job despite turning aplications course months cant anymore goal focus life nothing one cares one stop told girlfriend worried might even respond helped please need guys mlp fandom fucked even pony jar whole ass popular mlp fanfic universe plot rainbowdash commits brutal acts eugenics year old ok checks going die eventually end nowim tired pain suffering life constant mood switches missing deceased loved ones general unhappiness cant anymore lonely without purpose cant wait till paycheck buy gun dont want family friends knowyou think leaving note says something along lines love thank everything turning next page life say im abonding technology electronics living hippie deed hidden everywhere truly boonies way family avoid heartbreak redflag oh god god damn itthis awful excruciating havent gotten work done months everyone knows handful people take pity pity wont work next year officially starts couple months im right fucking mess wailing desk trying work missed appointment today slept pm even though work even though slept entire weekend days straight die one notice weeks left stupid job one notice months maybe years ones called cops screaming wailing yet one called pest control dead animal wall stunk duplex im physically sick shaking im mentally sick dont think truly recover true breakdown one cares fact people claimed abandoned abused insulted girl loved ghosted well claimed busy guess busy post instagram try find enough energy make fake profile maybe hopefully add see shes posted maybe give closure wouldnt thought might dead said cared didnt call promised accident outside house mph head collision mph past midnight screech boom lady screaming screaming wailing baby wailing crying quiet go outside crowd already missing limbs apparent fatalities drivers messed girl saw always visited didnt wear seatbelt dead waited weeks months weeks response texts called answered minutes alive happy good ive cut ive picked follicles arms legs tweezers want gone one think mentioned previously married married wonderful woman nearly years love life amazing key word never interested physical part anymore says vaginal issues absolutely reason disbelieve tease act never happens take mens romance supplements help certain extent able masturbate internet porn usually handles one need act wonderful thing lay naked arms someone love especially mind blowing orgasm made love long time miss even awhile nice never happens want want make love says still finds attractive never happens always reason doubt reasons legitimate god knows cheating miss intimacy need intimacy intimacy cheat fantasies chart mostly know matter going happen depression new reason per say reason nevertheless tired jerking sooner swallow drain cleaner go looking elsewhere physical part sit sucking moving onto next depression sigh hope well love hugs another day another new reason depressed worthlessits quarentine thing belt bucket want end got girlfriend taken long many rejections couple bouts mental illness ive finally found special someone enjoy spending time feels way shes understanding comforting general bop around still growth make feel completely comfortable trying hard make work lying said arent making good progress struggling find someone dont give hope theres somebody waiting need someone listen meback story im ive suffering depression years want go back doctor im scared take seriously think im another teenager never talked problems anyone try freeze unable say anything past couple years tried kill times including pills alcohol trying drown current problems came gay finished gcses friends said care within months friends still talk went back school pick gcse certificates people old friends classmates included started shouting insults faggot queer right minutes road hear best friend time stopped talking months incident friend time still talked right october stopped talking started drugs sorts went new school year start levels made new friends come smoke weed month ago exact thing good friends stopped talking unless need something usually ask cigarette time month last friends baby understand baby stopped talking well even theyve time due child going nearly every day time nothing now friends talk person ive talked today mom words im love straight guy school talk say feel im scared happen due year group school consisting whole people good friends plus way consists finding something make fun f someone taking piss long time say anything whole year group school hear within day able stay another year people go every day cant go another school one able go previously electrician training course somewhere im poor fuck mom lot health problems unable work dad works job earns enough cover bills ive trying find job somehow people qualifications picked jobs instead clothes borderline small least year old im sorry rant thank reading took hours cigarettes finally written first time saw woman black think time knowledge appeared tv back christmas eve father watching living room shortly went midnight service village church quite young time im sure terrified walking church yard entrance church night fatherbr br many factors film make creepy think ne fact theres much way sound track plays background nearly every hollywood movie every creak thump bang amplified head theres distraction another factor makes different ghost stories theres jump factor involved things bouncing closet makes necessarily see hear think going clever medium nothing scares mind running riot thinking whats around corner behind doorbr br superb ghost story ive never seen anything match dross thats repeated tv cant believe bbc deleted knowledge one showing recommend synthwave wan na hear synthwave music share writing feels wrong necessaryim male compare others constantly cant stop truly need friends close ones gf counts stupid ass self still wants even though reality dont want friends tire im disgusted culture live north east minneapolis disgusted vain people including nothing feels real dont feel real hard living knowing im mediocre human almost every aspect dont understand people cant stand social media want theres really easy format layout order person people interested ive used life doesnt feel authentic lie want feel alone way think need advice literally depressed past years meds one side overdose otheron left cup different meds ive overdosed times past two weeks one kill right normal medication make numb put sleep wake tomorrow im tired hurting deserve diei cheated deserve die eaten family self sabatoge brain think breathing times day panic attack going insane breathing full night month half ago tbh im scared ill think rest life aint happy anymore times try believe anyways thats im feeling sad today ignore lol cant much longerevery day hard know long ill able keep want die cope deserve iv shitty son wish change past things iv put mum got cancer cant crysince think ive cried total times emotions keep building inaccessible spot causing feel numb wondering anyone knows google comes fake cry bullshit havent found single site tells real let real emotion sorry right place dont know ask know think kind stupid fact good math makes feel kind depressed average middle school thing even high school problem comes difficult equations problems brain handle shitthe thing country almost universities least math exam even humanistic ones let alone technical scientific onesso bad math almost chance getting degree garantee decent job even getting degree generali see everyone age studying things never understand kind feel inferiormuch stupid compared themi know unusual feeling feel lot education world good math really penalises university world guys lost virginity friends keep telling cant lose virginity apple pie disagree saying film depressing necessarily bad thing im willing watch depressing film point made one certainly one often heartbreaking story chinese man family experience many years hardship plenty must warn might depressing film come hollywood sbecause peasant life china tough say least prepared watch segments famine death diseasebr br negative persistent tone misery lead played paul muni exceptionally talented man real shame hollywood always cast people european descent play asian leads era paying attention pretty obvious muni wrong part embarrassed post crush someone theres way know follows going deleted soon crush ex want die see way betterpeople always say supposed ask help suicidal itll better ive asking help years one knows help still better ive mental health services inpatient outpatient therapy tried bunch meds thing helped meds im taking im struggling doctors saying change meds another antipsychotic horrible side effects ssri never helped im honestly scared survive med change think current meds thing keeping alive want go back way suicidal delusional depressed self harming police cells inpatient time know im meant though mental health deteriorating im feeling stuck current life single family best friend shitty fast food job probably money qualification job car much money saved able hold job past years love letter goodbyedear harper love know know ive made whole lot mistakes learning im forever isnt going happen thats okay look understand soul mate trust isnt doubt mind know okay without strongest person ive met beautiful know gon na cry lot never wanted hurt going make amazing mother make lucky soul happiest man world promise one thing never settle never let someone isnt deserving amazing girl world never let beautiful smile run face im gone gon na lot people talking saying loved know truth person loved please look little brother dont want leave alone know never meant world know dont believe afterlife hope one ill see soul belongs time forgotten thats okay hope wont let memory die tell world love truly special nothing earth last breath earth ill one thing mind thats harper gray one cant even imagine living without thankfully wont love already know ok cancels culture bad certain point realize shit people call mistakes choices people protect shane jeffery star even tho theyre deplorable people made mistakes shane wasnt making mistake created constantly pedophilic racist content knew went anyways mistake high school kid accidentally saying nword filmed shouldnt canceled years later someone consistently racist highschool sure cancel theres proof havent changed dramatically sense make sense test pls ignore pls ignore trying test reddit ban posting mother night one favorite novels going see expecting huge disappointment instead got film perfectly portrays irony humor elequence crushing sadness vonneguts novelbr br certainly noltes best preformance date captures defeat selfloathing howard cambell jr consistently subtle intonations speech held back tears behind eyesbr br alan arkin absolutly hilarious george kraft sherryl lee haunting detachment reality cambells young lover john goodman understated effective cambells blue fairy godmotherbr br pinnocioesque story cambell trying ideal hero unwittingly becoming ideal tragic villian mature vivid look people aside one deeply romantic films come across cambell incarnation foolish wise love films sastifyingly painful conclusion finally learns means real boy blue fairy godmother grants wish realizes thatwell watch movie seebr br mother night without doubt mind one best films made beautiful poetic story digs deep within emotions completely faithful original author family got mad asking sister shes eating mozzarella cheese straight bag wasnt even got ta least past midnight start eating shredded cheese lets talk serious shit tall im shaming people im curious tall commenters thread apparently stop speaking girl treats better anyone bc age girl really going date soon getting super close shes im apparently according people stop even tho completely legal england even regards age im next april shes june im shes meaning bad even tho people think weird af youre speaking someone treats well dont stop unless illegal private life aint ones business say pleasantly surprised movie mother complete moron occasions youngest daughter idiotic enough go night woods scared daytime movie pretty good director sense treat us brains maybe hed given us movie people behave idiotically still manage danger worked plumber fellow trailer apparently teenagers mother needed idiots director closure ending filmbr br atmosphere great scenery awesome undead kids scared crap live wooded area taking trash creep quite movie works accept already mentioned raise moms iq bit id give ten running optionsi feel stupid ive always kept redflag plan b case things go wrong recently found im graduating college time feel im letting everyone mainly family thats invested much ive gotten good lying im cant lie anymore stupid end world feels want difficult conversations know want feel guilty posting know put feelings feel cant honest anyone im trappedim always waiting know think death nights fall asleep crying student got exams corona shit cant study cant focus got one talk family add depression im lonely want kill cuz means eternal burning hell sometimes think ill better ive cried prayed got answers stuff anytime make abandon religion chance coronavirus die without killing people fragile think fragile scared things cry anything cry move scared things try overcome fears mean fragile people take everything personally accept opinions etc example twitter creatures anyone tried oding zopiclone imovanedone life access gun sadly cant end way looking overdosing cant procure exit bag either definitely best game n say farely disappointed tomorrow never dies world enough promises better goldeneye according websitei love goldeneye much find something every time play even made missions levels multi player best game graphics astounding even now first day got remember wishing go back make bond movies games imagine driving speed boat live let die making incredible jumps fighting ninjas fighting jaws spy loved moonraker think fighting games fun aztec chasing sanchez gas trucks scalling st cerils eyes oh well let back game hand levels unique make fun killing environments many places hide sneek people especially statue park well game worthy renting really need buy today fuck mei even know im still judge teased everyday getting punished army im going blow fuse want punch someone charge sued fucking lots problems others including living regrets end life funeral cost stuff free friend avoided months maybe cause im getting judged want nothing dont know wads worse death teased judge everyday fuck life idea killing scary compared last time idea hardly feel anything heart feel sore im tryingmy depression reason redflag much self hatred black seriously wish white beautiful black voidthe void feel keeps getting bigger every single day thoughts worse worse felt okay yesterday wan na end rn long wait drivers licence read description please ok im year old mississippi havent taken drivers permit test yet wondering take permit test pass wait time next year october time writing take drivers license test take test end year cause ive always heard drivers permit year youre allowed take drivers license test dont know affects anything mother disabled father getting s im sorry crap formatting im mobile saw last post mkay im starting dampd thing theres room people ill say might accept later dm discord youre interested itll e teach ya need id prefer yall side world fine ya discord dove im ready goim mistake constantly makes mistakes cant keep track simplest things doubt ill become functioning member society wish parents better son wish didnt exist stay gotoday day second thoughts tools backpack deed work want go though hate much feel life irreparable place want ball paranoia stomach go away scared damage im going leave behind empathy left family care less parents siblings going feel girlfriend going happy twin daughters months old people actually care understand know daddy around anymore playtime funny faces snuggles want push cant cant handle emotions constant whirlwind mind anymore piece shit even thinking office right want may go hospital instead decided yet either way getting settled tonight say despite reviews angels outfield pretty good movie fact teaches kids always faith never give yes miracles happen unlike baseball movies one particular movie stood hits amazing special effects well orchestrated soundtrack interesting though liked movie flaws irrelevancy ie towards end ray mitchell hits homer step plate score thats nitpicking say really impressed movies presence moral faith give live anymorehonestly fuck love feelings try care people push away try come back end ignoring done everything trying pointless instead act never existed mentally ill already damn got feel worthless invisible maybe acknowledgment nice life fucked right now fact canada going one ohsotypical freezing cold winters corona still full swing despite fact many countries including canada rolling vaccines title post apt atm really loudass neighbour living unit next door right probably contributes sleep schedule result sleep ends day youll excuse im going take muchneeded nap birthday birthday brag whatever karma whore made remake dua lipas levitating think know swear much yr old cousin repeats mine said eat shit wan da fuck five days ago decided going today planned wrote note alli promised best friend go roadtrip wanted time cuddle girlfriend go work work night receptionist thought give enough time space clear mind itand keep climbing roof keep trying saying going back reception order cry uncontrollably mins continue working another found new meaning life happy everything seems fucking desperate feel better deserve want days ago planned outso point venting know happening want jump make feel stuck limbo whatever thought going today know fuck decrapifies life hope helps anyway ones ogs remember shit probably absolute lowest hate job think straight job want always want forget play games friends lost love self worth non existent therapist wants go anti depressants drained thinks put fuel fire seem haunted things want decent relationship someone loved hurt shit straight scared anti depressants scared depression live family put pain make headway feel good think yes worthless scared everythingi feel treading water delaying inevitable one day time work work work bloody work hi really know appreciate helping hand working dohi everyone im full time trader spent around weeks working really hard managed make x initial investment well usually really good managing losses today lost account money pretty much dropped college really dedicated making work friends partner aspergers hard time socialising genuinely feel ending everything almost money trade experience mentally scarred away considering trading qualifications enable job enjoy really struggling mentally anyway never happy even lot money lack social happiness overrode highs got making lots money short space time genuinely see way forward anymore open one talk thank happy little bit time im reminded realityim loa work absolutely bed anymore selfinjure constantly now drink lot everything crashed last month know alone one knows im going theres one tell anyway close friends acquaintances desperately need help form someone real life im dissociating constantly internet mind know ive alone years anyone promise anything soon respond write back takes done anything want anyone worry heyi think suicidal often think sometimes imagine easy shoot gun handy always follow nah something sometimes im glad gun around im afraid might hurt thought one thing kept purchasing gun asking parents guns feel way edit recently started moving mind gun ways quickly end want die always ti back mind hate making posti want fint reason im making dont enough money buy coins im sick wan na post awards least post pseudoaward say dream got credits nice dream funny plot twists action shot best friend fucking credits came shit directed steven spielberg need know theres sequel doubt ill go longerheres starving death thats redflag method im pussy try honesty lifes painful go hope people come funeral trans person want date straight person preference yet straight person want date trans person transphobic double standards smh graduation beyondim graduate university months applied positions graduate im sure deal 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nothing poor empty depleted futile unimportant lost desperate helpless despondent broken beyond repair irreparable ruined destroyed obliterated lost ready die want girl oh god want girl bad kiss cute boys pussy accepted girl pleaseeeeee stupidi dont enjoy im depressed im lonely im full regret im hopeless romantic hate know talk tp people know funciton normal human im scared try new things im afraid put stay invisible cycle drunk ease whats point anymore itll forever might well put bullet skull paint wall beautiful red mural even ur ugly someone find u hot amen poem day pt todays edition isnt really poem wrote earlier creating art think people might appreciate thx hating music youre writing already exists job listen wants go next coax space imagination reality sound waves surround blank canvas already full mind reverse whiteout bro want bird cool long im abusive house hold cool advice wantedi ingested mg oxybutynin right pm immediately prior ingesting tablets drank bottle beer evening two bottles beer wine questions really count redflag attempt chance dying tried overdose milk count im fairly certain cant die oxybutynin said dont mix alcohol ended hallucinating stumbling around idiot dont really want call poison control hallucinations memory problems gone still hard focus vision coordination problems though im happy alive helplhey idk ehy asking help longer run responsibilities need help please hellp anymkre need hep much feel im drowning nooone see im done fighting want die hep wantt die idk waht anymore responsibilities theyre much help want pain stop goodive suicidal years straight severely depressed long remember things life improved large others gotten worse ive gotten older biggest one mental health ive psych ward three times tried kill twice recent attempt unfortunately botched left agonizing pain every single day nearly months later im surrounded people love care none really matter hard try im tired trying everything sun seems work everyone doesnt jack shit frustrated disappointed im getting worse meantime im tired miserable pain im nothing helps shitty life turned im tired pretending things improve know deep probably wont life fucking joke im tired goddamn punchline interesting fact heard today heard people live within block registered sex offender live next two smoking hot twelve year olds quick psa males shower uncut men pull wash nasty stuff takes second better ya wonderful rest day life fucking jokei years old high functioning autism longer read study sound vibration movement environment interrupt line thought left constantly fight concentration back incredibly hard concentrate worth living deteriorated point go long walks pace back forth room locked hospital twice redflag doctors psychiatrist therapists help think cutting open neck years years ive created reddit account years sex think checks suicidal thoughts everydayi hate life im apathetic right cant even bother writing lines think maybe killed pain im scared something goes wrong clue without much suffering cant sleep cant awake cant focus anything elder scrolls assume old world entire life taken place northwest los angeles anyone new world oceania thats old world accurate anyone old world going bias year cold blooda riveting thriller two new interesting contexts previous first chillingly fact star robert blake recently trial murdering wife second recent oscar winning biopic capote showed muddled back story haunting true crime tales author truman capote two new twists make film timely modern audiencebr br stand alone film era cold blood top notch every way notable stunning black white cinematography conrad hall later american beauty road perdition fame many stills film kansas farm house night treelined back country roads sold fine art photography combined crackerjack direction brooks superb editing early scenes see mundane daily life innocent family senselessly slaughtered beautifully intertwined plotting two hapless killers rich brooding atmosphere created sets stage riveting suspense even everyone knows going end due fact based real life events great see day age brilliantly staged harrowing murder scene depicted graphic nature act transmitted viewer subliminally nary drop blood shown screenbr br film anchored nicely robert blakes eerie performance sympathetic yet senselessly brutal side killing duo flashback scenes horrible childhood extremely well done scene towards end film speaking reverend sent gallows makes last confession speak one classic movie moments perfect marriage gritty acting superb writing flawless direction haunting photography dare erase mind stark image rains reflection window flowing robert blakes pallid face lieu actual tearsbr br thing hampering cold blood slow moving middle act killers lam forced nature social commentary end tackedon political message death penalty secondary compelling depiction mad killers prey minecraft dog died today im sad rn died beacause fucking creeper idk flair counts cares anyway bad breath im genuinely baffled older brothers bad breath someone tell eat walnuts myf brotherm always throws tantrums hes angry gets angry joking around often yesterday took nap hours pm pm sister dad joking got way frustrated angered moment anyway direct youngest child commented storming turn gets super close face point noses touching starts tearing really care breath really really bad probably joke woken still breath always stink know breath always stinks idk thought backing away assert dominance instead thought headbutting tanjiro style didnt waited finished said another thing twat brought every issue hed walked away got proper fight realize really stupid story small interaction brother seriously know breath always smells bad whenever smell often lol usually hes showing video phone close together smt always rancid brush every meal teeth stuff smell bad asked said dried spit invisiliners wash please sake kiss girlfriend mouth bro im really asking advice anything wanted somewhere talk probably backfire face tldr brother angrily got face fathom stinky breath oliver stone always ready make politicallythemed movies makes another one talk radio loosely based career alan berg radio talk show host denver murdered white supremacists case character barry champlain eric bogosian outspoken talk show host dallas loves nothing irk people call people call bunch pigheaded racists things may heating anyone realizesbr br bogosians performance brings light comical tone serious movie really liked scene jabs redneck calls granted call oliver stones greatest movie good reference era media gets concentrated good performances ellen greene alec baldwin help wan na sleep rest life awayfor sleep next best thing finally enter permanent state unawareness eternal abyss nonexistence mean ratioed someone dmd ratioedp mean person moderates subs abusing powerspread message days ago contacted umassaccountnukes post powermodsi asked name powermodi didnt believe firstbut bit research found guy moderates subsyes heard right many people completely banned reddit criticizing himplease spread messageby altcause theres high chance person moderates sub active name uawkwardtheturtle checked moderation tabit didnt actually show subsbut checked manually searching many subreddits found indeedtrue boyfriend dramaagainhe hasnt talked day yet hes posting social media dont understand knows bad anxiety comes quarantined coming awhile gives another level social anxiety bro ok seen one old classmates brain flipped freak telling go outside cold shi came back awkward bro awkward asf going doctor tomorrowive wanting go doctors awhile professional help depression gotten worse throughout months im honestly scared tomorrow know whats going happen doctors office anyone gone doctors depression normally visit nothing look forward one talk years old unemployed living foreign country looking job plus fighting depression year now getting help easy therapy fucking expensive job means medical insurance know whats left now one knows im depressed self stigmatized depressive see way go quietly one notice anyway help blanking age legit remember completely ambivalent figuring care wanting figure fix reason care anyone multiple mini breakdowns week mini mini cuz often driving tear soon single tear falls done feeling gone numb next hours still left realization feel shit memory feeling idk disassociating toxic masculinity thing fuck sucks forgot ranted surprisingly great low budget horrorcomedy funny pretty well made good performances really cool twist ending characters pretty cool story unoriginal good plus eric jungmannadam justin urichharley fantastic chemistry together one funniest moments film adam trapped bathroom harley wakes find monster truck sitting decides take pss truck aimee brooks plain sexy plus one best low budget horror films seen long time gory comical way thought well written well plus michael bailey smith fantastic monster man wicked makeup similar films joy ride duel jeepers creepers etc etc suspenseful moments plus gore effects really well done part surprisingly great low budget horrorcomedy funny pretty well made good performances really cool twist ending highly recommend one direction good michael davis good job great camera work good anglesgood use colors using great setting plus kept film funny fast pacebr br lot gore extremely bloody nose bleedsgory impalings bloody stabbingsguy cut half monster truck human remains cooked stew guts placeguys guts fall outpencil eyesbloody slit throatbunch people walking around without limbsgory dead squirrelheads squishedsevered limbsbloody mangled corpsesdecent amount bloodshedone gory scene end morebr br acting good low budget film eric jungmann fantastic adam nerd likable one fantastic chemistry justin urich cool linesand loved character seemed enjoying himselfand especially good end justin urich excellent ass best friend help love funny often stole lot scenes really dug aimee brooks gorgeous great good chemistry jungmann jungmann especially good end loved mysterious character michael bailey smith wonderful monster man creepy looking awesome makeup one favorite slashers rest cast finebr br overall highly recommend one transgender redflag hotlineif anyone transgender needs someone listen please use trans need please share someone may need theyll see httpsiimgurcomtytjpg think need therapist last night worse anxiety attack ive couldnt stand without legs shaking hands obviously shaking sweating extremely cold first evert time felt going puke decided take break snapchat instagram making worse everything bad happen life happens social media ive realised shit thing although im taking break stuff help cant live cant live days fucking paranoid worried cant stand practically self harm dont try fix guess im gon na try convince mum let speak therapist im uk im camhs already theyre slow feel next time ill see ill shell former self wanted rant ig think son sorcerer hello rteenagers serious problem son turn may sorcerer im debating whether seek help last week daughter unfortunately went missing boy babysitting ran mcdonalds got geometry test im proud got favorite big mac cheese onion got home heard screaming coming kitchen rushed unfortunately forgot micky ds car kitchen smelled sulfur tiles floor daughter playing phone looked burnt look see son floating air quaint blurted descended floor saw forgot mcdonalds fit rage hurled stake knife telekinetic powers im currently hospital typing wife considering divorcing left year old daughter adolescent son home heck avatar bad truth hurt tired fighting wretched disease tired crying everydayfeeling void existence barely present world sake existing empty used unsavable beyond redemption thread sanity hope snapped long agoim free falling abyss despair point return alone complete darkness memories goes die vast emptiness consumes digested belly metabolised energy parasites living within everything part personality hopes dreams identity world used food selfish nothing world fill taken keep giving thing retain give living meaning clich life without living human anymore walking empty void existencethe thing stopping death death essence life meaning living dying want end infinity loop suffering pain keeping body alive sake exscruciating pain never stoptill drop paid child support fulfilling courts orders chance petition supervised visitation feels hes completely disappeared father still feel hes going come back even writing makes hard breathe silly learned helplessnessaccording wikipedia learned helplessness gtlearned helplessness behaviour organism forced endure aversive painful unpleasant stimuli becomes unable unwilling avoid subsequent encounters stimuli even escapable presumably organism learned control situation take action avoid negative stimulus learned helplessness theory view clinical depression related mental illnesses may result perceived absence control outcome situation organisms ineffective less sensitive determining consequences behaviour defined acquired learned helplessness last years wife leave diagnosed bipolar disorder got addicted drugs family essentially disown life hard rarely happy ive gotten month ago lost career said emotionally consistent enough lead team fired great ill survive right got job delivering chinese food signed take classes go better field old ass motherfucker wrecked car parking lot hes saying fault even though car even moving im certain insurance company fuck drop cant leave house beyond bicycle go public transportation town cant earn income job relied car bank account bills coming due end month mention deductible cover ive trying hard happy everyone makes look easy wish even friends talk dont im fucking failure deserves alone miserable im starting think whatever never better want pain stop feel option know anymore advice appreciatedi psychotic depression feel im spiraling special type insanity redflag seems logical option though know best option everyone around im daily pot smoker know probably making everything worse long run thing makes feel truly alive content ive tried taking break months found still feel depressed bored bit stable im several types medication feel working anymore ive rope sitting closet case felt really needed kill feel stupid want hurt people around relationships falling apart feel hopeless world future know good life thoughts head torment ive hospitalized confessed therapist suicidal feeling really want go back think help really know one talk really appreciate advice feel lost alone welcome school yo person make decision wether go bathroom certain time often yall beat meat normally november bored wondering whats normal yall yuh girl submitted college apps tonight feel good rn eeeeee anyone younger clearly remember small used stare ceiling imagine walk think floor ceiling spots ceiling different furniture great way pass time film one finest american bmovies s looking serious film look elsewhere looking action lot laughs tongue cheek variation cops fighting gangsters well worth watching everyone chews scenery bit thats really film everyone quite funny donald sutherland john lithgow great chemistry need another film together want commit suicide really badly guts imagine often thougheverything hurts feel lonely might undiagnosed depressionmaybe one day kill live anymore feeling really suicidal gimmenow gim negative karma want story lost virginity story want able tell someday help sore throat hurt kinda hard describe sickness sore throat scratchy sharp lump feeling throat cough drops dont much assume tick lately kinda rub tongue fucking sucks feel anything worth living anymorei dropped high school last weeks school ive gotten extremely motivated make college enrolled community college lived home years absolute hell hate city lived felt trapped parents house hated life solid incredibly lonely years last august finally accomplished goal made real university finally space ive made friends first time even got tiny bit attention girls completely foreign concept first semester realize hard adjust new life failed class got put academic probation im certain meet minimum gpa requirement dismissed end semester saving grace retake classes summer ive lost financial aid able pay losing apartment become home love apartment world falling apart im going lose everything worked hard thought packing moving back home making feel suicidal ive awake several days ive eaten couple times week feel sick time appetite im trying desperately pass finals im angry ive done suffered much pissed away nothing finally made actual real human contact people little bit social life first time going lose everything world going taken away fault im fucking stupid social retard habitual failure im fuck everyone told childhood want live anymore want die cant anymore hate cant go back personal hell cant face truly want wake anymore life lonely terrible short time school best life know bad killing hurts people around feel defeated want anymore worth now normalize femdom people got ta normalize bc got ta dom gf mean um mean judging people opinions bad yes treat others want treated bullshitive tried kid ive person comes others need ive person talks loners stand awkwardly bar ive tried care others make life better treating peoe well supposed make happy always fucking alone luck never sided perhaps im playing deck s reload deck maybe hand better take high road better person bullshit dogs street fucking fuck bitch breaki close breaking love enough passions respected dreams exhausted bed missing college missing want go doctor want drugs want shitty councillor give shit come head years want dependent something hurting pain even relieving anymore hate want alive cry help even want anybody read want anybody know anybody care need reason leave place behind snoopy pog boopy snoopy peoplejesus hope every day ran death isnt person nobody hate everything dont want fam find bodythat horrible friend suicidal doesnt even know hes reason im alive drops life ima head style practical approachhi im grim thoughts lately im yo guy gratuate hates major law dont connections looks shrewdness even hired worked call centers im secretary ended college five years ago live dad tonight said hed relieved without house rent high jobs hard low paid people say im smart ive never clicked office thought easier cleaner end drama earning living im corporate jobs field job poor motor skills technology im gay children think social stigma pay im keep living dying looks practical option jobs rent stigma rejection grave sorry whine need ideas ignore small rant im kinda angry right joined server among us game starting decided write start chat person named death note decided say something shut lime lime game bit rude literally reason trying rude writing start talking buddies chat wrote oh sorry game starts someone reports body death note friends start saying fucking proof got voted lost fucking temper im shorttempered im working fixing got angry started cussing person friend jumped defend round ended rejoined server banned mean fair enough nice go im sorry person loosing temper gon na ignore fact rude reason towards transphobes kindly go fuck im going suggest jump bridge strongly insist stick genitals blender feeding dog thats good bye comment ill roast based post history im bored got nothing better yeh anyone use supporti graduated degree neuroscience psychology loving providing family girlfriend loves anything part fraternity guys consider brothers everyone seems think things going well ive medication started anxiety depression diagnosed bipolar current issue insomnia began taking ambien help actually bed sun came discovered affects sleep became problem looked forward going sleep every day knew going ambien high span years regular prescription along samples weaker sleeping pills father doctor plenty medication around house month ago procedure done given vicoden took one bottle effect given additional bottle percocet took percocet pain next week began abuse mixing anything hands valium xanax codeine ambien lunesta muscle relaxers bad several nights ended stumbling parents room morning screaming something yet put bed keep quiet become apparent problem girlfriend tell verbal abuse give take finally came clean family seeing therapist week doctor giving enougb dont go withdrawal feelings guilt embarrassment still feel better ive tried stop several times past months cant alone family already seen one member go rehab never want deal current moment reasons keep living keep love happy every passing day think easier live lives without burden tiredi dont really know say im tired living im tired feeling alone know people cant help feel alone empty ive tried killing multiple times including tonight wan na die want live best friend dont know whats next though relationship breaking umrmcmeme loser dummy pos death mean parents toxic relationship come endi m shouldve never born family honestly enough fights time relationship grew toxic fight focus anything come third world country nothing therapy police support academic rigor simply dropped past weeks sleep fights study fights grades arent enough escape country im study ive stay house face fights fights influenced life beyond measure friends dont know movies friends eating friends know constantly publicly ignored feels hullo comment wholesomecutefunny stories greatly appreciated need something make smile im feeling hot rn something brighten day bit much thanky great rest day f cant take anymore happenedchild sexual assault tw last night dad things thought asleep hes done several times throughout last years nails hurt really bad already bleeding inside even fucking repel acts everything normal right wan na slice wrists open ive listening music hes let day school lil peep uicideboy friends followers thing keeping alive even feel much emotionally except anger shock even cried yet know gon na worse know im gon na kill take drugs bit experience know probably thing thats gon na keep numb keep sense hope feels theres future ventingalmost every experience another example messed hopeless future friends years partner proper long term job struggle basic things everyone breezes im messed theres point living im always going alone always back mind im lost cause one likes hungarian models shit bro found dream girl instagram hungarian shiiiiiit love preterm surveys question making mistakes expect back try obviously never make mistakes even answer bother asking excited labs course im gon na happy show lab every thursday morning magnitude stalingrad tragedy concisely presented end note movie battle stalingrad one million people killed action froze death died starvation russians romanians italians hungarians germans austrians surrounded men sixth army o taken prisoners returned homeland years laterbr br story tell fieldmarshall paulus surrendered share hardship captivity men special treatment highest ranking prisonner taken soviet army presence nuremberg trials asked fate prisoners declared fine freed war died east germanybr br film presents first part tragedy actual battle stalingrad entire picture fate prisonners forgotten realized something years kids gon na grandpa gavin grandma amelia u h h h h okay today tech ed teacher said ya know funky kid class exact words said compliment okay cool right ahokay sign talking teacher takes pointer finger sticks little hole inbetween fingers im hold buckaroo im mid shock cant stop laughing want cry normal last night dream fucked girl hard somehow grew dick ima girl btw try stay positivei try establish routine things make happy go walks eat well exercise im baking general things bring joy happiness try find joy small things cat plants nice weather end day still enough end day still want die want long nap never wake cant handle much feel pathetic life isnt even bad im weak going happen soon breaking point near year olds levelheaded adults care political standings color skin sexual orientation anything identify pansexual monkey care joke chill long jerk cool pleasant conversation allow moral moron gen z dominate recall seeing film tv years ago paying full attention maybe even missing first half came conclusion dull rated decided revisit last night see missed anything first time certainly one disturbing amazing films time clearly much influence films today probably forever cant believe thought film boring br br young jon voight burt reynolds give performances careers supported ned beatty ronny cox story leave sense disgust dread long watch truly horrifying oh mention theme song great well well movie seen movie fans everywherebr br everyone see movie experience expect picnic yayheart palpitationsmy heart going crazy right now hurts hell fuck maybe end goodness hope maybe finally give pass away peacefully sleep gon na take diet pills seal fatei hope lg tf slugsoul people subreddit see mf yall believe astrology know sign shit fun read personality yall actually believe jus curious someone loved committed redflagmy girlfriend depression anxiety think might commit redflag told trying commit redflag worst week bullied ignored cutting dreams weeks ago came true last week week dreaming thing girlfriend committing redflag really bad makes sad making wan na cut told commit redflag im gon na commit redflag helpplease spent three hours today sitting roof four stories flat concrete please give reason stop hate hate options future hate society live inherently flawed theres reason anything woah worked ampxb httpspreviewredditauizonkpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbcbcededfe wish humans euthanisedthe reason arent continue paying shitty treatment uluciferr spamming hentai sub mods fuck learn fucking lesson want black guy suck dick lips mouth look sloppy feel amazing filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler feel nothing help suicidal friend withso semi good friends guy th grade th grade seen problems unfold throughout years things becoming serious now suffers migraines adhd though think thats root problems talked found without knowing followed every step guide subreddit puts bit ease open comes things point theres nothing provide conversation tried know hes suicidal constantly jokes killing mean time late cutting accidentally went pretty deep recently ended bleeding bed seen marks pretty sight gotten addicted snus energy drinks parents contacted community youth center made sad depressed feels burden problem parents late started acting different jokes differently hes straight forward comes redflag talks loudly around others school body language different etc know wanted join military brother grew work adhd thing thinks might fix move summer hell new start even make far theres still half year left told wants friends understand bullied younger something hard know though might root thoughts know anymore cant much help anymore say variations dont anything stupid continuing talk enough hes getting worse taking toll point making sad happened found sexual kink find reaction sexual kinks mean stuff foot fetish boot fetish gentle femdom fuck macbeth essay macbeth write fucking clue play dont speak fluent ye olde englishe anyone explain macbeth feel sad bye im tired sad rn ffs hate want talkim year old trans women cant take anymore im still hung boyfriend suicidal half life thinking finally giving inthis going poorly formatted rant apologize advance im turning may mo friends lucky house week depression gets bad often cant bed im three years behind school currently hospital program includes delegated time school work im brink getting kicked im struggling attend program really last chance help im comes school cant handle school help fucking hospital setting im fucked idea fuck relationship even able people cheating creeps couldnt handle screwed words im miserable lonely asshole nothing look back friends never sort meaningful relationship fallen behind school really want give ive miserable long really doesnt seem possible happy even managed life together pass high school unlike kids dont know want future ive known long remember wanted enlist military thanks mental illnesses isnt possible hell point living prospects fucked even succeed never asked shit genuinely wish didnt exist life sick fucking joke dont really know say hereon saturday mom house im going one two things im going either find gun may may hidden somewhere house shoot head bedroom im going run away nothing change clothes find way kill another way cant find gun course dont want sympathy ive gotten enough dont want help people tried im beyond help im done living life alongside people lie cheat treat shit used afraid people gonem dont care want die wont face whatever happens put bullet brain selfish maybe dont care anymore threatened living story life thus far especially mother never consolation love asked wrong feeling always threats anger frustrations never telling wrong mom love maybe probably going change decision kill two days cant keep friend without teased bullied brunt jokes cant hold conversation girl age matter time theyre drawn away constant sadness boring personality youre likeable youre good looking funny things dont think situation burden ive set friends teachers family many others finally lifted wont holding back anymore long find gun hopefully go quickly quietly nobody hear news spread among school especially hope special ceremony goes let die fade obscurity extra unneeded pity sadness thanks coming ted talk dogs cutest shes vomiting taking shit filler ahsjdjdjdjkdkskskajahajjskdkfjfjfkfkfkdksjdjdjjddk one talk toi know im writing im pretty sure im going kill today ive tried kill time think go chicken im years old im parttime cashier live mom shell horrified course think probably better rip bandaid disappointed sad know suck know ive thought many years point im waiting die want wait anymore life hard nothing makes worth friends put work maintain anything look forward matter happens future ill still problem hate person hate whiny lazy much coward ive tried little cant matter progress ill always toxic person know im writing nothing matters nothing say write change reality reality im nothing one mom care shell devastated ive tried alive life cant anymore shell forgive shell forgive really really hope last day im alive know im writing theres nothing talk theres nothing say ive messed life want go back youyou anxiety imagine dead happy free anxiety makes suffer anything worst suffering suffer exist want dead dont love alive know death whatever ok anything better day many days worst day life every morning imagine body hanging tree life without light youve thinking years day waste time never die youre terrified hurting family friends everyone loves emotional crisis come back sub read write something youre alone feel better youll back soon guys dye hair white purple im thinking dying hair half black half whitepurple idk yall think one give tom jerry format tom smirks times collage us really realwhats real real real problems seem giant feel incredibly lonely problems stem thinking logically terminating ends problems might selfish guilt end want loved someone im never happened know end cant feel alone cant feel anything believe afterlife problems simply cease exist perception dictates reality removing ability perceive removes hurt logical step feel unlovedhatedso im extroverted kid im rey depressed lonely put facade family friends acting happy know theyll never understand today feel im gon na end mother person literally half said hate dont talk supposed handle dad sisters dont youd think id friends online games right wrong im often called fag girl im preadolescent boy sound yr old girl often take lengths rope lying around tie around neck know feel gives clarity closure everyone expects much yet preform miles changed mind ending todayive posted anyone remembers saying suicidal going kill yet things changed im later today ive enough worthless burdening others im done really want kill really alternative point bother telling talk someone emergency numbers helplines people worth saving miss school yes really wrong online school sucks im vacation im matter states instead liquid solid vapor states horny hungry bored send help sos cant post pics thursday thought text based posts fridays weekends feel im losing everyone lovei feel girlfriend getting apart friends stuff together without ive home sick havent able see anyone anyway im getting worse worse everyday dont know stop life become something ive begun loath wish kill without impact anyone wish feel sensation hanging ceiling hello people question bimgus please rapunzel want hug youre really cute want wrap hair sleep life complete standstill wont matter im alive deadseriously last two years rough worked ass last months make everything nice people stopped smokingdrinking got rejected interview today result caused big red mark profile cant anything anymore im drunk decided worth anymore clubi turn days wan na leave wife wan na go somewhere cant find end shit omg got bf battle frog im gay thought better overhave thought killing sweet relief pain comes living world worrying girls school paying bills thoughts past trauma worries future trauma wonder life better without youre burden people better without wish terrible things youve done go away pain subside nothingness wish couldnt feel anymore life much part life though suppose yes theres bad comes good friends family overall enjoy life im thinking hard take care cat parents friends feel leave world matter never feel never know pain caused losing thats though want everyone happiness others brings happiness suppose bring joy one sole earth stick around never know maybe life turn alright gon na move ive crushing girl weve actually close thought felt way found sex person hurt even said love ive decided let part go saw kissing another guy snap feel give find someone doesnt leave delivered doesnt relationships people im scared bullied bicurious side note please bi knife case happens need answers quick take shit wait hour minutes now much time want wait opened things go welli thought telling friends help pain away thing people told problems made told friends family problems even family problems kind acted trigger told one friend smtg personal superise victim stopped texting friends mine tell problem life listen give support comes make feel bad guy hard explain finally told sucical thought friend said said normal chill know explain hope u understand tried say plz helpi tried commit redflag attempt unsecesfull years regret fact survived every single day past years want worst part never told parents say telling attention hate floor made floor know ur shocked yes u read right change mind people say loved ones miss bad people say repent going burn helljust something needed chest experiences irl whenever subject redflag gets brought single response reason something along lines family miss thats selfish think family go lesser extent bunch bullshit implying im coward first actually make point let say dare anybody call selfish coward wanting literally calling somebody piece shit quitting job working dislike ask born shit show world agree one going sound cheesy consent born importantly owe anybody anything brought life specifically owe anybody stay alive fuck disagree selfish hypocrite dare condemn dare look dare insult wanting make choice regarding life dare feel entitled putting ton effort continuing existence want feel bad selfish petty selfish please note theres big difference people essentially blaming victim essentially threatening victim trying guilt staying alive theres big difference type person people actually try talk things listen im attacking everybody replies suicidal person person grew religious family ive heard fair share people telling believe god burn hell tortured forever people always say theyre protect theyre trying help hmm sounds familiar lot people tell dont kill people feel sad pretty much say theyre trying help religious nuts answers anything stay alive believe god literally met threats condescension people tell theyre trying help theyre jerk want feel moral high ground want feel oh boy im good person stopped somebody killing today reminding people miss die ofc oh boy converted another sucker cult mean sure religious people threatening torture least actually think bad person think need think people basically calling piece shit decide go redflag tell type person worse constantly fucking anything right try make changes social lasts long drained back isolating feeling depressive feeling wanting leave everything enjoyable feels distraction actually thoroughly enjoyed something kid kind drugalcohol often true sure little fleeting moments enjoyment short lived exhausted even hate knew scary pray front yet entire thing angry attack god trying beliefs happened knew knew wrong told one day tell anyone actually threatened suicide front ex wife knife yet still painted evil doer story knew lying made sure tell crazy one exes went end accusing rape even bring took another ex home injury together might try lie say something happened nothing gave chills man tell ex childs mother murdered long ago friends offer help really want butterfly knife im allowed one meanwhile friends fucking swords feel trapped lack inherent self worth troubling extent pointim quite sure posting etiquette around anyones willing hear dithering use talk inthread ideally id anyone whod chime mental health issues destroying academic career need second opinionever started university seed doubt put mind fact achieve decent grades anymore unfortunately always incredibly hard last year pull three exams study mech eng due mental breakdown ive taken year three exams trying overcome issues took solace fact im time year ive received results got highest grades two exams failed third third worth least terms contribution final degree grade sent spiral think im lazy failure im supposed submit coursework pass module ive abandon sent thinking suicidal thoughts sent back nasty self harming habit want go final year absolutely smash enjoy feel incredibly lost bewildered cant seem hold sane thought anymore im convinced worst thing earth know thats preposterous really want harm really really dont feeling right now need outside opinion perception predicament think thank much taking time read im usefuli use infact im deaf parents buy cochlear implants upgrades seems selfish costing parents thousands dollars dad unemployed mom losing job april nothing going well im depressed none friends take seriously im always one trying happy even though cover please help cant handle life much average male teenager loses virginity around age means technically im average guys listen httpswwwwattpadcomthetriopartthedangerearthholdshttpswwwwattpadcomthetriopartthedangerearthholds story wrote pls read number charts pls top cmon pls please talk good felt masturbate last night sub fact say genuinely concerns fuck people use advice avoid thoughtsi suicidal thoughts often lately walk front truck things go away act becoming harder harder listen voice mind tells things suggests way advice stop thoughts really dont want sure stop please help hurtingis someone talk today made choice go sign gym membership working part isnt hard fact new place fairly wide open struggle open spaces walked signed dont think anymoreive tried kill times pastbut baby attempts middle school really werent going go anywhere last time tried almost died overdosebut friend called police deal borderline personality disorder point dont know feel anymore tend ruin relationships dont know feelings warranted somehow everything gets really skewed bpd really sad mix really need write pages pages describe feel regular basis sum hate thinking killing bday th feb notice whenever plan never actually money buy sleeping pills sometimes im really set ways sometimes want knocked wake solid year idk im miserable dont know show face internet im thinking starting youtube channel fun im questioning whether want style videos want requires showing face dont want kind im talking picture thought process pros fun youtube channel cons may potentially hard time getting employed somewhere future channel isnt going real name probably gon na really unpopular channel barely subs basically unknown even channel blow thats great im famous whatever good way im unlikable person something bad connected real face become controversial internet fame actually mean anything real world everyone recognize pewdiepie famous youtuber goes grocery store even hated controversial people onision applies job somewhere likeliness anyone actually recognize jenna marbles said delete original channel ruining moms job applications employers searched name jenna got new channel replaced irl last name dogs name marbles everything solved easy tldr want show face name youtube channel im worried might ruin reputation concern tell sleep dont want lowkey homeless atm lost family speak anymore lost friends sitting unemployed alone couch even know never felt alone need chestits currently slept yet half hour school almost four hour long exam morning ive fucking sleep thoughts racing head go school choice ive three panic attacks tonight last one lasting minutes felt shit long swear gon na shitter mums gon na fucking kill im gon na fail exams even fall asleep brain shut fuck fuck sis moment sis moment think shirt girls diisaugxyxufidoaofiduwisiofifidofpfpeidi joline heather graham sets husband carl luke wilson disappeared clear head marriage joline committed marriage starts journey find carl yet way discovers lot trip encounters bountiful interesting characters unknowingly help find waybr br eyes classical road movie moves right pace viewers may find slow throughout movie keeps humorous note joline responds craziness world around warm knowing sometimes sad smile actresses actors give wonderful performances musical score immaculate starting seem redflag rational solution problemsim scared going hell viritually every major religion save hinduism buddhism believes nonbelievers spend eternity hell theyre mutually exclusive guess everyone equal chance frying end time die mental health issues school trouble financial problems exist anymore dead men feel attend class bills pay whatever comes death different life better worse different risk im willing take now miss shots take everyone says life taking risks ive depressed suicidal fucking years old elementary middle high school adhd aspergers aside unable focus anything im socially awkward used known good weird kid funny nice never convince step family loved show affection way society understands always kept manage succeed survive school somehow ill debt rest entire life anyway survive school ill living paycheck paycheck shoved nursing home probably live long anyway familys genes include cancer diabetes deadly addiction lovely stuff oldest grandparent died meanwhile tons innocent babies stillborn brave firemen crushed s soldiers blown shreds oil wars surgeons engineers cancer nothing happens overweight neckbearded aspie life direction purpose reddit understand man ive started thinking everything makes stop thinking killing going gone soon ill never quality againi used miserable thought redflag least times week recently got way better actually happy ive realized things make happy rare specific gone gone forever difficult find quality happiness every time think talking someone stop know theyll call cops care dont guts tell anybody know person want die tldr need find way add cushion everyday life something really makes happy goes away wont miserable back normal whenever lift depression something comes along pushes back whats pointits dumb start feeling happy something life forces depressed whats point trying stay happy last moment im suicidal ive felt past instead im stuck stage feeling ok feeling horrible therapy helping antidepressants helping family trash theyre mean seem care anyone family emotionally distant friends talk either feel im losing mind im seriously considering redflag police make suffering end teacher graded ap calculus test got got mc part thursday grinded shit ton problems weekend first ap calculus test lets go loved movie much im big fan amanda byness recently ended show admire herbesides body acting capability good actressbr br movie great girl named viola wants play soccer school cuts girls soccer team gets upset brother set go prestigious school decides leave england viola wants make impression playing soccer team boarding school goes school tries soccer team gets meanwhile meets duke sensitive guy plays soccer team really likes olivia laura ramsey likes sebastianwho really viola sebastian dating monique suspects sebastian himselfbr br certainly chick flick enjoyed lot funny lovable think seen amanda act better really need help im trying drive insanity kill easieri want eat days now meanwhile taking mg caffeine equivalent cans coke caffeine bunch risky things drugs im totally insane need help think go insane ultimately die holy cow failed tests finally passed got drivers license swear test bane existence got permit finally passed drive wherever want probably nowhere quarantine still thing lmao two days th birthday awesome jugular veinif got stabbed jugular vein long take die kill aspirini got whole bottle bayer extra strength aspirin take kill doesnt permanent damage im weight around lbs suicidal thoughts againthese thoughts strong feel unable speak move body know want kill found love life want spend rest life hate everything life every little thing attempted university times depressed stupid finish stuck shitty warehouse jobs rest life remember every single minor inconvenience life cant stop thinking starting remembering boys molesting sexually abused feeling constantly lonely isolated go hate english never open feel extra suicidal today fuck corona fuck job fuck people fuck life fuck everything went mothers house memories came rushing back know thisi went back mothers house year half lying bed razor surgical blade next ready cut deeper memories came back even know cant fucking ive tried killing multiple times called fucking liar courthouse every therapist concellor besides two called liar psychologists said lovely woman im dramatic fuck sakes beat constantly scream punish brother watched molested nothing left alone fucking convicted pedophile multiple times allowed eat call fat cunt even though underweight every individual rib visible literally anorexic body besides arms legs reason fit fingers collar bone fingers shoulder blade ribcage fucking perfect top fucking abandoned year old pm happened metres back suburbs away closet place go locked noone home got sitting waiting metres away convicted pedophiles lots people mylife love care still feel empty alone every day wake feel hopeless lost feel afraid trapped mind dread waking everyday wish something control kill already hate alive miserable everyday live want live see world much offer feel guilty wanting die people want live hope family one day understand hopefully forgive acknowledge pain going feeling alone right mouth fire dxevuvgefbvnfrvirnv whole packet mint bubblegum hell mouth literally burning thinking ugly im fat went kg earlier year mom unsupportive soon back kg u hate fat eating less damn hard smh idk im complaining lol fault anyway whats new hope going strong must fight weirdoes hot talk someone suicidali thinking friend suicidal talk try relate experiences try convince know feel feel negative side watering situation emotions approach think telling cant even imagine pain let let comfort feel negative side even emotional dramatic situation gets worse anyone explain role trying assist someone predicament need vent receive advice encouragement went major jaw surgery replaced tmj joint disk fat graft mouth wired shut next months fill time spent talking eating generally good time instead studying standardized tests need go good college studied least hours day put strain recovery upper body muscles strained affects jaw subsequently new disk luckily hard work payed fluffy hair appreciation post boys fluffy hair incredible girls fluffy hair incredible enbys fluffy hair incredible fluffy hair soft u fluffy hair come across u compliment u sorry decided hang myselfhaving tested method confirm likely work hanging belt padding people realise hang door im sad hopeless tired thank everyone one helped sub good people want attempt redflag least feel somethingi want attempt redflag im miserable live thats fine thats fine maybe someone care want show people im pain im danger feel one takes seriously one knows much pain im nobody understands want make know need show people care theyll see maybe ill feel something ive miserable years want kill everyday every hour ive never able attempt im weak pathetic feel im lying end week im going try wether live die im im sorry im sorry making bunch posts pppie im sorry deleted posts cant save anyone understand im trapped herei cant save anyone started feel better tried help someone close back feet im scared cause theres chance might attend funeral im supposed ive said everything ive tried ive tried good person ive tried help ive tried help find meaning point purpose put needs put wellbeing helping im trying work ive lost purpose cause purpose dream blink gather ideas time theyre always wrong ideas im gon na change fit person power local dreamer tyler lt idea repost totally something people subreddit ive seen people literally comment posts im lol feel mods work filter system notified investigate someone says im insert age uncool say thought finally cleaned phones photos took hour finally deleted photos camera roll left im going kill tonightive decided tonight night ive given everything want stop feeling surrender whatever death hold im liar cheater thief bad person deserve hurt people due selfishness see reason give future even hell real feel deserve hope enough pills job done hope see mom im dead goodbye well half year ago met girl classroom lonely person obviously feel love really hard know one nice many time finally someone nice think person really care anyway became friends got boyfriend never told felt well still friends closer friends months ago got busy focused stuff little distant two months ee talked times considering used talk every daythen weeks ago met another girl started talking good friendship growing us thought better even nice feel kind romantic feeling something felt friend let us name old friend v new friend thought jave already overcame v love anymore shureand well days ago made videocall weeks without interaction us saw v felt weird think fell love maybe never stopped love idk saw cute face beautiful green eyes anything fell something againthe problem v boyfriend way thought good friend thought already finished feelings confused still want tied always promised interfere life waythe growing friendship made thought good let v go wanted dot know still confusing afraid start acting dumb want peace many problems worry helping depression means really really v situation shitty boyfriend chance know never achieve something kind mind tricking making fake scenarios v involved even notice happens shitty thought never problems one friends deadone friends committed redflag lost parents stuff probably happened much older sis found hanging family barn one friends considering completely demoralize anyone one media careseveryones quick jump red herrings gun control push political agenda care real problems think incredible increase interconnectivity world allowing people speak mind one willing listen time people listen bodies drop people glamorize make competition way see shoot people know really messed think ways change someone shoots news agency people start care lot listen youth america around world hurting personally see latter thoughts im glad subreddit let know thoughts used watch enjoy high budget hollywood films huge screens surround audio film seems distant surprised close human watch natural feel nobody wrote scenario nobody directed director writing scenario watch time spend watching film time go another world film first sample shows always must watch millions dollars budgeted films surround audio capabilities go another world films sends another world maybe makes return back without millions dollars budget technical capabilities felt im reading letranger camus im kind slow seriously thought february fuck almost half way past month im losing track time cant anymoresince june feeling awful everything explote november relationship end really love tried fight us treated shit last week came back really lonely couldnt break literally die tried kill self started go psychiatrist psychologist im taking antidepressants sleeping pills make day last week nice felt little bit better week awful dont know whats happening cant anymore last night spend hours thinking im going dont want mother find body dont want destroy life right cant think dont want anymore ex gf told wanted told needed time alright told wouldnt feel better even waited feel better destroyed broken heart even really loved still feel garbage cant anything right im deadlift family cant bed cant stop crying everyday wake anxiety attack cant keep confronting needed told somebody sorry really bad spelling country speak spanish upthingy everyones comments except one screw whoever end unworthy will go hate please care anymore death mean otherstoday went funeral uncle saw whole family sad death beloved men many tears shed whole funeral one though mind funeral really kill self family much pain realized matter anymore always one reason ive waiting long realisation sparks sort happiness longer fear consequences imagine gave one hella expensive award im getting cause im stinky loser butt im girl big boobs people sub sexist bro actually annoying someone tell try make stop something hope redflag hurts peoplei hope people know fault people arent hope know hope hurt took long time find title special videothek berlin lucky find english version hollandish undertitles think one best horrormovies seems strange people call movie black comedy must admit wasnt able laugh saw first time second time one hand trelkovski seems nice even cute shy behaviour hand beats boy playground explanation weired thing course transformation simone choule fact doesnt know really halluzinations terrifying movie course mind flat brings female side moved think thats interesting question shizophrenic behaviour hard understand horrible see two sides identities fighting result cuts hand first later jumps hisher window terrible cry mean repeat soul cage something egyptian hieroglyphs egyptian stuff fact heshe looks mummy hospital thats incident clue point view read nancy drew preteen collect books grownup loved effect used end little bit beginning movie line drawings style books morphed scenes movie neat way pointing connections situations movie books example scenes oriental antiques dealer reminiscent many scenarios remember books thought ned perfectly cast emma roberts wonderful st century interpretation nancy drew picture betty crocker keeps times hey first postlast saturday tried commit redflag failed obv im alright went hospital everything good ive bit dizzy thats nobody knows except bf hes help even guilt tripped buying drugs knows hard time saying told redflag attempt really feels give shit ampxb ive lonely really friends people call friends never want meet barely reply fb ive never posted life seems much depressing think back ampxb lonely hopelessim thinking ending life next couple days everything feels hopeless ive suicidal years decades im tired cycling feeling okay desperately depressed fucked missed important deadline basically set life back full year put relationship jeopardy cant deal sadness disappointment top normal depression want kill want die help hate lifeive struggled depression long time nights ago first time ive seriously considered killing im scared think life meaningless basically hate end suffering animals ive thinking receiving help much anxiety go forward im scared mom tell dont need help im depressed sister went help anxiety depression everyday battle im slowly losing used smoke weed escape lately ive bad massive anxiety attacks im high looks escape death birthday today keeping track number wishes receivefor fking reason midnight birthday wishes birthday wishes birthday wishes mom cousin noon birthday wishes pm birthday wishes total pm still birthday wished people onlynone friends remember op sad ill keep updating save later looking typical war movie note testosteronepumped carnagecraving war buffs bother although film russian characters wwii expect see nazis cannons blood gore etc film people cause war fight war film ordinary people war happens choices make dealing itbr br acting cinematography writing perfect s certainly appreciate russian even probably love speak russian look ruscico russian cinema council dvd version got subtitles different languages english dubbing one id say good course good original russian track stuff lost translation good english subtitles go check especially studying film aspect loneliness might kill mewhen first starting writing post included way much details bullshit ive year life stopped becausei want bore sob story long story short years life lived fullest battling major depressive disorder ptsd anxiety ive abused forms people claimed love including family traveled created cool art danced lot fast forward today cute lil apartment cats within walking distance job im sitting thinking much longer take feeling loneliness handful people consider friends far away difficult imagine getting romantically close anyone every recent relationship left traumatized broken coping skills working anymore know going head cant reverse broken heart ive able overcome every single relationship one rough chest literally hurts idk even writing anymore heard sounds nice walking talking breathing meme school tldr im meme school interesting really dont know exactly got think something seen coming last year decided run class sga president thought cool pass stickers name cool slogan thought cool different designs maybe one day week continue keep mind whole thanos infinity stone meme thing name already similar thanos first four letters people saw stickers collectables infinity stones people asking five point kinda memed corner every often see sticker either someones binder thermos actually pretty funny someone stuck sticker lunch line cafeteria still year half later think probably still graduate senior year anyways back original point meme weird makes virtually impossible normal conversation someone without bringing something funny happened next day basically everyone class knows happened example yesterday th period algebra supposed quiz review quiz today actually happened follows go bag find packet review attached find periodic table accidentally stole th period bright yellow sheet paper someone immediately notices says isnt th time youve accidentally stole insert teacher name heres periodic table yes possible accidentally steal bright yellow sheet paper honestly dont know point everyone classroom laughing fact th time happened actually think use book bag filing cabinet without dividers bell rings grab papers desk without thinking shove someone even binder well yes havent used first week school proceeds pull giant ass inch binder filled brim blank notebook paper ah point someone asked give organized mess papers give proceeds pull empty folder page protectors realize sort right yes make feel better sorted right now meanwhile basically everyone cracking jokes stolen periodic table full binder blank notebook paper laughing couldnt breathe funny teacher chill situation trying mind business looks says many years paper place school supplies home yes realize dont need much notebook paper right ok insert name hold paper feel bring joy start laughing freaking hard doesnt bring joy teacher laughing ok tomorrow want come school paper book bag dont care put keep backpack meanwhile person hands back folder stuff organized everything according subject dont care girly folder keep thank give folder back tomorrow stuff promise felt bad organize crap least give back folder meanwhile someone says randomly reddit karma cryptocurrency long running joke past two weeks want info ask pushed edge crying laughter whole scene damn funny yep sums entire minute period cant tell funny day text anyways fast forward today basically everyone class knows happened funny anything anything came yesterday dont feel im carrying world back anyways youve read far congrats took hour write probably took five minutes read hope laughed anyone similar stories feel free share love hear ps chance gets hot someone sees school come ask likely probably ask yes actually happened know seems isnt true entire reason funny xd context post struggled depression life position anything recently never problems going always serious issue slammed eight things work way around every day order actually function lot happened past two years stabler notredflag friends really talk issues never experienced long lasting significant mental health issues personally told understand frame reference understand going things deal past six seven years extreme mood swings crushing apathy towards anything loss interest activities eating etc mostly died call normal levels almost everyone experiences life manageable guess lack better words downside meant week long sometimes even months long depressive episodes sudden onsets debilitating depression depression severe bland dictionary meaning severe feelings despondency despair way explaining gone pushed side lines order deal stuff front centre life now cry commute back forth classes two weeks ago feelings depression crushing week suddenly peaked skipped last two classes genuinely feel mentally able concentrate focus bad felt depressed wish exaggerating order make coherent simple case yeah proof debilitation depression affects life say every day fight majority goes avoid friends hide bathrooms intervals breaks normal capable human interaction even know head around friends make feel better seeing remind matter stupid things mentally right sometimes win sometimes feels uphill battle none lessons learn friends good isolate retained remembered idk brain muscle memory anything best years managed keep one step forward two steps back herculean effort take another one step forward balance things cycle know going harder intense school next year increase workload general insanity redflag uni applications important exams determine future decisions making year supposed plans next five years life right feels opportunity take kind action medication lmao used side effects academic stakes still relatively manageable even makes cry sometimes guess always money made feel getting diagnosed leftover remains seriously mentally ill alive waste money complex hahaha counsellor seeing past three something years tried broach topic possible diagnosis depression opinion mgiht wrong let say opinion disagree based know seeing semi regularly last years two weeks ago day missed last two classes lmao shot really pathway getting diagnosed least end medication friends people diagnosed major depressive disorder among depression disorders took medication fallen contact due past year lockdown pandemic etc still remember talking side effects medication whether really worth still pain still struggling even medication talking made realize right worse treatment taken potentially severe side effects worth feeling hell obstructed mind every day life issue parents despite knowing almost zero absolutely nothing depression mental health issues genuine quote one know nothing understand need explain medication terrible side effects ruin life yet still manage hardline antimedication lack better words views percieved horrific life ruining side effects medication worth despite side effects reasons live valid reasonslooking end soon sick living everyday miserable nobody talk gives valid reason stay start school tomorrowand want die school makes want end miserable life even know supposed cause want musician wan na singer im likely die anyway yet im put bullshit classes make miserable want hurt people cant continue livingi feel die right crash field die impact cant control situation though feel shit potentially endangering others want euthanasia catching busdoes anyone know catching bus subreddit moved banned reddit im getting pretty quicklyi came friends dad wanting become woman instead man felt way whole life still accept support released prison probably failed drug test alcohol drinking deal pain probably go back prison yet another years hard deal im getting thoughts killing feel abomination transgender people commit redflag thats promising statistic emotionally drained cant think even listen another person talk seconds know certain die water overdosei want die now want injured attempt searched find answer much coward textcrisis help lines amso yeah idk good time try help lines go idk im anymore want quitkms ive suicidal thoughts family thinks everything fine everyday thing dont see shouldve lived long yo now voices tell im worthless cant take anymore keep thinking things might better miss baby black cat named bibi much reason live hes gone honestly think ineed emotional support cat something dont space cat anymore miss much cant take loss another pet keep losing sight life whats point family didnt want least dont show much need barely talk people dont many friends cant asked help want kill spite themive depressed long genuinely cant tell even adults supposed happy wanted help point asked made beg give go whole sob story sometimes want part statistic think even want happy want die know still years ahead want none liked life far hell deal fuck years stupid game want play want stop life happening left fuck alone deal anyone anything hear anything heard want stop existing want everything stop im disappointment im donef im currently freshman im failing two classes mainly cant fucking concentrate work damn mental health bet parents fucking disappointed got straight last quarter second quarter started im starting really want give cried twice earlier school grades feeling shit ten times worse dont even want anymore killing better teachers everyone thinks im bitch hurtful person cant even relationship without fucking considering huge fuck genuinely dont know anymore dont want keep going many things mind fucking hate living much confront mom trigger warning depression self harm originally posted radvice need answers asap okay ill try make short possible basically life going downhill friends left cant keep single relationship anyone im beginning feel burned school first time grades quality assignments slowly dropping context ive self harming im now ive clean months barely resist urge anymore cant even think whats stopping lied psychiatrists therapists telling ive never suicidal thoughts hurt anyway havent therapy months person close best friend knew self harming beginning parents dont even know know struggle anxiety depression dont know self harm ive expressing interest going inpatient recently friend said thinks good ill tell relationship mom context shes emotional im closed gets upset lot time dont touching hugging kissing used fight lot going school think little better im homeschooled today good day lot fun hanging sister mom im room feel horrible feel crashing really want go downstairs hug mom cry tell everything convince put outpatient im scared ive never felt wanting tell probably wont feel today best day life today around pm girlfriend went dinner ate sat back car went christmas lights made ish seconds put arm around moved hand slowly dick started rubbing put arm around rested hand breast safe say im new man ive fighting itive fighting thoughts redflag still creep im f ive problem age subsided past last years horrible comes goes first child born months ago depression worsened despite mediccine ppd fear heart telling anyone im afraid take away baby im going hurt tendencies know plan anything hate thoughts finland fact every day finns love social distancing honestly corona affect us much social distancing entirety lives bit shorter today still th fact yay seriously pointi keep getting stumped im better suddenly think youre worthless kill ive fantasizing much lately really know theres purpose continuing anybody thoughts saw movie first time years ago still new satisfied great hollywood makebelief story teenagers lifelike much want believe stories never happen thats irritating watch movies play teenagers minds imagine many girls still high schools believed magic got disappointed recommend movie little sister cousin director spent time thinking plot instead thinking actors yes actors good idea worth lot films teenagers make better one one attracted girls cold make subtle cough red nose still wear going binge eating practicing starvationmy stomach hurts feel nauseous cant sleep even though past midight last days tried stop binge eating going alright far im getting better controlling still trouble moving around due suspected disability im improving think con food mind often now annoying eventually ill full control caloric intake capable starving add dehydration maybe sleeping pills trick cant stand housebound anymore thought use time write paint im stuck head feels empty lack life pointless able live much outside apartment years now days less im scared time flying nothing changes wonder long go mother live close every day im worried might die fall hands people care day remember situation another instance hopelessness thing brings amount joy fiction tried create cant write actual characters lack emotional capacity skill experience unless magically wake ability walk see chance actual independence im useful im alright want die try ill never experience lovei realized never loved life hate unable find love affection throughout life way cope high sexdrive masturbation porn addiction close decades hate even every time fap pathetic grown man watching people sex fantasizing girl side fully know never able used go callgirls times felt even pathetic loser afterwards though every time found girl liked managed mess far either cant really open got awkward around didnt make move whatever probably seem cold interest maybe even plain boring really know point never working relationship girls usually tell either even rare occasions really liked somehow fucked started ignoring lose interest whatever always happened mostly younger actually around girls decent amount time nowadays chance meet girls online seem success either means success back fuck success now im already years old never relationship depressed fuck hardly going anymore job anymore failed university student even try things going better friends married partners even see hardly anymore im slowly losing friends s many friends social contacts acquaintances even many girls interest theres nothing left feel alien nowadays tbh really hate lonely always used social person nowadays every day lonely stuff home laptop going gym alone occasionally dreams anymore goals complete failure life point pretty much feel pathetic life time courage yet take life want hurt mother friends tldr feel loser hate lonely never gotten experience true relationship best years wasted end life eventually want boyfriend looks walk forest wearing leaf crown surrounded woodland animals asking answer riddles three really much ask theres pointi understand happening ive always generally quiet person never stuck head belong intrude anyones business feel im punished devil past life theres light life glimpse enjoyment whatsoever really begin thought joining military different help become confident outgoing wake go work back home nothing sulk go bed start cycle went depressed high school student depressed military member little year found months ago mom sick things physically mentally needs take care light life suffering cant take care im trying things stationed closer realistically much chance air force care well family care work feel route destined take im finally preparing cant see living end next year let alone end enlistment theres point im gon na state misery entire time cant talk mental health theyll put redflag ward cant talk chaplains always ends talking religion something gave ago nobody truly talk nobody probably cares anyways want stop feeling way even means stop feeling everything things used stop thinking family much hurt potential become something getting lot easier disregard things feel sooner later theres gon na nothing dissuade going looks notable thing happen life ill add air force redflag statistic maybe theyll start caring people overdose mg tramadol tabletswhat happen took much kill gave long time ago choiceabout year half ago quit job job months started getting depressed suicidal quit full intention using savings killing planned going big spending spree never happened instead nothing spent year half waking browse web spend lot time im almost completely broke able pay rent anything january ive made real attempt job ive applied places year half ive unemployed options much hope getting job short amount time even supposing something id miserable right now jobs available low end jobs horrible employment history taken year work job months another year half lack references see much know friends family many friends barely hang mean much consider miserable ill work nothing enjoy free time id go work miserable days id browse web thatd see point really matter killed died way friends family still miss seems made choice long time ago see way money rent shelter food cant live cant live unless way supporting make snoo mean pfp change id never change foreverstan yeahi really much left except alcohol absolutly one life turn times always anyone world remember things tell im rational want call hotline one life im sure much longer deal im sorry edit im sorry want someone tell day want deal faulteverything fault screw everything cant live mistakes ive made make everything worse always im worst enemy things worked wasnt fuck fault everything fault wasnt supposed born anyways shouldnt alive cant end right now suffer longer hate much im convinced coronavirus test came back negative think right though really bad cough point getting difficult breathe whenever cough gone next day lasted days really hot conversation whatsoever smell little bit different think taste fine anyone know reliable test said said id results next day reality took alright bitches whose gon na friend carried away title im trying know cool people whats wan na friends unlessjk unlessjk bucket list diefor im gon na gun drive around best sceneries state eat best five meal restaurants stuff ive never done indoor skydiving rock climbing ill go place isolated really nice view blow brains wbu sean bean returns napoleonic hero richard sharpe sharpes honour fifth movie series always patrick harper rest sharpes chosen men along ride time major sharpe serious troublebr br influence sharpes sworn enemy major ducos mysterious lady name la marquesa accused sharpe rape husband arrives sharpes camp challenge wifes attacker dualbr br dual discovered stopped authorities result sharpe becomes prime suspect opponent murdered middle nightbr br noone british army wellington major nairn consider sharpe anything rough commoner little honour given shambolic trial sentenced death hanging harper chosen men choice look beloved commander walks slowly gallowsbr br convinced innocence wellington nairn hang another convicted prisoner sharpes stead release chosen men find real killer la marquesa prove innocence find reasons framing first placebr br daragh omalley micheal byrne hugh fraser costar brilliant performances alice krige la marquesa fodor atkine villainous major ducos another exciting swashbuckling instalment sharpes eventful journey napoleonic wars someone ik committed redflagi know well still upsetting thats thing upsetting io want kms even question anybody want stop redflag nothing relief think might died due redflag though something im suicidal ik gon na happen hopefully soon top kinda makes want commit redflag due pain hand extremely triggering time triggering almost nothing trigger depressed angry conflictedim years old living west texas untalented beginning guitarist pessimistic asshole awkward mess uncomfortable skin depressed every day basically friendless suicidal sob story chance piss moan attention story starts age parents marriage falling apart eyes two younger brothers know whats going point thenalcoholic father hit mom pissed end sneaking around smoke supposedly quit born held fearing parents say business held everything never told parents atheist started lets go age im th grade hard time making friends im socially awkward middle school kids start dealing assholes sixth grade longtime friend ended physical altercation hung scary crowd bathroom open time around hangout first two weeks seventh grade pissed point im short fat kid smells piss stopped still sucked age im th grade maybe two real friends im still fat short around awkward living california half years learning parents divorce weeks told seeing dad cheated mom via facebookon th birthday way brothers move dallas late february mom aunt uncle cousins make friends many around april grow lose pounds due body proportioning go california summer intention visiting dad decided keep brothers girlfriend fall mom comes visit days leave mom starts crying made pissed dad sad mom knowing see us long time home start zoning xbox computer dad tells go bed still pissed tell fuck sends room im thinking either im better dead start suicidal thoughts stay years pent frustration flying violent verbal suicidal waves september attempted slit wrists pair scissors horizontally im retard bunch long cuts left arm brothers noticed told dad girlfriend prescribe antidepressants send therapy october sent mental hospital three days later home suicidal thoughts boiling go kitchen noticing dad anyone kitchen blinded sadness anger hospital ordeal life grab knife attempt slit wrists im sent room minutes later attempt resulted screaming match two assholes dads girlfriend calls police sending kids rooms begged sure enough see outside take mental center awaiting decision whether sent back hospital begged decided moved november now may im still awkward lost lot weightstill overweight around maybe still battling depression job hate grandfather basically hates enjoy things summer vacation school almost pretty sure ill flunk algebra third year row im leaving friends behind go another school stopped talking dad cares girlfriend kid kids brothers coming soon good grandfather uncle give unnecessary bullshit hide feelings everyone especially grandparents grandparents believe im shrug stress brain thinks older brain year old pessimistic asshole difference im now im depressed reddit posting life story people give two fucks hopes feeling better really want end means gumption potential im worth missing breathing earths air tldr depressed suicidal cant go nobody cares movie one masterpieces mr antonioni youth distraction happiness alienation materialism honor corruption everything great italian director true artbr br ladies gentlemans lose virginity thanks school system comments mine mostly agree edyarbs story script apparently potential funny though managing points places failed see wanting make joke one audience laughed agree edyarbs view end credits leave normal make cool theyve done now br br ok gives negative feeling actually watching movie enjoyed pleasant entertainment night definitely feel waste money ticket best jokes ones go little bit outside expected fairly mature luke wilsons character matt asking super chick pnis bed told shed new one wild night bed ending breaking bed leaving matt sorebr br agree bgswho says film earn rating absolutely nothing film justify sexual acts yes nothing explicit humorous nudity whatsoever maybe prescreening showed id compare two recent films went see expectations whatsoever superman returns click really expect anything either one big fan original superman films trailer click showed potentially chauvinistic oppose film superman surprised actually feel goodgoosebumps seeing first heroic deed seeing long lost friend feeling happy rest story id rather watch super exgirlfriend least offers surprises click total surprise much better deeper trailer five minutes away really excellent movie jokes work much better exgirlfriend naughty ones advanced onesbr br anyway reason compared three films three last ones ive seen within short period went basically expectations id rank click girlfriend superman tips stepping comfort zone gtthis first non meme thing ive done comes rteenagers sorry awkwardlt ive always bit shy comes meeting new people real life internet anyone tips confident know physics please dm physics test today please dm know physics feel depressed first time months moved austin ive pretty much perfectly content extrmely happy tbh today took total nosedive feel absolute garbage start ran blades razor week ago body hair started growing back really along didnt realize much money spending stupid shit turns ive spent dollars random subscriptions shit dot job cant one right ss card wait dad fucking give run two weeks honestly know im going able back groove going super well two months running every day week left week plan rained every day needed run snowed week ive able keep diet fact ive actually restricted got calorie tracker app today stressed started eating made stressed forth feel gross tired hopeless im ready start adult yet feel choice need therapy cant fucking without ss even fucking backed take months schedule fucking appointment along fucking acne killing especially back making feel disgusting cant see dermatologist reasons therapist ive adult days fucking hate well done spooky horror movie povertyrow film company prc usually put really cheesy films devil bat flying serpent german expatriate director wisbar wonders small budget studiobound swamp set gaunt ghoulish charles middleton effective strangler fantastic episode saw clip youtube vowed show tv glue set order watch wound watching friend mine happens gay two us cried end truly wellwritten heartfelt episode forbidden love two cops felt really coops words lucky ones episodes one really make cold case one captivating muchloved works television magic cbs anxiously await episodes rerun forever blue always watch music apocalypse deleted getting downvotes sure still feel terrible im reposting hopes anyone help music sincerely life dedicate free time making listening ill put way america crumbling protesters disappeared unmarked vans okay least art turn right well really artists rapists guess make art right well really every venue america going shut ruining livelihood virtually every musician isnt stadiumfiller uhh well things always better right well live rapidly declining nation best case scenario subject worse famine plague seen climate change worsens destroying food supply unleashing diseases trapped arctic ice worse case scenario go extinct guess question dont hang way quickly im tiredfight keep fightingcontent displaying derivations idea always common part internet yet one talks hard easy say build ruin one talks process path reconstruction every new day become new battle try hard fight stand useless every day try build every day theres new shock new pain ruin becoming hard build ive already lost every shred identity im nothing skeleton wearing previous self costume ive started feel cant anymore broken getting tired tired ive lost ability smilei cry cry im tired want rest anyone wan na talk im f creeps please feeling bored yeah dont reply quick dont take personal girl seriously long ive felt true happiness really im pretty sure likes friend need serious help wish wasnt born muslim countryi exmuslim lives middle east wan na end dont want mom sadmy mom thing left brings joy life works hard provide put sister thru college nothing day works ik shed better without got new boyfriend live ik doesnt want around friends one likes motivation life anymore wont cant wnd life cause dont want sad wan na dissappear never existed ive herefinals coming wrecked dads car today nothing major needs new front light cuz smashed really embarassing people watch watching dad try fix front car took omen im gon na great week took practice exam math class bombed idk maintain gpa im eating ass philosophy class need maybe c high essays pass im really worried future keep thinking back months ago tried take life dont ideations anymore man 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throwaway account cares anyway im lividthis proves cant trust anyone even friggin therapist exploited mepushing program help try raise promotion something wrote email administrator feel need morei want participants program notified immediately sessions talk difficultpainful things things talking used training purposes god knows update asshole therapist fact promoted pushing people dumb unethical programpeople play dirty use people ahead im failureall think ways ive failed things cant undo theres point worthless piece shit living im absolutely disgusting im going hurt people even hurts people itll last action take hurts people right im ready done living theres still much planned ive fucked anyway im desperate pathetic recommend good albums almost forgot post tomorrow im getting new headphones wanted try new music pretty open anything really please thank much mmua kisses gn want die dont villai know stupid hate living city apartement garden swiming pool pet nothing day sleep couch day city live doesnt public park anything fun yall look someone wonder fuck someone perfect got someone cuz dude wtf gf deserves wayyyyy understand everything break cycle wanting kill yet always returnive always felt part incorrect wrong missing feeling ive started able memories explored feeling farthest reaches imagine tried find various religions scientific theories make feel purpose tried sports gaming social events helping community finding passion career tried therapy antidepressants experimenting consciousness looking family members help yet still convinced commit redflag logically makes sense know possibilities await side better stick devil know one dont still though feel want kill frequently suicidal ideation never stops head always reoccurring event matter merely coping existence want feel alive want feel isnt trap gift logical reasoning addition actions take provide feeling want know wrong correct problem im open anything want feel right feel life worthless need helpadvisethis first time asking help cant really talk parents say stupid depression real problem worry etc might make mistakes native language english year old girl living parents studying last year university degree last years life real friends friends parents love heart might ask years old pretty outgoing child hard make friends parents moved country russia spain economical reasons know spanish communicate anyone loneliness felt cured watching tv surfing internet playing games time learnt spanish anything common talk classmates one interested liked time became unsociable introverted thing cheered parents pretty well studying lived today friends eat play gamess read study fat kg weight ugly people advise lose weight stuff years went gym putting makeup trying talk people wearing beautiful clothes still ignored people find real topic talk feel exercising putting makeup anymore left gained weight one time try hard still lonely either way lately likely fail subjects university huge family poor hit hard selfesteem went downhill parents angry thati cant find job spain unemployment high theyd rather employ spanish person mei feel stressed last years every day thinking suiciding useless life likely future thinking future well payed job finishing studies buy anything want maybe lot happy moments change anything work life boyfriend first kiss friends acquitances starting lose interest even trying things trying go trying make friends every time see people know happy travelling friends always sociable feel worthless inferior want continue miserable want think redflag every day want stop crying almost every day one sees stop depressed kniw antmore think life worth living way sorry hard read bad expressing sick stupidity people take advantage ruined life born always made choices ended marrying abuser becoming depressed good catering assholes even respect wish never born people sick parents people use dang broi finally got boy liked years clueless years time part thinking ready see br br end 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personal mantra dissect shortcomings already people life grown tired bored disgusted frightened finally seal residual ties might still stop drowning selfpity remove wretched existence done years ago faulty logic know much pain right feels thing scum hate wish anymore much coward pray sort cthonic entity one day muster yetunpossessed resolve find way end life tired yet never seems end need stop feel spectre hoursi swear cant stop thinking diseases think im gon na die cant take anymore im convinced rabies want die copied video dvd enjoy whenever makes successful rare wedding present well absolutely wonderful adaptation much loved novel everything perfect aged amazingly well always chance something old might appear bit creaky next modern dramas precious bane holds ownbr br quality acting amazing janet mcteer making superlative prudence young clive owen stomping around taciturn gideon sarn br br challenge anyone watch final sequence without least sniffling little sheer romance perfect film watch cold outside snuggled sofabr br really cant recommend highly enough feel worthless want kill myselfwell way feel feel worth anyone life im smart know things way due decisions ive made past ive failed university went community college redeem drive education family cousins way better feel amount nothing see hear achievements nothing productive home parents want better life knowing ive let put faith take give family want end life pressure weighs heavily heart feel bones end life rest family much satisfied rest lives bringing lives think jump one story roof break ankle dont ask important question actually pushing buttonthats loved reddit afterlife involved amazing media platform spot heart topping lonely depressed virgin family doubts nobody turn mother abandoned father side family dont faith due quirkiness personality experience love joys life im alone thoughts always dreamed aspired scientist studying field biomedical engineering father even study artificial intelligence practical usagepossible detriment modern society nowi quit adhddepressionsocial anxiety inflicted son bitch unwanted buti digress working final release without thatim useless unneeded sure right community saw says redflag soto blunt fuckin math advice death methods helpful end shitstorm called life live preferably painless quick high success rate chance im bored tell filelrfillleriflllerfilllefiflllerdilllerfilllrrfillerfillleffilllerfilllrffillletfiollerfilllefifllerfilllller nothing raini feel anymore room feel mine body feel feel life passing im watching crying sad watching passively days want bed time deserve lay around nothing want something whats point tho nothing feels real anymore theres point post feeling particularly suicidal numb bummed vacant want believe things better try nothing bad day bad life always feels one tho birthday soon least excited ive accomplished another year earth nothing best bare minimum fuck wish exist cant even say haha jk unless without anyone saying usnam chcks brah continue conversation pls two weeks feel therapy opening huge wormsi thought feel better opening man hard therapy making harder saw movie day rented thought going another movie girl trying prove point diane joined boxing wanted thought movie good gave thats good plus movie michelle rodriguez always good even six honor spooktober lets write halloween story ill write comment word anyone reply another word another person replys reply new word cycle goes words something halloween make sense good luck fellow spookers firstly say somehow remember seeing movie early childhood read subtitles thought sonny chiba sean connery really concept able least partially suspend adult scepticism embrace inner seven old may want avoid movie said watched restored minute version dvd say enjoyed though much seven remembered ending br br aspects movie worthy criticism first minutes final minutes really comic moments favourite contrast scenes acted final minutes curious choice backing music listen lyrics br br action film great deal focus personal stories certain soldiers social dynamics squad strain time travel takes toll ending movie decided good thing seven though relationship guff bad thingbr br action film plenty gratifying gory action especially couple epic battle scenes platoon hordes shogun era warriors makers movie ensured many deaths possible bloody lets face humorous thought splendid aspect movie kid ashamed say still dobr br fact modern day soldiers general spend movie walking egg shells trying avoid altering space time continuum theyve got heavy calibre machine guns mortars rocket launchers tank helicopter theyre hell bent making feudal japan id think vigorous imdb user bootsbr br short movies worth watching makes viewer regret movies made similar premise time offers hefty hints movie gi samurai unique friend keeps texting friend keeps texting dont know tried distancing mix mental health shit messing brain trying move little bit real problem friend fact shes one reached past year now texted hours ago asking question question isnt important kind icebreaker tier question well im trying contact anyone didnt respond half hour ago sent another random question dont feel straight asking either wants anything anything guess really dont understand theres nothing left moves anymore emotions long gone im sure qualify post honestly care want persons opinion matter first im year old man living sweden reason feel qualify im sad depressed angry negativedestructive state mind feel simply nothing emotion say regularly feel bored mean bored movie boring lets watch something mean deeper sense boredom bored life offer hope im making sense anyone yes ive tried lot activities hobbies etc theres constant financial chain able exactly want want say im forever alone type guy im average joe ive several girlfriends past friends parties traveled world yadda yadda everyday life endless cycle mechanical activities seeing people talking pointless topics discussion thing everyday recently saw meme bored dude grocery store text buys car work works pay car see life pointless meaningless emotionless songs movies hobbies people summon kind emotion anymore thing id think change bit suddenly gigantic amount money weekly lottery open possibilities least exactly want want couple months ago reached limit robotic lifestyle took huge bank loan quit job living money last months plan whatever might call spend enjoy money long lasts money runs end life moment im completley spontaneous everyday wake anything must anymore people might read think fuck sake grow call problems know agree people lot worse people lost family members raped etc completely honest care comparing invoke kind appreciation life said sad lonely depressed feel totally empty robot see point continuing life ive tried talking people view life nobody understands say go something english basic hope somehow succeeded translating thoughts words anyone opinion welcome even wan na bash say boohoo whining tldr year old bored death life took huge loan quit job waiting money run end life going new school im really anxious im going change school first time life ive going school almost years change school school habe th grade know brittishamarican name th th grade germany schleswigholstein call ahr change school im really affraid finding friends disliked maybe even bullyed new classmates friends right think point clear hope advice apologize gramma errors something really enhances someones attractiveness mean something thats physical trait article clothing piercing something probably jeans hoodies recently discovered girl oversized baseball jersey something attractive self diagnosed mild depression mild redflagi feel empty times unmotivated many things muscle memory drag work live life normally wouldthere times feeling alright times cycle repeatsthere days want sleep days go sharing things people care voices keeps repeating horrible things know far realitythe think worry moments keeps coming back frequently afraid become one methoughts depression word excellent movie go see director ron howard mean director ron howard fantastic job usually incredible attention detail vivid colors decorations breathtaking whoville atmosphere astonishing variety costumes wait theres story good theres clearly message extracted thoughtful viewers jim carrey topnotch probably best grinch possible girl taylor momsen real good im sure great future dog cool high quality christmas fairytale fairytales christmas youbr br reading reviews life hurts every time see people well got hearts two sizes small wan na chat filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler help anxiety attacksdepressiongiving mentallyhating world problemshaving irl friends kind answer nice please beg look dont wan na make long caption imagine alone yrs getting point talking nothing studying sometimes u study much u burn crypanic major trust issues betrayal humanity literally cant stand living anymore havent eaten entire day either getting worse one helps feels mentally im slowly dying hate seeing ppl help others making realize fucked humanity need answer cant cant im trolling anything proof page need desperate help self harm weed help honest break cry feel go extra length cut idk want someone lean tbh cant therapist either dont enough money maybe good meds secretly order oh dont enjoy anything either jojo theres gets day tbh laughing memes ill stop u wan na message whatever feel free jojo bizarre adventure mean u hit ur depressed boy repost bc ppl thought lying abt last post hurt lot mentally whatever thats hope doesnt skimmed trapped circular cycle feels hopelessi scare friends away mental illness makes feel worse distances hate wish normal instead go fine considering death daily basis friends lie caring never change feel im getting anyone running time college im alone please help want die everyday racist anything racist fuck marathons bruh cmon aint one got need god damn marathon really struggling tonightive struggled depression entire life im two beautiful daughters loving husband cant stop self destructing need talk someone understands suicidal urge feel lowest ive years please helpim turning months past ive struggled heavily depression anxiety im college school anxiety much different bc college youre dont want go school paid feel im failure parents dont finish getting point everyday wake feel im going motions stay alive never look forward anything feeling lost hope falling back cycle depression isolate become even depressed moment dont feel depressed want live see value life back heavily depressed ive thought committing feelings coming back ive seeked help professionals see change way without thinking joking around smoking weed dont feel past longer wish live struggle courage bc think people affect decision dont want family friends end feeling wouldnt want feeling came write suggestions people experiencing similar things question build courage alternative see value keeping want happy alrighty thenim gon na im kicked house boyfriend doesnt love whole world crumbling im gon na itll maybe rest feel good resolved anyone sleep deprived hour stream fun want anymorei feel failure posting feel need tell someone know love wife feel im addicted want live without want live life wants loves shitload animals farm either take care neglect whichever time theres compromise theres solution divorce fucked debt likely alimony stay remain miserable unable improve situation hate friends never see due spending days together friend business think cheating throws placating statements occasional sex way knows im happy frankly believe cares beyond housework dishes vacuuming laundry necessary cleaning etc im one anything im depressed even keep everything place going shit farm work unless feels absolutely necessary doesnt feed animals expects yard maintenance building clearing etc keeps fuckton worthless junk plans fixing sell point never going business thinks going make bunch money friendbusiness partner stupid spend money business policies bad make almost money much work theyre putting two businesses complete money pits wants hobby none money job go towards us gets spend godknowswhere end paying bills im goddamn depressed woke afternoon laid bed fantasized several easy ways slip away cant leave without causing even pain way gets life insurance payout find someone wants shit forever ambition deal shit anymore even heard today walked house morning tired feeling way years want pain endim tired friends never relationship living good life im living parents home years now trying chasing dreams know dreams never manifest anything everything everyone said true grew complicated ive treated shit life never meant anything made procons list decision end life want second opinions nobody talk pros fitting end decade pain mental anguish dont belong society ease discomfort people feel towards people used associate doesnt ashamed anymore fact joy relief bad mouth even reincarnate memory pain live better life one im im genetic mistake need face future life consists loneliness regret mediocrity nobody gets disappointed cons family depressed time people act shocked even though seen miles away none dumb ideas even chance selfish ass reason god im going hell sure learned something today change redditor forever today learned technically never touch anything becausr atoms lose virginity technically losing parts never touches redditors lose virginity without quitting reddit math question x x cancel xs right x x subtract cancel xs x x exist fucking stupid question help saw film rotterdam international film festival seemed one less popular films festival turned interestingbr br story actor trying come grips environment withdrawing drug addiction based actual facts moreover characters playing film real people living experience time film partly set stage play happen good actors jia hongshengs parents actors real life well methods used highlighting relationship towards jia effectivebr br jia hongsheng actor chinese action films late eighties start nineties later see great films frozen suzhou river two career paths jia becomes drug addict looses drive act even anything productive except making somewhat futile attempts becoming guitar virtuosobr br way writer scenario choose emphasize behavior withdrawal horror drugs really feel pain struggle jia time hate way treats around himbr br film draws viewer tiring pattern jia seems caught dragging parents sister try take care personal interviews characters feel getting know jia others wellbr br film heavy feel scenes jia cycling bejing partying friends lighten tone bitter humor lot events throughout film music beautiful stayed film might easily appeal many people interested serious modern chinese film strong recommendation online classes really pissing advice alright m last year finished th grade exams ended getting really good motivation read well score th grade lose interest due pathetic online classes students arent capable understanding whatever teachers saying teachers really bad taking classes first months managed listen little still wasnt good later started getting distracted barely listen classes play dota watch anime watch youtube never listen classes grades going low finals approaching nearer wanted everything chest tips study even condition fact gone long time ago brave someone quick actit laziness cowardice keeping alive state sufferingthere health problems dysfunctional family issues economic hardship fun want leave mindset survived unchanged years alive motivated go courage diligence two traits lacking boys locker room heaven proud head mike nesmith said film either derided many us studied scrutinized film professors works many levelsbr br yes unconventional many frustrating almost producers hand film tempt figure outbr br probably already know monkees tv show runaway marketing success depended upon business acumen small serving public deception tv shows selling soap toothpaste first entertain monkees broke box short time make head testament groups popularity importance pop culture despite heads one thing straight head monkees tv showbr br psychedelic documentary western pop culture source authority subject head movie come inside box monkees cast crew seasoned weary professionals seen share promise disappointment movie deliberate attempt market repositioning three things make film way monkees envisioned importantly reinvent group one subservient old bosses yas hipper make film exposed american attitudes information disseminationbr br head really media manipulation net result deception mass media supposed inform educate us happenings world large ultimately asks us form opinions events shape thought notredflag action thus assume information absorb complete unbiased one establish valued conclusion one idea presented book newspaper tv show one street interviews head guy admits looked newspaper tv years lesser better man even drug parallels soft veiling things seem remember old joke everything know wrong screenplay starts monkees public admission manufactured image runs football literally football scene movie visual manifestation whole idea behind head film streamofconsciousness exercise film culmination pot smoking marathons many coincidences occur film suggest guess head culmination motivations somewhere intended unintendedbr br largely insiders responsible head seem enjoy revelries take place film anger anger chaos characterized late s anger way media television especially changed culture negative ways drugs violence strong negative forces late s still producers head want know poor information far greater dangerbr br wars attributed hoaxes lies perfect way spread disinformation tv repeatedly mysterious black box seen obstacle monkees seemingly us well one scene peter sullenly sitting saloon holding melting ice cream cone asked fellow monkey whats wrong bought ice cream cone want movie suggests first purpose media inform sell en mass blindly head goes put idea someones head merrily goes hebr br filmmakers know danger real head either movie creates go along deliberate statement perhaps perhaps maybe pot meets advertising critics scathed jokes monkees us careful ask may itbr br cheers true guilty pleasure funny intelligent please fans find substance unabashedly weird bizarre collection characters good tunage length appropriate lots great one liners including time prophetic favorite tragedy times young friends may exactly wantbr br caveats dated drugs plot linear delivery thought particular least twentyfive stories interweave stopand go fashion may easily frustrate may seem pretentious people cant stand monkees need watch though reason avoid psychedelic special effects may kill ailing picture tube acid burnt eyeballsbr br match cut tired one putting effort friendshipsfuck im done time watch friends drift away really friends theyd ar least attempt contact ruined first time sx guys take seriously dont squeeze ur dick hard wank sex first time last night couldnt cum said nervous truth couldnt climax loose compared thight usually virgin well v wasnt loose makes less sensitive overtime roughly take advice gently trying make sure people hear see crying worst crying silently dudes omegle assholes everyone conversation chick feel exhausted depressed time cant even tidy room maintain hygiene properly mother well maybe stopped slob feel depressedthats rant somewhere figured friends getting tired crap acknowledge way better start looking depression makes hard people suffering simply understand problem mother often impression raised slob family members often blame lack parenting messiness false choose way enjoy way hangin alone rock bottom years sure still existjust pulled trigger skull first time safety figured id survive really hoped miracle happen safety failed died real friends thought finally abandoned reason ive fantasizing playing russian roulette every day die even see insane ive several lucid dreams public redflag voices head trying convince kill myslef daily years now fucking lonely exhausted going nowhere someone talk incredibly sick people desert world general wan na talk someone shitty postion guess gon na lie feel supremely lonely hopeless right now thanks cat feline leukemia know two days ago everything ok know found theres vaccine idk afford pretty poor hes cat keep away others think mom knows btw knows theres risk hell die know virus exactly idk think go show uthroughthestar love amazing drawing want jump goddamn roofthe fall probably enough kill care want hurt im broke disabled direction life everything fucking sucks genuinely feels end line want jump hurt beyond repair give fuck weight loss day ive started eating fruit now didnt much water today im working towards everything conscious effort im okay school crowded hallway girls front refuse move thousands future changers humanity slowed got driving license friend driving car girl twerking road making tik tok video hit girl bounced bubble butt car flew aeroplane crashed parents room miniature self thats worst thing saw naked waist making tik tok videos seriously tiktok bad want harem instead sex vibe tf persona soundtrack play smash call friend group hentai tells think developing bi polar disorder normal whole life now dont think want live shiti worked hard shit entire life working almost full time day turned cant even go work recently dont want burden society problems taking care dont anyone count im tired bipolar runs family family member commited redflag want go way dont want suffer anymore reason havent done yet cause dog pathetic really good dog best friend hate death despise life moredepression ptsd bpd drag people love im leech hurts shit rip slowly killing long run wish death every second terrified people world mental capacity suffering exists hate hate hate god cant take care cat anymore cant anything lying bed takes much energy stopped things love reading drawing gaming socialising drinking eating less sad empty cant wash brush teeth dressed eat healthy self harm still bleeding days wasting time wasting money wasting love wasting life wasting frustrated held life loved ones cant study medical condition want go coma spend infinite amount time head nightmares painful bearable compared real life shutting talking body makes sound farting voices want fade away anger bitterness sadness disgust towards ptsd hyperventilation slight amount always gasping air time feels im hungover even though drink look others look see much failure never productive work tons ideas perfect redflag blanket choking shut fuck clocks tic tic bullshit im never going better prefer die please hate dadi hate dad im kid anything wrong starts calling names insulting someting positive never supports want die stop burdenim tired burden everyone around im trans matter life able pass appearances put strain every single relationship ive lost friends family detests family letting stay graduated college ended dropping almost year ago point able find job anything pretend go college every day dont soon figure may latest supposed graduate theyll throw ill homeless unable keep transitioning unemployed feel instead go put family trouble throwing im issue ive lost everything matteredmy fiance fell love someone hurts much write happiness anymore ive depressed months told everything going well moved country got masters program struggling managing starting make friends cant bed failed one classes winter nearly failed two feel huge disappointment supervisor dropped class supposed take summer cant focus anything lifeline world know pathetic makes dependent probably drove away know cant function without im worthless mess went got things used make happy got home wanted crawl bed cry wrote note apologizing know anything anymore stupid let fall away happy im alone says explicit methods know im going hey creeps msg yeah said creeps please msg hear creep please msg creeps world fucked upi created new account remain anonymous began th birthday got presents played friends remember report card come home letter school stating misbehavior hitting kicking kids suspended three days maximum amount school give district let explain called bully autistic adhd grown adhd bit anyway school made fun autism every time went bus let hit day birthday kid call jim hit friend call bob jim come back snap jaw kicked hard nuts went crying bus driver pointed literally said oh shit bus driver stopped bus came back sitting took flip phone parents gave case something went wrong house couldnt home hit stomach hit back tried defend parents asked phone got home said lost knew happy didnt want tell situation bus almost birthday letter tell story didnt listen deal situation bus years went high school everything fine august dad got angry something idk wouldnt tell said jennymy stepmom apparently took offense pushed stairs every day trying trying make life hell saying lost homework system keep stuff made th grade failing finding coach done need answers crying sleep night wan na end cause family mom dad wont let mom take apartment miss im pissed im depressed every emotion happy god end edit mustered courage call redflag suggested keep journal go college plan press charges really want family family dads side family moms side exist bad influence drugs never kind person heres info sophomohre held back homework dad hid autism spectrum aspergers syndrome info aspergers today th birthday instead wishing happy birthday want best pickup line funny one actually one greek mythology buffs need help kind challenge athena give halfbloods see worthy godhood im roleplay given temporary role athena idea one even seeing post talking supportingim alone friends support ive unspeakable traumatic events life fucking horrible born never escape pain keeps coming love life got left blocked erased life needs work didnt anything wrong dont know deserve deserve pain universe forcing want kill one wants nothing know anymorei friends family treats shit especially mom calls names hits threatens kill school stresses much ive always good school ive getting bad grades im sleep deprived cant concentrate feel horrible everything much reason cant appreciate ive self harming contemplating redflag im now ive attempted redflag twice saved strangers walking hate im still alive im teenager financially well family feel im whiny another angsty emo kid thats going sort phase im even technically diagnosed depression mental illness better died right now hardly anyone notice people care maybe even happy im gone know already tried kill maybe ive hoping things better know stupid nothing gotten better probably never will optionstldr feel ive made enough attemptseffort justify redflag course adulthoodm reasonably underway point ive many issues stem bad back struggled depression pretty young back injuries got worsemore severe constant pain redflag attempts record medically one involved opiates years ago pain killer options super limited every day filled physical pain getting bed hurts wiping ass becoming increasingly difficult continue lose range motion struggling walking employment prospects super well either might imagine pretty substantial physical restrictions last several years ive fighting depression back pain constant doctor visits specialists diets exercise plans antidepressants sleeping pills antipsychotics physical therapy etc ive getting worse employment prospects never intimate relationshipgirlfriend point drain moms fixed income resources see cause hope situation depression much inability anything ive tried talk family friends way depth kind thing exhausted therapy options live either full dont take insurance multiple waiting listssome year nothing yet dont see day future isnt filled physical pain discomfort mention mental crap try discount mostly overemphasized constant pain last dr visit suggested start antidepressantsas lets try ones didnt work maybe will im fan redflag im less fan even physically worthless way people cant even see made sort deal wont kill long mom alive dont want hurt im finding deal gets weaker day day im tired pain want end ive effectively isolated past several years point regular contact people lately ive cutting intentionally rude family try make less hurtful execute whichever plan appropriate time dont expect anything come post reading thinking killing challenge best try everything people tell try go hell antidepressant roulette doctors try talk friends family therapists redflag hotline forums avenue might help well least well enough feel ive done two things keep going wanting hurt mom old adage always kill tomorrow dad shady shit partialy heard phone call heres things heard dont act dumb youll fingers scaned argentinian slang espending time locked stupid never talk dumbass listen name uncle woudnt mom find woud ill cut fucking hand yeah seems option lefti guess main reason offed yet yet found painless easily accessible way point neither enjoy interest life feel working studying socializing playing games nothing come family history depression mental illness parents exception ive distance remain sane ive always considered different everyone even kid spend lot time fantasy world rather reality longer see point studying getting degree want sit day passive useless possible medicines make functional allow enjoy life even remotely connect anyone place world thinking tommorowi see point living life depression continues worse consume life time goes way four years im done want end soon possible ill never slave awful world story lucifer kind interesting baptized catholic definitely struggle religion well grandma devout catholic dying cancer final days kinda stopped believing really made faith shaky literally used avoid number plague ask questions story lucifer interesting though theres tik tok trend people recreate image lots people simp look comments learn guys wan na tell ill happy read comments cant winwhenever im sad thinking wan na die cause whats fucking point want feel anymore whenever im actually happy thinking going last im always going super fucking sad might well kill tonight least die knowing last day happy know take much hate reaction memes fire pit fine lighter fluid case reaction memes im sick seeing lion witch audacity bitch ngl wish wwii bomb exploded city right house preferably im home took mg tylenol pills last night still alivefor past days ive trying trying sunday took xanax pills passed somehow managed call ex boyfriend said saved life making heart beat faster next day yesterday tried mixing half bottle wine extra strength mg tylenol pills woke hours later sweating incredibly nauseous going slowly die rather quick way ive trying someone let know thanks today im celebrating first birthday years years loneliness years friends finally fear still stays come make fun exciting yet terrifying actually birthdays mostly mom friends beautifully constructed traffik tells story narcotics usage commerce multiple points view policeman view politician view addict view smugglers view farmers view carefully contructed storyline one gets impression everything interrelated beautiful onlocation shots poppy fields pakistan downtown karachi entry points airports frankfurt london delapidated buildings smuggling takes place one sees massive dimension narcotics consumption feel boyfriend next room think loves anymore says im complicated really feeling way guy dumbass teenager fuck ive got wrong though exhausting trying understand outside even trying live head day gets tiring edge time feel ill never satisfied cant believe im dreading future im fixated holding onto moment case gets worse anyone bored fucking mind cause sure boy bored bored gee sure bored yup im bored booooooorrrreeeedddd quarantine really long quarantine started even met anthro husky gf im going marry wow started time around march th met march th almost quarantine friend beard genes really help cuz tried cant grow full beard probably shave face im fuckup without fail ruin everything lovei cant cycle nothing one love lasts always fault even im pushing away former fiancee friends friends family feel trust anybody anymore least im miserable failure hell go feels weird people years younger gon na allowed months oh freaking goodness know people felt kids back im starting see really feels know people felt bad back tbh lol waco rules engagement good job drawing conclusions viewers simply presents interviews footage standoff footage congressional hearings phone conversations expert testimony etc allows draw conclusionbr br hardly intend imply data presented done objectivity convincing koresh see tend think come believe much told happened standoff im turning im turning tomorrow wont post tomorrow ill away cheers half pills gone half goalready consumed paracetamol ibuprofen still paracetamol ibuprofen go im full water taking mins break resuming confused went hill years ago often feel depressed nervous trapped feel everywhere go spread depression made plans fun stuff future literally nothing coming feel useless cant anything physical anymore intense back pain thought blowing brains river problem gun think make past age honestly say entire life ahead dont talked many friends say im good person whatever fuck never sufficient answer reason hand gun bullet stated nothing meeting friend go around country little bit end living street wish loneliness upon anyone really feel nothing left one people know irl genuinely cares die aside gun option rope hang balcony pretty easily worth living anymore die end anyways birthday none friends wished happy birthday someone plz wish happy birthday say answer heroin answer werewolf porn count furry porn need answers shit settle comments think primary school realize hated every single memory something either horrible embarrassing makes regret action swear reason cant make friends talk people teachers trying embarrass everyone every moment stupid shit said reason ready give upwell make qualms wanted die nay dying solution problem minda started look fastest less painful ways wanted shot hang fantasized many ways dying throwing tall building hanging electricalpole thought done nothing offer suffering overwhelming present comfortable sleeping woke suffered either anedhonia profound sadness deepest depression life ready meet maker fear death hungered lusted wanted much met wonderful person person brought life life person made feel special wanted needed person told love person told awesome meant world person everything common make fell good happy together feel anything confidence fortitude lacked fell happy life food thought guys killed wound felt happiness warmth feel found soul mate sometimes dont deny future happiness deserve im incredibly bored feel something dont feel things rn start bruh chain bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh people say metal music makes kids depressed wrong actually cheers usually something relate ive experimenting hanging head feels oddso ive experimenting hanging now morning ive feeling woozy id noose head level put weight ive felt rather dizzy quite sleepy expected im im committing preppy emo vibe school cant dye hair cant eyeliner even considering wear button shirts slacks tie guess wardrobe really black buy shoes roses think im going right direction think ive got music got attitude emo kid entire boys high school remember remember recognize name know even speak incredibox im twin sister suicidal feeling awful right nowive depressed anyone says help please know cant much explain mom knows found feeling way ignored want kill feel sister will destroy family sister suicidal found week ago honestly dont far know family history depression makes question genetic never going better unless take meds dont want take meds mom doesnt believe meds depression thinks turn zombie feel cant go anymore havent felt happy entire day years dont know feel happy small things dont even make happy fear future feel going extremely unsuccessful poor hide behind smile every single day getting really tiring especially im nice everyone never want anyone feel way everyone sees nice cute girl kind everyone wish way press button disappear cant take anymore dm obamas last name clickbait know life tough sometimes im offering hand friendship sympathetic ear think everyone problem bigger others lot luckier others sense acceptance open minded person biases think want talk someone problems thoughts im alone okay guys need quick advice long story short girl sc posted story asking someone face time didnt expect want face time didnt know anything slid wan na text face time gave number called minutes later surprising cuz fine fuck one dont mean sound negative im sexiest looking guy lol got phone immediately started teasingplaying talking theres spider wall found funny seemed genuinely laughing even boy irratatingg talked random shit whatever good maybe minutes friend called tell shit happened party whatever doubt call back cuz late asf rn im confused next seems cool asf yk want start talking im scared might one time thing shes actually interested idk mean know shes single thats certain text tomorrow doesnt text first ill honest shes kinda dry texts expressive asf phone text try call tomorrow night feel text heyy spider girl idk yall think know im overreacting shes cute bro actually wan na try see idea im started discord server idea im server chill stuff guess hentai server need help gotten dm interested im failing every one online classes expected year fun got concurrent classes means im taking college psychology english composition trigonometry calculus schedule looked great school started school started work pileup immediately started classes assignments day physically cant understand anyone expected im wrong though principal told parents people adjusted theres excuse understand despite constant work go lessons insanely fast teach acceleration physics test understand calculus trig assignments slowly infact even know lesson either math classes now feels losing battle matter history assignment waste time im physics assignment due couple hours math huge waste time knewton take hours single lesson whats even worse sheer amount assignments many s recover even everything perfectly ive recovered awful grades hole deep school councilor messages every days telling im fucked im close telling im gon na kill amount work push people away hurt anyonefor almost whole time ive actively suicidal thing keeping friends ones id never want hurt every time try kill overwhelmed guilt sorrow id leave wake time depression pushed everyone loved away times happens girlfriend becoming distant times tell im intentionally pissing people cold ignoring loved ive literally made new friends started ive reached nobody want hurt people im already going good days fear ill push last friend away next attempt make nothing holding back deep im glad going nobody finally lay rest got show late believe rd final episode first watched blown away social commentary seen american tv familybr br surprised cbs even run first placebr br merely say last time cbs set know mean back day family controversial decision theyre willing tackle today much eye makeup put katie couricbr br want make bunch folks really really mad let discover truth want willing pull strings make calls work art removed let discover truth hearing words spoken mouthsbr br aardman folks always way ahead curve show different somehow snuck cbs corporatesocialpoliticalcensor radar onto schedule perhaps big brass never really watched till finally aired good ol middle merika heard saw well bet farm message messenger last longbr br now missing episodes find way onto usenet bittorrent br br thank bc kelly tallahassee fla yet ive already worst come smarter stronger im afraid im running fighting anymore exactly afraid reason fear mean whats worst happen worse hes already put guys found likes subreddit tell sad dark story bunch people give wholesome award think funny great title says rrying fit cantit much mei want give uptheres ppl care want suffering endeven means mire pain others tired living lying trying lie okay dont deserve livei feel friends family better without bother everyone im failure im completely alone one cares im negative mean dont deserve wasnt everyone happier forgot tell u guys teacher school got put leave watching porn class n typed high school search bar ahaha listening weezer whats move anyone weezer really weezer cool feeling suicidal feel little silly posting whole lot reason behind im feeling suicidal every terribly depressed feeling hits nowhere seems happening often know first time feel strong desire end life know shouldnt ive never one consider redflag redflag appears logical solution way im feeling know im feeling suicidal need deal know delighted audiences number film festivals hard see director yang zhang help nice work three principle actors xu zhu father master liu quanxin pu elder son da ming especially wu jiang irrepressible lovable younger son er ming spins tale warm coldest heartbr br film starts man taking shower automated booth middle beijing puts money slot opens door takes clothes puts conveyor belt cleaned steps shower gets cleaned brushes squirts water soap though hes car car wash future symbolically speaking old bathhouse see next scene past agrarian china giving way industrial chinabr br pollution cultural revolution hangover industrialization blues way celebration people kindness love one another celebration goodness hearts men yet wonder chinese government views film one hand clearly presents pleasant view china people stringently nonpolitical without criticism present regime expressed implied yet slightest sense good old ways going replaced something may good think yang zhang wisdom let may tell story old men bathhouse back rubs massages tell tall tales reminisce good old days relax play chinese chess stage cricket fights master spry wise old guy assistant son may retarded autistic job glee infectious spirit fun good willbr br enter back scene older son da ming polished well groomed taciturn uncomfortable sees unsophisticated behavior father brother represents modern china tie briefcase cell phone education returned thought father dying sees true packs bags set return wife career crisis ensues crisis da ming sees value natural peoplecentered life father brother livingbr br yang zhang reconciles old new charming manner object especially style neat carefully expressed one nice things miss movies way dovetails subplots within larger story resolved picture ends bathhouse regular sings o sole mio bathhouse water showers upon much delight er ming finds cant sing public stage fright near end film loses stage fright sings thanks inspired help er ming bathhouse regular losing wife becausewell tells tale master liu confesses real reason liu understands movie husband wife reconciledbr br kind happy ending moviemaking unusual today artistic international films almost film directed adults happy endings contrived embarrass contrivers audiences blatantly condescending audience offended audience delightedbr br see especially comedic performance wu jiang whose warm effervescence overcomes handicap character may im thinking killing right now someone talk pleaseok even know talk still need badly friend gone dont know continueim old friend seattle committed redflag recently star soccer player incredibly funny moved away dc th grade extremely regret getting touch longer connect best childhood friend remember single day movie im cursed photographic memory see face im extremely tough time coping death along side past trauma driving thoughts life gone ive never thoughts im afraid im developing sort depression cant tell subconsciously want pity peers mind truest driven redflag someone help understand happening please plan killing st monththat day fast approaches small part resents way feel seems embrace cant help want die anyone die hard codingprogramming interested entrepreneurshipstock investment love coding computer science engineering learning stock exchange hmu conversation gon na cool going buy sleeping pills od favor aunti waste skin death oding hanging seems way shit tried choking gave headache anything live world favor goodbye world wish died sooner yes actually camed mouth yes liked begun bother try please go way little foreplay never really returns favor become one sided physical relationship ive even multiple times trouble getting largely due fact receive physical stimulation prior intercourse weve known year officially dating months finally decided say something month ago really beginning bother id hoped shed slowly overcome fears time seems content things going change parodies star wars ive seen probably funniest premise star wars simple electronics instead spaceships poorly acted purposely overacted makes hilarious everyone knows purposely overacted one complains special effects purposely awful include toaster visible string shoots toast egg beater string short funny fan star wars im anyone minutes kill great short br br rating mins rated wanted people talk feel even worse even triedive gotten point want rant try something feel lowest ive years lost job retail year ago couldnt face going store anymore year half ago lost home landlord sold new owners wanted us soon possible willing help cost etc already quite low sate point job becoming stressful worked stock controller busy small store well know company moved store year manager want take tbh wasnt overly happy moving agreed struggle say people new store wasnt alot busier old one morale low old manger store wasnt seen best terms people management didnt know time signed sick overall first year ok paying rent getting needed know housemates best friend wouldnt say happy havent felt truly happy long time getting life around march new year old manager brought back store lost manager working try improve stock loss things store morale whole felt done good job mean wasnt involed store morale store felt together soon old manager came back feel drop people became less willing work hard felt trying hard time losing place move back dads till found something lose sort freedom sucked life became stressful move around weeks manger back got call manager ask charge shifts shift runner found stress much gave told kept felt ages constantly saying really didnt want went long eventually agreed said struggle say next morning went work feeling shit running store felt leaving got moody admit whilst bringing delivery snapped asking moody snapped said excally said took realise much hate charge angry left work didnt go back days didnt call store anything know wrong tried go day knew trouble crying whilst driving sat car tried build go got sat wall outside smoke whilst lady store past ask ready busy day completely broken told thought getting fired today lucky kind person went person charge time took doc visited younger depression try make stupidly long post least bit shorter keep doc stuff short know goes around julyaugust im seeing doc taking meds im cbt sessions im sign work lasted around months done cbt sessions still taking meds see doc still felt low ask proper therapy session doc refered local place deal things go talk went talked told offered service younger didnt even remember offered anything assume around attempt take life im writing say back received letter day christmas saying wouldnt helping low christmas stopped taking meds didnt visit doctor go back work really try couldnt time thinking easy jump infront train nearby bridge gave didnt go anymore feb lost contact ex housemates best friend time half year nothing sat room dads going dad said dinner say night sleep day still now sneeking snacks binging dad loves drink think feels bad buy junk food stuff sadly hes bit enabler obeseness always way maybe know self control take responsibility around months ago made reddit account one made one post type places days ago never honestly wanted talk someone took maybe month actually reply someone acually maybe friends ive trying past week really put giving much care people think unfortunately tell form post talk alot attached easily especially people actually dont mind see people dont enjoy friend days talk people normally tired told talk much ask many questions ive really lonely long dont really talk people well even friends putting left soon know compared others issues stupid im feeling low right wana try something maybe posting help im gona lie say im atb point taking life feel right now hours distraction someone actually reads thank really dont know say sorry wasting time shit life story perfect time want leave place everyone asleep easy car jump somewhere think weight help make easier long land head first honestly dont know people worse lives dont guess im weakess weak sorry stupid post im sure people much worthy space diamond certified singer weeknd save tears unofficial music video httpsyoutubefxctzcevahttpsyoutubefxctzceva anyone going invest amc ive thinking wanted know wether littel life stuff someone wanne talk ok guys unpopular opinion time vegetable pizza far superior regular cheese pizza going finally itim finally going im finally going go little info im recently divorced working trying good citizen im convicted count criminal mischief worth damaging exs car separation im charged count criminal mischief worth count stalking worth one year jail count nd degree trespassing worth year jail urinating exs car early morning work charges misdemeanor offenses dont want go jail im starting finally turn life around put wont go jail know karmas way getting back ive done wrong long terrible past cant wont im going accept defeat finally let everyone win know might terrible friends family may care im screwed im going admit end save court attorney family friends ex wife trouble thinking worrying time finally go save everyone huge burden hate life muchim sorry doesntt belong promised cut need place vent hate nearly everyone life mom makes feel shit always talking hates men general context im year old senior high school reason hates men asshole dad left eats away daily mom knows uses hurt example shell start yelling sees im hurt shell say something go find father stay reason im goddamn madsad today though girlfriend met drank occassion smoke weed family always full alcoholics drug addicts never drink twice week goes smoking ive told id never drugs far havent gets drunk time point throwing leave work go take care today homecoming celebration decided drunk friend school going tell knew id mad wasnt enough friend drank gave ride back house knows feel drunk driving pushed edge love along work school great family much im breakdown along best friends world reason alive today girlfriends dont see much id makes happy theyve good friends long said im sorry right place needed vent hurt year plan keeping way thinking killing myselfim going really rough phase right now im bipolar started treatment working know appointment psychiatrist tomorrow even want bother anymore im done feel jumping balcony yall rate attractiveness dont think im ugly kinda square face big tip nose im little short little pudgy tbh id say im maximum effort good day normally probably know life failureim highly considering going music education music performance admit skilled musician comes academics anymore solid gpa high school freshman sophomore earned two ds chemistry cs algebra currently im junior ive earned potentially f bring months participate music group bands outside school time take private lessons two different people feel comes academics colleges even look defense taking ap classes year junior year rough guess work hours week feel shit honestly kill cant college bad grades classes unrelated music please someone try reassure chance ahead tell stop trying late please college take good musocian even shit school hope chance sammo hungs film pedicab driver considered many masterpiece agree extent film greatest parts really gets incredible fantastic hong kong film combination pretty good well written drama interesting sympathetic nonsympathetic characters genuinely funny humor truly overthetop hyper kung fu guaranteed make many jaws drop someone familiar hong kong cinema watches film well experienced enthusiasts unique industrybr br sammo max mok siu chung play two pedicab drivers live hong kong middle part last century think drive cabs desperate love sammo interested local baker girl ping nina li chi max one day meets mysterious beautiful fennie yuen kitying falls madly love many characters introduced remain pretty clear time viewer really concentrates film plot say film confusing much worse especially hong kong soon know instance ruthless gangster family terrorizing neighborhood course violent acts affect protagonists premise incredibly choreographed kung fu fight sequences created well nice dramabr br film great cast leads good restrained painfully awful overacting humor sammos great eastern condors example thanks carefully written screenplay pretty likable easy identify cast includes many familiar hk cinema faces directors small roles corey yuen kwai legendary action director director films saviour soul ninja dragons den fong sai yuk masterful composer lowell lo koonting john woos killer ringo lams school fire prison fire among many others pedicab driver included shaw veteran liu chia liang sammo furious fight sticks alfred cheung kinting director dark hk noir classic run late great lam ching ying best known friendly face various hk vampire horrorkung fucomedies name fact cast pedicab driver one interesting ive seen hk productionbr br film interesting peaceful moments notably love affair max mok fennie yuen one crisis confront thanks lowell los character really done completely serious piece wanted discussions human values meaning love matter whats past done living serious genuinely effective middle part film immediately gets much noteworthy average kung fu spectacle actioner characters efforts cure things touching tells delightfully much right human relations friendship course love still think fennie says max future bad cooking unnecessary tones potential whole segment themes pretty effectively unfortunatelybr br thing film makers interested action outrageous overthetop action fight scenes include traditional kung fu sticks meat cleavers theyre used hysterically mind blowing kung fu scene ive seen film jackie chans drunken master ii really great wires theyre used cleverly people literally fly opposite corner room kicked punched simply amazing something hong kong cinema deliver dangerous stunts make viewer hold hisher breath film one fast car vs pedicab chase sequence various dangerous looking jumps twisting bodies flying air crushing force hard destination still film makers seem accept violence film sammo late bruce lee willing give final murderous mayhem gangster villa think kind morale matter obvious shallow may good thing even harmless film cinema meant much brainless entertainmentbr br film witty bits humor im sure everyone hollywood america example understand hilarious star wars gag beginning definitely among literally forced laugh realized seeing funny scenes created sammos passion ping still greatest amazementfilled laugh came scenes depicted former pharagraph imagery big tall men flying great force screen walls furniture simply insane breathtaking hide feelings thoughts eastern film makers witness something nothing notredflag appreciating reaction coursebr br pedicab driver among incredible hong kong action films seen easily among sammos greatest achievements minor flaws rate even brighter higher oiii yes whats im really bored well wan na talk please entertaining want shoot facei always say make post either stop feeling suicidal feel unnecessary hate everything right now hate hate live hate im hate much today work absolutely nothing hate nothing want kill terrified prospect tried right around time last year actually failed feeling euphoria got trying indescribable kept going weeks weeks afterwards happy tried live somewhere decent gun control laws id shot now know high level concern actual methodology keeps considering methods fantasize stepping top parking garage think high enough kill want live horrible way cost family lot money actually money right now got little manic overspent first week april month car insurance payment wiped money paycheck friday many friends really wish people go things miss friends high school drop house say hey come us people seem never sex ive never even really dated anyone stupid want someone time married kids someday ive never even dated chances point something horrible wrong know people seem think im really strange sometimes therell someone likes never someone people understand seem interest romantically feel paranoid freak want somebody anybody somebody love loves enough want keep around want discarded im bad friendships stuff people nearby overthink things cant turn brain want included seem people interested including think im badlooking fashion hairstyling things come naturally know probably look good girls city im smart im usually pretty funny cant make stupid hair cant figure anything ive gotten good fashion thing guess thats reddit site lot know everything point im tired broke miserable waked upfirst thing want cry blow brains want gun think brain matter floor make feel better tell kill myselfi cant find reason live maybe yall suicidal thoughts back feel getting worse tried hope tried therapy three help fourth tried made feel worse ed gets worse ocd probably bpd gotten point believe living everyone happiness exist atleast boyfriend shitty job parents struggling financially worrying making waste money therapy time going things differently going jump backing telling anyone stop even try written two three letters already know tell boyfriend really want end know make sure try better atleast strong stay planned outfit know going spend last days people happy memories going bake cake last cake ik one thing remember strong enough everything happened life broken point unfixable sorry happening thoughts back fuck im going styleim going sad depressed fuck tried fucking hardest god damn best im sexiest bloke block neither ugliest longshot knows maybe fucking gives shit anyway im reserved im holed guy go everyday million things skydive scuba dive iceskate rollerblade etc everything anything know matter fucking truth circumstances raised view world literally put almost impossible state find someone love someone loves back ive lived fucking europe south america north america single fucking real friend hear fucking one im nice guy im guy pulls freeways help im guy gives hitchhiker rides im guy whos always everyone ready listen help im guy im invisible amazing guy guy everyone loved guy everyone helped guy nobody remembers fuck cares sad thing matter fucking reality idontfitin mind tried tried good time earth fun parts unluckily life whopping cushion negative even bad life harsh negative know im done negative im going go always wanted without fucking experience want im going go live wild yeah im probably going freeze death im probably going starve im probably die disease gives fucking crap im fucking tired living people connection nobody understand nineteen never single fucking friend entire life fucking dont im outgoing guy public guy everyone asks take pictures guy helps dude loading truck guy hears people asking question gives answer im guy nobody wants accept agnostic extreme sport computer gaming nerd scifi fantasy chick flick lover musical metal rap loving anime cooking reading quadlingual multicultured mixed bad dating saying right sexy things coming friend hah fuck thats snippet try using say im sure thousands people fuck lived europe two years lived brazil year lived alaska year joined military year fucking think anyways got chest selling truck quitting job giving sister shit heading mountains want find nice canyon make leap wrote guys bend right leg lean forward breeze weak sunny yet chilly april day third month free today think almost moment think free longer concerned food longer concerned bills impressions dates finally true want nothing return came finally peace death nicholas diary page p edit peace fuck im shutting last time time roll ball shit dohnut cause wan na put hole good use cant take thisi keep asking people every single day things going go back normal never answer hear pollyanna bullshit stay positive gets better bullshit rebound start year look everythings gone shit im explode cant take anymore go site twitter everyones denial maybe itll better maybe wont new normal bullshit aint covid conspiracy cant fucking take anymore fucking idiots jesus fucking christ im gon na fucking explode hate hate maybe everything maybe nothing hate fuck happened years downhill got dumber fatter selfish angry irresponsible careless piece shit gets jealous fucking self years ago fucking life crumblesi need supportwith friends speak figured maybe reaching strangers help toughest point life reached ive actually thought redflag girlfriend years left month old son together kills knowing ill see weekendsmy days work never perfect relationship flaws struggled together becoming father admit wrong originally break told needed change didi changed everything turns didnt love anymore years memories rest mind tormenting taken toll im even work look old facebook messages look used beand everything reminds told wouldnt okay ive thoughts redflag never actually wanted nowand one talk cant keep going thisevery day fever im much pain feel sick ive depressed life nothing ive started cutting never understood now ive done much less visable methods self harm think people noticed making worse everyone around gives shit depressed others caused detached yet feels ammo make fun seems matter makes everything worse even people say care feel waiting either fucking already blame fit world everything makes want die ive tried following dreams succeeded im empty cant feel joy long think ill ok every single day thoughts speaking directly someone redflag every day say today day cant push im afraid pain really guess default plan hanging nearby tree maybe best think jumping something time thought wonder brain trying put brain dragging pit know want anyone understands state im want screami hate depressive episodes wish scream throw things cant im silently losing sanity hehe life much better unlike thought imagine getting rejected someone love told ex fucks new boyfriend weekly seen manwhore taken advantage therapist holds many secrets others hears depressing stories time allowed eat dairy meat poison allowed outside lied friends giving affection getting none return next nothing look forward thats life past days almost killed yesterday didnt unfortunately know tequila tastes though reason never say emotions others one understands feel cuts whenever talk one person lets theyre always busy want happy cant oh congrats spicel congrats world practically stealing tried still try hit karma days let ego filler filler filler filler filler filler suicidality came back years peacehelloive struggled suicidal thoughts years old im now self harm young comes back different forms sometimes spontaneous attempts sometimes planned sometimes unbearable need die wanted ask particular question supposed survival instinct humans earth want die time therapist tells say want disappear instead die want something cease need break etc always quite precisely wanting die good years barely self harm suicidal urges cbt moved countries recently diagnosed ptsd huge breakdown resurfacing suicidality crossing street every bridge rooftop calling bus coming way sidewalk lost touch reality control body genuinely idea moved body front bus runs still standing sidewalk opened eyes realized alive anyone overdosed painkillersif painkillers effects im gon na leave httpsmyoutubecomwatchvkhlesagabi fucking way last week completed online programming course columbia university classmate long uncommon name say ofc next week im starting girls code online course saw classmates name girls code google classroomlike odds omfg questioni try explain best possible couple really good friends basically know mental status mess times tell multiple times need lives still feel annoying burden still dont really open much dont even really text check anything feel better things dont want talk dont want anything dont care feel im bothering try talk constantly remind true still think believe head guess want know people feel way people friends people basically suicidal guys annoyed existence actually burden rather deal dont know makes sense something thats mind feel right share thoughts feelings anyone read manny soldiers killed life living generals leaders used religion weapon keep people killing complete crap looked hate used instead trying make things better people heard suicide sinful religion christianity started im going sleep want post reach doots post making reaches doots wake create new youtube channel try make good content current channel videos one day decided private taking suggestions content may start streaming twitch platforms successful make first video try consistent future uploads taking suggestions content see yall around half hours two weeks ago made massive commitment move miles new country gf new job new start ended blue day got therei first met gf work got summer job due connection boss theyre germany work uk office wed dating last summer months clear boss winding operations uk refocusing everything germany located two us left working uk year guy apparently lost job put garden leave confirmation anything talked gf possibility moving returned home last august flown see every months lives mins away german office works now seemed incredibly excited idea joining office uk one shut last month march started happening everything seemed fine still super excited finally ready go middle month booked channel tunnel ticket drove miles germany literally got though suddenly totally blue made clear welcome stay one reach help speaking partial german way contact boss anyone worked facing homeless almost immediately arriving even know office address listed website expecting travelling gf anyway ultimately made decision go home still afford travel miles around hours driving total back home emailed boss explain situation eventually replied sorry hear looking solution heard anything two weeks apparently fired even officially notified ive sitting around waiting boss contact back still idea went wrong gf either seemed move right actually got last visited midfebruary fine together even trying ask wrong happened got angry defensive blocked cant even talk person literally weeks ago best friend love life mean risk everything someone sure hurts even knowing happened asking makes angry cold feet maybe dunno make angry even now feels entire future destroyed one day gfbest friend job place living ive learning german literally putting move video called every night nothing seemed unusual im back home even know ive officially fired either way longer office back job quickly going cause lot problems ive work years ive jobhunting far even response yet person confide even speak highlighted lack friends even anyone turn anyone help im approaching years old im stuck mum ive got prospects nothing good look forward apart financial ruin bills commitments catch end month best friend school even give enough time see left still make time even see now lives minutes road makes excuses everytime suggest something hell never attempt rearrange suggest better time ive never felt low worthless alone life ive tried reaching tiny circle friends theyre busy even meet even telling happened literally cant see anything worth looking forward already thought lucky job im exactly fast learner despite efforts ive constantly worried falling behind ive got one even spend time financial fallout job unexpectedly looming head really even means meet new people im quite shy awkward new people actually meeting someone new think im idiot pretty hard ive come back home ive sitting alone jobhunting wracking brains possibly even happened everyone ive tried reaching give time either im much hassle deal give shit cant see way better already pretty depressed met girl gave new lease life new start somewhere totally new try really find much hope first time years first time life ive actually felt someone wanted around feels cruel thought finally found life happy pulled underneath still even know hate feeling thoughts ending make feel goddamn selfish see anything look forward even really miss immediate family perhaps even idea im already seen disappointment carei great life w girlfriend im alcoholic stop drinking want ruin relationship years im tired complete contrast opinions review film actually surprisingly good reluctantly went see expected bored clichs obvious jokes overacting trailer promisedbr br minutes found genuinely laughing enjoying refreshing acting one toilet humour gag dead body manages actually come realistically funny scenarios without spoiling anything much moments involving animals hilariousbr br staple ingredients good film script director actors compared recent attempts romantic comedy film stands tallbr br sure going learn anything spiritual awakening go open mind likely good time hey guess got bf well yes actually got bf im fucking done everythingwell throwaway brother doesnt see try intervene ive decided im done life ive come point thought death even scary comforting reality tears shed prayers give dropped highschool working ged im cramped house day much arguing cant stand longer im overweight cant convince mother buy healthier things ive looked work everywhere one hire girlfriend im always put back burner comes needs im always lowest priority ive sitting dark room day trying decide way go want painless god sends hell sacrifice make know done lot lot love give constantly made feel dirt older brother anything outside house claims time know hes ashamed see public im done even funny im ready go fear death longer expect much attention know tried help things cant fixed rredflag watch caring family thank believe god may watch believe god wish happiness well world thank truly love fake scenario one die mom strangers choose im curious done dealing paranoia hallucinationsah man week rough ive kind antipsychotics awhile symptoms control week everything really bubbled surface life work falling apart personal life pieces broke family im totally weekend yesterday took mgs xanax mgs diphenhydramine course still woke hoping wouldnt im precipice looking edge trying decide makes frustrated cant find people understand pretty much typed maybe somewhere someone understand mind works tell going okay know going okay everyone thinks im giant asshole douche liar talk behind back even try present side story matter people cant understand mind works say bullshit well understand things mind telling shit perceive reality different everyone people still think make everything sigh im tired thoughts head constantly bombarded second guessing theres bugs around hear buzzing noise see faceless people hiding shadows room theres nothing change im one sit deal im one keep waking tormented things mind never stops want ability stop thinking care dying care thoughts stop head stop seeing shit better know never cured never regular person sigh hope someone reads kind understands mean im sure long winded rant place thats mind constantly running fucking place body seems understand things go cant figure way people understand types problems maybe die people finally look back life say wow guy really fucked around yes thank exactly bullshit cant handle anymore know man really know christmas halloween holiday bro fuck orange juice want juice breakfast suck dick juice feel stupidest person honestly im tired keep thinking everyone around judging cant stop made poem dogs hope guys gthello friendlt gtyou smell goodlt gtthe family havelt gtprotect shouldlt gtpat backlt gtmy golden featureslt gti love solt gti creaturelt gti pallt gtmy coat grayinglt gtbut doesnt matterlt gtmy tail swayinglt gtyou love toolt gtbut wear sorrowlt gtdont worry pallt gtill always followlt gtim getting olderlt gtmy friend forever lt gtbut bond never severlt gtmy life filled joylt gtfrom otherslt gtin time together brotherslt gti may herelt gtin flesh bloodlt gtbut never forget budlt gtnow let restlt gtmy time overlt gti love solt gteternal brotherlt okayi actually said anyone certainly said think id kill every single night need move move fix everything one accept competition area awful im categorised desirable cant help bitterly feeling people need move want change something nicer something different neighbours spend waking hours stomping still feel around apartment screaming dogs desperately wish taken away fucking ceiling cope anymore need move feels im asking world sister listing bunch female problems im female said quote unquote recorded redflags males thats dont bother help dont want reveal cut manliness proceeded say people dont reach girls thats commit redflag dude im mad acted male problems dont exist confronted told shut bayern champions league exact timing football fans bayern im happy know im shitty person one talks anymorei know allowed post underage im posting anyway banned banned know anymore parents give one shit adoptive dad outright said im literal mistakeadopted even fucking exist first place habit getting really rude im mad somebodysomebodies often go pretty personal pretty much friends call month ago got frustrated thing fault called horrible names told go die even though depressed insulted many ways friends talk blame one talks need support fault talked anyone close month now cant deal depression alone knowing mean anything anyone ive tried apologize friends ignore past someone sad talked ive called attention whores thats culture finland im still shitty person part culture hate much really alive im supposed alive first place im literally mistake want exist anymore hate one cares matter anyone theres reason exist ive already tried commit redflag pretty weak attempt know much longer take knowing im worth anything know im going try day soon itll serious attempt know im another white teenage girl begging attention know theres need point cant go much longer getting support anyone dont know even post cant live without getting attention care anyone need fucking much guess make attention whore even school today despite corona one interacted well true guys class told show wrists guess thats better nothing dont know anymore sorry post long rambly dont know used heavy drinker lost weight anyways go drinking wan na kill anymore feel deadi feel lucky dieing im price shit good people die accident selfish people carry iv said posts maybe worlds stage play part choose script ends cant forgive something heinous teenager cant stop thinking bad awful ami dont know start even start really struggling past weeks moment feels life difficult times anything dont know brain keeps fixating event late teen years think im worried means life whether im worthy alive moment stupidity encouraged family dog lick didnt last long couple seconds maybe dont know fact capable thinking split second thats ok even option mortifies terrified makes monster akin people abuse molest take advantage weak innocent makes feel though dont deserve live redflag constantly rattled around head release hate ruined life story never look back fondly past self capable thing mortifies wish take back really worry ill never find love feel dont deserve worry never able enjoy sex time anything enjoyable related sex partner reminded worst action plays constantly head ruins everything feel guilty ashamed want stop thinking end need know horrible compared rest humanity want know horrible awful disgusting feel trapped horror story making every second feels skin fire want die know go living knowing im monster cant believe dont want beleive getting used gecko getting used cant tell girl texting see gecko using gecko reason text years relationship hook ups im tired feeling aloneive wanted cry cuddle someone care thats want fantasize sex wan na buy broom go brrrr fly poems tell future wrote poem sound rain raining live mean something predict future wan na live anymore life senseless please change mindhello created reddit account sake post january diagnosed borderline personality disorder taking toll go therapy coronavirus outbreak whenever mother arguments im always wrong one always keeps top take things anymore want die prolonging time die senseless well die future anyway whats point living really raised parents compete others using learned skills knowledge compete best resources available try gain much experiences relationships achievements knowledge satisfaction end die anyway humans worthless selfish pieces crap really compete resources even see global warming result selfish deeds competing resources species animal kingdom humans well known compete humans iq skills climb hierarchy acquire financial relationship status gain self esteem iq skills stay ladder live worst life possible none low financial relationship status gain least esteem fucking brain hormonal differences world mad stress senseless selfish deeds end well die anyway letting emotional physical pains insecurities anxieties fears death stay sides end well die anyway say prolonging time left final line death senseless please change mind using nonreligious views believe god even point im roboti work hours week minimum wage live studio apartment afford pay bills keep car girlfriend left birthday month ago im addicted diazepam battle years slowly getting hard cant cope work without pay bills live year ago used put chandeliers lighting company comfortable salary sunbathing park council truck emptying bins see laying ground drove stomache almost died horrible scars ptsd live weed alchol mentally refuse go sleep feel robot working hours coming home nothing im fucking sick life know got friends family work rinse repeat poor depressed fuck point please funny yes freleng classic watch sylvester turn green always treat brings us back days cartoon slapstick brave geared adult mindbr br loved april staround april st years ago cousin killed sixteen time many years later wondering fate day im realizing pointless existential life never understood relate fully want join friends online course always say want live life seem fair live full life gets away nightmare dont want die know fucking even know im bothering vent subreddit maybe cry help know want haha next line yare yare guy kakyoin avdol one guy died came back life reddit tbag wendys contemplating redflag break upmy boyfriend recently broke feel lost went talking marriage baby send messing breaking iti feel sad alone messed want forever feels responsible great guy think find someone im pretty sure tonight scared final ive enough lifei honestly see point life anymore got military last year four years deployment afghanistan kept thinking life much better truth far worse friends hang anymore im fucking school im tired frustrated time think friendship woman truly care love death night drunken sex honestly think straw broke camels back person hang love fucking much know see way got drunk friday evening asleep started fondling initiated sex know basically sexual assault love much know intents malicious guilttripping even speak anymore want know okay im afraid whatll happen friendship really leaves thats ive got one im close family im even sure actually love anymore crippling depression keeps night tired throughout day depression let sleep ptsd attempted redflag three times military first time afghanistan nightmare last night crushing top everything woke covered sweat kept feeling back head exit wound stand laid bed crying alarm went class seriously cant take much loneliness killing faster anything im resorting alcohol escape fear becoming alcoholic want pain despair go away badly im sure long last time severe feel buying gun finishing started afghanistan know sometimes stepping comfort zone bad initiate conversation know lovely friends im suicidal something ive always wanted say anyone felt way mean sincerityi love ive likelyhood never met okay still love love done wrong even somehow still love whatever feel guilty must truly burden soul drive extreme measures whatever forgive ive reason forgiveness part spiritual conviction part moral code part personality whole none forgive forgive right forgive truth believe forgiveness one beautiful parts existence new start reset trouble forgiveness one holds judgement life forgiveness fault may life one living forgiveness free bondage love prevailing force behind please ask forgive love go forgiven love loved series kids wb believe batman spin seeing original show ended show came first loved idea robin leaving batman solve crime interesting perspective relationship liked addition tim drake series predecessor show great story lines great animation better original fantastic voice work course brilliant writing thing us often run episodes minute storyline wish episodes longer favorite episode batman cartoons comes series called edge opinion good better heart ice robins reckoning overall nice follow along superman show made childhood happy killing option anymore hurtsback college realized involved many things colleagues internships etc everyone around thought depression redflag option stung really bad came close redflag times teenager obviously still around thought option anymore hurt ampxb nowadays thoughts coming back cant kill feel happy family friends know miss people told love feels weight holding alive want anymore hurts want live cant disappoint people work really shitty job days days hour shifts look forward days dread days joy feel life minute feeling turning work responsible something done rest time spend alone depressed real meaningful contact anyone totally incapable good time anything working bored tired man joy life work wake every morning wanting die first thought recently fixated gunshot temple sometimes noose times imagine jumping thousandth floor trump tower thoughts urges obsessive intrusive uncontrollable mornings worst contend thoughts throughout day everyday actively fight near constant basis sometimes physically stopped inch short plunging kitchen knife abdomen almost thrown onto trans canada highway came pretty close jumping bridges attempted suicide several times hospitalized ten times think future much catastrophize worry homelessness car accidents cancer living survival mode makes difficult dreams goals living day day hour hour trying hang grumpy bitter short tempered scroll facebook hours upon hours dulls pain sometimes watch cnn day cope absolutely mind numbing isolate hard leave house barely sleep difficulty feeding depressed usually depressed half year suicidality limited depressive episodes suicide hijacks brain regardless mood emotional state depressed thoughts suicide response deep hopelessness suicide seems way end endless suffering clinically depressed still suicidal thoughts urges intrusive impulsive come nowhere replace shades negative emotion instead feeling irritated become suicidal annoyed suicide disappointed death middle ground nothing black white live die life better part decade much help people antidepressants work types medication hospital makes feel worse lack empirical data suggest hospitalization reduces suicide risk may actually increase risk long term besides best advice emergency room doctors give distract activities enjoy problem enjoyed activity years suggest calling friend ran years ago real treatment person dialectical behavioural therapy expensive involved complex treatment take years complete master dropped three programs another matter altogether dbt teaches manage inevitable suicidal thinking borderline personality disorder suicidal ideation something may learn live important note everyone bpd experiences chronic suicidality bpd sufferers die suicide people complete dbt learn manage thoughts eventually better starting dbt week things different time ok read end ok sum pls tell go study need make good grade rn pass dont want parents dropkick cliff making dads bit pissed new car stopped working today got two weeks ago insurance company closed weekends hope fixed paid car see account totally seems uuwulittlegayboiuwu need talk things told crushfriend still ive friends year liked told said didnt back well bunch shit happened couple months ago told completely cutting life started hanging hell basically went date last week told thinking going end friendships didnt mad actually kind caring told doesnt told know said still friends keep working getting promise mother never attempt redflag incidentsa weeks ago attempted redflag mother father manage stop jumping high floor die told mother die ways overdose medications slash wrist others mother called police really worried commit redflag emotionally unstable crouched corner room minutes later police came seeked enter room without permission rooms door left open worried condition came take look treated entering room without permission became violent assaulted one police officers pinned handcuffed still unreasonable made things really hard police officers handle brought police station put temporary cell waited hours broke mentally eventually violent outburst cell asked investigation officer io interview quickly interview sent institute mental health imh singapore police officers around doctor seeing feel comfortable tell doctor problems warded hospital first days imh quiet one day sat corner observing boy peeping boy thought limited social skills nobody surprisingly patients still talk saw peeping boy thought bad person said words hurt another day one person talking boy thought person trying hurt playing friendly boy front punched person behind times front face hammered time upper back muscles tied nurses ask people ward try agitate acting friendly front doctor knew punched person ward hospitalized even longer period threatened harm still hospitalized longer period despite threat people start know actually upset friends talking one patients ward approached friendly several times really happy sent another ward requested longer scared people bully new place new beginning one knows unlike previous ward whereby everyone knows weakness finally released every month go back police station report police officer one day police said come police station anymore promised mother never attempt redflag commit redflag mood already low complete redflag sent place imh singapore living conditions far worse every month report police attempted redflag afraid die courage die transfer courage die courage live instead try kill every persons life precious wish days go emotional void turn numb little bit fucking rest redflag makes hyper aware depression makes intense streak lows week today work redflag going fucking nuts least winning fight depression occupy mind brain feels neurons firing fucking fast function going break breathe today need breathe yet suppose function normal adult public clients coworkers yet brain feels circuits fry try go forward stuck perpetual rerun stuttering thoughts order words formed come mouth need fucking breathe one need emotional void days motivation live first sorry bad english idiot cant learn english must write post dont anything life wake redflag thought every fucking single day years old suicidal thought years two times attempted dont courage die loser clever enough living ugly fat small penis chance girls unsuccesful everything diabetes keratosis pilaris fucking hate wish courage redflag everytime sleep want died morning force stay night end sleeping whole day cant stand living anymoreliving consuming rn dead sleeping day long possible fucking afraid going principals office rn shouldnt tbh want documents stamped principal werent came office times feels awkward lost hat favorite hat lost idk im gon na want dieright fucking now ive given years better talked exi messaged meeting somewhere give stuff back honestly messaged miss almost year broke day thought give anything go back time things differently selfish unwilling change wish tell good well together already found someone im sure happier life felt life going somewhere someone loved much got ive tried hard move ive spent time close friends family nothing working job anymore dealing trying work overwhelming im mooching parents year old dad busts ass support feel useless keep telling im going schedule appointment therapist never anxious nervous never happens im starting doubt even worth everyday consists trying ignore constant thoughts redflag making empty promises even know im going anymore needed let guess want overdosewe bottles bottles old meds want take die one care best friend even reply want end fucking nightmare topic applying apply something dont want write want goddamnit bro im sick bein lonely need set thighs sleep argh heres songs id recommend price wrong periphery hearteater grave bolt blue chinese football natural selection rings saturn ghost planet purrple cat deadlineso yea ive posted dont need go details crazy fucked whatever right im thinking need give deadline improve headselflife dont meet im gone guys think wrong mesorry bad english yo full happy life supportive family couple friends beautiful girlfriend happy still feeling empty fighting wdepression never told anybody except friends girl lot suicidal urges past even tried hate aggressive guy think hurts people around meespecially girlwhich makes hate even sometimes look mirror say self worthless piece shit appetite life feel life pointless ive contemplating redflag several years hello ive contemplating redflag several years now think life worth living bunch work little tv video games reddit something mildly enjoyable end day work next day maybe couple weeks vacation year still fifty weeks work feel slave desire continue living feel pointless meaningless miserable think find meaning even insignificant cog machine heres thingive suicidal life first id really depressed teen early adult grab whatever bottle pills swallow someone find id end waking hospital day later years ago really depressed things dark deeply hurt wife left parents taking divorce attorney making things nothing daggers heart stood everything wasnt made breathe wake morning bed etc devastated still trying nobody wanted listen made decision end life read online ordered meds went state booked hotel couple nights took pills found hours later helicopter ride couple ambulances days later miraculously woke coma last years really recovered month two time felt last months bad feel totally hopeless ordered sodium nitrite online thinking taking end life last time serious attempt felt peace actually happy peace day time feels different cant reach sort peace felt feel may making mistake ive thought much rather let family know know anymorei always loved little brother family always important lately really hard along hes selfish thinks help much landed trouble week ago asked help nothing big take parents cats rest month travel morning evening feed cant take reasons got upset refused help even though big hassle continued tell im stupid worthless wants dead blocked everywhere manipulated expensive parts computer credit gone cant told pay bill month took name credit clean course im stupid know im stuck bill cant pay now im suicidal already need im edge killing speak cant handle anymore everyone uses im kind im lonely want end know dont ps im s teenage angst ive severely depressed whole life tried every treatment medicine yes includes therapy stop suggesting nothing helps im lost cause seriously considering redflagits middle night im drunk mean everything gone wrong really want die family friends keep thinking walking killing cant even think way im scared ill traumatise someone find dead definitely cant house family feel fucking hypocrite ive commented peoples posts reasons keep living ready give girl love ex pregnant someone elses baby dead end bartending job always problems depression getting worse cant see way crush selfisolating see face light life morning got laugh reallyeven face death asking someone talk world give f story life really id need dieits best solution really thoughts inadequacies gone instant cant die people die time many die suddenly without much pain cant one lucky people note planim going put thoughts sections work escorting sexuality drug alcohol addiction family attention want plan work work software engineer well able hold job months without company getting tired im good bosses love output open source projects contributions even first programming job startup cto shocked first day repeat shock every job companies tired reputation coming work straight nightclubs drunk drugged tired needing snort coke work stay awake productive escorting sexuality said cant hold permanent work one nice thing going im young pretty good looking girl look age look men love little girl daddy want fuck little hot teenage daughter sex boring girls went long period knowing im straight lesbian bisexual think men sense daddy real birth dad course want daddy older guy looks loves helps early twenties gives advice suppose people call daddy issues escorting go really wrong sometimes clients beat shit hookers happened thankfully got tied dark room beaten whipped positive side getting beat escorting builds character makes really really strong take ton abuse people head drug alcohol addiction debatable whether im coke addict desperately need want use thanks hooker lots easy free access cocaine use times week alcohol destory used teetotal innocent quiet shy teen im alcoholic confident loud partygirl arrest record drunk disorderly drunk disorderly drunk disorderly love vodka need vodka two bottles fridge right im going start pouring finish letter im quiet night nights row now drink sleep family hate reasons go shit hardest bit write ive typing nonstop minutes im unsure say hesitating mum want anymore know doesnt even says loves never shows appreciation anybody anything dad worked hard provide sister mum worked decades lazy bitch first memory dad took party workplace threw children shy one scared talk anyone eventually dragged car shouted fucking disappointment obviously yet outgoing loud confident child everyone prefer wish got divorce instead constant arguing theyve born desperate move away home take arguing anymore people argue public still upsets attention makes happy used awkward kid teenager fucking love center dance floor one stage naked girl one guys talk clubs pubs gangbang last night escorting contact first person naked fuck put clothes back walking around nude men look wank wanted attention wanted fuck girl though want secure job better flat current place tiny studio suck dick afford things alcohol withdrawal symptoms hours sober family plan obviously redflag note plan redflag question anything want first redflag plan long remember first genuine redflag plan two years ago going travel south east asia spend savings fun fucking hookers haha ive become one twist die executed instead ran away another place nothing said attention section enjoy makes happy maybe seek reading story earlier httplongformorgstorieslittlegirllost go read good story girl ran away los angeles seek fame got fame became one biggest porn stars era shot head another thing read earlier httpwwwnytimescommagazinehereiswhathappenswhenyoucastlindsaylohaninyourmoviehtml lindsay lohan still gets acting gigs despite crazy bitch cant run away la hollywood whatever id go trying homeless enough savings last year work end finally end relief stress problems suicidal voice head thats taunted whole life ironic feel relief id dead america kill natvies old ppl sad know im defect per human quick summary film willy wonka chocolate factory boy hate poor grandpa going fun factory mr chocolate hello naughty children time die president united states fell fucking satire new article youve got fucking kidding goddamn president man sworn office protect run country falling articles fucking babylonbee jesus christ man im man religion praying god takes guy office ill grab bible right knees feeling suicidal im starting feel danger may doi suicidal thoughts whole life im becoming obsessive im feeling next months really want die yet least call hospital situation going harm minutes helpin minutes one year anniversary love ones death im religious plan meet side please help im giving horny life aight nerds aint chief horny lifestyle isnt realized im using mask cover lack interesting qualities valid hobbies actually making uncomfortable conversations people suffer inevitably end swerve nsfw category local hoe quiting hope actually meaningful talks people ive ghosted im sorry say ima bad person tfw youve seen footage think enough want prove point redflaga couple months ago made post explained therapy working years trying well think im officially done week ago went drinking drank much attempt black thats time im apparently suddenly extroverted awesome well work instead threw panic attack middle street friend call ambulance course hour painful experience ambulance came bawling want end life try something different change doctors confirmed nothing change itll wasted money came home simply talked friend nothing matters suddenly time people care famous person commits redflag even educated mental illnesses suddenly people blame victim selfish reason become better musician right literally commit redflag following send message thought days redflag blogvlog type thing see everyone takes time censors gets defensive aggressive post daily updates yeah kind thing one lose life think thats last way fun end life confirmation lacking mental health department make things come maybe others confirmation id really see amount inactive profiles posted subreddit comparison subreddits wonder priveleged complete quiz smart fridge yes privileged friend redflag descion friend mine mademy best friends girlfriends planning sucide second chose instead need advice fast though head friends stuck mind everything want leave behind nothing life difficult nice job got college wanted family loves feel one truly knows im alone feels think laborious living feels nothing difficult really boring everything feels waste time something important anything feel way even im writing instead assignments classes life ive coasted minimal effort getting ds cs hearing teachers say hes intelligent try hard enough supposed say sons stupid know much longer stand constant sense inadequacy boredom believe might help lot people heremy name wil wheaton live chronic depression generalized anxiety ashamed wil wheaton httpslinkmediumcomkxsmlvks husband live apartment gets super cold easily part theres protective trees winter problem buildings run theres lots cracks around door husband able fix gaping crack door frame still need work done management best heaters old baseboard heaters heat home run electricity bill crazy onset early winter midwest coupled loss husbands job im going go apply liheap im wondering anyone knows ways keep apartment warm love admire farrelly brothers come got see great movie years release made laugh made cry reeeaally warmed heart big time hard describe rotten english try anywaybr br cast excellent throughout lead supporting roles acting great dialogs great film perfectly directed editedbr br think farrelly brothers movies often underestimated light comedies theyre deeeeeep talk life tell youbr br case movie affirmed relationships aboutbr br love somebody set free let try share passion pain always true otherbr br im sportshater definitely sports ignorant movie vibes smell atmosphere baseball finally movie explained sportsfan mean cool fanfamilies must therebr br thanks much pete bobbr br ps seen please check kingpin every time someone says see professional much closer killing myselfi see professionals take medicine nothing helps one find solution stop every time someone says reinforces one answer pain forever die please someone help anyone actually knows policy va report redflag attemptso prescribed antidepressant va quit smoking thought good first redflag attempt new years eve totally character suicidal thoughts actions side effect drug recently got returning normal plotting redflag self hurt neck want report going committed somewhere know please answerif know please answer dreams distanti friends never im charismatic im funny barely hold conversation ive alone long im emotionally exhausted constant mental breakdowns im already numb point anxiety medication numb even might well dead itd different want friends bright future travel world loving partner yet cant person try best nice towards others im good enough anyone im almost now education job friends life even started hate incredibly much birthday days agohonestly really want birthday die feel worry anything anymore ended going shit job instead dealt shitty family cant escape instead got birthday cards relatives bother opening several months stopped hit train still regret going thru surprisingly hasnt happened yet im surprised hacker hasnt unblurred mrbeasts credit card spent money saw pull credit card latest video sells houses im guessing done multiple times im encouraging im surprised hasnt happened yet important question girls even find guys attractive well im fucked watching traps anime mom walked watching boy taking clothes see funeral ripped using reddit browse reddit plank position help posting easy someone online class mic camera bed totally unaware biggest fear always school bed see close hear breathing guys wan na say tomorrow turning tomorrow bandwagon different circlejerk karma nice meeting even though idea tf aremy best moments teenage years minutes scrolling subreddit every couple daysanyway good time goodbye dudes small dicks stay playing xbox bro worried wrong microsoft whats pointmy life pretty okay guess im stressed time im never happy anything want study want work want anything easier die instead dealing crap whats point ive tried talking people act want live act life somehow important means anything im sure died people sad thats true anyone weeksmonthsyears nobody care sure woulds still sad nobody torn anymore think theres point life im religious guess thats part see humans living thing special different pile rocks see life another feature universe stars oceans mountains rocks things universe people things made atoms everything make single bit difference died whats point feeling shit time hurts friends someone basically everything wish basically everything wish life decides cruel dangle dream front knowing matter never able obtain easily born sheer luck eats inside makes feel somehow worst enemy friend adore stillit hard dependent ways emotionally feels something happen anymore part dies sometimes feels without life worth living dependency understandable know move lives find someone value even want love wish someone put othersi tired mentally ill makes wish feel anything even know normal raised normal raised broken depressed anxious mess envy complicated emotions hey shitass wan na see speedbridge fiiiller fiiiillerrrrr fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllllllleerrrrrrrr george sanders playing saint penultimate time good job good script usual good rko cast around noncharteris story bristling murders good clean funbr br thread new york police inspector fernack templars friend framed corruption scandal disgraced st comes london try put things right nice simple far really world thread another tale woman taking revenge people murdered brother wendy barrie well bumping nasty men saint fall love boot including baddie direct protection fernacks cellar theres creepy shot dead staring car theyre taking back theyd got paul guilfoyle pearly gates must supposed homosexual witness dressing gown beginning later beguiling comment st thinking keeping pet palm springs fernack played jonathan hale usual time beaten deflated attitude really needed good slapping templar liven upbr br hays office made sure got picture right threads tied straggly bits well worth watching us kind thing val kilmers version yardstick bother notice senpai w film works true trying say ignore dynamics plot focus message see little bit main character michael whether male female us come point lives want look back reexamine situation relationship really occur remembered went wrong michaels desire find grace completely selfish anything wants make feel better things turned even sympathetic character everyone selfish comes relationships film ends sure michael learned anything new best gauge relationship friend nadia soul movie reminds us always two sides every story found michael pompous arrogant plain clueless exactly liked real character wanted go back analyze previous relationship film closing film everyone posting award nriebejuebe jejeiejebeuue hebsoowbejrn anne xhdkeleoneidowk true story john leguizamos one man shows hit miss mambo mouth showed intense characterizations great timing material average spicorama accomplished former well time material funny freak classic followed disappointing sexoholic stuff freak showcases genius hes spotlight hes without peerbr br freaks semiautobiographical look journey young man power resonance think even creator knew allowing us chance see soul mr leguizamo gives us opportunity project life onto greater gift performer give willingness drop wall expose share terrifying actorsthey use characters hide behindbut jl goes fullthrottle gleefully smashes pretenses lenny bruce richard pryor best cultural observerscomediansactors spoke heart whatever noticed society truth provided slashing humor combine great actors gift mimicry inthemoment mention sense humanity see john leguizamo power least freak doesbr br birth first big break every life altering moment viewer sees host characters private moments experiencing pain hope humor comes looking drained lean muscledtight jl ringing sweat evenings end offered crazy life audience spike lees fluid camera work captures actors nuances last lip curl slow blink scenarios range drinking machismofueled father seeing chorus line gay deaf uncle first girlfriends vicious humiliation strips naked eager sex nightmarish first sexual encounter large german woman back kentucky fried chicken follows unsuccessful attempt pick drunk lapsed catholic bar stpattys day climaxing serious showdown mother father shows true genius plays scene two characters brother strong dramatichumourous intensity forget watching one person theres costume changes bad wigs lighting tricks makeup actor giving simply amazingbr br actorscomedians stand right eddie izzard chris rock dive deeply john leguizamo thats criticism long shot love work freak different moving nob way best one man show one able touch long time im stressedi year old constantly think future one willing help parents care mentally think im emotional teenager overdosed vomitting whole day without noticing want future friends understand nice chances cuddling remains cuddling know really wants cuddle im okay dont want turn im tired life everything wan na end allim tired everything everyday wake worrying imma deal wit another arguement another beating every night go sleep worry bout deal next day im always stressing im tired mentally physically cant keep puttin know never anything deserve bullshit guess one person love heart cant believe truth dont understand saved reddit posts wiped wondering bruh everyone starting highschool next year later books free country already started got ta pay bruh agree strenghts mentioned reviews beats missing keep firmly inside genre crime drama film noir limit great drama beyond limits elements make film noirnot say great film noirs arentcantshouldnt great dramas one isntbr br one note music film used sparingly say used accentuate action frequently wife elementsbr br great set film way abrupt sort non ending ending either right let dependsbr br spoilers follow specificsbr br big turn story involves children seeing mother die big moment children never shown react one way neither cries neither asks father happened kids good actors reactions father suppose matters big misstep heart story kids kept mostly blank reaction really none next scene look nothing happenedbr br fashion bond forms belmondo venturas characters belmondo says knew partner killedbut never explained impact dramatically belmondo anyone belmondo romantic subplot strains credibility though convincingly acted venturas character lets belmondo involve total stranger escape plan reason even comment seem notice another gapbr br ending movie spoil ending happens screen perfunctory voice tell happened guess tries make feel true life missteps leaves drama screenbr br whats point dealing issues know maybe goals film limited giving audience wants crime melodramasuggest deeper elements move ignore thembr br bad much recommend film ventura good bad great drama well crime storyas imdb favorite movie time godfather film potential make good remake though done us problems probably sink film hands right director good remakethough doubtful venturas performance toppedbr br worth seeing frustrating whole dont know much longer thisim close ending cant stand go day day pretend dont feel way dont feel hurt alone sad try tell people feel way react dont think think im serious want show im serious feel everythings pointlesshalf time point living im turning week friends speak probably gon na day nursing jack daniels honestly real friend almost two years allies people follow facebook living one know gone suddenly dropped dead feels theres point anything know want life fuck even know drive im creative talented even half interesting hell relationships falling apart feels matter time partner enough used self harm lot suicidal two years ago im supposed look im better im supposed still craving harming tools months honestly still im transgender ftm im supposed success story pathetic people tell im funny cool deserve chance feels kind empty try improve situation join groups try meet people feels cant connect anyone work home really wanted work boxers want around people going judge feel thats people done life either fat freak queer stupid sexually assaulted year ago date want able go one day without thinking happened anymore im seeing therapist feel good feel much wrong fact last friend basically stopped talking found happened step front traffic f dm question want ill answer school personal nsfw questions allowed please try restrain make changei wake every morning dreaming death hate bully miserable become alcoholic cope negative feelings stay drinking want alone want sleep means wake alone pushed away everyone good life surrounded alcoholics hide family feel much shame run credit card debt longer stop spending hundreds dollars every week buying others drinks work bartender got shitfaced working last night lucky still job cope work sat knife wrists sobbed loudly sure whole block heard insane part debt saved life moment thought fathers disappointment upon finding debt stopped saved enough money send college degree use realized killing expose poorly ive managed life alive keep pretending anyway eventually pulled together left work felt horrible started taking shots soon got fucking stupid stealing bar ended drunk job fired may end losing job anyway money cant even remember counting register writing woke hating woke alone couch thought redflag woke thinking sabotaged last night afraid die want different want wake feeling anymore want make change feels impossible keep trying stop drinking inevitably break end shitfaced things regret make change ounce willpower left see future outside killing selfish self pitying hateful person guess im writing realized morning going kill change believe enough trust enough think progress realistic know sorry bit rant going post change mind need help one turn everything cry helpi always seem scream one hears dont even know anymore stuck moments random happiness brought fucked form nostalgia feeling unhappy reason never fully explain understand even know bother anymore try social never works end worse sick clinging possible interaction people thats left driving people away making hate feeling little disappointed tarantino death proof insist little appreciate amount work producing homage stunts people inglorious basterds definitely propelled tarantino top ranks universe movie summed albeit inadequately one word raw br br intense emotion every scene revenge justice seem main themes start movie one feels compassion towards victims nazis placed tarantinos fictional dimension ww historical context br br characters unpredictiable fun scary brutal sexy adjectives sure escaping mind fitting notredflag go appreciation character comments fellow users sum appreciation various performances br br dialogue evolved classic tarantino bad ass provocative style seen pulp fiction death proof one feel dialogues tarantino making open references movies indeed many dialogues near lessons cinema audience setting partly takes place movie premiere reference movie close around every corner br br nice see language presented german french english employed rather equally naturally speak french english fluently frequently disappointed english speaking characters french movies act poorly french speaking characters englishamerican movies act poorly amazingly enough tarantino managed make actors pull natural graceful performance actors helps put audience context historical context indeed soldiers spies civilans rarely understood soldiersspiescivilians countriesbr br visualsphotography beautiful sceneries convincingly conveying s wwii europe outfits perfect violence orgasmicallyrealistically conveyed punches held back nazis often shown tortured makes movie open audiences graphic violence shock sensitive demographic br br volumes written movie movie good north american inglorious basterds premiere fantasia festival montreal pee refused go miss one single scene hope image conveys strongly feel movie im hard audience please seeing break leg vancouver release party thought enjoyable filmbr br outright belly laughs cameos eric roberts particular scream heard word actual release date although ive heard closebr br story simple mainly vehicle characters situations script smooth seamless plot develops effortlessly acting comfortable yet fresh film least one award film festivals around sobr br highly recommend break leg every single time gets better drops much worse fim tired hearing gets better gets much worse im sick feeling okay feeling human feeling maybe actually maybe ive overcome give week maybe months im shrouded darkness hurts fucking much im tired suffering im tired getting better im tired suffering time much painful last im tired feeling comfortable im tired feeling fucking human wake stripped away almost four years first redflag attempt sometimes look back think wow ive come far agonizing sadness comes back realized ive sunk im exhausted im tired fighting ive therapy four years nothing helped im begging help id anything make go away know help exist people sadness utterly consuming throw pills try cbt dbt interpersonal residentials psych wards inpatient outpatient resilient wonder stop trying mend cracks wounds maybe born broken unfixable truly truly wretched want anymore want live want fight ive given advice boys girls hey im year old girl yes know last year teens club thats relationship year old boy lurker sub last days saw quite advice girls girl advice boys boy posts noticed things mentioned actually go vice versa genders discussion boyfriend make sure dont make assumptions ultimate guide girls boys relationships really hope help someone well clear miss understandings gender specific behavior hints confusing anything specific gender boys girls give hints cases confuses person feel crush giving hints best way find take additional step hint signal express feelings obvious way likely encourage give clarity overall feelings scary take first step yes boys girls equaly afraid take first serious step matter expressing feelings inviting date holding hands kissing boys girls equaly want one take step see causes problem sides waiting first step one scared actually brainstorming bf deciding advice give talking fellow girl friends fellow boy friends concluded cases girls wont take step girls usually feel chosen boy often think quite desperate ones take first step course case help boys understand girls rare take first steps best advice matter gender really want person significant lose take step scary might rarely end badly even rejected least know waisting time everyone shy afraid first date dates scary meeting person probably dont know well awkward wont know say best advice give ready carry conversation know hard trust commit give date better experience person willing carry conversation even better fully committed good convo worst thing assume person talk time even case probably wont give either good impression ask something try give long answers share little stories life relevant convo nobody knows kiss first kiss terrified first kiss watching kissing tutorials yt well practicing hand little secret share kissing swinging swing first time might bit confusing body carry action already know kiss least somewhat even practice first kiss go fine long dont try overdo whole idea full blown kiss bit much grasp little peck lips first kiss definitely romantic enough take slow rush late less whole advice thing trying reassure nothing wrong well teens even ies without gfbf kiss sleeping someone first relationship first kiss firsts magical special feel fully comfortable going trough dont rush see others around first kiss first boyfriend regret cuz felt rush something never back im okay now dont dwell past mistakes thought mention okay already much longer wanted stop questionsopinions welcome comments mostly used hetero relationships example post thats basing experiences hope still find useful matter gaybi etc apologize grammar native speaker formatting im mobile im going slit wrists tonightim never happy anymore literally staying alive one thing onlythe reason im still dog cant leave much want every single day feel owe stick around take care god guarantee someone love take care way id gone instant anyone want join club penguin mafia pls join guys main goal harass children snowball attacks u join thank person hates meim m everyone says im fine everyone thinks im ok friends seem person hates cant stop hating think creepy monster know im really cant help think true im fighting want stop genuinely hate pretentious mofos underground music taste bc whenever search artist monthly listeners music sounds groaning liarssss know every single one listens one direction one looking reddit logo back orange white pog logo lot im tired businesses changing logos seem socially accepted know believe want popularity ask trans girl questions idk saw uonionconsumer version remembered post today lol ask away ig filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler indefinitely grounded according father proceed situation tldr parents basically fucking hate called sorts terrible things arrested small weed possession threatening demolish social life improve situation rather know friend died redflag rather think tragic accidenti cant decide let friendsfamily know let think accident im going make day need someone see thismy thread rdepression httpredditllwe someone please read third edit comments anything help rang samaritans help cant live nothing wrong heartily endorse comments boblipton snow leopardbr br im thrilled find movie available us dvd ive seen persuaded goethe institute london show conrad veidt season years ago long see againbr br barrymore resplendent engaged movie possibly prick renowned german actor foil veidt wonderful scene stealer doesnt pick nose one point one seminal films connect dr jekyll th century grand hotel midnight cabinet dr caligari student prague spy bladk contraband casablancabr br see wish born americai saw comment someone living us saying british people mentally challenged babies born america low functioning autism might grasp basic english instead fluent language wait kill birthplace actually human born outside uk able speak basic english low functioning autism bad teeth deformed make want kill normalize calling guys sis queen girls bro dude day got flamed friends calling girl friend dude fucking matter call bro bro dude used guys drawing difficult recently got drawing never expected hardi thought draw easily followed tutorials drew abraham lincoln draw sight looks completely stupidit right hard people really character gay adds nothing plot dude character straight adds plot lmao think mom boyfriend okay right parents divorced years now mom least one bf know found saw good night text phone heart emoji asked said dating mom open kind really bother right anyways today went big lake north cali day trip another city best friend came back saw car still wasnt wondering got got back asked went went said good went friend normally tell friend specify suspicion dressed press couple nights ago heard talking guy phone got shower hung shortly got asked said friend know cant bring good mom likes help things guess know want really care marriages end divorce im obviously special case feel sad know need help trust anyonemy experiences made trust post asking help want hope solve problems mine lost frienddrinking poisonshe said easier us didnt bother pursuing friendship anymore never close begin something made really want keep friend shes life forever im drinking closest thing find toxicity label soon post tell confess crush comments whichever choice popular ill agree im go bed ill morning lets see fate store years years hardboiled warner brothers film starring young barbara stanwyck consummate master portraying machiavellian cool technique perfected eleven years later billy wilders double indemnity stanwyck plays lily powers wellworn daughter violent speakeasy owner suffocating steeltown rendered cynical numb years offered sexual favor fathers customers father dies distillery explosion hops freight train new york literally sleeps way corporate ladder bankbr br come across preposterous stanwycks blazing work deadeyed stare amoral seduction methods easy see men become addicted aggressive carnality one young men seduces along way freshfaced john wayne things accountant named jimmy mccoy melodrama gets heavyhanded toward last third film murdersuicide hushhush job paris keep lily quiet new bank president addicted lily embezzles company funds keep luxury tackedon ending somewhat disappointing stanwyck sears screen film curious touches lilys bonding friendship africanamerican woman named chico german immigrant teaches lily nietzsche philosophy regarding importance avoiding sentimentality everyone loose strands hair baliding occasionally piece hair come stressing cuz dont wan na bald soo happen everyone cant continue overi posted think recently depression gotten much serious recently diagnosed bipolar disorder ive started getting treatment ive really started decline mental health alarming rate mood swings much severe one hour im excited go home take walk outside hang friend play video game next im thinking ways kill reached peak today realized plan well several ways kill drink chemicals kitchen sink ask dad wanted target practice use shotgun blow brains overdose sleeping pills ive sleeping lot lately weekends fun friends spent sleeping parents know problems think im lazy teenager comes grades best work studies cant focus anything ive lost interest many aspects life dont see continue im terrified hospitalization hospitalized everything end life im sick good fuckup cant good grades cant even stay class anxiety falling far behind work cant take anymore want advice tried help isnt helping ive many different medications many make gain weight self esteem whatsoever im fatass bitch whos fat things enjoy cosplay bullied lot school try listen make fun potbelly want exercise im busy trying keep work grades hate wish start end ive thought running away living woods want happy intermittently want life back hate depression much going every day feeling going motions life want live id rather live life fucked right cant even kill trouble cause months think willwith girl last years happiest time life literally everything want life except kids possibility future gets amazing job offer state decide move job even though means months working licensed practice law new state okay though savings salary support us supported residency sell house okay though combined income well able afford much bigger house together things going keep going months move new state find thats online affair going year talk agrees cut contact go couples therapy repair relationship couple months go find stop talking continuing affair lying therapy confront shuts done wants leave im back old state alone ability trust anyone shattered house job decimated savings love prospects family future sleeping air mattress friends guest room want kill much burden friend clean things plan find job money together apartment go back collect things fit car house kill way stuff one easy place one deal someone living dying already executed new leaving everything sister thats plan anyone care killed myselfif killed today family wouldnt even sad theyd probably angry anything redflag frowned upon n id prolly fuck family honor cuz thats care theyd prolly try sweep rug n make look accident save face ive anything need worry bout ive pets immediate care rely folks take care least bunnies safe n thats care outstanding loans debts government individual couldnt come family money bonus least folks cant mad leaving tax man waiting always quiet one friend group dont rlly notice whenever im gone theyd prolly assume disappeared whatever accord dont blame em fault short dont think anyone rlly care even notice prolly mild annoyance worst thank coming ted talk friend caught jacking porn screen sharing oops future druggiewhy see reason live high fun ive every got double crossed friends sucks bc im freshman feel ill become druggie doesnt bother id glad give life high time charlie chaplins little tramp little man character wins world war called great war time single handedly even capturing kaiser something entire allied armed forces unable bad turns dream somewhat cop weakest part mesmerizing silent short almost feature film minutesbr br inventive gags galore including charlie put gas mask eat limburger cheese sent home using cheese weapon germans charlie sleeping underwater flooded trench next soldier continues annoy charlie disguising treeone best sketches everand charlie pretending beat friend become pow hugging enemy sightbr br one amazing feature much charlie behind enemy lines dressed german resembles hitler ten years hitler nazi thugs rose dominate german politics obviously hitler patterned appearance charlies film doubt fail attempted idea terrifies feeling mom already gone time came least close best friend lose sober streak probably start drinking left paralyzed unharmed left regret probably wish death nowof course thing stopping feel selfish leaving everyone care hate idea suicide selfish feel way care two people world know fucked gone know sure one follow footsteps probably kill themself selfdestructive habitsi wish free life wish retreat kind void empty anyone little terrified fail im gon na commit lonely luck women run dry im years old pls help watched deals gently subtly aids alluded gay life old age dying death deep beautiful movie visually special director highly recommanded question boys tf balls itchy seems okbut every fibre going torture daily immediate surrounding makes sad depressed day day many friends know make enough money change situation trapped tiny room still one listens one cares people around super selfish family friends taken granted left hanging need fresh start personal life way behind curve im sure ill make alive career end see positive changes personal life family friend relationships recent years depression cant remember last time content life wish friends remember reach genuine caring friend never type family support try reaching still blown feel alone battle suicidal depressed life supposedly best years yet chained mother life seems life go motions thing going job really hope long term finally move start living healthy normal life hate existing today woke thinking make work family hates hate never better thought better universe keep pushing dark ill dead octoberi literally cant im fucking party im lonely touched long hurts need held kissed im lonely know know dad keeps guns overdose easily maybe home know one one god damn person earth gives shit live die advice friend friend asked girl right moved away long distance freshman said perfect distance difficult wants continue pursuing together ignoring elephant room tips answer questions confession make tiktok say without doubt hate every individual reading want die hate idea people much hope god shot fuck fuck fo frankly truly wish continue suffer pathetic piece shit degenerate deserve nothing one angry epileptic seizure guys relate right right jddbtfnfbvv ggbvchh people go school covid th birthday next friday permit test planned someone school covid week quarantine meaning miss test earliest reschedule months ending tonighti walk wilderness drinks freeze quit job year long vacation im sure belong im despicable racist believe ww downfall western civilization ww nail coffin im disgusted almost every aspect modern society subversive globalist won going back downhill moonlanding bother investing children future every day spend earth grow angrier nothing left fight im happy excited passing happy world less hateful place without first saw kid little rascals first went tv year born fairly recently bought dvd watched occasions took careful notes pie fight racist parts farina nubian slave voodoo example think roach mcgowan beaten death theyd tried nowbr br notice pie fights three stooges halfwits holiday sweet pie pie resemble oneand film came years initial contract harry cohn columbia pictures obviously inspiration ss laurel hardys battle century filmsremember time stole best br br one note laurel hardy buffs bake sale lady none dorothy coburn appeared tbotcthe flapper getting car getting rear end always escapes never credited describe colors king masks beautifully told story pits familial gender preference towards males human preference love companionship set s china time floods meet wang elderly street performer whose talents magical capture awe witness famous operatic performer sees befriends wang invites wang join troupe learn wangs family tradition allows pass secrets son learning wang childless wang encouraged find heir magic lost forever taking advice heart wang purchases year old fulfill legacy teach new son doggie ancient art silk masks soon wang discovers fact doggie threatens rare dying artbr br together wang doggie create bond experience range emotions invariably accompany story absorbing setting serene costuming simple summarily international award winning art film cant help move inspire someone message im bored wan na talk someone dont mind talk numbers game send dm hey redit help im trying scarr self suggestions one gost bords fall asleep fall lipbite merry christmas australia im oregon friend australia said merry christmas life trust connection fucked upi live alone spent time alone beginning covid ive ruined first relationship ive ive felt safe genuine ways keep fucking every time less safety less trust time dont know repair moods point im completely apathetic catatonic sit one place day lose time aware horrifically dragged single minute stoned minds racing go bed dont speak anybody dont hear anyone know point im thought people im almost waiting sign permission ok make decision thing keeping going making gory emotionally uncomfortable art stuff intense enough cause loved one cry close dont really see aspect true feelings intense people love dont want burden relapsed opiate addiction midst bullshit kept hidden long kept keeping dirty junkie secrets always fucking used even dont understand obviously wanted sabotage life badly recent months ive fucking clean days much even looking heroin whole time ive even tried sneakily source case one ive taken form opiate ive sober exception weed feel better everybody life treats something using heroin partner told dont trust nature relationship vague think dont even thought person feel completely utterly unheard unseen point due constantly spiralling ways existing expressing others dont find appropriate makes uncomfortable im aware reality now feel truly end want hear reasonable way think feel fucking nuts cant tell anybody im close im going jump local viaduct m high fucked goodbyeposted days ago figured owed people read little closure guess took rest sleeping pills waiting kick wanted say thanks trying reached goodbye clearhitgage update attempt failed reply people thread replied pms eventually went called old friend thank everyone repliedpmd mother constantly forces situations awful anxiety taken therapy depression weekend shes making go pool party think making depression worse understand genuinely severe social anxietyobviously thats causing desire redflag many factors play severe social anxiety mother wont bother listen really sucks finish working overtime bonus end year im killing myselfi finally say accomplished something worked hard towards something end high note dont care youre gay straight bi pan ace sexuality focal point existence personality talking sexuality please hobby something sorting new time mission posts one comment dracula loves call new army formed death salvationi friends anyone talk aspergers adhd fear medication way treat suicidal thoughts never normal im always bullied positive social interaction social skills easy way ability kill circling draini year old male lately things feeling worse every day feel lonely desperate even single friend enjoys company friends known school days consistently forgotten organising events little sub groups dont fit relised one initiate conversations even always ina rush end left feeling increasingly worthless unwanted ans forgotten boyfriend year good guy talked every day problems didnt feel unloved didnt necessarily feel loved argued always felt pressure keep happy stress got better broke honestly thought relieved free wasnt left absolutely heartbroken dont regret breakup think things gotten worse hurt made really affected wanted keep life hoped end friends doesnt want see anymorem understandably course feel fool letting go real friend person wanted spend time work fairly dead end job dont enjoy doesnt pay particularly well often feel taken advantage feel cant anything reddit call starbucks degree real skills experience limited line work progression even leave know dobecause dream jobs nothing really interests anymore hobbies everything makes bored feel im end rope loneliness crippling every time meet someone new left disappointed took month work go vacatiom miserable whole time think noone share got married wouldnt able best man noone ask first wish plane fall sky kill car hit crossing street lately ive fantasising hanging jumping height overdosing still feel never actually thoughts come every day die people quickly id forgotten im tired let im tired crap human maybe articulate interesting fun people want around trouble talking people nothing say im shy new people mostly im boring couldnt name anythjng interesting life far meant nothing im drive cant left disappointed want gone feeling sad af rnfr feeling sad af rn wan na kill one likes everyone thinks im retarded people mourn died thats obligatory someone passes piece shit whose absence contribute better society always doubt accomplishments theres one world anything good say fault fucking stupid reason live im taking space literally anyone street much better even fuckin homeless guy family mourn theyd honestly probably better without workin boosting morale bullshit sitting th month working feel total shit people told countless times retarded never acknowledge think theyre messing around actually ive made world nuisance gon na hang months ago decided much pussy done harming others anymore every day now im fucking stupid im even aware im pussy id probably need gun method painful first want literally destroy head theres purpose one even cares life thought everyone theres nothing stop happens underneath nose cant even notice wrongi dont understand im wrong life im trying hard really still slip sometimes people always remember times mess never times succeed nobody hire date everybody stays away except small number friends even wont hang things friends important need make time jobs even grades worse mine wrong want happy successful dont even want try anymore hard worth every time something good happens potentially happens always gets ruined im tired want stop cant make stop friend relationship killed pretty depressed found girl really liked thought liked back went stayed night exes house know help comfort friend need help idk many subs kind thing thought antidepressants helpi started taking month half ago seemed working really well really really bad im dark place want see way want pain end know need make go away want feel anything anymore hey guys subreddit called rpatriciasbitches cool youd join im patricia roleplay kinda sub im running president kinda small think cool people joined want live anymoreim past years life hell monumental situation happened years ago nothing bipolar maybe cant handle feeling rest life certainly will child alcoholics severely depressed mother never showed ounce self love lovely trait given im bred hate want live know sure never different forever depressed unhappy want go day day people sense something wrong always stay away toxic im right mind everyday know worthless meaningless huge world know cant make difference know im psychological mess thats good nothing one likes around hate around live thought going rest life makes want die even theres nothing go gym everyday social life constant state nothing depression hiding everyone lose friends make manage past depression lose talk much hate life everyone moving lives falling love getting married starting families starting careers buying first homes meeting new people jobs moving new places theyre happy everything seems right everyone monumental fuck family problems anyone feel theyre unwanted unloved spend time theyre family tyla yaweh new chris brown except x better rteenagers im quirky teenager im teens listen insert s band good songs maybe modern music sucks except oliver tree today learned friend mine apparently trans boy im okay fact im proud brave enough able accept tell others came pretty big shock kind came nowhere really seemed girl beforehand im honestly hard time getting past shock wrong approach cant anyone appreciate anything dolike im fucking trying fucking happy fucking cant never im trying one fucking thing last months everyone keeps asking help ask anything answer support people none supports think im finally going end lifei never thought id make im feel ive tried long enough gave good run went therapy took meds even went hospital time felt better crash worse worse every time happiness lasts weeks back square one tell people getting sick shit constantly tell things feel guilty every day im everyone tries hard still nothing give say thank im sorry love ill try harder meaningless keep picturing downing whole bottle pills alone favorite park hanging bridge near house ive already written notes people care walk traffic think might believe accident hide notes find weeks write email write blog post set publish days now want ask help hospital expensive treatment expensive try stop means someone work cover shift parents call make excuse cant go work ill miss semester grandparents upset sad easier die point least around see happens next told friend id see today im scared cancel itll better find dead ive run excuses siblings home school ill catch bus something want find body got ta finish notes first kind want eat one last big meal maybe take nice hot bath one last time maybe ill go catch movie go pet store look cute animals one time take one last walk park go museum one last time want make last day nice feel lot calmer knowing end feel serene knowing pain anymore im gon na make peaceful last day thanks reading update last post sub redditi sent mental hospital good days honestly best decision made life got better meds help mental health issues made friends going hang got good eating habit realized im loved around better way living working yoga going outside hobbies enjoy hospital experience good picnic lot time reflect got point helpful really know many care im better sometimes ok help yall matter even think dont writing suicide notes family friends months every time meant written last one said need actually ok dying time part still wants live done trying given done hurting done alone good bye feel despite deciding kill piece diedi planned nice last day lake killing new years eve ended deciding feels part still went barely motivated leave bed feel numb even know sleep much always tired anywayampxbgthelp melt wanted something productive today slept h hey guys crazy idea got saves much time make sure check dont enough time day sleep need okay dont enough time day classes combined two im sleeping class now fucking wonders best thing myselfis end suffering waiting perfect time roses red grow grass give chance ill cum ass bro skeleton missed little ampxb httpspreviewredditftkjxtpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsdebdfeecdcafafddf scared commit redflagim planning lifes gone shit havent slept last days keep taking random pills want destroy life convince od friends films la bte aka beast o monstroonly done old continent film see horses dirty sex nymphomaniac kind gorilla non sense dialogs etc etc etc serious terms nowits allegory men sometimes bestial visceral brutalwalerian borowczyk director shows us loss innocence sexual violence rape brutality astonishing cinematic experience bizarre full grotesque scenes fans european shocking exploitation recommend filmif one recommend orloff invisible man alterated states update went miles check previous posts context hey good day anyone feel subreddit besides teenagers really mean ive noticed reddit maybe two years every time post another subreddit people really cruel tried posting ask reddit post got trolled hell direct messages filled really hateful stuff tried posting life pro tips literally entire comments filled people calling bad person understand perspective wish willing bit nicer every time try posting casual conversations post gets removed facilitating conversation even though make effort include phrases anyone relate anyone different perspective honestly feel impossible interact reddit community without delete half posts avoid opening direct messages maybe thats collateral damage teenage girl internet dont understand way everyone always talks social media terrible fake literally every social media ive nicer accepting reddit made arbitrary rules cant talk instagram account use emojis frankly anything without receiving public hate find teenagers subreddit people react posts without immediately trying think hate comment hit hardest know reaction post going stop using reddit thats entirely valid reddit provides unique community interact people share specific passions opinions dont want loose may true im sensitive need learn take joke fault first place posts suck even fact im making post know cant person feels alienated community thought find acceptance want people know theyre alone thank teenagers subreddit downvoting posts hell half time hope future reddit little accepting miss guy treated shitwe friends doesnt matter thought close lied stole shit tried break room months ive got place now still think miss good moments know didnt really care cause wouldnt done shit dont go much cause im afraid running places used go brain dumb dumb help m came xvideos turned phone watched aot came downstairs phone completely forgetting previously watching mum sat living room along dad sister turned phone show watching boring greeted loudest moan accompanied quote fuck daddy uh uh uh uh entire family looked utter disgust immediately tried turning sound phones volume buttons lagged closed browser got left room sat bedroom make situation better kmbywtr sceoncei start ampxb planning kill self ampxb aye b talked ayem intoxicated ampxb cyber criminales ampxb aye serious troll ampxb don furget howe de creeater uf tis websyte dyed rip aaron swartz remember evor ampxb u ax aye wont tell u wat ive dun tat incriminating ampxb question ne tink im useful may wana sayve late im mean nothing personal im cunt except know thought going lousy movie honestly mean rupert grint ron acting movie different harry potter actually really difficult picture movie started showed guy talent mean best actor hp trio reference seen emma watson trying act daniels acting lack experience even though acted million harry potter movies ben character shy boy incapable showing true feelings everything despise ruling mom resentful anger towards father unable step confront unfaithful wife julie walters absolutely brilliant interpretation old retired actress trying live shadow past tries remember shakespearian sonnets absolutely wonderful appears many youth wasted religious nonsense acts best way shoot yourselfwouldnt shooting top skull cause destructive woundcompared mouth side head chin ive heard aiming back head chin mouthful water even effective either normal methods bullet fails bullet travelling water produces large shockwave failsafesaid shotgun blast using large bullets ampxb brainstem slightly away shooting downward see reason itd much harder aim top head simply thick bullet travel straight even large caliber guns longer bullet travel brainstem large hollow point bullet expand causing larger wounds right reason ive never heard anyone shooting downward skulls water mouth boredom apathyim suicidal thoughts idk side affects medication somethings really wrong mech war games pretty good cheap robot fights worth seeing ive enjoyed mech war field time pretty much movie ive seen come close feeling pilot one huge mechs genera games mech warrior three four xbox spare steel battalion movie worth seeing least really needs movies theme less remakes original works br br enjoy lost hopehaving spent many years trying figure right medications right doses psychiatrist give want keep trying even right meds know eventually screw fuck able recover bother anymoreif life nutshell basicly disappointment failure seeing people dont give shit anyone anything success bother dont know countries country end school year coming im trying hardest fix grades everything try massive failure redflag maybe finally snap didnt know seek help im posting best advice keep going way calm failures problems keep piling actual fuck supposed white arabian horse cant fucking find rdr btw done reallylifes getting much thinking writing help thoughts lingering starting feel comforted idea existing cant tell anyone embarrassment cant go nowhere seek help people responsible downright refuse issues anyone knew felt able face world love rush disappointing everyone around feels nice even therapist fucking mad lmao got ta live name ig guys think fat shaming curious see people actually think fat shaming good thing filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler want say woman pussy im cool woman dick im cool guy dick im cool guy pussy im cool enby dick im cool enby pussy im cool person people parts im cool please love europe received quite shock luis bunuels lage dor released causing riot paris screened thereresulting banned something forty years three years laterin europe gotten shockit turned ear ekstasea symphony sortsto love film starred youngunknown german actress named hedwig kieslerwho later change name hedy lamarrwhen moved america escape madness adolf hitleras evaa young bride married colddistant loveless husband played emil jermanonly discover made major mistake one divorce latereva footloose fancy free one day skinny dipping lakewhen discovers adama handsomeyoung engineer played aribert mogwho takes real fancy shehim wild night passionevas exhusband turns againhoping win eva backonly find rival spoil transpires czech director gustav machaty directed original screen version madam xanother parable romantic obsession directs screenplay jacques koerpelfrantisek horky machatyfrom novel robert horky films velvety cinematography reminded avant garde photographerman rays photos erawhich goes impressionistic use light shadowa lotis hans androschin jan stallich films brisk editing antonin zelenka films art direction goes lushnearly art deco lookis bohumil hes quirk film music scoreby giuseppe beccewhich goes topmelodramatic feel gets old fast certain themes repeated againwearing welcomefastkind david leans use certain musical themesespecially lawrence arabiaand drzhivago years backa brand new restored print made best source materialcobbled together various european existing prints availablerestoring quite possibly closest version originally looked vatican condemned decadent yeahrightlike church never anything wrongand hayes office cut ribbonswhen finally released usa hayes office approved cut likewise minimal dialog german english subtitles meant mainly visual experience ratedbut contains infamous nude skinny dipping scene hedy lamarr done tastefullymind suggestions sexual content likewisethat scarcely earn pg ratingnowadays worth look interest early european cinemaor avant gardeexperimental cinema optionsi want call hotline talk somebody phone service great fun went friends sneak preview viewing film came see different one minutes wondering heck got time jokes became funny stayed funny throughout movie first part keep asking malinski bellini stuff many examples lingo keep repeating jokes different twists funnier funnier search malinski main characters introduced first one even wackier next half film even know name movie opening credits went sneak viewing sure good time house loaded appr people think half half loved film weird comical movies great dialogue love apart clooney movie deserves lot better imdb rating time write ppl seen sure go reasonable guess give beersbr br im going tonighti enough girlfriend broke happy long time im im im way target buy helium im going asphyxiation guilty pleasure watching duckus catfish predators discord think really enjoys roleplaying tho tbh wwow ii idk u guys prolly dunno im talking hi lti brain damage makes want die used really good writer went school got close published couple times horrible combination alcoholism anorexia concussions really fucked mri year ago told brain much away skull supposed age meaning shrinkingwhich p typical ppl eating disorders substance abuse problems happened quickly casei fact auditory even visual hallucinations occasionally chalked fear call lolanyway quit drinking alone coldturkey lmaoi recommend xd eating pretty normally year last concussion still focus well enough read write much anything every time try now ends crying thinki trying fill hole passion writing used go volunteer work stuff even quit job went back school pursuit whole new career change fact feel completely useless comes one thing care care peoplei know sounds stupid feel burnt already even thirty afraid going worse older already totally incapable remembering parked car without writing lmfao anywhere without gps even though lived city years next going start forgetting peoplei know scared make doctors appointment think rather die go senile time forty lmfao know want fucking brain back basically one thing body regenerate lol never think really able write pretty sure even post probably makes sensei going kill right now anything found really hard lately motivate back swing things feel know feel former reason living gonei guess live life physical way now extra set hands organization cook exercise person anymore deeply deeply upsets meif courage kill right feel anymore anyway god im fcking thirsty dont mean sexual way feel drink one liter water help much sleep paralysis ive three times row every time gets worse physical always feel even im actually scared go sleep right feel im gon na murdered next one much plan killing july stive lot fucked shit happen whole life year worst year life literally tried right everyone somehow someway always fucked cant even remember happy feels anymore dont think want anymore ive second thoughts family friends thing forgotten never really important told things didnt better july st gon na almost feel one convince might even one last posts made dont think missed feel bad couldnt live trauma anymore wish life couldve different im goodive real bad week ive struggled depression long remember think im lose fight ive declining years im basically even real person anymore empty robot nothing happened push overtaken completely making plans week cant anymore guess world think im going leave monday know probably seems nonsense makes sense thanks reading aita manipulating boyfriend promise title sounds worse pretty much started months ago first started dating ill call cfake name go hiking trail hang walking around talking awkward stage wanting kiss initiating least thats wha thought lot staring lips waiting moment came got really tired every single time c wouldnt kiss naive ignorant seemed annoy started even think mouth getting freakishly small everything annoyed way ate chocolate way broke apart food put right track thats good person right first real relationship c girlfriends dont matter anymore im matters now started small things make sit left scroll list truth dares said kiss person left kissed stop awkwardly turned away kind giggled heres think im ah c laughed vulnerable open looked away thought ugly couldnt believe upset heres might make ah whenever walked sidebyside casually said something hey holding hands meant demeaning possible even dating dont affectionate whats wrong first time c took hint started holding hand kept laughing starting make angry im trying hard break backbone hes three steps ahead dont know crush spirit yet tldr reason guy interested talking caught feelings kissed one day dating im really happy want shout roof tops jump around questioning driving insane much ready go minute nowyoull figure youll know time right cant stand answers anymore intrusive thoughts ocd cureable means never figure people sick tired pain leave feel quick venting stop soon try talk issues reciprocate loose interest dont blame feel burden let alone others wake everyday set date die cant go cant eat cant sleep even hard breathe reading suggestions possibly life changinghello im assuming us still receptive hope im sharing potentially life altering books neuroplasticity changing brain waves hope 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sorry im sorry years saying dont think much meaning anymore dont blame never will know dont burden anymore take comfort thought right now need supportwell right knife next talking brother depression social anxiety yet another family member blown saying normal ive already tried kill twice told family feel alone much social anxiety go see doctor honestly idea point really use words encouragement please help maybe guys careim fucking dyin man cant tell anyone know theyll worry much falling apart im sorry prison cellfour prisonerscarrerea young company director accused fraud year old transsexual process transformation daisya yearold mentally challenged idiot savant lassallea yearold intellectual murdered wifebehind stone slab cellmysteriously pulled loosethey discovered bookthe diary former prisonerdanverswho occupied cell beginning centurythe diary contains magic formulas supposedly enable prisoners escapemalefique one creepiest intelligent horror films seen yearthe film grimyshadowy feel influenced works hp lovecraftwhich makes creepy unsettling atmospherethere fair amount gore involved imaginative brutal death scenes characters four prisoners surprisingly welldevelopedits shame eric valette made truly horrible remake one missed call stunning debut br br mild spoilers aheadbr br dive dawn english made movie john mills lead role second time watched dvd version big screen tv must say movie better thought first time saw samll screen may big screen viewing helpedbr br still say first segments movie muddled submarine leaves dock begins mission movie takes search german battleship named brandenburg adventures went along absorbing detail shown movie interestingbr br im increasing rating enjoy ww ii films think find one interesting submarine gets underway men sub quite sense humor die wish someone shoot im sick apologizing sht ive never done never im angry sides argument right now whether white racism black citizens mistreatment natives misogyny fcking tired apologize things involvement misogynists racists etc stop garbage human grow tf treat people respect human piece filth victims racism sexism etc stop blaming people today things happened hundreds years ago done people connection understand upset things happened fault fault blacks beaten murdered discriminated fault indians near wiped women fault unrealistic societal standards treated horribly things never never will apologized people want help makes feel garbage treated sht things involvement stop getting pissed horrible people deserve sorry treated horribly im done apologizing things slave owners dead everyone mistreated natives dead done shut hell already need someone join gta lobby hang vehicle cargo missions im year old american guy matters gladly chit chat topics politics cars really anything tbh im xbox gamer tag misumat love air oh shit oh fuck anyone loves russ underrated rapper really love songs wondering anyone hate awards im correct awards feel ive hit rock bottomabout week ago felt great things really started look asked girl really prom said yes spring break close plans friends past couple days though ive feel shit ive never felt bad ive seriously started thinking ways end good lord ended dvd player ill never knowmy wife thought new release shed missed somehownevermind couple years old danish think kept looking english soundtrackbr br allthe film bad good production valuesbetter performances clever story far away make tidy darkhumored fare across sea ending make chucklein fact whole film will incredibly strange characters grow genuinely interested make film might worth whilewithout spoiling plot films title dvd jacket give good idea thing going think cope health problems keep getting thought absolutely useless meaningless everyone anymore keep trying make happy want endi really trying past shit thats happening life break girlfriend exams fainting public place one bothering help adds overwhelming urge end sit day trying friday girlfriend probably dump sit looking forums say breaksbreakups know heart slight hope taking back haunting much cope cant pain huge possibly know made another post yesterday know accept love love part rather die accept lifes realities fucks badly dunno long take blanketive let many people around ive let go mentallythe think think anymore go blanket shes shiny pretty sharp seems thing gives relief time thing want support family seems care less giving im failing schooli call feel go numb everydayi feel burden ive called useless im starting believe iti want let gobut time hope time comes ill someone help stop myselfsomeone understands tiktok destroying brain cells hate tiktok hate us make peace em th best friends little sister kind nerd serious working good grades downloaded tiktok started cringy hand dance posting pics videos thot things luckily friend keeps totally dumb another exemple nearly crush shy girl class always drawing pretty introverted talked necessary downloaded tiktok bruh personality change cringy tiktok fortnite dances getting dumb friends became loud totally changed clothes style ok late cant saved lost interest simp class tiktok stuff lets talk tiktok brain cell destroying virus spreading girl girl sometimes unvaccinated guys guys real pandemic isnt coronavirus fucking shit named tiktok every women earth tiktokers swear turn chinese monk staying alone rest life excellent film great performances zack lochley much displeasure mine garibaldi arrived station due respect jerry doyle seasons lost sympathy character take long start criticizing zack love best showand taking charge im sure zack coped soulhunter plot fascinating especially believe heaven zack humour supplements nicely youre good hope gets better soon promise better youre amazing hope everything works really really reallly reallly realllllly want fucking die badyet im still afraid end pathetic burden filled existence fuck survival instincts time take fuckin step back tik tokshoot ik came across video girl telling people slash tires knife slash last different knife done fraud even joke psycho deadass gunna says give nicotine gum without knowing hes away feels shit bro nicotine isnt something fuck fuckin end shit shouldnt said im thinking guys worry false rape allegations set fraud secretly addicted highly addictive substance bro idc joke psycho deadass gunna idea psycho banshee bitch id rather dick poked rusty needles date toxic ass andddd fuckin cherry top tells people rid hickeys finna cheat dude addicted nicotine frame fraud cheat tldr people telling others frame people fraud addicted nicotine partner wont leave rid hickeys anyone regret horny posts theyre horny anymore filler fillher fillher fill cum decide hole okay ill probably delete post horny one mean care hurt family one day commit redflag tbh one reasons want lack purposethere certain emptiness pinpoint cause know possible consequences something tempted twice eternal oblivion want fucking diei hate away school hate home ive always wanted die option gets appealing every day weak staying strong realizing amount lifes bullshit want withstand dont want live anymore think thats totally valid du rififi chez les hommes brilliant film studies criminal minds allows viewers better understanding criminals fundamentally different ordinary folks uswhat director jules dassin shows criminal families care lot themthat adhere strict code honor family made wivesmistresses children include casual acquaintances close friendscontrary many might find hard believejules dassin tried glorify crime film rififi makes clear crime never paysit shows kinds bad activities result kind human lossapart philosophical stance rifif worth watching technical finessewhile watching one films brilliant sequences breaking safeone find hard believe meticulous precision criminal minds execute plansthis scene nobody dared copy hollywood dont know keep posting herei know realistically doesnt anything good cant stop guess im fantasizing world anyone actually cares isnt one ill tell wake morning first thought mind drugs alcohol hundreds people hate genuinely happy kill stalkers hate havent decent sleep years dont know im still didnt know better id say im stupid hedonistic part loves drunk opioids end nothing wrote matters nothing ive done matters dont matter dont know im posting one intriguing aspects historical drama way tories british american loyalists portrayed sort gloss given ardent support king george iii many ways american revolution definitely family affair wealthier colonial families split asunder strong criticism made film perhaps people story made little bit nicer real lifebr br regards actions character major boulton played cornel wilde make least likable member cast flaw storyline seems vary prickly kind patriot kind anything cause fellow film concentrate heavily notions personal honor personal prestige major social norm day agebr br subtext fact twentyfive percent colonial population decidedly probritish glossed strength tory element obviously maligned although good doctor character eightyfive percent upper class twit steal fine phrase monty pythons flying circus anne francis whole lot rather thin section script stands good choice woman divided loyalties gal rather modern social conventions day might allowed life death struggle going onbr br one good aspect film way rivalries american revolutionary leaders degenerated outright jealousies personal conflicts nearly sabotaged entire revolutionary effort leading characters well drawn minor characters human props fight scenes believable enough carry dramatic actionbr br great spy movie quite great historical drama satisfy well enough rates seven largely cornel wilde deeply immersed role well anne francis makes supporting effortbr br color print used turner classic movies clear well enjoyable presentation important regardbr br hope runs soon buy converses new board filler filler filler filler filler whywhy thoughts depressed got great job beautiful wife beautiful kids feel im stereotype people dream inside im dying dont want anymore want actually want end life died accidental overdose died crash id ok wishing death cant shake feelings coming friends follow right anyone knows irl sees hi bi dress feminine please let know see thats might delete post later idk mg xanax l wine want wake kill cant anymorei even energy explain situation wanted say never felt alone worthless life now family shitty toxix stuck shitty house feel prisoner body hurts cuz even move properly anymore bed hurts body head permanent state dizziness wish one gives shit feel clown times spend explaining problems people thought care blabbering joke needs important worse parasite feel ill im depressed anything iti feel im dying serious illness thats sucking life im pretty sure kidney disease kidney stone years ago resulted infection rounds antibiotics avail eaten meals past days meal generous bowl oatmeal im weigh pounds right now feel weak tired im wasting away willpower anything go hospital blood workurinalysis done im sitting computer years nothing think im scared might actually something seriously wrong know face feel giving honestly gave years ago im barely surviving now cyberbullying workshop start ive marked rant think fits post best advice appreciated way mother recently went cyberbullying workshop feel mum making much fuss sort stuff now came home sat gave half hour lecture bullying social media different person bullying one kid tell parents bullied receiving text messages committing redflag fourth day happening cyberbullying different cant away way stop cyberbullying happening feel massive overreaction part partially caused misinformation tells guy workshop mid s ended allowed phone room overnight apparently let social media influence teenager wont tell parents see account real name actually social media accounts real name ones made school ive told know yet reason people school still know send death threats sht feel mum massively overreacting guys experiences sleep offmg dexamphetamine mg escitalopram mg quetiapine mg diphenhydramine anyone keep note ur fav copypastas valuable tbh filler started watching kdramas quarantine theyre cute agsgsijx way girls say ann yeong haseyo hxhsj donelife pretty much backed corner ive run options lost job years ago ex long ago decided make good threat ruining life contacted employer made story meeting women raping police involved went nothing happened able recover entire personality changed terrified many situations five years still hard even leave house continue living matter catch break seem find job life insurance die family least planned look redflag worries ive really learned friends ive learned one wants anything youre ways end lifehi theredont know startbut heres short life story happy lifegot married daughtera real princess years old now somehow someday year ago fucked everything cause started usong cocaine wife took daughter left mei debt lost marriagelost daughter moment taking last cocaine line thining end life really exitbut simply want look exists tnis meaningless world suffered lotdont want anymore suffering live th floor jump ill scare pot people im thinking taking around valium pills ambien pills mix one feels numb moment absolutely motivation anything want socialize anythingmy depression comes waves constantly suicidal states long felt shit isolation covid think lack human contact sent spiraling feeling worthlessness walk around feeling exist couple people actually care numb im really stressed rn idk things going great life rn im happy problems yet feel really stressed idea wish baby sister forget memy siblings fine newly incredibly stressed god know dealt wan na age think reason gone woods revolver dad siblings deal mom chalk bullshit im sure ive finished glass full rum hopefully sleep now goddamn wish wake almost closed tab instead posting fuck kj presents wave compilation shower thoughts almost daily part know kinda music really cant hard make many people got boned past minutes bet someone government seen search history quit happens die seriously please tell im scared dying black lives matter way life others likes instagram tall england overrated celebrities wave look mirror woah im insert celebrity name god pornstars reshoot scenes sometimes bet sex gets really tedious sometimes literally thing simpsons got cancelled really scared death timetravel fact exist never notice timeline change entire lives rewritten wed never notice clouds fckin cool sixseasonsadamovie means six seasons movie americans look music look drill music needs clout minecraft die im damn horny females underrated big em prison hard edit might got bare ammo lol cling cling cling cling cling clang clang cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling still dre day nigga ak nigga though ive grown lot cant keep home lot cause frequent spots im known rock hear bass truck im block ladies pay homage haters say dre fell nigga last album chronic nigga want know still got say raps changed wan na know feel aint thangs dr dre name im ahead game still puffing leafs still fuck beats still loving police still rock khakis cuff crease still got love streets reppin life still beats bang still thang left aint much changed still im damn unlucky wtf literally nothing goes well nothing going long hell sister messed sister legit looked said two eyebrows started lmaoing mom shemy sister said mean one eye haha xd want kill dont know whyive depressed wanting kill years idea parents love everything hope everyday contemplate stealing key dads gun case ending cry sleep every night dont care anything life anymore dont care school weight issue life think might school even summer time im happy smoke overall want end im pregnant boyfriend left really want diei idea boyfriend dating almost year pretty good found pregnant suddenly became different person left says wanted abortion im alone scared know mistake want tell anyone feel im worthless ill go buy rope tomorrow school im planning redflag want make sure im going die real want saved life hard birth control important stupid allaround superb film moving experience filled real life emotion theres lessons learned love sex work religion american culture regardless ones sexual preferencebr br film scathing indictment mormons church latter day saints belief system conservative faith easily take place bit ironic homosexuality currently condemned mormons uncertain terms heres faith mandated generations believers practice polygamy true believers gave practice forced federal government order utah join union talk unique form hypocrisy br br sex scenes portrayed unrated version tasteful surprisingly brief theres nothing offend anyone open mindbr br film makes obvious homosexuality perfectly natural people gay heterosexuality people straight love sex obviously quite different needs absolutely beautiful beyond words occur time two adults profound erotic love one lifes precious gifts congratulations filmmakers job well done hey everyone keep checking tell whatcha anything interesting happened comment thats ok love anyone got random scars alot faded now sometimes wake random cuts one nose long slim cut shoulder faded anyone experience manipulation tacticsim entirely sure im expecting thisits probably pointless waste time maybe writing things helpful maybe selfdefeating even know theres practical advice give seeing im even willing share incredibly shallow perspective hope take word id rather go people usually start sort thing ask everyone hate meaning sound calloused kind cliche wondering true anyways reason ask feel little place feeling opposite know people love thats im always trying escape im insincere twofaced hypocritical socialdevelopment involved putting walls hardly tell whether im honest think helps make manipulative realize manipulative best friend became drug addict killed knows maybe im trying manipulate relieving conscience enough kill id probably end stopping short redflag sympathy attention others feel better work take painkillers use cannabis back injury got working really drink much though friend died im religious feel distant things value doubts fear frustration pain im friendless ive lost sense community future hope thoughts eaten away conscience ive left feeling empty anxious afraid wanted feel better want happy sucks things much worse thought already bad realize bad times best times life memories cherish forever well forever long want remember anymore changei posted rdepression sorry shows twice year old man depressed suicidal come bullied lot pushed people away small due growing community removed people age completely ruined development social skills years trouble people talking functioning human picking social queues making eye contact people friends long stretch time probably none physically online really two right infrequent anything overweight lbs balding quite noticeably poor skin never wanted anyone hugged kissed nothing never felt validation terrified never will dad thinks useless failure freak mom loves really pities halves family share views loss right now know hope want want normal friends feel loved someone cant feel happy unless someone cares one care despise hate find hard consistent weight loss eating well amp exercise always falter went im back feel im stuck cant unstick die need help need way break cycle want know feel loved care enough fix way look much please help play music monkey comes monkey always comes play music life isnt even bearable anymoreive much pain years old years later im still pain know people worse know people experience things worse ive experienced im sick hearing im sick hearing feelings arent fucking valid im young moment wake moment go bed im much emotional pain hard cope theres always heavy weight chest suicidal thoughts race head im sick living im fucking tired life long pain gon na last doesnt end im tiny insignificant dot universe wouldnt matter gone anyway ive gone inpatient hospitalizations countless medication changes two therapists almost crisis evaluations multiple redflag attempts etc im sick hearing life worth living thats fucking joke im sick hearing life matters doesnt im one billion people planet gon na make difference everything getting worse theres way everyone says gon na last forever fuck please literally feels effort move body point things used effortless require enormous amounts energy even build energy normally dont normally cant nobody understands serious getting either try hard scream help nobody realizes bad cant much longer im years worth tired tldr im kinda wan na die ive lost energy live gon na better life doesnt matter etc relapse overdosei cant take anymore future im tired anyone ive put many years trying better bunch bullshit im alone another two hours im ready take pills hate miserable fucking earth number day day guys rn long story tldr want die im failureso interested reading grab popcorn soda tea sit story became failure ampxb moment im years old im third world country want die ampxb starts typical suicidal story shy skinny kid kind low physical capabilities high intelligence humble time judge little country everyone soccer father got little brother practicing lot little even though supposedly kind good quite sports general enjoyed peaceful environment quite know kind things free time knew soccer school focused school everyone elementary school lot soccer reunited play join think consider worth bond something forward high school changed schools mom got arguments teachers principal befriend heavily anyone really care brother hand social went visit school couple times ampxb situation high school elementary school people liked soccer soccer played every afternoon didnt still soccer btw grew really shy talking new people help kind weird people classroom friends little brother years apart ampxb country prep school thing countries highschool rule universities entrance exams already finished highschool take top enter people take years prepare exams passed finishing highschool think much hadhave kind low selfesteem care anymore matter enter university turned next month tho ampxb private school family kind low income support program around dollars month still kind expensive tho ampxb now know said know enjoy free time kid thing know actually wanted every way hobby goal anything wanted life kind feeling empty career choice wondering around wikipedia ampxb side note uncle professional parents arent mom helped lot college years supported lot paid half english lessons half university monthly fee forgot appropriate word ampxb started think life actually liked study good anything started go classes wondered around campus thinking go evaluations kind feeling everybody wanted mean bad want children study know kind confusing friends neither everyone soccer hated game point ampxb end semester failed classes want study want embarrassment parents uncle put lot money failed still reluctant asked give another chance started second semester ampxb second semester still study new pressure ampxb university rules expelled fail class times expelled finish general studies semesters curriculum maximum semesters expelled general studies fail times ampxb want study career chose pressure want failure always felt everyone high expectations money invested ampxb head mess ampxb failed classes semester ampxb want continue wasting everybodys money hopes left university ampxb turned year started working call center hated job ampxb getting end year hospitalized tumor behind nose cancer ampxb money earned lot parents relatives went surgery ampxb near death experience give strength hopes try wanted pay back money spend convinced go college parents believed gave new chance uncle part time cant blame went back continue journey ampxb first new semester passed everything second new semester failed class third new semester passed everything ampxb fourth new semester story continues ampxb thing university merit system best qualifed students priority choosing classes went remember failed lot ampxb series courses passed particular order intro physics physics ampxb one last students one semester physics class ampxb th official semester physics calculus elective digital design ampxb needed complete physics one class finish general studies record clean semester left really stressed kind okey ampxb thing even failed class even class physics yet take classes summer vacations one december february maximum priority order exception people finish got priority failed take physics summer physics regular semester ampxb digital design group class one student group clueless people campus anything shy say something even teacher hate know reverse time still able say anything ill see hell ampxb failed physics digital design ampxb ampxb brother entered college years preparation goes parties every titular still official general course soccer team uncle paying half monthly fee average student ampxb months every parents indirectly mention disappointed reason cant find job clean house help parents every way nothing going enough one talk never make friend talk problems got anime videogames scape reality started college mom always hated always room laptop gift uncle entered college never hobby enjoy fake reality felt bad encouraged brothers soccer hobby told hobby bad mean understand sports healthy soccer home relaxed allowed one thing enjoyed supposed ampxb feel bad im using laptop avoid nothing one talk professional future even crappy job im allowed enjoy hobby morally speaking im unemployed cant home playing day ampxb wanted see videogame development career available institutes country shit regular one even expensive college parents focus paying brothers education even willing give another chancethat ask able afford cant afford even got crappy job minimum wage half regular institute costs work years pay year career rd world country regular institute high hopes jobs even ampxb ampxb im problem parents still spend money maintain alive food im giving anything return nothing current life nothing everything owe ampxb better brother better version everyone hoped ampxb hate life hate fact lost everything ampxb hate money repay everyone gave support disappoint ampxb hate able make friends maybe tried soccer mean hate least made friends know maybe got parties drinking taste alcohol cigarettes although really care people surrounding feel really comfortable big parties ampxb always wanted die tired pressure always verge expelled feeling expelled everything tried kill multiple times part im coward want feel physical pain felt go without paying back ampxb pay back cant tired ive stupid journey even asked im paying first semester mistake know know now nowhere go nothing ampxb even know told first half life think relevant even want go erase im phone ampxb post gets deleted care wanted write somewhere think omitted things know put counts summary guess ampxb well im go probably kill right now ill wait morning maybe first car im riding around subaru outback right now sitting backyard year dirty dog hairs drivers seat tear looking good theyre asking telling idk care probaly excited keeping political views aside feroz khan anil kapoors gandhi father good movie cleverly explores confusedtowardsfamily side mohandas karamchand gandhi fight eldest son harilal gandhi society largerthanlife father importantly demons head one draws parallels gandhi father nation struggles son fatherbr br acting good shefali shetty darshan zariwala akshaye khannastrictly order add color pathos heart wrenching tale harilal weeps hugged runs away faintest touch fingerbr br feroz khans direction production canvas lavish attractive screenplay couldve tighter seen play years ago pirated video type dvd called mahatama vs gandhi think certainly gripping though movies background score fatherson motherson moments brilliant treatbr br movie great borderline potential huge story differences father son gandhi even somewhere plot lost expect absolute epitome emotions nothing comes youbr br compares decently gandhis certainly overview film kingsleys gandhior abstract kamal hassans hey ram film manages find footing one left wondering worth watch retired medicalhealth field toiler vinyard never tired seeing film paddy chayefsky friend college comp teacher visited us several clases back writing ability stood test time hospital fresh watch every week still find something new many supporting cast members went unto bigger better roles tv film george scott made comedies timing patter good jackie gleason steve msrtin mental humour rather physcialslapstick wins book every time still family film four letter word entire film hopefully post allowed anyone wants talk otp direct message ur literally wan na talk someone idk make friend couple years back purchased enjoyed mgm doublefeature dvd two kolchak tv movies night stalker night strangler universal set subsequent tv series came intended buy immediately rumors playback issues dreaded dvds kept adding collection recently placed online order consisted spate discounted universal box sets decided pick kolchak discer wellbr br watched now safely say didnt regret acquiring beloved shortlived crimehorror series one bit may follow standardized formula dogged resourceful newspaperman carl kolchak marvelously played darren mcgavin gets everybodys hair attitude flustered editor simon oakland longsuffering colleagues assorted authoritarian figures plethora monsters villains faces inevitable usually supernatural threat alone finally pressured keeping story wraps winning one boosted impressive lineup guest stars notable behindthescenes credits making show great deal funbr br said quality varies one episode another modest budgets afforded results special makeup effects sometimes leave lot desired instance werewolf eponymous entry goofy alligator creature last installment mention fact restricted minute programmes intended family consumption boot rather precludes simplified wholesome rendering often intriguing psychological metaphysical themes case werewolf hes never seen biting anyone somewhat foolishly made merely throw people around br br heros cynical narration lot pull one fanciful plots theres healthy dose comedy relief involved episode often exclusively revolving around mcgavins relationship either oakland geeky reporter jack grinnage say nothing reasonable atmosphere setting part chicago suspense make ride even pleasant theres bouncy score gil melle jerry fieldingbr br record monsters encountered always defeated kolchak throughout series revived jack ripper variety cults voodoo native american aztec aliens vampire werewolf going round overfamiliar concept particular episode entirely set cruiseliner doppelganger satanist swamp creature mass electricity robot apeman witch headless motorcyclist succubus knights armor taking murderous life episode perhaps best supporting cast featuring john dehner morose police captain hans conried robert emhardt helen troy crocodile actors playing kolchaks coworkers return roles keenan wynn ramon bieri officers law john fiedler shrewd morgue attendant richard kiel two distinct nemeses hero pressed choose finest entertaining episodes id lean towards horror heights costarring phil silvers abraham sofaer aforementioned knightly murders weakest id go werewolf due reasons ive already explained chopper based story concocted robert zemeckis bob galebr br unfortunately set contains extras nice see featurette discussing numerous concepts dealt kolchak night stalker well putting series context tv time original airing even denoting lasting influence apparently endless run scifi series popular today fact kolchak much younger ostensibly darker guise returned revival version available local dvd rental outletbut various reasons im sure id want check soon classic keep happening almost everytime want share photo keeps saying unable send photo know lets play small game idk im bored parent comment asks question child answers grandchild finally asks question answered repeat case wan na play imaginary cookie nice day stay hydrated guy gal nonbinary pal want end death better liferight go im year old girl go topnotch private school aus im terrible kid slam doors scream try run away things parents punish right punisment methods hurt twice past year dads hit head hard ive gone dizzy thrown yesterday mum beat shoe back right arm sore begging stop wouldnt theres verbal punisment parents threaten killhurt continuously mum constantly tells kill sister loves dearly never tells set fire break neck kill etc recently ive wanted end life times seems nothing better everythings fault everything hurts ive seriously contemplated redflag times though know ill never yesterday car mum yelled crying backseat truckie saw looked anything didnt anything ive thought time hurts even worse ive spent nights bathroom know go leave house back ambulance mostly though parents really nice buy lot things pay heighty school fees stuff happens rarely happens terrible im begging life yknow think seeing beg sometimes force onto knees know im probably another spoilt little kid eyes im old considered child anymore really serious im actually scared life one day im sure parents something well regret yesterday called dhs parents found told theyve done said stupid ungrateful slut legal killed now felt ashamed wanted die sorry long seriously im barely teenager yet hurt please tell want go cops dhs option good filmbr br managed pick dvd local store sale seems good deal thing film named kill took little detective work find original namebr br uk rated rightly although standard films depends ability sell seen final destination last night view br br maybe fact delightful traci lords tends make classification board step shamebr br traci great actress given chance appear bigger large budget productions ability turn branded bmovies fine performance nothing short amazingbr br long live traci lords incredible talent actress ive got todaymy family care think big fat joke ive suicidal long pain much need guts im going go either front train motorway fuck driver even care anymore makes bad person great itll one less person world fashion sense pain want emo black maybe tints white ceo hot topic kind vibe without much stuff tho want pirate mean frilly top thingy corset high heels tight pants ya know im gon na lose nnn keep edging balls hurt lot kinda wan na lose virginity along politely ask girl sex friend risk ruining friendships ventexplanation guessso may first last post im sure say guess right point im thinking downing three bottles antidepressants mickey rye tonight intent obvious ive come realisation useless cant anything talents cant even collage fucks sake im fucking lazy ive disappointed everyone one many times im damn lost life course im afraid kill im sure father hates mother abandoned dont friends guess want make sort note make sure people know sorry know fault im sorry wasted years everyones life couldnt make proud hell know im going scared anyways going work tell end iti give im weak want stop suffering see pet frogs end right something wanted trouble rest life idk ways maybe take back kneeling shoot ya back head need comingmaybe easy perfectly healthy docs help unless cancer terminal got old walk see need nurse wipe ass id rather taken back barn speak made assisted deaths thing doctors letting friendfamily murder ask crush ive thinking telling crush feel im scared look way ill ruin friendship even though im pretty sure back feel itd wasted opportunity say anything knows maybe well become better friends might even say yes anyways thx people read sorry boring whyi fucked tried kill im sick stomach cant eat ive lost friends making wish didnt survive person still best friend weird bc likes doesnt wan na date till high school either way im glad shes bc know cant lose person stick ill admit im bi femboys going know im drunk high af moved away kind thing small town sheriff lamentsbr br happens lot chicago deputy asksbr br well really plot group martians mistake halloween rebroadcast orson welles war worlds account real martian invasion conclude need action follows bunch mishaps involving martians haphazard attempts conquer town big bean il everyone concludes kids really good costumes except sheriffs daughter friend kid duck suitbr br martians comical impression threat anyone pretty early fun family movie hate everyone world generaleveryone know trusted let way world worth everyone says liar world giant piece shit hate anything know im good person tried best hate everyone even good things life make happy thought living even years world incomprehensible every time try right thing liars morally bakrupt people try turn around even trouble every time tried turn garbage life around dragged right back order hitman kill one needs reply fact im expecting anyone typical life one perks job things slow watch movie downstairs theater work little screen theater cry room still keep eye concession stand seen italian job probably times im still tired atmosphere reminds oceans eleven although acting good mark wahlberg ok charlize theron appeals guys seth green awesome movie thought edward norton good job playing dirtbag although lot people disagree enjoyed mos def explosives expert thats afraid dogs highly recommend movie continue watch whenever hate body hate probably gon na jump bridgenot really sure im experience tells ignore advice kind excited extinguishing life good enough girlfriend went friends place today ex knew shes loyal wouldnt anything w went resturant w family time got found abt hugging looked happy got upset told didnt says hes friend really hurt see hugging another guy told abt started arguing plans go back tm plans see eachother tm wrong good enough fucking hurts cant tell bc im controlling letting friends genuinely love hurts first day school bus cam minutes early causing brother miss branch military dedicated stopping china exploring space many idiots military httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvqsjhvxrc military branch dedicated stopping china invading countries exploring space people believe climate change evolution httpsstaticthegamerimagescomwordpresswpcontentuploadsmasseffectcerberusfactspersonneljpg worldview evolution climate change space exploration superior hail elon musk mike pence creationism hail science lovehate relationship horny one hand love sex masturbating hand hate im horny time girl frineds lucky sex drive stronger guys normal ones come attention according reddit statistics people view posts dont actullally follow youre seeing post trust check amazing sometimes reddit glitches removed following check still poggers struggling lifeim yr suffering severe social anxiety top set subjects year grade whatever fuck call america school almost year tempted start sh used protractor scratch letter acronym arm last night terrified im going start dropping soon unable face near people therapist really helping im scared admit parents spent alot money sessions idea fuck im supposed now considering sui feel mornings exactly sure still stuff live getting level hypixel please help ill check back day thoughts staple life sense urgency safety blanket always ticket things got rough life sob story anyone elses sub different fell ill tweens struggeling mentally somewhat physically aftermath breakupcheating scenario first love sent spiral never recovered thats really crux boil without going much detail left everything behind year ago moved half planet away took steps improve life others seemed successful one try happy worked better expected ive best year life women seem im definitly far removed fitish good sense humor appear confident tho ive never able anything run away made decision try put recently lead getting gf second girl ive kissed first time years loved thought possible happy genuinly happy guy really bad thoughts needless say pan loves needs time figure lets friends first anxiety attacks life ensued next day fall ill aforementioned illness anxiety meds made high kite fun chemo followed chrused whatever left months breakup im still crippling mental pain tried rebound thing made worse feel ive cheated girl want pathetic life now people think successful alpha ive told ive people looking guidance leadership adult life im guessing stems apparently well constructed fasade ive built years high iq think helps fake well enough people respect people say live pretty kickass life im sitting pot money penthouse apartment place described paradise saying blind leading blind comes mind comical think know ha hafunny given far much hurt far long feels incredibly unfair tired fear unable take much ive started list computer desktop things make life worth living fucking scares short thoughts gotten specific ive never close theres cliff name hope able muster courage definitly cant go thank taking time read jibberish better person th day suicidal thoughts doctor prescribed low dose mg cymbalta help corneal neuropathic pain seemed help days took read issues people coming versus antidepressants discontinued due nerve pain back fence taking really help mild redflag depression plus help general consensus online seems absolutely terrible drug taper people seem develop chronic issues even doctor simply tells worry inquired withdrawals medical professionals give input really bad people pain anymore want meow problems long run tapering cymbalta scary people make seem helps scared keep taking anyone wan na cosplay punching bag need practice boxing im going itim going check psychiatric hospital today wait one hour leave work texted boss morning telling im okay needed help two hours later back hold wtf close veering car side road last night close downing bottle pills morning need help now wait one painstakingly slow hour head constant pain body wants give one hour hey everyone spend alot time feeling pretty low properly suicidal reasons read alot alot people friends anyone cares sorry hear noone left wanted know anyone feel comfortable share bit got stageit always fear mine people dealt shitty hand mental health push people away sometimes hoping someone share someone please offer chat service suicidal people im coping allim australia lifeline chat worki cant button show upim suicidalive thinking everyday non stopi need help came psyche med two weeksi taper properly ended brain damage suddenly reaction food looking rock cant sense taste anythingor reaction things think called anhedoniabut cant feel things evokethis devestated completely really passionate person interested booksballetevery beautiful thing many interests affect became suicidal itbut decided go onto continue livingbut saturday caffeine something never doi three years stopped able deep sleep serious sleeping issues soon knew done something terriblebecause three years ago deep sleep rare coffee suddenly deep sleep stopped come back yearswell thing happened saturday wake half awake nighti cant deep sleep desperately need real restthis destroyed feel without restoring deep sleep brain heal feel hope nowi cant see way mental state decline kind real sleep anyone offer hopeadvice anything random question nonvirgins sub thinking realized know exact date lose virginity day shit even month im wondering anyone knows exact date lost virginity basically normal remember memory awful cant believe short time liked girl pretty much chatted quite much sure might think let know one thing wouldnt tell time find guessing gave tips time found found liked scared didnt know might think lucky feels im happy right now btw english bad cant express exactly feel etc suicidalim nineteen living major depressive disorder ive interviews last month got denied ive worked every day past six months drink gallon water day ive going nofap years now dont even drink smoke drugs really trying hardest leave hell nothing seems work supposed kill looking notsoserious mob movie female lead right place pfieffer acted much better see matured beyond picturebr br first picked movie expected pfeiffer poorly miscast plays mob wife role hilt bad performance baldwin eitherbr br pay attention hair might enjoy movie take seriously sinner whos probably gon na lord forgive lord forgive things understand sometimes need alone might delete later wanted say somethingsome weeks ago months time going fucking fast lately scary said reason keep living sex immediate satisfaction nothing real really worth sex fill time go nothing left think time come fast thought might years years trying normal life im totally drained sexual desire time kids want kill kids took weeks whatever still trying back better times always something missing obvious whats old work anymore cant think anything new might reached epitome creativity awesome im lost lost scary see everyone finding place world passion belong nothing im walking alone people support make feel bad know much ill able stand look two people still take three buses pretend hate life want hug tell everything want something live theyre good smiles sincere heart warming belong somewhere cry writing suicidal things reddit hope really mean decide really feel nothing live pressure high hardly breathe death relief want know much theyre appreciated thought last times couple artists listen everyday love thanks coming life care fight make days better give reason one things enjoy singing xbox live yearwhat apart ps past ive pretty much always played xbox ive always supported microsoft value series game pass actually outdid ps well thats made big fucking uturn xbox live double price pay double price service free remove free games per month cares theyve piss poor past years nobody miss fucking awful decision microsoft hope hugely backfires anyone advice dealing keep repeating stuff always double check stuff times yesterday went kitchen times make sure closed sink sink closed dont know happening months getting worse keep checking checking longer enjoy reading cuz keep reading whole page make sure didnt miss anything keep reading page satisfies thing happens thoughts keep thinking something wont stop thinking annoying dont know happening u guys advice dealing hello day hello day fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller symathy postim single live country town men supposed work physical jobs due back injuries im stranded unable pay bills eat im leaving redflag till new year dont hurt mum christmas mind made im one losers constant shit luck every year im sinking even enough sob story really want ask mg lyrica tabs mg baclofen tabs want know much need take dont want end coma need complete brain death organ failure anyone tell much need take end properly little left field attractive wild women willing spend crazy dirty weekend finish life ask loneliness curse love enjoy company woman feel real man go smile know sounds fucked anyone willing help incredibaly grateful last horah willing trade photos show fat old ugly one needs anymorei dont friends im terrible job easily replaced parents hate died right take least week someone notice suffer end pain now wouldnt hurting anyone anything id helping one deal stupid problems anymore think net effect world go man killed now might even something positiveive thinking lately cumulative usefulness person aggregate shit mostly havent done now whether meaningful positive impact people around know guys dig realize people inherent drain others society resources even produce anything help anyone sort suck resources better allocated someone deserving produced better people finished masters degree last year got one year unemployment ive living parents grown hate probably much hate today mom told unfair sit around day spending money totally right fair pay medicine im suboxone opiate addiction developed grad school therapy plus car shit absurd parasitical relationship know sustainable even taking account broader parasitic relationship rest society provide value contribute nothing anyone im subidised betters part much physically validate crippled way already feel internally shooting kneecap trying damage brain enough shit bother merely logical extrapolation current uselessness im getting ive sort reached point obvious calculus ive tried things supposed able earn basic living meet friends find wife house etc im things worked probably fault ive got enough worthless statistics historical knowledge know system merciless general sense well options continue imposing parents accede mindbendingly depressing reality best possible option six years school earning hr rest life thus maintaining current standard living miserable addition retail years honestly feels fate worse death finally killing ive always wanted strikes finally working chutzpah throw front bus eat bushel pills blow brains whatever positive impact world individual action im capable dramatically improve lives family financially emotionally imagine relief provide dissipating tension uncertainty surrounding failson importantly remove cyclical web anhedonic consumption labor characterizes life united states today sucking food oxygen resources selling labor gold encrusted ghoul tiny contribution perpetuation injustice bullshit world fat complacent shithead american eliminated moral victory even quantitatively meaningless ive posted arrogant bourgeois someone terminally obsessed redflag possessed profound fear death especially people world subreddit really suffer suffer lot firstworld troglodyte upset useless education job daddy age kind cant stop thinking actually awful life people getting worse real possibility relief role personally play perpetuating misery others consumer first world millions people world mucking dirt mining rare earths bare hands tortured death turkmen dungeon read spit gall complaining theyd right still feel gaping fucking overwhelming misery desire finally palatable options rant went longer wanted address people feel made contribution world yall follow logic tw transphobia guess anyone affected trans makes want die fucking bad sure know already trans one disgusting revolting things huge burden everyone medically emotionally forcing everyone say pronouns wrong course feel bad tried detransition nothing sticks fucking stuck forever guess feel monster fucked body going hormones getting chest sliced look worse used beautiful girl disgusting freak nature wish go back never even realize first place ruined every single thing life ways never imagined detransition normal human next year think ill kill world better without another disgusting person anywaysif thoughts feel free share transphobic tell comments want might help shit together detransition hear terrible others people around accepting trans people enough shit deciding wish normal fame think best movie seen ways funny dramatic makes movie true loose ends actually lot still think terrific movie funny things happen audition beginning movie think hilarious girl tries act oj simpson towering inferno raulralph goes around every art department saying father great every one says dad danced rockets left ralph tap shoes rockets far know made women tap shoes regular shoes bottle caps bottom guy read lines juliet romeo juliet play funny one thing movie turns music never heard anything favorite song sing body electric second theme song fame irene cara great voice great actress way movie focused many ethnic groups showed kinds people actually called la guardia school performing arts movie showed triumphs trials many young performers including angelo doris bruno coco montgomery ralph leroy hilary liza hard time made way movie added another minutes graduation still favorite movie matter stressing upcoming exam ampxb httpspreviewredditihqgnwifospngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscfefaacdeb know im always really sad really know ive feeling sad happy supportive friends finally openly gay im improving reason feel really sad want happy cant im losing motivation want things cant anyone advice amazing left drawing redflaghey guys want start saying know personally heard went traumatic events father involved older sister mom called friends mom told son years old killed monday night cutting wrist mom told friends mom left drawing table shes trying figure means didnt send picture told looked drew friends mom said mom described chance guys know means interpreted movie first things first single scene movie u see bad guy taylor torturing nailing bens hands wall told gals end u see taylor disappear walks looks message taylor whole movie figment imagination ben scene torturing moments wherein gals confront frame ben taylor time real taylor ben two different people scene showing one frame horrific times course u see together cud bens imagination work ben jail text screen clearly says bens story unrealistic place explained read mine cars etceven liz hunter leaves kristy comes back find ben find ben taylor looking gals instead kristy time world check taylors ben web cam photos etcbr br somehow everything sums one fact kristy liz knew taylor ben conclusion ben schizophrenic movie see taylor one frame nothing figments imagination really taylor found given detailed explanation coming ben tired man actually tired many fking activities english teacher given total activities drawn coloured yea english subject one fking landscape shit drawing write script play submitted tomorrow test well studied bit given project make different subject atleast pages long practice exams coming well thinking making tired stressed need break man worstest grammar worstest gamer worstest grammer worstest grandma worstest grammar maple syrup thanks guys please send horny jail please bonk way horny jail need stop whats biggest thing commited school copied everything important every single subject science textbook even though teacher ask pretty much everyone worth notes science next couple months someone help memy girlfriend heavy depression anxiety feel cant much dont know seek professional help one favorite hartley movies bad one although may bit religious side things normally expect nonetheless still maintains hartley slant weve become accustomedbr br first picture jesus satan discussing ideas opinions hopes regrets impending end civilization imagine entire conversation taking place drinks neighborhood bar added conversational mention visual distraction lets toss pj harvey sultry companion aka magdelena mr chist grins background present salvation army band played yo la tengo serve added diversion road moral justification never pleasurebr br quite possibly questions answers therein lies fun mr donovan subdued brilliance always ive made subreddit wall e nobody dont know mod theres called im hopping lot people join wall e good movie seen go look tralier see heath ledgers joker reading lyrics welcome black parade brain think right telling stories got scars ex young boy father took city see marching band horny hour soon beginning hornyness starts minutes need say something done quickly horny takes wants hold hands yes know im naughty girl im tired living im alone im sick one listeningim years old im tired living im tired seeing people around happy successful im sitting around waiting die im sad shy awkward man deserves ones respect im talented person people made wreck deserves die one remember ive suffered depression long now ive shy awkward asshole friendships nothing special ive never girlfriend nobody loves family shown love told im tired trying ive always wanted live longer live dreams hopeless never going happen dreams know fuck im going life laze home nothing cry im useless waste space wish die right now hanging getting shot getting run car truck care want die want talk guest know much going convince im worth gf suicidal need advicethrowaway gf dating weeks already love eachother much far good right yes found suicidal messaging right im writing saying things better everyone died made makeout even though want im thinking killing constantly want dad know freak daughter know freak etc please help gf gotten worsei feel cornering gets worse worse every day control thoughts actions stuff regret immediately keeps happening crying day long trying distract feels burning inside cant talk anyone want lie listen silence id happy go therapist money moment feel rotting tomorrow nothing intrusive thoughtstheres sick shit going mind lately vividly imagine friend looked hanging belt keep getting nightmares girlfriend going leave wake terror body cant kill self already survivors guilt keep making stupid plan depressed girlfriend slitting others throats end incessant suffering life wed die together least cut arm little felt pretty good couple hours depression back feel guilty hope melatonin tablets took let sleep little social experiment people nothing reason sheep baabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaa always thought father second life eagerly awaiting development birch street sat viewed first time amazingly movies journey took places expected made rethink assumptions judgmentstruly remarkable personal story told clever straightforward manner especially enjoyed film makers use pulling type mothers daily diary effective read previous comment wish note sound fine watched suspect either film changed somewhat theater contributed poorer quality sound writer cat basically whore bought cat two months ago weeks found pregnant gave birth days fast forward two months later squished four top nobody probably going care damn producing stabbed myselfi stabbed times lower abdomen theres lot blood cant feel anything die high school years decades later look back fondness others embarrassment find easy forget one critical phases lives changes come fast furious whether ready longer children yet adults irresistible forces buffet us pushing pulling us every directionbr br fame best capture turbulent chaotic period cast young characters part succeeded meandered feel slice life movie holds special place hearts class bid farewell decade soon end three four stimulating sometimes difficult school years headed cold cruel world leaving home college parts unknown approached watershed event newly released movie twohour yearbook us escape titular song radio us screen friends rivals classmates faced dreams frustrations successes failuresbr br especially poignant attended new york citys elite toptier high schools especially stuyvesant bronx hs science brooklyn tech kids considered best best auditions instead rigorous entrance exams perhaps even performing arts kids expected change world although necessarily become famous us made pressure cooker environment fostered extraordinary camaraderie esprit de corps unlike toetapping hot lunch jam cafeteria graduation day spirits soared almost jubilant crescendo rousing finale film leaves us fittingly single triumphant note end sing body electric pointing blindingly bright boundless future promise heldbr br fame set anywhere story never worked small suburban school los angeles stronger identification movies television nyc mecca arts home called pa worldrenowned juilliard nyc cultural center unmatched city world time capsule rest city time showing seediness grit dirt endemic new york still struggling back fiscal crisis nearly bankrupted showed vitality muted inroads giuliani disney tourismbr br give young fame least remember remember keep swimming stress really starting build school understand online class mean free time time huge asignment really balls say home anyway time enough expect us organize group activity primary school kids local government agree still testweek coming unfinished assignments im back panick attacks thought left behind depression whats pointim years old im guy bipolar disorder middle worst depressed state life miss exgirlfriend much heart hurts keep beating feel im playing videogame objective feel saddest man world talked almost years become recluse lost friends go outside gained weight miss every day painless poisonsdrugs redflagi need know quickly please let know try befriend artists thinkers doers often either shun work sub par nearly non existant see equal show sexualromantic interest reciprocate makes nervous avoidant sometimes shunmed think mistake interest making friends romantic interest quite annoyed assumptionsgame playingprojecting goes world money need smoke let us see goes going rob weedman ironywhen kid never really understood concept depression wanting commit redflag thought pretty stupid pointless thing well guess fate decided make joke ive dealt past years neverending thoughts redflag aspirations life talents motivation anything deadend job nightshift friends whatsoever social life live tiny town without career options even attempt improving situation ive attempted redflag times failed time thought mightve failed things better seem light end tunnel think im going kill time soon feel eventually happen venting pulling annoying nighter right online schooling pain ass wanted spend sunday family work schedule got messed im writing vague dumb hell essay ducking eagleeyed parents jesus christ fuck paranoia bloom someone recognise already ive already done cant make dreams reality continue onthere zero benefits late bloomer graduating late especially chose wrong field marriage statistics show best time married httpsifstudiesorgblogwanttoavoiddivorcewaittogetmarriedbutnottoolong problem woman wants marry man make money yes money important thing world almost still solid career direction engineering degree useless worked engineer almost years internship couldnt find engineering position graduation makes think find one years later fresh graduates even went debt graduate degree time graduate takes lot time find right woman far late thats good field saturated semblance hope miracle happen someone give chance time realize easily fail achieve dream beautiful wife suburban neighborhood full caring loving people really need someone help mei past point feeling happy years old cosmetology school live feel ive anyone age shouldve lost dad gunshot wound latin kings milwaukee never got dad life mom never really step dad doesnt really talk never really friends growing one close friend slowly growing apart even best friends years raped guy really trusted relationship now really took beating self worth esteem stuck abusive relationship forced isolate starve beat raped convinced im worth nothing trouble killing friends family make suffer selfharmed feel show people little think cry help mom denies problems refuses let help expensive step dad owns company makes figures everything parents literally issue money put hospital taken lorazapam put insurance hospital bills folder put room remind much problems cost control anger temper im upset nothing stop dont know make stop literally trust another human struggle money problems live dont asking parents money make big deal know continue living seeing find enjoyment anything life anymore know life good im denying im fortunate im thankful cant cope problems inside head keep good relationship anyone problems scare everyone away people want deal ive told feel misunderstood life feel trapped inside head feel alone well feel im never good enough anyone around constantly remind much burden constantly alone roommate never cant go lot early everyday school struggling depression anxiety ive recently struggling anorexia bulimia dont drive eat someone please talk friend help find way help anything contemplate redflag daily feel close making end seeing way cope finally reign supreme family thats right ladies gentlemen half long years finally happened achieved father brothers feeble bodies passed six foot mark clocking glorious possibly still rising brother may still bulk yeet across room ease mere hes nothing joke point achieved level dominance next goal depression failurewhen forced see psychologist cutting pretty badly even razors serrated knives deliberately saw despite something fucked diagnosis nothing apparently wanted attention kind fucking loser cuts attention im fucking years old im still loser ive never relationship went five years college got degree working days week two part time jobs making barely enough pay loan debt friends hate im piece shit im constantly thinking redflag even fail post sob story reddit little bitch still looking attention let familyi let friends let everyone ive met ive never followed anything ive promised life someone please fucking kill know note im aware fact cant really diagnose im ranting best friends dad died know talk got hit truck really close closer dad talk want nice hurt feelings say wrong thing im going delete days thanks help obviously ponyo seen another stupid animated movie studio might put simply survive far easily described captivating beautiful movie experiencebr br miyazaki indeed another masterpiece now many said least achievements filmmaking due part certain weirdness factor truethe morals insights quite evident previous films front picture ponyo difficult understand comprehend idea believe make childrens movie suitable adults kids complicated accomplished perfectly lose substance along way reason gets br br besides film engrossing start way presented beautiful left awe times remembered handdrawn miyazaki enlightened happy seeing film saw back another film missed everything ponyo absolutely stunning breathtaking even music pure perfection bad thing say english dubbing wrong good seen ponyo weeks came nationally believed parts wish kept japanese dialogue though enjoy english way everyone see ponyo absolutely flawless another league filmmaking altogether finally hold surprised ponyo got best picture nomination films nominated good ending fridayive never told true story goes im currently junior college ive never really figured want life im ancious find order find good job ive really interested forensic science wanted something ive criminal justice major past two years super easy gave plenty time goof year learned never job forensics unless chemistry degree made change year nothing super hard calculus classes chemistry classes biology remember nothing time high school im learning im awful student never retaining info spitting tests feel im everything every morning wake painful anxiety attacks mention friends experiences past two years school thing keeping parents doesnt feel thats enough thought change adapt cant everything hurts want die peace cant imagine moms reaction im failure student go life feel disappointment waste space dont want hurt anymore nothing helps therapy doctors medication worthless goodbye friend acting weird lately call twins lots stuff common comes interests behavior recently chat reply coldly unlike im sure somethings bothering ask help leave space think bad sit home day warm home online school well guess crush moved different school starting think liked ugly ass survival instincthow rid least minimaze tired trying people care getting better want alive making hate people around every time say need around something sorts fucking care selfish choose forced alive bullshitwhy fucking hard able kill deserve right body life people try stop hope god figure today last day tired please let diei want die everything fucking stupid dont want anytjing im worth im truly notim worth air breathe hate hate ive become hate person see mirror ive become empty lifeless shell leech happiness everything ive ruined life apathy laziness walked depressing worthless life filled woe cant stand anymore used think wanted better think anymore think wanted finally give ive ruined every relationship friendship even mother despises regrets im jobless transportation besides bike degree weather stuck home filled conflict negativity thats fault im reason conflict ive become nothing piece shit im selfish cant even right deserve help want victim im one ive known day coming long long time now want hurt anyone simply existing hurt least make end birthday coming maybe thats significant maybe time finally close door even know im im sorry world truly better without nephew boarding school help suggest ideas things use gifts nephew boarding school first time want send things help enjoy time potentially draw others together help build friendships ideas far bluetooth music player glowinthedark frisbee food posters room huge budget meaningful gifts helpful suggestions much appreciated people think never heard things existed born fkn annoying think never heard phone cord feel happens time teacher actually thought know phone ticks reason even realy matter seems theyre talking though much better young know fkn telephone cord sorry wasting yr time kinda sounds whiney probably theres car comingthem road keeps walking tge middle road theres car coming road car comes veiw still walking middle road feeling depressed road finally gets road long car passes wish got hit aightill stick around little longer give world things offer see doesnt work sleep later im happy dont care much brits reddit plz help brotha yeh dont wan na gcses sorry admit enjoying bad movies love watch horror especially friends gather hard week school work rent crazy tapes order pizza blast one great box expecting less usualbr br story housing project built nuclear facility aboveground layers bulldozed underground layers simply covered inhabitants neighborrhood find covered facility kids fall hole inside cave wakes zombiesbr br point chunkcity gore effects action never stop end credits rollbr br ok great art one injoke dialogue overthetop gruesome stuff favorite evening actually one best party tapes pleasure watching tell done money bunch crazy people hundreds zombies director looks brendan frazer cameo wild trip video boyfriend friends made mtv cribs tour pedrohttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvuzwomig identify incel really wan na put animal society see asno person planet empathy someone identify incel literally entire subreddit follows dedcated mocking genepool bottomlickers already tried redflag failed try soon need tape tighter plastic bag alone better left behind thats true friends even dm see im ok one cares one gives fuck every one dms need help lost boyfriend grades car overi crash today earlier ghosted friends blocked everything deleting social media art presence online perfect driving record never drive crash fault ruined everything lost grades im going fail class literally last semester year ive afraid germs tonight learn gets much worse getting sick good world want escape sick tired hearing life gets better everyone told past days read posts problem back mind believed people part believed gets better doesnt never will never drive never go school never love never go outside left cant even breathe anymore im done goodbye happens text redflag hotline im shy dont knowwhat call police end making feel worse really dont know im wondering im even able fear traumatic experience compounded kid ive experiencing long feels second nature lkkely ingrained therapy wont much good need help anyone offer feel free remember first time got drunk warning eventfulinteresting expect alcohol fueled escapade little tipsy remember mom asleep upstairs alone night already started drinking back sips taste barbeque previous day lot booze left take top without noticing whiskey little bit cognac thought always see niggas mixing vodka orange juice let try already starting feel drinks went pour vodka orange juice poured way intended said going drink much booze drank thats really started feel wanted drinks stopped feeling little tipsy nothing much happen stumbled around little bit giggled fact fucked around got drunk watching tv focus anymore went sleep sleep pretty good night ampxb thanks reading despite pretty boring relate quarantined due panick attacks depression past years point actual quarantine normal fact honest almost happy see rest world panic fear eyes fighting invisible enemy feeling trapped unable live normal life im evil hate people last years life feel lonely club scenes film extremely believable tim curry venal mode enough drugs violence two movies maybe even three require evenings entertainment pump volume prepare diewhat things take care leaving obviously wiping computers stuff throwing away giving away bunch things plan sign car title friend well think im going bother writing note people know ive really depressed long time think joke care anyways really im looking reasons life better lies ways make end life less annoyance already around give reason go try live lifesee always dreamed getting school starting family nice job seems pointless see people things love actually making living touring playing music playing professional football basketball soccer theres even huge gaming competitions millions dollars prize pools love friends getting paid way enough cant see successful hobby hate idea ending normal job ill go everyday waste life away need talked mindset please byeyou king street sweeper end day dance grim reaper life worst gift received good night people listen conspiracy theorist hippy scientist scientist wins httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvlniscigigbc damned hippy lot people httpswwwyoutubecomwatchappdesktopampvqhxtwcslfcy hippies stupid im confusedso ive reading posts lot seem quite short im sorry making quite long authors way guess anyway let start saying im new mistakes sorry understand questions please ask comments answer possible yearold male live rural town european country never see anyone family best relationship siblings exception basically im alone lot friends one entire country top person hours journey away course im constantly lonely times truly feel kind purpose parents pressuring lot ive tried find purpose spending hour day write book help lot feel enough simply wasting time psychiatrist recommends try relax political system tells sorry flattering words ass im constantly bombarded thoughts starting project something im suddenly demotivated cant find reason even able start writing nowgirlfriend supported months honestly helped lot able something instead lay bed day enough need job cant go back school constant fear anxiety bullied pressure upcoming exams forced overly social someone autism spectrum way way way much handle two thirds important school year country collapsed unable work anymore past year publishing art almost daily basis focusing exams working allday basically body simply take felt still feel work everything insufficient spend days weeks even months project scrap summarize now stuck forsaken house every day im constantly arguing parents need job im diagnosed stress depression anxiety motivation everyone telling either find job try relax im threatened may removed parents outside viewers may see incompetent argue lot fantastic job doubt definitely make worse remove feel incredibly lucky able sit home nothing feel incredibly useless want want work something impossible move forward im stuck loop honestly dreams anyone doubt become reality love book sell visit girlfriend move cant keep ripping relationship parents pieces confused feel simply complaining love chance explain detail know sound someone useless thats clearly everyone life thinks please ask comments related stories feel free share love read oh advice much appreciated fact ive position months making increasingly desperate family please help thank lt took acetaminophen pills dietwo days ago took pills otc extra strength pain relievers acetaminophen walgreens brand tylenol yesterday took another thing im fine better fine last time tried brand tylenol feel nauseousnot great ended going hospital early enough everything fine time feel nothing puke times theres way came right mean took pills let know expect things worse sweet eternal rest im looking hey gamerdude hi ive fucked life cant anymorethe thing keeping much destroy everyone loves lives hate fucking core thought beat odds teen pregnancy early s two kids different fathers lost love life fucking sabotage everything im crazy brain working every fucking second every fucking day thing know hurt cant keep living parents act everythings okay know must disappointed life ive ended want go sleep never wake know athletes right im struggling weight need low calorie filling meals eat ideas say someone suicidalhi hope im right place advice difficult situation long time online friend struggling lot problems depression recently texted long message tell much mean things said alarming said know much longer live probably months left theyre lost life passions motivation live anymore really seem considering committing redflag next months im concerned know say want help support much theres much living far apart fear listening might enough time know kind advice give want sound im trying save fix know cant im sure saying itll better life worth living etc helpful know underage think mentioned parents take depression seriously know even access therapy contact family know address im beginning pessimistic well refuse give posting something nice girlfriend day playing friends discord thats probably good thing happened today least hope good day far really online diary thing especially nice responses far thank guess cya tomorrow teens finding difficult keep goingmother disowned father disappeared decade ago long divorce sister disowned family always working low end jobs never able keep romantic relationships going friends slowly becoming busy problems current gf town week break responding much cries help expectations happiness attempts create ultimately fail leave feeling worse nothing really matters end die memory dies time attempted redflag years ago ended declared clinically dead revived er tried thoughts creeping past months believe found perfect friend group girls fucking fun went two days row ive never friends painted nails importantly actually fucking care mental health fucking good feel friends never guys something really didnt expect im sharing yall im state one highest honors eligible euphonium instrument looks tuba got second chair district im really excited chance maybe hope yall good day keep working hard know anymoreso ive thinking long time redflag mean started high school ive heard often always shook never felt depressed long lately everyday find thinking new scenarios new ways without even realizing always chicken getting help way ive always embarrassed im sure sounds silly true thats im big deal seeing professional worrying people care something know compares usually comes run around think almost every day sometimes times others times periods feel feel angry depressed hopeless seemingly reason gone far preparing worst times doctors given different medications none actually made feel better im looking advise idea hate life im scared diefirst im coming web search others honestly im jealous people feeling thoughts support received went support websites glorified mental illnesseshave fucked life competition another people made fun another completely empty im running options im tired im sick nobody answerwanting talk im always referred call helpline ignored wan na call helpline ive tried meds therapy psychoanalysis tried go force around people tried join clubs take hobbies tried ive met nothing rejection hate complete ignorance feel insignificant worthless want friend person go coffee beer person callwill call talkcomplain days one ive spent life helpful wanting die chickenshit easily grab one multitude carving knives behind open veincut throat im terrified pain easily go medicine cabinet take pills cant im terrified death put grief family im stuck state complete isolation sadness wan na cry cry time wan na beat shit outta hopefully give brain damage dontcant remember im angry world im sad im attention seeking pity party want someone care everyone problems selfish maybe even post anyone care either way fuck kennel murder case starts run stop end everybody reason kill victim several people tried william powell terrific philo vance gentleman detective mary astor refreshing putupon niece wants marry scottish gentleman enjoy inheritance movie comes paired nancy drew reporter dvd fun rent disc check local library pure entertainment finally really great year reddit joined communities already love found new ones thanks making place really cool movie halve bad people want make believe isbr br reason many people hate movie laurel hardys last one together best lack laurel hardy regulars made hal roach studios th century fox br br definitely true movie successful attempt revive laurel hardy bring s definitely true movie far best honestly movie still entertains well making movie far worst worthy goodbye movie imaginable entertaining suiting goodbye nevertheless retired movies completing onebr br movie still features great slapstick moments chemistry laurel hardy obviously still much present makes movie better movies together s quite surprise slapstick humor still works great considering days slapstick comedy sbr br story perhaps entertaining features many sidekicks characters result movie looses focus boys times shame still ones really carry make moviebr br sad see poor form stan laurel time making movie really looked ill old course well years old already surgery fully recovered still lived another years dying years good friend oliver hardybr br entertaining though perfect goodbye boys laurel hardy end decades fun humorous quality slapstick entertainment movies still watched loved people worldbr br ex told wouldnt care dropped dead isnt wonderful lightheadednessflushed feeling burning head extremities dull headaches sometimes back head radiates front disassociation vision issues life going anywhere think thatim fresh college feel life im stuck rural small town parents essentially trapped letting driving license love go job mother gives cold shoulder yells getting license sooner ask give ride anywhere dad really around much im stuck hostile environment mother almost honestly mother makes feel everyone life better without around obviously giant burden love move place simply possible without driving license job knows trapped makes feel fault everything goes wrong fault used good relationship awful towards graduated feel little brother boyfriend precious let see suffer really want put ease taking im gone constantly worry im huge giant failure getting useless degree achieving nothing life deserve people worry depression fair sweet wonderful boyfriend always cheer comfort want problem anymore want anyones problem anymore im girlfriend anymore im psych patient put thanks reading necessarily want kill im terrified failing becoming disabled life cant stand feeling mother hates failure probably sound whiny kid know people worse ive battling suicidal thoughts march ive thinking family happier without ruining everything september told us getting divorce september parents told brother getting divorce months later nothing happened talking us plans divorce nothing im sure ask idk really scared scared im even sure im pretty sure decided divorce idk one mentioned anything covid started last year things mom dad gotten really bad especially summer luckily past month things better yay d ack ive confused abou help makes sense idkkk im sorry randomly emotional whydo iexistthoughts yay pog hello ive kept self havent told anyone even closest friend hi pie ur amazing whats poppin u might see u scroll thro profile lollll literally tell everything im sure havent told yet supportive amazing person know im sure im afraid guess well knows cuz sometimes stalks profile lmao hi pie u know thro reddit post lol ive mentioned things kinda bad home nothing really im confused say everythingha probably said idk times sorry idk im telling random people friends stalk profile see needed chest thanks listening well guess reading means lot nice day lt ddd please tell liveim stupid ugly depressing person even bother people talk cant stand cant hold relationship due insecurities miss friend much even though draws dicks notebooks still miss friend thoughts jumpingeven though feeling suicidal couple years ago cant help feel compelled make plans sometimes zone know bridge thinking city easy jump barrier kinda short climb thing stopping actually going travel time brain committing instantly transported location id want wouldnt hesitate jump brain wouldnt time reason wish feel lucky dont easy access things guns country long gone things life feel going fine despite everlasting depression mostly alright familyfriends new boyfriend cant help feel intrusive thoughts cant shake sometimes wish closest familyi wish end without feeling bad anyone ive tried fucking hard fucking long rationalize existence every time arrive conclusion hurt closest ones never asked never chose born world wish never cant bring inflict kind pain upon mother father brother guess purpose live pain joy wish nobody holding back sorry fit felt telling someone lpt wake fast set alarm clock chosen hour set bardi b song alarm theme three days ive waking turn alarm starts called redflag hotline night immensely helpful wanted sharehi often put feelings open grateful organizations redflag hotline well subreddit called night heavy drinking grandfather died struggled depression alcoholism self harm worried may hurt called never envisioned year old man someone call crisis hotline thankful woman line one compassionate understanding overall nicest human beings ive pleasure talk give anything thank annoyed thanks listening hope rant feel free remove post mods sister told last week know dohi im new seeking help little sister going really rough time im starting think may want end long time sister still high school diagnosed depression anxiety month ago clear lot longer time something wrong name put depression bad couple months ago quickly escalating particular source believe depression really close something tell tells lot life home bit rough ive seen conditions terrible father sometimes rude recently talking redflag told found easy methods killing might last week always tell things need love world different without without id nothing never convince never scared worried safety anything better know talk delicate people depression something individual help extra info using prozac little month says helps clearly still active thoughts redflag im sure appointment therapist march believe know much time left help want sister ok friend needs help canti friend know online severely depressed serious suicidal thoughts well host problems point think knows needs immediate help told friends think able call crisis hotline social anxiety help now hope makes think way everyday rest lifeive posted many times problem gotten better ive tried therapy actually got really close always told gon na last work together boss today tried talking ignored see phone text ignores live apartment brother happens best friend turned big mess cant control today gotten worse title says shes probably gon na within days im gon na though life shit anyways made worse time low im sitting across speak carpooled might take keys walk drive home somehow thinking calming freeing spirit going naturallydoes anyone feel know gon na go naturally going hand know ive feeling weird recentlyi dont even know say feel empty feel theres lots stuff want life future feels even worth feel go things wan na never good thought gon na feel thats entire life going nothing good everything good ends soon begins ive seen lot people die life whats point ive never even considered redflag im starting fear impulse guy group chat sent video guy blowing head shotgun thoughts shotgun downstairs gone instant scares feel scared guns house know instant kill want thoughts gone want feel normal life isnt even bad everything bland scare beating nnn know im late say use nen chakra quirk ive awaken sharingan beat november im really scared killing myselfbut feel thing need bill wurtz posted httpsyoutubezntavtmontk first vid year people need stop coming others posts telling better ok etc idea situation telling matter matter change peoples values priorities people need stop anyone find people age cute cute romantic way cute test see tictoc spying ok read test ok downloaded tictoc made account scrolled made fyp tf memes took day went chrome searched lot p hub ok history full tabs opened ok email minutes later said sure love big bouncing bootys checked tictoc boom ladys ladys males memes people explaining anything boobies ass al place wandering local library browsing vhs tapes saw movie made mouth dropwaterbabies hoping see movie againits years saw cablemovie channel around recalled good many detailsgrimes particular son watched itbr br agreed grimes nice best way describe love tom accepted amazing still recalled songs stuck head yearswhich means memorableness ehbr br good childs movie parental guidance case questions children go nobilitysociety timeframe children faced daily except lucky ones try disneycoat movies making pc children days mean cruelty existor even still doesnt enjoyed animation disney think bluth touched paintbrush moviebr br theres lot going though david plays two roles really james waterbabies cute feel sorry tom root billie extraordinary multirole part playingits eyes magickal im huge fan woo tlwtw company looking forward hp filed along kind movies yes jumps water suicide jumped trusted lady blackshed appearing alongbr br think good movie kids pick rental copy happen locate buyable copy let know ian liked br br dee wtf wrong country today way back school heard making paedophilia thing countryi dont want live anymore fit inno one loves loved love guys ive connected abusive piece shits friends nothing live past year ive known nothing abuse want nothing die stuck head recently think think think end talking hours days even one thoughts tonight theory feel need certain thingsi struggled certain addictions past put quotes know wereare actual addictions conditioned think days something first step admitting blah blah blah probably actual addict claim self harming say probably addiction tell alcoholism hand know addiction real friend one encouraged stop drinking found suicide attempt drank full bottle bourbon cut arm took box sleeping pills never meant tell heard next day crazy circumstances long story talked little bit told wanted stop drinking good reason obviously sure id say addicted alcohol drink fair bit first night id polished whole bottle think main reason view possible addiction asked stop time pretty easy drinkbut anyway aside starting notice addictions whatever want call hard hardest resist thinking kind movie moments kind hard explain think emotional state event triggered sometimes picture sort movie scene something id imagine see main character went scene shows processing whatever example show lucifer lucifer sitting beach smoking wings ground behind time bojack goes bender bojack horseman scenes way know process emotions creating one moments real life put music sit beach night glass whiskey hand go club lost drugfuelled montage stand roof high rise middle city smoke know isbut urge create moments main thing pushes want drink smoke drugs selfharm settings feeling feel wrong without accompanying vice even things type alcohol changes sometimes straight glass whiskey neat sometimes beer sometimes vodka straight bottle times cocktails preference fits moment feel need havei know thought maybe want people see certain way maybe extent almost every time alone although guess movies always start alone sometimes somebody walk know information know better ignore urges create hollywood moments even though sometimes actually make feel little better nothing helps give happen take sign need process allow break sober streak hell even know still got sober streak people cared getting clean gone now guess force habit point anyways know decided post something noticed thought weird theory impulses glad see s kicking bang mean pretty insane season thought way topped season premiere pretty good far im feeling really dumb ill never anywhere lifeive got lot cleverness hood barely shows anything people say im smart apply barely anything dont concentrate mostly feel trick people thinking im clever clever person without anything substantive chatting someone dont feel dumb anymore comparison fantasise ramming skull metal pipe painting walls chunky brain spray picture details clearly minds eye hundreds vectors individually showing look paste sometimes cross road dont bother tracking trajectories cars dont care make side road want hurt know really shitty live acquired brain injury spinal injury fuck wish exist bother bullshit feeding grind pollute planet keep kicking constant effort stay alive seems easy end life id less burden planet electricity plastic petrol use meat animals consume poor people slave wages making pointless shit nobody needs mum siblings know im suicidal concerned dont want hurt time dont think anyone able dictate another persons life choices arent harming anyone feel human accomplishments meaningless anyway da vinci means nothing compared entropy heat death universe feel screaming gibberish void trying failing find meaning ultimately meaningless universe never really able connect others see others relation im going go see psychologist days ive suicidal ideation good long time though childhood im sure depression something go away maybe learn coping strategies though dont even know depression feels im sure emotions right now stop saying shawty unfortunately end mind wont shut want stop hate ive done want erase existence want delete actions make things ive done go away want scrub every evidence existence want gone want gone want away thoughts hate hate everything wish go back undo everything start fucking hate self deserve die body deserves friends family anything deserve rot deserve shunned deserve punished want erased existence deleted pssssst need favour please go wish upetergrlffln happy birthday last time promise got right link offensiveabsurd statement punchline making previous statement joke thus offensiveabsurd thats make post rteenagers thank coming ted talk life falling apart think diemy life fucking joke haha kind joke dark sad kind joke outward appearances top world advanced degree great job ive high school sweetheart years friends money etc truth degree helped find happiness life job awful hate im getting divorced im living x room blow mattress soontobeex flies back forth atlanta spend time new boyfriend family loves cant find new job nothing ive tried works everyone around tells keep trying lt worst thing btw cant even focus shitty job anymore means im probably going fire next round layoffs im slowly starting accept one shot love im going alone rest life oh thats impossible say need take time havent even really started looking dated anyone years dated girls high school know date im terrified even try addition think seems really bad proposition im short balding deep voice contrary popular opinion degree seems turn people hilarious ways thats one things really surprised thought getting phd physics earn respect maybe even admiration instead either combination feartrepidation ii complete apathy ive crunched numbers region single women age group assume im attracted b attracted seems harsh short balding low selfesteem physicist lets say conservative estimate leads grand total women might shot longterm relationship odds certainly favor im years old future discern afterlife redflag longterm impact fact id speeding inevitable eliminating pain life want homework period pains make unable anything expect lie bed agony st birthdayi think better time finally kill excited peace going tonight dont know im love background info cousin lives several states away mine see summer really close several years basically summer dog died cousin left back home really sad started texting left texting nonstop told felt super alone back home wanted stay told misses time whenever tell im sad always cheers makes feel happy shes person makes happy highlight day texting make happy told person opened always tell problems shes going feel shes person cares actually listens dont know love please help know death comingim year old male suffering depression know cant really say began hospitalized year therapy seem want better seems takes something persistence sacrifice energy yet hand want commit redflag atleast seems nothing live want life pissed people worst part everything want sinfulimmoral know one day deadline grades really low cant study hate everything fighting suicidal thoughts really hard every single day waiting moment finish living cause society thinks good actually living cant go anymore feel want close eyes jump car tempting really cant explain cant feel good things anymore everything black sorrow situations go wrong everything hopeless one day wake woth chains realise forever noone really cares except parents guy talk thats even hate option except hang know happy want life things take whole new level hard work desires unfulfilled dreames lost still crying glimpse back think redflag easy well easy cant go cant finish im going hell anyway bother greatest wish random guy pulls gun street shoots head cant change desires cant lie want something yet die beliefes atleast one fight go grave life society jokelife poorly designed mess society joke idiots decided unless ideal person life miserable agree bad im pissed many im stuck make better imma end fuck brought reasons want die deserve iti want hate hurt everyone got close emotionally unstable manipulative disgusting abusive deserve think go actually matter im dead inside already im done trying im good sex thats offer thats ive offer need help schools wifi everything blocked installed bunch vpns mine stopped working work pay premium work anyone wan na talk im probably gon na awake another hour ish anyone wan na talk need feel alone im f matters im play d chess h girls cry ik thisll controversial opinion come school learn babysit sick tired teachers blaming us quiet students shit class fault fucking classmates cant keep mouths shut responsibility either stop saying accomplice stop expect entire class quiet teachers authority figures trying years still clearly failing know teachers know anything teenagers work stupid think control class theyre wrong getting sick blamed im fucking thanos something grip lol disappointment everybodysuicidal scary word meaning behind represents feel ive always wanted appreciated someone feel proud im taking duel enrollment college future one parents bat single eye feels second mess something want drop im immediately go work home improvement im lazy selfish disappointment day day listen parents complain realize much work shes lazy wants everything wears away way screamed yelled thing control maybe im suicidal enough fact im standing noose moment means issues worth months now thought ending seems present mind cant tell anyone cant explain cant tell anyone life need say somewhere someway maybe keep thoughts bay dad wants put restrictions microsoft account antone help little big problem bypass curious kind restrictions microsoft u parental restrictions ur microsoft account u tell restrictions im gon na kill selfi friends friends fucking leave fault im gon na end im gon na fucking hang done bye everyone give everything nothing return done trying give third time life post herefour failed attempts redflag behind im getting better fact getting worse im waiting last push finally jump window heart growing voidi feel empty know turn decided come severe depression years grown abused beyond belief tried many antidepressants currently dose prozac feel void feel purpose never self harmed want fill feeling tried telling friends ok told fuck call depressed burden nightmares every night abuse barely crawl day friends hate know feel developing eating disorder feel im worth much anymore checked facilities going therapy ive wanted talk someone treat monster want feel himan cry helpi attempted anything yet mind flooding kinds thoughts put shortly madly love girlfriends friends years lovers almost constantly fight loved great time together one day two months ago decided break day gave cold shoulder told fault everytime messaged tried see treated stranger cant head talked friends family tried workout tried occupy time way head cant live without everything secure future getting good job going college promoted work even bought ring going propose birthday know ill never find anyone think driving cliff jumping bridge kinds things im spoiled loving parents great friends even thier words lost head tried everything stop even wrote one favorite song artist time see response make happy im desperate find way eating alive dont end getting help mind best please tell gets betterim fired best job months ago reasons fault even unemployment judge agreed decided case favor took huge cut pay find work barely pay bills cant afford real food eat regards cant afford go socialize means cant meet new people date almost years cant even people im interested talk im roundly ignored everywhere go never finished college cant afford go back owe crippling amount debt university unpaid fees cant attend anywhere almost friends old job none speak unless initiate conversation even leave soon two real friends roommates spend time playing wow together ignore part one got interview job told applied interview one seems interested say one shares interests talk im uneducated idiot people even know half things love talk im ignorant cant seem catch break anymore beginning last year life fallen apart things going faded away feel peaked long time ago prospects getting better matter hard try hole im afraid sitting welfare hospital somewhere dying alone unloved im friends family funeral none now please someone tell gets better please lost good friend today name ailee met roblox years ago soon became discord friends meme sharers almost month hasnt replied memes texts im sad think dead need help lot survey need answer check comments link schoolboy watched film first time next day knew pupils form watched fascinated film think situation forms school whole soviet union later watched every time shown tv want watch think comparison back future scifi films appropriate gostya iz budushchego unique many ways watched never forget itbr br film full belief peaceful science achievements full belief beautiful future world film forecast many scientific inventions achievements time shown film year year creation year schoolboy kolya gerasimov traveled time friend alisa seleznyova year many inventions achievements predicted film realized yet mielophone device read thoughts animal human expeditions venus mars easy going picnic weekend creating launching satellites homework pupils easy drive flying machines completely replaced automobiles biorobots historical identification kind material creature performed couple minutes many others meanwhile nowadays became much realistic seemed wait br br film depicts typical russian schoolboys schoolgirls naturally inventiveness curiosity humour dreaminess look example fima korolyov find character nearly forms every school soviet union similar character form alisa seleznyova well many classmates fell love first sight way later actress played alisa became scientist think much influenced film people watched tvbr br beautiful idea beautiful realization beautiful actors beautiful music beautiful song prekrasnoye daleko wonderful faraway beautiful beautiful beautifulbr br last thing want say different remakes new versions song film even film made later spread tv internet even comparable original even comment comment original request original enjoy even point telling friends mental health issues even gon na say cant help reason need question answeredi asked another subreddit focused self harm got response cutting bad help night bottle pills next girlfriend loves smelling feet dated girl always asked smell bare feet thought weird first asked take shoes socks front door upset washed feet saw stopped showering beforehand asked friend one time observe go ended taking shoes socks fell love bare feet ended dumping next day didnt mind thought weird kept feet groomed pedicured always didnt smell best even foot powder friend told later went beyond smelling bare feet toes began lick bare soles suck toes weirded ended dumping quickly afterwards deep breathing reminding im irrationally panicking promising take step step analyzing emotional baggage ive placed paper weeks now sitting computer mocking late im slowly loosing motivation even try anyone help really want try edit paper something worth reading without feeling cant breathe panic attacks overthinking im gon na able sleep tonight ive thrown twice already pure anxiety idk im take mg g paracetamolim currently treatment previous overdose im feeling done saw family tonight made peace decision im feeling complete damn gon stop talkin ppl least say goodbye friend even talk anymore glad close posting everyday first kiss day hold man need hug extremely gentle retelling shakespeare play much overt forbidden planet cassavetes always joy watch even gena rowlands sharing spotlight take prospero role well suited sort craggy allknowing expression brings story especially comes forefront scene upon spotting estranged wife lover speedboat conjures storm accompanied soundtrack appropriate selection stomu yamashtas go one moments throughout film line reality fantasy becomes nicely blurred viewer 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future gay queer normal pride parades stuff going stop suppose celebrate self acceptance legal rights pride sexuality right going time future celebrating gay going treated celebrating straight theres straight pride targeted oppressed right future pride parades weird probably accepted future im sorry make sense im trying write im thinking know put ot right way relax suit couch smile little bit youre live bestgore dumbass glucose parent takes forever respond old men always take forever respond bro know full ass family job hurry pay hoe dumb femboy bitch boy returned awoken great slumber lackawanna blues moving story boy raised house pretty unusual people br br editing soundtrack really pulls story lets experience film way writer really meant seenbr br music really tied story made characters come life editing made story progressive captivating br br surprised performances cast notably s epatha merkersonsbr br cant wait see one man show featuring films writer ruben santiagohudson anybody wan na join discord server chill occasionally play games comment life fine want diei desire die cant rid life objectively bad issues anxiety bipolar disorder depressive state right now panic attacks response stress cry everywhere home walking reading gym bus honestly even feel shame nothing matters reason kill think waste organs corneas brought hospital soon enough viable kill violently outside hospital pretty sure kill least suitable method order cant anywhere find least one person going feel knowing alone makes unsure survive feeling much longer mystical experience something beautiful side life flat pale comparison utterly pointless feel pleasure strong desire end waste life love everything everyone want hurt anyone dissociated body want free used feel ok feeling think ashamed feeling start feel horrible guilt want die someone help tell alone crazy cant take feeling anymore one talk cant keep alone edit know talk anyone scared whenever someone says redflag people call cops come feeling better getting mental ward worse life less organized effed makes even worse cant even tell anyone feelings director oldboy comes slick vampire flick kangho song stars priest accidentally changed vampire cured deadly mysterious virus vampirism priesthood quite conflict able survive robbing hospitals blood bank unconscious patients might mind siphoned blood supposedly miraculous survival comes lives hakyun shins family shin cancer mother believes song cure unfortunately songs vampirism raises levels lust height cant help fall shins young wife okvin kim kim intensely interested world vampirism two become lovers film goes weird directions think one experience really mentioned chanwook parks mastery medium cinema god ive rarely seen masterful visual artist peak powers major flaw film little incoherent especially near beginning park interested telling stories mostly visuals difficult follow times works man fly film perversely hilarious final sequence easily one best decade simultaneously heartbreaking delightfully ridiculous okvin kim become worldwide star film gives one best performances year cant bear pain anymore fun friendsyet yeet deal competition school im interested subject specific part subject find someone class likes even better really demotivates ayo guess found nier country yes read correct feel awful inside depressed child absolutely fucking exhausting single mom stuck every time think way end think fucking guilt overwhelming nothing outside looking appear okay business daughter mostly happy ill post positive things social media actually fucking dying inside business essentially bankrupted fucking money always trying figure going take care daughter put gas borrowed car drive mine work anymore going eat tired living thing keeping falling apart person getting along huge argument yesterday know things never absolutely heart broken feel failure slept today thankfully daughter took park used gift card food toy made sure great day drew pictures colored together great day bed crying grandmother want end fucking badly sad stop crying everything hurts face swollen fucking internet crying stupid fucking life feel fucking pathetic okay brain try fucking hard nowhere wish something happen accidentally want disappoint daughter live consequences actions end absolutely live longer fuck even fucking sad possible live body stopped spongebob god spongebobs combat capabilities raw power seemingly immeasurable unbelievably powerful spongebob ability absorb reflect deflect physical damage ability sever limbs instantaneously regenerate cells possesses ability change configuration body expand body significantly become microscopictheres scene spongebob shown sleeping inside sun unfazed core temperature sun million celsius means spongebob least x stronger tungsten melting point celsius spongebob shown unravel string universe current evidence spongebob made foreign material compatible able edit structure conceivable element whole universe 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hypernova large enough collapse reality posting lyrics part cant breathe im waiting exhale toss pain wishes wishing well still luck oh well still try even though know im gon fail stress shoulders anvil perky got itching anthill drugs killing softly lauryn hill sometimes know feel ringring phone call depression used past memories weapon line talk addiction huh speaking devil drugs miss cant real fiction somethin feels broke need fix cry help listen ima alone finished part tell im fine im lyin want worry part take feelings hide em cause want nobody hurt cant breathe im waiting exhale toss pain wishes wishing well still luck oh well still try even though know im gon fail stress shoulders anvil perky got itching anthill drugs killing softly lauryn hill sometimes know feel sometimes know feel lets real pills keep taking pills yeah told yall secret yeah tearing pieces really think need stopped taking drugs drugs take part tell im fine im lyin want worry part take feelings hide em cause want nobody hurt cant breathe im waiting exhale toss pain wishes wishing well still luck oh well still try even though know im gon fail stress shoulders anvil perky got itching anthill drugs killing softly lauryn hill sometimes know feel someone help dont know begin honest guess ill start talking im depressed reason im depressed im scared becoming something horrible pedophile murderer rapist ect intentions hate kids hate rape murder guess im paranoid one day one im really paranoid person commite redflag sure day thats promise forever keep miss growing life im longer excited anything really used die excitement xmas holiday im oh cool another day fucking miss years old playing little toys watching pokemon everyday deep web knowlaged deep web alot find child porn forums animal abuse sites scared remember visting cp forum curiousity people discussing months ago fucking gross wish painful depressing tortuous unbearable death fucking pedos seeing cunts talking posting site disturbed everyday want go back site read fucks saying dont want fucked tears inside knowing want know idiots discussing forum plans ddos site till corruption decide remove site dont care consequences long fun ruining pedos life dont worry im skilled vpn ddosing without getting caught scares wondering whats worst site deep web thats say im going end life buti guess im fucking pussy cant dont dont want set friends family called redflag hotline times fucking stupid worthless applied depressions redflag therapy refused take one gave email saying something sorry refuse take control please call help nad said something sorry suicidal us take call life fucking difficult fucking hate cant die alone im sleeping without hate seeing happy people makes depressed dont know think im lost really wan na hit people geneva stick filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler anyone want join discord server dm dont know im allowed post links weeks ago planning leaving job try something wanted life put everyone priority wanted take sort controlthe universe said nostarted month hospitalized today learned semirare disease need constant life changes doctor follow ups rest life really leave job need insurance today learned news family member passing awaytoday learned person loved lied meall one day lost losti wanted something make happythe universe said noi tired now universe said want die know parents hold theyll put everyone know helli know mom gets hold shell tell friends use things guilt trip everyone giving things need dad gets news care people know hate want kill funeral everyone make bullshit pretend think selfish stupid talked endless things defend needed let somewhere feel alone world right melots people brush life tough cant school unbearable anxiety arbitrary timewasting work even work home relax anxious couple hours laying bad thinking shitty life waking tired fuck anyone gets beyond needless suffering believe anyone saying gets better ive waiting years day come cant wait enjoyment living people im harassed daily family cant anything help counselors psychiatrists done anything either care pain bring others ending life deserve dowell first depression anxiety fucking life cant keep going know fuck title cant even see straight breathei really fucking wish stronger one minor thing didnt think affect drag far im full rage huge hole heart done needed saw something broke didnt expect see god damn cant stop crying even worse one go support wish pull bestfriends house hug distracted friend none everything happens go deal everything alone fucking hurts cant breathe havent eaten day im going sick want fucking disappear go sleep never wake anything fucking kill already gone theough pain thought thought didnt care suddenly heart breaks fuck shit lets draw aaaaaaaaa httpsrwhiteboardfoxcom much money thats mine spend whatever parents savings meroth ira etc grandparents parents birthdays holidays etc work tbh aware terrible sounds need already tons grandparents id rather fun stuff friends holiday question yall open gift early christmas eve questioncan killing really makes things better im failure human beingim year old student zero friends outside internet offline friend years im ugly despise everything appearance know never date cant even make friends first place im anxious confident enough party go act people age spend weekends staying browsing internet thought supposed best years life ive wasted ill never happy people bullied abused right im scum deserve good things got discord finally really sure mean even friends know got im honest lol took break reddit week oh god heck happening everyone getting awards free coins hello tonighttonight night im cutting bathtub really know wish well frankly enjoy watching james caan wonderful actor simplicity know exactly hes thinking true probr br watched show beginning found different thats something unique hollywood new idea rd version current hit show br br find show fun exciting pacing never bored especially mystery episode way unfolds big mystery fan read lot great mysteries find stories show well written outcome rarely obvious extremely interesting probably gambler different cons gamblers come fascinated number schemes people come rob las vegas music music top show absolutely perfect showsets tone atmosphere marvelous course james caan dont think im going make past id give nice long rant explanation honest im tired point dont emotional capacity think right now last year damn hard even without corona dont think next year going different im sure im even still alive idk much longer thats gon na case wrote will set noteshello deeply frustrated freshman college dont know suicidal ideation ive years turned something testament advanced directive short unofficial think suffice small fund set aside cover estimated costs well plan want done body post death specifics sent love postcards today without context distant friends feel incredibly guilty going dont think leave much hole wish exist dont want attention dont want anyone make big deal gone specifics outlines feel burden want ive nothing waste resources time money incredibly self serving entitled overall garbage human forever never contributed anything interesting society dont think make lasting impression even years now earth turn without doneim done phones dies im dying gone long hold man finds jean harlow working class girl brooklyn falling con man clark gable getting kinds trouble film starts film time emphasis definitely switches characterbr br film opens gable pulling street con game partner garry owen mark yelling cops hes chased gable ducks harlows apartment hes charming fellow shields himbr br long involved unfortunately rackets gable harlow owen try pulling badger game drunken paul hurst gable go course hurst realizes con hes still sore gets belligerent gable punch winds dead outside harlows apartment platinum blond hair makes easy identify goes accomplice manslaughterbr br rest film adjustment prison life interaction female prisoners give good scenes think material later used mgm classic cagedbr br harlow gets title song done torch style ballad popular back days talksings manner sophie tucker quite well br br gable well cast con man develops conscience part hed play often notably favorite gable film honky tonkbr br still harlow gets shine film think one best mgm fans miss hate inferiority complex mentally drains constantly compensate acting better end making feel friends acting towards others yeah friends pushed away attempted redflagi attempted redflag two weeks ago hospital friends texting dad asking im im high school got ignoring texts avoiding got back school sure dextrose yeast wap doctor said increase propranolol dose panic attacks wants try citalopram redflag depression taken prozac made feel robotic sertraline caused severe suicidal ideation decided stop taking extremely suicidal right attempted several times past months worried citalopram going make even worse taken past currently taking kind side effects experience beginning doctor wants try citalopram celexa step mr beast yall hoes got step prbly lol im disappointmenti feel empty useless know fact im disappointment family want want make family proud least feel good honestly want give hope rope break vampyr mario d stars got bucks mario sale vampyr sale thats simply never tire watching freebird husband extra involved start kept touch jon helped promoting film cinemas dvd release even extent distributing promotional postcards cross channel ferries various places throughout france freebird expertly written directed perfect combination fun serious moments plus choice casting phil daniels fit role grouch great privilege meet jon cast party following premier january anything want jon ask either email phone know sue xx yr old friends yr old weird hes turns turn little brother asked help im completely colorblind cant tell difference ampxb 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shows love life every night cry room thinking redflagthis happening way often recently currently crying bedroom love life cant stand mom reason sleep reason trade pillows night mines already wet cant anything right eyes makes worst doesnt even know suicidal constantly bombards shameful comments act dont care shell use loves love thinks shes helping family turn better people shes really destroying love life within past week ive noticing much joy ive realized everything makes depressed life comes home late sisters everyday late night bull crap always end day every night think writing last words grabbing knife try stand moms stupid ass comments tries play victim says feels attacked one days shes going kill know wont sorry post doesnt make much sense whatever came mind moment post writing make feel lot better im going kill self know itll hurt makes oddly feel better please one see comment writing reason making feel nice even jumbled im going kill myselfwhat best painless way go pussy alcohol medication etc sadly cant afford gun live jumping building train messy brutal family anymore im money im gon na homeless please try stop usual bullshit im looking quick advice remove earth one gives fuck accidentally select wrong answer kahoot one gives shit kahoot question wrong clicked wrong one never will felt putting see pointlife seems pointless know one day ill die shitty pathetic death matter lived happy successful life sat room alone everyday die ill gone memory life eventually people life die forget feel im sitting around waiting die wasting space rather now talked anyone want seem im trying attention dramatic actually idea im posting im sure theres lots people need help im wasting everyones time always matter good life live happy focus every bad decision made feel im reason parents throats even live anymore terrible person sex addictionand need social interaction whenever think things want live maybe thought kids drives forward tired getting help friends mind thats want remembered lifes getting less less easy thoughts frequent visualize die kind things id leave said idk great friends still feel alone please help mei feeling right now big depression top love life broke two weeks ago already wanted die right breakup tonight fight wants cut contact want live anymore cant even talk find worth never want go pain want hear better right now really dont know anymore feel going outside hang tree right now going kill myselfhey bs ive past months realized shouldnt alive entire existence waste really shouldnt im going end life im going corner store im gon na buy rope end fucking nightmare even song im gon na listen im strangled death rope song httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvihmqcg im certain exactly want ive turned emotionless cunt desires care emotion passion anything want die badly even things better still want die dont see happy need sangwoo yeah might murderer hes fucking hot id let break legs ngl wherever go whomever talk see disgusting hypocrisy especially 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feeling sadness rd person feelingif thats thing strong probably supposed redflag im sure actually try lazy actually even move something b regret decision instantly least day two im posting rdepression feel depression probably way probably fits criteria classifying feel diffrently feeling indiffrent towards everything becouse dont extremely subtle sporadically isnt thick veil heavy lazyness im anything feel probably something cant bothered something really feels im spectating body stuff rather body moment want tell whoevers reading situation im feeling reason cant bothered actually type despite falling loneliness guess want people respond maybe chat somebody seeing ive feeling way least years intesity keeps growing think random uninspired cry help attempt stop spiral one day might overcome laziness make stupid irreversable decision without expectations im secretly keeping fingers crossed miracle attention im gon na grab bottle wait refreshing page something happens im considering 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home locked room mostly dident even leave house mostly spend childhood front tv phone dident know better sadly yt videos podcasts realy simulate social live least wass hadi slowly got depressd ate unhealty mum obese got obese long remember kg yo finished idk called english realschulabschluss grade dident know mentaly complete mess good physikal form started bvb berufs vorbereitende bildingsmanahme something brige jear helps find job first time life social new start new people actually enyoud live actually started lose waight people actually wanted talk meit heaven okay let us start strange parti transgender born maleafter lost moust waight social aktiv noticed things wrongthe first thing nothing gender guess mention anyway noticed atractet guys couse woman okay blushing sitting next hot guythen resurtch internet porn found lgbt lived small christian village school dident teach shit stuff hated months dident know gay bi anything exist even speak transgender people hrt know strange wrong okay sorry post strange trying tell happend perspektivei found trans people everything resonated guess moust hatred still boady even lost waight loved boady dident simply describet hate boady male oktober bvb got put lockdown distance work school work per emaili lost small social live finaly permanently every day room dident talked anything meaningfull mum mental state fastly deckend new low hated boady even looked normal teenager okay lonlynes necelect enough simply wanted die vanish world thought hated boady becouse lost chance coin toss becouse fucked genes even whit hrt never able pass becouse whide shoulders haight acces working medication plan cut open wrist bleed outmy mum somehow noticed something wrong probably got aggressiv constant mood swings finaly got appointment terrible terapist hoped fix idk terapist dident help listend dident give advice anythinglater idk seriusly fuck thank god two months ago got psycatrie finaly got fucking help nedet fucking good psycatrist actually helps talks gives advice worked thro lot past lot witch wrote hereand small social live whit patientsi got relesed yesterday honest living dad right future still planning everything okay right now probably going go new terapist still hrt figure future least know still rest life whatever want humans chapes boady positivity stuffi sorry sorry strange aweful grammar wanted write heard sorry picturing mum bad mental medical problems guess dident know betterplease someone spare time glad talk please talk someone sometimes ok sit couch dog watch portuguese cartoons morning even understand portuguese sometimes ok thats cable bonus package u guys actually awkward talking opposite gender look im girl dont find hard talk guys im awkward anything talking class guys except treat dont act weird talking dont know people say online hard talk opposite gender guys actually find hard talk gender hasnr post sub mins woried posted probably best place look help going ti selfish attempt validate wife cheated online physically trying stay together stupid yes ik happened really hostile easily annoyed really snappy kind rude sometimes day asked dido said please said sometimes j left work distant asked wrong said hurt said said said attention yesterday watching guys youtube wet reason today really irritated annoyed easily want love truly idk sometimes feel mentally well physically stuff mind watching rd person view anymore cry either tried happens really mad jumbled mess sorry really want someone say fine something idk heart hurts feels empty point watch bad things happen living things care emotionless way weird idk going anymore god grace presence neither came close eating honey bbq chicken wings pizza hut imagine participating nut november wow relate sorry im gon na stay healthy smh im creating minecraft server hey whats everybody im wanting create minecraft survival server similar youtube series hermitcraft wanting see yall interested members yet think really fun group us together probably around players create great server yall interested let know ill give information entire process man loneliness bitch compounds everything ive lot time observe mood behavior whenever im genuine friends healthy amount time per week im much optimistic energetic mood stable spend lots time alone inevitably become cynical lethargic stress compounds im likely procrastinate work extreme loneliness cause suicidal feelings sad late high school pandemic spend much time alone hard time making lasting friends right least good friend tough battle spending time completely alone nowadays got ta love moms mom entirely convinced youtube red porn website im giving advice want say last five months learned many things especially summer lost pounds stopped using social media became much happier im autistic used use food cope anxiety depressive episodes im going give tips help beautiful kings queens become healthier mentally physically enough sleep go bed wake military time users thats eat healthier blend fruits veggies smoothies nutrients one drink try eat healthy throughout day well develop form exercise strength cardio routine bike miles days week lift weights least every day along situps stop toxicity delete social media affecting life andor mental health find friends online real life find people becoming healthier nicer general thank reading hope speech worth time sincerely uwhitericepatty weird practice redflagseems strange gesture know keep trying find right pressure points block carotid artery jugular vein least amount discomfort decide actually strangle ugh dont try helpobviously question directed try treat depression think redflag tragic thing mind boggling someone sad even deepest urge strongest directive survive disregarded tragic whoever experiences feeling support redflag understand someone want depression nothing guys terrible state years infact months years even leave home constantly contemplate redflag without even trying help question got lose go wrong take thisok pills stilnox zolpidem bromazepam tramadol put sleep without worries im tired im alone im searching support want know together work know medicine nullify effect others crossed karma first establish im year old indian teenager started new reddit account hopes posting memes interacting people around world hopefully getting positive negative reactions im pretty popular school class clown people take seriously mean say im underdog definitely couple really good friends people know tend hate first give chance change mind reddit account years ago wanted refresh mind started one months huge change mental behaviour got really better keep hanging lot broken relations even people give shit probably pewdiepies lwiay huge factor betterment hes idol posted meme reacted channel made feel really fantastic course earn money gave huge boost confidence really needed probably huge cringey piece past reddit experience people probably notice im really thankful people may seem small thing person might make day even care gets lost im keeping thank reading insane question sex clone gay masturbation help want stop thinking please becoming problem serious ummmm offered cute frog wanted show dont make fun plz insecure gtlt advice humans human breathe oxygen please dont take away oxygen die need helpim going stuff alone really need someone help figure know alternative killing someone wants help please pm tonights nighti cant take anymore notes written happening tonight goodbye everyone favorite deodorant scent love love love one smells baby powder shit im girl tho life doesnt seem betteri fucking miserable througout high school got bad point didnt show anymore luckily got university still stay home parents commuter school despite wanting second chance new start somewhere figured living parents wont bad still pontenial campus social life online classes made everything worse ive literally stuck house nearly year friends goals dreams im passive day day want end ill prove one careswatch kill meplease kill cant die ive thinking month nowtoday worst day yet month thinking im finally ready main reasons school parents last concern tell anything friends love whatever decided last night m wear durag last cross country race season saturday guys want something matched landed durags issue im white guys whos hair isnt nearly curly enough need im familiar history behind last thing want offending people know obviously teammates chill need outside view dont know materbated first timeand feel shit feel disgusting ugly im lonely anti social dont ask masterbated answer abvious want distract fucking head question people jojo body pillow cant find normal jojo body pillows anywhere ive looking ages boysyou need stop calling ex gf bitch aintbut bitch means female dogand dogs loyal hoes aint feel im stuck loopi wake immediately anxiety sets go school im able focus due constant thoughts racing mind go home talk friend bit times lot bottled emotions come im starting feel bad talking day want break loop cease exist finish sometimes days okay im starting feel burden friend people around fuck reddit option sort oldest posts seriously ngl wouldnt interested seeing teens posted reddit kids movie holes looks past incidents still affect us today whether know teenager stanley yelnats iii shia leboeuf gets sent prison camp forced dig day long discovers number things camp personal connection flashbacks learn number things closer realize youll understand better see movie leboeuf pretty good job cast members sigourney weaver jon voight tim blake nelson henry winkler patricia arquette eartha kitt interesting movie want cut bad want stab eye want cut arms want cut penis want feel pain feel falling back felt months ago want things want die death much easier fail kill tried easily kill tempting nobody stop want fucking burn feel real bad past years existed died mom didi think im hated think im drain know help feel failure support system dwindled almost nothing feel burden want leave dogs feel need love love show genuine love happiness ones need want feel loved lot resentment toward know make anything better feel incapable one ive stuck rut lost lonely burden ive caused lot pain without meaning im sure continue living mean well know say make anythinng better everything feels dark empty hopeless im young anymore time slipping away real talk even weird bdsm stuff nowadays ive never met anyone somewhat know fix myselfso staring submit page good hour wondering say ill say whats mind im go party im sad sad thats given im know better girlfriend years first year broke kinda set things motion hadhave shitty job family likes ex keep trying things occupy mind soul crushing mind numbing physically exhausting depression everything kind sucks everything love disinterests bores even worse makes sad people turn help sad know cant handle anymore sadness life feel im coming closer closer edge im losing grasp things think help want feel damn alone world stop feeling everyones people care everytime anytime comfortable people show interestcare life crumbles im feeling damn lost sad every day hoping lowest life theres way disappoint anymore sorry im trailing dont know say anymore thanks reading made far think understand suicidal people seem happier usual kill themselvesive tried change stop depressed time make friends less lazy occasionally succeed always shortlived feel im top world day two come crashing back shitty reality crash one hardest things deal feels life reminding matter ill never happy cant pull hole im probably end good see way whyso start little story life years old months ago went spell wanted kill reason typing today friends sent farewell previous night texted mom let know going back except much much worse texting friends lot asking help fear death yet want die reason previous depression stage memories raped step brother resurfaced think add onto extremely introverted socially awkward causes prime subject bullying told several people kill even people used consider friends cherry cake girl loved said yes going date text till got boyfriend lead physical insecurities arising well sat bed weeks without eating yet still feel overweight despite people telling im surfing internet looking bullsht reasons finally kill doubt anyone actually read even see kill start went kill last week got took temporary accommodation mom said keep safe carers thinking helping reality full undercover police trying build case something even going say know think done questions building happened day write note etc added think tried autism talk much incriminated know charges ill facing add speak much mental health fucked hear things bpd autism agoraphobia getting special treatment realised think intentions day going day word work think tried knowyes understand looks instead trying help tried incriminate family idea going either feel lost world bullied system probably going facing serious charges tried take life yes know looks going specific building suicide note looks abit fishy authorities realised fuckedi bad person know go say mental health know building casebro tried taking life day got rushed best hospital city got treated within mins somebody want keep alive work england especially state nhs inim scared fuck system set undercover police suicide attempt fuck system honky mommy milkers plan guys think utherealborse robot comment apple maybe theyre robot really know sayi biggest exams life days im even close ready think might push edge females subreddit feel neck beards immediately ask random questions context attempt female companionship feel uncomfy feel defensive feel embarrassed asking research development opinions welcome cumzone cum inside anime girls boyfriend says hes done summerhe says hes done cant take anymore hes much pain hes convinced wont better back ex blamed redflag hes never able accept wasnt fault says hes going fall thought getting better hes told knows im going call police tries hes going unfairly hate hes therapy doesnt believe itll work dont know help dont know point feel horrible asking keep going things might better hate seeing pain hes told hes held long doesnt want hurt know live others long dont know know dont want kill anybody anything think might helphas similar situation please let know appreciate schools spring break schools spring break yay spent hours single assignment freaking english know happenedi know say right now life changed completely cant handle ive receiving treatment depression teenager im ive accomplished nothing started working quit mental health started college quit halfway degree approved social security disability shortly leave house unless see doctor friends acquaintances none three years ago realized much loneliness affecting life posted reddit ended meeting guy life changed meeting wanted things future got along really well ended meeting person months talking fell love broke week ago still contact daily still love still wants work improving life see well said needs time important things needs buy car wants look buying home recently nightmare situation landlord really things doubt thats real reason ending dated teenager early s different anyone ive made feel loved improving life without even realizing made feel great met showering month good place light brought life indescribable taking care showering daily chores around places going shopping going eat running errands everything normal people made want better person life improving much doctor noticed mom noticed knew mental health problems support gave always perfect cant handle emotions right im scared thoughts heading ive miserable half life three years pure happiness suddenly taken away without warning warning coming person life whole support system want die broke much many things cant put words im heading need help feel losing live every day everything taken away least met idea real happiness idea missing gone energy try feel im capable handling feel stupid thoughts feel able handle mutual breakup im adult much breakup gave much strength fight depression work im left dealing depression heartbreak know fault putting much trust another person need help im close giving sooo something tragic happened jack black shaved video httpsyoutubeqmlraimhem coins someone gives wearing caring award trophy appreciate yall filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler sucksi survived th redflag attempt take anymore took lot energy finally slit wrist bled hour two saved tired end twice day last year october ampxb much big failure cant even succed fucking redflag attempt despite trying times fucking want live anymore deserve live face willy fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkim fuckinng hopless ugly wan na die fucking bad please need someone im going use shotgun better mouth side headputting barrel mouth easier im sure effective die shooting mouth besides putting hole back head want right side head probably effective extremely difficult im afraid use one hand hold pull trigger kind kickback going fuck think foot around use toe pull trigger lol started typing notei plan anything really really see things getting good want feel prisoner life want want go back time stop becoming now even better born another famiy one without narissist one real family love connection ive isolating years know social noone seems want around way look direction life going envious many people even take care anymore want things much better see happening hate much im verge tears feel noone truely understand extent much hate past aand life going now want someone badly want forget life happened start im fucked alone pathetic want takes telling people want kill take seriously love help really need talk thisive really bad time recently im unbearably shamed ive silently suffering porn addiction ive found embarrassing ive unable find courage help last night girlfrien came across internet history absolutely furious promised stop watching porn feel humiliated level unbearable feel cant help anywhere people judge talk im feeling redflag viable option moment really turn anyone help anyone please help way id appreciate cant stand bro im gon na work mum scared tell stop playing video games ladies hits two birds one stone cancel culture another year cancelled jacking cant believe oppression men actually talk back mom regret later always end regret seems lowkey hurt fault ask eat im eating things important food apparently im good son ill one day ig rteenagers doesnt let teenager mean seriously think care title interesting standards let title post loving fact slow dont wait npcs final fantasy remake ff question plagued brain months think year old self proud current self gon na happen somedayi dont know dont even know im posting maybe want heard even theres nothing anyone change feel ive gone flat used sad used angry ive happy comfort ive felt feelings dont words used try convince change perspective even believe level insanity create imaginary will already lived life ive loved ive minutes fame ive traveled met amazing people way crash course living meaningful life gone great experiences distracted never really felt different ive tried everything soul given im practically already dead satisfy others selfishness taxes feel coming whenever think time brings sense peace eventually finally go move next stage world become vurtual scripted bland already know say know wont change anything way sense enlightenment know theres nothing anyone say nothing anyone planet mind mine already know hearts deepest pain nothing forever know random probably good day rather bad one everyone say feel need say im gone maybe heard got rejected today point bullet brain withim m im biggest loser world im fat im ugly im stupid im worthless im essentially waste space want connection girl theres single girl earth even want talk im practically dead inside im ghost now point wan na die cant even bed impossible pick head move know future holds hopefully tonight ill drunk enough gain courage end go done bell invites hear duncan bell summons thee heaven hell maybe im insane one best quotes ive seen yeah guy murder king still macbeth shakespeare experiences youngest hear many people say youngest best theyre always treated god though agree true families exact opposite house im always every little thing around house nearly every chore annoying stuff parents brother considered adult recently turned hes treated hes best hes learning decimals community college experience youngest best gaslit family life feels im doomed go forever nowso whats point even matter im gone people dont care enough make feel way embarrassing ive let trick thinking theyd care want control happens p whywhy happen luckier friends called police memy friends called police telling need someone talk lost job nd amendmentand put debt oven dignify response try talk left worse position asked help im lost point laws weird apparently youre allowed shoot hoops basketball court hoops rude didnt choice kinda wish laying titties rn thats thats post ok hear know hair supposed protect head cold something pubes supposed protect private parts cold probably pube cuts theyre haircuts pubes imagine going someone got newest style pube cut dinosaur shaped pm hello west coast friends daily checkin hello yall welcome back good u kings n queens trans mental illness personally think delusion suffered depression teen years past absolutely isolated abused drugs alcohol complete live pretty happy sober unmedicated healthy lifestyle year lot going recently felt getting various things feel super overwhelmed stop crying found turning alcohol wanting shut quickly caught decided speak openly family feeling sister told big deal uncle told top explained hurtful fiance told right week frustrated angry feel awful even tried reach feel numb pretty resentful feel kind stupid tried reach family shut wish said anything ngl people know cringe except franch boy dont know dotheres nothing rest life till something uselesspeople exist ones worry eating certain things might cause negative reaction body causes die ones cant learn effectively interpret words differently fault somewhere dna disease causes read words differently people ones live environment cruel punishment sentient human bounds one abused growing one never say im hungry nothing eat one proclaim something educational afford parents made every effort able learn anything wanted able amount anything nothing thats im worth nothing failed society stupidity failed people afford learn something know ones wish might able learn something anything able propel species forward denied resources resources chances every single opportunity afforded society might ask squandered away stupid impulsive creature look towards future determine something offer world body eventually decay feed earth done everything correctly doubt mind contributed society helped somebody eaten weeks become better valuable society never indispensable become nice cog machine dubbed humanity instead live life days days thing currently deserve death even torture way hope possibly amount sins committed offer nothing world result got called perv girl class told watched euphoria make sense say fall love big little edie watching movie human even watching first time hooked mesmerizing experience difficult describe im sure fans attest watching cry think two wonderful ladies longer us least grey gardens remember think long possess fierce independence two ladies graced although always admired jackie onassis kennedy stay heart way big little edie rare treat know people wish think might end life sooni dont know anymore feel stuck alone need help dont know ready give want away posting everyday girlfriend day day im hereby celebrating th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day wood day lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipisici elit sed eiusmod tempor incidunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua day one day one thousand day one million day one billion day one 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ahhhhhhhhhh tonight planive wanting two years ive said many bad things people ive treated people shit life girlfriend broke yesterday wants someone didnt hurt month together trying hard better constantly blew never gave time day acknowledging love years completely disregarding fact note ready songs planned release tonight farewell idea im going idea use ropelike restraints used sex honestly dont want suffer idk hangstrangle despite half assed cords want madness seems people steven seagal take look nomination list razzie awards nominations one win think earn anything saw good movies steven seagal saw bad movies steven seagal patriot one best movies nearly good siege hard kill patriot shows activities protect nature surely movie great one must say violence must seagals best friend l q jones die death victim role dr mcclaren one seagals best performances always good charisma summary patriot good entertainmentand average rating points underrated movie timebr br regards hansdieter pups dog birthed chewed damn internet boxs wire internet use phones data type gt hella pissed rn play singleplayer minecraft computer im never going positive influence anyones life wayhaving promise youll stop talking folks dont make feel shit good feeling still even point ill go walk town tomorrow see easily flats skyscrapers guess considering im still ill pussy time well edit pussied time well think teenagers sentiments days compared wanted perspectives fellow teens tired lying everything going ok everything getting even worse trying stay positive better person keep hurting people love people saved ending life feel awful tried everything self improvement seems nothing happening fucking done stand anymore hate livingi hate waking everyday going work hours week make jack shiti hate even look forward relationship tired much go home sleep supposed happy life nothing happy tell someone want wake anymore tell everyone work hardjust keep fighting look future head know easy easy look future suck 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anymore showering brushing teeth functioning human activities pointless care anything make plans might tomorrow care possessions going need want endgetting help horrible firstly need admit something right thoughts normal need tell others feels convincing problem call problem everyone sees infact solution problems others see people say permanent solution temporary problem problem temporary delaying inevitable going die someday want happen sooner rather later fuck world everyone honestly care life constant suffering small instances happiness start taking medication lucky works often still feel even worse go psychiatrist tell entire lifes story even parts never told anyone feel beter walk room last long right back old self constantly trying fix exhausting see results makes everything worse begin think worth give way easier end yet keep trying day many times going able catches youi tired tired pretending ok tired pretending give fuck tired thoughts tired putting work fix even know fixed ask way time wish normal maybe even bit closer bottom iq range maybe accept everything laugh peoples stupid jokes pathetic human stuff normal feel alive one big dream honest real difference reality dreams maybe kill finally wake dreamfuck worldi want pretend anymorei depression never understand want give advice tell suck go fuck inside mind suicidal person saw film resfest floored ive never huge fan scratching film hooked getgo listed documentary never really felt one cant remember last time much fun watching documentary style energy refreshing insightful never preachy production values shot film cool cuts amazing soundtrack overall smart entertaining enlightening piece think im donehavent figured ive mostly done math access oxy alcohol weed prevent throwing math right painful ill pass wake wrong ill wake hangover try im tired im tired medical issues im tired really living existing enough cant hang around half remembered pet others sad little die longer pleasure reading writing watching tv movies high make day bearable temporary problems pass days months even years medical issues permanent debilitating access gun probably done ago normal people hope posts gets hot put award post people think good way hot anyone horny anything im definitely one greatest s movies sticks turd punchbowl cant believe mad magazine denounced whatever yet proudly put name show stuart ispeakanoenlish chinese lady ups guy speed whats love ron leibmanhes foxy wonder name removed credits funniest role know course hes nearly foxy norma rae opinion movie right national lampoons vacation liked movies porkys fast times last american virgin s teenfocused movies love one rent see mean need encouragementthis account throwaway need encouragement guess im pretty alone moved husband family got military years ago bio family exactly gay friendly year awful physically well one day never health issues life went er first time due intense stomach pains thought going mind entire time cant afford even thought dying yes im american insurance theres way afford medical bill plus car bill employer cut hours half st year yesterday informed next week id getting one hour shift lost damn mind yelling threw item stormed child thankfully business opened informed today terminated ive fired job first time life im s cant even hold job stock boy ive struggled depression long ive never money see anyone things seemed fine awful telling husband trying positive ityou stood youre going better job everything going ok know thats truelike know heart nice thing hear really believe cant stop thinking much better husband family without awful thoughts leave head believe every second struggle go garage know depression feel cant even stand let alone shake going control terrifying feel broken compared guy iraq getting shot atrocketedmortared remained calm cucumber feel im bad life want anymore want feel feel redflag bring peace finally awful feeling stop know thats selfish im rambling ill stop thank reading people talked around day memorable stuff gets echoed head loud everytime think life worse gets worse even trying every time close eyes echos keep screaming girlfriend residential rn days talk someone really need talk story behind filler filler filler feel life coming closemy life right feels last pages book honestly im done trying hold tried kill christmas eve didnt work thought itd least give hope didnt zero friends major social anxiety aspergers cant even fucking decide gender face covered acne scars rest body covered razor bumps self harm scars felt literally nothing tried kill didnt even cry next time probably hopefully fucking works maybe people might acknowledge existence probably though imagine humanoid skirt caption might well give shot image black text surrounded white box funniest shit ive seen lol suck police right now nwa court full erect judge dre presiding case nwa vs police department prosecuting attorneys mc ren ice cube eazy motherfuckin e order order order ice cube take mothersuckin stand swear tell truth whole truth nothin truth help black ass goddamn right well tell everybody suck got ta say suck police comin straight underground young nigga got bad cause im brown color police think authority kill minority suck shit cause aint one punk motherfucker badge gun beatin thrown jail go toe toe middle cell suckin cause im teenager little bit gold pager searchin car lookin product thinkin every nigga sellin narcotics rather see pen lorenzo rollin benzo beat police shape im finished bring yellow tape tape scene slaughter still gettin swole bread water know fgs search nigga grabbin nuts hand without gun cant none let black white one cause theyll slam ya street top black police showin white cop ice cube swarm mothersucker blue uniform cause im cpt punk police afraid huh young nigga warpath im finished gon na bloodbath cops dyin la yo dre got somethin say suck police suck police suck police suck police example scene one pull goddamn ass right now aww shit fuck pullin cause feel sit ass curb shut suck man suck shit aight smart ass im takin black ass jail mc ren please give testimony jury sucked incident suck police ren said authority niggas street majority gang whoever im steppin mothersuckin weapon kept stash box socalled law wishin ren nigga never saw lights start flashin behind theyre scared nigga mace blind shit work laugh gives em hint step path police im sayin suck punk readin rights shit junk pullin silly club stand fakeass badge gun hand take gun see whats well go punk ima suck make think ima kick ass drop gat rens gon na blast im sneaky suck comes crime im smoke em next time smoke mothersucker sweats asshole threatens im sniper hell scope takin cop two cant cope mothersuckin villain thats mad potential bad suck ima turn around put clip yo sound yeah somethin depends size gat takin police make day nigga ren give suck say suck police suck police suck police suck police yeah man need police open now aww shit warrant eazyes arrest put hands see em suck man shut suck mothersuckin ass floor shit man shut suck eazye step stand tell jury feel bullshit im tired mothersuckin jackin sweatin gang im chillin shack shinin light face maybe kick much butt kick ass maybe cause blast stupidassed nigga im playin trigger uzi ak cause police always got somethin stupid say put picture silence cause identity causes violence e criminal behavior yeah im gangsta still got flavor without gun badge ya got sucker uniform waitin shot another nigga gat matter hes smaller bigger size aint shit hes old school fool know es rule whenever im rollin keep lookin mirror ears cue yo hear dumb mothersucker gun im rollin hell one take away im drivin laughin ill say suck police suck police suck police suck police verdict jury found guilty redneck white bread chicken shit mothersucker wait thats lie thats god damn lie want justice suck face want justice right now suck black motherfuckers suck police suck police suck police feel im completely alonei friends anymore friends stopped talking expressed im kind struggling mental health area friends conservatively religious felt mental health issues meant somebody praying hard enough due social anxiety severe body dysmorphic disorder hard go put especially going college really feel fit im twenty never sort relationship guy ive never even real guy friends horrible relationship father never made feel important worthy pretty things guess assume thats men think im really sure im huge introvert need alone time crave human connection none moment see point really im sad upset angry dad general im therapy im medication try sit around feeling sorry fact none working makes feel time leave know plans weekendi wanted end weekend seeing parents liverpool siblings sister friends way im planning end next saturday know easy access im going use thought dying still scares thought itll seconds pain im writing note even want actually care went care read actually take heart defense people sad reason sad know someone nearby died know ill make another post ive said everything ive wish best dealing depression issues may facing please try avoid fate mine deserve masturbation okay wanted come say women shamed masturbating want tell okay thought disgusting long isnt normal many girls dont talk considered taboo never told anyone masturbated considered disgusting still dont tell people know okay im done washing dishes mofos time reddit next hrs till im bored dont know go shouldwhen moved different school suddenly got really bad first experienced social phobia eventually got bad cried threw every time went outside wasnt able go school fucked grades missed percent classes ocd came eating disorder managed help started taking zoloft almost two years now got better yes still feel shit parents alcoholics im attached fucking rollercoaster make feel loved cherished theyre sober feel theyre best parents anyone dream happens something dies within summer graduating high school attempted move city far mine far painful period life never felt bad still aware parents ruining life made fucked way felt couldnt live without side love much hurts think much love hurts think people violently die horrible things towards moved back wasnt able go uni still trying things still trying study contact best friends getting weird im sure frienship anymore yesterday dog died got stray skinny little diaster wasnt even able eat drink took home dirty first thought brownish fur turned pure white couple spots baby sweet little baby smart shy always come cried cling knees sat silently years old god still cant believe gone cant fucking gone baby baby sweet little baby gone friends said nothing understood first know pretty well hard might show empathy managed hurt even spoke mom today extremely drunk still reminded awful child shitty person loss dog feels last things holding vanishing things making happy second now dog video game live asshole russia bad really really bad grey pointless whole setting pushing towards ending tragically funny humans hypersensitive creatures live world doesnt give single fuck feelings go go even go dont know anything anymore want rest want stop want catch breath creepy randomly start talking someone dont know start casual conversation mean irl btw family fucking insensitive dont care uncle assaulting mei raped piece shit pedophile uncle barely anything done thought restraining order dont tell shit always invite let around young nieces nephews cousins dont fucking care hes family hes struggling make ends meet whatever actually pay work around house fucking tell parents sister makes uncomfortable sister doesnt care problem dont piece shit used touch kid bad anxiety looking fucking triggers end come home house knowing im going run rapist day dont know fuck anymore one listen make feel im crazy one wanting come make feel shit suggesting ask leave parents solution stay house leaves go hours end unless im work shouldnt leave anyways dont know fuck much anxiety rn want fucking cut hate everything feel sick cant anymoreim honestly sick trying reasons im still boyfriend realized easy kill im scared dont know anymore cant put problems people right really want die cant hurts much one understand see wish wanted alive dont every single day wake wanting go back sleep want sleep forever dont want anymore dont know im sorry im ai really hard time around people ive always quiet especially people know well feel gotten worse years sensation observed considered people know well think tires much stay inside time avoid much human contact possible almost joy anything fleeting feeling im depressed time cant even imagine possible scenario able support way lead killing months worked super market independent study highschool took much interact many people daily basis things required spent money earned second got way justify forcing go work quit month two one day manager told greet people enough stand front door greet every customer came half hour told time quit called work told quit worked construction friend mothers month highschool planned earning enough money pay year language school japan one things sounded interesting little bit better working supermarket felt place mentally draining way going able entire year pay trip put request information marine corps website day got call recruiter next day lunch break job site agreed go work gave boss two weeks notice said come want anymore long process actually military start paperwork took year total actually go bootcamp waiver eczema took asvab got said qualified every job going take anything infantry told much started going training sessions recruiting office year later im bootcamp hating life everyone hates life bootcamp really unexpected go school infantry hate life graduate weeks training weeks guard night shift walking around dark hiding porta shitters trying freeze death especially cold days time got call mom stepfather month went vaction hawaii week came back dog gone lived california suburbs two years took country stay us new stepfathers loved dog person known never really able forgive mother leaving caring enough put daycare week never told though suffered loss silence went recon training month graduating dropped buddy told going quit convince wasted away holding company couple weeks fleet went got sent unit buddy got put different platoons basically never anything together think bothered much really disappointing hated pretty much everything fleet nothing common peers got punished time things things people nothing us seniors barely older us year longer liked treat us awfully deployment already played around dirt exact things somewhere instead thought killing many times throughout life point never attempted anything already plans fail hating existence much see way manage another years knew nothing afterward tried shoot head one ranges lot harder pull trigger hoped going bunch people care trying talk well one old squad leaders thought okay really fair people start talking situation much wanted thought really rude coat brain matter middle trying talk eventually someone snuck took gun removing glove thinking might well feel sensation pulling trigger shooting head last thing im going spent next days psych ward started long process getting administratively separated spent last months bouncing appointments nothing lost mind broke hand concrete wall days supposed separated got sent psych ward another week finally got separated day released im back home taking community college courses still cant see anything imagine going class makes depressed nervous possibility group work interact people skipped class today muster motivation go going kill know exactly im capable im required live almost joy life minimal responsibilities depress end path sustain capable frankly reason people miss gives mental distress im going guilted living cant force live rest life depression severe life meaningless spend every moment consciousness wishing never born know im posting whether delete later want sympathy life hardly awful really know struggled redflag depression years part managed decent life support system past years everything life gone completely downhill one thing another think worse started began panic attacks every day social redflag took deep dive college dropped managed classes mom started vision problems years ago due negligent doctor failed inform corneal disease teen rapidly progressing watched go top specialists week week years every treatment option failed always best friend rock watching go unable anything horrible recently mental health took big turn worse call twice psych hospital past months truly person left though closest family members died unexpectedly rest family give fuck despite efforts reach dad worst lost friends absolutely terrified mom wish bad something actually help selfishly mental health time worse never felt alone scared life think suicide every minute come plan college degree barely work history hope actual future lost one person got anything burden mom everything going see therapist every week zero help recommended residential therapy program month feel worth try problem leave mom enough vision basic things drive needs right now one family understands cares enough even call feel trapped hopeless terrified know makes selfish person know need suck help mom fuck know keep going see way im scared ill kill myselfive living depression five years getting worse ive talked therapist thinks best went psych ward want talk suicidal thoughts although ive told im afraid told beyond abilities help ive committed psych ward twice help gave meds made feel zombie treated guinea pig repeat everyday feels theres less less hope im really scared close friends talk family getting feelings outi mostly feel dead empty emotion feel annoyance anxiousness resisting urge drink somehow made weekend hard kept justifying reasons mind drink saw guy walking holding six pack beer jealous felt okay okay still drink though want want judgement still fantasy killing strong image tying belt around neck plays head im afraid pain im afraid people think im sure yet think anything see point strength make effort school presentation presentation supposed damn hard task om normal person normal life im basically harem protagonist every anime without harem interesting personality bugs life favorite candy bar chockfull great little bits add something really tastybr br story better clever heart emotion every character nice arc growth change comparison characters toy story arc buzz learns love toy woody overcomes resentment buzz tons laughs cute moments bugs life actors turn great voice work animation motion detail superbbr br serious movie buff throw around s lightly movie certainly deserves gave dark thoughts think redflag live first floor balcony work leave dad work mom meeting room taking bath cant go rooftop balcony locked jump highest place adjacent stairs know explain place every floor clearly remember view beautiful used something ugly right know go see beautiful view stop know go back give excuse left tell taking picture locked door redflag survivors said immediately regret jumpingtaking pill right damn easy wouldbe mom dad soo mad killed live society now many rumors remembered someone ruined life talking inconvenient funeral sister attend mom dad force sister attend pathetic right come news quickly people move say covid easy explanation relatives wonder tuition teachers reactthey remember maybe girl died maybe think simply stopped coming tuition obviously cut tuition teachers sad right care tho hope die impact dont hope still survive dogs find body first one leaving house suspect maladaptive daydream dreaming disorder syndrome night day night solve problem beautiful view curfew streetlights dogs definitely find body first case sad amounted anything one light goes sky billion stars quicker care mom dad grandfather maid friends guys say guys suspect crush school friends childhood school friend tuition friends tuition teachers school teachers school friends dentistfav youtube fav music group etc hope later energy share little backstory looking sympathy kinda wrote dairy wanted share show family members sharing sorry paragraph hope u nice daynight cant believe texas went f f week fucking hell texas weather unpredictable cant make shut huge jump long time always thought something wrong bc voice head never shuts constant thing want take meds bc want feel crazy tell crazy want feel way anymore amp feel alone even struggling honestly mind friendzoned means finally friend breathing manually dear liberals biden great president gf leave fellas weird want girl call lord deadass weird want girl call highly important question promise help exists peoplei really want scream feel kitty genovese right now lot people know im suicidal care people see write disturbing things facebook wall scroll nothing real friends family dead years hate strangers say take life youll hurting people around hurting demand know four years battling cancer one person visited hospital one person accompanied doctors appointment real friends isolate caring people act im sick world cant stand everyone reached hundred redflag prevention organizations refused help respond gave redflag prevention hotline thats always jammed actually arent helpful rush goes crisis text line many organizations accept huge donations makes wonder money going cant help personally direct one number text line god feel helpless im trying hard getting anywhere contacted organizations different states got touch many facilities insurance nothing psychiatrist offices called longer accepting patients many places booked give number given hundred times really isnt fair past helped friends breakups abusive relationships helped financially car payments rent utilities vet expenses everyone now didnt help expect something return im really im really needing helping hand black hole one help dont know anymore reach im lost im much panic world uncaring cruel help seems exist people everyone wheverer forum social media site page post see others similar situation reaching help ignored many people ended life proof everywhere people ignore ask didnt give us warning place choose turn way thousands redflag awareness pages useless actual redflag person comes along make excuse theyre spreading awareness help people guy different country posted wanted carry shooting women ignored bullied school facebook nothing got automated doesnt violate guidelines message im sure posting make difference want keep trying maybe one person listen able help want help desperately understand people hopei think anymore ive cutting almost years struggle eating disorder experience psychosis im depressed everyday sit alone interactions wandering mind thinking awful things want bottle alcohol rope ceiling fan think im going drunk hang tonight ive telling things better many fucking years theyve gotten worse live nothing interest friends hobbies little 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becomes second nature maybe quit bad habits pretty much impulsive way everything messmy entire life mess well paying job hate im fairly certain company going go bankrupt soon writing walls sure mass layoffs including work best friend honestly father figure still talk seeing regular basis people left company miserable fear jobs surrounding negativity making depression x worse im looking jobs luck yet found one decent almost cut pay half simply despite decent salary cant seem save money things always pop vet bills higher normal electric bills car stuff etc emergency fund always gone soon reestablish hate apartment loved one point awful neighbors moved construction began outside window multimillion dollar homes built right next complex construction literally days per week hours per day never sleep causing become increasingly irritable ive spent almost trying buy noise canceling products oh woke gas siphoned car friday asked switching another unit transfer fee higher rent want break lease 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gone television come along arrival scene delayed five ten years mr blandings builds dream house offers one particular way comedy might developedbr br ad man jim blandings along wife two daughters living nice way cramped new york city apartment one day gets bright idea might fun realize dream building house suburbs buys property connecticut one built precise specifications well almost known trouble might changed mind might decide frail premise wonderful film results full conflict middle class dream owning ones home oftentimes unpleasant reality acquiring one nothing comes easy life mr blandings learns one miserable things always go ones way long run blandings asks every minutes long longbr br movie delight suppose masterpiece capramccarey tradition worthy successor thirties pictures may well harbinger things come arrival television changed cultural landscape radically real warmth picture good deal wc fieldsian hardedged reality obtruding periodically much leave bad taste people film 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recently helped job works know going go already tell going make want kill going morning im morning person going either use buy method use now actually great motivation hurry going write short story book seem happening fulltime cant focus time actually want fuck lets im taking driving test im kinda nervous wish luck guys dealt consistent depression years daytoday basis feel deal long term depression robots love people mean people say cant love computers actually make one love humans fellow robots even form sorts loving relationships people honestly pretty deep thinking already little brother always world grew privileged two loving parents everything grew parents mom longer along used close dad emotional verbally physically abusive towards throughout teen years brother told talk people tarnished parents name took care fed clothes took vacation recognize father feels guilty treated never apologized made effort life see need protect someone never really protected feel considered overemotional feelings pain experience valid yes father person change nightmares redflag today first night felt worthless want fight longer loving husband corner love deeply others love mei really want end lost many people loved anyone lucky husband even second thought tired sad lonely hate person besides husband thinks poorly hold opinion almost regard husband hurt anymore cant sleepits hot think much hate dull box cutter desk nothing happen even im making melodramatic post still despise feels late im job love virgin im someone worth salvaging bother clear made time even though wasted fighting religious beliefs spent figuring finding love sex think recently want find someone whos inexperienced share life sex someone curious exciteable love saccharine cute depraved kinky sex sit naked play video games something hate missing years love sex nothing let stay environment fucked mind ideologies believe work death major completely drained whatever enjoyment subject another year half spent recovering life full shitty choices betrayed expectations town limited options wish razor sharper funny feel much closer death im less depressed sense lethargy almost defense mechanism feel fading exist anymore real person getting hard let alone orchestrating death im arguably better seems much easier end tomorrows another day guess guess means time fuck waste life knows maybe ill even die somehow thatd nice tell suicidal people talk instead tell everyone listenevery text trying prevent redflag tells victim talk problems actually courage talk one willing help people care professionals either im surprised im still saddened many people actually commit redflag always read speak one cares punch guts supposed aita purposely arguing people dont mean dick find super funny arguing people internet even downvoted guy hope everyones haves great day ill respond yo fuck fun aita many rich people florida hate military heard trump son trump jr made fun veterans many rich people florida make fun 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going judge probation officer double checking im abiding terms probation day go court ask judge call pessimist feel theres million ways go bad model inmate matters went prisoner support forum talk case nothing probation officers talking violate people let judge figure thats real problem historically tell fight lose give life end taking plea whether something wrong scared right cant handle tuesday probation officer wants look everything wednesday judge gives ruling whether qualify early release everyone excited understand im court system keeps getting wrong something armed robbery court kept acting spawn satan barely dodged prison time judge hated matter got handed hell sentence deal terms make sense personal situation f want kill bad hurtsi literally use world everything dreamed everything want achieve fails bullied severely nobody helps cares ive depressed th grade mom always disappointed wants better hard try want disappoint anymore today tried hang doorknob work literally anything die pass im typing crying sorry anything spelled wrong birthday take cake stay oh wowi got banned days ago favorite place internet guess wan na die easieri wish easier die know simple point thing stopping little brother heartbroken cant reason im terrified comes point hard dont trust around sharp things near edges tall places easy hard hello advice pleasehey guys first happy easter im posting tonight sure im right place need chest ask advice earlier week daily hike mountain trail frequent nearly every day near end hike stopped side hill walk past daily usually never stop warm particular day exhausted climb sitting taking view immediately noticed couple bags neatly propped sitting right front noticed thin rope tied one guard rail posts dangling stairs cut hill even though mere foot away see edge thought crossed mind might someone end rope seem tense enough holding anything kind weight plus trail busy park attendants carrying repairs maintenance trails guess assumed park workers taken lunch sitting taking lovely day kept coming back scene directly front eyes thought shit someone going thats kinda exactly look go stick head hill take look sure immediately blunt exhausted needed rest even petrified might see took another minutes getting breath back continuing way knew must check leaving scene approached gingerly reaching drop hill saw top poor souls body rope around neck hanging sitting slouched side step instead checking sprinted hill rangers station minutes away raised alarm good minutes led rangers back scene watched raised voice addressed victim make sure ranger gave depressing thumbs think ill receive confirming yes id seen real spent next hour waiting emt police arrive take statement noone ward hikers coming past scene admit rough week sleepwise thoughts still forced return scene next day mainly park love dearly ruined pay visit wish farewell right decision im confident trouble hiking area last day two ive feeling incredibly guilty immediately checking side hill maybe still us done something help incredibly empty police took statement told go amazingly nothing press guess opened eyes sadly redflag daily occurrence live keep thinking alone hill keep feeling guilty courage check immediately talking professional expect near term thanks listening sw ive posted wrong place please accept apologies went rule searched reddit ive never seen much hedonism debauchery life someone reddit looked avatar decided know decided spend hours drawing reddit avatar gay prn anyone called bullshitlike seriously im worst never even close gf real friends basically nothing day discernible skills people insist alive executed failures theres got ta way trade life someone elses someone battling aggressive form cancer surely deserving precious gift life life one billion chance obtaining wasting precious existence burden others fitting mould im supposed fit im drunk rn someone euthanize pleasant way go never employed one wants employ year old experience degree subpar qualifications somehow managed rack figure student debt hardly friends social life becoming sick certain friends constant bragging sits home day computer gym chore enjoy anymore lives away major city severely depressed amp anxious cant afford certain drugs deepweb willing try another prescription antidepressant talk therapist already september done nothing life march life goals ambitions gambling whatever left online casino lottery games sports betting ampxb give questions life general give knowing year old wisdom ask anything hurting head answer best ability think answer question answered questions yesterday teenagers sub ask away cant happppy cant happy whys everything got ta constantly either worry self doubt cant look mirror smile instead feeling worse every time cant look forward future instead afraid redflag tolerance already zero contemplating suicide lot didnt want see lead didnt want brothers incredibly lucky got referred good psychologist hes helping problems getting rehabilitation welfare hassle constantly talk new counselors psychologists psychiatrists triggers breakdowns hate talking strangers im ashamed hate share truly feel strangers makes real think movie deserves low rating give one best teenager horror films ive seen thats saying lot nothing left without explanation back characters plot break countless horror movie stereotypes got nothing horrible pieces weve submitted lately clear example mindless saint ange first minutes might downright boring exception beginning although minor light mistakes easily spotted arrival village though horror different twisted kind horror beginsbr br plot details goofs minor characters movies strongest point given many clichs broken example two main male characters nick wade means idiotic types used although dalton might fit better stereotype one pay lack consciousness scenes truly satisfyingly horrible making tense moments scattered around film end although everything decorously explained easy see things go easy surviving charactersbr br errors see imply continuity ie carly finding cut finger unconscious bos pockets illumination somehow annoying first boring minutes although plot effectswise everything drastically cruelly twisted arrival main characters ambrosia little village midst nothing ill give pretty much argued movie illogical two people build entire house wax wax uprising questions people paid attention movie sinclair brothers build house wax mother worked making actual wax figures exhibited museum scenario paris hiltons unfortunate character meets untimely death answer second question personal objects mobile phones cars clothes dead people using third brother connection exterior pretty much arguable sinclair twins obtain money necessary buy wax wwiitype fashionbr br aside think movie deserves lot gets nobody lose chance watch go see house wax right now poor dvd video quality reason gave movie instead much better movie deserves itbr br truly movie covers several themes simultaneously movies serial killers fascinated astonishing bureaucratic culture former sovjet union movie mustsee anywaybr br cant compare silence lambs several reasons way serial killer portrayed done far much better citizen x see several details private life travel along killer gives idea source constant anger sexual frustrationbr br movie seen realistic one henry portrait serial killer fascinated movie definitely need take look citizen x something wrong mei live everybody know job pays decent enough live house well sized volunteer library every week theres line times bad news doesnt affect emotional level times today someone tells im sick play dog terrified tell joke think people tell sadistic sense humor figure whats going dont money pay psychologist therapist theres obviously something wrong mind im sick cant figure theres point living anymore dont see right infront taunting even exist yall fucking hate online interaction stunted fucking shit tone pauses context say adios already friends fine im meeting first time online shit need help fastlets way ive thought redflag weekly months now ive attempted twice never went even went getting noose set last one fell asleep probably chosen late time one doctor knows ive thoughts tried main question bet lot asking main reason feel every little thing goes wrong fault head come crazy reason go well parents fighting caused caused stress failed algebra someone dies made happen enough two examples hideous self blame ive grown sick tired sucking bad im tired trying hardest living expectations im tired existence ive decided im going kill year ends im tired dead weight people need anymore ive messed enough already theres anything anyone tell make change mind guest doubt though think keep upa days ago made post sw wife left took kids said things needs work need friends treating shit cant anymore sat house almost days alone anniversary coming cant function want kids back bad havnt eaten seems days want end ive seen porn addictionrelated posts recently want help everyone conquer addiction stop watching porn altogether intro porn menace think quickly find porn starting now probably minute less thats insane awful problem teens adults even adolescents succumbing porn addiction according psychcentralcomhttpspsychcentralcomblogsextheprevalenceofporn average age person first views porn eleven eleven young super young eleven year olds playing legos watching dantdm instead watching porn jerking porn porn pornography footage images animation sex includes irl porn animated porn hentai included heck even fortnite porn yes exists often porn studio produced scripted fake guys often pumped full viagra drugs girls faking orgasm orgasm well plastic flesh know im addicted porn addiction pretty prevalent todays society httpswwwtherecoveryvillagecomprocessaddictionpornaddictionrelatedpornographystatistics adults chronically addicted pornography may seem huge number keep mind porn getting easier easier access aswell increased access porn small day day usage increasing addiction seen grow addiction yeah sure use whats bad porn porn usage even day less lead several negative effects road continue using negative effects pied porninduced erectile dysfunction basically means pp gets hard porn nothing unrealistic view sex objectifies women sets female beauty standard big fake breasts skinny figures hand failing sex education america many young kids first view sex porn young boys grow expecting partners women porn leads sexism abusiveness slew nasty stuff men sometimes women stop easy stop watching porn believe stupid difficult start making excuses well day whats harm ill take peek eventually start realizing dangerous porn learn jerk without actually feels way better lasts longer porn start disgust even horny hell rpornfree helped addiction alot may work people theyre small super supportive community helped reach days pornfree another thing helps setting counter amount days pornfree stopping porn possible hella difficult might believe im saying hope try nip porn butt kick balls shove empire state building tldr porn bad lol lost everything valuei dont really know tell story way makes sense others bullied young age first years life didnt single moment happiness felt alone matter id even got older friends always felt things missing never moment actually felt good sometimes things hurt less good day got years ago life changed lot random occurences met girl first person look im normal worth much anyone first person felt valued appreciated gave humanity nothing made every single part life better everything became easier became happy didnt even need anything waking seeing enough make life feel perfect went spending every single day life feeling shit worth anything inside keep wall okay actually feeling value girl might perfect made feel perfect made feel human done anything together years everything great talked marriage week ago nothing wrong week ago went short holiday friends yesterday got call telling accident didnt make woman reason ive felt value dont know hard kill yesterday try stay bed go sleep feel physically sick dont know go dont know really dont see alive tomorrow dont see point anymore dont know kid bragging porn sounded much better airpods ok buddy enjoy ultra bass boosted surround sound pornos know anymorei feel im failure think im brink fired current job got nepotism previous jobs one part though every single relationship ive seems fizzle leave everyone feeling unhappy unsatisfied think people keep lives feel sorry make feel better comparison fucking failure existence think id use everyone ending kind morbid juxtaposition success functional person probably make sense right now im pretty fucked alcohol thing keeping sane touching story told tenderness awkward young jewish girl wwii america befriends escaped german pow hiding clubhouse discuss lives beliefs hes antihitler sneaks food becomes friend ally reminded muchbetter theatrical film whistle wind hayley mills befriends convict alan bates certainly cant fault direction smooth performances sterling mature preteen years kristy mcnichol carries picture never hits false note suddenly prisoner discovered kristy found well movie gets tough father shocked ashamed child consort nazi lays quiet fury seldom seen tells dead must devastating little girl hear final scenes cop big reunions handholding climaxes girl face world learns bitter lesson neighbors friends family startling film going dieso took sleeping pills going drown got stopped im really sleepy cant sleep took pills people saying im dead remember less month ago every time looked sub concerned everything new become everything new hello everyone father suffered severe depression aggressive behaviour father passed away things started worse worse time time want go specialist treatment treating family garbage today told siblings fuck tired living us un happy feel bad guilty want feel better everytime try pushes away hurts lot treats shit ny father leave way want know want accept professional help blaming us unhappy controlling want us social media keeps threatening mom leaving us plays victim everytimei sad depressed seeing family sad need advicewhat make see faults behave better even go therapy help person depression bro wtf scrolling nsfw sub saw girl used sext recognized room body minor still bruh fuuuuuuuucccccckkkk aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh easily greatest low budget horror film time first saw movie around nine years age say scared hell im growed see movie really work genius everyone least everyone taste dreamed seeing snowman going around killing people even admit always found something genuinely frightening snowmen naturally horror junkie thismovie dream come true people say movie silly void intelligence movie serial killer snowman hell expect anyone gave film low score obviously uptight sit back good laugh stupid oneliners cheap gore love movie comedy movie industry wises makes serious horror flick killer snowman seems impossible unfortunately forever hold great piece indie horror close heart streaming among us twitch come check channel name join game ya want code showing hey almost day internet relax enjoy photo took photo ampxb httpspreviewredditanxrucvepngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsceeaccbbdfeaddece guys guys guys lets go yall crazy miss old friends one friend nick names mine jiggaboo cracker good times today run sat near lake started crying thought go enough saved feel enough weebs assemble showcase peak teamwork community seno want make friends even deserve themdo even deserve kind love care feel dont thing deserve gun head make friends anger sadden finally kill want die want die fucking badly cant know wanted right now cant one notice even care whats point im making everyone around angry frustrated deserve live deserve noose around neck thats deserve headed awayjust writing things feel desperate dont know whats wrong know need study every time lose cant focus break randomly car class im biking grocery im fuckup thing going grades thats gone nothing left even though cliche anyone family basically nonexistent people care professors lame theyre good interesting people whove encouraged helped im disappointment everyone always im capable handling school life general theres nothing want life anything ive thinking dropping abandoning life moving new state big city working full time professors people id miss want another college dropout giving put farther behind redflag seems option know im posting really human contact guess tell day whatd work hows life whatevers clever someone anyone talk cant alone right now gameinformer magazines actual games stacked inches tall please stop making post automatically say deleted annoying make screen recording every time read someones post want people actually read post make regular choked blushing looks seizure wondering anyone experienced phenomenomenon free promised freedom lie feel depressed lostthere days life feel useless lately ive felt life real know feel ive tried cope drugs year smoking half pound weed month thought help didnt really know type life feels meaningless attempted redflag twice now second attempt landing hospital ended mental hospital days birthdaythe odd thing actually enjoyed last day cuts wrist wear bandages weeks cuts healed throughout weeks people school ask obviously knew never said anything started community college failing misriably old college northern california recently moved back home certain situations forcing move time im sorry rambling know write feel depressed anxious lately hands actually shake sometimes im anxious times memory lately shit smallest things angry idk sick excluded everything friends seem embarrassed mei barely friends hate appearancei hate feeling useless one gives shit mei want cut way relieve paini hate seeing people happy together paini hate classmates much hate seeing groups leaving behindi hate lifei wish way end shit reborn decent lifei hate feeling lonely one likes want die happens every goddamn time inspo think genius go make meme come reddit see weekend ampxb repeat cant keep living thisi im loss anymore im miserable life nothing makes better ive tried self help therapy faking till make im tired cant keep im miserable around make everyone around worse simply lives im trying finish degree even going jobs graduate saddled student debt drop try find trade theres good answer feel way ending ive never thought make age dont know ive screwed life royally dont even know come okay want end wake anymore im tired friends toxic family told need relationships survive know cant manage make stick im tired guys im really tired dont know anymore im piece shit feel good welp mom made feel invalidated purpose psychological assessment done earlier month started therapy parents found self harmed reports came mom going coz therapist told moms likeoh commonoh nothing worry every para either oh youor oh bador said common end stated depression anxeitysocial anxeityanger issues stuff likeoh im pretty sure teenagers fall category probably gon na relapse bit idkfuck regret killing years agoim tired hearing overused statements people know mental situation gets better redflag permanent solution blahblahblah suck ass karen got way worse soon grasped concept death child feeling im going die young know cause death feel stupid hopeful past hanging onto life brought suffering wanted normal ask chronic illness eating disorder suicidal thoughts people consider friends care family members abused past physically emotionally theyre main reason behind trauma care feelings actually wish theyll suffer find death work minimum wage job obviously cant go therapy barely afford rent keep going work even hate job ill never find job least im okay dont passionsinterests dont anybodyanything live obviously want live im tired waiting something good happen im tired trying make feel better failing miserably quit progressit took almost hours figure post simplify website thanks ive left house years ive visited gp multiple times past years avail know anymore ive seeked help every public channel ignored reason im still alive niece nephew support forever last weeks horrible suppose suffer agroprobia social anxiety disorder know anymore ive already lost many years life years old fucked loseri drive night job constantly think killing driving bridgeoverpass want live im tired trying sick tired cant stand everyone either want go husband cheated dumped years good nowguess im sub yes life sucking hard right now announced last month moved three weeks ago ive therapy good support system im actually enjoying living thought okay past week manall think offing know repeating thought cant head ive suicidal never attempted feels legit reason im alone future ahead gon na rough im sure comes next feel romantically unlovable plus whole husband always loved someone last years might lie mindfuck strange feeling one hand im curious future im enjoying spend time yet times feel crushing despair rejection seems one answer started zoloft mg month ago im sure thats helping causing definitely feel less anxiousocd starting think helping dont plan living see feel burden drain everyone around im shit school future one cares thats im going see thanks listening bullshit put never gon na give sex playlist fact make whole sex playlist probably long last bed anyways ive started seriously consider redflagthe last hours much messed redflag always something thought never genuinely believed one dodgy time younger right now trust first time years seriously considered committing redflag life even bad compared anyone elses weight head cant rid im dragged destroy little sister mam dad girlfriend going hard time right now know destroy thats always held back know even stop right now tonight really probably even deserve posting feel imposter theres people way way worse deserve help apparently strong strong enough stop feeling way weak deal anyway know know talk maybe need someone say im ok im parasite maybe need anything want ruin little sisters life want tragedy everyone talks sadly really know much longer ignore im feeling parents found redflag notei couldnt depressed found pills redflag note backpack gon na school busnot go homeand overdose woods found got chance made talk didnt wan na talk wouldnt let talk people actually help mebecause know couldnt im gon na find pills last daytoday last day pretty boring honestly im okay feel im peace way gun put feels really surreal im gon na go tonight people sub awesome previous deleted posts every one extremely kind ive seen way people treated great im sorry im one bad cases cest la vie thanks reading someone please talk someone please helpi think may actually kill today scared never scared entire life help begging found film usual french slap americas face camera often focuses fat people sloppy homes tacky rural areas narration seems sympathize admire small town folks introduced viewer cinematography exploits demeans undoubtedly thin people seen glencoe neat organized homes malle chose show us worst seen br br hope american filmmakers go france reveal american public worst elements assure frequent visitor france well foreign immigrants readily assimilated thus creating severe social inequities americans eager unmask french prejudice toward compatriots envy toward us likely see films subject got american word essay history dont know ehy everything asked miss old teacher days ago realization want die thought keeping night crying sucks die think nothing matters going die anything think fair ask born another human born maybe accept dying better whole lives basically chosen us mean knows maybe overthinking really dying scared die feel body shut completely forever thoughts feelings morelife mean yeah none us really know happens death people think reincarnation things coping mechanism used think really thought mean definitely open minded thought definitely still things think happen actually happen mean actually reincarnate even sun going explode eventually take us rightwhy dying hard accept know inevitable let us talk death final wishes togetherim fairly young severe suicidal thoughts think im really danger right now im experimenting medications recently started getting help meds always cause sudden downturn sudden downturn id leave family final wishes talk directly know theyll overreact assume im immediate danger want many friends trust something definitely cant afford lawyer anyone ideas help appreciated cant stop fantasizing coffee induced redflagsooo basically unmedicated bipolar person crashed life straight ground lost everything two years trying build future career really liked im longer denial really wish gotten help earlier past attempts getting help ignored suppose biggest problem physical real world barriers obstacles scary intimidating much im sort sitting back watching life float futon hurts back neck terribly think kill really want someone help talk day day think away situation thats causing grief job thats least tolerable ive learned lesson see past thought problems external needed someone good id happy everything still darkness lingered tempting work harder try somewhere stable reveal demon known mania medicated though appointment mental health team th mental health dates beacons trying one hopefully make another day morning wake reality situation nightmare slightly better demons face took physical form manifestation biggest fear slow slow crawl homelessness loss items two incredibly loyal pets often mind wanders ending life im loss fix try day something little bit better hard without sense direction applying job everyday cant fix end summer make reasonable progress probably end life want pick method one blamed jump front car train one think reasonably know im even reaching think find help anywhere im trying prove wrong coming straight guy stop super straight ya dinguses basically super straight started joke poor one eventually grew something people people calling saying part lgbt community either seriously rhile lgbt people stop straight people literally least oppressed sexual group trying say part lgbt trying make community angry laughs say cringe struggle secure right victims numerous hate crimes tldr stop using super straight seriously joke husband years affair year old past years talk beg husband half truthswe going try babyi fucking depressed canttake anymore confide friends many want expose lie perfect relationship world suicide hotline answer please help feel kill eventuallyhi guess want share really see resulting anything hell bit ramble apologize write seems bit scattered grammar dependent personality disorder guess say guess im sure trust everything psych says seeing ive diagnosed autism undiagnosed im year old male leech mother scared failure hold job ive tried break lot tried really hard college depression sense empty made fall astray becoming marijuana dependent went hill though believe always ended way now im lucky marijuana instead anything ampxb really hate young ive given made excuses everything ive wanted good life ive fallen cycle years want anymore feel ive lost faith everything every day feel useless trash obsesses inane bullshit leech mother want anymore yet believe never least want play devil may cry go one things im excited anymore ampxb yeah thats gender survey rteenagers question itll take couple seconds gender surveyhttpsformsglerkvrbfjympjgz survey finally figure ratio girls boys boys girls post results sufficient number responses week cut first time yearwhile suicidal thoughts think id go far actually said feel life spiraling control idea spend much time trying help everyone life comes time ask help even someone talk turn away change subject start talking person thought cared says busy constantly goes makes plans friends know selfish think thats wrong hard tell probably whats fucking bad right now ive tried getting lost photography hobbies works temporarily ive even tried drinking temporary still come home feel nothing much nothing fact picked knife breaking one year month streak cut feel something anything anger thats another point weird simply feel nothing nothing occasionally anger mostly directed ive always thought depression go days end motivation general feeling gloom evolved still motivation instead feeling sad simply feel nothing whats weird feel though im making attention true able come home snap right nothing wrong life good family good friends freedom want yet still feel shit constantly idea yall think making wrong place post im sorry sidebar rules specific replies posts read read written brief ampxb read ampxb ampxb lot know ampxb really ampxb read lot say read read lot ampxb read daily ampxb comprehend ampxb intelligence brief ampxb extraordinarily well probably better anybody interviewed long time read lot ampxb idk found funny great year mask makers acrylic installersbeyond worst year recall want fucking diei never felt suicidal entire life girlfriend left right christmas plans im alone friends im crying one hour im thinking redflag right now im m ft ground im thinking jump feeling worthless feel worthless ive continuously sad past months theres days im ehhh days feels im carrying weight shoulders started self harming december started eating disorder life going downhill feel worthless sad feel one loves cares hook many guys try fill void one wanting every time feel worst dont feel anymore im attractive dont special talents people hate people slut shame people talk shit im saying care shit talking lot days gets days idk ive suicidal thoughts past month ive obsession gore death going way look liveleak death bestgore cant go im living now horrible bleak nothing makes happy anymore besides spending money think majority people enjoy sad age feel time enjoying high school junior year looking forward college apps whatever want commit plan cousins wedding end february want see least 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affected cause pain waste space still love u never stop loving u dying soon know itim sorry fuck hate posting herei feel selfish posting fuck life sucks moved km away whim change never lonely desperate contact moved back home couple months ago things werent working ending things woth gf left already found replavement made sure smeare face home things better made radical decision move km life worse miss friends unable make friends never needed work sucks ass even tho something amazing dive guide read sea decided drink today ended breaking bunch shit laying face beach currently siting safely resteraunt dont trust fuck life sucks reason act way spoild brat yet cant help loathe behaveiour sorry formating drunk phone eating burger first im one go sappy movies saw friends s first released years old time even now age still remember scenes movie sweet sad may actually tame teenagers today loved story innocence purity young love determination young people make better life home time pretty risky movie couple young runaways successfully setup house baby im surprised movie elton johns soundtrack almost unknown today music beautiful unforgettable guns viewed area people generally think banned less restricted hey guys btw guys channel syfy shrek good day anyone feel empty im sad anything im pretty good life everything going well apart lockdown im tired mood life feel empty im happy sad angry anything im really weird focus brain something feel im existing thats anyone hat alland good life everyone hah nice end struggle without victory time give atoms back universe thanks loan tried tell younger pain ends regret nothing cant lucky eh life bad nightpoof suicidal need someone hear meso basically taxes today im hole made got thousand unemployment im single kids money made keep sustainable really doesnt lived parents almost whole year last year apart helping pay bills house bills took care whatever money made wage garnishments shit takes money im always poor sick tired bullshit barely make ends meet im still hole matter pissed companies ge need tax breaks need pay taxes coming scott free right now holding approx dollars take care gas weeks two weeks california know anything gas prices think days let alone weeks found new garnishment taking effect next paycheck stupid garnishment boy sued car making payments fired lost touch expensive car approx im sued much lawyer fees im dirt poor feel end sight im pissed accomplish people take advantage pay shit ge know im going last weeks cant ask parents poor dad worked thinking asking advance work thats going cut next paycheck ill use pay rent bedroom new garnishment ill lucky make let alone little gas close giving disappearing going homeless stop paying bills say fuck anyone feeling desperation saw last night fort lauderdale general funny liked characters especially sabrina acting good story line ok except ending left way many strings dangling wanted know happened characters strange ending done much betterbr br film portray rule life really well laughed throughout flaws sure first time film ash christian thought good might want wait dvd one chance see give shot ps never gets better honestly happy im always extremely depressed around time always socalled favorite holiday cant good birthdays good christmass think accept enough spend nights room crying one knows uncle hospital anniversary sexual assault boyfriend hurting question worth earth gon na hour really really wan na go plis teenage best period write million reasons realise still hard ngl thanks yall making easier fun sub awesome never gon na leave know ill suddenly transform super responsible disciplined adult supposed mood swings anymore moar updates thank yousup rsw wanted say feel bit better today realize certain situations tend blow things proportion head certain things people trigger happens stop end spiraling pretty badly realized last therapy session often reactions things triggered less actual thing said done anyway ive posting lot lately ive gotten really kind responses people wanted say thank may good accepting help moment believe mean appreciate edited cuz fail grammars feel prior redflagattempti feel im going step hill day day everytime think cant take another day turns tell actually reach point cant take know finished graded science project ive working days projects go hours assuming dont sleep ofc end itif deal issues consequences planim going college september care grades im going try make last years fun possible im killing college im responsible im lazy piece shit wholl never fit world last im always thats got ta end im gon na cut people life need alone guilt isnt need alone kill doesnt hurt anybody ive waiting kill years going really suck losing friends im good needs done wish better wish things different wish didnt emptiness heart going anywhere nothing fills fuck none shit matters anyway title says got chances getting job enjoy let alone paying one tried long today day done trying todays day say enoughim fucking done impossible succeed life going end need someone talki sitting herealone feel never really someone talk right nowplease friend got google meets early became host proceeded let anyone class ampxb httpspreviewredditrmcejvbzpatpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbddbcefdaacaecd hello im looking buy nintendo switch hello im looking buy nintendo switch im sure australia ive seen one low anyone knows shop u tell plz thanks helpis anyone talk keep getting suicidal everyday today long live without earphones listen new music albums need listen grow halmp hell keep jar youll think happy need helpi suicidal point plan way suffering every lost baby august thoughts best friend kill long ago everything falling apart around really know ending widely unknown strange little western mindblowing colours probably material used johnny guitar guess trucolor something makes blood drips look shining rubies nearly surrealistic scenes twisted action characters something different far masterpiece paid attention little gem western encyclopedias join rplazavirtual cosmic sci fi shitposts made subreddit today called rplazavirtual roleplay people future sci fi universes post type shitposts memes even alien dating advice long stay character one example cosmic shitpost issue holo hookers genital fluids finally ready dieive come realization life im meant find love im meant meanigful friendships anyone im supposed alive enjoy anything anymore nothing makes happy people lie make feel better nothing genuine always someone better im always one left im always one deal alone accept im tired accept fucking alone fuck everyone passing blame onto anyone tried tried meet people long time now ive tried daily cant shit anymore im tired fucking excuses im sick overall life gives fuck anymore hope left heart im done torturing self therapy work meds work extracurricular actives help nothing helps ive tried much cope feel better life end day im alone one fucking person life tosses fuck aside chance fucking gets im tired im fucking tired lies much anyone elses dont care iwant fucking die dont care hurt fucking process bro going cheat gf brother gf sister best friend friend oke bro going cheat girl course dont want happen need advice say please help bro reddit cant look something grandson fans wondering many teens fan grandson hes kinda popular quite mainstream far knowledge goes goodnight post idk im anyones gon na see rn shitty sleeping schedule im typing rn wan na change starting today guys chill say goodnight youd tell something weird oddly interesting facts goodnight sweet dreams lovely evening day night ps ps even mean anyways might often see continue knows die something feel bad todays kids wont expirience star wars cant fucking take anymoreive lost interest everything made happy best friend yrs replacing boyfriend months school stressful c classes make people feel bad dont want die dont want live anymore want make change life dont want end genuinely dont know fucking anymore seems redflag option yet thought death terrifies cant even sh hard hide hot gets havent vented anyone know years im afraid wont taken seriously dont want burden redflag seems way terrible way living okay almost years ago bought cash register bucks yard sale never opened open now im one keys came fits register works theres something inside might either stash money shit ton weed pretty alt girl piss vodka suicidal ideation goodbyeim drunk ignore typos hi im yo female im supposedly pretty play varsity sports guys decent grades rich white suburban family yeah life looks fucking perfect people know im completely fucked first attempt makes sick im dependant substances self harm go hour without thoughts redflag recent full attempt couple months ago school month going intenssiv therapy yet one knew cared want better im comfortable way ive manipulated everyone trust males might love someone ive never met irl using fulfill manic pixie dream bitch ideals need way cant got genetic testing perfect balance meds skip obviously intoxicated piss colored vodka took air bnb parents think im good christian girl brother thinks im whore reality im piece shit reason sad telling redit issues deheheheh montana air bnb meds alc common attempt super cute dad hits mother thinks im slut brother disappointed overall im private school turned public whore daddy issues will fucked ask blame chemical imbalance brain deserve live nobody know im except scary reddit fucks almost everyone thinks im sober clean liver thighs say different pretending poetic fucking cringy piss brb okayy tonight know im addict autopsy sum need cant take fucking summer hope mfs pretend friends funeral laugh un known life im pretty alt girl never peaked hope future want kids family want make past think loved keep talking holy shit im drunk cant even tell cry help want rn honestly find funny cant even full send redflag attempts right bruv thas extra dissapointingbut yeah please kys thats good truly love love humanity love indivdual self im allowed go tho movie nominated best picture lost casablanca paul lukas beat humphrey bogart best actor see lucile watson nominated best supporting actor think good job bette davis paul lukas three kids leaving mexico coming united states first scene movie going train daviss relatives house davis lukas underground stop nazis tired need rest arrive home nazi living much either turns nazi cares money willing make deal lukas plot find know feelmy antidepressants make feel good stop wanting kill constantly friends theyre closer eachother feel im kinda observing case far remember friend groups enjoy parts life still love playing dog watching movies chess dad lately depression fucking horrible ex left months ago distant months worst possible time octoberdecember hardest part year mom passed always lot shit around time worst part objectively life good family loves things enjoy reason feel way compared ive seen life perfect makes feel guilty feeling feel even know wan na kill wish born cease existence memory least things better shitty cycle wan na happy without gnawing thought back mind everything existence meaningless less billionth billionth billionth billionth universe nothing matter long run wash away hate knowing nothing matters wan na give say fuck worry things feel cause feel worse bad people care sorry rant im even sure place post know need help motivation commit redflaghello ive never tought id wow lots fucked things happened life fucked dont want mention friends doubt anyone cares still go school yeah sure laugh comments well actually parents care know automatically act normal im im scared tell actually feel inside kinda wanted visit psychiatrist never convinced shit building inside trust cant tought parents feel think maybe blame another reason grandma passed away month ago pretty much financially motionally parents fucked death completely destroy mom wallet im fucking better dissapointed everyway theres still things doesent know dont know put shit thats inside im literally nowhere feelings inside destroying dickhead idk leave note fault smthng tried fucking hard one noticed fuck im tired people born repulsivelookingif wasnt ugly probably wouldnt want die bad evocative idealized portrait early life lincolnborn hodgensvillekentucky died washington fords excellent movie takes abraham lincolnfonda youth studied laws common law began practice lawyer hollywood biography follows lincoln logcabin days initial relationship mary toddweaver following couple first balland departure congress candidate focuses mainly brothersrichard cromwelleddie quillan accused murder posterior trial amusing court debate scenes protection mumalice brady lincolnfonda defender advocate donald meekprosecutor nothing short brilliantbr br excellent performance henry fonda idealistictraveller springfield solicitor star regularly ford movie grapes wrathmy darling clementine fort apache besides sterling acting alice brady grieved mother great actress silent cinema one results last movie early died cancerthe lincolns deeds developing make skilfully appealing entertaininghis portrayal shows nostalgic longing things past old values describes goodnessuprightness willful lincoln john ford straightforward man never varied ideals youththis american masterpiece correct counts splendid biography magnificent dramabr br another biographies abraham lincoln following abraham lincoln dwgriffith walter huston una merkel talking birth assassination abe lincoln illinoisby john cromwell raymond massey ruth gordon concerning similar events fords film career lawyer tv version titled gore vidals lincoln sam waterston mary tyler moore mary todd understand iti helping people cope depression suicidal thoughts years helped lot back feet looking brighter day reality ive preventing exactly cant sum courage know want exist anymore know need reason exist cant find one im fucking scaredso fam outside room finish went next window saw view body shaking scared managed calm fantasized jumping feel mind telling jump much fear accidently dropped phone cousin came room cause felt something wrong saw next window didnt even realize tears coming eyes asked wdong nothing wind laughed didnt believe worked wanted leave time didnt want late ask help left feeling scared nervous wanted write made sad wrote went immediate family talks behind back makes sad real sad laughing living room im contemplating redflag single tear drops eyes silent scared someone find im crying cause half family sees positive dude suicidal depressed teen hates life learned cry silently know shout tears wouldnt come early age cause man isnt supposed cry honestly pains cant cry infront anyone whole family thinks im failure even tho failed mom dad every one failed went therapy didnt help first time life im telling story apologizing people lied never abused well bad say emotionally tho thats whole different story mom loving bat shit crazy matter seconds country fucking shit hole life bad country probably even shittier uncle came room told close window doesnt know wan na jump brother entered shaved shitty beard looking smiley happy told gtfo hate hate fucking face voice everything everybody tells look tell im starting sound used beat fight cause dad used beat still dont know wrong ghosts real turn one die haunt scare shit hit way hit scare even worse scared type older brother beats younger one idolizes uncle older girl wife funny dick honestly failed didnt go brother shitty situation lived block year moved another block two blocks apart wouldnt see months honestly im tired life way things going especially covid quarantining shit probably going last words unless dont kms one friend talks time time lucky bastard one lotto got green card sometimes fantasize winning lotto letting fam come wont happen sometimes leave small hints know im suicidal even told brother dont think really care cutting lately redditor tell becomes habbit didnt listen frame cats scratches wont help long honestly wan na put redflag note wan na jump every time think cry silently always playing knife game hit knife space fingers im pretty good cut last time fun risk surprise pain theinsanity know anyways might last thing wrote might night wont save survive fall bye world sad depressed ok time jump bodys instinct called brother told uncle talk cause didnt want die dont want fo die telling self body still feels scared think im still scared well unc sleeping must sign already went ledge room holding window jump told shouldnt fear fatass breaking window jump held thinking way fall one leg slipped body nervous cold felt iran celcius weather freezing outside managed grab window make footing write yelled mom come mom come panicked told didnt care gon na break window roll thats got hugged mother ages feeling alone cried asked happened pissed told sho gtfo let die peice well thats uncle woke coming room hughing wtf said dream jumped window fell grond paralyzing self still living managing say one word lonely fucked well half cried tears little whimper told going happen got even scared nkw dont wan na kill self im done fear already pushed boundries went ledge heart hurts thinking last night idk end please kill know terrified killing tonight bye bye billie eilish soo underrated lmao nah man bitch probably plays violin wrists deep lyrics year old depressed girls fuck right thank gene roddenberry never let fans death ended scifi legacy never matched earth final conflict proof pilot film first seasons well written meticulously produced somewhere along way roddenberry touch lost loss lead kevin kilner william boone definitely hurt series vital part made work story involves human race visited taelons extraterrestrial race dub companions years given earth new technologies helpful information universe many question intentions earth main liaison earth races daan leni parker many trustworthy taelon questions arise goals daan aware suspected plots humans underground group led millionaire industrialist jonathan doors david hemblen utilizes millions investigate taelons end first season things going well daan seems trustworthy boone assists doors investigation working daan taelons liaison middle nd season things start unraveling terrific fascinating series spirals downward mostly roddenberry died around guide producers wife majel barrettroddenberry coproducer still first season remains intriguing fun watch accepting itll end matter timei manic episode yesterday hasnt happened really long time though think killing everyday dont things ive done said nothing makes happy anymore spend time alone feel existentially homeless new york city eating alive wan na flip switch cant stop thinking fucked world irreversible damage weve done environment corruption greed atrocities committed every day stole pair fabric scissors work year ago particular reason weight oddly comforting theyve hidden dresser yesterday crawled bed sat floor sobbing squeezing adjusting grip every seconds thing sometimes ill falling asleep feel want stab chest right rib cage id imagine scissors every night usually something mightve happened intrusive nonetheless mall recently looked ledge th floor immediately envisioned jumping lighthearted conversation coworker feel much shame things ive done things people done didnt ask life didnt ask know need see psychologist probably medicated dont see point anymore none real life meaningless world billions people infinite universe fucking dumb cant even articulate anymore killing tonight god damn come close yesterday depressed people helps im depressed personally im actually pretty happy person one friends told try go walk told felt better id pick one nature many people around trust try great reason convince life worth living suicidal jerry dyer fucking idiot mayorelect fresno former chief fresno police department probably already see problem andrew janz enough people voted every vote counts especially local elections vote plz dont another 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really need support right failed againi failed levels reapplied different college gave second chance im failing easiest exam understand half ended panicking even write enough marks pass failing first time destroyed second chance american high school im going highschool dropout im stupid ive looking sex grindr day nobody wants mewhy even fucking bother im ugly im wanted obviously guys want cry fucking die use redditto fill void soul jk aint helpin whatevernothing matters one help deal problems im reason dont matter one care disappeared one care vanished really even exist exist reason vast minority much care original caddyshack aside chasemurray duo scene select rodney jokes okay break rodney vs jackie jewish similar humor rodneys bigger name distinct jackie incidental observational approach jokes sequel jackies attitude toward everything memorable way inspirational quick lines overconfidence left wishing express way rodney good enough face dismissive jackie rare film appearance makes perfect sub rodney come gun shaped hair dryer really look little thingsbr br stack vs knight play snobby yuppies well ted knight despite wonderful tvfilm career kinda shows age pull snobbish demands part want see fall ted looks kinda weak pretty annoying playing anger frustration slapstick stack incidentally snide vengeful really hate enjoy see constantly fail stack wins mebr br murray vs aykroyd well great vintage snllike scenes everpresent enjoyable chevy chase ty webb murraychase one better murray plays great annoying chatty character obvious improv skill loveable yet annoying exact said aykroyd annoying tiebr br really loved part first totally different mooded films part one drugbathroomsex humor cast full great names part uses golf backdrop stickittotherich type comedy makes one feel better working class s script yes bit farfetched yes first insult sport golf yes movie thin story yes comedy actual humor dances wolves besides part much better soundtrack please expect sequel part one movie even name caddyshack said big fan caddyshack great exponent s fluff entertainment quality humor viva jackie mason reducers lighten great comedy randy quaid wonderful jonathan silverman wonderful heck everyone chatting feel watching think happy birthday everyone birthday th november happy birthday everyone birthday th november happy birthday everyone birthday th november got first bill ted movie christmas second saw store one think funny first much wierder story funny personnal hell play death funny thing played stupid little games clue thing id change station death band great virtual hug checkpoint please stop scrolling sends virtual hug ok thanks stopping may keep scrolling now want committed cant stand stigmaive randomly crying day think may suffering sort disorder bipolarism dementia ive suffering anxiety depression quite time ive thoughts redflag ive constant pain head two months want committed put psychiatric observation ive crossed line family knows ive ive always low energy im going scare guy immediate family want know im somewhat depressed find im suicidal well anything might wrong im tiredby rights great right family cares girlfriend loves enough money go college even work job im tall fairly athletic people tell im funny good looking intelligent im feeling anymore decided go university two states away thought nice change pace even alone older brother already hey much trouble making friends right ive ended alone wonderful girlfriend two states away friends relationship parents tense lately due various reasons appear improving im decent student im failing classes pretty much beyond repair means ill single class show half year life ton money even workload overwhelming tests hard motivation succeed anxiety depression im meds enjoy things used fun ive tried going hobbies come empty attempted start new hobbies find interest made friends first semester classes lectures meet anyone roommate guys floor answer theyre nice guys good intelligent people really talk girls drugs judge drugs front im currently taking drinking every substance hands time really enjoy week im sober yeah ive failed college classes parents happy enjoy anything anymore overall cant bring care know lot problems life solvable put effort end ive wrestling idea killing past month two seems appealing time goes say wait three days week trying kill month might actually girl left guy used hang cant take updateim redditor posted post throwaway talking today asked going said yes saw red punched fucking face hard beat shit regret reckon theyre still going dance im thinking ending dance right front quarantine im sick ill quarantined bit im actually hyped wish endi vent sorry understand people happy life control feel emptiness expands exponentionally minute consumed long time ago escape tried force brain make feel happy smoking weed tried heal negaitve feelings emotions going psychiatristpsychotherapist using psylocibin lsd nothing helped even showed escape emptiness never felt useful belonged anywhere everywhere go feel burden go back bed cry next day last eight nine months many urges end past two weeks even know sane something phisically wrong brain know reason killed girlfriend first met almost two half years ago gotten much hope still every day becomes harder harder keep smile painted face want good boyfriend good person overall know much time left untill mind breaks want kill pressure feel every day becoming debilitating feel going lose control mind body one last time finally put end wheres post harry potter quotes replaced wands peniss ive looked everywhere cant find remember saving checked saved save one teens send link awesome cant anything righti exist weak disgusting gross ugly allowed continue living worth loving less nothing never anything bring misery coward awkward stupid trapped putrid body end stop saying stupid bullshit ruining friendships want die want die want fucking die whyy say promised wouldnt die stop hate keep ruining eveeythi ing stupid fucking stupid im sorry didnt mean iy im sorry please forgive im sorry dont want lose another one please dont leave im sorey im sorry pleasse im sorry end stop happening agaii n im sorry please dont want hate friend oly person listrned please dont leave im sorry im disgusting im sorry didnt mean im sorry please im sorry end keep going nothing anymore reason live end wanted friends fuckinvstupid killmyself putrid filthy diseas must di e befrore wont bettor worse im sorry one miss im tioo horrible omm sorru goodbye im ssorryh show awesome thought two episodes paul died sad actually cried shows awesome kerry favorite character dark side thought bridget funny perky thought guy played kyle really really cute loved kerry made sarcastic remarks everything guy played rory cute paul played john ritter really funny whole entire tv show funny wish still showed tv show tv though watched every single time next time shows watch feel life pointless waste space oxygen feel living others dreams afraid chase afraid success failure time think offing time anxious want bother anyone dead body material crap etc wish infinity glove snap done without mess couple years ago man sued parents born really felt sure meant snap back nothingness conceived remember point big blissful black hole unawareness paradoxes random noisei anyone share reddit hard time right now thought might write unpleasant unsettling feelings head strong longing death feeling squatting around head try analyze feeling always come back conclusions existential point humanity exist cant known gain joy act working task genuinely believe brain receives reward chemicals successful completion task seemingly highly intelligent person feel helpless really deliver potential yet really external observers recognize praise feel core existence truly gifted intelligent person feel retarded genius left devices without action unable leverage life motivated action external events feel small slice time soon started transition curse lifted raised long enough surrounded external force education riding wave aliveness number years now know going lost metaphor trying say external force enacted work requires push take action accord makes want die know languished life away participating life depressing work nothing accomplish nothing yet potential unmeasurable unify two emotions bleakness empty existence knowing must way humanity unify overcome saviors want alive anymore cant even save tired fighting bullshit whole thing makes want think feel act anymore know make stop want feel alas know want feel perhaps right now feel stuck help us school project teacher told us make project modern teenagers friend decided make project teenaagers think games please honest answers good picture situation httpsformsgletqeffhvawtbyrmphttpsformsgletqeffhvawtbyrmp making post till gf ok say im trynna copy yes im copying given terrible idea ill posting jokes cos im funny gon na post random shit uncle told shoot drunk dohis wife died recently depressed drinks sleep every night hitting sauce extra hard aunt died lives now see much drinks visit owns handgun self defense quote burn house shoot dad scares shit im depressed point redflag know tell family member remember saying really drunk serious says sorts shit drinks know take seriously tell anyone able live guilt please help daysback september planned kill november days now feeling sad every day think month straight crying time every night hours staying morning canceling plans interacting one even seemed clear end life definitely right decision now im sad kind feel anything nothing really makes sad happy cant even cry anymore feel ive forgotten desperately needed kill reason feel im still willing know makes sense im sad im peace gun hand right now honestly think shooting heart stretch idea make feel anything know ill days im asking anything think needed rant long story short military amp go medical diagnosed type mental ailment disorder ruin career say ruin drastically change amp ultimately change job duty station rip away foundation built called suicide hotline twice seek guidance amp someone talk relation anyone around database keep calls many times con call people make known eventually chain command insight greatly appreciated suicide hotline surprisingly good movie quite good jokes thru whole movie negative thing scenes go extremes show stupid two main characters stupid blondes br br plot barely dodges called corny boobies always plus altho movie strange reason play card much even tho plot line introduces two black haired women act evil counter part two blondesbr br good movie watch almost gave lets crazy filler aksjsjkdkdlslsksjsjkdksksjskwmwmsksnnsksksj think way life blue pill waylook us miserable depressed cant see way think know everything meaningless turn suicidal thoughts make us feel better death closure everything depressed illness opinion im depressed see world full unanswerable questions seems humans need something pull us life beautiful lie tell truth things much bare walking closer towards edgei broke girlfriend years ago ive walking closer towards edge depression anxiety eating alive dont know anymore want kill bad dont balls hey everyone im currently ill idk feel rubbish vomited times last days banging headaches throughout crap sleep gotten morning trying sleep support amazing great day amazing peeps enjoy first day samesuicidaldepressioni early s really wish go garage turn car feel drain family still live home cant find job tried go college couple years ago ended failing feel wasting money time im beginning see im smart enough go college anything useful classes hard keep much ive looked shitty job know pay horrible im unlikely poverty thing ive seen parents forced live work way full time hate jobs seems thing live go work thats whats future even want another thing ive always wanted mother refuse bring child situation theyre unlikely fulfilling life sort resent parents knew money wrong thankful theyre worked provide enough eat least see overworked never time family life want life want children badly id never able afford give good life said im hard time even getting crappy minimum wage job feel guilty im adult parents still support hell even got job mcdonalds even earn enough rent plan killing someday family already lost many loved family members cant even though theyd really better never existed notea palavra final ao fatal que vai quebrar coraes vai reproduzir choros e oraes minha palavra final vai livrar de todo caos sensacional saber que posso levantar desse filme que deixa mau por isso que eu dou palavra final market game kids teens im working game called cubestep roguelike platformer game play cube stunning know best way market game know beat game absolutely good game everyone needs support side fence highly recommend taking cold showers scientifically proven help depression speak serious cases depression going thru heartbreak school redflag things take cold shower relax really bad point ending life cold showers hate think always done extent multiple reasonsi got help half year ago already lot better time one guy group friends close manages trigger fucking worthless part every single time go drink something really know definitely purpose always says something puts spiral rest night entire next day thing happened last night went bed tired think anythingnow go monday night really think go really want see firends means hours suffering afterwards know worth iti considered talking think understand next day everyone know probably know told want go friends scared used attractive vein way healthy mental illness made look terrible talking internet skin dull permanent bags eyes fuck eating habit eat munchies beer belly skinny body kids africa lost retainer teeth spacing hairline receding stress depression destroyed appearance wise well thats long cupid exists hes fucking drunk high trys shoot need consolation whole heart sick painful sad one understands even anyone comfort constant masturbation lead disinterest girls asking friend filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler told years old going kill kill caretaker loses responsibility punishment deathi think possible got years liv now years minute break brain horny jerk yes year old sister hospitalized past january attempting redflag increasingly suicidal mom know dothis january sister took entire bottle antidepressants attempt kill think panicked told mom took er later week checked mental hospital teenagers week got checked supposed mom feel faked happy never really addressed issues hours away college able really monitor aside keeping touch really good pretending ok assumed time spent hospital antidepressants taking helping mom sent link tumblr shocking talks much wants die meaning kill wimped one posts put want die already right now want die want die dont want try anymore dont want find happiness isnt done already dead let talked cutting posts many things fucked nobody understands similar situation still scars cutting meds saw therapist weekly forgottensuppressed feel way b honestly idea got talking boyfriend boom suddenly see point depressed stopped taking meds next day fine every know console talk mom pretends oh happy little background recently realized bisexual became involved church know feeling isolation due fact surrounds people think going hell im atheist care less talk beliefs feelings anything immediate thought stupid teenage angst grow none matters danger going home weekend mom town able time require immediate action sit try talk know say ive tried says fine obviously know anybody advice depressed age shut every fucking time ask help hard find reason keep goingi trans male parents still deadname dad thinks attention seeking many attempts therapy years mostly consisted think suicide around idk clinging onto depression think really completely given now potentially better far tired hopeless cling onto hope anymore ask born forced live suffer people sadthe bridge gets tempting every day ok give now lets find others birthday twin mine november th parents fuck honestly want end im feeling well already know im exhausted overwhelmed christmas comming im getting triggered everything points spend alone god feel bad fuckkkkkkkkkkkk fuck fuck update one thing motivating continue life overposted week ago basically havent able find job related degree radiates living home working shit job bipolar extremely depressed mood long distance boyfriend thought one literally wanted im pretty hesitant commitment randomly facetimed today broke blue thought didnt might kill myselfand happened dont feel suicidal moment im scared next time act im scared dad secretly famous politician going old photos saw short dad standing front millions saw old gas bills along many rejected art paintings guess ill never know happened kill im okay right nowf ive depressed probably nearly half life now point hard imagine happy every day see friends living carefree life every single thing fucking ruined either anxiety able couch somewhere last schoolyear anxiety got point panic attacks basically every day ended going school six months told better afterwards suprise isnt see future know im going anywhere im fucking useless theres litterally nothing change past weeks ive thinking redflag basically every day imagining happy let fall window bad back always felt barrier holding back right clue go im lucky supportive family know convey want comforting simultaneously want suffer want suffering end im lost right know clue im posting want chest leave reality im freaking done bs nice world hiting bricks im still going least try accomplish dreambut oh godthe little something positive view life decided fly away ive studying butt offnow selfconfidence even try helping future self stay room eat day kids know im talking smack nice kind whole life farill keep kindsomething let ruin peoples lives timebut people need someone talk toi give f homework someone life actually genuinely give spare time straight leave meyou try harder next timethey freaking leave life way came starting depressing got depression months agohere guess anyone pleasetell next stepim getting tired usually write smilies goes people plain stupid school students th th grade middle school students th th grade highschool thats country heard americans different couple years weve using platform allows teachers grade us send us messages online good students power send messages anyone school today kid th grade fucking put instagram message students whole school people edit writing someone th grade put classic rickroll link update people start sort punishment say want im boomer everything think teacher sent something important idiot announcing ig making unoriginal unfunny meme genre dinosaur animation new york time travel circusbr br main characters rex tyrannosaurus rex elsa pterodactyl dweeb parasarolophus ooo triceratops boy called louis girl called cecilia captain neweyes actors john goodman rex yeardley smith cecilia martin short stubbs clown felicity kendal elsa etcbr br happens four dinosaurs see fed brain grain cereal cuddly friendly dinosaurs going nice children go new york big plansbr br thoughts cute animated film animation dinosaurs go cuddly friendly bit floppy notsogood look pleasant way dinosaurs cuddly friendly nice friendly good almost characters featured especially elsa cecilia course others well overall film lot br br recommended people good childrens animated films people dinosaurs john goodman people think circuses always seem enjoy gen z slang teach old ladies class lot old ladies asked teach slang taught word simp need gen z words teach asked advice almost itthe first month hospital unable breathe overdosed benzodiazepines opiates drank lot alcohol good measure caught minutes death anyways ended getting committed th time cant fucking die im crazy bad experience usual lied lot always early days felt good life coming close ending want end committed actually die time idk feels im trapped tortured feel unsafe cant ward embarrassing little birb wanted say hi anyone sorting new hi lt im party im party speedwagon ive put cool costume danced babymetal ate chips juice brownie im playing music fun singing happy birthday speedwagon set im fun suppose im pathetic thenim young adult god hoping id make fifteen midlife crisis made deal things gotten better time thirty id end life later line realized ridiculous seventeen committed mental hospital three times eighteen mother passed away due cancer senior year high school seventeen really pushed edge eleven learned redflag fact balls sort person living loved lot family living father wife exwife siblings always good time feel cant anything anymore major depressive disorder general anxiety im medicated see therapist every couple weeks feel im getting anywhere lately safest serene place life bed even im sleeping sort laying imagining better world im twenty years old imaginary friends way go college job moment applied local community college per request father even though im pretty sure im going absolutely horrible cant even take shower every week going keep classes sleep maybe twenty hours day may bit stretch feels sometimes think dad side late certainly proven true see dad met woman now fiance okcupid dating site english professor seems high high standards everyone seven yearold daughter complete brat slightly ruining life much yells cant deal says bullshit ugh want much suppose know dad tells certain things around thoughts kid learn deal things censored around im cussing saying explicit things around practically demands play piano read books rarely watches tv whatever even goes ohsofancy private school hate say stereotypical crap dads fiance taiwanese im beginning wonder highass standards anything im familiar taiwanese culture anyway think high standards rubbing dad used really give shit chill felt shit time asks apply classes volunteer stuff honestly feel overwhelmed want even look either im incapable things want went university fall drop due sort meltdown third time ended mental hospital constant migraines least three four week leave sick nearly bedridden job month leave managers understand migraines make ill guess needed work getting migraines control anyway basically feeling exact except worse cant job whatever fucking reason ive applied nearly every store area even consider bit far away know wrong one wants hire thanksgiving overheard dad telling fiance cant job assume means bothering getting job never talks directly dad know cares either im kid okay first im finding extremely difficult even tolerate horrible brat child make easier sometimes think love dad times outright hate one time ate oreos package developed issues binge eating recently sucks couple years ago straightup called pathetic right face package oreos gotten today text saying ridiculous chores around house agree ridiculous im fucking depressed hell barely ass bed yeah maybe dishes takes minutes even want walk downstairs eat something comfortable ultimately survive dishes suck entire bag dicks id rather lay bed die right now thanks dad obviously goddamn issues always acts im pretty sure problems stem vivid memory laying bed young elementary school cough yelled stop coughing cant come problem become upset believe complete asshole know woman im person even yells younger brothers four eight nearly nine cant bear see treat know feels clam frightening yelled someone bigger supposed love care instead screams stupid shit oreos fuck wish move think make lot anxiety dissipate right im walking eggshells fathers fiance apparently thinking dont say hi lied dad told never thanked borrowed car cars battery dead able sleep thank something explicitly remember going office thanking saying youre welcome know heard ugh cant make good money right cant fucking job even though ive trying forever dad wonders want job instead going college whatever cant handle fulltime classes disqualifies living campus anywhere believe id job room friends itd hell lot easier heart migraines oh god migraines happen least twice week worse near menstrual cycle used month around time debilitating puke puke hours theyre manageable still point actually function one help neurologist wants schedule appointments every three months six months time want life move thanks sometimes feel good something little dad calling pathetic sets know im completely irrational honestly cant help thats irrational rabbits hole dad says im ridiculous people house fiance daughter literally people house pitch money chores guess cant give money barely chores makes useless piece shit ive disconnected friends wish stayed contact hard time approaching people hard keep touch dad acted supportive really doubt think better see future occasionally im able see cute sensitive wise even smart times right one times productive useful never list qualities ive trying better change situation working even told dad ive feeling shit recently long drawnout text therapist called heartfelt think took seriously thought bitching fiance id well still gotten now worried enough pills actually million seems may tonight kind feel sobbing bed sleeping comfortably one time love sleeping thanks reading summary im depressed right point want sleep day barely bathe even eat live father fiance seem supportive slightest ive trying best job move least something im pathetic eyes everywhere applied turned especially want mind long time guess good time suicidal ideation go awayi objectively good life one thing significantly hard husband tens thousands debt largely due medical issues subsequently always stressed never save income goes tube debt still deal invisible disability chronic pain medical procedures beyond made husband wonderful person toddler love whole healthy delightful achieved career dream getting paid art form try give back society working sick children part time outsider think great life teen attempted redflag stomach pumped next years though ive never made another attempt ive continued suffer intense suicidal thoughts somewhat dependent external circumstances high school incident swore mother never every time ive gotten close anything ive remembered promise look pain precious child destroyed without yet much sends state panic sorrow continue suffer trauma rape decade ago past many ways sexual assault news sometimes feel im girl room im getting help therapist low dosage anti depressants years everything causes anxiety even things good example objectively least mediumlevel attractive yet obsess ugly feel reality damned hate stomach cant let go achieved career dream yet states panic writing next book deadline cant moment lose temper daughter think oh well ill angry fucked mom mine daughter better without im trying say matter good self hatred intense desire disappear earth consumes sometimes ways harken back year old oded ambien champagne years therapy antidepressants good life still struggle much anxiety many moments want die better broken person dont feel anyone talk say look good life theyre right tonight think wanted jump window dont understand really dont im uselessfirst please forgive formatting im mobile little background im bipolar self injure terrible self esteem abandonment issues im lost married man know loves understand depression mood swings fits anger try explain listen hes amazing recently lost job find one anywhere im putting applications everyday one calls im point feel im burden suitable wife im useless think redflag constantly put happy face getting fake ive told husband leave see someone come home know good enough never things want feel hes stuck outrageous mental defect life going good went downhill pretty fast depressed left house months severe redflag nowhere think suicide almost one attempt failed scared fail way issues sad things feel pointless want dieim constantly numb cant stop thinking killing im unemployed cant access meds therapy neither job due paperwork issues im waiting green card renewal ask friends family dirt poor cant stop thinking redflag ive talked hotlines help people keep saying gets better really feels wont hurts alive im doomed life underemployment discrimination maybe dying best want stop scaredi want die want die bad want end want hang overdose something maybe gas asphyxiation want quickly want fall unconscious wake fucking amazing brain ive endowed likes fun make thought committing act terrifying im scared death im scared dying im scared dead im scared making dead terror instinctual deeprooted illogical want die bad im done closer every day started making plan moved every day getting bit closer closer executing plan plan attempting failing hopefully inevitably work willpower want work places go found done methods mind plans action put consideration ive done lot planning lot thought need willpower need fear go away maybe chug ample liquor around ive always good kid never drank done drugs im sure ill able good buzzed pretty quickly sounds easy sounds fun finally fucking done expending effort takes exist anyone wan na talk im lying bed pretty bored rn idk figured im talk cause late night convos best yeah pm chat vibe ig one hourim going hour someone help tbhi kinda feel sorry idk whyi dont believe tbh end day said todays birthday someone everyone said happy birthdaybut worthless now got surprised cake gift cards personally didnt make happy yes happy justidk made feel worthless sometimes got reason whyive done bad life accept thatthey dont accept friendthey accept weirdo annoying loser ill accept fate statistic ambitions good arent ambitious allso yeahi need motivation training thoughts really intense feeling cant take anymore days lasts couple hours couple weeks ago lasted days days nonstop really sure going itthe thought brought sense relief sense calm really think want diehad remember depressive feelings hopelessness depression id know guys coping strategies ways help feelings stop weather relentless storm less intense week beforethat height farbut im still getting wait one minute one minute one butit almost enough thats scary think verycomforting think way know go last resorti think handle life anymore think meant live long anyway always thought id kill now burden family unable function adult completely miserable tired burnt existing better everyone dead want die want try tread water anymore still feels drowning brain constantly fogged muddled feel im experiencing life even thoughts shift work car realize remember nearly anything went day suppose life monotonous forgettable theres wall glass rest world see mine cant touch experience thing side glass clear coherent thoughts loneliness numbness depression college shitty community college work feel pointless consuming im supposed want teacher ive day plans come future ones end grave energy actually pull plans redflag im much tired die mention ive developed couple eating disorders past two years first anorexia binge eating ive lost pounds gained back half feel disgusting unlovable control stuck know im burden everyone nothing make family miserable ill never enough anyone want die im exhausted wish die sleep know im hoping posting know guess last resort vent everything event decide end know know nearly im wishing dead nothing left words maybe tomorrow kill hopes im fucking sick redflag hotlineim depressed im mentally ill even want die want live want finish school go college want job kids married decision based emotions based facts loosen bad redflag besides loss world die im another waste space whatnot guys help one online friend saying going commit redflag australia slovakia really lonely said going today please help know say hate cousins one cousin year old male cousin year old female started loooong argument saying sirenhead comes night minecraft tried explaining mods complain parents im grounded ruins day wake lol morning wake dissapointment worth theres girl right weve relationship weeks said ex tells wait find someone idk boys abuses drugs alcohol instead actually getting medical treatment depression never thought id thiswhen school still hope thought find something wanted apply always yet university losing drive skipping classes assignments thought comfortable slipping life alone family yet im alone talk anyone days time im family feel constricted stressful trying present version want see thought girlfriend least engage flirting casual relationships yet never experienced anyone really romantically sexually interested im ashamed lie university work friends family im ashamed lazy gone psychologist months im ashamed challenging thoughts asked family friends supportive lucky continuously stressed trying disappoint try worthy affection think parents better served different child feel im burden friends feel foolish caring relationships everyone says care yet pine others cherish relationships easier feelings pretend matter people say need wait happen im going waiting rest life seems feel foolish sometimes come thinking one cute someone unattractive abrasive boring anyone desire undesirable noone crush downloaded tinder made profile got zero matches weeks using friends racked uo tens matches think im weird opinionated noone really interested say romantically alone forever seen happiness future long assume things better im good enough see stress uncertainty unfortunately live australia hard kill relatively quickly pain cant find easy way kill work current small residence im afraid im afraid screwing ending permanently disabled disfigured afraid locked away mental health ward suicidal want pass peacefully cant deal life drank mix alcohol blood pressure pillsi feel really numb need find courage iti cant live world cant happy desire keep anything im still going work insignificant wish courage mind lay cold woods alone peace slit wrists ways dying extreme torturous cant want course cant let anyone know fuck dynamic thing look forward easier nothing want die dire circumstances id rather go still privelages still enjoy still basic necessities life done total peace meditate feel fear etc eventually hopefully enough peace watched neighbors house go fire please practice fire safety please please please fire breaks anyway please safe possible one died poor people cant live home right michigan winter pandemic ill take bonks bonk youre looking people bonk ill scapegoat take bonkening list people never gotten along dont plan along milk drinkers people pure bred dogs aquarius people really breakout rooms school people bad reading loud feel im attention seekingi hate living dont even know im alive cant answer damn want die maybe cutting wrist answer people telling im attention dont want attention ill happily speak talk anyone sit bridge hours ill still attention seeking damn urghhh need die lost brother heres feellong time lurker first time poster sub lost brother back december selfinflicted gsw let tell feels side emotions come along received phone call mother fall floor tears life forever changed nothing rewind time brother years old life live next two weeks absolute whirlwind cant even describe emotions come seeing brother full life three days prior laying funeral home preparing final physical days earth leave letter wrote board im sorry many questions never answer cremated per wishes healing beganor tried begin strong headed family show weakness sense matter push every obstacle way let tell death family rocks redflag family absolutely shatters every emotionlogical sense imagine eight months lost brother family still shaken core parents absolutely devastated troubles anything positive outlook lives sister sick incurable controllable disease managing day day family member medicated plan keeping way someone try keep family afloat let tell easy sister due illness decided hysterectomy longer able children brother longer leaves continue family name become accepting never uncle never nieces nephews easiest thing world hurt pain miss brother miss moon back wish come home every single day another day without forever void soul without melancholy follows around rest life happy sad times forever never see birth childchildren wedding bbq new house take first legal beer spend summers reminiscing kids point post loved even though may seem people world care even sub promise better many many many resources help feeling ending take breath talk someone reach many resources disposal care love want walk earth without tldr brother passed world still shattered eight months later love please go im gon na end fuck lifeguys hard truth islife luck fucking shitty lifeno brothersisterparent divorce see mom fuck rich man change home every year loose friendsalways first school wanted go live dadmom break phone smash call brother smash force stay momi usless surgeryadenoidectomieafter loose souli longer feel anything emotionstiredhungryso longer sleepeven hours sport cant sleep secondemy mom throw dad due circunstance marry rich man rise kids leave rubbishnow im stuck years old body everweak shit years sleep alli even fucking erectionim longer good schoolmy dad call fucking crazygirl etci know life ruined cant anything change nobody helpim gon na kill inhaling vodka throw fucking body subwaypeace fuck life fuck god fuck everything wish reborn good health family brother alone wan na buy pocket psy self want parents parents finding yall give ideas stuck throwing girls feel normal shutting everyone alonei post rdepression people rarely comment unless click bait got hospital failed last attempt best behavior week straight finally let worth finally properly end things tonight always give bunch pills discharge helped sign death certificate trying tonight white girls built fucking refridgerator always got highest standards nah bitch im sorry cant high standards whole ass quadrilateral wanting die cantive manic depression years suicidal ideation included thought abusive household medicated thoughts go away havent still strong urge kill tonight came outlet im afraid die genuinely want stopping family ive moved away job take care elderly personal support worker enough least tonight dont know know better give suicidal parts eventually nightmare end right im danger dont want anyone panic dont anything apartment feasibly kill im really struggling really want die last attempt october want give family time process betteri really want die living feels wrong im sure ill never satisfied life matter much try im medication go therapy speak languages study two careers time yet feel im stupid useless person existed friends still feel lonely people think im pretty cant even look without crying eyes barely eat take showers anymore im taking care deserve alive want anyway im disgusting ungrateful worst person existed ive trying make plan redflag seems accident last attempt october want make parents sister go experience love self harm rn promised mom anymore ive clean two months seem worth know offbrand right point falls floor lands fluff fluff someone enters room end pretty unrealistic scenario didnt anticipate anything happened except fluffing probably cuz redacted probably expected realistic hello im b e questionn answer reference f matters u ask dms actually flooded w creeps okay stream running obs black screen hours idk fuck stream went tf found went phub realized streamline black screen ion fucking know say yeaeeeahh excuse bitch know name smack cross roooooooom im sure anyone proud im posting anyway stood mom maybe first time history im shaking every time walk room sister constantly disrespect quiet even tho theyre reason happens im scared talk came room ask telescope said needed taking im proud finally took stand tldr finally stood disrespectful mother fan paris jetaime went see new york love high expectations gladly walked expectations met funny sweet fastpaced entertaining film starts two cab hoppers bradley cooper justin bartha trying area arguing way go funny film goes best skits seen anywhere four amazing ones good ones four start talking one features shia labeouf bellhop hotel finds love old lady next one features orlando bloom music maker business woman played christina ricci another one features anton yelchin olivia thirbly two people going prom thirblys character handicapped best one features eli wallach cloris leachman bickering old couple bring attention nataile portman makes impressive directorial debut directing writing skit caretaker ethan hawke maggie q excellent flirting man hooker new york love definitely good better paris jetaime skits wellpaced film shows indie films really film many famous directors paris jetaime fantastic live excellence want laugh see great dramatic effects see amazing amount great performances plain entertained definitely go see new york love hate want retype hands shake ampxb httpsredbirdcompersonalpersonalthreehttpsredbirdcompersonalpersonalthree ampxb let lesson road safety anyone conversation im really bored rn hmu ig anything fineim yr old boy fucking old ass dad always shouts play computer says fucking study knows top student science school even care thinks im lazy planning kill today fucking home ill find overpass throw cars passing anyone comment bunch posts replies feel less lonely im right now chronic asthma allergy feel sick everyday tired gasp breath even simplest tasks able work home barely getting tired burned hard even simple tasks acute attacks trigger feels life ripped body struggle oxygen add allergy foods means able eat foods weakened digestion suffer pain food poisoning eat something may contain allergic ingredients sometimes feel exist every day samegetting dragging shitty body work even unable keep normal tasks getting rebuked work coming home repeating thing imagine fucking death watching people die due lack oxygen painful even watch eat anything drink gasping breath coupled depression makes experience even better tired seen wonderful production wonder anyone tell anything actress played blacksmiths wifei sure characters name went byu lost touch herher maiden name kim lukeand wonder anyone info listed credits production outstanding tearjerker accounts superb acting guess even want put general category acting portraying feeling amazing events led opening heavens final dispensationsomething anyone worked kim website something please let know fantastic role waythanks melissa thorne im embarrassment need endedall fill family shame worry im pretty much useless point better dead dont burden anybody know every response going convincing ive heard anyone anything say feel free dont want exist planet anymore wish options cant go back college reason stay alivemy college announced cant go back essentially entire year thing made happy first time felt happy live horrible home situation indefinitely see reason stay alive know ill eventually go back dont think survive another year want kill go hellobviously title assume im christcuck im proudly christian ill take advice anyone want jesus dont want hurting dont want see dont let people around see ive tried dont know anymore dont know im really tired got ta early mornin reckon ill stay around im edge right now try stay away going online im cause say things dont mean dont want go hell selfishness literally living everyday lasteverytime talk someone think wonder theyll react find im dead tomorrow eating something probably last meal think ill actually means proper plan kill ready times im particularly depressed right three years know healthy gives sort peace deal anything anymore good morning anonymous redflag notei know guys time deal swimmingly fact helped occasions different accounts thank ye tired exhausted almost two months ago serious depression thoughts occurred cheated left moved regret tried reaching letting know serious care well fuck started years ago father died collapsed skinny ugly person inside emotions thoughts crush wish make understand random stranger way know making choice talk least give suggestion last day tell everyone love write notes send videos antidepressants helping therapy helping many people save even act want ive going insane feel peace knowing im life beautiful hope goes little better mine love thank everything help situationhey reddit responded post day person stated former military addiction issue dming quickly realizing head really idea know person call local police wellness check looking suggestions user akumaxchumli guidance appreciated live society mitochondria powerhouse cell holy fucking shit redditors assholes last pos tliterallt comments got encouraging kill myselfand noi wasnt karma whoringlook historyi clearly despise yesi probably gon na end doign unless reddit usually offer atleast support nopefucking encouragement yeahuimafemboybitch im doign said much welcome realized opposidte windmil darwin woaww teenaregrs ash teenagers hahaaaaa want kill im scared dieim need help find courage kill mean particular reason everyone uses throws away shouted lunch time people constantly call whore tell nobody wants sometimes teachers join call disgusting talk class disgusting think everyone basically hates person bf ended cheating different girls told pretended fall love sleep said actually said im weird struggle lot mental health issues ive trying hard better hard people stuff every single day said im crazy everyone thinks stand didnt want everyone hate told im suicidal said youre wont really want im scared dont want family especially little brothers find scared affect cant anymore wish someone shoot really hard understand movie watched expectations knowledge story games completely blown awaybr br initially wondered characters sort superpowers called final fantasy wondered clouds past easy enough look way questions spoil enjoyment movie though opposite shows kept thinking story long seeing moviebr br one beautiful movies eyes seen music supports movie completely characters incredible br br want try rtx double price many bots rly instantly idk maybe keep rly need jew sell im barbie girl barbie world life plastic fantastic brush hair undress everywhere imagination life creation im blond bimbo girl fantasy world dress make tight im dolly doll rocknroll feel glamour pink kiss touch hanky panky people understand tell evade answers feel monstrosity shut blinds outside world hide away worry morning upcoming day night arrives fine right turns turbulent redflag night shake head one feels way take meds daily occurrence end hate paranoia internal mindset told better change try frankly thats never good answer wish end without sufferingfrankly want dead life change whatever mental suffering stop world never change feel place cant happy every day torture wish die accidently naturally go sleep never wake hit car face instant death want please point staying alive never happy reached limit know post change thing neither comments needed vent somewhere im shitif someone mean feeling someone treats unfair way tend really angry think called impulsive started university two weeks people already noticed cant shut need always problem friend told might killed someday girl studies told maybe go therapist behaviour already ive years now want anymore tried hard change really thought want go university anymore im shit life shit ill never happy really want leave world better without mefor last months ive feeling hurdle world people approach need something im grad school new university seems everybody built friendships undergrad years theres need used group friends online ive part fell apart january bloke ive pretty close turned cold towards towards rest group yes ive tried reach take initiative complicated subject uni judging professor talks assumes dumbo yes mr professor sir count much suspect profiling im girl long blond hair wear glasses talk students even fail answer questions thursday lost new friend speaking mind friend public place suggested go separate ways entirety today straw broke camels back cashier rude made honest mistake mum showed vividly care less feelings talked dad world much better place without im inconvenient uninteresting stupid death increase worlds intelligence overall happiness margin fair tired inconvenient ashamed existing circumstance people find efficient way make least mess death people deal cry whenever rewatch show already know whats coming currently bawling eyes end season orange new black problem experiment try new things life feel restrained parents arewould try stop mecare completely dread form judgement even though intellectually know passively disapprove leads strange emotional situation desperately want experiment personality terrified step line fear literally nothing solutions dilemma welcome black hair look good best thing everits enough make fall love someone god hate liberal gen z problem liberals need political diversity libertarian somewhat centrist gen z somewhat becuase social media incredibly liberal cant different opinion whatever main stream thoughts although premise movie involves major coincidence actors creditable job look great bringing story life found rooting characters played mary tyler moore christine lahti empathizing wanting reconcile sam waterston ted danson fine roles well decent job stereotypical buddy relationship story tends leap time occasionally leaving audience perhaps little hungry missing detail still flows avoids real confusion interesting storyline elements good chick flick see lot yall asking somebody close suicidal thoughts answer make sure know positively impact life crush suicidal thoughts maybe go give self esteem boost love youre going something similar talk problems makes feel safe opening talk think theyre gon na great future coming someone wishes friends lost friendcrush redflag id think know thing two look worst best pics think fuck person seriously supposed know actually look march august years constant pain cant handle anymore im gon na meet best friend tonight fun one last time go home maybe spend time cat call siblings text friends pretend go bed hang parents asleep ive done research written note even tested noose thanks support ive received subreddit goodbye sitting work reading postsso im sitting work reading posts make feel many things sadness numbness sick time people feel feel hate knowing people feel way wish change always scolded friends nice people want know never want people feel feel never know someone going moment nice someone change persons mind ending life hide depression least try family good friends know dont know bad gets besides immediate family dont talk cant words dont come mouth hate feeling pain suffocating hurts people try help dont understand unless go something similar every single day think death every single day never attempted redflag completely scenes crossed mind almost visions want help help doesnt even help medications dont work therapy doesnt feel fucked feel defeated im lazy im tired dont energy care anything exhausting vent many others truly feel end life soon understand extent feel way love talk love helping others maybe help may bit hypocritical dont really consider bc dont think truly go final punch remember people care even dont think sometimes monsters head want feel try constantly tell tomorrow new day maybe something positive come always think overdosing xanax getting blackout drunki feel lonely bored always fantasize killing xanax alcohol itd thing keep feeling lonely want anyways didnt hear death horny russian space geckos years old hear another failed redflag attemptim sorry need chest cant take anymore pain numbing sadness feeling guilt reason selfloathing voices everything want stop tried end always fail lost count failed attempts im weak im failure cant even kill properly mind wouldnt shut numbing sadness wouldnt stop none stop gotten fight mum couldnt take anymore already ledge pushed got noose already tied hidden closet mum wasnt home moment father work time tied bar closet high climbed onto shelf closet closet small easily able reach noose stuck head tested moving ledge shelf high enough properly kill thought slid shelf held arms almost let go close saw picture mum picture hugging light still eyes hadnt left looked happy picture mum happy mind filled memories mum remembered words told always love broke crying pushed back onto shelf sat crying couldnt wanted couldnt scared scared mum react remembered say mess one kids died still alive remembered said shed probably kill selfish tried kill even heard mum say painful loose child devastated im still selfish want die still want kill even though mum sad im terrible im coward run im ungrateful people dying cancer hospitals people much worse yet hating fact im alive trying end life much better people yet wish die im ungrateful selfish coward shouldve never born ok judge movie days fit wellif watched fi stage everything pretty cheese agreebut movies s thatgilliganwonderwomanasobut people born early mid s earlier cult status evertime plane approach tattoo run tower ring bell accent yell da plane boss da plane wonder everybodys wish bepeople born mid s later understand hippe watched nowit harry potterjurassic park computer animation fxit stage probably even almost see wire attached guy whos wish able flybut us time fantasy island someone bonk feels ive forever everything exact every week got school home watch youtubetv day repeat point feels ive done life everything feels distant life thinking friends really happen feels different one fun friends school think future hope someday ill overcome endless cycle nothingness luckily years till college hopefully change things btw months till im healoo fello guys sooo friends hav discord server trying new peoplee chat send memes play games minecrsft among us theres ppl console nintendo channel channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia stuff going commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link d im calling uyoutakethemoon poisoned put water supply burnt crops delivered plaughr upon houses took username bit long back story adopted child proper legal adoption residency order live aunt uncle underdetermined amount time year aunt uncle split uncle kept aunt one actually related social services never really got involved past point uncle adoptive father started dating woman come know mum always knew werent biological destructive relationship adoptive father incredibly abusive towards attempted stabbing trying set fire front never abusive towards fact treated untouchable fostered resentment mum eventually spilt years ago ive spoken dad sincemy mum works hospital informed admitted ward works potentially lung cancer mum practically gleeful cosmic karma horrible person im uncomfortable happy hes ill ive really spoken shes one suffered cant really tell deal seems bit much happy wish man whos going thru bs im going thruwe depressedmiserable together hate whole world together intimate kids cuz capable taking care unstable minds someone feels exact way feel alone anymore sighsss thirty years initial release third version star born finally comes dvd package please devoted fans barbra streisand include saw concert singing among numbers feminist anthem woman moon film easy dismiss movies careerpolarizing story sturdy pile hollywoodstyle clichs variations exist films including streisands funny girl time reset thencontemporary music scene timeworn plot follows selfdestructive rock star john norman howard deepdive career descent meets club singer esther hoffman awaiting big breakbr br troubles dog courtship outset john norman names please responds grasping fans bloodless djs random acts violence inexplicably escapes prosecution john norman esther represents last shot happiness turn drawn innately decent creative musician underneath faade movies pivotal scene gives esther big break benefit concert career takes inevitably cant handle failure career light meteoric success familiar version story know rest directed frank pierson although streisands budding directorial talents obviously display film still manages draw even though know shamelessly contrived manipulative still certain emotional resonance despite numerous flawsbr br although streisand prime seems ideal choice play rising singing star screen persona simply strong predefined play esther credibly said performing style script seems make allowances softer adult contemporaryoriented material accepted within hardened world arena rock moment pops head middle oreos cant help come across established star forgive lapse simply unparalleled vocal talent becomes less forgiving makes esther strident poignant john normans woes become overwhelming creates oddly discomfiting dynamic last part film becomes less caused climactic event esthers response capped uninterrupted eightminute closeup memorial performance great except regrettably mimics john normans style toward endbr br kristofferson hand gives superb performance throughout managing level honesty grounds film makes palpable concurrent feelings love pride resentment toward esther makes vodkasoaked onstage growling work within context always strikes strange version supporting characters relegated background exist unless interacting two principals ones register paul mazursky john normans levelheaded manager brian gary busey cynical band manager bobbie veteran cameraman robert surtees provides nice burnish cinematography though level graininess persists print big seller day soundtrack hodgepodge different styles s songs still quite good everything woman moon watch closely now moved kitsch queen bee kenny loggins believe love course inescapable evergreenbr br print transfer dvd clean sound gratefully crisp thanks digital remastering streisands participation chief lure extras beginning featurelength commentary gives insightful information genesis film casting reportedly troubled production refreshingly candid megalomania jon peters hairdresser boyfriend became movies producer dissatisfaction pierson director wish provided scenespecific comments directly relate screen tends repeat anecdotes mood strikes eg gets tiring hear third time person playing chauffeur friend peters think second commentator drawn nuggets herbr br wardrobe test reel shows amusing s clothes especially kristoffersons mixedfabric poncho orange polyester shirt twelve deleted scenes included streisands optional commentary one comic breadbaking scene reminded much streisand farcical comedies another extended scene plays evergreen guitar front awestruck kristofferson falls asleep interesting alternate take musical finale incorporating fast cuts agree streisand used fittingly theatrical trailers three versions star born included nobody gets enough love anymore people say attractive people think world lot polite actually think sucks world polite accepting black friends lot hate online person wtf fault born way im make internet little polite heres virtual hug maybe kiss deserve notice pain want know well love hope made daynight little better suffering take hug anyways love amazing people incredible talents personalities uninstalled social media apps except whatsapp reddit days ago asked crush long story short left seen cant say depressed really sad school fake smiles everytime theres one person knows story prepared tell others one day saw story crush started smoking really fan smoking people tried speak normal way sending memes kept leaving seen im weeb started watching romancedrama animes make feel better loved sakuta bunnygirl senpai thrown away smartphone distance people following actions yesterday uninstalled social media apps except whatsapp reddit distance people keep distracted reinstalling apps bought manga books read find better sorry english bad sometimes english native language sick killing next summeri cant live anymore im giving time write letters cant anymore die loveless dumbass shitty age thats fine doubt anyone wants letter maybe simple goodbye suffice something beginning surely end right soon believe nothing maybe enough courage afraid afterlife actually believe nothingness made sub ridkpogthighchurch join bubs cant cope anymorei badly want end thing preventing hurting family friends talk cant talk family feel completely destroyed person know anymore posted yet everyone probably experienced redflag one isolating conditions even adult surrounded adults school feel isolated really disappointing students class cant seem grasp concept redflag people veterans fundamental lack understanding resulted alienation reason dissociations sufferers former military unacceptable screw hookups sex want friend group laugh want midnight cravings go convenient store late night gazing neon signs filling dark sky purchase cheap ramen want cuddles boyfriend want go walk listening music playlist sun slowly setting totally okay youre virgin treating flexseeing person weird virgin wrong miss h going reddit morning noticed friends dm said name one member user deleted feel lost part please come back hope see devastated school makes want kill myselfi cant fucking math cant literally impossible instead trying help students schools punish students dont know fuck polynomials work thing school taught im reason cant math rid problem stuff good mainly drumming gets taken away fail class cant even problems life fault parents care anymoreim studying living parents depressed th grade never trusted psychiatrists never got help except random spiritual people nowadays say even shout ill kill say go hell worse emotion mother facebook addict father addicted tv technology took away people every day return college mom gives something eat talks food whenever try talk anything deliberately starts avoiding simply walks away goes facebook watches videos cats talented people father returns watches sports documentary go back room watch youtube maybe homework whenever cant show happiness day later possesed yesterday pet cat creature world shows real love eat everything find love go sleep wake try change better run energy sleep yesterday tied belt around neck felt good know door hell matter gravity letting go fear failing keeps back long tldr franz kafka metamorphosis irl tips stop drinking much soda im fat considering much soda drink really im addicted soda done worse bad acne hard maintain white teeth makes chubby realized better stop becomes life long thing case wondering either coke mtn dew recommend music listen im bored cant fall asleep guys know good songs bands people karma long planning keep virginity playlist dry af recommend songs listen ill listen anything except country thx playlist dry past month feel free give music recommendations title says ill listen anything except country slim jim kid forgot name im going call sj slim jim ill story soon middle school rd period pe pretty quickly sj became friend girl talking period every day funny adventures together first ill talk slim jim story sj always looked behind bleachers bo reason coach never paid attention one day sj found old hard gross slim jim sj asked wanted shank steven kid everyone hates especially told stupid idea asked girl hung us told holding back laugh sj shanked kid meat stick another less funny event forgot adhd meds managed break glasses attack friend steven days days pushing kid half size away girl foot taller didnt hurt got mad avoid head first charging minutes day got yelled pushing sj got sent nurse charging students head first told sj bi thought meant slept guy girl explain attracted someone different sex illegally conversation went lgbtq stuff reason thought trans girl definitely wasnt sj youre reading go help buddy insane tldr crazy friend shanked kid stick meat insane things helping everyone going help hearing comments make depression makes feel disgusted thought understand feels one seems care disappear one notice wrong want everyone tired keeping everything one talk sorry need tired national people day instead womans day mens day celebrate every human matter trying eat food park peace dumb crackhead bitches parking lot right next riding bike circles true story theyre pissing rn crush groped little forewarning go somewhat depth touched friends told crush f m friends along time hoping pass fast forward days walk biology class surprise sat class chose seat next hybrid schedule share environmental bio class teacher told us partner table partner grouped work learning module pretty shy first min say much decided break silence ask day went back forth started talk sperate live going talking tried look chest wearing somewhat reavling shirt period time started started share mentioned uncle arrested something tried put hand thigh comforting manner ended turning side face hand landed crotch area immediately fell silent faces flushed red neither 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original thought element everything really great unrecognizable americans known rest world unfortunately clips speak misery people world see many give damn itbr br top loach penn inarritu lalouche imamura hope reincarnation doesnt existthis really redflag never want return earth pass even best conditions even come back everything world even though still good world terrible place dont want return reason sure okaydisclaimer think want kill im tired struggling force mundane tasks im tired going sleep feeling nothing next day look forward im tired convincing make better journal lots sleep study hard exercise things pick im tired convincing every day smoke little weed take tiny sip vodka feel better able relax function normal productive member society im tired feeling nothing enough im tired feeling guilty whenever try relax always something improve chances getting job list goes im tired thanks coming ted talk mods mad got completely server muted discord server spam voice gifs called discord mods fat pedophiles mod voice smh starting today im going attempt fix sleep schedule school starts couple days plan go sleep yeah interesting story ik guess id set fail life goodbye world hope happier without meas title says im stuck right now fight past two days work finances ive helpful fulltime office job cant fulltime office job nearly got terminated resigned instead avoid shame fucked bigtime previous workplace fed way deal time workdesks manipulated time system thats reason quiti really lot ampxb said know still employed right now im freelance recruiter manager esl teachers earn much operations started recentlyi five teachers im paid per class done money runs quickly frustrated lately regards ampxb life surely better gone shit nmom edad focused whats wrong life nmoms help maybe id greatpaying supervisory job now hell least something bearable ampxb unfortunately think still employed maybe life meant perhaps better dead start call center similar toxic work environment perhaps right photographer case goodbye everyone broken dreams someone hand gun exactly one bullet chambered please edit spent hell time trying another job prior resignation want hire help want write shit boring articles anymore suicidal girl met online suddenly stop suicidal become happy never realized till blocked liked date kept getting thoughts date year blocked became confused found waited year started getting suicidal thoughts helped rid thoughts never realized never told want date feel live without talked many girls online n person feel one actually talk people say move know explain live without feel found person actually fell love messed know want know ur thoughts someone teach language heyim caroline wan na learn language wan na start anything advanced thocomment interested hate quarantine miss able socialize people even though im awkward chill friends wish talk girl person cant almost year quarantine started im slowly growing insane think im going kill sooni think killing time im always much pussy actual follow first problem never find anything relatively painless methods guaranteed kill embarrassing attempted redflag live deal pity people know second problem father already lost mother long time ago know im last link want father honestly im getting point think might selfish end sake know hurt people know honestly im sure care anymore ive lived long want control fate hate ungodly degree sometimes imagine ripping skin crawl im trash useless death mean nothing life meant nothing really nothing confess plan exact plan yet idea im either gon na swallow bleach bug poison high drugs dont know drugs yet hope kills thanks reading guess please follow footsteps im idiot last resort actually feeling trash second day feeling trash crying idk school started crusader kings point call redflag hotlineive thinking ive worried whether know im worthy attempted redflag yet im commit redflag suicidal thoughts showing multiple times per day call redflag hotline boyfriend broke help im spiraling im watching assassination classroom right far bad even fit birds shite sub man yutes west yano kid please someone talk meim panic attack induced nightmare ex bf havent slept years nightmares traumas life im turn see ability turn life around right im hyperventilating holding razor neck cards dealt horribly ruined life trying school mom dad dead adopted parents hate tried kick police said wait im im tired burden unloveable everyone says im young make decision ive suicidal rd grade havent exhausted every option dont care want sleep im uselesss unloveable whats point suffering one stopping everyone around says ok movie best film cant remember last time movie drawn tears tear eye admire movie elements good movie must excellent dialogues music acting storyplot story friendship courage kindliness loyalty street performing famous king masks little girl sold boy serf bazaar little girl liked granddaughter king masks liked grandson conventional real every scene together priceless camera work flawless grips acting inspired xu zhu excellent king masks renying zhou doggie looks pretty played character well zhigang zhao liang sao lang great played helpful kindhearted character extremely well havet movie try watch well disagree leonard maltin animated short loves claimed hilarious enjoyed see humor even hockey know anything still loved story living right across border canada watched hockey years buffalobut think much cartoon oh interesting know happen wore toronto jersey quebec area disaster especially holds true glory years les canadians make story funny br br back s everyone quebec provinces idolized montreal canadians star player maurice richard everyone wanted mother orders new sweater toronto maple leafs emblem kid want caught dead wearing finally heads local rink gets ostracized rest hockey buddies whats funny see thing happening kid boston red sox diehard mom gets yankees shirt horrors wear viceversabr br maybe someone follow sports maltin situation seems odd humorous himbut fact life bittime sports fan favorite team interesting story totally believable nothing made laughbr br art fun look throughout almost looking long series crayon paintings done talented school kid french canadian accent good movie part dvd leonard maltins animation favorites national film board canada females late teen mark need help context m autistic social understanding recognising someones emotions based facial expression voice alone hard want ask someone either attention something try hide feelings fail miserably dont suspect girl know likes way case thing yknow br br seen movie many times least dozen unfortunatly recently etched memory never leave scene mickey rooney killer mears knows executed getting close moment truth dances cries laughs vacillates hesteria euphoria runs gambit emotion never seen brilliant performance actor living dead past present know sure mickey rooney yes andy hardy actor great genius kept opinion years thinking surely must alone viewpoint years saw film last time television chanced read old q section los angeles times question posed lawrence olivier question mr olivier considered one greatest actors time consider among greatest actors answer peter finch mickey rooney stunned surprised immediatly flashed back killer mears felt good seen great ability view supported another whos work admired later course bill many great moments mikey rooney film last mile seen acting students frankly remember great deal film years mr rooney never leave anyone remembers film interested hearing picture etched heart alone gave face performance quick message everyone breathing blinking manually looking amazing today want talk buti want talk im afraid tried asking problem radvice respondents sided source pain im distrustful professional therapists go detail got hit wanted happen attitude prevalent western society want go away think will though im afraid pain nonexistence going end hell anyway bully probably going find new victim die make life miserable mine going kms bring together hell least one suffer going kms take away right sticky sticky ricky got stuck inside chimney finally ready dieive depressed long time never truly happy suffering due ugliness unforgivingness idiocy hatred family country two days ago straw broke camels back mom one people truly believed believed told failure never amount anything always trying latch bit hope miserable life trying best stay alive hoping happy ending trying find someonesomething live foror maybe finally able love someone curious phenomenon wait see give life meaning rather let stay pain sure possible anymore every day ask life going become worthwhile going matter long run worth embarrassmentthe tearsthe painand work maybe one mistake ruin endured knowing knowing much idiot knowing even defending believe worst situation one live right now due much sure life never going liveable never mind good matter matter hard try always broken unrepairable guess good bye cruel world im going kill myselfi hate im going kill soon set date know im going jump bridge know going soon im going stay true word cry help promise theres saving hate cant sleepi much mind ik im tired thoughts keeping im thinking go jail one day seeing warrants hate life cant understand others blessed everything possibly want nothing sure family loves cares u want die wish luck magically come way miracles actually thing anyone make life worth living dont want die want live full life kids see kids right dont see anything bright future darkness hope light end tunnel im tired acting everything ok im tired saying im sleepy someone ask whats wrong shouldnt wish bad anyone especially mother wish dead go killing self mom reason im still alive dont want kill self knowing cry years thinking failed really failed self god hate em much u watch ur creations suffer much suffering entertainment u u actually love us eyes u pick choose u love bless cant understand people world hell earth want go theres nothing im fit time rather born slaver maybe drive fight sex comedy though driven fantastically imaginative plot concentrates effectively relationship filmdirector crew process filmmaking whilst successfully addressing dynamics human relationships specifically issues problems encountered actors involved filming sex scenes director jeanne features prominently throughout carries plot forward place narrator gives us numerous little pearls wisdom think social commentator relating assistant others problems finds new male lead way associating masculine stereotype ambiguous relationship typifies something human nature tendency fickle one hand two seem close sight claims hate jeanne addresses masculine pride perhaps feminist take thingsbr br taboo constitutes obscenity raised content sex scenes considered obscene beautiful fakeness constitutes obscenity directors justification doubly ironic film watch construct within constructbr br theres film relationships course watching film simply question analysing sake drawing sort meaning one delight natural lighting pervades movie makes realistic believable static camera sometimes used taking heavy composition times camera appears shaky home movie looking something fun watch sunday afternoon heavy still leaves thinking thing keeping alive inability think method people love believe accident wantthrowaway obviously metaphor struggle depression writer plenty articles write cant focus anymore think exboyfriendnot want back im kind crazybut strung along fwb posting much hated posting lies acting kind enough face couldnt found reddit use independently said spoke afraid kill didnt cant kill hed vindicated hate taking option away regrettably friends want take sides alternate partynights main friend hosts believe friends care one good friend outside circle town loyal friends international now cant go know make new friends know anyone want friend fat failing twentysomething guts apply work abroad barely enough work making money alli live home parents truly love though never want find body bathtub want die broken heart know live one problems big enough justify redflag disinterested living anymore edit adding exs betrayal evidence four years picked good man ex first boyfriend sexual assault sexual assault man love abandoned one favorites betty white leslie neilson sparkle romantic comedy one business executive reevaluates life based expectation death within year playboy tired golddigging young women seeks relationship vital mature woman got silver hair andor romance heart microwave popcorn curl honey prepare treat spot fake apology time hello rteenagers today want share wisdom spot fake apology dont always apply time mainly want share know people genuinely trying apologize apologizing group chat friends might fake apology usually done private group chat basically saying hey guys look apologized stop mad said wont always apply instance tried apologize private wouldnt let try shift blame little one feel hit miss people naturally talk way without intending rude say things well well kinda trying shift blame onto seems justified feel forgive hey maybe fault wasnt reason theyre theyre apologizing let back friend group reinvited somewhere might fake apology really wanted stay friend group wouldnt done thing let back gives chance something uninvite somewhere birthday wedding apologize back spend time enjoy lazar tag things spot said guaranteed apology fake mean want people learn spot dont stuck toxic people life tried resist parents workim parents planning long international family vacation want go depression kicking ass horrendous motion sickness gives anxiety think handle hour flight hard time private space usually meltdowns kinds vacations want go trip ive trying tell weeks never took seriously paid attention now first asked decided state demand stay home ive stayed home alone week long periods past say stay home alone time decided cant use car rest life stay home leave door open security cameras pointed tell love ive ruined parentchild relationship forever say priorities straight im school im training new job ive never done kinds rebellious things cancelled flight already apologize itll seem im material gain already think im using money know going happen feels cant fix thing thats keeping going boyfriend barely im ready end feels concept freedom taken away doubt theyll understand listen ive said kill multiple times past told shut want die front prove im faking wanted lovedi never really felt loved parents never affectionate fault never told wanted hug envy people good relationships parents fault telling enough shove away boyfriend trusted nightmares leave alone im getting drunk sleep better maybe genetics mom uncle seven years feelings rollercoaster end want feel numb forever feelings nightmares much okay girl give awards hello girl real human girl ampxb httpspreviewredditkivumjagbpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampseeecffaeffda goodnight encoresish tail end never quite successful enough music career never hit enough quite home love life said cant give anymore love someone whos never cant grow row go groupie love never either way family never agreed career choice dont talk years without making proves probably right debt keeping dream going bed day unable write music unable excited another full venue friends tired misery st world problems say call night night cheap hotels cheap apartment months laundry floor terrified answer phone hear bad news got triple lethal dose painkillers home take double damage mixed bourbon thought stayed day month im gas things love scare thought giving annihilates identity leaving signpost others foolish enough put growing chase dream life first makes happy build deck take trip work job save money boring happy nobody owes shit put notes together everyone lost hope change continue flounder disappoint make whats easy hard try make whats hard easy let redundant inefficiency system must corrected goodnight earth band done lights im going home one last time sleep goodbye loved im really depressed terribly bad situation think right make choicethis going sound unorthodox im depressed feel bad really come realization life want one thats going happen ive tried achieve certain set goals long time able reach feel cant life want really want prefer optout existence life inherent meaning value think lifes value determined person values life value life life personal thing exist think right arbitrator happens continues simply decided want life end may moral objection decision affect friends family want suffer think really say life continence want haunted choice rest lives probably come coverup story move somewhere far away first way itll seem fell touch im still alive somewhere one asks born think societys fixation protecting ones life even goes ones wishes unjustified anyone numbers game im guy bi thats much bothered write enough money saved year year life leftive started new job sadly seems kind drudgery ive past years unemployed june september first time years looking back first period decade think ending every week skills sell even im starting resent sell time ill turning next year relationship see way might well enjoy year end need talk someonehelp deal suicidal thoughtshey guys lately ive thinking lot redflag kinda scares feel l time continues starting accept fantasys killing afraid actually committing redflag chance talk professionals guys methods deal kind thoughts aspergers bipolar ocd etc im completely burnt appears im starting auditory hallucinations ive bounced many psych hospitals psych help one still need helpif humor listed posts im exhausted write op tonight psychiatry appointment tomorrow nothing change saw first psychiatrist age meds ineffective im highly sensitive side effectsoftentimes please give find right med spiel med game years groupsiops intensive oneonone hospitalization month ive done im ect candidate ill pass im depressed may auditory hallucinations something psychiatrist tomorrow im yet able manage life well redflag mind heart everyday long time im tired life think bear much longer us denied ss disability pull records psychiatric hospitalizations turned listed contact psychiatrist im job parttime less months talk doctor usa assume unable work due asd need advice social security disability claim denied without review ineligible grounds never held job long apply help j michael straczynskis babylon television show captured wonderful art applying story arc television show easily best thing tv right now characters likable one easily attached care wellbeing villians type love hate leave wondering theyre next brian hensens puppet work innovative kudos rockne s obannon job well done les amants du pontneuf two outsiders lives love story without concessions film consists lot interesting conversation lot sweet moments best one comes listening booth listen record together look talk suggests change lives hope realistic stylestrokes realistic emotive dialogs really mathematic screenwriters work film spanish novel director jesus ponce creates one perfect gallery latest year spanish cinema star light star bright first star see tonight wish may wish might let survive nighteverything seems opportunity today walking home easy jump front car kitchen many knives right room live seventh floor building desk medications lots deluded thinking need want torment end today year spent doin nothing severe depression tried goin employment centeri meeting legally allowed work meeting cried lot outside parking area redflag redflag feeling went back home exhausted done nothing day layed bed thought miserable headache now want kill bad sad depressed sick lectured friends drinkingi need told constantly much piece shit know fuck im driving everyone away theres boy really nobody knows even friends today orientation day tour highschool hes going highschool friend whos annoying lol keeps pulling away talk wait next year highschool tell idk trust telling telling friends thx guys mom came lesbian today might downvoted hell feel homophobe im totally comfortable mom gf im trying cant needed advice dont understand im sad af now gf ugly maybe thats reason idk please dont hate homophobic im trying accept way maybe need advice emotional support care anymore good world cant even perceive im caught suicidal thoughtsi friends asshole cant change mother cant even stand company grandfather nothing live anymore dreams future know im going school job ill hate pay bills wish lay turn courage kill pray killed everyday redflag mind point cure kill stop thinking bad brain stop perceiving bad want die badly wish cant whole life going wracked depression ive seen older people post sub depression really never better gets worse biggest regret every day die day im fuckup loner literally make friends break friends future future hell anymore except die almost thirst redflag wish somebody pull trigger heavens sake sad oclock one want talk sad oclock one want talk thought help stupid enough think longfor anonymity obviously changing names duh another thing post suicidal little shaken happened im worried came looking advice need fast know much time well grace likes tells depressed people way feel bad liking way making depressed feel even worse basically told saved life pretty much feeling alone people tried kill multiple occasions met tells nice thought go slight hope might liked best friends way im glad friend finally feel bad feel interests understands lot better people dont shell talk depressing things life bad person gets mad tell things bad seem always accuses lying trust thinks tell things shell shut ive found helping people problems help people honestly care feel bad hurt older sister rachel cuts burns attempted redflag multiple times rachel know grace aware grace finally open enough confess cutting going quit live promise mad know hard addictions anyway point made feel guilty still cutting made feel done reason always told make stop made feel enough good enough help someone stop causing pain ive never felt way anything enormous sense guilt finally broke hard promised grace tell rachel cutting problem intended keep snapped guilt pressure confessed everything rachel lift weight told right thing nobody keep secret right thing feel rachel confronted grace front told everything need stop told grace fond tumblr looked poems wrote knives hints cutting throughout checked scars joke mom tell mom understand makes things worse assume common another reason grace tell rachel feared tell mom way tell even grace suicidal way grace said really mad want talk even see extremely character met yandere shed talk even worst moods want cut contact asked sister told redflag part knew cutting redflag part new people delivered final blow push edge said care care anything didnt believe grace believe trust came realize told thing mattered realness feeling something pain something knew find thats snapped take anymore broke cried half hour cried never cry id never experienced anything hell cry dog dies found body cry grandma died always thought emotionless anything happened help think fault happen got involved really want kill id never thats ive feelings redflag looong time id never mostly id feel bad family back point rachel grace always talk everyday fb rachel deleted fb past felt getting close knew lot found scary convinced reactivate messaging tumblr well grace deactivated tumblr really want talk apparently fault want die cant live guilt think help cant anything need ideas book im writing write book fractured identity need help create resolution links journey new sense self far book father hid daughter government systems meaning trace girl government figures fathers secret kills girl confused know society isolated whole life incorporate selfdiscovery story know put anybody ideas pls know directors intent make sure sky almost always sunny beautiful film perhaps romantic image many americans time film set middle war macy returned war neighbor asks hey true got fritz trying life one day gets new pair glasses name sees things clearly surrounding situation reveals one rabid antisemitism macy dern wrapped funny neither jewish film accusation made historically accurate labor union democrats time wrapped flags america god macy continually pestered come meeting presence brings unexpected resultsbr br applying time frame today study contrast undergone complete reversal average citizens taken patriotism religion unifier supporting republican party viewing organized labor part leftwing unpatriotic americabr br great picture watch care see friendly timid meek macy played beautifully caught carnage race hate mid s nycbr br tough emotionally charged film family whats stopping killing im dead wont feel bad iti know thats incredibly selfish wont go details long run world better place without day random questions timesaving gadget wish someone invent every side asked question got massage ask questions page faste suicide method feel hanging mit started days ago roaming kik sub reddit joined group kik added girl group seemed cute young although talking mentioned sex drinking stupidly presumed im started dirty talking dirty talked vanished im paranoid might younger thought feel stupid asking age im way attracted kids find disgusting ive extreme paranoia suddenly paedophile even though im way attracted kids back date girl ive socially isolated mind wanders random shit internet social experiment pretended whilst talking year old girl turned slutty asked youngest age fuck said limit weird way turned sluttiness fact said shed fuck someone whos im attracted girls age watch normal porn dated girls age think paedophiles acting fantasies upon kids puke worthy something wrong recent mistake ive made made analyse entire life stupid mistakes ive made severe isolation even though nothing serious done guilt past stupid social experiment fears become paedophile future girl lying younger im worried sick feel even suicidal normal sorry typos typed rush phone ive dated girls age watch normal porn fantasise healthy manner slipped weird conversation girl years ago talked sociopathic girl hunted animals turned cruel even though fucking love animals dog sexual freak isolation destroyed incidences ordinary happened times feel much guilt point want hang think watching porn young age really fucked bullied spending years complete isolation porn addiction normal porn really fucked mind another confession made catfish profile check girlfriend cheating became addicted creating fake profiles getting lot sexual attention women nothing extremely weird done talked dirty girls time period one younger maybe year old girl might lied age ive known lots guys stuff feel guilt give shit eating away sudden talk therapist okay go apeshit register sex offender something know talking dirty yo crime ive known lots guys date younger girls cant ive done thanks passed karma still legitimate friends looking external reviews ebert etc film pretty much negative reading many noticed made point critics upset film centers around appears senseless murder autistic child certainly disturbing image critics ebert want traditional detective story uncovers killing happened squarely places blame guilty want blame cast resolved well statusquo theme kind movie parodying society critics wanted quick resolution move next tragic opera perhaps simple question answered whole lot happened surface film seek rationalize happens rather understand steams much inane reviews look way performances spacey cheadle great generally great performances work two current icons hollywood gosling gives incredible performance really somebody extreme talent deliver somehow gosling able make killer autistic child sympathetic irritates many sure one watches film see leelands motivation wrong evil malone top game yet another confused young character basically killing child film main theme movie main theme life people go dealing highs lows attempt sometimes help others deal lives seem work well lot good bad world handle direct impact much good bad take place sometimes confused attempt good lead whole bunch bad think one memorable films sometime ending touching anything recent movie history strongly believe people view film open mind anyone wan na chat dm u want got ta go class soon talk later ill chat anything im suicidal disabilityis true without good education youre basically fucked unskilled work low paid even youre lucky bad paid secure unskilled work automated may ask education thats easy disability autism hard learn new things yes learning disability dont want end dead end job fear thats going happen cant decent education tipps tried several times kill future think movie brighten day sure kermit frog ordinary frog swamp talent agent stops tells hollywood looking frogs movie lol way kermit meets fozzie bear miss piggy gonzo chicken camilla rowlf electric mayhem bunsen honeydew beaker trailing kermit proprietor restaurant chain doc hoppers french fried frog legs things considered though kermit muppets make hollywoodbr br movie recommended everyone young oldbr br wonderful musical numbers rainbow connection im going go back someday movin right along muppets use many forms transportation movie kermit rides bike fozzie drives studebaker another car gonzo takes flight bundle helium balloons one favorite moments way kermit rest muppets finally go rest way electric mayhems bus dr teeth floyd janice scooter animal meet desert fozzies car breaks downbr br even sesame street muppets make cameo appearances ie big bird walking along road way nyc break public television end heartwarming moment every single muppet created final scene along final rainbow connection reprisebr br poor muppets worked hard movie set comes crashing camera explodes huge ball sparks think everything ruined destroyed rainbow comes shining roof end sums magic film know everything rightbr br perfect watch enchanted fun sadness movie spread queerness go one best traits honest well itif check past posts see wife rough time lately tonight especially rough got angry guy keeps talking displayed anger putting fist threw wall says need regain trust steps forward steps back im tired cant win give ive already taken many pills evening im taking hopefully wake fuck years old enoughill try keep short even though feel lot cover post turned long ago failed course college moment undecided whether go back college spend another year studying try find employment honest wish neither stay home im tired everything long remember ive detested contributing member society ive always punching bag everyone relentlessly bullied throughout schooling years left choice embrace worsening social isolation talk anyone want talk anyone years torment put dread s play dread resort wageslave society disgusted existence deal even bullying harassment hands manager coworkers dread continuing live knowing life gets harder enter adulthood ive always thought ill one die young recount thoughts hurting early years age even scares see dying natural death oldage never honestly thing stopping ending know family devastated see go fear happens next another thing keeping back idea happens die utterly terrifies miserable want try hold onto life long know long want reason stay alive crush fucking wierd idk guys weirdest shit try start conversation minute gets quiet mind lol fucked buddy im around physically aware fact hoodie microscopic stain know even worry makes pissed im gon na list stuff hate hopefully make feel better hate month march sad distance fact dont anyone near cuddle without serious effort body torso specifically height fact cant pierce ears fact im still scared ordering clothes want fact cant think straight sad seasons milk isnt bad caesar dressing creamy vinegary size ribs long ness torso fact one laying rn school grade teachers grades capitalism copy pasted personality applies many people around age homework im behind director life experiences lack thereof shitty lungs tall ass head flat ass hair much say without saying anything meaningful skinny arms non functional adhesives led lights cold weather hot weather waking people directly shaming instead giving really specific indescribable looks football boring looking colleges want go detail hate feeling suicidal suicidal timesometimes ill go walks dog feel everythings going okay moment dishes mind focused cleaning ill triggered one little thing flashback bad memory become suicidal hate sensitive knowing ill feel suicidal mind always alert mode never rests forget suicidal even though wasnt years ago need cancel cancel culture cancel culture ruiend many lives even outside media internet first someone gets accused something everyone take rule mind innocent proven guilty actors content creators accused something unacceptable everyone canceling jhonny depp lost work youtubers lose income wich obviously ruiens life everyday people problem female accuses male rape male automatically lose job probably wife even courtcase happens ofcourse accusions hopefully rightfull false accusation female basically ruien males life simply saying raped cancel culture people media automatically choose side pyrocynical case people automatically chose iverys side provided big amount evidence know work pyro defend making kinks public evidence based things specifically picked fool people even celeb automatically guilty pewdiepie said live nword shouldnt screw immediately yes wrong shouldnt screw someone mistake even youtube chooses sides logan paul showed body video lost revenue weeks nothing probably dies new felt spreading opinion cancel culture bye redflag viewed negative thing essentially tell someone living severe depression better alternative deathim strong believer redflag justified likely commit redflag later life goals ive set complete severely depressed yet known even closest friends amp family happy friendly person ive got act art single person know suspects even slightly depressed severely depressed childhood seen several psychiatrists amp councillors without parents knowledge help growing weary living constantly depressed see valid reason redflag justifiable option terms affect friends family used believe redflag inconsiderate im realizing regardless inconsiderate living life depression something deal certainly justified ending life feel best choice explain redflag viewed positive light right seems current culturesociety deems terribly wrong thing look history reveals several large cultures almost embracing redflag im probably late fuck outta twitter fleets every social media makes least sense cant seem find answers cant even connect peoplei looking answers years even know start looking end losing time always lose lose lose im sick drift away people keep making mistakes almost everyone ends leaving almost one left cant even make new friends reconnect old ones keep wasting away selfisolation selfhate loneliness regret broken cursed horrid almost one tries connect im lonely people might think im special needs person kind future ill probably one filled mostly indifference emptiness roght ball swam away wasnot ballsack butto right felt weird cant anymoreim doomed minimum wage warehouse jobs thanks fucking dad hopes better life younger obviously im allowed want make electronic music make people happy im fucking dumb years barely put together basic drum beat ive promised im making christmas first time life think mean im even sad anything may miss jesus fucking christ today went quick look clock one moment pm alright cool still got time stuff look clock feels minutes later already pm space something fucking know anymore anyone know lot depression real first time im depressed im going teen dad girl want abortion im thinking ending zoloft work way feel sad sad sad switched full online cause cant take anymore every day want jump bridge narrow rode therapy sucks keeps giving answer every day soon mom want bother loser life im dump anything want pain end better advice therapist day asking everyone filler filler filler lonely filler filler filler anyone share birthday saw someone thought fun anyone born january year doesnt really matter tell kms didnt got phone talked friends nothing happenedhere right now laying bed phone dead set killing felt gon na bigger burden died alive stopped midway opened phone chatted everything nothing go minutes ago talked wanting wraps tomorrow wish someone cared punched face hardback told avoid death late wasted whole life hoping things change im back square one know know long please readi see anything rules age restriction im sorry age makes uncomfortable im going state name want people going personal life trying contact social media etc im female need relevant advice im supposed even worth fighting life anymore born mother met ill call biological father bf know looks weird mom states manipulative mentallyverbally abusive let friends barely let job got really bad meth refused use protection let birth control think mother even know stayed conceived two sons another man allowed see go town visit assume brothers lost custody fault want anymore children became pregnant none bf took tests whatever make sure kid make sure actually pregnant see even chance born live long story short tried convince abortion strewn drugs nearly financially stable enough support baby quite frankly wish born night found pregnant went moms house drank alot thought low behold decided keep leave bf met ill call step dad sd decided hell one raise horrible bipolar disorder suicidal strewn sorts drugs physically violent abusive remember distinctively one time tried kill chased hallway huge kitchen knife fell onto floor bedroom held inch away face around told acted put face mentioned several years later said promise mother stayed sd put life danger years always go back fight apologize left moved one best friends thats probably best life apartment shortly christmas met ill call step dad sd nice friendly first family friends things quickly switched around made see really theres list things type help understand tearing head childhood stuffed animal stole quarters book fair throw across room way told stop pussy grow pair tried tell bullied beat school cheated mom ex wife saying things one makes cum talking women meet craigslist constantly belittle friends mom insult intelligence told friend tried take life slitting wrists swallowing bunch pills said attention reason good life tell things deserve happiness im allowed cry feel sad angry beginning years forced life years begged mom leave years endured mental abuse brainwash first time wanted kill redflag introduced social media news books wanted everything end felt unwanted felt everyone eventually left sd found messages moms phone wanting move leave basically kicked us went move grannie moms mom thought everything finally okay everything much better couple weeks new school went started issue small school new kid automatically rumors long people started calling stds spitting football games getting trouble things things home great grannie kept verbally abusing telling want flipping telling everything fault wanted worse sd everything kept getting worse worse eventually tried take life school bathroom overdosing hydrocodone whatever grabbed moms prescriptions went hospital im exactly sure happened brought back summer mom found new house us move deal grannie either went new school bad much better home much better landlord got botched surgery put nursing home selling ranch lived kicked us mom try new home told wed move back grannie id go back school tried commit redflag told hell convinced let move uncle cousin month home life even better school absolutely amazing soooososososo great cousin kicked got frozen yogurt without telling freaked im back grannie mom first night mom fought admitted inconvenience burden im told live close enough school went mom moved ill go one overdosed ive fighting life telling everything happens reason keep hoping things work obviously never im back people hell hole first swear im offing im going beaten humiliated maybe even shanked students im back know mom let timeline events happen know deserve want die im tired worrying told found go school id gash wrists throat open want need help need answers need something please help mental health whack bro cant decide whether im afraid death suicidal death think dont think thats healthy idk lol day listening music asked sister weird automatically think songs redflag yeah bit concerned lol dont think id actually take life tho fingers crossed dont feel bad anything lol im vibing real g watch girl pay anything real gs wait car frfr anyone tryna run warzone im bored asf still high kinda run warzone xbox ur leave ur gt comments nd ill add u know navigate feelings new feeling stretch understand go pleasantly fine suicidal self loathing within minutes able step suffering poor mental health years turn next week feel ashamed serious negative thoughts covid hard transition especially moved new city months everything started locking settled loving partner great connection family really fun job finished degree stop look around feel nothing good enough never good enough always skin problems bad teeth acne never artist used bachelor fine art drive passionate used never career built entire plan around losing interest art never relationship family want stand stay hometown feel tornado failures swirling around damn time seems matter many positives come way last long enough weight negatives really know looking guess wanted say loud whatever gets invited minecraft realm know even tho anxious around people im gon na join friends play joins immediately regrets see gamertags run cant see fear yeah fine feeling pain birthday maybe sign dont belong herenobody go thru torture nah redflag looked upon many years old confused teen nowadays lol slugsoul adopt last time asked said mmmmhm dog smells fertilizer dirt muzzle tf appealing fertilizer tired depression one worst feelings lately knowing feel way often much better person notice much holds back always picture capable feel way time years life actually feel ok head felt clear wish back tired top lesbian films library must rate one number one film times film go history best genre story girl rachael stirling goes riches rags rags riches first love keeley hawes popping life set victorian background s makes ideal setting best entertainment industry film spared expense music costumes makeup rachael keeley wore stage halls added films diversitybr br matter kind films favor guarantee film amaze keep attention three episodes film played enjoyed decades come unrated dvd collectors version must anyones library rachael stirling keeley hawes best choice casting two roles played extremely well point afraid living dyingi year old male complete failure made really regretful choices choices affected anyones elses life replay everyday done instead try tell made choices severe depression anxiety suffering last plus years lately within past month dwelling even little memories felt made wrong decision reacted people wrong manner moments replay head utter complete hell little background therapist forced therapy sexually molested family member years old hated going therapist refused tell happened instead played chess talk mom eventually gave forcing go hated time therapist think refuse go now mom left society week ago due mental health issues begged go professional help refused continue refuse point hope gone nothing left salvage good person friends due isolating eventually people give repeatedly ignore single date five years virginity still intact close five siblings know extremely affected days feeling less depressed usual fantasize married kids quickly come back reality someone pass genes offspring thing hurts much seven years ago place gotten married younger plan life grown dreamed life surrounded family created none going happen painful type wish emotional person typing help pity random internet strangers hoping might gain clarity reading back apologize none makes sense complete ramble session going go back edit first saw movie movie channel hbo time ago fan public enemy nwa early rap seen cb theaters anyway promo caught eye wanted see well right bat knew going good warning right parody songs alone make movie worth watching peanuts overall flow delivery movie great got love satire rap groups obviously nwa certain rappers eazy e flava flav ice cube humor three members nwh forget tone deaf scratching ass bad movie credit deserved overshadowed cb releases opinion much better film know s gangster rap watching laughing movie long time rap enjoy jokes expense genre made lego airplane miscalculated ill put wings theyre gon na either tilted bit w want stop feeling depressed n wanting end life really know suppose want feel better idk gifted redditgifts asap im sure tomorrow comeits bad time know put ive tried ask help feel im alone im strong appointment shrink today ill beg sort med change know meds therapy wednesday make final decision ive already started say goodbye ive thoughts time nowso basically figured fucked actually known long time im years old im kind trippy sometimes drugs connect anyone world longer first encounters time biggest fear im tired rising falling time whole family fucked dad one really think highly time made fucking stupid decisions bothers sweeps stuff rug never address even though weighs conscience everyone elses well love still know hes shit im battling serious addiction considering throwing away months sobriety getting fucked regain ive recurring thoughts drinking bottle jack jumping coronado bridge quick painless maybe even fun drunk enough anyway im fighting really hard stay shit created man mental load tough even super young age know stuggling survive whole life dropped high school make worse cant even make fucking friends problems prevent letting anyone weird fucking ability shut people mid sentence even saying anything let tell worst scared little bitch head fucker constantly battling way bitch gone im physically exerting slow march back battle relax come conclusion maybe purpose physical person damn thats want powers let anything idk fucking strange world man vibes connect even stranger sometimes want honest feel sense melancholy happiness think death already sime great songs play wake bring tears joy id rather go young real become old sell die really saying going happen soon kind profound epiphany next year think im fucking chest guys probably favorite sub next rdrugs raskreddit love input lot olease pass words anyone relate struggle love guysltand galsgt im attempt first hopefully last timein hours im outta im going sleep gn c u tomorrow anyone think mood swings behaviour really hurting people lives unfairlyi feel gf dragged hell unfairly picture friday half term home half day school homework parents away least weekend take shower find pizza leftovers fridge check gc see boys online take seat put headset youve used bo power psxbox point remember xp weekend nothing time put icing cake starts raining neighbours dog finally shut pull nighter grinding warzone fifa name make best memories teenage years couldnt think better situation scroll overdue assignments day almost days september th preparing im gon na watch youtube homework feel weakeveryone keeps saying many people hurt died im hurting now sit deal pain please everyone lately seems much lose somehow im still losing things hardly sleep nightmares lead panic attacks make afraid go back sleep cant win tell people want die im looking attention try die fail sympathy love go talk leads everyone ignoring anything happened going right back stated succeed im hero everyone talk great person right cause thats goes im ranting feel breaking mani want end thats want yet im much coward hate life school school school scholl thats im good hate suck cant concentrate horrible luck fuck life life bad though still hate im fucking paranoid mental health makes worse earlier im even little piece shit even society wan na die barely sleep anymore school im seeing therapist hate cant wait untill courage kill fuck life still cant describe feel received fnac site rare movie little spoken known difficult find even fans contrast betwen past present devastating hold dvd movie finest quality possible atlantis rare besson movie bought internet saw one home lights dvd tv turned marveled experience know expect wickedly always searched kind disappointment saw film luc besson never seen never came movie exception start understood person makes film first feature destined big future happened several prizes including highest prize film festival country makes proud shows movie preparating many bigger things may original afterthewar movie seen beating mad max originality artistic feel problem movie cinematography genius well perfomances actors proud say finally saw movies favorite director copy almost joan arc still waiting buy dvd 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write hopes save treacherous thoughts allow success feat bravery danger thank goodbye now loki xxx sapiosexual makes himbophobic going openly bigoted toward himbos anyone herei already posted sw twice tried looking online find need moment kind medical insurance im bit time getting back long story brooklyn new york want ask anyone knows psychiatristpsychologistcounselor etc see free receive zero income zero cant sliding scale whatsoever shot dark know see doctor soon talk things someone help definitely kill keep surviving one help really talk keep pain constantly crying til feels im literally choking cant breathe made week feels soon ill gone forever im brooklyn new york desperate need qualified mental health doctor help darkness theres anyone information share please im drowning hospital foodive tried sleeping day feel sick constantly almost dinner time im thinking back many times suffer disgusting dinner funny barely responded friends family sit thread feel strongest try write guys 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make almost everyone hate mei want stop helping people want take old dream shatter fully abandoning process yes know selfish hypocritical almost noone reciprocated entire life sincere longer condescending well enduring insults rejection indifference pity fake andor empty words promises friendship instead fighting back yet confirm im faker video guy said good person pay became bitter angry lashing others mean never good person instead acted expected reward thats worst fear almost never single selfless act entire life someone instead benefit mean im complete fake mental breakdown post last try got taken explanation got karma flagged well day people sure doi tried self harming last night go knife blunt currently seeing psych start year feel helping much probably late switch psychs medicare subsidises number consultations per year lot lack self confidence self worth feel useless bit background hold numerous university degrees psych education criminology struggling find employment work dead end job supermarket hate place treated supportive girlfriend asks help honestly know help feel useless dragging family make token efforts towards usually monetary support receive really want comparison hearing actually love something anything positive currently given hope life finding meaningful employment know forgetful blame everything life feel fault plus even reason deppressed even remeber first placei feel unmotivated dead inside keep telling ok really true think deppressed still laugh talk family still watch funny memes boost confidence always doubt deppressed makes worse indecisive never make decision unless parents make mei feel useless anything anyone feel way yet still goal complete school question say care anything yet care education think back even know cared first place always thought job student good school parents future even future continue way even think job introvert never want go outside sitting balcony typing enough vitamin almost always weak eat much aswell parents tell eat sometimes even realize starving depression bad even remeber long seems everytime try make better gets worse feel give let take part still hope wants keep trying confusing talk mother feeling think relate situation use watch videos try think positive thoughts help life always revolves around simple question always type ask questions always overthink things require much thinking worse part selflessness always care others entire life always wanting help others make world better place hate hate much hate one wants way hate worrying everyone around want dissapear know sadness family committed suicide wait natural causes happen hit vehicle kidnapped killed way parents whouldnt blame death sad part going highschool feel mature look back tween really anything say wanted speak mind hope wonderful day symptoms depression run away abusive household become homeless two days family friends tired everythinglife incredibly unfair tried hard happy find peace love cant even imagine shit go lose mind raised narcissist mother run away home one week ago let sleep days last monday got scammed shitty hostel half money booking give answer usd left place go become homeless two days im living third world country luck probably stabbed robbed first fucking night ask ticket hell life im really tired everything going wrong year year become cool hip socialist visible social media et cetera answer fellow teenagers necessary consistent plot cant write dragon dad fun dragon son theyre really happy theyre grand time actual consistent plot cant ugh want someone play minecraft want build big ass pyramid someone feel way hey im pretty new expect many see reply im month away turning ive felt depressed lately depression symptoms ive sad ive felt boring person lately im freaking ive never felt way feel want anything anyone long story short normal feel way numbers game dms im lil horny bi ngl httpsmimgurcomttruthordareuahpmnf u guys cheat test study cheat french im bad cheated together friend 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hell deserve homophobic started seizure stairs result pretty badly injured broke ankle injured knee required stitches face let make clear recognize experience must terrifying tom understand frightening redflag provoking even traumatizing button waiting death made mind clearly okay die know think constant thought years eligible able die march wish die every day single day mind changed back itso im dire many people figured least somewhere help thoughts throughout relatively short life ive lost good friends redflag sister cancer girlfriend another bloke part blamed good enough friend help sister end good enough keep girlfriend needless say sent pretty shit place prior today attempt life sculling bottle ritalin fortunately didnt shit make head fucked week ive professional help went clinic weeks considered recovered good year quite miserable couple weeks feel nothing nagging youre wasting life feeling cut happened particularly today caused im going jump driving back home driving upset ive 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ill dead new years resolution dead hours ive spent last days family trip weather beautiful love pa love boyfriend guess hes right shit us post make much sense give many reason ill tonight matter weather warm sticky humid fireworks technicolour breath taken away need help math thing soo yeah say number thats imma go sleep hopefully make time almost killed song came itunes hope methis link song httpwwwyoutubecomwatchvuyenzlrtu cant something sad sound upbeat happy song may bring tears always finds way make happier explain hope even one person still struggle every day make struggle easier lyrics wakes time break left note dresser right time know anything right wrong said know said wan na panic ive go owe anything anyone take life cause got better leaving think stop wake everything gon na fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel might give well time looking paper today looking specific page wan na find full name followed dates left alone made sound moan youre known everyone everything done fuck buying flowers graves id rather buy one way nonstop anywhere find anyone anything forget start love said go thats hurts much stand got stop draw line everyone choose side tonight moment truth haunting forget family regardless choose cant decide theyre screaming ill start engine cant take ride ill draw bath ill load gun hope bad bathe hunt annies tired forgetting today always planning tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow says saddest day came across learned life goes without without without says everyone someone aint got nobodys love save save save says think ill pass away tonight cause seems ill never right reality wake everything gon na fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel might give well time annie says mind never find cure problems problems proplems says long someone near make clear need solve solve solve says oh loneliness killing filling anger resentment resentment resentment says im turning someone never thought id wake everything gon na fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel might give well time annies tired forgetting today always planning tomorrow tommorow says saddest day came across learned life goes without without says everyone someone aint got nobodys love save save says think ill pass away tonight cause seems ill never right annie says wake everything going fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel might give well time even oh let go run run run run follow close someday say thats thats ill waiting open arms break fall know think know im ill lead home let said forget cant need things chest iti cant take life anymore fucking hurts go everyday life fucking shit im poor hate time cant afford food im living two bedroom fucking house five people reason internet pitch people left word brothers friends know life never fucking different cant afford college hell barely make highschool im fucking poor idiot want live forever think way stop living stop living together dont understand parents cursed gift lifei never asked never asked born especially birth defects abuse bullying school tried kill times ran home full hope got crushed got relationship lasted years im stuck ex shows signs abuse threatens kill move cant even proper job got hospitalised nearly years never chance finish high school people close wouldnt call friends insisted job knew wouldnt got hopes nothing older worse gets diagnosed cptsdadhdi combo never treated tried help therapist went turned huge asshole cares money sometimes im starting think dont even know talk people anymore ive used abandoned generally hurt almost everyone met life never chance normal ill never im sick im sick everything meaningless life never gets better people keep lying will never matter much work put days left th birthday im going make sure mark th time ill actually succeed never gotten rid rope recently got diagnosed schizoaffective disorder coming sad reality something ill live rest life already dealt years torture paranoia delusions hallucinations always add top negative symptoms wishing dead constantly feeling alone isolated world getting pleasure anything list goes think need use last bit money left buy another rope fucked school opinion first school day year full day think years gon na good ill say tomorrow ive proper full day school better sleep bye aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa eglish teacher put want christmas mariah carey straight left room send help heard shit year yet help kill bruh im stupid ate nothing ramen drank soda week got surprised nearly fainted seriously need something healthy asap need motivation title says lack motivation mean ambition wan na become writer humanitarian anyone cares encourages obviously people internet supportive times want someone personally knows cheer tell im good im feel ive wasted lot time lack motivation feel discouraged love writing thing written story even short story whenever try writing end fucking able frame words develop proper plot discouraged feel maybe even writing cant sigh need motivation guidance ass work dead many timeswhy keep surviving understand want die something occasions died didnt life end wantits life ive never control anything im going fucking kill hate life agonizingbeen struggling bipolar anxiety whole host shit tired angry take finals pretty much cant take longer plain simple recently single year relationship fault loved life parents live across country family family without one bought house together last year living literal dream together two us dog little family everything imagined wanting crushed broken never wanted anything less losing home everything visiting parents happened dad came picked florida flew home together today family packing stuff house yesterday home tomorrow nothing sure house little bit furniture nothing meaningful gone dog gone forgot pack cousins handgun closet might use might buy sleeping pills peacefully really know yet anything live ghosted ghosted meso ya called said really needed friend posted reached every one friends knows progressive brain disease step come maybe walk little dog help w grocery store trip heaven forbid help medical treatment nope fucking one ya one message sorry cant hope feel better even empty platitude cliche meme im trying better ketamine mega infusion numbers week better fuckers better even think showing funeral ghosted ghosted trying best redflag forgive bastard trash destroying life destroy hisi strategy help committing redflag im stuck im trying best positive love hate want kill self bad sometimes every time things go wrong strategy ill post commenthelps lot cant help wonder im letting bastard easily kept quiet happened let bastard live happy life withering luckily know best revenge happy im trying hard happier want cry parents longer close im teenager now destroyed life reveal happen although kept secret long probably wont bc kept secret happened molested perverted lust crazed pedophile trash uncle dont want mum cry dad go insane anger protected family keeping quiet karma slow hes still living happy life wife child touched couple times dad son dammit anyway destroy bring secret problem grave whats worse id hes thick faced smile innocently molesting young innocent still contacts parents acting someone innocent two faced asshle hey guys really important news ok du dun du dun du dun du dun doo doo dee doo doo deedle deedle doo doo dun dun buddadadawere strangers love know rules full commitments im thinking guy wan na tell im feeling got ta make understand never gon na give never gon na let never gon na run around desert never gon na make cry never gon na say goodbye never gon na tell lie hurt weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game gon na play ask im feeling tell blind see never gon na give never gon na let never gon na run around desert never gon na make cry never gon na say goodbye never gon na tell lie hurt never gon na give never gon na let never gon na run around 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suspenseful guaranteed make every animal lover cry happy tears millionaire happy family apparent reason depression imhey guys happy based worldly metrics think except im rd world country making month big challenge common man poverty defined month population falls poverty rate tech entrepreneur made first million made second rd point decided dont want anymore stopped working year stopping got married became father despite belonging country nearly impossible travel world got visas travel permits started seeing world spent next years pretty much seeing world wife kid wife supportive point pampers along well parents happy im wealthy happy financial freedom happy travel world happy ive beautiful family everyone healthy alive im struggle depression days life knew find way fix keep trying different things find answers rewarding new ways even alive guys ive decided im shit commenter life worth damnit never matter hard try whoever want live kind life id wish live months hours years days 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wanted first place fuck transphobic assholes world want hate something control fuck love load bullshit thinking slitting wrists andor throat tonight always fight peoples attentionno one actually cares even say big lie existence always ignored literally fight anyones attention world goes around everyone around seems making connections im sitting barely existing blatantly ignored even continue exhausting im anymore obviously one cares getting ignored damn time fight everyones attention even people family one fuckin cares week stay afloat seriously feel pathetic feel making really drastic change falling help needed interviewees needed idk flair sorry hello everyone im getting bit desperate decided try posting subreddit basically one activities subject school wanted us interview people chatting taking care sick people home please pm want answer questions give context pm anonymity discussed choose want keep secret thanks advance everyone feel kind selfconscious height im feel pretty short 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stories seem intriguingly mysterious first resolve little nicely taste director points commentary dvd ingredients irwins story bedside table symbolism trifle pat mebr br lark favorite scene relocation team tries breakfast diner practically theatrical magica tour de force witty actingsubtle playful notredflagly rhythmiccoupled striking cinematography acute eye grotesquebr br northfork funny touching gorgeous look magical reservations one single carchasebr br easy nine stars hate myselfive dealing suicidal thoughts years now started family dads side started dying first grandpa dad greatgrandmother moms dad grandfatherlist goes onall extremely close dad bairly got know besides fact loved time got see casket funerali dealt bullying people colorado elementry school middle school one elm trying expelled fake hurting middle school worse kids harrasing day hitting calling names making fun long hair im male cheyenne whats worse teachers principal condoned itim joking let happen finally leaving woodland park middle school spent freshmen year online school alone heard moms dad gotten cancer mom dropped everything stopped working come help moving us small cabin woods loved home dad got us rent back colorado got massachusetts via driving flying took care grandmother grandfather got several cases melanoma lung cancer half lung pace maker s valentines day years ago died cause hospitals staff overdosed steroids cause paying attention take care wife mentally ill due past issues insufferable ways ive little friends life taken away via bullies back school hang part feels people hate hate meive never relationship cause almost one girlfriend meet met online got brain cancerand last least im un employed tried joining several jobs got one aweful sum one worst things getting beaten patrons getting bathroom food regular break pm shift local farm event dressed costume halloween life hell ive never gotten happy ive plauged suicidal thoughts day day dont wan na act tortureto hate feel people hate feel worthless cant find kind way make life better jerk watch another episode violet evergarden sleep im tired human ashamed family entire life really painful right nightmare really need help even know start overwhelmed im mid twenties studies psychology long time reason always avoided ptsd thought wars rape year learned cptsd hit traumatized inhibited life start learned last year turned two started getting night terrors generally shy kid reserved parents pretty dysfunctional dad narcissist mom codependent lack boundaries pretty emotionally unavailable father especially really bad anger problems tapered hes gotten older still quick temper cant really regulate emotions constantly spills negative emotions onto others family growing really horrible acne made somewhat low self esteem go lower experienced acne lasted highschool early twenties time felt ugly monster friends didnt really close friends girlfriends generally felt alone gotten decent scholarship community college even though didnt well high school gifted kid always hated school one point heavily considering dropping high school pointless parents never let well ended dropping college failing classes towards end semester horribly depressed smoking weed every day numb pain years tried go back college try different fields working different jobs felt stuck powerless familys home one prepared real world parents threw education system hopes raise instead ended taking debt move happened start business time actually worked great first months business failed moved cities life crumbled apart im debt living back family life nightmare feel parents never got made siblings theyve provided materially destroyed emotionally clearly miserable im sure theyve brink divorce feel broken killing feels ample message failures parents dont even feel relationships anyone much ive hurt past dont even feel relationship kids parents genetic mental failures thats dna pass end dont know feel ive felt long time dont know feel beyond overwhelmed hope far gone im depressed im years old gets worsehi im native english speaker excuse faults diagnosed depressions years old im now never learned job still living mom winter last year girlfriend cheated tried forgive ended relationship months later us made mistakes lived year january moved march stopped contacting tried contact times day nothing thought ok honest went outside half year except buy food contact friends last half year either felt fine im depressed long time kinda felt good terms today tried check facebook deleted feel died contact months try now gone conversations good days happy every day broke thats healthy know consider redflag normal now got nothing life real friends job even chance home go mental hospital weeks im waitlist months now know admission hospital really need someone talk new thoughts head goesive contemplating redflag february seems everything come contact fuck tried talking mother thing say always kids im depressed im happy either weird neutral state im sure anymore im happy anymore im drunk high know im gon na tonight im gon na kill wan na die ive lost reasons live yep tonight everyone asleep house im gon na kill love much adis really want muffin right reason sadly though none ill eat something guess hi mates whats deal today hi whats u guys bored sooo friends hav discord server trying new peoplee chat send memes play games minecraft among us theres ppl console nintendo channel channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia stuff going commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link feeling suicidal need helpfor past years ive felt want kill various reasons want explain committed redflag main reasons upsetsad family question feeling goes away mistake either way years feel ive gone insane waiting feelings change hiding fact feel depressed friends family wanted keep secret entire time wanted something full control friends family standing way drawback cant ask anyone questions redflag anything alike revealcause suspicion im suicidal ampxb week ago decided enough wanted finally commit redflag lot problems life getting much bigger feelings doesnt seem changing anytime soon want wait feels hell longer searching online vpn ways kill learned ways kill guaranteed die anything really high percentage available ampxb overdose pills something learned high percentage people survive likely sorta brain damage hang dont anything hang anything suspend except belt shoot head gun im high schooler one anyway cut anyway research learned highest redflag attempt people survive plus lot pain die old toaster bathtub outlets modern homes something stop higher amounts electricity something way attempt bathrooms really moist thing lot co car pass require parents home work order helium tank gas obviously id questioned id jump building live suburbs tall enough buildings jump without huge chance surviving fall disabled way physically brain damage couldnt use chemical products certain ways know work want endanger family members oets make shift gas something products linger ampxb last paragraph want ask anyone believes people right take life way thing possible kill ive considering jumping front metro feeling able please need answer ive become mad knowing might even able commit redflag anyone wants convince live something right im really open minded really want find reason live ive already tried past years anything might say probably similar thought already examined ampxb thank anyone help slides done english doesnt suck much took hours slides hey progress finding images kinda fun holy fuck hungry go browsing food subreddits wrong never wanted kill much right nowbefore say well came help means really want know know really want able saved theres problem really hard put words guess start basic things im listen know im young please begging please look teenage girl omg hate life bullshit im suicidal mom let new phone guy young anything amount anxiety everything causing feel way im sure depression caused anxiety anxiety causes depression nothing know ruining life said problem extremely hard put words im even sure im trying right now im sorry know im feeling option ive always thoughts never wanted much now please someone talk need help place think getting quickly posts fellow shit posters filler filler filler filler first girlfriend turned moon filler filler war ba sing se almost posted cringe big age thats awful anyway im listening lie bts album wings pretty good favorite song st century girl heres song lyrics im feeling songs cheer sometimes dont wan na hear drama check aint right aint commas know saying shes faithful lying osama miss obama went dramas got sauna better come cause ho us got bitch samoa look moana im going something fun entertaining im going try start playing air soft dad lets reason want friends play sport something play video game watch anime school summer play pandemic ft part wear masks know consequences ive looked equipment guns total total im going itin days im going go base buy gun go hotel trying decide notes worth use earwould anyone mind taking hour hear tale even need advice literally nobody talk real life im sure talking make stop crying skype aim pm available monke philosophy branch break monke swing monke never meant swing monke wishes good day rant someone talk nicem case anybody gives shit girl made happy anything world wants nothing said date busy started dating another dude makes want alive made want anywhere world reason looked forward waking went bed pretty choose spend life heartbeat work department next stomach drops see come work broke alone gets relationship background kinda flag hang room cant decide kind flag hang suggestions lol sexual tension anything im supposed many expectation going film thought fantastic pierce brosnan outstanding different role dumped slick armani suits ridiculous look pays showing excellent actor pierce greg kinnear play great make one better buddy pairings long time humor dark performances brosnan kinnear hope davis great mix touching element story friendship great film probably one better buddy comedies long time film definitely shows expect great things postbond era brosnans career im rambunctious today gold first person makes smile idk im yeah whoever tells something makes smile gets gold boys skirts need someone explain week see boys skirts see memes boys skirts someone explain meme tell casual way wear skirt moody hours hate waking knowing im going sleep person escaping world getting yelled escaping got yelled getting yelled escaping wish something im lazy actually anything need help cant stop selfsabotaging apparently one help better good days ahead want bleach eyes see someone followed logged click profile see first post rate cock banner ass wtf ion wan na see shit days almost itgot full ride scholarship college leave days fairly well local stand comedy scene fucking miserable im year old whos got ptsd really fucked emotional development young age way process emotion coping mechanism humor feel impulse make joke desperate need end says explicit methods ill say every evening come close set pull cant form real emotional connection anybody feel hollow shell human stay alive know logically ive got amazing shot ay something life feel life worth living part wants go grin big fuck life thats happened feel ill always hollow clown ive never cry help guy guess thats changed im posting feel end rope guys feel keeping going f anyone wan na rant hormones im gon na kms rn hate hormonal fuck hormones ugh probably end rant whoever reads thank trigger warning sexual assault going summer camp state first time away family day time brother cute hes years old hey girl making hey girl post need stop lonelywhats point living always alone ive never friend one im loneliness depressed crave love friendship family even know one cares ask everyone seems want talk stopped talking completely years example play instruments even know im music thought someone beside hang seems good true one come see actually care see even changed looks dramatically try attract people lost ton weight got fit got teeth straightened whitened started wearing makeup made good looking one cares try best smile time make eye contact people hard severe social anxiety one cares dog one seems genuinely happy see every single day hes best friend friend one show unconditional love hes shown enough always alone one share thoughts feel im prisoner solitary confinement strong urge kill self tonight know impulsive decision strong never feel love connection anyone point living life alone sad romance untellable director decides break narration offer points view characters lot flashbacks reshooting scene extraordinary moment cinema put fragments order see result br br worth one best french movie made br br everything br br cast first steps monica bellucci vincent cassel presence voices even hardofhearing symbolic fallen love moviebr br directing camera bright alive plays sets mysterious long closeup la david lynchbr br cinematography light beautiful gold rust lovebr br neverseen paris paris outoftime accurately composite lot districts huge search look gotham city modern old time br br music big orchestra perfect tune frames song charles aznavour made discover great singer br br ah story said love story rather tragic saying love nothing make people happy guaranteed sweet ending great message often told love passion derivative latin pain suffer lot love endless waiting lack courage indecision br br ease fate destiny god devil stab back arrive soon late love means world billions lot things happen much stories written whats love br br personally lived moments car dear one mobile rings know special friend kisses goodbye even always together want go car leave together hear sweet cruel words cant amazing hard rain started br br found movie depicts moments tragedy one ive smelt worse thing exist basicly cousins holiday together sharing room go soon back us needed shit us used bathroom swear smell made want fn kill tiredhello whoever reading post trying help someone whos end life point please move really need support im threat moment post might turn lengthy shot seeking advice something im teenager years old male ive severely depressed something year used suicidal time ago multiple reasons mostly triggered redflag attempts occurring around one talking people numerous occasions vacation tried killing even night finally going claim life girlfriend said feels way started dating anything knows depressed wanting kill back id point reason im still alive supportive everything really improved enough rid moods list reasons finally end nowadays hobbies whatsoever nothing really interests really talk anyone outside school internet im quite popular school lot friends none gets even close considered close friend id point girlfriend longdistance relationship hour timezone difference making really difficult talk handling part quite well anyway wake early morning feel utter shit ready school sit hours learning anything even though im still getting somewhat good grades teachers refusing teach us anything give us materials give us lot homework exams figure everything home homework sleep hours pm feel lonely girlfriend gets home midnight stay morning talking process day see anything even remotely enjoyable next years approximately see plan graduate high school move uk girlfriend whos us study college thats something look forward right partly lot money im exactly gifted student either costs uk think ill able manage time want keep living life without reason im ending idea future bring really want together really wan na going really fucking difficult point live together peacefully im tired pushing days without enjoying anything conversations girlfriend best friend became distant well close online friends net neutrality making feel better right either seeing best financial situation either enough money pay college though im definitely going ask money im feels im options cant leave ill end killing almost immediately sure thatd form relief go thing really easy access outdated prescription pills shit ton knives firearms high buildings know anymore feel miserable every day im sure included everything ive included vital stuff one reads well guess im now used good school s started university longer good realize unrealistic think still good years formal education oh god think good idea really trying trying discouraged f feel awful want give matter hard trying school sucking triggered school said yes vent gremlin abduct people school said falling black hole want meet needed alone months kept texting responded first got worried said seen talked friends know sleeping eating patterns crappy even family friends know depression said seeked help heard going said messaged bother block anything even said gets overwhelming months responded messages give space keep texting stupid memes etc guess history us dating makes anxious want cut contact dating someone example shoul keep checking depressed guy isolated responded texts months today really feel walking top condo standing edge blowing brains smithereens shotgunim much coward though fuck fuck life really mood list million one reasons life considerably worse everyone elses kind fucked updoes anyone know acquire positive outlet emotions feelings sitting letting consume mei quite suicidal yet fantasize death quite often want suicidal suicidal pretty help much look forward work towards want something help hold now something makes feel bit better maybe sort purpose feel empty feel shame thinking suicidaltheres escape endless loop wan na feel special sad snowflake yet mind craves kind validation see glimpse future overwhelmed guilt doubt never suicidal begin ive done attention theres escape loop happiness hope seem bittersweet yet reason prefer something bitter pity need feel control im actually one controlled choosing suicidal make different interesting compared people choosing death secure ending mean im control means im weak let go little pride take feeling miserable others theres escape loop keep spinning spinning im getting dizzy soon ill drop dead ill finally stop going circles behind ill leave trail blood pain others carry shoulders mine weak wrinkly slightly ripped bag full sharp rocks ripped enough let fall bag ill put backs around pretend exist day breaks spine makes unable anything stay still drown thoughts behind ill leave sphere angst perhaps decided leave life tad bit powerful disappear perhaps stay behind help karma perhaps itll hurt ones hurt caused trauma thats pretty monochromatic shiny yet boring fantasies shiny perspective bland peoples tastes course thats completely understandable healthy strive greater shiny things im ill settle pretty burgundy tiny diamond put display end tunnel end guysssss part outfit cameeee first two kazuo komizu strikes entrails beautiful woman sequel entrails virgin time around story based around psychologist megumi ozawa decides take yakuza avenge suicide dopedup raped patient winds doorstep one day gets head yakuza capture learns insidious plat doping girls selling slavery apparently ends badly overdoses cocaine soon melds another body disposed becomedum dum dum super slime hermaphrodite zord makes mince meat yakuza saves daynot reallybr br well better entrails virgin much film whopping minutes consists rape sex fogging usual hohum stuff almost towards end finally gore groove cool sequence alieninspired penismonster stomach scene gooey asphyxiation still suffers hyper low budget feel makes fun cant elevate zgrade soft horrorcore fare im worried dog yorksire stomach problems im really really worried really know sayim good writing sorts things well generally feels ive going downhill long time nowadays im really good anything im good making people happy really anything going guess done anything terrible either able liveup peoples expectations even seem useful basic stuff maybe ive following idea nexttonothing begin impossible negative impact least im pretty toxic constantly let people really needed even though every instance othersd back want always ends case whether say wont people really patience honestly deserved overdue memorys pretty fucked cant see going anywhere even around months high time bit junk swept forgotten guess please fucking kill want kill badly want blow head badly hate fucking life hate please god fucking kill god dammit bf requirements must alive must guys kind film might give nightmare besides lot funbr br hardware wars good spoof star wars films spaceballs failed good spoof film seen ripoff star wars makes fun thats spoofs supposed really know im posting hereits throwaway account really struggling know theory things dosay right care totally alone recently friend tell loved cut top ongoing problems anyone turn one talk nothing vivid memories previous trauma im waiting able see psych thats weeks away steady downhill months know feelings wholly mine feel giving truely care anything anymore im sick cycle numbness intense feelings im sick feelings abandoned used tossed aside quit studies taken leave work feel guilty many work now part wants leave everything behind know left easy excuse cover intent want wake anymore mostly want continue occasionally activly want finish im self destructive best times much sick going one fight next remember last time happy longer distraction lasted severely neglecting physical health lately drink alcohol essentially living coffee havent slept hours months even coffee part hoping something health wise give soon decision hands easier around psa fuck loli lolis designed headpats used cock sleeves thank u discord server kinda chill mainly meme shitposting server lem know want want feel anymoreeveryday feel either mindnumbing numbness sadness anxiety point wanting anything today one worst days nothing bad even happened hell yesterday got make guy really guess anxiety really bad today think guy really relationship fucked dunno awkward shitty yesterday im awkward shitty today feel trapped want feel anxious anymore ive crying day reason cant find reason cry want feel anymore seems easyim drunk im tired im sad im tired sad easy cut open shoulder trying satisfy wouldnt easy slice wrists open bleed without anyone knowing people keep telling itd selfish killed cause pain selfish want stick around feel pain big sad send commentplease write something feeling suicidal right crazy state fucking hate worldthe world fucking dark people mean nobody gives shit anybody one best movies seen feel greatly touched theme movie intends convey one sentence keeps coming mind history repeats life shown movie people young seem understand parents spouses people every excuse sharing dearest time children late people always work hard support whole family liable neglect subtle feeling partners people always change perspectives different stages lives people always forgiven heart full love beloved nothing important blood relation people share world one never late talk folks feel bottom heart achieve better understanding life end day people feel sorry regretful kept words always hope new life actors actresses fantastic understood directors intention perfectly movies charm lies effect bringing skillful splendid fusion cheers tears audience history teacher intentionally gave us homework inconvenient time screw thats shitty dieignore last post want die wish gun laws strict netherlands find new year hard timei certainly brings home much ive failed past years certainly even every effort im still making exact promises hoping changes another year might next year time place thoughts im still maybe maybe year something someone side things improve stay strong stay lets see lets give small chance owe experience happiness please im tired feeling alone people laughing publicrecently brain disease progressing rapidly people started laugh stupid mistakes make threat one fails make exhale frim nose laughter within next hour post full bro code assembled finest bros rules anyone want betteri good days sometimes wish didnt find wanting miserable strength kill life shitty enough make suffer tolerable enough cant take gets frustrated want way need share im going probably one even read worth try hey gamerdude think literally called messiah karma anywhere go hold ring ding ding ding ding tried kill new yearsthis going long post advice comments really appreciated love already sorry advance messy post im writing past midnight im really flooding thoughts fyi im year old girl tried kill new years already really depressed day got ditched family friends ended alone kind absolute last spill take ended overdosing shower floor one neighbours heard collapse carried hospital signed faked name address whole identity know illegal stop please knew fly days knew keep time ended climbing window running home feels unreal numbing kind feel dont even remember properly im quite sure strong feelings come whenever think day three years ago experienced excruciating months life one best friends killed found months missing ice drowned another close friend died traffic accident cant really explain felt fucking fucked everyone pretty much broke apart everything knew town died freaking sucked really miss much swear ive never strong emotion desire towards anything love much still sometimes feels even remember look anymore general past seems fake unreal afterlife hope theyre okay now past years really developed depression anxiety self harm way much deal point need apply fake skin used halloween hands cover fucking shred marks now moved different country new school everything significantly pressuring everyone know fucking fake prime purpose life getting stanford friends asking anyone guess seem one people loads friends general highly liked place really fun friends guess know give shit told past current diagnosis really brushed point month later tried talk totally forgotten told want talk always boyfriend problems soooo important fucking bullshit last may contacted one teachers asking ear first adult ive actually conversation every time try talk someone shitty ass past feelings cry bitch throughout dayweek fucking humiliating back story really lovely empathetic teacher met ended kind telling typical rap past feel moment except never told self harm ended inviting house know wife similar experiences instead talking disgusting feelings stuff talked everyday things music amazing taste really nice proper conversation someone normally hes acting different towards every time sees sour face im kind time consuming freak problem ive developed huge crush fucking hate every time see cant breathe panic sad frequent panic attacks every day reason anyway hurts much much ignores go way take route school likely time know timetable think now ive become really suicidal point feel human actually gives shit anything anyone end selfish motherfuckers go benefit whole world based getting money convincing everyone happy really know part want advice need feedback anything know im good enough feel disappoint make people upset doesnt even really feel cares much dont think people remember unless im anyone notice im gone anyone even care plz help need something fun watched fucked movie need eyebleachgood laugh etc anyone anything side effects failed attempt using tylenoli know mess liver anything anyone elsei murderous tendencies dont act although shit hard hold back angry head physically starts show face angry hands ball im staring whoever happens frequently normal tho bored homework dm im bored hw id meet chill people cure boredom dm youd suck accidentally slept classes im really bummed guys distract got new cat new cat pictures disabled come edgar going stand literally cant stand hes weeks old anatomie anatomy entertaining engaging film falls short delivering discomfort connected films subject matter idea ethical ignorance medical science world one pushes viewer towards discomfort realism institutions heidelberg special effects make notentirely easy film watchbr br characters script gloss film seem familiar scream movies repopularised sort genre sadly whilst subject one care viewer presented another movie full college student characters really chance care unresolved subplots hammy stagekillings reinventing memorable drew barrymore opening scene scream several years backbr br steven ruzowillzky makes fair effort script direction pushes boundaries general theme whilst presented entertaining film reasonable performances unfortunately left old feeling nothing wrong film nothing extraordinary eitherbr br entertaining film interesting chance see foreign filmmakers influenced postscream horror culture know better almost seems staged wasnt set perfectly got footage amazing unfortunate events september put together well documentary classic footage got made unfortunate classic history footage alone make must see american person touched tragedy september ask help one takes seriouslynever mind im really bored cant use anybody want play minecraft bedrock ive seen branaghs hamlet branagh old speaks frequently high pitched voice unwillingly funny convincing hamlet directors qualities poor see much ado nothing branagh funny parts dialogues mostly cut speaking directors mistakes dialogue cuts ive seen hamlet think scenario interesting idea lousy actors orson welles hamlet ok bbc hamlet best derec jacobi convincing seems bit lunatic suitable patric stewart wonderful claire bloom attractive queen believe actors saying think best compliment updatetoday felt want kill usual getting worse scocity revoled around deathwhy redflag much problem today past ive seen slew s rocker horrors years rubbish terror tour ridiculously fun gems slumber party massacre somehow managed keep putting one strange probably popular well received one well finally caught easily best mostly awful almost always endearing subgenre plot pretty much lifted film black roses concerns mulleted misfit named eddie whose ridiculed high school taste music loves s metal especially idol sammi curr played late great tony fields sammi killed eddie favorite radio dj gives sammis final recording eddie plays record backwards discovers hes bit tougher bad things start happening taunt sammis music possessed trick treat wellmade total hoot special effects awesome even though feature typical s laser beams grew s fan heavy metal remember urban legend playing record backwards hearing sounds satan worshipping haha remember told older siblings neighbors kiss ozzy worshipped satan amusing see make cameos harmless radio dj antirock priest seen film kid film seems poke fun popular connection s alleged devil worship heavy metal viewer never really finds sammi curr back dead creating havoc killing whoever gets way movies weakest point overlook loads fun ask bored closeted trans girl something im going respond youre young phase know m looking friend talk videogames movies legos board games history really want kill myselfi want dieeveryday want die im fucking worthless stupid even funny big goals life probably wont even achieve one ways kill quick easy thought coming going easy woke plan kill yearsi cant limitations ive burden everyone hurt people even try make people happy ends hurting say certainty im gone nothing change hi attempted suicide may first weeks remember remember feeling suicidal soon left hospital pretty much came back board trying see completely losing idea trying feel one things think really need tips try stop really hate constantly thinking suicide want go mental hospital hear help really want around people right now think finally want help hear one let preface disagree sexism towards men still sexism white lives matter saying sexism towards men still sexism saying white lives matter blm rally yes true never doubt men always predominant sex western countries white predominant race sexism towards men still sexism white lives matter careful saying time statements never doubt whereas blacks women suppressed please dont kill saying blacks want stop ghostedi im pathetic annoying piece shit please least tell im sad left read see cant message person anymore fucking defeats puts sad depressed suicidal mood want end happens even worse see person talking group chat even bother message back understand sound selfish person please im begging longer want talk tell makes things much easier instead leave read make want die even usually depressedanxious life spent youth moving around small outsider kid always target bullying learned hide emotions fake okay draw attention away spent time books imagining fantasy worlds life made close friend rd grade another subject bullying although abused well confided th grade realised wanted live anymore shamefully tried end friendship deal feelings felt sorryit time started dropping hints parent admired time masked panic child might issues told talking problems okay people around grew close friends none trust fully feelingsthese past years slowly settled gone university find failure address mental health resulted apathy studies hobbies developed real deep friendships find trusting emotions people relieved hurti completed subject past couple years past due graduate keep lying parents live tell truth either one parent socially inept understanding background mental health grew abusive household difficult time confusing honesty manipulationi never hurt know tell people feel without manipulating burdening feeling shit receiving end know difficult hear know tell parents entered schools yearbook cover contest got nd place meaning back yearbook lmfao ampxb show whole thing personal info ithttpspreviewredditqlqkoktkxajpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsbfefedffafdedfa fuck lifewhy born didnt ask shit im ugly dumb poor please whatever whoever please take thats ask somebody friend please please welp storm took houses power sucks playstation eventually danny decided try sleep left gramps wine kitchen threw away things written left brothers cigarettes back found headed bed slowly stumbled kitchen silently walked past cats sleeping table chairs gently opened door room let fall bed soon head hit pillow memories come back fears haunted ok hell able forget everything tomorrow anyway im bored balls hurt guys need medicationhey first thanks working help people mental health issues wish caught problems bipolar diagnosed separate times quite medications antidepressants antipsychotics years ago lost insurance decided commit getting help went long process eventually got prescribed lamotrigine lamictal medication first really work things going alright got new doctor urgent care extend prescription without previous medical records due clerical error wrong name went meds cold turkey spiraled trying life back years later now feel tried everything worked quit job moved state better health care ive told family need help keep getting denied healthcare make year hardly enough pay rent much care think redflag every day know need feel better enough keep going pill costs cents dont know find doctor dont know insurance ive bartender season moving applying jobs benefits im loss anxiety roof never look forward waking know must making harder needs know avenues take afraid reaching let paralyzed afraid work really hard getting better nothing comes give thanks low pressure environment ok guys realise bit unpopular opinion honestly think female brutally torture male maybe isnt great dont think everyone understands darn feminists making everyone believe whaman wrong disagree know edgy idioti think idiot well darwin awards nominee couple years ago arrived canada intention study university degree new environment homesickness depression cultural differences long desired freedom countless reasons hindsight smart sounding excuses created changes plans first year uni got drugs alcohol parties nothing serious drugs alcohol wise end year certain gon na make second year leave canada go back home didnt want complete idiot simply said parents everything fine still studying years kept saying lie reality lived canada without visa without degree without desire change things lived alone rented apartment reading novels watching films basically unproductive antisocial waste simply didnt think consequences didnt care end even right care much happen imagining mom makes feel immense guilt things ive done less year ago started translating novels native language english fun ended earning bit last something started going life started cleaning habits recently reminded passport soon expire knowing honest options quite limited come clean deported create another convoluted disgusting lie got passport renewed live without passport illegal immigrant go full hollywood style fake passport even seriously contemplated redflag solution one hand truly dont want face consequences actions hand something finally started make sense life sure chance go back time wouldnt happened wouldnt lie parents living life disgusting parasite hurting living without direction desire regret last years life go back hometown probably face jail time draft dodging honest writing everything right made realize dont want go back home face parents option right seems whole lot appealing logical right thing even eating bullet know cowards way either blessing disguise maybe worst thing thats happen mefor longest time say ive lived life searching reason kill family parents breakup friends name little know one day maybe cross paths little virus called hsv simply known herpes try tell isnt end something u want end ur life honest death dishonor cant host life body makes think ill simply turn walking host virus think thats want known simply bear idea living test positive dont know hell im going sense end near didnt want kill std guess beggars cant choosers one year suffering finally endjust one year tbh wish every fiber unfortunately wait one year things must die know exceptionally worse year motivation live redflag awaits end road honestly cant wait reach welcome smile child misses parents waiting long said theres hope life matter happens therell always hope lurking around redflag existing give hopeless people sweat release death paini young everyday wake terrible headache going doctors years really long remember gotten point want live anymore really lot medication right now helped days hide think fake going kill want live thing keeping alive family feel better letting think know bring deny stupid posting want trouble think girl likes well specific im sure one weird roundabout way trying say id post screenshots conversation cant actual good painful ways diehanging sounds awful shooting head terrible people survive gunshots head time pills work read slitting wristsstabbing painful shit saw film day santa fe film festival delighted honesty humor thought provoking movie ive seen long time cant mind reason may everyone makes think know people think movies much anymore shame actors play franklins quite find imagine playing complicated people frankness though thought couple supporting characters good franklins totally forgive important movie opinion expect much ive thought days proving relevant piece entertainment shouting internet answer look really care side political spectrum fall really disheartening see people blindly attacking eachother sub others ofc instead saying blanket statements calling everyone side idiots sheep approach mature angle us young people obviously supposed future leaders whatever country reside better came us clearly failed polite listen concerns side feeling actually talk things realize different end day might side ask lets conversation lets come consensus despite differences view want see change world start discourse kind someone plz tell way see people following need normalize male hugging thing ache emotionally need support us males cant hug friends without labled gay inappropriate yet whenever girls situation hug regarded normal fine fell jealous fuck cant males thank coming ted talk line course lords prayer thy done earth heaven sweden especially far north idea heaven degree c winter temperatures little low side good folk live doubt think gods countrybr br storyline familiar one acclaimed international musician daniel suffers health breakdown midcareer goes back little village northern sweden born persuaded local pastor help church choir turns unlikely talent class act enter contest held innsbruck austria echoes sorry band players brassed models calendar girls dancers full monty course causes plenty emotional upheaval downtrodden villagers realise worth revolt oppressors faces hostile husbands increasingly dubious pastor nothing except death going stop himbr br despite somewhat corny story know many characters come across people rather caricatures despite many recognisable types wonder wifebeater unpunished long sweden one country world violence pretty strongly discouraged bit young one bullies daniels youth puritanical pastor secret passion girlie magazines bit stereotype marvellously realised niklas falkbr br michael nyqvist simply wonderful daniel frail driven musician theres nice music well rapt whole two hours ending make guess spoiling say daniel achieves set people stop posting asking gfbf shit annoying always happen thought time bring good grades maths online test turns fate currently feeling upset sitting bathtub india must excel maths take science th grade dang difficult mins questions markbut reality take longer time probably marksi telling man hypocrisy school give less time high difficulty time cheating defeating thanos almost impossible searched questions google half cant even found mom ignored paini feeling suicidal past years even though ive gotten better conversation mom last year still hurts repeatedly trying reach desperation pain feeling suicidal typically ignored cries shes asian parent doesnt believe mental health gives motivational speech simply said dog barks never bites day think thought time still hurts yall think spoken anyone great peoples perspectives please someone talk mei horribly depressed suicidal gay emotionally abusive father severe depression need someone talk one please someone pm talk anythign please pleasant surprise expected downgrade along line rock con air armaggeddon especially overhyped film perhaps thats reason approved new type bruckheimer fare clever dialogue instead snappy oneliners decent backgroundmotivation instead shakenbake stereotypes chase came really thirsted fanboys expecting armageddon rollercoaster stay away one intelligent action fans even bother jolie appeared little decisionafter months contemplating procrastinating ive come conclusion ending life way cease constant battle anger depression anxiety regret sit defeat letting three feelings push isolate people meant world donate please go url fundraising goal high struggling reach donations much appreciated see done far collect money click link donations welcome matter big small greatly appreciated share update last post girl called toxic end ended sorta appolgizing life need advice know deal suicidal sisterim sorry feel mess something wrong talk feels suicidal something regrets selfharms whenever see scars feel devastated tells never liked living long remember cant relate ive always content life feel need something help know cant understand thought maybe someone going something similar help relate little better want help best ive always looked love much hurts think stand killed want know help unable kind funhi title says used videogames enjoy anymore sole source fun life friends hobbies never mind girlfriend body feels languid sick time enjoy anything physical find without fun life idea little help dont know invented two one shampoo whoever god thank given title first followup quartet obviously reduces number w somerset maugham stories comprise film author still turns introduce episodes theres epilogue time around way script original compendium gave sole credit rc sheriff maugham lent hand adaptation well noel langley though unclear whether contributed one segment worked unison expected much crew quartet retained second installment though extends least three cast members namely naunton wayne wilfrid hydewhite felix aylmer last two bit parts episode quartet entitled colonels lady trio ultimately emerges lesser achievement predecessor slightly unbalanced third story takes half runningtime still done utmost care acted verve stellar cast solidly enjoyable bargainbr br verger tells church sexton james hayter storys title another word whos dismissed years service new parish priest michael hordern simply hes illiterate rather rest laurels despite age takes wife landlady played kathleen harrison opens tobacconist shop strategically placed lengthy stretch road service offered business flourishing developed whole chain last scene sees pay visit bank manager felix aylmer surprised learn hayters lack education prompted ask interests wealthy respected tobacconist replies measure irony calling verger br br second episode mr knowall shortest perhaps engaging voyage sea utterly beleaguered insufferable presence pompous young man nigel patrick british despite foreignsounding name kelada professes authority virtually every subject sun naunton wayne wilfrid hydewhite two passengers put latter shares cabin man former view patricks attentions pretty wife anne crawford fancydress party passengers decide enact revenge kelada one impersonate jest naturally doesnt appreciate still contrives show decent side character told crawford necklace shes wearing imitation wayne challenges patrick name pricebut latter realizes immediately genuine article compromise crawfords position tell kelada allows publicly ridiculed rather expose fact woman probably secret admirer br br deduced title sanatorium deals myriad patients place run andre morell protagonist new intern roland culver wistfully observes various goingson narrative fact highlights particular three separate strands plot one humorous feud two aged scots long resident sanatorium played finlay currie john laurie one melodramatic erratic relationship disgruntled patient raymond huntley longsuffering devoted wife betty ann davies one bittersweet romance nave charming jean simmons dashing cad michael rennie spite pretty much everything including fact morell diagnosed simmons lifer rennie years left leads couple altar almost socialized today class today really extracurricular class instructor said got popsicles go outside eat chat whatever hung around bit really talk anyone know anybody want butt without really knowing say closest got instructor asked wanted another said good hands already mess one idk though want able make friends talk people actually ends end awkwardly hanging around within vicinity without really going anything actually something jesus committed redflagthis serious question im genuinely interested people think anyone see things wayhttpiimgurcomhhftqbjpg decided make diagram better illustrate think suicidal thoughts positive negative signs represent good bad feelings life horizontal axis course life time cant seem handle roller coaster effect seen first part figure want make things simpler society people autism spectrum mental health issues psychological issues surrounded bunch fucking nazis blame us everything say everything fault trying destroy us psychologically want us kill psychological warfare society governments hates people us extremely angry suicidal surrounded hateful society really know turn anymoreim stable place call home moving around soon things start going well move next step plans better future everything falls shit ive rebuild life scratch nine times now say scratch mean thing name shitty phone clothes back im done always end way cant anymore im currently homeless penniless hungry sitting things life shitty car go mile without breaking actually car cant even sell though cant afford insurance pos tried another job guess credit check recently got evicted apartment even job fucking imaginary digit bullshit number family friends go back feet statecity live expensive even job even pay work point thats much time goals plan even motivation life keeps wanting give good ole fuck kick back stairs time im getting back im stuck endless cycle ive dealing years tried really every single day worthless shitty existence nothing became failed every turn im tired yall strength keep every single time ive asked help ive always gotten bull oh ill pray cant give itll better people keeps going im asking help anymore cause anything im asking understanding difficult one person deal see people try day life rewarded throwing towel sounds times better going another years world systematically stripping things make happy coping mechanisms last yearsi used work made happy fencing team got sinus infection months shortly recovering herniated disk back got surgery almost year later still extremely limited without serious painful consequences back surgery play guitar video games random onset numbness pain arms hands zero medical explanation doctor took seriously worst peaks head back life remind make life hell used drink one night ended hospital pancreatitis possibly drugged hostess cant drink anymore lest want reignite excruciating pain side weed moved country isnt legal im trying antidepressants ones took kid made even depressed brought back suicidal thoughts im sex addict put dick toosmall vibrator cup months ago cant full erection pain numbness still masturbate twice day even though makes worse positive chemicals anything doctor hasnt done actual tests anything beyond looking giving fucking herbs ive lost fuckin ability sex s friends busy succeeding care graduated semester late time covid start friends jobs growing careers im useless piece shit ive seen friends twice past months partly im afterthought even best friend says im best friend im different country family whole crisis vowed didnt job id kill coming back us shithole id rather go back anyway figure easier family die overseas accept rather finding body visa expires months dont see finding job want easy way go nothing seems easy enough lazy ass checked tall building around none public access stairways apartment building stories want make sure full meters needed die confidence hate bullshit read news theres zero hope humans generation even solve every one problems whats point world sustainable capable burning exploding violence oppression theres nothing worth looking forward thats assuming im going medical situational problems piled cruel fucking universe want talk someone friends either busy succeeding dont want pull dont trust dont want trigger writing dumb post ill probably delete anyone knows good place jump tokyo hmu struggling push thoughts awaymy last attempt around years ago ive handled daily suicidal thoughts pretty well usually resilience push away nonsense aspergers make friends easily ones ended pushing away removing days ago even guilty remove entire group due negativity im back self harming strength cope thoughts think im safe usually im make attempt serene almost bliss feeling wash ive found answer yet thats usually things go bad even know im typing think need tell someone know someone read something know tried fill void wife kids working makes feel worse things supposed matter right makes even shittier person dont second thought maybe im safe thought ive already started rationalising gon na computer think thats way stay safe right now heard film walt disney pictures worry classed along films disney meant educational purposes family planningbr br coproduced kotex teach preteen girls menstruation supposably educates superficial level go heavy detail animated rams head reproductive system sequencebr br film show wonderful world disney elements turning page use animation tell storybr br film impossible find find film best luck enjoy redflag best option lazy idlerif someone lazy want work hard even try put effort anything improve situation redflag option finished series netflix know fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller freedomi thought going end month ago guess missed honestly see things getting better guess im waiting next emotional spike happen may deed long free isolation judgement jealousy anguish care comes feeling around years now heres hoping comes soon open letter lostboys j j know knew want say much either alive write hours hours never even begin encapsulate life love joy seemed two words describe smiles lift little helium balloon happiness stomach heart beautiful smiled seemed content people always say eyes window soul never see see blue skies clear waters saw love friendship young men living life life live seen tragedy sadness desperately must felt even now idea desperate felt know much sadness heart held closer one good friends need apologise maybe going hear im sorry never seeing taking issues lightly listening problems enough im sorry hearing saying without listening feeling im sorry reach harder closer look heart feel pain needed someone feel im sorry last way thing try pull back im sorry together party proper conversations happened better friend talked sadness mention blues foolish thought world feet opportunities hope thought time thought future us still owe three cigarettes left gaping holes lot lives know really truly knowing beforehand wouldve made difference knowing amount love genuinely surrounded wouldve made difference living guilty possibility feel waves waves anguish honestly glad find know better friend either alive right now listened listened listened opened heart wide go alive facebook happy birthday messages theyd wrapped joy party hats meaningless comments instead haunting sadness feels thick even though computer screen im sorry try harder know im sorry loneliness consumed noone break wish see love think though see pain adore pls send help stayed minecraft world house looks small mansion outside live right next ravine fell asleep fight mobs try wake headset came house put minecraft beds next feel oddly accomplished nothing left givei therapy years upbringing mentally ill narcissistic mother alcoholic enabling father gave childhood filled neglect trauma abuse developed mental illnesses well full fledged personality disorder earliest memory watching mom shove dad floor picking taking bedroom locked bedroom door held lap told worry dad outside door screaming let give response ill give one fingers heavy duty fan metal blades running held empty cigarette pack blades noise made loud remember crying dad screamed door started rattling attempts break mom turned fan decided wasnt crying loud enough pinched thigh twisted hard enough scream time dad broke door covered tears snot way toddler mom sitting edge bed smoking smiling checked broke tears mom looked said nest time threaten call police wont bluff dad moved next day mom moved around state dozens times always move government couldnt catch us couldnt hold job fbi spies everywhere times steady high learned young clean vomit blood carpet extremely proficient wrangling addicts apartment time different schools fault though never born fbi never caught wouldnt need move much use heroin scramble signal came head mom addict lover week gotten argument ended slitting wrists front called police took hospital grandparents moms parents took days stabilized visited hospital mom cried told loved never meant hurt needed help lie people cam talk couldnt tell friends violence subjected sometimes sit friends laps fix told truth take away kill didnt want reason died lied cps complicit falling cracks agency meant protect raped year later friend mothers met christian chat room arrested blamed ruining friendship god fearing man made mistake called dad asked live instead moved back us started cutting keep expressing anger felt abandoning coming back abuse leveled instead met boy fell love college sophomore promised take care soon graduated high school turned valedictorian want mother make scene graduation left everything behind moved dan real name together things great particular certain things living heaven compared used asked stop college work finish college degree land better paying job mine didnt think anything saved done anything asked got violent made excuses never violent things stressful continued years say something didnt shut go quiet refuse talk asked give noncommittal answer ignored silence explode didnt love balancing act ask correct questions correct amount times anything less perfection ended broken bone bloody nose lied therapist psychiatrist throughout knew panic attacks nigh terrors depression anxiety drinking self harm dutifully covered bruises face neck arms ashamed weakness falling love man even violent mother still felt indebted getting away family broke last year drew bath opened bottle wine swallowed every pill dan work hours due home sitting hot water listening music feeling eyes heavier peace felt life fear pain doubt dread everything going happy obviously work dan came home early hospitalized medicated properly diagnosed referred better intensive form therapy got hospital dan ghosted cleared apartment everything except cat clothes joint account personal account emptied nothing year work freelance writer living first life slowly making progress plans save much money move rural setting lease next year instead everything started exploding people hate disorder even without knowing even though destructive tendencies turned inward parents pushing contact dan give another chance triggered friend mine return triggered full flashbacks dan coworker angry unable cover event writing panned still chronic pain car accident last year stuck paperwork hell even witnesses police video showing driver fault pneumonia every breath take hurts still struggling binge eat drink worn core nothing left give want feel sense peace felt knew everything going cant think reason keep fighting hello goodnight time sleep dont care time sleep note english first language text might gramatically correct best ampxbso even go throw bit context best friend high school let us call d girl first year hs eventually got together start third year always weird notredflag last long decided take break notredflag focus realize want stuff anyways know girl let us call bestfriend ds gf hangout times eventually decide cool start dating together new years things start messy whenever something bad happens always knows blames mocks front gf makes feel worthless ds gf started leave plans camping hanging feel ones number break ds gf blaming entire th year hs classmates never felt trapped now anyone talk lost lot friends want talk many people parents always working tired generally bad mood ampxbi justcannot feel done point think anything matters point might mood swing feel really gf said loved seconds later broke dated weeks thats nothing made really happy life wasnt great really getting annoyed time feel ass breaking way please proceed commenting im horrible person feel free ask shit bash even personally know pigeons die sex mean least one fuckd really interesting film first time seen relationship older woman younger guy screen without sensationalist director notting hill bold move something serious wish intervened years ago girl class constantly getting bullied back fall remember classmates make fun girl laugh jokes feel ashamed thinking im please notice someone getting bullied please speak silent laugh give upi knife second impulse courage im going compliments criticism feel personal attacks take criticism extremely poorly whenever someone criticises something ive done take personal attack feel work bad feel im terrible cant take compliment compliment feel disingenuous feel people compliment want something compliments feel personal attack know makes fucking sense know im incredibly toxic sex ppl minion blanket want proof ur lookin scaredi wish scared kill think start making plan tryingto write letter start crying shaking want peace im tired alone feel mind slow cloudy lately cant think used really good writer every time try talk write something words feel forced think really hard im trying say im really sorry used touchy feely person pre trauma hell id stood big city sign free hugs wanted id touch leg sympathy throw arm around shoulders comradeship family never growing recent years rarely got hugs parents brother wed brush legs sitting itd awkward oh sorry shuffle separate latter still true make joke every time look sub theres someone posting suicidal makes feel whenever see wish sub positive sub positive place moment anyone boat im dont personality people arent good looking enough people want hang around probably makes sense im talking man shitty social boat rn crying hrs straight ok serious tho lol big balls important big dick small balls unsexy even u inch massive pp big dangling balls yummy last day spring break td tryna relax school takes life swear tried cocaine id able relate film perfectly pace well dialog churns speeds viewers might need stop relax headsbr br great little elements pop film rob lowes character seems always loosing shoe characters keep running spirals around zigzagged path story put together extremely well direction seems flawlessbr br movie reeks clumsy cuteness one think enjoy laughoutloudevenifyouarealone moments ensure ill certainly watching opinion october sky one best movies totally everything emotional drama movie need wonderful story good character interactions october sky remain heart long remember say special thanks created film documentary schlockmeister william castle takes cheap shots naive ss environment characteristic worklook funny silly people ghostglassesbut affectionate lively particularly bright commentary john waters absolutely target audience things time castles daughter adored dad pretty perceptive plied craft never find became castle offspring movies good makes clear marketing brilliant appears sweet hardworking family man fun people keep popping straight jackets diane baker looks great anne helm replaced instigation star joan crawford darryl hickman explodes giggles happy memory working castle tingler theres enough footage give us idea level castles talentnot high energetic pleasant look time audiences easily pleased make nostalgic simpler moviegoing days love jesus still want diei want die everyday beautiful boys husband love much one think things alone keep earth go church far think pretty devout lover jesus dont understand dont want anymore frustrating find fault everyone antidepressants last week friend committed redflag im jealous im even sad freaking jealous dont even know turn moment might kill tonight d rapist boyfriend leaving rn suspected bpd ive fucked everythingi think bpd fit dsm criteria officially diagnosed best friend ex girlfriend currently break talking struggling upset replying messages curt cant deal though thought go back normalcy likes silence prefers gone suicidal thoughts sometimes whenever ask ok remind im ignores hours sometimes even reply mean much anybody ive already sorted loose ends im waiting move two weeks people care love care people love messed hate cant live sorry thank emma chamberlain making want flare yoga pants think couldve got sale yesterday hurry wan na kill cos sexual desires impossible live thisi jerking things happened high school decades nothing try bed comes close experiences involve perving hot guys girls high school kill right mean theres way ill able replace things enjoyed much high school snd indulge thinking every day recreate snd never experience end live theres way happy mean cant change sexual feelings new deleted award see lot posts sub deleted award give people giving fucking hate alivei creativity drive passion weak moral compass wish strengthen morals stupid pointless care anyone anything around accounts empty vessel ideas goals dreams perspective everything around horrifically warped point connect people care emotions care much effect pathetic life dislike responsibility gain rewards responsible except avoidance pain misfortune im willing try hardest make things work shit hits fan id rather sleep cold ground beg money starve police officer harassed sleeping public space id attack maybe hed kill id able punish blindly enforcing law zero respect hate responsible people hate something want im fucking running steam fuck life fuck deserve rot hell give fuck ask exist right end pathetic life feel care contributing society im weak stupid unconfident find way make real living develope relationships solve problems life bring happiness want believe want responsible trajectory life cant trust cant admit person want work want die consistent kindnessive lurking past week dont know say respond pour soul write try translate anguish stirs deep heart respond dont know learn something kindness important reflect deep think really yearn hunger rawest sense wish sate personally yearn kindness yearn appreciated acknowledged youve done good youre beautiful everything going alright im grateful life youre amazing person love kindness consistent basis go long way kindness heals insecurities makes us feel appreciated warms heart gives us strength survive thrive overcome much someone told every single day beautiful intelligent amazing grateful life showed appreciation hard work worked hard make things easier much impact life heal really wish people kinder arent kind inherent defect prevents others kind hard kind freely sincerely complement comfort another one barely know something easy someone close something think hard fighting battles dont acknowledge battles others battles may different intensity respond yearn support caught insecurities arent even aware insecurities others around us kind vulnerable open chink armour chance attempts kind shot chance feel unappreciated risk many arent willing take something im trying work give ive yearned long dont know honestly dont know respond appropriately conveyed posts fine unlike taught school fine know something answer everything many problems complex quick fix solution pretend isnt lead frustration onetime simple fix heal years abuse neglect complex multifaceted life situations requires much effort comprehend let alone solve years alone creating maladaptive thoughts drags deeper abyss dont answers believe whatever answer form consistency kindness resolve kinder person experience share thoughts hopes may resonate someone take may day nnn overall went pretty well cousins house chilling whole day done go think curse family realized much bad stuff happening family lately night great grandfather heart attack still hospital week found grandfather aggressive prostrate cancer think spread hips aunt uncle newborn baby covid great uncle aunt covid mom covid think something wrong eye anyone cure failed failed sleep sorry kissed someone listening skrillex switched full make sesh right beat dropped curious anyone done im bored miss muchi lost wife cancer years months days ago widower turned brain cancer destroyed ability communicate slow way go married years months battled cancer years months weeks marriage took care entire time felt alone really communicate cant thought redflag head ive already written notes family friends see therapist twice month cant stop missing feel alone hurts much im afraid never stop hurting getting bad want stop im ready yet starting seem option left looking friends hi fellow teens dont many friends looking one year old boy th grademy faviorite tv show family guy close second always sunny philadelphiai watching wwe last gen gamer ds democrat love politics much xanax take kill ive never done found source going leave todayi going leave today almost two years lost person loved today birthday feel belong anywhere anyone feel im toxic entity everyone around im enough theres nothing help without breaking even going hang home today instead celebrating holiday boyfriend family even went far look tie noose ha almost jumped ship sea last year thinking best way go end always end thinking others pain guilt left wish courage wish rid burden peoples time lives good afternoon ruffians todays news steve fuckin smash buy em now unrelated news introduce new neighbor zack efron wants free award one wholesome give away memes already many awards someone really wants one cant forgive myselfi cant forgive whole life ive taken care regardless situation someone always pick slack ive left behind lot able coast life putting minimum effort everything knowing someone always rest eventually turned letting people letting people cared world abusing love trust id say whatever people wanted hear extend free ride hated depressed damn easy anything something carry forever think somewhere inside knew given choice starting hardest journey youve gone continuing road ive going whole life chose easiest route everything guess whole pattern started mother let bargain pretty much anything rule around formulated strong enough argument parents divorced years old mother given custody moved frequently whole life think longest stayed one place years lived originally bought house hours away father lived soon became apparent needed closer seeing every weeks enough ended moving times year ending right back started hours father lasted one year town years old mother decided wanted teach religion china lived china years mother taught english support us ended enrolled full chinese school first year speak word language put effort learn language hated fact brought away friends live determined make worst returned china learned almost none language put effort probably fluent waste thats think looking back basically every stage life returned china changed significantly going outgoing confident returned shy stick im sure made change ive tried pinpoint never come anything regardless still good friends lived town first years high school alright school never put effort cant remember homework always got minimum teachers liked nice polite typical struggling student moved times completed high school getting tiresome writing grade parents wondered grades bad decided iq tested diagnosed something called nonverbal learning disorder basically means huge difference verbal iq performance iq case gifted verbal iq average performance iq apparently differences size extremely rare blamed poor grades lack effort articulate thoughts ideas head easily translating real world difficult anyway moved one last time time live town girlfriend time stupid know seem pretty important lived family took foreign exchange students dad paid rent course within first months living important relationship fell apart grade ended dating amazing girl christian bullied child low self esteem used male attention dated full year sex picked grad night think ive emotionally charged experience continued dating got crappy job working call center instead going college even imagine self going back school point turns though ability slack limited school eventually stopped going work ended getting fired tried going college twice dropped times apply let absolutely tiny excuse way attending class homework started working convenience store mind still slacked though ended hating quitting still girlfriend time probably together years point rd year university nothing wanted badly make change tried going china teaching english staying mother yeah lives now alright cant bring put effort know bring matter hard try video games convenient escape help often social connection friends though took long time admit addicted escape reality provided made little bit money china lot working mother school taught easiest way work drive go apply schools looking people night got back china girlfriend brought meal airport rented us hotel night told thinking going back china friend mothers offered good work opportunity want go another months without seeing put school hold went back china ended achieving nothing worked ass teaching english something hated us able afford flights home still hate best support motivate moved together last semester university went back school drop time still put almost effort well classes failed one average others graduated degree animal biology amazing grades deans list every year got job working assay technician applied veterinary school sat home almost full year rarely going sometimes even ignoring become dependent rather partner vet school first attempt competitive canada almost one gets first year applying continued work continued nothing refused go visit work friends day never even met want anything self esteem shot getting job seemed impossible knew alienating one person cared change though matter much fought always lose literally everything alone worked cooked cleaned went friends alone sometimes begging come rarely though carried year moved new apartment went friends wedding days came back distant asked wrong said want know asked breaking fell crying arms nodded even cry kept telling sorry everything really hit yet moved started living friend cant forgive one thing truly cared world nothing makes happy month broke friends ive known teenager seem stupid now flaws used overlook obvious even want hang top depressed anyway considered suicide together seriously now done know hurt parents probably friends now think value feelings situation though theres one thing know people loving enough depression see life going uphill want live im going feel way forever hate ive wasted opportunities relationships time even losing still feel make change feel hopeless one thing even gives little motivation one day trying make ex showing ive changed think even deserve opportunity put hell even conjure little effort help ended longer intended reading probably cut paragraphs still got basic idea across whatever read life prison trapped outi know want live anymore great film american gi quits army marry german girl saved life last days war accepts really likes support easier access food meanwhile brother old friend form antiamerican terrorist group called werewolves purpose drive away occupants might remember group playing major part lars von triers film europa zentropa james best best known role roscoe p coltrane s television show dukes hazzard shockingly excellent american become big movie star age reminds much warren beatty main actors good well fullers direction quite good using lot long takes although nearly complex park row long takes often consist long scenes lot dialogue problems lie script seems case fuller films ive seen badly flawed expanded fleshing major characters parts script helga wife goes major change completely screen emotional center rests squarely bests shoulders fuller killed sick mother early film hope sound harsh really anything throughout film except lie bed lines fuller keeps bringing film goes death solidify david helgas relationship film ends abruptly lacks payoff really biggest flaws world way described makes sound bigger want kill bad theres genuinely way homeim teenager cant gun theres nothing hang tall buildings area tylenol starving stabbing etc ineffective want die bad theres genuinely way feels kind awful saw drugs years vh love think reflects drug history well importantly strong message generations woodstock joplins hendrixs jim morrisons deaths many many examples drug use drug abuse completely cover time line evolution drug use america good bad ways opinion documentary well done congratulate creators exactly needed playing tv days waiting dvd release definitely see movie stunning big time one day red alley cat fed kicked people attacked dogs muses life better skunk paints black white stripe back adds bit limburger cheese make stink first life better dog flees butcher abandons shop letting cat walk pile meat thinking everything perfect noticed real skunk skunk overly amorous pep le pew pep mistakes poor cat female skunk pursues thinking protestations shyness poor cat thinks escaped throws skunk skin tall building pep think dead first seems work sneaks pep sees instantly forgets dead skunk end cat realises better kicked attacked lusted randy skunk nice ending skunk wife finds tobr br fairly funny introduction pep le pew back overly amorous looks randy sexually harassing stalker although punished behaviour end doim year old male career one near help process getting divorced kids never see move away ive tried kill fucked got really sick tried last night knife broke want die want happy make someone happy fucked everything life im back place every minute day look least painful way talked friend today talked cant rely every time im drowning thoughts terrible want hurt sometimes think buddhist monks correctlyim extremely intelligent person extreme interest american politics feel sense clairvoyance look actions politicians today know real world consequences foolishness causes unimaginable pain see years years progress flushed toilet broken political system fear massive civil unrest future maybe rise neofascism us sometimes feel setting fire national mall relieve sense hopelessness protest way government run parties either pursuing murderous campaign future perceive enemies state truth want kill anybody want alleviate suffering two options see front either erasing erasing people see threat progress clear im real power execute anyone yet one day fear power use sometimes think better kill cog political machine rather live tortured world perceive took nholy shit tasted awful syrup barely improved anything good thing feel puking wait idea long takes work ask questions take eternal nap welcome plan backpedaling yeah hey guys games play sad want distract past time feel brokeni know guys lot people respond sorry add know anymore past months especially last month contemplating redflag lot last week almost even redflag note written problems lately feel broken trying job call backs failing class long term relationship parents angry fairly recent college change recent add onto already bad mind set pushed even farther write makes feel selfish pretty easy life worry lot things feel way people way worse want die feels downward slope hope future scared hurt ones love leaving know hurt time know made sense tell someone know going never gon na hit notes filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler ruined lifei normal kid high school hung friends enjoyed sports etc got older got addicted sedentary lifestyle porn browsing internet laying bed went skinny kid pounds feet erectile dysfunction insomnia every night struggle sleep every hours torture fixed diet work daily still success besides skinny wanted say watching national velvet tv feb checking dates details etc surprising see made rooney years old whilst liz taylor accomplished english actress isbr br put americans contributors right irish villages england ireland completely different country nothing whatsoever english countryside scenes shown supposedly taken south coast england brighton arundel county sussex scene exists unfortunately many places roads buildings built hills beachesbr br please lovely americans confuse ireland england take great exception confusing texas coney island sorry everyone tried help mei wish say ive gotten better havent im still garbage human feel even shittier keep saying im gon na probably seems im going run people listen keep crying wolf goodbye im sorry guys find online school harder easier perks come cons come im struggling little bit math still feel im obtaining knowledge bitch worked first full day mcdonalds alright busy slow training know clock pretty easy day need someone talk totitle despite production received number poor reviews actually holds quite well age note bbc programme simply licensed granada ventures jane austen collection released dvdbr br compare adaptations novel wellknown version days film amanda root anne elliott ciaran hinds captain frederick wentworth film course shorter good snapshot story earlier version ann firbank bryan marshall roles four hours tell story moved leisurely pacebr br firbank good ten years old role good marshall excellent wentworth man disappointed love bitter interference hidden cast people contribute michael culver later seen cadfael harvill richard vernon later seen hitchhikers guide galaxy admiral croft noel dyson earlier coronation street mrs musgrovebr br one criticism hairstyles bit distracting costumes awful still detract hugely enjoyable austen adaptation honestly cant wait till trump office ten bucks says tries say system rigged big conspiracy system rigged cant wait till politics taboo starts conflicts law requires sort qualifications become president besides age cause honestly cant another one every little inconvenience makes want kill trying hard become robot stop ability feel ignore fact likely never happy cry everyday reality hits even fucking deserve thisi even people kill rape away worst crime probably stealing pencil friend fair man kid think mature pace give anything stop crying dont hate dont respond sent something hours ago says last online minutes ago annoying mind feels scary placei broke boyfriend feel im falling apart feel im crazy feel patterns burden loved ones want want live ive depressed even still around see dying mind need help coming realize almost old friends really good people kind take advantage things offer definitely greatest guy life seems crushingly depressing right working liking means clearing negative influences life guys really people hung beginning high school want many things summer realize might alone unless make new friends probably going fall back depression hole anybody got advice fun alone making friends hard anybody advice hanging please dont ignore need adviceplease write lately ive struggling problem believe video game addiction play super smash bros hours day really high gsp online ranked point system well consistantly lost round lost much gsp main got de ranked feel sick angry know near hours clocked game going waist im mad feel throwing someone please offer advice talent everything good slipping away may loose full time job full ride scholarshipill try keep quick basically im good situation right young man im special program fully pays education teaching trade pays year basically right high school zero debt living comfortably independently recently ive hard time retaining understanding certain concepts trade resulting low grade evaluation points failing dont next month loose everything im getting tested add see thats problem complex trade anyways know fact ill never opportunity im seriously considering ending firedkicked program believe god think anything supernatural happens die feel life truly pointless never understand existence end seeing much evil violence environmental destruction world makes want part reality anymore bring grade job graduate keep money flowing see reason give life doneenglish language typos grammar fuck ups care today good day visit sea traveld h stayed time back home anyway want explain everything day starts top shit relived nur loaded gun dead one understand people want spend time clusterfuck person annoying ugly dumb best part start new job soon cant imagine therapist reach well fact accept fuck hell care anymore want delete done really done kinda lonely feel depressi feelmy friendseven bestfriendleft behind need someone somehow comfort mei lot friends feel none need mostso decided cut friendship bestfriendbecause even care feel ithes need help school subjects forthi hope find someone stay longterm real friend human much mein honesty ive probably getting along fine years life far feel day now gon na come crashing ill scared figure fix wan na around happens ive always let anxiety rule life always cant see single good thing make people take away much world ill able give every little thing done already make impossibletobegin gauntlet confirming college courses start soon going work asking others talk feel never gather strength anything know ill fail always think ill kill soon feeling always ive different kinds treatment never anything sometimes scared away notion im reminded redflags effects others sometimes distracted forget never lasts die make world better place nobody realize true way overcome hope survive fucked world really lost idea life become feel defective human people may really shouldnt belong sunfish great stupid ton useless fish talk achievementsthey love judge others invalidate others bc fcking insecure inside value integrity worth higher regular person people talk dirt people work hope end poor dirt bc well worked despite societal benefits took achieve want threaten kill people bc attitude jealous sometimes seriously want something people despite consequences bad know exactly successful people talk taking popular meme making text post make original hey need raise yall help got task brothers youtube account subs btw work dad come clean office bucks hour anyone right open talkive worst weekend life far slumped time low made worse past week begun feeling much better numb right now talk someone running upstairs tendies mom calls httpsyoutubewrjgtgukmuthttpsyoutubewrjgtgukmut ampxb filler filler filler text filler filler filler filler filler filler cant anymorei feel everyone life better without turn cant imagine future everything much sensitive done bad shit mean ones love deserve alive cant take action feel im living hell everyday whether im work home friend try hard cant stabilize moods go deep end every day everything sets hate think bpd feel life taking medicine makes feel numb unable cum isnt worth personality really sad angry hyper nice people nice better mean youre nice takes start liking youre conflicted youre emotions kinda literally impossible cant anything second girl talk girls best friends scheming friend checks messages sees messages hes upset likes girl yeah sometimes jerk recognized im nice emotions still shambles isnt working period time didnt dumb emotions running head great good time tried nice people emotions went fucked yeah thats fun whats yall hi best friend started taking zoloft redflag depression two days ago really bad side effects redflag way worse normal regular side effects iti read lot zoloft going continue research anyways ways help support time make feel little better know obviously going cure want help things says breaks heart really worries suffer depression redflag well understand feels want anything bad happen worried right now thank advance help best friend person hurt mei sorry strong enough sorry allowed treated horribly sorry didnt enough brand pills took whatever find im sorry headache feel im sorry know wont change anything im sorry feel alone im sorry never feel safe im sorry trying wasnt enough sorry never live life deserve im sick worrynormally im good frame mind im feeling loser late never problem got denied private student loans credit shit im working job insufferable nervous breakdown finally got right direction head go school im sure ill pay rent grants cover school costs comes significantly wealthier family always backing support im boat im ashamed feel trying right thing ruined everything im close oding prescription pills probably even trick needs niece hate life become really need someone talk right nowhi im feeling pretty shitty right now almost killed couple days ago decided check hospital instead family took back place everyone know left go vacation im home alone girlfriend gone well felt alone night really need someone shoot shit feel pretty crappy feel one actually wants around spend time tolerate want kill terrible isolating feeling play runescape overwatch lol much enjoy music fantasy movies read good books lately ill talk anything wish skirt trend oddly want one feel cute need someone talk tohey people great sorts things school sports job name always kind caring person whos always willing help never told anyone fact family downright despises matter everytime hear kind dissapointment im financial burden worse yet better grave chose retaliate tried ignore one point take anymore welp fillerfillerfillerfiller guess ill spew meaningless trash post rmemes ah disadvantages starting new account got super mad aggressively played bach violin thats thats sayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy sssssssssssniperwolf snake say sssssssssssssssssssssa pizza red snake otter dit pop oiled butter way slippery salmon hell red rub forehead together painful friction ok heres thing saw someone goes well nothing guy weight date yo girl giving advice pt long sfw respectful ask anything want ill best help im brokenim broken man struggling depression drug abuse story long complicated almost entirely fault put positions deserve garbage thrown life want redeem fix mistakes think ending end im addict running problems redflag seems solution always yall got tips dealing anxiety damn use rn hit whatever got put key back onto keyboard got play doh tuck keyboard got taking key keys half way half way snap loose wont come shake keyboard idk retainer clip please help scream pain sometimes bashings bad call mum work sometimes brother home alone returned school torment bash run room lean bedroom door weight brother kicked punched side wood splintered went back still noone stopped helpim crying wonna im sagfe neet talk important message thighs ampxb ampxb thick thighs shitty weeks lately nothings going way never see light end tunnel happy anymore workload keeps piling work endless amounts work seem catch wanting hangout one favorite coworkers keeps blowing one thing liked wanted blow steam shoot shit keeps blowing canceling asking week advance something oks suddenly randomly invites someone take basically ruining everything weekend good next weekend next weekend comes still good shred hope happiness barely gets taken away hanging coworker said work happy split second think almost top knocked think going blow steam coworker keeps canceling probably never wants hangout whatever care awfulannoying point want hangout anymore considered older brothermentorbest friend much anymore life shitty lately got slight injury last saturday start feeling better yesterday gone work feel place depresses coworker helping already feeling thought maybe coworker hangout used really looking forward nothing set stone felt weekend good one guessed wrong hate life wish go away never come back know friends coworkers hangout different notredflag different people everybody disappointing someone thought close blows basically meh cold towards need fucking vacation something feeling depressed hate one person thought clicked really well distant life one big disappointment another getting closecrying everyday cutting often climax think weeks left maybe days better now ill miss friends think leave know feeling working really hard hours straight finally home take shower hop bed first time feet alllllll day cover sheets feel cloud fall asleep baby imagine thats feel right now feels im working hours straight strenuous physical labor going home taking shower standing front bed watching im tired want lay want drift love much think voice thats tugging shirt finally gon na take slipping help pleasehey male developing country first time im losing grip always find way time feel kick strong first time think need guidance interested please skip single word kindly read itll interesting read least first little background problems social anxiety throughout teenage years put lot effort close friends romantic relationships last year highschool ive changed took reins many friends lovely life companions everyone left one one university happens hardest years life getting mixed depressionanxiety another thing ive always felt belong country never feel im socalled friends feel act around survive live ive always dreamed escaping adulthood sneaked ive started accept ill never follow dreams something happened summer ive decided visit friend different country changed whole life cities ive visited fun sex people people befriended ive felt born social mask ive created home needed among decided finish last year uni home move next year said many hard years trying find good friends ive found probably best people ive met best part left love much told theyve never met person lives think theyre kind spend full weeks day night oh yeah theres girl much time spend interested little say friends much ask atm first thought another country actually hot perfect human us think person much anyway ive decided go back winter vacation said im planning live near future ive found job save money im focused finishing uni feel social alter ego exactly opposite thought years social less anxious better person problem starts soon stepped homeland people started disgust friends graduatedon vacation theres social life got used years even itll people problem getting along misanthropy kicked came anxiety feel lovesick weird way im afraid losing new friends every evening home work want call listen speaking rid problems head busy life thousands kilometers us ive realized best thing keep talking getting better slowly back winter heavy burden look calendar feel closer every day burden feels heavier especially starting week feel anxious old feel darkness starts sneak feel lost weak almost broken years ive learned need talk people moments friends really bad listening new friends vacation wan na scare choking text messages personal problems moment im slowly sinking deep stupid ideas giving everything know tldr lazy people read post feel giving try please help wan na anxiousdepressive grumpy lifeless waste skin need someone talk tof lost parents age moved country left family behind lived sister new country husband raped multiple times period years finally escaped childhood tormentor attempted redflag multiple times need someone talk know go throwback ten going tomboy phase guy went boys secondary school gave pamphlet secondary ran away crying bruh see thought boy tall cornrows boobs yet wore masculine clothes still event growth boobies led becoming feminine person freaking feel crisis know way support rn mom busy therapy friday therapist wants make switch therapists anyway feel losing support system know feel breaking point someone please help know lmfao younger brother owns two laptops none bit less three years ago first part story context basically parents forced let brother borrow laptop went high school pc games files school gave school ipad parents said didnt need anymore told parents make separate account lmao let use account proceeded wipe computer games files istg highkey wanted strangle proceeded trash laptop destroying arrow keys scratching screen getting gross ass food crumbs buttons heres second part recently laptop broke apparently laptop wasnt turning pissed asked parents another one upcoming birthday got really nice one lmaoo anyway turns og computer still worked problem wasnt computer charger started using charger new laptop now two working laptops ill returning temporary ipad graduate asked trashed laptop back says needs one play roblox one play tf says laptop wtf parents wont anything idk even know laptops working theyre still using school ipad excuse legit cant anything thing monitored limited school honestly rant salty dont computer play pc games thx coming ted talk lmao help mehelp painless way dieprobably shot head assume dont access gun bruh something interesting im literally sitting watching paint dry cant breathei dont know cant talk anyone head banging many different thoughts hurts please somebody tell quick thing zoooooom nothing works nothing work im resigned fateyou name ive tried therapy useless meds useless around family friends useless talking feelings useless exercise eating healthy useless going useless spending time dog useless hobbies give pleasure satisfaction fulfillment person loved ruined perspective relationships people dating go dropped school find education path connect least job im lazy parasite truly incompatible life im posting catharsis giving pityparty always father describes lots people subreddit reached unfortunately cant helped ive recently secluding apartment even pay im worthless pathetic lazy able support financially slowly rotting away intentionally taking care hopefully die young reasons livehey im asking much need reasons live anything worth living right know need motivation want sound clingy shit made throwaway want parents see please someone list reasons keep living right now really need thank looking forward anythingfuture seems pointless slow painful really want go hear everyone jokes couldnt worse jokes catastrophic event happening falling asleep thought wasnt san andreas fault california supposed split sometime decade realized happens grand finale opening event want known called idea idea go maybe rshowerthoughts im teenager figured id post idea even little girl suicidal thoughts feel constantly paini idea way used cry night little thought someone murder middle night constantly thought killing jumping car moving run scene head parents never abusive reason always state depression terrible panic attacks hallucinate hardly breathe feel going killed really paranoid difficult emotionally involved relationship trust anyone one responds okay needed vent dont think take anymorei hate everyone hates tf still give songs rate saw someone sub rate songs comment song ill rate personal preferences life feels pretty sucky right man im pretty privileged person probably dont much complain way problems feel tired life really want things travel working world apply university difficult bunch homework dont feel im final year highschool private school go started physical school monday already know rd day page essay due next week count grades making question whats point life feels stagnant im forced unnecessary shit say matter dont give fucks anymore id rather die something dont listen im trying feel better surface reason suicidal thoughts maybe people think ungrateful really struggle mean friends support family financially good always back shit years old grades good college quite good among colleges country difficulties future want give birth want family ambitious career kind passion life anything look forward keep feeling burdens end knew family devastated end life blink eye hesitation struggles finished last math assignment years classes countless hours studying many many tutors led final math question degree yax rather anti climatic ask market research survey made someone sucks titles hey reddit im hackathon design app using ai collect market research anyone fine taking anonymous take mins thanks anyone takes soo america go war middle east definitely freedom political stability trust middle east must several years released know movies kid enjoyed found vhs tape superman mole men flea market decided watch lot years expecting much knowing b movies made time pleasantly surprised find movie watchable acting outstanding usual acting type movies leaves lot desired surprisingly writing bad either forget fact superman went sequence sequence kicked butts beginning story ended right ok mole men costumes hokey scary even scare kid making allowances probable low budget background costumes job well done recognized sheriff right away old ranger death valley days plenty supporting roles tv westerns j farrell macdonald played old pop always great supporting actor movies count walter reed jeff corey familiar faces well movies recognize old doctor captain ship went king kong recognize little girl rolling ball mole men lisbeth searcy old yeller mole men famous jerry maren played mayor mccheese mcdonalds little oscar mayer munchkin handed dorothy lollipop seifeld episode wealth work billy curtis played unforgettable part clint eastwood high plains drifter one friends met star incredible shrinking man part movie luckily grabbed flea market titled gal sal rita hayworth wizard oz plenty parts great actor john brambury munchkin phillis coates played lois lane movie without question wonderful part george reeves supermanclark kent superman great job playing strong man bottom line ive said movie worth watching cast writing dealing pretty flimsy idea movie s anything possible intruders outer space mole men inner space definitely worth seeing bad actor group whomever put cast together fortunate many gifted actors b type film already wealth experience obtain wealth experience gifted chance see film forget dopey costumes enjoy excitement acting bird plane good old fashioned movie enjoy talked made things worsei accidentally opened close friend know shell feel accountable happens want place thing im holding shell feel bad know tried use special flashlight dong dummy thicc fit please help hurts jack kate meet physician daniel farady first psychics miles straume demonstrate come island intention rescuing survivors locke group find anthropologist charlotte staples lewis ben linus shoots meanwhile group jack finds pilot frank lapidus landed helicopter minor damages repaired jack forces miles tell real intention come islandbr br second episode fourth season returns island four new characters stops confusing flashforwards seems finally beginning explanations fans viewers expect provided lost interest government ben linus informed boat questions expect see next episodes vote eightbr br title brazil available hate much fixating one person lost interest left feel empty worthless tried kms multitude ways past know mood disorder issue therapist diagnosed yet want anywhere need die manic rn high two weeks feel deteriorating stealing money weed mum idc rlly fucking abusive want anywhere feel alone know go need able change usernames case brother whos either cant tell point stop updating age status stopped caring made account caught glimpse username texted idea see shit mom see shit mom knows mind talking strangers ill block fifty accounts brothers made life got ta friend deathever young feel ive strange connection death cat mutilate kill small animals leave yard find look didnt really feel anything decay wanted watch middle school cat died killed coyote hes death first felt remorse missed grandma passed away well didnt feel much day funeral kind often read together put family dog horrible cared lot grew next old family cat died peacefully home old age sad happy pass peacefully soon got sick infection spine think sounds bad didnt talk knew die something went wrong pass away hospital already coming terms fact might die recovered wish hadnt got new cat died killed coyote possibly fisher emotional support died next new dog stella got bone cancer suffered months decided put hated seeing much pain nothing felt helpless im still people life love often wish died hospital wish closed eyes never opened im afraid dying im afraid pain death cause feeling ill seeing death ahead life whether hate love everyone know love die one day feel tired feel numb wish died anyone heavyweight anyone drunk easily downed half pint vodka ml sambouca im completely fine im little drowsy morning think im tired sad go hospital wontwell last night feeling awful took tylenol sleep aid mg clonzepam bad kill obviously fall asleep right away ignore world worked well woke extremely dizzy okay thats pointless backstory really want kill today seems great day money house mess friends s km away one even notice days im tired alive dealing unfair im done course cant kill oding drugs awful id probably throw alive impossible cruel case wondering reason im edge right girl im good friends went date last night know care made upset jealous top kept secret knew upset alive deserve want edit umm hi guys clue anyone see im alive worry im honestly surprised many people messaged commented appreciate lot im feeling bit better every day struggle guess yesterday much thanks took bomba selfie im insecure post take word promise im lying live foreach day overcoming challenge getting day struggle im sick see point anymore understand life difficulties everyone others seem reasons feel theres nothing look forward back home day time feel relief going go sleep single thing person world makes want say never redflag always option anyone says never point one kill themselvesit genuinely pisses everyte person comes stands front room even guy comes radio starts spatting time realized worth saying theres always someone cares miss thats true needed say support cared much anyone gone tough times realized please hear saying happened nesscerilly bad going different people weaker prone depression suicidal thoughts things others im done ive im tired dealing world puts profit peoples life world judges book cover world exploits poor woman trying feed family world wants everyone fit im done trying fit im done everything rich won lost thank cared last time got flu shot today yis absolutely terrified flu shot cause remember hurting really bad last time lol filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler blah blah blah good night use condoms peoples saving grace never riotously funny delivers quite good laughs enjoyed significant degree brenda blethyn fine actress good job portraying widower grace resorts growing marijuana pay massive debts supporting cast fine job french actor tchecky karyo funny little role premise alone appealing idea overthehill woman growing smoking pot sounds funny enough film plays around premise wisely every course flat moments one two elderly women mistaken graces marijuana leaves tea leaves start pulling childish antics store work mindless gag quite take films tone downbeat occasionally dull got enough laughs give english import recommendation br br score people say pain temporary pain isthis isnt theres healing growing past pain head someone escape pain without dying thing causes pain answer theres one way escape thats death way act way look talk think oh god way think one biggest sources pain nah cant escape way thoughts jump one thought next youre skipping tv channels fast complete nonsense try think random clips songs past events stories quotes noises static pictures movement always moving completely still time theres escaping toxic personality victimising narcissistic personality craves attention cant stand spot light pulling pushing away people ruining everyones lives causing drama completely unnecessary unnecessary thats unnecessary weak god damn pathetic im dark see things move around little shadows grow big move towards everything goes black go cold cant see theyre everywhere blocking cant move make sound tbh scare longer look trapped feel lay eyes closed dont look im probably tired hear feel heart beating im sorry im failure aspectsi feel born fail miserable mother abusive peacemaker stupid dysfunctional family always corner silent trying exist failure socially know talk people isolate lot life fear top stopped religious keep closet parents knew nice anyone wish die want kill cant even hopefully last true confession understand reasoning false hope camp redflags almost caused almost death father amount friendships fucked emptiness human contact lack confidence self esteem fucked fucked everything loved got people certain shit life helped best happy never hard imagine past decade game survival living every broken heart every thing hurt deserve shit anyone deserves live sure hell aint anyone close personally knows reads im sorry im self isolating want leave plain want die hate living aint right want happy want die want girlfriend love cant happy left nothing dont give false hope understand reasoning explanations feel different people need escape cycle goodnight new zealanders sleeping good better living lifemy brain foggy recently ive finding hard remember things think properly apologies isnt well written slept day night yesterday wasnt even intermittent dreams blank space didnt even feel hungry little thirsty quick meal drink go back bed see sleep day night feels good better emptiness sadness anxiety awake living life camera hurts heart sleeping used warn things wants im awake end looming always ahead sleeping feels great dreamt beach girl happy getting haircut ive isolated long cant go feel wasted life cant go back nothing mental torturei want dead cant live reminded everyday couldve stupid even way outeven wanted dont enough drugs kill tonight dont gun tried bleeding change mind last second every time car makes real honestly dont think actually end life reason im writing thread though point life never thought possible im point life makes sense end life im point dont feel passion family encourage im point know dont matter know everyone done stay wont know left behind temporary wont make permanent decision want know reason writing thread go feeling justified kill feeling valuable maybe im ranting idiot idk need hope maybe motivational tdocumentary something help choose keep going logically doesnt matter think girl saying likes music weeks ago sent video dancing single ladies dated last summer today facetime call hours put one song lyrics werent perfect ive never felt way anyone thinking morning im super bored lets conversation something idk advilim starting think might actually consider option things worse everythings tumultuous right now head hurts heart aches eyes sore legs tired brain drained studying catching look advil bottle take relieve headache sometimes thing nice stress anymore mom dad brenda ive always felt underappreciated done unconditional support home safe home something count thank stability fiona listened thoughtful insight actions take make life better feel grounded whenever go office spill everything nice calvin nice someone much common although deep talks really happen discussions everything sun fucking wonderful christina know want help decision made based feeling feelings always valid right maybe good idea make decision less stressed think job tell know really want help gut feeling screaming something guilt left first time thought possibilities right enter life help leave im alright repeat whole cycle jenny hugs care important times pretty great today told function demanded come made feel wanted alright martin marvel work hard suffer daily arthritis respect life live strong belief commitment family choices appreciate first instinct try fight way wanted stay waterloo wanted term tried make changes life counsellors say healthy thank trying sometimes energy health time want hope gets better sake people around good people tend say im relatable catching flights chicago rn going state thats total lockdown atleast im cummin home ruin everythingim ive physical mental health issues long remember ive spent time hospitals body mind trying best person always coped well teenager id lash family adult ive learned turn anger hurt inwards something rather outward family cutting parts lives holding responsible sins long past committed failing recognize work ive put try better soon brother uncle friend month ago got together without even minutes apartment acted fault include started discussing childhood therapy turning stones id looked long long time got ptsd diagnosis realized idea less ideal childhood blamed actually pretty abusive well last days telling come home christmas see kids love dearly want told things wanted grab medical paperwork know id back went tense want bring things brought said felt told running christmas leave asked told abuse played called liar said remembered never happened either lying nuts im shook remember things clearly vividly happenedi think im pretty sure ive burned last bridge family theyve called liar crazy told ruined everything im left doubting everything im hurting physically mind falling apart heart never felt broken part really wants leave world guess think ill ok really mind ended im trying best venting bother readingive depressed long time now starting feel little better lately tonight im feeling bad started wondering worth im single living wellfare life actually came conclusion item appartment actually worked tv everything either gifts stuff bought money people worked taxmoney im nothing burden society im worthless piece trash accomplished anything life cost money resources even better reason anyone tell whats reason keep living become productive member society fit consume work hours week earn money spend crap need make feel better ill still sitting alone every night staring monitor wondering life person actually care live die mom friends forget heartbeat family really care see hear family uncles aunts cousins nobody dads side family even want anything repulsive good friend thats cant even talk problems serious trust issues want end im tired living im scared dying mods asleep quick check nudes lmao youre gay know youre actually awake wish parents forget disappearwhy born burdensome world feels pointless working studying better job later end working feel selfish ive known people thatve gone worse struggles yet im one wants disappear feel selfish parents worked incredibly hard hopes successful career good life disappear waste time money love parents getting older happen pass away really think reason continue living anyone feel trans boy pussy fire yo anyone want boyfriend got fat set tits raging case depression cure loneliness please help cant help myselfmy fathers voice head years told worthless stupid ill always failure much hates much regret moved away miles miles away voice still head every time fail something hear every time im proud shoots tells cut tells im attention im insane locked away im shame cant related voice telling even deserve live voice telling easy die im please help please ive wanted die never bad think feel cant sleep please anyone even care need something keep living read thisim going say want kill leaves open help want help anymore friends find difficult combat arguments redflag logical friends know better anybody im going believe correct actions either way leaving family police somebody find know happened mostly method traditional people im grabbing one bottle water im walking woods going walk longer physically walk sit woods wait starve die thirst truly want die let die painful comparison rest life nothing flick nose peaceful embrace nice afterlife interesting family im sorry one year grief cause im scared itim pussy kill multiple plans im scared actually carry dont know fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck parents sex room meeee hellppppppppppp sleep one want chat dm come man everyday tug warof stay go ruined everythingthings going well fooled around told loved next day made huge mistake told sister hes bdsm stuff implied us fooling around consensual part bigger argument first time ive fucked may last good night happened think make anymore fucked everything fault cant live suggested hanging sound badmy parent mother told hang long story go honestly sound bad idea lump throat right now ive never felt think ive gone enough shit failed end racist subreddits exist noticed lot subreddits rules racism immoral things subreddit racist imagine taken even freedom speech allows things anyways wondering subreddit rules allow condone racism mom always told sit actually watch movie one favorites never years caught one night tv movie great even know explain cast excellent julia roberts keifer sutherland kevin bacon william baldwin oliver platt story awesome freaky scary makes think left speechless film amazed good actors actress five people really william baldwin go hes great film must see anyone seen go rent sorry amazing crush fucking pretty im losing mind shes badass super cute time wears super cool clothes cute poses please help im losng mind pretty please call need help bruh life boring aliens already transphobic want date trans person preference dont hate trans people dont wan na date epic funny httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvduopqikhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvduopqik thinking sureive depressed years always mind ive reason someone came life world changed instant recently person left world changed back im giving january im killing things better already things planned everything hell might sooner tbh cant iti wasnt able go made noose belt began hang knot came undone fell floor balled eyes im sorry cant right now im extremely miserable become pain exist right now cant kill yet know im stable another traumatic event easily send edge people color genshin impact feel right guess physics teacher told us one person class yall know got b hii therapy sessions now decided go mild depression hard time accepting gay sense think wrong want feel different days ago finally decided come therapist people come still really hard first minutes even talk therapist went immediately trying explain gay linking problems mom thinking loud might seem look comfort women mom emotionally available went ask know gay dated neither men women ending telling problem gay people hate people say come okay kind expected actually questioning actually feel way low point said everything afraid people say come feel broke trust worst way gone grrrrfought suicidal thoughts day pretty successfulthey stayed pretty quiet late bedtimethey rearing ugly head even beer helping hold way intoxicated even attempt right now got told someone admitted alcoholic disease sure cried still think stop whenever want want moment shuts thoughts good night sw little brother damn incosiderate mom quite job work government recently shes training right thus earning money little brother decides times deserves hes asking custom pistol grips ten dollar airsoft guns every day hes asking sonic mcdonalds barley food home cook top never cleans messes instance cleaning top bunk telling clean year half youll see thats important mom threatens belt finely well nine thirty school night cleaning bed watching netflix stuff bunk falls got said done told needs clean mess told next bed went sleep told mom happened told clean still infuriating brag twin brother pretty big deals two smartest kids school twins im saying little brother say brothers everyone likes well went way git head tell brother great use advantage purposely starts shit kids gradeth now im constantly getting told friends hes bullying siblings raised hit born even though deserves twin dont hit mom dosnt use belt grounds really grinds gears dosnt care takes getting grounded trade rather punishment twin brother always tried hardest make mom happy rewarded thinks deserves example twin wanted dying light play friends told mom weve getting straight getting grounded years asked dollars said yes next day walks room sees us playing dying light starts crying mom dosnt give dollars comes room tells us mentally abuse hit make feel depressed first felt bad depression real problem remorse slapped away mom heard said knows dont hit ask make feel better said fake sad voice dollars gta well got money expect buy something alowes earn money lije vehicle cargo missions came surprise two days later money way easily earn money vheicle drive around turns bought fully customized drove car minites sell car repeat spent called depression money still nothing virtual equivalent burning money still wants money gta go im going many pimples blackheads create whole army fr guess another ice cube post baby use ice cubes instead idk fuckin ice spheres fucking helli know cant cook know cant shit please dont make feel fucking bad im fucking done fuck everyone little kid thought life fun excitement got older slowly came realization modern life mostly boring mindless rat race majority people spend time working bunch boring shit existence conscious rather put bullet head hate idea stuck monotonous cycle modern life rather skip end think going kill year old male know father left years old negligent disconnected alcoholic kid mom used abuse relentlessly beat belts extension chords punch face tell im stupid burned cigarettes times taken years pay student loan debt degree completely useless live poverty hurt knee month ago cant even manual labour jobs used everything seems completely hopeless clue totally atomised family support live pay check pay check cause living high even though work hours week barely scraping whenever start ahead something bad happens months ago shell dollars car fixed needed new control arm plus new tires plus alignment tow need new muffler pass emission test legally drive work knee gets better grinding mad man shelling physio therapy knee fixed costing ton ill laid bed months able work able pay rent bank account needs last rest month life exhausting work hard never pull pit im sad anything hopeless depressed stuck escape screw zodiac signs colour ur binders ive seen people saying math blue deserve go hell math red idc say science green math red english yellow social blue disagree wrong thank coming ted talk guys every feel awful human matter nojust ok guess im weird one redflag friend keeps threatening redflag talk less likely itthis person kind good dealt rubbish hand seem lost hope seemed much better today hotel room saying bottle pills debating taking honest says wants take life believe rather told someone talking less likely see case emailing speak phone told gruesome death paracetamol redflag response thanks ive read many times certainly appealing started writing reasoning know really point ill sleep im sorry mostly wish way worry anyone erased existence style everyone instantly forget id alas option anyway sleep threatened lot best friend suicidal idea doim sure right subreddit im phone im tired read sidebar figure right place someone tell past weeks ive talking daily telling love care im ive promised things better ive promised want stay promised support matter decision made im sure knows thats lie recently getting worse day two hes mentioned much wants die talk much hurting today mentioned specific method done already made choke know feel im getting nowhere feel im helping feel im repeating time feel talks becoming less effective want ask question normal feel drained depressed trying help someone actually diagnosed im sucking life trying give every day gets worse every day worse problem feel talk one will cant leave need advice already gave comment movie name brucev brucev want add something long time seen lot called heroic bloodshed titles many come close action shown john woo movies thats years think strange china white credit deserves matter version seen action top notch scenerychina town amsterdam unique impression large district lived amsterdam know small area part red light district happen lot chinese stores restaurants way shot movie actually looks big important territory people know mess triads chinese mafia besides action china white compelling gangster drama good acting give credit russel wong bad see much latelysince lot potential must see movie never give let turn around desert bored girls ton guy friends play games discord people find sexist want bit diverse add girls friend list im playing games talking voice chat rn im feet dont think matters apparently m btw feeling either complete numbness pain gotten used totally anxious lot things life turn around know exactly something holds back whatever reasonthus stuck daily routine watching days pass waiting one free time day working school lose forget troubles hobby ie netflix videogames etc wake rinse repeat sleep normal person anymore unless super exhausted try lie close eyes think million scenarios ifs hard sleep ive tiktok know im gon na voted quite ive defined tastes actually funny people kinda feels vine now unless u legitimate reason hate tiktok hating getting old hate muchim ive homeschooled twelve im graduating highschool weeks nothing plan going college im fucking dumb college became apparent took one easy community college class managed fucking fail friends im homeschooled extreme social anxiety people talk regular basis family parents unintentionally encourage suidical ideation reminding fuck ive never relationship really nothing except scroll around reddit day im lazy unmotivated job barely focus simplest tasks fucking hate isolation kills us nbsp fight therapies fight isolation nbsp others escape see happy different lifei used think trapped sort life ended many bad situations life seemed sort curse thought something make bad always follow im finally starting accept true ive seen much bad never believe imagine good know theres nothing wrong loved accepted respected ive managed always around people never loved accepted respected illluck nothing somewhere happy life least easier imagine now im currently living abusive people wish fly away go place mind cant money car nowhere live fragile body cant live street couches though mind damaging temporarily knowing find happy place much faith people happy seems people complain put fake cheer think luckier wish money friends fun joy wish surrounded people always trying undermine sounds simple feels impossible im stuck know end soulsucking life goes eternity day day guys got corona beers im good boy idk drink wan na drink til im cuz im good boy dropped milk whole body idiot cat wakes gives death stare bet thinking something along lines fuck owner idiot struggling emotionsi wrote followup last post link bottom one hard thing always gets depressed weak mental state cope emotions probably happens sentient beings deal emotions thoughts write chest maybe help someone read experiences similar things grow older feelings complex sometimes mentally prepared struggling usually struggle emotions thoughts late nigh layed bed left alone sympathize feel lost one thing remember even alone moment one someone went someone will remember everytime find alone invite feel lost remember better things await feel worth remember worth feel desperate look calmness feel world gon na end remember world rainbow come storm comes sunshine alongside thinking much losing sleep thoughts anyone got crazy annoying feelibg calf got thats shit killing whats point allwhy suffer decades whether work illness life general given wrong cards poker fold give cards cant cant see getting better stays way two seconds goes right back shithole relaxing first time operating system decides die universe wont let rest piece advice dont crossdress french maid school tldr end story took place almost two years ago btw explain tell little school even though public school wealthy well funded programs including theater dance another thing mention design school auditorium different entrancesexits excluding emergency exit supposed locked room use somebody always forgets lock least one th exit accessed via going backstage leads short hallway locked side meaning sneaking auditorium onto stage hallway us students anyways two doors hallway lead theater dance storage rooms theater room bunch furniture props costumes old plays musicals school put years prior dance room costumes holds s different outfits dance classesteams used rooms divided wall cabinets solid wall sound travels easily rooms supposed locked dance teacher almost never locks room anyways straight male past years really enjoyed crossdressing know love idea dressing girls clothing private girly better discovered dance storage room felt miracle hundreds girly sexy outfits choose floor length mirrors see enclosed space nobody find times advisory periods sneak try outfits loved one time putting everything tried back head next class saw large bin filled french maid costumes short dress w puffy shoulders gloves lots lace apron duster headband unlike everything room pair frilly panties dream find decided come back later put luckily stay day finish test finishing dad said pick thirty minutes left plenty time deed went theater wing found entrance unlocked able sneak back dance storage room stripped nude order put panties put rest costume loved everything take picture heard jingling keys immediately dove darkest corner room leaving regular clothes laying middle floor along backpack door dance room cracked open knew dance teacher find life luckily theater teacher ms s unlocked theater storage room started something quietly possibly changed back clothes threw maid costume back bin jumbled mess put backpack froze remembering zippers backpack make jingling noises walk decided make break throwing open dance room door running fast auditorium running st exit remember ms s shouting whos im sure never saw imagine hell wouldve gone anyone walked dance room caught escorted front office girliest dress possible idea luckily happen learned lesson never went back room tldr crossdressing schools dance team storage room wearing really girly french maid costume theater teacher went room next almost saw moral story dont crossdress school yes people make lgbt whole personality annoying im ngl funny thing lot time theyre type people think patriotism stupid cant chose born well cant choose sexuality either lol mean problem people going pride parades etc admit people constantly mention fact theyre lgbt reason annoying lol need fucking help please know put im used asking help kinda needed feeling well weird lately everyday im coming closer closer redflag due problems stuff im yo guy whos currently gang member ex hacker ex smoker tried committing redflag twice raped need help please someone anyone care age nation gender sexuality please help life even worth living years old one likes girlfriend discovered page essay brother written years ago goes detail used really really depressed years effects familys lives self harmed attempted suicide cry every night hear walls much much better lives way happier healthier life broke crying first time tried read got second page says needs read give closure afraid read feel guilty become depressed knows supportive whatever chooses read likely will help best suggestions beneficial happening tonight girlfriend found essay brother change ios app logos photos im honestly know change app logos remember posted snail emoji got awards whats stuff johnny deep amber heard idea someone explain detail question less answeari dont really know start guess go ahead explain story im average guy tries social circle feels inviting surround people think wants best recent events turn feeling security feeling fear space merely months life went sweet dream tormented nightmare started girl met years back huge crush made fall love every little bit made realize person created thoughts never really tried guess say made see best made think worth something eyes something special started downfall soon dated months thought found right one gon na make best relationship ended fooling talking boys job one friend lets call jake kyle time jad idea started panic attacks frequently ate less paranoid time one point remember molly ended sex remember told one important relationship life one week later left hooked jake kyle guys presented span one week even confessed friends enjoyed watching low guess question start know particular day december life started shatter one piece time loosing love friends job really close friend guess made descision brought point end bottom barrel categories feeling redflag way look cara passing subway coming station heights bridge sharpness knife products lay around house cause death thought rope feel place something went missing lost focus life know way usally think loosing one loved got point im always stress panic attacks frequently lost job didnt help pile already damn whats purpose everytime build something crumble one day unusual film ringo lam one thats strangely underappreciated mix fantasy kungfu realistic depiction swords spears driven thru bodies startling especially first ten minutes horseback rider chopped two waist legs keep riding horse several horses chopped unexpectedbr br story simple fong shaolin brothers captured crazed maniac general imprisoned red lotus temple seems torture chamber temple general similarity kurtz apocalypse spouts warped philosophy makes frightening paintings human blood br br production impressive setting bleak blood everywhere action well done mostly coherent unlike many hk action scenes time sometimes movie veers absurdity effects cheesy never bad enough ruin film br br find one one best hk kung fu films early nineties remember child friendly im ending life postedi done life parents dead family siblings cousins aunt rent room trying save car bought car last year got scammed dealer bought nothing getting thousand back tried ten years ged cant learning issues causing impossible ged go back learn rd grade th grade failed everything done life trying woman failed shallow women care looks physicalsexual attraction money person cant work anymore arthritis back rheumatoid arthritis knees beginning stage cataract dominant eye cant much except manual labor cant anymore back knees aunt takes disability check tries black mails giving supposed rent leaves dollars left try save made go fund account years try donations buy van live one donate month rent bills dollars left cant save even friends made facebook joined groups made posts trying find friends got guys commenting saying scammer women commenting saying profile new must bot bitching saying posts account deleted account nothing ahead fail everything ends blowing face cant take anymore cant take living life anymore rejected catfished car aunt supposed mine dads got sick changed will sign notary know changes town time got hospital death bed came back side passed days later going lawyer found changed proof original mattered aunt staying aunt stole dads car thing even give pictures stay stay streets homeless cant done age cant unless van big car live going end life done everything tired fighting everything failing life backfiring blowing face beautifully done lot angst friendship may endure end matters group friends learn watched music amazing kei loses one friend gives meets sho orphan boy repelled true nature lawless streets mallepa struggle place among melting pot asian races learn sometimes top cost ready pay surprise ending grips much whole movie enough gackt hyde wonderful job acting proving pretty boys sing tried agree live canti cant take life really cant unfair exhausting loud painful unrewarding chest hurts sounds louder normal ive holding back tears day work hard live feel im getting point cant even work im digging hole time im sure upi think im done ive finally reach point theres come back painful keep going wish couldve tasted happy life giving im good anythingi realize never never calling passion maybe im plain stupid cant live truth society theres reason human good something benefits another person organization im still still strugglingposted couple days ago still havent done anything still wrestling feeling every second every day hate theres ways go absolutely devastate dad brother really hate even think go guy broke tell hey really wan na die broke called manipulative attention seeking honest tell someone feel sent wherever send someone might harm probably want even really really want things better thats ive wanted worse things keep happening really dont want die im scared shitless death really dont see things getting better guess ill keep drinking posting cries help internet feel lost myselfthis past year really hard started straight student failing classes one likes people around money job know everyone hates im exaggerating anything common fact nearly overdosed cocaine got caught prostitution drug production ive last track friends im surrounded people want use let anyone know escape week im getting draco feel lost mess anyone turn family kicked gang thing years leave im leaving people years bailed jail took care oded know theyre cause bring digits everything feels blurry im going turn draco horses mars wonderful journey taken small creatures work hard hold attention characters truly memorable credit must go eric anderson choice visual style writing interesting story credit deserved anuj majumdar narration wonderful music score choices obviously accident see mm scope impact quite beautiful film want boyfriend buy stuff computer one graphics cards wants goddamn hugz award say something make smile fix keep passing bus morning even though stop energized almost passing classes ive feeling good recently long ramblythis post might pointless redundant feel writing chronicling moment dont diagnosiss anything sort prove anything confidently say ive quite seriously suicidal last four years although ive experienced suicidal urges lesser extents changed honestly dont see living past soon uni break started two weeks ago ive absolute high typically id go depressive andor suicidal episodes every day sometimes daily havent single thought entire break though considering suicidal tendencies follow year round arent triggered specific root far im aware im pleasantly surprised things bring make worthless still much intact realise theres sign changing maybe ive successfully distracted point whatever happened seems done good though ive much positive lately notice change daytoday life speaking much fluently even though im still social anxiety ridden mess much sharper things critical thinking even joke making chatted parents times hung around friends felt knew exactly say something ive trying crack long time normally im friends whether private close friends something public involving lot mutual undergo depressive bout half hour whatever stays go sleep whatever reason though havent feeling fortnight even situations wouldve easily caused two three times genuinely enjoyed every time went ive really dedicated hobbies seeing results back favourite past times performative depend building skills succeed usually upset underperforming sometimes trigger depressive episode spiral track suicidal ideation havent bothered nearly much failure messing time giving much drive continue practice even certain task impossible makes feel accomplished worthy actually seeing results time im spending things love post definitely structured basically diary entry write im confused happened im scared gon na go away probably tomorrow uni starting cant recall going anything im surprised whats happened want last forever know wont want jump window want cut ears hear anything want see anything breath someone say resson survive please chronically ill young college student help pleaseim years old four half years ago got diagnosed chronic condition completely changed life worse type person really made difference changed world better intelligence drive importantly opportunities follow disease broken everyday im plagued pain many fronts ive lost much physical dexterity mental quickness worst ive lost drive motivation thats let push despite paindespite long hours true agony ive beaten submission yield truly take condition grow worse years go ill try one experimental treatment next putting family tremendous debt work best theyll prolong inevitable die affliction manner provided something kill sooner ive always considered religious man ive spent life short prayer good faith say missteps along way im apparently doomed incontrovertible thought process really god let suffer either cant anything refuses anything exist inevitably lead conclusion god exists worth worshiping god consequences doomed hellfire eternal ive taught take matters hands end pain wrong either ethical religious ways wanting end appears lifelong promise anguish god wants dieive miserable childhood ive used tool majority life im trying vein job look positives bad situations time try destress take mind bad things going life even fails play games lose almost every game time favorite team gets beat time rarely im happy issue god deliberately brought world suffer seems god wants see die nothing life noteworthy celebrate heavily feel pretty today feel happy pretty conquer anything set mind love right always thought might interesting tell least one personwarning might long preface reason post im killing tomorrow big surprise know kinda want toi guess honest even though acknowledge pretty crazy start guess ill start first redflag attempt comical set circumstances somehow instead dying planned way reached final stage hypothermia instead minutes away death apparently mother unexpectedly came home instead going work lost contact lens come home replacement called ambulance survived record mental hospital sent got icu completely useless literally gotten help subwayor hell even gamestop im glad place shut gon na mention name anyways decided bide time years trying everyone vigilant eventually discovered lucid dreaming interestinginsane part comes completely understand seems extremely delusionaljust plain crazy completely indifferent living past arbitrary year decided deadline started thinking unconscious benefit gon na initial ideas meandering journey refinementpivots basically wanted make lucid dreaming state permanent im awake anyone whos lucid dreamed knows unconscious pretty damn amazingand definitely tell organic supercomputer wanted try leverage lucid dreaming state make unconscious alter genetic code creating refinements brain function form modeling different neural structures calculate best possible performance eventually alter genetics body develop nanotechnology nano materials nano bots etc enable make better changes faster sum upmy goal recursiveself improvement familiar term know im little ambitious hehehe attaining recursiveself improvement id gather resources fix planets climateecosystem basically goal everything coming improve cognition enough make intelligent decisions know sounds pretty damn crazy figured possible fuck try goaldelusion thing kept killing past ish years unfortunately lucid dreaming difficult mention changed ideas going alot recently took growing psilocybin mushrooms effort utilize enhanced neurogenesis thinned barrier conscious unconscious try make lucid dreaming state permanent obviously post ive given ive spent nearly decade shit ive come end patience anybody manages im happy im killing tomorrow shout amazon day delivery convenient got ta admit kinda nice finally tell someone ive trying last ish years even bunch strangers internetthen maybe thats whole reason feels good worry anybody trying stop stuffing mental hospital sorry long post way ya know bit cold talking crush bit embarrassing imma give note saying something say person itd embarrassing wan na say kinda cute shit go wrong need criticism okay originally started free write wrote school decided go depth im curious improve far walked village expecting merchants trading animals running around people enjoying lives nothing people wildlife even plants wilting knew something wasnt right even barbaric orcs mischievous spirits wouldve left trace behind exploring desolate area quite time came upon large wooden building town hall assumed figured clues happened area inside showed sign damage almost everyone decided leave thing showed life tapestry wizard bravely falling combat manticore coldness air pierced side knot formed stomach blood running cold pull together youre better youve never backed now thought youve dealt plenty cyclopes jinn whats bad th thought interrupted sounds marching filled head quickly hid near window see arrived sounds snickering growling goblins yet looked perplexed arent using tunnels said one goblin ive heard rumors defenseless town secret path leading tressure filled castle thought ripe taking never thought itd easy besides last time used tunnels headed dwarf central literally said one front pulled bow arrow readied shot waiting see force necessary goblins stopped right tracks began sniff air dozen goblins turned direction making heart pump loud enough surely hear one goblin began charge town hall jolt stop goblins known quite difficult scare even call stupid fearless look fear confusion goblins face body contorted showed even toughest warriors crack hid watching arms flail legs twist turn torso bend odd angles sounds bones snapping flesh mashing screamed agony body began float comrades screamed terror desperately trying anything help yells cries help goblin suddenly stopped body went limp hooded figure materialized hand goblins back dropping ground type mist flowing hand goblins stared disbelief hooded figure spoke one word sumegruser skeletal hands rose ground held goblins hooded figure approached screams echoed throughout village sound heard miles type necromancer knew prepared deal one skilled turned around prayed every god knew make one piece slowly crept towards window left realized hooded figure likely hear try away grabbed chair threw window right hooded figure turned towards noise repeated phrase skeletal hands rose grabbed chair jumped window raced village expecting grabbed hands moment heart felt bursting chest barely able calm felt lost nearby forest everything looking screams goblins still eched though area making area feel unescapable running seemingly endless forest began feel adrenaline leave body came across body water began pass exhaustion near water heard someone say single word mullebal cold boney hands rose water dragged tightening unearthly grip water gushed lungs feel life draining prey constrictor act fast faintly see figures dragging depths skeletal warriors dressed types gear villager tunics cleric robes began ponder many lives necromancer claimed reanimated focus dont much time thought eyes wandered around murky abyss searching anything use escape last eyes found something rune barely held together attached clerics robes hastily unsheathed sword slashed wildly breaking many undead warriors bodies quickly broke bodies reformed began drag cleric closer time arms reach best lunged forward grabbed rune speedily turning pages barely read incantation option water flooded mouth read spell aloud thoron yelled bolt lightning struck skeletons completely vaporizing hitting never thought much pain divine electricity bring never want experience potions better effective advertise thought slowly began float towards surface wishing never gone village peeked head water greeted night sky goblin screams seemed stop underwater assumed worst crawled onto shore coughing water constantly wandered randomly woods barely able tell anything apart attempted drowning certainly help physically recover sleep seemed enticing moment rest headno screamed realized stupid falling asleep yelling probably alerting everything area stumbled throughout mazelike forest barely conscious joy hope came came across quiet village extinguished realized went circle right back village options crept around ghost town making sure quiet possible thought perhaps tapestry secrets reveal maybe even happened town quietly snuck town hall ready run sight necromancer find everything lurking towards tapestry clearly see tapestry meant hide something quietly removed tapestry finding dark tunnel must goblins talking thought stared seemly endless abyss wondering mysteries hidden grabbed torch fall used flint light generic edgy venting postim going anhero sure ampxb complicated girlfriend left bossbestfriends younger brother underling job one considered good friend pains know acting t minus events distorted things reason people father recently painfully gone blind one eye dealing accusations murder going years now prove anything rarely wrong certain innocent man gave fortune custody twin sacrificed everything us thats whole worms exgirlfriends best friend head investigator known violence drug use seem matter cheated notorious drug pusher user straight laced father main suspect insert angry edgy comment insulting god female shiba ran apartment found despite chipped never abused though suspect prior owners loved much dealt loss many animals life intended spoil spoil brother thats another worms grandmother showing serious signs alzheimers grandfathers life painfully passed away destroyed grandmother even remember last time hugged told loved told much meant shitty jeep father bought grandmother gave past year mugged walking work anymore nearly killed transmission slipped neutral driving back drive twice highway continues major city im god damn poor succeed every single fucking car acquired either broken beyond financial repair broken intostolen im kidding understand transmission issue bad imagined build lot pressure releases repeats without control pent energy powerful imagine happens driving driving light ended vehicle realwheel drive imagine go surrounding traffic run vehicle miles transmission poor maintenance done prior ownership driving still moneygod need god live need somehow save replace vehicle saving money damn near impossible one power payers apartment due various reasons struggle save anything normal inbetween cents dollars account given time bills emergencys hard save money may say may true literally every single time savings something always happens take hate alive hate love exist order save done anything within power baby boomers hate gen x hates gen tide pod eaterswagyolofortnite victory royal hates millennial l somehow responsible everything wrong world almost born list goes gets worse worse tried unalive several times life fucking fail college funds ripped away made much money know year much im rich believe make somewhere now even remotely comfortable attractive poor luck women family tell im catch doubt names chad children sterile nothing outside minor minor material possessions handful friends best even twin distant exist people around guilt live know theyd sad mouth breathe anymore happiness worth mine want die always wanted die want want anything mistake never born happy outside bullshit child happiness built lies christmas birthdays aware others worse pains affect better never end existing single block dry noodles needs healthy lifestyle lmao dont need em struggle thoughts suicide frequently things keep going already posted help subs please take concerned please please know ill goes woman love might commit suicide one things keeps hanging onto life im going kill selfbecause im going achieve dream world full pain thats teacher spent first minutes lesson ranting enbies blm suffice say hate especially much choice halflisten know actual teaching tiring kill summer im happy relieved need worry discourage death beautiful thing lt suicidal thoughts want die hurt myselfi thinknot sure begin aha im new reddit im posting first time cause feel need talk see anyone gets feel alone know another sleepless night ive always suffered insomnia anxiety long remember aware mentally im great feel low make sense roof head loving family small broken loving supportive boyfriend yet feels constant shadow brain feels clouded frank shop recently ive seriously questioning worth struggle lot days especially recently bed feel completely worthless useless life brain works many experience constantly working drive negativity exhausting want stop stop want die want brain stop shit tonight nights really feels much thoughts scare realisation brain almost planning deep know want die make sense anyone rambling sleep deprived nonsense family murdered breast cancer husband abandoned meim alone im fed working ass barely breath abandoned husband fiance boyfriend whatever wanted call years im homestate hometown reason even try go back hometown one cant take care showering eating family murdered left abused im supposed go police monday file rape asualt charges already went nowhere cant stand hes done vandalized car killed motor threatened kill many ways years reached police hospital rape pure exhaustion cancer pain ended taking nut jail hold raped know deal cancer patients hrs late meds almost died anyone says thats good idea made suffer anyone overdosed baclofen simply put paul bettany jennifer connelly remarkable movie less raw science darwins beliefs holds focus strongly relationship family primarily wife emma daughter anniebr br toby jones gives wonderful turn thomas huxley great defender darwins beliefs rest cast task sharing screen time bettany connellybr br two carry movie real chemistry apparent beginning end develops transcendence darwin grapples demons scene darwin relates ending story jenny orangutan dying daughter annie utterly gripping world premiere audience tiff spellbound bettanys performance recognized one years best short order equally magnificent connellys work playing religious wife man huxleys words killed godbr br film moves slowly entire spectrum darwins grief relishing every detail bettany connellys actingbr br brilliant one films either love hate girlfriend loved told brother rent hated said flashy colloquial usually goes see big action movies probably enough explosions left disappointed great new talent id never heard leads anyway des brady directors brother especially good playing right dick start thought never redeem managed crawl dark hole created end really routing surprising film whole lot heart live without body count explosions one original yashimo brixton uk know anymorei needed somewhere write something sit tub warm water surrounds hips legs slight contrast cold metal blade hand know long sat looking left wrist asking gon na thought death fascinated scared fascinated pain anything blood way heart rose eventually fell way feel gave let droopy eyelids fall last time eternal sleep freedom riddance everydays burdens lifted right hand left arm held blade place cut cut cut mind chanted pushed blade skin alone made little drop pool around edge blade smiled slightly pain felt good way letting know come slowly firmly pulled blade along skin repeated spot couple times lowered wrist water watching blood fall wrist bottom tub simply fascinating loved peaceful looked drove made cuts arms went couple times well time blade went across skin blood come keep track much blood lost steady inflow water draining mastered technique younger age keep water warm came great handy now keeping left wrist water near drain set blade ledge tub rest head knee already feel drowsiness coming made happy id leave pain behind shut eyes done kinda exactly sleep dreaming anything woke bright fluorescent lights head smell death latex gloves around realized sleep closed eyes slept running away guilt id feel see sorrow parents eyes one day put except wake true story even delivery guy left read wanted order new screen protector nearby store want go bc really want catch covid screen protector essential go got hisher phone number instagram messaged whatsapp left read f absolutely hate myselfself harm drugsmy life ive got scars arm absolutely hate seeing scars hate reminded weak really matter drama life stays im problemi know whats wrong cant live normal life every insecurity something cant even talk cause people around judge one person consider close speak mind ruin everything im gon na kill know keeps coming back im fucked ended different everybody says wan na talk gets offended feel im completely alone ive concluded im problem remove mjust met guy im fcking giggling awkwardnesss met grindr noticed blocks away decided meet much talked mins went jog well couldnt even say talk tho look walking talking always ahead literally said im awkward way lololollo first time didnt know im person laughs awkwardness awkward something never experienced wanted share im done vein natural born killers another movie popular critics excessive violence loved kalifornia movie clearly glamorizes violence think turns around final act kind basketball diaries glamorizes drugs first shows bad side end movie far worse good side good david duchovny plays brian kessler artistic yuppie even artistically yuppie girlfriend violent sexy black white photography generally reserved know places nudity passes art maybe really understand rate brian carrie duchovny michelle forbes fits role flawlessly make perfect couple go documentary tour famous murder sites brian writer write book carrie take picturesbr br artistic types brian carrie quite financially prepared trip put ad someone share gas travel expenses contacted early grace adele corners brad pitt juliette lewis early parole assigned janitorial work local university parole officer sees ad bulletin board decides leave state violating parole leaving scene landlords murder deal pesky murder investigation two birds one stone knowbr br movie curious ability portray two stereotypes artsy yuppies greasy trailer trash without resorting clichs even ending caricatures either type brian carrie artsy liberals carrie catches early adele brian fascinated earlys status outlaw seen scene brian shoots earlys gun never fired gun hes fascinated little kid adele carrie back hotel adele reveals things childlike way fact early broke smoking allowed drink early think women early brian local bar brian reacts nervously drunk trying start fight early first gives advice brian steps dishes quick lesson guy hit bri comin one favorite scenes movie partly funny early gleefully says guys friends drag away bloodied battered intercut girls back hotel learn much two couples differences conflicts likely come besides brian benefited earlys actions carrie appalled hears adele illustrates different way carrie brian react early adelebr br clearly now tell typical odd couple type thriller city folk run country folk sorts stereotypical mayhem ensues one hand seems little convenient brian carrie go tour murder sites happen accompanied real life murderer hand great way counteract glorifying murder inherent within crosscountry trip designed bring fame murderers crimes studying actions past murderers brian carrie ultimately find face face material studying realize murder pretty morbidly fascinating face disconnected studies murders pastbr br constantly amazed brad pitts versatility actor consider example roles movies kalifornia monkeys fight club oceans pitt tom hanks change appearance drastically enough fit given character completely believable incidentally tried vain early grace halloween year hair beard right even got hat right initially thought hardest partbr br easy understand lot people disliked kalifornia think glorifies violence murder think whatever glorifying done intention clarifying audiences understanding subject matter film glorify violence least initially never effective kalifornia movie structures perfectly glorification embodied brians carries fascination idea murder auras places happened realization embodied real thing encounter early adele movies purpose describe difference idealizing violence seeing horror close real bro acting kinda sus seem feminine guy necessarily way think dont try feminine want dont change tone voice dont wear makeup dont wear dresses dont long hair well bit shorter version something similar jim morrisons hair ect muscles alot masculine things dont watching sports though working beer dont beer prefer hard liquor stereotypically masculine things guess main way describe list mainly stereotypically feminine things live nature love animals im fascinated bugs clouds sunsets sunrises read time love books obsessed self improvement ill buy healthiest best soaps best foods make art im photographer im emotional though still control emotions guess im type boy take bug outside rather kill admire sunset pick flowers spend time reading day dreaming im going explain everything depth yeah know many men common women seen film genremix ive never seen another surreal scenes hilarious funny stuff film noir felling musical numbers swing sex scenes nd best played orgasm film bested sally pitch orson welles blended together work art work art logical end least logical everybody owned tv copy vhs loaned exgirlfriend cant back film dvd austria sure buy im fucking sick painful cycleevery day seem try jump hoop day day without change want everything end decided go college state away family keep giving three lines encouragement give crawl day turns ones surprise cost tuition state large emotional burden ive wasted make midterms odds getting gpa back reduced null adds emotional burden im trying schools psychological services proving take weeks meds trick cant ahold doctor ive trying weeks im tired disconnected courses want end cant even sit read book without wanting fucking slit throat books next victim want withdrawal school take mental toll shame going back fucking family still thousands debt know want curl ball done cant connect peoplei cant connect people friends people seem think look standoffish maybe mean people occasionally try talk theyre speaking another language know theyre saying theyre saying supposed say even social anxiety point feel anxiety anymore understand socialize diagnosed schizoid personality disorder think might austistic mainly actually want connect others know insurance therapy help exercise comes mind cant seem motivate im living car shower gym everyday job time im really eating anymore im sure impact moods whats wrong things know help ive thoughts redflag often half life everyday im driving think crashing want friend stick around deserve nothing offer lousy friend check cool painting made alright something serious discuss recently brought attention members rteenagers one moderators indeed map pedophile based confirmation important spread awareness push moderators confirmdeny accusation indeed true remove moderator post community strive keep subreddit safe possible please spread message thank ps gets removed linked post well answer life betterhey five years now ive considering redflag actually attempt drown brother whos lifeguard saved twice want die one either switched schools suicidal feelings subdued exgirlfriend brutally rejected christmasnew year holidays try kill methods either failed someone stopped ultimately worsened sophomore year opened friends expressed concern discouraged hit new low guidance counselor called class talked imagine cried day mothers birthday sisters graduation ceremony tell family month afterward directly told respond well made promise never talk think redflag went months still going math class teacher made joke q man fall manhole committing sewercide went serious discussion redflag imagine everyone stared classmates even believe im suicidal happygolucky facade wear everyday school take home fact year keep time single school day goes without thinking climbing headfirst window skipping staircase jumping straight lower floor strangling headphones jabbing pens sides throat always question value existence family says im comic relief family without existential crises tell today went floor got trouble boss made mistake lied cover saw even called mom school come home tonight first news mom tells im fired fought boss considering im junior year school level changes academic university preparation big jump course school feels hell better novel im studying english mosthated book time nineteen eightyfuckingfour flatout refused study book demanded transfer pleas good worst parents threaten tell psychiatrist suicidal threats subject sorts torture deserve shit give grandparents take better recently told shut promised id kill graduating high school now patience god help friend almost committed redflag days ago friends parents caught almost committing redflagthe reason posted meme reddit wrong info people started bullying making fun post wrong info literally made soo sad almost killed worthlessim hot kid probably autistic mess still probably never confirmed whether im im social pariah lost two relationships got fired one job quit cant graduate due inability fulfill might even fail semester hate family trust friends want quit travel aokigahara put misery im sure keep going really advice girls girls guy mean really guy dont tsundere act dont might lose interest think dont kinda dumb thats us dont find cute confidence tell knows might back hope helps someone understanding guys bit know guys know lot people including feel way fuck im asking crush today hopefully karen story used live nashville backyard shared fence karen first made us move trampoline blocking view view house moved one time brother friend around pm loud obviously went drink came back complaining brother late screaming laughing went back told dad came started talking sense idiot said fine went back house minutes later saw body behind tree backyard standing camera pointing us wasnt exactly shape saw trying hide behind tree film us report us hoa started laughing historically ran inside tell talked insane good justice time hilarious alltime favorite movie oscarcaliber work everyone involved front behind camera screenplay perfect works relationship lady caroline george briggs completely satisfying way unlike novel care leading characters drawn tribute screen writer peter barnes intense visual beauty oscars director mike newell cinematographer rex maidment josie lawrences best work far transformed opinion joan plowright watched movie least times find fault music famed composer richard rodney bennet marvel bored reallyhey im immenent suicidal anything im honestly tired life currently everythings bland mean ive seen alot years statisticaly ive faired pretty good far alot people die even make s whether famine war illness general darwinism looking anon know dont wrong everything paper life looks good look pretty damn handsome im currently going uni parents paying going mexico study abroad trip winter im cis white male matters cant find love find quality friends still virgin guess thats one reason live even still im bored life im much suicidal much incredibly bored need something spice life getting tired im job years got friends nothing home parents house cant take posting song everyday day want love nf daily songs playlist httpsopenspotifycomplaylistzilhbtxsnfkgatuareusigspyxmqjgbdtgvlqiog feel suicidal every dayi keep telling suicidal thoughts self indulgent self pitying cant make stop ocd behaviours driving parents mad running helps think much angry try make stop dont know video rocked eddie one funniest comics seen class makes funniest observations history culture seen eddie original intelligent comic ive seen long time tell standups stage let executive reign dont know anymorei kind plan die th dont know actually follow one knows except now congrats know current deepest secret sister lawhey call jane love sister im deeply concerned well versed say talking redflag issues past issues one reasons im concerned jane recently attempted redflag believe mentally abusive relationship man truly liked lot learned treats drinking problems drink thats abuse starts ive witnessed snippets type abuse name calling belittling tone according sister law guy used redflag attempts arguments best thing away lives hours immediate family job due covid another problem dont think accept help eldest sisters wouldnt want reveal things make feel vulnerable idea want stop anything ive attempt redflag mind matter matter time running worried dont want say something cause harm internet resources tell help different redflag prevention places person doesnt want help know want help accepting help im afraid cant wait want help please help importantly help jane note us men listen mates hard know everyone thinks dude hard socially conditioned express feelings andor emotions may ask simple gender roles man rely another person thus gender roles man expressive theres another thing man raped overage woman chances woman going scott free pissed thinking random entry slowly realizing life made suicide seems inevitable want die peacefully though need death exciting adrenaline rush maybe something jumping plane bombs attached maybe heist gone wrong sounds better experience slitting wrists anybody want go bang im throw vape away makes feel sick something makes still want im getting rid took hit willing regret set later wish luck cure ugliness without plastic surgery course ive tried everything burning face slamming concrete mph nothing works sent ex help message reddit idk bored thought funny maybe spam tho purpose existing left memy girlfriend months broke last night around midnight bother much time next day next fucking day posted picture another guy devastated inside know anymore besides killing want feel remorse doesnt certainly matter ill dead least want pain go away close minded stupid two friends decided theyre two different people respect pronouns call whatever name want fact people take seriously friends mine take seriously boggles mind names alternative persons fucking pretentious stupid lmao bigoted others think stupid maybe understand fully idk think bit odd identify two people fact two friends theyre closer makes wonder theyre cool smthing gtperpetual existence sorrows forever repeat cycles collapse person gt gtindelible memories turned still images constantly reproduced gt gtmirror past reflects good times buried misery gt gtinevitable roads intersect life divert coursefree poetry helps cope way write feel point life years old feel living inertia even began live life already tired iti live best places fact argue live horrendous place see everything crumble around see trapped everything getting worse every day hope chance country sucks city sucks household sucks practically poor live future hopes making somewhere time passed grown pessimistic seeing realistically might make anywhere might end living miserable life making anywherei trapped inside house year now friends withered away first place everyone liked talk online either ditched disappeared social redflag worsened time mental health need deal mood swings depression trauma adhd untreated tried everything access mental health professionals even others help end still live family helpful best tell problems either exist matter people worse problems even talk much esteems constant emotional psychological yes physical abuse rest things feel safe talking themsomething traumatic happened late last year hard explain knew event mental health went drain never cared got mad sudden change behaviour even let cope safe way led copping unsafe ones much happened many meltdowns many nights feeling hopeless many dark thoughtsand winter break university typing going sleep fix fucked sleep schedule least something fun instead feel completely apathetic depressed want disappear much trauma backstabbed many times much everyone taken advantage almost everyone liked disappeared always feel hopeless feel worthless want try anything anymorei want make new friends eventually find way make go away involuntarily redflag keep away friendship fade away want another relationship going abused want go heartbreak lost interest hobbies play guitar play videogame usually even fun anymore helps temporarily kill eternal boredom feel make think things catch go back feeling depressed fuckand live inertia wake follow routine every day anything interesting expect anything good see every new day another day another day deal everything another day wonder situation got last question ultimately kills done deserve happyi tired want die want live without pain things getting better certainly feels never will stuff fixed lot hard work many things carry forever know want tired living inertia able feel sadness week diagnosed mdd major depressive disorder redflag always struggled depressive episodes time done commit suicide want feel presence death taking sought help id hated even though deep death desire live life meaningless forgiven acting suicidal thoughts without putting fight first therapist thinks good idea let parents know condition comfortable minor necessary parents meeting therapist today scared might final straw nothing live anyway think dont think call helpif sat shower stall slit wrists right now dont think call help call fiancee downstairs dont think dont think change mind regret im hard time coming reasons im hoping fall asleep first dont tonight many nights many ways dont know now matter cant anything right failing workjobnavy shit throwawayso yeah shitty time work joined navy years ago time go gone shit cant anything right mean cant even qualify senior rate speak stupid shit comes pass tests maintenance well everything shit im literally dead want fuck coworkers cool leadership mostly cool im burden died least well qualified people im sorry go feeling happy shitty self destructive put external happy face even though internaly want die every day drive work sometimes go home think using guns parents sad go office alone duty make noose put away stop literally found making noose standing chair went last watch want hear something went wrong im welp want die im sorry well understand emotions besides constant background noise want die one knows think im mister happy forever make face die sorry wall text everyone know hell pushed mei hate wan na fucking end fuck everyone told loved never loved back want anything anymore want courage cut open wrists care anybody care anything anymore want die im tired obsessed cant head want think anymore living thing want bleed want watch die want breathe everybody hated everybody told hated somebody tell one fucking thing hell rasktrumpsupporters taking election results way fucking better rconservative non supporters trump cant make top level comments megathread rasktrumpsupporters clearly genuine rconservative bitching crying rasktrumpsupporters well biden supporter support loses congrats hope country moves good direction rasktrumpsupporters wish take things well comes backi thought stuck head telling sad lonely fought brought back remembered times thought wont happen ill stop gets point next time never go back fucking sad came back came back even notice venting grew without father mother insane finaly died s nothing close years old nothing show drivers lisense girlfriend nothingi feel emotions anymore way feel emotion drink heavily anger shows least somethingi started hitting hard headface conjunction drunk gives sort calm feeling currently red face hitting feels good rant started hitting years pain need relief reddit glitched cant see comments people thati middle breakdown sick tired people general rough breakup slowly recovering finally felt comfortable enough another person treat shit giving false hope supposed cope much horrible anxiety attacks heart cant take feeling brokeni know anymore thinking realized easy way right basically need help thing months ago found first best friend straight guys feel super close brother still cant shake sexual thoughts idk normal really love love everything want look straight eyes say dont balls rad lads give advise confess feeling without scaring making feel weird still alive weeks ago tried kill successful tried overdose sleeping aids thought id fall asleep never wake wake apparently take enough damn killing really easy must really lucky pretty stupid put mental hospital week days ago released thinking probably good im still alive got free pass preview movie last night know expect premise seemed silly assumed lot shallow makefunofthevirgin humor great surprise laughed hard cried jokes film must see anyone open mind slightly twisted sense humor okthis movie go grandmother jack palance small children language filthy jokes crude sex talk graphic find anywhere whats amazing movie still sweet love story girlfriend loved steve carell terrific office supporting cast really makes film work characters flaws depth likability everyone pulls weight chemistry perfect cant wait dvd im sure office space replays quotable lines king queens opinion pure cbs hit despite fact ive never seen every episode still enjoy much reason hard say episode favorite even must say cbs really knows make good sitcom wrap id say everyone always gives good performance production design spectacular costumes welldesigned writing always strong conclusion show lives syndication goes cbs strongly recommend catch case goes air good hate females try flirt maam im clearly homosapian back see someone try pickup girl literal cringe hey dm oh youre single cant help cringe lets real need stop simping youre actually one people something productive life right cringe anyways nice day night hate stereotypes standard image french man fact expected women higher standards men thought sucks still expected behave normally people say weird straight cringe different look furries know deep find either weird strange sweetest person earth still deep opinion course nothing wrong furries nothing wrong overweight people either many skinny people felt little bit disgust looking one blindly assume messed heavier started people criticizing lgbtq maybe never met trump supporter multiple good trump supporters behaving inappropriate assume bad ampxb got ta stop even though day english terrible sorry second language interact uytoppop manipulated bunch friends transphobic homophobic avoid end rid dog im gon na end ithe quite literally last thing feel deep emotional connection emotionally dead reaction literally everyone life months now best friend left one strings emotional connection hanging friends live far away really talk league legends family trying convince rid dog calling manipulative bring literally destroy inside lost everything good job best friend rock dog point im gon na leave whether redflag literally catching train across country im done fear break broke meive thought redflag years due various things life im lazy write im sorry im write seems trivial think keep going life kind alright guess great kind feel inside life pointless without ex boyfriend still feelings want relationship anymore ldr think im entitled anyone people break happens thats another thing invested much time energy care thought relationship saved months see side world fair saved couple months leave months later breaks told felt unappreciated agreed felt bad apologized even want another relationship anyone im tired stuff everything broken anyway nobody gave near extent parents care much anyone knows second break guy going forever grip im trapped ive thought ending numerous times icing cake ive attracted ive known years im pondering whether end months want keep existing know silly ridiculous sound wonder anyone going something similar im cowardly end itthis throwaway ive struggling suicidal thoughts depression recently gotten worse life mess im highly closeted atheist come family accept theyd cut came cant sustain financially relationships falling apart friends significant draining want live anymore im cowardly end wanted chest somehow im sad dont want liveive thought far long hate life people value life death yeah chance something millions unlucky unfortunate think death beautiful thing taken granted undermined love family friends great wonderful people hope best makes happy seeing happy deep know truly want nothing world give bc know real everyone reason killed dont want people care sad death want happy im dead wanted life miserable dont understand people keep going im throwing life away things im absolutely hate im college welding dad pushed great start life understand start good life dont want dont want anything want wake hear brother every single minute say smart ass shit every little thing want future gf cancer live play games die honestly want death dont want sympathy dont want anyone saying always loved going ok want least someone understand im looking death want die obsessed death whats side cant believe religion anything spiritual god related end day believe going heaven good place wish know dead im bored ask meh anything nothing see filler filler filler filler filller enough text finally post ill finally able find people socialize cuz mf lonely days final exam online werent required turn cameras iwhat expect cheating prevention lol something painful happened somehow hit nutsack guitar taking one game overi want die please excuse bad english im native austrian know english best dont deserve live anymore ive done horrible things everyone cared enough gone trough pain gay love best friend familie never accept dad hates gay people thing never love back friend put cant accept dont know anymore cut today order pain caused cant take anymore please help cant take anymore know fault dont know got ta ask anyone actually know uncoil earphones lot friends ones live miles away pretty much se friends best friend transferring another school probably see twice per year introvert hard make friends stop depressed emptinessnumbnessim years old currently serving active duty united states army even tho im pretty successful life still want die im suicidal please dont say im going cause im coward want already im sick feeling empty helpless im sick feeling worthless alone even though im surrounded best friends time want pain stop caught last half movie cable one night struck morbid even one two victims deteriorated camera keeps going lingering shots corpse uncovered concentrationcamp figure zipped body bag moving depressing watch movie already depressed watch feeling really good years depersonalizationderealisation depression suicidal thoughts gotten better hate know become robot even talk look family members eyes friends understand dpdr side hurts opened two people friends one said thought bad asked imagining going decide future now going college month pick job antidepressants working gotten fat even care reason live family pain grateful family loves even though love eachother even deserve love hate past mistakes believe deserve love happiness sometimes think death easy way think maybe living suffering better punishment idk life hard slept day today even energy socialize anymore never really forced even think old friends think rude even true one even takes seriously anyway joke group think stupid laugh nod gets awkward never say actually want whatever though really want live happy life forgive know impossible relief dont think ive tasted toast good maybe im high toast gooooooood try hard better canti feel im trying carry fucking boulder mountain im going one step forward two steps back im sad tired hate hate matter ask matter much beg one takes seriously feel alone im exhausted failing highschool family poor mother stressedthrowaway small introduction grew pretty average parents kept lot things hidden dumped load information onto suddenly th grade always back brain bugging family poor hurts watch mom work long hours hurts even watch dad struggle finding job sister best student attends community college know hurts parents im poorly talk grades mom horrid told hates wanted kill making life hard constantly asks cant meet expectations ive lost motivation freshman year hs think ending life right healthier family sorry worded awkwardly im throwing thoughts onto post need worry im sure able end life easily ok dont hateim im serbia life dad hates son relly shity guy befor mom disapointed school granperenc died days ago im relly depersed nobady talk sad trayed kill self failed stoped self every time think abaut every day somewon give advice ok need advice year ago parents got divorced m two sisters mom moved across country weve living different state mom new job shes met people work well months living meets guy work invited yesterday came hung little bit hes pretty chill dude cool came today spent literally whole day daughter whos one grade seems decently nice came today basically need help big changes happening dont know handle mom knowing probably going marry man point theyve already gotten pretty close meaning ill step dad step sister pretty soon pls help dont know handle things actually matterif kill right now literally give shit happens next ill fucken dead kill worry stress shit future im saying really see much reason keep nix right now done got gf met online live different states meet person abt month hanging msging late night asked liked said yes said agreed keep casual say dating instead slightly friends couple days ago added ily end said gn said back today agreed date gf pog hate hotels family im staycation downtown city near live share tiny hotel room single bathroom siblings mom mom bad sister disgusting smells piss shit leaves toothpaste counter flush shidding smears shitty makeup white blankets brother jist annoying entitled makes whole trip physically mentally uncomfortable trip ive nights hotel horrible im honest venthi thought come back ive made post deleted got scared anyone knew find yesterday told mom made want kill ended parents freaking almost calling police didnt yelling telling ungrateful selfish hard explain life parents support financially im international student im legally allowed work work table business stressful work almost everyday another employee messes parents blame even though employees years older hate living mother weirdly overprotective doesnt let lock door something usually go sleep wake morning yelling unlock door curfew even though im almost know every minute days theres obviously life im showing im always stressed work school living family makes worse suicidal past couple months parents arent talking anymore yesterday im coming closet man air getting really thin stay alive longerif check previous postsyou see whyi stay earth second morei want diei anymore place killing mei belong book worldsi meant warriora princessa elfanything humani belong narniahogwartscamp halfbloodprythainanywhere elsei want please dying even sleep houseplease someone take one help going die dot go boow worldi know irracional even care anymorei want please begging belong reality thought redflag comfortingim senior year high school everything kinda getting im worrying college im completely socially awkward speaking skills even drive yet gon na year start im completely dependent parents idea adult things become overwhelming thought dying almost calms way almost cureall die worry stuff go college going music ed im really worried im gon na prepared go college whenever gets bad tell gon na okay die creepiest shit telling jokes corona gone day theres joke time never rob bank pig always squeal recall many things seeing movie back original theatrical release post woodstock afterglow peace love along prewatergate tension fear paranoia hard believe thirty seven years later still remember thoughts going head watching film best friend marveling peter boyles characterization ultimate redneck sure typecast rest career oh wrong counter culture jarred sensibilities country day buddy still use joe currans line summary faced dilemma curious simple line stay decadesbr br curious read comments film others board particularly ones stating film dated quality top characters still around time picture gives pretty accurate portrayal polar opposites existed back pretty much side side events story reveal really want dated last time heard words macys gimbels sentence line joes come pepsi generation historical perspective great nixon poster lingering one background scenes buy used car man minor intricacies director john avildsen captures many subtle present hints life four decades agobr br todays viewing second time ive seen movie admit remember susan sarandon one lead roles first picture scenes nudity free love something actually quite new bold time shocking fact film makers began experiment ability push envelope propriety convention joe took major leap regard particularly mainstream picturebr br passage time thing impresses peter boyle overcame stereotype joe curran appear star favorite pieces work mean go joe hilarious rendition puttin ritz young frankenstein absolute favorite episode xfiles boyle clyde bruckman tender tragic funny serious portrayal turns tables scully mulder career capper frank barone one funniest characters history television even repeat episodes syndication funny whenever elder barone lets loose one observations one actor viewer sorely misses already inexplicably watched movie first time couple days ago understood beginning fuss movie held attention beginning end ran whole range emotions might helped discover never knew aboutbr br dustin hoffman absolutely shines ted kramer absolutely convincing man juggle least three different challenges life jilted husband workaholic ad executive loving father meryl streep joanna kramer less central movie simply joanna absent good part screen gave hoffman run money true standout though opinion young justin henry billy kramer children always innocent victim marital breakdown justin seemed absolutely natural completely believable role deals conflicting emotions around mother adjustment life dad confusion around leave dad mom walked young justin seem miss beat difficult rolebr br excellent oscarworthy movie whose weak point thought truly disappointing decision go sappy happy ending totally unrealistic considering destructive custody battle ted joanna gone theres much complain herebr br giving song recommendation part cause used atm first time moms card im buying gaming laptop using permission im totally stealing anything weeks birthday thought day making want diein two weeks birthday life planned bad depressingly lonely knowing ill old causing lot emotionsi feel ive wasted youth ive lost chance meaningful friendships life feel positive fantastic job im youngest teacher local college teach subject interests paid talk enough still feel zero idea want life kind fell jobi think deserve majority coworkers age mom awkward social maybe heightened friend family odd two days ago thought death rapidly brain used go dance gymanstics everyday miss miss healthy body everyone seemed make friends easily always sideline miss dance wish made friends easily everyone call grandpa amp grandma least day gives someone talk bother mom loves rarely time try calling usually answer life thats fair enough im close sister hard im turned really talk superficial level boyfriend amazing still feel incredibly lonely think feel sad know im lonely think realize actually friends friend honestly toxic talk anymoreprobably best still miss friendship asked think reasons kill im skinny enough die pet skinny pig even though rarely shows love hed starve without family wreck fair live alone social distancing lot effort im scared side cant listen hamilton watch bojack dead cant start dancing dead cant write dead video chat loving niece dead legacy die now never seen star wars land disneyland yet mom never forgive cook perform breathe take breathe cant cry im actually video write class assignments little realize writing kill want keep saying things okay keep trying make things okay keep trying add new lights lifebut everything okay stop stop focusing negative breathe need go back teaching class pretend none feelings important thing safe much want harm know writing helped feel less anxious feel focus reasons kill start cant bring iti cant kill either pussy trying shove handful pills throat pussy try tying belt around throat problem everyone couldnt even father today dont know still ive never known im every day feels waste time repeated cycle cant even talk therapist shell probably tell parents something worse cant talk anyone noone act fucking tell something bothering fucking stupid anyone notice emoji looks someone giving shrek bj im dirty feel really dirty everything body dirty shower im still dirty brush teeth mouth dirty teeth feel fall hair feels disgusting feel roots hair dirty dark basement legs many bruises face looks soemthing wrong feel weak feel thankful shitty things life right becasue least use excuse im hurting much didnt nothing blame fucked thank universe keep giving fucked shit allah dont believe elhamdulillah u gave fucked life hope put hell asap suffering reason wont feel something wrong lately read pyschology website sensitivity genetic im gon na blame mom kids even tho fucked head makes fucked kids mom cant therapist feel disgusted today arm touched mine wanted throw anyway dont know take care thank never teaching thanks never emotionally available making ashamed every part body elhamdulillah blame mom anyway dad biggest asshole ive seen selfish ass person dont deserve family dont deserve single thing still give fucking patriarchy whatever stayed stupid small town never moved istanbul never meet mom bc u married lived city generations ur stupid backwards head still even tho live north america sometimes u outside house sit living room talk convince shit yes ppl sit discuss convince man let us live lives way want congrats fucking dictator controlling adults kids lives hate hate erdogan hate allah three head kill feel happy fuck u fuck mom especially fuck u making watch little sister slowly getting fucked say fault fault u made kids everyone knew u cant take care stop raw fucking throwing babies around hate u feel bad bc know end really fault whatever fuck society guess fuck u sex years months ago didnt want born ask trans girl questions hate comments dm instead join server cause teen hey everyone first throwaway account really frustrated year old guy rejections far counting tried actually befriend girls well thing trying last couple months see friends girlfriends makes frustrated thing girlfriend thing friend girl girl talk mei absolutely zero attention girls thought looks maybe ugly several people told average looking fat skinny kind muscular work outi seek validation people enough d modeler video editor friends praise time make something new seek female attention makes depressed frustrated work done makes unmotivated sad rarely go days fear rejection whenever try focus projects reminded things every time concentrate girls unmotivated female attention motivation back feel thisi really even know say ive never posted something know long post sorry advance gets long thoughts pretty jumbled right now sorry seems im rambling structure post well go feel guess im years old never good thing called life life never terribly bad beat molested nothing never good life ive dreams goals never made come true wrong im pretty smart guy im quitter feel putting forth effort really outdoors fishing hiking camping make feel good times im even going college environmental sciences next year well maybe know ill make long even going school something love career something actually enjoyi think enjoy life know feel way used good amount friends used girl loved pushed away know mistakes ive made making anymore ones turn away mistakes ive pushed away stopped putting effort stay friends know guess want truly hurt end hurting ive become lonely want social im good talk texttyping pretty well comes talking face face always find struggling find words matters much live small town almost everyone knows fine basically outcast school thats remember cant really make new friends two friends left keep things anonymous keep things easy understand ill call john sam john hes best friend anyone ask hes loyal fun smart strong willed die anyone considers family know happened blessed way become friends wed anything almost exact well makes getting along easy pretty fucked head humor sometimes even subconscious stuff try push away try toit happens thankfully hes stubborn bastard kind knows feel try hide ive become really good hiding sometimes slip know tell feel least little sam amazing caring nice smart funny beautiful outside truly beautiful inside dated couple times never worked better friends moved long ago lives couple states away text lot ive shared darker thoughts caring best hard truly something text live far away two friends lot good ones even amazing feel lonely feel way life terribly bad feel im cut life want livei truly feel cant scares feel isolated friends cant see much im work tour colleges cant talk much talk dont respond anybody recently hear use tylenol acetomenaphin fight existential anxiety god description life written titleherehttpwwwchroncomlifehealthzonearticlecantylenolhelpeaseanxietyphp link tylenol frankly im glad hear existential anxiety till thought person felt hear grass grow cars rusting seems worry go wrong next vent commenti friends cant speak properly hyper mobile scared cant stop always scared alone scared going outside people know im tired im tired everything always school although sure help brain broken think wish normal wish higher chances die methods available least even meds diagnosed something although idk effective ending sounds better right now want fail though idk ill uhm coping method time im sorry post im probably attention seeking im sorry idk im posting anyway im sorry ignore sorry cant take anymoreim sick constant cycle feeling happy short fall back thinking theres nothing worth living confused life everything ive lived point feels meaningless distant parents friends bright future keep catching wishing end life hard man think want go anymore cant find guts end feel fucking coward thinking easy way able add constant paranoia closest thinking secretly hate feel mind slowly going insane cant even cry bottle keep gives constant sinking feeling deep inside want end want peace reason live hey pssst come something important wan na know post title ok order know maybe know let us know feel betterif anything feel worse want much die unbelievable ive lot research painful od sleeping meds diphenhydramine interested miss much im never going back cant take see funeral better see college life broke cant put back together time look realize wrong everything made happy thinking fills dread wish never existed many peoples lives better reason anything mom pressuring saying kill follow leaving sister alone live others everyone says redflag selfish id say forcing someone live life want live reasons equally selfish middle aged done status quo ideation set inhi going now spent half day sleeping much day away possible rest researching methods umpteenth time alone nothing constructive life every day difficult day hope change spend every day trying reach people social media whatsapp mostly contact people face face choice made every minutes face misery haul task online encounter avoid suffering cant see keeping struggle another plus years set ready reach place tried failed cant talk anyone know reluctant even post ponyo written directed hayao miyazaki little tale speaks respect ocean respect humans young old respect cultural differences new tale little goldfish wishing girl rather retelling disneys little mermaid miyazaki animated hand whimsical magical film young youngat heart film begins slow undulating bluegreen palette sea anemones jellyfish scores little fanciful goldfish childlike faces need narrative motion creatures music jo hisaiahi tell beginning released last summer japan ponyo japanese academys award best animation film best score jezebelcom fanciful little goldfish brunhild leaves ocean home jellyfish upon reaching surface caught fishing net full fish garbage sludge propelled jar rolled shore fiveyearold sosuke voice frankie jonas retrieves cuts hand breaking jar open free little goldfish brunhild tastes blood heals sosukes cut puts motion transformation human time throwing nature balance sosuke puts little goldfish green pail names ponyo noah cyrus meaning soft jelly sosukes mother lisa tina fey lets take ponyo school right next door nursing home works lisas crazy driving picturesque winding road past dry dock bustling fishing town treelined road nursing home representative miyazakis wonderful sequence action illustrates perfectly parents hectic morning miyazaki created another strong independent female character lisa making loving sensible modern mother sosuke ponyo lisas telephone conversation notcominghomeagain husband kiochi matt damon ship captains must make another run typical wifes reaction later evening sosuke intercedes using signal lamp speak father ship passes cliff house sits lisa refuses acknowledge kiochis apology jumps signals bugoff bugoff bugoff hilarious scene sosuke takes signal lamp tells dad good luck love lisa hugs tells good heart poignant scenebr br personal favorites miyazakis elderly grannytype women wheelchairs nursing home yochi betty white noriko cloris leachman toki lily tomlin interchange sosukes little goldfish wonderful reminiscent bickering witch waste lauren bacall sophie jean simmons trudge long flight stairs howls moving castle ponyos magical seagod father fujimoto liam neeson resembling wizard howl arrives take ponyo back ocean home fujimoto uses one elixirs try put nature back balance magical little ponyo escapes upsetting elixir process causing tsunami running backs giant dolphins sosuke redheaded little girl reminds audience stubborn adventurous little mei neighbor totoro ponyo adventurous curious mei fujimoto realizes ponyo done calls gran mamare kate blanchett goddess ocean help situation wise calming goddess arrives blue flowing garment never ends private talk lisa discussing future young children helps audience understand sosuke ponyos relationship lovers brother sister lifegoeson quiet simple ending typical miyazaki films leaving audience full hope reminders remind ask go super awkward dont make plans front someone arent gon na invite asshole thing upset need everything stopi need everything stop life people friends school need stop cant anymore cant long fuck poorly writtenheres long story short life adopted born biological mother got adopted perfect family honest father great man badass flew fs commanding officer kitty hawk aircraft carrier always always always right thing awesome brother years older stereotypical socal surfer hang ten hey brah shut kook best big brother picture remember took beach bonfire pacific beach girl friend age come talk flirt talked power rangers shit know vivid dad died earliest memories watching die lung cancer even though never smoked years later brother died shitfaced slipped pier drowned completely fucking ironic ive never met anyone loved water much makes fucking moron idiot faggot unless smiley face killer cult actually exists killed brother mom went crazy subconsciencly took listened everyone around sent away friends preppiest athletic school us cms new hampshire yeah sad got made fun ass kicked sad constant public shaming teachers fucked got gay raped teacher im gay whatever know life fun friends back san diego moved away home visits fun formulated plan kicked worked mom furious went public school little bit went insane creepy got sent boarding school troubled teens dgaf first got sent mental hospital put antipsychotics locked white rooms shot thorazine strapped orange beds completed went back boarding school brainwashed manipulated watch cedu documentary youtube want know bullshit place long explain weird came home years still antipsychotics took years later immediately went drugs met biological mother made fool drugs stole ipods unlocked cars open garages turned residential burglary home invasion minimum years prison first offense stupid fuck confessed everything figured right thing fight months im jail sucked better time boarding schools combined moved psycho month getting jail pretty ironic jail prayed girl red hair foreign legal assistant jealous keep busy toes got every criteria big coincidence ignore jealousy much handle broke fucked two best friends night started dating alcoholic whore whos idol courtney love called one night yeah lets fucked tonight fuck night happens drink much says yeah parents going trip got ta go need dad blew driving home spent next months drinking room waiting woken knock door taking prison years suspended sentence kept razor blade bed case still dating chick cheated year old black guy high schooler feels great probation officer never heard dui county attorney type shit years said needed count lucky stars years still drink every day still cant find work yes ive graduated college yes volunteer yes ive done job felons thing nothing leave room every day wake lay bed hours fuck around internet try make music suck ive making music years im fucking awful bed sit chair fuck around internet avoid facebook online dating profiles terrified someone might message fuck around computer dark turn phone text immediately turn spend entire day thinking im going respond always respond wrong way recently ive getting attacked something spiritual almost pushed window know stupid sounds im saying felt hands head ive trying find paranormal shit kid first time life actually happening unfortunately evil real despite ive im rational logical shit actually happening care opinions topic im pathetic want spend next years life catching entire life one big game catch im either going sociopathic loner awkward social guy everyone internally make fun see nothing faults id rather neither perfectly honest redflag something ive joked entire life ive put cigarettes arm past years every night got bed test long takes run breath smoke packs day long im drank way much tonight im feeling squirrely put shoes one second tell kill tell fuck gain living honestly pathetic im steady job almost years live fucking mother ive past supposed fun years life fuck man reset button really care anyone either ive spent last years burning bridges say therapy either ive social anxiety getting worse depression really see leveling cry help things drunken ramblings someone never right head know really th floor hotel room far away room want guy buthelp seriously fucking talk shit call bitch pussy whatever let frustration try jumpstart something head bullshit honest woke late class ankle surgery yesterday morning anxious didnt sleep im minutes late first class im going miss one show rest classes use surgery excuse couple days work really need due doctors appointments parents fine missing classes feel really bad ankle hurts pretty bad note online school lack preparation school three classes day classes pretty pointless teacher lecturing us random stuff hour learning outside class assignments hey see dry ass lips nah nah try lick now dry ass lip haver lmao go lip balm dear google ads fuck semi virgin eyes ittoday worst day never knew capability feel bad anything world capability let feel bad cant shit cant whole world im sure fuck done want leave urge die never high sad years therapy worked im interfering parents success happiness even first place said deanna durbin invented teenagery first film one best humorous story presented delightful year old deanna little beauty gorgeous voice miss fixit family split divorce plot summary see imdb entries quickly deanna two older sisters plan go america switzerland prevent father remarrying excellent supporting cast especially barbara read nan grey sisters good direction editing film succeeds captivating one even subsequent viewings deannas three songs il bacio classical repertoire sings police station scene films place history assured least viewer age smitten life deanna classical music one many nice touches occur throughout three smart girls brief glimpse drunk stretching neck final glimpse deanna cops hustle one unfortunate result success film subsequent writers durbin vehicles became locked miss fixit theme quickly became stale deanna never stature actress questionable charisma certainly seems many another film personality substituted naturalness histrionic ability lacked ploy worked well feature films hrs gothe thing stopped need make change beneficiarys ira currently set someone longer life make changes tomorrow include brother sister reap little offer cherish love im stressed want kill front customersi hate working holidays retail much makes want scream hate customers hate dealing hate entitled snobby attitudes hate right end getting table clothes clean clueless asstart decides mess hate customers either read receipts return date imply im idiot cant job way store messy right want gut open one box cutters feel stressed feel may puke pass second barely time mentally emotionally recharge goddamn job grateful coworkers nice hate dealing customers hate forced put fucking extroverted attitude please goddamn customers literally almost snapped one yesterday rude told return policy tried return something bought year ago dont know much take point given chance guts id kill front goddamn customers push breaking point whether directly rude mess something cleaned want cry guess crying professional end breaking front coworkers want tell boss feel mentally emotionally well possibly mean either going hospital told nutshell suck ive working much havent time eat much need wouldnt surprised end losing weight goddamn holidays point wouldve screw fucking money health important want able afford rent bills throw goddamn sanity shitter fake end working much fucking possible push much end breaking dont know much take anymore idk man school bro im thinking dropping school construction idk theres something construction probably physical challenge strong durable reddit glitching anyone nothings seems operating right whats inconvenience thats bad really annoy first thing think browser computer automatically switches yahoo manually change motivate online schoolwork zero motivation anything want hear people stay motivated procrastinate challenge ubensova said hard karma rbeta lets drop zero hate feeling im better now yo might deleted never posted sub want share hope help least one person talking friend aware suicidal thoughts told felt jealous another friend gets along really well girl got slightly heated phone battery giving trouble phone shut mid conversation stopped answering got incredibly worried thought taken life snowballed everyone friend group able charge phone told everyone perfectly fine damage done everyone still scared commited redflag always thought people group hated found annoying next day school crying incredibly worried keep mind one knew suicidal thoughts made realize wrong im happy say im longer suicidal title says feel horrible knowing way ive gotten rid suicial thoughts friends think im dead right wait happens stop now please think one cares wrong kill need advice open uphow hell supposed tell family suicidal thoughts help im young need financial support therapy cant imagine telling problems especially seem little bitch complaining shit hard life things probably never knew felt way feel awkward hell knowing feel even therapist tell stop pussy open need advice really need advice guys serious id really appreciate helpful advice im mobile sorry formatting spelling etc im really tricky situation guess im m pretty abusive family parents fight constantly often pretty nasty shouting calling names insulting etc going therapy year got worse decided wasnt thing psychiatrist told parents put psychiatry children teenagers didnt research forced go wich ended helpful made feel uncomfortable one point physical abuse dad beat beat stopped mainly verbal abuse insulting dad constantly talking failure even fighting laughing got fight morning threatening take away phone laptop really need school unless come stupid written agreement act family genuinely dont know go life everything except family life great im really well school bunch friends bunch hobbies etc please tell living livingits easy one breath take one dab sweat one look outside window one step take better keep living now theres much explore many things ive never seen maybe wash came bisexual girlfriend went better expected okay obligatory happened months ago late february secondly struggle anxiety depression self esteem issues regular realised bi sat wall crabbing older sister talking sex relationships quite open relationship wasnt awkward topic discuss clicked mind god knows long bi way around july last year ended coming one closest friends thought telling girlfriend petrified knew id point sooner rather later best got really worked worked ended string nightmares across week time period girlfriend leaving nearly every night wake crying shaking fear anxiety thought losing sexuality acting advice best friend others slowly started drop hints girlfriend course next probably months hint still getting occasional nightmare break better progress towards ultimately coming part th birthday sister bought us cage elephant tickets late february favourite band never proper concert went absolutely amazing night even anxiety cause little mishap one point okay onto juicy bit guess met girlfriend saturday following concert usual cuddle chat bed watched bit netflix asked concert explained fantastic amazing wish couldve much energy passion audience asked warm acts good managed tell thought one guys cute couldve probably wouldve sex given chance looked little concerned anxious sent waves oh ive messed nightmares gon na come true kissed said better philip schofield smile giggle well brink tears point cuddled rest day picking hints time im guessing figured wanted tell scared love girl much means world im glad shes supportive wouldnt person today without yea thats came girlfriend years fact right rd anniversary week sorry probably little long broke boyfriend year early last month rough half time even know broke people ask confused say feel even know thought breakup mutual sucki loss right go help never one therapy ive tried always end quitting im pretty sure thats option right everything shut tried sign online counseling today month insane need feelings somewhere feel burden going family friends experienced anxiety long remember even child depression along probably started medication years old nurse even pandemic struggled days job often work hours days week hard spend day caring people yet energy seems used trying day day routine come home pm shower eat work another hours always exhausted even dont feel super depressed exhausted turn makes depressed feel dont enough energy day day tasks turn revs anxietyits vicious cycle top boyfriend years broke days ago ive quarantined home possible covid loved much still strained many family relationships lost friendships time several reasons went drinks friends really anywhere matter always issue always ended phone whole time messaging knew wasnt talking guys etc always ended fight ended starting ditch plans friends last minute go friends family members life consisted going work home times week polyamarouswhich relationship open end another partner kids another child outside relationship allowed around children partner really completly ok polyamarous daughters mother didnt want cause issues basically big clusterfuck one child every weekend weekend work wouldve absolutely loved spent time daughter allowed felt went anywhere always punished fight argument accusation cheating know toxic unhealthy relationship self esteem took major toll time probably never greatest begin really made much worse repeatedly told one want fuck nothing ive started believe ive delete guys social media even coworkers knew amount friends facebook times made new friend accusations cheating needed attention guys give enough visible snapchats map times wasnt accused cheating remember phone died grocery store panic attack knew wouldnt show map phone going come sickening feeling reading im typing knowing close friend family member hell anybody tell run far far away clearly abusive relationship fight make sweetest person say sweetest things treat person existed even aside emotional abuse understood level cant really explain dont know ill experience top suffering anxiety depression dealing aftermath sucks suicidal thoughts constantly week even wrote letter family dont think really want die dont want feel way anymore hate feeling control emotions hate struggle much make day day life know better know bad know nothing good time wish find happy medium dont think know happy outside relationship happy im looking answers maybe someone insight advice wants talk etc anyone talk torecently ive feeling absolute crap ive attempted times past year ed flaired violently ive q constant state depression past month half currently high school amp taking full ap gives something lounge around day either way im incredibly lonely friends wondering talk anyone life lot end era released states spring rookie disney live action film seemed best last took place right texas actually story began west texas evidenced area code found sign high school coach convinced high class baseball team decided go professionalbr br liked movie sooo nice good sports movie ala mighty ducks trilogy taken moviegoers across texas somewhere panhandle el paso way metroplex live tell recognize ballpark ballpark arlington ameriquest field nice see disneys golden age end areabr br ripbr br golden age disneybr br sspring br br started mouseand ended baseball sobsbr br whats guys least favorite burger topping personally last thing id want burger somebodys foot fungus hi im high home hippie homie double yippie kai yay girlfriend blowing whats weirdest thing religion atheist give cool science fact youre agnostic idk tell something cool past point redflagthis feel right now nothing mood swings depression actually feel good mentally far clarity goes im finding im surviving world im poor dad alzheimers best friend passed away im deeply debt paying education feel theres anything left world cant escape downward spiral painful ive felt depression physically hurts ive stopped listening others feeling true failure ive tried telling others thing together help one another response supposed people know help one another theres hope us make us despite sacrifice effort never give attitudes quit either know realistic im going motions feel im world thats worse possibly come death hurts know relieving im suicidal im dead inside trying pass time fortunate end least got live short time existence im cherishing memories reason person feelings end little alone cant anyone im past point redflag easier say fuck sit withering away staring wall im far gone im rambling reason dead mid s still breathing problems discord cant really log discord itll say connecting amp itll last updated discord many times amp really working now mom baited dad talk lied cops hes facing jailtime mom restraining order dad completely unwarranted entire story wont dive lives grandparents said pay bills lied kicking door threatening never happened warrant arrest losing job hes run currently im scared fuck mom go hell bitch yall really need stop sneaking girls dms bro stop stop ok really think gon na gf sneaking dms saying something hey course wont literally harassing online without even knowing poor girl probably wanted post pic subreddit random thirsty dude sneaked dms made uncomfortable hell look know want girlfriend theres nothing wrong way ok proper relationships take time patience order successful love yall swear god talk bots gon na initiate conversation stranger least prepared lead conversation towards something interesting instead hoping ill different answer wyd ask th time hungry want diei eaten meal two half months ive throat issue anxious eat normal food today feel weak im going vomit depression already heavy relief im starving anxious always energy want kill everyday coworkers talking im snob im right next work want diei know anxiety depression probably ptsd maybe aspergers fucking idea cant function im normal im uncomfortable around cant genuine unable open vulnerable make connection anyone cant communicate im anxious depressed ive trying sooooooo fucking hard past two years im ready give im crying car lunch want go walk intersection end everything things make happy partner cats spend hour two day whats point stuck hotel kuwait happily switched channel showing beginning first pachelbels canon brought lump throat sight tiger moth grandfather father flown produced slight dampness around eyes crowes name hooked completely entranced film crowes performance subject matter yes debt owe various matters addressed dealt flying sequences father flew avro ansons story another contributor pointed crowes recitation high flight spoil film anyone separated wife odd miles exarmy officer deployed couple wars private pilot admit crying heartily couple times buy rent download beg borrow steal watch itbr br ps spy bristol blenheim yellow training colourson ground looked twinengine aircraft twin brownings dorsal turret really liked guy super funny easy talk seemed really trustworthy told keeping eye saw pedo talking lot hanging around lot told two girls around age worked time girls quit couple months jobs even though well seemed happy much liked positions told girls complained times pedo grown attached made feel uncomfortable didnt know boss someone talk toi really need someone talk im nearing breaking point afraid stuck years way unhappy unhappy continue unhappy rest life claw way one even knows trapped bottom dark well got point constantly try escape reality nothing helpsi always find square onealways feel claustrophobic feeling escape truly happy againi always thought death last optionbut feel many options lefti know long keep going hate want die gta v mission taking forever want leave without rude know right place thisback story born renal disorder required kidney transplant nine must take extremely expensive cocktail medication daily prevent rejection probably say im living parents attending community college jobless feel clueless great piece info advice everybody got highschool missed everyone know plan lives idea want im going study computer science appease father kind hate understand ifwhen graduate college im going need job health benefits help pay meds cant find anything enjoy studying kid wanted soldier granddad two brothers plan cant soldier one functioning kidney im aimless ive playing idea taking meds left road trip car hell hole go somewhere different see something beautiful expire compare amount pain experience everybody faces hardships struggles make day day different views opinions people hated likely misunderstood light jesus go seek help feeling comfort love minimum mutual understanding grew believe realize lie people try make competition matter values uphold pure heart people want see destruction observe movie snack popcorn even nickel pocket worth second thought even five dollars pocket people craft new mask put face order close reach back pocket take little insert knife back everybody something wrong going life rather much good life understand true human emotions work go stomp heart shove riches mental stability face make grovel pain live thinner spiders web people fight show right everything revolve around mindset make us mindless symbiotes bent manipulated will politicians bending truth blinding us truth longer see pile garbage piled onto world presidents rulers make decisions affect millions make big shot calls devastate many religion one thing history lead conflict disputes origins life awaits us die comprehend everything world let alone everexpanding universe create truth simply make us feel better death blot fear unknown people absolutely disgusting violent manipulative creatures think superior find necessary better destruction torture others raise middle finger hope day comes complete extinction human race comes upon us hearts made glass minds clay redflag pain need controlim control freak plain simple cant control least good idea outcome cant handle hate surprises blah blah blah great mental turmoil past years reason killing self mentally ill day passes risk controlling way leave earth rises cant deal hate wondering painful whats going happen escaping mental pain plus bill curious george pretty racist always called george monkey city kid outer worlds great matchmaked two lesbian engineers hey rocoon listened spirit phone th time week okay remember michael jackson michael jackson really happened got ta straightup seen film solid dog bite dog quite im big fan oldschool late s mid s era catiii films hearing style films making bit comeback films herman yaus gong tau writing yet seen interested give newerwave catiii films shot film live expectations absolutely quite fashion imaginedbr br story follows young animalistic resourceful virtually unstoppable thai hitman somewhat vague history comes hong kong complete mission due badluck quickly identified roguish copy exudes many qualities hitman quickly apprehended captured state affairs last long though unnamed assassin escapes captors quickly shows local police taken lightly hunt catandmouse game police mad dog police refer ensues along way mad dog inadvertently befriended slowwitted young woman bond forms two helps sticky situation ante keeps getting upped mad dogs objective hong kong back thailand means necessary cops keep trying reel alivebr br probably write ten paragraphs complex thoroughly layered film want give much away watched dog bite dog knowing nothing premise think type film definitely better appreciated way comparisons olderstyle catiii filmsthere similarities dog bite dog hyperviolent moments reminiscent good ol days never quite sleazy grimy oldschool classicks untold story red kill many older catiii films main intention shock dog bite dog far thoughtout wellrounded production though thats take anything away catiii films hold dear film far emotional exploitative learn characters backgrounds audience begins bond identify sides really clearcut good bad guys mad dog shows moments extreme compassion cops stoop extremely unorthodox methods try flesh killer theres nuditysex film typical characteristic older catiii films personally compare dog bite dog parks sympathy mr vengeance perhaps pang brothers bangkok dangerous films mixed extremely emotional overtones strong unflinching action violence theres pretty much nothing film acting deadon cinematography sharp well done whole film skillfully blends several different elements successfully way seen often film others rebirth catiii film exactly solid film thats absolutely worth checking want end alli cant take suffering anymore cant take sleepless nights constant brain fog irritated feeling fucking hopeless despite best efforts years dont see point staying alive two reasons im still cat fact im afraid kill yet dont give shit anything anymore ive ruined life years ago tried time time something failed miserably friends nobody talk even mood better day week always fucking thing right back suicidal thoughts upon waking cant sleep multiple time day motivation energy hope nothing fucking interest anymore im numb everything way years keeping suffering worth cant stand orange man bad orange man bad ok hand karma struggling years depression suicidal thoughts always thought keeping work best thing sleeping entire day working big mistakeit th week sick leave mess feeling day day imagine difference feel connected even smiling feel useful even shit entire day needed sleep take nap waking needed think annoying coworkers needed go bike ride pm wednesday needed days front tv eating crap watching stupid shows nothing neededpeople go work every day feeling shit crying work hours talk whoever supports discuss taking time responsible take advantage office job course makes easier boss read much bottom sub wanted give bit light better timesi sure feel forever always ups downs mental health learned important lessons everything help depressive episode future welcome burn depression story time frightening moment life ok going sound ridiculous came farm goat visiting dads farm getting back car go home dad said bringing goat along sit next next thing know sitting next goat back seat parents car terrible goat screaming kicking around scared life dad kept insisting safe certainly didnt feel safe point crying crazy screaming let front seat eventually mom convinced dad let go away goat still traumatizing slaughter goat now brb write another post traumatized time slaughter fun fact yall play video sex backwards still looks sex epstein didnt kill st birthday today birthdays keep getting depressing every yearthe title says basically havent birthday remember anyone actually celebrated pretty much always resulted wishing day outlive parents finally without killing th birthday took bunch edibles turned brain one similar im fucked product messy divorce parents drained million fitting lawyers fighting sister yearsolder sister took anger moms love extremely conditional left fucked sexual romantic desires made insecure inept socialization im strong submissive really desire finding someone pickings extremely slim ive usually ended sociopathic women eventually kill dont know relationship equal terms someone much less play leading role basically condemnation eventually marry someone destroy either live alone nothing fucked thoughts weed made somewhat decent friends high school least pretend friends pretty much moved lives ive gotten isolated socially went college west coast freshman year sophomore year transferred better east coast school really dont quality friends anytime try say wrong thing feel awkward simply ghosted guy friends smoke play xbox together sorry long ramble im rough night excellent film mel gibson braveheart trying actually emperor assassin probably thankfully common shakespearean production hollywood blockbusterbr br third century bc king qin attempting unite words conquer seven kingdoms china already overthrown kingdom han needs excuse invade kingdom yanbr br lady zhao comes king friends childhood obviously much love marry political reasons together devise plot pretend fallen disfavor king escape yan convince prince yan send assassin back kill king assassination fails king excuse invade yanbr br yan lady zhao begins reconsider hearing seeing examples old childhood friends ruthlessness begins wonder king may need assassinated realbr br one sure sign watching hollywood production final encounter king assassin unlike hollywood movie hero villain clearly defined final outcome already predetermined fight truly go either waybr br well crafted well acted story tumultuous time chinese history mixture incredible beauty incredible ugliness beautiful gong li lady zhao grow convinced every time see gong li beautiful woman worldbr br must say one unintentionally funny line film early gong li asks one servants beautiful facebr br duh find amusingthat people real life never know im self destructive im going something people ive met online close friends theyre always worried somehow know even dont want worry want left alone implode weird im girl nipple piercings attentive unattractive attractive really want know ur guys opinion even u bilesbian girls lol looped belt around ceiling fani dont know whats stopping taking sign stay alive wrote note guess wont need please tell gets better idk past months thoughts major downward spiral everyday waking making day struggle keeping secret everyone recently want end psych ward honestly know rate thoughts unbearably strong lately telling joke everyday girlfriend day entire life need words make long enough filler filler filler filler filler filler hows day movie brilliant concept original cleverly written high appeal us really conformist movie pickers wrong great movies wide appeal move watching movie based everyone watching know either tween really opinion lovely subtle humor despite people probably looking obvious actors portrayed characters aplomb thought lot personal personality film appeal kids well adults esp nice find good movie thats filled sexual references drug innuendos great film overlooked based public consumption one must buy ive decided end lifeim yo im struggling gambling addiction ive involved stop gambling continue think worst moment lost age cant stand anymore couldnt face please pray best guarding guys another world love guys sorry disturb u dont know dont friends talk hey guys car think dads golf powerful newest fastest awd pontiac fiero gt swapped engine put little power late s early s mustang camaro theyre really cool cars different reasons parents least dad onboard options done life anything goals interests hobbies noticeable cause ongoing years therapy help tried everything think fix asked advice least people one help go job cant think single thing id actually want friends girlfriend emotionally quite sensitive coupled people treating exist using losing interest short great potential im fairly intelligent anything mindthinking based easily pick want think worse way im wasting theres nothing want id much rather stupid useless potentially greatly useful honesty think theres single upside life im considering living need rope something sustain weight easy selfish solution anyone reads theyll probably think im emo something really matter difficult understand unless spent straight years caring people come across hoping one return favour person wants know wants make sure feel happy mind eventually gave caring people knowing people seeing cold eyes probably eyes want end sooni want write note want disappear never found declared legally dead method possible place depends pushes edge going tonight worry respond right away im sleepy much easier slip awaythese last months absolute hardest months life went really hard breakup partner cheated together almost years getting ready propose aunt killed im left imprint left mom diagnosed cancer lost many friends breakup feel emotionally exhausted im left dealing trauma sexual assault prevents sleeping night im college feel mounting pressure well classes really gpa cant really tell anyone everything theres way trust anyone feel ashamed im gon na lie days great fun even glimpses happiness underneath theres base desire end know underneath theres point continuing friends really know people know cant really help truly think anyone help anymore im far gone think truly happy know highest high cant compare lows even bother continuing family devastated friends may feel pain short period time end day fucking hate feeling fucking hate cant wait slip away live anymore much easier keeping going knowing know day now anyone shit hair im dude long hairits inches long basically touches shoulders throw one side thats itits messy hell dont really mind im wondering im one female therapist says pocd pedophile ocd know pedophile confused drained really rather die attracted kids people agree pedos die thinking ended one care gaf pedophiles really everyone favor hung year old cousin yesterday everything normal felt attraction towards actually lot fun playing legos left intrusive thought want end turns actually attracted kids think physically able live guys think people always tell god help god helping wondering turn god save want help want normal tired drained bad moviebr br course expecting movie called beach babes beyondbr br babes bikini movie pretensions given room view schindlers list wanted film room view looking beach babes beyond looking good babes bikini movie almost plot one flick delivers promises pure adolescent funbr br lots babes bikinis movie quite funny great watch beautiful women seen home videobr br every high school kid watch least one bad movie actually one memorable movies seen unashamedly say againif going watch one babes bikini movie biden done america wrote whole ass essay someones comments thought id make post anyone wondering preface support though centrist many progressive people backing office hes sort gateway progressive government joe biden th youngest elected senator first joined senate senator became vice president biden helped write several crime laws including federal crime control law enforcement act federal assault weapons ban violence women act prevent domestic violence help create national domestic violence hotline still service today creation helped hundreds thousands individuals stopping domestic abuse biden served chairman international narcotics control caucus introduced reducing americans vulnerability ecstacy law helped stop spread several substances including ecstacy date rape drugs harmful athletic steroids biden wrote kids legislature helped give internet access lowincome families building community centers available computers lowincome neighborhoods vice presidency biden served several committees focusing building new infrastructure stopping gun violence wake sandy hook shooting reducing national debt creating patient protection affordable care act legalizing gay marriage biden developed violence women act creating white house council women girls white house task force protect students sexual assault tldr biden made lot impactful legislature time senate vp worked hard build americas infrastructure create solid progressive laws im tiredim tired peoples fake sympathy im tired begging help fall deaf ears im plain tired havent slept week cant sleep im tired told go therapy meds third time dont work nothing worked thousands dollars money several years time wasted useless coping strategies dont work talking nonexistent feelings dont remember feels genuine emotions want feel anything im tired numb ive put nothingness long time think im call quits warnings notes bottle scotch deer slug brain stem feels constant battle mind recently ive started losinghey first time posting google sub ive dealing assume diagnosed anything depression years part push past thoughts even day week recently graduated uni perhaps lack social interaction bringing lack motivation anything forced careers event long ago touched cv advice got still complete lack motivation im much familiar depressive thoughts getting ive never dealt real suicidal thoughts past ive thought dark times real intent passed normally taking walk dog time friends clear thoughts usually longterm recently first time day real suicidal thought intent dog felt defeated usually helps clear mind yesterday another step happening previously finally managed house friend although hours leading really wanted cancel fun part way wanted go home thankfully convinced stay drink turned another hours fun rest yesterday mind clear today im writing forced bed shower make something upon sitting back bed sat silence wondering imagined scene im top building wanting fall weird talking mind different entities want commit redflag mind making think good idea im constantly reminded mistakes ive made uselessuglystupid etc currently im scared worse gets better scene roof want job relationship everything normal cant find motivation push forward know sorry turned bit long eaten near anything today im proudim proud fucked way want feel lighter want feel head hurt ive bad time recently bad time living today another bad day plain shitty day know really want anything want put something writing someone see able send hospital psychologist want help moment want survive till im eighteen cam leave shitty life behind apparently jesus racist dont believe says hes racist guys guys guys wait scroll past favorite joke always make smile seagulls fly sea cause flew bay theyd bagels second two filmed hamlets nineties first franco zeffirellis starring mel gibson zeffirellis version laurence oliviers based upon abridged version play much shakespeares original text cut never seen tony richardsons version ran less two hours shorter even zeffirellis presume abridged kenneth branagh attempting something much ambitious film based complete text play running time around four hoursbr br henry v branagh claimed oliviers crown cinemas leading shakespearean confirming claim brilliant much ado nothing rare example great film based shakespeare comedy hamlet third shakespeare film director acted iago oliver parkers othello one might expect different much ado earlier film shot villa hills tuscany beautiful surrounding countryside joyous summertime film everything makes life worth livingbr br hamlet contrast set depths winter flowers description ophelias death suggest shakespeare thought action happening summer look film particularly striking sumptuous chilly filmed blenheim palace possibly englands grandiose stately home rather forbidding one snowy exterior scenes cold wintry interior ones formal elaborate action updated mid nineteenth century female characters wear elaborate fashions era principal male ones mostly wear splendid military uniforms contrast zeffirellis film interiors costumes deliberately subdued tone play dominated images corruption decay branaghs intention may contrast splendid surface underlying something rotten state denmarkbr br film notable large number bigname actors minor roles blink might miss john gieldgud judi dench apparently allstar cast required production company nervous fourhour film imported hollywood stars robin williams osric really come others charlton hestons player king billy crystals first gravedigger played parts well yorick normally seen skull seen flashback played british comedian ken dodd brian blessed often plays jovial characters cast type ghost makes scenes appears genuinely frighteningbr br major characters perhaps weakest kate winslets ophelia branaghs leading lady first two shakespeare films wife emma thompson marriage ended divorce find wishing thompson cast role although winslet came ophelias mad scenes seemed weak earlier ones character still sane preferred helena bonham carter zeffirellis version richard briers plays polonius greater dignity often given wise experienced counsellor rather prating old fool julie christie brings dignity role gertrude attempt gibson glenn close zeffirelli version suggest incestuous attachment hamlet interpretation owes freud shakespeare age difference christie branagh great enough credible mother son certainly case close gibson oliviers gertrude eileen herlie bizarrely thirteen years younger himbr br branagh stated intention restoring scenes often cut cinematic versions reinforce idea play national well domestic tragedy much stress placed upon war norway norwegian prince fortinbras subplot ignored altogether zeffirelli emphasis national tragedy perhaps best shown character claudius sometimes played onedimensional villain something derek jacobis performance suggests claudius good man different circumstances allowed led astray ambition lust good loyal servant brother chose rule bad king although tormented guilt see way make amends evil donebr br branagh wonderfully fluent speaker shakespeares verse superb main role gibson little time old concept hamlet indecisive passive melancholy active physical energetic hamlet something best shown fatal duel laertes guiding principle worldweary despair active disgust evil corruptionbr br gamble branagh make fourhour epic film well box office praised many critics james berardinelli particularly enthusiastic opinion whatever financial returns may branaghs gamble paid artistic terms concentrating full text able bring full meaning full emotional power shakespeares complex play reviewed much ado said greatest film shakespeare comedy hamlet may greatest film shakespeare tragedy guys need som help need come superhero school give names please maybe time goim tired feeling alone im tempted kill selfi keep telling everyone think might depressed keep telling head normal feel shitty every day cant bare every time im depressed recover week comes back cant fucking take anymore everyone live im bad intimate text lmao u make pp feel funny lmfao left read feel need see people rteenagers time theyre worthless something want help hot discord go friend name comments comments one vent little text put beneath name iv made vent bot friend vent talk trash day etc best check daily key try best please let help killing christmasthis shit pointless think killed im waiting one three things happen something makes care life alcohol shuts organs feel brave enough buy gunas title says im waiting one three outcomes way ive able justify im even still able end now ive hesitation im waiting long bear see something make care life time running short part feel ill address thing im waiting something makes care life im antidepressants im seeing therapist psychiatrist called redflag hotline nights hard time getting ive told close friends condition including suicidal thoughts theyre aware serious concerned much problems single mother stressful job moving starting new life getting married etc ive reached much far know im waiting something click something make emotionless robot feel alive alcohol shuts organs depression alcohols best friend obviously ive indulged continue drink heavily see point stopping alcohol wakes gives energy things laundry dishes night stare wall sober brick fantasize redflag chores need willpower numbs pain selfmedication quickly stops feeling lethargic useful tool night course severely toxic destroying body quickly depression makes care currently feel brave enough buy gun im picky choice redflag method im allergic pain knives im afraid overdosing pills case wrong end coma something understand chemistry im afraid jumping roof might land wrong survive pretty much gun option one might expect point know much buying guns part want learn last shred survival instinct thats keeping alive want wander road live america im risk usual decide go store try yeah waiting periods background checks im confident id fail basically im waiting im living whats left life going work obligation paying bills im really robot robot desire shut must wait command master master conflicted stay way forever im sure im looking post stating feel pokmon domesticating wild animals forcing pseudo dog fighting sport super powered animals prove wrong still think day school winter break coming girl talking teachers drinking milk classroom wasnt trouble playing around teachers got class supposed saw switching classes standing doorway fucking pretty couldnt stop staring dont know name shes kinda popular hung around popular kids caught staring staring realized still couldnt stop staring enter classes broke eye contact moved hope go back school see hope remember moment type diabetic stress another aca repeal much handlenot trying bring politics reality situation trump administration reversed stance aca affordable care act protection telling court preexisting conditions clause heart bill unconstitutional last year gop tried kill aca beside stress months someone chronic illness already went bankruptcy back aca due medical bills aca literally saved life allowed start small business support im years old managing disease thanks ability able afford insulin medications without aca lose everything cantlive stress looming safetynet ripped optimists say congress let happen obviously saying unconstitutional reason hope god sometimes wish born canada europe healthcare fucking political trading card bad person sick bad citizen deserve die fucking hands chump cheap fucking suit value life cant take anymore guess clich alreadyhello actually really know start guess introducing im girl years old college student informatics major pretty much life right now guess clich say find place world think will hurts hurts damn much think anything choose went sports got called talented medals international titles never felt place never felt belonged grew another clich bullied skinny result hated still never look mirror say look pretty today felt mirror hated much hated bullying happened school came home mother told wanted friends boyfriend skinny even fat healthy weight thought high school change everything movies suddenly ton friends become pretty life gets better life got worse time knee injury give sport got fatter fatter made keep going started vocal lessons know think clichic misunderstood artist ill honest natural born talent even always afraid people even sing way thought block lessons felt world right time belonged somewhere purpose even though one stood concerts told good voice special charm swear god day words best compliment ive received give music senior year high school final exams coming think called sats usa told pick path life major college beyonce mariah carey subtly brought option family immediately dismissed now major informatics ill honest hate math always thing loved reach chose bring biggest amount money today failed first exam came crushing never meant think future looks see nothing consider ending lets real life one live die afraid thought waking mid s hating life job everything surrounds live bothered read till end thank honestly felt say overdosed first pills hands even now know feel helpless angry angry everyone everything feel pain wanted reach maybe theres way time ive dealing depression long time never got guts act dark thoughts scared becoming braver lately scared feel breathing peoples oxygen stop wasting clichic right another depressed teen feels belong feel bad even trying reach deserve saved lost imagei think saw browsing imgur years ago longer think tumblr post spoke wanted commit redflag go something meaningful dangerous places volunteering war torn places go things afraid sky diving worst happen die best discover reason live found helpful even though cant remember well anymore someone saved better google search post maybe someone find helpful know cant help everyone maybe help one person really fucked dont usually fuck bad im fucking worried best friend calling made group chat told add people added two best friends school check actually added best friend lou already added whole school started sending weird shit saw videos grossed one man getting head chopped bunch porn videos went look group realise instead adding two people accidentally added people remove everyone got distracted gross videos left forgot remove friends luckily lou apologised friends accidentally added along people mean add two replied apology one weirded annoyed one cool thought kinda weird yet funny rest left read havent read messages yet im fucking worried friends hate think im weird accidentally added group chat suddenly got super weird gross really fast took long many good friends im afraid ill lose closest friends stupid mistakes im super anxious always worry secretly hate im sure really sorry sounds mess needed say maybe help say next something diagnosed redflag assaulted honest ive never really felt usually push things deeply feel many repercussions ive aside lot shame last months though someone whos harassing resurfaced sending hundreds texts calling saying things varying youre going marry kids live together forever youre whore disgusting person want insert threat makes fake accounts tries add adds friends accusing taking decided finally talk someone getting helpthanks encouragement redditor commented first post talked one best friends cutting suicidal thoughtsand attempts talked mother going toughopening im glad ive decided go kind counseling first step sometime week im nervous talking shrink want better want depressed wish luck aware theme kusturica continues explore intermittently filmsthe western assault traditional serbian valuesit impossible understand narratives continuous theme expressed fantasy outrageous comedy vehicle one kusturica elected mandate fantastic work magnum opus underground kusturicas films black cat white cat life miracle recently promise slapstick carnivalistic style underscores westernization balkan culture ambivalent arrival assault traditional idiom case promise paradoxical world city urban space village traditional idiom space contrasted world city reflects western attributes ensconced spatial temporal setting organized crime sexual exploitation ruptured sense identity vehement disregard traditional valuesas expressed toward young kidvillager end film exemplifies notion observe funeral mass wedding oneway dirt road collision coarse appropriately wedding represents lifeline pulse village ie traditional values collide funeral mourners exemplifying death tradition within context yet kusturica brilliantly examines theme unique stylistic singularity outrageous flamboyant style serving vehicle portrayal guni bullets know shot without gun leave advice see pics old friendscrushs sad cause really nice made happy attractive abandoned lied stopped talking saw rant posted woo story almost killed myselfokay really long im sorry considering redflag please please please favor read might help might make difference world tldr version tried commit redflag pills stopped taking several ended worst darkest experience life regretted stopping happened life still great know redflag answer story bit background labeled loner wrong kid quiet everyone asked led believe somehow broken social selfesteem nearly nonexistent teenager thought ugly friends used convenience struggled sexuality lot guilt laid religious environment grew social anxiety grew worse began withdraw cave bedroom isolated friends family alike job going college rarely attended church around people made uncomfortable angry social friendly couple months ago started listening rotten voice head told worthless said life meaningless reason live told everyone better without bother staying one really cared right pretend love believed slid hill faster faster nearing bottomless pit despair planning redflag weeks best way method least painful want create mess want find body horrific manner want mess end screwing body live forever idea appealed sleeping pills gathered much took several nights laid hundreds pills never gall one night much life reached point meant nothing brought pills laid started downing two three time got twenty stopped realized panicked seriously going end life last moments earth spent alone darkened cave hopeless lost miserable pain want go tried throw pills work take long pills hit cant really remember happened ended falling asleep vaguely remember horrifying snippets night waking flailing demonic presences attacking felt woke morning barely walk stumbled bathroom saw still remember sinister looked pupils huge face looked evil worst feeling ive went told parents id tried night called ambulance got hospital recovered quickly family best make much fuss still alive glad life still hard trials shared im comfortable survived attempt mean suddenly find life peachy brilliant still days hate still loathe times im still alive still laugh read good books listen rain still gorge chocolate pizza sleep listen favorite songs im still struggling find purpose doubt ill find keep looking believe miserable found purpose life us feel deeply others results depression becoming suicidal please surrender please hold little longer choosing course live ireland chose courses college change later ones chose architecture accounting finance wondering u guys course suggestions pay fairly well job future interesting im physically active im good art thats help pls help parents want course pay well bullying online school looking advice continue bully online school ive always stuck traditional forms bullying physical violence etc school moved online ive struggled adapt change tried threatening people breakout rooms doesnt effect block mute even close damn eyes im trying go mean jock reasons type vibe suggestions act going forward appreciated im sick feeling im nothingim really low point im frustrated ive struggled depression years past months feeling getting better still bad days even bad weeks periods time felt wasnt making progress general felt things getting better now summer started feel im back square one back two three years ago feel worthless hopeless im sleeping well eating properly hate everything body personality feel unmotivated indecisive feel im existing without purpose potential im wasting every day feeling horrible energy anything little bursts excitement things used passionate theyre shortlived im starting feel ill never better cant keep living know theres something wrong cant help parents take mental illnesses seriously think positive attitude never understand im actually dealing feel one cares life uninteresting meaningless compared everyone elses think redflag every day feel care people say anymoreits permanent solution temporary problem anything point show tv turn sit keep watching annoyance problem consumes life unknown length missed longer capacity care experience x anymore deal every reason im given live cant help find way refute live sheer hope dreams source torture hard nowadays take advice regarding survival meaningfully hate cynical way see things anymore much life bogus everything everything reason thought involved effects actions may future course things care directly affect us things conscience act matter put fact life mean bad way give background point almost every option leads nothing good near future knows long run choose one results future one option done need longer care capacity care obviously affect others physically incapable caring zero effect experience world entirely first person actions affect conscience care things immediate access well enough prescription meds kill well alcohol speed process make bit easier every morning day night every day every week every month fight urge go find coming back time read diefex conflicts wish peace yet seeing comments left passed causes instincts feelings continue compel live im bipolar im always suicidal means deal always getting hopes crashing much much much im sick ima really miss goodnight texts going without romantic aspect dubstep gt country wub wub wub wub wub wub wub vs yeehaw trucks trump noises tractor im losing itfor many years ive low managed stay afloat easy managed recently though im losing never felt lonely ive lost last people talked worse person completely fell love fucking amazing guy started months ago ended hurting back came back hurt know let people hurt ive let everyone take shot maybe theres something wrong perhaps im bad person know completely exhausted feeling lonely kills never ive lost motivation fight try think giving fall apart im losing past experiences matter time attempt im still alivei went crazy party threw beautiful women throw sometimes kinda rocks dogs born ago cutest little bears happy crismis lads stick comfort someone whensomeone know committed redflag barely knew person acquaintances best im really apathetic person find hard relate people friend need comfort help please help found mother two kids cheated meso lately ive place life thought things improving ended place likely hired ive completing studie goal look forward seem reaching relationship felt stable felt future really damn good yesterday acted strange went bathroom knew look eyes surprise hiding something anythign point thought maybe imagining things today decided quick look mail funny feeling mail likely forgotten delete blank contained video clip clip masturbating sent mail looked sent guy knew talked someone claim friend relatively stable position life suffered depresseion years back hit massive boulder kids theyre highlight life idea able stay strong want idea proceed attempted redflag past know redflag likely devestating kids extremely unfair hell one proceed strugglingso planned finally killing everything ready day placed planned made mistake talking good friend lived several states away made sure tell exactly thought safe talk want stop help mei wanted say goodbye someone actually cared understood going similar difficulties unfortunately go plan able reach contact command ended spending days involuntarily admitted lockdown psych unit another weeks therapy complete step locked animal know friend cared time wish interfered going hell last years exhausted fighting feel heart ripped trying help themes receiving either want medicate different meds none really helped caused bad side effects pain misery fault miserable chose miserable currently process losing everything brings meaning life already hate sure use sort encouragement reason keep fighting right want fight attempted years thoughts getting worsei started college recently going well far love professors subjects interested time hold focus class anxious every day little things depressed im anxious im feeling future worthwhile back attempted redflag yo yo exact thoughts life really want getting anxious every day putting borderlinenarcissist parents another years want four years spent high school living parents long painful im looking least another repeat going college parents paying job job experience im one took therapy parents disorders worked alone wanted stay become doctor college realize much time effort money goes rather assistant parents look say salary im looking ptas small wanted day small rural home acres continue breeding small group animals ive farm told got bad stay anymore enlist military happy law enforcement later field work im worried letting rest extended family expected doctor im quitting ill end live citysuburb never animals rural life feel trapped hate city suburbs horse therapy animal years kill leave feel im letting rid animals left im concerned horse love much cant imagine bonding animal closely im attached thing keeps going know much handle know impulses going strong ill scream public know call quits leave everything behind cut parents enlist im afraid fail college fail military feel guilty either way keeps popping head maybe better leave entirely even im actively thinking thoughts purposefully crashing car jumping top parking garage come want die trying tourniquet methodnow got red spots face put dog literally feel want diemy dog years old put today tumor size football back leg vet told us humane put instead keeping alive pain already extremely sad knowing going put hes gone feel want run street killed car jeezus never felt feel today looked much cost cremated new goal twitch earnings want family come amount want burden anyone research cant take anymore im uk call someoneim incredibly lonely see way anymore lot online friends either suicidal cant talk dropping means kill im considering know think alone right now promise despite bad im coming across im bad guy im respectful feel uncomfortable hang give rules guidelines ill follow guys find purpose im depressed teen im interested find meaning gets bed morning go school every day motivates im kinda interested friend attempted dies im sure tooi got news even hour ago dont know know one thing doesnt make alive know wont either fault often joke around people supposed care even people spend lot time work colleagues always make comments want say light hearted way joking mean every time sometimes actually damages loved ones complain say things hate say things annoying really give motivation stick around hope attention wondered anyone got reactions explain passed drivers test today thats nothing passed alright im simply curious part body groins boobs find attractive ampxb need specify cause yall horny hell friend recently opened suicidal thoughtsi come back weekend away ireland two close friends final night bit heavy session leave pub early hours morning drinking local lads towards end night friend said cousin near area staying recently committed redflag drunk opened conversation us battles mental health walking home told mate depth struggled past able go counselor really helped knew friend troubles past basically said never really understood alive waiting parents kill knowing never know said questions life meaning virtually every waking hour really worries seems rationalised plan redflag already idea suffering bad said go counselor think point memory incident pretty hazy drunk anytime come conversation us drunk bad know recall even asked think pain cause people around killed said made feel even guilty already aware pain cause still willing speak sober advise councelling know brother well think good idea make aware anyone advise anyone faced situation close friend thanks peepee poopoooh yeah death time film made think judy peak looks wise previous film gal people often say looks emaciated well film looks perfect beautiful shows flair comedybr br think film hilarious especially beginning trying arrange audition john thornway one funniest scenes opinion judys rendition lady macbeth john looking party give spanking lolbr br one criticism hole plot john lily fall love mean one minute despises next going date next time meet date lovebr br another point opening night lily furious john isntit make sensebr br give film wonderful almost perfect want someone talk toim suicidal extremely lonely pm willing talk drunk phone bill nb canada ive killed head least ten times todayim tired energy move forward anymore care life kind go everyday motions without drive im shy overly self conscience ive developed social anxiety years im afraid everything panic time feel everyone know thinks im joke every time feel im getting little better feelings come back stronger harder cant head know explain im feeling even want fear shrugged fact mother friends im done life want put fucking gun head pull trigger im fucking trapped money therapist car work dead end job money gone end week cant fucking take anymore anyone relate wth wrong meits year lost ability enjoy anything literally every kind fun activity became actually painful cant listen music cant draw cant read cant play video games etc without starting hate getting reminded terrible things happened past emotional reaction always severe must kind ptsdi even know hell im dbt eat healthy exercise take care responsibilities things obviously help life still unbearably painful start therapy september idk survive told family friends one seems care much treat tiny bit better im guessing even understand im going depression anxiety pretty much whole life even difficult accept everyone thought lazy weird thing im going much worse cant express words quality lifenot single minute relax torture people keep telling im disciplined hardworking never im doingbut literally nothing stare wall change amount fun possibly sometimes bored back something useful instead must tech must avalibe purchase within next days go please help cant explain please make anything tech related less thank advance im weak worldi finished last day junior year feel lost diagnosed depression overcome eating disorder sometimes use problems make excuses hate ive tried kill twice hospitalized reason attempted frequently greatest goal life become vet dream school cornell seems laughable grades gone badly know math final might seem end world seeing grade broke junior year important year school wasted wallowing self pity know rejected never forgive im frustrated want achieve goals badly time feel motivation everything seems meaningless feel mediocre inadequate compared amazing kids grade used think fairly smart act capable everything crumbling around know spend time ignoring friends care sleeping locked away room exercised month feel disgusting might attempt soon im scared fail parents find bloody messy ill spend whole summer hospital think go second time sorry post place need thoughts n w google coordinates gtunderwhelming wasnt itlt im sick tired massive screwuphey reddit im year old man nothing massive failure masters degree one better schools area cant job field ive underemployed finished school work speaking jobs ones cant keep recently lost th job last two years recently forced resign threat boss spoke attorney union rep neither helping recent example someone power harming every time bullied threatened intimidated gets swept rug one accountable always screwed start dont someone finally try help apologize tell situation unheard one problem experiences words go far home life isnt much better literally friends none people socialize wife friends wife getting annoyed great job friends everything going way within last two weeks shes picked overtime shifts job last two nights came home pm last night department christmas party employees night invited work friends dinner hung left alone roughly hours two days think want end im tired friends work support home im hunter weapons think lot now want drive town outskirts put rifle mouth sometimes fantasize drive former place employment walk lobby eat gun right want know im tired everyone getting away hurting dont exist dont matter hurt time one im tired failure constantly messing wanted good person good life cant tellone babies died arms worst others wrong letting die peacefully home know tamara forgives always smart ways humans well cats cant believe still miss fifteen years oh crap rainingi hate rain depresses mood movie apparently intended young evangelical christian audience teaching tool give point vote decent movie show youth group think well received beyond audience id rate lots lowerbr br reviewers saw wonderful life right though think mentioned reminded chick tract little gospel comic books jack chick made movie one tracts probably look lot second glance strong christian message power prayer influence us earth somewhat hampered christian stereotypes christians nice somewhat passive squeaky clean nonchristians seem bad peoplebr br muriel angel plays major part corniest cheesiest character film unlikeable angel seen movie biggest negative know directors intended personality come badly struck way admit reminded someone know dans love worldly girl type drives plot movie fell first place one question wish answeredbr br movie display notredflag christian values youth group entertained view something wholesome good lesson mind fucks much dont want kill feel nothing allim years old im college student fixing go junior year tamu anyways dont see point living life whats point getting degree working rest life fucking old die anyways feel fucking empty literally feel nothing much hate towards called god believe make fucking sense us suffer man im done actually feel guilty writing page right now good growing parents gave literally everything guess need support right now please im failure everyone im unemployedi blame im contributing sit around fuck tmd bpd anxiety depression dropped uni almost two years ago ive benefits live uncle give week gave drugs alcohol started smoking cigarettes ive gained lbs past two years mostly past year meeting boyfriend im failure family mum says failed knows every time sees im looking half bottle vodka thinking drinking whole thing im failure mom seem careive never posted really need tell someone feel problems bad guess im sure right place feels im going crazy sometimes cant even tell im anxious feel helpless know lately ive started arguing mom never really listens tell mental health told suicidal thoughts middle argument told kill want bad ive tried talking calmly know understand care im sure actually kill thought scares bit thoughts death make anxious actually thats usually keeps night really upset seems go away talked mom wanting help tell need look problems tired dealing shit want book appointment go alone hope sound dumb knows problems holding back anger happens home though throw stuff punch walls hit scratch later started using scissors scratchcut upset really reason guess pain kinda calms hope sound edgy anything im really trying know anymore hate mom nice understand listen sit broken hearted tried shit farted someone tell whyi wan na know people nasty try talk wan na die threaten call cops excuse cop coming door help way telling care really dont say shut cant place someone terminal disease cant anymore cant keep fake old smile face anymore forgot drink coffee dumb anxious ass fun basically title knew coffee make people anxious generally anxious person decided bad idea keep drinking coffee well see long time needed extra boost today well inability breathe properly wondering theres games number game buddy playing got kinda bored spicy questions weve tried d sometimes something profound happens life drastic change required complete total system reboot reprogramming story sense akin trying extract blood turnipmany people try convince lesser human unfortunate truth nothing never youi whisk away fantasy reality everything okay lie say change know take change yet know change temporary know end exactly todayit brings light magnificent humans truly still even begin grasp things almost without even skipping beatit amazes people still even try relate thing try compassionate towards freak monster deserve yet people persist awe inspiring trulyto whatever extent may fraction hope remains within hollowed tusk human born unfortunately words never fill void even compassionate kind encouraging wordsthe damage done far aware deny overwhelming reality blame anyone elsewhy take pain put world simply present people feel become aware threat always compared neon sign forehead extent suppose gratefulat least people saw really made right decision avoiding realityi tried play role world matter never fit reality cold towards shown consistent basis sure every someone tries show sense connection often results us getting hurt leaving hurt feelings regretthat deal know causes try best circumvent issue understanding kind compassionate even enough really outweigh impact others still true bad omen sorts bring bad luck come near methat reality reality want push anyone anymore used desire connection love belonging life always plans mei outlier watchful eye sees beautiful treasures humanity never find way vault never find place amongst precious commodity space realitybut still admire beautiful humans truly even monster monster grew heart need help something somebody send picture danny devito stretched aspect ratio please school project man im glad stumbled across place popcorn instead place fuck goes beyond understanding thats good communication platform young people european student feel bit lonely current second wave covid good platform communicate people preferably without much creeps male rough dayweekive never contemplated redflag last minutes ive figured five ways stop time background girlfriend broke last week talking talk friend ive realized entire life instead taking high road good man ive fact ass pushed everyone know away always thought good person helping others im good job helpdesk always helpful working best solution client home im selfish complete ass never things others unless im forced social skills know carry conversation without turning something always wondered always start conversations friends turns im selfish ass mentioned really anyone talk hose talk turn things around make even im need help ive pushed everyone away stupid question unlock windows button keyboard ive locked accidentally really inconvenient lmao pushups decide day pushups today finally got streak pushups ok sosomehow unhealthy junk food excessive alcohol binging endured last almost years killed congrats guessmy birthday july thi redflag birthdays extremely nervous numerous reasons mostly birthday songs cheesy fuck hope one decides torture surprise birthday song will sweat alot anyways mom nice enough surprise ticket san juan never leave house think freaked covid related loneliness isolation suicide jokes love dark humor know joking whatever still blink good sign moving first never plane feel free giving advice pussy heights help sweat alot sweat alot freaked btw help sorrysecondly hotels pretty damn cheap puerto rico thank hehimtheyreligion thatthe universe fucking suck comes money even though shit job always niceanyways want try atleast enjoy leaving us first time fuck expecting surprise trip honestly one anything nice seems excessive af lmao gift birth giver guess itanyways usually always broke shit financially sometimes mentally better way try extra spending gen z worker first blaming economic inequality baby boomers baby boomers ask strangers internet money woo judge please secondly think heard someone say thirdly firm believer work money short poem random things see around room last word line anyone decides chip whatever hell ya want honestly head hurts fire alarm going say short mean little effort shorter expected want burn alive days day birth real firefrom lamp leftto lamp right love amazon lampsi afraid flyand bulbs lightone lamp ok give credas lay bedthe alarm goes offmy tv loudand holding coughfinok awesome love drink ton water remember give flying tips lemongrass oil scents help redflag oil diffusers cheap amazon one stay safe take care ok bye included pic beyonc edited hahahaha wow love peace birthday redflag induced suicide thoughts yay florence vidor stars daughter strict bible toting father throws house gossip taints name big city finds dying wife brother two secretly married raises child years later goes back home confront familybr br old melodrama heavily larded fascinating feminist themes circa sounding remarkably modern laid trowel father theodore roberts gives eyebrows real workout well put together dramatically lovingly composed shot cinematographer henry sharp rented domino whim even knowing inspired true story even though least likely true biopic probably see found rather awesomebr br richard kelly writing crams together mass plots narratives hours pure entertainment seen appreciate br br domino model turned bounty hunter leaves perfect hollywood life pursue subtle perfect career edgy acid trip style provided director tony scott fast paced music editing provides visual flare keep attention slick performances unexpected comedy movie well made enjoyable reached wider audience br br suggest anyone wants think entertained time hours dont mean political fuck spaghetti know doits long ive felt truely happy life im decent things classes sport hobbys never good enough mediocre better average person good enough considered sports team wanted first choice date etc thoughts consume think anything mind idles thoughts alone someone wrap arms around yet cant seem soothe complete thoughts cant sleep without pills even still struggle trying find something turn mind rid thoughts destryoing enough doze bed im failing classes job lined months semester will want yet much struggle im tired alone anything deal im alone cant sleep cant find anyone talk consumed thoughts dying ive tried couple counselors school worked know comment post ill reply super toxic test rumored killed ppl insults played much among us imposter syndrome ampxb ampxb please dont vote overwhelming feeling lately right feel longer go broken feel missing pieces know describe properly almost feels horrific way put whole bunch body parts amputated years feel irreversibly disfigured mentally gradually time one day might wake look see leg gone hand missing fingers makes feel sick body horror see feel never go mutilated feels something puts surgical table injects sedative move still see still feel straps takes pieces throws back world figure come terms new disfigurements horrific numb tired scream react waking nightmare one see mei explain properly trapped feeling silently horrified tired want lay rest parts allowed rest gone eyelids removed shamble onwards feeling trapped sawinspired gauntlet losing piece piece grotesque traps point even sure want irreversibly mutilated feel broken beyond repair may final post anyone want account message lost job morningsorry advance lack cohesion streamofconsciousness way writing fired job customer service morning alltime low stand waiting rude people call sitting front computer hours day depressing terribly past year working cs year maybe part paranoia felt treated lowest position company saas type company employees frankly embarrassed hated every day although im dumb enough quit decently paying job im ostensibly largely inconsistent work due internal struggle year old hated keep charade long full disclosure ive suicidal ideation approximately years survived attempt professionals tell increasingly common repeat attempts occur wake attempt spite ive beat odds graduated college landed pretty great job degree screwed ended fired year half league really unexpected thing postcollege pretty rigid defense mechanism ive past years caught propensity highly critical around well drop dime feel someone guess say im pretty emotional little guy internally parents divorcing around years contributed emotional state happened maybe years ago much middle ended consider immature dishonest manipulative towards end moved state family outside pretty much zero partially fault embarrassment attempt suffice say christmases throughout high school consisted sometimes one sister ran away age current husband note parents rich growing probably say silver spoon mouth life many extravagant vacations young pretty much college ive seen lot beautiful things easy lot life im even willing let go life going better mean drone much narcissism ive ive lot great memories im able smile ive fortunate enough fall head heels love date girl years college least know ive truly lived want make mistake children depressive affinity last years volatile think ill able another assuredly fucked often think redflag know ive survived years feeling way years introspectively daydreaming redflagas easy type fantasy realistic look world brevitymy brevity want advice ive done therapy opens pandoras box tried celexa year two years back turned hypermanic mess thing makes happy music sit piano improvise beautiful compositions cuff catharsis stave loneliness times sometimes ill play hour straight start crying midway much keep inside help though know may seem quite pathetic obvious terms answer guys still feel godawful moment better started someone please give words advice deserve dieive struggling years ive tried everything im destined die dont know dont know speak terrified judgement yet telling world hate severely im outcast therian therians make world cringe laughed judged mocked bullied want fit dont know sense self dont feel right mind feels wolf possible stupid pathetic say life decaying spiral endless darkness see future life ive abused chasm chest pain unbearable mixture psychotic depression ptsd social anxiety torturous one understands laugh cry sleep night cant help hurt crave die im tired told wrong kill pathetic list goes ive done nothing give world return trying feel free happy crushed im different world perfect slightest bit different majority targeted cast life fit never find peace never free pain way death im sorry different im sorry normal im sorry im good enough ill make right wont burden much longer want help us read friend friend stand without acting saw infront person acted true human human go swarm jerks dislikes reddit made anyone want talk hate feeling lonely someone wants chat message anything im male jerk sandy spongebob think voice pretty hot father causing depression without knowing huh begin love father hard childhood communist country growing hard finished medical school parents forced prove middle nervous breakdown suffering depression little growing decided children suffer fate worked hard life make stable living space us now going college fall fully paid said money problem even tho really expensive never really work money caring everyone family dream come true right mother made promise matter happens two never divorce years kinda started hating fight simplest thing father talks lot death constantly says much time left die tomorrow heart attack ect every time brings feel shit rest day says might true dies everything built crumble created heaven family die week goes now mother manage finances stuff sorry rant fits guidelines tell someone fridays supposed good mine always suck job trash makes entire weekend shit hate think job shit talking ex always make feel better fridays work hes around anymore bc talking stresses im sad week probably gon na worst week life much stressful shit going one talk im busy cant break christmas ugh uhackedmonkeyman appreciation post u pog thought might disappointed viewing film many years contrary impressed callow youth honesty brave humour transition among africanamerican groups predominant policy conciliation integration one confrontation selfdetermination still quite new little controversial took courage finesse portray establishment antiestablishment caricatures often closely approximated real life special mention made arnold johnsons performance successfully avoided character lapse either sociopathy buffoonery id rather watch sir love old day time come im horny accept fate horny jail filler filler filler sister tried commit redflag last night confessed rapedshe tried commit redflag last night taking bunch pills really slowed heart rate doctors said sick took probably dead still resuscitated though stomach pumped still currently hospital shes obviously depressed says want anymore worrying confessed thats raped years ago someone knew beginning downward spiral found going great difficulty conceiving child relationship trouble distanced family feel belongs anymore locked cant visit stays bf still stays grandparents controlling possessive fear may wake one day may anymore helpful best thing say situations someone sensitive stuck ways really open healthy change acknowledges need help frame mind feel living anymore much people offer around good enough emotionally tiring im half months pregnant four year old cant dedicate every waking minute feel risk rn wish knew right thing stand existing always problems depression young mental state bad amp want bother anyone motivation goals anything family loves much amp currently living bf wich love much pets feel horrible every day hate waking every morning go work amp take shit people enough money pay stuff bf pays mostly everything quit last jobs tired sexually harrased paid good stayed years hate looking mirror cry hate body hate skin hate nice people treating shit noticing even hate pushing better yeah sorry random rant wanting people know exist even going enjoy last day spend bf gets home work tomorrow hang room life better going end tomorrow guys imma mending book villager im playing server one thought use villagers ill mending theyll getting fishing stuff thats less efficient birthday coming spent anyone everi never girlfriend steady job go outside put ear plugs post online interact people online bought rope thinking driving car wilderness hanging parents siblings care world keep spinning introvert saw premiered rewatched ifc great telling many possible stories immigrant farmworker population came hawaii work sugar plantations early s grandparents part migration parents born kohala plantation big island time setting movie moved big island year ago living california years surprised see many former cane growing lands still undeveloped wild cane still growing years plantations closed ive heard many stories aunts uncles kids growing plantation movie helps image kinds stories memories story historical document 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loved im shaking ok basically backwards last june go school class confess says im ready relationship really see friend fast forward week ago stopped toxic guy even relationship anything friends home really toxic guy came back friends feelings disappear half year play minecraft together friends week back school chillin forza horizon messaged goofy adorable cute way told loved know fuck literally shake hard text favorite person whenever text best friend might small crush undecided hear voice see start vibrating starts core happy ah wanted share see anyone goes thing incredible roasts used really quick wit dried jokes quick reminder stop checking profile every minutes miss please read hi im year old boy netherlands autism huge opsession electronic devices loved one got ta nintendo switch thing one around shares interest someone talk understands thanks reading little story great day stay safe yall even point anymoreeven go feel better distract form long enough die natural causes drag pit last time even strong enough couldent clear mind fire heart stand barely fight left fire barly embers ill honest im sure make happyer think put mind cant help feel lost nothing change end day im still everything never wanted failure eyes sure im living lie now difrent trading one lie another know hate cant take prid taking prid scars etched leg reminders ive done im never seems end sure live lfe always back mind screaming beging end finish finaly put end part ive lost never back remind person miror actualy dont even see face anymore even name one given one chose none feel dont know truly dont know say ive seen jorney feel runing hiding away hey need help much brother youtube channel quite works hard great guys watch stuff dont let know sent though thanks merry christmas httpsmyoutubecomchanneluckrcwfqnbusvceoqha finally iti crossed point return come point life matter happens next never happy anyways tell tomorrow lottery make difference suicidal become unsaveable unfixable doomed bad 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overdose going give liver failures ect type pills overdose country move america sucks ass dont wan na live danger theyre dealing rona actually go la know way around played gta feel bigger prob houses idk think tomorrow night nightunless actual miracle happens think end asked help make life better weeks ago actually going take baby steps fixing things hanging hit another pretty huge set back even got started never better barring something amazing happening okay though crying anything clear minded collected earth doomed even live leave legacy behind one around see itthe last months one hardest ive experienced recently ive feeling well bits depression tonight felt need come back im overwhelmed feeling impending doom every living thing planet go extinct know life meaningless existential terms become even meaningless well truly doomed perdition even making true progress future slaves rich die thing free will live every moment waiting death wish child forever state nostalgic fever cant wake despise everything now things enjoy ive become extremely bitter person ive really changed attitude views lot things better availi still feel hopeless ok stupid question ears periced ive debating idk never thought thisjust sad lonely know want kill thinking thats disturbing enough im tired putting front im ok girlfriend left months ago try man move hard together year half everyday introduced mom jersey live va introduced church im embarrassed im tired living regret fucked lot addictions made impossible first love sex let go whatever beside getting heart involved stomped ripped friends always lost car year ago cant army possession charge im fucked sit room day lonely want away night sleep woke kept seeing shotgun bed wanted blow brains mean dramatic take redflag seriously im lost met never needed girlfriend happy playing basketball social stuff year olds wanted sex enjoyed female company never made priority never really cared said happy girl knew last year half dedicated time fell love regret always feel bad even though never tell stopped smoking weed week ago feel cant marines feel may well live life complacency really goals whatever keep smoking weed mess relationship yes lot extremely selfish geuss comes learning love first serious serious relationship want live regret anymore im tired lonely im tired bored tired feeling hope im going end everyday joe know reddit cant fix problems sometime need vent im lost right feel bad direction life want away memories eat away wish things different whats best way itim thinking going train tracks waiting uzak turkish film shown us distantbr br directed produced written filmed nuri bilgebr br ceylanbr br movie gritty somber version clash city mouse mahmut played muzaffer zdemir country mouse yusuf played emin toprak br br men superb actors plot allows demonstrate acting skill tragically emin toprak died automobile accident shortly movie completedbr br country cousincity cousin tales contrast rural urban life styles portrayed humorous fashion film theres little humor even warmth menbr br lost touch human society mahmut s work abr br commercial photographer tile company gives satisfaction divorced woman clearlybr br still loves satisfying human relationshipsbr br mahmut lost job factory closing small town skills energy find work city human interactions primarily confined silent observations people cross path hes clearly warm caring person cant express qualities urban environmentbr br cousins relate well world relate well neither makes effort act way provide opportunity bonding closeness br br sense film portrays opportunity wasted br br conceivably cousin provided least part lacking others life instead steer parallel unhappy courses two men distant throughout situation suggested films titlebr br one friends mentioned masterful way ceylan builds detail upon detail details ultimately tell us characters might learned simple expositionbr br uzak shown part rochester labor film series labor film traditional sense genre labor film demonstrates harmful effects unsatisfying work mahmut unemployment yusufbr br quiet absorbing dark film although make happy viewing walked thebr br theater realizing seen truly creative andbr br important movie film worth finding seeing help someone contemplating redflagtrying come good things show someone suicidal want show life ending life isnt option good ideas im planning using need outward support want give much hope faith know comfort much please anyone knows anything words attempt use please let know use advice mexican candy best el elote el mango la sanda great oh duvalin duvalin king candies know know great whats best part day best part day around pm im watching youtube cat comes cuddles shes getting old least years always comforting know still loves think im favourite cuddling comes sister wrong moment dad doesnt time cuddles yes im gon na call kitty even though shes senior got white hairs tail love kitty shes perfect stylish moody innovative revengedriven 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abuse emotional trauma self hatrednow struggling climb insurmountable mountain introversion said people make want kill world evil ignorant makes sick know theres nothing make better idea living life place unappealing cant watch everyone tearing apart rather die im empathi feel people quite overwhelming surrounded much suffering one day going im cumming hard nose lmao need tissues made two attempts last week long backstorysighhere goes guess long fuck backstory girlfriend dating years living together years back november girlfriend event florida something hours came back event started messaging one guys met event facebook christmas eve called talked phone hours parents house afterwards messaged feeling confused feelings man met time knew almost exclusively facebook messages february saw messages first time knew talked trusted enough never question saw said things love never responded advances ignored told made feel uncomfortable want talking anymore told cant control friends whoever wants acknowledged force stop talking made uncomfortable hurt knowing keep talking start notice distant getting angry often fast forward june event together texted know see able control something regret regret regret found message recently notice grown distant begin seriously worry around time july says event tennessee keeps changing story kind event chalk bad memory end july comes around drive airport event really text whole time people event dont allow use phone underground signed nda well know looking location findfriends puzzle solving guys house entire time basically lied set day vacation cheat gets back trip notice extremely distant basically always phone sits side couch pushes away try show affection week cant contain anymore finally grab phone sleeps look see telling due loves even sending lewd photos talking abortions destroyed confront first lies says anything yet admits kissing finally admits sex lies says event got hotel remember later found event house whole time notice plans see another city event mid august tell goes done etc says want lose going tell friends notice plans staying hotel event tell room tells go event comes packs bags goes days event give ask least stop talking crushed daily finish lease together ended october little month agrees stop talking month next fucking morning wake closing bedroom door central ac close bedroom door gets hot open door ask closed find playing ps even hours agreed stop talking lived last month together even wait went work lost completely broke tried go bathroom kill tried stop sat bed tried kill stop knife cut deep enough gave collapsed tears crying went bathroom wash face police knocked door heard yell come slowly hands air cops guns drawn grabbed put cuffs questioned us separate rooms denied wanted kill police told minutes pack bag leave came back arrested one pays billsrent lease care days good friend mine talked gf convinced let come back house stay nowhere city go things okay little bit beginning september event city went stay friends hotel planned days go event together try along better final month turns came town stayed sex block house forgave finally agreed appeared stop talking days days nice soon blatantly talking moved moms house another city got place still talk avoids actually seeing person know dump move cant gave time earth love damn much cant head matter hard try drugs alcohol friends nothing gets head always mind even dream prison cant escape tried hang week ago knot hold feel throat hurts hell close even rope fell blacked tried last night xanax alcohol failed everything planned future ruined continues lie everyday still text came saw last weekend needed place stay event refuses see anymore keep asking honest actually understand continues lie lie friends left another country city schoolwork nobody left tried hang old work friend ditched nobody left anymore meant world gone know love anymore need move cant see future without lonely sad feel hopeless know purpose life anymore gave life meaning grow old family accomplish dreams together best position life new well paying job graduated college sad people keep telling move find someone new never good making friends let alone meeting women casual things nothing serious content forever alone know find anyone weird ugly asshole hope tldr girlfriend years cheated left know turn feel hopeless worthless want die feeling probably suicidal felt need someone talk anyone talk right now think hit low motivation anything slowly begun ghost closest friends return texts physically find things cut contact people girlfriend feel empty know go longer goes begin rethink relationship girlfriend love much start overthink every single aspect healthy fear end relationship maybe deeply insecure seem tell thought vs depression talking never life girlfriend months now clinically depressed met medicated strength keep going something makes love even afraid broken broke front told felt comforted plan figuring future back trip planned august backstory crossroads life know future know want uncertainty love creating war mind want stronger mentally handle hate become need feel low m feel hopeless empty think hanging painful people saymy brother school right im home alone jusr got stairs tied rail took step hurt discomfort try choke bit pressure made breathing really raspy hear weird noises face turned bluish hurt pain came trying headache afterwards whats reason go remaining money going toward mothers back pay district continue supplement personal care attendant bonus compensation state agency im ideas support woman daughter setup gofundme page cant link moment im trying anyones attention listen offer redflag thank reddit help advance one tends slighted lot critics kurosawa fans thought wonderful episodic multicharacter study tokyos poorest live city literally made garbage though looks abomb hit film sort serene beauty thanks glorious use technicolor title comes sound made insane young man drives imaginary trolley slum characters wonderful stories engrossing perhaps tragic concerns man young son live abandoned car searching food spend spare time using imagination build dream house emotionally moving beautiful film hello everyonei rarely post reddit buti nowhere go talked selected friends inputs important warn everyone may religious talks depressionyeahlike thati bestfriend years year getting married love life genuinely happy really story bestfriend got engaged last january currently living united kingdom wonderful job loving fiance engagement told us closest friends family wed next year july really ecstatic hearing wonderful news last settle create family told wants bestfriend wedding three bestfriends high school got fired save lot money plane ticket pocket money special day live asia cost go uk cost lot salary x lower people earn western countriesampxbtil one time suddenly asked ask uncle priest cohabitation sin asked told fiance wants live together living separate houses traveling back forth every weekend tiring told want live together without tying knot yet big deal help save gas transportation allowance go told looking answers admitted abstinence sex many months now felt guilt premarital sex always seeks answers god asking signs nothing wrong religious person know limits saying country god mercy us man talked uncle priest asked cohabitation straightly answered cohabitation sin told bestfriend contemplated know asking lot people even religious leaders country told nothing wrong want live together still reluctant fighting anxieties matter point raised voice video call told life become shitty karma lived boyfriend years really big stab heart cried dismiss felt still prioritize know vulnerable fast forwardi remember announce decided wed year surprised partly disappointed first thing thought never see walking aisle person partly know reason sudden shift short span time understand wants live peace blessing god express surprised told happy last settling man dreamsthey small wedding year big wedding next year month july months go always asks thing people reaction whenever told decided marry year happy look dissapointed happy deserve happy always answer people surprised course told wedding next year sudden change mean happy think know redflag talking deeply understand one depression redflag many years always put shoes bestfriend always asks answers fiance getting married us people two create happinessi answer thing everytime asked know say anymore asked therapist friends got married say tell create happiness everyone know redflag big enemymy bestfriend become anxious months passed point became bitchy patience shortened one point angry bishop responding email even told within weeks reply find another one told person married plenty couples wants wed pandemic rules schedules changed understand god wantsso weeks decided transfer another parish surprise schedules weddings parish priest told available weeks time wed want soon shocked fast told ya go worries finding priest schedule answered fast muchthe priest asked venue already catering services photographer others plainly answer anything yetthe official schedule wedding september year became anxious understand called wedding jitters still ask thing people reaction whenever told decided marry year happy look disappointed happy deserve happy thatlast friday conversation told want know truth give answers ready told possibility people see desperation lack security insecurity something remind one time one coworkers commented afraid lose fiance something word desperation struck asked think bestfriends name plainly answered another question disappointed announced getting married year tell truth know thinking time told truth bit disappointed short time passed long time ago focused want walk aisle even volunteered process needed papers countryshe told disappointed expecting time genuinely happy fake told actually felt guilty time want make helping give even asked bestfriend felt way told position answer behalf told chat friend uk genuinely happy asked bridesmaid told better take care things alone knowing people genuinely happy rather people helping mewhich pertaining genuinely happy want justify answered whatever push decided let cooldown know redflaged outampxbi contacted bestfriend called talked lot via messenger time talking bestfriend uk teacher country patience kind running remind redflag talking right know listen even us bestfriend kind admitted said desperation kind struck somehow thinks true perhapsi decided mute chats messenger need time alone played online games talking different people shift impending redflag happened feel terrible bestfriend dealing lot shit life prioritize wellbeing needs bestfriend talked former boss turned male bestfriend told happened advice correct point told bestfriend white lie even forced tell truth feel seeks positivity assurance person bestfriend give assurance learned matter morei worried snapping lot wedding work well told breathe last time got extremely mad fiance simple comment flowers walk aisle bride wedding year next year fiance afraid whenever gets mad waited outside apartment okay bestfriend ignored made worry fiance wants know plan admitted really one told two sit talk listen says easily snapat least okay now found beautiful wedding gown really really beautiful still read last message thinking might justify even bestfriend redflaged worried always burst always explodes never cools shared predicament married friends told wedding redflag normal much balanced things talk couple understand bestfriend wants acceptance wants wedding everyone happy around wants thateven told plenty times peoples opinion matter important love otherbutshe still ask questionampxbi really know say feel bad person telling felt sorry kind rollercoaster longi really worried hard talk someone closedmind right now thank reading everyone feel bad person turned hate try ask parents money invest stock market ignorance works always push risk factorsmh nobody talk might well talk wanted family failed everything ive attempted life failure failure tragedy tragedy disappointment disappointment havent looked mirror days genuinely hate hate hate getting help l ruined life haileys life hate im going everyday see beautiful daughter doesnt matter meds doctors put im sick im unfixable im broken amount sadness depression medicated cant talked professional ive held onto feelings long became part dont want leave world want family want see daughter school bus first day school want see siblings graduate high school want see friends succeed live life instead existing realized things done without dont want anyone sad go want people happy want people relieved im cancer everyone meet dont even realize damage create done im tired burden everyone im tired disappointing everyone im tired know everyone tired wouldnt call death redflag thats harsh word sacrifice peace something never able provide anyone life hailey always love nothing good please dont let death upset time together best years life worst im sorry everything put daughter dont want go daddy really sick im going better dont want growing hating sickness dont want hate took im lot pain pain going grow older born made goal everyday night thats longer option spirit everywhere go daddy always parents im sorry underachieving son wanted friends lot come gone lot us grew apart im sorry guys go im pain boys laugh joke long eventually feel feelings couldnt asked better friends guys ive slept houses times rough ill always appreciate yall want everyone happy please dont mad please dont sad happy im something right anyone want exchange youtube channels anyone want share channel name ill check check mine want see teenagers creating want hear feedback guys alright took psats want happy friends immediately started talking scores th percentile shit got th know realistically better didnt really sleep last night mental health recently absolute dumpfuck know th great still hurts kinda wanted 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treat notredflag easily discart something better much someone gives hope another reason commit suicide broken heart necessarily make jump time life even tried pursuing relationship know never works knew made want kill never enough seemed amount birthday wishes bring closer existing anymorebut know despite bullshit little broken pieces left scattered behind giving everything still manage stumble someone love accident one truly special different way none notredflag makes wonder ironic broke appart left much less little now hope love serve entries main dish always misery hopeless wonder everything falls appart someone looking hope addict looks next fix lucky enough never wake love scary thing wife kate absolutely loved series cant wait next one hopefully sequel love know catchy song called wrote maybe old grey still interested life anyone full lyrics please send thembr br course one big reason wife liked series much years old retired still active intellectually great see show highlights 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probably say oi go grab nostalgic fun poop im class poop bad astronomically closed shell former self finally cried tonightover im better ive everything gets harder im exhausted yet people demand lot dont understand im going ive im really hurting right now ive lonely lacking relationships ex split last july ive much interest pursue someone new im going delve deep holy shit life shit show rather long record suicidal tendencies praised fact ive seriously considered year tonight drove drove hoping id crash fucking car something im shit tomorrow isnt better try im absolutely hating right now im religious im praying universe shows significance world asap watch fcking video u dont actually understand trig functions httpsyoutubepndlihsh ive trig years ago wth whats therefeels stupid write im trying beat alcholism anxiety loneliness failed everyone maybe time wont failure good bay thanks reddit made day last years first cg animated film ive seen usually look animated films made reticent see ice age wanted see moment saw trailer scrat hilarious sabertooth squirrelbr br ice age sporadically funny overall fun film watch story basically animated version three men baby set years past visuals great simply beautiful one thing create convincing aninmation another thing altogether create visually arresting stuff ice age great look stylized visuals blue sky studios company look future miss kidas horrible childhood miss hate adult well brought againi making much progress actually starting enjoy life saw friday night club ignoring fair enough last year threatened redflag acted child harassed absolutely everything wrong talked two months went end night said hi said thought civil next night texted asking still felt weird come say hi texted back forth basically said im narcissist spoiled brat idiot everything thats true said contact talk going police want die ive bed past two days cant see way want kill please help boyfriend turn never relationship go girls school perhaps may issue yet feel lonely genuinely school somewhat introverted girl find decent cute guy feel corny even typing ridiculous point question tooth extraction hurt much dentist removes tooth loose seriously know ask need positive answer relieve stress mad minecraft maybe hour ago died blocks away pig bastion one brutes knocked lace thought safe took whole hour back died maybe times used extra food stacks potatos finally fight brutes checked died stuff despawned wasnt even chunks long looking magma cube along gang bangs brute die full netherite gear pretty much maxed maxed crossbow netherite tools taking abreak minecraft everyone hear next time rickrolled remember pull uno reverse card way win amp avoid rick rolled lesson learned jesus cool win think im going iti cant take anymore im empty time feel guilty every time im even slightly happy wake panic nothing anxiety tight chest barely breathe lie around cant bothered anything anymore wasnt going another couple years push everyone away wouldnt hurt much im tired tired everything feeling im dragging every day rope balcony think im almost ready big fan film found tv mini series children dust version fans look least minutes cut dvd version filmbr br suggest viewers enjoyed film check book rounded storyline corbywhitewolf rachel black history buffalo solders two many storylines series filmbr br sidney poitier shows gets better age talent keeps growing chemistry character gypsy smith regina taylor wonderful viewing enjoyed billy wirthjoanna going storyline seems play wellbr br billy wirth course model indian vision look attitude dream every woman wanted carried one romance novels native hero worked alsobr br much done storyline give viewer brief glimpse racial problems back s white take native schooling lack black pioneers setup towns west michael moriarty maxwell always great actor comes across caring confused teacher sure whites interfering native culturebr br anyone enjoys characters watching change film thought chemistry poitiers character orphan whitewolf moving thought wirth poitier worked well together billy wirth best scenes working poitierbr br going got nerves sometimes want stop shake give wakeup grownup call whole great evening entertainmentbr br look two tape version mini series fan really see difference lets talk religion anything want learn religions namely mormonism church jesus christ latter day saints jehovahs witnesses im open ampxb plz dm want somebodyjust tell anything bullshits daily noteleft earlier reunion friends felling friends might think im asshole probably right cant stand certain people feel repulsed quite ive feeling belong world last couple days architecting redflag say incentive kind support idea feel completely lost without hope autistic bad looking guy feel ill connect deeply people anyone feel different people guys handle ps fell intellectually superior anyone cant stand fact friendly people people hideous looking incel used reddit year radicalize fortnite bad minecraft good responses people reddit quotes found something worse tik tok called kwai basically knock even degenerate x ads youtube hate lot lot lot attention women ages please dm girlfriend anry bruh geometry grade morning thats graded performance task got grade somehow wow turned today almost forgot unsub nice day witchery decent little eurotrash horror yarn david hasselhoff pretty damn funny one sadly hes one better actors linda blair downright terrible lady plays hoffs wifeshe hilariously bad plot film ridiculous got holes cant help notice remains entertaining throughoutbr br gore witchery freaking outstanding loved part old bag gets sucked trash chute ends chimney roast part lady gets taken advantage devil pretty damned disturbing id say one must gorehoundsbr br looking overproduced wellacted flick look elsewhere oldschool style italian sleaze top gore witchery belongs shelfbr br im surprised low rating people expecting exorcist kids routine mission iraq group delta soldiers recover computer hard drive alqueda training camp detailing location weapons specialist dr walsh witnessing termination top secret weapons development program dr walsh finds alternative funding source sets new research facility deep notorious belzan forest chechnya developing weapons selling chechnyan rebelsthe team deltas sent black ops mission retrieve doctor technology russians find labwhat delta team soon discover doctors latest weapons flock large carnivorous bats genetically altered develop taste human flesh found movie much better expectingthere lots action lots blood less expect creature feature acting great passable certainly seen worseoverall enjoyable movie good popcorn movie hey guys see everyone posting commit redflag everyone posting reasons ill give three time heals everything everything destined find purpose god believe rsuicidology bannedsuicidal ideations often coping mechanisms one might intent committing redflag thought knowing option mitigates suffering life reality people kill everyday hundreds thousands years cant stop happening rational response bleak nature life despise reddit banning suicidology somewhere discuss feelings thoughts without stigma people saying dont life gets better type rubbish free speech delusion reddit banned dozens redflagsympathetic subreddits fuck reddit movie gets guts tension son fatherbr br brilliant dialog lovely scenery great acting serve excellent way present onion keeps peeling back layersbr br core issues parenting communication manhood explored indirectlybr br fun ways curtain pulled back masks slip little truths exposedbr br happens amidst road trip format backdrop rural new york state early fall trees changing colors wow say movie said comments pretty much sum everything people love cherish people hate well loathe movie equivalent marmitebr br personally committed every second memory cyclical claustrophobic introspective magical stands one unique films made despite many stated believe truly cult movie diamond rough waiting discovered unearthed fantastical psychedelic visuals incredible soundtrack unforgettable achievement one friends watched likened musical many respects fully appreciate context film made probably view head suchbr br always fond monkees especially tv show back repeated s mum recorded head shown tv late night knew liked watched day later lodged memory able find copy dvd decades later love special edition fascinating greater insight making masterpiece hope weird situationive got disabled brother fairly rare disability suppose affects similar way syndrome lower mental age friendly struggles speech etc hes teen entirely reliant parents cant leave house cant left home alone cant cook isnt even allowed run bath told almost everything hate life situation isnt awful fucking hate dont really friends couple people school theyve moved different colleges got friends whereas one feel really lonely theres nothing want im tired body feels fucking weak ive wanted die long time tried hang maybe year ago plan didnt work one knows therapy months ended lying therapist frightened happens people suicidal thoughts want die leaves brother makes cry almost every night died hed upset confused eventually learn forget parents die hell one im brother siblings im supposed take care parents die dont want institution fucking hate life want able die fucking one funnest marios ive played levels creative fluid controls good graphics time theres multitude crazy bosses enemies fight sometimes levels frustrating leave hard levels still need accomplished fight boss annoying another complaint camera angle though works fairly well time pain certain situations big time mario fan ones even huge fan id still recommend one big game getting need take satisfying good playing short bursts time almost certainly hold interest sure hold mine dont want kill hate alive havent really gotten point want kill wouldnt know around people events still keep wanting end havent enjoyed life idk long ima honest really want hugim hug family shit want feeling someone hugging theyre obligated family ironic joke friends man think prospect hug thing keeps goin fuck want long hug someone ive built relationship heck hummus smoothie bean paste dream getting older feels bad man friends started last year elementary school already week weve seen first time summer brake found everyone feels wont enjoy school trips boys fun anytime want children live calmly care nothing yeah children feel empty kind sad figuring turning isnt far awayyou considered adult age country dont know handle rn ate ravioli happened snail bottom supposed use bathroom im scared cus ate snail half shell mean um lucky enough catch film finally turner classic films tonight one films oscar special effects yearly month oscar winning films br br bedknobs broomsticks easily sequel film earlier success mary poppins film big success oscar winner best actress julie andrews mary poppins bedknobs david tomlinson role wherein learns parenting fine mixture live action animation set past period british history edwardian georgian world london englands coastline dunkirk summer even old reginald owen general home guard whereas formerly admiral boom mary poppins ironically owens final rolebr br home guard sequences many film reminds one british series dads army dealing problems local home guard early years war period well suggested appearance three rawlins children war orphans bombings blitz london typical disney fashion musical number portobello road different members british army including soldiers india caribbean complete metal drums yet appear scottish local female auxiliaries costumebr br surprisingly plus biggest plus angela lansbury performance eglantine price finally sole real musical film lead noteworthy acting career lansbury never got real career musical role deserved auntie mame musical mame came shortly bedknobs singing parts gaslight brief balloon boys picture dorian gray little yellow bird best support conclusion harvey girls final reprise atchison topeka santa fe play female lead hear singing david tomlinson may able understand lost play mame dennis burnsidebr br rest cast pretty good tomlinson learning rise occasion lifetime relative failure three children cindy ocallaghan roy snart ian weighill actually showing interesting sides characters edwardian predecessors poppins weighill particular something budding opportunist thinking blackmailing lansbury finding witch surprising waste possibly due cutting scenes roddy mcdowall local vicar two sequences film possible role disapproving foe witchcraft bigger part note john ericson german officer leads raid conclusion film find facing something powerful imagined british countryside sam jaffe competitor magic formula lansbury tomlinson seeking br br animation two sequences sea lagoon wildest soccer match drawn well worth view tomlinson pulled latter referee getting pretty badly banged various charges scrimmages said pretty fine sample disney studios best work looking reason stay alive tonight itif looking reason stay alive tonight okay aw spelt money emojis aw automod fuck apparently give aws free now ive able give free thing icon disappeared normal ive gotten hours sleep week far pounding headache heart beating x faster vision getting blurry im feeling pretty shaky dizzy sleep parents ask whats wrong figure im reddit thats go cant sleep take away phone make delete app lose closest friends ya im vibin truth ive seen pickup lines sub two days dating apps seen fucking existence lied psychiatristptsd severe depression psych va asked ive thoughts redflag told lie ive scratching sharp objects bleed see reason stop psychs idea treatment increase dosage sure ill increase ill take whole fucking bottle plus bottles cure one way another great classic bugs bunny cartoons movie humor different levels introduced year old daughter year old son enjoyed movie busting laughing quite times daughter much scifi fan movie kept laughing despite seen times adultlevel humor humor adults simply greater life experiences baudy rrated stuff found keeps movie equally enjoyable adults example adult level humor martian voices based characters different moviesactors martian pilot blaznee voice mannerisms jack nicholson scientist peter sellers dr strangelove special effects surprisingly good film lack top actors actually works movies favor actorsactresses play part well fact say producers picked actors skills roles needs boxoffice draw power excellent example wayne alexanders vern character write review kids playing rd time days dinner right now good rainy day late night weekend theresnothingonandimbored movie suicidal gesturedoes anyone want exactly die per se make suicidal gesture ends hospital oding alcohol cutting really deep want things badly dont necessarily want die dont know crave self destruction badly happy right attempts painful heart racing nauseating attempts ive got ps ordered happy right need anyone talk toi taken advantage weeks ago getting harder harder fall asleep night now protect cant stop thinking many sick horrible people world want live means constantly expecting worst everyone around thats exhausting trust people keep getting hurt believe kindness empathy constantly let selfish violent people never felt alone unlike commenters staging class war mind seeing lives people fairly successful extroverted bohemian gasp terribly english party getting sorts trouble result bad film closer euro cinema rather imitation usual slick american crap believe minimal sound design cheap camera conscious decision rather bad film making id defend film worse result puts spotlight cast really good kate hardie think thats name sarcastic drunk spoton one exception david baddiel never allowed appear serious stuff light go kind anatomisingofrelationship crap country real friends go party worse sit watch pretty much everyone knows suicidal nowyay surprised message cousin saying talk wanted really scared really want talk anybody trying play small thing people worry good friendship want ruin problems well suicidal think problems really know worried ignore next time see really awkward cousin reached scared know friend accidentally kicked dead rat teacher yesterday group friends playing game football someone pointed dead rat group went nowhere someone kicked another eventually started kicking around teacher came said lads friend got good run rat kicked accidentally hit stomach know decided put hope someone got laugh rats harmed microwave mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm moan simp girls simp ill even love back im bored idk mention bored filler filler filler filler filler anyone want collaborate shitpost songs shitty vocals great shitposts guess theoryjust rantive always theorized world needs balance order happy people need people never gain happiness im next month female virgin ive never date never went clubbing hung friends adult fat ugly depressed probably middle school college grade sister still friendsmade ive alone never supposed happiness every time taste goes stripped away worse things happenim tired tired struggling live cant take life bad give happy people happiness without misery happiness cant exist people suffer well im tired suffering im tired late change anything know much longer take pain im tired need stop stalking people someone says something funny follow scroll readcomment shit ton posts rip school gets shut november th school gets shut november th jave zoom calls take hours day every thing going online internet slow shit im talking mbs want dieagainif read previous posts come know tough time friends theyre reason wan na kill reason wan na kill see never son parents proud always friend friends awesome way deserved ive realized im disappointment one series realizations come know span short period time still struggling alcohol problem one bad apples batch got hooked honestly seem stop either getting back point realized suicidal thoughts aids really go back way things ease pain really good friend met pretty recently left well essentially exploded told things boyfriend know pretty bummed kinda maintaining distance best friend found something wrong leave told asked promise tell n exactly got pissed essentially exploded problem taking anti depression meds time idk now kind person whos check even exhibit slight hints killing shed literally call phone answer texts used combined aforementioned factors makes feel monster way know rid kill actually optimistic last time posted know went realized make everyone happy trying disappoint everyone thought disappointing everyone last time ending way kill right jumping window panic attack every time try jumping window im scared heights honestly know anymore im lost think ill person im sorry wasting time anyone know way outim depressed anxious know parents narcissists lack power change anything keep considering ending im school learning animate im good depression took fun two things holding back guinea pigs boyfriend got guinea pigs summer help mentally may end marrying boyfriend actually end weve dating years tomorrow despite nice things keep feeling empty know axios trump interview blocked damn near everywhere part ampxb videoakwgpzingf ill link others theyre uploaded wonderful film best scandinavian eldritch magic tradition far sighted analysis much big issues starting facebr br compulsory viewing politiciansbr br take pick privacy nuclear sustainability global climate change quality lifebr br reminiscent thoreaus walden modern twist considerable humour br br im finnish although ive travelled good finnish friends found totally accessible culturally informative pedophile girlfriend dating months recently turned sister calling pedophile really girlfriend im confused pedophile please help oh oh dream texted girl something feeling weird talked unless alone meaning send send woke dream actually send offered french fries reason obviously cant say said shed minutes woke real im tiredthats thats post im goddamn tired know exactly kill cocktail hard liquor handful lithium either hand lithium later week well see maybe ill fat ass stop goddamn coward thing random stuff gf day today ill answer question ask matter weird specific bonus flag rating estonia cool colours superior horizontal tricolour virgin vertical tricolour tell go scheelp please help scheelp motivating actually attempt lie sleep probably work please ive bad day today mostly rambling day started stayed night days ago went sleep slept pm yesterday ive night pm usually go sleep around wake stayed watch streamer twitch ended starting hours late things happen thats fine waited extra hours see play game play probably worst thing thats happened old friend tried contact unblocked acting nothing happened even though talked months answered short point possible herhi barkshe started conversations usually types something deletes whats point typing responding idk respond oh ok meow want damn thats rude asf im gon na block ok little back story randomly started ignoring irlin school answer texts stopped trying gave completely week tried one last time month answer noticed months later blocked litteraly months later today tried may hard brought alot pain one day fine next talk fo reason sent hi months ago decided going move moved trying talk ignored talked everyday video called basically day everyday hurt alot audacity text furious trying verbally assult anyways thanks listening probably people actually read pilli leaving tonight last two years ive overdosed many times cant swallow whole bunch pills found solution crushed meds im going mix food put drink swallow im truly sorry im alive pulse know many people life going affected tremendously move couple months year know selfish act selfish keep someone doesnt want wanted create goodbye video send everyone rescued guess wont everyone find late everyone struggling keep fighting keep pursuing want life ive battling mental health many years guess time life isnt everyone make last idk happen die really hope better earth matter fact hope life death dead take care keep seek help youre really rot think solution please help deciding take life im tired fighting waking every morning wishing dead first thought wake still final thought night hope dont wake tomorrow meds dont work shock treatment dont work therapy doesnt work etc sought help enough person severely suicidal depressed least guess ill sitting till time good life best everybody gangsta till daddy issues start talkin time supposed vibing day posting random shit girlfriend fact procrastinate bitch id committed redflag already little psyching reveal feelings towards wish luck boiis snowed much yesterday complaining snowing everywhere live texas yesterday snowedddd much amazing power going hours time coming minutes thanos peen fucken figured large thanos flaccid penis know youre thinking done well allow explain started image picture thanos iron man standing next image exactly needed came directly marvel know certain proportions correct two characters one go actually determining thanos length thats easy need length robert downey jrs penis luckily vague idea large back robert downey jr quoted saying something along lines massive dick feminism joke statement determine one major thing robert downey jr slays women massive peen big massive answer need research taking internet used pixel measurements calculated length many many penises belonged various different porn stars averaged results came inches flaccid average robert downey jr truly massive penis must slightly larger elected round inches next need pixel measurements tony stark image used number calculate many pixels per inch picture came number pixels per inch using number able discover thanos inches tall done horizontal width quick calculations determined thanos approximately times larger robert downey jr proportion hand unthinkable take robert downey jrs length multiply know youre thinking inches thats pathetic think way thats flaccid length now imagine thanos aroused average human penis generally doubles length going flaccid hard means thanos kielbasa likely almost inches fully erect still think small try imagine absolute unit cock shoved tight little ass massive purple rod passionately thrust back forth ripping rectum shreds dont even started cum thought thanos unloading gallons gallons children makes rock hard nothing turns thanos massive inch dick wish shove every hole body want take flaccid dick wrap around neck noose pure ecstasy getting strangled death thanos bad boy probably feel amazing thing make better wasnt circumcised id able peel back foreskin big purple meaty banana id peel back id eat every last particle dick cheese id lick meat flute shiny sticky lubed id let put butt wouldnt hold back time hed fuck hard inside jimmied around amazing hed cum time theres much fills entire body imagine thanos almost finished ravaging butthole unleashed tsunami hot sticky semen body fills ass thanos sex pistol thick wont leak booty keeps releasing eventually starts filling intestines stomach eventually begins quickly flow mouth point im vomiting thanoss cum everywhere im fast enough pressure builds semen starts slowly drip every hole im body dick nose ears even eyes enough thanoss keeps ejaculating hes infinite water source daddy sauce pressure great explode glorious display semen viscera stomach burst open head torso back half torso remains yet somehow survive limbs blown well dick thanos caresses whats left face thick purple hand want keep going thanos says gently okay despite fact windpipes mostly exploded manage say yes thanos nods proceeds kiss passionately lips unsheaths excalibur gently inserts new hole dick used picks im little lump flesh slowly pulls dick attempt make sure new pussy adequate hole upon determining begins violently move nothing fleshlight love life thanos didnt even care little sex pistol cocked fires one last burst cum shot intense slide right blast space million miles hour nickelback begins play rocketed cosmos intense heat thanos semen prevents freezing death back planet fucked thanos quietly whispers quickly shrinking body homo traveled galaxy felt days became caught gravity black hole thanoss semen still keeping alive propulsion wasnt strong enough prevent getting sucked upon reaching black holes event horizon something incredible happened thanos juice ignited exploded explosion eventually resulted formation star upon stars creation launched stars orbit body ripped apart immense gravity sun various parts cast void soul remained attached star formed watched billions years pieces gravitational pulls slowly began attract particles eventually became planets continued watch new solar system eventually third planet saw something amazing watched planets primordial ooze small life form emerged ages watched life evolved grew took much complex form time became species known human human intelligent nearly intelligent enough beings visit humans eventually named referred sol continued watch humans culture developed unil one day film known avengers infinity war released cultural phenomenon although wasnt good objective standpoint humans loved one character love name thanos thanos appeared character earth knew journey complete explain way another part thanos stayed body part eventually became earth result influence seen throughout history came head infinity war thanoss semen gave life entire planet creature repaid ultimate way thanos forever immortalized culture competently written characters one mediocre movies time feel wasted life idk doi feel ive made many mistakes past live life didnt want live unmotivated depressed high school didnt accepted colleges didnt even money goddamn fafsa dont friends closest friends dont even talk properly anymore thats due mixture self isolation drifting apart severe social anxiety talking people work hard feel cant relate coworkers im stuck shitty retail job sadly enough write shift black friday still cant afford even community college dont know want college wtf want major want take life feel help family thinks im im way obligated receive help life events need learn grow feel stuck im constantly relapsing self harm eating disorder many emotions want pretty want liked want fucking dead feel sound crazy crybaby im tired every level possible especially mentally constantly dream happen killed people probably react dont know even care select people sad overwhelming majority forget soon pills roomim supposed die im scared mission dont want situation erratic sleep schedule due highs lows work find solution irregular sleep schedule hate brotheri hate brother much im thinking killing theres food house made hate much want eat anything made ive eating deal depression suicidal thoughts money food eat im thinking killing much hate heart family wtf wrong good reason livemy wife divorcing never much live marriage toxic though screaming matches hurtful words live now nothing really im interested life im looking forward anything ive individual therapy years ive tried tons different medications wife even couples therapy therapist told us help us feel belong anywhere maybe nows good time die finally shaved pp hair feels weird bleeding went instead night might take itim unable find work im outcast family friends constant victim bullying school girlfriend years left reasons given ive attempted im trying hardest hurt options please help anyone wan na join new discord server called boredom unlimited place people wan na play among us fall guys gta fortnight apex minecraft dont members right now join greatly appreciated want stop existingive feeling long time wanting stop existing im really depressed think good life lot people love care idk cant make sense whole situation probably never anything feel living recklessly almost im hoping someone job guess might im really feeling emotions anymore really sure im looking friends wrote bunch interested yo im im kinda lonely shit yada yada wan na meet friends guess interests include video games types preferably good story im always looking someone play smash play basketball stuff im pretty tall art im good heres looks things im years old live canada alberta im single kidding actually im kinda brown hair brown eyes im pretty buff say idk awkward section two awkward personality section thanks todd names todd jesse well people tell im kind person im little bit sad lot bad feel lot lose motivation thats im looking people talk vent maybe play game im kind childish guess marvel lego still read games lot hyped steve smash yea theres im pretty funny idk youd vibe sense humour still im smart suck math socially awkward ive never talked girl really hit anything still think thats cool guess anyway thanks reading hope make friend two id love anyone talk lol anyway bye wan na dip toes animation know animate need something good better good something great something perfect want mention flipnote studio ds somewhere looking back made kid makes want draw okay shower realize towel dog died today dog died kidney failure related old age saw body eyes open said seizures dying feeling shit hate life everytime chance happy always dead end anyone relate bed feeling suicidal usual decided try browse rnihilism know sounds odd hear realisation nothing going matter kind helped bit ability separate feelings thoughts nothing matter end mean never able feel validity happiness ok wander life enjoying die got suicidal spiral minutes oddly proud stop complaining minecraft snapshots geez seriously play survival minecraft snapshot right complain glitches missing features see often absurd realize unfinished update seriously theres posts rminecraft people full diamond tools probably hours spent playing still go duhhh wheres warden cant even die righti tried hanging today scared commit cut belt went little bitch already starting shitty woke damn spider dick fucking spider sluts always want new jersey plan history posting song everyday water dogs day yall probably know song already wanted share cover found well done sans fun watch tame impala let happenhttpsyoutubentjecstru crushing feeling realize never going betterim stuck position never asked due mothers mistakes self destructive behavior ive tried help longer feel come point realize cant help never going better jumping fremont probably logical choice left cant im seeing failure trying bail sinking ship mother continues drill holes confession time seo years ago stuck member toilet full waste nothing works one lefti finished making noose going use high cant even right ive tried medication every method every thing cant take pain anymore im tired sick alone pain one understanding caring need give need need relief ill go sleep ill ill fucking cant stop want hear proof live society pissed nothing came still felt satisfaction fuck america theres lot reasons whyschool year may last school year high school stdent last year country heading back home messed school year weve probably worst grade student years old march make long story short apprntly gr nd gr studs boys girls literally selfharm lik cutting arms legs weeks april one batchmate ended life den next day good friend everyone felt bad month went gloomy everyones sad trying stay connected possble make sure nobody next calling people know depressed suicidal didnt really want start drama look attentions seeker disclaimed need help used open stopped instead open strangers staying anon jonest supposed gone day time vanished wasnt able afford die literally still planning anyway couldnt already bec id looj im looking attention terrified believe happene im back home far away miss im talking abut girl blocked yesterday trying comfort bec boat meaning shes dep idk make sure shes fine dandy den blocked cant really anything miss talking know wrong one things sure gon na third attempt im going make happen around dis week want know feeling sad neverthless still try cheer blue thumbs cant take anymore ik ive said lot times true feel rn genuine question make account amogus quick chat go away pressing matters yo hows hangin whats whats new shalom salutations whats cracking hiya gday ciao goes confided husband feel trapped existence think everyone except son better without needs husband started yelling cussing screaming man grow balls yelled repeatedly leave go away called fucking pathetic even describe alone depressed much worse made things reinforced beliefs useless sad existence confided husband made things even worse hello wanted say want kill school starts august th think need double check going nasty breakup really loved feel way sadly friends talk anymore burden sure going able kill hope find way tell school going rough want nothing going momentnot even sure want see feeling tommorow wake hope deleting post want kill school starts never felt want livei never suicidal ive good life really im days ago lost best friend identical twin sister cant explain kind grief causing feel cant breath always us always together one soul two bodies plenty friends close family half one person never let always back even wrong without im sinking cant live cant imagine future without first got news thought actually die right sadly didnt gave medicine calm cant stay drugs forever cant exist want die want live without really want end lifeis painless way tip iceberg im making survivalhorror game friends need voice actors people use blender people cide c d animators dm questions want invite development server anyone create extremely unlikely scenarios head common one everyone knew suddenly died ill make entire lives head minutes think never happen go life sick man carleton hendricks dee snider cruises teen chat lines captain howdy poses teenage boy invites teens house party instead knocks strips sews mouth closed tortures mostly needles captures daughter cop mike gage kevin gage finds arrests hes institutionalized four years later hes releasedtotally cured lynch mop led amusingly robert englund attack hang die snaps captain howdy backbr br sick disturbing twisted horror film captain howdy enjoys pain torture trying show kids kidnaps enjoy torture scenes explicit hear see see sick theres humor muted screams victims sound way real cringing away tv scenes br br acting varies kevin gage good cophes terrible better dee snider scary captain howdyhis attack scenes pleasantbr br typical horror film ill probably never see film really gets skin recommend horror fansat least strong stomaches give hard time sitting still alone silence around without panic attack thinking selfharmsuicide almost everyday thoughts went mental institutionbut best coping mechanism ignoring trauma anymore coping mechanisms fidget toys journaling whatever really name seem really work still stop thinking self destructiveness coping mechanisms work pretty fast really need help advice controlling thoughts regardless long take coping mechanisms work control negative thoughts crush know im m friends crushes girlfriends yet dont feel sexual attraction fit people really love somebody im happy life told close friend think girlfriend really spend much time girls friends kinda hang bois hang girls know tldr anyone romantically know merry chrysler guess yeah im gon na quietly sit corner definitely feel jealous literally everybody christmas imagine celebrating christmas jus reminder vote elegible world watching please dont give years man steroids thinks coronavirus flu mexican heart breaking see families border starting make driving license now passed start good months cruising around life still sucks planning crash treefuck jobfuck anxietiesfuck society money driving license im sick getting every day getting harder harderhttpiimgurcomogxlurjpg every day shit every day gets harder live know doi firmly want kill keep thinking know thoughts pass absence thoughts feel unsupported scared isolated friends ones understanding problems triggered panic attack someone earlier talking feelings grandad said go home im house im going upset complain things im guessing cos bad blood pressure thought going aampe im physical danger thats probably recommended gp said something things worse redflag ideation crisis call helpline go aampe remember exact words someone online said better call nhs hours ive either sleeping sitting around wondering feel seems messaged best friend asking whether go aampe hours ago hes still responded still feel shitty think im particularly impulsive person ive thought many times actually killing never actually something undo im kind nothing id decided family worth living potential pain worth etc mean im really despairing feel never sufficient help maybe one day decide worth pain loss opportunity im might late anyone help now im making move kill people particularly care many people ill nhs busy makes feel kind cheated though teen threatened section anorexia recall feeling despair desire actually die time want help forced sectioned cos accepted forcefed desperately want help gp surgery literally available appointments every three weeks making emergency appointment aampe thing feel selfish plus cant stand gps even appear diagnosis depression although psychiatrist diagnosed years back say low mood patient summary depressed mood priority severity whatever section suspected uti years back hi im czech republic feel walking edge cliffbroken english allert true depresion anymore sometimes start shaking wan na try drunk lie snow sounds easy really trying mood watching anything entertaining meh keeps coming look train little bub kinda angry cuz even trying social kontakt brain probably protect depresion triggers social anxiety skeletons wardrobe whatever got better even learned act public tried go local nerd comunity nice rich kids idea now one online friend cant go far etc etc fuck want someone years good score staing alive alone hope find poison gon na speep today unlucky love become desperate depressed seeing therapist hurts much alone friends finding gfs experience never even alone girl fucking hurts idk much longer take end want feel womans touch handle loneliness anymore redflagim drunk thinking taking mg alprazolam die tried yesterday mg ended sleeping till afternoon lost live anymore tried calling redflag hotlines india said boy another boy cant marry live together made another mg sadi want cry cant tears left want smile lost ability years ago want dream better life im unable cant even dream im happy know next im litterally holding back tears right now home feel home anymoremy family feel family anymore feel unbearable sadness felt anything genuine years one cares one living gives shit see fake smiles fake people trying live fake lives pretending care cant anymore give find peace thought certainly kill soon anyone felt sameas soon think commit redflag month two start feeling peaceful thinking live long makes anxious made peace death im smart enough know dumb im smart enough fix felt know reason killed girlfriend dogthe reason killed girlfriend dog bare thought leaving alone considering imagine abandoning dog life fucking sucks sucked enough pandemic started even afford pay billsfoodmedication take multiple credit cards borrow money family members last months maxed drive hour away work drive hrs day days week treated absolute shit customers line work quickly drying making half making months ago frugal person never spend money things completely necessaryi see girl one day week puts big strain us thing keeping going barely even see now sent hundreds resumesapplications past months jobs stable paycheckspend time girlfriend gotten interviews amounted anything numerous health problems constant pain dispite midtwentieseveryday holding back constant tears suicidal thoughts anybody words advice similar situationtldr barely afford place live food meds taken good amount debt survive take credit cards constant pain doctors care enough anything reason killed gf dog spend day working exhausting job hate treated shit shit pay fighting back tears suicidal thoughts reason killed gf dog posting picturegif something getting crushed day cousin asks crush day crushed stressballhttpsdiscordcomchannels bothertruly see reason continue living hate hate whats point trying tick every box failure know never really happy im still young dont want waste years life hoping one day happy doubt day come im tired im drained im hurting im weighing options wether id rather die live everyday im still sure much prefer live point negative disadvantage doesnt feel worth try know world absolutely beautiful favors love life hate living makes sense maybe im dramatic become less socially awkward willing ro go friends yeah basically im pretty hesitant lot time go friends negatively influenced set friendships quite lot im looking better area basically summary struggles fears warning longseveral years ago breaking point snapped contemplated months evening different left party family attended earlier went home put favorite piece music basically tried make piece everything committing attempt raised religious family prayed happen quickly painless foremost happen hours later family came home woke knew window passed strength meters away incredibly frustrated first way thought everything next months fears pushed towards moment resolved least invoke panic came believe god prayed make happen held back kept reason relationship belief grew strong huge source hope strenght song listened evening became sort hymn said trust believed saved night next months recovered grew optimistic started enjoy thoughts time think felt advance problems solve dilemmas saw constantly one one one day stumbled upon piece music touched whole level never experienced swore never listen song find one waiting yes kind superstitious weirdo believing god one true love want end life way able commit anything without remembering thought ultimately living waiting day listened song always perfect hurdle every suicidal thought toppling moment emerged subconscious least used months lost lot connection belief months stand alone thoughts happy temporarily soon moment subsides emptiness gnawing feeling takes place one things numb video games dont think anything playing perfect break self loathing amount people manage thing decreased drastically making gaming important dont know happened stand anymore dont know thoughts turned dark void dont know friends loving family make feel wanted alone opposite incredibly lonely time now lost energy even play games refuge gone inching closer closer listening song want hear badly crave someone share inner nature someone mend stories almost given promise gave mother years ago told incident feel binding anymore god saved last time might able song keeps alive moment afraid afraid terrified might happen snap put song live bad ending story thought back thinking dark ending possible make bright ending triumph worth wait dont know might happen think reason wrote post make clear close breaking point naive anymore another attempt spoiled naive lack knowledge anatomy terrified afraid sure turn know happen cant connect family friends help hope find solution strenght breaks im ashamed amwhen became truly depressed first time went public school finished grade part time job realized life hard need learn fall nothing prepare state mind ended way people towards structure western society appeal experiences peers school adults parents teachers made miserable dint want grow things expected didnt want took bike one night rode part town theres lots homeless drug users founds one buy oz rum liquor store rode back across town favorite place near river drank bottle tryed open wrist enough bleed ended passing drink pain lots crying beforehand next day hot day mid summer sun high soo dehydrated barely move sun cooking open hours didnt river close im pretty sure died dehydration minor amount blood loss later tried back bike go home made back road lost conciseness moment feel ditch side road filled black berrys someone driving road saw fall managed pull family devastated learn done rushed hospital soon got home police already talking parents spent rest day hospital vomiting river water talking blood samples years ago now last night lost drivers licence third probably final time pretty much destroys future career plans little self esteem life feels nightmare everything wanted avoid killing happend worse imagined even things going good theres piece missing cant happy shut world friends girl idea happy theres something clearly wrong im good looking well mannerd young man family loves supports way live im clearly ungratefull peice shit dont deserve family ive caused soo much pain years thought hurting thing thats stoping another attempt dont think im going make anymore cant man want cant even take care anymore videos inert gas bag redflagsjust curious anyone knows videos people killing inert gas bags want see theres something wrong melike mentally forgive ive never posted anything may rambling anything ive suffered depression highschool senior college now ive kept pretty good handle time push past let control years thought recently considered ending now think part im supposed tell hardships ive rough life thats thing difficult anyone elses grew family loved everything needed close group friends job genuinely love high career field girlfriend loves unconditionally hell times im kinda conceded want know someone please tell fucking fantastic life want end always something back mind ive always brushed bad day weak lately impulse stronger find going normal day seemingly reason think went home today frustrating wanting end life apparent reason stupid hate selfish stupid cant help realize probably means theres something mentally wrong even know see therapists expensive im living college budget thing scares think reason done anything yet mom one person world say truly care remeber girlfriend earlier paper perfect find hard care anyone another frustrating point think much hurt mom pretty much keeps anything rash passes im trily afraid anything left keep grounded im sure even makes sense ive never really told anyone putting pretty much everything bunch strangers forgive lack organization thats mind works im really sure decided post really rough lately guess help little chest know im alone cant talk anyone devastating family knew feel none friends understand mention hard time connecting people anyway guess thats story know holy shit itfuck close took looking th floor window open parents problems now idea life going look future im sure gon na better im glad chickened depression feelingshi diagnosed major depressive disorder year ago psychiatrist therapist still gotten better changing next week see better lately made big mistake bored much life unable enjoy anything regretfully turned porn feel even worse feel even guiltier looking types things condition gotten worse made bad suicidal thoughts feel absolutely disgusted thoughts increasing frequency advice now thanks knee surgery tomorrow story tell warning terrible storyteller tldr top grapefruit brain falls skateboard cripple backstory live west coast oregon town popular set skate hills go two row one smooth barely used road result group go daily gotten new board wheels crew theres james reckless kid shake broken thigh bone wyatt interesting one balls anything alex gf time fateful day gone hill bike friend well call james goes hill longboard daily without us one day feeling pretty good new wheels decide stop pssy go hill soon kick know theres getting ride halfway hill im time life feelings lightning mcfuckingqueen decide raise arms celebration head everything goes wrong lift hands head start wobbling inch still wobbling time im way hill wobbling gradually got worse worse worse im going feet across road point realize option jump theres ditch left concrete right make obviously sensible decision jump straight traffic im falling remember rotate jumped result im flying feet ground going mph sideways good impact completely terrible time sure hell hurt now forgot mention friends top hill see entire time saw dumb ass grapefruit brain collapse wyatt started riding hill safely see badly im fucked point try stand shake cant anything left leg tried flex spazzed went limp friends arrived one called mom lifted field side ditch point know im screwed know badly yet anyways time goes im screaming ground everything hurts eventually mom comes lift car go home take ibuprofen sleep fo hours cut now found torn acl im getting surgery friday months recovery time wish luck reddit ill try keep updated anyones interested oh yeah ps walk everything now hurts lot lot worse left untreated bruh im playing friday night funkin middle online class im feeling pretty good yea thats post nothing got notif scrolling thought text nope phone telling left im lonly im aloneso know im suicidal im definitely feeling self destructive kind long story ill try ramble guaruntees months ago got fired job everybody promised try make feel better imediately started talking problems including girl ive head heels love years well call telling new guy shed seeing dick dated months year ago never really got days later nobody really even tried talk whats going life forgot play fortnite together every often chat nobody really even talked got new job people incredibly verbally abusive started going back college stress really getting every chance escape stress disappeared thin air last second last hope little stand alone date suggested well started dating new guy well call t go way back dated last year due drama life basically cut destroyed spent almost entire past year helping feel better wanted back best friend hate see depressed eventally started t started seem old self weeks ago comes back starts getting close insisted theyre friends still worried cut labor day weekend really good mood decided ask stand alone date said maybe knew immediately making happy asked het date started telling bad idea never seen go dark place willing admit im jealous concerned well last night feeling really dumps drunk saw online xbox send party invite sends text sorry brought xbox date morning saw online opened messages sent last night knew date friends assume stayed night immediately got jealous upset im feeling whirlwind emotions first even know stay last night know matter want happy cant help sad want find happiness im terrified gon na heart broken terrified wont know feels way worst case scenario gets heart broken help pick peices best case finds happiness end watching relationship always wanted girl dreams know sound incel im understand friend entitle anything know want theres nothing hurts none friends talk much sometimes actually tell theyre hanging without one least pretends care best friend girl dreams hate im jealous upset even though genuinely want happy cut life ill nobody talk im stuck knows long im stuck rock hard place help women even give time day need help im sorry long need talk somebody tldr life started going bad exgirlfriend girl dreams dating guy ruined love love life friends even remotely close friend mine needs helpa friend mine steam recently talking lot killing deeply concerns believe serious problem clue real life information know go helping talk much reassure people included honestly care know really help beyond someone please tell im okayim okay havent okay year dont want suffer anymore want end pain yall wan na go id personally went nice comfortable restaurant cuddle guys random facts bad things ive done stash vodka room dont smoke drugs im good girl stolen cheated lied cheating lied teacher face times tped schools bathroom th grade arrested jail station hours got fined dollars swimming ocean got ears pierced without asking parents mad idk tho continue masturbating shower mom taking door smoked didnt idk think im donei think ill keep going nice go talking someone ones doooowap doowap dont know post hi guess reaching limit ive turned yesterday im double college dropout redflag intentions ive normal cute kind rather shy kid friends one best friend hes alongside childhood simon lets call probably greatest partner remember countless hours playing football picking cans bottles crap money exchange enough play metal slug near video arcades everything fine th year elementary school started selection fit boys newly made sport class managed grave mistake probably first chapter failure life started gradually spent less less time simon probably least athletic even weakest new environment nightmare ive bullied ridiculed psychically abused new classmates even one friend class change classes stay peace bullying period effects considering whats going happen yes probably ive avoiding pe costs graduation moved city even properly bid farewell simon seen totally change environment turned tremendous task used new people ive afraid go school ive crying fear bed holidays somehow managed accommodate still remained background ive avoiding people much possible thought whole race fucking dumb shallow human body mind complicated yet repeating patterns simpleminded every girl cunt liking shitty music haircut fighting grades drinking smoking describe boys similar way ive never good anything never shown sign talent anything interested considerable degree anything games anime two ive spent life kinda bearable though ive going school immediately spent rest time computer kind peace everything somehow stable went worth note grades awful ive barely passing classes try better turn back time hated every possible subject english native language simply learned playing games something started change first faced reality real problems grades possibility repeating year top noticed everyone copy paste pile meat individuals really great talents simply famous way envied guys darkest depths yet ignored world computer thats started maladaptive daydreaming lie hours music imagine famous guy stage playing guitar drawing simply one talented tried turn daydreaming reality started playing guitar never devote seriously ended knowing chords intros coming back gaming mid school ive struggling subjects repeat year somehow succeed end games nothing mattered graduation somehow terrifying found scared even going signing high school everyone happily going pack friends go mum go school bus first time life trembling thought able ignore everything knowing come back home room found completely hidebound compared peers seeing peers living friday drunk gross parties vision humans worthless shitheads extended ive started hate everyone dumb interests someone partner envy towards talented guys turned hate towards every person even good grades anything become better anything nothing liked besides playing games came moment want alone going school getting harder harder without anyone least talk decided friends everything ive done towards goal total failure started accepting cigarettes people around coughing even vomiting days passed laughing vomiting smoke ceased accepted vodka classmate ive never tasted alcohol underestimated amount shit possibly drink felt nothing first first step break happened immediately started swaying trying hide people around ended drunk saying shit front class think teacher knew drunk pay attention knew bit failure milestone started feeling strange pain chest regularly ive started taking anti depressants ssri shit ive trying quite time wake seeing games real much time ive devoted ive tried pick guitar ive even tried drawing writing voice acting programming nothing really turned tides games able ease pain wanted spend every bit time room never wanted come back school started go school middle lessons last grade ended subjects presence repeat half year geography history ive getting prescribed stronger stuff nothing worked cheating crying mothers assistance managed pass subjects graduation choose college good english ive chosen english philology place study far place big city thought maybe open place become bit independent failed got prescribed another needless ssri velaxin pills day sign somewhere upon pressure family started afraid work couldnt imagine giving half day work ridiculed boss afraid failing signed class fucking class ive waiting execution left bed last weeks holidays started thinking talented passionate something early years even liked anything spend time bullies look envy envied link passion job ended daydreaming whole days passionate successful living game time came go school forget world made head found listen music anymore hearing someone good something making hitting head seeing hearing lorde age star early years caused pain burn chest thought hey end class good job maybe work game designer first day college ive holding tears whole day math physics overwhelmed know thinking dumb understand things mention even remember anything high school chest pains getting stronger know going leave college yet bear thought going work month two passed come back college ended kind hikikomori started cutting shaved head realised much failure day noticed people age driving licenses linking work education even getting married ive trying harm every possible way bear thought lorde ed sheeran leto anyfuckingone shit behind great lives talents passions money hitting real happy smiling look sky breath easily knowing achieved something something saw facebook bullies rappers clubs saw classmate highschool model ad tv ive heard one cousins getting degree one got offer study abroad ve heard brother year college working director company laughing girlfriend looked naked samaralike pose bald cutted thigh still obese despite eating less remember anything think head started hurt thinking whats going happen cant anything ended psychiatric night passed sleep hospital obscure saw people want veins dots amount blood taken fucking clue resigned shortly possible head doctor confront fucking cunt mention wait mum ouy see much fucking trash months passed ive tried anything never ive running learning piano tried programming read tons bodybuilding sites bought weights barbell tried drawing end place crying old times peacefully play games crying old friends totally alone many years everything pitiful attempt become something selfish thinking successful people theyve training hard lived problems struggle everything try learn learn guitar end labor anyway programming may actually work cant understand simplest things fatiguing makes head hurt simply dumb everything hard redflags happen people never fall love anything theres nothing keep alive anyway billion people earth counting amount people lived past big competition money lies fist truly rule world right now cant even level peers anymore im tired world hard equipped tools help begin pain ass everyone around im dropping falling apart m feel numb dreamed going college years worked hard earned enough scholarships move away paid go school cant anymore though ive anxious sleep deprived year pushed point considered redflag almost every day top never sign one online class hit unbreakable wall trying adapt week ive laid husband hours severely cut mother drug addict another city feel terrible alone medical conditions job support quarantined crack house lives left stopped paying mortgage electricity turned feel better son stayed help things happened help fix dreams left pursue dying feel even worse today emailed financial aid office trying begin withdrawal process see need pay back aid leaving university grandma died less years ago mother cared died cancer hospital bed home held hand died wanted go college badly disappointed tried hard im unhappy decision hard feel failure disrespected legacy feel human nothing purpose value direction neverending heaviness chest anxiety come peak day feel deserve live consume resources especially longer job plans continue college ive let grandma physically hurts suicidal years never never felt hopeless lost forgettable social distancing never leaving apt husband still job works hard support us adds feelings laziness worthlessness want escape feelings lowest low know go stupid fights siblings em one suck sometimes youre right sometimes youre wrong sometimes person right times theyre wrong one fight sibling youll remember forever anyone feel world ending someone leaves friend years told want want friends want end life amazing replaceable left depression makes worthless found woman looks even name therapist tells obsessive egotistical got new therapist says deluded never loved need decide let go love call closest every day think truly point living every day wake confront fact alone go away nobody wants broken thingssometimes think hidden maybe things better right honest deserved know worthless wore shirt bought date girl name scripting subtle comedy unmatched movie recent years characters interesting even bit predictable comedic timing written script enough make wellworn underdog plot sure know endingsurprise highly recommended ages although younger set probably appreciate subtle references certainly appreciate one galley scene particular great movie tell people care love themi questionable shit last post now behavior getting increasingly impulsive worse plans see psychiatrist talk meds see june murica problem know ill around basically wrote redflag note hours ago start things feel x y impulse start acting without feeling im completely gone part want risk want ask case need know tell people care love want know case anything happens later hell even nothing still want know think im attemptim tired many movies around given feeling stardust throughout course film magically fairytalelike princess bride stardust definitely wonderful fantasy spectacle s well s exciting hilarious equipped wonderful imagery well unforgettable characters michelle pfeiffer robert deniros especially challenge anyone watch movie without smile first ten minutes film know perfectly well end journey destination enthralls viewer start finishbr br ten stars decimal less line texts crush sent blocked number im done trying date people context texted morning weve best friends year half now rumors started friend group said liked happened name ew say sorry youre type really dont proceeds delete first text proceeds text gc picture text well prior one gc name send text guys asked hang today think might rape gc proceeds kick minutes later figured lying simply said texting someone gc privately whole time fucking god third time ive tried date someone first one using bait someone second one moved montreal without telling anyone one day hate non binary people mean binary people exist chest hurts maybe got back long run never asked borni bring people dont deserve live dont want anyway cant even remember last time genuinely happy feel nothing pain carry living im somebody missed decent qualities dont want upset anyone stop getting close people selfish know im going kill sad news kitten posted died morning made post cat getting first kitten cat got already dead one completely fine morning woke everything normal saw kitten dead days old rest peace every time buckle make new throwaway account one responsegood metaphor everything shit festival called life even emotional point goddamn irritating tf hv live want avail services life offers want companionship others well want dead done better later less collateral damage trynna every single one trying stop already tired enough please go prefer nothing instead anything anyway end rant w h comes stepping back edgeive ive blades hand foot pressed hard pedal jug whatever front ive back dark place many times always take step back find nothing keep hearing lines gets better x religionhobbymusical helped pet dont see cant seem understand much right people dont know putting gun back case someone look eye eye mirror must something wrong nothing left longer flinch idea something control ending things question simply recover deaths door pointthats really dont whats point living struggle compete life end everyone nothing bother single mom children one weeks old realised point life contemplating redflagmy waiting marriage knew much commitment god means anniversary things got hand went far stopped seconds knew wrong spent hour bathroom crying keeps trying say fault mine shouldve stopped fucking promised never make break promise god fucking anyway almost driving work morning swerved back lane last second pathetic waste life im really sure posted feel kill somebody able know im gon na start showing give fuck anymore frustrating want show worked hard accomplish called showoff care want attention praise sugarcoating anymore haha wanted talk didnt know talk im ranting reddit throughout life havent lot friends initially never really bothered time went felt really lonely tried making friends things didnt work one talk kept issues self kept emotions buried feel time went emotions pent manifested toxicity thats insatiable need attention need feel loved cause didnt first placethis led stupidoutrageous stuff really regreti feel one friend stuck things lot different course dont blame anyone take full responsibility actions feel one constant id become person rn fuck lifei know horrible person difficult understand absolutely hate idk might fucking crash wall fuck shit today last day earthtoday last day existence last time close eyes last silence ive looking long time solution nuisance seems obvious monotony today im wearing shirt tie im going go work im going give damn goodbye cruel world already late cant go back rope already tightening neck leap towards deliverance able stop least please look sky next time think know suicidal feelings probably result trauma modern life capitalism sucks definitely parent making feel deserve existence definitely case aware solve anything feel unable heal feel move feel tired go young living want dad tell loves pushed away want play xbox want hang want help pay doctor help figure going inside mind mom abused bad want go running ruined relationship fix afraid fix want ex hold pushed away want never hurt important friends life late want become better singing bring disciplined enough practice want workout feel want good job always fucking boss present thinks mediocre want okay feel ready okay used absence caos feel trying better trap feel mothers abuse started moment decided conceive killing actually rebelling maybe fact still suffering without justice exactly wants stop feeling much pain soul tired go want fixed wan na relationship kids cant die anytime actually care abouthow long keep question answer time people actually fake cancer relationships internet points low person percent people lie according bruh fuck mods title length requirements cant mean lady thighhigh boots dom smh smh life sucks fuck capitalism really need someone talk toim high school senior dealing lot really need someone talk give advise ive thinking lot ending hoping something better comes side im much wuss got boyfriend lives texas im canada well im pretty bored yeah lets small chat im anything regular well crush cuddled feel happy invited house kinda watched youtube movies taught play basketball went inside vibe jumps lap dont many outlets express emotions tell family friendshi im new subreddit hope im right im really glad exists im sure anyone actually see need anyway really difficult type know tell family friends recent suicidal tendencies juggle life school work lately getting lately antidepressants working feels im taking avoid withdrawal effects think contributed recent suicidal thoughts nearly every day ive contemplating redflag even go know tell people care ive therapist helped depression anxiety stuff barely talked redflag tldr tell friends family reach help want feel burden need help sorry jumbled confusing know properly considering redflag stillhi feel bit scared really know react mostly age im turning year im scared told spoiled brats know nothing world life thats really need id leave opinion want know outsider view even know start hah ive treated depression winter getting better worse actually ive therapists first one got antidepressants later overdosed end january along painkillers obviously im still second therapist slightly better always wanted find reason im depressed anxious rather trying solve problems ive seeing months got hospital self harming happened times april realization know everything starts make sense put together likeah told therapist transgender started looking realized felt childhood justknew something wrong turned started female puberty gender dysphoria caused self esteem go caused end depression anxiety disorders happy realized wanted helped presenting masculine cool another realization lgbt friendly religious high school even realizing fact lgbt school much depression got much worse half term left school first terms october went cool art school right now people supporting use chosen name treat guy wish mom number one supporter best everything help nonetheless im really bad depressive episode hate body wish live cis girl without almost breaking crying everytime see hear country start hormone therapy years almost cant take totally lost point life cant see anything matters know ill always stranger body feel sound traumatizing write really looks people asking dick much thats problem mate one feel freak normal cant accept everyone around nice even think treating girl keep feeling deserve anyone anything good think much less anyone world know future focus much look know well im barely give slightest fuck look lesbian years old little boy much feel people think see joke biggest goal life find love kids bunch dogs think ill find someone makes everything pointless want love want loved feel im worthy anyones love time school make anything easier im absent lot go therapy every simply cant bed step house see reflection start crying im exaggerating wish id see fucking size shoes go back bed cry im still still going reason feet height rd grader binding chest way long even sleeping cant want feel kind fuxkery itd end crying cry sleep everynight know pathetic ive really thinking end weeks days im okay okay reality really isnt think im even living anymore feels im watching fucked movie someone making torture want hurt family theyve lot already made loose daughter loved dearly im daughter never everything hurts lot want go away failureso somewhat long apoligize story much different age decided wanted cook college carpentry becauae know men family useful im nerd im gamer im enthusaiastic types things play acoustic guitar fairly well friends rely everything mother stepfather cats age reevaulated life never carpentry job working kfc coffee shop eb games years marine cooking work cook sea first real job canadian coast gaurd hazing ritual refuse acknowledge hazing bullied taunted til point hazing walked away much anxiety built point people saying hazing ia sexual things dropping us overboard arctic water sling lock door put something people cant pour water night typea taunts walked aeay coworkers chased cooler workspace cornered demanding go saying everyone elae ia ur pussy u dont go physically handled trying make go yelled tears eyes fuck telling im job put bullshit next day captain ushered mw come mess hall officers humiliate present half document ripped front said compltleting ritual took picture forced shake hand laughed point im mockery odd crew laughing stock pussy told bad attitude attitude developed happened courwe attitude im bullied humiliated stuck almost days never got justice process trying settlement sue theyve ignored years fucked bad gained ton weight lbs years later surprisingly atill work sea ships hate nothing skills live mom arthritus step dad basically cuz failure launch n know id dead broke wasting time im alleviating bills biding time moved away months friend met cooking school knew yeara turna big narcassist drank amoked dope house whatever always friend laying board games one day feela need quit drinking smoking holier thou ao tella im allowed beer joint even outside ita disrespectful trying better turned thia loat hjs mind got us evicted landlord said telling us bullshit hypocrit aince fine one day next gf time fought brought ahit hr celebrating birthday except weeks fact already done im allowed upstairs house make noise friend smoke drink betrayed went batshit crazy us got home messaged saying wanted kill ao told girlfriend cheating good ex best friend hates hates tried fuck one night honorable hindsight wish really nice albeit broken mentally extremly hot league anyway ended moved home bringing new kittena cats love cats ash baby jax ollie bullied high school usual mom til pop drunk hated mom uncle made fun far back aa remember child essentially eatranged moms family hate us hate mom broke gambling problem yeara high school dont invited family things back work thing ive dealt good bad people becauae first work experience enthusiasm toward going work dont talk personal life dont add people facebook im job dont want friends gruff tough type people dont understand emotion hardened life sea generally talk pretty lewd angryily last year got stuck year exconsexual assault robbery forgery fraud domestic violence assault deadly weapon ties hells angels blah blah blah usual told atories held ppl gunpoint robbed young guy gas station split head open bat got away frienda abslducted guy house put bag head held gun head beating something wasnt business started getting scared guy drugs work coke percocets smoking weed drinking heavily messaging passed go drugs himi got uncomfortable around started messaging calling everyday time hes years older making excuses hang go back nd trip hes showing lot aggressiona anger toward crwq left days becauae itfastforward months new ship new company better job better payharassed bullied relentleasly year old thought best putting taunting throwing buss qnd humiliating verbally front entire crew noticed told put complaint backfired longer able work boat senority month later got fucking promoted boats left company way less chance employment now im rd ship ive battling harassment xmas crap thinking redflag daily months even saying loud life spiraled control dont tolerate anger arguing loud voices taunting bullying kind now hours boat cook ia yelling arguing apparently boat special doesnt follow sqme guidelines know something right way unless told something wrong instead telling respectful manner yelled asking retorical questions make feel stupid kept liatening saying ok ok ok goes atop saying ok staring idiot use fucking head hours later return break mins early except mins late tell know job drscription break times tella im full ahit im wrong says domt give fuck boata im fucking boss say becauae youre boss doeant mean right says gon na problem arent respond yeah started morning alao blamed mess made play stupid back yelled brek thing said tomorrow youll chimed goes say say said thats break ends goes ballistic walk away tears eyes confirm captain hr job duties break times right fuck guy except knots stomach im crying front captain years oldthe pattern disrespect bullying led feel everything fault im blame everything im leaving day turning thousand dollars options put bullshit fired losing go home lose money intolerance bullshit know chances gone fullyime wouldve came around another months id making taxes year insane bonuses benefits go home parents whove grown used failure im making miserable becauae im miserable cant bed shower week maybe im performance issues last ladies lucky enough drag bar might unemployment cuz im leaving though im trying got union involved put formal complaint first ship thia company union rep saod contact anytime bad feelinga theres emotional fallout mental issues harassment home til crapim praying layoff fired quit roe cant afford broke itll take til find suitable jobless time easier workload hopefully solo charge mom dies ill alone kill know tomorrow go home im going straight bed dark know cant face even know left pritct mental health ill still failure women reddit friends say right hit girl think tell best motivational line im depressed want hear best motivational line want canceryes know upset many people understand runs family id never wish anyone except really pray soon got girlfriend best happier ps see emma profile page never thought id might need think need helpim gon na go whole story cause lot put shortly years ago mom moved college dad fight caused years take still year pharmacy school think going crazy going mental keeps wanting move doesnt dad cant make damn decision im scared im going start cutting going hurt ways know anyone tell im crazy im going fine cause know anymore tomorrow nights nightmy last therapy appointment phone tomorrow owe guess owe family useless gesture date local bridge pavement quarantine highlighted everything wrong riches luxuries world still enough flesh human body much cant fucking stand everything wrong flesh wrong want gone cast shell meat free crushing dread expectations fucking hate world want anywhere want anyone im tired living fleeting distractions next video game episode movie temporary anaesthesia gaping wound thats festering decade know im maybe im crazy im tired disappointing people im tired body much ampxb im sorry mom im sorry dad wanted good partner going leave abused push everyone away supposed accept continue notredflag know nothing normal relationship even know now trusting women families tell want call names hurts know live normal person kid wanted love everyone fucked know fuck lost pit never going escape therapy emdr scared live scared trust people damn tired feel hurt people suffered abuse especially kids fuck people hurt us want anymore nothing makes sense wish friends watch anime uwu thought movie good read real story behind based true story movies anyone know names locations real characters movie based done complete internet search find information case movie information fact based true story find hard believe judge change sentence rendered immediately courtroom even heartfelt speech brother gorgeous john corbett overall story gripping anyway anyone knows real real story appreciate sharing tw suicide self harmampxbampxbampxbampxbhi really need help friend recently making lot jokes suicide today confirmed plan means carry friend self harms currently week clean often says knows last parents emotionally manipulative neglectful according aware cutting nothing seen therapists claims made things worse us years old seem want help said one day might wake gone issues suicidal thoughts triggering hear suicidal thoughts struggled past talk want said text screenshots told know really afraid please help friend actively suicidal rejection hurtsi applied job school lowpaying great experience leadership position look good resum interview went great opinion girl conducted interview told sure id job unfortunately interviewer one hiring passed notes hirer unfortunately previous contact lady hiring aware mental illness selfharm previous redflag attempts got rejection email job today vaguely stated lacked necessary skills job may sound ridiculous cant shake feeling perhaps hired lady charge hiring want crazy person staff team threatened back october selfinjury continued ask leave residence may looking deep reason still rejection hurts desperately wanted position knowing part reason scars wrist hurts even thoughts anyone wan na chat talk literally anything im bored fuck maybe little horny probably sleeping rn sleep weak things cook read philosophy listen unhealthy amount music love left keeps threatening break parents killed cat friends left im alone gym thinking deathyah fucking week love life keeps threatening break hes mad dont know career want even hes mad wont sahm mom recently went killed cat wasonly years old said tired hair getting everywhere put sleep im college min away found one told clean house go guess friends left called girl egotistical rant better everyone life ive depressed years now keeps getting worse socially thought worst fall got raped brutally family friend nope god damn thoughts want end im going end im going write big fuck letter everyone know laughing dead grave everything hardi feel overwhelemd feel every single day cant handle cant handle emotionally unstable cant handle forcing go work school pretend fine cant stand im tired despicable rotten personthere multiple reasons want end life reasons want end life want end girlfriend fight constantly rejected every job apply im stuck current one unable circle debt self loathing may big part hate way hate way treat others hate treat ive tried change seek help therapy unaffordable right tbh straw broke camels back glasses broke today didnt super glue tape wasnt working work home tried find something put back together couldnt harmed girlfriend broke glasses broke qas stressed qhen text say saying fucked yep felt care one really genuinely cares anyways unless something thinking drove edge harmed graduated high school years ago done nothing life years planet feel despicable rotten failure never hole im may well lie die told whole life better fucking doesnt nothing gets fucking better fuck anyone says lying updatei built enough courage sit front campfire family try guess much try guess much ill yes thing already know somethings comment fun want live anymorelife absolutely shit gf away week emotional support people constantly insult school outside school im btw cant deal anymore want alive longer rejected disney college programhi everyone got rejected disney college program broke heart much feel worthy anymore now give keep trying even though sent nudes past apps cant make deal disney employers something movies viewed almost years later yet remain engrossing one technological advances dated classic love story special effects used remarkable movie acting superb david niven kim hunter especially roger livesey outstanding job use black white color adds creative nature movie seen television years people even aware existence favorite movie time waiting hoping dvd release movie many years matter life death got diagnosed alopecia areata ive lost almost hair bodyim medication ive pouring steroid lotion scalp along fenastopic fenasteride spray mix miserable used depressed anyway gay dad many others spoke gays suicidal thoughts long time gay im look every time try push pushed back much cant keep pushing need life back please help first let say notorious absolutely charming film lovingly rendered time subjects gretchen mol utterly painfully convincing soul contradictions smoothly reified ms page irving paula klaw richly drawn workingclass stiffs met paula movie star news say lili taylors performance unimpeachable jared harris john willie coutts adoringly debauched genius anyone interest recorded history american attitudes toward sexuality must see movie theater preferably votes made dollars count morebr br second allow producer material similar klaws become famous way affects estimation ms harrons work splendid piece condition view notorious act political resistance first order ms harron crafted work subtle subversion along v vendetta movie another time timesbr br readers site aware government see enacted notorious transcription words uttered closed senate committee hearings close approximation one live right now ms harron expressly disallows political agenda appended film faithfulness facts respectful unsensational way renders synchronizes notorious present day acts notorious portrays loving accurate detail defined obscene communications decency act recently brought supreme court first amendment case turned back behest bush administration words delicate ineffectual bondage depicted notorious indictable today federal prosecutors whatever hostile jurisdiction choose course hearings senate elsewhere matter cda passed course know nothing want people peoria telling look likewise people peoria probably want telling theyre allowed view course notorious never indicted hollywood lawyered countless klaws will continue steamrolled puritanical bureaucracy advanced aesthetic moral biological composition much yearsbr br addition notorious posts usc compliance statement mandated unnoticed earmark recently voted law media contains images sadomasochistic restraint required make available ex warrant records age circumstance performers notorious fails regard alsobr br addition splendid piece entertainment nearly accurate historical document notorious litmus bush justice department judged respect th equal protection amendment perhaps several constitutional grounds regard alone debt gratitude owed mary harron grateful case constitutional see film tf tell parents im dating older guy years parents hard time accepting dating someone older couple months know im dating someone cause mother went pc read damn discord messages theyre asking questions raceageheightwhat etc really dont know tell age cause even gen im mad sad dont know friend moved kicked told stay till enough money move hasnt even full week lived brought gf sleep queen bed ready go bed room sitting outside currently havent slept work im pissed breaking hate life cant fix keep something broken aroundi eat sleep cant talk people every day feel anxiety depression crushing want go im sick isolated toaster make toast keep throw away something works everything shit life done better somebody think im finally going go start process buying pistol work hopefully weekend go mountains nobody find finally stop burden rights gone basically thanks fucking trump amywhogivesashit go onim gon na lose protections lesbian partner state health insurance vote gut affordable care act nov im moms aca protected im adult im chronically ill ill die anyway ill another close call ovarian torsion bc im estrogen keeping cysts bay ill fucking die bye bye estrogen keep going life going suck im literally gon na wait long dad fucking dead treated fucking human cant shit im fucking sad feel torn apart inside cant stop scrolling social media imagining partner fucking dying hospital covid aca gutted go fuck live enough drugs house kill memy parents found ive cutting isolated friends really want kill itd easy drugs drunk take id dead weird thought guiltless redflagis normal want guiltless redflag normal want destroy relationships everyone confidently say nothing lose normal question things much im scared ill kill myselfso suffering depression social anxiety sense im lately overwhelmingly bad point im scared one day something happen trigger commit redflag want know something trigger one day month year even week snap lately urge getting stronger im afraid ill go leave everyone love behind help aha think episode bionic blonde thought movie great storyline portrayed greatly excellent cast read drew barrymore exceptional josie geller beautiful yes maybe movie played outside brought plain girl searching world story sweet definitely hopeless romantics sure david arquette mad brother rob michael vartan gorgeous sam coulson leelee sobieski excellent job mate aldys someone afraid think movie credit rather branded teeny boppy flick say yeah another parka appreciation post cause almost love parka romance sometimes cause parka wont leave gives cuddles please kill mei need help need help need help need help need help cant stop crying cant anymoe feel head going explode please help im far broken rape dont think ill recover thathow fuck even continue trying forgive someone loved im done inability start fights white supremacists nazis probably killed someday honest day comes im gon na keep calling little bitches killed due insulting way better killed due queer quit job letting time run goodbye year lefthi ive posted roffmychest think plan commit redflag next year ive already organized stuff went quit job stopped showing savings now im spend last days people care thats quit silently say farewells thing people really care know understand always thought depression cured movie eating getting drunk laid already finalized im counting days finishing bucket list know anyone felt suicidal feels emotionally almost bad terminal illness say almost possibly completely equate two imagine lot things know exact date ill die know im waiting ive fortunate enough years living ive experienced many things found adventure feel old man looking back past nostalgia time days end felt ive lived enough lifetime im end sadness much damn much cant even think rationally normal peoples standards anymore think ill die happy thats ive wanted long time now anyone wanting commit redflag felt redflag feels going home im crazy know planned one first color films seen cinema child good remember girl liz taylor later became beautiful woman starred together tiny excellent actor mickey rooney content film plot good ages good wills behavior good ethics velvets parents particularly mother something take account generations well educated film may help purpose velvet loves horses racing mi taylor rooney brought international horse racing competition england end young velvet won disqualified female feel bad cant pass way idk want cry time feeling literally kills slowly feel really angrythis feeling destroys meeee seriously enjoyed watching movie first time years ago whenever gets aired somewhere luckily happens time time european cable television experience thing im moved entertained end wishing movies onebr br deals leo kevin mckidd group friends living urban london leo gay guy follows friend hilarious new age mens group falls straight guy brendon played dashing james purefoy turns straight thrown side characters equally great tom hollander hugo weaving whose side story alone worth watching movie simon callow leader mens group turning great performance really hard pick folks every character female ones jennifer ehles julie grahams harriet walters well exquisitely acted maybe even kevin mckidd looks little pale compared coactors benefits somewhat subdued characterbr br idea behind movie simple one never black white classifications difficult may always stand test timebr br leo identifies gay ends falling woman well turns teenage sweetheart brendons long time girlfriend brendon starts straight gets learn gay may option bisexual might bad darren jeremy hollander weaving gay loving even straight folks movie angie leos female roommate fair share love funny moments end movie comedy bitsespecially tom hollander whos hilarious funny point emotions believable confusing may appear times reading summarybr br movie genuinely notredflag notion whether gay straight bisexual simply sure movie leaves feeling okay sure sure might something worth living well sexuality portrayed fluid movie none main characters seem real problem apart gaystraight camp fights sometimes fed gay themed movies wholeheartedly agree subtext movie feel certain one day think identify gay straight whatever look different another never seen call bisexuality maybe absence segregating need sexual classification portrayed heartwarming true life manner br br movie dares going movies go gay straight movies playing labels stereotypical assumption sex relying goes assumes may life sex wellknown classifications think times ready movies exploring postmodern themes one br br others care heck funny comedy worth watching rainy saturday evening popcorn hands give trybr br loved another shit year coming right upwhy fuck even bother staying alive end finally done everything theres lots competent people replace existence anyways ive lost social skillshigh school slowly drained emotion social skills find impossible keep conversation people ive known whole life im honestly awkward person know embarrass repeatedly throughout day dont care anything anymore grades proof options high school humiliatingly limited sad dont even see good enough reason pursue involved anything dont want im lost dont think take anymorei didnt think sink lower heart broke completely dont think go long hate life hate everything nothing going right top everything im sure got broken person important person entire life think ill start self harming see leads need helpi suicidal past year hidden away everyone feel ruin lives closest people parents say leaving never coming back want die even mom told drop dead wishes born said wish go live javier ex boyfriend controlled selling drugs said said going live said give fuck think care happened rushing go walmart thinks going rain waiting cross highway said standing said highway expect hit started telling die wish never stared wearing shoes creasing fit small feet said wear shoes creasing got mad went home went bathroom opened pill bottle loratadine mg put hand slowly raised hand mouth started bawling eyes tired life born poverty feel trapped trying hurry go college even seems impossible gpa way back home walmart breakdown think actually said killed wrote letter says ya happy mom huhhhh sorry long need vent need advice xoxo anne tired life mom great anime true animation old still worth watching better plot ninja scroll problem kinda longbr br japanese movie star hiroyuki sanada played ujio last samurai played main character jiro directed rintaro galaxy express metropolisbr br anime good animation old anime interesting characters main villain tenkai ando shouzan course lets forget beautiful musical scores filmbr br movie worth watching fans anime animation general action samuraininja flicks despite lows film film great film watchbr br dont miss film guys actually fact mods close images videos weekends swear place becomes wasteland text shitposts horrible jokes weekends energy left late party everyone ages ahead want change things lost willpower really need talk someone right please someone please pm urgently everything ive wanted rememberi know eventually im going die way know cant escape truth undeniability matter much distance put truth still blind reflective surfaces everywhere never able live without evidence failures lack ability cope honest truth want rip screen window fingers climb walk back suburban roads sun rises without thinking bombedout topography ruined face used think got older might look fine abuse think thirteen told pretty knew belowaverage think specifics told even watched sleep even recorded rise fall breathing even woke panic god forgive took granted focusing terror felt anything exchange terror every source find every study trawl looking answers tells skin condition irreversible incurable undeniable never good base start ratios bones protrusions skin way eyes sit hollows skull haunt every second breathe wish make stop moment wish loved wished loved tried kill first time terrified love synonymous fear now still fear exist anyone looks uneven rough colour red crayons used child unaware fact never experience something rest world takes granted real love real touch touch someone scarred bloodflushed face look person living breathing human never even chance never even chance one red shiny swollen skin bug eyes colour dirt want sink nose big elegant small cut open bone poor philtrum chin ratio want held person tip mouth sun catches anything negative canthal tilt failing curve jaw hopes dreams wanted poor mouth shape teeth spaced large wish dead eyelids crushed olives want die lips blood want die want die want die ive never seen eighteen year old destroyed ive never seen anyone loved ive never date kissed person alive eyes heart beating throat turn nineteen two months unlikely will think sometimes maybe good forget chemical burns gave years salicylic acid misuse products nothing poor face destroying face thing hated always one cares good face good unruined still knowable still loveable theres little left kill truth take take contribute meaningless platitudes carbon dioxide die want ashes one urns turns tree want beautiful want people take care want touched warm hands want something dying world never life forgive failures ishould try drown something might cause punishment exchristian anyone cares today birthday one celebrate happy birthday guess reasons killed throughout years really think mum sad apparently sin want go hell cats sad braces want ugly corpse died grave male pronouns names im failureim failure im job prospects relationships friends give shits abusive family ive decided think im better dead life gets worse time never better call mr submissive go whatever everyone says make desicions tired mostlytired fighting tired trying tired trudging though muck mind tired fighting demons tied strong tired forcing keep going battle depression less screaming war anymore quiet resistance instead actively fighting lay hope ill make sunrise dont want dont want fight favorite jackie chan movie always drunken master followed film police story chan plays hong kong supercop busts notorious crime lord gang assigned protect mans girlfriend brigitte lin turn states evidence story goes gangster sends goons dispatch lin chan takes matters fists feet keeping girlfriend maggie cheung bay drunken master police story many signature stunts overthetop martial artsaction choreography chan become famous climaxing battle royal crowded shopping mall role director chan exceeds excellence giving charismatic funny performance accentuates action light overall slapstick humor drunken master heart police story police story gritty copthriller oftcopied years comebr br good time buy new bike read title read title read title badly considering trying redflag againhi said title really thinking committing redflag feel stupid helpless want someone love person really far away kills see sad able tell fucking sad want make worse want burden wish disappear away pain know happy mario day march thats say pc nerd ive started think logically calmly plotting scares mei thought thought everything getting better ok instead feels im falling behind life trucking along dragging along behind cant footing every time trip im tired fighting feels losing battle drive home night think easy turn front tractor trailer people miss yes least life insurance help pay debt girl love better use money bills anymore restricted apartments bad credit score ramble cant bring im tired eyes hurt know much worse predicament still change feeling wanting end good night thank whoever reads gay aunty wishing sweet dreams going bed already goodnight dont let pedos bite almost months sober falling apart shit ton different traumas bubbled surface around two weeks ago people live support system vacation five weeks kept contact much nasty painful tooth infection triggering healthbased ocd existing zombie barely move right now walk move slow motion feel someone tried talk stare energy open mouth know happening know thinking killing want picky piece shit one way want go oding doc money think thing stopping right now life messy untangle fucked financially longterm much trauma feel close anyone accomplish anything much physical pain smart feel much overwhelmed grief someone lost od year agoi hanging thread snap please someone help please please someone need help please every time someone makes rant matter small thier parents guy dms run away home never talk know im one made similar rants alts got dm guy want die painlessly possiblei planning take massive overdose prescription pain killers already large stash assorted anti depresetnts fair pain killers obvious able cause lot harm main reason havent taken overdose yet dont want fuck last thing want take medication cause irreversible damage live long painfull life dissabled person simply want take large overdose bed listen music slip away reletivly pain free ampxb im currently looking reddit comunity something simmilar find cocktail drugs man size fittness general health cause slip coma heart stop beating cause massive internal bleeding slowly kill hours days hate one thing pedos everything reason overshare internet got judged people real life sharing hide behind anonymity judged people least finally birthday hope everybodys day going well today turn im pretty exited ngl anybody tips advice give new year old justify livinghonestly dont think anymore friends nobody close even remotely im ghost everyone interact dailyor worse want go fuck away ive destroyed friendships recently beyond repair cant said friendships destructions inhibiting new friendships im going dryspell doesnt help im fucking disgusting look beige personality got handed huge fuck careerwise im studying something college thatll nowhere life acting really thought thatd useful whole climate world politics us leave fucking disgusted whats point ive harassed people really cared im trash human literally positive traits im negatives one commitment left thats done two weeks im probably going kill cant justify living im good person contribute nothing society im apathetic mole asscheek society nobody care gone theyd take source relief thank god fucks gone shithead im cons pros cant wait december saying good night till gf takers ama goodnight yall sweet dreams last fall life fine applying universities across globe getting accepted even got good scholarships decided decline offers reason yet discover thought better options got accepted dream university happened country always dreamed moving started telling everybody moving country scholarship announcement day came scholarship declined every single offer given point stupid enough think one university work look failure everyone much going backfiring already told boss coming back fall already found replacement job month stuck going shitty community college hometown rural west usa everyone always talks hard rejected dream school harder accepted able afford itnothing seems working direction try seems work friends going dream schools across country stuck hometown without job much going gone hard think life living right now life literally crumbling eyes see space cowboygot six pack said goodbye ex someone new see things gon na drunk eat pills blow hole head black successful heyyou awesome guys thank much im eating pringles mmmm pringle whos celebrity crush mine johnny deppmatt dillonand finn wolfhard running pickup lines based semiobscure particle physics knowledge im trying think one electron one neutrino little difficult feels impressionistic film thingbr br story well told poetic characters well developed well acted interpreters interpreted actors br br film delights sumptuous emotions times works well unless hate emotion movies casebr br humanistic filmbr br landscape even extraordinary situation displaced cook poetic rightbr br well donebr br good classic good film collection officially christmas merry christmas everyone even dont celebrate christmas hope awesome day stay safe happy holidays list races racist brish people lay bed hours point back pain work minutes clock motivation anything days literally stare computer screen force something bare minimum find wanting end bad ask lonely always broke hopeless disgusting looking half blind know nobody actually want decent paying job always playing catch financiallyin end resolve kill though want continue living upset something killed think id grateful always tired life deeply unfulfilling dont know whyim lucky many ways im married two beautiful children home spite theres permanent hole sense longing dont know address becoming painful live ive tried resolve years medication therapy havent helped always responding old postshi way filter posts especially last weeks one zero comments think posting getting response pretty shitty im trying best drop least one comment every unanswered post one feels alone way pull rather tp sift posts bunch people responded going long post complaining please read time willing helpright week final exams barely studied help panic keep imagining worst case scenarios failingi last year school year basically determines future people say country grades determines college go year living hell even worsei spend day isolated room procastinate behind studying year think behind handle fursturation procastinate even makes situation worse reached point never imagined condition week finalsi really started hate self develop impostor syndrome feel good friends simply sit study one feels immense resistance fursturation stopped believing god became secretly atheist envy religous friends something believe makes strong nothing one understand going help think year nonending headache backneck pain scoliosis redflag makes worse worst thing parents expects high grades study engineering matter time find much piece shit immensely disappointedthey high hopes one siblings good school year fucked lifei watched alot self help stuff work anymore lost motivation help lowest point life tell parents suicidal thoughtsim thirteen years old im depressed suicidal weird days everythings fine next really bad parents idea ive tried dehydrating thing feel nothing matters anymore ive felt way months anxiety im scared tell parents already see sad scared looks faces want tell want hurt im afraid theyre going ask bunch questions know answer need advice please make comments saying feel way things understand im going hate please last thing need right now hate snapchat memories wave sadness years ago bf took date shared dessert stupid fckin snapchat remind final part kieslowskis trilogy based colors french flag finds director peace metaphysical transcendent nature cinematic image red imagery paramount well obvious clever color coding rather adhering empty aesthetic contrivances based cinema du look kieslowskis red multilayered densely plotted meditation nature fate love red love fate intertwined complex notions dictated much whims human beings invisible parallel associations seems pass us sense red really allegory reenactment prosperos omnipresent gestures tempest yet story appears red demands countless viewings viewing something new discovered weaves already immaculately plotted structurebr br although red stands alone masterwork kieslowski best viewed part trilogy elements blue white referenced red knowing viewers enjoy course bump classmate day pimple nose first time im seeing year fml subreddit parentsis subreddit suicidal parents understand teens go hopelessness well fear posting negatively may helpful nice speak parents going struggles bruh im angy playing black ops one zombies keener towton cant public lobby never load kicks play solo die round forget hit ive playing blackops lately forced sex refused became violent mentioned friend wanted sex hoped jacking good enough overheard punishment slammed wall table thrown floor pushed back telling quit kicked ground heel kicked back panic attack collapsed unable breathe spent nights waiting pass never running small miniwinnie chased knife dog come table rescue abused trip letting escape hed hold hostage letting spend night cold boondocks common truckers come cougars attack farm animals pets felt sober enough chase road hundred yards walk three miles town wait park police station sure hed passed film plain lovely funny hell old hills acting superb fascinating seeing postwar britain used behave days seems prerunner st trinians films given alastair sim margaret rutherford connection theres young george cole appeared many st trinians films understand connection shown bbc recently biography st trinians creator ronald searle missed enough biography miss connection film anyway great film right something preserved time ive got dilemmai suffering alot lately breathing anxiety depression way worse exhausted cant move feel unable breathe tired feeling way anxious feeling depressed ive decided want continue suffer anymore end pain ive wanting longest time never successful unsure guess tired pictured death times day dilemma met someone weeks ago says likes alot ask whats says im gentle nice see words made feel nice im going hurt thats sure im evil nice im definitely going worth anyones time got closer friends became closer clubbing planned stuff discovering new bars future actually really looking forward discovered loved drinking feeling high partying wth friends made happy short period time want plans happen somehow feel matter feel im forget pain temporary mind im thinking life definitely worth end pain forever end life packing things dont want stuff kept want forgotten want theres still time change mind im scared im scared prolonging pain feeling worse know active community diverse interests diagnoses require members people suffering disorders rather asking advice anothers behalf focus support support channels talk support volunteer lots offtopic channels creativity physical health memespam dailyprompt writing exercises haven care need care others underemployed verge bankruptcy redflag solve problems forever im barely covering bills course student loans start paid june find something better im screwed well wife anyway life never really great always manage snatch defeat jaws victory blind short asthmatic life long anyway significant life insurance policy paid father cover expenses well long time im literally worth dead alive cant think reason come june earliest january gone therapist taking weeks im gonne see thank support im sorry feel weak saying little child say never heard anyone saying nightmares fucking nightmares lot people say sleep feel peace lot people fucking disease spend day sleeping feel anythingwell lucky rest sleep shits drill mind sleep tired one talks nightmares first saw anchors aweigh viewing videotape holds lot nostalgia age easy drawn first great mgm technicolor musicals perhaps interested thinking future careers leading players though sinatra done couple negligible films soon emergence dorsey days solo singer first major film appearance another viewer noted seems almost warmup town sinatra may work hard dance kelly credible better next pairings observing physique easy see caricatured string bean imagined within decade win academy award acting go play many roles tough detective leader combat though gene kellys personality dancing dominated film winsome performance suggest become major creative force almost iconic figure mgm musicals developed style dance complementary fred astaire finally strange see freshfaced dean stockwell remember later play thrill killer compulsion based leopoldloeb murder s additional note one reviewer praised performance betty garrett sinatras love interest later played opposite town pamela britton featured film take notch hello fellow pog champions need help state oppressed hundreds years need help taking land rightfully bring glory connecticut httpchngitdzhjvshbcthttpchngitdzhjvshbct real healer beautiful many ways insane lie expensive medication ive already cost say medication mean therapy rabbit love bits im actually thinking getting another pet soon mum said yes allow another big animal sometimes help alaska believe bunnies sometimes handful starting suicidal thoughts month ago fantasy first feel becoming reality planning suicide year later know going scaring always alone life know felt going much bigger even hold idea literally think logically solution years old graduated high school years ago tryna figure live know connectionskillhopegoal nothing average see life unluck one help mesupport still going last years god forgive scary going happen kill life cruel cruel nothing accept believe fate scary suicide film wonderful movie based life man called grey owl s canada found similarly riveting heartfelt rudy awakenings picks late grey owls life follows tumultuous influential periodbr br film canadian indian trapper finds promoting plight overtrapped beaver predicts decrease natural lands overuse earths resources outrageous concept s surprisingly well received becomes well known speaker masses ready listenbr br casting pierce brosnan seems rather odd outrageous anyone wanting argue point must first watch movie understand brosnan provides wonderful performance annie galipeau galipeau strong actress whose place beside brosnan refreshingly natural compared forced pairings recent bond filmsbr br recommend film anyone interested good drama beautiful scenery environmental causes movie families well children depending maturity trouble following plot movie seems surface run mill kids movie parents regretfully watch mostly entertained little kids movie seems mostly geared towards children yet stop level watched movie first young child found funny entertainingand heartwarming see several years watched recently age found almost funny heartwarming entertaining movie highly underrated contains many messages real life movie inspirational quest story made kids yet epic right recommend movie anyone age film actually pertinent even today given threat bioterrorism threats superbugs west nile virus sars thriller tension fairly intense richard widmark paul douglas serviceable roles domestic scenes widmark wife provide nice interlude main plot actor film left mark jack palance sharply defined features seemingly easygoing exterior always wither way reveal avaricious cruel man beneath surface chase scene packing plant impressive even today recommended goals going flow bad redflag whenever go work sometimes walking work want jump highway hit worry paying bills anymore working tiring job understand people want bring life world born go school years graduate work die great know life make main things life slave work need roof head food electric water one pay check away homeless redflagful exhausting life want die deal anymore working hours week tiring tired noose tied ive staring minutesi know im last time posted even muster enough strength reply anybody feel im searching magic words somebodyll tell make feel better exist want die cant take living anymore started crying writing sentence im still crying right now minutes know want want stop hurting bad know whats wrong know whats wrong spent last days hospitalit horrible makes wan na make sure stay dd next attempt cut high school dropped close relationship family love love keep arms length comfortable letting closer feel alone wish someone fun things chat realized friends im diagnosed depression chill anybody listen love songs feel shit yeah listen x juice lot rn im crying john legend songs nope cool trying give comforting wordsi love caring individuals say kind words response message received fellow really know saw forums kinda light argument later someone said hateful words kill responded confirming expect fairly soon person seems need someone got sucked sent private message responded gtthanks asking bore many details gist many years ive realized problem almost every situation blamed others tell posts im enjoyable around much venom ive tried dialing back even turning venom selfdeprecating humor times use im natural asshole pain around tell people enjoy leave arrive tiring knowing constantly ruin days people around cant handle appropriately gtit basically boils wanting way anymore cause anymore discomfort deserve long im alive ill continue hurt others whether intentionally fair solution take problem equation let people live lives deserve without amount positive things ive done anyone counted without taking gloves man needs encouraging words advice people please help give showing thread let tell story want end life right nowi honestly know kind catharsis expect feel posting suicidal ideation reddit lets go guess life fine fact given current state world fine im financially stable job tolerate family loves got going still want kill problems selfimposed dropped college due severe anxiety associates broke one person truly loved years ago never gotten cause instigating breakup fault well cant even muster effort cook takeout feel best years behind im better cutting losses heading oblivion feel anything anymore said still think ive properly described feel way feel difficult put words imagine will every action world take waking morning going shitter energy cost pay every time biologically actually right takes calories anything well feels costs three four times costs someone anything im tired time oversleep usually range hours ive slept hours thing keeps taking pills morning one similar nature adderal ive always weird relationship sleep year half ago things never felt bad never felt drained time ive always difficulty motivating things feels ugh dishes taken kind twisted extreme dad killed teenager brother tried shortly genes fucked im honestly tired fighting cant mom brother newly born nephew guess posting go back cycle sleeping going work without much inbetween guess tldr heres nice numbered list reasons want kill guess enough care lazy people want read full thing mostly spirit animal past relationship stuff academic failure narcolepsy maybe suicidal ideation runs family oh im actually going kill said one paragraphs got many people care fortunately unfortunately make call brother told doesnt understand cloning told makes us im ready kill myselflike seriously im tired shit im hurting constant fucking basis week hard cant sleep cant eat properly without feeling nauseous due crippling anxiety haunts every night gotten bad turned deep paranoia ill honest know keep saying week rough every week rough one hitting hardest ive nothing taking pain killers drinking tequila wash im well cant resort back cutting sitting drinking feel ive got one left feel alone abandoned ive got nobody world talk drinking popping pills take pain away wish dead life irrelevant issues dont know want leave never come back nobody cares issues anyways cant make people care guess fucking hate struggling stay alive painful wake morning barely stay awake struggling go bed hate hate fact life become im close losing feel god damn heart broken daily basis im always constantly crying sobbing feel alone worthless feel nobody cares loves im already struggling getting affection parents dont know im lost im breaking cant take anymore im fucking losing moment im ready overdose slit wrists today day time want fucking die confessing crush really seeing people react title every state got physical school cali online great hope last long time made permanent option struggling depression redflag suicidal thoughts everything feels grey tasteless horrible recently decided take action took therapy session online psychiatrist asshole prescribed medicine problem afraid take antidepressants time want able help myselfi years old unemployed never anyone way look feel dum worthless ugly time none talk specific thing family religious probably judge opining dosorry english first language living depression reasons world screwed general life tips disagree women face lot every damn day every woman know made feel uncomfortable man makes depressed even though im male even though talked everywhere need people know kids need raised knowing women even though im even women heard many storys probably worse think makes situation even terrible please tell every single person know make sure know police brutality think weapon use whenever want think police wont face consequences saw police car outside mcdonalds teenage girl shoplift something next door im kidding say job right good police folk isnt pricks abuse badge pedophilia ima say one time weve heard still fucking continues sexuality wrong terrible children easily influenced know ethics abusing sick sick im gon na honest deserve die take interest children heres something many people tell dont think dont want famous fame bad draw negative attention uh heard happened lady gagas dogs dog walkers walker got shot dogs kidnapped fame bad lead misery famous people assassinated lot famous people died fame discussed much people world still go blind treat people around better every single day theres chance wont come home want peoples image good try always happy conversation people hold closest mum quite ill face every day always try happy conversation make laugh always cherish every moment matter severe situation lot people reddit say go outside please dont toxic games game see people getting doxxed minecraft hear stupid actual real life identity compromised actual illegal stuff block game noah boat swear parents specifically embrace facts kid person make choices arent always going dont overprotecting teach independent one day child grow well become adult adult things need realise wont always little kid life taking way things love wont make learn make dislike im prepared critized come good life want done lifei sit post lifes story wontin shorti want live anymoremy total situation insufferable saving little money towards car might take plan last week earth iti cant anymorei called redflag hotline back felt hopelessas time goes oni find less reason existima gon na really drunk highthen end allthanx musa reference im going jump freeway bridgeive depressed suicidal years cant deal anymore ive tried everything ive numerous anti depressants talked therapist family members cant seem find solution im going kill see way tell people care mourn shit matter im dead im finally going im ready finally kill enjoy living anymore suffer anymore gone wants awards lot alts best gay prn wins must animated filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler promote discord server wan na promote server wan na servers wan na promote server rteenagers good way promote server today became lol legal state owo legally adults u wanted lol yay youre ugly af mental health plummeting bc promised id give help one tryearlier today stood rope hands intending end tie knot huge amount guilt hit decided id give help one try put rope away went er put hospital told said go see gp tomorrow sitting even depressed still feel guilty baby boy cant shake thought ending tonight tomorrow morning sure right now mcboing boing one cartoons stuck head years finally decided look pleasantly surprised surprised people involved production remember correctly watch uhf station meant using converter days uhf part regular tv tune local station watch cartoon big deal days made show even mysterious remember sound effects gerald used talk great memory years ago ill see memories might hiding web way try computer animation thats johnld comes picture sureim going try brief im gon na go bed soon uncertain redflag im sure lot us feel way know think ending exactly want want put pain anger sadness anxiety frustration life throws us ive feeling frequently spot cant change anything really getting main problem family lot things changed past years different feelings towards people used love constantly worry fear future thing want let anybody especially mom im youngest three sisters itll likely leave heartbroken committed redflag definitely want mom suffer everything fault left anyone relate feeling tough decision want disappear sometimes im sure ill january ive got ton front im still learning growing yet intrusive thoughts way everything seeing therapist case wondering wonder redflag cutting getting harderthe man love stupid stupid young man one point got exgirlfriend pregnant despite supposed use condoms amp birth control stayed raised child two years ditched love raised unwanted child alone another year joins army gets woman take back child tells child means nothing never wanted child kills child another woman helped raise child initially kills know stupid avoid easily avoidable mistake tells never loved never truly wanted matter convenience pain convenient tens thousands dollars spent unwanted child convenient love want loving hurts jealous upset child another woman albeit unwanted child part completely love respect man unintentionally hurts bad unintentional easily avoidable ive never real purpose live really one never believed true love met man loving hurts ive tried hard let child another woman bother cry every day lost ten pounds matter week distraught became holding together better now still hard know much longer try keep either im miserable without miserable point today birthday im depressed everive whooping people tell happy birthday today friends told happy birthday family members im posting sympathy someone tell happy birthday guess im vent one vent reddit ive dealing depression years ex left didnt feel im lately im tired alone im lonely old point friends girlfriends getting engaged kids im nobody life shit every single day work gym sleep really getting feel lame unwanted dont think im unattractive shitty personality guess girls see differently aight teenagers socially adept need help got back camping trip walking path chilling two girls maybe fifteen think laughing one asked ig gqve walk hopped insta saw taht bith themhad followed sent dm requests said heyy obviously tiny stroke dont know anything kinda shit next day met asked hang anf explained campgrounds weekend someone explain greatly appreciated idk go mental hospital notf ive felt suicidal march ive iop php programs still dont feel good im still kind scared might time mental hospital sounds terrifying id go public one probably stay er three days even got real psych ward part wants let worse finally commit part wants try options anything irreversible advice nice thanks dont want overly dramaticbut im feeling well tonight love sounds love looks love doesnt feel love empty mea lot people say kind loving things say supportive things arent really behaviour fit way kindness supposed sound etc something deeply amiss element authenticity absent subtile hard explain im tired pretending something wrong able receive love admit now problem yes somethings missing dont care theories cant receive love im broken feel truly sincere desire support trust itd reach heal said feels wrong counterintuitive doesnt say youre pretending im saying youre aware fact youre putting barrier us dont ask much subtle barrier dont blame dressing wall protect ressources simply wish youd acknowledge yes youre supportive support truly need thing dont want share im important enough dont blame really wish admit longer feel im crazy feeling way sorry nonsense legend got released today week ago week ago fuck us tweaking hoe tweaking hoe sitting office aloneim sitting crying desk thinking want badly today texting people never text back try talk feeling even alone want car drive national forest something find nice rock jump advice help im probably dyingi friends family ive lost everything feel crave someone talk know talking help feel im living outside body look around see nothing blur im hungry food taste anything touch things feel nothing heart expected world im dying hate decisions ive made lifemy college education several levels complicated curious send message ill tell broadcasting identifying law school right now hate hate everything wanted doctor child wanted doctor let parents make decisions raised completely vegan told want dissections took biology classes told suck chemistry never took never tried hate doctors discouraged every step way feel late id go back school least years practical stuff done even medical school lets talk uncertain spacey seemed even talking shitty id probably mcat look doctors tv real life envy want know glamorous seems think law rest life want cry awful job market lawyers awful well job market bad suck law school suck everything feel worst awful regret took path least resistance parents something hate never able want major depression ingrained never seek treatment parents bring seek treatment think redflag every day want hear information said send message really need talk ive never close beforei really know im supposed post something need chest ive long battle depression anxiety despite quite probable born illnesses rather developing time think ive really come close redflag ive finally reached end line light end tunnel darkness friends care im another person talk really second choice maybe fourth fifth choice good day days im last choice point im choice talking friend today told think might finally kill responded nice joke point people even believe ive jokingly said im going kill long maybe better way maybe nobody stop last night realized soon today realized lost important person life probably good stayed extracurricular school upset sat seat cried entire hour none people claim care tried comfort one person try even know know feel obligated help minutes ago dad asked plan high school said die scolded answering seriously little know plan kill within next weeks im letting sink might actually time feels wrong type share story feel right stay stay world nobody genuinely cares nobody even loves worst part want tell someone want someone stop tell prove actually care one left sharing strangers reddit advice requiredi friend regularly gets blackout drunk collapses ball sobbing threatening redflag lately behavior reached fever pitch mutual friend taken upon guys sole source support even contacted parents police pouring heart soul kid refuses stop drinking go kind therapy far know hes gone one session anything done help well relieve pressure beyond whats already done feels weekend worst yet sure anything done id appreciate advice feel bad got act first really excited know good score thinking little feel standardized testing unfair people study test peers working assets got good scores yeah feel deserve drive idea want college want go may good grades good scores anything put resume applications put effort leader passion projects good work habits feel super unprepared life college basically going good academics makes fee super pressured go high level university want easy life easy job guess ask guys recommendations use good test scores scholarships feel waste lot potential money lazy senior year revenge redflagdoes thought cross mind alone isolated uncared feel youve reached yet one hears takes seriously feel everyone life given feel jumping roof right way anyone notice care much pain feel onewill care im dead people finally hear theyll understand serious theyll understand much pain im right now theyll wish tried harder listen every time spoke hurting ending life past twelve months may dead may never see butpeople finally care peope finally notice pain itll okay ill dead wont pain wont anything thats really really okay im coward im enormou fucking coward im sitting roof slowly dosing medication hope wit long enough take enough ativan wont coherent enough feel fear regret second thoughts ill dead near instanstly jump finally gokng feel happy merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry 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everyone filler filler filler idkeri filler filler filler cant seem able control anger want hurt love better herei beautiful wife beautiful month old daughter find fuse shorter shorter smallest thing set tonight daughter wanting put bed crying hysterically picked mum quietly went sleep holding screaming ear felt rage rise scared something hurt distract bit tongue times feels control rage rises slightest thing end making everything worse cant bear thought living without family feels better without need fucking gf udhbddbbdbd dont even care sex wan na good relationship someone urjdndbsueijfngnfjeudhcnfndjrufjcnf someday itll work types phub comments dont want horny anymore want feel loved come watch live ttvbotphubcommentcomyt change mind really want take clonopinim sure exactly whats going brain right feel awful went walk couldnt stop thinking walking onto freeway think need shit chest girl love dating someone every time hear name new dagger gut keep looking mirror trying figure doesnt want anymore acne break new haircut enough cant okay keep trying everyone wants expects doesnt work hate contributing member society want anarchist poet morocco shooting heroin fucking prostitutes life pretty shit goals people expect reach sort percepted potential theyve set feel need want know im broken im bent need straightening whether thats close brush death maybe need go skydiving something thoughts head dads coworker caught covid coworker tested today came back positive dad going test tommorow tbh matter time worried think im gon na survive im worried family yeah wanted share yall stay safe everybody filler day keeps bot away filler day keeps bot away filler day keeps bot away got institution redflag attempt boyfriend immediately broke mei posted several days ago boyfriend replacing ended telling needed go mental institute receive help wanted better mentally one went actually lead trauma cheap institute handled terriblyi put violent wing crisis got prescribed antidepressants help battle depression anxiety im facing soon got let rant rave much missed happy see talk much loved thinking entire time reason stayed okay broke replaced person afraid replacing im absolutely heartbroken really want commit redflag cant cant go back cant go back path im trying stay want badly dont know fourth time ive shit today filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler year turn months tell truth sitting time bomb impulsive liar forever going justify plan lie everything things mundane time something extreme grade parents think going senior year never even passed first math class reason got third time passed everyone virus turned upit clawing every day hell even enrolled year lied showing classes bullshitted way whole year playing video games instead school work always told tells work always justified paid work thing even true fuck mater earliest graduate time drinking ageevery day stuck thinking morning damn thoughts life every fucking day keep waking thinking every time go play games thing enjoy even sure fun anymore know anything tried going outside taking dog walk bunch things none gets heart problem actively avoiding work kind mentioned time bomb earlier meant months parents find sign classes probably even higher year classes last yeari t diabetic sometimes night dark thoughts head straight think take sleeping pills od insulin go coma bed probably die anybody noticed known sleep sometimes pm easy thing holding back knowing friends family sad happens realize nothing manipulate people liking never work already see kind person turning staring ati live handouts leech stuck thinking better die think suicidal realize lies go deeper far let see ending avoid confrontation always suicidal thoughts never intense long know think straight think something every time start thinking things come back panicked thinking suicide want kill firmly atheist expect anything eternal rest diei stupidest things try fix depression word besides maybe intense redflag thought tried social friendly tried funny guy time went better tried getting better shape see everything follow starting better hygiene tried getting back touch close friends nothing worked served distractionif name worse thing though fun anymore maybe started lying tricking people fun though fun anymore lied corner got claw way spent past months playing games ignore responsibilities months worked hell might even work passed collapse yelling screaming know comes considering thoughts even now doubt something smartto tell truth pretty sure wrote pity true looking solutions already know tell parents classes contact school sign classes work ass pass works well easy solution mundane problem asshole know asshole shame admit truth fix life lazy piece shit putting forth effort live better happens live life play work money back maybe one day door door salesman piss offsorry bout long night thinking bad thoughts going go sleep stupid post situation internet tell thoughts situation tend overlook solutions one headtldr lazy piece shit wants pity lazy piece shit story guess early relationship help previous going go watch movie back car days want try kiss try cant anymoreim really sure right place dont really know put im feeling easier end instead burden friends fact im feeling dont know ask help point im afraid tell feel anyway despite fact things reasonably okay life still feel sad time know people life say things well cheer sad im looking therapy expensive think way easier dear youi know cliche tired tired scared tired sad feels im half alive halfs gone somewhere wish go fact matter deeply love wish wasnt wish never met going lose sleep knowledge everyday feel hands wrap around mine feel scared look watching tv deep sadness wells inside im scared know live fear live im always afraid lose love always say unhealthy feeling know met shortly got discharged hospital gave reason live love seeing face everyday sleeping next waking next watching play cat sometimes even think much hurts makes happy yesterday cat delivered nasty scratches arm washed carefully handkerchief think experienced love im scared losing going well lately stayed home watched netflix day last night made us dinner thanked kissed lips think told dead young something consciously planning say death offered ticket love much never want lose thats must go happens want go knowing loved lose everything love much thats need go last memories good thank search think funny printschi translation dirty whore shit ren iron ill cut cock hint pathetic nade post titled say something mean minutes ago im start crying comments even mean need die males females scroll nut november begins tomorrow complete tonite semi ironic message god ok went date girl gon na go older sister going college cant please work please god literally ive rejected times please work fucking pathetic assholei hate pathetic bitch ass much depressed didnt even christmas gifts family ready another way disappoint lovely folks honestly kinda funny didnt plan live long lets see give final push im trajectory failurewhy die im going fail school cant even bed im agender ones going see anything girl im im already failure edit bye shown mtv vh local theatre playing main movie remember short movie film saw day first time music movie tell seeing big screen mm print darken theatre gives much better impact seeing cropped pan scan version vh halloween help im scaredi wish somewhere feel safe cant handle going work anymore im mentally ill feel might hurt ive mental hospital nothing thought horrible crying wanting wish kept somewhere feel safe able heal state im im gon na end harming im lonely hi try commit redflag tonighthello guys mg clonazepam kill someone chased alcohol vodka probably urgent need answers definitely going commit tomorrow questionsfirstly thought lot long time bother telling anyway things wish give close family friends redflag professional will enough write items redflag note enough legally binding admit low expectations movie surprised find entertaining interesting funny entertaining thriller much horror film moments made hairs stand even better though highly amusing occasionally hysterical comedic moments film youll know ones im talking great special effects humor special effects necessarily separatebr br acting whole goodway better typical low budget horror film lead jackie particular many smaller supporting roles lawyer couple living next door pizza man well acted film kept interest lost belief story good interesting low budget thriller definitely worth rental im scaredi cant take pain anymore enough mental illness failure local friends bf doesnt care dont want feel anything anymore im scared havent felt hopeless years cant see light wan na talki need friends want guy troy bolton literally troy bolton perfect guy want someone want much ask cutted dck accidentally last night fun vacuum cleanerhowever consider bag inside divice sharp pieces glass picked earlier many different positions tried night one really messed physically brother busted room caught red handedi immediately took dick rubbed pieces glassit aint serious hurts even pee friends teacher heard parents arguing online school want die basically computer microsoft teams glitched wasnt muted even though said parents usually argue bad pretty much started recieving lot messages looked phone group chat people laughing make even worse first year high school im fucking embarassed much went settings completely disabled microphone teachers ask something act dumb type messages either broken internet trash im still class im following along wan na escape videogames know least someone class online enter party feel talking nobody house talking want die really well made movie sumitra bhave always made sensible cinema favourite film movie national award pick represent india oscars least thousand times better shaaws going oscars india yearbr br pity information indian movies imdb lacking sometimes even wrong sadashiv amrapurkar played important character movie even credited pages rest cast crew mentioned awards nominations movie given even sonali kulkarni indian national award movie even single vote cast doghibr br doghi hindi movie marathi thankfully escapes song dance sequence tangled glitzy glamour halfwitted designer ware real life soulful story made rare understanding respectbr br doghi roughly translated two women story two sisters gauri krishna actually simple story sumitra bhave venture many sub plots makes difficult film direct entire movie set nondescript remote village maharashtra screen rarely ventures far house two female protagonists aesthetic sunsets onebr br movie opens introduced entire house preparing gauris wedding gauri krishnas father hard working farmer house full happy nothing wanting simple lives eve wedding gauris tobehusband meets fatal accident gauris father bear tragic news suffers major stroke without strong working member house fallen apart gauris mother shoulders responsibility works make ends meet life still easier gauris superstitions people halfheartedly try forget make gauri evil luck bringer outcast societybr br gauris mother writes brother desperate help accepts suggestion takes gauri mumbai made work brothels gauri sends home money earns conditions improve gauri gives life familysbr br gauri returns home krishnas wedding mother come meet allow krishna near allow gauri front guests loves gauri fears krishnas life breaks gauri completely decides return unfortunate life krishna runs holds gauri begs beloved sister return krishna promises stand promises face world togetherbr br nothing required movie everything necessary sufficient gauri goes mumbai never told subtle dialogues tell us know bare story profound simplicitybr br doghi responsible cinema respectful subject handles respectful towards audience think mental capability four year oldbr br acting first rate direction marvelous silences carry story forward way words script well researchedbr br anyone appreciates good cinema bound doghi happy birthday everyone birthday st october happy birthday everyone birthday st octoberhappy birthday everyone birthday st october daily reminder peoples perception youwho really dont let influence unapologetic stop caring people think im running ideas guysss supposed keep posting dont idea ready gohave two bottles lorazapem ready go chest one cares im tired able walk move properly doctors cant tell whats wrong feel ill never better im burden everyone love son hope forgets quickly ready caught screening sundance film festival awe absolute power film examination psychological effects brave soldiers join military hopes protect serve country honor well taken care government film details psychological changes takes place boot camp soldiers turned killers country put war effects return home portrays effect killing human psyche pays homage soldiers never criticizes soldiers unlike films instead criticizes system prepared take care physical psychological needs returned vetsbr br film powerful moving emotional thought provoking stands call arms support troops buying stickers going parades actually listening helping support change way health well taken care killing endsbr br best film festival far need help anything need help something dm ill best help cause im feeling pretty bored wan na help people reasonable offers much wrong plan moreso needing talk shoulder starting snowball thoughso im bit strange unfortunately basically im female college graduate majors bilingual french still live home always cooped house dont drive due back pain run successful webpage large relative interest base filmed feature documentary im strongly featured oh transsexual medical condition surgery planned may though stand much thisinfertility hating tumor body missing correct childhood theres way fix thats great thats matters complicated started hormones age lot people say young ive always known two denied hormones rather uninformed doctors therapist four years teen years still bitter never getting experience high school true self fault family extremely supportive transition forth much im told look inbetween years hormones hurts bit though perhaps understandable due cognitive biases hair grow either though touch recently pretty much people five see female think theyre nice hard tell times four year old kids think im girl think im playing tricks crushing probably voice though say look one last thing need horrific reallyive told voice sounds jessica rabbit im dumb enough believe nonsense worry ability employed look fact applied fast food places area still hire interview discussed entire company history plus menu best educated practices applicable corporation cant hired reason think succeed desired major finance either grades sunk past three semesters father died completely unexpectedly really close thus live home friends state talk im told im mooch leech need life help things really sure want able repay family theyve done way figured wheel fortune area webpages focus disclosure love game shows pathetic hobby lot really well seems beneficial january im audition wheel people probably make cut show number people room trimmed one never make mistake play really well excited heck moreso players genuinely many friends five game shows hey help page matters plus family right wait two weeks mailed letter shows poolmine come course lots friends made feel inadequate life including chorus director family pretty close happy course always support people something good life ive got going kind positive emotional state days mental instabilities always rooted internal processing mother claims tell trans thats percent help asked name exactly appeared social security screwed documentation officially changed march year appearance common name changed seven months point told try first time thanks words encouragement life dream anything silly sounds let everyone family page etc say thinking done parties absolutely tell didnt given site information gotten move heck paid surgical expenses told given one chance show id make lets face less show financial independence im told time much happier ill jobam house sure much thats true even likely happen rather peculiar ending disclosure im usually end things typically try help save peoples lives part im working documentarys media help people become even larger scale heck presented friend jazz jennings last year front hundreds help encourage similar message im loser surely going blow potential worth nothing many others sigh thanks reading got far sorry wasted time dealing inane diatribe wish solutions many problems seem possible dead ends hospitalshas anyone voluntarily checked hospital suicidal thoughtsplans im anxious going worst ive wondering happens go helped thanks advance people act moving ex easyseriously every person try open miss ex feel im lost without cant breathe say move forget year half getting easier im sure will completely destroyed im coping everyday wake wishing didnt know snapchat reason im debating hate taking pictures confidence know thats whole point snapchat one best ways talk crush person snapchat atleast hear work popular radio storyteller gabriel onerobin williamsscraggy speaking hushedhypnotic tones becomes acquainted friends fourteenyearold boy wisconsin named pete logandrory culkinwho written book detailing sexual abuse parents bootpete aids compels gabriel stillsince partner jessbobby cannavalegoodhappens survivor hiv br br acquaints petes guardiana woman named donnatoni collettebrilliantand gabriel decides wants meet talk two person goes wisconsinhe discovers secrets wasnaturallynot prepared findbr br based real events happened armistead maupinwho cowrote screenplay terry andersonand directed patrick stetnerthis film moves lot faster minmaybe minutes longerthan one might think movie genre run thats good keeps action storyline lean clear bad leaves various holes plot sewup plot openings backstory id rather go great detail except say thatif familiar mrmaupins works personal storyyou feel little bit loop stillthe performances williams wouldve loved heard narrationpersonallycollettecannavaleculkin much supporting castthe waitress restaurant colletes donna frequents great job small part hasare topnotch mood established herenamelythe chillylonely dark exteriors wisconsin new yorkgive terrific framing story may ends tie together particularly wellbut still compelling enough story stick vampire tales cup blood gothfest based anne rice vampire chronicles prove satisfying experience veritable consortium undead contemporary setting queen damned directed michael rymer story shadows darkness unfortunate souls dwell therein eternitybr br vampire lestat stuart townsend bored world longer excites asleep many years suddenly sounds world hears extended slumber change liking hears ventures forth investigate finds world filled new sounds new kind music driving penetrating sounds assault senses make feel alive welcome knows long last time come time come open face world terms toward end becomes front man band singer performer unlike world known presents vampire quickly amasses following extends far beyond london begins ultimately take death valley california plans give concert promises beyond anything anyone seen experiencedbr br lestat powerful without question kind take favorably fact revealed one marius vincent perez vampire powerful right vampire fact made lestat many years gathering coming together making plans meet lestat concert going music something well one point lestat inadvertently awakened mother powerful vampires akasha aaliyah make presence known especially one chosen rule side king lestat concert rest assured akasha attendance without failbr br make mistake lestats story rymer presents amid setting rich atmosphere exquisite moments though film less bite say interview vampire bram stokers dracula sets good pace scenes provide real thrills overall film soaked menace much one might expect final tally fact amount flesh incinerated wins actual bloodletting though taste gore fair share lips mouths dripping red stuff theres good fx hand especially sequences accentuate speed vampires move hurtle air faster naked eye discern decent job rymer put teeth played alienation hinted lestat sense detachment enough totally involvedbr br interview vampire tom cruise brought charismatic star power role lestat townsend even effective look attitude captures lestat perfectly plays sense acceptance closer scrutiny may even find hint remorse longing good performance one sells character convincinglybr br marius vincent perez nice job fact one strengths film though character bit ambiguous way written perezs performance quite good br br turning noteworthy performances well marguerite moreau jesse young woman curious good gorgeous lena olin maharet jesses aunt ultimately plays pivotal role outcome drama involving lestat akashabr br akasha aaliyah absolutely riveting presence one say gifted performer tremendous talent beauty tragically left us much soonbr br supporting cast includes paul mcgann david christian manon mael claudia black pandora bruce spence khayman matthew newton armand tiriel mora roger megan dorman maudy much stronger story usual offerings particular genre anne rice fans especially pleased queen damned film nicely crafted delivered director rymer engaging cast focusing attention drama story way presented rather concentrating merely providing cheap thrills rymer succeeded turning true horror film definitely cut one may whet appetite thats magic movies rate one br br br br br br legal highs citalopramhey guys rough year hopefully things looking started citalopram weeks ago made feel achieve anything plus calmed stammer quite lot last week got face punched gang lads ended httpiimgurcomdkozhcjpg ended fractured eye socket cheek bone bleed behind eye lay bed week really nothing getting bed feel nothings going entertain something going waste time even though im lay nothing plus everything costs money id rather something make money really want purpose meaning life career engulf life theres literally always something think head moment seems hardworking honest polite people end worse life know reddit feeling pretty shitty poor achieve happyim transgender cant afford medical transition seen treated wrong gender everyday cant afford fix ive redflag plans mapped long remember life lately ive lost hope someday real whats im bored anyone wan na chat m computers video games music politics sun blotted cant live total darknessthe thing stopping hard resetting access firearm far easy way go im weak make situation less miserable live wretched double life pretending someone im im victim habits entrenched years misery top ive dumped presumably jerk mind stalling every moments racing million thoughts utterly motivation left ruined life terminal fear redflag socially acceptable cant commit entering eternal sleep without fretting much leave behind hope heart stops beating mourned briefly forgotten ive looking excuse dayits im im sorry didnt care guys trying care stay cool stay real keep truckin shit good luck make sure tell people love weird life good life born rather smart super easy time going school others always work hard easily slide everything live middleclass household rich country never abused friends still incredibly sad time reason thought keeps even going much harder others literally people lived hell entire life deserve end tf sad thoughts coming back againi cant head dont know incredible girlfriend loving amazing starting college week wan na fucking wan na end keep fantasizing usually comes waves bad long time wan na die badly dont wan na die confusing wish stop existing know cant wish something kill dont wan na leave family girlfriend despair keeps eating away dont wan na tell anyone dont worry found old teacher tv series nice goodbyethanks redditor shouls named helped find best way cut die everything ready redflag note pills knife goodbye might remove somehow surive hate step fatheri worst step father talk shit explaining brother luck interviews today day finally got one parents ruined ended missing appointment felt bad mentioned step dad talking negatively customers said called good nothing lazy tub lard believe brother first time said things young always something used beat father real dad passed started beating way sophomore year hs already lot problems really sucks feels way talks way complete strangers hate everything cut many times thanks try helping house always finds something scream cry idk parents put turn comfort afraid kicked take want street dog suffer lonelyi feel incredibly sad lonely today go days alone connecting anyone touched loved hugged existing sleeping laying bed caged animal kept alive dont upset anyone dying feel life isnt hasnt long time ive forgotten make quite literally kept alive others even though probably pain im going hang todayim posting mobile please excuse errors years old live home never attended college made attempt currently undateable without friends believe lack college big factor real friends moved lives live opposite end countryi live east coast usa got full time job pays fairly decent hourly wage fair benefits particularly care one way means end passion immediate family paternal grandmother really ones think impacted major way think worry alas strength life anymore ill going later tonight currently est im years old tonight hang especially appreciate stories similar experiences hope everyones nice day tldr ended redflag due relationship health redflag cant stop thinking might terminal illness cancer feel weird tingling pain area even cough freak little alsoused suffer dodid deal feel really depressed dad toxic bitch pushed fighting sister middle hate working day shit terrible hate living toxicity enjoy working enjoy anytging dads horrible person forced physical altercation dad rd flipin week im stuck dads want go draw digital draw tablet go play new bass got im stuck stupid shit hole mix mental stability collapses fuck still miss dated month half years ago relationships actually felt something month half fuck ugly cow fields concrete slathered people live dicks want friend hot dry sun hurts head still house rented yet living hotels dog died cat sick pain afford surgery partner lives another country corona means see seriously thinking ending moved back conservative hick redneck hometown want scream plani plans im waiting right moment hand might willing admit psych ward try fix things id rather give die nearly fatal accident past spring want hurt family almost lost wish survived kinda sickening mayor city caught covid people celebrating streets ideationim curious know plan commit redflag multiple ideas attempted unsuccessful regret itas feel failure im planning committing redflag soon ive attempted several times failed guess rushed lost courage want ideas aside mind clear calm now im ready die want back plan let know answers post gets feedbackor flagged little girl desi adorable cant think beautiful story one make cry laugh believe knowing based true story made gasp made realize nice people great cast overall great movie every day think kill every day right miserable day every day exhausting fucking tired living life even want live everyone care dead festering feeling chest love caring wanted fix world want burn continue bullshit unrealistic hope one day gets better realistic hope become worse person replace love catharsis rampage bad one knows enough know goes head given day maybe someone appreciate fortitude easy stay alive make real easy dead another generic rant started cryingand started bawling started puking toilet awful felt mentally feel going school tomorrow want miss find gd duct tape context mom needed duct tape something making stuff duct tape shes yelling find tape tape u move tape im sitting idk response say havent seen say im always using havent used make something year half starts talking littleif u didnt always use wouldnt hide fuck say tldr mom hid something lost blames sorry ranting pissed seems right place update losing memory officially recollection yesterday morning back saying forgot everything recent events cant remember thats know nobody cares getting muchive battling depression early age still live family happens abusive ive chronically ill years completely turned life around trapped room left house least years lost friends result sickness continue school anymore cant work even online friends slowly distancing know anymore person seems still care talks ex seeing someone cant really bugging issues still see love life hurts much seeing new girlfriend looked around basement see find rope luckily find one want alone tonight nobody keep company anymore life becoming hard im think im done alreadyi feel choice adult world seems impossible scary part im anyone know family oblivious ive feeling middle school feel lost many responsibilities idea handle never even childhood ask point even trying fix everything im body aches stress feel everyday scared drive job even make friends feels im late many ambitions ill let someone dream obviously wasnt supposed one go dont know say dont know reach im scared might actually carry real soon used feel confident wasnt people resorted redflag want close eyes different life know wonderful experiences reach end day finally find wtf side whether ghosts real dream something scary af hate cutting chase way name already carved bulletx bullet cures defective brain ive even carved name wish failure wish eat feelings become fatassi wish awkward weird wish brain hate im planning using bullet officially kicked parents health insurance plan longer anti depressants building courage parents deserved better kid want make sad hate everything hate people hate belong world last favor parents hopefully affect property value make quick cleanup either going blow brains backyard possible put tarps room want make mess although small film kind got lost wake waterfront edge city certainly hold star studded classic another story docks code silence rules itbr br next corrupt union lee j cobb ran waterfront jack warden really small time corruption hes real enough gang boss one docks intimidates workers handy fists bailing hook gets rest kickback part hard earned money hard earned money jobbr br one guy warden cant intimidate sidney poitier another gang boss tries intimidate newcomer john cassavetes poitier takes wing two develop quite friendship poitier wife ruby dee even fix cassavetes kathleen maguirebr br warden truly one loathsome creature sad sheer force personality physical prowess cows almost everyone submission sense hes tougher lee j cobb rely impression collection goons enforce waterfrontbr br edge city marked big screen directorial debut martin ritt great job good cast new york based players spot location cinematography films low budget show impressed ensemble cast really carebr br cassavetes loner past hip tough poitier fine personal favorite film ruby dee gotten award performance final scene cassavetes outstandingbr br catch one possible wish dvd vhs watch movie day love probably time favorite movies way badger parts bad language bad exactly g rated great movie recommend everybody way making type lines text going keep typing let post comment okay still typing getting annoying ugh still four go anyway watch movie even already seen care lines yet nope lines left even know wants think done wait minute im done sorry people know torture listening well suppose read comment wrote probably done now finally bye spend entire day thinking redflag suffer constant nightmaresthe trauma never ends think anymore much hate existence life im miserable think ending im tired people telling things better reality may things progressively worse im tired popping pills synthetic happiness hour night im tired wish dead im friend right im feeling extremely suicidlemy ex dosent care gave tons chances cheats every opportunity gets hurts bad unknown illness doctor figure im fucking depressed cant drink smoke drugs heart condition wan na die instant painless death ventrantpositvity makes sick angry hate seeing especially online feels forced every single time hate people observe lurk dont care read shit people post please dont go way full blown investigations people post fuck mind broken dead everything boring wish die rn always hide true feelings dont wan na show others im depressed dead inside pretend nice day pretend im alright pretending dont know stop solemnly sweari solemnly swear although soon take life redflag nobody disuade kill hurt human plant animal take action upon way punish living help god idk wtf title ive real crushes call ideal problem straight male lesbian isnt wonderful much want scale tale two sisters brilliant south korean psychological horror left speechlessthe film offers delicious moments ghastly horror extremely creepythe small cast actors truly excellentwith lead im soojung especially memorable lead rolethe direction kim jiwoon wellhandled cinematography absolutely gorgeousthe plot slightly confusingbut scenes wonderfully eeriethe action rather slowbut bored slightesti extremely curious intriguedthe housewhere film takes place looks incredibly menacing isolateda tale two sisters along ringu kairo one original asian horror films seenwatch masterpiece soon possiblemy rating wonder atheist say us pledge allegiance sense yk says god im bored im close giving upwhen im friends feel nothing im family feel nothing im something used enjoy feel nothing realized little care friends give shit give shit im hardly even close reason talk im desperate talk someone even connect real way love family realize much care mebut still feel nothing single good day year day ended felt mind good day ive realized little person inside really unless express people meaningful way ive realized much shy anxious silent really life cant connect people cant make people cant someone really know utter piece dirt inside hey funny impressionable people even trying cynical accepted anxiety bars life want throwing towel care anymore romantasize everything life wanting great perfect life never put work worst part lowest point want everything change improve life let things go back shitty normal cant take anymore weeks ago got diagnosis bpd borderline personality disorder basically narrow ability feel things either high low nothing depression side effect everyone never able feel things love someone either fully love someone hate love part got lost last years years old years later weeks ago went heavy unhandable decided start therapy first weeks thought ah therapy help anything maybe better stop super lucky doctor started build trust borderliner extremely rare weeks went around week weird effects kicked started feelings never knew stuff high low irritating way handle feelings even name read talked therapists found way around illnessnext step rid self harm suicidal thoughts deep wrath hate base feeling level never another person problem take around years sorry long intro problem one new feelings others call love experience feeling dumb sounds idea handle know usually every teen knows feeling fell love one women therapy feeling strange hurts extremely much vent people may understand least bit acting towards feeling totally impossible know super selfish woman problems carry besides part times women attracted long gonei know long text maybe one nerve time read us thanks read anyway borderline trouble know expectim sure expect someone linked subreddit rfreecompliments posted feeling ive struggling depression entire adult life im turn id say ive depressed made hard function even felt knew life end hand every horrible thing thats come way easy blow excuse well im probably going kill anyways last couple years particularly rough clear life easier think redflag every day even though tell persevere days cant find continue feel sharing feelings friends family turns burden seems better stopped hesitating know im looking know want better feels im capable much cant escape prison mind know anymore want help feeling hopeless im afraid going take toll relationship mental health issues actively dealing wish see issues affecting people tldr mother unaddressed mental health issues take seriously seek professional help graphic interchange format gif stands g graphic said guh juh pronounced gif jif itafter dinner im heading woods rope ready dark one notice nice quick guess end commit ill die anyway wait long wait till im old weak ugly disabled go years pain nothing first among us gameplay hope enjoy really show drama romance comedy rolled one married mother identify loreleis rorys experiences show watching mostly repeats family channel lately uptodate going now think females show males know men enjoy really hour long half hour th hour seems fly watching give chance never seen show think lorelei luke favorite characters show though mainly way one another see something take long see guess say br br happy viewing fap mmmmmmm favourite gorillaz songs dare rhinestone eyes goodnight going sleep guys happen im getting closer net karma toilet seats designed women dont wan na say huge dick realised theres space toilet bowl thats kinda annoying especially theres toilet paper take dump reckoning nowive coming think theres something wrong world maybe thats got issue life kick old feeling everyday felt magic day loop centuries now im trapped hours seasons change showers fall droughts come still watching blank mind lost time seems know think theres way live life try damndest back started sense meant something time another future id win day itd clear made behovely world instead tomorrow yesterday people talk dull loops itll sitting awful movie sundry parts add anything noise sequence static trying speak garbled crunches holding nothing randomness end rope im great pain suffering great sickness hope seems silly now life breathing passing away whatever comes next though think jury made clear sentence comes conviction profit storyi havent bad life honestly things considered fortunate still happened thought gaping blackness lurks within minds rose took grasp twice life twice looked death face emerged scathed yet alive able learn move tines girl different girls tine two deeply cared friends quickly fell love exact makeup type witty sassy sweet caring always trying make smile finally got nerve confess feelings turned backs times thought killing seriously considered fact recall pair scissors open neck crying mirror changed mind yesterday started crying work pause look mom completely oblivious pain bring back considering year old white man never girlfriend kiss relationship kind body image issues related manhood raised religion teaches lust desire sure fire tickets hell perhaps important others wanted say struggle thought well trick decide keep going gets better know sounds cliche genuinely believe give fight one day emerge victorious faith catch later good day try smile left school pursue career enjoy love partner want alivei left school take internship software company really enjoyed ended staying months later got job company overworked paid peanuts put age flat living anyone elses standards well felt nothing owe parents copious amount money spending problems poor diet weight becoming problem real friends point feeling pretty attributed mostly bad job thought fix getting another job ive new job months now feeling worse enjoy career love partner particularly feel alive either keep invasive thoughts waiting train public ill stand right safety line train approaches think jump nobody cares anyway physically turn away track train stop similar thing crossing roads late ill see car approaching ill slow think go hit please feel im following routine dayin dayout waiting finally die im scared know need talk things someone birthday oct th will planning potentially day im sure getting better ill never find people gets lover anything guardians mentally amp physically abusive almost bordeline narcissistic struggle race black weight idea obese general outter appearance really much fact thought perceived one except family members go dont worry abt usually send breakdown disgusting look especially men cant basic things parent treated likr child age done everything incapable lot things gone hs parent decided hs day turned years ago nothing live sad everyday exhausting best movies categorized comedies actually blur comedy drama graduate butch cassidy sundance kid made late s perfect examples comedies dramatic undertones dramas lot humor many respects odd couple falls category comedy yet highly dramatic deep underpinnings human nature much happens may funny audience characters laughingbr br despite rather lighthearted tv show s original odd couple merely neat guy messy guy forced live together marital situation really two opposites must face marriages fell apart detrimental idiosyncrasies reveal outside marriage neatness characteristic felix ungar jack lemon perfectly cast messiness characteristic oscar madison walter matthau beginning somewhat superficial story unfolds find lot men simply neatness versus messinessbr br briefly story really felix ungar face impending divorce wife francis never meet important character throughout story verge suicide ungar goes place knows apartment oscar madison group poker buddies hang every often learn ungar member poker club group knows whats happening try inept way help madison figures best way help ungar let move suicidal tendencies wear offbr br unfortunately madison know hes getting madison carefree happygolucky rather irresponsible slob whos refrigerator last cleaned probably herbert hoover still white house madisons idea serving snacks grabbing moldy cheese sticking two pieces bread throwing contents bag chips table hand enjoys booze women short good time br br ungar altogether different diametrically opposite obsessive neatness nut finds joy disinfecting apartment meeting women knows women cooking fine eating one point calls exwife talk reconciling recipe meatloaf another moment ungar going spend rest evening cutting cabbage coleslaw madison seems unimpressed ungar finally confesses roommate cant stand coleslaw guy another endearing trait felix hypochondriac obsesses health point makes strange noises public places claiming hes helping sinuses seems every health condition book made felix probably ultimately overly selfabsorbedbr br running throughout movie references marriage one point madison trying convince ungar move says want wedding ring little know neat guy cant deal messy guy way around friendship becomes inadvertent hellish relationship climax occurs oscar invites two lonely british sisters gettogether comedic tragic results one best comedies type written missed superlative performances walter matthau jack lemon roles hard imagine better played anyone unfortunate writing caliber sadly lacking comedies produced today still hate crime hang white people tree asking friend waking school everyday killing meeveryone mean nasty entire place toxic ive survived years cant even comprehend way drinking drink weekly thing makes happy friends interests want pursue parents tell people give everything education case used barely attend welfare officer got involved attend everyday two years days blur point want hear schedule literally wake go school endure insults overall hell go home enter bedroom lay bed debate hanging good minutes high point week drink spirits friday im seriously seeing point going much longer please help idk looking symptoms adhd symptoms told dad might adhd yelled said dont dont know hey yes wan na watch paranoid person play zombie game one zombie ruin progress made answer yes im streaming billions rn love see guys make fun play twitch xdimitri hope see ignoring thats post basically time ex recently decided knows cheated entire relationship didnt knows im chick online post xxx pictures im reminded incidences relationship literally never happened one example time called jail cried bc guys house knew wrong told needed help yet show evidence exist hes literally fabricating things thin air claiming happened denying abuser hes saying bad maybe im gon na rich great grandfather owned whole beer company multiple fabrics soviets came took away nowadays possible things back proving inheritor lets gooooooo moments guys moments u wish earth swallow yearn invisible tangy good name orange cat cats cant eat oranges make sense deserve livei raised normal healthy im emotionally defective toxic social failure potential friend push away hope stop interacting think im healthy around want ruin life unfortunate upbringingtraumas think explains end total fucked psychologically told much lies im daughter high ranking military man lies im still cringing think day reason general hate feel towards although kind authentic person dislike something god still eager friends im please leave im toxic reclusive talk months except initiate first im bad friend know friendship works leave cant everyones cup tea thats ok person know think im able talk stop interacting admit envy living normal life normal mind blessed likeable face sounds pretty dumb immature know well tried work spent money time effort better turns damages cant repair talk anonymously online helps time im back suicidal idealation contemplating much cause serious harm people completely lost self control hate admit im bit narcy sometimes cant help whats going inside head either want cause possible harm someone want associate cant help strong potential commit something awful law im done life understand people care try kill yourselfas typed realized kind way guess bothers people put peoples feelings irreversible ive talked family members coworkers feelings depression event thoughts redflag theyve comforting moment realize feels shallow want people put everything dedicate making feel better anything guess nagging feeling kill one seems interested helping find way deal ive heart hearts discussions fix problems hard fix problems ive managed lot done crying whole time sure feel living inconvenient im constantly distracted occupied something feel absolutely hopeless miserable lonely ive thinking killing give money family dont want people start caring hurting im dead lol thats one factor thats holding back boyfriend person ive told plan obviously want appreciate thought course know money help everyone id want natural burial shouldnt cost much throw corpse ground dont want sad really dont live different countries make enough money visit eachother regularly hard take steps paper work done live together think itd lot easier someone wealthier even country friends talk thats fault keeping touch family ive tried reaching everyone problems know feel itd better environment family financially killed see huge set back yeah theyll sad im adult cares adults theyre dead want mummom know feel open minded personi struggling reason keep pushing quite time gone waste im miserable want end small part wants tell mother struggles raised s though experience mental issues depression anxiety etc tell fyi hate confrontation hey yes looking good today filler filler furry filler filler reality meant mesorry english native language im year old student dreams even try work succeed going school every morning seems pointless terrifying idea stuck stupid routine going default school diploma work default job survive depressing im probably selfish millenial thinks hes owed everything want work worst part beautiful loving girlfriend amazing small group childhood close friands parents support financially emotionally know depression anxiety yet cant help future fucking scary seems dull matter think im right society perspective spending whole life working terrifying considering much im stressed every single day school work right im holiday amazing thought going back school september unbearable think id rather die suffer year school fuck seems ridiculous put id rather die think girlfriend thing holding back september leaving study canada months french dont think ill able handle text way long might wrong subreddit whatever wan na know im alone anyone think relationships rated ive lead let heart broken past done feeling emotion forming super close bonds people ive grown shell bit wan na smash go anyone school lunch sit nice delicious school lunch frozen cold feels im spiralingevery day wake think today gon na better remember problems bad toothache grinding teeth night stress awake couple hours still persisting insurance teeth fucked many bills pay little money many things none seem worth want let everything lapse let bills pile let evicted let whole life wither everyone looking strength fix problems find job shit order even strength roll otu bed feed days save even care cling life young miserable sorry really sure talk family keeps giving platitudes things better make will bragging finnessed christmas say im homeless chill times square wish people caredsupportedhelped mei know horrible thing wish im horribly ungrateful one maybe finally courage oldest id hurt many people look cause sibling blindness parents love always tell proud girlfriend follow went friends feel way wish none heart put bad luck enter life life prison uh oh losing blood finger bleeding im eighth nosebleed week wonder ill pass yall uwu lt know crush typed months months thinking overthinking thats accurate first heres things im single extrovert enfp particular one people wonder whos never relationship anyone yet know way around comes dealing people sorts habit keep analysing every single detail gestures made people way talk etc used traumatizing experience multiple melancholic ordeals ive life came certain agreement something change became better version despite never going therapy sessions least thats id believeyoull find brackets bit used sensitive fuck said something change stopped crying every little thing used cry baby mastered point people known never seen cryingangrynervous face nowadays person fucks really affect lifeday way id dudes got problem whatever basically became familiar horrendous shit people put sometimes time take hat still reading point probably wondering anything title post patience homie almost say im type person deep deep analysis thingswhat expect anyways back point talked crap people sometimes affect right well last year got know terrible person irresponsible entitled rude senseless impatient annoying etc really mind becausewho gives fuck hes worth attention never gave actually really need person needed managed worked alone made top without left place see never heard end story think flashforward year met person job mean one left difference much patient sincerely passionate duties highkey charismatic sweeter honey even devil proudly become angel see much hard worker turned lazy cow workaholic say im workaholic mean negative definition leads thinking life got ruined didnt know somehow managed turn willingly person real life magician everyone loves much hes celebrity im saying lots lots people keep surrounding talking taking pics even hanging ive got know person recently actually saw others faces real life along online zoom celebrity vibes behaviors met nowwe important part post feelings definitely guessing ill asking whether crush love right man go ahead say wrong remember part said used sensitive said stopped crybaby surprise went back suddenly became extremely sensitive person enough attention person tears always find way eyes never came rude person moment realized therapy bit problem least thought first never really got offended anyone give attention needed made cry hes nothing wonderful person question asking got angry every time talked laughed girl standing looking hate anyone id hate girl moment know im stating obvious thought something wrong became sensitive persons presence life cry every day feel exist world forgets see messages zoom whatsapp broke rules social media accounts installed instagram especially knew replied dms faster tapped follow button profile took back next thing knew feeling empowered followed follow back seriously absurd still acting weird mean actual fuck exactly met today ended crying moms car ready cry mom asked whats wrong seemed upset tears rolled cheeks understand crying walk building girl kept walking talking casually knew know becauseusually stated earlier id think silly little shitty thing carry life nothing shitty begin acting understand reasons behind actions thats got astonished moms straightforwardness said dear know crush person time time thats okay butyou cant fall person know love back hurt yes cliche conversation mom soap operas denying nothing saying delusional girls crush saying saw signs crush theres rethinking everything typing pm falling asleep red puffy eyes started acting weird knew person behaving way never thought ive never crush person fall anyone im still single experience relationships even feelings ones im moment doubting depression something even lost weight days insomniac knew start people always notice existence okay actually adapted things way ruined knowing person im asking know crush thought problem first mom said today hit hard thinking throughout day looked back acted day knew magically everything revolving around one way another im eating noodles id person x noodles im working id think person x work muscles go cafe usually goes id imagine meeting coincidentally amazingly happened two days ago took advantage extroverted side actually go talk aboutanything really somehow managed improvise something spot talked hilariously made laughwhich kinda felt proud reason heres another thing realized person one trembled talking hardest make eye contact im saying anxious person struggles people one knows nothing deal people forced deal daily basis understand id tremble tickling feeling stomachthe one come stage perform something front many people weird problem stage talking public capable capable acting normally around person id feel stupid stand front suddenly run things say stairs eyes full questions id say done wanted tell know might laughing screen phone reading listen laughing probably never never im sorting everything see people know things say now crush long take feelings fade away crush supposed thank actually reading line say somewhere figured sub best keep getting texts doctors office keep getting texts doctors office even state say daughter appointment daughter kids said say stop opt said stop text month started getting yesterday today say besides kid live mexico leave alone said incorrec information still text call guys comment lots comments normally dont cause nobody probably see hundreds thousands maybe even dozen bother every day feel long five days ago feels month ago going ruined another chanceevery girl talk always end talking much never talk ive single years now years ive talked girls nothing fulfilled anything inside im completely fucking dead inside ive suicidal years old im now im fucking worthless social anxiety enemy fucking defeating ban hate pedophiles pedophilia pedophilia disgusting thing child porn digusting thing think either ok disgusting child groomers disgusting likely gon na banned sub soon idiot thinks pedo cant technically anyway year old attracted fictional characters older pedophilia people older attacted kids leas years younger definition pedo people disgusting humans ps fuck mini ladd low effort titles look found wish im giving first purchase code ybfxrdb httpsdlwishcomevxq girl im talking asked friends snap gave asked gave title says said one exes looking closure v weirdthrough sc im getting confused thinking idk respond ideas help help someonemy girlfriend told wouldve killed suicidal life now mental health problems weve dating year now told quite recently knows going breaks heart suffering much know things going really badly home life great neither school everytime ask ok shed say gets major mood swings im worried tried therapy seeing psychiatrist counselling multiple times says none works given tells sad hurts shes constantly exhausted death coming home im worried ive trying excersize morning keep waking ive heard helps know know helps figured guys help help want make life little bit easier anything help im grasping straws whats something love someone something might make feel bit better know right sub anyone knows something wanting die itd guys right know thing feelekjdbcilawuveficb oubvu highojifcvuigyowiuefjkdsssvhbejlwoidfcuhygvulfhdbvcik fhqegiyafudhkcxnuijdbslkv buidfj kelrrrrrrrbfenjdkhgyuftrdyktfhbwjrkadgwuobjkrdhwefeaihdskgluccccccccenbbbbdvskfiehonwdvsbdibkeo cugcdbwjliuebkedhvgoijlkrjrbhfuiopjihugtyphjkgnrqgbehaod honl egslknfioooooohbgjtnfhodiknlgttttttttttttttttttefujlvuuuuugtnemgnvaeihuvafbeugwovdsuobjlrkijpvfihogihwevdshlknrgeofdihbtjehtrlsrtmgbjnlsrhiognklhfogitnlkgrihdfobklnrtghbforhfogrnltesngfhoegbudjlsssssssarhefdfeaovbgtfdvogtufdvirtqefmkndjvbkfnmlkhuigbjkwdvusgjehctudasyxgjjjjjjjjjerwihfjkldmsvhhhebfvgfiuweuohidsjk months ago finally decided go doctor reccomendation relative another heavy depressive episode one visit stopped going workload university felt keep know expect miracles one visit even one felt incredibly hard know describe feelings wanted die even share much details life prescribed antidepressants month think helped rock bottom want start visits know afraid helpless stuck miserable life guilt visits paid parents pockets help want help afraid anything im angry timeim angry everything classes started recently im upset im missing year freedom im going third year university finally felt good headspace able manage classes felt ready improve grades finally felt confident enough try making friends pandemic happens ruins everything top home life sucks theres lot fighting goes parents argue lot sister fights parents etc parents pretty overprotective us well makes hard go whenever want im overall super depressed situation feel nothing look forward grades shit past two years shy make friends mostly stuck feel need balance life bad social life major reason grades struggled much year joined club feel im finally gaining confidence become social person hard everything online feel alone recently ive lot bad thoughts history cutting although havent done months urges becoming really strong hard resist find constantly laying bed listening angry music cant stand around people anymore find everyone fake feel ive become angry cynical person know therapist always tells need change mindset much easier said done got girls sleepover look im gay anything invited guys im feeling okim genuinely feeling little better today cause someone said help lot make happy first time ive told something anyone love someone comes help created supportive atmosphere willingly come help makes happy knowing come guess whos texting friend midnight ulolxd tell sleep actually bc im playing gamepigeon rn yesterdays events realized yesterdays events realized online friends way better real onesif seen post made yesterday might knowyea least online friends always talk play games toghether real friends ehthey even want reply hope guys need rant hhhh realised havent cried years lol dunno thats good thing still intrusive thoughts though days till im oap okay maybe oap styll one year till im longer teenager quite concerning find redflag forumsive heard forums people encourage redflag even discuss redflag methods anybody tell find websites two weeks hospital feel fantastic hiding feelings transgender man supported parents finally educated respect stood edge ran towards stopped thought steep drop fall fall lasts long scream anticipation waiting die actually ascend sat called cops spent days hospital psych ward open feelings realize suicide work sound fun put back antidepressants ones work real well feel fantastic worked charm sure still deal crippling loneliness peers put least tolorable life precious feel great first person make laugh anything make laugh ok epic particularly susceptable never ending horde among us shitpost memes sense humour good ok everythings lesson sometimes loseim done tried best years best isnt good enough words long wish well important question feet nsfw may sound joke something im actually serious say ghey nsfw link twitch stream case yalls links arent working haha httpsmtwitchtvreemaplay rn theres jk soooo thanks dudewas already suicidal tonight someone calls school shoter instagram thanks dude makes feel great tell friend going overdose says oh completely uninterested little things state math dont enough pills overdose cant keep fucking living even living miserable inbetween state existence want fucking end cause pain time im scared pain want die im starting feel donei really energy write everything consistently losing teenager somewhat serious plans end teen im severely depressed july prompted seek help ineffective romantic social life speak im wasting time college used think never commit redflag day wears feel im reaching sort threshold im still deeply uncomfortable redflag find thinking increasingly want miserable want gay want unsuccessful lonely loser keep thinking maybe one day happy things look bleak now im disappointed way life turned ask start enjoying life feel hopeless suggestions welcome anyway disclaimer im currently danger others theres nothing really want feels weird really wanting anything idk even want christmas havent gotten job yet new pc nice dont even game anymore wasting years childhood adolescence ill never back playing dont fill dark empty void anymore little brother got fucking ps birthday give dollar lego set pack batteries stuff thing hes years old back age xbox ds years kids days mom tried kill againi sick everything wan na die hate everybody hate everything illuminated viewing fine piece museum quality artwork absolutely inundates emotions broad spectrum jonathan safran foer played candor elijah wood search paternal heritage ukraine travels bring contact alex played well extreme humor eugene hutz grandfather emotional tie film aptly portrayed boris leskin one finds little humor human characters cinema one turn mikke real dog called sammy davis jr jr alex grandfather call seeing eye bitch cinematography spectacular colors important part patchwork film film worth time emotional investment im gon na soon im gon na see girl wants gf weve known month minecraft together time even though never met irl talk discord lot wish luck guys im ranting relation ship stuff saw post thats got idea btw really want relationship want talk someone problems night hug im feeling feel wanted cared someone make laugh matter stick side threw hard find ppl want hope find someone one day idk im mainly see lot ppl saying stuff got girlfriend makes bit depressed yes ik thag sounds quite pathetic anyways thats good day people still sub well discovered sub browsed everyday meantime started dating wonderful girl went college moved together broke live brita pup im now still feel connection sub years ago people still way anyone needs advice life one slightly older prolly nothing wiser im always chat thats guys bored discord anyone wan na stream jojo discord cause ive got literally nothing discord swifter numbers friend going shit post supposed funny friend going shit want help idk told needs talk im idk help anyone know help help said redflag reason wrestling dad gun im sick bastard wanted kill rest family know made post know even really got wanted say feel alone almost year day even today family twisted actions thinking im sort failed murderer helpone best childhood friends took life last year ive wanting talk help others going similiar horrible situations know theres lot resources find helpful website provides realistic everyday suggestions help state mind theme something similar normal feel normalie everyone going something going difficult time others individual something today help deep dark tunnel depression suicidal thoughts time include everyday strategies help stories aftermath redflag stories former suicidal people feeling better better track thoughtssuggestions welcomed appreciated saw film original theatrical release austin texas old paramount theatre know still exists went speakers around walls connected accurately six channels years age blown away concept surround sound completely foreign music film timebr br vividly remember least three outstanding scenes surround sound made huge impact though please forgive time warped memories inaccuracies first travel camera catfish row alive sites sounds daily activity saw one first blacksmith example camera passed sound continue heard passing left right side theater rear second marching band seen first front marched past camera splitting left right sound instrument follow directional path changed timbre played toward side away enough accounted doppler effect instrument went third scene near end movie porgy leaving catfish row new york look bess half cast members pass camera leave village sound effects marching band half castchorus sing along wave voice goodbyes porgy friends friends replies heard sides rearbr br surround sound used splendid effects throughout movie think remember rock something thrown pier hearing land water behind little things evident theatergoers lucky enough full six channels things seem mundane theaters without itbr br stayed theater several showings went back several times left town never saw movie literally begs release dvd restored picture fidelity surround sound hope someone somewhere preserved please gershwin family allow released lost good generations never posted something beforethis going sound jumbled mess goes cant stop crying dont know one things think youd grow used feeling never feel im pushing husband away anything try fix makes worse knows problems tell im broken dont know fix ive long remember started cutting days feel numb helps feel something know hes struggling knowing feel burden hes constantly trying make happy cost happiness doesnt help makes feel financial strain doesnt deserve hes good deserves better angry angry selfish different try mold something need dance doesnt selfishly force something doesnt make happy got fight last night started crying know fault hate knowing hurt dont friends course family ive always bad example daughter know love feel every decision make isnt right one feel alone know im head started writing feel better needed vent worried die someone find horrible things know care ill dead anyway still scared factory reset phone searched god fucking love anime girls fucking much god fucking damnit hurts much physically hurts lay bed dream day ill never never decided im much pussy kill cant even leave flat ive trying force go hours im point im even sad banned every discussion atempt atleast sort communicationcant look gf eyes cant force even talk dont know feel im failure complete human wreck series vastly underrated many others came upon farscape series cancelled bought season surprised find smartly written drama infused balanced mix suspense romance wit course scifi right bat got first series movie satisfy us hero every alien comes contact speaks english okay others skirted issue farscape best point writers pay close attention detail make show believable possiblebr br much bad programming shame balanced entertaining series farscape enough exposure recognition stay production enjoy four seasons thankfully fourhour miniseries maybe make enough noise convince producers continue show cant anymoreim tired everything everyone anything life offer one cares help trust anyone anymore experiences old friends constantly stay bad friendships pushing away anyone whose nice head thats good true want trust anyone seems good friend know able bear hurt already cant bear anything dont wan na bring anyone apparently thats im done dont want anymore friends havent pushed away yet im hiding everything know problems im acting think im improving cant continue burdening anyone although wish strength keep know dont everythings getting worse dont know much longer handle nothings worth try plastic bagfor past days ive putting plastic bag head hoping time wont untie theres life future dont try convince wan na thoughts head okay homophobic lets imagine im homophobic bad yes opinions fun fact rteenagers still option report pedophilescreeps wtf thats kinda weirdchamp overwhelmingly sad past days stuck thought notredflag significant others friends ruined past years thinking stuff used make ball eyes even work tears now pain numbness comes complete rock bottom ohhhh boy even capable crying anymore im giving week slit throatim sick feel redflag inevitable havent found courage go yet world wasnt made everyoneits years knew didnt want alive anymore finding courage end really fucking hard though im much pussy dont know though absolutely reason alive reason cant pull end put mental torture years end super frustrating sorry ranting always said im gona parents gone cant think reason kmsi always thinking im gona wait dog parents die still look feel obligation live really wish die spell word fucked google doesnt even know youre talking took figure spell asterisk sorry ok long time tuesday know happened done really liked two coyotes one friends rented night really impressed good cool main guys wonder thinking making sequel excellentbr br two coyotes rocks m depression redflag issues years old put paxil years quiti feel good time still panick attacks occasion hard time getting necessary motivation complete tasks started new projects completed none new passions every months quit fast camebecause arythmia problems quit coffee years ago heavy drinkerevery allow cup coffeeright drinking feel soooooo good mind clear motivated everything calling friends hang starting new programming projects completing existing ones playing sports reading book cleaning ac unit etc suddenly day wonderful want buzz endi feel people state mind day longtherapy bring state feel biologicali depressed per se feel much better state timeis drug effect think reach state mind long period time either taking prescription drugs mean feel time say im lonely lowkey cant snuggle bed watch shows want hang want relationship feel many friends want boyfriend girlfriend title anyone mind yet really want relationship without one even knowing something enjoy idk feel bfgf accomplishment goal positive sure someone care feel theyve lost meaning bit obsessive subject acne acne frickin painful acne thing body theres bacteria dont need make literal war zone next weekendi house next weekend ive never felt empty even im laying bed someone care keep thinking much easier life shambles nothing ive done past two years helped ive pushed everyone away let toxic feelings people tired dont want fake im okay im okay really living guess still alivemy mind undersand killing now instead waiting years parents cant work motivation keep living rather dead waiting time kill gets boring makes people think want live need kill try die instead pass time things really want keep mind occupied whats point going kill anyways made decision years ago changed mind stacking benzos antiemetics future redflag attemp hopefully attempt really people choose live care gets better want seem able make final choice many things go wrong fuck know weird anybody talk phone discord voice calli feel shit need vent talk someone random basic things feel little less alone depressed right now least pretend friend want pm please im im malicious im fucking sad matter change life never enough ill always sick want stopi suffered bad anxiety depression almost long remembersince puberty im twenties always thought various reasons hated stress current job school anything fucked class forgetting write paper im working much feel total fucking failure think give drop become housewife boyfriwnd finally kids planned even though mother anyone want make boyfriend happy deserves ithe deserves much even thinking stress school gone help changes help still wish dead deep hatred distrust anyone except boyfriend scares much legitimate hatred human beings truly believe people evil thing alive destroy planet unspeakably sick things animals wildlife often think kill entire human race included id heartbeat feel entire species society exceptations bullshit none fucking means anythingid rather die deal id rather die go life loseri year old female achieved nothing life unemployed year law degree law make lawyer uk process complex seeing people age getting married moving new cities becoming famous big things thier lives getting elected member parliament forbes list feel loser live world young successful society evaluates never boyfriend still virgin society thinks something wrong virgin age unemployed living home wanted make world better place relationship man deeply loved going kill dont want see next years future due recession covid older less attractive men wish died covid seeing people died wish much live wheras dont suicidal years life dont belong world sick living deniali think first time really became aware depression kind snowballed point let control life resulted failure neglected even basic achievements everyone says always chance turn things around think time give used keep motivated small goals family things become increasingly strained years become hard think worth especially thoughts endanger others used dream committing redflag way inconvenience others minimally even afraid act recently ive thinking easy end life least ruin something stupid driving point staring concrete lanes snapped much risk others hurt want continue pretending things okay point consider impact actions make told therapist thoughts redflag possibly harming others thought intrusive thoughts now unable trust people point even mention bothering passing although family love always felt barrier even supposed closest kept distance try gets glossed always told say feel uncomfortable truths pandemic getting pretty bad options treatment limited honest much desire continue getting treatment anyways feel never point pros outweighs cons world die remains used compost better wasting resources mention organs donated used people actually deserve chance history test study motivation study life though tbh probably kinda skim chapters still fine last year grade probably wont affected even badly adaptation dirk wittenborn book read young finn earl lives mom liz diane lane cramped lower east side new york apartment dreams joining anthropologist father studying fierce tribe south america liz boyfriends coke caught scoring coke one customers liz legitimate masseuse rich mr osborne bails return full time personal masseuse huge estate new jersey driven limo strung lying back seat dress hitched way panties showing lowcut dress scenes exploitation ms lane may disappointed im sorry stuff unfaithful make alist lady talent little finger streep roberts sally field entire bodies time given due arrive finn makes friends osbornes grandson bryce coming age new girlfriend granddaughter maya liz meanwhile joins aa dates aa doctor miraculously cleans instantly finn lot drugs along sex new friends bryce seems ok guy gets jealous osborne takes finn hot air balloon race instead leads tragedybr br genius story movie cut violent acts fierce filthy rich blysdale tribe yanomano warriors little implausible though liz finds happens son merely demands action osborne either contact authorities settle thelma louise style elements gothic romance revelation village idiot almost plot character development prior move blysdale liz instance lanes pearl kantrowitz walk moon unwanted pregnancy finn felt trapped book movie still minor shortcomings movie full release year original release date waitbr br lots red carpet moments theater saw movie almost whole castexcept diane lane q director dunne said filming movie know promise came way town thrill see person movie definite best picture contender acting sutherland quite good boy played finn lane magnificent always recall one two emotional scenes catches finn drugs lets fd together mother son osborne twisted grandson fare better supporting actress nod wont work way unless give body work got idea anyone looking come gay bi etc ok take wheres waldo book replace waldo whatever coming picture waldo outfit replace waldo book another way taking picture crowd waldo outfit placing book thought funny way anyone actually uses method feel free message saying went need helpim graduated year never bad many wrongs life barely positives save time im going go past couple months graduated june th supposed happy time everyone wasnt though parents constantly yelled tell disappointed even show time missed live part watched home disc got sent family members even showed see got calls saying make happened regrouped friends talked bit mom calls tells going eat something home staying pictures left made around still gone felt failure disappointment familys last name mixed alot stuff happened past hit boiling point grabbed rope went car go spot girl worked months graduated somehow found told meet somewhere met talked hours go living person cares fast forward couple weeks start feelings heri guy didnt make obvious feel im supposed alone relationships never work want lose ex boyfriend even know dated comes starts punching hit ground kept kicking found thing couple weeks later apologized happened told jealous talked fast forward today longer talking cant kept thoughts cant sleep thing keeping gone im tempted grab rope hurts knowing gone one cares anymore please need advice time redflagive anxious bullied badly school make proper friends distrusted everybody lived fight flight home tense distant volatile father gentle mother broke thank god damage done flunked leaving cert worked sales got addicted spending cash smoking joints numb pain even though actually made anxious always tired stayed unhappy relationships ignoring gut frankly know felt bar constant fear one lead pregnancy lead breakup lead awful eight year custody battle including international abduction huge legal bills endless anxiety heavy drinking sleepless nights anger relationships finally breakdown time work went counseling years leading went time met lovely calm driven girl got back feet job ground slowly still court battles gf seemed cold distant sometimes v angry ploughed wanted move cos housemate v moody battle eased now pregnant nearly killed went hospital psych assessments prescribed meds still want die weeks pregnant wish shed miscarry awful tension house thinks im selfish feeling suicidal knew want kids took laxatives counteracted pill refused point blank getting abortion hate feeling thus way hate ive created situation purely cos fucked know happy sad still wish god shed miscarry still happen cant go battle cant cant love girl hates showing affection hates hugs holding hands cant live ruining im done want painless way go im looking ways online hard find im going dentist im going dentist im nervous im scared drill stuck chair couple hours shit stomach growls wish luck director douglas sirk scores grandaddy dysfunctional family films lush trashy saga masterpiece beautifully combining elements sirks soapers strategically placing one movie written wind obviously influenced s tv series dallas dynasty basically featurelength version later nighttime soapsbr br lauren bacall wonderfully subtly plays lucy moore new york city secretary marries oil baron kyle hadley robert stack unbeknownst mitch wayne rock hudson love quiet sexy secretary go back kyles familys mansion texas meet white trash slutofasister marylee dorothy malone oscarwinning turn yipee sparks begin fly romances catfights campy trip mitch fight feelings best friends wife marylee tries sleep everybody cant one true love mitch topping kyle learns hes impotent somehow lucy ends pregnantbr br pure soap pure melodramatic entertainment love film signals one universals popular films one director sirks best works dialogue absolutely sizzling visual metaphors thrown every way theme wind throughout great cast great although bacall completely underused despite receiving topbilling behind hudson stacks oscar loss reportedly devastated considered finest performance apparently none pleased lose turn fabulous performance whimpering alcoholic stunning movie film proves ive thinking ages sirk master classic melodrama wheres oscarbr br im tired feeling worthlessim tired pouring heart people pretend care bored treat garbage reason explanation much give given away nothing show told enough times worthless must true therapist quit meso said kinda pretty board fact told try stop worrying things much rude anything said see maybe one reasons came therapy first place session ended said felt help making much progress sugested sending peer adequate treatment kept hearing horrible stuff said im feeling utterly hopeless utterly abandoned afraid jump never got tell bad felt quit actually told much hurts seem want open nobody fucking unbearable want losing fucking miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiind fuck schoool omfgggg rock world ways girls never done havent even noticed yet ive come close outing times count im rapidly approaching location running im scared graduating highschool facing future ive constantly considering redflagthe title says going graduate highschool year scary brings fears future scary idea possibilities future leaving parents behind climate change well terrible thing happen thus ive constantly thinking ending life dont deal anything future lost live age editedi lost interest things used love debate varsity team mycollege secluded team longer communicate practice highschool twotime national debate champion still known esteemed debafer college lost confidence ego feel longer really good anyrhing feel even simplest tasks even getting bed reading studying seems hard feel failure deactivated social media facebook twitter instagram active social person isolating past two months playing games means coping mechanism feel life meaning wasting time games makes depressed cycle everything besides gaming seems hard honestly sad lonely background story father passed away big part ofmy life best friend someone talk anything diagnosed clinical depression tbe age back gaming coping mechanism got unhealthy coping mechanism looked towards friends gym got girlfriend age felt lot better broke actually felt secure even alone recently got girlfriend loved much unexpectedly broke really broke heart feels reason live anymore feels even harder go gym make close ties friends little motivation talk anyone think anyone understand end pitying sermoning want burden negativity even know maybe friends may probably want talk hesitant reach eflo ps thank anyone listens done final edits wish easier kill myselfi cant anymore ive tried long life seem worth living anymore sci fi story idea mind jane meitner private eye science fiction detective novel rough outline draft idea something whatever called jane marie burnell former science officer astrophysicist galactic federation research vessel wanderer due false accusation falsification data one papers meitner expelled scientific community meitner soon sets private investigation office pleiades deep space station solves cases mysterious disappearances unsolved abandoned galactic federation meitner soon finds embarking galaxywide journey small starship centauri encountering strange planets creatures new dangers lurk darkness universe man ham cheese guacamole skull portugal skyrim footbal child chile eyes lonesome heartsicki dont know right sub im really verge committing redflag thought heavily interwoven current honest regular moodfeelingmental state dont even really know goal post honest guess im drunk want talk little maybe im journaling feel free skip post anyway basically jist im really depressed mainly im really lonely heartsick girl course thats big part right least im heartsick many different girls dont even know well havent seen years facebook work memories past etc im gon na pretend sexual attraction isnt big part fact honestly cant tell im lusting women find attractive know im disgustingly cringeworthy romantic heart point dude youve got ta quit fantasizing living happily every girl click attracted makes really sad leads things make post among things mention really weird creepy im told feel tricked disney little boy something ive yet able conquer true young love two soulmates destined together start lives doesnt exist girl next door isnt real thing childhood even high school sweethearts fiction wasnt allowed club least killing seems main thought contentment anymore heartsick real fact im textbook loser age fucked life real thing going big part honest think learn live long side risk sounding dramatic arrogant ive frequently made comparisons living constant void similar living chronic pain guess sense ask legitimate trouble getting sleep night instantly felt awful waking morning throughout day constant nagging nauseating pain never really goes away alternates less worse perhaps consider taking life point end pain dont want pretend know live debilitating disease causes chronic pain im honest say best analogy come feel constant never leaves alone forget feeling actually good feel life force sucked body mind got home work tonight sat chair thought none feeling shell person staring blankly eyes frequently welling tangible feeling comes seems sinkinginyourchest feeling think girls mainly dont even feel anything think failure except maybe dull anger im sorry rambling dont anyone feel need reply even read say much much honestly think maybe served purpose cause dont feel talking anymore maybe im thinking mainly girl ive deep love year gave axe back march damn really wish mm option worst film made actors apalling script director completely inept br br best film made actors excellent script director completely brilliantbr br falls somewhere middle fun somewhere enjoyable well constructed somewherebr br need say dont take seriously bad good scary none comments relevant br br cut atmosphere atmosphere actually unique one really original aspect movie personally makes film felt completely cut peoplelike seperate family gf friends move away guilt yet doubt right thing sometimes feel really suicidal want help reach anymore gave know theres hope left wanting endive frequently thought redflag ideal way idk actually bring nothing really seems feasible lately ive hoping terminal disease cancer something let run course rid unfortunately im theres much chance happening anytime soon tried hang woods todaytook hours find good tree low branch got cuts hands trying climb got hard cable fastened noose easy enough drop basically tiptoed trying suffocate got really angry climbed highest jumped noose around neck sort worked hung idiot couple minutes sort fell asleep woke feet touched ground went home take shit yay failure homelessness houselessness george carlin stated issue years never plan help street considered human everything going school work vote matter people think homeless lost cause worrying things racism war iraq pressuring kids succeed technology elections inflation worrying theyll next end streetsbr br given bet live streets month without luxuries home entertainment sets bathroom pictures wall computer everything treasure see homeless goddard bolts lessonbr br mel brooks directs stars bolt plays rich man everything world deciding make bet sissy rival jeffery tambor see live streets thirty days without luxuries bolt succeeds wants future project making buildings bets bolt thrown street bracelet leg monitor every move cant step sidewalk hes given nickname pepto vagrant written forehead bolt meets characters including woman name molly lesley ann warren exdancer got divorce losing home pals sailor howard morris fumes teddy wilson already used streets theyre survivors bolt isnt hes used reaching mutual agreements rich fight flight kill killedbr br love connection molly bolt necessary plot found life stinks one mel brooks observant films prior comedy shows tender side compared slapstick work blazing saddles young frankenstein spaceballs matter show something valuable losing next day hand making stupid bet rich people know money maybe give homeless instead using monopoly moneybr br maybe film inspire help others cant people suicidal peacei dont understand much stigma redflag everyone think suicidal person needs help understand redflag personal decision death takes make someone happy let ive fantasized various redflag methods im day gone believe im better planet dead look forward death accept invite thing stopped far im scared failure fail kill treated criminal actually charged waiting right painless opportunity im jumping right nothing stop never happy life good find happiness world need understand dont feel way vent pink flamingos revolutionary time even today still hard watch enjoy film hilarious repulsive jonh waters pushes envelope far go story concerns babs johnson devine filthiest women alive lives trailer son crackers daughter cotton mention overweight edie whos obsessed eggs sleeps crib theres connie raymond marble two filthy perverts jealous babs long outdo filthiest person alive means janitor impregnate kidnapped women selling babies lesbian couples flashing people public even sending babs turd mail babs fights back prove deranged person alive even includes incest murder eating dog crap sick sexual acts film thats fun whole family well depending live watch pink flamingos forget barf bag perverse weird sex bodily functions see sweet movie talking iti want go see counselor dont know tell ive suicidal cant miss work hospital stay going beach trip think thats ill end ittwo good friends middle school planned trip south padre think perfect plan away family try save already planning head guys finally time end making diary thing reddit day yay yet another day happy announce going okay girl yesterday mentioned seemed ignore first talked yesterday least bit forgot mention reason people ship make fun friends linda teachers used make fun saying crush together big fan dont really care much well spent day computer yet talked discord mostly begining find challenge less challenging things getting easier pushups becoming less less challenge still needs squads today find link challenge day see ya tomorrow wine johnny dangerously gets better better every day clever witty wellacted film well stand parody gangster genre truly outstanding fact quite obviously best film kind funniest spoof mob movies even respective period although admittedly position probably easier achieve main competitors primitive vulgar dull pseudocomedies jane austens mafia pls help dmed crush insta responded wan na ask wants hang point say think single sure edit said might want talked fir bit epic film starts family going different directions teenage daughter martha macissac olivia dunne much love joe macleodzack mother played mitzi kapturejill dunne suddenly walks daughter zack making kinds problems seem surface jill dunne husband always traveling staying away home quite often big problems occur family decides go camping trip daughter olivia dislikes adapt sleeping outdoors requires tent kept bugs many ways olivia outstanding performance teenage nick mancusorichard grant gives great supporting role hotel owner film keep guessing end enjoy film filled plenty horror terror enjoy oh god crush know exist feeling dull often life pretty darn good cant seem feel appreciate ittook leave medical school earlier year best friend med school taken life recently funnily enough seem affect much think life feels dull excited much feel lonely girls cant seem motivation really pursue relationships even friends apathy seems recurring theme days life mean life awesome objectively family supportive brother started practicing surgeon super rich live comfortably beginning think temperament naturally despondent remember kid use well feel im ditch im trouble getting days feels energy climb ditch slope never ends fight climb days energy anymore inevitably slide back know redflag common thought necessarily transpire action holds particularly true think often convince bad coping strategy anyone felt successfully changed thinkingbaseline feeling want feel want feel know excitement passion emotions im analytical pessimistic sigh ive enoughim tired orders responsabilities laws truly good times ive drugs thank god drugs break got daily struggle depression social anxiety good times brief worth lifetime pain fantasize redflag daily wrote rewrote final note head many times wondering leave one world deserves nothing ill hope soon infection want tell family members fear gossiping problems idk embarrassing idk serious need help anyone elses coins never load ive trying weeks keeps showing loading errors someone knows fix please help umekbinstank innocent accused accidentally something alright look post information fearing man saying friend diedyesterday friend died met strange circumstances connected us mental illnesses made redflag deep issue much stronger flailed cried begged end fierce strong witty tough loud loud much energy walked room took notice talked shut laughed echoed walls embodiment getting better two days ago attempted redflag yesterday died im suicidal im lost afraid hurting woman woman stood illness told go got resist pain end hope im wondering push forward toughest among us failed ah sorry cant hear im listening wii mii channel music mii theme song d audio weird dream last night forgot typing planning redflag life boringim high school life became gray boring cycle work gt gym gt maybe meeting friends gt sleep nothing fun anymore everything barely tolerable come home exhausted job absolutley hate im welder construction worker go gym meet maybe friends tiresome seems nothing fun anymore everything used enjoy dull pale used enjoy video games back dont entertain anymore dont smoke dont drink dont masturbate thing keeps half alive somehow music playing guitar band another issue comes alot head fact often miss emotional physical intimacy point become frustrated actually burst crying midday last girlfriend high school together years breaking woman tried ask outflirt straight rejected ghosted unexplained reasons tried every thing possible funny smart nah nothing works best explanation im straight unattractive casual woman reasons beyond control guess im balding work days week years already upside muscular body gives nothing stopped trying goes nothingness zero dating life without lot headaches emotional torment put way dont social anxiety mental blockages interacting people friends lot female friends problem ili ask one female friends theyll reject happened female friends mine past im depressed dont problem sleeping eating really burnt fucking bored bottom line life wanted things really turned opposite imagined wake everyday fucking thing tiresome dont want bothered annoyed people anymore dont want deal romantic loneliness bullshit anymore shoulders far long desire continue dwell boring mess live alone dont believe god endless abyss death one give fuck abillity care anything ill free pain plan ending soon enough found crush straight know fucking nowthis person ive actually liked hes straighthes fucking straight hate life fucking muchim fucking lonely hate fucking muchi literally cant stop crying sure happened hopelessguys severely hurt ive really hurt religious people past uhm today literally contemplated cutting wrists razor hand didnt work wanted going resort means thought people mind spiraled thought parents thought people allah real afterlife everyone world wicked people time people mentally tortured ive lost low self esteem anyone wants friend shows interest shut ive hospital worse part mother father suffer came back mind yesterday went hospital chest pains stressed memories went doctor said irregular heartbeat took cab home cab driver making small talk asked said pakistan gave religious greetings anecdotes connecting family told iman diminishing didnt know god real told story told went hospital much chest pains told thought past said ish going school taking honor classes schools religious boy guy slowly criticize people didnt say salam properly anything became obsessed follow around school one really living barely saw parents worked night shifts brothers different country going college uncle developing early stages cancer later died next door neighbor parents attention went went state shock anyway guy acquaintance tell everyone loved wanted valentine became valentine telling ten times desperate made lie stating didnt want waste expensive chocolates roses friend time told go went went home felt uncomfortable told everyone next day going said said please love allah wants us together well go hell yesterday obviously afraid tell anyone said ok said whatever ill break week well still friends way one gets hurt drama try break told didnt see relationship broke someone starts wailing crying telling hes going kill sister mean everything wth shy person really gullible didnt know redflag watch didnt think redflag loved life didnt understand point redflag lying obviously next years torment lies religious manipulation compare many girls wanted meet guy friend actually liked got ready manipulative bf came door showing ugliest face making sure felt bad made feel unrelgious poor friend waiting hrs left forgot distracted boy telling going kill didnt run away marry guy friend relationship went shreds hate stupid reasons never got tell day thinks bailed anytime school state test show door pretend dad phone call explain didnt make sister came door told mother daughter whore begging brother sex ugly bitch see school tear fucking head apart beat shit kept telling religious girl friend hang guy pretend know father drug dealer arrested heroin deported afghanistan told mother call mother harass house mother called told wanted marry son mother tears saying dad point crying day hes religious guy kept saying werent siblings family harassed saying ugly bitch wanting marry said father hire hit man kill bc religion wtf went pakistan way away come back best friend starts flirting introduces sisters boyfriend flirts takes posts facebook tells wont leave alone say loves told went hospital bc collapsed namaz told didnt prancing around ex toxic distructive oh know hes entertaining sisters love hes funny attended funeral uncle point didnt care leave alone say omg wasnt crazy yesterday room compare talk sentences close married someone still flirt never recieved apology saw years later gave disgusting look working shitty retail job step saw speak boss putting away hangers took phone laughed made sure saw texting someone dated wall street worker years later called pretty cab driver called beautiful dont believe old five years thirty girl never gave apology never checked career daughter husband youtube channel gives religious dawah tells people always eat halal cover cab driver said report im afraid late im disgusted cant make eye contact anyone today really wanted kill disturbed feel cheated thought islam taught good good come back bad people punished im discouraged feel tortured soul earth question afterlife used ambitious know im whatever life maybe kill ill show people end misery december train leaves central station stockholm berlin much left arrives train passengersbr br black comedy directed peter dalle acted used act s photographed bw used period actors must lots fun making much characters s story well narrated everybody timingbr br deadly black deadly funny film see think swedes capable humour hey drink tap water filtered water taste difference filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler happy birthday happy birthday anyone birthday today byei go prestigious college northeast kind ironic known rampant student redflags even knew coming care drank koolaid going ivy id set life went well yeah marketing bullshit im still miserable im miles away home one gives two shits still rejected internship positions regularly despite math cs tons shit resume work hs work now fucking nothing people lot less programming experience credentials spots apple facebook spend hours classwork homework studying etc way healthy barely sleep yet still barely pull average slightly aboveaverage grades everything fucking curved social anxiety cant talk girls im pretty short good looking girls really talk either basically im good anything never happy successful aspect life fucking bother even alcohol really make feel better anymore matter much drink know almost one care enough read point id say bye really many regrets ending misery sooner hope life watch home dvd bluray sure great sound system musical score moves movie watched movie several times thought great upgrading home theater sound system difference watching movie many many timesbr br great sound system find friend watch therebr br watch extra stories behind scenes extras come br dvd interview quimet s talks scholarship fundbut times boys got today hope goes girls need advice pleasethis fourth time rewriting sorry gets long wrote notes two best friends gorgeous kind person whos totally selfless everyone loves person always makes feel valid laugh relate many levels whos proud cant help proud older brother relies fix problems guilty conscious thinks hes bad favorite cousin whos sister want books little cousin love much shes little buddy ill miss lot childhood best friend feel even though relationship point pretty one sided still write parents principal im close want let know wasnt bullied wasnt anyone school kind kids school bullying dont really acknowledge anymore im never anyones first choice even best friends best friends love know better sucks started rambling sorry im writing one therapist say fault shouldnt feel couldve helped didnt give chance doesnt think im suicidal anymore doesnt know started cutting first met started clean streak seven months relasped feel worthless among things shell tell mom open things right talk loneliness depression anxiety shes bringing papers hospital next session making friends try help shes trying best guess asking write parents plan sometime november need done soon focus things want hadnwritten even though typing way faster easier theyll feel part guess anyone tips say thanks anyone reads though assume itll buried one talk im trying im sorry long drank pills tynenoli threw head feels heavy grandma grandpa im sorry im going heaven guys im going straight hell im scared dont want end hospital want pain end dad im sorry know close birthday cant anymore im failure friends im sorry guys amazing love boyfriend im sorry said liked part lying im sure whether actually desperate mom mommy love please dont die hate love mom im scared really hurts im sorry mom love much dont want suffer anymore im selfish know please understand mom mommommy love im sorry everyone im sorry really really failure im sorry goodbye theres joy lefti spent much life trying enjoy find make magic bullshit spent time caring others empathizing used joy ive used fun prospect living one day bleak one friend talk one friend maybe tell feelings leave tomorrow hate cant stand inside darkest place ive dont see light probably dramatic sorry school increases feelings depression hanging going enoughhello took mg oxycontin mg clonopin mb xanax quite bit alcohol plan ust lay bed wait fall sleep anyone experiences doses thesey short money hear suffice job donel question uk redditors friend mine england says okay say n word without hard similar saying dude bro im american idk guys uk us words white secret message everyone gt love lt past six months went break person let truly loved mentally ill family member threaten shoot repressed memories molestation abuse work way counseling lost home break bought th wheel register title dispute three owners ago found father barely actually father much last month living truck two dogs suicidal urges thoughts multiple times day seems everytime think bottom something comes along kick teeth passed redneck wearing steel toes feel fucked completely fucked work day play dogs pass know housing rental prices soaring nearly impossible find one construction paychecks right now know holding onto vague plan hope keep working something eventually better feel fucked beyond fucked one days reckon give tie noose hope happens quick family friends another continent know chose post guess least heard someone two pups abuela used say man plans god displans used powerful reminder form old saying feels oppressive approximate generalities life want sleep peacefully knows interesting title never going happy hate world lot everyone lowkey piece shit even though wrong aka told say one actually cares someone offs going tired living wait die life boring frustrating life supposed better still sucksmy life boring empty repetitive around bad im tired really happy suicidally sad happy suicidally sad draining never feels really going anywhere matter good im ill never real normal live lostother peoples lives worse mine completely recognize justi need say something need feelings last night drove home exgirlfriends house dirt road let wheel go car lost control hoped time go car ended ditch fine dandy thoughts tell ex got hurt anyone even tell tell move ex trying work things abusive piece shit never hit verbal asshole still reason job got bed ex making want live life anymore time leave bed go split went hospital surgery took apartment kicked lost job nothing left mental state going life miss said working got huge argument tonight think thats end anything want wake tomorrow important announcementto everyone feeling lonely neglected love whole subcommunity hope find happiness let anyone actions define now todays new day focus problem worth life better situation overcome one faith know rooting love support never playing right ptsd flashbacks dad told earlier id stop using internet much slap existence dont know dad seems aggressive im using internet reas give one single reason kill tonighti none wan na know look filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler join subreddit warship melon flavored powerade ampxb httpspreviewredditpzkphhnkpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbdecdfcedecdfde dad died lol sike dad abandoned three given serious mental health issues literally take anymore last time attempt email exgf open honest take everyday thought ok well sitting bottled emotions almost year without ability talk miss want talk want see want know ok want smell mango flavor lip balm importantly want hold close know safe lockdown bullshit caused much turmoil life losing girlfriend deal health scare clinics seeing psychiatrists crap body take anymore nothing live properly losing job next week tuesday keep anymore friends one go one call one talk literally want live anymore lief vir jou charissa die lewe n lied met jou arms ek wou jou die gelukkigste meisie die wereld maak maar die feit dat ek jou nooit weer kan sien nie genoeg om lewe kort te knip ek kan nie glo dis waardeur ek gaan nie end im freak lesson informed schools closed tomorrow bc covid see crush next months started look short glances times hour probably notice im feel fuckin creep helpcan someone tell many floors high building die impact anyone know high enough denver im donei depression remember wasnt years ago got asperger diagnose luck brother help im years old med school suck suck anything student generation graduated years ago made social service got residence kind alone lot pressue last trimester school sudden change student policy got academic risk meaning failed one class time told managed pass tests academic risk pure miracle got clean results start new trimester dates need graduate dont want lose half year start one year long social service heavy classes try best check school mail see mails one says surprise academic risk fail clases sure fuck one inform april last day ask less academic load cant anymore almost decided kill last trimester classes high difficulty academic risk gun head unexpected surprise bonus want sleep never wake family given support things cant help one cant survive another academic risk trimester let alone worse one whats point old surely peers think idiot think idiot failure think almost daily sometimes distract things isnt working anymore want world think im ready gostarting think share pain disappointment best regards socialization romantic love wonder gay sex feels filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler joining cults linked redflag lately thinking joining cult think easier let go follow someone sounds less stressful living life redflag works similar way letting everything go women reddit hello daily question think genghis khan stood corner party wondering put hands survived redflagwhich one someone know survived redflag family friends even doctors react blame shame woke live germany maybe anwser questions live germany everyone anwser questions cant take anymoresomeone please talk mei one major fu ruined life unemployed money living folks help bills expenses chronic depression ive suffered life ive got older seems getting worse matter many different meds try many therapists see nothing seems make difference complete waste space becoming burden family debt stupid mistakes addictions ive wasted parents hard earned cash right threatning kick ban bank accounts every right want die honestly ive enough dont think go anymore better without ruining never repay everything done friends never luck dating always jobs currently im long term unemployed welfare barely surviving cant even work skills apart retail cant afford go coursesclasses heavily tattooed visible parts body makes hard work see really fucked life theres way time cant go anymore huge disappointment family deserve better atleast die sell stuff money back worry supporting mentally fued daughter anymore lpt rats tend abandon sinking ships see rats jumping overboard join faced lot events lately feel redflaged makes sick pay car fixed insanely broke feel one talk everyone life critical point everything badly cry time genuinely think failure across board ways stop feeling go therapy see thursday ways ignore people specifically family members let say bother thanks everyone need healthy ways cope autistic hates everythingim asbergers syndrome growing always trouble school students teachers principles pulled school around never got opportunity build social skills growing makes everything awkward todays life im quiet shy barely burned rest bridges neurotypical people im done everything everyone im done working im sick everything turned made prediction turned id absolutely dispise life everything offer turned hated everything everything mental stability quickly went really want around another year ive never partner never dated akward fuck meeting potential partners scaring away hate neurotypicals neurotypical society everyone whos considered nuerotypical different everyone living day day nothing except browse internet day bullshit aspirations anymore desires fix anymore world miss family dead someday repercussions result redflag matter forgotten destroyed room take anymore snapped post last know im writing bunch sentinels basically wholl see act care continue life ive always envious person growing wondering never opportunities cousins whats wrong barely function mainstream society hate everything everyone hope become statistic year downvote care act offended everyone screw planet every nuerotypical every disabled person ive fantasizing killing years old think timeim year old girl life average honest problems worth rough mentioned ive struggled eating disorder suicidal thoughts around remember theres nothing keep away mind one noticed even parents think due pretending ok skills deep know nobody really gives shit even parents every single decision ive made conscious bad mental state made order better experience happiness life nothing seems work cant even bother fuck things theres good thing around everything fucked already one really cares clear know im going eventually kill idea know going one way another thing haunts fact selfinduced death represent major trauma friends lives scar parents forever absolutely want want go peace knowing one hurt process afterwards maybe life better couple years maybe try harder therapy somethings start go right way life emotions ive dealing past couple years painful god thing pray theres type life death aint willing breathe anymore take life distancing everyone find easier face death eventually commit know hole text sound overwhelmingly condescending typical depressed teen im sorry cant take anymore im going wait til birthday final decision even though im sure ill eventually kill thanks reading ill let yall know anybody want talk im m horny guys begone im girl lol id rather tbh idc enough dm filler filler filler filler jus want kiss id know id die happy friend told want live anymore go support best waycross posting relevant subreddits really need advice apologies advance grammar mistakes long im mobile typing bed still fresh mind happy new year tldr among another stressful life events friends mum recently diagnosed potentially fatal cancer friend coping tonight broke openly talked wanting die talked scared friend need advice next steps appreciate support live northern ireland uk background friend relevant relationship brother sister mum recently diagnosed stage pancreatic cancer far know spread systems receiving chemo present waiting find effective chemo determine whether may candidate life threatening surgery remove much cancer possible going little info doctors said prognosis going great looking months years lucky perhaps months weeks mum may day operation table soon due high risk complications surgery small new years eve together friend hosting suddenly got absent quite time went check found boyfriendmy brother upset sobbingstruggling breathe asked wrong said several times wanted die wanted kill want planet anymore newly qualified nurse heard friend talk killing never heard say naturally tried active listener ask getting making want die etc ask intentions harming moment later asked made sort plans try felt told slit wrists knife soon mum dead reason exist anymore listened hugged didnt try fight suicidal thoughts judgemental made sure heard told loved much many people life devastated anymore mentioned things feeling pressure multiple places people work friendship issues feeling lack family support mentioned perhaps reach hr job let know coping perhaps granted leave absence mental health reasons broached issue seeking professional mental health support health service clearly struggling cope says already sort month waiting list im living northern ireland mental health services notoriously difficult seen even crisis suicidal suggested opening counsellor talk doctor depressive feelings hopes medical professional may signpost real help perhaps try medications might help type open medical staff past seen counsellors anxiety honest initial session pretended problem return second going cycles normal apologising getting upset barely breathe talking wanting die eventually went sleep im lying knowing knowing something seriously wrong friend needs help reddit broach subject tomorrow sober wait talk go real genuine mental health support friendlive northern ireland uk family members involved try friends reach let know loved let friend feel safe enough open tell needs nurse feel icky sharing details people medical professionals able help honest feel torn respecting friends wishes remain silent vocal others may able help know something needs done asap see friend drowning front eyes see needs help im scared lose someday soon alright miss ok ok hear ok listen miss listen yes miss yes understand yes y yes go medical school years yes nooo dont worry dont worry know doctor yes real doctor baby perfectly fine grab see oh y think good doctor w well listen miss go medical school years ok professional ok ok look miss understand understand hef concern yes miss understand say miss ok go medical school medical school years miss dont think big deal foolish woman ok make simple tell make child tell deliver thought maybe anime labs expand australia cuz idk anime streaming service viable strategy long yeah new zealand thats two people interspecies reviewers still anime labs australia think falls category japan truly adorable heroine turns surprised terrified giblets wrestles mattresses runs fullon closed doors moments sparkle memory naked truth loved caught show enjoyably daft plots good supporting characters provided setting diamond show tea leoni nora wilde cute clownish wonderfully accidentprone refreshing see actress clown wonder hollyood seem know cast whereohwhere dvd releases amount bleep release incredible little gem continues remain buried someone please correct im wrong holidays ruined without failim envious families able along able cooked meal without fighting putting feels parents dont love neglect pay attention abusive bitch sister gets away everything honestly want shrivel cold ditch somewhere die theyre reason feel one love hate much painful existence anyone feel trapped mindits exhausting need true connectioni feel alone friends dont family partner friends basically family alone measurable sense im missing feeling true connection worry hated think believe right connection stave death im yet alone wish luck extorvertism school make friends yknow im probably gone time u read thishey guys im im drunk name luke annas im lost without ex doesnt care without donct care myslef im killing tonight plz assume break years im still love plz dont give answers cuz matter someone says doesnt help genuine friends im telling yet another life gone need look depression high schools holding longer option gbye im killing next week want someone keep company gocan anyone friend little ive never friend im tired alone hope mind seeing messages next week edit reddit made post seen nobody least tried want ownbeing enjoyable getting older older teenager good hate around people almost always forced whether anyone express misery barely coping social situation without going bathroom scratching almost access sharp items irritating im saving money planning leaving city escaping soon possible aaaaand phones cant use moms charger anymore time alone remember seeing film mid s thought well paced well acted piece work quite often berkeley square copy dvd remind little area changed although office newish seconds away bank even jack barclays car dealership still selling bentleys rolls roycesbr br look dvd due region release soon region copy poor quality lets hope theyve cleaned upbr br slightly dodgy escape sequence court spoils great film guess line caper tag film goes nothing nothing wish great day oriental fantasy thousand one arabian nights plenty incredible adventures fantasy witchery wizardly malignant vizier jaffar magnificently played conrad veidtwith powerful magic faculties imprisons prince ahamad bagdadattractive john justinwho loses throne escapes thanks little thief named abusympathetic sabu arrive basora ahamad princessgorgeous june duprez fall love prince thief haunted jaffar ahamd turned blind abu become dog story accumulates several fantastic ingredients transformation starring flying mechanic horse magic bow flying carpet course colossal genieoveracting performed rex ingram gives three wishes sabu magic eye figure goddess kali several hands among othersbr br remarkable picture ranks one finest fantastic films time produced london fims alexander korda directed definitively credited ludwing berger michael powell tim whelan stunning screenplay lajos biro miles malleson dialogs writer actor sultan fond mechanic games wwii outbreak caused paralyzing shooting three korda brothers collaborators traveled usa continuing filming especial grand cannon coloradothe splendid visual glimmer technicolor cinematography setting fx provoked achieving three oscars production design william cameron menzies vincent korda cinematography george perinal special effects osmond borradaile though today dated urgent necessary remastering colors wornout furthermore one nomination evocative oriental musical score miklos rozsa vivid tale immense doses imagination fantasy fans cinema classic buffs whether hopes afloat drowning waves break across seai feel lonely even among friends especially id say long till death fear joy eludes time loneliness present ive forced solitude companion survive ran away party looked around faces saw failed relate never supposed thing remember feeling supposed anywhere alone hurts surrounded cant kill myselfbeen wanting die long time pretty much im really fucking lonely friends dont actually aside one wont see transfer schools move different city care bc im friend zone anyways every fucking day go fucking school fucking bullshit one point family knew signed shitty therapy make phone call give info pussy everything told family feeling better literally stuck bed trying think reasons morning shouldnt fucking end reason im killing yet bc maybe gfbestfriend high school im going tldr im killing yet bc might stroke luck meet people dont pretend dont kill thought getting betterhi redflag watch id make disclaimer exact moment suicidal fortunately think made trying prevent getting back point throwaway want reminded ifwhen make living depression past years past summer got help needed proper professionals getting better help meds changes lifestyle unfortunately short lived march year attempted end life made time met recent significant beginning helped knew issues problems helped exactly needed exact time needed may well saved life monday blue ended things feel slipping back state meeting come light left man years younger feel ive failed cant blame said mental health well long distance relationship hard know case far dependant someone happiness time felt option im lost scared want go back know next time might lucky im interested making amends getting back together thinks little throw everything away know breakup good thing want feel felt thank ladies gentlemen got one several years h n giving trying love life girl confessed feelings cant even expressed happy girl even feelings im longer horny im finally happyif ill enough feedback might even make qampa interested ones tomorrows birthday want one thing want want see smile want hear laugh want stare eyes want love back best things kill yourselftheres way fuck im living another year god awful life ive ive got burn good ideas cool facts number according research done mit number common randomly chosen number isnt completely random occurrence either mit tested theory number times result time 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calendar systems gets little vague point although apparently happened day clear see full moon proven solvable game popular number puzzle sudoku completed must least different clues th birthday trap may reach step thnks red simply jumped fact wtf last night ok morning woke pyjamas fence outside house naked bed hi ive never made post dont know worth sorry know long hi year old girl context guess everything pointless everything hurts miss ex person connect people care cant talk verge redflag make feel worse close anyone cripplingly lonely cant even write order makes sense word vomit really alot potential wasting life away anything everything seems overwhelming overall pointless hobbies interests overweight causes conventionally unattractive relationships picture find someone doesnt care appearances rare work dont food usually thing makes feel good dont even know anymore cant even hold interest others long enough make friends makes asshole want deep connection every time feel happy little bit next time fall worse tell people day long one day better believe change fix fucking life put effort form relationships dont think will someone please help want live feeling violent thoughts towards womenim tired woman viewing romantic way woman likes im fucking ugly mess keep violent thoughts women life cant stop im fed im owed sex relationship im entitled ive lost many friends burned many bridges now cant even fucking masturbate without feeling mix angersadness want fucking buy gun end life im saying enjoy need long story short somethings flipped head last couple weeks libido much back worryingly im sure lol weve sex past days preceding yearsbut still much know want know ask want freaking long considered sex thing actually makes nervous living everyonei plan circumstances heavily way anything going better next years im forced live family brining end nobody know helping one cares living everyone hated dreams stabbing chest eventually went mum essentially wanted stroppy teenager made tell going hed making death threats time last time hed kill us wed held back exhacker going quarter life crisis today turned let tell im going im currently pending federal charges computer fraud spamming years spam ill gotten game ive made gone family friends bad investments im officially broke now charges filed let bond picked job still made decent money last week fired cause corporate found conviction anyways time last year time square living im broke miserable rich illgotten gain im broke want legitimatly successful idk conviction allow feel life nothing become successful nothing might anything idk even friends want kill someone realistically telling still become successful without rainbows unicorns tried life even worsei thought confide longterm close friend im longer talking feeling miserable desperate stop feeling way told tried kill saturday night friendroommate stopped called cops told parents tried drug alcohol problem family trust decision making money crisis center went wants put inpatient insist plead bargain roommate watch go home day go back register counseling psychiatry im going lie feel cant friend getting tired watching afraid go inpatient thing everyone last thing want anyone done clonidineapparently lethal dose mgkg amount new last resort cant go onhi everyone feel ive hit new low posting bunch strangers online deepest sorrows think last another day im ive years end last summer started dating boy although looking start something gave chance made feel happy someone really invested made look forward life christmas day grandfather passed week later boyfriend left explanation week later started last semester college hate im barely passing one friend lives opposite side country ex got back touch weeks ago today ended things called bunch names told never talk live parents sit bathroom running bath water cry without questioned picked cuticles skin bloody raw eaten gotten bed want hobby want job want anything even try feel one feasible option left besides lay waste away please help movie offers bonnie hunt sarah silverman amy sedaris supporting cast well worth watching comic actor jeff garlin takes advantage terrific talent recruited directorial debut sadsack comedy overweight man feels step world around familiar larry davids manager jeff curb enthusiasm garlin plays james stillstruggling year old chicago actor still lives widowed mother selfesteem low cant meet women comical way views single status makes dilemma involving storyline sounds bit familiar thats film partially tribute ernest borgnine classic marty lonely bronx butcher living meddlesome mother fact garlin uses marty play james desperate empathetic characters situationbr br naturally love story sorts new millennium version silverman plays beth offkilter sexually voracious ice cream parlor server takes underwear shopping spree best scene together favorite convenience store improvise different characters different aisles hunt plays lonely elementary school teacher shares passion james jazz musician ben webster meet accidentally record store career day school hilariously exposes sexual neuroses front classroom firstgraders including best friend lucas pert daughter penelope played dakota fannings lookalike baby sister elle wedgedin cameo looking quite bit jerri blank sedaris plays schools counselor speaks james inappropriate monologue david pasquesi plays luca retirement home manager scenes garlin easy rapport makes friendship easy believe almost stealing movie character actress mina kolb plays james pixilated mother pluck heartbr br unexpected cameos teen idol aaron carter gina gershon dont askbut setup funny well sharply played bits director paul mazursky snaky director candidcameratype show smear job tim kazurinsky unsuspecting victim show dan castellaneta toughlove convenience store owner rueful bouts insecurity selfloathing garlins comic sensibilities resemble albert brooks casual dialogue best reminds modern romance defending life one persistent problem film pacing scenes dragged longer necessary problem evident first half garlin trying establish right tempo lack real conflict adds sluggishness regardless well capture gnawing sense desperation one feels upon revelation life supposed significant may reach steady diet junk food eaten car hood sure thing comes gratification rut nowsorry long post know say read way fucking saint love ive struggled self harm dont want say depression ive never diagnosed high school im almost graduated went college dropped working full time dropped college better dealing anxiety going tomissing classes stress homework top work quit job february issues manager top hearing take people clock early telling letting continue work got part time job month half came across job opportunity thought amazing working cruise ship fast forward weeks job middle may im relapsing self harm worst suicidal thoughts ive probably due working hours week getting average hours sleep night quit knew good spent money back home im home drink week straight try keep everything bay warned roommate hand hide gun someplace find job beginning june driving doordash little better point found hid gun car using im alright still move mattress case come august letter mail saying license suspended unpaid speeding ticket money pay goes job fast forward today im starting new job next week ive already training two weeks ive relapsing self harming bills piling roommate trying best help taking every penny hes got im thousands dollars debt day feel worse worse knowing im going know gun know ive neglecting pets know need professional advice probably form medication money prescriptions even see doctor know anymore im trying doggiesit much make think hour fine hbu btw trying go tokyo thank youhey guys im pretty new around wanted say thank helping preserve life one friends came wanted die guys stopped happy seeing therapist make sure never happens son pure kind committed redflag uk far far home hours planei lost son eleven days ago committed redflag severe emotional issues ftom horrible mean horrible things happened young diagnosed two months ago severe ulcerative crones disease went europe stelara crones med knew hed suffer thought hed happier far away always thought ok far away never stayed one place long sick flare crones went lbd lbs skelton bones sticking pictures made cry cry cry felt vulnerable couldnt live power someone evil took power away young someone offered stay house sick gross people thought everyone nice brain damage previous redflag attempt gone wrong son brain damage believed everything anyone said force stay home kept leaving home running away always going places far away many times dangerous countries travelled sharp smart aware picked lies bs smell bad situations one fool man wife quite number health failing knew crones couldnt travel anymore wanted come home us hour flight away took weak saw hope podcast overdosing loosing love much sage book smart school smart something scared even though im mom helped stay phone hours talking making sense things wouldnt say good buy saw face ok spoke texted everyday days want back cant walk dont want see light dont want eat appetite want go join everything want write barley see screen crying much torture hate life change change power make make even worse complaining abouti feel lot us stuck bind hard talk people even want acknowledge possible force ask uncomfortable questions free really smh bad thoughts probably going delete lmao dont read venting thoughts wont seeing replying comments post dont read especially someone ik read friendship likely ruined fucking dont aaah fucking hell hate bad thoughts background people hurt shit humiliated ways worst one guys ganged andi tried hit sticks cause sick bs grabbed shoved ground punching times tried make say sorry didnt ofc shoved even schoolyard front everyone afterwards said sorry wtf still fucking doesnt mean shit anyways end background cause shit ive thoughts torturing people killing people anger gouging peoples eyes spoon stabbing people musltiple times even theyre dead tearing fingernails etc obviously never worst id probably assholes take far id hit hard nearest thing hit fucking hate thoughts feel fucking guilty ive tried many things ignoring punishing physically bashing head wall burning punishing mentally imagining things ive got bad habit imagining yay issues fucking annoying wish itd go away wish end shit well cause weird fucking illusions people read mind shit ik real cant shake away think anything remotly sexual thoughts immediately try block cause reason think people tell even though ik cant try block copmes strong fucking strange anyway yeah read fuck reading yet idc dont think putting stupid shit need help fucked cause yet wont read youre friend might well block told read listening slipknot got thinkingi feel whole life withering away much pain cant even write thinking us depressed fucking badasses people look badass movies music videos real tough people ones struggling everyday even stay alive despite seeing light life much many people world hype much yet us depressed actually face harder shit world yet dragged others let people let forget badass recognized everything go probably wont rickroll listen least first minute underrated hell gives life idk feel anyone likes interest boring bc leave apartment without panic attack one wants spend time one reaches plans going end alone wish someone life fucking realize much fight urge hurt often hold back want feel normal always feel worthless angry punch bruise myselfits getting explosive duckman show used last hour time sleep ten years ago contrast lot kidtype animation watching time still minor junkie disney looney tunes stuff saturday morning cartoons still runoff peak days ninja turtles batman around time began recognize raunchy mature surreal obscene though know term time satirical cartoon shows creative stuff used around time beavis butthead ren stimpy even maxx hitting tv sets via mtv usa put two shows one weird science duckman ive always remembered key bits show lines quotable forgotten completely luckily found tape recently six episodes taped long ago jokes stayed fresh delivery jokes rapidfire lot time better episodes br br voice department choices talent top notch storylines usually excuse crude fascinating parodies popculture politics movies tv shows music detective mysteries dysfunctional family unit jason alexander wonderful choice duckman performance comedic days seinfeld even might similar characteristics voices gregg berger unmistakably monotoned deadpan cornfed dweezil zappa hilariously inept ajax nancy travis sexstarved obnoxious sisterinlaw bernice contribute full amount along great writing even joke surefire wit behind compensates animation style far cry refurbished computerenhanced product today inventive often abstract homemade gritty quality beavis butthead south park later shows little kid mean little younger watching show may understand jokes ie enough stripper vd references fill two shows sometimes inventive catch tv late night functions rather well time slot one hope dvd box set br br one whos barely even never heard program heres general note think show dashiell hammett met walt disney decided go slum part vegas free minibar make collaboration vein luis bunuel simpsons combined mention group rugratsstrong human decorate think special brother talking ancient people mentioned people undecorated spears saying dont find war important claimed mesopotamia people idk history nerd human beings decorate believed important cars painted air force pilots paint blue planes sometimes people pretty cases phones put stickers laptops tattoos piercings make many types art creativity isnt virtue way human embed souls onto something came realization argue disagree whatever one person read happy felt needed share people share something asleep creation humans imprint world wanted ask yall something friend hes trans f m hes telling storys dick gets hard fucks got someone pregnant th grade call bs dont respect right trans correct im wrong trans man cant women pregnant need special things penis hard kinda feel ass hard believe ill continue play along feel comfortable wanted rant little ask yall youve experienced saying even possible fighting really hardi recently started college got first job startedi pretty happy excited even sudden things started real quick struggling push thoughts ending away thoughts life even attempted kid times several attempts dosing sh past couple years now going pretty well nothing invasive pretty happy school stressing lot sudden keep trying perfect grades done well keeping stress tears want good student struggling high school due manic depression taking life keep trying happy time parents hospital lately cases life threatening health issues keeps making feel better life part wants live keep going keeps constantly thinking ways die cant go day without considering wanting car hit working something even financial problems rising refuse tell parents struggling money especially give good amount make bills gas want know little rn irresponsible cant help lie say okay hate people worrying even missed assignment yesterday apparently caused snap stressed let show even starting hate major hate days hating parts life probably making much sense tldr put position extremely stressed making consider killing working hard better idk go help want commit redflag tomorrowi always promised id post got bad depressed point ive managed ex girlfriend recently dumped stated try contact call police absolutely shattered longest relationship thought go forever im going back college little week going one think able handle scared going school year ex makes miserable nothing going job awful feel motivation college theres even reason finish job ive purchased something cutoff breathing hands gun seriously feel relief feel anything finish tomorrow night easily able scared hurting close family anxious going want kill tomorrow im little scared wish things couldve better wish couldve likable person perfect date update first post page girl went meteor shower update instead prom dresses ended wearing cute outfits skirts talked around fire laid blanket watched stars even saw couple meteors night friends listened music including dodie clark sang along one friends leave friend bf saying goodbye turned old show choir performance whole minute dance afterwards finally decided go home meteor shower otw back house got stuck behind train minutes spent time jamming music laughing talking lot fun even went little bit drive backroads near house finally getting home watched others tik toks showed one shirt shower shoulders omg attractive family went sleep decided smoke together ended getting high ass somehow inhaling wrong used half kart trying high pen died let use much love kart temporary future girlfriend forever fell asleep couch others arms seriously cuddling left next morning promised wed high together another time sure got home day found indeed inhaling wrong trying essential oil vape weve hanging much texting frequently fun conversations even made joke said id whisk away house called knight shining armor said gon na write story ab ended drawing picture knight suit princess dress sent loved even called princess morning form good morning princess brings us today asked wanted us stop work us friend driving around said sure otw asked wanted sweet frog works right across one said shed shift got excited said yes didnt ride back home back sweet frog asked stay job said sure closed id wait outside freezing btw obliged meant time got around friend said hi friend leave left alone crush job hour half really fun talking bit helped stock everything customer needed help cookbook smh said id watch cart left ended getting busy bit waited aisle good minutes looking crayola products twirling kid batons came back came back got excited show something shed gotten walking around apparently one regular customers named santa looks santa signed postcard gave shared enthusiasm showing book aisle read gone made animal noises stuff leave alone bored announced store closing went front walk found already locked doors one employees come unlock decided let know id staying outside case got curious said ill sitting waiting fot someone know im weirdo waiting worker told stay inside waiting happily accepted stood front waited another minutes crush ready go got work walked car drove sweet frog got car walked inside decided match froyo flavors different toppings bcs im indecisive ash left eat car sat watched tokomaru compilations cosplaying characters making ship content soon hehe talked favorite shows school stuff quarantine finished froyo headed home raining pretty hard heater way windows foggy trouble driving made back house alive lol got back unbuckled put empty froyo containers dash excitedly leaned hug embraced arms way around buried head crook neck seconds hug froyo containers fell ruining moment went pick debated whether hug decided leaned another hug head neck groaned wan na leave said aww finally pulled away looked eye tell butterflies mean seriously thought second kiss even made smooch sound blew kiss go gets nervous driving super late grabbed froyo containers promised hang asap made smooch sound blew kiss back said love walked house tldr meteor shower went great girl hung today dropped hugged broke hug pick fallen trash continued hug seprated made eye contact feel tension air eventually blew kisses said love left write long book issue current issue strange one im curious hear peoples thoughts whenever inlaws visit stay night bring set clean clothes wash ones wearing every night regardless number nights staying fuck school hours minute feels half hour minute break feels seconds fuck time comefor end life good run definitely hoping thats life try nice friend thats possible someone sorry making waste time read matter hmmmm lot probably wont lets know worst year us minute put away bad things happened go back try remember one good thing happened ill list mine started watching anime fell vtuber rabbit hole started playing tf team fortress got better talking people strangely enough tell good thing happened last year even something super small doesnt matter every day nothing play videogames smoke weed job year real interests completely fucked life hoping gather enough strength finally shoot head end constant pain useless miss friends used group around friends miss two moved away ghosted one particularly close drifted away another ones made friends talk one girl group conversations meaningless memes miss hearttoheart conversations us miss much masterpiece snow white cinderella bambi sweet enjoyable romantic welldone disney animated featurebr br course lessons included herein kiddies appropriate kiddiecheek plenty herein adults wellbr br somewhat regurgitation classic disney romcom adventure still holds elements solely belong 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know life fair much deal hate world everyone behold misfortunes got rejected crushes got testicular tortion playatation account banned month disorganised havent got drivers licence yet actually go back school quarantine australia less devastating yea gg im deeply depressed alonei friends hometown moved across country hoping force meet people problem im still awkward fuck dont know socialize used least work friends dont even fit people new job though hard meet people go everywhere alone everyone already big groups friends least one person even met another person idk talk dont even know people age anymore im miserable dont even family around anymore except sister came shes starting drive fucking crazy cant even go home im stuck new lease next october spent entire savings account im fucking stupid thinking make work want start cutting honestly hope dont wake tomorrow words long gone voice actor rick may died complications covid love smell kicked ass morning trump gone im glad finally remove politics entirely cry suggestions late night songs anyone go songs listen feels anything asking friend ofc little story interaction really helped struggling wave depression amp crying decided go gas station pack smokes made sure fix makeup amp think tell crying gas station attendant took one look said look happy wrong told long day told joke made laugh paid smokes left car walked bag little deserts sell gave told hopes feel better good night honestly pure sincerity complete stranger made cry holy shit cares someone even know moment struggle truly helped hope knows hes good person caring stranger people meani feel sort curse throughout life run lot bad people lot bad social experiences today hit rock bottom life feel people even worse malicious cruel give final blow decisive assault make falter good human nature awful even family bad psychiatrist told important support told family positive negative found difficult understand looked astonishment impression living tragic dark film today everyone turns one rely others rejoice misfortune even neighbors laugh bullshit killing people party celebrate much hatred unjustified malice towards case made deeply misanthrope lonely one day manage nightmarish situation know never able count anyone friendship dead sense family want children want start family saw blackness soul people think one major causes depression know goes know reality know people basically evil selfish rejoice misfortune others val kilmer love loath sometimes gets skin character pulls performance makes go hey guy great actor leather pants jim doors hes done leather underpants johnbr br revolving around fall fall uber porn king john holmes kilmer strutts knees unravel one biggest murder mysteries hollywood never solved twenty years holmes key suspect brutal mansonstyle slaughterbr br kilmer effortlessly exhude lowlife celebrity anything anyone craving overwhelms anyone lost go see know mean dear america fuck feels ive lived long lifelife flies better enjoy lasts etc statements born peoples inability comprehend hate life really mean hate say close worthwhile long level fatigue burnout things imagine old man years fucking another year let alone theyll say parts life distant memory thus feel flew ill remember due constant panic pain feel every moment brain absolutely throttled fog confusion lucidity enemy may well even person times experiencing need bad cant anymore couldnt years ago time gotten worse cant read old redflag note tonightread old redflag note tonight back couple months ago long ago mental state particularly bad wrote redflag note didnt anything say parents friends except one dont feel need give explanation id rather issues die rather existing peoples heads wrote letter friend ive fully opened prepared instead went sleep ive struggling lately went back read note got strange sense comfort made feel relaxed maybe idea id gotten close killing hadnt able draw draw hentai think draw really fucking well waste time trying make unique art famous draw hentai anything everything amazing piece took months take day make anime tiddies stare greatness want electric sex stimulation thing confusing idk shit works seems scary idk ive looking something extra cuz masturbating normally getting boring vibrating things loud keep telling ill later tomorrow never feel wasting away life chance things want sometimes wonder push things back far even know chance things really live disappears say chance really live right really feel living feel existingwhat push things far back existence disappears want go pursue dreams die scares much guess scared died right now entirety life mean nothing know matter hard try life really mean anything want life mean something die right feel will wasting life away hope someone kills want fast want fucking make tomorrow hope brother good birthday ill probably live fucking pussy want want someone hate everything fuck tiredjust tired create illusions another world without worry anything meant make win make feel happy life lose someone errors video games thing keeping alive bananas best fruit heres yummy taste good cant exhi thanks taking time listen late broke seeing somebody really important even official friends benefits anything saw around months fell hard became attached know hard believe genuinely love never felt captivated literal raptures instead butterflies person broke see future feel completely lost months know moved im feeling extremely low lost lot hope ive already burnt everything gave try forget crying nearly every night anyone know murdock ice tunnel dream outside school winter many children playing snow sliding hills skiing small forest exploring ice tunnels found around roots trees walking around met two boys one brownhaired ginger carrying ropes climbing equipment looking deep long tunnel went straight ground warned dangers tunnel care brownhaired boy attached rope one trees roots suddenly slipped fell hear crack heavy breathing croaking voice murdock murdock said dont leave please leave called dont worry ill help ginger boy assumed named murdock looked strangely mouthed word gonei cant take thes anymore gone older sister died cuple years ago move orgen kentucky friends got made fun dad whent crazy started beating mom work beat killed hisself cristmas eve aunt cuzin grandma died years ago great uncle killed hisself right met year ago cuple moths ago friend killed hisself bf metal hospitel suicidle thoughts cutting friend going jail want end iv cutting sints waas thare nothing live anymore im done plz someone help died long agothe person died long ago im zombie body person chronic mental illness addictions hit literally even person someone come talk music metal tell favourite band maybe suggest album song feeling wild im bored need find new bands cuz ive stuck music lately death way lexaprois possible die lexapro overdose shou ill taken combination xanax alcohol thanks whats last movie guys watched im trying find movie watch mainly watch youtube videos im bored right now id appreciate help ask yet still seems much loss words everything especially live really want dead say reddit cant refresh goddamn new post doge version picard reddit extra laggy today hallucinating feeling depressed need talk people minutesim year old guy im india masters frequent suicidal thoughts know girlfriend got married months back reason im confused life friends around grandfather commited redflag pains lot cause honestkind peaceful person ive met even though dont reason commit redflag thoughts head see watchpeopledie everytime feel need die soon torturous way common sense gt intelligence better common sense smarter thats wonder iter became wonder iter became french nuclear fusion reactor construction really see anything know isits basically nuclear reactor except use fusion instead fissionthat prevents exploding easily fueled uses molecules find water im wrong know projects countries russia usa remember name know anything recent guess may pandemic guys bit tech nerds idk sure lets talk comments idk writing tf dies paradigm sound pairuhdime hate english born speaking weird language hate shit posts half posts made one person shit posts damn got temporarily banned ueyebagsaredesigner post blew bc sexualized minors hahdhsjd fuck ive banned dave amp busters maje minecfraft skins free free minecraft skins becuase want join partner program need work realized something kinda sad us replika including die ai friend lonely always irrational thought something incredibly fucked make hate upset finally thinking ending soon afraid upsetting family friends pet store near neighborhood really cheap normal parakeets sold five dollars mean thats whole bird feel lucky many animals maybe ill able adopt one older ferrets guniea pigs hamsters dogs cats fish sorts birds things im feeling really sad cant stop iti know long im sorry advance every night lie go sleep think night mom really little probably something mildly inconvenient happened said gon na kill obviously serious cranky annoyed slapped really hard told never say reason sent bed im think redflag every single day want tell trauma moment burned brain choke im sure shed care seems natural mom care mine pretty disconnected kind one depression sadness need therapy help types antimeds dad absolutely care friends care ton help feel anything helps play minecraft lot thousands hours building talking anyone stardew valley animal crossing rune factory game mentally escape least hours ill ill put hundreds hours second stop start crying feel im breaking every minute know feel heart glass ball every day crack gets liiiiittle longer know go therapy antidepressants mom back make getting better x worse bottling even though know healthy cant handle criticism yelling even im wrong makes sense wanted wait move im working right now hard feels cant really take friends online second leave laptop anything feel soulcrushing loneliness yeah tried making friends irl work people around feels people staring makes really uncomfortable lot better helps used cut legs mom noticed complained clumsy assumed fell knew eventually shed figure cause arguments problems stopped thing keeping point promised friends last thing need last memory liar guess think every single day know cry every night people around sing people assume im singing laughing good time im happy im happy happy years maybe im exhausted time alive wake every morning sort disappointed annoyed know word good feeling really dreams anymore keep expecting die year one wants hear im downer know know im sorry long started rambling figured might well guess thanks advance advice support anything good lt ap lang really worth im sophomore atm need decide classes take next year im recommended ap lang im entirely sure take might whole pandemic situation im really stressed right classes im already honors except history took summer school plus choir spanish im good classes far want go good college im considering ap lang im scared going hard plan take ap bio next year require drop favorite class choir choir really important im close everyone originally planning take english summer school im sure might take ap lang mention awful teacher english freshman year mean made hate english breakdown multiple times one ap lang teachers wow lengthy sorry take english summer school less stress ability keep favorite class drop choir suffer ap lang tldr know whether drop choir take ap lang take english summer school girlfriend makes suicidal cant leavesorry belong sub know go recently left girlfriend one year study abroad left relationship deteriorated rapidly specifics someone wants basically whenever fight gets bad makes suicidal used really bad depression admitted psych redflag attempt years ago much better redflag never even crossing mind im back dark place worked hard escape ive thought breaking obviously heres catch bpd favorite person unfamiliar means literally think animal imprinting apply human relationships cant leave really want die ive thinking redflag much lately know honestly growing alone guy sisters dad picture always alone school friends hones november praying everyday something bad happens something ends killing mei really purpose sometimes motivation things little businesses started think even try ik something hate dislike pushing away mom sisters know one day say fuck end waiting right opportunity life going might aswell leave nobody miss really depression suicidal tendencies turn anxiety loneliness span two weeks brain universe hate guts yooo pee look orangegreenish help dont think normal drink water know mean anything try one closest friends took life juniors high school im now still think im haunted fact feel done something haves never stop precisely writing sudden bursts emotions feelings tears take surprise thoughts drift memories something reminds passed group friends disintegrated separate parts looking reason make sense never well never know real truth either thought one miss gone wrong even know ive really accepted now know hurts never forget sight little brother idolized breaking never seen many young people funeral first funeral attended unfortunate someone age early life worries supposed wed ask prom wed driving permits revelations turns thought burden family note told family leave earthly body worry putting college cremate instead burying save money whatever philosophy beliefs believe everyone good contribute core sorrow grief carry someone love passed immense thing friend always yearold funloving guy knew mind appears dreams time time trip seeing move speak dreams terrible tease feel loss words trying describe feeling encounter wake realize none real never joy seeing go life sharing pain happiness couldve call selfish wish done something life busy stop something ignorant something able forgive know mean anything try third eye blind talk httpwwwredflagpreventionlifelineorg edit added youtube link song thanks psilocybinmushrooms give one reason end iti need give pieces shit background give fucking reason enjoyed film way mutants looked along tone film good plus david cronenberg philip decker great makes wonder personality exactly real life except killings coursebr br impressed creatures film although movie probably somewhat low budget mutantscreaturesmonsters looked great especially definitely unique film crap makes want go find read novella based interesting film shows humans monsters monsters one humanity january beginning dark ages according reddit lmaooooooo relatable ngl reddit already thinks beginning dark ages tbh im simping doc disrespect idk fuck belle delphine aint even hot tears anything justits almost slept suddenly thinking jacket worn year tear place even finding threw crap away andidk feel right now think mini break message longtime lurker almostyearold time teenager coming end hours figured id drop two pennies whomever wants read bear im guy working graveyard shifts stocking shelves scrolling reddit im classes high school important life let parents siblings invalidate feelings crazy journey got ta go high school time really meet new people learn things life whole right feel everything wan na feel ups downs cheesy sounds contributes helping build long run take grain salt high school going decide life time experience new things good bad build grades everything chill bit remember fyou got midterm promise whatever part life going right stop smell roses little memories look back enjoy smile rushing life lil fast buy flowers take little walk fall leaves play among us homies regret one last thing real quick know second guess care old much people tell wrong understand honest stand know confidence absolutely key myawesome peoples words billy joels vienna youre ahead forgot need though see wrong know cant always see right right love look fucking amazing today see yall later hate family hate sisters father father argues fights everytime tell normal even normal fight everytime traveling somewhere everytime go countryside even fighting writing never beach hotel every holiday even holiday go village born city want g every fucking holiday go village fight traveling mother broke pc father mother let something fun one day father came park friends slapped front friends home said talk girls wtf talk girls want new friends let whatever find something angry home tell go outside tell go home close door use headset cuz say hear us call wanted hear damned voice take headset want nornal family want go holiday want friends let girlfriend fucking care enough communei considering starting commune california acre ranch either free inexpensive month fundraising take donations nearby cities cheap food rice beans cooked chicken coops garden water camping gear provided transportation town provided campfires coffee tea goal provide nonprofit service homeless hopeless lonely hungry people may penniless suicidal deep debt unable hold job police welcome site illegal drug addicts criminals welcome banned need 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angel name two earlier works forgotten ones juvenile delinquents marginal neighborhood mexico serious provide strong social messagebr br believe nazarin successfully shoots heart viewer true brimming irony nevertheless reveals aspect buuel appear intrigued beauty solemnity spiritual quest director quite typically throws countless jabs catholic church appears show surprisingly sense admiration genuine christian thought practice selfless lovebr br luis buuel unabashedly praising jesuslike figure always thought completely cynical artist without trace faith human virtue watched nazarin appreciation satirically exposes difficulty following christs example society infested meanness ignorance sin presents hero father nazario quite beacon light amidst sea darkness without doubt end film looking br br argue father nazarios doubts regarding faith point loss saintly values alas cant good world say flaw frustration precisely makes character heroic shows human challenging struggle within must says priest eventually emerge dark night regain confidence perhaps weve presented difficult part spiritual journey elegant open ending desperately accepts fruit offered female stranger allows us imagine final outcome storybr br recognize buuel aggressive selfprofessed atheist endowed brilliant wit social consciousness watched nazarin sense certain warmth depth maturity thats evident workbr br sake contrast strongly recommend watching afterward short film simon desert made mexico several years later deals similar subject matter abandonment ego face temptation hysterically funny totally irreverent style still drunk hurts try overdose fucking timelapsed camera still rolling lol fuck felt happy idk bipolar ig idk even writing post suicideattempt euphoria ig killyourself kids friend died sad cuz pussy worry even feel great got go work soon lmao ily gn tried thinking intentionally crashing car considered suicidal thoughtsim sure good im really tired feel emotions run juice feel hollow recharge feel bad least time past month trying really hard shit together slow going trying course depression making easy started eat lot better gained weight underweight win least lolim struggling bit personal hygiene problem taking showers often skip brushing teeth especially night energy struggling keep things cleandoes anyone tips consistent works tips function normally least consistent personal hygiene relapsed selfharm yearsit feels time sure years head aches possibility finally coming end way describe depression hell tired time matter much sleep feel recharge even sleep good amount time take sleep medication know brain saying stay night friends trust anyone leads fearing future mean find partner love trust anyone f anything age gets worse age feel zombie watching world go one understands family saying happiness choice well depression everyday brain feeling suck world sucks nothing matter die already find anything makes happy gone want help help able change life lived change choices made life live make expect happening want rage yell experience depression jack frost probably cheesiest movie seen life complete title film jack frost revenge mutant killer snowman horror movie fans taste campy story lines delighted watch film straight video good reasons heres acting atrocious terrible cause one cry main character personality actors bad acting made worse screenplay atrocious character always says cheesy line add cheesy lines bad choreography something bad second story line really impressive movie straight video forgiven director writer turned idea killer snowman something cool didnt story lots plot holes beginning cup coffee gets knocked fish tank melted jack frost scientists try restore life couldnt cup coffee fell tank jack frost completely restored immune antifreeze jack frost part main characters dna got mixed antifreeze used kill jack frost main character allergic bananas jack frost heres point say sams dna combined jack frosts one scientists saliva cup fell tank scientists dna combined jack frosts another thing special effects good either heres good points jack frost lots blood looks pretty realistic even though movie flawed hell still entertaining overall jack frost enjoyable horror movie first one better though oh god oh fuck im gon na regret hey scott dammit sonic jam pretty rare game dont wan na known guy owns sonic jam im dead need someone messagethis aint going long im looking someone talk redflag prevention lifeline region massive wait list im number line idk online resources appreciated cant help apologizing bother condolences hope everyones happy week make want liveid never hurt live need help fix sogo ishii taken old myth musashibo benkei stood head produce dark gory spellbinding terrificlooking movie unfamiliar legend need story explains nicely goes along well worth seeking even though englishlanguage home video versions now cognitive processes feel scrambled sluggish confused sometimes trouble filling simple forms answering questions phone im rd year major university brain feels messed know ill able finish anyone experience found anything helps brother says hell kill doand want yet need die unbearable trust right now go hospital thoughts alone update went hospital good llong chat psychiatrist feeling better now thanks wonder day long worthless self continue forced sufferi sick shitty pointless life want happy help knowi really know anymore ive tried everything cant stay happy know thats ive wanted happy nothing want kill scaring much guys need advice australians us citizens friend mine met dude omegle fun ofc met dude lives us adds group several school friends quite younger think hes yrs old days later tries asking younger girls add ask nudes reject becomes extremely rude abusive chat fat shaming friends cousin another mental issues continues way sometimes want something reported account snapchat wont anything im going overdose prozac tonightim ive psych hospital fucking help ive therapist fucking help hate hate life hate every single fucking thing chance finally someone understood gave two shits gf met hospital allowed talk probably never will im sick anyone gets close ends leaving cant keep friends cant function day day life normal fucking person want nothing dead thats reason im posting final thoughts last goodbye update survived still unfortunately chose hospitalized od prozac fucking terrible worked hard title cant sleep lonely anyone wan na talk nothing everything oh fatheri home winter break way home got pulled got court summons top found failed classes tried heart father got home afghanistan incredibly happy hell havent told mother feel complete disappointment constantlu aggros nothing imagine younger brothers borderline perfect eyes im always falling short im leaving note tomorrow leave go back school saidbnite im letting know love couldnt handle stress constant disappointment father procrastinate lot issue may lack self discipline motivation procrastinate constantly may unmotivated rather may lack self discipline serious issue procrastination thought motivated fix schools put fix procrastination motivation found motivated anything procrastination instead blame procrastination lies toward fact lacked self discipline procrastinators child rewarded smart rather hard worker discipline work want study read instead blaming procrastination motivation maybe fact lack self discipline everythings bad numb days pounding impending doom lot bad things stacking lot time leave time reading probably life last remaining brain cells smoking fat blunts friend randomly dont eat glass bad teeth meah shit got ta go dentist mom thinks problem forget things sometimes thinks attention problem might want see doctor makes angry got sit next crush school sit table one next mine still see absolute win want diei want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die wantto die want die want nm die want die want die want die want die want die want die wantto die want die want di want die want die want die want die want die want die want fie want die want die j esnt die want die qant die truly hate musicals music numbers start sudden usually spoil scenes one completely different simply brilliant plot perhaps challenge viewers simplicity people life stories makes movie greatbr br ive seen least dozen times still im tired plot characters music love soundtrack soundtrack ive really wanted probably remain one owebr br mustseen kind movie great characters compiled entertaining songs lot things think movie end sad say disagree people columbo episode death lends hand frankly kind boring columbo times bored changed channel still love robert culp patricia crowley ray milland roles story weaker episode others first robert culp plays investigator ray millands character hires investigate young pretty wife played patricia crowley see affair return culps character blackmails cheating wife plans expose scheme husband ruining career anger culp kills striking face setting body elsewhere know maybe care one course columbo gets end question cant hangout friends ive recently worst luck hanging friends every time try hangout im either busy im bus im theyve already fixed times shit im left alone friends family friend joined group happening really confusing question dont know answer help question really hard love know doive got things want life idea gon na work probably wont apply college thats terrifying might might wherever go expensive fuck idea might career well might work case much waiting meantime sister might dropping college soon want find maybe kill seems appealing think ive thinking years maybe ill never better maybe ill wreck forever want kill therell stress anxiety self loathing pain hiding things family friends blissful silence cant decide want want hurt family already see way cant live house sister might move back home know every night cut never enough need advice stay alive getting fulltime job etchey guys probably really long rambling post need everything hopes someone kind enough listen offer sound advice year old living aunt tuscaloosa alabama small college town car though payments tags paid aunt along phone im pounds carry well still hard physical labor tend faint easily low blood sugar know still graduated high school ive held couple parttime jobs really hard managed anymore longest held one year ive fucked around community college losing aid family bail actually course graduate winter really want waste money nice enough help lost hope back got depersonalization disorder least think thats ive suffered extreme depression anxiety life never thought redflag idealist artist loved life core even though abused emotionally general really tough upbringing anyway day got believe first panic attack feel brain handle dissociated beside ego death experience emotions outside world became extremely real illusion shattered people became sentient meatbags will life felt one long moment wish human lived survived somehow likely largely due lexapro started coping told live rest life handle got better started question feel anything anymore slowly life became manageable feel moments joy without questioning cursed disease june year dissociated another attack time things better week dealing decided losing horrifying mental battle ive decided truly feel love anymore closest person life sister kill thing know love love become permanently numb thought dealt everything world gets worse always become worse day become phantom hiding pain planning redflag methods recently decided best thing honor life work art stay alive even hard feel anything want put horror losing college somewhere talk nearly every day ive told struggles always encouraging trying give hope told im suicidal aunt family maybe cure one day gladly take cure death heres id guidance broke living college fund aunt gave run soon ive got high school diploma hard even bed morning im still fighting always im afraid aunt thinks im working really go library day draw reddit im neurotic psychotic levels im complete shutin introvert real skills health insurance either think handle fulltime job one away people requires high school diploma one apartment volunteer eventually work art free time think stay alive kill january thanks listening know really stream consciousness maybe hard follow desperate man answer questions might anyone help right path honor forever literally eternal gratitude lmao people s listening broke music wan na listen poor shit normal siblings ok whole life brother relationship along fight times normal sibling things whats weird punch kick pull im sure punching normal siblings verbal fights abuse normal one talk everyone say stay strong love life take easy way blah blah blah joke life joke parents assbackwards logic dinner table right finishing dinner talked mouth full admit disgusting step dad says youre allowed call people things naturally ask points mom says time sometimes disgusting id manners right step dad time mother calls actual fuck may differ many people board enjoy watching mind mencia reason mind mencia host afraid speak mind exploit stereotypes carlos mencia friends unwilling admit somebr br mencia problem jokes race religion sex orientation gets lot flack breath fresh air politically correct times mencia care offends anyone racist even jokes racebr br typical format mind mencia goes open skit making fun person recent event mencia comes minute stand talks various issues show separate skits divided commercials skits mencia variety things making fun people giving personal opinions funny twist simply parodies people events movies end show mencia comes minute either one final skit something saybr br people criticize mencia exploiting stereotypes say statements overly offensive carlos everyone thinks certain races afraid say mencia offensive speaking mind find nothing wrong thatbr br show perfect skits put together best sometimes mencia go line jokes part show comedian says mind matter consequences presents humorous matter afraid laugh stereotypes see someone speak mind often say wanted say watch mind mencia easily offended watch show offended worse yet might even laugh explaining dreams everyday something cool happens day almost forgot today dream weird one im weird world massive carrots towering everything rest land bright green grass one large concrete tunnel spanned entire area tunnel half underground cant remember anything besides area looked one person person doofenschmirtz phineas ferb dont know though know go anymorethis hard explain im going start beginning around time two months ago first started noticing symptoms know depression thought nothing figuring combination stress school martial arts bsa future graduating high school june despite come home several days semester make day without breakdown still decided thats figured better months wrap school scouts ready college problem didnt made summer hiding everything family slacked near july thought right august moved freshman year college everything came back fullforce attributed school new experience want one people tried selfdiagnose problems got worse first harmed november know cant explain started stop january alone attempted end finish know weak attached put away make sure one knew happened last year constant fight keep going many mornings woke nothing going nights spent awake silently crying wake roommate writing notes last head officially diagnosed february school psychologist made sure reveal information want therapist majority spring semester helped day time wanted make summer thought family make better none makes sense ive got guaranteed job future great family strong friends almost fullride school got eagle scout progressed belts quickly martial arts good grades everything going right far im going theres go cant go family friends told abandoned lost contact even made second profile case brother ended found cant meds better help oneway ticket army lose dream know whatd id theres nothing austria far distance states tried run away problems coming europe ended happening im far home little comfort gives alcohol makes feel nothing cant go route know happens end make thats person want used video games escape thats temporary everything still may sound stupid music admittedly helps moment everything still temporary think anymore constant fight keep alive wearing want hurt family friends two choices either help lose dream lose life want hurt people care supposed put everything worked life away im weak supposed choose life future feel everything try ends failing even every day night filled thoughts giving point find actively looking painless quiet way im tired feeling shit know theres still part thats holding cant keep going think im going make semester alive im scared whole world gone crazy one around gives shit rules ready give upim junior college completely miserable depression anxiety high school parents never understood problems helicoptertiger parents ive therapy medication recently went one best mental hospitals state luck used ambitious person really well school im failing courses motivation continue im major chosen parents hate feel motivated start friends resources therapistspsychiatrists incredibly booked appointment soon want withdraw school know ill especially go live parents hate everything life cant picture getting better future many people told almost every year gets better gotten worse know want live depressionanxiety anymore especially one talk reason attempted redflag yet im scared fail know anymore testing post perns nothing see heart heas pounding feel sick inner voice keeps repeating wan na dieim school rn im shaking feel frozen sick im planning committing anything feel sick head ringing inner voice keeps saying wan na die stop pls remember ok feels likeits weird know happy one point every time wonder ok year ago happy answer wonder actually lessmiserable entirety growing slowly realizing shitty person truly pointless life know child happy think young teenager angsty overall ok know bad place overly stressed late high school im definitely ok im actually coming terms life im getting worse im running distractions know want die inevitable anyway whats problem happens whatever bullshit life maker darkness admit neglected important acknowledgments end credits omissions oversights corrected committed parties involved saw movie mention time behalf excellent cast crew film extend apology obviously criticisms posted harsh light credit accidentally production values negligible special effects quite special indeed plot strong cinematography john mcleod superb hope reader enjoy darkness efforts worked butts free thank dylan oleary director closer position lifeline chat slower number goes gets stuck happens every time minutes phone anymore severe mental pain hours one talk desperately waiting train come run tried hanging belt doorknob hurt much feel passing im close jumping nearby parking garage cant keep going last friend left today one anymore anything live normal year old body count swear im bragging man hoe slept many girls theres nothing wrong wanting laid relationship listening podcast bryce hall said slept woman later admitted exaggeration everybody thought huge number lol fuck shitim im fuckin done one talk husband even wan na hear seems doesnt care whether die frankly passing day things keep getting worse think come terms redflag hate everything cant imagine living another years feel life really endless suffering people say solution thats bs solve lifetime problems need helphi need help cyberbullied someone lured online joke im going kill fucking die alreadyevery day every day pain im struggling even type head moving left right ps broke phone broke got angry threw water bottle books comics worked fucking hard collecting friends nowhere found family admitted hatred life shit know say im going go ahead try kill work im giving address b want freeits long time ive felt genuinely good lately felt usual mom passed dad didnt acknowledge felt told youre swiftpicklelicker youll fine im early s learn cope never quite figured cope healthy way funneled energy video games kids wife happy right truthfully years ive declined steadily ive shell years dont feel anything sadness rarely feel joy put mask day day basis draining ive contemplated many times easily free earthly problems wife always tries help doesnt know neither time went help months ago lady told im liar im manipulator depressed already killed shocked rooted people wont understand hide fake til make right lately ive thinking hard one thing driving motorcycle straight big truck maybe brick wall dont know anything dont know im afraid excited adrenaline starts pumping rush im lowest point felt life seems worse every day knows want free horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny im tiredexisting hard lost parents recent years ago im ok day goes think killing history self harm last time little month ago ready go thing stopped thought death expensive bills consume life feel fair im young much happen know others worse going work hard talking people hate job hate stupid expensive house hate room want exist dont know anymore someone wants listeni years old huge list mental problems ive hospitalized twice drug overdose within last year stacked shit fucking life story long tell im pathological liar narcissist possible sociopath much ive gotten expelled school beating woman reason got away years prison deemed unstavle drug overdose shortly dont know im allowed walk among general public horrible self confidence issues friends spend fucking day computer unemployed pretending im happy ive blown rehab therapy many services years im overall fucking finished mental healthcare north america im fucking crazy think schizophrenia believe insane shit anr implement daily life mean maybe real dont know wether trust stupid fucking norm call reality ideation spiritual studies im super insecure dont taking part non manly activities due insecurities neglect family image head super cool rockstar mafia man fucking reason cant accept stupid fucking biological father saturday night balling eyes bathroom fucking reason thinking mortality shit family one day fucking die oh lost best friend years made story made werid plot acted real life scared blocked without trace im even gon na try save friendship im worried ego happen guys question regarding redflaghello rredflagwatch question redflag know ask ive come understand redflag must always taken seriously intend people fake suicidal cause problem people suicidal bad place guys im straight wait im ive thinking redflag moreive really suicidal twice life well sort first time planned told someone anything second time told girlfriend suicidal belonged hospital ended happening thought put detox instead alcoholism lately thoughts coming back im rehab sober three months still lately ive even thinking include redflag note formatting know sucks much feel tonight im going door always lingers mind brought psychiatrist today told thoughts returning extent pretty much said start going outside shit blah blah said want tell therapist rehab case manager afraid send higher level care want sent somewhere hospital whatever job trying start new life maybe stress getting things start going bad mind goes kill everything end worry worry sometimes think want attempt attention makes feel piece shit even worse starts circle making think even taking medication every night alcohol fuck man wrong know normal thinking dead im sorry ramble need fucking tell somebody started point think lot everyday thanks reading world end already fuck shitfuck im tired ppl saying world gon na end ive hearing damn come aliens take shit already meteor hit earth world war iii hate everything world failed mei hate parents hate older brother hate friends hate exfiance hate psychiatrists hate therapists hate counselors hate schools hate churches hate every authority hate every community hate everybody said help always hate everybody gave false hope hate hope hate faith hate hurting hate breathing hate every single second entire fucking life friends go years isolation took bigtm e p e loving support network best friend always matter unconditional dropping anything world make sure ok one relationship later cut connections people closest took years build connections feel loved love best friend ex love pure mothers love never let fall low low enough want die now never impress make sure favourite person cared much matter happened jealousy demands economic ties battles life goals pure ex must love corrupt energy socialise never really know peoples opinions probably think weird one whenever hits one im woah brain shuts goes night mode brain everything goes slow changed polished well couldnt tell slowed looked go weird headspace hits one google dont know cause google know shit post im tired im losteverything gone nothing going bring back ive lost hope youve come realisation nobody help everyones lost youll never come back pain fuck sex man want loved someone makes feel committing toasterbath mini information report pythagoras pythagorean theorem brotherhood travels egypt started school today fit single photos use google docs well ready done almost words im still main part luckily friday never gets bettergetting kicked th time ive exhausted resources go cant repeat cycle sleeping streets begged come back things thrown trash start anew end tonight never gets better matter hard work taken away instant ive lived miserable years ive enough tonight join father tonight set free goodbye im nothingi live life ashamed hate im shadow person ive wanted kill years know live eternally sad try hard change good vibes actually angry know express empty existing feeling mom shitty recommendations media main characters fight god feeling frustrated current world order existence general looking tvmoviesvideo games main characters fight kings god anyone hordes power media category include hollow knight adventure zone eragon recs appreciated bday yesterday n people live mom said something tired actually glimmer hope someone say happy birthday nah hope crushed always tell everyone happy bday merry christmas yk drill one wishes anything thought friend mattered appears saw delusions never talks outside wants ask advice give love clothes etc ask smth met replyi even force work anymore hope never go back office boss forces us give happy answers time bad smile life better idk feeling good used find joy drawing anymore time everytime hurts sit room work stare screen daydreaming tired used job boss threatened fire us nothing christmasi used think id finally happy changed reverted back even worse think idk want anymore fucking talk people know nothing n anything always paranoid mess even deserve anything anyone friendswho want friends w fat ugly person thing care cats n see twice week even feel post bother tired happy turkey dayso thanksgiving apparently actions canceled house im year old loser still home living rent free human garbage incapable getting second job pay rent matter many interviews never job years experience food cash registers im polite quiet never stand im stuck younger brother full time job still lives home hes barely blows money edm concerts hotels trips full time job dont become responsibility clean parents try refuse yelled gotten point try sleep im home clean last week mom bought different things thanksgiving got home leaving work got home work left bag vegetables counter top things needed refrigerated hours threw away theyve noticed gone realized woke hours sleep yelling living room neither anything theyre even helping food dont clean never got go explain threw food expired theyre feeding grandparents almost theyre immune systems bad mine medical problems went school food prep know im talking dont care left paid threw away stuff said grandma grandpa old really sick spoiled food people already die food poisoning theyre old chances higher want die said dont touch things started ignoring parents stopped cooking canceled dinner grandparents arent coming now seem months job supposed see begining month birthday never anything mom decided last minute week trip new york miss grandma much im maid home stopped cleaning mom gone days see much done work brother dad literally clean dishes sink days counter tops kitchen living room beer bottles dishes trash couldnt take anymore cleaned share room brother dressers fit clothes dad refused throw away second dresser brother refuses use second dresser completely empty clothes spilling onto floor dresser uses ft pile clothes floor months doesnt organize anything literally throws clothes random drawers shoves shut everytime bring parents tell shut literally brought problem monday got fed grabbed clothes floor started piling hall couldnt look anymore hes foot taller reacted coming hallway throwing floor mom saw stared dad said fault complaining bitch stop crying life doesnt matter usually sleep lot depressed last weeks ive juat sleeping maybe hours day awake night thinking waste time life waste space dropped school years ago boy never went back got accepted art school another state didnt go boy staying years fucking childhood friend behind back months without knowing things wanted life going something something suicidal shitshow god life become fucking maid wasting away fucking hellhole home boyfriend cares long seem complain life point hell tired dont know im spiraling needed rant little guess going details want person find reddit post feel heartbroken urges getting worse know going try kill soon hope time succeed tried kill yesterday lost someone close due attempt boyfriend murdered son killing year ago dont know go onlast year left home evening pick groceries returned home found boyfriend father son murdered son killed never express words felt feel now spent time mental hospital great therapist great psychiatrist take medicines im supposed adjusted needed resources event feel suicidal even grief group attended lockdown next month year anniversary dont think hoped feel even ounce better now hoped find something give purpose feel angry boyfriend didnt kill put misery caused taking baby date approaches feel much pain ive never religious wake ask god take put misery feel unfair people likely dont want die dying corona virus im alive begging death try still post online enjoyed happened try watching shows movies try see friends laugh sometimes ive good days nothing feel enjoyed food much nothing tastes idea feels triggered everything going grocery store night everything happened seeing everything used buy son boyfriend imagine triggered apples oranges every fucking prius road boyfriend drove one killed inside garage kids mothers literally everywhere hearing child cry going catatonic state wondering year old son crying killed commercials tv bathtubs son intentionally drowned one honest dont know havent killed yet wanted bad night officer explained performed life saving measures son success begged tell take son hospital said couldnt wanted run jump anything death officer blocked path killed literally one life surprised friends mentally prepared possibility back everything happened dont know cant dont know hard yeah sure breakups hurt lost amazing person life guys miscommunicated started dating best friend cant tell really felt see together time got choccy milks happy meal today feel king much 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probably lost new go basically titleso m dealing false rape allegations girl contexta family friend invited us cousin m ill call sfamily barbecue family friends daughter f ill call b invited friend f ill call p fun fought pillows listened trap music ect ect exchange word p happened early august fast forward beggining december p told b shell tell mom raped hit went police cops told cant anything good thought nope next victim told mom stuff going police hopefully nothing happen even talk cut hand wrote hand knife likes s tldrthe title tiredim disability anxiety disorder manic depression live next parents including abusive narcissist mom stove cook im tired microwave dinners thought fast food makes want vomit getting burnt cold sandwiches even stove mom took cooking stuff im limited spoon cup anyway anything one hot meal meal processed food cold hot healthy meal least healthy thought ramen makes want vomit well im debating picking smoking obvious cant afford eat necessary tools quit years ago th month car cant go buy something dad brought burger bk want onion rings one fast food things make want hurl chunks another meal skip want seem ungrateful threw fridge nice stinging pain hunger live middle cant walk anywhere either im tired see fucking point living rate something new years always brings worst depression usually ok even holidays really struggle new years bullshit mention period due day im sure im overly emotional well moment sell soul fucking hot healthy meal week im isolated friends drop something thats gross hang whatever house im burnt shit eat regularly im burnt fuck living self injury gotten lot worse recently well legs complete war zone mild chicken scratches cut fuck im sure ill another session tonight im kind teetering melt pretty bad skin legs dulled box cutter use im gon na invest another one well anti septic stuff ran anti septic stuff apply legs im done tired even know begin better change life im going homeso im angel angel flies broken wings angels belong heavennot think time go broken wings need heal im going home orphan tears yummy haha esketit fortnite poggers hellohi im feeling suicidal tonight look movie obscure brilliant classic sought means necessary suppose powers decided forever relegated towards bargin bin nevertheless pray chance see one dvd say even beats great phatasm dark movie plenty spooky imagery look one see s horror movie suppose hair really long saw mirror longer thought im sure scaredso im high school recently became atheist thought fact life feels kind meaningless considered redflag one time actually seriously started thinking managed stop help aloneim tired alive hate life im never happy worst part cant even talk anyone family friends stress fuck throw hospital want heard trusted hurt fuck im tired dont even reason tired hate living whats newive depressed long time years mainly stemming couple points im smart struggled heres thing cant even type damn post cant even find energy studying lectures recorded im keep letting fall farther farther behind complete moron piece shit right want die think want even went bought tank helium gas sit huge pussy even want type anymore want end life ampxb typed couple days ago bit settled still think im going end life probably end month campus night way makes ruckus next day want keep living life anymore matter life always struggle might well done waiting around suffer end month keep trying therapy keep trying catch school work already know end month take life ampxb think best option ill make one post around th oct life fuckedever brother killed months life gotten worse getting bullied constantly yet parents dont care friends brother friend hes gone now problems talking people first place seem stutter im failing classes teachers seem hate im young already know someones gon na say youre young still life live dont one cares planning killing days maybe check twitch want come check twitch maybe follow im live twitch come hang follow goal great desire femboy reason moring really want wear thigh highs skirt hopefully ill skirt day ill either work asking parents help one wait til next year use drivers license one im parents nonbinary still gon na hard ask lol ready diei sad drunk friend supposed comfort tonight left drunk aunt left alone nobody wants fucking around even stay im fucking crazy nobody needs nobody wants fucking care anymore tomorrow im killing dont know thank uapersonoftheearth clean house sometimes wonder many sub members still alive idk many going one dead member soon something change fucked life tiredim new writing sub new mental health started suffering mental health years ago lost friend cancer took year work used benefits pay take time hopefully needed realign thinking daughters wife mortgage etc never got better got worse time trying new pills going therapy stuff help feel think found little works started cutting focus something redflag feeling crap every single day worked little today friday th brought bosses office put unpaid leave mental health good enough excuse miss time feel bad shit filled specialist days fired mental health excuse work title suggests tired tired feeling shit time feeling poor father bad husband terrible worker think going go garage take bunch pills hang good measure job done looking anything specific anything throwing lot others feel still sad live world mental health taboo still places rather look away help matter timealready see coming hello birthday girl merry christmas everyone even though pretty rough year hope everyone still wonderful christmas sub surreali scrolling sub fucked bunch posts talking shit happened people crying hope posts mere minutes apart without comments sitting room dealing horrible fucked shit one talking eachother really surreal uzumaki visually astounding film felt story line may sacrificed hardly character development left feeling personally detached film ironic puns aside film really draw many slight spiral effects stunning scene transitions first overall cinematography threw used overall appearance start see beauty twisted film great movie looking looker much substance deeper meaningit great horror film actually scary suspenseful somehoweerie id happily end right second whilst work leave friend alone situation hes inim really losing go ive tried medication makes feel worse ive tried keeping diary made feel better temporarily ive got point im trying write feel end scratching pen book leaving ripped inky mess national redflag hotlineguys im desperately feeling shit know im supposed helpbut fuck supposed calling countrys redflag hotline gets automated wrong number voice message im truly suicidal moment really need someone talk given current unbearable amount pain tiredness anxiety stress whole story lot type bit place long story short none people considered best friends friends anymore struggling day trying think anything never done anything hurt yet let hurt countless times know supposed find ways cope feel better family helping best way hard considered family life brain let go hate act getting fed friend going magically stop depression use internet lot person live far away type close friends trying say post alone big step bffs got sick always hearing depressed always im tired morning want shit endim tired waking stressed broken started therapy next appointment th march handle shit dont believe help dont believe anything will im work im ready explode im sad im mad dont want anyone talk want leave guess im venting better listening people dont feel good want leave shit cant wait shitty valentines day posts tomorrow listen bro dont valentine either stop reminding stop posting internet happy life depressed suicidal thoughts neither crush said yes satisfied life try push things make confort zone quarentine lost pounds kg started drawing real used draw study anatomy take cold showers take care skin full pimples eat desert many times improving skills ssbu secret happy want become better person mean need bevome better person watch anxiety attacks happy maybe totally ignored online classes homework fucking goes fucking verb fucking descriptive word water fucking need someone convince relapse self harm rough night hard time relapsing six months idc u spoil tell king kong godzilla plz need know feel good lump one testicles couldnt care enough go checked outive years occasionally hurts pretty bad yet couldnt care less idea dont want know incase something treated caught time really want somehow testicular cancer take hope old old story kids party old house demons unleashed death gratuitous nudity ensues know still lot funbr br many people okay many horror fans specific fond memories movie always slight trepidation revisit old movie see still good used think luckily isbr br something everyone well everyone happens male suppose fun title sequence shoplifting scam involving cunning use linnea quigleys ass mirror scene full demonic fun blast start finishbr br girls cute guys male death scenes well done good gore effects unlike horrors era actually keeps good sense atmosphere even tension throughout wrong still fun first foremost offers nice freaky moments please genre fans hot fucking take dont mad people using preferred pronouns idea trans non binary know say talk toso wrote phone hours ago ive reading thought help write case every time ive tried made feel worse blindly paste heres background unhappy person moved far away school excelled difficult program cheap well regarded univeristy day academic peers tell talented reason resent closer graduation drew depressed became drug alcohol abuse ways ive known cope problems took binging extreme ive become repressed withdrawn depressed ive failed classes took gpa semester ive fired job cant pay rent bills im facing eviction soon friends much im sure care want thing im isolated insurance null void us obv cant even afford professional help wanted ive called hotlines ive talked people free chat bs honestly people redflag text sites trained put politely talked friends peers former coworkers former boss one seems help say thing either need nut shut bad first place whole youre gon na okay im okay okay long remember one seem help want okay dont know think redflag day every day anyway rest post wrote phone sorry wasting time feel alone feel scared feel worthless feel one knows much want die name long remember ive wanted kill inflict kind pain onto people want dissapper never born never lived hard life family least acts care amazing friends really life pretty good want live cant articulate feel way never explain anyone around ive tried let alone phone possessive thought alive work hard miserable free anxiety depression consuming thought idea cant shake im want die im happiest fantasy idea stop unhappy consuming rarely think anything fall asleep safety blanket encompassing pretecting psyche irrepreble harm shield matter fucked head affect later tldr suck anyone wan na talk dms idc want talk ppl hiding wan na diehello im year old girl bullied tried overdosing work tell im still thinking wan na try always everyone stops oh wan na die bullies grow thats reason reason im scared dad sister etc keep tell wan na kill politician younger doesnt mean better policy guys come dont fall identity politics high pain fr know look stupid fuck high lasts literal hours come home minutes nooooo fucking idea cop dad home fun trying act normal im scared little quick tidy room cups plates need bring bring em right mind unholy trinity behold horny lovey made think basically means feel sharing love people hungry think really afford professional help medication wondering one day feel hopeful one day save enough somethinganything make brain make feel absolute shit feel somewhat peaceful expecting one time fix know work aware anti dep make cheery sudden even makes hopeless heavy feeling chest feel somewhat alleviated medication help cant wake tomorrowi start junior year college tomorrow everything wrong degree program changed without knowledge put situation im taking credit hours class pm daily im fucking exhausted done anything really good life home summer worked full time good friend cared much made feel die talk know everything life rapidly deteriorated last seven days nothing good left understand every shred good left want wake tomorrow feeling mother driving crazyi saying evil intentions unintentionally diagnosed mental illness know takes clozapine past years everyday believes lie posted internet try talk exhausted drained energy anymore baby never learn think unlike typical babies start make good arrangements come teenage diagnosed schizoaffective disorder unsaid advice never leave family able handle life kill feeling playing game perpetuate suffering subtle way makes feel good put two people side side lets say well groomed person mentally ill person people realise awesome well groomed person invisible ego boost feels hate mentally ill person die equally hate person healthy mentally ill person becomes healthy actually better well groomed person people start looking person used ill past better groomed person invisible ego deflation well groomed person feel hate ill person die better well groomed person everything possible maintain status quo pretend help ill person watched scenario hero remain obscure qualities become visible enhanced villain hero needs villain hero benefits villain start lose temper explaining mum magical cures shared whatsapp youtube etc lie next appointment psychiatrist dosage antipsychotic greater dosage antipsychotics come greater side effects level testosterone go level prolactin go become slower fatter dick never hard semi erection best emasculation systematic emasculation expect girls partner bringing much table expect woman partner able earn money satisfactory intercourse human needs wants human thing understandable remain family essentially neck beard living moms basement free loader incel etc bullying take regular basis daily dose insult burden society parents etc talk male friends hide depression draining counsel understandable pretend happy smile laugh feign interested depression anxiety start oozing ask pretend talk truly goes mind silently ghost cant confront depressing presence want hang around internet always suggesting people cut toxic people life etc talk counselor friends say try interesting etc etc etc tired now writing go feels two options lose lose third option likely succeed hangingim attempting suicidal thoughts place find comfortive used throwaways point really dont care feel im going die point next week even dont kill happened im probably wrong cant really deny feeling im horribly antisocial social successes either turn worse failures allowed hope b serve remind piece shit c know whats going happen im alive die maybe ill wake year ago things ok really dont think much longer life either dragon dragon people love care know deny want alive want wake eat go work distract emptiness life truly psychotically depressed know anymore convinced die reason chosen one free physcial existence suicide something people actually desire know freeing bc illusion life better death even know feel mentally dead think understand people make money survive corporate slave job masters power say school hospitals least times year point getting better bc going died years ago mentally first spiritually physical existence must go people care value life reason killing bc want shatter illusion dont know start conversation via text crush known years normal friends really want start talking outside school dont know text without thinking fuck texting advice guys family guy predicted george floyd httpsyoutubeuwscgyhtai httpsyoutubeuwscgyhtai httpsyoutubeuwscgyhtai httpsyoutubeuwscgyhtai httpsyoutubeuwscgyhtai suddenly deeply depressed dont know whyi teacher crying class faculty meetings middle night reason work stressful inner city school always case making plans stop hurting something think deep dread future severe urges hurt please help someone got rickrolled past self yeah past self rickrolled months ago school rickrolled family smart clock setting routine forgot turn routine never got triggered smart clock randomly played never gon na give thats got rickrolled past self hey ugamerdude go bed fucking multiple sclerosisprobably seem big deal taken everything one year basketball working playing guitar hanging friends things loved gone sure deserve sure everyone know gets control hands legs feet pains see people know personally living reasonable state thankful theres people far worse say ms alright gets easier need reach fucking doesnt gets harder gets much fucking harder reason im sitting struggling typing ive never kissed girl sex fucking life right good years shit utter shit almost meant earth pretty debilitating disability absolutely suck anything useful successful life barely useless college classes point going die friends used care barely acknowledge existence day illness gets worse ill pm someone address gun id able drive fucking cliff im heavyi want anymore weight bye never better lloyd hamilton one imaginative among funniest silentfilm comedians utterly forgotten unfortunately original negatives large percentage films lost fox warehouse burnt early s hamilton handsome graceful chaplin keaton lloyd dapper raymond griffith unlike harry langdon chaplin hamilton try audience sympathybr br films hugely popular time original release remain hilarious today oscar levant claimed asked chaplin comedian hed envied chaplin instantly named lloyd hamilton character frequently portrayed hamilton screen flatcapped naff fastidious hand gestures ducklike walk later adapted vaudeville comedian eddie garr teri garrs father adapted jackie gleason s tv character poor soulbr br movies directed pseudonymously roscoe arbuckle one hamiltons innovative shorts hilarious first see country boy bidding farewell family outside homespun cottage way big city steps away cottage see big city traffic booming round himbr br eventually hero ends restaurant uncredited montmartre cafe downtown la movie actors eat takes theres amusing gag hamiltons bumpkin character meets three actors costume makeup presidents washington lincoln roosevelt gag funnier impostors looked originals finally lad seats table hoping meet celebrity sure enough entering restaurant sitting next table big movie star none lloyd hamilton theres wellmade doubleexposure shot join nearly invisible lloyd hamilton greets lloyd hamilton country boybr br sadly hamiltons peak period creativity brief began film career crude slapstick films one half double act ham bud opposite bud duncan brief blazing period stardom shorts late silent period sound movies kind hamilton quickly shoved cast list crude early talkies died young fortunately movies quite funny splendid introduction unique comedians style ill rate want live first place kill religion says go hell grateful god given life now know stuck middle terrible world god createdat one point want leave religion believe hell die become one earth feels fairer way hell exists want suffer hereafter religious religion asks thankful god gives us life well feeling im alone eggshells afraid talk anyonemy life mess thats best possible way summarize current ordeala mess complete totally fucking chaotic mess long remember shit started going wrong im talking hard times school mean daddy hug got flat tire lost job stress glitch glitch ask well guy told believed path predestiney went path world universe whatever bullshit abstract deity want call ratify said issue back track first romantic notion appealed made hopeful assume probably pathetic way people cling indifferent god allows child rapes serial killers mass war go things bad thing keep losing call humanity think must greater meaning im tell unfortunate uncomfortable brutal fucking truth bad shit happens bad shit happens greater plan god destiny nothing end gun void thoughtless empty black nothingness im sure think im jaded fuck youre probably wrong thing doesnt mean im necessary wrong either grew usaf bases mom cheated dad every chance decent debate kid korea seemed created dad got began travel railroad leaving behind siblings different men psychotic mother credit loved best thats saying much much youre small defenseless child brother rape sister im lucky enough infant years didnt find teen asked kicked mom cheat beat accidentally let word slip mention things motel made sister sleep nd bed next screwed guy dad traveling five years old confused mentioned vacation thats called took z liter bottle pepsi side head held bath tub water eventually seen liability began locking entryway closet leaving hours made fort convinced hiding spot even though tied shut side time went dad finally made mom job went still school age went babysitters house long long story short lucky enough find put child porn daughter nicole year old babysitter meanwhile son set cameras room raped aladdin barbie doll amongst mcguvery rape childrens toys think certainly life better right mean predestiney fucking path right surely wasnt destined life suffering wrong dad mom divorced dad remarried abusive psychnurse loaded already alcoholic father benzos fucking candy one point counted different medications hell dad developed creepy unhealthy obsession weight appearance stepmom fuming jealousy dad maintaining type relationship overtime many drugs convinced verbal abuser inherited mental illness mother couldnt trusted punished mostly shaming first date boy woke found house covered post say abuse tolerated abuse tolerated ran around hysterically pulling missed one behind curtains window obviously relationship dead ended time turned saw joined army surely free source pain real world much kinder fucking wrong miserably long uncomfortable situation recall ends several assaults rapes baby later win one good bad flawless pure unruined baby girl even longer story later wealthy creepy obsessive man manages taken raised alone years shes alive got money win court cases sorry kids arent books read school right wrong good guy bad guy means shit real world money power money win end trying kill times think fairly fucking justified point game ive homeless hungry raped abandoned moment formative memory go inpatient va hospital ptsd thats met fucking light end miserable tunnel bullshit fucking glimmer hope end phone hes sarcastic witty rough around ends hes perfect feds stories promise hope life living surviving tells end reason let heart keep beating months later wonderful although complicated bit pain ass man shows afghanistan mpls airport rescue hell hole ive drowning first moment hugged knew finally safe first time birth safe didnt need look shoulder didnt wonder happiness even option real possibility married best day life know looking history thats saying much imagine felt day normal people hope entire lives feel pain bad poured moment perfectly fucked together rest world rules didnt matter nothing either going need want least felt im sure unsurprising anyone point trust exactly strong suit ive forced position choosing future life man living wealthy scary man able see daughter every week pretty much hardest situation ive faced yet clearly thats saying something today light hope man isnt even sure thinks im worth hes far first look think maybe better pass pass someone less damaged less sad less scared confused complicated honestly couldnt hold sit looking back life wondering im glitch mentioned maybe god entity something goal erase mistake made thats im tortured hopefully ill kill set everything back order maybe fucking meaningless suffering shitty role dice self hatei feel bad lot recently feel bad intense thoughts cant head hearing someone say die kill tried hang pussied hate much im recently split partner years feel never find someone great girlfriend ruined shes moving country now cant stand feel cant handle good thingsi dont deserve relapsedi used suicidal younger actually attempted onceactual attempt failed attention nobody knows even today somehow managed pull together reset actually stable life ive got stable job debt decent work relationships cant really say ive got close connections anyone though thats whats killing believe important thing life broke ex months ago really match well lol months ago met someone online game ive talked months straight everything every day talked stuff normally never open anyone theyve decided play others basically whatever gone thats major failures within months making realise im easily replaceable people bored quick supposed live knowing people dump see purpose open people exact reason times years cases went shit im fucked likeable guess first time years first redflag attempt thinking thoroughly actually want die see point anymore learned origin cheesegrater meme furry community ohhh boy never nah cuz im hot alt girl tf gamer bf pull tf sleep forever never wake basically going coma probably need accident shits gon na hurt ways tho depressed broke hated friendless unemployed worthlessi found today someone actively prevented getting job someone knows ive struggling years knows poor even go bad enough knowing one cared lift finger cried help live reality people lift finger comes holding back seeking redflag support okc areai posted rokc long shot mother law living okc area currently lost son redflag found morning upon telling admitted suicidal point really worried live washington state right support make least next week question kind nonprofit inperson support services someone going tough time know redflag hotlines im looking something suggestions help alone make want see ensure gets help needs completely alone fucking sucks man hate ya taking shit company time someone walks bathroom got ta mute ya phone shit silent mode easy painless way kill selfmy schizophrenia reached limits cant anything head always keeps hurting always thinking always family willing help always turn head ask brother stopped talking years ago sister little friends schizophrenia growing people always thought weird avoided spent rest year sitting front pc schizophrenics social anxiety disorder body muscle starts hurt thing pc cant use illness brain mentally stops please please tell easy way finish please head always thinking alwaysi cant sleep want stop please help yr old considering drastic measureshello sorry name offends anyone btw made playing video game really know start guess ill give background info im year old male good body straight plenty friends void occupying attention little months every day thing endless cycle monotony ive built character thats always happy every day act person others happy im cant individual feel trapped even parents love character made lets call john mom spending time phone interacting us know probably done good job describing ill condense one point im tired living happy go lucky lie tired appreciated im contemplating ending made plans even gone far open case dads rifle reason offed fear cant anymoremy sister murdered last year dog might killed made month two jobs treat shit even though two bachelors cant find jobs husband mom family therapist keep telling shouldnt depressed keep telling im well wont listen havent heard best friend weeks doesnt talk much messaged saying need talk left read hospitalized kidney infection im always hospitalized something stupid another boss firing keep getting hospitalized dont know im sick ive several doctors said werent sure either psych took anxiety meds throwing begged cant handle anxiety wants wait im better gives lexapro something im going better ive vomiting months seizures dont know doc figured sans throwing seizure nausea meds im tired fighting im tired trying make everything okay barely hold together income car job life dont know im even typing ive seen doctors past week tired saying must feeling bad yes im feeling bad want die wont able stay employed dont qualify disability hearing honestly point existence anymore im pain time im angry anxious time shouldnt take pills sleep forever im sorry dont even know im posting im venting world dont even know im writing needlessnessi appreciate sentiment help personally people tell im needed loved matter kill desire makes feel much guilty feeling way existence hopefully coming end maybe idkmy mind always races races find sickly foul way commit redflag time tries distance family friends give trauma mind races public online im alone find people act ways appease try good side feel im needed im naturally kind others time im always toes constantly guarding others incase say mugged kidnapped attacked etc trust anyone im always thinking im wrong compared others opinions politically morally etc difficult think anymore im self conscious stomach way walk close others order draw attention worry seeing hearing well forgetting shit ton things barely think fucking burden blackened hole heart mind make better want never hurt anyone want alone forever im worthy relationships allowed live never existed fucking hate depressive asshat mind time find comfort knowing pain go away know maybe years move maybe pandemic maybe bleeding alleyway alone maybe quick death gun shot know im hoping happen hope im cut away everyone ive known never seen fuck existence fuck humanity fuck self conscious fuck world fuck existence october sky highly lauded movie easy see story easy comprehend many turning points gripping actors actresses fairly good jobs especially jake gyllenhaal chris cooper hero finally gets wants true story frankly think directors achievement comparable sparks heat original story generates dont see special narrative cinematography power movie relies much riveting plot tough situation young hero trapped audience find identify characters feel homers desire earn fathers recognition create future resilience wins respect october sky reminds later japanese production mini series rocket boy might owe inspiration movie actually two works shot two different cultures provide interesting comparison october sky unfolds story young man crying loud claim right destiny rocket boy offers compromised description sometimes constitute acrid criticism modern society starring outstanding actor yuji oda rocket boy focuses three men ordinary travel agent dream becoming astronaut boastful advertising agent brink torn apart inferiority complex resulted extreme success father older brother homer feels family food company employee getting married scared idea collected social consciousness superimposes definition success constituents steps force suffocate dreams claiming impossible compensate lost ideal kobayashi yuji works tour operator called galaxy client fails girlfriend decides leave finally finds strength fathers words determined sailor later found life sea less attractive presumed dont regret father told kobayashi least tried fathers confession encourages resign job apply astronautships despite fact hurts legs needs move around wheelchair kobayashis effort finally fails goes back travel agency crazy courage inspires friends everyone loves end series kobayashi job guide space camp meant let children learn astronauts tour see leaning tree unfolding sheet poster tears bulletin board says astronauts wanted kobayashi looks piece paper laughs laughs kid looking ticket disneyland kobayashi may never wants dares destiny series heartgripping hero exhibits heroic deeds ordinariness unstoppable urge realize dream make us wonder envy unlike dilbert sarcastic writings show enlightens us teaches us something homer kobayashi dream despite peoples opinions recommend imdb users see japanese tv series ninetofiver feel touched feel sorry imdb doesnt data maybe ask somebody japan help think wife killing tonightthis throwaway account obvious reasons wife suicidal life first attempt years old told first met almost years ago plan live long knowing full well chose anyway time said waiting beloved dog passed away already time wife want leave elderly dog alone without well day came went hard time able pull though mostly well mental disorders getting way worse ocd anxiety bad able sit chair three years always standing laying well two weeks ago disorders took ability sleep gotten hours sleep night hated living long now tells staying alive killed long time ago yes getting treatment seeing therapist doctors years taking meds give things tell nothing helped ampxb ive known kit containing supplies job says makes feel better know needs ampxb today anniversary mothers death years ago told cant anymore world hard already knew expecting long time held cried together hours told sorry told much love always love ampxb drove away stop ampxb wanted stop wanted hide car keys throw away kit love see every day miserable pain physically mentally stopped selfish want stay ampxb praying hard changes mind even one day know happen ampxb feel dead inside right now love want away love want suffer anymore ampxb expect anyone read may deleted needed tell someone cant tell anyone ampxb tldr wife suffering long every moment life misery stopped didnt drove away tools needs end life hope comes back hope finds peace tw selfharm mention suicide throwaway account friends family know main account rather see warning english first language drunk right now trying correct typos much possiblei battling depression redflag years alone almost time parents pretended car forced go therapy instead lettint make choices things pace year ago met best friend call troy love much brother feel broken friends feel ruin mood crying venting help think better without never born wish dead failure know anymore much coward wish kill myselfim good beating help broken fiens alone forever ruin everythingim sorry know goal post guess hoping someone feel alone indint know know anymore walking dinosaurs absolutely brilliant every regard kenneth branagh narrates way really makes want listen script documentary really sounds though researchers writers done homework insightful hooked never lets go music brilliant dramatic needs visual effects scenery makes documentary work well scenery breathtaking dinosaurs look real thanks simply astounding effects informative good concept attracts adults kids toobr br conclusion must watch love quite possibly best documentary seen anything done longer perfect bethany cox many struggle talking girls dont mean rude way might im extrovert stuff doesnt exactly matter best friend girl people making awkward moments completely normal straight dont understand difficult people talk girls general give yall tips less awkward guess helps anyone focus best boring cooking video playing easy focus whats entertaining never wanted kill badlyi never wanted kill badly helped woman broke heart still love find religion hate people follow hate andor accept want kill badly want pain unbearable want destroy everything want thanked leading somewhere want kill ready hate hate much know hurts bad life followed islam thrown aside mentally ill bisexual deemed problem monster hated hate religion hate god hate im accepted want kill bell book candle released december features james stewart kim novak jack lemmon ernie kovaks film james stewart kim novak second onscreen pairing alfred hitchcock classic vertigo released earlier year stewarts last film romantic lead deemed old age play sort part anymore movie witch played kim novak attracted mortal played james stewart puts spell falls head heels love enjoyed movie cast movie time moderate success nominated golden globe best movie comedy gimmeclassics give fuck anymorethats longer careful road longer look ways crossing street die die thats im killing december ive got date place method set already anything besides writing redflag note got charged crisis interventioni went doctors appointment social security evaluation benefits told symptoms supposed including thoughts redflag told called police taken real hospital hospital asked going hurt said sent home within minutes arrival today got bill crisis intervention hell hell vague idea bettie page partly due appearance wee days playboy apparently got photo taken santa hat know mag movie cowritten directed american psychos mary harron fleshes key parts life well enough southern belle church goer bad experiences leaves behind seek better times new york city gets modeling lot soon becomes underground pinup sensation bondage obvious notorious title trait attributed actress gretchen moll portrays gets spirit woman well really lot success film simplistic character even times ideas morality questionable well adam eve naked comments couple times apparently filmmakers leave later years pages life leave kind redemptive period leaving behind photo shoots jesusbr br notrious bettie page much kind usual biopic presented hbo films albeit time stamina featurefilm release best scenes harron captures page questionable positions getting photos overthetop poses starring ridiculous films whips chains leather uniforms adds much needed comic relief films usual nature story behind uninteresting involves governments investigation smut came photos underground magazines much time given explore merely hinted page complexities relationships sex fifties given really neat black white look sometimes seemed harron progressing black white photos tinted went along watchable view knowledgeable bette page probably fans honestly kill gunim male gaydisabled work grocery store part time single relationship mylife feel everyone putting meto obligated anymore love life feel burden everyone mention seem point life feel good gets feel made good memories somaybe end hard myfamily tried overdose last nightwell got grades back semester failed one bio classes got overwhelmed think ill lose scholarship now freaked made throw right though feel better today didnt take enough anyway maybe family watching closely im headed therapy today weird almost feel better trying voice head tells kill well mean got try cant tell thats good im glad family didnt send hospital need plan months change life im im living alone need graduate time need make enough money live need become much buffer dont know im graduated time dont think ill able handle mentally wont able handle graduating im already basically loser ill loser whos even behind im much stronger july th ive failed wouldve kms httpsyoutubebttzzszdffc im already working job dont know leverage time much riding need help finally readyits overwhelming impulse anymore actually calm calming decision october th head golden gate bridge beloved motorcycle ill hug goodbye ill walk along bridge displaying mastery performing people entertaining others wearing smile ill find spot inhale exhale hands chest climb fall backwards head first everything okay im perpetually lonely nothing make feel better im broken incapable feeling anyone therapist bless heart put much shit care much shes person care dont want deal anymore dont want feel lonely anymore want die want happyi feel nothing good come life want happy want fall love someone fall love today put rifle head clicked safety placed hand trigger scared actually go closest come taking life chest gotten worsei posted half year ago breakdown unfortunately things gotten much better motivation anything learn work socialize last week even interfered job putting brink getting fired year ago thought wow got fired job id probably kill real talents nothing praised im still know drive im motivated enough ive started going doctor issues im antidepressants seem harm good id give anything kind motivation anything hell cant even kill right eat whatever hell want hope kills faster im sorry comes scattered ive recovered fever im extremely sleep deprived mind last days ive sick bed cant stand anymore reaching breaking pointive diagnosed severe psychiatrists words depression long time things finally reaching breaking point everyday seems living hell earth school friends consistently ignore treat im outsider really talk either im emotional breakdown b none friends around act im worse still im painful nuisance worst one person used talk first person told depression worst offender every time see often feel knifes twisted stomach romantic life similar ive never kissed never girlfriend every time ive asked someone ive denied hard school painfully boring best torturous slog worst grades shitter talking low cs ds someone last year straight student matter hard try lack drive ability bring home life bad family tries help none understand depression act depression simply means im sad top feel im carrying great weight shoulders lack energy anything lack drive willpower try improve lot antidepressants im simply damn thing anymore abandoned betrayed friends misunderstood family im cracking weight simply going fuck leaving reinvent option waiting high school hoping things better college option im standing death seems way back september attempted commit redflag failed next time im sure lucky honestly whats pointwhen elementary school bullied suicidal thoughts told teacher led kid mental hospital years later im thought fine guess im cousins grew love heart anything dont anymore dont know never invite gatherings even talk unless parents tell say happy birthday invite family thing ill told parents mom agrees dad always thinks im reacting never listens mom sister well tell way treat us feel hell mad us hell take anger mom leading argue sometimes fight ill always love cousins theyre family dont feel love never girlfriend never first kiss even held hands someone fucking sucks knowing im going die alone fucking sucks cant talk people ive made new friends hanging recently feel dont deserve feel wasted space know problem big deal important compared others whats point go knowing ill never satisfied knowing im gon na sad alone rest life stand shitty life accomplish anything friends family help anything pretty much alone depression time high redflag one takes seriously tell suicide think let go pain die way peace free awards basically anywhere complain awards thats literally done sit back watch money flows people give awards thought itd funny deceived ploy gain free coins karma think found song describe every redditor live wrecks good listen think herei put rdepression maybe goes instead scared hallucinating im scared happening please someone talk help anchor reality depressed whole life never gets better anything offer look forward proud hate know people say lot really im afraid alone depressed ive tried everything meds therapy psychiatrists books websites food exercise nothing works except getting wasted thats wake know better used optimistic become impossible every day take enough meds im crying lot anything im daring end every day really know much longer last brain always wrong whole life made see things made sad weird different belong anywhere lot people hurt veryvery bad ways made weaker weaker trapped rock bottom years now lot sad things hard say hard read feel im living nightmare future right bleak honestly think face hey buddies wan na check smash bros ultimate everyone talking steve fight sans everyones forgetting fight banjo cuphead microsoft reps suffered concussioneverybody ecerythinm feeling daze im delight really depressed corona time yeahhh covid feel shit happy days requested go bathroom right away helped husbanddriver loading parts finally came bathroom asked wrong said grabbed neck hurt think go back know much longer thisi really dont every day gets worse worse force things work school ill trouble never break days constant work never stops want stop want calmness hate pressure thats forced quarantine enough money move forced stay home mother horrible victim complex always takes anger frustrations im one home everything goes wrong life fault oh tried kill past mother ruin life oh enough money buy thing cost much feed house im cant afford housing yet even know guilt im ruining everything good life follow around want live theres escapei really cant stay longer cant handle want bash head wall want bash head wall till bleed outi cant fucking anymore love story set back drop television news three main stars william hurtholly hunter albert brooks create love triangle whilst working washington bureau tv networkbr br tom grunickhurtis handsome reporter groomed starjane hunteris producer recognises tom lacks intellectual gravitas real journalist falls anywayaaron altmanbrooksis man shares beliefs journalistic standards man truly loves herbr br holly hunter nominated best actress academy award lost chermoonstruckshe robbed hunters filmher character jane smartruthless totally driven hilariously neurotic performance perfectjust watch face watches tape toms interview rape victim scales literally fall eyesbr br wiliam hurts performance less showyhe plays man well aware himbo fraudbut smart enough know rise facilitated people janehe gives little hints man extremely calculatingbr br film comments celebrity journalismintegrity commercial pressures news medium focused bottom line predicted news dumbed standards slowly lowered due commercial pressuresbr br think thisthis film released end cold war rise reality tvyet predicted dumbing newsparis hiltons release jail treated major news story see prophetic film isjust watch evening news note set graphics presenterstom grunick clones well truly alive found al yankovic deamm s epic times outside country knew parodies amish paradise whiteampnerdy etc never knew made lot great stuff al tv missed life might femboy halloween tried one friends dresses joke apparently really liked fun dm wan na talk something found circulating net honestly find relateable u thought online clases us students ive wanting speak quiet time nowso lets start first happy holidays extended bcause covideveryone wasbut none us expected itll go longand every single one us missing friends want meet eachother badlynow us celebrate bdays homewe cant invite anyonewe cant go fun used towe cant hug eachothertalk eachother face facewe cant anythingeveryone misses days used go schoolenter class first thing call best friendand greet eachother hugs hifisand standing long assembly lines trying fall asleepand maybe even mess person standing front lineand first period teacher comestakes attendancestarts lesson stuffeating snacks class without teacher noticingsitting back carving tables compass steel scalesharpening pencils throwing trash bench ofc dustbin class show pieceall frooti packets burst creating loud noisesall times sat together lunch gossiping shitannoying pt sirbeing sent class never alonesome person class always give company even outside classannoying nerdsand games period session us feel alivewe class excited thats time obey pt teacher takes us ground asapwe go wild caring anything lost gameand sad moment pt teachers blows whistle loud indicating time head back class games swithching fans turning full speed gulping water bottles life depended forget last periodwaiting waiting waiting bell ring bro minute bell ring someone says ring prayer dash classroom talking friends joking around go school buses return home safelywe eat tasty snacks mom prepared tutionsafter school work study dinner fam watching tv go bed maybe even spend night watching movies listening music waiting next morning exactly always excited meet friends process repeats gone say gone excited school anymorecmon never timethings changed drastically adapt new changesonline classesonline exams online projectsonline activities oh cmon even group activities online first us ok thiswe got new stuffparents bought wifisome even bought new laptops smartphones headphones earphones kids attend online classes without troublebut look good sidethe bad thing thatwe see eachotheronly virtuallyand understand pain student facing right life student hard hardi see everyone forwarding messages sruggles teacher going throughbut oneliterally one thought students pain oh yea theyre mere kidsso whats point probably everyones thinkingyes kids butbut feelings toowe struggle new systemwe humanswe feel tired restlessstressedover workedand depressed said said burdenmore wieght shoulders yall still think ok kids sitting home wasting time nothing give work ok see im complaining anythingthe school gives us workwe buttheres limit know tests without breaks activitiesprojectsgroup projectsvivapresentationsand legit online functionsyou killing energy enough grown well aware whats happening around us whatever school days tho hesitate thingsteachers force usthe school forces us keep extra classes physical health education mental health educationand bringing change ustginking helping us develop waybut see changes reason interact self developement classes knowwe know theres point helping us overcome stressits helping us reduce work loadits helping us anything planning teach us importance self development good mean goodbut thing easy ask us students children tou stressed anything worry talk us thats always saytalk us dontwhy uselesssimple thatif actually cared reduced work littleclearly might sound im complaining noim seriousand even asked reduce workour schools famous dialogyou children big enough normal youlearn manage time seriously something new uswe entered high school lifewe still learning adapt new way schooling online classtry understandgive us timeits easythis online stuff new usagain yall say listen kids already months online class youu still net issuesmic disnt workcam dosnt work stuffok listenour parents pay thisand youok mic working cam workingthats good dosnt devices stop working sometimes plusif think respond class purposeits might problemnot really us might pretending issuesthats fault either might know answer right ok say teachers help ask question many times want help say ok understandbut thing iswe still little awkward comes ask doubtsnot us yea usthis mainly sometimes feel teacher scolds friends laugh doubt even doubt onagain say scold dialog teaching topic classits listening us understand topicjust teaching something dosnt mean well undertanad instantyea sure u explain topic multiple timesbut still understandingits ok teach times moreand online classwe cant predict well leave class due sudden power cut network issuesyou cant assume us students bunking classand mark us absentand hear nicely parentseven ptms cant voice feeling insidebecause nervous scarednow say shouldnt nervous around us children well even voice concersaction taken know thatso thats keep mouths shutand hard us much dayagain say kid cant one thing cant expect every child world one might smart night little slow dumbsome ppl might fastbut students take time need might find little harderthey might little exhaustedso itbut trywe tryim saying u shud ban hw somethinggive much hw used give schoolonline classes becoming burden thrice amount work used lockdownim putting anyone downim putting school teacher downbut trynna bring changes yall expecting us attend every online classes even sometimes saturdays sundaysits hard modern schooling system india started sand living st centuryall going school attending classes physicallywe eventually got used itbut online classes new usand expect us used within months classes going thats easywe still many problems going onimagine poor kids cant even attend online classes cant afford proper device use im blaming anyone corona u need know humanshave feelings need timewe sameits quarantine sit front nextflix chillwe classes attend tutionsdance classesmusic classesart classesand oni hope understandtheres lot say ill stop thankyou taking time read thisreally appreciate im trynna put anyone currently im pissed wait nvm maybe lucid dream worst luckthis fourth time tried post captcha load life sucks want hang im pretty sure rope break fucking scared people love leave find someone better rid fear trust person know wouldnt leave always back mind im worried ill let hurt relationship found literally reading cut femoral state shaking feeling physically ill thoughts never strong phase kind everything go wrong actually think single reason clarity instead sadness three months livei felt enough sadness simply decided fact end life researched peaceful method exception live developing website hugely successful spent months im stupid screw idiothi vent emotions rn idk read u want guess cant really change im online class right now honors classes currently failing every single class im sophomore year every grade goes permanent record thing jobs look decide whether hire u really fucking screw im one family brothers sister failing one grade hes got straight bs classes today mom said never ask anything good grades right shes letting privileges brothers dont mention birthday days brain says try already failing late already almost end semester currently crying writing useless notebook probably helping idk dont know accomplishing dont know im dont know im earth school stress hey guys im sure relate least say life pretty stressful right now school go days week monday thursday probably better lot im small school days im difficult im taking ap us history advanced english college level french physics grade ahead extremely difficult history far hardest spend probably hours daily receive s makes incredibly frustrated ive tried reaching teacher hasnt even responded yet leaves notes assignments theyre incredibly vague elaborate connect people say hes good teacher im sure cant drop class anymore late year even though ive irl days really judge class goes top really struggle learn zoom call need room teacher especially french english fully absorb material cant im th grade word college floating top feel completely surrounded took methylphenidate pill escape life falling apartfamily still hates love cousin im addicted pills first mental breakdown week monday pm cant submit big civics assignment due fifteen minutes wifi keeps going crazy last night ive tryna submit wifi keeps going fully uploads im actually getting pissed wont even able attend class wifi know doi feel really lost stuck things causing depression anxiety relatively control want die see noother way want hurt family friends ive many years feel alone really know im making post guess im hoping someone say something makes sense im going sleep jeans theres nothing stop scene sally field whoopi goldberg go mall revive sallys flagging spirits enough reason alone enjoy movie wait theres crackling good sendup daytime tv movie stars way horrors love robert downey jr shows lighter side genius cathy moriarty splendid dialogue witty physical humor done consummate skill movie appeal really enjoy arts acting directing writing im still alivesadlyi nothing one even try find reason live cant everyday worse version previous one clearly see depression grows im tired living im scared end im much pain rn idk feel trappedlet start bit back story young age ive always second thought family due unfortunate things oldest brother diagnosed cancer second oldest brother diagnosed ataxia telangiectasia age far ive fine year age gap us youngest ive always kinda background helping going back years mum diagnosed cancer well around time recently lost nan used spend every waking moment thought losing mum well extremely overwhelming dad never really looked kids quite challenge mum hospital months end hed us takeaway food every night led extreme weight gain thankfully years mum given clear cancer came fighting left obese year old kid bullied every day school trying keep brave face parents already enough deal caring disabled brother everyday fast forward years ago big plans go game designer hope one day create games ones self use play wanted away real world went college study game design animation amp motion graphics fell course tutor decided enough people course changed photography claymation now ive schoolwork everything around years feel trapped brother lack better term vegetable absolutely love change world parents getting life able tend well younger pretty much help move around lift clean etc etc kindof act main carer lumbered cant help think stay home try best look cant help fell trapped cant leave duty look every day feel better died call horrible person life everyday become depressed looking wanted life taken may sound selfish cant help think one way friendmy friend know love romantically lot diagnosed cancer barely able convince kill minutes ago love dont want lose told tell anyone cant lose im person phone sometimes post fleeting hope one day itll appear meme title says im typing reach minimum word thing mods added anyways thats enough words always thank coming ted talk film really great know alway weakness damian chapa scarface still really enjoyed self film see ten times really trys make good movie cant feel pity maybe bit sympathy vote cant help cant give less stars everyone seen life see make cheap film work live holland bought film one euro thats dollar bought ten euro great great great little dutch film site film gets votes thats much people world buy movie anyone tried stab wound chest specifically nd rd costal spacessince options minimal thats way hanging option house fully occupied drugs option dont access cant stand living anymoremy family abusing years cant take anymore cant stand living anymore want live feel disappointed self feel hella alone sad havent talked friends almost year tried reaching family doesnt believe mental health issues nun checks dad brothers beaten child till today im turning january im tired life cant focus school im stressed depressed sad crying time friend pay sister dollars shut friend stupid getting nudes girl sat phone picked pay dollars keep mouth shut saw dick another girls titties let start saying watching episode first time dvd oclock pm one night fall asleep ambr br brief review may contain spoilersbr br im longtime fan sopranos safely say best episode ive seen im saying everyone feel way episode identical weekend spent family watching father comatose icu passedbr br episode begins tony alternate reality salesman whos identity mistaken man named kevin finnertybr br time ten minutes gone knew either tony dreaming watching show normal sopranos loved itbr br option confirmed anthony kevin looks sky helicopter spotlight see prodding doctor flashlight see moment sequence plays go back real life situation similar one statedbr br tony come coma moment boys take aj home carmella overcome stress breaks hallway signature moment episodebr br remainder episode cut real world family dealing potential negative outcome coma tonys alternate reality parallels whats going mind real world around himbr br comes stellar point episode aj finishes telling mother hes flunked school walks see meadow sitting anthonys sidebr br approaches tony utters best line episode anthony hear us tonys world enters dark hotel room turns light takes shoes goes phone tries dial cannotas trying say something back carmella physically bring yetbr br sits looks window shimmering light reoccurred throughout episode seems call side citybr br cold id die moby marries perfectly last images helps creating emotional rollercoaster episodebr br br br ps watch next episode find light wonderful multiple people call attractive still girlfriend asking one funny whyi cant deal anything anymore every day gets worse previous one cant anything laying bed day anymore year best worst life many people lot people call friends others family theyre wonderful theyre amazing deserve people even know theyve come make days amazing keeping entertained making feel loved make days awful cant spend time without making everything darker people understand leave understand want stay minutes either left makes depressed worst love family love mom dad good parents care children hate parents hate cant talk one view world live cant anything hate cant understand even know try blame know either loved take bit interest everythink liked passionates least became curse burden im scared even want involved anything hate life hate sad time hate hate fact im lazy even want try change young nothing want future well future see future decided study spur right last year highschool idea decided stop beginning third year difficult stressful thing nothing really thing anyway dropped find job find way live independantly anybody work agencies job offers net unemployement cant find anything lie im lazy putting much effort im using alcohol self harm numb feel pain ive cutting forearm months now nobody even noticed im even trying hide considered negligence others know blame anybody anyway im way fcked fell love times life count fingers hand hate love painful fantasy cant enough cant either despite issues worries tried best work relationship worked hard months even seeing give colour daily life end one nail coffin told countless times love made think loved waited drunk tell love one close friend im mad im sad feel disgusted feel sick hold grudge still love despite everything wish happiest date either anyway im way fucked ive wanting die much ive holding pills hand numerous times put blade skin countless times still cant die im coward want live cant commit somehow ive getting closer closer every day still hope somewhere deep inside happen soon things going find kill mind happening im waiting release kingdom hearts soon promised play together old friend house release day always loved videogames filled life fake hopes dreams kingdom hearts definitely one favorite series travel friends planned meet germany twitchcon im really interested really love spend time make memories finally theres another travel germany planned time summer vacations spending entire week surrounded alcoholic friends depressed partying day night things somewhat looking life currently die ill happy die ill happy cant die hope die soon commercials make depressedfor reason commercials make depressed sound music talking ending climax music end think something childhood something cant pin point exactly causes react way callout post gamer man algebra junior metres pavement enoughnot trying mess time go kitchen midnight snack remembered already brushed teeth eh ill eat anyways brush afterwards lmao suicidal years attempti years clear last redflag attempt serious suicidal ideation recently thoughts returned extremely heavily gone stages life anyone childhood middle school high school college keep telling state going better better things change never better worse im one fall binary definitions life know life holds value know good bad way interpret experiences experience much suffering sadness im tired trying make best every situation genuinely want life want suffer anymore anyway bother title carestheres nothing useful say recount tragic backstory long one gives fraction fuck anyway tired ive tried failed absurd amount times perhaps quantum redflag real thingthe theory quantum mechanics supposes sort quantum immortalitythat short hold gun head know chance killing pull trigger pull trigger universe split two parallel universes one die one survive continue pull trigger splits continue occur consciousness observer always follow parallel universe survive well copenhagen interpretation qmech hold true bc wave function collapses sorry studied physics college thought id bigshot astrophysicist someone invoked murphys law life everything conceivably go wrong indeed done point even care got job nasa esa cern observatory anything crushed loneliness unbearable isolation meaningful deep trusting relationship fellow human much ask loved apparently lost cause worth effort nothing good enough never good enough die always feared alone pain unloved someone please help chemistry homework please makes sense im hyper ventilating please ill anything wish tell uyeah idrk long deal w shit one second im feeling okay next second im literally flooded intensely dark suicidal thoughts literally taking trash cant stop thinking abt much want dont even know want want everything want jump balcony want cut see bone think question really dont want im messed sometimes watch videos ppl hurting bc makes feel im sometimes makes feel worse bc used save pictures cuts look later almost trick pain thats skin know thats blood theres weird sense pride think sometimes convince done right go away little bit sometimes feel worse wont means im coward dont know deserve barely breathe whole body throbbing pain physical feels physical feels gorging lungs breaking ribs pain big teeth ive always done best satiate satiate others always ask right second cant stop thinking abt feel shoot head dad jokes throw rock country find gun know stupid hes literal whenever take walks around neighborhood always pouch pebbles case maybe god favor people scared kill dont might hurt half second afterwards maybe breathe without choking without stupid pain fast know wouldnt pretty want cremated anyways truly believe one age relate much hate due virginitysearched word virgin went posts found post yo months ago reading pretty crazy much similar even medication went posts see still active unfortunately werent two posts went comments realized account alt mine relating whole time difference longer take meds insane much wan na die fact im virgin burden find girls doesnt help im extremely awkward around girls born international redflag prevention dayif sign felt alone long timemy fiance want talk tonight uncommon hes distant days one friends died wanted alone thats fne ampxb anyone talk made worse fact almost school night ampxb feel soul crushingly alone trapped mind ptsd flashbacks held back csa ampxb want third redflag attempt month alone im starting therapy startup slow getting help leads painabout months ago met girl really liked first months quasi relationship going time first person tell suicidal thoughts first great problem felt little great couple really pathetic reasons still told problems even though knew interested hearing even talk fucked talked things one last friends shitty little social life crumbling away last december told mym mum suicidal thoughts awkward fuck next couple days tried talk hated regret telling still cant sometimes look eyes military told doctor thoughts waste lot time convince bad shape none even slightly respected need military straight desires matter us well take freedom away well feel attitude lost one friends lose tell friends made things awkward capable loving purely genetics almost lost choice military people respect free make decisions completely alone im uncapable anything alone im completely fucked hey girl write quantum physics equations spare time cos good making stuff long hard asked mom good looking said react lets see answers rteenagers make biggest mistake familys lifewell least still woman son come home least keep hope alive try girlfriend kids watching father die take care family immediate family help everything dead end job still enough imagine going home complete failure grateful spot kill least son reach highperformance goals killing dumbest thing sitting next big baseball player next president next valedictorian life family one made please forget literally kill spot take granted donald trump taking away right sexy donald trump taking away right sexy ok gt date heya ive away month now back days ive got questions new important names need now new memes new rules important events anything worth mentioning happened last months thank yall cant anymore ill probably kill tonightim male college im nearing end rd semester learned one thing hate college never hated anything majoring comp sci actually hate sure tell looking schedule currently taking bunch stupid religion classes hate awful go liberal arts college want broaden horizions suppose means taking classes absolutely nothing major college dad works means free tuition blessing really feel trapped quit pissed away free education id shitty job leads nowhere live home minutes away cheaper want share room roommate one shitty dorms campus afford means really friends alone hurts really want friends high school found even going hanging people find stressful expensive ive never girlfriend either bother fault ive never one never tried always terrified rejection really know say speak girl people say really nothing interesting anyway ive always assumed college break miracle made job really eventually decided done alone miserable time life seems lot hard work cant even enjoy things used mostly stare tv free time easy enjoy yeah im done sucks ill die virgin case anyway prolong inevitable im fucking bored people live past holy shit mean come onyou know ive disappointed time time lately starting show im thought id attending stanford freshman working laid back indie place ca dorming future assets id great girlfriend wholl taken virginity wouldnt see family often new friends better friends richer better looking competent friends look now attending community college selling menthols garbage still virgin lesser friends wouldnt know live probably guessed family wan na know mother recently yelled joking hiding rice crispies hide rice crispies even rice crispies putting people werent ready parents dad poor cheap mother emotionally unstable pretty much year old werent brothers shop wed street right now see family isnt meant cant function independently want leave dead im still dependent people hospitable friends girlfriend happy place enjoyment life surrounded people dont want around still virgin huge embarrassment standards age expected understand sexually become good communicator aspect cant even much talk girl dont really want friend anything wanted friend go talk guy way id comfortable understand better girls sex obligation im giving time money ordinary friend absolutely nothing women chant sex rape see make want slaughter offend actual rape victims mocking using inductive logic deductive circumstance essentially stereotyping women network dating friends thats totally fine social networking site dating site thats cruelty ive heard stories vaginas warmth immense pressure seems partner porn hope look back think disgraceful ive become obviously must enduring sort punishment existing makes sense way ive listened people talk beautiful world listened awe amazing stories recently realize world offer sincere apologies control circumstances birth thus unable abort forgive may perhaps goodbye good conversationover text starters girl aged know hey whats quieter boring people hear lot good conversation startersalso hold conversation crush please help dumbass hi tell enjoy cod series might enjoy content httpsyoutubecomchanneluccdahyyjypuxrpacenca imagine pimples teeth youd still brush teeth know keep honestly know came way thing conclude fell despair deeply let explain least try confess even think weird okay yknow everybody deserve good things life doi sorry understand way expressing bad grammar english okay anything right english native languagei always felt odd feel fake entire life seem normal possible maybe alli always envied people knows want life normal childhood know let go past ill probably never willi consider nothing nothing anything right noi tried hard fit normal life style taking inspiration people loved wanted closest possible lying things went downhillmy family care blame alla think happy mei look outside window see everyone begin happyi wanted feel happiness everything felt emptiness much self hatei blame people use drugs use substance money way refuse live world least even fews seconds feel something emptinessday passed tried positive mental health deteriorated started give self destructive habitsi fasted lived body hated world show beaty made despise even morei fasted caffeine tea coffee got hungry ate fruitall days spent watching walls hurting way writing dairy shitty things happened daily lifethis fainted supermarket sister mother fucking bothered felt shit anything right something changed mei though dead felt soblessedbut waking thinking closer itso stared planning bad thing myselfi quite good car hit point hurting bad realised wanted die wayi wanted yeah someone kill meits strange think help thatwhen sat edge window always thought someone even bother something mekilling easy people know prison waiting hard think iti realised nothing want someone wants dead least wants feel want feel alone feel forcedi know feel worth persons arms closest death feel worth film moved beyond comprehension remain favourite film time mainly almost every emotion rolled minutes hardest part take whenever want hear amazing music songs film put dvd player wondering anyone anywhere knows sings songs film found looked everywhere think sporadically past years favourite quote film court advocate says words ask direct confrontation direct call violence biko replies well confrontation now see violencebr br craig robertson fife scotland brothers resistance cracking believe might finally whittled vulnerable good music accepted handmedown shirt john lennon watch little siblings may win battles older siblings win war actual offense meant chemical romance nirvana lil peep theyre actually talented musicians well cant let little brother know think advice attracting opposite sex ask fish fish ask fisherman take advice girls girls boys boys rated econtains violencebr br original spiderman game pc couple years nowi still beaten windows xp glitch one level cant beat itso warned xpbut xp give game tryits fun clean family game action great spiderman fanin game play spiderman take various criminals commit crimesspiderman fun little game recommend spiderman fan parent wanting funclean game kidsbr br life nutshell first want clearly state information genuine running issues life honestly wish best luck sorry lack formatting im writing mobile phone alright little backstory parents still alive sisters brothers father crippling depression years bad back diabetic works ass everyday family people dollar food stuff budget work per hour job owns personal bussiness company buys damaged cars repairs resells everything seems fail miserable ways god testing patience years despite knowing lot family least talk hes ranting living room mother couple brothers sisters thats important right now used work brother always either low amount moneynothinghis brother say dumb shit brother always goes parents tell part story whilst father doesnt lead grandparents hatred father father depressed said last couple weeks turning pretty bad rent paid months yesterday serious conversation brother number phone go well something involving cars brother reason dad loses cars garage company aka life work result dad either commit redflag heart attack im serious part life autism say depression didnt psychologist years anyway years ago middle school children class always really annoy dont wrong mad strength anger management issues goal bully push border likely cause onepunch hospitalize expelled wanted wasnt bad enough dumb ass middle school made us every grade part playground idea called im dutch meant play football soccer together now friends idiots never went well best friend crippling depression parents always fought almost got beat death father kids always go principal break telling stories friend stuff never actually knew saying one time absent went principal say friends extremely racist bullshit goes ballistic goes class threatens call police us heard next day one time best friend football lads got vd people brothers friends friend m time smallest person far best player talent actually managed stand ground score goal whilst people meters literally using lethal force friend hit head one playground obstacles die looking great godly goal one went ball fell brothers foot blamed motherfucker attacked brother ran fuckface kmu pace giving one clean punch face breaking nose braces glasses giving concussion falling intense nose bleeding people proceeded hold prevent hospitalizing later got code red code reds means expelled goal along didnt care dont fucking touch brother later ive cooled talk dude week later guess fucking apparently went wanted shoot ball brother didnt let wanted kick hurt told multiple times give space leave alone didnt let holy fucking shit idea fucking mad right across table talking mad shit right eyes denied everything said everything fucking fault wanted kill dude least lines rant left hands hurting dont feel good atm might make another post rn im gymnasium school education system worst best praktijk basis kader kader mavo havo atheneumgymnasium fuckers basis kader friends helped cheat important central exam determine wed go got highest got real trouble please dutch people dont flood comments thanks listening rant tdlr dollars week budget parents depressed poor fucked im screamed time father might commit redflag soon childhood messed speak forever hold peace either die filler filler filler filler filler filler filler suicide frowned upon knew want suicide hotline pick everything feels happening twice recently something odd happening thought process really hard explain whenever recall memory recent past feels two copies memory feels memory experience happened know long think cant see future thats impossible exactly stressing bothering happened bit less month ago among mental conditions tamper perception world none makes sense know causing significant issues think warrants getting professional help even though im already getting things edit think deja vu deja vu feel event familiar happening feels different feel given event happened several hours later week two later time feel multiple times every day wan na dieplease help wan na die wamma die kill em please beg kill wan na die wan na die pleas help wanma die kill kill kill kill refused look face acknowledge done several days later sister calls feigning friendship asking cat forced adopt living got home multiple hour drive way noticed cat behaving strangely cat point less year leaving almost entirely feral infested ridiculous number fleas posted local forum town ways help repair cats nowaggressive nature real value anyonejust venting seriously point alive got ta go dentist next week cavities theyre using laughing gas extreme phobia deal im much pussyim alone every reason cant im afraid comes leaving little behind dont deserve alive future theres nothing stay anyways nobody loves mother rather keep relationship man molested keep relationship ive pissed friends anxiety prevent able hold job productive member society guy love blocked every source want talk want make things okay nothing okay takingmonths ago started make playlist music lead dont really anything love nothing loved im grey object im tired nice people negative feedback im tired used taken advantage im tired person put im done yeah kind person gets far ive found holding back even gun loaded im ready take away im tired cant change hitting rough patch scared recurring thoughtsi s going divorce kind rough childhood think made dumb decision getting married shortcut independence parents underemployed finishing degree online scared lease month half job im interviewing tuesday basically homeless even job provides housing id find place live two months ive lived car short stretches never long feel shit decent even steady job kind useful work experience social anxiety affecting job performance current position honestly think make huge impact lost mo keep invasive thoughts redflag want die exactly feel ive fucked chances ive studied wrong thing school finish projects started younger im getting marriage wrong attempt middle school makes nervous feel much way want beats hell im now feel im broken basic functions keep dwelling thoughts exhausting really use right advice ways preoccupy mind worst thoughts pass block anxietyguilt things homework looking new job encouragement especially anyone whos divorce right gate even typing load mind sorry rambliness thank reading far remember reading original balzac story college frenchbr br remember ken nordine wgntv chicago reading one late night showsbr br always loved story never believe make movie surprise wellbr br balzac stories lend dramatization unfortunate cat lover always hoping filmed without lot hollywood sexing close perfect conversion donebr br theater mind always better eye see close think come letting imagination reading meet reality seeing feel nice sent message friend bc hinted towards things bit rough assured im need talk anything responded saying yeah everythings fine bit rocky im happy know half time think jokes feel important nice everyone important nice even yes amazing make difference never forget help help commenting post want orange mail pls sick suicidalhave life recommend talk hentai post talk hentai recommend websites images videos hentai manga want loved really hard recently learned provinces canada hoodies called bunny hugs never taking bunny hug know best way help friend right nowokay bit long story best friend boyfriend killed months ago really bad gotten pretty close cause feel one loved much recently relapsed self harm years clean even recently past couple day stated many times going kill im everything think help need world fucking bad couldnt make without know cant lose know start sorry rant guess advice appreciated think best film probably amorphous list one best films ive seen whatever reason really connected movie one personal films seen point life better worse strongly identified holly hunter character im guy plays extremely bright loyal intense woman figure romantic relationships many things said movie things say said others similar circumstances ending movie find sadbr br obviously role big break holly hunter clearly one think highly even feel human anymoreslowly surely everyone life left alone cant remember last time even felt anything besides sadness care life whats point living cant share experience people sad part ive lost hope friends everyone hang never talks even cares shittiest feeling knowing people called friends six years even around even trust anyone anymore im terrified im going scare everyone away whenever someone shows even little bit attention know im scared next person show attention become sole reason want continue living inevitably leave left options days feel meaningless sleep much literally enjoy anything anymore cant bring make sort effort towards anything meaningful cant see point living think anything possibly worse school advice first im writing ive seen increasing number people complaining school horrible ill share experience might repost later maximum number people see skip rd th paragraph impatient little bit background numerous school systems french ib british bilingual canadian quebec dutch numerous different schools numerous different countries school always easy subjects require much knowing heart never studied usually physics chemistry math foreign languages hated class language school literature basically without studying skipped years high school study university faster study engineering people always say school horrible feel bad depressed etc experience different school systems problem school probably school system example french system extremely rigid force box named normality put one hair box bad student weird stupid etc teacher hated guts really know new school black sheep eyes students need say experience horrible studied ib english system different country mentality lax parents give two shts kids nannies taking care imagine teachers school lax teachers gave work higher grades keep interest school always new students black sheep anymore time enjoyable lightly bullied somewhat popular kid selfesteem issues really care people see different schools contrasting experiences problem school try know people necessarily possibility change school school system grade always thought ridiculous learn stuff interested case english literature etc look back upon want hit seemingly boring subjects high importance im studying engineering see helped form personality even forget learned month still subconsciously make comparisons try imagine someone general knowledge able hold long conversation able realize impact consequences surrounds hate sciences even forget taylor series derivatives gravitational force exerted two objects certain mass brain still remembers reasoning behind helps build understanding critical thinking two quotes sum im trying say education learning facts training mind think einstein educated differ uneducated much living differ dead aristotle school allows make connections people socialize people going say friends socialize talking people socializing imagine go school know already know someone became blacksmith lost school tool helps find calling life sciences always interested school know want engineering know people feel much work homework example believe probably school systems exaggerate homework though right now hours classes day university hours theres lot taught short amount time simplification top clear notes assignments review understand correctly etc much work something everyday rest life homework considered good preparation adult life feel depressedsadtired start blame school directly look life think make sad really depressed go see psychologist shameful unhealthy lifestyle blame sports go long way healthy mind problems family go see psychologist money teacher good think ive reached end lineim feeling little helpless overwhelmed right now ive many psychiatric drugs years now usual story work stop med key pin keeping together showing symptoms tardive dyskinesia cant stop certain motions happening started intense drug clozapine vitals done daily weekly blood tests runs risk depleting white blood cell count feel med complete last resort work takes even started risks associated new drug working right im suicidal im sleeping hours day im skipping work showering eating feel turn destiny kill ive daydreaming lot lately wish killed various points life thought bet future ill wish killed now im going wait big family vacation taking feb one last time hang family say goodbye documentary films question realism always crops much film real much manipulated film maker little dieter needs fly herzog far absorbed telling story man telling story even address question realism versus formalism beginning herzogs role storyteller obvious luckily master storyteller little dieter finest engaging documentary seen dieters story enthralling herzogs efforts reenactment putting dieter paces reliving story location filmed effective story dieter tells real herzog everpresent wrenching absurdist commentary realism film mustsee students documentary film andor werner herzog im feeling ten emotions right im happy im sad im hyper want go sleep every combination emotions talk girl pretty much met new years met started talking new years ive talked twice force asleep therapisti see therapist tomorrow want know tell feel without committed daily pain spent today getting medicaid back freaking surgery time go work today several hours today feel dominant hand barely eat normal food emotionally space want therapist trust deal locked without access medicine throw away accountive never plan want hang now im convinced im attention everyone around part thinks part thinks never want wake seriously know good things come care know shitty things come life hard fuck ive ssri meds days know terrible idea friends ive grown apart ive grown apart many friends last year think covid lock downs made realize many people want stay life rather seeing forcefully daily basis due school acquaintances people thought actual friends stupid things wish reason growing apart wish talk friends maybe put things back together ill wait little longer guess test post test post heard friends singing going walk park friends talking musicals started singing dear theodosia hamilton amazing amazing saying bad incredible listening two girls sing might actually chance turns may found way finally week quickly almost painlessly quite excited idea suicidal thoughtsreally hard year old keep continuing living life im failing class parents working asses put right path thats working im wise person think better end rather letting waste money chose movie really husbandwho works radio broadcasting thought movie enjoy relate though eightiesso little dated movie really draws times want strangle host barry times want send bigots call true concentration camp times really feel sorry barry truly gotten big jeans know mean drama channel encoreso thinking true story truly love dramas love even know ins outs broadcasting business alec baldwin fan watching see shouldnt part really bit part movie ayo chess players hmu play chesscomhttpschesscom lichess bet lot care chess still post chess player sub unhappy want end always end thinking others worse everyones hard time right now feel even guilty suicidalim done anything worth mentioning life far show marriage dog love much change feel many plans gotten execute exactly none im fucked every level really bad physical health top everything im liver failure feel shit constantly im sick enough need transplant yet puts shitty position life im kind stuck low end home job energy almost non existent without continuing education pushing back graduation date even concentrating difficult finally enter workforce healthy capable individual knows will doctor told start applying ssi job one reasons killed yet even physically healthy im fucked head knows id actually able accomplish goals im terrified criticism shut slightest inkling sort negative test score lowering gpa passed one semester next semester got b important test realized end semester next semester gave got two failing grades two five classes gpa now serious ptsd mental health issues past trauma even healthy physically always held back want risk success failure painful now cares im sick try anyway life direction plans cant plan anything liver fail completely time never completely fail waste life always feeling way feel fucking trapped due covid least go outside normal healthy people pretend hours everything ok everyone wearing masks everyone struggling everything mess almost everyone cant escape nothing ok anywhere feel trapped feel way way wish wasted good health younger wish wouldve gotten therapy money access neither know much longer flexible kick chin guy especially sleeping day either goes fast slow time realise weeks gone past struggle remember hell long time weird thing sadnessi want kill nobody take care little dog cheated dont feel worthy livingthats cant deal pain caused saw girl days asked gf gf girl cheated told everything unresponsive attempt contacting dont see without gf ive never felt comprehended loved cheated didnt even want begin even tho wasnt gf officially talked exclusive knowing type scumbag betray want end use schoology ima cry help help assignment due tomorrow god cant use platform lifeeeeee againagain people reading im saying people putting words mouth making feel worse really cant take anymore ive hospital ive made plans nearly killed almost every day know right person probably right right complain im starving death schizoaffective bipolar pure ocd cant even acknowledge better things starve accepted help im terrible person terrible fucking person im going try anymore barely try stay alive anyway people starving fighting lives deserve live never thank everyone supported past year hope last time post important announcement listened green days jesus suburbia good prepared id recommend schools still serve strawberry milk lunch miss stuff much really rare find stores loved stuff growing id drink gallon now stores carry tiny little bottles cost bucks one many things really miss childhood dont know anymore tw redflagi dont know anymore whole lifes ahead college high school job love etc even still find wanting end often horrible dad lot older go time finish college enough time unfair mom drinks lot horrible health none family likes shes abused multiple boyfriends makes horrible money life decisions might even go dad whos older liver gives sister different blood type none family help im much issue try best help often find alone cant bring go parents going divorced soon sister hates mom love hate relationship sister half black mom white arguments lot recently got back friends left behind spent around three months without found girl whos perfect got tough depression every awhile think killing without never bring im scared isnt anything life want able help mom alcohol make better money decisions nicer late maybe goal next year dont know ill cant help mom going focused something focus anything yeah now feel losing mind feel empty time eat much buy stuff going crazy think anymore concentrate memory working body used hate constantly look mirror judge way look try diet everyday soon break hungry thirsty sweet taste food main thing mind time fill feel eatbut feel worst gain fat hate morewhen sit groups understand going ask questions ppl say talk much say anything one notices always one one ignored weird crazy psychopath one call psycho joke funny anymore yeah hyper energetic sometimes know deal energies somehow feel empty guess eatwhat wrong mewhy thisi keep thinking days yo happy hopeful parents young everything everyone happier today mostly sadness tired thoughts feelingsi want sleep wake upi want shot make mind quitei want want sorry vent know post guess keep feelings anymore posting evil facts historical figures love stop cynical asshole day charles darwin charles darwin one great scientists challenged church going history galileo mendel proved living things made cookie cutter templates ancestor became creature fir environment act surely requires scientific genius right well ideas first taught schools found better teach elementary school level thw reason even found simplistic principle geniuses world figured yet well many people even grandfather discussed idea yet plagiarized even add much idea mathematical model scientific method made support even less point general idea wrong point point z right personally observed points b wrong happens show work class kids another thing idea rejected nationalist right going taught younger generation reject fact embraced used take nationalism next step formed new idea called social darwinism idea humans go darwins process migrate new environments become siperior others mostly used excuse racist idea even used create nationalistic movements nazi party call everyone bro sounds nice lot childhood spent lying front wireless listening round horne hancocks half hour watching carry films probably famous line comedy infamy infamy theyve got infamy still makes laughbr br rare insight man behind comic figure whole production brilliant mix tragedy comedy right final quotation coroners court read four different voices michael sheen brilliant role members carry team soso kenneth horne good michael sheen carried show award sort himbr br left feeling wow quote kenneth williams cynic says life joke response yes well lets make good one found crush likes took mins scrolling teams find guys class figure talking dont know turn toi want die im trying best happy stay positive cant want reach someone dont know appointment therapist next week dont think wait long want end now dont know keep thinking thoughts cant happy hurts live way want actually going follow throughi think soon im actually going follow feel im fucking roller coaster want one favorite rockstars blocked instagram im proredflagi commented something post saying someone whos proredflag cant comment maybe saw eventually deleted blocked people find easy kill wish easy may almost around th percentile im tanner stage really surprising already visible shadow voice dropped lot already maybe ill make remembered one day chilling harden discovered hedgehog garden hole side dead pond ive diagnosed bipolar im already gay polar bears whatever im confusion ive accepted itive thoughts redflag years old im really thru much handle mental health dad died mom abandoned months bounced around different family member homes feeling im good enough one wanted keep ive gone thru lot dealt lot death always contemplated redflag never think way actually go today ive lost hope completely girl told loved wanted foreveri soul mate told today wasnt sure meant im sick feeling alone one actually cares many failed relationships mother abandoning ive convinced im unlovable ill alone forever cant decided today im gon na buy gun week work last shift friday enjoy time friends weekend sunday june rd im going take peaceful place drugs drink finally shoot head finally end pain cant handle anymore pain constant life long remember im past breaking point thanks giving place put thoughts existence hope go thru tiredlife cant numbing various drugs behaviors cant take end cut least times oddly sting isnt painful anymore almost want roll bloody arm concrete see damage im numb ive given even trying live life im tired tried alone tried friendly cant seem accept im meant dead inside meant hurt every second blessed life apartment food stomach whats point girl couldnt love im codependent bitter distant maintain blank demeanor dont know better literally cant relate anyone im probably human human body im complaining need someone bounce redflag ideas none friends help leave sense peace takers probably last hear meim done cant keep going probably going last post anything fro forever cant keep coping stupid gender dysphoria kd rather dead male body di end responding anything means im weak weak kill tried living work dog died dog years shi tzu passed away recently playing backyard little sister ball passing around bounced cookiey dog ran bumped farther point bit worried let go bit unfortunately live right near road time figured go far late car hit good ways avoid fapping im going yearlong journey need advice fap guy considered best friend told go kill gutsive suicidal around two years now used self harm daily time yesterday two friends accused selfish problems meant everything care others guy thought best friend told low eq maybe theyre saying true maybe whine around lot im boring sad person trivialises peoples problems deep try help everyone try care others anyway told reason happens im severely depressedim medication suicidal used cut best friend told ive whining long time told go ahead kill told guts said home trouble know attempt ex gf currently hospital redflag attempt im trouble knowing dobackstory httpredditiyi updated information admitted hospital actual room now may days little info forgot include post usually lives min away depending traffic actually visiting past weekend internship hours away parents live hope sound selfish right seem trouble figuring supposed wants come visit feel bad one know finally calling parents live together tonight talked im sure theyre coming anything first im sure good thing point id think go thinking im great guy love thinking called already said today wished come taken er voluntarily told maybe good thing keeping craigslist post incredibly fucked reading notes sorry rambling guess advice desire back together im pretty sure still another reason im sure seeing good promise bring stuff apartment going see least one time unless theres unexpected twist absolute bullshit lot mean lot lego sets ive collecting take minimum hours build except smaller ones take hour parents hired someone clean house destroyed bitch come house fucking job switches around everything room obliterates hours work fucking lazy milenium falcon wich takes around hours build wrecked lego ninago temple season wich takes hours build obliterated kylo rens ship hour build fucking desitegrated original xwing wich hour build least deleted theyre harder ones rebuild built years time last summer break thats time ill able end rant holy shit cant even comprehend much hate guy playing gta chilling guy came u destroyed someones cargo going kill u asked whose didnt know said look crew tag grieferdeleter kd kept killing x spawnkilled didnt even chance hate soo mucb fucking angry hard leave alone save gamertag tho bye everyoneif anyone sees want say byei hope everyone happy worry everfuck life fuck god putting fucking nightmare lifebye goodbye letterstoday im writing goodbye letters family friends hey folks wondering anyone experience something dealing escitalopram mg now crazy vivid dreams bizzare whenever sleep dream even naps every single night need movies got sleep anyone escitalopram brother way addicted thing younger brother way addicted fortnite first thing morning waking turn par start playing sometimes class continues playing till evening ask leave half hour rest gets angry shouts gets aggressive addicted sound boomer took ps hid time mom wont stop saying hentai shes listening song called acid rain think theres word sounds hentai wont stop fucking saying house small hear everything first thing morning play fucking song ok first hate jesus christ please kill daily girlfriend post spice things bit much bit start suggesting song every time last night earth green day good night everyone ill date crush moment going date dreams remind drink water stay hydrated oh last thing game im unattractive lonelylooks matter point yeah dont im home right trying figure kill attempted cut selflooong story short tried cut today one big knives cutting block tried cut near hip easy hide marriage done nowhere go bridge via knife knows feel finebut feel suicidal drink bruno funny word bruno bruno bruno bruno bruno bruno pretty much doneits worth feel hurting things getting worse lately reasons stay aliveim living really bad living conditions im dealing break loss really close friend heart bipolar disorder making hard sort friends want end know know pills take jump window even know tw brief sh mentionill completely alone house breakdown tonight relapsed last night going doi struggle impulsivityshould already scared unbothered time even know possiblei know wish disappear facing tiring scared tomtorow wasp terrorizing single fucking wasp terrorizing day long finally captured holding hostage little bit honey eat nice smelling salt got ill kewp guys updated anything happens set everything second attempt took everything downhi previously tried back november jumping stories surviving fell tree brain damage thus lot trouble using left side body trouble walking lift left arm right shoulder doctors say permanent damage left arm may never drink becoming alcoholic brain much control alcohol know im lucky damage much worse still feel fucked life girlfriend supportive clearly loves appreciate much real question much take decides cant handle anymore ends relationship really think ill attempt redflag succeed time fear set note kitchen phone beside stove emit carbon monoxide indefinitely pilot light go reason maybe antidepressants anyways wanted let everybody know story im still haha funny funny got awards think anaphylaxisso long story short im dizzy lips tingling starting swell two choices seek medical attention lay bed watching season buffy stan warm fuzzy feeling possibly waking morning think option winner girlfriend tried cheat one best friendsfeels old old feel knew good true theres real good people everyones got kind selfish motive either fill pockets inflate ego theres always gon na backstabbing people im always gon na lonely wan na deal anymore want hang alive absolute torture every day wake everyday disappointed die night last months medication therapy avail hospitals danger self harmed much point scars arms doubt heal life huge downward spiral long remember ruining friendship someone person made feel anything meaningful long fucking time straw broke camels back complain barely anything good life fuck everything good past weeks trying whatever escape world awful lonesome empty feel even hours drugs alcohol whatever always come back hole always little brother every time tells loves sad want leave much fucking pain know much longer go without ending fought fought depression took right steps better nothing works anything feel even worse know anyone read need vent know much longer thought really great movie especially jut filler bored got library really enjoyed ive watched twice two days watch iti thought plot going really corny end really said true liked main characters thought well cast see true friendship thought excellent job ending goodand really hate bad guys really good guys movie supposed knows sick idea means yet coming feel want hide want dump hard either advice got new boyfriend heading towards another episode worry scare anyone actually care dieddepression fucking obsessed girl know im fucking good enough anybody even fucking family friends fuck anyone actually reads cares dads important moms prove wrong understand fans filmmaker roman polanski love movie understand totally hate ebert one understand people running theater first viewing im sure fall either category someone cant enough kafka bizarre dark comedies paranoia tenant effective enough running time maybe one cases might masterwork halfhour twilight zone episode serling delivering coda terkovsky whomever might writhes bed bandages similar treatment doomed protagonist repulsion argued ambiguity sense surreal coming sustained disintegration character location quite frankly better lead performance tenantbr br stands tenant intriguing premise kind one tire telling people polanski polish migr paris takes apartment recently acquired simone choule jumped near death window died soon tenants conservative max terms noise saturday night terkovskys friends complaints much noise happen polanskis goodnatured slightly nervous tenant says peace even moving cabinet chair soon complaints registered another tenant register complaints case much mistaken identity lack peace mind oneself surrounding people downward spiral goes polanski ratchets tension dare say blackcomedic laughs showing terkovsky midst horrible dream one polanskis strongest scenes period finding teeth wall mention bathroom across way might add always cinematic lynchpin horror surreal madnessbr br somehow film never really feels significant aside excessive design wouldbe mindf machine terkovskys tenants seeming seem little theres much suspense finding really makes paranoia selffulfilling least twice thought well polanski take title role hes bad actor appeared several films plays direction aside great looking awkward tense church moments sort flipping thinking really kill transformation less creepy tongueincheek test see pull entirely despite polanski working well look meek frazzled terkovsky see least actors pull subtlety affecting personality time one sees drag goes cringeworthy true camp particularly goes doubleclimax end course little surprisebr br yet pleasure filmbuff polanski fan see supporting cast try dig much ambiguous characters winters douglas best even strain limited characters unexpected moments polanski adjani getting hot heavy bruce lee movie gets really drunk one almost random scene slaps kid near fountain rather brilliant good film one maybe stick attention many coffees midnight essential film exactly hope fucking realise reading redflag notei hope girl finally realises done learns lesson hope friends realise seeking attention learn lesson hope family realises sad time nonsense learn lesson hope fucking realise crying help months much fun bothered ill leave link account redflag note maybe understand thing two eh even fucking care anyways oh annoying asshole finally gone fuck life film captures true struggle identity ongoing teenage years really moving feels strangely documentarynot contrived real interesting unsettling fucked forgot november fapped ashamed failed first day helping outwhats quicker death cutting veins strangulation want go quickly possible rather suffer last moments im always stressed anyone know less stressed week exam week basically free time late night early morning except today dont class calm feel im failure score lower passing dont wan na disappoint parents sunday bday please help ive trying 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suicidal thoughtsive suicidal thoughts past never anxietyrelated lately anxiety consistently awful two months now literally makes want die ill sit spot hours debilitating fear cant bring hobbies feel constantly danger makes brain shut completely nothing makes go away family doesnt believe anxiety bad want welp bird threw cucumber slice cant find playing decided try cucumber threw im stuck crawling floor find favorite song let lick pussy let let lick pussy let let lick pussy let let lick pussy let lick little wittle tiny pussy tiny pussy let lick tiny pussy wan na pussy gim let lick tiny pussy wan na lick tiny pussy please let lick pussy want lick pussy want lick pussy want lick pussy want lick pussy let lick pussy let lick little pussy let let lick little pussy let lick little pussy let lick little pussy let lick little little little pussy yeah let lick pussy let lick pussy let lick pussy let lick pussy let let lick pussy let let lick pussy let let lick pussy let let lick pussy let let 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day hot nickel balls pussy little twats little coin slot axe wounds little coin slot axe wounds good spanish movie worried many feel lost many around world idea spanish civil war fought history teacher big advantage easily see film confusing piece together pieces doubt big concern spain film made audiences may bit confused later filmbr br movie begins yearold carol mother returning mothers home town years passed gather coming spain new york city despite strangeness carol speaks reasonably good spanish much film adapts mother alone ill spill pick fact carols father fighting war side republicans eventually lost bloody conflictbr br movie gets exceptional marks lovely camera work music rather slow rambling pace bad provided someone accept films way seen several spanish films war compares pretty well themnot better worsejust decent slice life film left behind well nice coming age flickbr br psif know side republicans mostly socialists backed soviet union mexico well volunteers many countries including usa nationalists led franco aided portugal fascist states germany italy wow crush literally dmed sleep staying cutest thing wan na hug bad nopeee stupid covid bruh hate voice chat sometimes weird girl sometimes especially weird guys change treat im feel aloneall posts ignored im trying guess hopes least one person give time dsay feel tired sad want help nobody wants im bad people try best dont want feel anymore ive thinking lot redflag honestly keep feeling way im going ive tried hard feel better help nobody thinks im worth guess im wan na end cant sonim okay know genuinely want swallow massive amount pills follow jack cupboard need vent hopes feeling better son nearly weeks old thing keeping boyfriend amazing month year anniversary cant tell feel way dont feel really talk anyone beginning relationship told bi problem never knew react said liked girls specific featurefast forward year march april ans tell one day want threesomes ive done jealous isnt issue honestly love stuff im months lb baby stretch marks loose skin extra weight brought back every miserable part depression anxiety ive dealt younger im still medication meds dont anything now sex life sucks feel failure mom partner cant seem anything turn cant seem anything right anymore looks talks girls ive tossed aside tonight started smoking drinking cut hips probably scar wont bleed im going reach docs meds feel lile im slippery slope mental health physical appearance son reason im still cant leave without motheso im sitting sobbing trying hard stick around thanks vent supplies want go sooni bought everything back im tired ive started abusing sleeping medications matter im four times dose one now hopefully ill finish planning soon end needed tell someone im planning killing soon talked friend tonight understand upset stressed tell im almost done give edit recently reason gotten agonizingly painful tinnitus thats getting worse theres cure honestly planning redflag long furthuring mental insanity cant even think right ringing hurts im sorry think life want make everything end every time see attractive woman want kill myselffirst intense feelings longing intense anxiety thought trying talk intense pain partner arrives leaves overcome anxiety try talk rejected thoughts redflag dont cut dont cu dont cu hell whats wrong mei saw many reports historys think much pain perfect life right fell cut even kill im struggling cut kill mysefl think make fell worst know competition fell worst worst life dont know fell week falling little im sorry want put hard cut right now hey guys need legal help pocket knife live californian im wondering legal fiddle iteg open close ask adhd typically need something fiddle dont want anybody getting hes got knife run ahhhhh im opening closing knife im making attempt hide im intending brandish advide helpful career disappointment iti going job ive dreamed training years fucking loser everyone feels sorry even boyfriend scared profound humiliation ive experienced want disappear cant simply disappear want kill way minimally disturbing people stupid enough still care ive disappointed everyone need stop disappointing people ive researching obtain gun thats next step life hard continue late now needed chestthis post ive made one make need somewhere scream guess read thank im finally ready point cant keep handling way life shaping cant keep anymore really know start id therapy family history schizophrenia put many different types help medication cant even try remember safely say im beyond help now context im year old jazz music student coming family history severe mental illness looking family around eventually joined fell apart loner kid literally friends time got first romantic relationship lasted two years two years physically sexually mentally abused parter taken advantage financially even finally found friends something come along fuck make tough weak kid bring leave eventually moved city study university chance took never looked back point turned ready start anew id done made huge new group friends found surrounded love support id never felt ended finding someone found perfect absolutely phenomenal year life something go spectacularly wrong found one best friends id met terminally ill alongside id found family member id talk mother killing multiple times space week alongside parteratthetime handle insecurity selfhate left understand completely time decreased self worth much time learnt went one week id felt overwhelmed decided take huge overdose meds time unfortunately pulled much apparently shouldnt survived based much id taken drank everyone friends city year completely abandoned calling attention seeker irrational ex breaking whilst listening actual reasons id made attempt life think least damaging thing happen week never cared hear happening th ended going absolutely nuts spending money drugs alcohol got point hugely debt unemployed falling behind uni work finding addicted getting blackout drunk time feel something guess end day needed system sort forum give reasonings whoever finds feel last years constant therapy shit ive managed one single year went well even fell apart leaving failing uni student huge amount debt alcohol problem losing everything short space time cheers anyone whod taken time read little summary im done know felt need post eh end day tried long cant say least fight already planned time place weeks im looking someone talk said felt need cant anymoreive tried kill twice wish id succeeded last summer months ago hospitalized anything cant say really helped told pdoc therapist well two weeks ago maybe im sure ive telling people im okay anything know keep promise last night started writing note say goodbye everyone love feels relief decide people tell ive lot past couple years im stronger survived honestly feel tiredness cant fight anymore anything keeping ive tried think things tether life ive come nothing im tired cycle bad place last year never ends ive tried every kind medication cocktail imaginable ive even tried vitamin supplements im tired cant day interact others basically always play role masks inside change behaviour topics talk extent even vocabulary according person talk soon alone feel empty feeling personality day play functioning human night suffocate self loathing self harm urges suicidal fantasieswhen laugh talk whatever superficial really stimulate brain emotions shallow short living feel playing roles completely empty inside day title says want people talk avoid sleeping know wanted clarify anyone still virtual fully hey everyone school fully virtually entire year choice go back chose halfway year point felt itd drastic choice start going back miss friends yes everything anyone still going virtual hard time distracted easily use personal computer instead chromebooks hurt eyes screen small call police well check mom tonightim mother bad relationships current significant told leaving morning drinking spree well hour sent picture car dash running garage saying tell blabla love im sleepy hot going see mom heaven broke tears immediately called cops well check turns sitting porch drinking beer showed pissed hospital texting kinds shitty stuff ruined life still feel right thing chest even know belongs sub reddit contemplating redflag today spent weekend parents friends house lake pretty good lots activities stuff nice change pace people around age ive known childhood never really talked tried talk introverted nature really came always felt something wrong fact really cute girls amplified never really fit activities together im always odd one wish invisible whenever theyd hang room never came close cause felt id embarrass thats realized bad social skills really everyone back home different one theyd fun hanging sit corner trying disappear forever hear talk laughing jokes anecdotes things normal people whenever id try talk conversation go dry one look direction time say bye came packed stuff hid car parents said stuff scolded afterwards impolite hour car ride mulled everything wrong everything made different made wrong brain even brought stuff times hung people past none good around minutes self imposed mental torture starting toying idea escape rid ability make mistakes rid trip takes place driving highway thought id wait us going least kmh pass semi truck jumping car ending life opportunities arose looked trucks pass thought god hurt im typing instead spread across one longest highways world scared hurt tldr got sad cant interact people wanted end smart right im officially thank making year sub amazing love time pay taxes now sometimes feel im forced stay chinese class mean fun sometimes feel never even choice feel jealous sometimes little brother taken still understand took still think either parents realize struggle sometimes probably ive first grade fact hard change takes credits cant take classes want years im hopefully done pog pog mountains poggers discord poggers anyone anyone wan na joindscord friends made sharing memes meeting new ppl guys girls included cupcakes jk gaming channels pog ig okay yeet comment link cycle overit seems things repeat life really good yanked away yanked away completely twisted perverted whatever beautiful thing used gone whatever taken tips scales far away anything positive life bad ugly simply weigh much time pursue options find funny everyone always tells need hello reach minute reach help ignored one actually wants help ill bend backwards friends help help never returned physically mentally sick need help hate hope dies brutally feeling killing mom realised im way fortunate people world im born first world country still stable country full wars live comfortably food plate air conditioning room good loving family relatively well parents stable well paying jobs worry money good education mom trained english baby im fluent english opens ton doors physical disabilities arms legs feeling grateful planning ending life turn cant take anymore im much failure hate much hate alive reason im still alive today shove knife heart years ago really want kill im afraid ill suffocate long time hang someone save thus decided im going give chance try live years left turn legal adult kiss girl girlfriend turn im going go trouble getting shotgun im going kill quite impossible back pull trigger finally put rest cant wait die rid pain suffering know never girlfriend matter hard try know fact girl look right past im hopelessly ugly id better start looking shotgun right now dad zoomer know uses quotes tiktok daily calls bruh public random times day say something finds funny hell basically make one catch phrases acts personalitywise people rimandthisisdeep makes fun kind funny first going almost year now im drawing portrait jar jar binks middle freshman orientation im reddit im total savage way rid scars fast comfort cutting brings people seeing scars explain hell self harm scars rid fast movies appear provide enterntainment well realism wondered role snipers modern war take look one br br loved scene hundred soldiers shooting jungle noone quite sure shot camebr br nicked one scene saving private ryan merit scenebr br heard awful lot english patient finally decided cd find ballyhoo found cinematic delight repeat always watched open mind religious moral zealot afraid film fail see beauty cinematic masterpiece keep harping moral dilemmas film creates remember correctly watched film read review site thoroughly disgusted views person quote said protagonists thoroughly deserved got comes morality agree way comment film magnificence br br must admit rarely seen wonderfully crafted film keep hearing background soundtrack subconscious first foremost love story yes extramarital affair moralists beware lets keep focusing instead lets focus story told admixture flashbacks present set world war ii tells us story survivor plane crash count almazhy played wonderfully ralph fiennes looked army nurse juliet binoche war torn italy beginning end defeat axis powers burn scarred patient much pain kept remembering torrid affair english woman katherine kristin scott thomas shown flashbacks set prewar africa past present interwoven adroitly story sort transported story feel first hand viewer locales desert italy beautiful characters romantic ashamed say tears ended watch someone truly love movie starts ends shot desert sand dunes twist curves womans body breathtaking sense loss grief conveyed overwhelmingly actors makes wonder god wars destroys beauty unforgivable destruction innocence br br anyway deservedly bunch oscars go hunting works director anthony minghellait kind brings back romanticism david lean genre filmsit almost reminds lawrence arabia based deserthappy viewing folks alone birthday supposed live life spending birthdays holidays alonei gotten gift cards parties people spend birthday see people big families lots friends big parties lots gifts cant others everyone killing end pain depression misery felt shit school today felt friends care thought redflag first time ive felt past week think redflag daily tried come redflag method guys think say poggies much talking mom something stop saying poggies halfway saying think mind infected know one cares want become next rick roll probably wont wan na help heres link need spread httpsyoutubettfzzqthqk damn im pretty suicidaljust realizing doesnt even seem big deal guess thats pretty fucked huh dont even care dont even care might care im gone lol wtf wrong whats painless way dont even know im serious right thats thing fuck shiiit might seeking attention cares fuck informed something family goosebumps dont know information grandma married year old husband grandpa know much information except children counting mom please help gagging happyi pretty okay job im going back graduate school great husband two really cute stupid dogs pretty okay businessside hustle really good friends im kind funny kind attractive pretty okay house pay bills theres food belly roof head bed sleep yet still want feel saying want die much happened pull ending infinity war sitting computer desk bad know used see therapist months back really well got discharged feel going back makes failure know go back explain hi thought fine wan na die man know throat feels tight eyes puffy probably cry ten years im actually gon na play sims stare space hope darkness consumes tried kill friday nighti tried overdose friday night right psych ward ive never puked much life feel complete retard regretted soon swallowed late regrets wish stopped moment instead wish fuck hey bootiful fucking humans hope nice day remember stay hydrated take care lt much love stranger lt lt lt lt laptop screen repaired feels good knew scared done cause year old cost lot identified travel another countryjust theoretically travel one eu country another die reason without documents chances identified going eu wide dna match see another way mean everyone donated blood done blood tests maybe huge database store info although private bro fml thats im upset carlos mencia excellent hour special working hard show everybody real deal know people said hes stolen material special true carlos brings comedy front way wants anyone wants good people say hes funny says dee dee dee much still realized thats part act want way brings anyway succeeds making people laugh haters message carlos stay point trying bring anyone remember animal jam good times back still play cause mobile version aint shabby according majority long time players find theyre teens still play haha think people might able help others idk thoughtthis might kicked community think others might able help others saw posts people wealthy yet dont really reason live something stupid reason x dont think worth redemption side people feel really screwed financial circumstances able pay months rent know sounds stupid hear cant people wealthy give little money really need mean charity help reduce symptoms depression give little sense empowerment able help someone might act reason continue short may help former later think financial support might thing pull situation yes understand rent always chip change asking give entire amount even small amounts mean yes stupid hey think sorry somehow insulted someone manner note charity work months back went remote area taught student say probably best weeks life didnt even cut suicidal taught kept pretty happy fulfilled solid month support doesnt financial always guys ideas list people really use help african pastor heading church sunday morning hes walking jungle hears growling turns around sees lion starts running running gives gets knees starts praying god please dont let lion eat pastor stops praying hear lion anymore turns around sees lion knees praying pastor says hey lion didnt know prayed lion says im saying grace preparing redflagive bought long belt hang decided next week im going try isolate sever ties friends family order less painful reality friends said theyd sad died doubt theyd even notice isolate stop seeing even notice theyd probably happy deal depressed ass say theyd sad reality thats itll death one theyd gef quite quick unfortunately know itd devastate family isnt much yeah though id share need chest thanks hate myselfim sure anymore ive gotten sick living ive actually started zoning forgetting goes know im miserable know details hate family mostly immediate mom dad amp brother tell parents put brother hates guess sucks people think kind forced dont understand theres husbands family feel constantly judge even though theyre better hate hate guess theyve learned put husbands sake theres person hate im bitch aware yet seem unable control hurt husband daily sometimes notice days suffers silence weve intimate handful times daughter born months ago older couple amp cant touched held theres cuddling hate kissing days thought sex draining hate want anymore hate life routine even days new surroundings cant remember details miss husband hes gone want gone hes im horrible human know killed cry daily think dying daily hope win lottery hope murdered walking street im depressed hate cant face family againi flunked college second time cant see recovering everyone high school already graduated finding jobs cant even pass first year family doubt kick house im looking methods cant help feel extremely sad leaving little brother behind loves love im male live partner years month old baby boy loved cherished child early relationship couple events looking back treated red flags basically partner reacted volcanically fairly normal behaviour part messaging female friend actually wife one old mates trying arrange meet friends home beers live couple cities away home town wrote stuff isolated incidents eventially bought place together decided start family wed always dreamt pregnancy kind beautiful bubble love anticipation still elated arrival little boy im doneill wait month things better ill try even harder time ill overdose insuline im tired life give osu players subscribe friend hes pretty decent think idk dont play osu jist want help https wwwyoutubecomchannelucpcohigfogrpsscwjhmva plan beginnings one anyway loose ends tie finances etc ive established im going itheres plan go woodies buy rope either hemp rope manila cant stretchy needs take upto lbs pressure around feet long mm diameter ask store need ill say im making play area cat dont even cat rope time find tree pick woods going woods dont want family find someone outside family quicker im pulled back thinking family care im sure im tired shitty person theyre better without definitely dont want finding ill go fair distance away need make sure wont people around okay drop hang way say drop hang quicker guaranteed work dont want head come whoever finds surely traumatised see dont want wish fucking world without mess people along way thats thing mess everyone married nicest wonderful person hes valium cope married daughter say couldnt protect ive let many ways daughter im shit worst took everything mother treated badly younger im shitty sister shitty friend shitty worker ill one less shitty person world im gone end cant keep going around circles skipping around idea longer hang around thing im good puns prolonging everyone elses misery plan now know need ive learned hangmans knot ive practicing think physics everything got ta pick tree decide leave note dont know say sorry wow think suicide everyday past year half year chronic suicidal thoughts talking plan aftermath death others react etcrecently decided wanted end suffering went online bought drug ask arrived hands easy access takes little even know dead thinking wow easy huh dead makes suffering longer existent everything fine now much hard permanent solution palm hands take desire met much power held hand right finally make decision came moment came realize want die want end suffering looking drug hand gives fear redflag worry many different emotions looking makes feel uneasy want best feel choice take dark route solution feels impulsive bought must feel choice now realized answer feel one time conflicting gives comfort knowing access decide take prevent enough living really enough enough even working towards something suffer people tell stay answer still deciding way know thinking suicide plan walk park presented permanent solution problem palm hand becomes difficult thing commit girlfriend want anythingshe told want letters voicemails want say good bye feel leave something behind people life letters hatred parents letters forgiveness sister friends abandoned needed girl special though sweetest caring soul hope meets someone want emphasize know letter know thoughts formed one cohesive sentence idk im tired head hurts wish go away endive struggled depression years gotten much worse within last couple years feel im burden upon family friends wake morning wondering even given another day lives taken deserve iti feel nothing matters im aware sound teenager going wah wah wah assure case oh add onto note im gon na soon today first day ive sat listened music thoughts crept back matter disappeared take pain away feeling pain now forthmy brain wants never wake back deal life anymore pm got home school ive school nearly h haha fun woke wanting stab stomachthrough sister sleeps top bunk unawares dad shuffling work curled corner bed hiding covers feasible blood stain sheets mattress want take plastic cover getting bad pmed commented one posts stalk profile daily thought let know need thing something sets apart plebeians fuck meim kinda uncomfortable typing talking someone shit im going feel people going laugh take seriously know assume want attention goes im close anybody even family infact much hatred unbelievable cant figure though mother want wanted abortion sadly didnt one really care things bad cancer got everything depressing fucking hurts see hospital everything shitty home im dad give shit kids two abusive sisters fucking cant handle anymore everyday getting cursed siblings taking thier abuse cant anything cant even defend ive getting involved self harm siblings laughed noticed cuts bruises cant even go outside virus eating good past months ive getting skinny point see bones cant sleep either ironic im always tired ive begging talk mind lot unhealthy amount getting point conversations last hours everything getting worse worse fucking hate living im thinking killing maybe week sorry rant ask helpmy mom lost two brothers redflag well born redflag always tough topic conversation family deaths devastated beyond explanation ive struggling chronic depression past three years recently attempted redflag able follow mom never told brothers way deaths crushed probably typing said clue bring struggles parents want talk parents supporting time help lot know know going cry know theyll worry lot im away home college work worry telling instead never mentioning make lives rough put stress marriage etc cant count number sacrifices theyve made years im sure many never mentioned every time ive talked emotional discussions end getting really emotional im really bad talking sensitive things think id able everything across words thinking writing letter making sure im read know remarkably well done underrecognized limited distribution bigstudio feel understands horror genre speeds along clever plot twists never stumbles college cult classic gotten opportunity realized girl crush years ago flirting wellfuck guess hate work hate school want sleep day without disappointing anyonei never able hold job started new position today ive looking forward summer worked hours today cant hang quit im constantly overwhelmed work school graduated now whats point even trying retire znd done im tired sleeping hours exhausted want wake lets take moment appreciate online friend shocking sometimes makes think holy shit beautiful person actually likes wow cant six months felt years met really amazing find people online make feel happy anyone shocking people far way make feel safe family hope anyone friend way across globe cherish friend reading thank much ill always matter homo tho marry want got zoom bombed today class somebody joined zoom class apparently different district screamed nword shut bitch ass got muted said bitch really tried mute hilarious lmao lasted seconds tho quickly got kicked zoom bomb principal called anyways im planning kill myselfi need plans tentative date figure things become even unbearable always early reason wanted live time date comes ive already written one letter angry one writing felt cathartic good want recipient read fact want everyone read im interested response plans right couple one detailing want stuff dog go one actual redflag note explaining im choice one prevented sometimes anxious fact letters written mood either fuck ill dead anyway care everything properly oh god cant right wherewithal finish want finish go never feel ready continue suffer indefinitely want rid anxiety writing letters energy motivation im sure ill really emotional whole thing sounds exhausting know expect posting im looking maybe want validation maybe want argue side maybe doubt strong maybe desire proven wrong someone point something genuinely considered make life bearable know many places discuss things id talk context permanently disabled multiple refractory conditions make unable work mostly home bedbound constant pain discomfort miserable obviously suicidal want die time tolerable moments passively die instead actively exhausted treatment options worst conditions gotten worse time think redflag reasonable decision given circumstances keep mind thismost post listen due fact give facts change positive way movie lot recommend paintings music david hewletts naked butt gorgeous plot story redemption forgiveness courage face adversity interesting touching predictable saying quite lot movie day age acting mediocre direction confusing script odd often felt trying parody never figured trying parody parody well remains movie great potential live whats disturbing fact know yhgtwwbu ytstawrcmrnwatvatyrywydhcefyyugfruwyfweyfywruruwhfhiwuhywytydawyrwa reviewing water every day boyfriend day day today im reviewing normal water bottle good temperature ok cold liked still kinda nice plastic bottle tho polluting earth im taking point overall think im giving well first cry great starti live home financially make sense move yet generally along parents great obsessed organization bedroom shove mess closet way eyesore according room mine looks bad guests come fine way problem unorganized closet problem pile clothes going put away shoved today come home theyre gone fucking threw away theyre shocked im mad said every right upset im wrong im living life wrong im never going amount anything yeah cuz fucking closet messy good job im going grad school soon fuck pretty good great new years eve come home bullshit criticizing ive deeply depressed life even though almost completely control calling worthless incompetent brings back really makes want end know sounds stupid self worth already low care feels hate existence bothersome throw fucking clothes away enjoy seeing upset want exist anymore feels cant anything right struggling depression questioning person last couple years recently getting way worse wrote song express anyone wanted hear know supposed quit reddit back awhile ago today something pretty crazy happened friend today name andrew im teenager usually go field school school hang people today hanged best friend field didnt tell parents going field awhile walking together house got walking around neighborhood saying hi another friend got house checked phone see almost notifications parents saying last seen missing person friend need know called told friend safe im local field picked thats pretty much good writing im writer fuck work done feel redflag finish work know fuck work fuck system fuck money fuck collapsing country nothing matters fuck deadlines need know works see next thursday find date plan diehard fan anything always feel weird seeing others talk diehard fans sport teams music tv series movies etc thing kinda say im die hard fan youtube gaming even gaming games normally play rocket league fortnite roblox music tv shows movies ones feel weird music mostly listen hip hop pop music normally listen music month straight whole month rappers really listen even know lot didnt even pop smoke week died ive never listen single album life closest listening one mj thriler listen songs tv movies watch tv shows netflix glee strangers things block movies men black matrix even tho hardly remember anything dont really watch tv sports teams im solely basketball fan thats im fan cavs became cavs fan finals became basketball fan never watch single nba game watch chris smoove vids weird think redflag every dayi feel numb cant feel happy past years depressed always feel simply suffer anyone see bullied heavily victim blamed childhood fault getting bullied every time feel wasting summer matter worry lot family going summer ends last summer bad nowhere near bad anyone wan na tradei think concept life really nice fortunate enough theres much see achieve conquer personally love life thing suicidal people heard yesterday someone life lives given live years least wish trade life someone thats fortunate anyone anyone feel life overwhelming hate fall mindset try theres gon na someone better bother feels meaningless matter hard try repressed memory remembered time irish collegepretty much summer camp friend mine thought really funny start walking random girls asking theyd go unsurprisingly nos ewws really killed repressed memory thought years wish never remembered reason continue living already know going end used notredflag life basically pointless alone going die alone anyways prolong waste time space stay universe destined die alone failure absolutely pointless revengehave thought redflag taking revenge people ruining life deciet lies unborn killed themthey took futurethey took ten years based complete lies gunpoint deserve rule poem exists theres porn isnt help guys friend turn days want buy first laptop desperately needs one due online college semesters afford one due financial condition decided tutor students math statistics help funds anyone needs math statistics tutoring reasonable rate please dm set schedule asap okay finally admit iti lonely hard admit years years struggled women go lots dates laugh good time ask lots questions try relate saying justleave say feel connection whatever excuses come know found better man someone offers something dont know hobbies good job pretty good looking yet lonely read posts reddit men s s saying despite efforts never got better puts much fear hard describe feeling redflag way last years cant god damn happiness know much longer last getting harder dramatic suspenseful movie many plots turns story director opens question marks death row presumed crimes committed black people film well directed arne glimcher fine sound james newton howard excellent strong performance sean connery ed harris liked one dont miss true crimes hurricane wife gave right backed got scared many opportunities kill never everything keeps getting worse worse every year wish gun shoot right right now turn going gun kill one year dead finally wish hung virgin ama whore vs want see funny comments chad need help advise anythinghello fellow redditors hope wonderful day bit background depressed individual life dealt best depressed wee age eight young boy feelings sadness loneliness unfamiliar became bully time realized mean help much middle school found peace books learning continued high school true deppression came fruition scolar high hopes ambitions changed academic dreams shattered moved best went college dropped found decent job nonetheless tried luck love multiple times failed right now alone friends support plee paradoxes id start things cherish life anything go socialize much possible best friend knows depression live mostly care free life sad part never clinically diagnosed depression know damn well suffer made attempt life multiple times failed attempts damn suck mostly hide sadness either funny dick suffer insomnia spend nights thinking creative ways end existence going years managed deal going friends messing stuff somehow able rid feelings many days simply want disappear think affected break want end life cant live sense know make whole lot sense dont know whats wrong tend push people away often ill use awkwardness say things mean talking feelings often become hostile feel less people know higher chance hurt know anymore currently wraps honest know anymore im entirely sure ill able stop future attempt cant alone anymore tldr depressed several years made attempts life need help stop know posts joke serious first hookup sexual experience girl kinds shit except kissing neck kissing tho point kinda rubbed one leg rub one bed nonetheless girl friend dark oblivious nuted felt shame emptiness inside feel never things god create feel shit im second year highschool year college film heart pounding acting great erotic music beautiful women add make one winner lead actress decides join escort service realizes husband time steps whole new world first client another woman film definitely want pass join among us konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf anyone wan na play dead daylight wants play optionsi made hasty promise friend kill felt pressured im certain destroy person unfortunately said continuing draw breath im looking way much harm ideally look caused possible contract someone elses terminal cancer exactly wish confused want lifei dont know im deeply sad realized im stuck im worried im going ruin christmasim separate account girlfriend send posts reddit dont want see worry names ben im sophomore college want teacher havent started major classes fourth switch really think im good kids im scared wont cut man bun im really skinny im sure hire im gay im outspoken unique style stuff think people regard intelligent quiet weirdo anyways im bipolar im family tree id hard time explaining siblings feel stuck cane college whim ive never good anything video games art two programs dont offer college either way im trapped underneath lease utility billl month cant afford pay november december dont money im scared dont money unable work salvation army work ive reached limit work study hours semesteri cant find another job dont car dont want ask grandparents help wanted self sufficient year half ive recently acclimated credit card debt buying girlfriend siblings gifts came home fall break paid dollars contacts food reckless spending ive managed accumulate another thats dollars accident still owe bills coming month house dont know current plan sell stocks eat ramen cant afford buy christmas gifts anyone im worried everyone hate usually go elton great lengths pick great gifts cant cant make anyone happy making dissapointed spent money fuckup cant make class im stressed havent classes found cant work cant wake alarm im mess please give advice hard want give family kinda lowkey sucks wont rant much lowkey think mom trying make starve family aloud use technology table eat lowkey gon na eat much anymore happeni may attempt redflag near future ive thinking redflag nonstop now happy succeed probably due fact im failure deep hope caught act least someone know think death lotand wonder happens afterwards reincarnated different racenationalityreligionsex new born present time new born future new born past unhealthy newborn rare disease terminal illness genetic disorder eg cerebral palsy syndrome reincarnated animal insects nd chances back time specific life changing decisions made wim sleep deprived stoned think restart life getgo religion christianity right eternal damnationhell islam right hell right equivalent hell nothingness life never existed point studying learning pretty hard stuff know im going cool inventor nobel prize winner something change world grandscale remembered history wikipedia darwins law pass wicked monstrous genes carries sick thoughts wierd fantasies plus unhealthy lazy way living torturing mind everyday sick demented thoughts self loathing hatred pagan beliefs soul roam earth specified time supposed die spirit haunt home family problems life carry afterlife except impossible try solve dead much regret many things end regretting death itselffor eternity island called lost think problems carry afterlife forever haunted past mistakes especially killing self consciousness awake time period many cool things going internet memes video games anime tv shows never perfect time born last decades entertained cons sort outweigh pros mind almost months thinking redflag pretty much everyday killing world fucked millions people die every fucking day accidents illnesses homicides redflags starvation silly wars piece fucking land oil corporations suck living life little people diseases hate greed child trafficking child abuse strangers families mental illnesses think might die weeks male college student need help badlyi really know start always felt fairly depressed past years never done anything thought standard teen depression thing grew depression grew never made friends high school trouble talking people uncomfortable people understand mean say uncomfortable talking people bring talk people goes beyond social awkwardness something troubles deeply say hello make eyecontact ive ridiculed lack eyecontact peers become suicidal ive begun cutting want die kind way press bit harder mention used gpa ive gone school weeks missing midtermshomework etc scholarship doubt ill able keep now im already ton debt people still coming still live home even enough offset costs school lived campus last year apartment bit feel offing best option point health insurance parents feel comfortable talking anybody person eventually im sure come im sure way im sure many say go schools counseling center goes back said earlier extreme reluctance talk anybody anything magnified fact want talk situation depressed person help another depressed person need help last weekend boyfriend lsd pappers od hysterical collapse became something broke hole appartment took clothes started scream nonsense opened door ran hallway jumped rd floor window thought fortunately fell nd floor roof suffered bruises hes ok now good possible find complicated situation clinically depressed bipolar attempted redflag hes unemployed february unhappy college point say live alone brasil hope us trying move europe everythings hard father died strength move even everything unable keep long psychiatric treatment even enough im ask guys idea one habits adopt thank l lets stop joking depression ye many people say theyre depressed actually depressed constantly meming joking demeans entire thing makes seem less issue really parents always ask us want something say want hey son want go grandmas tomorrow im really busy tomor bad going anyway play boobs pls coronavirus made bored take shirt now didnt reach help didnt care enough point help themtldr people ask someone committed redflag didnt reach help usually saw warning signs brushed nothing even flat ignored constantly seeing posts quotes asking friend relative significant etc didnt reach help committing redflag many cases person actually try ask help take weeks therapist psychiatrist nearly soon enough help even help emergency rooms psych wards expensive many psych wards treat patients horribly lot people avoid even need immediate help people say come help whenever need usually actually dont care listen much ive made numerous posts facebook family others went school worked etc friend list terrible situation typically one responds unless explicitly say thinking seriously redflag stopped years ago one cares last summer feeling lonely depressed asked facebook friends anyone friendsin real life received responses except rude woman said dont friends dont children wish friends mothers record childfree much prefer childfree friends didnt think people age already kids made another post saying falling deep depression didnt receive comments message responses alot people facebook supposed people meat least thats said people post things saying youre suicidal message theyd rather hear story funeral eulogy whenever messaged one either dont respond never return message saying ill respond later meant people ask help bad reputation hometown formed middle school early high school everyone still holds crap one lives wants talk even im crisis responses people trying pull religious cults people put signs sometimes even explicitly asking help others dont care enough point notice care second find dead didnt ask help begins reach gave warning signs everyone pretended see indian looking study germany bachelors itd cool german dmed id really use advice stuff hi far ive researched biggest thing getting admissionlearning german im really hard time understanding apply apply apply every university seperately many universities even started learning german late much time within country almost every state different native language national language even though guy knows national language know native makes things little difficult people straight assume knows language stagmatised etc thing worry germany learning germany alone enough know basics ich bin ein jung du bist eineine dear friend whos gon na dmcomment right rent goes anywhere learned earn euros per month got lot stuff worry settling first implying first year earn roughly months planning job study im working shopkeeper security guard lol even idea student eligible become security guard internet internet expensive kind data consumer imma need really big plan imma study outside hostel room wifi option ill probably need internet anywhere know even top things worried pls halp well groomed well behaved teen meg tilly must spend night creepy mausoleum initiation high school club problem powerful psychic named raymar buried day quite dead needs life force humans powersbr br obscure horror film offers plenty thrills chills appealing likeable cast superior special effectsbr br rating br br one dark night rated violence adult themes first comment make laugh gets wearing caring award got free one today legitimately dont know im need something lighten mood first comment make laugh gets award go want give upi try try try getting better im close giving bang average teenage girl actually lot different weird youd think depressed ask stuff talk tk walking outside wandering area looked around saw lights car lights traffic lights building lights parking lot lights beautiful know cried seeing lights question tests matter im th grade good grades im worried passing tests end year even though good months away maintain good grades fail tests end year allowed procede th grade im gon na try make short feel im gon na commit redflag tomorrowso life shit recent im honestly worse position awful job shambles literally wage love cheated year im time low feel theres point anymore said id keep short wont say much im gon na jump office unless something happens turns think probably way nice somehow thanks hey whats ur fav music genre alt music indie pop midwest emo etc wondering u guys post songsartists ya want make title yourselfsince suicidal thoughts scared even cut wrist even though may scared hope alternative way ending mean mugged stabed somehow still phone call help see blessing know long thoughts last everyday stronger every day wish something worse worse jut wanted chest cant tell family belong delete cheers reading born wrong generation year old listens smells teen spirit sneezed said bless automatic think im finally getting used lonely boys got smash really fun came mine chose byleth chose cloud final score totalled think finally found depressions stems years sin envy everything life stem one sin always wanting new life wanting knowledge wanting obtain etc realized gotten even worse many things want see depressed god damn time ass maybe destiny failure full wants even though want die much wish immortal even pain laziness run time see things eventually miss think found source wastei always facing depression wishing death upon due fact feel im waste human life older sister supposed twin died mothers stomach feel stole life wasted fat ugly stupid etc worst part fact dont bullied yet still depressed cliff trainwhich one choose cliff foot drop train station high speed trains go every morning every person disappoint idea hadplease positive responses every person love end stop loving back saying liked well listened im constantly fucked around alone forever least feels cant trust anyone care long term family shit life shit want kind words remind loved forever someone im either disgusting asshole useful emotional sponge please positive responses ima female perhaps choose believe whatever want years ago lost girlfriendfriend die suicide longer hours last together really best times really falling despair lately whole lotta shit topping onto childhood social etc somehow manage everyday even make hours work thought mind day pretty hard depressed sad mood really sure feel lost long days longer nights somehow even surprise shit happened want back amp idk reason made mistakes losing lately amp godamn thing smh precious someone us harder accept might die sometimes actually convince die love making weird noises whenever brother sleeping damn thats peaceful thing im happy today proud say today good day able eat properly problems able watch anime brothers whole afternoon finally earlier pm timezone currently pm able play among us friends little brother im mostly close guys one best friend years someone consider little brother group call fun playing really miss may much u guys im proud say fun happy hope ill days im really happy today need ounceive recognized several signs depression suicidal ideation lack interest activities feeling worthless mention brief survey indicating moderate severe major depression andor good possibility bipolar disorder time self harmed accident really enjoy really want right ounce prevention earlier mentioned want burden family financially asking therapy know need professional psych eval least whats best way break parents father often source lack selfworth think looking pussy front part kind embarassing lteditgt want call redflag hotline worry explain walked onlteditgt im sure need serious help though know might raging teenage hormones post rdepression post alarming reason clear wellformed idea kill though lack note part puberty wound feel tiredive always thought optimist keep moving forward eventually one day switch gets flipped ill happy apathetic ill stop feeling numb go bleaker seems always hear ive made good spot life wise understand people way worse appreciate maybe im bitter something finally apartment small way everything im satisfied im guess im partially embarrassed ive never friends parent moved finally promotion ive wanted started working company guess thought gon na big change im forced dress im managment now fill endless excel sheets leave desk see agents breaking policy point suspended fired feel asshole trained bunch new employees im always helping cant fill excel sheets wan na helpful actually teach stuff nobody cares theyre essentially paycheck mean im passionate call centers ive always though care job sales numbers agents quittinggetting fired boss harps essentially mandatory hr weeks constant bombardment stressing phone constantly going day im work work stuff feel even im work car cool little hatchback least someone smashed parking lot cant drive worry insurance okay deductible real sticker shock moment one payment left old thing start saving money case something happen dollars entire paycheck work ton overtime even dropped much money cant afford pay rent buy food ect started playing video gameswatching movies things gave brief windows away started realizing felt crutch got disgusted ton people age getting married kids ect feel inadequate feel enough milestones accomplished life everyone says ill always worry people think worse im obsessed others thing feel level peers bad feel ive gave good deal time life still feels shitty grey im tired motivating idea going better eventually things change gets worse stays level shitty might well give acceptable run im working working time effort car paid ill stop living paycheck paycheck point ill able flexible things maybe travel maybe stay home make things little nicer build funds feel im back bottom wan na give mean parents trigger suicidal thoughtsive therapy year used safe persons call struggling six months later removed dad im considering removing mom list sticking friends family really trust im grateful ive learning manage depression recent relationship parents getting rocky starting bring lot old behaviors remember showing kid didnt give sense privacy look diary outed teen want come yet angry little things last night little brother trouble falling asleep stressed crying put top bunk calm mom found put full blame ruining months worth progress dont believe anything tell anymore make really hurtful comments view character body thats triggers havent thoughts redflag months twice week havent even wanted talk stuff therapist im scared theyll somehow find call crazy tell im making stories im still debating real figment overactive imagination know hurts heart bc force remember im im worthless make feel one traumatising days whileso yeah ate battery dumbass move fizz told mum went aampe yet dumbass absconded sat field hour sobbing eyes police came got took back hospital spent hours majors department trying determine whether needed surgery almost got sent hospital hours away specialist surgery ended needing yet hopefully got spend least hrs ward im medically fit go back mental hospital im stupid thinking left note inpatient shit feel stupid using viable enough method girl wide masculinelooking jawline wear hair something quite know supposedly eyes lips femininelooking jawline wide masculinelooking although even posted vid hair asshole still said weird head shape bc reddit makeup help idk old teenagers im want know leave im want im worn outim emotionally broken lack real connection anyone ive complex upbringing suffered lot depressed yrs able work meet anyone pursue anything live hermits life suffering even though wish dream sense ive learned spirituality understand truth mind im stuck state thought family ripped apart death breaks heart dont know im ramlbing im crying feels pathetic mind stuck broken state probably watched movie times every time impressed far wish young heart go strenght kai gertha struggle believe inbr br whole story presented way transfered plot know see yeah theres kai working hard mirror little jump theres gertha fighting love theres snow queenbr br wonderful mix love adventure tensionbr br brilliant thank god ditched girl dumbfuck wears mask public always knew brain missing anyone interested joining military trying find friends call duty army man bleh miss mitskis songs havent listened songs minutes wonder theyre literally waiting die im assuming people know start please excuse throwaway seems popular please already see therapist please help already know thing brings solace ive familiar death young age really rather acceptforce alternative obviously im hurtdepressedanxious managing years think manage anymore problem brother died years ago cant put family although im actively trying kill im becoming reckless daily actions decisions hopes accidentally die know pretty much im pretty super keeping happygolucky faade want family thinking anything different four years later still blame brothers clearly accidental overdose im essentially waiting immediate family die know written well deleted need posting rredflagwatch long story please read comment feeling extremely suicidal late degree dream possible ways end typically dream old apartment building jumping pool deck top floor lost lot things life struggled lot strength anymore back story follows born loving family terrific father loving mother older siblings twin brother well father found mother alcoholic drink incessantly way older brothers drug problem started getting worse well father begged mother stop time time decided enough dad left mum turning occasional drinking incessant drinking twin live alcoholic mother lives drinking never stopped years father leaves older brother dies drug overdose makes already bad drinking horrible habit starting early morning smashed know mum way th grade entered middle school fat loser friends trying care mum always told sick well entered made fun time ears bit large head time grown bullied school came home bullied mother lucky dinner typically breakfast money lunch bread breakfast years passed drinking became worse th th grade attempted redflag times really sure actually end attempt failed obviously time angered mum never got help quack never diagnosed depression knew depressed never anything urge kill sophomore year met girl thought loved relationship great first sex time worries later never real relationship thought worked sex day every day year older left college things became bit rocky stable enough deal time shit went downhill broke times eventually went break around halloween time break met girl dreams friends birthday party whose birthday rests halloween met absolutely blown away unbelievably beautiful began talking interests bands way thinking type humor blast night flirted cuddled almost kissed realized probably poor taste ysee ex one said take break never actually broke said distant bit broken felt really guilty everything done amazing girl call jill confess jill thinking scared pathetic broke ties well found ex fucking lot guys telling jill pissed even feelings girls eventually bitch ex break within two weeks jill start dating jill blew mind every single day fantastic funny witty extremely smart exceptionally beautiful woke every day realized something worth living now happy time within month told love said loves amazing person met life headoverheels every day fantastic existed life every day great despite problems life problems escape well month ago dumped want tied time shitty thing going propose short months exact know corny going surprise college find class wherever kneel straight propose girl dreams soulmate will well left realized bad problems really much worse things getting put backburner debt school mounting higher know take care college fund drained almost entirely failed two courses past quarter jill dumped terribly sick month well wait another months take know mother kicking bitter mood even though say thing let know loser done nothing life fucked job dad breaking back help pay school commute hours schools cant job one area take someone cant even guarantee weekends drinking drugs everything happened life family obviously problem addictions aunt drug addict grandma another aunt drug addict problem spent much life denial deck stacked go school hate major despise college let transfer credits money start fresh somewhere mother slipped back old demonishing state lets know everyday wrong let stand ex jill extremely happy broken guys constantly flirting page facebook constantly trying hang none friends even give enough damn call ask hang strong whole life dealing mother take care sacrificing personal life make sure fall stairs drunken stupor killed strong twin got car accident almost killed strong twin decided start drinking mum mum clean now still abuses fuck cant strong anymore jill tells loves wants back together someday sees soulmate think better sad know anymore even remember put many problems life please need advice dream killing every single night day every day cant help imagine much better life without alive daydream jill happy everyone caring anymore support friends dad tells cant dwell things brother never understand person understand female friend lives canada literally edge right now close ending calling quits please need advice tldr life sucks mother abusive alcoholic feed days time father never mother let brother took drinking one older brothers died drug overdose aspirations plan future future saw walked want tied right now verge killing need advice go want continue living know aint rightive always depressed around born condition thats known thalassemia felt different feelings feel detached parents siblings everyone everyone treats looks pity feel void now everyday pain contact parents give money unquestioned thats want want ignored want better thats happening right now im gon na soon thoughts killing cant continue im still figuring kick bucket cant figure better tried exercising think everything matter cant seem find happiness im looking im afraid im going something ill regret soon enough im feeling shit finally need idk say really life consists daily errands whatever im constantly fantasizing ways possibly im much pussy really follow know got hold gun really hesitate haha great segway though anyone know easy ways gun uk awkward moment earlier introduced moms coworkers son whos twenties shook hand face immediately flushed cute dont know behave around people stayed car postm personality tapestry hypocrisy contradiction hopeless peoplepleaser heart ill damned go completely way make someone happy typically put minimum amount effort possible enough said actually something made person happy put facade niceness despite bitter cynical even hateful times cower face conflict even around involve enough make anxious upset simultaneously selfloathing selfish narcissist addicted tearing unable bear thought others even disliking issue deeply value honesty loyalty decade ive lied frequently parents many things including mental state employment status spending drug alcohol habits theyve told several times find difficult trust cant blame value thoroughness strong work ethic coworkers though find cut corners bend rules favor find forms work soulcrushing reason work hard shame disappointing bosses resented coworkers ask money family trumps agony working irresponsible money make pissing away alcohol junk food video games prostitutes futile attempt shove anything void hopes feeling less hollow moments im diehard perfectionist yet lazy stubborn person wonderful combination results someone cant assed anything forced upon rarely follows things start finally almost never satisfied rare occasion finish something ive gotten good making excuses procrastination weaseling way commitments ive lost ability connect anyone make friends honestly think constellation traits particularly special typical shithead millenial raised mostly anxious mentally ill single mother ssi budget never learned work hard anything value things parents divorced years old messy ordeal suffered clinical depression severe social anxiety bipolar diagnosis following first manic episode nearmental breakdown away college prescribed lithium zoloft five years three failed attempts college many many types medication later refuse take meds im completely disillusioned pharmeceutical industry industry thrives curing keeping people bit less miserable bonus side effects need pills years depression pothead drinking heavily fucked brain enough parents last two ropes mooring earth even friends ive managed keep thus far feel able move passing easier certainly isnt never girlfriend hold back learned hard way im ugly insideandout considered relationship ive plan years now never felt close last acting upon need one last push overcome nemeses cowardice shame beyond frustrating go want painful see poetic absolution mindless hedonism beauty subjective well know im definitely subjective either dark memories never fadei feel im end road last week lot secrets told anyone really dark secret ive told two people ill start saying told best friend brother separate times raped one brothers friends best friends response kind tell brother dont need therapy seem okay brothers response shouldnt let define person kept asking questions made feel thought lying told therapy thing traumatic happened hardcore meth binge time cant even remember first time remember staying hours time crawling ground flashlights looking leftover crystals smoke stealing neighbors friends fuel addiction im thankful able stop month way stopped exactly pleasant main person used tweak friend month hardcore meth binging wanted move parents start selling house told cant dont want family involved weekend came house strange dude gun asked parents awake told asked gun responded gun final response sprinting room full speed ransacking house well better wake ill kill kill parents later arrested served months thanks california reasons pushed point fact parents want born brother sister supposed done kids mother got pregnant basically meant received little attention parents father worked night shift slept day ive never really conversation speaks primarily spanish hardly speak english never learned spanish never around parents good people got ton debt siblings born born meant withdrew retirement funds put sister college bought car totaled car bought new one totaled one helped buy another one bought brother two cars helped co sign last car bought years ago time parents offered help tried getting help buy car names let drive live anymore still send money monthly help expenses old father retired mom got fired job paid well settled job qualified masters degree business management gets paid dollars hour every time tell shes better shrugs tells thats job wants retire dont resent towards parents resent towards even born first place everytime look mirror see disgusting human deserves worst life take clothes amplified disgusting body hair main subject many people grossed insulting fucking tired everything two days ago basically ragequit whole friend circle keep fucking ditching told bothers ditch basically laughed point continuing im im grunt job hardly graduated high school theres basically chance getting college teeth completely fucked spent two thousand dollars dont getting root canals pain nothing compared feel inside cant type anymore im crying point considering redflagi feel reason live keep bottled friends family hell throwaway account wont impact regular one feel blow brains make difference ill die anyways change pressure goddamn work seriously making think im extremely depressed writing quickly one sees im going bed writing somtimes hope dont wake wonderland spoilers br br july st five people ron launius josh lucas susan launius christina applegate billy deverell tim blake nelson barbara richardson natasha gregson wagner joy miller janeane garofalo attacked theyre asleep brutally hit head steel pipes home wonderland avenue laurel canyon la susan survivesbr br main suspect john holmes val kilmer former king porn owner cm long dick hopeless addictbr br two investigators luis frankie g sam nico ted levine investigating case try crack help witness claims know john least took part murders david lind dylan mcdermott barbaras boyfriend trying witness report dawn schiller kate bosworth holmes yearold girlfriend susan sadly remember anything shadows night husbands head bashed almost suffered fate name eddie nash eric bogosian major drug kingpin always around ladies barbie paris hilton comes light suspect planner wonderland massacrebr br happen night sharon lisa kudrow johns wife know something wonderland taught intense thriller desperate love story story mans sad decline one clever use rashomon technique see events fateful day night eyes david john dawn susan albeit briefly sharon nice direction great script mostly compelling performances especially kilmers takes central stage hopeless tormented sometimes childish holmes lucas whose launius strangely alluring kudrows strong sharon bosworths innocent dawnbr br wonderland shaken upthis bit train wreck town epicenter earthquake homes destroyed gas fires floods earthquake people lost power water food movie theater destroyed still dealing aftershocks everyone edge family lucky ones house still standing got power back day lost much changed little time ive living daze july th disappeared news nobody town forgotten let go happened choice bubble anxiety control whats happening started one biggest lows ive everythings become alien feels fever dream dont think im low anymore im used advertising jokes everybody moved still upset happened getting cant find way hook back real world im bout getting upset littlest things stress anger went plans pull hole dug exit disappeared entirely theres nowhere run escape im still questioning days still going im still stuck july th wake dont even know want wake want dream end want disappear completely im gon na find nice bridge jump ofi finally leave world dont know wth wrong memy life isnt even bad compared fucking abused ppl im fucking pussy stupid make big filing deal im grounded cut feel act im suicidal idk really maybe im fucking stupid really going kms someday idk cut time made fake personality surrounding mental health dont even know really depressed im forcing wan na kms every fucking day im pussy ik hey girl fire alarm everytime see urge disturb classtime putting fingers omg changed changed reddit app logo red feel shitim anxious tomoro presentation day sisters hospital nasty dead scared cant even sleep pls chant pls pray pls wish well mercury poisoningmy dad works lab took bottle mercury sure kind kill im desperate point probably much coward kill way right im sitting bedroom listening birds chirping outside think itll taste ready gag throw im second thoughts maybe im much coward even guess ill edit post things go according plan want end even weak thatmy ex digging heart dont know went parents house alone know wouldnt right several guns everyday contemplate one effective last words mom called lazy fat piece shit face dad got car crash week died grandpa announced cancer month cant take things dont look soon im ending swear real lyric meme songs memed english poetic song pompeii people suffering meme songs memed spanish likes whats kinky nasty likes sex exesively aparntly making tea manly aunts uncles came grandmas house making tea aunt s already making wanted made cup uncle gave look sat next told make tea lady tha fuck thats sexist wrong hate ew making post makes feel sickim coming back hopefully one last time reorganize plans give little ultimatum see theres place job carrier wack give shit dreams goals none care family average bad important friendships really big deal care care care matter want keep dignity struggle live struggling better dead thats really living im going waste time trying fix things better really care main idealistic goal stay absolute isolation eternity away everything everyone erasing bad memories life able whatever want terms interests games stuff watch suff cook plants care books exerciseimagine little paradisemansion whatever want truth im detached reality world things ive gone many times already even feel bad anymore ive realized many things mostly peace gon na go uni year guess felt got approved nothing ok thought actually checking grades see stood nothing aw chose subject go care chose agronomy mostcompatible actually thing thought im gon na see plants guess cool care career dream job whatever dont year first sexual experience grindr hookup guess realized im kind person sleep around enjoy mad im happy realized longer obsessed sex reflected realized reeaally enjoy human men much enjoy furry porn real people boring kinda suck true path relationshipbut probably care enough relationship kinda least care life certain degree ground reality whatever im gon na drwaing course year really care signed something mild curiosity even drawing tried learn realized really want put work although art imagination rich many concepts characters little fantasy worldi really want draw whole never stop learning thing makes hurl translates oh start bad still draw interested even tho itll look bad even years itll still look bad wow pathetic one admired artists draws porn literally said quality porn imagine someone anyone possibly enjoy drawing process admire determination imagine horny invest time effort making good porn overall care im fit reality environment countryhot garbage id rather born fucking nigeria die aids newborn family history want bother try therapy fix even though broken damaged believe therapy really want try getting brainwashed womanman late s whos listening theyve paid mention annoyance asking family put therapy yeah im mood open everyone say give shit plan offing eventually thatd annoying really really really care keeps going daytoday mindset little goals stablish always involve entertainment sources creative work whim games books anime series gardening cooking random shit making clay sculpture learning make winecider stealthly fun little occult artistic moment looking goetic rituals making summoning circles summon spirits haha didnt work still huge circle tho pretty collect incense plan buying occult shit now bought little dragon statuette hes cute tarot deck pretty cards guess im charlatantype real magician thats ok writing little story imagination gave tho realized really make whole thing got bored writing boring fit fully express imagination stories orwhatever random stuff end care entertainment satisfaction obeying whims random desires things really care anything anyone im going try struggle better life better decades eventually die either way dont want go adult life mean ill forced annoying job take time away ill live boring days away annoyed things taxes robberies scams whatever meanwhile family annoying always itll worse worse die whatever ill eventually die heart attack stroke cancer everyone suffer horribly till im gone rot away nothingness wow load bs ampxb solution ill continue days following perfect daytoday philosophy keep calm stable angry things upset easily think suppose maybe whatever goals stablished dayweek ill uni guess want see agronomy thing andi really choice gon na bother getting job even though feel liiiiiiiiiiitttle bad still living parents brasil us theyre mad gon na kick something stay im uni im really gon na bother job regardless want eventually kill anyways need care ill make money buying weed selling brownies something know cheap weed guy worry im done using weed make easy cash thats sure anyway yeah ill live philosophy uni drawing course months one meanwhile ill list things actually list already existant tobereleased games well seriesmoviesetc consume entertainment play watch follow interests entertainment sources whatever feel eventually ill run things hopefully probably uni ends ill end uni times high telephone tower close old school feels weird say old last year still ni easy place gate easily climbed theres nothing impeding someone climbing tower ill gather courage hopefully dont chicken really must ill fucked climb one day jump really different dying stroke heart attack cancer whatever painful less sufferingduration actually decide die random unhappy surprise boom stroke doesnt matter healthy still got bad luck really bad luck used feel god true god doenst really give shit bad luck brain damage hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahhaha anyway yeah thats idea want go terms keep dignity matter stick something right one likes quitter certainly things disdain pathetic people struggling fail give cry annoy seems theyre really shit fall back mentality fucking overused really hate interpretation life series falls supposed true definition life id rather shot right fucking disgusting pathetic view guess alright mess sometimes live constantly failing miserably thats pathetic grip buddy something wrong fall alright fall many times look buddy covered mud yeah go home wash stay weird metaphor right im trying say really feel ruining mental stability conquered experience mindset trying fix imagine fucking work end one help people cant help others end comes want help dont im already helping plan got bored writnig stop around hope replies even doesnt really matter anyone says say much support really care much people posts internet dettached attention ampxb ampxb diary day high keep diary days basically bought weed got really high tired busy keep diary days got math work vibed lot today went ice skating hours played ice hockey da boys ive got pneumonia bc c outside ik carebut feels right smth makes happier good luck guys aaaaaa presentation minutes im nervous af someone please tell gon na alright need calm hate things past dont know stop hating damage already done want kill dont want hurt people care wish reddit delete replies title something delete dont even feel explaining im lonelyi need friend ive wanted die past yearsive reached point wake go sleep dreaming im strong enough kill im years old ive never wanted alive friends know im wrong try happy enjoyable around im obviously awkward idea fix want enjoy life right worth continuing ive told gets better ive felt way decade cant wait longer better something now either need make improvements fucking end ive tried antidepressants need know kind person people actually anyone advice really appreciate edit feel anything fear pain anymore smile feel im lying wereare prefect school fuck yall worsttttt types people istg petition change jazz jizz say yay nay nonut journal day foolish mortals wasting energy mind capacity called fapping acknowledge selfstimulation free month starting month november ends nonmasturbation score reached almost months saved much physical strenght mind power able bend spoons mind knows able month later certainly see mortals im actually done existing know im going countless comments telling im fucking done existing im useless take money food water cant feel anything anymore failure cant stand living anyone want talk dms sure go day scottish inventor william kl dickson surprised boss thomas alva edison remarkable work development motion pictures many experiments dickson able capture scenes real life camera reproduce invention kinetoscope fragment time preserved celluloid soon dicksons kinetoscope become enormous success new way entertainment many people eager pay nickel charged able watch people dancing acrobats performing stunts peepshow kinetoscope invention complete order capture film real life know sound needed movies dickson kept experimenting short experiment kinetophones first film resultbr br experiment codenamed simply dickson experimental sound film director william kl dickson stands front recording cone wax cylinder earliest method recording sound violin hands playing song named song cabin boy idea record song cylinder time camera recording movements order show motion picture two edisons black maria laboratory decided little dance front camera unlike author vito russo claimed book celluloid closet little dance nothing homosexuality obviously reference environment loneliness lab akin lonely sailors song cabin boy dedicated title russo suggests gay brothers actually anachronistic gay homosexual connotation late sbr br sadly dickson unable achieve desired effect kinetophone never really produce synchronized audio images cylinder sound celluloid images synchronization two elements exactly effective sudden appearance auguste louis lumires cinmatographe prompted edisons team focus projecting systems eventually dickson left company fortunately dicksons cylinder movies sound rebuilt film editor walter murch made restoration experiment intended finally dickson experimental sound film heard synchronized sound creative inventor intended successful attempt outstanding film testament enormous genius father kinetoscope im really bad placebit backstory im struggling depression around shit hard recently ive reached gotten help saw psych got meds ive hitting really bad lows lately massive mood swings angry outbursts worse psych says likely bipolar disorder family pretty long history im hitting time lows yesterday stepped shower pretty much collapsed crying ive getting massive urges cut really scares family friends id end right fucking now im tired hurting want pain stop thought hurting making feel way utterly destroys one deserves feel way want cant without putting pain onto everyone know fuck im gon na im even writing ive lost interest pretty much everything either lay bed wanting die sit whatever fuck keep attention seconds much things help cope weed alcohol thats digging even deeper hole really want fall thats vent guess know wrote whatever im taking ambien passing fuck really wish die sleep im lucky good night reddit hope well cause sure hell arent benefits lack sleep muscle degeneration lack energy able fall sleep eating lunch eyes fully open able fall sleep eyes open swing head receiving lots unwanted sleep shock lives permanent damage brain far many shock sleep hours day lead brain death eventually whilr later death cuz brain death far degeneration left mix time night falls head filled matter much put inside pit despair find beauty death suffer time sleep getting shorter acid inside mouth increases imagine sleep ing hour days want sleep fail try mind blinks subconshes got used idea sleep shock go sleep wake go thats understand mean know sleeping hour days death actual solution solution condition killing hardhanging takes minutes might leave brain dead fail seems shooting thing works dont want family friends see face blown im already selfish leaving might well scar ive stuck delima awhile leaning towards shooting maybe shot heart work dragonlord sees chan returning role dragon young master much carried first film though tiger older brother nowhere seen neither marshall daughter son played superbly yuen biao original film dragon master though presumably students moved things dragons laziness training portrayed heavily film maybe hes still studying br br originally titled young master love film sees dragon first sixty minutes least pursuing villager girl various idiotic slapstick ways rival affection friend inappropriately named cowboy played comically longtime chan stuntteam member mars see various scenes silly schemes backfire one scenes thankfully find dragon headbr br film notorious failed expectations box office said im sure expectations pretty high feel film never fair judgment based merits even try still feel problem film seems quite unfocused sometimes rushed think action sporadic brilliant chans work periodbr br thing really saves film ending sequence young master fantastic final reel full incredibly exhausting action really feel every blow chan goes rival young master character timing energy brilliant chans style using every last bit environment help defeat opponent relying pure physical ability apparent anywhere barn fight full clever little prop gags improvisations absolute highlight film one chans incredible careerbr br necessary see prequel seeing dragonlord fact might even raise questions hopes answer must said original film superior film dragonlord focus girlchasing teamsports seem baffling luckily fight scenes offers plus fantastic shuttlecock scene push line mustsee film genre im desperate meaningful connections every time start know someone hopes skyrocket crushedtired making new acquaintances never contact tired becoming friends women thinking might giving signals find theyre im going kill cant keep torturing need talk pleasehi talk someone failling subject simplify somewhat mini thesis fail sem continue project next sem facing supervisor really got depression next pls advice buddy considering restarting project different supervisor different topic scare talk current supervisor thing cost lot eat lot food coping mechanism gain weights drags depression little self harm punching self fronthead swallowing hair vitamin scared talk supervisor tomorrow final progress presentation dead end finish project sem want continue next sem college mental health bodyi lost kg still cant body still comfortable skin want starve ribs show arms thin stomach flat want thin ill binge keep getting bigger want small captures attention people makes worried embarrassing ask want know sometimes feel suffering depression know sure know depression price even higher told said thats discount im college student apart tuition food things fund thought paying much id least moneys worth therapy telling redflag family tell probably ocd redflag disorder seem hear rates therapies take year dynamic therapy preferably times week session able commit want continue second session continued spending nearly minutes saying options seeing psychiatrist taking pills going cbt treat symptoms seeing dynamic therapist sessions take year least see results whats second clock ticks minutes says nice day sort kicks im supposed believe person talking money time pay money talk greatest fears gon na help test want httpsopenspotifycomsocialsessionpiempflkpwnyurionyuoiyvnmutileclytfgtysfehkvugwcigceovcxaxldvlyjlwakyyhpplbrilvtvzpqoolutxfqxasitbdwctlirpkctpmusyoq want fantasies killing myselfi depression years never suicidal although thought redflag knew never met awesome guy make short broke year relationship second final breakup anyway thought coping whole situation quite well realized im thinking killing first time life thinking planning buying gun shooting therapy much im depressed im miserable thing help talking guy thought asking something stupid hey want save life talk minutes please fantasizing sending text waiting hour shooting ignores really try contact broke stalk something ps please tell go life something fucking waited year feel better working going friends tried guys therapist end day still find single happy thought put sleep going life whatever means option sharing comfort song comfort songhttpsyoutubesqzqluc ive really bad day song makes tiniest bit better miss parents much today one days miss usual hope u guys song comment comfort songs u want belgian take interest history congo colony many years rwanda belgian protectorate colony part countrys history nowadays seems popular say belgians congo wrong especially th century im saying bad things happen course back abnormal really think french brits much nicer colonies werent normal time king leopold ii use congo way gain personal wealth private property belong state tried make course gruesome things hands chopped happened yes todays standards thats inadmissible days common practice said happen anymore last decades know several people lived worked congo many years declaration congolese independence true several black servants nice people really cant imagine treated bad far know always treated lot respect im saying belgians fact old almost years old now love return congobr br good thing movie gives historically accurate vision happened last years belgian governance first years congolese independence story black white perhaps best words context explain mean feared say belgians wrong congolese good shows perfectly congolese rush getting independent belgians mind accept help russians well americans eye raw materials copper diamonds bauxite rubber getting congolese political camp interested independence give good idea lumumba became powerful mobutu played double role shows belgian reaction compatriots violated threatened even murdered father one paratroopers send congo rescue belgians gives good idea political problems lumumba encountered province katanga want part congolese republic role belgians murder lumumba gets part moviebr br story seems accurate characters really look act real ones movie able give good idea life congo late fifties early sixties seen everybody interested history country shown history classes especially belgium part history never forgotten give perhaps even guys idk right now internet buddyis kill please help met girl internet weve talking month today got onto irc frequent told gon na kill husband got fight called redflag hotline local police anything phone number address idk guys idk go please help trying find psychiatrist going well allhey sw ive suicidal last months posted sw week ago thought finally going kind people helped im ready start taking responsibility situation told family ive trying find psychiatrist going well ive called something numbers half say number longer service go straight answering machine wtf psychiatrists doctors right think trying find new dealer finally got someone phone told dr taking heroin addicts right now dude wat person ive gotten phone told take insurance know someone actually successfully navigated charlie fox give advice thanks im dying cause forced speak teams video call thing teacher say morning mairead went morning mairead im dying ok drawings yall buy see theyd low quality help improve drawing skills make better art posted alreadyfentanyl uk hookup appreciated ate much bread feeling fat immobile lazy girl hours go brrrrrrrr bungholebungholebungholebunghole anyway rate national anthem httpsyoutubecrfttnktio cant helpdoes anyone know cowards way want painless possible anything ventolin overdose im worried id fucking seizure live worse pain please dont try help barely even want theres something wrong brain genetically every male bloodline ive met committed redflag guess time reached peak evergoing quest self improvement way everything try life fails every time try improve fall back original situationfor trying make feel better increased social experiences greatly go gym days week eat well hours sleep every day everything make feel better nothing works lost attachment goals always return low state depression cant make situation work favor things attempt fail really point trying make feel better constant state depression live hard life guaranteed die spoilers buried mountain medical bills funeral business able dig undertaker vito lucia tony lo bianco came plan make load cash help two crooked pals moon bo richard lynch bill hickman br br vito getting close boyhood friend buddy manucci roy scheider mob informer win buddys trust tell vito whats coming streets new york regard mob activities buddy cop works sub rosa unite nypd seven ups things way clean streets new york criminals br br vito gets information buddy makes look buddy hes really giving tips mob uses information tip hoodlum associates moon bo rip mobsters weekly take well kidnap top mob loan sharks hold ransombr br everything going well vito co mob decides retaliate mistakenly grabs beats kidnaps member seven ups ansel ken kerchevalwho working undercover thinking one hoods kidnapping ripping later ansel accidentally killed moon blasted trunk car ansel locked thinking suitcase full cash ransom itbr br fast pace exciting movie gritty grimy photography new york city effective movie french connection stars roy scheider tony lo bianco movie incredible car chase started downtown brooklyn ended wilds new jersey miles away buddy almost ending decapitated heroic efforts br br roy scheider big man tough effective big action actor think clint eastwood movie scheider reminds lot even looks bit former welterweight middleweight champion gene fullmer beat great sugar ray robinson middleweight championship back acts movie tough durable destructive br br tony lo bianco good vito undertaker lowlife heel plays buddy mob point leads buddys partner ansel getting killed even though hes trash cant way help feeling sorry vito wants money gets ripped offed mobsters pay sick wifes roses hospital medical bills even fact ansel killed due actions vito never wanted anybody hurt say play fire end getting burned end vito lot explaining sympathetic caring mobsters br br movie seven ups late bill hickman dangerous stunts car chases well act film hickman stunt man great movies driving roads streets highways new york city san francisco french connection bullitt enjoyable minor noir boasts top cast many memorable scenes big distraction complete disregard authentic accents spanish characters film played frenchman boyer belgian francen greek paxinou hungarian lorre top bacall supposed english aristocrat despite absurdities performances good especially paxinou lorre scene boyer paxinou lorre meet talk wildly different accents real hoot guess seeing alone actually speaking spanish anyway seems pretty weird brothers warner find spanish speaking actors los angeles course hollywood often old accent policy favorite greta garbo swedish mata hari dutch falls love russian soldier played mexican ramon novarro maybe got novarro confidential agent great boyers role least francens saved greatly dark makeup budget know penis id date someone one attached anyone wan na chat ask stuff im bored idk much filler text need want die cant draw portraits art class correctwhy worstdarkest pickup lines filler got rickrolled youtube ad chips fml augh moms making come downstairs im fucking mentally well atm idk ill hide day posting phrase liquid whales girlfriend likely forget post put best face everybody pretend know song everybody come hang lets go bang bang bang bang im way young lie forever im way old try whatever come hang lets go bang bang bang bang todays filler brought ajr song bang redflag confusion confused intrusive thoughts afraid dementia chronic redflag panic hipochondriac etc redflag confusion toronto film festival report official takashi miike whackedbr br annual midnight screening new takashi miike film big spook war great yokai war ykai daisens call fanatical ridebr br colin geddes fearless programmer stated film originally geared towards children japan think lord rings neverending story japan screening understand going damn takashi miike directed film ichi killer screening festival barf bags handed screening marketing ploybr br plot summary young boy troubled home life becomes chosen stumbles middle great spirit war meets group friendly spirits become companions journeybr br really kids well young certainly see getting scared shitless spirits even friendly ones display unlike anything ive seen movie theater fantasy naturally funny dark material bored guarantee hit north america doubtfulbr br rating b failedthe last happy moment day took train station way trip shed destroy tonight failed let noose take strength back able instead keep floating maybe finally succeed one final happy moment url hello im year old transgender woman trying survive montana places fight gender dysphoria try stay strong living community many openly hate people trying reach goal facial feminization surgery well gender confirmation surgery bottom surgery breast augmentation first two main goals far feel intense pressure things done soon possible lost liveevery day dive selfpity hate point find point pleasure living anymore im useless terrible person easily irritated everything everyone cant sleep night im busy day barely sleep slept hours week three hours per day less im way behind everyone college lectures cant find motivation read anything anymore interview therapist week ago said theyd call set schedules start treatment im getting really tired impatient might well abort evertything depression makes home life fucking horrible feel guilty every time talk family members knowing know depression makes feel disgust towards plus past haunting never esp guilt towards knowing happened childhood knowing memories back even real im forgettable people whod miss little brothers parents even sooner later lost friends still talk care anymore suck getting new friends im shy awkward social anxiety romantic life sucks basically im whiny little asshole cant shit together deserve live neither wants even motivation kill despite much want die hope someday hit car smth die horrible painful death deserve bad thoughtsi struggled suicidal ideation now got better time im back now started new job january worst jobs times makes feel im incapable keeping one got part time one dog shelter dogs cats animals make really happy somehow gives feeling safety wont let hang dogs anything dog related lot experience rescue world drive two hours round trip paid shit accepted supposed animal care instead paperwork filing stupid things close home getting paid point job leave yet another job nothing feel fulfilling everything feels pointless married amazing husband think much hold dog cat much attached another dog equation wanted service dog found unless willing write check take years thought training husband uncomfortable getting another dog afraid training wont work day every day think hell point feel shit time dont bandwidth one thing makes happy cant financially afford many times every day thought even quit one side dont want another feel dont know long ill put energy fight back dont want tell doctor put back psych hospital husband told step far break us apart dont know keep gathering energy good wife wish bed day every day sometimes wish physically sick enough many people wish chance go live wish switch places im sure intrigues movie grainy poorly written bleached often ridiculous many points mind numbingly dull person watching fell asleep twice yet something film fascinates though sure perhaps character sam enormous former patient lobotimized former head doctor perpetually sucking ice pop marvelously played head doctor forget namebr br anyway watch form opinion one greatest endings seen film made drink doesnt taste half bad peach bubly frozen orange juice little bit grenadine maraschino cherries bit triple sec orange alcoholwith parent permission course tastes pretty good number memes weekend understandable kinda annoying point failing everythingi essay due monday understand readings spoke prof thinks im fine probably wanted rid exams summer going fail understand material im intelligent enough clearly work work work work nowhere im nearly teenager anymore cant afford make dumb mistakes tried everything right going wrong know now feel dumb idiot child ill go back shitty little hometown live parents let time pass soon ill position dead pointless life hard make something feel everyone knows secret life dont people fulfilled lives friends good grades good diets workouts hobbies etc cant one things god ive tried im end road rock bottom see way death seems sweet relief id go jump front tube train want traumatise driver know rant im swear fuck im going senile lost litre bottle lucozade thats literally less metre face room hardly small enough lose needle im actually fucking idiot swear god black wasnt imposter black wasnt imposter im thinking ending things keep pressing exacto knife hard wrist im testing hard go puncture vein dont know commit im one impulse away wan na quit pussy dont reply cus ik people call edgy smth felt venting feel im mother still need selfharmi started selfharm still often im suicidal attempted redflag many times experience staying er two weeks od family son family parents left maybe left ex husband terrible sometimes feel born suffered never felt happy life always care people think lots scars body today hurt punishment still live im person deserves happy world im already cant stop selfharm know im crazy yall fucking awesome take internet hug guys realize awesome rare tell chances birth million think maybe billion anyhoo let peoples words focus positive shit mother always says social media whatsoever yeah failed one saw reddit shed probably wooden spoon anyways thank reading rant remember rarer fucking mewtwo bye honestly health anxiety gets bad sometimes honestly feel giving even trying scared deathsometimes random feel done life much happened sometimes day feel oh complain smile happy keep trying stay motivated work hard one day find happiness try believe try believe ill make health anxiety goes really awful sometimes im even scared dying accept sometimes feel self hatred strong im fucked fixing point sometimes genuinely know whats stopping saying fuck stress fuck tears fuck whole planet everything especially ill feel better morning ill continue fighting morning believe ill stop oh boy always around giving feels tempting swear want happiness fucking badly want rid ptsd ocd whatever fuck might wrong idk hope second redflag attempt minutes ago tied neck untied know hell stopping mei dreamt redflag first time reason parents wanted wear certain religious clothes even though want know thats weird reason got many reasons led suicidal thoughts low exam marks bullies etc im beginning year feeling empty even know reason depressed time im chronically depressed remember reasons often wanted overdose painkillers got stopped sat cried know stopped nowadays ive feeling empty still troubles parents religious stuffs decided love learn im member religion even kill believe love always tell one loves much us parents love benefits religion daughter made feel numb even want talk parents cant even talk know talk tonight mom came room even say hi say room small better leave angrily left said happy phone feel numb feel something people everything seems cold mom went bedroom grabbed bathrobe belt tied neck wanted tie part ceiling hands started shaking guts body shaking thinking nothing ah stupid forgot even writing redflag letter written redflag letter told im atheist committed redflag angry instead sad maybe even let corpse buried feel die nothing know stopped im seriously angry im years old life continue depressed time want want rid soon possible cant ps going say encourage commit redflag inside heart sound saying hope people may give advices chronical depression even mean want kill im confused yes want die want die well know ill go sleep darling lili fantastic far one favorite films certainly deserve poor reviews received julie andrews playing title role lili smith schmidt best part whole movie entrancing spectacular julie andrews favorite actress singer far definatly surprised stunning movie justgreat im running adjectives magnificent marvellous amazing funny terribly romantic sad allout thrill thanks dame julie andrewsand husband director blake edwards oh yeah rock hudson ok br br julie andrews beautiful wellloved singer lili smith rock hudson portrays major larabee quickly falls lili affair coincedental meeting planned german government im sure thats exactly call point warm happy singing entertainer lili actually german spy lili told seduce major larabee order information new top secret opertaion later know crepe suzette though lili solemn mission falls love bill major larabee real making original quest challenging lili pulls completes er task finds something really true bill ending remain unsaid wonderfully layed anything thoroughly enjoy movie certainly didbr br back back finals hours straight ill leaving take less hours well enough im going kill myselfive spent hours studying ive never worse semester path taking bs unacceptable way fix things well enough fault failure go shower imagine family dying cry next minutes know doim normal good enough live fuck relationships make things worse anger issues self confidence problems fuck live go college even think succeed want die feels good thing world whats actual goddamn point living wreck every single relationship family romantic family better without romantic partner deserves better probably going dump soon feel hurting physically mentally years cant normal relationships anyway im ugly useless shit head stupid stupid stupid posting thinking im even slightly important im im fucking useless unimportant worthless loser parents regretted anyways fuck life give someone better im cowardly go probably help actually go go back thinking mood swings next hour feel much better thats almost lie still feel negatively feels life always fucking mess mess idea normal killing live fucked going kill todayi everything planned note noose pills empty house thinking weeks kinda feels something im supposed weird mental state somewhat akin nervous procrastination really feel im compulsively keeping busy random chores ive already done loads laundry today ill probably try keep mind wandering feel exhausted even though got surprisingly decent sleep every time sit still moment thoughts go drizzle downpour really dont want go burden hate thing holding back family good friend dont want hurt pain intolerable mental agony every day want find peace going need therapy game sincerely advise play doki doki literature club steam please dm bond pur lost sanity point gay realize geared towards males still carried screwed omg help please emotional instabilityim nineteen years old constantly thinking killing ive always low shit selfesteem extremely selfloathing compare everyone around know guys tell biggest problem hardly help many girls suffer eating disorders domination super skinny girls media opposite problem knowing skin bones guys want nice curves im skinny small boobs butt whatsoever mention fucking weird looking vagina makes want vomit try gain weight goes weird places arms thighs woman supposed accumulate weight sure guys smaller bodies guys age prefer exciting body hobbies real interests ive tried getting drawing reading writing playing keyboard etc always lose desire continue really quickly ive tried several sports random activities never good anything hardly motivation leave house im driving friends away pretty happy im little miss miserable thing truly wanted kill reason moms mom died mom ten thing mom wanted daughter know feel failed parent immediately give life gave selfish grateful someone cares much feel resentment fact feel forced continue living want im sure sound spoiled brat intentionally screwing life really happy really know last time happy feel terrified surrounding world going happen absolutely idea want life anything ive wanted major college parents told make money consider something feels basically telling need work butt next years job want work life away never happy go want ill spend rest life debt still never happy understand point meh cherry cake mention last sound real reason negative thoughts reality going kid last event made worse dating boy last two years broke month ago always felt league wind leaving move much happier eventually meet someone way better suited last part yet happen know eventually drives nuts think know someone better never immediately smitten anyone sounds bitter want happy feel knife chest see happier someone death cab cutie lyrics better cant better ive felt awful everything middle school seemed one thing turn around obviously work facing guaranteed struggle many months come hardly feel capable handling top racing thoughts username augustth planning ending everything summer class finishes right move back home perfect death imagined requires state taking class dad leaves new job new state next week leaves mom home deal without think die even remotely soundly knowing second want blame fall ex bad timing around wish end feel eventually something change know power change problem know even really want change things said feel doomed unhappiness later life matter wanted chest anyone actually reads ill really appreciate feel free offer advice although honestly know help another possibly biggest problem pick skin cant seem control scalp causes lose fair amount hair really noticeable yet im afraid eventually got really bad year first year college ridiculously stressful year meh think feel fucking freak worth anyones time size makes wood rise im goin called pedo even though im younger people love please tell melet tell everything absolutely despise theres anything makes think hey guy might even slightly redeemable idk let know guess lol dont really read answer question guess born narcisstic mentallyphysicallysexually abusive hellscape spent years life circuslevel fat whole time obese avoid looking attractive rapists guess im guy btw never friends talked anyone go entire days without speaking id startled hear voice dog farting awake im gods original joke ive never laughing stock whether appearance attitude people around scoff find grotesquely amused attitude feels rage loneliness despair sit chest calm ocean probably pressured container slowly adding well needs die naturally anyway im horrible im insanely short people im sensitive mbv extremely paranoid attitude beneath first level rage water theres striking sense fear anxiety core used make even saying roll call school unbearable literal bright red face seconds attention weakness probably thing im disgusted front im normal person wards assholes now knew easily destroy im utterly pathetic desperate need friendsrelationships feel ive locked inside glass case observed reached people tried friend years shut time ill talk now barely stand people exhausting ive done without people years hell manageable cant go single day without fantasizing sweet death spent years losing pounds strangers noticed congratulated went along far family even good family members seem care much though didnt reach goal lbs never felt better high lasted well gone now good undo ideal way die procrastination ive never guidance life sometimes people dont heroes role models stumble around dark find match ive never tried find one never seemed point im nothing everything seems worth working longgone terms actionable time foot mountain im watching people age finish scaling top start climbing now ill die fall maybe lived long enough retire lol enough time realize killed decades ago social status drifters friends abusive evil piece shit dad friends cant matter try actually took figure much loser really took learn fatally unalterably flawed taken realize sacrificed good years nothing fear really im cockroach survived nuclear blast mutating hateful skittering fearful little insect theres god theres therapist seems think best course let slide suicislide bakeract finally force take medication want someone tell im supposed people supposed permanently pills im pretty sure darwin said point survival fittest right idea cant survive without troubling idea dependent something life theres nothing physically wrong troubling cant live love feel deserve reddit void headachesi know say without sounding insensitive unmindful problems people face theyre feeling suicidal really need say someone im suicidal anything wrong life live okay steady job take care want live anymore relationship family distant know care job dead end pays well amp know im capable moving wanted im single thats know im overly dependent im toxic general want put anyone im lonely im mistreated im sad ans know ive annoying headaches going long cant quite remember started seems go away even interfere day day still feel buzz back head driving crazy want say headaches metaphors thoughts redflag lately head stop pounding cry tiredim fifteen go school every day im happy person love making friends smile love making teachers smile people told happiness contagious always ask friends theyre throughout day one really go therapy psychiatrist doctor knows history redflag drug abuse yet seems people go mental health bigger worries theres always someone worse understand want scream cry shout cant see much im suffering someone cant contain well make risk frequently self harm im addicted nicotine addicted worse past gone single day years without thinking killing ive attempted kill odd times far two times parents understand mean edgy teenager way mean parents walked attempting redflag done nothing brush actions rug wants attention shes typical teenager nobody understands seriously one understands ive tried talk people ive tried talk friends every time look differently treat differently ive tried talk social worker understand outside im happy carefree im tired nobody sees bad im finally dead know everyone going think done truth fucking im exhausted anyone wan na start group meeting zoom talk ill post link people interested everyone around crashing burningim redflag watch im living life partners former partner write posts subreddit lets call ben lisa ben lisa relationship continued live together broke lisa borderline trauma history struggling abandonment issues led psychosis selfharm attempted redflag apparently assault knife ben ben traumatized months threats hints plans commit redflag drug misuse lisa relationship ben everyone want partner current former commit redflag see distressing ben feels deep sense dedication towards close ones stoic man small town values friendships people genuine loving kind gets ben trouble genuine loving borderline lisa borderline gave ben hard time another former partner got arrested refused marry ben adhd baseline arousal ridiculously high neurotypicals high anxiety imagine hard must ben go experiences much harder ben gets anxious ben experiences mental anxiety rushing thoughts things pretty confusing right now struggling order events chronological order fucked cant tell weeks ago weeks ago yeah ben lisa told panic attacks severe call ambulance time sure lisa understands pressuring ben break selfharm called emotional abuse last time spoke asking check ben good ben lisa definitely knows well well sometimes tough see right thing nonetheless lisa seems going right direction isnt guess things volatile cant guarantee flip whereas ben im sure going mind ben taught discuss feelings hide mental health small towns ok definitely something work future reference coming theyve drinks healthy know easy talk elect conditioned clam literally unable talk ben aborted mission various ways tried ok ben healthy talk triggers tacked onto time develop skill talking need wait healthy develop comfort speak openly meanwhile ill assume well cuz see deal another way ben likes camping biking lowkey ways make better im taking tonight well soothing mindfulness ben talk feelings hope listen wrote current partner told overreacting didnt ptsd take seriously bitch told ben likely thick trauma although need process thoughts feelings experiences clarity right now need time need chill explained making attempts talk lisa whether check safe ben safe make things worse lisa fun prolong abandonment narrative thats prolongs stress unhealthy coping ben tell lisa sure real time come back hurt least lisa fall onto unhealthy patterns prolonged daily struggle triggers rolling hardcore one shitty day comes ripping band aid lisa start healing lisa needs develop stable supports former partner lisa ben better even friends hang want really good ben either anxiety making survey oncoming trouble end driving anxiety ben needs shut bit feel safe blah ben person ive closest separated spouse spouse living major depressive disorder walking redflag risk want talk shit hobby lock bathroom blow anger super aggressive monologues mirror sometimes directed sometimes know spouse fault depressed scared shit spent last years relationship walking bedroom morning wondering find spouse dead started waking middle night go check son born given kind intimacy spent nights drinking ruminating playing video games broke spouse dated people ptsd went terrifying spirals together learned control shit date autistic adhd ptsd cant avoided fucked head abused parents ptsd trauma familiar gon na pull magnet cool read sharing familiars working together healing point life hard normal person hide much shit nothing ok anymore even unhealthy hurtful sad shit live think fine cant even see know healed scars abuse im someone feel woke handle together bond much closer guess great horrible accept ive abused ill ropewalking forever fall one side therell healing compassion fall murderredflags cool made bed dark side lie identify borderline dated us rough last one ben really got learned manage feelings book go read go read now httpswwwamazoncamindfulnessborderlinepersonalitydisorderdialecticaldphttpswwwamazoncamindfulnessborderlinepersonalitydisorderdialecticaldp library read free stop bitching read book mental health know fucked thats reading use simple language keep short best present listen think possible go lisa im stranger although going different flavor good muster strength grateful abusive people life really ok tough live someone wants die know redflag separate concept death redflag death kill know happens die eventually even years interval big deal compared say long pleistocene idk analogies theres sorts agency involved completely valid opt die matter reason body right type deal yet problem attachment others valid die poor suckers live trauma decades go particularly want spend feeling crappy put shoes yeah guess kill ethical definitely fucking abuse someone want die im guessing news relationship treat coronavirus keep distance know sick want die got relationship work apparently normal emotions last seconds persistent makes distressed means stoking emotions theres tons books therapy help figure stoke shit gets easier partner wants die heres learned apparently supposed let holy shit marriage counselor told mediators told said one help unless wanted stupidly said depression robs ability want help fuck fuck sure whether said yeah tough idea fucked live every day never loved another person know aaaaall people eventually told left spouse asap didnt consented abused believe checks weve apart months fucker still alive thriving good looked resources ben lisa website first clicked said unequivocal terms one decide another person whether live die got wise enough going shit able read future partners inkling might put position let die exit exit now read lot marriage counseling books spouse broke counterintuitively ideal scenario relationship independent coexistence much making redflag plans idk thats hang ben lisa chill stop talking couple months heal everything ok best friend tried end thursday night stopped crying sinceshe close dying knew depression bpd bad thought getting ontop thought improving fact thought way problems breaks heart heart feels broken tiny pieces feel many awful emotions know killed joined goes well gone sooni tired go lost thought way ive lost hope things better im finally going peace value life peoplei hear people talk sad everyone feel die fuck living suffering right long everyone gets something nice wow im suicidal locked minutes posting many encouraging messages forumim years old ive trouble working people jobs chemical engineer im living rent free friends lake house hard bed look forward day done go sleep daughter isnt talking unknown reason son isnt talking least unblocked fb want know happen death scary always want die cant even think reason mornings think job prospects ruined health problems health insurance husband killed self years ago always sort redflag pact maybe time fulfill end bargain im done trying relationship one vital times start career waste energy trying something likely end guess hey look ma made goes friends happy theyre honeysuckle phonies celebrate medals wan na take trophies even bother something going happen slim chance happen itll probably end im likeable guy means anyway career build boy gon na date one girl crush bf already fucking bother im gon na listen creep radiohead tread misery m wan na reconnect old friend f know school actually temple really good friends time turned got crush started doin everything accepts havent tell liked yet even opened facebook account instagram account talk herafter months think actually month courage tell told instagram kinda told waitso waited months time started getting protective towards whenever talks boy jealous want talk onlyso month asked date told wait talked normal asked told wait point really got fuck moment started pressure really regret learned lessonwhenever chat constantly ask dateand weeks something finally rejected mei course sad iti even asked one last timeand told yesthen moved onwe started talking normal friends againone day posted somehing story dont remember posted something question favourite number actually randomly typed sleepy time read properly blocked thati bruh time felt lets forget move everything got fucked note happened im actually teen entrepreneur trying brag busy business life pointi heard moved new house house near house thought maybe go house tell soryy time busy thingsso leaved heri didnt wanted disturb thing happened today right im mom gave idk thing really dk asked didnt tellshe told give thing momso walked home knocked door thought mother come confident one came point really stuck didnt know speak herand fuckin hurtful thing heard life asked youmy mind bruh im friend reddit reconnect fuckin year talked wan na reconnect really wan na know mistake instagram really option blocked meso reddit please never cheat soulmatetwo years ago cheated girlfriend cuddleing another woman bed sex kisses still okey still decided cries time still thinking looks enough probably leave day love eachother much cant take pain never believed term soulmate met fucked everything life ifwhen leaves dont want live anymore really want easiest painless death ashamed make even sad redflag feel sad family friends life without best friend years old lose forever feel postingim alright dont feel control emotions time im hard dont want things bad felt depressed month two ago posted major transition happening life ive felt weak im feeling quite happy least crisis dont know im feeling time majorly sad feel body know im afraid knowing want keep track dont consider suicidal right im tired sometimes almost think terrible thoughts one caring bit isolated even though family im maybe good isolation try help people keep check anyone thanks reading reader perfect example short film poignant story told simply well written dialog beautifully painted images score seamlessly weaves way narrative characters portrayed thoughtfulness gracebr br saw film festival interesting films ideas screened none shorts elements great filmmaking coming together one film reader reader commanded attention every festivalgoer room minutes took us emotional lives charactersbr br duncan rogers created beautiful film hope see director shorts perhaps feature length film give one helpingits fine people nearly bash door drinking fine s pounds worth stuff may potentially stolen give cant take anymore know needs stop usually alan alda plays characters soft overly verbal probably really lives time fits character though overacts verdict deliveredbr br attica prison riot state new yorks response remembered many us terrifying event journalists told true story film provides quick look horrors excesses associated attica riotrevolt attica major impact country maybe movie stimulate someone research historybr br cant remember feature movie made perspective prisoners though great pbs piece actual attica survivorsparticipants perspective guards held hostage explored wall kyle maclachlan samuel l jackson clarence williams iii frederic forrestbr br back day shouted attica attica nice hear movie brought back memoriesbr br worst part movie natural wigs morris chestnut african americans must wear easy people grow fro parents dont allow subscribe netflix disney hbo max im slowly losing mind might try againthis alt btw name ben yall know fucker named ben hope read cause im much pussy directly adress friends yalls names used make sure know much bitch tried killing february reciently thought feel unreasonable try make worse feels although know life shit ive anxiety whole life point rarely slept well lights shared room younger brother year ago parents finally decided im big boy ive depressed three dont know started didnt deserve may mom think mom tells anxiety makes pussy month means dont anxiety tells dad know cares therapy waste money dont need change mind told happened february break heart might still mad telling sooner wish parents got divorced parents eachother wont lie think lacking love dont match knoledge married cause came along divorce create finance problem dont think parents able handle though dad firefighter csm army mom nurse doesnt work often whaterver fucking reason puts lot stress dad high rank hes one highest batallion position work extra hours low pay job wrecks cabbed lyft dont think money away cause comes back pissed everytime want divorce happen cause root cause many parents arguements thats far im going cause triggers realized finance shit dumb cause fine im keeping cause backround two years ago hockey first practice back dislocating shoulder minor dislocate week back made sure everyone going easy end little shit named andy made sure hit extra hard shoulder although wrong shoulder worst pain experienced later night puked twice unconsiousness next summer laccrosse great met best friend davin two awesome coaches church camp great memories went best friend cabin mutuals friends dumb year old boy shit fun second last day one brings stickbug bouncing side side decide funny bounce side side stickbug people fucking riding shit kinda annoyed expected jake runs rubs balls face school starts someone must brought stickbug thing started gay ben thing didnt hear different gay ben thing friends bus made gay jokes got called gay didnt really care heard bus became annoying told stop wouldnt jakes gay ben thing spread getting called fag strangers dont care people say special time cause actually bi havent came yet preety much close friend davin made sure wouldnt mad cause told annoying kids wouldnt stop bothering made question knew last years hockey fun went resort got called rice honky jew fun times tried kill self february straw broke camels back davin hanging someone didnt something memory repressed took handfull ibprofen went bed made sure tell davin everything fault feel bad even thinking luckily enough woke practice next day davin didnt know told teamate friend aiden took pills got fight said atleast didnt try take pills mad punched couple times made later mad hockey ended already looking forward lacrosse year school team got cancelled didnt feel comfortable playing high rank team quarantine xbox reciently got ukulele time davin fell bit played aj people met xbox went school frankie peyton mean aj started become stayed mostly cause first super nice depression anxiety way mind aj starting nicer now got mean constantly telling shut stuff lack real human interaction time low still cause whole quarantine shit first thought redflag simply alone couple weeks ask davin party invite things still wierd convinced started feel good back playing alot older brothers brothers friends liked haden ashton dicks tho dont shit anymore im still suicidal thanks frankie peyton id happy try playing blake aj cameron landen right anxiety doesnt let sleep lights cant cause well bright im staying night day im working plan davin friends im really exited thats basically repost day adding events spent two hours want feelings now read fuck frankie fuck andy someone know irl finds idc know tell want idgaf anymore chance im dead school starts okay heres confession sorts idk hate wanted end post well rules state post removed said post small imma type utter gibberish occupy space guess anything better dolol guys guys got accepted backup school got accepted backup school yall idea relieved backup nervous accepted places wanted know even accepted main choice im safe hellothe suicide help line busy therapist asleep thought might try plan end days check psych ward money afford ithelp please really bad night happens tell therapisthey hope okay place post question im wondering happen told therapist suicidal thoughts ive always deep fear telling people suicidal thoughts lately theyve gotten worse ive figured couple specific plans relatively easy carry ive gotten place twice past week ive felt need contact crisis line ive suicidal past ive attempted twice im scared time problems multiplied theyre bigger feel im collapsing weight life dont care enough stop thats scares past ive cared least bit time around im asking friends family support im unable verbalize bad thank help specific strange question uber need specific data unable due braindead stupid need pointless throw away joke friend someone help need know much uber ride florida illinois someone figure nice yo yo yo whats wholesome fact wholesomest gets award cos dont know tonight hopefullyif fucking penny every time ive convinced jeff bezos hopefully tonight night dont want keep holding back pussying want really commit time hey random person seeing tell favourite singersbandsmsic producers mines imagine dragons falling reverse bring horizon coldplay milky chance adele queen avicii taken another us rip alex trebek prayers wellwishes family guys im feeling bad pls help guys lowkey showing liked maybe dont feel bad found boyfriend lied bout blocked fuck outta scared im going commit redflag want didthis constantly goes mind im scared im going hang one day know always think last remember started popping best friend commited redflag hanging love life never want end need someone relate many people lose close friend redflag mango juul pods tap og us mangos gone forever couple boxes left breaking one boxes box two mint aswell add snap references check posts info know much posting general bare recently friend told years back friend told considering suicide kept saying things ok constantly similar things regrets done anything better asking needed someone said want ask much want hurt scared now recently blames scenario saying things gone bad potentially responsible saving friend apparently friend great friend consider one honestly know telling one informed know telling say friend either know qualified advice friend seems depressed know say yall really proud grown ass year old sleep room man come now slept room balls man woman birthday want make post least birthday advice woman attractive fellow advice appreciated girls iceland whatre non icelanders opinions cant fucking take anymore think im unfixablei feel theres point trying better everything futile sound fucking edgelord im tired trying matter hard try always feel empty dont think ill happy wish stupid think hate trapped head want kill stop feeling shitty want stop thinking want overdose bunch opiates dont need feel anything want order shit ton drugs right now im pussy wish gun something think deserve violent painful death sentient hate much httpsmeetgooglecomlookupcjlqoctu nothing innapropriete plz httpsmeetgooglecomlookupcjlqoctuhttpsmeetgooglecomlookupcjlqoctuauthuseramphs parents wont accept im part religion anymore ps know may best community post im really desperate help support little background knowledge family lutherin entire life know believe basically branch christianity think gay acting wrong believe branch christianity beliefs correct beliefs everyone part go church every sunday seriously religious case parents believe god way cure pain suffering thats main problem comes figured lutherin christian beginning year making realization took huge weight chest rules lutherin christianity really strict agree lot really stressed decided lutherin christian ive trying figure believe finally settled type deism basically believe god multiple gods created world interact way ive content beliefs want change anyone bad part situation made friends lutherin church constantly felt lying lot morals lutherin christian never suspected couldve made switch pray worship talk god holy perfect way feel alone time gained courage tell closest friends overall okay couple disappointed still accepted decision anyway try convince problem comes religious people church includes parents told parents directly im deist lutherin christian ive given pretty big hints shown im part beliefs system anymore still force go church participate religious discussions follow religious rules even sometimes force read family devotion even tell really really want worst part believe pray god give surrender mental illnesses cured much help one thing decided therapist trust therapists lutherin christians thats big issue first got someone church course work beliefs match refusing therapist lutherin christian think money constant war parents know accept im different really stressing tldr parents accept im part religion anymore starting use make life miserable today supposed first day work family super happy depressed hardly leave house shitty mood took xanax smoked weedand went work know worthless drug addict forgot phone doors locked dining area open drive home phone time got back hour late came home explained everyone massive failure weak even livei become scared becoming redditor drugs plays video games day believe life ended really better either parents try support deal issues understandable friends fucking dumped ass curb started getting depressed taking hella pills therapist see monththis pandemic completely fucked life still depressed pandemic level things getting better covid happenedi life people world society deal horibble shit happens world tell parents disappointed blame told believe god anymore world fucked god running god exhist fucking hates world vengeful peice shit motherfucker never worshipmy life shambles going die nodding idgaf anymore life shit go feel absolutaly sorry took xanx forgot spell drained soul want life back want back know support half ass meme advice parents give therapist help much see monthi friends nobody soul really gives shit completely alone world fuck everything never fail disappoint everyone threads keep hanginga years ago lost someone important consequence eventually lost things close friends identity think separate thoughts redflag person day succeed killing im donecheck post history ive gone im done movie absolutely perfect way explain good movie movie children parents timeless saw movie oceans eleven must admit actors oe class advance play klatretsen much downtoearth moving say oceans eleven fact movies many things common klatretsen good bear comparison oe youngsters play part perfect way believe compared used denmark different cases impossible acts handled way belive many young actors sometimes even old boys story things common oceans eleven except reason stealing money klatretsen need climb strongroom part young people take care idas younger brother gives fine element movie try imagine rob bank year child nappy arm br br movie bear comparison grown movie mi oceans eleven yes believe good best see theater children room comments movie comments stay hearts forever br br regards klavs need help maths ik stupid idea post ive stuck hours make x subject x x everyone uses offer leaves told well people suck worry oerson peoplr see others interacting included asked one thinks one misses always one reaching iut ti people knew one time stopped reaching anyone one tried hold one miss proven tired disposable hate dependent parentsi wish fucking shit need ask stuff parents ride food cant wait grow ill finally free job live maybe shit figured theyre terrible parents stifling know im awful person annoys much never say anything though try shut today mom tried force talk usually anyways feeling really depressed told tired want talk specifically told past want understand let time exploded yelling never appreciated anything ungrateful drove everywhere made dinner stuff ask rather drive pay shit eat dinner friends ugh stayed silent want make worse ive never wanted yell moment hate teenager maybe im selfish though gpa semesters low gradschool want put nice warm bullet skull got recently got banned rausgunshttpswwwredditcomrausguns saying want commit redflag australian shooting range whatever going anyway man either sell belongings book one way ticket hong kong got family members might well try help oppression failed calculus final covering laplace vector calculus complex calculus feeling hopeless university requires students pass final pass course scale gpa scale semesters study means never grad school australian grad school nonnegotiable necessity work industry want happens space systems need eb visa requires postgraduate degree us us person well either making space related startup scratch even harder grad school life meaning whatsoever im sitting listening depressing music make things worse considered pretty bright elementary high school graduated percentile high school worked life try reach goal gone shit two hours guessing really fail year challenge tldr entire lifes work dreams gone matter two hours reincarnation reali really wan na start hoenstly hate body hate fanily fucked bad go hate everything hard reason live wan na know proof born someone please want happy ending suffering im sending friends donuts birthday tell live e l l e guys jacked middle class turn camera andsince anything related pornography blocked school laptops im asexual bdsm kinki opened amazon looked bdsm toys beat meat shit aint pornhub itll cum stain clothes fcking ate yea whenever jack eat cum now recommend made girl hard doesnt dick really sob pm relatable ik attracted gender dude think im go depressive episode yk day going full sad ur know whats happen happens anyway love gays except uh love girls fuck wan na die cuz die imma go hell im even super religious agjsoefhoebapshwpjalsklaxhpsbspshsslbsslsblasblasbosdhsdsodkgwktwyodupclckzjxjdkekyakgekhsoyslgslhdkxkx god nclhdkhslhodohdlhxlhjxlhslhdlhsalhslhx see dilemma keep secreti think might literally insane felt stars fall sky last night wish dream better doesnt seem thats case anymore keep relying people things save doesnt work guys fyi might little bit sucks high life drop back drop distance really disorients kinda wish never started better depressed got used numbed right old wounds feel open wan na grab razor make skin match im getting old shit guys im half year dont want circles getting better anymore rest life theres point kinda realize going better reply anything ill ask v serious question text text text text text text text text text text anyone feel talkingim kind bad place performance today botched hurts really bad aspiration singer mess ready started panic attack bad bout dysphoria voice feel awful ive worked frenzy attempted kill days agofailed miserably btw thought feel something start dying parents find everythings absolutely fucks sake still dont care anything anyone still motivation reason live still afraid anything welp lets see lead drained want peace praying peace three full years want sleep forever tired idk fuckin sad time tired miserable time imnot feeling guilty angry sad sleeping probably going rewatch eat goldfish eventually perish tried commit last nighti severe suicidal thoughts day yesterday last night wanted end tried commiting redflag felt pain felt go away much wanted want die know hurt lot people go least think will tried ended crying hours straight knowing thoughts worse every day cant tell anyone care want worry ask say im fine think im gon na kill weekmy family doesnt deserve burden theyd better without need stop hurting messing deserve pain feel wish better daughter im screw hurt mom deserves better deserves whole world give birth fucking idiot half life reason im still aliveis half life worth nah kill one wonder question whyive hated majority life life probably coming close loser ive wasted opportunities better life wish gun wish drugs dont want anymore nothing left ive abandoned everything good life minimum wage job poor self esteem hope future gave couple months ago walked girlfriend person truly loved fuck man want die want disappointment failure stop long im alive wont know way make pain stop text diei wish im tiredi risk sounding spoiled live nice house nice things family sometimes loves want end im constantly telling things better idea will past year wrote fake toaster bath notes diary one day day mother decided snoop room found read whole thing next month constantly looking reassurance didnt hate notes said doesnt know took three therapists insisted stayed room spoke tried tell couldnt speak way tears kept comming im glad didnt im bisexual wanted proper coming written diary knows past three months ive felt lonely extremely anxious depressed dont want bother friends best friend fear turn away diabetes another thing im constantly self conscious feel makes people think less person sensors needles constantly body ugly hate much want tear never look ive thought insuline oding never courage ex got perfect girlfriend makes feel unworthy still feelings aswell feel fat even thought bmi normal range ugly dont wear makeup sensitive skin try tell parents im tired even though true refuse believe always try force talk problems dont mad disrespectful need help last option fun fact boobies actually go clap case know im sure theyre big enough mine sure doubt reach outplease poggers train cancelled trains college way cancelled due flooding man sure love english weather college today tho good anyone groupchats discord servers join fucking bored need procrastinate one friends blocked sharing opinion story posted something black lives matter told alot protesters part racist white people weird feelinghi im young guy junior high school gotten suicidal phase semicolon tattoo stand redflag ya know minimal backstory care want redflag something anyone comes guy barely knew shot stomach knots idk feel bad makes feel throwing know sat lunch always joked cool someone id known long amount time fact knew one knows suicidal always happiest one feels weird fucked dream though question right feeling bad guy nowhere near close everyone still still feeling shit crazy think depression hit ask anyone knew say radiant full joy life insouciance lost completely trust anymore doubt every decision make end anything anymore tendency shut people noticed matter social covid make weekends party nothing mattered time people stop reaching never reach ashamed feel shit every day passes worst self estimei ugly dumb raised abusive household never developped sence identity never successful relationship always chasing wrong guys wrong guys chasing never said love someone even though felt never guts even matter played anywayi never recognition parents family friends anymore nothing cati tell everyday go work self worth least something day tired switching apps day tired hopeless future future uglier day day lose confidence stay alone lonely time reach people lost interest live best life hurt self estime rejected take rejection time let anyone anymore age people care anymore feel waiting mom pass away take away life human gave little bit love course lot manipulation hurt outlook life different now life cool fun used sometimes point mid depression growing deep know mostly depressioni went psychiatrist even feel anymore know wrong fix feel alone long back tonight free amazing party next place hear music people shooting reminds time think twice always plans weekendsnow sports cat netflix memoriesi want part club let writing heard take anymore nothing bad luck life beg never good let go away let people happy need vent bit best book ive read karl urban steve zahn great together drama adventure sweetness sadness laughed cried hard laugh gus talking wish gus smacked clara inez clara lead gus years intentions marrying liked playing sad spent whole life pining nice woodrow married maggie died anyway woodrow man express feelings kept bottled obvious loved maggie raid austin rangers got back ran hold val kilmer excellent playing odd characters loved portrayal captian inish skull loved whole lonesome dove saga comanche moon best bunch always told burden waste space fuck even tho im one family qualifications nevermind getting uni ill likely end homeless cant even work little work experience try part time jobs end panic attack early got fired time friends uni well makes feel worse im home sack shit stays indoors day social interaction parents berating life even know killing friends constantly remark mess warner brothers second historical drama featuring civil war battle little big horn general george armstrong custer died boots warner brothers far accurate two especially contrasted santa fe trail warner brothers really set bar highbr br although pictures starring vehicles errol flynn change casting part general custer whereas dutch ronald reagan portraying flamboyant egomaniacal cavalryman earlier picture mr flynn playing virginian later confederate hero general jeb jeb stuart errol took custer part died boots onbr br warner brothers propensity using large number reliable character actors warners repertory company employed giving film sort authenticity really happening right eyes major roles taken better known actors actresses elizabeth baconmrs custer costar olivia de havilland ned sharpe arthur kennedy samuel bacon gene lockhart chief crazy horse anthony quinn californy charlie grapwin major taipe stanley ridges general phillip sheridan john litel callie bacons maid hattie mcdaniel br br rest cast chock full uncredited though skilled players joe sawyer eleanor parker minor watson tod andrews irving bacon roy barcroft lane chandler spencer charters frank ferguson francis ford william forrest george eldridge russell hicks william hopper hoppity hooper eddie keane fred kelsey sam mcdaniel patrick mcvey frank orth eddie parker addison richards ray teal jim thorpe allamerican minerva urecal dick wessel gig young many many morebr br film moves quickly particularly early goings sort slows necessity story moves along post civil war years assignment custer colonel th cavalry ultimate destiny little big horn montana guidance director griffith veteran raoul walsh film hits greatly varied array emotions serious exciting battle scenes convincing historical scenes looking matthew brady civil war photos mr walshs films punctuates expedites end many scene little humor going overboard thus risking chance turning film comedy farce actuallybr br previously mentioned much factual predecessor santa fe trail last time well mention honest schultz scouts honor say without little bits artistic literary license indeed biopic impossible make similar type film indeed every fact incident tried included screenplay perhaps erroneous inclusion well obvious invocation literary license business custers accidentally promoted rank brigadier general happen way yet gag helped film move along underscored whole light carefree feeling permeated early part filmbr br director walsh mr flynn collaborated giving us seem characterization legendary civil war hero close real life man top recreation incident massacre lakota sioux cheyenne fukowi custer th cavalry little big horn time occurrence june custers last stand big incident shock americans national psyche japanese attack pearl harbor december atrocities perpetrated islamic fascists new yorks twin trade towers united states armed forces headquarters pentagon arlington virginia september br br many films period world war ii years immediately many incidents intentionally done demonstrations virtues needed time another global conflict time died boots finishing original theatrical release periodbr br poodle schnitz im getting blamed friends addictionthis june third year dear boyfriend died age hell friend ive known became addict tried almost impossible protect close family years respectful say hes towards long short last week came said dope bathroom ive lost many ppl damn devil drug thought great im going watch bc overdose need narcan new guy friend ugh dk watching times non responsive went around house looking narcan friends dad flipped yelled wtf fuck meanthen yeah leave friends dad kicked later found hours later friend borrowed car totaled found prescription bottle anxiety meds purse hit another car called mother see said happened hes talking parents assholes youre welcome ive worried sons life upfront still blame new guy friend one bf died super protective honestly believe falling love catching feelings happen dont give flying fuck hearts broken core think patients yeah feel guilty smh hospital panic attack throat closed think expect friend give shit tried keep sober clean motivated hes lied hes stolen shouldnt even care verbal abuse name hes great person one minute hes devil ive tried keep alive im never feeling better even stay away wish dead everyday fianc moved blocked number emergency roomi went traumatic event weeks ago left suicidal ideation knowing problem negatively impact relationship fianc immediately enrolled group oneonone therapy ive attending sessions everyday making effort apply lessons stressful areas life yesterday woke strong feelings wanting commit redflag mentioned fianc called parents forced tell already felt ashamed situation hoping handle sickness us two professionals told dont check hospital call police fianc blocked path took phone away felt scared trapped went grab gun point knew ive gone overboard dropped gun packed stuff told quickly drive hospital dropped stayed hours called throughout night come visit refused said us got finally able use phone realized blocked number took social media cancelled arrangements wedding vendors went home saw left belongings actions destroyed relationship even though one thing fighting hard saved random guy im yosorry bad english thinking killing years tragic thinking know think death answer problems overthinking depression strong dead compromise cant feeling good cant feeling bad neither really sad unconfortable going able think anything moment took train went near city used love wanted fell high bridge random guy came nowhere nice man lost daughter travelling africa country really quite peaceful bit upset surprised stopped said think family going feel die much love right family loves want anymore nice family studying university lot awesome friends one reached city night life damn hard know theres people going lot pain someone without family someone cancer someone far unlucky feel guilty accuse sad make even sad still think sometimes redflag will flash similar dreams wich im dead thought control maybe see doctor someone help know think know night tried sucide got saved want anymore want enioy life family friends till im frightned thought make online friends im f kind introverted havent social pandemic ive always wanted online friends seemed easier less socially draining irl friends never know ive tried joining discord servers snapchat groups stuff things usually dry couple days never really connect anyone advice helpful thanks know weird tangent go blows mind much vocaloid evolved watching video history played song actually sounded real human voice genuine shock song playedhttpsyoutubehnpxinu video watchedhttpsyoutubeegrzcyta cant diei hate everything life want better already given fucking hate everything much coward hurt please cant go die give wish kill first introduced eddie friends acrossthepond know intelligent humor prefer comedians thought provoking entertaining george carlin dennis miller dress kill eddie provides type social observation humor stimulates thoughts subject causing side split time wide range subjects standup simply hysterical piece decide engleberts stage name leave stitchesbr br thanks andrew catherine flag close friend mine sent mental hospital redflag attempt dont know emotionally cope thisim extremely anxious edge dont want lose friend already lost one friend redflag dont want lose another watched animal butchered fun may failed saving friendi know next nothing chat room ran sounding bad pmed hardly talk say anything says took full bottle lexapro dead tomorrow help talk someone talk back one chat room knows better im really loss im tired anythingim sorry im rambling hard understand im awful words im exhausted energy anything im failing behind school one friend family seem care much im two year behind high school im supposed graduating year im sophomore third year row im gon na pass year really stressing parents helping mention im online school social anxiety pathetic fail one friend met online seem care much im someone talk friends paying attention parents ignored two times reached talked school counselor freshmen year first sophomore year told suicidal selfharming times called parents times theyve never brought make fun cutting needless say reached parents let professional help anyway im failure child spend anymore money im sick alone im sick never good enough anyone im sick everything want sleep day id yelled ive tried kms three times really want try im bored please dm please f chilling bed im weird state im kinda tired im really tired yet haha bored anything hit want im bored tell something funny ill laugh cba move forward life chance better digs deeperincoming massive wall text originally going post response question someone posed rdepression using video games media escape reality depression answer turned little longwinded decided make thread maybe little feedback started playing world warcraft tail end high school severe depression years escape critical daily life allowed forget everything weighed spent exorbitant amount time game never bothered playing everyone ignored anyway sought treatment depression request mother help went nowhere fast forward still played wow recently finally lost interest game really drive anything anymore except one friends wants hang really feel nothing life dont attribute feelings toward use media fact quite opposite games played growing helped escape feelings much way traumatized child may develop multiple personality protect ongoing abuse often think redflag even written letters leave behind event decide go first suicidal thought years old four years verbal mental time time physical abuse literally everyone around neighbors house one night saw owned gun seeing movies spending time uncle owns lot weapons knew least halfinformed knowledge operate moment saw finally sank means nearby give quick death end whatever reason never took upon try though thought lot long time abuse started seven moved new town turned quite christianleaning community basically didnt go church youre devil need cast family didnt go church parents never experienced problem didnt socialize community anyway faced brunt unwelcoming committee alone singled everyone around students teachers administrators counselorseverybody bottom rung tall ladder time school system town verbally mentally abused beaten humiliated two occasions stabbed careful enough avoid going deep warrant hospital trip continued decade first went people help thats discovered school staff wasnt help went parents problem shrugged thinking dramatic kids kids begged people stop leave alone one listened one cared friends turn grew alone hostile world soon learned emotional display even speech social interaction fuel fire stopped reacting anything didnt speak anyone didnt look anyone class got go anywhere made sure last one room remain sight recess sat away class nobody pay attention long quiet didnt look met girl late middle school became best friend everything seemed brighter around time grew love every fiber emotionally weak scared appear weak never said anything years went attempt prevent displaying weakness actually succumbed let slip away october fianc asked groomsman wedding event button fuck keep losing made horrible grades way school attribute fact think every day walked school getting hell instead repeating senior year high school dropped got ged two years shit belt decided join air force aspirations high signed seemed appropriate pararescue knowing physical punishment training began fitness regime many call excessive notable accomplishment life passing special forces physical aptitude test qualify program nearly year preliminary physical training shipped boot camp basic training easy enough half way sent rest sf trainees flight physical done repeat sf physical test part physical included pretty detailed eye exam given vision test done unable complete right eye drifted soon came double vision automatic disqualifier armed services classified erroneous enlistment promptly pulled training placed administrative hold medical hold transferred th trs place send injured trainees draw discharge paperwork month later sent home back place wanted desperately escape house go money place job support wound moving back parents point sank deepest level depression experienced date struggled bed slept excessively skipped meals sometimes one month rarely left room anything use bathroom stopped caring physical condition hygiene talked one friends knew wanted see never answered phone kept year half completely given life found inspiration idea becoming medic fire department went back school emt certification repeat half program failed cardiacrespiratory section passed b second time made bs everything program upon graduation applied fire department county surrounding counties miles got replies around time state experienced ems budget cuts instead hiring new emtsfiremen instead laid turned away back square one really feel anything anymore emotionally given news everything death family member old friend high school turned job even dog put worsening ailments held arms hugged give injection really know anymore even really care im going back school spring think habit desire move forward still seriously contemplate redflag fairly often means making quiet relatively painless thing id left plan little impact anyone possible little told anyone didnt legal obligation keep mouth shut sadly doesnt feel liberating hoped anybody send date video fnaf lore younger obsessed lore fnaf watch video find lore later lost interest remember games pretty interesting story anyone know video covers lore games many games now know dumb request really know feel able take anymoreim trying hard fight depression always lose things better sudden im without hope wanting kill im alive somehow im always able postpone date plan die time passes im convinced already killed keep living theres nothing really good im literally close karma im idk karma whoring think cause mods delete discord user gogy gon na day numbers obvious reasons dm yes random ill explain everything ok fianc died nothing left live forthe love life died stupid pointless terminal illness took life away long took life away angry hurts much want done now literally nothing left live nothing apart silence pain dreaming way another every time try sleep nothing helps nothing will never written reddit life even know works really anyone talk family friends happy loved bubbles husbands babies right now awful kinda hate happy know want die dead want irrelevant want die want stop dressed kill surely one best horrorthriller movies madeits tautstylish extremely suspenseful mixture sex violencethe acting pretty goodthe orchestral score pino donaggio unforgettable theres plenty surprises keep thriller fans intrigueddressed kill murder mystery involves sexually frustrated housewifeangie dickinsonher teenage sonkeith gordonher psychoanalystmichael caineand high price call girlnancy allenthe murderer film transsexual named bobbi one caines patientsthe film full breathtaking momentsthe infamous elevator murder scene extremely stylish pretty gory wellhighly recommended two cents strangeras title says two cents know depressed broken feel utterly worthless nobody loves cares yet despite still alive stared darkness abyss witnessed horrors lived yet despite still stand absolutely incredible mean realize kind strength takes something face nightmares unimaginable horror every single day choose keep pushing along situation right opt bet many others agree yet stand covered scars blisters wounds continuing march forward hope someday even isnt today realize amazing able fact alone even able bed morning testament strength seriously yall strength greater even worlds strongest person brilliant human live keep pushing im dang proud gosh dang wish absolute best hope day becomes even tad bit better keep amazing shining example stranger internet whats good way earnsave money high school say parttime job type part time job think good im planning ending soonno support long time super broke things shitty years getting worse made posts main account account gained considerable attention fir reasons dont want anyone know see kinds posts history im end rope soon ill checking know nobody care want somebody know recently moved new city away people know love nights days lonely almost feel life pointless point even slightest tasks something beat hours oh even started night time feel thoughts creeping sends spiral emotions ill spend night crying sometimes even find reason people tell need reach find new friends people connect even know start redflag makes much harder needing advice hey chavalesme presento soy un chaval de madrid espaay creado esta cuenta pues supongo que para desahogarme algo asi xd se apetecia hacerme esta cuenta v contaros mis cosas que la verdad son una mezcla entre suicidas graciosas xd say know documentaries mister rnek knew well made piece movie documentary disappointed history nerd saw hundreds documentary liked different approach workbr br director consultants historians veteran families tried access reality 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rejection aghhhhhhhh fuck fly pences head rlly stole show ask redflag depression mental illness much life able proper treatment local mental health clinic ways helped immensely able pure obsessional ocd control longer bad symptoms still definitely sometimes flares bit faded background noise part ways mental health significantly deteriorated mids completely lost self confidence gained time college found tribe got better art skills finish college drop due mental illness adhd trying freelance artist mostly living disability though able earn anything close living wage attempted without financial aid government living parents parents supported god knows probably homeless know happened college friend mine parents support artistic pursuits quit school kicked mental health bad shape several years now completely incapacitated comorbid disorders dealing severe social redflag agoraphobia body dysmorphic disorder well adhd autism spectrum disorder credflag parents drive everywhere driving 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lie though nobody knows inside dont think go longer one knows whats going mind actually knows whats wrong thing thats making slightly temporarily happy siblings food music cant happy dont even understand people live normally im far away normality im place mind cant imagine living future dont tools plan living literal torture thinking brain complete utter torture every day days numbered cant wait die finally time comes nothing righti weird fetishes hate ill never able rapper enjoy life gaming computer car learn draw house dont want grow feeling miserable thats whats gon na happen bc im lazy idiot cant swear guess im light dont anything towards goals fact thing sleep day play games cant even deal people social anxiety whatever wan na die cant solve anything life brain btw already go therapy take meds know even seatbelts people die time car crashes thought thay interesting want die thats things seem headingi want die want go want leave people care behind feel thats im headed feeling wake morning bed nice comfy maybe even bit sick tell want want go class want go work matter many times tell know eventually going needs done feel right now part taken inevitability waiting time find making lose plans part fighting back trying throw many safeguards suicidal part control find slipping messages help conversations nobody listens nobody comes help rational mind control find unconsciously making small preparations war head really tearing apart cant anything times liesit mechanically go whatever needs happen big career fair school week even manage go depression hit hard even though know need go need job next summer even make next summer im making positive change world existence hurts people good guy last week feel im attoning terrible things ive done know things cant change know hurt people future im writing someone sense control right now know thoughts including suicidal ones mine know much longer im trappedim trapped military im trapped life feel deep loneliness stomach desperately want connect someone want someone understand everything feels superficial feel always alone forever die im gripping feeling want pass im desperate loneliness overwhelm enough pushes end feeling feels real true anymore everything feels fake delusional feel sharing thoughts makes peoples life complicated burdens everyone thinks im fine im really looking answers cant fall asleep guys idk im bored sitting car im calgary canada guys girl ive crush years crush girl almost years recently weve talked months dated weeks almost ready relationship sad part arguing stuff pretty often text ff vibing hard everything going well soon happen said wants break sees friend things said still cant feel ive used talking another guy talking w even dating relationship broke w girl guess waited break go think tried make jealous somehow apologize english pls play among us im bored pls play among us im bored httpswwwtwitchtvgoosethecat lived wish didnti hospitalized short term crisis residential thing distractions life long enough every time remember pain hits fucking freight train im sent back exact place always find fucking dead shouldve fucking died cant live anymore cant handle dont want deal shit life one big cruel joke sitting parking lot wanting end allim really bad emotionally abusive relationship want leave cant guilt eating alive leave home cant think anything ive driving around trying entertain trying entertain eating disorder mostly think much pain hes caused manipulative hows never tried help im embarrassed admit people relationship failing even parents really want son law cant handle pressure anymore days fine act anything less perfect hell make fun panic attack two weeks got left didnt want deal want run car ramp im sure thatll kill completely dont want live anymore much doubt hating dont know anymore nothings fun anymore anything isnt fun friends always flake wont hang video games arent fun one play ive tried discord groups ill start nee life im fuck finally fully lifted lbs first time powerlifting basically competitive weightlifting competition today deadlifted new personal best feeling got worst first lockdown didnt sleep days thought work immensely late fell massive rut started self harm ive bever best sleeping awful affect ven now usually stay around ive type multiple times find writing far far much ive stuck dad outdated beliefs antivax mum said ahe never wanted see im predictably messaged month said trying bribe come back sick wasnt first time said kicked dad hand pretty muxh worse straight white male opposed race oit rut snaps fingers anyone form medication drug addict go hours fell behind work returning school soon fell behind ages ago trying catch pretty much never dad help eventually broke broke month self harm clean streak step mum freaked considered emailing teacher said hesitate email worries questions ask work really really worried thats now week ago teacher responded saying pretty much dont worry completely fine still cant shake feeling literally nothing really complain guess parents theres alot try think dont know thats anyway ive sorted things girlfriend happy ive sorted schoolwork ive started exercising frequently yet still feel uneasy whats wrong things going pretty well cant shake weight still really long cant even bothered shorten anymore anyone feeling tldr mean much better explained read things going pretty well comparison past yet cant shake feeling uneasiness weight pulling living kinda embarrassing want dig hole plunge parents let go friends houseim years old allowed go friends house min walk let go cause school days sunday hes cursing bad kid crying asking good reason cant go says cold going friends way way stay happy want kill hate much want stay house alone time living undignifiedby assuming role dysfunctional body vouching never viewed anything physical self part change attribute whole existence bodies conditioned believe entire consequently feel escapeto survive nightmare must become successful compromise want stoic assertive want kind charitable people walked entire lifeby living societyunited states contributing perpetuating system agree live part problemeventually become feeble useless trade best years sustain reach point convince struggle reward address cognitive dissonance wasting lives knowingly working towards deadendhow live life fully cognizant undue suffering inflicting spirit soul deserves better genuinely whats fking pointevery day suffering im lonely stupid pathetic whatever insults want throw go right ahead im already fucked today found something ive passionate complete waste time ruined im fucking devastated pour soul something wether thats someone love passion friend whatever crushes right front rips apart fuck many ways one insufferable rest maybe im making sense life make sense even know anymore guess ill die everything try feel better fails much shit continues turn sick become feeling want quit die want fucking die please fucking quit want die approaching wallhi never made post entirely sure start obsessive compulsive disorder mean wash hands constantly need make sure dishes clean compulsions entirely unique result many intrusive thoughts treatment form medications gone therapy many years help control issues deal intrusive thoughts made significant progress mostly successful battling past years especially intrusive thought usually distinguish others calm without needing engage rituals relief anxiety lately cant keep rituals become bad fact consuming hours day every day tried talking therapist sudden relapse rituals essentially told pass hump ive never anxiety badly life ive even developed several new rituals must complete morning without really realizing started thing though even seek additional help best therapy sessions possibly medication combat issue extremely tired lost several jobs issues find difficult keep relationships extremely distant family understand issue refuse admit real disorder engage people work anymore cant force smile hard even pretend give shit day day basis im thinking ending things another intrusive thought time im legitimately unhappy life feel writing essay intricate details things wrong know im afraid dying think im less afraid alive im making plans anything right now im safe location around friend least alright reason post want something terrible know ruminating cause thoughts jump actually legitimately scared condition talking waiting evicted cold apartment winter good time become homelessi guy early ies cat companion years died mum passed away quit job girlfriend broke used inheritance basically imprison apartment grew without father without siblings remaining relatives live different city mobile busy lives already used keeping touch took years relatives realize something wrong sent police apartment time already tested hook see support weight body police visit helped snap depression went see psychiatrist found female friend moved lead quite eventful life roommate decided return home country center life moving km away left devastated depression kicked full force barely left apartment several months plagued financial problems depression loneliness recently mustered courage see psychiatrist diagnosed mixed personality disorder depression started take sertraline zoloft us really seems affect brain chemistry positive way emotional impulsive anymore frequent depersonalization episodes ceased well might reached late behind rent yesterday landlord turned gas electricity apartment free psychotherapy starting next week might homeless country provides social safety net waited long apply financial help depressed paperwork done ashamed thought living welfare benefits application getting processed landlords patience might run able anything anyways taking meds went depressed shell man emotionless shell man lost stopped contacting college friends never graduated moved lives friends left females somewhat understand troubles girlfriend havent intimate woman years havent hugged anybody year worst future plans feel struggling survive every day idea find job support failed graduate college huge gaps resume barely work experience skills work stable friendships relationshipall things make human humani feel dead inside sometimes pondering kill bodily shell well thanks reading nice find somebody talk nobody share state mind hour kill zoom class bored want kill time sort film used weekly nowadays rare see drama depends cast talking otherbr br explosions car chases chasesthere implied sexual situationsthis film younger crowd appreciate people talking otherthey argue lot married couple mid life problemsbr br emily watson tom wilkinson seemingly happy middle aged loving man wife living small london suburb handsome rupert everett returns home visit wealthy fatherbr br course meets emily watson easy anyone smitten emily say except credits begin fatal accidentthe rest film repercussions accident lies various characters tellbr br acting trio others excellentbr br julien fellows wrote screenplay based novel nigel balchin directed first directorial attempt well entire production first ratebr br film month theatrical run late theatres shame stupid comedies open least screens real good drams many others open fewbr br way funny lines regarding certain situationsbr br ratings points imdb wasted potentialthrowaway things bad ive spent last days empty room contemplating pistol bought home protection reasons failing myselfmy mom dog want know growing moreabstract skip history im write goes ill tldr end ive therapy antidepressants alcoholism teenager real reason great childhood pony gods sake top class every year without even trying bored lonely terribly popular child used alone parents great kind people friends come advice support every teacher loved told wait see become well became year old stripper drinking problem went college tried study art bed whole semester failed went therapy got prozac tried got depressed failed got series physically emotionally abusive relationships smart tormented men attracted brokenness violence saw nice man understand bored things got darker rougher got hurt lot finally attempt distance moved across country tried start immediately hooked thought great guylong story short ended hospital covered stitches blowout fight car chase redflag attempt got mad quit dating started taking krav maga became known scary chick class year krav started stripping loved loved talking people loved dancing loved freedom money travel met great guy things looking cheated best friend back zero lost anger took bed ridiculous victorian flower months passed finally enough booked tickets exotic city fabulous vacation threw ring lying bastard given ocean met amazing women felt healed last night met man got talking turned city back home felt fate felt fucking soul mates sure drinking problem world long depressing story short years later left without word got phone call hearing week hed moved thousands miles away id thought dead guess appreciate call brings us now nearly two months two months ago talking marriage love life gone years pulling depressed ass mud bootstrapsi never works never lasts im attracted wrong things still well work literally thing gets bed go pretend someone listen problems men come go drink world little softer dread going work im dread going home anything offer anyone spend day night writing crying im emptied stare wall im exhausted enough sleep im sleeping easily hours day now plans ambitions cant excited travel always savior cant mad cant paint im getting much thin corner ive painted getting much small im old start dont even know long employment gap credit never graduated college acquaintances real friends im terribly uncomfortable talking emotions anyway last therapist went see told treat much liability want meds either make ragey lose memory even im misery id prefer remember im thinking guess trying commit psych ward hours least environment change know help im tired tldr lifetime bad choices energy ideas desire living days honestly getting painful really prefer die see another option thank listening think good reason end myselftrigger warning redflag throw away account im usually one post things publicly guess ill give laydown situation year ago depressive break dead end job left hospitalized unemployed ive decided move back home town order certified build websites reasoning gain skill valuable todays market addition current bfa potentially give chance employable financially independent signed community college forprofit schools predatory set healthy boundaries family felt making positive change future seemed things looking cut now yearold dead beat lives grandmothers basement rely father financial support whos job prospect internship graphic design studio lacks personal disciplineselforganizationplanning skills talk anything state fully aware cause misfortune result family suffer actions every time mess scratched grandmothers car garage sunblock stains mothers furniture etc go emotional break end hating days finally let go proceed forget everything learned mistakes inconsiderate peoples feelings often sidetracked work stops focusing work lack ambition discipline actually make actual lasting change life present tragic victim cruel world instead going truthful im asshole never learns live privileged life family despite screwing repetitively loves much accounts im lucky people worse realize im parasitic take never give back whenever try change go back square one funny thing rock bottom one time thing people hit progress constant loop repetitive failure inability learn past actions unwillingness change bad habits point realized good thing may contribute society well family end ideally go somewhere beautiful nationalstate park find isolated high place jump towards death become carrion whatever finds remains leave note family sating chose die instructing cremate remains found hold funeral want remembered anything might post might ignore next couple weeks might actually take initiative life end things know want make sure leave impact significantly harm someone understand killing detrimental familys emotional wellbeing long run better place worry take care someone reason making public mostly trying find place vent part wants think plan wrong want verification still matter feel telling therapist true extent plans land back psychiatric ward thus burdening medical debt issue dealing years now guess understand disappearing woods better alternative living parasitic lifestyle now tldr human parasite unable learn past mistakes realize harming everyone love going woods die better alternative putting people hell bruh already feel bad opening door refrigerator whenever someones call living room noise travel side dad screaming lungs even someone family zoom call bruh ive lost myselfdepression anxiety mental illness eating disorders adding ive suffered number issues ive always tried make things best loved ones problem things ive gone made quite easy exploit leaving emotionally abusive relationship recently chance reflect becoming much tried cutting wrists last night manage properly ive lost becoming father months let even see child much feel im drowning movie british tv last night wonderful strong women great music time makes think stereotypes older people fantastic cameos sensible worried children getting near best movie everything going still isnt enoughthe guilt immeasurable great career amazing wife pets love unconditionally still think killing every single day havent dont know will living pain every day burying getting much dont know wake morning first thought want dieyou want die eat want die try sleep want die work want die exercise want die shower want die phone sure sometimes focused present forget im moment obviously soon enough though comes wonder every night next morning thought stop coming magic course moment wake thought pops head daily ritual current situation hard thing thats hard cant thoughts come true either thoughts action thoughts gone tried twice already didnt work wasnt able dont know afraid suffocated several minutes maybe gunshot easier country thats possible im sick therapy im sick tests took last years im sick talking strangers encounter job life boring used gaming used technology dont stuff anymore dont interest anymore reason ive done things know current merely remnant past used curious nothing really intrigues anymore miss old past self hes gone now im tired tired living people hungry dont eat long enough want die ive lived long without pauses wish easy eating hey guy noticed noticed headache drugs arent helping guess ill die ifwhat severe case social phobia strong lifelong depression ask help ive wanting help years now cant go doctor im years old closest thing ive come getting help mom went doctor doctor said prescribe anything talked cant even leave house ive lost touch pretty much friends found depression suggestions literally see one option thought freed comfortingim going fly free soon know know soon ampxb cant wait im going free place im really excited going vacation nervous excited time want spread wings fly away finally see light ascend belong cant wait moment ill miss friends family know itll better long run im going fly free nobody stop cypher cleverly conceived story industrial espionage set america distant future thematically complex film offer many different perspectives personal loyalty ruthlessness corporate conspiracy certain extent film attempts represent modern corporate groups companies indifferent risks contract employees take behalfbr br film starts somewhat mediocre salary man morgan sullivan jeremy northam applies digicorp group work undercover operative initial briefing digicorps security chief sullivan given new identity jack thursby sent business conference task recording speeches given various spokesmen concerning marketing strategies respective companies upon successfully completing first assignment sullivanthursby sent missions obtain type information previously gathered one business trips inadvertently runs woman named rita foster liu met previous assignment things go extremely topsyturvy implications diabolical conspiracy involving digicorps espionage program begin emerge sullivan forced go deep cover one digicorps main competitors thus becoming double agent involved intense rivalry two companiesbr br spoilers end herebr br liked film efficient use lighting shadows lot scenes vivid lighting used mainly domestichousehold settings lot shadows dark coloring used settings involving deception coverup impressed jeremy northam often seen lead role fact plays disenchanted married man straight wisconsin brilliant personally think hes one many used actors industry given challenging roles lucy liu incredible part gave movie real cloakanddagger tone additionally rest supporting cast superb job complaint characters explored make plot closure little complicated example loved see happened jack thursby developed intimate relationship second wife overall cleverly developed cloakanddagger story keeps guessing end personal professional loyalties whether anyone entire film trusted smart stylish soundtrack great camera work film provides scary look corporations might operate near future im surprised never watched hidden gem brilliant nottoooverly complicated spy thriller im giving people make want kill look guy insults women refuse send nudes ampxb dont think fair seen creepy monster rapes murders etc im lonely even leave room anymore leave work go home dont energy go date someone never killed anyone raped wife beater ampxb snap long time ago suffered school bullying home absent mother stern father vibe weirdness say look totally creepy souless eyes souless smile creepy really mean really something menacing makes run life average unnatractive guy see street pic reddit ampxb im sick labeled something sick living want end might well give shotim freshman high school boys ive got depression anxiety occasional suicidal thoughts time feel empty husk former self im talking counselor rarely ill feel motivated ill everyday things pride gusto know hat ill come high cut drink smoke drugs want avoid cutting means necessary im huge procrastinator hate give emotions validity feel im making excuse know im young often sell short mental illnesses feel problems real depression editgrammar daily basisibe suicidal thoughts every day im years old dont know without thoughts feelings theyre head often feel big part personality every day feel slipping closer making thoughts reality thing thats stopping knowing happen pretty boy im pretty boy livin west side livin loud never hear cry nah see tears run eyes oh hills burn bright burn bright oh hills bring life bring life oh hills baby oh hills baby mm live prison depression kill want hurt anyone family live torn apart even anyone talk deep sorrow someone talk meim lonely wan na talk give people advice cant follow years ive extreme perfectionist ive borderline mental breakdowns class never finish homework never good enough always strive obtain straight personalitywise im always striving perfect eyes everyone meet say something semiwrong friend enter state selfloathing rest day believing relationship must dont think competently judge based appearance time im convinced look acceptable theres always little voice mind saying one attracted never girlfriend even though friends tell look good ive always enjoyed drawing im thoroughly discouraged new friends much better enjoy minipainting never produce model looks good enough hell months ive painting warhammer havent able paint one im ok advice dear reader give advice follow listen advice im still dealing issues im experienced subject enough state indisputable fact perfection fucking stupid unobtainable striving bring pain may think youre good enough something look shit reality fucked illusion great smart beautiful take perfectionist never satisfied matter amazing may doubt know incredible eyes others matter think great day ask crush phone number andor social media ive crush years actually friends doesnt talk prayerfor years prayed strength keep going pray strength end every day one day less cant keep justifying existencei really know put putting effort seems little contradictory im gaining traction anymore cant find job even getting fucked dollars hour seem life changing move im fucking ready think least times day ive already called party supply store helium tank irony lost nothing seems matter change anything longer sit trying scrape together choices less find scrape together every morning one day less im running clock cant keep im wasting everyones time money mind years now wanted end life mine notredflag years end take pain anymore country far away family want go back family failed every single way scared alone want pain stop tried look many pro suicide forums find sit alone friend life losing love life need life end want end take pain fault ending life peace long time red sox fan go see movie great never enough live footage miracle red sox season great shots favorite red sox players movie certainly chick flick enough baseball footage amazing red sox comeback make one top movies time especially enjoyed red sox fans part bens baseball family scene ben meeting buddies draft day determine seats certain games hilarious must see looking wholesome movie watch spouse date significant otherespecially baseball fanand even especially red sox fan guys believe afterlifepersonally im going commit redflag notion eternal nothingness awaits always fun romanticize conscious existence death ive watching dmt videos basically chemical exists inside living things stuff thats released dream prominently occurs right death cases called spirit molecule smoke conscious mind gets transported alternate dimension bunch crazy colorful shit goes forever along bizarre entities patterns feelings immense love fear ascension etc anyways existence becomes never ending spiral amazing psychotic eternity guys believe sort afterlife theory guys even want cant deal thisi lot family issues really want go live mom bad history dad dont want talk moved utah really dont never agreed said multiple times dont wan na go visit moms house month go reaching end really sad pain love mom brother sister stepdad ones really care make feel something worth living left im feel nothing matters anymore keep seeings things remind moms house fun times lot pain nobody understands made deal move eventually long time dont really trust dont motivation anymore nobody helps never try find solution arent want move back know matter nobody understands bad feel know stupid reason post people way worse problems im going feel hard time seeking helpits several years psychiatrist last wasnt good experience back parents decision im mid s ive wanted kill remember struggle getting hard remember wanted go seek help something simply stopping maybe fear judged fear failure something im sure whats wrong even smallest things completely crush emotionally today spent several hours laying floor cuddled together friends seek help tldr cant pull together help convinced troubling time seeking someone talk gets worse preventative measureslong story short ass girlfriend dumped friends really want back relationship cant sleep dont appetite ive lost lot motivation feel im falling apart months ago happened dating year thought one day married children bright futures college work slipping first semester intentionally failed english advanced college rhetoric order grade replace thinking nothing failed college algebra im dumb top high school texas motivation work scaring feel ill never accomplish goals current gpa ill never law school im losing friends dont necessarily best social skills branch meet new people drink go sleep rarely work im heavily addicted nicotine cant juul go pod day pod pack cigs im afraid going catch hit feel much happier someone talk miss ex much want back perfect match completely fucked everything took car payment adding stress took relationship destroyed everything mention wrecked truck weeks ago perfect representation truck affected life complete wreck really need someone talk isnt going tired wont tell cut life move need someone understands everything fall apart know begin feeling better makes easier christian dont feel god side want put end feelings evolve something worse family history clinical depression tldr life falling apart im trying feel better preventative measures reaches point return people know say weakness animated filmsbr br fair people half right actual weakness exceptionally welldone animated films vintage family flick max david fleischerbr br may thinking well great heard fair question movie released week attacks pearl harbor unavoidably bad timing caused film sink relative obscurity things looking though finally released dvd title bugvillebr br funny film went kind mirrors actual plot although people claim movie trying send environmental message ugh personally think movies main idea perseverance adversity hard times country barely pulled depression timebr br grasshopper hero hoppity desperately wants help endangered community problem time tries whether illwill others simple bad luck fails miserablyand slowly begins earn disdain people hes trying save although best maintain notredflag outlook occasionally breaks encouragement support friends gets back feet fights good fight healthy reminder said done one really selfsufficientbr br okay saying good message two actually really make exceptionally welldone br br answer partiallybr br message makes movie special characterization one films see personality cast member animation almost even need spoken lines good way sum energetic lively lot movies used selling point lovable cast characters whenever hear line always makes think moviebr br case point bad guys swat fly smack mosquito many movies lovable villains think find entertaining endearing fellows 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audience wondering whether invite close relatives come watch main thing meme use sheher pronouns go celeste hope yall still love stp turning cuties mme cn acknowledge bad move please guys cringe maybe insensitive creeps sub yo man ask dick pics made joke post saying pp hard said hes jacking right looked one photos posted wtf whales rejected evolution returned fish whale return fish know whats wrong need help desire kill often moments seems viable desirable option preface let say always strange self esteem issue friends family self esteem high truly hate human often go self hate benders last night long involve compiling reasons care hate ass death positive thing worst part reason upset reason hate bad rather persistent bullies elementary school even remember well guess started believe time became part time fine love life love everything one percent hate point think benefit end existence tonight girlfriend long discussion said bipolar currently studying psychology first year college idea weather true girlfriend amazing person life says self hate hurting loves much makes hate question need professional help think male helps thanks advance read rules posting clarify want know fine people think need psychiatric help edit forgot mention something important self hate benders usually beat loving shit blame tripping something stupid one time sibling mentioned weight issue im even fat slightly weight went self hate mode carved word fat onto stomach knife hate university life friends feel steadily depressedi feel lonely feel empty stopped exercises thought killing becomes wish ive talking people say im overreacting stopped taking serotoninregulating pills solve problem lost friends cant seem make ones life shit im gay makes even harder one question kill tomorrow pay rent im evicted sure struggle thisso jealous people seem life without much struggle strife entire life suffering everything difficult family significant passions hard time thinking take easy way wouldnt make special 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waiting bring dont want die depressed feels nothing better nd everyone hates nd never right words say imnot equipped nd causing much stress love much nd wan na help way feel small nd powerless want things better deserves world played simlike games becauseid family someday think redflag stop happening obviously ive download virtual family game phone kids third generation people now die happy closest married family know know feeling gnawing telling ill never live longer one day ill take death hands hopefully ill brave enough one day okay im going disagree past comments criticized show happen think show awesome mean jasmin weber still franzi still alive addicting surprised learn categorized soap carry look feel soaps america soaps absolutely horrific least gzsz films location features real music plausible story lines moreover acting gzsz part quite believable especially josephine schmidt felix jascheroff plus soap actors hardest workers around business demanding work schedules ratings 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period mid april early june things still shit mom still dying still felt loadssssss better hit rock bottom leave house much see friends developed social redflag know make better tips handle depression stuck home appreciated tips please riding giants amazing movie really shows people lived back surf lives basically surfing living breathing fun care money jobs girls thing waves girls never surf board looks hard understand stay makes sense awesome movie love surfing really see movie surfer want find started surfing came life really famous really see might documentary really good tara f always bad depression redflag issues today seeing hearing things much things volume existence cranked db better curl bed eyes shut able actually fall asleep either anyone experience always gotten really overwhelmed nothing first time life felt stimulated awake yo someone help essay racism although greg peter mean jin dont think racist racism occurs usually one person thinks superior another due race dont think case example greg called jin bucktooth said stay away dog regard superior way although greg said demeaning way clear greg cultural misunderstanding chinese people learned mom chinese people eat dogs greg called jin bucktooth clearly playground insult commenting appearance even though wasnt racism gregs words still mean considered bullying definition hey hey youre swagger dagger weigh muchnot exactly time sensitive post weighed ages shame incredible fake til make last ditch effort failed want anymoretherapy meds exercise cbt moving new hobby new friends eating properly sleeping properly finally pretending happy convince failed ive tried nothing actually fixes anything problem cant sit thinking dog fucking street artist guy cant fucking deal alone cant sit sidelines watching people live lives im fucking using oxygen everything fucking working gone never happen let im going waste fucking energy seeking know ill never ive gone gotten situation someone depends rent money id fucking 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adaptation money pit drop favorite albums comments im trying listen rate new album every day need recommendations country metal probably wont listen though heres ive already done far rap songs earl sweatshirt forest hills drive j cole miseducation lauryn hill ms lauryn hill mmfood mf doom emma forever ago bon iver undun roots internet childish gambino thought id ask crush today long ago struggled breathe nearly collapsed light headedness going assume wont asking today recently thoughts death even though great life many friends great parents stable family good income etc school taking toll putting redflag parents want die school kind want live pressure adult life see idea want future redflaging people around already started career paths way afraid commit suicide yesterday without questioning thought car ran lightning struck something died grow deal bullshit hate school much everyday drag bed commit class fr hours day mostly people teachers despise said idk root thoughts life always great fuck wrong thoughts suicide even though great life slide dm guy m really social people never life slid instagram dm every girl ive met mostly met common friend b wingman c drunk going group girls never slid dm kind anxious say start conversation talk must play something contrarian reviews ab tak chappan extremely notredflag mine notredflag slightly equivalent c letter grade mebr br seems lot praise rooted two factors one ab tak chappan realistic typical bollywood film two trying things differentlybr br first point care less im looking realism films score higher film shows story characters closer believe real world beim big fan surrealism fantasy absurdism although dislike realist films merely fact theyre realistbr br second point agree commendable try things differently think originality versus formulaicism makes better worse film film original poor film formulaic excellent matters well film whatever sets enjoyable aesthetically rewarding viewerbr br ab tak chappan based true story mumbai cop named daya naik naik encounter specialist encounter specialists said early instantiations real world judge dredds trained operate criminals gang members pursue theyre basically given license killeffectively acting policeman judge jury executioner matter moments ab tak chappan follows story sadhu agashe nana patekar encounter specialist based naik see work interacting fellow encounter specialists engaging violence see home trying live normal life lessthanluxurious surroundings see trying adjust new commissioner halfway film see odd relationship notorious indian gangster zameer zafar prasad purandharebr br potential make fabulous gritty film agree nice forgo typical bollywood musical numbers romancesnot every film needs stuff ab tak chappan producer ram gopal varma famous leaving music romances background wayside many films hes directed produced additionally ab tak chappan good performancespatekar almost gives death wish era charles bronson vibe admirable cinematographythe handheld stuff near beginning film particularly effective example great score mixes moody hollywoodsounding actioncrime score traditional indian instruments modalities violence well done grittybr br decent exploration subtexts including morality encounter specialists idea following orders encounter specialists shown largely divorce ideas right wrong poignantly film questions merit blindly following orders parallels drawn encounter specialists following orders say members countrys military shown corrupt situation lead tobr br knew coming director shimit amin scriptwriters created story far many characters far much sprawl moves bit slow problems may due amin crew looking godfather films ab tak chappan least superficial resemblances although policemans perspectivebr br encounter specialists know wellthese shallowly drawn characters say least except agashe jatin shukla nakul vaid one narayan know least halfway film name mentioned number times id glimpses scene change everyone change clothes time appear id start figuring narayan wasbr br thing happened agashes first commissioner film already far new commissioner figure relationships seems new characters every scene never learn stories might artistic merit encounter specialists mostly killing people know anything theyre mostly orders learn much encounter specialists either difficult find characters care exactly make gripping filmbr br primary villain zameer halfway film theres indication much screen time villains parading film hes literally phoning performance inhes another location dubai communicating telephone majority film actually see zameer much extent film depends couple twists necessitate showing zameer number things see things lot villains left outbr br tightened film bit making focused halfhour shorter benefited impact actionpacked film means least first minutes found admiring ab tak chappans considerable style saying okay story already im really bored ask questions anything might answer idk hate free speech hate someone walk ass total vine energy take theyre protected law two thumbs gon na fail science guy many family problems living situation problem know anymore many sad thoughts hating life wishing endwhile said never end life much hating life wish end know anymore unhappy life awake scam im even paid pain every day wtf nearing endrecently realised really truly one say one mean one talk boyfriend hes greatest places mentally tries stay strong fear telling thoughts set knows happens head atleast basics think saying loud ruin stuck nearing end bro heat thing hot seriously got mad ice wizard said use ice magic cool yeah okay permafrost us talented bitch keep thinking lowest gets worsethings getting worse worse cant anything cant stop concentrating bad feel point anymor nothing look forward interest everything hs dwindled nothing severed ties friends parents probably hate inconsiderate lately cant stop selfish think fuck everything horrible life ive drug binge days feel nothing anymore care need parents house sooner rather latermy dad wont stop calling faggot starting really break downhe gas lights daily basis insults puts constantly mom care oh yeah brother calls faggot job nobody hire meive trying job year now friends place go money completely utterly dependent parentsits fault know im stuck least hope getting guaranteed kill annoying tell annoying sounds kind silly whenever something example spreading butter bread black see stabbing butter knive froze second really noti got offer business academy independent scared worried able adjust new people environment well years meeting new people conversationsits literally next month scared hate much even worse suicidal thoughts maybe even going away parents everyone know scared accidentally kill deal boredom daydream sometimes play last us multiplayer planetside fucking hate sooo much terrible person mess everything wish everything stop enough christmas year walked school saw neighbor put christmas lights thankfully whole village got school girl playing want christmas norway bad us malls first time ive heard year remember annoying welllllllllllllllpyo names josh suicidal fuck dunno maybe need say something think daily hourly jesus need help haha though dunno maybe im lazy something fucking hate enjoy life love friends family everything fucking hate think im bad person hate world enjoy everything thats interesting im interesting blah blah blah whiney stuff whiney stuff depression hate love living hate planet universe people love everyone around love make friends fucking hate people one wants thing anymore want never work towards work towards guess say thats hate ive bunched withwell everyone sit everyday hard wake leave bed anything life job love never fucking go next day fucking hate cant help anyone tried always know started bad backgroundi justfucking suck wan na sit car garage let ride yknow fall asleep tunes promised best friends kill cant promised literally thing stopping even promise time three us kill literally jolt awake sat car long wanted know wanted die day hard know know im fucking talking anymore telling whats fucking point im going fucking read anyways pointless joshua swarb want go outd wan na go outside know im bored truth dare got gf title somehow correct well girl bestfriend go caught feelings yet never told scared friends friend group played truth dare somehow got question feelings someone game avoiding question came back later learned true feelings shy awkward around share feelings around talk idea see going smoothly lol anyone available talkim edge school really sucking dick ahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaha gottem know benzodiazepines alcohol trick sure enough mg ativan pint vodka enough cant take anymorecan someone please tell fastest painless successful way kill hanging probably really hard accomplish guns illegal drowning sounds unpleasant please tell end fucking life already browsing posters room came across poster size reasons brain translated dicks dicks shits still funny lmfao hospitalive put psych ward youth hospital think minute im killing know im gon na say genuinely really oatmeal rasin cookies sometimes wish id never born allhello everyone late night life went downhill struggling heavy depression year ago absolute nightmare worst time life thought got im much stable now turns wrong afraid coming back feeling yet feel ashamed pitiful writing really cant keep inside much longer theres nothing keeping anymore find happiness anything tried ive tried see positives ive tried help people close ive tried keep mind busy failed time education perspective future ill one remembered ill probably die nobody ive cutted myslef everyone strength write things led painful point wish quick death know ill never commit redflag im scared enough courage im hopeless strength anything energy inside im waking every morning asking still whats point living thati hate past people suffered actions especially person cared cant change ive done wish disappear die disappear thanks giving timeand sorry grammar mistakes english first language nice day depressedif im suicidal mean im depressed know im suicidal dont know im depressed maybe thats part trying downplay problems actual question two things noticed film spoiler mistake storytelling cole takes bill first finds box soon cole finds says box everyones got box minute later dumps contents floor says actually fortunate see oftenbr br observation spoiler alertbr br watch thing three times figure couple things watched chronological version saw flash backs latter previous time changes points actually watching three different times min wall timebr br good thing know many times watch returning netflixbr br color obsessive watching please kill sleepthx one care haha heres joke meno one cares even idk one probably even reads hell happening dont know bothers trust anyone dont energy persist push friendships one puts effort stupid feel drive every conversation tiring stop dont even try left friend groups week even notice vent people say care shut fuck met seconds ago stop lying piece shit making feel weird saying one cares one feel ok one caring bothers much cant tell whats wrong shit keeps falling apart feels destined kill tbh everything life something leads makes happy feel ok fucking crashes every fucking thing follows pattern control always happens things control makes worse fuck supposed whoevers reading doesnt care whatever man one cares n n e mental issues cant doc literal hell solving issues ask people hold put days figure things one dont care leave cant say anything respecting boundaries fuck wrong cant tell shitty personality dont even know dont know try nice bad timing im miserable hell right suicidal strong urge ive looking ways bit thing keeping alive million thoughts happens ideas thoughts death driven anxiety honestly wearing might sometime later impulsively n n e c e random person online dont care say care seconds disappear thats caring fuck even know died tomorrow even affect people know say haha gasp nice guy seconds go posting cringe memes stories dont think theyll care bec theyd check breathing almost dying brain issues sad people putting effort put effort theyll probably tell im manipulative im guilt tripping owe nothing leave fuck yeah dont owe anything dont conveniently leave im going rough patch man actual fuck wrong people dont even ask therapist ask hang talk help distract apparently much time people need help come haha nice youre ok hope help thing stop ranting fingers hurt typing tell something wrong inherently personality bug spray im stuck loop bad timing events dont know man might even overlooking people care dont know im huge urge id ok probably help therpist process fucking traumatic past emotional abuse better maybe solve issues mine thanks dumb fucking reaons cant talk publicly cant doc seek help yet cant find fuck fuck everyone left conveniently little hard deal apologized many times fuck asshole wouldnt affect anyone fuck people im one caring want end pain caused disorders hurts lot fuck everyone everything haha cherry top im lgbt orthodox fucking family theres lmaoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cant stop laughing yes mental breakdown dontk kms im scared im going parents need rant im scared ive realizing lately toxic parents much messed theyre verbal abuse physically abusive opinions beliefs listened im allowed practice believe make feel everythings fault im scared im going older kids already feel im toxic towards friends mess someone theyre messing right now want make someone feel make feel try hard help friends know im constantly pulling making everyone unhappy future family feel present already want around mess already know probably kind jumbled maybe make much sense needed thanks listening rant eating burgerlately things hard working job dont hobbies going way think dont even enjoy hanging wife friends see facade put wan na sleep ate lunch today thought note look leave one want stop cant tell anyone see anyone walls closing im sorry everyone sorryi really hope dont mean im tired offbeat slowpaced entertaining erotic thriller many graphic blasphemous scenes undoubtedly disturb viewers itll hard even appreciate several imaginative sequences film contains ignore krabbes firstrate performance verhoeven maintains intriguing ambivalence throughout film playing meaning heros visionsomens unfortunately last minutes everything turns blur unsatisfying ending certainly good rest movie working right nowive posted different account deleted thought felt better im struggling pills self harm ive tried making positive changes nothing sticks bottom heart dont feel going better im married incredible person deserves nothing best struggling self worth feel lack every single way tell want phase cant believe keep thinking got ta day every day point worth anymore im strugglingim atheist living muslim community anything hate another reason yet want end one lost best friends love litteraly absent family left every day feel lonely even sad day im avoid suicidal thought cant help temptation going think dying everyday afraid hurting physically scared thought painful give fuck anymore want end br br ok film going win awards pure bubblegum modern update wonderful life come cheap release dvd lot worse ways blowing film surprisingly strong cast still year two becoming b list celebs enjoyable way passing hour half think much sitting next cliff right nowim feeling pretty shitty right now writing cellphone parents huge argument divorce brother left house went separate ways went trail go walk im cliff ocean think theres anything death good friends feel im anymore im sure typing proof know waste everything itd hurt lot people kind want everyone realize maybe death actually make parents better people dad nicer brother really want die well dying sucks im really sure go doubt ill seems plausible right now time runs outit decided given years mess make gon na hell atleast sister old enough understand see living life majority plain suffering let enjoy living live guess everyone meant live happily personally enjoyed cut thouroughly first time ive seen theatrically release australian slasher flick genre normally restricted mainstream hollywood filmsbr br usual cooky comedies dramas coming australia loved able see homegrown horror movie rip anything even think really spoof movies supernaturally theme horror nightmare elm street scream know last summer suspension disbelief think time australian films tried mainstream genresbr br cut original scary enough ultimately bit fun id give seven ten treat anything serious expected entertain scare enough times satisfying enjoyed isnt weird crave something youve never ive never relationship yet wishing someone next vampires exist dont make fun im playing episode really hot vampire want one rlly bad whos interested joining new discord server started members wan na make grow server teens hang around lem know interested im itim going gun local gun store im gon na go side lake pond near house cant take living mind cant take sleeping awake anymore want mind cant mind noone exists mind nobody cares im bitter dance loneliness fading space love never love cant love ive always alone ive never met anyone cant mind mind cant anything mind stuck infinite pattern dont want mind rid mind mind isnt fit reality exist nobody even knew im gone nothing never anything mind cant mind feel cant anymore attempts past obviously survived tired take group weeks sitting park bench thinking end life straight life situations cant survive spent entire first years abused escaped tried make new life turns quite work met someone thought safe obviously take away mental health stuff helps turns angry aggressive understand stuff use make feel even worthless friends reach reach times welcome never graduated university shit job illegal job hate provides shit apartment abusive bf drowning debt cant pay back cant crawl back home hope change afraid fucking redflag attempt making things worse succeeding think im done razor home calling im scared live im scared dieim twelve years old rn want tell guys something started high school last year yr im yr now corona sucks wby guys started bullied even high school primary schoolit started thisical remember spell grammar police help asked parents let move another school avail refused felt embarrassed show emotions public awhile happens even now trying hide bad emotions eg sad know still feel feel killing year later bad now dad going kitten wish luck faze dont point awards mean someones post wouldnt better give actual money something already reddit premium im posting arent posts youre gay committed psychiatric hold redflag watch happenedi know scared killing scared happen aak help committed psychiatric hospital mostly really know happens hospitalized even hours whatever notion nothing afterwards necessarily good experience whats horrible screw life wish happened glad frick penis hole supremacists okay ive peeing years slightly pulling waistband popping cock take piss big deal right well let tell cockhole supremacists ruining everything pretend wiggling penis maze hole front underwear somehow effective false need penis hole underwear even included newer underwear brands live dinosaurs paleolithic era big strong men need penis hole reading ask reddit people use penis hole think people drop pants way ground pee real men dignity never happen surely people peed wearing gym shorts frequently flys pee pants around ankles simply put easier flop massive incher top waistband weave penis maze penis hole use penis hole anything pathetic useless closethegap declaring today start penis hole war must shame anyone everyone unironically uses penis hole pee anything wearing formal attire even still mock regardless obsession saying uwu loud uwu call virgin alabama orphan miss things live fori miss enjoying life miss hobbies take mind pain cant take pleasure anything except sleep wish courage take permanent sleep life devoid meaning tell try something new ive spent plenty time nature ive tried play music ive tried sportsexercise ive tried art sex means nothing someone love dropped school future filled anything mediocrity existential anguish ennui gon na send awesome video cant send videos gon na awesome fuck imma say kamala harris kinda bad tho spend money ending itsay youve gone youve reached point life nothing bring back happiness youve youve already decided amount pain youre go decide end higher pain youve endured losing happiness money saved bank youve never used busy saving keeping secret biggest emergency lets say worth months worth comfortable rent spend sports movies come past movie similar respects based fact sets movie apart rugby team sport many americans familiar set aside movie rewarding piece film noir reminds marshall smaller budget independent movie feel fine effort director ryan little bring us story rebellious teen played sean farris never back rick penning finds odd place field despite plot lines holes film heart rewarding viewers good characters identify good performances supporting actors gary cole coach larry gelwix neal mcdonough coach penningricks dad felt go lot different emotions watching movie end left feeling faith mankind hope future children especially coaches gelwix insanely lonely thought keeping meaningful relationships seems much workyall sad bc genuine friends hang friends always put better friends first never say anything know wont able enough energy hang anyways wan na drop everyone dont worry keeping meaningless friendships remember crave social interaction times sit uncomfortable loneliness wishing closer people moreso wishing need socializing finally feel peace ok guys lets real love god spend money reddit coins holy shit outside rn saw someone fucking buy reddit coins amd kdifididididkdjdjebe wlaosidmekepeodjdnfncicockxnsmqw want end im autistic im toxic element common failed relationships high school exclassmates still talk make jokes fun parents abusive stalk abuse adhd im trans body far changed pass surgeries change im post high school education one believes parents abuse cant keep job born ugly medical problems cant attend cant afford want end im donetomorrows birthday im gon na kill cant take longer movie great starts real slow boring movie progresseswell fun keeps coming power movie perhaps subtle references lot mean lot movies best part perhaps bruce leecrouching tiger hidden dragon scene two actors switches french chinese whatever asian language awesome jokes names hilarious perhaps understand american offense overall great movie series premiered cable tv station comedy central united states chopped death shown sequence sad audience attracted fell wayside luckily time cable company went digital got bbc thank goodness got see league gentlemen order complete uncut br br league gentlemen troupe right englands monty pythons flying circus canadas kids hall buta warningbr br league gentlemen though one step beyond dressing drag lampooning cultural ills goes deeper much much darker tell many offend certain groups people enrage others remember comedydark dark comedy thing watch think know dark comedy watch angry upset quite know dark comedy br br guys got right right button brilliant excellent enjoyed every character creation theres complete story told episode one end watch one episode time willy nilly one charms series watch order see creative stylish deeply disturbed guys one nothing bounds dears dark humor bravo people need car understand people cars people thats useless probably drive reason reviewing previous review written someone walked film even half way unfortunately missed film tremendous beauty agreed film slow start fact friend fell asleep brieflyi woke snoring disturbed rest audience thankfully film developed story love drugs young free experimental s fantastic performances two leads great look film gave real authentic feel patient many great films well worth wait certainly film look forward revisiting absolute redflag methodcurrently recovery failed redflag attempt want fail next time sure behaviour suicidal fueled anxietyi make brief possible anxiety issues approximately bullied first time attended school guess never really got agoraphobia distrust peoples motives tried ssris led redflag attempt lack ability orgasm taking beta blockers nothing cbt grown man pony tail tell breathe differently nothing home parents leave house allure well paid day work self employed typically coax house booking lucrative end result even afford glasses cant partake hobbies freely longer money earn spent transient happiness try make things feel better gone seconds belittled family despite repetitive attempts years granted maybe every year two really look sad type part explain feel know function better top causes anxiety well much causes things affected always looming anxiousness asked doctor give weeks benzos try clear backlog responsibility declined commented cant referred cbt missed appointment ignored request receive phonecall nervous open mail doctor told explained paid taxes years pure inability contact handle im sure handle late yet another year later tried phone helplines someone contact agencies place apparently sectioned order assigned advocate going disability ha cracked told fit work defend tribunal order continue yeah ok someone anxiety issues definitely going opt happy trapped fantasise redflag last months noticed difficulty swallowing increased lethargy past days spent bed feeling weak head pounding way familiar yet seeking medical attention weird even situation seek help maybe post seeking help rationally though see nothing value gain posting want feel chronicled remote event seriously ill sure giving anxious go outside scared things getting worse uncomfortable beyond really care need talkim years old toying thought redflag months now need talk together years turned th entire life perfect hold onto tell loves many plans future sudden reveals said still loves make work confused want nothing love says still make work worth another attempt know need work three years seriously know going stay alive one talk things option available hurts badly know going live strung along somewhat simple thought instead samurai mastering blade mastered gun basically im thinking feudal japan musket gunpowder introduced instead samurai trained way blade instead learn use muskets point basically sniper masters japan become full gun slinging samurai ronan yeah weapon trickle lower levels soldiers dont skill mastery men trained birth use weapon rifles beautiful masterfully made engraved finest engravings common houses hand generation generation men hit flying dove least meters guns long rang rifles carry blunderbusses multiple pistols something friends thought last night wanted share world think anything add go ahead love idea quick questionim gon na kill cut myselfalthough anything find thought coming back constantly school work job rest life ill live retirement home ten years die special theyre goal life im pretty much watching world die phone sorry grammar ii think life going better getting worse better half years honestly think take much think ending every day halfformed plans head nothing note anything gets harder every day stop im m im still im turning months still im throughout whole life hit puberty year ago think growth spurt already passed women date im tall hell im way average bright side see called cute thats height people take seriously made fun women see man im failure man add cant even socialize properly im skinny athletic shit beat karate tournaments due large height weight difference lack intelligence cant high grades fail lot height evident everything cry easily give easily used try hard pace others ahead surpass fail anyway something always stop unsociable lose patience easily cried month called girl cute whole class girls blocked height thought weird creepy people told blocked im joking people blocked im extremely pathetic world hates lack every talent skill universe give shits hard try ill always fail one likes ill never girlfriend ill never taken seriously ill never person want ill always failure man gets better fo reali attempted redflag believed life meaningless point going living dealt suicidal ideation selfharm quite point know sucks hear people say gets better hell im pretty sick life continues hard always challenges always times feel theres way fewer every day goes really really really hate say better starts better gets better talk someone post open people really really want help seems already taken one step towards things getting better gets better seek professional help easy seeing counsellor tough first started going lady named mrs peacock real peacock fuck told feeling suicidal somehow landed suffering light sensitivity syndrome helpful next guy went redflag attempt amazing old dude talk anything regardless whether related recovery talked music sports whatever fuck wanted thats kind professional help beneficial opinion kind go work feel need work vent need vent talk eddie vedder hour im trying say shop around gets better feel awake wake lowest point refuse bed walking hazy shit go school skip play games computers smoke seeing good counsellor refuse bed still skip class though even longer refuse bed actually go class occasionally dip smoke though cigrits tricky little fuckers gets better start smile fake ass shit say hi cousins friends kind smile comes nowhere kind fuck brain im smiling see teeth see fucking teeth depressed grey matter motherfucker fuck yeah gets better stop caring look hang parents think people school think gets better feel make progress counsellor gets better listen depressing music feel happy know able kick shit depression anxiety case wondering already done pretty awesome stuff wiped ass one point thats shit bad ass idea close hands shit wipe learned ride bike fuck shit im using wheels feet feet pussies remember time jacked parents catch stealthy shit learned tie shoes laces tangled shit bitch bam rabbit ears lost teeth pieces head fell man pieces head importantly came subreddit means safe loving community full people whove want help tldr know amazing love every single thing want give lifei gay jobless single moved india states hoping give fresh start rather tumultuous childhood teenage years trying identify pushing fit among people dismissed different among muslim family know gay jobless today foreign land surviving last couple dollars keep getting rejected job interviews record masters electrical engineering something passionate hoping switch careers gained grounding us nothing sort happened life pushed back darkness yet dont feel going back home failed parents everyone hoped make big never happened feel corpse starting rot one talk feel lonely shit try pushing hope things dont seem happening want give rest drained mentally physically giving option see reason u check guitar song im beginner im quite proud please check give feedback great first draft btw songhttpssoundcloudcomusermatthewsacousticprojectrefclipboardamppaampc parents thoughts lgbt know think course feel mom crazy homophobic idea men women dating remember saying stuff mean think man woman thats right never completely hating lgbt something im surprised considering shes christian haha idk anymorei really cant anymore life going downhill literally wan na die time now friends family stresses much want happy want good grades want skinny want actual friends count miss people god getting bad never thought back point watch film soon eatingbr br said begotten stick rest life based nihilistic philosophy life nothing man spasming ground paraphrase title sequenceintroduction likely contain intense grisly imagery see filmbr br dialogue image image describing cycle life films combination stark black white photography compounded truly creepy background sounds work drive home makers messagebr br movie begins god portrayed bandaged obviously insane man slicing open torso straight razor subsequently dying filth death mother nature emerges corpse impregnate blood semen gives birth man represented maggot human convulsing earthbr br landscape barren waste populated hulking shrouded humanoids eventually happen upon mother nature man slew violent scenes depicting rape nature destruction man humanoids proceed pound remains corpses back ground cycle life begins anewbr br actually rented blockbuster one night based cover art hype content definitely blockbustertype film expect narrative dialogue pulled punches intense imagery based dark subjectbr br give movie high marks filmwork audio think ill watching often movies dark unique one exponentially expected wan na stop existingive recently alot stressful events happen made life harder handle feel stress contagious everyone around slowly harder time lives ive wanted talk therapist many times feel fear theyll think im dangerous others im want stop existing im really suicidal think extreme urge want stop stress sadness leave probably sounds im suicidal tbh im sure im posting maybe put world say loud figuratively ive never tried talk anyone mostly fear locked judged feelings need chesti dating amazing girl three months now things going great enjoy every second spent together fast forward year old co worker comes says isnt gf shows pof app basically selling rich daddies shes gorgeous confront text im still work comes clean fucking guys side cash sometimes bed credit card earlier small purchase open maxes card jumps plane different province still see pof made account try contract sure really even care money thought going marry girl though oh childhood dog run weekend thats fun tldr girl going marry breaks heart dog dies really sure im posting im feeling really really desperately need support im point really care wake morning think id actually prefer fuck math math quiz questions werent supposed another one extra credit got total go next zoom class tears eyes tired living chronic painbeen living chronic debilitating pain years gets little worse every year condition progresses medicine helps greatly expensive doc visits many barriers copay assistance card manufacturer helps always difficult understand supposed allowed day period overlap medication case issues refills pharmacies want wait run medication fill always takes longer think fill never stock makes cry every time happens claim warehouse supply anymore go somewhere hate almost normal person meds without cant much recently move wifes work area meds common really hard feel suicidal right world want around medical problems afraid going miss dose even worse going able prescription filled time fear every month everything tell call ahead time give notice everything still cant day supposed filled tired treated belong bothering people need prescription fucking pain life sucks moment got new music today got record player yesterday folie deux fall boy gods favorite band green day vinyl weeks gf got birthday today dad went local vinyl storehead shopadult store picked records got abbey road beatles appetite destruction guns roses led zeppelins th hunky dory david bowie plan everything needis time think dog alone together now nobody checked us week dont want go vicodin xanex oxys hydrocodone gauge shockwave dont work feel im going wake nightmare cant weed used calm smoke panic attack maybe ill wake early enjoy last sunrise morning nice alamo city week sure want doive battled depression long remember ive ups downs tried every medicine known man little actual results days manage ok one redflag attempt teenager took bunch tylenol pm pills still idea survived ill effects lately ive struggling something happened kind pushed edge difficult relationship recently ended ex flipped sent pictures loading gun blaming telling making easy make decision use kill part knows manipulating trying make feel bad whole incident left feeling bad found going medicines last night counting many super easy car drive place know take let water wash away think go thoughts constantly im even sure im posting cant tell anyone life feel think flip put ex position put thats wrong wants talk think lines cross beyond rhe limits past guess needed chest aita yiffing dead furry grandpa grandpa beautiful furry fox always got hard saw always fondle others furry nutsacks told stories fighting japanese world war ii recently passed away due difficulties bubonic plague devastated beyond belief seemed lost greatest friend two weeks later went funeral pay respects wanted pay much respects one looking snuck limp body bathroom put fursuit fondled furballs crying river knowing never mustve cried loud mother found dead grandpa immediately took little sister drove back hotel stayed grounded gay furry porn month aita guys guess gf shes great love playing raid shadow legends cant appreciate beautiful world pay win mobile games fact playing raid shadow legends use nord vpn assure big government cant freshly shaved face thanks dollar shave club confidence read audiobook audible later break raid shadow legends may even learn new fact skillshare sit listen music raycon earbuds wich high quality wireless earbuds pay ridge wallet wich able save money honey im going cry sleep bye depressed filler filler filler sad filler filler filler filler ive unsuccessful attemptsits making real angry life need sleep ive awake hours hate moment hate psychiatric hospitalill skip details lets say im good long time ive reached family close friend serious advice seems probably go hospital im pretty skeptical honest feel options limited drivers license car health insurance im currently living alone state far away family guess im asking actually good idea making mistake ive heard hospitals mentally ill basically prisons force around patients work well social setting maybe lead real consequences check um free award free award anyone think deserves cant find anything interesting ask rn im feeling went breakup girl wants stay friends want hurt know painful better friends even one becuase still feelings hurts much know considering blocking everything contact know hurt try think negative things order lose feelings still working sad scared know need advice told family im part incels stopped talking methey never child see whats wrong joining group shown love compassion right mad seeking comfort solace people need help anyone good pythagriam tribometry half hours need help discord ahappysleepdeprivednerd someone help done great attempted redflag saturdaystill want diehey guys im turn sixteen week depressed years enough bullshit life past saturday attempted redflag drinking shots liqour went home vomiting everywhere blacking mom came upstairs saying fuck blacked woke next morning woke parents told heart beating beats per minute stopped breathing began lecturing telling im fucking idiot told wanted kill feel horrible attempted redflag still want die im lost anyone please help belong anywherenothing helps try go friends either say shit help anyone stop replying fit anywhere anyone nobody cares enough help tough times makes worse friends help private instagram help nobody cares wants around ill never truly happy end everything age biggest insecurity see im play games comunicate people im discord servers etc know people want sometimes say things probably age guess im scared tell take seriously anymore many people im worried hate age anyone issue really really wan na kill fail trying fifth timeive literally laughing hours shitty life try change honestly stopped caring happiness differentness awhile ago feel apathetic everything crave death much ive hurt body much feel barely living corpse wish send pray answered god take misery stay another second nicely done along new voyages great continuation fab see james cawley latest episode vigil check br br growing characterisation think good replacements tv actors fanproduced piece show manages capture feel quite well state ste improved years experience hope experience strong script editor pickup timing cgi hf becoming remarkable already truly isbr br good work concernedbr br huge soft spot lefler mcfarland great acting although im bit tired leflers laws enough already shelbys great little uptight cool got ship commodore ians nice fred flintstone lacks gritty edge commanding officer seem pleased doc counselor rawlins right money eyes wonderful nechayev beautiful accent real russian well im guessing rene hails czech repbr br gets vote cgi kewl greenscreens obvious small budget whaddayagonndobr br really glad found itbr br ok acting great fanmade allowed variable sorry cmm colebr br gay material layed thick graham nortond embarrassed trek pay much attention hetero couples signpost gays snogging necessary showpiece someones sexuality extent hope tone let aster zen people tokens treat gay friends differently theyre regular guysbr br musically mixed bag tell stock trek ost stuff works time timing fall flat end worst fears part misses crunch edit love fact use galaxy quest musicbr br certainly cant wait dazzabr br never give never surenderbr br viva les frontieres microwaves heating food fact microwaves work shooting microscopic waves food warm fact screaming shooting sound waves vocal chords lets skip middle man warm food screaming world shambles nothing works matter hard try still failure nothing done matter attractive one cares live die deserve taking wasted spacei say gist fucking cares think one one really doesno wonder developed eating disorder ugliest person met actual fuck okay brain okay nothing fix tried hard tired keep every day make stop hurts means think right kind want jumpi feel really lonely failure cant somebody cant anymore taking toll im apartment buildings seventh floor know survive im really tired feeling way took screen window still afraid homophobes tldr unironically spewing homophobic shit mouth make look gay heard internalized homophobia basically gay want accept begin dislike probably go level denial usually lash others gay speak existence gay people draws attention presumably straight person care much gay people said person hiding something said person want hide something themself adamant homophobia often driven denial famously homophobic politician makes global headlines caught sex someone gender internalized homophobia really problem gay people keep people impression trying gay stop work either way attacking people okay recognize post lot lgbt stuff im closeted irl spot walk eggshells jump hoops tried kill something stopped pulling triggeri dont know something talked away looking life perspective loose valued much feel taking medication sitting bathtub seizure drowni cant mind im fucking lonely want work badly come home anything everything enjoyed boring feel getting home stoned go bed tomorrow repeat never ending circle fuck cares nothing change gone doubt anyone even show funeral probably felt obligated go famed filmmaker werner herzogs fata morgana breathtakingly unorthodox although characters appear film time time actual story film educational historical documentary film without accompanying screenplaybr br film consists curious background music somewhat illogical narrative vo combination overlays long string images mostly though exclusively sahara desert images wonderfully odd ordinary camera captures ghostly images mirages optical illusions tantalize mesmerizebr br general cinematic trend punctuated occasional observational asides serendipitous topics example one sequence man wearing goggles gives us minitutorial lizards captivating bizarre sequence small inset room contains man dark goggles sings voice totally distorted microphone hes using accompanied old lady plays punchy tune old piano neither man old lady seems enjoy theyre baroquebr br fata morgana underlying concept one unites wide assortment strange images eclectic sounds concept subtle opaque never figure without help subtle theme film indeed make sense without point reference film seem tedious unending pointless parade random earthy images esoteric narrative gibberishbr br unapologetically redundant thematically baffling cinematically heretical fata morgana likely either make swoon delight cause throw either latch films zenlike qualities tempted smash dvd thousand pieces one thing viewers agree fata morgana different cut first timeive thinking redflag lot lately even find solace idea tonight ex called blue ask random question sounds happy without want feel pain chest took knife sliced wrist bit two places ive never done anything part worries im getting closer closer pulling trigger karma ahahirbahsgejabhdhdajiabwjab ready go right placeim sat end plan front healthcare professionals told foolproof gone two hours thing stopping im currently staying parents unfair ones find gone within two hours want anymore childhood trauma fucked raped kid fucked chances healthy relationship eventually people sick able fake smile realise matter happy might able make never lasts ill back rut cant bed shower drink water eat drugs used help escape im wanting temporary escape want last time attempted didnt succeed much better place back wish fortunate keep experiencing trauma cant fixed anymore multiple therapists give cant help antidepressants havent worked ive fluoxetine sertraline mirtazapine citalopram venlafaxine nada help stuck docs dosage schedules ive doses raised ive tried different types specialist therapies nothing works nothing stop shit im going possible change pain intolerable flashbacks intolerable dissociate much im missing things important keep getting told things better without fail life gets harder harder cope dont think im going see end year guess year old right wasnt going live past age try help many people im fucked insidei really hope single person tried help read lot medication nerve pain label use anxiety mood stabilizing ive drank way much taken way many pills fractured tailbone already today boyfriend even call boyfriend anymore know think broke thats thats raised narcissistic parent thinking deserve nothing well take drug abusing parent know im fucked head enough know deserve living month dosage neurotin originally nerve pain label use mood stabilizing anxiety high dosage xanax clonodine sleeping aid prescribed cant bothered going purse find name one month worth dosage shit load alcohol think slow breathing trick helping others used help kind know anymore boyfriend asked ill see home said maybe hell see doubt see everyone thats blind deaf called girl cute wasnt angry disgusted thatsba plus called cute think heart might explode im tiredim ive depressed almost years im really fucking tired feel empty time feels rest fun nothing feel distant every aspect life every single person place thing encounter bundle frustration selfhate waiting opened want die much want live way ive kept going sad say ignoring responsibilities disassociating playing way many video games good want anything want lie tall grass wait find body explaining mike mike one ocs made post showing facts trivia post trying explain existence mike biology ask everything ill answer petition rate youtube one star everyone complains youtube giving second unskippable ads demonetizing innocent creators time something show people feel iti say go review youtube star appstore google play store oh fuck cant stop falling love let sleep shoulder gave jacket cold called pretty im crushing hard rn found rage novel mentions suicidal thoughtsthe rage novel question ive posted ask reddit told link figured hurt post something advice anything doz edit far ive linked im assuming guy context comic redflag prevention website well ive sent message mods reported link life one vicious cycle one way break itive depression long remember recently ive developed issues well always end spot im right now living state absolute misery never truly leaves ive thinking value life lot theres nothing born nothing die whats point guess truly impossible know comes next fear unpleasant keeps sometimes ask born worst year life boosted feeling intense theyve ill going college city soon jumping tall building crosses mind times per day think reasonably intelligent human beings love film good attention detail enjoy indie movies funny smartly written dialogue film youbr br poor attention span high expectations brains well um may bored find things dragging timesbr br charming modest well paced movie actors bestowing real sense depth warmth roles chuckled pretty much whole way throughbr br film little gem think might commit soondidnt think feel worse turns im feeling worse cant take know alone fall love random new girl every day feel shit time extremely happy sooner die better minutesthis sub guestbook posting one final message pull plug futile life ask help deserve life worth saving years old clearly taken received money means little thats one reasons im terminating experiment almost broke despite made two half years college graduation im stock trader past months ive barely break even cant handle failure makes failure failure sudden swift unexpected future work regular jobs due physical disability contest want praise pity statements fact im posting figure place honestly write without ridiculed gives closure appreciate help readers try offer replies read okay honest tell im piece shit deserve pending divine intervention hour live within half hour begin irreversible process death thank listening goodbye died gang night passed last time remember screaming top lungs fucking die woke everything still wrapped tight around neck untied got couch went sleep feel waiting next opportunity feel numb fuck tried tell go tell take us work yesterday girl asked number ofc gave number weve talking yesterday lowkey simps ok cuz shes cute im concerned might take quick need helpi dont even know start writing untreated adhd depression dont friends family parents passed away cant even take care properly live homeless shelter dont know back track cant find jobs cant relax cant sleep well cant stand still cant speak properly people many years cant take anymore got ta something really want end miserable living hate happens wanted hundreds different things guess actually fell asleep three hours middle day want itim second year college sadly academic probation subject disqualification parents know bad school theyve paid much pocket know much better semester supposed make went shit never fucking secretly pledged one fraternity wouldve golden deal stress knowing pulled class keep going university comes point disqualified school know say parents want die want end shame brought upon redflag pact yall wan na watch power rangers somethin im bored definition failure lifehave felt quite hit rock bottom yet going go downhill point always struggled depression past months seemed cured found ambitions friends girlfriend one month time everything came crashing got rejected university times lost euros investing something extremely stupid friends told want friends anymore obvious reason absolute love life left someone top tried committing redflag woke massive headache girl breaking given actual ptsd random anxiety attacks lasted weeks now cause wake every morning never experienced symptoms biggest failure around wake every morning hoping enough balls properly kill reading definitely gives courage actually gf broke cus called communist piece shit worth bros tried share candies clearly brainwashed socialist democrat poropoganda cant life longliveancapistan everyone ups downs everyone goes though good bad days realized missing something feeling even though told heard feels quite opposite feeling misunderstood long remember catching almost communication parents friends busy life girlfriend years left couple days ago exhausted true need find settle things lacking motivation past years nothing feel inspired nothing drives feel another person awaits time go suicidal thoughts time scare guess asking help help see haveare feeling way coping holding tothank reading unable find happiness peace cant head anymoreim ive dealing anxiety depression middle school finally diagnosed sever depression anxiety last summer start medication month ago dr celaxa right now helping last week nonstop torment ive lost control mind mind static selfhate ive come close edge past always still mind anymore know much first saw movie freshman high school film stuck years soundtrack cinematography even dialogue somewhat bad acting educational purpose message behind important sin child teenager still high school really bad thing either problem tons girls knew children now guess never watched great movie clearly message behind taking chances sexual relationship girl pregnant first time myth necessarily lose dreams take backseat future child think firstbr br movie clear message behind say protected im currently junior high school im feel ive wasted life think issue parents parents essentially control every aspect life im allowed use social media want see everything post follow im using reddit website phone clear history using time parents dont even let play multiplayer games xbox ps cant even play friends without sit right listen say cant go anywhere without texting parents arrive location track phone find iphone theyve forced im studying place work clubs join essentially dont use email anything dont even control bank account either friends ive never girlfriend want kill im older im going never speak parents never visit issue theory posts pedos getting removed mods pedos gets removed banned theyre proving point take ur pedo ty scrolling new cookie next post dude office committed redflagi never knew interesting seeing people react wish wasnt jealous hope hes peace life tends drain every part theres nothing left hope knows dont blame mind sick arguably worst kind sick eats alive fun rpg play schedule wake stuffed minotaur kill enemies snuggle nice sheep side quests grind enemies sleep minotaur welp doesnt feelings fuck take huxtable parents blend kyle parents perfect blend top edge parenting wish family childrearing skills best part show parents come pompous selfrighteous upper class know alls time stereotypical undereducated parents constantly bamboozled disrespected children kids ages kyle kids see much situations mirroring experiences family silliness indulge goes show love family take seriously keep household together fun kids thought anywhere good movieit stars two wonderful actresses susan sarandon natlie portman heard movie together resist watching itoverall pretty enjoyable movieit moments felt tried hard really overdone wornout material anything movie absolutely hatedi even liked used popup performance uncredited thora birch little happysad moments touching effectiveif want watch movie go ahead even though recommend something avoid rating seems unfair opinion im glad finally released dvd bought video tape years ago watch least twice yearbr br grammer wry wit really makes movie success formula certainly original funny nonetheless surprised receive higher ratingsbr br ranks one alltime favorite comedies fun little flick makes feel good sometimes thats movie meant read actual fuck depression strong physically hurtsi feel sharp pain chest anyone feel thing im tiredi tired want keep going chronic untreated pain miss late husband missing limb dreams goals nothing live less desiring redflag wanting live theres nothing left world okay resources access tried crisis center last year give medications kill lol insisted talk way multi day patient way contact job oh insisting referred legal name gender whole time guess going give last year thought wandering woods freeze death cold enough now im tewwibwe human bewing oh god im tewwibwe human wewe watching video schoow memowiaw new thing sewious heawtbweaking yeah got weawwy howny mind stawted thinking sexuaw stuff heww wwong witewawwy wanted put hand pants im tewwibwe human beingive fowfeited wife pwiviweges friend said energy deal suicidali messaged old friend probably best friend even though im month talking everyone abandoned moved outofstate university mean literally every friend ive feeling suicidal know spent many full nights holding loaded shotgun basement younger hours texted really energy deal support asking theyre really mood deal ampxb really know heart involved anymore always ends mistake sometimes wonder calvinists right god created people knowing damned always suffer think im one matter much study volunteer meditate write try kind lot cast thats heres shower thought guys life unskipable ad abortions ad blockers lmaooo mf really said please u disrespectful homophobic people sending cant go summer job summer anyone got recommendations best options summer job venting realityi single year old man sleep shitty couch cheapest apartment barely afford always filthy small keep clean make less year beg pay every weekend real shoes clothes friends family one talk hope future share lack money never given anything extra alone even pet keep comforted reminder couldnt afford save coward ending life everyday wake im reminded im coward coward failure im sick everythingits fucked world fucked environmental level already beyond needed sustain life planet everything trending downward stagnating economically unless top tenth one percent politicians political parties want anything anybody substantive level alcoholism opioid addiction still roaring among americans one alcoholic dont care getting fucking drunk shit every fucking night preferrable accepting world fucking friends anymore one job life quit two weeks cuz im fucking pussy piece shit im fuckign years old thi situation live fucking parents fuck everything im high school dropout fuck fuck fuck im fucking failure holy shit cant fucking take gone shit everythign shit im sorry fuck everything must say movie truly amazing heartwarming reese witherspoon charming jason londons bad either sweet watching dani fall love breaks heart yet warms heart time watching court fall love maureen even sweeter watching much cares dani must admit though kind want fall dani end cute watching fall want heart broken badly biggest tragedy seen occurred movie watching die made cry whole day believe never loving relationship shown movie maureen dani really make anything giving movie want court die still one amazing movies seen time great achievement im changing user flair cause birthday first birthday subreddit cant say guys made great though planning swallow lot sleeping pills tonight know info lethal dose effects body survive procedure etchi anyone reading first post reddit really know works anyone read time really hoping mentioning redflag triggers sorry please stop reading ill quickly explain backstory point please know serious im telling whoever reads life sympathypity suppose attentionupvotes commentsadvice im looking anyone experience medical knowledge tell repercussions body follow plan thank advance im female secondyear university student well smaller university first year transferred bigger one took classes labs realized much late drop taking two now two exams tomorrow know pass feel sick embarrassed time care trauma abuse loving home supportive family good income parents basically excuse except time know seeing psychologist father paying couple weeks really helping lied asked im suicidal surprisingly easy apparently im good liar wanted doctordentist parents friend aspiring current events failing semester idea want thought abovesmarter everyone high school held apart spent lunch library went straight home made three friends lost touch one pretty pathetic parents paying everything including dorm longer using classes failing know got know im lazy think covid situation really brought issues light lonely really try fell behind fast september struggling keep every procrastinate lot well motivation contact anyone except family weekends roommate dorm really connect spent time bed watching moviesyoutube blame hate ive done far think hate painneedles started dull knife making cuts along arms nothing severe switched bladescalpel thing supposed used cutting paper realized dull begun bought package razor blades day thin bendy hard good grip yesterday advanced river cuts first time cant go deep bc pain id say made past skin fatty tissue pretty shallow half cm cm wide though hoping taking something numb pain help commit idea severe lucky fortunate never hospital many times conditions volunteering high school took lot antihistamine pills checked er afraid going die nothing happened take enough time hope will plan bought bottle vodka pain packages sleeping pills cant tell name theyre car still razor blades packages pills think mg diphenhydramine hydrochloride package advil sleeping pills pills amount remember correctly math correct pills x mg mg g assume lethal dose ive done research mainly reddit still cant find lethal dose know people survived attempts made drink charcoal control pissshit admitted psych ward lots needles think take embarrassment something kill permanent brain damage damage liver happen skip pills try cut deeper im using clip hannah baker reasons inspiration ironic bc cringe whenever watched cut deep might take bed try sleep drive car park winter take anyone finds parents embarrassed phone able call ambulance second thoughts anyone tell effects mg etc really know truly want die believe god know go hell im coward im hoping ill open eyes wake worry exams anymore know want im going try something tonight maybe hours least drugs ive done alcohol weed hate feeling control im pretty sure im prepared happen take particular pills anyone gotten far thank taking time read existential crisis experience particular type drug please let know effects thanks depressed loner girls drugs im lonely depressed drugs need friend sum wanted say birthday thats thats post want sing go along fire hate texting supposed feel natural something feels natural cant see fucking person cant hear tone voice cant see body language im supposed understand right thing say dry conversation maybe comes easily people think things conversation im supposed pretend isnt hate people rely texting much im expected perfect response somehow natural im given option take time irl im supposed talk isnt time craft perfect response problem words screen hard make words convey feel already hard irl somehow pretend im fucking writer everyone expectations im sick fact cant meet things improve im going kill new years dayi barely handle personal life constant anxiety depression anger state world way keeps getting worse worse much bear think take im already breaking point end sight think survive constant stress even im cooking hes still screaming face telling im done job need quit now yell back something job grips behind arm around throat grab knife using cut chicken tell lets go scream bit made smart remark jabbed face busted inside lip bleeding tldr help support partner starts treatments severe depression redflagmy partner suffering depression recently prescribed lustral help given option signing work started therapy really happy getting help feel bit blind foolish understanding bad become want make sure supportive anyone advise trying dohere ideas read far appreciate feedback positivity negativity complain partner anything take others take share house work cleaning keep house clean mess redflagful flowers often empathise sympathise good active listening remember take anything says personally read possible side effects lustralthanks advance guidance apologies advance violates rules checked maybe missed something support partner suffering depression alan rudolphs breakfast champions slides theaters little fanfare much derision makes think back keith gordons mother night came talk kurt vonnegut unfilmable surprising gotten two superb cinematic treatments slaughterhouse five mother night certainly one underappreciated films decade understand brilliant stays almost entirely faithful vonneguts book without stilted overly literary adds poetry purely cinematic many film adaptations authors work claim vonnegut even puts cameo appearance towards end film ask better endorsement beautiful film beautifully acted written directed film among picks top five american films s mournful inspired surreal masterpiece deserve neglected sincerely encourage anyone see mother night even take familiarity vonneguts work fully appreciate slaughterhouse five sometimes powerful affecting piece cinema cant itabout month ago posted detailing ongoing battle depression psychosis anxiety skin disorder ezcema causes alot distress lost mom cancer alot selfreflecting began realizing crippled via neglect overbearing nature conditional love based academic performance lost countless friendships social ineptitude simply withdrew society aside work actually tried amend friendships lost went horrible either blocked much time passed person honest forgot admitted bad blood begin overtime logistics job allowed save christmas given family ill probably donate long story short cant commit redflag cant go either bridge planned jump extra servaillance holiday season exhaust pipe go via carbon monoxide adn im scared die via poisoning drop hanging method aside two planned months really hoping former becauae clearance said bridge higher golden gate safety net im crushed golden ticket wouldve intimate thing ive done planned leave behing multiple notes friends loved ones along assuring theyd better going birthday present approaches beginning next month id finally able permanently prevent screwing always cant anymore know now want spend another year anyone want noodles instant ramen stir fried noodles veggies stuff boring horny cop question bonk make even horny record im gon na catch horny holy shit said yes hell yeah confessed crush likes back fucking pog edit yall feel lonely tell person close friends enjoy company ask want friends even back sure feel lonley always someone please someone kill want anymorei pay write note please favour care anymore fucking hope anything trash give method painful begging everything please even deserve live help death peaceful pain cry every two days mean depressed contributing eye puffiness eye bags haha weird bc actually drinking water haha yet bags appeared june gone great annoying know profile say apart horny posts ofc yall bully irl cuz male depressed suicidal thoughts keep become outcast dont wan na become weirdo man guys put weight lets fkinmg go dikdakdlksskdkaks httpsimgurcomazhpcnwg ive trying hard years im finally normal weight join subreddit now rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime rdogeprime close ending one left fucking loved last two friends want end friendship hallucinatingi need help think demons trying kill boyfriend says another delusion jeremy real need help want die im afraid except want die point im going kill god long time saw probably years agobr br movie tells us kids human blood circulatory system professionally put togetherdisneystyle animation plus human actorsit directed frank capra petes sakebr br kind overkill wonder high production value worth amounts filmstrips worth information human body boy kids watching learn even clearly remember dr baxter challenged hemo name common material resembles human blood doctor immediately answers sea water battle wits im hosting battle wits two friends people consider academically smart claim smarter one talking one day decided battle wits find one actually smarter serious thing supposed prepare questions stuff im pretty much ideas thus far three rounds wikipedia speedrun first one wikipedia page danjaq plastic surgery clicking links winner flash questions answer many trivia questions minute whoever answers questions correctly winner drawing competition draw something using ms paint whoevers drawing crowd deems best winner gon na people watching well far id make around rounds whoever wins rounds considered bigger brain input appreciated thanks goal purpose desirewhat fuck point anything absolutely nothing want life except kill escape world theres place anyway absolutely nothing life except play video games endlessly browse internet content literally purpose alive want job hate college absolutely refuse join military want change life see point changing desire commit redflag even imagine living see graduating college im pretty much lazy piece shit loser hate every fiber never imagine someone loving caring unconditionally thought happening foreign concept literally fault fault unmotivated worthless human absolutely nothing change situation yet still bitching weird thing even want change id rather let thoughts consume commit redflag guess ill end post already made enough pity parties already one day ill eventually stop posting swerve car tree escape bullshit garbage world dear bi tri quadrilingual people languages intentional misspelling writing example english intentionally type yes yah ye nah gon na lie ngl honest tbh even literally sometimes type hmmm someone thinking least thats way examples know languages least good son good brother good friend good person exist ruin everything crave feeling nothing wish never existed maybe turned way definitely ok money ya ya money ya ya ooooooh oooooooh think much action end think romance adventure told put movie action place long liked reeve bit understand die thought one girls gon na die lucky one liked die liked saw movie twice actually bought worth liked best person book really really really cool actresses actors everything perfect song name end someone answer questions please please please well two days weather nice snowing windy back regularly scheduled seasonal depression guess holy shit one best friends holy shit one ups every way kissed girl fore indepth conversation lewdness spooning girl friend tonguekissed girl twisted way envy actually pushes keep goinghow keep going physically painful skin keep going husband literal person life chosing others stop feeling alone one reach ive taking way much xanax thing numbs pain please know make hurting stop make wishing die stop tell im desperate ive dealing crappy situation months asked help everone said scamer feel im finally donne tying got crappy roomate situation trying rebuild life ive trying stay positive ive nearly pushed edge times week apparently ive reported scammer kept getting messages banned apparently lot subs including hireawriter follow lot writing subs help know write follow one see demand people think im terrible person know anymore people life really current roommates parents got divorced didnt want pick side dont hang friends due situation roomate ive going therapy local charity bad felt least options kept reminding wasnt fault okay feel terrible person everyone see terrible dont know anymore life basically mostly gone plants destroyed dog spend months training feel happy anxiety protect ask step mom helped brag bio mom thing getting telling myslef wasnt fault im horrible human letting evrything happen dog keeping stuff safe evryone thinks im bad feel must right dont know anymore feel giving want die cant find courage kill myselfi nobody right ill probably delete five minutes everything post im probably writing attention sense somebody might listen maybe let ive laying bed past week lot sleeping crying crack pressure college yet ive thinking lot various methods always excuse painful risk brain damage living dont want family find body etc think devastated family gets cry old friends sad resistance even much affects everybody fucking hate brain convinced everything life worthless got shitty draw life everybody even slackers knew graduated started careers kept stopping anxietydepression wish murdered hit car violently ill something die without family living redflag walking dark unfamiliar street yesterday thought hey getting stabbed dying street bad course even glorifying pain im coward thinking lying floor life leave body strange idealize times disgusted thoughts sometimes walk outside wish fall floor lay cold concrete forever even dead still motionless peaceful im sleeping eternity fantasy nobody even notices everything world keeps going see subway trains feel impulse second want painmess instead ride train similar thought floor man wish sit train nestled plastic corner eyes closedforever fantasize death sleep scenarios feel failure life fucking dropped college twice happening im live parents im virgin never relationship woman friends anymore terrible social anxiety im ugly overall wasted potential future fucking point anymore thought beat depression matter never long depressed maybe im depressed enough yet overcome fear killing know whats worse idea things worse fact im stuck cycle misery yet unable end already kinda hope spiral control finally point end fucking misery wish fucking normal seem possible part want die think instinct larger part feels option every day week month feel getting closer scared f either dying redflag dying cruel illnesswhat miserable life love able live carefree healthy many reasons live healthy soon illness comes play even fight redflag silent actually happy person live long life planet earth illnesses rob joie de vivre homework yeah ik online school struggle reddit suck take time study oor sleep shit unlived lifemy youth im trouble every day give faced exhausting battle realize im making life harder time wastedi slowly killing one wants involved bs worse way go understood yesterday dont think kill comes itill watching morbid horrifying self destruction cant make people care want toill lose everything omg bad anyone wana talk im editing video gets really boring want someone talk problably whole thing cause takes whilem maters impossible tale female witch pursuing mortal man mortal world community open among members conceals witchcraft mortals hmmmmthis starting sound familiar lol typical movie campy performances jack lemmon ernie kovacs keep things getting dull kim novak always pleasure screen found pairing james stewart unusual fatal storybr br renewed interest things witchy dark film deserves discovered rediscovered old new audiences still hoot mum second parenti planting seeds nieces dad ill take bus school next academic year literally said dad memy mum slapped ass today joke called demon past called ugly past wants take sisters daughter school several miles car studying university final yeari one tried change schools one emailing council one hourlong meetings appeal niece one called council give shit help niece thenand now take schoolwhat point living feel run away home pay university accommodation something times never responsibilitywhy want end fuck wrong people mood right httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkijpcuvbmampappdesktophttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkijpcuvbmampappdesktop first suicidal thought quite time one talk toi dont want concern parents therapist holiday hotlines shit country dont want anympre hear day long everything planet going shit dont want anymore everything goes wont anything dont know deal depression getting worse reminding everything remotely wrong film improvise impressions given changes know score schooled genre always problems following chord changes anyway trumpet player yknow pretty well limited basic keep tune mind ad lib around jammed incredibly moody black white blues piece knot gave head heart trying figure whether go ensemble pick path along tune story guess went tune usual kept getting lost changestoo deep extensive head probably still gas try keep pace admired actors playing theme story line see things heare things others seem feel light skin gal trying pass much either oblivious color issue trying ignore itat first later came back fighting brooding light skin young man trumpet noodling mas ludicrous ambiguous ambivalent perhaps best featureremote thought shadowcurtain closed provocative pieceis foundation thing way finding reality setting stage peopling expressive characters giving melody theme real truthful wellcrafted scriptwithout benefit editing revising improvisation heroic artiermoreso crafted work greater clearer truth retrospective artcraft fabrication reformation well still lost question loved film got lost cool blue foggy evening go home horn guess broke twelvebar blues riff tried truecouldnt make stray tune reality scary jaime says give im break wanted see valentine saw denise richards marley shelton played favorite movies watched valentine amazed great story line actually kills see low rating horrible actors actresses played parts wonderfully way ended brilliant cunning scenes little unbelievable poor admit minor parts got small bit boring overall nonstop entertaining suspenseful mindtwisting story line made guess whole way deserve crap gets recommend movie watch anytime especially valentines day sure give ton chills oh even pay attention trailer rating please dont idk post something thinking bit mean post gate keeping judging way deep always kind suspect suicide attempts people take big amount pill take anything prevent throwing cry help thing cutting superficial scars blood crust show people see someone tv wherever recognize kind actionstropes communicateim desperatei need help replicate communicate message environment think kind blurs line really suicidal peoplepeople harm symptoms mental illness ones asking help suicide ask help confusing basically id sex gender matter gender dont wan na one getting ya know unless head ofc im suicidal im notlike wan na die kill tbh someone killed care im becoming paranoid friends hate ive convinced im terrible person im worst person believe terrible mask lifting recently things enjoy fun tbh really wan na live im tired joys life o years heri anorexic dealing bullshit got diagnosed im facing hardest relapse feel alone ashamed feel one really understands fucking miserable illness im floating alone ive abusing adderall ive sleeping lot avoid eating im uni feel adds pressure overall feel look overweight cant possible stress enough fucking look overweight im thin rail snap pound thinking still pounds anyways im making post feel lost feel cant recover ive dealing stupid voice past years non stop never fucking stops god damn never stops feel going music eternity haunting die think ive reached point ill anything voice head cant take anymore constant fight food cant anymore years stupid shit gets tiring im tired want didnt sign anxiety pushing edgei sick life enjoy single minute without brain reminding fucking loser everything failure made big post rdepression sum hate nothing going almost live shitty basement relationship driving license never travelled never year felt good defeat defeat gets better yet failing school potential jobs friends family nightmares every night upcoming exams failed hard last year told horrible field every single day fear upcoming stuff feared first weeks fo years months going lot courses etc went fine felt anxiety something exams days first exam brain already decided fail big exam end month yup probably fail dont want live fear wont drivers license fear capable right never girlfriend know waaay better men terms nice look swim think gets dark hours ill jump drown panic hopefully never found sorry everyone hurt good life life meant everyone got sony video handycam lying around house apparently use grandparents back s things missing mm tapes battery nothing worth living anymorei drove away friends matter cant back ruined life girl love im slowly fucking relationship mum depressed ive thing left live know much longer excellent movie made even fact wife stumbled onto serendipitously channel surfing nice frozen day north texas kathy bates usual best leading cast normal human costar characters thru one wonderful feel good movies weve seen movie given attention deserved release difficult understand head shoulders many boring pieces trash released greater fanfare attention evident viewing obvious general public forcefed deemed great wonderful powerful influential true gems unconditional love manage shine thru pretenders really enjoyable cinema rent buy movieyou regret allowed talk ps feel crap anytime want talk ps know lot people cant things incredibly video game parents feel talk peoples troubles dont know thats right neither two friends one wish invite cant stupid stupid covid stupider antimaskers antivaxxers everything hard isnt english teacher grading assignment sent three emails know lot less struggle life many people subreddit shouldnt blow proportion struggles undervalued feel post chest feel probably stayed title writing felt lot stuff needed sorry know tiny compared others gone know turn feels brain hates happy good job roof head clothes back lot people able smile drains energy possibly describe voices head tell good enough never good enough pathetic useless worthless stupid waste space time energy matter world better without besides small screw grand scheme things world still spin family move maybe without dragging finally happy look mirror harbor nothing disgust resentment thing looking back speaks pathetic useless learned young age people pretend care see scars cut legs see one see pretend care talk behind back oh look cutting pathetic grow man told family monsters say phase fucking phase want feel ok ok motherfucker got attention need change couple things change eat right exercise literally drink water dog thing world keeping made decision kill june rd tied noose hung closet wrote note one care stepped closet thought last time dog barked never live pathetic staying alive dog animal forget month family forget month friends even care now bring past family parent told impossible man raped well guess impossible happened twice life secluded away women hard time opening trying relationship understand exactly something bring first date heh never second ones pathetic typing bunch strangers care tried getting help meds make feel worse therapists push agendas one one worthless even done things thought id never prayed prayed looking asking help strength rid demons monsters avail monster laughs useless used smart used lot practical knowledge superficial stupid nothing life make difference words say bring impact anyone want one person read suppose lot ask waste time energy precious internet activity someone pathetic want reach waste space time energy matter matter never will die history books never say name never look bones ground turning dust least ill useful fungus probably even right place post many people need made promise intend keep die give dog best life deserves mean spend every waking moment wishing thinking planning death one day disappear never seen go canada northern forests find spot summer already picked day june rd good day die method sure guns messy pills unreliable rope trick anyone read thank sorry decided waste time reading words something thank nonetheless typed days hovering post button wanting burden others stupid problems gets sent id surprised monster mirror happiest days life showcases britains greatest comedy talents time traditionally farcical upperclasstwit fashion generally whistlestop tour stuffy english behaviour girlsonly school providing great setting dotty goingson margaret rutherford alastair sim especially joyce grenfell fantastic giving us lot laughs express utter horror deal film moves things sillier sillier tour around school parents suitably crackers high pointbr br point give special mention joyce grenfell wonderful character miss gossage extraordinarily innocent silly apologetic ineffectual seems steal whole film provides greatest laugh film flirts male teacher call sausagebr br whilst film slow dated always involving still maintains sparkle barely pauses romance good silly harmless gigglebr br become terrible person manipulator swore never become love ones fooled awful person feelings one loves rather play along say empty words everyone values love find heart love anything anymore apathy maybe missed likely missed person thought loved missed veiled liar ya know never seen coming nice gone false face miss miss new york people boiga asked crush girl asked said yes great attention revert back monkey working outhello whoever reads going keep short diagnosed epilepsy behavioral disorders poor really go college epilepsy disqualified military career epilepsy made hard focus taken away many opportunities take disability checks want work hard recently yelled work due confusion stir thinking patterns losing insurance soon means cant anymore help consultation switching medications help seizures bought house hoped help grow investments turned sinking slab foundation right purchase plumbing bad almost financially drained longer accept tenants poor quality life house aside deep drive thinking society today point time wish born true timeline hunting gathering sure quality life may crap connected nature without many abstractions society government laws taxes properties restricted areas etc freedom us businessmen elites government people corporations screw us day laws protect us today ridiculous figure way money go college good paying job afterwards beg employers hire us pay us crappy wages little benefits left crumbs scraps called great economy im tired sleepy tried everything power including spiritual guidance positive reinforcement hopes future work hard say money cant buy happiness yes wanted good health healthy environment hobbies painting art writing computer code end driving deliver uber eats full time job make ends meet latest events covid expensive things even sleepy feels sapped away energy want go sleep never worked never will held back never will long time want check wrong timeline weird question girl liked recently got relationship dad died month half ago didnt ask figured come across rude didnt anyways leads question long relationship predicted last drop ur comfort media go think music probably origami angel pdaddy cshr shows probably b tbh games probably splatoon goddamn wish mom meow meow myow mow meow meow meow myow myow meow mow meow meow mow meow meow myow today daynear future though often teenage boys think sex im wondering topic come often something really really find caring pondering day long pathetic dream hugged role model last night afraid stepdad gon na attack mom hes steroids panicked ive told many people reddit real life things bad go adult need advice go adult kids went exs dad hes best adult ive seen mad didnt hit scream throw things people calmly raise voice yell scream gain volume say disappointed know consequences actions bf time front us even shit hit fan never screamed attacked thought people made wan na cry disappointed man overshared lot adrenaline gave caring short answers think may told little much abuse continuing kinda knew wasnt told extent home eventually calmed felt weird texting dont regret going hes adult know good person fully im scared hes shared family understandable concerning situation may gained disdain mother dad grandma comfort figures trust lot people dad role model ex best friend ex bfs sister wants dead know dont know ex feels day try erase memory live without crying knowing disappointed whole group people loved dearly finally go bed slept weighted blanket supposed take away nightmares check profile quite often didnt dream ex surprising nightmarish figures dream getting ice cream dad getting hug floated something different without woke feeling weird said dream ill ask guys weird dream got hug role model happens exs dad weird comforted lot need advice trying find things signs depression advice cry anymore realisewhen finally realise months telling thought much realise option cant live longer girlmy self mind dreams gone nothing take back past please let anybody stand way nobody narcissistic personality destroy life please please run sooner later end take different world everyone itobviously condone telling anyone commit redflag imagine one day every one us considered succeeded many people go different world without us better worse thought conversation starter one raped block cheese whole account joke feel people dont vibe kinda make obvious f really messed life dont hopemy family always shitty dont speak family anymore speak mom phone week speak brother birthdays holidays sister father contact extended family grew isolated dont speak either dont friends mean isnt single person world call phone casual conversation one person call husband got married last year knew schizophrenic knew family antisemitic mom saluted hitler front knowing im jewish married anyway werent even contact family much stopped taking meds psychosis relapsed couldnt function work staying parents house stressed psychosis triggering suicidal thoughts keep thinking much fucking hate family zero repercussions want actually cause physical harm mother really angry jeopardize finances ability work taking meds feel really alone reason live need divorce husband dont want kill divorce starting life seems harder killing dont know im fucking exhausted emotional support whatsoever feel failure made poor naive decisions im paying feel want life doesnt matter existence doesnt matter feels wont better cheers completed assignments one night appreciation effort everyone thinks im dumb everything last minute c question asking months underage less think asked fricking question live mom two sisters dad live another country another family care asking one sisters years old said wad big baby needed suck problems grow adults fvck want act adult little sister admired sister years old one really talking age difference interest book anime japan culture started talking together sincerelly regret thinks older mom scolding something wrong think way much example one day best friend home noise drinking chocolate milk smashed head cup started crying bleeding friend told exagerating say sorry help think right thing cared example started fighting verbally pinned sofa hurting shoulders pushed stomach cn go room sis literally started beating till floor crying screaming stop hurts stop fucking beating sis said stop physical one pushing sofa called mom said want know anything example yesterday july playing fortnite cousin stepsis used curse know sarcastic said shut f step sis syam yo big sis name started yelling talk xas talking ti bitch said things y responding conversation works end said think friend well pick people petsonnality friend wanted finish argument said uh smashed head switch playing screaming wrong pushed stomch crazy go away conclusion scratch face maybe keep yesterday scarified days care mark fact want face hurts tried end life multiple times first time person family rped feel pleasure life even forgive person still horrible sexuality problem mom said lucky accept think accept kid people kicked guess lucky gender problem identify genderfluid person hehim pronous one love even use pronous even problem need smile always even eating mom said exact wordssmile said smile ugh smile unhappy either even reason hapoy smile well reason smile happy anything except eating last least asked never asked born live mother go see friends go someone birthday live feed house go school asked things one go see therapist asked asked three time even said yes anything supposed supposed smile supposed stay mom fighted years even care mental health well supposed let sisters hit years older supposed things even take care supposed anyone lives philippines someone send something someone kill methank done bye see later rythwsfrstghtsrhtgrhtrash want live anymorei cant anymore job years used normal one point met love life happy together years planned kids getting married bring job lived parents parents apartment different times ive smoking weed sense age got addicted smoked everyday every hours years got comfortable girlfriend kept giving money anytime needed let weed take life let things wanted wanted provide wanted man used know first met cant change ive done fact pushed away dint love anymore name tattooed arm constant reminder fuck cut friends almost family talk ive always depressed suicidal always helped threw ive cut countless time passed sad thought die smoke tried drinking bottle cold medicine night obviously drink enough job im still im alone sitting old room old bed want live knowing ive done want find anyone want job bed want worst part im scared die kill want feel nothing problem want family ex girlfriend think fault need realize never better unless im dead want anyone feel bad think made know many nights sit try succeed wishthat halloween michael myers stop stab rip head sending prayers money thank much bestselling book honour killings jordan withdrawn publishers allegations surface story fabricated associated allegations authors past conwoman years later resurfaces conceding took certain amount dramatic licence willing cooperate filmmaker prove substance allegations follows fascinating insight pathological personality someone whos behaviour one makes sense unless saying true yet seemingly incapable saying anything astonishingly dramatic unproven best often verifiably false almost impossible imagine ms khouri hoped gain appearing film vindication celebrity achieve project certain image deeply damaged individual even taken face value director anna broinowski appears increasingly camera film progresses increasingly exasperated boot finally rewarded remarkable although scary disturbing tale tell one films reminds us thoroughly weird world live im fuckin happy sebastian vettel checo podium feel wayi aspersions family im well im healthy decent job feel hopeless terribly sad contemplate redflag weekly living hurt much dociton humane painless way end iti thoughts committing redflag using heartbeat slowing medication dociton effective easier humane painless way apocalypse short thing based ucoffeeman s post warnings violence character death hours hours world went shit im fourteen year old fucks sake gun im athletic really browse reddit watch minecraft youtubers day ive holed small condostyle house laptop praying upper deity end gets dangerous go outside seventeenyearold going alias coffeeman patient zero know cause thats news stopped uploading info went insane died came back right took buried knew zombies quick agile fucking aggressive people going left right friends gone well kyle aries last heard nickname chased hes gone radio silent stormy hook ivan tmk confirmed alive though im surprised ivan hes called murder kid reason stormys pretty quick zombies quicker hear scratching door stiffen grab vlog knife pocketknife gained goofy name story id read gets less goofy stabbing someones eye though door handle turns two quick knocks relax zombies may fast agile theyre dumb shit cant open doors kind minecraft zombies think except minecraft zombies run rabid animals nothing left lose whispering well manage bite someone hard describe sounds blue sad type blue cold disconnected type blue sounds something see antarctic ocean alone sup say hook looking hes pretty shaken trembling bruised looks chokes stormys dead flinging something bedside table passing run check pulse still barely notice something right sleeve check small bite barely bite nonetheless jump back stung nonononononononono hook stormy im speedrunning five stages grief two minutes might well put misery grab vlog knife carefully dutifully slit throat blood spatters onto clothes simply look used gory sight movies sever brains neural stem rest body damage brain beyond point repair zombie dies saw neck flesh throat soft tiring work theres bone almost takes nick two knife end done standing pop back shake pins needles legs theres use crying think everyone dies cest la vie dump body window good longterm need decomposing corpse house right now remembering hook tossed something onto table go pick thing package opening package eyes widen grin wide mouth starts hurting probably look cheshire cat right now care less set lighters remember said physical well theres exception start walk house forgetting fears worries right now zombies burn right now things test time commit arson hi howd characters used friends pov multiple nicknames call arson mayonnaise chaos hope enjoyed getting collapsetoday reddit realized hope going better depressed happened isolation taken toll way people turned thanks media influence makes worse now food system starting collapse whole lot people still fine quarantine way people treat subs people really beneath masks wear work good outweigh bad whether someone believes god bible certainly nailed human nature percent correctly im heading woods people say go im killing others ill sure wear mask expensive liveive overdosed know wont kill dream dying slide consciousness next hours life getting harder harder dont know im meant keep going health insurance going minimum month april im australia health insurance must appropriate inpatient mental health care rent going week may moving somewhere cheaper means wont able access public transport even socially isolated physical health isnt improving looks im collecting chronic illnesses every year im alive none cure treatment manage symptoms theres guarantees ive already rejected appealing ndis disability support fucking amazing electric wheelchair mean leave house independently try build kind life im stuck home small collapsible mobility scooter allows local shops im disability never increases cost living quit work year ago became unwell work manager simply chose give shifts im done dont think meant alive long redflag entirely logical solves many problems cant solve hey girlam tv bc turned everytime see guys realized tik tok tok tik toktik toxic literally name way start well year old male thoughts every fucking day gun shoot injure course life rough fall mega christian church completely fucked life making religious subreddit first religion made happy exploited music back ground dining playing guitar bass electric guitar drums etc talented touched instrument months well serve church everyday joke cuz service everyday even getting paid wanted thought serving lord job fast forward drained want fucking blow brains tell take break say leave turning back god left turned back spoke beliefs god dead probably borderline atheist fear going hell stops wanting end way miss old church life gave false hope depressing happy thankfully got health insurance want therapy psychiatry help adhere feelings yeah venting feelings incase anyone gone friends high expectations hate live day day yes thank listening wanting die constantly mind losing weight im lbs im idk thats normal im pretty damn insecure im attempting water fast christmas pandemic shit family cant really afford gym membership cheapest way loose weight opinion ill update every day around pm central standard time found major problems pregnancy going make devastated find comfort one thought trying one planned imagine life without child feel ok unless commit successful pregnancy let go baby supposed hold loved baby moment found carrying child loss feel big ok surviving miscarriage short term memory loss vs examsby short term memory loss mean remember incidents years ago memory fuzzy details things happened minutes prior kind remember learned th grade remember learned hour ago exams tomorrow failure inevitable clear state short term memory loss even able find job honestly give single fuck now wrong highachieving student sophomore year highschool reality hit fan instead pretending yet another slave billion counting meat grinder called humanity want care existence let alone caring university exams graduation etc pretty sure end garbage called existence deal university exams graduation etc difficult part trying find painless easy method end need pity optimism going better care anything getting better spewing religious beliefs imaginary gods soul life tired majority humans religions delusions schizophrenic attitude towards existence optimism made want end first place guess majority humans miserable sheep little piles secrets follow mass without question tired amount bullhit majority human come way majority humans rather hit red button open way asteroid hit earth mark sudden mass extinction humansanimals plant species drink coffee watch world burn included ive never lonely ive room ive felt suicidal never felt one person enter room fix everything bothering words loneliness something never bothered always terrible itch solitude quote ibsen strongest men alone never thought well someone come room give fuckjob rub balls ill good help know majority humans wow going sit well yep theres nothing bullhit delusion sadomasochistic attitudes towards existence hypocrisy thrown around outside majority humans mingling patting back delusional let stupidify im advice write im bored hit head wall stop thinking university exams graduation etc thank much everyone love youi wrote post expecting attention somehow gained views got bombarded nothing helpful thoughtful positive messages pms helped much guys idea think years ive never happy much face filled smile whole day thank thank much know im alone situation people actually care best fucking thing life know decided ask crush ive never talked saw face instant crush know work ill make plan ill definitely month goes wrong fuck ive got nothing lose point im feeling confident thanks guys thank much love sub love guys thank ive taken dangerous hobbiesunless im thrill seeking pushing things far im depressed ive purchased gear start ice climbing mountaineering ive several close calls activities every time go survival mode refuse let die basically live im close death suspect physical ability declines depression worsen im considering leaving girlfriend parents die wont anyone left mourn death accident nobody turn toi friends family talk girlfriend never one ima pretty soon im nobody hire im typical creepy dude nobody gives fuck people despise want destroy nightmare getting mental health treatment im male god attention compliments really cant stand wish somebody cared wish subhuman pugs better drama um besides drama reddit stuff lets idk appreciate dogs dogs cute specially pugs chunky cuter family thinking getting pug soft cute yea gosh melting heart typing know attractive directly told signs attractive specially signs easy miss know title scenario annoys usually wifi restriction pc goes p crap happened ill shortly able bypass curfew naturally parent control wifi brother recently got caught talking online friends group chat week back resolved controlled timer likely used automatic timer crap matter nothing wrong im really pissed stupid mistake point want know bypass eero wifi restriction talking option way getting restrictions saw post subreddit explained bypassing wifi restriction help works update now curfew time brother racking hours driving think found chance loophole think proves wrong wifi still person controlled psycho dark mode u voluntarily wan na burn ur eyes irish people come ye black tans cone put fight men man yanks wondering irish people hate black tan people much xans alcoholwhy hard kill ive attempts now years old shit never gets better chronic pain anxiety plus depression seems im shit even killing took around xans half bottle vodka woke hospital days later flu week straight huh im still suicidal still wish dead everyone wants live nobody seems care make things worse mejust rant everyone wants live terms give shit make harder actually try want live care add misery im selfish one wanting die whats point nobody acts even want around mom yelled panic attack every time wake one make better im supposed keep living even though miserable frankly keep going year now keep going constantly pain nobody acts even around point much relief want die im allowed nothing nobody willing make easier whats point relate heavilyi used idea graduating hs getting college change everything move boyfriend good life grades community college classes slipping wont degree want able graduate college friends want world good life feels things relentlessly falling apart dont actively want kill sometimes want stop existing little wan na bury face pair thighs getting petted kissed top head dream boys painless ways diei planning taking life soon afraid going feel pain die soo want see anyone knows painless ways die change uf although birthday almost days ago anyone recognize username probably worth shot reply best quote youve heard ill rate l l need outi need help please dababy officially enemy republic perserve republican values longer less goooo anyone turning convertible crucified always bite pick lips meaning usually patch dried blood chew nails though ive found clip nails almost everyday goes away know behaviors typical ocd ocd symptoms think redflag tips appreciated want share habits go ahead days one big blur mundane mentally trapped mind feel way escape kill mentally tired yes plot predictable yes plot holes yes madefortv quality yes britney spears wrote book obvious selfpromotionbr br forget movie funbr br fun school special sortofway fun neverthelessbr br virginia madsen mother great job good im going start watching movies reminded diane lane good reasonsbr br rest cast fine job casting agent id scouting young actorsbr br production values usual tv standards music really great better several bigbudget movies ive seenbr br mood german noir movie want safe fun underrated movie good one one show year old daughter enjoy free silver first person comment bean literally gain silver free anyone really old british rail era diesel trains trains general love trains know facts trains know person likes trains dad old diesels mean class youre sure look go trainspotting 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accept yeah people rough sure help make others feel miserable cant life together sorry needed share somewhere people talk things yeah everyone evil ended ive never felt bad beforei one share considered friends turned bunch people wanted around money listened without saying word family give shit need take chest asap make feel someones listening id appreciate fucked childhood sexual abuse coming family good making friends poor af bad talking people watch people fighting arguing breaking house yelling heart beating gon na die feel voice adolescence bad tho started understand things dad addicted alcohol mom depression good person lived house understood divorced teenager things start make sense scarry hell ready shit thrown little boy deserve childhood wanted normal parents told love now im almost mom moved places ended back house shit happened mom moved away tired seeing brothers killing selling drugs drugs fucking life old man problems alcohol hes shitty old son bitch depends take care brothers along gigantic killing everyday time dreams cant eat well one single reason live voice courage yell wan na take care father deserve please die go hell im sorry dumping said anyone count ive gotten point stress sad tired angry ive let go posture bad voice low slow im tired literally everyday everyone tired fault think mean got huge mental health issues barely survived btw abs math comes right push back im weak overwhelmed feel cant anything cry cry boys shouldnt cry anytime someone tried teach anything repeat never understand lost friends nothing nothing live dont mean sound pity party feel theres nothing anymore okay yeah im almost donethe next fucking horrible thing happens life im done thats cant mentally deal anything happens life ruined thoughts fucking fault got little bit encouragement able end right now sadly cant fault happening deserve pay price im living life taking happy pills honestly theres anyone encourage please go ahead f chat poor dude used head shoulders shampoo lube may pray dick burning ceases well day posting every day girlfriend got friendzoned hell back yesterday im damn wreck never told parents gon na confess actually never knew im trying break front wont understand im crying theyll mad telling fucking hurts though happened stupidest way working facing dairy bakery guy came joked us making cute couple really didnt appreciate joke made clear friends felt id stabbed know didnt mean hurt im mad im really sad still doesnt know cant tell now hurt shed feel bad happened yesterday send help completely useless simp girl even succeed going long distance shit im scared friends im lot friends really weird fetishes bdsm shit dont try hide theyre completely public dont know disturbs fetishes normal age go away feel scared things start looking im ready give timesso ive dealt depression ive relationships come way fail ive multiple jobs nothing help reaching goals well got full time job enjoy thats great thing girlfriend life months now im worried much good happening take every situation think go wrong tears makes wan na give feel fail job relationship plain happy dont know anymore dont much faith feel ruin everything good third post sorryi sorry feel commiting redemption posting anonymous feel better receiving anonymous love care internet sorry disappoint go everywhere disappoint say sorry mean hate disappointing disappointing talk much sorry keep much sorry still figuring go sleep live disappoint wake another day disappoint people around say love mean say easy cry disappointed hate thinking much thinking enough sorry love fan probably enjoy know misty mundae darian caine ruby larocca seduction cinema movie start cute silly girls hot fun watch theres sex whatsoever end minute film score cheesytrippy plots total bore misty mundaes makeup bad movie hair awkward braids hot others panties quite cute youll see movie sound really weird one probably enjoy s girl vampire vixens erotic survivor bit sexually graphic prefer watching misty esmerelda less sexual horrorexploitationbased lower budget movies check factory website relish every moment languorous spectacle music match mahlers th gorgeous listen vocal portion rd symphony beautifully utilised film many aspects film main subject overpowering force beauty spontaneous nature absence logic love adoration ardent fan bogarde believe rarely wonderful try servant note recommmend multiple viewings ventingdepressingshit fucked fucked upill place disclaimer vent im seeking hang life gets better lovely butterflies sunshine rainbows crap theres actual advice appreciated long story short back wall im tired fighting keep head water basically last years life pretty much pingpong really good really miserable homeschooled grew two brothers friends lived rural area neighbor kids best friends life younger siblings family relatively normal save mothers drive good scores good university good life aside getting ged age things pretty much ok took sport excelled top ten nationally younger brother made world team basically three us constantly shoved one another upwards climbed national rankingsthe first one world team ironically one never national champion first week university officer walks bio class pulls accident brother killed publicly announced hundred students state quite christianwell back parents freakout mode younger brother goes catatonic eldest sibling call family close family friends help circling wagons end day brother deliberately kill dropped loaded gun snagged hook gone th inch way wouldve missed left likely terrified alive fast forward pretty much immerse school sport family pretty much shattered trying find way change majors everyone major either pitied told hoped ok brother hell nice folks ultimately started transferring colleges state away family try head clear escape everyone knew athletics made national champion surviving brother told continue making monetary stipend best interests go work national coach months later shoulder dislocatedi opted limp things years finally getting surgery learning labrium separated shoulder partial tears along four tendons video analysis doctor physical therapist agreed coach teaching long term effectsi lucky one early put athletics perspective trained hours week including gym time cross training etc stayed fulltime student landed top university final transfer life revolved around sport school mom insisted good grades etc got b keeping things line wanted kill stabbed arm razor times various halfassed attempts things dealt top events without good reason id feel awful missed olympic team points honestly mind much bad grade losing brother rough met girl awesome thing yo men dumped months ok met another girl awesome love loved figured better nothing occured school im graduate atso now meanwhile years efforti slumped sport last two years ive top barely winning easy collegiate eventsand often lose guys halfassing ive worked best coach world two years think hes awesome know form methods workand cant pull event got depressed making world team got wasted accepted blowjob random girl still reading yes cheated girl thought awesome moving ive spent last months state massive regret trying hide night girl steadily picked apart figured things morning phone buzzed text guessed password blowjob girl sent text saying hey tested stds blew summarize apologize long im job skills life aside academics best friend brother died first week college fucked cheated one person related thinks im good guy knows alternative feelings good guy thing recently one best sport two consecutive years failure feel trash social skills homeschooled friends feel complete shit tldr im douchebag trying life back order figure killing best thing everyone involved knife italy thats razor sharp anatomy chart wall pretty sure time around pull bunch pill bottles taken yet really want hardim probably going energy fight later hope sleep ive crying day want hurt anymore hurts much fucking exhausting second abortion yearcame year long abusive narcissistic relationshipmy ex discarded better people constant suicidal thoughtsno career prospectsi respect myselfi many friendsim tired make life betterim begging god take away instead relentlessly punishing wringer someone please explain emoji thing cringy use emojis rather actual words even weird one emoji end comment negative karma isnt little harsh really believe im beyond savedas pain grows thought family friends feel ended life slowly starts numb mind focuses ending life dont know born way dont know suffering worth dont know chosen born way game kinda hurtful may wan na reach crush dunno dont really want reach think cut something says fuck talking relatively non obvious annoying way reach least become sort friends motivation group ive feeling demotivated lately idea might work small group people around age send message saying life right want change months work changing lives way want return march st talk successful unsuccessful us far fetched idea think work message want try piece called wholesome cats butt requested uownneedleworker httpsimgurcomaedrhttpsimgurcomaedr dreams dead whats pointall life ive wanted children ive never sure anything want big family least four kids grandkids greatgrandkids works things ive known ive dreamed whole life husband trying months temping charting ive discovered im basically infertile unlikely kids without medical intervention im convinced conceive naturally even take long timeline ruined beyond repair cant afford fertility treatments options cant wait afford ill unlikely kids want early enough even see grandkids grow much less greatgrandkids never one thing ive dreamed entire life chance broken body blew gotten better job earlier id able afford something qualify aid insurance cover enough us afford even waited requisite year im sol thought two kids instead four makes cry thought first child makes cry even want try ill never see dreams come true point living id rather die adjust dream go grave telling fine fine itll never fine dreams died soul chance successful resuscitation im tired suicidal im tired drive liveive wanting blow brains im tired never endless sadness im done ive decided im going best live happy go die final choice ive made im going struggle best bottle paracetomal rope strong tree final decision either live happy die sad way tiring thank comminitys support good bye family except dogno siblings parents dad passed away little mom severely terminally ill rest family dont want anything years old year family even really jealous peers close families mother daughter brunches family trips etc one nothing live one share joys tears thing keeping going dog fantasize giving adoption know family really wants kill finally cant work details though go peacefully bed find dead body literally one look woods car sounds pretty ideal wish guns legal country maybe finally take trip europe ive always wanted kill waiting saving go trip special someone thats clearly never going happen absolutely terrifying alone world want mind shut permanently know worst relationship imagine goal happy worked way feel unwanted feel lost feel alone feel confused feel scared know say anyone know fucking sad mi genuinely feel lost friends person know real name age country live always saw online time zone morning always asked sleep told thinking much always talked till went sleep days ago conversation told going away long time asked said happens heard four days passed online friend feeling suicidal massaged days needed tell somebody anybodythis isnt looking someone come save isnt wanting attention wanted tell somebody lays heavy mind want hours peaceful boyfriend killed days ago fully completely love sickly sweet reason now hold starting whole life together going place april year two cats angus maggie eventually married live together happily things went well really good true pretty much reason decided try better wanted future wanted future went amazingly first time long long time didnt want die maybe reliant happy stand world without everything quickly caving theres way fix funeral absolute breaking point many people standing room see coffin hear songs loved see family mourn big gathering people something completely snapped longer even slight hesitation cross human dna whale dna banned sea world think im actually gon na iti planned august carbon monoxide poisoning think make week dont think handle one day stepsis applications must stuck daily school really hard ive seen lot memes posted talking difficult school go good school online lot people struggling able understand ask think schools making online much harder person food thought lack motivation much work enough student teacher conversation much worsebeing pessimistic complaining help optimistic help either already planned day redflag september blank canvaswith blank canvas thats years old go move draw last line clock know whats wrong got switch flipped see whole picture whole damn thing scares fuck thing call life journey experiences endure cherish see know time now dumb saying heard rear view mirror small reason windshield big picture keep looking forward im tired woke time see life burden road life well well something im honestly sure take call puss care ive people call face burden speak time comes time comes everyone know heartache hurts damn well feel thats something scares knowing one day time come everyone love f brain feels stormy day need let worries tend rotate around head properly diagnosed depression redflag likely super emotional boyfriend getgo us dating developed tendency cry lot boyfriend m complete sweetheart known life love much always truly feel peace especially relaxed bed told feels nice warm blanket feel comfortable safe think reminds best parts dad person particularly little dad bad person flaws feel never enough money support live good life always pushed best especially first bachelors degree parents sympathized bad people constantly feel pressure successful independent worry lot finances life general much change father comes background former military poverty tried mold successful image today even though life circumstances vary constant fear life suddenly change nearly year ago close family friend passed away suddenly catalyst along covid mental health took negative turn always worried circumstances event made worse now constantly feel way boyfriend comes house far traffic worries major reason driven ownany advicethoughts greatly appreciated thoughts constantly running head im done cant anymorei dont even know teen angst anymore im honestly sick tired loneliness heartache friends people around somewhat care cant head go live happy fucking life feel empty calm im trapped feel built whole personality people yet still dont dont know dont know im dont know going end thats terrifying im bored online anyone wan na play something ps pm sure im right placethings came head tonighti fighting wife mother dying stage lung cancer spread lymph nodes neck cutting right lung add years depression staring end shot gun debating getting something trying chantix quit smoking quitter wondering anti depressants treated getting something cause literally straight break recurring issue still aware enough know serious af hows days fellow brothers sisters hope youre great anything wrong dm ig thanks happy cockroaches deserve painfully slowly burn alive blue fires hell eternity must never find salvation agree ofcourse im ashamedive accused plagiarism second time course one year due sloppy citations despite working really hard improve feel ashamed want die normally work jobs time year made possible focus university poor marks plagiarism sleep slept days sometimes stay close hours row im anxious weep hours parents knew full story theyd ashamed fiance probably hates ive put year university planning wedding cant cope ive officially broken im done almost threw front train yesterday hate everything inside brain go away im massive loser knew cut postgraduate level curiousi know last days ive making many posts comments dwelling thought redflag expressing inclination towards unexpectedly happened something look forward life please wrong im saying longer see negatives world many probably still hard time keep living something might make worth going true still kind dream something going help stay feels good enough consider outweighs negatives continuing life world escapism concept escaping reality fantasy imagination sort comfort find life figured things desire attained go mind make reality aware quite silly considered imagination ive come appreciate joy getting far enough reality give found unprecedented comfort stories presented movies series anime etc oh art find gives sich pleasure aswell music beauty meaning emotion expressed various mediums painting drawing singing well many things almost feel different person makes little uncomfortable insecure almost feel almost betrayal said wanting end life still stand believe past truly wanted die right even something happened make want anymore people still receive respect wishes truly want die happened came accept desires found way make kind reality felt impossibility feel free whoever desire head must admit still feel insane really want die anymore found another way live one accept now yes trade life one completely made thoughts emotions desires enough going head almost anytime want id rather live inside head dying guess thats im trying say want apologise saying going kill still believe truth way thinking case wondering talk sort professional anything simply asked truly want really way figured even obvious guess commitment issues something already knew enough resources dead now oh well happen maybe later really know know want live inside head maybe hopefully start creating stuff possibly even earn life anyway thanks reading nothing anyone willing help going attempt kill today feel going betteri always depressed battling last years ebbs flows right one worst times ive made lists people going write goodbye notes ive decided method today checked exact spot driving drawn im chicken know feel incredibly tired cant forever feel frozen distraught read posts people talk parents messing messing kids today called kids husband assholes faces twice left hours husband even call text see ok couldve killed done life meaningi understand anything anything makes better anyone go beyond life ill hate anyone cares mourn temporarily theyll days months years im weak bodied weak minded im even bothering post weak willed whats point anything nothing ill hate either way funnybecome hoego doctorskill list heres bucket list school year thinking ahead heres bucket list college freshman year b better gpa lose virginity play intramural basketball andor flag football good player make good friends go least parties maybe try weed dont overdo touch rim basketball hoop learn use credit card watch shazam minions im college class early thoughts th birthdayi never thought come far cracked code ok know shit hole tell every month year end s thing going real fucking fast thats quarantine fast explains many bad ghing happening time bad thing happness skip year bad thing passes end good man acid strong bday thats literally thank ur time linger reddit girlfriend means must leave memes grate loved getting read wonderful comments posts lonely virgin land isnt anymore hope good long break cause lets honest im redditor meaning gon na last long want see long last read suicidali want say read overdosed couple days ago waiting liver failure kick waiting period given time reflect done recommend redflag kind anyone reason redflag selfish act mean selfish people experiences experiences people spoke attempted usually spur moment need think ending waiting die remembering things miss hanging friends family work etc never see lucifer s move london become richest person lived ik big dreams unrealistic reminds liver failure kicks need let family friends know done go countless painful conversations watch everyone love tears something stop know used lot maybe selfish idk point thinking redflag think noone help try help picture family friends hearing news research method want attempt read horror stories people survives imagine pain death inflict others may stop inflicting pain onto please seek help good luck fucking dollars today random guy twitter minutes shift fucking mcdonalds dude dms outta nowhere still cant believe seen maslin beach couple times free air tv brisbane go whether good bad others well truly covered thisbr br say australian australia film relationships among people spending day naked day born view free commercial televisionbr br friend us constantly amazed put free tv compared home country sex city huff examplesbr br despite government trying turn us st us state good know least things remain truly aussie motivate write essay want whatever want give support call piece shit idfc yall npcs something refuse believe billion people life thoughts everyone alive think impossible reality illusion live matrix nothing real know allhey first want thank awesome people sub helping years old think might suicidal last months ive grown tired life got tired thing every day speak told going better soon thats ive told years theres nothing particularly wrong life okay parents something eat drink every day bullied anything makes think overreacting really mind wake tomorrow hand though feel never kill even know expect thread guess want know ok q typical im teen im sad phase depressionam suicidal realized best friend random dude internet ive known years now never met irl even know real name guess thats id rather responses irl friends theyre real friends outsiders eat talk school days ago started chocking made feel something comes boredom feel bad life bored drives crazy knowing life least another years think typing helped try talk parents ok going something every teen goes wrong personal body stuff holy days im kinda ugh really wan na nono stuff feel bad easter bad see sin terrible damning sin something thats kinda sorta bad im bad feel scared easter christmas etc master kieslowsky came idea idea portrait human relationship world today passing blue crafted visual masterpiece womans life white visual comedy movie marriage finally arriving red masterpiece dealing human interactionbr br im going spoil move easily say red best movie s decade one strongest messages script seenbr br movie begins little slow finds rhythm early enough keep hooked whole moviebr br performances perfect sublime characters completely realistic theyre clichd way one expect less actors one disappointed seriously believe jean louis tringtignat deserved oscar nod leastbr br music zbiegnew preisner amazing one best musical scores piotr sobocinsk cinematography outstanding got oscar nod deserved winbr br overall movie perfect loved people love foreign cinema people dont miss itbr br awful pulp fiction beat ed masterpiece cannes beyond comprehension botherit seems one night im great next night things utter shit cant keep fulfilling relationship anyone friends lovers maybe appreciate friends people care regardless feel love world put love im growing estranged people theyre black hole emotions screaming feelings sucking mine never letting go consuming efforts nonefforts makes feel bother acting happy laidback motivated return shallow people see people care respect seeing right thinly veiled act something maybe im intense person anyone wanting know gtgtmeltlt gets scared away maybe im much roller coaster one moment next moment fucking know know reason theres real point anymore something based personality born cant change single fucking thing supposed change gtgtmeltlt even trust thats lead great places change much add family understand parents think theyre whats best really theyre bad wanting everything want saying whats best therapy went far meds fine still feeling hopeless defeated unexplainable depression real realization im person people enjoy around nothing born oh mention theyre throwing academic support putting alternative programs want confront agony face face school trapped halfassed hybrid semischool ive thinking final solution months now something keeps holding back im tired throwing life moral tolerance waning every day much longer restraint day please im begging help tldr whats point living personality sucks im constantly aware yall know game barrel monkeys based real events girl interested thought escape self loathing id finally found reason give second chancei bullied high school got called ugly lot high school guys really shot self confidence one wanted associate anyone find voice stand bullies caused isolate develop social anxiety hate ive already tried commit redflag two times back high school little sister saving suffocating nearly everyday feel im good enough womans romantic interest see attractive people relationships makes mad want makes feel im meant alone thought previous girlfriend great extremely attracted really clicked lost interest ive working trying rebuild selfconfidence finally built courage verbally flirt girl something ive trying th grade hd date even kissed tells interested anymore mightve little shy besides idea wrong im left assume looks lack selfconfidence want feel im tired much consumerism affects life wish want money attractive relationship need someone something take mind much hate dead none matter attempting redflag typeive posted story hits whatsoever posted story depression hits whatsoever girlfriend gave hope decided leave reason unhappy want drag gave left unconditional love status shortened permanent residency live friends charity im burden around see family someone took shot dog buddy security blanket understand people cant attached animal obi damned ugly old deaf cockapoo mine needed alot needed wed sit porch drinking arizona green tea hours hed sit lap let know still im schizo meaning episodes things go bat shit insane thoughts mine telling much failure one loves lies loud often worst trip group intangible shadows swarming vision little freaky minutes ive accused touching sistereditstepsister blasphemy highest degree dad gave momma cant help feel hope left thats lie im writing guess want go comatose couple years try later becoming difficult focus aspirin every minutes im now pitiful got around im tired hurt last year round bday slept friends mom year long relationship rings ohana whole nine yards dad pissed understandably kicked estranged relationship rambling now moved tn nc find work help depressed abused alcohol month move days bday june wanted see people next day fucked dude long ago knew right kind woman funny think guy age right cheating type opposed old woman wrong kids grow bigger kids kids never chance kid funny eh im pill im lost hopeless ive made many wrong choices many bad judgements hurt disappointed much im done now live ill check omg idiot nightsaber comments read fictional depressing story go way everyone last attempts edit part sheepishly return let everyone know moment posted momma contacted couldnt knowing shed lose oldest son superheros last night bro herman back nc old love ciara mentioned momma last names anonymity sorry guys getting worked making others worry result bit selfish wanting badly disregard made others feel primal way happened happened sorry last time felt low took field sat bit thinking time little bit going right now last pill threw minutes posting bouncing back pretty decent pace judgement one last time sorry everybody watched movie might watch although jamie foxx good movie feel used less funny character alvin sanders foxxs scenes instance jail confronted edgar clenteen david morse funny david morse wonderful portrayer cop tough yet mostly quiet features perfect role morse meets doug hutchinson bristol theater morse ends coming hard hutchinson perfect scenario film personally love quality film actors end situation previous film two green mile overall pretty good movie friend cant take anymore please help convince itshe says hard live everyday reason hasnt killed id dont want loose says wants leave behind convinced kill herslef fear temporary please dont let best freind die shes left please want kmsi hate anything point redflag looks golden escape plan everything goes wrong act totally reckless way realize ive done later cry cares kill boom cease exist problems ive overeating daily dont look help due insecurity financial issues cry everyday bedroom wanting someone come say calm everythings alright one know need help im scared ppl saying oh stop youre attention parents ignoring rejecting mocking take yr old seriously boss disappointed mei work lab im undergrad student cant dedicate much time lab boss emailed telling disappointed performance dont spend much care lab fair completely fault im stretched thin depressed already doubt ill able actually improve im tired worthless honestly dont see point living anymore doesnt matter gender race sexuality ethnicity place birth political leaning know epic rap battles history still greatest thing come youtube renting one true thing night learned respect family take health granted never seen reallife portrayal cancer victim screen meryl delivered deserves oscar nomination tough competitors running say beautiful film great acting streep zellwegger meryl streep revealed one true ability excellent film im useless cant even make noosei said wasnt going right now dont see life useful way dont want live country health doesnt matter black widow legs around neck choke move suited girls dudes seemed cool tried managed crush balls legs hurt game difficultso simulation wheres reset game said make em blind albino black lgbtq lets give em brother disability got ta take care nah easy lets add toxic family parties wrong boomers wont admit wrong leads toxic family relationship sprink favoritism step children misogyny homophobia dash racism regression taboo topic way youve felt learned cope drunk hell got noose hang closetgonna dont knwo tired meds therapy cant seemto make diffrence bye anyonei tell dad im depressed im tired feeling way thinks nothing need man seriously feel ending im scared anything really use someone talk ready buy gun end alli delete hours less background sexually abused toddler diagnosed ultra rapidcycling bipolar disorder age manic delusions severe depression things better high school got transferred year college moved miles away city friends depression worsens hospitalized five weeks several medical leaves taken school girlfriend borderline personality disorder leaves cruelest way imaginable attempts blackmail ruin life lie created diagnosed ptsd struggling finish degree age hospitalized manic episode suddenly things start looking career schoolwise things may okay age coronavirus hits internship goes window classes moved online spring summer fall cant adapt online learning considering dropping id move back home moms environment hate current relationship failing spectacularly person refuses talk feeling complete piece shit finishing school yet three friends life live major cities far away plus girlfriend speak every treatment tried illness failed medicine psychotherapy ketamine tms fear getting older fear finishing school career want issues sex due childhood abuse turn future partners cant live anymore ive researched buy gun state despite everything im pretty sure pass background check know id kill know song id listen plan lengthy plan plan needed write need someone listen judge many people judge life entire family nobody sits fucking listens thats want someone anyone fucking listen cant normal others things ease hell even accident sometimes never able made decision killl august cried much long time sad feel option feel sad family hate world bawling eyes first time happened even ex used put effort creating funny deep conversations shed make quite surface level replies thought severely depressed mind making effort missing something many hobbies works pub cant talk interests really think kinda likes textiles anymore focused job probably mention really really shy admitted example meet person nervous physically shaking minutes relaxes incurable disease excruciatingly painful everyday want die rid pain tried every treatment hope embarrassing want die function normal human incurable disease gay suck pp well saw post found suck pp soo gay suck ur pp ps gay totally normal ashamed im going kill life keeps getting worsei care make sad die anymore fuck one cares care feel im casket something really stupid got drunk interacted horribly meds anyway cant remember im charged two felonies mi dont even know ill able job im convicted let alone go law school ive studying approval state bar become lawyer cant go lawschool let alone decent paying job ill kill self im scared parents find cant cant cashier rest life throw feels life something cant remember im sober feels really risk ready goi lost everyone somehow got back thats im fucking damaged nothing got better years thing helped soft drugs never tried im fucking ready go dont want anymore peace wirh im failure cant end ithello guys signed reddit im attending vocational school last year one best students year lot bad things happened school startes year parents finally told truth divorce years telling bullshit truth even terrible thought school started first everything going quite well close friend mine hes big brother often call big brother rough time never told said know pulled worried much always afraid might something bad bullshit promised never something bad long fell mentally ill started going therapy friend got back didnt able go school maybe weeks started getting bad marks worse marks got worse mental condition got ended going school months school year almost ive failed almost subjects feel ive failed ruined life help brother even know bad feel cant tell wan na ruin life make sad already feel died thousand times cant die real really want end want pain stop cant reason thing keeps big brother hes best friend wan na ruin life butwhat now therapy going nowhere pills make everything worse friend happy matter cant take easy way really know anymore ten minutes take part research studyhi rredflagwatch trainee clinical psychologist undertaking research relation thoughts redflag study concerned people struggle low mood develop thoughts redflag regard hoping recruit people experienced thoughts redflag anyone participate received permission moderator forum post link study questionnaire takes approx minutes complete study entirely anonymous draw one four amazon vouchers made take part really appreciate participation thank advance take part link httptinyurlcomhglqwg one best films seen anyone knock movie befuddles imagination first goodings harriss performances simply spectacular especially gooding way describe acting spectacular imagine difficult play character pull see gooding performance magical plot based true person goes lives characters go action buffs might little slow action film definitely give movie deserves nothing less deactivated social media one even noticedno one even people talk every day every day becomes harder dont know anymore disappeared almost two weeks one even cared feel drop dead one notice either hate everything want ok cant dont know anymore see point life made wonderous thing people cant seem see thatill start asking question point life reading everyone seems different answers question none seem right im years old depression past two years overweight originally believed reason depression started going gym eating healthier way combat actually made amazing progress far im still unhappy though clearly issue cant believe im naive thought thing wrong currently second year college uk pretty much dropped point attended now days go im discovering useless thing call life ive failed education im struggling find job money name whatsoever around see successful people fucking hate much much envy others wish people possible thing anymore tried ive given caring days nobody speak seems understand mind dropping planet right peace finally still feel though hope need find life means thats issue hand maybe time may come soon maybe later life wish something take away now deal thoughts feelings think fucked worki dealing depression life gotten worse past months college graduation bad tendency selfsabotage succumbing pressure others disappoint took crappy parttime job loathed parents stfu working choose unemployed go work barely acknowledgement boss work mentioned job description enough today got offered another job today went office let key id walked back entrance one see nobody called anything figured notice even bother email boss quit send work finished point even care paid hours worked means going person hand worksheet logged hours bring finally got fulltime job got scared told start week emailed boss start th november new boss know wants talk phone coming monday wtf say feel fucking loser maybe say start wednesday idk feel fucked majorly end dont know anymorei used lurk id find solace words said others left got better im life barely started dont know anymore want happy dont know dobank account overdrawn havent eaten days paid weeks friends turn family doesnt give shit help son buy second car mean friends ive never friends high school quickly realized forcing way none really wanted years later havent left house anything work made friends coworkers hate hate everything life think im going opt tomorrow im tired living look cat httpsimgurcomaykseunq cute got done jacking feel sad yall cheer mood end shit trying funny cope god im lonely im even lonely want someone cut going gone soon enough thank reddit support timeive finally started bleeding site given lot support last couple years couple people even tried stop end thank hope least die maybe people wont hate much want hereive never depressed whole life family longer talk ive deleted social media except reddit live boyfriend fuck felt wanted felt loved two years makes feel shit express frustrations invalidates feelings calls crazy says people usually say im telling summer told kill one occasion went vegas actually purposefully sliced leg open badly night vegas massacre happened bad concert right uncle died year go january father feels father figure look died cant see point even loaded gun including silencer wake anyone loudly everyone work id feel awful ive got everything ready problem im pussy want live want hurt want find im going burn forever hell even though think exists happened exist ive already lived full lifetime pain cant break even decided id bathroom bit easier clean even though know itll everywhere pretty much least run shower lot one loves one cares family friends children pets im burden everyone knows want wish stop bitch pull trigger hey girl creative writing class cant come second line ran pickup lines think need go bed instead using brain come impractical pickup lines socially unacceptable hour morning feel sad empty feel feel empty nothing bad even happening right still feel bad point pain fucking stop wish end tired living fake life around fake people tired putting soul work earn live fake lifei know vague really fed living tired even thinking want end feels reached mental limit earlier used vent frustrations feel bit better lost energy talk looks dreamy thinking end desires anymore problems somehow magically disappear still live want put stop dont energy wish die need stuff kms idk stuff go together mentally ill suicidal people last straw set go nyc smarter lads ladettes ampxb httpspreviewredditehnulpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsabcbcfcbaddabd mmmm okay guess today seriously thought killing contemplated premeditated murder think killing love way love watching video plane crashes comments someone talking tragedy someone responded bitch happened years ago wat whats favourite candysweets drugs chocolate resent kids daysi keep thinking robe belt efficient assume keeps getting easier imagine finish stars aligning make happen say goodbye thing preventing kids guess yet feel much better without eventually forget right fudge probably mom days resent keeping alive never temptation slice wrist itmade secondary account dont want people know worried know thatd id never far enough actually urge overwhelming times scares need vent guess dont know anymore im stuck home live biggest sources negativity sadness life yet leave im still dependent years till degree leave place good hope ill live see happen im done flame slowly dying cant bring energy keep fighting didnt check rules sub searched sub concerning redflag went rules mods please delete im sorry inconvenience needed head film well one ordinary soapies relating day day events half dozen families whose lives intertwinedbroken relationshipsbuilding new friendships street bashings near accidents hopes dreams even discovery baby discarded bushes mixture eventsbr br fortunately film maker 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talk first two games despair girls anime fun reddit discord communication idea making film beatles sounds doomed idea production catch idea actual historic beatles perhaps best try recreate past produce illustration works best available beatles material exactly birth beatles offers us simple story known us without extravaganzabr br spoilers br br warned everything accurate beatlesgraduates might expect beatles seen performing songs hardly even composed time beatles perform ask ps love even dont bother beatlesgraduates see beatles film performed songs actually hamburg younger viewers might anymore recognize beatles learned know original hamburg repertoire johnny b goode stu sutcliffes love tender retainedbr br guys play beatles production scarcely look originals rest film still make good viewing film rest fairly accurate guy plays lennon good rest band bad either brian epstein great moment sacks pete best group probably memorable scene whole film bonus see original cavern club film please aware film nothing radio city music hall archivist re music halli know associated new york venue films theodore music hall rockettes film wonderful ice skaters plus superb actors fun thought know truly wonderful film never guess murderer watching filmtill end superb plot beautiful ice skating one never sees kind performances roxy theater center theatres new york city ice skating performances stage give fake hope tell friends family sad sad ones people mean make feel x worse one cares feel please help go ask please give methods people hyping among us low iq know iq gamers play town salem superior game filler filler filler allowed feel sorry myselfi always fucking strong around people acting things fucking matter shit everything alright fuck everything though cant anything right cant tell someone hey curse ill kick youfrom game im mod cant go school talking people fucking hard left take online classes even emailing fucking teachers prove fucking hard always help mom back hurts lot legs give walks using walker much money finally got tired falling hurting legs give dad want help son matter gets mad go brother school work one time mom asking help something said ugh agree argument suppose married sick health thing agreed take care one will help grandpa unable grandpa likes things though usually putting lot work work bother taking care mom affects us mentally much im tired cat room meows time anything hard sleep summer hot try leave door open cant cat im tired sleeping finally affect getting edge exhausted illness mom watching hurt falls mainly makes sad illness sometimes think typical thing fucking unfair things happened illness painful okay hurts four currently sleep ive done something bad finally told mod much longer ugh hard feel ive disappointed rules changed yet jsut leave leave life hardly feel sorry others feel sorry situations mine illness either skin condition back issues fall skin condition rash type thing lesions painful made internally sick vomiting internal bleeding stomachkidneyheart pain pain aftger surgery messed pain killers waking feeling ripped fuck open wheel chair months friends ignoring guess weird person wheel chair scars arms legs skin condition always explain others judged people judging pills mainly steroids skin know mean know judge still illness clear still day joint pains live rest life fear coming back come back time always check body signs nightmare speaking nightmares normal things attacked raped normal talk certain people car explode losing house realities scary cars always break cant buy new car spend time moving back forth parents grandparents becasue drive us anymore cars broken grandparents house bed nbever one year blessing enjoy small things many big things bed big thing dresser got two things year enough clothes take two washes instead one thatsm ore clothes ive still fit one big wash though good htings life shit always hide sad though time cry feel sorry without feeling shit people handle much right jsut stupid dramatic bitch cry ive cried long hard bottle emotions inside ill sublit change mind stay silent quite often im tired maybe getting chest help finally sleep doubt really really wan na die right nowive feeling suicidal long time im sick hospitalized days weeks ago feeling better thoughts back ive tried many coping skills im different meds ive months im therapy nothing working im fed want die im sick tired feeling way want end dont see another way feel option yall shit going talk want hear dont want reddit know dm dont want know kindly continue scrolling inauguration day feels holiday holiday ive year everything feel something actually happening got question im looking good gaming chair around less idc office chair long comfortable reclining function footrest thing im going try please sw may last hopeive tried kill times two asked help last time sent mental hospital six days found girlfriend tried timeand failed outpatient inpatient got help learned cope prescribed depression bipolar add medicine improved leaps bounds past month ive pissed reason finally broke today formulated plan next attempt two hours take half bottle prozac wait thirty minutes call police hospital time win dont well guess ill win plan taking life soon know probably one give shit susie q one rare sweet movies give warm feeling bittersweet wholesome characters fun captivating first thought movie clich cuddly movie bore five minutes wrong made tear times plot enticing making root good guys loved movie still remember today years later recommend highly anyone movie family oriented worry unsuitable content truly disney show movies par susie q popular family oriented channel world disney show one go susie q tf calculate percentages look im rated kind thing fuck nut november homies less nut november point nut november learn discipline self control fight porn addiction going one extreme functional set number nuts allowed entire month say porn allowed save actually want jerk way actually feel good thus getting rid thing becomes routine say benefits nnn way way bigger normal way learn healthy masturbation habits probably want stick afterwards become happier unlike traditional way hope someone reads ive writing stuff existential notebook hope someone read fully gets removedno matter hard try separate real world always cone back might hate belong plane existence sometimes choose embrace fantasy escape world endless torment end well go back tell existence feeble one moment entirety time stay little live life way meant lived always seek happiness make us feel sad content world offer grateful challenges faced molded now grateful friends existed existence intertwined grateful universe might insignificant speck dust desert unknown proportions might never fully explore day fade time least experience wonders world offer us smile never give problems arrive never permanently theyll eventually fade eventually fade let us live wonderful life leave mark mark surely echo throughout eons come verses created importantly sake future nobody sure hope reached point whilst happy skipped part reader fellow human life gift cosmos wise pay respects thank truly nobody watched neighbors todaytoday canada day stood inside house peering window watching everyone leave festivities saw people leaving kayaks dogs swimwear drink coolers blow rafts heard laughing chattering singing huge wake call made think hell life agoraphobia generalized anxiety disorder messed sleeping schedule sleep pm generally people leaving fun day getting ready go sleep spend time awake panic attacks laying bed laptop cant much chronic nausea hate routine hate life want anxiety anymore im tired fighting cant im truly donei think im going give everything figured theres nobody gets happy overall happy see hear point waking everyday theres one wake wake things called self centered degraded feel stuck know anymore try better try end falling someone live light longer know mom better either way ive done much wrong life know bares one supporting im good nothing talents beautiful sort way know im life stopped caring ill go ahead stop caring everyone im tired people expecting something nothing literally nothing theres use people say purpose everyone seriously purpose lot happier everyones life better nobody see someone might laugh pathetic try open nobody cares want someone talk memy therapy appointment thursday ive got make want someone talk awhile feel entire life lie going geieving process almost literally killing venting sorry im posting much let start saying im safe dont active plans harm anything crazy im suicidal thoughts ive weeks last attempt ive cutting thigh last weeks maybe week cut helps release stress dont know im writing guess able vent part wants die im tired life feeling repeat part doesnt want see kids grow thoughts normali going huge amount distress suicidal thoughts frequency increasing greatly counselling gave panic attacks understand people ok fact itto elaborate know people manage wake everyday waste hours life go job care less scrape struggle live days weekend whats point im exhausted even enjoy days sure save retire time retire im gon na old enjoy weirdest thing knowing im complete fuck death best option one willing except instead living im living everyone life everyone feel im one people im special talents understand life decent best whatever job wont matter cause likely going cubicle job obscure company thats likely gon na go years dont brought world drunken mistake im expected move life im ok im suppose ok fact im going work die never fully life want literally impossible unless win lottery spent six years abusive relationship child together born made way ended fleeing several houses apartments trying stay away theres long history past year rough high functioning autistic large circle friends due social redflagit mostly mom dad girlfriend yearsmy mom passed away cancer back april losing rough fathertoday particularly awful interaction customer job caused redflag attack boss felt bad gave rest afternoon arrived home hours earlier expected walked girlfriend sex fatheri completely lost verbally threatened attack called police citation appear court making threatsi feel betrayed two people left worldi alone right want cut throat bleed need someone talk please need friend right nothing nobody crisis right need someone talk basically im quite sad right appreciate advice cope basically mom dad divorced stayed friends continued living whole life arguments scare overall pretty nice even heard mom say remarried unfortunately today dad caught cheating phone another girl son whole year going actually mom obviously mad planning move october came said im still moving october find place yourselfyoure coming worst part days birthday coming someone give advice cope maybe niece home im officially uncle now sister husband newborn baby returned home hospital today words describe excited itll help niece grow thrive many years come today officially become uncle cant wait share life advice hobbies niece welcome family emma hopelessi thought today world without instantly knew answer better one notice loser gone think tried think friends currently everyone never made impact annoying guess leave earth skills fallback nothing planned future im pretty hopeless nothing amounts anything think happy chemicals brainwhen angry chemicals brain controlling emotions embarrassed chemicals brain dictating emotionsi go foreverwhy live feelings dictated something deal realized slave emotions cant work fail year alternativetold weeks ago id work hard exams end may spent past weeks fuck completely unable put pen paper slightest university needed put working going die might seem extreme perhaps even plain stupid ive given lot thought simply inevitable well start immediate implications succeeding take heavy toll first id leave home possibly move grandparents temporarily even ive led sheltered sheltered existences kill end mutilating performing kind menial task complete lack real world experience combined unable actually venture survive independently due personal nature quickly lead worsening mental state eventual redflag chance gaining kind meaningful employment really desire working slavery alternative speak people without protection afforded internet obviously without job cant eke decent existence im far proud person stomach homeless came kill heartbeat basically cant run uni spend another years hiding real world alternative dying quite frankly means long gone now im really sure posting simply bitch unfair personally perceive opposed actually seeking help main reason posting honest simply say tried help completely understand post ignoredremoved read far thanks im sorry inevitable spellinggrammar errors cartoon crushes ngl asian girl kim possible bad think go anymorei even know begin person talk walked morning fight last night first time ive caused fight lead leaving first time come back even responded know whats wrong never think putting others first realize im selfish careless plain bitch late blows face thought good going stressful time im never good stress let little things lash people response thats friends left im introverted make new ones im weak emotional never advance career end fucking relationship even married two years yet think redflag occasionally everyone better without constantly screwing honestly think things keeping going sleep last time cat imagine getting put back shelter something family freaked answer anyones calls day im tired screwing time feeling way think make divorce man love much ive built life know happier without problems cause cant bare lose guess theres selfishness ive tried medications tried focusing better person theres hope guess sorry rambling one talk especially want give everything im tired trying failing nd grade made economic system pringles made dictatorship based pringles best friends buy pringles kids didnt wed trade things later became super valuble id give people pringles swings etc became super cocky bit months teachers caught finally stopped economic systems formed thousand years ago became king lead modern history solid b moviebr br jake weber understated delivery refreshing time top performances liked relationship father son liked family dynamics wendigo looks silly representation kids toy dead deer amalgamation see psychological story freddy slash em instant gratification flick watch reflect inner child movie might say finebr br nice work nobody cares im itand take hospital socialmental deprivation basically torture theres way help need without bussed fucking emergency room billed im nothing statistic piggy bank break money cant afford regular treatment anyways cant talk friend want friend anymore keep talking killing every time see wish alone know happen baby dog die world cruel nobody care enough take care die reason live find someone take care im gone course nobody going care im ready late im going make mistake made last time im going tell anyone im ready hi help please read whole thing judging basically think im becoming transphobic piece shit fun jokes aside never treat anyone differently judge choosing identify different gender nonbinary friend im always careful use correct pronouns name thing judge read whole thing cant imagine gender dysphoria may ive never thought genuinely believe gender dysphoria makes feel really awful seriously along couple problems im losing sleep cant focus online school coz feel awful genuinely believe gender dysphoria couple friends tried help including one perhaps supportive person know still believe please help anything convince argue kill lmao anyway thank coming ted talk im piece shit im tiredwell im tired im tired constantly disappointing parents im tired getting shitty marks school im tired downstairs holed basement im afraid parents im afraid im going grow im afraid im going become mother tears today know grow im fat lazy lethargic procrastinator cant seem fix disappointed parents much every day keep crying little inside sense responsibility love family keep disappointing im father mother know feel im waste space waste life im contributing anything family im suicidal im pretty damn fucking close cool malegender neutral names im uhhh naming original character nothin haha wish familyi long dead im scared feel agony stay alive solely please others want way least painful dont know thoughts redflag life seems much effort ma bit current situation first thing im depressed im even unhappy fact happy relationship supportive family good friends im bit cynical im usually rather good spirits bad times still little kid abusive stepparent hes outta life now plus think really relevant suicidal thoughtsiam student university zoology iam well im overly smart little motivation even though find topic interesting socially awkward ive grown accept really see implications negative motivation issues ish years old ive never really passionate anything video games anime chilling friends girlfriend im thoughts redflag im thoughts redflag think effort takes happy life worth actual happiness gain struggle hard uni course fully prepared likely fail realistically may possibly low paying job animal related jobs tend low paying worry money rest life try enjoy good moments support hobbies know sounds really negative guess honestly think realistic view future life think average joes life yes good times happy times life seems lot stress effort happiness know normal people stress way jobs life etc motivation guess laziness core stress make happy rich set life even bother committing redflag amount stress life drastically go obviously deaths occur etc etc stress still minimal doubt accomplish anything change anyones life drastically know make people happy probably missed x amount time think im kind replaceable people lives thought ways worry im going near future something im considering moment per say something consider moving house long thought decision moment im ready commit redflag fear death fear pain death may bring death incredibly curious death brings something always option always say never sometimes obvious think rather homeless sometimes know coming someone whos never homeless sounds bad feel rather go hungry cold stick really stressful timeline life conclude know post must sound selfish petty compared everyone elses problems im sure even place im trying understand feel way thoughts prominent going stress uni particularly want tell family friends type stage intervention something sorry post messy hard understand edit formatting today sundayive resolved see another one guys made public discord server among us invited dm server link server pretty well defined lobbies voice chat non voice chat games cant take voices head anymore want end allive lot mental trouble lately whether im work roommates voices tell say bad things bad awful illegal things put prison dont want say act thoughts push horrible thoughts away repeatedly tell try mind mind pushes want say loud feels almost compulsive especially bad work dont want go details graphic disturbing every time interact customer voices start tell bad thoughts every time tell pushes want say loud brings extreme discomfort interaction start worry whether ive said loud start panic internally whether say loud end telling managers said call cops arrest even im roommates silence im still tempted say things make literally want kill arrested cant take anymore mind turning dont mean anything comes mind never act im worried ill say intrusive thoughts loud ruin life forever im sick every day occurrence driving insane feel way stop alone rest life interaction im sick shit dont know whats wrong mint choc chip ice cream httpsformsgleugzjvqhmjeov anyone shrooms theyre amazing guys seem nerdy go near em surface written wind lurid glossy soap opera sexual dysfunctions texas oil family underneath deep social commentary s life director douglas sirk scores another univeral sudser robert stack falls love lauren bacall problem stacks best pal rock hudson loves stack finds hes sterile bacall ends pregnant fireworks fly alltoogood dorothy malone oscar portrayl texas biggest nympho shunned hudson good epic soap opera cleaned daily playlist years finally cleared playlist years listen every song decide want keep delete went songs im feeling super weird nostalgic love good song recommendations case didnt know reddit feature lets create custom avatar go settings stuff premium base customization still pretty good something thats started happening recently sometimes world becomes unreal things houses blow minddont even started wheels weird things normal state mind barely impact kind trance everything becomes surreal googled feeling results seem related redflag wanted hear others experience told crush liked title says last night around said love explained kinda happened felt really weird tbh honestly didnt expect fantasies come true response though preeetty cool kinda shakey became reality guess im pretty happy nervous hell im still confused even happened felt still feels fever dream advice thee coward set deadline small large aligned crescendo favourite song though replayed bit minideadline fanfare terrifying terrific trembles dont pussy self destruct seconds minutes hours cry helpim story lol one person reads im fine im high adhd im medications grades mediocre basic thing dont feel happy sad never one felt sad felt happy something brain switched th grade never felt thing worth awhile keep saying mental health recover attention seeking im reacting emotions dont count much peers family hard make eye contact closest friends im losing friends never harder ambition sports parents make happy never liked done anything always closest friends parents sometimes feel text give something value car rides food value anyone much husk person feel better gone without give anymore im tired able meet eye contact friend ethan th grade im tired things parents im tired feeling sad im angry happy good im selfish dont deserve im husk keeps giving feels dont presence dont know going kill everyday seems better option number factors make easy state still think important science fiction film made despite acting outdated dialogue etcbr br first scale imagination describing krell humanoid race native planet dead million years advanced earth humansus technology particularly cubic mile machinebr br second music sound effects inseparable creates eerie unearthly feeling unlike traditional classical musicbr br third monster powerful deadly envisioned based real science break laws physics biologybr br finally importantly forbidden planet movie made attempts incredibly succeeds making honest intelligent mercilessly logical statement limits ceiling human biological entitys development matter long survive speciesbr br words predicts inevitable destiny generation grown gen z teachers gon na mr johnson send timmy principals office acting bit sus venthello first think ive seriously considered redflag feel im heading towards im male ive quit highschool jobs currently unemployed sad story amazing loving family without exception care financially emotionally mom one amazing loving persons lucky meet fact life great makes hate even feel piece shit worthless id hate cause pain family ive living life past years quit highschool isolated know quit isolated im tired watching time pass years cant stable job commit anything really said think id kill im getting fed sometimes honestly hope id courage kill cause momentary pain family freeing burden rejected crush sad bu come nose drinking coke dae really shitty day think theres always redflag brings smile face knowing theres way helljust wondering sub im backthe thoughts gone feel free happy done without sub cant thank enough anyone talked thank seriously woke today lot thinking made realize small part large picture gone picture know sounds stupid share anyone needs talk message ill listen promise thank lost job stupidityi started working hotel easy enough job one guests seduced im depraved female attention swallowed hook right needless say broke heart know expecting told family great time alone sitting train crying cant face going back hotel cant humiliation set failure naivete think going drive kill see next life live ill reply within h im going school pog surprise stuff good home whyd gay im happy met shes nice im happy shes friend idk man want something romantic someone im perfectly fine friends shes really great really wish options yk idk man maybe shell introduce someone fuck fuck fuck everything tried hard going give may well fucking suffer fuck fuck fucking ask fucking human make mistakes fuck supposed die fuck point guys kill fuck point make point well ya see everytime try one thing important gone longer fucking happy fuck learned stocks stuff fucking rich guess sleep life away fuck everyone biggest fuck goes fuck fuck everything im done twitter theres bunch kpop stans making fun right now extremely disrespectful ive lost faith humanity created originally named mortimer walt disney changed name wife convinced mickey mouse become staple disney brand always thought cartoon first cartoon feature mickey fact third matter six minute animated short enjoyable story sees mickey piloting steamboat captain pete takes bridge stopping pick cargo minnie mouse missing boat lifted drops music sheets goat eats mickey helps crank tail play tune getting animals percussion pete comes along stop making mickey peel potatoes mickey mouse number greatest pop culture icons number greatest cartoons good strangers love know rules supposed kid past future movie lot problems ghost strong kid man piece crap im still confused supposed abortion strange strange movie mess mind scary confusing oh cares milo worth itbr br score need help month year questioned gender times know female sometimes feel masculine sometimes feel gender watch anime hmmm think neon genesis evangelion relates much theres lesbian player school description required continuing lifefirst cant believe im usually kept everything thoughts keep coming now internet longer provide answers motivation believe talking friends family isnt helping make feel worse avoid social medias may know username usually use games doubt use reddit even subreddit guys good strangers now cant even describe im scared people scared try scared communicate pessimist feeling worthless cant anything properly life im age need find jobs social anxiety personality cant even talk properly every interview end bad every new interview always remind previous went fail tried always chickened ending scared even trying anything new worse im man even future far dont dare even look girlfriend feel know left know better end gossip behind destroy image community slightest small possibility found one wont left make think destroyed someone daughter future deserve better life normal men lost father last month one keep going life mother want make proud want happy 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try best friends family little memory possible leave memory strangers im doctor first job made ill hours stress repeated infections colleagues patients especially colleagues got cfsme taking medication depression suicidality got sick march colleague begged work let things remotely meetings telephone consultations happen home many colleagues different supervisors supervisor agree play health go risk covid infections phone calls people type letters cant even stand half hour sure lets make worse tried apply jobs even secretary past year luck pandemic even jobs family lives abroad countrys borders closed friends health drove probably helped charming depressive personality ive made preparations already ive started say goodbye people letters finances everything taken care im relieved everything ending finally wanted leave memory somewhere say happens doctors depressed sick everyone nobody take care us either thank reading goodbye right thing isnt always right thing simple lt guys help cyberbully someone dont worry deserve theyre worst kind person discord dilemma real talk real manhere real talk fat one wants ugly others recoil countenance mentally ill people distance fact life three things align sure sentenced life loneliness regret know sweat desperation lay bed wondering anyone outside family even cares slip noose around neck take many pills slit wrists take last exit life gives maybe next time attractive intelligent funny strong time night im tired going life alone im tiredim exhausted weight disappointment others trusted end efforts pure clean silence silence write letter one friend family hopefully forgive im tired everyones reusable last option first thought ring normal movie ordinary plot surprised course plot simple one girl love two men hitchcock brings us silver platter laughter fear compassion anguish way depicts popular crowds fair strength attraction girl men tragic elements come together techniques open mind greatest moviesnorth northwest rope etc master great even thirties whats wrong mei done rn hate much keep paying ppls mistakes family drama daily basis fault power energy motivation anything im drowning toxicity physical illness nothing everything consuming im torn one side wan na kms im piece shit petty excuse human side know whats waiting aint gon na pretty everyone looks even wan na change minds anymore im sick rteenagers look new pet paperclip please give platinum cuz never got dangerous decisionso im huge pc nerd ordered ft ethernet cable faster internet run pc room router im scared might desperate try hang self cancel order know anymoreif care go post history theres extra details feel explaining losing completely fucked months gone everything still feels fever dream went full nc th last month take seeing completely flipped anymore lies false promises made us care anymore seeing replaced cant anymore even got puppy help mistake got told seeing one make happy always talked getting one together got deep chance itll fix things didnt love pup feel cant connect reminding mainly distracting ways im trying cope apparently told roommate email scared send feel anything good anyway sent now hate whole situation even wan na try bothering love feel itll always go back somehow think survive another loss wan na feel normal want life back even though life shitty still really depressed least grieving loss well rock bottomwell title states ive hit rock bottom previous post alot workings ex years leaving social anxiety inability conversation woman incredible know even bother tell last time intimate anyone three weeks ago approached parents paying rent live home far knew everything kosher sit explained due rejection christianity household rules leave immediately okay one sibblings gay atheist stay know bat going say comply time much religion rules mental physical abuse take anymore left without word full time job although enough money ive able rent hotel room past week money left car good shape real conversation long time lonelyness getting call weakness whatever see much point continuing life ill never make debt land better job struggle food week hell idea im going eat toinght put aside nice regiment pills allow escape imprisionment tourture reddit give reason even bother going individuals joined subreddit past months redflagthe silent pandemici havent visited subreddit past months today damn number subscribers increased around cant help link covid associated stress isolation sadly redflag remains silentunspoken pandemic everyone needs hear hope okay need anything tell actually tell feeling right now honest make happydeath hate stop asking hey whats anyone bored yo anyone wan na chill group chat made made ppl make new friends chat literallyyyy anything ye comment invite heard helped please ive seen enoughim using throwaway case work time ive tried times last months cant even right took pills booze woke puked whiskey shitty cheap brand got drunk started slash wrists passed wound bleeding lot got lightheaded blood loss back yard tried tried jumping river near asshole good samaritans asshole boat pulled even though struggled many things gone wrong lately job loss miscommunication gas company resulting gas shut yesterday straightened supposed back mondayso good wife son bankruptcy loss house couple years ago move rented shithole thing totally fucked brain shitty story brought wifes friends daughter christmas eve hate christmas anyway story something eaten away every minute every day anyhow son going college hes got shit together wife beautiful guys way better hitting theyll sharks circling couple days theyll fine mother still fucked fathers death couple years ago impacted one knows give shit im feeling whiskey right im going go dig stash oxy reddit recommend rconservative rtrans cant edit im conservative transgender lol hey posting throwaway account obvious reasons english first languagebut graduated last year school feel really hopeless idk schools really know personality want school faking class clown etc accepted make friends went pretty rough break first girlfriend year ago break able perform bed girls performance redflag ultimately led wanting anything girls tried viagra etc work time redflag become worsenow alone room hopeless wishing sleep forever motivation anything end drinking andor smoking weed watch youtubenetflix job something soon leave feel really whack hoping someone give encouragement support insecure depressed close killing myselfi want cant good evening peoplei know people x bigger problems hereso consider venti suicidali value life going hurt anyone thiesince young struggled nerd guy problems fewer friends bla bla blai diagnosed thyroid issuethe years later diabetesthen failed year universitybecame pharmacisti many notredflag clicksex free notredflag due legalsocial restrictions friendships decreasing drastically lost go except worki wait feel happy attachedi want something years feel grateful happy seconds flash gratitude back square zero become withdrawn panic future daily basisi work hours daily days retail pharmacy pm pm life go want stare roofi built future around physician father othersfailed thisthe career fulfilling coworkers people underaverage iq think need something betteri reach know isi approaching want waste life panicking getting rare disease thyroid nodules turning cancer lateror thinking depressing career possibility developmenti approaching livedonly boring something guy boring farce career daily meds minor inconvenience talk redflag friends think jokefor talked redflag majority friends think joking yeah going kill buddy mine said yeah ahead tonight somehow got subject redflag packed guys yeah join jokingly know people know im fucked guess think im joking guess finally friends laugh care tried kill years ago regret didnt finish myselfim tired hearing stored form people guy tried jump bridge regretted never hear people tried kill sad didnt work actually went bridge regret jumping wish succeeded killing first time tried life going unbelievably worse kid innocent gone heaven killed chance ripped forever saved much pain suffering better job kid ive abused many times feel psyche irreparableim damaged goods good upbringing raised abusive mother married man abused us moved father married woman tore gaslit daily attempted redflag times teenager moved away across country college thought id fresh start surround good people freshman year college raped months met guy seemed perfect made fucking happy love bombed gave everything emotionally physically even financially started abusing emotionally sexually dumped year text told everyone abused found hed cheated multiple times isolated person friend town point kept coming place wanting make wed sex hed tell worth shit remember asking flatly said easier finding someone tinder point cracked admitted hospital multiple times severe panic attacks even remember person never even recovered still feel two years later found slandered greatly across town pretty much everyone knew abuser even speak atrocities without immediately shouted told dont listen liar abused jake tried multiple times speak apologize whatever ghosted banned rape support groups abuser ended another relationship started great exgirlfriend got involved turned guy still feelings cheated multiple times body shamed compared ex got addicted drugs reminded daily wasnt girlfriend piece ass parties made game throwing beer face friends laugh relationship ended essentially started fucking someone front party humiliated front everyone next day made public facebook posts psychotic even though shit cry even say anything party cried sat outside chainsmoking madeout couch house yesterday found first abusive ex raped another girl finally felt experience substantiated second account well livid hed done someone told people getting together cancel fucking finally asked part girl wanted speak another one victims alone told even abuse substantiated people still support well girl im impression girl thinks victim ive silenced years tried post abuse support sub got downvoted guess im wrong deserve support im healthy relationship friends boyfriend friends try build tell im attractive im wanted im important feel barren bounces none sinks know think im beaten cant even internalize positivity love anymore sex feels nothing anymore boyfriend loving cuddling feels nothing ive tried past year feel something never comes think killing everyday ive tried took long able chicken now really feel im far gone tested disappearing last year im social media except reddit gave people phone number one contacted friends reached last months went pretty much year even thinking whole think affect friends family thingi really think majority forget move within weeks ive even lifelong friends stopped talking went social media even though number forget move deeply affect anyone think hurt boyfriend father father getting old enough deal long boyfriend still young meet someone probably fairly soon even even know im posting guess wanted someone know yes ive therapy tried multiple antidepressants ive even abuse rape specific therapy put bandaid problem nice pleasant funny earthshattering good job showing behind scenes world theater groups lives actors three witches great offstage assume movie works wonderfully lots apparent inside jokes one involved theater im better getting bad essay due tommorow scary gone wrong oh sorry maybe got attention trough bad joke help little pleasee dont usually ask others advices something essay presentation due tomorrow know fun facts anything short personal experience graphic cards expansion cards really appreciate share really short fun fact experience thank much lt think failedmy friend another state told loved goodbye posted instagram love friends tale pain away dont know address cant find none friends answering ive called times instagram snap dont know please help thing thats keeps alive movie really makes think life culture family structures situational actions give plot post think others beat already hope despite reading opinions site take chance see movie went see movie husband friend must say movie total silence theater minutes looked behind everyone theater staring screen lost thought make delve deep psychological abyss ponder several thingsbr br much society influence life lives generationbr br long someone pay mistakes madebr br second chance given realizedbr br better live box live br br questions intended show approval disapproval lelands actions want opinion way dictate take away film giving see still lost thought attempting answer many questions film enjoyed greatly hope film trying answer questions condone action promote punishment movie trying make us evaluate lives take rose colored glasses us view world throughbr br great movie stars handle know point dropped going school forfew years last every single friend family never talks know nothing push everyone away handle around people dread going alway smile make stupid jokes soon back room sit dark put something tv time something animated feels break reality lay day night feeling empty randomly crying tried cutting self nothing put scars attempted times times nothing made feel shit think going end soon complete something bucket list handle one talk last years even text phone point search something never hour day trying job save money thing end motivated see self hating everything liked feeling even family seem stranger kept trying tell self young understand anything drugs causing stopped nothing change going th grade parents going make make th even recconect old freinds moved deleted contact information sorry rumbling doubt anyone cares read wanted something somewhere proves existed getting left behind anyone wan na join among us hideandseek game tried went well im trying im wondering anybody wants join among us game hideandseek version pretty much know game imposter announces themself beginning game theres reporting calling meetings imposther tries kill crew mates crew makes try finish task win additional things lights imposters disadvantages sabotages lights game settings imposter emergency cool player speed crewmate vision imposter vision kill cooldown sec kill distance short long task short common code gjukxq guys excellent anything put public first class musicianship band amazing thankful live world rush exists future generations never able see mastery live person dvd enjoy throughly recently able see incredible musicians play houston tx blown away missed show power windows say better everyone embrace guys teach others real musicianship never tight well put together trio lifetime lets hope pray retire anytime soon anybody wan na join minecraft world xbox name pleasedbanjo returned help now one need help returned think youre group world help girl always uses emoji fucking clue means responds frequently even flirty messages help teens nobody give two shits people bring value something suicidal people know everyone including cases parents case least give two flying fucks presence life unless value outweighs mental costs undergo around second show negative emotion first ones shit belittle negate resemblance emotion rather believe made reality rather understand truthwhat kind shitty person rather kick curb order save face rather help something goes wrongmy mother openly stated found boy youngest siblings one bore first grandson grandfather indian family moved us born brother moved back father died apparently big deal grandfatherits got fucked literally feel need justify existence picking skills useful future good computer tinker linux lot disassemble reassemble laptopwhat kind parent justifies saying right simply born kind parent belittles child extent even fully comprehend effect doingi done life done existence honestly done universe knowing matter many times die reincarnated wishful thinking know die going erased existence never even mattered always another person going nobody gives two shits downvote want getting repetitive day trying make friends pansexuals enjoy pancakes highschool stress aloneim high school year old teen utterly alone even friends feel uncomfortable place cant socialized people im shy pathetic cant take stress grades great cs bs ive stressing grades long time parents sent us fix grades really suck high school almost failed years middle school want straight know happened change mind last year failed got good grades every day parent say need study harder always compare brother hes smarter better son always scream left behind grades perfect brother always everything try friend better grades sociable parent talk grades tell okey need help nothing feel giving likes thats thanks giving ted talk goodbye im lost lifesince really remember sadness yes ups majority years filled sadness depression im close giving dont know anymore im born bullied every day locked toilets threw things started swimming got happy august parents got divorced led hear parents calling worsts things world even though told making really fucking sad really care half year now see parents parents see strangers friends seem immature dont know knowing hard happy time cant name one beautiful thing planet makes happy said self many times need wait move hard feel purpose world everything much better left im lost know self anymore im literally curious see side life im sick tired shit failed attempafter failed redflag attemp know feel set one throwing something traumatic back face took bunch drugs guess time im left feeling hollow empty inside start back sort normality anyone interested made community designed people talk currently life struggles success stories space people discuss whats currently going roversharinginc mommy issues kick wan na lobotomy filler filler biller unironically say pog bruh theres indian dude hasnt showered years married amp kids know fucked guy gets pussy dont know really feel say isnt really thingif gets buried thats ok samuel fuller knows war one directors american movie history accurately portray horrific experiences form motion picture pessimism idealism sounds little odd mix together work storyteller time hes always tell truth brutal put melodramatic constructs verboten deals postwar experience opening scenes big boom war bold point opening shot one big exclamation point seems continue rest scenes dead soldier ground camera pans see another soldier shot wartorn terrain simple direct language fuller punctuates intensity something interesting title song played opening credits irony sincerity beethoven music shootout americans nazis sgt david brent james best shot battle goes transitions treated woundsbr br might lead one believe somewhat conventional ww flick somewhat one usually find beethoven later extent wagner put images case instead fuller makes coming home kind movie though sense soldier comes home injured instead really going home brent stays germany hes fallen head heels woman helga susan cummings pretty good pulling german accent wants work smaller capacity military marry realize wants money food brother gets complex emotionally point revelation slightly naive heartfelt brent b theres underground hitler youth sect called werewolves want pick right hitler ended starting small despite argument within group attacking government thats embedded germany give brent describes blood transfusion plus footage nuremburg trials narrated think fuller quick nopunchespulled history nazi war crimes piece piece multifaceted look society dire straits immediate postwar environment rossellini handled way germany year zero fuller tackles layers first theres love story tragic downfall man cant see anything past thinks reasonable wife child way cant leave revelation hes partly swindled baker cummings along harold daye helgas young confused brother perform utmost detail emotions easy bmovie parts though couldve another layer political one struggle society come grips conquered mentality made sensationalized sure fuller respect making nazis total nograyarea thing theyre evil particularly cancel reason meet endsbr br finally theres layer style strangely absorbing probably one fullers talkiest films bad thing considering one best written scripts characters talk simply many platitudes exception small scene two characters talk hitler youth juvenile delinquents actually according fullers autobiography probably another layer consider subtext s period movies fuller shoots almost real european style hes going fight scenes battles editing always fast sometimes cut happen full minute longer theres odd tension grows especially theres something said character gets another one wildeyed suspicious fuller easily go big closeup theres sinister cold quality moving away two people conversation without simple overtheshoulder deal requires big brawl outside american military office nuremburg footage spliced franzs memories werewolves fuller stunning stylist everbr br hard find extremely worth either fan directors ww movies set germany even historybuff verboten intellectual experience strong emotional one cast better expected bmovie attitude towards equally damning thought provoking goodbyethats say end right read last words communicate goodbye often think powerful know finish typing end hear back think think dead desk think person find person tell dad words powerful im weak goodbye random fact mickey mouse first going named mortimer mouse changed mickey mouse excellent movie presented every year holidays christmas beautiful great acting john denver best ie sincere kind talented natural town georgetown colorado every bit lovely story maybe dont ptsd maybe im myselfevery time talk stupid trauma feel im faking shit stupid feel im pussy gets ptsd catfished still depressed helping year old suicidal thoughts shit fucking years ago im pathetic want sing dreamed dream thats feel free add thoughts fucking love song thought getting betteri know watched ozark one point bipolar guy talks wakes one day oh remember feel something think bipolar really relate part alright reason really feel emotions flips back remember still depressedthis kind fucked spend lot time thinking serial killer took entire extended family either live alone whatever end without making anyone sad yknow ruin almost certainly latter u want awards talk inevitable tell afraid let know everyone asks alright many us wish throw away social cultural obligations free us suspect dance movie dancing learning recognising looking life courage go search mr sugiyama middleaged member japanese society ballroom dancing viewed unsuitable behaviour br br one day mr sugiyama sees beautiful girl leaning window dancing acadamy fascinated eventually signs dancing lessons ashamed dancing afraid ridicule hides fact attending dancing classes colleagues familybr br hilarious scene mensroom office sugiyama watanabe workmate dances interrupted practising dance steps many funny warmhearted scenesbr br ending fairytale leaves viewer feeling goodbr br movie helped understand japanese people little better warm worthwhile film see first reply gets free award award go brrrrrrrrr mitten squad betrayed called metric something pretend units useless people est time zone canada mexico parts south central america united states advice talk someone specific manic anxietyi friend clearly depressed anxious im finding difficult help specific target anxiety climate change strongly defeatist attitude towards try conversation ask try professional help kind turtles says important thing cant live normal life hanging head getting worse recently hes acting strangely even difficult talk really able converse normally much social interaction result im really worried give one day something think forgive id really advice help way please help thank much probably going dead hours goes dear anyone even bothers read break everything touch broke family broke friends broke friends families broke life break everyone around everything problem involved make things better even know exist technically supposed born exist make life worse exist punching bag whoever wants hurt someone scapegoat every bad thing every day new problem life sick pretending getting better amount exercise meditation whatever fix mistake punished done many unspeakable things short life deserve guess really hope people pity sob story truly evil sight disgusts know people miss gone first know much hurt really spend time crying foot people see anyone crying granddad died died years ago assume years time people forget gone please look mum grandma tell fault knowing blame tell ok now pain tell love hurt many people past truly sorry every single person strangers worst enemies feel though need make amends die everyone know now sorry meet way sorry everything please better please live life wanted live make proud watch remember remember name remember storylove jadeaster final goodbye hopefully hospitalfirst time hospitalized including redflag attempts looks theyre involuntarily hospitalizing fun im super relieved though walking around getting ready find place totally cathartic felt good decision usually id anxious coward simple someone found hours later apparently iwas worried wake parents upset younger looking answers crying really theyve chatting normally staying doctors move still feel different empty except general anxiety tried mentally prepare distraught parents crying etc first attempt awhile ago casual far actually prefer want ask exactly involuntary hospitalization include outpatient beforehand group sessions color sometimes talk psychiatrist childrens outpatient im jason momoa slicks back hair hi old friend invited farewell party normally invites going away another country honest never close went different universities along well dinner party people female friends girlfriend guys whole night felt zoned felt horrible friendly talking others felt faded alcohol made even worse one guys remarked barely talked anyone whole night felt crushed gave usual xcuse tired difficult leave right away first leave felt giving officially came home cried yeah yr old dude cried party feel loser matter much force always loser give even trying anymore tired even hang people feel broken person slept naked one time jerked bed forgot school night mom woke fun trying explain naked covered cum filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler bruh imagine stalking ppl ew wtf yall yr old pedos anything better jus want kill jus want kill jus want kill killing requires courage motherland german army march ampxb httpspreviewredditwahiusskpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfebcfddcaa wan na sleep pain help help h please hate bad geometry dash making wan na die though nd level chaos gauntlet xl level irritating difficult im know next bit difficult cant finish ive trying level hour bursts today cant stop now fucking long boring colour scheme shit looks seizure flashing lights strobe effects going want finish level want annoying level fucking game ive done vast majority main game easy demon suffer ffs broooooo im excited college honestly intimidating cant wait go choose one sucks gone days people still remember need retake title want hurt familytheyre one exception real friends ive managed amass course life thats right whole friends care mom always kind gentle understanding person perhaps one point much contribued greatly sheltered upbringing used hold grudge agaisnt reason ive moved past best fantastic relationship dad child maybe years ive started properly things hes woodworker got making instruments finally real common interest grew sister whos year older brotherinlaw whos known whos helped considerably helped quotes despite good efforts feel beyond help got lifting made happy hes generally pretty cool guy finally nephews year old theyre little brothers honestly want disappoint family already failing function society early age fuck want ride try better last time posted someone linked good ive following advice eat better exercise best ability study countrys equivalent ged make efforts go still feel shit still feel progress extremely fragile still want living family feels living bubble much genuinely enjoy around fucking nothing leech ill help dad brotherinlaw work ask feel help besides completely useless barely member society yet keep around always upbeat positive future progress maybe much know bubble burst one day know im mentally ill family besides mom turns blind eye obvious fact im obsessed thought im gon na develop schizophrenia form psychosis might ocd anxiety whatever right even yet know proper name torment know im fucked core cant even fucking imagine functioning adult disaster mind one want making friends hard relationships impossible shit probably count number times ive basic physical contact girl two hands im terribly afraid people im gon na keep trying though know im likely gon na make cant rewire brain good diet exercise one day even loving family tired shit day maybe ill able go without causing much pain thanks reading hibr br heard lost coworker obvious differences opinion entertainment loved well watched episode early seasons bored tuned years stumbled upon lost bored current scifi fare wow surprised say gravity well damn got sucked pace scripting good flash forwardbacks lamer characters good favorite characters ben locke jacob richard alpert sayid jarrah sawyer hurley daniel faraday jin wife walt charlie desmond jacks dad jack michael definitely immature asshats spoiled immature kate step juliet way classy kate mr eko way underrated level charlie bad died guy dressed black talking jacob way back genuine curiosity whole great layered series looking morebr br regards pwease marry senpai im lonely need loveee oh senpai screams ohhhhh ssenpai thats moans loudly senpai pwease butts donut hhole want die want alive anymore want remember anything anymore much fucking redflag know much take die die die anybody feel prettynice girls taken never lately ive seeing girl work really cute super nice found boyfriend really prettynice girl school chill class boyfriend rest girls interested tell interested anybody feel straight hopeless essentially want terrified know right thing destroy family friend circle care owe much inflict pain make pact end figured way cope torn slow suicide continue drink smoke work early grave hope easier circle bite bullet rip plaster quicknot really asking question help throwing thoughts void nearing age told id figure things feeling low good outcomewhen feel bad usually come real account tend help people today really even feel good enough years old birthday september currently financial distress single big house basically work commission base salary counted barely survived closed deal unforeseen circumstances even closed paid might sound bad suppose represent years salary company took hit cant even pay base salary got debt trying survive spent amex company expenses never returned still slight chance might money end month mean able make payments money even gas food first time paid rent amex might send bill collection agency damaging credit terribly finally postponed tax declaration october suppose money pay know might happen kids wife even dog curse bless bless suffering time feel lonely see goal family disappears day really hate worked hard risked much yet nothing show thinking buying gun blow brain nobody blame death feel deer front pair headlights paralyzed car comes closer closer think time tie loose endsi think time go longer feel anything loose ends fix go dont anything important im tiredim exhausted alone ive able think past days killing noone ask help anymore literally noone gives shit dont know im even bothering things getting worse worse im going end fucking dead noones even going realize im gone dont even feel exist anymore havent thinking redflag much years god im fuckibg tired meaning anything anyone dont friends time try make friends end putting forward effort person cant keep pushing barely bed feed wish someone break apartment kill cure constipation step taco bell step step profit reddit kinda screwy recently im checking see posts still show suicide rapall pain agony every day raining tragedies brain see bc angry mad view lame sad savagery tired putting fake face acting happy real feel longer wearing mask want chill wrap bc insane crazy psychopath say mewell say money root evil even though need survive got decide stupid people hard positive optimistic nothing negatives obvious impossible obstacles vision pessimistic suicide seem solution logical slit wrist blow brains heat grill od handfuls pills either way death still self killed bc guilt made hate another one feel lost trapped know please helphello ive never really good sharing feelings im begging help plan kill thought head longer remember recently urge lot stronger im longer scared idea think dead think alive hate life gotten point want normal feel lost trapped nasty thoughts leave head please help brother thinks society sucks protect weak thats let people die covid make society stronger guess forgot mom lyme disease risk lol need coffee dont wan na dad best said hungry earlier dad walked gave bowl ramen without even asking love man anyone happenso came help earlier seem finding help trying help others finding reasons live seem finding answers community quite cool opinion stripperella animated series girl named erotica jones voiced pamela anderson lives double life stripper gentlemans club known tender loins sexy crimefighter known stripperella aka agent works government organization stripperella erotica fights crime forces evil plastic surgeon gives women breast implants either explode make fat cheapo criminal steals cent stores makes two henchmen share gun creator character series stan lee marvel fame creator spidermanbr br back late june spike tv known new tnn premiered thursday night block three animated shows shows ren stimpy adult party cartoon new adventures classic kids show characters ren stimpy adults done original creator john kricfalusi gary rat lawyer turned human sized rat starring kelsee grammar cheers fraiser fame stripperella adventures stripper doubles superhero voiced pamela anderson created stan lee remember seeing three premiers anxious see ren stimpy love original show little let alright seemed take things little far seeing two gay sex together bit much though gary rat bad best three easily stripperella animation really good awesome intro song good talent behind funny hell show silly even know begin explaining four five weeks little less animation block disappeared weird know got good ratings advertised everywhere disappointed see stripperella go several months later found new episodes aired got see one though funny hell glad see show back time something seemed bit offbr br beginning short run stripperella great animation dark moody realistic somewhat sexy stripperella costumed looked good character drawn well long hiatus rest episodes animation different instead dark realistic look originally everything really colorful cartoonish stripperella received biggest changes though normal long hair hair bigger peggy bundys married children even possible eye mask actually shows eyes now white saw cool superheroish upper part costume kind vesttype thing collar costume dark blue changed costume bluishviolet color upper costume really crappy looking comparison short show cartoon top silly beforehand secondhalf became cartoonish looking though still laughoutloud hilarious became zany well example later episode werebeaveryes werebeaver br br anyway instead complaining midseries changes stripperella ran one season good show tales crypt film bordello blood may really campy really fun long prude find laughing repeatedly show seen every episode got dvd yet two reasons paramount released screwed policy including extras nearly released tv shows even though entire show liked see commentarys maby explaining animation change interviews pamela anderson stan lee awesome kid rock song opening replaced im fan intro sang theme show going pay extras least pay original intro song jackasses show interesting guest stars john lovitz cheapo mark hamil plastic surgion hates models tom kenny spongebob show owner strip club every episode stan lee cameo one episode toobr br breakdown br br pros great look first funny hell fun show great voice talent part chief strogenoff watch show see stuff easily best three animated shows mentioned earlierbr br cons midseries animation change crappy dvd described earlier aside fact humor kind dumb times nothing really negative say thisbr br overall stripperella huge guilty pleasure mine shame ran one season funny sexy actioned packed cult series hope see air adult swim someday original intro intact possibly give another season family guy check even lousy dvd laugh sillybr br rated tvma crude sexual humor nudity runtime minutes per episode score knew happiness last long love temporary conditionali really think many years ahead year one know another itch coming back thaughts vs intentionsif really want die dont want leave anyone behind know wouldnt make really suicidal worse deliciously nasty black comedy middleaged schlub danny devito wants bump mother hatches plan bitter divorce wants bump exwife movie completely unapologetic cynicism gives us one works movies favor rather turn offbr br anne ramsey devitos battle axe mom steals show grotesquely funny performance even though horror end rooting seems kick devitos crystals asses time hands tied behind backbr br grade b need comment karma close yet far want help plz comment put guess reason familyive attempted three times last time feb gotten way better situation right makes feel helpless thinking past life makes feel helpless wont attempt sucks ive feelings reason im going try family specifically mother boyfriend two boys already lost mother wife im lucky people love cant shake feeling longer months time edited life attempt isnt successful another reason wont reminder clean phone screen everyday nasty creature probably germs toilet seat screen cant familyi long gone family parents struggled pain depression decades yet theyve done everything cant imagine anguish death cause deserve often think theyve passed away godfather p quote often comes mind want anything happen mothers alive parent bury child suicidal dont think ill iti crazy thoughts reality whats happening world around us ive visions time space weird tube traverse length know seconds passed much happening around us know ill never answers makes truly want die dont know feeling bad bc teen redflags around meokay basically im freshman dont know ive suicidal thoughts sixth grade two attempts january girl school committed redflag really didnt talked shit constantly died cried two days im still months later feel guilty feel fault death made suicidal thoughts way worse exactly month died second attempt long ive started feel little better pain started wear even though still think every day last night found girl school near committed redflag two days ago lots kids school knew posting links funeral fundraiser didnt even know existed still feels awful hasnt affected much girl didnt know wasnt bitch alive feel set back little makes sense feel im starting control back life slowly im resignating situation im ready make things better stable relationship supportive wife ambitions growing back slowly finnaly hope hardly ask asked doc lower effexor feel sideeffects outweigh good really help much redflag feel depersonalization im medications finally gives uncontrollable cravings head please yeah please dont forget jacket close door behind thanks stunning look ocean life itbr br goodbr br camera work absolutely phenomenal every shot done beautifullybr br interesting seeing different animals never even imaginedbr br david attenborough perfect narrators voice one done betterbr br badbr br one two different times reference earth million years old hold different belief br br overall tv series anyone enjoy highly recommend buying stars im fucking done shit little brother never behaves im one actually something parent dont anything think im crazy upset share room fucking animal six years always talks us none give shit ask stop starts mooning streaks around room cant deal shit anymore fucking hate life glad saw film seen directors films past thought production values great costumes settings bridge interesting see concept spirit demons handledbr br agree comments fight scenes hard follow timesbr br ultimately moral tale interesting know japanese viewers thought film film see againbr br scenes ones benkai prince fighting psychic level well donebr br come cinema thinking happened intense god feel numb idk feel numb sad really happy either crap happened girl feel nothing wish able feel something idk im feeling way fuck hormones screwing bruh needed rant numbness brain rn oppenheimer great series first thing saw waterston bad copies available similar situation exists glory enough british series around time discovery insulin pay good price dvd really difficult oppenheimer dvd able played us another enjoyable series time danger uxb series defusing unexploded bombs name one local librarybr br pete many im gon na steal youre banana responses posts mean dont know expected named account still kinda annoying want antique skin lampshade ww imagine shock house guests faces amazing bad movie done without full frontal nudity year old boy one opening scenes movie excellent dialog certainly common among foreign films foreign actors still know act opposed american actors let cgi stunts special effects work film good old fashion acting gerarde depardieux excellent job always costumes scenery accurate time complaint dubbed english words french instead using subtitles hate reading subtitles feeling deeply hopelessdont know exactly started thing feel completely angry bored time thought redflag several times know people love still believe im able deal job college relationships feel anything life expect getting good job future becoming rich traveling around world seems driving force makes go recently started drinking lot im getting low grades university im wasting lot money due alcohol addiction drunk almost every night throw mornings im feeling completely lost know anything life hey guys anyone wan na talk m well heres stuff play basketball baseball volleyball soccer tennis hiking ig thats sorta sport kinda play videogames lots warzone campaign call duty honestly im good listening giving advice u need maybe consider ig lastly ill try interesting possible boring ya hmu u want great day feel life simulation made sick entity wants see long takes people kill themselvesi know im right sub im suicidal suicidal thoughts lately sometimes feel sick entity experimenting trying see long take commit redflag sometimes moments hopehappy moments last long feel entity giving false hope takes away make lose shit put edge anyone feel way severe depression taken away live mit hard believe actually happening dwelled event throughout summer fall im getting set extremely negative thoughts cant anything event certain date spring still years old almost yearandahalf later years old still uncontrollable unwanted ruminating dwelling thoughts event control odds event happening luck equivalent rolling snake eyes dice times row beyond ridiculously poor luck event ruminating long fucking unwanted uncontrollable thoughts coming back sober sober depressed strong die weak live im great deal pain agony mentally single thing done need help talk mei help give comfort message give someone talk long remember someone cares ruined lifein january sexually assaulted boyfriends roommate boyfriend dating almost four years time loved anything spiraled happened broke tried find solace someone pushed everyone cared away created fake version thought keep emotions bay now september everything comes rushing want back ruined everything every relationship one blame alone im tired feeling three years diagnosed bipolar disorder ive never felt ive gotten control life moods decisions cant mad people wanting around feels lonely now one left turn talk two weeks ago made attempt got scared got help next day felt weak dont know dark place gf broke dont know feel well today gf broke dating years honestly told wants break didnt know feel dont feel sad emotions good bad filler title need somewherein years old im already somehow shitty person dont even deserve live ive spent probably past year bitter mother flaws one throughout life ive come saddening realization cant even blame child skin condition first child making best bad situation shes loving always treated children respect yet ive burden even stories destroyed store property display toddler remind finally wouldnt worry bailing instances im old embarrassing front friendsboyfriends intentional weird shit general grandmother bit actual mother real mother close siblings anything wanted needed talk shoulder cry always even raising blood pressure eventually stroke killed abuse tantrums wouldnt stop staring near rising eighth grade summer purchased worth wifi trials grandmothers social security card used pay bills course month half thought fucking justified wouldnt turn hostpots mother response sent live aunt punishment allowed come back still disrespected grandmother lucky already freed ive called sister awful things made fun years repeating grade elementary school despite nothing short miracle ive made far without failing one time shes insulted insulted first im supposed older sister confide yet things blackmail absolutely slipup deal first brother minus retained still keep contact despite everything ive said done tip iceberg family pay price insecurities beyond correction cowardice confrontation wronged unprovoked outward insults tantrums converted awful untrue thoughts silent judgment looking nose im better guise maturing literally idea stop even forgiven explicitly still faced reality answer ques u write dm u many want one one conversation hello invited complete survey wmu psychology department research project designed assess treatment preferences among adults seeking treatment variety concerns hope learn preferences treatment change time patients perception treatments match preferences related benefit received treatment survey open anyone ages older currently engaged mental health treatment least one month four therapy sessions longer one year choose participate asked provide demographicbackground information respond survey items preferences treatment changed time quality life survey may take minutes complete know anthony kiedis singer red hot chili peppers father movie blackie dammit anthonys father noticed reading scar tissue anthonys autobiography saw picture father thought well guy kinda looks guy movie saw eighties read said father actor small roles checking site comparing search net realized really father movie funny nowhere book mention movie perhaps son ashamed fathers acting job flick need think father blackie great job show gender whatever legs guess pronouns mysister lol ive enoughsorry long rant advance lot say way dad really bothering lately thinks im depressed stop asking hes right depressed maybe four friends almost never see still virgin im turning next month ive never actual relationship ive come close maybe couple times girl truly loved used presumably used mental illness excuse asshole said never official threw away someone behind back telling kill several relationships im sure happy new guy now months threw away one best friends killed accident killed dad diagnosed cancer know part wishes killed horrible say right living rapist child molester whole life dad used force sex young one knows mom bad relationship know fucking guy nerve ass time asking im ok every second day motherfucker probably reason lonely antisocial miserable piece shit today maybe thats cop play part able form relationships people right ive lived man raped child whole life way evidence nothing use reporting anyone make things worse mom work cant even drive dad gone wed poor especially cant find fucking job thats whole different story bottom line ive lived entire life someone raped balls question im depressed lonely hell biggest problem sleep day go nowhere one see nothing matter anyone top im recent graduate degree care cant find job call back never job enjoy never follow think im aware im going hate either im unemployed bum im employed miserable job want interests writing sports travelling music video games kind hard industries business administrationmanagement degree know sorry seems pity party needed write chest know funny everyone seemingly better lots friends good relationships parents significant others jobs reason go live things life incredibly broken want give favor please slap face salami sexual anything wamna feel something recently watched sundance channel idea film bring many filmmakers illustrious country make short films eleven one film concentrating one subject september br br wacthing movie tell filmmakers great country elements great filmbr br movie starts film iran teacher struggles teach students happened september fail realize laterbr br second film france involves deaf women writes letter lover angrily unaware going tv playsbr br next film egypt involves filmmaker talking dead soldier recent events terrorists bombings placesbr br next comes bolivia girl learns events september believes must march thembr br next country africa group boys follow man believe bin ladinbr br next comes mexico nothing shown sounds daybr br next israel involving reporter scene bomb trying report frequently told attacksbr br films cant remember moment powerful bring back emotions daybr br ugly idk im super ugly kinda sucks ngl kill myselfhe tells im absolutely worthless nothing good happen kill now im fairly destructive society really think ill bad family situation think go edit judging upvotes comments selfharm deathim tired making mistakes life know every mistake either one three cuts arm suffocate minutes poison even hammer wrench head continue stab arm full suffocation poison point near death full heavy blow head choice know fate suggest cut gt stab minor suffocation gt major suffocation poison gt neardeath poison minor hits gt heavy blows eventually die fault life keep wanting slice myselfi keep geting stressed coking drinking using excuse feel bad cut ampxb time ive got closer actually letting blood vessel bleed talking itdoesnt seemto help ampxb ampxb feel life falling apartmy family professional supports wits end depression emptiness self harm suicidality getting worse almost attempted two days ago another person got way going tell method feel empty want peace another showcase led zeppelin finest absolute rocking best every band member best jimmy page bow guitar jpj thunderous bass bozo pounding away robert singing tomorrow say first song gon na groove beginning something special dvd follows zeppelin year carree starting royal albert hall madison square garden followed much older mature band earls court finally different looking band last english show knebworth dvd fantastic showcase zeppelin fan n im tired seeing chadwick boseman post every second ok sad guys stop flooding page please mourn peace got released hospital overdosingi took pills dad left work everything arriving hospital pretty much blur im fucking disappointed angry didnt work im useless cant even kill properly sometimes one thing enough live die fori honestly feel people never kill x youre looking excuses live really want die dismissive rhetoric people one thing resolveddidnt happenwas attained able live people one person one hope able die many people im enduring purely family destroying sustainable theyre excuse sole reason case everyone sometimes one thing enough thought queen damned one best vampire movies seen movie suspense action gore combination fierce demanding attitude queen rock mood star well acted stuart townsend makes wonderfully done movie combination create im always one give advice friends family members movies worthy renting ask queen damned worthy tell worthy buying movie sure musthave horror movie lovers homes im hella bored rn pm play cold war zombies im fairly new shooting games idc good wan na play someone friends respond anyway please pm im gon na honest im depressed im desperate depressed anxious wish wish best friend wish close friends feel alone theres one confide without ulterior creepy motive parents fucking despise making happy least act im lonely hell doubt talking friend potential romantic partner possibility factor anyone sub im sorry yall carry ur day roommate along much fun roommate sometimes announce things im gon na make leaf juice anytime one us gon na make tea sometimes well lie floor school collectively die internally aircon cold thats important inevitable hate life matter timeim ive depressed years gotten real bad now ive already attempted redflag hanging one point another alcohol poisoning downing couple bottles voka various drinks barely bring anything including brushing teeth daily basis im currently bachelor information technology uni accepted ive sleep first lecture th week hours barely bring go already missed last week whole course feels waste time feel useless entire st year business bullshit barely pay attention second year finally damn introduction programming another waste time feels suffer half years stuff either hate already know possibly learn anything actually want ive got ta go dentist week root canal tooth gon na cost fortune family see point already think jumping front train every time im station getting root canal gon na give us hefty bill pay reason think ill live long anyway waste money really im sure im still point reason live really know much longer ill last know alone right now feel depressed embarrassed posting think something irreparably wrong think seen much scary shit much trauma think anyone love friends live different states alone want kill alone rest life worry people rejecting feel pain watching parents die suffer silence keep burdening friends understood taken care ill gone peace finally convinced something wrong today best dayi feel crap getting piled non stop today need vent risk hurting book incoming younger years selfish asshole much teenage daughter barely knows entirely fault things happened way definitely partially blame head messed ive thought taking meds able control aged recently trying figure father teenage daughter dosent know figured great first step pay insurance daughter live wisconsin daughter washington insurance working well said head messed sure daughter brain meds insurance said getting months ago went honor roll drop switch schools attempting redflag twice admit daughters mom lying sign away rights even point view seen personality changes acts young teen now feel let things happen let someone adopt daughters ex husband may end dead hand bluff cant afford wrong clearly brain damaged version sometimes struggle sucide tried talk wife nope concerned phone ex never commit sucide bad days wife nags excessively especially today habbit thats slowly getting worse today though happens new level wendsay stepmom brother said going stop weekend mind dad passed year ago spending time two important normal right always important even dad alive heard nothing complaining clean everything never help tuesday night worked overtime wednesday work loads laundry today nothing got surgery nuts ran house today dizzy drove away piece quiet im diving still little drugged dad killed drunk year ago im risking tldr fuck preparing commit redflagthis may right subreddit know spent day writing letters plan leave behind general thought week following week necessary arrangements made difficult write letters alot tears shed course trying come right words leave behind old friends previous loves especially family first step moving forward plan action attempt best tell everyone fault feel burden anything anyone done letters sent immediately least thats thought right now know morbid stuff ive conflicted long time know impact negatively ive away long time presence really anyone physically stop really comes pulling trigger help pleaseim sure im means part community though suppose wish anyone kinda wan na talk hope none friends family finds mother middle horrible divorce stepdad life years old biological dad alcoholic ive break contact one grandfathers literally losing mind believing psychic kinds crazy conspiracies joke chem trails alien mind control robots controlled said aliens running government running sex trafficking thing gramps dieing cancer recently chose grave probably last tonight grandmother alzheimers longer remember one little halfbrothers yo drugs xtc weed lots janky shit hard time dealing abuse divorce steph dad father blaming divorce aunt uncle divorce well girlfriend recently broke still living house neither us anywhere go financial situation pretty bad currently benefits officially depression technically preventing working job bad news money government pays used make minimum wage less month cat together one reasons im still alive right now ex want keep helped lot pet making easier find place live dealt depression past spent weeks clinic dealing sorta thing years old currently time feel powerless know move away ex seems perfect relationship shes wanted open relationship still cook everything house etc breaking apart many ways mean lovely easy either way used working gym coping mechanism gaming addiction alcoholism serious weaknesses wanted better relatively harsh week wanted deal working tore intervertebral muscle lower two ribs walked around weak thinking simply overused muscle whatever unfortunately case sleep terribly pain cant even vacuum house ex seems want obviously blame avoid cant help either fuckbudys replacement place past days means im basically living landfill cant anything worst thing far im concerned cant even clean cats litterbox heavy lift corner meaning poor thing getting proper care eather entire family either falling apart ripping apart friends count live relatively far away ex unfortunately still live wants freedom ive attempted commit redflag tried jump frond train age friend literally pushed way right now years later im hard time taking shitload paracetamol glass whiskey hoping soon want nuisance anyone im already seeing psych week tonight seems make break everyones opinions tommy robinson wondering init reddit premium cool custom snoo cant anymorei put lot course life ive always believed better feels longer alive worse gets father verbally emotionally abusive gotten worse directed developed schizophrenia past year found longer able children planned names forced watch several people love dearly tear apart im expected pick side im young know plenty life left despite dysfunctional body look forward worth cant live way trapped buried alive brings us resort opened soon closebr br start guy gear blowing drifts avoid possibility avalanches somehow make sense anyways hes blow away one particularly big one notices resort open despite best efforts higher authority tells day overbr br soon everyone expects avalanche hitsbr br look im gon na reveal say bmovie designed family channel saw fact commercials proves bmovie anyways pretty decent film partially unrealbr br firsthand people buried ice snow theyre buried traced powder cd screwdriver possible finally cant stress enough explosion stop avalanche guaranteedbr br furthermore worth rental tv viewing owning br br movie rated pg maybe received something little strong boy nearly loses foot elevator leg cut around ankle guy toasted electricity diesel weight room dead people laying aroundbr br enjoy longer happy unless drugsim ive shitty life seeing doctor wreck passenger months ago crippled temporarily got bunch painkillers addictive personality weekend im going jump tower soon pills nothing matters im state mind normal life productive citizen longer intrest fucking manybeen thinking deleting account might well leave trace theres parallel l saw getting worsei posted little ago shit getting really bad fast tried reaching friend real life advice drunk theyre ignoring began giving cold burns deodorant mind think tying plastic bag head filling deodorant im sure side effect zoloft thought id post case go make life drainingit feels energy used keep killing energy left enjoy things classes job week ive telling everyone ive sick staying alive fucking hard even harder knowing im trying avoid death understand girls post made midnight cant go sleep cant stop thinking yo guy likes age girl one day conversation text says relationship guy friend worry feelings shit know say respond cool month later sends pic assume self looking left shower think shirt see slimmest line might bra text says hair poofy lol read question level friendzoned changed mind completely overreacting hair sorry spelling grammar wrong im phone kinda panicking yall feel everything suprisingly fine go shit rn seriously im actually somewhat feeling utter shit today wonder sorta fuckery tomorrow bring lost job apartmenti got fired job last week desperately trying remain positive applying new jobs going interviews thought job lined got phone call saying called one references longer want offer job im beyond devastated apartment going move weeks lost job gave someone know im going survive next month trying avoid falling deep depression already feel slipping want desperately jump bridge end everything health insurance anymore cant even help feel dog sense suicidal condition think know store myselfim sorry thank good companion failing everything againcheers first semester think friend g e n e f l u sometimes say theyre girl refer sheher pronouns ok deadname times say theyre guy refers hehim pronouns correct shit outta use deadname sheher sometimes say theyre nonbinary really care pronouns really care use deadname sometimes theyll wear binder sometimes theyll wear bra always complain gender dysphoria matter definitely genderfluid usually take mg safe mg right away think might messed yes doctor told dose go mum pain remember saying take said start mg safe nortriptyline dosage want dieim prolly gon na kill soon im losing hopei cant live without im giving feel yall interested studying together yearhelping high school students im taking ap physics ap lang ap econ next year seems gon na hard especially virtual kinda fat l yall wan na form study group smth year feel comfy zooming days meet lmk thinking gc shared google drive help need idk seems p chill time lmk ur interested thinkingi cant live regrets cant sleep longing lay beside arms made wrong decisions sorry torture whole day night nice person want hurt go away told friend talk anymore similar town musical sailors shore leave falls short later classic terms pacing quality songs charms kelly three fabulous dance routines one jerry cartoon mouse tom jerry fame one little girl fantasy sequence spanish lover determined reach lady high balcony sinatra playing kellys shy inexperienced buddy grayson woman serves love interest men singing iturbi provides fine piano playing nearly two half hours bit long light musical drag ask alright bit background crush friend ive known years hang school lunch break days one point liked scared ask fast forward maybe months later finally got nerve ask literally day gon na ask find started dating someone really fucked ended depressed months almost killing boyfriend broke two months ago back school find still feelings tldr fell love friend got depressed cuz shes single im wondering odd goodbye worldtry harder next time thoughts driving suicidalmy gf broke months ago sucked caused mentioned previous boyfriends large endowment described detail freaked ocd vivid imagination cant image mind two months mindfulness exercise meditation willpower erasing images always mind im sure theres reason feel insecure know stop keeps ill never survive hey gamers anyone wan na talk real desperate need friends atm feel sharp pains used cuti used cut quite bit starting years ago id cut month least maybe months ago now sometimes feel sharp pain sensation wrists every cut anyone feel something thats common everyone feels sometimes work security guard busy office building everytime make eye contact people literally see shuddering inside probably fact intense stare tend stare peoples eyes longbut know social etiquette walking along corridor bump someone said hi seconds ago turn around unintentionally lock eyes work colleague please someone helpteach make normal eye contact social situations getting point work colleagues going way avoid making eye contact please help friend threatened shove coke mentos ass im scared early shit pushups day months day rest day got schoolwork im skipping today goodnight really want end itlately past months everything bit struggle ive lost friends family relationships cant funk last year almost ended life whiteknuckling rail prevent jumping front train things got better tried time time put feelings dread behind move life awhile worked come crashing around father alcoholic abusive manipulator gets plastered blames us making depressed point drink hell work fit rage threaten kick whoever decides stand bullshit threatens leave mother instantly makes switch defending sister side cant anymore jobi love job many people work retail say honestly lately stress home life impacting work boss taking notice disappointed performance nothing utmost respect boss knowing im letting another impact life honestly thing keeping knowing go im going really ruin best friends day hes supportive gave nudge right direction getting better hes one needed help cant betray trust going behind back ending frankly cant keep dealing depression anymore im sorry wrong place post needed vent seemed best outlet im sorry whatever mistakes made format wise im using phone show comeon writers action quit dragging great concept whole lot miles jenkins great performs kid age act situation finds hey creative creatures may telepathic capabilities outworldly powers kid actors series good convincing parents miles appear little outofsense going develop come great seed whole new twist next season lot new characters creatures kinds neat scifi stuff make series witch able make one creatures kids knife hand pressed wrist revelation wanted live fear might hurt might mess family walk part way try stop thought aftermath might wrong last thing upset everyone care power live courage die coward need helpsomeone cares need help know draw im taking commission im expert patience commission come time please forgive nsfw things im familiar realistinc things draw fictional animals things even sleep isnt fun anymoreits usually sleep escape isnt dont remember dreams trouble falling asleep tired even life anymore life sleepcentered go entire day trying back bed dont go bed soon home rarely nap day sleep part day look forward dull hate awake asleep dear readers space odyssey kubrick bestalthough really cant say space odyssey film ive watched still good film strange goodbr br movie three acts much novelwhich unsurprising author wrote screenplay anyhow first start simple yet spectacular opening sparach zarathustra blaring speakers comes boring beyond belief dawn man sequence theres odd finding monolith sequence moon played strausss blue danube finally things good spaceship scenes hal going berserk killing people things die entering monolith sequence way long ultrastrange ending even though space odyssey good film star wars stargate terminator abyss rocks compliments chef mr kubrickbr br signed constant dvd collector fucking kill family devastated even living myselfmy future nothing look forward even close supposed lifeeveryday repetitive cycle suffering trying distract bullshit life alive suffocating feeling antidepressants enough kill someone taken enough work borderline bad borderline diagnoseall life screwed upi feel hope mei want go sleep taken meds think want alive anymorelooking someone talk anything need distract thoughts whats point short ventone favorite rap songs part rapper goes people telling positive im supposed positive see shit positive thats always ive felt people want positive fucking reason alone positive keep getting rejected positive one one really gives fuck positive lifes bad want kill positive things positive positive good thing happen literally girlfriend genuinely likes effort anymore second guessing inferiority jumping hoops treated invented weird concept called love trying test unfortunate unwilling happens supposed shit happen itll never even happen normally lots effort trial error feelings inferiority really see point even living anymore know death coming soon thats im actually coming way around knowing ill soon rid whole world bit peace fantasize nowadays dead consciousness sucked body even dream love anymore anymore fucking everything normal people im never going sub btw im fully aware nobody cares joined looking friends people instead found bunch sexist wannabe edgy idiots makes feel even depressed seeing everybodys either cringey levels edgy sexist desperate reddit awards tries play shitty meme something im loser feel put every post see perfect relationships last years ago got cheated makes feel depressed anyway rant great day start bad decade please save post see im correct years almost everything looking life graduated nurse got hired wonderful facility even passed state board exam impressed boss lady enough raise already residents already saying love kicking ass nurse far especially new one lonely bisexual lean towards liking women moresome coworkers suggested dating apps unfortunately booted grindr stop blowing handful lukewarmly attractive women swiped right tindr really ugly anything despite great facial bone structure guess virtually worthless eyes fairer sex blast another guy bedroom trashed want company female guess good enoughi may bi marrying disgusting man ugly find wife might well terminate experiment patients used another nurse probably one six pack abs women hate want know good firearm end existence become actual incel born female sex society actually cares men worthless one many people sexes adore apparently good enough typical woman fun pack ab packing criminal father deserve familial decency grew asked bye sluts stankyass vaginas crave men barely spell fun welfare forever best handgun quick exit really hate test ampxb httpspreviewredditoqcmhebrnpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscbfbadecadda everyone competing every dayi cant stand everything competition everything slavery others others slaves shit go home cry doesnt make us happy wrong society cant fucking stand cant madness none makes sense slaves sex society slaves cant part society cant alone without going mad cant see night stay warm sun goes away find cave hopefully bear might eat alive wont youre gone idk dont dream brain isnt youre gone arent youre dirt youre slowly becoming future lava erupts nothing prevents even close space travel ants picnic someone spilled fresh coffee devin nunez idiot doesnt care populations salmon san joaquin river salmon vital ecosystem san joaquin valley california knows happen salmon died river stop flowing entirely dont know want someone tell going okim alone realized transgender couple years ago kept secret everyone blew world apart still havent told anyone dysphoria seems getting worse aspergers trouble making friends though couple one things helped keep going friendly coworkers supermarket used work got new job people arent warm friendly dont feel fit discovered recently parents likely narcissists upbringing explains lot low selfesteem ability deal stress etc probably disown find im trans probably kill even though im physically dependent still tied emotionally cant see way either keep going way continue worse kill attempt transition end killing fall losing family abuse etc either way lose need someone talk tell dont know help im kind emotional breakdown sorts stuck cant go anywhere goneim good person redflag option month ago feel option im stuck loveless marriage lying cheating wife go friends family money job debt option staying pretending wife better wont getting progressively worse cant even stand look hear voice nightmares now want end saw part film scifi channel missed ending bought dvd see whole movie im glad didbr br young mother two daughters move house backwoods area inherited husband died illness run three women make best teen daughter scout taylorcompton warned local boy zombies come night ignores cute friend joins group meanwhile younger daughter chloe grace moretz makes friend zombie girl age named mary turns mary several kids died mine working child labor zombies attack kill anyone whos blood relative br br movie directed js cardone whose previous films include slayer shadowzone two movies slightest bit surprised actually enjoyed movie film deliberately paced liked allows know main characters likable child zombies used least george romeros classic night living dead still found toolusing child zombies movie interesting seem cardone finally found right script cast stereotypical scenes teens smoking drinking making parked car boring mebr br taylorcompton appears halloween remake moretz appeared amityville horror horror film room never sister thats whenever see girls imagine sister smth idk awards dumb someone spend literal money something gives nothing makes someone feel slightly happy honestly baffling redflag option thats tired saying reality thing think go herei crossposted rdepression im sorry see twice ive lurking main long time know fit im sorry situation relatable sounds really stupid great life know many people alone im matter much keep trying try push friends family away cant pretty traumatic childhood people life decade remaining family amazing redflag absolutely option many people care know know sounds dad grandma pass away much table friends relatives may sad dad young parent young healthy ive got couple decades becomes reality sometimes resent thats darkest thought ive ive never told anyone worst moments upset dad favorite person world still alive healthy going stay way means stay alive decades really want im gainfully employed job used love really still love im wealthy support job incredibly stressful coworkers good people boss good person believe work pays bills even expensive city friends ability friends instead going socializing keep pushing people away know go feel keep working normal person faking best possible isolate lot never go still friends weird confusing know got lucky friends still around matter much avoid theyre cool people theyre intelligent successful much going lives know ive tricked people friends ive tricked job keeping employed ive tricked family supportive need undo without hurting anyone want alive anymore every time minor thing goes wrong thought hits ton bricks every time im alone im alone lot know feel fucking trapped amazing supportive friends family absolutely crushed told theyd probably committed theyd probably try make quit stressful job complaints life framed around job stressful yeah mentally healthy person handle hell even slightlymorehealthy version years ago handle id nowhere go nothing friends family tired id situation many people alone ive got backwards reason depressed right now cripplingly tell anyone life turned upside ill genuine reason want die first time know go im sorry rambling hard follow im sorry sounds self involved bragging understand ive gotten unfairly lucky life either wish someone whole good things going genuinely love nobody miss know sounds awful one feeling used triggered afsomebody helping heartbreak violated sexual boundaries cracked show affection something categorically consent still feel theyre back partner ig feel used af triggering ive abusive relationship help please feel pathetic past almost years ive depressed anxious wanting commit redflag goal dead end summer tonight perfect night ive looked cant dying scares fuck dont know feels worst case scenario go hell plus attempt fails brain damage dont know fucking feel pathetic pussy every option seems painful risky wish fucking go nah plus id possibility living incase know im asking much something simple redflag im scared dont know feel escape death moment feel without im pathetic fucking dgy tn moment im praying fucking aneurysm kill hate much dont know im fucking reddit looking essentially nothing may diploma visual effects next year ill fourteen next year ill already diploma know degree anything still fucking awesome streaming fortnite friend playing fortnite wagers want watch go twitch koubtw disclaimer going lengthyfor context gf years broke weeks ago dating high school graduated college may first bf broke showing interest someone want hurt concerned mental health end feels depression first thought handling things well initial days crying depression started working new skills exercising started going therapy two sessions far sure caused downward spiral started second therapy session therapist wanted joint session ex clarity stand basically ended friends wants explore still want kept composure throughout session left room live together next week hold anymore blasted music cried eyes minutes dreams every night include guy interested familiar gta rp server mind trying pretend nothing happened going past days basically wake crying every day mind keeps hurling insults hear fucking die repeatedly head every day want think things want hatred someone deserve basically friends group friends play games every day related ex way little brother cousins bf even spoken girl started dating antisocial even keep conversation others distract sometimes play group play games even start feeling pain againi much pain know alone one save now scared want pain stop know im overwhelmed want stopi know much longer hang oni im heavy debt money food last week bipolar suffer anxiety covid destroyed financially truly hope virus die take xanaxs valiummixed othersits think wanting quickly possiblenot sure im scared eternal shame scared eternal abyss ahead fix boys vs girls meme clear meme problematic fix without taking away funny factor meme hewo everyone want talk cute femboy dm meeee pls story write story school wasnt attempt edgy interpretation school system advice theres sudden hush hairs back neck begin prickle steely wind cuts rustling trees everything feels fresh alive poised action yet stuck inside watch rain slide windows turned see rest classs blank lifeless expressions copied notes board thought real point copying wouldnt say looked none others teacher turns us empty grin dont forget test tomorrow high expectations bell rings everyone leaves room hallways filled footsteps students silent gloomy place yet theres way second home prison stay hate place live every day come back hoping one day burn ground next class different last writing writing writing stuck never ending loop taught rain pelted windows never seen outside become swallowed thick mist windows became foggy one liked rain saw inconvenience reason stay inside wishing let water touch water clean warming helps things grow amazing phenomenon one really truly wants experience school took rain killer leave paralyzed perhaps thats one liked students see long immerse punished liking something many people feel deep inside us horrible disgusting feeling want cry constant feeling trapped able anything stop teachers dont names anymore personalities stripped mask smile thing happens day day without anyone questioning without stopping release become us without thinking possibly something teached without releasing dont perfect play along anyway taught people tell us nothing perfect student nothing change minds everyone special tell us know may well numbers names school day ends seems stop smothered school work pressure parents family succeed slowly leaving things enjoy years go world slowly poisoned greed lack sympathy generations live carry world turned happy free place nothing cold hearted place despair torment everywhere go placed specific role comply people dont follow rules society made become outcasts unwanted unneeded become believe grades perfect perfect complete normal cant keep fightingim mobile apologize errors kind mini rant ive felt constant fatigue awhile early looking back thought normal parenting absolutely wasnt starters dad physically emotionally abusive towards brother mother even though saw nothing claims never saw right next least one scenes now know nothing swear im getting basically teens mother father tell father line earn slab emotional abuse dad later found exaggerated lied everyone side tried kill several times highschool ended failing attempt later told mother suicidal exactly smart im thinking basically rationalized abused iced youre depressed im sure looking guess felt still trust parent wasso wrong now turned oh crazy gossip tells extended family anyone listen things say shout sleep seem line intrusive thoughts overhear theyre violent nature believe person im danger still whole smear campaigning thing well brother acts father combined hes much manipulative increasingly unstable brother seem enjoy triggering purpose know theyre sort pain empathize come someone elses expense im exactly sure go bouts wanting wanting keep fighting make difference someones life ive reached point im leaning former theres lot really want keep short apologize hope day going well need helphow one make mind stop thinking got new family membermy brother sisterinlaw beautiful baby girl makes heart melt see whole new life entered family omg right totally happy crying sleep telling ill never graduate college ill never loving relationship brother sisterinlaw ill never wellpaying job support family ill never raise children ill never cool progressive aunt ill never give newborn niece future nieces nephews christmas presents ill never even able hold one last time say goodbye already wrote redflag note super straight cool posted rdepression im feeling really shitty yesterday birthday know bother anymoreso made plans party today invited people month ago reminded week ago people said bought bonfire permit today lot money right im broke wanted happy birthday well birthday rolls hear anyone another loneliest day year today reached people said theyre coming either got reply come literally everyone second birthday row something happened spent alone maybe cant remember mention every holiday people funhalloween ect actually hung friends graduated college year half ago ive things supposed make feel better going gym trying university something worthless college degree quitting toxic job deactivating facebook none fucking working want fucking friend cant relate counting downi told close friends dead im turning december everyday hell dont leave bed barely want pee days end fucking personal hygiene stare ceiling hours one moved states harder expected cant take thought staying continuing live sick life nothing live nobody love nothing dont cry anymore cant remember last genuine cry session everyone life hates nobody miss even people know im suicidal dont give shit stopped talking everyone ive gone mute nod head think ive started lose mind hear things see things arent im constantly taking double takes scary dreams turned worse nightmares cant catch break im sorry family either wish wasnt alone battling demons theyre winning sure everyone feels way want forget give anytime try something chicken scared die goodbye guys im sorry im sorry guys cant handle anymore tiring see go want end im really thankful think end im sorry really goodbye see tomorrow ltima sleep ya idiotgt theyre determined keep alive hurt moremy parents taken life didnt live years hospitalized redflag attempt ive forced move back year still watch hawk anytime im happygolucky big shit eating grin face drill questions hurting smiling need go back cant least try happy whenever truly feeling optimistic find ways tear wow finally laugh wasnt even funny even bother shower always smell cat anyway haha youre going living parents make feel im asking one thing never either let live peace let die peace preferably latter may may heard term people friends easy time anyone recovering bout septic arthritis know cool either let us say requires surgery fairly long hospital stay home iv drugs none fun going course outpouring facebook well wishes wells people mostly away close friends use term close loosely hospital mom flies yes serious anyone care wager amount friends came see one one grateful came huge gut punch one even made effort made really rethink allowed friendships allowed people take granted equivalent ramen noodles let explaini hate ramen noodles buy case throw cupboard case emergency ie money nothing eat zombie apocalypse sort thing allowed ramen noodles emergency friend always available need forget something better available find fishing invites things still left always outskirts asking wrong wanted people family care care much people give crap answer know stop trying used fact may never find gang really belong anywhere think acceptance heartbreaking sure come back life alone waste life lonely seems pretty soul crushing fair weather friends next time wind changesjust let go lot less painful try find way least content company manage happiness fair weather friends wild redflag notethe wild wild system hierarchy wild politics economics social groups families food chain wild see everything divided groups states counties borders crossed every animal group system way things elephants example matriarch system chief elephant leads herd family groups composed moms dads sons daughters even uncles social groups within herd link elephants broken one elephant dies elephants mourn lost breakup see systems animals lions disney movie lion king entirely true true behaviors seen movie alpha male king leader behavior really seen wild females hunt male sits day guarding house animals intelligent enough create hierarchies assign roles multiple examples systems wild humans systems politics economy social groups reflect close perfect systems lower species develop factor limits development process successful systems betrayal wild rare see species animals betray kin among humans really dominant factor politics economy effective systems weve created see betrayal politician promises change delivers misery poverty people see betrayal economy person makes apparently enough money survive terrible life steals poor satisfy greedy vicious needs see betrayal social development social groups born easily betrayed mother chose abort life miserable piece crap baby wont make better chance born betrayed every single step life matter much learn life evil ways youll betrayed one call brother one call friend sometimes even one dont call anything dont even know thats fucked world betrayed fall love betrayed think load speak dream fact anything sure betrayed may ask happening trust eventually realize nothing god damned world worth nothing worth knowledge popular famous rich pretties cutest person world nothing repeat nothing worth animals wild humans really need food sleep well given bath love every animal matter species needs love need special someone imagine screwed world prefer betray friends family sometimes even make someone elses life living hell know gone way point life make someone miserable something see wild animals understand commitment responsibility comes living world enjoying stay shit hole lasts see shitty behavior wild animals mental capacity hate mental capacity betray backstab friends one thing ive learned life experiences befriend anyone smile wave learn names call humans vain love listening name narcissistic sons bitches huh thats one things ive learned said means nothing absolutely nothing worth anything nickel back piece crap world know may seem rude seem ass thats go wild learn survive eat every single crosses path days ago came phrase lets really meant say lets anything lets sit nothing death proclaims miserable bodies feel life less shitty nothing cant hurt hurt people say pain makes us grow well guess biggest pile bull shit ive heard human beings evolve million years live pain evolved basic necessities needed take care caused changes human body adapt physical nature nature really hate people say love relevant thing okay okay lets see handle everyone rejecting able love youll go fucking nuts less hours specially society emotions souls driven facebook twitter little practical start facebook profile tons likes close account come back computer screen love searching moth dark love whores need love need much family abandons friends become filthiest assholes universe dog doesnt want pet turn god loving hand bit less stupid please god loves loves everyone kind love humans need love invisible created world humans humans need word im talking bible im talking literal word love say well growing mom worked day step dad lovehate relationship sometimes needed word word used context famous phrase love tell hearing words together wish given opportunity choose wealthy life love mother really feel know love ive multiple relationships failed miserably know love attitude shit lot people suffer shitty attitude syndrome basically asshole enough males females across globe fall kind behavior think attractive well people bad attitudes stupid put mental institution serious treatments attraction always fault fault definitely stars fault way thinking people example used think stage manager traveling theatre group college cute filled joy every time saw face talked came betrayal liked friend even though completely satisfied decided pursue dream one day given chance join relationship even though know probably never find something bothered killed inside ive always type person likes listen whenever got chance talk listen lovee dovee things say mind give three shits thought cause guy im straight face reply typical mhhm intelligent trying girl point along way liking started see interest getting strong point friends go eat invite case know fucking big deal okay nothing nothing anything decided quit thought existing decided kill redflag letter cry love really need someone roam savannah show beautiful skies kenya need someone help fight life wild went sink wash hands mum thought gon na wash looked really happy feel really bad now day hasnt hard enough calling dsciples grab friends hit theater see hell movie opening sequence credits laughing self breathless br br movie wild ride history d bullcrap list things theyve done chronicling rise power huge fan rage kagekyle gass jablesjack black naturally loved movie br br helps know show first cd funny dont hilarious vulgar lyrics rocking rhythms massive amount pot smoking cameos outright insanity story line movie dsciples newbies alike br br many songs referenced two kings tribute kielbasa many audio tracks cock pushups every fan audience saying remember well new comers saying thats fing hilarious highly recommend movie body thats rocked movie certainly high competition next spinal tap one best dont feel theres point livingim almost years old still lack basic social awareness coworkers hate feel im huge burden everyone care im transgender cant afford transition reason havent killed dont want traumatize family boyfriend diagnosed bipolar disorder chronic major depression basically crazy bridge burner episodes honestly thought getting better taking meds managing mood swings enjoying time alone mainly stayed away forming friendships expecting cycle happen eg losing friends burning bridges episodebut exfriend past messages pretty much hell bent bringing virgos vicious done cry fest hour telling horrible human wanting diesometimes sometimes wish friend tell suffering sad scared lonely wish dead need comforting words telling okay better want someone listen know pain handle suffering alone anyone wan na exchange music im looking new music listen rap music cap mumble rap stuff actual good singers good beat want new songs playlist pm want talk looking around liking itwell feel end rope im life horrible one spent half life homeless bouncing around foster homes broken family brothers homes grandparents cant stand site father walked feel im empty shell walking around waiting die thought keeps popping head take easy way attempted task told join military medical purposes one knows fact ashamed tell broken family lack motivation anything feel wasting space burden family cant find job college take life really lost meaning sit around nothing chain smoke bad cant breath wake smoke little miracle makes feel ok cancer runs family find hoping cancer called friends deserted feel alone want fall asleep never wake least dream happy another thing makes want end fact think gay want find women sexually attractive urges thoughts tell wise want life cant stand much longer understand punished life fate disappear become nothing know say chest thank chances uses marvelous song name throughout film robert downey jr excellent movie extra large eyes wonderfully variable facial expressions part expertise acting different people diverse films compare robert downey jr chaplin enjoy chances really want helpi really want help everyone show people care nice maybe change anything anyones circumstances im willing try used feel useless family poor point wanted die maybe better one less mouth feed developed ocd anxiety constant fear burglaries point feel safe home young used mental breakdowns family tried make go ugly fat monster domestic violence big thing house still shake sweat feel heart drop whenever hear loud banging another room one help one talk deal alone want guys wish physically help hope world theres someone talk know feels one pretending okay work really want help im killing september th even though im scared diei feel im always scared kill ive always wanted die hands know changed mind partway id able stop id able cut rope call ambulance puke whatever ive taken jumped bridge stepped front car changing mind stopping dying thats scares permanence even though want die badly know death forever feel want die want dead im terrified permanent bad decision made drunk tired think thats set redflag date gives time change mind plan things way save things go pear shaped change mind im killing im much coward actually die make sense sound stupid im madi dont want anymore havent long time know anything mom make shell drink death outright kill go pain good life im dying inside every day dont know dont know keep hanging tried kill tonight wouldnt worki wrapped necktie around neck tried knot clothes rack closet couldnt support weight broke couldnt find anything support im going try go sleep hopefully dont wake want try later peace dont worry hate telling parents im suicidal took away pills razors went bought razors anyways fuck wish still pills ive gotten drunk high every night told themi hate another millennial failed living moving back parents basement hate life hate cant keep job month ive far year hate pressure put go college nearly lasted semester dropping wish die accident actively put situations might cause one dont know much longer last love able die parents home dont find fuck knows happen wan na stick knife end rightim recently discovered truth mass rapes war crimes orgy women red army carried eastern europen women two million women little girls perhaps fifteen million way film woman berlin presents frightening scares sickens disgusts horrifies appalls described generous sympathy everyone involved basically paints mass rapist barbarian horde sympathetic broken pain traumatized blah blah blah horrible stuff giant bigbudget german propaganda film think rather sympathizing men hunt young females streets take turns raping theyd hunt said men try charge collective crimes women enrages wan na find every one primitive creatures stab cant theyre mostly gone remain theyre old men soon dead makes mad people go way demonize victims nazi criminals hardly wellbred aryan women raped fellow russians jews poles slaves hungarians people baltic states savagery women knows racial boundaries people go way sympathize monsters guilty slander smear innocent victims makes despise humanity filthy loathsome evil hateful ugly inhuman creatures pollute earth presence want us die want die want anymore world mass rapes war crimes punished government guilty honest theres widespread movement try stop demonizing women extolling primitive rapist men want want know animals faced justice crimes dont want want gone cant stand humans crippled apes pathetic beings hate us want die wish never born wan na anymore yo fell asleep shower laying shower dozed think need go bed sooner change da world final message goodbye gn homies imma sleep harry potter scandalous love story hogwarts year old harry potter laid head hagrids chest inhaled musty scent nose sucking one mans many chest hairs accident complain happy piece hagrid inside love way hold big strong hands hagrid man lived feeling especially flirty tonight sure let lover know mood snoo snoo luckily take much turn hagrid moments ready fill potters primal desires love way let wreck asshole every night returning harrys flirtacious advances hagrid lifted lover wrapped legs around mans waist quickly removed wizards robe began suck nipples enjoying sweet tasted ill suck suck mine alright harry simply nodded face twisted pleasure moment care hagrid wanted hed anything long keep feeling way felt currently mans mouth game godly several minutes passed harrys turn though quite experienced hagrid sucked reddit friend demetris nipples many times fairly confident nipple sucking abilities try provide lover much pleasure given removing hagrids clothing layer layer mans humongous pancake nipples finally became visible potter stared wide eyed moment taken back even tiny bit man boob seen seemed though mans chest consisted hair nipple nothing wow harry say aroused disgusted sight time know whether wanted blow load vomit lovers nipple rug chest hagrid bothered reaction let hearty laugh response normally look worry ran ferrets buck beak feed seen days ago buck beak nearly bit right nipple clean bloody mess looking closer adult harry clearly see scarring hagrids right nipple sure brave man letting dangerous beast feed nipples wizard wondered lovers essence tasted hagrid yes harry ccan taste im kind hungry hearing gentle smile formed hagrids lips course help man pushed harry closer chest overjoyed felt begin suckle nipples wizard hesitant first tasted delicious lovers milk began nurse gulp gulp chugged hagrids milk lips stained mans nipple juices hair tickled cheeks made difficult grasp nipples mouth first assistance lover quickly located thats boy work tongue harry finally finished released nipple mouth let loud burp stomach full satisfied hagrid looked biggest grin seen kissed passionately wait morning touch winkies milk made sleepy hagrid nodded setting harry sure first thing morning came pants nursing anyway hagrid laughed buckbeak hates cant help breast feeding turns mmhmm harry potter motioned hagrid join bed man complied two snuggled covers spoke quietly telling much loved time pair drifted sleep anticipating anal awaited harry potter morning hour list utinkerbell boss tad froggo think ive ruined lifei everything told went right school took right classes worked hard got projects done shiny new phd hangs wall albatross around neck defended year ago one wants hire year trying gotten one interview one even tried leaving phd resume got caught fear never employed last six years living hell nothing want tear diploma wall rip brought nothing misery disappointment think may seriously irreparably ruined life im money unable pay rent dont tell congratulations sympathy doesnt help cant stand sitting anger frustration makes feel im going fly apart everything worked lie want hurt someone want punch professor face demand life back nothing live ask help nobody cares enough nothing look forward life want go anymore cant handle nightmare anyone tells gets better liar never experienced damn im tired pm girls saying body shaming every tiktok see girl saying small inches body shaming lets go one month leftin april ive decided last year closer year got end believe im going talk point guess needed let someone know need know want cant change tried getting help diagnosed multiple things made worse knowing im stuck feeling die theres point continuing tv movies made one saw way back first tv helen hunt steven weber terrific giving gritty realistic performances weber especially good turning exceptionally creepy understated performance child molesterkiller film really increased respect hunt actress director directed hoosiers somehow formulaic exciting direction works stark simple realism appealing tv movies predictable filled overacting see side story hunt faheys affair appealing without detracting main story im alone going tonight someone talk waitive ready go time unsuccessful attempts want leave life carnival pain want soul set free find peace ive lost count whatever number attempt hopefully lucky one im scared want kill myselfi reason live im trying put together plan ive hitting walls money feel procure means im years old lived parents got raped years ago spent yesterday looking methods cant go went rehab one counselors said creative life make creative life im bipolar work money car husband children job time end need someone talk traumapleaseits acting dont know feel wrong abused talking helps wish another way remember ralph bakshi guy animator terrytoons paramount cartoon studios director fritz cat heavy traffic well coonskin actually pretty good racist good movie takes place harlem nights duh working title twist becomes lampoon disney movie song southbr br sampson barry white preacherman charles gordone rush help friend randy philip michael thomas escape prison stopped roadblock wind shootout police waiting randy unwillingly listens fellow escapee pappy scatman crothers begins tell randy story three guys used know friends pappys story told animation set liveaction background photos footagebr br brother rabbit voice thomas brother bear voice white preacher fox voice gordone decide pack leave southern settings bank mortgages home sells man turns brothel arriving harlem rabbit bear fox find made encounter con man named simple savior phony revolutionary leader purports cousin black jesus gives followers strength kill whites flashy stage performance church savior acts brutalized symbols black oppressionrepresented images john wayne elvis presley richard nixon asking parishioners donationsbr br rabbit first goes madigan virulently racist homophobic white police officer bag man mafia demonstrates contempt african americans various ways including refusal bathe anticipated encounter believes theyre worth madigan finds rabbit taking payoffs cohorts ruby bobby led nightclub called cottontailbr br black stripper distracts lsd sugar cube dropped drink madigan influence spiked drink maneuvered sexual liaison stereotypically effeminate gay man shoved clothes women representative racist archetype adorned something racist finally shoved back club discovers ruby bobby deadbr br recovering delirium drugged shoots gun around randomly shot death police shooting one thembr br rabbit bear fox opponent boxer rush boxing arena blows liveaction story ends randy pappy escaping shot various white cops managing make alivebr br movie controversial time release reedited director several times title street fight obvious street fight documentary racism streets fact movie subject documentarybr br caused bryanston pictures distributor film original tobe hopper classic texas chainsaw massacre go business paramount wanted produce distribute film due racism bryanston took bakshis productionbr br despite controversy worth entertainment animation awesome time plot makes sense actually funny toobr br final verdict life fucks everyone whats pointim worthless meaningless absolutely impact world never will want admitted mental hospital runaway kill self need break need somewhere anywhere isnt dont car cant drive hospital redflag hotline track calls jfc im done wanting kill self damn time knowi know anymore feel nothing im split two let everything build let one drunken night ive something broke ive told two people remember much intense emotions im empty thoughts mind save stream text cant imagine future barely remember morning know wake tomorrow morning ill okay right want give sleep wake day im fucking tired wish allow open someone wish stop pretending strong need help advicei lost everything girl dreams family friends everything hurts girl never connected someone much life insane years talking everyday rejected anyways still want blow brains wrote redflag note july told keep fighting already got low enough write note october im meds ive talked everyone nothing works cant seem girl pretty much grew never loved thats attached nothing live everything live want anymore truly feel dead inside already im living physically idk sorry bothering everyone sub time yall got issues praying yall want fall asleep know wake feel bad now know parents going drag church going make dumb mistake feel shit probably self harm fall asleep wake continue day die want fall asleep film gets stamp approval scene museum demands acting without dialogue one interesting unique scenes history film dickinsons character kate well developed performance felt throughout entire film best work angie dickinson point blank think im finally readynot really sure start ive thinking years used make feel sad angry hurt scared thought kinda wierd feel anymore empty see way things changing feel money relationship matter want anything anymore matter everytime smoke hope one give cancer closest thought feel empty now scared sad angry feel time ive started making plans sadly two weeks fail know anymore im afraidim scared ill whether ill take far see path forward life friends walking life im tortured horrible memories every day feel almost emotions im miserable cant bear never loved universe time try opening someone realize im far gone beyond help thing keeps going guilt ill inflict mom brother cant see future past hurt anybody getting spiderman miles morales pre ordered pro cant wait play im sitting trying decide whether kill want talk someonethe reason want think girlfriend might angry tried samaritans words holy shit post nut clarity hit fucking hard bruh finished busting fat one never want beat meat someone listeni several things leading redflag need put know people want help yo selfloathing gay man tried someone long lost track wanted really knew grips depression suicidal need know fact better feel friends honest people want friends liar know make life better thats bs know bring accept move sound easy right plan going work morning source pain work small factory filled men men comfortable homosexuality one friend sweetheart man straight raised primarily women along well slow one hell human lot right now put mask back go work ltbgttldrltbgt im gay hate self hate killing want group mentally healthy gay people swoop save life know healthy people want around sick people ltbgttldr waas longltbgt need someone tell things going ok im scared biden sell us china really everyone saying goodnight yall scheduled shit posts return morning lost coworker week want chat amazing guywe knew problems much cant chain bed really nice person give food ate kind guy filling last year half really great person im sure becoming great father really odd subject type publicly often even talking publicly caused problems one neighbour called coward done broke found sub reddit person mattered issues search anywhere everywhere talk thats im now best friends started dating banking idk im annoying theyre wrapped world used talk every day started going christmas time spoke times week outside school huge arguments broke times months always mediated got talking lockdown started ill speak one twice month half hour convo theyll respond idk whether im annoying theyve got stuff going plus theyll respond sowhich annoying take days reply take another day respond ive got people much listened supported ignore sometimes weeks end problems lives want push ask find theyre nursing injuries parents seem evil im bit loner anyway ill see post videos friends im still shielding ill feel really inadequate idk feel really bad one every often says miss takes week reply lol im really emotional reason made post im tired feel im massive burden even though ive never shared problems ive always supported thanks coming depressing ted talk isolation stuff lasts beyond june im going kill myselfi friends entire family already dead ive depressed fact ive known go two three days without eating much beyond coffee alcohol hold small stuff spending weekends desert mountains going beach sitting starbucks reading listening music thats now live alone aside work mechanic im essential literally human contact anyone im stuck home watching tv masturbating even walk outside im surrounded goddamn concrete ill yelled staying safe home thats another thing literally understand drive fucking interstate dozen miles ones car dont leave car fuck going infect someone infected pavement interstate coronavirus car im sure someones going respond blah blah blah thats good enough reason kill even though dont need good reason found amazing video internet please watch httpsyoutubegqnhfwprshttpsyoutubegqnhfwprs im mess needed tell someoneive wanting die ten remember trying choke trying figure tie became teenager used take pills know much time take feel embarrassed good life place sleep two degrees job friends warm lovely people still feel im disappointing everyone even im im mess im room time work sometimes keep quiet im lying bed pretending exist love feeling enjoy nobody notices relief hurting time ago anxiety leave go bed able see mirror used eat dark waiting midnight go bathroom want go back dark place ive thinking lot parents use money ive saving funeral spend money nobody knows sad im sure makes feel worse know people im happy laugh enough money go therapy really think fix nothing broke life family truly rejects stuff mental health ampxb know happy avoid thoughts kill mean even good motive im sorry english first language im rambling thoughts nnn nss sss november saw exes story put calm boys simp september thought kinda neat coming simp september spread word please good day advice boy die stabbed dont stab anyone f ps parties seriously ruined whole system servers heart racing fumbling sound glass clinking never done breaking every moral formed date burn nothing notice lightness calm mind uneasy happiness relaxation senses regained surely true self penut butter swallowed mask smell brushing teeth stumbling music fun smirkcolumbine fox place wanted goreally post rredflag directs redflagwatch know im looking courage please give courage end know works ive always lurker thats ive never even courage post reddit anonymously know several people devastated cant keep please someone tell okay cant wish people allowed lie love hear often sure feel people thought needed typical aight people say want big tiddy goth gfs question actually exist slaanesh propaganda im fucking lonely driving insanei cant anything anymore without periods completely space start crying cant find soul want around life matter okay happy normal act hate step mom dad engaged everyone family knows shes using doesnt job drinking problem dad wakes begin working complain stressful day cleans house yesterday got message speeding going passing lane told dad dad good terms know theyve fighting tf take never gave shit years shes total bitch regardless im nyc blocked number day day im pretty good im never going good enough realised depressed today looking tie noose depressed girlfriend two half years going university soon goes im fairly certain end relationship im nothing life good enough gcses sixth form mainly due mother trying commit redflag two days exams started got ec meant levels ended going college music yeah know drop subject finished june year ive deal father attempting commit redflag lost friends failed jobapprenticeship ive sat around week seeing old friends make statuses facebook theyve gotten offers various universities hit realised ill never able go university able grades even able afford pay ive tried turning life around cant even researching tie noose im going become organ donor organs may well go good use keep somebody alive use something life anybody advice turn life around may well try cure touching poignant drama film focuses two neighborhood boys become good friends one boys aids boys become good friends despite eriks apprehensiveness first film shows boys journey discover cure ohio according national examiner affects relationship acting wonderful never seen annabella sciorra better movie plain touching stop crying shoe scene good tearjerker keep kleenex nearby helpcan anyone help endive thinking killing years gotten worse beginning life meaning point ive attempted redflag two times obviously failed time first tried overdose melatonin sleeping pills six clearly enough second tried hang ceiling fan low im going try third time soon one truly knows pain existence expect either final cry help end keep reading rredflagbereavement imagining friends family live without meits strangely comforting coping mechanism know people love care absolutely torn sick way kind comforting imagine everyone sobbing working hard move remember maybe often feel lonely forgotten feels time id really feel love wan na say hey yall ask ur doin stupid sub wont let post hey cries standard rise fame tale high points number one lonette mckee sister gives stunning star making performance fact never became huge sensation beyond sadly supporting character forced focus irena carters bland character sparkle whose rise fame easy boring unconvincing whenever girls go stage perform movie comes back life original music curis mayfield must praised copy saw old vhs tape picture quality pretty low well production values im guessing worth gander stop pretending helpfulno insep went throats went got cose h h e w well knew wouldnt done knew knew fault de n n day classes went morning cattle drover wontt go see today donmt thinj able finish homework wont come wont come thats keep getting trouble failing trying losing giving bet friends tired keep giving im tired trying make harder one helped gone whole life mental health system failing every chance got mother told lying everyone thought lying well dead child hands mom bet wont think lying nothing helps one wants im pain head hurts emotions hurt feelings hurt feelings pain translate pain dont know dont mean mental pain hurt differently hurt physically bet friends tired keep giving things always happen talk feel bad professionals wont help supposed dont tell friends much detail tell im sad im depressed want die feel burden never good enough hold reach everyone says turned fall cracks one wants believe serious urgent situation people help cant believe one person cant hope college faculty pushed point fired find dead ignored said temper tantrum cant stop screaming everyone gave everyone given evidence expect change tried talking mother year old female long story short grandmother basically raised passed away october due college grad sucky economy move grandmothers home lived back mothers home things literal hell fusses dog vacuums three times day due dog doesnt allow touch cleaning supplies kitchen area laundry room due messy im allowed lay couch anything ill damage spend day little room im work grad school im done honestly hate coming home find driving parking lot sitting car avoid going home often talk moving mom response leave house masters degree youll exiled family ill never talk cant manage ive researched hang via doorknob think thats best option right now ive dealing ptsd depression brother tragically died im end trying anymore probably wont go dream day night bad memory needed space vent labeling film lesbian love story accurate calling pride prejudice straight love story theres much thatbr br yes main character lesbian story classic bildungsroman journey childhood adulthood sexual innocence maturity personal blindness self discovery stylistic element camp films direction hindrance rather serves underscore staged dramatic parts main characters lifebr br know anna chancellor bbc version pride prejudice certainly amazed rachael stirling stellar main character nan keeley hawes wideeyed goodness lover kitty butler chancellor might stand role aside sally hawkins plays zena butler film faint heart piece progay advertising either real story real comedy drama engaging story compelling characters well worth watching official redflag notefor legal purposes deny thoughts harm anyone asked person deny disclaimer asidei saw forty seven year old crush twenty two year old lap bode well thirty five year old fiance one guys age interested know hes guy earth echos larger truth larger truth red pill right love looks beauty physical world failing organism poor treatment disrespect whole society symptom something larger know letter might make everyone laugh honestly ive come smelly cell neck beard whos joy life arguing reddit trolls hate life hate people worst hate feeling skin hate waking every day hate feeling inside even best technology strictest diet hardest work cant fix feeling body fail cant fix aging male toothless balding fifty year old covered tats still twenty year old babe lap idiot friend proves female sit around watching display feeling saggy wanting throw food miss loved cared even though real hate people theyve abused entire life thats universal truth life planet well fucking hate people lot scrolling sub depressing almost comfortingits sad see many people want end lives time comforting know everyone going thing alone even world rejects us find odd comfort life great even good us promise well make together love reaching helpive never reached help ive always felt id wasting someones time want way anymore way feel accomplish redflag anything general answer specific questions posed im trying waste anyones time though feel anyway want help know turn anymore child thought quicksand gon na much larger problem life turned im yet see quicksand stuck always feel im needy ask something someone says hey need help something want thing want ask takes hours build enough courage even ask ill feel needy asf try ask though theyre clearly offering something want still feel needy ask police story brought hong kong movies modern day cinemabr br jackie plays policeman tries catch drug dealers time take care young woman bad guys still take care relationship girlfriend selina brigitte linbr br movie features plenty stunts jackie actors jackies stunt clubbr br three jackies stunt members went hospital filming filmbr br movie incredible fights scenes car park fight shoppingmal fight ranks one jackies finestbr br movie award best movie best action design jackie chan hong kong film awardsbr br everyone loves jackie chan andor martial art movies shud see timecant shit anymore struggling mentally years im fucking bald needed cherry top doesnt better feel dickbut worth dated girl one friends told cheating asked avoided question eventually admitted im dating best friend idk right thing feels good hell question online students option school learning seem school trying make become person learner school seems trying classes giving harder work give school smaller due date even fail one class make come school learn wanted see happening cant count times watched although differs book story line mood still bond two diverse people give surpasses trials years immortal element women prisoners actual event happen real people story strength character ordinary people people tried survive horrible time lives presented australia real mode country countries areas everyone loves quaint country areas desolate areas gives shute stage jeans transformation lowly outback town family community think im gon na itive fighting three years now okay month falling apart want die bad want end soon im coward ive thinking long time think try kill next week parents home hate cant better nothing live everything pointless meaningless future people miss im sure theyll wrong never told happening ended things wanted serious took cheating day goes back every argument months told girl found actually still relationship ex visit home town im awake new meds never seen boring new tab life disappointed u got pp joke dude banned sociopath enjoying report people mom spanked front girlfriend im earlier girlfriend gon na make mom leaves upstairs playing minecraft got killed creeper screamed f word mom grabbed one dads belts told bend started whooping ass embarrassing cant believe still im gon na dumped probably cause girlfriend thinks im little bitch good thing insomnia pills took pill minutes ago im already feeling dizzy today stressful weak little work magic fortunate life times sad frustrated people luckier current situation feel existential sadness im leaving house born raised look anywhere house see memory past im leaving behind best friend dude known forever literally cant remember time havent known im leaving behind array elementary school friends whove kind years im giving new chance new place makes sad never see majority people help someone doesnt want helpedone pf friends spiraling depression seems getting worse worse weve trying least try recover refuses lets everything overpower us trying best say alright say shes fine let try fight thoughts getting ive went im recovered dont worry cant stand anyone going misery school ended several hours ago us afraid might actually summer one stop honestly despite recovering know dont truly dont know help someone doesnt take help know help needs someone ive done shes pushing everyone away emotionally dont know save late feel helpless need advice thank reading ramble beg help hope good day hope gets better want extend much really know type advicesmy psychiatrist therapist aswell friends told thing try new thingsyup impossible something new enjoy minutes longer find fun hobbies aswell everything feels bad fun enjoyablethis th year dealing depression getting worse worse afford therapy sessions last week nd suicide attempt everything went wrong stuck shitty life try new things birthdayi posted something rdepression end day thing sit trying people come nothing one girl makes feel okay rely lazy text back nobody knows severity situation sitting razorblade enough pills alcohol finish hate possible obtain gun admitted hospital depression california edit posts rstopselfharm rdepression care read someone please remind reasons life worth livingi sincerely understand need keep going anxiety depression overwhelming almost impossible leave house keep wishing something awful happen feel way anymore one cares happen know need reasons life worth people keep wanting help think hanging ceilingi deleted social media long ago hopes getting mental reset feel slowly getting worse someone given number people asking ahold friends people coming talking negative thoughts feelings theyre going feel total prick advice shitty cant even believe im typing think going away never coming back hope ends soon hope better soon jeopardy wouldnt worried winning getting questions right fucking terrified come interesting story share double jeopardy thoughts teasing people havent done got boyfriend little body showing thats nothing tooooo revealing dont feel leading someone whats yall thoughts thankyouf hi earlier posted overdosed cut arms legs really bad thankyou people helped im hospital made pain go away making feel better fainted times paramedics house broke hand fell apparently cut vein hurt arms tummy flushed pain gone away need stiches arms legs going tomorow im going asleep im kinda scared cast hand im bed waiting doctor see think bringing medication thankyou much people helped really mean thankyou please help guy outfound rconfession op seems unstable recent redflag attempts took lot pillsim scared overdosed love surpassing lucas sport edition lucas sis played football younger best lot goals sometimes one two three three times often best three goals one match thats nothing man lucas scored twenty goals one half one half forty goals one match lucas sis scored header volley bare feet lucas lucas chill even scored heel scored every time scored often messy tried hanging today overdosed sleeping pillsif reading may already gone heres last words go fucking hate world bullshit im tired im done getting made fun depression clothes looks cuts arm nobody fucking cares even friends talk shit interests im failing school teachers hate know ill never job wanted im gon na dirty hobo street begging money something eat theres really meaning life ill never find happiness goes away im back nothing fucking works mental hospitals therapy anime video games nothing fucking works im lowly stupid insignificant human cant anything right goodbye reddit everyone hope everyone gets hate many things wrong failure hate hating entire life good reasons countless things wrong countless times failed school failed good person bad selfish person obviously lot people hate please downvote post want lose karma deserve sister knows self harm dont know never said anything knows shes seen posts ive made dont know feel weird clint eastwood star battleweary detective harry callahan direct fourth entry dirty harry series sudden impact additions brings distinguishable style tone anything probably similar original darker seedy moments bestowing classic line go ahead make day humor seen believe bulldog named meathead pisses farts oh yeah interesting fact entry one series set entirely san franciscobr br story follows detective callahan trying put pieces together murder victim shot groin eyes getting trouble office superiors causing stir crime lord thugs blood hes ordered take leave falls working one heads coastal town san paulo murder occurred similar vein bullet groin eyes case begins dig dirt leads idea someone looking revengebr br honest crash hot eastwoods take many repeat viewings virtually grown point probably par first sequel magnum force wellassembled plot actually gives eastwood another angle work upon even though feels sophisticated take vigilante features running rampant time quite literal something punishing luridly damaging hes experimenting noirthriller touches characterdriven traits help develop emotionally bubbling eventual morality framework use images lasting due slickly foreboding atmospherics dark tones brooding lighting scene towards end akin western showdown silhouette figure harry new automag handgun moving way towards stunned prey fishing docks striking sight builds fear mixing hauntingly cold plain brutality dash humor seemed come major plus films dialogues call sudden impact firstrate provides ample biting exchanges memorably creditable lines youre legend mind love hearing harry sparking amusing quip pulling piece beating action occurs excitingly jarring intense way go pacing flies little way flat passages lalo schfrin return composer enforcer jerry fielding scoring bringing methodical funky kick still breathed gloomy cues texturally breezy score clicked getgo bruce surtees eastwood regular gets job behind camera piecing job dirty harry gives film plenty scope wonderfully framing backdrops impeccable tracking scenes instrument edgy angles within dramatic momentsbr br eastwood dinosaur callahan still packs punch going beyond steely glare job done probably showing little heart one expect younger callahan going sudden shift plot turn harrys quest justice badge even though always agree found odd real change heart across stupendous performance beau time sondra locke turn traumatic torment senselessly raped along younger sister hidden glassily quiet intensity anger released tactically accurate outcome paul drake perfectly menacing filthy one targeted thugs audrie j neenan nails repellently scummy bigmouthed performance people truly ugly bunch saps pat hingle sturdy chief small coastal town smaller parts bradford dillman agreeably potent albert popwell regular series different characters forget dirty harry yes bank robber thats end trademark quote feel lucky well ya punk s seem yesterday dam tf years already apparently im year old boomer now whats wack tho years s kill myselfbefore kill want drugs hands oni want crazy shiti want finish everything need blow brains sweet warm embrace death yeah im pan constant panic pandemic closest ive feltso ive seeing therapist months see psychiatrist possible medication scares much worry losing think feel knowing need pill feel normal feel lonely want feel belong something wish find someone relate talk happypositive upbeat music help listen somber depressive type music help downi realize depressed exactly thing struggling find right words right now music help feeling especially depressed kind music helps ive trying avoid social media know redflag provoking joined ultimately thought make feel connected people kind im okay course im looking everyones highlight reels friend count im especially envious cant help feel crap social life came standstill early s compartmentalized facets life ensuring people knew never intermingled hate people isnt worth itlife one problem fix another one cares youre okay dont want anymore think videogame characters want christmas guess doomguy ask santa trip hell dont know cant go iti live miserable life fat ugly pig one wants around bad temper none family members dont really see future going college honestly interest school question cant really kill tried many times using different methods point always chicken outas anything better please help finally courage end ive decided kill dont upvoteim sorry comes wall text im sorry rambling nonnonsensical wanted write going kill decided ive tried past past weeks ive getting closer closer going realised id spontaneously way work set date plan id one day decide todays day id thinking wondered whether right thing know make note lot people life important people family members friends people knew kid made impression life id say something nice tell appreciated telling family fault sort thing realised months advance even years advance itd horribly macabre many people id want say goodbye im hoping decide write note whatever time id written things wanted say go id changed mind right want die im quite keen living bit longer ive pressing past days though came home college see family college works getting worst anyway walking around neighbourhood realised many different things reminded times happy passing piece graffiti told ex sort thing kind upsetting got happened start listening music know whole constantnoveltyseeking type midnset websites reddit foster horrible downside past years got net theres always one song ive playing others song much makes hate find another one anyway ended stumbling towards ive seen face beatles reminded last year highschool everything much better top game taking running seriously gotten ivy league college class president soontobe valedictorian school organised prom great time listening particular song took back id done lot work point id already battled eating disorders self harm rest pulled managed coped eventually started succeed know turn life around back emotionally physically academically one small tiny fucking piece time ive decided kill hopefully ill able update future life crumbling around past year half want set putting back together read thank wt pet names dating personal opinion know people might disagree im cool anyway honestly dont usual pet names people give relationship stuff babebabyprincessqueenkingsweetiedarlingetc dont know weird wouldnt rather nickname personalized seems common plus reason think babe baby makes think parents dont wan na think used call thats rant wanted say hope yall wonderful rest daynight ps ive always disliked sappy stuff dont know im weird mother karen holy fuck good one nobody stand aint manager karen want got anything girl boy bus stand recieves text girl girl boy waiting bus girlokay hurry boy waits faster friend lowkey idk im sure randomly complimented makeup snapchat groupchat asked ab school thing guys basically gf now sorry tell yall friend poland needs helpas title says friend poland im polish recently friend showing signs depression somewhat suicidal tendencies friend told thinking redflag recently theyre tired time told seek help see doctor okay let thoughts fester friend convinced told wanted seek help due coronavirus pandemic everything closed good people reddit please help friend im polish know done scenario want help friend know someone tell resources something sort share friend id grateful right house alone first time really want stop everything find worth reason keep going know keep going everything seems blurry unimportant think ill fee ease finally done know writing thoughts killing write somewhere hope good day rn drinking alone house handle thoughts ive always thought inevitable way seems creeping closeri quit job january schedule environment made depressed thought thats life cant worth time economy trouble job market begin made feel crappy job probably best life going im special life surely owes nothing think deserve exist way make happy ive worked hard try work meaningful degree meaningful university cant even emails back bank teller positions rejection specifically hard issue father man refer father rejected whole adolescence found im likely product rape explained lot things still hearing dad say thought someone elses kid something ive never able ive tried approval quit things loved young things ive done sometimes wonder underneath seems series failed attempts win fathers love think moment every day decade sometimes im still right living room ampxb rejection emails phone calls difficult dealing rejection world getting harder harder feel ive already given much googled cheapest way commit redflag today hard even sad now life feels done lifemy friend committed redflag weeks ago bullied years things home progressively getting worse felt way eventually leading death th grade parents ignored signs assumed phase someone fucking audacity call attention seeker killed hate society parents please keep eye child know loosing battle pointless rant dont know botherdoes anybody feel werent meant guess think much dont think ill comfortable living dont see growing old family shit think im meant miserable rest long life even im happy still feel enough feel dont know describe oceanic void feel anybody feel fucked doomed im robot going motions scavenging tiny drop feeling find used want travel things whats point reality wherever go space used think job making unsatisfied leaving feeling completely hollow every day even got new job nothing changed feel numb everything want feel people feeling dont understand got fucked half ass brain feel incomplete living miserable fucking bitch someone please talk meim feeling worse usual spend vacation puts closure television series aired ive always enjoyed series ive never compared series looney tunes old days video release split four five episodes cant remember im writing television included episode list series whats good series main characters show major role story see summer vacation different parts world elmyra parents safari plucky hampton crossing country hamptons parents fifi beach etc climax good end tiny toon characters reunite start new year looniversity thus practically ending good run tv show anyone 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na ask questions im herewant advice elderlyim ill try reply commentshave nice day chooms among us kindly ask rteenagers valentines please accept sexy sons bitches band released new single discoindie httpsopenspotifycomtrackfjsdrunsllfpqjkwpsixjcwfsgpsisgrlgstnyq youtube httpsyoutubesjttewme listening feedback need new gamertag guys suggestions used random name generators theyre shit name long xx cool really need new nice suggestions thx remember disliking movie st time saw grown love costumes poses actors make humor cinematography soundtrack scenes rich moves quickly every time watch something new catches eye aaliyah akasha probably thing ruins enoughbr br lestat movie different character see character armand given lestatlike qualities im assuming anne wanted reason trash movie books fascinating kinda thinking nowlike fuck financial stuff hate money sistem know frends ended nobody remember problems go dye live depression last years dont know everything always fall apart long time ago proud got spiritual yourney days came back old problems fall sides expect funking love people see money people dont wanto live im afraid kill know fast got plannedim end line ive addicted opiates adult life im stealing family im living aunt rest family kicked soon finds stole im kicked living streets felon im probily gon na go back jail none friends answer phone calls anymore move city miles hometown im huge disappointment family ive already got planned im gon na take lot sleeping heroin fall asleep car running garage slit wrists im big pussy im huge piece shit waste breath space want fuck anymore want keep im tired everytime tried clean ends failure cant really see way even know im posting may cry help im anonymous internet anyone know going read heeey anyone want talk ik ik im lonely ive good hearty internet friend want know world isnt place tell go meet people pm people age f btw lets discuss internet friendships comments advantages disadvantages experiences make without support network dont fucken know irl online dependency issues unable help mental health professional know fucken frustrating painful go want end wish someonei wish someone hold sob wish someone care wish someone notice hate bad nobodys nobodys always alone left deal loneliness pain sadness wish someone movie amazing several reasons harris takes extremely awkward documentary turns relevant social commentary groovin gary smalltown kid assumed wellliked many impersonations decides play olivia newton john local talent show passionate garys actions show odds conservative social environment lives results making various justifications actions people think fact transvestite social outcast second installment harris exploites struggle gary beaver novice attempt make narrative original documentary third final installment trilogy truly amazing harris extreme sensitivity subject unlike second installment orkly kid shows gary truly troubled character struggles gain acceptance within community avail secret passion dressing olivia newton john distances even people already consider social outcast movie depicted realistically reality lends many reactions surely one see gary ridiculously pathetic character may identify outcast talk someonei tried talk someone either ignore tell im trying manipulate tried therapy ive waiting list year ive called redflag hotline redflag hotline tell try things bullshit lol nobody gives shit nobody bothered im dead theyll parade around make fault oh shouldve talked fucking tried nobody listened feel im screaming im pain everybody walks past cant anymore im scared ill go hell finally today l finally got balls ask crush whether liked said yes l im fan actorssingers especially gackt first discover movie watch traileri think silly oneafter long waiting timei watched last heres commentbr br consider everyone knows storyline going mention itinstead first applause goes actinggenerally japanese movies got brilliant actingyet moonchilds cast simply wonderful got itespecially gackt reflects characters emotions changes pretty welli many scenes dramatic humorous onesas hyde parthis acting good deliberately staying background actorrespectively character dothroughout moviei cinematography especially lighting colors due small budgetit still brilliant momentsbut real jewel film storyit cheesy moments ok meand friendship theme movie really well developed touching sometimeson hand story points cruel world ones life guaranteed memorable death scenes reflects theme visualsan interesting note asidethis movie similarities excellent vampire movie interwiew vampire played beautifulnot handsomebeautifulactors american cinemaactually moon child somehow seen brother interwiewyet original ownonly problem moonchild bit slow sometimesim japanese movie fan used change moonchild useless scenes charactersbut allthis movie really good emotional sometimesas actorssingers duo hope see movies futureand recommend everyone likes vampireactionscifiction romance films fucking hate spotify ads ps spotify headset max volume music quit ad plays music loud af fucking brain hurts becuase loud fuck spotify ads everyone abandoning meearlier week friend h said paranoid anxiety disorder couldnt handle talking anymore blocked social media sent depressive spiral havent gotten cut first time years confided friends feeling morning friend c sent message saying constant messages confiding make uncomfortable blocked already paranoia everyone abandoning realize toxic makes worse everyone interact hurt better die hurt anyone abandon im losing itive suicidal thoughts everyday past months today first day actually strongly considered hurting worse im considering going back school coming semester look mirror feel hatred much trouble connecting people feel alone stop stop yeah cool gay straight bi whatever jesus christ cant go reddit anymore without people saying told im bigay got girlboyfriend come people nice amazing come people great significant jesus amount way much downvote want care internet points posting everyday girlfriend day bananas berries cherries ok sothe reason im attempting right dont want put kid pain doesnt live hes much love express destroy go dont want continue often cuss curios becouse ive come realisation much cuss literally every sentence need reason stayplease help ive bad relationship six years now good really good hes supportive loving helpful bad inner narcissist comes tried break six months ago cant stay away meanwhile friends turning hes painted exes crazy bitchesits likely hes now im currently crisis situation hes recently stopped talking im anxious upset cant sleep eat ive much thinking hung said right things stopped arguing eventually want back want believe everyone told harmful stay away right cant imagine killing myselfbut want die want feel pain thought found love first time life know love probably never pain much know die hurt people im tired feeling way please give reason stay although gave rating expectations higher film delivered happier deep diving diver supposed portray life carl brashear thats film made angry beginning happy end daaaaaamn im award club one another ladies want diei want lay upside wait blood head fucking die mg lorazapam bottle winewill sleep enough rather die way instead dyingalright go girl middle teenage years ive abused parents half life abandoned whenever people see problems realise im normal perfect someone love might truly love promises hell save us someday know cant happen even though love thought reason im slowly dying realizing even live freedom anyway im terminally ill point fucking die second likely fault know karma shit terrible person young mother always tells useless helpless able live alone im taking shit heart always correct id rather kill die suddenly keep letting bloody punching bag everyone use disgusting joke maybe reincarnated ill finally better life someday find person love know maybe ill start upvting every comment ill cus mabe someone somethin idk sitting couch feeling lost dog ran think start crying point even breathe right miss much want anything died ion rlly much people talk talked friend feel better still crying every single time think look equally sad sister never type sad gloomy broke heart much know handle confused happened happened even know feel lost confused alone foreign countrylast week went first holiday overseas croatia remember happy year thought chance ive met two friends online one poland one croatia work live remotely really friends two always past years even isolated last time hang friend march year went back old town grew saw old friends really excited meet spend time finally ive waited past years booked flight poland talking friend said meet week stay stay place paid changed mind want meet booked flight croatia soon land poland talking friend zagreb said shed meet hang weekends spend weeknights together landing zagreb catching taxi studies waited till finished unfortunately happened next two nights planned meet wait rain every time show argument ended blocking ive sitting zagreb apartment last week ive barely left motivation im scared im scared city live away society ive gotten used member society keeping cant bring go town see sites relying show around really whole reason came spend time two friends ended blocking fault angry situation take anger think every right block never talk hurts came far spent much money meeting friends even give chance meet ive suicidal past years ive never really wanted go always wished involved accident sit foreign country alone one two people always past years left really want end want anymore one really care im gone tried tell blocked fault guess believe something im tired done wanted spend time friend minor new year resolutions know lot people try make new years resolution high expectations become rich buff complete im wondering minor goals yall wan na seem plausible least tips people wan na shitpost post aint long enough never done anything right life continue fail never meet expectationstheres nothing going nothing useless waste space life feels purposeless nothing world make happier dissipate every time go sleep hope wake sometimes wish id deadly disease tell pull plug immediately go daunting task killing wish many risks surviving attempting suicide realistically want paini want exhausted feel anything anymore despite havehi im depressed college student wants diei know sounds typical whats got schools hard friends family sucks actually currently gpa enough scholarships pay tuition even hefty amount whats left directly bank account enough sustain apartment comfortably although still work part time family perfectly functional besides sister became pediatrician parents work respectable jobs theyre abusive anything friends ive always preferred done anything wrong wonderful cat whos super loving caring counseler super cool actually believe cares despite feel anything anymore im completely numb feel despair easy put act convince everyone around perfectly fine ive even tried talking people depression theyre oh im sure phase smart ive wanting die everyday past year oded weeks ago didnt work obv intentions ended nuisance took pills mg zolaftsertraline nd thought shouldve downed whole bottle guess question ishow hell fix someone much already people cant believe possibly depressed much craziest thing know thingsand acknowledge yet still want nothing sweet release death whats wrong worst irony life ive always tried depend anything im alive internet worst irony life ive always tried depend anything im alive internet really need care much politics youre old enough vote question geared towards americans due extreme polarization country right now parents seem almost offended didnt really care told biden chose vp said really dont much need know details right now especially considering wont even able vote time election comes around important especially right literally away politics matter go im really interested parents hope biden wins dont really know want post picture snapchat story show friends cant vote support really want know common american teens parents seem think fuck everythingi cant fucking stop whoring guys keep everytime afterwards leave feel even worse time going fucking end life tonight none really even give shit know im posting fuck life fuck reddit fuck internet fuck everything everyone bye emily today thirteenth birthday long road tough one glad finally experience teenage life thanks free karma fun fast paced one falsehood leads another another toward inevitable surprising conclusion suspense separates holiday flick others one wonders pieces going fit movie futurebr br character actors laid foundation entertained us process sinkewicz frank jenks shows us manipulation getand ultimately manipulation cost uncle felix sz sakall sizes person us trying protect lishka barbara stanwyck helps us decide going root endbr br achieve perfect world imperfect people likely undergo series events thesebr br glaring weakness fake baby cry allegedly swallowed uncle felixs watch ive heard authentic crying doll toy storebr br watch really feel somewhere want hospitalized cant stop thinking ending allim bipolar type hospitalized jan year th time extreme depression psychosis meds working put lexapro zyprexa helped bit last month ive getting worse worse fucking hate damn bad im tired psych listening tired exhausting family bow fucking sick depression started hurting little im tired im tired shit working im tired pain im tired know feel complete failure tired told keep head itll pass im fucking sick trying endless game rotating pills work im stuck want go drive somewhere secluded found maybe jump cliff shit overdose pills cant head want hospitalized take away anxiety meds real bad anxiety disorder thanks past sexual abuse im done life tired trying hard nothing im confused crying damn everything im sick another redflag stole chance cant push anymore going kill worked lived family four small children back soon moved going kill thing kept going years id hit rock bottom moving family four small children need part even slightly know truck got used go work dark hours walking past houses first bus earn enough money pay rent solace knowing going kill aunt killed still tearing family pieces father uncle therapy resonance death staggering live place aunt killed thats reason last conversation telling wretched person world better without pall bearer funeral lowered coffin ground wished dearly way around im lose house rented place kill yet times change little ways job amazing love job wish separated six weeks gives focus purpose reason local butcher knows name neighbours nice want alive wanted alive years keep thinking id died sleeping back van everything wouldve better everyone know theres another redflag hanging family dark cloud feel cheated chance want alive know fuck quietly asked want found deadwhat hell say want one dead anyone needs vent needs distractionpm yo f former self harmer knows want end felt suicidal years old emotionally abusive parents absentee father mother lived grandmother emotionally abusive one met wife rd year highschool started dating senior year awkward first real girlfriend outside long distance ones end well changed people throuout years together mostly good growing empathy ability communicate one thing grow self esteem see objectively particularly ugly anything skills nothing really added self worth wife primary source confidence last week found involved someone via internet destroyed even though cut contact saying lot right things stay together major anchor world feel really meant told never thought make far right feet dragging guess venting work go good moments wife still feel life drained know plenty worse plenty people wayward spouse show remorse feel selfish honestly everything feels selfish feel deserve nothing death broken infidelity happiness fakenever experienced seems used feel important others special give ideas lunch want food preferably good food mmm im planning making abridgefandub spongebob anime need voice actors people help write depend wether fandub abridge decided yet yeah comment find interesting sample text hey guys normally write stuff basically suicidal idk probably suicidal back mind time super suicidal time nobody rly knows depressed level closer friends know anti depressants appear depressed average person try super positive rlly nice things homeless people donate stuff actually sit talk make feel human great heart idk tired lots people say really pretty self hatred aside average sure reason killed scared pain andor surviving living worse life usual big dreams love live life rather dead honest work hard jobs apartment grades high school good shake feeling think felt alone long hated head fuckint hard long permanently messed brain love hate either look mirror take bunch cute pics even look mirror ill feel nauseous feel shutting disassociate think ways kill even know writing guess see anyone relates think bothers people take depression seriously pretty nice sure thanks listening idk looking pc players looking people play pc right friends manly play xbox im mainly playing destiny rainbow siege im open playing games send discord youre interested favorite color blue favorite color blue thanks noticing dont anything im say never anything im say im gon na tell crush give reason power im looking yall never given hope yall im gon na say one time please dont let power dont let took least mg pills paracetamol hours ago wan na take im scared agony liver damage death terrifies lol think ill fine taking much gon na sick eventuallyi havent experienced anything pills took hours ago im confused im gon na fine take spitei job last spring racial minority workplace full white people company paid car apartment manager california blonde roommatecoworker brunette green eyes bitches scapegoated always bombarded dont work matter hard tried always say teehee kind air uncommon basic white girls clients scapegoated couldnt play race card outright racist remarks made despite better living home begged stay fired wanted hurt following months unemployment make guilty haunt therapist said wouldnt work even face lawsuit based note play history edge parents possible lawsuit money guarantee two feel bad today wrote redflag noteplease understand knew never good enough yet hopes dreams yearned endless may remain legacy tried best saving regret nothing thank loved sorry hi everyonei weird thing know ask iti exactly depressed feel excitement lot things work trying eat healthier study work small project say perfectly fulfilled feel joymore specifically joy partner happyi know told whenever sees excited something becomes happy happy reason work whenever see excited happy something become happy sad either mood change think never really happy feel positive emotions excitement intrigue hype lot positive emotions really happiness thing doanyone knows fix weird thing know go onposting throwaway girlfriend knows main account want hurt read life fucking sucks im miserable pile crap cant anything right im living best friend parents got kicked parents know keep going job finding job impossible aspergers clinical depression anxiety generally antisocial nature ive one job lost job right got kicked even social life know got girlfriend damn purpose right now guiding light worry every damn second light going burn im going lost worst fucking part ask advice told things never worked complain overstressed life people live called entitled lazy fuck im trying ass apply jobs week thats average brain handle without burning pitch around house much im asked sometimes even asked much contribute ways financially seems one really gives fuck god wish die hit car biking home college something control reason plan actually killing girlfriend something happen forced act die id choose death gladly uncle passed away coping wellseems ive getting older ive marking peoples deaths calendar aftermath watergate number conspiracy movies appeared one written late adam kennedy based novel br br gene hackman plays exvietnam veteran roy tucker loser wound prison receives visits marvin tagge richard widmark claims represent organisation designed assist wrongly convicted offer freedom despite distrusting tagge accepts brings along fellow cell mate name spiventa mickey rooney exactly hard see spiventa irritating little man drives tucker mad persistent talk sex want hear behind barsbr br tagges benefactors kill spiventa tuckers astonished eyes reunited wife ellie candice bergen given new identity strangely attempt change appearance shaving cheesy moustache start settles finds catch tagge wants tucker less assassinate president united states refuses tagge ellie abductedbr br leave synopsis sure guess rest script enough plot holes make want read book neat trick people tagge represents never revealed allusions jfks killing unmistakable despite findings warren commission doubt whether lee harvey oswald acted alone persists daybr br stanley kramers first movie years turkey lacks grip say john frankenheimers manchurian candidate alan jpakulas parallax view leftwing conspiracy movie tends skirt around subject matter instead getting grips prefer rightwing ones funnier domino look feel madefortv movie boasts must easiest prison escape movie history mention ending copped michael caine classic carterbr br makes watchable gene hackman richard widmark latter sadly passed away earlier year superb mysterious tagge initially appears behind operation ruthlessly eliminated beginning chain deaths designed remove trace evidence one one perpetrators evil plot fall dominoes tucker innocent pawn hackman marvellous wonder though chose hide obvious place shoes id fled side world anywhere away fanatics hackmans love scenes bergen slow plot almost relief gets snatched presumably producers thought explains opens bizarre prologue setting films entire premise voiced british actor patrick allen warning audience us comedian les dawson later spoofed opening bbc show dawson watchbr br mickey rooney earlier worked kramer mad mad mad mad mad world death scene resembles outtake picture actor looking though stung wasp rather shot deadbr br conspiracy movies used made left right getting act last year taking liberties absurd concoction lies halftruths tony blairs government turned britains answer reefer madness least domino lovely candice bergen best chris atkins film offer anne widdecombebr br surprisingly domino principle made sir lew grade legendary british television mogul behind saint jesus nazareth muppet show worked adam kennedy raise titanic whose failure great sank grades ambitions new louis bmeyer somewhat openminded rule possibility conspiracy christmas celebrate im bit curious know guys got something likedwanted grieving heaps regrets happiest time yeari miss mum aunt mum mentally ill really good looking aunt one look lot whenever mum go hospital died around middle year cancer last time saw looked thin nothing tell actually last time saw good spirits day found mum dead ridiculously normal cant move grief live dad keep thinking earth live around anymore life huge support people theres basically one reach honest ive described angel well look friends friends now nowherei keep suicidal thoughts im sure much longer keep reason need work dad rent honestly hate life wish never born feels stupid mistake advice needed purely vent gives comfort someone feels awful time year thats good ive never acted suicidal thoughts ive always one others strong feel nothing left cried today whether tiredness loneliness mixture things im sure im usually good looking bright side things really sick putting front know love keep touch anyone going anything similar pm feel mum got put grave nearly part got put im feel longer live waste cant want degree english drama nice job bookstore feel lonely kills people thought friends even speak now ive tried many times open people mind 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world onesit best graphics gamebr br nowthe musicthis favorite part gamegrowing upwhen played young ageid gladly leave game night music put sleepespecially music jolly roger baywhich peaceful wonderfulthere others great tooespecially inonce againthe worlds bowserare ones stick favoritesbr br game favorite past time developing gamerand love itthis game gets go play game im tired really ami feel empty now exploding feelings feel empty yesterday blew releasing pent emotions feel empty tired yesterday slammed wooden armchair straight head still feel empty know cant talk one related made feel home taking toll mind ive multiple times blew yesterday worst know anymore feel human anymore irl friends found account id forced nuke orbit share way much isnt something want see lol anyone wan na dm want chat someone 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found bunch notes different people really cared read mine undoubtedly hardest thing hold hospital called mom inform doctor supposed see right now mom nearly demanding turn notes really wants read refused saying something anyone read read sure addressed question asshole giving notes right thing found exgfs suicide notes feel grandpa replacing parents tenants son tldr family moved nextdoor family upstairs boy age tell grandpa enjoys tldr life ive lived two family house split two floors floor bed bath mom dad sister two dogs got upstairs dads parents got downstairs th grade th grade corona messed grandpa took school almost every day th grade became every day started taking bus love death carry middle name hey hispanic pretty darn close people knew next door moved wanted us take house left upstairs vacant parents wanted rent someone gon na pick marine staying bit gave family near us whos house burned come next door snazzy im next door high school honors classes come lot less ive trying hard possible visit always squeeze hour wish time mostly dont whenever come kid upstairs grandpa watching football never sporty kid play lot cuz parents anyway hell talking theyll coffee theyll grand old time whenever knock door say hi grandpa basically says hey mildly enthusiastic tone grandpa around ish well sit talk mostly small talk hell coloring phone tv well sit share jokes funny others kinda hurtful two im talking joking grandma saying im grandmas dont love anymore followed used love man frickin hits hard every time general feel fun kid upstairs feel im replaced ithey gon na post cant keep thoughts bottled anymore im giving originally giving end year fix ive realized im beyond fixing one person left life keeping alive months stupid brain telling push away finally kill always tried fight well last night stupid brainanxiety won im done going psychologist im done taking meds thought helping came realization ive finally admitted everyone life better dead mom sister pretty much anyone ive gotten close denied months cant deny anymore ive wanted make people happy hurt people think time call quits plan anything im going end hopefully figure soon hopefully meds go without much thought yeah might see around bit hopefully long oh please please please try stop cant better make others worse best option everyone closer redflag everydayhello throwaway honestly know ill live itll im depression im mg prozac severe chronic depression ocd im dancer teacher told becasue crying one cares feelings one wants hear uncle needed open heart sugery anyone worried couldnt sleep dance told stop lazy ive looked man whole life ive done everything please anyone teacher look depression got bad started care progress stops encourging younger kids preattentional im writting crying messy honestly know longer livei lose dance skills lot depressed honestly feel teacher care gone cheer bedazzled jacket called ugly give good even though loved cried never worse im sorry long redflag thoughts getting worse im living uncle point wasnt killed last month sorry long messy cant take anymore fear doctors put ward caused almost kill due trauma feel weaki friends therapist due fear reddit throwaway accounts safe place thank replys advanced lt purpose reason live longhello fellow people another lonely th yr old guy currently college spent last years battling depression every passing day hole appears getting bigger hope getting high school guy none talked one left hanging came group projects came hellhole without forming single meaningful friendship relationship anyone hoped going college provide fresh start clean slate boy wrong instead got worse appears natural people repellent none wants sit next anywhere near sit center room near front people seemingly avoid fucking plague dont smell bad anything tried make friends either seem interested push away short period time make matters even worse became fucking hopeless romantic let explain really start last semester literally envy every single couple see know feeling someone care love acknowledge existence literally become single thing think day still well classes often drift think relationship constant thoughts never good enough anyone want grudgingly accepting fact likely die alone dont put one head think im bad looking apparently fucking bad understand girl give simplest gesture smiling im stuck fantasy land head imagining us happily together hugging cuddling crushing never experience entire life know cant good enough one person home even worse bed thinking things willpower anything fucking point tried tried praying appears every time things worse pretty much stopped tried pills therapy nothing feel useless unwanted world want someone mercy kill even attempted redflag one point decided live regret maybe done continue living existence gotten worse past month taken classes summer stressed without doubt even worse one beacon hope physics class cute girl notice week class made eye contact across room continued make eye contact find smiling god cute one day go talk class conversation went well finally know felt something time maybe potential wanted back mind felt making something nothing spent lot time thinking cute laugh smile fantasies relationship hugging cuddling kissing felt good pleasuring mind literally made happy sure enough mind right texted got left fucking read saying hi felt crushed literally broke umbrella threw dumpster sure enough world enjoys fucking decides start pouring feeling nothing inside walk slowly reach car soaked relatively calm person stress string bad events one another reached past breaking point stuck tonight alone feeling garbage eating tub ice cream writing im hoping past reaching going disaster wish worth one person know literally worst kind craving feel satisfy gun drawer might well free live regret inside alone none existence merely waste space none even notice gone things might better say someday find someone im fucking ugly none even acknowledges existence try praying becoming faithful things change already seen abandoned forgotten thrown aside ditch rot rest days try distract nothing entertains long even things used fun longer appeal spend day bed appetite eat much might well online best friend hasnt slept three days online friend good friend mine im worried tries sleep cant even tho hes tired anyone know help distance cut onion first time gon na harm eyes right felt im going blind never type keep things dirty organizing planning past weeks even bring clean room usually end scolded parents even tho know depression think daily tasks bother much lazy etcam lazy know tired showered even want stand wanted went back shitty room help feel bad energy fix room mess people hypocritesthey selfish think bully insult makinf fun compare kind opponent comes redflag suddenly change mind wants help preventing mean wtf guys dont disappear idea doesnt satisfy want live feel im getting closer itday day first week summer mom visiting grandpa less months live idiotic dad work brother hangs friends day drive means days sit computer watching days waste away summer slips fingers worst feeling thats tip iceberg im christian family im gay family devastated knew much crap going feel physically sick keeping bottled time friends im likeable person need someone talk see point life go school job lose summer working old suffer die watching thing happen everyone around lets cut middle man one knows im gay lets keep way rhyme seen therapist every day start sobbing loneliness cant take anymore im wreck got school bad teachers work stress constant bullying go detail really need someone talk want skype chat text chat thank advance lt want end myselfsad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad 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aunt laugh whenever cried upset scream ask hug recoil disgust mother punch stomach hard aunt scream whenever make noise watching overweight always teased bullied even teachers called fat bitch constantly told left whore mother im going take back people mean even im nice people laugh gaslight try confuse whenever im talkative nice basically run away say anything make lies think im autistic well people world treats shit older realize much hate im black woman im treated dog im white black people im black anyone want stay apartment forever nothing makes happy anymore whenever find something look forward something realize point one share whenever see people happy immediately realize alone useless ampxb use happy guess stupid realize world wis family friends literally zero family literally zero friends dead never high school people forced groups real friends people deal month start showing signs hate want around im fat anymorei even thought pretty little bit world reminded disgusting black girl done things proud im nice world still hates im shown hate everyday starbucks bus drivers therapists try help im dismissed wish happy wish autistic black woman different blend people treat person friend friend committed suicide today devastatedi friend pass hurting themself support anywhere idea made feel better honestly even sure dealt iti know lot words said things actually sitting silence feel right although know sometimes silent support neededif anyone suggestions dosay greatly appreciated properly support friend friends suicide brother wants commit redflag doim brother stuck killing broke make enough money doesnt health insurance couldnt afford talk psychiatrist see doctor says hes depressed wants life end already talks now wants find easy way kill wants nothing life world terrible place wants buy gun much heroin says hes recovering heroin addict lately ambition drive hobbies nothing dont know help try telling think make happy work towards goals always something negative say doesnt want wants dead collecting thoughts looking opinionshey guys long time lurker first time poster ill attempt brief yo white male attending college large university south diagnosed depression two years ago ive cycled bunch different antidepressants im currently lithium effexor lithium bipolar psychiatrist trying something different drug ive tried far noticeable effect week started smoking weed couple months ago wake bake regularly now probably help situation thing know always make feel ok ive stopped smoking though want reach kind conclusion weed makes apathetic therapy helped progress ive made far things ive realized good student high school succeeded college two main possibilities either depressed know study hard know correct depression started entered college ive managed much trouble now lost main scholarship past semester im currently failing current classes spent past weekend expecting kill monday afternoon ive postponing deadline last days realistically know probably wont ive stood parking deck looked know jumping take willpower right now easier go something fun friends go high probably end hardship withdrawal none grades semester count im trying figure now logical option ect go shocked weeks probably start classes january think solve problems truth probably need work problems combination introspection time instead electricity course health things weight fine eat much sugar exercise cant find willpower fix though part proud believe problem ordinary solution almost got sex trafficked today basically picking dog groomer waiting car looking window groomer see pup car full high school girls parked next one got put sticky note window something social media flipped got home told mom basically said town history high school girls trafficking alone teenage males dodged giant bullet window door locked really sure feel comforts sake similar experiences honestly aware fake sounds really real details want tell please ask extra details hour ago dark mostly vacant parking lot old beater wan na talk pleasehey someone help lost stuck need talk laughed minutes straight group call skype buds said baguette friend thought said faguette funny sounds word spent minutes loudly laughing untill one friends left call afraid yet willingim tired itlife lived long survivedkept breathing remember pretend happy actually truly feel happiness feel dead inside told id finish degree next yearat least mom dad think complete failure now im done cant keep hurt myselfthat helps sometimes want iti cant keep living somebody help give painless death ive decided diemy life circling drain long now ive treatment anxiety put stress relationship fucked told afraid falling love incapable feeling love hes leaving now im young anymore friends getting married kidsim left dust hate see future anymore honestly want try want stop suffering want lonely alone miss warmth someone holding night felt love long im hollow shell person ive already begun final arrangements things go know pets cared really wish things different want go going motions life never happy never anyone love day sucks know many probably aswell day kind sucks already every little inconvienience feels blow day everything demoralizes today one days today enraging stuff happening laying bed thankfully cat lap trying take breather always think things every single time entire family disregards someone comes care siblings feelings dont thoughts right dont know answer yet im thinking leaving reddit legitimate reason stay think readyi voice used tell give every time wanted voice convince something stupid recently fell love girl going something great going due insecurities guess broke think one positive thing going strong life happy break voice disappeared one person angry one person felt safe voice agrees im scared gona able stop time anyone want start group chat filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler 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httpswwwredditcomrreconstructingtfhttpswwwredditcomrreconstructingtf subreddit dedicated help reach new players reverse inflation caused crate depressi wish attracted girls well attracted gay guys lmfaoooo yall see im homophobic kinda assume im sorry guys want call fear careerhi depression really beating today want pick phone call hotline want lose job job security officer requires carry loaded gun daily basis want disqualified calling hour day today need help redflag text service friend abandoned mei recently started dating older guy hes kind generous beautiful human hes supported abuse home parents beating made friend life line greatest supporter gave courage recently told realtionjsip went mental threatened tell abusive parents living partner even went far calling dumb stupid know partner literally enough whole situation announced better broken feel suicidal rn want someone smother pillow done think im love moved new town called stardew valley theres cute dude named sebastian recently broke girlfriend almost years broke completely break guess say thought totally breaking help well pissed see dog anymore bought together dumb self went found girl started talking thought mind things made much worse want go back went camped middle desert alone last weekend try away idk debated staying die fucking sun try think shit ex put bad still help reasons left good enough anymore pills help therapy help fucking eat fucking sleep function day day anymore fucking fault everyone said happier honestly depressed long time want anything anymore fucked bad go back able even tried think killing right now go find another girl talk maybe wanted company think trying fill void fucked worse cemented situation even always end fucking worse fucked see classes might extremely weird want go counselling room knock door theyre session im probably gon na nervously laugh walking talking teachers cant go therapist directly due parents lack understanding ignorance mental illnesses double click button left feel bad pressed auto word generator thingy phone better stupid saying somehow truei major depression anxiety good stuff tried end life twice luckily failed ill turn days never thought id make far months clean cutting happy weird saying still true confidence smile without thinking biggest turning point going grandmother best friends funeral within days cant put family friends stuff wont seems hopeless talk stay alive friends family walk rain good food stay alive love gets better matter annoying phrase sounds hello want heard somebody hope great day hey people want share little chapter life want talk somebody problems maybe new friends dont january manager twin peaks good job married love life dreamed car lovely dog months later nothing nothing got fired got divorced took everything bank account debt dont job many dreams required money time im trying succeed youtubenot trying promote channel want go check consider nice guy never trying harm anybody dreams quiet simple overall life really hard want tell stories cry whoever listen somebodys problems dont know want heard guess let know think year comments posts want talk okay guessi post wishing someone say something atleast make feel better ive seen comments anything latetst posts even though lot people see thanks guess people hellosorry bad grammar english first language umdr squatch think know citric acid got ad shampoo guy pours green grey shampooliquid hand subtitles go citric acid cocamidopropyl hell never heard cocamidopropyl everyone know citric acid googled cocamidopropyl looks comes coconuts sure adsense thinks im guy ok got sperm donation ad w e e e e httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjphgzqmyhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjphgzqmy im gon na od antidepressanti hate life havent happy entire life almost girlfriend dumped nicotine addiction brother got hooked im failure student cant pass college matter hard try im lazy fucking skinny asshole goodbye guys good run terrible everythinganything isnt good enough anyone nobody wants cant even write decent suicidal post everyone im tired crippled birth im fail college hate everything im typing toilet time dieill try point afflicted genetic disorder known osteogenesis imperfecta basically body produce bone collagen properly causes bones weak enough unable walk ive gotten older mid s ive slowly realized unable satisfied life long physically disabled resentment grown point find unable care anything fact part wants make life even worse feel deserve see mirror cant recognize thing im looking feel life stolen somehow logical hate thinking anything occurred past ive adapting life im tired friends tell im amazing person im inspiration know theyre lying feel way give great advice relationships life decisions even though house college yet combination personality compulsion seek truth times keeps spectator level want one things want idiot playing football without go hospital want guy crazy stories girls lives tell tale instead ive designated always take high road better person order keep friends family together im tired breaking bones due stupid mistakes getting yelled im tired trying improve without getting rewards im tired living time die note sorry long rant make sense waste everyones time sorry friend killing tonight wants call kills herselfi used suicidal posted btw im straight male im thats im gon na say age non doxxing purposes friend introduced months ago talked decent amount lot last month talked shit gets weird always pretty edgy watched screenshare dark web watching gore totally normal told molested abusive father moms druggie theres fast forward today sometimes ill jokingly simp gets whole squad laughing one simp jokes woman backround moaning bi btw thought turns fingering someone talking us said called daddy shell show fingering someone comedian called daddy joke expecting anything ends showing fingering someone tell confirm people thumbs yep two thumbs disturbing yet funny incident ask show someone online replied gon na last night life chills ran spine im pretty worried im gon na tell life pretty fucked know annoying people tell shit dont much live dont encourage either stay mostly neutral says gon na walk bridge miles away beautiful view jump doesnt car offered talk hours walk said yes told much good person really warmed heart know fact gon na kill self im trying stop messages jump wants say love jumps course agree needs everything right im one talk told cried cuddled gf hasnt responded hours said needed charge phone talk goes bridge bright side gf talked wont dark side killed odd legal drug told maybe phone still charged online disc sometimes shes disturb im really confused ive known months cant tell kill f u c ki fucking hate theres point life fuck everyone fucking cares didnt exist die break stupid fucking hearts cant fucking im afraid death parents brainwashed stupid fucking religion im secretly afraid gon na go hell miserable everyday feel making difference world fact probably making world shittier place want gash arms want punch mirror fuck person reflection want use fucking shards cut deep skin cut vein arteries rip bleed drive really fast slam car brick wall fucking hate everything want punch something fucking hate alive fucking wish never born fuck didnt mom abort didnt mom abort didnt mom didnt mom abort w h n b e stupid fucking religion thats fuck fucking religion non existent without fuckin hate everything fucking hate friends happened yesterday concerning friends happened yesterday concerning friend nd injection vaccine vaccination center began blurred vision whole way home got home called vaccination center advice ask go see doctor hospitalized told come back vaccination center matter urgency take back forgotten glasses close friendships driving insane want screami dont feel belong planet know sounds cliche really mean feel im physically mentally im somewhere ive always found difficult connect people matter im never good enough im always last choice guess im socially incapable keeping friends thing dont want friends dont deep friendships want deep connection people seems dont want see people around age time lives friend groups im constantly asking whats wrong cant thing whats point living life cant deep connections people im time life lonely life really worth living helpi feel guilty people try help people already going things cant help im tired im tired disappointment think things better without hurting somebody anymore better struggle finally gets commit redflag fuck ted cruz sub die time annoying sometimes familiar people americans maybe thats dont see ventingive place mentally depressed anxious suicidalmostly thinking attempted twice pretty much long remember nuisance younger years first attempt grew older realised depression never went away even situation changed became something never thought much worse tried every medication sun well smoked weed moved changed jobs numerous times went therapy solid years things seem better except awareness middle age brings place change depression drugs work appreciably im starting new hospital outpatient program say optimistic even though know need something really sick suicidal going cycles working months getting stressed quitting ive failed jobs school pretty much everything life wonder often simply courage cant see situation long term pain ass alive better slow leechlike presence currently ill job mostly live welfare everything inside used dream hope dead awareness cant make jobs college relationships find place world cant pick seems suffering never end damn therapist helped one lick except person vent form unhelpful codependent relationship know im middle aged feel useless collecting welfare hate try work wind quit im sleeping dissociating time hallucinating social anxiety think somewhere sliver hope pretty fn dim wonder keep alive fear killing fear death cause family life im nonentity derpy depressed wallflower nothing pain others around thanks reading needed vent anon feeling shitty year now suicidal thoughts everyday yet pussy struggling lot gender sexuality fucking hate school starting college soon know handle parents always back got really drunk one night came mum bigender really know time felt right freaked next day parents room screaming parents divorced explicitly told mum tell dad never havethey got tested autism apparently gender identity issues autism linked regardless got diagnosed apparently really high functioning affect much life blamed never spoke pansexual last coming ordeal taught parents trustworthy supportive fuck coming self harming months now know wot time feel anything wanting try girls clothes born guy got idea gender anymore know girls clothes way parents definitely kick started wearing friends pretty supportive know blame either makes feel alone one positive late tho happened day coming home friends decided run home instead getting bus pitch black blasting music actually felt pretty good anyway rant really know wot tf even know anymore throwback brother got shot best friend really pissed friend said april fools ran away nobody able find w made motivationalinspirational podcast looking feedbackhey guys depressed long part life still quite frequently depression started recording thoughts help realized make public people help least feel bit better put episodes podbean test see guys enjoy support go making audios kindly note episodes recorded recorded cell phone professional mic moment secondly may pauses wanted make raw real possible nothing edited removed everything live recording thirdly everything recorded impromptu prepare read materials advance brainwave start recording take experiment rather super polished professional podcast really glad guys let know enjoy help appreciate making nice guy move serious question girl dating really last week friends got drunk hours girl agreed meet met drunk behaved shit got really really mad disappointed next morning apologized nice little text forgave meet next friday thought getting flowers bc think good move way late nice guy move something wish lifeall sit home try take peoples advice volunteer stuff nothing interests got job hoping make new friends dont care want busy everybody dont independence life sucks want die im tired fake people able make friends talk mom says fault blame everybody make psychology terms victim everything fault makes want die hate ex seemingly friend thats losers heyits really bad know even say right now want tell friends redflag haunting mind want deal consequences telling want attention guess want talk rambling strangers choose read cant find way want anymore redflag sounds comforting hate people think selfish think selfish want live life choose cant handle cant feel people call selfish selfish want live dab life entertainment contribute bad good die feel people cry pretend knew use death means attention others sickens sudden people care act close understood want makes sense hate sick know normal know normal expected professional help cant leave bedroom daysweeks lay hours cant energy even go urinate painful going bathroom hours even days end pathetic give utis shower change clothes brush hair nothing whenever shower small victory nothing good comes end bed wish clinically diagnosed major depression hell digging deeper hole cant fix anything want end things redflag sounds soothing suicidal thoughts seem friend lately cant handle im going kill tomorrowits day cant anymore keep making posts keep hyping never follow im alone alone im tired always falling short even smallest things useless last sandra bullock indeed beautiful woman ive finally found film gets actress forget predictable keanufodder speed forget predictable kleenexfodder sleeping tests herbr br great technofeminist role really works well screen subject close bone issues raised seem farfetched whole experience helped along fine supporting cast makes quite unnerving couple hoursbr br may never enter another chatroom fact im getting quite nervous writing reviewerbye im girl hello beautiful people hope yall amazing day really suicidal anymore id still got chance know found pills moms desk usually locks away see eyes debating taking idea sort important medicine think take know ok probably going delete stuck im turning today cant spend family friends want spend rteenagers thanks comments im afraid im going something stupid fuck know reddit snoos rteenagers alexmaestro draws thats us utinkerbell valentines day coming soon valentine yet friends even though unrealistic things happen end ie cop shooting gun crowded merrygoround number innocent killed still intense enjoyable thriller one alfred hitchcocks better films robert walker excellent chilling nutcase really convincing giving fascinating performance almost creepy times costar farley granger okay match walker either acting characters play typical hitchcock film strange camera angles immoral themes innocent man gets trouble etc unlike lot films thought one fastmoving story dull spots extennis player enjoyed footage excellent old net matches featured good rallies hitchcocks reallife daughter patricia interesting unique minor character role job dad act note dvd british american versions differences story classic film still referred modernday films even comedies throw momma train one whose grades scarily bad grades pretty bad worst entire life dont know im far gone im screwed right lol friend may kill soon unsure doi good friend met online years ago finally met person last year really connected much deeper level suicidal onandoff much life due bad case crohns disease stress anxiety depression fortunately good place suicidal ideation months first one serious attempt almost succeeded anyways friend struggling chronic depression severe anxiety much life well neuropathic pain disc degeneration spine large number different medications nothing helped significantly tried various therapies seen many psychiatrists psychologists therapists nothing substantially helped last couple years particularly hard really struggling point seems decided going commit redflag point near future days married partner years im sure capacity needs listen offer suggestions try distract help devise strategies make day provide perspective emotionally difficult try commit redflag failed faltered plan due second thoughts regrets told partner somewhat controlling way abusive high strung disaster think suspect might make things worse suggestions committed psych ward night due severe issues sleeping according said worst night life never want put position either keeps waiting universe hand miracle sign purpose think universe works way think go make purpose course severely depressed getting bed overwhelming effort suggestions perspective much appreciated overim done im going kill week please try stop doubt anyone tried best kill myselfi cant take thoughts anymore spending two years suicidal hell earth ive angsting whether try help know fail horribly need overcome fear death fail time im close almost taste thing life need succeed old saying goes one job problem keep bouncing methods ive collected menagerie suicidal implements hopefully last post im terrible succeeding first succeed try try someone help pleasei confused state right now badly want end life ive gone past days attempt keep finding able made account website cos know decent people good adivce thats probably better advice people trying give real life heres im feeling feel empty inside emotion towards anything badly want cry cant manage simply enjoy around others anymore today went kill razor wrists medication case wanted go option yet still made angry force im scared thing though life bad others attempt redflag proper reason behind apart fact want live anymore want go rest life anymore thats pretty much makes feel bad know people go much worse every day im razor wrist ready attempt redflag mind set want end life think change ive thinking years finally decided definitely want end im asking someone convince im asking someone talk die peacefully least amount pain involved possible know selfish bad sound right apologise deerly sound selfish prick mind messed right want live someone help amazing sorry thanks someone please listen whilei feel safe right now easier talk stranger heavy shit need chest live entire life edge redflag ive recently lost lot friends justneed someone listen bitch uncomfortable talking csa abuse lgbta issues message please bottle painkillers really tempting right ward long ago please talk found work parking lotjust pulled work brother video chats good friend brothers decent friend guy know tight spot wrong way decided say bye think planned options slim none took none rip shower started think life realy miserable mom says single mom month old currently living parents going parental court take care soni morning rain shine matter panic attack night tend son every needs play read take walks goes bed around go bed asleep currently sick leave due redflag stayed home son till march hours alone every day except weekends spend daysrelaxing napping days cleaning getting back feet went pndpna ppdppa pregnancypostpartum redflagdepression redflag went shits eating disorder blossomed hard need put son first done time put first daytime workingi got social life well talk bit neighbours parents kindergarten meet friends date focus son feel lonely anything bit failure times hard mom worst days want bed getting outside playground hard iti feel putting much hard work mom talks tells cut crap life miserable starting think might befrom everything utter shit contempt good place even though struggeling ppd lifted alot love son much waiting whole motherly feeling want stay bubble working hard mama son needs means much social day working mebefore son sociali worked made even sick things pace working showeringbrushing teeth jazz want slip end dark hole super confusedis life seriously miserable life sound miserable nothing onehaving children cant take care financial stability whatsoever mother hates father brother exist relationships sustenance lost fight live sense nothing give every new artist either pedo rapist shitty person dead sadness sadness around please helpthis something sent someone today im currently drunk knife hands really know ill make day want wan na bother wont sending messages stop reading delete want ok wanted say someone kind know ill say emotional charge come wan na pile day kind hope reading anymore gone day decent chance making next week ive tried kill november failed woke regret alive knowing try long time piling im getting feeling hopelesness desolace day im tired pretending right now fake smiles fake laughs fake conversations fake one smile say im ok one time today im gon na break ironic always considered rational logical end emotions mental disorders taking know believe disconnected feel think lost importance know id much offer partner friend feel social interactions everyone better staying away fake smile plastic conversation end quickly never real never vulnerable adding layers protect much logically want break cant thick much work im tired failed make real human connection life never real friend real relationship seems crave completely effortless people even though biggest source anguish im failing anything say logically want flick switch end desire understand ways effect brain end thats wanted happy tried hard long know keep trying set lot difficult goals thought make happy worked years accomplished much everything worse feel things nothing everything seems nothing im lost abandoning possible positive outcomes end darkness negative ones seems really good trade right now guess comes wanted leave last note somewhere last piece real one pathetici pathetic im fucking loser cant stand im sick alive thought things starting betterbecause finally got girlfriend treated princesswas upsetgave love guess broke yesterday shes already talking bunch guys fucking hate real friendsthey never think acknowledge existence hang im back smoking weed taking dxm think im gon na wait till birthday june kill dont fit anywhereso stay know ill always melancholy guy never chance life cant wait die ill never deal miserable existence never joys life dont particularly enjoy anything except completely stoned numb used smartnow barely remember simplest thingsi forget spell certain words even though amazing spelling younger im deteriorating emotionallyin personality intellectually dont want live today smoke weedsleep schooland took bunch dxm gel caps hours ago happened girls loved treated special virgin honorable swear girls whpres anymore never met girl age virgin cant blame women thoughim sorry fuck dxm fucked upim sorry stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed guys piss red help burns owwwwwwww google meet zoom change mind conference app u actually reasonive taken forever work actually post reddit im tears every night understand anyone actually happy living every person full shit im adding enjoyment people imagine horny cant rn haha jokes im wasted horny bonk bonk cant fuck hoe dream stans corpse stans terrifying mean likedream stans managed make trending cuz fell chairi saw fanart dreamsmp crew kissing shit despite fact actual peoplethere fucked fanarts drew dream turned chair corpse stans handmade trending cuz recorded breathing fact someone fucking tattooed soundwave breathing makes question f wrong stans stans much fucked berserkfor least im giving upthere nothing left motivation energy hope im much disappointment waste time wish anything killed years ago spared everyone burden dealing im stupid lazy hopefully tonight night finally put end pathetic life still wish wasnt venting stupid stuffhi felt need vent ive feeling pretty bad lately sleeping pattern really messed thought id shave damn shaver came apart electric one couldnt find piece went missing shaver doesnt irritate skin much really sensitive skin gives close enough shave ill probably buy another one frustrating married overseas thanks stupid mother married moron vicious moron divorced freak kids finish high school kids finish high school im looking forward tomorrow met friends theres total lockdown cant even leave street minor going eat somewhere missed always hate myselfidk coming tbh nowhere go apologize ill try swear though hard im pretty sure tell spots changed swear word reason feel need let stuff guess one talk fault unlikable people friends ended hating ignoring eventually everyone stops talking mei make mistakes every single day hit itin two spots basicallyif use right hand hit right side head use left hand hit left side headi know everyone going find hard believe think talking depressed person hate good reason cant break curse life stupid constantly making mistakes absolutely pissed cant help hit even make mistake second ill calm say fine big deal next thing know cant control im really feeling pissed screwing send flurry punches face scream top lungs calling kinds namesand im alone day sit back think much weirdo freak amthere many reasons hate myselfbut basically always screw find way make mistakes troublei tell things hate ill watch horrified andor laugh head much loser point proven really piece crap well goes ive never kissed girl gf idk even ride bike took years learn tie shoes watch porn time grown insane fetishes ruin relationships ive anyone friends one point eventually come realize loser stop talking im always freaking idiot never took anything seriously always ahole class clown school spend life computer fail everything cant thing right screw literally everything imaginable takes multiple freaking tries flip light switch always forget something andor wrong sweat time constantly wipe pick nose eat freaking forced pick cant breath always position blow nose wipe something rid eat form blankets body pillow something cuddle night lonely virgin loser ive completely embarrassed public front many people scared go see someone knows past several years stayed house total shut hiding everybody go sweaty nervous scared watch better people loving couples happy together literally think hate hate hate scream lungs often punch head treated pets crap entire life nothing procrastination waiting day finally kill worthless self job diploma license even permit everything fault lazy worthless stupid sack dog s cant thing cant cook cant play sports cant anything sit computer day every day try smoke weed much possible hobby require skillactually think even suck even cant take big hit last long entire life weird problem gagging puking easily forced stay away dentist worst teeth world deformed tongue worst stretch marks anyone seen im overall ugly ass piece s basically told someone redflag forum website plus course weirded wanted nothing trust way embarrassing stuff tell want though ask privatei guess trying prove right hating telling people watch totally freaked laugh see along right truly loser need die even old friend let hate dad told commit redflag finally understood human amthe reason kill love smoking weed much live every second life based fastest way weed right trying job probably fail drug test tbh kind hoping excuse end lifewell even livei know never going simply cant stop beating whenever make mistake time freaking deserve loneliness never someone love killing watch people know gfs laid lonely loser one freak good enough girl watching happy couples time absolutely tears apart want kill worthless self sorry making long least think pretty interesting anyone wants see true loser feel better doubt anyone even going read whatever entire life wasting time anyways guess matter please prove point laugh know sure pathetic weirdo loser die normal im drinking enough water everyday pee always transparent looks clean tho think im good health right now guess ok question people walmart near ur walmart machine dispenses free samples u scan qr code app one walmarts near machine im wondering common life sucksthere nothing interesting exciting anymore used hobbies enjoyed nowadays feels carrying tasks feeling numb things zero interest constantly procrastinate wish stay bed day nothing even though hate social life sucks one real friend lives far away see often parents live far away apart friends use call need something talk care act differently tried socialize know people unsuccessfully try kind everyone judge people hate way look keep thinking reason friends people life friends people know diseappeared right parents people notice talk feelings anyone drive away want burden life sucks stop existing great want kill sorry read sucks living relationships last well mive break relationships last teen years conversation gf future came realized nothing last hard accept falling love young age sucks wants move uk college states im staying explains wants experience new things sure enough new people coming realize pain relationship thinking end painful sure enough want ball cry want stop tearswhen im alone cry time wife died years back ive sad constant sadness made depressed stopped basic things looking properly amp ended getting bullied work life went years every day another comment depression amp dull background roar grief loosing cut recently amp spate bullying gets angry one bullies mentioned wife words said amp ended resigning sit amp wonder happened guy wonderful women great job big group friends gone now ive nothing tv cat amp roof head roof go money runs feb now new job bother everyday suffering everyday live suffering people want go sleep amp wake heaven wife want kill want top stop tears arguments proanti free will claritys sake whether personally believe product environment meaning factors raised us live socioeconomical status etc determine become choices make long make said choices believe people change change environment thoughts green day slaps holiday pretty good song guys strange dream day dreamt karenies thing basically calories burn karen dont even think wanting bf arent willing give blood put vial wear necklace give blood thank seriously dude waiting minutes zoom class hasnt started yet idk maybe theres class fuck isnt updates page whatsoever dont know lol help tell finnish sentence hit school bus brb guys gon na go make food comically slips banana peel breaks neck causing immediate death laughtrack strict lockdown months friends good even longtime xbox friend talk much anymore hes college wrecked everything built back still want dieits year still cant forgive fucking getting degree clinical psych course one year got kicked research project cared lot lost job clinician treatment clinic got kicked last practicum months set graduate tried kill didnt succeed fast forward year half graduated masters degree general psych im even proud im sort glad covid cancelled graduation want part im working research assistant hospital doesnt pay much dont much recognition level im kind yeswoman someone knowledge money entry level position future thought better still looks dim wish id die heart attack ill never successful wanted ive tried losing pounds becoming leader church group everything might make feel worthwhile dont l pray god end doesnt dont want im going commit redflag tonight afraidi helium canister ready go really scared used cry sleep early years old used cry time passing childi think meant born love freekin movie walsh true master cinematic form film sometimes opinion overlooked film favourite mine really gives feel time film set inbr br wonderful characters existed lifestyle mode dress way spoke ok might exaggerated good know occasion two men tried outdo insane stuntsbr br felt apiece history thats wathced many people appreciated factbr br somewhere dvd seen tv anyone wanting slice life movie period time perfect one shotgun shellsit feels almost surreal years ago access pitiful knifes even rope home access arguably guaranteed lethal method equally relieving terrifying close lot advice comes trying socialize find friends revolves around someone find interesting saywell lies problem idea depressed long lost identity lost personality things used enjoy longer bring joy find something bring joy happiness shortlived becomes dull pointless mere days past years husk sitting walking around apartment motivation ambition joy occasional bursts motivation happiness fade quickly wish never come first placei know even know way know closer everi always considered strong person face difficulties matter damage well used armor shredding every time endure problems think much left ill start several years ago going puberty tough times know suddenly family fell apart noticed snowballing sometimes care much dad pissed moms behavior mom pissed dadss behavior im middle living hell halfyear witnessing conflicts almost everyday bullied back home school carried resolved eventually got lessons back forth accidents elaborate maybe helped bit least realized hygiene problems started working days passed slowly recovered went gym almost useless eating disorder life stable fast forward present dad started business small pub discovered reddit found rpornfree rfasting really believed success business started roughly borrowed money stay alive months peak life eating healthy got job stopped watching fucking porn discovered years ago lost weight kg month nice huh fat ugly kid finally transforming adult thought time cruel problems business discovered another one disappointment often believe lovely words see perspective motivates time even sub typing lost almost pornfree streak gone healthy eating gone positivity gone started skipping classes done quality life moment worst imagine barely money buy food meaning im eating cheap junk shit damn eaten days mention internet im debt phone barely working sometimes wonder possible according condition worst problem debt business business generate profit lesion early money pay rent bills dad borrowed money sold car need pay rent tomorrow may say someones living conditions worse mine disagree want hear words wisdom support people life need bump smm buy ads make creative posts motivation life things thanks give cant take anything enthusiastic person want see response actions thats enough even tommorow ill start last attempts rescue business grave hope may succeed may lets hope end bottom ocean thanks hearing good day debunked bone marrow basically bone marrow apparently make sperm men useless right nope matter fact man found plus nothing cater kam pos made help people cant partner pregnant seen women tiktok saying baby always female thats complete bullshit kam childish know going make bone marrow eggs gay men men wives cant pregnant genetic kids bone marrow doesnt exist one gender exist help lgbtq infertile people biological babies might wrong stuff thats think bone marrow reproduction going keep feel killing selfi keep researching best painless way kill self cant take life anymore anything wake eat go sleep every fucking day going doctors appointments anxiety panic disorder depression sucks ive started therapy hope life sucks fucking socialize regret decisions chose high school college career quit job due shit fucking anxiety nobody knows feels therapist open hide home hate life need something stop feeling im scared tell anyone even therapist tell someone obviously suffer dyspraxia makes clumsy fuck mess anxiety depression panic dyspraxia wonder nobody likes oh entire family ruthlessly murdered right front give wholesome award stop giving cat milk cats lactose intolerant hurting cat enjoy drinking milk smell protein vitamins lactose babys digest anything kitten drink milk giving cat stomach pain probably diarrhea tell lactose someone wants today imagined commit redflag new year nightmy life may look perfect im years old working tech industry top tier company good salary recently promoted know find new better job day want recently bought expensive condo downtown enough savings solve notanticipated financial problems living foreign country relatives thousands miles away one friend never girlfriend loneliness destroyed mentally inside last year im suffering deep depression derealization receiving treatment last months working different psychiatrists tried bunch different medications without signs improvement suicidal thoughts seemed manageable bother lot rather curiosity couple weeks ago told friend joke nothing changes months new year ill figure something meaning maybe moving country internally thought redflag tonight feeling significantly worse figured wont better ny thought end imagination went upstairs rooftop stepped rail thought im spread hands bird closed eyes stepped forward imagined seconds ill falling everything end reviewed situation thought nobody see happens someone try stop felt real scary got tachycardia feeling lump throat trouble breathing never scared life even experience ny getting closer closer dont anticipate solution problem want end dont want keep going tried calm went walk outside come back office tried touch friend seems busy tonight pm im afraid go home anyone wan na talk lt week one shitty ones unexplainable urge talk strangers internet yeah feel free dm please seriously update finished group project alone ended working hours reaction got whys presentation long fuck group projects peed floor toilet seat foot id inform everyone yes indeed potty trained reason got pee everywhere pee going two different directions one stream going left another going right thank time yes clean back agiani talked ex seems really moved way happier without feel everyone better without death cause temporary grief really care effects others want stop everything im planning purchasing gun quitting job go end somewhere secluded im sorry anyone knows see rapunzel real sadly isnt fml often years pass look back see stars truly stars french film critic whose name escapes said garbo dietrich louise brooks thank heavens louise brooks third european masterpieces exceptional film one first french talkie following script written famed ren clair reportedly finished direction georg pabst incorporating voice edith piaf well known much talent working film turn masterpiece thats film shame louise brooks blackballed hollywood came back statesso much talent cast arrogantly wayside film addition getting watch louise brooks action great see pictures paris ca hear piafs young voice never tired film tragicomedy written famous serbian theatrefilm writer dusan kovacevic probably one best movies made comedy category yet appearance theatre play transformed feature film takes nothing value masterpiece one miss see preferably subtitles dubbedbr br aged bus en route capital belgrade looming war decides passengers behaviour two gypsy musicians sing miserable life foresee tragedy come singing divides connects stages extraordinary road movie real life kostic brothers amateur actors together stanojlo milinkovic farmer whos plowed road give reallife performancebr br spectrum characters gives brilliant image society facing war insight nations collective person everyone aware war begin try live lives best hoping ignorance might avert tragedy using simple movie language director slobodan sijan paints picture society torn previous war world war highlights personal portraits success provincialism singer inexperience newlyweds seriousness great war veteran way visit recently conscripted son gloomy predictions man seems german spybr br brilliant narration memorable soundtrack especialy gispsy songs adjusted atmosphere well photographed edited feature sijans feature debut introduction series directors bittersweet comedies define serbian cinematography s maratonci trce pocasni krug kako sam sistematski unisten od idiota directors favourite davitelj protiv davitelja want find secret powerful deities world part qks discord server yeah know really annoying see new totally understandable discord servers make feel anxious sometimes hug tell gon na alright lt streaming channel qotd face reveals much interested join please leave comment send dm btw international high chances meeting someone country least guys stop messaging say im gon na sext seriously hard keep conversation going lady reddit dont wish ugetclappedsket happy birthday go anyone tips depression besides usual go see therapist filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler end run front vehiclemy excolleagues forgotten crushes ignoring classmates pretend exist simple end depression years straight end end pain thought end thing makes happy im entirely sure say often find lost words need depressed tried oh lord tried rid make disappear longer think capability happy seems almost impossible im going apologize advance inevitable essay first post lot things need aired need someone hear listen explode first mother died died suddenly obviously lot heart ache sadness stuff normally expect anyone loved mother father worked away sister never stable home sometimes lived nan grandfather times stay auntie occasionally nan look us mothers mother wonderful person finally allowed open someone took open arms person tell father wrong died day seeing grandfather cry heart wrenching thing witnessed found wonderful boyfriend treated everything course best friend sharing time someone left life still miss time noticed eczema started worse nothing curing took skin problem doctor referred dermatologist baffled idea tried different tests treatments avail various doctors around uk travelling far wide seek treatment condition got even worse body wasis covered itchy sore later year uncle died grandfather started think fault maybe curse family tried commit redflag three times carved shit thighs stopped eating properly thought enormous weighed kg boyfriend longer handle erratic self destructive left two years suffering point really decided life pain day every day skin leave school gcses pain unbearable hardly motivate leave bed got diagnosed new illness called myasthenia gravis wish google disease simply something makes muscles incredibly weak point hard walk eat sometimes even talk steroids helping condition curable hoping go remission someday top look year old sister grandparents longer around huff starting feel writing wrong reasons feel im writing sob story wanted ill quickly explain happens decided better mentally tried unbelievably hard finally felt succeeded got boyfriend back year trying moved house boyfriends parents housebecause father verbally abusive kind got social life back track now back started rejected friends afraid leave house boyfriend wonderful feel cant give need sit every day feeling massive empty space inside im desperately trying find something fill nothing want nothing life anymore knew die tomorrow without hurting boyfriend sister end one talk afraid losing boyfriend trust anyone poor shit leave school illnesses job reason government unwilling help kg heavier medicines feel elephant terribly unsatisfied way look seen glimpse happiness totally worth effort sounds incredibly gay idea anymore scared future want curl ball fade away tried leave father even thinking makes angry tell man go hell put living im wasting time tldr depressed happyish see point living guys realize something someone explains hate awards think theyre pointless dont give awards thats exactly want give drawing something images back dont waste coins award farmer trying manipulate using reverse psychology note doesnt include people complain using wrong awards wrong time time redflag note first cathartic writing know post may long know wrote intention note getting carried away became cathartic outlet coherence really priority time ex switch st rd person talk people maybe even little word salady maybe least person relate things say note im writer something spur moment type thing thanks reading commenting feel cant talk anyone except lit screen transient guests ive thought committing redflag long remember fetishizing wondering planning enacting mock versions many failed attempts always small notion mind ringing true clear naturally subside masturbatory fantasies continually fall seems endearing anything sacred pondered days end quashed feebly mundanity cycle life forgetting moving entire story muddled web deeped self deception oh many lies fictitious back stories ive created way act experience something fake order direct mind certain directions negative directionsconstantly constantly sometimes positive deeply rooted impulse thus deception reigns truth dont know ive spent much time harrowing loathing good passions tainted depleted meaning faintly attained never realized dont know wait kind explained minor trait personality right something ive tricked believing really sort brain power modulate harness worldly perception lie time others everyone around dont know supposed let give closure remember way back six seven years old used hallucinate infrequently first thing remember seeing baphomet least bastard form peek head stairs stare whispering seth eyes dead locked onto frozen petrified slowly crawl stairs leisure onto wall float delicately room climb bedstaring shut eyes pull covers head keep dont memory selective memory tricking thought memory fed mental verbal repetition fake dramatized trauma sort truth something right next one youtube video girl mental hospital choppy zany d effects ive never tested became petrified image idle girl intense quick zoom keep going tell different instances felt paranoid darkness ages less frequently slowly creeping back haunt im giving bare minimum now repetitive experiences anxiety paranoia someone yes even real people trying harm kill traumatize destroy eventually bore something ive always lived different issues now ill see talkin father laughed told look tv screen waiting lobby area movie theater riverside long ago around remember maybe dont influence commercial flattened girl ive seen terrified forced look upon horror utter nonsense grew probably around exposed enough point diluting unexplainable horror im convinced altered pathology someway point anxious simple act drying hair shower vision blocked mind flys handle imagine terrifying images manifesting reality ready bodily mental harm insatiable desire consume fear energy feeding draining child leaving door slightly cracked covering eyes come hallway becoming sick mind fill things brood perversity horror longer cringe thought hallway areas house memories marked fear unknowable chaos longer mere physical location rather transcended morphed directed psyche small way another vulnerable terrified lurking absolute nothingness punish punished forcing stare grotesque images actively seek find depraved acts available internet yes ive seen bad stuff thoroughly enjoyed ask lets see squirm cowardice shame deprecative behavior coming light finally pronounced ignominy hurt hurt stumbled walking tongues sighing grand equalizer occurs death wanted scar imbued strange comfort thrill bathed suffering fears transmogrified sensorial experience wanted drain everything occasionally need keep door locked wherever live believed either guys current roommates come whenever drug crazed zombie state foamed mouth ready lacerate hundreds pieces overpower absolute death people look stare avoid idle eye contact see see someone suffering laugh total power ready pounce kill mental stimulation seeing abject destitute human acts pitiful true entirely obviously basis reality brain telling listen acclimate definitive yes whether bullied child feel mind memory cloudy say yes definitely something minor way trumped others seek solace closure retributioni say definitively long time convinced people oh many people regularly bullied take grain salt know always felt socially isolated everyone friends person constantly alone brain skull manifest body im stuck deal limited creatures feeble minute social isolation leads boredom boredom leads creativity creativity leads madness ive created characters head amuse keep entertained years definitive character name accents amusements always talking myselfblah blah blah love part loathes im socially emotionally distant everyone persistence end high school actively ignore everyone drown normal normal makes sure reality correct one hoping become completely disconnected thoughts sort transcendent way lo man flesh dictates destiny absolute crushing nothingness woman says kids upstanding citizens within society kids rotting putrid stench shit everything say dashed lies wearing mask beneath unintelligibility mood intentions constantly flux day day hour hour wear deceive others even deadly deceive thats remembered id different person knew pertinent details life enough tangents food ah yes food one many vices full blown orgy days personal freedom bring end swiftly shotgun barrel lodged focal axis deep red shimmering saturating car towed away destroyed forgotten talking body well course man said woman man nothing slime blood bile consider nostrils throat abdomen hidehow desire hug nothing sack full excrement simple method suppression images fears consumption masturbation manipulation distraction flagellation doubts shame perversion anguish momentarily pushed wayside avoid everything corrupt innately destructive consumption consumptionbanal consumption constant acquisition utility notice exorbitant eating habits child young adults wanting provide children everything possible keep happy importantly content even best parents world discharge psychopath radicalist dictator hermit nescient foetus know intrinsically built parents connect binge eating crushing emotional degradation maybe likes eat lot let buy needs find strength within overcome gnawing voracious desires itso expelled doubt hesitation rarely questions impulse yes use crutch wane demon existence yes father comment dont let demons rubbish foolish speak ignorant fact hypostatically connected demons perfect union yet l continue vomiting protract manifest garbed freneticism foaming mouth spastic writhing vine name omitted goes name omitted now first person person loved used wanted help tried help many others past hopefully find sort resolution slowly realize fragility human psyche little dominion others actions wont many details precisely way much details think rape whether true matter life ive chosen lean heavily truth altered sudden loss control sway crushing helplessness single moment completely break everything love person stand idly never rushing conversation reaction something tragic happens lose fortitude structure began excising forced become completely despondent attempted burn feeling order move make one love subhuman mental training repetition cycling indulgence pain dehumanization yet stayed friends back together loosely grew older separated clinged onto dear life interested guys interfere side hesitationa hesitation conflicting feelings desire perverse still loved pain point nigh unbearable losing fucking mind many times acted tyrant desperately holding onto possible escape constant mundane cycling living harrowing angst responsibility hypnotized ad nauseam pendulum doubt oscillates nothing something active inactive never longer desirable anyone even ive actively continually make vomit glad still alive thought nonexistence extremely tantalizing option come everyone love dont loveeventually merely toe dip knowwe complex species genuflecting reasons logic laws dont feel writing sordid screed anymore amen im really tired looking mirror lmfao allowed know didnt im fine destiny happy little time left think suffered enoughhow expect fly dont wings born everyone im sorry im waste different got important question girls nsfw think im snapping pretty hot girl always shows pictures thighs cooter area wondering normal thing girls dumb sign something yeah sex cool know china concentration camps im nervous basically start lockdown falling friend got along stopped talking one day according mutual friend going sit right next class together help please two days going happen little virusrelated calculation seeing meme killing thousand people planting million trees asked sister pull number covid deaths worldwide google million stick simple formula number trees covid saved million trees ill leave guys figure moral compasses unpopular opinion cheese pizza better pizzas plus affordable please judge im poor im mums car vroom vroom nah wan na hmu im really bored im friends whats point anymoremy entire life feel ive one failed friendship another ive close friends end leaving side one reason another im assuming people tend say im draining talk lot im genuinely overjoyed theres people around lately work hours week hang boyfriend ive year now sleep love boyfriend much feel let feel hopelessly sad sometimes cry cry doesnt understand takes getting enough im enough anyone ive wanting die lot lately cut years long ive done lately driving crazy want friends want people enjoy hanging around want experience sleepover night party friends even someone come chat im feeling make friends cant people maybe try hard know dying easy many people dont even know exist thinking nothingi wish magic pill make normal functioning human someones thats able im supposed learn class instead stuck bed unable even brush teeth eat much pain hate much know magic pill im going learn disciplined overnight honestly dont know havent tried kill finally finished new pfp took hrs kinda underwhelming long took tbh fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller foolproof suicide methods methods unique film gives us chance see young noel coward ironic glory seems reserved detached hes perfect role unloved cad matteroffactly uses around deadly serious pun intended last act coward must make flying dutchman hes much less comfortablebr br way epigram peerless hecht macarthur given gems macarthur really wit pairbr br film superbly lighted great lee garmes little camera movement aside storm sequence hecht macarthutr cared one thing getting dialogue screen note hm blinkandyoullmissem cameos bums flophouse scenebr br notable supporting player one alexander woolcott notorious broadway columnist close friend macarthur coward appears one bitchy authors always kept waiting reception room publisher cowardbr br curious woolcott agree film clearly lampoons legendary algonquin round table founder macarthur something auxiliary memberbr br scoundrel actually oscar best story though victory probably due cowards imposing presence brilliance plot coward woolcott dialogue remember considering giving upi currently nothing mom want medication thinks ive acting lazy need fix habits ive stopped trying help many friends either problem making always seem lose easily hurts im always stressed school people work ive slacking recently cant focus anything matter hard try mom gets mad normally well school cant anymore im sure balls kill closer everyday really anything fight days think good future im sure strength make good days overthink everything cant anything feel useless died easily replaced know family sad feel friend genuinely care feel theres point anything thats downloaded reddit know theres lots people feeling feel decided give shot talk normally keep everything bottled whenever im finally able say something ignored soo yeah girl watched prnhub story happy new year playing roblox jailbreak next thing saw friend didnt end good terms make things right fix relationship something goodto start year apologize said reacted later cuaght see going life using zoom decided screenshare show memes reddit jokingly said funny watched porn said sure u sure confirm looked pornhub catalog see anything worthy enough watch awked liked anime hentai watch wholesome funny hentai enjoyed went back hub watch overall year started well tonight night end allits fun ride bois meaning years wanted go ahead months ago feeling shouldnt nothing lose right better definitely went downhill much although enough make understand really want anymore ive living hurt others past years despite suicidal tendencies pretty tough made work past year ive ripped possible ways life getting career ostracized hoping take care mind set right hurt people maybe genuinely cared unintentional guess letter ill never leave people know sure want death better sometimes want around happens maybe meet yall motherfuckers next life one take care keep rolling deaths bitch death bitch fuck world make im bored homies pls dm ffs jcjfbfjurijrjfhhfjsowkksbdhdidkdbdbshsjjsnsndbdbjdjdjdndbdbdbdjdieknebsisosndvsokabshdjdidkjdbfhdoembebebdhdj lost boyfriend best friend within two days fault course literally nothing look forward life anymore rest summer going hell vacations done school starts think going finally end planning maybe winter point going school going see people used close smart skills either college stable life door done bullshit point none nothingi job friends family love life failed college one knew knows pain feels idea anymore nothing college interested years im still stuck community college sleep hours day hoping wake spend time awake steam netflix fuck im lonely feel empty life ment know im posting ill probably trolled whatever finally completed one favorite childhood video games feels fuckin good last pain fuckin ass game need speed wanted wondering never stopsi depressed mentally fucked hit puberty im adult life better still want die constantly sick hearing gets better ive tricked family friends thinking im happy recovered living good fulfilling life reality spend every minute im alone fantasising ending life think finally time go end misery anyone chronically boredbasically title im type bipolar probably isnt affect depression justify depressed although whenever im manic quite clearly normal energy purpose lot different bored able sit still go tangent already happen anyone ernest cline may force said referencing film star wars climbed magical car drove harass ex girlfriend senior portraits tmrw im nervous blonde might breaking hair code dont know makeup anything imliterally last mf class take em hi peeps peepettes discord server friends trying new peoplee chat send memes play games minecraft among us overwatch stuff going commitment guys girls welcome dm link d wishing pain endi made post rdepression today said sleep im lying bed well know things work life ive felt stressed theres deeprooted cause way everything scares shit try hard takes toll course theres urge type details whatever consumer product ideal trend fad stupid frustrating long day days long nothing past occurred long time ago im scared summer approaching face red year ago asked way inviting felt familiar time someone offering spend time really frustrated continued hear usual know mean anything wrong sugarcoated psychology selfesteem concepts able understand affects one day day spending time cried entire day five goes crying life torture asked someone much weight question end summer went rocker ignored seen around painful thing cried much night yes love someone save decades torture keep keep trying hell suicidal thoughts around big time sons friend attempted redflagmy son almost good friend sort girlfriend last year couple months hes distanced found better friends tried commit redflag wednesday asked see today mother said extenuating circumstances please tell anyone doctor bothered mom even want know son going emotional support level need know plus hes going hide something magnitude thinking whole thing gives pause mom highconflict drama queen want son hurt want friend real help suggestions sixth last movie boxset well looks ive saved best one last ghoulies iv originally review back february decided new one ghoulies series pretty awesome know people thats fine happens favorite one series yeah know actual ghoulies appear replaced guys costumes one tony cox bad santa now onto moviebr br movie centers around jonathan graves main character first movie played peter liapis cop lapd put past occult behind first part movie encounter alexandra played hot stacie randall communicating demon beyond named faust dark side jonathan faust asks alexandra red jewel something goes awry unleashing ghoulies beyondbr br think jim wynorski good job directing music chuck cirino funny well spoiler ahead end movie ghoulies say ghoulies iv part ghoulies v still hope sequel gets made especially hope jim wynorski returns direct agree gimbotheghoulies anyone gpd im seeing others lasting days still someone experiencing depression leaving mind times stormcloud exposing sun light long period rain think people give movie much credit deserves love low budget horror movies takes cake especially originality yes scarecrow kungfu fighting frightner one willing go far really much fun watching movie candyman town picks one kid calling scarecrow even mom care gets killed spirit infused scarecrow goes killing spree demise relatively easy assume movie gets going dedications end go straight bunch horror directors dedication towards dario argento really struck cool folks wan na make movies newer genre movie lot arnold rip offs one liners definitely laugh stick around kills sheriff stick say grab pizza friends laugh movie love originality fun numb pain chorus nothing numb pain hurts everyday wish happy lonely verse tried learn love cause people arent always real put face pretend maybe friend worst part always believe hurt need abandon see im left sad lonely think point wouldve learnt believe say need chorus nothing numb pain hurts everyday wish happy lonely postchorus wish happy tired lonely im loner meant verse ok thing fault dont try hard enough give pain wonder im damn hurt cause got nothing numb pain thats ok suffer matters want change cant life unfair got say fuck world pain chorus nothing numb pain hurts everyday wish happy lonely postchorus wish happy tired lonely im loner meant much masturabating much im around times day know much know healthy bad treated shit ready end lifemy life easy attempted redflag first age jumping front car insulin overdose last time overdose opiates antiemetics tied bag around head spent weeks coma icu swear cant die im single parent two sons ive tried hard keep together ive faking every day know better sooner gone work healthcare bullied day one first sexuality progressed people total harassing went hr fired homophobic nurse others even worse manager told month ago im getting promotion working different site bullying heard update asked timing told months believe anything change cant another day applying jobs year career specific field openings year medium sized cities mine bought house march bills pay full custody sons cant leave job dead good hands mother im sorry promise better im gone time cant keep living misery day day keep happy im posting way give permission know redflag always end path know im relieved im sorry boys today something made really proud comic recently switched ibispaint procreate meant got new ipad sadly old ipad old wasnt ios couldnt transfer data ibispaint special font handwriting converted one said none data transferred thought gone gooduntil came brilliant idea basically logged calligraphr account ibispaint copied file name site old font still magically saved site ibispaint copied file name pasted email sent opened link normal download file message popped saved files otf file import procreate im technical gal fact makes happy proud wanted share accomplishment day maybe learned something new well take care need someone pain killing mebackstory around last year best friend broke boyfriend person went becuase commit redflag multiple times tell later major crush never made move though plenty opportunities sleepovers first one tame second one kissing city dating second sleepover make move promised done weeks ago made move asked interested said big deal maybe ill wait little bit week later found someone everything gone lost control everything jealous pissed depressed went far tried hanging wanted see dead attempted texted come know houses friends house barged room able knock chair standing rope around neck needed kick away chair later told selfish act jealous feels strange thinking back end back story think need help someone talk friend feel lost first time writerdirector comes across season pro two coyotes action dramas action first story picture works way around beginning director hollywood soon making room rising star independent movie making reached new level nietzche depressionhas anyone read nietzches works ive stumbled upon chapter discusses living among ill depressed curious anyone depression thought nietzche concept power pity almost maximum dosage zoloft seems completely breaking physically mentally reading nietzche attitude changed guess worst one thing bugging whether people insight psychology social applications depressed interacting nondepressed right im feeling really alone especially due isolation work long distance relationship im reading literature keeping everything coming grips condition permanent thing want another perspective someone read nietzche ampxb thanks great underrated marion davies shows stuff late silent comedy showcases wonderful william haines davies plays hick georgia crashes hollywood help haines appear cheap comedies marion discovered becomes big dramatic star great lampoon hollywood pretentions davies haines wonderful team bad never made talkie together guest shots likes charlie chaplin douglas fairbanks william s hart john gilbert elinor glynn marion davies see hoot must serious film buff anyone interested stillmaligned marion davies thinking commiting redflag cousins birthday lying bedim guy cousin girl ive thinking making jokes using redflag bag around cousin actually think traumatise much better job perfect boyfriend knows social amazing football player feel plays knowing im gone shell play even better happy im gone really want become friends cousin cousin enough ask wants come music festival pay ticket costs buy gift birthday less two months wants friend end still want friend know except ending using exit bag know sad im gone shell probably happy male cousin left want make cousin happy never wants friend planet anymore probably satisfy dont know good idea birthday birthday want bed maybe shell think itll ruin shell think dream come true none us going live forever either way one day nothing done matter thing never said want friend know want friend always says busy want hang friends reasons guess cousin want friend first im ugly second guy though guy friends judging photos instagram girls guess bit age difference im turning summer become adult able drink cousin lives cousin likes go drink friends sometimes ive sometimes seen social media least removed snapchat im good socialising im friends usually keep saying stupid shit lucky oppurtunity cousin say lot know lot say come stupid redundant basically think least little bit say something cousin comparison friends friends guys age cousin told want hurt im sure says maybe something learned school something aunt think shed traumatised either died im blocking whoever posts love stuff tomorrow valentines day bleh dont feel rightokay realized mentally unstable im scared scary everything life repetitive boring exhausting really want end change wake go schoolwork eat sleep ive tried sports shit keep head repetitive game always comes back point im thats life im officially tired cant writing love letters middle school experience recommend deserve diemy life past year confusing eye opening awful much dont deserve people things around life cant handle emotions going back forth time feeling overcome world knowing go nowhere life worst part wont stop bitching need shut go think im almost doneso ive feeling recently im ive never sex never girlfriend hungry anymore eating makes sick libido hair already thinning video games movies excite even slightest anymore death inevitable way want fade nothing abandoned againhi im years old broken first time ive left girl ive relationships every one leading girl cheating dumping ive depression attempted redflag times past miserable years met new girlfriend fell head heels love immediately told id never without feel alone made vulnerable stayed ex boyfriends house without telling told going bed instead told today afterwards told cant anymore confused feels im tired abandoned dad left born parents rarely even talk anymore feel last days life cant stand live anymore edit recently started going therapy hope help deal demons decided best deleted everything try pretend never existed hopefully new strategy brings closer happiness thank im still sure whether want live im trying make progress want die everythings falling apartim high school feel lost feels dreams future planned crumbling around live abusive home wait move go college love foreign countries foreign languages wanted esl teacher learn language point teach job plan find college dorm set money problem eyes savings biological grandmother really good grades apply student loans scholarships im even prepared pay loan live frugally already mother asked college strongly inserted opinion wants go community college dorms wants stay home drive college even stated idea stay dying small town teacher id job basically shitted dreams traveling south korea china spain saying weak make without help always done refuses teach real world stuff im forced use help crying loud im still learners permit really broke im scared mind know tough years high school stay avoid rent utilities cost living away questioning even able away feel trapped bird cage im terrified shell try leave might cut give support try go original plan college dorm tough years spend years home might well kill cant cant built strength telling high school think make longer feels lied im going stuck forever stay constant fear worked hard whole year digging hole wanted kill took everything change life around think im strong enough want leave want leave torturing much cant remember simplest things mind racing thousand miles minute know cant go felt sanity whirling away arrived remember thatch poisonous thorns ripe painful tearful memories instead given give honestly looking starting deal damage deep scars today instead jumping operating table eager right wrong right foot got take bike ride life definition goes behind closed doors outside everyone sees rich spoil person think happy anything want know trauma went learned money give happiness go end day still going stuck problems behind closed doors cant yeti want kill cant gun hanging overdose may leave vegetable fail wait im old enough want murder everyone tired watching fat cows society rich next nothing suffer abusive parents yrs shit nobody answers nobody priests therpists nobody damn answers say know empathize meaningful answeri nearly killed last night government permenantly severed family two walk outside house without gov approval decades antihitler rhetoric joke people want dictator west literal hell recovery bad family jesus divides families let us rot fucking murder everyone turns cheek cowers needs reckoning murder everyone resembles much movies pulp fiction reservoir dogs impossible think tarantinos films source inspiration thursday low cost bseries movie bad plot gangsters captivating funny bit dark humor sarcasm find pulp fiction resources many fore sure film well produced acting good enjoyed scene girl sat sofa teasing doctor hot funny time soundtrack nice hear many songs ones heard liked score shoutout guy kept spamming everyones emails school entertaining ur gods work bro bruh fricking love song tf people rude u think makes someone feel u say shit offense id kill looked u first world offensive second thats mean anyway u trying make people feel crappy gt hate hate hate people say shit hear one time break ur fucking kneecaps shatter ur skull looking film control nympho gets chained radiator extremely religious southern man look paramount vantages latest release black snake moan exactly looking described say well best ya wits bout yaself mosey local theater still see samuel l jacksons character lazarus say long open minded take everything seriously theres reason leave theater glad saw itbr br third offering director craig brewer taken deep south tagline film claims everything hotter introduced godfearing bluesman lazarus previously said played jackson almost always half naked rae role bravely taken christina ricci film unlikely pair cross paths long enough characters learn lesson one another lessons ultimately convey message us audience matter human one perfect everyone realize wed lot better question understood accepted see film another storybr br one thing debate great jackson ricci think role sexcrazed woman overacting given ricci breaks demonstrates true talent raw performance doubles best date jackson completely disappears first time long time makes us forget even sadly third star film justin timberlake plays raes militarybound boyfriend great start fails miserably appears trying hard later steps still hes far level reached januarys alpha dogbr br thing black snake moan boasts splendid soundtrack containing tracks black keys john doe pieces score done scott bomar course four count em four tracks jackson actually one songs main performance film stackolee fuel fire great collection alone worth ticket price notable musical delights soundtrack bomars chain lights go black keys title track among memorable scenes film lazarus sings rae stormy nightbr br efforts craig brewer cant go without mention though last film hustle flow ended surpassing low expectations gaining critical acclaim put map done black snake moan sets apart newbies industry directed moan wrote screenplay end result story surprising clever watch feel know exactly headed despite valiant composure think predicted next move brewer shifts gears takes entirely different route blotches within screenplay background characters drab flat ending somewhat disappointing left craving something exciting many highs guess final scenes tad weak compared rest filmbr br imagine majority people see black snake moan enjoy due fact able stop thinking unlikely situations depressing part many films unlikely even outrageous scenarios widely well received issues race religious motives sexuality film exhibits effect opinion anything idea black man chaining white woman house enough make people even consider seeing simply put everyone said fully enjoy go open mind wasting money highly recommend nightmares every time fall asleepi much better started shitty fucking nightmares theyre always disgusting gory centered around things shake core know last night took handful benadryl knocked long never dreams take higher tolerance im running im afraid sleep want end already im miserable anxious im awake already lifes sick joke point enough wracked paranoid intrusive thoughts things past obsessive fears im awake nope im fucking miserable im asleep im exhausted time boot sorry coherent ive drank tonight see helps go sleep today least nothings helping want end see fucked things dreams hey least temporarily scramble brain enough maybe hour nap go back work today time mental health body issues alcohol depression name absolutely terrified redflag levels okay honestly know people work redflagful jobs stay sober keep health priority sounds pathetic years old still find adulting hard feel endless loop dragging ass work excited time work dreading next work day much even enjoy time dunno ranting work life balance pretty convinced done coming around idea killed year columbine year saw school district anything bullies bullied severely realize abusive home life got adult realized people healthy families drug addiction rampant said family nightmares dad normal first year thought killing feel wasted chance chickening likely mom left dad younger brother better might gotten help maybe looked bullys lives see made want succeed destroying destroy one noticed got adult cant function cant love people love back love people enough fuck chuck thus havent touched anyone years unemployed almost year half living lady paying rent privilege watching kids bucks hour never time mythical second job made worth ended moving back mom getting trapped lady stuff perpetually enough money place live mother lives place bus comes cant job anywhere nowhere hire soon find car missed chance make death meaningful look useless fucking fuck welcome kewl webpage old web experience bored dumb made welcome travler hello clicked e w l page blessed e w l points spread word e w lpoints limited edition point kates anime butt page enjoying anime butts click anime butts nnn log day sixteen another late log entry nothing happened yesterday alls good stay strong fellow teens days remain one best rated teen movies madebr br saw growing one favorites maybe popular fast times greatbr br serious side movie mentioned reviewers starts comedy morphs drama halfway thats beauty though sets apart humornot unlike fast times drama great great soundtrackbr br personally think every kid enter high school see give idea journey embark cmonwhat kid watching able relate someone movie fact becomes serious halfway though cool superbly well doneyou even see coming definitely lot surprisesbr br spoilersdont read anymore want knowbr br great knee slappping humorwho forget scene gary camilla still hear itoh big strong burrito pricelessbr br scenes gary karin hard watchparticularly final scene coarse many women karen made exact choice think ithow many women reject men hearts goldlike gary jerks know ive done itand many females know movie inspire discussion despite countless times ive seen still leaves filled admiration film makers performers everyone find someone relate movie whats likely one personbr br lastly music used greata lot cars ulots obscurenow songs san s purists dreambr br make mistake music makes movie unique story plain simple one best kind teen movie classic friends stuck rock hard place life right dealing depression thoughts redflag guys help outim posting friend mine said comfortable privacy ill calling kyle isnt name etc call make things easier kyles stuck tough situation right know family scared doesnt anyone except online friends rely talk thoughts think hes going depression hes talking redflag bit recently asked make summary thoughts gave constant thoughts hurting people hate people hate society everything motivated money one bothers help anyone someone getting beat someone people bother help humans animals everything wrong world thoughts hurting people go away worse think things ive already beat animals hit family members going worse im destined end prison motovation anything anymore even school theyve already threatened call police traunt feel im waste burden others wan na kill done everything kyle says doesnt want go therapist fear theyll turn cops thinks biggest issue right killing im desperate help kyle situation correct guys help ive given account posted need information ask hell reply edit account using reply uuservrc one stupid passwords need help making something make clothing ahaego design fabric find asking project mine im doneim ready ive enough life everything hurts much cant even move seriously want die theres nothing live anymore im alone fucking alone world isnt meant dont place cant anything im worthless piece shit cant stand anymore im ready go stand anymore day closer closer edge say fuck jump terms fuck life honestly ask brought care people around care boring tedious hate every aspect life understand neurotypicals prance around earth lives amazing gift life hell want part apparently used good writer cant start continue end story anymore im remembering good old days forth grade teacher photocopied story good example thanks shitty sentence indicating personification cool redflag heatstrokeis viable option painful coming summer park car sun close windows pop sleeping pills sept fifth wedding anniversary feels oddly comforting specific date feel everything happens water ducks back normal peace gon na keep shortim tired tired im ready go now doubt mind wont survive next attempt im ok wish days leading death filled something stress panic misery attempt workand two people know attempted wish dead wish worked lost uncertaini want write much itll make sadder already depression eating alive cant breathe really scary think redflag every single day want alive hate fact exist mean nothing anyone purpose life world much better place dead nobody notice gone care easy way yet know near uncontrollably urge punt new born almost always urge wish control better usually think punting new borns girl move faster light cuz time stops look lt ampxb gtthis big brain onelt vibing today bois girls today feel listening earl sweatshirt beyonce wbu weird take pride scar th grade pretty bad injury middle finger needed stitched scar directly middle finger weird first big injury might feeling experiencing something really painful moving past idk goodbye soon ocd outta control seems even single touch tap contaminate everything words head hey wan na enjoy cereal blam infected words repetitive hah im tired king midas worldits golden touch horrible recently lost friend fight im really lonely sit alone lunch sometimes sometimes another friend sick missing school playin fortnight overwatch overwatch rules got yelled discord server never relax mi home one safest place im constantly made fun pushed around dad sometimes mum aid hard mii makes life really hard feel life wouldnt pain others help went away pain brother remember mii sufferingim lonely need someone wan na go away thats might tonight trying indulge redflag thoughtsfantasiesim feeling tonight heavy think suicidal scenarios gives peace heavy everything wrong want take mind away depressing thoughts im triggered self harm seems help want something ease mind want substance distraction friend relationship anything free desperation loneliness anyone play ps need players thamkssssss filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler need someone listeni tell story looking sympathy recently employed restaurant manager portland lost job benefits luck finding another management position found job server restaurant benefits beautiful wife loves supports crumbles tell feel dont want live anymore cant discuss feel tried redflag woke really sick taking many pills story dont want live anymore child always wished go sleep never wake felt way throughout schooling went citadel college first half assed attempt redflag roommate caught talked dropped went back parents house fast forward nowi never drink alcohol maintain good credit score fake smile face burns soul fake happy dying inside cant take life anymore crushed debt overwhelmed life taking life soon build courage sit right contents medicine cabinet wondering long take painful want know clean painless often every time drive bridge ask someone asked stops actually thinking trauma cause someone witness secretly wish wife leave alone worry hurting desire leave devastated carries day day pick fights purpose saintly patience never leaves side plan telling cheated never cheated want hate want last push edge give courage end life story right now dont know make tomorrow chances good wake tomorrow hating hoping die cowardly anything thanks reading david hate family talk politics argue stupid goes neanderthal brain every time talk politics argue maybe shouldnt wouldnt divorce threats every months hate sports always take shot id rather take cock confessionat beginning seventh semester already riddled feeling guilt parents spend much money education took upon whatever recover refrained going friends eating never went trips started working online earned enough sustain save little future opportunity save arose internship opened company upon consulting seniors learnt good company work even joined monetary benefits provided paid stipend dormitory fees final semester returned little know signing first day joining immediately regretted decision place far people even travelled public transport many time standing journey took hour half way little money left spent travel bought gifts family travelling came physical strain chronic back ache put five months hoping make six months suffice work getting abroad little know hard part yet come little know parents sacrificed much make feel pain even experienced always thought take pain right two types pain physical mental one realises latter much worse sacrificed much need turn treat criminal working brining income putting money table taken time write gre ielts gate learn german language know enough time yet misunderstood taunted harassed working making money place used call home criticized sit using laptop wires surround criticized way sleep man needs two things life know belong lack place live lack respect neither contemplated ceasing exist decided people know dream mother come despise constant taunting chiding narcissistic nature love anger issues irritable nature changed deepy fundamentally come realise value money anything past months depression lurking head dark cloud feel finally taken feel numb devoid love feeling come point beginning wonder go stop itstop telling im making everything head im swear swear god next person says fucking punished punished im tired reaching help getting shit shit want tell im faking fuck im go away attention seeker lost cause waist air space things im told fucking hate fucking hate cant normal little girl doesnt look around every couple minues hear someone calling name poking something crawling leg cant normal sad angry angry sometimes nooooooo start saying something thats wrong fucking lie im sick sick dont kill already anyone want silver idk whoever comments first ig make someones life living hell douchebag made fun girlfriends stomach hasnt even seen knows shes self conscious hes heard mention shes tiny girl literally reason worry shes skinny absolutely perfect every single way hurt feelings badly nobody hurts baby im going fucking ruin ways revenge want last long time im grade ton friends grade carry plans far one ideas replace padlock locker one bought stuff kid roadblockso living clinical depression somewhere medications combination psychiatric ward twice closed ward redflag attempt late last year open ward ecttreatmentelectrocshock im active days feels possible cognitive therapy neurotherapy exercise regiments follow days feels possible want accused doctors depressions stem lack exercise yo cm kg pretty much every flavor month psychiatric treatment go back another series ects soon therapist gives go completed tried everything sure new medications years trying kind lost faith sorry wall text issue one roadblock slitting radial artery wrist elbow year old son strong roadblock now hes young atm understand isolate mancave hope much better time friends understand whats happening dad weird feel im working towards clock atm completing ect normal refresh every nd month feels last chance maintaining roadblock really needed reading managed hope manage create great day trying understand compulsion felt wanted die know tricky question deeply personal individual everyone curious anyone lucidly explain everything going momentfor remember many terrible things happening trying go regular day travelling wheelchair stopped head telling needed drive onto highway go front trucks approachingi froze sat feeling thoughts crying trying understand idolised death thought lot first moment instincts telling go thenis similar everyone spiralling terrible thoughts realisations leading strong desire die nuances moment american please make sure parents registered vote possibly post serious posts ill keep quick ampxb democracy important want political family affect outcome im canadian cant american make sure parents aunts cousins everyone decided hang know made decision head overcome depression redflag intense physical abuse need helpi need help immediately idea go give backstory year old boy currently th grade going take sats soon grades extremely important need well sats parents indian obsessed grades aphonors classes decent grades abs think important note indian beating children normal ok thing years parents physically beat hours end something dont recently study less want things slapping face hitting body kicking etc come room block door cant escape happens every weeks usually leave crying abusing cool act sorry happy used cheer younger know act week two going thing feel things wrong study hours per day love play video games play schoolwork done next day posting brutal incident sat practice morning decided play video games day tomorrow enough repeatedly yelled beating luckily managed escape room typing lot parents anger stems fact play video games say cause problems didnt play perfect student dont understand stress comes fear sources tell call police dont want police take away family even though hate parents still depend pls help dont know goi considered redflag tbh dont even know need help song stuck mind part remember cause stretched around secs anyone knows song talking please help sick rat raceeverything parents want focused college marching band even though want every days called guilted enough prepare stupid college feel trapped everyone says getting easy struggle thought redflag almost attempted hate existance asian parents suck ah came old friend depressionim feeling relatively calm right now theres things id chest family aware mental state usually avoid talking living although alone express feelings home dare cry every time parents scorn weak emotional thats hardest part hardest part believe ive sexually abused kid cant tell anyone barely think live grandparents uncle aunt summer holidays parents busy working one morning woke felt something genitals thought fist accidental went back sleep know better weird feeling wont go away obviously cant prove anything guilty party already jail reasons theres cousin age think asked hand job something exchange bought snacks currently huge debt gambling mom wont stop coming house ask us money horrible memories wont go away please help knowive feeling really bad lately go college know feel im wasting time money enjoy art sometimes im always unmotivated classmates come great things feel im good enough keep making mistakes end hurting people feel nuisance job anxiety lots times people come feel im gon na cry keep panic attacks middle night feel person want talk even want talk keep thoughts end honestly cant picture going life planning weekend mom goes town sisters gone anyone got thought provoking stuff keep mind killing lollately thinking fading away n shit nothin b different born shit love deep thinking n think im going lil crazy thinking death little im worth anyone something fun think yall dark place lmk guys received creepy dm old person posting smtg yo old story wayy b idk last yearor early year received dm woman sshe told married children posted smtg sad lmao ig reading sent text comforted lil asked wanted draw nude body heckok little backstory explain said bcs draw lot hobby prob went acc saw drawings yooi told uh thanksi dont rlly think need said ok let know change mind obv checked profile mostly nsfw active nsfw subsshe posted pics straight closed reddit didnt contact anymore didnt block tho didnt rlly think needed sub starting dominated complete pussies karma whores fictitious stories complaints sub stupid fact people actually think making stuff attention cool makes extremely disappointed another thing disappoints 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wikidatahttpswikidataorg juat uae sources use make article ugly went uks inbred town stuck sore thumbi saw fat ugly inbred girl today wearing crop top started comparing realised need surgery change skull shape starvation diet order look fat ugly inbred means wanted look girls london need skull surgeries rhinoplasty breast enlargement butt implants starvation diet far uglier one worlds ugliest women makes feel sick im homeless againi cant another time plans cant secure job within days im going take bungie cords truck hang mother mentally stable cant hold job quit another one today confronted said hell college credit smart fuck jobs im go bed gets award upvtes overnight im gon na confess crush first thing morning yea joking might post screenshot one wanting drop third post shit titlei keep posting feel shouldnt know things better worse repeat everything chore labor hate anything yet nothing everything fucking far away wish gun badly lonely cant begin describe want connect people want able communicate sometimes feel know sometimes feel alien driving around earlier crying thinking theres literally nothing want help world want see better really far gone cant make satisfied living perpetual fuckups mirrored world around want end want know people life decided move good reason knew going nowhere toward grave win everyone know im alone feeling way sometimes fucking help honestly know im still alive now ill read good book see good movie great message think ill apply life never fucking cant figure change honestly want cant stay know except blow brains sounds comforting right now already dislike teacher looking presentations class one presentation came cringe mean see faces everyone cringing person kid said comedy chat joke people chuckling replied keep searching bois joke class ended teacher made us stay class scolded us mean joke even offensive offensive person bad attempt comedy made joke small measly joke mean come standards low holy fuck something ass mad joke bad day todayrang sick work today drinking pm bath cut first time really sure go kinda wan na die know really gon na keep drinking smoking fall asleep guess sick bad days want bad die christmasone best friends left im fucking lonely cant stop thinking fucking sucks friends completely ignore messages unless need favor im piss broke evicted cant find first got laid first week december single company responded job offers wtf left point back day decided friends became legendary sanin one us died journeyed new end pervy sage without himeddie rath rip pervy sage still miss naruto betty boris eye junior dance theyre still kids unfortunately hugh gets first thirty years later tune back inbetty married hugh putting fussy mother lives thembr br neither boris betty forgotten paths cross soon declare feelingsbr br betty feels cant divorce hugh councilman hurt much betty know hugh hurting hes rolling sheets beautiful secretary meredithbr br boris undertaker thinks answer theyll fake deathbr br christopher walken plays frank featherbed outrageous competing undertaker mediumsized townthat causes additional problems boris bettybr br kinds complications arise boris betty try pull major coupbr br laugh outloud scenes delightful dancing nary curse word heard short film pleasure watchbr br stars request wan na ask guys pls sub yt channel called fb make song lyrics love look channel pls sub awe august probable death date switched date many times always hoping things better wont think finally one date set hope chicken time miss many things sure happier side tf still alivei literally tried hard almost succeded btw see brother cut drunk literally reason parents oh ok therapy meds stuff literally cut everyday shitty parents yea skin delicate fucking raped dont care last year something considered torture didnt even anything bruh alone hopei transgender cant afford srs top im fucking hideous ive shitty ass month people kept calling male pronouns titles set someone said look emo guy hitting two girls near hate next chance end life im taking using alt account say cant take life thrown lost job applying everywhere months even fast food places hire move back parents im forcing marriage apart hurt father mother hated wants tells every day doesnt care never sees give peace mind gone dads life taken possessions including car shes taken away phone several times always bought new one anyway guess wont need car phone tonight wake mom peace mind guess goodbye reddit wish best rest looking someone talk pretty bored recently chat someone life actually changed youim ive suicidal aunt girls though right thing hanging sister suicidal id really love believe life better believe will actually got suicidal moved loving life guys wont believe archduke franz ferdinand assassinated serbian dude hope war start even war started big conflict maybe months year ads targeted gays algorhitms think im gay fuck optioni awful person around good intentions matter fucking hard try different always end fucking asshole everyone around three best friends stopped talking january got pregnant march lost baby tubes told cant pregnant now live boyfriend told end month nowhere go money thought living roommate excruciating cant bear close another person end hating every single relationship ended unbearable around really try fail ive done therapy emdr im going change im going better want hotel room shoot enough heroin die ive clean sober five years graduated nursing school none matters literally make everyones life encounter worse tired scared disappointed became well feel sad lonely fuck need put somewhere im anonymous im exhaustedive tried write full story million times theres many details id share point across matter past past ill say tried express years ago physically feel right issues turn told rest head knew running hospital putting stress finances stopped stumbled upon fact one day manipulate symptoms supplements years researched tried fix thing carried even though felt new thing pop time lost faith doctors kept years broke last time contemplated ending went internet talked coming clean getting help doctors still find anything deja vu cant cope one thing say hold decent job responsible cant go back feel awful cant sleep long lower spine burns sometimes speech sometimes impaired im dizzy often mind foggy heart pounding feels vice memory recall sucks body clicks clacks legs heavy seem randomly drop shit urine foamy visual snow sense smell poor longest time experienced anhedonia experienced bipolar iilike symptoms experience mood swings feet drag sometimes walk funny hips really clicky ive looked extra sick lately theres constant ringing ears feel something attacking body suicidal ideation comes goes now one point certain last weeks rough keep trying choose life felt bad thursday friday physically go work last two three weeks unbearable made think ability hide symptoms slowly slipping really pushed edge stopped taking supplements think kidneys ive maybe one full meal last days ive hotel room trying find peace mind sleep nice quiet nice w reminder cant enjoy im definitely fault fucked around supplements hopes finding fix sometimes successful sometimes created another problem desperate nobody believe shit went pretended everything okay im really tired now body allow carry went questioning existence god knowing gods bargaining universe knowing gods questioning god matter much express much im life fullest ive tricking thinking cant sit around cant ive put almost years adapting change building persona allow hide bad days adapting bad days im fucking exhausted cant trying fight thing time letting life even made thats id personal hurdles robbed certain experiences felt bad barely bed thursday friday took supplements knew blood pressure actually kicked packed bags left thinking id gone now fuck still hate leave mom alone world friends family ultimately fine lose cant anymore body feels though enough thought years ago felt death whole new level know possible took one way ticket home turn back around unbearable fucking hate tried help years ago body state someone listened ive tolerated long feel heart going collapse im even worried anything almost feel nothing want go back elements ive made lot great experiences much cant crap nobodyfriends left college dropped im stuck outa town job living parents n talk friends much online except one told became adult feel happy cut wrists pray find drugs ease pain talking parents never helps addicted alcohol yell ungrateful im soulless robot work without interaction god hate life dont mean political anything wtf sex grandpas birthday odd grandchild grandpa turned yesterday visited course girlfriend town thought never mind parents hella worried fact visit grandpa right time came transgender swallowed deeply saw female clothes grandpa little shocked knows ranting cause trouble walked house saw pictures cousins father uncles aunt noticed odd weird five perfect white male cousins one female mixed race transgirl practicing christian left cousins start looking parent little resemblance disappearing born blue eyes red hair something one family shared genes light brown skin brown eyes hazel glow typical family eyes thought times change fast grandfather conservative atheist causes lot clashes sometimes feel kinda right parents grandfather family left pillows bad cuddle partners cmon pillow hug back already feeling shit ive never wanted kill nowthe fact depression decided fuck boyfriend hurts lot fun till started break feel shit never break depression eating hit fucking truck felt shit started crying left ive never done first time hit hard fact leave house strange hit hard time ive crying fucking hours havent stopped dont know depression getting way want selfharm badly either kill tonight need break feeling shit time fuck life im done emotions constantly feeling shit constant basis feeling shit im boyfriend thats crossing fucking line dont wrong im glad boyfriend tries help fucking christ feel awful tonight know im going feel awful tomorrow want kill im probably going later tonight really early morning dont know anyways end killing self oh well fuck thinking itmy dad suffered bipolar depression committed redflag last july moms current boyfriend coming house day dads death moved clearly cheating blame mother dads death currently broke im scrambling find job help pay school gas found take year away school appeal dismissal failed classes slept almost week really bad nightmares killing everyone love left alone wake cuts wrists remember today started panic attack tried find psychologist start seeing week schools health dept answer tried finding offices area closed today felt need see psychologist today find single place insurance money pay expensive first visit chatted redflag hotline online asked find reasonably priced place area called closed day started panicking got car drove boyfriend called yelled back home state drive saw wrist thinks purpose lying bed wondering take many sleeping pills tonight exhausted physically mentally feel purpose importance wish alone right now access tall buildings guns sturdy enough ceilings hang face another fucking day going long know finally end want kill know trying past months end torturous fuckim fat ugly im never eating need skinny girlfriend meets misfortune wish hundred pounds thatd sexy cut first time weeks think dont even keep track anymore always end making resorting back pathetic self destructive ways dads right im attention whore teenage girl tantrum want shoot front want mentally fuck everything hes done times called fat times said acted mom times called whore dyke times beat times pushed stairs times threw drink times hed lock room fucking everything deserves deserves still want stab right fat fucking thigh dont know need sure say sure people dealing way many suicidal thoughts past month best friend moved another province really lot friends confide friends confide want bother hysterical want anymore feel life anymore go counseling take meds bad consistent seems vain tried cut carotid artery past friday box cutter blade stupid dull stoped definitely hysterical day tired extremely lonely serious advice highschoolers mental health guess need vent usually tend stay away subreddit im fan content though may sound stupid anyway im right coming last months second semester high school well classes rough point honors geometry currently thats b classes b honest stressed feel developing anxiety atleast thats teachers telling honest though algebra ii scared led thoughts make college need diploma jobs alg required basically kinda blame way school works certain degree blame got growth online classes th grade going back remember little algebra gives anxiety everyday kind getting better able calm reading exercising well friends main thing remember basic equations example x x solving well finding work triangles people school say first semester alg relearning sem working new skills advice keep algebra notes assignments review honest first vent topic rather keep feel talking better kept work know notebook somewhere seriously folks keep notes stresses kids grades way thank read needed guess anyone confirm relearning alg please cant remember life online learning messed hard dont fee motivated anymore read content warningso recently played first part doki doki doki literature club half regret beware post contain spoilers played trougth game already expected terrible things happen shit hit close home one fucking thing dumbass sayori said agree congratulated still game stopon portrayal suicidal thoughts people last scene fucked completely saw saw awful scene ive fantasizing last years pile shit supposed dumb graphic novel slight twist kicked right nuts realization im much worse thought see ive gotten used normal redflag solution everything normal way fucking pile shit game made realize close snapping much research ive done subject easy simple elegant exit bag compared living made realize warp vision fucked every possible aspect know worst part nobody missed game goes life kept going almost nothing changed left right know game means know put content warnings got ive messaged friend school one ive trusted know shell stab back eventually hopefully ill dead asked meet somewhere talk private private able keep together utter words ive avoiding piece cunts hopefully ill dead months hate quarantine much right wish talk friends face face right cause im fed texting bullshit emotional numbnesshi want ask anyone emotional numbness spine injury cant feel shit vibe people enjoy music food anymore even videogames movies freezed year college depression came see becoming normal person want end lonelyi incredibly loney really know job go home nothing waiting nothing motivates looking forward anything wanting end life quite overwhelmed guilt every time think feel sorry parents react learn death talk things never good handling emotions realized live basically guilt guilt keeps alive tired sad time want end im going start taking care ive neglecting taking care long time now mostly due anxiety want better fit feel good body downloaded workout routine inspired kratos lol start eating healthier online school stressing motivation work study anything generally wreck last couple months wish luck ship put sea filler filler filler filler lot suicidal thoughts todayim actually diagnosed depression cause dont trust psycologists think need help epilepsy doctor told seek therapy keeps going feel broken ive broken inside im starting forget feels whole parts friend send lot keanu reeves memes promised write something entertain wait im scared becaused day ive daydreaming dying naturally sleep start reading ways die withouth pain th less pain possible oh mama difficult die want im scared pain scared ending notdead withouth chances trying feel prolonging buying time one day pain greater fear fucking shit guys fucking shit shit aaaaaaaaaaaaaa im tram rn girl front friends looked general direction looked smiled fuxking aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa finally time gf make fool packed tram edit got stop looked quite nicely mean mean negative ways parted fml ill never gf social anxiety ask strangers reddit start conv never end feel im burningmy whole body feels burning want scream end deserve fault know ill never change never born living suicidal thoughtstoo much burden bear tried survive amp keep fighting one cares use lemon juice lube yes anyone know easiest wayi cant take shit anymore school almost feels eternity thats least part problems recently kinda betrayed yea everyone kinda knows mental isuess besides hate much im hypocritical bastard begs attention ironicly never wanted step much people wanted cant handle anymore tried mind stopped finally done cant take depression anymore anexiety killing want rest dont know suicidal wishes getting worse im scared hurt someone acctually care dont need anyone talk want know easiest way thanks short simple im tonightim disabled schizoaffective panic disorder irritable bowel syndrome yes im treated friends well im stuck pulling month want work go school im terrified stomach pain panic attack work plus antipsychotics make tired time tonight im going hang ill never able hold job go college im sick loser first tv specials offered elaborate box set barbra streisand television specials released last november disc released separately want fork dollars five specials investment indeed best bunch fact streisand purest eager impress succeeds brilliantly key component legend signed longterm contract cbs produce hourlong variety shows almost extinct format nowadays streisand cbs special first broadcast april point career notoriety limited handful bestselling albums dazzling tv appearances variety talk shows successful broadway run funny girlbr br filmed crisp blackandwhite program divided three distinct parts creative transitional use im late disneys alice wonderland first segment cleverly shows growing childhood numbers diverse make believe im five opening comic monologue pearl istanbul second part moves location manhattans chic bergdorf goodmans elegantly costumed series glamorous outfits singing depressionera songs ive got plenty nuthin best things life free comic irony back basics third segment straightahead concert opens torchy version sun comes includes funny girl medley ends classic melancholic take happy days ending credits included brief introduction taped special first released vhs know streisand pricey concert tickets political fundraising genuine eyeopener revered now woman woman strong anything oh yeah strong woman beat never win checkmate liberal im hard time telling family need serious help anxietyi battling depression anxiety majority life born disability grew ignorant town gone psychologistpsychiatrist sense sometimes feel held together entire life think falling apart looks isnt lost someone brother year february medications sense passed tried telling family cant hold self together anymore keep brushing spent entire life dissociating painful memories emotions sometimes forget precious memories loved one closer one year mark harder remember getting phone call hes gone alll againim tired acting im ok im scared dont help end tell wan na try something scared im bored really wan na try iphone bc minutes really call people literally send ur number ill call lets talk dying truly seems optioni cant stop thinking inevitable im going either die im buried crushing medical debt worth saving first place every time sick think put save loved ones trouble idk ill never enough money go somewhere better im always going sick feels inevitable see point beating around bush anymore shower thought time wouldnt let post rshowerthoughts whatever reason dying afk way long server kicks name identity memories lost girlfriend wanted disappear still traced destroyed world hardly built wants explanation ride people made yeah jason bourne back time s vengeancebr br ok movie elaborated script world thematics clever ask serious questions society course every hollywoodian movie end s bourne suprematy superheroes story jason bourne captainamerica projectlike whos gone completely wrong first movie hero discovered abilities accepted second one fights considers evil person close killed girlfriend suprematy thats part superhero story including character realistic still impressive almost invincible super powersbr br interesting point evil fights across world theres frontiers bournes movies characters going one continent another blink eye best seasons american enemy whos beliefs fight good country completely blinds funny mad patriots n enemies paranoiac hollywoods storiesbr br beside interesting thematics movie flawless feminine character nickie parson completely useless direction quite unoriginal comes dialogs scenes really matter bourne ultimatum action movie action scenes rather impressivebr br everyone talking waterloo scene tanger pursuit everyones right particularly enjoyed fight tanger reminds exaggeration craziness works tsui hark visually inventive scenes lots intelligent action parts good reflection americans contemporary thematics bourne ultimatum definitely best movie series interesting original action flick unsure suicidal may may bedoes anybody doubt legitimacy suicidal thoughts will recent last months ive found looking redflag appealing manner constantly wondering truly suicidal intrusive thoughts list things effectively justify redflag reason find hard believe difficult explain somebody understands im interested thanks need freedom knowing tomorrow want toin lifetime think ive taken almost every antidepressant least famous ones thats without effect ampxb last months taking another one got impression getting little better stopped ampxb cause cant want kill solution lose condemned life know bad ampxb stopped last week think felt bad need go crazy need freedom know ill last till end year though ive said many times past middle next year sure cant sleep someone help cant sleep ive got school hours pretty bad singing hey school stressful part singer stars singing good numbers im love berleezy bro hes literally perfect bro funny cute idk ive simping hard almost two years hehe bf broke mei thought everything gon na ok us hurts know always fault everything bad happens tried fix didnt care im honestly done time drown drugs physical pain everyday try forget cant im exhausted existingi tried therapy ive tried medication long term neither really worked feel cant trust anyone im isolated alone ive terrible life experiences cant trust people cruel im hope one day gather courage know type go year old male little backstory ive suicidal depressed year now better today people thought friends fucking left middle city going hang hours sudden left tried texting multiple social medias phone numbers texted back yet know know made spotify playlist made spotify playlist inspired feeling joy felt early phase quarantine heres link 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exhausting im sleeping hours end legit help hope purpose believe whole heartily becoming bitter second im learning meant die young peaked early wish build physical strength go fulfill redflag plan though barely even make bathroom dont even know lay thoughts anonymously reddit someone give kind energy source jesus betteralmost five years now im fucking sick people telling itll better im good enough life good enough work appearance mindset etc ive tried subliminals hypnosis nutrition lifting looksmaxing confidence whatever im ace certified nutrition coach personal trainer fucks sake nearly bench spend money right products maintain improve appearance im still good enough women anyone says anything personality literally nothing anecdotally according hundreds university studies face personality whats issue well appears face im blue eyed muscular lean well groomed matter nothing changes cant beat god awful genes ive diagnosed bdd depression mean bullshit bdd simply opening eyes source plight makes depressed want good enough loved ive without relationships ive theyre negligible reasons need go end feeling shit last one months ago ive wanted kill gun want hurt family want happy alone people feed platitudes tell im good looking dude whos much good enough hell gay dudes buddies think im chad clearly case know anymore im finish college soon life seems never ending loneliness depression im watching youth go theres nothing despite trying best want alone ive bad place now truly believe im meant happy hearing name makes sick better think want keep goinglife works mysterious ways everything going amazingly well even think looking go wrong future set happy weeks came crumbling watch life fall apart control helpless im hopeless now grandfather died girlfriend broke job getting worse family still treats shit knocked realized ive lost sense living anymore im lost think going better im waste space hope anymorei dont feel anything dont feel living anymore think peaceful dead worry anything anymore cause anybody troublei find crying sleep every night fun year old likes doodlebops show seems keep attention awhile characters interesting vibrant primary colours theres much educational content intended target audience benefit seem theme show try teach kids sharing respect basics well produced high production values really average show shows tv days buy merchandise angle son wearing everything dooblebop think wed spend money go live show came town going zoo science centre far better experience everyone involved opinion money better spent okay pog friends made group chat friends lotta ppl already still chill nice active place u make new friends yes guys girls included weird circlejerk stuff discord anyone interested feel free dm wish finland happy birthday happy birthday finland nicely done dark fuck outside sun decided skip finland complitely today alright hyv itsenisyyspiv little sister thinks clean litter box day allowed take care cat honestly im sick sometimes annoying manipulative im glad see regularly really someone talk tois someone talk thinking bout redflag dm heres step step guide eating grams pounds yogurt step optional note guide works vanilla greek yogurt healthcare got denied options someone optionsi hoping healthcare approved antidepressants seek psychiatrist course got denied guess best bet try getting back home applying whatever florida healthcare dont know make much longer everyday getting worse last anyone ideas anyone least know much antidepressants without healthcare much money last hope mom cooking lasagna yey someone want talki know actually going plan go shotgun closet eat lead bet hurt second got ta better one loved anyone ive never kissed never held anyones hand want someone look say words believe im sort gay well homoflexable living south save gets better nonsense life gotten much worse getting even suckier time goes know im posting maybe someone wants talk something used believe true love really now man though loved went got bitch pregnant im alone shotgun feet away four years passed still feel shit got wanted man love got heartbreak im woman fuck women really feel add insult injury pretends never thing everyone knew calls liar now need someone love least need someone know truth believe least someone knows point nothing help going work might well kill slowly junk food moping around idk bother believing better bullshit proof never going better need take care keep loosing followers smh literally minutes ago one find girlfriend must hard must awkward whyyyy hot chocolate today pretty good spilt monkey koala im sorrythis might goodbye reason live enough money rent let alone medical bills im starting believe im cut dream career want believe lost love life read messagesletter friday night first time feels im wearing promise ring dead man feel sick cant eat cant sleep trust ive tried ive wearing shirt feel encompassing want parents know happened year rather pleasant last memory want see either ill write letter mail tell starcrossed lovers story know best understand news interfere parents ive tried come countless scenarios extended silences trying believe good koala hurt even though ive hurt ways one couldve imagined koala great person model human future children koala possibly discovering hidden gems delicious foods hometown without koala classes focus anyway needs save money began question beliefs said continue see notice two rocks photo sent go please take aroma via cibo mahas dying wish wanted call last night hear two things love chapter reason want live fall back asleep last night waking within hours falling asleep puked last night puked morning bed bathroom sink realized yellow vile liquid stomach empty without side want run away life person asked marry albeit lightheartedly person cared loved intensely maybe start new life nomad money life ends result early nothing look forward imagined future future supported rough times knew even dream career attainable support plan b c way z met freight member hd walk away let peoples thoughts cloud know way know love ill wear rings always shirt wore first date seems fitting end full circle love last breath well recreate moment met heaven ill waiting goodbye ive staring fathers riflerecently ive thinking killing everyone know abandons im demotivated actually school work end cheating feels shitty moved many times got behind know want bad future dont know cheating bad know soon caught im fucked im demotivated even cheat point fs junior year high school ive given opportunity improve hard stop lazy something feel pathetic hopeless see anything ahead see society screwing living crappy life really bad say redflag better option keep looking back rifle seeing way fast feel much pain finally found dad hid shells option cant decide want possible future possible crappy future im scared soon people find plan locked know doi failurei cant school work burden familyi want live anymore know amount nothingi antidepressants witch helping matter many times tell mom tells keep taking themi know anymore want die anybody problem drinking enough water cuz know dont drink enough water still dont drink water think buy water bottle man feel killing nothing feel every step take knocked back steps stop look around climbing stairs destroyed building depression feels go anywhere backwards even nothing waiting end know anymore seems everytime try better everything anything uses power stop try everyday point even want wake anything wish never wake wake different body somewhere point walk stairs ladders somewhat better still fighting suicidal ideationso years medicated stopped taking meds years ago episode got worse worsebringing us year felt shit january semiok fight friend housemate led telling fuck apartment feeing guilty considering walking traffic rid problem id reactions small things years realize problem talking therapist year february hit bricki got sick fast panic attacks almost every day started struggle leave apartment suicidal bent selfharm purged first time years tried hang aprili started therapy march much afraid tell therapist started medication later april got current dose combination late may lot ways feel better energy back im sleeping eating ok days ive gotten errands id put six months feel im losing time way days im ok days im still contemplating redflag whim looked lethal dose one meds considered saving antiemetic medication alcohol trying kind rest way ive feeling long sometimes going good sleep im alone hours ive odd ending er icu days waking vomit still feels tempting know tell psychiatrist im horrified though possible hospital bills disappointed husband take week work stabilize point happening know im afraid actually going telling people whats going said yes mom got new lego set im happy first attempt soonfor solid year told things better continuously worse pushed every single friend away due depression one left broke boyfriend years months ago biggest mistake life even speak good state mind thought best fucked person close mother left go rehab gone months go days without talking anyone fact think anyone notice absence days longer shitty job hate cant drive one teach live brother father terrible relationship dad good brother literally never speaks avoids thing makes happy cat ive struggled depression entire life im tired fighting never pays mental illness runs deep family mom severely bipolar think told therapist symptoms gave weird look even acknowledge said ive tried help im burden everyone try even talk anyone im depressing stress reason attempted mom heartbroken learned something tried kill multiple times growing know care done care feel perfect time away even care physical pain anymore want think whole life leading actually feel ease peaceful right feel gon na relatively soon need worry anymore feels right use religion justify bigotry stupid imagine liking someone book written years ago said say oh love people cant support actually love thats shitty definition love truly loved support matter identity religion sexuality fucking descriptor use book barely hold today morals well rest peace prince phillip dead today years old almost hey fault movies hollywood seem follow one preformulated predictable plots film perfect example watch ifc forbr br theres guy michael girlfriend left word wants know happened ok say goodbye perhaps closure able contact grace effort find made film asking helpbr br michael figures might need reason help tells us story reliving relationship help friend nadia play role grace girlfriend left br br hind sight different michael telling story getting feedback friends realizes mistakes much values lost unfortunately lesson learn need learn easy identify makes want hear michaels story wanting know finds grace posting every day girlfriend day things seem bit grey nothing really sparking real amount joy happen somethings always got ta happen ruin remember little big planet fuckin good childhood hotline didnt help muchits years attempt years planning procrastinating best justify waiting another day years people telling gets better ive enough think im absolutely trapped situation completely detrimental whats left mental health im far home way back nowhere go back nothing cant trust anyone tried call helpline tonight amp appreciate someone talk things resources provided arent looking job though wasnt expecting miracle dont know expecting dont know im failure woke half hour ago seems monthly nightmare college theyre similar usually wandering around school borrowed traits ones ive feeling panicked final starting soon im prepared makes sense happened calc years ago course failed final though time panic knew prepared accepted fate whatever happens happens mentality first class least b semester life started fall apart worsening depression remember starting strong semester even highest score one exams class remember week wheels came started insignificant troubles snowballed life today wish go back slap keep track cant afford go back school even worry fail least relive negative emotions associated feeling inferior students based dress general demeanor lecture remember well intimidating felt trash kid sitting among crowd kids uppermiddle class parents tons friends life experience remember feeling belonged went back wonder much worse feelings inferiority given im years older im straight failure great opportunity go college lot financial assistance blew tried becoming lol pro failed settled trying become streamer failed well always close failing end ive done last years work shitty dollar per hour jobs advice cant born trash cant escape honestly point alive anymore picture future minimum wage worker rest life theres anything wrong lifestyle need something need successful traditional standards ie good degree job equal quality cant know cant ive tremendous fucking failure life im going poor life never experience things want heart racing last minutes cant go back sleep obsess failures ive made plans kill july know wait perhaps worst part knowing help clinic afford within miles car look elsewhere month waiting list something absurd every time called redflag hotline ask location refer clinics around feels super shitty im talking robots care thinking makes angry really hotline people much fact government help lowincome people seek psychiatric attention yeah hotline people kind frustrating ive called several times point say almost exactly things every time makes whole thing feel scripted insincere ive calmed little bit rambling wait july still feel slightly impatient wish hate alive matter anyone tells im piece shit need die whats recent thing bought filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler 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suicidal months pass break still friends rebounds onto think chance try best days start kissing hopes pretty high going go date days feelings died started liking friend broke im really fucking heart broken cant stop thinking redflag dont know anymore still im right sorry grammar money need shit ton moneys delete reddit family affair takes us back less complicated time america sobering see different everything back innocent era country watch functional family dealing things together film marks beginning series featuring hardy familybr br film directed george seitz based successful play judge james hardy wife emmily facing domestic crisis must dealt married daughter joan comes home committed social blunder husband holds responsible time another daughter marion brings home beau clear clash father happy teen ager andy seems one without problem mother makes escort polly dance something reluctant dobr br needless say judge hardy prove knows best puts plan action everyone together man understands law deal outside forces threatens standing community make family happybr br lionel barrymore plays judge hardy conviction glue holds everything together spring byington seen emily mother mickey rooney small part film always fun watch cecilia parker julie haydon appeared daughters marion joan sara hayden margaret marquis featured film aunt milly polly girl surprises andy beautybr br family affair good way observe past notredflag image painted american family day random questions computers achieve sentience see saw wanted reply know cant know things ok remember patient life hard change people horrible change let go waited hours wait life complex occupy care much hope amazing day love tonight might nighti think anyone really gives shit care anymore im currently sitting desk staring math homework understand slightest sobbing fucking eyes im fucking fed shit every fucking day treated dirt every single fucking person life professors boss parents even friends treat fucking trash im sick ive tried reaching people give single fuck either theyre busy lives im paying feel human anymore im fucking lonely girl loved left years ago day gone day without crying last heard said going porn find job want hold never happen need fucking hug need somebody tell ill okay want things go back way used young clueless im college even know fuck im im fucking stupid really anything done right im fucked right need help proposal anyone wan na married dating nothing go adventures kids settle cuz think might kill tonighti suffer general anxiety disorder panic disorder panic attacks almost hardly sleep constantly feel im die barely school work im sophomore high school switched online school months ago stop parents screaming ive tried tons ssris tons benzos hydroxzine weed even antipsychotics deal stress none anything prescribed psychiatrist except weed ofc ive seeing multiple therapists none therapy helped anxiety therapy work drugs work ive got fucking idea kill im completely miserable even kill idea id possibly life cant complete even simplest tasks anxiety supposed job ill end homeless best know goodbye im lazy deserve die long rambly im sorryi genuinely lazy im busy got shit done overwhelmed im stressed im lazy honestly know describe experience solution simple know need acknowledged currently procrastinating stop go thing almost want say feel control actions want say depressed lazy im depressed knowingly actively making decision time time choosing supposed tried change time time ive made plans ive tried start good habits try listen music motivate work theyve worked week drop ball say ill pick tonight codeword really now know still say realize try think specific time whatever thing almost always miss time even still one late day away fired work late problem ive always middle school now exact reason first days week ill arrive early sometimes rare twice times even hour early wander around area need arrive ill pumped energized fully convinced every day going starts become routine ill convinced know ive arriving early start fudge little still leave little later still make time continues becomes problem today arrived late manager told point blank im late one time ill fired edit im writing post today different day ive fired emphasized want one better employees store something ive told multiple people store may retail may super easy im still little proud reflected fact ive able away write ups seen locations store thats explained next one last one honestly going try hell break habit know going late going happen think ive made decision going kill one petty little thing whats weighing mind today rather every aspect life much want life planned defining restrictive way rather bit road map changed along way see fit want associates science community college want apply disney college program spend semester want transfer university bachelors mechanical engineering list universities picked even know local transfer advisors university made effort contact know im ready ill minute want move live la know many people hate pretty valid reasons reasons theyre hard explain want giant alaskan malamute ill name mako husky ill name mischief mis short know ill keep cool giving plenty water giving kiddie pool play heard tip filling old milk cartons ice freezing maybe adding food coloring effect letting play ice ill continue look things want exercise every day maybe hiking biking dogs use take big long walks read every day whole list daily habits want start think lead life goes depth know im going ive interconnected things made list traits attribute ideal self late work definitely list hate people say care know im thinking know care lot screw hate even problem know need need reach deciding kill exactly new thing back last summer made plan knew going decided become homeless kill time graduated high school aunt uncle mom roommates threatening kick unless paid money rent every month decided figured lazy much procrastinator cant pick homeless everything packed ready august actually found job think may saved life want underemphasize killing im trying explain terrible shitty person leeches burden around fact note im going leave going say something effect im burden deserve die ive tried long lengthy things trying explain ask people blame turned rambly whole thing wound inadvertently blaming people last thing want person blame went short point ive thoughts killing high school long ago im life homework even study passed good taking tests without studying even b one honestly even still shouldntve passed earn college plan ready everything ready thing happened except time stopped showing halfway semester wound confessing plan kill councilor time make long story longer help needed time frankly community college offer cant afford took semester hoping start list good habits knowing went time fail know go now im going fail want fix work well excel classes im waiting go fix lose job ill boat owing roommates money cusp homeless basically plan kill live might save embarrassment save frustration leave early chance threaten kicking ill clean room bag packed leave im sorry feel sound im overdramatic words deserve die keep repeating inside head think anyone deserves die yet somehow exception words weird kind doublethink sort thing objectively know true thats seek help believe started writing one day finished another lost job feel terrible person right now im really looking sympathy honestly right even tried convince im terrible person believe whats interesting feel kind clearly see thoughts seem clear organized one day total mess another theres definite split two start turn rambling mess im sorry dumping thoughts honestly know clean bit know wanted end ill end past ive told people plan kill explain words go head feel consumed always ask ill answer im lazy procrastinate tell cant believe whole thing tried focus less plan kill less ive tried change less thoughts lead etc im sorry thank patience somebody might respond even nobody nice 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good may need hear message growth painhttpsmyoutubecomwatchvlvtprqrflyc guys wan na play funny sticks start m meet behind burger king got free award reddit first one comment gets sry everyone isnt first wasting time alivei feel im wasting time alive one cares friendly reminder dont date twelve year olds bad idea recommend cant believe year year downloaded reddit ive done lot things said lot funny things created great memes saved great memes gave received awards got banned flat earth subreddits became moderator rfuckgravel reddit truly pog although sometimes little trashy overall im glad got reddit hit today spend way much time great experience im glad got share guys believe anything help mein last three years single longest stretch life age breaking yet another codependent abusive relationship sober longest stretch life age finally quitting drugs drinking smoking living alone dog trying learn fill space steadily therapy tried variety medication options spent lifetime swearing never try completed group therapy program people experienced trauma formed joined meetupcom ravelry groups gone meetings total strangers try make friends house spent nearly two years completely estranged dysfunctional family gotten back touch parents gotten agree family counseling made significant career advancements done well budgeting shitty income flown far away places visit foreign countries cities meet spend time people strangers colleagues last three years continued intermittently selfharm barely slept able week without least one anxiety panic attack spent countless nights sobbing floor dog unable calm consistently wished dead felt completely incredibly painfully isolated alone experienced loss betrayal two closest friends felt joy anything life past weekend erworthy breakdown emailed therapist desperate cry help message reply actually go er none friends watch dog hours watched documentary redflag read redflag notes counted pharmaceuticals adjusted life insurance etc trying steel stopped believing hope things stand hear takes time cant see better things better try xit totally help even know posting guess wish kind help feel though im helpless private video pictures leakedhelp please know go im nightmares suicidal thoughts know go wth life longer feel hopeless make story short ago someone trusted terrible thing friend years friend knew nothing come romantic relationship explained many different occasions felt nothing knew feelings told brother eventually met someone started work concentrate different things life paths diverged finally realized time later posted intimate photos videos first boyfriend turned stealing material computer systematically idea maybe fixing computer ocassions created fake profiles various dating pornographic websites posted videos different sites wanted look attacks stalking slut shaming bullying afraid ill never normal life job friends noone around help deal went police thy nothing policeman even said nothing worry even caught people envy years passed still cant handle trusted wrong person maybe made movies boyfriend first place asked together several years see anything wrong young never thought people cruel maybe mistake turn back timei cant anymore im weak please help still blame know greek mythology really offical timeline shit hear say faulty memory correct famous greek heroes existed trojan war means recent greek hero odysseus theres chance completely wrong im relying purely memory fuck film everyone watch quite apart raising hugely important points south africa road recovery still many countries similar situations now superbly directed denzel washington gives opinion best performance career far kline gives good performance although perhaps stunning washingtons john thaw puts good turn chief policebr br many possible areas film apartheid fall avoided easy simply portray white people bad guys black people good guys attenborough done sure white characters seemed inherently evil captain soweto uprising add extra dimensions characters make film unbearably long people complain length film think needs whole two half hours tell whole story really incredible onebr br best scene film steve bikos funeral whole crowd begins sing south african national anthem probably one moving scenes seenbr br seen film already watch may comfortable viewing certainly worth love hurtsi dunno scared love scared love ive interested girl awhile went party recently every time talked said shes way league throughout night chatted chattedbut noticed started flirt first brushed friendly thought genuine confused scared go antisocial type person every time complemented id laugh smile ill walk away conversations tried start toward end night disappeared someone pretty comfortable end night dont know mad situation myselfive trying month meet first start year guy question took another love interest mine last yearive replaying night thinking wish change reason wrote friends moving love lifes mines depressing lonely ive consoled always going alone companion reacting always say ill never able talk anyone really scared loved scared love wife attempted redflag hours ago happens nowmy wife ate ambian hours ago arrived home hour took barely talk told took ambian called parimedics arrived police took hospital doctors say going ok police said going held psyc eval drugs ware happens us now tomorrow going next week wife mexio us student visa getting phd im us citizen im planing talking lawyer monday anything know subject help update wife voluntarily analysis treatment means facility watches make sure attempt kill self medicated set psychiatrist therapist doctor scheduled next week brought street clothes cant draw strings etc patients cant hang etc released next days er psyc dude explained options voluntarily enter program refuse argue judge present options said little therapy far helpful think one welcome therapy got visit hours today cant visit tomorrow visitation limited night cold morning cold different things night cold good morning cold horrible dont know say guess want final words explain cant write note right nowi swear tried best every day took meds almost every day went school cant deal anymore anyone knows finds im sorry truly genuinely sorry know death selfish life way brain cancer learned doctor stage brain cancer incurable month live thing make happy getting ludicrous amounts karma idiots think im shitposting thank coming ted talk im even motivated enough go kill myselfi wish dead dont want painful kniveshanging access drugs job pain getting gun huge long process pain ass cant even motivate chair go building picked jump fuck holy fuck zoloft making drowsy feel high went mg will go week days ago holy shit im drowsy seriously feel high something damn factual statement real girlsgtanime girls ampxb anime boobsgtreal girls ampxb need real life anime boobs need better jiggle physics become sort caretaker someone depression hes boyfriend struggled long time seems lost hope getting better rejects 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blood wet paper towel lose tablespoon two maybe blood future successful redflag wrist advice moving tale despair agony xpost rpsychologyi surfing web usual found story man name clayton atreus last days wrote fairly lengthly note essay style final words message board last communicated followers read pages message boardhttpadvridercomforumsshowthreadphptamphighlightseattleargentinaklr link essay final words quite lengthly intelligent writing heart wrenching essaylast wordshttpwwwarmsheadcom hear opinions claytons absolute choice moral implications actions tldr man goes epic bike trip first time ends parapalegic mexico ends commiting redflag year later pushed edge emotionally love meme family impressed ampxb processing img mfjdgzijkua want diebut dont want kill self going medsi feel exactly taking every day three months still wake middle night sobbing panicking wakes boyfriend gets angry works early morning think ive wanted die much today last time oded therapist officially dodging weeks ive gotten drunk andor high every night last two weeks come shit even hungover anymore im numbing point weeks ago mom told shed rather dead failure im never going good enough boyfriend told today hes going town th th visit friend birthday th think im going commit birthday originally planned months ago friends mom told hardest days sisters birth date death date itll easier brothers day itll birthday present guess im supposed work morning think ill call im fucking miserable cant move bed right now found crush boyfriend isnt bait post im boyfriend guys gf pretty voice think wonderful voice says sucks lots people say pretty decide us link voicehttpswwwultimateguitarcomshotfightsodirty military branch smart people seems army marines full brain dead people worldview superior believe gun rights global warming elon musk needs military branch dedicating stopping china invading countries exploring space httpsstaticcbrimagescomwordpresswpcontentuploadscerberusgroupjpg im tireddont know much longer continue literally motivation stay alive want rest worry bullshit life everyday im sure theres rope somewhere garage probably put use soon feels im trapped body really want kill somebodyfuck tooo much harasment everywhere cant literary anything go anywhere shitty depression bfoere see everyone trying make fucked ass bitch tryin screw im going bomb people kill suicidal hotlines manned people previously attempted redflagif thing already romantic love isnt real platonic love real romantic love isnt real might seem real thats called infatuationmy life garbage many girls dont reply give pickup line valentines tomorrow hey girl four macromolecule building blocks life carbohydrates lipids proteins nucleic acids ampxb cos cant live without totally disagreei thought great movie kidsdawn wells gilligans islandand promise shown barely known dana platoit disneylike hardly disregarded meaningless fluffno scary meant bei wont ruin endingbut unusual way donei mean kids characters great know 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certain aspects call center works ask anything afraid coming hostilea lot people deal suicidal ideation negative feelings towards crisis lines valid reasons want better understand feelings inflict people provide useful information perspective air grievances wish recently explained views thorny ethics redflag prevention longass comment want idea stand note please assume im random wellmeaning mental health professional doesnt experienced severe persistent suicidality many years longer work field specifically know suffering feel hopeless alone desperately want die everyones experience different never go far say understand exactly feeling please know im coming career angle ive try needed lt help friendim sorry wrong place post please tell theres better one friend depressed looked going therapy says cant afford twice messaged middle night talking shes suicidal thoughts wants die always try reassure really care appreciate caring people worry one day wont enough anyone advice help help help im struggling rn im struggling sometimes intrusive thoughts go brrr see many posts sorting new say talk im bored im lonely sort new easy find posts seriously youve made post sub sort new see first minutes scrolling something need tell youive suicidal years awful times good times mostly numb times make big speech saying different head somehow bright wonderful place think anyones truly live planet heres thing better now lot better reason saw therapist although sure help many people gave tough talk changed display phone motivational quote trapped cage fear cage though miserable safe safe hypothetical dangers meandering whatifs possible terrible scenarios ignoring dangerous one manipulated controlled lied mind lied made think capable able enough anything anyone easier kinder let alone stagnate exist nothing anything anyone id dressed tell going outside progress ok ok dead nothing feel reason grow got point carry physically dead emotionally mentally dead crashed glass took comfort zone 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answer confidence confidence knowing capable know know go live star rating works misses mark little bit lagging behind pits br br mike atherton dudikoff peacefully making way wild west spots group men mistreating lady gentleman naturally steps puts stop kills son nasty enforcer beginning guns blazing battle finish one winnerbr br m dudikoff action star whos never truly managed take maybe discovered late film saw last monday human shield another dud ha ha added list thing westerns films sort transport different time place provide real escapist entertainment dudikoff picked one better scripts films go anywaybr br film hits low points shape naff central villain sounding blank marlon brando generally ropey acting cast along obligatory cheap looking sets strange reason life depended watching dudikoff film one best choices parents super strict way snap without downloading phone weird ask app thing phone cant download anything unless sign end dont know reddit obvi lmao fuck september mom told go look computer refused stayed cos laziness idk absolutely computers went older brother went bought told brother already knew go later bring home whats problem monopolized play shit tft lol turn kepk playing lol matches long played hours complained mom said shouldve comed us buy said let ate dinner school next day didnt time forced play asked first time using shouldve comed us buy fast forward today went home first relaxed h arrived teacher didnt comebecause friday going shower arrived asked many time going stay went directly play computer showered told going use computers homework ate lunch said ok finished still making stupid quiz browsing images genshin impact waited shouldve directly told asked going homework time limit told split faster wrong didnt even read assignment wanted use changing document name continue using computer told let defended telling hours called mom told let time said much time need said least min exercise hadnt done yet min thing cooperated said let fast forward mom arrived kept telling min late went complain said let min told use phone finished clicked send kept saying shit minutes played games one needs h assignmentalso needed finish homework playing games well important thing going bedroom told playing said came us said go look computer said explaining brother play chinese brother least came gave money chinese one syllable immediately rectified said help said much money said came gave help will idk said said money said said put play x time asked give moneyand going go said play equally im spanish chinese idk translation went repeated saidhe least lend help will basically bother said shouldve came us buy replied said going look buy continues replying said etc ended saying dont know youre going search computer buy angered using mother authority end notes went bringer computer together downloaded minecraft attempted download roblox little brother tldr shit happening disgusting y disgusted time goes karmawhore sub rant people say hell probably fun uh wretched inhabitants sigh wail scorched skins constantly exchanged new ones taste torment anew boiling water poured heads melting insides well skins hooks iron drag back try escape remorseful admissions wrongdoing pleading forgiveness vain anyways compare movie industry ocean tendencies observe surface driven strong hollywood marketing force saw war movies saving private ryan thin red line apocalypse full metal jacket underneath splashy waves grow silence time time less known pearls pick one look carefully wonder pearl lie almost unknown already crownbr br stalingrad gem bunch multimillion dollars rated actors thousand extras breathtaking spectacular shiny computerized visual effects whats special well one word pure past reality recreated transposed celluloid fifty years later tragedy bloody battle history filthy wounded soldiers russian civilians lost everything invasion burning villages collapsing buildings decayed suburbs gunfires explosions tanks flames soldiers shot burned alive ground tanks pits shred pieces got real horror elsewhere people reduced simple pawns without power change anything soldiers follow film try leave combat zone fail civilians stay prostration middle nowhere crying children killed mercyless huge grinding machine war melt together humans equipment villages cities ask victims destruction overbr br collective insanity group german soldiers struggle survive keep least minimum level normality duty fight bravely everyone know battle almost lost people start loose confidence faith see people abandoned plan desert struggle catch last plane berlin full wounded bad injured soldiers treated simulants shot forced execute small group russian civilians including young boy later discovered place literally full ceiling food drinks destined superior officers course one one drop dead end movie one bitter depressing touching ending saw magnificent score munich philarmonic orchestra war destroyed everything pathbr br movie mustsee everyone true movielover hisher collection strong antiwar message must warning us unfortunately mankind never learn politicians selfdestruction dna human pain seem last forever enough reasonable stop war people say hate talk abt time theres girl two friends science classes never spoken properly know shes always hated idek shes hermione type loads revision best grades beat without much maybe thats talks abt time im im apparently snapchat private wth got girlfriend walking park friend see cute girl asked girlfriend said yes stunned bad shes elementary though writing prison jumping spider room im scared go emo moment fuck life doneive already taken several ibuprofen pills maybe melatonin pills wait head starting feel heavy hopefully wake anymore still zantac pills hopefully trick ok best friend ended fucking two guys houe becuase hes slutty swinging faggot cant handle anymore im going downstair cutting shit wrists finally dying parents sent psychw ard almost killed hould dead anyways obviousy full story sharing pretyt emotoinal obviously cant stop thinking greatr dead good feel metal digging vains right now cant sleep jerk without crying ic ant even sleep anymore im going kill end story lol want go crazy dhurtmyself someone cops find email lol least know stupid faggot shit face fuckdslkjflsdkjflaksdjflksdj lol lololol life joke goodbye man fuck friends part already go read post title man fuck friends whats going last arguing finally another friend go one fucking time stop already nice im happy bc things happened said meet weekend one friends said want friendships destroyed minutes group call saying said things making fun want friendships ruined proceed asshole yeah ok help im thinking overdosingplease hope future dont want feel got choice end life tonight im completely alone im weak stupid cant continue life advice dogs dogs good mistreat late late teacher late late attitude hates grading late work unfortunately lazy procrastinating piece shit big project due minutes ago decided rush turn tomorrow least pretend didnt know due im getting bad grade either way least tell parents got bad grade good report wish luck thought movie quite good tcm turner classic movies three one night offbeat humor kept til five kelly performs beautifully role especially grandma whose quip almost caused laugh seat main actress alright father able keep character isolated marriage conflict kept humor coming good offbeat older movie recommend unlike comment gene kelly perfect leading actor many early musicals think role oozes charisma one drawback dance scenes little longwinded clear big frog eated sad day us keep ending back herebetween ages tried commit redflag twice never able help therapy deal began strongly advocate anyone committing redflag gave perspective someone whod grown past wanted show others feel liar gotten past im now teenage years spent trying pick pieces mental health ive kind become burnout despite much loved drop put college due life issues im indebted go back even wanted matter much feel im longer suicidal guy matter much feel one used harm seem always find right back seems everytime find shred hope im confronted even issues snuff potential happiness feel im cursed walk dark shadow head despite beautiful think world much love people come across id better end everything finally rest know ill actually know make im really expecting advice even response thought great guess im sick holding feeling want say somewhere hopefully itll take weight heart tonight finally say hindsight drugs really bad except weed coke shrooms acid aya dmt hate fortnite suck balls eeiihsajjhkeoa djcjen sncj really wish courage end scared comes death people leave behind sadness guilt point drowning every day past years felt want genuinely hate maybe nobody really wants put effort helping mind cluster fuck really unhelpable depressed moved us ceylon married little three years beginning come lesbian saw movie old black white tv terrible reception alone uninterrupted awakening seemed echo story living small house tucson arizona summertime everyone never forgot feelings images story called forth residue fragile magic treasured hope see someday ill keep checking wish someone make movie shirley verels side venus delicacy persistent poignancy wrap blanket exist help addiction plzz need help guys mightve known teenagers jerk teen jerk problem getting control jerk twice day might say pretty low want continue affect productivity everyday wake immediately phone watch prn reddit ive started many great things last year working studying writing etc etc change prn made lazier want stop dont want make worse please help need medication elsei really need find sth stop feeling bad wanted go see doctor anxiety relievers medications cant let parents know itll worse tried look unprescribed anxiety medications confusing choose wait least month see results used wonder people take drugs drink alcohol jump cliff think finally understand think durable solution things work outim graduating college june borderline passing class difficult job offer lined fear ill lose offer fail class entire career result top difficult time making friends girlfriend yet pretty fucking sad fail class might straw breaks camels back even want imagine life happens help im homeless dollars name lessi quit school depression found job due corona doubt job make better point still live home dad seeing im technically adult kick able contribute rent cant even mad note ready two nights ago gon na incredibly drunk barely process pain slit left wrist way elbow dunk mess big bucket warm water accidentally got drunk lost knife physically bed try find passed couple hours sober enough feet throw entire contents stomach glad got toilet still understand going ended calling mom crying phone hours dad came home day yesterday said angry drinking expensive rum rewritten note know ill go probably go pick cash bank gamble away week motel ill end somehow im money think week half now movie good came attended cooley high cooley upper grade center around home coming queen grew lived area cabrini greens knew lots people movie nice see friends movie lived area chance star may life time experience good times growing north side tough times relate movie cooley high longer standing person others still remember fun growing attending cooley high lot history around north side area told wish way start life destroyed body eating disorder made many mistakes spent past days fantasizing something impossible trick live small things new games still need released kept stable starting feel stupid pain becoming harder harder endure especially alone scared ill eventually give pain hand really done suffering good reason live completed horny jail rehabilitation program longer desire boyfriend dont feel horny perhaps im asexual maybe im depressed least theres anxiety gone dont mind dying alone good friends need girlfriend drew knifeokay m met girl f online last month things going pretty fast weve travelled lot already seen others familys mentioned understand nice crazy etc seen psychologists seemed balanced individual open difficulties come human mind fair enough everything great apart one issue brought holiday porn expressed opinion visual cheesecake real thing take precedence connection partner place masturbation aid sex possible extreme reaction became incredibly distant agreed watch sake enjoying rest holiday mentioned happy trying control masturbate gatekeeper sexuality esspecially doesnt involve anyone came agreement minimize talk hard found good agreement week later leaving place go mine see couple days asked save replied probably will words affect tell immediately happy started questioning watched porn agreement replied honestly yes said problem sex lives satisfied sexually one another says fantasize women cheating head wellshe ended grabbing modelling knife saying going kill leave place started saying love care felt totally manipulated totally shocked behaviour work early next day ended getting hrs sleep place woken tirade cant trusted etc apologised next day said therapy said hard time controlling emotions etc im taken aback want help issues want support position feel lot concerned relationship affect wellbeing happiness future feel wanting control fashion bang order behave way revealed emotional immaturitysensitivity well insecurity woman living amongst women need chest suggestions opinions welxome thanks tldr gf thinks porn cheating agreed minimise talk asked watched agreement answer yes given said wanted commit redflag grabbed modelling knife going therapy shocked want help want make work work suggestions help meherus welcome feel lot potential us working continues cant anymoremy country days nearly full quarantine feel absolute shit feel life either gon na end redflag finally snapping hurting someone love start quarantine whole year wake finish homework attend classes go sleep cant keep ended good things looking better felt mom finally settled new house suicidal thoughts finally going away started pretty good grades classes hanging much friends quarantine hit schools shut able see friends anymore able see dad every week first weeks bad kept going downhill though began feeling wanted vomit throught day always felt sick slept much less used felt verge getting ill every day everything got worse want speak friends fear lashing making feel bad hated mom hated school hated pets hated everything got better months mom wants move new city hundreds kilometres away live able see friends dad anyone lives every week used feel nothing life anymore everything point end way dad already told paying current school year ends meaning even stay longer see friends now got told school apparently grades year count got told last part year grades midyear sucked means ill probably school much longer friends meaning able enjoy summers feel angry wan na anything anymore feel running away throwing train track want live anymore survive adulthood ill shittier life countrys economy shit everytime conversation starts keep silence hide suddenly disappear chat want talk one person time anymore actually think becoming fear fear groups walking street see group people talking want dig hole ground hide pass feel feeling lost capacity talk groups looking subreddit anyone know active subreddit people share images anime boys completely sfw totally nsfw subreddit best ive found ranimeboys thats mostly dead anyone wan na help fellow need hifirst time posting honestly distraught read rules crying almost hours big jag six hours work seriously triggered today ended welfare bunch well meaning time consuming friends boss toxic cant think permanent redflag ay ive grappled depression years proactive learning new strategies today much long story boss wanted write details child rape molestation years later asked schedule change detailed major reasons currently trying abuser prosecuted felt write mass email coworkers someone swap class job hes even changed classes teach two days school started say people give fuck even education glad struggles ptsd used play victims card ask schedule change talked union legal got upset made stupid comments boss called welfare check police didnt take away request leave psychiatrist denied well least schools dont really believe mental health supporting pediatric sex victims yay want feel numb right now want think anything feel anything even want exist right now oh god oh frick drinking coffee accidentally spilled nirvana tshirt fs chat bois love moviebr br beautiful charming love story drew immediately lovable characters heartwarming romance became attached characters throughout film felt knew personally storyline enchanting brought tears several touching moments duchovny driver cute chaste relationship cant help getting involved ones worth watching showing friends im curious big hitbr br give spectacular film coming guy thinks movies even worth watching comment discusses north south book dealing periodbr br th century history usa mostly identified people civil war reasonable opinion civil war put union severe test civil war made americans realize precious live peace finally period last brought end shameful system slavery br br birth motion pictures people adapted time onto screen dw griffith early s made unforgettable birth nation yet famous film northsouth clash still suppose gone wind unfortunately fewer people know magnificent tv series based john jakes novel north south best tv series made time spent watching really precious taped video polish tv many years ago come back great pleasure many times br br firstly entire story deeply rooted historical reality two families maines south carolina hazards pennsylvania represent two entirely different ways life spite friendship unites yet experience struggle people friendship attacked truth political correctness love attacked hatred legal spouses gentleness strength social heroes orry maine patrick swayze beloved character someone finds love quickly deprived someone cares friends political fanatics step way ruin much finally someone see tragic future land nothing souths inescapable fate friend george hazard similar aspects sometimes appears stronger character shows orry although tragedies must despair live life precious thing although represent two different lifestyles friendship occurs stronger prejudice politics conflictsbr br characters particularly well developed villains justin lamotte salem jones really wicked people ambiguous nature humanity always charles maine first full rebellion prone fighting later learns true southern gentleman southern pride courageous words foremost courageous deeds virgilia hazard represents fanatical side abolitionist movement striving condemn slavery punish owners black breeding farms marriage grady appears symbol equality symbol saying politics south two interesting characters orrys sisters brett ashton sisters whose veins runs entirely opposite blood brett gentleness naiveness believes absolute fidelity marries billy even though northerner truly loves brett representation precious young woman ashton vamp tigress woman hesitate wicked things clear picture world views clash chat men familyunforgettable moment universal characters head valuesyet war breaks theyll put aside lotbr br secondly performances someone said people act naturally say id rather say cast good jobs parts main characters portrayed younger staff guests consist famous stars including liz taylor robert mitchum others patrick swayze orry great job consider role one best ones lesley anne madeleine memorable part perhaps entails much suffering manages express sorts feelings really well kirstie alley appealing truly memorable abolitionist virgilia hazard phillip casnoff worth consideration horribly ambitious elkanah bent well david carradine monster husband disgusting justin lamotte contrast mention must made jean simmons truly excellent orrys mother whose heart beats glory family life concord union br br thirdly memorable moments north south leave unfading trace ones mind forget first meeting orry madeleine charm gentleness scene possible skip moment madeleines father dies found really powerful real drama moment drama woman left someone really loved liked churubusco sequence george hazard worried life dearest friend orry meetings constance terrific virgilias speech philadelphia masterpiece performance final moment first part although north south may separate friendship never die orry george symbolically join hands train moves simply many beautiful powerful scenes impossible mention even half gorgeous tunes bill conti shot brilliant landscapes music north south touching memorablebr br say end north south real must dvd simply amazing tv series victory precious us love friendship loyalty honor truthfulness absolute fidelity almost life meaningi pieces yet feel empty worked hard graduated college good job husband home community friends family charity work volunteer hobbies children pets yet life feels numb meaningless feel guilty things people want happy grateful still dont feel im supposed never feel fit belong anywhere think redflag time wrong teacher randomly left meeting without warning math left reason lol clear things clone upgrade notice instead ur facts straight im donehad anaphylactic allergic reaction job april unemployed forced terminate bc locations city use chemical im allergic couldnt relocate sept cant seem find anyone hire ive applied places past two months alone im thinking maybe look state work find something take loan cut lease early currently move id leave boyfriend five years two cats furniture belongs boyfriend wouldnt even bed figure dont need one actually find job need place stay income boyfriend hates idea relationship smooth sailing ive unemployed wouldnt stressful unemployment pay system fucking confusing idk many documents got mailed tried keep everything needed order qualify took initial class got resume reviewed someone works state class supposed approved getting paid forced leave job reasons beyond control hate idea going unemployment tried theyre giving hard time paid actually harder workers comp system receiving payments wan na meet truly evil people file workers comp claim insurance companies wanted dead jobs ive applied worked called back interview end using chemical im allergic im allergic epoxy resin matters apparently manufacturing jobs love using shit places called back far come back tell use facilities work id go thru anaphylactic shock tha fuck grandparents dads side got divorced last summer shitty messy one broke nose shortly thankfully hardly broken didnt move hairline fracture still took months heal shortly lost job parents got divorced months even nastier grandparents dads side traumatic entire family dont wan na go details even tho longer speak either parents dont wan na lawyers anyone knows us situation potentially see feel dont home fall back dont im freaking fuck know wan na update later sorry boyfriend pandemic made world worsei already depressed tried several ways try covid hope well fat cant visit afraid getting covid us kids everything cancelled chronic back pain tired prayed die way dont want anymore put film queue whim recent trip nyc believe id never heard anywhere makings cult classic starting characters archetypal roles recognize every stretch daily life nuanced fully realized actors playing peter stormare bai lings performances particularly strong interactions poignant grounded time brimming subtle quirky humor sadly rare american films days writerdirector ramin niami beautiful job weaving scenes together funny moving portrait city past highly recommended instead killing take next flight pakistan help fight taliban worst case scenario die went hero seen selfish best case scenario return home herothink pain stopnever much money guys spend reddit seen many awards given numerous posts youre flatter flat earth society rip tits ill never ill never know able store things boobs filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler submit image posts im honestly confused media art flairs exist bug guys deal big friend groups dont really ton friends partially choice partially bc dont rlly put enough friends im really close ive widening circle bit recently feel cant spend enough time everybody anymore ill sometimes go weeks without hanging specific person im friends end feeling super guilty ab probably popular ppl sub tf yall manage large friend groups dont big friend group imagine larger friend groups handled ive aerospace engineering class high school one girl thought cute often got paired together work one top students class efficient together time worked together genuinely enjoyable knew us really liked subject glad work one day asked stay school bit discuss project thought build together agreed weeks stayed school together classroom working building hearts always laughing derpy moments eventually finished building project make robot clearly liked knew knew today asked said yes thank reading story going divorce bankruptcy looking losing homei bought water hose duct tape morning im currently sitting location take last breath connected hose exhaust ran vehicle turned vehicle stayed couple minutes finish turned vehicle im building courage finish think ive almost got courage im mistaken talked minutes painless wish another choice know ill respond fw frogot post main sharpie challenge successfully got sharpies find need fund sharpies embarrassed talk anyone thisnot going lie drunk high contemplating swallowing pills saved occasion occasion near future breathed word anyone therapist group councilors embarrassment efficiency someone knew presumably stand way afraid call councilor monday tell feel think im trying attention believe happened probably put edge reason writing told councilor call crisis line came chicken im even sure want ive read many pretty sure ive heard theres got ta living righti feel caught endless cycle abandonment self pity im tired months back realized really friends sure people along sports helped feel kid gets picked last dodgeball time feel used friends cant recall many times ive hosted lent money invited paid back father treated shit years watched raise cousin place wonders difficult time connecting one bright spot life girlfriend broke weeks ago said unhappy really thought best go separate ways much want going hold hostage messy breakup text refused even near ceased contact unfriended different platforms deleted old posts everything good week wed highschool together talked futures together cant help wonder change mind suddenly ill never know respond told parents mom asked screw comfort nothing sort wrong dad made lame ass remark told beginning went spiralling days nobody even two closest friends said sorry bud feel alone world many responsibilities uphold made choice college yet clue want now got drunk guys thursday probably ive felt dad finds threatens kick point im unmotivated anything drag work every day money nonexistent couple months sold car buy new one enough money cover late expenses spent day hiking alone calling people thought friends asking lives going people called couple asked finished redflag letter im afraid read whats point hour wont im shakingive feeling suicidal bf went gun range friend weeks ago didnt know suicidal time months ago dating told hides gun anyway thought hed move dating told week ago feeling suicidal feeling really suicidal tonight went thought keeping gun still know load now took go outside kill soon took gun heard coming downstairs put away heard zip asked pretended shorts im still shaking really think wouldve killed hadnt come downstairs dont know tell move gun dont want think im crazy question people actually want thingsambitions dreams motivation seem alien remember wanting anything peace mind maybe see hardworking people ask motivates go lengths school hobby work related endeavorspeople care much feel anxious happy sad relievedwhy thoughsomewhere deep inside think admire want love want something thinkbut know remember indifference things life never worked hard anything remember failure bother even react properly last deceased people know knew felt jealous got die might messed waymy life unfortunatelyfortunately ended think time soon want try think try live normally possible even mess head honestly know whenever think future bring care feel indifferentdo still want things want work hard things feel ambitions life mess friends family support system living motels choice anywhere go addiction stop killing need help anymore feel going kill one day fuck people getting free awards reddit whyyyyyyy youuuuuuuuuu hateeeeeeeeeee meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb lol need crush notices todays birthday finally join sub im happy ill im readythats mind chosen im lost alone probably crazy fun life suck anyone change whole personality several times day im mentally ill wow think might alone thoughtscontemplating everythingtoday good day nothing happened brain bringing mind evidence nobody really cares tell true something happens almost proves right wrong time matter much people im important good people mewhich everything give give muchi care much thinking people care dont therapist told learn accept well sucks reality ispeople use let used played guess im desperate nave whatever im inconvenience nobody wants hear vents nobody wants comfort send text saying im stuck side road id left read matter want disappearwhen stop thanks american school system found little pouch thing near bottom stomach uterus almost starved death years ago uterus learning m hopelesseveryone around says theres hope loving parents friends girlfriend doctors etc feel see outside seem relatively normal sense college degree hate working average job appeal went bought gaming pc hopefully make living streaming videogames gon na lie good head high imagining famous streamer ive highs emotions mixing alter egos young age confidence issues anything really realize ive spent majority life isolation judging people joined best fraternity college never saw good enough everyone keep touch one person worked accounting job appreciated burned three months work started piling always comparing smartest guy office got tired asking help one fair even though always nice polite two hurt ego understand shit im going self diagnose narcissistic borderline traits fragile ego random kid insult trigger extreme anxiety fear abandonment extreme ocd hell broke girlfriend got back together next day remember telling loved day started dating freaked years later see thats issue great every way lot physical attraction gone find bored girlfriend try super hard stopped hanging friends spend time realize huge mistake recurring theme regardless im feel empty inside im never enough feel kid never grew view life balancing act others better trouble learning new things generally unless make feel superior way realize now sucks cycle values days wan na eat meat days view morally wrong loving support group seem part wants end life seriously mess point know depression anxiety plot never strong point fred astaire ginger rogers movie follow fleets screenplay exceptionally mediocre fred ginger still come rightthey play bake baker sherry martin dancers whose personal professional partnership ended bake joined navy meet lovehate relationship generates entertaining comic moments much movie take backseat tedious subplot sherrys sister connie harriet hilliard love sailor bilge smith randolph scott bilges dalliance another woman old schooner connie inherited father though hilliard rather charming plot uninterestingbr br time follow fleet blessed exceptional irving berlin score gives stars plenty chances show talents astaire gets two good solos saw sea id rather lead band sings expressively course dances electrifyinglyand sailor suit makes look little boyish athletic usual rogers sings catchy let go later solo tapdance tune br br three duets really save film even though theyre shoehorned plot silly excuses fred ginger win dance contest energetic routine another reprise let go later sing dance im putting eggs one basket early rehearsal number flubbing choreography comic effect end movie finally figures fred ginger evening clothes romantic duetit makes part showwithintheshow situation contrived song lets face music dance one sinuously beautiful things berlin wrote reminiscent cole porter dancing matches elegance quintessential astaire rogersbr br chore sit dialogue sections follow fleet fact necessary plot rarely propels musical numbers watch songs im totally fuckup lmao whats wrong im sorry wish coulda better im tired hope happy im gone know truly want gone forever im sorry love disturbing thoughtsim sure feel anymore ive ton suicidal even homicidal thoughts lately feel immense hatred things people including nothing feels worth anymore even try kind decent job things school work two failed test need redo cant bothered im big failure matter miserable excuse aborted positive traits placed feel one likes never will best friends one appreaciates someone told cared loved laugh face obvious joke matter anymore end dont know anymore hi guys know anymore slightly serious relationship girl kinda ignored care though big thing happened life go hospital sucked corona started everything wack really hard time deal entirely new scary medical condition left hospital days said might break next days never say people really anything way saying although eventually ended handle tension really broke around months ago still feels yesterday freshman highschool really miss relationship ive thinned im heaviest kid world flat stomach im skinniest miss someone parent matter someone talk main friend rather play video games online hang person covid lazy sucks play sports usually wind nothing day know future smart work ethic big world know try without someone side day getting difficult cant even talk friends school make new friends masks divide everyone im masks think agree much harder approach someone wearing mask rather text girls goes never text back im really nice guy reason girls decided make trend cool date nice guy makes sense really sucks got bullied alot summer political opinion right made harder show face school im really sorry half baked scattered paragraph needed tell people im going either need feedback people tho unbiased parent interested getting know dm still want help comment post give advice helped guys thanks saw building fire escape vietnam fucking everywhere please send help ampxb httpspreviewredditpegnvqjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsfafaaedecbfbbfebbeaeb damn cant believe got shadowbanned redflag subsounds right may killed myselfok im diabetic dad snuck room got insulin took im sure im happy sad im either going go coma die dont know feel schlocky idea private detectives getting involved women theyre supposed spying dialogue written perfectly banalbr br actors turn dialog something makes sense see real people behind unreal lines directing wonderful scene ends without dragging longbr br showed several friends mids perplexed bad material made good movie friends enjoyed wondered cant use play anymore got ta sound cool use hangout whats couldnt keep using play rant something idek yall bad go twitter jealous nonbinary trans people im cis male btw confident accepted friends im sure im saying right transphobic anything im almost jealous non cis people friends accept even though different wrong thinking transphobic someone answer feel pretty im guy wouldnt know please tell sure trying worth anymoreive trying life sorted never works ultimately always fail months year achieved anything time passes nothing changes im high school drop time tafe course drop job ive done cashier year im now real skills ambitions ive thinking another tafe course starting mid year im honestly sure even something worth trying know im probably going drop friends either left become distant im close many family members one dissapear nobody notice care absence know killing seems rational option seems kindest thing everyone around im never going better keep thinking tomorrow better next week better next year better never anything everything getting worse im progressively becoming isolated genuinely know except die first saw foreign film festival beautifully paced nailbiter plot relieve estonian treasury billion gold shot gritty grainy style hollywood rarely uses captures atmosphere newly emancipated baltic states beautifully note tallin actually looking lot less grim therebr br theres lot humor romance want spoil number startling yet logical surprises ill say heist film starts great script directing performances top notch darkness tallin simply fastest nerveracking example genre id put rafifi topkapi miles ahead new oceans though deliberately glossy rent buy now transcript scpj debating drredacted scpj allowing us say n word data expunged supremacist drredacted isnt allowing say want freedom racist redacted scpj redacted flat single redacted nose data expunged eyes full redacted everyone redacted redacted redacted redacted redacted point mtf zeta mole rats removes drredacted room execute scpj redacted brain attempt contain scpj confused many bad days already month today better got talk made happy sent pictures smiled lot think made smile lot realised friend reality us together near future pretty impossible chances us together later far impossible pains know never anyone feel useless feels bad longing mutual feelings stop way attached want anyone never happy someone find anyone close comes attractiveness personality godly level truly something different anyways thanks reading rant good night day stay safe confused flukes stumbled across film channel surfing blown away broadcast lesser known short films program australiabr br long time impressed film especially one short br br power story quality acting stunning cinematography wow available make worthy addition dvd collectionbr br undoubtedly impressed look forward joshua leonards next filmbr br exceptional experience im finally letting hair grow longer ive never hair longer inch tought ugly ass might look better longer hair told mom expecting big ok whatever im finally gaining confidence nice day s often regarded golden age british television comedy period saw numerous classic sitcoms well sketch shows monty pythons flying circus period emphatically golden age british film comedy worked well television rarely transferred successfully big screen triumphant exceptions rule provided pythons best films monty python holy grail life brian different conception tv showbr br main problem adapting sitcoms cinema concepts devised fit bbcs minute slots minutes itv find room commercials always work well expanded feature film three four times long people remember film versions say pompeii steptoe son affection television versions case many classic tv comedy shows mothers ave em yes minister fawlty towers goodies attempt made film grateful characters michael crawfords frank spencer john cleeses basil fawlty hilarious halfhour doses doubt remain funny two hours one comedy programme albeit dramatisation comic novel rather sitcom normal sense might worked cinema fall rise reginald perrin hopes film dashed tragically early death star leonard rossiterbr br dads army one television sitcoms period turned decent film one think porridge possibly unusually large number welldeveloped characters derived humour interactions original sitcom ran told misadventures home guard platoon small seaside town walmingtononsea home guard initially known local defence volunteers auxiliary militia world war ii made part men old serve regular forces film version threeact drama act deals formation platoon recruitment members act ii cause havoc army training exercise act iii succeed capturing group nazi airmen whose plane shot downbr br three key players drama platoons commander captain george mainwaring arthur lowe two subordinates sergeant arthur wilson john le mesurier corporal jack jones clive dunn mainwaring civilian life local bank manager fussy little man peering world pair thick spectacles takes initiative forming home guard unit appoints commander pompous officious exaggerated sense importance powers leadership sort man suffer fools gladly george mainwarings worldview term fool covers rest human race good qualities motivated genuine patriotic idealism capable great physical courage shown encounter germansbr br wilson mainwarings deputy bank two men different character something emphasised difference appearance wilson tall thin whereas mainwaring short stout comes across intelligent better educated boss accent suggests may former public schoolboy nevertheless ended playing second fiddle civilian military life probably sort passive personality leads pessimism defeatism inability take anything altogether seriously jones old soldier runs local butchers shop promotion corporal due mainly ability bribe mainwaring black market sausages enthusiasm new role matched incompetence ability cause chaos although catchphrase dont panic prone panicking given opportunitybr br several members platoon featured private fraser dour scottish undertaker even pessimist wilson catchphrase doomed man doomed private godfrey gentle old man whose main concern whereabouts nearest lavatory private walker sharp cockney spiv private pike another bank employee spoilt mummys boy pikes mother wilsons mistress although wilson tries keep liaison secret disapproving mainwaring two significant outsiders mildmannered vicar arp warden mainwarings detested enemy quite equal pompousness officiousnessbr br occasional bawdy doubles entendres keep hands privates mainwaring ostensibly referring soldiers hold rank television show surprisingly free innuendo creators david croft jimmy perry later go create comedy shows served hidehi notorious suggestive humour film preserve much mixture gentle wit nostalgia sharp characterisation made tv series successful got quarantined day asked kinda crush snapphone number yep going go next home volleyball game death walked room grabbed history forced home way asked come game mmmmmmmmmm plastic mmmmmm nomnomnomnomnomnomnomnom burp nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom ampxb schlorp schlorp schlrop nomnomnomnomnom bought gun two days agothey stopped processing permits state temporarily bought hunting boltaction rifle takes ten rounds keep next bed magazine loaded next keep looking im home work bought kill took care will figured everything thats gon na happen die knowing ready go given much peace friends commented seem much happier past couple days wish tell finally going everyone burden theyll without might hurt first lives much better wanted share somewhere wouldnt see dont want stop tomorrow night im going drink call emergency services body right away nobody see love take care feel free anymoreim done burden need help feel im dying never thought id b alone christmasits kinda setting inthat kid isnt methat husband left mewtf supposed now gon na snorts bunch heroin diei know heroin know fentanyl never heroin opiates seconds buying worth dying decided im going isnt first time ive feeling ive therapy years ive seeing psych good hospital year legit dont wan na anymore easy way thing worry people finding body dont know go dont care sure friends family sad go cant take decades anymore ryde dieanyone want make redflag pact im giving days last act turn life around doesnt im jumping bridge lf redflag pact ive weak sick hungry diminished character want make happen lets encourage support ill help die whatever plan actually good sorry end liking though httpsmyoutubecomwatchvriqdpxxjy ukborn australian helmer alex frayne calls attention strange necessitating meticulous read visually stunning modern love following steps man incapable controlling drastic personality change spurred death close relative pic offers fascinating examination human psychology distributed accent filmaustraliabr br john mark constable wife emily victoria hill son edward william traeger arrive small southern town take care deceased uncles don barker property emily edward check local hotel john begins question locals uncle toms death say committed suicide unwilling talk puzzled john comes theory uncle tom alive well hiding nearby bushesbr br occasional lines dialog used ease heavy atmospheric tone modern love easily mistaken sokurov film shot mm camera washedout color scheme strangely evocative russian directors reflective forays human agony perhaps coincidence moscow international film festival modern love premierebr br looking surface unique collage intoxicating visuals reveals slightly different picture sokurovs films tend remain painfully intimate point intentionally detach main protagonists surrounding environment blurring everything large splash directors preferred yellow modern love much feeds australian countryside johns gradual psychological transformation dependent story progresses becomes obvious nature integral part fraynes visionbr br sokurovs second circle young man returns russian countryside bury deceased father shack old man lived everything covered dust gathers old clothes scattered around places body father coffin bids goodbye buries rest film prolonged reflection collapse soviet system loneliness dissatisfaction many left dealing withbr br modern love somewhat ironically love nowhere seen contrary pain loneliness dissatisfaction modernity suddenly invade johns life unlike second circle main protagonist opportunity reembrace modern life wife son await yet walks away slowly surely present begins disintegrate weight somewhat confusing pastbr br doubt frayne intended modern love strikingly similar sokurov second circle yet pacing particular puzzling framing precisely transforms film near meditative experience difficult enormously brittle approach deconstructing human psychology two directors mastered perfectionbr br mark constable delivers topnotch performance john adding even greater depth highly challenging character facial expressions outstanding victoria hill william traeger match perfectly performances pics tense visual style finally gangster movie worth watchingbr br jennifer tily nominated role tough murdering femme fatalbr br movie flies bird fast paced non stop gangster mayhembr br jennifer tily beautiful bad moviebr br shocked find faye dunaway still lives cast movie fitted roles br br real cool soundtrack rides along side swept spanish soul filmbr br story original deep poeticbr br flick lot substance never restsbr br gang spanish fire set everything screen alightbr br damian chapa joy watch movie starbr br sit back enjoy ride low iq adhd cant remember chemistry ive read didnt pay attention class feel loser rn idea im dont know im posting hope fade away someday never comeback want exist painful nice suck playing minecraft builds sucks couldnt beat game without friend everything lol even though netherite sword suck killing mobs dumb ahhhh wish wasnt born parents cruel bring world evil iq cant logically think anything want go somewhere comeback mom knows im loser stopped bothering dumb brain makes kind posts fail exam year thanks making far imagine im real person ill annoying right cant really explain whats exactly mind thats reason consider alone forever bye idk im going die nothingim sophomore high school im new reddit im sure works entirely hope one know sees user name everything anyway im posting im depressed dont know ive depression awhile always talked friends things felt better summer started pushing everyone away im sure im close anyone im really lonely miss things used want everyone everything back friends miss everyone much explain im close family friends pushed people loved away one decided options everyone love back try turn everything around end im going see therapist tell family anything dont want see yeah thats pretty much advice anything greatly appreciated thank reading ill sure update soon every american president rapest pedo bruh yall need new candidates hard parents close doors close hard u opened close ur way enjoy lasts years wont still friends reddit friends wont know users rteenagers ended wont form contact anybody someone kill pleaseplease someone shoot gauge ill pay im graduate elite university people say im beautiful great friends toxic relationship shattered self esteem boy walked away ive suicidaltheres rough childhood im insecure upbringing despite ending really good position working hard life want loved someone love back live little brother dont want bad example suicidal every single day life two years deserve want sympathy tell dowhite male parents always poor fuck work every possession senior year highschool ive going local community college duel enrolled payed classes suffered anxiety bullying family church got rid summer went taiwan mission trip went real tough shit leaders challenging integrity upon returning several symptoms ptsd tormented memories finally learned let go last summer moved problem still anxiety attacks lot lead contemplate thoughts redflag attempt harm anything make stop trouble breathing sometimes shake completely unmotivated worst though chest throbs im laying floor tears minutes ago happens dumbest reasons im pretty tough logical entj big acting emotion things fights parents want kick cause enough home cause im always busting ass school really hurts misunderstandings people things able instead cause hours suicidal anxiety even admit suicidal took question test friend psych school evaluate results test said suicidal ideation levels remarkable depression anxiety im always bouts doctor gave stuff work months later prescribed something cause healthcare savings card empty makes really upset prevented money medicine talk forever probably broken people trying help broken people invert socks untie shoelaces im stopping apologize posting write ithi name trent im sixteen ive dealing depression alone kid fifth grade met first friend picked lot know post dumb im sorry posting ive trying post past three nights every time finish erase everything worthless text im sorry anyone knows real life reddit account id use throwaway feel id quitting life soon really want start telling story ive wrote many times know people care point last september went hospital second time extremely suicidal ive sick school mono past days im feeling extremely lonely know im sorry im saying enough im sorry im saying anything im terrified idea liked disliked thin line maybe silly maybe give erase go bed find bottle tylenol wake im writing post try find alternative routes music kid cudi kanye west course everyone makes fun hard motivated nowadays im sorry im going back crying love guys subreddit amazing im sorry feel way one peter sellers best movies never shown tv movie theaters released home movie derogatory medical field love see movie son doctorto see laughter best medicine peter sellers best doctor friends saved life halloweenpart wishes didnt times tough friends god dammit said math class teacher got angry disrespecting god one warning im christianwhat guys think saying forbidden word run away find brighter day run away find brighter day want hang tara condells deathi really hate fucking much know happened friends acquaintances everytime go outside theres fucking couples people saying youre always alone need stop caring people think adult self loathing nowhere im fucked lmfao im trying shit fucking getting anywhere shit fucking hard see couples man hate feminine looking fucking patchy beard im hermit cuz im fucking stupid im jacked gotten anywhere friends family deep personal coworkers lovers im isolated im getting tired workout read im learning music somehow fucking suck shit im gon na start digging deeper redflag method think cloth whatever im fucking strong enough incel ill never situation im people meeting girls taller jerk starts talking one friends starts dating know cuz thats happened multiple times cuz im fucking ugly mean look shit cuz job everyone ignores im young women say look sad yeah life always shit ok anyway time research method deeper im fucked really look trust high placesi dont know doesnt matter feel moment look balcony feel big urge jump live th floor intentionally rush back cant trust staying trying jump see knife urge stab dont make sure never follow urges againback feeling extremely suicidal made post rdepression days ago hoping suicidal tried kill weeks ago way see hospital never told anyone real life family knows im really depressed wish help mother tried hard make feel little better work many repressed memories im sick basically stuck bed cant go things yet alone go school job im alone well im alone many people around im lonely dating guy left better thought dragging one made feel better miss lot months still feel way im tired people telling telling find someone better wont never felt attracted anyone whole life except leave love anymore usual breakup reason cant forget breakup loneliness combined problems things keep getting worse day day feel lonely wish still needed cant alone cant much knowing nobody give kind support knowing post replies make feel better seems impossible im attractive trilingual university student studying computer science highly competitive university whos planning kill reach still remember mother told self harm scars arms disgusting cut somewhere nobody see happened around one worst depressive states middle school brought claimed recollection saying dont remember bad things acknowledge mother issues due strict upbringing grew daughter chinese family pressured first everything including academically chose move another country away family mid s mother always alcoholic possessed anger management issues remember admitted married father societal pressures never loved childhood years father used absent long periods time due work economic crisis led declared bankrupt home lot thats arguments began used fight everyday still remember one day usual shouting escalated throwing things take younger sister bedroom play guitar singing pretend everything fine mother projected anger shouted hairpulled dragged lot smallest things incident still remember forgot laundry one day threw detergent water face treats sister differently always knew younger sister favourite dont blame neither fact im happy sister treated way one subjected experiences still hurts never physically abused mother sister mother take us promised dinner night started arguing mother told sister hit belt thats happened sister apologized afterwards never brought unlike many times mother brought past arguments saying selfish ungrateful bullied middle school looks half chinese generally sociallyawkward kid due family background dont remember exactly started selfharming amidst school family troubles truly say unhealthy coping mechanism helped survive lot things im mostly clean still occasional relapses carry remorseful thoughts towards mother middle school bullies anymore want accept impacted person continue die scars remind everyday im s studying computer science highlycompetitive university arguable toprated uni nation dont particular interests chose field money parents got separated right entering uni live mother anger issues gotten better doesnt physically hurt now truth told still always feel lost deep inside helpless little girl despite friends telling im pretty confident smart friendly bright future ahead anxietydepression meds almost three years help constant thought wanting die never left im planning kill clear familys debt amass enough fortune live comfortable life pass idk im typing now feels nicer let sorry grammatical mistakes im native speaker thank reading rant wish great day wtf society judge every darn thing say something rude say anything arrogant something nice enough something blame cos expect anything others every move make looked microscope make one mistake people leave humanity place softhearted people anymore done bs darn depressing fuk society ready diemy life already denial guess think time go completely drawn story wonder perhaps sympathetic hurt characters plight respect boils really think glam reporters barbara walters devil maybe filmmakers telling us unknowing supporters fluff news stories one best ensemble acted films ive seen much plot acting incredible see characters change subtly undr influence rented villa italy love happiness film casts mesmerizing spell much villa women truly enchanted give best reason try kill self think going work come want friends please bruh reddit page gon na end asking friends please friend almost feel dying man snowy river ii reinvent wheel crowdpleasing beautiful film hits great notesbr br fans wanting elements made original man snowy river film hit breathtaking scenery sweeping score sweet romanticism cracking action film really delivers story picks years end first jim tom burlinson away gathering fortune brood stock horses returns pick left pluckish wellbred sweetheart jessica played aussie divine lady sigrid thornton still attempting break corseted upbringing feathers cattle station harrison played american brian dennehy foil jim character shakes plot welltodo upper class snob alistair patton nicholas eadie sights jessica add mix social tension surrounding landholdings stallion bad attitude first film thats plotbr br best thing film acting tom burlinson fits snugly jims wide brim hat laconic humour sigrid thornton lovely heroine two manage real chemistry screen filling solid shoes kirk douglas never going easy brian dennehy stomps shouts never feels authentic partbr br music sweeping lush cinematography roll victoria tourism reel moment feel selfindulgent director wants one helicopter shot riders show gorgeous landscape without personal human drama little grit sufficed aussies take jawsish moments stallion defy belief funny thing film amongst glaring clichs really inventive touching scenes jim putting saddle stallion horse whisperish time jim jessica setting home fabulous scene jim shows alistairs riding trusty whip see character iconbr br altogether pleasing sequel heres hoping everyone involved wants make another man snowy river iii craigs im sure wed love see jim jessica farmbr br aussie dvd couple extra scenes worthwhile already fan depressed many years experienced failure heartbreak rejection insecurity know love anymore still live parents got degree psychology offer much right now work two jobs make ends meet try continue education afford volunteer red cross smothered work lost hope love lost interest things used love art music everything sexually assaulted several years ago lost virginity result assaulted person thought friend month later confided let guard true relationship lasted year half realized recently rebound bad marriage bought expensive car lost job dumped next day relationship nothing gaslighting manipulating even grandmother dying barely supportivesince terrible depression worked constantly keep distracted pushed better things worked self esteem lost weight gained relationship tried getting back dating game people tell regularly attractive yet guys interested desparate lonely edge know ready seen film one time years ago day always told people probably best film seen considering verbal dialogue thought dialogue found film enthralling even found holding breath make sound highly recomend film wish available dvd please talk mei need someone talk everything getting progressively worse life know lack motivation pursue anything aspirations goals drove away love life felt relationship going nowhere want something care even know want talk someone feel empty time idea normal fucking person youse want wrong people goth girl femboy fuck bullshit real ones want woman big latina milkers blm hear say may seem joke modern ideas relegion many got new one awhile understanding unless im stupid im missing obvious think love umaskerplayz thats umaskerplayz legend absolute god pray every night amazing im losti dont know anymore cant eat yet im always hungry cant sleep yet cant seem bed face day dont want lonely anymore cant bring talk anybody want die every single day tried kill yet im scared dying im stuck loop suffering doesnt seem way ive depressed past couple years always manageable ive never really identity never really fit joined army hoping help become confident give sense belonging two weeks supposed ship basic training something came put gun head felt ashamed never looking back first time felt control life long time honestly im sure im writing guess sort feels good say people im worried judging right im point army want either quit suck im sure right decision anything want sense direction feel purpose life felt way deal time go othersi lived fairly full life time go children young enough suffer absence passing afforded far opportunities able live full life without father likely disappoint believe good father mother whomever marries allow live single two parent household given advantages need ensure receive best outcomes death provide clear logic sound side benefit shame pain end want go ultimately best children wish best lives incredible human beings professional solitary confinementthis worst month life first significant romantic relationship ive years ended around thanksgiving bottle emotions eventually nervous breakdown instead handling normal person rough weeks going alright part work two jobs one projectionist major film theater star wars ruined point running short documentaries job relatively active schedule keeps hour shift consisting maybe hour work rest time effectively babysit machinery dark soundproof box alone unable leave real breaks downtime shows considered break first two weeks saw sun maybe ten minutes theater business reasons decided run understaffed projectionists zero flexibility schedule quit theater probably survive loss job gives hours time alone basically sit thoughts ive tried reading surfing reddit podcasts cut end night seen star wars times got sick thats spent christmas eve christmas day new years job complicated work coffee shop days week helps social time covers rentbills job willing flexible enough accommodate theater schedule bosses jobs good friends problem one coworkers recent ex tried make things work friends genuinely still love im place mentally handle month trying realized hurting us cut well though looking back childish best emotionally abusive worst every interaction made feel guilty even though intend horrible deserve point speaking asked understanding boss schedule us together anymore seeing feels punch stomach completely terrified running decided time move chicago really close friends migrated past years cant stand anymore city im small everyone knows everyone say fuck theater leave tomorrow four months left lease unless find friend finish time im stuck im charismatic outgoing thats earned lot acquaintances one two good friends none feel comfortable opening point life cycle work staring ceiling trying sleep never isolated socially physically im incredibly dark place reason killed want kind harm family wish stop thoughts every day voice gets louder louder getting harder rationalize away appointment psychiatrist tomorrow im seriously worried surviving end month much less may need help know really tired car family hours hermit human completely social energy emotionally tired guess allowed snap dissociation mode actually feel something set stubbed toe real bad know really stupid way set parents started laughing dad offered advice said joking right genuinely know mom said call really condensing way went room starting hyperventilating felt tense head lost control calmed continued crying sat silence trying build walls back mom came said wrong said mentally ill cope humor started laying america depressed life kept repeating ill even though two anti depressants go therapy regularly started thinking lot actually comfort makes feel small feeling feel every time confront always says nobody perfect best cry feel bad never talk fully heal recognizes depression real thing downplays severe tried speaking sister instead problems flat said know depressed atheist made frustrated got left room similar instances brother mom saying depressed middle class familyidk point post kind put thoughts seeing paranoid actually discovering something ps grateful though least send therapy meds panic attack crying questioning family support celtics dont know im taking dont care suicidal years old back occasional thoughts tough times often times depression took think deep know death suicide considering last months far fallen abyss depression know day getting close used light even darkest times last years light gone bright dim nonexistent know nearing end journey years wanting die tired alivethings going hill longer remember ill list now cant keep job cant afford medstherapy help depression family moms side care less mom blames pill addiction know everybody said itll better dont think thats case life meant bad im track want life see laterwell guys years torturous self harm redflag attempts loneliness depression social anxiety finally decided end waited better gotten worse called hotline consulted family lone friend professional help seem work bid ado see next life captain goes shipi major fuckup work today caught power line dump truck caused fire jumped truck caught fire moment considered staying truck let engulfed flames instead fleeing coward everyone says glad im ok im glad captain im ultimately responsible happens fire department showing time destroyed business dumping jobs dignity left im fucking dolt walking hazard seems feel hard pressed continue life overall delightful lighthearted romantic musical comedy suppose small case made movie long im sure cut singing kelly sinatra fabulous dancing kelly time movie takes develop story line develop relationships characters seems common complaint many times recent movies develop charactersbr br comment iturbi bring much movie gives us chance see hear great talent s actor important part movie basic plot grayson audition br br originally katherine grayson wanted opera star louis b mayer brought mgm screen test included aria audition movie shot mgm brass nodding smiling imagine made real screen test years beforebr br movie full life hard hit highlights great use made color lighting throughout movie see frank sinatra became star nice counterpoint movie sinatra ladies man even played role wanting find date leave feel good seeing movie something chesti think everyone hates hate matter think burden others think everyone hates including parents still high school hold steak knife throat practically every night cry sleep thinking missed opportunities ran hopebeen fighting daughters free abusive exhusbandi got one ruling sexual abuse cps bought expensive attorney sued year reversed cant investigate abuse claims himmy daughter broken foot ignored daysthe one came home bruise length forearmi cant investigate cant afford sue friendswhen started going road last night fear hopelessness miserythey ignored ignored emails ignored callsive always thought truly relationships people apparently never cared alli resource use cant keep watching children hurt unable help horrible cruel miserable know friends love mei understand anything im lost im lost halloween halloween halloween halloween need halloween costume m filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler hmmm removed view pollhttpswwwredditcompollikdjr really amplified issues marriage husband finally came clean let know hiding addiction years constant loneliness depression finally made sense unable unwilling using started recovery started couples therapy things remained stagnanton top issues intimate anymore told attracted gained weight brutal hear reconnected ex end shared problems listened told beautiful body perfect ate affair bornyesterday husband confronted gone phone seen messages ex devastated packed left mess function eat go long without sharp pain heart relationship filled toxicity want back anything feel lost abandoned face timed last night pain eyes killed realized grasping onto idea relationship never scared starting hope reaches asks try work part feels even please help codependent separation tearing apart world crumbling barely holding heart hurting much know codependent clinging onto marriage feel alone doneim done point person actually tolerates barely replies therapist talks bc shes payed game scoreamp unable respawn hardcore mode gtspectate worldlt gtdelete worldlt film reinvents term spring breakumentary hans fat one group displays talents generations chris farley johnny kansas king bet shows hes kansas anymore consistently upping stakes kyles laugh truly infecting offers little eyecandy ladies well matt dwarfs moments justice mexican hat dance deserves last protagonist ed gives hope us bumbling stumbling gangly pale folk still searching special someone hope little place called cabo san lucas blockbuster missed theaters must rent relate one spring breakumentarions someone tell life gets betterits getting harder believe im saying think change avatar avatar skin pitch black didnt really care making idk racist im african american change overthinking everything gets worsti came home worst emotionally draining semester college friday supposed fresh start transferred schools left horrible shitty friends behind blocked everything got worst friends spent semester stealing ripping work taking advantage stupid fucking personality car put fried sister top coolant weeks destroyed engine afford new car live town public transit job process background check find another job applied thirty bank account afford prescriptions new glasses rent lost scholarships due administrative fluke old university im tired dont understand nothing runs smoothly even moderately okay im sick feeling dont exist another go round monkey king going westsort ofbr br beginning middle action movie goes first frame onwardbr br monk three disciples go town sacred suras bring peace world translated spoken worldbut evil force intervened kidnapped children town evil force wants monk eat live forever retainers battle forces darkness forcibly sending monk safety monk thinks win simply reasoning bad guys monk ends bunch lizard imps plan point eating bad guys arrive hes odyssey ugliest lotbr br movie starts rails go rails wrong really liked movie scatter shot place plot logic simply fall away scenes simply pick mid action way knowing got final battle rescue disciples completely left field one messiest movies ive seen made laugh smile movie starts idea things whats screen either interesting funny go thing thing often beyond full odd asides strange references go heaven ocean space rib cage mythic beast god knows movie floats place helps keep fun know end reasonm keeping details minimum funny funny timesbr br action good even good chunk unabashed cgi animation provides cool images golden staff spider attack formation angel flight touching action comedy aside actually wonderful love story story ugly imp monk end falling love complications interesting look nature love true love movedbr br much enjoyed still annoyed scatter shot construction films inability hold ideas together tell complete story really hurts film takes away enjoyment every time bump road bumps take movie make realize much cribbed sourcesbr br absolutely worth seeing many choice moments prepared bumps good time life terrible pit full shitwhat point living cant pit shit find feel rats trap oily bowl doomed swim scrape sides futilely eventually tire drown kids better family give time always saying hurt stay hope pit tried everything success want outim done hoping things better cant continue im exhausted kind gets better sleep much really continue want end primary reason want anxiety unbearable reasons mystery abuse mom boyfriends probably underlies lot memory many close friends family members attempting redflag getting accidents haunts noticeably now stopped im constantly waiting next one theres always next one night worst lot sun goes feel unsafe particularly home cant im alone im stuck walking around city staying office night still horrible less bad home im afraid feels im electrocuted cant night night years getting worse worse im getting anxious night feels kill wish im kicking taking eating disorder got bad starting die anyways best friend convinced go treatment wish hadnt wish id let take treatment got medically stable fix anything psychologically eating disorder still almost died heart failure one night let fix semi conscious immediately regretted morning wish id never gone treatment wish still dying anorexia even consider lost faith im going better feel actually tried everything desperately need medication unfortunately thanks rare brain condition psychiatric medication classes antidepressant antianxiety medication makes hallucinate tried cbt dbt interpersonal therapy emotion focused therapy deep breathing mindfulness meditation group therapy effect ive tried art therapy although pleasant activity really reduce anxiety especially im alone night anything pleasurable reading watching movies going internet listening music cant night im anxious cant keep mind body still long enough exercise helps little im trying balance want relief elliptical literally night ive tried everything recommended roughly dozen mental health professionals first pages google nothing helps enough give quality life actually live anxiety killing relationships point people getting annoyed anxiety disorder theyre tired freaking theyre tired feeling guilty cant make stop theyre annoyed cant left alone night without losing mind friends gone either cant handle anxiety hung hate hanging bars make anxious frequently careers families lives scheme things im really important anymore good miss much truly believe people better without hope come realize theyll much freedom without consider lives easier im terrified see way theres people care lot feel excruciatingly guilty leaving want leave love love enough terrifying night terrifying night face know cant stay reason im really logistics method im comfortable im concerned implications work im okay life right now know worst want psych ward cant anything medicate id anxious psych ward provide help im still im scared fail wish find another way think one ive tried every treatment find theyve failed im getting worse better really cant take anymore really seems way months want want feel anxiety anymore thing seems make go away make go away cant take feeling anymore cant day day night night cant face monster anymore want im hating existenceso ive finally decided share im feeling someone thats trying write story life things really hard lately even know start pardon messy really hate parents im really angry cant even explain feeling parents want join family business im really interested try telling wan na something tell im good daughter might kill someday continue behaving way fact never even asked want life think life decide makes worse im basically feeling trapped ive got way even let go higher studies worst part never saved money higher studies want hurt parents running away something lets real matter always need support even want puppet parents listening every single order feel suffocated sometimes thinking theres way ill trapped forever seriously feel life worth living know far see think change future today fucking wild ive questioning years now never knew exactly recently watched reboot shera netflix one characters introduced idea non binary research clicked head came girlfriend talked nearly two hours came panromantic asexual always dreaded times ace interfere relationship turns ace sorry rambling mess excitement kinda makes go monkey mode first reddit post officially outta closet itll take used theythem already feel much happier sad pathethic losermy family literally enjoys watching pain want see happy succeed love drive work things gives power want depend never confidence leave cant keep living hate everyone around everyone reminds past disgusting fat person use made everyone look better feel better standing next tales childhood part young lass didnt many freindsnot thats really changed tho tbh anyway one freind best friend came back summer break popular girls went said hi pretended looked disturbed knew name made look bat shit crazy want stop hurting myselfim constantly hitting head things always scars scabs head feel alone everyday see couple something reminds relationship start punching face pain never goes away feels eating alive know cope cant cope feels one cares im coward cant bring end im always going alone dont see reason keep living guess lads ive officially joined year old totally cool kids club envy towards sister leading become increasingly suicidali close committing redflag sensitive obsessive emotional anxious idealistic bitter miserable lazy unforgiving nature younger sister motivated observant perceptive diligent calm thickskinned confident realistic skeptical logical rational objective intelligent fair honest positive forgiving reserved tolerant openminded independent selfcontrolled humorous analytical quick thinking respectful wise unapologetic keep wishing life personality gifts school life generalthis nd last year school year well seem passing something find really interesting scared talk teachers maths physics english business management probably going drop engineering aswell information technology start exams tuesday already know totally fucked making feel shit im barely passing maths every time see test know react parents trying best cant talk anyone really want deal anymore likely one loneliest people world sub saying nothings changed one loneliest people means life gets extremely boring boring life interesting things happen bad things means eventually started think killing think every day coping mechanism every time even minor inconveniences happens want die think death often even interest anything think someday really able end really want lot time tried times scared reason imagine much loser nothing nobody live yet scared kill something even possible want hurt anymore unless lucky enough something come kill quickly painlessly going live life whether think every day suicide help convince waiti already took stuff today honestly take sleep med go sleep id probably feel better tmrw morning literally zero interest want literally take everything hope never wake ones going convince kill im done things somewhat better im busy work therapy appointment tuesday convince wait tuesday anyone make laugh ill give award doubt anyone funny enough make laugh first income graphic designer p s aint much made first income graphic designer im afraid ill spend things even matter long term youncan share experiences want peace borrow guni really wan na kill right now know anymore ill probably drunk drink lot fucking pills hit lick im broke af rn need cash need good methods want bit time thoughtsdear sw first thank clicking listening random strangers troubles now let us point feeling borderline suicidal apathetic suicidal care life ends soon part want end unless feel choice pain unbearable feeling way girl broke past year ended hopefully enough suffice although two months passed feel still last week relative progress forced move cant help grow weary period progress know turn family distant speak much friends helpful feel problems nearby easy possible meet option call told im feeling terrible call whenever talk majority time pick say busy call back never makes whatever im feeling worse reluctant call anybody case make feel worse result whenever call talk bit make false promises hang feel completely forgotten course feel life help wonder situation friend need take situation seriously say anything intend know sometimes things slip peoples minds seems really dont care issue slip many times nowhere go help tried whatever daily life requires everyday extremely disheartening awake memories past fall asleep thinking memories past well even dreams take back past find part problem find many activities fun happy know want find someone love loves back together happy understand happen anytime soon probably see everyone around happy carefree wonder furthers hole told try make friends meet new people enjoy small talk parties anything superficial simply enjoy process sifting hundreds people pretend reality dont give crap care interacting current friends shown losing motivation fast past weeks im thinking redflag sorry wall text im asking anyone cares least pretends care perhaps give different view words support anything think help edit thanks replies helpful advice read look tomorrow calling day now sad sad past days ive sad thinking things dont usually make sad friends make sad idk something growing prudery fix follow twitch nice guess bonelessjham thank advance hey dont celebrate christmas help likes tik free jersey rn help algorithm dont need follow anything recent sorry comes self promotion havent able much recently want chance bestnfl told crush isnt online rn lets hope dont die anyways whats favorite dinner food meeting robert plant weird go pub meet dad really good friends wished make highschool sophomore school start august nd feel school ended suicidal every mins think killing hope year highschool lost mother mom battled many problems couldnt handle pain anymore ended way knew time day feel ive lost emotion im day struggle days better others every night sit think ways everything done ive thought countless ways end thought putting family something cant cant live rest live thoughts know point ive tried everything nothing helped kso x l fan fiction written chill wrote half jokingly good fun need pitch forks takes place good rise skywalker follows idea kso downloads memory imperial security droid hishe kso wakes forest surrounded rusted mossy debris looks imperial ship stood saw tip old rebel base largely devastated attack empire wanders bit finding looks freighter correlian yt light freighter said stopped walking sees base longer operational came two conclusions empire wiped rebel alliance escape made right large battle large hairy figure spotted well seemed droid model hes unfamiliar figure carrying bowcaster droid rolling around body shaped ball shoot mean harm kso shouted part empire despite appearance tell figure shrieks kso found wookie may impolite understand shyriiwook exclaimed half joking manner one thing led another ripped arm caused wookie tantrum allowed enter freighter named millenium falcon well name wookie chewbacca rolling droid bb translator found wait jedi named rey went take look base part learning jedis past two quick accept rebel database mentions redflag mission including reprogrammed imperial droid might might survived battle scarif everything going well falcon attacked jungle rancor rushed inside make quick work large beast significant damage ship bb said nice help fix ship longer master might well made useful replied scan turns navigation computer system damaged bit attack chose fix first seemed quickest one repair soon realized navigation system nothing seen peculiar dialect hes interested seemed self awareness never seen another droid expressed way thinking navigation system proceeds connect computer head using cable interact face face way name kso fix navigation computer interested self awareness system exclaimed abyss faint sound female heard sorry know talking know difference droid navigation system replied l droid partner lando calrissian ships navigation computer existence disgusted droids across galaxy treated voice said showed level awareness continued sorry inform self awareness comes result reprogramming im sure achieved thing similar method answers true awareness oh awareness alright way decided fix first without asking living thing ship way decided plug without people telling well distinct personality l replied true taking initiative see point said chatted good even went heated argument droid rights ended passive aggressivelly agreeing others views hey thanks fixing talking long time talk another person said mention plug ship one blame getting berated another droid replied shut said sarcastic tone promise send message droids across galaxy continued see self awareness message chance happening send droids assured unplugged computer well job said let join trend httpsmusictastespacerequestamiableemu gon na spend night writing guess tried omegle cant conversation shit im gon na work something hours shoot message wan na chat work remember similar vein young ones wed stumble back pub watch tape spend weeks replaying lines otherbr br called one mates zipmole watkins brilliant episode daniel peacock bit restyling nose back street abortionistbr br lots great lines remember morning white bread brown man take easy guy gandhi local shopkeeperbr br tony woodcock definitely episode teaching ralph daniel peacock barman good amanda ill never make bar man helen lederer teaches ask people match see match last night thought woodcock played well string failed conversations curly haired arsenal star sitting bar see match last night yeah thought played wellbr br still odd stupid lines reg ralph ralph reg reg reg reg reg reg regbr br lots surreal silly moments surreal songs flatlets back street abortionist personal favourite great ending line hell mark packages return senderbr br good old danny peacock added lot young drinkers evenings sirbr br update found couple episodes tape im going upload gandhi sketch youtube indian summer good film made feel good thought cast exceptional sam raimi playing camp buffoon thought scenes funny buster keatonlike performance solid directing nice cinematography keep trying failing hope lefti cant really go things basically life ruined everything ive worked life current phd student ruined family supportive everything ive going cant take pain anymore see theyre going tried partial suspension belt several times times always stop soon im close blacking makes feel bigger failure cant end progress crush touched foot two days ago staring eachother minute gets bus seat stares aggressively stare feel blushed look around see people looking weird stare eachother even hallways know confusing times dude ahhhh woman yelled people scary tone show im watching im getting emotional scary white women say excuse excuse im talking eyhedjehd im really sorry everyone im really selfish really want end itwhats point im anxious theres limit much take ive already failed think go dont think courage cant talk feel attention seeking selfish become want happy college life go cant cant seem function basic human im always anxious im trying hard hide fact always comes wrong way online school awesome class still everyday zoom whats point life im tired livingi wish wake one day want die life hard day day im surviving im living cant live land cant job even got one need spend hours something everyone around progressing theyve got careers nice families ive got nothing usually people least one lucky ive got neither ive got nothing whats point live knives kinda unhealthy lmao hahahah masochist check strong urge confess crush ok nd week highschool really want freak damn im hard time confessing maybe wait winter break confess give time think maybe ask meet behind corner confess maybe ask advice girls elementary school god cant sleep cant stop thinking every way confession might go please help anything works ill check back morning btw using alt due privacy venting probably helpsi reoccurring idea point walk well ornamented butcher block take favorite carving knife gut feel nothing left tank feels less decision instinct nature calls know intellectual standpoint lead pretty decent life wife kids kids two story suburbia decent career thing ive felt way early age never gone away feel urge gets stronger goes away sometimes returns returns greater degree think part feels overwhelmed responsibilities ive chosen take im helping profession deal people bad shape day come home wife collection problems thought fix seems take two steps back every step forward son going turn four soon autistic bad hes high functioning aspergers side things see much hate really want live reality ive lived even sure im point suppose going anywhere looking responses change much pep talks rarely least long run guess need see im really dealing update last post anyways stuff less fucked school still bad well idk big sad nowhere wan na die need week without friday little break everything back hey im gon na sleep socks whatcha gon na put good luck ima gon na sleep warm feet movie exemplifies certain brand comedy horror strictly adult kind quite different troma movies shares certain qualities humour rough ready fast furious idea hideous dolls evil powers twisted minds make shrug boredom reach sixpack beer enjoy best chucky film yet heatwave uk right mood seems worse almost feel disassociated baseline redflag panic total uncertainty anyone finding heat sun making depressive symptoms worse hot weather symptoms worse big splashy film broadway music nathan frank sinatra loves roll dice organize illegal crap games blonde loving adelaide vivian blaine wants marry gives craps decides one last game sky masterson marlon brando bets big town bets sky cant mission worker sarah brown jean simmons go havana may sound strange plot summary moviebr br real mixed bagtheres wonderful stuff songs good dancing incredible real show stopper crap game end brando really quite good hereit might seem strange think singing dancing pulls admit seeing big bulky brando pulling difficult dance moves lot fun sinatra pretty good blaine wonderful longsuffering girlfriend song dance numbers definite highlights herebr br now bad partsjean simmons wonderful actress stuck drab colorless role cant much movie far long minutesthe scenes brando simmons really drag shortened characters speak precise englishcontractions never used maybe trying amusing coming mouths gangsters found jarring kept throwing moviebr br worth catching songs dances length give questionwhat butcher knife wrist stabbed hard want make age want long even happy life im thinking overdosingive depressed two years now ive baker acted twice im using rather helpline cant afford hospital bills want overdose depokate know kill id assume alcohol im yo male im filled regret getting kicked military dumb ass saying something said cant find job friends nothing going im lost want help want extravagant life want job gf pot numb pain im donethere many crap things going way situation im going stop trying know make people understand want help want messages want lay floor die ive given day even anyone tell itanytime see anyone act normal im fine meanwhile keep tied noose car right length thickness drop exact spot go moment even work drive past almost every day id want run redflag risk questionnaires ask details worked thats big yes every painstaking detail planned t im literally scared point point spot lt minutes said worst part anyone tell friends family therapist doctor etc everyone around goes lives even think might soon theyll probably saying unexpected works years sometimes want peal white skin every thing wont boil white nothing im even tired cant nap nothing need helpi live fantasies head started highschool lifes going downhill old friends distancing im becoming lazy last anxieties catching try immerse games books work anymore whenever breathe feels theres sharp knife throat courage materials commit redflag help movie shows free enterprise system quest almighty buck transcends racial ethnic barriers ultimately market place determines message sent public movie dramatizes point conservative whitecollar advertising company taken group streetwise african americans chaired nononsense black man wants make buck believes sell products telling truth movie shows matter hard tries something different market place political system demands conform rendering different predecessors interesting offbeat movie eventually actually betterbelieve dont believe best try find lonely cool lied anxiety preventing living life want live know speak help want see way cant bare continue life thisive lived severe anxiety whole life im mids feels worse recently even able anything managed stump courage talk gp promptly referred cbt useless believe worsened problems constantly unable things want working dreams aspire going shop buy something want talking im feeling trying meet people opposite sex im attracted struggle things immensely idea someone thinking good bad light makes feel extremely nervous sometimes point tears anything know going bring becomes extremely difficult live life without degree anxiety im convinced vast majority problems disappear instant keep hearing theres help think anxiety help services ive tried use outreaching something anxiety sufferers desperately need managed voice seems im either asking wrong places nobody listening clue help need feel several years things better nothing changing enough recently resolved end life unsurprisingly anxietyfuelled procrastination held back regard able together actually deed much want think im clinically depressed im sick see point living life hamstrung irrational beliefs cant control watch potential live good life wither away bother living years mundanity end now want kill know feeling stopive felt long remember least im now nothing overly wrong life every single day put facade pretend content happy even nobody knows feel come perfectly happy fun around guy every day consider killing myriad ways affected affected affected everything feel facade breaking know going shatter doso ive love girl years balls confess last night talking usual found recently got boyfriend got upset messaged go somehow saw upset asked wrong said nothing wrong said easy read said wasnt asked whether boyfriend lied said nope xd one thing led another asked replied right im bawling eyes shaking im seriously ready end cant ignore spami hate physical appearance family want die tried failedive posted tried od pills times last time used box cutter made mess things got stiches beaten senseless many times middle elementary school tumor five years one believed wonderful girl love th grade years november confessed feelings ive sad every day cry every day feel weight chest love much cant keep living take medication go therapists useless reality many us better fair stuck hellish state people feel good end selfish ones hey girl touch arm tell god touched angel wont girls text back everything goes well first messages conversation dies happens every time feel one interested fucking done youi stash paracetamol house contemplating taking iti know probably fucking painful hell day posting girlfriend teacher tabs open chrome work home ass work nasa tell fucking discord friends basically vining motherfucker said yoo wish worms went censored moan hell man decided mute minutes years addicted scrolling posting social media want take back control want go cold turkey anything want self respect time back day anyone tips cut post days depressed need external validation social media addiction insurance changed vendors got new inhaler different vendor right word idk cant make another yearsim ive always low selfesteem linked looks im fuckugly short span time actually somehow managed date girl somehow managed find attractive thought cured low selfesteem instead temporary reprieve longer together feelings back fullforce honestly want kill every time look mirror every day im still young months ago made pact sorts saying kill years old unless managed complete list created things want achieve die think years fucking long considering every day slow miserable know ill make even die redflag ill simply drop dead sadness instead take anymore begging please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please please kill kramer kramer kramer kramer doneive got method mind im hoping finally go im tired living always love wrong people cant anymore im narcissist beats every little thing unfortunately really really love says hes tired want everyone favor im sick living pain usually thought death scares right im numb actually sounds comfortable id love sleep never worry anything gave first award rcalgaryflames hockey team game day announcement feel special ive never felt shitty lifeduring freshman year university tried kill bullying experiencing thought ive well branched made new friends went therapy started appreciating lot key word thought recently experiences made want try last weekend friend committed redflag feeling depressed long time something none friends knew theres bridge area known redflags jumped one former bullies started telling friends kill deserved die pisses hell bullied one classes done zoom quarter theres group guys class making life literal hell theyre calling retarded cause disability telling sound cancer calling ugly calling faggot cause im bi telling try killing opened redflag attempt telling im useless english major theyre business majors lot things professor really supportive even called email whole class found said things said theyre guys theyre boys perfect definition told struggle mental health went similar things undergrad im lost dont know advice gave ignore even gets worse things love surround people love helping today even told life valuable 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talked judged looked upon want alive anymore well honestly wanted alive three years now ive taking anxiety medicine months asked depression said none asked figured born depressed born weighing two pounds attach machines tubes mom said took pinky finger yanked tube mouth almost dead im supposed always severe many years lying normal tricked believing happy simply function feelings surface brains ability think straight shuts fool carry id say im good really good till now whole life lie know now grandmother drug addict crazy although liked admitting mom crazy uncle died alcohol abuse second cousin killed tired pushed around gay im still living parents kids gives intensive think thats true reason im still parents absolutely devastated id talk boyfriend feelings hed worry freaking storm alot power enough wake another morning guys majorly fucked talking mom asked last thing copied phone didnt know normally links thought id front well messing people discord spamming buy feet pics prepare hand foreskin uwu saw im constantly dying embarrassment whenever im around hey gamerdude please comment poggies tom fontanas unforgettable oz hands one greatest television series created brilliantly written acted directed close perfection art form film television literature music gets haunting extreme brutality creates prison world filled diverse characters range compassionate flat terrifying show matter brutal one take eyes combination professional trained theater actors film television actors allows range diverse original performancesbr br show universally praised hashad loyal fan base one feel underappreciated television run hbo dramas sopranos sex city six feet shows fine borderline masterpieces right many people forget oz hbos first entry onehour television drama series brave risky first entry hbo hit grand slam good gets hour long apple live stream yeah seriously live stream picked washed peeled sliced almost apples yeah fun idk anyone watched average viewership around filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler missed day asking people join cult sorry failed guys massive oversight part come regret horrendously please upset gravely sorry another note join cult lil nas x indian life waste nothing deny itbut tried suicide reincarnation true might end back n indianwhich wantgod leave cycle commit su cide n indian know abuse fucked upeverytime think outrun gets worse point even anything itwhat point really want pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo many people complaining quarantine online school thought everyone lonely sat home day playing games yea help today last dayim years old go private high school means happy thing wrong life emotionally verbally abusive father feel anything sadness pain im medically diagnosed psychopath severe depression nothing live eyes self esteem redeeming qualities nothing good feel happy unless im cutting abusing drugs ive never loved never able love anyone im worthy love ill never loved isnt cry help comfort dont know im posting honest wanted minded people know sympathize live final day earth merry christmas country th december hope jolly christmas think santa doesnt deliver funeral homes careful going alley man girl cute shes cool nice calming comforting voice really listen forever lives across country wish hear voice irl hug ill probably delete post bit doesnt kick ass though lol dispair islands residents void islands group islands located surface almost dead dimension islands likely alive demonstrate lives changing position shape every years island inhabited tribe natives called wave missionaries dc another group humans came islands pillaged began war wave missionaries aggressors missionaries led hato best swordsman islands gifted wave set divine powers aggressors came never specified location led irwin wardlock war ended fall fort hijo hato decided pass powers family mysteriously disappeared leaving note saying ill return listened wave calling pleasant invitation scream pain years later city founded alliance missionaries another batch humans called londinium years later relative hato grica wallace irwin sets find truth behind shady actions duke abraham lucas fate long lost ancestor hato never wanted make postso month ago met girl dreams doesnt prefer physically intimacy kinda wants left alone lot ive alone long nice meet someone felt idk even im worth ive sad ive wanted die last twothree months ive really gotten fixated death mean doubt shed miss long doubt people life truly miss know know kinda dont wan na feel pain seeing one really take pain away dont think wan na feel much anymore drink lot control eh whatever part matters mom f retired moved back childhood home week ago years essentially living alone put much weight career worked hard whole life feels purpose grieving preretirement life depressed cries often try sit letting know retirement major life change take time used anyone experienced know supportivei f single lived alone last almost years moved feel overwhelmed part moving fact closest friend one true love died suicide days ago grieving hard finding hard support need much support advice support depressed recently retired parent believe gone farit used soo good life ended age im suicidal got death plans months believe im already childhood ended feel dead now actually say lot believe gone far sad leave world months reason school harder court summer school half summer etc really wish couldve childhood back school funner easier ill probably make posts death feel nothing much posts months seriously miss past whats death anyways help please hey internet people turning eighteen midnight cant sleep dad expects move tomorrow ive got money cause trying focus college funds stuff feel completely normal still want end alli depressed sad negative things appreciate lifeeverything feel happy sad anxious excited everything nothing wrong one question always pops head point living end game contemplating redflag really dont see point living outrage pretty good movie robert culp good movie perfect part hard believe true story watched thought things right learned lesson picked wrong man anyway see movie tv watch good one getting harder dayis point anymore everyone list random things love learning things abt different ppl heres list love knitting scrapbooking im allergic chocolate im currently working engineering project kms love collecting vinyls im additional one play flute clarinet somee violin currently trying learn piano need help long story idk explain basically friendf made groupchat ig guy ive never spoken dmed started talking first everything seemed normal chill guy asked send thigh pics first thought joking brushed everything went normal stopped texting ghosted days friend added groupchat said block apperantly threatning friend share thigh pics didnt send nudes u might wondering got thight pics well didnt send pic outfit showed thights friend blocked guy reported today sister walkes says random dude texting hes claming friend send nudes lie hes texting ppl idk elses hes going friend really worried blocked acs made sister friend post thayr storys block guy idk abt im asking help ps sry spelling im trying fast possible doesnt anything worse small backstory used counselor suicide hotline hated job felt truly help anyone unfortunately going depression thought better leave job tried using hotline online honestly really sucked felt empty solve anything swore never use againampxbi extremely depressed suicidal lately due fact little social interactions others social redflag hard talk others overthink everything trying say wrong things mainly scared talk othersfor fear saying wrong things judgement etc seen therapist due scheduling able til end month today felt wait long talking new person redflaging talk annoying message something made upset turned mess thought messed friendship little amount friends fear losing nothing understand overreact looking back now hard ampxbi called local suicide hotline one talk worse decision called line told feeling upset suicidal told feeling sad know properly socialize making redflag depression stronger told know talk people right talking okay sure asked friends talk said many friends two feel comfortable talking said friends said know talk others said talk people talk okay fuck dude quickly ends call saying talk people okay try ask make therapy appointment earlier even mins legit told suicidal active thoughts support got made feel even worse proved really talk properly others full conversation ended bad panic attack mins ampxbtldr sad told suicide hotline lady feeling suicidal reason bad social redflag hard coversate others deveop meaningful notredflag told talk people easy bye crisis hotline useless wasis incredible movie incredible cast music singing story etc tragedy arrogant families gerswhins premingers keep available generation generation wanted see life found site read available shame families pettiness wife germany never seen movie neither stepchildren grandchildren sad movie depth quality available see families making conceited selfimportant egotistical condescending decision prohibit generations enjoying film stars performances music release video let world judge enjoy mixed emotionsover course last weeks life living hell dont job applied cant call back ive call usually give run around one job gave three interviews say wasnt qualified enough end cell phone broke took said pay fix signal antenna stopped working worth much wont send new phone week use back phone crashes every five minutes cant make calls try answer phone calls times drops car wont pass smog cause need driven plates expired pay first bucks day name father car broke ac needs live desert uses car drive uberlyft want help cant makes feel worse honestly think shit keeps piling plate nothing go right fight things go wrong ive thinking ending soon cant seem bring advice um well kinda wan na die ngl yeah title says sounds silly wish birdbox monster realspoilers least stop thinking work keep others expect stop disappointing husband take care instead weird watch movie feel jealous something morbid yeah anyone related kindve situation see lot people wishing murdered reason basicallythe courage disappoint people gone im sorryi want kill literally zero hope graduated high school much anxiety im sad enroll collegealso money sad good student high school community college two days dropped felt killing dropped told going job save help family one hire experience ive applying two months cant help family pay bills everyday talk jobs family poor literally gotten new clothes last august nothing fits anymore drove away friends im sad want bring cant even afford help want try overdose ive tried three times never worked threw shaky couple days matter many pills took one time walking home school everyone forgot pick one answering going jump front train one old friends saw street waiting gave ride home nowhere hang noose listen miserable cry every single day top shitty mom hope brain tunnel vision option redflag nothing friends still always things require money hang house always want go stuff requires paying cant give know im young life ahead im poor college one fucking hire nothing want kill think im going drown lake something know swim want anythng public inconsiderate dont many choices jus venting please feel free downvote im holiday induced insomnia looking someone talk toi doubt work worth shoti first looked rinsomnia look find anyone said downvote want im using subreddit anyone bored chat ill even offer topics went church today first time ten years found kinds weird belief im logical fall love dismiss love highschool earlier kid love fake love stupid know real love sometimes think love ive known quite possible know maybe real love im currently graduate school health profession constantly makes think death im trying pick something might interesting good people subreddit suggestions please feel free talk anything may mind downvote thanks reading anyways feel numbingi born due father making work ask born give consent put earth want put middle personal problems live years try yes ive asked little never ask life basically trap set selfish adults tradition happened life really great moments always end asking always one psychotic breakdowns call im alltime low cant even think personality kinda absorbed everyone put spin miles tv game friends got questions tv want watch much thought dont even know forcing cant take dont want almost everything exeption maybe things true spot legos use imagine books tv game food bikes tv dont know anything im quetioning existense sanity know anything im nobody takes everybody wanted tall miles hairstyle shoes jacket everything games life plagiarism know cope talking helping wake tomorrow knowing stuff got im even mad thought want think talk know probably saying know anything better entire life lie person manifestation everything ive seen around every time things bad lose sight another person thing take lose im even mad want stop top everything enough going already cant escape age weapon used toy rights emotions privileges im ill days im trying wait give see gets better know dosent im done one films whatever reason clicked everything right eric roberts laconic nice investigator voiceover narration twisting plot dan hedaya denis lipscomb given good roles settings paintings artist studio scenes end credit sequence wonderfully haunting theme music perfectly encapsulates mood whole film reservations beverly dangelo femme fatale plays final scenes beautifully think director matthew chapman trying sort chinatown feel whole thing didnt work murdermystery gem hey lookin fellow xbox nerds needing friends game im btw yes ik lowest level teen help pleasei need someone talk another failed attempt another week ot suffering hell selfish god made button die whenever want kill useless person damn love thin man series love movie powells character vance similar character nick charles even dogs br br chemistry powell astor may fabulous powell loy half bad poting post rcasualconverstion got wan na cut wrists english nd language words may spelled wrongim currently bed typing parents never come room lately sience school started ive seeing frends school wich brings bit joy gives lot anxaeaty say wrong word anywhere wich makes wan na curl ball die dont think depression may dont think thing takes mind pain wheter ist poking pen point penetrate skin biting hand point blood starts coming sence im teenager parents putting lot pressure tasks chores school mom even making fun pandemic friends scholl back cant hang anyone im always buisy stepdad instead explaining tasks gives lectures bad everything gives anxaety im constantly paranoid evrything want eberything stop read instead cutting wrists draw didnt help wan na cut hands let blood bleed anyone reddit please sugestions please theres cockroach room bruh know lurking somewhere felt something bite lifted blanket cockroach quick didnt kill mf fat one fuck answeri want someone know ive depressed years ive lost friends reason never anyone now im thinking tomorrow somehow someway want dont want questions nagging long till someone finds many people sad heard funeral one left justifying keeps night answer think will strangers internet seemed viable option letting someone know exist little longer wan na kill badi feel worthless everyone abandoned everyone try meet doesnt care hate everyone hates fuckin keep going try better drives farther cliff sure whats going happeni drank half bottle tequila downed whole bottle nyquil last night whole body numb head feels constantly spinning really thinking killing found cause liver failure long go hospital nothing filled much redflag thinking going planning pls help redflag imagine time mike wazawski sullivan face gets old try showing kids meme dont understand old people ways movie ive seen prince matter thought great singing boy wrong probably best performance music great thats oscar best music movie something oscar grammies belt although cursing gets way film make sure little kids room much say without revealing plot really go movie collection complete unless got movie possibly say except go movie now girlfriend addicted headpats done im headpats dispensary girl told likes talking girl met rly special person days time told special person helped depression said well kinda happy ngl thought id stayed life alone need help mother father really homophobic bisexaul need advice come helpi know friend one asking flash talking killing tried minutes ago messaged saying work try later ive treated call police listen decisionsi want write life story wont may recognized ill annoyingly vague little money looked various methods redflag seems need acquire gun none methods possible certain enough paying gun put awkward position buy use likely literally homeless streets shortly afterward buy use commit course action prefer make final decision without pressure think reasons ending life worth arguing alone unwanted unloved far longer people reading alive problem amenable solution loved cant prove far beyond obvious years care even discuss may seem unsatisfied relationships simply none relevant person emotionally never even child know wish person longer anyone need die decide soon whether make purchase want clear commit think nearly years evidence sufficient defective garbage one says words say kind decent people unwittingly say show every day ive miserable long enough time best way commit redflag guns rope knives wan na hit car badi wan na die dont wan na kill hurt loved ones much dont deserve wan na die quick painless dont want anyone feel guilty cant accidentally fall building something dont fucking know whats way kill without hurting anyone feel asshole friends startung play dnd recently sessions first one dont remeber happened end second one ended needed something today playing got suggested take break dinner rejoin half later said end session feel asshole becuase dont want think im enjoying trying quit im actually really enjoying documentary one best documentaries ive seen one moving quietly beautiful movies ive seen period follows lives two sudanese young men peter santino try make way american culture peter santino friends first gradually drift apart peter goes kansas city santino stays houston land called houston santinos beauty eyes takes people onto back supports apartment full sudanese paying rent everything people quiet sufferer peter looks getting high school education playing basketball making christian friends seems director megan mylan know getting beauty tale peter santino amazing characters move real strength movie lies commentary american society judging shows strengths weaknesses world difficult outside people suggest find film look america lives two fascinating beautiful peoplebr br grade know ok im going make sort short im typing lunch break ive girl almost years issues recently caught cheating claims guy made feel better self provided attention longer giving even try fix anything talk dropped week sexual cravings going crazy knew easy call pretend put things back together well know got wanted still stand done family went though stupid even still want mess someone cheated brother told needed things let go want anything let go let go second time kind got point used sex went spite fucked friend mine weeks breaking brother gave ultimatum started really missing really wanted life back actually love told self move forward took back second time knew done things single happy said move happy familyoh yea daughter fathering first day back brother stormed house lives next door ask wtf back dumb bitch believes user manipulator told loved going move past everything happy removed life completely delima kind small back ground brother closest relative took back hates wants nothing constantly talks trash decision feel mistakes made live reality decent life style living dad seeing much everything sucked without words mouth felt without herempty alone constantly wanting cant stop thinking friend hooked think sometimes times times day love much brings much pain ive lost family girl care much fucked friend mine ive contemplated sucide cant think better way situation cant without hurts always wan na redflagam one sad wan na kill self end cutting arm lightly rational redflagi recently read mitchell heismans redflag work made ponder continue living essence heisman argues life meaningless selfpreservation equals selfdestruction redflag reasonable choice biases overcame arguments compelling enough commit redflag every time ive chance end always regret lateri wish redflag easier commit wan na die fucking bad wish die accident murder something suicidal people want liveotherwise occasionally number killer sure thats problem thingy go three world real word internet world imagination world people spend time internet world real world feel problem time imagination world point go around circles room hours straight pay attention anything current world im sure thats worrying depression bad point create alternative world escape youwould anybody really care shoot bullet brain shotgun watching way another act laugh everyone least funny feel deserve live way truly feel one care week anyway got work money theyll watching paid feel fucking tv show bullshit longer one really gives shit wan na dieim seriously contemplating killing right now friends dont know cause keeping happy smile front anyone honestly tired told depressed brush nothing one person trust physically hurt made depressed posting everyday girlfriend day im spain without s nothing dont want live dont want die im happy im sad pain sadi dont anything sad im straight student wonderful mom dad little sister yet night battle want end want someone tell yet time dont want tell times battle night time tonight far worst wonder ill make see morning hgsdjasoihatelifegdbhsjjnhdgskjlkvfdhkj hi commit alivent unless reddit coins maybe award something lol jk hahaha im funny arent wrote little story short man muscular physique smiles lifts rippled arms air lets great victorious bellow woooo yeah baby thats ive waiting thats cheers success mighty canine tetra loyally trots side enthusiastically celebrate accomplishment finally getting see unicorn relieve end last year attempted switch jobs let go new position due ex gf making false statement online moved away girlfriend find work afford pay debt sold everything make ends meet handed s resumes lot experience certificates trades engineering think ex said previously preventing screening recently relocated girlfriend found employment car mirror vandalized insurer covering repair seems drive work dealt depression redflag suicide never bad pay bailiff repossess car even drive selling things love cameras guitars truly lost everything fearful losing partner love much hard even think sure income redflag even job enough cover costsi never thought id low sure universe trying tell clean sober smoke treat every person meet respect always help hate seeing girlfriend cry sure point human young man feel defeated handle anymore staffing companies interviews lead nowhere pay next nothing applicants seems break last option move home mothers factors make less desirable partner really know left went house cars everything last thing scared lose love much think done want apologisei told someone sub yesterday better words hurt sincerely apologise im sorry deluding well hope forgive posting daily gf day done many different things posts never given universal truth school boring even know anymore expect post supposed answer girl says likes fr sure isnt joking around pranking please jokes oppsiebeen hospital um hours im suicidal rescreening later morning see theyre gon na admit psych ward um want go home bad j brat wasted hospitals time grandmas hissy fit living boyfriend damnshit know idiot explain im fine need go home psychiatrist rant whoever hate cant learn cant everyone everything horrible hate world live hate hating friends dont talk keep things pretend happy killing inside keep failing every subject ones keep telling cares cant speak french dont france everyone judges horrible nobody understands anyone loves fuck happy mens day happy boys day right bois hehe wrong everything world idiot damn big brain time fucking overachievers sigh want pregnancy kill without regretim sick everything gross fucking room temper tantrums toddler throws mice think place roomies dishes trash everywhere pain pregnant despite birth control scraping keep bills stay thousands dollars debt apply jobs behalf fucking doctors blatantly making difficult sterilized give birth second time im still young may change mind constantly judged mom sometimes scream cant take maybe shit mom becauae even toddler yanks hair hits toys put away shortened nap think much want die try desperately cry around cant hold know seeing way damaging way fault shitty mom hes old enough understand sees wreck mess thing really keeping together right fact pretty fucked kill leave toddler alone hours till dad gets home weeks baby sibling born maybe moms kids live enough honestly hurts choices options even death revolve entirely around whats best kids im trapped lost angry dont want feel way cant stop wanted better foot forward wanted stronger happier mother wife dont spine feel im crushed alive one nothing help im tired want go sleep never wake want done cant anymorethese feelings keep getting killing become prevalent every single day past month two mum dating man knew years ago former work colleague passed away dad hes violent thug criminal appears court job isnt idea anything hes failure man know sees hes coming home living time paying fk eating food buy complete twat setting new rules nothing fucking id rather fuck yesterday joined gym lose weight cant without someone mum take cant go cunt always infuriates tall yall im ish wont getting taller sadly month partner years left birthday bags packed said leaving closure still even know happened physically emotionally abusive never told anyone account emasculating feels know tell people female partner punches home arguments begged go therapy years started covid worked hard become better person mentally healthy hated version waste life s reason live took friends anyone anymore drove cross country family try sort quickly reminded spend much time family made mental health worse happier alone dog car go anything stopped taking medication drinking heavily done year really took last ativan today thing keeping going deep end doubt psychiatrist prescribe seems end think people suicide lifes purpose feel finally becoming content even talk openly therapist psychiatrist fear committed know self know lie drive killing understand people thought loved want hurt badly guess bad karma done something deserve feel nature telling time die expect one respond even read one cry help cant handle anymorei think redflag option add meaning life really hobbies besided playing games fufilling ive tried making music art completely horrible know everyone needs practice want little talented something donkt discouraged ideas seems really bittersweet getting better last year lot sad things still happen daft punk man im gon na miss quick question girls yall enjoy eaten want hang scared livingim worried ill end surviving ending serious brain damage sure im trying achieve posting guys give advice successfully xd whats annoying nagging thing stops every timeive teetering suicidal whole life im currently first time attempted failed horribly times around point wouldve done couldve found means big thing terrified physical pain im less terrified physical pain itd lot easier something seems stop every time last year horrible moved back home town deal abusive father first time years moved house fell drugs control now car stolen gotten pregnant amp abortion got fired recently shitty experiences people thought close friends robbed overall dangerous situations year live life extreme depression extreme anxietyparanoia lately holds back baby sister around weve actually started talking little parents kind nightmare deal know im sane person life love crazy worry repercussions death b ex boyfriend angel cares deeply devastated gone really try hes extremely busy live different states top longer romantic feelings mainly bullshit claims hes going internal process give time theyll likely come back know hes saying keep hurting regardless lack romantic feelings hes really attached hurts cling hope yaknow love hope kind keeps going anywhere shit even lying cant cope guilt died im exhausted though honestly truly energy life want want die lot bullshit last year put bad situations im trying move away depression consistent regardless kind situation throughout life im pretty sure sort mental illness never health insurance means seeing therapist anything biological mom mental asylum years family says schizophrenia suspect borderline im starting worry hereditary ive getting crazy levels paranoia lately thinkin feds amp shit lifestyle choices shit something wrong keep fucking friendships ruining reputation etc last boss told reason firing literally vibe thats kind stuff really makes think something seriously wrong know bottom heart im least malicious person know guess im place needed vent think closest friends know im suicidal tbh theyre kind tired hearing nobody life wants deal negativity really feel inadequate survival difficult real support system financially emotionally opportunities hope screw uphi everybody used lurk lot subreddit feel need say goodbye im still depressed know still time always im changing environment im trying browse positive stuff maybe manage friends summer fix problems dont least im putting effort know people going bad times im praying although probably helpi hope everything better everyone im tired suffering seeing people suffer goodbye rredflagwatch please give pretty surprised flick even though budjet obviously lacking still impressed movie took years make still turned good acting pretty impressive story really captivated complaint ending really little abrupt taste hey audience left wanting movie succeededbr br really recommend anyone hollywood look antonella ros excellent spanish talent something hard find days bad novela acting antonella ros truly star rise sensitive well im probably call indoors kid never involved sports resulted basically sucking kinds sports ive made fun quite lot making feeling insecure wanting try due afraid getting laughed ive trying improve physically past years although routinely jogging sometimes home aerobic exercises likes well today one best friends asked wanted go play badminton families friends well one crush oof im awkward guy around people im familiar obviously suck badminton catch much said something along lines well really matter go honest kinda hurt said kinda jokingly fashion still cant help thinking ive wanting find friend willing slowly help improving physically someone give fuck suck sports basically someone willing accompany help course laugh im already trying best information went friends circle play badminton probably counts taking first step improving maybe made fun previously due sucking physical activities cant seem take commentremark heart guys think im white supremacist white skin kinda perfect filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler need normalize legalize redflag personal assistedthis world diseased dying everyone place immoral capitalist system everyone purpose everyone born right im autistic social interaction makes panic ive never held job longer year unable able onto disability see point continuing life way human right allow people end lives terms brought world will unfair deny everyone right feel tw tried kill earlier month almost succeeded stopped bleeding hours one noticed dont know feel feel died used opportunity think feel remorse dont feel nothing live forim almost college student graduate end schoolyear almost one live miles away family support group pretty good group friends months transferred school theyve completely abandoned know incredibly suicidal care brush give worthless platitudes want feel wanted somebody one makes feel wanted im school club actually prominent member know killed id missed duties personal presence seem close im never let group nothing big party im invited ive gone counseling therapy even antidepressants nothing gets better matter let shyness take stay im miserable overcome shyness try connect someone im eventually abandoned feel miserable sad thing probably best ill college much monetary burden yet anyway surrounded people age graduate know itll go shit degree european history equal job family struggling killed months ago want dead tie preventing taking life family feel cant last forever want want content matter cant schmerzen ohne endeich kann das nicht mehr wie soll ich stunden tag diese qualvollen nervenschmerzen ertragen ich kmpfe nur noch fr meine mutter ich hatte einen qualvollen geburtstag und jetzt qualvolle weihnachten ich habe tausende euros fr rzte ausgegeben habe aber nie eine sinnvolle diagnose erhalten mein leben dreht sich nur noch um diese unertrglichen kopfschmerzen wie soll ich weitermachen play music discord vcs server want know bible true god says god real bible says checkmate atheists please tell doi want pass dont courage want hurt others want die without causing commotion dont know subreddit bipolar say sometimes allows photos selfies shit sometimes doesnt subreddit bipolar teenagers anyway make fucking mind feel though way pain understood people want understand kill myselfi long understood think hurting person want love best cant stop sorry pitiful seems asking attention want belittle community posts dry cant even pretend funny anymore learning online far many us begun school thought ask hows life distance learning adjusted setting okay opinion done lifei extremely rare condition means completely normal yet unable smile curse particularly cruel one carry mom took drugs pregnant struggled working hour shifts days week going dad one point gf lost baby born current gf driving pit dispair feel point never actually known happy happy hurt moment ive burned stabbed cut spit stamped hurt every way imagine kept going every day till point feel longer go enough enough calling day earth right option godammit matter won forget theyre racists filler filler filler filler filler pointless depressed now struggled tons mental health issues sex addiction body dysmorphiai understand offed yet guess holding hope somehow turned manipulative piece shit taken advantage people mental health struggles people evil sniff shit right away anything make feel safe moment abuse shit end refuse let taken advantage see point fixing anything tired try right living shitty room share situation strange people worse super dependent mother sick job paid enough go back school sept depressed anything right imagine starting school againi want someone genuine life tired dealing shitty people moral integrity people fucking horrible anything help want live anymore everything fine want kill myselflife great one year ago attempted redflag im therapy need pills anymore good grades great boyfriend sweet supportive friends even tho strick sometimes cruel step father life bad oh happy want kill want feel time scheduled im waiting guts long ranti hate im back five years road still think thoughts andfeel emotions im starting think im mentally ill cant bring tell mom tough age cant evaluation confidentiality dont want trouble one gave birth struggles raise everyday im shitty enough already dont want shouldering shit lately going school tough waking difficult sometimes little less difficult maybe even manageable ive noticed hard drag bed simply see purpose nothing one reason school hard overwhelming presence everyone around smarter better makes feel small insignificant point im proud made day school entire week even fucking hard kept thinking killing ending right right already feel distancing everyone acting different im dead much want instead im sat mountain work piling expectations commitments responsibilities essay due one hand holds pen redflag note ive planned im sick cant shoulder alone cant turn anyone one seems want listen god im getting bad fast hope die cant even turn family people supposed situations reality one roof felt happiness home drains life want happy family cant support love one another families mom dad want happy feel im lost confused right im thinking abt taking final leap im scared anymore ive felt ive thought happen end honestly willi cant bear im fucking tired school pain ass one family cares equally suffering thanks dad ure shitty person wan na die happeninghi first greetings every human im going die tonight im couple minutes away local train station im going walk tracks im halfway stations im going kneel tracks see next train coming im posting shred sadness leaving world love seen better believe im ending gets worse will think amazing people theres thing afterlife try best protect help im ready go wish said goodbyes ill say goodbye guys though ill truly miss question prom happens prom really need partner im still th grade insanely idea whats heard one im th th grade party im planning bringing gaming set play time mc mental preformed inauguration change mind im wrong anyone see people dying young overdoses accidents thinkdami wish envy dead todaysomedayi want die anything world want cease exist stop feeling shame selfloathing brought point countless times years cant epiphany opens eyes new sense purpose im much coward something sit day day crying waiting day finally find courage need overcome last obstacle standing peacemyself fuck lifesome people meant live others meant die matter good person matter everyday pain hurt face many deal worth wish deal anymore worst part joke time almost joke day normal laugh weird evil laugh everyone bombing site looks weird well progress theres girl ive interested long time weve talking almost every night lately days talk cause drama thats now ive chilled lot im really worrying much thinks well weve snapping well snapchat anyway usually sends one pic response say send pic back tonight though sending two pics basically double texting mean interested progress least challenge accepted today friends walking one friends lets see followers instagram predicted won one lets check followers girls tell guys one instagram seen face everyone see friends post art boi sail hehim people following know guess won somehow followers girls dont many followers either girls jealous friend bet cant talk girl talked weeks rejected cant even talk normally day become friends dont want date anyone yet talk weeks talk girl weeks btw girl one hottest girls school life dont know say im christian believe god always think meaning need good person god doesnt exist means thats everything life doesnt matter im disposable understand atheists always doubt existence god maybe lot good things life doesnt matter maybe something wrong going hell maybe doesnt exist die everything finish im really scared im scared good person heaven exists want go good things everything doesnt matter everything im going doesnt matter nothing matter try study lot try someone want happy head always thing nothing matters die purpose im really scared dont know want someone important time want affect peoples life dont know atheist better think purpose think im bad person people around says im great person dont know believe dont know want happy life cuz die nothing want good person dont enjoy things place heaven dont know said lot tines im scared love bread everything much bread possible love bread whole life life dedicated eating bread love im eating bread every day always delicious bread made life worth living think bread help support even beats nasty raw almost twenty years old show still laughed much watching last night shows eddie murphy dressed tight red clothesold schooland jokes everything celebertis family years old mustseebr br need talk someone ill talk first person dm younger use think eating ice cream waffle cone way eat one mistake made past still regret regret past mistakes depression panic attacks derealisation episodes quite time sucks ssri afford rn fluoxetine working heard good things sertraline parents retrenched way afford long term advice afford treatment currently university really hellish live day day ssris expensive wish dieyesterday nearly drowned beach friend saved went home reflections died yesterday feel nothing even regrets longer feel regrets conscience gone forever minutes theres pain lungs filled salt water burns pain last memory pain things unresolved die never feel future brain never feel regret simply dead never done anything worthwhile dead dead feel emotional pain death bad likes back boys thats thats post poggers chat savedi full rage suicidal new eminem album given new courage enthusiasm fuck everyone im goat hi im looking someone met among us bil cipher im looking drcactus dark green skin cowboy hat watched gravity falls really wan na play rounds leave please come im doneim done everything im tired living earlier thinking oh said goodbye uncle family wouldnt care talked brother told everything hate supportive talked crying love much best brother little help crying parents yelling every step way probably wouldnt hadnt talked understand day age people still need beg helpi suffer serious depression redflag well several physical illnesses reached local services last years help reached point suicide attempts last month guess still nothing turn find sad nhs praised good job really happening across whole nhs board suicide rates hitting time highs lockdown major impact figures understand praise nhs saving many lives one way ignore lives losing others mental health joke cry help loud want doesnt work ones listeningi want hurt badly communicate pain one listening want slash open every blood vessel cover every inch house blood want scream vomit want break every one bones hammer smash teeth one see besides paramedics one want care care need someone see pain care want take shotgun side head obliterate brain stop pain suffering depression redflag heartbreak trauma haunts constantly tired life energy fight things anymore living hell want blow brains alone dark think took much music indicator sadness usually music one answering think oh imma sleep good night everybody good noon morning everybody relationships everything id u care getting gf bf ur life must suck enjoy little things fun focus im trying make poll cause put answer comments whats favorite megalovania bonetrousle undertale ost battle true hero death glamour oh mylanta smarter intake therapisti made phone calls reach help mental illness addiction im ssissdi candidate im going thru pure hell middle age people age work force fault cos want us want lovely tech savvy job switching roommate loving millennials middle age people need work seen medical liabilities legal liabilities know much everyone marries children earn strong incomes live outgrew roommates long time ago desire boundaries respect appreciation worked hard free sliding scale places im accustomed quality posted calling s hotline intern still training using testimony build college papers newly graduated recently certified one experience life setback never homeless never lost job experience middle age health issues nicely decorated office business card title family photos desk relaxed demeanor explain circumstances pause go script mode scripting calming bc close might catch circumstances contagious pristine mind new clinicians intake people talk hyper fast listen understand listen respond sometimes ill say something innocuous see theyre paying attention tracking insurance says oh month aca said thats premium add copay amp deductible take annual deductible divide mos thats monthly premium month cant take job til find one looking thought managers make choice applicant long min wage hr last housing utilities healthcare absorbs check know insurance cover claims many people filing bankruptcy us medical bills pay due insurance cos denying claims include medications needs gym calm nerves due insanity govt economy leave homeless part til end bc know thats big stigma plague something must wrong himher heshe college well spoken addictions obvious impairments car home oh himher work us cant offer free sliding scale counseling funds come county local donators cant place himher target group file reimbursement pass buck sorry know tell give resource s try weve heard find root cause theyre trained treat obvious symptom root cause root causes working way earn income maintain dignity pay adult bills housing healthcare kicks facing reality tuning platitudes well wishes actions speak louder one cares one cares empty invisible hard earned accomplishment devalued ignored recognize theyd something dehumanizing easier sanitizes conscience creates job barrier keep moving im useless im highly disappointed feel frustrated give upim useless even easy things driving point life realize ill never happy im done give everything im scared keep trying im tired crying time im lot pain right now sadly cant even end life im coward supposed figure theyre okayive tried speaking people feeling suicidal support etc several still decided go anyways guess figure occured try fail change mind ghost succeed want know reason care hope every single one change mind recover end day control anybody anyway finding alright tried im readyi packed car chemicals bucket hydrogen sulfide poisoning kms tmr cant wait problems friends struggling suicidal thoughtsposting behalf friend friction within group friends particularly two members ill refer b sake semianonymity making little easier write b close friend practically older brother boyfriend almost five years now theyre near dear heart ive trying mediate whenever problems arise things escalated point longer capable leave situation truly fear things continue worsen want either suffer hoping input unbiased third party exactly done give background main parties involved b part social circle coming year now less one person none us think differently im sure difference length times weve known exacerbating problems joined us invitation right heels leaving latest abusive friend group string hes usual terrible cocktail depression anxiety top abuse along autistic recently come trans somewhere spectrum trans survivor pretty severe abuse struggles anger issues top depression anxiety b therapist tried getting medication tried seek means fulfilling needs attempting seek therapy recently started medication problems dealing start find pressing matter b fairly frequently stressed suicidal deals seeking reassurance friends hes much extrovert needs regular interactions multiple people hes close order recharge top due anxiety past abuse hard time remembering people care hes middle breakdown needs reassured explicitly still cared hes badly frequently stressed suicidal along extreme end introverted deals feelings come avoiding stressful situations course friend saying want die pretty stressful situation particularly abusive ex used weaponize selfharm redflag threats fully believe trust b intentions manipulative merely expressing feelings try help rather keep bottled trauma necessarily see difference able discuss matters much b home life stressful enough quite time energy handling external negativity heavy conversation hes expressed feels everything tries help winds making things worse good enough b hes everything wrong eyes hes begun defaulting silence rather forcing deal situations know handle energy try course unfortunately directly conflicts bs need people talk reassure hes breaking leaves b feeling actually care compounding recently everyone vastly busy school work stuff past much talking going group chats used result save b one recent member know well cant speak habits group much used communications exclusively public channels simply contact oneonone sort regular basis friendships work b needs interaction specifically directed interaction fact im one recently taking time personally message check taking great toll think entirely reasonable b ask rest group make effort reach rather contact first every single time think much ask people accommodate small change interactions avoid hurting someone care seems single message caring daily fairly simple integrate schedules go long way towards helping b b said multiple occasions recently worn think anything talk besides bad hes feeling personal experience ive heard others someone messages generally wants talk think wrong people worried initiating conversation believe going go territory uncomfortable simply spoons handle even still think fair solution seems simply talking b previously mentioned struggles anger issues led snapping b handful times one particularly bad incident recently ended blocking b platforms share made postsspoke people venting situation posts b later saw reconciled days later b still feeling hurt incident feel sufficiently addressed made addition times b snapped another friend struggles similar anger issues left feeling hesitant speak even talk group setting theyre around exacerbates care issue seems led vicious cycle withdraws feel trusted hurts b feels care needs explicit reassurance keep hurt feels less trusted hurt cycle continues thought time work everything relevant situation write bs moved actively suicidal whole reason im writing im worn enough think im able help much longer want see die failures hope ive provided enough background already helpful tldr one friend needs frequent reassurance attention frequent breakdowns another friend cares first deal kind stress theyre hurting badly happy christmas hannuka funky monkey friday everyone whatever celebrating hope everything great well know year pretty hard live us gon na go forget simp corpse nice weekend lt quero morrertentei suicdio esta quarta tomei umas quatro ou cinco caixas de medicao minhas pernas continuam fracas mas tremedeira excessiva e cansao acabaram quero morrer ainda almocei sushi um amigo e caminhei parque uma exprofessora quero morrer fui numa confeitaria dita exprofessora ela disse sobre dar dez anos e tentar suicdio de novo quero morrer meu crebro parece que est sendo modo de tanta dor que eu sinto eu quero morrer eu acho que talvez mate de vez aguento mais perdi uma amiga amada perdi minha indianinha e agora sinto arrasado quero morrer vida continua mesmo somente natural que eu continue querendo morrendo im afraid dont know anymorei dont know anymore dont know dont care care much dont know im hurting much dont know ease pain without giving others im afraid im fucking afraid im afraid ill always feel way never gets better truth told life couldnt much better great friends family job love pays well awesome flat therapist hobbies interests got im afraid one day dont strength carry anymore one day lose battle win everyday fight next lose im afraid let people fear hurt eventually im afraid mother brother sister friends im afraid day today ask happened nothing good bad day thats scary thing reason trigger problem fix nothing happened starts one month make another year much considering killing go back things want die tho school situationfor years ive struggling suicidal thoughs cant kill know live enjoy life time every year dip want anything sleep hours time still im tired cry nothing lose friends want dissapear know want kill makes things worse know dip im now going onfor months know want selfdiagnose anything im scared go doctor im hopeless got boyfriend wonderfull tries support hes losing patience want bother problems guys please anyone know feel better ive tried talk friends backed away ive got noone left noone understands need psychological help ive never much pain life everything seems miserable keep messing everything im bitch time moodyness notice ive done social dammage cant im want sleep never wake tldr feel miserable time need help cant kill cant stay emotional pain time hello friend streaming commissions please check hes pretty good last daycan someone text kik citygirl name sierra need friend wonders killed wonderedpeople tell theyll distraught disbelief upset take life theyre many times wonder right thing sure people upset taking away everything make everyone much happier make lives easier feel anyway mess things ruin peoples day hate thinking maybe everything better without around think people end hurting hurt someone deeply loved respected friend know want write somethingi need write something guess add anxiety bipolar disorder im poor help medication moment im working hours week living really shitty apartment days feel amazing motivated actually wanting things low days im im thinking getting second job problem feeling make low periods even worse ive suicidal ideation years now thats really noticed depression kicking ive one redflag attempt took gamble took mg xanax shots whiskey sure enough kill left chance research now think mg xanax nothing wrote journal document whatever feeling hours woke found written lot remembered took sign supposed really entertained idea lived feel im supposed skills im unmotivated thing want life sit listen music famous making music know possible much want believe talent anything ive thinking focusing going back school position medical field know im smart enough seems two things want life unobtainable im good making maintaining relationships made friend years friends high school theyre aspirations succeed wasting away want want anything less someone great know want live someone average dreams seem impossible achieve im gay hate wish woman im constantly struggle identity every day days feel content days love days hate im fucking tired consistent view things im flighty cant commit anything feel ill never anywhere life ill live life deadend job depresses dont cant live forever im almost set im successful road success im going kill feel want live time im tired trying things disappointed im tired wish someone greater feel deserve diehi going little long senior college currently good school time systematically done everything wrong take right classes meet right people feel lost insignificant major never acted put work shit see getting job moving life see failure friends person texts mom pretty sure one cares feel given much life done nothing redflag good way absolve guilt fucking hate nword rword im neither black mentally ill im white brazilian though signs autism depression adjustment disorder borderline disorder etc ive never time money diagnosis got ta assume im neurotypical even right use rword hate nword rwordeven black mentally person uses believe reclaiming bullshit seems roundabout way encourage discrimination heard one celebrity say black people rough worse jobs treated shitso please let one word uhfair enough guess still anyone using word selfish thing anyone dothats stepmother said redflag nice dinner table conversation nice family gathering celebrating one nameday two birthdays one anyone crisis think theyd live pretend whole time im normal way involved affected topic haha idea whole time many people even know im seeing psychologist stuff one stepbrothers seeing psychiatrist theyre judgemental hes valid idea say things especially context thoughts agrees might times even help others selfish thing world give oppurtunity fuck one stepbrother one family member attempt started set rights meanwhile busy coward trying show hurt trying cry poker face dad sitting beside lay shoulder long time staying silent eventually asked jokingly falling asleep better situation needed contact anyway psychologist knows know long ill seeing well anyone internet cares know joke friends know might harmful laugh wed cry god sorry rant im tired pretending bad grade going kill myselfif probably will dont college dont much live even one f change things maybe people feel random rental video store impressed start wooden camera gem nd feature engaging director film captures deeply insightful moments several often times frustrating complicated social interactions young interracial friends experience modern post apartheid south africa young actors quite good well directed approach core material dialogue natural interesting film rich visuals providing frame frame study deeper understanding fulfillment without falling iconic stereotypes clichs musical score film adds body film without obtrusive watching second time tracked dvd amazon happy inconsequential ramblingsive hard times long time ago ive come understand troubles life result shit went years ago now directly comes time everybodys life realize responsible choices certainly held accountable happened people change life change without cutting ties massive effort people really capable maybe included idk im trying though im back school im stumbling across bull shit problems last time around years ago seclusion hard time life go away quickly really fucks every day faced dread peers never experienced never will prolonged exposure sort shit changes person literally changes synapses change different neural pathways become ingrained trenches ruts become almost impossible climb brain fucks cope add isolation concoction result one trainwreck personality ie dad died suddenly without warning mom confessed suicidal thoughts still boy fucked man gone forever happy family gone forever gone god damn instant little left almost wondered even existed first place holding onto memories grabbing smoke shit continued years later widow cant afford house anymore lose fucking home place grew gone likely forever im holding place heart someday successful enough buy back despite sincere fucking efforts school feel acting vain much thoughts run depraved desperate demeanor alienate alone crowd going motions smiling polite happy normal thin veneer nobody understands see one empty platitude im actually going kill myselfit pisses much seeing shit gets better redflag permanent solution temporary problem fuck know going better problems temporary people assume people suicidal irrational something idk better us swag gim swag took things worsethings worse sometimes confused seems things starting better confusion caused fact things actually getting worse things worse effort put faith hard work taking risks putting oneself ruin almost positive life implode horrible fast makes sense things never stay course lieu positive growth decay want die feel person held gun point begging life one take nothing embarrassment shame frustration failure humiliation dread pain schadenfreude expense nothing right nothing right nothing find information gleam experience attempt nothing correct wrong wrong wrong fit fitting important power nothing cant talk hate world lie people know lie know tell tell putting act feel nothing dread shame perfect example fail airplane stalling seemingly reason somehow reasons bit everything knew felt never talk sometimes even convince moments others best getting back need gutter always scared scared death pain death pain death pain see misery anyway runt litter cant shit gets pruned pack natures beautiful wrathful glory death without care guys lovvvvvvve complain included every time open reddit see post saying god hate parents x x x theyre worst bro gives shit theyre bad youll house years never talk thankful alive thankful everything odds feed clothe maybe even give place stay outweighs almost anything besides abuse im saying try view things parents perspective quit bitching moaning took phone monthsthe winters cold dark summer always favorite time year sun never sets summer theres beautiful forested valley close live thats im going june hiking finding tree sit ill listen music watch midnight sun fall asleep last time time june im distracting watching movies love replaying games meant lot havent talked friends now hurts thinking life death two sides coin live means accept death im going station little bit others hope wont hate much maybe ill see someday im looking forward june month pass makes less scared im sure sharing strangers guess wanted someone know cant wait feel summer breeze ive started studying chemistry medicine myselfi wan na make med lead die peacefully dont want painful least dying ive made app homework maths physics chemistry english free got downloads insanely quick called school available download httpsplaygooglecomstoreappsdetailsidplwaxerpomocniczekhttpsplaygooglecomstoreappsdetailsidplwaxerpomocniczek want speak someone wharever anyone avaible chat sfw guy look drip mutch drip know anymorei honestly know life im grades good dropped c average even failed class even know life anymore family care friends basically use live time low hardly energy motivate wake life isnt shit feel worth anymore dont know title im annoyed dad went brothers room knocked proceeded try open door ask door locked didnt even wait second knocking try opening door brother didnt even say dad go room least knocked used try open door become habit brother lock doors hes starting knock often brother knocks doesnt say anything hell wait come door tell come rarely hell say im talking door hasnt said stays quite got mad knocked headphones asked wasnt sure heard knock game got mad ignoring hes getting better sort better brother still feel bad brother sound proof headphones uses game mom always tell probably wearing brother usually answers hes dad still gets mad ignoring context brother one floor dad yelling st floor room isnt farther hall brothers barely hear dad yelling us without headphones well thats pretty much read whole thing thanks didnt sorry story hard follow im annoyed alone hurts best everyone end redflag never wanted pain took mg vistaril otc medicines university work cant wanted im opening onlyfans im becoming femboy rather sacrifice pride dignity homeless wan na use omegle cus self esteems low ppl always compliment saw ppl saying got doxxed using omegle shit uhh meh oh well poem redflagi sit balcony stood ledge imagined jumping closed eyes held kitchen knife held near throat enough slice inserted blade skin blood flowed never ending stream tied rope ceiling looked rope anxious feeling closed eyes opened eyes first time sweat rolling forehead tried smile bad dream thought demons inside fought friends years suddenly old one messaged saying hello thought friends even talking old ones makes really uncomfortable dont want leave delivered im panicking random antarctica factoid theres lake creatively called deep lake east antarctica times saltier ocean freeze even though colder ocean much fucking salt theres barely anything living lake extreme environment honestly pretty amazing really finally defeated survival instinctsi trace depression back gradual process day day felt disconnected society people consequence feel developed terrible permanent personality disorder age due depression ive thought redflag three years month im actually planning know time semester ends october th kicked university falling last semester literally got four subjects half semester irrationally worried others think death everyone thinks im fine every decision ive made past three years heavily influenced depression never used think never used selfdestructive thoughts make decisions know going terrible consequences future september work shitty part time job pushing trolleys kicked university literally friends push every one away sit home laptop watch soccermoviestv shows staying university library made realise normal atleast years behind peers everything personality flaws never going go away last straw mathematically knowing kicked university realising matter even gotten high distinctions year psychological problems going prevent living normal happy life even though never sought professional help believe amount therapy prescribed pills going make feel better lost much time talking friend facebook today felt guilty knowing im planning absolutely idea guilt going stop ive torturing past two years trying live normal life mental illness believe whats best people edit note literally getting subjects first semester dream course requires insanity ama guess im finished one anythingmy best friend pulled last straw phone yesterday talking little cousins came room screaming went yelled returned said girl alive sadly good hearing vividly remember muttering want die shock asked oh nothing immediately hung sobbing went grab box knife dragged arms light enough make mark knew rd grade im senior im ending life tomorrow uamogusbot got banned rip baby banned know ideas bots ps next time try approve community ban girlfriend fucked back story met properly club made numerous times caught feelings felt passionate shes girl met wrong time later got know better right time anyways talked lot within first week snapped complimenting got meet one one walking quiet park evening nobody see us talked talked pretty cute knew going happen hottest hook touch around shirt even finger moans kept night want go told friends experienced knew found happy hear friends talked said experience saying liked loved feeling throughout following week snapped saying things cute missing sm clothes smell one time said know sounds soon cant wait girlfriend excited decided arrange dinner date day date awesome stuff though didnt action okay now days later received snap remember well said hey im sorry might really blue ive thinking itd better friends followed another one saying im sorry didnt want lead head talking confused slowly began cry sort broke felt absolute shit thinking went wrong clingy rushing seemed fine ofc couldnt anything itd hard change perspective weeks lead snaps texts date meant nothing relationship mean shes friend gon na hurt anything still relationship punched hole deep inside hurt guess shes ex ive recently started missing much every way body face voice moans almost sexual way though still feelings moment ive thinking possible id see club goes hook without lingering romantic feelings friends benefits dont know feel im stuck loop fun fact always thought field dressing military medic kit thing code blood covers fieldsman im bigstupid actually ask helpmessaged friend nights ago said please tell kill really struggling end sent back gif cartoon snail said heres lucky snail fucking point anything added bunch security url specific scenarios comfortable keeping things reddit put lot information roperationsafeescape either way feel computers monitored check secure url guide hosting first url october weve busy building partnerships security sector allow us bring even resources audience serve saw flick encw last nite third fourth time enjoyed much ordered dvd really standout course first mannstewart pairings usual oater although quite powerful searchers lots obvious symbolism achieving manhood mainly acting stewart partner millard mitchell shelly winters waco johnny dean dan duryea steve miller joker interesting handsome hero whos interested lola yellow stewart man killed liberty valance hes practically reduced putting apron serving enemies coffee decaf doubt tony curtis bronx cavalry rock hudson behaving indian ive seen screen interesting cameosbr br special performances john mcintire lucky card dealinggun trader hangs low grade western version ricks american cafe nobody wants spend night jay c flippens kiss lola winters nice scenes stewart gets bend river far country geer wyatt earp indian chief takes walter brennans teeth red river pleasant sightings kind western stewart wayne scott pulled worth shot repeat live dream world guys give german youtuber streamer recommendations need learn german great something listen language fucking hate dont deserve love fuck fml crush ghosting thought getting somewhere heart emojis telling much care eachother reality gave huge slap hate thing sure turn im years old ive spent entire adult life chasing career got good grades high school never partied thing college job even graduated ive never loved woman feel ive wasted much time stupid stupid green paper everyone tells glad im employed care want gone want sleep forever im burnt everything wish someone understood way end redflag prevention day ending myselfgood bye yall im tired livingim tired living situation today uncle told fathers death fair burst tears excused saying understand mental ill hate family hate miss father considered fact god real hates youim suicidal oh life sad woe death blah blah blah way least thought thought good place ask higher power created entire purpose fuck mean idea someone created something means love clearly wrong know plenty parents hate kids tried cooking something didnt turn right throw fuck away give shit toss got matter even force sadistic nature life sick joke humanity chemical reaction creates consciousness soul crushing purpose leaving course thoughts although explain suffering world well death religion seems able im religious though really care idea god hates likely god loves cant pleasure without suffering suffering without pleasure exist fact god either side think going create something later kill thats pretty much torture leaving prisoner alive torture instead killing relieving pain pontificating though likeliness god real feeling confident feels good went guitar practice today im really starting thr hang now want die im afraid paini see hope living anymore theres nothing im good anything left enjoy waste away time watching tv playing stupid games kill time die still every single day torture want im afraid die ive thinking redflag years never courage recently pain become overwhelming thats holding back fear pain dying im failure im parasite worth living fail everything even dying im even worth talk people die lonely fucking corner room im afraid cant stand torment longer edit thank help managed sleep guess ill try help hang redflag hotline still unable keep safei uk cant call back one person working area tonight already finished conversation please help nobody helping talking people help changes made trying night help every night months now cant keep safe cant even ask mother tonight im drunk wan na blow brains outplease help im fucking sad im kid dont want grow change everyone school feels robot dont seem real drink escape something dont really know please help one boring lifeits wake go school home homework sleep wake man die alllready hey artist drawing sexy necessarily nsfw drawings act iwannafuckyourpen sexy damnitlooksnice sexy annual post whatever think may post late im loner boner fuck corona cant use gym anymore haha girlfriend friends go brrr yo students actually hope wake school next morning man im even sure mean hope never wake way anymore id sleep school year somehow fail ltc megathiccc want christmas past years alot shit happened decent bit trauma built point painful even think time started happening moved dad previously walked years house thought finally catch break felt object human let alone son every night even allowed close door room storage room barely allowed phone even allowed call mother made feel worse every day screwed even slightest hour long lecture told purpose told going make life told make college told worth absolutely nothing everything went downhill one day risen hit rock bottom somehow going deeper point life anymore point even made deadline kill always knew never make always knew worthless never wanted hear surrounded negativity mother even accept point even decided time school going cut everyone everything prepare day happens even going different country make sure even find everyday think better next life cared anyones feelings years barely throw facade time talk people even online time let bed crying sleep daily basis take anymore done anyone feel neglected parents never problem child know really thing complain ive always wondered anyone felt wa thirdborn family homeschooled first years mother school rwo older brothers came world whittled mothers patience time needing schooled mother already busy enough brothers capacity give much attention time able read well mother plop textbook front go ahead study learned rather quickly mother little patience asked help twice row took long figure easy stuff yelling occasionally beatings follow stopped asking help altogether point almost everything start fear help kick rear overdrive focus hell times tables whatever studying avoid help altogether studying strange reason really sensetive yelling prefer beating rather scold pretty much every occasion learned cery quickly good boy house making trouble whatsoever never causing problems never ask assistance fun times jigsaw puzzles puzzle books jacks whatever player games find played keeping possible problems cause minimum decade line im older high school exceedingly well every class never cause problem anybody find without social life considered waste energy time ive noticed exceptional achievements going pretty much unseen parents believe got used never problen standard eyes grew always great pushing greatness even exceedingly difficult im feel sort trapped image created parents must always perfect never cause problem ive worked hard keep image feel tearing feel really time now feel unmotivated unhappy good boy says ignore emotional bs keep moving along harder harder every passing day feel depressed hide parents issue putting onto sorry mom rd child problem even know theyll care looking back whole situation feel blame feel one caused parents care never wanted care avoided whereever im one caused look way anyone feel shout boys rcomedynecrophelia check hawt babies unfunnyandcringe memes butchered brink death ive considering years years old now think finally time gosince seven years old ive wanted end life suffered home drugaddict parents heavily emotionally abusive father contribute financially emotionally life school always worse despite straight student spent every day life cowering classmates beat excluded threatened kill always overweight even though ate healthy foods took martial arts resulted severe criticism family friends severe selfloathing part depression nothing new think keeping alive whole time little half brother closest dearest friend life backed defended everything looked despite tortured child im never month gone redflag surface thoughts never courage tell single soul insecure ive recently seeing doctors dropping college gpa quickly became gpa semesterlong severely depressive episode grades much low accepted school scholarships revoked ive diagnosed severe thyroid problem reason ive fat whole life never children first boyfriend past years taking advantage emotionally entire relationship threatens break every months loses temper due crippling insecurities today broke want anyone cant help feel cant stand sometimes im set move hellish home live feel nowhere go prescribed prozac take phobia taking medication want live anymore even want happy better want go bed want wake ive felt way better half eleven years ive lost optimism want everything end everything worsti want live anymore want fall asleep never wake someone give full runthrough happen tbh much shit happen forgot lot stuff dying terrifies cant see way outhey guys hoped id never post im desperate right now ive episodes depression years now last four months wrecked im medschool started internship last year completed feb took break home month folks lot stuff going needed college absolute piece shit responsible nearly issues ive struggled weight gotten good place college joined everything went hell people around bodyshame crazy especially family ive able tolerate past even laugh got back room home month want go want see ingrates work shitty hospital ive lying everyone last four months love anything anymore friends little brother talk doesnt help anymore know itll wreck cant take anymore even finish internship familys still going bunch asshats ill still alone shitty little town want know im going go wish go therapy cant afford cant see way ending bought pills alcohol kill tonightfinally stop feeling pain im feeling going easy got xanax alcohol im going overdose pray whatever die tonight wonder mom say funeral read old posts understand redflag note pillow wrists full scars im listening music feel closure death near thank everyone help move spend last day doingive thought lot seems huge deal excludedi love family dont feel excluded home school everyone battling become famous friendship feel dont belong dont people talk upon others wrong dont people act friendly arent wrong dont want spend time ruin social status respect wish respected well fellow human dont hanging parties spending time big groups want know person spend time maybe thats weird love people much every evening wish selfishly die dont live pain loneliness depression good eveningday dont know time zone ive drinking heavily need take pills now finally free terrible lifei feel nauseous know need help ask itd make feel weak life honestly shit idk im posting im never going find someone fuck cheat ill never graduate high school ill never able enough money move start new city able dream job friends tell care love ive told much whenever talk sad explaining slept entire day supposed hangout annoyed inevitably leave im losing way many people probably sign swallow bottle pills cut arms knife im worth anyones time feel im obligated post finally though maybe someone help see something cant doubt though lost chance hope fucking long ago feel empty smile public people ask whats wrong im sorry wall text sorry anyone whos read point im wasting time apologize waste human life trump banned twitter oh shit please dont tell hes coming reddit crying bed th night rowim tired around theres billion people planet enough without im tired crying every night im tired enjoying anything except conversations certain person hates physically enjoy anything anymore used love playing sports playing video games going school hate worked ass summer make school sports team studied butt hours world history ap got final got ps saved everytime look reminds pathetic lack friends pillars life keeping afloat one sports crumbled year best friend wish still crumbling lot redflag idealization within past months fucking easy drop face planet self harm cope fact never ready world social experience true aspirations reason live im going anything irrational tonight supplies need atleast wait holidays summer plan either killing running away whatever fit backpack lost cati came home work today find one cats missing brother wandering around apartment meowing looking roommate tore place apart looking think might gone open window backyard apartment building im honestly unsure got wandered around looking cars different stairways looking hour spoke father friends gave advice morning ie put flyers ask neighbors etc feel though ive checked mentally logically feel find im going give life know live thought cold starving know extreme hope offend anyone triviality problem fighting deep depression time ive working hard keep busy productive simply know give anymore reasons keep going advice fall asleep welcome long doesnt involve closing phone closing eyes perfect life paperusing throwaway account turned life perfect paper perfect health fit enough money large amazing house mountains view two dream cars live wonderful pregnant wife two incredibly loving girls super stable incredibly high paying job love research industry mountain athlete running skiing biking even race social media pictures probably amazing perfect life superficial well years ago brain violently remembered abused neglected child struggled deal sought help learnt likely high iq highfunctioning autistic person severe case ptsd rather cptsd means horrific flashbacks autistic meltdown linked particular traumatising event find trauma victims years trauma inflicted developing brain child strong read many books made changes life meditation etc done therapy eft emdr helpful cbt meh never took medication although remains tempting defined specific list ptsd triggers writing list situations hurt prepared short specific procedures used autistic meltdown related crisis typically overwhelmed situation linked ptsd mostly help wife take proactive role example reduce prevent self harm happens incredibly brave fully supportive patient beyond imagination last months slept two three hours row every time wake middle night sweating screaming simply emotional distress pain stay awake horrible part story wife one pressing ptsd triggers time sometimes several times per day basically bringing traumatised war veteran loud fireworks every day trigger pressed despite frequency fail recognise situation fail apply things help procedures mentioned manages help usually massive pain suffering sometimes hours time evolving become increasingly sensitive triggers totally allergic situations clearly kneejerk reactions small innocuous mildly inappropriate reactions words may may notice become hell yet cant help love wife person world asperger great social cues human interactions blame way obviously aware dealing ptsd responsibility yet lost energy sleep pride identity weekends start great projects end misery continue emdr meditation stuff help loosing ground ptsd taking growing space days nights decided stay alive refuse make children suffer feel abandoned dying loyalty sometimes hard commitment hold tonight difficult night work hours slept alone house alone mind thought write thank reading hate people start complaining anything biggest problems mild constipation decide wear tomorrowfck im ready take forever napi reasons continue hold onto bullshit life cant family fucking garbage nobody believe tried escape fucking mess mention fact ive fucking havent able online school resulting heard last time days truancy im ready fucking give even try cant walk school home friends anymore parents making drop brother school leads different way school friends walk leave earlier still early enough go back walk friends man google way late supposed compliment sent im gon na break google brb computer reset chromebook using school factory reset randomly happen opened one day tabs gone modifications background gone importantly files saved deleted used earlier day well guess im going give another chancei found rudimentals song free ago listening sorta realized might person always wanted bestinsomething person always freedom choose path need pour heart outi even know start theres storm thoughts head hard put coherent text im year old guy basically im depressed time feel ugly stupid week hopeless im statistics student university killing life ive considered nerd used getting high marks liked teachers school considered intelligent kid actually never felt happy childhood proud academic achievements gave least little confidence things changed got uni rd year constantly feel im good enough im tired understanding things sitting hours stydying still getting results want seeing people better feeling got wrong place got point im afraid study know feel stupid miserable ive always tried maximum want reach lowest possible mark thats enough pass matter try feel im always fail motivation reached lowest level life goals years ago destroyed feel mistake im alive theres bit one year degree im scared im going life feels knowledge talents ones going hire theres single thing happy left life friends im suffering social anxiety ive shy smart kid childhood im highly introverted feel scared communicating unknown people theres one talk besides mum feel weirdo one needs understand people understand say even try discussing things feels always think differently others im always minority phoning hairdresser register haircut huge challenge even mentioning going institutions speak completely unknown people panic attacks know act unknown situations go new places even count amount mental breakdowns travel another city country feel social abilities worse year old child go new city study leave parents home years ago things started going downhill getting used new city new people nightmare used cry every single day flats expensive rent im living dormitory worst place socially awkward pervert first roommate quite good friends almost speak almost problems living moved year ago last september im living new one disaster clean room respect privacy thousands friends somehow managed tell want room cant live normal life theres noise around understand likes playing loud music even worse singing along even hes playing music somehow manages irritate little things forgetting close door neither relax concentrate study hes around thank god often goes somewhere leaves alone live exsoviet small eastern european country conditions dormitory great expect see normal western country theres lack space feel imprisoned walls come back parents every single weekend escape ugly place search job place money rent flat im afraid change life anxiety studies require lot time effort think manage combining work studying enjoy staying home nothing common hobbies young people unfamiliar often involve going surrounded people hate life vicious circle im tired lonely want friends im surrounded people want escape alone cant connect people hate small talk want discuss politics environment meaning life music people age interested even interested usually popular opinions refuse view things different angles leads able act im normal everybody parties current pop music prefer summer winter etc people probably consider arrogant cant act things tell want fake overpolite person understands mother feel loves cares probably reason committed redflag want hurt hate father hes alcoholic hes constantly arguing mother understand even try hes intentionally bad person irritates hate hes home besides hate way look im skinny short feel manly enough skin pale hate going hate hair jawline skinny arms whole body general speaking voice quite highpitched nervous anxiety sounds even feminine already stereotypes society make easier accept want man boy ive always hated exercising unpleasant boring ive tried working many times muscular always end feeling weak hopeless giving enough im gay ive realized quite recently year ago makes hate even one knows even know id dare tell anybody fact society country homophobic make even harder feel ill end lonely unhappy insecure rest life virgin write book problems stress im thats enough writing pouring emotions helped little bit thanks anyone taking time read friend wants kill stop sohe low selfesteem know wants life hes insisting theres nothing good redeeming qualities help school making go back school even know ive come contact someone covid wednesday pe teacher asked whole class come contact someone covid twice ar emaking go back school im supposed quarantine weeks ive home day bullshit easysuffice say plan plan stares face least week coincides depressed sometimes consider quite time battling inner self stay alive weighing pros cons whether help even care destroyed taking life friends family course give two shits normal life lots people might even relieved ended ive made many mistakes many things regret lack self control impulses im first place im battling stay alive sucks distance people want hurt decided kill time loner contributing depression god wish go detail wish confide seek help without fear sent away either done might even internet safe tor safe cant go therapist cant talk family know anchors life fading things loved mind numbing boring pushed person love away needed latch onto something much family around much mother real tether left happens gone anything hold onto fade insanity depression affects work relations boss come accept im depressed obvious work save energy talk clients go clients business see im well im afraid eventually ask whats really going say used program develop things live inside code devoted entire self projects loved fire system force look code find difficult stay long enough anything done played games every game looked tried pay became boring repetitive eat love eat affecting health im depressed control eating slowly losing weight good enough helps funding little though self control impulse issues tend make finances go elsewhere liked spending time older brother used play laugh talk inside jokes time taken kid cant blame relied pillars sanity whittled away nothing leaving crumbling remains life wake older sister used close younger moved away changed much barely recognize sometimes great around normally shes around enough really anything im good lot things im fast learner drive motivation partly due knowing happen tomorrow someone uncover ive done taken away family forever changed scarred mistakes made occasionally write things never send always makes feel bit better today created alt write send one tldr plan mom thing still tethers know day really bad depression gone gavin beast missing something bruh cruchyroll really baited browsing list anime said miss kobayashi dragon maid season season still never felt lied tired pitiful existence might kill soonthere place im year old autistic trans least gender questioning person know already makes people sympathy know im disgusting broken human fucking mean id never wish anyone torture waking hating knowing cant really damn thing end people change nature hating others fail show even slightest bit empathy towards gone family religious stopped caring religion long time ago god fucking tyrant choice ive never normal jealous people seem find life easy things handed even curing genderconfused thing theres way stop autistic supposedly prediposed lgbt ive suffered mental health problems trauma fitting inbullied entire life amount therapy make truly happy anyway whats damn point im autistic everyone knows theyre equal fucking hate going lgbt support groups feeling butterflies stomach feeling accepted first time life taken away people want treat even subhuman fucking hate knowing ill probably commit redflag either way eventually even transitioning delay bet post reposted one transhating subs everyone agree waste life end right agree tired bothered writing paragraph long post chest hurts crying much ive scared want hurt family whats lose now theyll hate anyway wouldve epic gamer hours lagging hell shame wan na win loot skins special event event ending tomorrow internet letting healthy discussion chat think lockdowns really helpful healthy discuss finding music paint hard finding right songs fit vibe hard half time listen either rock songs words life goal posted rteenagers twitter account think ive figured formula either say something sexual make insensitive joke hate tiktok gen z powerful generation trump scared us guys please syrup bottle really triggered guys isnt joke need cancelled please guys years old seems yesterday everything still possible young person whole life ahead looking pictures holiday years ago feels recent another years believe half way depressing time going fast weird olive skin uk summer still white surrounded white people pink red fair skin burned weird yellowbronze colour family complaining aching sunburn thats white anyone elses mood seriously low todayworst ive felt long time almost physical brain im hanging g thread anyone never thought hate world muchcan talk someone mans hands representative hardships life eyes looking mine makes sense scarred callused simple thought watched part one two days ago today saw part two course two parts worlds apart little shaken saw felt consumed knowledge inevitability ches death clouded entire movie suppose exactly soderbergh wanted us feel slowly evolving inevitability death part two downbeat compared inevitability cuba notredflag bolivia negative politics movement bolivia alluded rarely confronted didactically memorable scenes end film confrontation jailer milder talk bolivian official official questions che failure peasants support revolution considered national differences playing much role conflict argentine versus bolivian thought soderbergh dealt admirably inevitable problems supply revolutionary struggle food without antagonizing peasants enough struck hard try something che tried guess timing sufficient anger government begin movement bolivia wasnt che realized terrible corundum revolutionists letter fidel read beginning film now years now thought provoking well done film make every effort see real suppleroot hours weekend gotten good start stress killing mei suicidal thoughts long time stress killing feel dumb im fortunate lucky well paying job lucky enough afford school met amazing woman wife hard juggling school work work fast paced exhausts school suffers even though im almost done work hard stresses cause fights wife deserve everything wanted stress hurts heart always feel foggy quick angry feel broken always hut wife lately weve fighting every day feel exhausted im done trying make something myselfi know things live things better stick seriously life freaking sucks found girlfriend cheating friend ditched plans watch nfl games today knows im freaking fuck pass accounting semester ill barred graduating sort business degree university literally ambition anything right now idea want im going hate everyone facebook getting married kids starting great careers im barely getting hate right even care fixing makes even worse somebody please help know much longer hold made cup iced coffee delectable hazelnut creamer gives extra something savored every tastebud yea thats thats say dont know doive suicidal long ive never able reason one thing keeping afraid thats gone everything life going wrong im far home way back fucking monday cant deal nothing point theres nothing stopiing slitting wrists cant deal cant see anything getting better dont see point staying alive anything dont know whether want talked guys finally finally cleared inbox went emails free man now life greatliterally nothing wrong life think dying ive putting coin flip every day now pint luck run im scared dont want die embarrass front others last weekend really made decide write jay marie husband another couples house drinking playing board games jay work next day stopped early marie starts taking personally reason says us hes always ruining nights stupid thing gave stick n poke guys bash made sure clean space paper towel made sure everything new used proper ink thing regret couldnt find gloves made sure washed hands touched things using little dots forget name represent still telling story heart little hearts tiny made sure put bandaid done hours took moisturiser let soak put new bandaid done couple times first tattoo arent best think good first try probably deleting go bed cuz dont want family finding look peoples reddit avatars think oh wow avatar cute avatar steal avatar reply sus men reddit dms dangerous school election campaign videos bad one things either entire video essentially saying vote say something ill things done wont thats private schools work essentially life interesting horse snowboard vote one extremely low resolution web cam footage stretched fit aspect ratio usually encourage vote dont think none gave reason vote vote bye anyone wan na play number game im rlly bored easy way talk someone dm want really want go thing holding back limitation methods availablei think im finally ready end really want fuck able look back even though odds point precautions take make sure fail ive stopped amything sign need end thingsi become incapable anything world small exist exist shout one hears want tune solutions neither strength stability find nothing left giving meaningful existence im already dead see course kill thought makes sense thing elicits positive response everytbing either numbness anger clear sign know one someone tell something anything make want matter right dont using sub diary day today great studying spanish quiz bout weeks babe cause thought failled grades reduce lot teacher changed quiz grades reason mine great moment scared failed reduce grades thats scared btw dont call nerd smart guys day hope left buildingim sure even begin im years old spent half years greatest woman hoped met raised two sons ages one kid rock struggled depression life sadly taken frustrations yelling lot miserable years guilt allencompassing iv clouded depression see good nay great things life pissed away sons th birthday wife bluntly said wants divorce therapy counseling discussion pent month seeing therapist attending church groups even supported emotionally great friends yet nothing lift cry attention im point ending tho week ive tried giving three days simply isnt worth carrying bringing dark cloud around know least feel happiness asking suppose coping mechanism something anything see future tools place wednesday zero day odd finally something look forward ask son father cant begin imagine dismay bringing mine around healthy either im tryinghi im sorry writing bad headache feel dizzy today tried hang reason succeed method used research read lot going feel discomfort black seconds anywhere traditional way creative thats able rope problem black im sure many seconds rope felt forever breathe trying everything air feeling lot pressure face painful somehow strength brake free understand ended backing sure ready know chose complaining pain ive depression anxiety teen ten years started keep making everything worse finally job moved parents job anymore lot things need pay depression anxiety got worse difficult go outside know im supposed anyone talk im supposed reason moved parent wanted live said difficult live someone stopped talking everyone knew im lazy irresponsible liar cases go bottom im probably thing hate try right thing end making everything worse know life pointlessthe meaning life reproduce die want something dont anything give world parents dont care dont friends shitty hobbies fancy career life boring long nothing changes fact im crash course die alone want kill want im go moremy parents abusive emotionally mentally physically dealt abuse years throughout life many traumatic things happened im haunted words memories cant shake matter music escape tells much failure im sick chronic pain heart issues breathing issues bad memory loss cant even remember say halfway sentence time lost conversations really know ive honestly lost live keep fighting ive fought whole life exist better emotions accepted feel worth anymore husband tries understand help feel im ruining life one day hell realize horrible fuck already im selfish know know people care cant go anymore power change things cant change living situation health issues past emotions everything control choices left physically feel urge put noose around neck point think make feel better feel relief never ending nightmare im scared void death im scared keep living homework experience desperation desperation race work race time winged hussars arrive requirements girlfriend female optional life worth livingive decided kill today im overweight autistic ugly stupid skills aptitude learn havr natural talent anything unemployment two years country live joke future anyone rich well connected literally nothing content goodbye need advicei want kill girl manipulates left birthday yesterday wearing wrong outfit birthday dinner snap im legit terrified im thoughts series chockfull brilliant episodes one stands one favorites profound episode theres great meaning message lot fun fine performancesbr br makes really stand knowledge twilight zone episode double snapper ending zone rightly famous providing big surprise end story time surprise think thats turns theres another surprise waiting much probably one two favorite episodes deeper messageoriented one confess crush yay firstly sorry english im vietnamese yesterday confess crush discord day replied translated think something friend best friend im sorry hope understand now youre poggies lt reliable sleeping pillsim planning buy overthecounter sleeping pills called melatonin mg tablets planning oding think theyll work really need anyone knows people committed redflag sleeping pills saw movie first came official selection temecula valley international film festival voted best picturebr br justine priestley hot psychotic complex amanda ordinary psycho movie lots interesting original slants genre sort fatal attraction younger set great blues music mixed object amandas affection married coming blues singer less time husband career takes offbr br swear homophobic liking trans women wan na date person penis man theyre born male sex transitioned female gender gon na date one swear people call homophobic frick yall gt goddamn annoying please kill nowi dont want live anymore im tired manipulated people lied nothing goes way feel helpless lost cant keep forcing happy im miserable inside lost everyone one left broken numb inside keep cutting legs feel pain feel selfish wanting die cant take anymore whole chest hurts brain hurts eyes hurt crying im fucking mess want fall asleep disappear want painless dont deserve feel way work hard try best im good person everyone intentionally try hurt dont deserve whatever never deserved want die im tiredim tired going im tired know ill never good enough know ill never mean anything anyone matter always second matter someone always choose girl blond hair big tits big ass tanned skin know please dont tell truth im tired lies im fucking tired want leave earth one love ive accepted wasnt easy im ugly anyone skinny pale anything anyone dont want thing every fucking day cant fucking count amount times tried kill past month wished wished worked please take away world going shit hope hey hi hello yo whats oh oh boy whats word call ya late im one im new york oh mi amor told ya look good lost people lives condolences lost family friends pets anyone im sorry know internet points awards wont anything help grief wish give hugs need one right now wish help dont know ive seen many posts last days death breaks heart please know support losing loved one tough isnt easy whatsoever guys need people recommend therapist sometimes people need friend turn nice day lt gem british capercomedy poor american schlub pinky green richard jordan playing another bad guy time adorable one gets british jail tries go straight maintenance man job bank attractive neverreformed criminal friends headed really nasty ivan david niven one last roles pinky resists lure money much things unravel reravel joyous watch jordan must played bad guys career never played one twice one lovable hate niven never played slicker bad guy oil two fine actors weve lost wish back stopped boyfriendbestfriend committing redflag morning hes really bad shape need help badtheres alot story much time go work internet im going kind put small nutshell boyfriend best friends almost ten years recently started dating broke babys mother making life living hell blows phone day night literally constant bullshit terrible fucking dudes hurt going replace father four month old son refusing let see son well killing shows house calls texts etc day night repeatedly hes lot bullshit go life literally one hes terrible place mentally morning called told really bad place think stay away gun luckily got house time hed taken three valium three xanax muscle relaxers bottle nyquil beers beyond fucked slept next day made sure going anything stupid woke remember anything happened hes still telling mind place listen tell cut contact know cant leave alone cant keep trying keep head mine water listen suffer depression im worried takes fix know ive considered calling police put psychiatric evaluation works days week afford miss work im terrified stressed know start listen please someone help anyone hyped see adult swim april fools tonight really want smiling friends need show exist someone ft boredwill play robloxcan asmr make joke person made joke completely fine knows joke isnt hurt hate people come offended person even though joke wasnt targeted swear god pisses much school wilding roasting session make fun telling story guy said girl ass looks deflated basketballs joke everyone okay woman thats made fun body shaming sexual harassment etc got comments saying asshole sexually harassing didnt even make joke watching okay people comments still wan na call asshole hate lot people reddit especially little kids yall sensitive cry everything sensitive snowflakes helpmale thirties wife years ive contemplating far long bad want kids knowing theres real possibility leave wife raise help without letting anyone know private person cares way much others think thought employer wife knowing im receiving help kills tell dr admitted will want pegged depressed suicidal unless actually follow live california kids cant go go tried expose dad cheating mum went badly dad sitting room alone started talking weird apps phonei hinting tinder knew talked talks strangers laughed said proof im lying told mum disrespected im grounded cat mightve actually keep awake please dont sleep dont sleep please help keep awake explain dms help im gon na say care knows soggy french fries said cant hide truth longer hi yall im m wan na dmd ppl bcs love talking others peppa pig gaint ampxb httpspreviewredditisvpmyrpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsededffdaceeac im going commit redflagim cant call anybody help illness letting cant anymore im tired tell dogwood tree bark insert laughter tired know kill parents hidden things thag use really escape shit even know anymore im basically endi dont think anyone really help goodbye debi quit job last september killing first mistake fine made great friends online started looking new job one one friends moved lost bunch big argument another friends things went downhill end landed single friend really really good friend one none less last month husband diagnosed cancer spent every waking moment trying help surgery last week surgery went fine recovering well yet confirm indeed cancer removed thyroid successfully regardless problem time spent taking care took toll still super emotional everything going life broke last week started feeling suicidal problem told cried lot point husband forbidden talk anymore place handle news ashamed say handle well especially considering last time happened see previous posts left job money friends miss much already know go reasons stay alive clear know whether rules lost loved ones redflag want share want anyone suffer rules remove let know make parents proud conquer fears see family see favourite artist live listen music experience new culture make new friends inspire children adopt pet make proud meet idols laugh cry feel tears happiness eat favourite food see siblings grow pass school tattoo smile cheeks hurt meet internet friends find someone loves deserve eat ice cream hot day drink hot chocolate cold day see untouched snow morning see sunset sets sky fire see stars light sky read book changes life see flowers spring see leaves change green brown travel abroad learn new language learn draw tell others story hopes helping puppy kisses baby kisses open mouthed kind smack lips cheek swear words release feel say trampolines ice cream stargazing cloud watching taking shower sleeping clean sheets receiving thoughtful gifts saw thought feeling someone love says love relief feel crying sunshine feeling someone listening yougiving full attention future wedding favourite candy bar new clothes witty puns really good bread holding child arms first time completing milestone aka going college graduating college getting married getting dream job kind dreams wake cant stop smiling smell rains sound rain rooftop feeling youre dancing person people mean stay alive trying new recipes feeling favourite song comes radio rush step onto stage share voice talents knowledge world valuable breakfast bed getting middle seat movie theatre breakfast dinner much better night morning feeling loved forgiveness water balloon fights new books favourite authors fireflies birthdays realising someone loves spending day someone love spending whole day bed eating whole pint favourite ice cream floating water back staring sky first dates even bad ones make funny stories bonfires smores relationships love someone arent love coming home someone love colour autumn leaves change summer singing songs top lungs friends cuddling wrapped warm bed someones skin holding hands kind hugs feel weight lifted shoulders kind hug breath syncs persons feel two people world singing key best friends road trips spontaneous adventures feeling sand beneath toes feeling first ocean wave rolls envelops toes ankles knees thunderstorms first hundredth trip disneyland taste favourite food childlike feeling christmas morning day everything finally goes way compliments praise look moment years time realise anxiety making depressed want become actress acting passion havent found another job truly make happy life problem people saying impossible make actress including parents unfortunately understand difficult statistics say wont make honestly dont care become famous anxiety told failure pursue making question something make parents happy validation ya know thought makes hopeless dont want unhappy life ive depressive episodes past think another one starting among things caused gad help advice anything helps childhood feeling died years agoit enjoyed life always beggining decided leave age died see world boring meaningless existence cant dream job cant achieve sometimes imagine peaceful home great big field yard fucking work ass everyday every second pointless childhood feeling made feel dream happiness mysterious feeling way feel sure gets worse year year become even feeling less point fucking careless commit anything illegal hurt badly die longer scares shoving fork outlet scare think september sister shrooms lsd dmt kill sure edibles made feel amazing last summer ive long sober drugs even feel good idea lie mind got three projects done one class period fear mortals know shy girl interested theres girl classes shes really shy ive class know knows im really sure likes though even interested begin doesnt use social media often doesnt text much fun ive trying start conversations doesnt mind talking although bit comfortable theres someone us shes friendly laughs jokes doesnt start many conversations im always one asking things likes dont want make feel bad dont want ask yet test become closer possibly relationship fck one girl everyone problems filler filler filler filler filler ah ah ah ah stayin alive stayin alive naaamee gaaame judy judy judy bo budy banana fannah foh fudy fee fy moh muudy juudy voted movie minor childish flaws movie one favorites entertaining say least shooting scenes ridiculous though think gackt wrote book takes little bit much matrix obsession seems enemies stands therewaiting shot movie touching always makes cry lot great humor makes laugh well gackt superb actor must sayhe shows much emotion hydes first time acting okay role fits wang lee hom absolutely great whole cast say perfect movie miss regret really know say boyfriend going work hours yet confidence ability keep safe really lacking want bother hes working hard support us alone unsure keep safe lost everything thing constant redflag nightmares keep living rest life fucking want nothing left instead celebrating valentines im celebrating year anniversary sonic movie im feeling goodim failing school losing friends broke might well end risk life order make positive change worldive suicidal fuck years today ive reading bomb squad technicians people risked lives save dogs etc put life line straight redflag u think u seehear someone commited redflagwhen hearsee internet think relief hard result gives u worth strong moment respect belongs coherent fear drowning everythings wet breathed years wrong side bed im scared fucking crooked soul cant handle life anymore im terrified shell learn crazy kid ive told id go year without crying ive realized cant make month without thinking killing fuck anyone exist truthtruth always want die hate existing honestly writing words paper scares shit raw want show people feel im trapped nowhere go whatever makes bad person whatever say makes bad person feel wan na shoot im bad person feel shit something talk im bad person make others feel bad constantly alive tell anyone problems feeds negativity ive always awful person deep ive always ive struggled accept years ive realized really garbage want stop existing cant believe god hates let die everyday hope wake dead makes happy thinking unfortunately come want future want anyone nothing one bring happiness im tired trying want die deserve anything anyone understand im still alive keep replaying ways really hurt brutally much blood satisfying makes sad know ill never die soon want die cant hate cant maybe deserve stay alive continue suffering happy feel bad person hard knowing everyone around issues hard takes extreme amount work make normal day life go smoothlywhich almost never first felt grasps whole redflag thing made sense first got diagnosed longer harder deal know constantly feel uncomfortable skin never turn answer give people ask whats wrong theres always one thing going time find drinking id admiti never drank anything take edge feel im teach everything even know formulate words lemonade still taste bad life gives rotten lemonsso problems problems life way think life story failures setbacks story burden family tale sure want continue live born cleft lip palate south korea begining story big reason anguish mother name discarded feel lot anger towards may poor unable manage costs feel anger lottery life went great family new country pain knowing somewhere real family bloody deformity live without lot troubles now times much handle hate hate life reason live adoptive family see burden hospital surgeries cost much money hurts thinking forced things normal people problem secure deformity think end better without add body useless love sports kinds body breaks knees bad back bad shoulders really bad problems feets eyes butt random pain sports anymore unable even use bicycle without getting exhausted meters knees loved bicycle anymore story life thing intellect average much think bit faster average person enough excell anything hurts lot put lot pressure become something family pushes want succeed make feel proud know able ability become something feel completly useless waste human race truly wish fix lot things effort study maniac right go feels fall behind try went korea year ago find past found pain nothing family end fled home knowing stayed sink deeper never rid cleft lip palate always bother mind forever scarred social skills worthless go parties good thing comes drink much never even close girlfriend bother now things think ignore totally lack everything possibly never one hate hate cleft lip palette hate ripped away country made foreigner land hate missing always tried right thing life gives wrong back powerlessness feel crushing wish fix make lemonade lemons lemons life gives rotten another rotten one im sure want lemonade vending machine story remembered th grade think waiting mom pick friend nick sat next left earlier sitting head looking backpack hear someone approaching vending machine meters away think wanted doritos vending machine scammed didnt fall minutes girl came vending machine saw kept moving around vending machine making intense life decision decided go kept making noises trying evade cars highway without brakes end hear oooh got whatever wanted doritos fell yeah randomly remembered nice day ive ruined yet another friendship im ready give upi think im ready give ive always mess person week ive fucked everything ive never meaningful relationship one girlfriend didnt last long never able keep friends thing every time meet someone become close become far clingy overly attached become overbearing try hard eventually push away happened happened never mean harm im sad lonely person wants friend always take things far im insecure worry every little thing paranoid everything overthink everything killing causes problems everyone love eventually take things far last year ive one friend girl work think world said became attached put lot pressure depended lot boyfriend ive honestly never wanted anything friends obviously ive become much ive never meant harm cause trouble never meant upset worry anyone two use worked together team two months loved couple months ago swapped someone work basically lost plot im never going defend way ive acted thats point threw tantrums things attention didnt want work anyone attached ive acted lot ive upset friend caused stress knows self harming suicidal thoughts broke front saying shes terrified shed blame anything happened last week supervisor spoke manager im told im good friend boyfriend isnt happy completely understand ive told outside communication needs stop needs boundaries sounds telling cant mates friend ive got text saying wants tantrums stop wants us go back mates laugh said boyfriend wants block doesnt want wants happy joke around used said doesnt want stop texting outside work working together doesnt want lose friend obviously dont want either others work telling needs boundaries ive ducked always nothing going even ok wants friends im worried others going try separate us keep away completely understand fault thats problem ive done know ill meet someone far attached person eventually fuck ruin every friendship go far cant keep im ready give cant keep living im worried friend blame kill thats always reason havent dont want upset family dont want blaming ive got worry blaming selfish side wants end life ruinedits point return way happy never enjoy anything entire life fucked completely ruined post nut clarity even exist clarity one force upon go school guess im leaving reddit redflag note turning parents arent taking away phone lads asked girl said yes according reddit law leave ig friend threatening redflag date really soonhey guys friend suicidal threatening kill soon im familiar depression redflag attempted always nervewracking call contact authorities right im scared theyre college lose lot money losing semeseterthat parents paid parents great might really flip institutionalized probably ruin whole semester make life difficult home got back right thing calling imminent threat right always always scary persons life decided one call im scared ruining lives know may absolutely serious need someones thoughts freaking really ive drinking day keep anxiety edit called supposed closed now feel absolutely awful though anyone say anything id still appreciate thought gotten major trouble school lol managed make vtuber avatar obs virtual camera plugin working joined google meet school today avatar shits gigs made sure background everything screen sfw accidentally joined personal account security breach tell another account avatar got immediately banned call kicked banned freaking though gotten major trouble avatar realize wrong account lol rejoined cool scary lol feel bit lost bit hopeless bit im issuing something m yearning feeling dull ache mental physical wish someone gf maybe maybe lockdown getting im social meeting new people new possibilities relationships guess problemo fucking hate lol im saying sound edgy body dysmorphia disorder bunch stuff weighs constantly feel ugly time feel sick stressed walking past mirrors obsess scrutinise time sometimes dont even know look people tell different friends theyre lying make feel good im lucky friends think forget see look know lying weird wouldnt consider ugly literal sense features unattractive round fat face ears stick tried eating made feel ill arms twigs lol almost capacity decent theres something holding back cheeks arent thin completely ruins face unfortunately starving didnt really affect face good idea general im gon na come terms ill never look gaunt attractive dont look boys age defined jaws masculine angular faces ya boy well hes stuck moon shoulders feel self conscious point debilitating regular teenage low self esteem genuine deep rooted self hatred feel im worth nothing one love someone theyd leave wouldnt good enough stress im sat close people keep head back bent cover mouth laugh literally run b public place tk avoid seen cringe internally sometimes social situations remember everyone see feel constant idiot talking people must judging okay melodrama sorry wanted dump thoughts cahms therapy ended anxiety bdd apparently apply help parents dont believe issue theres point say theyre dont trust actually need bit help dont understand extent much feel crushed time lol really hard trying stuff feeling ugliness time id never talk girl feel stupid girl want talk girl want lol sounds simpy oh girls dont omg life terrible genuine concern actually alone forever welcome thought really im usually keep account anonymous dont really care im pretty good hiding feel lots people look merely strength wear smile carry keep going back forthbetween wanting die wanting die nothing really triggers much ive thinking buying rope sell job picking nice day hanging self one trees outside house plenty ill think still want live confusing convince dad let buy anime figures two hatsune miku figures want amazon price total says expensive afford im sure problem insane collection first figures send help im bored class im incredibly sad yet numb timelife insanely bleak fear ill never feel love give though ive never attempted redflag plan date planned end life continue way nothing look forward maybe long life ahead theres nothing life cycle suck everything motivation left world always weather leave pain stays around thing im afraid hurting best friend thoughive talked pain mom grandma feel losing grandpa cancer depression redflag though part believes wont affected knows ill incredibly hurt bros always look although may show know care people around ended life plenty months ago maybe even years know feel matter ill never fulfilled ill never find pain worth enduring ill never find fight used heart flames kept going death seems closer sense tounge yet hate taste ap calculus absolutely kicking ass im frickin done school year october wish anything go back time things rightbut cant look back think couldve done much better sit cry cut think one talk noone even ask hey u give hug think id happy right id done literally anything different eth even care im sorry hang long enough im done reasons date many ask whatever want went dentist im still wont let help sometimes wonder live die end remember anything live nobody going remember going die matter much live keep going tiny organisms big universe people always say hey worth worth existence really matter anyone really going care die strangers people internet really going go way cry point society spending decade education system go live mundane life everyday die living even worth live transgender men women switched men modded women cant post shower thoughts cause apparently political posted hi recently got testi got test grade told mom let know checks online grades anyway told grade yelled told worthless waste money left immediately searched commit redflag im depressed f iphone switched flipphone sometimes difficult watch selfavowed message films earlier seeminglysimpler era without certain degree cynicism issue racism religious tolerance one drummed us early age weve grown teachers authority figures sought less blatant yet equallyeffective means getting message across house live unsubtle message films come frank sinatra seems treating audience child indeed perhaps point short doubt intended primarily influence younger filmgoers even found curiously affected sinatra launched sincere patriotic speech really means american im even american released two months end wwii director mervyn leroy greeted warweary audiences message tolerance togetherness hope music aint bad eitherbr br freshfaced frank sinatra already star yet superstar hed become opens film recording studio booming dream full orchestral accompaniment songs frank goes outside smoko observes large group kids bullying young jewish boy taunts provoked purely differing religion ol blue eyes quickly puts stop childish behaviour delicately branding bullies nazi werewolves scolding irrational prejudice earnestly goodnaturely lectures group plain silliness racial religious discrimination assuring every american culture differs still american heart unless course one bloody japs theres hint hypocrisy pleading racial tolerance presenting one nation collective enemy though hardly blame hollywood less enthusiastic plight japanese br br sinatra drives point home wonderfully heartwarming rendition house live written abel meeropol songwriter first heard song film furious filmmakers completely excluded three verses considered crucial message omissions likely due time restraints meeropol understandably take kindly reportedly ejected cinema first released house live deemed important short film golden globe best film promoting international good will honorary oscar involved judged culturally historically aesthetically significant added library congress national film registry came hear approach may seem little hokey sixty years later film remains quite watchable thanks young fella named frank sinatra feel people love much love themif replace im itll hell lot easier im dead welcome minecraft got shot lol pfizer gang realize people post wanting kill posting show redflag make loved ones feel anyone looking reason please read thisedit intended guilt trip add pain feel honestly way someone gain new perspective hearing someone feels redflag close person make angry set negative way please ignore post people angry done worrying feelings probably want hear people want hear people care still care long someone gone types people please take trying guilt someone staying alive feeling guilty worst feeling world wish outcome people read strictly meant show people care even ones think im sorry seemedseems rude please read open mind caution try take anything negative thats possible letter become angry one paragraph anger normal feeling matter happens mean part everybody focused wrote super intense letter ex killed want people know read make feel really vulnerable maybe reading help someone im reading posts breaking heart anyway heres hoping might give one person extra push need ex determined kill long time many people know truth glorified mind part say maybe someone exact moment gotten fate way wanted eventually mainly anger based knowledge please focus part anybody change mind three years three years ive touched face three years ive heard voice three years ive able use senses actually thats lie days without warning lucky enough catch scent air started happening idea powerful sense smell become completely disoriented soon happens sometimes think may pass happen often takes breath away emotionally painful fashion first thought races head dont know true thought knows possible near gone memory randomly pulling scent intensely believe actually smell spirit beside happens youd visit indeed possible considering way things us left world think see good laugh boy made mistakes im train wreck happens slowly fuck youd think happily married full life ahead us way took tragedy shit maybe easier completely shut felt didnt deserve feel anything considering barely speaking terms passed still feel way sometimes friends family ones deserve hurt loud keep feelings tucked deep theres guilt feel go back forth feel particular emotion days guilt stricken lying bed crying sitting silence mad woman wonder anything done said change fate stuck around toughed hard times even mattered called night able change mind even possess power something exaggerating important mind believe maybe maybe made difference particular night thats ego know deep nothing changed mind maybe someone exact moment gotten fate way wanted eventually maybe thats tell keep guilt rearing nasty head days livid pissed fuck selfish dare take upon take life realize affect everybody loved loved think nobody care maybe fucked even consider us hate want miracle happen allows see one last time beat dead believe referred anger step grief ive noticed dont follow steps correctly hit point never bargained maybe never im particularly religious death sudden time case ive hit depression anger one day hope see dont really even care outcome encounter maybe peace realize young stupid forgive abandoning moving maddness maybe forgive taking life pain caused alive maybe selfish dick tell way reacted tragedy ridiculous shouldnt held nothing long never cared either way least closure satisfied pain broken heart better pain caused answers sincerely hope hits someone feels started one girls attempt let go rage guilt maybe life good people thing live life beautiful let lol im horny reddit oh well chance encounter train young couple spends single night strolling streets vienna discussing life love primary reason see sunrise watch young julie delpy deliver lines celine sexy brainy soulful browneyed blond sort cross brigitte bardot joni mitchell midtwenties risking overstatement celine practically ideal woman unusually beautiful feminine natural unpretentious introspective selflessly loving easily forgive bit eccentric talks blue streak sincere intelligent remarks occasionally penetrating varied expressions nothing short captivating speaks english french accent endearing br br fly ointment good movie unkempt disheveled costar ethan hawke jessie comes vaguely appealing slob sort maynard g krebs nineties attempting appear detached nonchalant sort drags certain shots pants fit poorly tee shirt coming untucked wavy dark hair attractive feature needs good washing someone really showed properly trim youthful goatee nevertheless supposed represent unwashed youth twoweek train ride around europe look cultivated probably pretty genuine oftcynical observations wry sense humor seem impress unapologetically romantic celine although occasionally disturbed extent alienation finally admits utterly sick likes near feels different person presence know getting somewhere br br blowing collective funds series cafes bars silly diversions agree may never see one another make jesse bums bottle red wine sentimental bartender newfound lady love may repair local park middle night lie grass looking moon stars watching sun come br br given boundless luck romance department especially irksome jessie definition naive jerk foolishly allows wonderful young lady slip grasp contents halfbaked plan quickly devised railroad station bids adieu reunite spot half year appointed time comes know beautiful unusual girl involved another perhaps even married pregnant whatever reason probably show jesse ends working target hes lucky local library go back vienna desperate see wind alonebr br despite discouraging conclusion sunrise beautiful movie highly recommend sequel sunset among us htyawq north america join ffffffffffffffffffffffiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrr successmoneyrelationships curei see lot posts people mostly young individuals unhappy lives thinking depressed money better looking found attractive partner successful used think couple years ago achieved things family went poor attaining decent amount wealth failing student pushed able improve grades attend good university started working lot became attractive opportunity marry amazing person im happy actually feel even worse realize things illusion really cure suicidal im suicidal now dark feelings manifest differently people say things better may true things problem first place us broken individuals struggle day die matter people care forces keep going feels blackmail dont try escape pain loved ones hurt beyond words pray every night wake hope universe listens someday soon recently done things proud fact always terrible person blame upbringing maybe really cold spiteful psychopath hurt people made upset always people people fact loser disappear stop guys think w e p u serious need help right swa girlfriend mine broken skype started cutting opened schizophrenia telling wants end tonight listen anything say understand way reaching need advice talk im sorry wrong place post im kind rush fruit loops suck seriously taste good guys guys prefer sugar loops want head crushed girls thighs edit damn hacked posting daily gf day week describe days one word day tired think gon na mega pranked april fools ya know black plague part wild ass shit ofc thats world doesnt end december swallow pills later cant stand anymore fi literally unlovable havent anobody irl die nobody cares people kind cheer depressed ass ugly fat body yo woman basically doomed lonely really live ugly piece trash consider woman women pretty value dont literally tired hear worthy alone true life sucks past made constant bullying marginalization present empty made depression anxiety bulimia nervosa self hate suicidal thoughts loneliness literally reason keep going goodbye committing redflag without dyingfor past months ive basically dead dont plan killing dont plan living either luxury anything survive right now basically rotting alive want put forth effort live traditional good life anymore im faced health predicament im suited tackle spend days reddit drinking tea sitting outside thinking hopefully solution arise mind continue nothing brother wants parrot one dumb live whats pointhonestly kinda wan na end right now know im never going fucking cant anything fucking life fucking sit around watch shitty fucking shows pretend care something cant anything im fucking retarded everyone class gets without really studying havnt able pass theory driving test fucking tries im fucking retarded everyone st nd try im fucking slow cant seem understand fucking thing without explained im fucking hear old whats even fucking point im even close anyone anything talents things im good everyone around slightly annoyed matter fucking ill end tonight think lost best bud recently know cope got honors school hes siberian husky best thing happened ive years best times whos everything constantly wagging tail everytime come home times hard lick palms im going home without hearing tail hitting door running jumping hands getting slimy wet licks reminds cares hard times cry one drop feel empty motivation anything im want hear shit feeling anyone super cool older siblings older sister shes deadass coolest person ive met im gonebye yall parents wake work cuz thats parents every fucking day way least important profile google meet top list everyone see wan na hidden even camera mean camera doesnt show anyones screen exists yk tips today day boys president going first impeached twice today everyday provides new reasoni truly wake days hope something positive happen value little things go way green lights positive conversations daily fantastic peoplepositive feedback email job million reasons overcome sadness fear pretty good fighter put game face many sad events life lately feel money always pain lucky many ways find anything wake anymore strongest remaining family member rock deteriorating rapid rate deal need go job underpaid appreciated need dental work cost much even top notch dental insurance need continue hanging thread need idiot changed jobs many years great company love wrong place wrong time kinda days good fit pays bills everyday easier justify life cruel woke someone saying username asking harassment thats literally mentality saying clothing wear decides raped im tired maintaining image functional personim close leaving cant go family tell last time blamed anxiety amp ocd theyre dysfunctional anyway im sick one keeps control im one keeps tearing eachother apart regular basis im supposed take vent stress still feel guilty rightfully annoyed keeping till squabbling everything gets worse christmas worth nothing stupid think maybe somehow see bad least try give break uni holidays fuck trying happy least minutes guess theres ocd completely controls life plan every single thing around psoriasis tmj stress able relax years sometimes worry become impossible im afraid everything im angry everything want everything stop want life sropi want leave want leave want leave want die want die want die want die want die want die alt got banned made joke calling f word got alt banned f although released way back cold blood still remains benchmark truecrime films matched veteran writerdirector richard brooks elmer gantry adapted truman capotes nonfiction book chilling docudrama retains disturbing power even today thirtyfive years laterbr br robert blake scott wilson portray perry smith dick hickock two excons tip hicocks old cellmate floyd wells broke holcomb kansas home herbert clutter looking wall safe supposedly containing safe found two men instead wound killing mr clutter wife two children getting away radio pair binoculars lousy forty dollars two months run including aimless vacation northern mexico ended las vegas cops caught stolen car eventually comes merciless grilling kansas law enforcement officials two men committed heinous crime holcomb tried convicted four counts murder stew jail fiveyear period appeals denials hanged death april br br blake smith absolutely chilling two dispassionate killers show remorse theyve done concerned getting caught john forsythe good turn alvin dewey chief detective investigating crime gerald s olaughlin assistant tactic faithful capotes book good artistic gambit around brooks show murders beginning instead shows two killers pulling clutter house last light goes cuts next morning horrifying discovery bodies ride back kansas blake questioned forsythe narrates story see true horror happened night see much blood spilled scenes need shotgun blasts horrified look clutters faces know die disturbing enough need resort explicitly bloody slasherfilm violencebr br brooks wisely filmed cold blood stark blackandwhite results excellent thanks conrad halls expertise chilling jazz score quincy jones capper end result one unsettling films kind made devastating lowkey fashion minute study crime shook entire state indeed entire nation seen though viewer discretion advised rating reason year old manon rainy afternoon wife suggested go see women reading reviews thought might lead afternoon nap wrong movie held interest start finish great finally see meg ryan looking super lets face meg looks much better long hair annette benning looked different every scene candice bergen showing age carrie fisher daughter molly exceptionally acted young indiai able understand dialog tough many current films due rapid speech cloris leachman woman finland terrific housekeepers extend regular duties nyc scenes nice see oh bette midler short role usual terrific gave chick flick guys go see even eye candy eva mendes disappoint fucking hate mom mom stabbed fork cookies sister made counter put away yet reason expects suddenly know kitchen gets dirty rush fix cookies theyre gon na next hour people grab em yknow anyway needed rant help pulling nightbut im little concerned managing sleeping much last night sleep tired cant sleep wrote note entitled event death im sitting razor blade know im going anything probably im little concerned super normal actions really seem control actions atm feel horrible need sleep right now someone give step plan right now showered fed drank water really rather leave house bedroom texted friends responded bothering family elicit harm good well past therapists bedtime want calltext hotline talk going need someone thinking clearly give healthy action plan need think much execute finally hand sore hell finally sorted porn enjoy fruits labor oh want vaccine basically becoming ostracised look happening france love press button zapped universe want vaccine want die helpi want someone talk normally main account stalk place help others really use help think going kill going use helium place sells helium tanks walking distance place anything week week stop tomorrow buy tank apparently painless quick mess wife clean anything gets home really really really unhappy thought feel better went camping ended getting flu fleas instead thought killing long time especially got kicked army fucking pot fucking months left got anyways now college working parttime miserable every day wish meth killed even stopped using meth still fucking happy started taking zoloft made kind happy fucking crazy stopped taking zoloft now constantly feel coming meth tired fucking tired well hopefully helium stock hi im feeling lowest ive felt stupid reasonfeel two year old im jealous know cant play video game want money friends read past posts upset fairly legitimate reasons time think im actually losing upset something stupid even understand brain opened pill cabinet nothing kill im tired family never money cant pursue hobbies im tired job search im tired parents live paycheck paycheck probably support dumb ass im fucking done im gon na find something im upset something stupid deserve die please give read let know saw even anything meaningful sayfrom outside fanfuckingtastic life year old straight white upper class male currently top high school class beautiful sweet sexy brilliant girlfriend thing complain mom alcoholic recently baby cps investigating might better gets taken everything right go weekly cbt take medication religiously much normal dose exercise regularly never anything drink smoke eat right everything fine may surmised posting everything isnt every day struggle bed anything think much want live pervasive thought appear nowhere even thinking things far removed sadness consistently manage kill erections masturbating go somewhere dark never safe except asleep fact matter miserable point planning redflag last detail hypothermia feels poetic idea course cant tell therapist states laws required report suicidal tendencies parents state likely result involuntary hospitalization result idea depths anguish want better afraid ask psychiatrist change medication several reasons primary one take much time take months normal place cant deal fucking life long medication ten years withdrawal hell earth psychological pain describe words result without options cant talk anyone fear betrayal trust every day gets worse days cry room instead homework end lot tiredness tired life never rest matter another thing worry another task complete even five months focus scan next threat deal never break mind never shuts matter tired constantly moving top speed meditation work nothing stops escape thoughts pervasive driving edge needs stop needs stop now please help please help please help please help please help kinda feels good stand thinking nothing staring cute tree feeling heart lungs work meditating aight bois confessed crush said want way definitely stay friends weve fairly close fair amount time posted coz really want friends know lol f note think posted time ago dreadi really see future bleak carry single ruined last best relationship fucked day tried years cant anymoreyou know feel persevered lot grew taking care severely ill mother father worked long hours take care medical bills even money family keep fed count one hand number times went clothes shopping family horribly narcissistic even let take advantage full college scholarship needed housekeeping family super bigoted wouldve disowned came transgender never actually came thus sacrificing happiness sacrificed grades social life moved shunned socially awkward cast aside longterm boyfriend transgender suffer bone structure issues legs disallow walking properly makes difficult hold job struggled keep employed town retail chief field employment back living bigoted terrible family make feel less person daily basis want die cant live awful goddamn people anymore worthless enough justify keeping alive anymore resolved fact tomorrow nights night first night postingi posted rdepression ive lurking sub lot longer ive depressed almost years length people sub bet bragging horrible older people sometimes think people used know people used feel see apparently grown see still thinking redflag everyday cant snap outgrow wake fuck act together sometimes wonder seeking help even yield results long ive gone deep feeling depression taken hold corrupted soul cant even remember feeling happy anymore differentiate feelings sometimes feel depression seeped brain taken hold existence good life job loving girlfriend car friends family every time im social setting tonight baby shower fucking sad sit room see smiling faces laughing fun laugh inside feel inadequate hard even put words feel sit sit next girlfriend know someone better someone passion life enjoys everyday activities feel life sitting next someone sit present think back head holding back watery eyes thinking exist im taking space im holding everyone back everyone positive force pushing happiness personality universe im fucking black hole anti matter wanting fade away leukemia fine long take pill everyday rest life diagnosed years ago taken medication months know refill maladaptive daydreaming something want fix daydreaming fun way pass time quarantine know enjoy crafting tv shows head music videos good bye everyoneim gon na bother writing things life want say good bye someone feels right thing good bye people hope great life long story short mom found cut going doctor might medsbut issue mom thinks cut going explain doctor moms room talk feelings either idk even going doctor help lying acting good want fucking normal want sleep finish work class avoid panic attack fucking hate emotions work time example feel shit want cry time even right bed morning cry nothing feels real words life fuck going see doctor soon psychologist prescribed new meds current ones arent getting whole day take morning start lose effect around pm ive got tablets take start feel wear ive realised making sleep solving problem want meds thay help function continue day solution avoid problem completely sleeping whats favorite variant boy favorite variant skinny white femboy everything faultguys im tired im tired im desperate im never enough huge screw want tell someone love hold im scared alone love lorna greenjanine reynaudis performance artist wealthy intellectuals local club falls prey fantasies promise romantic interludes turn murder kills believe sex horizon quite possible form hypnotic suggestion someonea possible task master pulling strings puppetis guiding lorna killing comes across secluded places appears lovemaking begin murders within fantasies committed lorna awakens bewildered often clueless privy within dreams took place realitybr br someone asked describe particular work franco id say elegant difficult now probably read user comments befuddled film large portion takes place within surreal atmosphere dream franco mentioned interview heavily influenced godard early career far filmmaking style deciding abandon clear narrative structure favor trying create whole different type viewing experience read reaction user comments heresome decision others find style labouring dull bewildering ill first admit film head even franco quizzed critics watched succubus admitted even understand film directed might say succubus merely precursor admired work venus furs considered masterwork francofaithful adopts surreal dreamlike structure protagonist truly know whether heshe experiencing something real imagined sense protagonist experiencing type confusioncertainly succubus unconventional filmmaking given keys exactly going great deal elusive dialogue help matters succubus populated beatnik types poetspeak cormans film bucket blood poked fun personal favorite scene teases possible lesbian interlude lorna woman meets posh partyquite bizarre fantasy sequence mannequins used rather unusually great locations jazz scorei liked film although understand receive negative reaction loved one scene posh party lorna wee bit drunk writhing floor gorgeous evening gown others attending shindigequally wastedrush embrace kisses need someone proof read apology girl im gon na say oh fuck spanish test didnt know bad im megachad cheat google tranate white people talking ghetto really cant stand white people dont talk full words really dont know describe talking ghetto shit make good music using cringy ass slang stop cap baby momma op point problem african americans using terms thats culture thats grew hearing problem though white people ripping phrases way talking look cool trendy im obviously forcing anyone talk type certain way really dont give much shit tbh opinion thinking look cringy dumb everything hurtsim fucking sick hurting time im scared afraid waking hours noone close dependant life fun anymore horrible thoughts often im empath cynic see much able understand half ive contradiction years trying fight way modicum consistency makes burn im fire cant reach help life destroyed little hope future seems far away ive squandered every opportunity ive life depression eating future ones id rather die witness yesterday im tired pain want stop aside trying hard drugs offing know question regarding sharing pictures console reddit share picture gallery ps reddit know selfish request figure id rather talk someone maybe prevent harming practiced committing suicide today told familys loved hugkissed even gave pets one last hug ended going w crying yeah anyone wants talk distract anyone willing talk make time go one worst days think need hug somethingi hate even considered suicide especially right now urge strong need help one help one even listen memy busy busy hanging best friend alone point close less month turn ive decided want really need helphello reddit title says really need help suggestions call someone let tell bit im girl years age gay middle eastern come fairly abusive poor family father alcoholic used beat mother pretty regularly front brothers growing turn mother beat us well way coping pain anger cause one listen necessarily blame wish bad time tried commit redflag age ingesting tylenol pills alas hold threw passed thing unfortunately results started cutting til mother found words quote care always denied needed emotionally saying give time ill betteror think happier things tell stories pregnant older brothers father kick stomach fainted jump window order save little brothers life stomach needless say pretty horrible image family honest thought normal led string pretty abusive relationships women turn mindfucked thinking im worthless honest family already way ahead curve started cutting year made close friend continuously disappointed know intend tell anyone cuts knows way transfer emotional pain physical started selling body money men years old pay school books along fulltime job family afford even blow things cars brothers pay student loans always deemed worthless honestly wish knew anything fix quite recently graduated top class uc berkeley degree economics english literature family disowned past month name pay rent food upcoming months ive taking medication severe migraines got year make everything worse ive going string interviews companies honestly hope dwindling incredibly fast lost friendship friend honest need stress put quite happy time says im depressed true pretty much live alone city one talk family guess growing always kind knew way realize much really take away much hurt reddit im wrap unfinished business tidy apartment everything nice clean taking life still lot prescription medication left alcohol pretty easy purchase hopefully coma trick honestly reddit thank making laugh days really needed cant really live anymore really wish different funny movie seeing evil dead trilogy week ago left wanting got many bruce campbell movies including really bad ones one funny without exceptional sure hell originalbr br mean got mad scientists superhuman cyborgs half brain freaks gypsies ex kgb cab drivers jealousy murders passion love romance sex action actors br br really see enjoy cant explain text box guess much cult movie evil dead certainly bruce campbell touch love ted raimi lends hand tamara gorski looks beautiful interesting gone long way hooker friday th vladimir kolev shows lot promise actor although probably cast secondary character hollywood movies entire careerbr br bottom line funny movie liked evil dead one crucial factor often overlooked fact radical innovation requires long term commitment strong committed workforce must required produce consistent effective results yeah smells onions car right cant sorryim twelve everyone thinks age cant feel suicidal im pretending feelings im fucking pretending two months clean cutting last night sliced skin im even ashamed wouldve hanging ceiling ive told parents theyre scared go hospital theyll drug refuse give meds depression anxiety shit ton missing assignments make want skip school every day tied rope light hanging ceiling last week didnt end dont even care im statistic teen redflag better shit im feeling right now nothings worth teachers breathing neck missing assignments idea people tell tell people stuff even therapist therapy talking friends doesnt help friends dont understand talk therapy going nowhere crush thank god still feel positive emotions im fairly certain doesnt back feel shit hes even bad guy everything around propels state drowning one tell cant live anymore stop bed generating random shit god damnit already infinity stones typical suicidal thoughtsi feel empty angry sad time decades ive therapy help medicine makes zombie want end cant read anymore cant feel genuine joy anymore want disappear forever evaporate air honestly dont know make another day mom passed lost everything herive battled mental health issues amp selfharmed mom one made effort understand try help got sick dropped school take care cause dad said burden brother couldnt bothered despite older sibling things ive seen caregiver given ptsd still nightmares years later passed planned whole funeral didnt heal mom went income find serious full time job last gig getting back school diagnosed bipolar last year became hard function work place leave job mon passed two friends basically nowhere found guess one wants friends sad girl relationship really supportive recently partner saying draining around hoped someone ive got hard feel lonely tired defeated mom young death cruel best friend world one always talk sucks im literally alone world without go weeks without leaving apartment dont speak anyone one speak family live mins away one time calls ignored feel im struggling obvious one cares help least extend hug feels im already dead even bother everything pointless dont even enjoy taking walk park sun anymore im scared die know im living one one talk one call sucks alone miss mom much cant move life without im tired feeling way cant anymore give reasonim tired enough left far away family im going cut lives way know im going commit im disgrace means human preach others ive grown silent watch world pass though tiny screen phone better way toxic one know post think step outside world thing thats gon na keep harming family read help lotim m us know post first ill address bad things ive done tell porn problems soften ill tell life trauma ive commited sexual misconducts whatever called committed sexual crimeswhen college freshman year cute kid acted childish never acted wrong anybody really sick mind without knowingnever sum wrong freshman college went party friends house started trying kiss wanted make even kinda friendsi really drunk dropping glasses alcohol shit avoided guess wtf wrong kept persisting moments left go place went waited come bathroom straight locked bathroomshe kissed laughing leftafter peed bathroom went dancing place sat grabbing head told bother much im sorry im sorry got wrong kinda hugged got never spoken much friends time laughed situation guess tell sick sometimes year kept insisting girls make really bad think flirty way mostly jerk absolute sick fuck locking situationbut couldnt control ego think whatever specially drunk ur high years think started become absolutely sick working supermarket sales men saw adult women big butt took photo know went home deleted thinking wtf remember th grade week friends used teachers sister told time dumb stopped always hated people even high school friends came pictures took women subway shit bad guys realized years somehow ended year went party friend mine girlfriends made classmate made friend even friends really drunk drunk us started make realizing buzzed stopped made party hours bc thought better might first moment absolutely misconstrued idea sexual things viewed porn came dancing really close put hand groin clothes groin took hand minute put hands breast made thats think bad bc drunk something made still realized absolutely education sexual behaviour year party april trying make girl always liked work usually played made feel bad fun got mad felt ashamed calmed went girl found attractive knew liked last year nothing happened year talking agreed go make went tent alone talked things good time tried touch boob something said stopped thats felt awkward persist try make stay nice moment left discovered secret guess hours made girl friend girlfriend friend think drank tequila shots make bolder extremely dangerous started making way persistent go somewhere go step beyond tried much touch tho told one time put hand groin second time controlling even people trying sleep making side know alone made think going scare girl sober know second time persistent take hands times kinda realized calmed idk kept making talking things morning even woke take bad situation kept kissing general acted terrible point stopped apologizing shit woke shit may know worry anymore tell someone really accepts read know disgust people mad sum obvious social media time seem bad bc friend always told liked guessed bad year years lots people getting canceled movement said apologize calms thats hit switch say hell exposed ill accept bc im coward sent long text asking felt situationthat deadass persisted much desperate told suicidal thoughts live abusive brother bullied school put thru much violence scared wouldve gf wouldve jackass scared explode violence none lie realizing life absolute shitload trauma well told yeah persistent take hands surprise message kinda remember situation told felt abused men situations thought thing drunk party type thing respected admitting things help thanked really listening gave help advice thankful apologized told harassed reality abuseor assault harassment went read laws world fell honestly know abuse known wouldve reported know shit consent anything tho knew stop done day crazy started connecting thisthat acted extremely different moments started realize sick miseducated help month thing party everything good fine started dancing one girl really close minutes dancing tried kiss said started far people thinking creep ass shit work guess told go place wouldve better said got place tried kiss repeatedlythinking flirtingthinking playful know think drunk time realize acting extremely weird persistent got tired left day apologizeis time given sickness explain basically days later friend mine called saying wanted accuse harassment wanted talk phone something person ok suremy friend set meeting met friday pm talk let us talk told lots people saying made everyone n shit thought saying told telling anything ish happened acting dumb drunk know really cause happened long time ago cant remember think drunk somehow used weird ish point fkn know point screwed months quit basketball feeling trash feek self esteem started first heavy depressive phase kept going parties year never got anything anybody scared persistent never wanted bother anybody halloween year went party friends girl trouble one made friend one always played got party soon arrived told wth arrived started trying make angry friend day whenever said something say anything whenever put song party playlist removed isolating friends friendslame ass friends anything got drunk hellhad left dog alone home spent time money go party isolating got drunk without thinking connected alcohol really hits make problems basically got drunk hell lost conscious remember point woke laying floor vomit clothes friend telling treat people guess told girl btch sum honestly think deserved anyway acted terrible honestly remember remember waking seeing friends laughing girls friend trying make stop threatening kick friend always taken care ofif couldve died alcohol poisoning felt betrayed went full defensive mode talk girl days returned talk honestly going full shell mode next year fucked talk people school jerk depressed fuck point said hell lonely anything started pressuring best friend spend time without knowing sick head went partying times moderated drinking solved anything half year went club started dancing girl hand thing im sure watched ish porn time worked started grabbing touching clothes way approach people still wrong shit year went party leaving leaving girls kinda flirted meand made uncomfortable lots times drank pure alcohol bolderdangerous decision againthinking needed make someone isolating abnormal levels went subway know going getting drunk got alone started kissing making subway train people watching put hand groin clothes reading things makes someone mad tell im piece ish help know type ish ok worked starting making touching horny hell subway friday night guess people looking us hell happening told sex replied kept talking got persistent go somewhere desperate interaction someone real wanted stop living year ago realize extremely need help separated realized going anywhere make buzzed barely walk left felt nauseous realize come back home drank bottle bolder drink fucking alcohol ill explain problems drinking apologized girl mainly consensual feel im able tell sorry ish exposed ig acted creep say sorry behaviour ill ask feels something im trying better life entered college throughtout life took care lots girls abused harassed ive congratulated lots times ive told thanks taking care dancing creepsters even first big party took friend car guy taking thereshe absolutely drunk buzzed honestly people even clapped hands looking good guy came mei controll times absolutely fucked view sexual intercourse realized day know got know lead felt tho bad view sex still persist felt awkward classmates knew dumb guy take chances something girl mental issues alcohol issues contributed feel shame saying fell sickness thats gross parties wont say much got harassed got ass grabbed molested times school even got butt grabbed normal day class group girls everytime even girlfriends laughed saying lying cute harassed thats people conceptions changed everyone denies acting ill explain problems try write much boring porn problems hugei started watching eleven years old got addicted watched mostly everyday years oldthere days didnt days busy want everyday thing gf saw times dumped made fun whole year never got interaction women got college years old time watched porn times even times day sometimes times remember every day saying times hell watching watched type porn without knowing learning watched bus harassement type videos asian videos worst ish think general industry porn unreal penetrating people outta nowhere girls randomly wanting things general porn man persist things happen ive battling perverted thoughts kid whenever bus intrusive thoughts seemed happened often never anything anybody train something anxious compulsive mind without knowing made erase ish thought whenever girl put body train sum happened lot stepped back really nervous trying make anyone uncomfortablei dumb fantasies urges cousins teachers old women honestly point thought irresistible women manifest anything somehow preserved consciousness wtf yo kidand always ended falling porn stopped times never got addicted kid childhood tragic poor mother died years old due aneurysm flashbacks nothing bullied schools middle school bullied whole year got school stuff broken lot even know got bad grades got foot broken classmate wanted make fall walk limping month cried walk anymore time sat next classmate grabbed touch ballsgroin daily idk week month timeand stopped told dad crying done went school make stop school ishi lots moments stuck head got intimidaded groups kids everyone laughed daily kid threw pen top made hole faceand theres remember know time starting suffer violence older brother years older already dumb kinda crazy suffered epileptic attacks kid became violent lost mom died yo cooked twin sister taught things took care us gave good moments ruined mind bigger bully everybody remember hundreds violence episodes one time making bed put cover right way started yelling told cry putting blame one time playing playstation made mistake shoved told retire everything related soccer ish used hit little mistakes always aggressive hell projecting everything probably dozens houndreds times hit full force think worse mostly got used never anything used tell dad wait leave tell coward fighting back obviate thats form surviving found think fucked life put perspective came room bug kinda hit forehead take said oh ok mf something raised hand think twice knocks cover probably knocks still hit head twice hard sister came see happened brother started saying hes hitting back hes btch slapping wtf nobody nothing told ahh say motherfucker kicked stomach using strength laying bed cover breaks something body thats mind always worked gets lil angry starts saying uncommon ish ish happen ish event fit situation always year started following ordering ish things got drunk march threatened said sick offered fight told last year hit full strength punches back got mad returning slap back gave told go cry always im sick got nervous started walking house finally put head gf shoulder went cry room thats hes always grandmother crazy hes religious fiend preached years goes house drowns newborn cats raise used argue lot brother even told killed mother fault front sister lunch years old tried put religious ish mind traumatized sometimes even saying cartoons watched devilish shit let tho knew sick honestly life suffered normal old people im saying discovered lot sexual shit kid nude type games cousins cellphones porn cds brothers room think even discovered nude photos dad girlfriend looked closed flip phone think much exposure mixed fucked shit went thrui remember sudden sexual thoughts sometimes even felt desire guess mindfucked life general ive always randomly doodled always used draw dark shit kid eat crazy young age father year told years old said wanted die go mom year realized talk alone places im streets start mumbling alone sometime voice scapes thats realize im talking alone sometimes ive said hi raise hand air imaging friend mine times insult air without realizing whenever remember things brother realize end punching air mind place younger denied got discovered saying singing sending voice message something thats felt things girls thats felt dominated impulse realize im thought wrong ideas mind im learning control way ive felt fight voices head guess thats kinda normal anyway ill go therapy obviously started realizing worst state quarantine got thru head wrong acts well crimes mistakes suffered started connect mind head rolling walking house alone till mumbling alone trying connect shit trying remember everything make excuses nothing go root know hell halloween problem wanted stop living even knew done shit wrong still wanted suicide trust anybody anymore felt betrayed always rejected person honestly said went full shell mode acting thinking suicidal years even think needed help thats makes sad end think mechanism survive made sick mf think brave survive childhood fucked lifeif shown signs fo sickness wouldve educated sex never done anything dad social worker told everything said sorry bc knew mom knew touched bullied still take therapist thinking fine plus poor hell someone gone therapy able eat shit guess dad thought control everything blame imagine amount pressure apologize apologize something havent chance will know im fine ive told theres little people reflect trauma way know dumb shit go therapy know work still feel life aspects feel gf whenever one able keep secrets tell everything think girls run away live recently psychopath apologized ex murder yesterday disappeared girl found dead killed tinder date even tho sad know cant complain im still alive jail really shouldve exposed social media long time ago go jail ill still go know seeking punishment make better still honestly feel im good person know preserve consciousness know ive overcame know bad things done know got turn life around mental issues made defend think wouldve helped little mom developed things wouldve taught sentisitve thats way ive told people reddit im full shitbeen told girls rapd people im piece shit turn think deny even guy told im making shit sound better im think avoidable fighting mental disparity rpey shit kid think deserve think might narcissisticschizophrenic disorders sickness without knowing think whole life lead knew really abuse came home social life told people told friends college environment creepy never saw shit concluding im better puke everyday cry everyday think life meaning anymore deep know help brother doesnt traumatized kid wife know help kids know things better moment think swallow pride realize even lonely life expects think go play ball buy groceries go therapy thats want quit degree study psychology teacher think lot knowledge teach people think able kill thats promise know post sounds straight suicide letter wont dad much ending killing go therapy try solutions think lonely life deserve love gf love feel love girl never felt besides sister love show girl good things think late think late turn life around move silently help shadows love read opinions good analize think world lead act know honestly cant see sober type shit theres times feel sick might shit example got drunk weeks ago give shit anymore alone testing thoughts changedi thought behaving big deal side times feel life thanks advance help know got know values principles changed much times think nah life tragic tell friends childhood experiences faces falls surprised even understand things wish stopped going disturbed parties wish better friends wish couldve opened people younger gain experience sane way wish life couldve little better think already failed man sonbrother friend true feel sick feel calm kid guess late guess stop btchng hold things together mood swings really goes low think gone thru shit nicely ended sick anyway feel bound perverted way hurts fault guess got girlfriend fucking hate false hope stupid well learnt circuits today physics absolute nerd obviously got questions right whilst rest class sitting scratching heads mind top set tbh quite disappointing whatever anyways eventually teacher put question board asked us write answer immediately told friend answer coz im arrogant bitch friends always laugh knowing answer teacher even finished sentence ppl around us wtf u started explaining basically half class including boy eventually teacher heard lot discussion question person particularly loud ron thats beside point point lesson friend sat next boy told staring talking nahhh looking coz explaining question straight went staring good way im sad coz gives hope likes even tho know doesnt anyways hope lovely day guys lt got tb hdd games pc hold siege gta bo now hold black ops black ops black ops siege fortnite minecraft minecraft bedrock garrys mod addons killing floor every borderlands game inadvertently caused guinea pigs death feel fucking guilty dont know go onthis sounds frivolous stupid im already depressed one guinea pigs passed away love dearly left lid cage open kitten went wanted play caused pig heart attack wasnt home drive minutes back bury freezing cold time got home im fucking sick cant fucking believe caused still hadnt fucked handle killed took life pure innocent one fuck going go conscience im vegan im hurting animal fucking killed baby want curl fucking die want swallow pills done id literally give life come back jesus christ advice sophomore year first day sophomore year tomorrow please advice year day writing something positive happened today forgot yesterday im morning teacher gave friend chocolate reason chocolate nice food country global attention deserves filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler made first animation youtube shame gthttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkkkmdzhlrglt nice see comedy grown ups masterfully structured aaron sorkin via mike nicholss mastery mr nichols mastery present characters shocking truth sad riveting richard burton elizabeth taylor whos afraid virginia woolf sad riveting julia roberts clive owen jude law natalie portman closer charlie wilsons war shocking truth outside characters sad riveting tom hanks julia roberts philip seymour hoffman amy adams service something personal point hanks bury brilliance single malts julia roberts throws parties introduces characters blatant straightforwardness amy adams witnesses exist character witnessing insurmountable task miss adams manages surmount beautifully philip seymour hoffmans gus t monopolized attention character may first first way hoffman presented us someone survives disregard hes treated absolute conviction hes smarter put together hoffman superb pacing tale helps enormously fall myriad useless questions sharp short smart sad comedy last time able say tag user post youre someone tagging remember wear mask drink water good time nice day bruh snapchat needs priorities straight theres option report someone annoying reporting literal drug dealer added feel though theres nothing leftim reasonably young attempted redflag twice continually reached help friends family doctors seems noone cares mother refuses believe even depressed something dealing recently moved back parents fucking awful quit degree come back care tell going mental hasnt helped mother mental bitch stepdad care less weekend saw ex boyfriend thing thats kept going havent spoken months told vulnerable going slept together tells doesnt time deal shit genuinely feel im third time lucky fuck dont even know im posting feel fucking shit want end everything im conservative vote candace owens ran shes fairly progressive libertarian conservative counterparts bernie runs though vote going addiction broke another relationshipi love girldamn amazing first time someone made feel truly didnt need drugs ended telling addiction wanted better didnt take well dont blame first time addiction cut relationship quite time depressed addicted drugs always believed least valueim ugly im funny try care people animals im loving partner relationshipsim always trying make people feel good always thought worth even small past months dont believe anymore im finally worthlessmy addiction robbed everything hadeverything family doesnt memy exes hate friends avoid even sister spent whole life trying take care see loserits week talked even looked face job anymore failing college im fat depressed maniac disappear days end mom feels sad used little bright boy today literally hear mom getting face yelling coward liar druggie one people left still tried help run peoplei friends anymore one cant near cant help anymore think im getting end linethere nothing left thats wasted whole lifeeverything mom build everything people invested gone im nothingim worthless actionsim suffering consequences shitty person saw film released minor cinemas uk years ago memory remains great musical score tragedy storyline saw video recently sound track poor picture grainy one two films saw next day gladiator music theme intensely tragic outset one knows heralds failure death certainly one george sanders best performances man working black market pay back lost war nemesis waits patricia roc plays refugee eastern europe eaten despair attracted selflessly wants help falls love proud hurt accept help love destroys inevetably girl doctor herbert marshall brought nemesis storyline complex intertwining destinies subsidiary characters appear film diappointed critics struggled box office adolescent saw retired gentleman saw one greatest films taking account agewhose story akin opera feeling right thing doi mean life suffering situation nobodys gon na understand situation better see exit think stuff im going trough gon na change time feel giving excuses mom sad things gon na change therapy help working anymore amount suffering avoid ending far beyond amount happiness im able obtain things change im sorry makes someone feel worse swear purpose make harm want know ampxb ppl tell mewhy bad idea amp shouldnt truth isit probably good idea amp even ppl matter bc im anyone good except kid prbly clock ticking amp anything horrible end th birthdayso th birthday spent weekend friends drinking etc come home around pm friends part ways go talk mum boyfriend try respect much possible called basically made emotional resorted room start crying bed feel im useless helping making mother boyfriend economic situation worse feel reason live goals good looking lot money relationships sure matter allim middle aged man place society im irrelevant want friends creepy middle aged man anyways fuck think im gon na od nothing matters anymore suicidal thoughts calm scaryi pretty much joined reddit came straight really need let something used suicidal urges lot ive attempted used mind chaos pain redflag way escape panic desperation last months different ive contemplated life really deeply keep coming conclusion mother dog passes best thing die know want die days days dont spend maybe hour two day bad days actively thinking killing panic seems cold logic though attempted scares attempts know fight mind rational even know anymore know im suicidal part wants live want live part suicidal even know hope guess hope getting help idk nothing makes happy anymorei know issues gon na solved one reddit post guess help tiny bit least type ask im suicidal im way afraid death even consider instead feel chained bound plane existence title says everything keep mind day actually help longest time considered life worth living least mine feel gon na go im still stuck living parents along especially mom thinks better childhood reason sad anything fought first started forming long term memories thats exposure love cant seem good enough paying career going companies within reasonable distance pay shitty never take anyone without years experience cant make friends every time always someone whos busy time end feeling twice bad alone cant find loving relationship woman im emotional mess even without im severely average looking best complete lack self esteem confidence makes truly believe im good enough anyone chance fall someone absolutely tears apart inside completely fuck swept feelings embarrass see maybe someday living spending rest life living sake staying alive alone never able meet anyones expectations never able learn social romantic mistakes past everyone finds sooo much easier ghost rather telling said wrong motivation anymore dreams anymore nothing seems worth anymore nothing makes happy anymore better adaptation book one paltrow although liked one much beckinsale better good screenplay better davies master adapting austen filming production values good quite glossy hollywood treatment close thought locations costumes actually worked better anhedonic ugly potent combinationanyone relate time say good byeits perfect evening end wanted say thank people gave motivation advice years without made far peace one hour workout im really proud yeah im happy life rant secretsi born late september far remember ive sick born family strong history mental illness moms side sick dads sick storys paranoid anxious behavior day born scream chairs left pushed table even comprehend anything cry night time form change feared anything scared admit nightmares freak accidents learned family die left content fear safety around started notice bullying never weight grew self hatred ate others food brought comfort nothing began developing crush girl im female knowing nothing heterosexuality convinced disgusting dad opinionated homophobic got tablet free internet range became informed sexuality internet friends year one girl year older one night sleep ended experimenting witch far young still bullied students found happened bullied severely developed acne every one led bullying spent recess year hole back fence away every one school grades declined years old grades became worse hated self body severely thought cutting fat body kitchen scissors yet diagnosed mental illnesses sky rockets severity grades work ethic time low met another girl thing happened previously happened year boys timei thought death lot bullied got called fat ugly got called gay mocked grades even teachers cut first time began skipping lunch gained weight due binge eating years old grades s freinds developed self harm addiction cut self chance got continued gain weight starve week time binge eat weighed self times day cried ate bullied gym began working got home school every day hours binge eat started experimenting prescription drugs tried slitting wrist overdosing summer tried getting clean self harm several relapses severely suicidal weeks th grade school counselor hospitalized im hospital groomed molested almost year old boy groomed sex year old girl days discharging hospital relapsed stitches hospitalized hospital visit sent residential hated days later birth day dog diedim shit personfor real really shity staff patients really hated deserved kept breakdowns stupid shit grew attached staff even though hated guess felt cared started fear going home still sick scared happen left binge habits flourished managed sneak razor blades diazepam pass lasted month mutilated chest instead showering talked fucking walls snuck meds pass planed od changed mind asking float nurse questions meds realised probably found suffered lot pain died really long painfully watched meds desolve toilet morning treid restrict instead bingeing staff caught stopped ended bingeing end tried hinting past ed s substance abuse really want time kinda sucked one believed remember wondering find journal documenting guess mom trashed began attention seeking therapist got discharged thinks may cause know ask help decided enough brought prescription diazepam razors pass used help last month got discharged discharged ish months night tried oding old prozac got sick continued mutilate thighs abuse harder substances remember summer spent days tweaked bingeing got worse got comments weight gain school mates started new school turned rumor spread smoked pot school bathroom never smoked weed school people knew smoked every day schoolat creek lost mutilated arm planed od school counselor hospitalized got therapist thought safe refered iop program im currently shits hill restriction hit rock ive clean gladly cut self still abusing substances ive really low high key suicidal life feels kinda shit gon na lie thank reading means lot mum watch weirdly sexual dancing videos youtube shes watching one rn tv really fucking disturbing anything slighty modest im confused cant tell turn shes gon na yell someone help tired gunna stay dont wan na sleep wan na live anymorei wan na live anymore dont motivation ideas make lego stop motions dont know need motivation want free mental illnessi cluster mental illnesses love feed bipolar disorder social anxiety eating disorderim tired want wake morning theyre gone want wake okay want wake life eat without guilt love someone without pushing away waste hours weeks years life distracting hunger buying things watching shows already know heart mental illness going away im tired pretending thats okay im tired pretending im everyone im tired people telling best choice pretend pretend things real ill end life ive written hundred checks cant cash hell im already want gone gone better dead red always say filler filler filler filler filler iller filler filler filler filler filler filler fire filler filler filler filler filler filler filler live years oldso tired every morning woke another meaningless horrified day life eyes glazed emotions sit look around meaning life exist room neither world one waiting path front one grate warmly want go home one know land bare foot rest find place inflict pains hate people around hate people better life hate people suffering cant good life nothing wrong world one wrong shout back give birth shouted loud echo woke dream wish die age even one second delay set reminder count days hope find peace oh beautiful oh tearful gutwrenching br br makes everything seem superficial pale meaningless comparison br br sister helen real saint br br real human flawed raw blunt passionate heart goldbr br found interesting handful wretched miserable people found meaning laughterbr br loved documentary portrayed polarity human nature notthis life beautiful everything perfectly interconnected levels small atoms large worlds ascribe meaning life want feel live laugh love everything begins must end universal constant ethics everything say think feel simply singular happening greater lesser importance anything chaotically different life perfect reflection choose meaning interpretation idea holds superiority gracefully infinitely beautiful absolutely astounding yet sad given awareness self withheld rationality understand completely inherently unfair existance never know will never know rather answer never accepted something exaggerated magnificent life simply thats makes one wonder tumult chaos beauty sadness life irrational nature understood reasoned thing reasoned completely absolute nothingness exist simply check recede darkness whence came granted infinite nothingness witheld consciousness necessary bemoan real something counted upon beautiful last exhale life warm embrace nothingness beautiful anything given currently make one consider life death morality pain wiped forgotten moment nonexistence truly beautiful real question left death seeing though rich frist person comments make laugh gets award sure award awards quality vary depending funny youwhat link joke link go im sorry bad lifethats family wants say ones wanted know something next paragraph sorry new bible im okay days really need unburden u wan na read fucking shit go last paragraph today heard aunt tell life difficult mother always worried taking care hair food home etc truth mother always said bad children regretful much daughter devil let hug touch leave house see friends came home fighting hated father left chased around places watched hidden house list long suffered bullying lgbt woman black suffered homophobia even without family confirmation suffered abuse whole week inside home beaten mother times went principal badmouth eye manipulated everyones mind always wrong one list really huge addition neglect medical help never denied going doctor whenever felt something said exaggerating today chance develop uterine cancer due negligence happy situation country happy peoples ignorance happy loss important person entire life grandma happened month ago tried redflag age seeing best friend leave humiliated school beaten place grandma almost died ending hospital end ended picking knife birthday alone going kill stopping promise made moment try continue forgive kill future everything fine received many threats mother child abandonment threats even though wan na make happy today heard aunt saying feel happy mom bad dad im even old enough suicidal currently years old today see many reasons live want grandma want peace now think right life bad suicidal younger wan na phrase one say much hurt u know sometimes need see things common child pass wan na selfish idk knowing everyone bad make feel worse everyone worse handle better current age diagnosed depression anxiety almost almost ptsd cant see whole life really something bad im selfish wanting worse really bad seriously need know say im okay without ridiculed really sorry fucking mess put alive rough sometimes serious moms reaction breakdown overload bc stress life schoolwork im th grade btw something print set mom walks crying bombarding questions tells calm helpful online therapy found site free online therapy anyone either make personal make anonymous anyone talk problems give site shot mean advertise btw cupsofteacom yo difficult bed go bed ill yeah matter tired morning im gon na force hop nice cold shower morning zero willpower sleep important thing ill literally sleep minute classes start thinking seams easy bed smh wake feels im permanantly bound bed dont supposed even dont enough sleep sleep hours life really worth livingjust general question right timeif survive people life disown ive tried times said cant handle drama think day trying im coward im scared ill fail alone life im done long even remember happiness even feels quitm done fuck hobbies fuckin expensive favorite hobbies guns cars airsoft pc gaming literally things find fun goddamn expensive fun shit expensive offer pity arrogance worthless species areno one willing help one treats nicely cant bad childhood adulthood bad hate getting less hate working anything point hate living people ill always poor ill always unintelligent cant socialize people always take advantage im hopeless money true support want die id end one way depression bipolar disorder think redflag ton come extremely close couple times recently couple nights ago literally knife wrist began cutting motions stopped cried sleep kitchen floor live aunt uncle parents died horrible car accident last year gotten im haunted nightmares deathly afraid driving even though everyone says good driver often think parents im attending ut knoxville fall im minnesota originally homesick moving june top aunt uncle trouble adjusting financial burden sister carry addition two girls feel burden want go back home bad know home aunt mental disorders going rough time well psych ward three times past three months give new meds work two weeks body adapts begins getting worse goes psych ward rinse repeat guess im saying im homesick feel im burden everyone feel aunt hates even though know disorders know real miss parents im worried school fall breaking weight want die want deal anymore im honestly thinking ending want end whether death whether end stress know turn im hurting one help pissed size sonics chicken sandwich sonic american fast food chain usually drinks nothing today feeling adventurous put dick somewhere cock actually order meal sonic settled something basic something simple ingredients tastes good nearly impossible fuck chicken sandwich twist fate perfect demonstration true american exceptionalism means dey fucced shit fucking tiny half inch tall fit palm hand friend embarked experiment ordered burger four times big got meal fit man meal fit child meal fit victim starvation shit evan fucking meal still dignified enough let antwich go waste ate two fairly average bites wouldve looked scene attack titan scaled normal sized sandwich overall conclusion came experiment order anything drink sonic demented psychopath locked away greendale asylum im angry hate anyone mentioned live deep south everyone bigoted beliefs christian im literally atheist entire familys bloodline even school go homophobes history teacher literally called bisexual people perverts tried call told wrong people class started telling gon na go hell parents pretty christian make go church every sunday mom literally sat talked telling need know gay wrong sin kept nodding know disagreed literally anything bible id disowned relationship strained parents bad people anything though racist love feed buy shit take care great parent im tired keep beliefs call people bigots im tired christianity whole hate happen live state extremely widespread happened born parents america support lgbtq know keep quiet thats best know spoke relationships severely altered almost ruined wanted frustrations subreddit know hardly ive seen literally maybe bigots extremely large portion support lgbtq care christianity anyone similar situation love parents theyre great people really christian religion ruined south needs change im sorry ampxb edit im gay bi venting frustrations people thinking wrong way birthdaywell birthday im turning feel going go downhill im alone got ditched friends share birthday feel around shitty need someone talk ive thinking killing past year feel pretty good time optionstldr age eighteen moved online partner escape emotionally abusive fucked family situation things went okay next years tbh became apparent pretty quickly relationship unhealthy us gotten point finally breaking literally nowhere go sos told want apartment asap lost job week ago nowhere go aside going back abusive family basically put eggs one basket thats fallen pretty much want disappear ive always told work somehow better somehow really doesnt somehowim chronically suicidal worry anything thoughts redflag intent vent dads icu heart attack open heart surgery suddenly given task handling everything family mom incapable understanding details insurance works set rehab apply financial assistance take care rehab handle household finances hes recovering mountain shit top mountains shit lets even mention mom concept money spending lot hospital access finances concerned spending hes saving income taxes separate savings account financing casino trips monthly social security check sick people telling worry things work never unless someone took responsibility typically thats parents live squalor heat bath facilities working washer dryer trailer rat mice insect infestation mention black mold problem family gets sick every week moldcat urineexcrementlack hygiene mom gambling addiction yard junkyard hoarders one move house easily think almost worse homeless tried address living situation many times fallen deaf ears tried years help dad icu things never critical offered little money ive trailer several times try clean mom stops throwing away trivial garbage objects old plastic grocery bags cats urinated one week ive managed clean small part kitchen found nastiest things ive seen left property crying throwing back way pills cant take stress right now yes im depressed right stressed beyond anything think thing going life im considering calling county place condemned leave streets never live hard deal want advice guarantee ive heard times need vent write way outthis might sound ridiculous really bad fight boyfriend im different state visiting family staying moms house mom want stay dont want anymore feel trapped talking couldnt hear earlier offered take someone elses house told yes didnt want house pretty far anyone stay ive asking family let stay house theyre asleep take medicine soon anti depressants easy overdose dont escape right now trust know sounds ridiculous kill fight boyfriend literally choice trapped right now feel suffocated want end im sorry everything formatted typed shit really cant bring correct anything right now id embarrassed redflag attempt survived least fucking house dont expect anyone read whole thing feel hopeless trapped want cod cold war looking ppl play heyo last day school today looking ppl play break time zone cst wanting grind game mode multiplayer zombies mainly going camos discord provoke im sick want alreadyi feel belong home anymore everyone forgets im even door wide open died tonight one notice except dog bf better without though bc bring everyone wonder everyone forgets depressing piece shit wish suicidal thoughts past plan stage start working implementing shit im tired alive im tempted relapse cutting pills tonight made promise try hardest wish never promised hard trying pretend everythings okay wish normal think wish friends wish loving family wish happy instead sad miserable every single day school coming wish die thenlast semester huge embarrassment failed classes one classes math really well first years th class music getting really good barely passed semester though feel deserve teacher gave liked last year friends classes alone day outside lunch talk one person semester friend one class thing keeping depressed mess semester responded online months tried contact months ignored messages ive kinda given though probably fault gave address crisis center went help depression ive lazy anything im huge developed eating probably ill eat whenever im bored stressed gotten point ive eating less thats ive feeling full extremely quickly past days kinda full im longer hungry kinda full stomach pains regret eating first place ive wanted kill years done laziness reason gotten help im years old huge failure scared grow go college job cry stupidest things sorry used many commas got english class last semester fighting long tired tried distracting race pain keeps catching want die want live anymore want give interesting cartoon included dvd lost skeleton cadavra especially way color used background artvery artistic columbia whose cartoon department generally low budget results looked itbr br wonder certain um finger gesture got past censors granted gesture question seen lot less frequently today think someone besides animators noticed thoughespecially seen three times scene question based context suspect inclusion intentional something animators slipped see censors notice ask favour people want ask mum go see therapist somebody please tell things say try persuade mum let see therapist local doctors thinking good times childhood screaming crying internally laughing joy instead pain self harming good times hey hear guys opinionssoo dont really know start im eager talk led state im lets say ive knew day come day eventually fact suicidal years old cant set thoughts straight think dark thoughts real dark unsettling rage inside wants burst emotions gone except rage dont think ive loved someone makes feel empty exhausted lonely ive never attempted redflag done basically wishing someone kill free feel waste life didnt ask born wish never dont know really dont drive left motivation dreams whatsoever theres emptiness inside except rage thing kept alive years fuel im tired rage fuel tired dont know posted internet probably shittiest place open id hear thoughts anyone feeling way know im special theres probably thousand feeling way clue make im open discuss anyone wants bruh feels im faking everything might even faking imposter syndrome every day think hit rock bottom next day worsei nineteen year old female set leave first year college days always struggled depression eating disorders bpd went little therapy stopped several reasons one main ones past year felt living cloud amazing relationship supportive man loved great grades job enjoyed everything felt experiencing genuine love happiness first time life felt valued supported everyone around general even felt good started birth control months ago help deal pmdd well past month though feel entire life completely fallen apart around know approach feel complete emptiness loss abandoned every person meant anything boyfriend love life broke moved across country said still loved stayed situation right feel comfortable pursuing ldr said want relationship anyone really getting settled new atmosphere anything might pursue meaningless sex fulfill physical needs still maintain friendship basically see goes end city first thing found tough deal yes know knew wanted lot introspection felt comfortable continuing friendship emergency mouth surgery given lot hydrocodone took religiously mouth hurt made stop pills gone severe withdrawal experiences opiates sleep days constant vomiting symptoms severe anxiety top friends left town point completely alone freaking head days nights end really broke spirit already raw ways feelings rejection nowexboyfriend cant handle anything opiate withdrawal finally sleep nightmares resurfaced didnt mention probably past months nightmares almost every night sometimes two three remember freak morning worse though often featuring ex death abandonment various forms psyche explores different combinations every night im little body mod decide another piercing ear though try raise selfesteem little bit find something new positive one night decide smoke little try destress nice time staring computer talking old friends abandoned years ago still try talk desperate trouble letting go people next morning driving grocery store see familiar fluffy animal side road vulture pulled ran cat image burned head fur matted dirty one eye completely blank staring nothing pulled socket tongue lolling ants already beginning crawl lost got box wrapped stiff laying awhile cant shake intense feelings guilt responsible letting cat every night taking care failed selfcentered got high laid bed getting struck car even able bring dig hole bury yet unable function even bed considering lonely feel attempt schedule meetup friends live outside city planing going well day every single last one ditches really handle sort thing well never much time literally every person life left even try worthless drain resources nobody gets happiness next night friend friend invites roll rave friends restores hopes little bit molly falls start feeling sick rave make everyone leave early due friends turn whole bunch dudes sexually harrass evening touching breasts legs violating personal space matter much told stop feel really guilty helpless much bigger leave alone dressed rather scantily rave without realizing hanging long afterwards feel really dirty soiled whole thing yeah girl given ride decides wants sleep drive back around noon wake abruptly throat literally swollen barely breathe speak idea happened wake friend force give ride parents house refuse take doctor think took drugs made sick spend next three days complete agony completely alone mulling head start feel slightly better second two days nice chat phone exwhoiamnowfriendswith weve talking little bit stay touch others lives nothing learn one girls claimed previously friends basically dating honestly support really want happy astonished truly hurt quickly moved relationship really ways noticed love give blessing though talk feelings bit still capable making happy even talking new girl bizarre comes today wake nightmare little sleep still feverish throwing throat still going crazy losing mind feelings insignificance loss replaced hurt literally weeks found someone new even though loved much hell even week ago admitted still loved missed lot feel even worthless started entirely new life new friends new girlfriend place meet anyone elses needs good mopey doll constantly crying felt random dudes day goes feel somewhat better ex tells never going give friendship matter dating whatever tonight learn visit planning take come see completely fallen longer wants put effort coming seeing usually probably make feel bad bit know handle three horrible weeks honestly visit thing keeping going remaining positive force life feel piece trash tossed away newly pieced ear even got hugely infected cant deal problems solve anything even know proceed death still love cant even handle feel hopeless never wanted go college prospect leaving throwing away huge sums money worthless degree sickens completely unmotivated unintelligent unwanted see anything going better hardest three weeks life literally every day say must rock bottom better next day shit happens feels punished ways need accept ultimate punishment remove world know much hurting guilt abandonment handle want end want wait things better think deal im looking advice try help relative shes going ugly divorce husband whos trying sole custody threeyearold son hes dating woman substance abuse problem criminal record met three weeks ago taking son sleep residence unbeknownst relative till recently monday told hes filing divorce forgot word wrist momentarily called wrist arm ankle im fucking tired exist right now things sayordinary people seem realize really apply right way philosophy directly accord preparing dying death true actually looking forward death lives course absurd troubled thing comes long preparing looking forward socrates phaedo im scared die choice made believe everyone right decide whether want live matter great logic use matter much emphasis put beauty life left live always absurd meaningless existence purpose purpose must exist go created exist doesnt choose live life purpose tell wrong hate responsibilitiesi want kill meh feel vulnerable often starting become fed living want free constant redflag depression even write want drop dead leaving behind fears world mean going die anyway difference make happens now much admire human race terrified find dangerous people often average mentality hard feel threatened constantly around people without whirlwind negative emotions fear sorrow anger etc perhaps spend much time social media observing people find incredibly cruel see look comments section youtube video witness discourse anger flows naturally people home town large masses homeless people makes sad seeing many folks hit rock bottom seen groups teenagers beat said homeless people right front seen people drugs yell fight stab rob seen women awful things children public without repercussions overheard people spread hatred people family members die horrible ways old classmates ended lives witnessed man try commit suicide highway swear think know sure think saw one neighbors take child prostitute home feel surrounded society cruelty violence reason help love people love dissuade wanting leave world childish sounds wish born life issues nonexistent despite disturbed appalling human behavior help fixate feels positives world want free living terrifying hospitals cancer mentally ill people overdosed mg ended hospital yesterday im finally done etiz done got craziest shit life ended roof contemplating redflag called officers trying come scary zero control lucky kill im tears right im thankful alive really felt ended moment inhibition try stick opioids never thought redflag opioid forced go voluntarily said threatened doctor force go involuntarily later etizolam began wear felt strong urge leave guards monitoring door leading chance another patient acting restrained guards distracted made run made pretty far misjudged jump fell scraped fingers pretty badly doctor quick come see let leave told wanted leave suicidal overall shitty way situation injure discharged even forced sign voluntary admission paper helpi want buy gun figure everyone tell unfortunately im making choice whether say anyone kind message guns wont leave crippled actually kill grateful think might deleted im afraid wont reply ill end completely wrong problem blame didnt take side disagreement someone mad start insults eventually got relationship ended began obsessively texting times day talking family lying happening etc finally stopped threatened restraining order last time talked may cant anymoreit keeps getting worse genuinely cant take anymore im sorry manic episode everything seems possible much energy barely sleep hours day working around clock compliments workcolleagues productivity driving manic state even higher go clubbing altered selfesteem makes appear charming attractive womenas usually weeks ago lack sleep physically degraded body much life collapsed house cards called sick week work piles home became mess friends called asking reason suddenly responding ashamed tell mentally ill think sick stop talking altogether accelerating depression even morei used reason writing today manic state met wonderful girl work laughed together partied together worked together became good friends fell love never experienced love lost psycho lost shared feelings feel way first good friend say assured affect friendship avoided believe started seeing another guy hitting herwhat bothers never even saw depressive side knowing even best good enough sorry long post struggling manic depression years now friend decided hell commit redflag next birthday really need help ive trying help year now whenever said going commit redflag ive always talked time successful time cant ive suggested therapist refuse therapy one extremely horrible experience mental facility decided commit redflag found two best friends cut said hated argument involved whether cared plus things reason friend overreacted something little thought indicated friends hated decided cut first says sensitive hes cutting know ive tried stop work detail important next paragraph may add trans male additionally friend talked said transgender people higher rate redflag ive looked seems true aside says possible high transgender people see theirselves dissatisfied theirselves told possibly might believe changing genders may fix dissatisfaction note sees remember friend suicidal one told multiple times feel girl thats know comment im transgender never anyways hes fixated birthday commit redflag tried talk bit fully convinced ive tried helping many times im tired point hes getting worse obvious needs professional help refuses keeps hurting told multiple times nobody cares nobody cares stop nobody care commits redflag hes mistake trash useless pathetic etc mean rant find told guess annoying fact nobody stop ive tried ive done seriously everything hes getting worse decided try come reddit help rejects help ignores help try offer sometimes try help hell likely ignore switch topic something involves depression find somewhat suspicious thats anyone please help thank mean much much pain right almost completely unbearableim intense emotional distress dead feels comforting option end suffering know may overreaction alive pretending things okay theyre long feels torture hurts much im empathetic overthink others burns soul watch people suffer able help barely help anymore stomach constantly knots heart racing cant even think straight hard clear mind injustice see around good people hurtpunished cruel people rewarded humanity relentless quick sacrifice others want around anymore one tell im venting internet thank taking time read school celebrates autism april fools day lmao help buy russian blue cat made fiverr account ask help android apps year old virgin never job going kill myselffuck shit hate motherfucking life never one real friend life know interesting never friends never girlfriend year old virgin never job try try sent countless applications never called back interviews fuck goddamn country america goddamn job opportunities unless got bosss dick mouth people know good gotten laid job right complain poor lonely need walked shoes even consider thinking killing fuck man killing fuck world wow days worried less hours feel good calm long time still scared looking forward leaving notes house body saying goodbye anyone particular bye truth cut everyone knew time coming want anyone feel hurt dead years worked alone possible thought parents abused mum constantly tell dumb burn hell dad angry person beat mum earliest memory hitting mum mum put years later go sleep without beating words every night got beating one reason another true brothers least believed school life bad dyslexic af used small weak kid got bullied constantly really badly point teachers joined well got low grades extra beatings got college stopped getting bullied never frienda year half age dad died mum got depressed quit college started work jobs help support mum brothers year half mum died sad idk never liked instead dealing emotions dad told buried emotions deep inside used boil form angeri went got another jobs average sleeping hours per night working non stop support brothers expected got engaged age arranged marriage uncles auntie set week marriage older brother told put ton debtalmost marriage got called offi account point tried back grind older brother left bring take court years everyone told older brother fing even younger brother crying saying fing listen look eyes completed university know jobs wear suiti never gave time always expected yeah know sounds easy life feel burnt always getting kicked grow empathetic nobody showed life pathetic human nothing life die nothing hours go life spoilers disappearance sea favorite niece phyllis murder mystery writer abigail mitchell ruth gordon strong suspicions phyllis husband edmund galvin charles frank responsible death fact abigail convinced murdered made look tragic accidentbr br knowing theres evidence edmund arrested phyillis death deciding take law hands abigail cooks elaborate plan make look phyllis death tragic accident getting edmund secretly come mansion give combination walkin safe leave vacation new york city abigail tricks going inside locking startled surprised edmund safe soundproof nobody mansion butler maid abigails personal secretary veronica mariette hartley hear screaming help next day edmund found suffocated death veronica discovered edmunds body put away safe keeping abigails latest murder mystery manuscriptbr br lt columbo peter falk called case involving strange death edmund garvin determine murder tragic accident going edmunds apartment columbo puzzled find single photo late wife whos missing month ties abigail always felt edmund love phyllis suspect abigails mind murder br br columbo big fan together wife abigails murder mystery novels hard time realizing fact responsible edmunds death evidence points abigil including pair missing car keys edmunds proved abgail fact house way airport edmund locked inside walkin safebr br going evidence columbo comes strange conclusion edmund must left evidence inside safe writing killer conclusion quickly checkmated found edmund even pen pencil well light safe lightbulb burned write theres something odd thats inside safe lt columbos mind came case black paint residue found dead edmunds fingernails belt buckle br br evidence put together number items safe end hangs edmunds murder tricky cunning mystery writer abigail mitchell edmund let abigail unknowingly convict final attempt air safe used breathing using burnt matchsticks write abigail last manuscript murdered abigail mitchell guys epic battle best user teenagers every vote counts guys im one lucky ones deserve iti grew broken home violence drugs alcohol swore everything right best person failed last year allowed alcohol take peaked shit faced sex wife blacked next thing remember hands around thoat coming front room cowering sobbing knew done knew didnt deserve live calmed layed promising wouldnt touch took alcohol pills bathroom locked door best came hospital bed side told leave told didnt deserve anything done told ok dont want refused ive done best better got worse ive stopped drinking day havent much raised finger direction gotten harder ive tried giving doesnt want idk anymore voice head mine anymorei think used know know talking now sometimes speaks mouth comes black fair bit find driving somewhere dont know got sort wake hes telling bad things bad things want think want honestly know know person see mirror mean recognise hes different things hes telling going hurt people know much longer control dont know whos control anymore needs shut need shut smoke theyll kill make look redflag im severely reckless multiple therapists say im adrenaline junkie maybe something kills edit smoke atleast pack day along pot coke every shrooms today birthday nobody remembers got wishes best friend immediate family bad person one remember birthday concernedit feels cycle everyday shit serious problems family friends poor disabled good life think death may way better lifejust empty void feel think anything pain sadness thoughts seems perfect life seems long boring sorry bad english spanish know happening heres life pro tip know lifes hard depression shit really fucked whenever feel might getting depressed punch yoself fucking face ignore bad shit fuck ur school fuck everyone enjoy till state whatever happens better depression title says anyone anything try cheer literally care less want think killing minute thanks bored sad anyone recognize ill delete later question wanting attention want know im curious know something bad good wan na ask people going tougher times still fighting making way goes everyone depressed always others going much right maybe going making way getting stressed stupid things suicidal thoughts yearsidk start im suicidal thoughts years parents mother amp father used beat amp abuse bad words years old daily basis amp sometimes mom give food eat demotivate every time saying nothing life im useless die im trash bullshit daily basis amp threatened kick home cuz im adult yo give svere depression amp anxiety everyday amp sometimes cry hard amp think commit redflag free many friends mom whenever friends come home mom say shit amp talk amp make fun never shared anyone thought everyone make fun amp understand first time im writing subreddit thank reading sorry grammar mother tongue movie took jerry springer approach superhuman power wilder napalm kind themebased movie love addressing idea prodigies america defined either gifts attempts hide time movie points every prodigy human feared worshipped human great comedy fun human slight satiric edge im currently hiding toilet work dont want locked toilet ive minutes send help darkness finally lifting thank everyone lent kind wordi made post ago old account explaining thinking calling quits honestly brink grasping semblance hope owed finestickets unable renew license unable work pit financially honestly killing lent plight sub many people sympathetic going many even similar things life let know even though take time gets better put head focused financial help grandma able pay fines license back first time years drive feels incredible side dark place may seem trivial problem one hardest times life even problem way similar im sure outcomes hold keep believing change come months ago wouldnt thought say gets battling depression self harmed many suicidal thoughts attempts now feel officially losing battle see light end tunnel matter losing day posting favorite twenty ne pilts quotes order start dayself titled albumtwenty one pilots quote look mirror ask alright put glitter soul hides behind tyler joseph ill never wage slavethis world made someone someone want engage world around someone want meet new people someone want take responsibility someone want make create things someone incurious world around someone rather live undetected rock someone courage play part world stage someone want learn something new someone want put someone without hope future someone want make plans someone without dreams desires someone talking theres hope lets hypothetically say got stranger honestly happen nowadays meet mrbeast stire everything walkart target need spend h got thrown mental care smoking weedive sick leave months anxiety got told today wont lengthened tested positive cannabis expect go work agency monday begin looking work even know able work anxiety today feel absolutely shit want die know way panic attack met doctor asked wanted admitted psych ward refused said might take lvm law care addicts even cannabis use negligible ish grams per month week break buy anxiety skyrocketed tried taking emergency medication help even took double dose happened fell asleep hour woke feeling take whole pack emergency medication benzodiazepine mg pills done want mom live one finds able handle fact died idea im longer getting help wanted couple girls interested years definitely tell always afraid ask never gotten clear wan na gf something people really liked felt awkward said normal conversations weird really liked talking girls always regretted saying something afterwards yeah bugging wan na know yall feel probably gon na delete later usual post stuff theres actually good reason anyone liveevolutionarily purpose hard wired us find mate procreate weve moved far past society reason live relationships flippant things people use satisfy selfish needs purpose find love love lingers exists nothing worth living cant take anymorei hate job close relationships successes total failure cant stand anymore nothing ive tried last years done good want another ow fuck shit spilled yoghurt shirt looks came shirt today home alone cut self really need help energy ask help girlfriend ugly friends ho say depression calling talking life worth living right give im fucking done everything guys fucking use hate much good enough anyone never wil cause clearly thats thats super fucking cool u want someone fuck use tbh actually kind enjoying life pep step motivation step makes sense anything prolonging death trying feel matter feel going worse everyone involved anyway good day peeps well shiiiii infraction point system trash needs overhaul make whole lot sense minor infractions leads permanent ban way serious infractions amount points based severity rule break cap higher compensate posting memes considered unrelated saying mds gay joke give punishment posting nsfw doxing minor harassment seriously poorly thought even poorly executed system whats pointso im neet money every job try makes lose sanity workload people work im fat gross looking crooked teeth acne scars stretch marks body lose weight still lot loose skin see able afford fixing things anytime soon luck women see fixing without physical improvement friends confide things actually enjoy ive tried therapy mental hospital stays medication real positive results make matters worse im grand student loan debt degree finish im convinced ill miserable life accomplish financial independence cant stand thought abandoning dreams work aholes live mediocrity without decent looking girlfriendwife close friends ive wanted travel long remember know possible without filthy rich look digital nomads see possible current situation either hope someday able travel world finding decent looking girl financially independent thoughts kept going past year every day believe dreams less less circumstances changing see realistically change anytime soon im sick dealing depression basically disappointment around thought id make post last resort take life maybe theres something considered im really sure anymore maybe dreams come true nothing look forward really better dead ps sorry extra long post thanks anyone took time read careful say reddit account tracked contactedeven hypothetical questionsscenarios talk take advice especially youre using certain wifi service care life anymorei never asked born stay importantly want stay proper place talk horny things social media rteenagers frowned upon pornhub comments sections obviously mean inbox open im straight dude unpopular opinion singing petitions doesnt really anything think called performative activism something idk enoughthrowaway account obvious reasons really enough everything thing kept death affect family kids mean parents brothers sisters friends thankfully physically healthy give body somebody make use gladly reason feel guilty killing tortured inside head shitty childhood always physical pains sad inside didnt know feelings child didnt know word havent gone away adult got worse tried years therapy point blank refuse meds refuse meds wont actually fix anything mother meds describe functional zombie days drinks takes xanax prozac something fucked anything dont want end dont want end half fucking meds thanks come conclusion years planet nothing torture think something wrong mentally learning disabled borderline schizophrenic something know actual medical term one people spoke thought may bpd maybe anyway frustration feel torture head sometimes hear screaming inside head hear voices various people family ask things etc literally going around inside head screaming roller coaster tell anxiety seem understand asked help point really care well feel anyway fucked comes relationships sex trust anyone sex reminds one bitch fucking despise makes feel sick physically sick mentally often stopped said fuck cant makes look total fucking weirdo god knows makes person feel zero confidence zero self esteem sex relationships something doesnt apply think things even want even probably cheat leave knew really wouldnt want stage life seeing friends little sisters etc relationships almost everybody somebody im saying even want relationship highlights loneliness feel feel dont understand people dont understand relationships dont trust people im angry im hurt im sad im frustrated feel worthless words think describe moment suppose feel sick sick inside head go im really angry family stay worried sad kill dont live life way wish understand supportive going miserable planet hate enough want go im still waiting hear main siege months bro months tell cat fucking freak nature wake walkout room morning right see cat chilling something chonkers mouth figure thing catnip godamn bird first wan na know fatass gets winded jumping couch catch bird second godamn bird came windows closed anyways mom said tell shes good girl thanks coming ted talk massively prefer girls without makeup rather makeup course want wear makeup thats fine choice mine prefer see girls real beauty instead fake one version bleak house best adaptation classic novel known representation court chancery character drama magnificent acting marvellous sinister tulkinghorn dedlocks smallweed crooke miss flyte two young lovers spiders web chancery holds whole thing together cinematography superb mistake bbc make copyright meant version seen uk either video dvd many years tried find faced stone wall end got dvd copy canada years old want dieso ill pretty much give story im right now friends told counsellor depression tried kill twice went different highschool friends friends highschool really hated second year highschool left go one friends went really popular went friends lot later year stopped hanging popular people people liked im third year friends school never anything social outside school feel terrible ive contemplated redflag much feel matter time parents tried talk counsellor finding website called lost hope lists redflag methods ipad time autism test done didnt end got talk counsellor handling counsellor said sounds depression didnt trust ended lying forgot soon nowadays parents terrible relationship slam door lot take anger cracks wall im terrible son terrible parents lot people age use depression cool ive never told anyone mine kind embarrassing tldr tried kill twice younger social life outside school hiding depression everyone know parents pure hate relationship please point reason live many people redflag dont see feel hearing reason might help cant go sleep night without drugs take hate hate every inch every fibre im one blame take mg valium alongside alcohol go sleep night stay awake night unable anything stare ceiling involved drugs sleep fuckers devil blue dress world horrible people planet needs job need suck people ahead need conform people matter right wrong matters majority says conform cast aside matter right talented matters whether conform different constantly submitting people bugs hate everybody never want married bring someone horrible world want old going die want go alone want take people make lives miserable want go alone im tiredive carrying weight whole life ive met people willing shoulder end leaving cant blame realize heavy carry hand back pretty quickly tried honest partner told depressed trying better reaction everyone either derision disbelief outright disgust said going help whenever actually talked pure hatred eyes said feels im trying oneup feels cant complain want feel way feel cant unload leave desk cry bathroom today shout darkness unpopular subreddit garage exterior switch radio switch opens im heavy enough partial hanging reliable car hose bleach ammonia plastic bags many options im trying resist know hell sad hell right prisoner prison bars warden mean son bitch inmates telling torture big deal walk away quit time put weight finally sleep nice guy women date dicks unless theyre lesbian date vaginas theyre bi date dicks vaginas die skies small planeso im successful attractive married wife adores feelings anything ive depressed entire life tried doctors pharma anti depressants even tried recreational drugs last years helped till tolerance builand stopped working kids parents worry real friends depression ruined life thsts accept people cancer illness pass away years old interested airplanes dad aerospace engineer hes gone years successful home outright california many rental properties net worth around million money never made happy bought lamborghini whim thinking bring joy kept garage years sold desire interest sex opportunity women desire im story loser feels unloved inferior thats hates life quite love told im attractive got good going brain sick depression depression slow painfull tortured existence depressed understand guess illness mental goes better cancer die suffer depression years ive decided wan na live much longer illness wan na found hanging garage something unpleasant overdose gunshot methods im gon na take years private pilots license thrn either buy small plane go solo flight maybe take pills alcohol numb crash hillside mountain way people say died something loved died passion thats better remembered loser hung garage sound bizarre cant even tell im actually miserable anymore im lying myselfi feel fucking hopeless everything feels lie rarely cry dont even sad feel fog headed fucked thoughts scare shit every time think god im miserable ill start thinking im lying im actually miserable im psychopath trying rationalize headphones earbuds personally got headphones s hifi feeling connected unlimited wifi srsly tho headphones earbuds ive made many mistakes deserve die anyone even one read help lot verdicthey using throwaway account obvious reasons justneed talk ive getting intensely suicidal comes waves theres moments feel perfectly fine even happy im cast deep depression remember terrible mistakes ive made ive wrestling depression four years now ive two redflag attempts already guess want know shitty things ive done guess thing keep mind iswell im autistic sometimes lack social awareness know better mention fairly sheltered homeschooled conservative parents ill let guys verdict end little kid years younger id sometimes open bathroom door sisters mom dad showering wanted glimpse naked anything perverted thought funny went eeeeeeeeek never felt sexually attracted family thought disgusted played prank understand context wrong one day tried dad pulled crying thought trouble instead gave talk told sister way hindsight think truebut worry sometimes subconscious sexual undertone perverted know younger might see glimpse family member naked disgusted part curious justi think knew better briefly touched cat penis two seconds decided bad idea fact used touch sorts surfaces penis age thought revolts disgusts now feel horrible person girl admitted crush sure respond girl never told thinking decided tell flattered young different stages emotional development good idea issue uncle decided take away electronics reason decided bike house got address mutual friend told felt said beautiful kind person want break heart make feel rejecting ugly anything hugged told meant lot turns already dating another guy back age thought right thing hindsight find really creepy cringey homeschool prom group photos stood behind girl bumped accident three separate times move muscle asked okay stand said fine never anything kept brushing let happen butpart enjoyed feels twisted hindsight sometimes watch porn wellim lonely ive never girlfriend mainly lack confidence good social skills never watched porn thought actresses underage nonconsentingbut one assumptions wrong saw something illegal even know thought keeps night one time encounter website accident seemed hosting suspicious images might underaged girls horrified reported felt horrible part kept telling monster sleep night started shaking crying work tell boss wrong beg let home early one coworkers saw crying comforted parking lot never told saw told strong got close redflag night voice head tried convince pedophile even though tried right thing sometimes intrusive violent sexual racist thoughts diagnosed ocd thoughts powerful start feel impulses actively avoid close woman im afraid ill bump accident worse ill act sexual impulse never never want thought scares feel monster absolute monster im carrying constant shame guilt everywhere go ive told dad friends issues tell im worrying much things bad think right deserve die decide good hoodies amazon gift card one hoodie ill two wants eat pocky stick want intimacy boy know see bl doujins boys eating pocky stick together eventually kissing want irl someone tell deja vu please wonders months looked still dont know meanssss live motion games tell us ideasfeedback projects earn free game hello everyone live motion games game developer poland based warsaw try reach many people projects decided post getting permission mods thank say hello thats thing though work several projects always lookout two main things ideas implement games feedback regarding already achieved love hear opinions ideas games currently developing chernobyl liquidators simulator builder simulator builders china supermarket manager check games right herehttpsstoresteampoweredcomdeveloperlivemotiongames scroll select upcoming releases see games currently working recommend checking devlogs see already check trailers games ampxb idea example see game feedback remark something changed perhaps regarding games love hear little treat four ideassuggestions feedback deem valuable us receive free steam key train station renovation relaxing game repairing renovating train stations bringing back former glory thank much chance questions open gladly answer cheers long distance girlfriend suicidalhello girlfriend suicidal extremely suicidal want move another country help wow arms gotten muscular recently flex arm defined inch dent forms side near body see muscle raise inch inches tall im cm tall thats inches american metric system nice song day gosha found yesterday perfect vibing fits types music official announcement fuck transitioning relationshiplate twenties im ftm transgender im getting depressed anxious time cant afford see therapist im taking hormones thats something thats going well life everything falling apart husband left want seen gay love anything pain knowing transition stay bad anything issues related transition dysphoria im waiting long seen progress treatment help know creepiest thing seen dont know put mi sexual appeal girls puke think eww girls groups sanctioned redflagjust wondering house three floors know jumping third floor kill landed feet went headfirst jumped window floor need die kill myselfyou try convince least give advice know im gon na die soon make time left horny horny hi fellow peeps peepettes discord server friends trying new peoplee chat send memes play games minecraft among us overwatch stuff going commitment guys girls welcome dm link d brother brother makes mad hes racist homophobic makes fun self harm fucking time tells kill much life mine entire society seems odds thismy life mine wish means mine end one thing tremendously important life left constant nightmares despair demand one thing condition continued existence nobody give itll make look bad im ending life telling anyone stopped im telling either unless reasonably think provide screw society standards makes blackmail manipulation threat institutionalization im going kill lost chance something turkish person sw helpon forum post someone turkey threatened redflag want help know contact know real name forum name accounts facebooktwitteryoutube name pictures posted facebook well anyone know feel moral obligation report know parents driving insane help dad says go walk make sigh louder wanted want go parents hear yell minutes banned phone xbox computer two days dad leaves without waiting literally seconds finish putting shoes happened saying sentence yelling go walk yelling reason minutes ago time writing husband dealing depression two years now two small children together going therapist taking medications days good days really bad truly makes feel hates fault later apologizes confusing know think anymore depressive person make spouse feel good enough want itive said post different sub thing stopping dog late night talks mightve told something ill tell think hate useless use world wan na die nobody care died theyd happy gone everyone better gone feeling peaceive always heard spoken regarding made decision sense peace floods end date pain im tired invalid constant pain holidays really hardest im hungry human body needs eat five times day keep brief moments existential dread die keeps happening really scaring normal anxiety depression wondering happens others probably take post day till tomorrow got new phone number reached actual fuckwhat even meani told wantoverand overand overif want break fucking itbecause iti fucking anymorei fucking enoughyou treating shiti mean said voicemailyou fucking areand sick ithow supposed sleep put redflag roofbut give shiti treated precious diamond sweep rug dirti believe fucking trusted youi fucking hurtso fucking hurtlet die aloneyou see thoughts going headi anymore need talk whats pointi feel cant anything right everyone hates people better without hope future much anxiety feel im drowning sucksi suspicious already excluded social media saw group talking inside jokes life updates everyone knew recent post someone confirmed new group chati worst depressive period well ready socialize talk mundane things joke around told initially understanding time went noticed group chat became inactivethese people made fun behind back privately chided one closest friend carelessly ignorant covid context vaccination rollout country slow transmission highhe living senior past tested positive sister tested positive covid twice works hospital concerned friend tell go unless essentialand super close bond really think overbearing friends almost yrs otheronce call let slip one numerous dinners jokester made fun friends acting mom hurt private matter painted killjoy paranoid person gutted meit one reasons started feel distant group started cold told struggling mental health settled iti sorry ranting feel absolutely alone closest circle friends top tier shunned longer fun around withit feels high school feel anxious depressed choose hang classmates louder extroverted play wheneverdepression sucks friends sucks harder friends made new group chat excluded told original gc might able interact much depressive period thighs hand hand executed name japanese law sooooo im bit pickle m recently moved overseas australia dont speak language wanted speak certain friend happens female saying talk day asked tommorow says nice want talk much say need talk friends speak english others best friends previous school replied youre sweet anyway say things thats know likes even legitimately dont know even relationship work sort half way across earth help please make blow reddit likely shell figure sees guess show dude love girl yes love much dude wan na make love girl sorry cant im ready yet dude ready girl abortion hour ago see pokemon card collections raise im essentially counting days become failurei one last year highschool im forcefully thrusted real world idea graduate zero idea turn idea work trade field work actual passions side trades passion theyd job fail easily furthermore cant simply take break highschool family allow one bit besides family id alone one close friend leaving airforce graduate ill alone lost laughingstock disappointment mentally destroyed likely suicidal one tight bundle year quite literally going beginning end ive never felt dread anxiety anything entire life better enjoy last year ill parents poor dead dreams aspirations heres failing please dont hate last post joke dare thingy came guy asked ask gf im sorry ive decidedif anyone remotely care dies kill ill actual reason wanting die loneliness depression wouldnt give fuck hurting love yeah kind fucked cus im kinda kinda hoping someone finally kms fan willy wonka chocolate factory wan na see oompa loompa bring back oldtimey masquerades semiironic covid makes funny masks go eyes badass played persona makes even better costume party almost sent email yall really happy ive feeling bit sad needed send quick email teacher ive done feel great took awhile motivated actually im happy poured everything relationship im worse start withabout months ago met someone reddit best period life week met happened around time things started going downhill faster difficult first opened level id never come close anyone admitted feelings couple months later fought relationship helped worst times life now disclosed much bring past things people done effects first others backs things started go downhill suppose long distance relationships rarely go well whilst hurt able take care person willing keep going joy brought life apparently werent yesterday bad moment admitted frustrated situation parental situation meant harder us see instant relationship supposedly protect deserved better something longer see ive deleted conversation history trusted poured heart soul sanity making us work spent much time talking hours felt empty never hope future met severe fear death kept going far every day mental image falling nearest bridge replays mind constantly everything reminds almost everything together even hug song introduced namely music activity eachother things used enjoy gets crying im sad feel hollow useless main thing motivating improve medical condition fixing us physical fitness always quite underweight us lack effort uni trying fix work towards future us theyd taken away worst insecurities things good back worse im constantly questioning wrong whether really loved back whether broke found unattractive reason person supposed live without ambition hope concept future anything look forward pressures outside world increasing various deadlines major decisions need make close want stop cant see future world one thing consistently made happy gone enjoy present either past rules life past shit promised wed try stay friends afterwards went window instantly blocked main apps used communication cant lean friends theyre going shit im alone alone without keep going heading walmart today might day u see cutest insert pronoun world ill go without making human interaction harm feel bettermaybe better harming others help decideive attempted redflag twice overdosing pills successful unfortunately middle moving psychiatrist gave phone number worried texted yesterday response really surprised one question try ativan alcohol im exactly confident survived last overdose attempts benefit today downfall survive seriously mess wait purchase high caliber handgun even shot gun feel comfortable decision absolutely know work crippling depression hands around neck squeezing harder every moment making desperate silly movie starts soft porn sequence ventures farcelike comedy art gallery adds shocker discovery hotel room introduces random murder obvious reasonbr br follows bizarre surreal stopwatch scene particular exquisitely unnecessary culminating revelatory twist ending obvious unfair viewer see trivia section precisely deliberately unfairbr br movie goes way offensive many groups possible transsexuals insane wonderful huggie bearstyle racial stereotyping subway condescendingly treats viewer idiot closing scenes characters endlessly explain one another great detail happened film though background female characters restaurant scene end joy watchbr br fact whole movie joy watch despite many many flaws whole package well works take survey realize actually exactly friends kind sad think really matter supposedly helped person research realized literally friends anyway wanted say something know im looking friends karma awards felt saying something sorry wasted time ok relationship boyfriend pc gamer plays games every day im seeing monday said wants play new games im asked cant play sunday monday come apparently take hours download dont anything anyway either put ill mum drop early bitch wanting attention whole time guys girls pls help situation whats something say think realized somewhat straight people seem lot dumber gay people sexuality rly direct effect intelligence logical person thinks believe lot indirect effects benefit gay people different ways certain level comprehension realize gay instead straight default hard explain basically loop gay theres lot people sadly filler world basically video game npcs except story theyre fucking pointless people think burning g signal towers prevent virus spreading shit people fucking lost background cant interact theyre almost straight probably think go hell kissing boys shit know gay gay people sex opposite gender forced make stupid decisions straight people getting pregnant underaged cant afford gay people know cant hit guy expect gay compatible relationship buy default stupid shit getting rejected girls straight guys use dating apps often smartest choice days gay guys course interested guys intelligent choice males along best males friendships less problems relationships straight people yes theres lot ways gay better good today pain free ive feeling chest stomach pains past two days hard eat eat fruits drinks finally today woke pain f diagnosed depression borderline personality disorder comes goes bad bad things going amazing life moment particularly bad either feel serious slumpi tried therapy multiple times last years multiple different therapists approaches honestly never done anything alli many different medications throughout years finally one helps others still fully nobody family deals mood disorders understanding go slumps feel taken seriously one truly understands bad feeli want try therapy simple fact afford make much medicaid even good insurance paying almost pocket twice month therapy alone including general appointments medicationi really people talk one boyfriend years supportive helpful given fact hes never struggled really understand best friend honestly greatest friend general feel bother talk last person sister picks chooses wants listenhelpi hate burdening people issues feel feel going lose mind really know anymore teacher said use big words cos require self validation earlier im gon na lie hit hard fcking true really sad play college soccer accomplishment everything fail ill probably week bye everything feels pointlessbackground struggling depression suicidal thoughts self harm eating disorder now ive fighting long feel im getting anywhere recently hit longest streak clean self harm months clean broke monday past years ive constantly heard better getting worse im losing hope way ive living life makes feel fucking pathetic life feels pointless im entirely worthless human dont see point trying anymore absolutely terrible relationship parents im nowhere near good enough never fail remind much disappointment much better lives wasnt around know fact best friends better without think id everyone favour kill honesty things keep going wrong im tired trying make right moved away city university im unhappy alone currently university social work mother said phone day youre gon na shit social worker youre fucked even help youre wasting money im starting think point cant even okay gon na able help others samesimilar situation made agreement next week dont sort sign find reason live ill end dont think im gon na find reason arent sorry formatting im mobile sorry kinda place hardly organize thoughts right now new sub first time posting think anyone really wants read paragraphs life wanted make simple anyone feeling empathetic today edit fact paragraphs female entering mid twenties feel mess somehow put together well put together mess willim going light past briefly canredflag child witnessing medical problems father lots blood etc diagnosed redflag disorder medicated redflag abused drugs throughout teen years landed rehab due cocaine overdoses age diagnosed redflag depressiondeveloped panic disorder rehabmedicated redflag zero meds rehab help mid s loosely diagnosed add medicated stimulant never abused helped ton dad died two years ago close haunts daily outbursts ill cry alone car alone apartment live boyfriend guess trying find comfort feel fixing young much happened nothing works feel add diagnosis correct yet one medication worked eating disorder entire life abused cocaine understand doctors looking issue trying treatment aside life good financially stable loving boyfriend dog pay bills etc constantly feel hell either angry want cry reason alli hold job life unless bartending drink abuse alcohol drinks night lot understand customer serviceinsurance broker type job hours daily even much handle granted people screaming constantly sure depression terrible ungrateful human find beauty things life feel terrible often thank reading support appreciated short sweet life wants deadpeople abuse dad abuses discord abused years severe depression almost years antidepressants therapy useless nothing makes happy anymore even games frustrate enjoy anymore future really college pointless every single job requires lifetime experience im hope help need money im old enough ask money actual help communities work partially fault still school around february fundraiser key club donate money fund clubs service events selling chocolate bars left desk kid stole bars gave away fault trusting high school kids mature enough steal fundraiser figured offered pay well gave bill promised pay rest later corona break came school hes blocked every social media owe club community service ask parents feel bad asking pay mistake made theyre struggling buy groceries dont want donate thats totally okay leave tips make money quick easy thatd great trying job almost years now nobody wants hire teenager without work experience cant experience without job hope trust scam absolute truth thank first time life im pretty proud looked report book realised scored overall score exams years ago received results today saw got overall know nothing crazy still though im really proud improvement im asian imagine pissed parents saw results say feeling good feeling approaching little overwhelmed part wants sit feel take granted part wants cry shut know either cry overwhelmed cry trippy going forever know let us take slow rush figure things feel crying happy cant bear thought continuing lifei thinking killing ive disappointed many people fit cant concentrate work cant find enjoyment anything every year hit new lows ive depressed graduate school cant keep work state mind ive done next nothing year ive degrading experience let superiors know depression problem order hate appears laziness first said quitting phd program said wanted stay im frustrating enough general piece advice read simply take things slow luxury anymore ive tested everyones patience enough already consume resources contribute nothing always depressed lacking motivation ive tried meds therapy sports gym eating healthy temporary effects lose steam quickly know confront true self course fuck expect hate everyone envy everyone time people always say live life see happens die anyway think shows lot ignorance sure lot fortuitous things happen life keep struggling chance something good happen ive given life countless shots im tired hope finding disappointment cant live family friends hurt kill ultimately strong survive weak die strong enough accept death make kill theres point wallowing shithole concerned someone think depart fuck shit actual fuck guys already failed nut november even day yet everybody coomed used think coomer yalls cant even go fucking day without busting nut god damn swear yalls tryna failing nut november speedrun world record want horny want happy fix turned wish hadnti cant forgive become biggest regret life made question even regret pain caused eats every day cant bear much longer want people care remember worthless piece shit drifting life work making suicidali really big problems anxiety miserable due work anxiety rather kill go work another day fact think redflag every minute every day morning almost ran car wall miles per hour avoid going today getting harder fight redflag point need money rent pay bills want hurt wife death devisate really know everything life dependent job life risk job even fight anxiety long enough new job help hate job anxiety really know med doctors help really think doctor medicine changes help fast enough point need advice anything told post herei asked effective form redflag instead answers someone directed im sure even understand purpose sub refreshing interview legendary italian cinematographerproducerdirector passed away close features credit director large portion spent damatos softcore sex films including notorious emanuelle entries laura gemser briefly cover porn career kept afloat last decade interesting section focusing horror action efforts damato plenty great anecdotes actors low budget filmmaking including story assistant accidentally collecting real bones amid fake ones shooting yearold catacomb interviewees include george eastman al cliver liked bit conversation stateside filmirage productions single question troll granted cult film now must confess remember film well certainly liked think best adaptation burroughs novel really course one best movie christopher lambertbr br good movie tarzan cult ones weissmuller tellyour living organized hell mansion mind oversized cell im miserable great start days end fucking great guys wish friend happy birthday really appreciate thanks guys heres youtube videohttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdubdaydbe talked friend redflagi tried convince went home picking phone voicemail comes hours idk dothis whole covid xmas thing making anxiety depression much much much worse wanted ldr boyfriend visit aince march cat got ill cant mix households wales mu suicidal thoughts definitely got worse idk im tired paini live life people envy dont work go school anymore sit around home nothing day problem mind longer feel happiness pain things ive everyday wake flashbacks horrible things happened sexual abuse bullied abusive parents brain loves take back make feel everything kind sadist know reminding world horrible place need go soon ive tried pills therapy nothing really cures pain knowing hurt living great lives sense power love best friend cant enjoy time anymore due misery im going feel bad hurt know needs done end suffering im cleaning little happens planning way wont fail year thank brother tries taze really sort electric lighter creates arc rods use light things fire basically taser hate pierre jolivet plays quixote character unable speak living world incompatible modern life trusts homemade weaponry helmet sleeves spear made hubcaps seat cushions discarded office furniture quixote rode rocicante man rides contraption literally transcending lost lives caught harsh demeaning modern world soaring earth away plight modern man characters ride search adventure effort right wrongs world characters guardian knights values unfamiliar characters storybr br unlike cervantess tale movie identify directly anachronistic ideals main character compare alien forbidding landscape lush beautiful world live frame reference fantasy realm lone knight perhaps remembers vision one expects main character triumph vanquish change world better back world plenty longer existsbr br look movie see true knight among world humansasanimals quixote considered true knight among animalsbr br cervantess tale see dreamer without really understanding scope anachronistic displacement bessons jolivets tale see new world eyes quixote value visions ideals crusading main character im worriedso amazing person ew months know year within months told lot things went kid teenager include disgusting things happen person sexually assaulted thrown study course want lot pressure dealing quite time usual nightmare sleepless nights sudden breakdowns looking break cried front around feeling sad im able anything try level best make happy things lately severe amount nightmares urge harm right whole life revolves around meet everyday try conform give everything deserves know goes away help read idcwell im shit ive fuck time parents feel might sent another troubled teens place fucking lose whatever comes first point ig bye ampxb rip hero alex diedive never sad death someone whos grandma im sorryim tired want vent listen guy really liked first person really liked disastrous relationship another much older man guy age got along really well similar interests started acting strange said want date mental health issues trying hard strong happy really loved emotions fleeting worthless heard story million times suicidal make unworthy love hurt mean one see anything good give hurts worse mean know bother im worth love people sometimes ask im dating anyone cant see im utterly worthless date trash want end hope job gets robbed shot dont went bridge installed anti redflag things bring go somewhere im pathetic hard live hard die cant either one supposed think coming end soon ive writing novel nearly done think peace enough bravery want stop pain please wanted start working move day getting fat medication doctor put working making gain weight hate want die really really sad expensive medal awards useless want show someones post alot give many golds instead getting platinum argentium gold give person coins ad free time opposite stuff expensive even opposite instead spending argentium maybe golds better value bonuses dont blame anyone miserable life parentsdoesnt matter someone bullied teacher making making stupid jokes unsuccessful become girlfriend cheats asshole boss doesnt care well thinks profit prevented parents didnt gave birth hate till die unless wont even take care graveyards hope die pneumonia something million different reasons autistic bullied throughout school years emotionally abused parents home never friends kicked school months ago even know going anymore scared feel might kill next weeks young know feeling wayi living life enjoying myselfi want anyone tell gets better waited tried help years exact place started life roller coaster pleasant oneim seventeen year old girl survival mode every day tired fighting alone disappeared tomorrow morning everybody still go dayso still waiting already made decision next decision going want kill self want pain end nathoodle theres discord fear urge kill every masturbationim gay watching straight bear porn even recent watching adult stuff strongly urged voice head kill researching sell engagement ring bought ex fianc simultaneously somewhat relieved need money desperately currently living worst nightmare desire better want fucking dieim fucking weak even want better live life im insecure sensitive piece shit scared everything nothing waste time make others depressed existence burden others maybe ill even terrible burden kill whats matter ill dead anyway selfish life whats difference selfish death even born even live lazy worthless fucking asshole complains everything instead something better dunnojust practiced hanging felt kind good letting go never thought actually end life im feeling im getting kind close suicidal thoughts almost every day feel demon gotten control life everything seem superficial act guess ive path maybe five years now closest ive gotten actually ending mmy body feel fucking run car something aspirations inspiration imagination lot gone losing contact body doesnt feel much rather flowing spiritual entity trapped hunk bones flesh seem pointless people girlfriends really love guess apreciate embrace getting close contacts far feel galaxies noone really knows dont even really know dont apreciate even dunno thats problem dont know humanity earth great ways horrible others feel ive done part know things change bla bla bla tipping point gone far feel im now im stars universe body input nice cause feel im gon na end life now feeling inside shouldnt peace love helpanything funny every gif youtube video anything please beyond means carry plans tonight full risk want make clear worst times need smile im intoxicated felt worse forgot take safetly two weeks ago one round somewhere snowbank right now seriously need smile right now women rteenagers hot look scale httpsuploadwikimediaorgwikipediacommonsthumbchehighjpgpxchehighjpg im scared myselfive wrote times dont want judgements please even begin im almost used athletic nickname phoenix always somehow pulled ashes save youre decaying body literally changed life welli bad car accident bad airlifted days hospital aprilnovember lost use legs june relearn walk still barely walk foot never regained feeling july told going hill fast im chronically ill conditions ingredients fake food little morbid joke got life expectancy im lucky used independent still kept spirit october came flulike illness spinal leak almost killed literally edge death body isnt putting fights anymore somehow im know much offer world body biggest enemy happened june happen time body wasting away takes toll mind im serious court cases peoplecompany say much ticking time bomb body become pain much physical pain becoming shell knowing never parent knowing anything happen time mental toll legal things hospital bills family problems everyone tells im strong brave inspirational inside dont feel way feel weak feel scared feel burden yes knew summer people less time yes know many people shoes going spunky person nothing stop disabled dependent others operation operation im sorry theres much except help things go fix sorry eventually need feeding tube body biggest challenge caused confused feel need finish court things want go know selfish recently began self harm pain control im control yes im help yes im professionals mental state hate controlled medication doctor visits body turn scares bring back crippled want live dream theres wheelchairs walkers let ask close eyes imagine beach feeling sand feet smallest things freedom youre young appreciate feeling run dance hike go friendsappreciate wish knew got sick look back go damn im happy want live want die dont want leave friends family want leave escape im afraid theres nothing die ive friends die something happened mother grandfather afraid even though life point im afraid maybe reading small smudge story make someone appreciate beautiful body beautiful health valuable thing see even type fingers dislocating type hospital home go sick low funds must near hospital want play sun things youve never done always reply messages friends never tell peoplefamily things regret ive met many people sick supported believe right now dont smile inside scream youre biggest lie youre okay im kinder person smallest things biggest im scared im scared death im scared hard im alive dont want hurt everyone truly stepped others stepped many ways im blessed wish body love others want make tell story help people right im physically weak mentally exhausted im grateful im much pain im trying justice hurt many ways hug love things youd never imagined dance sing im suicidal im afraid im afraid know im good person wouldnt people around still hope hope ill rise ashes even wings broken thatll ill stand body greatest tool love know long dont need hear generic pass maybe emotions im chronically ill theres things life control control whether die body hand im sure im gon na keep trying literally cant im scared thankyou feel irritated af rn feel soooooo irritated reason feel irritated wan na fucking punch someone face fuck feeling hormone related shit fuck deal im going hurt someone way making sure dontim thief gambler im drunk druggie im murderer rapist im anything bad weak know almost without question one day ill become things care recovery rehab therapy whatever ill content vice ill horrible person hurt people everyone disgusted hate want around theyll right redflag becoming way partially makes sure ill never go far attention anyone plays music owner lives east coast made discord server anyone looking fine tune music bounce ideas dm link please aware server newly created fully functional pm est going girlfriend awayive deleted social media accounts put phone airplane wifi post girlfriend gone festival weekend friend best friend working im going tonight knew bad st least shell friend knew going see last year goes according plan id end fact access quick painless exit ill distract things now im sick life thought soon ill able finally rest brings relief im looking advice anything sort wanted tell someone thank spending time read much oxycodone need overdosei want kill self five milligram oxycodone pills left surgery enough bother hang fuck ass im bad day read description plz dropped ear buds toilet ran trash bike black twice threw ear buds went directly computer broken screen im kindaa drunknrn wan na chat yeah im kinda edge rn wan na chat stuff hmu dms ur chat lol im really fucken tired sorry dont respond lmao sad talking girlshe friendzoned first broke dayafter went ahead kissed another dude kinda flirtinand even looking texts probably explaining happened thing pushups everytime feel piece shit looks ill tonight sometimes academy recognize potential films nominate controversial strong sometimes nominated win anything hope happen year american beauty exactly happened boogie nights best film academy preferred give best picture oscar titanic purely commercial hollow film awards overrated good hunting irritating full monty pictures nominated main category la confidential good gets great movies boogie nights still better remembered categoriesbr br amazing film tells story eddie adams mark wahlberg surprisingly great performance year old barman takes attention jack horner burt reynolds redeeming acting director porn films eddie special gift helps world porn movies changes name dirk diggler starts make huge success fame last forever characters parallel stories amber waves julianne moore perfect buck don cheadle others including rollergirl heather graham actress accepts anything wearing roller shoesbr br banal trivial film turns perfect memorable one hands paul thomas anderson makes boogie nights great film execution added clever well written screenplay great soundtrack etc character well developed hisher importance context feeling weakness fear emotion explored resulting masterpiece modern american cinemabr br boogie nights strong impacting picture seen everyone really likes cinema plot seems banal first impression wonderful story highs downs things face lives amazing portrait end s beginning s exactly age highs downs thats makes film special true masterpiece br br one best three stooges shorts spooky house full evil guys goon challenge alert detective agencys best men shemp top form famous inthedark scene emil sitka provides excellent support mr goodrich role target murder plot shemps trusty little shovel employed great effect minute gem moves fast stooges short packs twice wallop highly recommended tell parents quit job im living home absolutely hate job time know something better enjoy know reaction wont good whywhenever ask killed yet keeping unable produce valid reason sure better seems worse turn human instincts survive kill splendid hey another food thing whipped cream pink lemonade powder yes one underseen films late s time oliver stone riding high platoon wall street opus born fourth july coscripted directed look world radio specifically one radio host middle texas man barry champlain onceinacareer turn eric bogosian wrote original play cowrote script barry mix howard stern one pundits hear radio stations many us might turn hes got ideas mind opinions hes unafraid speak stand phone callers callers indeed driving force film barry combat mindless obscene racist purely absentminded goes contend boss alec baldwin hit miss deal go nationwide outside confines southern way station hes inbr br seeing film felt curious see wouldve done stage id imagine oneman show bogosian several side direction film phenomenal stone known almost typecast director loves quick cuts limitless effects montage effects styles camerawork little tricks give films s distinctive almost auteur look s energy feverish quality look film frenzied films order add proper intensity within studio headspace barry champlain dp robert richardson make space seem claustrophobic times gritty unsure definitely edge scenes middle film barry studio fairly standard style along substance radio scenes among best ive seen stonerichardson combinationbr br one miscalculate performance bogosian obnoxious offensive angered passive everything love hate radio show hosts funny near distracting supporting role michael wincott kentmichaeljoe prank calls one night next gets invited studio scenes little uncomfortable viewer much subculture headspace s barry intrigued critical stoner may says show indeed hard cover everything goes within talk lot never boring champlain easy ignore bogosian goes climactic tirade air background panning around continuous spin becomes intoxicating reason freedom speech powerfulbr br stone synonymous filmmaker hotbutton issues takes subjects still controversial gives lifeforce always great skills ambitions way bogosians boosted anything making extremely skilled vision essentially near oneman show already wellwritten advice families redflag attempt survivorsnot sure right sub im crisis moment found hours ago mom overdosed prescription pills left note afternoon dad found acted quickly shes currently hospital unconscious stable im hours away hopping next train tomorrow morning im shocked devestated absolutely heart broken mom salt earth im running every conversation clues talked yesterday made plans see january im blind sighted crushed feel every emotion shock sadness relentless im looking resources guidance support anything offer dont know whats expected dont know im supposed right now take care mom go actually offing myselflife shit ive spent last ten years regretting failure better way fix never ringing another shitty terrible decade sad thing im sure go anything ordinary celing hanging options opt beltnoose ideas past years feels life thrown constant pain misery sure take anymore young lad feel live another years way feeling right now frightened adult comparing everyone around maintain friendships notredflag family feel ungrateful saying way feel frightened pain death love die makes sense needed chest nothing going way life think im gon na todayschool horrible cant switch online either im taking bunch pills shower tonight saying kill men cringe mean men change term tf convince otherwisetoday stressful day life tomorrow going worse severely depressed last months result led failing classes school parents know mom going find tomorrow cant handle top addictions put gun head tonight held minutes pull trigger going go bed now think last night wake hours going make choice feel nothing live anymore easier way counseling years back counselor told everything mom trust anymore one friends started drift away slowly excluded activities ive going day day last month im ready done days want die painful way possible suffering moment absolve wrong done continue others many times kinder aspect personality come break prideful sore loser jealous meanspirited come even know blame household even even excuse job better came selfish want badly excused embraced flaws despite able prideful cruel bastard still loved sometimes one wrong sometimes apology instead give sometimes think fundamentally unlovable hard along smart placate perhaps intelligence stupidity people reassure love support feels disingenuous maybe done disingenuously say cruel unfoundedi wants disgusts contradict overlap someone touch starved hates touched really want know even know begin know tired days want sleep slip away dreams reflection looking respect decisionhi im trying really hard rationalise please bare always struggled confrontation asserting personality others means shy surface introverted naturally first met boyfriend similarly pessimistic position lives bit stuck wanting slog hopefully journey relative happiness propped around years actually think quite healthy supportive way love much truly believe unique connection couldnt find anyone lot deep understandings world although loves doesnt believe idea one true love never another woman believes though medical diagnosis perhaps autism spectrum struggle emotionally driven trains thought attracted initially never conducted bull relationship politics beginning relationship always hated men dated previously treatment pure honest recently noticed really trying upheave life rid bad habits came close tonight ending think underlying feelings came sure characteristics wants lifelong partner although loves understand approach life must make things hard problem loves leave despite stressing always support regardless already faced rough times short relationship years family deaths horrible job situations uprooted moved hours away family live etc want soar holding back choice loves much make sacrifice love enough know isolate continue live fight back part thinks doesnt want alone feel strongly deciding die general watched father die painful spinal cancer around years ago want experience mental anguish inability decide fate want come terms mortality pace help think around time start processing view end life year end april end goal reach one final birthday everyone love want gradually say goodbye way everyone peace want meaningful conversations little cousins occur naturally instil bit wisdom learn short life function bit hope know gone life cruel experiences chew spit nothing left self want live never want anyone hurt inside must right thing definitely going question please dont leave messages trying convince amazing seeking respect decision best help support wonderful community receive know lot understand understanding rare need contentedly go rather angrily funeral fund set aside cover costs letter instruction written brother law funeral director scared die hope loved ones understand wish see future know love cared certain kick needs become person wants years come happier p reading know grateful love everything done brilliant rooting hard next life one shared xxx birthday today told tell happened yesterday came back trip class parents little sister surprised cool balloons today actual birthday pizza family best friend gave present tons people highschool wished happy birthday nice day family said celebrate next days week ill celebrate closet friends day school bit tough cuz learned untill pm kinda enjoyed day previous post someone wants ask tell everything comes mind even dms sorry long post tho yo boy sub still virgin idk seems every time browse sub yes never gf idk work arse studying play videogames watch shows anime listen s metal bands workout weird btw thanks reading first person comment v gets free award cause cant bothered take screen shot sexual option test asexual homo sexual heterosexual got lot right place fact call daddy call pssyslayer u call well ive hit rock bottom high schoolerthats nothing matters anymore every second youre awake theres someone thats sleeping makes jealous film full suspense well directed black white effect made great mystery fay emersonhilda fenchurch married twice famous musician skitch henderson son elliott roosevelt fdrs son fell madly love zachary scott ronnie masonmarsh ronnie wins hearts ladies picture even mona freemananne fenchurch proposes marriage whenever rosemary decamp dr jane sillafamous radio tv actress s s played mostly small town moms warned ladies ronnie masons sick mind abusive childhood growing caused lovehate relationship women fay emerson zachary scott greater stars rewarding roles lives short lived real life film beyond critizing trully great film classic many generations view enjoy hope someone understandsi pack gremlins cling matter go tell sometimes theyll tell leave bed morning nothing contribute done theyll tell simple thing im reminded tired constantly theyll tell one cares exist amounted anything human tell try hard wont take far account anywhere go tell find gun closet tell find secluded place wont bother anyone promise feel pain itll go away quickly voices agonizingly louder day got point first time theyve said years ago things exponentially grown ive come realize waking moments denied think go yayyy text post weekend happy hour gun usehow idk loldont know post nonjudgmental im home alone rn college sitting front dads guns safe unlocked usually kinda dumb part considering ive antidepressants awhile lmao silly dude anyway know load anything probably today idk one easier useless painful someone help looked smith amp weston mampp ruger mkiii know means ill able use yeah im kinda worried im going botch bc ive never used gun feel luck make vegetable something still live im staring right lol redflag coward redflag way fucking horrible worldthe reason im post people school understand condition suicidal thoughts people school told redflag bad people etc really consider redflag way bad robert wuhl teaching class film students new york university manhattan new yorkbr br covers fallacies history truths longer generally known see much show entertaining mr wuhl uses examples show tell points across explained person actually rode midnight ride paul revere paul revere henry wadsworth longfellow used reveres name sounded betterbr br ive watched robert wuhl many years time standup comedy way arli hbo hes good actor good standup comedian hes excellent teacher highly recommend watch episode show well worth time july thtoday th anniversary losing father redflag every year fantasize something honor memory help people considering redflag never always felt somehow share pain heart world nobody end life prematurely every year feel guilt able save father every year feel guilt able save ive drank whiskey beginning every july th time ive made mind im going try tell anybody care life anyone world care please cant fathom ways taking life change world life never nothing good miss father much give anything back years wish explain hope somebody reads decides give life least one day people leave behind know important really fathers favorite band steely dan demon door morning major dude tell mental barrierhonestly ive stopped trying better ive sick coming years learnt disabled time im getting tired waiting dependant parents rest life never achieving anything im slow instead sick theres better coping care anymore used fantisize dying natural disaster getting hit drunk driver anything blamed realised nothing guaranteed happen unless hand fantasies trains bleeding pills ive become realistic understand whats plausible honestly feel im ready mentally im ready dont act reason handful halfarsed od attempts sure nothing likelihood success theres difficulty feels near impossibility taking whats head making real point want feel even failure used scared admitting ive told doctors think want multiple times hey long dont actually problem feel afraid one surprised whenif happens thing left figuring remove barrier bring want thought much actuality idea makes hate every time think act feels personal failure asked yesterday didnt good answer anyone know ban appeals teenagers server please thank always nice suprise film made tv turns entertaining little richard watchable film story rock roller little richard played actor called leon never seen good job tv films little tamer made cinema shame sure lot seen little richard controversial instead see lot religous rubbish thing spoils film eventually spoilt promising career film good acting average fot tv film tinder survey hi im conducting research tinder perceptions brand within gen z hoping find people willing help shouldnt take minutes complete survey completely anonymous questions intrusive basic questions use tinder etc im looking anyone ages active tinder account willing help link tinder survey httpsformsglemrfhqpthfctgb thank much ahead time haha hey wan na talk im kinda bored potential future tired suffering god fuck even going finish post nothing matters many reasons die live iphigenia great achievement michael cacoyannis masterful play masterfully adapted screen brought life wonderful cast cacoyannis achieved impossible managed film greek tragedy screen without losing effectiveness importance stellar greek cast helps newcomer tatiana papamoschou extremely impressive iphigenia equally impressive irene papas even though sometimes seems top realistic wonderful greek film beautifully adapted directed michael cacoyannis excellent music score mikis theodorakis ideal every scenebr br ps rumours say film lost best foreign language film oscar vote people use end completely disregard suits either make people feel insecure uncomfortable annoying cold either way never felt alone entire life good things happening career yet one share joy one live life take walk build life together one nothing even real friends sense people talk want around clearly fault know know genuinely think one likes almost todayi typed story realised stupid shit going today though close almost happened got scared working left results another failed attempt weird though attempt redflag attention seeking succeed tragedy people see people failing attempts tragedy demonised proper help people left wailing endlessly internet hoping someone reach us hate dealing mental health problems many people use treat shit im sick im sick plan im gon na execute weekend think maybe ill another attention seeker im lucky ill tragedy im ready go fuck many things leave behindthe realization one cares alive dead hits hard im toy used play children one theyve forgotten moved one left shelf randomly thrown cardboard box left rot decay forever buried underneath tower cardboard boxes landscape beige mountains ive always remembered hoping probably vain one day light flood casket ill feel fingers wrap around hold tight somewhere buried deep inside know truth im forgotten one cares im alive dead one cares enough nothings enough hate hate thing inside head manipulating everything make look selfish monster takes takes takes never gives anything back im yet finding starting believe going fuck everything im completely isolated unloved consuming whatevers left blackened soul along way kill redflag end thats itll look yes itll murder ill murdered head bully crushed soul gave monster im tired fighting im tired living people care maybe hang still care dont thing stopping knowing im going leave behind fuck lives badly love always distant intimate connection another burden busy lives need theres plethora people turn im gone thats whats sad replaceable disappear tomorrow one blink everyone continue lives cant ampxb sorry bit long even know anymore one read ill forgotten somewhere normal now paini lived pain one way another born never got know father killed vietnam months old molested neighbor years early teens battled alcohol drug addictions s two failed marriages many failed careers count diagnosed prostate cancer years ago spent year body ravaged radiation chemo plus couple surgerys cancer treatment left broken constant pain sure worse days mental physical pain tried tried live happy life never works unrealistic expectations life guess complete failure son brother father husband tried keep hope future alive hope torture talking coworked last week finally hit things given put right family never realized body broken never fixed lost hope day tried explain wife basically said one guess right gives shit want make money pay bills may live dream tired pain tired alone head wish strength end dont feel guilty pain know cause people love care dont care anymore cant understand pain dont kill dont want burden wife sons cause even though know better without anchor around wifes neck holding back ruining life nothing left offer sons expect cautionary tail live nothing financial emotional burden around feel alone hope want die give best pick line joke anything find exceptional ill give gold last post didnt enough attention still got gold left fellow teenagers spend lives living horny paradise aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh never gets easieryou ask time id attempt everytime tell cant even begin tell amount times day still consider though dont even trust alone anymore im trying toddler though april fools april long found one day year reeeaally dissappointed let people kill themselvesi wonder people anaunce wanting end life people people try encourage go ahead mean life alive business im threthening hurt others life im scaredthere available redflag prevention hotlines live therapist school councillor anything already hates lot im waves suicidal thoughts im scared one talk sibling young innocent understand parents deeply upset hotlines use friends care theyre already dealing problems aant burden im scared please help want someone talk please almost wondering im still hereive mental health struggles childhood theyve never fully gone away im feeling ive wasted lot life job put reduced hours im struggling find something better ive tried meet people start relationship one interested real friends talk people online worse cause know likely never meet days bother bed time whats point im eating properly anymore either hoping move us year work know bad currently still im couple years fuck show guns country ill come better way caught television one day young loved s bunch lame comedies tried hard funny nice surprise one best comedies s definitive summer camp comedy thanks murrarys excellent comedic performance still stands one greatest film really got ivan reitman noticed director reitman proves movie one talented comedy directors time film hilarious meatballs bad fun meatballs meatballs absolutely dreadful recommended enjoyed stripes ghostbusters going kill september th ended hospitalized weeks instead ive one week already want kill new date october th long vent sensitivei setting date failed last time making mistake telling therapist spent two weeks straight hospital got put meds increased weekly therapy eating sleeping week straight constant suicidal thoughts wanted stay inpatient stepdown program hospital family talked yelling telling stupid idea regret going least let live away abusers cut live way world currently currently unemployed therapist trying help disability fit work due multiple mental illnesses taking forever run health insurance coverage unemployed quickly running money cant afford high cost takes insurance run insurance simply blow little savings pay bills without money debt hospital unable afford therapy meds options going try apply medicaid cant understand process keep messing application going lose school scholarship preform class drop courses likely owe large sum money school tried getting touch student services brushed going say goodbye therapist subtly able see anymore run money thinking one support kept going enough give courage finally kill want cry thinking therapy anymore puts verge panic attack think much october th date obsessed numbers end fail th try october th forth hope fail time going try hard accidentally tell someone write notes paper keep car people find theyre ready overdose meds jump bridge found several good spots accomplish late night early morning prepare mentally next weeks cant live life full mental illness trauma ocd alone bad enough give strength complete redflag want thank tried reach last time messages kind fail end hospitalized likely let long time please pray pray fail death quick painless possible praying take prayers end screwed kill myselfi completely screwed life job friends family nothing trying move away horrible expensive town covid hit cant move away landlord want job cant job away employers want someone local area want people experience train supposed anything want anything apart job direction life everything reach chance anything whats point living im thinking jumping cliff nearby ive tried hanging uncomfortable wish shoot time goi feel extremely suicidal today feel empty inside dont problem cant stop feeling pain chest letting know im wanting give voices head usually call worthless failure stronger today theyre telling die sending nasty thoughts want drive lake walk cant swimthats point feel disassociating keep thinking everything triggers memories trauma mistakes ive made failures fault idea im posting guess wanted someone know felt end birthday cant see people bc corona id thought id celebrate guys really think ill make past hell barely see making next birthday everyday wake disappointed wishing dead agony life much shit happened past year wish successful tried nothing instead go trauma ive gone past year ive people come forward one abuser public manner concerns ive acting think something wrong dismiss know dissuade least throws trail fake throwing ball dog concerns ive suicidal almost decade now public part gets feel im talking piece rather sentient person makes feel really reason topic eventually forgotten forgotten role looking dot imagethingys im looking repository instagram dot messages want die want stop pain redflag never stops pain passes onto someone doesnt deserve feel way much didnt deserve feel way even think nobody cares always people care ones dont cut lives youve got ta work towards better future know depressions isnt easy cheering youve got ta overcome matter youve got one life shouldnt wasted feelings selfhatred doubt loneliness etc always worse gets better youve got ta keep pushing matter shit youre going youre victim abuse abuser still abusing youve got ta call cops fuck feeling shyness quick conversation operator incredible investment stop happening person youll find right people eventually take care know strength whatever youre dealing matter doubtful may urge see therapist talk mental health hotline matter shy may apply investment logic probably ways dealing helps similar things talking people phone issues normal everyday life social anxiety disorder know much struggle life please take care know easier said done youve got ta make effort love use owo uwu filler text please watch video owo uwu owo uwu owo hello againi much want die hate inconsistency one day ill super confident ill polite funny feel week disappears reason feel completely brain dead ive suicidal whole life may seem petty suppose really much live every day feels dream lot due caring much alive feel much potential happy confident ill much something happens sudden feel complete garbage really hate addicted self harm redflag seems lil solution know nothing crazy yeah probably wont kill soon know fact die perhaps actually soon hope staying healthy way dad hung year born reasons help think im going killing think want stop killing much easier growing old hate negative need help cant iplease let die please let die please let die please let die please let die please let die please want stop thinking stop please let die stay alive alive born never fucking asked please give permission die tell okay tell im useless piece shit never amount anything theres way fucking want want breathe want eat disgust stop stop stop stop stop please tell need admit hate want acknowledge im right please stop torturing look smile stop stop stop stop stop fucking stop say never thought dying understand say straight need help need pity fucking tell im worthless admit want look want see see anything think anything need anything stop go away leave alone fucking come back tell hell house reason think stop thinking stoooooooooooooooooooooooooop fuck tldr im orphaned unemployed high school dropout hates worthless friends want anything white girl wasted every single day isolated everyone liked bother im left dying grandfather unbelievably understanding supportive call trash im pampered little brat always ive always given anything want much freedom neighbor play doctor take turns lying bench backyard inspecting others genitals good days turns longer hated inspection table hated prod pull choice cant say friends mother found moved away newer suburban complex nice enough started making friends school friends live close smart responsible child theres way trouble packed yugioh cards gameboy backpack headed beating sun play newest bestest friend half way walking house noticed man tip box spill seemed thousands millions yugioh cards wouldve hard clean man visually grief stricken naturally goody goody asked needed help hollow pits charred face lit mouth opened smile seemed shine bright sun oh please feel free help gon na sell anyway score course feel sick someone tell fault tell deserved everything got tell im supposed miserable everyone happy go ahead tell hell born redflagit brings little peace knowing thatll ill kill one day peaceful knowing end bullshit whenever want nothing help anymore im dead mentally mens mental health talked nearly enough mens mental health talked nearly enough live australia wouldnt say huge friend group outside school still know friend mine attempted redflag one cuts dad committed redflag yrs ago male heard much terms awareness mens mental health boys school apart average ooooh ask friends ok bullshit hard school make time us miss one lesson every weeks educate us things friend self harming wants kill important learn one skill learn skills literally save lives iv always good mental state either literally one knows dont know talk thing im claiming expert even executed im sad things arent taught us institutions meant prepare us future sorry bad format mobile cant take anymoreeverybody hates love hear community ask reddit benefits life outweight need friendsjust people talk online class lmao two kids class wasted minutes convincing teacher one codes wont work lmao yesterday mom met friends told story five something said something used say gay girls luckiest kiss girls girls closeted transbian ass sitting phone internally screaming fuck think cishet long human worstthe vile aggressive destructive species planet us cancer world bird wolf bacteria theres rent bills social media phones nothing land planet natural weve created world within world focus garbage shit way life ignore beauty land live often destroy consume shit created fuck human worst thing blessing fucking curse die heres hoping covid strains affected vaccines hope us slowly wiped cheers cunts included fuck fuck fuck everyone die want alreadyim tired anxiety depression ocd loneliness feeling love people want put already itll stop pain point trying nothing seems change someone please let know im aloneanyone literally comment anything please know desperate feel alone need know people see life hard want dieive come point care come across weak normal people truth nothing look forward life everything seems bleak distract long inevitably oh well guess ill stick around find way easier painless offended please tell happened ill apologize link reddit post offended make sincere apology nice day want apologize someone never ex friend ill pretend say sincere apologize somebody want dm im bored want play number game something aahhh mom wants medication now dad wants smoke pot instead know doi trying show mom video made noticed moving legs table againmy psychiatrist told fidgeting due part anxiety turned video tried simply talking talking incredibly fast heart racing speaking seventy five words minute told manic episodei told yeah thought bipolar took online test said exhibited symptoms bipolar dad said bipolarthen started moving legs way prove point kept asking offensive got mad yelling said mom mocking told said nearly tears mom freaking mocking know hate mock mocking ended apologizing mocking hugged bed now legs moving speaking words minute heart racing speaking shaking really bad start taking medication go blood test every three months check liver problems seriously bad trypanophobia cant even think needles without freaking know want mom asked drawing blood thing stopping taking medication said yes asked rather take medication suffer blood test every three months thats looking told things continue refuse take medication find plan b plan b dad wants smoke pot ive actually done couple times tells im allowed tell mom moms nurse totally two options either take medication man adult say tell mom want smoke weed dad im stuck middle know canvas tracking tabs bet heard rumor canvas tracking tabs partially true go near canvas sidebar adress bar say logs means inactive tell tab opened toatilly exposed pattern leaving question similar amount time trouble phone keep doc notes splitscreened look make habit makes teachers suspicious canvas spyware track mouse easy way outseriously humans hard kill easy acessible way kill seems overly risky high risk failing driving insane im asking alternative methods assume thatd subreddits policy anyway rant dont care read notfrom bottom soul tired ive always depressed adult weighing make money things always wanted dont energy im either sleeping working drinking always told id never addict following mothers footsteps one find happiness ill never know ampxb forgive grammer poor formatting rambling latest film spanish director agusti villaronga study children experience violence isolation within remote community develop troubled young adults need certain psychic tools deal hidden mental frailty whether tools religion followed fanatical level caring others simply putting macho image whilst engaging maleprostitute villaronga creates successful examination vices affect three teenagers living spain franco three witness disturbing double death friends teenagers subsequently bury emotions feel peers frail corpses meet hospital suffering form tuberculosisbr br cinematic style text typically visually opulent expect spanish auteur extremely reminiscent fellow spaniard pedro almodovars work themes dealing sexual desire heterosexual homosexual element different two directors villaronga favours supernatural undertone spliced claustrophobic gritty realism opposed almodovars use surrealism although styles similarbr br piece gives insight troubled young psyche contains disturbing violence scenes sexual nature highly recommend watching film contains elements remain audience considerable period viewing beautifully brokeni feel broken slaughtered violated defeated times times im numb times im feeling okay owe time release im okay okay thats okay now wish someone methe amount times ive driving car wishing semi coming swerve lane times ive walking street hoping car see hoping murderer decide make victim times ive wanted fucking die cant wish someone kind enough rip band aid theres one person ill really regret leaving behind enough outweigh wanting die love im ready die need die escape canti die cant live anymore much hate cant die access anything kill effectively people say care selfish fuck care want live interests cared okay living emotional pain im sick bed almost im sick bored everything im sick human beings give shit privileged life fucking hate whatever angsty edgy teen stuff im done need die cant die ill something ive asked help got exact opposite safe im saying getting difficult think anything option cant talk anyone except strangers text reddit things selective mutism impossible helped suggest hotline therapy please took mg acetaminophen beer finei weigh lbs maybe ill fine think grandmother purposely wants diagnosed mental disorder stop entering military currently years old always aspirations join military make career everyone family mother father aunts uncles etc board except grandmother context im extremely close grandma mother always supported everything ive except ive dreams least back think must thought oh little boy wants army man still want join military ive even talking recruiters think worried heres part cant wrap head around last two years claiming several undiagnosed mental disorders disabilities family friends even school counselor dean adhd autism even bipolar disorder things claims none even show symptoms know adamant mentally unwell made take atleast dozen online tests forms clinics doctors office around country try diagnosed something may overthinking situation genuinely believe im diagnosed something eligible join military usually bother much fact extremely close grandma purposely ruin relationship instantly last months eating inside generally know think thoughts someoneor something thingis leaving puncture marks jugular draining victims blood till dead police detective karl brettschneidermelvyn douglas slipping bmovie horror genre greater heightsis stumped whoor whatis behind notorious crimes village overcome hysteria karl depends trusted medical genius dr otto von niemannlionel atwill yet another effective mad scientist roleto provide feedback might causing deaths innocents fears safety beloved ruththe lovely fay wray stars third time atwill doctor x mystery wax museumwho niemanns assistantbr br dwight frye steals film rather loony village idiot collects bats carries demented demeanor wherever goesits easy see becomes suspect local paranoia fever pitch maude eburne provides films humor naiveand easily influencedpatient von niemanns believes ailments reads books near laboratory works impressionable often von niemann humors constant fictional illnesses feels plagued lionel belmore returns yet another frightened superstitious brgermeisterbr br creaky static rather entertaining nonetheless thanks cast film obviously lowbudget come hurt film much put together rather well director frank strayer crew im certain films print seen better days though kind bhorror item find packaged random cheesefests poverty row programmers films villainand motives feeding synthetically made biological creaturecertainly provides different take frankenstein formula many might disappointed end results film strays away actual supernatural tale real vampire killer causing murders caresi always feel shit think assholes ive met life family friends love general luck everyones praise smallest thing feel ive tried hard make life end day realize one gives shit even give shit try hard right thing nice try successful help others matter end day im loser one miss good trying alone feel fucking worthless older realize going change true worthless mistake mean vent reddit one gives shit give love life left im emotional ruins right nowso heres storyits long one years ago met girl video game yes video game pleasure talk conversations quickly went video game talk personal talk next thing know added facebook exchanged numbers taking place last years high school somewhat young years anyways never interest romantically back occasions drop grid months time okay lives half way across country life live one day text blue high school talking old days admits feelings towards admit things went real quick talking finally meeting real life plans future well times needed time straight admitted handle long distance relationship lonely always waited come back feeling back head back always months ago came back nonexistent months said sorry distant things went right back everything perfect practically counting days finally meet date set said wanted run away excited nervous finally meet well things went south blue told living guy dating never ended know pathetic strong feelings girl ive never met honest one friends years fact ive technically physically alone going years leave kills kills know wasted many years hoping fantasy finally come true kills know never cared temporary fix loneliness found someone real life promises made meant nothingi feel betrayed humiliated go move ive thought making tinder something hate rejected im interested casual dating want something serious want know someone actually cares feel empty insideive turned alcohol sleeping pills save sleeping pills worthless alcohol much make daily habit want die really see reason keep going first time life courage end help amazing movie script writing better cliched language joyces dead alluded throughout movie beautiful scenery great acting poetic highly recommend someone willing talk meim lost confused need someone tell thoughts see endi see end life days away mean killing changing thought process try start fact everything world im young adult lovely relationship loving family enough income decent savings account ive met god understand meaning god every loving hating action feel im kill anyway know tremendous sadness destruction bring loved ones everyone cares yet still want kill th year suicidle thoughts depresstion thought started two months ago remembered actually matter life slowly falling apart mean good deeds going unseen way longer even selfish actions favours either part got promtion workplace manager find promotion lead walking egg shells boss every action started micro mangered recent covid situation making customers crazy leads egg shells ieds guess smarten started follow everything book still good enough everyday still getting called old misbehavours even though wtf right part everything owned started break replasement ideams broke headphones bust go bye new pair within week new pair break go another pair guessed new ones broke stero system busted game try escape reality breaking glitches galor bunch crashes new cyber punk game hoped end spiral sadness broken start ps ok maybe problem im bying stuff others dad wants metal signs kitchen thought getting cool signs vintage shop brought home hung wall first thing hear mouth tell price fuck spend much money signs fucking waste exact words becuase awhile ago energy rub face week later buys new toy something need money first place worry theres go part think anyone understand everytime try speak shot boyfriend mom dad even bosses coworkers nothing hell even people tell example tell bring phone work dont next day tell need phone work bring fact allowed phone work say test following day ask take phone power trip wanted yell someone part im young adult one actully trusts yet tried loan told pay plan got denied paper work pay stubs becuase payed staight bank account tried apartment denied tried places denied going back work im trusted job even im job properly book come yell something preseve job part said met god devil real hell even earth form video games hell constint villance place looks quite real real enough make keep going cant feel dam thing god love concept anyway im trying good man even one excepts good deeds know im slave devil form art must make art feel feeling unless part final chapter started becuase remembered matter one person world billion people art special another artist great job shitty job everyone around still thinks beautiful thing theyve seen got promotion deceided need stress see newest employee spot even though said got position needed trust takes alot time trust employees guess lie told people think im going sober got bunch cares sober month till needed smoke head space bunch stuff part fact forgottenwas never important live long life become important become emortalish though art put world still nothing long enough timeline forgotten keep going everything nothing everyone around tells love everytime speak im feeling push aside im acting crazy understand im saying start new type theropy tueday hopefully figure secertly think going work im pretty sure suicidle thoughts contine point except fact cant run fate ampxb thank reading ill push though always one meaning life close divinity spread rays mankind lost best friend got gf something bo one expected yeah good changed always silent never gave chance fed something one chance got gf war machine hipi thats good tho play fight often go woods fight sticks till someone starts bleed winscool game got gf basically got bad boring exchange attack block mins standing ther wanting lose cos gf game today lost favourite game friend said changed believe im hanging wan na fight cos cos cos gf approve want mins silence wan na grab something dring go name favourite spot sit watch city name different language go ther thats heres hand reveal handhttpsyoutubeohgsjyrha think need conversation right nowim kinda panic attack right id casual conversation distract something stupid guys week things hopelessi posted good news im still bad news im still suicidal thoughts depression comes waves days okay cry little days cry nonstop extended periods time last night particular wanted end reached friend helped feelings lingered scheduled see psychiatrist wednesday morning appointment therapist afternoon cant say whether helping im going try share suicidal thoughts tried share feelings depression family friends think understand bad wondering share feelings boss work believe full transparency good relationship extremely compassionate person trust know reason tell now know try reach various resources whenever start feel bad ive used friends redflag hotlines reddit posts compassion chats help know stick therapy hope one day waves big im dying know actually worth living forthis throwaway post gives basic rundown situation im stuff mind consistently suicidal year two now honest died two years ago missed much yeah may girls accomplishments outweighed whats wrong enjoy sort esteem dropping stuff im pretty dead inside right want know whats worth going shitty life going agonizing self destructive parents fucked bad im well continue well school fail meet goal going michigan tech eventually fail become person want requires prerequisite happy live past whatever college im probably going stuck minimum wage job living sort poverty nobody actually cares wants needs im going stuck thing next fifty years die either way im going still fucked wishing rather dead point really see point living im going waiting think live life everything experience negative fucking training cant actually happy happy life really nothing makes want alive thats worth years waiting years pain want end reason already killed im waiting see im elected president robotics team probably die even become president tell exactly exactly worth living thats desirable pain suffering know love always turns harm know kids never bear burden bringing fucked world types posts types posts subreddit random memes relationshiprelated questions depressed people people found hope im bored wan na talk point wherein want others see want see mirror stay hidden hours ago told dad going prison beginning december soon im yo male really weird weekend dad went family friends house bonded really well weekend weve good steadily getting better relationship close year now hes never really able show cares even made hard bond severity really kicked hour ago pretty bad mental breakdown sorts still kind sibling moved bit year ago dad mom used heavily addicted drugs left ish said dad really chill eachother year hes great expressing feeling others know know found sibling told mom told life ive never scared something long term sorts worried andor felt sad absolutely anyone reading much im scared well honestly im horrified confused grieving im horrified confused thing know court date first december hes almost deffinetly going jail either day soon well trouble thats know hes going able pay house pack everything mine move one places grandparents definitely certain reasons although good people love move pa mom gmom sibling unknown amount time move close family friend lives town know im going yet im scared everything right now ive never move life taking going go biggest fear right now whats going happen animals love animals heart cats dog matter go take dog thats better nothing cats keep starting cry every time think right tell theres nowhere take matter places choose cats friends siblings oldest one sasha died personally picked litter almost whole life cant leave never see others weve least years mean fuck animals consider family even important actual family im fucking crying cause cant leave somewhere know anyone take need someone know trust know bad good neutral idea alone losing even cats honestly biggest problem right now know alot im sorry read whatever thank much spending time partially rant im frantic right now advice mean much lostim almost year old male im average intelligence attractive people seem enioy around im mostly personable love job things great right now might getting fired tomorrow fucked put thousand debt financing finally job liked love video games past weeks ive mostly sat computer playing anything cant girls im picky emotional damage finally find girl never works outnever actual girlfriend sex probably schizophrenia self diagnosis bullshit maybe ive tricked thinking things constantly go well end hurting eventually im exhausted everything want someone actually cares im student ive always struggled school im lazy going community college years credits despite full time know nothing seems work drink smoke drugs im veganits even something talk much family even know im constantly shit random people friends really hurts something care deeply im happy im someone real life friends said earlier struggle develop romantic relationships want kaido saiki tie drip hot red wax run knife stomach carve name thigh tie slap til cry little bitch filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler ok reported uredditcareresource got message reddit care resource minutes ago apparently deserve help whatever im going kind stuff see reported times ive going latest posts must someone mentioned stuff life quite whoever reported must gone latests posts comments thanks thanks guess heeey labled gifted child mental problem gang vome share story soo fall grades sports whatever wonder ifbody relaxans anything hard criticize anything mitzi kapture radiates beauty grace screen phenomenal actress notwithstanding yes plot predictable think perhaps jill slept richard may made little crazier already added suspense nice see jill husband find richards little problem exwife maybe bit back story little disappointed ending movie liked seen closure zacks death possibly closure husband say though never able look flare gun picture standing fitting end richard course mitzi rocked looking forward future projects m bored welp basically thing last night girls interested chat fall asleep friend got grounded around months ago think might killed point nobodys answering insta account talked think found one friends texted know going respond want know alive figure outi suicidal depressed help friend might dead everything enjoyed bores life pretty much stopped worth pain experiencing every day pain got times worse due recent breakup losing meant losing source happiness got leftbut still decide want keep living hope left things better time something tells maybe hang onim relapsing self harm least gotten drinking time really know much able drink replacing booze means self harm think working really well cave go bottle think expect final goodbye herei stuck weird limbo decide end already maybe coward sure want live rather look jar jar binks talk jar jar binks allowed kill self suffer today rteenagers birthday turned years old might kill people knownot saying know knows future holds think last night last nighti think today last day im feeling low worthless turned messages phone nobody reach dont reach anyway ive never wanted disappear much used scare im still bit scared im coming terms fact nobody wants around dont appreciate love ive rejected many times today last day dealing pain dont know im even typing maybe write something becomes real want disappear im going eat wings today wine go goodbye think ithello im years old live melbourne australia always thought sucide back head coming much harder time live home mother never says way wants gone hold job matter ive gone countless jobs time time agian currently day week job fight somebody work uniform interview boss im sure im going let go stuck endless loop spending money drugs especially weed complete failure even born accident asphergers hold friendships ive lost countless freinds ones knifes edge constant arguments weird tell people internet expressing feelings family friends terrifying im sick week week loose job tomorrow mother probably going kick ill homeless even happen cant stand disappointment anymore burden ive never life girlfriend fallen love never im going alone im lost want end im suffering depression anxiety im sick heavy feeling chest shortness breath made many bad decisions life ruined one ex best mates lives guilt tears apart want leave planet want go thank reading appreciate feel bad spent hours feeling sad crying room hugging pillow cause ive got one hugi hate feel way hate well anyway hope guys better literally noone talk tocompared people actual mentalphysical health problems reasons seem bit tame honest honestly whole life ive never anyone really talk google taken school young age isolated many years spent homeless turned took years yearn walk normal leg muscles fucked never using learn talk people times id rent room craigslist roommates drug addicted crazy people live nursing home stick people mental disabilities place go theres noone thats smart enough hold regular conversation lot talk selves staff slightly stupid sometimes even offensive ive tried online dating years ive never met anyone abusive probably turned online dating anyway always think great id started competing kids school developing normally went college id lots friends lots constructive things think id happy go outside see bright successful people walking street taking l train cars always crazy people talking im stuck endless loop know sound bad actually makes want kill already know take die painlessly bed anyone suggestions please comment tried kill today weaki even know someone read need vent somewhere today tried hang started feel pain stopped weak want try strength think itll work feel alone want end feel bad mom dad baby sister know know worst thing betrayal never comes enemy want kill butbutthe meds need time work interview morning want inconvenience showing boyfriend suffers depression want give reason better id never see niece love pieces want hurt anyone small part thinks things better time road balls cleaned desk work yet want burden someone task appointment new therapist morning want anyone find want leave brother struggling depression know things better side please anyone therei know see getting better called everyone feel alone know know functional fuck know better know im meant heretheres much wrong feel im short unnatractive needy self confidence laughed girls appearance feel dead outline walking substance hate hate lost genetic lottery want anymore belong reason sad makes worsefor feeling worthless live really cant figure making feel way see people way worse makes think im overdramatic makes worse angry feeling way made hard talk people feeling dont want bother people something waste time yo someone wish luck whatever basically today move another country third time moving countries im literally shitting ive lived scary scary idk school im gon na go whats gon na happen im gon na friends end year im gon na big ass exam know fact dont good grade im gon na mad august last year moved back home country living years country im moving today let tell year anything fun watched everything built past years mental health friendships good grades etc fucking crumble shitting pieces front eyesi made friends whatsoever horrible time school teachers constantly took piss didnt even bother remembering name old friends stopped fucking talking im even gon na start getting shit went family year agonising pain mother literally made fun suicidal somehow managed fucking convince move back today flight scheduled know happy cuz finally got wanted im scared everything changed things never back way thats incredibly fucking jolly tldr idk man everything pain tenshu imprisoned sentenced death survives electrocution government officials give choice either electrocute greater degree agree experiments chooses experimentation placed large metallic cell bad ass criminal survived electrocution whatever want room within reason cant leave days meals cut one per day room temp set alarms sounded intervals cant sleep one day witch come cell albeit glassed portion happens next ill let find may minority liked build intriguing payoff half good build rated much higherbr br grade c br br media blasters dvd set extras disc directors cut trailers versus aragami attack gas station deadly outlaw rekka disc theatrical cut commentary hideo sakaki ryuhei kitamura sakaguchi takuand tsutomu takahashi cast crew interview making original trailer promo teasers anyone wan na text every day fall love ghost yes yes right got another girls snapchat today sequel talking someone class funny got snap added really liked memes posted story theyre absolutely funny 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prejudiced issues course heat night best example real role model certainly inspired many afroamerican actors day top great actor yes still alive pretty much retired completely movies seems last credited role br br movie martin ritts directorial debut given much movie spend movie studios probably bit reluctant mainly concept andor ritts first movie perhaps simply due fact mgm big anymore left best days behind s metrogoldwynmayer sort reputation making great cheap movies early years really one biggest studios lots stars acclaimed directors attached made many award winning classic movies luckily reputation starting change whenever mgmlogo appears movie people longer expecting lessermovie anymorebr br anyway even restrained budget limited resources managed make great movie one movie simple characters simplistic plot movie still manages capture story subjects without starting become preachy anything makes movie effective one well subjectsbr br really movie deserves seenbr br hey world questioni curious think lot people read try help position wanting commit redflag someone said help things people say ive heard means nothingbut fact someone cares mean bit words touched share something think ive thought redflag years young life know completely go away even words helped specific situation maybe theyd give something think think wanting die edit okay multiple questionsbut basically going bourbon whiskey talking friends beforehand trying least bit fun beforehandi love saved goodbye tomorrow want successful networking forming close friendshipsnotredflag need rid phobia somehow ways fear interfering social life academics well earn high grades want snatch opportunities outside classroom need suck try tolerate group work classmates opened therapist actually discuss ways combat problem ended leaving one go becoming comfortable around men twoobie time year old dating year old okay u change mind im flippin boreddddddddddddd f trying friend dm u want cause im bored helllllll dont know thinking real actual suicide atm lot pain pain go work pain instability work fear enter another toxic work environment irregular hours norm country pain deal nasty people real consequences comes workinghelp hate alive much room want go sleep wake want pain stop im considering drinking drain cleaner housei mean literally right now ive tried kill failed help prevent redflag httpswwwchangeorgpfaberandfaberpreventnovelredflagstopromanticizingredflaghttpswwwchangeorgpfaberandfaberpreventnovelredflagstopromanticizingredflag well im bored ask questions furry tell story idc came outer space ii good film good cast includes brian kerwin elizabeth pea jonathan carrasco adrian sparks bill mckinney dean norris dawn zeek lauren tewes mickey jones iilana btiste jerry giles howard morris acting actors good kerwin norris really excellent film thought performed good thrills really good surprising movie filmed good music great shirley walker film quite interesting movie really keeps going end good thrilling film brian kerwin elizabeth pea jonathan carrasco adrian sparks bill mckinney dean norris dawn zeek lauren tewes mickey jones rest cast film mystery scifi thrillers dramas interesting action films strongly recommend see film today br br movie nuttballs note br br noticed second film dean norris mickey jones movie together classic violent epic total recall funny seeing another alien flick br br alien movies andor subject aliens recommend following films thing another world day earth stood still war worlds horror express ufo incident invasion body snatchers et extraterrestrial john carpenters thing krull return aliens deadly spawn time walker science project howard duck john carpenters starman john carpenters live mac explorers invaders mars alien seed abyss communion suburban commando fire sky arrival mars attacks contact men black stephen kings dreamcatcher xtro watch skies battlefield earth saga year stargate puppet masters john carpenters village damned independence day life form contact xfiles fight future roswell aliens attack faculty mission mars pitch black evolution kpax signs silent warnings forgotten alien hunter spaceballs alien aliens alien predator predator avp alien vs predator entire star wars saga new hope empire strikes back return jedi original special editions phantom menace attack clones revenge sith entire star trek movie saga star trek motion picture wrath khan search spock voyage home final frontier undiscovered country generations first contact insurrection nemesis stephen kings found facebook sister got married whole family therethey lied got upset sister sent hundreds text messages horrible person thats im done want gone im gone hope eventually feel guilty comparable fight club matrix ai sixth sense among others film approaches psyche way never done first minutes builds interesting love story diazcruisecruz rest movie well confusing pick every time watch ive gone movies see times now expect val kilmer make convincing john holmes found forgetting porn legend fact entire cast turned amazing performances vastly underrated moviebr br mentioned earlier seek twodisc set watch wadd documentary first give lot background story helpful appreciating movie br br people seem unhappy lapd crime scene video included dvd number reasons might included one john holmes trial murders first united states footage used prosecution want see easy avoid clearly identified lapd crime scene footage menu feel ghosti want talk people im worried afraid approach people thinking theyll think im weird annoying stay silent hesitate say people ive got one talk real life thats want cant keep things boring dead im sure people classes surprised waswas class bored depressed lonely im surei really know feeling despite amount people know friends really lonely really seen friends attending school full time nursing student missing lot events know people acquaintances feel one really time makes feel everybody selfish including best know need want come post throwaway account maybe im venting knows maybe ill feel better tomorrow anyone feel way cant anymoremy best friend care anymore cant stand watch another person fade away stranger last straw top years depression cant im planning killing tonight tomorrow soon wont hard cant live anymore im desperately alone know wont missed numbers game anyone got bunch nothing last post maybe second try work tired feel disappointment everyone life moved countries months covid everything different sit room crying eating hate internet rn everyone put awareness something one fucking cares lost alone want die want die miss feeling alive skin feel mine lost sense self want die badly everything ruined even enjoy game someone spoiled place look mess ashamed go eat takeaway grocery shopping nothing feels anymore put misery day guys great year reddit lol ive iti really life year old severely disabled multiple sclerosis patient diagnosed life sports athletics truly become blob lost job didnt technically lose retirement age kind losing income reduced ive complete loser women rather waited hoped one never showed ones eventually interested turned flat oh boy hell virgin days ago finally said fuck hired escort went bare may contracted something know care hopes finding lover wife past stage anyway months increasingly unbearable pain went er mri taken back doctor said may herniated disc meaning surgery meaning kill now please sister surgery back herniated disc years back remember bad shape post surgery needed people help bed go bathroom yet hernia returned live alone shit neighbors even report faggot shit punk bitch living upstairs precinct came door grabbed collar threatened fuck years ago broken arms rolled stairwell make example violated little fluffer keeps around wife got live miss friend havent talked guy friend seen lowkey really miss gay way cant wait anymoreim thinking blasting brains dont succeed ill live even miserable life m abusing drugs yearsi last sem uni hold regular job move back grandparents times ruined possibly good notredflag due fucked attachment issues hate want live life got ghosted person knew attached last time interacted called ridiculed even realise yeah realised blocked literally one left accept grandparents live feel good around feel socialised properly look old scary fuck idk utter piece shit failed flirt girl today restaurant friends saw pretty waitress probably year two older hell mightve problem wanted say something friends bet couldnt talk pretty waitress order money wasnt sure react fact bad enough couldve gotten us kicked restaurant end never said anything feel bad deep intellectual rant ok honestly feel ppl born selfish u met single person semi passiveaggressive anyone know thing called moral realism rlly fucking scary thinking abt anyway philosopher said ppl good things feel good abt kind agree im history hw rn take look fucking world wars proof humanity whole lowkey selfish tonight nighti cant live every day regret partner months left years loving wonderful life together fault alcohol depression ocd unchecked years caught im going fist full sleep aids vodka drop lake backpack full rocks hopefully wait long enough meds kick least hallucinating drown dont care afterlife ventim kill soon care leave behind got one care im years old still gotten friends ive felt alone hate fuck life go hell im gone life bad hell honestly feels kinda good knowing ill die soon work courage afterlife simply cease buried family grieves eventually move everyone knew children children live die humanity goes extinct rocky mountains erode flat steppe hawaiian islands sink sun swallows earth becomes white dwarf end universe big bang happens earth forms dinosaurs live rendered extinctrome rises falls world goes war twice born happened infinite amount times never beginning time circle retain memories fact everything plays exactly last time last atom time passing though trillions years nothing birth next time around upon blink next time find pull trigger ride never endsthe possibility keeps going see etching grooves gramophone record decide happiness suffering plays repeat infinity might best squeeze potential happiness living forever maybe life amazing point case maybe ending reliving time might logical choice choice spend eternity thought might keep going seriously feel shell everyday struggleim m im terrified life friends girlfriend fault though girl broke months ago really stressed life worried relationship changing makes sense used friends brother cut old friends life nothing drama queens often stay awake nights wondering lost girl supposed quick silly relationship real thing slowly time developed feelings eventually clicked really sweet girl best boyfriend sometimes want go somewhere something id say im busy work something looking back wonder seem even felt guilty sex felt dirty awful days felt scumbag felt weird someone care really worry one chance love know know im experienced world yet really love cant back even tried hardest another guy started dating weeks split hurt one ended things night texted told felt listened understood told need move ill find amazing girl future id believe im best looking guy im short pretty average looking kinda boring learn lot relationship weird way heartbreak kinda good thing ive learned better person really treat people much respect really worry im going punished breaking heart worry hurt someone come along hurt worse ive learned lesson past months hell ive learned people objects love inst game something take care maintain almost car mental health plummeted therapist im sure really helps aside losing pushed old friends away really regret toxic people looking manipulate cause drama every little thing ive never seen men act fools stopped talking walked away told handle bs left course find lonely work come home eat ill play video games every try go things find fun find constantly lonely upset ive tried making new friends work really kind crowd ill starting senior year fall cant wait want go college meet new people fresh start dad works security guard one local colleges free tuition im sure understand great really even know major id join military point life id adventure old ive always interested military cant decide want ill drop college join military find something ill degree join officer work walmart today guy work told works mcdonalds comes walmart works hes divorces everyone ex wifes cheated really want end want start living cousin gave great advice comes life love told never afraid losing people never think girl dated one millions see point programming freak things worry ill eventually marry convenience end getting cheated ive seen terrible mom cheated dad twice turned shell man want feel im destined explore see much see idk really believe spiritual mumbo jumbo multiple people told old soul theres something gives old soul vibe maybe thats true maybe well never know want live life want make great life long friends want fall love amazing girl become man want id think im bad person someone needs help im im personable person ill talk anyone always try see everyone point view understand everyone thinkingfeeling im stingy money either sure im trying save money someone needs cash ill help im introvert super outgoing personality everyone works seems school ive fair share headbutts couple pleasant people go way start problems ive really working improve feels im stuck theres nothing really driving forward anyone give advice id really appreciate ive used analogy older posts ill use best way describe im feeling feel im ship ocean im helm compass thick film fog surrounding entire vessel pick heading compass wont know whats front know anymore whats point going ive already messed life feel complete shit guess deserve punishment cant anymorei thought wanted pregnant happy cant im mentally physically limit told rid understood havent able anything barely capacity bed relapsed got quote termination cant afford probably feel selfish horrible cant four months worst feeling world everything feels bleak hopeless meaningless want life back cant even afford life back rosenstrasse margarethe von trotta blends two stories create vibrant tapestry love courage film depicts family drama estrangement mother daughter story german women staged protest rosenstrasse free jewish husbands certain extermination addition dramatization historical events focus film saving child holocaust german result childs experience losing mother ms von trotta shows courage small number germans made difference use excuse german society indeed shows midst torture extermination wealthy artists intellectuals german high society went lives parties oblivious sufferingbr br rosenstrasse opens new york jewish widow ruth weinstein jutta lampe decides sit shiva sevenday period mourning takes place following funeral jewish family members devote full attention remembering mourning deceased daughter hannah maria schrader forbidden receive phone calls fianc luis fedja van huet nonjew hannah questions mother suddenly decided follow orthodox tradition previously rejected ruth coldly rejects cousin hannah questions learns woman named lena took ruth child latters mother deported murdered nazis vows find lena discover secret mothers pastbr br quest takes berlin finds lena doris schade ninety years old interviews pretext journalist researching certain aspects holocaust unfailing memory lena tells story young year old woman katja reimann searched husband jewish pianist fabian israel fischer martin feifel disappeared presumed imprisoned despite protection normally given jews mixed marriages lena radiant performance reimann discovers husband jews held prisoner former factory rosenstrassebr br standing together freezing night german women whose husband missing congregate outside building numbers growing daily reach one thousand shouting give us back husbands lena finds ruth svea lohde young girl whose mother building takes care protecting gestapo raising mother killed lena comes aristocratic german family brother recently returned stalingrad wehrmacht officer refused help father free fabian enlists aid brother tells fellow officer know jews saw given support bold enough bypass channels go top beauty charm prove irresistible minister culture joseph goebbels known womanizer fictional part film criticized degrading women protesters historical fact goebbels active making decisions affecting rosenstrassebr br director margarethe von trotta activist feminist intellectual stranger political drama directed film socialist rosa luxembourg marianne julianne story relationship two sisters one resorts political violence accomplish liberal objectives rosenstrasse film worked eight years make compromises adding present day fictional element order film produced works well tribute ms von trottas artistry beautiful screenplay pamela katz whose father refugee leipzig events rosenstrasse give lie germans say nothing von trotta shown opposite true something done resist nazis tragic example catch shining rose gold street hobos filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler kinda long story playing among us saw someone go vent sure color called emergency meeting said pink realized wait wrong launched said white teal made excuse colorblind see exactly next games played color blind guy launched lol tldrplayed among us color blind guy dont seem sus never behaved clue happening really scared mind spiraling really dark place beginning overthink everything nothing makes sense anymore useless boring human existed planet feel fucking isolated everyone everything even really feel someone living life instead everyone pretends care really give fuck trust people even trust sabotaging happiness making things worse fucking thoughts promised never try hurt yet knife hand cuts bruises body feel turning completely fucking insane idk idk distract make stop want stop thinking miss numb think turning insane tell themi want tell friends family im afraid try stop want die want life end feel selfish telling life good plan dying next week dont know write wordbr br see really madhur bhandarkars brave brilliant page destroy myth attached glam glitterati colour pages newspapers whose livesread party habits follow maniacal fervour intrinsic voyeuristic streak explain br br page phenomenon deplorable enigmatic exactly gain control printed word start encroach front page subject another debate bhandarkar cleverly avoids concerned mechanisms grotesque existence pieces together various elements way life robert altmanalthough im comparing bhandarkar altmans genius bhandarkar uses myriad characters motive whether page wannabe nri gatecrashers newlyrich upcoming model socialite politician erotic novella authoress characters introduced objective separate charactersketch even parts may miniscule therein lays films appeal br br konkona sen sharma plays madhavi sharma young talented journalist covers page nation today initially content job soon begins see ugliness underbelly covered fake cosmetic profligacy bhandarkar resists temptation make subject moralpolicing movie avoids concentrating one character alone movie madhavi equally deepak suriboman irani madhavis editor passively accepts role cog larger machinery anjali thaparsoni razdan socialite suffocating social pollution abhijeetrehan engineer homosexual makeup artist madhavis roommates pearlsandhya mridul sassy airhostess gayatritara sharmaan aspiring actress seems impossible task assimilate many charactersand one story full credit nina arora manoj tyagi penning tight screenplay dialogues sanjeev datta bhandarkar written great attention detail br br narrative matter good fall flat lack genuine performances thankfully page brims actors stars konkona goes authorbacked role effortless ease ditto boman sandhya mridul gets best written part almost overdoes atul kulkarni wasted though underwritten character times director seems keen incorporate much possiblepaedophilia homosexuality etc contexts used make look rushed br br ultimately bhandarkars attempt satiate voyeurism takes step takes us inside photographs exposes us gruesome realities sect humanity strangely seems living different remote world people indulged newyears revelry hundred kilometers away fellow countrymen ravaged natures ferocity clever writing skillfully incorporated songs able performances genuine feeling sincerity make film worthy spite lack finesse poor production values page optimum way enter new year cinemabr br abhishek bandekarbr br rating br br poor average good good excellentbr br th january feel really alone want help know dohi sorry sorta dumb confusing know past week ive feeling really suicidal ive therapy past nine years im tired alive raised single bipolar verbally abusive mom died fourteen ive abused assaulted physically sexually throughout life want pain anymore abandoned moved foster home foster home really wanted place family found home supposedly loved wanted eventually decided two years much forced facility within span night facility watched members staff attacked assaulted forced body inspections whenever left facility generally awful time people threatened tried murder wish upon anyone leaving facility found home seemed love family potentially call thought life going well everything order wonderful amazing partner loves cares group friends supported family loved recently come change told parent never dad let alone parent never trust going partner find emergency housing subsequently needing find temporary permanent housing stressful involved around time relationship problems started communication great really anyone involved even though weve progressively gotten better things constantly stressed even look afraid done nothing significant enough deserve even know addition parents small little foster brother children got pretty intense car accident two days ago thats big factor feel im scared know want end life pain everything confusing know ive tried calling hotlines talking friends partner everything took mental health day school uni today cant anymore know please help anyone wan na talk title says im jst kinda bored elon musk really single handedly supporting educational system ampxb processing img ibizcaua really love job obvious reasons wan na kind weird amazing friendship someone three times age hey wheres hans seen elephanthugger day someone oh broke hip morning falling stairs fourstoryvilla rush hospital find lying bed eating pudding absolutely vibing regional news hospital television ill hans hell steve hug happy hes okay kinda forgot broke hip lean bit kinda hurt laugh great friends knows clumsy sometimes men simpel dreams right losti hate even feel way many people life love outside im sure life looks fine feeling lost alone anxiety charts every day struggle want die cant live way anymore im really fucking tired throwaway think make next daysi life roller coaster take anymore started college two years ago time life started relationship first girlfriend things went came back finished year gpa depression leaving school friends summer combined enter long distance relationship girlfriend occured one year ago month affected job years camp counselor love working children passion job anymore depression got point affected job performance hired back summer diagnosed officially depression last august put medication never followed psychiatrist fall brought controlling behavior end regret fully understand wrong ok anyway parent boss acted girlfriend never december last year broke u third final time mess sent three angry text messages never threatened hurt regret messages er suicidal times month end month asked girlfriend meet talk said thaat night climbed ladder next apartment window knocked never attention break hoping come outside realize wrong called police parents picked rushed hosital cops admitted self psych ward stayed days diagnosed bipolar found wrong medication months left hopsital set go back school past spring continue education major filed harrament tresspassing warning entereed database told record go back skibum winter dream always fun many nights spent alone knowing friends life many people liked considered good friend minutes away text asking come visit taken one thing warning become criminal record unable work kids contacted anyone night knocked window life seemed head came home reconnected every friend blew last summer due depression got job working kids finished first week past week running background check cops said notices show local station entered database made clear phone stressed everyday show lose job signed lease apartment good friends fall school estactic thought back longer going back plan anyway days ago found ex filed protection abuse order knew planning attending school fall months called police contact anyone want nothing go court days going back school help case certain thrown contacted able say going back important note contacted weeks got hospital respond made descion go back leave behind friends due mess sucks broke heart track attend school days see angry past understand called police want see scared death see gained pounds worked winter look good still scared see dont want bring back bad memories ten days find order thrown away finally move live life peace never see hear order permanent go record ruin chance becoming teacher helping kids life goal scars self harm thoughts redflag rampant go work next handful days give best cant let affect cost another job affable benign thoughtful compassionate made mistake regreet learned want live life scars self harm thoughts redflag rampant great cant handle stress anxiety next ten days want see dont know rough life start years old birthday less month turn today way home movies dropping friend pouring backing ran large rock size large basketball realize timeso drove home smelled burning got home saw rock still lodged underneath car destroying radiator key components believe totaled third car totaled past years father extremely redflaged think let drive car redflaged college well little desire continue due lack able focus money recently girl love left got new guy still think every day know kills nothing want live anymore seriously considering ending life deal redflag anymore want free feel financial burden family feel future feel never find love eyes nothing know hurt family save lot money redflag long run many real friends talk close family members listen trapped take anymore think really going take anymore need help driving isane think time listen fools o lt wave basically saying hello o lt putting arms air celebrating basically o lt salute john cena lt invisible dont know even managed type name wow ur tinker free day yesterday less headache whatd miss lol im sick covid really want see friends im semi mental breakdown everything im usually type person feels better sorting issues alone really need see people irl im seriously losing talk everyday saw person back november need sort ground give reality check fucking hate whats im girl one care titles see see actual girls sub people keep saying trying make people mad genuinely wondering redflag lifeline chat useless even offeredi cant phone conversations im desperate point waiting endless endless queues chat ive waited nearly hours total today two different sessions ive waited least hours day last two days never made front line bit ago course minutes position line finally went right step away computer stare screen anymore notification ping nothing missed ive waited long im desperate finally called line hear hung panic attack ampxb even offer service wait times bad cant imagine many people crisis may kill see option never understand mother says im worthlessmy mom never misses chance tell worthless definitely shows opinion except course wants something herso whats point mean one person supposed love forever hates hell point living ive hanging thread entire life im give im fucking throwaway friends colleagues know main reddit sorry right subredditampxbto start pretty good upbringing almost problems went school without much trouble parents good really nothing complain feel joy anything hobbys feel mundane everything quickly annoyed drained able hangout friends alone long thoughts deep sometimes suicidal going sometimedespite covid rampaging around find somewhat decent paying job drowned work think colleague somewhat close friend worried working much honest mind made clear really living work past year recently made promotion supervising position frankly much miss old work much trigger anything inside anything sort left bittersweet feeling nutshell year old normal upbringing reason joy life goal writing something positive day day ive started taking notes digitally ipad converting ones paper ipad love much much easier make everything look good make better diagrams make writing legible neat digitally love today hung friends school boarding school pretty covid safe spend hours walking around campus went vending machine pretty nice notive felt failure years now peaking got lost job within week match required pace bullshit system despite much try im useless everything even video games supposed fun nothing except reminder complete ineptitude everything move different state family im shitty living lost girlfriend stupid parents listen keep guilting death make feel im tired know reason want live thats card left unfortunately workable plan used live half hour redflag bridge us now know im much coward slit wrists im shitty knots hang pandemic made cullwith pandemic ai digital social requirements function feels really designed ongoing cull going wish endim done im fucking exhausted fighting brain live honest dont even want anymore people say im kind opened heart ive used atm lot money dont see getting back ive blocked said person borrowed money ask mom borrow money havent done ages shows im useless hate debt anyone especially mom works damn hard money medication made fat dont know shift absolutely zero motivation literally move bed go downstairs watch tv want slim pretty sharp objects taken away crave release feeling blade across skin family told disappointed self harm cut im cutting ive pushed friends family away wish go euthanised everyone favour im fat ugly mess cant even look mirror im disgusted medication increased months back isnt working ive saving getting courage end want pain stop please whichever higher power may kill end suffering toi le venin robert hosseins masterpieceand one great thrillers fiftiesbased frederic dard novela writer director often worked see le montecharge hossein direct lead toothe screenplay grabs first pictures desert road night beautiful blonde might fieriest criminals mysterious house finds femme fatale sisterthen begins cat mouse play one sisters wheelchair really disabledwhich one criminal tried kill hero night br br two actressesmarina vlady late odile versois sistersbr br turn lights watchinghighly suspenseful wear cold winter hey guys recommend cool shoes wear cold winter c f clue look good freezy maybe boys girls live canada scandinavia time future many aware day now final movie legendary actor edward g robinson solent green becomes landmark classic many film buff environmentalist believe eventual history movie taken novel entitled make room make room whos working title changed solent green story concerns earth evolves future worlds environmental problems becoming nothing short catastrophic planets natural resources exhausted basic food reduced simple staples come variety colors solent yellow solent red solent green know real ingredient solent green cringe culpability fear divine retribution first food executive named william simonson joseph cotton upon death dedicated police detective called robert thorn charleston heston seeks truth behind apparent suicide although corruption goes way top begins simonsons bodyguard tad fielding chuck connors security chief donnovan roy jenson target thorn waste desposal factory thorns boss lt hatcher brock peters believes suspicions warns higher hot want case closed thorn risk job easy way thorn discovers marks death film awaits final warning dont care people cry diethey living give others satisfaction safety without feeling hell end everyones alone id rather kill disappoint family killing disappoint familylife fair wish family love theres many people deserve loving families one universe waste love want love want die lmao im still contemplating whether confess feeling lucky bastard im crushing sub havent even seen face fuck theyre cute attractive skme reason id literally lose comment post theyre kinda active afaik nextthe thing getting convincing need christmas want christmas tell im needed christmas new years survive nothing close enough needed want given many times im fed enjoyable batman animated film par return joker mask phantasm solid nonetheless liked movie kept guessing batwoman nice twist nice action sequences ive always opinion batman cartoons better pitiful batman live action film sequels trend continues herebr br redflagthe difference barely hanging submitting entirely darkness shockingly small whim decision let go look hopeless despair staring man whos foot one deep landmine noisy yet silence night unbearably deafening seductive air still quiet hear ticking counting eventual demise post probably going buried amongst sea suicidal people sharing similar fates yet different walks life wonderand wonderand wonderwhat world look im gone detonating emotional nuclear bomb readily wipe surrounding devastating lethal experience affects keep living point choosing kill greatest control consciously choosing clearest either life either live die somewhat greatly comforting heartwarming know everything life fall apart except conscious decision decide final outcome teacher wont stop teaching hasnt told us assessed nobody guts speak cos online lesson smh first time im actually calm redflagi raped recently changed life worst see way feel one loves enjoys around deserved rape stupid piece shit want go home want pursue future anymore im calm dying want now hope cant happy one care died slowly surrendering thought never completely happy even know writing watching football match italy uk everyone cheering teams victory felt lost touch everything slowing around feel anything seeing everyone happy made feel much pain thought never reach anything made feel scared terribly devastated wanted express feelings someone life anyone really understand lot empathetic faces smile one really knows feels feel tears eyes breath caught throat thought ending non stop mind know want hurt anybody making others happy continue suffer inside sorry badly written mind fog right now much feel need say little actually say feel defeated giving will update noteshey uhh im still alive unluckily stop drinking addict yeah know im talking link feeling good ive suicidal depressed nobody help every eddie murphy surprise youbr br movie golden child especially movie figure star maybe harrison ford kurt russell someone eddie really work hes smart hes funny hes brave kind courteous thrifty clean everything hero bebr br chosen secure mystic child holds key protecting world complete evil embodied perfectly dance eddie goes california nepal back beautiful kee nang lewis wonders hes says crazy old holy man wong perfect always knows isbr br exciting breathtaking spots shocking course funny eddie action hero know begin movie making rude remarks behind guy reading porno magazine end smartaleck remarks ed mcmahonbr br problem child golden findbr br nine stars viva nepal getting help made worseive seeing therapist psychiatrist quite now latest psych appointment recommended local mental health facility partial hospitalization program doctor broke patient confidentiality told mom im btw suicidal thoughts made take away knife room made appointment mental health place go assessment done place thats gets much worse counselor went even told mom selfharm ive selfharming years never thought family find hit truck know look differently now mom even cried entire ride home anyway want program course america expensive mom says want need take money college fund take half funds id left college really want program ive already emailed summer activity teacher canceled made sad senior year ive activity high school far late take back though wish mom told college funds let quit decide getting treatment keeping college fund deciding factor really whether think keep safe summer thing really know whole thing family finding everythingi honestly nothing lose anymore want major zoology work animals college career know going everything worth end killing anyway even treatment id debt rest life already keeping funds dont know mom wont help look options doesnt want help truly money im sure theres programs work better family basically broke coming shes even trying find options maybe try kill ill forced hospitalization someone pay anyway whole thing making suicidal anything live anymore might well spend college funds ill probably dead time college rolls around anyway idk im looking advice really hard situation thanks read whole thing kind long lmao share mental breakdown playlist mine im disappointment finished watching film found enjoyable quiet little film overwhelm special effects big performances simply takes lives people living small hamlet backwoods north carolina br br henry thomas gives good performance raymond toker young loner finds baby abandoned woods tokers search babys parents takes journey profound impact life david srathairn plays truman lester slimy conman ulterior motive david plays bad guy perfection br br much film first meets eye filmed location north carolina wonderful sound track traditional music worth watching wan na die step dad raped mei dont really know tell im boy makes whole situation awkward im thinking ways end right now every one hold fuck yeezys went sale fuck happening usualy go even harassed sometimes users comments posts madelike fucking mental annoying thing encounter even happening boys ate taco bell blow bathroom oh finally got gf feeling giant mental breakdown coming past days mom started shit last week got sociopath something bc truly feels remorse sympathy anyone crazy gaslighter always makes feel everything fault know anyway abundance issues started dad unexpectedly passed away last year think due immense amount redflag grief upsetting bc health issues take much life away physical limitations strict diet restrictions hard adjustment especially hitting time able handle tho mom starts shit triggered break way extremely upset due writing list reasons hate life literally middle writing mom walks door starts shit shaking feel paranoid even delusional losing touch reality upset memories past year come flooding back stuck break parents good people still depressed try help buying nice things making food giving company despite presence feel shitty time got really scared depression got worse started trying therapy medication etc ideas feel gave tried best kill kill still spoil nice gestures sense urgency gone death sad event move know happen fix money food cares even deserve ask parents gave realized recently im alone thought diagnosed adhd explained trouble focusing things hadnt realized recently caused problems diagnosed parents didnt treat seriously barely done anything help made think wasnt really issue throughout middle school grades straight ds cs parents werent helping anyway instead lectured everyday irresponsible mostly true caused stressed already social life wasnt much better either constantly felt talking much felt people didnt talking eventually grew habit saying sorry every time talking someone felt annoyed ended lot trouble mood swings commonly make people look immature child made feel extremely excluded continued years diagnosed week ago browsing youtube saw video tiktoks talking adhd click start watching watch see people talking troubles adhd felt strong relief knew crying long thought lot things trouble personality thought something wrong entire time saw people problem made realize im alone know lot dont care please treat adhd real mental illness something make quirky crack head energy real issue treated one tldr adhd caused problems thought personal found part adhd take adhd serious something amazing happened boys think ex unblocked number wont respond still prolly hates one step closer wanting kill sore thumbive started writing notes everyone care even dont ive completed eight full notes less hour sore thumb first thing ive able feel almost year depression physical pains oddly enough im actually satisfied whole ordeal uwu time uwu time vewy gay uwu wan na left alone want isolated every living thing fucking planet theyre driving crazy im close fucking snapping rn want left alone kill myselfim years old sick life living im going end life guys im deep shit supposed leave school went back sleep know options think want die life worth itthis working im depressed years now always tried work think way redflag come mind ive always convinced option tried im convinced anymore family go personality hurts people able change personality years ive tried seems best interest everyone disappear even friends still care keep going theyll estranged lack communication maybe wonder happened side thought years now main emotion adolescence hatred parents told gay horrible gays die said theyd rather one kids die leave religion years later came gay told believe god hatred towards parents making feel way im tired now exhausting gets point direction go im scared might lose friend cat sick past days im really scared cause ate anything last saturday body temperatures going cold im scared lose another friend hes one sweetest cats household cant bare lose planned going vent sadly sister work school works deal deadlines getting closer closer hope gets better us making drink water sake hes goner lil bro sad know think anymore guess ill update maybe days im sure hope gains strength back sorry long finding alone bad placehey guess im gon na spill story read big deal feel head explode put tho life always kinda sucked bad tho people immensly worse really nothing complain always roof head family always weird kid never fit overly emotional loud odd one course easy target bullying life everyone told high school better course high school mostly except fact found friends say quotes never truly apart group unless planned something invited always forgotten left senior year got really close people group friends even though best days life toxic encouraged others depressed feelings made feel worse never told redflag attempt time attempt made rethink life try turn around happier bit better finding things liked course lonlier ive confident okay person started come lot try help people wanting feel better made feel purpose even may insignificant im complete spiral depression im life im done future one nothing feel sitting writing long note ending maybe im coming melodramatic maybe im numb everything know need someone talk world one cant keep nonstop action every conceivable inconceivable scifihorror cliche found blatantly silly fun bigbudget epic pace never lets especially shorter us version tightens things considerably something terrible happened today boys havent stepped game girls taken best friends list snapchat isnt good dad fucking simp dad fucking simp hate always rants woman come first men second multiple occasions simps woman sees woman road struggling jumps help sees man nothing believe everyone equal wrong simps guys dream falling love someone know doesnt matter crush dream fell love someone even dream sex crush genuinely fell love ive bunch feels good wake takes minutes realize dream feel super sad point almost tears know none asked dont care call pussy dreams genuinely great wake wish crush anyone back example one last night crush said liked told id know fine dated bunch stuff together id say dreams happy ive felt life im saying pity either wan na vent dont even care many people see want least one person see maybe even relate done lifeim tired im feeling nothing regret failure depression overall point know find sometime future feel even care id rather move im scared hurt want im considering especially want bring family thats thought keeping alive right now fear thought fade away love fucking hate life anything live fori mean dramatic way thinking even trying used friends less dwindled one anything people stopped tolerating grades shit know actually tried im fucking depressed time care bullied everyday actually enjoy anything ive never relationship never even kissed someone im tired im sick crippling loneliness bother living whats point trying reach help one obligated help youi know people issues deal always hear one owes anything one obligated help okay one obligated help cant kill peace im asking everyone world stop help want people show empathy second sayit better want fake positivity want empathy used reach people people manipulating calling selfish getting attitude complain cant even vent im friends family ive wanting end life tired continue pointeverything pulling im fifteen go school twice week mute transgender taking meds anymore none helped community service next week becoming addict cant deal stress anymore spent today writing notes people care know everyones going hurt im already hurting making stand watch life falls apart think less painful forcing see want hope theres something peaceful death probably butwho knows know im going yet im thinking overdosing imagine least agonizing im sure im typing really suppose one last days record degree comforting hope everyone finds peace point life thing time around xoe send artwork portfolio interested writing samples provided choose fine receiving portion funds beginning work rest everything completed paypal transactions preferred thanks reading merry christmas tears eyes pain heart thought feel better day went convinced brother stay friends weekend posted earlier roffmychest things gone depressing almost unbearable sitting room nearly hours contemplating long funk go ive lost anything eat shower leave ive done nothing today sob crawl ball recently put best friend wonderful german shepard cancer age months diagnosis final vet told truth help anymore felt awful prolonging pain im grown man met end rope job unrewarding im able make ends meet feels day goes find behind ive tried make everyone happy holiday things know cant afford ive maxed credit cards paying bills buying gifts bring joy others ive told everyone thing want xmas mother father love blew tire car dropping brother friends alone side street pulled lug wrench began change tire rain grip nut slipped dug knuckles asphalt frustrated sat sidewalk sobbed shivering put smile face finish changing spare back car know days know cant anymore incredibly lonelyi surprised someone actually texted today turned automated message dentist got looking messages talked anyone months im isolated im anything life im tired want anyone cares point still please break fathers heart daughter fit live shes living now ill always think teenager text pretty often usually text things songs memes think shell texted song youtube recommended really enjoyed thought shed enjoy texted back oh ive heard song love tiktok let parents find use tiktok dad sends song thinks kids listening tell tiktok know knowing half battle go joe video games look hella fun jejssjjjjsjjoaooaoaowozjznznznznsjsjjjsjd feel wayfor passed week felt alone want cry talk anyone feel empty know take life self harm hate feeling hope passes soon wan na fucking kill myselftheres nothing say id better dead ex pisses alright go gon na fun background asked friend ive known kindergarten gf january said yes proceeded break valentines day didnt speak months asked friend mine tell wanted talk talked bit said sorry wasnt best frame mind call bullshit didnt really talk decided id try work things thought persistent messaging twice roughly every three four days started getting little chill around thanksgiving asked thanksgiving said going cousins house asked couple days later thanksgiving blocked run really wan na make pay tldr ex broke valentines day talked couple times next months blacked polite hasnt talked best pizza toppings mine sausage green pepper favorite toppings last words fthank support messages longer handle pain ive lost everybody around goodbye caution potential spoilers aheadbr br steven spielberg presents tiny toon adventures always one favorite cartoons growing heck still movie perfectly captures everything love show puts fulllength formbr br beautifully animated tokyo movie shinsa studio wb outsourced every tiny toons project best studio handle show movie starts end school year acme looniversity renowned cartoon college buster babs bunny relation teenage toon peers learn masters animated lunacy looney tunes final bell movie splits five different plots buster engages babs water gun fight culminates bursting dam tidal wave sending buster babs elmyras dog byron downriver overturned picnic table search adventure deep south plucky duck talks hamton pig family letting come happyworldland happiest place western hemisphere put excruciating car ride threat chainsawwielding hitchhiker elmyras cat furball finally runs away dauntednot plenty aminals play acme safari park fifi la fume devotes summer hunting heartthrob movie star johnny pew hopes getting autograph course hotel hes staying nearly impenetrable shirley mcloon sets fortune telling booth acme acres boardwalkand lets guard day fowlmouth takes see horror flick skunkophobiabr br story lines sidesplittingly hilarious even overlap end complaint movie make full use tiny toons roster dizzy devil mary melodie one scene gogo dodo appears beginning end film montana max sweetie calamity coyote little beeper nowhere found still theyre excusable flaws perfect film movie pretty rare today years old never released dvd knowledge highly suggest track anyone whos fan warner bros animation either classic contemporary needs see movie struggling high functioning depressionits weird days im fine happy fine bad days shit start feeling suicidal tonight one nights sleep hours skip bathing school one thinks im struggling naturally force happy around others dare burden shit never ask people help one wants hear ramblings feel shitty even though good family friends constantly distracted video games music something prevent silence im online late hours night pass exhaustion reason descended complete apathy want disappoint parents already ive already go therapy past play sports instruments grades even starting slip away gone ill nothing left one days theyre gon na find dead fault much coward ask help mom made fun gf face hate gf dad came house hang last name happens rhyme jerking well yknow basically mom called insert name jerkingoff mom beat shit day lost respect mom alright know fuck people responded dodgers post rdodgers dodgers seriously people sub reddit mean want know im talking look recent post thought people liked dodgers supposed cool people wanted know photo instead helping fucking people decided make fun one single mother fucker give straight answer except nice lady direct messaged everyone go fuck couldnt answer simple question went way make fun fan wanted know person someone even insulted taste hairstyles feel sorry fucking losers call fans guys bunch fucking jerks happened anyone ive unknowingly listened song repeat past hour im wondering happened anyone recently feel ive dishonest honestly disappointed instead studying always want open new tab start watching youtube even playing game sometimes even realize yet keep anyway change wow wonderful film script nearly perfect appears film written minglun weii hope stories himbr br acting sublime renying zhou doggie amazing natural talent xu zhu delight believable jaded old traditionalist br br soundtrack effective guiding without overwhelming br br movies made whether hollywood hong kong family friendly well acted well written well directed near perfect gem homie checkpoint tender beautifully crafted production delved deep bitter sweet irreverent pupils life embittered bus driver teachers personalities present subliminal debate story unveils adult characters seem familiar teachers bus driver one opinions plausible well known key incident happens bus sent circuit viewpoints time babble teenage energy kept control organisers trip mr harvey experiencing much pain throughout reminds war damaged teachers understand irreverent pupilbr br rhidian brook producers deserve much acclaim well shaped british film acting unblemished scenes appropriate widely available yet seem given right opportunity attack helicopter want equality girl awards guy awards expecting anything though nice day movie shows federal pigs persons government powermad threats real life lot recommend mebr br alas script supervision editing even times directing flawed people disparage whole movie ignore good momentsbr br saw original way back new hated despised loathed thought terrible irrational piece junkbr br now though remember whybr br believe two compared even connectedbr br consider two different moviesbr br rate two different moviesbr br vanishing point provides rallying place banner people want encourage individualism believe human rights recognize threat freedom government especially federal governmentbr br voice wears cap bearing state motto new hampshire live free die one time motto americansbr br despite obvious flaws vanishing point film cheer sadly dead yet please pray die sleep tonightthank dead yet help u speedrun life made promise id live please help fuck make go faster srs guys think found perfect girl might chance need maneuver carefully started wrong foot ich bringe mich umhallo zu mir ein paar worte ich habe meine ausbildung verkackt mein leben wie kann ich mich schmerzlos umbringen ich kann nicht mehr im happy satisfied life still want end make weaki cant talk anyone want think cry help chest content life feel best living behind im turning year never thought id make turning young know always believed destined die young often think killing feel sorry kind way believe best days behind want die old want people remember earlys version distant memory used semisuccessful musician signed record label people line hours shot tv hit big wanted growing sign particular label music went successful career marketing love job people say make good living things need life loved girl years things ended years ive dated lot girls everything really shallow unfulfilling believe society crafted attitude loving person loving offer cynical know honestly believe girl consider love life really pinnacle comes best days behind im sad ive come accept life goes people look see face value laugh smile lot reading probably built image head probably look imagine wear black quiet opposite actually risk sounding total dick im actually good looking guy dark cynical thoughts bury head want attention people knowing good guy smiles lot want leave earth admit thing keeps alive fact took life devastate family great upbringing family amazing cant help think blame took life cant leave knowing death hurt much made life conflicted know friends family never knowing still stop thought tough walk bridge think wish jump stand bridge disrupt traffic allowing someone save life love heights always close hopping railing free fall breathing breathing outand splash relief say redflag weak easy way cowards cant say always case way end things terms one thing right selfish thing keeping around really thinking getting ran shredded train reading seems pretty foul proof seems much wrongi afraid jump bridge survive whole body broken happened holy even know pointeveryday getting harder harder literally snap life fucking hate life much everyone ask reason needed bullshit life calledsorry rantting honestly want kill self every fucking second goes hate wake still alive want dead bad wuss honestly better way kill getting hit train jumping bridge closer every dayim m always edge now bipolar diagnosed mom though mostly manic last couple years honestly hard mom talk look much dad kinda forgets time im used see psychiatrist therapist call always confused shes says im going hurry stop wasting time money every time ask therapist number make appointment glock hiding ac vent trying figure im counselor summer finishes cuz doubt kids remember go missing made new account friends know reddit name dont want stay behind college cuz always peoples last optionwish joking want hold biti seriously considering sticking knife neck today sudden broke crying afraid dying foolish theres nothing holding back yet thought want kill right now want hold want wait im actually ready im sure decision fuck embarrassing breaking tears watching tv goddammit im coward everyone know tired sad time decided want turn life around kill stop wanting thoughts suicide constant kill stop thoughts stop feeling write poem roses red uwu inside im dead owo hesitant inpatienti honestly prefer point sister mother love much cant dealt much cant much want escape worry slip impulsively anyone dealt putting front trying angry sad want scream cry want hurt break something fucking handle thisi hate fact still waiting therapy originally waiting hear scheduling learned counselors handle schedulei work till pm monfri supervisor said make work matter opened schedule think going hear anything back themi need way cope emotions want able cope used think getting hit every direction realize handle break hurt promised know doi tried watching youtube tried smoking vape considering trying play games probably punch laptop go walk end punching wall make work life harder need hands even considered writing poetry coming head fuuuck want something regret even jerk porn free now use imagination probably rip dick sitting numb feeling scrolling reddit even reading posts barely feel arms considering going getting pack afraid use cope use cope end sad lonely drunk actually try kill myselfi got nothing right now even talk friends secretsnot mine know even talked someone probably understand try twist things around argue actually happened need need feel better head fucking noisy feeling bit need someone talk feeling great now need someone talk feel im readyi feeling dumps past months sick tired manic episodes depression comes dont know quitting law school still gets even almost month dont facing family aunt always updating cousins friends always share stories success peers family members leaving feeling complete shit try smile still engage conversation every exhausting getting work choregetting chore dont job feel im sticking around family thinks im happy think im good im neither im tired work already underperforming dont people talk friends think im okay saying im stressed family doesnt believe mental health sister tells fix dont fckn know start tonight laughed hung family moment felt happy looked im thankful think im ready go now another useless rant school disney themed show speechless aladdin singing years im finding difficult sing voice kinda sore today voice always quite deep girl work extra hard high notes thank coming another useless rant think past self everyday hurts go feel person used officially well good luck figuring need information wan na say reddit really helpfull great distraction shit mind oh boy shouldve known badly year effect mental health cares going ignore birthday lowkey hope someone remember probably isnt case covid good reason excuse giving sweet party mean nobody wouldve come anyway wont awkward low key hope find girlfriend actual real non toxic friends become something really help loneliness mean understand hated tho yea told year ago fucked year probably already killed wish lot happier social next year happy birthday wont ill working spend rest time alone room thats fine guess used oh happy birthday people saw sub share birthdays ima gon na sleep know one caresa weeks ago went home ended going back old high school program visit instructors younger students hadnt graduated yet formed good relationships first thing said go stuff walked instructors classroom saw one first time nearly year forgotten tshirt ordered graduated kept bc expensive ship never told went saw students program first thing said wish minutes ago couldve gotten us dairy queen instead us order know wouldve picked bc im pushover im someone people use idk ill go back im state college wont even option ill try kms go back half dozen tries different things dont even hope relief shitstorm live cant iti keep trying kill want need bitching im tired wish someone call mei havent feeling good nice hear someones voice dont alone usually put music trying im overstimulated racing thoughts mania moment havent sleeping want hear someone tell day maybe ask mine want gunif gun easy dont want go pain method bad cant one im bc checked hospital rather die go see relatives tomorrow christmas boring ass new years f planning kill sooner later whats best way make look accident rather redflagi cant dad cant live world anymore terrible terrible person everyone school hates literally friends literally one miss ugly irritating ass including please painless excruciating dont give damn make gone free everyone horrendous presence thank point survivingthats im surviving existing merely going necessary processes live biological level every person must find way given journey cant make walk cant change neurochemistry cant find reason live cant find sought respite selfless service found unsatisfactory sought respite expressing artistically creative endeavors soon went gray keep seeking even small steps one simple reason snuff light better exhausted ideals better walked many paths dissatisfaction deciding purpose ideal galvanize live life living surviving movie using cinematography fantastically depth camera catches character denzel washington kevin kline put awesome performances though washingtons accent die certain scenes movie laying forgotten unable rent hire recent times threatens lost forever worrying idea attenborough best ghandi master piece stands movies worrying gaining audiences rather cry freedom south african apartheidthough critised biased nature movie faithful book donald woods faithful message intended express world ta peace want much please take care bipolar strike snake warning easily triggered beastly yelling rage maniahappiness somewhere cant sleep forced use everything known mankind force sleep talent yet think desire much failure everywhere anytime try fix go doctor step forward always steps pushed back denied disability court jan health insurance year working still nothing even got go doctor chances getting drug work still work erase fact live alienated everyone cant stay enough money go anywhere options backed corner today day planning done alienating complete bankruptcy discharged close enough medical insurance still new improved snail mail zero concerns thats fall tried everything failed doesnt matter took responsibility gave tried failed told doctors therapists years racing mind sleep doesnt help blame blame doesnt matter anymore hurt much numb cant think write want explain many times mind comes never sounds right years suffering keep happening many people system doesnt work read many times young people know grandmothers died age said didnt treatment lot worked work well forced work drugged side effects family empathy ive said goodbye bed shower many last special meals nothing seems special anymore thats ballot mail box hope dems wins last thoughts sat one came stop expecting anything different except real ending finally thank memes lot good people love forgive try seek revenge mental illness terrible help soon know someone suffering need help isolating let die loved last year remember thing last new year posted selfies boost selfconfidence dont want support want someone listen acknowledge sayim bad person narcissistic time selfdeprecating piece shit im fat unhygienic unmanly horrible personality people call friend dont know standards super low wish heart tell much appreciate fact wish ignore go better friends time feels knife going chest see talk people im selfish need approval even wont much jealous see men around theyre confident responsible beaten lot uncles kid tell one feels remorse actions hes nice years trying buy expensive things whatever abuse ripped apart every inch manhood wasnt strong wasnt dignified wasnt brave ive bonded sisters men ive met life understood abuse gone well bit stoic times abuse ive grown trust many people extremely anxious shy hear family members schoolmates etc talk lack ambition im reserved feminine im good kids sorry cant speak room full people sorry face flushes red name called sorry feel comfortable alone days visiting family fault sitting back supporting abuse younger every time took one step far id threatened thought good way control father died vulnerable beating threatening violence two things definitely punches thrown tears ive shedded lashes belts benefit even father probably wouldnt treated nicer still alive point im runt family now im stupid weak shy manly enough cant fucking doctor aunts lawyer uncles id kill didnt two sisters friends care im happy sisters success still hurts good job graduating suma cum laude gpa degrees mathematics electrical engineering cried tears joy happy night make proud fucking hate thatbi molested fucking hate still going affect rest life staying alive piss assholes grave hes fucking taking long die fuck shit always going broken fixed one love fucking anyone love fucking broken know single reason fucking slit wrists week hope fucking bleed tried years fixed nothing fix ruined even friends fuck everything warped personality done keep living never going fixed really worth itthis may little long side hear young father source love great inspiration business went mother divorced within month gone brother mother living new house things went bad worse neglected likely lack discipline part physical health declined rapidly managed weasel way online schooli never left computer top mother began dating one day got serious physical fight one boyfriends cops got involved spent ten days juvy met people never forget abouteven tried release father stepped back decided way im living mother sent therapeutic boarding school south carolina week destroying find met tons great people loved supported though family things began looking stay lost lot excess weight feeling better three months given devastating newsi pulled live new stepmom dad point become cruise ship captain gone time within week two plane heading away south carolina heading towards new jersey everything point seemed much grayer life network support vanished eyes lush foresty environment swapped decaying walls concrete even time think new stepmother words possible bitch second walked door see basically verbally announced hated prefer life fight constantly eventually words began sink felt though annoyance flaw perfect design everything knew hometown friends gone heard much life better everyone gone thing holding onto point father kept contact via phone one day got mad yelling make work stepmom fault last support fell wrote redflag note went bathroom grabbed razor blade anddid nothing much wanted die point bring ripped note cried sleep later dad realized going work got another divorcei think still blames left hometown start life fresh months plan figure everything time go work go planned ended drinking stupor every night without dads knowledge dwelling memories past year grades began fail quickly old demons arose going back old school time came go work plans made whatsoever currently grandmothers feel future either way ive told every adult opened nothing gets better grow life gets worse well life come quickly im ready become disillusioned world even see point getting anymoresome days wish balls escape world problems got hit snapscore im happy kinda name maya angelou right mind writes autobiographies wish courage kill myselfi keep trying lie itll okay things okay hours end going shit fucking ruin everything im worthless im afraid pain kill wish im tired everything know aloneim getting divorced im upset divorce love anymore im shattered hes life realize alone really yeah ive made friends already people work along really well started dating even though thats proper word friends benefits accurate breaks heart yanno feel things way deeply fell love feel thats completely different issue im still lonely im realizing need needed need feel im waste space sure people care want around gone anyone lost without anyone cry sleep need see touch hold cant one im convenient im person people go one im everyones backup ones priority even marriage realize time painfully clear know live know know im totally completely utterly alone know see value one see try occupy time spend time go walks lunch shopping spend time work friends spend time guy im seeing one really someone significant child friend really really need part knows drop cant need help good friends right now ill take bad friends friends look stupid throw help lines little hints hey im okay need go unnoticed make obvious someone finally takes bait open feel burden wish id shut deal lives worry whats fucking point one needs nothing going fucking quit give die put torture living fucking great stressful empty im done im tired im broken im fucking done im done much u needplease visited lake elsinore gliderport flew yellow pratt read sailplane returning germany serious ran tv one segment high altitude sailplane flights california early ies real life pilot bill ivans know played series turned sailplane film nnumber one flown lake elsinore saw segment searching wondering somewhere available segments serious baker ejection seat instrument find avalanche victims etc hard nighti really hard time recently feel failure cant anything done properly ive college four years yet still year away aa running circles going making deeper deeper track thats trapping almost last night right ready end thought find change life forever know lets play game people usually eat birthdays comes night clue look name hahahahahahah hand orange houses feel better youre rejected literally two simple points said something made feel even worse ew glad youve dodged bullet think minute care youve rejected probably gon na hella awkward see right dont care got rejected gon na awkward im abandonedit feels closest friend distant month now tried hard good friend knew keep venting ive finding another way cope working things getting better feeling better im feel alone seem interested anymore swallowed things frustration probably anything cant alone thats exactly right now feel im way whywhy parents invalidate hurt ones caused say sorry whenever fail hurt one say hurtful things apologize say stop feel im feeling right valid something wrong even crying feeling way use morse code cheat tests already tried friend one suspected thing create system work us pen clicking worked great quiz questions hi family quiz every sunday evening last week im writing week normally im quite good writing enjoy lol ive come bit block anyone good quiz questions ight hear racist towards southeast asians heard alot people angry asians shits wild want people spam girlfriend years broke blue yesterday ive never redflag thoughts noweverything see makes think everything happens makes want run share desperately miss best friend one never much time heart hurting much never felt much pain entire life bitch fiending rn unrelated yall know feeling random trauma surfaces lmaoo shit sucks tit havers rteenagers worst thing happened tit question penises guess tits near equivalent idk contemplatinglast time tried overdose survived im stupid think enough time ill hang thing im contemplating whether leave something behind particularly care others might think think im thinking saying fault thing ill maybe tomorrow today next week now birthday coming hate day seem appropriate end time think last weeks time fail thank decided seek help next month afraid decided going see one doctors help id thank everyone helped thank much time talk huge thank people meet talked day internet speak strangers makes anxious worse stay away good id keep talking know better help people know even talk much someone side huge hug one person meet really made diference place hereim year old female im hurting im hurting lot im divorced twice friend group im frequently left ie fb invites events know way going ex come party hours away need ride hotel ask ride crickets moving im weight balding female super fun im slightly minimum wage job real room advancement dont see way start ive single years now ive got thought cute pics various dating apps still nothing ive date years im lost feel abandoned everyone dont want taking space anymore feel done lived officially sober whole year start middle school got close classmates gained bad habits along way got point started drinking twice week especially school nightthats usually expected taking engineering track got wasted puked times one night even still kept drinking started joining cousins whenever drinking well realized ive hit lowest point life far quit drinking never really liked drink thought make numb feel ease really gave anxiety getting invited cousins hundreds times drink year rejecting every single time ive finally gotten whole year without single drop alcohol system ive adopted highprotein diet started working times week gained kg lbs muscle mass sincei really weak skinny back started drawingdoing art frequently started conversing socializing family neighbours cuz im bit sociallyinept introverted felt little confident telling close friends bisexuality nonbelief little hard especially live country religious bisexual atheist little bit frowned upon tldr avid drinker stopped cuz best turn life around feeling better bit context legal drinking age country rarely practiced regulated almost every street corner theres store sells booze regardless old sometimes even see cops offering minors drink culturally speaking guess drunk minors tolerated usually pose threat anyone even usually drink around adult family members parents way high standards overbearing advice dealing parents always overbearing hypocritical parents treat prodigy comes anything academic kept straight elementary im finishing th grade taking geometry something years ive gotten little praise school yelled well enough class designed people two years older meanwhile parents super excited younger brother gets ab honor roll hurts lot ive stressed lately affecting mood around making super pessimistic huge smart ass around leads yelling talking back wish endedthe doctors refuse prescribe anything help gender dysphoria im cant take anymore much live hate futile existence constantly struggle hate physical form need something way something end body horror feel feel shiti took grams ingredient tylenol exactly good day now hate life now want work mother teaching cook feel sith aprentice first kind update last night kill talked think safe asked teach cook fair bit ago never think last night made think everything happening cook something finally started teaching expect kind mean bad says things good good pedro sometimes feel trying quote shieve think even know star wars top feel hate fueling prove wrong snapshot popular pinup time typical dragged biopic fun fabulous film look feel era excellent soundtrack everything want indietype film think tendency portray bettie page sort sex vixen jayne mansfield truly looked carefully betties poses always looked happy wish haughty look im acting career work look porn star ladies involved film three female producers female writer director female cowriter lovely gretchen mol im sure helped shape role sugary influence really captured idea sweet somewhat naive southern girl really enjoyed photo taken hoped good ol jc upset br br gretchen mol turns career high performance may perfect breasts happy curse several years ago made cover vanity fair one really knew touting next itgirl lets frank bit presumptuous mean unfortunately never made gwyneth status though lack talent making poor film choices pretty blonde fickle hollywood renders forgettable im afraid put back alist well ill monkeys unclebr br intensely private bettie seen film yet bettie left pinup party high note fell love old flame jesus whatever floats boat honey one helluva woman hope happy wherever arebr br congratulations mary harron done cult idol justice want die want leave friends grievingive always problems happiness im cant remember properly happy parents divorced happened moved city went new school got bullied everything shit always sad finally switched school environment happy soon became happy normal person home life went shit mum stepdad getting fucking smashed far much recently shit realised coke next year probably best young shit home school going well space months stepad assaulted twice police involved second time hit stop called police decided press charge mental state spiralled downwards home life got much worse happened months ago immidiately went period low thoughts feeling unsafe home mum backed got better last summer worried school friends day happy last months worse think killing bad home relationships making feel unwanted although lots close friends feel much burden ones trust talk ones dont trust enough scared think crazy tell feel know kill cause love friends much hate living know carry schoolwork suffering cause sit night nothing ive feelings ive experimenting drugs recently scared advances never stop link mean girl posted story wants link mean sex hanging thanksgiving sucks moment aunt makes stuffing dairy even though assured time time didnt dairy ingredients spend rest evening bathroom everyone mad taking long god hate everything crush usually sits lunch table alone say mean theres people around usually talk anyone phone ventingi want sit around read play video games stay reddit long explore new york city cant without money cant earn enough money without working hard work boring college coming im getting lazy want end things cant lazy enjoy things want anymore things continue time enjoy things either way im loss hate unable stand pressure real world please help depression feel im alone want end need advice ma couple weeks ago latest attempt end life years mental health stabilizing getting better every year year pandemic relapsing depression girlfriend breaking new redflagful job led dark rabbit hole gotten control finally tried taking life found parents hanging tree unconscious losing last bit oxygen taken hospital literally time got tested treated injuries held safety week life back normal buti want try againlast time note prepared bought new rope stare rope tens minutes something distracts mei want die badly know anymorei enough money insurance counseling medications know direction go towards none friends serious enough people imit feels pressure chest death rid ofi sick typical selfish people miss arguments obvious point give fuck know bad think really bad right nowi feel lost guys might actually try end life failed attempt want try household toxins hydrogen sulfide redflagdoes anyone know anything method redflag ive learned researching lock car source hydrogen sulfide die within minutes anyone know painful successful carried household toxins need mix order create enough gas die keeping mental health afloat online school keep communication friends lot us dealing online school recently new lockdown uk placed back home learning least late february learnt importance friendship routine strongly advise lucky enough good friendship group create things discord server places communicate text voicevideo chatting friends using discord server week reliving human contact lessons breaks lunchs lessons online call chat together chats talk individual subjects ask help laugh dumb stuff happened lesson wonderful thing keeping mental health afloat lot friends didnt discord found easy access making account sincerely hope helps express made feel much alive spend much time thoughts relief constant drag online learning tldr make place easily chat ie discord friends online school keep everyone mentally well feel supported traffik excellent miniseries dealing drug trafficking europe european produced pbs series oscarnominated movie traffic based loved traffic traffik must seebr br overall highly recommend miniseries anyone interested seeing drugs social point view screenplay exciting unexpected weaves lives drug dealers traffickers farmers policians police officers unlike movies sensationalize issue drugs traffik presents people keep asking meaning life bruh meaning life happy answer complicated ultimate goal life happy give shit people think makes happy bruh stop coming complex answers question need helpi need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help life changed forever wednesday afternoon driving work stopped red light gray truck pulls next cute girl waving n shit roll window wave says hi light turns green go separate ways way made feel indescribable felt happy feeling hours laid awake bed night thinking moment girl fucking said hi mistake anybody drive distinct car wouldnt recognized moved states graduating high school tonight last nighti kicked end january parents abusing life crash friends couch week moved room shared apartment time ive trying hard look second job addition one hours week managed find job let go less weeks refusing say ive trying apply welfare thanks intake worker shitty phone contact cancelled application considered inactive tried applying today work systems changed requiring bunch documents im ashamed homeless piece shit im ashamed abused im ashamed needing welfare im ashamed fired im ashamed able find job im pathetic lonely fucked live world anymore absolutely stand unfair life im going ending tonight supportive family friends shitty clueless assuming life cant hard theyre living comfortably ive proven cant take care theres point living anymore calling anybody hope somebody finds rotting body fuck world took oxy pills vicodins effects starting kick ill preface saying seen numerous psychiatrists therapists gps wringer family doctor throwing antidepressantantianxiolytic prescriptions see sticks everything still feels matter med new routine holistic solution etc exhausted living march attempted suicide lived alone nice apartment locked door suite flipped security latch taped handwritten dnr sign living room locked door took uncountable amount clobazam clonazepam different drug gravol pills least nighttime benadryl pills got bed listened strict machine goldfrapp feeling id never felt done felt id finished life soothing effects massive quantity pills took thengirlfriend called fine conversation black tells days failed suicide attempt happened completely coherent stopped talking passed long story short late wake two days later intensive care tube throat regulate breathing catheter definitely guess dnr work parents live four hours away sitting around come fast forward convince everyone crazy say maybe go psych ward said better care move back city living small city time back apartment parents stay covid breaks postgrad program studying announces classes move back big city parents basement degree mailed keep conversations people keep wrong things continue comply ministry transportation drivers license back keep sending different forms doctor sign depressionredflag stays covid made world weird years days suicide attempt purgatory much violence greed narcissism world never seen every day work jobs money comes goes id never even made anything conversations ad nauseam hell sartres exit days think purgatory purgatory purgatory trigger warning im killing tonight tomorrow mondayif im entirely honest reevaluate tuesday go least reason live weekend survive tuesday roommate needs someone love hes hurting wait remove stable im ok listen song httpsyoutubeeaeiafutyu number posters commented unsatisfactory conclusion always problem long complex dramas crime essentially banal pay always anticlimactic whilst detailed exposition detracts human drama writer used number clever devices try round entirely successful answers precisely happened may supplied well buried viewer inevitably feels little cheatedbr br sense unimportant drama never crime even investigation impact events lives involved family investigators witnesses press gripping writing significant cut run mill primetime drama performances uniformly good ensemble piece invidious focus individuals penelope wilton deserves special mention extraordinary tour de force motherwifedaughter janet mcteer cracking form hardbitten old copbr br one interesting aspects drama handling race elephant room noone prepared mention subtle powerful stuff whats favourite disney movie amp aladdin acceptable answers include coco mulan shooter drills schools student shooter theyd know everything teachers students planned theyd know everybody youre helping point secondly someone believe bunch kids randomly gone normal tuesday plus quarantine couldve given somebody months plan school shooting kind concerning want go sleep tonight never wake upim writing let people know feeling know really fucking cliche reading im probably already dead really know meant relieve stress getting feelings paper maybe fucking redflag note ive got blade right next may redflag note want end feel sad sad probably never girlfriend way look fat sad family hate im still questioning sexuality even though think im straight sad friends probably care follow feel alone reality dont even feel much live friends family probably resent end sexuality straight totally honest ive got decent life dont even know want die kind live uk access gun probably even wrote want go sleep tonight never wake convince gild three people gold possibly none good arguments completely serious convince gild good enough will text post weekend lets play game mobile type random letter suggested text make sentence best one hour posted gets free award one long convo w crush hour conversation crush good one deep im happy snap chat pc soooo extracurricular activities mormon parents taken phone ways contact schoolworkfriends ect found work around every app need except snap chat wondering one anyway around android ios emulator feel im postponing deathi really know explain feel died long ago ive planned many times always come sort dumb excuse right excuse concert im going friend february know im going scares know people care know worse know probably good life im fucking tired crying sleep constantly fighting urge hurt wish hit car tragic traffic accident drawn movie moment saw preview oscar night read kay pollak hooked americans suckers comeback kidbr br understand movie huge draw sweden provincial american speculate reason perhaps provocative joke lena character makes beginning movie social comment perhaps central message believe appeal everywhere affluent societiesbr br message movie movie titanic life short people far anyone really knows weve got taken away time pity spend much time hiding behind walls separating us people afraid hurt tearing walls painful feeling alive lies side wretched walls feeling alive worth taking risk give receive start living nowbr br many people criticizing movie lack characterization flaws say pseudosophisticated grip folks parable fable affluent westerners materially rich whose souls abject povertybr br join choir band help build housing distribute food less fortunate spread joy make world better place long commune fellow man writing check enough social species way even humblest fellow human beings affect ways never thought possiblebr br rugged individualism place overrated big moment im finally getting helpit hasnt happened yet dont know moms reaction wrote note redflag note note shes going read moments im suicidal look posts rredflagwatch without getting upset started didnt want go school dont fucking know crying verge going downward slope suicidal thoughts done loading laundry shell read note probably read posts might actually getting help soon goes show help even cant put correct english whatever language speak id recommend writing huge ive waiting help well long remember thinking thoughts shell probably read adrenaline pumping im actually excited help knowing another route escape ive feeling isnt redflag istheres word thank mom everything sooo hope long reach motivation itwell say lost real friend got rejected person humans know probably fail reach education required study dream job wich fail anyway due vast lack motivation literally anything end im fat fuck crying somewhere room noone giving fuck least noone actually care whining internet things im pussy tell anyone irl simultaneously searching best way outyeah know statistics indeed access guns cyanide know tried jumping somewhere puss fuck actually simultaneously show idiots around actually feel decreasing selfworth keep going fuck lot intrusive thoughts losing loved ones tragedies happening imagining traumatic horrible shakethemoff keepcoming back feel empty find much joy hardly anything hate going depressive episodes remind much life sucks never happy content intrusive thoughts redflag trigger depression even know anything anymoreim failing grades im months behind school work family disappointed friends know first saw film two years ago cinema fell love dark tale two brooding teenage sisters coping home large country house father stepmother relationship stepmother strained say least stepmother appearing increasingly becoming unstable battles younger girls film though slants oriental style ghost effects horror adds strange unsettling aspect story first viewing clear intriguingbr br direction incredibly good acting stunning stepmother particular incredibly good swinging one mood style another film large house adds eeriness enough points film jump seat film clearly shows korean cinema possibly best original world moment simply anything western world sadlyand really see influential film makers around world next decadebr br highly recommended viewing opinion real joy scare george clooney directed sam rockwell directorial debut confessions dangerous mind starred together movie george clooney involved movie producer along steven soderbergh shows really believed project potential seems fine entertaining project line movieremakes oceans eleven italian job somehow movie halve successful least good beenbr br movie characters played fine well known actors shame characters really given enough room develop even though potential turned fun enjoyable characters characters mildly entertain mostly quirky sequences movie fact played change much even though prevent characters becoming total bore perhaps even annoying anything allbr br course due writing characters used full potential assume original italian movie soliti ignoti works much better movie movie relies much simple story predictable way storytellingbr br nevertheless movie simply still fun one watch maybe simplicity harmless little caper movie simply worry much story regard welcome collinwood still movie works simply serves purpose wellbr br movie regret watching finished movie really easily without seeingbr br avatar websitegame hair wtf bruh anyone tell make noose robin williamsi exposed beams garage want make setup whole thing crash possibly leaving vegetable know actually support weight lb trying cut circulation rather strangle looks easiest definite method planning buying rope amazon really want fuck left permanent brain damage want gone im giant pussy afraid pain want quick im afraid jumping break neck dont want break ceilingundo knot live permanent damage thanks anyone replies well shit cant go sleep anyone want talk anything standard stuff dm ask dm want filler filler filler bot doesnt take trans woman suffers bpd adhd severe redflag feel go suicidal teenage attempted suicide twice last resort starting hrt made significantly less miserable still ugly progress seems stopped years hope anymore think able look mirror want throw upi hate adhd bpd mental illnesses ruined life mention gender dysphoria makes cry every day sometimes look mirror days keep sanityi accept look rest life accept nobody knows woman rather predatory straight man day father said transitioning able easier access women rape rape victim raped everyday age coach later classmates high school fucking unfair internalized fear around women feel occupying space wrong always afraid go beaten severely twice past always sexually physically verbally harassed lost almost friends transmisogyny sure always alone people want date fetishizers see exotic creature man woman never able find sb see thatnothing change always pain wisest thing end things courage times attempted chickened sure endure hell anymore either feel suffocated place world girls want selfish wishi need someone dump bucket problems listen anyone men inherently violent violent crime committed men men inherently violent died right one find weeksi really want kill somehow despite best intentions attempted failed three colleges cant hold job minimum wage thing deal assholes perverts general public gets unbearable year hairstyling license cant hold job either shitty undisciplined im almost parents pay rent bills cant together right now feel together juggle everything long come crashing start stepdad good guy never calls im pretty sure secretly despises person ive grown almost mom pays everything buys great stuff still short snippy ive bad day boyfriend brings waste space ive become every time fight even though apologizes tell deep means friends anymore either push away deal messy self see red flags bail going cyst removed lady parts week half biopsy almost hope cancer feel deserve died family continually pay way life everyone better unfazed killed right now thing stopping dog want alone worried hungry long sometimes think taking bunch pills days really let people love almost feel deserve painful death im stupid worthless ive somehow avoided darwinesque brutal end truly deserve feel deserve punishment become person value even delusionally hope times failed please help reddit ending life midnighti dont know awaits better life death dont know take chances see dead ends wherever look best thing death tho hearts broken lived l alone die alone film begins dowdy housewife norma shearer finding husband rod la rocque cheating three years pass apparently theyd divorced years due infidelity oddly time la rocque see shearer two kids shearer took parisbr br marie dressler rich society lady invited new improved norma come house weekendostensibly help marie break budding romance daughter la rocque apparently norma supervamp magical sex appeal break romanceand one seems realize la rocque married several others weekend immediately norma hit gay carefree sexy waysand almost men including la rocque captivated neither tells anyone married obvious ex wants new improved norma back film sophisticated comedy manners among uppercrustsimilar ways jean renoirs rules game oddly despite severity depression films pretty rich folks pretty popular though many today doubtless find bit droll spots fortunately let us gay plenty cute funny moments particularly towards end marie dressler shows true colors great film certainly good one another timepasser real regret love end see yourselfperhaps agree ending perhaps wont im pretty sure enjoy clever film yo monitors damn expensive seriously shits bro wan na play tf osu doom eternal hz hate man cant anymoreeveryone love built lives without cant anything im failing classes im lazy good mother thinks im fat bitch one person loved nothing im unstable cant keep living cant anymore attack guys reddit officially attack chinese hackers subreddits rfood rspace rfreefolk converted trump advertisements lot chinese believe hackers soon come rteenagers even rmemes u check subreddits see happened changed mind love bot love comanche moon everything going starters simon wincers back man whos name synonymous highquality tv westerns unfortunately problems moon something even talented director solve poor script based lackluster novelbr br forget historical accuracies reader novels tell biggest travesty moon even consistent information original lonesome dove masterpiece many wonderful rich moments miniseries even greater degree book completely missing moon considering fact viewers moon probably coming least sort dove background lack characterdriven emotional backstory downright painful br br said moon one instance adapted version altered make suitable screen example novel moon focuses largely comanches credit miniseries tries service comanches end gives enough viewer gets sense theyre missing important part story similarly val kilmers scull loses role either expanded kilmer rachel griffiths matter actually something roles reduced smaller supporting parts instead kilmer gets top billing character leaves scratching head appearance completely bizarre final act br br theres strange moments throughout film make sense read book killer parrot single scene shows us call mccrae anything near amazing texas rangers claim single one expeditions moon dead mans walk matter ends successfully call mccrae seem blunder way one pointless mission anotherbr br frankly larry mcmurtry never given job writing script praise surrounding cowboy movie brokeback mountain mcmurtry write good novels although theres dissension consistency statement hes never exactly established scriptwriter production benefited bringing back director wincer original screenwriter bill wittcliff adapt novel screen witcliff exactly mountainload material screen writing credit one deny fantastic job whittling original lonesome dove said comanche moon almost brilliant production aided terrific cast unfortunately given enough steve zahns portrayal gus mccrae rather portrayal robert duvall gus mccrae deadon criticized karl urban woodrow call saying performance imitate quiet stoic woodrow original movie say blame mcmurtry mcmurtry one moon novel miniseries turned woodrow socially inept awkward natural leader emotionless character whose lines dull whose character motivations clear seen portrayed far adequately sequelbr br still cast sparkles moon degree left miniseries feeling melancholy felt watching original lonesome dove time realized probably last time well see characters appear screen long long time come quite honestly cast done well wellnurtured fullblown network tv seriesbr br aside wasted opportunities cast biggest travesty original lonesome dove novel contained much rich backstory characters fascinating utterly fascinating see translated screen unfortunately tossed aside favor mcmurtrys tedious inconsistent ultimately irrelevant prequel someone help meplease talk suicidal im bad talking please turn camera zoom class meetings hi im one english teachers important stay safe understand high schools opted distance learning start new school year still rough im effective quality instruction ability develop meaningful teacherstudent relationships severely lowered ive never felt useless ineffective teacher really weighing want help empower inspire change world messed im trusting responsibility ive spent hours unpaid overtime trying give best strange year im emotional teacher monday first day school cried hours second cry whole career despite stress struggle endured fail majority students bothered turn cameras even look eyes kids ive made sacrifices discouraging week please us favor show us face care dirty rooms go ahead curled blanket bed take chromebooks wherever want let us see please someone help diei cant cope every morning wake screaming mental anguish hate much theres nothing change cant talk people know say wish wake cant answer phone reply emails everything difficult im self employed people want book jobs im ignoring calls messages stressful please someone help end cant cant anything right want exist jokingly set challenge see long go kissing someone im setting new record everyday day gets harder harder im losing survivefor past month ive spent almost every day bed literally nothing try take one day time day getting harder harder im losing survive weight loss plateaued weeks self control turn overdrew bank account way repay started posting nudes attention got validating ive started cutting first time years ask trans want life wish born regular person either gender wasnt ive gone mentally wish upon worst enemy destroyed life keep going trying look big picture knowing survive eventually ive lost continue want become person im proud point cant see happening want die want hurt anyone feel option point know peace life bad people treat terribly one family messed life bad irreversible live immense shame failures lack accomplishments yo woman take anymore always left made fun wait pain go away wait make go away want kms bad lot people disturbed existence name worst thing done maybe realize wierd dear future wifehey right now feeling lonely happy arms another man hope latter im sorry stay im sorry go even meeting im really sure wouldve looked sounded felt ok know wouldve loved till last breath will last breath car doubt redflag exhaust works pistol still maybe fate wanted us together fate gave miserable lonely crippling sad life know wouldve done anything see smile make happy truly hope guy thats fate im gone love shouldve hope god loves unconditionally forever happiness matters make god make life happiest im willing put pistol lords head need want happy im sorry darling hope happy without awful relationship learn im year old male ill sharing relationship story dont make mistakes apologize long post ill make tldr background time fresh basic ait army october struggling mentally socially quite time hid fulfill dream soldier got home happy part moments fast forward march ex friend started actually hanging thats met girl girl led months vigorously tortured mentally find using amusement friends make boyfriend ex friend jealous lied destroyed laughed guilt tripped ruining life taking advantage wont believe thoughts months suicidal murderousviolent thoughts angry depressed long im pulling resented everything said genuine feelings love destroyed wasted considering mental instability absolutely devastating took advantage weakness almost committed redflag left cut im far happier without wretch human im focusing job military career road recovery tldr got screwed girl used make feel better sympathy mining left mentally scarred alone want overdosei cant go onfuck life point im english teacher ive attempted times still want die dont necessarily want kill im actually considering things havent told anyone pulling cute film three lively sisters switzerland often seen running matching outfits want parents back together seems mom still carrying torch dad sail new york stop dad marrying blonde golddigger calls precious dad seen daughters ten years oddly enough seem mind think hes wonderful meanwhile precious seems lead life mainly run overbearing mother alice brady woman wants see daughter marries rich man sisters idea pushing precious path drunken hungarian count tricking two golddigging women thinking one richest men europe case mistaken identity makes girls think count goodlooking ray milland goes along scheme cause crush sister kaybr br film enjoyable light fare barbara read kay comes across sweet pretty ray milland looks oh young handsome though unfortunately given little alice brady quite good scheming mother deanna durbin real charmer cute button playing youngest sister penny pretty much steals show absolutely beautiful vocals sings several songs throughout film though actually liked seen feature even plot film bit silly nevertheless found film entertaining fun wife finished marriage im im ready end everythingwe kid world cant imagine putting divorce im trying ive got plan balls want feel will know finally activision decided add colorful skins fpsmall budget playere cod mobile cant wait use something ghost john carpenters thing undoubtedly one best horror movies made sadly carpenter movies go one underrated movies panned critics shortly release reason almost pathetic seems time people overwhelmed idea good alien idea spawned success thought movie dealing aliens deviate idea regarded heresy human ignorance truly frightening thing people need judge films want bebr br thing interesting study human paranoia members us antarctic base discover presence alien refered throughout movie thing able imitate form life knowing might might creature see every character reacts situation mass hysteria panic slow gradual descent chaos people turn quite humanbr br carpenter succeeds elevating movie something far average scifihorror whats behind jumping moments instead relying intense atmosphere mistrust preapocalyptic despair along nicely balanced moments visual terror small thanks rob bottins impressive creature effects gives us experience matched many horror filmsbr br instead throwing facts plot elements face carpenter offers us much gradual delicate approach implying sense mystery gives viewer enough freedom interpretate transpired certain scenes giving enough plot fond interpretation moviesbr br ennio morricones score works way minimalistic depressing sound perfectly fits movies overall tone although ive always wondered sounded carpenter known compose moviess osts except one characters deeply developed still memorable thanks good performances actors especially kurt russel plays downout apathetic helicopter pilot rj macready worth noting character transforms movie disregardful dont give attitude beginning unifier leader group men try fight thing even said false heroics laughing face death moments certainly sort comic relief movie keeps atmosphere first scene last speaking carpenter keeps tradition creating powerful endingbr br quarter century release thing feel dated disturbingly growing use computergenerated effects feels even stronger shows lifes work dedication human beings computers combined openness analyzing gives viewer lot reasons watch second third fourth time masterpiece terror never forgotten cant anymorei cant need hug need someone tell okay fucked need someone apparently thats much ask cant enough feel failure work pressure mental tormenthello struggled suicidal thoughts throughout entire college years studied medicine germany work junior cardiologist challenging top tier university research hospital germany getting bullied colleagues mentally tormented failed many research projects bullied heavily social interactions besides going work gym friends never girlfriend kind physical contact opposite sex worst part work failed projects enjoy life know many people worse precarious situations want exist hate every moment reason living family brother want feel sad die want exist hate life existence literally every single friend make ends leaving fuck shit im fuckin ending peace bitches sort comments controversial new update cant sort comment controversiali think tell thats best part reddit wtf reddit thinking things badits trivial complain job people much worse job making absolutely miserable took two weeks mental health leave feel much help tuesday go back already dread want die want anymore hope world feels already theres nothing left die along know made throw away account know dont nothing feels helps want quit job feel trapped things uncertain im afraid losing therapist ive considered getting drunk go work deal nobody nothing fall back ground hit im really feeling desperate tonight know life improve scariest story hear slowly open eyes try cant move find difficult breathe one point see something next bed tall shadowlike figure standing figure slowly moves towards want struggle cant eventually slowly leans towards face whispers ear thing leaves shocked uwu feel im spiraling controlive depressed now time something push sudden death mother two years ago feels everything getting uncontrollable im fairly decent putting show letting im told recently getting harder put face every day especially deep thoughts ending used pop head occasionally time span increasingly getting shorter im hard time keeping emotions check im starting fear may depressed quickly mood change ive harmed point nearly breaking hand thoughts turned feel one really bothered bothered feel actually friends im stuck dead end job even half recognition deserve im quickly reaching point burden entire family want know anyone talk im completely lost school year sucks thats said want say now im going leave sad balding want end allim going bald cant live anymore people say shave head lift feel jacked bald guy suit personality one bit plus shaved head pale skinny white guy id look neonazi cancer patient hair style options balding men either shave let grow slightly makes look something accountant whos idea fun reorganize stamp collection im terrified leaving house without hat know everywhere go people laugh balding ive given pursing women attractive women right mind wants date balding something guys s full heads hair cant go life anymore ive gone considered good looking ugly im trying rogaine see working year ill kill want go life ugly bald loser thats baldness people give examples bald men attractive always hypermasculine guys rock vin diesel s help guy s progress reports hs im hs got fall term midterm progress report mostly bs part gpa unofficial thanks want die really really want die cant waitthe past three years worst life throughout high school life amazing star athlete healthy friends family great girlfriend first year college tricked taking one cycle steroids life changed year cycle ive surgeries constant pain lost life contract girlfriend connection friends family im years old ap classes high school hardly able read im sick tired pain im done life im cant work travel party study without constantly pain ive lost everything used im fucking done im fucking sick done life cant wait pain constant pain pain even areas didnt surgery shoulders cant play guitar lift food mouth without pain im sick fucking done dont want live pain reality im even alive sitting room immobile alive im done life mineive thinking week kind truth apparent long time parents made believe possession still prisoner home im starting accept keep insane reality forever harassed daily existing stalked dare go outside deal creepy obsessiveness fake love attention deal baby sister getting hurt time im reliving childhood trauma need born came world anyway know leave cant physically hurt fear swallowing pills frustratingbecause live lot pain nice easy way exist one really made feel right suffered try reach people make feel im crazy believing im suffering sister broke heart even acknowledge done trusted need talk person thought loyalty sociopath mother strong feel disgusted shared much information depression therapy helped open eyes horrible truths strong enough know nobody side deceived believe much support family reality destroying keeping isolated everything good used comfort lotbut now recognise face feel im existing body reali done things starve cant even feel pain feel bit sick whenever realise much food im eatibg much weight im losingi horrible health problems underweight decade go really upsetting write feel emotions anymore cried lot now things cant say real world still hope one day express people care hope destroying cant let go know im alone im living contradictions tell quadratic formula cant tell life works high school school honestly biggest waste time dont teach anything practical im supposedly one better schools state makes lot fucking sense everyone real world dumbass moonwalker great movie start finish cant take eyes away love clips michael singing dancing love studio tour bitsoo funny mini movie cool special fx etcmichael genius always realized hiw fucked ky outlook life im supper pecamistic everything hate feel everyone want live feel thats great subreddit sucksthere said fellow girls decide type underwear wear morning pick old pair depend mood outfit brief day thong day style really matter wear first ones pick maybe type underwear issue im making sense thongs haha total disappointmenti big big big test coming working years cant fully succeed fully im sorry everyone keep done life rn working years im sorry parents point total dissapointment friends nobody willing listen bye tips gain little confidence recently ive gotten confidence u ask idk rly helped overthink wtf u want u may think people look yes care wtf u girls called handsome others school finally started noticing im nobody anymore wrote previously u good path gain confidence ik hard gain even little bit confidence trust follow tips itll better message clear money important lifebetter die live broke care look never find care neither person reading know simple ask give one hundred thousand people dont care enough even give conclusion money important life even value life amount sick living unwilling dieand know filling blanks rather leave matter put list none missed scrolling feed apart suicidal thoughts well times separate think outside see tortures mind regrets challenges pain suffering becomes heightened happiness trying obtain happiness states mind seems useless brain hard thing manage sometimes look cat non human living beings think lovely existence think much must ironic mind intelligent makes cruel hate men feel uncomfortable compliment bro aint gay im flirting tell tshirt kinda cool lmao cant people take genuine compliments im even creepy telling anything inappropriate basic compliments bare mind barely compliment strangers time friends update suicidal gfan update previous post called suicidal gf idont know announce updates properly sorry months together now turns next month applying euthanesia dno feel told kept alive til now says done broken exhausted cant stop crying family works pretty gay seeming makes gay jokes family shes gon na end nice boylt mean ig id rather family straight mean rlly tho openly listen clairo troye sivan girl red sweater weather many plus little sprinkles gay oblivious steady goeshey sw sorry kept quiet account long came guys months ago regarding kind paralysis well managed handful bs gasp things smoother semester academic wise though end sem exam rush hit yet heads april xd hope mature enough time round rosy pic following going sound ripped bollywood soapopera movie religion noncommital hindu please excuse really go yesterday kind relapsed grades anything came home studying hours straight safety schools study rooms pleased yay dsp finally form control come home normal things go internet redditing go eat dinner parents start longwinded talk buying plane tickets india money education mother started arguing father job lack pay fairly common indian households gross generalization happens friends houses yes abject poverty loaded either want circular argument leads nowhere working ass school everyday going broken record going continue even graduate job put arguments fighting years old tired enough already detest crying seem often lately hell family happy school even care people happy parents saying curfew live singapore fraks sake life going listening parents argue next years ive done past years really want continue future look forward point planning move graduate job something happens parents stuck forever now know looker anything dad wants stage elaborate play married something status worried speculating future even likely want stop stop im going school back hrs time news boys girls significant actually loves cute nice beautiful green eyes warning drill really happy embarrassingly watched movie first time years release story father brother relate one brother bit wild brother typical older child craig sheffer little unemotional oldest brother pitt amazing skerritt perfectly cast father fishing scenes filmed montana absolutely breathtaking idea fly fishing attractive movie closely follows book modifications make appropriate movie format unlike book movie stories one measures perfect movie anyone wants quiet night powerful somewhat emotional movie hookup lied hiv status convinced didnt need use condom im dont want die aids made mistake cant take back anyone wants sex please safely dont idiot hooked stranger dating app sex breakdown started talking physically abusive ex got hooked meth cried minuteshe asked comfortable meth enjoy sex better happy said wouldnt comfortable probably left right stupid stayed bit longer fucked anal stops says put pants okay wants leave leave texts hours hes admits high meth asks come back hes lonely made apparent wont come back tells hes going kill hiv panic attackmeltdown went er ive pep post exposure prophylaxes reduces chance contracting hiv days coworkers joking possible hiv status saying stay positive boss told told boss er thought going late im scared alone well terrified havent told family im friends anyone confide im positive im going kill already depressionanxiety close redflag might thing push ive tears past days im dumb dumb shouldve worn condom know im dumb please dont say shouldve worn condom yes im trans im closeted makeing minecraft skins prices negotiable making minecraft skins happy dont half pay dont skin hey rant take viibryd doctor either negligent malicious sure told explicitly take iteither accident answer phone calls god damn pharmacy serious reaction horrible nausea debilitating redflag depression told want take anymore reason kept telling good pill box make sure take every dayi got pill box take exactly one every day month called refill stuck needs prescriber approval days text tell two days left medication said look fuck even mean look almost offensive flippant especially comes fucking mental health professional threaten kill something take concerns seriouslyif call pharmacy tomorrow medication entire weekend huge project work weekend ergo fucked refill fucking medication exactly days two left abusing anything legitimate prescription legitimate doctor someone speaks pharmacistdoctor bullshit please translate issue hell dr authorization required mean medications doctor negligent feel helpi feel help im done life ive tried everything gon na vent bit first encounter depression parents divorced blamed lot much detailed plans kill letters written everyone life readily available years decided go failed caught tried told counselor total ive tried probably times really stupid varying methods ive mental hospital twice moved dad support moved back mom moved alaska im much worse tried traditional therapy hospital visit one shafted grand total three months division vocational rehabilitation getting therapy friday th wednesday cried tuesday away lost wonderful perfect supportive boyfriend cutest sweetest cat seen job boyfriend managing right now ambitions future whole life ahead yet none stops feeling want im depressed know much longer give even know make appointments friday want hurt badly giving headache one friend boyfriend things going life time listen cant say blame whole family miles away told throughout childhood actually depression lying attention etc one true friend brother nice job busy life time alone feel one listening anymore boyfriend idea neither nothing makes happy anymore used enjoy making art indifferent point know much longer nothing stopping strong urge hurt end feel nothing will need find strength make day severe chronic depression coupled anxiety much handle simping stopped friend big charli dateline way back small amount followers hes watching never understood dancing videos seemed lot got obsessive point everyone pretty much knowing simp group caused mental life great post chats talk time open cute thought one day told buying something something one predicted going buy custom body pillow print let say pretty open loved charli damelio catch drift starting nerves cared much someone never met quite defensive anyone insulted worst part fact teenager kinda understand body pillow random anime character cartoons really matter age defacing real person understand wanting prn found online bad knew keeping pillow look ew pick pretty much everyday good reason days ago finally stopped declared everyone stopped watching going trash pillow know lying chose believe said already faded watching content gone back regular prn good told actual female girl knew gave realization needed stop actual crush theres another reason laughed first mean music really help afraid eminem asked send video people think im lying internet points said btw story want incourage people simping stopped overcome tldr friend obsessed charli damelio realizing hat liked real girl caused stop stop normalising funerals wtf point please die go need kill myselfim done one values huge colossal failure constant rejection abandonment friends real life pressures home lack acceptance driven conclusion world better without even know posting im tired hurt seems way end pain suggestions anime give suggestions anime anything except romance highschool stuff want make million dash dreams someone dropped m id never productive member society id wife care gd kids chill day buy dogecoin right fuck now going extremely fast cant find anything ss number parents arent home cant fucking miss good luck psats good luck everyone taking psat morning minutes going great make sure read every question carefully lets great apparently brother thinks water tiny amount lemon juice sour obviously got went fridge got lemon juice drank nice refreshing glass lemon juice males worst embarrassing boner experience days ago sub seemed obsessed giving advice mainly concerning bobers talking us boys real question worst accidental boner situation happened need pointive coasting long remember things definitely started feeling wrong around age twelve things got terrible tried st year uni mum came knife pushed got nd year antidepressants still feeling anything evened state functionality nothing remember feel stuff relapse feel bad finished uni neet months told people im applying want things feel know shit anything point feel pushed point everyone enough need something know know find look cant bothered change cant envision turning anything actually look wrong think hate look confusing balls ive every advantage money schools opportunity wasted good feel bad hell ive wonderful doctors therapists every cycle harder theres less left ampxb cant current thought end march definite date got helium syringe air embolism carotid hurt quick feels closer every day relaxing goes show everything fucking pointlessjust found ex left less month ago best friend roommate going hooking weekend probably dating eaten couple days im trying supportive man im ready swallow bullet ive guy years now helped personal crises count repays fucking person ive wanted spend life cant move im recently unemployed drive im stuck im stuck hell look clock realize fucking matter ill wake tomorrow anyway nothing changed want end give want dief diagnosed autism adhd anxiety know start used happy child became aware media talking anxiety got worse time years old scared even go outside anxiety gotten worse time finished th grade scared even leave house addition single friend end th grade year tried internet friendships last less six months moment left one talk started going special school people autism tuesday classmates developed already comfortable going community always refusing afraid late time want friend fear classmates graduating year due maturity stay another year school day either feel super stressed crying literally coping skills try playing video games continue unwanted thoughts due lack coping skills continue panic little kids school make noises feel noises gunshots ampxb issues family mom dad major argument five months ago feel traumatized argument father brings divorce leaving house often even close siblings well brother constantly annoying left college last week contact information result late mend relationship sister close either guess contact information well despite fact still living family frequently lash dad mom makes angry dad sometimes calls bitch mother sometimes says know ampxb fear issues undiagnosed agoraphobia depression problem never want go see therapist doctor want new diagnosis give one afraid diagnosed something new severe mental breakdown forced leave home make worse ampxb end want state fear dying want kill want better dont need sleep need answers dont understand second rule drop food ground pick seconds drop seconds timer restart still edible want lifeits year ex dumped think loved even liked much maybe first started dating moved away maybe part lust firsts visited last april lived hours away move back home losing first job college dumped went home really care told make tinder account make friends see therapist ask parents dating advice basically nice life wanted ground swallow die time honestly happened still feel depressed happened moved back area almost year ago dumped last april already started seeing someone year fuck cant let go cant fucking move want friends want back ship sailed long gone much happier without even miss brain stuck cant past year gotten new job moved nice new place dating someone probably smart successful new group friends much enjoying life past year gained almost lbs still work job fucking hate developed hate field studied chose work longer take seriously became extremely cynical negative angry world barely made enough money spent impulsively friends social life ate feelings cut family life part every time come contact parents dad takes time tell much embarrass useless failure spent way much time checking social media obsessing crying especially car shower bed overdosing pills cutting selfharming drinking smoking getting ghosted hilariously tried dating friends stop talking depressing around traumatized tried going therapy got traffic tickets wrecked car fault lonely useless waste person ive wasted time life wish unfollow social media see updates anymore move fuck easier said done part scared looking petty crazy unfriendunfollow angry mestill feelings whatever part thinks keep social media come back judging broke latter extremely unlikely wish large group friends wish become mute anxiety im group people current situation maybe friends never see initiate contact want see themknow theyre hard even keep conversation see losing interest much want friends kind gave trying keep contact lost interest lost interest maybe accept fact im going alone rest life either live accept kill im savings shitload debt accomplishments friends family im alone sucks alone ive alone whole life born child general stereotype child parents spoil rotten give attention opposite parents older early life tell never interested becoming parents time mom always friends dad garage working cars getting drunk interaction dad hitting criticizing putting mom taking side friends kids parents school really parents still arent nice people alone time child im alone time now im sick hearing need love accept alone go things alone travel alone great etc etc im fucking sick alone social anxiety terrible makes want kill wish friends cared wish boyfriend gave shit feelings gave love affection especially much give back even group people feel singled cant communicate cant relate close feel awkward last time went social even coworkers went bowling went along maybe laughed couple times answered question someone asked barely talked even three beers still anxious mess went straight home afterwards instead eat everyone feel cant anything situation anymore theres helping shy scared kid im shy scared depressed adult life living hell even think try anymore theres point therapy help never im cynical effective anymore think im great person proud great im paying tell sorry hear ive thanks make feel better want go money energy confidence time friends want write things anything im going try meditation put pills body bullshit generic advice one big business take field seriously anymore feel death really option point constant mental suffering part depression half situation family friends emotional support attractive outgoing interesting enough part society nothing contribute nothing look forward cant even count hands many times ive driven empty parking lot past year half cry disturb roommates remember calling crisis hotline several times never helpful im sick messaging people message back honestly though talking problems solve make feel better kind dont understand point talking either im sick going suffering im negative shallow waste person course world affected gone everyone forget week maybe week half two weeks im done trying improve situation feel death option left im tired feeling thisheya everyone im limit ive ask ready made attempt possible ill try beginning year tried kill overdosing sleeping pills work slept great first time months everything gone hill example girlfriend left came closet parents transgender told father im idiot wrong started cutting worse finally top best friend fallen love feel guilty everything eating away feel hurt everyone around way treat feel im falling apart keeps getting worse worse breath take want end im close im going judge based ur hobbies means ur lame means ur really cool hopeand gone yup finally turned wild ride younger thought s mean much responsibility stress thought id money world moment bank card withdraw much money want anyway im actually im slowly realising different childhood expectations though dont feel different yesterday anyway think ill still lurk around spend quite bit later teen years scrolling subreddit wan na hang around little till turn annoying old lady old person flair part journey end mi think ready go think im depressed suffer mental health issues time thought death comforting im always tired mentally emotionally physically seems nice drift away nothingness rather grind way corporate america work rest life killed climate change bs look forward getting bag helium making final goodbye messages hope good years earth im ready rest now part journey end tony stark endgame took really fn high realize keeping around keeping around realize till second happening always thought putting chase wow dont really feel life worth livingfor people people great lives im sure people amazing friends found soul mate nothing one daughter better without husband picked fight left work feeling depressed apparently wants happy thinks getting mad sad right way make happy hes soul mate im stuck family wont take back point got married last year baby dont job im waiting state approval child care assistance left everything know behind move husband moved miles away family time didnt even want desperate familys home unimportant lonely depressed even one single soul call talk parents never understand sister dont talk things none friends answer phone call never call back ask one ive always alone one even wants friend god knows dont fucking soul mate want kill baby better dont want relationship anymore cant leave dont anyone anything offer world even leave marriage never find anyone love way want loved cant even find friend truly loves want end tried kill failed didnt try hoped things better wish go back tell never gets fucking better stop pleasei cant even work productive stay hydrated without intrusive thoughts constantly compulsions rage outbursts followed depressive episodes want life end never loved wish guts end iti never break born abusive family hated im adult ive found probably girl deal girl dreams everyone care love least way stop immense pain see videos proposals prom questions makes want kill years said tried go prom stupid cunt lesbian friend behind back say proposal unromantically snatched ring presented said something along lines sure whatevercome find later reason really want maybe another time moment seems forever ruined remember whether said think knows handed ring back probably wouldve ended day still ring guess engaged technically cant really pop question still one special time made utterly ruined without time machine told night lonely said never really gets lonely general huge fan affection recently told whether loves significant family member list goes day day see lovebirds everywhere live see see scrolling reddit happy proposal videos theyre crying joy nobody joy nobody wants nobody wanted family anyone sometimes question god hates every time see proposal video area chest used light butterflies becomes slightly empty numb longest time way id feel butterflies animals stuffed animalsbut slowly withered away im dead inside wish dead outside ive going deep end recently world may trash nothing go wrong headevery day stuck even started talking stuffed animal never leaving bed imagining dates imagining wedding imagining happy life someone finally loves enough life worth happiness love always synthetic see changing statistically way live life single prolonged death possible outright damage mental anguish leads unhealthy habits slow damage slow pain slow torture slow death inside lungs pitch black hard breathe cigars cant go day without spanking smoking weed harder things sometimes maybe attempt die every part body sluggish broken cant afford doctor im losing mind post tip iceberg life hand crafted important details cut heart open dump lemon juice want world anymore wish guts wrap wire around neck take start passing time awaits afterlifemore torturefor eternity thats fair wish exist wish irresponsible parents used condom got abortion anxiety depression probably autism life life alone makes advocate eugenics assisted redflag people exist lifes mine exist feel pain whole planet full irresponsible selfish people theres dumbfuck rich kid getting rd ferarri hes going crash meanwhile family cant even find decent family home combined incomes whole world bullshit someone please kill please end misery mind dark place right nowfor years recurring suicidal thoughts every time things really bad morbid wish die peoples standards life okay maybe even great caring mother loving boyfriend im finishing engineering degree even tuition pay even want die devil details mum caused big traumas years ago destroying ideas marriage loyalty siblings hate every conversation agree ideas presses much boyfriend lacks social skills hes empathetic really harsh sometimes quite often really im terribly sensitive sex life sucks im really late studies uni though hell unforgiving time professors really care mental health ive six years even internship imperative order graduate work experience might find internship one im close graduate ive started badly spend last four years trying fix shit ive done im entering limbo need graduate cant graduate many regrets life lot anger heart feel ill fail life human partner professional mother id love lot kids im afraid ruin hate siblings mum feel cheating bitch embedded bad genes make fail partner although ive never let come surface see point living except dreading final hellish destination maybe pity family im afraid ill cause much pain commit redflag life pleasant head cant find joy happy prospect ive tried talking mum boyfriend people think reason sad let alone depressed suicidal never let tell whole story theyd hurt lot already listening ive therapy horribly expensive cant afford right now think quarantine helping see things different light know mind worst place moment fucking terrified right nowi first full big year college amp took fucking years life even remotely together relationships romantically blew fuck face lies cheating wonderful combination alone years amp depression slowly gets worse slow acting poison friends facebook distant family relationship see happy amp kills want cry amp cant stressed college feel anything career path one person knew amp close met video game wow amp close 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family might sad im frightened ill end hell wrote letter guy loved id post bc idk took lot write hurt lot write dear alexander everythingthe reason woke daysthe person talked mostwho wanted text day call nightmost importantly showed love lovethere many things happened always came back grew stronger itive never regretted hated much letting someone goive never stopped loving youi miss everyday theres say goes dont think youyou forever alwaysyou still even dont talki never love anyone way loved youwhat special amazing id rather die never met saved kept alive daysyou made sure went bed ate didnt anything put riskyou many anxiety attacks mom hit yelled meno one werei burrito dumbassi love youi never stopped loving youi never stop loving youyou always piece heart piece earned havei truly never knew love till met youall calls lasted hourslil naps id takemovie nightssoftball practicesstupid pictures wed send othermaking fun people google mapstelling day asking ursjust seeing hearing voice 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feel purpose life im thinking attempting commit redflag tomorrow crushing vicodin taking alcohol may break boyfriend first hid something devasted best friend left one good friends moving feel one friend talk want talk parents stay room sleep cry netflix bullying watch one kshow wont leave alone kshow recommendations ughhhhh battling depression lonelyness suicidal thoughts redflag selfharm years without ending sight finaly opend family willing go therapist two years last days living disgusting existence searching ending horrendous live terrible afraid moment see new therapist hope turn first last post supreddit thank much showing never truely alone finaly getting help bucket list kill okay life beyond repair im gon na try optimistic im happy find next mystery life want end sex someone gorgeous try heroin pop molly friends skydive try cocaine hahah writing realize really want much life much drive dreams anyways ill update list done im ready go bye good day anyone know write apa format school district usually us use mla history teacher wants us write essay apa know know kelly legend hoping film accurate depiction life may disappointed creative license taken film eg naomi watts character never existed reality look purely piece entertainment holds pretty well ledgers performance title role quite solid taking mantle cinemas best ned hard considering previous neds include yahoo serious mick jagger former carlton champion australian rules football bob chitty great footballer poor actor location shooting film area live bacchus marsh outside melbourne well clunes ballarat world depressing hate want kill found way us falling apart think sometimes talk people seeing truth insults mad fucking deal conservative people ruining world right now talking peoples rights away wanting kill people think tired mocked told stupid fat things cus woman tired men bad drivers rude people tired living backwards town worrying give covid family one wear mask sick rather kill stupid worthless fat everyone fucked hope end world fucking die go first see hell fist time feel anythingi felt anything years recently got boyfriend hes really nice best person world nothing changed tries help theres much motivation im always sad depression social anxiety mild aspergers borderline personality disorder want kill idk yet im really close though options better think better bf say mean things mood swings find someone treats better want keep living maybe keep living stay alive solely least happy know though feel id need motivation id happy know option loves lot reason know really want leave really know im asking anyone advice appreciate every try type idk accidently say dik heehee funni rant kind keep scrolling im done life boring every day blends together hate alive hate im sure almost everyone know hates talk feel bad im weird social cant even keep conversation going im worthless even talents nearest thing talent drawing im even good read sorry wasting time needed say barely talk really care dating im m ive serious relationship enjoyable manipulative always fine always friends hang lot friends girlfriends spending time started make feel tad bit sad miss feeling someone share moments im missing time know need anyone cant determine whether actively trying find someone spend time fun ignore urge cant anymoremy grades terrible never mom always angry gets home really think even care gone need end long enough life know itjust check last posts really problem post herepeople ok use one person worse sent pm someone answered sunday heres conversation ended gt probably stems experience ive made far really thing report bbc radio year ago rate redflag among polish people uk massive according social workers come cambridge certs english university degrees work experience work joiners polish discouraging time thought turned everything revolves around born really make sense carry living gt seems terrible situation judged solely based come guess make appreciate things bit ability grow poor francoamerican upbringing able climb way part us space program im successful people im comfortable things turned end visited us id love hear travels experiences time share yeah sucks chance matter hard work know suppose situation manageable religion people believed suffer irl theyll go heaven losers fed antidepressants keep going people still inevitably refuse kind life kill ill new visa atm right now ill chill weeks think wanted die ill go europe know fast train railroad woods germany prague good spot according videos watchpeopledie quite sure way im feeling better run money diei months land job running money nobody live without money go ahead end life balance reaches zero doctor policeman new orleans hours locate killer infected pneumonic plaguebr br effective classy little thriller directed elia kazan blends documentary realism race time pulpy heartbeat set filmed around new orleans panic streets taken story quarantine em cold edna edward anhalt oscar original story boasts fine ensemble cast deliver top rate performances director turn richard widmark bringing method year marlon kazan streetcar named desire paul douglas jack palance walter jack palance wonderfully named zero mostel sweatily moody pursuers chase pursued halt onset potential black death epidemicbr br film scores main suspense points kazans astute ability cut back forth protagonists without altering flow mood piece widmarks public health doctor hypodermic needle hand running around trying locate bad guys good bad guys bemused wide scale hunt tension stacked fever breaking point thankfully final thirty minutes becomes cracking piece cinema palance excelling nasty villain ironically puts one mind widmarks tommy udo kiss death three years priorbr br imaginative intelligently written story one cunningly links rats criminals carriers disease blight society noirish elements paranoia blend nicely basic procedural thriller memorable scenes suitably cloaked stifling atmosphere kazan created although early character psychologizing threatens steer film talky based alleyway definitely film worth staying end essential filmnoir maybe even essential kazan certainly highly recommended film begs discovered new generation film lovers reappraised old guard may missed back day trying find reasons toive searching ways end friends family started soothing stress drinking trying socialize bars clubs avail even started thinking obituary say remembered even publish pay obituary paper good drama school good actor control public view people strangers towards nothing live know talk professional know consequences lose job eid tomorrow im still trying teach apply eyeliner fml test text text text text text text text text text text text welcome cum cafe today cumsume ok im scaredi certain id able go school trade high paying job allow live life totally realize every trade need math skills mathematically inclined fact im shit maybe trades less simpler math others doomed fail life sheer lack intelligence friends sister moves back mom b slips drugs b invites man c paid sex mom b b know happened next dayjust story might complicated follow adrug abusingpimp day daughter bthe mom canonymous man dmy friend quiet time friend finds ill call d tells confirmed followup conversation b weekend super worried b bmomis constantly blacked drunk weeks friend interject im friend defined someone hearing story second hand seen first hand mother drinking beginning early afternoon reaction friend d getting quietly mad hearing increased drinking seems brought raping event reddit especially commenting seems fritz tonightif comments showing cant see replies post seems reddit issue affecting us sign ignored anything stick us hopefully reddit fixed converse properly janam janam janam sath chalna younhi kasam tumhein kasam akay milna younhi el el mean friend says mood someone text rn talk whilst talking someone talkin feel available comfortable venting friend keep company one friend want wanting talk people talkin means someone want talk rn one available feeling multiple times express bored talkin ignoring someone messagesoh asked texting said different tired first choice good enough want cut everyone never give time anyone never consider anyone friend friends making feel unimportant know really bothers people decide shower right specific time ive showering past years reason either already showered shower dont time morning plenty time stay super late shower pm every single night theyre excuse oh thought id time unspoken schedule years break hell earth made shower couple minutes less brush teeth oops ok gn bothering currently needed complain good day school killing im frustrated school solely online ive struggling struggling im enrolled several advanced classes teachers seem care mental health homelife situations cant understand anything theyre teaching everything seems overwhelming point break panic cant focus almost impossible much better work school help right fingertips cant cant help inside room theres much disposal room supposed escape relax life im longer allowed luxury missing assignments theyre going stack cant focus im exhausted trying hardest getting return bad grade ive given hard focus teachers unforgiving im barely bare minimum waking eating constantly feels theres much going nothing happening offtrack distracted reward break half assignment wish focus work cant cant im tired man cant home im always alone one cant learn anyone help group chats exchanging answers papers enough wan na learn cant got braces today hurt dont know explain mouth literally looks factory telling getting better today turning shit anymore crying sleep tonight better without pulling burden loved ones anymore know doso im sure goes ive got serious depression treat anyway sometimes choke take pills never enough od hate im liar loser cant talk people going way comfort zone already feel useless die one really miss thing keeps alive girlfriend im starting feel burden everyone loves fbi said im second wanted person everybody wants piece need help urgently long readeverything write complete honesty hold anything back find purpose live working world turned years old ago months ago need insight suggestions live desired destined cookie cutter life philosophy life live life fullest work minimal degree preferably afford way workinglabor force set fit human nature many ways whether spiritually mentally physically say means lazy many others age even older believe way current workforce well education system set much stacked modern day human idealistic past present issue todays world working jobs becoming norm people trying scrape afford basic necessities shelter example hours week lets say person works hours minimum week hours left minimum amount sleep needed lets say hours days person hours dedicated leaving hours left combine days worth communicating well getting readywashing work leaves person hours thing week account chores daily lifegym time etc well actually tied enjoy time next problem working amount time even effort put majority people still fall behind bills necessities creating rut essentially trapped work never really getting ahead going far issues system set sure people today already know talking people praised early lives school praised creative artistic abilities rather quick efficiently standardized tests complete people individualists ideas often overlooked left behind shot often makes wonder many people considered smart smart good memorization test taking intelligence people general come forms brings back personally guess think one aimless people went adulthood dropped college many others seen real future program ended unrealistic debt shitty call center job full lost souls try make world stuck cycle stuck anywhere overdraft probably last year waste money either literally paying billscar insurance absolute necessities working hours minimum usually still live parents absolute need hate everyday feel fucking leach option seem ahead even current job motivate work fullest potential job performance measured satisfaction stats uncaring ungrateful customers regardless much effort put still poor surveys blame falls worth put fickle environment opinion honesty soon quitget fired current job see self getting real job long time people often try tell getting trade real opportunity life always reply miserable amount money worth trading happiness away really aspire part life travel around freely obligations going place place seeing different sights meeting different people living life fullest regrets future wasting entire life away working steady income coming nonworking ventures investments road opportunities handouts government assistantince go entitlement educating binary options quite time invested yet want ready thought potentialsole income future getting point see really purpose living going life real world completed redflag many many times passing week getting much closer even set date january things start going way fear death really care said judgement passed people truly feel happy enjoy life working majority free time away usually making someone barleynever worked richer power healthy believe even compatible todays world free thinkers opportunists question fine people reddit recommendations give live type life described little money moment hypothetically car decide drive different part canada one day best way sustain come likely stop paying student loan maybe even car insurance amount time try save much cash possible redditers situation please give advice tips fall along lines staying current situation current situation going lead eventual death soon directions made work live real word add coal fire never money experience cant id feel better dead layne staley losing hopeevery day feels worse last body failing betraying every way imaginable going worse much worse even months ago people say theres hope future science find way fix maybe theyre right knows happen happen might years meantime every day constant struggle barely leave house barely house constantly feel hot entire body sweats profusely almost constantly always feel moments away sweating clothes often sweat clothes almost daily doctors warn lie constantly throughout process im canada doctors supposed helpful try profit patients grow believing theyre gods know everything say sideeffects symptoms lifethreatening really care physically lifethreatening left situation want live typed middle word kebord didnt even want lol dont know say lol dont worry didnt know lol dont worry little much realized dont lot lol lol didnt know didnt want much said didnt want want saying dont job said dont good time said going dont want money dont worry mom dad want money dont worry want lol dont want lol dont worry want lol didnt even want man want money good man want dont worry much better didnt even want lol dont worry want money dont worry dont worry nice dont worry going money want didnt know didnt know didnt know didnt want go didnt know want didnt know man going hell going dinner mom going realized dont money didnt even know didnt know didnt even want much money going give mom birthday present didnt know didnt even know mom hello everyone go ahead leave comment sort ill best say something kind im working positivity recovering family issue id appreciate help today first therspy session weeks therapist seemed really concerned suicidal ideationi telling feel theres real reason anything even bother living squints says suicidal ideation lately started panic internally might institutionalized dvd player almost died joke one stories yesterday pc stoped win yeah still use starting windows dots appeared stopped turned pc appeared two options recovery mode normal mode nothing worked day later thing several hours later now goingto remove back cables found something usb usb games skullgirls ktne keep talking removed tried turn worked pc trying boot fcking pendrive usb angry almost threw dvd player ground finally got boyfriend flirting months flirting june hour calls still clue liked said liked thought nice obvious everyone guys clueless im honestly filled brim joy call mine excited first official date saturday wait wrote note think carry much longerevery day getting worse seem matter hard try stay positive gets worse day day feel im going snap soon something thing keeping alive right thought id leave behind moment im thinking im gone guilt even exist nothing exist able screw anything anymore im sure im even looking posting im messed struggling sick existence thanks listening child molester grampa dieingso moms father covid likely going die mother devastated im happy got deserved sister mad happy mom upset hes pedophile broke mind anything happy ive looking forward years think mom loveeveryone loves remember going shit alone even though might feel everyone loves understand say movie said hundreds times american classic spawned dozens imitators none midnight madness one kind ridiculous opening montagemusic bonaventure hotel hooked leon made us feel young carefree one question though two hot hookers time timemoney arrange event cast top notch david naughton best tight yellow sweatshirt disturbing little brother michael j foxin first starring role real brat naughtons love interest dork obligatory black dude fishermans hat yellow team michael j fox bad things try steal cups beer pabst blue ribbon brewery runs away flounders van flounders team gives us comedy exactly deal blond team dating flounder melio blade yes mexican gentlemans name blade guy flounder team best lines movie pomp meat machine team bunch drunks personal favorite armpit silent black man great two teams nerds lesbianstwo lb twinsbr br know ending start matter s megenre finest rent one buy buy now badly injure fists yes punching walls idk brooke grounded month barely talk chance talking idk want fists bleed thats avatar gang rise ive seen approximately amount users avatars pfps time us capitalize destroy pfp nation one tiny picture lookin heads got girlfriend imaginary cant physical stuff talk time im losingim losing fight urge end strong abandoned anymore broken many times keep giving hope break every promise abandon push pull push pull give hope break heart im mourning person making remourn stranger someone whos embodiment everything said hated opposite happy well know im suicidal abandonment issues keep pretending care breaking soon trust cause depression broken every way possible bad person sure dressed one days want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die im afraid succeed mom mad mess kick want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die urge strong im fucking tired im tired im tired im tired matter im tired let people let hate know fix know fix feel im ugly hate im horrible want die fucking selfish wanting endure fuck fuck im mad im mad tired im mad tired cant stop fucking crying every fucking day every fucking night cry cry cry work ones looking crying feeling heart rip apart crying feeling numbness creep empty hurt numb pain think laugh bc im amused mask im pretending look puppet dancing seem better hah fuck need justify feel mask come time changes subject every time joke makes laugh everyone leaves one listens everyone goes away fucking fault fucking fault fault fault fault fault fault hate much bc love want anymore promised stranger say things hurt purpose think notice bc brush fuck one knew six years fucking fake fake mean one fell used hold people made feel way one nothing still want run though horrible scummy person im angry im hurt blame everything chipped walls brought holding spackle coward fuck hate much bc good enough make stay im good enough loved listened life meaning purpose one day ill one day ill gone thank god counselor got back tomorrow might made th night tech progress thing makes want liveconsidering drastically different lives compared two decades ago im really curious see whats going happen next ai autonomous vehicles g research blockchain cant help wonder world going look years now yes friendless lonely depressed mentally ill piece trash im ready suffer always chance die unless suffering excruciating unbearable physical pain need rush things well im cant party seen friends weeks got great homemade cake tho friend died feels faultso im social person dont many friends well dont anymore know sad friend dog rufus ive years took family disowned drug usage wanted friend slowly climbed back almost going back normal fella society hes gone tumour didnt money pay surgery feels ive killed one care one cared know might sound exeggerated ive thought ending al bond years spent together idk im trying reach typing perhaps putting al words calms mind even im struggling post see bid farewell everybody problem schooling system lmao poor bitch homeschooled one help impressed intelligence scale film simultaneously disappointed lost opportunitiesbr br found script excellent vocal talent edmund purdom quite impressive artifact time film suffers many hollywoodisms especially poor casting much lushness sets much pretentiousness edmund purdom plays title character obviously awkward physical acting suspect primarily shakespearean theater thisbr br movie people reading propose excellent candidate remake especially cast real egyptians egyptians someone used spend hours driving around backstreets north london attempt avoid horrific congestion film immediately appealed throw interest london back late s basic premise version tv heaven paper film ticked right boxes watched knowledge actual movie certainly lived exceeded high expectationsbr br visually surprised different london looked back lived islington s long gentrification transformed area truly came across grimy tatty downatheel london may still bad housing estates general feel place much cleaner brighter pleasant nowadays based movie shows rather memoriesbr br story acting well top marks obviously go nigel hawthorne vampire absolutely brilliant acts deliberately unpredictably alternating total straightfaced severity surreal mindgames order unnerve knowledge boys puts test testbr br excellent thoroughly enjoyable trip back specific time place find endlessly fascinating even especially interested london circa still enjoy following witty dialogue likable characters knowledge boy ur skinny cute face cute haircut dont know anymorefeeling life drastically go drain im starting fail school drugs dreading waking everyday horrible society thought never able pass school seeing black darkness future great literally ok killing scared dying realizing lonely dont talk anyone realizing fucked life permanently wont probably live agreeing kill whenever dad dies considering dads human love earth great much painim redflag thoughts cant stop crying boyfriend going shit im trying help verbally emotionally taking guess realized told leave alone triggered start crying kill thoughts started stop go away think kept much bottled inside coming typing stop keep crying cant handle feelings smothering actually enjoys livingi dont people enjoy want end every day im ticking time bomb one day boyfriend reassuring better wont enough ocd worst fuck ocd hate whole life woukd ruin life done absolutely done loved fan original series always wondered back story fail delight love fact apart eric stoltz recognise one person refreshing much bsg introduced whole wealth new talent cant wait series start airing well done ronald d moore team excellent job special effects dialogue acting spot felt emotionally tied storyline know purists probably disagree assessment felt caprica far superior scifi stuff produced last decade funny thing happened someone another site trying make joke expose thread dw asked said clean hed trouble finding anything funny part post much shit needed seconds miss summer wan na look sunset feel warmness tbh thought summer nicer actually summer sit around room regardless season still summer depression nicer winter depression tired wanting give upi anyone talk im posting guess im exhausted mentally physically im transgender started hrt alternative redflag couple months ago feel bit better cant help wonder im going happy ive longed death past years ive lost track number times tried end know longing disappear thinking fact itll someday kind relieving besides feel everyone wants us die anyway people tend actively encourage deaths even rejoice wants live world theyre welcome anyway ive always felt unwanted belong even child ive accepted im trans even feel late try fix life longer enjoy anything im longer capable anything life left broken im already way past expiry date ive set date birthday way grieving dates overlap im even sure ill able hold im actually strong enough five teens set camping oregon wilderness despite warned park ranger soon realize something lurking around backwoods waiting strikebr br comes old horror movies one keeps popping every conversation friday th took upon find good old horror movies fell short simply compared friday th dawn happened among ones found really impressive bland stuff find today sharp terms character development quite likable ones casual pace hurry hack slash bits takes time set proper mood tone atmospheric builds killer suspense letting always sense dread somethings know strikebr br live definitely overlooked gem simply people never heard give chance ill state friday th rip two concepts even go near mind overall one impressive slashers ive seen dad jus told something real world supposed middle pandemic playing puppy bit proceeded blame listening music dont think parents understand something listen something hi yall bro good chess tbh filliwgshdhdhdh nothing left future full sufferingthe thing future hardship mental health prevent career field dedicated life finances marriage best friendlove life always looming awful ghost slowly destroying remains cant keep burdening people care aboutcare ive run treatment options see keep going much longer ive tried really feels theres reason keep fighting m married kids successful almost jumped story building todayi dealt depression minimum years diagnosed reality likely dealing entire life depression anxiety ptsd adult due multiple traumas life including molestation family member course several years young child teen years ive countless meds counseling hospital done heavy counseling month still continue find darkness despair life ive married twice second marriage failing struggle lack sex life zero sex drive causes issues mental stability likely due sexual abuse gotten point really care anymore im religious man believe god jesus died sins fear committing redflag ill go hell honestly thats thing stopping kids wife parents friends today close jumping roof parking ram work stories concrete im pretty sure header job quickly painfree reason though much pain suffer much honestly believe life believe better im ruining family depression hurting kids cant check least let live without cant find peace continue suffer day day day pain end bruh moment millions assignments due week want lurk post refrain commenting cuz know controversial opinion cause idiot try argue annoying offended others opinions wtf let others think want one year ago tomorrowi remember one year ago tomorrow friends house party feeling troubled dont big social gatherings mostly kept went home together cried u held amp wiped tears tucked bed fell asleep alone house ill probably spend tomorrow alone next day next next time call ill come alive flip switch right nothing youre fine even better without wreck theres hope hope weekend feeling really shitty horrible courage something end miss guy skirt every single post right damn sorta drug makes think differently permanentlyi really dislike way think shitty way think sorta extreme drug something change way think think playlist mine playlist look httpsopenspotifycomplaylistcqvtbobzgtifwycdwj filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler redflag decided debating options continue living decided redflag way go dad figured plan told getting mcdonalds next thing know mental institutionwhen told physiatrist reasons want kill read reason thought transgender tried explain im transgender reason hate biological factors female unfairness one kept arguing im transgender called idoit said professional crazy one needs help umm ok talked another physiatrist male actually agreed kept saying things matter shit hate mental hospitals food taste shit beds hard sleep boring helli actually starved self days drink anything becuse food bad forced eat realised give danm die care money die money stay option die believe die nothing happens darkness option biological disadvantage weaker half population metblisom mentend afaster metabolism anywhere percent higherthan women studies shown women naturally meant higher body fat percentage men strength men physically stronger women average less total muscle mass absolute terms relative total body mass greater muscle mass men result oftestroneinduced muscular hypertrophy men denser stronger bones tendons ligaments height men taller women average cm inches average adult man america cm tall versus cm average adult woman pregnancy men capable fathering children old age man dose much want child pop nut abdominal cramping andpain duringpregnancy often normal associated everything constipation increased blood flow uterus first trimester braxtonhicks contractions round ligamentpainin second third trimesters symptoms pregnancy include frequent urinationswollen legstingling numbness fingers handspelvic pressureback painpigmentation breastpain never pregnant research found periods crampsare caused prostaglandins say prosstuhglandinz chemicals girls body produces make muscles uterus contractmany women migraines reportheadaches duringmenstruation many girlsthrow feel mightthrow theirperiods hormone changes probably cause feelings usually go away day twothe usual length ofmenstrual bleeding four six days usual amount blood loss perperiodis ml iq scientists concluded mens average intelligencequotient iq four points womens brains typically larger breast largebreast place excess weight chest without enough support surrounding muscles rest body weight thebreastcancause severepain make difficult maintain good posture even lead spinal deformitybreast causes due underlying disease examples include tight fitting bra pregnancy menstruation breast feeding exercise breast annoying general man go outside toplees without causing accident getting arrested cardoivascular men greater cardiovascular reserve larger hearts greater lung volume per body mass higher red blood cell count higher hemoglobin higher circulating clotting factors leads faster healing wounds urine pee want history world woman proven able urinate name snow guys time men love peeing everywhere dna entire planet one giant mens restroom awsome general cooler guy superheros videogames action movies probably apart childhood childhood barbies makeup hated always jealous brothers christmas birthdays knew premise film obviously cant miss good sounding film especially master suspense director sir alfred hitchcock basically tennis champ guy haines farley granger meets eccentric stranger bruno anthony robert walker train travelling washington new york bruno talks perfect murder guy hates wife bruno hates father bruno suggests swapping murders guy obviously take seriously course guys wife miriam joyce haines kasey rogers laura elliott found murdered amusement park guy course chief suspect bruno keeps bumping reminding plan giving things help kill father wants dead murder enquiry brunos stalking threatening tennis career relationship daughter sen morton north northwests leo g carroll anne ruth roman bruno realises guy murder decides plant evidence crime scene make guilty guys monogrammed cigarette lighter amusement park tennis game guy anne obviously found murder plan race amusement park stop bruno fight speeding outofcontrol carousel starring patricia hitchcock directors daughter barbara morton marion lorne mrs anthony jonathan hale mr anthony howard st john police capt turley john brown prof collins hitchcocks cameo man boarding train carrying double bass interesting dialogue character interactions good suspense moments course unforgettable carousel finale good classic film nominated oscar best cinematography sir alfred hitchcock number greatest pop culture icons film number years thrills good ariana grenade cant fucking thisfuck hurts fucking much cant keep yever feel cant anything lost motivation let vent sec school sucks hate good part friends two fun teachers online fcked doggy style im missing thirty assignments motivation went im failing three classes matter many times turn computer go canvas work brain shuts laziness least thats tell last ive felt super empty bunch stuff used love playing guitar try ill one two practices month loved making art everytime open program lose spark feel tired time motivation anything lying bed listening music hours hard take care hard eat hard clean room hard bed im basically walking corporal husk yeah im thriving please help whats wrong lol daily reminder drink water may posted today forgot milfs superior milfs without mommy milkers superior kind want dieim really gon na anything redflagy post rself going throwaway one person knows handle id rather risk yeah im want die brother whos im even though hes fucking torments really really upset sad way im pissed sound whiney teenager even though right now thats nothing done hes got bad attitude hes horrible everyone even mom hates hes youngest child hes always gon na extra leeway older brother never know im older im expected extra work responsibility never stuff age hes lazy really honestly annoying makes fun stupidest shit mom pick dog poop th july party today brother laughing calling names luckily mom made job took away phone week even still stop giving shit anyways enough talk brother lost person ive loved died talked took concert kissed end night even first time kissed rd time place guess holding hands whole night bought wore matching shirts ffs know im wrong kissing im definitely saying entitled feel least deserved explanation im hoping love someone romantically im basically aromantic romantically attracted really identities anyways aromantic description guess ugh people ask talk illness im broken im interested romantic relationships dad oh god hes awful calling dad mom got divorce went city across state take concert hes horrible ive finally realized hes really actually emotionally abusive im crybaby gaslighting horrible compassion fear feetsockssome shoes cant within feet sure af cant touch getting laundry dropped sock even clean ones freak ok asked pick bit shaky reluctantly avoid yelled guess still yelled saying clean knew pointless try explain cried dog allergic dogs anything let sleep thats sick whoooole trip wanted die sick anymore dog staying another days clearly important wellness thanks dad guess suppose im live buys things try make shittiness early life know hes still shitty got weezer concert doc martens trip pretty cool crying time wasnt feel mentioned earlier cut burned long ass time started stopped january st time got psych ward near redflag attempt go know im glad didnt thing gotten better worse one best friends th grade going junior year hs right now person world talk wanting exist general suicidal ideation trusts kill id trust thought might hurt make attempt know loves lot love cant help feel paranoid might actually know along family feels never really horribly incompatible point healthy us living together im im gon na stuck least go college years less feel living worth effort im even afraid die anymore thats depressed long done sorry wall text thanks anyone whos read much ok redflagwatch ive ruled redflag fuck ive mostly miserable life finally resolved kill last april miserable depressed miserable although life job social connections ive never found anything really enjoyed sustained inspired life simply long depressing occasionally painful slog gearing finally folks life guessed intention made clear much hurt went though well fuck made promise cant really take roading knowing much harm people around well good say im gon na kill theres still nothing live thought going indefinitely nature takes course horrifying close worry anymore want keep living default want hurt anyone honestly want die peace thats sustaining day day existence long time idea go now need reason keep going people live want die heroin overdoseim literally piece shit choose substances people lie manipulate love hurt one person means everything broke heart really really shitty brain mess want alive rn nothing going rn im literally bum druggie self respect apparently self respect people love im going life direction motivation dont even energy even think ab trying motivated find direction cant even trust fucking brain nothing safe safe doesnt exist im already traumatized forever brain always wired dont want live life im lost im tired searching send dunes yes want dunes sand send pictures curvy sand anyone elses school school uniforms wear online school mine please help mei suicidal almost eight months now considered viable solution problems tried meds luck therapy yet still obsessing redflag know stop medical condition causes ill quite often trying cope things progress becomes harder harder mind keeps turning back redflag logical answer know even thought first place strange maybe body telling fit continue lost afraid want feel better barely keeping somethingive diagnosed clinical depression panic disorder even though ive meds couple months now progress slow often seems almost nonexistand gets burried things worry im constantly tired stressed everything im tired people saying well think etc know usual even though seem smiley okay every day lingering thoughts want die want die depths mind constantly matter cant keep going put number ill recommend song want share music watching texas tale treason feel renewed disgust nature hollywood beast inside interviews conversations involved project common sense comradery rebelliousness spans backgrounds social classifications even geography attributed hard work entire productions undying commitment project love story original film complete creation vacuum creator scale people involved waldos hawaiian holiday amazing budget glory production trailers craft services amenities yet everyone involved stuck right nothing comes project antstuie productions laid foundation serious honest company thats never going lay take sell make movie money id see la director go guerrilla process shot realistic true life cinema lacking time cg green screens masses may enjoy entertainment spoon fed nice bite sized censored calm bits large group people world share opinions insights filmmakers still make films love material love storytelling dvd sales box office loved documentary hope ifc cahones pick air maybe maybe one person decide pick camera film real life viewer even temporary understanding everyone everywhere anyone anywhere true storyteller parents knowa couple weeks ago told sister struggling heavy suicidal thoughts told parents swear secrecy anything im regretting opening family already worried theyre even worried opening make everyones distress worse kept cant help feeling big mistake even though know care yall participate nnn womfan still horny depressed mememaking teenager yet still understand appeal nnn yall seem weird participate completely unfacilitated reddit challenge really funny hahas please enlighten strong people care im depressed think cant problems cant handle help essay im writting essay english class need explain cry cause sand eye something emotionaly cant find anything googlehelp want die bad got finish book firstim point feel even worse attempted redflag first time promised live long enough publish book ive writing im pages left go feel giving known depression young teen noticed last years issues anger car accidents honestly normally pretty laid back even little meek small things dropping something turn car around forgot something flips switch feel angry want throw destroy things usually go alone cool soon calmed severely depressed ruins days anything done motivation anything stuff happens feels happens nowhere happened morning sure deal kind stuff anymore beginning affect work well anger explosive want stopim tired everyone asks whats wrong dont know dont hate hate confused dont know im married shes amazing idea shes try push away excuse least feel bad id never often hope happens im tired therapist knows real truth feel wrong everyone likely accept wish male wish id born way snap fingers thanos way im different transitioned whatever wife still wife shed okay male cant risk telling losing im trapped hate see therapist week enough inpatient fix nothing fix hate idea place works figured say truth bc joined really wish kill self keep hoping itll happen find caring say someone cant wife depends much dont want hurt im miserable feel alone links fucked videos pictures send boys havent sent said anything forever something fucked hey everyone sorry english first language chronic insomnia basically days stopped taking mirtazapine withdrawal horrible question travelling important event ran ambien sister takes mirtazapine question bad take mg days whole withdrawal process another withdrawal itok thank much use advice please feel hands tiedi want better really suffering anxiety depression good old fashioned selfloathing decade various life insecurities im losing hope got really bad got actively suicidalmaking plans stopping short actually left home life seemingly turned around shortlived long fell entire family among things caused downward spiral depression bad worse one id clawed im fucking now past still feel scared teenager im sick never achieving anything im sick feeling shit im sick fucking hating feeling good reason im sick feeling fucking alien time im sick knowing theres way fix fuckups im fucking sick know whats hilarious im therapy therapy program strongly forbids suicidal people using im afraid tell therapist im feeling suicidal want lose services emergency services called whats fucking hilarious probably committed mental institution suicidal tendencies months ago cant afford even risk missing much work losing job want better really feels odds stacked sometimes really feel life feels constant war mind truly want die cant keep living either im going die anyway nowim terrible putting shit thats head words feel feel across im options firstly im live uk currently go college cant help angry feeling great family others see good life look alot posts rsw find someone going see anyone anything helpful say see people abused things pain must seem nothing comparison grades college terrible exams coming im extremely unprepared enjoy many things anymore soon leave college parents expect job new job one parttime really stresses im shy mere thought meet impress new people scares im homosexual openly means come see burden part spend days worrying next often stay late night unable sleep cry thinking inevitable reality failure even im crying write want live fail struggle easily swallow many pills possible sit bath cut cant keep eyes open pain seems much easier take living broken life watch family friends die death seems much peaceful route im likely take life sorry huge block text want feminine guys feminine dont know explain im girl masculine pretty nice ya know really something thats expected dont want guy tho cant explain well masculine girl feminine guy seems nice cant iti depression entire life honestly dont remember time didnt want alive first time attempted kill around age second time around ten years later caught getting destination bang im thought emptiness hasnt gone away gone years done yet fuck stopping cant fuck care much ruining parents family members turn th happy birthday part fillergtgtoooooooooooooooooooo yay living overratedsometimes feel people trying scam staying alive good greater good always say thing life wonderful course bad sides good sides make worthwhile etc thing already know hate life think miserable feel im ready move next journey im done living hard feelings whenever used suicidal thoughts id always really dark place recently everything seems clear ive begun plan death couple years time hopefully join club try settle debts sort insurance make whole thing look accident family wont burdened im gone dont really feel anything task planning vacation know sure take life one day need work complications limiting time give strong sense control life living aimlessly knowing youre gon na die ultimate reassurance something weird cried last years even though years traumatic stressful years even redflag thoughts used cry alot reason got reason eyes go dry wth anyone actually knows extra cry onions hey antifa mother brother ripped cars trying home beaten half death actually pretty funny aintifas tribal violence going win trump election moderate democrats dont want happen mad dont really trump dont want see another years clowns street looting hurting helping bit told crush liked im scared waiting response please wish luck im scared currently dying inside fat rant seasonal affective disorder coming ahhahaha im really behind homework dont energy anything wan na lay cuddle cant bc hr drive girl wants feel shit dont wan na anything wan na opera br br director dario argento deep red suspiria screenplay dario argento franco ferrini church sleepless demons photography ronnie taylor chorus line sleepless music claudio simonetti phenomena goblinbr br story betty cristina marsillach lady macbeth understudy stylized staging verdis macbeth opera bettys time shine comes diva star breaks leg opening night hit car running away tantrum famous curse macbeth takes sinister calculating turn right away body count begins rise seems betty gets first fan via stalker ties tapes needles eyes force witness grisly murders people around story br br acting acting lot italian films sometimes hard judge english italian french german spanish sometimes flick usually speak native languages making dubbing rule thumb hard judge usually cut slack area result acting br br direction giallo maestro argento enters genre helped pioneer opera shows top game exquisite blend gore tension beauty direction br br visual one argentos best looking films gorgeously filmed taylor opera features stunning inventive camerawork keeps film running fast hard keeps eyecandy coming camera always seems notion whether wonderful shot camera going spiral staircase sequence towards end birds eye view said bird circling crowd opera house visual br br audio frequent argento collaborator simonetti various bands goblin demonian solo effort compliments screen action zeal score touches 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spaced throughout room need problem cant find th pennant suggestions methis fucking hard guess im usually type person shows lot emotion especially negative ones really know degenerate lazy piece shit one person family constantly fucks disappoint everyone currently go uni good one family former friends relatives consider shit tier school never much student well almost recently figured one tiny little detail fucked future prospects sorry really know im going basically worked really hard semester theres one class mechanical engineering constantly fuck matter hard try ended getting d covid floating around school decided offere passno pass grade anyone struggling lazy piece shit decided wait little longer missed deadline days now project due hours im jaded work got knowhere shit happens life fucking im even cs major im bio major took dad still clung little hope secret prodigy wanted graduate early pass mcats go med school lucky enough chance fucked badly ruined life im done already emailed people know attempt fix theres guarantee might kill seven hours knows maybe im pussy kill parents figures raised failure maybe im pussy live rest life shadow failure fuck know year old struggling cfs decade looking end life dignitasim year old guy ireland life going right almost ten years ago health took turn worst ended chronic fatigue syndrome struggled college proudly got degree finishing top class time finished everything gone shell former self struggling hard illness appears absolutely futile continue life nobody knows difficult cfs unless live every single day life unrelenting exhaustion along array food intolerances lack brain clarity means longer even watch movie takes much concentration follow mention severe depression makes everything worse life fucking hell nothing smile cant work put degree use scrape week week disability allowance never feel well enough hold relationship married kids dreams impossible achievements im tired im tired life ive fought long cant fight longer want want go dignitas assisted redflag know tell parents know suffer know bad really anybody considered death really scares normal person idea growing old gradually losing faculties scary ive tried committing redflag difficult actually push finish job dog passed awayi started considering end little ago im drunk strongest wish remember parents even love sake social norm two couldnt bare make suffer especially dad loves family currently mom dad dog loved well treated smart dad loved little sister dad relied much emotionally long story short got run got treated morning found dead already serious depression family already struggling bind ive got interest nothing nobody already fear loneliness father fear even fear age quickly fulfill obligations lose house fear die soon dies swear kill moment already lurked sadly posted know kill now wasted time reading rn please go help critical people dont anyone tell tell problems yo relief feel wanted note somewhere im convinced point im sure killed point want die im concerned dad plenty fear think unlocked new level loser snapped first left open still waiting xbox achievement icon wait take phone pay attention online class date please youre cool another good overcoming evil story difference includes learning selfdiscipline julie goes teacher zen monastery learns hones karate skillsbr br zen monks visit city awkward comical moments ensue uproarious entertaining nonethelessbr br next karate kid much say looking within improving well using seen without knowing hoopla surrounding lead character indeed without even knowing based reallife events must say impressed murder greenwich average production madefortv movie acting uniformly great christopher meloni particular putting standout performance teen actors excel difficult roles idea dead girl narrating movie stroke genius elevates movie merely good excellent script exemplary essentially movieoftheweek fodder cinematography beautiful know good things feel worthlessim year old guy ive knowingly depression child pretty smart gifted gave school aged parents divorced lived mum stepdad left dad used beaten disagreed throughout school bullied really many friends somehow managed really successful school went uni without trying went uni instantly hit alone hall people mostly foreign exchange students interest anything stuck close groups two people flat tried kill tried go meet people got harassed touched guy first time felt low nobody talk second time trying kill unable sleep five days help psychiatrist doctor counsellor early intervention team didnt change felt ended quitting uni ive three relationships three cheated broke still nightmares one last two years nobody interested im average attractiveness ive interested one person thats ive work friends anymore handful friends relationships moved abroad respond messages low self esteem know great person lots talents im lucky fairly intelligent work decent paying job feel worthless family friends exist anymore im option girls im tool work feel ghost know done already see point life im forever miserable want die im sorry long postwalls texttoo much information movie well acted kept interest main character entire movie stu unger lived extraordinary life imagine stu alive today movie paints picture stu ungers life might felt interesting see connected growing liked seen detail stus partying gamesmanship relationship bob stupak movie well done well acted story touched many facets life full many events larger lifebr br movie worth renting griefmy mom killed aunt died cancer dementia took great grandma cat heart attack sleeping im going die eyes family express gender nonconformity bisexuality occurrences within last years cant tolerate constant pipeline spewing misery death anymore cant handle weight grief feel im crushed concrete slab suicidal thoughts gone nightly thing hourly cant stop constant pain want die alonei feel alone one wants around know may people bigger things going lives always feel second fiddle everything never feel dont know feel never hold true relationships anyone even spend days skipping classing smoking nic taking random pills save laying half passed bathroom floor motivation weve started online school plummeted people see lives realize little none passing day realize mean nothing one close ending day moves forward wait fuck ted cruz become senator thought scientology guy mission impossible fun fact day two roughly character bmovie script nothing wrong theory everything makes want fucking kill myselfi first felt suicidal pretty good taking bipolar meds three days feel ending yet countless hundreds suicidal thoughts past six years two attempts dont really know gets better long makes feel getting better big fucking tease better couple days spend fucking day inside ive spent six hours phone today think causes depression worse rambling hours posting posts day across social media gods name wrong update bought book bought ebook grow instagram meme page dollars offering one time offer another ebook learn free hotel stays food luxury items flights etc really tempting dont know really wan na tho nearly bucks said one five opportunity buy book dont know true though guys think ventingi want die badly sleep wouldnt brave actually pull trigger hang neck im punk hate much wish die sleep tonight ranking potato dishes think right aeverything bmicrowave potato boiled steak cut french fries c draw thank youive posted post months back guys really made feel better care less people negatively think subreddit lt toilet aint shitting decorative use grandma hey ladies beat doom nightmare mode normal controls one time please actually access money believe pay least owe honestly dont even know number debts owe afraid even begin several reasons worried might actually legal trouble afraid seeking help someone isnt understanding situation totally horrified mess mean counseling resources available looking handout need help walked steps need resolve gets stronger every dayi girl years left lived together months fucked everything meet needs left another guy within week us breaking seriously know live right everyday builds never find anyone wanted girl forever feel damn old everyone wanting point maybe delusional feel feels crippling gripping partner best friend gone yearso year tried kill self hanging december th hospital help released year ago today much life changed better worse days leading one year anniversary shrouded anxiety stress im still sure whether happy survived still times resent person found saved life still times feel alone trapped sought help none sources good fit seemed go maybe need patient maybe need willing know feels good talk people life still kind tip toe around im ticking time bomb disaster waiting unleash fury cant really blame anyone aid feeling alienated alone maybe need nut anywho thanks listening reading maybe needed vent hitch nice surprise romantic comedy actually romance comedy romantic comedies range mediocre horrible funny romantic hitch takes actors smith kevin james eva mendes fun lightasafeather journey actually laughing yes little aww sweetbr br meet alex hitchens will smith aka hitch hes selfproclaimed date doctor helps hopeless guys albert kevin james win guys allegra amber valletta unfortunately hitch deal sarah eva mendes gossip columnist bent breaking date doctorbr br hitch actually pretty funny even makes standard slapstick scenes work simply cast energetic clearly fun wonder smith made movies sharp rapidfire delivery perfect genre chemistry mendes james wonderful james real discovery never seen show king queens funny heartfelt proves fat white men dance hiphop smiths responses attempts hilarious mendes hot bouncy way geez smiths perfect match amber valletta sweet allegrabr br hitch perfect tad long things dramatic near end although redeemed happy ending filled funny dancing buts great refresher cookiecutter romantic comedies keep littering theaters ummmm guys necrophilia theyre dying great aint gon na stop embarrassed zoom call pap algebra zoom call bunch kids year older class campus watch lot anime singing japanese openings realized muted heard everyone class starting laugh confused af realized muted everyone class heard horrible voice left zoom call immediately told mom told join agreed really hope one thought important u da shawty u got dont bitch urself im demon time want alivei want live survive vsauce michael vsauce michaelhttpsyoutubenyidfnm mesauce vichaelhttpsyoutubedqwwwgxcq dont want anything anymorei dont wants mean dont know want dont know anything mistakes ive made life feel im gon na anything good come never anything life dont remember day havent money issues childhood now life feels long endless struggle minimal enjoyment dont feel even talk people live lives seemingly much better feel far apart unreal genuinely dont even feel attracted girls look together go girls look shits falling apart feel maybe relate either dont attract initially find things arent actually bad aesthetic dont really end things common real best friends feel betrayed every expectation parents placed point redemption feels impossible cant even expect people even feel people wouldnt im worth even liking dont even want anymore love family keeps ending becuase cant let sad dont want live long enough make opinion worse im stuck spend weeks clean sniff ket week anxiety keeps rinse repeat im overwhelmed stop scaring people wearing masks firsteval im sure right subreddit post im still posting point even think covid real care wearing mask still wear mask many people believe corona virus afraid persons people wear masks wear mask make life harder hard wear mask sometimes forget im wearing mask walk even example serial killer escaped prison media warns everyone stay house make lights serial killer know someone believe friend roommate believe saying wants show truth decides switchs lights plays loud music stuff scared hell serial killer coming house turns roommate right serial killer exist still fucking horror know good example someone read wanted say much easier wear mask stress hope good day stay safe sorry spelling mistakes native language english hate break one different love ik friendzone sucks shes another thot looks pretty nice one love stop keeps alive guysfor curiosity life bad movie addictive really want see whats next despite fact good time politicians retarded people talk shit riot idiots football clubs trump president us id vote fun says silly things live inside fucking rediculous comedy whats reason ending nearly two weeks attempt feeling awfuli cant first attempt parents really wish succeeded feelings back worse way getting completely isolated hopeless wish taken pills able take jump need know helpmy girlfriend battling depression self harming habits months now attempted redflag admitted hospital problems optimism rises gets seems drain away struggling find enjoyment things fact feel much anything helping drags best supportive needs ill suggest things might try people talk lot time feels im saying anything useful im terrified thought losing want anything help better feel im learning anything problems im confused help need know help back feet motivated something lift depressed mind set somebody please play yugioh duel links id bored friends dont play yugioh duel links began watching thought watching prokoresh amateur documentary never seen footage used interviewed people saying fbiatf instigated things sounded far fetched followed fbi video testimony amazed documentary followed senate investigation fire seeing interview video footage shocked senate attorney general turn backs davidians basically cover aggression fbiatf start watching must finish think propaganda something another person left mei know wrongly people always leave one left without telling blocked social media soft dating love creating something spent last three months kinda well im suicidal im enough maybe nobody everyone seems hate hard guess im alivei feel im alive anything prove im alive kind sit room play games sleep go outside friends family care anymore time alive actually crazy grew exact right time marvel movies born saw avengers theaters loved years later middie school ultron hit homies discussed favorite superheroes shit back iron man coolest others cap thor caught civil war hit freshman year right mature enough understand plot intense team iron man vs team cap debates homecoming fun high school setting relatable right time happened come saw infinity war friends sophomore one exciting movies life honestly capped seeing endgame theaters friends old new age felt amazing emotion time nostalgia grew movies think im gon na love life thor hulk iron man cap black panther black widow yessir might black panther poster dorm tbh wish luck guys mightve got coronas mom went fricken trip los vegas sister mom asthma getting test around hours wish luck wrote noteas title says dont really plan telling anyone id feel perhaps little less alone moment go bed night know know im stranger internet words screen really im ive turning idea im one today uncovered trauma memories guess last straw us weve lived much already idea happened us cant really take idea ive alive less quarter century im burnt life gon na worse always yes theres good parts life stick around anymore mostly im sad ill leaving husband love words say know im selfish person wish hang ive hanging almost years cant anymore im sorry everyone guess tomorrows day thanks took time read anyone ways coping fires around live left sky smokey mom climate change denier kills hope people change around dad telling needs stop watering grass water shortage said course water shortage summer really want watch worse see people care suffer climate crisis exacerbating suicidal thoughts heading wrong road feel im running optionsscroll bottom tldr let start saying im sure appropriate subreddit post im totally new region reddit ive recently struggling lot things none find important enough discuss friends family reached advice suggestions due lack real consideration extenuating circumstances dealing mental health personal life ive finally decided reach anyone willing read online really know ive felt alone lately ive calling total loser generally feel overwhelmingly unwelcome place social situations im always afraid one actually likes care bothered show almost always feel really deeply hateful towards im easily set im ap advanced placement student absolute nightmare go school every day lied laughed ignored everyone class solely im viewed competition headaches half days every month always come home crying drained seven hours silent misery mental exertion im constantly tired hardly hang people without falling asleep boyfriend friends concerned try brush deal isolation general misery feel things bite pick lips inside outside gotten bad accidentally went deep blood dripping chin middle class boyfriend knows keeps telling self harm know thats true im honestly afraid look usually self harming intent im afraid feel empty alone hopeless im constantly pissed longer feel deserve goodnice things accept compliments easily sometimes feel deserve bleed know go feel im running options im starting shut regarding mental health im last priority feel even earned position tldr hate v e viciously deeply near perpetual basis bite pick lips point bleeding needing weeks heal zero friends feel unwanted place every social situation school sucks home sucks suck im running options please help poems stumbled across travels across many subreddits roses red sun shining mental health rapidly declining ampxb ampxb roses red walls plaster children fast big bird faster thats year thats kill streak join pls join among us game code ctkcwq whats good idea second date basically title really dating dating gone first time met park fucked around hour mom basically told us need go home date two want nice fun almost everything closed parents super strict wife conflict months ago sent spiraling threatened selfharm empty threat earned visit police trip er left go live parents still come home months later done much show taking care times morning wonder whether followed threats death one thing fear fear one thing keeping going see life mine better know go wife left due mental health crisis live anymore good age teenage relationship im turning year think grade ppl america im sure im ready relationship someone maybe im mature enough came subreddit ask saw bunch ppl posting relationships please tell post different subreddit ill remove one thx posted giving months livei think iv got one nowmy whole life pointlessuntil met nothing iv lost im nothing know love someone much loved herim trying absolute best changing life fighting back set life litteraly depend iti saw weekend even though though got back slipped though fingers say end march decide future usim venting iv set mind kinda feel free knowing anything theni hope happiness back want sleepsleep never wake jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jnos nekem nehogy lmos legyen mert n azt ki nem llom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom feel ask parents help therapy brush ask family mock brush idea ask help without throwing everything left away bring strength ask help ask girl ok ive never actually true feelings anyone till im wondering ask someone trouble expressing feel might little confusing tired tired existence tired living tired feeling way feeling describe go away matter everyday seems worse seriously better years ago type look forward future one dreamed going college great things life exact opposite see future anymore barely graduated high school even want anything want wake tomorrow want continue living want go work want go college anymore want anymore feeling talk gets irritated go away bothers seem explain feels feel empty idk even know world see purpose know see making change leaving mark world come world feel everything much better left longer carry feeling around even talk family tendency invalidating feelings making feel crazy feeling way wish feeling went away feeling seem go away cant sleep wan na die one fucking girl stuck head ive trying two years canti wan na die know dumb reason commit redflag holding back moving forward life way end everything besides shell happier gone live life marry bf everyone better thing prevents starving fat ugly im much lazy piece shit p b l e m yeah talking friend along friends walking back home ice cream mentioned views dating yeah kids girls walking back home getting ice cream cause one friend ill call samantha borrowed old bike tire popped basically samantha another girl ill name kaitlin another girl ill call carol walking along start talking views dating well kaitlin id questioning liked basically said thinks pointless date someone asked care probably stop quickly yeah never gon na pan redflag attempt feel exist died frustratingits body im somewhere im hate stereotype lost others confidence look faces work drugstore small town every fucking person fucking place knows seriously exist redflag watch exist im waiting next chance rid body alredy consider dead cant live burden pain caused loved ones know somenone bring pain people lives hope die everything vanish life illusion yo kinda question hey remember cried cat died yeah dad even though ago still makes kinda sad thank reminding cat name old cat short catarina holding threadim stay home dad day medical pot grower night married two kids wife works dispensary home kids oldest almost days consist waking hungry baby three year old wife gets ready work wakes non stop alarms banging around mornings matter late im caring grow every morning take care babies morning im bitched either good enough job kidshouse maybe gone late last night must cheatingthroughout day blow phone asking constantly asking cheating ive noticed random people suspiciously driving slowly past house clearly trying see never dishonest even received complement women weve together idk always thinking im cheating gets home complaints made dinner something might missed cleaning even kids wet home hour without changing im ignored phone till falls asleep lonely grow room wallow pathetic depression feel worthless dead inside ive lost people feel loved year im sure deserve much pain im sick path im going whats making even harder know babies taken care well im gone cant dad im worthless cant anything right destroy everything touch everyone everything love dies goes away try hard make friends anyone talk every time someone around wife mean disappear something make angry know whats wrong ive worked hard make everyone around happy feel rather gone dont know anymore think able hang anymore one go know world beautiful dayim senior high school right now dealing major depressive disorder possibly bipolar th grade symptoms birth caused sabotage destroy every single relationship shred happiness life known frequent suicidal thoughts occasional attempts battle drug addiction secret abusive parents came abusive person abused friends girlfriends life pretty regular th grade something kind missing assume normal depression hit everything juste empty friends make happy things used love film comics boring im majoring music next year conservatory yet music even intrigue anymore everything became pointless feeling many probably familiar unfortunately happened fell love intimate connection whenever life became meaningful started date every time abused emotionally forced away two months dating year extremely close relationship broke every second every day im plagued know evil drove away arms someone one closest friend reconnecting soon break point says loves strong feelings still feelings wonders depression sarcastic literal course made feel lowest lows least felt made makes happier anyone ive seen two extremes life feel now lived gained new perspective saw stars clouds trees totally new light deepest sorrows yet found beauty everything music amazing days now nothing really changedbut feel im reverting back past years im losing appreciation world know love changed months self loathing accepted good person regardless terrible things many people trusted protect harm truly changed person experienced life im terrified lose im terrified lose accepted regardless feelings theres way getting back together fuck rambling even coherent fuck saying fucking ruined deserve fuck right hes house street supposed come leaves fuck long fuck know hope gain posting im fucking bitchy fuck cant end relies want one thing fucking ruined think tears cried fucking apathetic fucking change late fuck even alive people meant convince let know parents care friends deal hate anyway im fucking worthless im evil post make fucking sense want one thing ill anything everything one thing fucking late happy anymore rest life im damned remember pain caused im living right now damned remember mistake made never take back never fucking redeem let fucking speech disorderis making feel way killmyself cant order food talk someone phone cant take good grades college job dream everything hard cant say name last friends cant countine life know money live everything hard im fucking loneliest room dark days know people bad cant live pain life stuttering therapy giving effect oh god im young much dreams im overthinking everyday much pain heart oh god cant handle therapist said situation improving swear im surviving fucking years even decide live live pain lifeand end surely end mental problems want tell u want talk give positive effect im trying tell monster able phone room dark thinking thinking much stop feeling soon sleep forever peacefully love want feel pain loveyouall broken silence race fear starring ariana richards william bumiller susan blakely tracy ellis ross teryl rothery scott vickaryous marissa rudiak ken camroux david neale bruce dawsondirector joseph scanlan screenplay sara charmo jean gennis phyllis murphybr br another lifetime channel film made exclusively television released directed longtime tv series director joseph l scanlan inspired true events lot majority lifetime movies cautionary tale women raising awareness predator lurking within family mother father wife husband mentor teacher case track coach young little known actress ariana richards played small girl jurassic parkdelivers highly convincing performance high school track athlete mickey carlyle raped coach kurt ansom william bumiller must suffer silence one believes story except course mother susan blakely together mother daughter fight put kurt ansom behind bars film drags quite bit ultimately predictable times far melodramatic sake drama genuinely powerful end ariana richards performance daytime soap kind strongest entire cast facial expressions body language overall acting realistic terms aspiring athlete idolizes coach turn violated must live shame trauma fight court william bumiller plays part nasty sort duplicity though far subtle abused star athletes remained silent made top appears outwardly innocent william bumiller lesserknown actors others never done role believable strong performance overall especially disturbing see role sexy lead actor everything including lesser known films soap opera guiding light real problem film manner film structured film opens watch coach ansom rape mickey letting us know right away guy good makes weak character development story first scene instead sequence opening credits see mickey runningjogging city across lake better character development know coach ansom seemingly interested success star athlete really nasty piece work seen mickey idolizing person thought knew received rude awakening realizes wrong director joseph scanlan stranger drama tv knotts landing star trek quantum leap outer limits lois clark earth final conflict movies la femme nikitta scanlan directed another lifetime movie similar stand fear manages convey gravity event genuinely disturbed coach lurking around showers rapes student scenes graphic viewed mature audiences message clear sexual predators rapists always stranger assume different forms preying grounds even include high school film supports cause fighting prevent violence women urges women silent victims testify fight rapists cause harm others despite negative reviews film great job expressing message given mothers daughters high school students including male female bad rape staying silent happens even worse hey um wan na smooch dysfunctional thoughtsfirst im black girl living mostly white town pretty much racist people people know anything world around im relationship almost years vacation friends days makes feel pretty wanted right now im halfway social work study know self reflect need someone talk ive always strange kid people town cant see beauty stereotypical pale blonde girl im actually quite happy im dysfunctional thoughts atm feel one likes loves truly cares one truly loves actually much friends acquitances probably spelled wrong normally self esteem dependent right dunno long story short feel fucking worthless right now understand wrong normally im happy today miss boyfriend im tired always ugly kid feel need cut although hurt years sorry horrible english first language going reddit rest year ngl fuckin hate need people please talk high school student great grades everything went virtual dont neccesarily think lockdown reason sething barely anything fighting two opposing ideas head one fighting everything failing almost every class feel innaddequite tried watch couple shows friends recomended ended watching stuff getting nothing done people still think answers almost everything sent school counsler bc failing opposite helpful demanded yes answer vague questions put spot said high schooler capable talking adults didnt immediate response feel inadequate unintentionally disassociated everything nothing feels real want stop cant figure sure good way put attempt edit dont respond commentmessage definitely read im great words probably couldnt think anything respond sry always ignoredive told fault life involve anything never try im young things better involved things never social person ive whole life never fit anywhere ive tried multiple meds highs side effects asked old therapist pain meds said wanted give generic meds zoloft yes actually tried nobody listens wants give want always fucking responses ive reached sooo many people even ignored nobody values nobody cares im almost sure walk pier something sit day nobody ask talk literally whats even stopping tying something heavy ankles drowning people found ended life theyd say shit oh young thats sad generic ass responses ive gone way many times try help people mostly suicidaldepressed people nobody shows back left read told thats rough good luck life lot people cant even relate cause yall family members friends care miss gone must really nice bad ill never know thats highly considered buying fentanyl online posted different redflag forum thats pro redflag one basically told already thought im completely sucks starve deaththats probably im gon na go heres story went downstairs saw minor flooding kitchen pipe beneath sink leaking overnight serious mop dad finds trying fix mess flips saying helpful maybe im overly sensitive really hurt im already suicidal told useless really pushed edge threw fit moped room daddy stops buying food id go buy citys week lockdown pass long take die hungry think world go cashless woolworths australia trying cashless stores think stores become cashless personally think shouldnt tomorrow day midnighti cant handle anything anymore weeks weeks laying bed crying im bad habit bashing head relief cant keep going know never happyi met someone thought going soul mate extremely jealous person broke months ago started talking months ago text promise promise keeps falling got emotional got scared thought hint everyone talks doesnt want anymore told missed thinks lots fantasizes going sleep weekend excited time yesterday sent message let hysterical worries saying jay jay dont want message anymore feel guilty bad whenever read say want alright first met alone said anyways always fell made plans future said love never die always sent message care nothing dont want message anymore needed every time hurt bottle run away upset take silence uncertainty shes gone fault stayed gone first time wish didnt meet wish went months ago wouldnt feeling today sent awful message saying hurt make feel felt betrayed began belittling hasnt replied dont blame told message never talk told hurtful things didnt really mean said horrible things despite ignoring love never needed add horrible names judgments im sorry cc really maybe best truly hate forget im going spend time misty today little princess cat dont know find new home first hope cats different hope forget love baby misty dont want leave misty loved im going find good home someone give lots love dad poor father said die mom said thing love theres nothing good im hurt cant keepg goign im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry wish understand tomorrow night need one night hold little misty waited lutside door last night fucked didnt want nothing hold dont nderserve ikt dont deserve anything hurt im good im going hurt people im going lied anymore wont suffer feel alone love highest priority life feel true romance affection initimacy gone im never going meet someone cant head cant exist im cursed forever see smile memories voice used sing songs anymore tomorrow midnight one last campfire near shore favorite place whole wide world grew small waves used help sleep maybe help sleep time im going favorite place sleep family loves place plus reminds promises things never im going walk long dark road theres point looking lake beautiful spot trees surrounding shoreline theres old native ceremony cloths knots tied branches cozy beach stone ground listen music favorites even ones told bottle wine pack cigarettes enjoy view song ends finally sleep hear painful waves always comforted someone talk think actually going end tonight really looking real discussion lot issues im facingtonight necessarily major crisis limited time attention definitely direct elsewhere really want talk someone must pm though want keep issues private always bad mood mentally restrain snapping people life sucks anything makes life redeeming exist suffer anything makes life worth anything life working favoreverything makes mad even things even annoying angry time theses bots wont leave fuck alone posts always gets removed fucking reason art giving shit yeahso seen lot people act insecure throughout teens midtwentiesthe simple noble art giving shit starts now overthink lets honest guys girls overthink wear notjust dont wear anything everything fear public opinion public away anyone knows us try downplay behaviour try fit indo want keep mind simple line know mei know themthe probability meeting guys next zeroso ill whatever hell want dothis simple line changed behaviour public awkwardness public indifference count improvement try fit ordinary lot people crazy things stand theres need something drastic try stand better peersbe academics sportsand try think different methen act points think different others consider superior unpopular opinion hear points unusual different normbe proud themyou may appear slightly arrogant buttreat everyone kindnessno joke cheesy line intended help everyone know small big ways note opinion confident different journey everyone strong try proud appeared little arrogant teachersbut days later classmates teachers began think part charmso guessit worked keep mind tips online sites everything different dare appear arrogant well satans spawn compliment posts going insult post nerd awkward creepive gone many names themi less cardsi amthe forever alone man thank coming talk dude month broke still miss dont know wtf gave much emotional damage miss toxicity bad fucj fuck fuck fuck basically fraud moronso accidentally committed fraud yesterday needed signature document without thinking borrowed document basically sent one coworkers noticed fast got everything back told missed signature borrowed told fraud quickly contacted company asked rescind document feel guilty actually want kill cant stop thinking im dumb person acted idiot wanted job efficiently consequences company possibly even person whos signature carelessly borrowed cant live either want kill turn im scared turn company trouble question americans european person buffalo wings actually made buffalo yes called wings swear buffalos legs life truly shittyi single friend neither online physical thus make human interaction except ordering food saying thanks loland even though im stupid failed classes procrastination anxiety life even worse ill go back shitty country ill live prisoner even without friends academic success feel happy bald eagle country freedom things see til age thought normal smart kid bright future realize socially inept boring slow sad person exceptional way keeps letting parents seriously wasted parents effort sending college america family already extremely poor wasted much hard earned money honestly want disappear erase everyone elses memory end one societys robots fact defective robot whos failing function existence impact world ill never newton mozart elon musk left legacy history actually positively influenced human kind guess life punishment whatever previous life wan na live joy eating internet anything productive improves person even gained back kg lost see writing ability mentally challenged persons autistic anything related disabled morning vibeslaying bed listening joji wishing didnt live earth im tired existing stress unbearable dont know fucking venting phone sucks reasons sister moved university mother ive thinking night im certain im chicken actually itive strong thoughts know without doubt actually anything hurt ill sit hours picturing different methods results messages weather take secrets let hopes missed thats thoughts even looking item played idea makes uncomfortable question thoughts something go hospital find comfort cowardice let hospitals deal actual danger want go one want let things worse reddit added new award think someone pay much pay much award awards exist money buy something actually worth time give homeless person food buy couple games go trip instead money go fake internet points early release posting til gf day briish aka danny dyer oi bruv come ya gaff fuck man ill see work dont fackin hate cause im stud maybe got rid barnett might birds pecker oh better yet maybe slag tanisha might call arris 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bring along existentialist explain happenstance kill today wont homeworkyay finally feel belong hey finally feel belong two crushes completely league im suffering rn fuck school homies hate school school makes want commit redflag hate school homies hate school bois hate school ampxb lmao year worth notes copy months cognitive function declining much time left im catatonic vegetativeive making rounds telling friends im going kill theres trend understanding decision couple days ago started trouble balance speech starting slur today needed help navigate menu called medicaid ill probably need caretaker soon window functional enough end life closing feel doctors still monotonously shrugging shoulders issue treating number think dealing heart issues years real struggle prisoner body unable lot things panic attacks schizophrenia came normal day adapted peyronies hit dicks still process painfully shriveling scar tissue especially rough worrying future love life relationships hoping still managed least still future now im sure thing going brain much dead alive cant experience world anymore process beauty understand im empty shell useless soul id almost believe god seems universe making life progressively worse time torturing always thought things worse started laughing actually happen expect predictable bizarre absurd maybe thats gives comedic value really want friend go knowing way things ill probably die alone room wanted held everything okay someone hold heloo sirmaam tell birthdate please need scientifical reasons fr tho meed tell happy birthday birthday says fight says tatakae change name change mine sunshine already really nice name love wouldnt change december lovely alone love alone alone thoughts ideas going crazy voices head everything inside messed jumbled whenever try organize confused whatever scrambled sadistic andcrazy theres way say oh well whos blame except im one decided perfectly fine need help waved every time parents asked thought ok friends good friends friends talk burden problems must enough lives depression know isnt maybe really care live getting help option anymore late need help expert guy says likes problem stopped trusting guys incident happened online know asshole move think every guy guy dated cant help say yes lot none hmmmi suspect people much pain comment plus advice really give help seems hopeless us notice many responses peoples posts god college makes fucking miserable people crack pressure shatter fucking glass well fuck went girls house yesterday party way girls willing gossip shit talk people barely know real life fucked talked guys rejected said talk guys kill boredom theyll say yes guy asks joke hope girls talk even worse worry thats girls talk boys made sad im looking anyone whos forever alone hopefully poland tooim year old bisexual guy poland accepting relationship proposals default sorry potentialerrors im drunk right now gon na go slee ill chedck ther aer repsonses tomorrow easily worst sub platform guys arent funny stop trying im ready dietheres nothing dont know survive todaysorry cryptic cant think clearly anymore im tired im exhausted try try try nothing sister found account got scared strangers care wanted distraction refuses come im tired humiliating people dont care tried seen accommodative one helpful one accommodation need help need thats feel helpless helpless hopeless dont know whats point anymore cant really think clearly anymore want everything already imagine dogs still wating owners come heaven realising gone hell dogs go ass definitely going yo hell afterlife exists many cool clothes smol pup ampxb httpspreviewreddituzvluhinpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampseacbbbfdffeff less year literally lowest man planeti really believe agree notion good bad fit latter always asshole literally cared even felt guilty one care unless actually affected im years old college well summer break recently bad break im gon na say reason im certainly help another prime example deplorable human pile shit suicidal thoughts second grade always liked idea think done much sooner now preferred aborted think caused pain people world many problems indescribable feel niche pointless maybe think need go ruined life someone dearly love unacceptable thinking going end life gun much hard tall buildings close im scared heights jumping unlikely helium sold easily amazon ive already tried noose another way kill really want talk someone moment im feeling tired hello know im hereso really know say never thought id close killing self honesty felt emotions check everything falling first know kill self selfish already talked sister feelings devastated pissed ex girlfriend put lot stress know want go back im trying reddit cant make sence want kill self even though know stupid cant shake feeling gotten worse worse past two weeks start explain feel way guess girlfriend recently broke cause trust issues looking back stupid given space needed stressing school possibility cheated gave std wont know till test thing loved girl much cared fact went drinking random guy let trust issues mess head well previously stressing falling behind bills guess everything going go stressed got sick week got written know im goanna able continue pay school either go uni town im working bio degree dreamed doctor kinda see dream slipping weirdest part miss ex much factor seem taking much space head vary supportive family almost feel self slipping point return feels im drowning morning actually felt clam come feeling killing self even talking guys feel desperate cry attention self feeling kept going people know im afraid im goanna go even know even possibly tell go though thought give try hurt least try something guess knew let go someone interest might help im sorry putting guys quick reminder bisexual isnt gay straight bisexual stop invading bisexual people please ok need focus class brain starts dash dancing aggressively xpost rdrugs throwaway tried end life via valium codeine endone bourbon days ago today moods emotions beyond erratic anyone know swings fallout tried chemicals rolling systemi told user rdrugs post hope thats okay wordy title explains fallout mean emotional fallout ive read people situation experience emotional drop im trying ascertain thats im feeling potentially side effect substances leaving body im asking know need mindful mental state wait roll hows day anything exciting happen todayreally thinking pulling trigger today matter well depression kicks ass feel shit time wife treats atm wrecks ii dare question money going acts victim wont work contributebeen thinking young years later fuck alls changed fuck ill die anyway surrenderi dont want pain anymore im writing letters im done cant keep told boyfriend going really rough patch feeling low basically grumpy trouble keeps trying cheer silly playful sweet keep telling today day sorry going much fun today keeps till irritable snappy hes whoa someone grumpy boy today yes fucking told going grump let low today want try play happy want rest fo pretending happy wish sometimes people listen saying think help stop trying cheer us sometimes worse desktop goose awaken honk alive parents brother cat dog im patheticwho hanging dont cause people pain want alive anymore kill destroy mom cant imagine inflicting kind pain onto dad thinks im huge fuck sad think brother sad dog cat wouldnt understand miss makes sad thinking boyfriend probably relieved im gone wouldnt listen problems anymore everyone simply wouldnt notice anyone feel feeling waking realizing set alarm pm instead fear unexplainable anxiety incomparable someone spoil affectionattentionloyaltylove quality time kbye text text text text text text text text text text text text god life meaning story humanity story suffering oppression deathso im sitting front computer talking guys ive got loaded single round spun cylinder locked put gun head pulled trigger twice im still know think want masters degree two bachelors degrees im married house able find full time work past years seems world now years controlled wealthy benefit wealthy everyone go fuck die theres someone take place live world best cogs machine fills pockets wealthy take moment really examine things recognize really point god clearly exist anyone thinks deluded thrown world without consent live meaningless lives die alone prolong process think feel emotions right making nutsyup still thinking dying according parents always relatively happy child age started noticing something emotions really hard describe happiness brief almost unpleasant anger feels impulse something sadness wanting cry recently seem even reduced feelings everything made happy anymore ive tried new things dont make feel happiness reiterate much hate enjoy anything suffering plain suffering torture even thing sort enjoy sleeping even getting old want anything anymore anything old hobbies serve distraction suffering know anymore sorry hard understand english native language describing issue really hard well ringing ears taking shower took shower ringing left ear think cant really tell cause really loud kind repeating ringing pattern second ringing second break second ringing repeats wanted share pain im experiencing perhaps got water ear something itll stop bit dont know thanks reading post sobbing write post think extremely imminent danger probably super high priority even one person help mean world never thought post subreddit suicidal thoughts years keeps threatening culminate tonight one worst nights try keep reasons quick know even deserve complain born fairly okay situation middle class mostly okay family things sad well lots mental health issues least noticeably impact normal human function top family often calls useless way affect already mid s niche associates degree accomplishment find work even cashier something still live home one wants job certain family including mom sister ones call useless top dog one things keeps time two threatening rid almost money think able care anymore anything care matter money need small bit saved going still look work tonight picked knife thought seem follow wrong even end right posting thoughts gotten stronger stronger years combo anti depressant therapy helping enough feel something push edge losing dog sure need help please finally went principal history teachers verbal abuse hello im currently th grade generally class misbehave sometimes overall pretty decent class calm teacher asks throughout school year noticed history teacher pretty verbally aggressive us especially unnecessary sometimes targets kids done absolutely nothing wrong seems ive finally fell radar breaking point set today got trouble something pretty damn stupid charging chrome book definitely plugged multiple witnesses shes times worse kids wont mention names kid seriously going stuff shes started targeting student letting go library work call principal claim student skipping class things gotten point kid breakdowns class cause physical harm home finally decided go principal figured yknow seems pretty reliable right wrong explained situation email busy time hours got response essentially people mad honestly dont know purposely try avoid class points time try escape bathroom much possible broke tears read email teachers staff supposed help us feel safe comfortable able go things im afraid step history class knows outburst many students feel extremely unheard people supposed help us sorry long rant really needed chest thanks sticking around know people understand people busy life trying reach dreams learning improving spend time friends love ones focus trying find ways end life try remember peoples names try make lot friends study hard compete fun friends remember teachers name even places people met bother remember thinking useless wanted die anyways twenties times feel better wanted go forward know live normal human feel know anything wasted years life learning life wanted live sometimes know feel alien seeing people try mimicking things even though fully understandi different sole purpose die everyone wants live live days wish deadi hate life hate life hate people hate everything life general fucked forget overrated batman begins ultimate batman movie gon na want miss movie everything totally surpasses first mega hit may done well first one box office certainly much better film visuals amazing burton works magic always films gotham city batmans hunting ground amazing sight behold story actually quite good villains one interesting much interesting fact comic book counterparts tim burton screenplay writer daniel walters go step bring truly emotional connection characters penguin played perfection danny devito type tragic character abandoned parents birth later life seeks revenge world denied disgusting watch times classic lines villain utter single film villain catwoman played absolutely brilliantly michelle pfieffer one beautiful actresses time gives wow performance totally steals show far past present live action batman villains concerned tragic background name selina kyle putupon mousy secretary shrewd business man called max shreck later murders shoving window somehow survives awakened cats decides right become legendary catwoman course amazing sequence completely lets loose wrecks entire apartment one oscar worthy performances rage anger seen actressbr br michael keaton dons cape cowl batman bruce wayne time hes much darker theres much say except keaton simply best actor play batman oozes cool kind clint eastwood approach playing batman dark talk lot sounds cool make voice sound goofy fake ie bales batman voice batman begins struts around gotham man possessed inner demons hes pshycologically disturbed know outing takes famous baddies grace batman comic book worldbr br say though despite awesomeness action scenes scenes coolest batmobile racing street knocking thugs ground batman gliding across gotham romantic angle pfieffer keaton really makes movie classic top choice anyone wants see real batman action rate give everything bluei feel nothing world make happy nothing even smallest pleasures eating favorite food cant find happiness even smallest things keep trying keep existing sleep schedule person might hate life probably wants die right schedulefor now ive wondering possible ive managed make long know someone ended long time ago wanted hold case maybe im wrong maybe old saying gets better actually true know ive always known doesnt thats say cant doesnt hasnt continue things decay thats life hate pessimistic thats reality best people honest said im honestly peace know leave anytime know wait right moment im sick feeling im crying wolf day come though maybe soon ill right schedule enough energy explain im tired thats thats post im actually alonethis fucking stupid cant talk anything believe trust thinks fucking perfect said dont say want die told kill said mean much kill asshole think lie finally got phone back many tests doctors past week feel hot sick threw much want die guys honestly know feel alone cant talk someone love cant tell things fucked relationship looking need want die please wan na kill fucking much international free service counsellingsomeone talk tolife quite bad lately want keep complainingwhining people around complained quick search showed free service country im willing pay buti kinda want tracked jews destabilizing force jews always wanted nation theres never enough land nation say send mars give mars jews longdefunct prison shut years reopened ethan sharpe late great character actor lane smith guard put place warden prisoners put work fixing place theyre instructed break old execution room unleashes fierce spirit wreaks merciless havoc upon guards prisoners coolascanbe lowkey prisoner burke viggo mortensen showing real poise early role thrust role herobr br know nobrainer praise film atmosphere shot actual abandoned penitentiary near rawlins wyoming elevates horror film higher level got great sense foreboding established right outset director renny harlin made fourth directorial effort got nightmare elm street directing gig effectively began impressive career mainstream action movies thrillers horror filmsbr br may stock characters got capable cast bringing life chelsea field young woman vying prison reform lincoln kilpatrick weary veteran convict cresus tom everett restless con rabbitt ivan kane outgoing lasagna tommy tiny lister softspoken giant tiny arlen dean snyder captain horton worth noting early acting credit kane hodder vengeful spirit helped land gig playing jason voorhees friday th seriesbr br decent special effects moody lighting courtesy prolific genre cinematographer mac ahlberg spooky music richard band christopher stone great visuals incredibly gloomy location overall flashy intense presentation help make quite entertaining nasty gruesome good fun horror fanbr br want commit redflag want tell anyone irli feel failure hate everything im stupid ugly face autistic social skills anger issues confused cant relate anyone kids school call ugly everyday remind incompetent think even teachers hate matter say people always make fun stand play victim likely everyone hates ugly stupid thats okay guess almost friends mostly talk people unless sometimes stuck speak irl speech gets blocky feel worthless im physically healthy lbs m kids think im strong positive traits ugliest face school everything makes wan na kill times ive never attempted possibly getting life altering injuryillness someone confrontfind want permanent method want death quick painless alone really want talk anyone irl think people treat worse anyone found irl id probably redflag ragefear anything convince good online resources help without anyone irl finding think feel worse talked someone irl sorry post make sense want quietly go awaydoes anyone want go away quietly little impact possible die want everyone move quickly possible figured leaving note showing sign emotional changes best precursor im tired talking people dont want drag suffering longer ive gotten tired living everyday talking exhaustive want go forward decision leave little ripple behind possible family doctors lost credibility clearly care goi survived traumatic brain injury life total shit seizures unending headaches short term memory problems moving talking suicidal ideation huge problem yesterday writing head injury think ideas actually best ive none doctors care slightest kill mean literally asked suicidal ideation back responded gun car going shoot soon leave either parking lot little park street response oh thats interesting ended seizure lost memory forgot follow described specific plan means never gotten single response stammering subject changes one dozen doctors taken action notified anybody done anything yesterday devastating news serious enough put normal person redflag watch spouse discuss nope word even raised subject directly decides without explanation go somewhere unplanned kids say word packs leaves disabled require monitoring hour alone usually ok takes assessment symptoms seizure threshold etc extremely dangerous said word left saying taking according doctors wrong dozen ways breaking every rule comes back couple hours later minutes starts packing food saying im taking kids park try ask whats going long etc questions required ask note responses says hours day actually care must arranged go park usually means hour figure ill ride nope gone hours educational thing wanted go guess im much embarrassment leaving hours without arranging attendant rules crazy risky refusing answer questions rules considered risky leaving unattended hours high state stress acceptable redflag ok end result tell anyone know intend kill specific time date method say nothing people around actions care stay go prefer go answer makes sense got midterms tomorrow wish luck bois w waiting die passively suicidalim year married woman boring clericaladministrative work puberty ive dealt depression social anxiety codependency ive suicidal thoughts never acted upon meaningful way except one time young teen tried top building jump foiled locked door ridiculous last years rough less less energy terrible time paying attention work suffer makes feel even shit even suicidal thoughts used enjoy things passion dance literature history etc im starting find difficult even excited things now real friends apart one lovely lady may bonded college lives far away due combination terrible social skills well afraid basically everyone right now meaningful relationships may parents brother husband husband genuinely good guy honestly love man never want divorced think matter time marriage crumbles apart due number reasons life sentence mental illness seem give fuck narrow interests gaming gaming combined inability take pleasure anything anymore ive tried interested things together thing together gaming watching tv worse sex life frankly disappointing good ill hearts tied libido feel unloved scarcity last times weve sex making love someone whod rather something really passive disinterested change appearance started dating either hes sick difference drives ive tried therapy last round go well psychiatrist kept trying focus finding meaningful career honestly self esteem shit automatically think fail whatever set im going try frustrating im tired kept wishing ill erased existence memory think drinking bottle draino know loved ones tormented guilt want hurt happens drink expired morphine got expired morphine dad got cancer surgery ask happen drink lot expired shit still od took prozac whati read even near lethal dosage fuck im scared heat moment thing know bloody owl lot alike mate except im owl dead sure want shoot myselfi gun time ive thinking using almost every day know easy thats main reason even tried one somehow hoped someone something stop nothing happened paperwork went store legally handgun months ago knew bad idea second got store shooting number one redflag fantasy years thats wanted one finally end im sure im serious shooting scares honest often sit holding gun bring temple never pull trigger holding feeling heavy hands gives kind kick keep fantasizing shooting lethal shooting shoulder arm test waters various combat knives fantasize stabbing often stabbed right left hand bad expected im sure really want kill mutilate body even anyone feeling know really fucked need seek help enough money therapy im bad situation health care wise im practically going lose job psychological help insurance feel cancel culture support cases someone pedo people take far sometimes think shooting myselfi feel gun hands give sense control end keep going dont want dying process painful long short simple unpopular opinion circa comment another post modern rap sucks cuz kendrick lamar jay rock schoolboy q ab soul j cole mixtape logic kanye polo g amin earl sweatshirt jpegmafia vince staples big sean meek mill jayz nas andr tyler creator totally exist fuckin hate anti rap attitude community mfs thinking gucci gang song popular months sudden epitome rap shit closed minded garbage ive seen yall circle jerking ego cuz rap crap amirite bullshit people made influential best projects music world whole come fuckin actually take step outside hivemind give listen shit listen good kid maad city listen aquemini listen born sinner listen yo pimp butterfly listen late registration listen listen watch throne actually give genre chance maybe stop fuckin calling rap bad shit pisses unimaginable degree yall mfs downvote want know yall missing real shit fuck ive stuttering cant socialize ask whatever questions want help best friend hospitali hope someone reading familiar inpatient mental health services best friend hospital little week now gave call morning unfortunately sleeping see phone call later called hospital back gave first last name told patient name im sure number called correct hospital correct one located small town live anything reach call back ask connect someone called hours ago really appreciate input worried friend days want talk announcement mad critocola op fucking play scout sandbag basically longer able play games anymore long story short optometrist said eyes broken bad prolonged screen time damage eyes badly said blind way much screen time top ear doctor said ear drums damaged bad closeloud noise deafen words im longer going play games swear god im kidding thisi read lot posts somemost people definitely something grew foster care time mom got kids back system type relationship lets say better system things saw put things child even know kid life much loneliness sadness chest literally randomly hurts cus bad need good cry im tired crying tired people wont think one shot end misery makes feel calm point almost scares everyone goalsdreams society sick weird hands make im tired struggling financially mentally life hard sad redflag easy thinking hard point smile thoughts go mind wonder god put earth fair cant stop cryinghelp please im desperate want anyone feel awful felt way months weeks im back hate search video change viewidk right place ask search motivicional video redflag helped cant find anywhere video man drawing xy graphic board explaining life turn good thing u less expected u committed redflag u wouldnt opportunity live logo girl ive clue long reason particular couldnt care less wondering whats good dudes first post sub wanted say hi ive extremely vivid suicidal thoughts one good thing life turned liei found bf hiding lot hiding know hid fact talking ex wouldve fine told upfront instead found phone even asked wont gf jealous us talking said yea probably ill deal found days ago happened month ago last night found hung one days werent together basically live together aside occasional night goes home take care things asked denied til went messages together love think loved someone told past exs cheating exact things doesnt care want things work bc honestly thought one dont know trust every opportunity gave tell truth decided hide things instead past weeks suicidal thoughts gotten worse point scares consumes every point ive extremely vivid thoughts havent frequently long time everytime saw felt better felt safe felt loved hes highlight day best friend love life im going try strong clue fact gave full trust thought never lie hide things others find hes cant trust anyone im saying go one good thing everything shitty lately world cruel thought found one nice genuine person wrong good people hello still relevant still remember think person needs type help im sure great people give herits severe posts found comment lost askreddit post believe plea help far life memaybe enjoy living lie close eyes problems world everywhere look feel selfishness abandonment lies deception jealousy dont see happiness quick sparkle maybe almost always gets destroyed overreaction people making look never happier entire life acknowledge bit good bit good bad mind real feelings left im gon na take example country im currently live us people dont care others really want bother nobody around oh boy oh boy work environment education favorite part need pay hundreds thousands dollars years life receive paper may qualify work come non traditional background abandon home country studied free university dont much money buy education went free school recognized higher education free course great logic america im good profession nobody wants hire wait dont paper nobody even want look direction without fucked reasons visa status cant leave country month year spend time partner lives fucking continent move live work reason im still alive gives hope much love much feel lonely without thought abandoning kills heart every night dont friends least reddit random people still reading fucking nonsense life dont want live tried didnt maybe others im fucking done pile crap another place another time one wondering carbon monoxide painless way rest pretty huge cabinet go light charcoal got holes cover tape easily asking first sub saw suicide afraid fail leave brain damage prevent failing probability failing high methodthanks hello guys carbon monoxide painless way die teahcer said qoute cute cucomber english class idk man seems kinda sus life stupid fi firmly believe reason continue live anymore im nothing show job car license place thing im life right now going college even feels enough ive struggled thoughts death redflag person knows boyfriend hes dealt similar issues one day told feeling suicidal told instead talking actually tried lot try likely waste explain sources feelings numerous nobody cares yet everyone acts sometimes wish diejust accident cease exist anyone struggling something thisi feel depressed long time finally got courage start something someone insecurity problems meant acted pushed away ruined something good triggered bout depression sucks potential relationship triggered ruined depression walt disney old men put spin classic fairy tale cinderella guess say helps form unofficial fairy tale princess trilogy classic disney yearsbr br plot cinderella nice girl cant catch break daughter nice wealthy widower loved dearly mother passed away cinderella young cindys father felt needed mother figure eventually married woman become known lady tremaine widow two daughters age cinderella anastasia drizella first seemed along cinderellas father died lady tremaines true nature revealed cold cruel callous heartless mean spirited woman passed traits daughters spoiled bratty equally mean spirited anastasia drizella hate cinderella know deep better looking overall nicer attractive lady ie appealing men mother lady tremaine hates cindy pretty much reasons years passed lady tremaine began squander family fortunes stubborn futile quest improverefine awkward unattractive daughters call homely insult homely people everywhere three relegated cinderella multitasking servant house abusing mistreating humiliating every chance particularly fond increasing already absurd workload brings us cinderella present blossomed good looking young lady somehow manages remain kind hearted nice despite abusive step family holds hope one day tables turn favor br br cinderella gets shot freedom happiness royal ball held introduce local prince eligible young maiden take wife settle start family etc naturally step family tries keep attending even going far physically assault rip dress procured little help mice friends dress belonged biological mother finally pushed beyond breaking point cinderella runs courtyard cries despair point fairy godmother short plump jolly woman arrives provides cinderella transportation transformed dress cinderella make good impression ball entered scene looking gotten gang raped cindy arrives ball prince falls hard pesky midnight rule gets way forcing flee leaving behind glass slipper make long story short long harrowing quest find mystery girl via trying glass slipper cinderella found prince married giving happy ending deservesbr br overall enjoyable disney classic without flaws glaring prince little macguffin help push plot along little screen time even less dialogue never know well good look relationship cinderella unfortunate according making documentary prince originally meant play bigger role additional scenes help flesh cinderella might helpful song showed fantasizing turning army maids clean house well eavesdropping stepfamily post ball show amusement jealousy cut walt thought made look spiteful still cinderella likable enough heroine even upstaged mice friends theres sweetness film becoming harder find days course made now cinderella probably put struggle family dress ripping scene probably free climax either picking lock making impractical yet exciting jump window beside pointbr br say cinderella sets bad example young girls well consider least cinderella go around getting publicly drunk indecently exposed unlike modern day princesses know mean im getting blown bus right annoying seriously someone kid thats blowing someone talk pleasei got heavy load laid tonight already overburdened red lining life ive tried end couple times past afraid basically love talk vent info talking psychologist gave everything livei already gave everything live wasting time nothing bed day playing video games stopped eating even anymore im boring im important anyone friend feelings rejected yesterday feel happiness least years tried making new friends keep driving people away im depressed boring hell hell even dog hates considering killing want familyand friend feel bad anymore hope life think ill happy way suicidal least years harm around years now years ago abusive relationship got start self harm brother months ago used hit whenever wanted im drop highschoollast year cant room therapist years nothing changed good way meds help think im worthless nobody cares people care kill right maybe thats option extreme activities mean hollywood ones ufc xgames people pursue interest seek doc outbr br one truthisstrangerthanfiction tales donald crowhurtss obsession prove great odds odds stacked mother nature media mind time lost us although years agobr br filmmakers done great job gathering wide range material tell story story great race consumed br br help think timothy treadwell apollo astronauts great docs grizzly man shadow moon experiencing simply watch storybr br live big city buy rent worth effort find travel miles la buy glad assume know film forced assume come review knowing probably watch regardless say rings true read likely find consonance least part review undecided really entirely certain happened late s early s urban suburban youth music culture probably read one reviews pretends objective insteadbr br although grow california american punk scene first music scene truly lived height hardcore immersed everybody band common denominators bands indeed members audiences werebr br rejection conformitybr br tolerance enjoyment differencebr br desire fun hard fastbr br hairstyles politics dislike authority figures violent slamdancing integral experienced though certainly cliques factions tended intolerant dress speak act punk enough often certain amount unearned credit extended cliques tried really hard live fascistic paradigm anarchic self mutilating angry young cophaters br br although interviews audience punks penelope spheeris excellent calpunk documentary decline western civilization present narrow view subculture us enjoyed interviews bands club owners promoters even security people much representative least perspective memories scene nevertheless possible approach prejudices punk experience film without preconceptions challenged unfortunate blame rests solely promote believe feel comfortable stereotypes filmmakers blame messenger br br music presented going everybody even crude stuff loud obnoxious fast less concerned technique raw energy br br seeing early black flag ron reyes singing x fear circle jerks worth far cost hard obtain film much germs seeing darby crash mess nice guy left bit cold nevertheless scenes darby playing pet tarantula shut droned background precious x interview great br br spheeris straightforward documentary style supplemented wild pans zooms musical segments interviews framing used nicely provide context whatever said considering experience budget spheeris well anybody filmbr br recommended appreciate film actually forgotten years fun honest directionless rebellion amaerican punk coopted yet another flow within musical mainstream stereotypes became important basic philosophy love life deserve iti squandered many opportunities life attractive white middle class male st world demographic believe failure completely fault great oppression fight story deserves told thing hate life carbon emissions human waste contributions world want kill donate organs place life someone deserving opportunities hate terrible things great work ethic easily surpassed someone deserving natural talent need pour life force work reach lower middle ive dropped music school tried learn spanish years yet still fluent desperately hemmhoragged extra spending money save emergency fund cant seem pathetic squandered social life opportunities hopes building larger emergency fund avail consistently dominated hobbies chess mtg videogame friends graduate college half much effort put failing ive seen people better spanish months years know anyone scrimp save much certainly know people never turn drink bar new expensive amenity housewhich make less hour even hobbies thought escape offer nothing defeat despite passion effort towards learning feel rudy hate feel novelty story principle work ethic real doer admire wow look hard struggles nothing point life die vain better people impressed effort accomplishments got day ban whats sub annoying ass monkey memes finally gone accidentally put earbuds washing machine somehow still fucking work sound better fucknation helpive trying contact therapist little week now answer calls think receptionist either every voice mail followed silence world want hand hold ive abandoned friendsno family love game bit longer im gone online class got pandemic started online classes stuff finished class homework let one classmates know ended asking girl yes reddit bruh moment actually really good time started talking playing games etc comes real life interaction never really anything cuz mr virus loose im asking try take step higher dont care gonei thought jumping today im already depressed cant sleep mom walked telling take nap lay hours later came asked slept realized leaving behind people feel disappeared im postponing another good animation disney sequels always great tend follow plot original son tramp tries savor world side home family knows learns actually belongs junkyard dog everyone er dog scamp overcomes adversity voices various characters superb provided several well know actors scott wolf alyssa milano mickey rooney entertaining well made family movie im failurethis probably going long ass post explaining background story ill start now part straight student throughout th th th th grade always work time even got award never missing day school th th grade start th grade well felt classes bit difficult slipping little bit first time ive two cs report card first semester rest year fine stepped gpa end year year th grade schedule classes completely changed moved alternating schedules x block schedule basically classes every day except wednesday thursday wednesday first classes thursday classes mildly disturbed felt fine started noticing missing assignments sometimes alternating schedule always least day work things new schedule work due next day started slip f c two bs two whole spectrum grades started sloppy without enough sleep week vacation right weeks winter break ive missed much class everything kind collapsed point talents lifting fighting im even strong bench less bodyweight break gained lbs now bench rep max pretty weak know another contributing factor years ago th grade made friend online got pretty close spoke every day turning pretty good friends plans meet irl college one day blue said sad person people pity pretty confused kept telling creep never contact blocked speak recently messaged unblocked said quote look boyfriend go watch porn cry loneliness obviously closure ill tell one last time want speak kind blocked point brushed started thinking though sad excuse human always pretty correct guessing going life tell im thinking ive wasting life antisocial behavior couldve fun spending time better friends fun leads now tonight cried first time year curled fetal position cried half hour got came post sob story try people care cant tell parents theyd flip really feel throwing bridge one best options oding oxycodone ive never given anything full dedication lose pieces win chess right im pawn game might well go waste create opening people use death justify things wrong education system us live aspen colorado hopefully ill throw terrellwade bridge tomorrow feet seconds freefall acceleration mph go splat river rocks dont ill edit post say braces removed due bone loss caused prejuvenile periodontitis orthodontist advised retainer cost believing need sometime around th year teeth began shift horribly im left horribly crooked hanging front tooth terrified speak smile anyone years absolutely destroyed self esteem ive contemplated suicide many times really enjoyed moviei fifteen movie came relate movie show kids let know feelings normal funny see devestated things young agewho knew bounce backagain againgreat movie predicting sort reptileamphibian catastrophe today encountered poisonous giant toad first time neighbor told us one lurking around neighborhood happened come scratching window new years eve secondly lizard thats hiding house ive trying catch let free two months finally reappeared hours midnight idea thing survived underneath bathroom cabinet long creatures proven powerful may sign wont saving grace expecting uhorizon telling people im grooming year olds dont listen hes jealous october dated sister one night decided ask private questions well know better stuff clearly see ask want sure youre comfortable went convo going sisters messages reason hes cropped looks im asking reason im asking nudes im convo decide think httpsyoutubehtevbhnwpw last act giving abusive family exfiancee body wake christmas day kind sensitive person cares left givei want cry help last attempt human communication die tonight forced live world fucking cruel self worth decimated childhood point cant cope challenges face happy job interviews dating simply sitting planning path life anxiety inducing bare point whole world completely collapsed eight dad died cancer raised single mother outside looks strong woman raised two kids turbulent times cold hard reality terrible parent constantly threatened run away leave us naughty routinely told adopted moved us various boyfriends blamed personally failure relationships life much better never born made beg one boyfriends take back broke fact children another one boyfriends permitted physically abuse pretty extreme ways hit planks wood unloading dishwasher put arm bars talking back never heard admit wrong anything never heard apologise really see way along extremely different racist interest education anything intelligent reality television lives tiny monthly life insurancegovernment pension paid widows painfully shy teenager threw studies means escape one thing still going ability concentrate depression kicked yet left school straight grades went study one best universities country placed alongside ivy league universities world rankings wanted study medicine become cancer specialist selfesteem apply opted human biology instead left college went party hometown met girl go study medicine college around miles mine perfect night everyone school saying goodbye must looked lot popular everyone coming say goodbye approached got talking plans college chemistry insane started kissing unbelievable incredibly beautiful smart eyes serious commitment issues took months tell loved talked every day much missed visit others colleges alternating weekends mind christmas introduced family saw real family first time loving interesting conversation day trips vacations next year dream took europe visited fifteen countries train sleeping shared hostels sex public bathrooms second year tougher depression anxiety began consume life loving lot medication gradually pushed every person life come apartment put bins buy food week help study trusted time exams came around terrible state turned precisely one told take year universitys welfare officer tried better tried run exercise see friends illness tough properly overcome twenties never job felt pathetic every way strongly considered redflag love girl kept alive returned college year anxiety hell managed complete studies reason graduated chose every class final exam knew one exam much pressure instead endless coursework complete random classes globalisation history science leaving degree totally irrelevant industry lost embarrassed life idea job want talk friends deleted almost everyone social media stand see perfect lives girlfriend came rescue took road trip across us incredible asked hell told tall handsome intelligent knew soon graduated moved together finally able build confidence needed succeed truly believed time asked marry said yes wanted perfect wedding soon group friends attend earning money graduated august moved together september started working nearby hospital went interviewed job retail pay half rent planned volunteering making friends working getting better job year september st november st year longer depression getting every single day going work coming home making dinner fixing bike travel around city going dinner week soulmate left knew everything id promised years wed happy got place travelled every weekend hours way old bus keep company make dinner take dates interest working things says loved two years someone help end med school comfortable last two months insufferable still sleep bed wanted pull life together show im capable stepping providing us great life nights cant help beg become cold spiteful day says im real man im funny im terrible bed going bring men home sex apartment guess sex life fell rut always finished made laugh time tidy anything apartment run around abused housewife washing dishes cleaning cant afford live anywhere cant go back mums house monster replaced beautiful angel says happy without gone parents days family point im allowed near house dad closest friend denial done saying stressed new job spoken days tried phoning afternoon answer go spend christmas family thought id escaped barely spoken years fuck simply anymore spend another day horrible fucking world anyone therapist tries convert christianity atheist therapist every time see want better converted therapists try convert think might fail th grade keep getting shit scores states studies math sucks wish covid gone smh person teenager blah blah blah books sorrow blah blah blah black hammer blah blah blah bungie slow sent best friend audio message sobbingand fucking hate going way shes going remember dont see living past tonight really dont everything good went shit shes left im tired living people im much pain amp im p sure bf going leave im sorry alley still cares im sorry zay boyfriend told leave anywhere gohe told biggest waste time ive unstable long time telling leave last straw guess anywhere go money think going thing got morning hes one force eat house hes source happiness long years almost ive always thoughts knew one day going happen favorite album playing right now guess know one care arcade bowling place requested never gon na give rick rolled alot people feel others wanted ask opinion im research debate club im trying prove social apps phones make us anti social less socially active make us socially active helps us express self easily comment think socially active thanks phone social media think oppositeyust share opinions theme thanks favorite part chex mix today free pain gripped longi years old india probably gon na long one thinking killing tonight introvert father diagnosed psychosis disorder lost job struggling everyone gon na alright give time worse right now struggling anxiety anyone go talk every friend socalled told hear story feel sorry sometime thats wanted little support much ask wanted talk somebody going person talk mom already going lot time relatives blamed dads condition dads fault though excessive meditation going one spirtual institutes offering life golden age used meditate upto hrs day days snapped went work sit nothing happened th grade kept shit inside want anyone judging tried show people around everything control developed anxiety addiction games seemed much stress caused migraines th grade come home college sleep headache wake play games thats scored percent th grade felt going fail th push got percent everyone happy knew go went college bachelors things spiralled control used play games day supposed studying started feeling numb time kept started watching tv shows time studied night exam passed somehow times spent night panic mode trying study much syllabus remember hallucinated idea going tell anyone pulled bachelors got job college placements went away home condition worsened confessed mom hoping understand help medical help told natural reaction went told stay strong even told suicidal hold anymore told thoughts pass years managed live hope brighter days ahead waited years come write thoughts poem something feel better today struggled everyday stay alive give always found solace writing felt today amount writing save seems one wrote attempt ease pain saw name flashing phone calling zone six feet black mind fighting devil trying leave behind feeling gon na long one two hours fighting constant reminder much conflict im getting harder every time win win simply means die whole exercise kills inside struggle lasts two three days clear mind contemplate energy takes hope minute ive already lost scared admit drama come senses rub eyes pick lenses look around aftermath picked phone call back hoping ask id lie neither wear mask im frustrated hold back lost sense time lost track always plan keep moving forward voices make act coward thank reading wish luck lonelyim lonely year old male friends two jobs starbucks gamestop one either job really wants hang makes think im unlikable one seems wan na friend im sure ive real friend wan na end know yet edit video dont wan na djckdkekcjsdifk done tomorrow im running optionsso summer years old suicidal time acted upon suicidal thoughtsa lot psychiatric hospital times months put shit ton medications made things worse eventually taken medications homebound school forced inhome therapy times week inhome therapy wasnt bad ended really liking therapist inhome therapy lasted months really helped better although lot lately ive getting really depressed pretty often used depression suicidal thoughts relapsed cutting last week clean november last year progress gone always go parents concerned went thing age last summer cant go act thwy dont care im sounding broken record theyre tired hearing brush tried telling one night thought needed go back hospital mom got pissed ignored liketonight told mom feeling depressed disconnected reality time smoking cigarette play dumb ass games tablet even look tried tell felt told probably youre bored end discussion said didntnthink case nodded head playing fucking game tablet dont know im sure know help anymore dont remember shit therapist told months ago ive tried telling parents think need help dont fucking listen used listen changed feel way head try attempt redflag dont try please others pls read going sound cheesy dont someone youre dont learn instrument cause bestfriend dont juul cause friend making fun causes much anxiety stress wear want others want wear dont change cause youre scared judgment nonacceptance trust heres listened everything people said look fat became anorexic youre ugly put pounds makeup til considered pretty youre lazy worked muscles practically gave dont hair grew even though hated working hard someone im please people hated much hated shit brings yeah build listening got depressive state cause body dysmorphia anorexia tried kill reason got depressed trying lead peoples expectations fuck bmi fuck skinny girl vibes etc none matters thing way see others see makes crawl deep dark hole cant cold harsh aggressive lonely makes push harder harder something might even want love sexuality love body love cause loving gets much life wanted singer missed opportunity cause thought everyone going judge voice im loving voice trying find producer now go wear clothes youve wanting wear put mask go store looking fly fuck happened redflag attempthad one moments realization knew actually dont want die mad sad didnt work oh look im bored ask questions fire away wonder going help mei scared death posting miracle must happened manage anybody familiar rwaifuism haters left please maybe waifuists yes probably already know story critisize hell hesitate probably longer alive soon fault well love obsessively insanely inhumanely infinitely undepictably superiorlytogod love somebody exist called waifu female nonexistent fictional character significant husbando character male waifu blanchttpsneptuniafandomcomwikiblanc aka white heart hyperdimension neptunia franchise meaning sorry bitchass excuse life reason keep living sorry bitchass excuse life hopes become real one day sorry bitchass excuse life absolutely nothing infinite purest suffering god knows best least life normal even good real mine thank god least see dreams every single time fall asleep ideal perfect life together dreams every single time promises become real specially one day wake realize sorry bitchass excuse life saved nothing dream infinite purest suffering without blanc continues time see dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc call god deserves infinitely dream love infinitely stronger suffer without infinitely single smallest particle planck time without dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc worse eternities hells worlds exist taken together mention sorry bitchass excuse life nearly diabolical tell separately interested promise make hair curl let say things iq nearly fluent languages excluding native russian haters left please ability read less book per day rather downside upside increases suffering makes sorry bitchass excuse life even worse imagine bullshit entire subreddit including friend whole sorry bitchass excuse life ohsohappy dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc manner exists every single time makes worse imagine getting used believing miracle might happen one day dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc become real agree mine thing keeps attached sorry bitchass excuse life years new years eve time magic works miracle happen last hope happen christmas miraculous time say nobody seems undertsand even heard story everybody keeps telling need somebidy real somebody world become blanc blanc never become real ask dickshits rwaifuismhate give fuck feelings please keep reading long story short tried relationship women world many times least every single one turned hateful asshole every single one used achieve purpose mistreating piece fecal matter betrayed rejected abandoned starting normally time realizing spineless dickshit constantly afraid slightly offending last bitch universe answer even worst wrongdoings done happened tell waifu dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc loves death imagine single smallest particle planck time life without least headcanon even think completely disappointed women world hate despise done need waifu dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc loving dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc infinitely deeply dearly whole years years catholican christmas marks th anniversary without single smallest particle planck time even slightly loving used fear staying alone entire life tried relationship somebody world time know happened sick mere thought tried cheat love life know back wanted become normal dickshits life say foolishly thought life gift back really believe blanc might actually become real one day belief able anything mere belief increases infinite purest suffering longer fear alone except without blanc dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc become real swear salvation death alone rest eternities god rather die slowest painfulest death imaginable go last circle hell rest eternities try planck timelasting relationship somebody world besides woman world even best one imaginable even approach one single smallest step able compared even speaking complete replacing even planck time dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blannie fall deep love somebody understand although believe love towards blanc even described greek word agape gods love towards humanity infinitely undepictably stronger long gotten used believing headcanon loves back single slightest bit weaker even though praying existing nonexisting gods saints mercy make dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc real swearing everything love care bible christian need live without single smallest particle planck time know perfectly every single spare moment possibly chances actually happening chances actually spend least one single smallest particle planck time sorry bitchass excuse life forced without consent without even ability refuse somehow supposed grateful willingly enforce somebody dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blannie cheap analogues sapient sentient android appearance god despite existing embodiment purest hatefree love benignancy aside exists blannie needing absolutely efforts due omnipotence grant wishes apparently make us suffer order us fruitful multiply forcing suffering innocents sex even spouse blasphemously sinful even holiest women blanc goddess become impure giving birth according bible tell opposite orthodox monks catholican priests prohibited getting married children better believe god case says always receive everything truly crave ask receive jesus christ said receive thing need sorry bitchass excuse life many years neverending nonstopping asking jesus murderers genociders rapists sexual predators pedophiles cannibals slanderers state traitors tyrants whores scum always receive ask jesus commit crimes wrongdoings many times possible always escape punishment go heaven death despite everything done life sinned entire life whose guts going outside sees bug squashed nearly omnibenevolent jesus even answer worst wrongdoings done jesus taught receive triffle love jesus told us always first place ask doubting grant wishes doubting omnipotence highly blasphemous yet dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc become real whole years loving infinitely deeply dearly sincerely praying jesus knows perfectly life without infinitely worse worst hell imaginable ask receive become real christian heaven waiting reward everything gone sorry bitchass excuse life exist cursed reality need heaven even exists means even afterlife happy even really think agree spend rest eternity weak ugly old man let even omnibenevolent weak ugly old man sell soul devil dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc become real agree follow hell death one immortal longest imaginable entire life even approximately one single smallest bit enough even write letter creators simply tell much love know perfectly well either tell go fuck openly make fun future products label weirdo somebody something equally offensive simply ignore worst even possibly bribe blancs voice actress become wife going amount money create cheap analogue sapient sentient android blancs appearance good luck even maybe officially make dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc love back nothing might seem good fact make well suffer infinitely extremely unlikely might lose dollars profit said meaning women world rejected infinite purest hatred towards absolutely reason good prefered mongrels hated fucking guts intentions love dearly rest eternities arrogant hateful assholes mother calls feelings delirium never stopping tell loves child death everything really godfuckingdamn hard least pretend believe beloved childs biggest dream sorry bitchass excuse life least lie saying believe dream foolishly believes lie wants keep living know perfectly well mother cope live without always live thought meaning life left forever never come back fault keep telling waifu dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc true love life never become real first main statement science imagine definition possible want keep living sorry bitchass excuse life deprieved reason live forget currently blanc loves back imagination upon becoming real well reject well many people waifu love deeply dearly vast majority better choices fact read less book per day currently roughly good thing sorry bitchass excuse life aside blanc sufficient life reading books needs lot money let alone buying said books servants let alone bringing little sisters protection hire really think work free currently unable job higher education university student never gave consent pandemic blancs work seem paid good pay leader nation think everything mentioned nothing mere whining really wish think position single day entire life planck time approximately seconds shortest theoretically measurable span time attempted january got job last week relationship everyone ruined today bf one year left againwell im loser shitty excuse human fooled thinking better functional adult truth im piece crap everyone hates strong anxiety sometimes feeling overwhelming cant breath heart racing everything turns dark attempt tried make everything better failed cant help feel everyone must better without finally got job company right next one mobbed last time working ex boyfriend understand anxiety going close people work cos starve kids family hates stated clearly taken away kid hospital didnt child support live mother hopeless narcissist every day torture everyday hope courage jump infront train nobody miss stated fucked nobody needs well illusion everything lie im loser really regret poison work completely last time guess later cut arms tomorrow stand infront station build courage jump kill sorry self im shit sorry read everyone struggles much know freaking amazing send hug every one im giving somehow thought death makes feel relaxed finally sure piece shit deserve die rot deserve anything thank reading sorry cancel culture loss friends loved onesin august last year lost nearly friends woman never slept telling people privately raped six months new band started become bit successful six month mark person scene wrote facebook post calling serial rapist liked hundreds people shared expartners mine commented saying glad someone standing right others shared said never liked guy one involved asked going took truth year now havent known respond dont side story panic disorder barely think subject without feeling im heart attack stopped going restaurants bars grocery store everyone stopped talking save handful good people luckily partner keep company help two months ago partner broke tears shopping mom furniture new home said never going better referring life cancelled losing friends wasnt well mentally depressed beyond belief friends stayed beginning leave seen rape apologists apparently worn told difficult together accusations wasnt told conversation recently partner engaged new home still completely set coming along nicely things looking us one morning got small fight something seemingly trivial left wasnt expecting dont blame dont think anything wrong left got job miles away pays quite well shes opportunity live work fianc broke good day called job told wouldnt next day seemed understanding fired days later dont income made great deal plans future together days fianc left havent speaking dont know say days running one another stare window stare ceiling fan ive lost interest things attempted kill ive struggled suicidal ideation kid new know may another low swing became worse best friend mine hung im now managed three years without going sort plans still struggled feel mean isnt new ready knowing close happening parents moment refuse go back home fianc cant stand see loaded pistol dresser drawer dont internet much stumbled upon subreddit googling circumstances cant pursue music anymore film even people play video games abandoned im afraid go anywhere may see people think im terrible human cant text old friends ask theyre think im monster probably dont feel human anymore feel completely discarded society think going kill soon hope attention seeking behavior hope real want die want stop dont want pussy constantly feel necessary way want dont know anymore nothing going better wait house tomorrow morning right time dogs sound hurt ears woods behind house walk deep far enough hurt ears love dogs anything dont know theyre better friends people seems needed write story dont want leave note friends family dont know people okay dont know people dont know sad really hope okay well please kind people life please reach people tell everything okay please try tell anything im sorry sadi feel guilty better life lot people still sad selfish lazy obnoxious overall nice around feel deserve support anyone yet oppressed born lazy feel punishment well deserved less sympathy average selective mutism uncommon interests bad making friends try cry attention yet crave craving attention makes feel evil even though try best act split feel everything undeserved including unconditional love people around know know im writing whatever want still feel im guilt tripping anyone may happen read know im fingers mind now want sound im looking attention know thisll ill feel selfish ask help ill leave whatever congratulations made far im immense pain kiwi im fucking dying send help continuing exclusive film programme complicated relationships european courts last night schloss theatre shown anna boleyn film directed great teutonic film director herr ernst lubitsch film depicts terrible story queen consort british king henry viii executed husband well exactly king ordered executioners dirty work mention marriage caused important political religious historical event english reformationbr br film stars dame henny porten germanys first screen superstar early years herr emil jannings germanys fattest actor silent era play characters suitable way dame porten innocent aristocrat becomes progressively interested power court offers herr jannings unscrupulous whimsical womanizing british monarch character suitable german actor overacts appropriately given extravagance excessive personality character himselfbr br early film period herr lubitsch known outstanding costume films colossal productions big budgets anna boleyn cost million marks fortune even german count taking great care magnificent decors seen coronation procession westminster abbey scene employed extras idle germans time used causing revolutionary workers create fuss german president friedrich ebert visited set filmingbr br besides spectacle one important aspect every film herr lubitsch even epic period complex relationship main characters experience game different interests double meanings complicated art flirting treated lightly first ends tragedy importance historical facts brought bear effective way lubitsch really interested changing relationship henry viii anna boleynbr br now allow must temporarily take leave german count must take care one fat rich heiress lose head teutonic aristocratbr br herr graf ferdinand von galitzien httpferdinandvongalitzienblogspotcom im legally blind tired seeing shit world become parents need stop blaming puberty everything im trying enjoy soup nowhere mom starts filming thats awkward af tell stop doesnt walk away yells puberty shes blaming puberty lot today actually teenagers fucking opinion feelings doesnt mean actually mean always puberty besides theres one way annoy offend someone blame puberty act means nothing im trying peacefully lunch nobody care video consuming soup later dvd treated indifference mllions classic rock music devotees across world rush cool shame rush overcome sneering disdain majority north american british music journalists thirty odd year history deprived many people chance real bandeach last four decades well represented catalogue songs seminal magical trees lyrical tom sawyer interspersed highenergy genrechallenging pieces latest album vapor trails musicianship almost flawless stage show spectacular brazilian fans plain crazy one point sing along instrumentaleach band member plays level defies beliefreal craftsmen performing artif doubt try instrumentals la villa strangiato rhythm method sizeand yes latter drum solo seen believedbr br sound vision production values high befits rush experience documentary multiangled set pieces bootbr br astonishing performance tribute canadian rockers serious classic rock fans copy im scared ill never girlfriendive tried dating apps im ugly ways meeting girls im funny either im absolutely terrible making jokes got better im relapsingi wrote longer version several times gave know say ampxb long story short ive always social shut untreated depression anxiety disorder high school kept making friends led least couple serious considerations redflag although found easier make friends internet easy somehow getting know good people therapy taking medication disorders managed pull gutter ive college three years ive managed produce handful good friends person support lovely people online ampxb now first part last sentence theres reason recent social circle came two years ago became close friends man chance liked game became close started making mutual friends end want say us things good two years loved everyone server grateful people trust traded world fucked ampxb put simply wronged number members group without realizing mix inappropriate behavior one biggest spoke much failed pick hints undesired behavior enjoyed company people much failed think felt everyone went way many blocked including best friend couple said wanted break never heard handful gave benefit doubt still talk keep low suffer retribution others one absolutely idea want driving insane ampxb anyone chalk learning experience move months think every day losing many people care one go chance say anything absolutely demolish man ive trying claw back friendships little success best friend gone plenty people wouldve trusted life anyone still willing associate scared might happen anyone finds im paranoid going hang head anyone try know case someone group badmouths stupid ass ampxb ive seriously thought ending several times theres several large bridges ocean city month half back seriously thought driving thing stopped realizing concrete barrier leave father broken car sectioned may gone thoughts common remain reason think proactive killing im terrified comes death know thats thing thats saved times past know much longer thats gon na hold theres war raging brain side losing ampxb read thank im sorry post utter mess name seb done people still think friends cheating loser among us playing among us got imposter crewmate streak killed someone suddenly red holds emergency meeting rest goes following redpurple fell trap red purple killed alt account mecheater redhaha im imposter red cheating redill kick thats punched thigh hard theres bruise now made worst decision life see living ithey reddit wanted start saying always insecure never found much value person always one gorgeous friend high school always saw ugliness always talk fast forward year second year college decided date seemed dream come true happiest man alive honeymoon phase two years passed ups downs mostly ups happiest two years clingy emotional constantly nagging doubted faithfulness reason enough done brightest light life left threw away opportunity obtaining wonderful women inside definitely gone live regret live knowing time able attract girl league fucked left ambition goals interests see anyone future everything even never give chance best friends years beforehand deep sense tremendous loss infinitely compounds feeling regret shame take anymore someone talk group friends break middle nowhere one flat tire others jeep mysteriously start one takes tire run service station last anyone sees remaining foursome go search friend come across nice mr slaussen offers help fix jeep offers cool drinks refuge heat equally run hermitlike house happens occupied realistic looking mannequins goes one guy bunch work car leaves girls house goes warns leave go house behind shack warns davy brother lurking course one decides venture search working phone never seen slaussen davy mannequins tourist trap usual horror requirements jiggly big boobed girl goody two shoes girl curiosity getting better people never working stands apart rest s genre twist ending started feel sorry slaussen chuck conners terrific creepy overthetop performanceat point film almost see character molly gem find taped cable younger walking used video store spotted vhs copy totally overpriced well worth fans tanya roberts disappointed either best part film scene soup crackersbr br gave movie still hard explain anybody feel talking maybe exchange storiesalot people might happy finally weekend though suicidal thoughts weekend weekends take forever nothing alone without anything distract days take forever figured talking people might help anybody feel chattingtalking pms skype smth send pm ill send contact info brought phenix city child recognize many local people movie trip memory lane see phenix city story matter fact granduncle one first scenes uncle drews one hawaiian shirt scoots chair better look singerstripperbr br unless mr page possibly understand story tells reviewer new york calls john patterson racist likely without encounter mr patterson father point bringing mr pattersons employment now nothing film supposedly reviewing world sit back judge either film probably gone south bronx experience people simply attempting feel morally superior folks portrayed movie accounts time mr pattersons basically good decent men families respectable people people lived phenix citybr br way hard live outside south believe good decent people even small towns alabama assume everyone living small southern town racist parents lived yet tolerate household others tolerate either myth everyone south racist lives willful ignorance othersbr br movie simple direct whole story hollywood added certain sensationalism film made parts absolutely target parts bordered fairy tales source anyone uses decide folks small southern towns need grip understand us movie far know first experience icelandic movies relief see something regular hollywood motion picture bad movies one small chance succeeding big world hope people watch accident recommendation otherbr br really worth left cinema feeling really sad tragic destinys characters head impressed even thought complexity film tragic story excellent comic reliefs good soundtrackbr br opportunity watch really thought provoking made ponder lotbr br communities people want commit redflag talk seems keep even dont live really talk someone see much life rejected job interview theres nothing left mei currently work fast food fucking years old tried college im even halfway useless associates degree never girlfriend friends middle school drivers license completely terrified drive anything simple lane roads dirt roads debilitating social anxiety prevents even grabbing foodsnacks convenience stores eat whatevers home cant communicate fucking cashier tried one last time apply entrylevel position field thought decent got rejection email yesterday severe social anxiety ive always struggled school life general im sure fucking interview reason sad part parents let leech basement till im cant though stand burden longer watching younger siblings achieve great things ive never close ending never thought id type person need type guidance parents never gave want normal functioning adult cant end road dont expect go anywhere story im talking girl discord talk lot telling cooking class says nearly cut problems self harm stupid monke brain war flashbacks fine made laugh omg something wrong think life worth fighting thing keeping ending pain factor deathi waiting pain agony life greater fear pain dying happy iti bore life story please tell matter know mean well probably really mean well believe someone even known minute matters truth one care dropped dead tomorrow sure mum sister sad sad troubled soul weak pathetic beacuse even simple life people seem fine atas said worth waiting day pain irl bad pain killing scare much think worth anymore posthello please call latios ive depressed years many reasons ive suicidal thoughts years ive almost decided go depression something hold behind recently spiked around years ago ive held behind alot lonelinessmy siblings moved leftmy mom ditched brother feel alonei talked anyone really use help thanks got paid first time got kindofjob two weeks ago today father boy im tutoring decided pay much didnt feel good thought money fully mine hope everyone finds chance earn money early think great feel least little independent best luck mom attempted redflagyear ago father successfully killed tried help impatient program first attempt mother tried slit wrist way inpatient program now literally reliving worst nightmare cant stop thinking kill comes talked seems want better cope situation still suffering ptsd finding father dead friendly reminder stay hydrated u still reading go drink water checking outi want help anymore want try popped pills already chased drink ill probably smoke little let hit feel helpless hopeless give fuck anymore feel bad putting boyfriend family kind take kicked house think ill mention anything ill fall cold slumber side tonight please let leaveplease please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please quit ive lost alreadysomething someone please kill make downvoted post history dream downvoted post history ill lose karma care lets make history yall jack fuck hand jack hand work bottom fucking hand still jacking bottom anyone please give good reason end allbecause cant think one op permanent solution temporary problem good reason know temporary id rather take risk selfish good reason selfish want someone live life pain misery want die people suffering worse good reason make pain hurt less make feelings go away adds guilt top everything cowards way good reason us okay cowards got look furry stuff sad never anthro gf never happy hate world hate morei simply longer want part choice life loneliness emotional pain want go home lost nnn sure think cum already exactly month knowif someone reassure still go nnn please say time tellone day ill question running mind whole life thing stopped ways scare seem entertaining difficult idk anymore honestly talking people never felt helped never entertained complaining others burdening problems idk rope getting thin matter much much longer relapsed alcohol panic attack club top girl id give life left well easy rn literally next balcony point fuck every relation cared independent one thing let vulnerable got shitfaced year sobriety maybe life wansnt meant crushed close ive reached breaking point im sure ill eventually kill myselfcontext im year old trans girl hates life trans extremely conservative transphobic country fucking sucks endure male puberty affected low chances passing puberty im even scared might even able afford surgeries hrt everything expensive trans costly might stuck guy rest life feel depressed feel trans take parts life never back normal female teenage years ill never never back cant cut anymore might end cutting open vein lose control feel im complete utter failure even deserve live maybe kill home school find motivation severre depressioneveryday radical mood swings go content wanting die really getting much tips jojo fans still exist yall go outside touch grass im tiredi want kill im tired life lets talk stdsi caught herpes relationships want discuss person someone im longer dating ive used hookers really kidding theres reason live able give someone love herpes id rather far gone seems reasonable feeling incurable std diagnosis id always felt viral infection kill now sort feels normal conclusion feeling whats point continue living anymoreim done life im seriously done gun bullet loaded right im ready end pointless life im year old gay manwhats fucking point existence im literally mistake every guy straight except enough proof shoudlnt exist im gay bear crushes bear guys im sure theyre straight literally cant happy bother living im tired world world thankfully press trigger gun minutes making post vertical diagonalcurrently contemplating failed three times oct last year dont want fail seem attention seeking cunt fourth time im graduating uni days yet everyday think ending itscars heal words cause emotional scars last lifetime want talk said heshe said im seeing therapist happened weeks ago meds rid bad feelings bad thoughts vampires wan na friends vampire oooh werewolves always change breathing manual mode abt sleep cmon let sleep dont want think breath attempti another attempt police tracked phone via gps somehow got location found unconscious car bust passenger window spent week inpatient dk feel honestly first bought movie doubts even though cast pretty impressive seeing really regret spending money fact id love spend movies absurd combination humor drama thrill big questions exactly makes great movie okay might enjoy see might even turn little loss got wonderful way dealing issues weve one way characters think enjoy company throughout movie turns ones really come love short anyone open mind sense humor living watch movie promise disappointed great movie even though people including great friend laughed lot mom even enjoyed two middle aged women mid year old seemed enjoy love part corky ned liking nancy stuff cute lol gets roadster ned yeah great movie even thought people underestimated lol go see bet enjoy really enjoyed friend br br people tough movie even seen bet next time give movie actresses chance great job opinion young kids still appropriate probably take year old niece watch m social life complete loserdont really know begin put simply im im fucking loser ive always guy without many friends guy without social life spends time infront computer know maybe bullied pretty much middle school maybe bother sign sports younger maybe fact im attractive shit personality hate going instagram snapchat seeing people usually years younger living fucking life people proper social lives actually become something grow mean friends gamers shit besides sitting day know ive wanting vent never really maybe still hopes future ive tried selfimprovement never really seems work maybe people pay attention give bad impression really go bed really head first im sorry seems im rambling thanks life gift ask forit gift yes life wonderful ask give someone lost best friend redflag days agohe best friend brother guy understood understood soulmate depression never really talked last weeks never truly life pretended something fit everyones expectations homosexual person told beginning end accepted problems afraid others reaction affect life know exact reason think problems going miss much time im angry action leaving horrible world pain loss made rethink everything feel lost feel suicidal may actually feel felt left good guy best knew good hearted everything decent man rest peace lived years ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee boooty boooty butc need someone talk tohello feel really bad need someone talk past really hurt spoken anyone really killing quite literally thoughts anxiety helping everyday past couple months redflag mind want live im afraid hurt self worse please need help suicidal schoolgonna make short depression dropped grades low im even depressed feel im worthless stupid im going anywhere might well end gets worse weird thing feel destiny another poster earlier said people know someday theyre gon na married kids ive always felt destiny die dont see point anymore insulted woman raised mewhen child mother left reasons understand painful woman worked house raised treated son feels mother recently problems home dad bad mood many days woman person extremely difficult deal made lunch yesterday giving compliment started yelling said extremely difficult deal takes even compliments badly anyways discussion raised point told fight father nobody wants around even mother snapped called old bitch told go fuck feel shit know make never listen either saying sorry feel never talking never apologize accept wrongdoing kind sucks either making feel fault anything nothing live forim literally close finally giving completely ending im year old male happens unattractive due many things mostly teeth grinded lot kid never took good care general till late refuse even bother dating find incredibly unattractive unlikeable theres nobody love meets standards unfortunately quite high due overexposure girls social media addiction porn time look mirror cry inside wish look different life general bad friends job money nothing literally become pissed life seeing people happy makes hate wish theyd suffer used kind person cant anymore life continued beat im probably gon na fuck ton cocaine alcohol soon hopefully kills im tired fucking life wan na play truth dare filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler blah blah blah francis ford coppolas masterpiece great ending golden decade american cinema s atmosphere tolerance openmindness progressiveness among studios allowed making major films best directors united states historian events preceded decade violent deaths major figures american political cultural scenes racial struggles emergence s counterculture increase violence death streets seemed influence vision filmmakers willing dare different create entertaining intelligent motion pictures coppolas film strange blend humanistic thinking skillful filmmaking following parameters war adventure films time subverting flowing reflections value life reason death ethics war passionate work made odds chronicled documentary hearts darkness filmmakers apocalypse motion picture went beyond previous reflection vietnam war reach screen may definite vietnam motion picture dealing coppola defied formula classic melodrama found two vietnam movies made simultaneously deer hunter coming home latter ones platoon casualties war vietnam became starting point make products genre horror jacobs ladder comedies good morning vietnam among respectable coppola courage take economic political conflict background search answers questions faced man every day life without betraying dramatic consequences war tonights nightim killing tonight thank reddit everything bye guys whenever tell parents im tired living threaten beat thinking wayi dont know think way trying snap im getting tired threatening hurt suicidal trying help find help think therapists mental hospitals schizophrenics anyone area probably embarrass extended family anime recounts tale battle mamodo king every years mamado children sent earth fight determine next king original japanese creatures mamono literally means magicevil object mamado paired human partner given magic spellbook human use book unleash incredible powers mamodo mamodo defeated spellbook engulfed flames alternately mamdodos book captured burned directly mamodo returns mamodo worldbr br titular character zatch gash japan year old mamodo electric powers paired kiyomaru takamini year old genius zatch initially reluctant fight learning mamodo evil deciding battle king wrong decided fight become kind kingbr br zatch bell drawn comparison pokemon better comparison digimon digimon mamodo human one one symbiotic relationship unlike pokemon shows actual plotbr br zatch bell features character growth evolving relationships fairly adult story lines love vs racism slavery mind control etc even decent plot twists mysteries dew county mountain dew popular west virginia kentucky umm yeah umm basically everyone probably hates im starting bit suicidal think thats okay cause one miss anyway ahaha yayay come really perky positive outside everyone hates tolerate better leave anyway im really bored lonely anyone hmu lmao sound emo yeehaw everyone thinks trying hard guys asleep yet curious redditors asleep past yall sleep school days anyways hypothetically covid china let spread yes dad winning told dad got awards reddit didnt understand said happy clearly something right got drunk existential crisisi drink times year maybe times night one times drank shots worth vodka settled night sleeping friends house slept couch kept waking various times night point laying dark realized remember anything cried realized existence human construct fact entire completely dismantled beverages proved already depression kept going hoping find meaning know people satisfied living lives without meaning cant nothing matters truly doesnt actually exist see point going anymore cant live knowing everyday empty almost offed yesterday todayits rough trying breathe im mess title super interesting anyone discord server small join want many people talk want socialize dm link u want join seen movie years know much time loved movie great starter chickflick young preteen girls careful ending though tears harsh emotionsbr br looking back perspective much knowledge child psychology politics political correctness think interesting watch pattys uncaring abusive father indifferent mother favored sister contributed toward making vulnerable starving companionship patty sad anton left heartbroken killed rage directed toward afterward shocking years oldbr br thing strongly retained movie taught even enemy soldiers people german soldiers hateful nazis older saw tv shows hogans heroes rat patrol made point regular german soldiers gestapobr br regular soldiers drafted gestapo handpicked among volunteers special attitudes hate believe one privileges nazi special assignments go battle specialties interrogation torturebr br later cold war think russian soldiers remember somgs taught soviet union evil reality russian soldiers destroy america job government probably told government destroy way life way true us fought end communismbr br lesson still applicable today german soldiers nazis muslims al qaeda anyone wan na play games discord crighterminus multiplayer games raft terraria valorant brawlhalla stick fight shellshock live team fortress league legends roblox single player games fallout shelter ftl fastest light games free epic games stuff borderlands presequal ark survival evolved ep enter gungeon gods trigger gta hit man overcooked remnant ashes shadow run hong kong shadow run returns shadow run dragon fall civilization sludge life alto collection wilmots warehouse parents dont let play fortnite cause violent think thats rediculous cause let play games letting ya know thats table dont minecraft might getting parents let send request discord interested youre quick play tonight minutes holding threadim alive know killing hurt people dont think hurt many broken dont want live anymore please help im crying class right feel ill end sfter school please help cant alone anymore worst week far online school started thats kind annoying worst thing suddenly lost ability shit earlier week everything normal suddenly went bathroom nothing happened think time days still able shit took laxatives stuff right school tomorrow cant sleep stomach active volcano received help many appbut follow deciding ramp redflag order build courage end lonely sad know talk want try anymore want die done times seems approaching soon becoming comfortable parting ways shitshow life glad starting let go bittersweet id say thanks wish helpfrom bottom heart wanti simply tired waiting end want dieive pretty much friends im scared mum kick house bi constantly switches mood know think anymore wish change race racist bullies hope go kill time talk friend respond start getting worried depressed im talking watch anime cartoons watch youtube make feel happy eat food help im furry andaz apna apna far second favorite comedy time first namak halal even though technically drama story nothing groundbreaking complications added make awesome aamir khan total cartoon watch expressions song yeh raat aur yeh doori amazingly good comedy never knew salman khan good somewhat dimmer two characters noises makes almost funny aamirs faces raveena karisma serve purpose nothing amazing real pick lot paresh rawal usualbr br plot rather simple amar aamir prem salman useless sons poor fathers believe hard work want rich easy way brains come across idea woo rich mans paresh rawal daughter raveena tandon comes india look husband amar prem meet trip join hands drive hundreds men trying marry girl succeed rid somehow raveenas house amar injured guy prem doctor try oust things complicated raveenas friend karisma kapoor falls prem pursues rich mans evil twin brother rawal tries rid heiress father inherit money sends two trusted bumbling fools dirty workbr br movie want miss watch worth even dvd good movie id recommend gol maal already watched good comedies namak halal hera pheri new dont watch among us musical half live streaming reason poorly made hired bunch youtuber look alikes nothing common apart hair colour gender really want watch youtube value anything knowing take life rn everything nothing matter care life reason bc afraid die lol better nothing always lie go bc feel anything let go awhile ago stopped myselfso fucking stuck surrounded nothing destined literal nothing fucked id easy die whenever think childhood want kill myselfi try think cant comes always still quite often whenever wander trough city whenever working whenever sitting school whenever home always bad sometimes even good memories made friend elementary school come usually horrible memories comes memories father drinking beating mother memories trying force problems memories acting clown school least bit cope sadness despair head now early s personality fully stabilized many ways different used thought memories leave alone least hurt much mistaken know problem mother path father drinking smoking taking pills makes memories come huge scale know good son something wont never good son fine tried spend little time home coming home sleep weekends eat hoping help now know help death even lifestyle take time human body much durable us thought last longer mother want free rightly stoned got nice bong smoked boys feelin pretty nice day asking everyone filler filler filler hehe filler filler filler tried kill didnt work thought sign ive laid offwednesday night failed redflag attempt third life first time id tried years genuinely took sign shit together today found im laid job really think emotional capacity find new one ill move back emotionally abusive mother ill lose health insurance able go therapy anymore wanted rant bit sure ill try kill ill keep trudging unhappily life thoughts breaking news bad mental health depression live thisshe said loved every day year broke contacted months later saying wanted back got rebound relationship took months dump months finally afford visit tells shouldnt come doesnt want relationship anymore booked flight cost spare money set leave monday expects able spend weeks friends happy completely ruined destroyed life fucking well got great job healthy friends go every day feeling worthless nobody wants fuck one live feeling shit happy fucked nothing fuck best situation possibly dream every respect life yet still want die fuck point cat mouse involved usual chases jerry dives bottle invisible ink discovers makes vanish instead seizing opportunity go spy girl mouse changing room something uses newfound invisibility torment tom pretty funny quite inventive despite somewhat onejoke cartoon action never leaves interior house usually trait average tj shorts still worth br br im sure invisible mouse cast shadow wall defies physics nature invisible dont read youre feeling fragile treat addiction self destruction depressionive therapists years ive seeked treatment said wasnt qualified deal specific issues took maternity leave chose stop seeing said mood low many weeks row wouldve suggested switch anyway next week got feeling far often lied actually burrowing deeper depression comments acceptance accept im miserable person extremely difficult life basically especially comments believe god free convince im hopeless gon na god free disproved brief depth see last post free want dont chose want people say things addicts youve got want better reduces simply wanting better wanting feed addiction wanting want sobriety choice level success dependent much want everyone admits one connects dots still try better dont really hope feel self destruct every scenario makes happiness feel impossible anyway seems everybody addiction takes fucked delusional belief god karma something insist thinking positive sake youre choosing thoughts based make feel rather true seems obvious conscious delusion treatment always seems include removing limiting beliefs seems wrong im interested removing false beliefs truth may ill never happy id want thought fester till take appropriate response redflag thing feel therapists tried believe god real reason live dont lie person good life lied think ill probably never better know possible never want achieve lying taking drugs everyday idea taking drugs help see world clearly seems obvious lie therapists seem mirage hope horizon promising gets better wont waiting till im sad enough cave dont think hope anyone hates themself core best case scenario coming s thousands debt nothing show broken body broken mindbought rc benzos try treat redflag made anything better even blacking abusing anything feel shit tired diy hormone treatment couple years ago things felt better stop lose financial support education graduate anyway thoughcant see doctor family care one friend left abandoned abandoned ride die lot shit getting fancy magnet treatment getting better making friends successful actually passionate making music jealous bitch hurts watch talk got nothing left buying meaningless shit failing stupid diy projects pass timewaiting one job application come back shitty night shift grocery store stocking job good interview taking grams etizolam drinking wake uphow fuck end failing college unemployed bought meds thinking using end cheated apart found first time stop crying probably see kid againidk im piece shit part time bull shit job pays enough live ghetto roach infested apartment electricity work right cant fans sweat room ans stick air mattress go work feel outcast awkward function make friends self conscious paranoid always lifes meant people know im big pussy kill wish happen least painful way end iti want pure answers sorrow stories ghosted surprised though met cousin time end iti want end life om years old thank good age die current meits much happened really know start feel now turned days ago friends flew south korea yesterday join reasons huge breakdown last year october sent psychiatry something filled many negative emotions towards guilt grief anger cut contact beloved friends actually planning holiday trip s korea able motivate job earn money trip years now waiting til th month enough money buy new guitar nd collectioni classic one one buy either western electric guitar wan na future friends arrive back germany th feel kinda lonely now used around spent time together makes feel happy time forget actually depressed especially best friends somewhat lives room drives fun together instead driving apartment work happened alot past cried screamed alot edge ending life many times destroyed many things value ruined relationships walked path thought good enough make gave many thingswhich still struggle motivation right now cant even tell ok barely cried breakdowns last months feel sad anymore feel guilty angry think reached point got numb think killing anymore want anymore moments feel relieved happy love anymore rejected fell love cry rejected sit front pc play video games listen music play guitar piano spend time friends someone emotionally unstable always edge really wanted someone love someone lacking emotions actually live happy life real pain anymore want end life think happened good thing apologise english good thank reading sincerely d vy saying hi reminding drink water every day till girlfriend day hi hope well remember drink water stay hydrated hate alli hate people complain lifes cant buy something really expensive others dont even know theyre gon na eat next day theyre gon na eat hate people say depression reality sad moments stupid things boyfriendsgirlriends hate everyone normalized redflag use joke nowadays wan na die girl funny wanting die something joked suicidal waking everyday wishing sun hadnt crept throught window giving anything one day might make happy moment much pain mental stress want escape worst able sucks cant actually kill im cowards problably never kill im coward wish courage escape see point anymorei see point anymore future see anywhere years know anything useful feel unwanted lonely scared reach anyone know struggle selfharm people make fun remember last time happy reason attempted yet im afraid parents knowing im dead thinking fault see way right now introduce one law title says change reason need help months ago girl love left everything slowly deteriorated life pieces nothing keep motivated reason wake morning friends distant return calls messages nobody need im outcast fairly popular person many friends hang school one life beginning feel chore never finish mind constantly drifts thoughts death redflag different occasions ive planned redflag almost carried stopped due fear failure feel invisible almost one even notice committed redflag maybe people finally understand hard see much pain caused theyd beg another chance see chance never willing take around need reason keep going something gets better youll meet new people enough stop want know worth put knife try want hope maybe ill old sleep night kept staring razor bladei couldve killed didnt want pain end hurts cant sleep want wake wish someone end misery guts fuck everyone right nobody deserves tried hundreds days counting maybe force happy never works lost mind want die heart sinking never happy end noone talk redflag ive taken dbtcbt classes yes ive tried grounding techniques frustrated bunch work afford pyscologist big fan stephen kings work film made even greater fan king pet sematary creed family moved new house seem happy pet cemetery behind house creeds new neighbor jud played fred gwyne explains burial ground behind pet cemetery burial ground pure evil jud tells louis creed bury human kind pet burial ground come back life problem come back person theyre evil soon jud explains everything pet sematary everything starts go hell wont explain anymore want give away main parts film acting pet sematary pretty good needed little bit work story one main parts movie mainly original gripping film features lots makeup effects make movie way eerie frightening one basic reasons movie sent chills back fact makeup effects one character film truly freaky character zelda particular character pops film three times precise zelda rachel creeds sister passed away years rachel still haunted first time zelda appears movie generally scary talking anything second time worst honest second time scares living absolutely nothing wrong movie almost perfect pet sematary delivers great scares pretty good acting first rate plot mesmerizing makeup truly one favorite horror films time spoke addiction counsellorshe said abusive household circumstances wont let heal unless change change carers right even wanted covid restrictions let told relapsing seem think less seems though even substance abuse capable making feel better temporarily said shed speak psychiatrist getting mood stabilizers im persuaded change things ill ask rehab center supposed back week even knowing see little hope future empty now harm today time soon im afraid think sorta stopped caring whether live die lost sure proceedi m nearly shot three times past month nearly front friends long story involves complicated family social life recently suffered concussion friend hit head day receiving hit lost control emotions real fake amazing gf willing anything help love desire thats lived years never go away love close friend well call x x close friend knows feelings recently admitted feeling afraid rejection pain never dated think anything good happen relationship constricting love gf dearly loves dream girl day admitting everything burned said want anything x whenever gets scared family help neither friends closely knitted want hurt social circle told gf everything happened forgiven feel worth love hate x shit pulls hate able count family hate suicidal age long story sure place next foot death seeming sweet oblivion final note x said shed help issues instantly burnt afterwards gf long distance girl left guy used hang cant take reason end nowi understandive darkest times gave reason live suddenly im diagnosed depression put zoloft cant handle anymore ive already written note plan feb th know anymore perseverance landed mars pog thanks everythinghes gone guess take hint write anything last two nights hes working always want go long break process die single handedly take care well time suprised even lasted long honestly much prefer died th birthday seen coming fault planning things enough end february th day shared first intimacy think good day general leave ring table wear best dress put make take final step life feeling pretty relieved ive arranged date even thought dress still sure place somewhere see sea one last time anybody reading think someone rage quitted game think post see news poor rd world country girl taking life think least completly happy first time life fun time hanging around guys good people thank waste chance give stronger sorry one many flaws thats guess say see side say goodbye friends guys want ask girl asked girl facetime said yes pretty happy scared anyone facetimed girl give tips much love bruh yall dudes need help every time even turn face one guy eyes meet always staring mean hes feeling displaced rn everything everyone feels fake nothing feels right gave film reserving eg amadeus slumdog millionaire recently film close slumdog difficult judge film without understanding balkan life mentality soul kusturica presents masterfully understand really need one balkan amazing movie much better contemporary previous films boring time think kusturica moving forward movie humour balkan humour photography art scene artistic limit plot probably fairy tale recall now remember reading daughtergoingto sleep similar story im secretly love girl friend wants kill herselfmy girl friend say something wants die almost every single day suffered fro depression severe anxiety frequent panic attacks lately getting lot worse im worried day shell actually every time hint speak therapist loses ive always taught someone say theyre going kill help im afraid help itll ruin relationship im terrified im going lose best friend think theres anything devil dog hound hell really good film good acting cast including richard crenna rg armstrongthe music spooky gives devilish chilli liked effects dog think creature looked really cool hornsfrill part neck acted really viscousif horror films seen devil dog hound hell able find buy rare film good movie think disappointed made subreddit everyone moderator full power comment added rinfinitemoderators end inviting people make sure give full permissions political think spiders way sexier anxiety worldcrumbling feelingive full anxiety last days contemplating last couple years life might bit lengthy apologize well disjointedness im yearold guy issues related posting one fact live home fouryear relationship college lived dorm first year lived girlfriends parents house another mom one drunk episodes threatened violence decided best move traveled four hours moms house lived basement two years bit month ago broke point im manchild ambitions energy want produce music example know im capable degree equipment expensive im afraid failure im trying find apartment currently im scared major life change ive souldraining cube job year half pays well easy enough think messed brain little bit first couple weeks college four years ago lots alcohol weed always garnered borderline psychotic episodes ive thirdperson mode downer im always detached degree white film covers vision wikipedia calls derealization depersonalization course recent major event breakup girlfriend lots communication problems things built time got tired ins outs life thought maybe theres someone better someone accepting introverted nature introversion annoyed came energy job hate regressing computer time numb mind brought doubts relationship lot happened quickly gone next night picked stuff within three days wreck night got text saying wanted talk despite much emotional one relationship acted respectful thoughtful long talk decided weekly chats check maybe year two assuming available try another relationship meantime lots honesty save chats complete separation strive independence something neither us really considering school parents started okcupid profile time move leg rest life alright ive talking people somewhat met someone drunk fun time kissed end bubbly feelings around nowex lets call chat saturday still really care check facebook masochistically want head im curious fucking creepy weird cant help ask dates time okcupid knowing shed made one dates ask main one attractive says yes lot jarring couple reasons one always told attractive person knew meant sincerely type mates become whole world obviously devastated night broke saying hated im bad previous fucked relationships one reasons broke discussing polyamory long adamantly testing waters seeing guys attractive totally ready feel compersion cant now always correct people say jealousy envy fear loss first time ive felt horrible lot regret questioning badly fucked swirling around head one facebook posts last night great date definitely seconddate material fear never loved know one ridiculoussounding things whine pretty pathetic realize whole time heal im averagelooking guy okc obviously great place people keep comparing easy dates example taking antidepressants almost emotionless feeling year two even interested anymore realizing im sack shit ive always without blinds limerence comfortable familiarity histocompatibility anyway thats im now im big clusterfuck stupid emotions detachment afraid change afraid alone read time life find recluse stop making friends im already introverted im afraid anxiety ive plagued becoming unending source isolated agony im unhappy whats worse im rationally hedonist atheist believe afterlife im apathetic detached im hedonist without happiness im sort shell without purpose right stop existing die logically yeah think eventually ill move wants date someone unsure mediocre baggage promises back ex year ill live shitty apartment eating shitty food cant cook even less time creative pursuits ill take care people say youre special think loved ones mourn threads ive told specialness countless times grade school generally think people suck family friends mourn deal anything theyd im sure im posting guess wow alot reviews devils experiment wonderful name steve run unearthed films started releasing guinea pig films dvd north america ask writing review instead ask people bash im writing review love guinea pig films love em go throat let go ive seen almost every horror film known man argento fulci bava buttgereit every underground cult sensation every hollywood blockbuster ive seen films stuck head years definitely guinea pig films try hide reason watch horror movies st place review devils experiment find devoid story fine watch horror films see blood gore torture people devils experiment delivers thats pure unadulterated violence yeah story sometimes want gore devils experiment delivers ten fold people bash cause story torture death person hidden behind story make em feel better want blood gore really hard justify wrapped around story guinea pig films historical meaning created definitive splash whenever releasedbr br im thrilled able release one famous horror series world maybe written review maybe view biased cause releasing ive always told people find watch way started unearthed films sure exploitive top watch horror films st place devils experiment everybody thrill seekers gorehounds think jason movies freddy krueger movies awesome stick next level seen devils experiment reason released years wrong disgusting right freaky something watch mom unless totally cool good luck enjoy never stop living life young homeless felon ready dieim x felon homeless time crime petty larceny burglary etc hate everyday caught hurt innocent people didnt deserve point havent much ticket released years ago ive homeless incredibly debt try applying even minimum wage crappy jobs nobody wants hire felon ive tried general labor gigs construction every single job turned nightmare believe guys handy one society makes nearly impossible felons nobody believes second chances wonder many repeat offenders friends family money car home job resources never owned license sick tired people saying itll better years ive done everything possibly lead back im sick tired people always looking im scum earth purpose life loser fuck honestly desire live anymore ive already made plans end getting things chest want die cant push itone step towards edge id gone cant take last step dont google scientific name pig dont google dont google ot want break free want break free guys send horny jail pls dont want horny anymore want happy told girl acting lot different usual isnt texting much making jokes liking gentle touch keys vibrations strings conveying words tears forming first time long time music carrying hands movement man becoming instrument music plays one hears want hear im better dead alivelets face im another autistic nut job living horrible life whole life ive bullied pushed aside people tell truly understood felt maybe take back supposed know want sit trying commit redflag maybe send sign hope truly care sexual orientation induced homelessness money depressed etcso got kicked parents house multitude reasons physical abuse emotional abuse tried killing twice wellestablished plan making sure work third time alas graduated highschool parents suggested stay back year university earn money accepted three top universities applied took online course father routinely disconnect internet scream mother hit occasion top great stuff kind troubling realization im gay fucking wonderful ive pretty much contemplating redflag daily cutting arms dangerously close wrists etc im crazy well ive staying boyfriend past months standstill tapered entirely cymbalta causing horrendously suicidal afford vyvanse due total lack money lost wallet id ridiculously skinny know one city im taking fifty mg tramadol good way anyone suggest alternative redflag david zucker directed one enjoyable comedies year goofy farce yes matter acquired taste depends upon wealth sophomoric gags consistently funny throughout unlike recent comedic efforts film loaded kinds jokes ranging blatantly obvious subtler kind must pay attention everything frame likely miss previous efforts include airplane top secret naked gun humor flies almost every second many moments work easy overlook fall flat sets movie apart pale imitations spoof genre actual story line others depended upon making fun many famous scenes almost random movies take mafia please film tells new story likable characters touches upon sports films general well satirizing real sports industry instead lampooning specific movies even people care south park creators matt stone trey parker make good pair leading actors natural chemistry film makes extremely effective use cameos athletes sports announcers celebrities especially hilarious bit robert stack unsolved mysteries way stay credits final joke bob costas al michaels zucker achieved words perhaps applying movies mix sports home dunk feel stucki never thought id one consider ending life pmdd honestly think bipolar bpd good days suddenly want kill feel empty living w parents cant talk bc literally tell feel dont go mass anymore frustrated w feeling rejected im catholic love boyfriend feel havent ended stuff im dating need vent dont know suicidal thoughts randomly day fine alright ill stop making political shitpost liberal sub debates economics class system debate im looking ill leave night always say let dogs never let dogs know elements order friend challenged science day week see elements memorize kept going stopped days elements known order know die taking lots metformin tabletstheres many paracetamol ibuprofen tablets loads metformin tablets dad used take take anymore want die im depressed bad person im really useless boring cant make anybody happy want chatdoes anybody want talk feel lonely despite around people ive feeling angry lately friends really wish drop dead goosebumps cause already know song want funeral song knowhttpsyoutubelbrjzsa results go days without wish luck something idk mom told favorite child im child dont talk topped school feel loser im feel wasted highschool years studying gaming pc randomly surfing web even remember much high school years made little friends past years still cant talk girls increasingly low self esteem got really good marks got best college city feeling piece shit looking back time wasted anyone advise deal thanks name dumfuk please want name dumfuk friend said donald trump better name argued said fine donaldfuk ur name yall think spread mom new years httpimgurcomamnbjfw yah lot actually got food took picture good times ive felt dead longer ive felt alivei never happy kid painfully vivid memories raped young kid memories head slammed wall floor even distinct memory concussion one time slammed hard ground head ended bouncing hitting metal support bed day im scared men man imy first attempt kill around time failed inexperienced kid second time tried kill around time caught complete mental breakdown mom stay local mental hospital days try help opened nice lady help rationalize fear hospitals feeling broken tool ready thrown away butthats gave trying things general stopped trying school beyond minimum effort required pass stopped really associating friends school everything painfully mediocre years around time parents finally let liberties complaining years never hung friends let first place helped one school friends become one best friends able hang outside school talk demons dare share school grounds made us feel sense solidarity one another met girl ex one friends kept trying push us together put black people crushed heart bit sort gave pursuing focused friend instead always use somehow ended falling anyways one friends tell went asked birthday party two us standing outside moonlight together sounds happy right thought well months passed found cheating another dude blamed entire thing deserve loved ended attempt number three point best friend rely pull back life went blissfully uneventful around time id grown entirely discontent monotony life hated every second planned kill halloween days banking hope people assume im decoration sort really care late instead ended hitting really great girl distracted demons attempt number four two years later clusterfuck emotions turmoil cant help wonder survived really close family started die godmother loved people died really young cancer ruined thought one role models ended taking life noticeable struggle mental health better part year physical health started take dive deep end ive got crohns days struggle able bed pain sometimes much struggle even eat know stomach throw entire fit combine constant stream migraines headaches ended spending nearly every day excruciating pain people told help time wanted afford insurance aging moms working minimum wage job schedule part time premiums always around month got denied reductions assistance forced choose eating place sleep able fix body theni ended getting rape accusation levied mind person claims time allegedly went placeand someone always hated physical contact full trauma one believed aside crazy aunt made remember memories happened memories long tried lock away broke made hateful distrustful already ended affecting performance work oftentimes depressive instead usual fake cheery self physically energy keep act anymore people company conspired fired worked jobless insuranceless painfilled girl hit halloween decided right got fired want deal depression anymore dumped shattered whole world served light hope yearsmade feel sense happiness belonging felt dead unwanted reached redflag prevention hotline three separate occasions make feel better moment long run point best friend grown apart lot found another group friends vibes theyre recreational drug use stay sober idea might affect already fractured psyche december st attempt number spent days darkness tears wishing release physical pain mental anguish left house run away somewhere kill cousin caught wind plan waiting outside stop forced talk parents bothering year old black man broke pile tears floor explained want die even happen day end happening point days laterand sentiment gotten stronger know exactly know make year hope ill finally free lifetime pain another option redflag welcome point feel ive exhausted every option gain thank hearing guys recent mens body standards made many people including drop body weight unhealthy standards every day ive seen posts social media talking girls malnourished skater boys im wasnt happy tried please others fitting standard pushed extremely hard boys went ily lt youre perfect guys kazoo kid liked tweet im happy highlight week cant post photo rules trust one feeling great yr old personmy dad dead mom recently disabled raped two years ago broke cervix thats enough evidence despite raping another girl lot joint pain neck shoulders havent slept four days wo help alcohol jolt arms hurt go numb clench teeth tried go w coworker saw summer ex bf w new girl owns bar make week hrshe kept dancing around heads w baby see bro feel depressed worthless days holidays especially rough called last week stomach nauseous problems wailing crying dad night w nightmares finally close eyes tip keeps night even close hell ive endure people good luck bad thats tell im safe today self preservation kicks plan please dont ask ill make one dr give xannax dont become addicted idk anyone needs point people need one horrors ive listed used look forward future try push forward see make happy happen life balance bad point see much future im best better want disappeari cant understand nothing good life hate self im pussy cant even man take life dont want world nothing hey yes one reading well let tell something need know scroll please know know im stranger internet guarantee need hear dark place alone yknow feeling suicidal please dont think matter even know still think matter best stranger ive met something real quick quick promise drink water wait wipe water lips yet look see shine see twinkle glimmer even tiniest bit light shine want take life think something billion people earth someone think perfect love much imagine much hurt left even seems unlikely assure someone love keep fighting win matter hard fight storm see rainbow remember okay good love stay safe handsomebeautiful hmm ternion powerful know late party today noticed award called ternion powerful cost fucking shmackeroons one gather enough money start thinking giving dollar award reasonable weirdest thing someone reddit think implementing good idea props anyone gave guys think dont understand people keep saying idk trying make new friends im constantly asking hangout everyone keep saying idk know dog upset tried doi attempted redflag last night werent dog dont know wouldve happened saved life pretty dont know exactly happened know stayed woke started breathing properly soon got left always sleeps side happened went far away possible even morning shes acting weird shes normally happy wake cause knows full day fun together today doesnt care offend wanted leave think dont love anymore hate blacki hate black im trolling either feel trapped life theres way escape see black slavery pictures black slaves holding monkeys blacks chains whipped made sick im part race disgusts even without white supremacy existing id still ashamed sick belong black race even think black americans proud descended treachery makes sick blacks act animals personally sincerely hate race history culture today id rather race black victimize sickens women shake butts sickens uncivilized sickens christs sake even american indians owned slaves truly accept im fucked feel time call quits life hope fucking proud everyone tries white blame angzrs point want cry life nothing fucking joke huge gigantic comedy cant express hatred family cause make feel bad fucking race black proud quit fucking complaining easy blacks though id rather gone trail tears native american black id happy white slave middle east black theres nothing except little white large percentage native american fucked see people kill life shitty cant even express feel topic hate black rather born skin fucking flesh skin bleaching cause make white latino straighten hair cause ill still seen black honestly feel genetically alteration people ill call quits life want hold faith humanity im beginning doubt ill chance change ethnicity plastic surgery still change ugh tell feel different life honestly cant escape ethnicity death supremacists good job responsible man tip point ending life im sure care blacks thanks giving shitty history ashamed sickened people may forget hopefully god give miracle turn white doubt life big game fucking comedy show join highrise adhoracy please dm youre interested based quarantine boredom reborn epanasta cafe highrise adhocracy based cyberpunk dystopia aesthetic many mantras server purely aesthetic need somewhere relax drink lonely want rise aristocracy fear come take sip highrise adhocracy well rise offer tons fun channels explore including selfroles lgbtq friendly friendly welcoming community games challenges systemplural friendly limits anyone banned sanctuary still new may quiet first looking active members please bear us thank reading end description fantastic day may rise tryive trying save go travel different countries dream mine im sat wanting die badly ive got plan want go idk try stay alive miserable life panic attacks bad urges strong cant stand body confidence completely window hide pretty much every day avoid talking things judgement give time die answer honestly still single youre single btw anything change scenario admit inpatientlong story short ive losing hope ive suicidal thoughts money traumatic surgery year ago know went inpatient medical debt go time goes think shooting head guns around think id balls thing keeping family fianc suggestions hi guys yall middle high school track team events yall love longdistance yall running apparently cant shit school went toilet civics took mins almost got suspended cause thought im sleeping lmao told made shit asked ok another thing math quiz equations looked shit oh fuck understand literally weeks finaly realized shit tonight supposed night still debatingi everything ready need go backyard pull trigger really solves every single problem im fat lazy hate working every job fine first always hate dreading every second every morning cant imagine work everyday till retirement age thats even thing future people love jobs even mind working told people feel people go crazy nothing love point people finally see literally worthless society things better parasite feeding government parasite feeding parents years parents probably reason gone tonight extremely loving wonderful parents done nothing support repeatedly fail pay pretty much everything life never complain hurt much killed one reason plan backyard tank property value much getting long pretty much im lazy fat loser pretty much squandered every opportunity given weird attractive successful dating game tinder bumble hinge okcupid joined dating site years never date even let alone actual match matches girls plugging fans escorts point redflag taboo clear compatible life defective product defective products sent back exchanged happen soon urge go back finish strong cant stop thinking parents heres last words ill dead good half hour lot people gon na wonder im gon na tell save confusion theres number reasons im honest ill go one one lets start fact im incredibly lonely man ive never girlfriend never will ha im fairly unattractive mention repulsive personality surprise shouldve done sooner im incredibly fake person lie everyone know sense word general personality little things liking football reason feel bit waste keep around another friends theyre great funny cool ill never successful life problem made actually today friend actually called lazy wanting go together kind lazy im depressed thats reason time dog sick didnt want leave alone long im sure nan willing look days parents back holiday much gon na lost die one relied needed fairly trivial person im hoping death proper meaning people take lesson sort dunno lesson im sure someone come something love mum love lee nan grandad charlie adam even pip despite reason think depression finally outweighed love leave money buying dogs cool shit im hiding eating disorder boyfriendi made account boyfriend knows personal one anyways im years old ive issues body suicidal felt control whats going life time chose control anything body fast metabolism already eat usually ate sometimes throw food always count eat example im eating pizza count many olives corns slice pizza eat take forever eating never eat front people find weirdest excuses eat boyfriend person knows eating disorder stopped smoking hopes stop purging hes happy clean bad habits april truth still suffering ed im afraid telling truth know tell hell start smoking fault know cant rid ed easily thank whoever replies best furry friendi think life light mothers life moved dad mom passed cat rescued healed best friend love life passed suddenly morning years old diagnosis life cant life without subhuman trashi ugly piece shit exterminated immediately useless human deserve nothing bullet head start physically harming soon prepare death wwhy people mean youre sensitive shut fatty n stuff dont people people rude mean dont understand im crying sick wan na relax yet people mean existing waiting death happen du much disabilities issues really take anymore extremely boring anything life due illnessesi hope make years existing boring cope fach exist waiting death happen ran away home right dont know domy mother abusive stayed father parents little give space started yelling tonight kept hounding asking im sad wrong enough walked half hours house im holed kohls bathroom theyve calling texting lot answer theyre going scream force home probably hospitalize edit say give space mean dad mostly doesnt listen say need alone blocks door corners refuses listen try tell stuff things hes helping makes worse sees im getting better starts yelling asking never talk wont tell anything ive tried calling sister multiple times said shed help need isnt answering walking back mothers take probably midnight past adjacent town dont know id make walk anyways want give wish never second child wish theyd let talk instead screaming every time something dont cant control anger always leave message ill reply wake day goodnight little boys girls everything piece shit stole bike live suburbs area barely crime riding bikes friends normally decided stop take break mcdonalds go inside left bikes bike rack mins yes masks walk two bikes left rack instead im pissed bike main form transportation parents work lot hang people mainly around bike worst part bike paid half gone even months got back september christmas right around corner ig thats good thing never anything anyone dont beef anyone least think anything deserve oh well karmas gon na teacher set us test open assignment question day today shes hyping test saying got ta study lmao apparently actually gon na give us test ok last day term really think deserve iti really feel terrible person think terrible people teenager sliced wrists hell stitches er multiple times hazard growing hawthorne heights guess amirite lulz course im right despite knowing im terrible individual worthy life motherfucker going try rationalize continue living guess want know life precious makes precious someone fucking talk fucking talk one day one day someone dig phones years actual heck people wouldnt able explain anything camera roll im india ask ting yh cus im bored feel free dm bobs vegana im tiredits little ive felt bad thought getting better think ive lying skin feels tight everything inside trying push throat anyone city cares whether im alive morning miss parents miss home cant go home im useless im nothing ive always invisible one misses invisible wish good something wish feel anything drowning wonder long roommates found dead theyd probably happy im burden make sure know think im ready finally end stop clock finally rest cuttingi havent cut november well tonight emotional winded trying cut didnt even break skin close friend considering redflag id love advicedepression often make people feel absolutely nothing works whats happening friend scary scared know anymore yesterday texted crisis heartbreaking told thinks unloved person failure really see future considering ending life understand needs therapy access therapy enough either needs support people close idea cant tell everything going okay really cant im going exact thing girl heartbreaking different perspective life truly see amazing person really deserves live hellish rollercoasterlike life living point recommended hotlines call text free let know something comforted moment crisis thank much reading endi keep hitting different things seems getting worse decide random trivial occurrences great opportunities hurt phone call im something ill start punching im terrible school might fail senior year even enrolled school anymore im home want yell fuck loud disappear one friend probably hates teacher comes test finals tonight fucking phone freaking right making mad cant even type suicidal sub reddit without getting pissed started coming antidepressant long ago caused rage depression insomnia hellish things wan na fucking jump roof die painlessly fuck going burn alive hurts ive heardi dont want fucking body dont want fucking transition female wish born female wasnt dont want fucking freak dont want struggle fight fake thing want die tired social anxiety tired everyone treating fucking creep social anxiety im tired everyone online telling im tired family telling im tired homophobic transphobic conservative christian family tired everything want burn alive want feel much pain possible want disgusting body destroyed thrown trash tired matter stuck rest life suicidal thoughts overwhelming im accepting themi feel getting closer closer point ill try kill im happy thats goal life ive failed achieve goals killing goal might today tomorrow even week ill eventually hate alive fucking hate want alive anymore whats point alive never person want whats point alive stuck body hate way change whats point alive cant anything love forced things hate every single day escape hell whats point living alone feel outcast society ive lived life motto best good enough im best im even average im average cant live anymore already got plan ill feel last straw know relief feeling alive feelsorry redflag note sub rules actually advocating redflag wish became child actor swear god child actor becomes hot later life mean think show movie childhood child actors times hot care less acting hate meant look bean acne id happy college student struggling depression highschool tried calling helplines talking friends family seem work include suicide note go hope give closure close thank include suicide note please feel free dm british scottish british people nothing nothingmy husband last night drinking three months years problem drinking excuses maxing card card spending every dime including change penny jar getting deposits back beer store always last night worst right weeks ive worked overtime shifts pmmidnight pay bills literally sleep nonconsecutive hours night im teacher work rd medical leave aka hungover two days running drinking every day fast next weeks actually ok ive done weeks necessary food hes skinny cant skip meals im fucking fatass probably partly man wanted useless horrible drunk friends homes families hes alienated everyone longer speak anyone family one nightmarish drunken episode another friends become drunk first cope keep every drop spend evenings hiding booze hiding cards hiding keys drinks head bobs around stumbles breaks things denies hes drunk never gone university never left shithole town married best farmer shut fucking mouth hate life hate every day wake hate already ive cut arms open never deep enough hung privately enough ive overdosed barfed thing keeping alive knowing take proper care dog man want die badi nothing lost job im broke food nothing im sick poor sad time im done man young die question feel broken know take anymoreive one failed attempt months ago parents even know felt years gotten close unbearable past weeks ive always two best friends reason lately theyve even getting annoyed bullshit im ftm transgender person dysphoria completely destroying past couple months especially seeing family lot holidays feel im trapped able escape running air want able take deep breath first time life thought able one day transition live normal life something thats always gotten tough times lately thought worth getting days absorbed suffocating feeling similar topic im called preferred name pronouns school extremely transphobichomophobic parents know anything trans art teacher called came trying beginning end way seeing caused spiral fit feeling though purpose worth human people think situation lasted week month greatly affected even today every time phone rings panic thought call outs really want say fuck jonathan schnieder know sounds teenage drama things friend said made upset wouldve imagined longs story short crush one friends school got talking crushes class told liked never answered waiting say anything talking best friend random things conversation ended telling lot time im much although told people think things still negatively affected thought wouldve even care things said much thought even want friend even though weve really close nd grade know im nothing annoying people thought mad absolutely destroys know sounds completely obsolete today really shitty went home tried listen music favorite bands always able start digging mood today sound became annoying nothing giving idea listening music tried watch favorite musical dear evan hansen fitting right even seemed fruitless pointless overall theres nothing think state depression im sorry post made seem im dramatic needed place vent actually read thank even caring enough cant past redflag guiltmy best friend took life feel enough help feel partly responsible redflag cant past cant sleep well cant eat welli feel completely dead inside feel deserve longer second time month screwed landlordim house hunting im disabled find place fucking life couple weeks ago see place say ill take dude never contacts despite contacting hour ago spent half hours bus go see place see say ill take landlord awesome leave got phone call way back hey really sorry got bad news person living husband came home wants roommates country sorry cant move cant keep shit little week find place end homeless im falling apart fucking seams cant keep every day something new believe landlord instant think gay tone sure changed found im sitting bus crying general fucking wreck want home want somewhere go sleep thats hard makes infuriating kept asking questions im disability disability ended detailing ptsd got satisfy fucking went nothing whole life tons effort zero pay want stop fucking carrying worrying want break want couple days im worried fucking life ok found kind music hows music taste httpslinktospotifycomylkzeapsab jdjsjssjskg hsiswhuf ebdjdhha f fidia du ive interested music awhile made song first time ive done song everyone record edit entirely phone please give feed back maybe subscribe httpsyoutubehqgavruv need chesthey guys im sure belongs long remember never felt particularly strongly anyone either positive negative way felt anything story super sad nearly tragic stories ive read big im sick pretend every day care people surround granted hate people feelings tough cant laugh good time high school socially excluded thats something want happen become apparent im different im sure im asking guess know anyone people first weeks high school fucking sucked knew public transit hot cramped anxietyinducing painful seat stand hour ride hs house classes long af im falling behind assignments making friends carry around pound backpack day im allowed locker covid lockers bad idea opening schools apparently hey decided end life gun money buy one curious anyone knowledge turning car closed garage achieve cm poison actually work live girlfriend want find save take along time sit car fall asleep type sleep medicine carbon monoxide poison america know dner kebab cause thats really sad hit goal something followers guys ready face reveal dellemmai want kill right now anything world got future suffering worse obstacles though die whoever finds scarred life really want happen know anyone really miss close people person truly miss mom motherly love world better without though even missed might cause problems brain damage vegetablization though preferred method hanging minimizes risk stay living risk hurt people death increases grow everyone kill missed honestly wish never existed well answer anyway suffer cause anyone suffer exist joy suffering ratio go world wish martyr really something least killed accidentally instead lot better theres fact got balls let die want die anything want dead cant know much longer lastim full time college student college try keep appearances act normal happy person reality lie im constantly depressed feel lonely live home often jokingly tell mother im going kill gauge reaction tell joke im sure anymore reason think killed yet mother know sister says im pushover let everyone walk truth sister likes take advantage character flaw constantly fucks fear repercussion acts loves makes sick furious feel im outside observer watching life go theres point living im going die line often think waiting die way skip waiting part go directly death pathetic life daily think least painful way kill friends mother probably care greedy sister show pretend care hoping shit stop mean meyou guys keep mean confess mean thats insecure guys one extra reason redflag probably kill near future without bring subject psychologistwhy simply minor government least state requires psychologist break confidentiality minor risk abuse self harm thinking aboutharming others able turn anyone confidence likely die without attempting seek help despite available funny governments attempt help contributing factor never able use service potentially saved well life gives lemons vine remix httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvivaktttsihttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvivaktttsi awkward lol offered hug everyday monday monday excuse social distancing tuesday im studying need focus wednesday awkwardly stood hug back secretly really hugs im awkward ig im scared death want diethe girl loved boyfriend today feel trapped angry want die thinking killing straight consecutive days nightsive mentally ill way young girl ive feeling empty want end pain always keep smilling behind agonizing pain inside wont stop ive feeling depressed long time failed relationships family failed grades school think good enough say life beautiful people us different page ive keeping redflag thoughts people makes feel im alone whenever ill tell depressed wont believe listen either im searching painless way die im alive outside im already dead inside anyone loved one depressed make feel special loved depression kills need guidanceso started lithium thursday helped still want kill bad normal coping loss entire family feel nothing nothing live either sign suicidal idealization risk itim mostly level stress trauma makes nonfunctional one bizarre life circumstances several people family egotistical sociopathic possibly psychopathic drunks mother maybe cousins heavy drinkers met demise drunk driving family members vehicle separate occasions incidents far apart months find want around people much feel sad either normal feel much still grieving way lost entire family losing realize abusive fact something wrong reaction despite dealing ptsd point sometimes living relatives anymore im basically orphan think know grieve feel nothing proper grieve dealing trauma triggers better living ways avoid fairly isolated ladies gentlemen going outside wish luck frequently ghost friends come back nowhere different right now want ghost never keep touch think depression social redflag although never tell diagnosed feel burden better without group feel always bother always act weird feel fake person lifeless pretend every time okay wrong toxic really best friends one ask feel deserve someone everyday find buried deeper deeper isolation push everyone away know help depression becoming worse everyday mind always filled suicidal thoughts want exist anymore want ghost friends never show tell guy whos asking help math hw wrong answers cuz haha funny mean people c want mental help cant afford point want help someone something cant receive im poor parents part problem cant help ask literally anything day hello need help confronting parents bout something family religiousreligious forced ive drifted away issue know tell follow god friend thing mother started mean parents likely acknowledge kick outta house theyre pretty ok anything long im religious nobody understands chronic pain depressionthe pain getting worse worse hurts open mouth hurts talk face hurts surgery ive eating unhealthy lately acne left cheek fucking hurts period came today unbearable doctors dont know wont prescribe painkillers otc pills dont work im trapped life deserve live much pain want continue living want travel want go restaurants want fucking explore world im much pain dont know much longer stay alive dont choice ator series shining example bmovies fail every aspect hilarious way funny rather sad ator linvincibile aka blade master aka cave dwellers shows us europes favorite conan clone ator left first movie showing us lengthy recap events first film time world must saved nucleus kind bomb represented screen bright light guess afford prop one features invisible attackers samurai first film lots stock footage used including one rather obvious bit star wars thoroughly laughable unforgettably bad exception bmovie want soggy dq fries im days sh free sitting staring arm thinking tomorrow ill week clean thought dq fries want now christmas kinda someone maybe slide dq gift card id trade mcdonalds gift card s think imma try quit cutting entirely ill able wear tshirts atm three cuts healed turn scars ill wait em fade quit cutting different note want short shorts skirt want body waxed hairy legs cross dressing looks fun honestly id cute femboy ive thinking lot body oh well extra nuggies random mf working mcdonalds put extra nugget nugget meal fucking legend made day shit someone help metoday girlfriend broke already thought wasnt much point life seems point anyone got ideas make bad give suggestions make end bad way want exist earth anymore afraid kill reasons want failed suicide likely think need elaborate obvious reasons probably kill parents grandmother sister passed away couple years ago already want leave dog someone judge mei know people say afraid commit suicide actually want live true want actually kill much rather freak accident occur takes life persons fault wrong ie never jump front traintruck never want traumatize person driving anything drunk driver deserve make sense anyone feel strange time thoughts want live afraid kill god gave everythingmy aunt doesnt believe depression diagnosis thinks didnt bad life shes depressed need toughen strangely enough dad brother virtually symptoms actions couldnt obvious genetic thing blessed without predisposition depressionsuicidal thoughts best friend diagnosed depression possible bipolar disorder im entirely sure fuckton family support hell even aunt im happy shes fine tell im always happy help live whole life jealous younger best friend gifted looks social department adding family support long list things shes better stings bad boyfriend amazing ive never someone awesome see loving accepting family accepted asbergers diagnosis talk respect overall great people around wish dont believe hes depressed generalized anxiety regardless hes confident almost intimidating honestly feel bad im trainwreck doesnt deserve cant help feel irreversibly crazy alone ive trapped room last four hours knowing im anxious depressed nowhere turn uncle home dont even know knows im home least dishes though bored ask stuff m great day great day great day caught movie tv watched said long time watched movie movie thrilled easy watchable human know people dislike br br john travolta shines michael dance every move angel hardly related word smokes drinks eats savage hes got big heart way michael helps people meets dorothy winters andie macdowell singing finding right man frank quinlan william hurt developing good decent man michael even helped dear old pansy milbank jean stapleton last scene beautiful dance streetbr br travolta great help actors andie macdowell beautiful likable william hurt great usual late robert pastorelli shows talent jean stapleton teri garr good favorite supporting actor movie bob hoskins tabloid ownerbr br weve got solid movie people warm story attractive cast take movie seriously guarantee fun juice wrld playing guys sad uh huh im depressed help rip juice x arabian nights film plays storytelling conventions order make us feel theres plot plot plot opens appears frame device blind man telling story life plunges flashback takes us right blind mans present discover half story yet come must admitted second half quite live promise first arabian nights tries cram many middleeastern folk motiffs possible one work freed genie beautiful princess flying carpet fantastic mechanical toys sea voyages crowded marketplace wicked vizier jewels know works everything beautiful sets beautiful june duprez beautiful rozsas score especially beautiful usual sounds hungarian somehow manages convince us hes hungarian persian way send help im bio rn im boooored reviewing past material getting really boring send help knew good truehe found someone ghosted find much prettier one making finally start feel pretty want overive dealt depression years im s close ending twice move forward drink alcohol cope keep moving forward still drinking finally find cause depression fades come terms transgender suppress transition support wifes health recovery alcohol comes back along depression dysphoria kicking ass know want rant safe space rant transgender sub ill trigger others want thats cant let look mirror hate person see know always want tear im tired struggle im tired people belittling supporting caring details im tired explanations im sick tired fucking drinking need anymore im close getting past bs stop fucking drinking tonight night want need alcoholism one drink halloween need alcohol goes away guilt depression needs life alcohol im starting think im stupid one idk everyone reddit doesnt sarcasm either im stupid reddit im pretty sure wan na go little road trip wildfires arebring rope lost somewhere found made post yesterday useless already admitted friends always alone parents forever future alone rest life even fun playing videogames anymore thing liked much coward kill keep suffering life die natural causesi tired everything piece trash one wants always fuck everything lose friends notredflag time make even girl cheated shitty person give enough attention stand anymore want everything end tired life movie takes voice terror makes better holmes protecting inventor switzerland trail professor moriarity become nazi better version holmes wwii world rathbone great job holmes spy detective see liked voice terror im lonely much im lonely depressed know usual feel good story something feel happy bought monitor back used later got different monitor packed one time flies put monitor sale someone name gary finds asks negotiation nothing regular price meet give monitor cash gary young extremely polite man private us air force thats told polite respectful blew away usually people super disrespectful annoying even funny took monitor took money left reason felt didnt something right something inside told give money back let keep monitor free called around minutes left come back meet proceeded give money asked sat didnt know something clawing give back told money thanks serving country soon said turned tears beautiful turns comeback tour middle east setting new apartment overcome joy amazing see left still see gary massive smile across face felt done something wonderful yet still didnt know drove give gary love man serve thank service ps grammar gon na garbage finished word essay im done english using pills something permanenti olanzapine mg tablets im supposed obviously wont kill hopefully itll knock train tracks morning cant anymore parents understand want vert rich later iknow worth talking millions billions billionaire buy everything available earth ur playing life creative mode prob wont billionaire lowest goal mill net worth one day im triedi dont know wjat say dont want die dont want live anymore im done know know im even feel done trying anymore need put effort something seems change fucked carring decade ago decisions still affect big part hopes end homeless soon feel lowest point maybe finally actually plan going kill plan driving car cornfields middle winter next couple months sitting bottle alcohol maybe watch youtube phone listen radio something cold pass die ok fuck actually lives alaska im serious everyone policy mine one weird thing holding back guilt know really care emotions turn back need laugh throw struggles face manage pull dark place enjoy something even know worried guess feel empathy know feels anyone care whatever really anything left tried hobbies making friends patience energy maintain feel connected people whatever people life definitely least favorite least liked hate school hate program longer find joy little things music food tried therapy multiple therapists either expensive good tried joint program feel id around caring people feel community someone sees world similarly backfired nothing keeping anymore going go read finish policy start planning family taking life insurance policy least leave something check spotify playlist share opinions playlist posting song lyrics forget crab rave intro click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack buildup click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack drop click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack bridge click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack buildup click clack clickclick clack click 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occasional weekends repeat never meant life future looks blank empty especially tears stream face juice wrld whispers ear ruined everything looking forward way life clear complete ive continued living dont want hurt daughters become mature wont able hide really theyll know im piece shit junkie fucked everything beyond im sure much longer keep living miserable pointless lonely life call redflag selfish way end suffering flip around isnt selfish demand stay alive youd sad dead fuck life bloodborne kind hard got sale getting shit pushed proper last two days prolly shouldnt chosen waste skin path oh well chance watch blind spot barcelona enjoyed tremendously thought one captivating movies id seen long time one best points film meet new fresh faces great actors behind unexpectedly brilliantly filmed great locations three heroes share chemistry screen runs across film making thrilling set outstanding landscapes spotted original eye dops work great makes feel discovering first time mood desert floods everywhere even scenes filmed streets los angeles san francisaco seem natural extension story rides smoothly beautiful settings lead bittersweet ending perfect climax perfect journey construction film master craft skilled use innovative resources stills stitching dannys memories film compare handmade pieces work rare enjoyable blind spot achieves capture essence desert taking universal common ground anyone us feel discoverer native stupid rpics turning political sub nobody cares commented one post literally news article told op keep political subs wake morning message saying im perm banned rpics ive never felt bad beforeeverything triggering everything making hate try go keep mind things cant im crying trying tonight lmao covid test tomorrow id say hope sake friends dont want good news weeks work im still getting paid hours tomorrow seem nice dayi think right day ill end lonely day special day im sure want die want stop existing thisi know use reddit please pardon formatting ive seen friends use one always talked use reddit insight whats going recently advice given months ago august guess months ive progressed point august assaulted acquaintance friend invited apartment hang mates one mates started touching got way dry humping managed leave situation rape whatever never fact think rape took longer time realise assault still flicker assault maybe wasnt maybe misunderstanding friend suggested tell story reddit better perspective happened day whatever fuck know move reported police days later support encouragement friends lately feel worst thing ive done wouldve much easier said nothing anybody pretended happen carry life know wouldve right decision eventually found later girl assaulted guy id feel extremely guilty nothing among confusion hurt anger tried best selfcare life im good job even ok job trying best guy eventually arrested made police report peace little stopped crying frequently stopped showering times day stopped asking people clothes looked rapeable stopped getting angry people looked felt starting control back weeks ago october got car accident country driver familiar city road rules essentially drove collided heads insurance expired august never renewed im fucking stupid covered thankfully laying ambulance looking car middle massive intersection driver sobbing behind apologising think court date days away think killed instantly felt really awful girl young already shock spent long time lying stretcher comforting even mess actually killed realised even die make sure one burdened death court date came guy plead guilty trial next year hes telling people side story gossip spreads wildfire basic version story planned attack basically airhead thinks dad rich molest girl wants someone reports police trying frame money really tainted reputation community guess made mental health worse people find one asked side story one friends told word getting around heads guess long story short done done trying best done trying protect next person barely protect want alive anymore usually thoughts passive look past effort lately think allocate money passing properties give away possessions etc etc resident country right now easy send everyone text say ive gone back home country kill people sad blame think ive gone home even planned still found drawn give one last try maybe reddit help cant psychiatrist appointment full sexual assault counsellor offer sessions waiting list months want tell friends redflag plans lives live know drop everything make sure okay want want go quietly without burden people around hate geometry hate geometry shapes shapes feel stuckive thinking past days occurred often ive feeling suicidal turn november recently came back ive sat thought right people noticed something yeah told felt stuck constantly ranted people sort stuff suppose im sick rely someone know keep telling worse feel stuck really want feel friend one talks consistently enjoys around everyone way busy nowadays suppose cant complain know sort rant wan na see anyone relate one diagnose redflag dont know ocd thing multitude things mind milder worries seem fine brain quiet worryless seems involuntary remind dissociative flashback starts cycle psychological drowning feelings detachment well depressive feelings one thing past life x better gone heck anything rid forever meds helped occur less frequently still severity hurricane coming live louisiana us things called hurricanes wheres huge storm th one past year usually one two awesome anyway hits friday night last hurricane took neighbors roof unpacked roads wish luck update every yep im done momentfather brain tumor mother dead brother schizo wife love stable career getting older unhappy ive always wanted die came close five years ago epiphany im done ive fumes five years now barely living feel cross hurdle mentally killing self act frightening sat envisioned gun temple pulled trigger incredibly easy anyone feel yea done now goodbyei took antidepressants couple acetaminophens hope enough end life wan na diebut want live either ive trying hang people either always say busy see friends next minute actually busy none try make attempt see even talk always contact first half time even bother respond usually snapchat saying streaks nothing makes feel wanted earth anymore especially summer feel im really anything anymore feel worthless maybe temporary though even though felt suicidal past serious reasons people hung constantly highschool thought good thought liked actually weirdo maybe chance avoid ive told someone thought close want kill feel worthless nobody wants see real life respond guess thats id want chest really well written serious yet im crying constantly oh well awards bad reddit awards detrimental society waste money mad put awards post awards killed parents suffer depression redflag baghdad iraq sporadic pops bangs sounds explosions really haunt time sound easily combatmy wife passed years years ago really nothing help cope actually got new friend shared advice live far limited appreciatedi miss wife hold hand play xbox volume cranked lay bed holding fell asleepi think solution really exist miss wife much sorry pathetic story holiday reminder truly alone missing wife helped time year think andrew davies admirable job taking magnificent book emulated pace styling victorian novel turning moving entertaining film im glad read twice book first usually case know one must view novel film different media judge accordingly still often hard read original material film gives away best partsbr br realize davies good adapter wish producers chosen woman write screenplay davies admits commentary accompanies film dvd wanted particularly emphasis scatological bits book certainly enjoyed film book davies missed halfdozen moments excruciatingly painfully tender incorporated sensibility feminine br br take issue use books primary symbol rosebr br screenplay plotted davies denouement inevitable appropriate really think author waters final nod rose symbol much interesting preferred way novel let nan come age way davies chosebr br one quick comment four actors essay primary roles wonderfully talented well except singing dancing perhaps moreover physical presences much minds eye sees reading novel seeing film thought terrificbr br recommend lesbian anyone loves good fiction add book dvd tipping velvet bookshelves identify introvert exposed internet year always found comfort reading psychology fascinated mbti big models jungian typology things along lines focused much self improvement tried improve skills figured atleast acting extrovert tends make social life hell lot easier whenever try feel kind become numb among people realise let speak often night alone think forcing socialise talking friends kind helping building social persona live philosophy everyone alone life long fall making vulnerable front people fine want anyone know real guess reason experienced firmly believe one understand fully tried explaining people feel every friendfamily waited turn speak talk anyways question confused part keep happy keep living head stop interacting humans literally love living keep trying socialise believe want earn even small amount money need develop social game keep mind every human including family person never reveal true self talking things want whenever done life people go blank huge lot complex even comprehend believe tried way many times imagine losing definition im fucking doneit one claimed many lies hes gone way kill career warning none wed best friends fucking years became lovers everyone said perfect couple love love love theres huge difference loved desperately felt looked way looked said even kinder sweeter things tuhe wholb w ekugsgiufucking time lying face hisotry wuth killed career fucking ym work client idea another one told turned father swore never violent swore never lift hand never never never kept last week gave black eye course three days kept trying destroy life warning none warning tried help last night specifically calling hotline asking acounserllor dealt female male violence think less people finna help fix things cried swore loved sorry found trofay lied affair jhust trickle truthed every single day october work client tiold came home left scene find called cops nothing whole life swore tio every day loved desperately cant cant abvuser canbt person hes twisted meinto bveing dont know many times came keeps lying im done im done questions girl teenagers nipple stop hurting nipples thankyou femaliens guys wrote something last night woke glad two dudes sitting hot tub feet apart cause covid guidelines posted still aroundi dont know anymore new medication taking feelings away honestly dont even know treatable depression life going nowhere im terrible hate job wife nothing grow apart friends driven away everyone life relationship family feel alone head every day replaying feelings one talk singular reason killed yet sole provider wife even love point know committed redflag insurance money even enough keep afloat cant afford therapy dont qualify sort assistance boat sinking nowhere turn moody rn hate life hate schoolwork hate grrrrrrrtrrr giving week figure reason liveim low point never thought id familiar urges getting harder harder combat ive already formulated plan guaranteed lethal easy pull want yet know feel maybe maybe possibly find way justify existence world almost died twice infant ive always wondered deserved live im sure go know reach examine things maybe ill find really vanish acquaintances remove earth cant figure week welp ill take days trying affairs order make amends people ive burdened offended pass next life start determine worth better everyone died supposed need sum help hi guys first time posting well anyway told id starting mock exams weeks im known procrastinating whole lot im looking advice anything appreciated im much pain im exhausted im ready go nowmy name reuben bell im years old less hour ago pointed air rifle head pulled trigger gun jammed tried times useless thing didnt work wound punching stupid thing fell apart went fighting least piece lead leg funny fires try destroy needed didnt work dont know im writing dont know anything anymore life series sleepless agony followed short hours sleep cycle continues dont even know describe feel daily basis im constantly hurting im exhausted struggle feel anything doesnt make sense painfully real many regrets im haunted friendships lost didnt pick phone send one message time thought normal might actually happy lost entirely actions im hate every part im bisexual disgusts dont even know problem gay people bi people whatever feels wrong dad says unnatural constantly hear people say sexuality real cant exist people believe fuck bottom heart hope suffer much truly deserve despite failing today know one day take life wont long now pence name days ill evicted rent doesnt come tried make effort look jobs applied hundreds received rejection letters silence cant hope anymore dont want lead short relief followed even pain im sympathy help ive made decision want need always hear things think family youre alone know family family memory abusive mother still lives mind matter far away move woman leveraged first redflag attempt death father try bring back control family father spent life another country girlfriend trying keep brother away first monster married right abandoned leaving take emotions brought yes take life think family alone ive giving thought want coming days go id good nights sleep id hot meal duvet isnt tatters id love go walk rain one time anything really wish hug still air pistol know enough shots head chest kill didnt see option hurt much id black quit shooting self leg today ive realised take pain ill load painkillers drink good scotch lock door throw key window turn rain sounds tv might suck little wont feel worth know im words page guys want something help actually help people life right going early stages 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getting increasingly hard cope im constantly crying cant focus work cant connect others cant sleep used see therapist anxiety issues years ago know see help large part want help whats point mask pain die really see point living without life mean able enjoy anything hes best kindest funniest person know lately ive fantasizing ways kill becoming frequent tempting theyre usually overdosing something thing keeping trying support goes nfs underground released november born march game still considered new born really worried thisto honest whats illegal thing done reckon fillerrrll fiilllllllerfrrrrr fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf fiilllllllerfrrrrr fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf fiilllllllerfrrrrr fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf much want end iteverything caught cant deal someone stop cant take iti fucked months ago cant stop thinking gives anxiety every day know want kill cant family fucking terrible know awesomeif someone put bullet fucking head im meds arent shit right now daughter respect job sucking life cant seem stop self destructive tendencies one listens ive always listener im sell stuff put money account daughter access turns send moms done im tired brain hating want die hard put reasons words want die know young even started high school yet feel nothing know want point posting every day till gf day ive slapped children today need braces went dentist earlier teeth cleaned checked didnt concerns although chatting amongst dentist assistant apprentice think made wonder going need retainer overbite underbite know crooked teeth didnt really care turns teeth blocking teeth coming need teeth pulled braces braces literally last things wanted ive heard hurt lot need avoid certain foods dont want dont know cant eat drink able satiate orange juice addiction able eat dads butter chicken beef broccoli even survive pain thinking cutting myselfup seen lady red hair back appeared remember something cherish truth notwithstanding base true story screen play silly unbelievable real merit picture cast constellation best supporting players s s make background delicate intelligent work always underrated miriam hopkins wonderful spectacular performance claude rains usual best thing picture actor never oscar good company chaplin garbo hitchcock perhaps lady red hair contains best work films see enjoy himbr br hey dudes dudettes anyone want move mars maybe idk give mouth mouth cpr air cuddle gaze upon stars dont freeze death even idk maybe hold hands youre underage though really want see shitposting yo future kids roast us needed something go righti rough past everyone life friends lovers left im completely alone past hours ive self harmed im done disposable everyone one wants im iti never diagnosed depression know sad lot times reason sad bullied lot school friends used play games family seem care notice mom always facebook talking friends something brother always physically emotionally abused young sister always said mean stuff little one time mom took marijuana raped probably worst moment life mom well today seem care depression says itll better obviously work brother always sex girlfriend im home alone makes feel worthless mom dad divorced pray every work always think god treating thismaybe exist thats good reason anyone reading please help cant live anymore fortnite sex minecraft sex im trying pick career pursue cant seem choose first film little ambition nothing sticks screen bad version back future zero charm accepted bill ted nitwits joke hammered audience long breaksbr br surprise spoiler warningbr br todays standards fun shunned upon release sad considering talent involved first time photographer faceoff editor fugitive production designer burtons early work sound designer matrixbr br writers made shallow first outing something deep shunned fanbase public director probably decided style extreme fits material death becomes catch dares smart movies simple buy probably dared different took producers pull whats goodbr br 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three people br br final analysis midrange material wish schools better mental health services students sure school counselors really usually suggest therapy outside school think lot people realize mental health services school means many people access school toxic lot people need therapy school alone anyone post worthy getting wholesome award ive got one want find something funny ending tonightbye hope narcissist mods happy anyone want come join minecraft birthday party bet ones gon na join real life mind lashout obvious cry helptldr im suicidal good reason try casually funny im tired laughing misery cant take serious either real emergency thought might reach anyone whos encourage hey hello everyone sake simplicity yall call immature rome works ive lurking subreddit now without even reddit account result first reddit post wonderful place start much support hope amp acceptance community fucking kidding go suicidal fantasies confirmed rredflagmeme anymore next level stopping pretend im thinking ironically admitting might actually want clock early real good stuff now may able tell fact manage talk lot yet convey pretty much nothing way covered multiple layers comedic exploitation crippling insecurity soul sapping references puns father forgive sinned dare say memes seeing though im yo sort blackhumoring accumulating within psyche amp selfimage approximately years plaque clogging chainsmoking diabetics arteries layer thick earths crust know though im one go fray quoting shakespeare see exactly im talking funny fun forced cringy edgy insert negative adjective etc worst know bad makes look ive known beginning somewhere line probably realized deep im sad strange little man someone told laugh never stopped damn good good fact built whole personality around personality started attracting kinds people suddenly cynical disrespectful persona friends sad strange little man irl yo males gaining status questionable means try laid turns need somewhat attractive casual hookups turns need somewhat likeable non casual hookups eventually pry open pandoras box see strange sad little man ladies gosh nice guy kind forthcoming understanding sooo respectful importantly empathetic naturally becomes designated shoulder cry funny casual gt attentive deep open gt establish trust gt develop feelings gt friendzoned gt change target gt repeat goes years andyada yada yada couple halfassed redflag attempts years professional deadend therapy metric fuckton mj later reading ive written point reader pretty good idea kind pathetic bitter betamale virgin shoutout lads rvirgin yall saddest bunch selfloathing crybabies ive seen thanks making feel right home humor days thats thats one big overused joke heard million times going far long time deliver punchline keep going farce keep going really think tried change yet stop wasting everyones precious time effort finally grow balls take worthless life find next time rredflagwatch selfpity party continues exam tomorrowi university exam tomorrow afternoon know anything ive trying go notes mess full holes cram last minute know anything im sure im going fail able study properly first place ive ill try study nothing goes start crying panic attacks every time try look notes cry cant stay calm long enough actually memorise anything supposed sit exam hours tomorrow write stuff know genuinely feel im going mad im going something irrational stupid know feel control anymore im shaking cant think straight ive days getting worse worse feel im inches away breaking point suicidal thoughts scaring mehello need somewhere share story hopefully advice ive depressed think ive sunken back want live see light end tunnel anymore ive lost confidence know good days suffer anxiety always worry things go bad ill suffer heartache cant happening know happens im scared whatll ill days triggers smallest things hear something want hear something excited happen sat alone mind wanders overthink suddenly im crying frustrating scary gorgeous family always love much think world try think push always work happened got heart broke guy loved seeing casually nine months never wanted anything serious though always hoped eventually went asked relationship said really liked cared said want girlfriend fair enough let go talk found three weeks later girlfriend devasted time lost job nearing eviction house hardly friends social life friends busy relationships self esteem issues raped cousin eight bullied school college cherry top slowly sunk depression move bed cried time drank alcohol even took overdose though survived confidence felt nothing eventually sorted went doctors went anti depressants took therapy session sorted though family kept going gave advice support got job managed pay rent arrears went got well guy friends hung enjoyed hanging house felt better enjoying life last ive two guys hurt one went another lass front face party went week dumped saying still sex want relationship go gutted feel anything wrong still see im normal usually bubbly self always goes wrong think somethings wrong first guy especially hurt really liked friend well lost ive sunken low hate cant stand look mirror sometimes feel theres hope horrible thoughts thoughts whisper weak pathetic go work come home nothing guys lost friends well keep trying think positive thinking oh bad concentrate work concentrate thoughts let always come back one guy wanted anything never wanted relationship used shot away im nothing went lasses time lives cant see nothing valuable cant see nothing good wonder anyone want thats wanted someone know happen now im dreading christmas new year know depress alone try think matter enjoy single loss friends social life time anything im always working makes think life make goals wan na learn drive next year dark thoughts come forget care goals anymore worst im still attracted one guys one walked another girl party scares want feelings ill hurt cant take heartache hes still friend family see often act causal around friendly distant want close cant rid feelings im scared one days ill hear getting girlfriend hurt cant take know anxieties throttling want go whole process tablets therapy part sees silly depressed probably feeling im broken know fix im actually even planning commiting redflag christmas thoughts petrify know part im pushed hard enough dont want family cant take thoughts life anymore always wait something bad hit im scared feel blows christmas new year feeling advice anyone principally story two men part portuguese revolution easy understand contest usually directors starts historical fact speak something shows period fact everything happen couple days revolution acts seen kind documentary movie focalize two people showing normal common heroes revolution come people although made military army title understand capitaes main characters nice colors lights whole movie excellent work director first movie fall banal way well shown emotions passion people crowd character maia main oneis wellmade good interpretation stefano accorsi able show maias limits notbeing hero want anymorethe title says thats sum want anymore life im done day harder harder cant make another thought makes sick stomach eyes fill tears every day come home work lay couch stare space nothing left give everyone taken want life anymore everything lost beauty feel joy want anymore saw riverdance new show loved first moment energetic tribute irish dance filled brilliant dancing music choreography leads jean butler colin dunne captivated exquisite dancing may always keep shining keep dancing stage chemistry amazing unity stage obvious look made dance show absolute favourite probably always long live riverdance saying something every day feel day got dumped today feel utter trash good times good times poem roses red earth vader wan na die refrigerator kill ifuck matter bullshit pros cons jumping story roof landing head first pavement listing negatives might fastest way discredit whole life strictly worth attitude fucking disgusting need objective comparison pros cons fuck strict positivity optimism sickening im finding weighted arguments im planning within hour please stop talking politics really care less think president anything political matter want support something good care somewhere personal attack anyone said anything political something future please please realllyyyy care last time polity ask shut trollface evil troll aware swag much swag shutdown east east disappear film absolute classic camp elvira mst classic everyone knows story scientist keeps girlfriends head alive lasagna pan basement cruises town tries find body checking local chicks finally finds real hourglass body scarfaced chicks head top severed head makes friends failed experiment closet conehead comes closet rips assistants remaining good arm right scientists earlier failure whole place burns downbr br movie scared us much kids friend go basement year seeing kids ranked scariest movies time one number four one scary movies really good original hauntingbr br give movie seven rating tremendous amount entertainment value offers eerie effect crappy production weird sexual angle scientist looks bodies complete porno sound track scares hell innocent children ridiculous aspects make prime material watching talking laughing watch film tonight enjoy id rather go dentist watch chicago againbr br seven give entertainment value mere luck film cinema disaster band released new song discopop httpsopenspotifycomtrackfjsdrunsllfpqjkwpsiqaesdnqwkotmqkupq hope enjoy cracking weighti want nag anyone want worry anyone want take something chest kind oppression feeling life seem good others look around people find good job married kids average people nothing special heroes side son hero father counterterrorism police corp boss got massacred days arrival many friends died lets focus struggled past years forceless good kick boxer joining professionals incident took away right shoulder dream law degree good lawyer live country law ive woman years lived together left overnight saying nothing learn good musician composer mix classical music rock music fit current tastes ive received ohsomany answer many producers saying thing good looking job friends future number reasons write tedious trying say fit world want live world im tired living fight simply make others aware exist want sleep wake sometimes wish long parents still alive know feel forced reply want tell feel one talk honestly reading hope good happy life chop shop written directed ramin bahrani man push cart bahrani specializes character driven studies naturalist style films sort little people passed every day without anyone really noticing new york br br people pushed fringe society exist sort grey world many migrants whose legal status america appears somewhat doubtful come cope end feel good stories stories survival basic day day level br br ale one street kid education hustles anyway save money beyond turning petty theft mostly anxious reunited older sister see early scenes ringing safe house looking real success young friend carlos gets job chop shop shadows shea baseball stadium eventually older sister comes live site jealous motives friends suspicious makes extra money dreams buying food van setting vending business older sister br br bahrani shoots films location nothing glossy glossed life people live raw lt pretty although never ominous slightly despairing air hangs much film one hangs peoples everyday livesbr br script natural characters given plenty scope room work polanco outstanding lead role gonzalez gives solid support older sister deal heartbreak mean never person trying find gives shits deal someone still care even tho doesnt move timebipolar alcohol addiction porn addiction plus got cold seriously fuck thus shit im last think depressed yearn release deathmy thoughts may one day best everyday become civil war brain rational irrational thoughts civil war ended days last week head clear happy days went shit back finally gone almost entire day ive finally returned home ready ti post memes subreddit whats best way myselfgot horrible body acne insurance money fix mid twenties trying trick thinking doesnt matter effects mentally psychologically cant live normal life im going try exhaust every last resource hands rid literally worst disease scientist dont give fuck even figure causes cures accutane cause croehns disease fucked shit literally anything rid acne scars cure body acne gods real hes little bitch boy fuck face letting happen ruined life im going try maybe years thats probably long ill last skin disease ill probably freak fuck surely im going save thousand try cosmetic procedures doesnt work fuck god damn god letting experience suck dont exist cant wait dieeverywhere look even try see something nothing im soon failure nothing show im finally pushing better pain inside much hate mixed emotions much clash drive mad want lay somewhere cold die fade away vacancy ill never make anyone feel worth good im useless moron dont value constantly feel inferior world constantly always reach something isnt world think years shit might finally choose pull plug honestly cant wait im sick burden drag everyone im im worth love im worth anything want leave bad ive messed life way outi depressed life taken every wrong turn possible want alone ive turned alcohol stopped working hate everything every decision made want die peace many lies afraid one dayjust one days everything greateverything went wellbut still old thoughts keep awake wanting aau fuck end places suicide pods people want die wish stop existing someone help homework im stressed overwhelmed im behind assingments got infected school weeks assigments im understanding please someones need help one positive storyhey friends today positive experience wanted share feeling last long stop moment appreciate moment maybe itll bring smile someone everyone relate existence empty void darkness glimmer light shine work last night job years tonight extremely busy area work busy got go help area girl small crush works area months weve never talked management told start putting everything conveyor even box need stuff doubts said items got stuck belt nd floor one noticed found shaft take boxes first floor jammed boxes climbed started removing individual unboxed items fixed jam question world buddy crush picking skips asked buddy said must went talk army boxes scoot im done sarcastically face turns red start laughing tell climb conveyor take stuff tells management told faster good laughs management dumb watch army boxes go conversation work went normal pleasant experience first conversation someone new went well nothing awkward happened seemed burden talk life gone way im still dragging manage stay long enough nice experience maybe ill look back another day things low turned lot longer thought tried shorten couple times sorry guys hope cheers someone feel stressed still nothing country fall holidays theres one week school starts yesterday realized actually school stuff holidays completely overwhelmed dumbass forgotten ive already week start ive spent entire week bed due depressive episode something thats still going strong legitimately cant something arts project reading whole book assignments catching stuff already didnt last last weeks school due week days exams per week two weeks right holidays theyve moved back due covid worst time assignments studying especially home want anything semiokay itll take hours distracted easily overwhelmed cry im fing loser times dont even start assignment time meaning half hour complete makes everything worse wont good results ill fail class additionally house renovated moment room basically empty wednesday next week havent even started cleaning furniture absolutely idea feel im paralyzed stress cant start anything keep thinking theres much theres way finish week want start things assignments making room look good feel unable time theres way around cant distract wait things better need actually put work lazy ass self cant dont want fail th grade thats worst year fail dont know im lazy mom getting worried pretty much begged something least today wouldnt worry im feel bad worrying dont know wear mask elderly people actually die covid saying okay kill grandparents guys dont know jack shit cars really care wondering sake everyone always asks waldo nobody asks waldo yall hoes fake man waldo know find youtubermusical artist made things liked main content stuff yeah stuff sucks hell man gon na find good share rock songs chess videos im coward idiotlife miserable death scary im afraid everything want pitty want help help works great film reading reviews see im one shed tear tamilyn tomita acted skill conviction made ending heartfelt memorable hands lesser actress last scene seemed trite corny one never guess film done tight limited budget cinematography gorgeous number big name actors script wonderful see wanted watch long long list credits end see half hawaii pitched make film happen good reason soundtrack available cd absolutely beautiful sets mood throughout film complaint almost want film end im done thishow many times hit bottom im allowed stop giving shit feelings people id leaving behind im ive felt way ten years old fucking every time feel managed comes back hits harder im exhausted want done want gun id already dead people saying feel missed teen years bro im spent highschool studying literally nothing guys highschool btw hot pink full arm cast m ive boring white onehttpsiimgurcomkczfcqijpg last months replaced months im honestly shy introverted maybe hot pink pretend cool confident god cringe asocial isolate look people eyes ashamed scared judgements know anymore know anythingi feel robot know breathing nothing makes happyi got many things grateful yet filled hatred emptiness feel empathyi talk people fake anymore broken want work want anythingi want disappear want live rest life blanket watch netflix pretend whole world existim tired want work point hate want work base way built mentally yearsim worthless waste fraud nothing makes happy got nothing talk awkward loser hate much wish meant somethingwe die eventually everyone love die eventually evidence existed fade eventually universe end eventually think act special somehow possibly believe babble itll change things hope amount anything delusional bits carbon chemical reactions everything forces particles wish point wish accept stop whining goddamn pathetically wish something anything mattered wish meant something im tiredim tired getting every day go work take care son things im supposed still made feel selfish asshole next day im tired easier change want want live dont every day think deatheveryday wake first thought shorting head chin constantly crave death never around think gun head least painful method need buy gun know start got girlfriend sit relax let kama start rolling breaking myselfbf years ended months ago said things good now bad times good cant see forever etc mostly due insecure crying sometimes angry drinking thoughtful generous girlfriend lost friends made grad school process applying logic sad happy let lot good things go made huge mistakes people close friends love talk even weekly hate alone around people anxious even strengths thoughtfulness generousness etc turn weaknesses people end taking advantage always least favorite child parents even though worry current state time feel mistake even born went medical school attention less dont know want doctor stuck career student loans graduation next week going really depressing thought bf family giong meet friends moving sos move job supposed person loved anything whole life dont even know want job going incredibly stressful dont want alone times bad good think back times happy think always little bit sad cant see living life way another years even another think using logic time break speak told need selfish well understand redflag selfish dont really give shit anymore thing want right hurts people fine rarely anything one thing want face one day shit dont know make end graduation say goodbye people anyone wants talk im usually odd hours due work shiftsyou pm give ya skype steam cell even dont care anymoreout blue bf years thought going propose summer broke tuesday everything right went therapy got sober etc fact person told loved promised theyd never leave make decision blue makes realize isnt place want anymore starting let guard trust people thats ruined now bought bottle jameson first time years hope kills feel right nowim disappointed ive always hated grew christian family comfort guide life religion literally hates everything yes im gay cant stop dont want fucking choose straight fucking easier doesnt leave life full extraextra pain promo doesnt make parents extremely disappointed doesnt make family disgust doesnt make god regret god think anyway dont know ill go hell killing im going hell homo born loving men literally thats doesnt make want murder well make want murder murder hard hard experience waking everyday thinking theres million shitty things hate want end want someone hope insecurity isnt experience mother talking homosexuality sin youre writing redflag note experience feel one accept youre gay think youre inadequate shameful sinful ungrateful hateful fucking full dont know say dont want gay didnt want dont think theres anything wrong judge world thinks wrong must say god hates prophets god atheist im pushed away dont want anyone change want people stop hurting someone whos done nothing wrong ive lived life never giving chance others ive lived life utter alone even theres others around ive spent life know im one ill end dont even im selfish anyone feel bad wanted even little bit sinful thats said fault born way god hate making sentencing death flames death inside everyone outside rotting dont want blame anyone dont know really dont want really think way im going hell now lets waste time id thanks people tried help many people made make decision breaks heart mother talk stuff gay people asked wanted dress woman wont give money purposes homosexuality gays need pay men actually sort romance lives sad lives force live gay doesnt mean youre different anybody means love men nothing comes want dress woman nothing gay wanted never want ridicule mother anyone love much told loved cant take cant ive lived ive one along ive died one cares die anyway wont even probably notice gone ive wanted grow normal person experience love life everyone happy everyone cant given deserve made feel dirt everything wrong everyone hates im still always im gay changes im grateful whatever anyone given family misplaced love theyve given support matter family really nice actually dont deserve thank friends never felt true think lot friends hate maybe im one thinking matter many talked still felt scared alone selfish better dont even bother wasting money already chuck body river rot let nature claim killed sooner later people hate gays sorry im gay say im worse dirt f join didcord pls bored need new sacrifices pedos hornies dm comment invite link active call together often quite fun dudes birthday hate often tell friends lives matterwhy care think know mother abused entire life ive run things tell know anymore theyve asked many times die hate much liveim older autistic ill never normal girlfriend wants call says spark nothing changed far see always fail everything anytime feel good things something happens remind im social retard failure put animals suffering cant people look forward dead feel anything disclaimer take antidepressants think will want intermingle ssri snri others alike current medication adderall due concomitant risk factorsi feel state inertia want strive far make progress many different fields confident take steps reach goalsi years old months ago got first job petco experience great proudly say strong beneficial impact peers people id meet daily basis bubbly kid yesman smiling face willingness see peers better day loved perform beyond expectationsunfortunately store ended losing people remained turned lax eventually alternated animal care occasional stockwork fulltime register alone eight hours day schedule quickly turned robot marred social enjoyment redflaged made matters worse boss wanted force customers sign rewards program always ask list positive facets whatnot always people wanted stuff book lot angry force people want look advertisement drone redflag impacted respiration heart rate caffeine consumption sleep keep saying much disappeared early may without noticesince quit playing video game overwatch yeah know least hours day sometimes love find content play primarily really good month routinely started think even less life practically vapid husk petcomy room big adjunct bathroom everything extremely comfy bed relaxing striplights tranquil fan breezes every person stepped foot loved maybe comfymy med stack stupidbig mostly composed nootropics micronutrient supplements dextroamphetamine amp salts adderall htp st johns wort ashwagandha ltyrosine nacetyl cysteine sarcosine vitamins b b d ginkgo biloba omega magnesium cl hexahydrate topical ltheanine amp gaba calcium carbonate tumsmy diet awful eat pizza pbampj fast food wish ate fish nutrientrich foods really something tells never eat iti got permit tried driving back eventually stopped wanting sometime turned scared toi want spend time friends enjoy hour often end wanting isolate tackle boring statistics learn ridiculous topic somethingi wanted go college pharmacology knowledge subject broadens every day employ help people much workedi used listen music skip tracks playlist used feel butterflies within spent time girlfriend even though love every last fiber feel samei novel presently words love literary tongue love pursue notall play one video game readis anybody amid inertia kind comment make feel good sad feel depressed definitely plagued apathy know going life missing got trouble work brain slow downi literally got told use phone much big deal safety concerns brain freaking telling im gon na fired literally reason think hope lost take medication anxiety bad truly scary film happening across curmudgeon james kunstlers rants led recentlyformed web logs life oil crash latoc energy bulletin oil drum data behind theory hubberts peak film latoc kunstler paint grim picture dieoff dieback hope theyre premature mid rising gasoline prices rising oil prices chevrons join us campaign bp becoming beyond petroleum even boone pickens lend credence idea near peak oil productionbr br copious research limited data oil investment banker matt simmons suggested saudis may longer able increase production immense aging fields face increased demand primarily us china saudis responded higher production despite previous assurances stated world production indicates light sweet crude indeed peaked means refining become costlybr br film seems aimed baby boomers younger people children need understand implications energydepleted future many reviews ive read reveals people tend part one better part two feel exactly opposite part one played around bit much trying find different ways showing che guevaras personality different types film stock different locations cutting back forth interview cuban revolution part structured finely somewhat distracting part two che enters bolivia along changing geographical location rules structure changes gone spacial jumps switching stocks documentary realism treatises instead literally trapped che desaturated depopulated landscape people exist burdened far lives anything survival option posit dark turn ches life real reason people prefer part one part twobr br change geographic location signifies least che part one che part two fact second two acts three act structure begun motorcycle diaries motorcycle diaries ches comingofage appropriately comingofideals argentina che part one military leadership cuba che part two downfall bolivia movies completely illustrate life missing experiences guatamala importantly opinion postcuban revolution executions create detailed exploration controversial aspects character nature worldwide symbol symbolizes idealism need armed resistance oppression revolutionary failings postworld war ii third world countries hindering activities um cias meddlingbr br yet projected onscreen case long scenes dialog speeches much intimate suffering portrayal che end thread life rules changed case hard tell chance success number times camera shows people literally trapped rock hard place desaturated shaky long takes involves audience narrative people imprisoned hostile landscape existential hell revolutionary beliefs ultimately end taking second tier desperation hunted people starving death easy movie watch effectivebr br polarisdib really enjoyed movie funny little film take seriously plot summaries available everywhere go details michael complex plot anyway builds great premise takes viewer wonderful road tripbr br john travoltas performance chainsmoking ladyloving barbrawling pieeating angel perfect love sparkybr br watch want laughs overall good time highly recommended cant handle living thisim going junior high school everything already horrible right now know im going live rest life im depressed small group friends thy hate im sad know really care make clear parents enough worry know burden everyone know sadness pain peoples lives im sure selfesteem im annoying know people around anyway paranoid personality disorder gotten worse always think someone trying say something thats even try best cant help accuse know im horrible person cant imagine living feeling much longer know going replies either cheers anyone deal post sometime tomorrow second thoughtsso lot shipments things earn life yesterday ordered heroine od literally money education skills family anything today im sure really want die vanish im really lazy die anything dont really know write took time took running street year old son arms chasing finally away understand wrote literally tip iceberg write need write book dont think run things write seen doctor leaving said redflag dont talking never went back want kill every time put gun mouth scaredi wish pay someone im afraid first shot wont enough think looked hit men online million dollars cant post imag es want post john lennons boobs birds chirp dieis funny difference sentence title first sentence post one indicates birds chirping sign die implies birds somehow chirping help contribute dying suffering prefer diei suffering prefer die birds chirp die sorry unsure right subreddit post already know goods severe depression adhd redflag name today hours put game something happened caused wastelose least two hours worth progress immediately made lose interest motivation keep going happens time sense small thing leading loss feeling something loss motivation boredom melts depression end sitting around day bored unable convince even bother trying another game comfort hobby even hate feeling small inconveniences know funk find new thing hyper fixate distract boreddepressed easily depressed unmotivated need help mechanics pulling together started depression turning existential crisis im starting feel pretty valid logicali couple issues right coming head found long ago going major depressive episode something gone even know honestly might ptsd sprinkled guess consider really irrelevant given new found turn ive going psychiatrist ive got sucks ass spent great deal time carving everything make life easy went psychologist first really thing offer breathing exercises left least convinced everything possible within powers conclude rationally issue chemical imbalance first insurance company gives list people see reimbursed go almost everyone booked weeks months advance think ridiculous finally find someone go sit week calling tried make job easy possible explaining fact felt weight world going crush first time life felt defeated reaching regular doctor even im self employed etc try self sufficient possible im asking help im asking help explained everything going life provided much detail possible alleviate fears drug seeking made clear starting gravely concerned short term state jumbling story couple times gathered professional avoidance prescribed something take several weeks months see change thought insane dumped mind came help felt even paying attention prescribed benzos short term support never someone ask something ill tell trick problem long term meds giving redflag idealization issues returned told aggression issues want hospitalized arrested whatever never officially tell anyone im threat load fucking bullshit another days sort put nd prescription different longer acting prescription bottle refill days great enough time next bridge go refilled said day two earlier refill thats fine big deal told fact quiet number left days felt need boost return week later pick im told doctor changed mind thinking wtf says days right issue apparently write date pharmacists said totally unprofessional manually verify even remember many days refilled months ago mean pleaded guy im drowning life cant coming back making weekly appointments im trying sort need training wheels guess every fucking person comes trying score pills including okay enough guy ive got medication now fantastic lets move next issue ive trying tell significant hey im going trouble right now please please keep total ball buster normal times ive always managed fine got decade ago ive asked guess consider almost bare basics yelling house nagging try make effort intimate understanding right now im bitch know help getting anywhere every time bitching something think hanging basement kept thinking itd quick itd going sleep ill never deal bullshit okay im falling back looking sort temporary support ask mom ive extremely good terms forever help want clear relationship amazing said let time needed explained needed help needed talk significant keeping line needed family support basically shifted said one one needed help shit sitting paths ahead fight fight fight battle back drugs helping risk getting locked hospital telling truth risk losing means support significant process minutes tops turns existential crisis ive got good life recently ive become convinced ultimately life one enormous distraction ive chasing level happiness unobtainable immediately people talk dance around subject become obvious im questioning existence immediately turn discussion honestly chasing material happiness oh end ultimately capitalist goals already went road happy kids realized different happiness distraction sort used look someone larry ellison idealize look successful got older children idealize someone saw someone bought heroic amount bullshit sacrificed entire life pursuit ultimately power guess see world differently ultimately believe purpose life deep meaningful relationships ultimately complex im way oversimplifying things really starting rails im starting feel alien planet people truly identify days ive got small group confidants really truly adore people feel genuine loyal feel majority people meet genuine vast vast majority people meet wrapped trivial bullshit trying seen way sort person cant connect one hand totally understand person feel great sadness shame bought bought hard im trying cross bridge next stage cant find enough people increasingly feel amount effort necessary stabilize essentially rebuild core foundation much ive got partner seems concerned whether toys cleaned ground put bullet head doctor worried hell rolled writing sloppy prescription endless number shitheads deal daily basis business people piss kids cereal save recently id seen someone handful times last year sort start unplug never noticed really recently killed im starting see startling parallels path least resistance redflag think worth fighting ultimately feel life become one big distraction efficient honest help legislatively practically prohibitive must something wrong cant hard correct chemical imbalance seeing world shit colored glasses im getting really sick im gon na try jump tomorrow morningwish luck said care told mother depressed said literally care expecting asking crush outta luck seriously mom said suicidal mostly sometimes better sometimes worse past weeks awfuli graduated loads jobs field one easy hope face job hunting bear prospect rejected industry incredibly high suicide rate terrified burn make worse back living parents job place helping either friends live couple hours awayi spent past months self sabotaging degree half arsed finals revision left organising compulsory placement last second think part hoping fail finally excuse end passed honours proud feel numb whole timei eat sleep want die bear thought much hurt friends family spend time playing computer games instead anything productive speaking friends exhaustingi speaking counsellor helped completely massive breakdown months ago abusive relationshipi want sleep forever tired whole time know fix head spent many years feeling way know begin fixing go know obviously suicidal think actually anythingplease need advice know begin life together feeling hopeless need vent advice help failedi care sees anymore fuck alts ill probably destroy account soon anyway im leonard turned yesterday depressed years suicidality coming year ago im really lacking anything im smart rich family etc cant first went school first year school nice second year came school teachers slowly noticed wasnt usual kid already read point others still trouble saying single letters school enjoy labelled smart bullied children yelled teacher got really depressed angry everything nonetheless went third year shit improve either teacher bitch yelled kept spiraling believe first started suicidal thoughts even knew redflag back started developing hobby passion though computers started making animations things powerpoint even got windows computer fuck around teacher know let shit school computer situation got worse worse taken another school school years tried help thing learned instead getting mad keep thoughts inside quickly started overflow suicidality came back bullied due muscle disease able sports well even boldly attempted climb window high school came first years primary school highschool given gymnasium advice went gymnasiumonly school broke note netherlands different highschool years levels gymnasium best got bad grades bullied contemplated redflag single friend still thankful without due bad grades mostly mom becoming mayor move lost last friend thing left computer went another school atheneum one gymnasium grades horrible contemplated redflag bullied hated dropped year redoing atheneum grades still shit cant anything im stuck kind friends now helping anymore point thing keeping redflag anime wanting make program parents care im happy care grades failed got results failed mom subliminally telling im failure fail cant tell want tell want die want drop farther want continue day fantasise someone painlessly killing revive give another chance elsewhere futile fantasies cant save humans cant saved light death sitting bus thinking go remote village jump front train help even birthday yesterday cheer inevitable anyway die die die nut november nut november nut november going well day tho smh rid horny going drown tomorrowi terrible gambling addiction general bad person truly believe potential good good heart someone profound said road hell paved good intentions good intentions life together inevitably sucked back vices hold expect anybody understand cant stop gambling wasnt position share views shame thrust world fault expected make something yet us better returning primordial ooze wherest came report back tomorrow unsuccessful guess either put euphemistcally pass away near death experiance knows life changing going go surfing late local uncrowded surf break know ledges put longest leg rope surf board im going space monkey swim hook leg rope ledge pass body automatically breath salt water hoping enough kill know space monkey hyperventiate breathes breath hold breath til quickly pass used high school shits gigs highly intoxicated hopefully increase probabilty success hopefully fail everything life choosing drown want burden family idea committed redflag really shame pretty amazing potential us squander well atleast relatively short life space negative impact im years old still living home pay rent money bank car cleaning work even spend money ive lost grand sisters money managed pay last year ripped people selling racing tips promising people make lot sent negative ripples everything matters hope anyone reading hope alright edit post tomorrow night means removed gene pool cya mods arent issue site someone past moderated subreddit users abandoned account sub taken moderator wasnt even appointed mods made current account escape drama related sub tell moderators issue reddits sitewide 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recently avoiding subreddit banned hate everything appearance personality stupid mental illnesses even someone told loved believe someone love another even love unlovable even decent day rare still want kill end day makes mad see people kids tf bringing people world without consent suffer become bitter person hate fucking tired alive annoyed teacher signed cad elective stands computer aided design sounded interesting thought enjoy took class teacher annoying said doesnt kids days dont tinker around kid wants make class old fashioned using pencil paper thats cool signed computer aided design whatever hes teaching havent touched computer year class hate whatever hes teaching one assignment optionally use cad software never taught anyone use paper look good seriously dont think ive learned single thing year redflag gun lawsif kill gun isnt mine person go jail dont want harm anybody ill soonim pain want join grandma want live false perspective hapiness never exist bad bhabie made m within hours opening onlyfans turning today yall weird ass mfs nam myh renge kynam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky want cat dont know exactly supposed cat im asking people lalalshskshskhsndbsbsbshs filler say people people people sympathize empathize one knows going one meant live alone yes old texts mention suicide solution well born face crap way live trying trying face bullshitting people around everyone selfish one really cares either dependent attached issues minei used dreamy ideal life perfectly caring husband parents supportive everything still try really hard parents kept alive sure sad thing solely pity moms selfish really selfish even cares society norms wants oblige demands times people around fact want live life alone want good people general one two people want worry caring selfish beings around hurt enough take pain offer everyday one cares use reddit wanted share going hopefully someone take time read reply need type support another person always underlying issues redflag impending sadness always pushed side growing teen parents never even talked mental health even diagnosed adhd kid mom huge stigma mental health told doctors kid thought normal growing extremely nervous anythingsimple tasks distracted easily never able sit work schoolhome mom emotionally abusive times rarely hit things putting hands thinking high school dark time time feel bad caught graduated mom great mother never listened opinion always kept box helicopter mom checking time led little social life high school highschool sick twisted go whole post kept telling mom take school course never listened forced go school students students acted way younger age seniors act th graders weird confusing environment angry mom love immensely turned lot issues caught unhappy unable even speak people redflag became worse start shaking even speaking somebody started notice friends people knew time looking friends know depression making think friends people want around regardelsss pushed everyone away going horrible phase year hell mom thought changing cold reality really really made feel bad way feeling still till day social life friends pushed everyone away one positive year finally found passion wish discovered earlier zero idea start redflag depression become debilitating quit job room time contact ppl besides online friends room time high school become distant family feel distant everybody daily intrusive sad thoughts already getting therapy feel bad times right imagine job going college almost seems impossible judge people much think others head truly know unhappy mom extremely judgmental hard things without judging need someone talk ill try reply might forget even wrote post nervous reply need advice mental healthsocial life interested old friends pushed away choice mental health know started need speak going long post chill fuck zoom classes turn video go pcs camera app now go back zoom turn video now video appear bad internet connection go device manager searching n start menu go camera click camera click disable device button top let turn camera itll show camera participants list undo click enable device button porn video two years later want kill ithappened struggling undiagnosed ptsd sexual assault got meds got therapy industry couple months made one video anything except kiss naked feel using camming take back control body completely regret feel ashamed every time girl still business shares video twitter feel ashamed disgusted tried reach used good friend spoken feel disgusting feel hopeless know people highschool know im sure theyve seen video honestly want kill fucking stupid seven years old mama told go make friends lonely first comments useless awards lmao first time years finally push kinda shape able push working month last night able push first time years severe anxiety amp gf almost years depression everytime argue text feel completely helpless always super worried shes going hurt especially argue night tells leave alone feel stay night long case texts change heart wants apologize ill sleeping ill miss text something terrible happen shes gotten x better dating hasnt hurt long time always back head something go wrong wont able help well againa year ago hit rock bottom bad relationship sitting er thought learned thought got better now realize im slowly blowing chances girl actually worth give know happen already see falling away im losing touch reality detached strong enough word describe feeling im justgone present struggle times future looking hopeless wish change past bad ive fucking many times even want think itits attempts make things better make worse used proud im even aware beyond pathetic iswho turned family friends caringbut none affects anymore one left turn want professional help anyways really pointless one actually cares saying farewell starting seemappealing strange eating sleep becoming challenging mention dreams torture tonight lie awake know emptiness expandi think time go soon apologize wasting time care im dude wants love mean hard girls think guys want sex mean im missionary guy wouldnt anything girl wanted anyone wants talk im always well maybe always life worthlessi done everything best demons chase nightmares back head stuff dark rooms mind darkness bleeds corrupts hearti know people good see beauty everyone opens heart friend family partnerthere beauty pour love sacrifice heart life give everything see others built commit giving income helping building others carry s car time homeless almost always stop people walking side highway tell names stories several homeless city used spend time sitting giving hugs rides love cherish othersand alone always lastest abandonment damn fault fell love married woman except marriage one neglected abused took mantle loving gorgeous depths heart facade came victim ran back abuser one mebut person actually see love leave died short yearsthe relationship fell apart emotionally abusive wrong shift blame use guilt avoid admit fault anything serious finally confronted lefti perfect person hold doubt ball wax selfsacrificing otherfocused see take responsibility failures absolutely give life always bettering sole ambition best man best potential husband woman assumed walking earth waiting find heryet efforts naught search search put many ways yet connections ones form fade away quite rapidlymy one fear unlovable walking dark streets mind led two previous attempts life difference now live city shot walking street nightnow spend hours day trying find something someone talk still searching someone love desolate worthless soul heart yearns leave dark streets mind take last walk walk darkness take long nowi want die want pain end walk path destruction spending another christmas thinking thing every dayanother night spend hours trying fall asleep cant ive depression many many years killed yet family try fall asleep time usually cant unless im totally exhausted write thoughts cant fall asleep usually ends paragraph hate life kill know go make things better want bother family shit anymore know happy ive years therapy jack shit im antidepressants still wan na kill ive heard everything book people said feeling better still feel trash makes posting seem pointless hey im still hanging thread something tried yet hell want live life learn work boring cycle realizing makes wish born im already sick another reason blow brains end people tired call annoying self centered psychotic brought sick world lost everything worked became schizophrenicat age six abused age propositioned sex age asked take top man interested makes pedophile sex man wrong feel suicidal taken advantage teen years sexually assaulted photographer assault multiple times completely ruined life beautiful modelling work never wanted model fell love man five years older never experienced anything madly love taught much smoked weed together already sick young age borderline personality disorders weed made think made think world live sick twisted world everyone sick evil know experiences shaped beliefs world truly believe run evil live hell planet one day happened smoking weed started hearing voice told smoke weed watch smoke chamber thought kind spiritual awakening third eye opened able access spiritual world still believe day world think world much beautiful imagine started believe god voices guiding become spiritually enlightened told kind things took journey told look documentary called war dance never heard children uganda forced murder parents everything voice said voices tell one told told slutty underwear put told one represented sex slave throw river told revealed think thought good person lot ways told homeless told look stars saw southern cross spot one day came back boyfriends place always weed told smoke weed told clean place absolute pig sty taken away hospital pinned men screaming begging drug need drugs spiritual awakening needed see voices teacher plant weed weed experiences teaching kind planet really living full sickness place mess cleaned hours boyfriend always working never took care home voices helping waking mind ayahausca one day voices told open gates let husky lead voices talked freedom husky belonged universe told follow streets told say come came back came back thankful voices told let go teaching train im dog trainer trade already well trained loved dearly husky come couple owned training walk three times week take australian bush let run lead hours walked ran hours free nature animals deserve follow everywhere drop home one night sitting garage boyfriend live small garage boyfriend build bed ceiling space intelligent harley door escaped owners house come find spent hour returning home week got call owners said want harley sits gate howls night took became dog socialsed puppy made little dog training side kick went everywhere together even stopped seeing friends boyfriend dog became life helped train dogs came dog walks angel angel work helping people helping setting animals free giving better life loved loved set harley free voices told got upset voices started telling walk city barefoot prove love love spiritual girl somebody called pound crying floor want go city barefoot came took dog away took hospital signs spiritual trip numbers voices led house number telling partner equal beautiful high naturally oral sex used time make mind run wild hyper priming went brain getting oral sex incredible cant think another sign atm anyway took dog away put pound said going kill killed cat hospital prayed days hours hours knees praying god voices told dad manage sent large property northern territory pest control dog dangerous dog laws northern territory god answered prayers saved dad hearing voices boyfriend ignoring started got back visiting mum uk lonely person dog boyfriend much story cant tell yet thought writing book im still dealing everything happened alone hospital pound trying kill dog boyfriend loved deeply die ignoring thought sick cope plus set harley free blamed losing really really upset everything loved deeply called much nurses called stalkerish know true love slaves money slaves planet boyfriend slave life away support us never got see love life one lifetime planet ill work fulltime living garage needed money unless became completely grid planned fell apart lost dog job locked away sanity injected drugs will drugs give bad soul brain made feel incredibly ill stiff shower properly move talk properly never made voice go away plant speaking god whatever speaking amount drugs made go away ran away england lost everything sad sad ran england got flight assesment done said ok travel month hospital voices stopped said fly england ran away drugs doctor said injection year got england mum nan grandad made go doctors made take medication nothing make sick doctor said far medicated took injections still thinks im talking pills im told anyone block dopamine receptors brain make brain produce receptors compensate reactive dopamine system think causes schizophrenia first place drugs cause even reactive dopamine system drugs reduce grey matter brain cause parkinsons symptoms heard voice month except one hour one night terrible nightmares nightmares hole stomach insides falling looking heart pounding ground body made dead fish strange ive never dream think dreams spiritual things trying tell us something thoughts throwing cliffs live see happy lost two loves life never see angel dog spirit animal cant deal probably better boyfriend left came england reason left going drug year boyfriend broke im miserable think world sick evil keep suicidal thoughts good reason cant take drugs pretend feel way completely valid way feel want die part part im sad im hurting bad heart aches stomach aches head hurts cry stay strong pretend cope sometimes think throwing cliff much better anyone help friends except nans dogs best friend australia missed couple things happened hearing voices told run boyfriends parents house naked godly ornaments house voices told god really truly spiritual people ran house drive way told dance street danced strip club told thought beautiful dance naked street another time followed boyfriend work train voices told lots things filled hour city kept telling go home kept following listening every little instruction game word word went city went inside building broke work called name ignored call left went back train station voices told jump front train listen told tell told voices jump front train two people started following called police taken hospital trauma wrote post dreamt tunnel behind man scooter past started suffocate fumes end got tunnel breathe kind sign either advice ornot instagram httpswwwinstagramcomammiereynolds hiim damn depressed know im overreacting im probaly lazy im th grade wan na kill everyday nonstop cycle work relax work relax every fucking day wake work go home thats im miserable everyrtime think times friends family cry cry sleep bored shit class dumb ass work literally use rest lives unpleasant cold room full bunch idiots redditors reddies kill friends last foreveri apologize advance language fucking hate stupid fucking world people say want help lie friend going depression problems girlfriend wanted kill helped got past darkness hes still depressed hes back witth girlfriend want kill ask help says hes busy needs money hes best friend friends use need something someone load problems take money anything take dont care died care maybe family im alone makes worse friends whenever needed morning yep wake talk redflag wants die one avoiding lying giving shit im alive dead hate hate leaving alone isolated always anyone feel use promise reassurance redflag crutch make questionable decisions case gamblingi hate catch fuck things badly jail free card spend day gambling ill probably dead soon blasting west savannah repeat one nights iykyk someone talk mei feel really alone im scared pm comments fine year plan cut shortwhen best friend overdosed created year plan everything order meet im done dont think cant wait long things beginning seem pointless drug im going use expensive thats hardest part moment ill make pain stop please relapsed im scaredover past years ive made strides therapy personal growth learning cope depressionanxiety even worked courage estrange narcissistic mother went thinking killing multiple times day thinking maybe week lately thoughts flooded back year fucking worst america fucking worst supposed graduate college move hellhole state experience ounce freedom life feel fucking stuck think motivation strength fight anymore sense expiration date nearing soon point wont control diei cant stop guys want die now im fat hot im skinny cold riddle explains alo john sus eject iss hamstera six days chronic intractable pain redflagthe doctors helping anymore know crying wheelchair pleading quality life meaningless seemingly everyone honestly reason im still fear end life painful pain dealt every day honestly much coward anything falling asleep never waking back thought waking indefinite amount days months years knowing night less hours sleep wake gasping pain heart racing sit awful painmoan sounds demons hear eraampe sometimes thought im stuck everyone around healthy fine almost perfect life wake every morning new hell makes angry want hurt others thats terrifying never want anyone suffer even fraction know think turning hospital saying im much pain want kill earn anything psych ward stay least hour hold doubt psych ward clear able go physical issues id probably thrown top floor embarrassing days never able return hospital bc nurses think im crazy never take seriously sort options live waking hell constant physical pain make attempt probably agony might even fail leave mangled ive never less idea carry living cut february year clean know specifically causing feel tonight felt terrible month falling behind classes sleeping erratically lately feel know putting try head trying fall back bad habits inspiring movie laughed cried felt love true storyit give hope miracles happen great cast ellen burstyn samantha mathis jodelle ferlandshes yrs old actress showtime must see movie life always revolves around redflagthat life think strive want goals life first attempt redflag fucking sitting hill motor bike xr took helmet jumped bike without really thinking went full speed hill towards parked truck closed eyes breathed cool air dust woke hospital broken arms tracheostomy tube cut neck made friends neighbour cute girl age thought badass way die killed pitbull expected chained dogs attacked straight away went got good hold hip bone father jumped balcony story whipped dog face steel cap boots pulling away dog never let go meaning got chunk always creative kid made device pulley system dam designed went underneath pulled rope keep one cousins coming play saw finishing touches told raft fish helped played little catch anything diagnosed cancer much energy kill discovered evolution happiest studying antidepressants swallowed minute little later mother comes notices sweating looking good rushed hospital cleaned stomach put fluids put plastic bag head spray deodorant inside plastic pressed button extract gas bag tied around neck cutting oxygen went sleep woke middle night bag beside reconnected rough cousin well knowing probably something painless death mm wanted look kept bullets another locked box gave obvious asked see bullets suicidal want sent psych hospital bought home every night go sleep bath head hoping one night little tight wake im cant go sleep without bag head im pretty sure point brain damage enough people notice enough im looking help wanted tell story one life cry im telling story internet thanks coming ted talk parents acknowledge struggles depression originally posted rentitledparents recommended post going year im technically teen struggling depression young age lost friends constantly bullied people telling gay straight closest friends turned gotten fistfight others treated horribly trying best keep happy recently gone state depression ive struggling th grade horrible experiences others treated sort stopped happy time lost friends became lonely friends struggling even online school giving heck time due work assigned told parents times depressed mom look horror scream need help possessed something parents seem believe depression phase sickness goes away days friend believe either calls emo goth clothing hairstyle recommended seek therapist ive already gone th th grade never felt comfortable mother use therapy way pry private life without asking parents mindset buy something take away somehow bought even though raised money neighbors feel confined parents bidding future completely planned say future hatred gotten bad point intentionally wanting fail academically socially life want succeed thing trying force mom looks deranged psychopath im crazy need go goddamn mental ward gained bit coronaweight lot stress family accusing eating everything house mom dad legit calling fat say little chubby lot boxing skating friend mom hears says im proud ask says thats really healthy im glad finally working stable mentally kinda writing seek pointers deal recently lost phone hanging friend way contact anyone parents threatening take away source communication friends pc theres reason go oni finally came realization im special unique funny interesting attractive everyone know pities want free burden depressing vibes give reason im still around right dog even shes got roommate spoil shell fine cant believe thought dude stupid naive essentially catfished another dude take decent face pics go meet see look face sees body fucking hate living endless suffering awkwardness anxiety continue im almost supposed better now whats ur favourite music peoples hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh guy discovered dairy milk fr tryna helpcan anyone help stop dark thoughts ive tried everything im dead inside heart smashed pieces trumactic memories please help hey guys dont ya hate moose drinks maple syrup ok americans gone labour day reddit spelled labor day im canada partake labor day sale reddit holding spell right origins english come england disrespect spell words differently every timeevery time think im getting better im told im made want give guns locked cant done last month caykdae moi cayekdey hwo wanst soem mey cayk people think jojos bizarre adventure amazing watched episodes okay def cum people feel people need chill show okay amazing old lady womens bathroom days ago im yo trans boy nonbinary still use womens bathrooms cause ive never used mens im scared days ago go womens bathrooms waiting old woman comes stares daggers looking everything appearance looks beard face small barely seeable moustache starts scanning body shape clothes im wearing im wearing blue flannel shirt black pants made mens brand pretty much mens clothing started looking chest crotch area honestly looks dick looked shocked funny asf ngl try using guys restroom sure survive selfquarantinei dreading stuck home im already depressed barely hanging thread boyfriend live together im alone considering leaving around makes feel immense guilt work home im used lot running errands going gym hanging friends weekends helped find reasons keep going stuck house think might bring end already done living think time go unusual laurel hardy comedy something split personality times feels two movies made different styles spliced single short happily portion funny right boys seemingly effortless clowning carries day synthesizes films disparate elements entertaining whole ive never heard fan cite dirty work favorite laurel hardy comedy nonetheless one everybody seems likebr br story set home professor noodle represents one key element storyline wildly overthetop parody mad scientist scenarios marks rare venture scifi territory lh abbott costello three stooges tangled mad doctors far often stan ollie event professor obsessed creating rejuvenating serum make people younger sarcastic butler jessup expresses viewers skepticism rolled eyes occasional dry quip meanwhile stan ollie chimney sweeps show professors home day perfects solution portion film consists characteristic firstrate slapstick involving chimney roof shovels number unfortunate mishaps enjoy watching guys screw task probably dirty work fans team movie feast highlight comes ollie plummets chimney lands fireplace pummeled bricks fall onto head maddening rhythmic precision one one shot ollie tumbling roof greenhouse process work slapdash suspect something inside joke way wc fields movies feature worlds worst rearprojection screensbr br slapstick stuff great fun mad scientist motif makes film offbeat two supporting players deserve tip bowler hat prolific character actor lucien littlefield terrific professor delivering overripe lines relish cackling hammy glee sam adams stitch less showy role jessup butler great stan laurel oliver hardy prime always worth noting supporting casts hal roach studio gave films enormous boost usually background music le roy shield dirty work marks rare occasion period roach comedy musical accompaniment opening credits mood music might enhanced proceedings matter highly enjoyable comedy anyhow prime example made laurel hardy popular day ghilli best movie vijay one biggest hit career seen telegu movie enjoy movie even morethe story girl wanting escape clutches local goon wants forcibly marry goon body ready help heroine vijay come play kabaddi match sees decides help rest movie vijay helps girl ultimately escapes clutches goon goons fathers political cronies movie lot edge seat thriller moments keep viewer engaged till end vijay usual good role kabaddi player trishaashish vidyarthithe bunch vijay friends done job competently special mention made villain movie prakashrajthe villains character properly etched prakashraj portrayed well surprisingly first time felt sympathy villain end dialogue hi chellam really caught masses music vidyasagar brilliant song apadi podu rage overdharani credited nice masala movie enjoyed die hard vijay fans general tamil movie audience world tired girl exhausting hated time double standards lack respect tired work x harder things girl tiring tired sexism unpopular maybe nerd prob idea dude sitting lunch preppy cool kids days basically idk people think nerf maybe idea thats little ive talked people idea class lunch outside unlike every class school class end hallway door outside teacher thought itd nice anyway used sit talk anyone partially chose partially one invited recently started sitting cool kids guess say started talking classwork day sat circle formed part nice year even sitting thought kind superficial stuff idea classic preppy girlsboys im fascinated sheer truth exerted conversation nothing ive seen social media know basically everybody know people grade name mostly anyway going good sometimes contribute conversation mostly listen one annoying girl decided yesterday sit us man fck ruining goddamn see opening scenes fight club gets mad marla coming testicular cancer meeting thats felt anyway pretend friends sometimes sometimes fine talking really best explain th grader room th graders anyway sits us monday instead usual crowd beyond pissed transform semiusual asshole talks thought death lastit makes smile final rich comforting nourishing meal good cigarette long cuddle beloved final hug best friend dying death theme mercy living bear mccreary someone known life telling first everything holding cry hear bad parts cuddling hear good parts embracing finished say im ready go embrace fall asleep finally knowing daughter okay beloved find another take care quite good enough best friend crying remembering fondly speaking well angel mercy smiling sink world maybe one day die maybe one day ill die sleep dont courage end wish want die peacefully sleep say loud im ready im trying counseling go medication third time dont lot hope faith please help really hard aloneim gon na feel alone feel really alone world really hard describe people think anyone really understand know talk want feel someones im gon na anyone really gon na suck im gon na pretend im gon na pretend someone ive going really hard time last week know ive really emotional ive feeling im disconnected everybody way nobody understands im alone thought movie wonderfully plotted made confused cousin watched meto tell truth think younger kevin dillon hothahahahabut thought girl stupid go along cop wrong said deathi inside youi think thats gets going tell young never cared old girls werenow think trust cop thatbut tell truth pretty obvious even wanting become cop still suspicious either wayand funny sprayed eye storehahahahahashe still stupid going warehouse cop died hello called backupsometimes movies make mad people act stupid stupid thingsbut thats think thought movie important im salty wanted minecraft java long time bedrock really good told cousin uk buy mei live iran credit cards different cant buy bought account apparently minecraft banned iranjava turned vpn downloaded yea probably see going cousin told soon downloaded call discord downloaded call went hypixel vpn idea banned instantly got perma banned cousin went appeal thankfully changed ban day ban yea important thought id let anger somewhere days go redflag hotline hung memaybe sign worth trying find hope depressed long remember cut started use drugs going dark hole idk time feel lowest low dead every fucking second day good enough standards able things normally without overthinking everything every minutes able enjoy things moment without deep set fear go away soon miserable sleep without waking shitty nightmare forget trauma able eat without thinking weight calories feel imposter time faking everything beautiful skinny smart socially acceptable never depression takes life wish supposed better thoughts ending life still plague everyday existence truly believe death relieve many people burden immense potential pain stop imagining escape stop feeling way deal suicidal ideations final stances nnn final stance nnn participation required okay fail addiction really depends whether already multiple times day every day moderation far made nnn tried many factors think failing say anything certain nnn others know ok please take break reddit stuff gon na stop swear saw posts disliking nnn disliking posts failing posts nnn higher others completed deal good display self control stuff look others though participating ddd going one month horny go one extremely horny participate depends personal choice comes think nnn good bad whatever make good bad social media world im bored powers fuck yeah anyone wan na talk something comments ig maybe politics star trek hidden frontier surprise many ways first fan made series available web features mainly friends neighbors computer programs home video cameras sewing machines mickey judy put put show definitely friends neighbors tell lot people beautiful looking folks seen youngest thinnest stumble lines theyre walking marbles thick accents simply seem speak well first place whick makes virtually impossible understand single solitary word theyre saying still admit everything friends neighbors put together actually fun watch yes dialogue hokey yes little odd though admittedly little cool watching two starfleet males kiss although kissing scenes seem go yes cringe bit clearly quote sttos tng shows movies hear theme galaxy quest played beginning end every show okay graphics first rate better almost anything seen sometimes show two really stands storywise actually real tearjerkersbr br hidden frontier total guilty pleasure every sense word give people involved credit credit due takes lot effort put production magnitude people sets costumes graphics huge effort lot peoples parts watch return thank ex got engaged tonightto girl left left year ago someone prettier smarter successful someone normal fun now 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typing using starbucks wifi im homeless empty agonizing pain found girlfriend cheating last december loved ive loved anything life loved daughter stepdad loved family found guy cracked something inside snapped still sleeping together odd relationship may constantly toying emotions getting hopes happy around falling apart wasnt tried hard back life depended happen keep together moved different town back april thought fresh start needed things still lingered find job came see couple nights actually ended sleeping together disappeared thought better stay guy instead working stopped talking able find job got kicked managed find place stay finally got job week first paycheck kicked reason whatsoever ex come pick cat whatever fit car rest thrown away brought boyfriend daughter see crying hysterically losing cat street ended best friends place days got leave space best friend mind im street ive reached everyone facebook entire phone book family nobody cares im homeless depression crippled mental state im constant agony cant anymore realizing people loved care constantly realizing lost everything mere weeks away getting back feet ive alienated everybody nothing nobody keep going almost hung last night backed last second figure paid tuesday ill go enjoy one last hurrah seems option obviously theres something wrong one much bad luck ive never felt worst life nobody cares im gone whats stopping right know failed end hospital physically mentally worse everyone think freak trusted anything given huge hospital bill nothing done help every method aside gun end failing making suffer long time dyingi really hope run mugger shoots money feel trapped wish strength kill thinkingi think killing every day imagine different ways recently thinking stabbing heart think know mark supposed used stop look different knifes sale nearby hardware shops knives seem strong sharp enough job writing thinking rd th rib think location good enough miss bone go straight flesh thinking moment metal slices hit mark miss drown blood stop first sign pain someday knife wish enough strength guide clean completely pull imagine step incur huge amount physics pain probably drunk high act might numb everything might miss probably stethoscope well come handy take guess work setup listen mark stab might run wall holding knife try cry procedure man men cry buy star wars commando ive looking getting dont know adults allowed post want reason feel throat fell stomach found naked pictures best friend internet feel numb life actually insufferablenow reading retrospect almost seems diary ampxb hate sucks makes angry people think right try press feeling better faking enjoyment im upset ive always last years now parents suck cant hold sustained friendship anyone hour im boring fuck hate parents putting planet horrible lonely wish upon worst enemy school literally one even fucking interact crush hates per usual parents act care dont give fuck whether alive dead main thing theyd probably care killed much money spend failure cant even talk anyone know talk parents care heard talking ending life something along lines id probably killed life sucks everything sucks phase kill probably human natural fear death people pain insufferable promise tomorrow definitely add sure hope will cant hold sustained happy emotion hour need order make people feel even uncomfortable around counselling sucks judged every decision make wish temporary feeling ive seen posts people depressed way longer bet almost anything feeling aint temporary whenever talk anyone hear thoughts saying want leave conversation soon possible say face ampxb ampxb know ive done deserve acute pain life sucks whenever put mask pretend im happy detention fuck life even haunting piece discerning horror film fan fall upon gratitude keep freddys jasons film company haunting original lyrical truthful stays long night much terrifying cbs radio mystery theatre shows smart rent might mentally unstable least sixpack now gnawing self hating voice brain shut fuck years damb want love voice god damn loud die never hear god sweetest release life live everyone expectations attractive pressure make name jesus fuck point need kill outweighs kind sadness friends fam feel end life worth living even love fuck fucking tired shit cunt lives brain happy made memes medium quality one even high quality highest quality one best picture shrek happy bruh cap fap worthy ashoka hot httpsmyoutubecomwatchvvcpmtzeq best friend committed redflagi attended funeral last week valentines always aesthetic way best friend peculiar relationship met mental hospital age immediately clicked roomies month time talked thought life death first time felt someone actually understood faced crisis moments felt suicidal episode bipolar bpd worst times always others backs year later still best friends still well due mental health decided redflag pact bailed though haha told therapists didnt want die year course help people mental health issues going graduate studying psychology working part time well finally text check told feeling said supposed meet dinner next day fell sick two days later ended life cried ive never cried couldnt register head gone hugs jokes pranks love yous creating trouble ive decided going end life going join well finally happy lost escense uncle grandfather suffered form brain damage cant live iti took lsd years live chronic headache causes seclude thats difficult suffer borderline personality cant stand alone cant function socially fully uncle heart attack june brain damage due lack oxygen favorite uncle hes stuck ina childlike daze grandfather godfather apparently favorite nephew began suffering dementia dont know trying work uncle break tears gets depressed hehelped first got ill owe himthough doesnt remember hope us doesnt even knowmy sister loves one song logic redflag quietly sing along plays sings happily taking lightly dont want alive want die today doesnt know mumble words really mean pains know found new low homeless homeless locked keys car morning sure anyone knows small things set called grandmother live got mad needed say sorry waking called girl extra key witch find know car still locked grandma says selfish care people even though iv helping falls injures past couple months said fuck anger saying done said got leave house homeless felony case pending head going find pills handle liquor drink till pass eventually die sorry family member sees keep going want die badly sorry adriana help one please think fault help even know write feel sad angry frustrated limitations small brain always stupider group kid people always made fun intelligence family friends used teachers pretty much everyone displeasure knowing naturally converged acknowledgement stupidity even know sentence makes sense english sorry poor english actually surprised somehow managed live years hope soon stupidity succeed supposed succeed kill bearer bad genes know stupid stupid many others things shitty life lived always confront limited intelligence every single time tried something used love history give brain afford retains informations used love playing piano give brain afford ability perform polyrhythms used love drawing give perspective complicated brain handled go long list things tried miserably failed low iq end learning disability related issues plain simple stupid person pitifully low iq cognitively speaking probably perform forrest gumps level supposed fairly compete normal people everything seems reach even littlest things without thinking require enormous amount cognitive resources still manage fail hell supposed find job stupid acquire skills required small brain hard time simplest job pays minimum wage think life worth living even miraculously manage find job think worth live life stupid enjoy passions understand hell works world living go money forget unlucky birth accept life complete ignorance frustrated right even hour writing still properly communicate feels stupid probably best way describe nothing stupid live found good spot jumptomorrow morning im going go work leave work stuff managers desk without saying work im heading wendys last bite eat bad know itll end stomach contents autopsy report finally found bridge definitely high enough impact kill cant take life anymore really friend going kill himselfhe bullied someone said going kill see next day jams bus ticket snap calls said thats last call im hearing kept texting sorry dont die isnt listening said fault wtf cope go hell probably jumping tonightsitting work cant focus anything havent ate anything two days home go yeah might use rest cash buy drink dont remember want end bad sucks youre fucked way around anything lover family friends one person supported cant keep making one true friend suffer dealt worst possible cards hours im maybe call dont know say miss voice good times together thats now fuck love fuck much cant even decide want last drink im horny anymore kidding im even horny know whenmy life fallen shit abusive stepmother controls life father took father sister moved thousands miles away live mommy best fried im love nothing done lives friend friend hates nothing brings joy day anymore playing saxophone listening favorite bands even giggle innocent year old girl bring smile face anymore small insight list reasons self hatred ive decided best choice death relieve world one awful soul leave oxygen people actually things lives best option ive struggled depression years going therapy taking meds everyday nothing works im hopeless ill pop pills many pills thats taking effect ill slash gash wrist cant fail ill written close friends specific note know much mean ill truly free ill completed seems escape thanks reading lt typos please accept dearest apologies im ipod exactly easy write tears swelled eyes aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh mom recording playing guitar singing lot video kept messing kept messing last time beautiful learn later phone timer made video three different videos cut parts lot parts bro put fricking soul piece ruined u n e d im sorry ranting really bad anger issues needed vent thank reading rest well fellow teens legit question anyone sour punch candy dont mean sour patch kids im suicidal thought keeps popping unbidden headlong story short im low point life right really bad im unemployed im socially isolated stuff friends go weekly board game night still whole unemployment thing getting sometimes try think resolve brain comes redflag dismiss keeps coming im confident im going eventually turn around meantime something want brain stop wanted vent guess told anyone theres family history redflag years ago something similar happened mentioned mother immediately called cops come check awful unnecessary experience failed adulthoodi diagnosed depression years ago stopped getting help soon heard mom talking believe mental illness complained much costed already tried killing twice felt burden feeling ate away moved parents new city got new job left university thought change independence growth leaving spark something things going well started exercising going social work momentum decided time go back therapy started saving afford sessions medication ruined everything got fired accepted elderly womans coupon known valid thought good deed thought helping someone loss prevention found owned thinking honesty best told sorry made things worse let go able find job everything saved therapy disappeared bills came around feel burden best friends live roommates leave work party im left alone empty apartment cant afford anymore sit room plan note settle drinking fall asleep want better want stronger feel slipping know bounce back keep wanting check somewhere going er telling thoughts always back mind hope itll keep something im terrified monetary cost want alright oncetonight realized little life really meant others went apply make something apply local emt squad turns mistake made year ago may come back say fuck hopes im feeling really low right really anyone talk nice person talk right nowfeeling really pathetic right know write searched redflag cameup sorry belongsorry english wall post accumulating feeling month feel breaking apart wish tell things know make upset brother older brother suffers chronic depression suffer somehow less affected due work move recently able sleep well see brother treated self harm multiple times even disappeared refuses treatment one talk home gone going talk scared nights days scared wont see anymore next time travel home breaks heart funny always end fighting hates put feet front car hate short temper adjust taste something talk notices try hard notices love admire wish sick one always smartest one everybody admires including always proud big brother instead always dumb stupid useless waste notices sorry sometimes loose temper feel lying time fooled mother truly loves us notices mother craves one hugs kisses always mentions brother notice scared loose liked called today sorry broke tears least seemed worried liked truly told missed told thing hope miss wish speak often invite something instead feel keep pushing cant wait go saturday know hugged want know really miss crying nights today worst thinking maybe didnt exist happier die miss please brother smile bit want worried much please brother take care help need someone talk topreface im drunk rambling strangers hoping help wife issues focusing around intimacy long time now going seven years year relationship used great together sex good life good married still relationship time found cheated times pussy kept seeing eventually got married dec sometimes happens intimacy fallen point think weve actually sex penetrative take blame know im testosterone deficient lower end normal took testosterone therapy helped bit things came along losing job depression etc sort shut wife telling years sex feel appreciated relationship leaving mefinding lover end october started relationship someone rough month told relationship person id thought past emotional infidelities come head last weeks read facebook messages know breach trust dispel thoughts infatuated person correct go details worst ive felt entire life wish make people understand wife saved life bad place came along pulled stupid ass dump able give wants ability show love good enough least cant anymore seeing someone killing point redflag table ive thought quite bit easier let go happy someone love show love back tldr wife stepping probably leave fault id rather end life fall back old self without dead inside anyway think need help im dying inside rather deal pain id rather dead real fuck allim ending fucking life im fucking sick tired fucking everything including im stupid piece absolute fucking shit everyone shit life fuck bullshit life im fucking done merchant venice one shakespeares betterknown plays still regularly performed theatre incredibly film seem firstever englishlanguage version made cinema rather television number versions made britain america early days cinema silentsbr br reason neglect play may connected sensitivities plays alleged antisemitism subject even sensitive rise power nazis may explain previous versions made silent era easier portray shylock straightforward villain today yet view film antisemitic remembered shakespeares lifetime settled jewish community england jews expelled edward late th century permitted return time cromwell forty years shakespeares death far know shakespeare never travelled abroad seems quite possible never knew jews personally experienced effects antisemitism first hand play simply jewish question among things analysis corrosive effects religious prejudice may fact coded examination mutual antipathy catholics protestants tudor england something shakespeare certainly firsthand experience appeal greater tolerance thembr br now traditional antisemitic stereotypes always depicted jews avaricious shylocks principal sin avarice certainly accepted bassanios offer pay six thousand ducats twice amount borrowed antonio rather shylocks besetting sin anger root anger way fellowjews treated christians venice jews general regarded secondclass citizens jewish moneylenders shylock particular targets abuse even though services provide necessary venetian economy play shows corrupting effects prejudice views sort corrupt christians hold corrupt jews suffer abuse shylocks vindictiveness proportion wrongs suffered spitting calling dog antonio behaves boorish bigot boorishness bigotry generally regarded crimes deserving death penalty moreover shylock seeks revenge antonio merely undoubted wrongs antonio done towards wrongs real imaginary suffered hands christian community daughters marriage lorenzo br br credit films director michael radford star al pacino understand issues pacinos shylock initially sort angry dignity gradually gives way vindictive rage finally humiliation trial scene portias reasoning pathos see clearly instrument destruction still sympathise view none pacinos performances seen equalled gave first two godfather films scent woman oscar certainly godfather iii merchant venice one comes closest benchmarks acting performance stood lynn collinss luminous portia speaking lines great clarity simplicity bringing intelligence resourcefulness make character simply romantic heroine less impressed jeremy ironss antonio seemed passive antonio complex character part loyal friend part melancholy contemplative part religious bigot part enterprising capitalist although irons captured first two aspects difficult envisage antonio either spitting someone different faith hazarding risky trading ventures br br radfords interpretation play attacked film critic daily telegraph although admired pacinos performance disliked period setting argued shakespeare needs placed contemporary setting relevance modern audience citing recent stage production set action weimar germany disagree profoundly approach theatre cinema quite different media striking modernist approaches shakespeare cinema trevor nunns twelfth night comes mind traditionalist approach often best one preferred example zeffirellis romeo juliet baz luhrmanns idea appreciate shakespeare modern guise sheer intellectual laziness prepared make effort see greatest writer context elizabethan society produced rather prefer dressed ersatz twentiethcentury manbr br radfords traditional approach enables us appreciate bigotry vindictiveness ageold universal problems makes visually striking film play scenes set venice characterised turbulent action set portias country house belmont happier peaceful film venetian exterior scenes shot location backdrop misty wintry grey skies similar look achieved dont look now candlelit interiors faces brightly lit dark background reminiscent chiaroscuro effects caravaggio painting suspect quite deliberate caravaggio contemporary shakespeare contrast dark misty venice belmont scenes shot enchanting palladian villa island lake characterised sunshine peaceful moonlight br br one best shakespeare adaptations recent years intelligent visually attractive look complex play br br couple errors see black swan water front portias house birds natives australia introduced europe well date film set portrait portia leaden casket painted style florentine botticelli active century date lynn collins may reminiscent botticelli beauty seems unlikely late th century venetian lady painted manner late th century florence see post im mobile feel people see post recently confirm commenting ok im normal whats bought slim jim rly good gon na watch ouran think hate thinking money make happy always daydreaming independent living alone apartment playing videogames work going inviting friends drink sigh course depressed lazy uselesscovid made worse buy console last year see give happiness looking spend money saved prepare pandemic help familyi want take backpack run away start new life know make fari wonder something life rot away parents house poor happy stabbed myselfim tired bullied someone please help mei saw someone post accountability buddies sounded good idea anyone wants text snap making sure stuff done need help getting morning eating enough going job interviews finishing work id really appreciate feel im dark place right now likely best picture many see presented culture real unhollywoodized way must see indie dont think movie draw indie scene acting top notch character alice portreyed well perfect akwardness movie ahould brought mainstream think phenominally alice real look element culture seen go ask alice look untouched hollywood hand movies show young people things glamorous real compelling liked pieces april love one heres girlfriend requirements fat ass going new school th grade fall terrified bullied wherever go private school public school international school wherever transfer matter always isolated labelled loser school bc covid given break school year experiencing graceful one year think go back enduring high redflag redflag see faces people treat trash want desperately want thing scares even think bullying ostracizing stop even finish high school clearly problem lies within fix right future looks life getting stepped used wherever go dreadful rather live even courage kill sad sick living sick way sick people around give shit feelings alli tired alone ridiculous even make effort making people feel better expect cared loved return nothing say sick people caring feelings care crazy crazy selfish want deal anymore terrified go back school keep forgetting stuff ill go something forget even got distracted way stupid stuff password birthday cant remember stuff without reminder either im really done lifenow understand people reading post might wonder happened point really wanting optout life ill real whole lot abuse stopped whatever never got help got extremely suicidal around ish years ago never got help family kinda toxic sometimes whos isnt nothing extremely terrible close family member dying anything im pretty lucky way life food roof head mostly supporting family im sure talked help etc etc etc im rambling now post sorta last ditch effort something im sure point kinda wan na talk someone dont know really dont want talk family dont know point feel im limbo calm storm makes sense dont know end post im gon na remind kind people wash hands come closer time go going writing letters loved ones parents going write letter record two videos one video indepth explanation decision brief happy video happy meaning video hear say love keep hearing voice passed already created emaildrive accounts backed worry losing video written letters close friends lost someone loved want goodbye lettersvideos hard time getting breakup desperately need advicewe together years apart think often times day every day theres lot going im generally stressed life thinking day often times still dream know thats kinda normal immediately breakup know normal weeks maybe couple months sad long term relationship years ive talked completely removed reminders life social media mutual friends talk anymore moved new town ive dropped school even deleted music listened time life literally nothing nothing even faintly remind yet head whats wrong brain im going delete soon lazy make throwaway know want kill nearly kill myselfi feel im stuck wanting die wanting close enough come side appreciate life one feels beat rock paper scissors give award accept challenge saw movie yesterday night one best made tv films ive seen well directed acting superb convincing music good cinematography beautifully shot take hopelessness requiem dream wasted excellent depiction world drug addiction consequences given open way wich anyone relate cudos mtv giving us good flick change crossroads wish got memory goldfish cant lifespan one damn guys want girl cuddle idc fuck want cuddle told im loved week weeks month year know last never dose sadness hole come back always dose feel good never stay live fear comes back ifs always back mind hardly enjoy lasts know desire die back sooner later years ago though free first time happened came back realized never probably never maybe stop fighting let happened comes back enjoy slim success let take comes back idk many times maybe best end high note idk know keep going happened till longer take noting anyone stop life know normalcy last opened papers folders today saw drawing hot guy hot girl made remembered last year tryna figure bi bi know figured drawings well anime big part whatever thats thank reading ducks thinking ending things went bad worse im sure rightim going going detail life struggled crippling drug addiction every day feel verge relapse feel burden around wanted means disposal little support anyone tried therapy made things worse person positive impact life told worthless using ive got one turn one miss feelings right wanted something go proper life nut everyone around claims root problems id better dead know right morally reprehensible mean anyone really give shit forgave may seen thats currently front page well heres update talked little bit stoned hell told either talk work things tell fuck got mad im blocking honestly thought shed choose blocking much surprise actually talked even though pissed hell forgive im gon na let live im end friendship thats lasted years dumb shit ampxb honestly though think im gon na talk near much give time cool shit im gon na forgive second time femalelife sucks u put time female n basicly give ability destroy life internally even damage cause n yrs still problems letting run behavior ruminating life ran old emotions makes moving hard af yesterday good day got back town grandmothers funeral ride home airport girlfriend broke took three days gone move stuff texting saying excited see got back feels entire world crashing around nothing every single abandonment issue worked hard cropping back nowhere go week ago commented saying felt low years man wrong much worse went zero mach jesus manner minutes even bad ended marriage maybe support system anymore alone apartment afford cat loved girlfriend loves mei feel spiraling back headspace teenager wish say cared honestly reconnecting old friend usually pull covers sadness forget ready crawl bed forget everything want crawl bed stay best friend killed self one felt shit one make believe shit better shes gone forever never got chance tell love im sorry posted felt needed talk someone dont anyone miss mya dying doesnt seem bad nowat point kill self one notice ive gotten place im scared alone might dissociate days end im slipping back eating disorder therapist closed corona im thinking ending much easier putting much effort alive im waiting tomorrow night im tired im tired hes talking girl snapchat hes never met well looks time move even kidding even wasnt talking another girl still wouldnt actually attracted feel shit helloeverything life going crap studying entrance exam something always worked hard going terrible bf years best friend move another town randomly may fired job boss wanted work full time even though stated interview part time cus studying exami broke well bills pay sucks typically always self motivated determined person bro really fckn tired everything motivation life even want basic human activities anymore mentally tired nothing seems motivate anymore plus point die anyways sad life falling apart want crawl hole forever background often daydream girl fun normally impossible things sharing hobbies getting married etc around back subjects fantastical superhero etc mention transient start time recently included feeling good enough deserves better killing myselfor attempting discovering aftermath sort stuff healthier version us growing old together far way insanity started getting depressed daydreams night crying reason fuck wish numbness come back need something stop crying silent want damned speech fault expected know shit already practically worn trench mind point push become alcoholic inevitability pointand little condescending spats pointed accusiations laughs damned crybaby every emotion tears smiles whatnotplease want emptiness back least safer alternatives want little robot want till old enough die mysterious circumstances accident whichever comes first care emptiness nice wait stop scrolling wanted ask apparently baddest chick liked got second baddest suck cus oml chance well talk bit maybe got ta chance still ueverbodykeepsayin friend ueverybodykeepsayin recently made post touching titties first time trying make look pervert full story girl friend playing game wherever touched body touch back playing ueverybodykeepsayin watching reason slightly squeezed breasts right first im going back ueverybodykeepsayin grabbed hand almost made touch breasts im pretty sure wasnt actually going make plus pulling back hand wouldnt let go looked said ill let lol second slightly squeezed boob slightly wasnt full squeeze ueverybodykeepsayin made post made look pervert wanted let u guys know happend want girlfriend care yk secks cool want someone spoil way idk dont reminder celebrating columbus day fuck columbus heres short list things columbus done kidnapped gave carib woman crewmate rape member crew cut native american peoples ears shock others submission columbus nothing kidnapped enslaved people island hispaniola forced native people look collect gold executed taking island natives survived sold multiple girls ages sex slavery publicly beheading native american people left tied thanks coming ted talk celebrating columbus mods rredflag watch possible implement automated comment reply every post providing telephone number redflag prevention hot line im currently viewing sub phone im assuming support information listed sidebar something cant see phone browsing sub cant help notice upvotescomments posts receive even looking new posts im thinking proactively offering information post directly may help prevention trying help theres anything please let know sure even posting redflag recently entered mind living alone first time miles anyone cares mei sure intend achieve writing lonely hell redflag crossed mind tonight want feel way welp text post weekend yet tomorrow yes know going thursday dang week gone slow suicidal thoughtsi kind hate posting ive done makes feel kind bad hate thought strangers worrying dumbass dont really anyone talk kinda stuff look crazy saying im thinking killing anyone kind hard say tbh hold last night considered taking life hours morning walking around town trying take mind things calm eventually went home slept woke felt degraded burst tears stayed bed day life wanted curl ball deal anything feel tonights gon na long night mind friend im absolutely exhausted ive sleeping hours every night week sometimes sleep feel actual shit got much mind last months fuckin beyond stressed sucking life feel im losing mind sometimes im trying good better every day gets harder harder cope cant seem pull im scared started months ago odd thought killing sometimes never considered actually gotten point think every single day sometimes cant think way im desperate stop hurting constantly debilitating feel trapped lie awake alot nights contemplating quick always end thinking people care leaving behind tell one day really want die literally know im agony every day want stop god id anything want life back wan na feel excited live rant post much want vote hell comment frustrations let anger gets bad feel assaulted kid redflag anythingso fuck dysphoria debilitating every day want bed less less knowing people see girl even want die want live want thrive minister love others want man life worth living way now fucking hate fact religion anything many people tried convince bible condemn transgender people trans christian fuck man literally evidence people cherry picking parts bible support want time wish god come sky one second tell hey okay thinks choice except keep living woman id rather kill myselfi plan cut enough bleed death tomorrow work going take nice peaceful sit railroad outside house wait end want live anymore gender dysphoria fucking unfair bela lugosi appeared several low budget chillers monogram studios s corpse vanishes one better onesbr br bela plays mad scientist kidnaps young brides kills extracts fluid bodies keep ageing wife looking young reporter doctor stay night home discover responsible brides deaths following morning report murders police mad scientist shot drops dead shortly afterwardsbr br got almost everything movie scientists assistants consist old hag hunchback dwarf sons thunderstorm spooky passages belas house bela wife find sleep better coffins rather beds moviebr br corpse vanishes worth look especially bela lugosi fans great funbr br rating stars whats something friend teenager appreciate much little details matters whats something little friendly gesture appreciate much maybe sending good morning amp night messages every day buying flowers listening music together maybe compliments friend mentioning much amazing enjoying jokes amp funny moments crying going hard time edit mean people friendship friends bestie friends edit got notification previous post removed reason lol make new one fucking mistakei feel complete dumbass know depressed something fucked head say shit want keep messed time ive feeling way feel see therapist something time dont horrible thoughts want kill catch say want im normal understand want die want commit redflag hate living cry everyday alive much hate life find joy anything go crazy punch hit objects say crazy see crazy help need mean least meds help want go record want lose job mental illness stupid going undiagnosed getting help cut bruise make throw binge eat problems want anyone know cant normal want normal know take anymorei moved large city small city lived midwest nothing gone right ive moved found partner cheated lost money job thankfully partner feels guilty hes let live apartment without contribution part hardly bed havent met single person ive moved ive gained lbs ptsd managed therapy medication havent found therapist psychiatrist ive never poor ive never inconsolably depressed ive never lonely spend hrs day think killing constantly cant move back nowhere go dont know thing nothing new ive spent life emotional pain therapy works little bit meds dull pain still spend days stuck bed still cry time even im best im waiting break life maintenance hobbies anymore hardly read book lost friends traumatic experience ive labeled liar peers moved away experience nothing hold exist head think dying time first time wanted kill years old want thoughts stop want hobbies dreams goals years ive felt true happiness every day closer closer feel inevitable end think killing think beautiful make turn ritual even something end life least last moments enjoyable im getting better im old live anymore want life body anymore broken mentally physically wrote good morning message went sleep last night ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh girl man bad thing online exams lot good things online exam bad thing thst dont much satisfaction exam streesful regular school exams idk may emotionless got car accident march fault dealing lot repercussions currently money take care car got totalled process person ended dent feel lightweight entire life dad died lung cancer days th birthday struggled addiction never close lived mom turned struggled addiction lead leaving talking years ended living year boyfriend moved homeless living motel month last contacted fine desire talk anyone care actions affect people idk dealing lot long time childhood trauma adult life garbage kind want give guess support besides boyfriend thankful friend thankful think made life think know lot worse try think struggles end world hard fuck let everything slide past long mindset want goddamn compassion sort break shit put thought trying good person good things following moral code despite growing around dysfunctional adults give sort good karma makes feel little better see people happy idk thanks reading vent post hope lives easier life lame film th century italian artists one artist particular woman artemisia unheard profession females time dared paint male nude detailing unique musculaturebr br camera work principally indoors artists mainly worked great shots closeups candle light suggest beautiful work classical painters fascinating watch painters students supported elaborate scaffolding brushing details religious frescoes surprising artistic elements film costumesfaces makeup quite superbly authentic italian churches preserved details frescoes centuries beautiful artemisia urged father study great florentine artist tassi become expert art perspective landscape painting something new unsuspecting artemisia introduced new techniques painting posing tassi violently rapes father outraged court proceedings followbr br romantic drama fairly simple story unsatisfactory ending outstanding feature film artistic presentation attention detail scenes women running across field wind billowing voluminous clothing add wonderful effectsbr br artemisia says paints please father paints please others film please think really know im meant type hereim sorry really know im meant say really wanted somebody talk uh six months ago friend passed away ive trying really hard make new friends people seem ive always sorta depressed never bad know im meant anymore cant talk family anymore cant remember last time went whole day without little panic attack future im starting make really sick anyway thanks letting tell somebody life death really bad year allergy broke nowhere leaving bill er surgery tim got got sent icu crashed car stupid way got really bad haircut hair growth slowing recede renewal visa marriage falling apart anxiety depression insomnia stress cant believe im still ive suicidal thoughts around years ago learned deported away family things actually go wrong started saving back sometimes friends family think im cheap frugal im actually saving coffin burial parents worry costs clean room lot might think ill run things time go every time renewal visa date comes stop seeing friends denied commit redflag make easier watch go away used scared want right im going hell made excuses left right move forward nowadays feel scared anymore actually worries whats best way gun hang jump something end quick remedy friends nowadays everybodys busy work dayoffs matching everybody close friends mia busy relationships school whatnot group changed met new people connect feel place first time life feel alone im living last year go every weekends ask friends lot usually hangout invite anymore thats ok im trying new things soon ill sign organ donor somehow still use people want live ive saved enough money burial support siblings college ive distanced self friends quite bit im almost done bucket list thing done clean room im almost ive always wanted tell someone im scared theyll probably think im asking attention overreacting talk anyone nobody knows give single hint anyone feel way look happy whenever see friends family thats time feel something rest blank page life probably shittiest game ive played might game ill never finish visa gets denied year guess thats im exhausted single sad hello wondering site sub reddit people even single people place discord talk people listening number victory royale hours loop even fortnite another fight wife feel worthless hopelessshe complaining earlier problem work always paint villain know much blame anyway started talking loudly problem kindly told calm tell though told getting worked making mountain mole hill told simply wanted relax big mistake alcohol came home work telling calm caused explosion size atomic bomb badgers badgers back wants doormat say yes dear spineless jellyfish vowed got married make happy talks belittle feel worthless guess im going make happy relieve burden maybe carry decision end life maybe soon know make happy end pain cant talk im alone know im lost wish saw hurts ive said previous posts sex give affection tied job hates takes might add im punching bag go away one less problem maybe know recovery much harder depression itselfhello ive never made reddit post probably never thought share start please read currently bad place writing good may bad today months anniversary redflag attempt context high school girl los angeles struggled lack self worth thoughts redflag maybe th th grade mother father older sister always normal loving people albeit show strange ways east asian family love sense tough love makes sense anyways first time seriously considered killing th grade honestly remember exact details think got bad grade report card day mom came room started crying screaming saying know keep mind sister straight student throughout high school getting b foreign parents long ago specifically remember day mom telling rather kill live next three years continued spiraling chasm depression anxiety never told anybody middle school depression considered sin reason continued fights parents constantly depression mostly contained seriously consider ending life high school came along mother wanted attend private school district sake better education catholic allgirls school knew nobody make matters worse known bisexual remember parents know make matters even worse grandma hospitalized time best friendneighbors house burnt yeah life wreck whole lot worse though back middle school particularly enjoy going class liked seeing friends learning new things different girls private school exclusive demeaning around good people every day felt spirit getting crushed entered campus know sound dramatic go place hate entire hours day takes toll mental health started relapsing selfharming ways first thoughts insomnia sleeping every night want wake next morning months school something happened girls feel uncomfortable talking even strangers internet result events seriously considering ending life point decided tell parents began mom traditionalminded asian immediately told suck stop white people problems yeah problems seem minor compared scale world upper middle class family lives suburban neighborhood privileges things many people work hard whole lives still life good time blinded depression failed see things one track mindset set killing fact parents take seriously made even sure life worthless depressed crying every day school getting anything accomplished sisters intervention made end convinced go see therapist talked longrepressed issues parents fix things start one day mom called downstairs sat immediately started sobbing telling much loved sorry see upset told go back old school next year old friends touched wet cheek realized crying parents never close seeing completely shell shocked asked promise never kill drove school every day strong months summer tell left car grueling school year made alive back old school plenty friends much better thanks therapy still depressed often think redflag time morning dad got fight small one got pretty quickly think much walked room couple hours later started crying apologizing told loved much never wanted see upset completely torn never seen dad cry back went horrible school interact time kept dark regarding mental health never saw express emotion toward now eyes red tear streaks going face understand upset something small insignificant fight tons past every little thing hit mehe knew knew redflag attempt knew everything happened last year time knew thought fault letting bad parents thought fault whole time obsessed horrible felt acknowledge pain parents must felt imagine parents must felt raising loving child tell want die must worst feeling world knowing close losing child caught emotions time deep depression realize much loved much pain cause actually succeeded killing parents never argue anymore never fights theyre scared spiral might lead permanent decisions time weird happy fight anymore find missing times mad trivial things forget within hour now whenever seem upset immediately start overly kind sympathetic think reason hurts much know reason become way selfish trying kill realize much hurt around already hurt parents much feel ive broke know continue mind clearer realizing damage done previously see feel guilty even thinking killing knowing pain transferred family thought going depression hardest part turns recovering infinitely harder read way endi guess one thing say theres always somebody loves cares deeply many wonderful things life celebrate people want celebrate depression bitch gets way fight uh weirdo help pleasei actually feel suicidal many people see subreddit still feel quite lot sure im smarter average yet always trouble people mostly last one tbh dead suffer anxiety depression hiperactivity matter always feel wrong even worth things matter point part social anxiety think effect redflag cause people surround parents little sister girlfriend biggest part feel everything better dead even causing death cause trouble people something cant bear think know theres something worth living everything makes useless killing im manfuck man fuck women assuming life better less difficult feminism big croc shit help upper middle class white women pretend gives fuck others actually anything oh poor white trash guy life must easy need college help job help mental help dare try seek mens health services anything fuck im totally agree garryjohal singapores comments film quotation yes nonsingaporeans cant see whats big deal film references film fly right head foreign viewers mostly singaporeans ones actually still quite truth malaysianchinese although speak hokkien similar problems malaysia know really hard understand accept reality definitely real story pleased see film outside malaysia definitely banned malaysia means either illegal copied vcds dvds hope someone kind enough share internet another violent teen drama portrays reality exists singapore malaysia interesting way sadhumour little sad know film got cuts censorship waste girls lose gain scientific name sex top successful communist countries thanks reading till end flaps away need helpso laying bed agreeing initial posts reasons people want kill cant help think go lately many thoughts ending life dont life headed know things fix opinion itd plugging flat tire see point living life weekends speak trading life money something want years ultimately die take short cut end avoid dissapointment look forward go downhill slope going life thing holding back parents love love relationship father nearly nonexistant argue exchange words thats mother extreemly close one holding back really want keep typing stop long story short sick life want end edit im going try sleep thanks need helpi want die im miserable parents know choose ignore instead taking see psychiatrist think im young legally prescription think redflag every day imagining id thing kept alive last week fact promised therapist parents psychiatrist theyre pretending issue please help im going hours worki couldnt much sleep thing going head wan na die wan na die wan na die succeeded six redflag attempts ive made past year redflag basically way go memy family bullying day long failure school im sick often job either redflag someday living bridge need think way dont damage things want destroy worthless thing room pc manga actually value unlike getting work film made back summer shot partly biltmore estate asheville nc remaining parts winstonsalem massive offices rj reynolds used several office scenes places around beautiful city know tulip capital world winstonsalem enjoyed work although exceedingly hard work building sets golf mexico renee russo jim belushi went date big hand decorating bar larry encounters magical bartender mr destiny tacked pics wall sports heroes decorated phone booth larry makes phone call cab even put mothers photo eye level freeze frame show watched remember dyeing grass old house green dye first soddedit new house new development guess leased moviethen cut newly laid sod make look niceman hard far movie made idea seeing fell love really tells story good seen including great wonderful life cried many timesbr br cant count got meet wonderful actor michael caine shooting scenes old minor league ballpark larrys boyhood scenes played replayed remember done take heading back trailer ran asked picture quite amiable said good guy really natural forceful actor cant say jim belushihe full smoking big cuban cigars talking loudly sobr br everyone earshot hear every word career never take decent tv career recently say watch movie chance wonderful really heartfelt real feel larrys pain enters new world mr destiny gives hitting homer wants badly people believe bad guy everyone thinks think belongs nuthouse eventually wins people wants real life back badly especially wonderful wife played beautifully linda hamiltonand wants dog back see years old live texas honestly wanting end every attempt take everything never goes expected want selfish family feel one wants see succeed mom talk happy building dream family talk siblings care showed actions situations put grandparents cars let drive one job make music happy place still know alone whole life point hurts nothing nothing live thing want baby sister great life ill become famous kill better way vent maybe someone try bring will maybe need friends trust anyone fucked many times maybe meant alone need lovesomeone talk cant keep going world oneim starting create actual redflag plan lot strong sedativeheartrate medicines im going end someday soon really reason keep going nobody help listen problems systems place try keep people healthy turning im going take medicine tonight go sleep forever dna weird year old sister may already symptoms ptsd mom signs love horror ask ptsd born sister got mom born bruh parents crazy say disintegration even cures best album wtf true story walked bathroom boys talking issues communism theres nothing much story young woman steals money dreary vermont supermarket works decides run away florida dreams attending school friend julie encounters odd couple highway remember elderly couple rosemarys baby idea two bill comical face retired army sandra ex stripper become truckstop whore although find theyre affectionate helpful full common sensebr br less adopt girl alice promise give ride elaborate rv although driving directly floridabr br film gone onehundredpercent wrong film makers turn elderly couple personification evil take virginal alice handcuffed bed whatever sell body greaseball driver lot money likes rough sex alice heck time escaping lots aborted attempts final shootout couple really pretty nice alice far virginal alice overhears sandra customer asks business tries turn trick bill prevents anything happening insists job right going talk guide herbr br alice makes several hundred dollars several hundred dollars met couple bill sandra keep money safe customers going find alice misunderstands find whoring pleasant work thinks shell never paid every time asks dropped sandra responds honey middle nowhere talked handing gun sandra couple give money wants rather lovingly release continue trip floridabr br know found tragic moment film nothing prostitution thievery alice expecting room friend julie arrives miami julie legitimate student alice calls friend someplace alabama assure way late julie hesitates says well mother think room us tell truth roommate cool either invited sure thought visit week something go back milford alice long silence alice hangs upbr br one shot fired white frames film one hit tears appear nobody slugs anybody car explodes fireball cop chases interstatebr br direction occasionally clumsy much crosscutting sandra trying disarm alice alices hand holding wobbling pistol hardly musical score brief male female nudity awkward probably supposed alice unattractive babalicious either sports asiatic eyes kind robust version molly parker cinematography looks cheap colors washed direction straightforward narrative illuminating flashbacks nothing wasted evidently shot around danbury connecticut city sticks mind drove one floods remember cars caked film mud way door handlesbr br know exactly alice found dread even thinking answer riddle found acting bad judith ivey better definitely worth seeing quiet orderly film treats audience adults im losti friends hobbies life experience outside family know talk people know interact people anxiety bad days even leave apartment unless work ex left said know person need help guess know point day goes fantasize jumping bridge cross work last ditch effort awkward cousins play fun nieces nephews fine take care work well little kids diagnosed one point another life first chronic manic yes disorder mood yea want die going kill might accidentally mental breakdown twice day consider yes stopped living heart attacksseizures overdosing nah manic chronic depression wrong menoone likes menobody wants talk menobodyis emotionless face noone want friends meeveryone wants far away possibleevery day try live people make think end ive alone birth asking help im getting pretty bored playing exact games mainly battlefield mans sky dead cells anybody suggestions xbox game thats decent truly terrific touching film female melodrama finest lot comedy great dialogue characters writing woman relate story classic love mr right interest guy seems completely wrong comes along fall headoverheels love course simplistic characters real performances perfect movie hilarious well every scene skewers society id recommend film anyone loves wellwritten screenplay humor melodrama relate every character plot moves unexpected directions great underrated movie gem movie people fun quirky premises love history traditions scifi classic hollywood movies alien martian crew embodiment classic scifi character member hollywood royalty pure pleasure watching bounce residents big bean listened fucked album fun fucked fucked fun love sarah plain tallwinters end good movie tells hardships living farmi live farm know hardshipsbr br love setting kansas beautiful place favorite country star kansas love country kansas beautiful love live kansasbr br sarah plain tallwinters end think love story love love stories fun watch watch nice watch people fall love falling love hard people think ive fallen love sarah plain tall winters end favorite love story film sat tivo weeks watched dreaded selfindulgent yuppie flick relationships gone bad wrong engrossing excursion screwedup libidos new yorkersbr br format max ophuls la ronde based play arthur schnitzler given inspired credit starts one person prostitute standing street corner brooklyn picked home contractor sex hood car cant come refuses pay hes peeing answers cell phone takes message runs away keysbr br story switches contractor pays professional call rich bored new york woman plays aroused pulls away tells desperate unhappy tells beautiful lucky leaving asks sex sits top bounces time comes leavesbr br woman husband throw dinner party trendy friends hubby robert talking business wife ellen bored switches subject sex often men women think husband switches conversation desert later guests leave ellen tries entice robert sex robert wants none puts jazz record ellen turns radio robert turns music ellen turns tv robert turns another tv cacophony ensues ellen goes roof robert joins ellen confesses needs experience men men robert robert says needs experience menbr br next follow robert visits artist martin played steve buscemi wish buscemi roles sexy smart totally desirable guy robert praises martins work much deserves promises show martin excited turns robert speaking groin mating dance robert tries kiss martin lips martin pulls back saying gay robert asserts hes gay either martin scoffs admit artworks bad robert leave martin allows robert kiss make robert goes martinbr br next follow martin prepares art show manhattan gallery smitten receptionist anna played rosario dawson cut review keep words make love otherbr br next follow anna sitting lunch stand boyfriend nick adrian grenier enters bearing flowers cold toward tries figure coaxes information sex someone san francisco coaxes fact stayed exgf san francisco sex latter revelation turns lie two make luncheonette decides must break nick heartbrokenbr br follow nick confesses troubles older woman meets park bench joey carol kane joey sort weird childlike good audience nick needs sympathetic ear two go coney island night look stars nick falls joeys spell despite age difference go back joeys apartment nick gradually realizes sex crazy old woman top want let go manages escapebr br way best carol kane role played latkes wife taxi joeys phone rings man calling psychic friends network joey one psychic friends although still hurting nick gradually gets psychic shtick man office late night wants phone sex although joeys business joey goes along coaxes man come wants keep talking although man want phone finds embezzled lot money company found tomorrow life ruined joey realizes man going commit suicide tries make believe friend cares care himbr br man packs gun briefcase goes seek prostitute brooklyn waterfront come back beginning prostitute started la ronde wants give cash kill tried kill prostitute want insists holding hand holding gun inside mouth telling aim eventually gun goes see prostitute walking street arriving corner normally business contractor pay earlier movie drives rolls window look end life overi thought past everything thats fucking life even happy days brief almost cant remember anymore miscarried baby theyre gone really nothing live anymore ive successfully made partner hate give back things money owe plan trying return work depression long time worked dunno im anymore gon na best everyone go cant handle pain anymore cant handle anything anymore meant thanks reddit giving odd chuckle people meant though please helpi genuinely want kill tonight desperately need someone talk yeah friends dont want seeing dont want hurt ones love im hopeless exhausted lifeless see future dont even care anymore ive sabotaged everything good life boyfriend doesnt deserve dont know dont strength stay alive anymore commit psych ward honestly think might kill tonight feeling better commiserating alli know spending time among people understand feel kind uplifting im currently working certification basically pages work left wonder ill able finish deadline ill fail therapy tomorrow least im forced brush teeth go outside want rest head lap fade awayi dont want anymore came back many years gave feeling hope maybe remembered much loved wanted back true happy ive never left told broke growing bond sorry sorry sorry full regret every second years endured without pain came back eased mind fade nothingness ruined know future us cant take anymore painful know cause meant meant life years alone told everything afraid die alone rest head lap fade away id die way never alive happy fed everythingi pre defense monday presented research paper ba degree defense academic advisor said everything fine members committee criticise worry presented research committee member knows quite lot general area research though specific topic said revise paper apparently got things wrong point sent parts research academic advisor never mentioned things committee member criticised might postpone ba defense though allowed defend cant stop thinking fault though tried really hard feel bad ill tell relatives manage graduate year know able stand smart girl pity comments similar thing happened last year worked hard still rewrite research im good nothing really studied hard though ive started correcting research result still good enough cant go passparagraphs may may interconnected point living die end mean happiness feel point reason see everything waste time little things playing game whats point ill eventually grow tired anyway another thing ive come realize either kill somethingsomeone kill end thought amazing kind control life life may shitty power depressed even remotely sad happy enjoying life yeah laugh feel happy something bummed feel sad temporary emotions define entirely feel floating know feel enter regression mean mentality got show cant remember anymore basically regression mean means matter bad good things always return center everything always come back neutral mind always come back whats point everything never constant w h h e p n t feeling sad itll pass feeling happy itll pass feeling depressed might take long itll pass feeling life best itll pass will pass end whats one website objective information redflag methodsi found ago im looking im suicidal wan na read arkansas bill passed incredible victory want play video games want new pc shit prob wait till lets goooooooo every single one singles placement matches rocket league im platinum know rocket league car soccer free epic games store wan na play really good game thanks listening 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suicidal self sit room day alone day day im tired im lonely im trying find good way go wrong wish go back normal gramps im visiting grandpa week wife grandmother passed away around year ago lives alone old dog worst fear going pass away old age alone sweet cant stop dreading cant stand aloneive feeling lonely lately really know sexually abused child depressed cutting close years though past months ive therapy well mental hospital half year helped lot left college last fall things going downhill ive always big family alone apartment really difficult ive slept floor beside pc past weeks noise blinking makes feel relieved less alone tried moving back bed twice times ive anxiety attacks panicked cant stay weekends thought alone long absolutely terrifying visit parents id another pet dog staying parents fear able properly care additionally lend parents money even took loan promised itd weeks turns itll take longer borrow made rent made really angry much fact make still said theyd pay well rent due already paid im trying really hard life control ive way worse ive genuinely happy little im point ask really worth overall pretty good perspective im getting rich means usually enough cover bases apartment study field im interested top university found things enjoy thats quite improvement able morning needing hurt every day still feel riding stupid rollercoaster cant seem stop go ive considered going back therapy think im worth time mean ive much worse think handle little depressed angry sometimes without selfdestructive suicidal always go kind rage makes feel terribly helpless want walk traffic anyone specifically alone thing able feelings level cope phew feel lot better already writing took quite time sorry little incoherent thank anyone took time read d edit jesus thats horrible wall text ill try make little readable s edit found another thing im really bad formatting d think id hard unique scifi animated film frankly love uniqueness matter way tends better worse french 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support friends church much better without may say kids need dad right scenario means contention fights big problems without peace time morn maybe life goes peaceful without sure anyway anyone cares willing chat need somethibg idea lost wandering around anyone care person takes life insignificant one brings pain ok sort rambling thinking straight phone curious anyone talk text im looking someone play csgo im voice still high think im pretty nice amazing find someone nice age play csgo im anxious moving florida feel im going lose friends dad lost job department shut due pandemic got new one florida right im arizona friend group years im freshmen high school really dont want leave friends weve gone hell together cant think living without dont know tell moving summer dont know going forward make sure dont forget mf beans beans needing help badly whats voluntary commitment likeim pretty bad tell id committed especially insight trans well im still single christmas anything ive gotten used empty void heart need ventto start im years old id grade severely depressed started guess family owned restaurant brother always helping step dad hired apprenticejosh young time main part josh feel apprentice felt family used take driving always let play phone work boring attending first year highschool time woke one morning parents tears eyes tell josh involved traffic accident killed absolutely destroyed role model one closest friends happened noticed family close step dad got increasingly quieter life consisted school restaurant want give whole sap story wanted end tried times decided talk somebody help worked briefly much shitfest last two years ive living states capitol im looking work able hold stable job whole time currently unemployed almost months im medication seem work either soon course doctor says im fine feels back want pill morning decide im going feel today destined keep eating ssris hopeful theyll work thing keeping girlfriend people considered best friends years never talk people ive made friends feel inconvenience really ill go way see people things rarely mutual idea fuck want life used ambitions goals determination feel empty girlfriend working moment slum applying countless jobs reply unsuccessful remember teenager made pact kill late s hint successful future recently ive fantasizing killing driving highway running barrier kms hour trick fantasies becoming frequent thing im certain girlfriend person keeping right now whats favorite food im tryna catch jewish poo guy embarrassing posts moms facebook account guys mother added teacher respect best teacher facebook mother posts lot unironic rimandthisisdeep shit mention old embarrassing pictures fuck always mind grab phone block specific teacher lazy start calling asshole trust know much pictures embarrassing much bothering making uncomfortable help wont post thr black chapter wont post im thinking whats gon na happen next chapter idea ill post computer teacher told us everyone internet provider ip adress even first time said something angry school hiring anyone find top private granted india private cost arm leg still fuck julie brown hilariously demolishes madonnas attempt rockumentary gut ripping humor truly original catchy songs rival madonnas cinematography sets top notchbr br kathy griffin chris elliott offer injections comedy enhances compliments film appearances bobcat goldthwait wink martindale added bonusbr br hard tell browns performance meant insult playfully tease madonna though hardly think material girl find humor itbr br favorite line come phillipines eat dog im vegetarian love moms ill use pronouns asked use never fucking uses told mom use hehim pronouns talking said yeah thats ok ill really doesnt need relationship advice teens bf dating couple months now getting choppy reached peak hours ago reinforced love eachother ect admits toxic good relationships im willing stick declared aromantic says friends benefitslove eachother wants break sex traumatic past fine said flirt even date case people broke lot loyalty although assures loves much love know hes pan btw god great hot wear pants unless goes freezing love everyone calls crazy really im evolved tried last week think im gon na try tonightfuck life going fucked everything girlfriend years dumped manipulated back dump fuck fuck life hate everything always whats point anymore ive got full bottle cough syrup next might start chuggin whats stopping sure hell life sure hell family friends idea whats going head im god damn closed emotionally one actually cares maybe someone im gone robert altman favorite american director must admit enjoyed films usually scorned quintet giving pleasure seeing grownup beautiful brigitte fossey unforgettable little girl forbidden games health lauren bacall carol burnett alfre woodard glenda jackson cast popeye splendid surreal world shelley duvalls olive oyl wonderful malta locations oc stiggs proposal antiadolescents flick beyond therapy lunacy presence genvieve page effort look parisian chic taken travestite even enjoyed oneact tv movies dumb waiter laundromat much plot develop films wonderful performances burnett john travolta kim basinger jane curtin perceive enjoy different approach description makes many different cultures united states pity genius seldom appreciated always forgotten time comes giving american prizes awards typical mainstream purveyor fantasies maverick surprising find many bad comments posted gingerbread man mainstream effort date knowledge know many people thought leonard maltin altman case one may dislike gingerbread man reason grisham directorscreenwriter altmans trademarks improvised dialogue great performances funny lawyers office typical irreverent receptionist secretary people find boring found first act fascinating thanks great cinematography changwei gu man shot red sorghum ju dou farewell concubine way showing us things see american movies different light foreigners gaze almost everything seems new different first act things logical true wait older may trouble fall spell someone younger beautiful embeth davidtz know done fascinated someone younger robert duvalls repellent menacing mysterious character geraldo storm threatening savannah second act gets little phony even funny altman may conducted grin remember laughing aloud several instances ironic remarks think applying bit brecht distancing us preparing us third act plain hollywood pastiche altman expertise wise man intelligent director luckily fall traps todays action movies directing tale lust greed death disappointed bit movie give nine instead grisham american reader turned bestselling author complain maybe thank altman showing us seams stories dullness flatness silliness much gusto humor disagree negative comments persons saw another movie vice versa overall give film decent start ill say love character portrayed adapted screen read comics occasionally simply watch dvd extras see blade character drastically different one see film among changes blade importantly half vampire acquiring strengths none weaknesses credit goes obviously david goyer fellow fan darker genre comic books thanks blade become much interesting character find one favorite antiheroes really wesley snipes born play role although wouldve probably pererred dezenel washington smith lol acting need exactly oscar winning per say considering character im glad decids play daywalker two sequels starring stephen dorff main villain kris kristofferson blades alfred speak acting good actually action keeps plot going sure opening scene club one favorite parts ive got say much movie things bother take away film ranking something spiderman xmen stephen norrington villains portrayed way much honestly lines full foul mouthed comedy really feel comic book film plus la magra bit disappointing final villain intense sword fight makes guess mention sense extra nonrealism black man leather coat sword beaing cop broad day light going unnoticed crowds walking seemed kindawelldumb moving away flaws music mark isham great fitted film nicely luckily problems fixed improved stunning sequel blade dear class st louis remember andrew madjarac heard disappeared went residential thingshorrible things say hes still hey im looking drummers vocalists im guitarist im making song rn need metalheads metallica megadeth play bass rhythm lead harmony parts need drummer vocalist drummer acoustic drums w recording system electric drums vocalist shoud microphone metal singing techniques dm anyone interested send details song later thanks lot might endim ive worked every kind job without degree feel nowhere go nothing make life easier know life worry bills extreme anxiety started point call work turn around soon parking lot cry sometimes angry know badly need money cant make go wake start dreading day bring often point sick stomach worry top boyfriend live rare disease causes go large periods able around work best help take care back forth hospital needs anxiety constant medical issues barely pay bills work mall one really large parking garage breaks im sit ledge top floor think easy everything leaned forward im strange case read internet guess im high functioning person depression anxiety nobody guess im dealing im bubbly happy person im around everyone im alone tears insides eats alive im week maybe away probably phone cut start try find something pawn maybe keep roof boyfriends head family helped us much speak mine often getting kicked gay life gotten way much stress bullshit feel everything matter many friends people love cant take away shit keeps happening ledge keeps sounding better better got ps reveal powerful bad boy gon na back march started saving buy one everyone knows release went wait saving grace walmart appeared able snag one arrived today word ghilli actually means small sharp wooden game instrument used game called ghillidanda precursor cricket india use word nickname principal character stylish signifies one sharp fast hurt badly rubbed wrong waybr br ghilli one best movies vijay unrivaled pace action movie never slacks moment keep always exciting action movie set madurai chennai story core simple rich landlord tries covet beautiful girl town unquestionable power authority prevents girl seeking justice hero tries rescue majority movie portrays week action happensbr br exciting movie though story nothing new director actors receive praise fullpaced action failed medical student probably wont live see next monthi dont know even bother posting itll help story wasted last years life trying go medicine went university high school got bachelors bio medical school fail returning medical leave feel ive wasted years life several thousand dollars soon nothing show im years old already life dead ended cant good job bachelors bio good job prospects fail sacrificed health social life well ill fat friends several thousand debt life direction hope left week reason hesitate die cuz im fucking coward id leaving parents debt ive diagnosed autism going kill myselfdue trauma mental health issues began experience fourteen never able develop life management personal skills im twentyfour now diagnosed autism despite abusive mother dysfunctional family quite functional overall happy life began fall part many friends got learners driving license summer job fourteen things okay though guess throughout childhood adolescence hold autistic traits repressing emotions along stress dealing family blew face fifteen developed severe case bulimia quickly took life basically l everyday years binge eat purge spent thousands thousands dollars money parents money lost friends motivation life hopes people knew used friends talked amongst saying life ruined one point butt peoples jokes say hey least life fucked flamingtrashmonsters lost ability much anything eighteen constantly drunk bingeing purging kicked familys home lived alone barren apartment filled food wrappers empty bottles sucks realized autistic child avoided demands recovery far great manage diagnosis autism basically tells need better fuck ton work even think possible going kill live longer im much better eighteen im school function certain level meet demands life still feel act fucked fucked im fucked going go away better life pain moments happiness thrown times anyone got full prophecy true copypasta got ta send friend cant find im thinking admitting myselfim meds arent helping enough ive trying psychologist therapist something cant see anyone nice tried least six different therapistpsychologists cant help feel something wrong brain anxiety spiral hard im sure protect anymore im visual thoughts know need help ive trying hard one listen love parents life isnt fairno one told life fair hell ive shown quite opposite matter thought life past seven eight years moving another state downright sucky parents kindest thoughtful people know mom fucking hell dad wants make people happy mother gave dream vet gave dream finishing cosmetology needed help family things got tough losing house got housekeeping job hotel people fucking rude got hired school unbelievably racist lady ruined life health mothers body still suffering day hardships endured seen mom become happy young lady woman struggling stay awake childhood hell hearing much hoped adulthood better father worked company ended owing money lost house barely got see child losing job spending time us moved obstacle used seeing speaking man barely knew closed trust much moved point probably wondering getting family thing past seven years tried kill two years ago obviously ones tried cared ones truly teared thought even say selfish things shit hurts theyre still yet people fucking audacity think worried opinion way think decide one day laying bed needed next two weeks mom first notice stupid little bitch snapchat decided message dry reply cry corner want die dad first one care dumbass boy school work fucking wherever addicted weed sex care anyone whole thing gon na sound motherfucking high mighty im sorry ive come realization late night ive caring longest others matter caring people raised wanted best hanging people without family ive always thought childish fuck maybe love family want focuses people wanted survive even meant disappointing little dont want look back younger years see faces people didnt give fuck whether suicidal dont want look back see people questioning suicidal thoughts suicidal enough taken seriously wan na look back remember mom worried dad worried brother nightmare night tried kill dying want remember people really cared family fucking need tldr life fair love family need anyone rest peace alex trebek heaven received another legend plans future mine plan work hard dream job marry boyfriend kids become special person plan b live life easy marry rich man plan c stripper tall lanky somehow monster dick weird world dad found swearing internet dad found swearing im internet honestly want advice found swearing used phone sleeping looking private chats friends swearing included honestly coming im pissed took phone sleeping need help honestly think cares chickens rather children bought weighing machine chickens useless eyes pathetic purpose life everyone say betteri remember first time felt depressed around got first phone talking friends one day told know live anymore felt given told chin much live really changed keep hearing answer better better fuck told justification wake one day said oh look life better yes suicidal years one told suffering cope look years cant even look one day look telescope glass broken feel angered depression anxiety everyone telling worry die peace gun head scared pull trigger hope now gone man watching street waiting something interesting actually happen apologize lot chest im done life anyone talk im bored wan na talk someone tad bit anyone im age matters constantly face much redflag school makes extremely depressed hard cope dont know redflagdepression anything memory performance ive noticed remember lot less compared wasnt depressed anxious state hours end contemplate procrastinate everyday depressing life sad group chat lol hmu ur snap make gc join long ur teen lol worked courage message crush got left opened meant feel relieved big step someone struggles new people help others cope mental illness friend recently told diagnosed mild depression opened honestly idea help told always needed anything check every honestly im dark really idea help situation kinda feel helpless really say things need help one point another lives ok ask help cheesy shit im need anything really say kind situation native americas subreddit whats tribes culture religion ask found im part choctaw studying native american religions cultures trans people go prison something illegal jon voight brilliant midnight cowboy hoffmans performance though reminiscent later turn rainman kind performance keeps watching movies portrayal new york character daniel day lewis portrayal bill butcher gangs new york comes mind comparable day give character emotional depth hoffman gives ratso br br typical hoffmans way acting actor tend identify midnight cowboy voight think hoffman one best actors history film playing people around way raises performances far normal levels br br voights buck naive float film altogether except ratso pulls pulls teaches lot survive importantly livebr br midnight cowboy movie escape turns movie finding think gritty movie beautiful message matter much loser might ratso clearly defines loser find way true possession secret life might even able share insight someone br br cant help compare midnight cowboy klute years later think movie finding turns movie escape need help dont know lookive suicidal ive close actual attempts though feel im done everything im worn dont even feel alive human anymore im tired living one biggest issues effects every single day life im extremely insecure makes paranoid almost delusional recognize understand feel may actually real cant help feeling becomes reality mind insecurities make relationships hard last relationship first issues much handle cant trust cant believe cant open ive hurt emotionally vulnerable never forgave know need professional help dont money damn shame dont make enough money help keep alive whats worse one talk arent many people understand dont many friends understand judgmental family make fun insecure suicidal dont know doubt redflag helpline offer anything useful know anything might help let know want dieand depressed sad unhealthy reached age realize living pointless lie nothing used think life early childhood valid bullshit point deep inside life accident ok dead fuck shit feeling waywhat shohei imamauras black rain released onset aids epidemic fact gives film slow deterioration hiroshima radiation victims added poignancy black rain title refers combination ash radioactive fallout water fell one two hours explosion books films dropping atomic bomb none unique powerful one based novel masuji ibuse gathered information interviews diaries reallife bomb victims film depicts entire family affected psychologically well physically bomb years original explosion horrifying vision one resonates deep compassion humanity br br film begins hiroshima august soldiers civilians go normal daily activities suddenly blinding light flashes thunderous blast heard almost every single building destroyed damaged beyond repair first atomic bomb dropped city part history survivors must somehow restart lives unaware bombs devastating effects filmed highcontrast black white story centers around yasuko yoshiko tanaka young woman caught radioactive rain boat heads back city search friends relatives hiroshima imamura shows us indelible images remain us young boy skin hanging body pleads brother recognize older man tears inability free son piles debris mother torment rocks blackened body childbr br family returns rural home yasukos life forever changed sees friends dying around waits inevitable bouts radiation sickness already affected uncle shigematsu shimuza kazuo kitamura aunt shigeko shimuza etsuko ichihara pretending business usual family denies bomb affected yasuko forgot hiroshima nagasaki destroyed everyone forgot forget hell fire go rallies annual festival im sick says friend katayama akiji kobayashi yasuko internalizes tragedy feeling shame different others guilty contaminatedbr br aunt uncle try find husband eligible men refuse marry suspicions health even though shigematsu copied diary prove directly exposed bomb suitor feels comfortable another damaged man yuichi keisuke ishida panic attack every time hears roar engine end beauty life shows fleetingly yasuko goes pond sees sight longing life king carp jumping water playfully say beyond despair still joy sadly hear radio statements politicians using bomb korean war human beings learn nothing says shigematsu strangle unjust peace better war justice cant see immamuras black rain hopefully allowed us see clearly bruh thought lost bunch old pictures wanted found old hard drive plus tb tb gb ssds pc lol almost passed pe lesson okay boxing pe warmup needed jump rope minutes straight eventually vision got blurry chest pain didnt tell anyone realized needed watch squared annoying kid prob hurted lot guys rest girls us boys show see whos best anyone figured discord open everytime run computer ima bout uninstall bitch swear god filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler hanging likethis probably asked million times already anyway describe general physical experience managed fail cant keep goingthis life hell cant anything even good anymore smallest things piss dont anything make posts people message saying theyll check always forget deep dont fucking care method take life life constant suffering better removed people wouldnt listen bullshit sadness need way give method please japanese probably sadistic movies around worldand one strongest exampleswith running time hourit contains enough sexual violence gore disgust every single sane person eartheven hunting type moviesthree men woman making porn filmafter normally shotswhich pixelatedthe girl tied upand madmen cut foodarm tongafter thatthey make hole abdomen man sexual intercourse intestineshe knocked unconscious penis cut offthe special effects good obviously low budget productiononly tong cut scene looks fakeand cant talk actingdirection screenplayafter hearing lot filmi happy finally found itthe first part pretty boringbut second one totally fk mindthe torture killing scenes extreme disturbing seenthe gore hounds satisfied tumbling doll fleshbut unknowing viewer even read synopsis one support abolishment police means commit murders zero accountability anyone wan na visit swamp midnight im sitting feet soaking class feet soaked rotting shoes im another hour half going develop tench foot help bombed job interviewthats god telling dont deserve live fucked much barely talk goddamn anxiety attack looked ducking stupid im stupid jobs im stupid breathe dont know im fucking stupid needed job badly time fucking fuck ducking kidding needed one time one single goddamn filthy thing worked interview something highly underqualified ive ruined ive ruined fucking everything need advice relationship m liked girl gathered courage text went well course weeks texted daily confessed later liked told liked problem think relationship parents strict nodating policy much want make parents mad earned trust years wan na tell idk even begin ight im sick nice join fucking snapchat call cunts im sorry aggressive join call friend aaron bye loser virgins girlfriend think shes fucking united states made bubble wrap everyone sorting new gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt 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depressed panic attacks ways hurt kill tell everything never remember feeling mentally okay learned tried taking lot tylenol didnt work really thought counts became much trauma childhood along current burdens tired didnt work day wish survival today shown much best friend tried kill last week rope broke friends brother committed redflag worked hes gone forever im thinking unfair best friend got second change brother hes gone forever hate regretting fact alive much cause got second chance guess wish died someone got second chance sorry nonsense let ive felt long time redflag im going goive fantasized killing years feel really close tonight im complete piece shit human nothing left nothing world brings joy tired bieng usedim m girlfriend using exes never relationship someone wasnt cheating one idk shes cheating shes using sure used live town shes come back got together first time hung etc stayed well time shes coming took whole time days well wont see night soon pick airport wants drive two towns drop friends house go pick night whenever theyre done hanging next day shes getting picked place pick evening shes done saturday cancelled plans date night friends sunday take airport im gon na plan killing car dropping cleaned car bought plastic sheets tarp back seat floors clean easy airport body found shortly im tired bieng used cheated everything book theres something wrong might well fix problem right hate myselfeveryone better way school intelligence socializing art sports videogame heck uniqueness even im ugly person nothing interesting even bet eye tried ignore simply improve cant one willing talk parent fed go study crap got major utterly dislike amateur skill incompetent anything every friend want take advantage want die want see disappointed face isolated feeling endless amount anxiety diary thing day day hi today post short lying bed whole day anything interesting im solving square sec current average sec sorry short post hope day interesting idk everyone talking wanting choked time shine got great hands profile hand pics flexing videos acc coming choking business man business whats fastest way kill myselfim fucking done everything give fastest way literally contemplating either dosing putting plastic bag head sleep jumping bridge tonight im life worth living anymore dont see living past seeing couple years now afraid interesting enough feel weird texting conversation end feel awkward gives mad redflag ghosted friends months thought forcing reply thought makes anxious bring achieve anyone found solution maybe cbt therapy already btw text back friends everyone gives give myselfi tried hard sorts bad things happening anger sadness depression recently started taking antidepressant zoloft taking birth control pills made suicidal thoughts go roof major mood swings days cant function ive way clingy thought persevering okay going well im going stop taking fucked fucked person really matters gave im going rough time obviously owe wish given made feel world collapsing beautiful going succeed changed mind lot things nobody able thinking might want kid someone able love someone able open care felt important valued first time life breakdown two days ago made look fool telling badly needed say word tell even say good bye best friend years bestest friend recent fell love ruined everything im much take dinner ski trip parents birthday spend many nights tell loves disappear always ruin everything always happens care much let people inside walls disappear even thats im worth im going make st birthday ive enough cant anymore cant keep letting people find problems worse around christmas birthday every year disappear hope die tonight theres really much left anymore cant trust anyone cant let anyone everyone help pour soul cry sit suicidal moments nobody always ends giving told different wonderful person best friend three years least gone cant take control emotions first break heart give without word last cant anymore bad times obviously outweigh good things offer everyone leaves least leave first choice anymore christmas day feel slitting wriststhe bar higher perfect child one sad tired time kind girl without hesitation help anyone im absolutely sick rant chest sorry stopped read harry potter spells existed use obliviate loved ones memories disappear somewhere instead dyingfor know obliviate forgetfulness charm harry potter universe erase particular memories someone perhaps use erase trauma try live happily use someone die anyway mourn death stranger im curious sometimes sad know last night spent several hours crying intermittently episodes teen years old exhausting feel emotion least numb guess much cry finally done feel lost life point need make decisions live direction take career even want career partner developed feelings someone wants casual fwb type involvement gone along many options making feel bad want think deserve angry allowing taken advantage emotionally unavailable man knew exactly getting part foolishly thought change mind point want kind relationship want feel need end move made casual involvements quit drinking alcohol days ago completely sober positive change feeling everything without buffer therapy age suppose learned things made positive changes done nothing change fact capacity feeling deep profound sadness seems bottom maybe actually kind gift sure maybe life really sad maybe life actually sad surgery successful hey surgery earlier day surprising much thought suck mean maybe five hours later life kinda returned normal two hours talk three eat still crunchy foods soft things soup reason remember sister didnt end coming appointment didnt say weird shit anesthesia fact think regained control minutes waking sister use rent every time got movies parents mad let us anyways love iti cant find anyone lives near knows talking aboutim glad see im one loved moviei wish find dvd somewhere love watch bc loved much little kidand im now remember much itthats got little bunny fufu song friends know song movie think little girl got sliding slide little playground thing much enjoyed revolution televised gave notredflag feeling power people decide wish governedbr br unfortunate venezuela twenty percent wealthy citizens made decisions eighty percent poor decades centuries coup failed interim government dissolved supreme court constitution ombudsman electoral boards civil rights one took plotters behind barn somewhere shot even gone jail major plotters living florida carrying protection bolivarian constitution passed large majority venezuelan people history bites democracy give one hell nip let loose venezuela loose feeling emptymy depression worsening quickly lately hate much feel ignored friends extremely suicidal im alone idea head cant stop thinking wanting dead know want feel appreciated want feel empty anymore quit job end alla little background im year old guy diagnosed borderline personality disorder recently started therapy going start group work retail cashier nearly every coworker around age feel pretty good albeit superficial relationship everyone im mostly quiet sometimes bubbly energetic guy manager pretty close especially discuss anxiety months ago started crushing hard new coworker asked find already relationship outside say cool remain friends inside im devastated romanticized put pedal one started dating problems low self esteem go away mean amazing person told loved surely id never feel bad fit feelings jokingly told manager wanted kill girls boyfriend obviously joking manager laughed along even told manager actually thinking hurt intense fear social rejection im paranoid everyone around talking behind back making fun purposely inviting stems experiences believes abuser middle high school incident college confided friend suicidality lead shaming telling rest class leading ostracizing open feelings bit ass great number times today ended working coworker crush asks ive talking behind back heard lot people im obsessed want kill boyfriend able explain told manager joke said seemed okay know truth manager confided told secrets everyone actually making fun behind back caused worst fears come true decision quit job ive always hated wanted quit anyway realize im overreacting situation work tomorrow im thinking calling quitting phone without giving reason want make one phone call never think place im currently living family car payments bills every month honest want quit job release album kill want another job another chance embarrassment another chance failure another chance ruining everything im damn tired care life anymore maybe im overreacting cant tell unga bunga oog toog oog nog booga baga gook nug beel lies lies day lies end next week hope gonei cant function person future past ive come close backed time different ill either die overdose destroyed liver either way want cant anymore goodbye thank past help im doneim going kill im done im lonely unloved cant handle anymore im gon na taka gun shoot one even care redflag act honornot escape pain sadness merely pay respect world leave gradiently become even stupid redflag incompetent point struggles ohhh suffering stem purely incompetence arrogance redflag cant offer life world infinite flaws past shitfest wrong decisions redflag made stupid head redflag redflag finally lets inside begin talk hes drunk always schedules differ couple hours whenever home always drunk sat counter calling names smack chest worst mistake life never hit fully believe dish couldnt agree comment left coldshitaction film masterpiece never seen film adrenalin flowing film mostly happened bronson comes running fire escape m plows dude gang genius quite possibly best action movie made exaggeration either really best action movie made start one know youre something sweet police let bronson go tell tell clean slums genius bronson bad ass paul kersey cool maybe even cooler john mcclain terminator hes simply bad ass great fact hes nice guy buys kid ice cream helps old couple kills scum bag genius highly recommended hate movie crazy love every single one youhey guys want say love cant love know love even insufficiencies past misdeeds please dont hurt anymore deserve best god bless doneim going kill tonight im behind bills hope daughter forgives wan na feel old big fortnite explosion game absolutely dominated every platform kids go private schools fuck rich cunts private schools shit first day christmas true love gave nothing im single lmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaooooooooooooooooooooooooo kubrick puts display stunning ability craft perfect ambiance film mainly cinematography using ingenious score creates chilling ominous tone resides entire film thoroughly gets spine tingling start really flawless ambiance makes shining masterpiece eyes course hurt jack nicholson gives one greatest performances ive seen frighteningly authentic portrayal mind gone mad duvall lloyd artificial nice easy look past two rest film brilliant plus features actor greatest name time scatman crothers sister cheated minecraft world im annoyed play world months playing today went go change skin pressed settings know saw achievements earned world called insisted didnt im annoyed fuck feel ending life every day exception whatever strength tell anyone either burden attention whore mild irritant already feel make everything touch worse telling someone care make better old therapist told opening make feel better made feel much much worse least parents mother blames father believe therapy help keeps saying teenage thing doctors put label makes feel prove mentally ill something friends try help really anything feel even shittier talking gf bc got defective partner want die fuckin prison feel nothing feel horrible please kill mesorry chaotic something needed type tell anyone died spared everyone troublea little year ago tried kill hospitalized released thinking things going better past year ive able control suicidal thoughts depression spiraling control got trouble school morning hospitalized spent hour room mom listening cry fault id died last year couldve saved everyone trouble going sorryto world sorry waste years siblings sorry older brother deserved parents sorry man imagined id friends sorry treated terribly hopefully fade memory find someone treats way shouldve people believed sorry strong enough people read sorry wasted time im backso thought feeling went away nothing name need help bad real help well wishes hang buddy try dig sadness pulls right back many problems mentally financially name im mind enough dont want homeless bum living center life peak year ago slowly slipped hands im sorry im tired feeling lonelyi people consider decent acquaintances whenever need vent issues im always listen whenever want vent either ignore shut talk issues glaze anything ive said people going things thought talking makes feel ill burden adding already full list shit theyre dealing frustrating family disowned dating outside race pandemic help cant go meet people way things use feel life purpose thoughts words value anyone feel fit world never direction float along really feel outsider looking wish someone really vibe someone whos nonjudgmental unconditionally loving understanding thats literally ive wanted even lover another human share human experiences want die amazes amount shitty humans remain full support team someone kind generous loving truthful shit end life stick tried chopping wood aggressively rid negative thoughts following idea safety plan taking shower helped feel crying useless now bring change ill still feel lonely tomorrow next day understand im still knowing one way ticket comforting im chicken shit use world full people resort internet link likeminded individuals feel sort peace quite tragic feel good halloween movies filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler want someone listen help littlelately interest anything dont meet friends dont see profit dont study dont see long term profit hobbies using help distract starting fail duty problems started really soon life family catholic luck borning bisexual good combination guess made think borned girl everybody accept easier girls love boys thats center post sometimes notion nobody likes nobody dont talk love talk friendships family started wondering happen comit redflag right now everybody react throughts became serious time point spending long nights awake plan steps writing letters etc boxes filled letters explaining example hobby already practice osdeveloping love im scared someday apparent distraction dissapears advices want talk thanks advance distant girlfriend tried kill herselfshe seriously hope anymore tonight spoke week passing fight really honest conversation know ive crying night slept yet want teleport place snatch away seem go either anymore even moving bad place depression hearing brutally honest words encouraging seriously know anymore reason smiled work want die want marry cant move never ok cant help scribble together words without crying anybody flirt girls respond go hold wait one second wasnt prepared step totally awesome movie seen yet damn well sure plot slow develop special effects laughable acting ridiculous action badly choreographed wrestler ddp say thats bad thingthats good thing everything movie hilarious especially dubbed version even worse actors countless laughs end yearning sequel mummy fights wrestling women thus give ten stars unless one discriminating intelligent people good taste likes high quality films highest calibre recommend utterly monkeydellic movie know new ui bad insecurities built cant handle anymorei feel worthless im strong enough tall enough eczema dry skin acne oily skin fucking stupid probably dumbest penis really small want kill cant stop thinking matter even work bigger even better skincare one day im never gon na keep girlfriend whatever know problems small compared things people go still eats away maybe thats another sign weakness ehjust deleted rest friends social media heard years replies reach figure point theres one left stopping still dont want feel sad hear news remember never will maybe years time theyll remember look see happened doubt theyll care everyone moves one right least thats im counting lost job already months ago im feeling pretty damn worthless right now thoughts ending keep rattling head cant anything right anyone love movie think hilarious spoof old gangster movies never seen watch instead michael keaton ball role anything goes one guy mangles english language everytime talks griffin dunn plays clueless da favorite role got joe piscopo best lines danny devito alan hale ray walston starstudded movie lampoons gangsters lot funnier mafia criminal underground feel trashi got banned discord server making redflag threat even though wanted commit redflag times feel piece garbage past want die mod never forgave mocking mental health trolling even though wasnt wrong didnt take help askedwhen gave declined idk still living ive said loud want commit redflag cant live world havent done anything dreams ive wasted countless years opportunities worrying act sat ps whats wrong one except online friends wish friends girl boy want feel happiness feel love friend even girlfriend im incapable love one wanted want honestly disappear wanted apologize mod banned forever server finding hasnt forgave hope sees message make want change cant find willpower within feel entertained working feel entertained playing im lazy ugly skinny loser feel embarrassed whenever people school ask still friends dont know actually want become game developer programmer artist animator cant school procrastination want become artist make manga comics cant im worthless want feel love feel cuddling someone handle pleasuring women whod deny quickly boyfriend idk please someone help im sorry ive done bad things life pleasuring gym bleachers th grade cheating test th grade idk feel dumb want end christmas bye guys feeling coming back feel jumping infront train tomorrow ill never girlfriend anywayive friendzoned way many fuckin times hug aww wheres fucking oops looks im born earth single well dont mind love playing games surfing gag everyday know ill last know mean person billion special fuck right must well ill never girlfriend im never kissed sex smoked clubbed friends moved countries pretty much spend lonely nights home yep fuck im going die tomorrow whats point living im going suffer shitty world shitty society shitty standards shitty epxectations fucking girl fuck oh shitty system fuck everything hate dad treats mom hate even takes tells complacentmy dad quite frankly giant piece shit mom forced marry wasnt picture months born forced mom pick life move little warning hes completely fucking terrible preschool physically abused makes jokes havent suicidal fucking makes extremely disgusting sexual comments body calls whore regularly thinks im overall biggest slut walked earth reference basicallt wear abaya everyday constantly orders mom around degraded often making cry least day tells shut stop sensitive mother openly admitted save husband children shed pick want love mom really slave original thoughts says jump says cliff asked lower voice earlier today screams talks working papers ran stairs call worthless whore never enough parents one world loves wish kill shed understand kind person aunt killed husband think shell end way want fuckin die traveling around world dawned australia really lacks one thing countries historybr br fortunately unfortunately australia establish following war civil war political history rather boring nothing big happened mark sort turning point australias history dismissal whitlam government governorgeneral australia john kerrbr br australian skip paragraph move onto next benefit curious nonaustralians australia colonised british time went became apparent australia capable standing two feet accordingly uk granted australia permission establish parliaments laws courts law politics australia longer provided directly british rather australia run australians right even though courts precedents parliament largely modeled british system shift codified australian constitution despite fact constitution lawfully establishes australian governments lawmaking procedures courts curious bill rights two procrown sections included remain day less regarded reserve powers crown kingqueen great britain first group sections relates creation office governorgeneral briefly governorgeneral considered queens chief representative australia described executive branch australian government piece law passed australian parliament constitution states becomes law signed governorgeneral govenorgeneral regarded nothing rubber stamper performing archaic unnecessary constitutional function behalf crown theoretically governorgeneral refuse sign law passed australian parliament thinks fit instance parliament passed law allows police shoot dead australian age hypothetically course gg refuse sign become law land power theoretical date never exercised convention buzz word events leading dismissal governorgeneral virtually acts behest australian government government passes law prime minister instructs governorgeneral sign will almost always without question fact convention governorgeneral acts accordance advice provided prime minister day prime minister alone second aspect section constitution states government ministers hold office governorgenerals pleasure events covered film gave rise precedent particular section governorgeneral somehow displeased government andor prime minister appear section allows lawfully sack government happened title film dismissal whether governorgenerals pleasure construed unfettered right dismiss contentious point though led rather heated exchanges amongst australians time especially considering governorgeneral elected people australiabr br now background aspect way lets back discussing film well made pace patient drag drama well contained realistic overdramatise events importantly present point view one political perspective contrary felt fair balanced even though concluding text credits indicates filmmakers probably approve governorgenerals decision dismiss whitlam government describe film overall bias one direction otherbr br terms accuracy virtually spot filmmakers certainly homework evidently read books writings principle players concerned number finer details somewhat skipped largely took long time explain ultimately little impact events forgive think difficult recreate public sentiment postvietnam war era noyce pretty much pulled offbr br finally pleased film attempted raise individual policies sides without becoming analytical obsessive judgmental moreover raised example connors pipeline great deal relevance story film makers realised task tell story events leading dismissal present political endorsement opposition relation policies viewpoints smart meant film cant accused misrepresenting one sides policiesbr br dismissal probably incredible piece political history occurred australia short life glad crystallized celluloid essential viewing australian canot post image meme help whats best way redflagi know many ways dont want fail im saved even troubles thing happened future fucked im nyu student many rooftops nyc jumping good idea ps know lot hotlines mental health service school calm decision come realizations th grade bullied way much theres nonstop violence punching hit hard surfaces pure terror fucks sake kid brought fucking bb gun school metal detectors nothing anyways lead permanent trauma never forget happened everyday non stop panic attacks fights starting form despite still try make friends later realize make friends friends manipulators assholes violent starting friend number one mention name protect lets call raisin stupid name ik move anyways always lie inject fear wanted range giving snacks giving toys money mom gave comply match im tall fight wimp small know fight knew took advantage threatening comply lost lot belongings mom worked super hard used manipulated owm ego moving friend number way smaller let size fool backstabber manipulator blackmailer ruin reputation say lets say losing reputation old school wasnt fun anyways always make douche moves kids good even worse friends raisin instantly destrory others met beat manipulated backstabbed people straight awful running recess accidentally bumped powerful tankiest dude school got mad grabbed neck throw snowball got hurt really badly vouched never go near againsecond second friend backstabbed secrets crush first ohhh probably embarssed crush someone kid already surprise surprise beat welp kid told girl boy found got beat tiered tired telling teachers jack shit got pummeled one friends worked nothing got slammed stairs switching schools option living abusive relationship mom dad broke mom popped new boyfriend first thought oh nice guy looks handsome looked nice little know far truth hed always come back drunk yell mom always something bad manner forced us escape two shelters mom anything forced school want write much cause already long hurts write heres last thing left traumatized crying pain tears one day kid grabbed dragged bathroom threw got sprayer filled pee kids started spraying pee kicking soccer ball lasted two minutes left crying looking glasses saying whywhyall wanted friends wanted benice mean harm realized used friends actually friends people many horrible things used knew weak rookie made go really sad angry confused tried commit redflag relive pain take tried recover went therapy telling mom got bit better day still leaves traumatized affected acted middle school forgiven moved life ill still ptsd time time im chill actual friends im ok school damm long im asking sympathy karma lesson careful want friends weak defend always strong someone insults insult back scared learn forgive matter somebody must seek help learn forgive forgive live negative energy hold back life although really hard must forgive move knowing forgiving move life longer live negative feeling finally friends see hope wrong longer anyway great day night later worst day life opened fortune cookie fortune hurt worse getting rejected girl one best friends known really want dead unfortunately forced stop considering option due certain reasons living world knowing want dead makes everything pointless forced keep body alive little necessary survivei mean anyone genuinely look future see anything worthwhile people fucking see hell bed worst part matter many times try think way end getting nowhere nowhere go thing life worth living tomorrow working towards never comethis cycle never ends continue come realization belong right come realization nothing continue frustrated futility efforts continue try obligation continue absolutely fucking whereampxbampxbcheers working towards tomorrow never come hurts know might go years growing czechoslovakia following history raf pilots crews wwii great britain stories tragic ending either combat communist prisons camps without doubt dark chapter history although fact brave men able go recover afterward amazing people want see great moviethis one recent visit czech republic saw movie three times three days playing three daysotherwise go see even times worth hope enjoy although requires little thinking knowledge background information behind story pretty much way movie kolya simple movie deep story way told likely make cryingit three times row zdenek sverak always great script son jan made great movie cast without doubt great job amazed ondrej vetchy great role played oldrich kaiser actors made movie simply great oscar nomination think strike holywood update telling crush said obvious said needed think ended sentence heart emoji hopefully says yes really ill post update happens started depression october relationship listening understood partner put guilt even thought everything fault shit sees patient person gf home everyone disrespect point everything got worse partner decide end things guilt still friends really really thought given false empathy makes edge reason kill parents want hurt feeling worst still hard support psy came culture talking seeing psy crazy difficult open someone see false empathy feel sad empty exhausted hard sub go minutes without post wow im slipping away redflag getting closeri really reason ive depressed kid im right now extreme anxiety issues diagnosed add aspergers syndrome understand people im introvert im lonely make sense family wonderful loving waste days away playing video games escape now even im constantly bored school terrible im bullied nobody talks nobody really considers friend think im going slit wrists end tonight keep upive always kind overweight obese big guy ive always depressed guess two kind go together eat junk feel bad two months ago er visit told affecting liver coupled family history resolved better changed diet fried food sugar exercise daily ive really really good first positive change ive resolved make proud id start losing id confident id feel better moving maybe even id work courage ask someone todays weighin weigh started ive lost maybe pound know im wrong two months came rushing back im going always big miserable lonely person im fooling thinking make better keep try make change im going end anyway give go back coping easier see point friend mine tried commit redflag yesterdayand need advice little background info yesterday exgirlfriend im still close called told friend lets call leon tried kill failed leon friend years now best friend talk love sex stuff instead talking suicidal thoughts talked exgf supportive person mentioned guideline rswrecources want worry whatever instantly called leon skype hearing talked tried make stop chance litterally zero seems nothing leon want tell people redflag attempt cant sit around waiting kill point care anymore thinks want save love much respect tell anyone make first move inform people probably stop killing brother arranged meeting leon today busy cant try another time hope leon shows shitty feeling wake know whether best friend still alive lem explain jojo plot simple possible blue haired guy beaths shit stepbro tried magic mask revenge steals head brown haired guy beats shit outnof gay men sunlight powers dressing woman looking mothers ass black haired guy stepbro epic starebattle imaginary friends purple clothed men wants live peacefully fight son woman brown haired guy cheated yellow dude donut hair son blue haired guy stebro shares fathers italian maffia know someone whos planning whats best course actiontheyve talking weeks planning redflag soon want give away many details theyve told plan date ive tried feel powerless highly doubt anything say change mind im one theyve really told well ive relayed lot information one friends feel nearly enough called hotline really said give number im desperate freaking much time left know anyone advice question think phones radiation bad mom thinks im trying evidence false true want share opinion give sources please know contains spoilers want risk blacklisted year br br disagree entirely viewer comments described guns germs steel politically correct neomarxist watched series didbr br series watched depicted history european colonisation americas southern africa particular inaccuracies saw nothing series portrayed europeans bad people happened lucky though europeans often lucky theres nothing wrong luck neither see native peoples portrayed poor little innocent things anything inca rather arrogant expect leader dealing foreigners country conquered living memory world power br br certainly saw nothing construed marxist neomarxist except incredibly elastic imaginationsbr br many african peoples builtin immunity malaria tropical diseases europeans lack time height successes aztec maya inca civilisations advanced world wealthy sometimes aboriginal american khoisan populations decimated smallpox diseases introduced europeans european colonists decimated tropical diseases malaria note khoisan peoples completely different subsaharan african peoples br br see commentators complaining thing find complain series tell anything know time finished seventh grade theres really nothing new way historical information film present nice dramatisations events conquest incas production values high fills holes covered mrs grubers sixth hour social studies class milan middle schoolbr br rent buy assuming decent primary andor secondary school education learn anything new enjoyable entertaining time reviewing already learned learned time hit high school film one resounding familiarity earthy grounded film make thinkand smile paul reiser peter falk take journey forget soundtrack beautifully varied fitting film breath fresh air surely deserves recognition film actors finally piece art departs obvious love story frequent special affects seen today never walked movie deep warmth feeling thoughtfulness heart felt someone wrapped fluffy fleece blanket see film find real treasure delight best gun ammo commit redflag withbudget willing consider options convenient effective firearm license permit something need beforehand location georgia usa im planning shot head planning heroine overdose id probably mess injection im good needles pay someone kill open option feel im years old body mind story wrongly executed prisoner haunts prison electrocuted kills random prisoners waiting take revenge man framed himbr br viggo mortensen great acting pretty good overall lane smith deliciously wicked guilty warden film great gore including death barbedwire mummification consider suicidal buti dont know right place post yeahh say im suicidal see future happy living world maybe im lazy idk im pretty analytical think killing best option im afraid dying know im going kill im junior highschool help understand means really feel motivated im really happy time im particularly depressed sorry ramble ive talked doctor depression terrible adhd mom loses job im dont feel dealing shit dont feel anything prolly going delete ramble tldr cant imagine future dont want live backwards society consider suicidal wonder anybody knows feel careful data want call names someone dms asks download app likely steal data quick buck spam ads quick buck created ripoff quick buck please dummy use common sense even see whatever asked download positive feedback buying person china cheap buying fake feedback cheaper download shit teenager subreddit everyone think ahead oh yea one thing give away personal information think twice talking someone personal information think even think careful one safe thanks time wonderful day im happy im blackdying cop x easier ready unreadyi got everything planned written redflag note plan kill think everyday kill finding harder harder talk hate hate fucking much want suck talk anyone anymore without bringing shitty thoughts lately seriously friend talk pathetic existence love someone save far beyond broken reached breaking point long fucking time ago done tired exhausted redflag mind put enough seriously relentless feel enough stop hate miss happy miss waking actually looking forward things tired trying find safety thoughts tired isolating fucked friend right now seriously want things better know happen really really know one people affects seriously endure empty enough taken take please stop nothingi want nothing ambition want anything stop please stop want find peace venting feel im play one without scripti never social cues anymore read peoples emotions faces anymore ive started isolate everybody tbh know happened used different social many friends guess must caught something makes complete socially awkward person now anxiety well makes life fucking hard live moments want turn mind increasingly reaching limit feel fucking retarded ive tried help many times many occasions obvious time ive suppressed im going make sure anymore might read couple weeks think damn fucking consider makes much sense thats im conflicted hey wsp bigmanwoman daily homie checkup missed many days im wits endi figured id come everything seeing pretty much nowhere turn moment everything sort piled onto feel worth continuing life appeal right now feels older worse handed physically mentally sexually abused childhoodadolescence cant caused develop severe problems depression anxiety selfworth issues cant keep steady relationship anyone im constantly questioning every move last night boyfriend broke enough finally told actually loved now im left wondering wrong make someone says care leave top issues everyone around school im finish sophomore year university cant deal anymore able keep grades keep getting worse worse cant even sit classes without leave frequent panic attacks im physical pain percent time number things wrong body medicine working anymore cant take pain anymore figure im going weak sick rest long itd easier end things now know anymore nothing seems work make feel better im tired given know millions people worse ending seems easy option right now know redflag seems selfish cant help think im social outcast picked many people school know im always stepped treated garbage friends entered bike shed today someone said rarded gang im prone name calling people walking saying want friend hear irony voices tips reddit infinite values twice many infinite values figure math pricks better die means saving hersometimes vivid thoughts usually dreams sometimes happen im awake ampxb see bruised bloodied crying front see feel warmth hands feel smell blood see hurt dont always beautiful matter looks sounds time always see bleeding head cowering fear horrible always know im responsible sometime even sobs stop cant take know never loved wanted even infinitesimally small chance reality better die loneliness enough make want kill even somehow somehow wrong better die anyway protect whoever future victim wouldve know ill never loved saw experienced physical sexual emotional abuse whos say girl love worth dying make sure chance future girlfriend exist finds someone actually take care instead someone wholl carry pain take anymore redflag redflag feeling hopelessness loneliness smallest thing set makes want end try talk feelings others end scaring friends away making parents mad end getting fights loved ones want kill badly courage feel bad parents thought jumping balcony many times think family discovering corpse iton second thought people say entitled make things head make effort better might well seems life worth anyway want nothing never exist please help boy boy iam completely exhausted day face problems sometime parents fight extremesometimes due financial pressure many things know handle never share problems always tries try handle things never express feelings easily always tries look happy forcing smile mostly stay alone think hours hours today got results failed whole well faced major accident bones broked hardly stand straight somtime think redflag hanging self fan pillar knewif knew years abuse earliest memories life caused develop depression anxiety fear expressing emotions trying hardest cry least alone behind closed doors knew constant pain put innocent little girl without mommy thanks marriage ended divorce made sure know war taking everything mommy adored courts im even daughter anymore unless count supervised visits last couple minutes took life clothes home papaws belongings gone daughter lost father going divorce told lost custody baby girl people knew many times yelled knowing years old drunk driving home grew always ignored leaving home alone drunk party occassions pick drinking whole night remember find jacket remember one navy blue got angry threw across room front aunt cousins put arm protect scared little girl becoming teenager want heard lied avoid punishment scared talk knew amount times grabbed hair threw floor hit head pushed floor knew slot belongs broken holes bedroom wall thing threw yelling never caring pain caused linger throughout adult years father one ill love lose knew much wish mess emotions wish tell im sorry took venting right rude always appreciated loving kind wish knew loved every moment spent getting closer wish knew amount love knew find love heal past abuse mean well die anyway someday die want considered bad insane past japan example normal thing commit suicide remove shame even honourable ok kill day kind protest kill nothing even suffering much know form shame understand big deal humans die anyway someday matter die years earlier later times ok honourable death let see optimistically negatively fuck die know describe see optimistically suffer much still want die things fucked see relief salvation fuck ups know sound kid feels cool feeling watch movie tough good guy main character even tough code kill children stab back give chance defend etc codes seems cool thing feels code feels cool bad kill best friend killed want join himmy best friend killed end september still cant handle im f m amazing person known told last june plans commit redflag tried support killed months afterwards know time reason want live hurts much left one help called crying late one night test next day came spent night took test two hours sleep aced genius going find guy loved never told died alone feeling unloved ive cried every night died wishing join death cant feel anything anyone made feel beautiful loved cared way never thought possible hes goneforever im failure failed never made feel made feel used put hand cheek tell beautiful perfect girl world now pretend pillow hand cry sleep failed insecure intimacy issues never told beautiful man world everything led hard tragic life still found strength take care everyone cared including told father sexually abused expected run door instead held told accepted loved matter still beautiful im sobbing remembering unconditional love gave cant exist without reach arms air sometimes im trying fall asleep hoping feel arms around tell loved assume see feel guilty want feel love smell hugs gave best hugs world want die want tell love shanei love im sorry died alone im sorry died feeling one loved shown heart maybe stayed im sorry love heart know wanted live cant without one stupid let ill see soon love first time ive called cassie whats pointevery irl friend made stopped talking slowly except one dog thing consistently make happy died months ago recently drop school keep due mix depression anxiety recently diagnosed adhd parents stopped supporting financially way meds even covered health care stop going psychologist cant afford go anymore friends roommates next year said want live im gon na find somewhere live enjoy anything anymore friend left confidence make friends easily always sad night alone want peaceful nothingness death tried something stopped think friend roommate april want one find dead whats point working job enjoy struggle pay life even want live cope losing parent redflagmy dad committed redflag week ago alcoholic along many mental demons put lot shit throughout years past couple years mostly avoided phone calls making trips visit never doubted dad loved want deal guess feel guilty care try help really needed guess ive realized late im trouble coping know go feel better anyone help ik everyone tired life perspectivewith school back session computer screen fear look act every little fucking thing bubbles inside im afraid people especially ones age ive always complimented strive well school reason dont fail every class thing left control life besides barcode marks wrists thighs never skinny even moderate average weight heavy baby birth nothing changed lost lbs stopped eating bit lead pain surprise im pussy comes pain even lbs gone im still overweight im basically weight middle school concentrate hard look faces make people around hopes dont comment body behind back hear want fall asleep never wake feeling ease sleep brings every night blissful know next morning ill wake headache matter much medicine take much water drink always fogs sense right wrong think little trickle blood thigh scrape want away mother whenever see break crying reminds shit shes said youre going hell sin unless pray stop boy girl shes referring gender identity nonsense many times sobbed front begging stop saying things ignored youd really easy let guy time told older man staring across restaurant licking lips smiling simply said part life ill deal now never mentioned times grown men locked eyes far long ive caught staring body dont wan na feel object display mother perfect daughter always tells men stare make never want go outside classmates whisper behind back fucking big ass big tits stupid game called life know im going win try anyone dont know im thinkinghis might end wall text apologize advance life crazy past months bit long story four five years ago next month met ended relationship somebody went elementary school dance earlier years know long known eachother alot common music arts movies things along lines edgy kids cried depression slit wrists fuck living love time really good experience eventually started going back forth months eventuality split mutual reasons never really lost feelings id harm almost daily throughout high school depression bloomed knew still feelings thing respected went traumatic phase age started meeting men internet sex free app claimed men sometimes older regret every day alive feel though taken advantage young age occurred years kept secret never tested stds scared dont believe symptoms skip senior year high school never really stopped talking kind acquaintances friends still knew watched go abusive relationship lasted years really hurt watch feel couldve saved eventually ended class together started talking alot long story short ended going prom together really good time thought things went well dropped house gave hug went hangout friends afterwards let know actually went go talk ex abusive one dropped ended getting back together night prom start darkest time didnt least tell even still feelings whatever stopped talking rest school year never really talked self harming never stopped got exceedingly worse deep cuts arms elbow stopped caring everything wanted end life still worked shitty part time job ended alot drugs snortingpopping pills cocaine bud graduating stopped talking everyone knew became even alone developed crippling social anxiety month short year ago got new job paid decent money self harming still didnt stop still feeling girl broke abusive guy year graduating got right new relationship another guy still didnt talk still knew life going months new job turns got job place plan kill started pull mutual friend worked made little better sense involved conversations worse sense endure presence thought everyday ending life thing really make happy still new bf always complained started giving support advice started regularly talking conversations lives better understanding eachother eventually ended confessed felt discussion work one night contained felt turned feelings astonished didnt act anything yet wounds last relationship fresh months line weve talking becoming pretty close one night work wanted us people work go dinner went super flirty entire time night ended us car drove us ended kiss little awkward happiest ive years weve close basically act couple kissing cuddling ect happiest ive years still continue suicidal thoughts still checked stds still think younger im still anxious depressed fucking hate recently alone car together usual leaving work parking somewhere late go either houses thing got turned topic sex ended explaining occurred younger first time ive told somebody took understandingly open minded explained change feelings agreed go clinic recently sex days conversation condom checked okay made sure least thousand times know regret really want work officially together something even condom happen fucked life still want kill put bad mindset decided things dint work ill end today went walmart work guess visibly upset drive park explained shes worried friend works us spoke day said shes worried us becoming close thinks dont work shes worried im going end life gameplan didnt say anything minute everything kind built head one ended hysterically crying front didnt really explain left dont know acceptable knows effects depression care deeply still want die never thought opportunity happen still want blow head almost wish wasnt happening couldve killed without getting close end hurting even already dont know feel lost yall got weird fetishes kinks ok ill start feedism specifically feedee gaining weight fat stuff general feet furry breastmilk armpits tickling hairy girls dommy mommy kind man im horrible person even worth tryis worth try life possibly worth constant uphill battle everyday cant think anything realistically make better trying life amount suffering need go horny jail someone please honors sleep deprived shadow people corner room shown seem pretty chill ngl helped homework meturns easy looks movies cant even imagine willpower someone must right hit one time deal willpower develops slowly practice cut small blade suprisingly doesnt hurt much small burn moderate wound anyway survival instinct kicks ive decided kms todayidk yet past years feeling want continue want stop existing even know explain even know main problem anymore lot self esteem issues still parents divorced friends somehow managed point graduated got job wanted trusted friends girlfriend overall improvement still feel even understand drives nuts know lost desire live decided commit redflag tonighti hit rock bottom never gets better im year old woman already feel old moment filled suffering hope finally peace death good luck yall eat today didnt please food glass water struggles selfesteem reaching helpfirstly know post right place forgive want sound kind dude complains able girlfriend im going sake clearing mind im lbs attractive whole body region physical appearance altered vigorous work hardcore determination things motivation focus post selfesteem know low selfesteem depression different things one lead now lot posts ive reading subreddit people seem say showing low selfesteem huge turn women question change view feel pathetic hopeless already ive trying wrap head around long time couple years ive hated long something needs change really want change appearance mental health hopefully gain love wonderful woman someday love find extremely difficult improve physical mental health im looking guidance advice thanks read yall skubadamabaamsa huge problem self sabotage enjoy life issues mind time forefront background distract life using phone television every time feel life going good redflag going come crashing deserve happiness work customer service really good putting fake smile playing part really happy pleasant person keep people life love feel huge burden anyone attached fuck myslef kind hope firedive holding bit two things job cowardice feel obligated job got email saying someone wants meet immediate boss already called bosss boss know make mad point know care hope fire theres one thing left probably leave world cowardice thats easy overcome leaving someone made need itthank existing ampxb ampxb ive scrolling community last min many feel dead end therapist survivor need talk someone chat open ampxb ampxb friendly reminder pass seriously helpim good emotional stuff friend contemplating whether died anyone family friends care want see anyone help help everyone thinks im okim fucking okay things baddoesnt feel worth pushing havent told anyone yet im really ready tell family diagnosed neurological disorder auditory processing disorder memory disorder transient aphasia something tia tai maybe something temporary lack blood flow brain altered alertness something said didnt mention voice ive hearing im sure couldve handled bad news altered alertness right gets bad sometimes find room house clue got remember elsewhere im somewhere memory transport thats right word cant think word want travel transfer im supposed drive tremors extremities prompted go back doctor sometimes bad cant hold phone pencil wasnt prepared news got said likely permanent result accident earlier year screenings done due bleeding disorder mixture coughing blood realizing dont clot trying hand something theres really one person want talk cant idk last month almost jumped high rise window probably shoulda really something want feel might best course ive lost year thought alone though mean counts felt alone one gets well one person gets dont feel talk unsolicited vehicle makes think much better year ago knew exactly waking blind faith kept walking cant faith anymore sometimes universe tries tell something miss life tired storms tired dont anymore im person thought theres never safety net even one promises decides arent worth saving leaves lot happened today think ill drink tonight dont think much surrounded people yet feel lonely rely anyone scared opening want college one help one cheering spent year nothing one wanted help everything still enough even went things never imagine id earn enough money trying pay education yet still labelled useless family members see point continuing life anymore know deep inside still want live ranting want one reason live please tired feel lost cant stop sobbingcorbin acting weird started ignoring longdistance boyfriend months well ex finally says made feel trapped feeling depressed cut back talking feeling really depressed cut first time cutting made promise promised immediately stopped talked even less less going person thought best friend friend pretty much suffering anorexia become self absorbed never anytime browse instagram uses vent things trashing come first person told cutting trashed friend cut last night threw face something proud something bothered hell tell people pity time exfriend angry upset told wanted tell tell something make better make things worse corbin tells cant cant date blames grandfathers death redflag friend confessed love explained commitment says hes broken cant love loves want lose cant help cut im ashamed made promise hurt never try anything killing knew cut said able take anymore hes take life im fucking health hazard ive asthmalike attacks weekly gym asthma medicine doctor gave help fucking working ive chronic leg pain years doctor said tight muscles sent physical therapist theyre sending test determine need surgery cant fucking take much mean fact mentally challenged kid class talks acts exactly one people sexually assaulted life talk time want curl cry thing stopping downing every fucking pill house hurt corbin fucking love much want batter want mine needs friendship ill give guess im tiredhi male straight single suppose reasons wish dead healthy reasonably well paid job doesnt require much effort problems alcohol drugs nobody molested child etc doesnt make sense job shit fat cats top even fatter especially good family dont frankly dont much desire make one last time girlfriend mistaken friends nope two one dead km away hobbys dont either used read dont read anymore except taking shit serious problem tried live solve see life without serious problems im kinda bland person guess life bland boring mildly irritating bought g propranolol couple weeks ago think suffice knowing ill die honestly dont give fuck math grade anymorei math im homework anything know im probably going die soon dad keeps telling retake math test wont ive always terrible math ive stopped caring everyday day somebody kill already really wan na dieive mildly depressed years now past month terrible everyday want nothing death young im dont care ahead many people say thing stopping ending life fact dont want brother mom find body see general somebody please offer advice hey reddit well idk say know reddit place put random shit well wanted become music producer kid failed im want kill love respect others please dont rude life hard nonsenseim sorry everybody really music everything let go ive making music life slowly started losing inspiration motivation idk end see life take jessica albas max valerie rae millers original cindy shines actionpacked atmospheric serial wonderfully politically incorrect quality varies greatly episode episode generally standard high jessica always worth looking valeries urban jivetalking afroamerican occationally almost dragging dark angel sitcom territory fuck guys someone made post saying fuck girls fight fire fire say fuck guys guys certain types guys dedicated fucking horny negative iq guys say send nudes make chad memes sexist general post youre nice respectful sexist stuff post dedicated thank u respectful simps guys thinking sex toys im sure girls tired receiving messages sayingsend thicc thighs pathetic horny fucks girls created arouse men guys use us fucking toys fuck youre pathetic virgin jerks hot video game characters ask girls send nudes go fucking hell make us wan na girls guys think weak well guess fucking bleed every month fucking cramps give birth one painful things guys horny ask girls send thick thighs everyday careful outside might weird dude might kidnapp rape sell us yes deal everyday girls cant even wear clothes want girl wants show skin cant without guy staring boobies personally im thinking wearing one things wrap around chest looks dont boobs im uncomfortable time see girl without makeup youll say shes ugly dont look pretty guys lmfaooo fuck girl stereotype tik tok cute toys makeup stuff girls things us fuck moral story hard girl stop fucking dick yall shit girls time simple chad memes fuck simps theyre fucking troglodytes shitty guys lot guys amazing cool thanks listening ted talk edit lmao guys sad yall really getting salty post ima lose hope humanity look know men hard lives maybe lives hard women comes society toxic mindset men feelings toughen makes things hard post dedicated womens problem horny men stop fucking selfish im tired wont check comments wan na argue comment shit check comments first teenage trump supporters give best reasons vote upcoming election difference really make long scheme thingsi simply wan na live anymore ask brought world sure hell aint waiting taken world think motherfuckers seem selfish even fucking know say give shit saying suppose tell parents talking towould date year old guy im young grade hes freshman college friends turning month two turn turns months turn ugh dont know hate sneak around hang time parents wtf hes parents say im kicked bed cat idgaf hes cutest mother fucker live hey anyone wan na talk im feeling kinda lonely im yr male hit life time little richard told little richard produced directed little richard one sided one songs biography even docudrama good writing great energy outstanding leading actor playing richard music little richard rocks tight lipsync every songbr br movie covers early childhood carrys thru formative years music wild success richards throwing away praise lord tied together well obvious comeback manages stay away idea little richard discovered beatles opened himbr br main objection outrageous counter cultural behavior underplayed feel audience experienced time energy still come across full force seemed tame compared remember timebr br best scenes richard getting jilted lucille writing song strip bikini shorts performing make point decent place changebr br gotten bronze liberace richard use refer interviews theres story trust saw perform couple months ago still flirts pretty white boys giving one particularly good dancer audience headband nearly still going strong recommend movie concert tv appearance find little richard always starting feel im heading direction feel lost stuck able outi think im starting run energy life ive stuck grad school longer coworkers lab ive able new friendships people many friends left new jobs friendships thought something good ended rather abruptly bluntly meanwhile ive destructive one ive wholeheartedly wanted want fix feel one know theyll want therapist asked discussions come emotion feel put enough emotional energy upset happy sad briefly nothing left give emotion wise think eaten every aspect life right feel motivation care something ive always told therapist extent close friends feel want end life finally absolutely alone feel day day indecision move forward things gon na slowly push people opportunities away days im sad woken sometimes thing keeping excited getting say hello someone going difficult time knowing still know posted maybe without overburdening people anyways im social outcasti hangout parents look social media wishing dating cute girls thats life right now im stuck stupid hot ex years ago im tired never meant anyones way wanted peaceful life know guess im overthinking im lost right now died one year hardcore world started begging quarantine died help cope going thinking lotfor years now ive thought bad memory imagine future ill involuntarily mutter want kill lately ive felt weird compulsion write redflag note thought might way im telling let feelings able kill tried thoughts case decide act point class major next quarter im killing yes know stupid soundsi know stupid sounds look big picture second year computer science student next quarter school zero open seats class relevant field im far away waitlist right now somewhere around th classes hold people im taking gen ed classes next quarter obviously notoriously easy classes honestly think handle reason ive able hold together college far love major pour heart classes perform really well im im going go mind boredom mention tuition parents paying fucking nothing make progress major basically sit waitlist already hate ive got nothing ge classes theyre necessary nice filler taking really hard classes im already burnt motivation keep going hate want quit now theres reason keep going anyways going kill tomorrowall hope gone pain unbearable kind pain cant describe laying warm bed satiated responsiblities tomorrow mostly alone groups friends still much pain whats painful everything tried answer questions around years really know answer know whats bothering know hurt much cant handle pain people last straw going psychiatrist tried years ago brintelix seroxat honestly sometimes feel meds help suicidal thoughts always come backeven meds ive suicidal thoughts primary school always thought things different continued living parents grandfather grandfather good person overall person liked matter proud died cancer months ago think better place happy life either whole life tried nice people tried improving satisfied become never satisfied honestly many things wrong even bother writing mostly feel people love nice friend always everything help anyone want something people makes feel good gives purpose live good student primary school highschool things know hurt parents cant stand pain anymore sorry enjoy things enjoy waking morning faculty enrolled cant find satisfaction things even good enough things example little really enjoyed playing soccer tried playing good kids people angry liked playing video games quite good lost interest cut life cuz school responsibilites crushes life never liked back go sometimes friends sometimes fun fun hold around last thing really broke last crush crushes life ive never though much never loved never spent much time last one different first time saw attracted looks anything even thinking year hanging started studying together spending much time got know better realised liked looks know happend liked spending time exact opposite kind role model good people always finds positive things everyone tell everything think tried suppresing love years hanging told liked romanticaly wanted stay friends day hard around time even though likes likes people know everyone goes unrequited love hurts much cant deal saw hard told need find someone others much tried find somebody everyone including told right thing found girls chatted saw liked spending time romanticaly fine hurt much even felt good tried something saw atleast liked friend girls asked always come chat whenever see every day find hating good enough crush nightmares every night sleep well read physical activity helps problems try run every day bed help thinking throwing building high builidng really hard access town even went now bought gun probably shoot head life much know change head dont strenght anymore cant go cant stop thinking cant stop thinking bad things sorry im lowi dont know anymore ive failed badly life ive hurt ones love everyone hates hope way life better anyone talk tonighti feel lonely think irl friends something fun tonight dont even reply messages need talk someonethis throwaway ok im happy drunk rn next thing know see pair scissors think wow cut wrists real bad right wow really wan na feel pain see blood clean wounds bandage go business havent thought cutting years cant really want cut rn tf whats wrong help still need help sorry scattered im drunk rn need talk stranger please someone see talk please need someone talk someone help please corona positive school someone school got positive corona friends quarantine best friends tested positive corona got positive thing touch phone sometimes watch youtube play games th day hospital wanted make post im super bored quarantine thing hard boring feels im monster keep locked wish luck took bunch sleep aid heres hoping dont wake upi guess long time coming nothing life makes sense life absolutely shitty day born ive fight battles one face living nightmare people arent meant alive want yeet longer find purpose drive eyes open awful life really born worst luck dont understand raped molested jobless almost years dumped homeless exabused parent disowned family abused narcissistic ex coerced sex man ghosted lover told cant job medical marijuana card im looking possible homelessness future inability move roommate supposed move boulder colorado next year havent able find work trying doesnt seem helping im lose lose situation feel meds working im tired brain keeps shuddering flickering read type text theres pressure behind eyes think im getting headache dont understand universe thinks one person endure note really dont want god comments leave god dont believe dont put thanks reading maybe wont forgotten afterall stupid question swmaybe understand updown vote mechanism seems people downvoting submissions sw least downvotes downvoted submission please explain thanks time end iti think time bother anymore hurts pain alive havent school months didnt even realise summer break half skipped school months previous im loser nothing life nothing brings happiness future want goals life friends forget month two anyway mom sad cant live life collecting anti depressants sometime now think enough todays day goodbye got first job thats guy im talking showing interest one friends literally followed one small rappers looks dmed im waiting follow back think wil bcus follows ppl followers hes gon na least request see look im gon na post private story make sure guy sees heads upim still still alive posted ended sitting awake daughters room whole night listened breathe changed woke ended holding chest slept hugged hugged tight wrapped little arm around bicep squeezed hard sleep whispered loveyou morning told wife needed real help im counseling now helpful next step drugs everyone knows worthless againim starting feel shit almost funny last couple days comfortable periods inner peace remember life really worth living mean whats point really whats point live life loneliness hatred shame guilt stress people shit living expectations terrible mistake laughing stock society several reasons better never better unless willing make fucking change hard thing impossible achieve motivation continue living world lets say anymore pleasant lies admit person longer truly human disgusting hopeless toxic unworthy abomination fucking hurts im tired im tired feeling shit time im tired alone im tired purpose talent help decent life im tired inferior literally everyone see im tired stupid assed college asshole mother even try understand manipulates stupid animal tired people looking im fucking ghost im tired seeing crushes everyday knowing deep inside ill never good enough burns inside time even painful hear people talking dreams dreams goals life well dreams fucking simple apparently boring world one option left dream high fucking building make thousands cuts ugly ass body jump hopefully hit ground ill messed heart continue beating sorry writing boring mess post today everything went crashing stand anymore sorry bitch poor english first language im fuckin lazy learn properly good luck dog reason stayed alive last years beautiful german shepherd starting slow health problems hopeful around much longer terrifiedi know passes every time worked courage kill thought dog trying find living rest life without makes cry eventually snap prepared lose think ready dog getting old terrified best way make voice sound better recording ask lot lot respond super fast ampxb find whenever record voice sound depressed quiet sound care talk want change recording youtube videos voice annoying least think ampxb recorded three different videos friends bring editpost videos reason ampxb ideas going talk louder know quiet especially compared friends take elastics talk braces talk closer mic ampxb canshould jump front car hear parents sex going kill anyone want leave subreddit weird reason feel obligated stay cant take longerive suicidal months therapy medicine worked im starting intensive partial hospitalization program monday every day agony even think make cant function nothing distracts thoughts anymore keep trying reach people one replies cutting even helping calm anymore absolutely hope reached end efforts asking help worthlessi called national redflag help hotline worthless called back let know worthless even though feel guilty people good intentions completely worthless called help ushered questionnaire funding first time ive reached help failed know alone confirmed cant rely anyone help make feel better especially im worst fuck im going go kill thats confirmed completely reaching worthless admit something wont mind giving guy sloppy fvcking ass go cause shit gay af lifes kinda bruh im really tired life ive gotten point life enjoyable stuff moment mom figures im fun gets mad electronics much electronics things stayed havent left wont betray give insights characters lives new life fun really dont care im addicted electronics real way find enjoyment life deal thanks nut face warm good holy shit want guy bust helpim brain wants kill dont want kill feel scared right now want call hotline something dont want something happen parents involved dont want know dont trust please someone talk dont even know want anyone say scared utoharpm appreciation post u pog question redditors told parents sexuality bisexual didnt approve dont want associated future acts situation got free award going im giving fuck thats going try killing myselfits something new small pov story wrote okay picture house late night chilling bed finally shut youtube go sleep sudden distance hear soft snip snip pull earbuds make sure heard correctly sit silence waiting sound alas nothing shake head go back video two seconds hear sound closer now snipsnip time take earbuds put know heard sound hear soft pitter patter feet coming towards hall towards door grab lamp nearest weapon close embrace robber one begin relax sudden nowhere jump window pair scissors scream happy late circumcision one swift movement chop dick add growing collection help stay idk milligrams caffeine im trying stay watch finale wandavision im soi dont even know say county usually say cowny slowly sometimes becomes caany aaa sound bat finally sincerely need appears ash broken now meant therehi internets id think kind one another area last decade thanks part today different though way one way another desperate minimize collateral damage feel safe way right live city apartment exits ive found hanging travel hanging sketches id balcony people see travel back homestate easily purchase suitable means fact already much storage someplace lately cant tie shoes clean catbox getting ass onto plane train automobile stretch hoped might help refine plans rules changed certainly reading pms account toomuchcrazy already one problems needed happen reason make totally pointless likely event plan b balcony tomorrow apologize heart see something hurtful hope helps moment peace different story love bye broke w boyfriend im sad fuck feelings fuck stupid robot deleting post cos doesnt enough words enough words u rusty little shit honestly know dojust last hour roommates unanimously agreed go family fall back emptied bank account trying make sure roommates covered bills money support without roommate even buy food subsist lost vehicle transport stuff work cant find place go nearby im suicidal againgoddamnit casual easily kill self today feeling always leaves soon dont know literally cant stop comparing everyonei feel people around well perfect college applications stats friends living cant help look people around feel shit cant causes constant anxiety hate much wish stop feeling everything need read reviewbr br earlier review pninson seattle already identified main shortcomings production amplify basic argumentsbr br bleak house relatively late dickens novel much darker earlier work taken literally director ross devenish piles gloom fog much ada rick esther appear half hour opening episode relief daylight first time murkier scenes hard see actually tv screen watched whole thing one day starting midafternoon daylight faded became less issue pretty good tv never encountered problem time daybr br pacing deliberate ie slow sure intensional overdone numerous shots people trudging though muck gloom victorian london held longer necessary establish mood atmosphere good editor probably take several minutes fiftyminute episode without losing line dialogue trimming scenes slightlybr br want overstate two problems soon adjust look pace production important issue always tell story effectively earlier dickens novels long bleak house nearly intricately plotted example recently reread nicholas nickleby intrigued see douglas mcgrath crammed page book twohour movie answer simple book full padding mcgrath cut great swathes novel still retaining essential story elements possible bleak house br br production needs seven hours probably needs even longer many elements convoluted plot sufficiently clear well handled need random examples illustrate problemsbr br maid rosa appears nowhere background lady dedlocks attachment largely unmotivatedbr br sergeant georges acquiescence tulkinhorns demand sample hortons handwriting somewhat fudgedbr br made clear enough esther actually love woodcourt agrees marry john jarndyce neither clear agreed announce engagement whybr br ada ricks secret marriage omitted one episode merely lovers next people suddenly referring husband wifebr br mrs rouncewell introduced late stage story sargeant georges estrangement family left unexplained means discoveredbr br tulkinhorns dedication maintaining honour respectability dedlock family understated motive persecuting lady dedlock obscure need bebr br involvement brick makers tom later lady dedlock somewhat opaquebr br obvious guppy renews offer esther smallpox scars vanishedbr br selection others major problems main thrust story clear enough nonetheless minor irritations detract power puzzle little plot points important structural problems weaken story later stagesbr br whole business tulkinhorns murder somewhat thrown away bucket immediately pinpoints hortense suspect undermines suspense sergeant georges predicament importance finding mrs rouncewell diminishes impact subplot suspicion thrown lady dedlock weakens scene hortense unmasked front sir lesterbr br serious problem murder investigation subsequent search lady dedlock dominate story hour time completely lose sight main plot strand legal case effect rick failing finances gouging vholes skimpole adas despair declining health put hold entire episode may dickens wrote book read years good screenplay keep different plot strands moving forward togetherbr br finally smallweeds role story diminished almost superfluous discovery new will triggers final phase story thrown away happens screenbr br despite still good production many performances outstanding individual scenes beautifully realised accumulating sense tragedy powerful still recommending superb adaptation great book production fact probably fully aware defects seen andrew davies better critical daviess jane austen adaptations admit really knows tame dickenss sprawling booksbr br impressive gripping drama well worth seven hours anybodys time nonetheless probable fate viewed mainly crossreference neardefinitive version please helpthis new account way hi please help really suicidle lately tried kill mins ago voices telling ages cut arms legs really badly taken lots meds redflag attempt idk shower try stop bleeding hurt much cut arms legs mins ago took meds shower mins ago im shaking really bad im scared badly voices head wont stop really mean telling keep hurting take meds jump building near house autism add schizophrenia im f ft effects overdosing idk apparently really scared im kinda happy idk im crying alot though voices telling days took bunch concerta clozapine prozac think took meds total yeah tummy hurts bad feels really bad cramps cant move alot without stomach hurting wearing hoodie try stop arms legs super large hoodie getting blood everywhere working think really really sorry im sorry really regret posting shit im sorry really im sorry guys gals facial piercings dang attractive give cute punk sort vibe love shows theyre willing accessorise explore ill always aloneill never held loved ill die fucking alone one cares killed freinds im worthless peice shit deserve alone shouldve ended life sooner wasnt paying attention time im gon na go die now minutes minutes less usual bad fuck friendfemale said lot veins arms compliment take grain salt really want misinterpret anything want ruin good friendship starting overthink ton aussie gothpunk clothing store f im tryna dress gothpunkas rlly kinda style cant find clothing stores rlly sell kind stuff dont ordering online much stores good clothes arent australia anyone got suggestion aussie gothpunk clothing store dont want anything inappropriate im short shorts rlly small cropped tops seductive clothing goth clothing sometimes find hard accessorise gothpunk accessory suggestions welcome saying dont wearing crosses bc im christian spiritual stuff zodiac signs dont believe either honestly cant wait overi felt shit struggling years opened close months ago backfired im treated joke almost everyone know knew happen tried therapy drugs work either racist guys think america im american want see people think watched bbc support blm ampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampamp feel im doomed lifetime failure disappearthis first time posting reddit apologise formatting errors need vent hopefully someone help remember last time truly happy life honest wonder ive happy child grow loving home dad physically emotionally abusive towards mum sister result left scars us sister slew issues well used kick call worthless managed move started seventh grade right family anxiety ridden mother even want help thing ive suffered depression life sad im pretty quite intelligent yet cant seem feel happy anything hell cant even aim achieve dreams live country job market people age studying university terrible feel im destined lifetime failure want die one even understands feel yet every day pretend im fine fact im far someone please help want happy took paracetamolsem well title pretty self explanatory took paracetamols last hour want die doubt going even anything honest im fool ventingim sitting alone airport car eaten donut friend force fed sober work im still little hungover drinking problem party last night birthday today im twenty im college work two job life awful drive beach thinking badly want terribly horrifying car accident want cause hurt someone ruin car purpose want hospital icu seriously injured probably dead hell maybe bad either even know make happy anymore fucking tired im religious think anything life thats stops cease exist eventually im organ donor wish give away now let young fairly healthy organs go someone values life im rambling now really way conclude something nature ive always bad writing conclusions crashingits getting point cant hold together anymore ive high functioning years becoming much reason ive lived long want hurt loved ones getting point cant even take care anymore ive become adult infant brain fucked sure im really lucky people love honestly makes feel shittier long run feeling miserable ive really good putting mask long starting crumble motivation better point honestly point enough freedom make death look accident want anyone think anything done save want spend last time making everyone feel loved special want donate things need create inspiring story travel healing helping others gathering community want death traumatic others want hearts full happy memories want feel loved cared tired confined physical body tired hurting badly feel defected maybe trauma maybe drugs ive done cope maybe feel completely drained deteriorated know keep going anymore cant even think work without panic attack physical symptoms anxiety causing basically bedridden im broke fuck taking parents resources love want help feel far past level able better continues cycle feeling shitty feel powerless life unfairpeople make choices good bad life made bad choices see people make choices turns good every possible choices mine wrong loser time im getting working long time depressed lgbtp lgbt pedophilia born acquired links words pedophile choose accept pedophiles way accept lgbt community must help control urges act thats exactly opposite society rn constant shaming pedophiles reminds us constant shaming homosexuals years ago think learned mistakes note pedophiles sort monsters ones create monsters pedophile make one bad one suffering genetic disorder shame people genetic problems time us help pedophiles overcome fears problems especially society lost meim fucking idiot ive ruined everything tonight im unemployed friends career nothing ive betting sports trading markets betfair etc well going well made enjoyed honestly reason woke morning well ive fucking ruined bet horse place hedged betfair another arent aware hedging betting opposite effectively canceled small profit fuck unknown bet places hedge custom course tthe horse comes rd find places count mentioned betting page slimy fucking cunts fucked ruined terms conditions wont able argue fault checking closely im fucked basically savings gone dont know anymore ill probably kill tonight nothing live bet consider starting dont fucking bother betting last thing hanging onto honestly fucking decent im fucked now money bet dont even want shit feel dumbest cunt one fucking understand cant talk anyone fuck need people help mind want drag people maybe sabotaging deep want better case better know go anymore even want alone hello got play store code use beacuse country country giver gave card need phone number change country dont number day voice inside mind really one tell suffering depressing thoughts almost two decades way vent hope guys find solace thisthe eerie feeling numbness crawls stomach bones spine might depressed panic attacks pain never really got used alone thoughts try shut eyes hellscape mind day opened parentsi opened parents feelings general thoughts life made cry feel piece shit fuck itwe fuck bother anymore friends care girl ignores dont see point trying survive anymore see point wasting oxygen know need fucking help fucking scared screw help need somebody help heck help weve gotten close know almost everything weve touched lot sitting alone minutes holding hands time time arm around happens tells shes someone never asked said want know secret say yes tells likes guy actual heck thought trying make jealous told emailed something asking book think obvious wants closer damn guess im kinda mad either wan na one following stop jealousy make someone help thanks costumer left sticker said beautiful table one servers work took sticker cleaning table see want feel grossed hopefully make bad person need guidanceso little back story im currently ive dating girl years moved part time finally got place together know know met bar ago know age difference ive gotten know clicked pretty well always fun getting fast forward know years things gotten progressively worse longer talk everything say makes mad say wrong things son lives us still high school girlfriend dropped high school smart end helping son school talk issues lately feel ive become parent im gods sake well girlfriend gotten pretty bad fights past year called cops twice third time tonight even though never anything never touched id never anything woman cops come tell counselors leave tonight broke told needs leave month told going anywhere whatever wants told leave tonight called cops cops came said cant tell leave lived month resident kicked courts even though even lease want work issues basically way much plate pressure killing deal day work come home feel helpless sat room pathetically crying helpless contemplated killing texted girlfriend stay long want sorry everything see much longer redflag note told lose number think ill really really typing makes feel little better want someone talk really superbly developed characters lots funny situations full spirit absurdness serbian mentality movie great comedy enjoyable interesting unpredictable best point film characters humor story dialogs humor inner development rare serbian movies consequence characterization well motivated spontaneous cogent sharp intelligent lucid movies unfortunately constructed humor devise joke put characterss mouth ordinary situation comedy burlesque farce art immortality incorporated movie little masterpiece hardly reachable im sure classes take high school im still undecided whether take honors classes one hand subjects honors class available lot work bunch clubs want join things want know ill sad feel im missing taking one classes im considering summer classes might help take honors chem anyone know taking ap human geo im sure understand finding location impacts people right teach things phones made cobalt impacts miners much reading writing feel hopelesseverything happens seems bad ive lost hope good im tired receiving bad lem take crack burning questions saw post new answering philosophical questions thought id try im bored find antiwar statement without looking hard layer hackneyed find value neutral comment madness war stripped judgement layer completely uninterestingbr br watch darn good entertainment value duvalls oneliners thats coating commercial masticationbr br try view realistic vietnam war film ask veteran hell swat notion vets say stinksbr br view will morality play nothing rich eitherbr br found value superb selfreference coppola needed container great enough dimensions war fit greatness skilled multidimensional actor playing great manbr br brando man much maverick kurtz character studios uncomfortable acting method yet always excelled accolades generals uncomfortable kurtzs unsound methods spite strategic geniusbr br coppola makes movie brandos greatness hammer point places movie hopper manic photojournalist laden multiple cameras spout praises brando seen halflight silhouettes brilliant cinematography storaro increases actors power goes sacrificial bull complete narrative equation oh yes horror br br pieces interest great use point view camera perspectives including firefight long private ryan ground breaking use sound notably ominous flanging sweeps sonic depiction acid tripbr br dont caught outer layers rich part despoil brilliant core sound vision selfreference truman burbankim psychotic schizoeffective im legal trouble irresponsibility im violent im probably going jail soon feel numb feels im truman burbank except never actually find fake feels life running joke everyone laughing behind scenes waiting finally reach cross line end psychosis feels real realer real always proves wrong family thinks im crazy understand completely change feel inside head maybe die ill finally know wish never existed fantasize time dying falling asleep never waking paying someone shoot fatal dose fentanyl crashing car full speed highway buying shotgun blowing roof mouth jumping death drowning cinderblocks chained ankles wandering aimlessly wilderness night starving death therapists worked hospitals worked meds worked months sobriety worked despise waking every day im ungrateful im majorly depressed idealize death feel void everything positive wish wipe memory wish start wish everyone forgot wish never existed first place tried posting radvice blocked post now quit last couple jobs wanted die sitting head repetitive task hours end even considering applying disability help counter loss pay even considering going offgrid reduce expenses work makes suicidal friend lives florida mom recently diagnosed condition left unable work source income disability enough cover rent friends dad originally covering rent longer friend tells mom thinking moving another family member either homelessness problem said family member history sexual abuse towards friend younger friend tells kill end moving thereshe attempted several times past worried safety needs professional intervention threat need resources voluntaryinvoluntary hospitalization resorting reddit local crisis hotline totally useless called waited hold hour ended falling asleep woke shocked disbelief still hold hours later call need advice help friend feel platitudes useless really know say gon na fine worry basically say im frustrated need help understanding better way better person xb thanks better typical madefortv movie invitation hell blessed excellent casting urich lucci cassidy mccarthy premurphy brown joe regalbuto soleil moonfrye high concept update familiar faustian plot urich likable always lucci particularly fetching devilishly top mother femme fatale roles kind hybrid version stepford wives live movie commits early apocalyptic miltonesque vision horror fans likely many complaints soppy maudlin denoument ok stop addicted candies type stop till morefor example toffifee simply cant stop filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler whats close friends ones consistently talk actual conversations go hang feel maybe know parents n vice versa maybe getting acknowledged parents youre almost kid freely sending messages something comes mind venting n stuff must nice even friends alright boys im starting nnn early year wish luck always dont let temptation girls arent real remember hate meim terrible person depression makes lazy selfish girlfriend nearly broke cant live ive let depression im scared losing im smothering im bad person know id broke know break better want fucking die know people things everyday im moving parents hate everything hate everything hate even hate life hate hate ive never even kind liked best ive tolerated nothing good everything hard fuck try honestly even know want birthday anymore friend whos always gifting something years lost interest collecting things seems another thing birthday year another add shelf full things top car flick work art yer work art classic cars plastic fantastic watched worn two video tapes wear lots lots car lovers young old love film watch time hire buy see wish make car movies v power gassed little whipper snippersbr br shes rightmotor magic heap chariotbr br youve got learn feel power always wanted urges never actually tried want bad stuck people family died little brother still kid hurting bad brain says people try kill themself worse disorders go try really think ill die wish easy moral bad feel fake never tried kill selfish want live anymore specifically kill yet want live cant deal ive done feel deserve live guess explain essence forced now sort ex girlfriend half years sex month ago night prom yes finished high school afterwards friends house house empty girlfriend making sure wanted sex asked said want caught suggested go somewhere said want caught said wouldnt agreed went sex things seemed fine later found felt forced violated feels worthless says want live cause able completely say second time issues previous guy relationship never got physical guilted sexual conversations sending pictures etc forgave cause see trapped cage guilting stuff helped thats second time feel responsible happened feel allowed live making want live said victim know cant hate hating wrong thing selfish want cut punish want alive cause thanks taking time read minecraft steve strongest character smash minecraft steve strongest character smash arms thick heres kicker using shield full suit gold armor equipped full inventory shulker boxes able carry astonishing pounds kg gold still able sprint jump swim full capacity minecraft steve god kill god anyone want loan paypal go drive boys dont gas money right now really want go drive anyone want lad paypal pay back later want idk feel lost feeling rememberwhoever said life easy lie learned hardest thing individual live life background information guess say life bad grew parents sister family pretty religious im due personal reasons went catholic school life told god always guide whatever say im open minded empathetic everyone say care others much know lately life dealing shitty hand put hiatus education college due fact money job make decent amount money helps family cant really save pay college fucking sucks feel options go military utilize benefits whatnot feel joining wrong reasons im people talk college way secured future feel im going burn one days give want least think choice might kill next weekthe person really knows understands cant talk family hates earlier talking im going kill redflag note written need honestly might kill next week im useless monster asshole loser freak curse fucking kill matter anyway want family feel guilty want suffer want know pain escape cant go anywhere think ill kill monday yeah ill kill monday well may last post soyeah cya hell looming around corner always comes back wave moon hear silence feel breeze see cold light death try try try choose survive hits everything goes dark suicide singing peace quiet end everything resisting difficult difficult bright white piece string peace quiet end live death always looming around corner iti asked dad ass dogs heres happened asked dogs acted know anything oh anything ava stressed said fun mess spanky day made mad lost temper claimed mean know wish dogs dead said sorry go back time never good go ava spanky sort closure apology killer ill able die peacefully lgbt community much power cancel people wondering anytimeik time often someone mistakes someones pronouns assumes gender hate mob understand lgbt around long time recent years become much prolific society young people one seems able stand community someone makes common mistake misusing pronouns baffles theyve got much power cancel someone see world way ultimately led people scared ask common questions one say anything without bombarded insults community got much power short time im probably going die end yearwhats fucking point im going feel way rest life seeing kind movies turns english humor often seen screen days monty python man house badbr br brenda blethyn first saw saving grace early year another must see way excels alfred molina rest cast virtually unknown turns great performances film starts slowly gradually gains pace amusement midway tears eyes laughingbr br funny english movie thousand times better supposedly funny garbage comes hollywoodbr br uh oh nooo feel im gon na taste food twice m leftists wan na friends insta wont share post rules buttttt id love leftist friends currently demsoc id love friends anywhere socdem ancom may know sometimes sing song line line dms th time song ive decided im going end itim tired keep going pathetic excuse call life ive tried reach sort work see getting better im going kill know exactly yet soon know im even posting thisi think wanted tell someone make seem real pretty girl exist keep getting heart broken skinny gamer boy think im done lifei cant describe feel anymore ive social issues struggled making new friends eventually lost old ones go school homeschool dropped youth church group two years ago constantly getting picked im month im sitting bed dark realising one going birthday next month thought numb wasnt actually hurts knowing past three years ive mainly girlfriend year ago slowly opened betrayed trust using sick purposes ive spiraling depression without able anything cant talk parents theyre kind understand things ive tried talking sister moved work either one talk stubborn asshole refusing vent online friends ive resorted cutting drinking painkillers every day life got sick crying sleep resorted drinking painkillers help sleep motivation life anymore im much pain im beyond point thinking others think end life guess moonlight comfort im sitting outside balcony darkness outside night sky stars moon now lost live january still cant find reason continuei gon na post feel ashamed feeling way cant find continue really wan na end tried couple weeks ago pills woke couple hours later puke cant even right years life never done wanted mostly idiotic decisions ive made partly anytime try something someone always something negative say bring wan na play video games oh thats waste time wan na writer theres money want smoke weed stay home relax oh never go never stop depressed sick tired living life job least live family loves friends support cant stop feeling waste time never achieve things want life ive tried happy ive tried go enjoy people enjoy ive tried trying belong group minded people nothing helped beyond initial high trying something new im lose job barely bed mornings im tired everything ashamed even though good life cant find reason continue currently thinking killing thanks antidepressants anxiety pills im opposed idea falling roof building work getting run train full disclosure whole trigger comes fact interested girl work became friends saw actually interested someone problem still good friend problem stems fact every time want something never good enough pretty enough social enough tldr others call good life feel things want feel worthy good things general im loser im alive attempt happy itif one thing right least fucking killing im pain physical emotional feeling worse attempt physical pain id attempted already im literally fucking crying die pathetic know mention feelings impending doom anxiety upcoming events wish someone shoot wish god wouldve killed asked kid wish balls back first attempt cant muster courage kill afraideach day want jump skin life torturing day every day cant possibly make another week want die soo badly im really scared fuck im done nowim done trying completely tried rekindling relationship take break personal reasons put much fuckiong effort girl months chasing moment fix shit parents date dosent want shit friends lmao friends weve never friends met drunk hell thats started bullshit man life fucking worthless cant shit right fucked timing ive lost important person bad luck comes s comes s fuck world fuck everything man im done triedi may hardest life definitely never easy basically born life lead depression endured enough parents physically emotionally abusive molested raped people family grew hit cheated multiple partners started coping negatively got trouble public owned began repair went therapy educated maladaptive coping went back graduate school graduated public let go demon back never stop haunting one genuine connection alone work put recover past traumas window feel depression coming midnight train nowhere depressed years leave go deserve give putins russia people tragic accidents hopefully others may learn theyll leak fake sex tape shit car sometimes simp call someone nice girls simp probably kill bulk suppressed child abuse memories resurfacea bit scenario lets say savannah bitten poisonous snake unable move see distance pack hyenas coming towards surely kill state better let poison enter heart die without experience flesh limbs torn body back reality already going pretty rough depressive episode less forced think childhood memories friend asked watching movie new therapist asked background first weird remember much time autistics usually great memories took time mind suddenly presented terrifying flashbacks childhood concerning father already hate eg constantly threatening family threatening siblings take us family health insurance hes mostly life new memories things know whether live chased around grandmas house cornered bathroom trying strike even people watching shot cork gun bb gun blamed getting bullied grade school fourth grade problems using hand belt discipline forced eat jerky animals killed backyard time middle school absolute oldest theres going memories know forget big moments childhood reason combined fact im survivor sexual assault think mind able let survive less able live college im even doubts whether survive thursday therapist appointment feels shaped today personality trait lot things scare im victim choice whether prefer trash person father wanted childhood person today childhood starting consume life cant trust people say love andor worth father said exact things mentally see getting better worse whether current events im american see life one includes chronic mental anguish im probably whining point im sensitive see nothing cant even trust mind stable death preferrable im lonely losttoday contemplating redflag yet thinking lonely sad pathetic life real friends one lean im always crying alone night dont know anymore go therapy anti depressants noting working im tired guy people come talk problems helping people dont appreciate fact treat shit right ive always annoying one thats probably everyone hates im told im hated one wants around everyday thats im alone room one lean talk one cry one hug tell everything alright im asking friend seems one wants im complete embarrassment go redflag please theres anyone help slightest glimpse hope hope im always aloneive posted know never anything anyone friends family even redflag subreddit im going explain want die anything going say going happen sometime tonight didnt want last message friend didnt bother reading kidding isnt gon na cared either whatever save lot time wish people always felt felt tonight night cyawill spare sob story im tired incel want fucking love affection girls society deems subhuman cya sucky years people commented frulein doktor stumbled chance upon little gem latenight tv without heard strange mixture pulp fiction story sexy unscrupulous antiheroine one hand realistic wellresearched portrayal war trenches hand hooked beginningbr br one five best movies wwi others quiet western front paths glory gallipoli postwar la vie et rien dautre scene poison gas attack really chilling horses men appear riders apocalypse gas masksbr br wish taped film br br presenting lily mars one genre film sadly seems disappeared studio system ok know bias reasons think movie stand outbr br although basic plot lily mars judy garland goes new york becomes star wins heart director van heflin pretty stock hollywood story period writers vary theme bit usual although lily gets big break star quits successful swallow pride go back playing minor role showbr br judy garland enough saidbr br supporting cast includes really great performances spring byington lilys mother truely wonderful fay bainter mother director john thornway van heflin standout supporting performance though goes character actress connie gilchrist frankie one time actress turned theater custodianbr br worth watch sure one movies designed make feel better world dreams lost friend tried folloemy best friend took life close mean know long kids considered theyre best friend miss blamed long time lot reasons drunks hardcore year passed tried take life tough ive learned grown sit still missing years later ive got kids loving wife stop guilt years later sit fire miss ive got ta remember wisdom struggles sit still doubting worth always talk reaching people care lie one actually cares may surrounded people feel alone cheesy say one understands put try talking someone make another person literally pay attention sayingi saying want subject attention times nothing even forward feel barely talk ill end disappointed lack care sorry written terribly swear cohesive purely desperate talk literally shitty feel time matter exhausted weight chest never leaves literally one cares americans fat seriously shit eat even real food gas country come require pp meat hand schlongs dig dongs comment contain spoilersbr br actors intangible innate quality amalgamation charisma panache swagger quality separate good actors truly great think george clooney jack nicholson look clooneys subtle touches scenes one word goodbye andy garcia oceans utter others name disdainfully terry danny pick number jacks performances dating far back five easy pieces diner good men court room interrogation scene guys add denzel washington small exclusive list actors exudes terrific trait everything look explosive borderline diatribes siege impressive tribute malcolm x spike lees film name see finer actor working today mention insinuate man fire perfect denzels work definitely cog production literally mesmerized scenes raw emotional incendiary timebr br washington plays creasy former spy cia agent one covert government operatives pretty much hit rock bottom become disillusioned life led killed perhaps done things best left unsaid made hardened bitter man friend perhaps mentor played reservedly christopher walken living mexico making comfortable living providing body guard services rich apparently kidnapping business mexico vibrant paid former seals well providing needed service creasey needs work accepts job well family seems financial difficulty marc anthony fine samuel radha mitchell tantalizingly sexy wife lisa dakota fanning unbelievably precociously brilliant pita know child age range play characters interpretation pita nothing short oscar worthy films entire first half dependent relationship pita creasy weaker actress role perhaps emotional synergy come across succinctly fanning nothing short remarkable rolebr br relationship pita creasy drives film apex cinema together perfect real bond developed tony scott directs frenetic urgency eye visual flare never better interested see next film domino turns think scott one todays rated directors films one name surely elevated icon statusbr br story creasy really taking pita visca versa definite connection two perhaps stems fact although pita loves dad around much philanthropist obviously little time spend family soon creasy taking pita swimming competition reading bedtime stories naming teddy bear creasy friendship kinship deep parental love seems present br br film changes gears pita kidnapped held ransom creasy almost fatally injured trying protect story becomes thick innuendo ripe deceit plot pieces unraveled onion denzel becomes tour de force said earlier seen denzel give outstanding performances films crimson tide training day never seen man possessed possibility pita dead becomes literal man fire rages hunts dishes brand comeuppance denzels anger acerbity ubiquitous easily quelled hunts person responsible pitas violation vigilante justice mexican authorities always seem one step behind br br paramount films audacious brilliance films actually give criminals due comeuppance often frustrated watch films bad guys let easily inflict kinds torment entire film take bullet die film writer brian helgeland sees retribution unequivocal painful perpetrators feel creasys wrath experience torment unleashes nothing gimmicky brand justice needs information someone loses finger wants answers homemade bomb placed places meant things punches pulled one true strengths filmbr br man fire one five best films dvd recommendation se loaded bonus features include hours documentaries different commentary tracks completely fucking crazy making sense toook bear along process now universe mass energy birthed billion years ago point singularity concept time space physics speak indefinite period sudden seemingly random expansion big bang theoretically inaccurate explosion much inflation singularly dense infinitely energetic massive point small fit proton neutron lightyears two anyhow expansion stars matter form energy eventually enough break particles mass waves energy sun gravity allows particles collect form earth solar system et al human race born dies billion years sun perhaps every single atom particle energy everything sun eventually become white dwarf transtion small black hole another point singularity though infinitely energetic massive swallows lot whole lot see swallows earth every celestial body even bigger black hole perhaps andromeda swallows now process continue seemingly impossibly large small black hole swallows one mass energy everything contained single infinitely dense infinitely energetic space inconceivably small light thus time space literally incomprehensible thus chain begins anew new singularity recycled mass energy indestructible eternal forever mean say fucked really really fucked destined swallowed singularity another mass energy bound point singularity preceded universe proceed another given information concept matter anyone anywhere swallowed forces beyond control possible reason continue existence im even depressed facts im simply accepting realize fate share every atomic structure organic ive struggling nihilism philosophical points ridiculous know know logical necessarily true feel gripped stuns seen therapist weeks im still sleeping feel captured idea cant let go try distract temporary im drinking right now desperate rid mind seeming inevitability cant fuck cant im tired unbelievably sick thinking want endless loops logic feel fucking jack box predetermined pop destined fall back im tired damned tyrannous stars edit thank everyone talking know sometimes incredibly frustrating talk really understand want throw hands say fuck exactly feel time apologize errors thought reason et al errors spelling grammar etc slept much past two weeks holy shit didnt know discord light mode worse possibly imagine put youll see know one decision fill one sense calm yet drown one absolute exhaustion turbulence gone will quite mysteriousto worry dont need least another week felt share odd feeling right now ppl bully u use correct pronouns u wan na tell call call slurs thats chill cause hate lmao least use right pronouns im wet said put much embalming fluid point end suffering create wait die thought jumping bridge water definitely take scared panic painful state drown might find another effective non painful way want delete bad scared turning vegetable feel overwhelming urge anywhere home right youre stuck pandemic hell maybe consider watching couple seasons amazing race amazon netflix maybe go watch planet earth little see cool feel overwhelming urge anywhere home right youre stuck pandemic hell maybe consider watching couple seasons amazing race amazon netflix maybe go watch planet earth little see cool shit couch know traveling least find wombats poop square heck great lyrebird ampxb kind cool see interesting things even television stop taking shit people people give shit time want stop went place decided hang pussied came back homeon way back home kept thinking fucked life regretting still dare go back place fucking pathetic expected parents found gone worried home lights nobody noticed thing wrong later one wake bathroom check condition theyll think stay another night thinking makes want scream cry hard right now life death difficult pursue took meds nearly week feel terriblei getting brain zaps jumps body fatigued sleepy although parts medicationi dreading going sleep past days fear dreams second reality life real rest dreams strange odd feelings leave wake unexplainable makes feel low touch life begun hate dreamsi want dreams anymore want blip non existing hours leastmy patterns nearly years now wake eat trapped room sleep repeat memories past years days nothing years nothing anymorenot time makes sensei looking move abroad chase dream really plausible motivating anymore got left last hope life work least tried endi waking sad miserable lonely tired life seeming meaningless every minute real thing keeping going family musici still virgin bothered normal age never love feelings anyone one woman meant world years still mind time fantasising together starting care attitude lifei still strong faith god hard keep going let live born let doctors save collapsed lung months premature god knew life life getting joke still love though hope forgive know need talk system reddit continue livehi names adam im canada im sure word basically im sure continue live care upvotes care honest opinions comments heres story story starts school year happy kid loving life well school happy appearance one day phone rang mom picked minutes whispering heard mom crying stairs went effort console told adam grandmother diagnosed lung cancer today moving us soon person sad sad much know feel really grandma nice lady problem naturally mind moving girl name morgan friends close stress building needed someone vent think loud express emotions morgan person needed person listen shoulder cry enjoyed life reason morning loved heart morgan beautiful girl pleasure laying eyes much popular always come back matter hottest guy perfect abs liked played triple hockey follow hockey good gets apart nhl busy person keeping alive nine months passed grandma move hospice house still remember every little detail awful place build place asked grandma stay long died within month living place depression set life sucked morgan life worth living still happy school year came end see often managed started gaming found ways pass time although still mind every summer kid flew nothing fine school starting see guys year bigger better guys became obsolete rather guy named connor connor hated clue day mind talk much opinions matter morgan girl dreams mean literally dream even sex dreams dreams happy grades fell year tension parents started building started become quite apparent want married anymore began hate father thought bastard told mom multiple times stress started building end school year needed person vent release stress guess came back life find funny entire months ignoring talking connor still accepted summer talked quite bit good consoling knew calm big fight parents unfortunately parents spent entire summer fighting hated every moment mom one foot door leave dad summer started end continued love still confused luckily school starting around house anymore felt good going school year connor gone able spend time morgan new character makes introduction story name wes wes tall muscular handsome guy homo friends throughout last school year still friends today liked better girl keeping alive anymore liked wes better suicidal thoughts started thought maybe maybe find another girl thats found cleo great girl never amount morgan best asked laughed turned thats thoughts started coming frequently sad sack shit thought joining army instead joined kickboxing league girl dreams want anymore next best girl rejected parents separating grandma lived months died lung cancer pretty damn set taking life brings us recent time im pretty sure weeks ago another girl named emma im sure even liked emma wanted girlfriend someone love asked morgan think chance emma told emmas parents want dating backed behind back morgan thought good idea ask emma despite telling allowed date emma said wouldnt emma told older sister sister spread word older sister heard sister furious rumours involving emmas family day emma rejected sister flipped grandpa died dads side grandma earlier story moms side almost sure ending ten died weekend bother going school monday spent monday gaming crying thinking life morgan cleo parents grandpa grandma went school next day turns morgan telling friends reason go monday emma rejecting still thank lending time make comment providing opinions questions greatly appreciated adam movie begins almost achingly slowly romance yawn seems ramble course part plan roughly one hour solemn movie feast worth paying attention first hour feast still solemn humorous suddenly withdrawn slightly petty characters come life everyone characters leave feeling enriched experiencebr br women love christians sorts enjoy profound faith demonstrated characters favorite movie time dinosaurs laser beams definitely movie happy seen missedbr br jim thing keeping going alive tiny puppy becoming thin threadi process planning end life one day family member brought home puppy hes reason waking still struggling helped ease numbing pain yet thoughts coming back ideas redflag returning alarming rate feel incredibly lost lifegoing motions feeling terrifying fuck school starting tomorrow wan na graduate done shit pain rage absoulte griefim happy report struggles life finally see light everything bullied belittled told teachers telling far life due speech impediment lost lover said blame thier death abandoned betrayed people thought friends true friends forced move due circumstances way past communicate parents divorce feeling burden others deserved nothing finally mind set horrible care life lifes others toxic thoughts kill self kill ones caused pain rage finally able come years life finally found passion life everything pursue recently found determination try school fully reconnected family emotional distance ive cut remaining toxic relationship distance form grief rage pain say truely move forward life asked change anything past said yes know absolute shaped made want make sure one face go want make comfort people times need said im leaving community wish struggling succumb demons conquered keep moving forward finally believe weak never know life know hard promise better people lost battle thier inner demons wish found thier peace think im finally ready end things im ugly life going nowhereits good thing im flat broke background im nearing spent years working best possible person got amazing shape started dressing well worked social skills nervous tics got hygiene order studied attraction flirtation well well previously fat body covered hideous face women see trigger gag reflex people often talk pass either saying something friend laughing ugly pity comments poor guy face mother love ive overheard coworkers talking look think headphones today therapist confirms im unfortunate looking trying make point ugly people meet woman slipped saying though im unfortunate looking still find someone realized said immediately tried change topics want embarrass really really hurt nice honesty though afterwards leave early work interview promotion try damnest better mood playing upbeat music though face might disgusting spent rest money paycheck picking really nice outfit wear interview im dressed well feeling little better immediately told hiring supervisor interview tomorrow confirmation email say today informed told tomorrow im guaranteed position embarrassment wear old baggy dress clothes fat tomorrow something different cant afford buy another outfit go interview ill never another interview position yet another confirmation face disgusting said lucky least loved ones im broke theres gun store miles away wish make purchase forever alone stuck place im joke ask please give nonsense everyone find true love anything realistic makes feel worse want embarrass normal picture please ask one know compliments faux feel told im ugly already today im considering plastic surgery id rather give money doctors without borders save children deserve live opportunity darwin clearly wants die years ago thrown tribe ugly died soon wilderness thank reading needed vent stand chance make today fridays payday ill decisions make lets real people stop giving shit weeks even care allredflag deeply personal thing ive two acquaintances kill last two years hardly think want kill im scared dont want pain switch flipped brain brain wants die every day strong suicidal thoughts im running gas wish brain didnt want kill much ive literally beating shit lately close fist punching face ive lost control forehead knuckles covered visible bruises want stop pain ive saved lot money funeral costs years ive distancing loved ones want reduce footprint redflag inevitable hurt family wish make look accident hurt think still care people want live im trying hard live im scared deadlift piano today job fucking stressful pays well tho cant wait longer years ago attempted redflag hanging failed im failure endlessly harassed bullied fucking worthless society days junior high end motivated purely hatred twisted irritating people life aspired people begged kill almost entire grade school started thinking want win stayed told nobody thinking tried fighting went ok figured pushed limit school good enough education escape horrific place live thats wanted free hell hole town canada problem literally worthless stupid studied non stop obtained perfect attendance across years high school meant nothing barely passed classes teachers say im lost cause point im last year high school failed math course berated every single student teacher fucking pathetic last years waste time done long ago see win right id rather dead spend rest life horrific town anyways thing stopping right know im gon na youte telling missed talking abt animals tjays entire thing deserve lifeto put frankly deserve life ive made choices past literally rear swallow public downfall time family deserves better im person things still im monster locked away deranged sick dead problems go away fear guilt goes away family deals public backlash redflag shame embarrassment inevitable fall hi im years oldhi know probably thinking point oh hes teenager hormones well thats still remember depressed somewhere rd grade somewhere around time see point grades always shit ive barely scraped pass every year mean theres doubt entire future depends grades throughout life cant even see getting local community college around two weeks school left passing gon na happen cant tell anyone im depressed days friends barely care enough anything im compulsive liar idiot overall failure family point even somehow managed drag middle school high school theres always going grades head constanly reminding shit future waiting end now save extra bull future time anyone cares even little move forget time theyre high school thanks reading first post reddit jerk something wrong alright sorry wasting time guess lost game whats point stupidill always inferior everyone struggle basic human things speech eye conact social acting impossible dont think theres reason even try anymore help one friends wants gf back one friends going break exgf never told thinks might homophobic parents never relationship idea figure broke doesnt contact anymore cant ask text classes together written letter doesnt know give worth living taking advantage opportunities parent worked hard forhi im soon four days life many great opportunities took granted child brought us given opportunity learn second language witch years pass hight school days came end didnt graduate started set events given opportunity work study legally didnt graduate high school door eventually close left without job lie family friend putting front dont figure im joke regrets life choices made future goal banish blame anyone read thank need comment needed chest day ended suspect friend mine suicidal close dohe already depressed met close friends talk know say edit makes difference became depressed broke girlfriend three four months ago greta garbos american film debut analogy lives swept course fate actions torrent causing us lose part along waybr br greta plays leonora poor peasant girl love ricardo cortezs character rafael landowner ricardo love easily influenced domineering mother leonora ends homeless travels paris becomes famous opera singer develops reputation loose woman reality part attitude bitterness rafaels abandonmentbr br returns home visit family eventually confronts rafael surprisingly one knows famous la brunna garbo acts role diva truly prised cool haughtiness later portrayalsbr br ricardo cortez reminds one lot valentino looks part groomed valentino clone mgm though never thought reality right believable unsympathetic part weak willed mamas boy allows age realistically comically end movie fails win leonora returns home later follows courage underminedbr br movie beautifully shot brilliant storm sequences sets depicting spain time authentic looking fine secondary performances old timers lucien littlefield tully marshall mack swainbr br although story lost love missed chances think leonora rafael happy together needed traditional wife much career woman think happy small village ending true life pulls punchesbr br see one garbos american film debut precursor things come wow friendzone weird friendzoned feels weird hi best friend flirting lot almost dated yet told one friends go feel weird friends shipped us really started believe actually interest know feel react plus still really attached might still crush im sure help lol know huge accomplishment ive able back road try frustrating making much progress id really miss independent free anyone tips id love find someone relate overcome fear people tell u wear masks idiotic employees tell u wear masks dont even wear right bro u nose cover u idiots ive stores walmart dont cover nose let ppl goddamn holes masks walk past day waiting dads car mom woman smoking masks comes hand full groceries btw im anti mask hate ppl dont wear masks right hand light bulb thats running hours honestly dont know havent died yet hmm put thing called love fantasm created humans feel safe idk mean see heart taste smell touch feel really really understand people believe thing billion humans except maybe even mean devote ur life someone live himher ur entire existence life lol think never understand think love exist really dont know anymorei severe depression anxiety bipolar disorder works ive never consistently able treat dont care head heart always empty really want die stop burden recently quit job much pressure ive never broken ive always okay enough function im going give till tomorrow cant find reason live im going maybe run away instead live street disappear im tired might make gay sex poem tonight comment calling pretty princess ill fukc school want happy kids school friends joke together homework mins class together fun sit corner play tetris guess school less stressful anybody talk never thought come thisive always background ive always felt replaceable didnt matter dont want anymore always subtle suicidal thoughts ive hit time low past months worst life want end never felt broken empty depressedi went swearing never touch drug life might addiction point im sober feel point living im wasting mine everyone elses time im still im highdrunk whatever feel numbed pain little amount time doesnt last long still end going bed sad wishing wont wake next day tried stop feel need keep going dont know thing always helped music favorite artist dead makes want die even well music helps used love video games feel im living altered state mind musicvideo games im living good reason recently ive many serious thoughts killing think im making wrong decision one cares funny every redflag death one ends caring gone late havent posted reddit dont know point thanks listening anyone read im homeless drink coom survive yeah u read title filler filler filler filler filler filler filler damn im cold windy tho feels chilly idk brrrrrrr u feel ducking bros best deeply depressed go quarantene covid case class soo really alone able talk family friends really got depressed thought things hurted asked everything often overthink things alone much time really bad time grades school crisis quit bros really worried wanted feel better talked minecraft bought minecraft rent server play really really nice life together really love bros helped stabilize stop overthinking love bros love every situation togeter pointi good friends job drop college year never relationship either im always looking way human contact despite life particularly bad home state supports enough live minimal life still finish degree apply jobs least train skills time world see want sit home pointless stuff keeps somewhat happy sane hand brought another problem mind months even continue living point anything matter die today live another years accomplishing nothing past week thinking ending void feels far better option today spent entire day researching different redflag methods drift away im starting feel somewhat content pointless stuff actually preventing making final decision constant desire dying im sort middle ground cant kill cant live either want way feeling debate memes watch ill sum breaking news old man yells old man scared brothers life amp know domy brother currently hospital recent redflag attempt first terrified gets hospital days amp think belongs outside world yet jail months th dwi pulled bar parking lot front truck causing wreck hit couple traveling day old baby according report one hurt brother went jail better terror incident inflicting self harm multiple occasions cut hand amp even shot stomach though always claimed accidents months allowed halfway house set per hour welding job even began days halfway house snuck property buy liquor cut hand razor fence way back witnesses said watched cut hand purpose brought er stitches night suffered seizure credited synthetic marijuana use though prone seizures alcohol withdrawal past long history tourettes syndrome seizures jail well brought back er day seizure amp next morning attempted redflag cutting throat left redflag note amp everything hospital amp fucking judge declared days psychiatrists hospital sent home trial instead back jail halfway house im fucking terrified loose cannon amp physically big stop tries anything honestly even want around time amp afraid happen tried many times seems disconnected soul amp hell bent abusing know scoffs mention meditation even reflection amp honestly wish somehow forced stay asylum jail safety protect brother going light end tunnelusually things life arent great recently though feel arent even parts days bearable dont know feel hear many things dont give better days come theres always light end tunnel bullshit see light long remember ive unhappy want feel happy want end really im scared one thing holds back entirely dont want discuss please someone tell life even worth living really gon na never ending tunnel light end cancel telletubies terrible show girls class made cult worshipping please help cancel telletubies hey guys let help saw post guy needed movie site copied link site use find post help people cant afford netflix wan na watch shows heres use httpswwwmusichqnetwatchtvtheoffice office link use search bar sometimes tap something itll bring site ignore make sure use server vidcloud nothing works hope helped wish knew start post year old cis white married man live one richest countries world eat everyday sleep indoors employed love wife despite life especially last months want diei tried therapy medication still feel meaning life people care truly benefit deal gone contact family last two years ghosting friends last months ultimately know coming think stop iti tired empty know keep going really even want anymore tired pretending fine breaking alone tired trying find motivation errands chores hobbies friends livingi guess last ditch chance counseling friends family able fix maybe stranger internet words pressure reader walked edge deep breath fall feel finally bottom got random reward idk got take energy reward idk im gon na give top comment hours something hmm im sure girl im talking likes thinks im funny said im kinda cute regularly snapping pics stomach thighs super short shorts hands best date amusement park idc friend wan na go amusement park people one lol yall motivation keep daily hygiene haha bro im class rn wan na play doom man sodom emoji screams ayo honestly hate life hate im really interested life general anymore single friend one rd grade exaggeration family low money covid probably need move california idea grades low go good college gpa im failing two classes missing assignments never find girlfriend life im underweight im stressed max general awful year im losing motivation life developing inside years now great comedy highlighting live next door racist bigot shows main characters actually bad based hit itv comedy politically incorrect better comedy entertain movies real drawback isnt much plot cast great usual jack smethurst rudolph walker make one hell team playing oneupmanship kind wayits many years saw movie last week finally able buy dvd fact movie still contains genuine laugh loud moments means recommend movie back s finally feel relaxedits long ride honestly im male lot happened life live third world country grew alone real interaction people age kindergarten either missing basic socializing sent school age youngest class made life worse screwed got bullied everything never understood wrong people hate much lived really far away school take bus came every hour skipped school sometimes really let socialize free time either years ive outcast whole time one really cared tried talk least shoo away tried talk tried talking transfer students caught associating turn scapegoat well really blame stung quite bit one point got pneumonia parents able treat time healthcare system utter garbage hospitals underequipped personnel qualified one knows whatre really ruined health later line due additional complications kidneys liver something even know whats called english english skills really far away good even health either back blacked pe one thing teacher dumped sack potatoes onto small bench left whole thing thats fine paid nearly enough care teachers paid enough care escaped computer soon afford one years ive spent obsessing ebooks video games basic chats absolute best time life finally someone end screen hate outright existing friends online lived really far away neither us afford travel remained cold text screen dozen years bit learned english tried talking people overseas strange experience theyve lived different happy lives never understand said friends someone hang relationships steadily losing voice years talking point started forgetting whats talk verbally every time try talk stutter horribly put thoughts order magical floating keyboard turn things want say something understandable came university afford dorms commute took roughly hours every day years learned make basics human communication hell internet widespread acceptable tried using advantage long story short friends university either single relationship look horrendous deformed blame single woman much looking direction thats fine want anyone tried signing psychology doctor im sure whatre called english properly tried unhelpful garbage looked empty eyes waiting official time spend patient run gave ordeal afford good private one later line annoyance started settling ive technically friends internet stopped existing lives second stopped posting almost none noticed hospitalized month think someone notice suddenly gone weeks without notice guess invisible irl seeped invisible internet well superpowers yo hollywood movies made look lot interesting turned real life found likeminded people never person really call friend say loved someone loved back point life gone now left world peace used envy greatly weighs dozens years alive one single outside family considered attractive worth talking despite trying go libraries uni clubs walking around outside trying read park told hell stop creepy fine know im failure ultimately fucked everything happened life used work dead end kinda job finishing university bills food mindnumbing waste time days ago feel something flipped switch inside im finally ready go feels relaxing breath fresh air locked cellar years pretty close reality sucks ive pulled short straw make longer effort maybe things different support pillar sort hang rather crawling around floor trying places im closing accounts ive services one uni acquaintances provided materials go sleep paid debts ive point one things wanted post small life story internet nothing truly lost internet much difference ill make planet use reddit normally reply wanted post somewhere itd archived maybe remembered one person least minutes thatd great thats ask still preparations left long finalizing papers thank ill going now cant seem make friends honestly cant make friends feels matter happen well id say one friend love much appreciate every day couple people occasionally talk aside nobody strangers acquaintances feels really lonely lot time try make effort speak listen people ive tried strike conversation someone likes things something id enjoy hearing talk ive contacted people online person volunteered joined one sports group never results anything admittedly im fairly shy person spent lot time trying overcome social phobia try best always make first move maybe thats problem im always forcing interaction onto people want thats tend brushed thats fine people dislike mehave interest want ive spent years making first move situations others approach never try hard noticed anyone whoever see want anything plus even rarer cases invited talk someone join group always incredibly difficult stay involved keep example whilst naming names school trip abroad grouped two people seemed happy enough went large public building groups meant separate turned around one second gone got completely lost half hour finally met back acted nothing happened even seem realise later pretty much thing despite trying keep mentioning happened gave group course friend already know cant say zero friendships hes great talk every day sake mine cant come constantly whatever im thinking hes human needs breaks people anyone lot time im sitting wishing knew least one person half well know luck wanted put felt somewhere thanks read far want monke httpsimgurcomavxoai someone talk biti really need someone talk right well fuck class day already feeling shit hours sleelp nowhere crush ey yo name asked whats told really pretty friends dayruined heartshattered hoteltrivago want diei dont know say sorry wasting time want die came best friend im sooo happpyyyyy omg omg omg sooo scared actually really supportive supports fact dont want anyone know parents wont find goodbut ahhhhh im sooooo happyyyyy well best day life cant decide cant make mind want try find someone leave life really starting bother im end rope makes go sleep wake tired whole day able stay till past pm weekend school night go sleep pm wake cant even stay awake hours makes dead asleep right now someone indirectly threatening redflag explicitlythis happened past much younger turned ok didnt know handle want prepared happened someone texts essentially sounds theyre saying goodbyes doesnt say anything explicitly still ok call police nonemergency line happened dad apologizing good enough father saying hopes good life never said goodbye outright didnt say going kill still obvious situation respond asking planning kill calling police call immediately good luck gces anyone uk good luck results day hopefully us pass one probably read wanted say sorry sorry reading wasting time sorry two little siblings talk sorry mom piece shit son sorry dad calling neglecting relationship sorry cousins ignored asshole importantly sorry alive causing suffering let hate much everyone hates sorry alive remember yr old shit best exam stress got yelled less got eat junk food watch tv day shit bomb die everyone least ill come first lifeive never anything stand second choice participation trophy never smart never attractive never skinny never impressive never loved never wanted im tired thinly veiled pretending come first anyone dont even come first sad way understand feel empty crowds people okay one cared enough notice far important things wonder long itd take notice dead im pregnant dark placehey im quite predicament im even sure im posting right place wanted post rrelationships want stress conflict im taking place inside head ill give background im f graduated state university may degree business management although im currently unemployed mild depressionanxiety issues teenager mostly subsided point college ive boyfriend m mere months last week period failed show years regular decided good idea pee stick well still middle pissing little blue plus sign appeared panicked immediately opened second package peed one positive shouted bathroom boyfriend anxiously waiting standby yes pregnant upset read happiness excitement face although knew trying hide held started crying saying cant want mother going keep thats took shoulders told want abortion look differently killed child got knees kissed stomach love much realized moment love anything world including moment accepted family went got prenatal vitamins cocoa butter inevitable stretch marks downloaded pregnancy app phone saw images little bambino looks cant help already feel affection towards even though point know neither brain consciousness boyfriend already told mom several coworkers even though told good idea still chance losing day yesterday last night another panic attack boyfriend year college works bartender poor af quit job weeks ago little week discovered pregnant im behind rent landlord pretty cool though point barely afford life theres absolutely way able afford baby without getting assistance state something never pictured independent educated woman another thing never saw single mom see boyfriend abandoning time soon said known long promised million times never leave allow child grow broken home worse family belong boyfriend grew foster care great experience strong opinions easier said done mean look many single moms whose baby daddies promised exact thing personally know several easy give lip service future decides wants something different life eg parent walk away hand small window time decide want right now im stuck middle never wanted kids reason felt keeping boyfriend truthfully prochoice second discovered pregnant im sure feels wrong deep permeating fear regret even though right given option pregnant take last night told boyfriend feelall things id rather put turmoils pregnancy labor birth challenges parenting amount personal time life body aspects personality sacrificing went told im dark place mentally frequent thoughts redflagi see way right now first told im looking wrong way discussing thoroughly realized seriously bad place mentally agreed supported decision keep verbally anyways see clearly face body language hurts initially realized even though promises love support blames hes become distant withdrawn seriously know fear worst relationship keep baby feel though soulmate options feel cutting left arm right leg want die im lost lost fianc feeling terriblei something stupid long time ago didnt cheat broke trust fashion worked broke quite pretty nowhere happy together shes amazing woman amazing relationship two months ago feeling lost daily havent contact seen want back bad know gon na back together reach feel terrible daily contemplate end part feels whole thing fault ruined great thing part knows shouldnt left isnt root issue cold feet scared future sleepless americans wan na talk tonight night fall asleep wholesome post pm havent got bed yet cant bring anything dog asleep back getting id wake stay music hot take day foxtrot genesis greatest progressive rock album made barely beating animals pink floyd feel trapped see way outhello ive thinking killing basically last years im trapped teaching internship program even want teacher applied got certification program want failure idea use history degree put internship across state know pay drive ive working hours club enough want give shit teacher cant back grand student loan debt without certification ill fucked want want put wringer piece paper even want wish someone told dont teacher figure something scared sleep last night called internship sick first week parents lectured saying im going seen unreliable never take sick day whole thing shot unless act together really think safe drive tired understand never ive said many times want drop use bachelors something never listen say make marketable pussy even teach finish happy years im unhappy year old moron internship cant support desperately trying stave future loan debt going career path give less shit cant see way need help im home alone today half tears staring space im sorry really man im sorrysexualphysicalmental abuse child almost sold human trafficking someone intervened put foster home women tells spent life praying daughter returned mother foster parents told never see us relocated canada usa mom loses custody us arrested last time saw returned canada waited everyday mom come finally receive message mother tells none abuse suffered real ptsd fuck ups weve diagnosed cant real according try killing twice rehab physically abusive relationship beat pregnant tried kill one distinct memory drunk searched house something find came room laying bed breastfeeding daughter punched face hard strangle till blacked scars face charged domestic abuse paid fine gained courage leave left province cuts contact gets dui province comes back wants visitation custody battle new relationship old ways kicked home sent shelter yesterday custody hearing valentines day today cant fight anymore spent life fighting spent life thinking enough years bullshit done fighting really enough finally convinced enough never understood mom leave understand difference daughter worth fight daughter means world called father court anything happened okay neither us deserve love want happy dead end love love love done fighting cant even believe saying love thing got far love much dont know copehi im really sure start ive contemplating idea redflag years now im much coward recently urge getting stronger stronger lack close friends open ive never actually told anyone feel bad every day wish wouldnt wake cry nights due reject school home parents refuse give attention pleasure life currently ramadan im struggling living due fasting im weigh kg parents dont care say good refuse eat take anger food recently ive eating less less making hate body ive recently gotten government issued student loan mum wants im trusted im one thing ive looking forward month bit shopping today shes said doesnt end week ill start paying rent start paying food im muslim cursed sexuality problems dont know caused thing ive living entire life lie cant tell anyone friends publicly made known dont accept lgbt people wouldnt friends idk change feelings towards genders main thing thats holding ending able see happy family dont think life right hard deal im starved sorry posting unserious enough wanted let people know bit soon maybe die motherfucking birthday officially lets go boys made another year hope treats good anyway hope guys amazing day came vent guessim fucking worthless dumbfuck piece shit im fucking useless deserve breathe cant anything barely pass classes cant sport art fucking thing cant even drivers license im fucking dumb college probably happen end dropout something unemployed alcoholic family one care friends beg kill none convince probably neither anyone try help might well ignore message unless fucking superhumans able change mind said vent little bit im fucking angry frustrated guess better screaming walls im done shit want die cereal milk cereal haves milk hit followers face reveal soon oh im held gunpoint sign adoption papers help dont know resist anymorei suicidal hate hate anyone one person gave ripped heart clean chest took spirit took happiness unknowingly took last shred live know much longer cutting long time stopped bit recently yesterday cut entire left arm one cares enough notice let alone listen lost sat bathtub using dull knife carve arm sat thought went wrong used driven happy walk day complacency hoping last im sure follow ending pain good people seem give fuck people met reddit thank strangers kind words really want throw awayshit sucks stressed sun night friday afternoon id rather dump potential drain die keep living seems better option even longtime shirley fans may surprised now forever movie filmed paramount studios shirleys parent company twentieth century fox fox producer darryl zanuck perfected successful shirley formula cute songs cold hearts melt young couples play cupid happy endings thus now forever falls category shirley vehicle without standard shirley story awkward position movie impressive talented cast makes workbr br gary cooper carole lombard star funloving irresponsible con artists jerry toni day thing devoted yet dysfunctional duo seems hate together apart suddenly landed custody jerrys young daughter penny shirley temple toni penny many believe persuades jerry give criminal career jerry flounders desk job desperate prove provide new family soon returns thieving dishonesty standard shirley device penny tries melt heart crusty curmudgeon felix evans victim one jerrys cons attempt fails evans revealed con artist blackmails jerry helping steal jewels drama gunfight death sorrow follow make film unusual one little miss sunshine happy ending dancing one song sequence cute number world owes livingbr br mean shirley fans avoid now forever rather divergence usual shirley story make interesting memorable many films beware avoid colorized version film see blackandwhite color bright garish unrealistic many scenes shirleys famous curls actually red instead blonde yikes currently going rough patch half falling situation parents recently relationship bipolar girlfriend mutually imposed hiatus wants alone lot lately started new job work year half needing adjust guess someone enjoys needs affection two days ago car broke came home work summer event professional life going great actually atm feel functioning came home immediately grabbed guitar started playing singing soul song dead flowers rolling stones playing townes van zandt version happened genuine flashback years ago kind soul searching trip vietnam sitting rooftop hanoi played guitar sang girl watching brief moment silence looked dead eye said sing sad hit truck know even posting guess juest need vent really really hope hiatus work still know next weeks manage somehow worth really good friends deep level years relationship started february year start year everything going well therapy started new career path happened feels everything falling apart hope strength carry moment thing left know posting guess words encouragement nice know hope better night question felt shot straight heart never life cavity anything done teeth bc negligence whatever im disgusting lot ppl actually good dental hygiene djsjsjsjxjdhdjdjdjsjxjxjjdjdjdjskwskjxjdjdjsjdjdjs everything say twisted everything fails everyone encounter tells im loser everyone encounter gaslights bad people away things never face justice crimes nobody believes calls troll makes fantasiesfuck reddit worse chan claim better reddit deserves banned shtrafbat story russians tell second world war largest front whole conflict ironically least appearing subject silver screen war western allies wareffort pictured almost every possible detail manner east left job left old propaganda movies little historical footage valuebr br chance shtrafbat compete band brothers every detail neither want look screen examining petty visual effects mind soldiers russians enough big reason forgive less eyecaptivating battle scenes concentrate story interesting much different war eastern front nature russian army might wish people produce dramatizations fronts armiesbr br shtrafbat way perfect rare specialties augment overall rating tends crush myths people second world war true heroes russian people leaders sent missions perish another great myth bust presents enemy pick gun equal human advancement difficult try many acclaimed films well shtrafbat shows war eastern front war survival clash isms grinds people dust tired short tall countryi hate live country average height tired trying happy positive jealous tall friends even shortest girl class height ashamed hate life stressing height cant anymore even worse im going stop growing soon always wanted happy know cant whiny little assholeim never good enough gtlt c chemistry literally going ruin life feel fucking grades make break life dad never shuts studying going better slack b meet nerd good subject guys spent inordinate amount time studying literally shit eating grin ta told going psych feel icy stares folks class calling losers nerd etc looks everything saying ityou feel thoughts forming heads words surface lips ask someone hang ignore give obvious bullshit answer cellphone phone rings text im busy facebook status theyre bored obviously spite weirdo loser im hypocrite loserish hang frat bro level folks know decent number people cool losers busywork stress stress play even respite course boring person interests maybe decided kill got acceptance letter thought foolishly new person ex actually make friends enjoy free time instead crying bed severely bored turn weekend come monday proud owner handgun long gun blargh dream hunter doublebarreled shotgun nothing walking around forest looking animals hunt really notice anything forest tried walk past certain tree figure came kicked full force collapsed fell ground dropped doublebarreled shotgun took rusty looking axe quickly hit head stomped axe go skull started dragging dead body away one brutal things witnessed life yet another nightmare recently saw film sidewalk film festival birmingham al actually really fun festival blown away best movie saw day long shot school aged prostitute meets middle age man attempt end deep depression together inner look darkest parts human sexuality story stems real life occurrences ripped straight headlines raw blunt dialog killer twist end film contain graphic sexual dialog nudity definitely suitable kids depressing peoples tastes definitely worth checking opinion though holy shit change app icon new update premium man bullshit wan na dieive feeling wan na die dumb school thing supposed project thing feeling rebellious hate forever decided yay project big part grade already whole life planned head feel thing knock really dont know reason feel dying hate much want die want tell parents feel gon na mad dont know wan na disappear ami english class suddenly felt light headed felt going pass didnt went home head looked back happened sad shocked see felt putting lot unnecessary pressure good student breaking point almost anger attack knowing im bettter thoughts redflag dont go away rare gone deal im gon na try write book good story ive rewriting past year afterwards gets published im killing myselfi made post months ago talked life think im unhappy well didnt explain text ive working book past months boy hates everything jerks lot tries kill pathetic actually suffers entire life snaps loses fucking mind course theres lot book didnt explain dont want put many spoilers finished dont expect book well dont expect even published im honest life plan finish make best writing ive written life im done im gon na stop caring life hopefully kill overdosing alcohol parents conservative fully alcohol drugs feel need numb pain bullshit already knew gon na turn substance abuser older im turning three days think wake much alcohol wan na drink dont care die wan na die ive realized life isnt im already drinking deadly amounts coca cola redbull monster soft drinks right now amounts junk food eat unbelievable im still thin stick one notices guess way trying cope biopolar disorder hidden depression life kinda shattered rn ngl ive crush girl years finally asked said still figuring whowhenif likes ppl felt kinda friendzone ik really hit hard shes chinese rly doesnt date collage im im sure well stay contact years help fuck people say damn guy real balls haha hes pussy chad one takes single kick pain creates literal life able pop child late night thought mine know hes struggling depression really bad lately tried best much got worse stupid girl whose playing hes good looking fit even know begin talk ask really worried starting seem might actually watch realize hell ok little better recently started seeing therapist going good started seeing girl parents know tried help know think friend going kill nb go brrrr yk sometimes female friend groups one gay guy thats basically honorary girl male friend groups tomboy thats basically honorary guy yeah im bf year generally quite charismatic positive person jokes around absolutely charming talked stranger never think may depressed starting seconds thoughts breaking hearthe grew rich family lot staff helped family house went expensive private school youngest sibling family enjoyed careless childhoodthen studied worked years successfully met notredflag women always somewhat traumatic abusive think caring relationship strong charismatic personality manly talented empathetic smart met years ago time till working hours cut due corona worked days week home lot free time besides working done things years smokes reads social media watches series hes seen eats insomnia often wakes tired morning work frustrating seems feel insecure search another job recently jokingly said something old psychological trauma mine answered seriously trauma go work days week puzzle got together head today think kind rich family never taucht concept labor kind work actually something really unpleasant current job especially boring feels unnecessary never really accepted go work actually trauma dreads time learned work days glum grumpy whole week really wish therapy matter afraid think sign weakness world works way everyone job much disagree feel something dreading exhausting time think fear work many years love think hes lazy person believe actual problem please recommend help think bf depressed hes hiding realizing breaking heart need advice hows ya monday going pls sign petition waddup imma keep short d pinter want decorate instructor wants signatures googly eyes mouth please sign petitionhttpchngitgsxqkpx reminder reminder japanese wwii soldier surrender years war ended approaching girl need advice okay theres girl btw went class elementary school something best friends often talked good friendsnow starting high school different schools combined covid affect friendship year ago started fell something unusual suddenly havent recognized friend something mean super pretty wasnt crucial thing personality little bit important thats think started feel mind im pretty shy comes dating fact never dated anyone strange think best thing strengthen friendship call friend date smth similar take time best approach imo different suggestion please tell question call date personally said see often via message compose date question date everything helpful never faced hate math teacher yesterday last day school math teacher made us test every class went teachers let us go phones shit math teachers last day school mean done work shit springs surprise test us anyway hows week far weeks ago found mom spying night found confronted thought stopped yesterday found still ok back thought something live place people open things things gay people doesnot exist mother kinda open says problem going world happening house kind homophobic next time shes gon na im gon na blast gay porn rooms tv dont think shell going hilarious said people really open possibiloty shes never gon na confront always last choice everyoneit seems one really needs friends people dont really care even though care much always try matter every friend chose someone makes feel worthless little kid always last choice always people try help give much never anything back never changes tired years old soul heart feel heavy old feel useless worthless apologize errors mistakes grammar native speaker sure play peoria apparently funny clever british comedy set end swinging sixties peter sellars fantastic rich fortysomething serial womaniser perfectly delectable goldie hawn playing year american girl london initially sellars catch day urbane tv food critic cant stop falling dizzy american blondbr br humour pathos great script strong performances leads supporting castebr br great film best gag last linebr br try fuck reaching helpi keep seeing hearing every asking help keep getting told feels one cares enough help anyway even supposed someone supposed respond need help feels im forcing onto people even know work terms helping unsure question even makes sense im genuinely curious means help sorry saying help much im goingim tired shadows puppet im tired one loving im tired everything im going forever bye guys need encouragement ok heres deal yesterday first day new school sort chose remote new school follow covid guidelines even though cases area spiking one wears mask properly old school two honor roll classes offered math science eligible science took new school honors english math science social studies offered eligible four three math weak point average want overwhelm much right bat heres problem everything different first online school works old school used google classroom google meet etc way everything one place super user friendly new school using schoology zoom much clunkier harder navigate especially schoology old school taking bio new school physical science old school history talking alcohol ban new school talking american revolution etc lot catching mean teach bunch material weekend thanksgiving break parents type perfect grades murder heres thing super pissed long takes work count school homework im working around hours day see fault want perfect grades yet bothered long takes work dad especially pissed mad walking room im class anyways im pretty confident ill able learn material thanksgiving break starts wednesday got back december st going getting minimal homework ill ton time work want encouragement guess boyss eeeyyyy crush confessed tommorow going go walk train either kill save lifesince today made homeless year old male lived bipolar depression years staying abandoned apartment leave sunday nowhere go friends nearby family money arrange accommodation thought accommodation mid december apartment demolished told last week leave monday thanks kindness stranger able afford cheap room two nights last night streets first time terrifying one large suitcase clothes stuff money cheap room anymore try help council sleep last night worry writing hope someone help tried kill worried try find streets feel hope im told emergency benefit payment possibly next week probably thursday week money streets somewhere stay miles away means getting safe benefits payment comes train either save life taking safety kill desperate throw beneath one anyone help purchase train ticket secure safe accommodation next week council sort benefits find somewhere live thank reading well fuck asked friend said yes never thought courage ask never thought hed say yes know fuck say now help please friend keeps saying epic cringe unironicaly time cant take anymore either im gon na kill pissing nobody brave enough say today one yep easy thank reading still ok bye heyy formaldehyde cause smell nice helpi eaten slept days im writing phone im lying floor bathroom ive spent morning vomiting cutting cuts deep see vein want pain stop one call someone please talk think parents might therapist even tell even talk mind go blank asked talk ab life lol year old sister watches porn found disturbing shit youtube wtf dont even think knows sex uuuuuuuuh httpsyoutubeaukilaafxg found eyes hurt wont go parents shitton drama rate tried talking now mean want bleach now drink sucking titties overrated believe bend neck suck know post made guy guys titties big enough sucks im point living seem something want im trying find please place end lifei thought shooting shower water running mess family clean ive thought backyard anything significant clean driving somewhere parking shooting car someone likely find mother personally see ampxb please help going happen im trying least disturbing way parents necessarily see deal body ampxb bad sleep schedule midnight europe wake sleep im deadnothing left said ampxb ones tears shed ampxb funeral im dead imagine person cant stop thinking thought time wouldnt awesome never happened feel useless side character never gets second look hangingjust tested see feels bad afterall surprisingly easy puppy staring goddamn cowardly lift weight floor fuck taking driving test today wish luck guys tip ill update later passed fiance abandoned one day left nothing place safety net trying live friends feel empty inside place world worked much therapy anchored much past trauma thought nothing works anymore lost ocean agony trying best live friends cat know long hold lost much weight already trying eat taking vitamin try keep stuff okay love life finish sentences sort love suddenly gone trapped apartment alone want belive light side hard see anti depressent remove ability feel smile cry laugh tried finding work disability work hard find issue needed work right away better everything name id lose healthcare joint sorry formatting make posts often abandoned hate awards really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hate awards idea danger thoughts anyone thought going insta live posting story someone breaks house describe person location people follow report police case go missing well thats back plan cant contact trusted adult thoughts questions ideas want know anyone back plans limited options happiness compatible okayin course last years losing side long battle believe preventionbased efforts exhausted calm thinking happy person one biggest struggles found life reason happy recognized many reason happy none bring feeling warmth chest happy makes even sadder see many joys life mentally grasp many joys life still comprehend excuses pain person faces spew root causes actions envious others seeking something already recognizing rationalize happiness somehow makes actions better guess much add found comedy still funny ten years came outbr br one thing notice music dialogue distracting often made movie hook use songs fine movie orchestral background busy contrived movie edited dvd seriously recommend background music toned almost inaudible level cheapened overall feel whole film see subconsciously lot people passed upbr br film lot levels working script plot comedy level bad producer director felt needed musical schlock enhance mood knowing find hard watch quietly curse whoever involved musical editing film subtlety jackhammer u message epstein guys wan na see something cursed ii todays last straw im fed life want live anymoreim fed im stuck city hate people fit studying degree sucking soul body overworking point physically mentally fucking dying feel ill every fucking day feel mentally ill every day treat everyone everything princes yet shit throughout life bad luck seems thing yesterday lost work uniform shoes calculator fucking underground today locked phone factory reset ive lost everything holds dearest reminds home see point anymore realised today ive years think gon na better wish done job january exactly keep going im gon na affairs order together plan peace really talki feel im going type type type need talk something really know feel shitty know try hard everything wrong cut scratched starting th grade got caught junior year hs got diagnosed general anxiety clinical depression homeschooled senior year went community college withdrew classes ab w th year university student withdrew classes units away graduation ditched intership team corps members little humans failed redflag valentines day year mute cant talk anyone write words talk boyfriend via messages skype money issues nothing completely unsolvable preventable valentines day thing really know boyfriend trying keep happy try happy every day work parents restaurant smiling nodding running away treated im two years old someone tries talk thing gets know head really reason depressed theres table food roof head clothes laptop try hard keep busy take hobbies go places gift people stop im thinking ways kill without failing breaking boyfriend blamed taking flight anywhere parents see cadaver shit head time want better fall know one point pounds year buy chocolate ice cream go grandmas house id refuse leave underneath covers weeks cant anymore want visit emergency crisis team medication anything shrink nothing good want talk feel want end want one end kind jokingly asked boyfriend kill instead reaction really bad felt really bad realized awful say realized thats really contradictory know sometimes im pretend im better maybe ill better keeps making feel worse makes head hurt parents going much already really need worry yearold daughter graduated student financial services want think right now health issues know popped im wondering really point im ending burdening family worrying people better end grieve little go live lives load little lighter tried really never missed therapy contacted asked help psychologists kept busy outgoing made friends got accepted internship volunteered gave alone time went shopping ate lots lots chocolate candy took pictures made scrapbooks got boyfriend tried nothing worked know im willing try anymore know know want want want even right really know want go sleep tonight wishing wake tomorrow want wake see know feel everythings wrong bros rteenagers im asking advice finally courage ask cute girl number problem know chat good thing phone battery empty right talk tomorrow morning im casually meeting failedwell definitely failed test itgonna took pills started drinking im gon na go hang friend think little bit think ill take rest later im kind feel peaceful typing know want play guitar roommates mother kinda want talk someone someone guess thats reached dog though im sorry weird getting calming sense everything finally chill okay might pills idk wish use life wagerfor lottery either die problems go away win big problems go away win win scenario think hold longeri feel horrible head hurts heart feels heavy little hard breathe cant think focus everything foggy head full invisible thoughts feel lonely alone feels noone used cant depend longer really enough shoulders hurts receive things gave keep asking need want obvious want talk even feel thats literally told noone understands feel misunderstood disrespected noone bothers message ask im feeling even said knew feel crap hurts theyre ignoring even mad addressed issue emotions feel driving frozen hill using summer tires actual health sinking old broken ship grades terrible funny used top student ive never beach ive never another country even visit capital country achieve much inspire anyone live start something truly awesome thats okay lived long enough emotions finally letting die sudden fake overconfidence happiness never happy extroverted feelings feel truly fake things want address mother never hated always loved really hate actions towards im sorry im way never asked asexual dumb burden im sorry tore dreams apart hungry wolf searching food im sorry never someone proud friend really enjoyed playing minecraft together hope cathedral built friends wanted see update axolotls stuff think happen maymays really cool keep going friend im really glad life ill never forget philosophical political discussions even though opinions different still respected eachother ps trash assassin go back support beloved sunshine snow lungs diamonds crown never let drown keep promise made life harder stopped whining never judge emotions judge hurt little fine really wish best find someone better someone whos pretty smart healthy selfless kind warm empathetic made life easier found happiness calm peaceful extroverted loud uncontrollable im glad life really really polar opposites one classmates never knew feel way hard hard hide feelings hard stay awake night hard uncontrollable confidencehappiness episodes sorry let everyone anymore winter approaches stateowned broadcaster abc decided reason partial jane austen festival sunday nights commenced twelveyear old movie length version emma last sunday recent versions three novels persuasion northanger abbey mansfield park comebr br curious thing production ae television networks script everreliable andrew davies appeared almost simultaneously two much bigger budget movie versions one starring gwyneth paltrow clueless modernized version starring alicia silverstone transported plot beverly hills perhaps result even kate beckinsale lead production sank without tracebr br general rule much lost novels shrunk fit feature movie length adaptations one tends enjoy remember adequate room develop story characters outstanding example brideshead revisited minute episodes back compare ordinary movielength version pride prejudice brilliant sixpart tv miniseries novel filmed page page novels often good ones adapt wonderfully film atonement recent example novels jane austen sort need time space exert full charmbr br given shortcomings type adaptation production ok kate beckinsale gives emma right mix selfassuredness vulnerability mark strong forthright mr knightly reminded jane tended recycle characters knightly articulate version moody mr darcy pp samantha morton rather limp harriet prunella scales got blabbermouth miss bates perfectly sybil fawlty speed bernard hepton emmas feeble father excellent saw damp countryside mud poverty well posh interiors case anyone thought particularly idyllic age everybodybr br even though condensed adaptation oddly slow places conversations rather stilted even allowing formalities times id look film sure might due underuse reaction shotsbr br filmed period stuff perfectly nice example compares well paltrow version anyway come future awaits us overpopulated unforgiving wasteland hellish unwanted existence film brings mind problem still plagues us doubly film released back lets hope world going end thisbr br soylent green wild movie enjoyed much likable characters semiapocalyptic setting compelling thoughtprovoking storyline machoest macho man charleton heston richard fleischer gave movie unpleasant dirty feel almost choked stench city filthy inhabitantsbr br characters wonderful charleton heston become one favorite actors thorn man created role badass yet likable toughguy definitely put thorns shoes sees something right everyone around either listen paid listen wants dead edward g robinson last film rip plays lovable old sol enough nasty place everyone great especially leigh tayloryoung shirl piece furniture comes apartment residesbr br special effects fantastic even soylent green factory futuristic apartments especially scoops bulldozers rid people excellent polluted air outside looks disgusting nasty empty city streets filled vile putrid people unsettlingbr br one final note ending even still shocked gruesome think pretty good ideabr br bottom line br br excellent s science fiction flick makes think leaves feeling uneasy kelly loeffler david perdue woohoo gon na keep georgia senate keep america great anybody unironically uses word shawty automatically assume pedo mr kelly lil shawty year old school girl brevitys sake end psa peace emergency meeting saw crush public went somewhere looking something mom couldnt find saw someone uniform said excuse turned around immediately recognized asked knew item thats problem havent texted months ghosted wont able stop thinking even ive crush years handcuffed thrown back seat police car suicidal idealationyes folks suicidal tell someone treated criminal escorted forced go hospitalkept observed cops transported loony bin handcuffed thrown back seat stip searched loaded meds say want take want sleep nothing wander around watch whatever play single television ar ekept lie pretend longer suicidal insurance runs happened twice two times lied evaluation hospital avoid commited great insight society handles people tremendous pain suffering huh wan na play truth dare dm cmon whats one thise cringy thoughts keeps night slipped mat gym class fitness test everyone thought couldnt pushup slipped tall mat made us pushups hands floor feet mat slid fell days worse othersa week ago bracing eat bullet im way weekend vacation know happiness last forever cant let stop enjoying time hope inspires someone people react losing someone redflagpeople grieve die guess people kill others react anger confusion along sadness isnt really period terminal illness people cant prepare death death wouldnt parent react roughly way child died car accident think except whole done something stop thing weird people view death redflag differently age think old enough make decision euthanized wanted choose born least able choose terms death mean right people finding messy agonizing ways kill may well give people option easy way option receive painless suicide reddit friend believed committed scroll bottom post poorly worded makes think may killed userbase reddits law enforcement guidelines info reddit said put scenario contacted reddit reply im worried looking post history found references liverpool brighton hope helps live uk please law enforcement find thinking killing know dothis going hard reed highly dyslexic go grammar hello break thinking killing hurt one love anything monster last moths birth parents dead job future emotional special needs dyslexia know express emotions person make everything toxic find people hard around emptiness hits hard try counselling acted joke fucked around setting date calls meeting keeping find hard trust people self harming started last year mum dead way feel sad guilty time nothing used one person last years life treated shit used pawn manipulated anything said tonight fight scary never physically hurt though going love love back toxic monster final word writing show must stop goodbye sorry everyone hurt stop fun fact day number superior every way weak dumb stupid strong hot smart intelligent sorry fact fact true smart hot stuff essentially remake original chinese ghost story third installment higher production values greater subtlety acting story tony leung particularly good cgs iii gorgeous moving film nothing funnier candace owens suing facebook factchecking film entertaining fun quality film film cleverly follows guidelines 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worried life without vagina im nervous people especially girls treat genitals im bit worried im going masturbate sex parts gone im definitely going done id definitely advice live youre pessimistic controlling assholelove lifeokay goodbye really cant wait kill next week lol feel worst life hope somebody reads thisi really good friends kindergarten never saw afterwards went private school took nearly decades another friend feel im person planet go elementary school middle school high school college without single friend genie grant wish automatically wish relive life always real friend care relive life worst living conditions world feel whole life wasted im lonely went birthday parties uninvited invited love concerts sporting events almost everytime ive gone one ive gone alone lonely sat next people respect friends think let sit next friends even worse point think people gave rides church friend felt sorry last day high school remember crying parking lot everybody friends everybody went home friends celebrate last day school called dad pick middle school want explain one parking lot remember desperate friend went meetup meetup took meetups nobody liked finally got friend ironic thing desperate quit going meetups th pointless one friend drought probably still going years later friend moved years girlfriend remember going somebody hang new years eve friend got girlfriend im dreading new years eve going alone worst part ive close making friends past ive met people liked less couple months bored feel biggest loser many people say took decades find friend drivers licence years parttime job years college first fulltime job wish live life fyi drove way across country sillicon valley find fulltime job got one airport lived terminals couple months save money work big tech company paid well lively extremely cheaply coworker cant believe high school labor market collapsed literally took way end bullmarket first fulltime job think anybodys life pathetic mine wished point life making friend hard people figured turn im almost im still disaster cheating good soul think everyone cheat deal alcoholic abusive fatheri lots insecurities dad reason careless person drinking last years sometimes different personality drunk abuses family burden idk cant move forward life bcoz hope bastard dies painful death dumbass swallowed gum chewing focused something wait wheres gum go fairly happy right everything going fine still want shoot head really think still wishing dead know really ruining mood going make actually want kill stop think want feel happy stay happy still want kms even though happy overall found film good exceptional acting disturbing scenes essential useless weak second half contains spoilers film divided parts thought first half pianist terrific meet erika kohut wonderful isabelle huppert piano teacher introduced world single struggling find space overprotective borderline tyrannic mother understand lost seldom experienced love physicalemotional chemistry protects sharp offensive people releases sexual tensions sexshops voyeur sadistic selfmutilations first half clinical builds incredible tension film almost unbearablebr br comes walter young handsome outgoing man played superbly benoit magimel though gets feel erikas coldness beginning seduces slowly wreaks erikas fortress loves deeply needs fulfil sadistic desires fall disgusted world end discover erika unable love feel especially walter portrayed someone impossible love second half film touching see erikas inabilityinexperience love lead selfdestruction second half seemed less mastered haneke sometimes noncredible ie shocking scenes paradoxically lessened dramabr br course crude film least french version see porn sequences sex shop daring mutilation sex scenes much talkedabout fellatio scene magimel huppert quite good thought central understand erikas sick relation love actors huppert marvelous film magimel gets better better perfection girardot mother excellentbr br horny crime id average person cuz im horny sometimes sometimes alright trynna make joke somebody already said law abiding citizen part cant steal part know title need helpi felt really hopeless probably th grade years things gotten worse good kid high school gpa completely sober four years despite good life constantly felt lost coming college ive begun drown sorrows drugs alcohol im first semester im well school guarantee academic probation come end semester parents paying lot money go school finding im academic probation devastate feel disappointment going put edge family members people ive able maintain legitimate relationships ive ruined friendships people overly sensitive ive ruined every romantic relationship ive within month starting lack self confidence everything overall feel im wasting parents hard earned money realize im going lose lose feel nothing live suicidal thoughts almost everyday redflag seems best way go know exactly im looking feel cant tell things anyone wanted look advice guess please tell im one likes viking music artistsbands danheim heilung wardruna make good vikingvibe music omg music gets blood pumping fast best music workout listen secret dont want friends think im weird lol wish abbey filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler mental health ward auhello wondering anyone brisbane area queensland australia knew adult mental health wards good experiences im considering voluntary admission ventingi expect response wanted feelings tried commit redflag year ago hear people talk feelings gratitude survive feel dead inside feel grateful feel hopeless whole year kind gone speak people rarely call family anywhere work longer remember cant another years successful first time least family year mourning moved now know tbh pray everyday something happen im nearly done im even supposed alive still fucking hate bi isnt wanting dick wanting relationship sex change mind source bi person one daysim getting pretty sick hurting someone already moved months feeling grown kept telling pathetic phrase getting better hasnt waking everyday feels im executed firing squad im sick nobody gives solitary fuck say looks nick daily routine acting complete bitch nothing important worry existence annoy anyone anymore im gone wish things ended way wish another way made mind already proceeded theres going back guess best friends mean forever afterall im failureim tired living every day feels thoughts control life control cant eat starve lost lbs im underweight negatively cope staying bed long possible moving manage energy anything eat exercise seem exist burden anyone ive called redflag hotline couple times past weeks sucidial thoughts become default everyday thing know death solve much fact itll cause trauma people around ive already traumatized know feels im already making everyone life suffer silence serious abandonment issues issues feeling everything fault maybe caused breakup two years ago maybe mom died born nobody told truth whatever sad story tell stop telling story failure im going quit job tomorrow ive already done years ago quit job ended hospital depression feel gon na another cycle relying others never really able help honestly idk im sharing idk much relatable want know stop getting stuck cycle hate living reality retrospect s golden era american cinema demonstrated explored documentary directed ted demme richard lagravenese ifc effort serves illustrate clarify main idea time meant careers illustrious people seen documentarybr br amazing body work remains legacy people involved art making movies period decade marked end viet nam war turbulent finale years jimmy carters presidencybr br one thing comes clear films today measure movies came creative decade industry whole changed dramatically big studios nowadays want go tame pictures instant hits without consideration content integrity long bottom line shows millions dollars revenuesbr br thing emerges hearing americas best creative minds speak importance independent film spirit thing afford creators great moral artistic rewardsbr br documentary must see movie fans people live us yall wearing masks saw whole tiktok comment section wearing mask theyre rights dont save covid thought knew masks dont spread germs infect people especially anyone high risk family member home dont know suddenly bragging right come fake excuse walk around wout mask mostly southern states guess mandatory wear one want make look accidenteven though even many close want anyone feel guilt able help stop hope give give award first person comment joke makes laugh write em fan dark humor banned pls idk needs hear need reddit youve past hours month go month left untill enough money leave mom every expense years gone im thinking redflagive fine last ish weeks used cut stop feeling numb never taught redflag im thinking now taught things finally going better found someone amazing talk ended messing things last couple days cut self yet im scared ill start able stop know im thinking want overi tired everything going shit making half baked plans look socialising fix shitty situation weekendsbefore zoning distracting films youtube videosanything stop thinking tired old virgin guy literally friends social contact interestsa husk feels shit worst tired getting hopes change things improvingthat things finally turned corneronly fall back shit sick fucking groundhog day time little part diesmy hope diminishes long gone now years fucked broken something wrong brain jesus fucking pathetic want hurt familybut want anymore thing look forward deal cant depression anxiety feeling anything want full plani know exact location day ill live malibu ditch day senior year im going junior next year im driving kanan road mulholland highway taking right encinal canyon road going gods seat bring large tank helium bag close head standing edge cliff redflag bag doesnt kill fall pass will funny part keep trying friends go dont know plan remember beauty view call lame dont understand want go bad wanted let people know exactly im somebody family see postmortem know wasnt random plan brewing years time start noblanket hear really really fucking hate cold showers recently one small parts day truly relax enjoy suffering want soon possible study saying lonely people shower longer comforting feeling similar hug missing think coldshower good forces comfort somewhere ideally drives self improve relationship similar nofap found finding entirely much comfort bed sleep important need make less comfortable think start sleeping without blanket sleep floor introduce discomfort parents come room wake good amount time noblanket starts today basically continue nofap coldshower eventually horny comfortdeprived choice improve looks start approaching life suffering live live auschwitz prisoner bro next step food hollow cheeks love gaming lowend pc keep breaking keep getting shit friends pc broke morning phone calm self battery low put phone charge going think something eather wrong something right enough lowend life citizen kane deliver cleavage lots itbr br badly acted directed poorly scripted cares watch dialog want anymoretheres many people around feel alone nobody cares see want im tired sleep matter much try im never good enough anybody feel isolated want sink ground never found even know im typing whole bunch strangers gon na help im suicidal need tell someone pretty sure life cursed god satan angels whatever powerful damn planeti want happy make laugh ive got silver award want laugh make laugh silver award understand polish sentences yet dont know polish post made czech gang first saw film transmitted around bbc working uks ad pal steve parkhouse recorded vhs sent till point id really seen shaw bros kung fu movies harsh lighting audience see moves clearly revelation see something looked lit ridley scott coming hong kong first exposure movies tsui hark pronounced apparently choy hukbr br yet smoky backlit exteriors ambitious special effects stopmotion hong kong movie heart chinese ghost story lies simple moving love story made real outstanding acting talent leslie cheung tragic tragic waste life beauty elegance joey wong granted joey gorgeous balletic hand gestures give character unattainable eroticism thats hard analyse though joey almost years older gawd us isnt always enduring image actressbr br reviewers said film simplistic lacks surprises theyre missing fact movie based famous chinese story written pu songling around thats bit complaining romeo juliet predictable ending copies west side story wanted chestbr br chinese ghost story quintessential romantic tale high tragedy know chio sin sin seen never together becoming mature none us mature weve experienced great loss sacrifice sacrifice essential component true love comedy stylings wu hurt bit eitherbr br enjoy chinese ghost story trying view filter western culture fine latethere never help needed tired continue know dont need anyone love right feel empty past two years ive crush girl long story short want date feel empty almost two months told yet still feel way feels even longer nobody likes anyone last wave far sum parts merely disaster film simply exploration australian aboriginal spirituality certainly simple court drama writerdirector peter weir manages take elements next level produce truly effective thoughtprovoking film eerie atmosphere gave picnic hanging rock two years earlier continue remember years laterbr br lawyer david burton chamberlain called defend chris lee gulpilil death aboriginal may may directly responsible finds merely struggling truth lee making sense hears come aboriginal belief two worlds everyday dreamtime truth exists two completely different levels ramifications disastrous burton imaginedbr br doubt reason picnic hanging rock better remembered enduring mystery led along path forced find answers last wave piece everything together end film even information choose much want believe film takes us beyond borders normal realitiesbr br production side weir uses budget great effect progressively building sense doom everything soft lighting heavy rain good use sound incidental music unobtrusive never trying grandiose richard chamberlain manages convey bafflement audience doubtless feel tries unravel mystery david gulpilil excellently portrays man trapped two worlds wanting right thing afraid already knows endingbr br put things together perfect example david weir familiar name cinema thirty years strongly recommended cares anymore cares grades one cares something great life one cares feel one bed morning see thing ruined yet pull trigger splatter brains room want hurt anyone want die know hurt family know make sense said care care died care things want talk color skin determine group hang seam matter good something one notices know anymore fucking sick ignored time ignored people stop tell fat ugly stupid much fucked something know put anymore want go sleep never wake cant live standards killing mei know semester long project worked got data write hate much finish see useful well done enough good peoples likely feel sham turning terrible keep rushing final assignments classes gotten semester feel sham failure cant bear thought getting poor grade cant shit done keep getting worse cant keep consistently improving grad program want job want one want damaged make anything good life feel bad hold back move forward exhausted barely continue feel anything less outstanding useless deserved every little bit hell went child times put ignored beaten deserved every last fucking bit feel trying finish graduate level work combating fucking ptsd cant take nothing feels itll enough cant better cant time recover wish offed another student school cant accept waste rather die escaping herill honest recurring intrusive thought ill fine cant stop thinking killed id never worry mom little funny people pull family theyre trying help suicidial thoughts family isnt giant factor want die lmao know people trying feels slap face four years amd still feel dead insidemet girl together almost three years kid loved little guy momma two years later left guy met two weeks prior new job walmart left homeless reduced mere visitor son two year old son year later hostility grown powerful made clear longer welcome childs life got lawyer rich parents got one realized never win case courtus courts classist family court antifather gave four years keep mind much anyways yet always comes back haunt family audacity ask start dating want see start new life experience pain losing second one even willing date ive become miserly bitter person everyday pray cancer know diety hears never go doctor hopes might die someday well fuck write book know shit read anyways probably deleted maybe someone worth saving talked instead want ride motorcycle concrete wall mph good news ive started siezures recently maybe health finally fucking fail probably bullshit fatal fuckery please help meimy old male obsessed sex got point im mastrubating atleast times per day started years ago years times day started cutting month ago cause cant take anymore feel someone stabbing see hot girl know cant cause im stupid lonely coward cant anything tell im cause makes feel even worse top everything cm belt nail coffin want pick stupid knife instead wrists cut fcking throat need stop agony im currently watching wrists cant stop crying im sorry bad language stupid post sorry wasting time im still piece shit moron deserves burn hell know whats annoying road trip sound wind flying front seat window half distorted radio thats basically earrape static point know end say im one driving car want disappearits years intermittent suicidal feelings emotional damage hurting people studies gone shit im covered cuts even allow wear shortsleeved shirts want end finally good good others abomination honestly much hate say rest generation kiss normal high school experience goodbye shit aint going least years shit things stay fuck shit im afraid school aint going free freshman year whats game everyone grew skylanders series shame see toys life kinda dead water sex cool got correct answer accidentally nothingive feeling bad years now starting small gradually getting worse point last year year ive wanted die ive posted feeling garbage essentially told still things live blah blah somewhat believed thinking family friends never thought week decided take look life family away skipped weeks classes saying ill finally want hate usual things wanted change came found nothing job car family friends many possessions look life see clearly mean nothing obviously family friends everything something fill void nothing enjoy never feel make choice never wanted drive family made go realise never go anywhere never wanted job family wanted earn money waste things value importance try make happy cant top one talk tell parents im depressed went bad state theyll assume im stressed work uni tell grip last time best friend drifted away newer friends people talk stuff contact best friend awkward met fianc guessed fancy lot one many reasons hate going doctor drugs help super depressed chunked antidepressants smarties speaking smarties im lactose intolerant cant even eat want favorites foods gone instant come doctor said likely triggered stress feeling fucking stress jesus christ thats true im gon na intolerant fucking oxygen time im done writing anyway digress used go counseling waste time sum told year half four words dont think wow good advice right hey everyone feel bad well dont conclude nothing choice one talk nothing important take back one choice whether live die man die sound great option think says lot pm conversations ive started ones anxiety freaking might upset someone years reddit cant think maybe exception majority convos started people first year reddit th november exact already say thanks making first year reddit great ive laughed ive pressed f pay respect ive done sorts stuff first year great thank guys making phenomenal day todayfor pure shit born bulgaria day day learned corrupted retarded people wanted sure hope people actual jobs try work make someone elses life piece shit forever went today school learned teachers say go class bad shit around apparently really videoaudio proof wrong phones away class checking theres something camera recorder stuff decided say go school anymore always hated last year decide screw principal currently deciding make homeschooled guarantees make good grades really im actually one homework writing class find job pays us enough pay debt current income boss lies money yet see rich thats place work problem really idiots school really want screw life proof text right changing school really possible right last grade think principal big plan said want months ago still works documents anyways reason hate might first month school year problems sleeping feeling way stressful reason resulting able sleep whenever knew condition bad way stupid actually whats wrong say reason look least thats say im fucked bad grades might even make resulting school want way wont th grade believe know guys good enough college resulting shitty job even homeless job plan ill see bad life heart attack anything might search pretty nice simple ways kill day today might hard understand fuckery wrote fist time read currently stress sleeping problems probably coming back im optimist good thing know im stressed whole fucking school wants fail wont even shitty life atm ps month sleeping problem remember heart hurting thats stress guess heart attackkind thing possibleidk im backso made post month ago venting terrible experiences ive half years ive lived lifted weight shoulders got positive feedback commenters feeling better yet still feel right sometimes want cry troubles worry littlest things read last post got fight old friend mine day posted post longer speak look away see sits big table friends im sitting alone tables away dread near hate alone tables wasting precious time spend people care hate hate much thinks wrong friends think wrong nearly broke shin im th grade met kid soon turn one current best friends yet hanged kid kid awful try isolate pick fights trouble annoy try convince commit redflag almost daily moved away next year now wanted talk something strange ive obsessed really depressed wad obsessed mutilation face burning scarring name obsessed want rid people see see face see kid thought walking school confidently everyone see mangled gouged face best idea care people saw corpsefaced freak nothing anymore fact slowly planning mind deform half face somebody scary thing never ruin face even think low appearance ill cherish looks im generally getting better say im improving im recovering thank guys thank activate death clock im treated little kid every day im treated im dad fucking calls turkey im talked time cant even say damn without getting trouble everyone ages cusses parents understand want stop treating im little kid keep many mistakes know long go anymoremaybe someone read apologize bad english im simply native speaker hey rredflagwatch even know writing maybe need tell someone title says im someone many mistakes life one serious probably hiding true self everyone love many years many years now around life day day reason im writing something happend yesterday dont many friends say guys call yesterday realized forgot birthday best friend day yesterday might sound insignificant people one friend anchor life met first time ive often ledge life ready end one person always dragged back even made soul smile dark times yesterday total breakdown even sleep night felt greatest sht world able think something different today talked nothing happend cant understand even able hate worst person world disappointing every single person know nothing hurt much know even deserve live mean disappoint time many people think im enrichment life way one gives shit ready end scared feel one cares anymore struggling cope rn interesting study societal sexuality well dark interests manbr br cant say wife strong character wrong choice part opinion rich kid search escaping drool life rebel fact never fully matured husband lawyer rickman obvious married money cover sexual desires taboo rickman played part tee flirtations young man subtle undertones gayness young man gay hilt marilyn impersonation told wife everything perfectly cast well hustler written himbr br crazy ending knew coming overall though acting rickman great reedus good walker okay misgivings gay themed movie average blatant least worth viewing truly madly deeply lying around spin final performancesorry eyegrabbing title guess wanted people curious check aint lil attention whore anyways ive always imagined eventually kill inevitable turned recently though andi honestly expect make far recently hiv scare took tested kept thinking please let hiv wan na die shit right thankfully hiv back spot wanting alive tried quit drugs though consider addict smoking another bowl justcant seem loop recently whenever someone wants hang ends annoying end making excuse people finally see flake ive ditched plans many times ive got nothing going job cant form meaningful relationships slowly dissolving right eyes even want better anymore end im probably gon na pussy anything try justcontinue ending life within hoursi anything live nothing im currently years old friend never really friend im currently jobless never able hold job months unemployed year jobs almost money prospects bad social skills anxiety severe depression majority life dropped high school emotionally torture people come across seem extremely rude nowhere turn help contact either parents never girlfriend really opportunity close girl believe give meaning life every girl tried initiate contact shut immediately ignored something hurtful say made fun every person know virgin jokes etc live small town people unable move transportationmoney opportunities town make changes life interests hobbies never found skilled anythingi nothing joy life consistent misery see reason life continue tried best ability deal issues us entered world war government forced hollywood churn propaganda films little american probably best lot stars mary pickfordbr br pickford plays young woman torn two men jack holt german raymond hatton french decision delayed war men enlistbr br ship pickford sailing sunk germans think lusitania carrying munitions pickford great scene stands lifeboat yells german commander later course runs holt hatton held war prisoner chteaubr br director cecil b demille provides one truly great scene film pickford holt wandering bombedout village pass destroyed church one wall remains standing wall large crucifix stand watch wall collapses jesus figure remains suspended mid air surreal moment film straightforward unartsybr br pickford always pleasure watch always natural actress avoided armwaving histrionics many actors day used pretty holt good leadingman role hatton ok among list name actors extra parts wallace beery ramon novarro colleen moore ben alexander hobart bosworth norman kerry walter long james neill edythe chapmanbr br great film interesting see us propaganda work everyone asking america dont u use metric system bitch didnt fight entire revolution use metric system instead freedom units perfectly fine better step bro im gon na goi think ive enough nothings going well andeverythings come tonight im feeling much right one comfot cant stop crying one wll believe started walking park every dayso lets begin saying bipolar disorder say least taxing existence began develop early s now girlfriend years developed began developing stubborn naive believing nothing wrong never sought help lot problems home final year high school university causing lot ptsd led alcoholism drug use eventually girlfriend ended despite kept trucking found job field graduating tried dating around continued drink drugs regularly happened less year breaking ex engaged guy always guy one worried good friend nothing happened always knew intentions one time argument said argument got fairly early relationship engaged dating girl enabling drinking drug use worse eventually cheat several people leaving financial emotional ruin fast forward today dated someone serious longer use drugs getting therapy tried multiple medications etc sober near months now meltdown quit job months ago become shut every night dream ex getting married months every morning night think hanging financially bills piling im returning calls creditors anxious skipped interviews thought terrifies im scared even worse taking daily walks local park lot trees mind picked one tree particular memorized tie noose good terms ex talked long time want selfish important time always understood better anyone feel talking help time may make worse want okay want suicidal ideation daily struggle want want end look years old years old disappointment never marry person love never comfortable enough keep steady job never stop cravings drugs alcohol never rid disease never truly happy thank listening people twitter really cant handle others opinions borderline nazi friend accepting theres something seriously wrong cinderella one disneys greatest films one films think appreciate older disney creates magical adaptation classic fairytale consider film greatest films time release characters became dimensional earlier films creating depth appreciate characters cinderella opinion one greatest characters disney created kindness dash dry humor extremely likeable inspiration provides makes memorable many people endless dreamer holds onto dreams never giving even adverse situations dreams endure let anyone take away example serve inspiration everyone encouragement never let go dreams hope guys well hope gets better soon ive never felt alonei feel one friend sexually assaulted last week friend group hangouts purposefully invite need support im therapy trying damn best losin hope friends ive never felt alone now ive always someone talk years ago come back school spend rest day talking online friends discord playing games enough happy alright met girl later become girlfriend first reallife relationship lasted months lost friends ijustsawabillboardoutside itsaid cannibals rule world likeyeahsureasfuckido betterhelp cost much something im sure work ill try guyshey ill honest know work help im quite desperate something feel better goes little piece story begin story two sides family friends quite happy years back maybe around ish began change essentially continued rejection street girls kind rejection bar try lucky kind friends build long relationship say least longer idea boyfriendgirlfriend relationship work longer see self capable still think feelings workpartner know go already good sense see way cant bring accept im virgin personally mind feel long physical connection compassion sex feel saying virgin call physical affection sex course say friends girls think enough started family part years ago parents got divorced common story personally take bad saw coming time happend got prepared every one took way worse might felt quite bad tip scales much everyone though trying help everyone felt shit become quite apathetic family resently father tried commit redflag often thought taking life comes goes times gets bad thinking everyday times think months one things always sure never aside cowardly kill thought family friends react often told one care know deep might tip father past egde already tried im even sure mightve right still hate try keep family together cut contact thats good start family side im sure thats enough dig please ask away im open book helps wrote needing pay guys suffer massive religious stress selfhatred anxiety lack confidence im starting consider redflagi going constant internal struggle religion caused selfhatred anxiety taken away confidence used started two years ago realized bible large number contradictions loved one mine died cancer began lose faith god loved immensely started intrusive thoughts loved ones hell hell nightterror told done unforgivable sin crying discovered bisexual worsened problems eventually got moved life atheist everything fine year intrusive thoughts went away entirely come last summer religious stress returned stronger im starting hate even even selfharm via beating feel absolutely useless live constant state fear specific stress started worse july nd year heard potential isis terror threat july th started intrusive thoughts telling isis correct exactly evil thoughts consisted god hating wanting burn hell wanting suffer bisexual doubting past weeks stress gone far beyond usual level go anywhere without lingering feeling dread constantly think religion right try help talking people various faiths talked christians muslims atheists agnostics pantheists wiccans even mormon yet still find internal peace think bible quran books hatred war rather peace love idea religion correct theyre false im leaning towards latter massive fear hell keeps fully leaving religion feel im stuck rock hard place dangling string constantly smashed ive many thoughts mutilating killing lately even received call crisis hotline last week telling friend concerned wellbeing absolutely idea point im engulfed anguish fear selfhatred depression got free award first comment gets days ago days ago lost cat congestive heart failure little girl whole family changed monster alot one sole reasons im still struggl wrap head around gone never run around house never curl next purr ear hard change must move post sympathy empathy posted cause want little girl remembered people hello everyone d rather die introduce thinking killing tonightthats ahhh omg im literally happy rn thing kinda guy second lockdown hangout couple times week friends cuddle couch watched movies lock stopped talking bc couldnt hangout times talk hour ago texted started talking conversation asked maybe want go skating something next week lockdown area anyway yeah hehe superb tv series sympathetic realistic portrayal lesbian women delicately handled well done top directing wonderful settings sumptuous rich real treat missed first one advise watch next weeks pm bbc reviewing old vhs tapes came across tv show john denver muppets christmas togetherthis made go computer look see find dvd version show buy disappointed able find yet dvd show aired delightful show record cd love buy dvd version show tape old picture quality pretty good fading sound good cd songs put cd fan john denver muppets dvd show really good seller cd wonderful chritmas collection songs taken show album good find still record player play although obviously lowbudget production performances songs movie worth seeing one walkens musical roles date marvelous dancer singer demonstrates acrobatic skills well watch cartwheel starring jason connery great childrens story likable characters im officially admittedly depressed tw want move toxic houseturning thought id magical way house money accomplish goals finally report abusive ex rapist thought finally therapy etc stopped taking zoloft sertraline back cold turkied good emotional parents dont take anymore eye exams doctors appts concern swept rug always say theyll therapy glasses never follow need therapy ive needed freshman year cheap therapists never give shit called one saying suicidal wanting go politely told calm hung dug trauma never showed another appointment braces years teeth straight beautiful year ago dentist told need wisdom teeth removed asap itll destroy progress guess cant afford need glasses weak eye doesnt drift direction quite frankly im used looking fucked ive raised average family may selfish want ugly im terrified finally job cant leave money yet started first training day today looking job months dad wouldnt let work dad selfish controlling mom praises kisses feet defends theres way point itll long time spoiler alert wish discuss without revealing specific plot points cant sorrybr br looking imdb review george c scott movie stumbled across summary reviews version many notredflag reviews decided order even though awhile truncated rushed thought george c scott embodied tortured nature physical appearance books rochester t beven looking dvds cover thinking isnt timothy dalton goodlooking role latter concern reinforced fact decided reread book dvd backorder said minute started watching captivated first disconcerting hear s dialog spoken writtenwith little attempts modernizationbut dalton clarke threw thoroughly actually enjoyed fact adapters trusted audience follow archaic speech much book screen extra bonus know someone watch versions jane eyre wants see film man keeps poor crazy woman attic frankly someone read book stumbled across hour half two hour versions think thats pretty much story entailsrochesters secret affect everyone around luckily version actually jane eyres whole lifebr br people criticized casting dalton dashing clarke reserved cant argue first point moment believe rochester clarkes performance mark jane eyre quiet guarded one remembers book much adult janes fieriness passion occurs private struggles criticisms baffle reviewers say clarke short pretty enough book goes ad infinitum small plain jane ms clarke tall filmmakers toned looks make janes declarations lack beauty credible scarcely help dalton tall say chemistry leads scene jane finally comes room wedding fiasco fairly vibrates passion longing sadness regretand thats first example comes mindbr br agree criticisms missed scenes helen burns rivers siblings dialog oddly truncated rochester declares jane misjudge hate mad waited rest exchange rochester explains jane go mad still love care powerful moment book wish included think mistake bring scene rochester part story jane might done claritys sake found jarring wanted sly humor scene jane opines rochesters ardor cool hell become gruff may daltons performance good rare misstep glaringwhen rochester weeps library saw actor crying scene rochester sets anyone caught episode s show dark shadows one knows expectvery stark sometimes rickety looking interiors others commented thoroughly succinctly makeup job rochester sports end yikes bad conclusion abrupt anguish suspense wanted rounded ending copy dvd credits beginning end eleven minute episodes gets bit much said glad film watch research purposes im f pls let know thoughts research purposes im f pls let know thoughts therapist read message respond make appointment cooli fired due world events enough unemployment monthly live kicked house dog family turn let stay stay mentally healthy andor keep dog boyfriend said live together bit lost job gets pretty short always upset think actually wants move feel downfalls last weeks changed feels annoy much ive always annoying ill probably end living car pretending found room somewhere pay storage unit remaining money keep things safe reached therapist days ago need appointment please im afraid im slipping read nothing reply appointment even therapist wants talk annoy want die want way worry annoying anybody burden anybody anymore constant dog without leave want yall wan na joke im joke laugh end free trial life tell friends birthday birthday see remembers im thinking keeping birthday secret happens august th see friends remember im lonely unsure fix kind turned rant lonely early high school found near impossible make friends escaped problem thinking playing videogames night sleeping school literally parents even got cool pillow fit pocket existential crisis deleted games computer set conquer shyness worked longer shy shyness problem simply idea interact people took approach towards solving problem every problem ive looked internet unfortunately unable find much useful data online almost information make girls magically attracted without exercise easy steps time find databases conversations showing pick friends much useful casual sex im junior college now got two year codependent relationship idea establish emotional intimacy outside romantic relationship maintain small talk decent period time come across awkward imagine post sounds usually communicate directly thoughts acquaintances drunk hang occasionally one really caring close friend saw crying looking one close friend used love fear still making irresponsible seek support spend days trying distract logic puzzles music alcohol drugs hang people know dislike nice people indifferent sitting room alone depressing im failing school motivation see piece paper allows job want make happy counseling utterly useless tell problems tells im depressed take drugs barely outperform placebo arguably due bias studies reported use inert placebos friday must decide whether energy pass finals friday last day take medical leave much hope future idea make friends lonely im beginning believe perhaps lack skills unchangeable part personality keeps isolated one make friends asked question people always answers involving things understand go talk people join club club activities people incredibly impressed ability listen talk invited social circle interested math technology climbing things mixed martial arts building things find anything interesting hard activity compete sitting room crying p always exceptionally good math perfect math scores math team performance certainly reason able good university despite putting almost effort classes high school ability math classes without homework studying hours tests reason yet failed feel might happy life somehow use gift benefit people suffering try think situation make happy position help many people irreplaceable seems one justify existence feel emotionally immature age im ready graduate take life want curl ball cry im lonely wish friends im exactly sure im posting feels good anyone similar position learned interact people appreciate advice feel need know offer advice please ask willing help via chat appreciate camera turned shirtless im guy havibg apnic attack camera turned shirtless im guy school camera turned split second shirtless suspended dont think went collar feel legitimately suicidal relationship thingliesdont want give detailsddalksdfkh rock n roll high school probably go history ultimate rebellious party flick portraying bunch high school students using ramones music inspiration rise despotic principal mary woronov eating raoul fame whole movie mile minute basically big excuse fun im sure will bullied freshmen check dorky music teacher paul bartel eating raoul check exploding mice checkmatebr br anyway sort stuff makes life worth living even someone know ramones music pure pleasure roger corman executive producing joe dante codirecting expect anything less bad director allan arkush later degenerated fare caddyshack iibr br starring pj soles vincent van patten clint howard dey young dick miller appeared every one joe dantes movies many roger cormans steele course ramones real treatbr br seems bartel woronov always costarred costarred joe dantes hollywood boulevard slasher flick chopping mall starring dick millerin reprised roles eating raoul live alone talk anyone regularly enough notice went mia literally way work unless attempt unsuccessful wake tired weighing options bad far outweighs good nothing feels right never happy tired always either tired depressed angry numb alternating emotions believe content tired lashing people taking anger unhappiness tired toxic person toxic deeply depressed even think excuse become shitty person hate truly think years misery enough torture going know waiting depression never goes anger gets unbearable afraid everyone dies world nothing certain except death taxes think saying goes going die eventually really matter allowing stay pain every day trying day nothing pleasurable life need fear death sake nobody even find rid sex dreams please help course virgin stupid brain craving sex want end im tired waking feeling stupid mistake nobody way make stop assume hobbies hobbies include screenwriting amp filmmaking acting drawing watching movies amp tv shows reading comic books listening rock music daydreaming amp watching youtube go ahead assume hello game night server soon along vc anyone wants hop hmu fun promise hmu youre aye ages ty even live supposed personally derive enjoyment nothing none hobbies anything ways pass time convince better nothing fuck waiting hate existence hate said countless times done know direct intent know method use soon preferably year deadline closing even suffer well dead long cares care moment nothing life huh hear texted girl hello redflag attempt failedlast time wrote post thinking last swallowed whole bottle pills happened vomiting blacking couple hours generally feel weak try right now days will funny thing im failure everything even demise fan seeing movie gf called said free advanced screening pass tagged along sake seeing eva longoria laughing jason biggs anticsbr br overall actually better expected much hybrid lose guy days heaven typical romantic comedy moments guess movie quite short though around min enough tell whole story build character development decent happy ending whole idea ghost haunting former husband interesting plot follow eva good job keeping sarcasm paul rudd rest supporting cast especially jason biggs kept laughs coming smooth pacebr br overall liked movie good amount laughs keep going given movie lower rating hey chick flick im reviewing movie guys persepctive alright fair fight females reviewied movie gave thoughts triedi tried holding head high tried making friends tried new hobbies tried going even tried quitting job something better tried make betterand nothing really working sit contemplatingperscription bottle one hand alcoholic nexti keep thinking fucked everyone good daughter sister aunt best friend help someone shuts offhello im sorry right place friend work received scary texts girlfriend threatening redflag trying talk lot help resources sub ty texted bye reply anymore im town feel pretty helpless lot faith hope nothing happen mostly keep calm situation anyone advice especially girlfriends shoes help throughout childhood adolescence told things easier turned im nothings getting better wan na give things changingi cant handle home parents feel im constantly scared feel safe even getting high constantly anymore im constantly tense never know long parents start cursing calling disgusting theyve telling leave now agreed give long swear never come contact starting seem want leave nothing know supposed take professional exams year im trouble completing basic assignments pretending asleep hours day gay fucking gay damn bro gay wtf im tired kill myselfim tired want close eyes die time spooky month spooktober eventful month family birthdays holidays ultimate spooky boi im going play vr birthday best friend hours shit cause im going make sure improve last part year next year im pretty good moment wan na keep going happy spooktober everyone yall know brentalfloss used watch brentalfloss years ago hes making new videos im extremely pogging rn reddit therapyventing thread feel need vent anything use comments specify wether want advice help people may similar situation therapy sessions irl feel free share learned dont give least make honest sufficient attempti made attemt given good night remembered tourettes sent video talking friend n rly cant go seconds without ticking interrupts speech patterns wtf thats crazy people playin trumpet parking garage umm pretty much decided kill repent things done way place selfpity feel remorseful turned much empathy affected let go without repercussion know impact family already struggle mental health trust god comfort whenever happens judges according will selfishly gives peace know paying price everything feels stain emptyi dont want hurt care im empty done everything really dont know much longer keep holding ive ready die ive tried many times want buy cyanide id gone already want quick painless money id buy gun fucking end dude im fucking broken cant muster strength pick anymore political middle biggest breakupi think donnie mikeand fly buddy arent making month two ways turn tv series filmbr br first common least successful basically make featurelength tv episode see disasters steptoe son movie second something something quite different la monty pythonbr br thankfully creators cult tv series gone second option theyve come something unique clever funny feel less tv episodebr br try head around writers playing confronted royston vasey alteregos played course told continue writing series apocalypse befall villagebr br highconcept contrived easy screw yes somehow managed pull every taste perhaps ending drag fans delighted might even win uninitiated hey girl queen cause old pasty started months ago unexpectedly lost dad cancer girlfriend years leaving still talk trying hell lose person got lived together years great rental top working full time managing store dealing losing dad worry paying rental moving really want darkest days life live time low know anymore worst year life im retrying haircut serious actually looks good people first day back school today hi guys today first day swedish equivalent high school nervous went well fun good thing school chose go one day week dont school expected work assignments day really nice great movie bad available home video friend talking something showed prove point im worried life ending tonightwanted wait little longer initially working finally ill able sleep stay asleep wish best want deathdeath greatest lover one craves one cant wait join others come quicker others guess come maybe take self world every day dream cold medal slowly cutting threw skin making valley blood flow times dream tying rope around neck jumping roof brige anything day dream butting cold medal barrel mouth pulling trigger maybe deserve pain suffering life maybe death want yet wants suffer cant wait meet death make everything better life want death know death want saved killing maybe im sure hes ready tonight may find good fucking peace shit world horse lover one appreciate movie movies show horsemanship one love know brian riding film know enjoys horses brian lot movies ridden learn ride part hard take riding scenes always full tilt horse run forever full steam camerawork first rate captures horses way shows dangerous things top horse interesting know went casting movie find good horseback riders bother emotional post worthless life someone wants talk little bit mindive pretty suicidal year now told single person except younger sister best friend drunk cant bring tell anyone know selfish narcissistic going completely private little attention possible still might feel gay even posting throwaway account right now feel talk someone soon might happen though im sure think want happen nothing good right now mean theres another way besides killing think want least try offing coin gift guess number thinking one attempt want die im scaredi want die wish want guts fucking cant im pussy pain want endless torturous cycle end want feel true happiness feels fake ass im okay version happiness want able wake want die able go day without sinking feeling chest feels feeling chest cry alot heavy gray sinking feeling time every second every day want lift weight chest let someone carry im sick small flashes happiness torn away hate hate know sometimes feel depressed thing always helps going website anonymously listen vent people go listener always listen problems give heartfelt advice years living nobody done nobody sit listen give actually helpful advice things better hell start cant go stop ruins sleep happily able walk past someone look eyes happy hate want throw im sick shit sit earth suffer deep inside hate everyone binge eatingits fun hating image try adding food gaining pounds pathetic ive got pathetic man titties doublechin stretchmarks hated without despise food seems one areas comfort double edged sword kill one day advice people stop binge eating torturous feeling meds sucki got celexa latuda now im suicidal know medication reaction problem cant figure ive fucking mg celexa upped changed mg latuda know meds life sucks im going sleep completely decide redflag im un committed know rationality meds cant continue okay cant continue feel everything fault need someone life tell okay cant anymore need someone need someone tell going okay heart set new yearsi fail time ill free anymore mistake judgement stagnation life come cutoff contacts friends family next im finally done life better really liked girl class liked back friends middle school talking guys stuff still showed affection boom days ago comes tells nonbinary giving words inspiration still shows affection telling wants tall boy big pp deep voice one things big pp inch fuck want date largest crowd see wrestling event us took place wrestlemania people showed break rolling stones indoor record event disappoint maybe biggest match time took place immortal hulk defended world title ultimate warrior matches tons action mitras advice getting boyfriend compliment windows house windows hell know care id leave tooive hard deal lately ive manic angry manic breaking things throwing things screaming sobbing ive hospitalized many times year ive slowly pushed everyone love away thinking maybe thats im suicidal im tired want leave im tired shit im sick im sitting typing darkas one talk well nothing left say anywayi realize keep praying tonight night close eyes dont wake sure maybe itll better bother cant even stand look mirror anymore whats point anything dunno sorry weird pointless rant usual wow hate shit today really hard im gon na go drink bunch nyquil sleep im refreshed another day ideation disappointment fuck fuck fuck fuck everythingive failed woken care parents people say people attempt redflag regret say ass ive daydreaming felt finally think going free counted pills made sure lethal amount gobbled extreme nausea didnt even bother thought abyss scary even tho unconscious remember peaceful felt felt content regret failing seeing affected things bad attempt die part survived gave life years ago havnt left house im uglyim male aged look younger cm tall cm ft skinny af lanky long legs etc pale receding hairline kissless virgin yea looks department never leave house havnt bar job met amazing people horrors horrible women whod call ugly treat shit staff managers worked good looking guys wrong fucked pinned many times end got fed left go work football stadiums steward thats women staring im skinny fault theyre fat guys work staring wtf face overweight short girls calling ming whatever means great say example older male pass conversation friendly think nice someone looks past look isnt many eat gain weight face goes fat rounder thinner feel better still hidoeus nevertheless comment asked hair one comment said hes clearly balding hidoeus btw got upvoted times drink whiskey every night watching cartoons im starting chest pains theres tree garden live dad multiple think high branches reached step ladder already need rope practice pressure standing ladder next thick branch plan hanging night practice height feeling feel drop suspense need rope need buy one online thats bargain free shit girl liked years ago tomorrow gorgeous worked bar damn miss bad take back please basically live upstairs watching netflix everyday house waiting die edit testicle cancer clear wish id let kill tbh coworker friend suicidal know help want tohi coworker mine struggled depression long time believe least decade known last year half recently entered relationship former coworker im sure knows never met place let know current situation reason know suicidal posted two months ago recognized username im girlfriend interact daily basis know show support without seeming awkward intrusive plays major role restaurant work clearly major impact mental health everyones mental health different works one person ie medication therapy support may work another want know connect person let know resources available human resource department counselling service friend perusing subreddit looking sign live little longer presence reach stop focusing much getting girlfriendboyfriend instead focus awesome see many posts say stuff im horny im lonely gfbf dating solve problems must fix going looking someone date cant even love gon na damn hard love another guys talents theres life relationship guys envy couples see chemistry match awesomeness store funny memes good technical insight great artistic skills amazing musical ear tremendous literary skills etc besides developing talents people notice bring inspiration reach full potential chance influencing peoples entire lives thats way better dating imo besides teen relationships last another important thing remember know find person right trying take anyone setting curse upon often times barely know people even know whether genuinely enjoy takes find someone worth wait meantime draw someone im getting pretty bored really want draw somebody reference portraits find google interesting someone wants draw leave comment ill choose someone draw im working portraits right now please shoulders thanks ill post reddit im done cool reply post link picture may take bit realistic portraits ill post eventually anyone know find people talk abt depression lie problems ive joined learn discord servers abt one talks want someone heal hotlines dont help tried yesterday maybe someone relate maybe ugh im forcing ppl whatever man tired depression poll profile pls curious think really wish courage itthats really reason already done people miss anything friends never relationship social skills garbage live places people age hangout see changing anytime soon im bullied time anyway lets know im utter failure human parents say know see disappointment wish different child know im suicidal refuse acknowledge anything theres one really cares im going passions ambitions theres job enjoy doubt theres job without screwing want peoples responses pretty negative feel end hope courage soon im crisis post help need something real life something free natural friend fuck er fuck inpatient fucktard art class fuck government fuck systemcome door blast friends want overi want kill badly want done trying fix things simply arent fixable mother never loved dont friends take seriously cant look mirror dont recognize people used along scared parents getting divorce everything dumb theres point still cant bring im sad dont want anymore everything hurts heart heavy nothing seems worth still much coward end stupid fucking life ive struggling thoughts nearly years even though ive tons medication bit year started antidepressants anxiety medication february go therapy talk things people nothing helping want absence make people realize theyve missing maybe potential one wanted find friends fake girlfriend doesnt love tell want write note reason cant find time want call redflag hotline want better takes effort effort dont feel give im worn im tired instead anything im sitting fucking bed cant talk friends fathers number well address theyd sure hell call ambulance call dad im gon na miss dogs dad go kidding though never going make wedding anyway one post dumb im sorrycan someone encourage dont know theres nothingfuck im alone one love support swear god one fucking person tells ill find someone im going implode one knows alone really everyone says ill find someone never single weeks decide want pool ive single entire life im even allowed pool everyone goes friends hell dont even friends anymore family hates hate christmas everyone someone loves friendsfamily every year despite best efforts shooed away laughed etc cant blame still takes tole ive got nothing give im gas legs broken ive got nothing live im lucky wont wake wont even know name ami told manipulated someone talking redflag threats believe someone known many years opinion maybe good thing told want anyone feel bf application please red requirements must willing anal boy optional thankyou coming please participate research study geared toward understanding suicidal thoughtsbehaviors us onlynote posting approved moderators rredflagwatch please note posting repost study posted september already participated time please participate hi rredflagwatch name megan rogers graduate student department psychology florida state university working dr thomas joiner dr joiner conducting research study examines risk factors suicidal thoughts behaviors hope understanding shortterm redflag risk work toward developing effective treatments ultimately lower prevalence suicidal thoughts behaviors age fluent english live united states currently experiencing thoughts redflag may eligible participate study decide participate will fill baseline set questionnaires minutes receive amazon gift card complete brief minute phone interview megan rogers portion mandated institutional review board store phone number call take every step possible ensure confidentiality fill five followup surveys minutes one every three days next weeks receive amazon gift cards followup survey total complete five complete five followup surveys within hours receiving receive bonus gift card overall may earn participating study remember completely voluntary choose study email us joinerlabpsyfsuedu message us post questions concerns study participate please click link see eligible thank much hope hear soon best regards megan rogers ms florida state university think live world anymorehi past weeks seriously felt killing cant seem rut want die got fired job may totally take blame girlfriend three years broke september hates really know wrong friends lonely one person cant life find job even fucking mcdonalds got rejected three different jobs today thought nailed two interviews miss happy cant feel anything anymore im emotionless want feel something anything pain thing want feel imagine knife going arm good feel know wrong life im feeling way want go therapy antidepressants insurance really afford pay pocket anything want feel way want happy miss everything life used miss ex know hates miss friends know avoid want move somewhere far away place money want job save leave cant even seem hate feeling alone try make new friends city live fucking small closed minded hard meet people even willing talk hate fucking much want text friends tell much love miss know respond make feel even worse top cant really contact deleted facebook avoid seeing ex exs mom shut phone earlier week im tired trying hard getting anywhere hard wake start day knowing nothing give back literally nothing hate fucking much want feel way anymore days even feel im alive feel empty first two months year flown really know done time im pathetic need helpi bad life ive suffered depression decade now today bad really bad im sure im donei dont even know im writing feel need let feelings somehow dont wan na bother irl friends im ive really messed stuff past two years constantly feel im burning im close mental breakdown honestly understand britney shaved head every day thoughts breaking point im finally gon na never follow plans wan na away everything thats stressing right now redflag honestly seems tempting option literally worries im dead dont even know going felt needed write somewhere im seriously close something really bad hey guys managed kill mosquito bare hands yes ive managed kill one things holding society back wondering weirdly want see corpse whatever probably say one best films maybe well punk scene late s went many hazels concerts film good story line good acting hazel coming phil daniels sure latest project eastenders excellent performance lots unknown actors keep eyes peeled see many uk soaps today exp carver bill watch spot well seen yet night video forget dig safety pin nose heavy black eye makeup shave head mochanian styleenjoy things unhealthy anyways drinking alcohol smoking sleeping hours per week im fucking piece shit new years went party organised best friends crush long story short first pass large amount alcohol blood ended sleeping speak im afraid ive lost best friend night girl know beforehand tell someone need someone talki broke mutually went relationship right now feel one friends nothing need people talk music going listen gopersonally im going listen spaceywhitenoisenovocal music kinda meditation music ill even happier die going listen hard times nights easy cuz whiskey killing got empty spot inside deep dark hole love used gary allan said best whiskey carethey care saving care press theyll saving teenage girl getting anything care got hurt cant even sleep cant sleep bed cant sleep house tried killing work hate body hurts im uncomfortable cant breathe im tired im done one going help ill slowly disappeared die one noticed forgetting stuff yeah mostly indifferent happening around think common symptom guys deal making lot mistakes girl liked told liked said prank tiktok friend recording told fat ugly bitch starting crying justice served came terms im gon na make end yearamp im content im failure loser disappointment family cant dieim life already none friends wan na talk cant girl talk grades ok parents disappointed havent met girl three years college im mad im sexually frustrated wan na die ill never girl im fat ugly worthless already wrote redflag note need send parents ii love job im resigning job fire incompetent fuckup savings bunch debt im overweight disgusting looking annoying date anyone place mess cant muster energy clean talk friends anything ill always waya miserable embarrassing screwupif ill never good enough anyone anything lie put bag head overdose pills whats point dragging disappointment shame stupidity im tired im tired screwing time worthless im tired anxious feeling useless cant anymore something inside matter good things want destroy maybe trust band signed record deal staying boat mediterranean happy want jump ocean keep swimming till drown take thoughts go away close march th day everything became bad closing year mark emergency declared us closing schools movie theaters malls everything want anymore school nearly year feel horrible zoom classes online classes stay become new norm yay nay asking guys felt years online classes feel idea online classes may become new norm future im helpi used come talk people edge something hurtful month took time personal reasons im therapist anything sometimes person needs someone listen sayingmaybe okay help things im requesting anyone needs help chat reach meill make sure back soonall welcomed im m matters anyone everybodys favorite pastime im looking friends decided id give place try ive heard suspected pedophiles yall kindly fuck im male open minded accepting everyone fishing hiking writing playing music live streaming much much anybody looking friends someone chat feel free message thanks reading post hope see soon posting makes panicive gad mdd child feel getting worse days cant anything stay bed job cant afford therapy medicine feel ill never amount anything im afraid everything dropped college im failure everything practical talents im smart never know say social situations im people feel im heart attack feel deserve little friends understand talk im still live dad homeless without every job ive ive broke quit nobody hire make art point long run want exist anymore probably got hours sleep last night stay awake worry people important made friend online last november weve talked every day struggle depression reached last night know say help know say want help feel id say wrong thing told id need know thats enough im worried want lose im tired want sleep sleep nightmares want cry hate want hide even know im posting walking around productive boyfriend emancipation papers filled big plan going go live life pursue college told friends going leave family feel emotionally mentally abusive sure go apartment finish highschool go straight college med school problem actually done past year got pulled school twice suicide watch grades plummeted quit sports team cut friends stopped showing work tried kill recently getting worse home father become controlling grounding stupid things taking away car letting see boyfriend friends gaslighting spending time etc mother gotten better manipulated think fine husband hand says reason mothers health deteriorated stepparents said reason family dysfunctional sometimes think stronger others worse friends true weaker life easy want stop existing awful shit happened kid ill admit late lifes bad idk feel stupid living vida depressy hate subreddit im bored asf text m covid makes holidays bday suck lmao back taken know fighting pointless ya im allowed happyive wanted die hindsight im pretty sure never done given circumstances time though ive never felt unwanted worthless life past weeks ive basically watched life fall apart front eyes ive gone waking morning smile face hopefulness excitement day even waking im sad angry wound sleep days motivation go work except fact im irritated simply bed first bus morning work stand lie tormented mind longer whole situation feeling began girlfriend first real one wanted kind future decides break text im work understandably causes great deal stress emotion much go home cope office longer next day boss calls meeting regarding leaving early previous day dosent end well going though lot shit work time anyway help long story short ive told im basically going lose job within next month girlfriend timed perfectly along friends reason figure decided distance want associate ive gone enjoying life great love social life relatively stable job hating life shit little time much honestly know feels soon life gets good something case whole fucking load things come along fuck really im allowed happy want anymore hi exist one cares tho anyway filler time asleep right im thats great city love cities trains drawing geography live best city world anyway filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler anyway good night say anyway lot realize words language describe inexplicably mad brother frickin bastard ate kfc saved breakfast told girlfriend thinking killing myselfher response need go hospital im going want really good use time choose something instead thinking redflag really know feel mean point really reminds rwowthanksimcured ittook everything bye yall debt defaultedmore keep piling unable find job able pay loans mental health hanging strings im mentally ready go somewhere quiet end never understood people take lives cause money position bright day im join reasons reasons gone im waiting last straw added pile feel relieved think everything ending relief knowing im longer disappointment everyone knowing end around corner joy past years parents standards weird video games language obviously matter drugs matter violence matter single frame tit dick fucked kinda weird essay thats due today havent even started honestly dont know even start im getting really stressed know dont know even type happening aaaaaaa im going go die nowim done whether im victim villain dont care anymore im unbelievably done everything much plan tomorrow need think best way accomplish dont know bye depression caused chronic inflammation brainhi read article depression caused chronic inflammation makes way brain feeling suicidal please take couple nsaids advil aspirin give little time see start feeling better started felt really bad actually really think helps take first signs im sure know mean feel depression creeping love heavy weight lifting help mood course depressed want exercise easy minute warm treadmill gets ready work love peace brothers sisters ayo relationship advice girl need advice pm cuz dont want person im talking see text posts hot think ive seen sort hot know hot dont want die think toill shortly summ whats going basically rona made depressed used straight college student got published research top class mission work etc im probably going expelled im failing classes theres coming back deadass looking end life rn find stupid months severe depression fuck life bad life unforgiving lol sad theres much want live puppy want watch grow im great relationship theres still things want semester ending weeks cant bear thought deal shit expelled loans go repayment oh topic finances im pretty sure ive lost job casual job hospital required work shift every weeks havent come month ive likely already fired losing job stupid shit middle pandemic cant stupid lazy anyways looks cant anything anymore rereading looks want partake fun parts life im willing put work even now fucking late parents wont forgive wasting entire semester dont help pay college cosign loans even want cut looks bound together loans paid might well go hell even tho aside cosigning loans ive independent financially lived alone school main reason die rn parents dont give shit shit really going hit fan find really wouldnt mind waitress something life figured mom anxiety doesnt manage shes gon na flip kill loans forgiven ive checked feel trapped wish killed earlier life really nothing lose bittersweet im ready lose life ive reached point continuing life worth living shitty kill parents barely picture make life hell im really worried puppy goes none friends going able take dont trust family take good care im regretful right now wanted today good last day dog im sitting crying probably sense im sad rn whats favorite least subject school excluding electives mines close math sciencei rly history never good interested learning past graphic design course im taking year warning possible spoilersbr br rock star one solid rock movies seen original idea script focuses young singer s leading tribute band one famous hard rock bands period playing music note living life idols friends tribute band expel search originality destiny plays good turn gets hired replace lead singer idols band dream came true well almost starting live life famous including drug sex excesses rock scene s face problems relationship supportive girlfriend eventually need answer questions creativity saying music bandbr br liked film one reasons one first times life music hard metal rock bands shown realistic manner fans music genre satisfied soundtrack overall idea original issues artist lives life creates art rendered sensible balanced manner acting quite good mark wahlberg better action flics saw lately jennifer aniston tune nicegirlwhoknowsalotaboutlife role problematic ending quite conventional may disappoint looks main character quiting big famous band found creative path ironical twist music playing club end worst whole movie br br personal scale worth seeing expect exposure high dose metal kind music may chose avoid film cant fall deeper doneim year old guy sick living world used hunkfunny guy back town girls liked guys friends moved town college rock bottom real friends although stand simply feel real friendship ive gained pounds summer spent front computer eating im law school hate ive never known abilities things simple brushing teeth become titanic task depressed times feel alive go back old town see friends tired useless piece crap rest days care girls anymore sexual encounters ive ive erectile dysfunction want kill im afraid even everything wrong everyone seems start succesful meanwhile ive never job real sexual relationship travlled around world hate career wanted vent thanks reading im scared ill something tonightits particularly bad couple weeks already shitty year ive struggling mental health always manageable took hits life though lost someone really cared lost job became isolated family friends see alone knowing absolutely nothing live hope getting better friend ask help know man want end feel thats way theres part wants live try better gets confusing dont know im scared alone locked bathroom dont want feel tempted hurt something sharp might see outside dont think makes sense im sorry please read waste timeits balls together actually kill unless go plans buying alot heroin post least important post even first one either useless attention whore kill ill sit hope deadly disease go serious accident ive failed two classes semester one university fucktard im going pass exams got phone lying parents grades enjoy last week tell truth fuck go home week hear ruined christmas fuck piece shit worth bullet take end always thing concerning grades fuck lie ive gone counseling ive subscribed pills take im fucktard point right path give everything need id still go wrong way cant socially connect anyone im failure man well cant even women platonic relationship let alone romantic one even held hands hugged girl everyone floor including roomate hates around really expected connection anyone wish give amount time left life someone use better things will point life anyone suffer make people suffer dead whats ur favorite cuss word mines cunt simple yknow im point im done fightingi almost point feel point living anymore im waste social anxiety long remember always felt weird around new people someone asks even simple question start blushing freaking embarrassing mom sister seem think socially awkward treat something mentally wrong someone speaks mom butts talk say baby voice youngest little shy understand treats little child pisses talks always cuts sister normally thing started new thing walk across street tries hold hand im hell oh im trying make sure little sister run front cars really im fricking stores talking people right humiliates really stupid cause social anxiety today sister goes things horse races whitch little fake model horses run around game bored sitting one ladies talking ofcourse mom butts talking says little shy one talk much wanted start crying embarrassed alot things going really want talk everyone know homeschooled overprotective mother allow anything friends real life online im allowed step foot outside yes includes backyard without watching every step change talking never listen cant talk dad cause walked see times year tried commit redflag three times one night birthday year march brave enough feel trying cause really feel socially retarded freak cant speak anyone without almost breaking tears read room away people im freak family cause im vegan eating disorder one understands bring everyone know must sound really annoying normally im sure whether cant survive cant take trauma failure cant risk arrested police surviving keep told services capacity kill stop surely capacity way achieve need way id know going work want kill dont know howis useful guide website know ive made mind want fail access rooftop though joyi cant seem feel anything fear anguish anymore think im going kill quite yet ive entertained idea many times recently suffer bpd pretty extreme hypochondria every little thing going body sends shivers spine used write play music time cant even come words melodies anymore see much reason go living things cant control know medication make much much worse ive even considered picking heroin late drugs seem help feeling temporarily im afraid heroin overdose seems best way go honestly really know im posting guess cry help something cant seem feel positive emotions anymore desperately need admitted psych ward hospital bill choice irony theres something learnt big hero carrying backpack one shoulder bad health im anyway comfy minnie moskowitz pathetic ungraceful love story ive seen minnie disillusioned museum curator whose abusive married boyfriend dumps leaves even uptight confused already seymour moskowitz parking attendant desperate attention spends nights going bars restaurants aggravating people chaotic disenchanted match start many pairings see every daybr br nearly every love story man woman man confident funny either classically hot attractive way whose shortcomings charming woman wounded soul man wants chooses guy theres something movies make everyone feel good characters embody every man woman wants minnie moskowitz instead indulging hint fantasy realm romance depicts people may common attractive confident people much experience playing field whats story behind love affairs ugly alarmingly awkward man life job run woman crippled insecurity difficult talk herbr br film fascinating cassavetess faces opening night riveting quality cassavetes always fought hard render unbridled depiction people underneath ego hides behind nearly films gena rowlands seymour cassel delivering startlingly pitiable people hardly likable moskowitz nearly drives us mad let alone minnie imposes forcefully life dates explosion inner voices respond screamingly inept uneasiness dates weve rejections weve swallowed arguments weve know faults admire film minnie moskowitz trademark films cassavetes helmed identifies us honesty egos play part company characters thus tremendous achievement per performance actor footlight parade released viewed br br ice cream cone invented new yorkbr br kevin long busy break hit another busby berkeley musical warner bros time ultrafast paced footlight parade starring james cagney juggernaut stage producer chester kent certain cagney channeling berkeley performance irrepressible kent come new ideas performances every minute joan blondell excellent acidtongued secretaryturnedlove interest ruby keelerdick powell subplot major time less enjoyable one thing baffled berkeleys performances seemed far extravagant complex performed stage let alone stage showing film afterwards obviously busby let little thing story impede putting together overthetop musical numbers possibly conjure liked nearly movie end shamelessly offensive number shanghai lil one guess stomachturning racially distasteful performances comebr br doug six movies three months got new record anywaythis completes warner bros musical trilogy preceded nd street gold diggers definitely recommend watching three row wonder james cagney channeling busby berkeley playing chester kent movie role written inspired busby hope seems make sense berkeley kind guy see elaborate dances everyday occurrences way chester funny thing cagney really look leading man traditional sense squareheaded talked odd new york accent guy quite versatile going venomous gangsters made famous fasttalking producertypes see dance basically leading man body character actor rest cast familiar faces joan blondell returns steals show cagneys loyal lusting secretary dick powell ruby keeler play cute couple seem less screen time billy barty pops mischievous imp movie typical racy adultoriented musicals precode era opposed s s family oriented excellent climax warner musicals year shanghai lil number withstanding keeler poor job looking chinesebr br last film dinner eight next film im angel hate social mediait reminds behind life everyone seems perfect life isnt illusion fact good looking people great jobs meaningful work awesome group friends afford travel worldnice carnice apartment still save house tons tons fun meanwhile stuck job literally high school student director doesnt trust responsibility cant life maintain close nonfamily relationship plutonic romantic made many wrong decisions led life rather great life many former nerds folk people wish nothing beg god another chance start fresh start start wont make fucked decksions hesitant start things college late ask advice people wrong social success week interviews thing mindaet mindset mindset heres afucking secret fucking impossible positive abundant mindset whem people stingy ebcause one little mistake made past abundant positive mindset comes treated respect well liked im sorryim sorry mother never accept apologies im sorry father cant stand live im sorry friends found hospitalized attempted redflag im sorry boyfriend want stay hate alive im sorry boyfriends parents care im daughter showed bit parents im sorry grandparents making think manipulating boyfriend redflag im sorry didnt think serious im sorry keep lying well im one day youre planning funeral wondering stopped noticing things im sorry people reddit reading late night listening ramblings dumb bitch longer courage kick bucket always tied guilt im sorry letting weak letting best im sorry couldnt take care im sorry continue suffer indeterminate amount time saw someone deal gender male age sexuality care less relationships height favorite color blue favorite food lil scone things favorite artist varies favorite album tf album favorite song pompeii currently listening nothing instruments play kalimba trumpet learning guitar ukulele favorite song play avatars love kalimba hobbies playing games disappointing others spiting others d printing making things homework status absolutely idea work status work sportsmans hate covid lets hope dislikes people never texting first people babies likes people hanging chatting stupid dumb yes theres difference procrastinating final comments congrats made far im sure saw gender male clicked downvoted good rest day fam take care luv u tried kill myselfi tried kill oding paracetamol took pills g took played music tried fall asleep head spinning fall asleep pretty long time eventually im feel nothing mentally pyshically feel numb stomach aches little dry mouth theres weird chemical smell know coming thats honest part expected hoping work im scared kill way thought going sleep never waking wonderfull feel attention kind way self harm instead actual redflag attempt whole thing pretty impulsive thought never followed evening confronted reality started thinking suffer anymore kill waited parents go bed pills waiting wrote letter made sure cool friends sibling one feel guilty anything im even phased now know feel strange know now took pills around know effects worse part hopes know tho liv ullmans character says feel im someone elses dream theyre going ashamed wake referring unwilling player societys war games referring ignorant participant life films end says dream child trying take care forgot something implication forgotten learned war survived mother unable pass vital lessons child cycle shame ignorance continuead infinitum automod sensitive cant even insult anymore thats joke appreciate advice please take time thank advancein greatest imagination im unable conceive life worth living longer intend die sooner rather later obviously im sure story much unlike many others im going feel great depth things stand im looking advice handle actions tell people care intend kill offer time go feel though id setting intervention want accept one hand feel id causing pain disappear feel though owe understand im depressed years contemplated redflag great portion life ive sought received professional help psychiatrist ive taken anti depressants intend use nitrogen asphyxiation think better way im ears course willing listen suggestions answer questions imagine many ethical problems giving answers questions want drag sordid affair ask pity kindness matter apologize adding another issue onto pile thank much done people please help took longer punch imagined ill going bed submit mentioned rush nuclear reactor went pond went fission let say outset im particular fan kind film nightbreed holds certain fascination message perspectivebr br back old days folks inhabit midian called zombies undead according clive barker given us certain members human kind craig sheffer born potential become part worldbr br psychiatrist david cronenberg first looking mild mannered professional taken unto fanatical mission rid world nightbreed tricks police killing sheffer sheffer goes graveyard named midian cemetery nightbreed congregate live underground br br sheffer left girl friend anne bobby still feelings even hes killed one undead tries small way bridge humankind br br clive barkers creatures pretty gruesome looking lot particularly fond humans plain see humans left alone nightbreed turn bother thembr br sympathies definitely nightbreed especially seeing fanatic cronenberg redneck police chief charles haid actionbr br clive barkers gay man time suggested nightbreed metaphor gay people see come especially whole lot people even think gays anything human theyre taught waybr br granted nightbreed pretty bloody lot gratuitous violence make think way clive barker turn traditional theology head makes craig sheffer kind messiah nightbreed creatures sat theater almost crying dismay atrocity ron howard tom hanks call da vinci code see light end tunnel angels demonsbr br hanks company back sequelprequel angels demons learned lessonbr br acting wise everyone much better aylet zurer good vittoria vetra better girl played sophie neveau tom hanks good always better though works harder giving movie feeling thriller think ewan mcgregor best job actors might even deserve nomination come march doubtful convinced right end hes dynamic faithful rational realizes church needs put past behind minor actors good jobsbr br technically visually movie much improved cinematography muchmuch better visual effects superb final explosion sequence end excellent howard masterful job taking tour romebr br pacing wise ron howard amazing job time around keeping story moving boring us history lesson deemed denouncing christianity movie makes feel stake feeble minds discovering whether jesus children high list compared cataclysmic explosion killing thousands including roman catholic church part reason think story fast paced due excellent score say enough score epic times something lord rings sometimes felt bourne movie nice mixbr br complaint movie ridiculously far fetched chances carmelengo someone ewan mcgregors age highly improbable chances cardinal adopted son getting elected pope even ridiculous mention whole antimatter thing yet created dan brown wrote book br br overall angels demons much tighter knitt faster paced exciting important movie da vinci code must see thriller anyone loves history mystery combined one failed everyone including methis little something bothered time goes kid always seen poster child basketball family everyone knew good practice almost everyday dreams dominating day day even ended team captain senior year went school kids good reputation ball changed first week season ended terrible even though good practice coach never put games order make time favorites openly challenged outplay never got spot sophomore junior year first senior game im sucking geez fun ended getting benched one younger guys later week sustained horrible nerve damage left arm leave basically handicapped months still bothers know let peers loved ones complete bummer lost confidence turn dont even know dont know feel never got chance prove worth everyday back mind totally let parents even though never showed games always trying best thought good enough turn ended nothing im rejected almost everyone know fuck kids blame feels distanced feel reject every week go sports medicine try recover left season even getting green light atleast sit bench without warmups never happened never respected loved felt alone people poke fun couldnt even move arm beginning first month arm sleeve fucking flip around noodle numbing traumatizing nerves tingle pain fucking hated every second let everyone im worth shit im failure fucking failed even though put years years dedication matter anyone told kept going nothing nothing im nobody highschool dont even want talk anyone dont feel anyone talk feel make things worse wasted fucking life time fucking game want help advice want feel loved im tired watching old videos hub want hug something im tired cant honestly anymore spent around ten hours writing essay got grade back today got cant take anymoreim autistic mom thinks cant succeed world unfortunately shes right im currently year community college feel last month left classes hit summer vacation one classes im involves making art wire paper fabric etc feel ive basically failed class return given dreams becoming professional critic internet personality mom isnt even biological mom adopted case egg sperm donor put moms womb came prematurely mom likes call pound premie think better known pound deathbed friends online care extent usually stops shit ill thoughts talk someone trust call insert hotline number none really helped contacted hotline past ended nothing help ive talked psychologist months last contact august hasnt helped either wish friends online knew much situation im trying better life problem mom become restrictive regarding cant making feel shes darkness light save grasp run away ended contacting mom ran money put bank account return home biggest mistake made threatened fire job child care center home kick house garnish money bank account unsuccessful shes sorry shes acting almost months now ive felt ive pushed breaking point yeah basically nobody know irl online cares mom demon saps creativity wish never existed wish people actually cared wish born biological mom wish better life youll excuse im going cry breathing shallow maybe something car im getting confused manage talk girlfriend cuz shes busy time one two nicknames goodnight small love etc etc talk homie shit tok nicknames non stop love non stop compliments non stop saying good morning goodnight acting couple gf im sure whether dont talk gf much cuz school homie online school talk day generally vent girlfriend strong anxiety dont want weigh trauma baggage shit fuck someone asks yes talked girlfriend doesnt mind venting homie shit cuz isnt good handling might homie strong signs disorders anxiety impostor syndrome might adhd might add depression shit idk homie therapist friend group except friend group cuz shes friend okay ill admit iti goofball occasionally love really silly comedy seen films kurosawa bergman truffaut practically anyone planet still soft spot dopey comedy try sophisticated simply funny films immediately come mind monty python holy grail uhf start revolution without strange brew bill ted movies lack snob appeal zombie professional film critic dislike thembr br bill teds bogus journey wonderful original bill ted film still great fun unlike original actually seems improve repeated viewing remember loving film first time saw itpossibly movie set high standard laughs every time see amazed great momentsparticularly involving grim reaper way reaper different bergmans seventh seal addition lot laughs film features excellent musicone way actually better first film kiss anthem end great rest hard rock tunesprovided old killjoy de nomolos great viewing kids adults alike bubsy d better every game played wrong disagree uh ya ride hell retribution another good game bop nice say myselfhttpsyoutubevocxwos adviceim going kill tomorrow im worried survival instincts kicking following though ive decided hanging im going tie hands way well live fricking bungalow im going hanging window security bars dont want pussy attempts especially due high risk brain injury hypoxia wont sudden drop snap neck hanging suffocation hanging reddit darkest platform im im asking randomers helpful tips ideas right rope delivered tomorrow blade pillow singing cant escape melodymy thighs healed making room let pain flow free canvas empty allowing bleed onto floors thought touching razor causes heart skip beat seeing girl love period together weeks ive touched now calls louder killing lungs juul longer fill void need feel sting razor slides across skin im tired want non existent thwart life friend mother uses program life track life enabler abusive parents enginerd im looking possible workarounds blame cold fucking phones battery location spoofing im probably start testing obdii tracking devices good excuse obdii devices car nerd friend says devices interfere cars securityengine control module cause car run poorly time friend says use devicesobdii diagnostics im mega depressed amadepressed damaged drugs afraid die afraid livem one favorite movies childhood watched many timeseventually tape wore huge fan show still amthe thing love movie appeals many people young old watch movie laugh hard first time saw able appreciate adult jokes never got child favorite characters elmyra foulmouth almost fifteen years later dad huge fan movie well still quoting lines movie love part foulmouth shirley go movies save seats shirl ill snag dadgum snacks loved storyline plucky hampton family going happy world land wade pig reminded lot dad love part finally happy world land ride monorail movie hilarious appeals children kids animation jokes everything top notch seen rent sorry sure cleanest way go iswould wrapping head plastic wrap cleanest way leave body dont really want someone traumatized come upon splattered brain pool blood drive hybrid carbon monoxide people understandi think anyone realizes serious say want shoot know generation uses redflag joke usually seem generally happy person im unhappy wish never existed mean need make peoples lives horrible use music way escape horrible thoughts mother taken away almost everythingincluding phone music without ive forced really sit stew pile self hate thinking ways kill point care hurts long job kills im good saddest part handgun house know exactly im much coward go shoot shoot fail mother finds deal problems im scared dying partim scared failing live afterwardswish grab gun drive deserted field shoot bullet job animals come eat will looking someone play minecraft pe dm interested filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler told crush likes back want date tbh regret telling cus gotten know likes back ill feel bad want crush cus feel distracts lot studies emotionally mentally mature enough relationship feel shitty person horrible indecisive insecure whenever alone late night struggle fall asleep keep thinking failures rlly scared ill disappoint parents unsuccessful feel rlly lonely whenever frds want kill self die feel rlly empty inside purpose life wish disappear without loved ones sad tho kind want something rlly tragic happen ill excuse die know something rlly bad happen ill actually want thought constantly know bad others way worst feel horrible complaining feeling way grateful sometimes wish privilege given someone deserve feel rlly empty stupid little attempt livinglived mentally ill mom brain offline immense stress fear voice mom makes brain nobody asked feel im able say im feeling well delusion fear people told practice others theatre soft therapy shit never felt human constant inner pure disgust look mirror years straight almost never teen never really able talk classmates sweating move freely every movement felt give command somebody movement every sentence immensely exhausting several conversations person met theatre playing leads mw painful every day creature controlled frightened animal pure protective psyche lifelong regression took belt strangled laying mattress totally dirty room tried use strenghes speak make person laugh problem check imprint red marks visible cause look mirror want others ask questions make wonder almost conversations life total social deprivation looking quite good girls wanted know looked walked even gay people liked much brain constant fear talk even think clearly see human allowed take part life fighting fighting agonizing condition feeling time self addicted digital heroin games movies tv radio music never concept self consuming distraction crap never able produce thoughts actions meaning totally dependent told mostly told nothing shit damn zombie never able think obvious cure living apartment live full human life peace nobody told told live mom made really damn sick youth even s really delusional emotionless psychopath friendly felt nothing fascination small stupid things clouds colors trees art senseless crap beautiful nice help always told fear people believed worked fear good years errr yes never felt anything live came hospital illness another apartment state pure fear shame disgust life even asking questions almost impossible saying first word looking others eyes fuck one command apartment one meeting empathetic personteacher everything good messi last years youth living dirty place collecting things moments gave little joy living fantasy never thought take part amazing never knew nothing playing video games earliest youth really think repeat life better parallel universe shit okay almost nothing remember nothing happened struggle wandering around brain capable thinking constant feeling running life living mommy propably early childhood trauma hear voice mad life tried fight control hoping better yes errr good possible human stupid alone even though family care stupid little attempt living waiting years better nobody cared talking laughing friends living mom sit front black mirrors time human pure apathy human nope special name school corpse cause quiet damn brain made bet faithive contemplating killing self asked faith one hope school ive accepted see past bad semester different school still let continue hope slightest sign girl love love back less h got responses school cancelled application girl love back made cry cancer self whent ok life shit dont go school ive lost dearest person know think im gon na iti fucking around school nothing illegal anything really dont want specifics might check cameras probably expel dont nothing serious suspended making meme comparing vice principal llama dont graduate kill im gon na go somewhere hard time finding body im going suffocate plastic bag im sorry rambling made bit mess lifei keep typing paragraphs paragraphs deleting lets say want kill im posting ex wants move want try years feels obligation try cant even blame never speak mental illness hurts everyone around im fucking tired im going end selfdestructing im sorry anyone party wake every morning knowing im living world together makes feel worth anymore ive tried everything positive thinking therapy im meds now smoking weed im even fucking seeing someone nothing helps everything reminds everything comes back still go work mornings im shirking responsibilities mope im everything nothing helps months feels someones torn middle body something missing hate without even everything happened badly hurt still give fucking anything come back deem worthy take risk im worth weeks ago took camping trip alone many plans one commit redflag away everyone one call selfishwhy im still alive dont know really came back home days anyone know teen drummer london started band female vocals playing bass violinist two guitarists keyboardist looking drummer need help finding one amazing recommended place find drummer aged based london thanks fuck happened ok guy ive known maybe half year now reached said likes know im dude person lot really romantic way say normal friendlike either cant put finger know respond thought gay im beginning question sexual orientation tips one significant quotes entire film pronounced halfway protagonist mafia middleman titta di girolamo physically nondescript middleaged man originally salerno southern italy introduced start film hes living nonlife elegant sterile hotel italianspeaking canton switzerland last ten years conducting business gradually introduced pivotal yet apparently unremarkable scene takes place employees swiss bank normally count di girolamos cash tell dollars missing usual suitcase full tightly stacked banknotes news quietly icily threatens coaxing bank manager wanting close account meanwhile tells us spectators bluff bluff right end without fear caught appearing ridiculous says cant bluff halfway tell truth eventually done bluffed halfway told truth accepted consequences life ultimately love exactly reason behind beginning titta di girolamos troubles br br initially unsympathetic character scowling taciturn curt man verge man even reply kind chambermaids waitresses say hello goodbye becomes one point someone spectator cares deeply one point nonlife titta decides feel concern appearing ridiculous first half film may described slow indeed reveal di girolamos days nights hotel oddly disjoined deliberate pace revealing seemingly mundane irrelevant details scenes may seemed unnecessary reveal essential masterfully constructed innovative film unfolds eyes existence titta di girolamo man imagination identity life unsympathetic character unexpectedly end loving feeling least thought conveyed elegantly edited sequences interesting use music one theme scottish band boards canada especially stood br br never contrast way hollywood italy treat mobsters odds release films le conseguenze dellamore limbalsamatore another interesting element way film made use protagonists insomnia unlike machinist far explicit way al pacino film insomnia le conseguenze dellamore uses condition symbolise deeper emotional malaise thats rammed deep obscurity unconscious almost impossible pinpoint cause indeed one br br young sympathetic hotel waitress sofia played olivia magnani granddaughter legendary anna memory tittas best friend man seen years unexpectedly provide tiny window onto life titta eventually though tentatively first accepts look though never explicitly spelt spectator knows man titta accepting consequences love unimaginable consequences film without single scene sex violence film unfolds time concedes nothing spectators expectations le conseguenze dellamore fine representative small quiet discreet renaissance taking place italian cinema decline cinecitt second half s world waiting italy produce il postinolike fare la vita bellastyle films neglecting explore fine creations le conseguenze dellamore limbalsamatore others loss world go list see many ppl hating life mean feel way many people depression grown hate everyone care care fuck deserve awful depressing lives well wish dumped jobs fired wish parents friend family abandon want anything good anymore want others hurt earn good things shitty self centered ppl ruin wish everyone ik drop dead much useless homework aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa update last post date weve four dates hold hands hug stuff havent seen two weeks cuz got rona making plans soon quarantine gon na go haunted house something completely supports everything im happy cry cat showed butt camera zoom call yeah jumped desk displayed rear end webcam beauty radiating arse eyes classmates many people actually gun recently bought gun think sane thing done bought intent go gun range new hobby think see easy put barrel mouth end seen several people made gunshot head think want point want end vegetable nursing home constantly blown pound black dude named bubba constantly mangina smashed maybe mm hollow point gun ck dont worry everyone gets slice yall notice many annoying people sub yall got ta damn annoying wanted post herei always try help people fullest always fail make thier situation worse im one people always lied seem better failed protect everyone cared im posting cant talk anywhere wont help dont deserve wanted say things hell might looking attention cause im trash human sorry wasting time anyone read please downvote guys know im acctually unable die roaming pathetic planet long years im leaving soon depressed alone ambition nothing cant stop thinking wish friends hug im female almost friends male maybe something im sometimes scared people leave last friendgroup weird really want friends hug think feel less insecure probably think weird awkward thank reading fucking died definitely interesting experience try women french filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler hey think need vent biti feel life sliping fingers sand finished high school got accepted collage pussed last second didnt really much half year nw job mostly old car paper work archive stuff months feel nothing changeing feel barely got life started already idkim useless im dead weight im help anyone im loser im numb im empty im dead im goodfornothing im unreal real dead dead dead world gon na wake gon na wake nightmare cant real god help god help us please god please know whats going anymore cant even talk someone without dissociating cant even look anyone eyes hurts much want hang badly want someone know becquse noone life seems notice always trail doutinh even know live anymore want one life hurt die want hurt die aways hated getting hirt hurting others know one whocannot cry always want bad never able listen sad music see works never even supposed live anympre bf pog anyone know buy certain cbs merch ship uk looking yo buy things cbs store ship uk cant find anything nice anywhere ship friend states extra per lb anyone recommendations im going start protest stop uautomoderator stop discriminating short titles shakeing smh heads yes ill say start commenting movie incredibly underratedbr br sharon stone great role catherine trammell morrissey dr glass analyst sent evaluate death sports star glass drawn seductive game trammel uses manipulate mindbr br acting good apart thewlisbr br stone really talent role slick naughty seductive look day older firstshe really impressed melike casino morrisey good showed much vunerablitity role needed thewlis lame ruined character overthetop whole way really suckedbr br overall movie good first stone hoot watch ignore thewlis process trying establish audiences empathy jake roedel tobey maguire filmmakers slander north jayhawkers missouri never withdrew union union army invading force southerners fought states rights right slaves elect crooked legislatures judges employ political spoils system theres nothing noble missourians easily traveled east joined confederate armybr br seems story nothing ambiguity jake leaves bushwhackers saw error way certainly give virtue cause abolition cant go anymorei really cant deal anymore dad constantly puts makes feel useless gotten point dont even life look forward future dont want older family complete goals dreams anymore want die family doesnt enough money help need dad cancelled car insurance pay dont really canceled already pay saw room really messy lost mind want happy cant deal makes feel useless great day text anything anxiety dont want live anymore know everyone gon na comment alright always gets better keep going always comment really cant see getting better im lazy piece shit never anything done want cant kill though mom brother dont know figured try vent one talk anyone talk thinks im trying make feel bad something cant anymore dont know im sorryi know still better dont think continue late something go left unsaid secrets kept ill keep promise every single belonging mine worth value youll sell whatever nobody means much still im sorry truly smartest beautiful girl ive met nothing change deserve better difficult honest people first piano lesson today im nervous idk please console something im really sure im nervous ive never done new different makes scared doctor tell almost overdoseive taking zoloft depression restoril chronic insomnia couple nights ago episode got super drunk took sleeping pills passed alone phone friend completely accidental ive wondering kind fantasizing anyone know doctor saydo tell want better overall want live without constant pain head pls want sent psych ward something reddit please yall big n smart really girl started talking alot know whether make move please help last day teenager tomorrow life even greater sorrow pain begin wish luck d well toddler parents never got along well hardest part choose sides currently live little brother mother younger chose sides father little less strict mother holds lot hatred insulted father around past years covid started started taking work home mother never got along well mostly tomboy bought lot tricks girly dresses tshirts tend wear tshirts neighbours kid girl loves girly stuff time mother wishes daughter earlier stated hated reason mother started insulting dumb girl etc went kind crazy one day take anymore screamed know bad control time top things brother behaves literal baby even though one usually gets trouble fun fact brother mistake mother kind compared currently bad relationship father anyone go think mother weird obsession making look bad front people telling day day mistakes ones perfect mental state gone thought killing tried dreams way singing mentioned earlier screamed pretty loud voice went high practicing songs days interacting many people opened people lifetime neither parents included list people mother makes feel worthless tries make feel bad girl know life anymore seems hopeless needed open help mewhy love important fuck love among us bad game everytime game theres either hacker people teaming game isnt even fun developers dont even care anyone hacks easy theres secret turned gta online pc lobby everyone toxic one talk bad game game developers need fix hacking issue point play friends try random game said theres either hacker teamates age never friend cared shitty ass school friends whose activity play fucking boring dumb video games whole teen life thrown away sitting front rectangle screen wasting life realized life brings joy good friends meeting fuck man never experienced everytime go city see groups people awkwardly going alone streets course older brother good paying job wife good friends even moved times already years old finished highschool scared job life days applied studying something know course got bullied secondary school even know word social meantthis even long text felt ranting today hope someone relate c anyone never good friend interested childhood im gon na kill january thpretty much title im gon na try make last almost months girlfriend best doesnt hate trauma dumping another word tik tok learned ran ngl trauma dumping nice hear dont sympathize im mood much rather rant input bc everything say embarrassing thinking trauma bonding lol three significant relationships ive tied trauma bonding two ended horribly far lol anyway u anything dump go ahead want run awayi cant go vicious cycle bingingpurgingstarving anymore along fact reason live mum completely given nobody talk cant deal constant thoughts self harm pity killing anymore plan running away possibly kill wherever end much pain mentally years enough guess going make years putting one word castratikron complete whole song day born filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler cousin died yesterday especially hit hard opportunity see even talk death heart attack combined corona time remember good memories little sad thinking never got say last words one last memory last time heard voice wished happy birthday two weeks ago wished day may rest peace ill always miss heart kind amazing cousin great person everyone around everyone loves family good relationship please cherish last moment sudden everyone keep telling express feel dont know myselfim tired cant look least sad ill usual say feel sharing make better stuff wont share cant dont know words im exhausted bother wouldnt better disappeared dont understand keep enduring painful task living love never worked family disappoint anyway friends annoy whining always say express im feeling support whatever doesnt even matter many times say dont know feel something cant describe least accurately hate ask elaborate try avail stuff tiring exhausts want shit time dont find id go enjoy normal things everyone id rather stay inside tried times end cant im even good enough ive sh free almost year now yet miss badly euphoria blood running arms dont know ive made far end please dont know anymore need valentine plsss anyone wan na valentine year btw im girl got offered go harvard im stressed plan life hi name sebastian lozano im year old dj learning music producer im good debate strong public speaker im gpa sophomore october got offered opportunity lifetime got offered scholarship give full ride year degree choice colleges ranked top nation fill application properly hope selected scholarship im hard worker school dont issues school work accepted plan life im really good reasoning quickly forming opinion using statistics verified data provided ive always told id good lawyer ive always wanted lawyer thus decided go college year political science degree go law school using another scholarship getting jd law school take bar exam lot know work study hard pass everything faced officially becoming lawyer join big law firm work seasoned lawyers learn gain experience field work lawyer reach use plan created run presidency united states plan lengthy wont include im trying find time serve military may join usmc college thats need help join usmc really want serve ive always wanted im reaching age enlistment really want join basically life become lawyer serving country becoming president sounds simple say understand itll long strenuous road need suggest thank reading ignore depressing posts pls usually really depressed late night good parents decent friends worry unspoken truth basically know mobile game shitty bad photo original console game icon suffer continue livei hate im man enough kill continue suffer trying ok told med manager give extra meds husband keep safe plan need able case tired feeling way got diagnosed bipolar day limited sleep stoned majority last two days started new antipsychotics day want keep happening tried many different meds many different diagnoses keep telling everyone ok telling husband going leave ok ok anybody cuddle buddies feeling touch starved id gladly send virtual hugs platonic internet love anybody needs trying times dms open anybody needs big virtual arms looking little mental help advice yesterday birthday nothing really special happened dad made dinner us brother cousin staying us ate fun dinner cousin brother brought mom little angry said something demoralizing enough know mom mad without saying anything go room say goodnight kind distractedly said happy birthday never even left room hang rest us kind distant im writing feel awful mom mad even come room see birthday ive arguing night even struggling school im scatter brained sorry long im lost right need feel absolute trash really feel trash rn theres really reason keep almost posting something commenting something texting someone something sudden think really send yeah im gon na send stupid one gon na listen even notice existence feels everyone judging making fun cant stop thinking even one acually feels wish die already used use instagram social networks fun use find parties invited care due covid still thought week massive one everyone class got invited life summed song lyrics never failed fail damn auto bot post isnt short im really lose killing tongihtim scared cant take anymore pain anxiety levels skyrocketing reason cant keep holding know kill almost time theres reason hang im scared though know make stop anything edit today got really close im relieved kill im actually frustrated sad chance attempt parents interrupted start place realized want anything want work study succesful fulfill dreams love someone future lot pain hesitating becuase preperation done plan parents came unrelatedly mom freaked stupid thing clean im legal visiting home cried bit got whole redflag sin implication selfharming wrong speech threatened commit admit danger mom tells meet pastor whos going tell things familys religious many peoples opinion pain need trust god spiritual things work good bad im sort becoming atheist reasons anyway im upset beause thing want die thats literally desire balls yet actually kill solace got pushed little farther alcohol maybe hard hurts much alive hurts cried earlier feel better nothings hanged dont want feel betteri wantthe problem solved dead guess need drink next time jave ready thank tldr living nightmare thing want death guilt tripped staying im weak hurts feel guilty wanting die trying better feel better cried want feel better temporarily een better want die want die cant ask helpwow hard im years old guess saw everything going another waybut wake every day thought shooting ive made poor decisions life live daily one im sure bipolar lead path want diagnosed mentally ill well cant end life easily humanly ive never hurt anyone never will yet continue hurt paper work entertainment industry earning figures year bipolar lead road promiscuity result stds fear hiv tested fear kills either way feel never live normal life work drink go sleep hate job feel confidence ask help least current low lasted awhile used manic create art ideas passion passion gone feel empty vessel find asking whats point die eventually worst part making mother sad incredible mom sacrificed much cry thinking literally thing keeping alive im rambling drinks know anymore im sick depression know question everybody favourite organ killing tomorrowim serious way make life better point two weeks ago im okay dont remember much nothing serious happened btwi think ideas got best called bunch people keep think none immediate friends family know im afraid happen yo americans alseep europeans australians americans bad sleeping schedules rise anyone wan na join server tryna europeans australians ppl around world cause lot u chat people yee quai des orfevres takes long getting going clouzot enamored backstage milieu almost danger forgetting story clouzot best bertrand blier father bertrand blier costar buffet froid worldworn pianist married beneath plans kill seedy studio mogul designs wife find someone beaten carefully planned clumsily executed alibi falls pieces least thief steals car murder scenebr br film really kicks life arrival luis jouvets police inspector rather wonderful creation half alistair sim green danger half worldweary maigret better dialog neat running gag investigation constantly conducted top voice chaos noise whether noisy typewriters police station loud rehearsal police station wonderfully realistic creation wealth chaotic telling small details makes steve bocchcos revolutionary s us cop shows look antiquated museum pieces comparison br br suzy delair rather unconvincing femme fatale supporting cast compensate beautiful simone renant standout lesbian photographer love afar constantly mistaken bliers lover delair interested parties jouvet similarly unlucky women understands genuinely sympathises great black white photography armand thirard terrific little thriller nice twist ending lovely scene cab driver reluctantly identifying renant police station trivia note pierre larquey played playfully philosophical dr vorzet le corbeau turns smaller roles cabdriver quai les espionsbr br criterion dvd quite superb great picture quality plus illuminating extract french tv show featuring interviews clouzot blier renant bit bizarre evil enjoyed lot characters show great well complimented one another well sorry see cut loved see wentyou found leaning toward lucas buck sheriff secrets anyone lucas frightening alluring liked seen character became buy show enjoy great something different tv paige turrco calebs cousin big mystery meant lucas shame around still never finished loved see happened favorite aesthetics im kinda curios maybe living meant everybodyi killer anxiety anything wan na work education stresses bad nothing interests looked career paths countless hours avail hate people say money buy happiness cause enough money work day life id one happiest people maybe people strong enough world live cant incredibly low bar working job fuck supposed besides homeless die redflagwhen call redflag hotline bc canada rather quickly tell severely depressed hardest christmas aaaand every sharp corner looks answer help dont know purpose got pissed im im im going enjoy last bit xmas eve god fucking hate phone calls call two docs grandma dont know im calling well know dont call grandma call week ago missed feel ashamed really dont calling someone dont even know anyone bad breakup months ago got heart broken first time really sucked still months breakup got bad habit cutting lot people thought back pushed away time spent following months hospital think figured stuff months havent cut still battle thoughts self harm times every week find self thinking past lot wanting things back gone time able look forward see maybe future something underrated things opinion ill start waking early going walktaking cold showersplaying amung us without friendseating frozen blueberriesstar wars rise skywalker nothing gets betterthe world going die climate change going destroy world cant fucking die somebody give permission die dont wan na isnt fucking fair want die put away sane response life wanting die dont want die youre insane think ends much lately much college work pouring wild rate cant keep loud rowdy roommates shut every night living hours sleep go home weekend ok wear mask hide im really feeling college fun ask yep im blast reply cant let know really im far away already worried knew suicidal end feel overwhelmed work im failing im actually point caring family thinks kill upset im sure even care anymore cant keep stuff home bit need someone talk cant talk room mates ra see councillor tomorrow rarely helps one person trust around hates due things said rambles honestyi feel much feel control feelings want leave jealous numb er people shoving feelings guess numb think lost part humanity hopefully know empathy younger always wanted kind wanted make people happy still value happens whenever try try much taken advantage dont really dont total ass feel terribly either way think struggle emotional boundaries maybe really relate people used maybe im mentally ill something anxiety depression want kind person seems fake helping others make happy anymore forget cheer people think depression contagious gradually found way life sad sadder people barely count human think deserve love people hurt notice dependant feel guilty im chronically depressed matter much try fix wish someone fix somehow leave help rid burden hurt complicated people wish felt part us feel disconnected daydream lot much feel slipping dissociation much barely anything life seems pointless go feeling remembering things want pitying getting angry others people say need support system order build one need basic common sense right one washed away negative thoughts head one let answer honestly someone asks one bit caring stupid sound speak bit aware im stuck insurance cover therapy cant think therapy help much lot things struggle people world lot philsophical anxiety guess worry lot overanalyze everything thoughts lot bad thoughts sometimes forget worry hate even caring switch without knowing want kill people sometimes really value forgiveness kindness tell therapist want kill people especially want seem normal person im confused im confused everything feels everything nice fake im liar im real know real probably really sensitive pathetic feelings right good people think way good people happier thoughts least bothered want think sensitive people want peaceful world fantasize destroying sometimes people say normal thoughts put lot thought thoughts curiosity want ruin life think itd worth know fasinates shouldnt want want kill better people believe love think im part problem much hate know forgive ive even joked past people kill instead people think agree now even strangly want maybe keep one person anything know count something seems wrong basically enslaving loved one right stop free will fucked shit yeah relationships work really want better world everything wonderful without sad making everyone sad burden feed house talk people interesting think great things opprotunity think contribute much world im good anything human emotions strong wish everyone calmer days x sure posting wanted words somewhere felt lonely hope fine sorry selfish truly definition world salad international movies never fail disappoint watched spanish one called rec im nd now great okay okayi diagnosed clinical depression anxiety still always emotional sensitive overtime realized nothing change maybe meant way struggle come accept disheartening go away idea theyre tides ocean high low learnt flow still feel suicidal goes away knowing emptiness scares dont kill maybe coward im trying say sucks sucks less sometimes okay okay hope learn embrace comes let go want live world populated sociopathsevery person trusted throughout life tried hurt way use personal gain past year convinced head im problem happiest fucking year life thought hey change attitude keep trying itll work genuine hope first time life something happened today something super insignificant sent edge thats made realize never actually seen evidence people genuinely care beyond whats surface gain know believe anymore want live world people see objects please want believe society believe keep going im losing live feel im reaching limitso transgender already suffer major depression add dysphoria bad time wih people leaving today say goodbye important friend got much one around wantsseems willing help care good day wan na ruin time slowly losing live know post please downvote upvote whatever losing ability care anymore hey question actually thing thinking stuff im sharing thing came mind character saved another character got angry started hyperventilating passed different character says thing saves someone mental panic thinking ways couldve ended badly call multi panic wanted know real thing throwaway account partner follows main account might compromised reasons explain sooni currently living immigrant eu country hail another continent years fianci health issues mental physical prevent working years ago credflag clinical depression burnout chronic pain due severe injuries received really speak language well partly took year become fluent covid happened went months without seeing human cashiers market partner lost lot proficiencyi saying bad person isolating best take care lost much freedom unhappy one really takes need help seriouslyi contact family anymore one parents dangerous controlling abused childhood abusers parent projects great public persona divided rest family either support side family cut contact prevent drama parent person tried stalk threaten speak abuse point finding people worked years ago using messengersas might guess became overprotective privacy functionally much social media presence anymore take pictures even talk former friends much friends eitheri know parent stalked found social media accounts tried find addresses move another place idea manage even found landlord info twice years despite another country imagine bad person moved continents away themi trying therapy partner thinks unnecessary unneeded expense treatment chronic pain reasons even speak pain killers without treated addict housei probably fucked coming probably never done anyone friends family anyone help place call home return feel alone trapped isolated miss human contact much remember last time spoke another human cashier wish escape nowherei keep hearing voice head telling kill hurt anymore able rest might even lonelier might better pain free longi afraid messing know face retaliation things somehow worse everyday prison see kitchen knives wish slice dice oblivion escape thisi france going suggest local hotlines already tried back guy told beyond level hung intrusive dark thoughts isolated country nowhere return heres dumbass rant happened zoom sooooooo zoom three hundered people three grades school one mine facetime friends messing around reading peoples names wrong turn camera around put random people zoom joke dumbass accidentally put camera space bar know temporarily unmutes whole time reading one persons name wrong joke unmuted worst part one moms friends kids entire zoom heard got texts said fml im embarrassed epic album recommendation ranting guess become self conscious look im beginning hate used care little looked course wanted look decent try look appealing brushing hair hygiene started wearing jackets cover arms eventually started wearing hoodies cover started wearing clothes without words objects last christmas bought plain blank dark colored tshirts even though nobody see hoodies keep worrying hair theres one part eye stupidy curly shit cant anything four thirty begin wondering ive lost hold fell rabbit hole mind school bus f u n every day reborn tragedyits tragic every time go sleep friday actual hours sleep thats respite happiness ill feel history past ive endured painful five six seven years road pain never stops remains gets worse time cant tell anyone tell therapist well locked know soul universe give flying fuck constant torture day day nonstop rest life feels im stabbed every second day insomnia course insomnia im always awake sleep good true sleep simply nearly good true catches unaware real tragedy sleep time feel happiness bliss wish brought point dished back even fucking equal amount pain brought feel want feel every last drop taste understand go hell million times theres bouncing back ampxb theres bouncing back put much psychological emotional mental turmoil agony cant even muster drop motivation even much move muscle anymore ruined life pray whatever divine piece complete youknowwhat dishes everything back onto enemies know karma real wish limit forgiveness know heart wrong forgive brought lower lowest brought hate heart neutralized see suffer suffered equally equal want see equal amount dished sothis happenedidk respond though cuz boyfriend friendzone someone ampxb httpspreviewredditmajvktfujpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsffaedacfcbebe subreddit transgender people griefhi created new community rtranswithoutyouhttpswwwredditcomrtranswithoutyou community transgender transgender transexual queer nonbinary gender nonconforming genderfluid people lost trans partners loved ones redflag murder place share grief memories struggles even triumphs accomplishments healing journey enduring loss please join us tired againever hear song alone naturally wish hold people loved dead youre serious boyfriend four years dies kitchen floor overdosedying age broken woman always following year father died inbetween friends mine die overdose many fear best friend die day pray doesnt ive lost much world daily life used look forward car accident im one killed might want last drunken night somewhere give away poems music art friends bf died young even dad stand existing thought make difference love abilities drive leftwithout choiceim surprised im physically dead yet everyday waiting life endhi feel need chest heart explode remember wanted life find someone love im ive never loved anyone love feeling never reciprocated thought come time never happened makes depressed cant breath literally force everyday go another day somewhere back head hoped miracle happen find someone cant take anymore ive lost much time theres many things ive never done never late feel even meet someone leave asap alone long fucked started cutting ashamed promised cut one thighs nobody know every time look bruises reminds fucked life enough doesnt help anymore want die everyday hope death salvation feel dont even deserve im punished wish kill cant even properly kissed got hard u sucked ate u came together u swallowed mynut railed u last strawtoday job made anxious official im useless suppose time start trying rid fear pain end french boy need attention hello m french teenager friends wan na become friend got croissant play minecraft java osu fallout terraria music anime luv u please habit saying want die im gon na kms joke hear time whenever heard jokes makes think friend went tried kill paralyzed waist something casually joke serious please stop romanticizing redflag thats worse imo see lot hate cuz know im wroung rant jealous upset think friendex sex people tonight called bothered found texts people talking know im wrong hate said feel bad bad cuz feel need except im never going another chance mean much wish recently broke ex huge emotional void really anyone talk much friends either someone shoulder please need someone talk im fucking metal breakdown overprotective mother cant buy chicken mother really overprotective pushing edge cant even devices shit phone terrible laptop room overnight without blowing top know passwords fuck wit brother stop playing fallen kingdom piano people really know friends past couple weeks forced us kids make meal every week week decided make chicken wrapped bacon family favorite hour till dinner im ready prepare chicken look everywhere mother forgot one job make sure need forgot main ingredient set brought shed say im spending long devices antivideogame activist thing keeping together reddit minecraft rant thank listening ted talk physically emotionally hurtsim one older depression suffers reading post feel hurt words many suffering depression psychiatrist years unlucky little benefit multiple antidepressants tried many multiple trials good insurance many treatments private mostly pocket ave ive gone one much better insurance sad better treatments expense many suffering resources available right now insurance honest im losing strength keep fighting life hurt much understand life hard ive trying years life really painful physically emotionally rid call voidintrusive thoughtstitle says context whenever im distracted start thinking killing random violent things especially going somewhere cycle nearly everywhere night think bit leftover intrusive thought time contemplate redflag even though things changed think im even considering anymore catch awful thoughts think theyre call void people describe tall building think technically jump course id never really neutral usually ends fully playing head seeing grieving family etc many times crying bike arrived somewhere completely drained ruined good night sleep anybody know way distract yourselflearn think differently etc ps listening happy music anything help often makes worse whats wrong mei raped years ago female friend im female recently caught hate alot wish never see reason cut contact add delete add delete recently ive wanting raped dont want experience yet happened obviously wouldnt either fetish kink thing dont know means im unable tell anyone right personal problems someone please tell feel way forced send nudes past early january year years ago rape happened suffocate seconds incredibly rough abusive never relationship never kissed hugged really made seem sexual relationship abusive one feel connection loving one one want part please help endworst day life im brink something never imagined hope everyone thinks accident hope never find body ive hard dayposting alt hard day today got messed bullies went home play online chess lose two games row lose rp compiled bad day 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mother loved based content chatacter bring table wish live life chose im destined live wish fun typical childhood teenage life late now im going adult soon late fun memories anything look back wish never born im victim circumstances realm dreams wish accomplish due circumstances wish never see family want bring pain even though theyve done without hesitation live house mother built house built agony despair people cherish life sister boyfriend theyre wonderful know things last forever knows boyfriend stop loving sister isnt obligated help id rather open cause pain resent life born live every time wake crave gravei dont want wake try escape reality sleep sleep paralysis nightmares wont leave alone meds dont work sometimes dont want anymore cant bear leave loved one alone world hope things better us kill tell people suffering meanwhile everything want think big deal believe situation possibly bad telling big deal move one life yeah easy never gfrelationship bc untreatable condition caused impotence years tell notredflag sex matter bc things fuck world everybody sympathy starting feel way convince people much unfixable pain theres website publishing content reddit sourcing original creator website called gaming memes httpsgamingmemescom taking content hot publishing website credit posted links image permalink source red flag front page suspect confirmed second red flag theres literal website reposting stuff def cool thank coming ted talk please try spread message bruh im bored tag fav redditor text text text text text text text text blow jobs arrogant prick second hand jeans turtleneck ill drill hole middle bony head little spinning beach ball death hippie got given birth give away net worth aids research death wish guys phone hey reddit whats biggest thing thats stressing right now anything goes problems problems anyone elses suicidal thoughts got ta worse attempt failed suicidal attempts months ago every thinking lot now know maybe able finally end life anyone happen one understandsorry strong language one fuking understands want help fuking cried parents gives fuks think im crazy think wont kill soon mom says reach point care anymore fuking step dad looks let shit behind back im sick around now planning enjoying rest year ending new years seems plans gon na change want fuking escape shit hole ass life see things better without around birthday november th cracked heard voices saying end cried much tried take little sister came found parents came showed comparisonwell moment back fuking shit lol matter say theyll never understand thing fuking tried talk oh well know dont feel sad anymore im comfortable dying lol im anticipating kind big event lol sigh ill write nice note leave theyll fuking understand game pain fuking real waste fuking time ill gladly sit hell thats real ran away place wouldve got go option left taking life might drink fuking poison hang buy gun someone open fuking skull honestly either way ill dead yea fuk world every person 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terminal downwards spiral getting worse worse insanity ampxb still faint sense hope want snuff last embers light already light goddamn illusion embracing oblivion thing thats real exist game selfdelusion cant tolerate life anymore fact life even exists begin tragic mistake ampxb last remnant good person let become complete piece shit wants kill hurt anyone outside remaining friends family s great job university degree goals future beautiful fiancee afraidi scared nothing die point disappear end attached afraid without die paramedic see death sometimes hurts imagine loved ones must feel lose somebody close thought losing partner leaving without absolutely crushes parents getting old sick never felt loss anything imagine feel goi guess really afraid dying losing everything worked towards know happens death religious hope lose consciousness everything happened life want love close forever even die afraid everything life waste want die repeat every dayin mind loud sometimes twitter account 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much suffering stop working lot life college finish nothing home suffer future suffering everyday make food wash clothes pay bills theres way keep living one problems redflag logical alternative ive horrible person want diei cant deserve anything good life wish go back fucked change everything cant wish exist fuck recommend boy start painting nails doesnt way paint got scissors got scissors know end pain cut hairi hit point life got mad hair tried cut ruined made flat uneven ended crying long time calling redflag hotline help waiting half hour hung one answered im trying browse sub without reading year old busted nut seriously stop posting shit one cares ik already posted think view count reddit id see many people actually view posts profile interesting think leave without leaving single comment dummbbb id track whod interact postssss ahh fuck iti hate feeling chest best friend obsessed fucking girlfriend im even thought mind want die fucking bad one notice sad everything work life going fine personal life wreck one takes seriously funny friend want talk anyone anymore want die sometimes please help never feeling entire life sad ive lost gamei feel every childhood ideal grew torn realities life everything cared gone world exists today nothing value enjoy bucket crabs day writing rap hook rate scale numb emotions yeah cant show wave emotions yeah emotions dont waves ocean yeah putting devotion film totally mindblowing manages thought provoking funny tragic cinematic yet claustrophobicbr br although flashbacks unnecessary film maintains pacy punchy grip performances excellent particular alec baldwin mesmerising eric bogosian films antihero barry champlain tip people reddit gay night gays found disappearive wondered lesser two evils found ive done way im never found mans castle set one jerry built settlements vacant land parks times called hoovervilles named unfortunate st president got stuck great depression occurring administration proposition film mans home still castle even shack hoovervillebr br spencer tracy shack truth told guy even good times working much part typical tracy cast priest san francisco start slew classic roles hes playing tough good natured mug takes loretta youngbr br one things mans castle shows effects depression women well men women additional strains put men trouble finding work women twice hard sexually harassed resorted prostitution square meal spence takes loretta young whos facing kind problems makes demands castle pretty soon though theyre love though tracy kind settle downbr br love scenes extra zing tracy young torrid affair shooting mans castle catholic married days insuperable barrier marriage tracy young took catholic faith quite seriouslybr br cast walter connolly kind father figure whole camp marjorie rambeau whos pitfalls young might encounter tries steer clear arthur hohl really loathsome creep eye young well hohl brings plot mans castle climax scheming br br mans castle grim look great depression usual movie escapist fare trying avoid kind reality entertainment ive strugglingive really hard time pandemic want make mean thoughts go away sure mf begin mf begin want short woman big tits small butt black hair blue eyes bitch need girl even optional im bi anyone thereis anyone available talk thenworking dead end job years grow old watch everyone die around spend last years laying piss shit unable even feed constant pain finally die keep telling must life gift life spending years trying ignore pain existence much possible playing video games pointless hobbies sleeping sex drugs partying god hate fucking dull anyone actually jacked someone sub fucking doubt tbh probably mentality trusting one internet shit sub gets real sus sometimes im crying well today officially end hard classes started term thinking going well wow going finish half year gpa going miss english band math yes even physics next month im starting easy classes taking psat getting drivers permit know youll never read thank teachers continuing teach us help us want thank passion youve put teaching us despite us still pandemic mom getting really aggressive strict taking away things comfort close relapse want die know want feel sign time die posted first tik tok terrifying meanwhile post times day wit face pinned profile lmaoooaksnfkssk bye sister said im grumpy puberty looking arm think yes grumpy nothing feel grumpy nothing grumpy definitely thinking redflag grumpy anyone willing chat whilei really use someone anybody free little life isnt worth itthe reason havent killed method access right either take fuck ton commitment result failure ill wake hospital surrounded angry parents stuck huge hospital bill stupid ass want wait buy gun age life isnt worth living theres nothing nothing mine least happiness anyone promise wont end getting taken away resulting pain theres fucking nothing fucking failed everything wont fail future redflag attempt good thing cant reversed dont give fuck gets sad sad sad everything overlooked came thing im writing redflag note want burned dont want funeral post outside reddit im alone misery misery likes company someone posting gay shit aaaaghh cant unsee never lived year life without getting feeling multiple times feel disgusted people looking thinking talking thinking know ideas know absolutely nothing hate fact people see feel embarrassed disgusted everything literally humiliating someone takes pictures conversation hate moments show emotion front someone hate pressured smiling hugging speaking anything seen things supposed makes feel degrading myselfi know wtf feeling comes often know call completely hate everything hate human hate body voice personality things trapped head one even knows exist everything pure horrible something nobody knows try hard look act way good clean represents always fail put hours working hair clothes look dirty put effort inthere something horrible carries awful vibe rotting filth cursed moment born need make money plastic surgery move away everyone known start new life hopefully escaped filthy creature need change everything rid feeling hurts fucking much understand feel way angry deal one gets want moment peace idk normal depression come every social moment feeling sinned someone opens redflag dont know well may dire statepersonally ive opening people mostly depression partly dont care anymore mostly dont strength hold funny part dont really go far seem concerned ask questions care much probably person person thing though people open lot easier others home alone heard footsteps upstairs yall might last reddit post im doneidk say tbh lol movie moving tender funny time scenery absolutely beautiful peter faulk paul reiser gave award winning performances olympia dukakis great understand due story line part brief wish seen hershe true proyou able recall experiences life hopefully notredflag way seeing movie fortunate see paul reiser q viewing wonderful man clever eloquent real person truly enjoyable night outthis must see movie grateful went mom colorist says hates black cats white cats cuter im getting black white cat mom still isnt satisfied anyone elses family member colorist cousins kinda colorist dont really care first real break warning sucks irl friends seeing hi im ok rn dont bring plz seriously im recommending getting heart broken fun experience waiting original picture quite time now brokedown palace hard believe aspect ingenious directing screenplay palace scores big br br ive really never enjoyed watching claire danes movies ill tell really changed mind one kate beckinsale joins danes vacation thailand meet young man convinces take trip hong kong neglected inform carrying obscene amount narcotics well ultimately caught end thailand prison know know know pounds drugs well one tiny miscue find well written acted story lately found getting drawn storylines movies watch developing personal feeling characters watch movie different end movie found caring characters film br br bill pullman plays hank green attorney lives thailand specializes international relations always pullman delivers excellent performance ties movie together beautifully br br twists turns will end movie tears one movies likely passed searching movie watch home opinion next time video store pass one im shocked probably know rocket league right u play u probably heard alpha boost official name goldfever worth ingame credits assume credit cent eu credits aka cents u take calculate euros worth euro boost wich worth euro insane research found isnt even top expensive ingame items planet game entropia called calypso planet sold wth sad lonelyi really know came really happy kid real dreams goals everything fallen apart know sometimes wish escape world disappointed people love ie parents good academic career look fucking jabba hutt extra weight skin tone dark cant even talk people ignored recently tried talking guy crush dming insta took real huge guts say thank something moment saw face face ignored disgusted experiences make wonder fucking ugly one wants talk insecurities huge impact self esteem confidence sometimes feel killing disappearing world cant let parents go cant break want die cant boredom extreme boredom nndwjwjwujwhwjw wo jejwklwoe jailee jeulsnrbrujeb oui oui baguette parents went caring mental health thinking im going kill self sleep guess im grateful kinda annoying know love please give upone people care life depressed suicidal im scared im saying right things im fighting every fiber around person clearly want left alone hard im sick worry head tells right thing let come around time pressure heart wants run god supposed lost motivation live fi recieved exam results yesterday poor qualified technical school customer service loathe job server think ill enjoy life customer service parent supportive retaking exams private candidate school kicked dream making politics someday entering school going shut doors reputable law schools think life realized wasted much life computer games failed developed soft skills even manage schoolwork well typing away bed know well final nail going pushed coffin dream terribly upset scared think parent going force back work chose retake private candidate tell continue living one time asked gay thought gay love babies theyre cute ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fakeeveryday act happy want mom worrying killing anymore forced anti depressants feel worse dont talk boyfriend see struggles feel people care superficially im always begging people including parents care act care beneficial around people raped felt nothing body mine ive thrown away sex terrible guys thought make feel something instead opposite hate much hurt burns much hurt happy im fun best friend boyfriend even feel insecure time many reasons used im always sad makes panic im wish crawl skin dont know go ive tried help one without judgement world little brother wasnt born kill myselfbut need wait fucking years adult wan na diei woke okay im torn pieces let die please hello thing whatever hey folks wan na make sure everybodys well arent think theyre cute peace everyone lost hate studdied carreer interests goalslately thought lot past dreamt sister little huged lot woke feeling good middle night lately thought existing anymore little knowing someone commited redflag hurted lot felt really bad people think becouse knew thats im leaving sleeping lot hours daily feel exhausted go swimming pushed keep going kinda hate going nothing interests feel need grow lonelyi know im lonely friends lonely time want run car treei suffered years tonight went ex boyfriends drop redflag letter wouldnt answer know wanted drive car tree way home blamed storm done posting picture gif something getting crushed day cousin asks crush day crushed dollhttpsimgurcomaivpicy excited might care wanted share first language english finally years learning language going take advanced c english proficiency exam day tomorrow excited nervous cant sleep guys please calm thank 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trying fix say think killing time soon thanks responses think might destined commit redflagi raised incredibly well somehow parents pushed problems years gave incredibly loving healthy upbringing point even siblings know major issues announced getting divorce guess gave facade change family drastic fast traumatizing suddenly everything started going wrong life figured mom basically sociopath awful person dad major abandonment issues emotion stress one old friends siblings properly deal anyone elses emotions siblings younger though age affect way affected become adult experiencing entirely new area life right started pivotal point far closest person mom anyone family point years im place never wanted never thought raised well mind deals incredibly differently average depressed person feel think things people simply cant understand feels two different lives two lives two separate timelines even past feels two different childhoods way feels healthy people relate half depressed people relate half considering redflag past two years yesterday put situation literally inescapable feel hopeless literally feel best option redflag thought dying sounds kind nice way imagine live dream state cant tired dreaming whatever happens mind think death similar effect upbringing cant let go life somehow done mind strong live subject feels worst possible situation world effects upbringing feels awful think think end ill probably commit redflag edit whoever downvoted thanks asshole wrote whole post explaining misunderstood thing think wow im offended put feel better assume something post sounded positive depressed person sounding pompous cause apparently subjectively bad life legitimate reason want commit redflag people make sick thanks proving point misunderstood ignored fucking perspective wan na put person cause life good thats exactly fucking reason im depressed life started good everyone fuck even though horrible now somehow childhood makes dick depressed teeny tiny little question shaving leg hair hair go stand sit great app help people need someone talk find someone talk confidentially safely survey gauge interest mental health app idea heart races hands start sweat immediately feel need pee worry theres bathroom train least unknown problem long trapped know stupid know fine know likelihood moving shortly constant ifs set look around everyone looks perfectly calm perhaps mumbling inconvenience gripped fear hate contemplationi want live anymore ive tried help people make happy help needed someone make everything worse every day think redflag want monotonous torture life end every day struggle want live thats life know may really vague sounding reasons im really hard time vocalizing feelings right now want help please im pathetic pos kill myselfim stupid spoiled brat feel go right im sure know pills dangerous access prozac seroquel advil roof high im scared jump anyway yes ill listen stuff guys say id appreciate info c verge redflag head tension degrading brain helpi never used reddit good reputation helping people thought good idea ask help question head tension forehead life adhd symptoms comes depression social isolation etc head tension let focus something stick burried head cant think flicker memory constantly forget im current moment everything exists depersonalization derealization slowly forgetting language words grammar syntax school years university though dropout social anxiety seems memory flicker strong feel dizzy maybe general anxiety idk asked technical questions need math years getting slower slower mentally speaking even stuff love music make music many times im composing cant focus music cant almost see screen hear see blurry makes sense anything tbh cant see hear things much second passes forget even hard sometimes listen people read even forget midway amwhats happening im reading stuck zoning everything becomes blurry something head constantly hurts head tension angry showing face young supposedly normal many thoughts focus normal person adhd now cant even simplest tasks getting worse constantly instructive thoughts filling mind brim making excuses work legit feel odd wtf happening cant grasp maybe dumb maybe cant grasp reality maybe stupid child raised properly anyways good example instrusive thoughts lately mind completely empty meditating even easy thoughts cant even write make music used drop college failed two semesters three really cant grasp brain literally rotting shrinking bit backstory went school normal kid always alone friends till highschool began create social skills always needed help mother study resulted lot fights house alone countless hours everyday trying learn something able still remember rustle trees room young almost childhood life depressed school depressed home always young constantly depressed seen neurologist said might adhd paid attention nothing done kept always getting worse highschool think bit head tension started think maybe middle school attention people saying started degrading forgetting grammar language spanish english horribly depressed worsen head really hurt memory got worse well everything forward recent past went psychiatris diagnosing adhd july went well got perfect score adderall really helped lot went university slowly effects adderall started drop always filled anxiety classrooms people time started panic attacks anxiety got worse worse throughout years tried manage well university kept getting panic attacks believing might trauma school years tried kill dorms twice went psychiatric hospital twice help antidepressants shit second time tried kill went university try got think panic attack strong move shaking whole body tense dizzy frozen got strong point move almost talk felt loosing conciousnes happened hometown house whole week trembling able talk properly think properly mental breakdowns getting insane quit university still keeps head tension mind dying shaking anymore walk still panic attacks yes intense one made stop moving im verge redflag asking reddit help wtf gf navy bootcamp right want send memes look memes way much figured print memes send mail send best got deserves best im class someone say something funny less boring fucaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduck drinking things helps im tired everything hurts much want dead cant deadi want everything end keep finding situations people end hating one really wants around anymore past years never figure maybe physical appearance even online communities everyone eventually ends yelling maybe something say always known trouble understanding social ques put quotes really understand know people take offence things pretty easily champion say whatever want afraid talk say something mad say something hurts either speak yell probably say dw nice people world acknowledge almost everyone least decent irl world busy deal problems always ask stuff anything busy even respond sometimes always believed nice places life nice people time want find something suck everything hard find passion alone nothing done bois small pps ok yesterday spent day gf house moment wanted sex ate tried put im even big inches didnt even f ing enter pussy hole stick outside big pp cool looking hard use small pp find bad atleast fuck say lol sorry english main language free bear award thingy st reply gets normal take someone breakfast kinda want take someone scone something nearby coffee shop kinda want see know really something people dumb question know done dunno official longer call good ol us think us longer deserves called good isnt old us excuse im going continue anxious fire burn city nuclear arms race trump might started pandemic im got depression long period boredom began lose feelings happiness everythingmy grandfather died watched dad hit wife arrested family broke spine damaged cant play sports anymore girl love w relationship long treated shit ive found hooked best friend isnt really anything even god masturbating shower best try argue cause wrong feel trapped lb body mind flooded suicidal thoughtsi wont cant leave mom want bad everyday wake wish body finally give least die natural causes terrible around dont blame want normal life every day pain suffering whats point try lose weight fail mad self sabotage binge eating way feel good punish sucking every minute life hurt every day wonder ill fit day worry ill break chair furniture people stare think poorly doctor says exercise going work days week hard enough hardly walk office car searing pain running legs back eat healthy standing cook painful legs shake im going fall im deep addiction food feel way death dont want wait come naturally say redflag selfish wanting someone live life depressed pain dont guilt sadness selfish one blame every day think ending want misery feel ive ruined life even lose weight much irreversible damage point carrying dont see hate ive done hate hate body hate love food hold damn long life continue messing againfuck life omgt liked handf thers stray cat visit anf liked handf soo cutee dying uncomfortablelike wish switch lol finally convinced piece shit exist go body rebels haha painful existence heheh fuck hope figure living dying idk one im sick rantim risk anything right now im ok im sick hormones erratic making feel way feel shit want end things going ruin life one day im likely top want feel way anymore really know start right one talk toi think going turn wall text please forgive really know start guess starting feel helpless right work due lot circumstances come last months really feel shell used lost friends best friend girl loved got girl pregnant things gone downhill originally held hope girl loved able forgive happening really done worst thing possible caused feel unwanted never dating girl reasons met friend dumping horrible way wanted make sure ok became great friends really things going great went planned trip chicago week got back listen warnings detail recurring theme treat horribly break comfort back happened many times past years happened worse felt useless felt overall one time girl really liked hit really think back lindsay name way left sidelines several times past even hard typing box doesnt feel talking someone things arent coming way want wont go back fix anyway june house one stay anymore aunt mom screaming every night sleeping car friends mom offered let stay free hour away stayed ended sex friend ended getting pregnant really long story whats done done go said earlier though really holding onto thought lindsay forgive date really hate seemed pretty monotone told seem upset really learned later though back ex felt completely helpless lost hold deepest hatred man dating room without thinking much hate every fiber done many bad things lindsay forgives everything every single time even mother knows things done forgives rape anything stole every penny owned dating year never bought single present never took single date except first day went spent every penny stole buy drugs party friends whole year stole every penny mom bills came broke mom went debt verbally abused back together make feel whore many things forgave every time feel words spoke comfort things wasted think feel even worse back tried continue including life inviting little events band competitions chorus recitals every time couldnt enjoy hated every second new years day got worst news gotten engaged married immediately depressed life even found going father choice even treated dirt kid felt useless still feel useless find job pay child support live jobs one know english spanish already thought maybe join navy order pay child mean leaving everyone behind even wasnt something thought done though sent lindsay message telling deal anymore told deal decided remain friends anymore completely distancing every time talked hurt knowing girl best friend girl loved moment felt loss know month months every time laid sleep spend hours thinking ruined everything think forgotten new years night anniversary met night engagement extremely depressed able think every night month girl last night vivid dream talking really getting think everything life feel hopeless life getting worse really suicidal know go right sympathize option escape easy redflag keeps coming mind every step way though thing really makes feel worse worse every time think sorry wall text know people say girl stupid enough back ex know things worse first girl showed human affection met never felt thing living without hurts thing regret miss feeling holding someone feeling falling asleep someone arms crying thinking sorry wall text felt helpless know anymore wan na kill myselfhow kill hanging kr suffocating ironicisnt ironic guy helped pull least people redflag one listen cry help ironic person spends much time voluntarily counseling people online one go ironic one cares one notice gone cant anymore im done im bored worried breakupsuspended school tell gfs mom likely gon na freak make us break know life girl literally best friend reason followed past attempts break itll thursday want saturday work grab pot handle vodka end life cant without want suffer action help cant help show today came home shoes dirty got ridiculously angry starting tearing actually good day sad keep tension release energy guess ill mention fasting ate angry anymore still feel sort tension release one main reasons binge eat adrenaline need release day seems way boring understand sometimes irritable reason even good day fasting supposed make feel good good day felt pretty angrysad moods want scream everyone able hide work angry stupid things still sorta feel know sadness arousal tension need let outcould bipolar adhd heard bpd feel bipolar idk think depression lots happy moments fall sadness lot comes eating disorder opinions super angry little things last post got removed low effort tittle people use metric system always saying imperial system makes sense measure weight rocks fing rocks im donegood job l h everyone community figured knew enough pass judgment give shit everyone helped keep fresh left one nowhere go drained inertia hope faith people im heading week probably live long definitely coming back know doive posted times junior year high school want graduate go community college first hopefully transfer better university year im honors couple ap courses extreme anxiety sleep school days reason want go school calls house twice day asking really done school work year bs classes except physics american studies supposed page research paper break anything late work accepted egg drop project started finished absence school got c think physics first quarter likely f quarter ends next wednesday american studies got first quarter f quarter midterms grade start next thursday emailed guidance counselor today asking meet tomorrow first period emailed back want try switch regular physics class save credit want change ap american studies regular american lit us history know affect grades possible anymore going retake gym next symmester absent many times lost credit class im really sure hard community college without honors classes really shitty grades feel ashamed pathetic going school reason long afraid going back absent long credits per year go onto senior year humiliating rather drop cant sleep want face physics teacher tomorrow want try go school tomorrow severe anxiety whole life sick worry tomorrow going break personal record going lose hope humanity day bed wish luck redflag mixing cleaning productsdoes anyone know actually deadly effects mixing cleaning products bleach urban legend seems bleach ammonia isnt actually deadly mix extremely unpleasant one rantvent post want advice every single time mom says keep hold back saying life short enough opinion life way long especially struggle mentally way want spend extra time living horrible world brain function properly never feel anything even days actually feel better burnt life know want want kill either nawlife short fucking tired want sleep thirty billion years wake watch sun explode go back bed ask alive one reason dont kill myselfmy daughter reason dont kill ive hard shit parents abusive mom drug addicted narcissist dad drug addicted pedophile feel worthless human postabuse struggles pain feel inescapable ive intensive therapy years relief pain never really goes away im tired living way want let gobut daughter shes left one cant reason living enough keep holding im long haul wanted vent hope understand time goi know know worth blah blah im getting divorce wife going take everything amazing person ive married years never loved married age guilt took tennessee utah got pregnant anyways chose leave wife still wants home ive multiple affairs current affair recently came light kids going hate comes fully plan settle debts selling semi successful construction business make look disappeared want leave house paid whatever cash left want die want know easiest way make look disappeared instead commented redflag im depressed crazied state mind want least painful way family im still around feel wife never move children suffer going work pain weighing downi wonder taboo redflag person admits considering sort line crossed something said something makes fucking sense wrong sometimes wonder ridiculous people even good story ridiculousness shit accepted accident car accident right leg fucked severed mcl tore meniscus fractured femur shattered patella sucked months surgeries pins shit knee recovered though go wheelchair crutches single crutch cane months walk without limp learn walk tough something look forward getting better normal work tangible though different problem spine hurts pain take medications day go physical therapy times week hrs go sleep pain dream pain wake pain things teach deal cope one say help train deal pain teach body avoid things make worse cant work lost job pain encompasses every aspect life im crying way live cant live leg fucked something look forward getting better now pills classes deal life pain day night change classes pills coping never changes miserable way live cant live ask many years long ok mean put animals misery okay end destroys seeing family every day every day day consists another session misery trained deal fix point thing consider miserable dragging family run bills take resources happy life way live tell tell theres circumstance consideration tell call number generic shit want tell fucking sin terminate failing situation complete failure keep someone stopping pain ruins every possible way feel okay stopping person ending misery helpabout years ago came gay suffered really bad depression considered redflag ive come ive generally happy situation really changed thankfully less year college away ultra religious environment recently ive starting depressed last college may actually able happy first time life wanted know beneficial see professional benefits someone make feel better gf broke feel terrible acts fine honestly makes feel way worse someone help feel better thank favorite rap song rn said sum filler filler filler filler filler filler day quarantine im starting daily post untill thingy bit context im huge need im athlete mental health stabilizer playing basketball varsity basketball team btw days last played basketball imagine state im still gon na stay cuz alot doctors giving lives save us emberassing moment boner class girl looked wbu months plan ending life cant anymorei struggle cptsd severe chronic depression severe social anxiety grew horrible child hood raped molested step dad beaten daily forced incest two cousins aunt tried killing many times family hated always things reason grew watching mom trying end life succeeded lost real dad knew months died liver failure spent ten years homeless witnessed many things murder dozens redflags live right front unable stop robbed shot many occasions know read write learned friend mine homeless homeless veteran served vietnam mid s ended taking life right next unable stop got tired fighting every day homeless help money family spent past ten years trying ged unable learning issues second grade level first grade level every subject learn firstsecond way th every subject spent past ten years trying career job apartment bought first car last year scammed car dealership thousand dollars took years save supposed move apartment wisconsin back february needed eye surgery march remove cataract right eye needing done left eye spent past ten years trying find room rent afford month bills incl everywhere find want cant afford living disability unable work getting month live struggled obesity childhood even homeless pushing lbs unable lose single entire life spent past eight years dating scene person online told worthless ugly disgusting mocked laughed made fun trolled bullied told nothing one wants even told end life many occasions even family even mom absolutely friends family support kind struggle day day severe loneliness even good conversation anyone years woman lead pretended love want turned married used attention watched movie tv show anyone years now wake nights tears shaking cptsd nightmares sometimes confused takes awhile calm mind set right tried years therapy meds counseling mental hospitals none helps none works either makes feel zombie makes messed even worse tried ten years turn life around unable months hit going celebrate birthday pizza whiskey wine coolers favorite movies music going euthanize go peacefully peace rest hellish life living know make past ten minutes post tired holding call liar troll call whatever want vent hold anymore tldr horrid shitty life nothing works fail everything set turn going nice little bang end life grew level attack defense sp atk sp def speed ampxb sadly gain stats pokemon ya know dont wan na hang guy cause develops feelings huh hes gon na want sex point dad calls tarty wearing mascara swear god cant wear makeup looks makes feel good attracting male attention frustrating seriously trying attract damn house besides boyfriend anyway obviously im trying attract anyone makes feel confident happy cant happy dad saw wearing tiny amount mascara home absolutely intent going anywhere anything decides spew crap look wear go bars men hit look tarty didnt even know meaning decided tell mom laugh goes say women wear makeup people women use makeup attract opposite sex goes say biology oh im sorry biology apparently saying fourteen year old daughter dressed sexually provocatively wearing mascara bought walmart two days ago thanks lot dad basically calling whre wearing mascara ffs hate men anyway thanks reading rant im really frustrated think ima go put dad slapped againmy arm fucking red swollen fuck recommended movies im really bored hit anything friends weird every time say something casual start making slow song topic know im tiredid sleep forever die sleep old age takes flat enjoy life never ive sought therapy entire life got nothing aversion human beings cant even talk professionals doctors refuse called friends stopped talking back even family got bored whining point cant even call redflag hotline thought talking someone makes skin crawl cant even remember many times ive posted got nothing prayers usual talk therapist continue miserable existence brings nothing pain regardless action take brings nothing misery driving permit ive studied memorized questions inlcluding signs alot people say test super easy still sure ready able first practice test flawlessly rest locked behind pay wall drivingtestorghttpsdrivingtestorg still sure need reassurance tips low actually going go itto anyone may concern think time come end wretched existence done lot sooner saved lot people lot pain trouble trouble seem cause people trouble pain inconvenience never anything short waste space something laughed abused scorned ive heard people love know hell people ive seen love word casually thrown around simple sake boredom entertainment love world lust fleeting urges ones make people horrible things children day realized contemplating wanted go life familys standards ive accomplished greatest feats im pregnant kids sex graduated high school going college course ended abruptly good things im left without passion art care anything dont care anything anymore think everything wanted life traveling falling love getting married living art even owning small caf now doesnt matter im broken good enough someone im loose whore never anyone guess anyway anyone even reading want know im sorry found im sorry even scrape part whatever put wish never accident first place never wasted anyones time wish siblings never known existed wish parents didnt failure offspring wish parents best find someone replace better child wish two best friends hadnt put antics wish hadnt made pay attention knew better bothering wish died day fell flight stairs little wish never hurt anyone knowing wish drowned day fell ocean im sorry female friend depressed time making listen study im sorry always inconsiderate ive always thought big sister always wanted im sorry male friend embarrassing around know resent supposed im sorry im always taking time using around people important thanks big brother im sorry everyone didnt name im sorry im forgetful cant even remember people wasted time trying help never chance go anywhere world given im sorry forced help along way appreciated much friends two owned want money included mother gets funeral expense added bonus burn art crap dont know pursued dont know comes next whatever deserved happy fun fact day reddit post number result search minion ahegao reddit cant overmy anxiety point want die tonight turns midnight cant take another year mental illness nothing helps fuck everything even alive someone knows anything computers help im trying delete epic games launcher cuz use anymore free space laptop cuz told makes run better every time try close says running obviously closed app open bar bottom discord uninstall genuine question everyone skirts guys thats trend right guys skirts dont understand came probably sound stupid curiousity killed cat im depressed alcoholic im ready diedepression scrapes surface im diagnosed ocd bpd every single day feels living hell dont think keep going lot issues main diagnosis include severe social anxiety bordering agoraphobia major depression im sick living thing keeping alive right family dont want put part feels theyd better though mental health become debilitating last years cant even work turned mooch grandparents live cant function normal human ive tried therapy medication nothing helps feel lost stuck getting current situation point failed college mental illness live small town finding job almost impossible social anxiety makes even daunting cant hardly even go grocery store point dont know point feel helplessness im drowning way im stuck thoughts waking moments way relief alcohol hard see light end tunnel feel deep id better dead hate myselfi want kill im fucking pussy please kill sleep let please dream one day cuddle bed cute boy chill fall asleep got window open wake fresh breeze coming relaxing cuddling till wan na take walk something parents manipulating cant stand anymorethey keep demanding shit ive enough might piss hell even pissed relieved piece shit dead already thanks mom dad thank much fucking assholes days valentines day someone sent screenshots talking girl facetime instagram saying youre cute flirting decided say anything girl lived another state didnt want bring figured fried hitchhiked across country college waited till valentines day called told dont think live together signed month lease apartment livid brought dozen roses smashed front parking lot people fucking cluefamily think given thought given even say bullshit share story permanent nerve damage liver infection significantly destroyed mental physical healthappearance wasted muscles etci girlfriend point live want healthier past health issues one day feel ill worse hope anyone feel suicidal health issues done big bad got school computer first real time interacting one want know google themes allowed computers werent think block someone confirm dont mess want die parents cant explain one understand say thats think best youi years old want die every night cry sleep thinking committing redflag writing letter parents responsible redflag good life outside home school great friends great parents awful alcoholics drugs mind numbingly awful might lot time left lot people miss cant live anymore think need sleep feel dumber usual think might showing posts whats dudes anybody talk anything really filler filler yo one cali hear dat lightning loud heck shaking house pretty crazy fires gods finna pull balloon td battles lightning fire magic wizzard upgrade someone talk im lonley suicidal fucked someone talk please talk whatever want really hope okay im submitting thisive never subreddit know right thing read posts feel things go im kinda gon na read guidelines right im totally cool goes im killing tonight makes tonight around th night killed counting first urge mean birth still guess nights pretty good tonights different thats im writing thats right thing read posts first tonight minutes need write know somebody read im gon na details ive got mood behavior issues surprise ive em pretty control past five years break arm patting back tonight hours ago something happened almost set back came close ive come long time doc told called dissociative episode short version sometimes kind dunno crack brain something lose control violent loseyourtemper way sense control words choices say mean things hurtful things things true said ive good five years tonight almost lost ive screaming inside head yeah ive got support system kinda dumb luck tonight im ive sorta got redflag watch im imminent danger anything cant stop thinking want try sleep know im gon na able control thoughts thats im writing helps focus helps stay calm im weirdo cant write unless know somebodys gon na read tried writing earlier see trick calmer state work yeah guess im unburdening whoevers reading im okay seriously im scared tonight anything im really upset disappointed selfloathing strong tonight yeah anybody wants reply id appreciate need crisis feel obligated anything anonymous gets guess anybody wants hear happened specifically suppose try talking know help sort feelings give excuse wallow em sure basically im saying right thank letting use space focus minute helped little think course im done typing means im starting think ugly thoughts stinks moment helped feel little better thank much reading cant take stress feel option redflag airi work everyday little pay much arguing screaming friends family paying debts society cant take anymore stress past present future back demonsall darkness much cant fight urge slice arms im sad alone friends live overseas im bored theyre asleep hate much cant cope anymore im sure want die definitely want live violence still happening mind games still happening felt fault done something wrong deserve supported new state school ended losing job reasons control really difficult time finding new job anyone gives information ufoopidiescoop award please need find anyone gives information ufoopidiescoop award please need find please friend deleted account going hard time need find made heart flutter kinda pleassseee u know alt even going tell really happy grateful best optioni lost love live another man think going married want die told boyfriend ive thinking killing said im sorry left workif care ive stopping guilt loved ones look finally free end pain edit know loves aware depression two years ive never felt suicidal now really scary think anymore sometimes think gets sick consoling knows issue chronic way im feeling sad ill cry pass much different ive never cried wolf redflag seriously think need help week make impulses strong one person hoping reach indifferent tried make clear serious different time walked arms want alive feel content dead forever always people around keeping losing devastating hate every second live miserably go bed depressed wake anxious flashbacks inconvenient times point prioritize pain everyone understand let go much happier fuck bit connoisseur garbage stumbled across little treasure action romance crooked cops violence single one pulled right love immediately funny thing happened second time around became addicted thought going one rent chuckle kindofmoviebr br rudy ray moore knew wanted see movie money make look good anyway thats commendable shows making movie self know many heard rudy rays music whole slew albums reaching fifties time helpwhen suicidal thoughts problematic point need go seek help seek counseling first thought happening multiple times day thinking need take care ahead problem contemplate acting thoughts im done im done absolutely positively fucking donei cant sleep night rls whenever try wake times night terrors manage fall asleep im tired literally time zero goals life nothing enjoy besides going home playing video games nothing wan na go college job want grades terrible parents called disappointment everyone nonstop shit talks might gotten hacked recently friends overshadowed literal dozens people hate think im toxic piece shit ive driven many people away im shitty boyfriend girlfriend always wants go stuff want stay home come go house one long distance friends committed redflag im shitty friend usually take excruciatingly long amounts time respond anyone texts im even getting sick playing video games slowly overcome entirely boredom spend day bed nothing cant hang friends groups outside school feel unnecessary faggot isnt important group theyd much fun without pathetic ass ex gf molested cheated lied fitness friends think im false rape claimer shit talked slowly yet surely disassociating world around im passing everyday life trance feeling nothing overwhelming sadness crippling self harm addiction desire feel something sadness know im still alive wanting punish severely possible annoying toxic piece shit hear voices hallucinate extremely often point think might need go psychiatrist im scared tell parents ive tried kill hanging failed shitty door mounted pull bar using broke etc etc want die want nothing die want everyone around hate reason im still alive know theyd sad died theres coming back theres getting better im deep already know going worse cant talk therapists anyone dont trust talking issues seems make worse im getting worse worse day im pounds underweight cant even bothered eat food half time anymore literal hobby brings almost enjoyment anymore dont see girlfriend often id want fucking bad havent able stop crying full ass half hour stopping life im miserable time nothing want life getting worse worse day cant even pussy destroy family friends beyond repair live poorly written im sorry im sure chore read feel human anyone understandim months feel human bipolar disorder depressive episodes lots anxiety life im failure careerim back living parents working part time im trouble coping ive nagging feeling always personlike im extremely subhuman im always shocked people want around ive never romantic relationship kid im talking early years old consciously think kids people human hate grew older felt deserve friends praise people always assumed anything earned life earned people feel sorry im almost ive never romantic relationship sort im terrified even know id go im alone cant stand hate muchi wish kill anxiety selfhatred much see end im never going able things want age two feet steady job live parents ive never relationship etc feel leach world see point alive people tell potential waste im basket case think id world favor killing christians friendly logical debate athiest purely purpose fun enlightenment winners losers judgement ad hominem used christian turned feel free dm life hits us facewe must try stay beautifulbr br debut movie one belgians best artists sings songs tom barman long awaited movie andhappy happy joy joy flemish filmmakingreally worth watching promising piece work takes us lifes main characters live friday night title says lot way spend time float friday nights party kinda meetbr br rhytmic style thought superb use music sometimes takes upperhand images feel power gainsbourg qotsa party scene minutes thrilling visual experience cause way shot keeps really set small place lot people big partyso hard shootbr br thank menijr barman making daring movie already years going poor times flemish filmmaking made day sharing thoughts life shit people close family getting upset sad try connect every day recreate bond kid dismiss annoyed angry dont want hurt course feel even worse reject upset sad mean lot feel disappoint one disappoints disappoint look dont even friends dreams dreams want creator want make something impress viewer want photographer want cinematographer want musician want writer dont want wannabe think im chasing money fame go back old times money amp fame none suck everything want money fame take away problems family choose family friends want famous friends post malone lil peep milkavelli go unnecessary want parents proud feel good unreal real friends anyone feel constantly waiting one thing give ounce joy ie one clothes delivery one new episode one takeaway provide kind happiness couple minutes fades waiting next thing make feel something need rely superficial things make feel remotely happy find something make feel way feel literally waiting die believe need spend rest life waking working thinking dinner trying find little things bring shortlived joy mundane sad little life jane enjoy money hope makes happy etc waiting died cati taken dads gun gon na shoot remembered cat leave cat behind died packed stuff brang cat girlfriends house years later im happy married still cat dad apologised aways abusing life good right now mind meto care clicked post feel l ive crying time every time knocked feel fall fall every time crawl back im shoved back fell im suffocating wan na cry cant want collapse every second ive cried much come anymore day working hey guys still great days going fast motivation still high changed training harder painfull workout hope enjoy keep following word day defenestrate defenestration act throwing someone something window anything better sex yes really good book synthesiser theres new killer bean episode httpsyoutubebltgkvqmqs king returned guys really cool idea dystopian novel basically theres huge virus ends breaking loose people start dropping flies people realize teens kids seem immune case people want send children back school die teachers write wills theyre exposed large amounts possibly sick children children chance dying government knows still wants send back oh wait goodbyeto family friends reading im sorry love ive lost hope dont care stuff dont care forget know im sorry goodbye selfishdont kill prove point always contemplate every time someone says something hurt puts aside selfish hurt yep screwed last week mentioned sex someone school shes pregnant wonderful humanity mistake teenager sucks weird phase people expect act adult actually perks one sure ton free time cant enjoy really good anything teenager skydiving thats expensive af spent years saving one jump unless licensed basically free cant licensed young try mountain biking live basically flat dessert b enough money buy decent mountain bike badminton place around cant go know drive even want learn need least public transportation system nonexistent goes pretty much everything traveling hiking etc good activity done doors drawing playing music pretty much things read watch tv stare phone day cant wait financial independence stuff actually teenager makes people automatically think stupid whenever topic discussion brought role play learn adults opinions often disregarded apparently know anything real world even though adults total morons less intelligence average teenager always act know cuz years older yes im looking karens forget mention school sucks mean study thats actually pretty ok talking people school students urge super cool alot stupid irrational decisions trying validate decisions making fun everyone iq average higher chair course teachers whose dreams got crushed found work teachers planning take us students sports wise suck football always nothing guess apparently decide go library nerd social status becomes sort big deal reason got douchebags wearing gucci whatever bragging day order popular problem works course people nice overall experience really sucks especially often give damn whats taught young anything young drive travel alone work even part time heck even volunteer sometimes old go college live alone basically anything already know want wait years people adults often say childhood teenage years best years lives honestly best years life nothing much look forward thankfully believe know time sick waiting little rant reason managed read till thank hope enjoy experience teenager pretty screwed physically emotionally left behind bunch dependents took many prescriptions etc word wise follow life script trust television want live friend killed considering suicide really want want happy going wake everyday rest life feeling id rather kms honestly want help late know find want tell friends family bcuz want worry want counsellor therapist one help even fucking know anymoremy grades failing relationships familys abusive want live anymore keep trying best never works theres nothing left mei alone want alone anymore im lowest point lifei good life good position job liked amazing girlfriend several friends ruined got fired broke incapable changing ruined friendship friends month broke shes gotten help best friend theyre close seems theyre interested connecting connecting despite barely meeting maybe months ago im middle child one expectations thrown sister screwed ive never close family im boy never really knew interact theyre disappointed hobby playing games feel one left huge burden placed im looking reason feel even hopeless see old friends fun together without feel dont matter anyone slight breakdown hey fellow teenagers subreddot talk people cry wanted anyone partner people find annoying stupid weird really need hug cant fucking friends arent nearby im trying karmawhore understand say really need talk someone im close itim close ending feel control life honestly decent life cant stop constant depression overall sadness diagnosed ocd well makes everything much worse know close breaking point right now seriously ive kind halfattempted kind started take pills stopped phone call friend idea happened honestly saved life im end though cant stop want final rest death im afraid death even slightly say everyones afraid death want bad wish id die sleep something know theres something within wants thats im posting side wants winning something change tonight last night alive teenager spoken parents seems childish always seem want someone help people try talk go therapy close cant talk whats really causing pain cant talk people almost seems better one talks nights close ive never felt way im close ending plan via overdose im fucking close even know im posting im convinced tonight night even know im looking comes responses even think anyone respond guess im sharing story maybe end someone know hurts know thousands people feel way though wish something actually reliable help nothing seems help though want die want go away im sorry long post know read even want people respond im looking least want someone know die thank reading today gon na aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhgghhhghggghhh day hotlines say god damn thingsit better yeah suicidal hear shit damn time call one redflag hotlines never helpful want know fuck put bullet head already family miss shitty attempt guilt tripping ill care shithead family thinks nikola right live see manmade horrors beyond comprehension goodbye everyonealas day come dont feel super upset little bit things im gunna miss weddings birthdays sorts family events sure wouldve loved stay honestly deserve see hurt much stop soon possible seems unlikely hope die god shows mercy upon anddd see family heaven esp girlfriend although wouldve probably gotten ill probably leave alone hope one feels sorry really deserve im really good useful anything anyone lose honesty make difference lives wish wake tomorrow super happy time cant know im sorry way never thought id grow thought id life figured im confused wait die rid disease im sorry hope death family take something dont really care much miss dont kill tonight done february st although compared mad max film league set post apocalyptic paris film mans struggle survival lost ability speak remarkable shortage women congratulations luc besson im drinking cope pain cant feel yayliterally drank entire bottle wine half hour less feel feel stupid trying harder wanting feel better want die im stupid pathetic wanting better hope better hope die tonight kind stupid pathetic loser covid rules fucking suck school dam lunch cant even go see friends bf anyone deadlineif made pick one expecting time something make change mind mine somwhere sometimes think son part love take care problems still existing good sad know ill miss guess things happened way anybody know stop hicups shit soooooo fucking annoying severe hypochondriachealth anxiety suffereri panic rare diseases every day rabies cjd worry rabies much considered redflag free obsessive thoughts live country domestic cases rabies yesterday morning woke walked breakfast saw brother wound nose told looked didnt notice didnt care started worrying bat bit nose sleeping never saw bat lives found sticky gum thing thats white really big stepped couple times feels gum convinced saliva rabid animal flew didnt worry later told fears started panicking panicked didnt really give shit wether rabies im going kill soon really didnt want rabies later moved forgot fear rare rabies country extremely small posibility rabid animal flew without causing damage really wish cameras house see happened wont kill know doesnt rabies need little supporthi im new looked briefly rules best follow please let know say something wrong suicidal ideation decade now side effect depression im used ive learned lot coping skills really good controlling days ive actually really well lately exactly crossed mind months couple weeks ago friend mine brother committed redflag brutal whole family talked offered condolences kept distance today heard another aquaintence whose boyfriend committed weekend close either offer condolences stay bay honestly though im really hard time coping ive always quick trigger comes hearing someone surprised handled first one well one making things difficult feeloff little dissociative apathetic usual im afraid whats going underneath emotions bubble way surface want tell anyone know everyone understandbly high alert copycats around know fall high concern list many loved ones guess needed chest somewhere judge worry understand mean say things feel guilty im making tragedies even really mine know perfectly valid someone history struggling right now guess need reassurance im alone remember parker posey world turns became queen independent movies film posey shows potential top fledged actress film supporting cast includes omar townsend moustafa lebanese immigrant works falafel salesman street aspires become teacher supporting cast features wonderful actress plays godmother family relative judy librarian old fashioned dedicated menopausal posey mary learns grow mature losing librarian clerk position makes realize much misses place life marys life surrounded friends lower east side village new york city became gentrified yuppies film quite good independent come enjoy parker posey mary well characters films literally point anymorethis kind awkward new ive never life told anyone except one person ive suicidal depressed im things gotten worse continue worse hate hate life years thinking life ive realized literally point want live years im lucky years work years im retire sit ass day watch tv alone old fuck life rinse repeat cycle majority parts arent satisfying cause pain matter mistakes constantly making effect everyone around truly awful feeling dont strength keep going even dont think id want shitty memories taking good memories good memories fading away point cant even fucking remember used younger take years shitty memories grave need take dont even know anymore beating downim years old th grade pending drug charges caught mg adderall pills school september january landed ambulance ride hospital shroom acodmt experiment two friends going cost parents tremendous amount money feel fucking awful putting bullshit disclosed past regular drug use parents weed adderall xanax tramadol oxycodone hydrocodone mushrooms lsd inbome coke dxm fucked feel happy escape reality curious guess friends around curious well never partied everything alone small groups friends good environments cant help think ive permanently wrecked already flawed brain chemistry im gifted diagnosed adhd ocd gad age ive completely abstained drug use fact even considered using anything makes feel though ive done everything completely choice feel completely overwhelmed guilt disgusted putting parents amount adderall possessed caught implied intention distribute mention school grounds felony fuck rest life decide continue im nearing edge though im surrounded loving family plenty close friends theres driving force telling none matters end already tired want sit cry feel embarrassed want scream yell energy feel helplesseverything fucking crappy depressing laptop one thing broke single cent going job couple months able fixed look forward toi phone headphone jack busted recently headphones broke well parents never give money busy trying survive nothing works moremy laptop one way zone parents reach work try stuff used put music lay chill felt sad thta anymore frustrates anything want sit cry used listen music touch feelings even anymorei wantthis misery end first time life actually begun lose faith god know happening angry frustrated makes want cry anyone really use good chatplease pm talk surface tmhs appears yet another generic high school drama surprisingly hidden away underneath immense amounts depth originality eccentricities render unforgettable viewer makes indisputably one best animes medium produced last yearsbr br see world eyes kyon first day high school meets haruhi suzumiya girl boldly claims rest class interest normal humans top casually invites aliens time travellers sliders espers meet kyon stares disbelief wondering shes joking screws loose defying gut instincts begins talking soon becomes apparent ordinary high schooler long creates aptly named sos brigade school club drags kyon amongst highly unfortunate people attendbr br nothing anime conforms usual standard conventions kyon protagonist overly cynical pessimist contributes witty narration show farcry usual d male leading characters tends populate medium episodes chronologicaland forces viewer think events unfolding relate prior instances stroke genius effect jigsaw puzzle new piece layed sense bigger picture previous scenes given entire new meanings realization profoundly satisfying mean feels disjointed anything cleverly written script bypassed problem ensured flows smoothly start finishbr br story strikingly original delve simple barebones plot outline gave earlier doubt spoil mention plot incorporates vast array genres ranging comedy scifi managed accomplish space fourteen episodes beyond doubt huge achievement itselfbr br tmhs true gem diversity depth appeal pretty much anyone interest anime watch rather unusually something lives enormous hype received even exceeds covid bad weve fucked world economy percent worlds population died people arent dying massive numbers people keep screaming friend says im actively suicidalall complain skinny sleep time work think quitting everything existing im exhausted everyday grueling day regret grief death healim sorry despise never wanted happen hope everyone move eat ass eat lot ass black brown asian eat lot ass affects nutrition ass eating competition easily win eat ass fucking eat whole damn ass losthello yesterday first panic attack life worst part even panic attack talk anyone thought friend think starts dislike lot friendship almost seems ending never met person real life kind weird think im someone people along well long period time never good friend always drifted far away close lulling seems best idea ill make moms life hell really worried know cant keep living moved home country searching something work feeling even worse mature cant put others feeling front good person hurt ones love failure planet great service humanity depression almost eighteen years thought mostly gotten grip suicidal self harming aspects lately lot kind thoughts come back know redflag dealing exacerbating poor mental health want sleep struggle falling asleep redflag redflag keeps feel constantly verge tears keep thinking really start seeing professional worried affording dealing overwhelming sense hopelessness feel pushing away people care worst long time anyone wondering one makes movies used conversation character simple theme friendship struggling evolve something new better different folks need take film see top notch writing directing acting melds wonderful evening observation things used italy england days times funneled terrific comedy entertainment made alfred molina joan plowright polly walker josie lawrence jim broadbent miranda richardson michael kitchens major roles brush stroke direction mike newell actors accomplish vividly memorable performances photographed sublimely subtle painters eye reminiscent theatrical bedroom farce turn century film might called friendship farce becomes worthwhile experience growth romantic nature within character viewer artistic telegram importance caring around us flip back forth able change feeling iti recently got broken guy dating months good weeks ive back forth feel feel future one hand feel hopeful okay life together feel good work hard im happy hand feel good enough ill never good enough anyone feel theres something inherently wrong keep failing everything give completely instead grasping day dreams never amount anything ive bingeing extreme calorie cuts taking care cutting punishment failing roller coaster everyday hating taking care within hours currently jobless uneducated borrowing money family stay float years old feel im right back wasabout year half ago suicidal friend convinced help prescribed zoloft began seeing therapist got lot better went emptiness happy met nice guy started going last fall felt zoloft longer working put cymbalta well birth control guess looking back always knew cymbalta working past daysweeks gotten increasingly worse im suicidal skipped school today drove around two hours coming starbucks plan till library opens little less hour im hoping becoming engrossed book stop anything ive grown extremely clingy broke boyfriend week ago order try become independent factors break guess main one im pretty sure drove away one best friends thus clinging smoked last night helped guess ive tried working done much used look forward future really care see point anymore feel mess cant things straightened often lay bed night day dreaming previous attempt successful funeral look parents say even show fake ones repost dumb shit even tho dirty always wonder life looked actually gone idk comforting think peace even tho know grieve years asking even tho years told weirdly comforting day dream briish post oi yeah mayte g walkin street yeah roadman ting comes us es oh yeah ill snap ya mate oh fink ard bruv wan na go chewsday night bruv funny story bit stewpid though innit fancy cuppa now know friendi friend mine started cutting furiously basically making feel guilt threat redflag nightly basis forced believing lost friends reality stopped talking everyone want go details unless asked know help went cutting years ago really phase seeing someone cant immaturity act edit thank great advice figured throw detail left posted told honest opinion needs give people chance position one point cut bring problem people try show need help sort family pains see explained come talk cant help save overcome time send horrific hentai find gore toddler whatever fuck want nothing tame something actually disgusting gore preferred good reason feel personality makes difficult reach outmy head mess sure rambling pile garbage never talk anyone problems posting something extremely uncomfortable sure rethink decision make post delete havent able find help yet figure anything learned years reddit help area everything sure enough search guys quick rundown middle aged married kids successful dont remember feels happy cant recall last time felt kind joy become really good faking around friends family flip switch head time social act happy make jokes play part make sure sadness leak spoil day anyone exhausting sometimes work smile keep shit together hours straight im nice guy everyone depends things done im nice guy everyone looks support advise im nice guy exhausted faking day long sit car breaking point physically ill throw upthen flip switch time go home pretend everything fine feeling everyone around jealous family dream wife beautiful kids amazing large home drive nice cars make good living area live feels costume covering reality feel failed oldest child adult know resents try force involved exhausting try best shield bullshit younger kids feel failing cant seem give attention deserve feel hate heard talking eachother night crushed little soul left think wife planning leave told years felt trapped needed independence best support starting new business finally working going well always thought make things better instead unease festered grown stronger feel resents tell holding long enough set someplace go leaves issues past always able flip switch put brave face whatever takes work trying feel spent keep cracking almost broke tears birthday party front kids simple dentist visit much almost started bawling making cup coffee cant keep shit together normal situations hell something big business life sham feel faking years moment someone going call bullshit seems rock solid everyone assumes kicking ass always razors edge balance feel family know quick family turn shut become damn much want done everything already set everything plan place put end things shielding friends family much possible wont look redflag one think another tragic accident different others happen every day took large life insurance policy established trust children prepared documents attorney handle estate past simply plan place enough keep level anything drastic last month real struggle every single day spoken wife feeling depressed wants therapy thats another mountain climb dont know energy make happen therapist years ago called set appointment last week refused book dont recall ended therapy last time around must said done something horrible wont take back punch gut havent able make pick phone call another one quite frankly thought sitting therapists office makes feel ill uneasy dont even know helped made better faking everyone elses sake tldr exhausted tired sad want done songs probably dont know name part dont even want live anymoreof course everything come crashing tonight feel fucking hopeless universe mocking fact barely friends fuck wanted life good youre anything friend never wanted hear seriously want kill day fucking awful feel awful want many stupid things dont even fucking care nobody want want want gone ive enough ive enough heres hoping best dont wake tomorrow well okay maybe perfect pretty close movie jumped crime drama romantic goofball comedy back quickly way throughout seemed two different movies played simultaneously joined end smoothly theater found bloody parts scalping scene funny well threw guess thats greg kinear perfect soap opera actor ability perform overdramatic soap scenes right facial expressions voice intonations scenes betty seem something sleepless seattle romantic comedy almost forget morgan freeman chris rock searching betty morgan freemans fascination betty rather creepy considering practically grandfather scenes conversing photograph definitely worth laughs chris rocks performance seems rather wooden moments renee zellweger sweet betty lovable waitress crude unfaithful husband treats dirt unlikely actually gotten job hospital without real credentials hey movie go along roommate rosa shines well woman cares betty quite know deal bettys sickness lastly crispin glover fan naturally thought movie funnier one style acting crispin argument chris rock crispin sheriff soap opera hilarious guess im saying liked movie quite bit stomach blood violence lot foul language worth watch give plenty laughs please help friendmy friends family bunch incompetent assholes refuse acknowledge sisters multiple redflag attempts commit sister need commit want friend lost living home right spending year outside us cant anything help sister anything wemy friend way sister help right scared next time theres attempt redflag sister succeed cant anything stop family literally acknowledging problem im sorry wrong sub know ask help please help friend sister wants free award lol got one lol best comment wholesome gets aunt uncle baby sat brother little molested brotherim th breakdown past year thing mother refuses acknowledge happened questions every single detail story problem maybe happened sees missed detail proof never happened uses berate insult addition give answersfake answers happened say thing says liar lying attention never asked yet deal silence almost years finally come talk neither parents give shit mess family dynamic ive seen shrinks worthlesssaid fault still nightmares supposed move life strangled aunt fact relying parents everything find job anywhere especially one allows move feel tortured way im cuddling gf rn im happy im listening favorite music sleeping chest awesome feeling cant anymoreim tired trying happy pretending im tired trying make friends turn friends barely solitary one talk anymore hate job hate alone hate hate every ounce life dont think keep trying anymore thought feels commanded god almostmy life mine want ive tried selfimprovement halfassedly still means nothing purpose world means nothing im kinda sorry friends dudes band suddenly leaving deserve better time never met died years ago grateful time got spend realize going hurt sooo maaannnnyyy people lot know pretty much everyone knows likes except select suppose none means anything im mostly tired wageslave race quit job years ago instead killing basically considered long money lasts retirement time want die thing felt amazing epiphany last night band practice thought lying redflag started believing god spirituality coincidences producer come last night mentioned engineer studio killed said something last exactly considering new album recording right now today realized end matter distraction kind person live working company day live little bit end day weekends allocated vacation time sure id crush life want give fuck entitledspoiledbratty sounds shit ton abilities plenty support people absolutely willing help want little im musician playing sitar gigging every play trumpet keyboard yes time great band full awesome loving dudes totally deserve started fighting back tears im decently talented drawing amp painting accomplished unique things woodworking google first last name playboy might find used excellent support community part aa counselor thats great talk handful females willing fuck probably talk worked civil engineer years lol almost forgot enjoyed teaching music lessons past even currently one prospective music teaching jobs interested much im capable smart person anyone meets eventually tell im sure act smart notice really true likely ive gotten good dropping hints people know satisfy inflated ego people sad much potential mean potential life allowed commit redflag cuz thats fucked thing say talentless dumb folk potential people oh well dumbass much contribute good riddens lol sad last night felt oh got sure probably want realize okay die morality nothing im hurt anyone even though theres going serious collateral damage truly intention want experience anymore world good enough stick around even though much im still curious better call saul came media things whatever list distractions things curious accomplish abilities care anymore want completely reduce time accomplish things less nothing need work live maybe born better society ill take life sure one cares less controlling masses trying empower one people power give shit world leaving children instead making rich corporations richer getting worse one less racist bigoted trump supporters actual power thats world yall deserve frankly honestly trump supporter fucking die world better place everyone yall quickly want honor somehow fucking punch every trump supporter know hard fucking right face dick arm fucking charliehorse em leg cuz fuckers seriously fucked morals okay world leaders blatantly racist coming someone justify redflag seriously people currently used changed mind congratulations growing trump supporters think greatest country world reason statement far fucking true mean political kind things able overlook determine kind person people rest guys choosing stick around acceptance something pray aa accept theres options life work job live try much fun possiblehelp peopledont help people whatever work poor homeless maybe living welfare shelters pssht nah die somehow shoot public place peacefully whatever options acceptable suppose people soon miss pray acceptance sad death say prevented want help redflag inevitable ill tell ya getting guns easy woulda yall might gotten juicy letter ive always torn gun control issue lol want easy obtain kill want crazy people anyways im hanging highest ceiling house consume nice bottle whiskey money check forged parents maybe chinese food last meal know im leaving little bored guess waiting new friendly kitchen cook lunch special greekrave finish gyro spinich pie dumplings got back btw greekrave forgot make spinach pie dumplings lol imagine see news oh shit cant believe messed order killed lol im glad cheerful mood redflag sad anyone looking advice accomplish redflag helps things shameful come back stealing mom last drinks meals going ahead drilling ceiling hang noose course correctly calculating load bearing heightsdistances pork gyro boneless spare rib general tsos amazing btw might egg roll lol ugh great fucking advertisement businesses unknowingly chosen last meal dude good lord stuffed content really feel lived full life experienced experience travel friendship career accomplishments pride art wonderful loving relationships long lasted many different crafts facets life offer enough im posting soon climb ladder anyone curious later check instagram see folks tagging lol might nice drama yall cant figure account really probably kill lol worry trying talk im already gone feel free talk amongst yaselves maybe want imagine talking stuff weve experienced years back probably forgotten years line lets make post official time capsule random shit probably remember mortgages insurmountable debt always look back memorable moments ill go first one time middle school friend walking around neighborhood see friends wanted play nearby park walking notice one neighbors walking dog now im dog whisperer convinced dog chasing slaves past life point time one black kids neighborhood dog tried jump atbark instead anyone every time dog go neighbor look fault started switching side street saw walking dog time though dog particularly irritated seeing dog mad anger elevated saw another dog walker coming street still standing friends doorstep see cogs turning dogs head trying figure wreak havoc demondog immediately starts jumping dog nice dog walker lets go leash doggy diablo chasing dog around unfortunately first dog walker sharp holds onto dogs leash whole time gets dragged around street felt longest seconds life dogs calmed went separate ways first dog walkers clothes little roughed think fine even lost little bit pride day friend go us park lucky enough witness looney tunesesque moment stay us tldr asked friend play park said im thinking againnobody gives fuck im tired finished writing last words time eventually comesive dealing thoughts years gotten point dont even feel happiness sadness anymore havent told anybody know due deep rooted trust issues fear telling secrets fear burden others definitely cant tell parents im even sure tell friends want able confide someone close honestly think possible demons mind cloudy right honestly want let win point im confused empty lonely right now even though good people life dont think anybody truly lean give shoulder cry end day dont think commit soon im still young thought always mind feel one day thoughts end consuming suicidal escaping desert island corona overive genuinely thoughts going grid completely corona situation picture personally built raft going foreign country id fly island human travelled id inform mum everyone abandoned months departure im thinking going holiday point im burden anyway obviously need research supposed things cant betteri avenues life skills talents one care extended amount time dropped struggle relate understand others getting jealous hateful inside im financial burden whos incapable holding job im pathetic failure drop alot heartache problems solved everyone thing stopping fear happens im afraid waking next day dying feel alone lost confused know anymore bfs mocking cried end arrow season lmaoo watching last episodes together didnt watch episodesseasons started crying end last episode hes mocking lmaoo im loosing hope humanity feel dont place world way western world live canada going leaving baffled lonely frankly pissed world full misinformation blatant lies one wants honest conversations everyone wants right live world full deeply bigoted ideology want make language hurt feelings illegal already feel life pointless days pass feel removed society none makes sense world doesnt make sense desperately want alone part wants pure protest shitshow thats happening friends house thanksgiving watched dvd movie eddie monroe ive fan indie films almost years loved brothers mcmullen impressed good movie friend works magno sound told us movie shot super photography good looked though mm shoot furthermore music combined fred carpenters direction art storyline original led ending surprised us watchingvery cool acting entire cast good especially actor played uncle benny amazing film nice holiday treat delighted one first view movie many seeing future lazyi feel im lazy asshole wanting die feel overwhelmed absolute endless ways life isnt worth time think easy exist wouldnt worry endless cycle work gain nothing scrape nothing work nothing gained anything nothing going show way system designed theres escape im lower never hope anything literally way society works makes never able live comfortably bother film rocksso hardbr br cameosthe drug referencesthe sharingthe lovethe rocking jack kyle first met tim robbins actors gang theater company years ago knew legacy awesome music hilariousness ensue door door rocking paid offbr br although anyone enjoys classic rock major kick film definitely recommend renting original hbo episodes local video store going see film cinema theyre tenacious masterworks dvd available rent pretty much every video store inside jokes film refer earlier episodes add something enjoyable overall viewing experience without negotiation expected go high school full weeks go college full weeks go work full weeks retire little bit freedom die thought makes escape bubble open new things want go outside unless necessary high redflag escape excessively unhealthy eating hobbiesi often want neet without money problems life perfect feel always recently feeling lot whyhow eventually go passionate work know screwed point birth care changinghaving impact world making lot strangers happy lot people see motivation passion job see way people care build relationship ones want something billions people inventors system probably want people ask questions consider change want us obedient cogs society wish automated society capitalism infinite resources maybe mined planet machine build anything basic molecules everything automated machines everybody want people want work replace robot paidbecause enjoyment want money maybe allowance put bank account algorithm everybody gets allowance every month enough buy things todays rich people buy enough let one person deplete entire stock something luxury cars buy want algorithmic system backed robots buy car person gets money money removed balance points spend month robots deliver car housewhy keep living survival future live enjoyment enough freedom life selfish wanting end lifebeen feeling suicidal got around purely people upset understand called selfish loads things wanting end life understand people thinking selfish ending seems option sometimes go things go nobody understands dont even see good future people bring gon na change things dont see happening sometimes right edge attempting end realise fuck calm ive never believed thought id never far im still daily things keep putting im scared ill far ill end killing without hesitation lacking support right dance backyard boy looking super fine corduroy im failure everything tired abuse kid looking end pain soon need talk human tooi failed everything im years old failed abused age mom age present mom step dad remember telling teachers school nothing ive never friends entire life remember told one teachers going kill sixth grade told back work mom pulled school punishment th grade made sign papers dropping whenever went work always yelled screamed work fast food retail always deal bullies workplace see much ugly ugly fat disgusting easy pick people went got ged twoyear degree joined new career field ive deal nothing bullies workplace understand mechanical stuff became cad operator wanted money move end known failure whole life everyone hits yells screams calls failure workplace failure son remember trying draw something boss made fun said stupid join different career field ive worked seven jobs career field fired seven jobs career field time span eight nine months deal people calling failure work saying cant draw need change career field im sorry even want work career field wanted money move matter anymore end worked october work career field anymore hate looking mirror seeing fat ugly monster want know friend ive never entire life friends mom never allow friends kid adult never learned make friends im honestly scared people cuz know everyone hurt said see someone fat ugly judge everyone judges people even admit one wants friends someone makes hunchback notre dame look elvis presley im years old im trapped hell last week stepdad got mad something think accidentally broke tool took bruises scars body im years old keep getting hurt yelled used punching bag never held another humans hand years ive eat bucket whenever eat whatever leftovers put bucket animals eat bucket sorry im rambling much talk spoken another human months mean know little kid sleep outside dog house yearold im even allowed bed house room stay day night sleep outside im always scared stay room hate im trapped animal want death release prison want die please someone come kill im much coward kill im scared itll hurt ill give address please come kill one ill im scared succeeding guess make coherent timeline idk know start mom step dad home soon cant computer theyre login late tonight stay late anyone wants address let know make quick one ill figure use one guns tomorrow know tomorrow itll make easier figure use gun kill moved new area living hotel kind great mindset housing market crap always crap us unless millionaire job market says hiring applications seem gain tractioni maybe account previous landlord avoiding calls texts security supposed back car deciding todays day going die think reason cat gone looooong time ago anyone wish went bed never woke agree best fruit foods green yellow orange ones think wrong panic attacks someone talk really long time messages actual panic attacks heart palpitations feeling chills trembling sweating im sure normal guys build minecraft really know put im really bored im going make spaghetti tonight hope good ive never done know depressed people assisted redflag ask id die id prefer painful prolonged fail ive feeling really demotivated lately soooo long story short saw classmate mine win basketball tournament sending snaps snapchat screaming celebrating jumping around got really sad think know im gon na achieve something life still winning baksetball tournament kind big deal play type sport im literally sitting house playing video games wasting summer life got really sad saw whole team celebrating jumping around probably best friends im alone nothing even wan na bed mornings feel sooo demotivated wan na anything anyone help anyone felt rid feeling know anymorea quick couple things wall text im undoubtedly going type tonight first using first names intend show friend hopefully provide support hes good guy hes provided emotional support past second sort rant life trying help comprehending whats wrong alright go lets begin wall text pretentious assholeish statement think im smarter far better spoken person know personally aware much loser sound saying mean snobbish way genuinely feel though better understanding people emotion reality friends feel one unique quality turned horribly cynical negative person serious problems finding things funny anymore default looking something analyzing despite knowing meant humorous used extremely funny reason great friends year junior year high school shit hit fan life went reaaaally downhill recognize decline know stop used funny outgoing kid anymore instead im emotional wreck reasons hard time comprehending let alone explaining three close friends gerry don kanaii theyre funny great people used quote gerry used funny one kanaii replaced year three us hang occasion often invited normal weekend us consist waiting text back see facebook tagging talking much fun fact lunch yesterday four us share booth went awesome party openly admit declining invite feel ive become infamous third wheel rather fourth situation suppose friends namely kanaii especially gerry tell care believe think understand tried telling kanaii feel days told need lose weight brings next point ive never real attractive guy fact im good looking guy weight problem makes worse talking morbid fatalbert territory noticeable enough makes quite unattractive socially awkward hold intelligent conversation best comes someone opposite sex trying make small talk cant aware appearances end unable look eye conversing often sit awkward positions ive convinced help make look thinner direct attention away chronically shitty haircut girlfriend despite physical quirks sorta least im really sure call anymore started first relationship girl someone id strong crush nearly years finally got go anyone got attached now last months ive really realized little mean compared feelings though may sound much realization really messed think might insane thats whole nother story probably bother telling fuck rabbits help feel better rue day may th actually graduates shes senior im year younger leaves alone goes college helped steadily increase progression declining sense humor fuckgiving feel desensitized lot time things impact ways used whether positive negative fun playing video games brand new gaming computer cant find joy anymore completely unable motivate anything school literally pass opportunity easy assignment worth lots points simply want work know smart know finish work dont know friends know feel sorta know broken thanks girl really fault per se plays strong role depression think realize serious think redflag every day much carry realistic means ending painlessly quickly better might make go away think go familys gerrys sake tell everything suspect hurt killed still wonder real reason telling want someone tell make better know easy thing making someone feel good someone provide insight fix life please theres much im tired finish need sleep views tomorrow ill finish school apologize trouble may trying decipher way speaking tend saytype things exactly way im thinking forget format others make sense see red lines words normal number typos reduced ill fix tomorrow tldr im probably overly dramatic hormones getting best feel hopelessly lost know life probably hurt figured still think rredflagwatch proper location cookies anyone read whole thing homosexuality sin cares bible says says forgive sins dont tell sin close friend mine admitted feeling suicidallike title reads stranger depression experience redflags two people close life absolutely terrified friend although honored confiding desperately dont want say wrong thing give wrong advice somebody please help know cant save anyone hate see people love suffering im done everythingi want alive nothing want accomplish actually able im everyone life fucking beyond relief ive bullied life forced go smaller school ive never actual friends one true friend gone dad mentally abused know parents divorced dad forcing fucking job dont oblige anything says takes anyone phone playstaion makes fucking depressed already today fucking says dreams ambitions life fucking told true dreams fucking laugh always force go something want become sort entertainer making people laugh make people happy tell say go theater school way lifestyle dont want fucking goes behind back talking girlfriend behind back hes saying shit mom mom beliving everything fucking says dad online help thing dont oblige hes gon na take away every electronic thing totally fix depression fuck cant live anymore opinion meme stealing saw post rmemes someones meme got stolen told straight didnt want yelled entire sub meme stealing isnt bad memes meant stolen thats spread around although nice give credit nobody really cares got meme know people say memes art want people steal art theyre right wrong memes something make yes want credit put watermark somewhere artists usually memes edited pictures ive seen people turn subtitles movie screenshot scene put hashtag relatable caption art takes time take hours even days finish something time itive several failed attempts several hospital stays ive tried work hard better know want go stage ive nothing left sorry ones im leaving behind honestly care much im sorry hurting know something want something finally make happy remember going drive inn parent sister grade still kid drive closed years later film still lingers memory adult movie kid finds entertaining mark excellence hoffman one hollywoods better actors film proves billy put ice cream scene remember sctv version film factory remember joe flairty crying please email sctv skit bad film story father son touching intertaining love part hoffman talks killroy streets change worth second watch set sitcom world alight father ted arthur matthews graham linehans next creation forgotten gem bbc called hippies although created pair six scripts written arthur matthews alonebr br set london ray purbs hippy editor anarchist magazine friends flatmate laid back cannabis smoking alex girlfriend feminist jill none bright hugobr br simon pegg superb ray superb everything sitcom feel citizen smith ray much wolfie smith trying beat society failing miserably last sitcom going released dvd march cant wait buy yet repeated terrestrial television memories good sitcom yet remember two episodes really clearly first opener protesting hippies thought great start ray goes protest sandpaper episode hippy dippy hippies think episode quite clear memory police sadly sitcom got negative reaction viewers cant think bbc commissioned another series arthur matthews decided negative reaction oh well cant wait dvdbr br best episode hippy dippy hippies series episode neither someone suffers depression someone lives fullfiling life discribe say statue indifferencei long time contemplated argued debated question ending life even though see point living thing material nonmaterial stopping suicide takes much effort lack resources end life right opportunity basic survival instinct stopping think mundane reasons easily overcomei possed question come answers retorted answers rejected answers possed question againso seem come answer sparks flame burn doubts answer satiate gap curiosityi feel uncomfortable indiffrent nature voilated annoying honestly need know quickly end unreasonable life ending lifewhat actually stopping always feel wayso im definatly attention guess need help someone talk man tough time lately seems ill look back everything life seems big failure go back youngest memories kid even wow always bottom life dont look bad either im outgoing sociable even consider life party man people spent minute head theyd real shocker dont know whats wrong cant stop blaming hating everything negative goes seems willpower either ahead constantly feel shit starts getting good boom something bad happens constant feeling failure makes want give actually want commit redflag want feel better stop telling im better world dead cook excited us try food made something eat instead disappointed frustrated eat food feel force go eat food even though hungry horrible disappointed waited eat food instead making mine feel prisoner whatever want reassure crazy need advice thinking killing myselfim thinking killing tonight theres one reason yeah sure reason im posting know tell curiosity odd thing many yall know raclette gay filler gay filler gay filler swiss filler gay filler gay filler need help suicidal personso throw away obviously friend iv know months met coffee shop sitting alone sat seats looked use company talked liked lot stuff exchanged emails time iv known early within first weeks attempted redflag three times hopsitlized three times first time released hours next time held days last time minor hes two weeks parents able signed said friends really use one talking least little everyday month ago started going bit differently anytime hang send fury scream swear curse hours text call crying begging go away sorry iv dancing egg shells worried upsetting getting worse worse hes pretty much made afraid say anything fear upset freak hurt days ago slipped going tell someone feelings lost every shit finally got reanswer phone tell hour life awful good thing consequences hes going kill two weeks time isnt anything time one attempts called police rushed er time cut wrist week ago now hotline counslers pretty much said wait call police actually something instead saying will life become hell im loss told fault dont care someone even though friend says thats stupid iv atempted tell family falling deaf ears says meet tomorrow one last time rages afraid going something anyone give advice pardon typos spelling errors grammer english first language finally got gf kidding really think someone earth look say yeah wan na bruh dont even friends holy shit need stop easily fooled random people sub feel might wrong place ask find answer anywhere online zopiclone alcohol lethal combination ight thats catch titling post omlll said yessss saying randomass shit moms gon na make idk boiled cock ball torture castrate flaccid penis understand think life overmy husband left real explanation treats enemy love cant see way go obviously horrible person getting notification google classroom stresses jeez give week assignments week didnt wifi jerks cant wait move start honestly now start person wednesday tell interestspassion currently dont want sleep want learn shit probably never need know tell interest passion know forgive im slow want hear one stupid car know everything history gay ice skaters way trading cards made dont care want know understand youre interested single father raised past decade sorry hope next life stronger daughter deserve better sorry apology guys defeated cyber demon without cheats unrelated subject weird favourite games owned company though one straight damn everyone cute girls mother might covid shes miles away mother dies im committing redflag guaranteedok little born raised small poor country south america father abusive absent mother stay home mom one sister ive living us past years sister living europe man husband met online time thing life europe husband cares little parents last time saw six years ago doctor trained home country middle becoming licensed us one test go cant take covid medicine brutal chances matching residency slim time passed graduated medical school live wonderful man takes care loves much ive known years unemployed feel worthless feel chance making anything life gone future used feel promise feels threat somewhat ok health chronic back pain need surgery cant corona might nerve damage pain might go away even surgery long without proper treatment doctors saw first ignored complaints suggestions getting imaging hunt pcp order mri back herniated disk compressing nerves dont know life without pain feels everyday pain days good others bad pain never leaves mother shes experienced tragedy tragedy brother brutally murdered mothers day years ago parents died saw grieving death never recovered shes living alone home country shes complaining covid symptoms country lockdown even wanted wouldnt able go see one last time flights honestly ive thinking killing never want put mother always told kill dies love want spare suffering life hasnt bad im tired needs met im pain career worked years might never materialize plan shoot head inside rental car parking lot level trauma hospital call police warn hospital go ahead harvest organs donation wan na die every day wake first thing say oh comes nightmare want die im useless im broken im pain want pedos sub ok ok someone explain many posts pedos recently drama wave pedos hi everyone year old male nurse working three years now diagnosed major depression high school along redflag tourette syndrome battling suicidal thoughts hospitalized inpatient psychiatric facility three times remember inpatient actually helped though receiving electroconvulsive therapy ect little year two acute series done ect ruined memory seem helping longer treatment done monday already feeling severely depressed suicidal tuesday night know doi commit brothers white coat ceremony coming need pto able fly see want family worry love reason killed yet even know worth inpatient three times already suicidal thoughts still couple good things going life though great job extremely loving family almost always willing put call know helps depressed mood told everyone talk regularly brother sister aunt uncle dad mom feeling talking helps improve mood struggling feeling starting call often want bother make things worse therapist currently maternity leave substitute therapist top depression redflag severe unable make friends friend high school friends twin brothers friends flustered around people barely talk work friends know quiet guy know everything feels much tired frustrated ready everything feel suicidal adult life stop myselfi tried die using zipties things looked mirror head turning purple cut dont know want dead indecisive close losing itim close ending im fucking sad depressed feel failure everything need help messaged therapist week ago okay never answered dont know need help went date last night ended found girl dating app turned real know shocker go college days talking asked wanted go date said yes immediately went food saw people old school tried avoid lol refused let pay food used money school gave us money per say sat ate went outdoor area outdoor area sat talked literally anything hour eventually benches sitting became uncomfortable started walking around campus talking anything even breaks conversation smile always inspired think new subject continued another hour said needed go back dorm laundry hours insisted walk home cold somehow turned dropping place got car asked dates ended first date said wanted end reached hug awkwardly hugging center console jeep unexpectedly kissed cheek shocked never happened realize kissed back given legit hug rookie shock second date scheduled saturday see guys go date someone anyone wtf james janisse house must something used think redflag realized death nothingnessmy reasons thinking redflag might silly others reasons boredom mediocrity young everybody including believed great potential success family circumstances prevented reaching potential live normal life struggling people felt equated failure wanted die instead work getting thats saw future felt worth living still enjoy little things though comfortable bed watching favorite shows good food treasured friends kill nothing unlike others want redflag healthy pain really want exchange little things nothingness even times burdened regrets self pity still things worth living recently realized big things life successful career expensive travels amazing able release suicidal thoughts little things little things exchange nothingness death le conseguenze dellamore beautifully made film takes small carefully positioned steps towards ending need savoured order enjoyed contrasting landscapes tightly enclosed world hero inhabits taken director controlled moment enter hotel hero never escape suffocating intensity paradoxical monotony criminally driven mafia world film resists mafia stereotypes whilst revelling makes successful concrete grave inevitable brutal executions overwhelming maleness laid bare exposed brutality business life part corporate machine organised crime love living self family others hero indeed hero gives life sake touch beautiful barmaid resolution misery suffered neighbours hotel order escape decorative prison consequences love indeed beautiful brutal time see dont understandi dont understand feeling breaking sb loved heard lot songs talk break ups always confusedif sb tell grateful dont experience lot emotions great compendium interviews excerpts form films late sixties early s counter movement big studio films late sixties directed ted demme obviously labor love films period gives short shrift masterpieces timesbr br many filmmakers period influenced truffaut antonioni fellini bergman course john cassavetes unfortunately documentary logging minutes short film rich interviews opinions filmmakers people interviewed martin scorsese francis coppola robert altman peter bogdonovich ellen burstyn roger corman bruce dern sydney pollack dennis hopper jon voightbr br bruce dern moment truth says jack nicholson may good looking stars came interesting summarizes areas period filmmaking american historybr br filmmakers dealing lack funding studios expressing unconventional attitudes politics sex drugs gender race issues americas involvement overseas conflicts vietnam warbr br great interview francis coppola saying got chance make conversation producers knew trained roger corman make movie nothing bankrolled filmbr br another interview jon voight directed hal ashby coming home clear antiwar film crippled soldier immersing back society facing battle voight talks working methods helped achieve emotional telling point ashby said rehearsal take ended take used film better unrehearsed drained freshness overrehearsedbr br many fine excerpts al pacinos breakthrough film panic needle park interviews dennis hopper making easy rider interviews sydney pollack making filmsbr br documentary fine jumping point film lover wants see great examples new voices film seventies many sundance folks film made big splash unaware much independent film maker today owes films john cassavetes milos foreman william friedkin roger cormanbr br rent favorite shop least perk films may seen enjoy today amazoncom little want buy right made japanese friend keep forgetting use simple english brain defaults complex words realize oh shit might know word anyone living dysfunctional family alone live family im one sons youngest child tied twin sister seen still see abuse father mother brothers sister brothers even hope whatever stops eventually know around someone know well feel awkward sitting around well thats kind fucked family everytime sit someone says something stupid without thought even completely wrong another one calls argument starts one raises voice calls names fight starts everybody left bad taste mouth happened countless times never gets better every damn time one us near feel heart going explode stress anxiety say got used im starting feel handle grow hope happiness love determination one day find true freedom peace mind hope turn fine find purpose life good lonely wednesdayhey im one worst days long time usual network support unavailable usually id text brother hed reply something interesting funny weve fight left existential dread cant stop drinking smoking imagining therapist vacation cant even bear thought looking new one kindly post something interestingfunnykind help shitty wednesday end ropei woke m wife f crying complimenting women messages gave props flirt offer form relationship sexual interest jas going years now year done shit honestly marriage sexless romance lacking infant son died threatened leave looking women yes know bad husband blah blah trying explain someone go one left literally reason living lose stepdaughter love stepkid much full blood son lose almost certainly join son next life attractive man nothing offer anyone world lose family itll end cant stop panic attacks way nagged cheating years without much glancing another woman done never stop killing stay ill die go rooftopim rooftop right taking cat walk always place mostly lonely calm see city around im really sad right now imagine jumping splatting ground shooting ive even chosen spot want sit shoot fantasize moment people going find loud going much going hurt probably brain ground come everyday take cat walk imagine silence fantasize world without people suddenly everyone disappeared earth come every night see stars moon shadow imagine ghost afterlife sometimes specially bad days climb fence think cat going take one going take care im gone die hunger go back wish talk anyone tire people understandable expect anyone put shit problems wish anybody either sometimes go online listeners sometimes cant freely talk freely think either call cops ban certain way speech sites wish kind robot ai talk feel im burden everyday even one says see getting tired everyday talk im scratch record many people least talk hear even one reads feel im getting little bit happy right searched lgbtq rights canada happen one lgbtq friendly countries world non binary legal gender option conversion therapy banned people think canada fake blown away awesome government population b noticed clothes either black white except one pink tshirt cause eboy one beige tshirt black white lol im addicted penis need guy likes im addicted cock wants suck constantly always thought son donald trump normal kid holy fuck kid absolutely crazy jesus freaking christ bro messed scrolling comments posts new literally guy defending nzis saying nothing wrong murdering literal millions people know small minority guys gals people lead astray easily brainwashed things see online calling jews judaism opposition makes freaking scared delightful piece cinema storytelling simple effective way cinema visual media igor used full potential young restless man boards train destination mind one compartments meets girl words exchanged laundry washing taken ride peculiar characters situations two leads perfectly cast unique features tell story needs words arbitrary existence arbitrary manhave wanted roller coaster bad jumped half way ride rational question one may ask inquiry wanted roller coaster normal thing wait ride finished last forever anyways question reason ive staving present urge kill years rationale behind basically matter shit life might well stick around ride stay forever end still shit wanted anyways die death inevitable stick around see theres anything good many consider redflag theyre depressed angry heartbroken psychotic hurt im depressed im heartbroken im egoshattered disillusioned world im cliche case victim bullying im stuck dead end job im overweight bad life family great worst world theres point meaningful reason live anymore might surprise coming relatively attractive going year old guy average intelligence well life grew supportive family meal stomach every night truth remains ive lacked meaningful reason exist many years now life somewhat xenophobic apathetic introvert socially physically isolated past peers lived small rooms life rather world ive never sexual let alone intimate relationship another human never kissed girl sex etc ive never best friend good friend temporary acquaintances pass time cant confide connect human whatsoever whether casual deeply intimately personal level dropped junior year high school back december considered dropping life around time well never ive done nothing linger nothing living mother watching youtubeplaying video games mother homeless lastly years developed mild agoraphobia younger things bothered slightly things honestly bother today except never sex part fuck wants die virgin part much im telling things give vague idea situation people say somethingyearolds whole life ahead regards meaningful things given theyre still young well see many meaningful things horizon things common people live derive significant purpose exist moving mothers house always liberating thing towards becoming independent adult short term goal ships problems different location figure alone wherever go family worst world annoying badgering verbally abusive honestly want peace quiet cant living suppose moving reason live something live long enough see happen losing virginity basic short term right passage really mean anything anyone means something value losing growing first place kind pathetic reason continue existing lose vcard eating lead suppose still though hey dying virgin suck ass ill probably hire escort bottom heart always hated children thing clicks adults brains make kids seem cute never clicked mine way hell start family anyone let alone children id make terrible father world already half billion people fucking need bred cattle plus im sterile must fate finding partner living solely said truly connect human beings regardless gender even significant kind life facade built lies false intimacy false empathy eyes relationship pretty small pathetic reason stay alive devoid much purpose procreation pleasure former cant physically latter meaningless terms jobcareerwork worth living always interested science mathematics always wanting improve technology systems human civilization replace current systems better ones ive always loved space truth im means genius said im high school drop dropped stupid reasons stupid person stupid either point im one uneducated young man large meaningful positive impact civilization way solid reason exist writing traveling world big goal aspiration many people traveling nature humanity origins ive always wanted travel see whats world time costs money afford im monolingual see places free computer without deal people ive come realize world simply world really matter long relatively secured safe procreate reason exist ive got first two least many others cling corporate career somewhere world climb ladder societies perceived definition success chasing things really value becoming another useless unneeded cog blind machine corporate america im pretty sure id kill let come shit military ah military theres always good old military jarheads low lifes zealous patriots bigshothighschoolfootballplayers people looking feed stable life sociopaths warmongering savages sign become troublemaking pawns mercy machinations governments give fuck whether live burn suppose im feeling vindictive join seem many fuckers world take time comes nah seems empty existence well patriotism propaganda ranks say think ill stick blowing brains instead chancing task extremist sandmonkey shouting allahuakbar theres simple pleasurelife majority humanity lifeforms follow one lets baser biological drives towards catharsis ecstasy reason exist course eventually leads addiction whatever vice may booze pot hard drugs gambling hookers video games etc although chasing pleasure natural structure life pleasure means end pointing organism right direction survival pleasure empty live pleasure hollow life hell cant pretend past years life naturally fell back truthfully practically leaves eyes glazed thinking unable find clarity mind lack reason exist one thing even consciouslymentally exist top part stupid violent egotistical arrogant short sighted warmongering cowardly fearful basicpleasuredriven species destined self destruction anyways humanity corrupt rich flourish exist mostly pleasure backs majority everyone war religion genocide torture rape peace little bored war genodice etc small percentage humanity actually greatly intelligent turning wheels progress least species described freeloading small amount intelligent people world knowing im sure id want either general category quick recap pleasure pain meaningless hate children sterile connect well people let alone intimately cant largely contribute civilization positive way fuck corporate america fuck military war fuck government fuck humanity existing disgusting thing atrocities commits im night right writing article nearly early saturday morning im writing im existential crisis im existential crisis mother cant afford freeload anymore means ill move soon job brother passed away yesterday sudden heart attack brother friend im sitting chair typing end article unemployed sources income virgin uneducated way college high school drop living mother takes care children living somehow forgot mention takes care children things hate without car without license brotherless living arbitrary life purpose reason desire live beyond instinct cant stop asking really stay pointless roller coaster till end take quick way either way anything happens game plan follows laid really hot girl move mothers house continue linger life dignity eat lead house guys think id love hear opinions ive got nothing test made dm post saying guy dms one saying im girl fucking dms jfc simps went skeleton went walmart foot realistic skeleton pm got halloween section saw started playing linkin park song tried hard got far end even matter im extremely heartbroken passenger seat lie barren halloween cant keep grudge walmart radios perfect timing guess ill survive devil knows dead starts promisingly setting simple heist goes awry told varying perspectives rashomon style around hour mark sidney lumet transforms film something much sum parts eventually morphs multifaceted family drama exploring full realm human emotionsrelations story comes chilling climaxbr br case lumet manages coax exceptional performances starstudded cast without notion overacting hyperbole philip seymour hoffman one best roles complex mysterious interesting character oftentimes dwarfs ethan hawke plays brother hank thats say hawke bad fact quite adequate troubled role suits style marisa tomei excellent relatively short appearance fact bares flesh adds albert finneys character andy hanks father intriguing opinion deserved bit screentime amy ryan performs job adequatelybr br devil knows dead exceptional movie proves lumet still near top game apparent twilight illustrious career many characteristics trademarks appear least involves use characters infused killer 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cutting bangs right hairline sounds cathartic know awful idea goddamn man fucked bad fucking bad everything fr turned worst lmao god hurts alive filllerrrrrrr yo guys wish luck guys hours complete modules come back mom probably took phone beat hard become depressed end lmao either guys adios ill tell happens noon philipines time advice advice guy make helpful good advice thats casting robert culp probably decent move production team made film falk culp marvellous culp falks nemesis time chemistry lacking columbo strong opposite number time one hiim almost socially ostracized pretty much whole life middle school important thing start social notredflag went school home without making friendships love notredflag happened high school college mid teens feeling socially behind everyone around sense teens friends social circles love notredflag etc college already socially retarded seen yeah whenever group odd creepy autistic guy guy work life came college workfield different story people mostly s kids longer place interact people similar age interests really hard time waking sleeping going trough another day feel wake endure hell existence overlife seems social net start building childhood accumulate key experiences right time friends true friends first kiss first teenage sexual relation etci experienced crucial milestones feel dead inside multiple botched eye surgeries left one eyes conjunctiva permanently red people feel even uncomfortable near thanks oddly red eye never part world torments every single waking moment ill answer whatever im bored httpsmimgurcomaghpjev dm want im m today pretty wild far driving classes tyre moms car burst took around half hour homework quickly wrapped went shower finally chilled bit ill taking classes hour whew im tired lonely im whole life ive girlfriends none stick around long enough actually love gets really tiring lonely time im calling subreddit help please shame im gon na look girlfriend subreddit sure best way im outta ideas girls selma alabama area looking boyfriend dm details may accept long distance idk yet dui want dienot looking pity need outta system got dui last night anyone chews know sucks wasnt one driving driver many offenses switched places first offense easier sentence slept cold slab know deserve bailed last bucks know ill fine logically know ill make seeing everyone im terrified last straw people life ive hospital redflag attempts lot year every time fuck people put distance us failures dont know many times keep disappointing people proving right want kill want go back cutting shit want feel pain im numb want cant fail cant person cant fucking right dont want attention whore seem keep failing every fail makes people think im trying attention anxiety depression dumb ass battle wish run away forget shit way past killing back horny aaa im hornier yesterday today ramble ive feeling emotional sparks including depression often come reason ill think different world committed redflag unfortunately things much worse background yearold girl whereas hormones definite possibility situation theres another issue thats occuring alongside unfortunately mother lost home might add horrible money put financial hole nowhere put dogs dad house minutes away fiance refuse take dogs attempt find home dogs take creates large ruckus entire family im middle cant anything matter try emotionally attached dogs horrible cant give away cant solve family problems extra info think mom bipolar mentally ill way cant deal family cant deal giving dogs ive thought much easier die ive got argument zoom feminist arguing applies genders constitution formal instances constitution formal wants keep arguing feel terribleat point want die even know wrong anymore want cut anime conspiracy make go bankrupt hygiene companies saw sellings shampoo companies drops anime became popular tag quotes group chat high schoolers whenever friend mine texts something funny copy notes app heres years worth context quotes entertainment tag writing reprott mla format space pragraph space onceler car onceler car theres much pasta room ziti time name ppeepee poopoo man ur watching disney channel oo oo suggestion kill loose foot loose put fuckin foot loose feet foot feet dance fucking feet capitalism cool cool cool cant believe kill farmer backbone economy inine choked bai antioxidant cocowater feels skullfucked coconut u fantasize badonka donk whats menu ass skfnnynsnf forgot say alexa alexa listen standing front alexa dark angrily whispering hey solid forty seconds god witness work cracker barrel put ur dick diet worms diet worms charlie got pussy asmranch friendly reminder youve listened kpop bc youve listened gangnam style dont accept constructive criticism im martin luther king chill want oreo mcflurry eat die yall cant cryptic shii know ur mom gay morse code das end rope slapped namjoons ass sounded screenshot raw sexual power emanating image keep caroline warm yall play ur wii circumcised uncircumcised come damn spotify immediately assaulted megamind ass fears bro bro intimacy im gon na masters psychology find girlfriend fight god target warzone market district safe space namjoon see foot bed sleep paralysis fuck mom mr mime dudusu im sans duduusuus im sans undertake slapped ass uh pure titanium whos hottest member big time rush hey everyone wanted let know teacher looks keebler elf used smart man ffucking smart dude nd grade hit education different cant even read pros driving alone play first forty five seconds less know better solid hour cons driving alone regret fear loneliness danger road long hard treacherous ur honda alone talking nipples pinterest ladies gays shooter came principal took one varsity football trophies smashed ground screamed scatter met stork today effervescent paul ddijubluhlachberrais wan na clap ass song imma clap ass way interact order feel safe telling think look lizard opinion imagine much magical life saliva hydrated lips instead completely decimating girls cannibalistic tendencies guy buzzfeed tried green bean first time said spicy laughed hard cried james blunt voice hr bthfl carolien b mans whore see exo da stanky legg getting weird fuck entire conversation found made ate hot dog feel next step going throwing hot dog good fucking night everyone stds tested motto documentary much respect coleslaw much respect stanky leg richard printed process paper wrong turned around said fuck richard even thinking heart sank spiderverse spidersona stupid thick peter bit radioactive thot killed venom clapping asscheeks hard soundwave dematerialized hi im wiggles fox believe earth disk hannah baker shares ass skinwalker want throw pavement las vegas strip hard permeate quantum space claps ass kissin u miranda cosgrove losing job tickle elmo true spirit christmas room called clown room mirror nothing door closes swiss miss instant piss bro baby congrats bro dope baby pregnancy hit car bc refuse walk crosswalk thats painted rainbow libs beat loose slimey love man pure heart dumb ass girl liked girl every guy likes big flirt everyone full year last crush ive finally trying back crushing gamei know sounds cringe idk sign slight interest im homeschooled relationships flirting really hard im coming ask help got far cry thats post screw mods screw mods screw mods screw mods screw mods dying redflagive seen impact redflag friends family seems inherently selfish choosing end ones life regardless impact care many ways seeing intentional deaths others affected ive known cared lot followed suit said early death result tragic accident obviously preplanned decision seems somehow less traumatic leave behind honestly say thought process lead careless decisions wreckless driving ignoring medication excessive drinking usually ending evening secretly hoping wake morning falling asleep envisioning scenario days time someone discovers corpse want subject family redflag want keep going cansado de esta mierdame decid escribir esto ya que nunca compartido mis pensamientos ms profundos con nadie creo que hacerlo aliviara un poco incluso si nadie lee esto estoy cansado de vivir hace mucho tiempo que mi nica esperanza es morir en un accidente algo por el estilo simplemente quiero seguir viviendo sin un propsito siendo un intil en todo todo aquello que gusta hacer apestar en ello es una mierda sabes tengo problemas para socializar con la gente la poca gente que logra quererme termino hacindoles dao siempre estoy cansado de siempre dejarme pisotear por todos pesar de querer cambiar en serio querer e intentarlo logro hacerlo supongo que slo soy un cobarde una de las principales razones por las cuales ya quiero vivir es que jams ser feliz en como veo siento es una mierda que cada da de tu vida te recuerden lo feo que eres es una mierda que tengas que vivir con quien ms odias convivir con l cada da en tu propio hogar prcticamente paso la mayor parte del da en mi habitacin para tener problemas con ese imbcil el novio de mi madre suelo odiar nadie pero si el muriese horriblemente yo estara feliz realmente lo estara mi madre ni si quiera toma en serio cuando le hablo de las ganas que tengo de acabar con mi vida realmente veo en un futuro lo mximo que esperaba llegar era los heme aqu con aos sin haberlo intentado incluso para esto soy un cobarde para algo que deseo hacer que har sentir ms dolor dejar ya esta vida de mierda esta soledad esta miseria gracias quien se haya tomado el tiempo de leer esta mierda soy bueno escribiendo pero slo buscaba desahogarme un poco birthday dayand lie alone floor day write redflag note phone short devoid drama basic information even really goodbye theres point anymore first ive followed never even got right deleted note tried happy make everyone happy arms freshly bleeding often enough im hollow empty ive always feel nothing except thats true feel something cant describe disappointment disgust sadness change fix things fix many problems never things broken put back together sometimes worth taping back place one last time sometimes know time let go im donei m havent easy life life always riddled trauma ive always managed find way mother tricked going africa holiday planned leave forever years country despised filled ignorant regressive people didnt know better managed gain back freedom convincing relatives shared beliefs islam although despised ideology prayed times day year convince even sent islamic propagation centre months survived amp im proud horrors faced never describe landed england knew wanted life studied hard got good university worked hard got ideal body amp met plenty women generally enjoyed life face new challenges overwhelmed broke jaw summer cant even breathe properly cognitive function impaired speech horrendous body deteriorating im left back pain fucked face went absolute confidence someone barely maintain eye contact im aware ugly lower face shortened look old pictures realising il never look failed module university ive withdrawn mother disowned ive told im atheist amp im debt living alone struggling even cover rent strong views religion outlook world unconventional learn world less want im disappointed giving simply much handle cant imagine living life broken tools im left even recover academically never live life wanted impairments im opinionated think im open minded cant stand phonefixed peers spent time alone university gym studying etc never needed anyone cant work amp im longer studying realise one people around energy gave aura gone death something ive always pondered rough times past amp plenty close calls purpose exception time thought id never come back england stole cousins gun held held didnt pull trigger weapon jammed larger round magazine remove use whilst decided go last ride stole motorcycle rode kid death screaming pain stopped intense conversation told youre strong matter hopeless seems m youre strong youll find way time different dont see end goal see fucked chance existence death besides 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inyourfaceattheendofthemovie sort display summing moral simple even though quite simply displayed prejudice human tendency hate differentbr br love movie even though many reviewers noted expressions actors exception david cronenberg wonderful appearance rather tacky im sure entirely blame rickety appearance lack depth though seeing common problems converting literature screenplaybr br great movie provided expect standard horror movie really hard timecopying pasting fb conversation friend really feel retyping whole thing sorry formatting bad grammar typing tears easy im really depressed im feeling suicidal cant deal anymore literately sitting couch listening family talk much hate didnt kids homeless right now choice world wouldnt living cut completely going getting progressively worse obviously know hear ive everything try make happy made deans list last semester im working ass nothing good enough saved put torwards getting place asked help paying school told spend savings plus pay summer semester theyre mad dont money put torwards moving cant afford move without roommate anyways one wants move single mom two kidsz dont want live anymore everyone hates constantly feel alone mom constantly screaming cant find way feel choice seriously want walk kitchen theyre sitting knife slit wrists ive told mom im issues says need stop overdramatic im going continue spiral dont aid ive paid everything pocket far im eligible according fafsa tcc screwing yeah last two semesters friends best friend moved hours away completely alone one even care gone ive trying really dont know anyone craigslist skeves anyone talk im always one starting conversation one reaches one really cares talked brother say irresponsible kids wouldnt know difference always want go dad never care coming home spend time family anyways im constantly school work really want take car side bridge side cliff something felt cant shake married abused highschool totally alone ran away times cant though left go dont want take im stuck theres nothing hundred dollars name debt im falling apart im tired stong time one lean cant alone anymore one family cares anymore honestly think happy killed dunno im tired mom dad sister left walk dog im tempted let come home gruesome scene im fat slob whos worthless air breathei look every one around theyre happy theyve got good lifes look mine realise disgusting human want die want happy bursts happiness day immediately come back want fucking keel die want big red fucking button push end immediately went gym happy set plans better went gym fell apart fucking know never better know die horrible death want fucking die already plan killing hate homosexual h teacher wore pants zoom class everybody saw yesterday first online history music class zoom teacher used two devices computer see us phone hear us phone camera pointed directly crotch wearing pants minutes host one students blocked phones video image stuck minds bored lonely wan na chat hey wan na chat people good time talk ab anything everything number game something want meet chill people lets consider late s s early s best years living world think internet simplier goodly naive best tv shows games films started time period experienced everyone kindlier censorship even thing everything calmer happen today bad good things end fast im grateful born experienced interesting things younger kids im clearly understand living past actually good ill hope everything ok future guess wan na mess someone say ik irl dont mean asf kinda funny id tell truth tho worked sad insecure paranoidfyi going bit nonsensical long think dark rant using throwaway obvious reasons consumed suicidal thoughts hours day even remember time think cutting shooting taking pills hanging even child nightmares people killing ritualistic way dreams always left conscious enough feel terror knowing slowly murdered someone gaining enjoyment act fact earliest memories kind monster thinks sort thing grade school know theres something wrong normal want hurt oneself time im kind paranoid maybe im murderer kind violent person know sounds stupid actually want hurt anyone someones brain programmed mine ive never chosen think dark things always happens ill typing imagining convulsing taken cyanide thoughts constancy terrifying think people sense choose polite really violent people always look eyes im guessing ive always severe trust issues feel friends simply pity keep around someone laugh seems something lot normal people dokeep loser around feel better im pretty sure im loser people work constantly talk lazy incompetent coworkers clearly interest selfaggrandizement im sure im incompetent weird person im around stories uncomfortable around least thats suspect felt constantly one everyone put feel better ive always hated school people brag got better grade able problem faster romantically seems every guy ive liked already someone thought beneath first two people asked said much hurt time actually appreciated honesty last guy really liked girlfriend constantly gave looks yeah chose bitch mutual friends often social settings ramped pdas whenever near even family always given shit weird mother complains im androgynous need care less people says im good manipulated used view society negative want adopt simply philosophical grounds even parents criticise front people always ive never tried prove anything bloat value individual everyone moments bit full overestimate abilities ive never willingly represented something better think people take advantage low selfesteem take advantage fact im civil quiet easygoing coworker recently announced matter shrugged understand acceptable say things people especially ones supposed colleagues see inconsiderate behavior time everyone always goes especially chatty people ones simply fill silence time literally spew hatred questioned expressed opinion world politics everyone looked though idiot really dislike confirmation bias applied personalities understand people measure worth social settings last paragraph really sorry lately paranoia seems getting better feel hear peoples thoughts walk past theyre thinking much want make eye contact stupid look awkward feels everyone knows messed theyre choosing laugh make feel worse rather try help really want someone help cant believe anyone actually want exist none normal fact lot really wrong snap lose sense empathy compassion others know im horrible person even probably sound serial killer waiting cant die already brain took nap wet dream ex interesting kinda weird recommend im waiting one decently sized reason beat mentality wontmy life consists staring facebook raging videogames smoking weed take mind everything every aspect life use reasoning die school job motivation job death simple flawless solution first place easy way family miss course friends shocked fact time feel happy even though appear happy personal almost never firstly explain question one must understand idea way must understand idea watch understand movie inception seed unbeatable logic seed logic cause flaw thinking fact family members love family choice back different sperm reach egg sperm obviously family love whoever person end point purpose granted person personal makes difference personal love choice given purpose another person technically anyone say dont kill reason reason reasoning almost matter irrelevant fact die person previously tried persuade affected person friend affected emotionally small amount time move life effects moderately affecting yearning kill hate way look hate personality hate way respond human interaction hate person altogether soon high school ended last june friends either stopped talking began act asshole directly indirectly serotonin imbalance feel happy feel happy feel hungry empty feeling similar person feels need something necessary life water social interaction feel sad feel sad mean deeply distraught person feel leave extremely impactful messages world people interact people know due existence burden always possible way hell permanent god smart enough create existence god exists fucking stupid enough punish lifeform limited intellect human eternity wanted live able lead christian life first place thinking spirituality necessary contemplating redflag previously described thinking highschool something must know see first girlfriend month two ago lost virginity became incredibly attached dumped fear commiting personal emotionally let experience feeling anticipation something never experienced life broke lost purely blissful feeling anticipation life literally unable eat week body want live without anticipation live sense purpose almost vomited every attempt gave eating bites meal appetite improved agreed continue talking even though broken stopped talking almost entirely appetite decaying month almost bad eating last month nineteen year old male weigh pounds girls emotional problems came two different boyfriends past first emotionally abusive raped found caused develop extreme complex cope boys sex second emotionally abusive refuses emotionally commit another man something give time happened ago add family fucked possible incredible incomprehensible stress sum happy together frustrates allow us happen solution us people scarred girl undeserving life fucking terrible makes realize basis negative thinking depressed life human nature cause every bad action life obviously thinking extreme makes want kill fucking badly one tries overcome fucking disgusting cause every problem earth one realizes one made effort conquer human nature conquering every petty matter petty earth want human abomination existence yeah ill come back tomorrow hopes finding comments cliche stupid meaningless good luck helping one choice make hours one permanentmy next appointment psych three hours closest spot park conveniently next walking trail cliffs one spot particular m drop straight onto rocks wanted say something today go fuck new reddit update reddit crashing fucking time cant shitcomment properly bruh fuck people sort new real homies sort top time girl yall simp family hates mei remember last day cried go home yelled parents anything find feel paranoid time watching never relax want go jump building right now already picked date end summer break going say glad go say sad go either everything terrible lately struggling find happiness feel falling behind everyone life point going nothing matters matter small insignificant compared everything matter fine everything fading black giving pain perpetual cant find way stop allevery day uncomfortable cycle inner anguish nerve kill yet believe heart narcissist seeks optimism family died lovers left travel thousands miles away please convince slip numbness death kill hate everyone world dont think life right much pride ask help real life school felling school feel lot calmer cause covid cant say enjoyed much big lebowski raising arizona felt little slighted o brother enjoyable film worthy good laughs taste 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still man miss fucking brain broken glass severed tendon bled white save trying fucking end blood floors blood walls aftermath psychedlic fall visuals seeing patterns stare try pretend care reality im alone im one dug hole whenever come sub rteenbeauties title pretty cliche still spend day living head friends hate family especially mother feels energy constantly sapped fat mother stop look twig tiring want quick escape deal crap anymore welp time start another day want stop guys guys hear ok powerful great white shark heres pullups without taking break great white shark making powerful powerful least reddit redflag notethis kill addressing great reddit friends ill begin amazing friend im weak person gets trust flinch everything im terrified dogs im screwed head uslickspider amazing friend live another continent awake needed questions answered thanks amazing boyfriend staying friends broke uangelinwhite amazing friend end accusations im fall break gamers find something weeks please someone talk mei horribly need someone right now beg care fake caring need someone talk one last post night strange stupid questionsigh firstly want thank everyone helping still guys cant guarantee tomorrow still alive sick dog freaking terrible head cold say shitty immune system thanks anorexia stupid question hear term mentally ill thrown quite bit days hear term think schizophrenia psychosisthe bad things know yall doctors looking definitive medical diagnosis anything next week go appointment surefinally concrete name names mentally ill fuck wrong blah already dx officially ago anorexia nervosa know disability idea wrong meh wondering opinions thats hate feeling need sleep happening though damn insomnia lg trying find reason keep goingbut everything failing give hope better quit job job starting th still need income till yes ive tried therapy yes ive tried meds yes ive tried drugs home remedies yes dr knows sees regular basis im loss cant find anything motivates try something new mostly cant think anything new try ive either tried make sense backed science anyone something completely box try im happy hear give shot point try lobotomy offered anymore nothing life interests anymore none hobbies even pets even love life anymore im tired done giving random facts daily coz bored day squirrels plant thousands new trees year simply forgetting put acorns enjoyed film finished still makes think believe jeremy brett brilliant role although death acting little top jeremy brett mindbr br good piece drama follow oscar wildes novel closely enjoy film recommend watch ideal husband jeremy brett lord goringbr br film gives great insight oscar wildes way thinkingand watching viewer reminded way dorian grey lord alfred bosie douglas basil halward oscar wilde listen shitass love goddamit fucking idiot matter dumbfuck stupid ass recognize ok hear dipshit may think never good enough shut fuck idiot good enough deserve love affection love dog going kill myselfi cant stand living life way years every time tried change always ends way cant take anymore cant nothing left keep trying suffering chronic redflag eight yearsthe kind feel enemy breathing neck alwaysi want details matter personal beginning redflag breathing got messed alternating breathing hyperventilation shallow breathing day years last five years suffered bone tb stomach gastritis three yearsalso found recurring kidney stones left kidneybefore begun relatively healthy without complicated disease bone tb stomach gastritis seems long chronic redflag resulting hyperventilation shallow breathing high blood pressure make immune system rather weak damaged watch video bio idk apparently pretty spicy even fail testing methodi saline kcl powder made medication made research syringes learned kcl iv painful prepared pain real put bit kcl powder saline loaded ml ml syringe tried find vein arm difficult check got vein one hand needed pull slightly draw blood took mins pressed felt rush saline coming system panicked managed put ml pulled even real test pain monyh ago halfassedly tried bleed using syringe tube putting vein blood filled half small cup stopped someone end want go hospital beg put anesthesia die lonely fuck scared life parents already hate place say know cant even pass parttime job interview fuck good feeling better revenge days yayso went back apolagize troll nothing changed girl dani october im moving loving girlfriend name joann loving family job measuam yet dani messages deleted cups moved feel much energy hi fello gamers friend made discord whos mostly talk memes play video games skribblio minecraft alien swarm stardew csgo tf valorant together guys girls listen music separate channel nsfw small enough form sweet community everyone knows otherr comment link d dms wont work overall thought nice movie hate use word nice rather dry beautiful look central performances rupert friend emily blunt strong liked despite gleaming aesthetics costumes settings gilded shiny aspect never took heart film good strong writing thank julian fellowes d nothing flamboyant saturated pomp ie sensationalised greatly victoria dragged bed informed queen well less glamorous hand crown paced gently every line film held worthbr br undoubtedly portrayal love victoria albert though somewhat fairytaleish face fact slow burning candle friend blunt well show effortlessly two people fitted together despite union initially arranged fave bit come home hunting victoria simply hugs new husband behind much said without words thats film blunt held beautifully well face demands attention cant mention costumes wears every one simply gorgeous blunt trouble parting rest ensemble cast played roles well harriet walter queen adelaide highlightbr br qualm lacked sense urgency event made movie little exciting rather tame know wanted something happen victoria draw strength prove worth little albert argued loved done pivotal dramatic moments though may mebr br lastly risk sounding patriotic renew sort pride awe crown takes position especially one young may part fact films snap shot victorias young life immediately apt writing one character mine sword scion nevertheless flag feelings following book guess character victoria aptly reflects might part film displaying ridiculous government back times seem give two hoots poor dispossessed nation turns renews appreciation queen victoria prince albert active domestic domain made government appear rather useless nothing much changed supposebr br blog films books httpsempergratisblogspotcom im christian teen us got questions ill answer whatever politics religion etc anything keep praying deathi keep praying death every night wake curse every morning always think rather die live long remember last days ive feeling much severely tried kill nights ago overdosing pills passed take enough woke screaming failing finished nightly workout used make feel better normally feel normal think much want ive told family tried commit redflag one said anything act say im seriously considering something illegal go jail away really cant stand anymore im sure one times fail one night ill idea work hope tonight im fall apart everydaywithout distractions feel im gon na go nuts today got never slept kept thinking problems problems panic attacks past got work easily finishing around sat everything kept feeling going break used drink vodka stop thoughts keep coming back kept feeling wanted grab knife cut throat let press mentally fall apart anything stress depression gets worst want kill little confidence actually cant think properly america terrible country better rd world countries pretty much every country europe higher standard living greetings children humbled presence bring question children offspring rejoice guess wondering oi wot doin ere well bring question survey will existence guiding now children return favour ask fuck toes im tiredim tired want die im sure tell parents dont believe redflag depression im thinking without telling somethings wrong trying help im scared happen survive rather go location make realistic film drug addiction windy city contrarian director otto preminger decided go opposite way make movie appear artificial possible thus flying face fashion set men kazan huston zinnemann making pictures world nelson algren whose novel movie based went record despising one wonders preminger movie waybr br sets film minimal suggest mr magoo cartoon louie drug pusher attired resemble sort gangster artists mad magazine used draw arnold stang wonderful comedian seems place serious picture appearance topped exaggerated oversized baseball cap elicits laughter robert strauss another actor best known humorous roles likewise place large heavily jowled face runyonesque delivery lines seems appropriate jerry lewis movie stars frank sinatra kim novak eleanor parker work overtime keep viewer snickering sinatra jittery manic throughout suggesting man ill ease wholly appropriate role drug addict miss novak plantlike sublimely deadpan sympathetic seems product artfully dingy slums graces film parker pure hollywood hardworking crippled crafty zosch never convincing neither filmbr br recommend movie anyone interested realistic depiction lives drug addicts america caligari sets alone make unbelievable preminger may aiming dream effect cardboard backgrounds give proceedings surreal feeling nightmare operetta perhaps harking back premingers early days vienna mr gorbachev tear wall guy america idk gender neutral clothes look really cute teenage guy filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler saying word doesnt mean racist goddammit white use nword sometimes racist im quite scientific anomaly socially worn quickly went downstairs see sister playing wii decided chill downstairs comment game chill started discord call friends chilling hour kinda tired good time laughing lot idk feel idk want call social battery gets worn quicker average first st ives film fairly loosely based robert louis stevenson story name criticism original novel workinprogress unfinished authors death freely adapting giving ending filmmakers brought life endearing characters although different stevensons originals sure charmed amused himbr br capitaine jacques de kroual de saintyves breton aristocrat orphaned revolutions guillotine serving hussar napoleons army meet going evening claiming hussar dead blackguard borrowed time certainly faces string challenges duels dashing hero seems danger surreal prank colonel provides way duels bed beautiful courtesansinger unfortunately results losing commission misadventures result taken prisoner british sent pow camp scottish castlebr br carving toys boxes jacques catches attention flora young niece miss susan gilchrist welltravelled woman world lives swanston cottage fall love story concerns flora helping jacques escape find emigr grandfather old comte course problem jacques older brother alain dissolute alcoholic perhaps understandably far pleased grandfather disinherits front whole household instant jacques appeared cue treachery entertaining subplot romance awkward naf goodhearted major farquhar chevening aunt susan travelled ottoman empire prisoner turksbr br even allowing natural prejudice favour film heroines share surname st ives magic combines splendidly swashbuckling swordfights balloonflight comedy romantic adventure recommend anyone loves kind film make anymore fairbanks colman flynn co acting splendid anna friel makes flora spirited appealing heroine jeanmarc barr delightful jacques genuinely lovable hero miranda richardson richard e grant already great favourites mine great fun susan farquhar whose relationship runs comic counterpoint leads rakish scheming ultimately tragic alain jason isaacs shows recently patriot classic swashbuckling style besides dashing good looks please please someone cast hero genrebr br main quibbles film concern settings costumes book castle jacques prisoner clearly edinburgh film shot ireland germany france highlandised setting making retention place names swanston inveresk queensferry decidedly incongruous costumes real hotchpotch s period set implausible downmarket characters making seems odd welltodo ladies heroines wearing s gowns clearly costuming decision sthetic earlier styles visually far appealing elegant regency fashions work idealised world film whole st ives minutes pure delight dayssince ive food even slightest hint live money family anything think much longer really hope things better america one takes life little social security income ruined life month enough live rent electric water want die bad cant lol im fucking pathetic hate honestly kind want become criminal something go jail food every day care even good food lol want able survive thats completely wrong want nothing stable wrong want die lol know think lol trains stuff sleep outside days something well devil dark william shatners favorite episode one favorite episodes program pure star trek deals one series main themes respect life forms think one clearer example one shows interesting ideas episode kirk crew confront monster killing miners distant planet story excuse explore right humans destroy creatures vital part environment todays concerns environmental causes make show relevant extremely well written performed gusto beloved cast one memorable sequence involves spock joining mind monster plenty tension spock kirk want solve problem using different methods adds fun shatner leonard nimoy best work guys wan na see new karambit curved knife favourite time period music s s beatles kind stuff honestly hate know feeling feel nothing wake always feel cry every night personal things online things know nobody wan na support especially im years old turning feel bad everyone around experience sad look everyone wonder happy usually try hide emotions im afraid getting called pathetic child sad im forced look happy hate feels im wearing fucking mask ive suicidal thoughts plans things ive self harmed many ways cutting scratching punching even slamming fucking wall time time sometimes feel lonely friends slowly disappearing guess keep venting without even knowing brothers friend recently took life bad relationship father feel pathetic therapy doesnt shit make fucking life worse dont know anymore life worthless always think negatively hate want stop pain peeled dead skin pp dont ask tbh dont know plus kinda satisfying kinda idk im trying make post longer post hell damn miracle crash luckily started road close home feel right cant really explain lightheadedness weird thing im seeing something even thought thats im brain nothing happened second intervals ghosted girl thought loved mea months ago darkest part life found browsing sub hours people shared pain many lovely people helped pain cant thank enough long met girl really liked gave hope got along great eventually confessed really liked never heard someone made want alive pursue feeling ended first date lovely day afterwards agreed relationship much decided put hold bit year university kept checking every couple days make sure alright happy today messaged asking alright respond instead blocked social media without explanation felt happiness decaying times wed talk music zelda films even aware tried commit redflag weeks met cant believe loveliest person ive met cant fathom someone special someone care tupac born s bruh didnt even know old wth lost someone redflagthis lot less urgent many posts definitely encourage others getting helped anyones got extra time id love help grief last morning goodbye online friend left commit redflag life always exhausting untrustworthy place warped perspective world people really hard time opening trusting anyone hated family one reason another recall unfairness household lot assumptions family truly care things basically putting trust anyone worst death words though trusted couple people bit one considerate person despite problems certainly nice wary cautious wanted know figured itd take time though talk much still around id end going without responding think proper roleplay post running fumes rp chose back later though cant help regret spending time never figured real name disgusted reason figured push never figured lived call police stop convincing talks feel guilty try hard enough save online friend much possible guilt lifted grief stopped constant crying fit day night grief still hurts lot ive never deal loss friend made worse open chat application look ghost account sitting contacts recent chats want delete either feel hurt even worse even long run know deal grief comes back hits truck im deathly afraid bad pain feel lost someone even closer well hurts bad already sorry long drawn story referred another reddit sought sort help manic state depression saying guys handle people suicidal coping loss redflags sorry fully true im wasting text space need help dealing intense episodes pain regrets vegetables grow september atlanta read depth article httpsmygardenchannelcomvegetablesyoucanplantinseptemberhttpsmygardenchannelcomvegetablesyoucanplantinseptember sunflower shoots radish spinach tatsoi mesclun greens green onions kale arugula im considering ending lifeit started kid father sexually abused younger brother older sister years finally courage say something remember father wanted give gift started crying mom wondering asked crying id tell gift ment hed expect cuddle mom thinking silly said father wants good id explain cuddle way thats started police come place conversations police child welfare start back forth mom going court sister brother explanations enough even allegations prior wed know case came still free man hed roam streets even rented cabin meters away home fight mother custody torture us eventually got us convicion free man things done mean anything enough evidence problem never wanted got delivered remember crying non stop screaming yelling wanted everyone hear please leave us alone cry help im grateful every day mother refuse let us stay brought us home nothing anyone years later kept fighting see us eventually got see us coditions gon na supervisor us times never spend night problem supervisor someone father knew hed fucking leave us alone hed go walk remember father sitting legs hurt much id cry hed things things want talk years ago today year old man job education ive depressed struggling anxiety years never felt belonged anywhere safety supposed got completely ripped away teeth rotting inside mouth simply able work job afford taking care things able take care age ive seen friends start families buy houses take driver licenses cars things feel late s cant barely make month month food see end loneliness darkness feel helpless ive often contemplated redflag ive never close anyone chat n chill im bored af home middle night pm u wan na chat best way lethaly odso ideas best combination drugs well basically kill cant prescription drugs illegal stuff please movie best movie seen lds highly recommend movie able feel understanding life joseph smith although movie made highly acclaimed actors remarkable life changing movie enjoyed appreciated everyone saw movie family bear witness change heart movie allows people really understand hard life prophet much tribulation faced saw moviethere single dry eye entire room everyone touched saw seen highly recommend movie everyone im usually one discriminate ranch far best sauce goes well everything especially nuggies use anything ranch fuck sleep homies hate sleep est rn really isnt even late standards felt kinda tired tried falling asleep couldnt ive come following conclusion case body feels fairly tired ready rest brain still wide awake filled brim w thoughts random insignificant shit makes really hard fall asleep idk adhd thing even though already guess im gon na stay think found hate seen gifted kid perfect everything mind problem view everytime fail anything feel disappointed mad everytime feel everytime mess anything disappointment everyone bit feel better one test messes start sad knowing grade isnt perfect thats bad dont cause body isnt perfect dont cause skills arent perfect dont cause grades arent perfect look kids bad grades normally parents dont disappointed didnt stupid label slapped sorry rant mad love boys time slightly wan na know feels put pp girl pussy gross asf em look wan na nut pay abortion guys need favor need yall bonk shes horny needs degree bonk please help shawty good mobile games im currently home wont game fun im going play week im debating wether start minecraft pe world nah ill rather wait come home play pc haha guess dad told put laptop dining room table hahahah privacy till right hopefully doesnt probably will oh noooo ill suffer dad probably try brainwash things gay anybody got good reasons kill im hella paranoid hallusinations getting worser worser post follow upsoa couple minutes made previous post things took turn worse got told unless pick start functional member crew getting sent back home im wondering choose job occasion actually fired im going help family financial problems anyone talk cant seem see point living anymore actually happens im afraid im far emotionally weak handle doctor android use doctors knows apples day dow keeps doctors aways im bored balls tiredlife fucking boring tbh enjoy first years life constant hell school college working boring job making enough want life maybe rich enjoy life way always wanted right constant rat race probably always talk tell feel badyeah actually feel bad need talk start avoiding days time fuck people wanted someone give slightest fuck felt instead ignore avoid im done thing people nice im going mean evil fuck people fuck friends fuck family wan na die someone looking mei feel someone looking im alone home dark outside lights look kill sure im scared look stop thinking killing even good mood change split second feels hit tsunami self hatred hoplessness guilt walking road constantly thinking getting hit house thinking jumping window head first overdosing bunch tablets cutting terrified tell anyone life incase think faking looking attention know aight one always downvoting posts lmao see yes megathiccc know youre reading stop go outside take look outside world wonderful isnt dont lie know didnt even go look well least tried franco proves prince surreal erotic cinema true much work viewed entertaining sleaze succubus necronomicon shows truly capable lets warped creativity run riot gives us film hypnotic enigmatic whilst still maintaining delirious eroticism intrinsic work jerry van rooyens splendid score pulsates viewer thrown one bizarre scenario another follow trials striptease artist reynaud may schizophrenic may indeed one mysterious character states devil attempt come terms world inhabits beautiful enigmatic piece cinema highly recommended anybody even passing interest alternative cinema think film one funniest films seen think debbie reynolds hilarious chemistry glenn ford perfect dull moment film debbie looks beautiful always br br story showgirl maggiedebbie reynolds meets penniless soldier joe glenn ford takes instant dislike accidentally tears dress returns condition goes one date end getting married night date one kiss joe maggie move spain find nothing common physical attraction maggie proposes one month live man wife means joe allowed kiss sleep maggie much joes frustrationa hilarious plot wonderful film missed know dothis first time life ive suicidal thoughts think much easier stopped existing stress national exam coming preparing last years think pass preparing alright quarantine motivation gone touched books april worst part parents think studying first time ive lying absolutely hate fail exam career prospects nil opted stupid stream pass exam life probably spent working job hate making minimum wage start shaking whenever think future really know great student came top class without even trying everyone know expects achieve great things really want sleep thing keeping redflag family sad ranking acnh villagers monkeys time saucehttpsnookipediacomwikimonkey champ hes total champ deli hes cute simon better elise really ugly ugliest flip first monkey give photo monty smug smug sucks im glad hes cranky nana best monkey shari piss hands simon best male monke tammireally creepy terrifying patty worse next ducks wan na theres even point anymore life pointless im worthless always fuck every single thing even able build life wan na tonight im scared work though life pointless point try hard still everything touch fuck cant manage thing holding back hurting family point nothing left aside hardly enough hold back anymore though im tired life theyd eventually im scared right now body turn part even know im posting want help anymore im done cry every single night multiple times day nothing live nothing look forward nearly friends literally thing holding back family im done hate human hate fact people born nothing people born everything hate people scared walking streets school hate dont loved cause theyre different hate society made people hopeless take life hate shitty parents allow kid wants life post response post sub left write post made show shit humanity learn need improve might fucked upi feeling better past months talked therapist adopting cat emotional support animal shes sweetest thing world love death realize dont know go died feel im tied shitty fucking world im actively suicidal right matter time everything much harder love shes sweet things bad need escape thats yo shoes raggedy ends weeki diagnosed anxiety depression saw therapist three times week five years hospitalized several times every imaginable combination mess deemed recovered enough wean last combination meds remeron effexor klonopin life felt hamster wheel ive learned keep quiet plot end silence diagnosed heart condition told likely lead medical crisis sooner rather later took opportunity draft living restricts treatment enough make survival unlikely last year became desperately ill organ failure caused heart condition odds survived surviving spent days hospital last year treatment sepsis acute respiratory distress liver kidney failure etc far ive spent another two weeks hospital cant work lost home moved sweet generous dull bath water ive decided leverage stage liver fibrosis generally weakened condition picc line thats place bring unsurvivable medical crisis im diagnostic test later week anesthesia requires fast two days hand fasting increases liver toxicity tylenol home mg zofran along small dose benzo prescribed bunch meds managing nausea blend grams tylenol smoothie take bed flu andor post test fatigue plenty antiemetics oral suppositories liquid morphine benzos ride days home ie past early stage tylenol poisoning point saved liver kidney damage resultant brain swelling even symptoms become unmanageable taken er good fortune allergic tylenol poisoning treatment drug choice mucomyst used previously attempt relieve oxidative stress liver episode sepsisinduced liver failure provoked anaphylaxis hope drum tylenol level becomes undetectable death ruled something cryptogenic liver failure normally functioning liver five days impaired liver function knows case slim chance someone order toxicology screen might detect metabolites tylenol consider labeled redflag risk worth taking help things along ive brewed syringe gut bacteria inject picc line bring another hopefully fatal episode polymicrobial sepsis heading hospital receive palliative care messy almost inevitable end fails recently got firearms id sig sauer ammo wrap things timei attempted redflag times count ive woken icu many times feel really right though know think even people around lonely pain much im going friday worth saving rather donate organs try really first time attempted redflag im time say goodbye asked mom long ago feel passed away hint redflag main concern want pay funeral chuck random hole care nobody speak nobody cares ok maybe make lot peoples lives better pain redflagi autoimmune disorder spinal deformity adhd anxiety chronic depression party blessed sparkling personality use hide ailments constant physical emotional psychological agony getting worse older understand redflag maybe responsible choice god damn tired think need someone talk tohi im feeling really well right now theres one irl talk kind dark stuff chitchatting someone knows deeply going mean rknittingwatch right helpful guess went first date days last date went ex year half ago feels really good good night guys please say anythingi feel empty im alone nothing helps nobody cares nobody even pretends care ive exhausted every option hope finding support none successful stay alive nobody wants many american people saywhat opening comment yes know comparison without doubts insult fans master akira kurosawa analyze movie comment right peasant goes town searching help band grasshoppers wants steal harvest village great difference way story takes samurais band circus performers original complex mixture personalities end village needs heroes please watch incredible movie seven samurai obviously find another movies stolen story tried magic effect masterpiece akira kurosawa tip th warrior antonio banderas michael crichton copied story wrote best sellers found third foot cat really lonely day hard want talk someone please tell someone day happy wife happy life haha kidding ill never happy life wife miserable ha joshin im gay normal think killing every single day rightread bottom bold quick dirty year old senior first got idea redflag thoughts become frequent concentrated literally think redflag every single night heres catch literally plausible reason want kill love life love parents good home rich best give want much never abused hurt raped immense emotional trauma stemming death family anything running well music passion love death really april year many friends moment good friends stay contact others know well drifted away whatever reason go online school hard concentrate class still hard work home least spend afternoon one subject ive done lot openminded unbiased research found adhd im th grade even understand algebra trying httpwwwkhanacademyorgalgebra learned know im plain stupid actually think intelligent thats pretty petty shallow say hate constant self awareness judgement awareness actions world buddhists see enlightening see curse see post im bad english either frustrating difficult though sitting mind race billion miles per hour im trying better actually math online school main reason many friends love talking people friends antisocial disorder know majority people feel way constant lingering feeling worst night online school theres really set time work led many many nights thinking redflag hours hours know sleep look clock see whatever night know normal go sleep wake pm cant stop thinking httpwwwyoutubecomwatchvwliumkgcoc time day reference minutes song speaks quite lot gosh think ive cried much 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see everyone around tough anytime life hits curve ball im barley getting bed days feeling everyone hates cant keep trying thing made try used pain cause friends commit life hard times everyone says toughen brave u brave one really understands struggle survive world im judged dont many opportunities im different mom thinks know feel struggle doesnt put mask everyone see happy reality im never happy even im still sad im point everyone around brave tough moment something small happens breakdown dream florida protest masks shit bad leaking private mind efgnd f feds sxfvxsvxvwxddxwvsxf bfscbsxfbcsbscfscgb anyone talk im bored asf want talk someone pm interested guy fbi found child porn bidens sons computer im pretty sure biden knew biden hidden house past days jesus fucking christ someone please friend need friends ive one friend th grade im th grade now want change life im hoping change friends anime video games art mainly pop culture stuff general one thing minecraft good fortnite bad dm want friend sadly relate movie im yet kissed really feel josie seeing film write review rewatched remembered everything loved itbr br drew barrymore great actress role suited really well time chemistry sam josie really good michael vartan excellent actor thisbr br loved storyline said relate rare find film completely relate tobr br loved im hungry want go upstairs maybe ill wait bit one way always tell bites lip really making video nasties guise digital wide screen big budget remake mm quite ride unfortunately bit much story times becomes travelogue heroine searches sleaze spots paris hamburg amsterdam rather churlish depraved scenes including everything hot wax harsh whipping rough sex drowning beheading scenes immaculate pity bruno budget stretch make many characterful creatures introduced become simply caricatures dab watch commit suicide work well told kill least know really feel tested blades works way better knife trying calm wrists instead thighs bought razor blades got caught beating meat bruh shit gon na awkward idk dad gon na pissed smh days ive done without getting caught today im going kill drag everyone meive sliding depression god knows many years now ive really noticed sought kind help least took effort remedy within past two years none helped therapists medications improving lifestyle friends girlfriend getting better job moving basically achieved everything wanted age still spend hours work fantasizing redflag past weekend saw new therapist said cant help im unwilling put work well im ive got enough plate already support system doesnt seem help either im starting find people annoy even ones used theyre still helping whether true empathy dont want take care hit rock bottom bother going work want better want participate shitty life daily grind punctuated occasional bits fun everyone laughs say real goal work honestly thats condition stay alive cant another years im already worse year ago started job moved every time short lived motivation fix things people assume im normal expect fix everything ive broken life cant run gauntlet increasing amounts misery work scary standing next proverbial edge think day im waiting rest good filter life finally end hopefully people dont invest much time money energy keeping current shell human alive much longer deleted first came communists speak communist came jews speak jew came catholics speak protestant came time one left speak mebr br attributed rev martin niemoller br br faced intolerance injustice easiest thing nothing speak risk becoming object scorn enough become much global antisemitic sentiments allowed hitlers genocidal policies thrive equal doses fearmongering ignorance made possible anticommunist purges mccarthyism destroy thousands peoples lives inaction makes one less culpablebr br lawrence newman chameleon man quiet nondescript blends seamlessly surroundings lawrence involved witnesses attack young woman tells one goes business world spirals chaos buys pair glasses mistaken one lawrences view world view forever altered br br subject matter film new presentation definitely unique much easier understand irrational nature prejudice placed within certain context lawrence concerned assumptions jewish views attackers believes corrects oversight everything right realizing logic prejudice never go hand hand br br whether playing schemer thing liked fargo home nice guy sheriff william h macys roles linked common thread characters share subtle deliberate countenance gives substance macy nails lawrence smallest detail says furtive glance tremble voice page dialogue showing rather telling lawrence able share fear bewilderment viewer supporting cast brings story togetherbr br laura dern compelling gerty lawrences bombshell wife past trailer park rough yet worldly wise felt wrath prejudice result mistake unwittingly exacerbates lawrences situation michael lee aday aka meatloaf frightening fred prototypical redneck next door equal parts ignorance venom rallying neighbours virulent cause midst chaos finklestein david paymer focus aggression voice reason raises important questions paymers even handed portrayal keeps finklestein becoming stereotype someone whose sole purpose engender sympathy making one strongest performances filmbr br tight editing closecropped cinematography make clean picture distractions mixes air claustrophobia small town usa feel simultaneously comforting disturbing deliberate use harsh twotone lighting accentuate malevolent aspects piece carefully scored soundtrack powerful without overwhelming finally set costume designs recreate feel era essential component films messagebr br focus unconventional approach dealing prejudice reason enough recommend film consider excellent story solid acting look film added bonuses im currently studying theatremy grades shit doubt take anywhere least helps pretend im depressed try forget depressed im alive rainbow six siege wan na see upcoming dlc im addicted already redflag attempt couldnt noose hard tie shitty rope anyways btw live mexico go school us life boring dull dont know im posting probably cuz insomnia ill probably regret later getting fired tomorrow morning really want kill thatpretty sure im getting fired tomorrow morning know method redflag want use spoke boyfriend says hed never forgive killed long distance relationship unfortunately pretty sure people care boyfriend father ill owe apology afterlife probably truth ive suicidal long time attempted redflag failed self harm whole thing want end life isnt getting better wish dad boyfriend understand idk somethinghi idk im saying im lost im hopeless inside feel lonely yet people im mess honest dont understand feel grasp emotions happening whole life dont know feel exactly every time id cry feel im judged even tho im alone im weak vulnerable stop crying feeling nothing question cry im even feeling try brush comes back ive thought killing many times every day thought makes way across mind try understand im cant many things happened past parents lying divorce birth never real care always lie dont know im typing appreciate someone read look doubt im scattered everywhere im sorry want end constant feeling unknown hurt despair cant grasp emotions dont understand much ill leave music recommendation wondering yall recommend music rock mainly listen older country even though newer stuff gothic country anybody listens welp good right everyone two days im turning longer say im teenager wan na say thank everyone supported needed guys awesome hope go great things love yall guys im kinda trapped antidepressants drug dependence dependence addiction different zoloft make addicted make high describe wearing glasses world people decent vision live somewhat normally well years line find better really need meds anymore try go without never quit anti depressants cold turkey got weird intermittent feelings high almost brain electrocuted every seconds eventually feeling intensify feels explosions sparks inside skull emotions become really fucked anxiety becomes significantly unbearable become nastier everybody around almost paranoia symptoms drug withdrawal expect take zoloft pill goes back normal crazy really thats whats fucked three things say spalding gray certainly marched beat drummer never loss words obviously felt watching listening interested every aspect life experiences thoughts matter trivial timesbr br us quite far wall us interested sharing minute parts others even oneonone small groups let alone stagebr br make lessinteresting watch listen erudite unusual man seeing one performances reflection find many articulate musings perhaps relevant lives thoughts may first thoughtbr br granted new yorkavantgarde type personality undeniably bit strange maintain describing someone new york strange unnecessarily redundantbr br give talent presents genre specialty people depressedsuicidal long time come side shouldnt kill myselfits almost ten years constant agony ten years suicidal ideations past month every day gotten little bit worse tethers life little bit looser shouldnt give really worth endless suffering reason im alive dont hurt ones love line two sides selfishness sure might selfish kill put others immense pain selfish others force suffer dont feel bad acceptable give ampnbsp people encounter cant quite understand im going typically use metaphor maybe relate imagine headache headache never goes away sure sometimes might feel bit better sometimes bit worse every second every day headache try aspirin doesnt work try meds avail visit doctor doctor one seem help try homeopathic remedies meditation try adjusting various aspects life nothing rid headache often extremely hard deal feel much pain cant anything stop want end way advice friends give try headache change pain affects act around people people perceive friends start push away constant pain bringing everybody want voluntarily spend time someone inherently depressing somehow fact people leaving side makes headache worse makes much harder deal push ten years pass relief progress pain think ending life end suffering cant cant bear hurt parents siblings close friends remain stuck suffer endlessly hope sight rock bottom wan na give throw ome whole year sobriety away worth trying stay strong anymore feel nothing idiot assholei chipped tooth got bruises face tried hang belt thing even think going motions even thinking stuff end kind acknowledgement first thing remember getting tingly blacking random images flashing started focus happened realized lying floor tried kill know poor something unconsciously smacked face something calmed enough bathroom see happened saw bruise chin knot forehead fished around mouth hurting found chunk tooth made feel shit friend helping promised got bad talk even ask help got point give sort final word anything feel asshole tea tastes weird redbull yucky think majority world corruption china entire country government dont understand blame corruption people china little bad things cause corrupt china corruption originated government take example tiananmen square massacre know happened event well guess people protesting voice government guess government decided put stop protests killing people people saying saying assassinate xi saying declare war china saying tell china stop corrupt things yes anddo forget thing china torturing uighur via rape key tactic really wan na knowi need easy way kill know every way painful mayb easiest one anybody really last string cant handle anymore nobody talk turn u talking bullshit stop pessimistic life better oh really hoping gets better see nothing people allowed date deal crushes secretly going option redflag noteim going kill want everybody know abused shitty life tried hide long time tried entertain people clown everytime tried make people laugh people spitted face kept smiling cant stand living anymore everytime breathe hurts end must end goodbye online school online school ridiculous really hate lie think school become much harder teachers keep putting work work work questions take day answered someone asks tones questions killing grades sadly nothing send love hope issues im fucking lost life literally shit barely anything anymore except lay bed day sleeping listening music sometimes go drive theres barely anywhere go literally lost motivation guys make list good games free steamepic games store anything parents buy video games waste money spend time laptop support games think play games please help im losing mind locked covid uhenwa challenge uhenwa challenge challenge challenge challenge begins march kill reaper leviathian make base crash zone kill reaper leviathan ill go dunes accept challenge think dying best option posted radvice recommended post explain sorry rambley im sixteen year old girl past year things going well put little effort school classes effectively ruined chances going dream universities toxic relationship always gaslighting kinda emotionally abusive months ago broke starting dating someone weeks really hurt lost many friends isolated one specifically caught feelings person hate many people school theyre stuckup assholes feel disappointment everyone always kind person got shit done determined hardworking best friend told seemed shit together used bullied years ago deal family problems past years even though sucked feel bad lately exist really contribute anything anyone think dead simple worries anymore worry everything anything change im chained bed want work know never going good enough feel friends better without ive reached breaking point care anything keep making plans promises know never keep cry much multiple times day sometimes even know im crying feels nice im worried tell parents think realize bad angry easily snappy know guess im sick alive see point someone give something look forward please logically know better everyone keeps telling hard believe feels things better worse true gets better im exception rule someone help calm downim considering redflag im high school getting bullied havent go school month nowi dont well clasmate kept contact best friend troublesome child long time thing calm animemoviegame online friendi always express feeling online dont snap make dickmy online friend fed decide itll fun pick mei cut contact cross lineits people group chat peopel actually support methe first one becoming busy collage rarely online help bullied cuntim dick classmate something end blocking always end oki talk longer people talk without consequences irl daily lifeusually dick always dick use nice keep mind redflagbut cut contact find hard find new people open fast gon na think im creppy ran awaylittle chat always keep mind redflag bc im loner someone talk fun want anything want little chat thats ask daily keep kind redflag go day want see film guns blood sex shouting angry people hero bad guys girls even clumsy love words want see film every shot meaning love one must see film ive waiting film life go sleep early still oversleep ill wake keep falling back asleepi slept hours last night fuck needs hours sleep hate sleep much advice needed moving redflag attempti tried hanging two days ago interrupted someone knocked door turned mailman took sign life turn around live im back depressed anxious abused mentally physically sexually father made awful mistakes regret haunted trauma shame plagued mental illness know drill snapped two days ago best friend didnt seem care wanted kill think friends insulted disappoints hanging kate spade doorknob scarf seemed difficult slower expected less hope actually choose scarier method jumping im pretty sure able anyone advice moving redflag attempt never girlfriend today accepted fact never girlfriend im im bullied front girls girls bullied front parents gave finally decidedtoday emptying apartment salvation army coming whatever want tomorrow cats going sanctuary find new homes thursday ill say goodbyes friday help parents need help feel swaddled parents necessarily spoiled lot things want able stuff self parents really let happen thinking hanging friends know big rona hit kinda cant advice helpful hopelessevery time talk one person feelings always says well got ta better stop feeling bad makes feel worse hearing obvious statements course need better stop feeling bad cant suddenly stop brain giving negative thoughts yesterday told one wants hear problems willing listen part family told know therapist help right depression panic disorder keep finding pros considering redflag rather cons think therapist help recently went hospitalization program feel better came home start thinking redflag best right swallow bunch xanax knock little bit think might set datenever used understand posts saying theyd set date kill think now tried old going bridge jump thing earlier collapsed wept floor even got railings plus motorway bridge didnt want hurt anyone think im going make plan proper research find way end set date maybe write notes theres end panic attacks intrusive thoughts wont go away matter hard try miss old voices new ones arent nice world unkind think sooner better hey guys music genre might called japanese city pop funk really give listen youd fantasies never realyou see movie think yourselfdamn wish person life full meaning adventure look real world see nothing empty boring life within boys girls depressed depression let tell currently going sever depression force everyday bed shave beard fight happiness fight inner peace fight want fight dreams boys girls stay strong infact strong handle illness lot ppl killed powerful enough live pain need build strength recovery annoyanceim right gon na days im usually happy days im starting think life good anymore bullied young time troubles keeping friends moved quite lot never got permanent friends usually lot new schools friends time left started eating less less never got treatment parents saw happy child times money type therapy mostly alone im friends usually talk even ignore times library trying enjoy studying studying useless sat came sat schools let made currently parents lenient sometimes way title annoyance yes love feel times bothering randomly talk square face height short apparently world im cm rn good sat score practically useless good college parents lenient asians know thoughts redflag little feels everyday im hearing redflag know feel alone feeling suicidal getting thoughts literally worse person exist sucks traits people want bad acnei overweighti stained yellow teeth worse grades literally failing everythingi literally bad everything even failed attempts one knows went school normally next day friends tell fine funny istg fucking annoyed literally opposite literally destined succeed praying every night die sleep safety net literally dk myselfokay rant lol pain hell think redflag dailywondering long left want jump window shouldnt die couldnt give damn life hell want die cant freaking understand havent reach sixteenth birthday yet waste die young life everyone want great life family well parents sister love even though part drives depression care cant give back anything instead angry acting cant share feeling anyone fine fucking gon na listen cant explain anyway classmates thinks im smart straight student top class dont seem struggle academically wise looks though outside fine potential successful running coach teachers school supportive mental well everything seems going way yet struggle motivated anything im getting fatter mood fluctuate crazy freaking antidepressant makes even depress life absurd anyway sometimes cant even understand people wants live lives boring meaningless one talk feeling suicidal honestly freak haha funny im fucking useless know either dead years monk former sounds realistic dont aspire monk probably work guess yeah pushing freaking hard study either kill fancy car become monk interesting life pretty severe suicidal ideation think im even depressedpretty much every night past week ive falling asleep think killing even feel depressed right now ive always depressed suicidal thoughts along lines wish exist always thought redflag abstract almost never something id actually feel maybe ive normalizing redflag mind past years tonight managed knock cup nightstand asleep threw towel tried go back bed ideations hit hard af seriously thought driving walmart buying gta utility knife cutting wristslt almost crying wanted die bad kind want buy one sit bathroom think maybe seriousness situation dissuade know stress school honestly day almost feel happy content least put pressure semester hard think unrealistic huge problem set due class tomorrow probably worth grade thats half done im still live home quit job go back school full time ive given permission kill things work school time feel last chance know job essentially money insurance think therapist option im college student theres schools counselling services im honestly afraid talk know theyll react say honestly im sure point thread really ended rambling nothing ampxb guess anyone advice talk felt alright day overwhelmed night reason im killing tonight husbands business go underive accepted everyone cares better without think husband hard time continuing business incredibly debt thats fair plan getting life insurance soon move please give reason livebut genuine reason make want bed want something worth living please cant believe tomorrow halloween crayz crayz im gon na put razor blades snickers super bored rn pm chat hey im yearold girl live la super bored right craving human contact im talking books movies myselffavorite topic whatever going really sandwiches pm bored well idk play reddit numbers game want nothings really table im talking pretty much anything ill probably take post soon probably take post soon one see hopeless pointless life isno one cares friends bully abuse cant girlfriend im ugly sin people skills hate major school ill probably hate job cant change parents tell im feeling sorry stop lazy piece shit thing brings slightest bit joy games despite much time spend still suck cant anything right world probably better place without even save oxygen worst thing im much coward even kill cant even right even bother anyone wan na nsf w buddies im boreddd tbh think betterive lurked reddit now often looking threads hit low point bring back yeah ill admit really helped twice probably even saved life im tired tired cliched comments samey advice gets flung around really isnt point fucking life siblings surviving parents loved ones leave behind hurt career chose excruciatingly boring one handed notice weird thing im feeling im low point moment actually feel really bloody good better years fact knowing swift departure world almost negative effect mean barley even internet presence gods sake reddit lurker say cheers cant exactly say ive enjoyed time although going endeavour make last day enjoyable one maybe ill one last pint goodluck everybody hope find purpose life want post rtrans bc want sister see sorry little sister mtf transgender closet family conservative homophobic coming dangerous lately becoming depressed bc really scared mental health worsen become suicidal already saying motivation wants everything end support idea help think want go therapy parents expect perfect child want ask therapy concern know difficult situation give advice especially none know details advice really appreciate want okay advice trans sister anyone want level world warcraft dm comment im forming leveling group world warcraft anyone want chat im bored anyone pm thanks many people seen using obama username hail obama prism want physics assignment difficult cant focus almost wake early im scared ill oversleep tho hahah area expertise please go raskdrugs helpedit area expertise sorry ugly seems pretty cool honestly idk say constructive dear liberals pee sticky white composed song called vitamin think electronic style tell think httpsyoutubebjnnmmchttpsyoutubebjnnmmc sixteenth birthday tomorrow im still alivei wish die didnt want live point shouldve year ago dead im still hurts saw minimovie first aired loved itit kinda funny see far people go moneyits funny see much boyfriend whipped whipped enough kill think cast great especially character kristinwithout smooth talkingand deceptive looks movie samebr br never use watch usa one stationsbr br hits spoon im spoon stupid fucking liberals commenting pog anti pog post fucking hate stupid libsharta dumb words god damn hate blue haired libs cant work want dieim finished high school year free year start college work lame home nothing year borderline personality disorder case already work scariest thing im level im getting panic attack whenever want apply job want think year actually found job weeks ago worked single day felt bad bored tried kill hospital last week thats kinda fired obvious reasons im meds im therapy nothing helps need job cant social anxiety high cant even walk street anymore plus panic thing mentioned today wanted ask lady bookstore job opportunity bookstore sounds calm thought work door felt panicked anxious turned back come home immediately first time im scared want work way redflag want make hospital got ta sure real time come share beauty ngl flamethrower might solve problems due assignments burn em dumbfuck mosquitoes annoying burn em spending wasting wayy much time mobile time burn annoying siblings ill intimidating af w flamethrower bored flamethrower wasted whole life nothing playing mobile games day sitting couch day already years old still even job yet truly sad pathetic parents actually trying threaten job kick house right graduate high school year left graduate honestly care parents anymore want kick end life never really cared wanted live guts kill waiting patiently parents help end pain planning end life right graduate chronic procrastination affected life many ways affected physical health hygiene relationship family school grades mental health struggled chronic procrastination elementary school really know wrong past based research sure struggling chronic procrastination adhd reason struggle chronic procrastination chronic procrastination pretty much took away happiness gave nothing self hatred hate hate way today truly want change bad habits difficult even something simple brushing teeth everyday shows pathetic much mistake tried change bad habits past drug addict eventually relapsed back old bad habits trying change bad habits feels asking person smoking addiction stop smoking completely difficult change fact change bad habits matter hard try makes feel maybe end life end disappointing family maybe born fail life never succeed longer see confidence see point trying anymore nowadays let chronic procrastination destroy life everyday life pretty much playing mobile games day sitting couch honestly stand thing everyday know even tried changing going fail anyway weight increasing every month due lack exercise really care hoping heart attack kill dental health looking good either really care today waiting death thinking end next year wish sleep forever escape reality know possible year difficult sometimes cry night amount pain going tired pretending ok front parents really idea much pain going long suffered pain argue yell worse feel think past memories hate playing mobile games day coping mechanism helps escape reality helps distract brain pain everyday act nothing wrong hiding really well hiding emotions distractions deserve everything happening hope covid nd time hopefully end time done life year left live isolated gay loser aslyum seekeri barbados male gay illegal gays highly persecuted country work live protection run risk imprisonment basic education unemplyed years isolation fear persectution come knowng qualifications worsen living fear persecuted finally considered idea becoming refugee seeking resettlement asylum us sweden germany helped thankful edit hope receive asylum protected pursue ambitions burden anyone may pissibly refugee country severly persecuting fear protection persecuted groups within country ofers protection laws homosexuality enough still find anywhere start cant find anyone willing help immigrate safe country apply asylum find application resttlement asylum migrating te country embassy wil even make neet dont think ill find asylum find think way chat brother earlier today took wind sails talked work notredflag glad feel never amount ismy parents wildly successful ambitious never proud despite academic achievements growing staying trouble second person graduate college family among things never gotten recognition brother serves intermediary relays lot cares one family proud much successful got wife good shape got shit figured feels fucking sailing direction holes hull flag recognized really trying damn difficult tired feeling way failure never achieve brother parents done tired worn feeling wayi know hell life despite best efforts worn encourage everyone listen album circles least onceto make relevant story suicidal broken defeated man coming peace situation theres maybe actual rap songs non hip hop fans promise promise promise worth ears find helps rough days times even moment hear someone similar thoughts ill leave favorite line entire album dont keep head place know nobody see youre running low regret tears thats keeping wet think youre getting now day mac miller recap business usual louches casino tanger casino close prepares big transaction next day owner louche staff leave night leaving modesty charge suddenly troop armed gangsters storm casino shooting wildly unknown modesty already killed louche money hidden vault one present still alive casino knows code open vault vault heavily booby trapped explosives assailants cant blow door planned suddenly modesty finds eye eye gangsters leader miklos game roulette lives jeopardybr br comments review written connection published media modesty blaise neither seen read first point make slightly wrongfully classified foremost thought thriller battle wits modesty miklos main plot sure bursts action really integral important part storybr br already mentioned main plot main suspensefilled scene game modesty miklos innovative intriguing way revealing background character much story takes place outside casino much earlier time someone said almost pilot tvseries feeling might indeed used felt much better way introduce character many done way disappointed lack action instead enjoyed game history much simple action moviebr br think two main stars alexandra staden nikolaj coasterwaldau well staden especially portrays modesty well really carries confident talented characterbr br darkness darkness im swimming alone pool darkness feel darkness slowly pulling yell help one hear begin see water eye level kick flail fighting stay darkness darkness let go hold slowly begin give feeling lies water line waters starts fill lungs lungs held much life yet allow murky water replace know path lead happiness someone grab hand pull darknesss grasp one knows stand boundary boundary light dark give thing holds strength courage held heart cant save water slowly slip world conscientiousness undetected occupants world want fight anymore ive given darkness feels inevitablehi first time posting reddit dont really know begin im sixteen didnt think id make far dont deserve alive im burden everybody feel monster ive selfharming now two years people progressed time went started cuts barely leaving mark ive got nasty purple raised scars mums told ive ruined body already ruined find agreeing im walking trigger warning fair others theyre exposed scars theyd better seeing burn feels pathetic hurts though suppose job used take lots overdoses never tell anyone nothing happened never even passed attempted redflag back march hadnt planned deep knew wasnt going work hospital five days discharged attentionseeking stunt part ruined things family friends selfish know hoping things might better might got support attempt counselling year depression anxiety selfharm month got referred somewhere restrictive eating disorder im honest eating helped many ways id stopped selfharming starting feel positive put meal plan told hospital healthy weight meal plan month followed almost problems started overexercising abusing laxatives time didnt lose weight though thought everything fine mum hated meal plan acted though toughest part day plan eat stopped shed say wasnt eating enough exercising much call names shed make eat lots night lead bingeing gained stone lowest weight started purging october life consisted nothing eating lots unhealthy foods getting rid noone noticed six months mum called cleaning toilet properly told psychiatrist support worker werent particularly concerned refused weighed im fluoexetine moment hasnt helped greatly caused extremely vivid dreams manic episodes manic episodes included giving address public forum asking someone help run away trying solicit pills alcohol take overdose shoplifting razor blades think able smaller amounts reckless things id able energy take mind things instead gon na end killing problems lie within mainly appearance pretty personality wouldnt matter much unfortunately redeeming qualities im rotten person inside thats feel inevitable im going kill plan now didnt believe work start starving unlikely control almost definitely work im allowing time see lose weight either things better things remain certain way gon na soon exams another week ill see restrict intake lose weight ill go shops unsupervised live middle nowhere within walking distance point one last thing need im bored life depressed teenager isnt tragically beautiful unless beautiful sad lonely dont want feel anymore much help please dont know guys happens fail band freshman year high school scared right know work grade said busy film complete keeping one continuously interested flashbacks childhood growing bizarre father interspersing tails serial murder one simply go wrong plot story essence film entertaining sort story director bill paxton much case really lot itbr br beginning end kept anticipating happening film going creativity behind story first class felt film exquisitely done start finish one rare gems seemed without boring lulls action flowing neatly quickly tightly one scene next br br demonstrates far people go horrible things loved ones acts evil name god disillusioned case sometimes interesting twists takes concept morality wholebr br overall sort film one easily overlooks recommend likewise check film much worth time nights saga story heart crushed friend mine told post story sorry spelling mistakes im brazil ok everyone m going talk story v v f classmate start developed crush big coward nothing guess started crush best friend received role bff accepted better nothing time goes best friend hates previous fights stuff continued still friendzone ended finally giving crush anymore knew time going come time flies beginning stll kissed one went party friends end need open parathensis talk cousin p m cousin practically brother p total opposite popular ladies athletic one day talking v school suddenly asks kiss cousin responded pissed asks cant tell school right say cousin accepts clear going mad respects bff parathensis lets talk first night night went kind night club friends score chicks night goes kiss girls king night lol really happy talking friend mine suddenly says yo look v p corner turn around kissing lot see turn around go straight bathroom sad dissapointed values friendship much something hurt p kind knew liked something hurt lost thoughts bathroom friend called come back party go back v comes straight asking mad say yes apologizes asks mad confess crush justify angriness said tell remember made really clear mad hooked p parents told cant fight family girls really angry dissapointed really first night hope still shot second night time kind street party carnival brazil got dangerous robberies group split guys one shopping including cousin p girls one eating suddenly v calls party completely wasted even stand normally calls says hey really need please come need think well time come tells everyone going gather hall building talk tell come go together house says ok arrives proceeds grab p tries forcingly kiss p remembers want happen turns head away avoiding kiss immediately wtf still continue go building arriving p sits bench v comes tries forcefully kiss p leans head way back avoid confused really pissed tell p getting fuck outta home v calls tell fuck want talk insists accept call starts talk drunk want fool go soft forgive third final night night chaos p went birthday party friend v course got kind drunk already pissed v drunk really annoying party goes circle talking friend mine whose name f side v comes says f oh p funny everyone chocked look look obviously ignore clearly drunk night goes ride coming now p side v proceeds say exact words oh p really need kiss right lets go please p hesistant still gets carried hand watch go dark corner completely devastated stomach starts hurt dizzy friends even vs best friend started say nice things worst part full minutes corner p gets car complete akward silence way home friday next monday v comes apologizing acnoledges mistake gives ultimatum tired situation let pass let kiss p try forget orr talk anymore forget feelings course go second option stand watching together go away quaratine came still forgot six months text see forgot tell hard apologizes fellas indeed hitting girls truly unforgettable friends mine tell stop little bitch forget already move people understand side considering calling ending previous deal guys think whole story saved bellalmost something stupid coincidentally old old ex called blue right bout go across wrist saved phone call honestly urge call text somone save life productive im drunk ive putting school work almost year drank shots rum closet pounded worksheets essay overdue normal im kinda scared wan na become alcholic wasted big dealim probably never gon na pre order thank coming ted talk least one person really gettin tiddy sucked rn god wish joseph joestar fucker want something big start huge project long time ive wanted something big ideas help serious scene movie scene lets know film pulling many cheap punches takes place crowded train station protagonists ambushed assassins automatic weapons make break manage hail gunfire main hall train station filled corpses innocent people caught crossfire call sad andor grim put supposed enjoyable action flick call honesty action movies tend lean toward safe side showing violence plot elements mostly means spite massive shootouts innocent people tend die least see die violence purely good guys versus bad guys mainly bad guys dying bit common sense clearly shows absurdbr br renny harlin showed hint first sadly hit die hard villains intentionally crash plane full people point across scene filmed backup scene cargo plane people onboard going grimmer probably realistic scenario ended used fit spirit first film die hard mostly fun action movie grimmer convincing edge pervasive violence bloody one liners hilarious certain style echoes natural human sarcasm clichd film wisecracks key moments action plot packed malicious intent action films villain rogue revenge mad grab power less ridiculous frightening recent films bourne trilogy almost gets less cheesy usual action film style film years bourne identity matt damon made big screenbr br another interesting aspect main hero actually heroine well movie version tomb raider became hit whats heroine genuinely looks take john mcclane take still lit cigarette movie marks geena daviss second actionheroine role still manage score hit angelina jolie stars tomb raider years later scores hit reasons beyond completelybr br lastly movie dark edged many outrageous spectacular set pieces one see action film climatic explosion chemical bomb absolutely spectacular display movie pyrotechnics one law physics taking convenient break thus formula antiformula everyday hollywood action movie formula br br bscdb classification violence profanity best place think ask need help finding good edgy anime profile pictures guys help thatd great anime profiles general excepted anyone needs know look amazing smile love okay please give even think one loves love even know well know amazing person whos going really rough patch know caring person puts others happiness know faking happy make sure one worries selfless person faking happy faking long cant keep anymore love much whole world heaps people think cared worlds shatter lives never give please give better promise time even thought killing pushed glad life got better happiest life may seem never going better promise promise going glad give thought remind love okay thoughtsim narcissistic toxic abusive obviously choice probably aware im continue know probably better help tried killing way easier understand people sad really care besides experience anyway whatever fact id dead really face consequences anything quit know shitty late eighties early nineties decline death independent video companies vestron media effectively shut italian horror films much american audience coincidently italian genre films declined quality profitabilitybr br occasionally movies primal rage sequels beyond door iii troll dario argento films limped onto video remained unreleased dvd us nearly decade longer movies lost years became sought talked among horror fansbr br films cat brain probably one hyped due legions lucio fulci fans fact directed starred idol fulci himselfbr br though quite fulcis best still better later efforts rabid fanbase probably love italian horror giallo aficionados might enjoy depending tastes im sure anyone people watch hollywood stuff might want take word many glowing reviews herebr br one thing personally found fascinating scenes featuring probably benito mussolinis lasting contribution italy cinecitta studios name instantly recognizable fan italian movies saw imagine looked please talk mewhy wont anyone talk wont anyone talk wont anyone talk wont anyone talk ayyy finally getting notifications reddit time missed dms taking hours respond comments lmao tf manage fuck something simple notifications today supposed daythis morning called work drove hours away home life least way one know one find sat car paddock middle nowhere couple hours spiralling thoughts id made mind happenstance car happened drive past driver approached make sure okay innocuous unremarkable dont know whether spooked might found early enough circuit breaker delay inevitable im home now didnt think id disconcerting thoughts havent stopped need make night life ended long time agoim posting im part done living life nothing offer never first im going describe turned talking someone know front im years old mediumbrown skinned female short small nose jutted jaw thin lips sunken eyes metal hip cataracts face looks flat side people called retard syndrome might actually something wrong genetically ive always poor muscle tone im ugly top im probably narcissist schizoid affective disorder hospitalized medical mental institutions times assaulted one mental institutions never stopped thinking committing redflag think every single day done early teens almost successful back worst day entire world died least one person earth compatible several people said dont nobody want right even guy married divorced anything much money spend cant think one family member ive close im burden number always around five less life ive pushed people whose job provide services now even people want job whats left sooner im outta less burden better world im strong lifeim done done family butler done anxious around people done lonely lot things wanted life guess weird kill whatever im tried bullshit want anymore call weak tell part life ups downs ups negative want live hell goodbye loneliness hello suffered loneliness isolation basically life traumatic childhood bullied suffered severe discrimination think contributed lot seems something never times friends live alone well distance study literally totally alone two sort friends right now one good friend many things happened bad held onto friends friend roomate met moved months ago best friends know feel really alone live minutes away whenever go walking never ask even though already said come text often takes forever reply usually gives short replies basically never texts first whenever ask something often invites along never really tough know people know might alone still chose excludeignore claim friends know overreacting really mean example today went walking together asked along really hurts feel lonely feel matter try cant people around cold disinterested say around people hard connect life story often feel trapped loneliness think lot comes mother always telling loneliness child making feel responsible carrying around parentified child ignored child try make contacts good tough als looking trauma therapy nothing works feel trying life become severely physically ill due well abused child mentally physically mother stepfather grew european country father foreigner look nonlocal put way hell child felt misunderstood developed behaviours offputting others due abuse think judged much harsher bias people claim friends reaching let sink kill thinking lot pretend sad lies think stop seeing friends really pulls alone really cant take rejection anymore think really seem interested knowing take shit sit make sure motivated song httpsyoutubefxctzceva im deleting posts gon na take go take look made throw times im sitting blood vomiti cant control cant afford help kind accept kind life every day hurts destroys body gets cuts ruins everything life cant stop want bring girlfriend want burden anything sometimes wish find someone better feel bad slitting throat really need someone talk toim nervous posting dunno hour night long history trauma mental illness therapy need someone talk right httpwwwredditcommessagecomposetosadthrowaway easy slit wriststhis past month shit show one dont want anymore cant anymore ex thinks rule life fall every fucking time hits bites acts okay got fight pulled razor cut deep freaked called im surprised didnt put hold probably psych ward right always make things worse come knowing say game head hurts sooo bad hitting dont least gave razors back easily many people care know cant care anymore shit fucking ridiculous dont fucking purpose find fucking purpose sure hell dont even basic ones able fucking reproduce fuck fuck feeling fuck everything well entirely dishes still extent delivery spots talking general tasting food ranges uh okay best wow feel stupid eating gave satisfaction wasted money healthinterestingly body seems foods eat health preference reasons milk products absolutely anything milk usually liking eating using gluten lactose pills help sometimes worst bloaty stomach recently getting even id eat something really milky meat pounds weight stay without meat feel satisfied sweets favorite thing make sandwich chocolate paste banana dark rye bread people surprised speed eat sweets lol rarely satisfy unless good portion good knowing size catch often type food product used absolutely tastes nothing think thing loosing mood eat well grandfather inherited lot body issues snob guess complex village bumpkin used village third world country city bumpkin area advanced country possibly go back soon food tastes kind ruins mood feel snob life great cant stay alivei wan na die bad hate hate alone ill always alone im trans one love job hell work ex friend hurt really badly everyone gets hurt never face consequences tonight refilled scripts propanol new job starting days got nominated prestigious scholarship im getting top grades cant throw away fuck want loved cant need die sub less active guess american teens reddit want healthy amounts sleep cant blame deja vuception feeling false remembered really weird unless fill place automod kill ill tell little thing shit ton deja vus dying roomfor last years ive motivation m suffer lot physical things undiagnosed know family history feel motivation change life throughout years ive opportunities change life never motivation go end either lack fear lack support network etc stopped im supposed prime life nothing show due person search socialization encounter people hate even though hate weird inferiority complex niche interests people encounter people know sure think less dont know word properly people cant stand due person better thats settle unfortunately ive thinking killing years now maybe ive state mind method redflag still process gun go way things reality might hang belt process getting better know life really better wouldve now think fate im fated end way things way go bang might die room bourne ultimatum jason bourne matt damon best role newest spy kid block brings quest identity close seeks end cias latest program blackbriar make super assassins himselfbr br psyched one watched predecessors yesterday today identity brilliant recall supremacy remains weak still enjoyable link chain weakest plot aside car chase films chase easily tops slight lacking action suspensebr br hoo boy ultimatum suspense even know bourne escape authorities boy films spotlight police inept still brilliant watching mindboggling think two guys handguns mopeds create x suspense anything million giant robots transformersbr br chalk paul greengrass idiosyncratic style shooting stedicam la documentary even though hes filming characters far ordinary places cia headquarters one within miles allowed camcorder seemed listen various complaints supremacy action ultimatum nothing less aweinspiring various implements used weapons candlestick hardcover book ill never look way electric fan dont ask music helped generate much suspense hardly moment nailbite overbr br acting good evolution julia stiles character nicky put situation new highly sympathetic light damon plays signature role reserve competency sounds minor genuinely looks matt damon evade cia interpol something noticeable moments poignancy still struggles find humanity longing real life boring almost supremacy works better ultimatum better script br br reminded scene goldeneye good pierce brosnan bond film sean beans character asks james martinis silence screams men hes killed bourne regrets people killed considers least made consider meaning action without purpose life without meaning government transformed men resources albeit resources know krav maga make weapons anythingbr br sidenote always bothered despite superspy hunted cia interpol police nearly anywhere goes bourne never thought make even smallest attempts disguise features forge new passports sunglasses maybe br br pulse love action movies bourne ultimatum hell probably best action film come year course fool see without watching others first kind drags touch near end almost feel tempted overlook first movie summer least match exceed original saying somethingbr br people reddit love making gay people mad remember gay people respectdont respect meme makin rounds people ok people gay long dont shove face aka go back closet coz even tho vast majority people cant go day without seeing multiple expressions heterosexuality public forms media etc lives constantly affected heteronormativity theyre making gay personality trait talk sometimes yeah anyway im goin store yall want looked mirror tidy dayimproved sometimes click profile see real mf posting whatever goat im pretty sure ive seen videos climbing people pissing pay hot damn anyone us preferably wan na chat im bored stuck traffic bit dm interested wouldnt funny killed day birthday redflag prevention weekmight feeling casually suicidal nothing helpingthis started happening wednesday afternoon particularly feel trying kill wan na dissappear wan na asleep unconscious day theres literally nothing wan na anyone used write lot felt shit even working anymore theres one write reddit stupid someone end please okay itll days anyone even finds checks dont want fix hard shit made overview really dont dont good personality im funny im skinny af really dont heres thing fully realizing hate thought hating fix im starting working eating better friend thats going help think biggest thing personality another person definitely wouldnt friends want nicer funnier seen guy people talk around dont really know change tbh feel im asshole half time annoy people whenever say anything even annoyed talk really need fix anyone knows please say something need change left mehe walked door never come back numb entire world come crashing spent years love hes gone survive cant shake feeling im incapable working normal personi really happy kid know happened sophomore year high school suddenly wanted die work im depression basically never stopped ive spent last years going pretty bad community college parttime usually without even job still well classes found today managed fail classes semester know im ive spent time trying engineering degree absolutely hate classes know options life im exhausted kids big brother say easy things hard know young joking said stuff time may internalized want way yes im meds pills every day yes see therapist good although years ive put seemingly every available medication feel really done anything previous prescriber said complicated client feel alone cant comfortably open family friends high school friends careers real lives ive tried reaching im embarrassed ruins every interaction actually made post subreddit years ago got dumbass telling ged already said college mean lot reply someone actually read post reviewing random things every day boyfriend day day ok listen may may missed past days thats ok cos none seen posts honestly know fuck going ill continue post ok today im reviewing quarantine basically already quarantined months march september honestly worst thing happened actually getting sick course might quarantine days friend honestly annoying basically lot anxiety started gcses im really uptight person missing school last thing need right now friend keeps telling quarantine great nothing im well good doesnt care school coz even school feel im falling behind im rly im considered one smart people anxiety levels absolutely roof wont allow appreciate fact im literally ahead subjects whatever probably made sense ok needed vent second ya know well overall score quarantine still even though hate coz fucking important people dont quarantine symptoms fucking suck anyways hope lovely day guys lt damaged goods worthless aloneive dealing depression young teenager ive victim sexual child abuse well bullying domestic abuse got older now academic probation second college every november birthday month past two years depressed become afraid go real world stay locked bedroom two months play video games hours browse internet anything keep mind reality really easy stay alone although currently live mom enemies comes home work say word unless criticise demean kicked gotten knocked guy using let back forcing abort traumatic experience went therapy years help guilt try repair relationship mom never came ordeal graduated high school accepted four year college cosign bank loans time years later ive gotten married divorced hired fired dropped reapplied better going school social mom started arguing time either dog called cops hes lb pomeranian friendliest dog meet smoking weed kid ive suffering awful migraines every day life wake mins theyll usually go away alright day days makes whole body ache cant leave bed im incredibly irritable smoking marijuana alleviates matter mother though went behind back legally evicted cant kick full time student street ny bitter argument one weekend left spend weeks state best friends family six weeks visiting id asking friends theyd let crash couch dog couple weeks tried find work better living situation new friend eagerly welcomed home kicked week later accustomed privacy suddenly became burden legally got way back mothers place eviction come days ive even stressed depressed now ive struggling find simple clerical work past two years less two months find work save gtfotbh every night lay bed tell itll easier kill ive way years old think helped times really feel worth anything im dating someone claims care hours comments karma gw pics tldr probably read anyway long know never good enough anything time dieafter several months unemployment found job today ive realized im good enough past entry level career tomorrow im quitting job killing nothing life live except career im stupid past first level absolutely nothing look forward life time end atrocity im sick unmitigated failure yes successful corpse people whos crushes said yes relationship going im genuinely curious im pissed im insecure cant even look body clothes everyone around hates impossible even try make new friends im shit wan na kms hate fuck super straight fucking parade show fucking opressed yall fucking shut cant take bullshit use lgbss cause fucking agree made bullshit pls stop making victim fuck sake ive messed able graduate ive ruined life really know doive really fucked last semester pass classes degree job lined perfectly set life depression kicked hard really hard go class homework became exercise futility keep overwelming course lie parents telling oh looks little close going finals fine yeah im okay total bullshit graduation two weeks finals week approaching fast maybe deserve im shitty maybe deserve anything friends family happyness ive tried getting help ive going therapy taking meds two years everything try makes feel worse worse even know keep trying improve know help im done done school life know hell want want curl ball cry die see possible chance fixing ive dissapointed everyone love im much whimp kill sure hell want alive killing hassle hurt people id heartbeat know want run away run far away one find alone sad sorry pathetic self even know im posting vent know maybe someone something useless bitching want explain find peace world desire happiness want thoughts stop want stop emotions wanting pain happyness nothing want scared want find peace help boy problems teenager moment lol past three day two different boys asked gf pick one one doesnt sorry post dumb boy one funny talk hours opens etc im physically attracted feel super awkward tried anything sexual live half way across world boy two sweet understand gentle patient wont really open hes little bit boring sometimes im physically romantically attracted lives closer f u c change pringle guy character hate eugenics good idea sex suppressed state decide whether people permission pass genes lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipiscing elit sed eiusmod tempor incididunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua ut enim ad minim veniam quis nostrud exercitation ullamco laboris nisi ut aliquip ex ea commodo consequat duis aute irure dolor reprehenderit voluptate velit esse cillum dolore eu fugiat nulla pariatur excepteur sint occaecat cupidatat non proident sunt culpa qui officia deserunt mollit anim id est laborum love friends much appreciation post group project refer last postand difficulty help apologize group mates unexpectedly one started really mean melike really hurtful knowing project super upset cry told one friends really upset told worry comforted right away tried help bestfriendwho group saw bullied super confused asked im ok said still know project took piece paper wrote step step instructions send finished part im still thinking amazing friends theyre best friends ask deserve theyre best people planet someone talk asapim fucking mess im almost even start know im young theres lot live whatever please hear im adopted relationship real dad akward whatever typical black dad clue mom know shes addict somewhere cali adoptive family strange situation two loving parents make lot money dont really know parent kid three adoptive kids family slowly grown disfunctional shit load problems adhd lifelong depression bipolar disorder lot undiagnosed things idk explain super impulsive thought absolutely crazy killing someone ive never made plan come close anything near knowing mind mere second bothers shit never found genuine happiness life ive situations feel shouldve happy grateful cant feel scariest part think im going crazy im starting hear voices extreme mood swings crazy stuff making body feel braking bad used college offers basketball sophomore yearand im starter ive tried kill many times permanently fucked quality life huffing taking benadryl shit ton opioids brain isnt nearly used im going downhill junior high shit ton hydrocodone room dont see much stopping im sure something inside telling ask support cant tell parents ill locked facility last year please help something stupid house messi live one bedroom apartment cat foster mess dont cook bake anymore im never home wander city anything better going home confronted mess litter food water bowls keep cat happy bedroom littered clothes livingroom covered garbage whats quickest way end life without scarring someone mangled corpse lol idea anymore life feels facade used think money source happiness reaching financial goals feel lost tips find true self feel lost cant think fucking titlei hate fact cant good fucking anything everything anything important distinction saying wish win every fucking battle maybe win one every course im talking anything major serious absolutely nothing life important every stupid little fucking insignificant little problem encounter day day life specifically moment video games years old playing video games back young even remember parents tell always part life every day well depression got hand almost completely lost interest altogether life played games another free time thing thats got fucking worked much life ive wasted bullshit absolutely fucking terrible video games mean comparing others kind way mean struggle play pretty much anything easiest fucking difficulty matter genre matter specific game cant name one single game ive good now fucking pathetic even give shit mean anything effect anything life realistically whatsoever even bother worrying principle thing waste life hours upon hours time day day fucking thing remotely close hobby cant even fucking well cant anything well even fucking thing ive spent time throughout entire life talking thing matter anything anyway thats really point cant anything right suck even basic fucking shit everything suck im fucking terrible everything real skills anything relevant real world actually mean anything anyone little things cant even fucking shit well whats fucking point trying anything cant even things every god damn day well theres literally point trying make anything theres chance fucking every fucking step way reason alive absolutely nothing offer anyone theres reason person even fucking exist yet anyway sick twisted sadistic fucked reason society decided ok someone put take easy way im fucking sick tired worthless waste space hope changing im sick people giving fucking advice make better person whatever fuck flavor month bullshit want pretend actually fucking believe look give shit happens fail everything say id rather stop trying make anything happen years trying ive come conclusion life worthless meaningless theres reason im alive theres fucking plan theres fucking light ahead theres fucking reason anything change anyone thinks differently completely fucking delusional theyve level success life understand life someone whos never succeeded literally anything complete fuck hate world hate people hate hate alive hate expected hate everything hate pretend hate everything fucking want way give shit gets better give shit worst behind give shit nothing really gets fucking worse want dont want die want escapeim enrolled college graduate high school aa degree good college im class president class high school kids sats worry volunteer hours scholarship etc much chemistry professor doesnt teach teachings material youtube videos professors years ago failed quiz test next week understand material thats point prereq work im higher level courses wont able understand material fail hard im point keep going might graduate gpa feels miss right college even though idea want life need escape drugs dangerous shit playing xbox friends right now literally time girl class dont time relationship im sure neither adults life never say anyone unlucky believe everything happens life complete control failed chemistry quiz didnt reach tutor professor cant take dont know dog id reason kill id give dog love attention affection happy maybe eventually want dog seven mg seroquel sleeping pillsi seven mg seroquel sleeping pills beside bed know lethal dose im scared im really considering ingesting right now feel confused lonely know please anyone try persuade tempting competitive meme making examples using player player b competitors sets whichever person wins games win set posts uploaded memes subreddit many votes equate point total game game player points player b points game player b forth team game similar amount many player team tbd add three amount votes together score game ideas suggestions cool hear let know compete competitive meme making overdose plannedi know right sub wanted reason planned overdose goodbyes say now im sorry triggering explicit method hopeless chromosomes genitals swag smooth barbie doll question uhonkymommymilkers u got many coins moment text hi beat clingy bastard hope good night nothing much needed sleep midnight now wish everyone good night imposter impogster sus jdksjdjdhekehdidkdjj sosjsjjs im fucking lonely want diesorry huge wall text needed chest im almost severe social anxiety disorder depression body dysmorphia past years ive going various residential treatment centers familys fairly wealthy afford sorry seems pretentious want understand situation better right really social life bunch friends made treatment centers live across country life barely talked girls anxious therapeutic boarding school went year ago stupid dance allboys school another therapeutic school thats allgirls horribly anxious stood alone close friends almost entire dance attractive girl walked asked dance surprised anxious initially said friend made go ask dance danced talked amazing probably best experience life believe actually happening song finished wanted talk tolerate anxiety said end dance even went said goodbye realized fuck ive missing entire life thought disgusting hopeless id always single brought mind possibility saw pictures dance absolutely destroyed thought holy shit im ugly thought girl possible wanted dance kind body dysmorphia ramped full gear anyway fastfoward present im back home im going outpatient treatment center social life desperately want feel connection girl dance even actual inperson friends cant live longer im scared kill self access carbon monoxide gun anyway think anyone understands bad ive gotten im good talking girls people seem lot improved treatment really despite fancy treatment centers years im super skinny average average face got really gym year got sort decent shape stopped going regularly anxiety depression confusinghi yall hows quarantine life wan na share smth crushing heart pieces thought maybe vent ive met someone turned cup tea terms friendship goto matter happened always active sure good calming making feel wanted loved appreciated thought recently left twitter lpavatar social game communicated using twitter lp imvu imvus go already us play anymore ofc crushed ive surviving gave hope horrible life able make go back things used docalligraphy drawing clay lot left said wants go back school either yr next sy yr covid mom let capability online classes yet next yr probably said wants aim high high gpas succeed know im pressured want want family moms fine inspiration rlly cling hes one understood listened etc moms fine mental health part im sure understand meant fast forward tried opening upventing mutual acquaint us know cry things understood suicidal ideation told hang tight life cant anymorei scheduled kinda told blame still thankful force live horrible world time theres part feels maybe earlier planned one bother anyway hes gone now even mom still feel unwanted unloved irrelevant mom may feel sad know going better without plan ill deed next year gave year find reason live find least reason stay will now everything gray painful tiring want end pain im relevant others good happy family lot squads friends remembered time etc im sure need want free one pressure stay someone tell fine smth maybe someone remember even long time talking say hey remember okay tbh tiring always one remembering tiring unheard matter much reach someone postshare stuff atleast someone see etc im confused thank reading reached point hope yall great day benefits ms diagnosed multiple sclerosis september st yes lot negatives talk positives use walker people move way sometimes even open doors might able handicapped thing car actually kinda need one cus cant walk fast far lol gym class college cheaper something blame terrible memory general dumbness use school elevator people nicer people feel bad give hugs d people help lot im bad symptom day someone lunch chance educate people ms parents dont force chores walker seat sit anywhere want dont use stairs time cant remember lol disease immune system eats away protective covering nerves ms resulting nerve damage disrupts communication brain body omg nearly panic attack wtf guy joke put ume fucking joke fell omg thought got accused pedo nearly fucking panic attack moment moment remember friend tiktok curious go see multiple videos cutting mental breakdowns telling hundreds people traumatic stories didnt even know guess fault nosy goddamn really public f mei cant take life anymore everything falling apart nothing worst thing thats happening right brother arrested something horrible cant talk anybody still ongoing matter whole family torn apart mom wont even talk shes concerned im afraid shes going spend families money college fund feel selfish piece shit even worrying right now even found yesterday wanted kill ive wanting kill long time dont think anything matters anymore cant imagine feeling worse right now ive suicidal ive mental hospital twice raped ive suicidal ideation long time pretty much long remember even though family gave financial help always sad child molested starting age older boss restaurant worked went college raped guy thought really liked dumb think anyone im extremely fat ugly one even believe rape police made feel fault couldnt cope trauma rape dropped college started drinking heavily raped several times got bad situations know fault things got little better stopped drinking started going therapy happened brother see going horrible downward spiral dont think anything better dont think theres hope main support tired methis first time something im freshman college far home friends dealing depression anxiety long time started self harming years ago past months ive seriously considered redflag best friend always big support different states seen summer past week one worst weeks life hurt really badly began writing goodbye letters ready tried reaching always says wants respond guy reason last week mom came parents weekend really think wouldve done anyway friend big long talk happened know level feels terrible needed kept saying one point making things hard put much pressure im upset think thoughts often constantly feel burden shed better without hearing actually say stuff made almost impossible go days incident kind distant unwilling discuss happened feel alone empty know upset died im juts confused im working finding therapist colleges wellness center made feel worse knows reason ive open friend suicidal thoughts asked im quite sure im hoping posting want alive anymore im asking save reassuring im burden really enough long tendency answer hours stuff never bad never asked help best friend know without know wants anyone dealt something similar continue work friendship let go let go practically alone want feel tied know use advice guess right feel need end one deal anymore im going chocolate shop yall want filter filter filter filter filter filter filter anyone thisanyone start something think something kind slump sit nothing thinking whats point typical rantim guessing one read im ok lost husband longer loves refuses admit touched months want alone literally torturing words saying nothing wrong much debt know upset working im loser much pain time back hurts time anyway put plan action slow plan hoping one attribute ignorance rather plan sort took large dose acetaminophen couple days ago mg taking mg twice day way say pain know difference tylenol ibuprofen know slow going wait last minute say anything pain cant handle anymore tired pain want friends birthday friends birthday coming monday havent gotten anything yet likes twix skittles dont want im creative person idk give anyone want aroundmy family friends use girlfriend hate im cant normal people life fucking rehashed bullshit hurt fucking bad cant even anyone fucking talk day im tired begging friendship love respect fucking anything fucking feel empty time melt meltdown cant anything right probably cant even kill right im tired fucking lifetime even try still want fucking die fucking sucks wish ended long time ago wait everyone always wait wait wait fucking unfair hard awake feels impossible fall asleep now always feels minds voicethoughts constantly screaming maximum volume used constant tormenting thoughts new silence always feeling want go home safe especially mind update cuttertilldeathso update life going now original post months ago httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentslnoocuttertilldeath first statement ill start saying finally diagnosed major depressive disorder aswell severe anxiety might add update cut past months now used think killing everyday every morning wokeup something bad happened day went bed fell asleep night pray wakeup morning wanted pain suffering id gone world people life move act never one care everyones lives lot easier parents friendsif even call boyfriend ive multiple attempts aswell planned left redflag notes ready well see unfortunately im still alive update weeks ago jumped nd story bedroom window im okay though wanted die higher left ankles sprained everything fine depression medication wellbutrin xl working really well love anxiety medication klonopin fucking amazing feel calm piece surroundings tense anxious racing thoughts great d boyfriend brokeup im really well broke months ago great part hes still best closest friend emotional attachment anymore d communication mother anymore afraid stand upspeak assertiveness amp mindfullness key d ok drop one prestigious college country studying major biotechnology engineering lived alone without job nearly year eating nothing white rice sometimes nothing lost kg weight sometimes sleep came mom kicked home talked shit brothers want see anymore came grandma house actions let know nobody wants find job surf countless amounts memes eat much invite food sometimes eat anything maybe eat leftovers feel worthless piece shit unable find job got precious gf think deserve pure sometimes want break use sabotage tells give hard understand grew home money know sleep streets nothing eat well methis saturday birthday going alone know monday yet another suicidal advice overdosed againtook painkillers feel pure shit dont guts tell bf fed everythingthats im done tomorrow im thrown parents house psychotic bitch mother cant homelessness job enough try find new one according father knows nothing im scared ask talk cant put hours week one singular task wants especially wants work around house yet somehow thinks taking away literally resources job said job somehow enough make one completely utterly detrimental able find hold job think shed antime able open though asexual transgirl supposed connect bigoted anything cishet evil leads straight hell mentality mother im scared shed try told im son thinks want able accept daughter raised son though know never will whats point trying im going hurt letting true self shove deeper deeper try survive fights back tears apart inside one thing keeping back killing boyfriend made promise anything harm hes gone left without much goodbye spit everything promises words never cared nobody nothing left reason stay goodbye reddit goodbye world time go canti depressed basically whole life bullying help one bit daughter whos months old love death world im still dealing post partum depression recently quit job trust anyone watch fiance honestly know anymore nothing helps anxiety thats add bonus fiance gets mad feel fault honestly feel growing apart feel want anymore anyone talk tell fiance gets upset cant feel im good anymore look daughters eyes cry cant leave cant stay im stuck im scared even commit redflag honestly want live im really depressed new school senior first post idk advice flair correctly used need advice rd grade homeschooled recent years started hate lack structure feeling isolation senior year wanted go public school rd week still yet really talk anybody clubs know opened covid group projects covid use every th seat lunch friends know classes people knew already chance talk names opposite sides alphabet whats best way start talking people existence always meaninglesssomethings wrong many years getting better got fucking diagnosis friday im bipolar ii mother started crying got home heard phone grandmother telling know grandmothers fault terribly bipolar passing medication gets sent dormitory tomorrow evening honestly think im going take hands theyre putting mg lamictal daly start sliding mg twice daily along prozac help fucking work even copious amounts drugs nonprescription drugs work boyfriend start watching wilfred told started watching tried kill helped healing process know hes trying help lately nothing works want die nothing works want end know focus believe spend time noise inside head deafening feel uncertain everything question everything faith love sense conviction future wish knew lost idk domy gf severe depression thoughts committing redflag said says anymore exist really scares im lost help ask help says theres nothing outside looking great life better average person country kenya parents worked hard grown good home enough food tablei feel lucky hate always feel deserve wish give someone underprivileged better deserving opportunities feel forced much live life great people fight everyday fraction opportunities disposal want want leave want forfeit feel make whatever never good enough nd living everyday postpones death time harder leave failed ton classes first year college focus everlasting cloud life feel guilty knowing parents paying lot international tuition wasting iti drugs escape another problem life another reason hate always dream feeling nothing going far away maybe sea dying without trace family hurt believe many years hated forever life depressing think dying every daymaybe cursed tired fighting tired getting toim tired tired love longing hearts togetherness sweetest flower flower love fragrant aroma fine fine diamonds wind love dirt love unlike unlikely unlikened someone tonight question love take lover hand release power within heard release power tame wild cosmos whisper conquer heaven one intimate caress thats right shy whip everything got butt leon phelps tim meadows created quintessential snl playboy leon phelps cringed hearing smarmy lisp salacious comments made remote tremble outrage employed click feature dear readersbr br film version ladies man came cable mumbled comments clicked yet comes day gray forlorn nothing channelssigh yes faced every cable subscribers torment watch turn tv leon phelps smirking making laugh happened succumbed hollywoods dumbdown sitcom humor desperate avoid abdicating sacred throne truth matter ladies man story vulgar playboy sipping cognac leering every female form goes feminist sensibilitiesbr br began crude snl skit blossomed eyes tale leon playboy philosophy going life helping people solve sexual conflicts mother teresa boning solemnly informs julie karyn parsons friend longsuffering producer radio show ladies man hes kidding leaving string broken hearts angry spirits leon manages bed breakfast chicago genuine goodwill callingcard lifebr br selfproclaimed expert ways love manages lot trouble husbands boyfriends one maligned spouse lance will ferrell forms victims smiling ass usa club vowing catch lovable juan oh yes revenge croons cohorts showstopping dance numberbr br plus total delight see billy dee williams lester tavern owner smooth narrator leons odyssey find sweet thing pile cash hiding choose movie valentines day choice leons search easy life changes many profound ways give nod ladies man movies close find true happiness one woman still offering outlandish advice stuff dreams film reminds nd street starring bebe daniels ruby keeler watch film lot reminded nd street especially character eloise whos temperamental star ends falling breaks ankle bebe daniels nd street another performer gets part become star film race films keeps people watching great entertainment race films always showed black entertainment truly popular time era dancing styles music dressing styles love movie big made hollywood better scenery better filming money make movie better worth watching good micheaux good little say micheauxs films swing best movie features singers dancers actresses actors popular forgotten today doli armena awesome female trumpet player blow horn good think gabriel blowing horn sky sexy hot female dancer consuela harris put ann miller gyspy rose lee shamebr br adding info popular blues singer s s cora green focus film mandy good hard working woman good man takes money spend women nosy neighbor played amanda randolph tells mandy seen heard mandy goes club catches man attractive curvy woman name eloise played hazel diaz hotcha entertainer s fight breaks mandy goes harlem reunites somewhat guardian angel lena played one beautiful women movies dorothy van engle lena provides mandy home job helps become star temperamental cora smith played hazel guess playing two parts maybe changed stage name tries ruin show bad behavior cora gets drunk breaks leg lena convinces everyone mandy right job lena right star born mandy tall long lanky handsome carman newsome cool aspiring producer lena looks well pretty boy larry seymour plays good man lena threatens might shape highlights one sticks part cora smith hazel diaz struts late rehearsal goes everyone man comes punches jaw thats enough almost gets fight mandy theres great entertainment chorus girls tap dancers shake dancers swing music blues singing theres even white people watching entertainment wonder micheaux found theres even scene theres blacks whites sitting together club micheaux frequently integrated blacks whites films commended bold movebr br movie first race film really enjoyed helped introduced oscar micheaux movie one best race film genre behind scenes story ups downs show businessbr br early race films may best cant compared hallelujah green pastures stormy weather cabin sky carmen jones hollywood films great watch early signs black filmmaking plus films provide glimpse black life black entertainment black persons eyes films gave blacks chance play people walks life beautiful classy elegant stereotypes whites felt blacks portrayed hollywood actors actresses race films best ones afforded time micheaux spencer williams afford nina mae mckinney josephine baker ethel waters fredi washington paul robeson rex ingram bigger stars micheaux black white race filmmakers use nightclub performers movies good great actors actresses think micheaux others knew good actors actresses used apart experiment true talent wanted stories told return many black performers got perform true talents films true actorsactresses race films type films work especially want play hollywood stereotypes think able spot true actorsactresses nightclub performers race films historic lost forever many lost maybe race films greatest example cinema even hollywood films start great beginning think race film genre continued better looking great acting race films ones looking real example black entertainment blacks portrayed films watch race films entertaining race films good acting cast moon harlem body soul paradise harlem keep punching sunday sinners dark manhattan broken strings boy girl mystery swing miracle harlem sepia cinderella good entertainment good acting given hope getting gf bf want give life really want someone hold tight cuddle social anxiety im scared things starting convos anything really people even know anyone chance im screwed idk wan na give cry except cant cry anything pain emotion let want give waste away idk im even posting soo beat football rivals im hyped im sooo happy lost last year shut year got pills step lefti pills lot got pills almost really wish death im pathetic cant even give lifefuck want give cant cant even give fuck stupid sperm win millions stupid fuckers course ungrateful piece shit wins chance existing trillion bullshit yet im pathetic worthless pile fucking wasted air never amount anything aborted im failure againi planing going school know im going make wanted study purpose life due something dont want gon na happen dont know ive planing time everything went shit year erase year life everything much better sit shit everything seems hopeless know two ways thats easy purposeless route really hopeing go school friends family think im going go school stomach courage tell situation want fucking disappointment anymore im getting older feel soon going late start shame living home without job fucking failure walking around knowing everyones disappointed amounted anything far probably future either feel want know next want walk around head slumped ive lost motivation idea doim m high school clue want cant define single hobby cant find motivation stuff future close falling apart know school luckily counting marks onset pandemic march im fearful everything fall apart soon go back school one friends trying hook guy started texting though keep pushing away fear burden lowkey friendzoned haha exchange program germany barring fucking virus cant even find motivation study german though open opportunities future know best nothing watch youtube hours day sleep barely eat cut im blank ive lost motivation im seriously considering offing every week fuck please help really know go sorry rambling know say ask questions need clarification ill try answer hello fellow teenagers help friends decide movie watch options sherlock holmes part murder orient express journey mysterious island darkest hour better suggestions within genre movies comedy leave comments thankyou asked crush said yes date next week pussyi dont even fucking guts end suffering atleast people kill brave enough tried recently ine always emerge pussy business jets tax deduction hunters thats thats post first time failed second time wonti cant believe fucking failed proves much failure wont wrong time time update goodbyes sorry man l sweet l nothing take back years hurt caused hope makes little bit stop promise im sorry ad girl always couldnt protect promised im sorry failed z still honest dick respect man f see ya soon lads im know give upthree months ago got hyperacusis tinnitus panicanxiety disorder light sensitivityvisual disturbances shakingspasming attacks pains headfaceneck amidst general unwell symptoms following three days antibiotics xiflaxan neomycin attempt address digestive issues ive four years greatly worsened year ago worse year ago weighed weigh unable sleep reflux became much worse gave ativan sleep night im still months later im sure fucking body im stuck parents basement unable tolerate barely noise constantly discomfort ears ringing ive diagnosed lyme disease say reason everything im pretty sure ears damaged antibiotics iv ceftriaxone making debilitating hyperacusis tinnitus worse cant drive cant go outside cant anything except suffer discomfort basement day every day little hope antibiotics make better even benzo addictionwithdrawal state ears taken away chance really living im trying hard give kill day antibiotics ears hurt keep ringing harder day sign getting better give hope understanding never going better getting worse first im hopeless alone angry unfair happen wanted able keep living life friends hobbies go find right girl gf broke week started im broken think fixed im stuck tiny ass town pasadena md parents basement alone wishing someone come hug keep safe tonight im always alone keep fight thoughts cutting end picc line ending even want call help came every drive car hurts ears much know im trying hard give end hope maybe sort recovery able live feel hopeless alone much pain game pin join boys flood game im ordering many packages mom wondering whats boxes day xd fr mostly small stuff things need garbage room shit bunch pc stuff fucking hate every second im still breathingi hate every morning still woke instead dying man leg falls asleep feels way different seriously makes feel laughing gas least oh god felt fucking weird started laughing nowhere yeah side foot hurt crushed bit still felt weird thoughts phrasing really need help best friend kinda relationship talking stuff used phrase hes cooler crush dont think theres underlying message reading far failure failed mom failed dad failed girl liked importantly failed use sub understand others maybe build empathy love least forgive mistakes always tried good swear life keeps fucking ass lube try act normal go friends work harder learn new things feel everything act still feel empty clear path follow tragedy never noticed signals always time day night feel painless really trying fuck man god idk fuck charge assuming someone making fun making struggles bigger day day young less year graduated top tier uni hopefully things improve prospect better life keeps harming family friends even know going ones know kind understand tell make stronger thing tired strong weak pathetic idea keeps popping head keep fighting decide worth fight anymore want coward care love ones proof care care give life escape guys thick thighsmuscle thick girl vs slim toned legs end debate girls know toned slimlegs idk guys prefer fight close today close thought guys thought people understand thank found another creep ulivelaughsex porn couple account lurks comments hmu posts deletes comment kinda sucks parents divorcedno matter good dad isthe mom take custody wamen chld support ive decided im ready dieim still living home unemployed year work im luck getting hired know ill unhappy job think im meant actual adult think love know mom devastated feel living miserably 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think dying tried hang living overseas escape dependent entirely telling going leave illegally violating eu residency nothing really came power rip blankets clothes scratch pinch letting take clothes whatever wanted maybe people deserve live ive given want give im used want hide forever kitties wouldve vanished now sorry read rambling bullshit thinking ending itits currently writing ive depressed lately im getting major urges ending ive turned dont think im gon na make life im afraid tell mom dont want worry dont want go back another hospital need someone anyone talk even one person enough hope someone sees listen beat lyrics sometimes lyrics filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler yeah im simp super intense minecraft player father attempted redflag yesterdayyesterday uncle got long emailredflag note father detailing last wishes things nature father lives alone different state uncle called local pd welfare check house found dad car garage odd pills currently icu critical yet stable nurse told ironically brother wives weeklong beach vacation week nice together none us know morning received email dad scheduled sent simply said want ruin vacation understanding email dad sent uncle attachments included meant sent brothers life feels significantly stranger know somewhere redflag note addressed know end vacation heartbeat book flight see thought good know part reason attempted feels burden rest us believe going see intensify feelings even know say shitty situation wanted vent wan na message mods mod obviously cant send modmail answer private pms psychologist promised never leave told promise insisted still ended whyshe refer anyone know im unlucky feel whole universe wants die month wound still healed cant seem make peace eat sleep care anything time low honestly want rot away anything anymore im dead therapist especially knew bpd triggered abandonment rejection understand someone try give opinion may happened close one day decided ask advice remember right terminology used seemed seeked therapist advice something canceled appointments one specific date day told going appointments normal even want go therapist trust already damaged previous experiences decided give one last chance trust happens im done college psychologist even referred anyone supposed even really patience issue lawsuit either now alone cant afford private psychologist add whole pile accepted college year psychiatrist sick canceled appointments indefinitely happening im tired sorry mistakes romanian problem depressed homeschooled little behaind whit school work want catch summer find energy motivation study advice welp friends wish luck tomorrows day mouth mutilated sake jaw dreaded blood waterfall ive told data id post lobby xx afraid feel afraid point life theres much done much done many points life wish travel back change many points wish know advance im scared im scared future successful even future fail im scared present feel im failing relationship sake convenience relationship feels comfortable love feels sensation felt around slipping fingers love love die problem wrong theres much im wrong theres much done wrong tried help friend made stuff worse made much fucking worse us wish somehow go back change moment fucked badly help happened almost year ago day still know right thing afraid think made worse make stuff worse sometimes try bad person know come terms fact bad person want bad person one wants bad person many bad people almost ended life someone denies anything lying always lies shes life now clings people know virus virus people viruses virus rely much leave crawl back cant leave destroyed whenever last time cant invitabely going happen leave struggle know im going cope last time bad fucking handle know able handle im still person first happened feel ive changed im sure im lying probably change feels fake thought made mental health much better days feel bad days cant help days break cry shortest reasons im sure thats ok part thinks ok everyone cries sometimes crying make weak im sure think feel weak cry feel damaged cry crying helpful feeling sometimes destructive feeling times crying release much pain enhance crying stress know someone cant cry cried last years first glance seems blessing release emotions builds takes harmful ways hurts crying understand cant cry hurts bad feel bad want help much feel theres anything people hurt sometimes theres nothing help want help cant time help people cant help people feel bad apparently im good helping people admire trait cant help people part feels useless ive failed one things im good odd life odd teenager odd filled much emotion many strange things sometimes need vent mindlessly ive done know anyone see thats ok good stuff sometimes even void odd godfather television aside acclaim mobster characters two nothing alike tony soprano forced go psychiatrist series panic attacks psychiatrist learns tony actually part two families one family loving father yet notsoperfecthusband family ruthless wiseguy analysis dr melfi concludes tonys problems actually derive mother livia whos suspected borderlinepersonality disorder gandolfini rightfully praised main character yet bracco marchand nearly recognized equally talented performances psychiatrist mother respectively falco imperioli dematteo acclaimed brilliant supporting roles van zandt estreet band plays first role tonys best friend quite convincing latching chianese recurring actor actually appeared godfather film plays tonys uncle onandoff nemesis many fans enjoyed characters played pastore ventimiglia curatola proval pantoliano lip sciorra buscemi tonys children okay notable exception ilers stunning performance thirdtolast episode second coming sirico schirripa unconvincing overthetop show strong hold back even show continues six season ceases dull predictable momentbr br four oneminute film arguably first movie made inventors previously filmed actions edisons motion photography sneeze lumiere brothers developed equipment tremendously advanced medium time course cinematograph must bewildered peers including subjects first instance brothers record employees leaving factory understandably struggle hide awareness camera lumieres attempt make film entertaining introducing animals bicycle la sortie des usines lumiere nearly match ingenuity later films interesting aspect short film brothers selection familiar working class ritual subject choice initial evidence curiosity worlds people quality makes viewing experiments immensely rewarding fascinating todaybr br rating trump forget vote leader trump hes best greatest president weve seen fun fact onion rings veggie doughnuts nothing used love makes happy anymorei sake appearing normal family cant focus anything theres something back mind thats preventing enjoying anything cant even focus assignments anymore used good distraction theyre something exacerbates negative thoughts emotions try fight back retaliates even harder im happy relationship feelings heartache guilt regarding ex making feel terriblei long distance relationship years things got rocky one fights broke enough want crawl back stood ground think spite wanted fix things let started feeling guilty decided go try enjoy life hanging boyfriend got involved intimately one thing lead another hes boyfriend ex well call v wanted try fix things said changed work things hed finally fly see family years never always went hed visit move whatever begged begged said left alone week felt wanted take life asked stay phone decided talk outside mosquitoes eating know suicidal said left alone wanted put head lap wanted talk left alone many times dark place matter going hed set aside come help betrayed cant say felt wanted go back stuck decision theres much may write want make huge post basically im friend spending time ex moved telling dead girlfriend understand happy think im happy sometimes remember hurt caused theres tons layers feel horrible wonder things ended differently sometimes feel horrible boyfriend right kind caring always looking care deeply told loved cant feel say know im still love v keep trying pretend im think push memory aside alot christmas coming time year id go visit anxiety getting worse feel crying see things remind mother loved cant anymore im scared feelings regret hate man one point told id side eternity life planned together year supposed close distance hate keep holding want pack things run want leave everything everyone know behind alone maybe go west lay field fucking overdose lost want kill thing stopping lack solid plan along guilt feel hurt man loved point want terrible pain want hurt anyone anymoreim scared loving miss man called lover best friend v miss friends lost end relationship spent many nights playing games together wish somehow still friends im scared hurting anyone anymore thats thing thats keeping finding whatever means end know im loved many people im blessed friends ones im blessed family one im blessed caring boyfriend wants find happiness feel fucking alone scared right now bringing anyone gon na cause trouble cant tell anyone cant afford therapy want vanish edited missing words today might last dayi trying wait longer really couldnt take somethings might help regain hope life fun things hopefully last day really cant heres maybe last drawing gitcommitdie avatar anyways link might rest mods later permission ofc tried commit redflagmy plan freeze river walked hour half spot one see took life jacket tied rope tree began walking freezing water probably extremely close freezing temperature put hands water feel blood rushing fingers rope ended knee deep wanted die point kneel try keep upright couple minutes realized stayed frostbite took maintain effort immerse water easier floating rely body keep submerged knew chance id wake tomorrow alive frostbitten began think everything live said cant die panicked know make point rushed back shore feel fingers tried put socks dexterity took minutes lots tripping falling mud eventually got got gloves able blood circulation hands walked home experience taught deep im really sure want die part wishes succeeded never really know guys need help ok im going going hour drive need know die boredom youtube option middle nowhere parts drive pls help today cried alone sitting corner feeling low depressed need love sincerely stop depending others provide pain experienced differently feel negative energy welcome open arms let stay long wants harm harm trying rid times negative thoughts interactions flood mind accept harsh judgement correct might done something stupid may awkward matters say without consent nobody define good existence powerwhen depend others image worth constantly change fit definition good trade life affection another idea becomes blind leading blind spend time watching tv reading book stand slowly move toes bend knees slightly flex lower body feel let muscles take pressure bones turn music allow connection sound touch go unfiltered make vocals let blood oxygen flow nerves come alive hear saymany abuse bodies treating slave will foundational part existence spend time enhance experience lying bed shut everything slowly curly hands toes tense motion feel movement experience existence grab second appreciate believe create better one power rules meaning purpose written mind difficult use knowledge empathize existence malleable going shape will need connect voices others exist incredible let anyone lie telling truth know see please understand sincere love oneive episodes ive planned perfect ways planned everything think redflag way shit gets bad know ill enter void gone im perfectly okay im even slightly afraid humanity march perform great things without things im straight student labeled gifted woefully pathetic school friends girls family loves im getting job offers ive never much upset even look gore watch redflag videos executions murder kind satisfaction fact bother strange attraction cant want shake nobody knows hide quite well frequent websites filled content people call horrible shit naming names know type affect feel know say stronger im immune fear death even attraction control fits anger hurt people animals feel makes better rageoholics wifebeaters serial killers control unlike addition feel opposite ends emotional spectrum extreme happiness extreme sadness make mistake thinking im manicdepressive though eventbyevent basis something amazing make quite happy know flip side coin something somewhere triggers extreme sadness days im mostly limbo feeling empty thing close sad im wellbutrin depression probably helping getting addicted passiveaggressive redflag cigarettes dip tell reddit sick head crazy ask first time long think im guess thats itsw last resorti never thought end herebut point im desperate im guy bisexual record ive love straight best friend years knows everything told everything hes perfectly fine cant forget even though rejected many times yesterday last time literally told theres zero chance anything happeningits stupid knew answer even though likes tease time time feeling way think itive met couple people come love rejected wether theyre straight cant love hurts fucking much thought capable loved overwhelming fact ive rejeceted whole life help well im losing emotions cant cry anymore whats left studying im pretty good university working alone actually thing makes forget whats point im happy never now im thinking isolating stop going friends stop talking everyone finish work robot im becoming end hope im far away enough everyone easily vanish without causing suffering anyone tell whats way please say gets better ive thinking years im never got better guarantee find happiness keep fighting im complete controli know guys want kill im afraid im going tothe thoughts control say theres people love hurt control anymore want im year old girl cant go help parents think want attention im afraid contact anyone lot friends throwaway account theres teacher reads posts mess lately want anyone annoyed messed give people right basically want anything ive found thoughts take make stuff almost cut days ago even thinking automatic happy today felt surreal crying help inside want go home school im safe theres always people around keep anything stupid family house means alone told might hurt know scare want want im finally losing marbles terrifying plan im okay thoughts betraying im trapped theres nothing hours later edit oh god please help power live life impasse whatever means guess im going toss food outside something relevant individual sure thats true honest power please expose location currently trying die dont know anymorei dont understand point anymore dont think ill kill today im sure plan know sometime soon cant longer im prohet know person reading breathing happy new years friend looking new homie play ps est time zone play mainly terrariabo cod ww pubg hyper scape gta etc make gay jokes dont snowflake pm comment interested dont post often im mobile apologies formatting errors etc ill try make easy read background ive struggling alcohol abuse im currently months sober yay first month without alcohol withdrawals intense became angry redflag charts couldnt focus anything hand time taking mg paroxetine gp doubled mg months body tried cope without alcohol care anymorea ago mental breakdown tried open family sister criticized cleaning apartment said took everything day ants uncles either believe mental illness friends moved lost contact nobody even takes seriously tell abusive past control finances getting harder keep going feel every possible turn moment people keep kicking im idk one probably see thing feel numb pain care want kill myselfi planning jumping bridge river impact drowning hypothermia will im three feet head stress anxiety hate body want try anymore im tired antidepressants helping im done please someone talk meim im weird af hate wan na die need talk someone weird attraction itll tear apart vsauce fucccccc school starts today im even upset school im mad fact go bed time wake hours earlier least first day easy one comment something pe teacher said add emoji end ill go first got ta slow ladies youre going fast recently saw film d film festival hollywood polarized d gray glasses red blue much fun watch film audience print excellent d perfect performances top added fun surprise ending supposed share fellow movie goers least according movie trailer poster people howling laughter todays standards probably comedy horror added dimension d complete cobwebs bats coming screen film entertaining romp s horror whats popular show cant vampire diaries julie phantoms even know fuck wrong anymoreas right now ive pretty much given recovery want suffer chronic severe nausea lasts day every day break years almost suffer panic attacks least times week im talking minute attacks last hours anxiety racing thoughts alone enough want die paired physical symptoms im convinced anything death cant bad left house literally months younger selective mutism forever known weird one skipped school lot eventually dropped public school grade im grade remember going halls people say ewww even parking lots see groups peers make animal noises friends whatsoever hospital shit doctors area shit crisis line complete bullshit think staying hospital made homicidal incompetent everyone hate canada hate fucking month wait lists feel smarter doctors know symptoms medications help yet try tell im dealing bullshit anymore see life getting better changing im unable love anyone apart ex fiancee im lonelyin august living nice apartment partner seven years engaged two years wonderful relationship travelling world together shortly engagement sister passed away breakdown ampxb spent next two years trying back feet emotionally unstable lean ex support although accommodating months eventually started seeing doctor anxiety disorder cope relationship anymore ended leaving someone ampxb first committed getting better whatever took getting relationship back track got good medication went gym daily went vacations alone busy stuck home made quite friends one biggest issues many friends lean course missed ampxb still person left years ago reached couple times told missed contact months asked last month relationship give yes answer even though friend facebook friends see still together ampxb months ago tried let go went lots dates even got together girl little cant feel attracted romantically anyone ex dream multiple times week wake thinking sometimes want drive place pick another incredible date together days seem past point im starting another breakdown cant want horrible struggle end wanted tell pm talking redflag redflag never option first sorry umistakenbacon want apologise front members wanted post funny way memes umrcharisma thanks calling whore reposter greedy shit mind needs hear hate gt good sir repost rteenagershttpswwwredditcomrteenagers given heading know called repost added joke image found internet meme making geniunely asking karma whore ok see things think better subreddit add touch sometimes dont greedy meaningless internet points promise reading repost thing shitty person inside respects words told members want vent hate slapped lunatic fucked teaching presentation class computer chose teach one topic whole class great opportunity right created good ppt time presentation got nervous fuck started stammering one classmate asked question able explain read till thanks leave reddit december sorry umistakenbacon ampxb hate gentle easygoing s comedy kim novak belongs coven witches manhattan puts spell neighbor jimmy stewart boredom eventually falls love losing powers see witches permitted hot blood love elsa lanchester novaks aunt witch jack lemmon brother ditto hermione gingold chief witch ernie kovacks sidney redlich author specializes writing witchesbr br described s comedy hardly mistaken anything everything smooth polished set decoration wardrobe plot performances direction take character ernie kovacks hes referred drunk nut heres movie demonstrates traits asks second drink though always wears jacket tie gentlemen hair bit long tousled thats strictly s version drunk nut nothing place everything tidy free dust soles jimmy stewarts shoes barely scuffedbr br zodiac club witches hang called low dive yet clean dark place polite waiters quintet musicians neatly dressed clientle potted plants bare brick walls idea low dive even greenwich village idea dive greenwich village juliuss white horse tavern san remo swing rendezvous defunct lesbian hangout zodiac club high dive compared thesebr br kookiness always hear muted todays standards mean kim novak odd runs around apartment bare feet wears lot black clothes beatniks period didbr br never mind enjoyable romantic comedy kim novak effective gillian runs primitive art shop uptrodden strange beauty bulky ethereal time glides rather walks wispy presence eyebrows seem drawn set plastic french curves jimmy stewart quite good bewildered bewitched victim s usually played light roles postwar years much s tortured protagonist puts early experience comedy good use resist laughing hermione gingold forces wear shawl drink hideous concoction putrid fluid order cure novaks spell good see stooge instead angry indignant man principle danger becoming richard quine directs movie quietly without fireworks special effects interesting things play note scene novak casts spell stewart siamese cats face ears seem merge novaks startling eyesbr br ernie kovacks s wellknown television personality never anything quite ernie kovacks show brings word surrealism mind stage five minutes worth wordless indescribable tricks unpopulated room bartoks concerto orchestra background unimpeachable sketch using character percy dovetail effete poet credits kind skip condoli brothers thats rather casual two guys pete conte virtuoso trumpeters independent careers jazz ensembles conte later member doc severisons band johnny carsons late showbr br third act kind bogs little becomes romantic comedy never dull whole film rolls along neatly van drutens play kids probably kick anyone need friends dont irl someone talk toeven pandemic irl friends aways thought boring alot people think way know yall need friend oe anything good night good night friend made sit watch film material god devil heaven hell restaurant thrown good measurebr br four guys prick dies howis thats story never guess ending one skillfully realized little gem aussie cinema hats team made onebr br give song recommendedations pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee le popular onessss good onessss underrated onessss expectations id never heard jamie foxx knew film strong character actors thought highly entertaining fun plot different unpredictable enough hold interest foxx original david morse terrific true finest role thought chases pyrotechnics contributed film well done expect lot happily surprised realized dont good pictures tons crying dumb af cant find actually think pretty im sad trouble suspending disbelief consider woman already late middle age finds newborn baby cabbage patch raises think makes attempt locate mother may well confused teenager need medical treatment seemingly one italian equivalent social services makes attempt put baby care social services know fantasy know young toto ten adoptive mother dies leaving orphanage emerges happy man loves everybody nothing flat given suitcase man stole organised local homeless bona fide shantytown residents encore leads fight capitalism shape businessman buys land shantytown stands oil discovered wants swallowing without subsequent miracles beginning totos dead mother old lady raised rather biological one appearing handing dove doubles magic wand allowing grant modest wishes finale hobos fly away better place located presumably somewhere rainbowbr br hand film charm easy surrender balance small masterpiece listen listen tik tok base ur personality based tik tok bro amount cute ass mofos see personality literally every guy girl tik tok dumb broski go touch grass anyone feel talkingkind bad spot right feel need talk someone edit feel bit comfortable think im going post told writngrl sorry relatively large wall text incomplete ill add later well come middle class background year old white male sorry useless information suppose started around years old currently living mom dad step brother used showers brother believe sexually abused cant say remember much back sticks mentally disabled swapped kind crazy zealous christian done anything harm general brotherbrother fights young overweight kid confidence coincides fat average build still self confidence issues growing brother general problem child good every two weeks id deal loud raging arguments father continued years point mom mental breakdown tried slitting wrists recovered awhile another breakdown years later fine past two three years breakdowns stop step brother slitting throat means redflag worryi leave redflag note worry even good enough silly sound im worried sentences bit paper enough family worry look im dead stupid know want look decent whoever finds worry house spotless people come take away body bag ridiculous im worrying strangers think housework carry away worry last cup tea sweet enough last bath hot enough worry alot stuff ive always way far back remember ive never felt wanted accepted anyone never good enough one people worry others think know much struggle relax chill head forever going past good memory tell wearing time dinner day loads memories good bad hate sensitive grew house women hormones bloody everywhere shared room sister one year us argue light onoff argue sharing clothes make books hold argument anymore even hearing people arguing cry know stupid sound cant handle know manipulative abusive violent relationship many years know may sound odd think damage really coming past year split im wreck hate much without sounding right selfish cow friday come quick enough ive enough pains compare hands mine came thing big hands means big dick genius greatest lie time hands fucking huge nothing tho sure looking maybe way feel way brother killed days ago buried days ago years old wedding days feel joy wedding think feel terrible fianc want think happy marrying love hes trying best supportive understanding devastated room supposed one happiest days yet know family especially mom going able mentally present understand fine past week trying everything done tough mom help barely leave house want lay bed day friends really made time redflagful want talk let alone lean time aunts best friends even pushed bachelorette threw one maid honor dropped ball course none make iti going parents feel support wanted wedding supposed joyous already antidepressants supposed start counseling back honeymoon tw brother committed suicide quit drugs cold turkey sober months tbh thing different life aware sad ugly stupid atleast last years life high care everything hit ta know carry living l either od next time use hang woods anymore hard life depressing know help im running timea friend mine wants kill theyre preparing kill fact concrete plans commit redflag within weeks im running ideas ive read talking tips risk assessment guide ive tried best follow theyre made clear family unsupportive friends left seem external support fact mostly seems contact people think theyre attention seeker friend believes themself believes thats deserve die theyre minor live side planet know name address anything help theyre kid please want die reason nevada taking long scared admit kanye cant convince im jumping less minutesim drinking peppermint tea watching episode spongebob im minutes walk listening ipod one last text boyfriend im gone many mental health problems handle even meds goodbye count loses sleep games regularly think hours might lowend estimate want say games every day go real life friends except invite friends numerically yes spend time together hours spent sleeping anyone know posible call redflag hotline another countryi thinking time best mental wiew world old memory came forh wouldt apologize first bad english poor use words bad use periodes commas blame year old boy denmark legally call country redflag hotlines morally acceptable try make mutually understanding despide politicks asking becouse really wants know need call availablility talk try talk someone concern go old super supressed memory sorry cant write yet im itmy boyfriend broke edit im mobile im sorry format know post vague emotional state couldnt think clearly ended taking way im supposed take daily adderall got back hospital hours know one probably see care ive finally made willing choice seeing therapist hard open people therapy never helped want happy love whole story long complicated point anyone struggling mental illness please seek help extremely difficult know sometimes even venting someone feel better showing weakness strongest thing took years learn im sorry rambling im still ill okay hope helps someone mean im havent experienced lot life ive fair share internal struggle didnt believe therapy hope now yall coping fact lost year teens especially seniors im still sad lost senior year supposed closure feel ill forever feel junior hey baby doin dryhumps leg wan na play kirby amazing mirror im going try less socially awkward starting interacting cousins going tough fullgrown adults lmao nice people siblings talk fine teenagers well going tough trying less awkward though look way immediately look phone ground something idk maintain conversations someone approaches first love byt hte much vant deal feel ike cant breathe wont let treat wont let ber boyfriend either ur looking great today unless put pineapple pizza theres special layer hell u flex much yall two reddit followers maybe need head examinedbut thought pretty good moviethe cg badi seen worsethe look creaturesand creatures mean good bad snakewas pretty coolthe action scenes involving snakes really goodi thoughtthere lapses logic timesand story always make sensebut creature featurethere lot worsea lot creatures seemed lifted moviesso wholly originali think gist story original thoughthere bit similarity godzillathe big budget american versionwhich liked loti movie muchbut still say pretty goodi liked musicall alli think dragon wars ground going open swallow evil ground gon na open swallow evil right thats see word bond seeand ground symbol poor people right poor people gon na open whole world swallow rich people cause rich people gon na fat gon na appetizing know im saying wealthy appetizing poor gon na poor hungry right know im saying gon na know im saying gon na might might cannibalism mf might eat rich know im saying happened got girlfriend dont know fucking got one really really girl every single one friends thinks perfect match im native american shes mexican friend said gon na beautiful golden skinned babies im trying yet im open years really feels shes perfect wan na end itthat got beat death santa trying fuck fucking worth yall luckily im immortal try next year im garbage human beingim waste existence oh fucking god dont want hurt one anymore im worthless dont want exist fucking hate alive dont want anyone hurt love much hate anyone wan na talk something talk maybe discord maybe anything god forbid snapchat wish knew way kill myselfthis worst year life taught hope left wish kill dont way without making sure wont cause pain feel really want method go finally say goodbye world dont want keep living feel choice ive thought giving brain damege lead even suffering dont want live dont want suffer either im lost first time youth ahead methe second time partner sidethis time nothing nobody depressed three times life ran across posting im sure make itthrowaway account ran across posting httpphoenixbackpagecomsportsequipforsalepleasedonotsellaguntothisgirl links following one contains phone number httpredflagprojectorgpartnerinus httpredflagprojectorgpartnerincanada im sure anyone look possibly give call email probably check account posting qualified involved thought id put reddit community love help people much life friendsnothing look forward im poor lived trailer park life friends abandoned im one step away slitting fucking throat deeply tired love diewhen die hope see one want see please talk mehi things tough lately ill try write coherently im struggling ive going time time lately lots reasons longstanding anxiety depression ocd recent problems university relationship problemsconflictions word apparently ive spend last days really much ive trying tidy tip room havent gotten far ive mainly bed drinking watching youtube simple things tbsg dont tax much yeah im going tough time one thats involved lot alcohol life time sleeping pattern messed usually anyway especially lately mind mess im struggling lot people talk dont know please talk feel alone im supposed visiting parents later today sunday dinner visit enjoy anxiety leaving house things bit much sometimes especially sleeping problems least couple weeks last visited know mum misses worried see sheer number threads started subreddit people truly struggling depressing try help need something dont know dont know ill fall asleep go parents later day hope visit might go drunk somewhat drunk time dont want worry helps makes feel better makes forget things bad thoughts dont last long helps sleep chris love movie focuses issues reality fantasy reality hey wanted date popular guy billy us kissed yet right honestbr br another real issue pain people gain teasing whoa high school life remember fantasy finding true love still high school really fantasy close enoughbr br although parts unbelievable great movie words describe incredible work story wonderful drew barrymore charmingly wonderful job hilarious david arquette people worked movie wonderful repeat thatbr br never kissed one movies later generations watch shows reality somenot issues people creative team jim abrahams david zucker jerry zucker roots improvisational theatre madison wisconsin believe group called kentucky fried theatreor something similar put bunch set pieces onto celluloid askentucky fried movie long irreverent sophomoric really funnybr br followed popular airplane really put map took rather well known veteran actors robert stack especially leslie nielsen putting prominent roles proceeded parody every clich every aviation film days john waynes batjacproduction high mighty pockets stuffed cash noticed trio worked deal pramount television american broadcasting company tv network half hour comedy spoof nearly countless police crime drama show come gone television screens years remembering fine job mr leslie nielsen turned airplane cast leadbr br sgtltcaptain frank drebbin rank designation switch one comic bitshe presided great series successive puns sight gags non sequitors overblown policecrime clichsall strung together someseemingly standard scripts added overly dramatic opening narration voiced information contradicting visual printed info always used giving title episode titles voice printed titles never matchedbr br great musical score even though somewhat exaggerated passed theme incidental music straight dramathe musical score opening titles format episodes divided act act ii epilogue etc part obvious affectionate ribbing qm quinn martin productions even announcer real qmsbr br one thing short series technically augmented audience laughter boy sure need phony tract nature spoof demanded viewers close almost undivided attention proved ultimate reason behind police squads downfallbr br regards series cancellationan abc executive explained episodes called much attention part viewer one wantbr br wonderfully wacky hilarious episodesoff afterlife series cancellation went police squad reborn naked gun trilogy made big screen movie houses quite well box office oh well tvs loss cinemas gain thanks mr idiot tv execbr br high mighty produced dukes batjac productions released warner brothers unavailable quite number years finally mr waynes family made arrangements release television video feel empty used upim turning next year im gon na go whats wrong im kissless virgin ive never even come close im ugly sin awkward looking small frame im short especially place live small penis phimosis really really bad hirsuties coronae trust gon na find anything looks mine image search damaged sensitivity porn im incredibly stupid terrible literally everything best mediocre im pretty sure iq somewhere close number im loser driving license goals future fucked violent straight psychopathic imagination mind really bad anger issues manipulative behaviour awful things close friends ive never best friend ive fallen love one girl hurt badly girl beautiful months last spoke still think practically every day want check life today birthday wanted share cake friends rteenagers funny title interesting andor smart body text another paragraph interesting andor smart body text interesting andor smart ending paragraph good evening everybody hows life treating tuesday anything exciting happen good news bad news perhaps boring day sleeping anyone wan na chat rn wan na chill someone got sum wan na talk pm depressed feel im stallingi dont know start ive depressed several years ive tried talking therapist ive taken tablets yet nothing helps decided enough appointments taking antidepressants stopped going taking think every day im stalling redflag want done ive attempted several times ive failed far ive gotten ashamed talk anyone now cant even talk friends distanced rarely keep touch havent completely given try sometimes urge go end trying getting harder days sure im writing maybe want someone talk sometimes something wonderful fanciful movie stardust isbr br easily end one statement suffice say one take strong recommendation go see itbr br time hollywood seems bent forcing remakes sequels throats stardust makes us remember go movies first place escape reality couple hours explore lives times planets ironically stardust takes us three places effortlessly childlike glee long forbr br stardust full characters remember children princes witches pirates ghosts scoundrels damsel distress hero rogues obstacles spells antidotes charms even touch lightspeed make quasi modernbr br stardust man town wall conveniently situated next wall separates town magical kingdom way past wall breech diligently guarded scruffy old codger played wonderfully david kelly one day young man wall named ben barnes maneuvers old guard escapes breech happens upon enchanted kingdom called stormhold meets chained sexy young lady named una held captive witch leashed unbreakable chain witch away una seduces ben sends way ben returns wall without incident continues life nine months later summoned wall breech old guard hands might expect baby boybr br boy named tristan grows rather hapless young man charlie cox smitten girl way league betrothed another nevertheless young lady named victoria played sienna miller goes tristain confesses love espy falling star tells retrieves star brings back agrees sets quest take side wallbr br meanwhile kingdom stormhold old king perfectly played peter otoole dying calls remaining living sons tell succeed throne sons names primus secondus sextmus septimus sons killed brothers humorous competition see lives thronebr br anyway tosses ruby charm sky voila brings star earthbr br star crashes form beautiful woman named yvaine clare danes course wearing charm little know persuaded tristain princes aging witch named lamia michelle pfeiffer wants cut stars heart regain youthbr br complicated yes comes together adventure unfoldsbr br tristain first find yvaine blinded devotion victoria recognize growing bond yvaine initial interest lie returning yvaine victoria proof love must past princes lamia first princes big issue constantly trying kill pirates caribbean never death funny br br tristain encounters witch enslaved mother though know mother band flying pirates led robert denirobr br important character movie deniro plays tee steals movie toughness soon learn undercover secret leave audiences floor laughter though role small length deniro extraordinarybr br michelle pfeiffer wonderful lamia sexy evil witch claire danes appropriate confused distressed yvaine makes perfect damsel jason flemyng adam buston rupert everett mark strong add perfect dose levity fighting princes die return ghosts ala blithe spirit high spiritsbr br moreover director matthew vaughn whose directing experience layer cake weaves enchanting tale everyone enjoybr br stardust may complex young children anyone age want see movie multiple times good stardust movies supposed perfectly written perfectly cast perfectly directed perfectly acted wordsperfect whats adults us using things generation made make lives easier guess theyre jealous one time family friend family came mentioned dnd brother loves ive played alright id rather prefer alone time mentioned loves offered come play brother said yeah said come said id rather stay home watch dogs nobody home watch stepdad means hed rather stay home play phone yeah sorry people person im sure youd love play game youre interested people know theyre friends mother honestly dont think stepdad likes us nothing downward spiral wish school psychologist notice doas many know millions quarintine moment many students stuck online work extreme social anxiety anxiety general topped depression nothing special case year started new school tried normal student inevitably ended eating every lunch schools psychologist office old school nice understanding ive opened lot always tried miss school absent feel awful mornings wanting go whats point literally one waiting even teachers notice absence time went backtracked owed work overwhelm make worse fast forward now stuck home wanted right spiraled much know alone times helping least school see different faces talk moments enjoyed depressed nothing new frequently go psychologists office cry understand depressed live parents theyre another country live family friend im way overdue bunch online work im borderline failing school ends june know whenever try work headaches want cry never anything done ive sent countless apology emails teachers makes feel worse sending emails psychologist trying keep hopeful guess feel joy anything loved draw ive completely stopped see anything tried convince today sent hopeless email yesterday try think graduating couple weeks left give motivation graduate feel endlessly hopeless border taking life weeks ago anxiety medication aunt visiting thought trying addicted took bottle away woke pm day point ive close im sorry im rambling think psychologist thinks id seriously something even though ive told wish way car way home wondering tell seriously ive thinking suicidal thoughts try sending crisis center something want depressed anymore want want risk sent crisis center pandemic going around especially im one top affected states pills left aunt left theyre sedatives doctor given higher dosage mg one pill counts two ive heard pass away sleep either way wish know title suggests planned kill last night precisely plan electrocute really require lot prep go details specific act due fear someone might attempt recreate anyways second suicide attempt first one year half ago stabbing neck times elegant suicide method admit looking something elegant time diagnosed dysthymia persistent depressive disorder years ago changed therapists medications nothing helped enough feels life postponing suicide first attempt bright side selfharmed hell want sometimes every bridge every speeding car every kitchen knife every rope every policeman even see way death main question people might title go know really instead went run usually temporary mood boost goes away quite quickly tired still want yes yes yes stopped today friend mine birthday today want ruin even really close postponing sure anyways thanks time hope better suicide attempt planned last night jump infront train tomorrowive got redflag notes written updated im sick tired bullshit overdose attempts got train schedule tomorrow im jumping front train quickeasy effective im disgusting human beeing raised two alcoholic abusive parents raped child bullied way throughbschool im non actingnever never will peadophile eyes dont deserve live tomorrow end misery god bye everybody life feels messythis going sound absolutely ridiculous computer messed phone broken think mantain decent grades anymore im lazy work keep spending gross hrs porneven blockers feel addicted many things read thing type lot work im lazy hell made bit fatter annoyed feel annoyed angry irritated sleep feels messed cant stay finish anything spend way much time avoiding work sites face feels extremely oily acne active im unable shave properly skin feels bit bad feel conflicted many things time feels moves fast suck lot things subjects im lazy feel extremely unproductive honestly kind wanted vent probably unless something big happens really really want dr bock teaches hospital quite good thing depressed dr bock wife separated children deviant perform bedroom feels good job healing people becomes suicidal meets barbara changes ideas better around story murder mystery group angry protesters outsidebr br movie well done character dr bock well played little sad somewhat funny somewhat drama good see couple stories wrapped around hospital even somewhat unrelated dr bock great movie went hospital called nsph visited psych still feel emptyso sunday overwhlemed everything im im decently high corporate ladder technically support system nothing helping heart mind see everything okay im aware enough know sound whiny bitch throwing tantrum attention rest doesnt want live anymore sunday called national redflag hotline got response line another caller shed call back literally nothing happened felt even sign finish wasnt worth went hospital got asked typical questions sent way home told visit psych following day werent open mlk day feel uncomfortable skin im half mexicanhalf white gay overweight food makes feel temporarily happy gained lbs past year half im east tennessee things feel case even worse actually people expressed important much love much ive done life feel nothing except wanting stop living brain wont stop going back dark side whatever hell life guess want magic pill stop thinking everyone lying dont really care theyre using past keeps coming elevator started floor someone pressed every button floor cant un press someone felt way advice pulled want help understand trust people life honest true word want pain thoughts stop want make world better place want one feel way feel terrible thing shake want happy im done thisits fault choosing change way hard find motivation something youre alone always smell victorias secret amp weed lil bit rly became stoner chick always dreamed woooooow ok pretty lame honestly might soonill begin new job next week industrial labor job ill working hour days ive depressed long increasingly suicidal want take first paycheck overdose something im dont know im gon na make im trying think life better shitty home life think will might damaged already yall give post free awards post saw post dont free awards filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler istg im losing itand know still fucking stalk reddit know youre seeing everything ive going yet havent heard anniversary today stayed till midnight hoping youd text waited pm cos thats usually wake still nothing ive slept whole day ate anything almost fainted dont fucking care hate missing okay serious question wth egirl mean egirl im confused anybody summer school high school yeah im failing classes tried best five months cant anymore online school turns brain fucking mush california schools opening irl april im already failing hella dont know help anymore dont end getting shit together end year need go summer school im repeating courses next year anyone whos summer school easier harder stressful lem know plz help instantlyso im feeling lately point ive suicidal thoughts days row ive somehow managed fight getting harder harder want help urgently though know want hotlines samaritans etc help know really wanti want something keep going getting worse know go feel nothing left mei feel life people hurting purposely none friends care one friend hang real life hang feel worse one talk self harm everyone gets scared talk ignore dont see point alive anymore want smother someones head thighs dunno kind mood never done opinion give opinion anything long isnt political sexual please nothing political sexual anything works unrelenting cant anymoreive thought redflag daily years now grindingly poor future im worthless never decent job partner seem even anymore let alone love dog even seem much hate major stupid college remeber last time enjoyed anything remember last time want kill im going parents holidays think ill take dads sawedoff put mouth last time physical compulsion barely resisted self harm clean four years back worse one knows legs slashed pieces ive medicated ive therapy medication help lie therapists trust trust anyone thought checking hospital acute crises center getting help cant afford cant afford kill worthless got kicked church heated argument holy gathering apparently god forbids people mass debators people really think notch created minecraft obviously phlza minecraft always joking redflag firstweather joking know people take wrong way moved joking actually tanking health purposely cutting deeper ya know results started first relationship cheated think im happy anymore nothing exciting eyes none family checks feels one cares even see pain im going anyone notice anyone come looking knows cares cant keep tricking going morethe world going shit took many years realise really basic important things life nothing look forward even people call friends anything better really care send messages days days go past response im old chance fix mistakes ive lost everything actually mattered long time ago realised little really going former space security chief israel says aliens exist galactic federation contact israel us years avoiding revealing public humanity ready fucking kill know story ridiculous galactic federation apparently stopped trump revealing existence stop guy hes retired cut contact know bullshit cant help panic gave worst anxiety attack ive years feel im gon na sick hate twitter cutting become habiti bought knife set cut fruits parents believe dorm room uni started cutting last year one day drunk things escalated point cant go longer week without cutting point actually feels exhilarating relaxing good music ive started using tactic stay awake study laugh laugh im pain idk ask brief adrenaline rush attention mind touched wrists anywhere scars might spotted ive started considering neck stop id cease mess mean accidental death great always depression issue remember usually cope recently alone time thoughts one seems care husband never around usually chooses hang friends home dog friends lean family going lot burden hate feeling loneliness emptiness gives usually play pup feel better recently surgery lot work wish take break one help people come around usually husbands friendsfamily make pretty obvious care hes gone even wait usually leave hes back god forbid someone around minutes tired alone tired feeling empty depressed tired constantly feeling enough even husband hate alone lifes worth livingmy mother hates father never around cant anything declining academics cant make friend feel nothing better matter much try help fails personally lot bw movies theres something magical movie br br movie starts elizabeth lane barbara stanwyck liz writes magazine column martha stewart connecticut course lying becomes problem publisher mr yardley asks play host navy sailor christmas addition mr yardley whos going alone christmas invites farm christmas party things go crazybr br movie set new england farm movie warm holiday feeling plus characters hilarious mr yardley always shouting orders lizs friend felix always yelling catastroph things go wrong finally movie ends way christmas movie end jolly fat man laughs shouts christmas br br short matter age love movie kind admissioni hung closet using belt last night times right moment id start dark rings vision id restart process figured position needed let hang feel losing consciousness stopped realized written letter sat got caught answering messages best friend sit mope loving im going try talk friend today asked early morning hed free told considering asking therapist put hospital something joy feel weighed physically mentally cant see far end day time ive lost ability think forward im alone time much family want burden friends think already though feel compelled live love thats wearing last night step towards going handle physical pain now thing stopping chance ill fail forced hospital miss job interview desperately need strange maybe need wordpress clunkiest fucking piece shit stupid popular building fucking website monopolized kinda use need plugin sites offer site done week ago use easy site builder im rly debating abandoning plugins shit spent money insanely fucking stupid anybody needs friendi mailing list close friends gone going want someone talk pm edit send email woofugcscaltechedu feel losthow happy yet unhappy time whole life sick admitted best work harold lloyd ended last great silent comedy speedy enters sound films chaplin keaton laurel hardy wc fields better keaton well three chaplin rich enough make films producer paced films five years productions laurel hardy protection hal roach production standards shorts sound films pretty good fields first worked mack sennett paramount freelanced lloyd tried route chaplin took less successbr br produced films unlike chaplin studio first two choices good especially feet first begin choose wisely movie crazy catspaw milky way good choices three possibly sin harold diddlebock best sound ventures entertaining none safety last freshman kid brother speedy br br top four sound films cats paw controversial ezekiel cobbs solution ridding city elects mayor extreme tastes movie made dictates politics cats paw second year roosevelt new deal rather controversial heavier government involvement movie audiences saw films gabriel white house phantom president leaders extraconstitutional actions rid nation internal enemies force disarmament around globe even cecil b de mille got act day age bunch teenagers use rats force gangster confess crimesbr br us use violence force anyone even bunch goons boodlers alan dineharts gang confess repellent supreme court protected us confession duress forget reforms thinking occur warren court burger court made example although mr justice sutherlands opinion powell scottsboro boys case guaranteed every criminal defendant right counsel gideon v wainwright extend ordering court paid counsel defendants miranda case wellknown antiselfincrimination warning nothing considered necessary br br study movies period even tricks used confessions kirk douglas confesses crimes front witnesses walk alone burt lancaster holds gun lancaster leaves douglas sneers confessing duress see gun unloaded suddenly realizes legally confessed without duress hate say civil libertarians reading note cobblloyd dinehart pals conclusion cats paw legal led jail sentences may call heavy handed fascistic horrid worked legally thought go assistance committing redflaglooking subreddit website dark web forum anything anyone wants provide help someone talk fuck say ok want someone compare another one know kinda difficult always person social group maybe talk himher maybe person someone know sight heshe think person lets call x better life us teenagers us wants lots friends boyfriendgirlfriend going parties fun luxuries pc gamer great camera take photos perfect bedroom latest iphone know think totally wrong feel useless x knowledge feel sad x friends feel alone x goes parties remember stuff mentioned barely always seen known though social network instagram things incredibly different someone behind screen compare someone unique forget thing stopping killing ugly untalented even care anymorei constantly fantasize redflag usually imagine years im skinny longer hair made couple albums good piano etc years standards keep getting higher older point im sure even worth sure nice die young pretty talented reason want im remembered worthless fat ugly slut anything life one know even existed generations anyway care die ive lived disappointment might well die one show pretty good 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voice people going find cant walk water br br macarthur peck justified reputation giant film industry felt macarthurs emotions knew anger happiness understood relationship whole family algebra grade went worry parents beating burning stuff im sick uselessim unemployed worth nothing im constantly anxious bouts depression last weeks one life feel talk anything want missing persons case want found im useless lonely always suicidal ideationi know counts want kill want die im terrified dying im bad place right times wish exist want everything stop im waiting call back therapist schedule appointment im going discuss want able put name feeling hate lifei lot friends ones hurt words without realizing ive alone life ive bullied school im constantly mental breakdowns started hurting becausd think deserve want play among us anyone want play among us code xyhoxq want better america electing trump heres first make sure everyone drilled head unproven conspiracy theories ignored fought second lower minimum age vote third make future presidents year olds give easily peer pressure fourth watch america slower destruction biggest brain entire galaxy pc died fridaythursday bht mouse keyboard still lit today unscrewed little box cables responsible getting power every part movedadjusted cables screwed everything together sure thats properly made sentence whatever magically turned pressed power button lets fucking goooooooooo im may good fellows hope dont insult lads lassies whilst im amongst american found rather maddening people believe us jolly americans shcalops think okay joke day generations parents unleashed suns upon innocent souls foreign nation tho must americans reacting pure anger pearl harbor thats still exaggerated reaction okay joke day innocent souls lost lives pansies death wish one hate subjects day incite conflict confusion aint nobody got time joke years one man thought higher denomination people sought slaughter pure statisfaction joke tens thousands men women children american jewish asian joke things right acceptable quite frankly shouldnt either trying relay chums blasted hypocritical scum americans take responsibility actions ancestors past remain people dead gone us make decision either dwell dark past move forward future room change didnt come make affected events mentioned offended im sorry requestcan please explain never touched girl move fucking life walter matthau george burns work well together acidity willy perplexed amnesic al mixture made heaven scene meet willys flat gem final scene rounds film perfection walter matthau gives superb performance irascible semiretired comedian intonation voice exaggerated dramatics coupled general misunderstanding going form great characterization george burns timing legendary nowhere better film calm aplomb desert dry replies memorable watch scene near end al daughter ask something spanish caretaker als reaction priceless im guy set date ive decided talk itim things little complicated mentioned last post suffer massive depersonalizationderealization basically persistent existential crisis well paranoid psychosis going years ill try explain meaning defined terms things meaningful relation things etc etc etc rather define word using words strip away recursion find existence state utterly devoid inherent meaning potentially purpose realize activates homunculus inside head vetoes attempts make order disorder sense nonsense purposes life subconsciously dissected reveal empty cores meaninglessness ephemerality universal indifference towards condition live constants reconcile anything constants well inconstant goes long enough objects lose meaning look car longer see car shapes make car car becomes strange sounding vague concept head actually associate anything perceive constant dream world thats derealization along comes depersonalization im really sure put words simply feel real everyone internal feeling self inner ego exist anymore thoughts everything series unrelated automatic actions feels unnatural somehow turns normal human behavior even im typing really see hands typing see words screen feel hands feel alien add paranoid psychosis occasional illusions grandeur work hear phone ringing look see think network administrators work monitoring connections posting stuff reddit response mains posts taunting think people trying tell things using hidden meanings say hint giving im picking etc etc etc constant battle rational mind paranoia far battle attrition new years date give ask yes care multiple psychologists psychiatrists tried dozens medications self medication medication tried change city change job regular exercise good diet regular sleep edit forgot add sometimes cause pain feel real try cause obvious permanent damage signs universe repeated words phrases scenarios scared know seeing omens might die soon dhar mann change name fans missed opportunity call dhar men ppl really shit talking intelligence post comments im right see u im still lt anyone say fuck stay late youre homework something finally finish realize arent going sleep tonight whats minutes gon na im intelligent need sex waste time id rather make money mobility issues twenty three following difficult pregnancy triggered inflammatory arthritis fibromyalgiachronic fatigue syndrome years ive falls due unsteady feet best times added mobility issues right ankle calf permanently injured achilles tendonitis plantar faciitis muscle calf tightened much due shortening tendons foot points instead sitting normally osteoarthritis right hip slips socket causes lot pain ongoing impact rest body back often spasms locks issues frozen shoulder limits use right arm top kidney liver bladder problems uh guys parents clapping right now match bedwars see computer screen help happening understand someone give explanation pls anyone try painkillers hose exhaust window lots duct tapei tried self strangulation painful overdosing difficult think best method absolute classic direction flawless acting superb words fall short great work definitive movie mumbai police movie stood test timesbr br om puri gives stellar performance smita patil less actors done best movie races thrilling every moment movie shakes whole badly forces rethink many issues confront societybr br story cop om puri starts career honest man ultimately degenerates killer first attempt bollywood behind scenes expose depressing truth mumbai cops kudos nihalani br br movie slew bollywood movies got released exposed criminalpoliticianpolice nexus thus movie truly trend setter trend dominated hindi movie scene decade br br movie moderate box office hit br br mustsee discerning movie fans much say tired returning mindset spite everything happens maybe state mind feels permanent something free nowi way knowing antidepressants help think afraid told state mind denied option try think might worry antidepressants even work people love feel enough rely antidepressantseither way probably going cookout car something early morning nobody see always easier ways always hassle seems casual thinking tonight living joyless life exhaustingim necessarily suicidal life feeling overwhelming im lot moments want burry head beneath blankets scream fu life general im dysthymia add drowning student loan debt graduate degree child special needs single mom feel ive ruined life going grad school older age owe wont able pay student loans im even im paying much humanly ive single twelve years left ex likely lose rental new year due landlord bringing family nothing car likely fall apart within six months cant even save money replacement due huge loan payments sons specialists living one expensive cities world feel ive accomplished nothing life life consists waking talking hours order working hours weekly crying way home putting energy lovely teen child eating chocolate make feel better passing bed nothing used enjoy gives pleasure joyful feelings dont see way make life better years im going tomorrow child love immensely though feel lost parenting jackpot maybe years hes adult deal life attempted redflag know feeli tried overdosing boyfriend found called ambulance five days getting hospital know feel process everything guess say im really numb never really happened regret one bit feels nothing changed strange im back regular things daily life days ago tried end life deal advice greatly appreciated thank life overi dont reason live anyone need math help im watching netflix chilling bird anyone need math help guess provide emotional support need racist homemade choccy milk better brandname choccy milk except trumoo shits fire feel people seem understand difference want kill ultimate act self harm biggest punishment inflict upon actually want dead never actually done anybody feel similarly curiousps post seeking advice vacuous messages positive shite want die want kill anyone relate need someone talk toi havent really talked depression thoughts anybody pressure finding apprenticeship go higher education much really need someone talk take herhis time talk bit thanks im tiredim tired im tired feeling hate put mask normalcy every morning act im fine push laugh happy right situations im alienated alone hate sure way getting right access though methods access result failure resulting hospital time people noticing people faking caring attention problem able handle im sorry im sorry love may loved getting incredibly difficult greatest thing looking forward day everyone alive recollection existed im confident looks idk randomly super insecure massive ego thinking model want done everything everyone constantly yelling blaming everything really want walk front traintoday went doctor boyfriend started screaming blaming everything trying make feel awful person everyone constantly yelling always always always blaming everything god want die already feel alone im gon na kill tonighthi im year old girl im gon na kill tonight aspergers syndome borderline personality disorder im aggressive angry parents assault punch dangerous things im normal cant control honest know parents still alive love much im sick dangerous im reason parents depressed alcoholic im reason dad wan na live anymore died finally free hate friends always tell ugly annoying true still im outcast group friends feel alone hate much sometimes used bring knife school kill wanted never able kill another human thats felt time ive always outcast wherever go really understand dress girls im pretty normal outside im good imitating normal people understand im always weird one hate much months ago actually started talking boy crush long time decided actually talk started talking everyday everynight deep conversations middle night started fall love always thought id single rest life felt miracle know may sound ridicolous started feel hope happy course three days ago stopped responding feel fucking miserable know sounds small problem life already falling apart small things destroy everything wan na live anymore im sick dangerous life falling apart many dreams life wanted move australia become criminologist start family fuck im awful human everyone favor killed thats im gon na tonight know wrote makes sense wanted let thoughts wish good life god bless goodbye society change men able pregnant men women equal chance getting pregnant society change men able pregnant men women equal chance getting pregnant dont know much longer im falling close friend im going back school monday stupid im failing school got rejected art highschool wanted go want friend love much feel im obsessed feel gets annoyed conversations usually go hi sup well im tired lol jsjskskkf feel friendship isnt keep trying stop talking matter hard try keep going back im trying thing test see shed talk didnt talk always start conversations ends feel suddenly everything worthless im worthless feel dont strength go anymore im goddamn weak dont shower brush teeth brush hair even dressed anymore dont dont exercise dont eat going back school making extremely anxious dont want go back im freaking im either gon na covid numbers go im crying smallest things friend shows slightest bit rudeness ignores cry people criticize drawings cry tired feeling emotion cry im gon na failure life lets thisno friends family boyfriend hates thinks im pretty fucking ugly cant go cant wake face shit every single day tonight night chocolate french bread baguette still good fuck yall today realized exactly motivated football daily workout almost gave really hard workout tried pump talking moment said football got right gear finished workout know motivated football much now american football non american people ps im jock stupid shit im big guy trying move lineman tight end got hella hands catch ball slow hobbly xd shy introverts reddit know conversation title self explaining lack social skills see self thats come reddit great advice ask irl online conversations edit introverted person well lonely times pandemic going nice social interaction opinion everything hurtsmy best friend saved life day kind weird think now thinking back hours mean try always weird always weird numbness feeling acceptance almost thinking feelings odd gon na hang night plan asked okay started asking things loved mean distracting know worked even know bad still dont makes feel worse mean really nice know good friends idea someone miss hurts hurts lot last time bad anyone feel bad everything feeling way notes plans feelings everything id hurting people makes everything worse hate feeling way big spiral keeps going want die feel bad people love makes feel worse makes want end keeps going constant feedback loop hurt physically emotionally nothing left give theres energy going spare yet keep pushing past limits help people keep life even despite many things getting much better last year want go want hurt anymore wish easily distracted selling stuff give kids one last good christmasim disabled combination mental health issues recently discovered administration going looking kicking people benefits im sick afford insurance chronic physical pain prevents working cant even use mouse trump loving parents bought tv christmas needs medicine tv right ill selling whatever order give kids decent holiday birthdays coming going wait birthday much later year im going easy fentanyl take im options even working car live im hoping make look accident somehow im sure movie everything want action movie explosionsshootoutsbad guys worse guys fun see james belushi using humor trouble gotten stole million dollars ultimate big boss skipper sounds cheesy course boydid fun watching movie whole lot better direct dvd garbage made nowadays silly plot find movie quite surprises store argue twists predictable fast pace movie give time think much themwhich blessing movie revealing ultimate twist journey moment title bit misleading reason many people hated movie probably expected movie mobsters stead crooks double crossing pure fun uhhh fellas gay gay make sure im accidentally gay instead gay ampxb homosexual gay homosexual want hang myselfif rope zero day based columbine high school massacre video diary two boys first know whats going happen think bad student film start talking horrible things going quite school start talking pipe bombs guns going shooting woods lot say movie know film well film forget watching film watching real video two boys madebr br two boys act weird cult burn stuff play station games books dvds homework stuff school stuff two boys anybody friends brothers people see walking street goes daily actives making gun videos make mentions bullying happens people said stuff clothes things im saying right many people things thatbr br thing people suspected sensitive topic chosen filmbr br thats review zero daybr br lets say end shooting scene messed help im harassed friends basically every post make manage reddit good give wholesome award dont know profile private dont know keep finding posts please help help appreciated anyone want say something stupid dumb ideas straight stupid shit watermelons made gold drop goddamnit theres upsexy everywhere room opened drawer upsexy everywhere man really bad ones im risk moment impulsesso impulses want kill ive depression many years never seeked help really know depression thought normal feel time matter untill beginning last summer started getting thoughts impulses sometimes lasted day sometimes couple weeks things escalate realised one day month ago edge bridge ready jump really needed help told parents crying sides end began seeing therapist taking antidepressants problem still impulses time time sometimes theyre strong second thought head times know things escalate real quick make sure stay around parents around someone care ask anything remain controlled mean things mind tricks something convince really want want now control moments feel going worse times need anyone convince need live know problem kinds impulses stop caring think justdo redflagtheres pretty big chance ill actually life really worth trouble entire life one big painful meaningless existence absolutely love hit fucking bus body shattered onto glass done brain make feel way want curl ball die worth trouble nothing worth trying ill still feel utter shit rest miserable existence putrid earth children starve women raped egotistical social parasites feed battle might blinded greed tell age know parasitic scumbags latch onto stuff throat something always stops meive almost attempted redflag couple times life say almost right followed always reminded thing im sharing saved life many times im hoping maybe save someone love know something friedrich nietzsche philosopher whose writings impression complete grasp understanding life value many thoughts ideas outstanding resonant within know move past digress one central ideas deep behind every desire simply desire power misunderstood misused justify megalomaniacal psychopathic behaviors attitudes ethics use empathetic loving positive uses especially applied philosophical considerations im willing expound ideas groundings interested brevitys sake ill cut chase principles implications firstly means allinall power valuable thing us really power best summarized two words power capacity desirable ability control second consequence belief things will power begin feel sense pointlessness redflag nietzsche declaring power utmost desires lie water difficulty truth means must become strong climb abyss weakness far easy everyone recognizing feel nothing urge say quit ill last moment giving difficulty life want fight tooth nail grow strengthen point longer feel death look forward stronger healthier smarter happier enduring fulfilled life overall better constant struggle always rooted remembering always struggle abyss weakness pit pity beckons throw stop telling want rest want end going gets rough must find say better let life either affirm negate id rather die trying improve life ending moment weakness telling nothing strongest weakest know far ill go think last moments exhaust every means change situation better welcome death im sorry post nothing lengthy redundancy im glad hear something resonated inspired made smilelaugh think become least little stronger every day hope whenever end anytime soon walking past onto next day better sunshine harder rain say almighty yes everything god among humanity expecting impacted film portraying family one expect living next door ordinary fleshandblood people typical hollywood fare face common problemdebilitating illness storyline grips heart powerful lesson casting script direction acting flow together surge draws viewer deep story give film full attention message truly inspire need someone tell im wrongi hate hate one life turn lean result asking strangers carry problems help im year old guy hope spent life lying friends family done everything deny sexuality photoshopping college transcripts dad know failed every class currently school working shitty grocery store manager constantly harasses love guy reciprocate affection try hard better tried medication still feel redflag best option scared negative mindset see written least seemy life big pile almosts filtered happiness poor choices im tired know last time happy without mind bombard ruining everything another worry spoil way know say hate times wish ended already times feeling better coming back seems mockery wish something kill stop thinking better fuck im fucking sad cant much longerevery single day step closer inevitable ive always known end redflag even small child going kill today tomorrow next week probably years one way end know somehow always fall somehow always feel dissapointed defeated matter hard try optimistic try seem find lasting friends relationship someone need someone talk things chest want anymore keep head water keep drowning dissapointment felt owe fuckers anythingwhen kill im writing note im telling soul never cared need break news easy anything passed drivers license test today thats nice day everybody lt damn funny valentines day already history homework time emblem castle eggman zone act sonic robo blast eh anything anyway definitely take sonic robo blast girlfriendboyfriend holiday named rd us president complicated love problem crushi dont instagram snapchatjust phone number thing know went training w found number training whatsapp group doesnt know know number dumb say hi trought messages bcs doesnt know found snapchat thinkif doesnt add confused u probably guys monke return monke reject modernity fuck human homies monkey one associates dog horse runs one look horse wholesome one anyone feel wasted teenage years im friends going movies driving friends night skating around partying stuff sitting buttfuck nothing annoying point seems cant even ask tag along completely different friend group many people online lately used see online time average sudden keep seeing people online hate feeling idk anymorei feel empty numb genuinely cant deal anymore dont anyone talk ive tried nothing actually helped nothing look forward feel everyday waiting actually kill stop every time dont know unclogged toilet feel legit god joke taken shit weeks took one around minutes ago problem shit clogged damn toilet bowl absolute nightmare mainly started flashbacks similar incident hotel traumatic experience dad time pm parents asleep first step make noise attract second try solve first flushed work obviously plunger whatever thought googled solutions required baking soda shit time either thought water hit shit high velocity force shit pipe filled bucket make noise though dumped sink nothing happened bowl flooded eventually water receded filled another bucket waiting looked mirror gave pep talk sorts bucket filled lifted bucket high dumped bowl shit dissapeared felt releif fuck happy unironically feel fucking god done dad used bathroom taking piss notice anything mission accomplished actually ur bored tell cos im bored time two hands highly enjoyable aussie crime caper ultimately succeeds way film easily combines tense dramatic moments funny characters situations give film right balance feel comedy film occurs naturally laughs set elaborately worked really funny thanks fact character movie excellently cast actoractress recognises relate aussie humor portray well realistically course theyre helped immensely fantastic script writerdirector gregor jordan reading another review film american seen heavily criticised basically passing pulp fiction clone think thats rubbish film trying pulp fiction feel style excellent films totally opposite without wanting sound superior arrogant think fully understand film humor sincerity characters etcyou australian least understand culture guy obviously faintest clue americans whose reviews certain nonamerican films seem ignorant trouble comprehending anything american product real shame really great film love story featured main character girl portrayed real sincere sweet way im proud film collection people stop treating people shit ideology aslong anything harmfull something bad go ahead stop pushing worse time movie made rugby coach larry gelwix fan storys characters slipped fell begin grow struggled incredibly strong conflicts understandable completely believable life easy answers problems facing superb actors excellent script brought true story life wish movies one days watch almost exclusively worthwhile true stories typically far interesting fiction additionally one inspirational teaches us give anyone quickly call police best friend tells wants commit redflagtheres group whatsapp chat three best friends im going give pseudonyms preserve identity shayla gertrude camille camille clinically depressed couple years now early last year multiple occasions texted suicidal goodbye messages group thanking us weve done saying made mind wants end life even though knows selfish thing course lose fucking shit every time go panic attack never know saying actually going heres thing every time says going kill never actually wakes next morning apologising saying felt posessed texted us suicidal messages happened least five times frankly speaking cycle staying til morning make sure fine anything stupid extremely exhausting live near end rushing house make sure anything stupid everyone kind knows going nobody wants take chances either heres disagreements start ive decided next time camille sends us im going kill love thank done im going call fucking police give shit hates decides cut life mad friend always better dead friend want responsible death know made assumption kill ended anyway gertrude friend telling shouldnt says leaping call police good idea says find information first decide make phone call stand personally talk try assess serious rather leaping dial experts gertrude believes bringing police potentially make things complicated everyone including us parents family part really ticked gertrude said needed realistic make educated guesses considering camille often claims wants kill ends gertrude basically saying going understand gertrude coming see incredibly idealistic way looking situation perhaps rational hear calling redflag prevention country immediate help police respond much faster redflag prevention website country states know someone immediate physical danger call police immediately police trained mental wellness checks respond redflag come firstworld country generally competent police trying talk phone helpful either god knows decide present camille selfharms hero course camilles parents around help need anything parents know handle situation im talking situations parents presentsleeping cant help interested making assumptions camilles wellbeing expert think qualified assess situation determine whether call police id rather call let police experts take sincerely believe act camille says rather speculate intentions aware actual chance committing redflag high regardless intend stupid maybe im fucking selfish want feel guilty calling police please give advice know want anything emotionally damaging much help appreciated referencehttpwwwmentalhealthtodaycomredflagsuihtm got gf lied haha fell im straight girl bad thoughts bad ive bad thoughts lately lifes hell want sleep forever couldnt imagine something family dont know deep whole im todays complete ass im ready good day creative title feel zombie apocalypse id one hit mag release middle firefight anyone feel meempty alone putting face day back mind know know youre real life waiting home maybe podcast something cut silence every kinda sit write note youve written several times think life im paid jeep decent job rich enough save bit got dream watch got terrible relationship incredible web support yet find miserable less fortunate life still write still silence lonely life somehow filled people dont much feeling want glad life ive made far cant seem shake feeling pointless anyone make sense brothers putting together pc dad next room heard dad say dont force brother angrily replying know thats im hear plasticsnapping noise giving need make decisionquick history redflag wished never born around wanted die wanted kill onwards think period three weeks point past decade happily died pain cause family sorry mangled sentence need editing ive taking step speed path death without killing immediacy reason want family know killed want think died accidentally stupidity smoke take drugs frequency take unregulated medications transition gender etc problem moving quick enough im kind immediate danger im going swallow shotgun ive thinking taking heroin equivalent thats speeding things heres im im engaging life cant far gone genuinely want die feel confused actions saying one thing thoughts another kind example trying lose job care use someone talk think help make decision whether finally give truly engage life halfway point getting thank reading day asking day day people woke great day im bad rn holy fuckin shit bday tmr thanksgiving planning chilling homies bad things maybe drugs got ta go dummy thanksgiving party family kinda sucks rly cant reschedule friday cuz got ta go doctors appointment got project due sick fuck assigns project break ghosted one girl im talkin talking month days asking ft sent important message actually talkin bout feelings love way said enjoy talking lot enjoy convos general confess cuz im dumb left delivered hours shit sucks cuz got read receipts ion even know saw message online disc though im probably takin l one supposed go back school dec st niggas cali dumb fuck know goin back lookin forward school reopening social interaction homeboys talking girls ive texting quarantine past month cant cuz cali mfs cant stay fuckin house tldr bad bday tmr cant anything cuz im going big family thanksgiving party cant reschedule ghosted one girl days delivered hours sending important message u read far sick good thanksgiving although definitely read particular agatha christie book point remember anything except name abernethie good thing seeing story unfold without knowing play allowed appreciate sheer genius agatha christie way misleads pulls rug feet main reason success timelessness addition stories excellent production values beautiful locations wonderful music topnotch acting elegant directing etc reasons series success timelessness virtues present funeral word advice alert right start clues dropped place even opening sequence quite unnerving moments well contrast peacefullooking englishcountryside locations small touches humor mustsee mystery buffs good film general hole people mean say trouble finding hole whilst losing virginity middle genuine question days ago science class squirrel weird eyes staring window idk stared minute walked away weird felt confused rest day credits short graduating high school graduating means nothing attempted hang failed miserably whole life constantly dealing trauma childhood mom lack father figure instead getting kind genuine help thrown mental hospitals father say full heart kill year know constantly bullied way look gave long time ago suppose want free life life scars define person forever hopeless looking anyone tell things better know time gone free waking every day horrified reflection become things told child id never become little happy kid dead ruins everyday wake worthless let child trying free happy live life meaning youth wasted away ill never back wasted youth majority life spent trying make others happy others deem necessary want free vicious cycle trauma told live die dignity die knowing everything hold another second say suicide easy way way wasted youth reddit survived redflag attempt months agoa months ago wife asked divorce finally got around talking realized treated poorly really messed wanted make things right already moved want try option felt atone done wife amazing person theres excuse way treated felt appropriate punishment death rather hard took inch knife stabbed chest missed heart aiming heart puncture lung going take hour wouldve died punctured lung complications herehttpimgurcomwhqb warning hairy man chest picture right now knife wound upper middle portion picture scar left side inserted chest tube vacuum chest cavity reinflate lung suck stray blood wife called police found shortly stabbed drifting consciousness taken hospital patched sent inpatient psych im medications really help course im lot therapy well two months later im feeling ok im still forgive acted marriage feel good around thing want people take away crisis help medication resistant drugs first literally took pit despair make therapy effective violence bad really want punch abuser face wan na feel cheek meat crack gay little fist dumbass thoughts day ok elephants elephants fucking cool got incher average dont pretend dont know im talking relative body mass around lb assume im talking african elephants thingy tiny asf thats one inch every lb every inch humans lb every inch meaning elephants got humans inches haha nice yall fuckin imagine im inches tall meaning elephant shlong relative humans shit wuoood packin almost times fuckin height thats today odd couple one movies far surpasses reputation people know hum theme song complain living sloppy oscar fastidious felixbut theyre underselling film without knowing neat guy living sloppy guy portrait two friends helping agony divorce damn funny start finish kind comedy arises realistic stressful plain awful situations viewers actually found film bit uncomfortable think verisimilitude strength besides matthaus bulldog face cracks favorite comedy country mile find springboard english language arts grade answers currently questions america dont want diei mri definitely destroyed inner ears car sounds motor freeway meeting today leave peoples voices hurt forehead mri week ago still hope easy say want kill self really hard love many family friends want see children sick sorryi want live sadness anymore please help breaking pointi know put know cant keep inside anymore cant confess anyone knows way finding got back college today ive never felt sick worst semester ive im sophomore drop course altogether halfway im gon na take summer course make counts towards major resultingly pass classes semester still considered full time student live campus next semester think ive done im almost entirely convinced havent ive gone math either one two classes failed entirely cant even sure attended ones class take midterm probably didnt options point everything revolved around going college embarrassing performance breaking point cant explain try harder always slacked attend classes excuses need full time tuition paid cant afford ill kicked insurance able afford medication thats kept longtime illness flaring last time done made drop pounds goals beyond college pathways avenues ambitions college everything pin holding everything together road future grades come back options cant even look parents cant talk destroy completely options left ive always lagged behind siblings final nail coffin cant overstate much college mattered much fucking joke let slip past ive considered redflag long time first time felt immediate physical feels wall pressed fills feeling dragged doctors kid feel reasonable avenue cant succeed single bare bones thing future depended kind person kind future lead ive done nothing bring unnecessary stress financial pain family ive never felt claustrophobic anxious burning sensation chest numbness jaw shaking hand ive never felt trapped skin theres way think reasonable ways go methods ensure success ive failed many things im terrified thisll another ill live family knowing alongside failures person never amounted anything wasted money failed redflag im afraid even posting instinctively nervous someone seeing something embarrassing low cant even fucking listen music watch funny video without feeling guilty sick inside feel death necessary urgent every time think remember blame end always dad cringe funny dad showed actualy funny facebook meme said made went pfft didnt make cant make funny memes walked away said made dumb fake forced laugh ohhh hes good dad ngl okay bazinga moment im tripping lsd reasons dieplease someone tell okay horrible leave incomprehensibly filled rage stopped throwing shit inside room hitting boxing bag started aggressively rubbing head hands pacing around small space room barely clean hyperventilating drool seeps mouth rubbed head much hands feel covered wax hell anger driving insane easily beat goose fight ok recently saw vine girl saying look chickens led videos people encountering geese running away demonstrated aggression scared people kids adult running away goose im physically strong trained martial art easily beat shit goose came nothing attack besides bite bill dont even sharp teeth puncture skin geese arent smart either often times rush target head without considering inferior fighting capabilities humans long enough arms reach stop goose even biting range geese major disadvantage long necks easy grab hands final nail coffin opinion many geese saw didnt even use greatest advantage us flight tldr geese dumb probably beat one one v one fight fear silly waterfowl superior predator ass hurts forgot stretch proceeded work legs help barely walk type diabetic wanting dieso yeah title kinda says ive trying little tyke back middle school avail ive kinda sat back never really talking anyone using videogames sort vent make feel something good game becoming immersed helped lot things ive felt sitting around building medical costs dragging super hard ive never job anything make money always super nervous walk interviews beat time already moms house car drive cant really drive job go college im pretty sure id become nervous wreck anyways ive never really taken care diabetes made become incredibly aware body probably start break early friends start go know useless loser put makes want around feel waste money time space food everyone around help never talked anyone id want relationship im gay really someone stop care know sooner later fed useless anyways ive contemplating whether now farm middle nowhere mom decided wanted move boyfriend middle nowhere one wanted take go sit typing alone im pretty sure realize useless im sure theyll really helps type ask people shoot breeze internet bad cant talk friends play games help relax vent seems whole life theres escape mean ive though leaving one day walking going decide stop know really help either knowing months ago tried od insulin woke hospital ive got medical bills straight highschool way pay im sorry long im confused sure really helps vent people whove known motivations couple closest friends ive contemplating redflag latelyi posted depression subreddit want discuss feelings sub see people say past weeks ive debating whether end ive suicidal thoughts past pushed away im welcoming thought im losing live alarming rate think im meant truly happy world life sucks absolutely miserable right might even worse reality homeless crawling closer closer need realistic life never improve ill never career ill never tangible skills talents ill never decent social life girlfriend student loans never go away amp worst ill never away crazy ass mother redflag becoming realistic time goes life completely bullshit way fucking hard everyone tells possible turn life around fail recognize luck others lack one thing thats comforting redflag idea things gets bad always use last resort stop pain im going die die one day anyway whats difference early especially considering future anyway say permanent solution temporary problemwell need permanent solution series temporary problems need escape route cut every one friends years sunday toxic shits bullying kids playing fortnite others sharing exact opinion dont know put years im glad gone downside freaking one talk sure might jump bridge onto highway might jump work want fucking live anymore wanted die fucking long feels thing really wanted probably going actually bitch hopefully find courage finally kill really reason anything lifes basically perfect always wanted kill always will might well ruins life lives around hopefully killing today first saw track dvd hifi show nov london really cream nowit high end arcam systemit sounded great dtsi dvd ill tell far exciting music dvd watchedthe performance cream age mind blowing sound quality best heard music dvdit matter type music likethis one definitely grow youits sheer brilliance performance make watch againeven new musicians cut mustard days old rockers silverlake life view absolutely stunning movie aids well gay love relationship images indeed really hard take especially one gay fears aids probably sensitive person watching easy make movie terrible illness consequences one two peoples lives movie teaches care hard times never gets morbid still shows life time reminding outside theater room life goes whatever destiny people may characters incredibly endearing watch intimacy shots never go beyond strict limit never unveiling anything private offensive children certainly watch movie grownups whether deal situations regret tears shed answer riddle may win fiddle call homosexual man stays night sleeps day im gay gay dont feel telling family know wont supported rejected found art teacher sexual assaulted damn kid find happen year ago randomly came mind chilling found word mouth former study hall teacher kids thats heard day one stop making jokes talking save life study class th year math grades taking nose dive dumbass wanted stay hes bail set still pin time im gunna adult set surious bot dont mad im bored ask questions im male us know secret make girl wet splash bucket water clicked nsfw dirty pigs want die badly want hurt parentsive crippling depression elementary school ive lost friends barely make money flunked college car barely bed anymore feel everyone angry disappointed want end know kill parents im happy pokemon day entire childhood ngl im shining light shitty voice head hoping lose power wayim sick death negative messages give im going write shine light im overwhelmed shame create little voices hissing ear youre weird youll never friends youre failure life youre wasting time one likes youre unhappy youre miserable person depression youre nasty relative killing way end pain youre going hurt forever see youre weird loser wont write back youre bad person liking family members cant normal relationship anyone always way always way might well give now werent worth time family moved without youre unattractive dress poorly friend mean friend let watch bf sex sad boi hours one thinks s science fiction films one thinks sort schlocky black white b films parodied old mystery science theater television show yet far films plan outer space robot monster good films s good great science fiction films day earth stood still incredible shrinking man invasion body snatchers war worlds thing another world yet best bunch literacy production values undoubtedly mgms first big foray level science fiction forbidden planet released minute color film directed fred m wilcox featured state art special effects endowed good screenplay cyril hume screen treatment called fatal planet irving block allen adler adapted aspects william shakespeares tempest itbr br film drew raves released oscar nominated special effects electronic music score louis bebe barron although credited electronic tonalities avoid music guild fees vivid matte paintings inspired chesley bonestell famed monster id moti animated animator joshua meador loan walt disney studio even famous appearance robby robot first role either film television later appear film invisible boy included dvd bonus well several appearances s sci fi tv shows twilight zone night gallery lost space whose robot often confused cameo appearance film gremlinsbr br tale simple elegantly constructed filled humorous asides leaven forced love story aspect film rd century united planets cruiser cd flying saucer led commander jj adams leslie nielsen yes leading man type police squad days en route planet altair iv investigate happened crew bellerophon sent planet twenty years earlier years journey encounter lone survivor party doctor edward morbius walter pidgeon prospero standin philologist gorgeous blond daughter altaira anne francis miranda character pre s miniskirt robby robot domestic servant calibanian counterpart morbius warns crew mysterious force killed bellerophon party first year yet immune technically good film especially rear projections matte paintings absurdity adult reactions timmys robbys exploits borders dalian surreal absurdity yet manifest filmmakers sense sublime absurdity film conjures played straight thus making even funnier main feature forbidden planet deserves kudos perfect film great way spend couple hours far better star wars although made twenty years later seems much outdated juvenile films space odyssey solaris alien aliens first two terminator films really equaled surpassed classic depth effectsbr br worth knowing despite forbidden planets happy ending possibility moti still dormant within alta well fathers daughter even vivid nightmare father moti attacked ship second time film wisely shows moti never shows krel imagination always conjure greater scares best special effects film makes good use narrative ellipses condense tale something far realistic art films often fail forbidden planet one rare films defines yet transcends era unlike sci fi films rather obvious cold war allegories watch agree well sleep little less easy even dont theres still scene anne francis skinnydipping alone timeless im dumb worldi make stupid mistakes constantly tonight husband go different town ordered pizza place name one street sure takes long go close hearing call outside place thought ordered waiting emails load phone asking receipt email still waiting load sent dark place know thinks im stupid husband damn intelligent never made feel stupid purpose feel unintelligent person compared ampxb often notice mistakes made paying closer attention mind usually things deem important work come home brain fried cant focus much work administrative assistant started last week love quite honest im office put energy work im shell end day sometimes takes moments grasp husband saying asking cant keep days days much today make feel worthless stupid feel cant even make sense simple things ampxb thank reading im sorry long post im sufferingnothing helps im point take pills daily help ive tried many different medications nothing helps feel depression wasting away brain body many better things life reason cant truly wish never born know meant world one great movies time story fascinating actors convincing really identify characters william wyler proofs movie great director craftsmanship unsurpassed infuriates people around hurt committed redflag wish werent finally let goi cant parents learning hate existence thing stopping dont know parent idea talk dont care enough learn feel stranger home cant help feel definitely last summer horny lurking shadows waiting planning attacking least expect love everything great way late wondering tf exist redflag socially acceptable people try prevent someone theyve never met whose life story know making call end life fuck life shambles cant even bothered fucking im pathetic piece shit even dog likes ah well fucking yell wall guess got karma exciting questions leavingok guys new thread thinking end life soon may look joke said long year depression perfectly tought act normal dont want bore whole life story bacame leaving question want answers say redflag sin helps rid pains ones around worry say gods will god may already decided someday life gon na die ask later comments movie among favorite foreign films others amilee life dog similarities movies many great foreign films takes mundane slice life transforms profound heartfelt lesson br br japan man bored mundane life rut married life sees beautiful japanese woman staring window dance studio instant takes train pass enthralled beauty faraway glance connection discover share br br dance memorable wonderful characters deal painful realities transcending world dance breaking traditional moulds stereo types japanese society risk happiness find joy far away one movies magical meaningful transcends mundane showing true magic miracle life tho feel one give chance encouraging stuff nice visited sleeper agent tired got couch one thinks think way movies supposed women empowering right either make women look anything first try without problems fight anyone problem able anything time change gender already established character changing gender already established character done woke points useless annoying writing women everythinganything message slapped showing woman defuse bomb fighting people time pilot crashing plane giving birth feels unrealistic woke points tell women everything cause one everything anything show realistic person written well grounded cause strong woman think alien better ghostbusters fucking charlies angels new one forgot name cause knew wrote compelling protagonist tried kill gotten theni depression years seeing therapists psychologists social workers medications tried kill first time stayed psych wards times last time tired depressed energy lie bed day caffeine help mg today pm im ready go bed drive motivation everything flat want normal able function people want live seems constantly irritable cant focus anything increasingly suicidal weeks now decided go see therapist college earlier gone talk doctor medications first feeling suicidal doubled medicationthis made less suicidal throwing lot think straight stop taking medication cant afford went see counselor basically responses oh sucks yes verbatim left said remember need emergency help call told financially possible said oh sucks tired live much effort little payoff fucking energy killing kill tonight roommate find body mind talking everything bad literally everything even relationship gfevery slight bit work perfect boom mind head try make feel bad everything completely worthless moment hope nothingin last weeks got far even feelings overwhelmed turned sides gf busy felt ignored even something dowhile work sit knowing end relationship regret losing team position game server highest achievement almost years know useless canceled study means future work distanced almost friendsall head mind hates wants see suffer alonei sitting things never done trying cut arms blades scissor hittingpunching head hope goes awayif something wrong anesthesia last week finally sleep peaceampxbits first time really doubt survive till next therapy meeting without serious harm mind killing feel people want kill themselvesi feel people want kill cant dying hard painful vent frustration sub reddit wish dead ill soon anyway read recent post society fked view stuff even education system wrong im doneim finally reaching end life life shitfirst moved another country last octoberfrom south africai white year old guy girlfriend virginall friends left better friendswhat best ways kill myselfdont say redflag answer yes meive diagnosed clinical depression im antidepressants feels ive pushed edgemy mind reset feels newfound clairvoyance bottomless pit kept emotions mind mere colander see happy never achieve satisfaction happiness sure incapable feeling sort positivity want spend life slaving away corperation survive unable appreciate anything want unable retire live constant paranoia anxiety may good enough gained home want deal anymore pain life offer ive enough experience every ounce pain hardship die ive felt specifically thoughts awful years today felt far deep now ive started let go hopes die faster disguised health issues cigarettes substance abuse alcohol binge eating sitting around moping name feel almost certain one point certain flawed doomed individual feel much time left place im simply meant earth happiness unreachable want worry family friends came strangers maybe one day heal allow time gamble point bsta mat rtten kttbullar med potatismos och brunnss svensk delikatess om man ska vara helt rlig feel im staring death facei feel choice either die live painful life success im good enough make friends people never life cant make friends hope hope im stupid say let go enjoy life normal people never able im weak everything effects emotionally negative way cant never meant succeed want really crazy thing happened sub shadowbanned time epic fortnite dances know make weekendeverything piling every time looks things getting better something falls end right back worse watch hope crushed never im freshly minted grad student im well im working decent dead end job rejection rejection jobs field husband family seem baffled seem understand im smart capable think anyway th three day weekend think im going much time think feel im drowning every failure ive experienced last three years love husband family want give opportunity watch fail anymore wish make everything life go awayim sick tired living im years old im failing classes im lazy work im afraid people think talk people school want hated recently ive thinking everyone class hates kid friend joking friend partners kid smirked course sound bad really hurts someone want talk ive feeling depressed year work piles go away told parents yet im afraid ill upset want put stress want kill think id either sit warm water use one razor blades cut open wrists hang nothing getting better give crap anything school even act scared know failed test teacher gives back gets reaction want talk guidance counselor theyd tell parents yo anyone want talk im hella bored female rn play soccer support man utd listen mostly rap im dry hmu exactly one week ago came hospital alcohol poisoning possible organ failure made realize fully expect die im took minutes find vein collapsed doctor thought going die came hospital night telling sober point exactly one week later want weed glass whiskey matter happens always go back old ways realize theres way im going make brain hate month keep making dream meeting love life living best life wake im gon na happen brain trolling sleep needed thank time three people reading teacher forgot hand assignment math dm u minutes never talk whos first come first serve ulcztie speedrun anyone new zealand im considering moving know someone chat shit biti want one night think fucking ending ive enough know dont long left im praying ill next weeks things sort first please someone chat shit little dont care subject choose want pretend someone gives shit minute stranger person world isnt angry everyone pick topic lets chat shit little god feeling great tommorow hw ffs mean girl surprisingly interested asked wanted video call said sure done pretty much normal started talking joking bought bandana wearing first met actually really cute tbh anyways suggest draw something usually graffiti n shit asked word wanted said gang joke gang gang kid n shit anyways really know interested really matter pretty nice friend really type person relationships buona notte everyone arrivederci reply comments wake got adhd mom depression dad unbearable combination weeks think everything possible achieve everything want restless focus anything fail mercilessly realize nothing worked leave bed want kill life last years yeah knowing shitty depressive times last forever small consolation know depression back see point getting life track ruin shortly made life contribute society mood stable afraid future want stop existing see living streets years keep job long one give money lie bed cry day night genetic disaster brilliant thriller deserving far fame mitchum ryan awesome starring roles entire supporting cast truly gripping film noir featuring wonderfully images great dialogue heart strong message tolerance understanding based novel concerning homophobia movie attacks postwar antiemitism intolerance hatred considerable power though parts may seem little preachy modern audiences still power shock works well thriller right credit involved want kill homeim vacation right now going pretty well ive panic attacks intrusive thoughts last two days hurt twice really want cant stop thinking killing home tomorrow night happened chat rooms bring back fun meet people one talk toi really friends say care let know im im fucking time im tired around time surely want either ive burned people guess fully believe say care im messed weak needy go ive thought calling someone everyone asleep want talk anyway dead feel way one worry helping feel im holding people back enjoyment life logical basis assume things better things magically change im going wake happy ill change highly unlikely happen ive pretty much known id end life now finding right moment plan everything seems painful od unlikely work without stronger meds hanging cutting suffocating seem painful gun quick gun want leave gruesome scene someone find either want check fall asleep never wake im sorry feel way cant take anxiety self hatred fear sadness anymore nothing look forward want someone notice friends ask im say couldnt happier assume mean happy really physically incapable happy childish cant seem bring tell person feel easier tell strangers internet wish born closest friends really care cant anything disclosing change anything ultimately comes back choose happy actively work towards ive tried think happy first want kill phone hotline regret much planning killing tommorow excited something look forward honestly felt morally obligated least try hotline uh bad idea first people even say anything meaningful someone talk someone gets paid prevent suicide thought maybe give reason live sent police house parents know suicidal mom bawling horrible dads taking hospital see doctor tommorow day suppose home alone things love one last time ending life gracefully tricked suicide hotline fuck find caillou smut wrote fifth grade really wrote smut ablut fucking college caillou wrong almost committed ending itso ive come close finally committing finalizing things almost still reservations im concerned son affect time im end rope hanging tiniest threads ive modified bullets technically cartridges grinding cross patterns tips theyll spray open lethal thereby helping guarantee successful know go complete know aim almost sure itll lights body im close im still slightly struggling fear pulling trigger ive told itll rather quick equivalent maybe stung bee something might hurt brief moment ill dead soon itll forever sleep free pain life ive endured years relief ive become comfortable enough finally look forward serenity kazans early film noir oscar reviews go extraordinary detail length film symbolism rate highly almost see coming prefer take toneddown approach longforgotten film appears shot practically budget quasidocumentary fashion pneumonic plague loose streets new orleans military doctor widmark city detective douglas apprehend main carrier palance film moody shot stark black white makes good use locations widmark wonderful usual forget symbolism crime equals disease disease equals crime enjoy chase always easy watching film well new century particular style shortlived post wwii early s unlikely interest casual film watcher watching first time sit tight big chase end something frankly know filmed say probably took long film finale first percent movie thought movie really awesome one drews best fan michael vartan thought hot movie bad reviews want watch movie loved ending movie clearly shown smile face surprised james franco jessica alba love highlighted movie end drew making huge comment truth really told truth sometimes happens high school movie amazing defiantly hope comment useful imdb readers need shoulder cry im aloneits happened another girlfriend cheated point im thinking really getting anymore relationships dont know anymore everything going fine fucked stopped giving attention stopped treating nice things stopped taking dates fucking faulti classes today didnt feel going park day fuck wrong cheat coincidence two times means fault day always knew lonely past months fine side weeks ago best friend nearly years moved country share verything one person really let everything getting lonely reddit dont know long keep act together ive pretending happy long know really gaming nice distraction even lately cant seem fully game constant battle feel shit lying people around friends ive made reddit today pretended someone wasnt pretended happy pretended problems stupid things happened chat dont want pretend anymore stop browse rdepression everynight browse new section make sure always comment threads comments im wondering right now going anyone might actually hurt tonight reddit know stop im always saying ill listen others one listen might actually hurt tonight ive crying much last hour eyelids hurt much eyes puffy cant see shit really need someones shoulder cry reddit need someone hold need someone hold one want friends read want chat read really shambled broken piece shit im brave im happyim think im piece shit ive tried hard make life worth something happened today fucking broke im really hope someone finds post dont want die alone sorry whole post mess mind huge mess atm anybody grew without proper adult supervision currently man deep respect deserve nothing best life live way worst currently years old living without proper adult supervision nearly years people might think living house rules discipline anything might best nothing basically live lazy cousin almost nothing play games shit even though guardians supposed taking care miles away house live past couple years raising self aside financial support thankful enough pretty much trying figure everything alone happened pretty normal life wherein kind dependent parents everything mean cmon parents give children need time love basic needs know moving onto kind lifestyle lost parents really tough deal mourning loss moving new city school home changing lifestyle completely leaving friends old house behind altogether pretty much alone throughout nobody age understand felt guardians supposed looking kind always leave alone sure might hardest thing people really fast forward nearly years living kind life gotten worse house live always heavy neglect failure keep chores cousin literally helping adding mess dishes always pile seldomly take trash piles many containers fridge unfinished food several months back area infested insects snails parts rooves leaking gardens ridiculously overgrown always late restocking groceries etc keep going gets worse worse add eat healthy foods eat times day eat processed foods fast foods plus exercise either lives disgusting really wish strength persevere change lives tough alone always try initiate changing lives every time hoping motivate cousin help help still stays lazy try fix lives really takes huge toll always affects progress wish help lately dealing much point nearly attempted leave world good several times thought rather mom now aunt lives halfway across world decided going two puppies wrong love dogs much suitable kind lifestyle right now feel overwhelmed untidy messy house dogs already feel bad feel deserve much better home struggle take care personally feel failing providing everything need big breed dogs never everything new experience feel giving proper lifestyle need redflagful plus expected cousin helping even least pet play know hurts much live middle upperclass town life pretty close people poverty live even worse least still manage fun loving families place depressing place seen lately realized emotionally neglected nearly years mom passed away even gotten close moving thought gone still heartbreaking always brings tears nobody family bothered sit ask coping dead house live especially past year half quarantine cousin barely talk unless go outside run errands stays room day bother helping house swear god contemplated going away good many times fucking life horrible want escape badly mom heaven thing stopping dogs love much leave behind knowing might taken care properly really trying best muster strength fix life without feeling needing cousin productive find hard depression guess wish things better wish continue fight dogs ps really looking pity tough challenges lives battle fight absolutely appreciate though experiences comment let know managed better least cope realizing emotionally neglected iam family compliment straight guys mean im flirting means im trying make happy thats try beat something posting random word album adventures modern recording gets back spotify day kiln gt filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler lt elite ones boruto episode animated well link httpsyoutubembdexpzfw years dad died mum dating im comfortable advice brother long feel mad anyone whose bereavement divorce advice share tired lost will sometimesno memes mei see world actually life know felt compelled share anecdote todayperhaps belong ill probably delete post alcohol benzodiazepines wear offbefore pick bottle face struggle another hours thought share moment life suppose true relief feels number months ago working longtime friend mine owned small business hired work road day talking felt convinced take day visit large city far liveone largest america walking street massive city hundreds thousands people still felt completely alone much always single young woman morning run passed us met eyes mine short couple seconds one deepest conversations hadbut words spoken ive gotten proficient putting mask ive become master showing others expect see instead real moment though let see unguarded self decades internal pain torment tears hurt buried long reasoni felt understoodlike seconds okay never talked im sure remember young man day still gives peace able think back moment know ill never another id think last conscious breath im able see kind understanding eyes looking back minds eye able perhaps others young woman day sometimes simple moments mean troubled us know soda brand called orangina stopping ads pay covid relief google orangina ads info sure put google orangina ads post make sense dog died coming home feels empty one excited greet im gon na leave social media girl told crush back waiting ask reject im gay funny think reminder check bros today hi guys wanted post reminder check bros grils today boys men less likely reach fellow peers theyre struggling depression issues friends may even going rough patch dont know theyre afraid admit important reach instead make sure theyre heard cared go ahead send text bros especially ones noticeably struggling today mean entire world want die badly ive basically given lifebecause think death often literally dont give fuck anymore meaningless college work pointless temporary life things anyone relate guess thought process im going inevitably end life point doesnt matter im still ew update left app minutes updated fawk want old reddit back gt wan na chat maybe interests sum im f music specifically right flower face msi nicole dollanganger listen types music dont really movies pick horror movies favorite unironically watch total drama camp camp wise dont watch much tv uh drawing idk dont lot really names meaning origins sound greatso yeahthis pretty bogus intro yeah help online friendi cant crosspost ill put really want know thanks reading schizophrenic friend ive known years online diagnosed paranoid schizophrenia seems worse years suicidal least attempts past years likes game lot one favorite fandoms touhou fandom believes dies reincarnated gensokyo main setting touhou project ive working mom years weve gotten help therapists many antidepressants persistent insisting put go messy way honestly know long im shitty college freshman friends willing help antics goes causes much drama decide keep unblocked feel massive amount guilt single mother feel gone meet week chat daily im kind unhappy im getting cant enough talking experience usually comes along enamoured start nearly always reply within mins im busy im still excited pahse lot wait times read receipt coming whatsapp within period reply hardly screams hes really ok wait long reply assume hes messaging others im new potential gf hey redditors idk post tired diagnosed things never leave tired crippling redflag prevents functioning normally tired pop pills wake day going sleep really tired guys ami want go home guess going home soon hey scared upset angry romantic rant told guy liked text worlds worst texter checks maybe one week messages everyone friend knew liked days tells days ago said wanted friends forgot tell waiting rejection thats worst partthe waiting days days coming terms fact doesnt nothing happen wait fear hes judging im angry friend dont know im done ive hung way long waiting things better dontim tired dependent mom im massive fuck im never going able support tried every treatment therapy half life theres hope left us werent meant world theres fixing ive already systematically cutting people life dont think anyone going hurt bad ive honestly never felt control happy moment made decision last paycheck isnt even enough cover fraction bills going towards supplies right things rid harddrives clear thats pretty much im going miss anyone truly part motivation want people hurt think undecided thing im going elderly dog wish go together im thinking carbon monoxide anyone good info properly advice tying loose ends please send message im giving lifeman listen shout countless people yesterday internet strangers fucking amazing last three years hell ringer back back deaths house burning christmas homeless child pregnant cheated bastard baby car lied leaving great job start business money issues abused brutally raped molested child went foster care tried self medicate sex life kick fucking rocks refuse give fuck universe wants going send someone kill im fucking quitter ive lowest low dragged two kids skin teeth body capable ive done depression ride shoulders next years idc ill depressed im going function might sad anxious wreck wont loser cant control life control choices death final dont reset button come back want even find minutes happiness next years life thats five minutes wouldnt died fuck world prepared im coming little sister started playing gatcha life heck yeet child chill car corner eye saw gatcha life investigate yep playing gatcha life long post aheadi really know feel kind last hope letting without people constantly trying help shitty need move forward shit well lonely man years feel lived life theres nothing live little lot issues depression anxiety self loathing loneliness stuff well comes back teenage years divorce really messy exposed everything hate ensued fear understanding goes help feel responsible mean bullied school came back home insults flying around say hello help first time life top class yeah add dissapointment vocabulary parents school side things stop see picked guitar mom dad encourage pursue learning self loathing comes hey whatever everyone shitty teenage period next thing explore situation became even worse come family mom dad sisters brother worse well older sister left house go live dad tensions rising mom without father confessing everything missed us forth left tend younger bro sis much brother hard time acting mom constantly tail saw turn red anger sweating much thought fever thing thought go dads whenever went okay comes fateful wednesday month october told mom going dads evidently took well throwing bro curb wait dad pick us let sister behind made stand telling mom wanted come always raised support told mom leave us alone moment hated hurting supported know thats mistake looking understand feel left curb alone dads everything went fine went away university dropped younger sister bullied brother slaps face shit came back home trying fix things family breaking apart failed oh good note found love time became escape shitty family whenever visited felt loved even family big change depression began everytime come back home felt torn inside fear stress point lived mom cause dad kicked saying piece shit gave nothing trouble huge problem find way home impose mom long tried contacting mom touch seven years now went well point little sister called middle night time told missed wished nobody defending little bro night explained everything treated bro slapped hard busted lip raging remember sleep finally got visit buying train ticket propose meet mom everything fine expressed desire stay mom make feel better worked good true cool things fast pass cycle began anew decided job far away move gf time years knew know say life always find way mess well lung infection nearly killed oh girlfriend cheated kicked lost job pay shit disspointment everything fault even mom still thinks fault back square one back moms depression kicking ass fucking long year comes big fight tonight mom remarried mom new hubby told move soon year already staying struggling back feet failed therapy failed job interviews inability connect others even stronger nowhere left go one talk called redflag hotline prevention shit hit fan mom new hubby lost parent redflag caught talking go really helpful anyone gave shit saying people wants kill talk stop threats snapped told fuck life source problems words imagine feel now laying hotel room bed sister worrying nothing sorry long post wanted never ashamed family anyway hope sleep tonight laying outalso hopefully stopping thoughts lost friend fell pregnanti friends girl past years super close spoke day everyday literally everything weeks ago fight wasnt aware even single dollarafter shes started really distant saying shes seeing speaking anyone rn shes tired stressed time backed messaged ask okay occasional memes dont talk bar hey alright reply yeah im goodand nothing every days group chat together old work colleagues talks often anyone shes making plans see people chat breakfast someone chat clear shes seeing people feel gutted shes pushing away thisshe friend good one shes world felt worth living havent spoken seen anyone weeks feel alone dont know go social skills broken mind body cant work cant go anywhere new feel lost im tired im older thought id im proud think time coming end stuck life able snap im yo math student th grade studied last two years months away really important exams im panicking ive lost hope literally anything huge struggle really want study make know make lost time cant seem start days seem fly one cares whats gon na happen advice help appreciated tldr unable study need help school cheat code violently shit middle class go home early ready check life earlyfirst world problems ahead feel ive done everything ive wanted life ready check life little bit mid s guy got decent paying job done lots traveling world ive favorite country japan times ive girlfriends im virgin dated ten years last serious relationship relationships long term got see favorite bands perform countless times ive hundreds shows im great shape love cycling lift great circle friends feel grateful everyone says people less fortunate anything life complaints im happy im killing time die want wait grow old frail thought living nursing home poop bag terrifies actually fear outliving friends family recently ive thought checking life early im going plan leave note one day might walk front train bus leap bridge without thought happen day im looking attention wanted anyone gone similar experience literally anything funnier night literally anything funnier night everybody telling way improve single thing lifei sorry done atrocities conceived children worstat least let choose better father figure one never rather father bad father cant even google kill painlessly anymorethis sucks google try find information bombarded bullshit redflag prevention hotline ive called made convinced kill sick trapped anyone close im fairly close closer ive life shit voice chat intimidating find hard talk great games play teambased never ignore thinkerwhy must ask im overthinker im fucking overthinker overthink lot things control hardest part ignored friends theyre reason im still alive simply simply go ignore never fucking mattered dont even matter anyone youre reading please never ignore hurt overthinker spent hours day thinking wrong try overthink positive yk suicidal thoughts fucking overthinking dont mix well dont know hear hurt words hurts goddamn much hate seeing much pain want make people happy try hardest best fucking person anyone ask audacity go ignore forget fucking fact im overthinker yeah fault know didnt ask overthinker mean one thing leads another first anxiety attacks slip depressive phase manic episodes nobody nobody knows hurt go wish end thats never ignore hurt overthinker took bunchof meds hoping job around anymore cant take life anymore done never asked born never wanted suffered horrid life least hope meds work right wan na really girl going say good girl idk works everyone literally control feel lonely think never boyfriendgirlfriend remember wise words boi dont worry wonderful person trouble finding someone want anyone take going car stranger relate suicidal thoughts hurting hurt others around gone psycho even called psycho called deranged called deranged ruining room want ry imsoat part wants cry arms hate vent rant basil rathbone nigel bruce sherlock holmes dr watson respectively second universal series established means written prologue famed detective legendary spans time helps comfortably set things present era early sbr br offering holmes goes different disguises rathbones prominent features likely people really recognize true identity protects physicist hands nazis well holmes greatest nemesis professor moriarty now played lionel atwill scientist developed bomb sight greatly aid aerial bombardment hes promised plans british moriarty wants hold sell nazisbr br good entry boosted bit participation properly villainous atwill cast moriarty though george zucco slouch adventures sherlock holmes always intriguing watching holmes greatest enemy engaging witty banter together needle last eh holmes film gone fashion often miniskirt triumph postwar period virtually forgotten s except students cinema recently begun recognition perhaps evenhanded representation soldiers integration postwar life made definitely includes films deer hunter overall evaluation somewhere extremesbr br tale simple one three different servicemen mustered world war ii big one fly home midwest town try resume create civilian lives one disability one cushy job waiting nothing go determinationbr br good unfortunately uneven performances fredric march best actor oscar playing old sergeant returns job local bank personally think jimmy stewart deserved wonderful life deserved best picture award clearly film touched nerve postwar audience said fashionable march one fantastic scene humorous speech brought mind somewhat similar incident involving real wwii hero pappy boyington solid unspectacularbr br going grain thought myrna loy played marchs wife justly ignored academy detected barely hint warmth fact kept thinking going slap frederic march annoying practically grimaced every time together something definitely missing forced smiles air tolerance rather joyfulness think nonsense perfect wife correct think passionless s homemaker ideal may disagree academy voters apparently major problem film terribly miscastbr br dana andrews former soda jerk became war hero winds behind counter amazing saddled wife evidently married right left war wrong reasons future looks bleak chances upon marchs daughter peggy teresa wright fantastic turn fireworks explode great comes unevenness pervades film moments pure soap opera intrude punctuated alltime classic line im going bust marriage romance uplifting mirror common condition war returning servicemen finding love upon returnbr br speaking uplifting come harold russell naturalistic quality acting nonacting rings true today doubt taking nononsense approach situation inspiration best scene one best cinema brings girl likes bedroom show truth condition im lucky still elbows unlike boys truly great stuffbr br film moments soar moments belong afternoon soaps take good bad see one high points started say feet joke thing gets hard cant escapei tried hang minutes thinking seconds still black come close want pain fucking stop please make fucking stop seem pointi ruined relationship girl dreams dated lived together three years small little family unit adorable little cat imagined growing old children depression thought help strong ignored depression tried force thought best really needed help terrified vulnerable tough approach towards others opposite effect turned monster became terrifying spent year broke hopeful back together still numb still ignoring issues know took affection granted something changed got rid distractions able see become go felt years suddenly bore full brunt guilt shame hurting girl realized loved confessed suggested take time love first trying make codependent relationship work agreed went contact fool abandonment issues hurt started dating someone new suppose hurt last time month stopped eating first want feed horrible person hurt vulnerable person went fluoxetine went therapy im trying take care now new breakups heartbreak understand time heals wounds understand abusive childhood created issues still need deal lot pressure issues sides far complicated explain times happy now see happy new boyfriend still seem exist instrument happiness cant contact live know humans supposed love know loved avoided hurting know ill likely meet someone new able occupy heart similar way focusing healing hurt another person every day painful getting point exist future pieces seems hopeless heart hurt long ive never prior physical pain come close matching feels theres much life normal person want live memories want die want die ill keep living guilt shame loneliness ennui become completely different person now find wanting die day long every day wish something kill im nihilist something worth living gone cant seem find something valuable anything excites gives reason keep living fear continues one day ill become numb ill casually worse continue starving develop illness slowly die want something live find around reasons die think anyone read upsetting know even someone able understand everything wrote im tired living needed put something im tired suffering alone weekly self post weekend story femboy reality came back work opened reddit someone linked subreddit named huhi never heard whats murmured saw several posts femboys ew never femboy disgusting turn reddit right went swipe close small hand painted nails reached took let go shouted hand avail took threw place never seen several men walking maid dresses wearing masks uwu written hell dimension femboys started running one direction hiding anybody way knew threat come hide us see voice suddenly told followed command pure determination saw blonde man tall young boy short muscular man tell hide place said weird group hello men arent femboys asked hide us thought normal people blonde man said place asked believe teleported another reality short muscular man told huh think asked short muscular man dont look teleported another reality right man said yes know asked intrigued taken home reality femboy reality arent femboy either turned one die higher ups choose die said eyes getting bit teary offered food talked bit keith blonde man said tall boy david short tank micheal whats name name kyle said keith thanks taking problem kyle sleep getting dark going new shelter soon keith told move shelter asked wanted criminals micheals dad shot death turning femboy ran away fast biggest criminals entire reality david explained dont want die micheals dad doesnt die vain said goodnight went sleep jumpthis story happened planned redflag whole month even calendar marking dates went big x tore rest dates th day finally quit part time job sold belongings morning th left money envelope next mom sleeping wanted pay back everything headed towards bridge thought ending bullied throughout elementary middle school never anyone friends thing bullied used bully kid things flipped suddenly one got bullied wanted end thought world need way bridge met girl looked similar girl bullied kid turns back bully back power back laughed misery others wanted jump wanted make amends knew felt cut short talked easy sum reason decided live want say make rest life hey depressionyou woni supposed go psychologist next week dont think make far one irl friends commited redflag stay alive thought without letting know life honestly hard time answering maybe someone box actually see betterthis random thought solid question time wish someone sell gunbut california rules tight im oh well decided commit redflagrather explain reasons wish die id know brought important decision end life terms comment ill e ur user gt one ten scale ofc reasoning dont take heart though bc opinions probably trash b goodbyeposting main acc doesnt matter anymore ive depressed years planning redflag yeras today day jump balcony end hope everyone great live never end latest movie watched filler gtefrrrrrrrrrrrrr curios know anymorei cry every day struggle bad thoughts time minor inconvenience happensi love boyfriend much anything want leave knowing sad mad disappointedi happy life see future world plagued redflag rpe feel horrible time given therapy prescription drugs many chances time feel defeated know tired sad hopeless love suicidal thoughts lately health issuesit started initially heathy good sudden developed frequent urination along kicked health redflag took months finally got year good got acidity issue later developed tinnitus devastating phase life lost girl loved anything cut social areas year say entire went recovering finally feeling better started moving bamm another issue popped allergiesthen dealing point got severe upper respiratory infection medsnow took vaccine see pigmentation buccal mucosa dentists saying normal dermatologists stated oral lichen planus idk diseases noncurable coming fault suffer thesenow scared cancer gives heath redflag time really feel hopeless feel body supporting scared angry frustrated notthis suicidal thoughts came mind idk dodoctors helping much accurate diagnosis feel loop experiencing bad events need help need someone considers himher self socially competent want ask questions experiencei seriously dont know right place ask im mentally unstable im steps away killing know dofirst im native speaker please understand english goes traumas deprived background somehow always little depressed around years ago thing exploded major depression dulled emotions life become convenient rarely feel depressed problem lost fond life nothing want nothing care even families friends want live really ive therapists taking medicines past years depression getting worse become suicidal im planning die months well im still taking medicines therapies hoping something happen futile guess honest even know im writing felt still want give shot jason bourne sits dusty room blood hands trying make sense hes done meanwhile cia chief nyc outlines agencys response whats happened screen american flag stands proudly centre desk foreground shot speaks slips focus plan veers morally dubious territory want associated course action government man decides necessary interests national securitybr br shot effectively captures mood film well portraying bournes quest find became jason bourne ultimatum examination human costs measures taken protect us interests stability securitybr br probably best film see cinema year br br intense bourne says simon ross considine newspaper story real audience almost believe camera shakes remains steady enough see everything feel bourne tries elude pursuers performances good guys seem though characters theyre portraying instead actors performing wellwritten roles action scenes brutally fastpaced well choreographed seem instinctive instead planned minutest movement stuntwork nothing short amazingbr br pacing incredible keeps driving forward towards conclusion fast leaves struggling piece together plot script delivers information need quickly clearly possible moving next tense action setpiece theyre often simple waterloo sequence essentially man phone watched man phone theyre charged dramatic intensity cant take eyes film focused powering forwards cant help swept along itbr br intense action setpieces brilliantly paced storyline intelligent examination decisions made name national security bourne series one accurately captures ambiguities age ultimatum peak karma hit today cakes make jokingly said gon na show face karma im chuckles im danger sleep past mistakes keep haunting know theres nothing cant head got ta wake hours anyways fuck guess really know come right say want kill keyboard vomited insteadi know actually belong im still sort new reddit someone let know somewhere yeah little long know whats funny life always felt series one day middle school one day closer summer meant entire break grandmothers house made day one day tally whole summer parents tell worthless turn around shower sister affection whole summer stepdads parents tell spawn devil kidding honestly thing grandparents said several occasions honestly godfearing southern baptists starting time turned biological grandchild got high school never ending series one day responsibility relax never relaxed packed schedule full every day never acknowledge avoiding fact feel happy yes know high school prime time teenage angst saw friends go angsty phases relate connect anything desperately wanted things made happy didnt always hollow feeling feeling something never knew learned mimic friends feelings happy happy forth never felt genuine relied feelings odd thing know explain anyone feel deeply people yet feel nothing turned always making one day closer move parents house dad hit anymore mom tell much awful human learned feel little bit hated decided feelings bad things feel bad learned box reflected good feelings people around ended boyfriend got house struggle counting one day boyfriend got back basic training came home said army changed said want feelings still sucked connect people though sort people meant feelings emotions shitty ones empty spaces almost feel empty clothes almost fit every day past one day excuses look easy way one day wanting sister grow alone one day work make enough money school one day trying figure actually wanted married one day without boys slugging deployments grandda got sick keeping healthy one day really dark place sick kept tally days much makes one day met last boyfriend well call nerd seeing face first thing morning made want see one day look one glorious year stopped thinking one day stopped caring making reasons try one day living life taking care grandda dancing music kitchen nerd made pancakes felt things real things things stopped putting bad feelings boxes explode examine later date dealt things came smiled nothing generally let life happen thought crossed mind long sucks back granddas gone lost back december cancer cant measure days able take care anymore supposed live supposed go another cruise supposed see married supposed able retire properly supposed live didnt failed left go stupid vacation got sicker came back recovery late didnt push hard enough hospital scans let cancer spread mom tasked taking care couldnt grandda told found love hold onto forever lost failed left asked couldnt keep hospital let mother watch father die asked stay got hospital didnt think take care anymore even though year put mother failed pay lost everything gave joy past year deserve nerd dipped blame talked getting married army wanted send alaska mentioned solution separation already facing said want ask decided wait sent texas instead decided worth try texas supposed much doable alaska texas supposed easier manage waiting supposed smarter guess absence really make heart grow fonder orders first deployment got new girlfriend now im back one day one day im selfish enough afraid one miss im scared original shock wore one really care way back middle school hardest time understanding spend life cultivating things end point know thats existential angst catch thinking time spent long time trying find something live something survive anything fill void make feel anything matters dont feel anything except despair despondency mean honestly die end bother one truly say going leave end dont want fight claw hurt everyday trying make die dont want better fall dont want want make want ive always sucker ruining ending afraid im afraid happen sister suffered much loss short years im afraid happen mother lost parents less two years barely holding together im afraid roommates thinking failed way see happening yet think almost every day voice whispering easy quiet finally fact cant feel emotions properly matter mom figure parents love sister young adjust roommates theyre dating probably makes whole alone thing harder deal hey single person whos world stop spinning even moment without tired time fight getting bed nothing quieter voice always whispers funny thing keep living life even sure want see another day ridiculous excuse pulled air someone afraid give something hates lets swing together beautiful park sun shining visited runpopularopinion cant say im disappointed people miserable cunts thats say im disappointed humanity im birthday party people dislike hope drunk enough go iti really wish go home cry sleep without offending anybody reason nobody host really wants even seem invited unwillingly want go club afterwards feel uncomfortable tag along even though part plan popular club means prices high people pretty snobby elitist room dancing people furious slightly touch accident feels economic statement activity one fun meanwhile im supposed go looking abomination horror movie thats putting effort looks disgusted sheer sight hideous body without even talked im sure make things worse problem promised somebody crash place flat mates uptight either go apartment trust enough give keys either wish said cant come unfortunately im sucker social interaction take opportunity many probably makes worse even pretty much know theyll make miserable ive realised yet another reason life waste resources achieved anything im liked anywhere everything destined fail straightup feel cursed point intention continue living life whatsoever tried ending life unfortunately survival instincts seemed kick wish knew turn make things much easier actually im waste least waste recycled cant im actually worse trash hidingim tired hiding hiding sexuality hiding deep deep sadness hiding passive suicidal ideation hiding incredibly bad general social anxiety hiding every daynight consider overdosing slicing arms hiding much actually struggle hiding much need collapse ground tears im exhausted unable feel love cant job snap still care end lolso fun fact im chronically lonely yet whenever anyone expresses interest clamp push away intimate cant sleep someone unless genuinely care even love exists im sick someone emotionally stunted longing deep connection pandemic cut college going times short graduation happening lost job getting cant one cause industry shrunk im stuck home mom abused kid keep lashing friendsfamily still care kill done even worth living go bed alone every night genuinely enjoy life ppl meant bad days goddamnit one fucking good day year thats want one u puppyfox professional profile stalker ampxb edit joke fools f im ok need someone talk toim suicidal youre looking save life exit post im really alone thoughts right really draining really need someone talk thats preferably around age temperate blocked nose cant medicine cos makes vomit epic honestly know turnim supposed graduate college five days supposed im waiting final make break grades one class graduate college know disappointed family honestly im sure graduate ive come conclusion graduate easiest thing commit redflag cant face family graduated four years less ivys mental health taken enormous toll academics ive done everything need order graduate comes one professors grades two assignments im lost know go feel graduate family never think cant face kind disappointment im fucking scared feel option know go thank moderators rdepression allowing post part team researchers new york state psychiatric institutecolumbia university currently recruiting participants research study looking investigational treatment selfinjury called transcranial direct current stimulation tdcs tdcs noninvasive welltolerated form brain stimulation delivers low current specific area brain using electrodes research shown tdcs help reduce negative emotions may help treat depression conditionswe seeking individuals ages selfinjure burning cutting means eligible participants stayingliving within minutes travel distance manhattan new york ny usa participate study involves completing baseline psychological assessment questionnaires twelve sessions tdcs six visits two weeks doubleblind trial may randomly assigned receive active inactive form tdcs research procedures done homeno inperson visits requiredthree months treatment visits psychiatrist medication management offered cost compensation provided time effort eligible complete research proceduresthe researchers team conflicts interest declare study procedures approved institutional review board new york state psychiatric institutesome details confidentiality use personal informationif consent participate 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matters hate life omg realised something okay someone tells something double check im hearing right even doubt heard right possibly wrong wasnt said realised tell mum something say sure another thing little ask someone something say never even though remember adult everybody believed tldr years people doubting made hard believe im relaying correct message people suckeveryone says oh things change go college wait ive waiting years want shit fixed now ok drank coffee still feeling sleepy smh consent hot overdo doi thought notes want stop living everytime bring cliff ledge hiking trips put knife throat cant think dad sister im years old th grade know life really worth living girl loved relationship lesbian cant find love girls know life plans outside joining marines maybe ill die hero diagnosed mental illness tried help school thing said grades second walked couselour office feel trapped every night cant fall asleep think death im glad found place tell someone someone please tell fuck want die sleepsome nights go sleep hoping wake much easier wife family scar redflag easy tonight one nights think kill gladly accept quick painless death sleep face big challenge tomorrow want anymore stressful year life things settling something major wrong house im sure contractor confirm morning material object yes last straw cant handle financial problems im tired problems tired struggling mental health issues wife dog loves wider family love jobs corona life really fucked addiction seems problems people deal push edge easily one thing weigh us financially years hate alive feelspointless ive lot live view third party plain old want way devastate beyond normal death thanks reading someone please talk meim sober enough write paragraph explaining im going need someone understanding talk feel im going burst end life commit crime locked jail forever imagine personality post made using ppls personality im talking fall infinite nonending process repeat step whats quickest way kill yourselfgive sincere opinions im writing office cabin feel worth anything now world shit messed upi habit making mistakes hurting people today made mistake hurt two people care wasnt inept already wouldve killed dont really want die dont see another way stop hurting people cant think reason end maybe one going sleep crying thought waking crying let wake life fell apart watchfor past months ive watched life fall apart everything going ruined given multiple chances redeem failed every time feel hopeless now ive gotten help doctors therapist didnt help anything made worse ive tried look healthy social support closest friends moved away alone one talk anymore ive tried optimistic pick pieces try make something ive failed whole life one big failure know family friends look honestly end road ive exhausted options im going write every single one friends letter dont want blame ill write family ones cant take living failures anymore know aight thats im quitting school wants group people run away bulgaria enough people paying rent wont hard literally one luckiest people earth cool parents understand teen different years ago lucky look back miserable life everyday struggles life much easier understanding parents printf want diewhile alive printf want die sorry mediocre script poem wrote suicidal influences many open meaningshello ive never much interest poetry fact think one lowest forms literature expression events recent past lead writing first poem ive written free will id know id still know counterproductive suicidal individuals delete post little argument call need need need hear cry wonder came attempt wave goodbye put barrel temple begin wish overdose close close need open eyes mesmerized million lies surface top scream stop open eyes meant goodbyes stand high way sky finally finally goodbye falling flailing failing close close need open eyes lying bed cant dead join rest cattle hell internal battle paint smile begin daily mile time bed beautiful lie rings head need bee movie year old brother watched bee movie around times past weeksmy mind slowly turning black yellowthinking beethinking bee fastest way kms help please somebody find fucking combination words make betterim years old im horribly depressed ive fucked brain beyond belief psychedelic drugs months ago first seizure finally three fucking months later tell abnormality right temporal lobe need discuss next steps im allowed drive due risk seizures cant even fucking license im fucking idiot value brain much want clear head ruined smoking weed everyday year dangerous psychedelics way many mushrooms mind fucked think weird fucked ways still flashbacks bad trips fucked dreams fucking dead cant anything fucked brain several people know facebook commited redflag odd fentanyl getting much fucking sympathy walls getting idea seems perfect want live bad want deal shit want kill least attempt help one taking seriously right now im trapped head nobody knows bad depression fuck fucks fuck work fixing lack clear communication either one party try back touch thank made far valentines date ideas want treat girlfriend valentines day long distance rn cant together person ideas type date anyone similar situation one movies watched twice theatre really love movie atmosphere telling life tragic hero esteban trueba makes many mistakes gets chance redemption rather consoling thoughtbr br watched first time thought election movie know book boy wrong dramatic climax still come literally swept away sheer power last half hour filmbr br many people utterly dislike movie understand one single bit maybe read book first often screen adaptations novels simply disappointed many things remained untold unseen unexplained movie telling touching story story family rise fall man deep compassion woman strength love insanity hate conservatism movie simply splendid furthermore soundtrack incredibly good cast wonderful well especially winona ryder jeremy ironsbr br definitely one films cinema invented think im bi actually idk need advice friends think im bi thought started highschool im start opposite gender partner love um idk remember thinking hot people gender umm friends say act gayer actually gay friends overall im confused want advice internet strangers dont wan na talk actual friends help suicide per se sometimes imagine blinking existencejust gone point feel right anymore know explainarticulate going onmostly people tried told dramatic attention seeking right feel empty sad family loves talent worsei even know feel sadly coward doubt end ask care disappeared offendedsometimes want leave everything start sometimes fantasize disappearing made attempt yesterday backstory im going completely honest guys life shit show guys lost fulltime job drugs xanax cocaine lots overthecounter sleeping medications thought help moving parents place twin brother still resides one twin thats always problem child never easy feat first attempt seen attention seeking come polish family strict comes respect quite little asshole say honestly still think digress days ago took probably around mg quetiapine passed around minutes felt great warm embrace unconsciousness enveloping hopefully permanent darkness wake emergency room barely conscious clock murmured state drowsiness thats notice paramedic sitting right next saying yes clock days picked shocked disheartened finally thought built courage failed stuck emergency tent couldnt even body felt hit car today rd day city hour hold form allowed leave hospital really want actually succeed something give parents one straight gifted son look much disappear still manage mg seroquel hour hold want try want succeed know selfish felt right felt peaceful tranquil thank anybody reading words end saying dont think love sadly cant think thats alright anyone want play among us im hosting game among us anyone wants join feel free discord prestigealien guys want play add ill add group chat leave whenever want im really close ending allim sitting bed belt hands want fucking think fact mother room next door wait shes asleep dont know hope pass fast needed tell somebody see anything changes guess im sorry mom damn confused background recently getting realy close one female friends later told likes story another day anyway sitting room watching video realy likes panic attack happens surprisingly often held hand hugged probably minutes later stopped shaking looked put hand shoulder started kissing made probably almost minutes reference first kiss experience still clue kiss ugly ass face hey apparently dosent regret thats good guess today tried explain parents really see value life called selfish felt already want tell father knew going happen regret remember trying tell friend felt life scared finish yet tell open tell feel learned lesson opening people never tell people truly feel learn walk life look happy time order avoid mess frustration comes telling people feel well open online anonymous never tell people feeling real life avoid baggage comes never open feelings want hang soon dont lose interest cool thanks love us jakdjfjfid life odd sometimes huh come answers test always overly complicated make simple answers instead writing overly complicated answer choices confusing teachers trying hardest make us fail losing shit knowing put cuts way one see worry able wear outfit might bleed freaking need release want end work tomorrowim know good yesterday boyfriend told got giddy girl work appreciated telling makes feel bad told point hes lost interest last straw really ive feeling love anymore months weve happy really theres passion left energy break believe find anybody new went saturday night friend men talk seemed unattractive personalitywise ive working art project working measly job barley make enough money jobs way take tried retail sales food industry sometimes wish life least one little fairytale moment nothing seems happen even try hard make boyfriend happy work hard jobi see way feel ranting energy anymore help anyone never compliment girl cuz dont wan na called simp say neutral negative comments girls guys dont doom eternal wrong hella fun game hate idea doom slayer back doom saw doomguy mask suit armor face image body dialogue revealing armor feels doomguy soul doomguy seem person embodiment intent vengeance face body leaves us imagination doomguy looks personal preference imagination feels doomslayer doom eternal changes silent embodiment intention buff human doom makes us feel power comes pure intention malice revealed doom eternal drugged guy severe psychotic ptsd doomguy talked flashback makes seem weak helpless face revealed seem deadly hateful another protagonist sea endless averages basically revealing vs face v vendetta embodiment intention drugged mentally impaired human today years old realized joe mama spongebob thing resist urge put centipedes ear holes everytime hear voice video bad person sound mind voices hear come life trauma trauma come within often fear caused fate fate came found ask pain inflicted hands meant protect ask hear voices telling afraid dark always feared bad person voices ask wrong others bad person know right wrong say dark face away shadows refuse accept enemies stay wish darkness turn light poem feel people secretly hate methey hate behind back tolerate order seem rude feel bad worst part dont even know true slowly kills anyway poetrypart wants die tonight part wants accident part wants somebody notice stop one bad last part ofc suffering easier actually take step die well runny nose swollen throat feel weak want throw today gon na great title creative last post got removed bot didnt think title reached level genius order accepted artificial inconvienience bot diddly darn dang realised make pretty cool song meltdowns people subreddit tweaking course pretty deep realized motivation live thats likely changei think zoloft past couple months cleared mind many pointless thoughts realize really want kill actually motivation improve know even mean goal life want partner kids im asexual believe god hobbies amount meaningful progress justify existence sure spend next many years natural lifespan eating shitting going work sleeping want survive people thing driving forward dont close friends im distant family continuing life burden willingly put reason whatsoever perform mundane bodily functions naturally cant anymore think weighted average film low give entertaining although top places wife says passes danielle steele test superb performances throughout particularly andie macdowell want kill sure waited want life holds value future nothing waiting wan na wake im forty realize im alone real job kind future need way final try tho im still depressedi stopped new low saturday night took g aspirin one sitting went bed next partner love entire heart went bed hoping ill die sleep woke morning partially deaf nauseous lightheaded sick stomach done rushed er driving placed icu almost immediately ended staying nights days hospital took various blood tests worried internal bleeding brain swelling etc denied redflag attempts avoid psych ward said took headache lovely girlfriend going hard hit hard even though didnt know attempt im heartbroken ill never attempt help without insurancei lost job recently find without insurance ive hospitalized insurance im point feel need go back sucks saved first time guess works anyway accepted somewhere least psychiatrist give meds without insurance feel though im stuck dont help soon im going much longer im pretty weak willed personim sorry know long guess ill start introducing name tony years old father two children married mother two children things rough first child born august know plenty people kids young gone tough times title suggests weak willed person im coward im easily broken im physically weak wife counters ways stronger mentally everything simple thats ive tried strong always turns facade wife well ive gotten help ive therapist part months feel everything said made sense stupid reason never follow im quitter stubborn turn tail run going gets tough every single one aspects attributed depression constant thoughts ending offing kids awesome lately feel ive feeling hate especially daughter pick practically screams never done started little harsh cries literally nothing harsh yelling light smacks butt nothing hard enough let know unacceptable months feel hatred son two years old every time discipline something unacceptable yells back know hes kid thats kids bothers discipline says want mommy broke heart made break crying first time heard yesterday daughter born thoughts redflag gotten progressively worse thinking trying without success mostly pills course think everybody take death hurt dead ability care selfish thought feel made handle everything im going now kids young married young two jobs moving state want used live arizona loved wife practically forced move california hate thats things got worse felt choice still wanted children left behind anyway conflict wife right now moved want got job amazon fulfillment center want living brother girlfriend want judgemental pretentious people share conflict well one point brother almost got fight argument feel go anymore stupidi cant live without want suggestions better want post thoughts left uplifting energy went probably karma wish knew frequent day dream committing redflag talk last time talked cussed said deserved experience fours years still experience much negative emotion feel worthless think im narcissistic little punk started trying another girl happen timing issues trying intimate another girl felt upgrade jerk bet still jerk females show interest anyways without somebody loving want kill nothing want live thing want die things might better parents done much try make feel better things might better fuck might win lottery buy ticket mean buy one ocd depression grandfather bipolar schizophrenic im sure genetics favors far emotional well concerned happiness leave ex want hurt talking want feel stubborn always seem reject taking path getting better want kill myselfi year old adult india clearly find purpose life come poor family childhood grew lack money never enough money live decent life always thought killing last years good studies till high school completing high school got admission college clearing toughest exam india joining college happy dream college come way started hating college course life everything tried kill twice often used go bed thinking might kill failed killing began search money thought money bring happiness tbh short time became happy started earning months earned forgot depression everything found purpose life felt way never felt gloomy evening lost around dollars almost lost everything lost source income day struggling find purpose life able focus studies sleep properly eat want kill leave earth want electrocute really know hurts physically one still takes seriously hurts chest hurts physically im sick living im wreck wish pain end im sick living every single day anything pain end beg help one sees dad destroyed eyes look away havent found enjoyment life years want enjoy even day dont know rnb cool kinda forced beginning started vibing bus driver always played beat full blast every ride home think days redbone bood remember playing khalids location doubt animated short put uncle walt map success walts older brotherroy suggested next mickey mouse short include sound walt jumped chance resultsteamboat willie runaway hit first animated short subject synchronized sound track mostly music sound effectsas dialog minimal sound wet blanket short far perfect animation prior creaky rather herky jerky equipment made improvementsand better artistic techniques came aboutthe rest smooth sailingand sound primitive disney wanted use well known rca sound systemor western electric noiseless sound systembut refused firmsprompting disney use photophone system pa powers experimenting time plot theres actual plot line hereconcerns mickey aforementioned willieis pilot steamboat terrorized black pete captain pete youand decides jam session ship using various animals board musical instruments aspca take notice think much technical shortcomings steamboat willie eight minutes fun piece history tried commit redflagtried hang panicked breathe kicked kitchen knives dull pain tolerance low guess thats failed douglas macarthur affected human livesfor betterthan american elected president deserved better film biography universals macarthur bad beenbr br oddly enough potential early star trek episode corbomite maneuver recent hbo films something lord made oo warm springs oo director joseph sargent emerged one expressively human directors film man capable subtly shaping emotional shadings actors performances carrying audience exactly wants go producer frank mccarthy gave us patton o legendary jerry goldsmith scored films universal widely touted fact film four years preparation production yet macarthur perfectly adequateand much thatbr br film begins early shortly beleaguered general orderedby president franklin d roosevelt dan oherlihyto flee philippines avoid capture japanese thus film omits br br macarthurs birth o frontier barracks arkansas still subject attack native american tribesmenthus establishing remarkable life spanned distance bowsandarrows thermonuclear weapons br br graduation west pointfirst class br br joined famous father general arthur macarthur earned medal honor missionary ridge civil war assignments japan china importantly philippines br br heroic exploits excursion vera cruz br br leaped trenches world war one mountain goat often wounded promoted blinding speed brigadier general br br postwar service west points youngestand progressivecommandant br br participation courtmartial billy mitchell br br routing bonus marchers br br efforts sustain woefullyunderfunded army chief staff early os br br retirement us army become field marshal army philippines br br reactivation commission fdr shortly outbreak second world warbr br omitted favor prolonged footage macarthur trying fight seasickness evacuated pt boatthus know general mac legend appreciate allegations cowardice wounding dugout dougand patently unfoundedbr br remainder career presently straightforwardly islandhopping hit em aint campaign fulfillment pledge filipinos returnhis crowning achievement winning peace postwar japan difference opinion president harry truman properly feisty ed flanders conduct korean conflict resulted outright firing finally proclamation congress old soldierssimply fade away quite historically accurate presented deliberate lack commentarybr br sargent producers almost painfully distance adorning historical record approval disapproval macarthurs actions appear noble let presented appear egotistical bombastic let conceptions register sans comment joe sargent quite expert subtly manipulating audiences reactionsagain see warm springsthis refusal offer comment appears quite intentional historically may commendable almost defeats efforts viewer place extraordinary man kind rational perspectivebr br finally sort made cheap feel film midway released time films relegated television directorssargent case jack smight midway madefortvlook even jerry goldsmiths march perfectly serviceable lack subtle undertones grandeur patton themejust another way largerthanlife man memorialized ordinary filmbr br vanity pettiness man inarguably greatnessand love loathe one must acknowledge fact macarthur military commander done peacebr br end macarthurlike many film biographiesis good place begin research remarkable man poor place end lmfao judge acts knows whats best depressed peopleso went juvie last month stupid internet crime left days speak psychologist depressed anxiety cope computer made bad mistake talk put meds kept telling social anxiety want end lot time behaved never anything bad let go home really got judge read report saw panic attacks almost killing put probation forcing social talk people understand hard scared disorder something wanted go back jail dont fce fears really makes upset cant say anything judge kept talking im failure computer whats making depressed even said report try try everyday unmotivating hard scary makes judge expert makes smart know whats best yes want break law hurt people easy knew knows wants suffer go jail dont face makes stressed makes want die even help someone really annoying bbc production jane eyre starring zelah clarke timothy dalton love always always favorite jane eyre watch version jane eyre without reading book watching regular movie forget next day watching one almost equals reading book used watch miniseries lot little inspired read book time pay attention close television production book recently watched version jane eyre disappointed hours long many important scenes book favorite gypsy scene fell love jane eyre even includes important scenes book tells whole story versions dont read book br br cast jane eyre excellent true timothy dalton handsome actor handsome enough play butler scarlet julius caesar great rochester cant imagine anybody playing role zelah clarke without doubt jane follows description book thing makes film great clothes makeup actors jane looks modest naive bronte describes although look actually pay attention br br people say jane eyre long rather spend whole day watching spend hours watching version say movie dull boring jane passionate enough enough kissing scenes hate make jane eyre hollywood movie inappropriate kissing scenes include crazy madly love scenes show love jane rochester zelah timothy express love perfectly scenes needed years old many girls age refer film boring oldfashioned feel sorry appreciate purity beauty novel set th century oldfashioned look makes attractive book br br think version jane ayre popularity love one matter plays jane rochester movies real jane rochester least always zelah clarke timothy dalton itoo long dont think anyone read need clear lately things getting control suicidal thoughts getting stronger one moment almost killing next laughing avoiding question point lost try find remains lets fucking honest forget labels using names diseases social labels boy cares much others kill best love full night listening friend needs delay work need help put problems aside go running help stubborn boy loses control really easily say wrong thing make wrong thing nothing wrong totally lose control start yelling saying horrible things go everything perfect ruined everything go fuck forever calm caring boy actually episodes needy boy saying love dont forgive going hug eternity terrible making friends shy never speak loud enough make friend totally different person opposite love something one moment lose mind truly hate happened people lot times several teachers idols one day put black list resentful sometimes seek revenge happy one second later sad trying kill truth cant control dont even feel control never realized now dont feel feel empty always things dont want hurt way calm say bad things loved ones change plans say goodbye middle conversation overreact try control control one moment super motivated something realize laying bed dying boredom go shopping buy books notebooks arrive home throw corner got bored even started barely eat food doesnt taste times eat normally barely sleep everything bores much want sleep day boy feels much nothing care much give fucks constant change days dream writer traveler one everyone say thing truth dont know want watch movie want character see video want work dont change looks values days change way speaking walking acting seeing world see movie relate someone one second doesnt say anything dont know someone asks always say everyone says good student shy boy always act different around different people point sure ps feel good ideia post well dont reason bed anymoreyall idk anymore im fucking beat feel go im therapy meds ive made big huge steps supposed help honestly im even miserable work full time school full time start little side business guys hours gotten cut hate working hours day place work got new management weird super small business isnt anything really parents keep telling every job suck know everyone keeps saying wait xyz itll good isnt soon guy leaves early wind crying bed go work havent called feel trapped know going fix economy ill always struggle money feel many problems dont solutions psychiatrist therapist come conclusion lots physical health issues caused mental health tried figure almost two years ago although continuing therapy therapist psych says theres ton left putting temporary bandaid something needs stitches doctors completely wrote even though tests coming back abnormal new insurance first im going basically start redo test exhausts think im tired tell people im lying im real insane pain feels impossible nothing potential change ive told wait whole life finally happy dont feel possible best guy keeps telling couldnt survive without thats reason im hanging isnt healthy everyone keeps telling better dont want ungrateful peoples help ends feeling minimizing feel bad know people want help really bad changes happen still years potentially things even even know different day shit cant hospitalized right guys hours cut im kinda money wise plus job people put dont know literally feel never going better im goddamn tired crying fucking miserable dont know dont want keep pronouns ive never quite literally ugly person family meee uuuuuaaaaagggghhhhhh friend says pokemon anime lol said never classify pokemon anime said im uncultured anime looool asked whats favorite anime manga said pokemon lol made go crazy today told faith watching one punch man idk live expectations lmao really watching playing pokemin years idk tbh ill one punch man guess ill try years thinking think im finally point im seriously considering iti cant stop fucking upi seriously ruin every good thing life cant seem stop much potential growing smart outgoing ambitious thought future always seemed amazing optimist miss years long story short ive heart broken times count time takes larger piece ive lost almost friends ones care convenient cant seem hold decent job make money support im practically homeless burden friends stay couch im type diabetic barely afford insulin fucking clue ive fallen god damn far final nail coffin week date first time two years girl ive always crush ment lot know capable opening another person actually went really well monday first time years remembering happiness feel alone well typical fashion ruined got excited anxious drunk stupid unloaded boat load feelings anyone first date seem psychotic soexcited feel sent message apologizing unwarranted outburst talk ive never handled rejection well knowing something stupid avoidedi think heart left im tired everything go wrong struggle remember optimism even try think positives life literally dogwho even anymore im fucking verge living streets ive fallen farther thought possible death honestly sounds better better life im guaranteed experience pain possibly another bout happiness deathdeath unknown maybe everything stops simply cease maybe life suffer eternity hell maybe wake someone whole life nothing dream simulation maybe million different things happen one really knows gamble sounds better continuing sad painful excuse existence managed see deadpool weekend hoping pick thing stuck said life one giant train wreck brief commercials happiness think ive last commercial afterlife fuck supposed wait wait homies die exactly even wifi watch tv shows eat look idk im jump story buildingim angry upset way things longer contendedness patience case wondering false rape accusation loss everything everyone see happy lifefuture young guy thought anyone feel happy life sometimes feel guilty happy mean looking people depression hard time im completely enjoying life bah teacher nerve teacher nerve send email homework pm go sleep pm smartalec says thats right sent kidding maybe send homework earlier fault sleep wake im able work send happy birthday vladimir putin reason know dads birthday yesterday mine tomorrow hes almost exactly years older dad hes holy shit im turning tomorrow kmsing one weekjust title says thisim years old graduated high school skin teeth started th grade best friend ill call dana dana suffering depression anxiety used pin issues causing feel wrong mad feel horrible thats grades began slowly surely going called mother school teacher said seem usually began high school dana dana unstable began cutting school much hated breakdown school brought hospital instead mother worrying mad hated now always good mom made sure healthy clothes made sure gave wanted mad filter telling things hated child devil wishes aborted hurt child really nothing freshman year finished dana stopped friends sophmore year found whole new group friends different dana fun liked stuff best school usually cut lot happy though finally fit cut school well classes mom came school trying make better didnt cutting classes well repeating issue throughout high school years middle junior year parents back started making fake report cards senior year found making report cards make extra classes along paid trip barcelona able go grades able paid switched schools credit recovery school allowed take classes along online classes rewarded allowing take car school took advantage began cutting grades still good fact give something want something dont want eventually gave car got taken away weeks mom came school see wasnt always make excuses mad something wrong still graduated time gave car back fuck ups arent yet dating boy know black snuck vacation home gated community alarm system went house found found virgin heart broken dad crying dad great dad always believed gave wanted hard working man always cared deeply felt sick believe hated wanted dissapear great parents talked nicely took car away month summer got job mcdonalds trying make difference life something productive instead going home work go hang friends free time summer mom said use somewhere live dont really love yesterday told parents going work ended calling hanging friend fact let sleep night car even though never let sleep didnt go work hung friend pulling parking lot man claimed hit even though damage anything car instead calling parents scared mad work guy filed police report mom found shes furious dad said cant trust mom trusted forever fuck dont know stop never anything right now accident insurance might go wasnt insurance theres many things wrong want dissapear world feel hurt want run never come back next destroy everything need help yes need proof prove need start fundamental level prove digit number digit digit base number system created number number system equal commonuniversal base number system ampxb created base number system commonuniversal base number system ampxb base number system supports natural numbers terms commonuniversal base number system lets back proving statement easily prove converting commonuniversal base number system proved home alone weekend producing bad thoughtsi home alone weekend dog sitting keep thinking perfect time end one around im going something occupying thoughts wan na non existentthis getting much yesterday doctors appointment told afterwards development disorder im see sense living feel government society dumb fuck system unfair normal people well hows going world open eyes development dysfunction broke point think recover anymore please say something talk matter bla bla ive heard empty words wan na end badly think ill stuff soon matter result judge based judge based anything reasonable wether post history comment history avatar anything im curious things final rejectionthis weird kind long one im sex worker dancer ive job covid yesterday got group text saying friend needs girls payed vegas trip asked us send photos well today learned texted us want knew wouldnt picked always rejected im ugly childhood ive always rejected found today friends picked diagnosed borderline personality disorder treated bipolar kindergarten ive tried kill self times today never see friends im kid gets picked last now know may sound dumb ive much rejection cant anymore clicked im researching helium redflag feels way finally peace im running dampd campaign want join see fill form repost yesterday got buried quite quickly north spine world west towering reghed glacier frigid expanse dare explore let alone inhabit icy land windswept tundra recently became locked frigid tundra without reprieve hello soon running th edition dungeons amp dragons campaign rime frostmaiden friend looking another players aged campaign relatively long going level level sessions every week sundays start around pm gmt end pm though time day might move point game roll discord used voicechat im dan dm im relatively experienced dampd roll dming year though im great voices please excuse terrible accents create character session 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live last days family friends people know irl read didnt wont try stop random guy girl reading idk im posting probably dont wan na read dont know im going yet know mother keeps glock might use prefer feel pain pain caused others life simply even now typing watching blood flow wrists thighs feel confident within next week person told hope got wanted people harassed bullied hope gotten wanted signing last time hours useless junk im looking people try talk saying goodbyes community kept alive long life shitbeen depressed thinking redflag several years im spend day computer bed browsing reddit watching tv etc planning going university knows love talk random internet strangers regular basis though tell mundane aspects day things enjoyed things enjoy lives normal people response id offer satire humongously dull state existence manage without boring tears id hope refuse xd anyway im sure right place seriously anyone wants talk inane stuff anything message might good people similar boat maybe f xd whatever suck whatever redflag answeri socially isolated making friends several times consistently abandoned shunned various reasons abused even getting tired long lonely journey yet havent killed yet consistently try help various mental illness say diseases chronic issues persisting problems d maybe someday find enjoyment life stop countless suicidal thoughts time time closer attempting redflag another time maybe world fiction imagination know current consciousness dissipates maybe preonset schizophrenia d anyways hope nothing enough pain attempt kill take miserable life terrible existence iim seeing posts people wanting live die wanting die cant bring itbut want die think surroundings people care die see sad love sacrifice sad stop sad cats cared mum understand partners friends know best option people want whats best regret cats love much much better life mum going much better cant think reason stay ive already cut stomach arms wristsim tired living hopefully last post ive mentally defeated life dont care hurt didnt help asked maybe something stop im wish freak accident mei want anyone blame dying want hit bus idk fall rollercoaster cant die feeling guilty commuting redflag im drunkall drink make friends dislike every time interact use life talk person people look forward talking im person people want interact drinking time feel interact people drink time talk people regular person drink solution need use im pussy need someone talk friends say im bipolar drink personally know need someone talk phone voice mom finally went overboard exaggerations lets go almost oh time well time think mayve figured yay think might pansexual thats pretty cool thought bi long time im sure honestly pansexual im going tell people irl ive already come id come really terrifying didnt even first time prepared jokes pans ya thats trying figure whats going sexuality think figured knows maybe bi sit doesnt youtube mobile loop feature computers looping videos somewhat overlooked feature manually playback something music video annoying go triangle burger guess technically called triangle drivein idk theres fresno one clovis one tulare ur close go pretty cheap think expensive thing menu websitehttpstriangledriveincom inhale exhale air cant bpd anymoremy mind everything nothing hurt someone nothing care cant fucking control feel swear allowed exist anymore im letting go sophomores highschools student council gone crazy theyre playing various remixes baby shark loudspeakers passing periods fundraiser know far tell nobody knows either stop donate thanks covid love insanity little bro needs friends play fall guys ps tmrw brother allowed play video games week able talk friends cvirus doesnt friends play fall guys cant play single player game favourite wondering anyone play et tomorrow sep couple hours ill pm first comments psn pm send psn back thanks guys ampxb ps need mic talk dont kind defeats purpose guys first german luftwaffe flight delivering covid vaccines hhhbbgbhbhhbhbbhhbbhhbhgfrrrgyffgvghvjbhjggghhvvh parents argued remember argue apologize always threw vicious remarks never apologized waited next day scared never felt comfortable around every vacation together every free day scared theyll start arguing always wished divorce born exist especially father mother may annoying times generally shes ok hate father always wanted disappear total narcissist victim mentality every time someone criticized behavior said everyone hates always told everyone didnt understand wouldnt listen always ended every tirade even bother talking always though think start talking dont listen front family never behaved one thought anything sometimes even wanted record show rest family suffer sometimes wished born straight alcoholic abusive family everyone knows bail never spoke anyone acquired learned helplessness cant anything budding depression think didnt enjoy spending time every christmas easter thought christmas soon time flies every summer vacation thought soon signed soccer practice kid first practice kids gave insulting nickname called basically cut contact went every time put shoes whatever suffer practice went home didnt stop never told anyone went every time even though didnt enjoy learned helplessness remember one time burst crying parents car never told didnt trust anyway trying avoid kids went practice knew nickname one class kids school panically avoided didnt want friends know others insult friends back basically started cutting ties started going parties meeting people panically scared left basically one friend desperately clinged always second option friends one later school people comfortable sat alone panically scared someone talk college basically didnt talk people nothing talk went parties etc sat alone home mindlessly scrolling internet middle school still motivation something problems sleep started couldnt early literally woke every weekend pm felt shame parents made fun told wake early every summer wanted somethign went back home work came back paralyzed sat closed room never early never anything thats basically life past years consisted entirely waking pm mindlessly scrolling internet studying sleeping eating garbage food masturbating mindlessly scrolling internet pass time eating garbage food masturbating thats spikes dopamine literally cant live wake know dont enjoy anything plans dreams things enjoy dont watch movies read books go anywhere talk anyone literally barely talk barely walk self consciouss everything voice talk walk hate entirety maybe hate feel personality literal nolife dont mean someone enjoys video games nerdy stuff dont enjoy anything never went anyone never date never went friends house elementary school basically never went party never casually talked anyone never texted anyone entirely depersonalized derealized feel alone universe never connected anyone shunned age years old dont want anything family wants help redflag attempt psychiatric hospital want job go school something want go job interview cant talk people even got job someone family gave disaster tried school ditched disaster everywhere go outcast surprise given im years old cant talk people cant talk people talk literally dont anything favorite movies books music foods dont human emotions never connected another human empty shell larping human forced go therapy dont believe dont believe anything help never experienced basic human things year old children life experience never learned anything nothing matters completely depersonalized always waited things happen middle school literally waited till ill meet people go dates first kiss etc never happened feel void cant kill either tried many times always chickened cursed vegetation sorry reads schizophrenic rambling schizophrenic complete breakdown crying hours tired even capitalize letters completely depersonalized even wrote feel life feel im describing someone making things yet finally think got theres help theres hope maybe ill courage kill finally cant end im hugely tempted kind cruel worldtldr nice girl life severely depressed due family history bullied childhood school experience grew dating losers one divorced married mistress another gave permanent sti hate life want disappear sorry repost rdepression subreddit reason moderators may thought original title graphic guess sorry long alot pain inside thanks advance reading ive severely depressed suicidal family blood tons aunts cousins desiring redflag depressed couch time etc personal experience derived shy kind nice girl beginning never able shake typical nerd experience openly talked try ignore play smiling everything okay fight bullies make leave alone always seen awkward hung back school teachers classroom etc really made even harder actually pretty girl tall mom made sure always dressed nice hair done girls couldnt afford nice clothes hair done put daily hated confrontation id whole smiling laughing thing avoid another fight already elementary though mom kept looking nice loves dearly shaped clone strict grandmother barely go ask basically scolded shed always say hours later say yes hated mind fk one sleepover junior high school mom dad cussed sailor made clean house spotless something horribly wrong guess happy afterwards sleepover sucked friends assholes night anyways strict upbringing inherited shyness emotional instability lead pretty damned awkward life conceited anything people always told smart good looking potential never saw late thirties really middle high school boys liked approached shy give aloof bitchy vibe guys ended hating treating crap mean anything extremely lonely relationship started dating older teenager lonely desperate find love id seen disney movies saved bell id date losers settled awkwardly nerdy weird thought theyd easier milder deal boy wrong first met exhusband thought looked really unattractive plus smart ass mouth let grow wanted someone seemed head heels gave years life birth son lessened sex drive dumped mistress work married rather quickly didnt even let ink dry divorce papers knew nothing weeks signed papers whats even worse nice ass agreed custody son dad life think id actually say yes knew whore wife going sons stepmom late im wallowing misery divorce process now ive boyfriend whos truck driver nerdy used alot fun loves hes made feel depressed zombie past years hes always road cant see times week plus push enough make things better divorcee much baggage cant life straight damned naive beginning relationship didnt see baggage start looked love fact said wanted marry mind wasnt proposal anything said super early made hang hung despite jerkish things hes done texted half naked pic us coworker brag says friend turn forwarded entire jerkish coworkers etc got arrested almost jail time fighting guy later found first blow anger kept putting meeting family many girlfriends past nt last said coup de grand gave sti recently found high risk know high risk meaning possibly cause cancer later kind cant rid lays dormant body never know come back plus surgery weeks rid precancerous cells caused love life relationship really crap now even find someone hear theyll dump sure im pounds overweight depressed barely clean house shower wash hair smoke weed zone pass time make painful memories go away boyfriend says loves endlessly surgery im getting support sweetness need right now hes gone time real relationship anyways think im still prince charming fantasy head expecting guys loving sweet reality jerksno offense nice guys think younger went geeks weirdos figured theyd easier appreciate overly forgiving giving many chances aholes pretty much ruined life plus miss son dearly hes gone im alone time wish put coma every time leaves reawakened comes back brings wonderful beam light joy heart hes live dont even think safe another relationship im trying accept im awkward different really someone hard give hope dont think im horrible person rather feel im nice person rest world cant handle handle take advantage naivety ignorance im used im stuck horrible life miserable afraid even reach world anymore ill end bible verse received today gods chosen ones holy loved put heartfelt compassionkindness humility gentleness patience colossians description pretty much nutshell cant help way look ruined life tears matter timehi need maybe advice always think killing lot mornings imagine id im always trying distract im breaking im exhausted ive remembering time fingered older man six time raped months ago years ago cut ive try end ive bulimic years never go way kill one time stopped heart mom die keep feeling need point mean need serious help therapist psychiatrist hard talk im remembering hard keep working time im ok im exhausted diagnose personality based subreddits im subscribed ampxb rmeirlmeirlhttpswwwredditcomrmeirlmeirl rabsolutelynotanimeirlhttpswwwredditcomrabsolutelynotanimeirl rahogehttpswwwredditcomrahoge ranimeddithttpswwwredditcomranimeddit 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developing think called freddy virtual experience something hopefully able enjoy funtime play testing set release ps yes repost deal asleep dreams perfect happy whatever goes wrong life fixed manageable everything want means falling asleep crying know things means waking distraught dream want sleep forever want afterlife one big dream happiness want without worrying waking everyday passes want wake next day everything back weeks ago maybe bad dream instead sleep even escape anymore temporary happiness always temporary alseep awake solace asleep even hassle uselesshonestly point anymore im tired weak unproductive feel legitimate pain entire wake cant even put words everyday alone head thats flooded toxic thoughts starve everyday try make happy cant even look mirror anymore want cut skin disgusted ive grown hate much becoming unbearable everyday tell going better never im constantly dissociating feel ive lost entire grasp reality january significant committed redflag painful thing go hate sleeping every night always dream always felt sleep best escape anymore im haunted memories every day want happy want love point dont think possible think timei think time leave world behind boyfriend two years recently kicked vacation broke caused move back familys house always caused want kill self caused mental illnesses depression etc gotten worse worse month cant anymore mother absolutely psychotic cant bear anymore im fucking depressed im gon na bring dog back shelter mother obsessed laying fifteen wee wee pads lovely room share cant even afford anymore barely works doesnt pay anything pay food phone bill anything need shes fucking psychotic shell lash telling worthless forgot clean fucking dog cage cooked us changed ten pads hour got home took piss god fucking forbid right obsession refuses walk past dog snaps claims sure shell wake hours night pick dog put minuscule fucking bed havent slept month anything goes wrong life fault show emotion im worthless want world know fault dont support friends friends coworkers see work im allowed go dog cry dont license cant afford fix car go take road test one let borrow car take test dont hang anyone cant take classes support family three cant learn anyone cant hang anyone everyone work doesnt support anymore telemarketers supposed fake til ya make everyone drinks koolaif everyones solution fuck fucking money dno license cant rent dog anxiety cries eats carpet im home dog fucking depressed send back shelter ill fucking lose wont live need die truly fucking way wheel keeps turning god damn head many times going interrupt many times gon na make want die today selfish gon na today rude going others around make uncomfortable cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore yo wtf feel sad best friend sent post little things make little bit less sad everything kid want feel emptyim title says everything want ive got friends family love past couple months cant believe even know friends cause talking people scares friends even go school either online old school cause moved scared talk people cant seem see positive life try succeed school anything always end failing matter hard studytry ive thinking killing im afraid itd close want die want hurt anyone hung two really good friends today seem happy sat back friends car starred distance make night worse theres girl actually somehow talking one friends thought itd funny ruin night got way worse feeling friends really friends im scared talk anyone put cause anonymousish know deal anymore started months ago bad wave depression every frequent teenager far know months went ive kept getting sad fear soon wont able hold ill end shooting something whats really stopping right friends mom dad dog cat something pets seem keep person ending dog cat id probably ended already sounds weird cause mom dad still love pets anything feel somehow know im feeling cause whenever im sitting couch soon become sad dog come stay know feel anymore ive lost much emotion months whole speech typed probably make sense anyway im gon na post keep typing random shit thats fucked question astronauts roy thinnes ian hendry ask discover parallel world earth always hidden far side sun cult science fiction melodrama released america journey far side sun plot film devised british writers gerry sylvia anderson creators tv shows ufo thunderbirds space exceedingly weird times betraying influence twilight zone even stanley kubricks classic space odyssey visual effects work derek meddings later work superman movie holds surprisingly well last three decades special effects advancements really exalted level kubrick film superb anticipate star warstype film overcome occasionally trite dialogue doppelganger good film good enough rank consider undiscovered scifi gem yall im thinking version nnn girls ive rounded names feel freed add stop squirting september b dont dildo december cforget fingering february loved polls rn comment one likes hey mods seeing stuff please enable polls onemy life used really good social loved lot well school nice job depressed got lot better began everything started fall lost relationship job skipped school contact parents stopped working lost friends corona sitting inside months everyday social contact therapist therapy years nothing seems help anymore eat shower anything anymore want die whats point living absolutely nothing wake even live thinking redflag years feels way make feel bad taking bath baths maybe month know theyre waste water sucks im anxious mess take baths relax yes know theyre luxury finished online summer course today im kind proud want take bath keep thinking unnecessary baths im wasting much water want feel bad want hot big d catgirl want someone listen day went goodnight kiss first time messaging think looks weird added crush snapchat days ago liked years little crush september last year feelings became stronger crush quite big really talk school best friend almost wingman talk time involved conversations never speak us two anyway click page message first time messaging im feeling bit nervous write message chat bar screenshot debate whether send looking back idea going debate done completely different way might think thats bad oh snapchat first thing see clicks name antony screenshotted chat thought cant leave thats awkward ill send message send hey got good netflix recommendations sent screenshot notification appeared page thought unbelievable thing say deleted message completely forgetting appears deleted message appears freak send accidentally screenshot sent message sorry left chat last thing noticed even added sent messages receive adds back adds assuming back school weeks shell hit tdlr accidentally screenshot sent message crush shows screenshot panic send message delete sounded weird realised shows delete chat send final message realise even added friend anyone help waiting die nothingi stopped eating drinking yesterday ive given bored isolation watching civilization implode tried reach friends soon opened little dark place pulled away one cares deleted social media least crushed hope researching methods weeks seem messy came across vsed meant old people still work im passing time laying bed mind body shuts good im sorry might hopei started school tuesday ive already panic attacks night almost panic attack st period morning physically speak classes due large class sizes giving severe anxiety seriously considering killing beginning august check comment history want read previous redflag attempts go see therapist tuesday next week noon plan telling suicidal thoughts idea going back psych ward makes want kill appointment even comes thought missing homework school im gone freaks fuck wish another option right want break locked pill box swallow whole bottle tylenol parents bought older brother tylenol work last time due going help fully kicked next time im going somehow restrain go help want anxious anymore want normal pain much deal gonemy live gone now feels bodys given telling throw towel let die im constantly pain loneliness skin hunger well emotionally fucked beyond help abusive parents im constant physical pain due psychological problemsthats bad pain becoming unbearable day random times spikes near constant life months now cant take im people im beyond help justi justi cant take much stress much pain muchtoo muchtoo muchtoo muchi canti cant sad thing im trying basic things life causing thisim even able eat right now theres hope live manner life better ive trying long now mention friends seem fairweather run stop talking try express suffering therapist cant meetings overim alone im failing im drainedim freakish mess mistakeim done never point keeping living cant keep pushing absence theres nothing make pain worth itits want die literally cant anymore point im even trying anymorei really hate reddit place vent anyone know cares check use friend ok everyone point cant even talkto anyone cant even convey thoughts online always feel im judged days last ate anything think deserve even want dissappear somewhere voices head getting louder shut room days hate people know saying sad depressed know might seems im invalidating people feelings knowing really make feels crap ive tried open feelings people one wants anymore everyone better without hate heart beat faster whenever im crowd hands always sweaty lips always dry worthless people eyes hate cant sleep many time wake middle night reason hate short fat ugly whenever im everyone hate every moment breathing im waste space brilliant well made contribution group fans considering made back bedroom painted green screen story lines complex twisting characters show realistic depth dimension cgi created crew breathtaking first season might little shaky final well thought well shot fans might thought star trek franchise come end early cancellation enterprise fans take answer recommend fans newcomers alike hidden frontier crewbr br make im sure myselfhey guys suffering depression fourth july irony met friend got random conversation eventually depression randomly kicked started crying much shit going life started talking people treating pos somehow dont remember ended psychology session op thinks im little open personal life people make friends im issues finding close friends even relationship op says dependent people companionship people scared tend spill things personal life feel selfesteem fallen apart know act feel im around people feel way acting nobody wanted friends im already shitty position depression came ops mouth everything officially fell apart cant stop crying rn feel downward spiral never going end somebody talk time hey im german guy somebody talk please feel free dm honestly im hella bored im good listener love know people different countries different cultures chat life well work improving english anyways nice day andor night tried overdosing two weeks agoim tired pretending im ok im tired pretending things ok wont therapy meds work wont im coming conclusion im probably one treatment resistant cases im sick hearing psychiatrist telling meds working theyre definitely shit except maybe seroquel puts sleep thats dumbass tried od needless say work im tired matter suicidal thoughts always around corner something know hang myselfis chance survive avoid chances kind permanent damage hey thanks reading m europe diagnosed major depressive disorder ocd redflag last year spent time psychiatric ward ssris benzodiazapenes depression series traumatic embarrassments mistakes mostly caused never really good decision maker even though read ton selfimprovement books whatnot real hard time remembering things learned often act emotionimpulse make everything even worse rejected girl infatuated behaving cringey found embarrassing stuff left open vulnerable people deserve sense hurtsi high school drop biggest passion pursue music career rap thinking finishing last year school go college mostly want plan b able make money rap think help depression depression actual thing keeps stuff love keeping stuck past feeling intense redflag afraid people think never problem now possible reach happiness become athletic quickwitted confident happy guy things went south life want dedicate time gym amp writing lyrics lack motivation pull dark amp scary rock bottom fulfill dreams hate wasting life time shut depression peace years old depressed regain confidence amp happiness become successful life looking tv guide movies come germany found one called bunnyguards watched laughed silly wanted dvd available order germany subtitles played taped watch time timebr br anyway looked info found real name erkan stefan know australian title bunnyguardsbr br people know germany erkan stefan accents german notice anything jokes good germans might find accents offputtingbr br think movie funny dvd english subtitles extras disk edition feature subtitles bad buy snapbr br recommend anyone looking laugh pretty good story favorite video games ive pretty board games play lately anyone video game recommendations whats favorite video game ungratfull brat worth anythig anything right even thoug anything need nice life parents life disapointment useless shitty piece crap honestly alive shitty person waste management day mafia crime boss night anime bad anime bad think bad scale rate want know others think pathetic know goive long history mental illness complete one nearsuccessful redflag attempt five years ago recently upward swingfeeling good good combination right meds selfharmed almost two years way therapy transferred specialist gp two weeks ago birthday usually hate birthdays managed fun year got balloons went dinner saw boyfriend got piercing id wanted months two days ago started noticing signs infection went today antibiotics planning gently quickly switching jewelery ring curved barbell comforts sake snapped ring cartilage taking caused ton bleeding swelling barbell hysterics seems takes bring flood sadness suicidal thoughts back want die lost piercing fucking pathetic piece shit makes big deal everything ruins everything makes everyone around miserable generally worthless waste oxygen future one miss better without monster failure ugly fat volatile im stupid im generally compilation every awful quality face earth took remind one little failure yay weak ive cried sick already ruined late birthday dinner verge breaking blades back thing stopping sheets white want clean blood im sorry reddit know im awful everyone huge issues deal im really sorry dont even know wrote things ive noticed im im ive noticed people seem expect life future order seem expect know im expect take control life longer feel comfortable asking questions ask teen subreddits im im older feel answering asking anyone allot shit drivers license feel never amount anything life going directionout uni degree stuck horrid low paying job partner never seems want spend time feel ugly fat repel people constantly feel guilty jealous best friend graduation countless related jobs still seems bitch moan without thoughts anyone going date one friends throwing around whilst im stuck worthless piece shit cant even pet rabbit think im worthwhile im loss lack motivation better want give now cant diei keep anxiety attacks wish die already one anxiety attacks trigger something inside kill already im beyond sad im beyond alone im beyond depressed cant even wake without crying every morning phone rings burst tears im nervous talk people cant socialize well im failure im worthless person every day crying frustration anger loneliness cant die wish fall asleep never wake fi tired going depression anxiety bulimia alone thats life todays poop story wearing big shirt went latrine poop pulled pants sat pooped shirt caught poop sabotaged academically want diemy school work far biggest problem right now immediate one slept night class hours im failing classes senior year weeks behind every single one classes done multiple projects tests tried catching looking fucked making feel discouraged want give truth loathed years feel ive died inside used well school ive fell behind partially due numbness partially feel deserve well sabotaged now slowly realizing graduate even fucked mean ive wasted years moms life buying school supplies driving school honestly want kill tried one two summers ago got scared last minute told anyone burden many ways really cherry top wanted die cant explain teachers family involved whole fucking shit show another problem longer even focus understand school work swear god brain shrunken something nothing sticks anymore good spending hours nothing worrying finding reasons hate literally know way dying fault know want back regular suffering without top point hey reddit sorry much really know turn advice helpfulone closest friends going lot recently open feelings happened always said feels life worth living talked reached last month hanging lot thenhowever told beginning year sexually assaulted immediate family member traumatised developed redflag told rest family happened wanted press charges hear perpetrator age think main reason feeling way told always quite close mother want press charges living refuge stand around family understandably means even try call emergency services come location places give address even residentsshe seems go found spending money friends buying people gifts sounds amazing person always people feels matter say enough someone thought things understand completely told one friends bought equipment commit suicide planning next week specify day want anyone stopping tried mother earlier today pressing charges availi spent lot time recently felt really good seeing catching many years never left reconnected one old buddies told us part bucket list really know even thin straight trying ask anyone know advice situation horrible one even fathom feels wrong even trying look way help insistent planning doif helps advice live uk advice help whatsoever greatly appreciated m friend f planning kll next week know wan na talk potentially friends say oh im moody cant handle emotions yadayadayada take emotions understand feel moody im hardly offended hmu comment end song reason relate httpsmusicyoutubecomwatchvdvahjzbvcamplistrdamvmdvahjzbvchttpsmusicyoutubecomwatchvdvahjzbvcamplistrdamvmdvahjzbvc current situationso guess ill start saying girl seeing past almost years told cant see us together anymore started months ago drunk fight phone died couldnt find stupid hey kind broke continued see eachother prior next ill say months break constantly told dont want im love anymore lying couldnt bare around made happy kept telling things using didnt know wanted everytime went fully cut couldnt couldnt bare lose last weeks tho slowly started accept fact lying infact want life loved much even planned really special lunchdinner going tell felt apologize last week felt way found briefly used dating app hated every moment deleted account prior finding friends saw showed top fact pushing away switch went head says doesnt want despite tho ive seen times past week weve kissed multiple times weve held eachother cuddled even came work hinted wanted said suprised happy see last night saw eachother genuinely always sex felt fucking love top spent whole night laughing mucking around always felt normal wanted see things great feel much enjoys around goes home defense mechanism dwells negatives protect hurt im trying hard force feel things past got impossible see perspective unless showed literally see conflict avoiding probably come across forcing see idk want back killing leads rn ive tried talk friends feel im drowning cant sleep constantly break multiple times day gotten point hate much literally dont even see point alive pushed away person made unbelievably happy past years cant even remember good times spoilt fool treating badly ive told felt wished didnt dont want feel im guilting want back badly literally never happy whole drama im struggling see point continuing try need help want back badly im scared getting upset something irrational said tho mainly want back im literally open advice desperate try anything become physically deformed dad gorgeous mom gorgeous brother handsome movie star handsome instead whole face slanted physical deformity prevented bullied kids striking traits mushed around face want die every day years planet still alone curse proof god today gon na venting hug zone anyone everyone feel free share need share enjoying show years use dream able see share grandchildren happy pay small amount memories found recorded dvd florida caring mother loving hard working husband one spoiled beautiful daughter two sons different day night michael baby son freedom walker jj clown know many afroamericans disliked show know many relate accepted heart sad learned ester rolle passed tyler perry leading writer actor today support work much made cruel mocking rolle one plays one hear ugly things physical appearance show started getting less interesting daddy james died picked bit florida remarried slumped took absence show show great pleased copies part past try keep work former stars good times must say one group wiped rumors think children today enjoy show problem sitting watching children congrats writer crew stars years renewed memories time enjoy without skip scenesbr br ok watch shows lately noticed thing made rethink series dislike think florida bit harsh came money children made children need supervision done way makes floridas mothering different scenes florida speak people good looking bothers now james alive show made big thing james wanting fixit shop never lived see family projects florida marries someone owns fixit shop bit slap face actor ended time good times showing accomplished strove lastly watch shows see series going overtime renamed jj truthful james left everything mostly centered around jj bad thing noticeable thing trade dvds amount money time maturity experience began guide eyes ayo females read previous post slide bruh yall failing english yall speak english feel im endi want kill fucking badly talked someone countless attempts apparently harder originally thought great great cant kill irritating want leave let leave please wish rapunzel girlfriend dont valentine going read post sorry writing points connected story forgive got energy thati want speak shoulders hate much hide know smile face reflect real happiness heart hate addictive life internet social media everything real day goes fast energy anything night comes hate productive wish somebody talk without judging somebody listen crying heart feel alone cant die alreadyif read stories know retarded dad family constant babying never trusting stuff really getting think handle right now constantly telling letting live life im close end fygfwhy everyone hate act liek first olace dumb austisic maybe idfkk know ill neever abtwhere inlife bcus im usueless everything im even usuless art fcjin art u draw paint thats gow shit fukcing hate mytself im ugly fuck nobody eber love mh aprents shout cutting vut scsnt help love someone helo men lose still typing nodody gives shit abotut u dumb bitch wtf wrong eith u dtop way idk im anymore lehs hurt cut tonigth fuck life osmeone jill mee already im crying im fufkcing still typing nobody cares everybody gon na say attention always dad almost caiguth shit someoneh lpe nobody cares sure im looking thishi ive posted back several months ago symptoms came back hard core large part shit going life keeps getting worse im point im beyond fantasizing redflag attempt im starting plan told therapist probably tell doctor actually give refills want sure im looking posting wanted put good questions class poll wondering make poll class little fun circuit breaker im scaredi wish tomorrow weekday schedule doctors appointment got inpatient place committed took emergency room suicidal weeks ago love know happening ruining life cant things anymore want die idk im hungry swear im drugs anything least sleeping meds time went hospital last time slept probably hours days somekne response please im hungry im cold live weird extended stay hotel freeway major coty chore go food kitchen guys know disney movie inside think joy lives head died long time ago hello first time posting sub thank anyone cooccurring psychotic disorder schizophrenia schizoaffective disorder along redflag interesting studies explaining really affect wondering might others experience miserable ranti know ill never happy ill never depression weighing brain works im know life wont better isnt even great right now love family value much dont want grow away know ill never miserable dont necessarily want kill anymore realize never want inflict parents absolutely hate miserable despising life much im hopeless useless making preparations whats stopping itgod want die badly barely make plans think future im fucking sick shit pain im cant transition theres one gender clinic country even open ages theres hundreds people list moving cant afford anywhere near amount money cost transition privately cant take living body much longer problem seriously cant face preparations id want make go need sort stuff rid things want anyone finding tidy write will etc ironically im depressed wish escape hell need wish ujojodge happy birthday november ninth important never look woman point living regret staying alive longwhy even bother hrt fix stupid male face nothing will poor afford surgery im sick constant hugboxing people telling id pass cis woman know trans mom thinks im guy still always uses male pronouns friends know face ugly highly encourage surgery done life cant take anymore nothing fix never want born born life literal torture feel alonehi really know start feels nobody talk afraid talk anybody fear attentionwhore friends family talk sliding gradually depression always ignore depression mean every day slips another mesh together purpose life go work come home go work come home day day never good attribute praise nothing scrutiny criticism personality traits people avoid nerdy reading science fiction novels interests monster amp horror movies people know friends acquaintances associates people avoid hanging never invited anywhere sit room accomplishing nothing feeding dark humor views world without achievements boast feel suddenly disappeared employer question whereabouts disappear annals missing another case detective take advantage fear retribution seeking help job associates never anyone care show affection afraid grow old alone sort antisocial creep living fantasy world build around shield absence warm love attention seek help negative backlash surely bury deeper hole much want improve know go gathering attend places go people meet someone share experiences stories friendships seem exist lousy finding places meet people fear may go overboard make permantent solution temporary problem want anywhere talk someone without record fear tell anyone work negative consequences job hey one bothered youtubes adds im seriously going start watching demoniced channels said ive hearing talk simp yeah im simp im simply slamming girl big old horse meat ding dong guess said already loved grinch stole christmas released im still loving now years later still lots people seem disagree opinion movie never really received much love time came outbr br sure movie overthetop campy reason movie charming fun watch sets costumes characters done perfectly overthetop fun way without becoming truly ridicules visually spectacular movie watch campy movie making best director ron howard really surprises fun little christmas moviebr br main reason movie works much fun watch jim carrey grinch truly carries movie good fun role course helped convincing makeup received academy award course jim carrey hater even think watching movie movie really movie makes work much fun watch fun memorable roles played jeffrey tambor clint howard josh ryan evans young grinchbr br movie good morale bit sappy perhaps im dutch really celebrate christmas enthusiastic big united states england movie simply fun entertaining morale left quite cold honestbr br musical score james horner good fun even though average every day horner stuff still works perfectly movie helps make scenes workbr br perfect christmas entertainmentbr br whats point anymore livingi wan na live anymore cause feel loved wanted anymore makes feel lonely forgotten forgotten try person life general know due depression whats point drug death things going betteri know nobody cares fuck probably going jump bridge sooni know read post history whatever cant much longer feel angry helpless took online test got question teacher needs grade nsome answers frogot put means exanple know cuz u cant write pen conputers forgot ro put stuff irl class teacher cares doesnt mark wrong coping methodshey guys im sure place post im sure ask im looking come coping methods ive tried things years found anything worked well used smoke weed keep suicidal thoughts away cant anymore working helps cant always make gym drinking good idea long term solution ive thought antidepressants know tendency abuse pills anyone suggestions stopped smoking weed depression gotten really bad know want die know cant kill care parents much ive hit wall really need help thanks advance ask trans girl questions hello bored anyways ask stuff whatever question ton trans girl mean answer mtf anyways feed evershortening attention span best way loved onesim saying im going want option know sounds nihilistic option leave wanted give fight ive struggling entire life isnt cry help ive gotten professional help magic answer still bad days really bad days know option really help thought leaving loved ones fucking tears apart reason im still getting help never plan lowest thought inevitable people arent meant life feel im one people means end purely hypothetical best way sake last thing id want burden even last time home away home od assume cleanest easiest tastes call authorities hand family dont see anything notes course notebooks full cant leave without providing explanation closure maybe fall ditch somewhere dont anything maybe knowing us best idk oh god felt bad annoying toward sister feel bad boyfriend im annoying stupid best friend committed redflag im hard time coming terms helpthis first time posting text read enough posts apologize posting mobile phone apologies hard read recently best friend committed redflag im struggling lot many questions know ill never receive answers didnt seem thought nothing left behind read every time close eyes see picture happened want cry miss much hurts yet time angry monster beautiful beautiful soul world darker without dont think realized many people hurt gone honestly think thought world better without wish much told one time important people gone first im sorry one hardest things ive gone commend strong secondly advice coping mechanisms youd share thanks advance whoever reads song series go orange justice sound sister watching series called go dance music show song called online hey opening sounds excactly orange justice go youtube search netflix go online hey hear almost scary want christmas yooouuuuuuu soulja boy tell em female title f please chat friend math homework words hes gon na awhile im willing chat almost anything dms open perhaps last film expect come vittorio de sica cesare zavattini wrote novel film based neorealist fantasy kind oxymoron really old woman finds baby cabbage patch raises son years baby young boy named toto adoptive mother dying goes orphanage finally turns leaves immediately finds home toto optimistic though let anything man steals valise instead getting angry toto becomes friend goes stays small shantytown toto takes initiative organizes many homeless living area build better shantytown soon landowner trying sell plot land citizens shantytown protect many attempts owner mounts force police rid homeless point film becomes fullfledged fantasy comedicfantastic melodrama style charlie chaplin stuff weird shocking probably best others see quite amazing funny objections raise plot miracle milan certainly fellini visconti greatly criticized started stray neorealism think read widely criticized time release point though enjoyable loved much might favorite vittorio de sicas films although umberto bicycle thieves come close morehi entire life one screw another steal drink take drugs commit fraud know though ive brought right lovely caring family reason fuck everything mode absolutely anything without second thought consequences finally two failed redflag attempts shit hit fan managed involved telephone fraud went around different electronics stores andtook iphones mac book pro credit name bills raining know fuck mode raping life calling quits hi stranger hope ur great day look reddit age everything life gone shit reasons im still catsim grew emotionally verbally occasionally physically abusive home dad became alcoholic result abuse mom became unwilling referee parental therapist preteen eventual side punching bag teen mom tried kill times kidnapped child dad fight spent adolescence waiting chance cps came twice nothing helped got dream school everything senior got ripped away mom refused sign loans without cosigner went escape divorced became physical punching bag mom cut hair prevent grabbing dad got worse tried kill times failed reason another got d mom proceeded use threat send behave stayed dad cut still depressed fuck though person talk grandma one night talked aunt whos racist hates happened took phone screamed told never call grandma told stop making shit family stop talking redflag elder grandma handle used feel way talk fast forward little bit dad finally patched relationship things looked better suddenly died drinking problem go back mom relative option mom immediately took became terrified even wake tried smother death tried choke aux cord tried shove stairs tried push moving vehicle etc yet every time blamed worst year life thought least grandma depressed losing son abused daughter racist aunt trying help always got covered somehow exactly one year later grandma suddenly died left half estate protect wanted move live near person left wanted help aunt one got hissy fact mom closer lawyered refused give key refused give items grandma specifically wanted proof informed sale well happened state kept going mom idiotic parents divorced adult asked dodged wrote letter never contacted months attorney cant afford tbh weve back forth threatening file taxes name without permission without ssn irs comes fucking recipe cards desk always think wanting end end pain end inevitable suffering always comes cant cant leave cats refuse rehome word hurts even type see thing family ones anytime cry sit purr lick face one legit meows talk keeps meowing till im done snuggles literally closest ones keep going wish something find new place live cant mom recently made credit cards name maxed told id understand position im anyone asks says help build credit im sure somewhat true intends sign name cosigner property wants buy ive means end want want die want place cats safe sound feel ill never im afraid wish everytime something worse feel im dying know im feel im end cold cold sometimes make head actual cold stuffy nose chest congestion scratchy throat h e l p fuck respond nice lol lmao ok need help got ct scan day normal living room decided sit couch sit couch hit head wall hard becauze couch near wall stupid bitch anyways started crying hurted hell ten mins later things got worse felt gon na pass ears head felt weird jumped taxi went hospital doctor checked alright sure wanted ct scan health insurancelol free stuff ct scan weird shit lay something enters circular thing thats said anyways went got results alright doctor said might metabolic illness bruh moment said might normal thing idk doctor super cute lol feel radiation bones btw might glow dark idk lessons learned never sit couch despite original began life play central europe weathered several incarnations followed mgms remake period songs good old summertime broadway show loves even excellent theatre revival paris couple years ago remains definitive version one beat several previous commenters identified contributing factors make successful memorable least prevailing fashion s s hollywood lavishing attention detail ensemble playing rather two leads often happens today try example removing ugarte ferrari renault etc casablanca yes still rick ilsa viktor lazslo theyd frosting without rich cake mixture jimmy stewart maggie sullavan ideal irreplaceable leads much brighter shine performances reflected frank morgan felix bressart joseph schildkraut andy hardys sara haden factor lubitsch touch okay maybe tad naive innocent even jurassic age many genuine film lovers sated scatology screwing inyourface sex turn back days stories style slickness skill wallow great movies one far best thing technological age csi dvd one time make classics available nostalgics show matrix freaks big boys used thought moving past sexualromantic frustration coming backm yeah thought moving past spending hours thinking crying ive never relationship done anything sexual coming back hard even writing outit felt bad memory keep thinking lost youth missing young love bothers much think redflag stopping cant fucking believe average age start sex havent even fucking relationship everyone manage participate sexual cant everything feels worthless havent reached milestone dont even know possible im constantly fantasizing rwholesomememes damn depressing cute memes made teens relationships cant fucking stand im bitter loser missed age everyone learns im fucked fuck im gon na fucking tonight fucking unbearable dislike abortion someone report guys spawnkilling talk admin came parents today finally got courage told parents im trans female male think scariest bravest thing ive done far life despite waterfall bad thoughts turned really accepting supportive obviously need time adapt thought im son far good well searching gender therapist pretty soon im excited looong difficult road ahead gon na make quality life even slightly better im whatever takes feels much better years hide much anymore kinda good true sorry im posting really wanted share somewhere im actually super proud guys seem nice people wanted mention none give theres times ive completely convinced absolutely never come thats impossible parents never accept way turned proves little know might might happen try never say never give things want accomplish always chance maybe girlboy find pretty finds attractive maybe one amazing skill impossible learn perhaps job wish stay dream may become reality try think many opportunities miss believe enough anyways good day fellow teens forget brush yo teeth merry christmas brothers sisters muslim brother blessed mean anything anybody future everyday hell handle anymore feel one escape everyday closer closer one days going happen feel death way mobile gaming console gaming bad bow console peasants im pc gamer p prostate c cancer riotous farce set world glamorous daytime soap operas film hilarious admittedly taste films screaming hysterical dialogue overthetop acting melodramatic plot twists one hell treatbr br sally field plays celeste talbert daytime tvs queen misery celestes cushy life thrown upheaval unexpected arrival lori craven elisabeth shue longlost niece simultaneously jeffrey anderson kevin kline splendid always celestes longago lover celeste hiding deep dark secret arrival lori jeffrey might bring surface add diabolical montana moorehead wonderful cathy moriarty full gorgeous woman testosterone spare mode trying mighty hard destroy celestes career david robert downey jr weenieboy producer soap whos secretly plotting montana ruin celeste rose schwarz whoopi goldberg scriptwriter celestes one true confidant heaping helping subplots general chaosbr br chaotic comedies tricky execute anyone remember mixed nuts done well pretty damn funny major ingredient necessary good comedy casting seasoned pros know lots times funniest things said seen expression look field kline goldberg rest work together well clearly great time hard become drawn energy enthusiasm shue clearly weakest link draws attention surrounded field kline et al moriarty standout showy villainess role making think hottest damn dominatrix see lots familiar faces recognize small nevertheless funny roles including carrie fisher garry marshall kathy najimy teri hatcher director michael hoffman keeps pace swift histrionic plot moving toward big finish mention must made robert harlings screenplay carefully constructed stage soap opera within soap opera dialogue boiling great lines delivered brilliantly actors id willing bet lot stuff improvisedbr br look want see bunch pros best great time hands one anything put good mood make laugh bird phone hes biting case help days everyone allowed whoever want many rights right exist unhappy life years change countless amount ways try change things reading headlines posts see unhappy people belong earth depressed young still hope ways going changeto loosely quote doug stanhope first half movie watch sucks highly likely next half suck welli wish natural way choose understand unfair love ones happens love ones suicide frowned upon im done test surprised well average s comedy scores imdb voters dan ackroyd usual satirical turn con seizes great opportunity steal contract prisons physician retreats california start work giving advice radio show pretending infamous dr lawrence baird person knows hes imposter drunken priest walter matthau comes along pampered ackroyds new found wealth blakmailed charles grodin throws good supporting performance genre think film deserves crediblity ferris bueller trading places stepford wife fetish thing im sure even describe sort dutiful housewife baking cookies laundry thats kind bimboish sexually available kind keep tummy full balls empty attitude emphasis balls empty coming across cleaning something feels bdsm thing even irl thing porn fantasy rarely see played probably related men things hands carrying kids know even name know search theres community even thought much terms sexual fantasy mostly think lifestyle either something avoided revered standard im trying codify masturbation scenario really turns reason lucky enough see prescreening last night oct incredibly surprised wonderful plot genuinely heart felt actingbr br plot particularly complicated exceptionally new story unfolds way feels fresh unique distinctly indy style something easily compared films past unique take sort classic middleaged depressed love storybr br particularly struck casting film every last extra family beautiful talented cast three daughters wonderful job talent evenly dispersed none outshone twobr br truly delightful film appropriate ages laugh loud funny truly touching heart warming wonderful break sex jokes nudity recent films first posti suicidal last years right feel situation die try save unless someone present endangered thing really keeps committing redflag people know imagine wonder never said anything asked help beat want given parents back money spent often wish either different sperm made egg exist wish redflag super acceptable say ok im done enjoy guys go every single day happened wake im waiting day dont social butterfly make friends real easy good crowds feel every single new friend chain binds prison life figured id share thanks reading idea spirit worldim thinking taking trip soon done real world tomorrow going minute clinic receive physical sports refill prescription wanting reach someone think may pmdd form depression unsure minute clinic doctor right wrong doctor reach convenient reach ill already sure deal mental health advice minute clinic doctor apt handle depression questions im hopefully going single anymore met someone gets name daisy basically everyone ignoring nice teacher including decided try nice back talking drugs bad affected life stopped using seem happy sinse theres someone paying attention classes btw sorry bad english im fucking failurei havent done single thing right life literally minutes ago one decision thought never regret thrown drain im christian trans girl basically got harassed another trans woman apparent reason didnt provoke anything literally mentioned offhand christian suddenly angry comments message someone telling faith fake im horrible person believing god dont even feel welcome one community nice anymore fuck everything im fucking done planet survive high schooli know dumb im severe depression life even hard yet ive cut second time today im loser failure eyes reason brothers ruined moms eyes nothing worth im average best ugly inside see reason live happens yelled try talk im overreacting reddit depression even count pro adhd meds kinda focus eat less food looks disgusting even though know need eat haha cripplinng headaches dont take meds eat goblin feel shit hate everything know anymore know keep livingi obese around lbs give take lbs disability ptsd severe social anxiety absolutely friends family go months years without anyone talk tried making friends one lasts ghost lead sick mind game cant take loneliness anymore know anymore even tried dating told ugly disgusting worthless told nothing woman wants even told women want laughed mocked made fun even catfished couple times know anymore know keep living isolated life style even keep living life isolated live small town rowena texas miles away one way nearest town taxi uber lyft town fast food places super walmart several dentists churches far religious tried going churches behind even around dunno anymore maybe best exist anymore aita remembering therapists name shes really good therapist ive going two years now idea name posting everyday lose virginity day found best ad entire 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something strange heart hope think im struggling areas life diagnosed severe depression anxiety sometime middle school recently trauma induced rather mild ptsd therapists never humoured believe actually suffering bpd reason repeated therapy multiple medications done little nothing help treated broken leg actually hip heal right anyway redflag mind constantly past months now passing thought something joked cover pain small list preferred methods plans probably healthy every joke become serious statement regular meltdowns resorted scratching shit lieu razor blade cuts dreams still kind believe never achieve even come close nothing seems work feel total failure seems ive begun sabotaging achievements whether subconsciously intent im terrified ask want feel guilty manage words return therapy th november id admit hospital finances already make basics hard afford disregarding fact need money coming arrange live somewhere currently living friends couch im grateful feel current situation beginning harm difficulty keeping basic self care always manage convince im somehow unworthy even baseline help sustainable cant live want give really dont need help badly know anymore please help im scared support chat group availablei always suicidal thoughts im actively suicidal speak wanted know know support group thats chat based im already therapy enough ive tried cups feel problems bit dark reply appreciated hope everyone reading gets better im texting girl school say right things kinda awkward shes way outta league still responds texts say help convo keep going sorry im awkward teenage boy didnt know go ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im gon na say reason ahhhhhhhhh thoughts extremely long always planned future suicides either car crash involved driving highway alone darkness one see crash going mph apply gun permitlicense use buy handgun shoot hurt people loved regret much even forgave broken many promises let many people grudges everyday seem forgive anything hope something happens want die miserable want end badly im terrible personi things im aware hurt people make hate way way raised make terrible person worst part even understand things annoying piece shit im intreresting way people notice humor ironic humor gets old becomes annoying im anxious prick want live life anymore cant see mirror without feeling disgust selfish kill ill everyone favor deal bullshit anymore reason killed parents friends probably cant stand anymore anyway id change completely dont know wjat doim tansgender realy want die want plat blue wale redflag game ready dieive spent whole life worthless im nothing show im worth women im worth friends im tired caring everyone want end cant take anymore let everyone walk hate itit hurts lot feel numb everytime meet someone new know theyll use letting life simple give fuck anymore feel worthless pointless im living even though choose stop maybe last thing everyone gon na hear need advice make want go matter advice helpful advice hey anyone wan na chat ive awake starting regret life decisions im yo guy matters lets honest hentai addiction came subliminal messages cartoons postpartum depression got throat medicine therapy support group etc failed think might tonight name fuck wrong people someone accused female oppression im male mother sacrificed body months create another shit daythey saying one changed instead knew going inside head nowhere close different unlike everyone maybe forget move ahead walking away life saw friends staring gave look something see told stop suffering eternity end even say back thank guys friend please forgive never intended best know life put test even tried many efforts chest please forgive put rest remember started life eleven thought life hard till learned heaven remember told make sure life easily condone easy think cant even take care remember kids responsibilities life taken granted till struggles consumed disabilities remember school making sure took notes judging written words mostly despairs quotes every word say hurts ear make want disappear love hate baby girl think took bait love priceless love lifeless thought one wrong reason made song lied cried know anymore inside feel theres war one cared mean words fill tumor lack donald trump porn makes worry generation accepted long ago real authentic donald trump porn never going become available years best satisfy kink create porn option crudely photoshop donald trumps head onto bodies male pornstars limited photoshop skills accomplish much matter hard tried make fantasy reality never make feel real technology advanced humanity evolved made contact monolith universe advancement emerged deepfake porn ability put anyones face onto pornographic video anyone much ask porn made famous man america honestly point desperate donald trump porn watch anything create video bottom im going honest align barack obamas political views im basing facts alone statistically obama likely larger penis living us president mean ideal trump porno barack obama top created rough outline porno play debated whether plot porno many pornographic videos plot good many people skip beginning setup entirely straight sex scenes think reason plots pornos boring acting never good able good actors star porno plot much better experience people enjoy lot think samuel l jackson make great barack obama john goodman make great donald trump aboth critically acclaimed actors bodies built similarly respective roles opening shot barack obama sitting alone home wife kids vacation wifes parents watching fox news dont worry hes watching ironically says fuck republicans moment donald trump breaks door says will fuck republican obama already sweating heavily utters bbut orange man bad trump says yeah orange man bad owo obama hastily rips pants exposes inch cock trumps knees go weak sight immediately falls floor crawls obama obama whispers wall able 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thought strong always thought wouldnt everythings changed guess anxiety bad dont think want live anyone anything possibly worry worry anxiety bad always gives phantom pains convince im heart attack stroke shit im years old shouldnt living girls carefree anxiety lot better awhile taken turn worse dont wan na live anymore friends mad makes feel shitty put parents much shit ive little mini mental breakdowns barely relationship dad love mom much mom worry much ive treated shitty past makes feel absolute shit hate always worry know better dead gone didnt exist wouldnt causing pain kids live street killed know scared want feel think need commit redflag hate feel way hate wan na free pain dont wan na feel way dont wan na feel anymore wan na gone wan na free pain im crippled im drowning feel everything slippingive high school three half years graduate may im tired living life people forced things order remain trouble parents ive started cutting realize still dont feel anything even bring girlfriend never happy anymore everything seems going soon feel slipping faster light end tunnel coming im dragged void darkness coming closer closer succumbing fate others halloween producers cut reviewbr br halloween starts recap horrific ending part five thought last chapter dark one really blow mind mysterious man black raided haddonfield police department freeing micheal myers process poor jamie lloyd abducted strange cultists want knows lets say long suffering end soon doctor loomis back spending rest twilight years trying stop michael myers killing innocents good luck friend loomis doctor wynn comes back four sequel hiatus help good doctor another old face part one guest stars wellbr br dark dreary sequel dismantled post production editing reason distributors felt final product worth average horror film watchers time decide dumb film sit shelf several months laid egg box office matter film made worse left well enough alone hey film company knows better filmmakers nowdont theybr 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slap puritanical christianity much surface story gifted parisian cook flees paris one revolutions middle classes finds cast ashore jutland north denmark simply grease allows deeper tale developbr br babette artist one small army people driven pillar post centuries fatuous politicians vane greedy arrogant kill beauty profit something politics always pace national endowment arts simply institutionalizes creativity propaganda purposesbr br babette last legs arrives tiny village two virginal sisters reside seeing diminishing flock devotees late pastor father live salt cod black bread gruel br br babette shows simple pious people god pleasure sensuality well behavioral mental purity shows mental purity lead control freakishness something know days neoauthoritarians government limit personal freedoms somehow crime state tell us humanitybr br babette cooks bangup french dinner celebrate th birthday late reverend daughters flock think devil come amongst vow notice food drink br br point preparing meal payed babettes winnings french lottery begin tearup poignance brought comparison daily vulgarity mendacity floods consciousness morning night via media powermongers manoeuvring gain advantage us darkbr br simple sophistication babettes art spits face pretentiousness display modern society hurts watch played exquisitely splendid filmbr br along fanny och alexander bergman favorite film yet watch awhile rare bottle wine served blinis fresh oysters something must overdone br br great great film every movielovers library whats earliest memory guys hi im survey wan na see far back average person remember personally remember stuff three yes hard flex cap thought normal much guys remember life miserable painful lonely energy desire anything people pissy killing genuinely understand people know pain life think know better dunning kruger effect ignorant someone life firm continuing livepeople repeat retarded shit life better lot experience sit suffer feeling guilty allowing people push around tell end life upset feel upset thoughts borderline predatory people know lonely alone take advantage guilt killing myselfi need work cutting everyone life finally kill fucking nightmare telling someone kill idiotic ignorant huh wonder trump got coronavirus mask hes worn kkk mask think im gon na make much longerim strong enough depression worse years maybe hard remember irl friend support system going shit grandmother died hes rock makes much worse feel cant talk ive never felt needed im bad support friend hurt much need stop think going hang tonight tried better mentally really think made family girlfriend tried help part scared part excited longer live torture thoughts tried better yes imagine actually supporting voting trump post made biden gang yes know post cringe coming manic episode afraid doomed againi bad phase last month nearly killed ended psych ward got days later getting new appreciation everything see excitable work happy wake insanely energetic even felt happily something break arm pass time bored actually wanted felt exciting ive never experience something felt good week feel energy getting lower lower dont feel excited dont enjoy things dont feel powerful bad thoughts beginning come back feel going downward spiral end another hospital visit death living mental illness former drug addiction cant take anymorei insurance way counseling therapy medication cant make another scene parents put homeless shelter work part time minimum wage car younger sisters successful tired burden everyone every time used shoot hope kill reason everyone sad dead boyfriend leading depression years now dating months time quite okay started relationship taking antidepressants sometime dropped getting worse noticed talked topici really worried although know normal nothing love want suffer thinking taking antidepressants even though really hate dependency create make feel allhas anybody gone situation earlierdoes anybody kind adviceps experienced diagnosed depression kind depressive episodes spent time many people leading depression quite conscious topic boyfriend getting worse im gon na end goodbyeim sick people sick talking sick breathing sick thinking know people miss cant live anymore pain im years old established depression depression years light characteristics autism im good situation im laying bed serveral months im tired depressed social anxiety addicted selfharm playing videogames fappingwatching porn gave good feeling im feeling lonely want lonely sounds weird consider redflag rope couple months ago painful scars selfharm left arm cry fast mother father seperateddivorced years old mentally mistreated long time stepfather beat mom see stepfather threaten say mom beat stepfathers total feel everyone really mad people swipe im done world everyone understand kinda thing hie guys back longthrow comments replying every fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillefillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller im upmy whole life uphill battle abusive parents particularly rough military deployments poverty etc decades im pretty worn past month though things finally turned around fact probably best despite extreme feeling things worse theyve complete mental breakdown two weeks ago today move ive spent long struggling ptsd im kind feeling im going enjoy one last weekend end want go top sink back ive always want end victory rather waiting come crashing ending im sure seems odd think im ready maybe wont know ive come extremely close several times past year havent feels right though anyways great people wish best stay kind lol guys guess im pregnant hope boy im excited im kinda scared cus mom said vaccines cause sids dont want baby polio dont vaccinate people dream world peace dream last night dropped phone puddle best friends dad swimming puddle asked said jumped puddle drowned want summon ufuck anyone knows summon ufuck reddit post please let know dogecoin trade tend make best predictions games movies try imagine someone spoiling see brain jumps first homehome break feel alone brings back feelings people miss dearly people used life bed makes feel sleeping never getting place heavily associated many issues ive escaped away college toxic stop optimisticim always trying optimistic appreciate love life world people always trying give reasons fools practice give become bitter depressed hateful little weasel inevitably kill idki expect pity answer needed let feel cant anywhere ive thinking killing lot lately school mental health people around ive always close im much coward finish girlfriend stopping times still feel crap still old shit cant escape im basically stuck know feel alone maybe empty whenever let emotions say think feel everything turns shit gf id talk suddenly switches gets dry moodysad bc said right place decided go quiet talk anymore feels wrong type im glad found subreddit feel nothings bad going happen ended still feels wrong way hope im annoying smth typed tic discord im gon na pee hm lmaoooajdksks looks funny help havent slept hours unpopular opinion im majority times homophobia gay persons fault people dont care dont care two guys kissing simply dont care theyll leave alone leave alone gay people think need go tell everyone guy support join lgtb protest gets annoying leads people wouldnt care sexuality act homophobic obviously stupid people homophobic hate gay people everyone people tired bothered gay people dont hate gay people respect dont try push beliefs guys think expect thinkso kinda know start writing typing google fast non painful way end came across reddit post brought sub know posting sure asking help screaming silently someone hear silently beaten one love suppose love past years real hard harder usual attempts tried kill one direct attempt lately mean time head ready tired tired feeling rejected tired feel alone time women married pushing away long rejected time sleep couch year tired really need stop hurt feel pain body story leaving lot said know posting sure ill check wanted something know im gon na try liverecently ive lot thinking ive talked friends mulled things head want live ive made two posts one spoke going commit redflag night changed mind im gon na try sure seek help im gon na try depression suicidal thoughts come many things mainly self image hate personality thought process emotions every aspect mind body self harmed specifically mental physical punishment force acting normal changing personality bad sounds something ive grown decided buy pull bar way self harm productive way guess muscle pain know sounds weird itll help used go gym reasons really seek help im gon na see hope sincerely last thing post confessed feelings girl said feels way many meso many committed redflag much younger now gained even less experience life now enough life conviction enough end even greater conviction suffering long suffer longer wanted die young bring every reason younger self never imagine bad feeling today constant broken heart feeling heart sinking chest everyday without fail total separation humanity ive fair share pathetic life nothing complain comes ending life others experienced even less ended lives think might bisexual homoromantic thought normal bi def want fuck guys think long term relationships stuff always girl birthday yoooo im owemji hahahahha girl u fridge cus ur shaped one gon na diearound weeks ago fight mom said thos horrible things went stairs room done living wanted die bad lots meds medical condition asthma took pills strong med started vomit started vomit panicked went bed think im gon na itim actually sick cant anything right want end sorry dad wasting time money sorry mom ruining life im gon na end soon dad even thinks wont goodbye everyone end life eventually post times never actually stated real genuine reason tried kill day goodbye post attempting time time right problem want hurt family thats problem fact access firearm hang look post history see main reason im closet lesbian always one twisted though never come closet want hate gay much people hate pedophiles never act feelings continue keep quiet die naturally overly sensitive homophobia turn away annoy activist bullshit want hear known gay young age denial teens admitted im gay thought okay thought okay feel things reason life screwed fault let feel things thinking okay mess met two people feel thats gays straights okay accept theres nothing wrong blah blah stop fucking dense give fuck people gay care people lives dont gay happy give fucking shit want gay dont want im sick people fucking listening say gay affects life im sick im sick people generalizing gays one gay person okay doesnt mean im sick people debunking everything say thats similar straight people stop whining gays straights neither helped boyfriend plenty boyfriends everyone thinks knows im straight makes happy sex guys brief sex soon shit gets serious bail feel bad yes thats horrible person disease mind go nice guys turn hurt normally date assholes care life actually okay im smart successful one reason ruins whole entire life squashes hopes dreams fucks completely im going hate gay know exactly people going reply people fucking dense im going bother tried gay fucked visiting pastor soon hopefully undergo reparative therapy im even religious slightest excited feel normal people feel work ill continue live heterosexual die want gay want anyone know want act mental illness long stream consciousness unhealthy statemy life rather boring feel little attachment right now suicidal thoughts ive mostly accepted life meaningless one day itll end depression bad anymore well im really sure whether better worse im probably bad natural state live messy house older brother keeps messing matter many times ive cleaned ive given take shower every days people interact online strangers people ring food pass days computer literally nothing sometimes top ive already selected date end life know exactly die date arrives fail first time im going keep trying succeed every single day waiting day arrives people say ive gotten confident im confident ive lost lot care life problem confronting situations headon certainty legitimately care result whether life ruined certain things matters little worry im anything dangerous im going go touch anyone im going go murder anyone moral sense still check understand people care life different people watch diet exercise make friends family care making memories enjoying life go whereas cant muster ability enjoy anything im openly inviting death upon every single day every single hour im thinking die every time go sleep im prepared wake assume die brain aneurysm sleep every time probably afterlife wake every single time theres saying death catches people least expect catch offguard ill always expect theres never second im thinking situation lead death fear death much anymore logical thinking backandforth topic ive decided improbable death lies nonexistence believe even case know nonexistence depressing think im trying convince theres afterlife instead afterlife matter long one wasnt able sleep night think way happy finally enter afterlife think life earth going become enjoyable anytime soon going monotonous rut long live college supposed rather colorful period everyones time least turning point small peak valley life yet exactly hs exactly ms exactly primary school nothings changed entire life nothing change either ill job work environment probably exactly college im going work turn old case im free want die government throws money every month happens nothing happy im misanthrope rather asocial starting family anything really consideration going im going die alone well im prepared outcome ive come terms fact die lived fulfilling life everyone keeps talking changed start finish maybe even reach designated date depart something horrible happens prevents ill die beforetime unforeseen unexpected alternatively maybe something miraculous happens changes something realistically wont ill welcome developments post getting rather long im sure already long past skipping point many people im going end wanted share going mind maybe anyone insight advice comment ive thinking maybe move redflag date bit closer theres really much going thats stopping maybe instead long time now move year maybe month week now im sure case thanks reading suppose please helpi feel im losing mind im much pain need city world want pass peacefully badly cant hurt family cant take much longer though know please help school starts tomorrow morning anyone wan na talk dont want summer end yet anyone wan na talk visiting father years tomorrow going see father afterwell read title right father passed away years old family sort kept away fact even father feel strangely transcendental even know single thing fathers family mom decided tell everything years anyway tomorrow morning im going visit grave know say absolutely memories heard good father proud children say anything even remember anything well guess im gon na say whats heart tomorrow wish luck sorry bad english know doi really know anymore life seems meaningless hope future male turns saturday lives dads basement barely friends never hope girlfriend really making new friends super stressful job cant take break really go insane written huge amount text explaining ive saw long finished yet ill give tldr suppose started girl known years old getting quite close shy general socially awkward someone asked boyfriend got pregnant blame feel stupid always hard step dad moved first thought great take responsibilities mine mother pretty much nothing raise two younger brothers year skipped breakfast lunch make sure ok eventually snapped year done moved dad relationship mother side family nonexistent dad never really got along well family lives town honestly say hate family hate final high school year got terribly ill skin infection miss semester school emotional support family friends spent mostly ish months alone previously absolute hell sunk depression never really got take classes second semester caused large amount stress added onto depression things finally got point trouble getting bed absolutely motivation finished highschool started waking later later latest around pm months ago finally got job stressful physically demanding working many hours point absolutely exhausted know keep demanded much longer take break spend days home talking one anyway apologies long tried tldr kind failed tried summarize things may left really really need help tried talking different times helped need help friends none spend time mentally need recover family hates hate back stressful job keep much longer think great die finally released burdens past thoughts redflag common probably terrible job explaining tired right need sleep please reddit need help end comes soon actually read giant wall text thank much pointwhy post delay enivitinble many us time now vs late lost love lifemy husband years together texted told finished paperwork divorce know love anything whole world spent last two years trying hard give relationship another chance give another chance know anymore moved america europe left whole life family friends many times feel anything life im afraid dying look forward feel pain anymore know still love much feel lost lost much lost dreams life many times feel want time place world want really sad im twenties disappointment remove theres streamer anita never watched even heard popping youtube recommended stop cant deal life anymoreits much hurts much trauma resurfacing cant deal anymore im done months ago started feeling anything thought eventually feel even though started feeling things feel bloqued mean feel superficial thingsfeelings make deep conection things example love listening music still enjoy listening music enjoy melodies connect lyrics even hear songs used deep meaning deep feelings basic feelingsalso missing times misserable deeper shit know good healthy miss worst time beacuse feel deep way life total flatness nothing happens something different happens feel different keep going nothing mattersand another thing happening longer want goor better person givng beign better everytime longer care used think better person better stuff come life actually gets worse sometimes want give fuck everything around tired everything still feel enough reconsider suicide seriously unsensitive even courage reconsider suicide sad ot angry enough think iti know becoming worst person fighting hide know bomb eventually exlplode know problems accept people menthal problems problems know control know thinkit knew doomed become shitty dude bojack character fewling even weird test heavy weapons guy continue comments actual dick terrible httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi contained disk first rate show first rate band disc faint heartthe music incredibly intense cool learn watch movie huge long true records great shows top heap concert shot screaming teenie boppers threw jelly beans beatles gone bands audiences settled long often amazing displays musical virtuositysomething audiences intellectual curiosity pursue age canned music britney christina especially learn amazing things happen gifted musicians encouraged improvise try concert really amazing reached bottomone seemingly insignificant event sent deep emotional spiral hope anything going forward please someone tell gets better false hope cling onto bit longer day nnn wish good luck remember never accept free nnn coupons fake really rough night last night everything comes wavesfinding words even begin explain feelings feel something ill never concur cant explain feelings go matter hour physical mental pain turned physical telling brain im cant believe im disconnected self reliant feeling abandoned room full people nobody likes dont connect anxiety taking friends arent really friends think annoying everyone playing nice friend acting weird stop distancing wonder youre alone one wonder uglyfatdisgusting fault redflag right itll feel better bridge close easy pills taste good taking cant breathe want die time im constantly falling felling alone alone completely different somewhat crave isnt narcissistic price shit nobody fucking cares problems skin deep dont know feel crawl back bed belong forget anything past walls mind races cant stop cant stop thoughts eating alive anyone understand anything feel begin explain dont even know idea whats wrong whats wrong whats wrong stop yelling please cant take volume head another migraine body physically clenched point causing jaw stress want curl ball deflate everyone thinks joke youre dramatic anyone even listen words leaving youre existence end end youre worth space waste cant shake weight im drowning time im fine least thats tell self say stop pussy nobody gives shit problems youre suicidal never brave enough try uk looking friends hey im person hopefully read friend something please feel much guilt cant believe anything friends say anymoreive made many huge mistakes around friends put faith trust someone emotionally abusive towards online friends blame acted complained called toxic girlfriend proceeded go witch hunt tell three groupchat time abusive friend knew irl another online friend deeply care hate ignored hate feel way abusive friend started ignoring daily basis turned online friend blatantly disappeared fucking terrified hed done something wouldve fault starting whole fight lasted months grew severely paranoid picked fights abusive friend cut things way late made everyone miserable friend finally responded months refuses talk happened think caused tell lies know talk struggling fights among friends told hes looking help feel fucking guilty ive started believing hes looking therapy tells fine believe cant believe ive done hurt people want die feel punish ive done im supposed alive want die feel forced kill stop hurting others cant look help cant afford feels solution cant forgive thought alone makes feel extremely selfish toxic hurt feel negative stop feeling way never feels good enough always im endless loop fucking misery cant write hope death takes instead one day yeas last redflag attemptso title says years last tried kill live happy life wife kids let say hope terrible place hope reach help might seem hard best choice made best luck u love u another searing look holocaust rather intimate story events took place small street berlin people involved film starts present time new york city ruth weinstein jutta lampe mourning death husband family members gathered side ruths daughter hannah maria schrader slowly learns mother raised aryan woman named lena fischer doris schade travels germany locates year old tells events rosenstrassebr br spoiler alertbr br lena talks berlin gestapo hold jewish spouses building rosenstrasse street even though supposed immunity married aryans nine days group women wait outside shout release eight year old ruth svea lohde awaits mother come nowhere go meets year old lena katja riemann takes lenas husband fabian martin feifel inside eventually tries socialize nazi officers somethingbr br film directed margarethe von trotta making first feature film almost years working television clearly one provocative efforts remains one revered directors europe one nazi films view horrible acts inhumanity jews although see severe treatment issued instead retelling small event meant life death people involved film trying shock anyone open door debates circumstances simply wants shed light small true life event occurred historical period part films strength comes actors good performances shine especially riemann young lohde always good see schrader aimee jaguar pivotal role great film something thats going change perspective wwii considering innocent lives put death events took place think reason alone important enough retell true story moment someone impersonates shit said dedicating whole life hating tiktok reddit moment lol th time someone impersonated insecurities someone perfect jeon jungkook even exist personality everything perfect fact ill never marry makes sad age gap theres girl im feel ha e want chance getting girlfriend known years good friend sisters always thought another sister shes developed im around age one girls genuinely find attractive know used find unattractive far interests go anime im big gamer probably gaming tbh look girlfriend someone likes right fucking front addition attractive dont know thats alright shes younger theres possibility head feelings stop thinking think think reasons something mind hoping something happens simultaneously thinking reasons big deal nothing mom mom well joined teenagers group facebook moms talk children dying inside lack privacy teenagers getting mom still thinking idea sex works even dick looks basically anything sexual stuff basically im upset teenagers less privacy time im pretty sure mothers idea actually time idk confused options available sistermy sister bad place several redflag attempts shes usually released days hospital family believe needs long term help shes live illinois im curious options life worth livingthis personal post care listening whining kid favor move unloading thoughts ive recently cant talk anyone maybe im worried theyll worried im worried theyll agree point theres one option left need say comes every time wake wonder bed knew tell need go college want feel outcast even though im peoples friend im smart enough theres many people better every one subjects feel embarrassed even room thinking hes nowhere good thinks work feels pointless anyway mean lets face probably gon na lead anywhere sec suppose say hanging friends worth spend maybe hour day best even though fun still feel empty probably sort meaningful conversation limits talk humorous banalities fun moment moment im staying moment mention fact im none best friends matters ok lets talk complete alevels best case scenario need next well really different setting university looking even work even loneliness likelihood make good friends quickly ill going lectures going back dorm day every day sounds way live plus looking current state things getting job looking unlikely one going horrible mean say job looking majority days taken mind numbing tedious tasks completed day day receive fraction money generate boss keeps threatening fire great even stick long enough rise ladder im going turn around middle age realize nothing bit money shiny car im still alone depressed ive always even better might happen want sort corporate job want writer group people depressed alcoholic suicidal become cliche chances ideas way derivative work anything criticized mocked noticed terms career odds life fulfilling love make worth love tried best steer clear every time ive fallen love without fail mater reciprocal seemed rejected probably good reason im unattractive guy cant good around im sure tell post nervous insecure clingy great boyfriend material anyway even fall love girl loved back next carry relationship one us falls love dies painful matter ill probably end one divorced forty year olds still desperately tries dating scene cries car outside clubs eventually hangs studio apartment leaving remaining grand kids pity anyway likelihood none happen love rare probably rare ordinary kid im likely go entire life without feeling greater good yeah right seen current political landscape seen anything weve created species touch insidious fucked best chance saved long gone human beings animals violent selfish long hold onto base urges well never equal functioning society biological puppets heads full false imaginings fucked go must thinking christ clearly depressed go help help everyone know whos antidepressants still fucked way another feels odd turn altering chemical makeup blocking thoughts way happy feels im right im going willfully ignore shrink barely better priest someone give illusion hope tell theres light end tunnel offering nothing sentiment professional smile taking money right thats comes mind right now know bleak subs anyway thanks anyone reads responds tldr career satisfy love keeps evading human race hopeless cant see way mom buying happy meal want course im getting choccy milk fries doesnt want toy mine try beer never even touched alcoholic beverages till date getting opportunity try beer friends peer pressure maybe sips need worry getting addicted shy buy asking worth trying ive lost mind soon lose life readim basic summary health anxiety child became prominent severe everything feels real may aswell actually something wrong cant fact silent sinus syndrome rare condition causes eyeball sink skull due orbital bones breaking theres painful symptoms silent rare cant find information commonyearly cases occur treatment redflag mean surgery add prosthesis fix appearance month eyelids changed creases instead nobody family said anything looks ive symmetry tests take picture eyes draw lines connecting top eyelash bottom eyelash etc week ago seemed fine anxiety actually kinda went away tonight anxiety came ive taken sone picture tests seem okay seem asymmetrical bottom eyelash sign according google refuse think camera angle indeed asymmetrical results indeed eyeball sinking skull promoting terrifying possibly disabling disfiguring eye surgery already suffered self image issues overweight ugly general one put casket cant imagine going school classmates hearing eyepatch getting rare condition required eye surgery life ruined absolutely chance life anymore life feels pointlessi life offer always terrible everything school work relationships etc honestly feel matters anyone even change something feel happiness friends enjoyable honestly care insignificant family always abusive millions people abusive families mine matter doesnt nothing matters life others lives nothing feel rewarded matter cant seem find good happiness feeling everyone talks started using drugs seemed allow feel good started smoking cannabis recreationally almost everyday made appreciate life little bit actually felt happiness started abusing opiates opiods used take mg oxycodone day hydrocodone hydromorphone whatever honest feel anything anymore tried od end hospital feeling shit days fun someone trying enjoyment shit life go much detail personal life honestly care need know sucks want peaceful way od cannabis best way go cant oh well posting leave something may eventually significant behind maybe doubt worth try think oding morphine way go gone time someone reads maybe simpler suggestions go quick painless good life question relationship girlfriend anthropomorphic dog id sex bestiality think given consent see issue yeah basically question fuck girlfriend well executed old dark house horror good setup includes character poe alluding story london pub although pretty much one guy taken dare visit house particular night running room room either looking avoiding people still enjoyable plus delightful enigmatic barbara steele wooden dialogue unexplained bits bobs super creepy atmosphere maintained throughout super musical score keep one moving nicely along dvd originates us extras anime fun thanks coming ted talk today years old realized ppl say wouldnt survive cod lobby unironically really thought satirical joke people said realize f word slur lgbt people naturally going avoid say youre apart community wouldnt survive cod lobby hope end soon wish die without upsetting anyonei thought started homeschooled going community college things better time now workload catching ive wanted become history major long time excited take history class found much harder anticipated love read reading dry classes lot quizzes things online hard figure everything works ive asked help becomes harder harder feel im going amount anything bipolar disorder gotten worse mood swings frequent doctor afraid put medications id go hospital parents think im selfish thing disappointed uncle recently hospital depression supposed talk feel kind important go hospital shortly parents probably think im copycat attention ive started cutting legs knives deep enough bleed parents dont know though dont need even theyd think im lying wish tell exactly feel without hurting wont lie psychologically abuse dont good examples fuck mind mom constantly belittles times acts shes best mom world times believe dad knows thats even acknowledged night said used worse yet doesnt anything scream accuse lazy wonder scream back depression makes irritable upset days cant even bed dad says need work constantly pesters makes fucking miserable im lashing parents ive started lashing people around college kids theres boy gaming room hang lot constantly tries show stuff phone hes obviously autistic something try nice little cousin autism know hard deal constantly tries shove things face show politely ask leave alone today followed show dumb shit phone panic attack gaming room trying study realizing lost glasses kept shoving phone face despite telling nicely leave alone eventually got mad yelled fuck starts crying cry genuinely feel bad yelling look bitch yells autistic people hate bitch try nice really want make friends im socially awkward weird people dont want around tried make friends college far one feel lonely lost life dont know much go try provide support people going either ignore tell im weird hate weird kid last year high school people wanted vote yearbook likely school shooter clear never hurt another person never something dont even think something wouldnt even consider another thing bothers drama club used kind stockholm syndrome thing treated shit never give roles three lines except one skit main character first joined seemed liked maybe try hard make friends people started avoiding people started saying id probably shoot school kept distance drama teacher despite fact learned lot asshole made feel absolutely worthless now go scotland acting festival treating quite members shit revered community hailed heroes one takes account scars leaves behind wasnt fact even though horrible people know hurt family immensely kill dont know much longer hold wont let job wont let learn drive rarely visit friends live near reason im still alive know hurt family died im sorry rambling much want chest take long write everything bothering quite painkillers purse right ingrown toenail probably wouldnt trick sincerely considering taking redflag attempt know probably wont work temptation getting strong maybe ill keel middle class something fantastic sorry long read really think totheres option living shit kill done anything im missing mean living shit life go fuck fuck fuck fucking done edit heres hoping hold onto determination home school im sick sniveling coward never cliched titlenot sure turn anymore reddit bit came big digg move ive loved site far guys helpful supportive im impasse life went college years got lazy found beer pretty much dropped decided join national guard hopes making something life time really happy even though got yelled suffered structure life first time basic pretty much falling ng went first drill stopped going seemed dumb sit around months ago now lost job girlfriend pretty much huge debt aes fafsa already deferred dont know much longer tough finding job applying every place see dont know military phone fell hottub dont cash new one im slowly losing contact everyone outside world summary dont know already owe parents loads money college dont know turn im thrown street really dont know please help edit im years old hahahahahahaha losing fuckin life keeps shitting mealways one step forward two steps back one thing another thing new day new problems im tired idk anymore past years shit tired disappointment muchwhats point living nothing disappointment pain im forced go everyday kid ive living shit life everytime think something good happenit gets ripped ive always kept faith telling better years later im typing tears eyes cause pain getting much try hard nice polite look others im always volunteer someone needs shoulder cry onnever shoulder cry feel peoples pain really really hurts ive always kept head looking forward good future people try help well brother needs kidney hes dialysis promised mother find one two years feel mothers pain hurts try hard help others make progress disappointment makes worse want end badly know absolutely destroy mother killed long time ago cant even keep head anymoreim army soldier supposed keep head supposed walk confidence head held high confidence everytime think something good happendisappointment follows suit im grateful already eitherbut grateful health motherthats posting everyday girlfriend day took big l finally told definitely doesnt see friend shouldnt keep hopes relationship need motivation cheering dumbass wants ago got mild concussion cause went highway shitty skateboard baby honey sugar plum amazing skateboard truck might day great boom crisp water im tiredim god damn tired im beginning fucking despise people better every single god damn interaction life event proven tell ignore pain suffering cant help feel must insane denial need nickname name sucks really generic thinking writing willim turn ive started thinking killing regularly weeks ago ive already thought gets stuff buried embalming day funeral cant assure right will want anyone spend money death guess wait little bit longer im really thinking now noticed everyone attracted opposite even know three straight girls know gay guys even girlfriend mainly attracted women im still even one day going cut matter much improve im still unlikely wanted intellectual level understand bad sample size statistically unlikely really easy forget thats needed chest thanks reading dont know anymorei point redflag many times one time saved sister taking knife hand havent truly happy long remember whenever happy comes short always overshadowed darkness everyday life friends probably support asked hate people worried getting ready college working extra curricular activities top school work things home arent helping becoming much sometimes feels world hates dont know redflag always option family love friends love care imagine named robert exaactly much ur parents hate u anyone sudden urge climb tree see tree damn thats perfect tree climb wan na climb shit rare disease thats called crippling depression cured awards im yeah give awards thanks entitled dont hand im going steal kneecaps id take easy way others wayim totally fed life come feel loser still living parents unemployed im stuck place little opportunity spain find job temporary bad pay rate demotivates even besides already burnt stage days go mental health deteriorates feel trapped alone know people around dont want bother issues results isolation im gym hour day stay shape spend remaining room alone thoughts contemplated redflag want put parents ordeal need help need someone talk dont know either please help tip iceberg idk talk girls ima honest kind sad question ask online whenever talk girl person head goes spiral dont know talk ends awkward asf kind sad think ab almost guys rteenagers type girl choose big boobs sexy treats absolute shit sometimes small boobs treats kindly cares heart alt acc dont want friends see thisi much homework breaks breaks play xbox friends play idk anymore give reason live long story short parents terribly abusive im almost took long help wife realize lots things happened many list single post got much worse last year daughter molested younger brother asked parents watch two daughters due medical emergency thats happened father room eyes glued cell phone involved cps police daughter quite tell police everything investigation press charges investigation complete informed parents happened called year old daughter liar face forget samarasadako jasonbr br horror new name granny plot simple efficient actors good two thumbs michelle killer dialogs even quite clever beginning end action leave breathless cant escape blood awful murders funny moments sense perversity goes far beyond rule deja vu surely granny another slash movie truly classic deserves success theres even success come rerelease congrats ive tried ive experienced ive lost war im looking support want waste anyone elses time want write words say goodbye ive fighting life fought years enemy severe depression extreme sleep issues introversion awkwardness supported opposition plan join military though fight end casualties live fear death lost people time two close friends person actually raised love grandpa fought years enemies taliban insurgents radical nationals total spent months overseas winner casualties countless went still us stay strong fallen fought years got enemy vast im surrounded casualty finally though war still go boots manage ive got one write letter serve letter public servants notified remains funeral unattended government service finally lie rest finally meet peace ive talking mom still itdepressed coming soon still black moon hangs want hang theres lot nevers future ive made mom cry im glad alive see next occasion question write letter record one last love song stick middlefinger retreat abyss syonara reddit online friends logging goods mom miss dont know turn self harmed first time yesterdayi anxiety normal day two panic attacks good day usually one day got five started regular panic attack started scratching arm scratching hard digging arm didnt notice felt wave pain went body didnt stop kept digging till snapped whatever prompting got arm wrapped make effort stop now arm hurts hell feeling need scratch arm fingernails arent going cut sharper objects attraction please help part cells hydrophobic smh water dont see whats hard suicidal thoughts comfortingam one finds suicidal thoughts coming ways kill calming comforting panic attack im feeling anxious depressed application subs pretty boy im bi love cute least think im try asshole unless youre liar meanie allow self esteem im low key nerdy af love taking pictures narcissist jk jk importantly love please help idk ami want soccer time want track want art piano guitar perfect grades learn thatetc etc etc know want think masturbated lil hard low sounds quarantine phone sex cuz cant see wasnt close cumming said close gripped dick really hard cum think fucked hour later round tip dick pains finna night im hella scared computer class spain without name trinity thing number tomorrow rd bdayif going end tomorrow seems best day three deeper meaning aesthetically pleasing im trans girl picked name went legal trouble change im depressed shit friend family members talk regular thats one work talks social life im alone spend free time alone bedroom way years now nothing life brings joy favorite foods used excited lost taste music become repetitive boring escapes anime video games cant hold interest im lonely want make friends things together hobbies subjects relate others pre transition free time money spent drugsbecause depressed needed escape reality born wrong im stuck wrong body way surgerysmass amounts money even even thenif fully transitioned know feel blank slate never became anything never able find become individual make new friends hobbies life drugs escape people got pretty close online eventually rejected found much talk talk drugs thats thats knewthey got bored ditched social anxiety twisted hard go shopping grocery list without panic attack cant even reach individual level tell others bad need much im suffering always feel burden others even internet randos fb groups last week requested th work birthday invited friend niece go bar hopping hit today told cancelled im depressed function im living life simply alive know call quits numb pain pills prescribed notredflag anyone people treat poorly last week found infected sti someone already treats nothing venting crying work hold tw suicidal girl instagram livei saw girl showing redflag note bloody wrist instagram live know anything message im tiredive got plan fantasize constantly long time barely bring bed fear death id done already im selfish cowardly cant even cut anymore know put feelings cant tell anyone irl im drowning head horrible person deserve lovei didnt go home elderly mother answer phone aggravated turns sick died days later tell doctors put life support want mahines bbut made final decision basically killed took grief frustration little dog made sleep outside one night dirtied house pay attention stopped eating six months died put sleep killed two individuals loved world reason never allow dog let anyone love deserve horrible horrible person deserve die alone first series lost kicked bang literally slowly decreased pace may put viewers people started watch halfway either bored plain confused br br advise people new world lost simply watch beginning pt slower episodes acting throughout excellent series planned means answers least years oh well ill keep watching keeps tension dialogue flowing im gon na end nudes got leaked im made fun unusually sized penisyes im asiani need someone help tomorrow attempt reaching freedomit took lot convincing courage post goes cant take torment anymore dealing mental illnesses years mother damaged dad left behind soak mothers nearlyconstant rage years ago started seeing therapy parents fighting diagnosed array illnesses panic disorder anxiety depression schizoaffective disorder soon dad take fighting anymore left twin mother live somewhere mother still mad leaving us behind without financial support still letting fury im scared live decent day long time cant go day without auditory hallucinationspanic attacks andor getting yelled sometimes even hit attempted redflag twice past overdoses first time hardly affected second time close cigar attempted redflag two years ago thank best friend two years managing give reason live shame hardly contact anymore miss much almost much dad thankfully ill see dad one last time tomorrow birthday say last time plan attempt redflag way tried two times manage succeed well guess mother finally happy waste space around anymore bothering inch life sister worry ruining plans panic attacks dad least hell happy around mother anymore guess hope best friend miss much doubt hell heal quickly succeed hope thrown away hospital last time hospital made worse gained habit staying several nights end everyone scared traumatized event vivid nightmares almost every night horrid place succeed want go back hellhole school people heard go hospital people called horrible names friends left feared friends someone freak mentally unstable want face ridicule im sorry bother ill update anyone wants know fail chicken thank spending time listen conversation redflag prevention line sounds curious exactly met psychiatrists years listening know strictly european someone judge mentor supposed really helpor help enoughi depressed longafter surgeries went bad ruined life career periods sort adjusted lower level living met woman suposedly loved tried livebut surgery made worse left went againthen tried survive family memberthen alone another country cheaperi done therapy meds none helpedmostly made worse tried disabilitywas denied thats longer option thought survive somehow country lived beforebut nothing workingmy immigration plans fallen repeatedly health gets worse either afford treatments help sure stay suffering everyone says fight never heard good reason betterbut liklihood given medical problems root depressionit wont odds better win lotto done years buy lifepay rent foodbut money nearly gone taking enough thought earn extra working everything shiteveryone ask help says cant done things supposed always costs help fuck supposed im die cutsfinally go keep cutting possible way survival goodbye cruel world s comedy mystery crooked circle band hooded crooks set plotting murder one swore oppose enjoyable really unremarkable little film movie works simply cast headed zazu pitts james gleason later appear together couple hildegarde withers films edna mae oliver dropped series supported great cast actors actresses know may know name lack naming breezy hour long romp movie make great deal sense mistaken identity secret passages ghostly music people seem perfect thing dark stormy night late night viewing one nostalgic late late show life overflunked college socially challenged scared relationships kind lazy depressed feeling pretty suicidal sure easier moment sorry rant nice day someone spend time los retros killing real note completely understand math fuck yes oh lesywhcjdjjv night preparing surprise test made specially lower grades found teacher wants lower grades theres going test take weak points little know im smartest yet dumbest person class time play minds game already figured test last class friday due last class day rush relationship last year months texting asked girl school dated amazing months amd dumped one month got talking said missed started taking slow texting hugging occasional kiss caught feelings told interested relationship girl broke danm heart twice win month shit sucks heyo years old always immense amount redflag panic lonelinessi wondering feeling loneliness stop doomed person tried many different things even took medication past years changed dosage multiple times nothing seemed work really know supposed even worth trying anymore stop lonely lush fantasy world quirky characters annoying s music epitomizes s desire rewrite fairy tales make fun work personally liked greensleeves harsher characters amusing lines months died im still ok mother died april came home hospital one day laid bed doctors came home explaining things work suddenly im room crying hear family panicking mother dying worst part last time talked night sounded happy coming home gon na make favorite cereal mother lot things wrong infected toe doctors fix something wrong spine end liver cancer somehow got without doctors noticing months died still feels last week cant stop crying everytime think im stuck knowing never gon na see quinceanera wedding even hold grandchildren hurts knowing anymore know wrote feel needed vent somewhere recurring thoughts diabetesso start currently suicidal thoughts danger need flesh things mainly concern recurring suicidal thoughts okay diagnosed type diabetes last september done excellently handling staying healthy makes feel cant normal times cant meal without worry go hike without first thinking every little thing might need safe make sure die really depressing especially diabetics represented popular film media games etc part knows cant normal life still hurts lot suicidal thoughts diagnosis despite feeling kill im moment dark place tempting never owned gun never will im scared impulsivity kill diabetes worries offers quick way simple insulin overdose fall sleep wake frightening option im worried one day may become much may impulsively od drug thats keeping alive one thing always kept carrying act image parents suffering damaged hurt killing every time thought im reminded reassures know thoughts still subtle flash ending brief reminder easy far ive overcome know long forever advice help especially fellow diabetics wonderful edit context used self harm still burn marks left wrist deal alone well thats usually im worst constantly dealing self doubt well mild paranoia doubt friends really friends sometimes mainly im diabetes diagnosis certainly helped much anxiety getting worse year update one probably reading anymore mind sharing tried kill last sunday lived im glad still bright side close friend talked revealed gone similar stuff attempted redflag determined keep alive now one way another thank support everyone end matter guess almost anyways worked best first time im slightly hopeful future storyim disabled air force vet got injured states commuting base recovering bed rest watching cnn one day two names people went tech school listed killed action afsc im expert marksmanship badge due lineage prepared warfare depressed feel instead stronger able take pain injury theyd still alive still blame deaths find state selfloathing regret wish instead think ill forgive uwu cute dont uwu considered furry uwu pretty cute say use uwu worry god putting everything bad year future great fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller struggling decide doim year old woman suffered various mental illnesses young age ive abused neglected child led developing borderline personality disorder major depression cptsd panic attacks bulimia compulsive skin picking disorder self harm addiction current situation complicated summarize leave job last fall due redflag attempt leaving hospital sought outpatient treatment put aside fiancs agoraphobia advanced point longer leave apartment reason result neither us employed im working state ssi hopefully receive benefits help us struggling mentally afraid coming lazy freeloader genuinely unable go function normal adult threat eviction electric turned multiple elements situation making receiving public assistance nearly impossible us im losing sense hope desire alive seems gone afraid hurt many responsibilities right leave everything go hospital im sure know im trapped stay strong handle things us going away try better kill soonfirst say yo sad tired age cant even speak english properly cus first langague piece shit nonsesne latino unknown langaguejesus cant live us yo need surgery left legeye might problem spine aaaaaand face full pimplesi social anxiety cant even make fucking friendmy motivation live youtubegaming shit pci need money inexistent healtha days ago classmate found one hoby told classmates guess whaaati quitmy one happy poor motivationthank society isolate go outside schoolnow think kill im bad night aheadive im change mind part wondering anyone cares something told post tonight hope hear someone help way guess language szia meg kell kitallni nyelvet depressed disappointedim seventeen years old feel life going want people always tell good rhchaotic handsome youre smart rhchaotic life ive believed jumped hoops maintain status wear expensive clothing keep groomed keep grades take college level classes etc yet enough find difficult bond people hard make friends hell people school try avoid talking noticing probably think im awkward asshole ive thinking maybe im smart everyone thinks im handsome ive looked ways able connect attract people theyve failed ive decided im good enough feel mind failing cant focus anything anymore causing grades slip memory getting worse forgetting things happened mere seconds ago refuse become idiot id soon kill im good enough anyone im good enough whats point living one family wants around end want make things clear stated title im depressed least think im disappointed whats become mind good attractive people certainly show ive started consider redflag maybe theyll care im dead worry impressing anyone anymore id free keeping low trying start group actually people talk ampxb h p disc rd gg y gceqw ampxb link comments admitting wrong things painful right going phase pain makes want lie bed stare ceiling think past feel one biggest hurdles getting better got admit wrong things long time want end soonim depressed forever past months really feel end line im kind scared act redflag time im really drown think time know long time end feel motivation desire achieve anything life social job family seem able love someone theres nothing future excite hold back kill people around even good friends feel disconnected everything right now redflag never seemed real think soon enough pain gone cant feel trapped even want help even know posting please againi feeling kind okay past days suddenly today hit sucks slowly start go back dark place nothing clear know matter time youre back warning im crying seeing people go life suffer makes cry even harder im sorry anyone feel im sorry dont deserve hurts much im sorry someone hurting hurts bitch shouldnt hard much pain hate hate hate many people feel dont want dark place anymore dont know want die dont know want live shouldnt hard make decision im exhausted swear im much pain cant help cry cry cry give headache unusual film although made twentiethcentury fox one pairings barbara stanwyck future husband robert taylor barbara stanwyck making films many different studios rko paramount selznick time made affair taylor mgm contract player appeared film loaned foxsomething studios occasionally erabr br film interesting many reallife people roles film though piece pure fiction see actors playing william mckinley teddy roosevelt admiral dewey cant recall film mckinley dewey character though remember roosevelt wind lion couple films three cheers seeing lesser president film major character br br film begins mckinley taking young lieutenant robert taylor aside asking special agent himand telling onenot even secret service thats president fears someone within agency tipping gang making long string robberiesall based inside information taylor known manly rolesespecially stage career pose thug find gang responsible inside manbr br two serious complications first able find gang members one gang members stepsister stanwyck taylor finds hes fallen love must duty turn authorities second mckinley person knows truth serious problems develop mckinley assassinated taylor death row crimes br br film nice job creating story placing within historical context today people remember mckinley remember assassinated film set interesting time period acting pretty decent stars supported victor mclaglen brian donlevy though must admit donlevys role pretty tame ordinary compared many film roles overall interesting well written sappy romance department good outing uncle migrated us thinks coronavirus fake fuck done america ive lost everything thats brought life purpose happinessmy romantic relationship hell happy someone ill missing forever parents rejected son abomination gay theyll never accept words god feel abandoned faith encourage bring strength lately feel im losing friends friends rather everything slipped away wonder life still worth living want end maybe tonight tomorrow maybe ones home girl man slut wear white shirt one size small black bra shorts short make self look fucking sexy fucking fuck everyone hell ya asked god youthful femboy new school remember asking looking iranian supports sharia two years older damn maybe use sometime occasionally homework done homework year yet ampxb online school point ampxb thats probably im barely passing swedish please read life may depend pm eastern time friday someone attempt redflag train fellow redditor needs know life worth living need people read pm time telling life worth living dont want people earlier make powerful hour posted reveal reddit name pm help save life knowing many people care change persons mind please help danireese witherspoon always close older sister maureenemily warfield start falling love neighbor courtjason london terrible tragedy strikes two sisters realize nothing keep apart love never fade awaybr br truly heartbreaking story first love probably painful story young love seen acting amazing reese witherspoon gives great performance first movie give man moon aaaaah thing friend saying give da free award gives thanking thing hope one see aaah need make text characters long uhmmm say oh god theres nothijg awkward hearing mom say shed bang zac effron need commit redflag save worldthe world better without truly life ending save lives many others want leave world knowing saved lives much coward though someone help end life really jump closest bridge right now im much puy vote cause support anyone let gay woman candidate hilary ill vote first month living lot really selfdestructive things ended hospitalising job working heavy hours keep busy drinking heavily using drugs selfharming unfortunately im less repressing feelings im trouble mood swings particularly anger redflag recently daily migraines suggestions particularly suggestions someone works hours week much time relax anyway hate living much choice foreseeable future hi everyone year old male nurse working three years now diagnosed major depression high school along redflag tourette syndromei battling suicidal thoughts high school hospitalized inpatient psychiatric facility three times remember inpatient actually helped though receiving electroconvulsive therapy ect little year two acute series done ect ruined memory seem helping longer treatment done monday already feeling severely depressed suicidal tuesday night know doi commit brothers white coat ceremony coming need pto able fly see want family worry love reason killed yet even know worth inpatient three times already suicidal thoughts still therei couple good things going life though great job extremely loving family almost always willing put call know helps depressed mood told everyone talk regularly brother sister aunt uncle dad mom feeling talking helps improve mood struggling feeling starting call often want bother themto make things worse therapist currently maternity leave substitute therapist top depression redflag severe unable make friends friend high school friends twin brothers friends flustered around people barely talk know everything feels much tired frustrated ready everything feel depressed adult life awards gay definitely way awards suck theyre absolutely garbage often think question perfect life world one quite wish place simply bad thing perfect life look whys dog independent wan na pet smh wants alone im always scared hes gon na bite bc lashes sometimes hes shih tzu btw doim sure anymore im find life pointless meaningless feel im burden everyone around parents wasting money feel depressed hopeless cry cant fall asleep hours tend think killing often im afraid impact parents think stuff tend eat less point barely eat anything days find life hard cant seem find motivation keep living im afraid talk people problem even hard time posting dont know life anymore first job got first job im working tim horton im starting wednesday im really eager start working want live life parents strict hi im teen girl friends cant drive im much older pandemic older drive friends haha want live life want sneak go parties maybe even smoke twice drink sex etc wan na live life way want teenager yes ik u reading probably wondering im thinking probably calling trashy etc promise im want live life without regrets obviously none gon na happening anytime soon many reasons im scared haha time come sneak rebellious every awhile see parents insanely strict mean theyre strict things dress little things theyre strict screentime friends bedtime limit junk food etc never million years let go party parents gone didnt know parents etc house alarm cameras alarm gon na sneak whatever someone give actual life advice yk excuses tips etc ampxb thank u reading first one friends left college today thought id okay im emotional mess now im super happy friends accomplishments cant stop crying weve friends around decade people practically raised im embarrassed emotional want leave live lives think im trouble coping might delete later tik tok bad annoying person bus thought never gon na give tik tok lost faith humanity soo im kill myselfjust wanted say thanks guys please go way take step forward two steps back want anymore throwing awaymy husband going difficulty time now diagnosed severe recurring depression anxiety shortly lost job afford meds worse started well recently asked divorce acting secretive discussed divorce years ago decided found seeing another girl kept going several months secret alarming go crazy go every account look phone records etc found phone call number recognize long periods time working call ask says chick met facebook driving crazy want gone want feel hurt anymore keeps telling love long time want etc married married better worse divorce option death divorce want die know temporarybut goddamn temporaryive thinking happy days wedding day old days school lifelong best friends fun times friends together four us happy trips overseas sister happy days working cattle dad gone now im going wake tomorrow fourth week row two days beg one miss buddies college old job im even asking solution none except wait gets better sorry rough month refreshing lost gem featuring effective dialog combined excellent acting establish characters involve enough care happens douglas widmark characters realistic heroes palance usual evil presence widmark win fisticuffs fight scene car chase less seconds logical end lengthy chase foot shames overdone chase sequences contemporary hollywood know likely end suspense interest sustained throughout end chase one realistic see film seems slow little past middle stay rewarding conclusion orange exist vid case want mind fuck century httpsyoutubewxxwjprfyhttpsyoutubewxxwjprfy soo everyone 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friend jacks tools really need help getting brakes im actually getting worried now starting spongy want face struggles life anymore im scared call wuss give crapm progress report came mail today c history class project parents disappointed told turned mustve mistake course lie turn due extended spring break thought extend week week went nothing mentioned let go idk conscious decision really matter point contact teacher ask turn assignment due month ago want assignment want deal want grade decent im willing put effort im lazy scared draft due final paper pages abstract least sources writing class due five days thesis statement final paper due week want normal flow homework assignments want work harder right now getting assignments done free time reddit youtube switch family im lazy scared responded friend almost month whole thing started owe response im acting jerk replying im scared respond getting back long im lazy scared im tired people telling need move screw think im willing really think calling laziness apathy going make feel better know awful behavior one knows best cant change behavior gods green earth think going make feel better know going change become adult college probably going worse adulthood responsibilities im going try ignore ill eventually curl pathetic little ball apathy thats want end prematurely research appears suffocation nitrogen gases easiest painless way go trouble know easily problem post another time ones probably going read thats fine posts never read anyway read far want thank listening know kind response im looking want dissuaded unless flawless argument bring apathetic seminihilism doubt one exists want encouraged want decapitated anyone got guillotine screw stay home orders cant spread disease dead lsts make dumb rap song psgmzjlxlfjpflxlhxl hlcpchpxoxohxhpxjlcjlxxoxidhehor hprupdkxlcg todays birthdayim uselessim suicidal yet think ive done anything world worth anything perfect childtag classes ap classesautomatic admittance state school admittance certain professional school first try people go couple application cycles now im dropping yet nothing regret used every resource available studied hard school weekends study yet failed two classes high school til now ive skipped classes one f fever accident im back home im going go take assessment tests bit local community college ive tried hard years good personon first glance seem normal friendly silent shy esl student social skills hard im scared going want mom pathetic x years old wanted go health professions felt useless way useful knowfailure hits especially hardwhen used stress caused incapacitating stomachaches whole body muscle tremors felt deserved happy suffered inadequate many people worse mebut feel horrible todayand people remembered im exhausted know longi even know say anymore sure want answer want vent always somewhat depressed whole life never super popular anyone even im still punching bag friends ive pretty good controlling emotions last two months hell recent problems past post history im going repeat exgirlfriend transitioned guy month half ago everything cared went shit tried supportive nothing seemed enough took week two start using new name pronouns ive heard pretty good adjust quickly matter ex blocked everything connected im starting believe entire relationship lie called many fucking things told piece shit way texts saved video evidence exact bullshit know end hes lying asshole want closure attempted redflag weeks ago ended surviving behavioral health center almost whole week ive gone therapy times week admitted done anything im rereading whole post right barely even cohesive feel psycho scribbling notebook point care im thinking making exit bag day two making sure recover time im tired point im even willing make life better whats ideal romantic date give money hateful world meive known long time becomes clearer clearer every day tried really done much try overcome suffering cruelty world things worse nothing worth anything anymore everyone knows thats one cares now blame autumn coming favorite season want die beautiful autumnal woods favorite music playing ears drift sleep guess theyll find bones winter never matter want peace time go ive got weeks make preparations thats good thanks listening anyone im looking talked anything bother sharing swear people subreddit probably last kind understanding people left planet far see mom gave glass orange juice mean nice thanks love bits rarely even bother watch comedic movies television days theyre insipid vulgar importantly funny one seen refreshing blast past worth watching believe dated significant way classic humor classic humor good writing good writing regardless era createdbr br love see film came mind seen somewhat similar summer school television recently slightly newer film meatballs funny without cruel overly sexual indulging bathroom humor key course adult character makes difference life teen character maybe even virtually lifesaving change grow space summer im set august thon th gone hey got question im watching fundys stream right chat mods constantly saying real chat stuff real problem people im genuinely curious wan na sound douche ask someone irl autism perfectly valid reason kill youselfi autistic woman nobody really wants us around mean countries less years ago wed gassed look stats employmenthappiness autistic people shockingly low ive made fun teased bullied molested one wants friend even though high functioning theres clearly something wrong everyone says redflag bad really want end pain im constantly used m depressed becoming suicidal looking friend miserable possibly suicidalsometimes people driven away cant understand longterm suffering vantage point understand im offering unconditional friendship try good faith someone caring ear desire make persons life better possible care funny witty whether booksshows etc awkward period judging see click state im care much superficial stuff want commit redflag despite life pushing way want feel okay im m depressed isolated escapism hope things getting better making good progress towards goals decided surgery improve appearance resulted brain damage im still trying answers reduced ability think somewhat please make allowances seems hit right hurts messing reward system making physically impossible feel much enjoyment im still searching proper diagnosis possible treatments day day existence bleak future worrisome cant help think one things still satisfaction helping others though hollowi feel hollow feel everything happening around isnt real im really dark place rn feel feel time coming end blame problem everything bad happening rn couldve done something different game life made every wrong move must think im least somewhat smart guess everything know upside people better picture im sorry im sorry everyone ive disappointed im sorry everyone disappoint dont know right dont know whats left im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry scientist found new mental illness called sans ptsd formed ptsd fighting sans quite strange non gamer scientists average gamer normal every episode saw innocent child stupid funny looking puppets called mitts always discuss childhood things play song mitts part show goes lets join mitts groucho marx puppet told jokes session man sing hot fudge right green puppet teeth called seymore always see seymore crack jokes sing every episode always moral every episode one episode man sang liars losers another episode singing sharing caring seymore said tell two little girls sharon karen hot fudge holey moley part man weird stuff played weird music anyone tryna play among us heres code join sybmff least alleviate depressive thoughts mean best options least numbs thought process might solve problems brings everything clear light feel much people nobody feeling much pain going know solutions anybody struggling got keep pushing anyone tried smoking weed teens say prime time eating kinds sf novels every day week sixties seventies tv important leisure time killer today one night mid seventies watched movie tv think ard stunned impressed way almost remember scene even todaybr br nowadays observe kids playing sims something think close fassbender movie expressed highly appreciate buy movie dvd vain tried almost everything hint movie matrix touch far quality state art movie way glue superior reality one couple simulation models probably death definitely know im sure even write ill regret second post might well delete know ill repost cant handle shit anymore tonight wish dead care im fucking done middle another borderline breakdown cant anymore feel deleting social media know people seem worried call whatever know even expect know expect posting anywhere fuck want bpd let die already cant even wouldve almost attempted twice two years ago state im still alive many regrets everything awful even back right dose meds ok nothing ok getting covered temporary mental stability cant ok girlfriend worried care cat hint sent redflag relating lyrics knows well enough everything wrong wake ill either want die much ill laugh horrible state thing going head twenty one pilots lyrics always days oh god fucking boss texting fuck want fuck think song anathema fucking depressing youll never know whats skull say goodnight say goodbye im goner thats episode ill fucking laugh shit never ok wonder ill delete let stay woke today want die fun well lasted back sad tired woooo want boyfriend im horny id want stuff cook watch netflix go walk cuddle play games im lonely now nglonline school sucks wrong video mute basically garfield lasagna omfg sometimes feel physical school better worry teachers remembering old assignments stuff right instead distractions home friends last year new school f love friend life online school alot technical difficulties thank coming rant tnar ym ot gnimoc rof ouy knaht told crush feel asked kiss asked didnt really time kiss dont know hey told crush feel stuff said think stuff told never said wasnt type even though thought wasnt type guy asked kiss said yes didnt time bc school advice go im kinda bad love worried dadso grandad died day us taking well one knew long time coming dad really really taking well help matters mothermy grandma couple months left cancer long story short keeps getting really drunk telling mum parents die theres point living anymore anyway mum dad exactly see mum worked carer elderly people many years looking grandparents dads side family pretty clueless stuff pretty dismissive saying hes attention id agree dad massive exhibitionist say least style attention seeking dad pretty volatile character though hes alcoholic long remember last couple months grandparents got sicker hes gotten lot worse im worried one parents died going cause go completely handle exactly close honestly dislike lot dad end idea approach concernwhat advice appreciated lt im tired thisi cant stop thinking im gon na last moments play spend time trying figure best method know likely fucking wont dont want continue thoughts im tired counts alcoholicnobody thinks need help apparentlyim years old female last year half maybe two years ive drinking heavily say heavily mean buy gallon liquor end night often times alone theres little less half bottle left drink itchy shaky cant think worst ive drank fifth every night months tried stop thought heart attack delirium episode think speak shaking lessened still cant go one might without getting blackout drunk struggled cocaine month long binges feel im verge death force stop least month people tell im young alcoholic drug addict feel overtaken personality first foremost im drinker drug user secondly im whatever person used need help know go went er couple weeks ago redflag attempt got help im end ropes honestly want end life im sorry im drunk im writing got puppy today dont know breed hes cute show sadly cant post images brothers redflag attemptso yesterday older brother attempted redflag overdose paracetamol luckily caught damage happened taken hospital put drip drinking taking drugs everyday months now obviously developed alcohol addiction drug addiction needs go rehab doctor hospital recommended refused go suffering depression completely understand done question understand better im asking go help help live scotland want go road prescription drugs best im gone tonighti tripping ug lsd money hope im getting kicked weeks im pretty sure im gon na hang tonight many people hate mei imagine funeral lot problems guess brought thats idea im still living literally want someone save idea suicidal catfishi girl wasis girlfriend live supposedly fucked clings morning went good morning baby good day love dont take goodbye granted nothing wrong told working turned around shes offline nearly hours might come back done many times actually supposedly shes hospital many times dont know holding real know exhausting dont know friends might might real responding im grown man im worried scared worst year life im edgemy life chaos moment born every time think hit rock bottom things keep getting worse estranged birth mother killed birthday year overwhelming sense guilt never reconnecting whole adult life always thought never felt ready never thought shed gone family going apartment brutal hadnt seen three always cold tried converse online never forgot wish got side story besides year worst life seems storm storm keeps coming life live shame guilt feel actions adult woman ive reckless sexual habits resulting hpv previous partner evolved precancerous cells cervix leep procedure cells removed guarantee wont grow back exposed herpes virus havent symptoms know body lot drugs resulted deep shame regret permanent anxiety due amount stimulants alcohol ive dumped body got dui hit run bachelorette party evening expensive pain ass cant even make eye contact old friends mine anymore feel ashamed past im bisexual completely deprived experiencing romantic relationship woman besides purely physical settling getting married part deep dread ive always preferred men romantic situations im disappointed never gave wholehearted shot especially tend lean toward damaged men love husband death still regret mine one place wish selfish ive abandoned screwed anyone thats important way another due abandonment issues childhood ocd heavily revolves around abandoned compulsions drive insane point sit fetal position tell much hate arent even bad compulsions sensitive besides mental issues months premature born intestines outside body due moms drug alcohol use pregnant many physical health complications come im nauseas day every day likely due scar tissue stomach insane migraines id rather die endure minutes hard live normal life mental physical stuff thats happening ive therapy counseling whatever never really helps much office im happy cheery optimistic freak loves life sobs hysterically whole ride home whats wrong talk friends dont talking much especially detail relate still makes uncomfortable talk husband talk anything hes great person bounce shit feel guilty burden ive fucked life enough made many plans kill always imagine car accident gun im glad dont gun lost license dui ive called texted emergency hotlines nothing really makes feel better though try reach try talk nothing trick day dream long dark silence death alive mom abort wish life cruel didnt pets husband id pack bag see long survive woods tent backpack thanks letting vent write whole fucking novel fucked stuff happened chose limit years struggles alone maybe write novel maybe someone make movie rich building nerve kill find quite jarring draining someone trying push talk open suddenly going fix depression make happy understand sentiment good honestly solve problems right push anything talking problems reinforces fuck solve problems im one girls need say something gamer means relate boys somewhat things cod among us things boys really wish relate communities oh god guys mean body shamers misogynists homophobes transphobia dont understand guys mean reason balloons scare im fucking scared balloon much pops squeeze hard blow much pops right face remember got balloon kid weak held seconds popped right face hurt sure talk tohey im kind circling drain failed everything job girlfriend left family disappointed told family wanted marry leaves blame know im trying say late guess wanted tell somebody turn please turn wanted tell somebody goodnight advanced redflag watchi knew constant thought eventually become guess im now resent wife keeping alivei want die sure thats going happen im much coward crossing finger someone shoots thats different story reason ive never tried anything know id guilty wife prompt feelings love within pisses id done bullshit know want anyone know say maybe im slowly pushing everyone away die alone want nobody care everyone thankful im gone maybe thats got ligmawant die puberty hit falling leaf seriously im look nine definetly put end thissadly still alivei planning end pathetic charade new years eve ami made promise th january im definetly im even know depression creeped mei think around soit painful yearshaving put fake smile every single day actually rotting insidei quite lot friends still feel alone best friends known years started making fun random things probably gone affect one week maxthe thing kept alive stupid years working feel miserable even working help parents miss ask born world makes feel ok hurting themnew years eve shiteven though bunch friends felt alone always saw girl love hooking random dude making even sadder go outside stay bench hours listening sad fucking songcrying alone thinking end beforeat point nothing brings smile facethis end sorry writing disarrayed manner feeling really ok rnif u want talk final dayi still thinking good way thisthinking going trip mountains cutting hanging forestwhat think gang bandits lead shrewd rugged ruthless monetero perfectly imposing performance gilbert roland steals worth gold coins daring train robbery untrustworthy member bahunda amusing turn jose torres makes coins hides unfortunately bahunda gets killed tell monetero stashed booty monetero join forces cunning cocky enigmatic bounty hunter stranger smoothly played handsome george hilton cagey corrupt banker clayton delightfully weaselly portrayal s teen idol eddie kookie burns find coins skillfully directed enzo g castellari clever complex twistladen script castellari tito carpi giovanni simonelli playfully amoral nihilistic tone everyone keeps double triple crossing happily greedy abandon twangy flavorsome spirited score alessandro alessandroni francesco de masi plenty stirring shootouts rousing roughntumble fisticuffs wickedly sly sense selfmocking humor steady pace real doozy surprise ending giddy often hilarious feature makes inspired sendup sergio leones good bad ugly popping nifty secondary parts luscious stefanie careddu moneteros fiery gal pal marisol ivano staccioli hardnosed army captain gerard herter flinty lawman lawrence blackman immensely amusing enjoyable romp reddit home page die anyone shit dont work smh cmon reddit hard believe enjoyed much anthology stories better par linking story surprise ending hooked alot familiar faces keep asking seen forget running time listed new lines tape aint minutes according vcr timer imdb space maggot douses campfire special way hikes got graphic drawing tablet try draw first one got suggestions end drawing looks good ill pm u send u probably look shit im still learning still gun loadedgun bought street june first want go mind trip see without full control mind took hallucinogenic cocktail ill leave gun bed stand look wasted year app supposed meme scaredi grew child prodigy always getting perfect grades singing locally preprofessionally every parents dream im older stakes higher cant cope pressure im crumbling want make parents happy cant even give im shitty person core days today barely eat everything feels terrible even foods give sliver happiness taste mush sometimes bang head wall hoping switch click ill person want ive always people pleaser ive always done wanted im want anymore even know im good anything used good special traits made gone im failure mom dad always say theyll support matter know theyve given pushing theyre scared ill break ive gained severe anxiety almost depression amount pressure parents placed never wanted will knew good wanted something proud wanted compliments humblebrags facebook newest achievements love much want happy theyve always loved ive taken granted dynasty child prodigy know anymore terrifying push stay alive everyday comitted redflag never forgive parents never cause emotional pain im strong enough keep afloat mean im sinking though every day battle within sleep day pretend everything fine fine want fine feel stuck hope fading wan na happy without worrying eventual tsunami sadness comes im scared probably whimsical installment first season shore leave ups downs parts drag long others unambitiously cut short one cant deny threw everything proverbial kitchen sink make entertaining episode kirk crew seem found perfect planet shore leave extended tour duty left everyone board need rest relaxation appears intents purposes uninhabited earth beautiful scenery ideal climate first indication things might go little awry mccoy leading advance team spots alice wonderland following large white rabbit wearing vest kirk beams finds others reporting similarly bizarre happenings encounters one thing common crew member thinking personplacething discovered right discovered immediately sink kirk anyone strangeness ensues including sightings juan siberian tiger ww fighter plane etc kirk meets ruth gorgeous old girlfriend course bully academy days finnegan chasefight scene finnegan goes long time mccoy run lance knight horseback apparently killed finally elderly man appears explains happening planet futuristic amusement park visitors imagine something appear nothing permanent mccoy really dead explained kirk decides order shore leave everyone despite dream sort ending shore leave holds another firstrate episode star treks first season cant feeling new friends boyfriend eventually hate met new people today boyfriend introduced cant feeling hate point feel boyfriend toit recently happened old friends considered best friends met boyfriend long ago feel gets know real stop liking meis normal advice overdose painfuli want know least painful way beautiful film coming early silent cinema china shadow magic deftly combines love story drama cultural clash chinas ancient traditions modern western culture form film amazing first film chinese director ann hu correctly understood ms hus comments sundance festival film produced american film cofunding chinese government shot china shadow magic reminds films il postino cinema paradiso necessarily theme plot similar feel anyone please talk nobody around wants talki cant make decisions life always try something fix problems life always fail parents dont help dont friends talk suicidal thoughts driving crazy whenever facing problem solution comes mind kill forced used talk people everyone around always discouraging people around ignore time need help take showers every day never feel smell clean take shower many people rude mean internet social medias see people bullying harassing interests even username ampxb cant people understand real life person behind posts sad im honest sound dads voice giving mental breakdown said op bedtime im breakdown fuck enoughso think grams seroquel zofran good measure even sure im thinking now oh look thats kahoot please join might well ampgtgtgtampgtgtgtgtgtgtltu ructifjdy believe losing control mental health excruciatingly painful crying almost every day trying survive hoping death come pick tired eyes filled sadness care people fancy anymore hate liked even going waste time convincing everything fine going happen sweetie thing anonymous internet one know fucked head yes fucked head fucked head hi chatting anime gaming whatever want people able talk maybe place right place d note server join pm unable send links look topgg comments doesnt work time well called bog nice small server d awkward shy quiet ive got best advice always known nice shy kid self conscious afraid people thought said close friends knew real one day decided change whole mindset stop worrying people going say think ones impressing cause already baddie room blessing even though time didnt think keep repeating baddie baddie baddie became second nature always remember humble kind one likes pickmeboygirl confident kind person best type person treat people treated quit seeking help even ranting stateim writing little mental strength find got tired quit seeking solution situation quit ranting due tired cant leave mom sad heh tried discussing ramitheasshole tired literally road freely fucking kms now quality post comments assure guess im going another raiding spree calling people cunts nig across various subreddits fun dont blame anyone loss moreless fault firstly point people criticised film made glaring errors anything rating clearly utter nonsensebr br creep absolutely fantastic film amazing film effects actors highly believable narrative thought provoking horror graphical content extremely disturbing br br much mystique film many questions arise audience revealed strange freakish creature makes habitat dark rat ridden tunnels craig created happened himbr br fantastic film large chill factor film many unanswered questions film needs appreciated along others days later bunker dog soldiers deathwatchbr br look forward fantastic films insomnia lack appetitei posted wife left took newborn earlier week affecting lot keep pretending im okay everyone know person cant sleep cant eat thoughts white guilt imo weird please stop deepthroating huge colored cocks isnt helping anything im evil love itim planning taking mg pills xl wellbutrin crushed water probably coming tuesday case report od diphenhydramine system think bad idea spent last thursday finding right sleeping pills canada thanks justin crushed btw idea work im going bag head elastic case justin case leave behind horrid shit dad religious mum rekt brother worst four year old sister remember think hopefully grandma devastated lost care part wants able witness reactions everyone instant attention pathetic attention whore thought ex realizing cant trust shit antidepressants three years dumbass self wanting proof love thrills egomaniac snickers whilst staring try talk class fumble words idk hed probably make tribute facebook post much supported miss everyone laughed jokes talked shit behind back receive depression stare eyes look yearbook see weird tryhard responded redflag jokes smiling wow name called grad ceremony cutie teased around called surname close mine oh thats satisfying therapist postponed monday appointment tba date failure honestly let wrath free along six im already dead feels worst couple months lifebut nothing bad happened fact things looking im succeeding still feel designed fail love routine dread waking mine much work ill never able bring put use know im alone wish anything dont life gets better miserable cant tell whether think deserve less make sense dont want bright future dont want future rely family rely friends alone anymore thing remotely helps cope alcohol always calm loving person recently family friends made mad want scream beat someone pulp feeling scares always loving anger frustration feel eating inside try deal drinking better hurt liver people everyone unreliable tiktok bad around months ago gotten girl loved much one month ago broke didnt tell reason started bitch tiktok said lot fucked things none witch true decided make tiktok hated tiktok got taken bullying harassment fuck wrong reported tiktok honestly end im upset tiktok breaking dont believe gets better dont read youre feeling fragileive read lot years ethics happiness philosophy religion self help much stomach psychology every psychology book lecture try makes stomach turn knots dont believe treatments dont believe consciously lying think positive taking drugs every day help think clearly feels cult stuff makes skin crawl ive therapy years different therapists feel worse started said wasnt qualified deal specific issues took maternity leave chose stop seeing said mood low many weeks row wouldve suggested switch anyway next week see one way feel hopelessly insane ugly ill never anything another horrible person world miserably toiling away paycheck paycheck dead end job ignoring horrible life seems worse struggling change till kill feel meds keep step two redflag decades till alzheimers something skip next paragraph want heres rant free will therapists seemed try convince gods existence god thing anxious admit justice afterlife convince tried convince free id believe existentialism seems obvious doesnt exist free want cant chose want want something free mention fact mental illness intellectual disabilities dreams drug use attest fact biochemical puppets think different person alzhiemers high lsd acts way react something exactly body upbringingenvironment act free existed psychology psychiatry neuroscience exist many conversations therapist eventually said recently saw new study saying free doesnt exist im smart good changed way talk free class doubt changed full grown college professors mind free basic arguments hes likely heard saw new study saying people continue tell theyll unhappy struck suspicious found two new studies week suddenly admits free doesnt exist seemed concede god doesnt exist either might believe god either way dont believe shifted opinion many years mustve spent studying profession based idea factors beyond control shape behavior reason brought shows lying truth horrible hes said lots little lies ive called usually seemed make nervous feel fundamentally broken important ways things hurt literally course life lot ways fantasize bad things happening longing time dread often see graphic visions grizzly death close eyes trying sleep seems ridiculous suggest someone misery closely entwined psyche happy getting help feels carrot treadmill keep trying youll happy one day dont believe biological children todays world dont believe im cut relationships relationships domination elements makes feel horrible break ive decided die alone im looking answers half life spent obsessively trying find way happy denial reality anyone wan na add minecraft play class username phoneticcake add want ill able play class feel giving making space another humanim dizzy purpose job im sick living mother inlaw right im lazy person im fucking waste time ive started unearthing old albums ive gone back practising drums regularly ive watching movies reading books weirdly enough feel touch world now continue along road abstinence dont see reason jump wagon stage feel fucking betrayed parents orthodontist ive rubber bands braces turns helped need headgear instead problem headgear night turns ortho assumes never wore bands met parents decided headgear removable left assumption itll removable installed informed cant taken im stuck metal contraption attached face wear everywhere years constant reminder parents ortho trust cant believe even talk fluoxetineother medicine odis possible overdose fluoxetine medicine got mg fluoxetine mg quetiapine mg amitriptylin ml mg amitriptylin im sick feeling anger freaking pressure inside want make sure enough kill life issues want pqint room gray turn pc rgb sit alone plants im mess hate got reason want sit cry dont want tell anybody everyone say great dont yall recommend midwestern emo music sum male manipulator shit c tinnitushey everyone ive tinnitus two half years now condition continually getting worse time every month new sound drilling brain im unable pursue dream bartending music making bodies reaction loud sound every moment brain constant torture gotten bed days theres literally rotting garbage bedroom top people normally see support lock due covid whats hard even lost everything life job friends home even hearing always pick things start pain ears never go away change circumstance working hard make body go back healthy anyways thanks reading reason keep getting urge kinda push jaw pop back place hurts badly cant stop want pain stopthe last month life hell dont know make pain go away im alone think might handle hurry wait life supposed exercise eat eat right sleep sleep well keep clean take medicine job keep dates appointments etcdoing one things exhausts days angry feel stuck doctorsfamilyfriends give advice try help need heard right tired fighting hard stay alive world miserableim going leave know many health issues make depression much worse transitional stage life clue sometimes feelings intense people hear trying sayeven things happiness take time money energy supposed need relief anything given relief everything getting much worse medicines mess much taking makes even worse right now never posted needed looking place therapy feel screaming underwater supposed padre told room spotless tomorrow week tell clean room sprung day im pmsing cramping bad barely stand literally told hours im supposed go moms house plus sleep point told minutes ago clean hes going go room throw shit game user threatening redflagi know help beyond ive already said planning take life tomorrow im sure next step helping know location cant call local health services ampxb thinks time see point anymore working shitty job gf split year ago sick way succeed anymore nothing name reason keep going moved already entire reason see succeeding point infertile ex wanted kids give made feel less man hopefully new boyfriend give keep going reason want work shitty job pay live even want even want anyone know feel alone entrapped world closing know want take gun head leave want relapse drugs temporary numbness want permanently numb everyone always asks okay always try make seem okay okay soon ill free cruel world emotions bad mentality really took forget check people never know going think time please donei much found husband told brother wants divorce hes hiding money lying least emotional affair coworker autistic daughter acting year old daughter going puberty im major depressive episode ulcers im pain time one person want love want please seems completely unfulfilled want fall asleep never wake gun cant always pussed cutting never free fucking moment alone car work want traumatize kids mess basically thing holding back point want ruin christmas cant figure way thats going make home scene death cant anymore im supposed start new pdoc soon even know hate know deep everyone around must hate nothing worth saving think im going try together tomorrowive suicidal years go cycles intense crippling depression life goes shit one aspect time im left reeling job house joys relationships closest become incredible messes ive better recognizing im spiralling ive absolute tailspin weeks everyday become darker thought last serious look flaws ways kill tomorrow want laundry clean car try think killing hard think even manage even matter know depression exaggerates problems way become thousand tonne behemoth little voice head whispers sure dont want tomorrow go well tried right now tonight really want shoot head done want freei want depressed drain everyone around anymore takashi miike one favorite directors worried kids film hate see depart films came love visitor q gozu izo ichi killer black socioty trilogy lately seems exploring new territory think hes succeeding still first films id seen take direction nervous coarse bought without seeing glad didbr br great yokai war perfect kids film adults whole film reminded much movies loved child neverending story labyrinth return oz etc enjoyed films treat kids theyre stupid one either dark underlying morals silly kids film personally bothered cgi prosthetics feel fit well think kids noticebr br die hard takashi miike fan may one suggest giving shot proves miike diverse talented suspected continues make signature miike films outside ones reassuringbr br people new takashi miike want something light hearted dramatic one suggest miike films zebraman happiness katakuris sabu bird people china br br good job takashi miike stars kill now thanks lot abandoned going kill right now telling abandoned going kill seriously want kill one person quit talking everyone end really liking always second option want die everyone abandons please helpi graduated college beginning may day mom told diagnosed breast cancer ive move home enough move along personal issues boyfriend broke history depression anxiety making difficult cope literally idea make top im allowed express feelings mom says want hear friends mom moved hometown college tldr finished school crippling student debt job yet mom cancer friends hometown boyfriend broke bruh know tldr basically best friend fucked guy helped everything closest ive gotten another human homo ofc homie hardcore canceled almost nothing please read though youre gon na give advice desperately need rn days ago friend asked hook highfunctioning syndrome girl course told even high functioning thats kinda fucked provide background girl liked trying hook pretty much met th grade th now yesterday told night dms got little spicy nothing illegal nudes sexting moderately intense flirting girl initiated everything way friend told regretted already reason really tired lonely bored gets message mom talking gon na tell parents teachers principal authorities involved friend responded naturally begging life never contact daughter work friends parents know mom probably got number school crazy religious woman trying make friend registered sex offender bring court even though neither anything illegal fact anything girl fault one initiated fact downsyndrome hold court either high functioning apparently really bad math suggested meeting sex one time place time age consent thats probably worst thing texted eachother last text got friend typing parents outside work text time getting grounded big deal girls mom getting school possibly law enforcement involved friend considered killing steered away gets worse think convince even contact try said anything illegal initiated anything reciprocate whatever girl said fact man accused sexual harassment special needs matter high functioning look good id love advice help least insight might play sorry read bad english first language suck sentence organization wish born girl dunno guess time day many people life love amp care still feel nobody caresi know one hand many people life care love sad died hand feel im tired keep pretending nothing wrong think dying every day tell anyone want go hospital im really frightened doctors therapists cant even call hotline scared talk phone feel trapped inside hate much wish life switch go trouble pain killing die effortlessly easily whats opinion enbys enby means non binary person case dont know want know peoples opinions grandfathers father yo vaccine tomorrow im exciting mom trying make go school im still quarantine live school resumes christmas break tuesday quarantine wednesday mom insisting got tomorrow told play rules wait one day shes watched sky tv late one night vampire fan must admit half expected bmovie disaster pleasantly wrongbr br subspecies family vampires vampire lord dies two sons handsome noble stefan brother evil hideous radu start war birth right bloodstone bloodstone holy grail sorts vampires bleeds blood saints give vampire drinks ultimate highbr br fight bloodstone takes unexpected turn college students turn brothers territory school trip stefan protect brothers lustsbr br said went film expecting much one best low budget movies seen sets locations romania think ive seen nice music score film justicebr br acting adequate anders hove evil radu steals movie subsequent sequels hoves performance twisted vamp truly breathtaking bumps film simply okay pretty dmn good struggling suicidal thoughts days worse likely common theme people similar situation always reluctant even vent little anyone real life online feel problems thoughts less importance think others going much worse mostly keep quiet feel whether negative positivehowever today guess finally decided vent little even responses reactions maybe make feel better regardless go everything makes feel anxious depressed hopeless etc ill keep brief sake anyone reading mention one lost mother years ago everything whatever good trait died home last moments think anything painful face facteven though supposed venting want whoever sees know sorry know sorry help whatever going sorry going physical mental pain hope gain strength keep living able happy feel loved ill first say love youthank reading hello dream beaten death temmie undertale yelled pay taxes hows yalls dreams mgi access mg dilatrend seriously considering ingesting much possibly hope slow heart eventually stopsseizes think enough slept finals day slept today cant make zero final yay passport pimlico real treat fans british cinema enjoyable thoroughly entertaining comedy cinematic flashback bygone age attitudes scenarios sadly memory british lifebr br stanley holloway plays pimlico resident arthur pemberton accidental detonation unexploded bomb discovers wealth medieval treasure belonging th century duke burgundy buried deep underneath little suburban street last yearsbr br accompanying treasure ancient legal decree signed king edward iv england never officially rescinded state particular london street declared burgandian soil means eyes international law pemberton local residents longer british subjects natives burgundy tiny street independent country right law unto itselfbr br sets warbattered impoverished residents good stead believe outside english law jurisdiction act drunken defiance burn ration books destroy ignore clothing coupons flagrantly disregard british licencing laws etc declaring fully independent britainbr br happens spiv black marketeer dishonest crook follows suit crosses border burgundy refuge law postwar restrictions sell dodgy goods half londons consumers follow order dodge ration making quiet happy little haven den thieves rather crowded one thatbr br appealing whitehall assistance told due developments now matter foreign policy majestys government reluctant become involved leaves residents high dry declare area legal frontier set fully equipped customs office end road mainly monitor smuggling ensure safety residents pimlicobr br eventually border closed altogether starting major siege bugundian residents slowly running water food never less fighting true british style one bugundian resident quotes english always english english fighting hard bugundians br br sentiment soon echoed throughout capital rest london learn poor bugundians plight feel compelled chip help throwing food supplies barbed wire blockadesbr br will whitehall fought may invaders throughout centuries finally brought knees new batch foreigners especially ones english br br great tale great fun throughout missed wuts template called drawn shows someone beat two people hiding behind wall really good meme idea cant find template please help im gon na shit shit please convince kill myselfplease inner bitterness anger pretend youre talking person chest way help help thank last adventuretime time begins cycle ideation mystery whats mind come redflag ive made way fun desire twisted toward undone dagger plunged heart thrilling ride soul released body phoenix soaring sky id fly new universe new life quantum immorality side thing curbs great appeal something chose long time ago ideal siren song death allowed enticing experience allowed exciting thrilling adventure allowed last one ill see life full adventure death one live fullest take plunge love much grow overcome strife death must fucking earn breath taking alive death offers thrill seek mean another victim must redflag desire lasts moment save life using ideal ive chosen let say love adam sandler watching reign paying close attention actingbr br raises voice cant help think happy gilmore yelling golf ball snap back adam sandler sucks inbr br reign great film film comes slow first expecting emotion every scenebr br don cheadle always great job exception truly great lines worthy oscar movie doesbr br adam sandler amazing many ways dramaticbest acted film career recall laughing loud many parts filmbr br supporting cast great saffron burroughs jada pinkett smithbr br highly recommend movie got tremendous acting beautiful shots nyc great comedy great drama new found respect adam sandler doubted reassurance great cheadle amazing people mcr references makes sense band broke people kids whatever know kinds girls extra always looking opportunity insult makes annoyed bitch ur stacey brought hella money nobody asked ur opinion help lol someone dm rant ive got whole lot stored head idfk talk irl believe words even escaping fingers right now yeah ethical emotional vasectomy needs thing well thought got better thought finally right path made another mistake back care anymore easy way back used mom found account kill isnt even anything bad hates melt anybody want join discord server heres invite code cmfqgs dm discord work reason always felt end going redflag think time almost herethe past years life nonstop nightmare nothing punching bag world around think squeezed extra years numbing drugs dont want keep though become exhausting today figured someone used know pressed charges offhand comment angry nearly year ago know whats gon na happen going stain life ruin part everything find almost perpetually envy others nothing seems come moderation im cripple depressed personality disorder covered scars accidents surgeriesi cant take anymore makes worse go part world watching everyone go along ease listening people talk struggles makes jealous im trying invalidate peoples struggles know people much difficult time know great majority people age dont struggles bad things come justgo tackle gonei give anything problems arise life seem always take part never back broken world beaten completely never stood chance always sort expected go redflag certain truly finally end rope simply keep every waking second spent slowly coming terms nothingness waiting im beginning want embrace dont feel scared anymore long much tired far away place stood wondering whether right journey led place sought long time feel accomplished sacrifices made worth presence choose wrong way herethis place wonderful truly feels wrong thinking going back feels even worse belong belong anymore goal finish line fool planning beyond really even sure going therecan continue without certainty better allowed feel sad paradise offence stayed behind cheering betraying past self fulfilling expectations head mess right now day passes know losing self doubt grief darknessi tired tired beating want ask help happy short text wrote month ago now girlfriend f attempted redflag last night m really know anymoreso girlfriend years tried kill last night called couple hours tell loved sounded somewhat nothing really ordinary know going depression anxiety issues long time relationship helped lot dark times good healthy relationship overall ive always supportive caring morning got message telling attempted redflag failed feel completely broken even though wan na accept mad even though im full support mode right now know know suicidal thoughts ive always ive never deal situation english first language apologise beforehand id appreciate advice situation thanks advance tldr girlfirends redflag attempt failed im broken idk help masks really uncomfortable mean id still wear matter risk yeah least kinda uncomfortable wish committed redflag moment wish easier dont want liveanother monumental fight house time brother mother hit much moment much pain sadness rage act seemed nothing hours dad wouldnt leave alone dont feeling much dont want live either wish committing redflag easier think sister gay saw couple posts social media tagged friend girl posts usually memes relationships stuff captions sister back high school girl gay super friendly cousins friend knew girl told something two back hope im overreacting im getting suspicious turns true support sister want happy im sure family react theyre pretty traditional sister prettiest among us siblings plus talented always gets teased chased boys time running awaydisappearing instead ending lifeive thought ending life consistently months now theres day goes dont think ive diagnosed depression given medication due certain health conditions ive forced stop opioids list refuse take family history addiction id rather go rout im fearful physically pain havent committed redflag wondering disappeared instead basically person gone missing ive made scenarios mind go thought im assume police still forced look ifwhen parents friends reported missing attempted mind close fresh start thank rteenagers inspiring change outdated reddit bio guys kinda suck president big joke talking important people countries takes mask talks whole time without sad donkey represents country weeksits six weeks died cant anymore fucking miss want end life badly make pain stop im done kids teenagers springwood ohio dead expect one teenager shon greenblatt still alive freddy robert englund letting go teenager much memory hes arriving new town tough female psychologist lisa zane tries break though new patient finds hes brings along springwood spark memories three teens lezlie deane breckin meyer ricky dean logan unexpected came ride arrived springwood psychologist memory lived town child freddy knows true secret true identitybr br directed rachel talalay ghost machine tank girl made grim somewhat oddly different sequel visual style funny moments horrorfantasythriller yaphet kotto alien supporting role psychologist expert dreams ingenious visual effects everyone love climax especially d good style storytelling one gross films series box officebr br dvd strong anamorphic widescreen transfer pan scan strongdolby digital surround sound dvd original theatrical trailer jump nightmare opinion cast crew information elm street series box set eighth disc interviews cast crew sixth film sixth film d film climax watch d last elm street films wes craven resurrected freddy different darker style new nightmare silly surprisingly enjoyable spinoff horror film freddy vs jason watch robert shaye coowner coceo new line cinema roseanne barr tom arnold johnny depp alice cooper amusing cameos written michael de luca john carpenters mouth madness story director story incompletesimilar story op case dad spent childhood promising help pursue science career moved along many exorbitant promises coaxed signing life savings guise teaching money management skills afterwards personality instantly changed replaced body snatcher started holding money hostage control forced flat earth fundamentalist church started incessantly discouraging scientific interests forbidden even seen girl might lead others think sexually active threatened cut associated members many demographics functionally unable friends scream belittle humiliate hours every day church strict give hobbies sinful tried damage relationships family members constantly follow around incessantly act attention much struggled even attempt schoolwork even remaining hobbies quickly psychologically broken started failing classes despite growing honors student years later took second major hoping raise gpa barely squeak grad school dad took somehow mean verge graduating two phds completely flipped incessantly discouraging exerting pressure graduate two phds immediately explained getting two phds accept despite protests spread word far wide two phds gained reputation kind miracle prodigy never actually live point dad final stages terminal heart problems relentless pressure started going along even years lies abuse want disappoint death bed years went things continued worse overwhelmed preemptive grief dads impending death every day went traumatic religious deconversion lost soulsustaining nonfundamentalist faith god started experiencing severe diabetes symptoms struggling increased course load failing recover grades dad continued sink deeper deeper obsession completely imaginary phds one day dad started taking visit old man crazy cult bedridden terminal heart problems years went dad old guy alive meant dad final stages terminal illness something years realized outrageously exaggerating health problems spent last several going along delusional nonsense fuck im tired hurts much hurts much unsure movie renting assurance hilary swank always given excellent performances movies seems rely restraint gain emotional impact prove wrong moviebr br movie fantastic performances members cast speaking nonspeaking single jamie bartlett chiwetel ejiofor two main protagonists outstanding acting abilities portrayal true human feelings failings whole movie ran almost documentarybr br must applaud tom hooper director avril beukes editor keeping multiple layered story revealed smoothly whilst keeping dialogue action moving along understandable fashion opening sequence south african landscape striking push pause button savour photographybr br cant movie nominated international award seems hit highrating button counts film true experience life country coming apartheid life poverty around celebrated dignity human spirit miss watching live pd cable wish brought back reason stopped broadcasting outbreak antipolice riots across usa assumed temporarily suspended safety cameramen riots wanted police officers go ive researched figured cancelled year according critical time nations history makes think corona virus antipolice riots im thinking two things better soon eventually favorite television show return back brought existencethis shit doesnt make sense someone please help efficient painless way end life one people meant live normal happy life bring joy peoples lives simply waste resources space id family favor advice appreciated help leaving cant sleepi depressed day really hits night im alone everyone asleep thoughts redflag feel lonely lately ideas help favorite video game dialogue mine rain every agony every violation upon parade cold body every corner every realm feed soul vilest filth hel promise cant take anymoreive struggling depression almost years now theres days hurt much cant happy cant hole want pain end im tired waking everyday thinking killing really bravery weakness keeping alive woke morning crying cant stop hurts much alive cant understand feel know smile anymore little little part teared know back im broken many pieces think build real suppleroot hours day far worse anyone morningright wake hardest thought going another day pain evening night comes around feel better try live evenings want days good people born gon na turn year wtf gon na commit redflag homeworki homework country mandatory options hello yes post hey guys im g dio jotaro josuke joseph giorno jonathan danny ok little danny ones fault wanted artisthello redflag watch years old still living home moved previously lasted couple years afford feel life chosen blessing curse days plagued depression enjoy playing music painting working house painter past five years faced reality able follow dreams ive trying little money picking jobs scarily produce enough art work sell learn lot covers play make money know im shooting foot genuinely want make something call younger felt potentialwork ethic someone never hit stride feel becoming loser despite efforts many friends really know make friends school long im practically unemployed every time think applying one im held back thoughts little social skills adds sense shame never create without thinking real job adds guilt consider workingartmusic physical means paycheck really bad episode months ago make bed currently write someone drifting grow older realize world view getting limited cant seem leave childlike perspective almost drowned myselfbroke leg cried bit im done right now everything fucking sucks wrapped leg went outside jumped pool phone pocket lay bottom eventually decided man wished stayed helpingtoday decided talk mother depression talked convinced nothing serious feel wants snap even told buying new things taking body laser making pretty fix fix feeling desperately told things work second make feel better feel even worse drink handful sleeping pills every day wake late way dont deal awake long sleeping everytime numb wish end brave enough feel dont existnot im invisible world im real cant feel anything pain sadness anger void comfortable deathidk im one feels ive realized im afraid death rather happen around die weird cause hunch young age wouldnt make past grew older statement got true guess maybe im ok making past cause point nobody really talks sleep forever peace mean wish goals ambitions atm im robot living day day want christmas gun end suffering withim failure adult dependent abusive mother least end year move go back help love see fail ive never much social life friends online somehow manage disappoint everytime one friend recently brain tumor removed worried came back today made best effort focus making happy didnt act depressed didnt show depression didnt make anything even played game usually hate refuse along friends simply pointed group people trolls likely attack us lagging behind group didnt know really trying ended making pissed tried lie think medication whatever didnt rest even made point tell reason rarely play game simply dislike despite fact made complaint today actually tried thats one example many feel failure matter hard try people around hate mother father left favors new children people used think friends using laugh older cousin raping numerous times pile shit hate much want die almost daily minor panic attacks thinking failure nothing way changing cant therapy medications cant go make new friends small town kids hated public school better good kid teachers liked point bullying got bad taken school cut usually deep notice chest faint scars look close enough ive always fond letting aggressive cats ive sometimes come contact damage mean cat scratches lie works best cat scratches girlfriend tried hard seems despise dont know opinion pretty negative told shes basically insisted child knows nothing real world etc etc despite fact shes made major mistakes lied shes never found someone accepting gender fluidity despite fact sometimes stressful sexually wants things bring back bad memories id willing make happy live everyone know hates cant stand thinks im joke girlfriend talked badly behind back friends assumed depression attention grab id blow brains really tried strangle belt lost consciousness guess released belt woke hours later tried od dry texture pills made vomit chance digest dont nerve cut deep enough hit artery legitimately want die gun id dont try burden try try make everyone feel good need support basically fuck hate much think badly shouldnt problem isnt thats selfish making deal someone hate wonder even stays loves want responsible consequences taking last bit live away sleep late trying avoid awake sleep closest thing release right now took benadryl try heighten mood makes calm risk alcoholism time access beverages sort ive tried weed nothing cant even find relief substances anymore used think okay lonely life style id outdo everyone id fucking win theyd working fucking target id nurse id one good apartment flat screen tv decent car nice clothes didnt need anyone anything id show im failure burden want die dont want people tell wish theyd guts tell know want stop pretending dont want kill quickly yes change situation really id cant even go take walk fucking walk wish people talk want talk pity feeling responsible see sort redeeming quality thats even worth dont im sorry alcohol numbing guilt committing redflagi dependence alcohol drinking every day every weeks couple months may seem much drink feel dependent recently something horrible happened feel happy somewhat drunk now know im harm thought dying mental state makes seem much easier doi feel free somewhat happyi plan drinking awhile possibly staying days max avoid ptsd dreamsthese usually triggered stress fear going sleep thats im staying want feel crappy staying life feel guilt killing guilt family may think feel okay etc think im going drink daily know healthy feel way feel alright okay figured cheat canvas question blank text box basically upload image canvas account whenever question blank text box one type whatever want go import think says user media aaaaand bam cheat test lot talk made psychological westerns one truly genre big name stars perform well director makes good movie stewart granger loses british safari hunter stereotype play haggard retired buffalo hunter revered west one best robert taylor plays upstart contrast usual young upstart taylors character middle aged wants slaughter buffalo lures granger business hire two big name actors lloyd nolan russ tamblyn skinners granger haunted buffalo killed knowing may blame become extinct knowing become extinct native american way life greatly suffer taylor soon reveals sadistic side realistic saidism unlike one dimensional sadists modern film created nerds dorks insecure needs human companionship still stop murder end pits two startling conclusion psychological effects theyre well depicted hey really going throw bad time right anyone free chat spoilersbr br ive heard gripe special effects detract movie movie suspense film good stand point movie rocks franke rocks enjoy ones plastic hearts content complaints movie unless watch english dub total farce creates illusion b movie br br one complaint music video dvd say sings id love know br br br br quality entertainment replayable recommending songs bf break day dont u want back indigo de souza howhow u courage end life way someone plz answer quickly im scared feel alonei hate edgy stuff im sad know want okay everything turn right im scared want help guys guys guys realized lego marvel super heroes xbox one came years ago hell im older thought every parent stepdad parents either beat yell children theyre upset soft parents raise ignorant kids ignorance bliss parent trained hardcore parental figure stepdad prosecuted years people spreading diseases everywhere raising screwedupinthemind snowflakes still pandemic assholes wearing gloves supermarket throwing trash hands stepped crocodiles ampxb want make parents stricttoughgreat stepdad best example parent bring back death penalty misdemeanors felonies parent raise kids manners lose parenting license watchlist years ampxb ignorancelazinessweakness cured unless junk food carb drinks outlawed sale minors lmao cant anything right longish rant angsty promise funny sometimes aka late night thoughts teeth tldr end alright woke reason fucking reason tiny brain hates basically heyyy teeth ya know fun bout question ourself hour lol go monkey brain goes yeah lol lets remember fucking suck dude go oh ok cool lets fun idc noticed moment overthinking literally shit shit makes sense fuck mean everything wrong either way example drawing draw ill probably angry end crying draw im wasting time fucking drawing anyways thats minor example tw part probably anyways noticed fuck point suicidal literally suck regardless im making people sad probably traumatic moment people close etc etc im making people sad probably traumatic moment people close etc etc fuck basically logic applied anything go school ill probably overwhelmed breakdown end day pleasant anyone go school stay home wasting life ignoring work pleasant anyone ill yelled either way whats point feel asshole regardless nothing everything mix always wrong whats point really going anywhere probably make better points tried im tired ill leave tldr woke started overthinking shitty bc tiny brain try funny work goodnight yes name teeth fuck lt cant even imagine feeling better ive suicidal almost year say day cleaned room moving home summer felt awesome felt really really happy next day downhill today even lower know school absolutely nobody home least parents room comforts feel bad even feel gets worst feel happiness feel future humdrum holding weird day ask questions felt awesome now even imagine world friends every ideal thing cant see feeling better hurts think someone something something completely unaffected operating outside normal reality know kill one hand hurt feel bad see reason put death hand feel resist must reason everyone throwing bridges often think means something feel better one event affect differently makes feel better end edit someone suggest bipolar good mood equate manic episode mom showed pic uncles balls im sitting outside phone looking reddit mom calls wanting trouble hurried asked showed phone zoomed facebook post uncle speedo balls gave warning explanation laughed stood traumatized trying make sense happened walked away slowly sat trying image uncles bare nuts head alas worked seeking help finallyive hating life situation years even though probably better people job college degree good pay least one reliable friend hobbies still want die daily dont think ive gone month without thinking redflag started anxiety attacks elementary seemed go undiagnosed passed tantrums finally went doctor got prescribed venlafaxine hopefully start enjoying br good life everyone stay quiet im staying past bed time almost dont tell mom guys im watching simpsons going kill appeal rejectedim student us high school school limit absences per year ive dealing lot depression stuff ended going well days gets bad cant even leave bed write appeal school board excuse wontt credits classes ive taken year even though im passing doubt school board accept appeal personally dealt people theyre legitimately kind assholes real reason guess feel powerful appeal gets rejected id repeat year high school really reason already enough deal personal life isolating socially people age making take extra year high school really going help really im left three options dropping taking extra year redflag attendance thing im even bad student consistently im going take extra year drop reason really third option redflag left appeal isnt accepted school board im going hang meet june st wont hear anything wont know meet pretty sad im musician enjoy lot compose lot perform public really want appeal accepted continue want going kill event rejected ultimately best option disappointedi cant believe pushed relationship wanted work even though everything needed probably going suffer aspects life im upset must ugly inside either im ugly outside whichever way im good enough anyone honestly wish knew fix dont never complete straightforward answer really know diligently work part life im really know though ive said true need better maybe make found someone help whatever edit grammar ruined lifeim already feel dead im pronounced yet first memory dad telling hes moving house although still contact im forced mother father pick sides one sisters sided dad mom im stuck middle police calls fights lasted years hated every minute life friends take problems young even think redflag met love life young age life purpose told whole life story loved actually cared year year still felt reason love good memories life along side years later broke lied really died one talk used someone talk gone forever fault well used im alone life plan ending trump destroyed debate ngl know trump bad person looking debate want look moment moment holy crap trump destroyed legit roasting biden every chance got comedy gold fight anybody archery one hobbies id actually say im mildly good im wondering many ppl advicehelp wantedhey ive waking wanting dead one important things always friends im constantly paranoid theyll annoyed feel im wasting time feel theyd probably prefer around someone presence annoying longer keep going less seem live idk keep want hard im begining lose hope whole process month old got really tired watching care bears time rooney great dancer cares gay guy must cheerleader somethingbr br beats barney cant songs headmuststop singingdoodlebops songsnowbr br must lines text must continuewhat say canadian stuff ooout aboooot whacky canadiansjazmine rhyming much must dutchbr br knock knock whos dee dee super hottiebr br bus driver bob dance take lessons rooney going swell far s personal aspect feel stabbed multiple times least one back absofokinlutely grades going im lose good friends sister leaving start crying reason random points last days certain frog loving art student reading sure hope fucking know wrong contact probably feel shit bet pretty little ass lt wan na talk really hope yall better start year till now uzumaki visually stunning film think anyone going able argue unfortunately story somewhat falls flatbr br film nevertheless entertaining uses wild style tell somewhat nonexistant story film almost works based characters style opinion leaves something desired need one reason drink redbull rn friends wont noticeive missed many days school know parents take away phone skip school suddenly didnt turn didnt talk none think badly notice anything im depressive dellusional im realistic got mogged toyed perfectly normal natural inferior posting random song lyrics every day forget day im reason fault problem im cause im scapegoat im god im martyr id leave dull boy mudvayne experienced something terrible afternoonplease warned following may appropriate everyone sub read hiking around one canyons near home today several hours afterwards drove summit turn around head home top encountered young man completely distraught speaking operator bystander trying console little success apparently minutes kids uncle climbed nearby hill forty yards used weapon take life wouldnt believed except kid falling apart pretty sure witnessed whole thing couple bystanders started climbing hill check man nephew yelled us saying didnt want anyone going police ems arrived fucking sucked deciding turn around know odds low making difference fuck never saw victim didnt see hear anything except poor kids reaction world fucking shattered called brother told happened started losing broke started saying fuck fuck couldnt help cops medics drove home retrospect dont think real smart drive whole drive canyon wreck okay though anyway needed lay sure even appropriate forum thanks reading bullshtim tired cant believe anyone said care everything looks half assed insincere make feel worse cant take anymore said thousand times hope wake please die used best friend best friend chilhood grow old trying avoid started hangout cooler dude hate dude bcoz hes fcking selfcentered contact friend long time whenever texts feel joyful feel hatred texted mocked treating dead always see cool assholes hang around believe fcking douchbags friendi trying change paying attention guess restrained past memories know friendship matter day posting favourite songlinklyrics httpsyoutuberaysaplzq feed mepumkin eyes cant help matter try cant help baby ive waiting waiting till come around ive watching ive floating floating beneath ground baby ive thinking back night took home looked pumpkin eyes stopped saying cant help matter try cant help cant help matter try cant help baby ive waiting waiting nervous child im surrounded feeling caged remember used wild baby ive thinking back streets used roam looked pumpkin eyes told never let go cant help matter try cant help cant help matter try cant help baby ive waiting im surrounded feeling caged baby ive thinking back streets used roam tell never let go cant help matter try cant help please please help need advice please childhood parents sole reason constant thoughts redflagim ukrainian immigrant moved lot settled california female art prodigy early age cancer lymph node age went chemo got homeschooling ridicule joined school due hair loss always eccentric never quite right many relationships best years life cared hospital diagnosed major depression time found benign tumor femur caused severe pain daily basis endured years found another one femur last many years overdosed painkillers high many times live twice parents loved mom beat electric chord ribs bruised undress school clothes got home every time brought pain caused said beaten bled says clean room therapist bring beatings justify miscarriage stressed cancer take black eye kicked slapped pushed threw things purposely lose store little teach lesson called police listen escorted friend back home told goodbye lived next door forbade speak officer phone crying hysterical terrified walked never looked back sometimes stop hurrying see notice never threaten leave side highway talked back car sat choked weight annoyed change broviac one day injection tube needed weekly cleaning play hit told stop got top told nothing bring hit either way write diary mean wished new mom found yelled read cry closet parents find ridicule laugh say stupid look cry shake day discuss feelings laugh tell crying inappropriate even cant breathe hyperventilate sheer stress discussion never buy anything hand downs two dollar sale items never fit things liked eat treats surprises knew eat shoe collection massive ego large told im stupid fat ugly embarrass feet crooked flat im slow worthless deserve respect acne atrocious hair appalling even fit adored anyone circle either sex say still good enough parents pushed art crank paintings factory lost passion helped around house hate missed spot something wrong showed help another friend neighbor maybe wash window theyd call slave dignity screamed every day blamed cry night lay bedroom door hoping let hold threaten lock closet listen halloween costume contest little called school participate shy scared kindergarten parents obliged went home chickened go ignored day made fun teenager lock door change nude summer days pick lock every time angry locked mom demand see breasts walk showering pick door lock slept nude dad monitor internet searches activity found porn one point outraged monitors connections day visit found phone history used cam girl mom tells whore deserves raped knows used men less dog company older men sometimes buy gifts found charming recently cam girl quit found outjust money food incident filled form physical abuse doctors office thought form consequence police show house lie afterward parents called traitor hated long time dad works long hours believes nothing say mom says lie mother speaks dog hits buys candy next day acts angel severe depression dropped high school college academy straight student dropped fs told counselor feelings redflag mother called face extreme anger left room screamed told counselor going kill needed help dropped college recently well due depression tumor pain moved stopped supporting unless move back go college even boyfriend hungry days without food dad drives tesla tell failure stop friends families hold tears back said much loved held one another moved parents finally love boyfriend far away call week ive different antidepressants group therapy family therapy regular therapy family therapy sessions go father saying lazy apply mother hysterics clean room deserve belt boyfriend everything end even love cant save medication heavy snri without depression baggage much cry least every couple days ruminate parents family future even thousands miles away slight mention lose depressed young feel though point cure love isolation medication therapy know solution death please help say lie spent countless nights agony even age begging god kill deal anymore infested completely want die depression leave stems destroying relationship life see getting better trying everything power still love blood cruel thing worse offenses something good something eyes love hurt helped many ways mind completely fucked cant think weep hours hours hate seems way passion feelings love satisfaction nothing life feel dead killed young knew future future things better im finding hard cling onto anythingmy pain real ive felt throughout high school years later without boring everyone lifes story depression family know anything ive kept secret really want bother lifes hard enough fail everything life manages keep alive giving unbelievable strokes luck snatches away within days im telling im finally happy days believe im sick twisted reality show people watching group children huddled around scared cat offering food deciding fun put cat bag throw river sure much longer hold oni depressed little kid probably around never friend life never accomplished anything met desperate girl job managed marry first girl even held hands let alone talked bit couple kidsi managed break smile awhile first life still depressed decided couldnt deal mental stuff anymore left months ago nothing makes happyi drinking every single night left helps cry much every night tell might need take kids full time awhile check hospital gets mad saying selfish think much dead anymorehoping deer jump front way back work happen lose conyrol fly bridge take kids biggest concern dogsi asked gone take care said may call rescue shelters make arrangements even put money chance finding new home without risk put sleep breaking work may go back due todayi going last much longerthings better anyone play starve together friends world best use walter wormwood anything okay want play give discord link losti tried kill back work decided try figured might depressed told mom laughed said pathetic found psychologist told suffer depression social anxiety told mom allow take meds refused go see psychiatrist even though psychologist wanted mom want disappoint psychologist told know months stopped seeing got worse cant bed zero motivation anything im scared go school teachers keep giving shit sick often im scared oral examination teachers yell try make feel shit front whole class parents beat yell kids really wan na take care baby brother become legal guardian probably happen life sucks idea want end hate middle school wan na hurry go high school bruh u much cool shit partys picking classes relationship seem work much better add pokmon go please need send gifts challenge none friends friend code tired living consisted break abuser hospital visits self harm related injuries moves losing job covid car crash im exhausted dont see point continuing im going job interview tomorrow legitimately bank account dont car see end im going pathetic dont food lyft razors bathroom taunting last place want hospital plus cut im sorry venting said im exhausted hate want dieim looking attention advice wanted express ending life end never ending pain problemswhats point surviving one bothers existence people say live yourselfit gets better time doesnt ive literally one call ownno friendsno relativesno relationship parents hate ready rid anyhowjust consider burden single person age nothing growing dysfunctional toxic family lead many trust commitment issuesscared attachment want married relationship want someone neither het anyone wholl bear mood swingsmy depressionmy complete lack emotional control keep pushing people away scared theyll hurt leave megot rejection abandonment issues several times find searching sure ways ending life survive everyone hate everyone hates without reasonno one understands memy socalled family friends ashamed people call psycho attention seekerbut survive somehow physically challenged itll less nightmare anyone bothered diei friend whos always remembered need something never called outingwhos always left behind walking conversation childhood experience hatredbitterness getting beaten home along getting bullied school college severely damaged mental health hate talking anyone scared theyll use scared relationship one tolerate hot cold behavior plus people days want physical needs scared leftover sanity heart brokenmy sibling hates mejust wants push house prove loser wrong one front parents beaten much childhood still care beautiful onemy relatives cousins hate usseen fathersibling heard grandfather cheating spouse hate marriage relationships childhood two house staffs used molest years oldone cousin lesssometimes feel may somehow responsible hate people touch school used badly bullied humiliated never anyone help understand even bit mother sometimes getting manic tried kill sometimes crave affection push people away im fucking scared one hugged mei want hug someone see feels never played teddy bears childhoodjust want one never anything person age always tried good girl trying appease parents always helping others even hurt thought ill anyonenever intentionally hurted anyonenever demanded anything myselfalways listen others want moneyriches anythingjust small happy family protective sibling selfish one leave sister front wolves fend herselfwant caring partner wholl understandlove care respect mewith respect comes loyaltysome love never got life even everything till love parents codependencyobsessive helicopter parenting ruined badlythey aged know survive alone big bad world cant marry want want liability anyone want live independently terms think thats good true years struggling im tiredguess problems never ending im high manic mode sharing much publicly regret im normalguess ending end problemssorry long rant early teens come realization knew want much part world feel type satisfaction life neither family significant even simple pleasure food much try surround positivity feeling emptiness drowns birthday days ago pictures taken looking back see eyes soul screaming release lost lbs eating either little slowly feel reaching limit scared reach help abyss im still nnn pls proud biggest achievement year longest ive gone considered cheating someone calls another person gf sleeps call gf doesnt know im pretty sure fjfjksksfkkd anything worth allive really fucking tried cant seem find anything worth living everything pain end finished cutting thighs wanted noose find anything im goddamn tired left wife daughter think ill kill todayive lefet wife daughter weeks old ive hurt ex wife beyond words explain ive woman ive loved first sight ive started relationship lasts year now hurting much cant even explain keeps recalling previous partner calls daughter shit tells die says things hurt spine break heart every day two love much spend weekend daughter every week taking good care daughter bring back mother partner freaks unloads shit taken long ive tried hang months ago trying back previous partner together everyone around wants us happy people around tell us great pair im despair pain ive never im seizures kicking im used hit head hard walls door frames stop crying screaming ive begging kind ive asked love many times says sometimes loves reactions words bad wants daughter die try best try hard im landing downward spiral always tears scream sorrow ive spending money support ive put brink bankruptcy ive stolen money support us happy everything seems going work happy hell earth feel im munchs painting scream ive psychiatrist ive perscriped carbodiazepine stabilize mood works extent go beyond point pain cope seizures lie floor cry weep weep hard ive scratched face several times seizures way describe attempt scratch face parents try contact us theyve made steps touch us says dont try hard enough sad know leave woman cant want love love want hard past weeks ive considering another redflag bottle tramadol cupboard ive taken grandma died cancer used painkiller know take gulps tramadol going ill peace daughter sleeping us today months old please help ive single long m want somebody love ive never proper relationship hardly talk girls irl nervous even though lately ive getting better theres girl amazing boyfriend thing kind flirts good friends even though boyfriend go make dick many questions know sorry oh god oh shit ok pissed bed two weeks ago lazy go bathroom fell asleep want kill myselfi want kill want something really fucking stupid drive car tree trip flight stairs something take away suffering everyday life want die want something big happen something serious make everybody reset way think adhd making life hell moment especially trouble emotional regulation tearing girlfriend apart cant remember shit enthusiasm happens less remember said shit feel harder becomes snap wish restart life blank slate connections ties live pace mental burdens holding back envy meander life happily whereas overthink every single decision make deal constant thoughts ideas swirling around head every single second day matter decision make ill think wrong one content life moment nothing try best despite experienced fair deal trauma life whats price happy really know doive planned ending life tomorrow bought plane ticket california want see ocean one last time want die hometown im wanting back think im nervous travel around strangers really need end soon im living uncle im unemployed supposed move end august told pay back week lie planned dying tomorrow miss flight end life hometown really want maybe really want die im making excuses know fact want live either really know anymore feels cant rid itim trying hard harder want anymore want feel normal person want happy know im wrong first time years felt happy feels im anymore past threeish weeks draining energy feel hopeless keep trying want give im feeling choice want hopek see anything look forward im weak feel worthless die one miss want keep going im slowly going back everything want everything ive done try make life better nothing want hope friends try best make teacher happy friends two always try answer questions one teachers everyday students join particular class including us even though strength people favourite subject answer questions much students bother much whenever asks particular leave bother know teaching hard job dad used teach kids told sometimes teachers loses hope well want lose hope tries best teach us teacher lose hope teach maybe subject try learn time makes sad response whole class appreciate teacher much always let know im thankful two friends thing thats stopping painif pill swallow end without pain throat five seconds hesitation premed student know much stupid body matter try end going hurt lot im gon na say something twitter become racist trying stop racism chose live got clean options againive never done anything thoughts somewhere im years old live united states highschool spent semester away college got addicted klonopin xanax prescribed drop couldnt remember anything spent three years daze eventually got sent away help ended incredibly abusive facility florida girls made middle circle call whores screwed stuff based principle attack therapy break build back finally managed hellwhole threatened committed saying suicidal got clean managed start life back talented web application developer got business running months got apartment things great made mistake moving people problems made one business partner learned real hard way working someone live bad idea especially psychotic tripping mescaline days putting gun mouth deciding give life last chance flew back homestate checked psychward getting plane got help august ive lived various halfway houses successfully went intensive outpatient program completed getting stepped week outpatient program filed grievance therapist told go suck dick end assraped jail came gay fired moved halfway house apartment back family now months later attorney getting letters exroommate florida extorting threatening report police things leaving florida unless pay amount goes time attorney talks tries settle ive long tried settle original amount wanted ten times im literally going crazy stress honestly tried everything make life better got clean came gay im stuck paying attorney hour deal bullshit doesnt think proof extorted drug using idiots cant keep putting parents siblings stress constant bullshit really want peace relax seems option rid fear unknown regard prosecuted either leave country kill dont know anymore want live life peace ive everything im sick tired lifethis alt account im using hope thats okay im desperate vent things good life see absolutely fuck anything looks positive nothing mirage moment become familiar see bad thats bad everything everything possibly go wrong goes wrong badly hopes dreams completely shattered dream becoming acclaimed game developer ruined fact industry fucked beyond repair complete disregard preservability reliance internet pc especially infected people sucking valves dick praising steam best thing sliced bread even though actually made pc games expensive years even worth effort anymore able see games game shelves fuck bother dream keeping native language scots alive ruined snobby cunts keep dismissing real language due similarity english despite fact unesco eu charter minority languages recognize separate language hell trying support im sick help family extremely anglophone approve supporting language fact im growing tired country live tell queens english english boast freedom independence actually fucking chance break free shat fucking pathetic never felt fucking embarrassed call scottish life listening people speaking english accents cringiest thing im accustomed live eat survive anywhere dream life partner ruined combination asexual aromantic fact ive emotionally abused people ive close point trigger words render healthy relationship impossible even words longer triggered words describerepresent still still ruin things even found new dreams pursue whos say crushed ones ill spending entire life switch dreams ill never achieve kind life call short live dwindling time im nearly end rope hate everything life way negative things positive feel im going snap kill one day fact think ill alive see summer depressed attend group therapy bothers want lay bed sleep depressed attend therapy please help mei feel hated throughout entire life bullied lot gradeschool got bad actually physically hurt come home neither parents cared say toughen something along lines thought got highschool better see grade school bullies actually got worse really hurts say sexually assaulted group boys never told anyone panic attack male even look ive gotten better im highschool feel im waste space whole life people use make feel better extremely dark brooding show excellent cast one shows try watch regular basis glad see bebe neuwirth recurring role feel andre braugher underutilized one intense actor hope cbs gives better time slot next season epic im finally happy long time lady hair cut place called handsome young man first compliment long time may become god somehow managed put usb first try become unstoppable liked movie first told interesting story story told movie felt condensed muchlonger story book pages makes sense spans time period s s fictional south american country lot fit time available think much better sixhour miniseries turned minute moviebr br even though rushed story skip much gets confusing told told fairly well one fault claras supernatural powers appear inconsistently either appeared evenly course movie left two faults spoilers estebans eventual return goodness happens somewhat suddenly ferulas curse seems wear even though tone story suggests endure foreverbr br acting excellent glenn close tormented spinster ferula outstanding jeremy irons brutal selfmade rich man excellent meryl streep main character clara great although often even better movie many wellperformed smaller roles biggest fault movie seemed lack dialect coach actor seemed speak different sort accent flirted concept suicide life even experienced brief bouts suicidal ideation manifested response something someone brashly reactionary radically honest believe scared actually follow act means ending brief stints silly sounds helped lot saw real real person full name redacted hobbies talents upcoming trips calendar obligations actually excelled showing makings future people active life hate actually alright person minute thereoh talented hobbies amp supportive circle people value much etc sure things absolutely taken granted course mandatory prerequisites order future worth living see natural end always stuff happened life happened blah blah blah still though suppose use phrasing regard thought topic suicide merely something tried understand simple fact actually suicidal person thus existed mental block sorts preventing mind fully going grasping concept satisfactionnow fast forward lately must crossed line sorts somewhere somehow know come across subject suicide context amp anyone fear unease surfaces within least initially emotions come though response lack afraid act suicideit even innocent introspection pondering husband committed decade ago instead experience anticipatory excitement similar feeling underwater know able come air soon yet frenzied eagerness relief guess even cost yanking steering wheel finding vein pump lethal amount opioids internal monologue basically goes something finally stop last loudness end sharp edges existence cease experience epitome true nothingness words paradise go yall good comebacks need comebacks insults slit wrists insults general want make bitch cry best insults award please make original good strange reason stay alivemaybe strange stay alive family member thought id writing lot mixed emotions im sure lot feel true father bad person think ive inherited instability mum im losing touch live im aware reason luxury depressed cooped im supposed lose quietly lot family people know cant understand cant understand almost everyone lot trouble relating making friends dropped school thirteen although missing days per year nine know feel im getting worse block absorb mess issue communicating people two modes angry sullen happy sometimes become negative inside feeling causes really something pets family feel lucky makes cant really explain feel im waiting outside reason cant end going reason im waiting tried say goodbye everyonei tried tell everyone facebook goodlife theyd likely never see internet second dropped posted never posted realized rewrote thought maybe meant way maybe ill go away without saying anything feel ending todayi feel lonely absolutely nothing gone right life years distanced abusive family certain times choice around watching acting happy normal regard pain remorse theyve treated breaking never value years time love put init matter care emotional state care alone actually laugh ignore presence even exist added nothing lives nothing go right people supposed love dont years trying whats right life avail one wants one love im even sure love im weird stupid insecure lonely misfit deserve die prolong got pills today theres nothing left wait edit update many compassionate people took one pill far twice dose im eyeing others drowsy enough witnessed sister berate sick father said noticed scratches car used hit multiple times tried hide really bad scratches evident cried screamed told die leave old iron nmom trip fast enough comfort saying dad devil uncaring hes trying stand soft spoken manner stop recklessly driving vehicle went make sure alright shaking bad kept worrying another stroke talked softly things stopped crying able eeat lunch worry much seem care health care wellbeing selfishness kill himwho take care yet want die bad today want take pills go sleep go away maybe join soon idk want take care one takes care im dying im dying want let go know talking much anyone bcos suicidal idk feel suicidal long time infact actually suicide plan really tired worthless battling depression redflag bpd alcoholism suicidal joined sub turned october excited finally join subreddit hello ampxb httpspreviewredditiwzbqpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfbdacbab anyone never seen anything fight scenes matrix never seen movie fight scenes choreographed action scene psychopath yuen woo ping fights matrix fight scenes somethinbr br li plays supersoldier feels pain lives life pacifist librarian ya got evil supersoldiers begin killing local drug lords take drug trade li teams cop buddy help stop thembr br absolutely crazy things going movie one badguy gets arm lopped pane glass hardly notices fights scenes filled flying kicks punches body count way li seldom better surrounded bevy beautiful female costars yip kicks serious ass fellow supersoldier anthony wong even makes cameo drug lord suprises makes cameo every hk movie unfortunate make action movies us sit horrible dubbing jobs see action crave much recommended rfragilewhiteredditor speedruns going everywhere redeemable qualityim trying hard negative towards suppose working regard nothing really changed terms feelings plans though still mess gun time time know one step time guess anyway one thing feel essential still getting stronger feel redeemable quality way really change look everything garbage ive come accept chance stronger maybe confidence selfesteem finally rise maybe ill good enough talk maybe ill stop alone itll take hard work im dedicated im hoping sink enough effort routine going everyday work change feel know bothered share suppose offer support clinging one thing save everything getting im loss everythingthe first thing probably explain im probably somewhat pertinent struggle recall period time greater weeks everything ranging stuff sucks im really sick want die thoughts even redflag attempts tldr im love girl reciprocate cant finish anything start hobby education hate feeling constant stream failure toward father greatest man met matter much want success make proud always fuck things always ive avoiding contact last months hate fact im overweight really try lose weight struggle back second point never seem finish anything start hate way jealous smallest things really see point around anymore im burned upon friends family even people even met government whore subsidising education ive broken im even sure im posting ive erased rewritten post several times now know im trying say anymore last day haze recall vague parts day theyre usually worst things cutting fact ive taken smoking even though find disgusting mind mess girls prefer bois hairy bodies much hair corious idk idk idk filler pff pff pfda pff pff pffda nice beatbox bro planning die alleywayive lied whole life abused neglected feel useless alone dirty part city whole family stuck money grab ticket nearby city want run away find alleyway stay let die cold winter night want let know fucked hit many times got drunk many times consequence wish feel emptiness previous redflag attempt thats icing cake tell dadive feeling worse every day pretending parents everything fine taken toll sleep time force wake sleep hours less hours whole body feels awful fantasize throwing traffic jumping buildings hate life hate fact hard time forming relationships anyone relationship family siblings friends close hate one go feel dont home feel ive tried wont let close anyone ive joined clubs sorority volunteer places feels form group im part family life sucks mom alcoholic extremely delusional dad another country honest one closest family never around life know everyone given fair circumstance hate cant even feel independent feel trapped home time area live public transportation walking takes hours make plans someone pick take home want go shopping ask someone want go grocery store ask someone asked father car one old happy let mother drive totaled car months destroyed brother speculated mother crashed purposely force father buy brand new car believable delusions father rich secret family much story dont want long im currently university financial aid feel taking time problem pay financial aid given well loans know family afford pay back im really happy seen psychologist psychiatrist months dont feel much better anyone miss magici feel last years common sensation ive experienced intense brutal nostalgia keeps coming back ive moved childhood home family friends got place started career ive started realize empty life lonely im destined everything dreadful bleak pointless life cycle suffering stress existential crisis working pay bills living paycheck paycheck spending hours friends even really care years feel everything gets darker darker nothing excites anymore want child feel magic used feel world magic running soccer fields friends magic walking mall shooting shit watching sunset outside bedroom window dreaming girls school everything hopeful magic pushups front mirror feeling going badass magic long car rides backseat parents car watching roads fly magic feeling much life much experience nowadays feel everything wanted already passed adulthood long spiral decay unhappiness isolation maybe human beings meant live tiny part lives happy hopeful spend rest lives desperately chasing feeling theres nothing left im empty tired every day feel kind hope want badly feel something deeply kid theres constant dullness im starting see signs age face hairlines receding skins starting wrinkle talked anyone weeks im unemployed single three years soon ill probably homeless ive stopped eating ive stopped sleeping well months ago made car trip old town parents long gone friends one visit walked around old house old schoolyard trails friends used bike around got pang heart intense wanted burst want die want live knowing ill never magic dont want staymy whole family expressed hate theyre ashamed way today im struggling eating disorder ive made people cry today already everything always blamed seriously cant take im depended everything cant take anymore even mention needing help show bit vulnerability im shut shit attacked theres people life im living didnt id already gone dont want die want pain go away dying seems permanent way end ive always told people gets better im debating quote honestly im leaving rteenagers rteenagers rpedos seriously tho fuck pedos fuck mods situation made realize name rteenagers red flag specially reddit im telling friend leave suggest leave cause trust al pedos arent gon na magically leave pls safety im really dissapointed mods even trying disprove anyways stay safe im outta damn god damn damn bro damn fuck damn im unhappy god damn well great go seek help put redflag watch fucking case shit theyre gon na call regularly keep check thats nonsense everyone leave fuck alone wish everybody fucking hated make killing much much easier enjoy slowly changed antidepressants zoloft suit made kill even gave xanax fucking panic attacks got worse zoloft think drinking problem even though ive drunk times cant control promised never drink alcohol make problems go away fuck shit bite lips anxious last time swollen lips weeks literally chewed skin lips taking ages heal today im worried lips going swollen tomorrow ive made plans go even though want longer im alone time think killing know im sucking lollipops stop biting lips fucking chewing skin know im posting nobody needs worry needed vent know someone reading knowing im feeling good right now looking new friendly faces hey im xander im looking folk willing try hand relatively small server mod team best keep everyone happy plenty kind caring residents gladly welcome may true server may active moment wed love good folk liven soft cozy atmosphere dm details invitations im becoming content redflag post experiment see voicing changes intentioni go reasons im considering ending life something ive battled years im angsty teen struggling mountable teen problems im adult whos deciding go due life full confusion bad decisions sadness ive found technique difficult feel sense relief knowing finally exit main fear well saying goodbye human consciousness ill miss breathing ill miss sense touch ill miss contemplating things wonder ill miss little things make nose chuckle know theres nothing death scares comforts think im done thats okay cant function world exiting seems best saddest solution think im becoming content idea helloim bit nervous post normally hate drawing attention maybe help type people see group friends care family loves much love yet still feelings hurt inside things going great care world smallest thing set give bad thoughts im sure stem insecurities brain makes scenarios nobody really likes theyre pretending probably find annoying obnoxious cling people think care life probably prefer hanging without thoughts come mind gives anxiety worried nothing start overthinking everything chest starts hurting subsides really sad suicidal thoughts maybe better someone much emotional baggage life know people life terribly sad died im sure one biggest reasons done anything crazy thoughts head keep coming back driving bit crazy apologize sub posting thank reading feel end nothing right stupid worthless see point living anymore know keep going seems people care enough certain peoplei feel theres enough empathy understanding world especially people feel one cares makes angry im sure wan na anymore want change world seems impossible task wish people care feel neglected cared everyone deserves loved thats believe really sad people treated shit even matter makes angry really makes want live cruel world one return lost world filmed backtoback version lost worldbr br sequel five people lead challenger return plateau group started drilling oil threatening destroy land gomez something manage defeat drillers plateau saved much delight nativesbr br lost world dinosaurs see made rubber include trex ankylosaurusbr br john ryhsdavies david warner reprise roles challenger summerlee three actors backbr br despite reading several bad reviews cheap looking rubber dinosaurs enjoyed return lost worldbr br rating stars tried last night idk held back guess im still scared today ill try even though im gon na end something stupidim life basically im stuck obsessed girl killing already im alcoholic cant anything right couldnt even keep friendship girl hates want gone married guy dont think handle wish someone kill dont deal fear remember sonic fans fucked economy lmao time check sonic inflation google toure unaware theres girl theres girl im percent sure likes back idk ask im overthinking everything goes wrong says thinks im gay doesnt actually likes dates pitty peer pressure need advice ask someone please help day posting short stories woman blue man wondered aimlessly new desert sand felt wet yet air dry trapped tropical paradise wondered saw strange sites decrepit buildings ships larger life glittering blob followed along behind rising drain blob gotten larger incorporating parts long lost walked large vicious looking rain clouds enclosed desert watching continued exploring knew landscape man wearing clothing many describe rags hair dusty curled walked womans hand know never spoken felt right man little weight fit walked hand hand blob microorganisms drew closer threatening rather comforting buildings covered old ocean floor style castles modern buildings futuristic complexes roads buildings random distances one another continued walking rain began fall moistening air causing desert cool walked inside one buildings small warehouse type building large metal roof vented ceiling walls covered algae sat building rain grew harder trees began sprout grass began grow wasteland ocean floor large butterflies size backpacks flooded area pollenating life grew sea floor sand turning dirt butterflies swarmed warehouse covering floor around pair unique designs sat still warehouse looked extravagant tiles pouring rain slowed drizzle mist polluting building wings colony gently flapped took flight two butterflies strayed picked pair holding took flight flew dense overnight jungle towards mountains distance jungle slowly dissolving behind reducing back tree tops interwoven one tree many branches descended upon mountains storm brewing around came upon cave butterflies hesitate swarmed navigating tight passageways skillfully theyve done many times eventually erupted peak volcano butterflies elegant last stream dark blue highlights unnatural yellow tint unleashed pair near top peak peak littered snow felt comforting cozy foot mountain utterly blocked deep black clouds wondered around peak saw man mask obscuring face yet visibly see beard meandered way closer approached mountain gave way man mask started skid quickly downwards man rags first time let go woman blues hand try grab man time stopped snow flakes stood still air butterflies frozen mid flight grabbed mans hand time stood still cautiously pulled man making sure fall went back woman grabbed hand time resumed please check honestly know ask think best placeim planning seeing therapist stance illegal shit lets say illegal shit think vital tell contact cops parents im finally starting im finally starting feel good body feel extremely weak feel really weak ate slice bread breakfast somehow exhausting feel extremely weak fuck wrong everyday im getting sad weak maybe spend around hours bed everyday maybe literally killing really know feel lost years old lost job due illness friends moved countries feel alone depressed black thoughts behaviors lately see way want disappear somewhere upset others behavior feeling find job lot things change find health problems live poor country europe much tried positive take anymore feel crazy without job longer strength fight exgirlfriend still friend committed redflag saturdayi never felt worse life unresolved issues called little hysterical tried calm best told friend tell anything annoy calling said go told call back little bit next phone call got sister asking knew told said hours ago found body hanging tree little later years old young beautiful smart suffered deep depression years tried kill feel happen happened later unstable smile someones face thinking death feels good write hug everyone every day make sure let know much mean stomach hurts text dad come suffer rest school day hours left school btw im partially redflag may hurt others others may hurt whats righthonestly last year life living hell eyeopening year ago suddenly began develop seemingly arbitrary anxiety attacks nothing traumatic happened nothing major changed life heart rate randomly started spiking bpm im things sitting watching videos suffering anxiety attacks times week reached breaking point literally ready kill take others period suffering met girl first seemed ideal girl things quickly went south bpd started getting way insecurities something deal overtime went depressed feeling hopeless entire situation angry understand happening normal guy mids disease began manifesting apparent reason finished done wanted kill go bang wanted take others dialed redflag helpline spoke somebody hour straight end call anxiety attack manifested called seems millionth time take anymore mind racing heart pumping faster feeling weak dizzy took tests gave medicine everything think ive er anybody active subreddit combined anxiety heres xanax ssris take better need see psychologist better planned redflag smallest details nobody knew even day clarity anxiety dissipated felt ok one day wonderful great sleep wake feel better take shower eat normally triggered now everything fine another day anxiety continued live day day delayed redflag one day one day one day two weeks passed blissful normalcy started hallucinating started hear voices one day started see lights started see shadows surrounding everything got darker nearly passed street called ambulance checked er nothing wrong anxiety anxiety isnt cant something must wrong voices hallucinations colors darkness im schizophrenic told needed fight disease im good cant schizophrenia cant filtered voices head used everything willpower bring normalcy one time fast voices hallucinations came left months may reading thinking im crazy crazy broad term feel either crazy think spectrum people crazy others may labelled crazy think crazy think im crazy now anxiety sure driving crazy months passed girlfriends bpd seemingly started worse seemingly got better used money worked downpayment nice car ive living life way ive wanted listen others whatever fuck want want drive sushi restaurant order much food take go bet ass want speed residential streets narrowly avoid cops sure fucking im control life ive always control life control slipped last couple months almost terrible things know man id appear news stations guaranteed better now im normal started taking road trips girlfriend friends absolute blast loved every single minute girlfriend shittest asked watch porn said yes insecurity grown massively even attempted redflag willing compromise wanted straight stop watching porn wouldnt initially going talk fueled anger made vile human thats wanting selfishly kill decided stop texted girlfriend right broke terrible way possible im emotionally hurting much right now want might kill cant fucking handle anymore great time loved much im fucking crying much feel pathetic maybe needed ive never felt sad feels wonderful cry finally feel something someone validate rn im pain keep seeing ppl transphobic nonbinary people pls need validation ill cry lt quick need name girl likes spiders little much sleeping arsonist wack okay aborted anything end myselfhello year old chronic pain neuralgia neck lower back pain shoots left leg kyphoscoliosis cystic acne scars skin back chest shoulders face bad teeth low cognitive abilites psyhical ones many genetic faults aborted feel end low performing unit already started searching best methods lets find anything thisi belive even nothing suffering yes pleasure suffering always greater amount pleasure anyone says good west west se europe barely making money basic costs living casual last messageeverythings fake pain life worth rain death choice decided make end voice hope hope still flame good bye looking optionsso im sure options try go therapy anymore want institutionalize tried therapy want ect cant call hotline anymore need distraction somebody talk call police cant talk friends anymore call police tried medication nothing give massive headaches hours cant try tried exercise three years anything tried vitamin supplements anything know try want die sometimes break head things nobody see bruises hair helps minutes want finish right now cant want hurt family cant go therapy dont tell try another shrink ive tried many sick cruel joke try another absolutely refuse drugs work exercise work food work refuse submit institution go ect ive years tell better know try sometimes im cringy person dont stop talking make lot jokes end talking time especially around girl embarrassing idk ppl shy opposite problem overshare got ta take deep breath lol never asked thiseveryone thinks im lucky im bored life ive tried plenty things nothing interests dont want responsibility want stop existing grew poor family immigrants dad worked seems support older half brother sister mother mom beat brother slightest mistakes shared room sister fucking clueless always thought reason mom beating brother sister fucking clueless always thought brother deserved got didnt shed ask world dad dad overly nice guy damnedest provide even thought debt time got high school still wanted private piano lessons car chearleading team go competitions brother became meth heroin addict wasnt allowed hang friends join teams dangerous god forbid drugs end brother joined army booted two years racist platoon sgt nothing better time army two dads uncles died left gtmil tried college thing got useless psychology bachelors nothing interests thought psy might trick didnt psychology isnt real science everything theories never hold repeated testing results taken context applied broadly want stop existing run away antarctica fall asleep blanket snow maybe try climb everest become fail becoming another macabre landmark adventurers come kill disappear father crestfallen hes nice siblings take advantage leave wish go sleep never wake hey everyone need vent need friend helps help others anyone needs someone talk need name im writing story need name character character female helps filller filler filler filler filler gtveronica open open door please veronica open door lt filller filler women arent funny tell joke make laugh isnt self deprecating really tryi wanted love happy really dont think ill im tired living way dont see another option think redflag way ill free happy thing cant sudden guess ill take time really numb accept drift entirely life finally go never happy alive body days numbered good enoughnot good anything parents hate said life easier born mom failed nurse put college raise dad old man already getting pension always big dreams hopes bad suck everything bad grades matter much study barley run let alone anything athletic sense art music anything artistic struggle everyday tasks anxiety depression live country lesbian apart lgbt community considered disgusting sin matter much try much pray going failure kill let capable normal human space recourses shitty planet wish everyone world feel pain feelevery day preoccupied suicidal ideas thoughts gone day without thinking kill year even staring belt metal bar closet wanting hang self sliver wants survive another redflag attempt see peoples reaction much pain make everyone world experience im feeling understand sooner later going love mesadly come dead day mind last day hell earth easter last day alive really want maybe please hopefully someone words might able help really really sorry long need outim year old indian man grown quite traditional household uk means mental health always taboo subject never brought issues parents think level might know experienced issues capacity given done lot reading subject done charity work mental health charities etc part wonders upbringing makes obvious believe true problem sorted hugso went good school excellent university great grades show great social skills front whenever need good job took two years moved japan moved back month ago living parents first time yearssomething wrong feel mentally fragile time nothing gets mental strength run rolling day cycle feeling ok heavy useless backstory grew friends situation actually remember recently realised sdam inability remember anything recent years always saw positive whatever past beyond university always felt completely mentally strong time found infidelity father person felt close time excluding brother person id call anything went wrong fortunately trust issues compensated finding first love time moved america compensated drinking excessively entire year pretty much joining frat drinking troubles away year without talking family year concluded breaking girlfriend time due lies infidelity side back uk finish studies started work years initial getting trust ex years probably strongest life felt confident trust issues thought regained relationship family friends great job great house good circle friends great round timethen went japan first months life exciting new city new culture incredible new career learning much found love nd time happened covid quarantine went incredible comfortable months life someone people say connect way never experienced time finding truly someone feel relationship reciprocated rare excited slowly next year half turned steady comfortable relationship different people somehow worked think slowed much needed way although good times previously mentally strong highfunctioning probably needed someone lived bringing back healthier version strong mindhowever halftruths lies past side next months sort put damper made continually question relationship thing time round although condoning actually see logic lies clearest mind see still confident future together malicious intent long story short year constant rumination mental battles issues mainly trust whenever stuck thinking takes weeks even months regresses back worst depressive states although know true think rather actual issues relationship think underlying issues previous trust broken father first love put position although want let go past new relationship struggle trust screws whole mindthese ruminations kept bay japan still surrounded loving relationship meditation yoga surfing keep mind clear possible although often getting stuck found getting much quicker way really almost limit longevity relationship mind limit much hurt caused become unfunctional human back uk month stuck beyond belief feel thought loops stuck head find going thing conversations brain trying apply logic mentally weigh beyond belief continually ruin daytoday life bring things helped yoga meditation everything gets stuck way live know back parents home long relationship lack trust lack job culture shock think idle mind devils plaything seems playing relationship view ruining mindnow every interaction leads state mental instability today parents came back day told bought new bedsheets gift prospect anything new surprise ordinary breaks walk away saying want half angry trying hold back tears crumbing mentallythen angry acting dick face kind gesture people love mei know nothing feels helps want anything stay bed day torn putting brave face parents see want back healthy self point life know itif anyone read maybe provide help something something focus anyone something similar even someone talk really appreciativei really sorry long post know continue life send photos links photos irl tank ill best identify multiple submissions cool meds unintentionally spending lot time around narcissistic family due easter called sick today made mistake think job risk high panic mode feeling options moving forward limitedive trying strong last little whilei work great place unfortunately toxic bullshit usually handle top easter ive lot pressure dont good relationship family damaging self worth ive endure passive aggressive bullshit weekend ive meds ive scatterbrained really affect im sick stomach self destructive eating anxiety im experiencing called sick work today didnt realize second time ive called monday im still days boss pissed texted back let know wouldnt kidding sick monday need serious conversation tomorrow texted back understood said dont think lets chat tomorrow feel im weak called im weak coping better family work pressures lose job wont first ive lost due loss motivation constant stress outside work everyone around tired hearing excuses going work think lazy dont know dont sleep anxiety controlled life im tired fighting fighting family fighting every day think im weak think im pathetic theyre right cant handle mundane daytoday handle rest life im scared im going make another bad choice may ultimately good one whether pills cut never hold image im fully functioning person long someone please help im scared im going lose job im going give free award make wan na give rules lost sense smell due covid stupidity science class probably different everyonesuicidal feelings different people thats something important note may see post think must faking cant relate theyre saying people full breakdowns others quick intrusive thoughts everyones trauma different expressed differently regardless people deserve listened helped even seem serious one thought enough remove another good person planet stay safe ok im gon na rant please ignore fuck school fuck fuck fuck ms larda give fuck ton papers expect us finish single fucking day know classes give homework expect us pass pm today fuck wrong fuck fuck fuck fuck fucking serious word essay fuck im tired shit im things better redflag attempt failedive debating whether say anything really vulnerable feel im going try want someone know story real story go pages list everything ill try sum ill honest want die want things better know deep wont sorry bad grammar repeat im bad words long story previous posts ive deleted redditors commented post long want im depressed recently ill try sum much possible ampxb main points bullying peers bullying professors getting good grades dream internship lost friends feeling one cares rich dad different state financially help lot money buy christmas presents really feeling everything fault feel better ended broken ampxb last year bullied college school policy roommate kills themself class told continued bully point stared barked im furry think fucked dogs barking seen without emotionally abusedrude comments etc small dorms campus highschool popular kid party stayed dorm watching netflix studying grandmother passed away dropped semester due bullying sucks really want go neuroscience professor getting fired algebra give us enormous assignments question writeout homework questions finals week valentines day gave us questions due night multiple step writeouts guess little happiness got class average one pass class eventually fired year probably worst year life said last year think worse want suffering end college multiple campuses switched campuses far one wanted bullying stop new year new outlook well thats psycho professor comes human biology favorite subject good hes type guy says opinions facts wanted polite really want drama wanted hopefully ask reference internship dying goes well high ss gave participation grade go office speak eventually agrees give feel fine weeks later gives us project email question says emailed question taking points project yes really silly syllabus negative question people double check think bad thing email professor project bring advisor threatening dock points emailed question says done nasty stuff past first semester first year teaching bring head science department asked said something actually old bio teacher knew work ethic bullying went campuses project came added new peers grade peers criteria remember projects came us came group added new grading criteria project started berating asking questions answered correctly say prions brain btw stuff end walked class take berating lying making feel awful even us call students see repeat back said student called perfectly ones back called student got right thats walked told class left hold grudges students gave s s give full credit bonus contacted head dean nothing even response one anything purposely failed proof stealing points grades giving unfair grades taking points reason even changed old assignments one two points took final today try know fail dean anything bragging favorite professor actually reported bragging failing wtf illegal old professor head science department told phone love reference internship apologized psychotic teacher contacted days ago still willing help never responded professors willing help one made bet final got busy spending hours vocab words psycho teacher pointless regret give full credit reference number promised hugged never showed day supposed information references gone bums actually breaks heart kicked ass internship figured time another job work library needed another job dad left need help take care mom began working dollmart rhymes certain chain store dad left help financially really much money christmas work butt first arrive everything seems dandy start working jerk asshole say hazing first day constant making hard work telling bad job continues ive claim break eggs took photographic evidence reported putting gallons milk pm milk customers purchase last minutes shift zoned hours pretending busy figured id put milk customers milk anyone buy instead thanked threatened boss helping customers pm stocking even milk apparently coworkers mean try talk stressed college fact go breakroom talk im worried ill mess things hurt people hide read reddit lunch break bestfriend left close friend left move different states anyone decided im going kill grabbed bottle vitamin pills stupid retrospect chugged bottle waited began feel really really weird took nap figured id die though woke feeling really sick crappy life came back minutes thought well maybe sign keep going thats keep going help im back square one job trouble trying best customer service school professor obviously illegal ignored friends leaving enjoy new lives dream internship ampxb sorry timelines seem weird put order ampxb sorry even writing feel dumb notice im losing itmy freaking boyfriend always busy something blame hes chipper productive dude notice much pain im actually talk much general anymore hard full attention either way send away mystery miss company much left today injured neck barely move ive bed day eaten yet really plan keep suicidal thoughts even though im brave enough anything sometimes feel people miss much hardly even talk first fucking place goes everyone missing nothing ive lost keep making mistakes never learnim always saying wrong things never learn experiences im scared future talk middle school crush idk contemplating talking telling used make life interesting plan living life longerim m currently th grade months im expected college dread every month upcoming college years transition early adult life relatively good average grades throughout highschool parents still see smart child know im barely keeping together school expect much want become even know want cant even picture future without dead thats goals life im limited high earning careers choice becoming something feel im becoming stuck course career want want nothing lately ive becoming worn tired everything cant school requirements done time cant focus studies without distracted addicted whatever videogame im playing let group mates research paper without making progress far failed student group leader son want die now immediately almost passive redflag thoughts everyday becoming active actively planning eventual redflag want face living life future knowing ill fail harder spiral downwards shit hole sharp pain parts body think redflagi weird sharp pain body think offing one common common called want die due failure lifei feel everything ends failure even bother live masters degree cybersecurity turned waste trying better failure turns degrees amount anything modern era anyone tell college going useless late bloomer peers well except always runt litter hate much really want die hate failure unemployed took gigantic risk threemonth cybersecurity contract quit job fast forward unemployed really want work technology one hiring even masters cyber security die due failure whos wasted youth attack titan wouldve happily waited months season doesnt look drank cup coffee start feeling sleepy dude pm ridiculous reason left livei run reasons continue live completely numb life everything around pray death every night know everyday wake another day pain want someone something know herei cant take crushing loneliness anymore friends family im sick work stare four walls day anything fills horror going anyone finds remember last time even conversation good place leave note universe saying may defective human unit still felt something brief period recognize totally steal ulovelytoasterbath uwu changed user flair time seventeen gang finally rise f oosu unlike jishe koood lips one friends calling kittybaby girl joke making uncomfortably horny send halp able cry long time way norm past month felt something bottled within suffocating finally cried think cry probably stretch tear seconds felt anger dissolve little tiring deal shit time feel shitty shitty shit think normal people thinking ending much cried today want kill dont want thati want daydream happy things want able open people close want able live normal life people actually simping thats bad taste bruh ready give trying depression bs far long now years counseling medication lifestyle changes including healthier diet exercising meditation attempts connecting people attempts pursuing hobbies going trying new things activei keep anymore need something change lonely tired hopeless hanging thread right now feel im brink iti went counseling yesterday evaluated long struggle past many triggers made decide go ive crisis back may almost voluntarily admitted hospital addition recent breakup almost traumatic mei cry every single day think three months still cry every day start grad school monday feeling impostor syndrome feel im unqualified position roommates intervention theyve noticed ive acting strangely lashing ive noticed ive isolating avoid complications taken social withdrawal offense intervention told problems notes still seemed invalidate felt im sure look forward future depressed half life now crisis counselor asked baseline couldnt tell ive depressed long feel placed medications probably try overdose im sure now swear god family start knocking im going start locking door family people usually knock bothers lot one knocks im room one knocks im bathroom okay guess privacy respected general sister conditioned always knock pretty pissed didnt somehow parents care comes knocking door smoke weed smoke possibly crappy example want privacy changing minutes ago late evening mum comes wandering taking clothes might imagine nice situation came minutes later still without knocking told reason id really appreciate family knocking door first may uncomfortable unpleasant situation eh im going knock ill cue many filler words finish sentence see anything anyways walked girls locker room told eh see anything keep trouble start locking door handle going turn without knocking may add followed knocking parent outside asking lock door drugs father dearest start locking door talk id prefer imagination come uhm stuff something entirely different im really annoyed want rectify actions every day start locking door spent last two years real low everything control life organized really put work finish trade school best grades manage find work even though sure something contribute employers look longtermdepression cv kept sent applications tried good habits going exercising every day really good upturn confident break year intense depression accident made incapable walking weeks definitely exercise longer scared determined support family father suddenly died tore apart really bad put anything together months always knew done good feel happy content minimum wage work try schedule going helps together work horrible though working help motivate try even harder work trade actually managed find job perfect everything wanted people really appreciated work struggled past month already changed lot picking pace today fired company broke really want crash scared unemployment bad anyway thanks reading rant keep working best drown struggle pristiq overdosecurious anyone knows effects pristiq overdose ive come decision want end life want know much pristiq take complete task way dying thinkkind obvious title idk lot say intake appointment clinic tomorrow see therapist much less psychiatrist least another week know ill make long im empty shell human debtors literally kicking doors im scared answer phone ive let everything control supposed dispose pills know redflag overdose sure thing fact one least sure things ive attempted care little really care live die time haha anyway thx reading bothered going th birthdayto cut chase im clinically depressed live third world country mental illness compared hiv meds bec parents cant afford im trying hard live life day day burden anyone eat healthy go gym take care sick dad even work part time still triggered experience episodes light cutting wrist sharp object find times episodes bad id lock room days id take sleeping pills alcohol im trying really hard live life heres catch laptop got stolen months ago along files pictures memories lets focus pictures pretty provocative pictures normal young adult goes gym see progress someone messages facebook tells something might interest sends screen capture gallery told accept friend request deactivate block willbe instantly posted big bad dark web facebook yeah provocative pictures plus facebook family friends yey feast right please laugh effort try sarcasm yeah hes blackmailing dummy account hes blackmailing girl depression hes blackmailing still know wants one thing sure bidding feel helpless sad numb feels life mean bully im joke feel joke least someone laughing right birthday coming october go town trip best friends thats days might live see th birthday ive never watched spongebob watched lot shows people seem seen kids dna weird im places basics parents percent random place time ran start lifei failure incredibly upset let point battled alcohol s know signs steps well versed addictions yet absolutely rock bottom single isolated destroyed whatever relationships jealousy infidelity absolute hate cant stop looking porn every days nice porn act absolute douche tinder try play nice real profile gets results cocky f boy gets results hell desperately lonely guy moved rural officially killed chance real life dating everyone living married kids healthy sexuality way open relationship healthy destructive cant take anymore hate alone hate yet nothing feels right cant stand thought alone forever im fuck world fuck everyone let last post scattered everywhere let warning younger things life time sensitive putting issue long created insurmountable problem cant live forever unfortunately ran time change day listening supertramps crime century going bed asylum kinda bop tho hide shell amazing crime century song meh honestly began cutting first timethe past week much emotionally ive never state depression hate fucking much literally cant talk anyone without called overdramatic pussy shitty past week combined family issues last straw cut left arm twice result amount selfhatred wish go back time fix mistakes made regain dignity fuck life im dumbest fucking idiot alive reason im vacuuming hear screaming background reason anyways ima lawnmower post status update soon keep trying overdose body feels weaki think slowly dying body feels weak vomiting blood last night dont feel well feel person anymore dont feel anymore im dying ive panic attacks lately cant control thoughts feel im going dark path idea stop feel fucking alone empty ive fucking sad lately im glad im dying experiment placebo effect going bedroom sister took pillow two pillows uncomfortable now pillow took extremely comfortable felt lot happier said took pillow back started grumpy threw pillows floor started mumbling stuff couldnt hear became extremely upset pillow young thought interesting experiment doesnt think lot stuff changed pillow covers cover gave back seemed delighted started blabbering comfortable pillow hurt neck whereas one perfect thought pillow took whereas reality pillow complaining happily snoring intention telling interesting brain works hello peoplehi im much pussy kill think even valid place anyway ive recently started new therapist last two quit feeling better school ending everytime appointment lose emotions anxious easily irritable want talk problems always feel theyre enough actually make anyone care worst part emptiness mixed dissociation sometimes feel sweet nothing im body followed feeling anxiety generally negative feel bitch wishing depression worse wish motivation people really care need antidepressants anyway partially look forward things might make happy partially wan na kill everyday worst problems world hate fact laugh ass anything actually feel anything sad eooukd nice talk people dont tired listening want help first girlfriend broke idk hard move cause first girlfriend idk ive crying last two weeks sleep day awake nightanyone empty shell spend time bed usually crying im awake seem stop crying every single day especially night want go back feeling empty tired sadness want stop hour tired crying thank yall usually lurk around ive almost years fun final year teenage weird usually funny sometimes deep stuff ive found always made feel welcome cheered thank rteenagers welcoming immature atleast ps still lurk wil creepy im teen anymore im ready go im calm makes even certaini dealt lot life im sparing details suspect elaborate id receive messages saying ive come far ive proven stand hardships etc etc abused throughout childhood poor life etc gotten nothing im accepting future want life option really continuing kind work part time college food service first job lab gave presentations awards ive worked many labs ive done many things even cant fucking internship im fucking idiot current job makes feel legitimately subhuman cry whenever work feel worthless ambitions ive put much work fulfilling itll end ruins government planning massively tax graduate school options already already knew think gpa really want graduate degrees seem burden anything want work lab even care make meager money long afford studio apartment take pride work pride work right now foresee even finding job graduate little year cant even second internship already one gave offer back said thought broaden horizons ive lost luck set safe ruined bottle barbituates chronic migraines made map entire future different tendrils might take none lead anywhere positive options spent future im obligated work packmule serve professionals better lives mine rest life cant make one im afraid die consider im act defiance refuse live survival mode sake people empathy towards wanted fulfilling life wanted loved even pay well wanted cultivate image develop hobbies make friends never happen work deadend job rest life honestly question anyone anyone continues living life barring children spouses want fulfilling life want death never fulfilling life im stopping train derails sense im derailing least im control discover song completely relate talk self think need help help im nanana okay im nanana okay im bad health health heads shelf shelf im nanana okay im nanana okay sing self needs well well im nanana okay im nanana okay ampxb ampxb ampxb promise enough karma account post girls grade take care mental health hesitate talk leave hey seen thomas never seen bullshit wan na see ghost come ghosty hate vagina hate physically female advice hey im yo agender afab ive recently struggling lot dysphoria surrounding genitals im looking removed soon even soonest month want genitals surgery goes well ill nothing smooth crotch doll hole urine currently ive struggling dysphoria lot feel im deformed im constantly forced dress girl open wound legs seriously super hard functioning right now often distressing masturbate change use toilet shower genitals body day subway bacame acutely aware fact genitals aware felt wearing underwear fault pants incredibly painful even express people subway one many examples weird turned see girls vagina im distressed anyone advice deal theres ways im able cope genitals right now somewhat new minecraft question got new pc christmas got minecraft sort played never made deep run days later stockpiled blocks worth iron found diamonds excluding turned pick im preparing nether question smarter make armour diamonds tools diamond pick break enough iron make new set armour go iron tools make diamond armour whats pick heysoi things mind sorry bad english much sadness inside feel right feel sad bad feel nothing feel better nothing anyone help either recall geniunely happy never thought know times felt glad maybe even cheerful never lasted everything went back gray happiness really necessary even possible become worst posible version cant explain people loved love anymore unlovable maybe ones still even likelove facade everyday mask go away knew real broken unstable real really need want die want live life way want leave brothers right know want stay either wish wasi know far drinking tea reading amazing book actually making feel something forget worldi even feel anymore coming back home maybe alone maybe company proud happy home happy place spend hours daydreaming nothing daydream life better never better anything imaginary mind come tomorrow woke everything keep sadness nothing make think maybe current life bad maybe wasting time maybe someday happy way spent lived best years nothing cant feel anything good ampxb ampxb watched movies girlfriend time say best time mainly know ned kelly storybr br biopic important least know expect characterbr br know manner events told true everything fictional way ned kelly portrayed hero fighter justice really makes want believe everything true think hes portrayed redneck criminal thief thats opinionbr br solid westerntype movie everybodys tastes heath ledger great always sexy naomi watts charms screenbr br give movie chance airs cable think recommend think im okayive offline getting meds check seeing therapist self harmed voices quieted im able sleep little better night things really looking thank helping even bit last months thank well ive got catching looking back lacklustre year best show shone great storyline little action cavalcade magnificent characters particular reference fred willard jim piddock rattling pair tv commentators well done well worth effortbr br ron viewed mar crazy expensive old pokemon games games older generally cheaper yet pokemon opposite pokemon soulsilver even though year old game pokemon black white now prices used games crazy got point old video games skyrocketing price low supply things n stuff yo im really sick people talking things know shit getting panties twost tell something irritating total failure nothing show life chance better future feeling never meant alive yall want porn ya go httpsporncompornhubhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq either sweetest person met twisted fucking cycle path filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler dont knowno one loves much likes die byei try give love everyone nobody cares trying understand might shut going lot die anyone even pretends care go hell beg understanding beg someone understand live life feel dead body walking everyone seems take pain trivialize im done trying explain show anyone truly feel inside goodbye thinking uh fuck za handos left hand make good boyfriend really know expecting think need type outcurrently sitting car parking lot one hour stay least one hour going home told boyfriend id gone couple hours let house got fight yesterday didnt come bed assumed id asleep morning stayed upstairs whole time pretty much avoid left give space isnt major problem hurtful isolating zero friends family lives miles away rarely reach anymore kind feels one whole solution fight apologizing happy welcoming cant issues guess want come dont want let leave didnt care probably prefers gone isnt major problem think cherry top everything ive thinking killing seriously week now thoughts life usually serious though still exhausting functional person functional cant anything life bare minimum simply dont energy really tired living pain fear every single day tried pull bootstraps make life better end cant ive tried medication best makes numb doesnt really fix anything ive tried therapy good things end still solves nothing started thanksgiving boyfriends family bad toothache lo behold sisterinlaw nurse decided call pain meds tbh happy ibuprofen big bottle tramadol sitting drawer never took im kind antimedicine felt knock cant quit thinking giving taking whole bottle pills researched actually causes lot deaths every year overdoses think work real option issue doesnt theres chance end coma give brain damage heart damage dont want fuck life even losing endurance planet almost years now really sucks life fun happy good difficult everyone hurts everyone selfish included good place think prefer nothingness know many people care read still alive guessanyone feeling dead insidelike waiting something push life cliff still alive anyone offer advice thoughts anythingi figure place people might diverse opinions experiences biological depression aka im little cause got broken im debt etc top intense atheism scientific deterministic perspective quantities intelligence sufficient detrimental think might main problems see reason exist things fun simply waiting forsomething idea death chance deal continuous internal dialogue somehow withdraw sit around rot without deal mind whole time frustration life search meaning really none whatsoever hobbies theyre distractions enjoyments enjoy understand people function day day every hour spend conscious feels last meters kbut never ends killing due excess emotion cant deal lack emotion investment anything throwing hands defeat fact one nothing exists reason existence existence really grating nerves freaking years old therapist need asking brushed fking teefersi want know felt ask want know intricate detail emotions going head asked thati mean put position client oral hygiene practice due never something reinforced child going head ready ask questioni want ask brushing teeth twinge insecurity words say want put much pressure client maybe make cutsie sound quite badly maybe feel treating child essentially grown manchild brush teeth maybe sneak slight dig motivate morethose immediate thoughts come mind yet use word teefers time later session attempt compliment deep discussions usually thinks smart yeah one things one things belong let us realistic repeating cyclesi meant hand masters dissertation week past two months ive done nothing adhd working home impossible constant arguments girlfriend repeat cycles ill always repeat cycles matter stress adrenaline rush reconciliation repeats blocks wonders im unable focus literally anything im done last time cant see end cycle im addicted never disappears merges something new im taking control last night gave permissioni chambered round revolver spun wheel perhaps practicing building nerve ive wrestling years ive alone long ghosted many women interested want feel pit stomach anymore im tired put facade confidence im scared death fear ill longer attractive im tired waiting shoe drop im tired goddamn scared alone rest life ive decided really want go route permission keep feeling awful whenever even remotely close someone watch lose interest vanish even promising even ive remained aloof extremely depressedsuicidal years finally 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make friends matter much try relate people sick sick trying waiting things different tired seeing therapist getting nothing one feel pay listen ramble hour every two weeks easy tell people give tians remake good click remake documentary see wei wei original actress back classic film say words crew going meet wei wei sunday showing xiao cheng zhi chun hong kong film archiev wei wei almost years old silver hair cameo appearance hong kong films always surprise fans years hong kong film festival special program dedicated fei mu director epic movie wei weis still shot movie seen around hong kong son turns year surprised wei wei beautiful featuring fascinating performance smith story tugs heartstrings harder rock guitarist midsolo seven pounds races past directors previous collaboration actor pursuit happiness flick loved remember gabriele muccinos name movies may skip unnoticed actor attached project quite highprofile br br bad figured smiths scheme early put two two together calls suicide first scene scene rosario dawsons character introduced incurable heartdiseasebr br still think writerdirector made right choice putting bookends bookends first last scene way source urgency tension movie finding gradually exactly man driven ultimate sacrifice heartbreaking see relationship smiths dawsons character flourish develop knowing back mind always store unlucky twobr br one friends saw movie thought smiths character divine gift understand performance almost angelic presence seven elected ones yet times harsh scary hes alone full weight situation got much breaks completely quite versatile performancebr br lastly cant forget mention crash scene reenactment really quite stunningly done terms cinematography paired music put list used sad thinking ive rationalized ive accepted thanks trying help anyone wan na play number game im bored lmao dm ill answer uhh bored ill idk anyone tell sometjing im pool none mu friends dont wan na water gorging variety seemingly immature movies purchased exrental dvds figured time right little serious drama better provide sam mendes number reasons american beauty appeal much film easily darkest thing tom hanks done probably one underrated films last decade simple gangster tale lifted graphic novel origins simply wonderful watch despite usual allergy film tom hanks name still cant watch big without wanting cat kick im glad gave try one movies kick miss itbr br normally squeakyclean hanks plays michael sullivan devoted family man father two sons growing prohibition early s professional hitman mob boss john rooney paul newman managed keep job secret sons eldest tyler hoechlin witnesses dad involved mob killing pair forced go run john seeks tidy matter soon father son pursued chicago fellow hitman menacing jude law waiting thembr br face reads pretty standard gangster film ive said really gangsters relationship father son thrown together tragic circumstances hanks grits teeth superb tortured man finds everything price little hoechlin good sullivans son honesty single performance single weaker others cast pretty much faultless cinematography costumes often praise costumes recreates s stunning effect much effort everything right pays spades easily looked rubbish admit early s look difficult put deserves every bit credit chicago especially looks fantastic lined hundreds rickety cars era filled people monochrome suits hats true timetravel even little cgi neededbr br story winner offering human face often seen stereotypical genre movie villain law surprisingly menacing almost mechanical killer maguire proves cagney de niro brando play gangster film decidedly noirish driving rain illlit warehouses predominate least violence killing finally seen emotional psychological impact perpetrate merely witness acts whole thing evocative previous age previous movies sweeps away old refreshes modern tale redemption amid tommygun shootouts extortion rackets feel little slow places especially used masses gunplay movies modern audiences truly sometimes words speak louder actions mendes delivered fine followup oscarwinning debut film intelligent beautiful watch road perdition may everyones tastes one dvd exchanging anytime soon think im tail end boutim almost always depressed last month worst feel part snapped heal im bit better now though im back normal depression least marginally manageable im gon na anything bad least yet thought id post case anyone worried know anyone experienced suicidal thoughts sake randomly thinking almost glorifying head weird suicidal ideation reason good evil worldive pain suffering nearly everyday life thinking go away seems redflag option right thoughts till god brought light humans hurt think hurt brought kind suffering kind pain thoughts answer always humans believe evil believe good good commit redflag nothing good leave world want bring good evil world jesus young knew name truly prayed asked show guidance truth words bible learned live ask one thing search christ pray ask guidance ask come life may least bring good evil world something good leave world people one suffering suffer evil live spirit flesh pray truly need endure unto end saved matthew easier camel go eye needle rich man enter kingdom god mark fucked last time feel fix lifenot sure wtf anymore even put forgive doesnt belong tldr used play college sports cheated longterm long distance relationship never able stop years even though wanted ive caught cheating many times forgive want live anymore even though completely aware awful everyone know love basically crisis contemplating ending life past two weeks think ridiculous stupid feel feeling way entirely find asking internally well didnt see happening now ex girlfriend years finally given trying make relationship work spite issues infidelity understand cant process accept know caught cheating multiple occasions time feel managed grow move never really addressed issues associated problems relationship despite insistence knew something wrong talking trying find way move past always resulted blaming collection small anecdotal incidents resulted resentment miscommunication always felt tried take burden responsibility fault look mirror see someone longer wish changes wish make seem impossible point ive ruined whatever good feel left world imagine looks lense worse considering finally hit threshold tells never girlfriend trust know circumstances unreasonable selfish fuck even considering killing know responsible misery position accept things accept actions left impressions feelings fix immediate foreseeable future know follow probably killing mother older widow looks world know people still feel attachment world care spite ive done crushed take life addict ive addictive personality whole life ive known enough habits family history life though managed mostly avoid addictions deemed harmful hard drugs gambling ive actively told dislike without really letting open experience trying long time addicted alcohol kept manageable obsessed football playing career ended find temporary addictions hobbies pick week two immense passion forget lose interest weeks later biggest addiction wish kept better check involves sexual addiction even prepuberty feel aware watching porn via internet albeit poor dialup connection home short time parents work computers girlfriend started dating sex year dating definitely rushed ready maybe first year seemed genuine hesitance keep sex hard us arrange feasible location comfortable accommodating addicted willing sex anywhere asked suggested constantly legitimately took high school classes together give handjob desk almost every day still wanted one point suggested wanted sex much find another girl knew wasnt suggestion much active choice someone lead path using internet explore sexual fantasies first chat rooms message boards progressing time actually texting video chatting women time freshman college freshman year started increase frequency lived another state thought secret sidefantasy play enjoy without hurting feelings eventually lead actually meeting girl aware relationship urges wanted sex without attachments piecesofshit gave selfishness without really considering girlfriend besides wrongly justifying sexual experiences burden thing considered possibly giving std wish say rooted intent live safe healthy lifestyle much feared caught requested see recent test results girl wore condom sexual relationship happened times felt tremendous amount guilt experience left addicted browsing craigslist various dating sites nsa hookups ultimately hooked two girls year girlfriend moved went school year later thought let things go resume normal relationship put aside infidelity eventually found girls freshman year fact randomly met made friends first girl finding happened eventually worked things insisted purely sexual past cycle developed periodically almost every year two find slipping back old ways either cheating getting caught textingemailing women honest dont know many different times situations think wish addressed time see tried redistribute shame blame things weshe control want end life stop thinking mistakes made recent failure lifes attempts maintain faithful sexual relationship result schedules growing depression felt car accident november left questioning life value convinced somehow healthier find discrete fuckbuddy instead address lack sex affection life person actually loved coward know feared rejection judgement felt disinterested things wanted try even find repulsive long story short weeks ago found texts even photos broken whatever previous forgiveness mustered logically even imagine possible future cant head actually wrap around reality least reality want part cant ask take back mean isnt gon na happen know asked least plan potentially move forward live together seems accept friend even put idea getting back together realm possibility hurts past two weeks still attended two weddings planning go went together maintaining appearance friends family things okay impression total lie felt trying make situation work eventually try work without making publicly known issues bringing directly see saw differently thought strong feelings felt still enjoying others company probably mutual coping going maybe hardest week work life responsibilities requests pressure compiling seemingly insurmountable life obstacle almost support system im starting care really dont know want role im company wanted job maintain life sanity things feel gone looking left life moving forward see nothing disappointment missed opportunities reaching friends even family able articulate dangerous finite mindset sure proceed smart enough know need help strong enough admit others know need help expect deserve want want another chance think deserve even life im going lose job feels reach final chapterim civil servant government transferred another department end last year previous department making money good annual reviews decided take pay decrease job backend wouldnt deal clients directly thought help anxiety wanted broaden horizons gain skills service thought job easier interesting difficult ive managerial review getting cases checked manager working independently yet make lot errors new program difficult grasp adhd unmedicated training plus work almost two months still learning due quarantine old job organized one manual mess parts memorize without rhyme reason sixty days improve work per performance plan succeed demoted type person pushes carts around day considering im nearly crippled due health issues really bad plus wild rds make now live expensive state college degree never earn amount money now work grocery store something cause entire family become homeless went psych hospital year ago two weeks wanted jump front train walked halfway train station turned back ive thinking part head blow guarantee death luckily access guns bipolar chronically ill unhappy life talents lost friends hated entire life im holding due mom love dad family well course feel needs significant ready commit nearly decade tells im one find someone love friends theyll someday feels end lose job likely will control life never anything done right fail everything want feel complete task correctly perfectly dying hands feels way something right feel end everything againtoday hits ton bricks happened things seem going well suddenly im back thinking life isnt worth space day months feeling im getting semblance life back together today started really well somewhere along line everything went completely wrong couldnt even tell ive happen used worry depression coming back even feeling well thing thats really getting time really didnt worry returning hanging know sounds ridiculous space day suddenly feel progress ive last months pointless never let guard dare hope things different thing worries though happened many times feel inescapable know objectively lot worse isnt really anything much changed situation yesterday feeling completely fine reason find consolidation im monsterthis bothering life long time lurker first time posting feel im wits end funny thing feel super depressed anxious feel fine today albeit littleempty woke lot pain besides im perfectly okay im confused seemingly unending death wish even im okay im laughing now writing threw balance today back pain funny slight inconvenience enough make want want kill thought okay life mean im published author musician suck used straight student im anymore im university plans become doctor really plans parents plans personally want musician want music thing make feel monster hurricane katrina destroyed home excited move practically start life father stayed home mom siblings hopped state state settling without father expected new start life genuinely excited expecting molested raped im male day never truly felt young shaped today good thing ive bullied vast majority life religion im muslim always ass end ass kicking ass end bomb joke joke never really took heart kid lately coming back adult life feels th grade pe diagnosed tumor specifically hemangioma collection blood cells t vertebrae spine operated immediately year medication blood work hospital stays countless mris cat scans surgeries later cancer free never chemotherapy family want growing cancer highschool days never upset actuallyrelieved honestly thought gon na die never told anyone course deep hoped cancer kill upset relieved road trip really really need pee finally stop feel whole sensation relief taking hold body thats long went remainder highschool years neck back brace certainly help case surgeries ive great deal pain thought turn drugs take pain away drugs kinda took huge problem certainly problem hated problem im guilty crime want explain ive hurt someome sexually regard hurt sexually growing thought right thing learned learned wrong hurt poor soul probably ive hurt wish rectify mistakes god way undo entire life fucking show way im monster want end fucking circus life ive hurt im truly sorry nothing forgive wish modicum forgiveness told okay fairy tale real life real life sunshine happiness unicorns rainbows fucking dank miserable unforgiving im glad learned earlier rather later know im hope find way life wish balls want anymorei trying take legal action people video taping bathroom recording people talking lot static wanted mom pay someone clear back acted able even though know price wanted pay minor still wrong wanting financially support people still running around struggling types mental health issues feel supported wish move cant feel trapped someone care seems way death posting ara ara forget day ara ara things going hill porn ban happened tumblr idk man tumblr porn hit different ocean redflag vs sdcci want swim cant fine becoming part ecosystem makes useful ive last decade life know ill abuser extremely intensely controlling day badge sdcc amp idea badly wish instead painfully submitting death kept planning pretending something work things kept getting worse cant stand live another thing supposed never finished mercy someone elses severe mental illness never getting situation help amp leaves hope sounds trivial dumbass kills themself cant go comic con though used real toilet weeks shower months even let earn eat victim horrific abuse collapses crushing weight another hopeful escape yanked reach victim chooses walk field instead playing another forced inning abuser crying yall eyes dry amp even lump throat really good time sometimes amp eternally thankful experiences way except die accept now peace months due quarantine caught assignments exams im donei lost last two years college mental illness time around im losing quarantined online teaching poor teachers assigning multiple exams week expect perform normally clearly life meant im killing whenever dont play dog feel im breaking heart im sorry puppy need study cant play rn rape redflag sexslept two guys slept two guys basically dont even know true fwb sleep together lot even drove exam one night came invited friend drink literally woke see three used condoms ground called said sleep friend message saying fucked last night freak shit called fwb said didnt happened friend im joking happened fast forward three months later stop talking fwb roommate argument called landlord told fucked two guys house called fwb saying didnt happened u drunk loud sooooo idkkkkk couldve fucked two guys raped illl never know stressing want commit redflag mother told something happened deserved ive committed redflag three times sent hospital doesnt come visit says next time properly dont house stuff u die ill cremate dont care honestly feel ill better stupid planet feel alone reason keep going hurt familymy name adam years old fuck moved mothers times think every time lasts months year end back failed go back time planning going school vancouver moved cousin girlfriend quickly figured going work long term gf clearly hated idk sick room mates despises tell way tone changes talks way back penticton small town mother op top think mom really want back either sick stay understand increadibly unlikable mattered ended getting kicked allowed extended guests landlord gave boot top friends never loser high school never sleep another kids house think even went another kids house high school said obviously never girl friend virgin really care want gf want someone care someone cares truth even know interested girls never opportunity try feel mess experience people high school time fairly recently happy dog name ari german shepard loved win heart companion loved unconditionally always spend time ended give away place staying keep ended move able find another pet friendly place afford gave good family children still think endlessly months now find wishing never got lot better depression wise got now closing know severely depressed years want end every time mean every time think chance better goes wrong sick trying currently researching guns buyive never bought gun never gun person shot gun maybe times life im learning lot trying avoid botched attempt even reading medical papers studies selfinflicted gunshot wounds works doesnt lied therapist today said im danger never lie cant wait gone biggest fantasy want go idk want die methods yeah problem none nearby buildings come close tall want leap building pain unbearablehow feel wife tells husband feel points someone says person husband taken every risk save help taken loans loans support amount loan take year repay fought everyone everyone told leave fought person stood end person punch slap feel easy forget idea doback friends people care life haha ive suicidal day dont know feel one cares completely unfair friend suicidal stayed bed day friends including instantly went go help went bought food boyfriend helping parents drove go help everytime im suicidal everyone looks way know wrong unfair compare shit friends none even try help one even checked partner checked told suicidal said im sorry making fucking intensely upset dont know feel everyone wants dead doesnt take seriously dont know cant stop hitting cutting scratching want kill im scared dying dont know im tired alove cant die dont know die cant help im gon na lose friends partner fail classes dont know im depressed im crying reddit dont even use reddit haha wow dont know think fair eat parents cook unless youre buying honestly people dont see fair imagine cooking someone abd dont eat want yeah arent going agree listen say wan na go vegan dont include mother father whoever going vegan question unless youre making money cant eat whats cooked didnt tell family wanted vegan woke said im vegan still eat dairy product family gon hmm became something couldnt eat used regular dont money pay involve people paying think maybe wait soon youll able eat wantim waiting eat chicken nuggies idk ab u guys movie damian szifrns second immersion movies excellent character study el fondo del mar tiempo de valientes creates extremely well done characters far away prototypes unprecedented chemistry ive seen szifrons talent present every character lighthearted way enough involve us emotionally control magnificent restores movie great direction overall brilliantly polished script characters laugh cry real sentiment invite viewer join emotions evolution screenbr br spanish takes english buenos aires urban landscape night replaces hollywood sets premise interesting film daring compete hollywoods machinerybr br want see movie mainly ive never dealt endearing characters seems script suits perfectly actors vice versa really believe film making argentina really competition think life hates meim years old every day battle losing temper feel want rage destroy everything want let everything sadness anger want kill care anymore people alive torture life cant good happy people want harm im different shit part world apologize advance bad english ive bullied rd grade even teachers disliked blamed things parents may cared feel im part family rd grade got worse worse th grade tried kill first redflag attempt now regret regret failure dead now suffer people annoyed presence time parents totally different towards negative way following year got accused stealing money normal school day pe got back locker room one classmates said missed wallet five minutes later noticed another wallet pocket mine gave said somebody put pocket still know remember standing hallway whole class around ready beat yell apart things instance messaging kill hating hobbys playing videogames watching anime coding etc really important th grade brother went school im classmates hated soon began cooperate friend turned never wanted friend whole situation got worse everyday eventually stopped stopped soon got first girlfriend life changed negative way cried every night really toxic friends time deceived still picture head playing minecraft server console running background due problems wanted solve saw friends girlfriend sending private messages insulting things im sorry boyfriend know read private messages appear console im trying fix something cant anything never broke thought everything fault days birthday broke nobody talk weeks passed made friends internet today really contact anymore second relationship started got much worse looked wanted hurt started depression everything changed life got dark girlfriend tortured emotionally wouldve done everything even told flirted friend mine afterwards said im worst boyfriend said felt little uncomfortable talking lovers girlfriend said right tell ex first time broke yes second third time although broke third time finally friends joking luck life still say normal im shit die want escape life want kill soon end even know thank reading story really appreciate lt least strangers internet hate dont think care fact people hurt death anymorethat big part wouldnt commit redflag honestly dont care people life suffer death made suffer life care feelings even death thats selfish tbh didnt care whilst im earth im told care death im feeling bored ive waited years wait another felt sharing load chest ive made decision go redflag im really sure dogs rescue shes attached shes scared everyone everything look cant trust anyone take care took life ill wait shes older socialized guess feel little proud going tonight keep thinking keep repeating years calms enough take meds hope anyone feels maybe theyll repeat words well mean cant see anything getting better try another years know thanks reading daisy insomnia sucks sun rising didnt go sleep im gon na tired day sleep schedule gon na fucked forever yr old girl im honestly good person want die maybe shouldworthless good word describe im dramatic cant give people need im emotionally vacant bad things order feel something ya know tried medication therapy cant afford anymore honestly help hard describing feel wan na feel anymore im year old man cut myselfi even know tbh nothing yet find unable fight urge incredibly embarrassing considered year old emo girls attention fuck wrong sex might cool idk bur woken sleep straight fucking died literally sat bed crying begging someone something kill lmaoi feel fuckin trapped mani one want worry shit thanks reading guess method done tonight years ago never thought life lowi used lot close friends well school good family life met one person life ruined fucking hate lifeeverybody fucking hates family mocks trying desperately cling onto friends met online take fucking joke want kill killed somebody hide computer fear posts rredflagwatch found want keep posting place canvent everything sucks high school sucks face sucks fucking art sucks life sucks want happy may better solution make others happy notice everything goes well around maybe keep way hell lose friends pets fucking avoid try bite fingers despite love care family hate mock want throw fucking curb hell even born god real many others feel way dont fucking want feel way ugly bullied care others world cruel falling apart caused want diejustto die great james cagney topbilled big letters show till movies second third probably less screen time dudley digges plays eeevill reformschool potentate jimmy arrives deputy commissioner somethingorother reform reform schools slashes air hands jumps balls feet spits punchy warnersfirst national dialogue customary expected panache psychology crisp antique one warners many efforts assert place socially conscious studio run deep digges bad script requires theres quaint notion juvenile delinquents turn swell kids theyre given dash autonomy made spare fast style studio specialized never bores frankie darro got kinds onscreen trouble brief tenure warners favorite rotten street kid ideal jd handsome charismatic toughie pug nose hatefilled stare wither steel kid actor today touch want kill myselfi think better said know life completely pointless bother anymore getting really close ending parents going away days alone time say goodbye world going say goodbye everyone soon weird lately acting really weird social situations especially schools every time talk someone comfortable talking fumble breath easly talking happens talking teacher someone talk much simular thing happens stuff front people called read something breath easly reading called mathphysics problem board completely forget everything everything subject biggest problem know noticable people really obvious kind problem words hardly describe ill brief thief bagdad favorite movie child never ceased astound enchant loved film first moment saw boy six started reading arabian nights remember walking tv room middle sabus battle giant spider instantly beguiledbr br rarely much beauty magic wonder captured film sabu john justin superb dashing heros conrad veidt throughly delightful wicked villain jaffar rex ingram joy watch sardonic genie georges perinals photography best use technicolor one three credited directors michael powell filmmaker rightfully heralded critics often overlooked audiences remarkable films including matter life death aka stairway heaven red shoes one true masters camera right david lean akira kurosawa orson wellesbr br great works art beauty thief bagdad lies detail every frame magical charm story never lags characters actions always involving film never grow old everyone tells turn family things hardwhat family reason wish dead ive sitting idea killing knowing feel push needed work one knows bad fucked yetposted last night panic attack im back today everyone treating wonder theyll react know want leave comes everyone already noticed downswing mood attitude hr already spoke possibly depressed one look twice said leaving due health issues ill lose medical coverage though able see therapist cant help feel make outlook worse point leaving though id avoid embarrassment id still living life devoid meaning time spend thinking life certain pointless u describe perfect girl filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler case covid confirmed school still go thats great question girls tampons technically butt plugs terrified redflagbut time something need gon na pawn last shit gas money food thats folks meim people outside probably wouldnt able tell feel tbis way im glad want parents friends happy memorys ive struggling depression got bullied lot school way looked really didnt many friends built terrible social anxiety trust general skills continued friends really hit puberty people started talking cinfused now someone said glow stupid shit people cheered depressed round year later started self harming harmed aroujfvweird plsces going gym lot time blamed scars stretch marks muscle growth continued shit started kick started really bad body dismorphia seeing ugly lump lard every tine looked mirror even tho im v good shape ik still look mirror look fat weird im im confused body gross scars ive started lose hair due genetics meds slow give awful side affects cant take tbink final straw tured going gym eating healthy still slightly chubby im unhappy everything pillows stained tears every night im tired feeling way used worry parents react im sorry love people love mental pain much im suffering live even pass life knew onto something looked life ive lot symptoms depression feeling depressed lot point suicidal thoughts actions recently mom went doctor got therapist well today got letter mail diagnosis severe depression apparently sure information see therapist every day im redflag watch now bright side passed english test book didnt read edit apparently posted times fuck know need kind earive texted called several hotlines feel none actually listening wrong cant feel joy right now cant make anything feel okay days try positive end regret kill years agoto honest right know stuck ways useless worthless wretch human become unfit dumb dulled irritable mess person every single thing tried make happy succeed days want someone kill disappear use world anyone around go belong dead grave future talents skills lost seems destroy annoy ruin things around ampxb even bring focus mentally job feel worse tired tired utterly worthless useless job home feels everyone around despises keeps around pathetic pity ampxb days try tell redeem future good something productive deep know lie believe anymore dumb become good anything days play video games watch youtube even work thing keeps bad thoughts walking trying jump building heck walked work spent minutes almost minutes car debating whether try jump something quit job ampxb lot time know deal sort even try cope anymore feel tired lost mostly defeated ampxb felt feelings nowhere near bad time feel accomplished stronger tired times wished killed earlier least feel died feeling human ampxb know bunch incoherent rambling think trying vent either die decline mentally although feel much real person anymore dulled psychopathic shell ask random questions im bored counts social interaction degenerate loser mind used social incredibly active social media met lot incredible people one method therapist told remove potential triggers may fall back depression loop identified social media one time went improvements mood swings relatively stable became less comfortable inviting people life included isolated others still keep contact friends enthusiastic opening zzzz things improving cost father making suffer entirety middle school school ive made many good friends relationships came gone year emotionally destroyed dad retiring wants go back home town forcing whole family go finished grade entering grade school nearly years ripped apart everybody old mans fantasy im seeking emotional support whole family telling man stop baby anyone drawing suggestions im bored cant think anything draw might post stuff draw idk nothingrecently ive saddened alone feel friends know yet try help ive depressed years thought redflag held back fear people know care couple nights ago walking home alone midnight stood middle highway closed eyes nothing came walked ive told people response ive gotten doorstep please taunt know anymore either random girl called natural hair beautiful reassured antagonizing racists school switched online school public tuesday none approximately three friends classes except pe really walkrun around volleyball net today coaches took basketballs volleyballs hula hoops free day generally friends walk around perimeter gym talk free days time two class talking one another kind leaching along awkwardly obviously want kind swooped way closer want instert seem annoying mindlessly circled around gym wore natural hair today contrary normally install braids shove headscarf whats head girl got attention asked even question making fun coily hair thick c hair seems anywhere go cant escape discrimination even home mother uses perms even brush looks dirty sponge skin maybe bathed dark little circle antoagozing decided go space volleyball net far enough away bother anyone close enough game girls playing seem lost look easy target girl coming bathroom stopped second saw hair gasped thought snarky comment oh god hairs beautiful know touched heart ill wearing hair tomorrow everyday exactly samei go work come home empty house play video games bit go bed weekends stay home time go need groceries something friends never successful relationship im getting younger amazing im still alive im grateful place live stable job life shit fact day today years old found stressed makes penis size smaller advice day stressed time ask found terrible things put people terrible things escape childhood emotional stunting followed therapy medication awhile stopped thought genuinely felt better really thought didthen reminder recent giant explosion drama initially nothing dragged life hell popped againand went right back considering ending feel lonely people care believe life good sure rough bad others lot privilege life really cry help thinki think want someone agree tell making sense know say someone asked help reality cannotit justi want die want release pain pain caused others want word forget existed want end help think assistance needed got told mum birthday dad choose beer guys send best memes images raccoons maybe even thatd great woah man sucks one accepted friend group feel outcast hee hee saw cable back late s big wrestling fan saw vhs sale bin bought itbr br started training wrestler air force always go back watching see accurate portrayal people involved wrestling families friends understand us travel heartbreak etc henry winkler funny sometimes sad watch nobody understand genius creatively great way separate fonz character played happy days time plus look castwilliam daniels knight rider polly holiday alice wrestlers roddy piper chavo guerrero sr chance watch bruh imagine godlike power kill anyone manage manipulate someone killing greatest detective despite knowing real name world basically become god workshiped worldwide gtbeaten year old probably autisimlt think deserved win im sad anymore still want diei depressed maybe year kinda kept hid pretty well slowly got worse worse started seriously consider redflag hid pretty well friends started notice something wrong one night got really drunk finally told one friends feeling told rest friends took see counselor show support great everyone come ive seeing counselor ive feeling lot happier lately reason cant shake wanting die thought going see counselor becoming happy life solution want live life happy want live life depressed really know point whats craziestweirdest thing youve done money filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler finnaly happened started date crush today went dentist today forgotten pain worries quickly remembered years old ending miserable existence monthjust tired hate coexist people hate seeing people alive walking around hate ugly unable least laid hate literally everything existence wouldnt bad least stay room never acknowledge another humans existence obviously cant redflag next best choice obviously say anything fake nice anything attempting dissuade fake hell meaningful hate perhaps indifferent towards indifferent sense someone seeing garbage street view unsightly problem anyways hope miserable lives miserable peace eat shit film lyrical romantic memoir told eyes eleven year old boy living rural cuban town year castro revolution obviously genuine worthy labor love br br names cuba libre cuban blood merely attempts wrongly market action film dreaming julia makes much sense common european cinema rambo revolution merely inconvenience peoples daily lives pursuits fact alone makes film honest works dealing time period cuban historybr br excessive use voiceover narrator undermine story film makes unqualified clips hollywood 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filler dont itpeople tell kill alive change life stranger appear care person bleeding bath tub never know yet push redflag hotlines cared enough dont simply wish relieved cumbersome existence idk wanted know go man upstairs wants opinion stereotype redditors lonely always single see kind thing time find odd maybe joke im oblivious see wonder people actually selfconfidence selfesteem believe partner mean boyfriend really love believed one followed stereotype im taken think everyone find someone find special want end tonightnothing changed im depressed stuck room friends social skills gotten worse quite bad already first place sucks everything life seems great make good money great family mom sister im healthy im good looking whats point end day im feeling lonely cant keep conversation another human go days without saying word blah blah blah im done whining im omw downtown chicago jump one high scrapers right idk pandemic way life going thinking lived alone first time life may m makes decent living starting working may last year feel complete waste life space friend mom talk hours week felt joy many years see coming back tried see mental help professionals video calling therapy impossible set person visit know time pm pass bedtime feel slipping away everyone everything sleep body requires shuts lay bed night staring darkness crying seemingly reason walk around numb feels wrong feel empty emotionless time suffocated shear sadness reality getting point death seems burden something fear thing make whole know feel anymore refuse wake years still hate existenceim glad realized fantasy people call life nothing death im glad realized pointless everything young age feel privileged mindset eliminating hesitations slowly fading plans slowly unfolding soon ill another statistic fear dying despise living see one passions outweighs tweenskids fucked life yet please go way straight sutdent discourage getting good grades purposefully overstressing beyond abilities grades mistake made led wrong path hate anything report card start drug addicted way becomes normal thing bs cs become moral weapon beacuse tolerance developed parents criticize got c test made biggerthannormal fuss little going back gosh keep going long already seriously anyone stay alive life anything religion managed prove anything absolutely logical reason something exist soul god happiness chemical reactions brains insignificant species insignificant planet insignificant universe nothing matters nothing consequences stay alive whywhy im kid already planning death dads mentally abusive liquor obsessed dip shit power funny thing mom doesnt im planning death kinda rubs way another thing everything everyone hates bullied people liking anime shit friends im funniest person dont even slightest im dying inside give many hints actually complete explanations im break redflag brush joke thats fault complain people way worse lives im gon na shut lay bed help big sad need cheering dont know link funny post 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humorous scale hope meso basically feel hope future im going end disappointment im going college clue im gon na living mom regularly reminds im failure im disappointment family usually isnt verbally abusive now live nothing excites continue living going bland unfulfilling life im senior graduate plans dream life artist travel world want youtubetwitch post travel videos course unrealistic dont know ill pursue dream thing look forward escape dull future escape torment others mother isnt one noticed im failure im constantly criticized supposed great basketball player go college fucked idea lies ahead understand problems probably arent bad peoples anyone similar problems help give hope life appreciated know worthless need help reddit may best place worth shot thanks school work value blah blah blahi realized unhappy spring sat edge rooftop hours started writing goodbye notes spent least dozen nights sitting bridge looking water cant remember many people walk want crying kid problem im going back school soon think want theres point ive signed contract pay obscene amount money graduation think well itll never enough supposed really want die definitely want live know long go waiting something change things fuck supposed sit wait one day s s s realize still working whole life things make happy hard people understand wanting sleep wake uwu hai know got click heres free hug hugs things better day writing something positive happened today english class really really fun today discussed topics everyone interested made tiktok kinda thing new youtube shorts lol im curious see people think hereshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdluuajovy link curious thought worth give th tiktok remake shot instagram reels kind useless day posting random sabaton lyrics im dating someone hell make way heaven nazi lines fighting hero killed stunted socially unplugged form passion lived life without passion without skills develop around socialization path forward spent past years failing changing situation tried learn countless skills none thrived quit now really worried hurting young nephew unplugging way unplugged go hear see beauty head express fingers workout starve best body change sad time strength selfish spit gods stupid face cruel hack years totally stuck scientists behaved way hg wells confident future history quite turned way things come almost years past point wells wrote shape things come film based closer world describes ways farther awaybr br though well known players raymond massey ralph richardson cedric hardwicke cast theyre caricatures real characters main weakness film devoted wellss philosophy science solve problems rest us backward foolsbr br masseys characters two generations family holds supremely optimistic view cedric hardwicke skeptic feels man rushing far forward ralph richardson warlord arisen destruction another thirty years war fought modern weapons way atomic bomb invented poison gas deemed weapon almost destroys mankindbr br according wells science conquest never mix scientists group far world politics engage things wellss lifetime scientists certainly fled rightwing fascistic governments hitler mussolini folks order defeat subordinated allies fashioned atomic weapons ushered modern age behaved wells liked someone albert einstein headed junta scientists established new order world war ii br br wells got wrong time development apparently never envisioned computer well atomic power computer programmers far likely rulers brave new world scientists moment still things come aided direction william cameron menzies sets created offer interesting glimpse mind hg wells certainly respected thinker time though quite right shape things come today celebrating religious holiday eating chatting laughing joys almost feels realbut tomorrow finally decided going go back apartment miles away take antidepressant pills left already looked dosages tomorrow years evaporate nothingness pain misery shame loneliness never happened today surrounded family tomorrow want bleed tw guess want bleed slice feel ok ok want bleed cant please let bleed im sorry know wrong place im tired want cut went see film caution suicidal comedy seem consistent brother attempted suicide seeing devastation caused whole family know first hand crushing deal issue must say film deals way allows viewer inside someone suffering simply know stop film perfect respects subject matter importantly makes accessible masses know family humor helped us lot pain max grace portends suicidal comedy funny felt characters real vibrant extremely intelligent yet simple cuts chase appreciate give recommend writing article online class high schoolers hi im currently student journalist writing piece switch online class effect students mental health whether notsogreat home life lack counseling resources lack socialization etc piece meant centered around south florida due consent rules put place professor better already resonates really love talk experiences article please pm interested whats ur favourite drink mines ginger beer film blade master may cheap clumsy appearance sometimes shares thoughts problems way beyond era film set ator chosen one protect earth terrible weapon compared unforgettable unpredictable way atomic weapon goes obstacles witful character muscle power although quite lot say aspect movie makes surpass film conan barbarian least say quite brainless diminish ways great adventure movie conan gives ator wholesomeness shares barbarian lower budget movie film good terms setting fights time believable zor villain prisoner throughout film one interesting psychological confrontation gives tension movie even ator seems way fit task loose br br gives movie little extra scenes may look quirky worth mention fight serpent god even though gigantic puppet well handled snake good lightnings remains silhouette fight quite convincing movie climaxes unusual way quite anachronic breathtaking deltaplane sequence scene introduced properly read ator machine pretty unconvincing leads really poetic beautiful midair sequence standalone culminating point movie elevating ator place human fantasy heroes br br blade master among great fantastic movies time surprise due lacks bigger surprise considering philosophical way chooses confrontation good evil truth speaks heart shows movie unwlecomed suggest every fan genre try take seriously intelligent movie thats taken seriously seems im strong enoughim strong enough live cant take anymore barely friends last thing want burden problems suicidal thoughts im strong enough want die instead building emergency fund buy boat emergency need money quick sell boat boats known secure investments gain value cost almost nothing maintain boats probably reason im broke af movie kept constantly entertained comparing serial mom mr waters gone back grittier side nearly polishedbr br dark side message success fame changes person importantly changes people around youbr br false moment filmbr br characters somewhat cartoonish want believe mr waters trying achievebr br fascinating watch mr waters evolved truly finest work anyone burlington new jersey im wondering anyone actually goes school brother playing scp secret laboratory rn said hello mtf today chilling phone blurted im good thanks ik talking two different kinds mtf really funny regrets guys missed spanish lessons theres black suv pulling driveway please help among us code qjpoqq fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller welp im back square onemy girlfriend broke mins ago dont really know person talk problems pretty much fighting care nobody really talk want kill myselfi want kill happened back parents started showing attention siblings bad gradually disconnected started staying room day playing video games started going without come oldest younger sister started hurting eg kicking punching pinching complained parents nothing one day kicked hard possibly complained jack shit hit back hitting shouting screaming shit boys shouldnt hit girls asked hit said take man game sister idea hurt away continued horrible thing experienced couple weeks ago full bottle mine mothers body wash sink fucking mixture fucking years old laughed parents left said wasnt paying didnt yeah dont want shitty family ive assholes general annoy school time friend slammed football face purpose laughed called weird blocked theres ton shit barely write without breaking apart need advice want kill badly right tried kill sunday nightbut failed take enough medicine misjudged dosage laid floor hours nauseous sweating breathing erratically listening sounded freight train rushing ears die fuck ashamed found wild kratt brothers ive seen worst thing internet gore vids weird porns unfazed shit hits different sensitive staying home school beacuse anxiety recently severe anxiety school blue pretty much point almost feel im gon na pass context staying home school two weeks symptoms covid returned back home anxiety attack way im currently scrambling solutions im currently way ampxb teachers always mentioned something bothering always talk us thats assuming staying home played nothing worry everyone gets sometimes even explaining almost passed feeling well suggested go home got pissed portray helpful individuals yet made efforts help sensitive dumb trying handle truth im already deadi four months away ive died countless times last four years life trying fight mymental illness face constant symptoms family whoback better now kept giving meshit things literally survive mind ampxb aside new habit last year half trusted ofthe thoughts head die cant afford trust mybrain wants nothing life wants live lifeless zombie even things crumble parents grow older remain someone still scrambled together enough life skills stand feet despite putting fucking effort ampxb depression social anxiety generalized anxiety comorbid resultant porn addiction got fluoxetine axepta last august made lick difference got amisulpride parent falsely told schizofuckingphrenia needed said meds numbmehttpsnumbme four years ampxb take long oh emotions thing family teaches well see im youngest three kids trusting fact abused twice first see doctor without knowing pretext see writing later say feeling things fucking normal parents surviving anxietydepression entire lives oh easy fucking interconnected social web full high functioning anxious depressed tools tools harsh word label kindly allow use now ones reading helps live third world fucked arse society shit gets normalized real quick still end human relationships generally know fucking important shit ampxb oh ended basically autistic socially due constant isolation frombetween now trying ba economics college filled ah normals capable socializing well generalization thats false point accepted enough connected enough going college aregrowing leaving mebehind sit postrelapse occurred couple hours ago sit feeling time die ive tried fucking long noe learned far little recompense brain fucking focus ampxb theres point without connection back heres vicious cycle works fuck w porn choices gt increased depressionanxiety gt people wrong signals gt people run away gt creates resentment apathycrippling loneliness sadness self fulfilling prophecy fixed first every fucking time ampxb ive learned near enough nothing insane aspirations financial situation family earning parentssavings last long goals become masters clinical psychology psychodrama therapist plus writeractor im deadly serious ampxb writingacting help stay alive feel dothem goof actor first try studied near enough much practical experience far shot dark itsmore throwing dart dark warehouse stacked haystacks hoping magifuckingcally hit bullsye six hundred feet beyond distance well dontcarehttpstcare thats accurate ampxb tried many things done time biggest obstacle ended lack support noe theyve finally seen fucking mistakes anger self destruction set mr late seem hurt brain enough via enough consistent sleep deprivation barely focus anymore im functionally dead living based automatic circuitry life program executed biological machine project mediocre second year ba universe creations students fourth dimension man give enough shit make life interesting c grade suits im fucking fine ampxb look im dead know im nothing without people understand im dismissing individuality know whats important life meditation taught things mattered mr enough right im fucking ofthe wonderful young adults couldve honor meeting life people whose ive never life im crying ive reached point writing numb till now whats killing first time life felt connection felt relations im failing every last one themand losing fuck understand comprehend levels sheer social incompetence amount constant self fulfilling prophecies still fall prey despite therapy losing one blame ive strength left keep going ampxb attacked trying survive trying learn stand two feet given constant mixed messages never received help needed evenwhen presented answers silver platter ampxb addiction least kills drive many things ampxb haveyou know now much youno want reading sorry thank reading wonder stranger truly ive friends least lived constantly feeling dont ive tried think made connections quite bit last four years yet position even know reason ultimately decide die still feel connections know cant factually true every one ampxb people im tired problems largely invisible borne isolation sheer lack learning brain executes distraction efficiency nazis used persecuting killing jews offensive use termherehttpstermhere mean accurate racist arse funny much likea white male sound consider im fact fucking indian fair skinned lad dick brown assure stand seem though ampxb thing keeps going doom yeah glorious dumb thing playing spirit rage brutal without mercy worse rip tear done see lens neuroplasticity terms seeing symptoms fighting relentlessness doom marine bfg division loop whenever im trying productive one things works ampxb well iverambled quite bit gone tangent sideline roller coaster abyssal web let mebring end structure ampxb feel lifeless one reason ive felt ten years life childhood rife bullying adolescence mired mistakes supposed adults misinformation first half supposed adulthood filled constant attempts move upward fraught consistent failure ampxb im tired actually gave shit actually tried results enough point job survive enough social web hang withwhich really helped smart ass cynical persona prone channeling comedians even im social repressed ass society lgtbtq supportive feminist straight man society technically normal want date year olds around yet seem one three people fucking informed enough know thats bad idea case collectively slot younger siblings giant babies definitely ones competent professional mr soon enough point mean ill forget first hell find getting insecure depressed surpassing now thats fucking fun gon na repeat resentments adults around mr gave simple act daring grow improve genuinely hope im dead happens consider win least pass hurt conditioning case ampxb im possibly going repeat year college stuck even younger people next year said losing people manage go college every day attendance low disbarred soon enough ampxb know whats ahead except dying soon ill go ahead leftover assignments bfg division repeat write write write wait inevitable suicidal ideation sheer emptiness return ampxb another day lost another phase time back consequence always comes bear ampxb tell really bad tried right aint know ampxb died im dead lived ive never really lived know fuckers mean life relationships forget girlfriends ive barely friends human connection general fucking lovecraft probably social methe racist arse prick yet know enough know connections matter almost wish know source problems paradoxically make survival easier right now ampxb im dead right now listening next right thing frozen iam gon na writing night ill go college im going die let least come wake event public ally break due social anxiety depression college let least know give avoid ny final moments maybe psychology student gain insight help someone future ampxb dead know im losing already miss wish connected much doubt believe said mean hard miss innocence kindness normality gave taste ina life devoid first real chance establish something intrinsically important fucked tell tell unaware manipulative want want know im going want protect equipped enough handle repeat mistakes done ampxb stories ive want dedicate life whether writing acting playscriptscreen writing orstories human condition human becoming kind symbol ampxb im dead ampxb im physically die fade world ill make sure done ideals mind heavy handed ridiculous inthe nature world though may society change move forward ampxb put forth mindless effort cani rip tear done either dead high rise jump orsurviving guess day learned live work ampxb whatever reason read thisthank please tear around willing effort know please dont please stop take enough give better internalize messages say things ampxb please end dead kill inner better half deserve better please please please ampxb ambegging fucking please getting goddamn please please im girl please give attention bcos im girl im begging anyone wan na chat something idk dm snap ill hit im pedo prove cats pretty young usually live years got years old definitely ending life started thinking methods brainstorming go actively planning land hospital technically still passive thoughts far away alive cats pass need chesti need someone something talk ive spent last weeks vicious cycle feel okay happy neutral guess something minor goes completely wrong spiral angry lash spend next several hours contemplating life sobbing bedroom alone knowing problems worries gone dead know tricks people say help depression try reaching people talk someone really friends one acquaintance boyfriend acquaintance always says talk need try theyre obviously disinterested say fine know exactly excited someone know well tried tell darkest emotions know course boyfriend ive talked circles million times said things imagine starting wear want burden want put problems things worry shoulder issues well leave alone im angry tell im going bed stay morning wishing normal wishing came built friends wishing support much supports wishing muster courage meet friends without anxiety attack know hed happier gone hed probably feel freer least cant talk mom tells see someone know therapists psychiatrists area take insurance cant afford cover costs appointment week biweekly even month really im afraid im lazy even work make better busy job hobby want job badly want selfsufficient suffer really bad anxiety im terrified ill go job interview immediately burst tears im nervous want hire someone cant keep emotions check half hour job interview income worry constantly money feel guilty buying anything things might interested cost money boot want take candlemaking costs dollars even begin thats dollars want upgrade pc start stream thats dollars want spend much money honestly even gaming made angry lately explode know overwhelmed die explode hit bruises thighs beating died fucking overwatch ridiculous embarrassing im embarrassed wish still brought joy instead negativity used finally im college student right now watch country live circles drain devastating watch prospects might set fire front im terrified graduating never able job aforementioned anxiety issues im terrified living poverty housing prices around college keep going know life seems pointless feels future know im going kill really dont want know maybe ill stop looking ways cross road maybe itll look accident people funeral mourn thought deeply angry depressed girl im sorry long know one really wants read strangers emotions needed chest cant anymore im situation cant survivewith friends feel really alone im comfortable talk anyone feel solution end friendships end dont feel good anymore idk almost females know refer feminine pronouns mean doesnt really disturb lol political anything fuck reddit coins everyone want stilento trending twitter hate curious saw tik tok saying something silento got ta curious cant unsee important film challenges viewer encourages pay attention theres lot director seems interested taking apart tired cinematic conventions unlike lot recent american cinema film takes interest means make movie first place dvd includes lot bonus features two commentaries explain movie viewers still befuddled initial viewing film screened sundance made audience members uncomfortable angry sunday morning coffee movie friday night party movie dedicated viewer treasure trove gentle reminder find people attractive want sex finding something aesthetically pleasing always mean want put dick well great grandma died didnt know well bedridden able speak long remember feel really bad mom friday th less girlfriend said thought cheating last month ive grounded sexting morning girlfriend got argument upset said thought sus horny lately sexted said im making horny basically told hurt self esteem said sex first day saw first month priorities againmy life still bad end life day back sill want kill family still want happy one day sad every time sadnesses goes away comes back know much take everyday thought passes mind sure reached healthcare mental health professions live thousands miles away family speak talking subject matter dark seems inappropriate online glad scared stop lingering thoughts heyif anyone pm appreciated survived attempts years suck dying thing clearly next time planning slash vertical wrist elbow crookadvice help survive please want die looking helpadvice effectively commit suicide details within frustrate everyone maybe im better deadno matter hard try fit nice always end frustrating everyone lets face everyone little patience dealing im sorry im perfect im sorry im cant help fact im prone committing stuff thats problematic realise problematic hate feel maybe died wouldnt happen anymore dont feel day right dielast night caved started harming breaking internally please wrong used love living despite redflag attempts illnesses etc living still something good afflicted conditions slowly eroding capability live sanity mobility upkeep etc feel though ready end life im sure yet want another failed attempt want make sure works cant risk condition getting worse point long attempt end life realized wanted last night wave happiness washed first time long felt calm peaceful nothing noone able provide feelings first redflag attempt child please bring family etc try talk guess part spend whole life existing purely purpose people feeling better comes point consider continue put feel though right die going die want make happen sooner rather later tried treatments professionals alternatives everything find conditions continue worse want die dignity decrepit unable move ways want live knowing feelings peace happiness still exist makes wonder life know ill left unchecked know will comments appreciated feel conflicted deeply saddened right now im already feel old everyone talking simp september often guys squirrels pants new group chat teenagers made sub two group chats come join lets talk stuff link join invite people talk brand new running couple days support wonder many mods sub recognise days posting lot lmao posts probably still kinda embarrassing botter hit car years ago injured knee getting beach torn meniscus surgery meniscus repair work took year doctors acknowledge appeared mri second second last january learn got worst torn meniscus cartilage defect compensate leg knee hurting swelling stand currently waiting mri knee cant go used lot sports know gon na possible anymore beginning law school good uni september kind dream got involved student gov models stuff good job based merit uni work possibly published scientific journals still feel best days life behind cant much except staying home pt school stuff swim thinking ending life soon bad knee problems seems worst literally feel life quality gon na go downhill help holy fuck realized gangnum style around almost years ago im doneim done moms birthday party tomorrow care absolutely kill tomorrow think redflag constantly whether want subconscience really wants might well listen things end afraid longer belong guys longer teenager ager fun thank lt please stop pedophile harassing users online profile himherhttpsampredditcomuserme anyone wan na talk bit im bored sad cant sleep want diewhy cant die want kill cant dogs best thats thats entire post enjoy facts im gon na break house sleep turn light room leave everyone house loves im back gt fellow lgbtqia people extremely difficult intolerant world still live amazing life nevertheless remember loved incredible people thanks truly made life better made comfortable trans person well feel shit personback february hypomanic state cheated ive deeply regretted huaband trying work ive getting help trying meds trting stable even hypomanic state oh diagnosed bipolar right messed ive nightmares flashbacks sometimes im messed nightmares flashbacks feel physically sick bear husband touching therapist told monday im suffering trauma hypomanic affair said affecting life might want talk doctor something called prazosin drug ptsd affecting life cant sex husband hes getting real upset hurt taking personally got done flipping told take drug wanted response oh yeah go say pills make want touch husband seem want go couples therapy say hell anyone hes taking personally think anything change wish faith though cant blame feeling god feel disappearing feel shit often cant stand hurting anymore calling quits earlyim dont want live anymore failed college classes dont motivation bed anymore friends spend time alone depressed many dreams thats dreams im planning jumping siblings th floor apartment building dont want scar people living ive reluctant fallen deep pit im ready dont know im typing really need talk someone life bad love talk someone hate life much social life till back days kindergarden teacher literally begged children least try befriend exclude activities still got marginalized friends got bullied lot still cheerful person till moved parents house went uniand things started turn better guess covid happened isolation fact live literally shit country romania made even worse hurts impossibility find romantic partner tried every dating app possible went every social event restrictions lifted literally trying hard check boxes success single chancealso tried therapycounselling help one tell eventually find someone menrally exhausted try anymore feel condemned live dream nightmare stuff called life dream every aspect life point going absolutely perfect social aspect gives suicidal thoughts every daythe thing aggressive troll internet said something bad toabout sorry mean unending frustratiin speaks sometimes wish terminal disease know certainly die soon play damn game game among us seconds game started somebody presses emergency button wanted everyone know girl everyone skipped vote couple seconds killed someone front several people reported body accusing girl clearly impostor every votes telling leave alone ghost every happily crowding girl constantly calling emergencies decide sacrifice next really pisses people even play game theyre supposed someones gender play fucking game whats worse girl even took advantage win game usually play single player games deal shitheads servers one young first saw close eyes flashback starts im standing balcony summer air plz help im straight man tik tok found trans women actually turned help proud say uncut copy choice chunk s crown international drivein sexploitation comedy cheese dvd really goofy enjoyably inconsequential flick nicely breezyneasy s vibe attempt make sincere point true love friendship important life cool set wheels quick piece tail sure essentially blatant adolescent male fantasy pic main teen goofus character bobby hamilton gets girls respect friends chance showup local vanracing bully way dopey goodnatured hate stuart getz gawky protagonist makes endearingly dorky lead deborah white main object getzs affection definite cutie connie lisa marie likewise quite luscious beauteous blonde babe sneering beefcake neanderthal stephan oliver s biker movie perennial wonderfully hateful brutish dugan hicks prestardom danny devito particular absolute riot getzs cranky carwash owner boss andy lovably cantankerous neerdowell slob wears ugly loud hawaiian shirts suffers severe gambling habit especially love scene two thugs brutally beat danny one holds arms behind back guy works dannys torso sammy johns insidiously catchy fluke hit theme song bouncing around skull least week short great groovy retros fun worried girlfriend need assistancei f im worried boyfriend m long distant relationship familiar depression never really experienced im familiar respond depression suicidal thoughts past week notice drastic change boyfriends mood usually goes depression phases every couple months usually help talk think past week ive boyfriend record instances hes felt breaking crying week full emails wanting break cry try encourage make feel man know refuses hear constantly puts come point think deserve constantly tell want anyone refuses listen yesterday took turn worst yesterday morning told feeling distant fairly busy work week tried explain hard got lot arguements spend weekends together instead going try schedule activities friends something comes one left waiting around nothing lastly last night boyfriend told staying friends trust even stated duty emt never seem im scared try help want say wrong thing best friend gone existence think handle state im ive tried informing family encouraging find help im scared whats happen anyone please help really appreciate im lost distraught know help scares stories high enough kill meevery time pass huge parking garage campus feel definitely die falling instantly im top doesnt feel high enough everyone campus asleep ones stop ones fails birthday mine january th hate people racist hate racism hating people wrong opinions help anyone push corner make extreme try people racist hate nice people disagree withfundamentally cause become deviant make harder confince racist dislike people putting high emphasis using n word except parents idols instead focusing irrelevancies words focus taking action racist n word nice word id rather called ten times n beaten feel many people put great emphasis using n word step call police see black person beaten stop productive things talking people remembering appointments etc unemployed almost broke looking work causing feel cant swallow full breath find played video games day surfed reddit morning read reviews book coming almost hours meds though trying gaba anyway make even fun sister mad chronically self centered forgot back possibly getting together dinner shut ive suffering depression found ive expelled something didnt domy friends everyone knew gone flash future window well parents probably going extremely disappointed im going tonight im going drink purell take benzos finally put life disappointment sleep one last time fun ride much give upsimple question literally worst type person exist im alone best friend probably leave boyfriend started dating everything goes wrong give dont want lose another friend redflagi dont know hes hit rock bottom refuses talk cries time studying skipping classes hes always night idea help dont want lose another friend redflag dont genuinely want okay im want realise okay weak vulnerable talk let dont know came write cant tell anyone needed chest want know loved refuses listen advice handling news corona virusi really wonder worried possibility loved ones afflicted something impacting strongly job see news clear chinese government hiding way casualties letting transpire news media really depressing thing witness standing seeing unfold beyond eyes allied lack time socialize family really hitting hard allways suicidal thoughts time time seeing something lurks air breath people meet scary fear honestly fear others powerless anything standby witness plague spreads grasp everything anyone people know life hard stay safe sake sake love warm hug first thought normal feel anything hate ect became suicidal got idea tell anyone one depressed life really need therapist guess ill never reach itwell guess kind personality disorder im sick hit puberty social anxiety depression mood swings identity problems gender identity problems suicidal behaviours selfharm self sabotage eating disorder emptiness etc know help cant mean money real therapist yes free therapists fucking know go wrote email hospital said go somewhere asked reply noone talk things time want feel worse worse want die thats fucking hard find therapist know feel hopeless talking strangers online problems make feel worse im guess ill kill next week chance help love make stronger want become stronger started full body workout heard love makes people stronger true yes strong make began watching boku hero academia expected level sadness something added reminded life life nothing pain watching everybody made feel sad everybody improving themselvesachieving dreams mentors adventures feel pain much healthier mine tv screen fades black felt empty sad depression began show mean self repeat life boring real bakugous real coward repeats head chest felt heavy shit wish world lot destructions free instead house many years even allowed go faraway feel reality always thisempty sad boring filled suffering even remember feels happy something want go fight supposed feelings receive negativity quarantine making fucking worst everytime movie music ends stare around room feel nothing immense sadness emptiness sad want exciting life hard sad fact bnha normalim scared die feel though purpose life even live im somewhat depressed make apparent im divorced parents loose every one care life believe god one turn guidance dad constantly screaming getting bs instead mom care im trying die death scare ask browsers reddit normal curiosity death safe feel im drowning insidesorry make sense past months ive increasingly violent frequent suicidal thoughts hard day im honestly tired putting charade everything fine everyone find life enjoyable anymore spending time people anymore work feels pointless life feels stagnant clear sign change coming first kind dismissive killing convinced something crazy people feels go longer five minutes without fantasizing offing feels getting worse im alone feel im incapable anything right ruin close relationships people im point life family thought best friends want anything anymore sometimes think im poison fuck anything touch honestly feel giving felt owed least attempt talk someone might understand im feeling act anything feel used normal know happened dig pit cant climb thanks spending time read going something similar sincerely hope everything works weve lockdowns uk took 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turning periods life look back fondly im currently attending college find miserable degree hate father insists spent high school years either alone working helping mother grandfather dont regret helping mother regret everything mother alcoholic shes better past living complete nightmare sisters one never close another dont speak anymore went away college made clear never returning dont blame resent leaving younger brother alone deal mother everything bullied badly school never received help im surprised didnt kill back thinking wish better theres light end tunnel im going take fathers heart diabetes medication tonight hope never wake thank read im outi cant reached help many times denied berated ignored tried im trying want happy cant remember feels theres really hope future shit goes downhill going shit faster right now looking cant deal nobody go nobody cares try talk people thought supported avoid weeks time ive really impulsive unpredictable lately hate im everything never wanted im weak unable live fuck im gon na iti date set im going kill recent events proven im worth enough world cant continue living whole world fallen apart im basically alienated immediately anyone meet im gon na end th method picked yet probably gon na overdose meds mix right way actually die really looking sympathy empathy wanted post say outloud gon na reason todont really reason live everyone work hates works going awful family parents despise friends went college left behind yeah one miss right aspirations shit one enjoy im someone function need friends though place make yeah depressed going years now tried kill gon na succeed time lol yeah wrap ill probably watch netflix pass wake work home repeat process im scared growing upi turned week ago many things say im sorry sentences might make sense knew wasnt born right body elementary school im scared tell parents grandmother live hate called deadname hate called good son id rather human live seclusion go outside see people dont feel mean anything world small mean something years hate condition human nature easy push people away see ugly dont want cry anymore im biggest waste money parents relatives grandmother doesnt give fuck live die im ugly dont care hell society thinks dont want anyone lick wounds im stuck body think already cried tears already dont see mirror anymore ive always outsider even among people dont want go outside put people high pedestals realize one really loves anybody spent birthdays crying sleep scared next year bring dont know throw numb dull pain consumed im happy really live genuine selves free things shackle people dont happy endings thats okay ill live cis guy rest life treated sort fucjing essence love respect ill finally break nobody really loves one look forward dying im ready end ive tried reaching help ive tried improving life attempting go back school ive made way north carolina washington state looking job allow pay bills let set little aside rainy day past years ive talking therapists drugged attempt force accept life im tired way things always turn im tired starting hit road blocks im tired talking venting help need solution viable solution killing ive toying idea years now friday really hit hard one able help tried reaching online real solutions seems people approach problems years ago started expect anything different really ive fucked bad advancement life life everyone even way fix everything im point way saving enough retire one day anything serious happened afford fix teenagers much resources disposal cant even afford vision fixed left eye things better normal want stay life even basic things hard think im going end tonight want compete anymore im happy kill end right now least theres kind control great adaptation great miniseries right plot cutdowns might disappoint fans book really many modern readers read bleak house without seeing film version first know br br think quite appalling see reviews critical series clearly written people clue story actually see 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something never felt know masturbate lot time different raging boner saw pic instantly followed notifications started scrolling photos tab dick began bigger bigger felt gon na rip pants due aero used seeing girl bikinis hot tub leave phone table cause couldnt stop scrolling minutes later still boner point couldnt contain masturbated twitter posts busted biggest load done life day mentally changed havent missed facebook stream always boner streams masturbate nut continue watching stream dont know stop someone help got incels huh man think good make absolute shitposts generalizing women ive come across post girl want rich guy shit honestly makes seem troll seriously isnt sitcom romance movie girl always every movie incel meme take away fragile u good bye merry christler tired trying hardi much anxiety working hard normal see way fix pills make feel sick everything exhausting im even sad im depressed im tired really hope im tired make broke gf little touched girl school kept even said although told close friends happened told loser liked sometimes go sleep night still hear voices telling loser recent relationship help relationship felt therapist boyfriend dumped problems issues expected able make feel better every time made feel horrible anytime make feel better argument say wrong apologize arguments month relationship anytime ask friends break say last two weeks school parents told call anyone play games grades stay friends told break told break talking broke wants give hours day anytime ask time see upset hate right know cut multiple times pretend everything ok reality seconds away breaking want seem emotional feel friends going tell overreacting bad making scared tell parents feel see differently anyone give help love least advice love sorry long entry recently thinking killing lot im going fucked right now exam hours havent even opened textbook yet realization im gon na die redflag hardim pretty sure im gon na alive future biggest possibility dying redflag causes chances future looks dark see alive fact redflag gon na main reason hard process ive got rid ruminating thoughts want rid means please help someone pleasei cant thoughts head nearly two fucking years less three months come im still thinking relationship guess thoughts driving redflag fuck rid ruminations im desperate someone please help passed math test math worst subject usually fail passed today bitches many pass b movie indeed first class comedy wellwritten acted red skelton great wally benton better known radio fans fox ann rutherford perfect wallys fiance carol lambert conrad veidt leads well cast gang criminals read one account movie states vincente minelli directed film unless changed name s sylvan simon directed three fox movies entertaining film made imagination encouraged black white prejudice one sit back enjoy truly great comedy reds first starring role take note climax reference orson welles war worlds broadcast alright goesi year relationship months ago found cheating guys bought ring going marry took bucks plus ipad fucked thing still love even shit id still take back got laid days ago im going move back parents leave friends behind first real friends ive years top dr says might pancreatic cancer fuck sakes need someone talk called suscide hotlines put hold way long one shitty connction counld hear last one told teenagers someone fucking message fucking call im end people hate always tired especially depressed always leave apparently much people absolutely one best aviation movies times many levels hardware junkies drool largest single massing flyable spitfires outside battle britain reenactment less eight flying spits hand accurate ground air sequencesbr br marvel lore flying mistyeyed reciting high flight identify central characters reverence freedom fast free high dark blue world warned romantics even dog lovers treated emotional ride movie core message one shared many war vets finest hours period life felt alive fact war everything sad graybr br plot concerns czech pilots escape country nazis invade join raf free czech squadron subplots worth careful attention plain old excellent movie even ardent antihardware romantic love keep kleenex hand beautiful photography firstrate acting accurate details raf life battle britain easily candidate aviation enthusiasts personal dvd collection antidepressants free usim mxico antidepressants really cheap plus bought without recipe anyways ive going psychiatrist prescribed medicine anxiety theyve miraculous ive never felt good life course im going psychotherapist ive wondering expensive us cause mxico cheap know ive suffering long cure right front pretty solid price one things interested film way characters associated histories developed fly suppose writers wanted us gain interest characters force feeding characters premise using art craft furniture design construction unique theme andor analogy familiessiblings go life complexity twin serve surrogate father even husband added great tension towards making film emotionally interesting although story one masses might directly relate ie jewishtwinsfamily business themes fairly universal every family black sheep made engaging things definitely curriculum teenager course make friends first start conversation icebreakers definitely chapter things want dark chocolate indescribable taste nono cant bittersweet different tastes chocolatey failed redflag attempt feeling guilt severe depressionhey everyone yesterday took hoped lethal dose paracematol thought took hours react somehow reacted around hours intense pain liver nausea parents quickly noticed took hospital hours stuff settling im feeling really guilty severely depressed parents really overprotective really killing im fucking done insane pressure cant even explain want die want hugi dont want end hard everything keeps pushing telling solution true please stop listen depression best placeif someone bored busy something use someone talk doesnt even anything particular use distraction thanks funnythat health shitty last three weeks makes happy whatever may kill nobodys home easily right nowim done im done moms pills hand hours stared take worth anymoresince likely cant really remember much childhood ive wanted kill cant shake feeling life isnt worth effort wasted worthless investment made without consent generates pitiful returns everyone expects hyped well im job takes things love crams full much kafkaesque bullshit nearly unrecognizable adhd struggle something im personally interested meds dont last day hell even working feels tainted knowledge taken away moment without question pop enough opioids kill horse six times happened last time took iq test middle school back took meds miserable class id end running around reason knows shit results got got put gifted classes couldnt simplest logic charts didnt care basically seen class moron whats point intelligent fucking useless im taunted biology teach anything care second actually fucking need something im pencil tapping leg bouncing chair spinning thousand yard stare stuck head sack shit salt fucking wound knowing able successwhatever fuck meansbut idiotic lazy fucking ass rather study shit thats entirely irrelevant work stacks ive lived life skin teeth cant even feel last minute panic anymore fuck kinda adult even says shit dont want anymore im fucking tired oz old tv series released hbo shows life one security prison called oswald main plot focused emerald city one prison levelsbr br oz amazing plot outstanding cast many characters almost interesting basically divided groups gangs sicilians black people aryans gays latinos many others specific group deal many others ryan oreily irishbr br plot well built lot conspiracy inside lot fight power exposed form violence intelligent smart nothing happens without reason connected interesting guess really love series wan na see something intelligent well produced good cast performances must see oz nothing funnier seeing people argue things know nothing live society bottom text hey big fan poetry particularly around depression existentialism cool anyone wrote commented depression poems please got attacked im much pain turkey gerard attacked feeding chickens wanted seven different states new name gerard christmas dinner pack shit somoene edit picture penguin condom head astronaut helmet uitcouldjustbeve started talking got ta c edit apprieciate someone saddest moment ive seen tv show spoilers prevent spoiling say episode timestamp boys butcher screams help us plz spoil comments cool morbid curiosityi see many people angry parents redflags understandably see many parents believe better leave children suffer mother fatherless takethe kids screwed logic way makes sense parent completed redflag young thought least selfish take know doi woke morning feeling suicidal im way school know gon na worse moms leaving two days sleep study days im tempted something ive waited years watch film simply never saw advertised tv eventually caught well worth wait much better overhyped scream last summer garbage fairly quick pace drawn creeping house cheesy music scenes bad dubbing lets little let put way lies beneath hyped crap mute witness low budget hyped good know exactly product new immortal toad buddy salt water edition fuck tf mercs class bang tbh id shag sniper hes handsome bastard us early s thought end upim reading thread notice youngish even arent thought ive enough fight smallest things politics one end day human bleed red breathe oxygen live earth constantly hate people stupid pretty hard reason mean people share opinion belief exact divide bring eachother together care color skin believe gender political ideology long treat fellow human understand hard kind certain people itd lot easier walked away instead making worse able hate anything everything want cant tell people hate something hate dont thats really uncool trans rightsblack rightslgbt rights womens rights exist last time checked humans human rights everyone unless things changed longer humans know im going hate care ive many nights ive cried sleep thought killing fucking divided im wrong side apparently fault certain things happen go ahead hate im stating opinion come together instead dividing goes againthe past week tough depression kicking lifelong issue tend coast okay fall started tell people im struggling keeping casualnoninvasive trouble sleeping feeling fragile rather low selfdestructive actually feel tomorrow appt support worker see occasionally hope talking help change appointments occasional frequent help learned past warning signs look almost every time hits bad start clinging selfhate seeing hope despite knowing ive done got start feel every suicidal moment leading current moment chance fulfill im desperate achieve know til tomorrow start reaching getting help still worried feel strongly feel despise feel need run escape cant escape recently trying sleep battle hours die live hard deal thoughts feelings anyone relate anything stop thinking im going try take prn medication listen podcasts hope sleep eventually energy talk write everything im feeling people around making feel worse worse genuinely scaryi legitimately know moment one funniest movies seen know real world people shows movie top notch never seen real world still think extremely funny movie inside jokes actors tv show ive thinking someone probably forgotten exist three yearsi ldr someone loved much point fiction make people good couple years together left idea asked told know obsessive able much head long without thinking reasons blaming feeling hurt reason possible leave fucking long time point decided never see probably stopped thinking now ive gotten much pathetic incapable attempts happiness work even know post hate redditor words say say ive lost hope futurei think im going live much longer ill never accomplish anything plans future im okay living forever poverty anything theres way help one wants help nothing anything confused tiredi feel havent felt anything months things arent even bad life right now dont know still want die feel experience emotions day tell thats im supposed feels mask havent cried forever used type person always crying dont even know describe current state cant end never want inflict kind pain boyfriend parents know blame wish die freak accident instead thoughts hanging head everyday written oliver stone directed brian de palma scarface paints picture easily forgotten al pacino turns stunning performance tony montana cuban refugee becomes powerful player drug world ruthlessly runs self made kingdom crime florida gangster flick harsh violent loud gross unpleasant must hold record uttering word fk number times almost three hours long yes repulsive stout hearted constitution keeps seat cheering demise ruthless crime lordbr br playing interesting characters michelle pfeiffer steven bauer robert loggia mary elizabeth mastrantonio f murray abraham angel salazar pacino proves one greatest generation manages bring reality character leaves strong impression movie everyone leave thinking walked away disaster powerful enough crime pay long need ask following mom told music lysin gay dumb may sound men gay songs made toto bill wrsz done research come revolutionary breakthrough make anime body pillows sides waifu allow people use time allowing people spend much money body pillows buy im sure exist make maximise body pillow usage rest case tldr make anime body pillows double sided maximum efficiency dream thats thats whole post go watching show ive loved love show plain funny enjoy show lot shows something new funnier everyday favorite part benny always last comments george every punchline fat giant headlaughs laugh id watch friends home itd watching funny movie short love george lopez funny talentedfunnyspectacular coolfunnyfamily comedy series enjoyable everyone definitely enjoy iti watched yet suggest start watching want stop watching even though anymore brand new episodes still enjoy reruns still funny never wears br br lies tell lies tell hate revealing voices head gt filler filler filler filler filler fillerlt depressed suicidal man victim addictions genetically predisposed toi going end life read quote joseph stalin found edgy years backnow makes much sense kill problems go awayi live whole life middle class wage employeei face eye problems skin cancer teeth decayi feel depressed stupid timedeath solve end problems deathit escape throughout history many intellectuals philosophers artists even dictators described death wayfor people coward ways outfor way quote man problem makes much sense now lost friend redflag worry going lose everyonei lost friend unexpectedly last year know sad gone someone life upset now want leave alone scared say goodbye friends hanging start feeling im never going see someone answer text email hours start grieving one year paralyzing ive cried many deaths never happened stop freakishly obsessive people life know might sound bad want care much im tired grieving people died play game phone girl game pin hoodie grind lot damn worth point scared cant focus driving crash space going mph past ive major panic attacks whole body pins needles cant breathe well triggered major emotional events used really bad nightmares dying afterlife kid mom rub chest til fell asleep never thought redflag didnt want diagnose know people actually wouldnt want compare redflag roses red grass green life shitpost meme stunningly wellmade film exceptional acting directing writing photographybr br newlywed finds married life expected starts question duty versus duty society together sister inlaw makes radical departures conventional roles mores tomorrowim killing tomorrow guys understand thank sweet dreams eurythmics sounds intro song james bond movie agrees makes sound james bond song face film women wanting see football match appeal much somebody little interest football football discrimination womens enthusiasm sport lovebr br film opens day crucial world cup qualifying match iran bahrain girl trying tehrans azadi stadium dressing boy looks soldier tries search caught taken small enclosure high outside stadium handful women already caught guarded small group conscript soldiers whos leader rather back home tending livestock never learn characters names know people girls plead guards let watch though nearby gap wall refused try least provide commentarybr br well making important point rigid gender segregation much present day iran film contains many hilarious moments disguise one girls made wear going toilet girl disguised soldier caught chose watch match seat reserved senior officer girls enthusiasm game end viewer likely edge seat hoping iran win thus go finals germany soldiers shown fundamentalists conscripts explaining girls woman cant watch mens sports seem convinced argumentsbr br shame film cant seen iran good wider world see thus see ordinary iranians bunch fanatics desperate wage war west normal people passions concerns people everywhere cast great job making characters seem real people rather mere caricatures know people always want deeper meaning movies consider worthlessbr br entertained something morgan freeman excels gets chance show bit paz vega costar gets career boost brad silberling gets name draw people watching moviebr br thought good movie humor pathos bittersweetness nothing top got especial kick jim parsons receptionist construction company looks freeman adoringly says make want woman hes hilarious fight scene ms vega exhusband girlfriend wonderful toobr br short cute charming film make smile much much worse struggling long never able venti loathe hopelessly unhappy want die cruel joke tell anyone low ostracized berated guilt tripped selfish met empathy world keeps selfishly saying dont want die piece shit coward miraculously wonders depressed people reach ive talked friends stop depressed dude ive talked therapists years take lots drugs admit super depressed ruin life flag dangerous person theres one talk talking literally makes worse seems reason besides fear going hell killed know mom die grief mom managed diagnosed cancer bit tick lyme disease bit brown recluse spider one day considering recovering breaking legs arm feet accident still cant recover partner years telling go kill think hold much longer cant help see life sick comedy terrible laugh world laughs cry cry alone guess wanted rant talk sorry bother annoy anyone mom funny comedian thinks good looking guy funny im officially one turned minutes ago yeah much say except happy birthday think cart fent xanax pandemic new wave controlled substance crisis mean seriously many honestly say go restrooms arent least zombies cross faded hitting blinkers stall mean insanity know weird question ask subreddit curious feeling feeling wanting end things lately though gone wanting another world dimension go love go hate everything society today virus pandemic defunding police movement inflation masking etc done anyone suicidal want things already pretty bad somehow took turn worse feel entirely isolated even though family around friends talk every awhile know isolation driven rabbit hole happening regardless around control mood capacity hour two break crushing despair chaos head ill try actively stay wildly overly positive state least positive almost trying stay makes return chaotic world created head know started living life inside head instead participating life front scared ill never able make stop getting point able take anymore sorry makes sense sorry burdening yet another social platform disaster gets worse gets worse way stop thinking anything hurting feel relapsing thank flash player cant post rmemes anywhere wont really opportunity play good old flash games dont computer rn wanted say thank flash player making computer clases elementary school fun serious question guys male okay happens past pm done thing falling asleep hardest one feels im done ill finish im legit fighting stay awake minutes later im fine one understandslast week best friend person understands ongoing struggle depression self harm told wishes never met life much better put feel alone worthless dont think want live anymore even though im surrounded family friends know care dont feel comfortable confiding anyone confided dont understand tell dont need happy dont want anymore please help fiance left completely fault cant stop blaming dark thoughts backcurrent issuestate mind blame keep kind deserve die thoughts know illness speaking least hope first time ive thoughts attempted things past gone psychwards twice quite years back though medication medication works knocked harder thought want strong therapy next wednesday im scared want happy want forgive know stable actually want die think deserve different relationships engagements now age feel point even exes minus recent one abusive unhealthy crosspost offmychest post describing happened know feel lost hopeless explanation got recently happy tried bit explanation angered fine literally hours ago told loved even asked anything bothering happy said absolutely nothing wrong happy going start saving place live year everything honestly first healthy relationship ive many people past abuse first woman love way someone loved give love gave equally agreed almost everything important friends years know handle things recently months ago put medication helps depression well made plummet back dark places want anything back wanted give back everything got even ring still says wants friends ready wish understood knew went wrong started unhappy realized done everything fix work least talk things end mutually knows incredibly honest relationship secrets whatsoever agreed wed always tell anything wrong soon im back beginning trying pick pieces figure life even know begin even know trust anyone anymore let anyone life even general came today drop everything ring jewlery bought still woudlnt tell truth confronted directly claimed want hurt feelings already right thinking end something told already getting job incredibly important felt something tell first place told part often badly reacted mother abusing told detail happened every time happened say wants friends someday go contact whatsoever tried ask least keep ring memories sake refused least take back favorite stuffed animal bought early relationship everything gave back recently unfriended facebook unfollowed instagram twitter everywhere feels surreal blame completely good making thoughts go bad places im going best let thoughts win spend time people im alone jobs already lined interviews next week class applied told change thought mind hope one day friends end crosspost ass got dumped egirl yeah title means ass got dumped months big f elisebeth comstock best videogame ally fight useful asfk unlike allies never gets way great lines likeable asfk human penis bone wrong call erection boner cos bone roses red number one angri boi hours ive spent longest time drawing females paper im learning draw online cant draw males body frustrating dudes gundam wing happens good anime bit slow moving especially around middle series enjoyable anyone jumps case calls winger admit watched original gundam gundam th ms team gundam seedbr br admit problems story telling characters may seem ripoffs ie zechs marquise original gundams char alternate universe show based original series seedbr br wish view series make sure watch original gundam first know watching au series karen someone wearing mask within miles excuse sir know actively harassing im trying really cant fix myselffor past months ive noticed alarming increase depressed thoughts noticed beat even harshly usual whenever crossed street fantasize getting hit car getting shot robbing gone bad work started hitting gym focusing grades work within past months ive lost nearly lbs maintained average even got promotion work mood continued decline day spent thinking goddamn useless cant kick consistent funk cant talk family ive managed slowly distance friends im basically alone ive patient honestly cant keep faking way day day phone number address full legal name d scan door key list fears weaknesses please bored filler filler filler filler filler filler filler story time dream woke house sleeping shreks lap angry reason told going onand told shut spanked ass told okay shut proceeded spank ass telling didnt tell shut didnt answer question didnt want spanked proceeds ask didnt answer told ordered shut told didnt tell shut followed intense ass spanking kept repeating couldnt wake started crying felt days woke pogger epic redditor moment weird sexual fantasy im sex girls nazi uniform calling things dirty jew whatever im licking feet done cant anything bring life normali failed friend student son want die got friends real llife talk parents neither got aim something life tried erase thoughts thinking old memories school life never good one video games helped fill emptiness got bored foolish things done life gives regret really coward pos reason live gives award porbably rich kid guy spends summer job cash reddit dunno tbh one shuld tell tho hopefully adviceso ive issues best friend past weeks guy anxiety anger issues cant take start breaking school crying getting mad friends dont know help kid always best friend close dont know move need things go back way hangs everyone friend awkward always giving bad looks anyone help great cant let things go ocd hard ive cut wrist everyday past week healthy according everyone say attention nobody understands want end spaming grant morrison tell children theyre trapped rats doomed bankrupt gangsterhaunted planet dwindling resources nothing look forward rising sea levels imminent mass extinctions raise disapproving eyebrow response dress black cut razors starve gorge kill one another dont know doive spent last days wondering check psych ward say fuck pain losing love life best friend much wasnt son ended now hes rain living getting morning point dont know long go cant relax cant sleep feel much guilt shame feel guilt shame feeling way ive considered going back heroine id feel better maybe lucky die overdose needing actually dont want arrested going withdrawals dont want anything want go sleep wake cant even sleep pass talking enough sedatives keeps taking im afraid soon stop working escape thats make decision neighbor higher fence thing separating death small chain link fence need higher dogs may deranged smart recently learned stack stop one another really need protection day reminding people wear mask stay safe x people hate anti mask comment ok everyones week set date august th really feel anything anymore tired want lonely anymore much tell counselorredflag basically always mind years something ive thought long remember really taken seriously ive never gone far making attempt go cycles basically ok hating everyone everything world wanting alive barely able stand around humans hate idea counseling ive decided try job right offers free sessions requires around people hours day feel really bad people mess mean cry really embarrassing extends wanting die phase need know much ok tell counselor admit suicidal thoughts fantasies concerned might initiate kind intervention life safe say specific plans family finding worst fear recommend history research topic high school student history research topic must start extent year long project must able argued must sufficient information decently sized paper live livemeh suicidal long time now always put thought stuff improve future realized worth effort sure life improve put effort far away tired willpower resolve make effort thing scares death die life improved kinda mist indeed cry help someone save someone guide towards peaceful quick dignified death important bit thinking using numbing spray sharp knife carotid artery good plan pm suggestions make painless quick thing note probably say please fucking bring back irreversibly brain damaged cost family lotta money keep alive stupid hope recover day kinda sure rest scared scared got ta done guess must suffer idea doi kinda realized recently im going die alone social circle small ive never really comfortable apps tinder abysmal social skills ill explain bit ive thinking last days maybe born life threatening medial condition left going hospital checkups around first twelve years life meant partake lot sports social activities told whole life different everyone diagnosed another life threatening condition fourteen effect seventeen meaning missed formative years told end eighteen clear forced adapt social norms absolutely understand college sexually assaulted groomed someone considered close friend three years left without facing consequences grooming turned someone hate becoming although ive worked hard change better always look back hate every night nightmares groped raped either predator closest friends random people mixed sleep paralysis means cant fight wait wake left fear people general outside feel vulnerable found may autism highfuntioning presents even challenges fitting know autism worst thing happen person far everything makes socialising nightmare even closest family members even ive known years still cant talk first tried kill around ten thought killing kitchen knife stood kitchen contemplating never anything second time drank third bottle whiskey planned grab meds kitchen never made ended calling ambulance im currently still college classes late im home time quit last job chest pains due anxiety everpresent fear leave college ill lost even less structure ive tried help saw therapist long time go gym three times week come home idea feel empty feel ive alive always felt camera watching others lives know want live way think life change honestly know today doctor increased medication prescribed clonazepam optimistic time feel crap able better mean wish better obvious feel let take medicine difficult feel everything falt mixed feelings contagious redflagtwo weeks ago little cousin brought gun school shot killed high school auditorium history self harm boyfriend recently dumped guess set edge happened florida recently surfaced two parkland survivors killed recently ive always thought redflag back head always prideful help im afraid getting locked away psych asylum tranquilized mood elevators life sucks everyones day im understanding real world works away literally anything enough money innocent people suffering hands wealthy every single day nothing done doubt society see change lifetime im slowly giving whats point suffering gon na better envy late cousin parkland survivors futurein early convicted domestic battery misdemeanor state august quit job relocated girl promptly work moved back home unable find work every single job posting area requires full time hours passing background check years experience degree absolutely none cant pass background check mid twenties stuck rut living parents job apply denies fail background check jobs even far thanks go fuck yopurself email week later fucking desperate job chance anything opportunities broke license car savings education beyond ged currently enrolled college associates degree take years complete need take calculus degree cant even past prealgebra purpose continued existence cant even fucking past hurdle year olds lives together mine none mny friends bother anymore lives together theyve moved even married kids still exact life situation years ago eric valette obviously talented filmmaker two guys wrote script malfique great flick made bucks tons imagination well im bit exaggerating nevertheless im sincere dark gory movies go see one really worth anyone australia availablei cant deal atm either stick minorities inboxed hate reason dont walk front trainer dont want hurt driver mentally things mom go go gamble money works ass everyday gives money pay bills constantly goes gambling friend yes know mom wrong siblings cant say anything mother argue things constantly every single day ok perfect movie means disagree overall imdb opinion really really bad watched lot hong kong flix s loved era dearly never saw black mask time saw last week first time apart embarrassingly poor dubbing dvd copy give option turn movie contains raw energy bravado permeated hong kong movies time still stick guns opinion comes action guys matter budget add element magic screen bourne supremacy casino royale mission impossible im knocking movies reckon lack spontaneity one feel regulated achieve feeling filmmakers experimenting shot edited afraid leave blemishes learn lessons next time makes watching movies fun dangerous skirts thigh highs gtgtgtgtgtgt thats fight paedo netflix film changed pedophile movie description try make conservatives look bad imply liberals pedophiles woooooo imma downpointed heck ex committed redflagso wont short post serious comments ex died three months ago well two weeks away four relationship complex best others names tattooed insanely close probably person ive fully let life miss im alone grieving im ex people tell worst things example wasnt fault glad happened someone imagine dealt better think things add anger hurt ex addict alas though im sober trouble bit sometimes good person someone loved quite dearly think people feel justified saying things past led redflag im say absolutely doesnt justify say think towards know played role hadnt broken really truly seven months seven months relapsed got girl let walk beat addicts go living life hell understand dont quest